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diff --git a/27924.txt b/27924.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..e3254b6 --- /dev/null +++ b/27924.txt @@ -0,0 +1,5762 @@ +The Project Gutenberg eBook of Mugby Junction, by Charles Dickens, et al, +Illustrated by Jules A. Goodman + + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + + + + +Title: Mugby Junction + + +Author: Charles Dickens + + + +Release Date: January 28, 2009 [eBook #27924] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-646-US (US-ASCII) + + +***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK MUGBY JUNCTION*** + + +This ebook was transcribed by Les Bowler. + + CHRISTMAS STORIES + FROM "HOUSEHOLD + WORDS" AND "ALL + THE YEAR ROUND" + EDITED BY + CHARLES DICKENS + + + + + + Mugby Junction + + + [Picture: Frontispiece] + + [Picture: Title page] + + RICHARD CLAY & SONS, LIMITED, + LONDON & BUNGAY. + + MUGBY JUNCTION: BY + CHARLES DICKENS, ANDREW + HALLIDAY, CHARLES COLLINS, + HESBA STRETTON, AND AMELIA + B. EDWARDS: BEING THE EXTRA + CHRISTMAS NUMBER OF "ALL + THE YEAR ROUND," 1866. WITH + A FRONTISPIECE BY A. JULES + GOODMAN. LONDON: CHAPMAN + AND HALL, LTD. 1898. + + INDEX TO + MUGBY JUNCTION + + PAGE +BARBOX BROTHERS. BY CHARLES DICKENS 1 +BARBOX BROTHERS & CO. BY CHARLES DICKENS 43 +MAIN LINE: THE BOY AT MUGBY. BY CHARLES DICKENS 72 +No. 1 BRANCH LINE: THE SIGNALMAN. BY CHARLES DICKENS 89 +No. 2 BRANCH LINE: THE ENGINE BY ANDREW HALLIDAY 111 + DRIVER. +No. 3 BRANCH LINE: THE BY CHARLES COLLINS 125 + COMPENSATION HOUSE. +No. 4 BRANCH LINE: THE TRAVELLING BY HESBA STRETTON 154 + POST-OFFICE. +No. 5 BRANCH LINE: THE ENGINEER. BY AMELIA B. EDWARDS 187 + + + +BARBOX BROTHERS + + +I + + +"Guard! What place is this?" + +"Mugby Junction, sir." + +"A windy place!" + +"Yes, it mostly is, sir." + +"And looks comfortless indeed!" + +"Yes, it generally does, sir." + +"Is it a rainy night still?" + +"Pours, sir." + +"Open the door. I'll get out." + +"You'll have, sir," said the guard, glistening with drops of wet, and +looking at the tearful face of his watch by the light of his lantern as +the traveller descended, "three minutes here." + +"More, I think.--For I am not going on." + +"Thought you had a through ticket, sir?" + +"So I have, but I shall sacrifice the rest of it. I want my luggage." + +"Please to come to the van and point it out, sir. Be good enough to look +very sharp, sir. Not a moment to spare." + +The guard hurried to the luggage van, and the traveller hurried after +him. The guard got into it, and the traveller looked into it. + +"Those two large black portmanteaus in the corner where your light +shines. Those are mine." + +"Name upon 'em, sir?" + +"Barbox Brothers." + +"Stand clear, sir, if you please. One. Two. Right!" + +Lamp waved. Signal lights ahead already changing. Shriek from engine. +Train gone. + +"Mugby Junction!" said the traveller, pulling up the woollen muffler +round his throat with both hands. "At past three o'clock of a +tempestuous morning! So!" + +He spoke to himself. There was no one else to speak to. Perhaps, though +there had been any one else to speak to, he would have preferred to speak +to himself. Speaking to himself, he spoke to a man within five years of +fifty either way, who had turned grey too soon, like a neglected fire; a +man of pondering habit, brooding carriage of the head, and suppressed +internal voice; a man with many indications on him of having been much +alone. + +He stood unnoticed on the dreary platform, except by the rain and by the +wind. Those two vigilant assailants made a rush at him. "Very well," +said he, yielding. "It signifies nothing to me, to what quarter I turn +my face." + +Thus, at Mugby Junction, at past three o'clock of a tempestuous morning, +the traveller went where the weather drove him. + +Not but what he could make a stand when he was so minded, for, coming to +the end of the roofed shelter (it is of considerable extent at Mugby +Junction) and looking out upon the dark night, with a yet darker +spirit-wing of storm beating its wild way through it, he faced about, and +held his own as ruggedly in the difficult direction, as he had held it in +the easier one. Thus, with a steady step, the traveller went up and +down, up and down, up and down, seeking nothing, and finding it. + +A place replete with shadowy shapes, this Mugby Junction in the black +hours of the four-and-twenty. Mysterious goods trains, covered with +palls and gliding on like vast weird funerals, conveying themselves +guiltily away from the presence of the few lighted lamps, as if their +freight had come to a secret and unlawful end. Half miles of coal +pursuing in a Detective manner, following when they lead, stopping when +they stop, backing when they back. Red hot embers showering out upon the +ground, down this dark avenue, and down the other, as if torturing fires +were being raked clear; concurrently, shrieks and groans and grinds +invading the ear, as if the tortured were at the height of their +suffering. Iron-barred cages full of cattle jangling by midway, the +drooping beasts with horns entangled, eyes frozen with terror, and mouths +too: at least they have long icicles (or what seem so) hanging from their +lips. Unknown languages in the air, conspiring in red, green, and white +characters. An earthquake accompanied with thunder and lightning, going +up express to London. + +Now, all quiet, all rusty, wind and rain in possession, lamps +extinguished, Mugby Junction dead and indistinct, with its robe drawn +over its head, like Caesar. Now, too, as the belated traveller plodded +up and down, a shadowy train went by him in the gloom which was no other +than the train of a life. From whatsoever intangible deep cutting or +dark tunnel it emerged, here it came, unsummoned and unannounced, +stealing upon him and passing away into obscurity. Here, mournfully went +by, a child who had never had a childhood or known a parent, inseparable +from a youth with a bitter sense of his namelessness, coupled to a man +the enforced business of whose best years had been distasteful and +oppressive, linked to an ungrateful friend, dragging after him a woman +once beloved. Attendant, with many a clank and wrench, were lumbering +cares, dark meditations, huge dim disappointments, monotonous years, a +long jarring line of the discords of a solitary and unhappy existence. + +"--Yours, sir?" + +The traveller recalled his eyes from the waste into which they had been +staring, and fell back a step or so under the abruptness, and perhaps the +chance appropriateness, of the question. + +"O! My thoughts were not here for the moment. Yes. Yes. Those two +portmanteaus are mine. Are you a Porter?" + +"On Porter's wages, sir. But I am Lamps." + +The traveller looked a little confused. + +"Who did you say you are?" + +"Lamps, sir," showing an oily cloth in his hand, as further explanation. + +"Surely, surely. Is there any hotel or tavern here?" + +"Not exactly here, sir. There is a Refreshment Room here, but--" Lamps, +with a mighty serious look, gave his head a warning roll that plainly +added--"but it's a blessed circumstance for you that it's not open." + +"You couldn't recommend it, I see, if it was available?" + +"Ask your pardon, sir. If it was--?" + +"Open?" + +"It ain't my place, as a paid servant of the company to give my opinion +on any of the company's toepics," he pronounced it more like toothpicks, +"beyond lamp-ile and cottons," returned Lamps, in a confidential tone; +"but speaking as a man, I wouldn't recommend my father (if he was to come +to life again) to go and try how he'd be treated at the Refreshment Room. +Not speaking as a man, no, I would _not_." + +The traveller nodded conviction. "I suppose I can put up in the town? +There is a town here?" For the traveller (though a stay-at-home compared +with most travellers) had been, like many others, carried on the steam +winds and the iron tides through that Junction before, without having +ever, as one might say, gone ashore there. + +"O yes, there's a town, sir. Anyways there's town enough to put up in. +But," following the glance of the other at his luggage, "this is a very +dead time of the night with us, sir. The deadest time. I might a'most +call it our deadest and buriedest time." + +"No porters about?" + +"Well, sir, you see," returned Lamps, confidential again, "they in +general goes off with the gas. That's how it is. And they seem to have +overlooked you, through your walking to the furder end of the platform. +But in about twelve minutes or so, she may be up." + +"Who may be up?" + +"The three forty-two, sir. She goes off in a sidin' till the Up X +passes, and then she," here an air of hopeful vagueness pervaded Lamps, +"doos all as lays in her power." + +"I doubt if I comprehend the arrangement." + +"I doubt if anybody do, sir. She's a Parliamentary, sir. And, you see, +a Parliamentary, or a Skirmishun--" + +"Do you mean an Excursion?" + +"That's it, sir.--A Parliamentary, or a Skirmishun, she mostly _doos_ go +off into a sidin'. But when she _can_ get a chance, she's whistled out +of it, and she's whistled up into doin' all as," Lamps again wore the air +of a highly sanguine man who hoped for the best, "all as lays in her +power." + +He then explained that porters on duty being required to be in attendance +on the Parliamentary matron in question, would doubtless turn up with the +gas. In the meantime, if the gentleman would not very much object to the +smell of lamp-oil, and would accept the warmth of his little room.--The +gentleman being by this time very cold, instantly closed with the +proposal. + +A greasy little cabin it was, suggestive to the sense of smell, of a +cabin in a Whaler. But there was a bright fire burning in its rusty +grate, and on the floor there stood a wooden stand of newly trimmed and +lighted lamps, ready for carriage service. They made a bright show, and +their light, and the warmth, accounted for the popularity of the room, as +borne witness to by many impressions of velveteen trousers on a form by +the fire, and many rounded smears and smudges of stooping velveteen +shoulders on the adjacent wall. Various untidy shelves accommodated a +quantity of lamps and oil-cans, and also a fragrant collection of what +looked like the pocket-handkerchiefs of the whole lamp family. + +As Barbox Brothers (so to call the traveller on the warranty of his +luggage) took his seat upon the form, and warmed his now ungloved hands +at the fire, he glanced aside at a little deal desk, much blotched with +ink, which his elbow touched. Upon it, were some scraps of coarse paper, +and a superannuated steel pen in very reduced and gritty circumstances. + +From glancing at the scraps of paper, he turned involuntarily to his +host, and said, with some roughness-- + +"Why, you are never a poet, man!" + +Lamps had certainly not the conventional appearance of one, as he stood +modestly rubbing his squab nose with a handkerchief so exceedingly oily, +that he might have been in the act of mistaking himself for one of his +charges. He was a spare man of about the Barbox Brothers' time of life, +with his features whimsically drawn upward as if they were attracted by +the roots of his hair. He had a peculiarly shining transparent +complexion, probably occasioned by constant oleaginous application; and +his attractive hair, being cut short, and being grizzled, and standing +straight up on end as if it in its turn were attracted by some invisible +magnet above it, the top of his head was not very unlike a lamp-wick. + +"But to be sure it's no business of mine," said Barbox Brothers. "That +was an impertinent observation on my part. Be what you like." + +"Some people, sir," remarked Lamps, in a tone of apology, "are sometimes +what they don't like." + +"Nobody knows that better than I do," sighed the other. "I have been +what I don't like, all my life." + +"When I first took, sir," resumed Lamps, "to composing little +Comic-Songs-like--" + +Barbox Brothers eyed him with great disfavour. + +"--To composing little Comic-Songs-like--and what was more hard--to +singing 'em afterwards," said Lamps, "it went against the grain at that +time, it did indeed." + +Something that was not all oil here shining in Lamps's eye, Barbox +Brothers withdrew his own a little disconcerted, looked at the fire, and +put a foot on the top bar. "Why did you do it, then?" he asked, after a +short pause; abruptly enough but in a softer tone. "If you didn't want +to do it, why did you do it? Where did you sing them? Public-house?" + +To which Mr. Lamps returned the curious reply: "Bedside." + +At this moment, while the traveller looked at him for elucidation, Mugby +Junction started suddenly, trembled violently, and opened its gas eyes. +"She's got up!" Lamps announced, excited. "What lays in her power is +sometimes more, and sometimes less; but it's laid in her power to get up +to-night, by George!" + +The legend "Barbox Brothers" in large white letters on two black +surfaces, was very soon afterwards trundling on a truck through a silent +street, and, when the owner of the legend had shivered on the pavement +half an hour, what time the porter's knocks at the Inn Door knocked up +the whole town first, and the Inn last, he groped his way into the close +air of a shut-up house, and so groped between the sheets of a shut-up bed +that seemed to have been expressly refrigerated for him when last made. + + + +II + + +"You remember me, Young Jackson?" + +"What do I remember if not you? You are my first remembrance. It was +you who told me that was my name. It was you who told me that on every +twentieth of December my life had a penitential anniversary in it called +a birthday. I suppose the last communication was truer than the first!" + +"What am I like, Young Jackson?" + +"You are like a blight all through the year, to me. You hard-lined, +thin-lipped, repressive, changeless woman with a wax mask on. You are +like the Devil to me; most of all when you teach me religious things, for +you make me abhor them." + +"You remember me, Mr. Young Jackson?" In another voice from another +quarter. + +"Most gratefully, sir. You were the ray of hope and prospering ambition +in my life. When I attended your course, I believed that I should come +to be a great healer, and I felt almost happy--even though I was still +the one boarder in the house with that horrible mask, and ate and drank +in silence and constraint with the mask before me, every day. As I had +done every, every, every day, through my school-time and from my earliest +recollection." + +"What am I like, Mr. Young Jackson?" + +"You are like a Superior Being to me. You are like Nature beginning to +reveal herself to me. I hear you again, as one of the hushed crowd of +young men kindling under the power of your presence and knowledge, and +you bring into my eyes the only exultant tears that ever stood in them." + +"You remember Me, Mr. Young Jackson?" In a grating voice from quite +another quarter. + +"Too well. You made your ghostly appearance in my life one day, and +announced that its course was to be suddenly and wholly changed. You +showed me which was my wearisome seat in the Galley of Barbox Brothers. +(When _they_ were, if they ever were, is unknown to me; there was nothing +of them but the name when I bent to the oar.) You told me what I was to +do, and what to be paid; you told me afterwards, at intervals of years, +when I was to sign for the Firm, when I became a partner, when I became +the Firm. I know no more of it, or of myself." + +"What am I like, Mr. Young Jackson?" + +"You are like my father, I sometimes think. You are hard enough and cold +enough so to have brought up an unacknowledged son. I see your scanty +figure, your close brown suit, and your tight brown wig; but you, too, +wear a wax mask to your death. You never by a chance remove it--it never +by a chance falls off--and I know no more of you." + +Throughout this dialogue, the traveller spoke to himself at his window in +the morning, as he had spoken to himself at the Junction over-night. And +as he had then looked in the darkness, a man who had turned grey too +soon, like a neglected fire: so he now looked in the sunlight, an ashier +grey, like a fire which the brightness of the sun put out. + +The firm of Barbox Brothers had been some offshoot or irregular branch of +the Public Notary and bill-broking tree. It had gained for itself a +griping reputation before the days of Young Jackson, and the reputation +had stuck to it and to him. As he had imperceptibly come into possession +of the dim den up in the corner of a court off Lombard-street, on whose +grimy windows the inscription Barbox Brothers had for many long years +daily interposed itself between him and the sky, so he had insensibly +found himself a personage held in chronic distrust, whom it was essential +to screw tight to every transaction in which he engaged, whose word was +never to be taken without his attested bond, whom all dealers with openly +set up guards and wards against. This character had come upon him +through no act of his own. It was as if the original Barbox had +stretched himself down upon the office-floor, and had thither caused to +be conveyed Young Jackson in his sleep, and had there effected a +metempsychosis and exchange of persons with him. The discovery--aided in +its turn by the deceit of the only woman he had ever loved, and the +deceit of the only friend he had ever made: who eloped from him to be +married together--the discovery, so followed up, completed what his +earliest rearing had begun. He shrank, abashed, within the form of +Barbox, and lifted up his head and heart no more. + +But he did at last effect one great release in his condition. He broke +the oar he had plied so long, and he scuttled and sank the galley. He +prevented the gradual retirement of an old conventional business from +him, by taking the initiative and retiring from it. With enough to live +on (though after all with not too much), he obliterated the firm of +Barbox Brothers from the pages of the Post-office Directory and the face +of the earth, leaving nothing of it but its name on two portmanteaus. + +"For one must have some name in going about, for people to pick up," he +explained to Mugby High-street, through the Inn-window, "and that name at +least was real once. Whereas, Young Jackson!--Not to mention its being a +sadly satirical misnomer for Old Jackson." + +He took up his hat and walked out, just in time to see, passing along on +the opposite side of the way, a velveteen man, carrying his day's dinner +in a small bundle that might have been larger without suspicion of +gluttony, and pelting away towards the Junction at a great pace. + +"There's Lamps!" said Barbox Brother. "And by-the-by--" + +Ridiculous, surely, that a man so serious, so self-contained, and not yet +three days emancipated from a routine of drudgery, should stand rubbing +his chin in the street, in a brown study about Comic Songs. + +"Bedside?" said Barbox Brothers, testily. "Sings them at the bedside? +Why at the bedside, unless he goes to bed drunk? Does, I shouldn't +wonder. But it's no business of mine. Let me see. Mugby Junction, +Mugby Junction. Where shall I go next? As it came into my head last +night when I woke from an uneasy sleep in the carriage and found myself +here, I can go anywhere from here. Where shall I go? I'll go and look +at the Junction by daylight. There's no hurry, and I may like the look +of one Line better than another." + +But there were so many Lines. Gazing down upon them from a bridge at the +Junction, it was as if the concentrating Companies formed a great +Industrial Exhibition of the works of extraordinary ground-spiders that +spun iron. And then so many of the Lines went such wonderful ways, so +crossing and curving among one another, that the eye lost them. And then +some of them appeared to start with the fixed intention of going five +hundred miles, and all of a sudden gave it up at an insignificant +barrier, or turned off into a workshop. And then others, like +intoxicated men, went a little way very straight, and surprisingly slued +round and came back again. And then others were so chock-full of trucks +of coal, others were so blocked with trucks of casks, others were so +gorged with trucks of ballast, others were so set apart for wheeled +objects like immense iron cotton-reels: while others were so bright and +clear, and others were so delivered over to rust and ashes and idle +wheelbarrows out of work, with their legs in the air (looking much like +their masters on strike), that there was no beginning, middle, or end, to +the bewilderment. + +Barbox Brothers stood puzzled on the bridge, passing his right hand +across the lines on his forehead, which multiplied while he looked down, +as if the railway Lines were getting themselves photographed on that +sensitive plate. Then, was heard a distant ringing of bells and blowing +of whistles. Then, puppet-looking heads of men popped out of boxes in +perspective, and popped in again. Then, prodigious wooden razors set up +on end, began shaving the atmosphere. Then, several locomotive engines +in several directions began to scream and be agitated. Then, along one +avenue a train came in. Then, along another two trains appeared that +didn't come in, but stopped without. Then, bits of trains broke off. +Then, a struggling horse became involved with them. Then, the +locomotives shared the bits of trains, and ran away with the whole. + +"I have not made my next move much clearer by this. No hurry. No need +to make up my mind to-day, or to-morrow, nor yet the day after. I'll +take a walk." + +It fell out somehow (perhaps he meant it should) that the walk tended to +the platform at which he had alighted, and to Lamps's room. But Lamps +was not in his room. A pair of velveteen shoulders were adapting +themselves to one of the impressions on the wall by Lamps's fireplace, +but otherwise the room was void. In passing back to get out of the +station again, he learnt the cause of this vacancy, by catching sight of +Lamps on the opposite line of railway, skipping along the top of a train, +from carriage to carriage, and catching lighted namesakes thrown up to +him by a coadjutor. + +"He is busy. He has not much time for composing or singing Comic Songs +this morning, I take it." + +The direction he pursued now, was into the country, keeping very near to +the side of one great Line of railway, and within easy view of others. +"I have half a mind," he said, glancing around, "to settle the question +from this point, by saying, 'I'll take this set of rails, or that, or +t'other, and stick to it.' They separate themselves from the confusion, +out here, and go their ways." + +Ascending a gentle hill of some extent, he came to a few cottages. +There, looking about him as a very reserved man might who had never +looked about him in his life before, he saw some six or eight young +children come merrily trooping and whooping from one of the cottages, and +disperse. But not until they had all turned at the little garden gate, +and kissed their hands to a face at the upper window: a low window +enough, although the upper, for the cottage had but a story of one room +above the ground. + +Now, that the children should do this was nothing; but that they should +do this to a face lying on the sill of the open window, turned towards +them in a horizontal position, and apparently only a face, was something +noticeable. He looked up at the window again. Could only see a very +fragile though a very bright face, lying on one cheek on the window-sill. +The delicate smiling face of a girl or woman. Framed in long bright +brown hair, round which was tied a light blue band or fillet, passing +under the chin. + +He walked on, turned back, passed the window again, shyly glanced up +again. No change. He struck off by a winding branch-road at the top of +the hill--which he must otherwise have descended--kept the cottages in +view, worked his way round at a distance so as to come out once more into +the main road and be obliged to pass the cottages again. The face still +lay on the window-sill, but not so much inclined towards him. And now +there were a pair of delicate hands too. They had the action of +performing on some musical instrument, and yet it produced no sound that +reached his ears. + +"Mugby Junction must be the maddest place in England," said Barbox +Brothers, pursuing his way down the hill. "The first thing I find here +is a Railway Porter who composes comic songs to sing at his bedside. The +second thing I find here is a face, and a pair of hands playing a musical +instrument that don't play!" + +The day was a fine bright day in the early beginning of November, the air +was clear and inspiriting, and the landscape was rich in beautiful +colours. The prevailing colours in the court off Lombard-street, London +city, had been few and sombre. Sometimes, when the weather elsewhere was +very bright indeed, the dwellers in those tents enjoyed a +pepper-and-salt-coloured day or two, but their atmosphere's usual wear +was slate, or snuff colour. + +He relished his walk so well, that he repeated it next day. He was a +little earlier at the cottage than on the day before, and he could hear +the children up-stairs singing to a regular measure and clapping out the +time with their hands. + +"Still, there is no sound of any musical instrument," he said, listening +at the corner, "and yet I saw the performing hands again, as I came by. +What are the children singing? Why, good Lord, they can never be singing +the multiplication-table!" + +They were though, and with infinite enjoyment. The mysterious face had a +voice attached to it which occasionally led or set the children right. +Its musical cheerfulness was delightful. The measure at length stopped, +and was succeeded by a murmuring of young voices, and then by a short +song which he made out to be about the current month of the year, and +about what work it yielded to the labourers in the fields and farm-yards. +Then, there was a stir of little feet, and the children came trooping and +whooping out, as on the previous day. And again, as on the previous day, +they all turned at the garden gate, and kissed their hands--evidently to +the face on the window-sill, though Barbox Brothers from his retired post +of disadvantage at the corner could not see it. + +But as the children dispersed, he cut off one small straggler--a brown +faced boy with flaxen hair--and said to him: + +"Come here, little one. Tell me whose house is that?" + +The child, with one swarthy arm held up across his eyes, half in shyness, +and half ready for defence, said from behind the inside of his elbow: + +"Phoebe's." + +"And who," said Barbox Brothers, quite as much embarrassed by his part in +the dialogue as the child could possibly be by his, "is Phoebe?" + +To which the child made answer: "Why, Phoebe, of course." + +The small but sharp observer had eyed his questioner closely, and had +taken his moral measure. He lowered his guard, and rather assumed a tone +with him: as having discovered him to be an unaccustomed person in the +art of polite conversation. + +"Phoebe," said the child, "can't be anybobby else but Phoebe. Can she?" + +"No, I suppose not." + +"Well," returned the child, "then why did you ask me?" + +Deeming it prudent to shift his ground, Barbox Brothers took up a new +position. + +"What do you do there? Up there in that room where the open window is. +What do you do there?" + +"Cool," said the child. + +"Eh?" + +"Co-o-ol," the child repeated in a louder voice, lengthening out the word +with a fixed look and great emphasis, as much as to say: "What's the use +of your having grown up, if you're such a donkey as not to understand +me?" + +"Ah! School, school," said Barbox Brothers. "Yes, yes, yes. And Phoebe +teaches you?" + +The child nodded. + +"Good boy." + +"Tound it out, have you?" said the child. + +"Yes, I have found it out. What would you do with twopence, if I gave it +you?" + +"Pend it." + +The knock-down promptitude of this reply leaving him not a leg to stand +upon, Barbox Brothers produced the twopence with great lameness, and +withdrew in a state of humiliation. + +But, seeing the face on the window-sill as he passed the cottage, he +acknowledged its presence there with a gesture, which was not a nod, not +a bow, not a removal of his hat from his head, but was a diffident +compromise between or struggle with all three. The eyes in the face +seemed amused, or cheered, or both, and the lips modestly said: "Good day +to you, sir." + +"I find I must stick for a time to Mugby Junction," said Barbox Brothers, +with much gravity, after once more stopping on his return road to look at +the Lines where they went their several ways so quietly. "I can't make +up my mind yet, which iron road to take. In fact, I must get a little +accustomed to the Junction before I can decide." + +So, he announced at the Inn that he was "going to stay on, for the +present," and improved his acquaintance with the Junction that night, and +again next morning, and again next night and morning: going down to the +station, mingling with the people there, looking about him down all the +avenues of railway, and beginning to take an interest in the incomings +and outgoings of the trains. At first, he often put his head into +Lamps's little room, but he never found Lamps there. A pair or two of +velveteen shoulders he usually found there, stooping over the fire, +sometimes in connexion with a clasped knife and a piece of bread and +meat; but the answer to his inquiry, "Where's Lamps?" was, either that he +was "t'other side the line," or, that it was his off-time, or (in the +latter case), his own personal introduction to another Lamps who was not +his Lamps. However, he was not so desperately set upon seeing Lamps now, +but he bore the disappointment. Nor did he so wholly devote himself to +his severe application to the study of Mugby Junction, as to neglect +exercise. On the contrary, he took a walk every day, and always the same +walk. But the weather turned cold and wet again, and the window was +never open. + + + +III + + +At length, after a lapse of some days, there came another streak of fine +bright hardy autumn weather. It was a Saturday. The window was open, +and the children were gone. Not surprising, this, for he had patiently +watched and waited at the corner, until they _were_ gone. + +"Good day," he said to the face; absolutely getting his hat clear off his +head this time. + +"Good day to you, sir." + +"I am glad you have a fine sky again, to look at." + +"Thank you, sir. It is kind of you." + +"You are an invalid, I fear?" + +"No, sir. I have very good health." + +"But are you not always lying down?" + +"O yes, I am always lying down, because I cannot sit up. But I am not an +invalid." + +The laughing eyes seemed highly to enjoy his great mistake. + +"Would you mind taking the trouble to come in, sir? There is a beautiful +view from this window. And you would see that I am not at all ill--being +so good as to care." + +It was said to help him, as he stood irresolute, but evidently desiring +to enter, with his diffident hand on the latch of the garden gate. It +did help him, and he went in. + +The room up-stairs was a very clean white room with a low roof. Its only +inmate lay on a couch that brought her face on a level with the window. +The couch was white too; and her simple dress or wrapper being light +blue, like the band around her hair, she had an ethereal look, and a +fanciful appearance of lying among clouds. He felt that she +instinctively perceived him to be by habit a downcast taciturn man; it +was another help to him to have established that understanding so easily, +and got it over. + +There was an awkward constraint upon him, nevertheless, as he touched her +hand, and took a chair at the side of her couch. + +"I see now," he began, not at all fluently, "how you occupy your hands. +Only seeing you from the path outside, I thought you were playing upon +something." + +She was engaged in very nimbly and dexterously making lace. A +lace-pillow lay upon her breast; and the quick movements and changes of +her hands upon it as she worked, had given them the action he had +misinterpreted. + +"That is curious," she answered, with a bright smile. "For I often +fancy, myself, that I play tunes while I am at work." + +"Have you any musical knowledge?" + +She shook her head. + +"I think I could pick out tunes, if I had any instrument, which could be +made as handy to me as my lace-pillow. But I dare say I deceive myself. +At all events, I shall never know." + +"You have a musical voice. Excuse me; I have heard you sing." + +"With the children?" she answered, slightly colouring. "O yes. I sing +with the dear children, if it can be called singing." + +Barbox Brothers glanced at the two small forms in the room, and hazarded +the speculation that she was fond of children, and that she was learned +in new systems of teaching them? "Very fond of them," she said, shaking +her head again; "but I know nothing of teaching, beyond the interest I +have in it, and the pleasure it gives me when they learn. Perhaps your +overhearing my little scholars sing some of their lessons, has led you so +far astray as to think me a grand teacher? Ah! I thought so! No, I have +only read and been told about that system. It seemed so pretty and +pleasant, and to treat them so like the merry Robins they are, that I +took up with it in my little way. You don't need to be told what a very +little way mine is, sir," she added, with a glance at the small forms and +round the room. + +All this time her hands were busy at her lace-pillow. As they still +continued so, and as there was a kind of substitute for conversation in +the click and play of its pegs, Barbox Brothers took the opportunity of +observing her. He guessed her to be thirty. The charm of her +transparent face and large bright brown eyes, was, not that they were +passively resigned, but that they were actively and thoroughly cheerful. +Even her busy hands, which of their own thinness alone might have +besought compassion, plied their task with a gay courage that made mere +compassion an unjustifiable assumption of superiority, and an +impertinence. + +He saw her eyes in the act of rising towards his, and he directed his +towards the prospect, saying: "Beautiful indeed!" + +"Most beautiful, sir. I have sometimes had a fancy that I would like to +sit up, for once, only to try how it looks to an erect head. But what a +foolish fancy that would be to encourage! It cannot look more lovely to +any one than it does to me." + +Her eyes were turned to it as she spoke, with most delighted admiration +and enjoyment. There was not a trace in it of any sense of deprivation. + +"And those threads of railway, with their puffs of smoke and steam +changing places so fast, make it so lively for me," she went on. "I +think of the number of people who _can_ go where they wish, on their +business, or their pleasure; I remember that the puffs make signs to me +that they are actually going while I look; and that enlivens the prospect +with abundance of company, if I want company. There is the great +Junction, too. I don't see it under the foot of the hill, but I can very +often hear it, and I always know it is there. It seems to join me, in a +way, to I don't know how many places and things that _I_ shall never +see." + +With an abashed kind of idea that it might have already joined himself to +something he had never seen, he said constrainedly: "Just so." + +"And so you see, sir," pursued Phoebe, "I am not the invalid you thought +me, and I am very well off indeed." + +"You have a happy disposition," said Barbox Brothers: perhaps with a +slight excusatory touch for his own disposition. + +"Ah! But you should know my father," she replied. "His is the happy +disposition!--Don't mind, sir!" For his reserve took the alarm at a step +upon the stairs, and he distrusted that he would be set down for a +troublesome intruder. "This is my father coming." + +The door opened, and the father paused there. + +"Why, Lamps!" exclaimed Barbox Brothers, starting from his chair. "How +do you do, Lamps?" + +To which, Lamps responded: "The gentleman for Nowhere! How do you DO, +sir?" + +And they shook hands, to the greatest admiration and surprise of Lamps's +daughter. + +"I have looked you up, half a dozen times since that night," said Barbox +Brothers, "but have never found you." + +"So I've heerd on, sir, so I've heerd on," returned Lamps. "It's your +being noticed so often down at the Junction, without taking any train, +that has begun to get you the name among us of the gentleman for Nowhere. +No offence in my having called you by it when took by surprise, I hope, +sir?" + +"None at all. It's as good a name for me as any other you could call me +by. But may I ask you a question in the corner here?" + +Lamps suffered himself to be led aside from his daughter's couch, by one +of the buttons of his velveteen jacket. + +"Is this the bedside where you sing your songs?" + +Lamps nodded. + +The gentleman for Nowhere clapped him on the shoulder; and they faced +about again. + +"Upon my word, my dear," said Lamps then to his daughter, looking from +her to her visitor, "it is such an amaze to me, to find you brought +acquainted with this gentleman, that I must (if this gentleman will +excuse me) take a rounder." + +Mr. Lamps demonstrated in action what this meant, by pulling out his oily +handkerchief rolled up in the form of a ball, and giving himself an +elaborate smear, from behind the right ear, up the cheek, across the +forehead, and down the other cheek to behind his left ear. After this +operation he shone exceedingly. + +"It's according to my custom when particular warmed up by any agitation, +sir," he offered by way of apology. "And really, I am throwed into that +state of amaze by finding you brought acquainted with Phoebe, that +I--that I think I will, if you'll excuse me, take another rounder." +Which he did, seeming to be greatly restored by it. + +They were now both standing by the side of her couch, and she was working +at her lace-pillow. "Your daughter tells me," said Barbox Brothers, +still in a half reluctant shamefaced way, "that she never sits up." + +"No, sir, nor never has done. You see, her mother (who died when she was +a year and two months old) was subject to very bad fits, and as she had +never mentioned to me that she _was_ subject to fits, they couldn't be +guarded against. Consequently, she dropped the baby when took, and this +happened." + +"It was very wrong of her," said Barbox Brothers, with a knitted brow, +"to marry you, making a secret of her infirmity." + +"Well, sir," pleaded Lamps, in behalf of the long-deceased. "You see, +Phoebe and me, we have talked that over too. And Lord bless us! Such a +number on us has our infirmities, what with fits, and what with misfits, +of one sort and another, that if we confessed to 'em all before we got +married, most of us might never get married." + +"Might not that be for the better?" + +"Not in this case, sir," said Phoebe, giving her hand to her father. + +"No, not in this case, sir," said her father, patting it between his own. + +"You correct me," returned Barbox Brothers, with a blush; "and I must +look so like a Brute, that at all events it would be superfluous in me to +confess to _that_ infirmity. I wish you would tell me a little more +about yourselves. I hardly know how to ask it of you, for I am conscious +that I have a bad stiff manner, a dull discouraging way with me, but I +wish you would." + +"With all our hearts, sir," returned Lamps, gaily, for both. "And first +of all, that you may know my name--" + +"Stay!" interposed the visitor, with a slight flush. "What signifies +your name! Lamps is name enough for me. I like it. It is bright and +expressive. What do I want more!" + +"Why to be sure, sir," returned Lamps. "I have in general no other name +down at the Junction; but I thought, on account of your being here as a +first-class single, in a private character, that you might--" + +The visitor waved the thought away with his hand, and Lamps acknowledged +the mark of confidence by taking another rounder. + +"You are hard-worked, I take for granted?" said Barbox Brothers, when the +subject of the rounder came out of it much dirtier than he went into it. + +Lamps was beginning, "Not particular so"--when his daughter took him up. + +"O yes, sir, he is very hard-worked. Fourteen, fifteen, eighteen, hours +a day. Sometimes twenty-four hours at a time." + +"And you," said Barbox Brothers, "what with your school, Phoebe, and what +with your lace-making--" + +"But my school is a pleasure to me," she interrupted, opening her brown +eyes wider, as if surprised to find him so obtuse. "I began it when I +was but a child, because it brought me and other children into company, +don't you see? _That_ was not work. I carry it on still, because it +keeps children about me. _That_ is not work. I do it as love, not as +work. Then my lace-pillow;" her busy hands had stopped, as if her +argument required all her cheerful earnestness, but now went on again at +the name; "it goes with my thoughts when I think, and it goes with my +tunes when I hum any, and _that's_ not work. Why, you yourself thought +it was music, you know, sir. And so it is, to me." + +"Everything is!" cried Lamps, radiantly. "Everything is music to her, +sir." + +"My father is, at any rate," said Phoebe, exultingly pointing her thin +forefinger at him. "There is more music in my father than there is in a +brass band." + +"I say! My dear! It's very fillyillially done, you know; but you are +flattering your father," he protested, sparkling. + +"No I am not, sir, I assure you. No I am not. If you could hear my +father sing, you would know I am not. But you never will hear him sing, +because he never sings to any one but me. However tired he is, he always +sings to me when he comes home. When I lay here long ago, quite a poor +little broken doll, he used to sing to me. More than that, he used to +make songs, bringing in whatever little jokes we had between us. More +than that, he often does so to this day. O! I'll tell of you, father, as +the gentleman has asked about you. He is a poet, sir." + +"I shouldn't wish the gentleman, my dear," observed Lamps, for the moment +turning grave, "to carry away that opinion of your father, because it +might look as if I was given to asking the stars in a molloncolly manner +what they was up to. Which I wouldn't at once waste the time, and take +the liberty, my dear." + +"My father," resumed Phoebe, amending her text, "is always on the bright +side, and the good side. You told me just now, I had a happy +disposition. How can I help it?" + +"Well! but my dear," returned Lamps argumentatively, "how can _I_ help +it? Put it to yourself, sir. Look at her. Always as you see her now. +Always working--and after all, sir, for but a very few shillings a +week--always contented, always lively, always interested in others, of +all sorts. I said, this moment, she was always as you see her now. So +she is, with a difference that comes to much the same. For, when it's my +Sunday off and the morning bells have done ringing, I hear the prayers +and thanks read in the touchingest way, and I have the hymns sung to +me--so soft, sir, that you couldn't hear 'em out of this room--in notes +that seem to me, I am sure, to come from Heaven and go back to it." + +It might have been merely through the association of these words with +their sacredly quiet time, or it might have been through the larger +association of the words with the Redeemer's presence beside the +bedridden; but here her dexterous fingers came to a stop on the +lace-pillow, and clasped themselves round his neck as he bent down. +There was great natural sensibility in both father and daughter, the +visitor could easily see; but each made it, for the other's sake, +retiring, not demonstrative; and perfect cheerfulness, intuitive or +acquired, was either the first or second nature of both. In a very few +moments, Lamps was taking another rounder with his comical features +beaming, while Phoebe's laughing eyes (just a glistening speck or so upon +their lashes) were again directed by turns to him, and to her work, and +to Barbox Brothers. + +"When my father, sir," she said brightly, "tells you about my being +interested in other people even though they know nothing about me--which, +by-the-by, I told you myself--you ought to know how that comes about. +That's my father's doing." + +"No, it isn't!" he protested. + +"Don't you believe him, sir; yes, it is. He tells me of everything he +sees down at his work. You would be surprised what a quantity he gets +together for me every day. He looks into the carriages, and tells me how +the ladies are drest--so that I know all the fashions! He looks into the +carriages, and tells me what pairs of lovers he sees, and what +new-married couples on their wedding trip--so that I know all about that! +He collects chance newspapers and books--so that I have plenty to read! +He tells me about the sick people who are travelling to try to get +better--so that I know all about them! In short, as I began by saying, +he tells me everything he sees and makes out, down at his work, and you +can't think what a quantity he does see and make out." + +"As to collecting newspapers and books, my dear," said Lamps, "it's clear +I can have no merit in that, because they're not my perquisites. You +see, sir, it's this way: A Guard, he'll say to me, 'Hallo, here you are, +Lamps. I've saved this paper for your daughter. How is she agoing on?' +A Head-Porter, he'll say to me, 'Here! Catch hold, Lamps. Here's a +couple of wollumes for your daughter. Is she pretty much where she +were?' And that's what makes it double welcome, you see. If she had a +thousand pound in' a box, they wouldn't trouble themselves about her; but +being what she is--that is, you understand," Lamps added, somewhat +hurriedly, "not having a thousand pound in a box--they take thought for +her. And as concerning the young pairs, married and unmarried, it's only +natural I should bring home what little I can about _them_, seeing that +there's not a Couple of either sort in the neighbourhood that don't come +of their own accord to confide in Phoebe." + +She raised her eyes triumphantly to Barbox Brothers, as she said: + +"Indeed, sir, that is true. If I could have got up and gone to church, I +don't know how often I should have been a bridesmaid. But if I could +have done that, some girls in love might have been jealous of me, and as +it is, no girl is jealous of me. And my pillow would not have been half +as ready to put the piece of cake under, as I always find it," she added, +turning her face on it with a light sigh, and a smile at her father. + +The arrival of a little girl, the biggest of the scholars, now led to an +understanding on the part of Barbox Brothers, that she was the domestic +of the cottage, and had come to take active measures in it, attended by a +pail that might have extinguished her, and a broom three times her +height. He therefore rose to take his leave, and took it; saying that if +Phoebe had no objection, he would come again. + +He had muttered that he would come "in the course of his walks." The +course of his walks must have been highly favourable to his return, for +he returned after an interval of a single day. + +"You thought you would never see me any more, I suppose?" he said to +Phoebe as he touched her hand, and sat down by her couch. + +"Why should I think so!" was her surprised rejoinder. + +"I took it for granted you would mistrust me." + +"For granted, sir? Have you been so much mistrusted?" + +"I think I am justified in answering yes. But I may have mistrusted too, +on my part. No matter just now. We were speaking of the Junction last +time. I have passed hours there since the day before yesterday." + +"Are you now the gentleman for Somewhere?" she asked with a smile. + +"Certainly for Somewhere; but I don't yet know Where. You would never +guess what I am travelling from. Shall I tell you? I am travelling from +my birthday." + +Her hands stopped in her work, and she looked at him with incredulous +astonishment. + +"Yes," said Barbox Brothers, not quite easy in his chair, "from my +birthday. I am, to myself, an unintelligible book with the earlier +chapters all torn out, and thrown away. My childhood had no grace of +childhood, my youth had no charm of youth, and what can be expected from +such a lost beginning?" His eyes meeting hers as they were addressed +intently to him, something seemed to stir within his breast, whispering: +"Was this bed a place for the graces of childhood and the charms of youth +to take to, kindly? O shame, shame!" + +"It is a disease with me," said Barbox Brothers, checking himself, and +making as though he had a difficulty in swallowing something, "to go +wrong about that. I don't know how I came to speak of that. I hope it +is because of an old misplaced confidence in one of your sex involving an +old bitter treachery. I don't know. I am all wrong together." + +Her hands quietly and slowly resumed their work. Glancing at her, he saw +that her eyes were thoughtfully following them. + +"I am travelling from my birthday," he resumed, "because it has always +been a dreary day to me. My first free birthday coming round some five +or six weeks hence, I am travelling to put its predecessors far behind +me, and to try to crush the day--or, at all events, put it out of my +sight--by heaping new objects on it." + +As he paused, she looked at him; but only shook her head as being quite +at a loss. + +"This is unintelligible to your happy disposition," he pursued, abiding +by his former phrase as if there were some lingering virtue of +self-defence in it: "I knew it would be, and am glad it is. However, on +this travel of mine (in which I mean to pass the rest of my days, having +abandoned all thought of a fixed home), I stopped, as you heard from your +father, at the Junction here. The extent of its ramifications quite +confused me as to whither I should go, _from_ here. I have not yet +settled, being still perplexed among so many roads. What do you think I +mean to do? How many of the branching roads can you see from your +window?" + +Looking out, full of interest, she answered, "Seven." + +"Seven," said Barbox Brothers, watching her with a grave smile. "Well! I +propose to myself, at once to reduce the gross number to those very +seven, and gradually to fine them down to one--the most promising for +me--and to take that." + +"But how will you know, sir, which is the most promising?" she asked, +with her brightened eyes roving over the view. + +"Ah!" said Barbox Brothers, with another grave smile, and considerably +improving in his ease of speech. "To be sure. In this way. Where your +father can pick up so much every day for a good purpose, I may once and +again pick up a little for an indifferent purpose. The gentleman for +Nowhere must become still better known at the Junction. He shall +continue to explore it, until he attaches something that he has seen, +heard, or found out, at the head of each of the seven roads, to the road +itself. And so his choice of a road shall be determined by his choice +among his discoveries." + +Her hands still busy, she again glanced at the prospect, as if it +comprehended something that had not been in it before, and laughed as if +it yielded her new pleasure. + +"But I must not forget," said Barbox Brothers, "(having got so far) to +ask a favour. I want your help in this expedient of mine. I want to +bring you what I pick up at the heads of the seven roads that you lie +here looking out at, and to compare notes with you about it. May I? +They say two heads are better than one. I should say myself that +probably depends upon the heads concerned. But I am quite sure, though +we are so newly acquainted, that your head and your father's have found +out better things, Phoebe, than ever mine of itself discovered." + +She gave him her sympathetic right hand, in perfect rapture with his +proposal, and eagerly and gratefully thanked him. + +"That's well!" said Barbox Brothers. "Again I must not forget (having +got so far) to ask a favour. Will you shut your eyes?" + +Laughing playfully at the strange nature of the request, she did so. + +"Keep them shut," said Barbox Brothers, going softly to the door, and +coming back. "You are on your honour, mind, not to open your eyes until +I tell you that you may?" + +"Yes! On my honour." + +"Good. May I take your lace-pillow from you for a minute?" + +Still laughing and wondering, she removed her hands from it, and he put +it aside. + +"Tell me. Did you see the puffs of smoke and steam made by the morning +fast-train yesterday on road number seven from here?" + +"Behind the elm-trees and the spire?" + +"That's the road," said Barbox Brothers, directing his eyes towards it. + +"Yes. I watched them melt away." + +"Anything unusual in what they expressed?" + +"No!" she answered merrily. + +"Not complimentary to me, for I was in that train. I went--don't open +your eyes--to fetch you this, from the great ingenious town. It is not +half so large as your lace-pillow, and lies easily and lightly in its +place. These little keys are like the keys of a miniature piano, and you +supply the air required with your left hand. May you pick out delightful +music from it, my dear! For the present--you can open your eyes +now--good-bye!" + +In his embarrassed way, he closed the door upon himself, and only saw, in +doing so, that she ecstatically took the present to her bosom and +caressed it. The glimpse gladdened his heart, and yet saddened it; for +so might she, if her youth had flourished in its natural course, have +taken to her breast that day the slumbering music of her own child's +voice. + + + + +BARBOX BROTHERS AND CO. + + +With good will and earnest purpose, the gentleman for Nowhere began, on +the very next day, his researches at the heads of the seven roads. The +results of his researches, as he and Phoebe afterwards set them down in +fair writing, hold their due places in this veracious chronicle, from its +seventeenth page, onward. But they occupied a much longer time in the +getting together than they ever will in the perusal. And this is +probably the case with most reading matter, except when it is of that +highly beneficial kind (for Posterity) which is "thrown off in a few +moments of leisure" by the superior poetic geniuses who scorn to take +prose pains. + +It must be admitted, however, that Barbox by no means hurried himself. +His heart being in his work of good-nature, he revelled in it. There was +the joy, too (it was a true joy to him), of sometimes sitting by, +listening to Phoebe as she picked out more and more discourse from her +musical instrument, and as her natural taste and ear refined daily upon +her first discoveries. Besides being a pleasure, this was an occupation, +and in the course of weeks it consumed hours. It resulted that his +dreaded birthday was close upon him before he had troubled himself any +more about it. + +The matter was made more pressing by the unforeseen circumstance that the +councils held (at which Mr. Lamps, beaming most brilliantly, on a few +rare occasions assisted) respecting the road to be selected, were, after +all, in no wise assisted by his investigations. For, he had connected +this interest with this road, or that interest with the other, but could +deduce no reason from it for giving any road the preference. +Consequently, when the last council was holden, that part of the business +stood, in the end, exactly where it had stood in the beginning. + +"But, sir," remarked Phoebe, "we have only six roads after all. Is the +seventh road dumb?" + +"The seventh road? O!" said Barbox Brothers, rubbing his chin. "That is +the road I took, you know, when I went to get your little present. That +is _its_ story, Phoebe." + +"Would you mind taking that road again, sir?" she asked with hesitation. + +"Not in the least; it is a great high road after all." + +"I should like you to take it," returned Phoebe, with a persuasive smile, +"for the love of that little present which must ever be so dear to me. I +should like you to take it, because that road can never be again, like +any other road to me. I should like you to take it, in remembrance of +your having done me so much good: of your having made me so much happier! +If you leave me by the road you travelled when you went to do me this +great kindness," sounding a faint chord as she spoke, "I shall feel, +lying here watching at my window, as if it must conduct you to a +prosperous end, and bring you back some day." + +"It shall be done, my dear; it shall be done." + +So at last the gentleman for Nowhere took a ticket for Somewhere, and his +destination was the great ingenious town. + +He had loitered so long about the Junction that it was the eighteenth of +December when he left it. "High time," he reflected, as he seated +himself in the train, "that I started in earnest! Only one clear day +remains between me and the day I am running away from. I'll push onward +for the hill-country to-morrow. I'll go to Wales." + +It was with some pains that he placed before himself the undeniable +advantages to be gained in the way of novel occupation for his senses +from misty mountains, swollen streams, rain, cold, a wild seashore, and +rugged roads. And yet he scarcely made them out as distinctly as he +could have wished. Whether the poor girl, in spite of her new resource, +her music, would have any feeling of loneliness upon her now--just at +first--that she had not had before; whether she saw those very puffs of +steam and smoke that he saw, as he sat in the train thinking of her; +whether her face would have any pensive shadow on it as they died out of +the distant view from her window; whether, in telling him he had done her +so much good, she had not unconsciously corrected his old moody bemoaning +of his station in life, by setting him thinking that a man might be a +great healer, if he would, and yet not be a great doctor; these and other +similar meditations got between him and his Welsh picture. There was +within him, too, that dull sense of vacuity which follows separation from +an object of interest, and cessation of a pleasant pursuit; and this +sense, being quite new to him, made him restless. Further, in losing +Mugby Junction he had found himself again; and he was not the more +enamoured of himself for having lately passed his time in better company. + +But surely, here not far ahead, must be the great ingenious town. This +crashing and clashing that the train was undergoing, and this coupling on +to it of a multitude of new echoes, could mean nothing less than approach +to the great station. It did mean nothing less. After some stormy +flashes of town lightning, in the way of swift revelations of red-brick +blocks of houses, high red-brick chimney-shafts, vistas of red-brick +railway arches, tongues of fire, blots of smoke, valleys of canal, and +hills of coal, there came the thundering in at the journey's end. + +Having seen his portmanteaus safely housed in the hotel he chose, and +having appointed his dinner-hour, Barbox Brothers went out for a walk in +the busy streets. And now it began to be suspected by him that Mugby +Junction was a Junction of many branches, invisible as well as visible, +and had joined him to an endless number of byways. For, whereas he +would, but a little while ago, have walked these streets blindly +brooding, he now had eyes and thoughts for a new external world. How the +many toiling people lived, and loved, and died; how wonderful it was to +consider the various trainings of eye and hand, the nice distinctions of +sight and touch, that separated them into classes of workers, and even +into classes of workers at subdivisions of one complete whole which +combined their many intelligences and forces, though of itself but some +cheap object of use or ornament in common life; how good it was to know +that such assembling in a multitude on their part, and such contribution +of their several dexterities towards a civilising end, did not +deteriorate them as it was the fashion of the supercilious May-flies of +humanity to pretend, but engendered among them a self-respect and yet a +modest desire to be much wiser than they were (the first evinced in their +well-balanced bearing and manner of speech when he stopped to ask a +question; the second, in the announcements of their popular studies and +amusements on the public walls); these considerations, and a host of +such, made his walk a memorable one. "I too am but a little part of a +great whole," he began to think; "and to be serviceable to myself and +others, or to be happy, I must cast my interest into, and draw it out of, +the common stock." + +Although he had arrived at his journey's end for the day by noon, he had +since insensibly walked about the town so far and so long that the +lamplighters were now at their work in the streets, and the shops were +sparkling up brilliantly. Thus reminded to turn towards his quarters, he +was in the act of doing so, when a very little hand crept into his, and a +very little voice said: + +"O! If you please, I am lost." + +He looked down, and saw a very little fair-haired girl. + +"Yes," she said, confirming her words with a serious nod. "I am indeed. +I am lost." + +Greatly perplexed, he stopped, looked about him for help, descried none, +and said, bending low: "Where do you live, my child?" + +"I don't know where I live," she returned. "I am lost." + +"What is your name?" + +"Polly." + +"What is your other name?" + +The reply was prompt, but unintelligible. + +Imitating the sound, as he caught it, he hazarded the guess, "Trivits?" + +"O no!" said the child, shaking her head. "Nothing like that." + +"Say it again, little one." + +An unpromising business. For this time it had quite a different sound. + +He made the venture: "Paddens?" + +"O no!" said the child. "Nothing like that." + +"Once more. Let us try it again, dear." + +A most hopeless business. This time it swelled into four syllables. "It +can't be Tappitarver?" said Barbox Brothers, rubbing his head with his +hat in discomfiture. + +"No! It ain't," the child quietly assented. + +On her trying this unfortunate name once more, with extraordinary efforts +at distinctness, it swelled into eight syllables at least. + +"Ah! I think," said Barbox Brothers, with a desperate air of resignation, +"that we had better give it up." + +"But I am lost," said the child, nestling her little hand more closely in +his, "and you'll take care of me, won't you?" + +If ever a man were disconcerted by division between compassion on the one +hand, and the very imbecility of irresolution on the other, here the man +was. "Lost!" he repeated, looking down at the child. "I am sure _I_ am. +What is to be done!" + +"Where do _you_ live?" asked the child, looking up at him, wistfully. + +"Over there," he answered, pointing vaguely in the direction of his +hotel. + +"Hadn't we better go there?" said the child. + +"Really," he replied, "I don't know but what we had." + +So they set off, hand in hand. He, through comparison of himself against +his little companion, with a clumsy feeling on him as if he had just +developed into a foolish giant. She, clearly elevated in her own tiny +opinion by having got him so neatly out of his embarrassment. + +"We are going to have dinner when we get there, I suppose?" said Polly. + +"Well," he rejoined, "I--yes, I suppose we are." + +"Do you like your dinner?" asked the child. + +"Why, on the whole," said Barbox Brothers, "yes, I think I do." + +"I do mine," said Polly. "Have you any brothers and sisters?" + +"No. Have you?" + +"Mine are dead." + +"Oh!" said Barbox Brothers. With that absurd sense of unwieldiness of +mind and body weighing him down, he would have not known how to pursue +the conversation beyond this curt rejoinder, but that the child was +always ready for him. + +"What," she asked, turning her soft hand coaxingly in his, "are you going +to do to amuse me, after dinner?" + +"Upon my soul, Polly," exclaimed Barbox Brothers, very much at a loss, "I +have not the slightest idea!" + +"Then I tell you what," said Polly. "Have you got any cards at your +house?" + +"Plenty," said Barbox Brothers, in a boastful vein. + +"Very well. Then I'll build houses, and you shall look at me. You +mustn't blow, you know." + +"O no!" said Barbox Brothers. "No, no, no. No blowing. Blowing's not +fair." + +He flattered himself that he had said this pretty well for an idiotic +Monster; but the child, instantly perceiving the awkwardness of his +attempt to adapt himself to her level, utterly destroyed his hopeful +opinion of himself by saying, compassionately: "What a funny man you +are!" + +Feeling, after this melancholy failure, as if he every minute grew bigger +and heavier in person, and weaker in mind, Barbox gave himself up for a +bad job. No giant ever submitted more meekly to be led in triumph by +all-conquering Jack, than he to be bound in slavery to Polly. + +"Do you know any stories?" she asked him. + +He was reduced to the humiliating confession: "No." + +"What a dunce you must be, mustn't you?" said Polly. + +He was reduced to the humiliating confession: "Yes." + +"Would you like me to teach you a story? But you must remember it, you +know, and be able to tell it right to somebody else afterwards." + +He professed that it would afford him the highest mental gratification to +be taught a story, and that he would humbly endeavour to retain it in his +mind. Whereupon Polly, giving her hand a new little turn in his, +expressive of settling down for enjoyment, commenced a long romance, of +which every relishing clause began with the words: "So this" or "And so +this." As, "So this boy;" or, "So this fairy;" or, "And so this pie was +four yards round, and two yards and a quarter deep." The interest of the +romance was derived from the intervention of this fairy to punish this +boy for having a greedy appetite. To achieve which purpose, this fairy +made this pie, and this boy ate and ate and ate, and his cheeks swelled +and swelled and swelled. There were many tributary circumstances, but +the forcible interest culminated in the total consumption of this pie, +and the bursting of this boy. Truly he was a fine sight, Barbox +Brothers, with serious attentive face, and ear bent down, much jostled on +the pavements of the busy town, but afraid of losing a single incident of +the epic, lest he should be examined in it by-and-by and found deficient. + +Thus they arrived at the hotel. And there he had to say at the bar, and +said awkwardly enough: "I have found a little girl!" + +The whole establishment turned out to look at the little girl. Nobody +knew her; nobody could make out her name, as she set it forth--except one +chambermaid, who said it was Constantinople--which it wasn't. + +"I will dine with my young friend in a private room," said Barbox +Brothers to the hotel authorities, "and perhaps you will be so good as +let the police know that the pretty baby is here. I suppose she is sure +to be inquired for, soon, if she has not been already. Come along, +Polly." + +Perfectly at ease and peace, Polly came along, but, finding the stairs +rather stiff work, was carried up by Barbox Brothers. The dinner was a +most transcendent success, and the Barbox sheepishness, under Polly's +directions how to mince her meat for her, and how to diffuse gravy over +the plate with a liberal and equal hand, was another fine sight. + +"And now," said Polly, "while we are at dinner, you be good, and tell me +that story I taught you." + +With the tremors of a civil service examination on him, and very +uncertain indeed, not only as to the epoch at which the pie appeared in +history, but also as to the measurements of that indispensable fact, +Barbox Brothers made a shaky beginning, but under encouragement did very +fairly. There was a want of breadth observable in his rendering of the +cheeks, as well as the appetite, of the boy; and there was a certain +tameness in his fairy, referable to an under-current of desire to account +for her. Still, as the first lumbering performance of a good-humoured +monster, it passed muster. + +"I told you to be good," said Polly, "and you are good, ain't you?" + +"I hope so," replied Barbox Brothers. + +Such was his deference that Polly, elevated on a platform of +sofa-cushions in a chair at his right hand, encouraged him with a pat or +two on the face from the greasy bowl of her spoon, and even with a +gracious kiss. In getting on her feet upon her chair, however, to give +him this last reward, she toppled forward among the dishes, and caused +him to exclaim as he effected her rescue: "Gracious Angels! Whew! I +thought we were in the fire, Polly!" + +"What a coward you are, ain't you?" said Polly, when replaced. + +"Yes, I am rather nervous," he replied. "Whew! Don't, Polly! Don't +flourish your spoon, or you'll go over sideways. Don't tilt up your legs +when you laugh, Polly, or you'll go over backwards. Whew! Polly, Polly, +Polly," said Barbox Brothers, nearly succumbing to despair, "we are +environed with dangers!" + +Indeed, he could descry no security from the pitfalls that were yawning +for Polly, but in proposing to her, after dinner, to sit upon a low +stool. "I will, if you will," said Polly. So, as peace of mind should +go before all, he begged the waiter to wheel aside the table, bring a +pack of cards, a couple of footstools, and a screen, and close in Polly +and himself before the fire, as it were in a snug room within the room. +Then, finest sight of all, was Barbox Brothers on his footstool, with a +pint decanter on the rug, contemplating Polly as she built successfully, +and growing blue in the face with holding his breath, lest he should blow +the house down. + +"How you stare, don't you?" said Polly, in a houseless pause. + +Detected in the ignoble fact, he felt obliged to admit, apologetically: +"I am afraid I was looking rather hard at you, Polly." + +"Why do you stare?" asked Polly. + +"I cannot," he murmured to himself, "recall why.--I don't know, Polly." + +"You must be a simpleton to do things and not know why, mustn't you?" +said Polly. + +In spite of which reproof, he looked at the child again, intently, as she +bent her head over her card-structure, her rich curls shading her face. +"It is impossible," he thought, "that I can ever have seen this pretty +baby before. Can I have dreamed of her? In some sorrowful dream?" + +He could make nothing of it. So he went into the building trade as a +journeyman under Polly, and they built three stories high, four stories +high: even five. + +"I say. Who do you think is coming?" asked Polly, rubbing her eyes after +tea. + +He guessed: "The waiter?" + +"No," said Polly, "the dustman. I am getting sleepy." + +A new embarrassment for Barbox Brothers! + +"I don't think I am going to be fetched to-night," said Polly; "what do +you think?" + +He thought not, either. After another quarter of an hour, the dustman +not merely impending but actually arriving, recourse was had to the +Constantinopolitan chambermaid: who cheerily undertook that the child +should sleep in a comfortable and wholesome room, which she herself would +share. + +"And I know you will be careful, won't you," said Barbox Brothers, as a +new fear dawned upon him, "that she don't fall out of bed." + +Polly found this so highly entertaining that she was under the necessity +of clutching him round the neck with both arms as he sat on his footstool +picking up the cards, and rocking him to and fro, with her dimpled chin +on his shoulder. + +"O what a coward you are, ain't you!" said Polly. "Do _you_ fall out of +bed?" + +"N--not generally, Polly." + +"No more do I." + +With that, Polly gave him a reassuring hug or two to keep him going, and +then giving that confiding mite of a hand of hers to be swallowed up in +the hand of the Constantinopolitan chambermaid, trotted off, chattering, +without a vestige of anxiety. + +He looked after her, had the screen removed and the table and chairs +replaced, and still looked after her. He paced the room for half an +hour. "A most engaging little creature, but it's not that. A most +winning little voice, but it's not that. That has much to do with it, +but there is something more. How can it be that I seem to know this +child? What was it she imperfectly recalled to me when I felt her touch +in the street, and, looking down at her, saw her looking up at me?" + +"Mr. Jackson!" + +With a start he turned towards the sound of the subdued voice, and saw +his answer standing at the door. + +"O Mr. Jackson, do not be severe with me. Speak a word of encouragement +to me, I beseech you." + +"You are Polly's mother." + +"Yes." + +Yes. Polly herself might come to this, one day. As you see what the +rose was, in its faded leaves; as you see what the summer growth of the +woods was, in their wintry branches; so Polly might be traced, one day, +in a care-worn woman like this, with her hair turned grey. Before him, +were the ashes of a dead fire that had once burned bright. This was the +woman he had loved. This was the woman he had lost. Such had been the +constancy of his imagination to her, so had Time spared her under its +withholding, that now, seeing how roughly the inexorable hand had struck +her, his soul was filled with pity and amazement. + +He led her to a chair, and stood leaning on a corner of the +chimney-piece, with his head resting on his hand, and his face half +averted. + +"Did you see me in the street, and show me to your child?" he asked. + +"Yes." + +"Is the little creature, then, a party to deceit?" + +"I hope there is no deceit. I said to her, 'We have lost our way, and I +must try to find mine by myself. Go to that gentleman and tell him you +are lost. You shall be fetched by-and-by.' Perhaps you have not thought +how very young she is?" + +"She is very self-reliant." + +"Perhaps because she is so young?" + +He asked, after a short pause, "Why did you do this?" + +"O Mr. Jackson, do you ask me? In the hope that you might see something +in my innocent child to soften your heart towards me. Not only towards +me, but towards my husband." + +He suddenly turned about, and walked to the opposite end of the room. He +came back again with a slower step, and resumed his former attitude, +saying: + +"I thought you had emigrated to America?" + +"We did. But life went ill with us there, and we came back." + +"Do you live in this town?" + +"Yes. I am a daily teacher of music here. My husband is a book-keeper." + +"Are you--forgive my asking--poor?" + +"We earn enough for our wants. That is not our distress. My husband is +very, very ill of a lingering disorder. He will never recover--" + +"You check yourself. If it is for want of the encouraging word you spoke +of, take it from me. I cannot forget the old time, Beatrice." + +"God bless you!" she replied, with a burst of tears, and gave him her +trembling hand. + +"Compose yourself. I cannot be composed if you are not, for to see you +weep distresses me beyond expression. Speak freely to me. Trust me." + +She shaded her face with her veil, and after a little while spoke calmly. +Her voice had the ring of Polly's. + +"It is not that my husband's mind is at all impaired by his bodily +suffering, for I assure you that is not the case. But in his weakness, +and in his knowledge that he is incurably ill, he cannot overcome the +ascendancy of one idea. It preys upon him, embitters every moment of his +painful life, and will shorten it." + +She stopping, he said again: "Speak freely to me. Trust me." + +"We have had five children before this darling, and they all lie in their +little graves. He believes that they have withered away under a curse, +and that it will blight this child like the rest." + +"Under what curse?" + +"Both I and he have it on our conscience that we tried you very heavily, +and I do not know but that, if I were as ill as he, I might suffer in my +mind as he does. This is the constant burden:--'I believe, Beatrice, I +was the only friend that Mr. Jackson ever cared to make, though I was so +much his junior. The more influence he acquired in the business, the +higher he advanced me, and I was alone in his private confidence. I came +between him and you, and I took you from him. We were both secret, and +the blow fell when he was wholly unprepared. The anguish it caused a man +so compressed, must have been terrible; the wrath it awakened, +inappeasable. So, a curse came to be invoked on our poor pretty little +flowers, and they fall.'" + +"And you, Beatrice," he asked, when she had ceased to speak, and there +had been a silence afterwards: "how say you?" + +"Until within these few weeks I was afraid of you, and I believed that +you would never, never, forgive." + +"Until within these few weeks," he repeated. "Have you changed your +opinion of me within these few weeks?" + +"Yes." + +"For what reason?" + +"I was getting some pieces of music in a shop in this town, when, to my +terror, you came in. As I veiled my face and stood in the dark end of +the shop, I heard you explain that you wanted a musical instrument for a +bedridden girl. Your voice and manner were so softened, you showed such +interest in its selection, you took it away yourself with so much +tenderness of care and pleasure, that I knew you were a man with a most +gentle heart. O Mr. Jackson, Mr. Jackson, if you could have felt the +refreshing rain of tears that followed for me!" + +Was Phoebe playing at that moment, on her distant couch? He seemed to +hear her. + +"I inquired in the shop where you lived, but could get no information. +As I had heard you say that you were going back by the next train (but +you did not say where), I resolved to visit the station at about that +time of day, as often as I could, between my lessons, on the chance of +seeing you again. I have been there very often, but saw you no more +until to-day. You were meditating as you walked the street, but the calm +expression of your face emboldened me to send my child to you. And when +I saw you bend your head to speak tenderly to her, I prayed to GOD to +forgive me for having ever brought a sorrow on it. I now pray to you to +forgive me, and to forgive my husband. I was very young, he was young +too, and in the ignorant hardihood of such a time of life we don't know +what we do to those who have undergone more discipline. You generous +man! You good man! So to raise me up and make nothing of my crime +against you!"--for he would not see her on her knees, and soothed her as +a kind father might have soothed an erring daughter--"thank you, bless +you, thank you!" + +When he next spoke, it was after having drawn aside the window-curtain +and looked out a while. Then, he only said: + +"Is Polly asleep?" + +"Yes. As I came in, I met her going away up-stairs, and put her to bed +myself." + +"Leave her with me for to-morrow, Beatrice, and write me your address on +this leaf of my pocket-book. In the evening I will bring her home to +you--and to her father." + + * * * * * + +"Hallo!" cried Polly, putting her saucy sunny face in at the door next +morning when breakfast was ready: "I thought I was fetched last night?" + +"So you were, Polly, but I asked leave to keep you here for the day, and +to take you home in the evening." + +"Upon my word!" said Polly. "You are very cool, ain't you?" + +However, Polly seemed to think it a good idea, and added, "I suppose I +must give you a kiss, though you _are_ cool." The kiss given and taken, +they sat down to breakfast in a highly conversational tone. + +"Of course, you are going to amuse me?" said Polly. + +"Oh, of course," said Barbox Brothers. + +In the pleasurable height of her anticipations, Polly found it +indispensable to put down her piece of toast, cross one of her little fat +knees over the other, and bring her little fat right hand down into her +left hand with a business-like slap. After this gathering of herself +together, Polly, by that time, a mere heap of dimples, asked in a +wheedling manner: "What are we going to do, you dear old thing?" + +"Why, I was thinking," said Barbox Brothers, "--but are you fond of +horses, Polly?" + +"Ponies, I am," said Polly, "especially when their tails are long. But +horses--n--no--too big, you know." + +"Well," pursued Barbox Brothers, in a spirit of grave mysterious +confidence adapted to the importance of the consultation, "I did see +yesterday, Polly, on the walls, pictures of two long-tailed ponies, +speckled all over--" + +"No, no, NO!" cried Polly, in an ecstatic desire to linger on the +charming details. "Not speckled all over!" + +"Speckled all over. Which ponies jump through hoops--" + +"No, no, NO!" cried Polly, as before. "They never jump through hoops!" + +"Yes, they do. O I assure you, they do. And eat pie in pinafores--" + +"Ponies eating pie in pinafores!" said Polly. "What a story-teller you +are, ain't you?" + +"Upon my honour.--And fire off guns." + +(Polly hardly seemed to see the force of the ponies resorting to +fire-arms.) + +"And I was thinking," pursued the exemplary Barbox, "that if you and I +were to go to the Circus where these ponies are, it would do our +constitutions good." + +"Does that mean, amuse us?" inquired Polly. "What long words you do use, +don't you?" + +Apologetic for having wandered out of his depth, he replied: "That means, +amuse us. That is exactly what it means. There are many other wonders +besides the ponies, and we shall see them all. Ladies and gentlemen in +spangled dresses, and elephants and lions and tigers." + +Polly became observant of the teapot, with a curled-up nose indicating +some uneasiness of mind. "They never get out, of course," she remarked +as a mere truism. + +"The elephants and lions and tigers? O dear no!" + +"O dear no!" said Polly. "And of course nobody's afraid of the ponies +shooting anybody." + +"Not the least in the world." + +"No, no, not the least in the world," said Polly. + +"I was also thinking," proceeded Barbox, "that if we were to look in at +the toy-shop, to choose a doll--" + +"Not dressed!" cried Polly, with a clap of her hands. "No, no, NO, not +dressed!" + +"Full dressed. Together with a house, and all things necessary for +housekeeping--" + +Polly gave a little scream, and seemed in danger of falling into a swoon +of bliss. "What a darling you are!" she languidly exclaimed, leaning +back in her chair. "Come and be hugged, or I must come and hug you!" + +This resplendent programme was carried into execution with the utmost +rigour of the law. It being essential to make the purchase of the doll +its first feature--or that lady would have lost the ponies--the toy-shop +expedition took precedence. Polly in the magic warehouse, with a doll as +large as herself under each arm, and a neat assortment of some twenty +more on view upon the counter, did indeed present a spectacle of +indecision not quite compatible with unalloyed happiness, but the light +cloud passed. The lovely specimen oftenest chosen, oftenest rejected, +and finally abided by, was of Circassian descent, possessing as much +boldness of beauty as was reconcilable with extreme feebleness of mouth, +and combining a sky-blue silk pelisse with rose-coloured satin trousers, +and a black velvet hat: which this fair stranger to our northern shores +would seem to have founded on the portraits of the late Duchess of Kent. +The name this distinguished foreigner brought with her from beneath the +glowing skies of a sunny clime was (on Polly's authority) Miss Melluka, +and the costly nature of her outfit as a housekeeper, from the Barbox +coffers, may be inferred from the two facts that her silver teaspoons +were as large as her kitchen poker, and that the proportions of her watch +exceeded those of her frying-pan. Miss Melluka was graciously pleased to +express her entire approbation of the Circus, and so was Polly; for the +ponies _were_ speckled, and brought down nobody when they fired, and the +savagery of the wild beasts appeared to be mere smoke--which article, in +fact, they did produce in large quantities from their insides. The +Barbox absorption in the general subject throughout the realisation of +these delights was again a sight to see, nor was it less worthy to behold +at dinner, when he drank to Miss Melluka, tied stiff in a chair opposite +to Polly (the fair Circassian possessing an unbendable spine), and even +induced the waiter to assist in carrying out with due decorum the +prevailing glorious idea. To wind up, there came the agreeable fever of +getting Miss Melluka and all her wardrobe and rich possessions into a fly +with Polly, to be taken home. But by that time Polly had become unable +to look upon such accumulated joys with waking eyes, and had withdrawn +her consciousness into the wonderful Paradise of a child's sleep. +"Sleep, Polly, sleep," said Barbox Brothers, as her head dropped on his +shoulder; "you shall not fall out of this bed, easily, at any rate!" + +What rustling piece of paper he took from his pocket, and carefully +folded into the bosom of Polly's frock, shall not be mentioned. He said +nothing about it, and nothing shall be said about it. They drove to a +modest suburb of the great ingenious town, and stopped at the forecourt +of a small house. "Do not wake the child," said Barbox Brothers, softly, +to the driver, "I will carry her in as she is." + +Greeting the light at the opened door which was held by Polly's mother, +Polly's bearer passed on with mother and child into a ground-floor room. +There, stretched on a sofa, lay a sick man, sorely wasted, who covered +his eyes with his emaciated hands. + +"Tresham," said Barbox, in a kindly voice, "I have brought you back your +Polly, fast asleep. Give me your hand, and tell me you are better." + +The sick man reached forth his right hand, and bowed his head over the +hand into which it was taken and kissed it. "Thank you, thank you! I +may say that I am well and happy." + +"That's brave," said Barbox. "Tresham, I have a fancy--can you make room +for me beside you here?" + +He sat down on the sofa as he said words, cherishing the plump peachy +cheek that lay uppermost on his shoulder. + +"I have a fancy, Tresham (I am getting quite an old fellow now, you know, +and old fellows may take fancies into their heads sometimes), to give up +Polly, having found her, to no one but you. Will you take her from me?" + +As the father held out his arms for the child, each of the two men looked +steadily at the other. + +"She is very dear to you, Tresham?" + +"Unutterably dear." + +"God bless her! It is not much, Polly," he continued, turning his eyes +upon her peaceful face as he apostrophised her, "it is not much, Polly, +for a blind and sinful man to invoke a blessing on something so far +better than himself as a little child is; but it would be much--much upon +his cruel head, and much upon his guilty soul--if he could be so wicked +as to invoke a curse. He had better have a millstone round his neck, and +be cast into the deepest sea. Live and thrive, my pretty baby!" Here he +kissed her. "Live and prosper, and become in time the mother of other +little children, like the Angels who behold The Father's face!" + +He kissed her again, gave her up gently to both her parents, and went +out. + +But he went not to Wales. No, he never went to Wales. He went +straightway for another stroll about the town, and he looked in upon the +people at their work, and at their play, here, there, everywhere, and +where not. For he was Barbox Brothers and Co. now, and had taken +thousands of partners into the solitary firm. + +He had at length got back to his hotel room, and was standing before his +fire refreshing himself with a glass of hot drink which he had stood upon +the chimney-piece, when he heard the town clocks striking, and, referring +to his watch, found the evening to have so slipped away, that they were +striking twelve. As he put up his watch again, his eyes met those of his +reflection in the chimney-glass. + +"Why it's your birthday already," he said, smiling. "You are looking +very well. I wish you many happy returns of the day." + +He had never before bestowed that wish upon himself. "By Jupiter!" he +discovered, "it alters the whole case of running away from one's +birthday! It's a thing to explain to Phoebe. Besides, here is quite a +long story to tell her, that has sprung out of the road with no story. +I'll go back, instead of going on. I'll go back by my friend Lamps's Up +X presently." + +He went back to Mugby Junction, and in point of fact he established +himself at Mugby Junction. It was the convenient place to live in, for +brightening Phoebe's life. It was the convenient place to live in, for +having her taught music by Beatrice. It was the convenient place to live +in, for occasionally borrowing Polly. It was the convenient place to +live in, for being joined at will to all sorts of agreeable places and +persons. So, he became settled there, and, his house standing in an +elevated situation, it is noteworthy of him in conclusion, as Polly +herself might (not irreverently) have put it: + + There was an Old Barbox who lived on a hill, + And if he ain't gone, he lives there still. + +HERE FOLLOWS THE SUBSTANCE OF WHAT WAS SEEN, HEARD, OR OTHERWISE PICKED +UP, BY THE GENTLEMAN FOR NOWHERE, IN HIS CAREFUL STUDY OF THE JUNCTION. + + + + +MAIN LINE +THE BOY AT MUGBY + + +I am The Boy at Mugby. That's about what _I_ am. + +You don't know what I mean? What a pity! But I think you do. I think +you must. Look here. I am the Boy at what is called The Refreshment +Room at Mugby Junction, and what's proudest boast is, that it never yet +refreshed a mortal being. + +Up in a corner of the Down Refreshment Room at Mugby Junction, in the +height of twenty-seven cross draughts (I've often counted 'em while they +brush the First Class hair twenty-seven ways), behind the bottles, among +the glasses, bounded on the nor'-west by the beer, stood pretty far to +the right of a metallic object that's at times the tea-urn and at times +the soup-tureen, according to the nature of the last twang imparted to +its contents which are the same groundwork, fended off from the traveller +by a barrier of stale sponge-cakes erected atop of the counter, and +lastly exposed sideways to the glare of our Missis's eye--you ask a Boy +so sitiwated, next time you stop in a hurry at Mugby, for anything to +drink; you take particular notice that he'll try to seem not to hear you, +that he'll appear in a absent manner to survey the Line through a +transparent medium composed of your head and body, and that he won't +serve you as long as you can possibly bear it. That's Me. + +What a lark it is! We are the Model Establishment, we are, at Mugby. +Other Refreshment Rooms send their imperfect young ladies up to be +finished off by our Missis. For some of the young ladies, when they're +new to the business, come into it mild! Ah! Our Missis, she soon takes +that out of 'em. Why, I originally come into the business meek myself. +But Our Missis she soon took that out of _me_. + +What a delightful lark it is! I look upon us Refreshmenters as ockipying +the only proudly independent footing on the Line. There's Papers for +instance--my honourable friend if he will allow me to call him so--him as +belongs to Smith's bookstall. Why he no more dares to be up to our +Refreshmenting games, than he dares to jump atop of a locomotive with her +steam at full pressure, and cut away upon her alone, driving himself, at +limited-mail speed. Papers, he'd get his head punched at every +compartment, first, second and third, the whole length of a train, if he +was to ventur to imitate my demeanour. It's the same with the porters, +the same with the guards, the same with the ticket clerks, the same the +whole way up to the secretary, traffic manager, or very chairman. There +ain't a one among 'em on the nobly independent footing we are. Did you +ever catch one of _them_, when you wanted anything of him, making a +system of surveying the Line through a transparent medium composed of +your head and body? I should hope not. + +You should see our Bandolining Room at Mugby Junction. It's led to, by +the door behind the counter which you'll notice usually stands ajar, and +it's the room where Our Missis and our young ladies Bandolines their +hair. You should see 'em at it, betwixt trains, Bandolining away, as if +they was anointing themselves for the combat. When you're telegraphed, +you should see their noses all a going up with scorn, as if it was a part +of the working of the same Cooke and Wheatstone electrical machinery. +You should hear Our Missis give the word "Here comes the Beast to be +Fed!" and then you should see 'em indignantly skipping across the Line, +from the Up to the Down, or Wicer Warsaw, and begin to pitch the stale +pastry into the plates, and chuck the sawdust sangwiches under the glass +covers, and get out the--ha ha ha!--the Sherry--O my eye, my eye!--for +your Refreshment. + +It's only in the Isle of the Brave and Land of the Free (by which of +course I mean to say Britannia) that Refreshmenting is so effective, so +'olesome, so constitutional, a check upon the public. There was a +foreigner, which having politely, with his hat off, beseeched our young +ladies and Our Missis for "a leetel gloss hoff prarndee," and having had +the Line surveyed through him by all and no other acknowledgment, was a +proceeding at last to help himself, as seems to be the custom in his own +country, when Our Missis with her hair almost a coming un-Bandolined with +rage, and her eyes omitting sparks, flew at him, cotched the decanter out +of his hand, and said: "Put it down! I won't allow that!" The foreigner +turned pale, stepped back with his arms stretched out in front of him, +his hands clasped, and his shoulders riz, and exclaimed: "Ah! Is it +possible this! That these disdaineous females and this ferocious old +woman are placed here by the administration, not only to empoison the +voyagers, but to affront them! Great Heaven! How arrives it? The +English people. Or is he then a slave? Or idiot?" Another time, a +merry wideawake American gent had tried the sawdust and spit it out, and +had tried the Sherry and spit that out, and had tried in vain to sustain +exhausted natur upon Butter-Scotch, and had been rather extra Bandolined +and Line-surveyed through, when, as the bell was ringing and he paid Our +Missis, he says, very loud and good-tempered: "I tell Yew what 'tis, +ma'arm. I la'af. Theer! I la'af. I Dew. I oughter ha' seen most +things, for I hail from the Onlimited side of the Atlantic Ocean, and I +haive travelled right slick over the Limited, head on through +Jee-rusalemm and the East, and likeways France and Italy, Europe Old +World, and am now upon the track to the Chief Europian Village; but such +an Institution as Yew, and Yewer young ladies, and Yewer fixin's solid +and liquid, afore the glorious Tarnal I never did see yet! And if I +hain't found the eighth wonder of monarchical Creation, in finding Yew, +and Yewer young ladies, and Yewer fixin's solid and liquid, all as +aforesaid, established in a country where the people air not absolute +Loo-naticks, I am Extra Double Darned with a Nip and Frizzle to the +innermostest grit! Wheerfur--Theer!--I la'af! I Dew, ma'arm. I la'af!" +And so he went, stamping and shaking his sides, along the platform all +the way to his own compartment. + +I think it was her standing up agin the Foreigner, as giv' Our Missis the +idea of going over to France, and droring a comparison betwixt +Refreshmenting as followed among the frog-eaters, and Refreshmenting as +triumphant in the Isle of the Brave and Land of the Free (by which of +course I mean to say agin, Britannia). Our young ladies, Miss Whiff, +Miss Piff, and Mrs. Sniff, was unanimous opposed to her going; for, as +they says to Our Missis one and all, it is well beknown to the hends of +the herth as no other nation except Britain has a idea of anythink, but +above all of business. Why then should you tire yourself to prove what +is aready proved? Our Missis however (being a teazer at all pints) stood +out grim obstinate, and got a return pass by South-Eastern Tidal, to go +right through, if such should be her dispositions, to Marseilles. + +Sniff is husband to Mrs. Sniff, and is a regular insignificant cove. He +looks arter the sawdust department in a back room, and is sometimes when +we are very hard put to it let in behind the counter with a corkscrew; +but never when it can be helped, his demeanour towards the public being +disgusting servile. How Mrs. Sniff ever come so far to lower herself as +to marry him, I don't know; but I suppose _he_ does, and I should think +he wished he didn't, for he leads a awful life. Mrs. Sniff couldn't be +much harder with him if he was public. Similarly, Miss Whiff and Miss +Piff; taking the tone of Mrs. Sniff, they shoulder Sniff about when he is +let in with a corkscrew, and they whisk things out of his hands when in +his servility he is a going to let the public have 'em, and they snap him +up when in the crawling baseness of his spirit he is a going to answer a +public question, and they drore more tears into his eyes than ever the +mustard does which he all day long lays on to the sawdust. (But it ain't +strong.) Once, when Sniff had the repulsiveness to reach across to get +the milk-pot to hand over for a baby, I see Our Missis in her rage catch +him by both his shoulders and spin him out into the Bandolining Room. + +But Mrs. Sniff. How different! She's the one! She's the one as you'll +notice to be always looking another way from you, when you look at her. +She's the one with the small waist buckled in tight in front, and with +the lace cuffs at her wrists, which she puts on the edge of the counter +before her, and stands a smoothing while the public foams. This +smoothing the cuffs and looking another way while the public foams, is +the last accomplishment taught to the young ladies as come to Mugby to be +finished by Our Missis; and it's always taught by Mrs. Sniff. + +When Our Missis went away upon her journey, Mrs. Sniff was left in +charge. She did hold the public in check most beautiful! In all my +time, I never see half so many cups of tea given without milk to people +as wanted it with, nor half so many cups of tea with milk given to people +as wanted it without. When foaming ensued, Mrs. Sniff would say: "Then +you'd better settle it among yourselves, and change with one another." +It was a most highly delicious lark. I enjoyed the Refreshmenting +business more than ever, and was so glad I had took to it when young. + +Our Missis returned. It got circulated among the young ladies, and it as +it might be penetrated to me through the crevices of the Bandolining +Room, that she had Orrors to reveal, if revelations so contemptible could +be dignified with the name. Agitation become awakened. Excitement was +up in the stirrups. Expectation stood a tiptoe. At length it was put +forth that on our slackest evening in the week, and at our slackest time +of that evening betwixt trains, Our Missis would give her views of +foreign Refreshmenting, in the Bandolining Room. + +It was arranged tasteful for the purpose. The Bandolining table and +glass was hid in a corner, a arm-chair was elevated on a packing-case for +Our Missis's ockypation, a table and a tumbler of water (no sherry in it, +thankee) was placed beside it. Two of the pupils, the season being +autumn, and hollyhocks and daliahs being in, ornamented the wall with +three devices in those flowers. On one might be read, "MAY ALBION NEVER +LEARN;" on another, "KEEP THE PUBLIC DOWN;" on another, "OUR +REFRESHMENTING CHARTER." The whole had a beautiful appearance, with +which the beauty of the sentiments corresponded. + +On Our Missis's brow was wrote Severity, as she ascended the fatal +platform. (Not that that was anythink new.) Miss Whiff and Miss Piff +sat at her feet. Three chairs from the Waiting Room might have been +perceived by a average eye, in front of her, on which the pupils was +accommodated. Behind them, a very close observer might have discerned a +Boy. Myself. + +"Where," said Our Missis, glancing gloomily around, "is Sniff?" + +"I thought it better," answered Mrs. Sniff, "that he should not be let to +come in. He is such an Ass." + +"No doubt," assented Our Missis. "But for that reason is it not +desirable to improve his mind?" + +"O! Nothing will ever improve _him_," said Mrs. Sniff. + +"However," pursued Our Missis, "call him in, Ezekiel." + +I called him in. The appearance of the low-minded cove was hailed with +disapprobation from all sides, on account of his having brought his +corkscrew with him. He pleaded "the force of habit." + +"The force!" said Mrs. Sniff. "Don't let us have you talking about +force, for Gracious sake. There! Do stand still where you are, with +your back against the wall." + +He is a smiling piece of vacancy, and he smiled in the mean way in which +he will even smile at the public if he gets a chance (language can say no +meaner of him), and he stood upright near the door with the back of his +head agin the wall, as if he was a waiting for somebody to come and +measure his heighth for the Army. + +"I should not enter, ladies," says Our Missis, "on the revolting +disclosures I am about to make, if it was not in the hope that they will +cause you to be yet more implacable in the exercise of the power you +wield in a constitutional country, and yet more devoted to the +constitutional motto which I see before me;" it was behind her, but the +words sounded better so; "'May Albion never learn!'" + +Here the pupils as had made the motto, admired it, and cried, "Hear! +Hear! Hear!" Sniff, showing an inclination to join in chorus, got +himself frowned down by every brow. + +"The baseness of the French," pursued Our Missis, "as displayed in the +fawning nature of their Refreshmenting, equals, if not surpasses, +anythink as was ever heard of the baseness of the celebrated Buonaparte." + +Miss Whiff, Miss Piff and me, we drored a heavy breath, equal to saying, +"We thought as much!" + +Miss Whiff and Miss Piff seeming to object to my droring mine along with +theirs, I drored another, to aggravate 'em. + +"Shall I be believed," says Our Missis, with flashing eyes, "when I tell +you that no sooner had I set my foot upon that treacherous shore--" + +Here Sniff, either busting out mad, or thinking aloud, says, in a low +voice: "Feet. Plural, you know." + +The cowering that come upon him when he was spurned by all eyes, added to +his being beneath contempt, was sufficient punishment for a cove so +grovelling. In the midst of a silence rendered more impressive by the +turned-up female noses with which it was pervaded, Our Missis went on: + +"Shall I be believed when I tell you that no sooner had I landed," this +word with a killing look at Sniff, "on that treacherous shore, than I was +ushered into a Refreshment Room where there were, I do not exaggerate, +actually eatable things to eat?" + +A groan burst from the ladies. I not only did myself the honour of +jining, but also of lengthening it out. + +"Where there were," Our Missis added, "not only eatable things to eat, +but also drinkable things to drink?" + +A murmur, swelling almost into a scream, ariz. Miss Piff, trembling with +indignation, called out: "Name!" + +"I _will_ name," said Our Missis. "There was roast fowls, hot and cold; +there was smoking roast veal surrounded with browned potatoes; there was +hot soup with (again I ask shall I be credited?) nothing bitter in it, +and no flour to choke off the consumer; there was a variety of cold +dishes set off with jelly; there was salad; there was--mark me!--_fresh_ +pastry, and that of a light construction; there was a luscious show of +fruit. There was bottles and decanters of sound small wine, of every +size and adapted to every pocket; the same odious statement will apply to +brandy; and these were set out upon the counter so that all could help +themselves." + +Our Missis's lips so quivered, that Mrs. Sniff, though scarcely less +convulsed than she were, got up and held the tumbler to them. + +"This," proceeds Our Missis, "was my first unconstitutional experience. +Well would it have been, if it had been my last and worst. But no. As I +proceeded further into that enslaved and ignorant land, its aspect became +more hideous. I need not explain to this assembly, the ingredients and +formation of the British Refreshment sangwich?" + +Universal laughter--except from Sniff, who, as sangwich-cutter, shook his +head in a state of the utmost dejection as he stood with it agin the +wall. + +"Well!" said Our Missis, with dilated nostrils. "Take a fresh crisp long +crusty penny loaf made of the whitest and best flower. Cut it longwise +through the middle. Insert a fair and nicely fitting slice of ham. Tie +a smart piece of ribbon round the middle of the whole to bind it +together. Add at one end a neat wrapper of clean white paper by which to +hold it. And the universal French Refreshment sangwich busts on your +disgusted vision." + +A cry of "Shame!" from all--except Sniff, which rubbed his stomach with a +soothing hand. + +"I need not," said Our Missis, "explain to this assembly, the usual +formation and fitting of the British Refreshment Room?" + +No, no, and laughter. Sniff agin shaking his head in low spirits agin +the wall. + +"Well," said Our Missis, "what would you say to a general decoration of +everythink, to hangings (sometimes elegant), to easy velvet furniture, to +abundance of little tables, to abundance of little seats, to brisk bright +waiters, to great convenience, to a pervading cleanliness and +tastefulness positively addressing the public and making the Beast +thinking itself worth the pains?" + +Contemptuous fury on the part of all the ladies. Mrs. Sniff looking as +if she wanted somebody to hold her, and everybody else looking as if +they'd rayther not. + +"Three times," said our Missis, working herself into a truly +terrimenjious state, "three times did I see these shamful things, only +between the coast and Paris, and not counting either: at Hazebroucke, at +Arras, at Amiens. But worse remains. Tell me, what would you call a +person who should propose in England that there should be kept, say at +our own model Mugby Junction, pretty baskets, each holding an assorted +cold lunch and dessert for one, each at a certain fixed price, and each +within a passenger's power to take away, to empty in the carriage at +perfect leisure, and to return at another station fifty or a hundred +miles further on?" + +There was disagreement what such a person should be called. Whether +revolutionist, atheist, Bright (_I_ said him), or Un-English. Miss Piff +screeched her shrill opinion last, in the words: "A malignant maniac!" + +"I adopt," says Our Missis, "the brand set upon such a person by the +righteous indignation of my friend Miss Piff. A malignant maniac. Know +then, that that malignant maniac has sprung from the congenial soil of +France, and that his malignant madness was in unchecked action on this +same part of my journey." + +I noticed that Sniff was a rubbing his hands, and that Mrs. Sniff had got +her eye upon him. But I did not take more particular notice, owing to +the excited state in which the young ladies was, and to feeling myself +called upon to keep it up with a howl. + +"On my experience south of Paris," said Our Missis, in a deep tone, "I +will not expatiate. Too loathsome were the task! But fancy this. Fancy +a guard coming round, with the train at full speed, to inquire how many +for dinner. Fancy his telegraphing forward, the number of diners. Fancy +every one expected, and the table elegantly laid for the complete party. +Fancy a charming dinner, in a charming room, and the head-cook, concerned +for the honour of every dish, superintending in his clean white jacket +and cap. Fancy the Beast travelling six hundred miles on end, very fast, +and with great punctuality, yet being taught to expect all this to be +done for it!" + +A spirited chorus of "The Beast!" + +I noticed that Sniff was agin a rubbing his stomach with a soothing hand, +and that he had drored up one leg. But agin I didn't take particular +notice, looking on myself as called upon to stimilate public feeling. It +being a lark besides. + +"Putting everything together," said Our Missis, "French Refreshmenting +comes to this, and O it comes to a nice total! First: eatable things to +eat, and drinkable things to drink." + +A groan from the young ladies, kep' up by me. + +"Second: convenience, and even elegance." + +Another groan from the young ladies, kep' up by me. + +"Third: moderate charges." + +This time, a groan from me, kep' up by the young ladies. + +"Fourth:--and here," says Our Missis, "I claim your angriest +sympathy--attention, common civility, nay, even politeness!" + +Me and the young ladies regularly raging mad all together. + +"And I cannot in conclusion," says Our Missis, with her spitefullest +sneer, "give you a completer pictur of that despicable nation (after what +I have related), than assuring you that they wouldn't bear our +constitutional ways and noble independence at Mugby Junction, for a +single month, and that they would turn us to the right-about and put +another system in our places, as soon as look at us; perhaps sooner, for +I do not believe they have the good taste to care to look at us twice." + +The swelling tumult was arrested in its rise. Sniff, bore away by his +servile disposition, had drored up his leg with a higher and a higher +relish, and was now discovered to be waving his corkscrew over his head. +It was at this moment that Mrs. Sniff, who had kep' her eye upon him like +the fabled obelisk, descended on her victim. Our Missis followed them +both out, and cries was heard in the sawdust department. + +You come into the Down Refreshment Room, at the Junction, making believe +you don't know me, and I'll pint you out with my right thumb over my +shoulder which is Our Missis, and which is Miss Whiff; and which is Miss +Piff; and which is Mrs. Sniff. But you won't get a chance to see Sniff, +because he disappeared that night. Whether he perished, tore to pieces, +I cannot say; but his corkscrew alone remains, to bear witness to the +servility of his disposition. + + + + +NO. 1 BRANCH LINE +THE SIGNAL-MAN + + +"Halloa! Below there!" + +When he heard a voice thus calling to him, he was standing at the door of +his box, with a flag in his hand, furled round its short pole. One would +have thought, considering the nature of the ground, that he could not +have doubted from what quarter the voice came; but, instead of looking up +to where I stood on the top of the steep cutting nearly over his head, he +turned himself about and looked down the Line. There was something +remarkable in his manner of doing so, though I could not have said, for +my life, what. But, I know it was remarkable enough to attract my +notice, even though his figure was foreshortened and shadowed, down in +the deep trench, and mine was high above him, so steeped in the glow of +an angry sunset that I had shaded my eyes with my hand before I saw him +at all. + +"Halloa! Below!" + +From looking down the Line, he turned himself about again, and, raising +his eyes, saw my figure high above him. + +"Is there any path by which I can come down and speak to you?" + +He looked up at me without replying, and I looked down at him without +pressing him too soon with a repetition of my idle question. Just then, +there came a vague vibration in the earth and air, quickly changing into +a violent pulsation, and an oncoming rush that caused me to start back, +as though it had force to draw me down. When such vapour as rose to my +height from this rapid train, had passed me and was skimming away over +the landscape, I looked down again and saw him re-furling the flag he had +shown while the train went by. + +I repeated my inquiry. After a pause, during which he seemed to regard +me with fixed attention, he motioned with his rolled-up flag towards a +point on my level, some two or three hundred yards distant. I called +down to him, "All right!" and made for that point. There, by dint of +looking closely about me, I found a rough zig-zag descending path notched +out: which I followed. + +The cutting was extremely deep, and unusually precipitate. It was made +through a clammy stone that became oozier and wetter as I went down. For +these reasons, I found the way long enough to give me time to recall a +singular air of reluctance or compulsion with which he had pointed out +the path. + +When I came down low enough upon the zig-zag descent, to see him again, I +saw that he was standing between the rails on the way by which the train +had lately passed, in an attitude as if he were waiting for me to appear. +He had his left hand at his chin, and that left elbow rested on his right +hand crossed over his breast. His attitude was one of such expectation +and watchfulness, that I stopped a moment, wondering at it. + +I resumed my downward way, and, stepping out upon the level of the +railroad and drawing nearer to him, saw that he was a dark sallow man, +with a dark beard and rather heavy eyebrows. His post was in as solitary +and dismal a place as ever I saw. On either side, a dripping-wet wall of +jagged stone, excluding all view but a strip of sky; the perspective one +way, only a crooked prolongation of this great dungeon; the shorter +perspective in the other direction, terminating in a gloomy red light, +and the gloomier entrance to a black tunnel, in whose massive +architecture there was a barbarous, depressing, and forbidding air. So +little sunlight ever found its way to this spot, that it had an earthy +deadly smell; and so much cold wind rushed through it, that it struck +chill to me, as if I had left the natural world. + +Before he stirred, I was near enough to him to have touched him. Not +even then removing his eyes from mine, he stepped back one step, and +lifted his hand. + +This was a lonesome post to occupy (I said), and it had riveted my +attention when I looked down from up yonder. A visitor was a rarity, I +should suppose; not an unwelcome rarity, I hoped? In me, he merely saw a +man who had been shut up within narrow limits all his life, and who, +being at last set free, had a newly-awakened interest in these great +works. To such purpose I spoke to him; but I am far from sure of the +terms I used, for, besides that I am not happy in opening any +conversation, there was something in the man that daunted me. + +He directed a most curious look towards the red light near the tunnel's +mouth, and looked all about it, as if something were missing from it, and +then looked at me. + +That light was part of his charge? Was it not? + +He answered in a low voice: "Don't you know it is?" + +The monstrous thought came into my mind as I perused the fixed eyes and +the saturnine face, that this was a spirit, not a man. I have speculated +since, whether there may have been infection in his mind. + +In my turn, I stepped back. But in making the action, I detected in his +eyes some latent fear of me. This put the monstrous thought to flight. + +"You look at me," I said, forcing a smile, "as if you had a dread of me." + +"I was doubtful," he returned, "whether I had seen you before." + +"Where?" + +He pointed to the red light he had looked at. + +"There?" I said. + +Intently watchful of me, he replied (but without sound), "Yes." + +"My good fellow, what should I do there? However, be that as it may, I +never was there, you may swear." + +"I think I may," he rejoined. "Yes. I am sure I may." + +His manner cleared, like my own. He replied to my remarks with +readiness, and in well-chosen words. Had he much to do there? Yes; that +was to say, he had enough responsibility to bear; but exactness and +watchfulness were what was required of him, and of actual work--manual +labour--he had next to none. To change that signal, to trim those +lights, and to turn this iron handle now and then, was all he had to do +under that head. Regarding those many long and lonely hours of which I +seemed to make so much, he could only say that the routine of his life +had shaped itself into that form, and he had grown used to it. He had +taught himself a language down here--if only to know it by sight, and to +have formed his own crude ideas of its pronunciation, could be called +learning it. He had also worked at fractions and decimals, and tried a +little algebra; but he was, and had been as a boy, a poor hand at +figures. Was it necessary for him when on duty, always to remain in that +channel of damp air, and could he never rise into the sunshine from +between those high stone walls? Why, that depended upon times and +circumstances. Under some conditions there would be less upon the Line +than under others, and the same held good as to certain hours of the day +and night. In bright weather, he did choose occasions for getting a +little above these lower shadows; but, being at all times liable to be +called by his electric bell, and at such times listening for it with +redoubled anxiety, the relief was less than I would suppose. + +He took me into his box, where there was a fire, a desk for an official +book in which he had to make certain entries, a telegraphic instrument +with its dial face and needles, and the little bell of which he had +spoken. On my trusting that he would excuse the remark that he had been +well educated, and (I hoped I might say without offence), perhaps +educated above that station, he observed that instances of slight +incongruity in such-wise would rarely be found wanting among large bodies +of men; that he had heard it was so in workhouses, in the police force, +even in that last desperate resource, the army; and that he knew it was +so, more or less, in any great railway staff. He had been, when young +(if I could believe it, sitting in that hut; he scarcely could), a +student of natural philosophy, and had attended lectures; but he had run +wild, misused his opportunities, gone down, and never risen again. He +had no complaint to offer about that. He had made his bed, and he lay +upon it. It was far too late to make another. + +All that I have here condensed, he said in a quiet manner, with his grave +dark regards divided between me and the fire. He threw in the word +"Sir," from time to time, and especially when he referred to his youth: +as though to request me to understand that he claimed to be nothing but +what I found him. He was several times interrupted by the little bell, +and had to read off messages, and send replies. Once, he had to stand +without the door, and display a flag as a train passed, and make some +verbal communication to the driver. In the discharge of his duties I +observed him to be remarkably exact and vigilant, breaking off his +discourse at a syllable, and remaining silent until what he had to do was +done. + +In a word, I should have set this man down as one of the safest of men to +be employed in that capacity, but for the circumstance that while he was +speaking to me he twice broke off with a fallen colour, turned his face +towards the little bell when it did NOT ring, opened the door of the hut +(which was kept shut to exclude the unhealthy damp), and looked out +towards the red light near the mouth of the tunnel. On both of those +occasions, he came back to the fire with the inexplicable air upon him +which I had remarked, without being able to define, when we were so far +asunder. + +Said I when I rose to leave him: "You almost make me think that I have +met with a contented man." + +(I am afraid I must acknowledge that I said it to lead him on). + +"I believe I used to be so," he rejoined, in the low voice in which he +had first spoken; "but I am troubled, sir, I am troubled." + +He would have recalled the words if he could. He had said them, however, +and I took them up quickly. + +"With what? What is your trouble?" + +"It is very difficult to impart, sir. It is very, very, difficult to +speak of. If ever you make me another visit, I will try to tell you." + +"But I expressly intend to make you another visit. Say, when shall it +be?" + +"I go off early in the morning, and I shall be on again at ten to-morrow +night, sir." + +"I will come at eleven." + +He thanked me, and went out at the door with me. "I'll show my white +light, sir," he said, in his peculiar low voice, "till you have found the +way up. When you have found it, don't call out! And when you are at the +top, don't call out!" + +His manner seemed to make the place strike colder to me, but I said no +more than "Very well." + +"And when you come down to-morrow night, don't call out! Let me ask you +a parting question. What made you cry 'Halloa! Below there!' to-night?" + +"Heaven knows," said I. "I cried something to that effect--" + +"Not to that effect, sir. Those were the very words. I know them well." + +"Admit those were the very words. I said them, no doubt, because I saw +you below." + +"For no other reason?" + +"What other reason could I possibly have!" + +"You had no feeling that they were conveyed to you in any supernatural +way?" + +"No." + +He wished me good night, and held up his light. I walked by the side of +the down Line of rails (with a very disagreeable sensation of a train +coming behind me), until I found the path. It was easier to mount than +to descend, and I got back to my inn without any adventure. + +Punctual to my appointment, I placed my foot on the first notch of the +zig-zag next night, as the distant clocks were striking eleven. He was +waiting for me at the bottom, with his white light on. "I have not +called out," I said, when we came close together; "may I speak now?" "By +all means, sir." "Good night then, and here's my hand." "Good night, +sir, and here's mine." With that, we walked side by side to his box, +entered it, closed the door, and sat down by the fire. + +"I have made up my mind, sir," he began, bending forward as soon as we +were seated, and speaking in a tone but a little above a whisper, "that +you shall not have to ask me twice what troubles me. I took you for some +one else yesterday evening. That troubles me." + +"That mistake?" + +"No. That some one else." + +"Who is it?" + +"I don't know." + +"Like me?" + +"I don't know. I never saw the face. The left arm is across the face, +and the right arm is waved. Violently waved. This way." + +I followed his action with my eyes, and it was the action of an arm +gesticulating with the utmost passion and vehemence: "For God's sake +clear the way!" + +"One moonlight night," said the man, "I was sitting here, when I heard a +voice cry 'Halloa! Below there!' I started up, looked from that door, +and saw this Some one else standing by the red light near the tunnel, +waving as I just now showed you. The voice seemed hoarse with shouting, +and it cried, 'Look out! Look out!' And then again 'Halloa! Below +there! Look out!' I caught up my lamp, turned it on red, and ran towards +the figure, calling, 'What's wrong? What has happened? Where?' It +stood just outside the blackness of the tunnel. I advanced so close upon +it that I wondered at its keeping the sleeve across its eyes. I ran +right up at it, and had my hand stretched out to pull the sleeve away, +when it was gone." + +"Into the tunnel," said I. + +"No. I ran on, into the tunnel, five hundred yards. I stopped and held +my lamp above my head, and saw the figures of the measured distance, and +saw the wet stains stealing down the walls and trickling through the +arch. I ran out again, faster than I had run in (for I had a mortal +abhorrence of the place upon me), and I looked all round the red light +with my own red light, and I went up the iron ladder to the gallery atop +of it, and I came down again, and ran back here. I telegraphed both +ways: 'An alarm has been given. Is anything wrong?' The answer came +back, both ways: 'All well.'" + +Resisting the slow touch of a frozen finger tracing out my spine, I +showed him how that this figure must be a deception of his sense of +sight, and how that figures, originating in disease of the delicate +nerves that minister to the functions of the eye, were known to have +often troubled patients, some of whom had become conscious of the nature +of their affliction, and had even proved it by experiments upon +themselves. "As to an imaginary cry," said I, "do but listen for a +moment to the wind in this unnatural valley while we speak so low, and to +the wild harp it makes of the telegraph wires!" + +That was all very well, he returned, after we had sat listening for a +while, and he ought to know something of the wind and the wires, he who +so often passed long winter nights there, alone and watching. But he +would beg to remark that he had not finished. + +I asked his pardon, and he slowly added these words, touching my arm: + +"Within six hours after the Appearance, the memorable accident on this +Line happened, and within ten hours the dead and wounded were brought +along through the tunnel over the spot where the figure had stood." + +A disagreeable shudder crept over me, but I did my best against it. It +was not to be denied, I rejoined, that this was a remarkable coincidence, +calculated deeply to impress his mind. But, it was unquestionable that +remarkable coincidences did continually occur, and they must be taken +into account in dealing with such a subject. Though to be sure I must +admit, I added (for I thought I saw that he was going to bring the +objection to bear upon me), men of common sense did not allow much for +coincidences in making the ordinary calculations of life. + +He again begged to remark that he had not finished. + +I again begged his pardon for being betrayed into interruptions. + +"This," he said, again laying his hand upon my arm, and glancing over his +shoulder with hollow eyes, "was just a year ago. Six or seven months +passed, and I had recovered from the surprise and shock, when one +morning, as the day was breaking, I, standing at that door, looked +towards the red light, and saw the spectre again." He stopped, with a +fixed look at me. + +"Did it cry out?" + +"No. It was silent." + +"Did it wave its arm?" + +"No. It leaned against the shaft of the light, with both hands before +the face. Like this." + +Once more, I followed his action with my eyes. It was an action of +mourning. I have seen such an attitude in stone figures on tombs. + +"Did you go up to it?" + +"I came in and sat down, partly to collect my thoughts, partly because it +had turned me faint. When I went to the door again, daylight was above +me, and the ghost was gone." + +"But nothing followed? Nothing came of this?" + +He touched me on the arm with his forefinger twice or thrice, giving a +ghastly nod each time: + +"That very day, as a train came out of the tunnel, I noticed, at a +carriage window on my side, what looked like a confusion of hands and +heads, and something waved. I saw it, just in time to signal the driver, +Stop! He shut off, and put his brake on, but the train drifted past here +a hundred and fifty yards or more. I ran after it, and, as I went along, +heard terrible screams and cries. A beautiful young lady had died +instantaneously in one of the compartments, and was brought in here, and +laid down on this floor between us." + +Involuntarily, I pushed my chair back, as I looked from the boards at +which he pointed, to himself. + +"True, sir. True. Precisely as it happened, so I tell it you." + +I could think of nothing to say, to any purpose, and my mouth was very +dry. The wind and the wires took up the story with a long lamenting +wail. + +He resumed. "Now, sir, mark this, and judge how my mind is troubled. +The spectre came back, a week ago. Ever since, it has been there, now +and again, by fits and starts." + +"At the light?" + +"At the Danger-light." + +"What does it seem to do?" + +He repeated, if possible with increased passion and vehemence, that +former gesticulation of "For God's sake clear the way!" + +Then, he went on. "I have no peace or rest for it. It calls to me, for +many minutes together, in an agonised manner, 'Below there! Look out! +Look out!' It stands waving to me. It rings my little bell--" + +I caught at that. "Did it ring your bell yesterday evening when I was +here, and you went to the door?" + +"Twice." + +"Why, see," said I, "how your imagination misleads you. My eyes were on +the bell, and my ears were open to the bell, and if I am a living man, it +did NOT ring at those times. No, nor at any other time, except when it +was rung in the natural course of physical things by the station +communicating with you." + +He shook his head. "I have never made a mistake as to that, yet, sir. I +have never confused the spectre's ring with the man's. The ghost's ring +is a strange vibration in the bell that it derives from nothing else, and +I have not asserted that the bell stirs to the eye. I don't wonder that +you failed to hear it. But _I_ heard it." + +"And did the spectre seem to be there, when you looked out?" + +"It WAS there." + +"Both times?" + +He repeated firmly: "Both times." + +"Will you come to the door with me, and look for it now?" + +He bit his under-lip as though he were somewhat unwilling, but arose. I +opened the door, and stood on the step, while he stood in the doorway. +There, was the Danger-light. There, was the dismal mouth of the tunnel. +There, were the high wet stone walls of the cutting. There, were the +stars above them. + +"Do you see it?" I asked him, taking particular note of his face. His +eyes were prominent and strained; but not very much more so, perhaps, +than my own had been when I had directed them earnestly towards the same +spot. + +"No," he answered. "It is not there." + +"Agreed," said I. + +We went in again, shut the door, and resumed our seats. I was thinking +how best to improve this advantage, if it might be called one, when he +took up the conversation in such a matter of course way, so assuming that +there could be no serious question of fact between us, that I felt myself +placed in the weakest of positions. + +"By this time you will fully understand, sir," he said, "that what +troubles me so dreadfully, is the question, What does the spectre mean?" + +I was not sure, I told him, that I did fully understand. + +"What is its warning against?" he said, ruminating, with his eyes on the +fire, and only by times turning them on me. "What is the danger? Where +is the danger? There is danger overhanging, somewhere on the Line. Some +dreadful calamity will happen. It is not to be doubted this third time, +after what has gone before. But surely this is a cruel haunting of _me_. +What can _I_ do!" + +He pulled out his handkerchief, and wiped the drops from his heated +forehead. + +"If I telegraph Danger, on either side of me, or on both, I can give no +reason for it," he went on, wiping the palms of his hands. "I should get +into trouble, and do no good. They would think I was mad. This is the +way it would work:--Message: 'Danger! Take care!' Answer: 'What danger? +Where?' Message: 'Don't know. But for God's sake take care!' They +would displace me. What else could they do?" + +His pain of mind was most pitiable to see. It was the mental torture of +a conscientious man, oppressed beyond endurance by an unintelligible +responsibility involving life. + +"When it first stood under the Danger-light," he went on, putting his +dark hair back from his head, and drawing his hands outward across and +across his temples in an extremity of feverish distress, "why not tell me +where that accident was to happen--if it must happen? Why not tell me +how it could be averted--if it could have been averted? When on its +second coming it hid its face, why not tell me instead: 'She is going to +die. Let them keep her at home'? If it came, on those two occasions, +only to show me that its warnings were true, and so to prepare me for the +third, why not warn me plainly now? And I, Lord help me! A mere poor +signal-man on this solitary station! Why not go to somebody with credit +to be believed, and power to act!" + +When I saw him in this state, I saw that for the poor man's sake, as well +as for the public safety, what I had to do for the time was, to compose +his mind. Therefore, setting aside all question of reality or unreality +between us, I represented to him that whoever thoroughly discharged his +duty, must do well, and that at least it was his comfort that he +understood his duty, though he did not understand these confounding +Appearances. In this effort I succeeded far better than in the attempt +to reason him out of his conviction. He became calm; the occupations +incidental to his post as the night advanced, began to make larger +demands on his attention; and I left him at two in the morning. I had +offered to stay through the night, but he would not hear of it. + +That I more than once looked back at the red light as I ascended the +pathway, that I did not like the red light, and that I should have slept +but poorly if my bed had been under it, I see no reason to conceal. Nor, +did I like the two sequences of the accident and the dead girl. I see no +reason to conceal that, either. + +But, what ran most in my thoughts was the consideration how ought I to +act, having become the recipient of this disclosure? I had proved the +man to be intelligent, vigilant, painstaking, and exact; but how long +might he remain so, in his state of mind? Though in a subordinate +position, still he held a most important trust, and would I (for +instance) like to stake my own life on the chances of his continuing to +execute it with precision? + +Unable to overcome a feeling that there would be something treacherous in +my communicating what he had told me, to his superiors in the Company, +without first being plain with himself and proposing a middle course to +him, I ultimately resolved to offer to accompany him (otherwise keeping +his secret for the present) to the wisest medical practitioner we could +hear of in those parts, and to take his opinion. A change in his time of +duty would come round next night, he had apprised me, and he would be off +an hour or two after sunrise, and on again soon after sunset. I had +appointed to return accordingly. + +Next evening was a lovely evening, and I walked out early to enjoy it. +The sun was not yet quite down when I traversed the field-path near the +top of the deep cutting. I would extend my walk for an hour, I said to +myself, half an hour on and half an hour back, and it would then be time +to go to my signal-man's box. + +Before pursuing my stroll, I stepped to the brink, and mechanically +looked down, from the point from which I had first seen him. I cannot +describe the thrill that seized upon me, when, close at the mouth of the +tunnel, I saw the appearance of a man, with his left sleeve across his +eyes, passionately waving his right arm. + +The nameless horror that oppressed me, passed in a moment, for in a +moment I saw that this appearance of a man was a man indeed, and that +there was a little group of other men standing at a short distance, to +whom he seemed to be rehearsing the gesture he made. The Danger-light +was not yet lighted. Against its shaft, a little low hut, entirely new +to me, had been made of some wooden supports and tarpaulin. It looked no +bigger than a bed. + +With an irresistible sense that something was wrong--with a flashing +self-reproachful fear that fatal mischief had come of my leaving the man +there, and causing no one to be sent to overlook or correct what he +did--I descended the notched path with all the speed I could make. + +"What is the matter?" I asked the men. + +"Signal-man killed this morning, sir." + +"Not the man belonging to that box?" + +"Yes, sir." + +"Not the man I know?" + +"You will recognise him, sir, if you knew him," said the man who spoke +for the others, solemnly uncovering his own head and raising an end of +the tarpaulin, "for his face is quite composed." + +"O! how did this happen, how did this happen?" I asked, turning from one +to another as the hut closed in again. + +"He was cut down by an engine, sir. No man in England knew his work +better. But somehow he was not clear of the outer rail. It was just at +broad day. He had struck the light, and had the lamp in his hand. As +the engine came out of the tunnel, his back was towards her, and she cut +him down. That man drove her, and was showing how it happened. Show the +gentleman, Tom." + +The man, who wore a rough dark dress, stepped back to his former place at +the mouth of the tunnel: + +"Coming round the curve in the tunnel, sir," he said, "I saw him at the +end, like as if I saw him down a perspective-glass. There was no time to +check speed, and I knew him to be very careful. As he didn't seem to +take heed of the whistle, I shut it off when we were running down upon +him, and called to him as loud as I could call." + +"What did you say?" + +"I said, Below there! Look out! Look out! For God's sake clear the +way!" + +I started. + +"Ah! it was a dreadful time, sir. I never left off calling to him. I +put this arm before my eyes, not to see, and I waved this arm to the +last; but it was no use." + + * * * * * + +Without prolonging the narrative to dwell on any one of its curious +circumstances more than on any other, I may, in closing it, point out the +coincidence that the warning of the Engine-Driver included, not only the +words which the unfortunate Signal-man had repeated to me as haunting +him, but also the words which I myself--not he--had attached, and that +only in my own mind, to the gesticulation he had imitated. + + + + +NO. 2 BRANCH LINE +THE ENGINE-DRIVER + + +"Altogether? Well. Altogether, since 1841, I've killed seven men and +boys. It ain't many in all those years." + +These startling words he uttered in a serious tone as he leaned against +the Station-wall. He was a thick-set, ruddy-faced man, with coal-black +eyes, the whites of which were not white, but a brownish-yellow, and +apparently scarred and seamed, as if they had been operated upon. They +were eyes that had worked hard in looking through wind and weather. He +was dressed in a short black pea-jacket and grimy white canvas trousers, +and wore on his head a flat black cap. There was no sign of levity in +his face. His look was serious even to sadness, and there was an air of +responsibility about his whole bearing which assured me that he spoke in +earnest. + +"Yes, sir, I have been for five-and-twenty years a Locomotive +Engine-driver; and in all that time, I've only killed seven men and boys. +There's not many of my mates as can say as much for themselves. +Steadiness, sir--steadiness and keeping your eyes open, is what does it. +When I say seven men and boys, I mean my mates--stokers, porters, and so +forth. I don't count passengers." + +How did he become an engine-driver? + +"My father," he said, "was a wheelwright in a small way, and lived in a +little cottage by the side of the railway which runs betwixt Leeds and +Selby. It was the second railway laid down in the kingdom, the second +after the Liverpool and Manchester, where Mr. Huskisson was killed, as +you may have heard on, sir. When the trains rushed by, we young 'uns +used to run out to look at 'em, and hooray. I noticed the driver turning +handles, and making it go, and I thought to myself it would be a fine +thing to be a engine-driver, and have the control of a wonderful machine +like that. Before the railway, the driver of the mail-coach was the +biggest man I knew. I thought I should like to be the driver of a coach. +We had a picture in our cottage of George the Third in a red coat. I +always mixed up the driver of the mail-coach--who had a red coat, +too--with the king, only he had a low-crowned broad-brimmed hat, which +the king hadn't. In my idea, the king couldn't be a greater man than the +driver of the mail-coach. I had always a fancy to be a head man of some +kind. When I went to Leeds once, and saw a man conducting a orchestra, I +thought I should like to be the conductor of a orchestra. When I went +home I made myself a baton, and went about the fields conducting a +orchestra. It wasn't there, of course, but I pretended it was. At +another time, a man with a whip and a speaking-trumpet, on the stage +outside a show, took my fancy, and I thought I should like to be him. +But when the train came, the engine-driver put them all in the shade, and +I was resolved to be a engine-driver. It wasn't long before I had to do +something to earn my own living, though I was only a young 'un. My +father died suddenly--he was killed by thunder and lightning while +standing under a tree out of the rain--and mother couldn't keep us all. +The day after my father's burial I walked down to the station, and said I +wanted to be a engine-driver. The station-master laughed a bit, said I +was for beginning early, but that I was not quite big enough yet. He +gave me a penny, and told me to go home and grow, and come again in ten +years' time. I didn't dream of danger then. If I couldn't be a +engine-driver, I was determined to have something to do about a engine; +so, as I could get nothing else, I went on board a Humber steamer, and +broke up coals for the stoker. That was how I began. From that, I +became a stoker, first on board a boat, and then on a locomotive. Then, +after two years' service, I became a driver on the very Line which passed +our cottage. My mother and my brothers and sisters came out to look at +me, the first day I drove. I was watching for them and they was watching +for me, and they waved their hands and hoora'd, and I waved my hand to +them. I had the steam well up, and was going at a rattling pace, and +rare proud I was that minute. Never was so proud in my life! + +"When a man has a liking for a thing it's as good as being clever. In a +very short time I became one of the best drivers on the Line. That was +allowed. I took a pride in it, you see, and liked it. No, I didn't know +much about the engine scientifically, as you call it; but I could put her +to rights if anything went out of gear--that is to say, if there was +nothing broken--but I couldn't have explained how the steam worked +inside. Starting a engine, it's just like drawing a drop of gin. You +turn a handle and off she goes; then you turn the handle the other way, +put on the brakes, and you stop her. There's not much more in it, so +far. It's no good being scientific and knowing the principle of the +engine inside; no good at all. Fitters, who know all the ins and outs of +the engine, make the worst drivers. That's well known. They know too +much. It's just as I've heard of a man with regard to _his_ inside: if +he knew what a complicated machine it is, he would never eat, or drink, +or dance, or run, or do anything, for fear of busting something. So it +is with fitters. But us as are not troubled with such thoughts, we go +ahead. + +"But starting a engine's one thing and driving of her is another. Any +one, a child a'most, can turn on the steam and turn it off again; but it +ain't every one that can keep a engine well on the road, no more than it +ain't every one who can ride a horse properly. It is much the same +thing. If you gallop a horse right off for a mile or two, you take the +wind out of him, and for the next mile or two you must let him trot or +walk. So it is with a engine. If you put on too much steam, to get over +the ground at the start, you exhaust the boiler, and then you'll have to +crawl along till your fresh water boils up. The great thing in driving, +is, to go steady, never to let your water get too low, nor your fire too +low. It's the same with a kettle. If you fill it up when it's about +half empty, it soon comes to the boil again; but if you don't fill it up +until the water's nearly out, it's a long time in coming to the boil +again. Another thing; you should never make spurts, unless you are +detained and lose time. You should go up a incline and down a incline at +the same pace. Sometimes a driver will waste his steam, and when he +comes to a hill he has scarcely enough to drag him up. When you're in a +train that goes by fits and starts, you may be sure that there is a bad +driver on the engine. That kind of driving frightens passengers +dreadful. When the train, after rattling along, suddenly slackens speed +when it ain't near a station, it may be in the middle of a tunnel, the +passengers think there is danger. But generally it's because the driver +has exhausted his steam. + +"I drove the Brighton express, four or five years before I come here, and +the annuals--that is, the passengers who had annual tickets--always said +they knew when I was on the engine, because they wasn't jerked. +Gentlemen used to say as they came on to the platform, 'Who drives +to-day--Jim Martin?' And when the guard told them yes, they said 'All +right,' and took their seats quite comfortable. But the driver never +gets so much as a shilling; the guard comes in for all that, and he does +nothing much. Few ever think of the driver. I dare say they think the +train goes along of itself; yet if we didn't keep a sharp look-out, know +our duty, and do it, they might all go smash at any moment. I used to +make that journey to Brighton in fifty-two minutes. The papers said +forty-nine minutes, but that was coming it a little too strong. I had to +watch signals all the way, one every two miles, so that me and my stoker +were on the stretch all the time, doing two things at once--attending to +the engine and looking out. I've driven on this Line, eighty-one miles +and three-quarters, in eighty-six minutes. There's no danger in speed if +you have a good road, a good engine, and not too many coaches behind. +No, we don't call them carriages, we call them 'coaches.' + +"Yes; oscillation means danger. If you're ever in a coach that +oscillates much, tell of it at the first station and get it coupled up +closer. Coaches when they're too loose are apt to jump, or swing off the +rails; and it's quite as dangerous when they're coupled up too close. +There ought to be just space enough for the buffers to work easy. +Passengers are frightened in tunnels, but there's less danger, _now_, in +tunnels than anywhere else. We never enter a tunnel unless it's +signalled Clear. + +"A train can be stopped wonderful quick, even when running express, if +the guards act with the driver and clap on all the brakes promptly. Much +depends upon the guards. One brake behind, is as good as two in front. +The engine, you see, loses weight as she burns her coals and consumes her +water, but the coaches behind don't alter. We have a good deal of +trouble with young guards. In their anxiety to perform their duties, +they put on the brakes too soon, so that sometimes we can scarcely drag +the train into the station; when they grow older at it they are not so +anxious, and don't put them on soon enough. It's no use to say, when an +accident happens, that they did not put on the brakes in time; they swear +they did, and you can't prove that they didn't. + +"Do I think that the tapping of the wheels with a hammer is a mere +ceremony? Well, I don't know exactly; I should not like to say. It's +not often that the chaps find anything wrong. They may sometimes be half +asleep when a train comes into a station in the middle of the night. You +would be yourself. They ought to tap the axle-box, but they don't. + +"Many accidents take place that never get into the papers; many trains, +full of passengers, escape being dashed to pieces by next door to a +miracle. Nobody knows anything about it but the driver and the stoker. +I remember once, when I was driving on the Eastern Counties. Going round +a curve, I suddenly saw a train coming along on the same line of rails. +I clapped on the brake, but it was too late, I thought. Seeing the +engine almost close upon us, I cried to my stoker to jump. He jumped off +the engine, almost before the words were out of my mouth. I was just +taking my hand off the lever to follow, when the coming train turned off +on the points, and the next instant the hind coach passed my engine by a +shave. It was the nearest touch I ever saw. My stoker was killed. In +another half second I should have jumped off and been killed too. What +would have become of the train without us is more than I can tell you. + +"There are heaps of people run over, that no one ever hears about. One +dark night in the Black Country, me and my mate felt something wet and +warm splash in our faces. 'That didn't come from the engine, Bill,' I +said. 'No,' he said; 'it's something thick, Jim.' It was blood. That's +what it was. We heard afterwards that a collier had been run over. When +we kill any of our own chaps, we say as little about it as possible. +It's generally--mostly always--their own fault. No, we never think of +danger ourselves. We're used to it, you see. But we're not reckless. I +don't believe there's any body of men that takes more pride in their work +than engine-drivers do. We are as proud and as fond of our engines as if +they were living things; as proud of them as a huntsman or a jockey is of +his horse. And a engine has almost as many ways as a horse; she's a +kicker, a plunger, a roarer, or what not, in her way. Put a stranger on +to my engine, and he wouldn't know what to do with her. Yes; there's +wonderful improvements in engines since the last great Exhibition. Some +of them take up their water without stopping. That's a wonderful +invention, and yet as simple as A B C. There are water-troughs at +certain places, lying between the rails. By moving a lever you let down +the mouth of a scoop into the water, and as you rush along the water is +forced into the tank, at the rate of three thousand gallons a minute. + +"A engine-driver's chief anxiety is to keep time; that's what he thinks +most of. When I was driving the Brighton express, I always felt like as +if I was riding a race against time. I had no fear of the pace; what I +feared was losing way, and not getting in to the minute. We have to give +in an account of our time when we arrive. The company provides us with +watches, and we go by them. Before starting on a journey, we pass +through a room to be inspected. That's to see if we are sober. But they +don't say nothing to us, and a man who was a little gone might pass easy. +I've known a stoker that had passed the inspection, come on to the engine +as drunk as a fly, flop down among the coals, and sleep there like a log +for the whole run. I had to be my own stoker then. If you ask me if +engine-drivers are drinking men, I must answer you that they are pretty +well. It's trying work; one half of you cold as ice; t'other half hot as +fire; wet one minute, dry the next. If ever a man had an excuse for +drinking, that man's a engine-driver. And yet I don't know if ever a +driver goes upon his engine drunk. If he was to, the wind would soon +sober him. + +"I believe engine-drivers, as a body, are the healthiest fellows alive; +but they don't live long. The cause of that, I believe to be the cold +food, and the shaking. By the cold food, I mean that a engine-driver +never gets his meals comfortable. He's never at home to his dinner. +When he starts away the first thing in the morning, he takes a bit of +cold meat and a piece of bread with him for his dinner; and generally he +has to eat it in the shed, for he mustn't leave his engine. You can +understand how the jolting and shaking knocks a man up, after a bit. The +insurance companies won't take us at ordinary rates. We're obliged to be +Foresters, or Old Friends, or that sort of thing, where they ain't so +particular. The wages of a engine-driver average about eight shillings a +day, but if he's a good schemer with his coals--yes, I mean if he +economises his coals--he's allowed so much more. Some will make from +five to ten shillings a week that way. I don't complain of the wages +particular; but it's hard lines for such as us, to have to pay +income-tax. The company gives an account of all our wages, and we have +to pay. It's a shame. + +"Our domestic life--our life at home, you mean? Well, as to that, we +don't see much of our families. I leave home at half-past seven in the +morning, and don't get back again until half-past nine, or maybe later. +The children are not up when I leave, and they've gone to bed again +before I come home. This is about my day:--Leave London at 8.45; drive +for four hours and a half; cold snack on the engine step; see to engine; +drive back again; clean engine; report myself; and home. Twelve hours' +hard and anxious work, and no comfortable victuals. Yes, our wives are +anxious about us; for we never know when we go out, if we'll ever come +back again. We ought to go home the minute we leave the station, and +report ourselves to those that are thinking on us and depending on us; +but I'm afraid we don't always. Perhaps we go first to the public-house, +and perhaps you would, too, if you were in charge of a engine all day +long. But the wives have a way of their own, of finding out if we're all +right. They inquire among each other. 'Have you seen my Jim?' one says. +'No,' says another, 'but Jack see him coming out of the station half an +hour ago.' Then she knows that her Jim's all right, and knows where to +find him if she wants him. It's a sad thing when any of us have to carry +bad news to a mate's wife. None of us likes that job. I remember when +Jack Davidge was killed, none of us could face his poor missus with the +news. She had seven children, poor thing, and two of 'em, the youngest, +was down with the fever. We got old Mrs. Berridge--Tom Berridge's +mother--to break it to her. But she knew summat was the matter, the +minute the old woman went in, and, afore she spoke a word, fell down like +as if she was dead. She lay all night like that, and never heard from +mortal lips until next morning that her Jack was killed. But she knew it +in her heart. It's a pitch and toss kind of a life ours! + +"And yet I never was nervous on a engine but once. I never think of my +own life. You go in for staking that, when you begin, and you get used +to the risk. I never think of the passengers either. The thoughts of a +engine-driver never go behind his engine. If he keeps his engine all +right, the coaches behind will be all right, as far as the driver is +concerned. But once I _did_ think of the passengers. My little boy, +Bill, was among them that morning. He was a poor little cripple fellow +that we all loved more nor the others, because he _was_ a cripple, and so +quiet, and wise-like. He was going down to his aunt in the country, who +was to take care of him for a while. We thought the country air would do +him good. I did think there were lives behind me that morning; at least, +I thought hard of one little life that was in my hands. There were +twenty coaches on; my little Bill seemed to me to be in every one of 'em. +My hand trembled as I turned on the steam. I felt my heart thumping as +we drew close to the pointsman's box; as we neared the Junction, I was +all in a cold sweat. At the end of the first fifty miles I was nearly +eleven minutes behind time. 'What's the matter with you this morning?' +my stoker said. 'Did you have a drop too much last night?' 'Don't speak +to me, Fred,' I said, 'till we get to Peterborough; and keep a sharp +look-out, there's a good fellow.' I never was so thankful in my life as +when I shut off steam to enter the station at Peterborough. Little +Bill's aunt was waiting for him, and I saw her lift him out of the +carriage. I called out to her to bring him to me, and I took him upon +the engine and kissed him--ah, twenty times I should think--making him in +such a mess with grease and coal-dust as you never saw. + +"I was all right for the rest of the journey. And I do believe, sir, the +passengers were safer after little Bill was gone. It would never do, you +see, for engine-drivers to know too much, or to feel too much." + + + + +NO. 3 BRANCH LINE +THE COMPENSATION HOUSE + + +"There's not a looking-glass in all the house, sir. It's some peculiar +fancy of my master's. There isn't one in any single room in the house." + +It was a dark and gloomy-looking building, and had been purchased by this +Company for an enlargement of their Goods Station. The value of the +house had been referred to what was popularly called "a compensation +jury," and the house was called, in consequence, The Compensation House. +It had become the Company's property; but its tenant still remained in +possession, pending the commencement of active building operations. My +attention was originally drawn to this house because it stood directly in +front of a collection of huge pieces of timber which lay near this part +of the Line, and on which I sometimes sat for half an hour at a time, +when I was tired by my wanderings about Mugby Junction. + +It was square, cold, grey-looking, built of rough-hewn stone, and roofed +with thin slabs of the same material. Its windows were few in number, +and very small for the size of the building. In the great blank, grey +broad-side, there were only four windows. The entrance-door was in the +middle of the house; there was a window on either side of it, and there +were two more in the single story above. The blinds were all closely +drawn, and, when the door was shut, the dreary building gave no sign of +life or occupation. + +But the door was not always shut. Sometimes it was opened from within, +with a great jingling of bolts and door-chains, and then a man would come +forward and stand upon the door-step, snuffing the air as one might do +who was ordinarily kept on rather a small allowance of that element. He +was stout, thick-set, and perhaps fifty or sixty years old--a man whose +hair was cut exceedingly close, who wore a large bushy beard, and whose +eye had a sociable twinkle in it which was prepossessing. He was +dressed, whenever I saw him, in a greenish-brown frock-coat made of some +material which was not cloth, wore a waistcoat and trousers of light +colour, and had a frill to his shirt--an ornament, by the way, which did +not seem to go at all well with the beard, which was continually in +contact with it. It was the custom of this worthy person, after standing +for a short time on the threshold inhaling the air, to come forward into +the road, and, after glancing at one of the upper windows in a half +mechanical way, to cross over to the logs, and, leaning over the fence +which guarded the railway, to look up and down the Line (it passed before +the house) with the air of a man accomplishing a self-imposed task of +which nothing was expected to come. This done, he would cross the road +again, and turning on the threshold to take a final sniff of air, +disappeared once more within the house, bolting and chaining the door +again as if there were no probability of its being reopened for at least +a week. Yet half an hour had not passed before he was out in the road +again, sniffing the air and looking up and down the Line as before. + +It was not very long before I managed to scrape acquaintance with this +restless personage. I soon found out that my friend with the shirt-frill +was the confidential servant, butler, valet, factotum, what you will, of +a sick gentleman, a Mr. Oswald Strange, who had recently come to inhabit +the house opposite, and concerning whose history my new acquaintance, +whose name I ascertained was Masey, seemed disposed to be somewhat +communicative. His master, it appeared, had come down to this place, +partly for the sake of reducing his establishment--not, Mr. Masey was +swift to inform me, on economical principles, but because the poor +gentleman, for particular reasons, wished to have few dependents about +him--partly in order that he might be near his old friend, Dr. Garden, +who was established in the neighbourhood, and whose society and advice +were necessary to Mr. Strange's life. That life was, it appeared, held +by this suffering gentleman on a precarious tenure. It was ebbing away +fast with each passing hour. The servant already spoke of his master in +the past tense, describing him to me as a young gentleman not more than +five-and-thirty years of age, with a young face, as far as the features +and build of it went, but with an expression which had nothing of youth +about it. This was the great peculiarity of the man. At a distance he +looked younger than he was by many years, and strangers, at the time when +he had been used to get about, always took him for a man of seven or +eight-and-twenty, but they changed their minds on getting nearer to him. +Old Masey had a way of his own of summing up the peculiarities of his +master, repeating twenty times over: "Sir, he was Strange by name, and +Strange by nature, and Strange to look at into the bargain." + +It was during my second or third interview with the old fellow that he +uttered the words quoted at the beginning of this plain narrative. + +"Not such a thing as a looking-glass in all the house," the old man said, +standing beside my piece of timber, and looking across reflectively at +the house opposite. "Not one." + +"In the sitting-rooms, I suppose you mean?" + +"No, sir, I mean sitting-rooms and bedrooms both; there isn't so much as +a shaving-glass as big as the palm of your hand anywhere." + +"But how is it?" I asked. "Why are there no looking-glasses in any of +the rooms?" + +"Ah, sir!" replied Masey, "that's what none of us can ever tell. There +is the mystery. It's just a fancy on the part of my master. He had some +strange fancies, and this was one of them. A pleasant gentleman he was +to live with, as any servant could desire. A liberal gentleman, and one +who gave but little trouble; always ready with a kind word, and a kind +deed, too, for the matter of that. There was not a house in all the +parish of St. George's (in which we lived before we came down here) where +the servants had more holidays or a better table kept; but, for all that, +he had his queer ways and his fancies, as I may call them, and this was +one of them. And the point he made of it, sir," the old man went on; +"the extent to which that regulation was enforced, whenever a new servant +was engaged; and the changes in the establishment it occasioned. In +hiring a new servant, the very first stipulation made, was that about the +looking-glasses. It was one of my duties to explain the thing, as far as +it could be explained, before any servant was taken into the house. +'You'll find it an easy place,' I used to say, 'with a liberal table, +good wages, and a deal of leisure; but there's one thing you must make up +your mind to; you must do without looking-glasses while you're here, for +there isn't one in the house, and, what's more, there never will be.'" + +"But how did you know there never would be one?" I asked. + +"Lor' bless you, sir! If you'd seen and heard all that I'd seen and +heard, you could have no doubt about it. Why, only to take one +instance:--I remember a particular day when my master had occasion to go +into the housekeeper's room where the cook lived, to see about some +alterations that were making, and when a pretty scene took place. The +cook--she was a very ugly woman, and awful vain--had left a little bit of +looking-glass, about six inches square, upon the chimney-piece; she had +got it _surreptious_, and kept it always locked up; but she'd left it +out, being called away suddenly, while titivating her hair. I had seen +the glass, and was making for the chimney-piece as fast as I could; but +master came in front of it before I could get there, and it was all over +in a moment. He gave one long piercing look into it, turned deadly pale, +and seizing the glass, dashed it into a hundred pieces on the floor, and +then stamped upon the fragments and ground them into powder with his +feet. He shut himself up for the rest of that day in his own room, first +ordering me to discharge the cook, then and there, at a moment's notice." + +"What an extraordinary thing!" I said, pondering. + +"Ah, sir," continued the old man, "it was astonishing what trouble I had +with those women-servants. It was difficult to get any that would take +the place at all under the circumstances. 'What not so much as a mossul +to do one's 'air at?' they would say, and they'd go off, in spite of +extra wages. Then those who did consent to come, what lies they would +tell, to be sure! They would protest that they didn't want to look in +the glass, that they never had been in the habit of looking in the glass, +and all the while that very wench would have her looking-glass of some +kind or another, hid away among her clothes up-stairs. Sooner or later, +she would bring it out too, and leave it about somewhere or other (just +like the cook), where it was as likely as not that master might see it. +And then--for girls like that have no consciences, sir--when I had caught +one of 'em at it, she'd turn round as bold as brass, 'And how am I to +know whether my 'air's parted straight?' she'd say, just as if it hadn't +been considered in her wages that that was the very thing which she never +_was_ to know while she lived in our house. A vain lot, sir, and the +ugly ones always the vainest. There was no end to their dodges. They'd +have looking-glasses in the interiors of their workbox-lids, where it was +next to impossible that I could find 'em, or inside the covers of +hymn-books, or cookery-books, or in their caddies. I recollect one girl, +a sly one she was, and marked with the small-pox terrible, who was always +reading her prayer-book at odd times. Sometimes I used to think what a +religious mind she'd got, and at other times (depending on the mood I was +in) I would conclude that it was the marriage-service she was studying; +but one day, when I got behind her to satisfy my doubts--lo and behold! +it was the old story: a bit of glass, without a frame, fastened into the +kiver with the outside edges of the sheets of postage-stamps. Dodges! +Why they'd keep their looking-glasses in the scullery or the coal-cellar, +or leave them in charge of the servants next door, or with the milk-woman +round the corner; but have 'em they would. And I don't mind confessing, +sir," said the old man, bringing his long speech to an end, "that it +_was_ an inconveniency not to have so much as a scrap to shave before. I +used to go to the barber's at first, but I soon gave that up, and took to +wearing my beard as my master did; likewise to keeping my hair"--Mr. +Masey touched his head as he spoke--"so short, that it didn't require any +parting, before or behind." + +I sat for some time lost in amazement, and staring at my companion. My +curiosity was powerfully stimulated, and the desire to learn more was +very strong within me. + +"Had your master any personal defect," I inquired, "which might have made +it distressing to him to see his own image reflected?" + +"By no means, sir," said the old man. "He was as handsome a gentleman as +you would wish to see: a little delicate-looking and careworn, perhaps, +with a very pale face; but as free from any deformity as you or I, sir. +No, sir, no; it was nothing of that." + +"Then what was it? What is it?" I asked, desperately. "Is there no one +who is, or has been, in your master's confidence?" + +"Yes, sir," said the old fellow, with his eyes turning to that window +opposite. "There is one person who knows all my master's secrets, and +this secret among the rest." + +"And who is that?" + +The old man turned round and looked at me fixedly. "The doctor here," he +said. "Dr. Garden. My master's very old friend." + +"I should like to speak with this gentleman," I said, involuntarily. + +"He is with my master now," answered Masey. "He will be coming out +presently, and I think I may say he will answer any question you may like +to put to him." As the old man spoke, the door of the house opened, and +a middle-aged gentleman, who was tall and thin, but who lost something of +his height by a habit of stooping, appeared on the step. Old Masey left +me in a moment. He muttered something about taking the doctor's +directions, and hastened across the road. The tall gentleman spoke to +him for a minute or two very seriously, probably about the patient +up-stairs, and it then seemed to me from their gestures that I myself was +the subject of some further conversation between them. At all events, +when old Masey retired into the house, the doctor came across to where I +was standing, and addressed me with a very agreeable smile. + +"John Masey tells me that you are interested in the case of my poor +friend, sir. I am now going back to my house, and if you don't mind the +trouble of walking with me, I shall be happy to enlighten you as far as I +am able." + +I hastened to make my apologies and express my acknowledgments, and we +set off together. When we had reached the doctor's house and were seated +in his study, I ventured to inquire after the health of this poor +gentleman. + +"I am afraid there is no amendment, nor any prospect of amendment," said +the doctor. "Old Masey has told you something of his strange condition, +has he not?" + +"Yes, he has told me something," I answered, "and he says you know all +about it." + +Dr. Garden looked very grave. "I don't know all about it. I only know +what happens when he comes into the presence of a looking-glass. But as +to the circumstances which have led to his being haunted in the strangest +fashion that I ever heard of, I know no more of them than you do." + +"Haunted?" I repeated. "And in the strangest fashion that you ever heard +of?" + +Dr. Garden smiled at my eagerness, seemed to be collecting his thoughts, +and presently went on: + +"I made the acquaintance of Mr. Oswald Strange in a curious way. It was +on board of an Italian steamer, bound from Civita Vecchia to Marseilles. +We had been travelling all night. In the morning I was shaving myself in +the cabin, when suddenly this man came behind me, glanced for a moment +into the small mirror before which I was standing, and then, without a +word of warning, tore it from the nail, and dashed it to pieces at my +feet. His face was at first livid with passion--it seemed to me rather +the passion of fear than of anger--but it changed after a moment, and he +seemed ashamed of what he had done. Well," continued the doctor, +relapsing for a moment into a smile, "of course I was in a devil of a +rage. I was operating on my under-jaw, and the start the thing gave me +caused me to cut myself. Besides, altogether it seemed an outrageous and +insolent thing, and I gave it to poor Strange in a style of language +which I am sorry to think of now, but which, I hope, was excusable at the +time. As to the offender himself, his confusion and regret, now that his +passion was at an end, disarmed me. He sent for the steward, and paid +most liberally for the damage done to the steam-boat property, explaining +to him, and to some other passengers who were present in the cabin, that +what had happened had been accidental. For me, however, he had another +explanation. Perhaps he felt that I must know it to have been no +accident--perhaps he really wished to confide in some one. At all +events, he owned to me that what he had done was done under the influence +of an uncontrollable impulse--a seizure which took him, he said, at +times--something like a fit. He begged my pardon, and entreated that I +would endeavour to disassociate him personally from this action, of which +he was heartily ashamed. Then he attempted a sickly joke, poor fellow, +about his wearing a beard, and feeling a little spiteful, in consequence, +when he saw other people taking the trouble to shave; but he said nothing +about any infirmity or delusion, and shortly after left me. + +"In my professional capacity I could not help taking some interest in Mr. +Strange. I did not altogether lose sight of him after our sea-journey to +Marseilles was over. I found him a pleasant companion up to a certain +point; but I always felt that there was a reserve about him. He was +uncommunicative about his past life, and especially would never allude to +anything connected with his travels or his residence in Italy, which, +however, I could make out had been a long one. He spoke Italian well, +and seemed familiar with the country, but disliked to talk about it. + +"During the time we spent together there were seasons when he was so +little himself, that I, with a pretty large experience, was almost afraid +to be with him. His attacks were violent and sudden in the last degree; +and there was one most extraordinary feature connected with them +all:--some horrible association of ideas took possession of him whenever +he found himself before a looking-glass. And after we had travelled +together for a time, I dreaded the sight of a mirror hanging harmlessly +against a wall, or a toilet-glass standing on a dressing-table, almost as +much as he did. + +"Poor Strange was not always affected in the same manner by a +looking-glass. Sometimes it seemed to madden him with fury; at other +times, it appeared to turn him to stone: remaining motionless and +speechless as if attacked by catalepsy. One night--the worst things +always happen at night, and oftener than one would think on stormy +nights--we arrived at a small town in the central district of Auvergne: a +place but little known, out of the line of railways, and to which we had +been drawn, partly by the antiquarian attractions which the place +possessed, and partly by the beauty of the scenery. The weather had been +rather against us. The day had been dull and murky, the heat stifling, +and the sky had threatened mischief since the morning. At sundown, these +threats were fulfilled. The thunderstorm, which had been all day coming +up--as it seemed to us, against the wind--burst over the place where we +were lodged, with very great violence. + +"There are some practical-minded persons with strong constitutions, who +deny roundly that their fellow-creatures are, or can be, affected, in +mind or body, by atmospheric influences. I am not a disciple of that +school, simply because I cannot believe that those changes of weather, +which have so much effect upon animals, and even on inanimate objects, +can fail to have some influence on a piece of machinery so sensitive and +intricate as the human frame. I think, then, that it was in part owing +to the disturbed state of the atmosphere that, on this particular evening +I felt nervous and depressed. When my new friend Strange and I parted +for the night, I felt as little disposed to go to rest as I ever did in +my life. The thunder was still lingering among the mountains in the +midst of which our inn was placed. Sometimes it seemed nearer, and at +other times further off; but it never left off altogether, except for a +few minutes at a time. I was quite unable to shake off a succession of +painful ideas which persistently besieged my mind. + +"It is hardly necessary to add that I thought from time to time of my +travelling-companion in the next room. His image was almost continually +before me. He had been dull and depressed all the evening, and when we +parted for the night there was a look in his eyes which I could not get +out of my memory. + +"There was a door between our rooms, and the partition dividing them was +not very solid; and yet I had heard no sound since I parted from him +which could indicate that he was there at all, much less that he was +awake and stirring. I was in a mood, sir, which made this silence +terrible to me, and so many foolish fancies--as that he was lying there +dead, or in a fit, or what not--took possession of me, that at last I +could bear it no longer. I went to the door, and, after listening, very +attentively but quite in vain, for any sound, I at last knocked pretty +sharply. There was no answer. Feeling that longer suspense would be +unendurable, I, without more ceremony, turned the handle and went in. + +"It was a great bare room, and so imperfectly lighted by a single candle +that it was almost impossible--except when the lightning flashed--to see +into its great dark corners. A small rickety bedstead stood against one +of the walls, shrouded by yellow cotton curtains, passed through a great +iron ring in the ceiling. There was, for all other furniture, an old +chest of drawers which served also as a washing-stand, having a small +basin and ewer and a single towel arranged on the top of it. There were, +moreover, two ancient chairs and a dressing-table. On this last, stood a +large old-fashioned looking-glass with a carved frame. + +"I must have seen all these things, because I remember them so well now, +but I do not know how I could have seen them, for it seems to me that, +from the moment of my entering that room, the action of my senses and of +the faculties of my mind was held fast by the ghastly figure which stood +motionless before the looking-glass in the middle of the empty room. + +"How terrible it was! The weak light of one candle standing on the table +shone upon Strange's face, lighting it from below, and throwing (as I now +remember) his shadow, vast and black, upon the wall behind him and upon +the ceiling overhead. He was leaning rather forward, with his hands upon +the table supporting him, and gazing into the glass which stood before +him with a horrible fixity. The sweat was on his white face; his rigid +features and his pale lips showed in that feeble light were horrible, +more than words can tell, to look at. He was so completely stupefied and +lost, that the noise I had made in knocking and in entering the room was +unobserved by him. Not even when I called him loudly by name did he move +or did his face change. + +"What a vision of horror that was, in the great dark empty room, in a +silence that was something more than negative, that ghastly figure frozen +into stone by some unexplained terror! And the silence and the +stillness! The very thunder had ceased now. My heart stood still with +fear. Then, moved by some instinctive feeling, under whose influence I +acted mechanically, I crept with slow steps nearer and nearer to the +table, and at last, half expecting to see some spectre even more horrible +than this which I saw already, I looked over his shoulder into the +looking-glass. I happened to touch his arm, though only in the lightest +manner. In that one moment the spell which had held him--who knows how +long?--enchained, seemed broken, and he lived in this world again. He +turned round upon me, as suddenly as a tiger makes its spring, and seized +me by the arm. + +"I have told you that even before I entered my friend's room I had felt, +all that night, depressed and nervous. The necessity for action at this +time was, however, so obvious, and this man's agony made all that I had +felt, appear so trifling, that much of my own discomfort seemed to leave +me. I felt that I _must_ be strong. + +"The face before me almost unmanned me. The eyes which looked into mine +were so scared with terror, the lips--if I may say so--looked so +speechless. The wretched man gazed long into my face, and then, still +holding me by the arm, slowly, very slowly, turned his head. I had +gently tried to move him away from the looking-glass, but he would not +stir, and now he was looking into it as fixedly as ever. I could bear +this no longer, and, using such force as was necessary, I drew him +gradually away, and got him to one of the chairs at the foot of the bed. +'Come!' I said--after the long silence my voice, even to myself, sounded +strange and hollow--'come! You are over-tired, and you feel the weather. +Don't you think you ought to be in bed? Suppose you lie down. Let me +try my medical skill in mixing you a composing draught.' + +"He held my hand, and looked eagerly into my eyes. 'I am better now,' he +said, speaking at last very faintly. Still he looked at me in that +wistful way. It seemed as if there were something that he wanted to do +or say, but had not sufficient resolution. At length he got up from the +chair to which I had led him, and beckoning me to follow him, went across +the room to the dressing-table, and stood again before the glass. A +violent shudder passed through his frame as he looked into it; but +apparently forcing himself to go through with what he had now begun, he +remained where he was, and, without looking away, moved to me with his +hand to come and stand beside him. I complied. + +"'Look in there!' he said, in an almost inaudible tone. He was +supported, as before, by his hands resting on the table, and could only +bow with his head towards the glass to intimate what he meant. 'Look in +there!' he repeated. + +"I did as he asked me. + +"'What do you see?' he asked next. + +"'See?' I repeated, trying to speak as cheerfully as I could, and +describing the reflexion of his own face as nearly as I could. 'I see a +very, very pale face with sunken cheeks--' + +"'What?' he cried, with an alarm in his voice which I could not +understand. + +"'With sunken cheeks,' I went on, 'and two hollow eyes with large +pupils.' + +"I saw the reflexion of my friend's face change, and felt his hand clutch +my arm even more tightly than he had done before. I stopped abruptly and +looked round at him. He did not turn his head towards me, but, gazing +still into the looking-glass, seemed to labour for utterance. + +"'What,' he stammered at last. 'Do you--see it--too?' + +"'See what?' I asked, quickly. + +"'That face!' he cried, in accents of horror. 'That face--which is not +mine--and which--I SEE INSTEAD OF MINE--always!' + +"I was struck speechless by the words. In a moment this mystery was +explained--but what an explanation! Worse, a hundred times worse, than +anything I had imagined. What! Had this man lost the power of seeing +his own image as it was reflected there before him? and, in its place, +was there the image of another? Had he changed reflexions with some +other man? The frightfulness of the thought struck me speechless for a +time--then I saw how false an impression my silence was conveying. + +"'No, no, no!' I cried, as soon as I could speak--'a hundred times, no! +I see you, of course, and only you. It was your face I attempted to +describe, and no other.' + +"He seemed not to hear me. 'Why, look there!' he said, in a low, +indistinct voice, pointing to his own image in the glass. 'Whose face do +you see there?' + +"'Why yours, of course.' And then, after a moment, I added, 'Whose do +you see?' + +"He answered, like one in a trance, '_His_--only his--always his!' He +stood still a moment, and then, with a loud and terrific scream, repeated +those words, 'ALWAYS HIS, ALWAYS HIS,' and fell down in a fit before me. + + * * * * * + +"I knew what to do now. Here was a thing which, at any rate, I could +understand. I had with me my usual small stock of medicines and surgical +instruments, and I did what was necessary: first to restore my unhappy +patient, and next to procure for him the rest he needed so much. He was +very ill--at death's door for some days--and I could not leave him, +though there was urgent need that I should be back in London. When he +began to mend, I sent over to England for my servant--John Masey--whom I +knew I could trust. Acquainting him with the outlines of the case, I +left him in charge of my patient, with orders that he should be brought +over to this country as soon as he was fit to travel. + +"That awful scene was always before me. I saw this devoted man day after +day, with the eyes of my imagination, sometimes destroying in his rage +the harmless looking-glass, which was the immediate cause of his +suffering, sometimes transfixed before the horrid image that turned him +to stone. I recollect coming upon him once when we were stopping at a +roadside inn, and seeing him stand so by broad daylight. His back was +turned towards me, and I waited and watched him for nearly half an hour +as he stood there motionless and speechless, and appearing not to +breathe. I am not sure but that this apparition seen so by daylight was +more ghastly than that apparition seen in the middle of the night, with +the thunder rumbling among the hills. + +"Back in London in his own house, where he could command in some sort the +objects which should surround him, poor Strange was better than he would +have been elsewhere. He seldom went out except at night, but once or +twice I have walked with him by daylight, and have seen him terribly +agitated when we have had to pass a shop in which looking-glasses were +exposed for sale. + +"It is nearly a year now since my poor friend followed me down to this +place, to which I have retired. For some months he has been daily +getting weaker and weaker, and a disease of the lungs has become +developed in him, which has brought him to his death-bed. I should add, +by-the-by, that John Masey has been his constant companion ever since I +brought them together, and I have had, consequently, to look after a new +servant. + +"And now tell me," the doctor added, bringing his tale to an end, "did +you ever hear a more miserable history, or was ever man haunted in a more +ghastly manner than this man?" + +I was about to reply when I heard a sound of footsteps outside, and +before I could speak old Masey entered the room, in haste and disorder. + +"I was just telling this gentleman," the doctor said: not at the moment +observing old Masey's changed manner: "how you deserted me to go over to +your present master." + +"Ah! sir," the man answered, in a troubled voice, "I'm afraid he won't be +my master long." + +The doctor was on his legs in a moment. "What! Is he worse?" + +"I think, sir, he is dying," said the old man. + +"Come with me, sir; you may be of use if you can keep quiet." The doctor +caught up his hat as he addressed me in those words, and in a few minutes +we had reached The Compensation House. A few seconds more, and we were +standing in a darkened room on the first floor, and I saw lying on a bed +before me--pale, emaciated, and, as it seemed, dying--the man whose story +I had just heard. + +He was lying with closed eyes when we came into the room, and I had +leisure to examine his features. What a tale of misery they told! They +were regular and symmetrical in their arrangement, and not without +beauty--the beauty of exceeding refinement and delicacy. Force there was +none, and perhaps it was to the want of this that the faults--perhaps the +crime--which had made the man's life so miserable were to be attributed. +Perhaps the crime? Yes, it was not likely that an affliction, lifelong +and terrible, such as this he had endured, would come upon him unless +some misdeed had provoked the punishment. What misdeed we were soon to +know. + +It sometimes--I think generally--happens that the presence of any one who +stands and watches beside a sleeping man will wake him, unless his +slumbers are unusually heavy. It was so now. While we looked at him, +the sleeper awoke very suddenly, and fixed his eyes upon us. He put out +his hand and took the doctor's in its feeble grasp. "Who is that?" he +asked next, pointing towards me. + +"Do you wish him to go? The gentleman knows something of your +sufferings, and is powerfully interested in your case; but he will leave +us, if you wish it," the doctor said. + +"No. Let him stay." + +Seating myself out of sight, but where I could both see and hear what +passed, I waited for what should follow. Dr. Garden and John Masey stood +beside the bed. There was a moment's pause. + +"I want a looking-glass," said Strange, without a word of preface. + +We all started to hear him say those words. "I am dying," said Strange; +"will you not grant me my request?" + +Doctor Garden whispered to old Masey; and the latter left the room. He +was not absent long, having gone no further than the next house. He held +an oval-framed mirror in his hand when he returned. A shudder passed +through the body of the sick man as he saw it. + +"Put it down," he said, faintly--"anywhere--for the present." + +No one of us spoke. I do not think, in that moment of suspense, that we +could, any of us, have spoken if we had tried. + +The sick man tried to raise himself a little. "Prop me up," he said. "I +speak with difficulty--I have something to say." + +They put pillows behind him, so as to raise his head and body. + +"I have presently a use for it," he said, indicating the mirror. "I want +to see--" He stopped, and seemed to change his mind. He was sparing of +his words. "I want to tell you--all about it." Again he was silent. +Then he seemed to make a great effort and spoke once more, beginning very +abruptly. + +"I loved my wife fondly. I loved her--her name was Lucy. She was +English; but, after we were married, we lived long abroad--in Italy. She +liked the country, and I liked what she liked. She liked to draw, too, +and I got her a master. He was an Italian. I will not give his name. +We always called him 'the Master.' A treacherous insidious man this was, +and, under cover of his profession, took advantage of his opportunities, +and taught my wife to love him--to love him. + +"I am short of breath. I need not enter into details as to how I found +them out; but I did find them out. We were away on a sketching +expedition when I made my discovery. My rage maddened me, and there was +one at hand who fomented my madness. My wife had a maid, who, it seemed, +had also loved this man--the Master--and had been ill treated and +deserted by him. She told me all. She had played the part of +go-between--had carried letters. When she told me these things, it was +night, in a solitary Italian town, among the mountains. 'He is in his +room now,' she said, 'writing to her.' + +"A frenzy took possession of me as I listened to those words. I am +naturally vindictive--remember that--and now my longing for revenge was +like a thirst. Travelling in those lonely regions, I was armed, and when +the woman said, 'He is writing to your wife,' I laid hold of my pistols, +as by an instinct. It has been some comfort to me since, that I took +them both. Perhaps, at that moment, I may have meant fairly by +him--meant that we should fight. I don't know what I meant, quite. The +woman's words, 'He is in his own room now, writing to her,' rung in my +ears." + +The sick man stopped to take breath. It seemed an hour, though it was +probably not more than two minutes, before he spoke again. + +"I managed to get into his room unobserved. Indeed, he was altogether +absorbed in what he was doing. He was sitting at the only table in the +room, writing at a travelling-desk, by the light of a single candle. It +was a rude dressing-table, and--and before him--exactly before him--there +was--there was a looking-glass. + +"I stole up behind him as he sat and wrote by the light of the candle. I +looked over his shoulder at the letter, and I read, 'Dearest Lucy, my +love, my darling.' As I read the words, I pulled the trigger of the +pistol I held in my right hand, and killed him--killed him--but, before +he died, he looked up once--not at me, but at my image before him in the +glass, and his face--such a face--has been there--ever since, and +mine--my face--is gone!" + +He fell back exhausted, and we all pressed forward thinking that he must +be dead, he lay so still. + +But he had not yet passed away. He revived under the influence of +stimulants. He tried to speak, and muttered indistinctly from time to +time words of which we could sometimes make no sense. We understood, +however, that he had been tried by an Italian tribunal, and had been +found guilty; but with such extenuating circumstances that his sentence +was commuted to imprisonment, during, we thought we made out, two years. +But we could not understand what he said about his wife, though we +gathered that she was still alive, from something he whispered to the +doctor of there being provision made for her in his will. + +He lay in a doze for something more than an hour after he had told his +tale, and then he woke up quite suddenly, as he had done when we had +first entered the room. He looked round uneasily in all directions, +until his eye fell on the looking-glass. + +"I want it," he said, hastily; but I noticed that he did not shudder now, +as it was brought near. When old Masey approached, holding it in his +hand, and crying like a child, Dr. Garden came forward and stood between +him and his master, taking the hand of poor Strange in his. + +"Is this wise?" he asked. "Is it good, do you think, to revive this +misery of your life now, when it is so near its close? The chastisement +of your crime," he added, solemnly, "has been a terrible one. Let us +hope in God's mercy that your punishment is over." + +The dying man raised himself with a last great effort, and looked up at +the doctor with such an expression on his face as none of us had seen on +any face, before. + +"I do hope so," he said, faintly, "but you must let me have my way in +this--for if, now, when I look, I see aright--once more--I shall then +hope yet more strongly--for I shall take it as a sign." + +The doctor stood aside without another word, when he heard the dying man +speak thus, and the old servant drew near, and, stooping over softly, +held the looking-glass before his master. Presently afterwards, we, who +stood around looking breathlessly at him, saw such a rapture upon his +face, as left no doubt upon our minds that the face which had haunted him +so long, had, in his last hour, disappeared. + + + + +NO. 4 BRANCH LINE +THE TRAVELLING POST-OFFICE + + +Many years ago, and before this Line was so much as projected, I was +engaged as a clerk in a Travelling Post-office running along the Line of +railway from London to a town in the Midland Counties, which we will call +Fazeley. My duties were to accompany the mail-train which left Fazeley +at 8.15 P.M., and arrived in London about midnight, and to return by the +day mail leaving London at 10.30 the following morning, after which I had +an unbroken night at Fazeley, while another clerk discharged the same +round of work; and in this way each alternative evening I was on duty in +the railway post-office van. At first I suffered a little from a hurry +and tremor of nerve in pursuing my occupation while the train was +crashing along under bridges and through tunnels at a speed which was +then thought marvellous and perilous; but it was not long before my hands +and eyes became accustomed to the motion of the carriage, and I could go +through my business with the same despatch and ease as in the post-office +of the country town where I had learned it, and from which I had been +promoted by the influence of the surveyor of the district, Mr. +Huntingdon. In fact, the work soon fell into a monotonous routine, +which, night after night, was pursued in an unbroken course by myself and +the junior clerk, who was my only assistant: the railway post-office work +not having then attained the importance and magnitude it now possesses. + +Our route lay through an agricultural district containing many small +towns, which made up two or three bags only; one for London; another +perhaps for the county town; a third for the railway post-office, to be +opened by us, and the enclosures to be distributed according to their +various addresses. The clerks in many of these small offices were women, +as is very generally the case still, being the daughters and female +relatives of the nominal postmaster, who transact most of the business of +the office, and whose names are most frequently signed upon the bills +accompanying the bags. I was a young man, and somewhat more curious in +feminine handwriting than I am now. There was one family in particular, +whom I had never seen, but with whose signatures I was perfectly +familiar--clear, delicate, and educated, very unlike the miserable scrawl +upon other letter-bills. One New Year's-eve, in a moment of sentiment, I +tied a slip of paper among a bundle of letters for their office, upon +which I had written, "A happy New Year to you all." The next evening +brought me a return of my good wishes, signed, as I guessed, by three +sisters of the name of Clifton. From that day, every now and then, a +sentence or two as brief as the one above passed between us, and the +feeling of acquaintance and friendship grew upon me, though I had never +yet had an opportunity of seeing my fair unknown friends. + +It was towards the close of the following October that it came under my +notice that the then Premier of the ministry was paying an autumn visit +to a nobleman, whose country seat was situated near a small village on +our line of rail. The Premier's despatch-box, containing, of course, all +the despatches which it was necessary to send down to him, passed between +him and the Secretary of State, and was, as usual, entrusted to the care +of the post-office. The Continent was just then in a more than +ordinarily critical state; we were thought to be upon the verge of an +European war; and there were murmurs floating about, at the dispersion of +the ministry up and down the country. These circumstances made the +charge of the despatch-box the more interesting to me. It was very +similar in size and shape to the old-fashioned workboxes used by ladies +before boxes of polished and ornamental wood came into vogue, and, like +them, it was covered with red morocco leather, and it fastened with a +lock and key. The first time it came into my hands I took such special +notice of it as might be expected. Upon one corner of the lid I detected +a peculiar device scratched slightly upon it, most probably with the +sharp point of a steel pen, in such a moment of preoccupation of mind as +causes most of us to draw odd lines and caricatured faces upon any piece +of paper which may lie under our hand. It was the old revolutionary +device of a heart with a dagger piercing it; and I wondered whether it +could be the Premier, or one of his secretaries, who had traced it upon +the morocco. + +This box had been travelling up and down for about ten days, and, as the +village did not make up a bag for London, there being very few letters +excepting those from the great house, the letter-bag from the house, and +the despatch-box, were handed direct into our travelling post-office. +But in compliment to the presence of the Premier in the neighbourhood, +the train, instead of slackening speed only, stopped altogether, in order +that the Premier's trusty and confidential messenger might deliver the +important box into my own hands, that its perfect safety might be +ensured. I had an undefined suspicion that some person was also employed +to accompany the train up to London, for three or four times I had met +with a foreign-looking gentleman at Euston-square, standing at the door +of the carriage nearest the post-office van, and eyeing the heavy bags as +they were transferred from my care to the custody of the officials from +the General Post-office. But though I felt amused and somewhat nettled +at this needless precaution, I took no further notice of the man, except +to observe that he had the swarthy aspect of a foreigner, and that he +kept his face well away from the light of the lamps. Except for these +things, and after the first time or two, the Premier's despatch-box +interested me no more than any other part of my charge. My work had been +doubly monotonous for some time past, and I began to think it time to get +up some little entertainment with my unknown friends, the Cliftons. I +was just thinking of it as the train stopped at the station about a mile +from the town where they lived, and their postman, a gruff matter-of-fact +fellow--you could see it in every line of his face--put in the +letter-bags, and with them a letter addressed to me. It was in an +official envelope, "On Her Majesty's Service," and the seal was an +official seal. On the folded paper inside it (folded officially also) I +read the following order: "Mr. Wilcox is requested to permit the bearer, +the daughter of the postmaster at Eaton, to see the working of the +railway post-office during the up-journey." The writing I knew well as +being that of one of the surveyor's clerks, and the signature was Mr. +Huntingdon's. The bearer of the order presented herself at the door, the +snorting of the engine gave notice of the instant departure of the train, +I held out my hand, the young lady sprang lightly and deftly into the +van, and we were off again on our midnight journey. + +She was a small slight creature, one of those slender little girls one +never thinks of as being a woman, dressed neatly and plainly in a dark +dress, with a veil hanging a little over her face and tied under her +chin: the most noticeable thing about her appearance being a great mass +of light hair, almost yellow, which had got loose in some way, and fell +down her neck in thick wavy tresses. She had a free pleasant way about +her, not in the least bold or forward, which in a minute or two made her +presence seem the most natural thing in the world. As she stood beside +me before the row of boxes into which I was sorting my letters, she asked +questions and I answered as if it were quite an every-day occurrence for +us to be travelling up together in the night mail to Euston-square +station. I blamed myself for an idiot that I had not sooner made an +opportunity for visiting my unknown friends at Eaton. + +"Then," I said, putting down the letter-bill from their own office before +her, "may I ask which of the signatures I know so well, is yours? Is it +A. Clifton, or M. Clifton, or S. Clifton?" She hesitated a little, and +blushed, and lifted up her frank childlike eyes to mine. + +"I am A. Clifton," she answered. + +"And your name?" I said. + +"Anne;" then, as if anxious to give some explanation to me of her present +position, she added, "I was going up to London on a visit, and I thought +it would be so nice to travel in the post-office to see how the work was +done, and Mr. Huntingdon came to survey our office, and he said he would +send me an order." + +I felt somewhat surprised, for a stricter martinet than Mr. Huntingdon +did not breathe; but I glanced down at the small innocent face at my +side, and cordially approved of his departure from ordinary rules. + +"Did you know you would travel with me?" I asked, in a lower voice; for +Tom Morville, my junior, was at my other elbow. + +"I knew I should travel with Mr. Wilcox," she answered, with a smile that +made all my nerves tingle. + +"You have not written me a word for ages," said I, reproachfully. + +"You had better not talk, or you'll be making mistakes," she replied, in +an arch tone. It was quite true; for, a sudden confusion coming over me, +I was sorting the letters at random. + +We were just then approaching the small station where the letter-bag from +the great house was taken up. The engine was slackening speed. Miss +Clifton manifested some natural and becoming diffidence. + +"It would look so odd," she said, "to any one on the platform, to see a +girl in the post-office van! And they couldn't know I was a postmaster's +daughter, and had an order from Mr. Huntingdon. Is there no dark corner +to shelter me?" + +I must explain to you in a word or two the construction of the van, which +was much less efficiently fitted up than the travelling post-offices of +the present day. It was a reversible van, with a door at each right-hand +corner. At each door the letter-boxes were so arranged as to form a kind +of screen about two feet in width, which prevented people from seeing all +over the carriage at once. Thus the door at the far end of the van, the +one not in use at the time, was thrown into deep shadow, and the screen +before it turned it into a small niche, where a slight little person like +Miss Clifton was very well concealed from curious eyes. Before the train +came within the light from the lamps on the platform, she ensconced +herself in this shelter. No one but I could see her laughing face, as +she stood there leaning cautiously forward with her finger pressed upon +her rosy lips, peeping at the messenger who delivered into my own hands +the Premier's despatch-box, while Tom Morville received the letter-bag of +the great house. + +"See," I said, when we were again in motion, and she had emerged from her +concealment, "this is the Premier's despatch-box, going back to the +Secretary of State. There are some state secrets for you, and ladies are +fond of secrets." + +"Oh! I know nothing about politics," she answered, indifferently, "and we +have had that box through our office a time or two." + +"Did you ever notice this mark upon it," I asked--"a heart with a dagger +through it?" and bending down my face to hers, I added a certain spooney +remark, which I do not care to repeat. Miss Clifton tossed her little +head, and pouted her lips; but she took the box out of my hands, and +carried it to the lamp nearest the further end of the van, after which +she put it down upon the counter close beside the screen, and I thought +no more about it. The midnight ride was entertaining in the extreme, for +the girl was full of young life and sauciness and merry humour. I can +safely aver that I have never been to an evening's so-called +entertainment which, to me, was half so enjoyable. It added also to the +zest and keen edge of the enjoyment to see her hasten to hide herself +whenever I told her we were going to stop to take up the mails. + +"We had passed Watford, the last station at which we stopped, before I +became alive to the recollection that our work was terribly behindhand. +Miss Clifton also became grave, and sat at the end of the counter very +quiet and subdued, as if her frolic were over, and it was possible she +might find something to repent of in it. I had told her we should stop +no more until we reached Euston-square station, but to my surprise I felt +our speed decreasing, and our train coming to a standstill. I looked out +and called to the guard in the van behind, who told me he supposed there +was something on the line before us, and that we should go on in a minute +or two. I turned my head, and gave this information to my fellow-clerk +and Miss Clifton. + +"Do you know where we are?" she asked, in a frightened tone. + +"At Camden-town," I replied. She sprang hastily from her seat, and came +towards me. + +"I am close to my friend's house here," she said, "so it is a lucky thing +for me. It is not five minutes' walk from the station. I will say +good-bye to you now, Mr. Wilcox, and I thank you a thousand times for +your kindness." + +She seemed flurried, and she held out both her little hands to me in an +appealing kind of way, as if she were afraid of my detaining her against +her will. I took them both into mine, pressing them with rather more +ardour than was quite necessary. + +"I do not like you to go alone at this hour," I said, "but there is no +help for it. It has been a delightful time to me. Will you allow me to +call upon you to-morrow morning early, for I leave London at 10.30; or on +Wednesday, when I shall be in town again?" + +"O," she answered, hanging her head, "I don't know. I'll write and tell +mamma how kind you have been, and, and--but I must go, Mr. Wilcox." + +"I don't like your going alone," I repeated. + +"O! I know the way perfectly," she said, in the same flurried manner, +"perfectly, thank you. And it is close at hand. Goodbye." + +She jumped lightly out of the carriage, and the train started on again at +the same instant. We were busy enough, as you may suppose. In five +minutes more we should be in Euston-square, and there was nearly fifteen +minutes work still to be done. Spite of the enjoyment he had afforded +me, I mentally anathematised Mr. Huntingdon and his departure from +ordinary rules, and, thrusting Miss Clifton forcibly out of my thoughts, +I set to work with a will, gathered up the registered letters for London, +tied them into a bundle with the paper bill, and then turned to the +corner of the counter for the despatch-box. + +You have guessed already my cursed misfortune. The Premier's +despatch-box was not there. For the first minute or so I was in nowise +alarmed, and merely looked round, upon the floor, under the bags, into +the boxes, into any place into which it could have fallen or been +deposited. We reached Euston-square while I was still searching, and +losing more and more of my composure every instant. Tom Morville joined +me in my quest, and felt every bag which had been made up and sealed. +The box was no small article which could go into little compass; it was +certainly twelve inches long, and more than that in girth. But it turned +up nowhere. I never felt nearer fainting than at that moment. + +"Could Miss Clifton have carried it off?" suggested Tom Morville. + +"No," I said, indignantly but thoughtfully, "she couldn't have carried +off such a bulky thing as that, without our seeing it. It would not go +into one of our pockets, Tom, and she wore a tight-fitting jacket that +would not conceal anything." + +"No, she can't have it," assented Tom; "then it must be somewhere about." +We searched again and again, turning over everything in the van, but +without success. The Premier's despatch-box was gone; and all we could +do at first was to stand and stare at one another. Our trance of blank +dismay was of short duration, for the van was assailed by the postmen +from St. Martin's-le-Grand, who were waiting for our charge. In a stupor +of bewilderment we completed our work, and delivered up the mails; then, +once more we confronted one another with pale faces, frightened out of +our seven senses. All the scrapes we had ever been in (and we had had +our usual share of errors and blunders) faded into utter insignificance +compared with this. My eye fell upon Mr. Huntingdon's order lying among +some scraps of waste paper on the floor, and I picked it up, and put it +carefully, with its official envelope, into my pocket. + +"We can't stay here," said Tom. The porters were looking in +inquisitively; we were seldom so long in quitting oar empty van. + +"No," I replied, a sudden gleam of sense darting across the blank +bewilderment of my brain; "no, we must go to head-quarters at once, and +make a clean breast of it. This is no private business, Tom." + +We made one more ineffectual search, and then we hailed a cab and drove +as hard as we could to the General Post-office. The secretary of the +Post-office was not there, of course, but we obtained the address of his +residence in one of the suburbs, four or five miles from the City, and we +told no one of our misfortune, my idea being that the fewer who were made +acquainted with the loss the better. My judgment was in the right there. + +We had to knock up the household of the secretary--a formidable personage +with whom I had never been brought into contact before--and in a short +time we were holding a strictly private and confidential interview with +him, by the glimmer of a solitary candle, just serving to light up his +severe face, which changed its expression several times as I narrated the +calamity. It was too stupendous for rebuke, and I fancied his eyes +softened with something like commiseration as he gazed upon us. After a +short interval of deliberation, he announced his intention of +accompanying us to the residence of the Secretary of State; and in a few +minutes we were driving back again to the opposite extremity of London. +It was not far off the hour for the morning delivery of letters when we +reached our destination; but the atmosphere was yellow with fog, and we +could see nothing as we passed along in almost utter silence, for neither +of us ventured to speak, and the secretary only made a brief remark now +and then. We drove up to some dwelling enveloped in fog, and we were +left in the cab for nearly half an hour, while our secretary went in. At +the end of that time we were summoned to an apartment where there was +seated at a large desk a small spare man, with a great head, and eyes +deeply sunk under the brows. There was no form of introduction, of +course, and we could only guess who he might be; but we were requested to +repeat our statement, and a few shrewd questions were put to us by the +stranger. We were eager to put him in possession of everything we knew, +but that was little beyond the fact that the despatch-box was lost. + +"That young person must have taken it," he said. + +"She could not, sir," I answered, positively, but deferentially. "She +wore the tightest-fitting pelisse I ever saw, and she gave me both her +hands when she said good-bye. She could not possibly have it concealed +about her. It would not go into my pocket." + +"How did she come to travel up with you in the van, sir?" he asked +severely. + +I gave him for answer the order signed by Mr. Huntingdon. He and our +secretary scanned it closely. + +"It is Huntingdon's signature without doubt," said the latter; "I could +swear to it anywhere. This is an extraordinary circumstance!" + +It was an extraordinary circumstance. The two retired into an adjoining +room, where they stayed for another half-hour, and when they returned to +us their faces still bore an aspect of grave perplexity. + +"Mr. Wilcox and Mr. Morville," said our secretary, "it is expedient that +this affair should be kept inviolably secret. You must even be careful +not to hint that you hold any secret. You did well not to announce your +loss at the Post-office, and I shall cause it to be understood that you +had instructions to take the despatch-box direct to its destination. +Your business now is to find the young woman, and return with her not +later than six o'clock this afternoon to my office at the General +Post-office. What other steps we think it requisite to take, you need +know nothing about; the less you know, the better for yourselves." + +Another gleam of commiseration in his official eye made our hearts sink +within us. We departed promptly, and, with that instinct of wisdom which +at times dictates infallibly what course we should pursue, we decided our +line of action. Tom Morville was to go down to Camden-town, and inquire +at every house for Miss Clifton, while I--there would be just time for +it--was to run down to Eaton by train and obtain her exact address from +her parents. We agreed to meet at the General Post-office at half-past +five, if I could possibly reach it by that time; but in any case Tom was +to report himself to the secretary and account for my absence. + +When I arrived at the station at Eaton, I found that I had only +forty-five minutes before the up train went by. The town was nearly a +mile away, but I made all the haste I could to reach it. I was not +surprised to find the post-office in connexion with a bookseller's shop, +and I saw a pleasant elderly lady seated behind the counter, while a tall +dark-haired girl was sitting at some work a little out of sight. I +introduced myself at once. + +"I am Frank Wilcox, of the railway post-office, and I have just run down +to Eaton to obtain some information from you." + +"Certainly. We know you well by name," was the reply, given in a cordial +manner, which was particularly pleasant to me. + +"Will you be so good as give me the address of Miss Anne Clifton in +Camden-town?" I said. + +"Miss Anne Clifton?" ejaculated the lady. + +"Yes. Your daughter, I presume. Who went up to London last night." + +"I have no daughter Anne," she said; "I am Anne Clifton, and my daughters +are named Mary and Susan. This is my daughter Mary." + +The tall dark-haired girl had left her seat, and now stood beside her +mother. Certainly she was very unlike the small golden-haired coquette +who had travelled up to London with me as Anne Clifton. + +"Madam," I said, scarcely able to speak, "is your other daughter a +slender little creature, exactly the reverse of this young lady?" + +"No," she answered, laughing; "Susan is both taller and darker than Mary. +Call Susan, my dear." + +In a few seconds Miss Susan made her appearance, and I had the three +before me--A. Clifton, S. Clifton, and M. Clifton. There was no other +girl in the family; and when I described the young lady who had travelled +under their name, they could not think of any one in the town--it was a +small one--who answered my description, or who had gone on a visit to +London. I had no time to spare, and I hurried back to the station, just +catching the train as it left the platform. At the appointed hour I met +Morville at the General Post-office, and threading the long passages of +the secretary's offices, we at length found ourselves anxiously waiting +in an ante-room, until we were called into his presence. Morville had +discovered nothing, except that the porters and policemen at Camden-town +station had seen a young lady pass out last night, attended by a swarthy +man who looked like a foreigner, and carried a small black portmanteau. + +I scarcely know how long we waited; it might have been years, for I was +conscious of an ever-increasing difficulty in commanding my thoughts, or +fixing them upon the subject which had engrossed them all day. I had not +tasted food for twenty-four hours, nor closed my eyes for thirty-six, +while, during the whole of the time, my nervous system had been on full +strain. + +Presently, the summons came, and I was ushered, first, into the inner +apartment. There sat five gentlemen round a table, which was strewed +with a number of documents. There were the Secretary of State, whom we +had seen in the morning, our secretary, and Mr. Huntingdon; the fourth +was a fine-looking man, whom I afterwards knew to be the Premier; the +fifth I recognised as our great chief, the Postmaster-General. It was an +august assemblage to me, and I bowed low; but my head was dizzy, and my +throat parched. + +"Mr. Wilcox," said our secretary, "you will tell these gentlemen again, +the circumstances of the loss you reported to me this morning." + +I laid my hand upon the back of a chair to steady myself, and went +through the narration for the third time, passing over sundry remarks +made by myself to the young lady. That done, I added the account of my +expedition to Eaton, and the certainty at which I had arrived that my +fellow-traveller was not the person she represented herself to be. After +which, I inquired with indescribable anxiety if Mr. Huntingdon's order +were a forgery? + +"I cannot tell, Mr. Wilcox," said that gentleman, taking the order into +his hands, and regarding it with an air of extreme perplexity. "I could +have sworn it was mine, had it been attached to any other document. I +think Forbes's handwriting is not so well imitated. But it is the very +ink I use, and mine is a peculiar signature." + +It was a very peculiar and old-fashioned signature, with a flourish +underneath it not unlike a whip-handle, with the lash caught round it in +the middle; but that did not make it the more difficult to forge, as I +humbly suggested. Mr. Huntingdon wrote his name upon a paper, and two or +three of the gentlemen tried to imitate the flourish, but vainly. They +gave it up with a smile upon their grave faces. + +"You have been careful not to let a hint of this matter drop from you, +Mr. Wilcox?" said the Postmaster-General. + +"Not a syllable, my lord," I answered. + +"It is imperatively necessary that the secret should be kept. You would +be removed from the temptation of telling it, if you had an appointment +in some office abroad. The packet-agency at Alexandria is vacant, and I +will have you appointed to it at once." + +It would be a good advance from my present situation, and would doubtless +prove a stepping-stone to other and better appointments; but I had a +mother living at Fazeley, bedridden and paralytic, who had no pleasure in +existence except having me to dwell under the same roof with her. My +head was growing more and more dizzy, and a strange vagueness was +creeping over me. + +"Gentlemen," I muttered, "I have a bedridden mother whom I cannot leave. +I was not to blame, gentlemen." I fancied there was a stir and movement +at the table, but my eyes were dim, and in another second I had lost +consciousness. + +When I came to myself, in two or three minutes, I found that Mr. +Huntingdon was kneeling on the floor beside me, supporting my head, while +our secretary held a glass of wine to my lips. I rallied as quickly as +possible, and staggered to my feet; but the two gentlemen placed me in +the chair against which I had been leaning, and insisted upon my +finishing the wine before I tried to speak. + +"I have not tasted food all day," I said, faintly. + +"Then, my good fellow, you shall go home immediately," said the +Postmaster-General; "but be on your guard! Not a word of this must +escape you. Are you a married man?" + +"No, my lord," I answered. + +"So much the better," he added, smiling. "You can keep a secret from +your mother, I dare say. We rely upon your honour." + +The secretary then rang a bell, and I was committed to the charge of the +messenger who answered it; and in a few minutes I was being conveyed in a +cab to my London lodgings. A week afterwards, Tom Morville was sent out +to a post-office in Canada, where he settled down, married, and is still +living, perfectly satisfied with his position, as he occasionally informs +me by letter. For myself, I remained as I desired, in my old post as +travelling-clerk until the death of my mother, which occurred some ten or +twelve months afterwards. I was then promoted to an appointment as a +clerk in charge, upon the first vacancy. + +The business of the clerks in charge is to take possession of any +post-office in the kingdom, upon the death or resignation of the +postmaster, or when circumstances of suspicion cause his suspension from +office. My new duties carried me three or four times into Mr. +Huntingdon's district. Though that gentleman and I never exchanged a +word with regard to the mysterious loss in which we had both had an +innocent share, he distinguished me with peculiar favour, and more than +once invited me to visit him at his own house. He lived alone, having +but one daughter, who had married, somewhat against his will, one of his +clerks: the Mr. Forbes whose handwriting had been so successfully +imitated in the official order presented to me by the self-styled Miss +Anne Clifton. (By the way, I may here mention, though it has nothing to +do with my story, that my acquaintance with the Cliftons had ripened into +an intimacy, which resulted in my engagement and marriage to Mary.) + +It would be beside my purpose to specify the precise number of years +which elapsed before I was once again summoned to the secretary's private +apartment, where I found him closeted with Mr. Huntingdon. Mr. +Huntingdon shook hands with unofficial cordiality; and then the secretary +proceeded to state the business on hand. + +"Mr. Wilcox, you remember our offer to place you in office in +Alexandria?" he said. + +"Certainly, sir," I answered. + +"It has been a troublesome office," he continued, almost pettishly. "We +sent out Mr. Forbes only six months ago, on account of his health, which +required a warmer climate, and now his medical man reports that his life +is not worth three weeks' purchase." + +Upon Mr. Huntingdon's face there rested an expression of profound +anxiety; and as the secretary paused he addressed himself to me. + +"Mr. Wilcox," he said, "I have been soliciting, as a personal favour, +that you should be sent out to take charge of the packet-agency, in order +that my daughter may have some one at hand to befriend her, and manage +her business affairs for her. You are not personally acquainted with +her, but I know I can trust her with you." + +"You may, Mr. Huntingdon," I said, warmly. "I will do anything I can to +aid Mrs. Forbes. When do you wish me to start?" + +"How soon can you be ready?" was the rejoinder. + +"To-morrow morning." + +I was not married then, and I anticipated no delay in setting off. Nor +was there any. I travelled with the overland mail through France to +Marseilles, embarked in a vessel for Alexandria, and in a few days from +the time I first heard of my destination set foot in the office there. +All the postal arrangements had fallen into considerable irregularity and +confusion; for, as I was informed immediately on my arrival, Mr. Forbes +had been in a dying condition for the last week, and of course the +absence of a master had borne the usual results. I took formal +possession of the office, and then, conducted by one of the clerks, I +proceeded to the dwelling of the unfortunate postmaster and his no less +unfortunate wife. It would be out of place in this narrative to indulge +in any traveller's tales about the strange place where I was so +unexpectedly located. Suffice it to say, that the darkened sultry room +into which I was shown, on inquiring for Mrs. Forbes, was bare of +furniture, and destitute of all those little tokens of refinement and +taste which make our English parlours so pleasant to the eye. There was, +however, a piano in one of the dark corners of the room, open, and with a +sheet of music on it. While I waited for Mrs. Forbes's appearance, I +strolled idly up to the piano to see what music it might be. The next +moment my eye fell upon an antique red morocco workbox standing on the +top of the piano--a workbox evidently, for the lid was not closely shut, +and a few threads of silk and cotton were hanging out of it. In a kind +of dream--for it was difficult to believe that the occurrence was a +fact--I carried the box to the darkened window, and there, plain in my +sight, was the device scratched upon the leather: the revolutionary +symbol of a heart with a dagger through it. I had found the Premier's +despatch-box in the parlour of the packet-agent of Alexandria! + +I stood for some minutes with that dream-like feeling upon me, gazing at +the box in the dim obscure light. It could _not_ be real! My fancy must +be playing a trick upon me! But the sound of a light step--for, light as +it was, I heard it distinctly as it approached the room--broke my trance, +and I hastened to replace the box on the piano, and to stoop down as if +examining the music before the door opened. I had not sent in my name to +Mrs. Forbes, for I did not suppose that she was acquainted with it, nor +could she see me distinctly, as I stood in the gloom. But I could see +her. She had the slight slender figure, the childlike face, and the fair +hair of Miss Anne Clifton. She came quickly across the room, holding out +both her hands in a childish appealing manner. + +"O!" she wailed, in a tone that went straight to my heart, "he is dead! +He has just died!" + +It was no time then to speak about the red morocco workbox. This little +childish creature, who did not look a day older than when I had last seen +her in my travelling post-office, was a widow in a strange land, far away +from any friend save myself. I had brought her a letter from her father. +The first duties that devolved upon me were those of her husband's +interment, which had to take place immediately. Three or four weeks +elapsed before I could, with any humanity, enter upon the investigation +of her mysterious complicity in the daring theft practised on the +government and the post-office. + +I did not see the despatch-box again. In the midst of her new and +vehement grief, Mrs. Forbes had the precaution to remove it before I was +ushered again into the room where I had discovered it. I was at some +trouble to hit upon any plan by which to gain a second sight of it; but I +was resolved that Mrs. Forbes should not leave Alexandria without giving +me a full explanation. We were waiting for remittances and instructions +from England, and in the meantime the violence of her grief abated, and +she recovered a good share of her old buoyancy and loveliness, which had +so delighted me on my first acquaintance with her. As her demands upon +my sympathy weakened, my curiosity grew stronger, and at last mastered +me. I carried with me a netted purse which required mending, and I asked +her to catch up the broken meshes while I waited for it. + +"I will tell your maid to bring your workbox," I said, going to the door +and calling the servant. "Your mistress has a red morocco workbox," I +said to her, as she answered my summons. + +"Yes, sir," she replied. + +"Where is it?" + +"In her bedroom," she said. + +"Mrs. Forbes wishes it brought here." I turned back into the room. Mrs. +Forbes had gone deadly pale, but her eyes looked sullen, and her teeth +were clenched under her lips with an expression of stubbornness. The +maid brought the workbox. I walked, with it in my hands, up to the sofa +where she was seated. + +"You remember this mark?" I asked; "I think neither of us can ever forget +it." + +She did not answer by word, but there was a very intelligent gleam in her +blue eyes. + +"Now," I continued, softly, "I promised your father to befriend you, and +I am not a man to forget a promise. But you must tell me the whole +simple truth." + +I was compelled to reason with her, and to urge her for some time. I +confess I went so far as to remind her that there was an English consul +at Alexandria, to whom I could resort. At last she opened her stubborn +lips, and the whole story came out, mingled with sobs and showers of +tears. + +She had been in love with Alfred, she said, and they were too poor to +marry, and papa would not hear of such a thing. She was always in want +of money, she was kept so short; and they promised to give her such a +great sum--a vast sum--five hundred pounds. + +"But who bribed you?" I inquired. + +A foreign gentleman whom she had met in London, called Monsieur Bonnard. +It was a French name, but she was not sure that he was a Frenchman. He +talked to her about her father being a surveyor in the post-office, and +asked her a great number of questions. A few weeks after, she met him in +their own town by accident, she and Mr. Forbes; and Alfred had a long +private talk with him, and they came to her, and told her she could help +them very much. They asked her if she could be brave enough to carry off +a little red box out of the travelling post-office, containing nothing +but papers. After a while she consented. When she had confessed so much +under compulsion, Mrs. Forbes seemed to take a pleasure in the narrative, +and went on fluently. + +"We required papa's signature to the order, and we did not know how to +get it. Luckily he had a fit of the gout, and was very peevish; and I +had to read over a lot of official papers to him, and then he signed +them. One of the papers I read twice, and slipped the order into its +place after the second reading. I thought I should have died with +fright; but just then he was in great pain, and glad to get his work +over. I made an excuse that I was going to visit my aunt at Beckby, but +instead of going there direct, we contrived to be at the station at Eaton +a minute or two before the mail train came up. I kept outside the +station door till we heard the whistle, and just then the postman came +running down the road, and I followed him straight through the +booking-office, and asked him to give you the order, which I put into his +hand. He scarcely saw me. I just caught a glimpse of Monsieur Bonnard's +face through the window of the compartment next the van, when Alfred had +gone. They had promised me that the train should stop at Camden-town, if +I could only keep your attention engaged until then. You know how I +succeeded." + +"But how did you dispose of the box?" I asked. "You could not have +concealed it about you; that I am sure of." + +"Ah!" she said, "nothing was easier. Monsieur Bonnard had described the +van to me, and you remember I put the box down at the end of the counter, +close to the corner where I hid myself at every station. There was a +door with a window in it, and I asked if I might have the window open, as +the van was too warm for me. I believe Monsieur Bonnard could have taken +it from me by only leaning through his window, but he preferred stepping +out, and taking it from my hand, just as the train was leaving +Watford--on the far side of the carriages, you understand. It was the +last station, and the train came to a stand at Camden-town. After all, +the box was not out of your sight more than twenty minutes before you +missed it. Monsieur Bonnard and I hurried out of the station, and Alfred +followed us. The box was forced open--the lock has never been mended, +for it was a peculiar one--and Monsieur Bonnard took possession of the +papers. He left the box with me, after putting inside it a roll of +notes. Alfred and I were married next morning, and I went back to my +aunt's; but we did not tell papa of our marriage for three or four +months. That is the story of my red morocco workbox." + +She smiled with the provoking mirthfulness of a mischievous child. There +was one point still, on which my curiosity was unsatisfied. + +"Did you know what the despatches were about?" I asked. + +"O no!" she answered; "I never understood politics in the least. I knew +nothing about them. Monsieur did not say a word; he did not even look at +the papers while we were by. I would never, never, have taken a +registered letter, or anything with money in it, you know. But all those +papers could be written again quite easily. You must not think me a +thief, Mr. Wilcox; there was nothing worth money among the papers." + +"They were worth five hundred pounds to you," I said. "Did you ever see +Bonnard again?" + +"Never again," she replied. "He said he was going to return to his +native country. I don't think Bonnard was his real name." + +Most likely not, I thought; but I said no more to Mrs. Forbes. Once +again I was involved in a great perplexity about this affair. It was +clearly my duty to report the discovery at head-quarters, but I shrank +from doing so. One of the chief culprits was already gone to another +judgment than that of man; several years had obliterated all traces of +Monsieur Bonnard; and the only victim of justice would be this poor +little dupe of the two greater criminals. At last I came to the +conclusion to send the whole of the particulars to Mr. Huntingdon +himself; and I wrote them to him, without remark or comment. + +The answer that came to Mrs. Forbes and me in Alexandria was the +announcement of Mr. Huntingdon's sudden death of some disease of the +heart, on the day which I calculated would put him in possession of my +communication. Mrs. Forbes was again overwhelmed with apparently +heartrending sorrow and remorse. The income left to her was something +less than one hundred pounds a year. The secretary of the post-office, +who had been a personal friend of the deceased gentleman, was his sole +executor; and I received a letter from him, containing one for Mrs. +Forbes, which recommended her, in terms not to be misunderstood, to fix +upon some residence abroad, and not to return to England. She fancied +she would like the seclusion and quiet of a convent; and I made +arrangements for her to enter one in Malta, where she would still be +under British protection. I left Alexandria myself on the arrival of +another packet-agent; and on my return to London I had a private +interview with the secretary. I found that there was no need to inform +him of the circumstances I have related to you, as he had taken +possession of all Mr. Huntingdon's papers. In consideration of his +ancient friendship, and of the escape of those who most merited +punishment, he had come to the conclusion that it was quite as well to +let bygones be bygones. + +At the conclusion of the interview I delivered a message which Mrs. +Forbes had emphatically entrusted to me. + +"Mrs. Forbes wished me to impress upon your mind," I said, "that neither +she nor Mr. Forbes would have been guilty of this misdemeanour if they +had not been very much in love with one another, and very much in want of +money." + +"Ah!" replied the secretary, with a smile, "if Cleopatra's nose had been +shorter, the fate of the world would have been different!" + + + + +NO. 5 BRANCH LINE +THE ENGINEER + + +His name, sir, was Matthew Price; mine is Benjamin Hardy. We were born +within a few days of each other; bred up in the same village; taught at +the same school. I cannot remember the time when we were not close +friends. Even as boys, we never knew what it was to quarrel. We had not +a thought, we had not a possession, that was not in common. We would +have stood by each other, fearlessly, to the death. It was such a +friendship as one reads about sometimes in books: fast and firm as the +great Tors upon our native moorlands, true as the sun in the heavens. + +The name of our village was Chadleigh. Lifted high above the pasture +flats which stretched away at our feet like a measureless green lake and +melted into mist on the furthest horizon, it nestled, a tiny stone-built +hamlet, in a sheltered hollow about midway between the plain and the +plateau. Above us, rising ridge beyond ridge, slope beyond slope, spread +the mountainous moor-country, bare and bleak for the most part, with here +and there a patch of cultivated field or hardy plantation, and crowned +highest of all with masses of huge grey crag, abrupt, isolated, hoary, +and older than the deluge. These were the Tors--Druids' Tor, King's Tor, +Castle Tor, and the like; sacred places, as I have heard, in the ancient +time, where crownings, burnings, human sacrifices, and all kinds of +bloody heathen rites were performed. Bones, too, had been found there, +and arrow-heads, and ornaments of gold and glass. I had a vague awe of +the Tors in those boyish days, and would not have gone near them after +dark for the heaviest bribe. + +I have said that we were born in the same village. He was the son of a +small farmer, named William Price, and the eldest of a family of seven; I +was the only child of Ephraim Hardy, the Chadleigh blacksmith--a +well-known man in those parts, whose memory is not forgotten to this day. +Just so far as a farmer is supposed to be a bigger man than a blacksmith, +Mat's father might be said to have a better standing than mine; but +William Price, with his small holding and his seven boys, was, in fact, +as poor as many a day-labourer; whilst the blacksmith, well-to-do, +bustling, popular, and open-handed, was a person of some importance in +the place. All this, however, had nothing to do with Mat and myself. It +never occurred to either of us that his jacket was out at elbows, or that +our mutual funds came altogether from my pocket. It was enough for us +that we sat on the same school-bench, conned our tasks from the same +primer, fought each other's battles, screened each other's faults, +fished, nutted, played truant, robbed orchards and birds' nests together, +and spent every half-hour, authorised or stolen, in each other's society. +It was a happy time; but it could not go on for ever. My father, being +prosperous, resolved to put me forward in the world. I must know more, +and do better, than himself. The forge was not good enough, the little +world of Chadleigh not wide enough, for me. Thus it happened that I was +still swinging the satchel when Mat was whistling at the plough, and that +at last, when my future course was shaped out, we were separated, as it +then seemed to us, for life. For, blacksmith's son as I was, furnace and +forge, in some form or other, pleased me best, and I chose to be a +working engineer. So my father by-and-by apprenticed me to a Birmingham +iron-master; and, having bidden farewell to Mat, and Chadleigh, and the +grey old Tors in the shadow of which I had spent all the days of my life, +I turned my face northward, and went over into "the Black Country." + +I am not going to dwell on this part of my story. How I worked out the +term of my apprenticeship; how, when I had served my full time and become +a skilled workman, I took Mat from the plough and brought him over to the +Black Country, sharing with him lodging, wages, experience--all, in +short, that I had to give; how he, naturally quick to learn and brimful +of quiet energy, worked his way up a step at a time, and came by-and-by +to be a "first hand" in his own department; how, during all these years +of change, and trial, and effort, the old boyish affection never wavered +or weakened, but went on, growing with our growth and strengthening with +our strength--are facts which I need do no more than outline in this +place. + +About this time--it will be remembered that I speak of the days when Mat +and I were on the bright side of thirty--it happened that our firm +contracted to supply six first-class locomotives to run on the new line, +then in process of construction, between Turin and Genoa. It was the +first Italian order we had taken. We had had dealings with France, +Holland, Belgium, Germany; but never with Italy. The connexion, +therefore, was new and valuable--all the more valuable because our +Transalpine neighbours had but lately begun to lay down the iron roads, +and would be safe to need more of our good English work as they went on. +So the Birmingham firm set themselves to the contract with a will, +lengthened our working hours, increased our wages, took on fresh hands, +and determined, if energy and promptitude could do it, to place +themselves at the head of the Italian labour-market, and stay there. +They deserved and achieved success. The six locomotives were not only +turned out to time, but were shipped, despatched, and delivered with a +promptitude that fairly amazed our Piedmontese consignee. I was not a +little proud, you may be sure, when I found myself appointed to +superintend the transport of the engines. Being allowed a couple of +assistants, I contrived that Mat should be one of them; and thus we +enjoyed together the first great holiday of our lives. + +It was a wonderful change for two Birmingham operatives fresh from the +Black Country. The fairy city, with its crescent background of Alps; the +port crowded with strange shipping; the marvellous blue sky and bluer +sea; the painted houses on the quays; the quaint cathedral, faced with +black and white marble; the street of jewellers, like an Arabian Nights' +bazaar; the street of palaces, with its Moorish court-yards, its +fountains and orange-trees; the women veiled like brides; the +galley-slaves chained two and two; the processions of priests and friars; +the everlasting clangour of bells; the babble of a strange tongue; the +singular lightness and brightness of the climate--made, altogether, such +a combination of wonders that we wandered about, the first day, in a kind +of bewildered dream, like children at a fair. Before that week was +ended, being tempted by the beauty of the place and the liberality of the +pay, we had agreed to take service with the Turin and Genoa Railway +Company, and to turn our backs upon Birmingham for ever. + +Then began a new life--a life so active and healthy, so steeped in fresh +air and sunshine, that we sometimes marvelled how we could have endured +the gloom of the Black Country. We were constantly up and down the line: +now at Genoa, now at Turin, taking trial trips with the locomotives, and +placing our old experiences at the service of our new employers. + +In the meanwhile we made Genoa our headquarters, and hired a couple of +rooms over a small shop in a by-street sloping down to the quays. Such a +busy little street--so steep and winding that no vehicles could pass +through it, and so narrow that the sky looked like a mere strip of +deep-blue ribbon overhead! Every house in it, however, was a shop, where +the goods encroached on the footway, or were piled about the door, or +hung like tapestry from the balconies; and all day long, from dawn to +dusk, an incessant stream of passers-by poured up and down between the +port and the upper quarter of the city. + +Our landlady was the widow of a silver-worker, and lived by the sale of +filigree ornaments, cheap jewellery, combs, fans, and toys in ivory and +jet. She had an only daughter named Gianetta, who served in the shop, +and was simply the most beautiful woman I ever beheld. Looking back +across this weary chasm of years, and bringing her image before me (as I +can and do) with all the vividness of life, I am unable, even now, to +detect a flaw in her beauty. I do not attempt to describe her. I do not +believe there is a poet living who could find the words to do it; but I +once saw a picture that was somewhat like her (not half so lovely, but +still like her), and, for aught I know, that picture is still hanging +where I last looked at it--upon the walls of the Louvre. It represented +a woman with brown eyes and golden hair, looking over her shoulder into a +circular mirror held by a bearded man in the background. In this man, as +I then understood, the artist had painted his own portrait; in her, the +portrait of the woman he loved. No picture that I ever saw was half so +beautiful, and yet it was not worthy to be named in the same breath with +Gianetta Coneglia. + +You may be certain the widow's shop did not want for customers. All +Genoa knew how fair a face was to be seen behind that dingy little +counter; and Gianetta, flirt as she was, had more lovers than she cared +to remember, even by name. Gentle and simple, rich and poor, from the +red-capped sailor buying his earrings or his amulet, to the nobleman +carelessly purchasing half the filigrees in the window, she treated them +all alike--encouraged them, laughed at them, led them on and turned them +off at her pleasure. She had no more heart than a marble statue; as Mat +and I discovered by-and-by, to our bitter cost. + +I cannot tell to this day how it came about, or what first led me to +suspect how things were going with us both; but long before the waning of +that autumn a coldness had sprung up between my friend and myself. It +was nothing that could have been put into words. It was nothing that +either of us could have explained or justified, to save his life. We +lodged together, ate together, worked together, exactly as before; we +even took our long evening's walk together, when the day's labour was +ended; and except, perhaps, that we were more silent than of old, no mere +looker-on could have detected a shadow of change. Yet there it was, +silent and subtle, widening the gulf between us every day. + +It was not his fault. He was too true and gentle-hearted to have +willingly brought about such a state of things between us. Neither do I +believe--fiery as my nature is--that it was mine. It was all hers--hers +from first to last--the sin, and the shame, and the sorrow. + +If she had shown a fair and open preference for either of us, no real +harm could have come of it. I would have put any constraint upon myself, +and, Heaven knows! have borne any suffering, to see Mat really happy. I +know that he would have done the same, and more if he could, for me. But +Gianetta cared not one sou for either. She never meant to choose between +us. It gratified her vanity to divide us; it amused her to play with us. +It would pass my power to tell how, by a thousand imperceptible shades of +coquetry--by the lingering of a glance, the substitution of a word, the +flitting of a smile--she contrived to turn our heads, and torture our +hearts, and lead us on to love her. She deceived us both. She buoyed us +both up with hope; she maddened us with jealousy; she crushed us with +despair. For my part, when I seemed to wake to a sudden sense of the +ruin that was about our path and I saw how the truest friendship that +ever bound two lives together was drifting on to wreck and ruin, I asked +myself whether any woman in the world was worth what Mat had been to me +and I to him. But this was not often. I was readier to shut my eyes +upon the truth than to face it; and so lived on, wilfully, in a dream. + +Thus the autumn passed away, and winter came--the strange, treacherous, +Genoese winter, green with olive and ilex, brilliant with sunshine, and +bitter with storm. Still, rivals at heart and friends on the surface, +Mat and I lingered on in our lodging in the Vicolo Balba. Still Gianetta +held us with her fatal wiles and her still more fatal beauty. At length +there came a day when I felt I could bear the horrible misery and +suspense of it no longer. The sun, I vowed, should not go down before I +knew my sentence. She must choose between us. She must either take me +or let me go. I was reckless. I was desperate. I was determined to +know the worst, or the best. If the worst, I would at once turn my back +upon Genoa, upon her, upon all the pursuits and purposes of my past life, +and begin the world anew. This I told her, passionately and sternly, +standing before her in the little parlour at the back of the shop, one +bleak December morning. + +"If it's Mat whom you care for most," I said, "tell me so in one word, +and I will never trouble you again. He is better worth your love. I am +jealous and exacting; he is as trusting and unselfish as a woman. Speak, +Gianetta; am I to bid you good-bye for ever and ever, or am I to write +home to my mother in England, bidding her pray to God to bless the woman +who has promised to be my wife?" + +"You plead your friend's cause well," she replied, haughtily. "Matteo +ought to be grateful. This is more than he ever did for you." + +"Give me my answer, for pity's sake," I exclaimed, "and let me go!" + +"You are free to go or stay, Signor Inglese," she replied. "I am not +your jailor." + +"Do you bid me leave you?" + +"Beata Madre! not I." + +"Will you marry me, if I stay?" + +She laughed aloud--such a merry, mocking, musical laugh, like a chime of +silver bells! + +"You ask too much," she said. + +"Only what you have led me to hope these five or six months past!" + +"That is just what Matteo says. How tiresome you both are!" + +"O, Gianetta," I said, passionately, "be serious for one moment! I am a +rough fellow, it is true--not half good enough or clever enough for you; +but I love you with my whole heart, and an Emperor could do no more." + +"I am glad of it," she replied; "I do not want you to love me less." + +"Then you cannot wish to make me wretched! Will you promise me?" + +"I promise nothing," said she, with another burst of laughter; "except +that I will not marry Matteo!" + +Except that she would not marry Matteo! Only that. Not a word of hope +for myself. Nothing but my friend's condemnation. I might get comfort, +and selfish triumph, and some sort of base assurance out of that, if I +could. And so, to my shame, I did. I grasped at the vain encouragement, +and, fool that I was! let her put me off again unanswered. From that +day, I gave up all effort at self-control, and let myself drift blindly +on--to destruction. + +At length things became so bad between Mat and myself that it seemed as +if an open rupture must be at hand. We avoided each other, scarcely +exchanged a dozen sentences in a day, and fell away from all our old +familiar habits. At this time--I shudder to remember it!--there were +moments when I felt that I hated him. + +Thus, with the trouble deepening and widening between us day by day, +another month or five weeks went by; and February came; and, with +February, the Carnival. They said in Genoa that it was a particularly +dull carnival; and so it must have been; for, save a flag or two hung out +in some of the principal streets, and a sort of festa look about the +women, there were no special indications of the season. It was, I think, +the second day when, having been on the line all the morning, I returned +to Genoa at dusk, and, to my surprise, found Mat Price on the platform. +He came up to me, and laid his hand on my arm. + +"You are in late," he said. "I have been waiting for you three-quarters +of an hour. Shall we dine together to-day?" + +Impulsive as I am, this evidence of returning good will at once called up +my better feelings. + +"With all my heart, Mat," I replied; "shall we go to Gozzoli's?" + +"No, no," he said, hurriedly. "Some quieter place--some place where we +can talk. I have something to say to you." + +I noticed now that he looked pale and agitated, and an uneasy sense of +apprehension stole upon me. We decided on the "Pescatore," a little +out-of-the-way trattoria, down near the Molo Vecchio. There, in a dingy +salon, frequented chiefly by seamen, and redolent of tobacco, we ordered +our simple dinner. Mat scarcely swallowed a morsel; but, calling +presently for a bottle of Sicilian wine, drank eagerly. + +"Well, Mat," I said, as the last dish was placed on the table, "what news +have you?" + +"Bad." + +"I guessed that from your face." + +"Bad for you--bad for me. Gianetta." + +"What of Gianetta?" + +He passed his hand nervously across his lips. + +"Gianetta is false--worse than false," he said, in a hoarse voice. "She +values an honest man's heart just as she values a flower for her +hair--wears it for a day, then throws it aside for ever. She has cruelly +wronged us both." + +"In what way? Good Heavens, speak out!" + +"In the worst way that a woman can wrong those who love her. She has +sold herself to the Marchese Loredano." + +The blood rushed to my head and face in a burning torrent. I could +scarcely see, and dared not trust myself to speak. + +"I saw her going towards the cathedral," he went on, hurriedly. "It was +about three hours ago. I thought she might be going to confession, so I +hung back and followed her at a distance. When she got inside, however, +she went straight to the back of the pulpit, where this man was waiting +for her. You remember him--an old man who used to haunt the shop a month +or two back. Well, seeing how deep in conversation they were, and how +they stood close under the pulpit with their backs towards the church, I +fell into a passion of anger and went straight up the aisle, intending to +say or do something: I scarcely knew what; but, at all events, to draw +her arm through mine, and take her home. When I came within a few feet, +however, and found only a big pillar between myself and them, I paused. +They could not see me, nor I them; but I could hear their voices +distinctly, and--and I listened." + +"Well, and you heard--" + +"The terms of a shameful bargain--beauty on the one side, gold on the +other; so many thousand francs a year; a villa near Naples--Pah! it makes +me sick to repeat it." + +And, with a shudder, he poured out another glass of wine and drank it at +a draught. + +"After that," he said, presently, "I made no effort to bring her away. +The whole thing was so cold-blooded, so deliberate, so shameful, that I +felt I had only to wipe her out of my memory, and leave her to her fate. +I stole out of the cathedral, and walked about here by the sea for ever +so long, trying to get my thoughts straight. Then I remembered you, Ben; +and the recollection of how this wanton had come between us and broken up +our lives drove me wild. So I went up to the station and waited for you. +I felt you ought to know it all; and--and I thought, perhaps, that we +might go back to England together." + +"The Marchese Loredano!" + +It was all that I could say; all that I could think. As Mat had just +said of himself, I felt "like one stunned." + +"There is one other thing I may as well tell you," he added, reluctantly, +"if only to show you how false a woman can be. We--we were to have been +married next month." + +"_We_? Who? What do you mean?" + +"I mean that we were to have been married--Gianetta and I." + +A sudden storm of rage, of scorn, of incredulity, swept over me at this, +and seemed to carry my senses away. + +"_You_!" I cried. "Gianetta marry you! I don't believe it." + +"I wish I had not believed it," he replied, looking up as if puzzled by +my vehemence. "But she promised me; and I thought, when she promised it, +she meant it." + +"She told me, weeks ago, that she would never be your wife!" + +His colour rose, his brow darkened; when his answer came, it was as calm +as the last. + +"Indeed!" he said. "Then it is only one baseness more. She told me that +she had refused you; and that was why we kept our engagement secret." + +"Tell the truth, Mat Price," I said, well-nigh beside myself with +suspicion. "Confess that every word of this is false! Confess that +Gianetta will not listen to you, and that you are afraid I may succeed +where you have failed. As perhaps I shall--as perhaps I shall, after +all!" + +"Are you mad?" he exclaimed. "What do you mean?" + +"That I believe it's just a trick to get me away to England--that I don't +credit a syllable of your story. You're a liar, and I hate you!" + +He rose, and, laying one hand on the back of his chair, looked me sternly +in the face. + +"If you were not Benjamin Hardy," he said, deliberately, "I would thrash +you within an inch of your life." + +The words had no sooner passed his lips than I sprang at him. I have +never been able distinctly to remember what followed. A curse--a blow--a +struggle--a moment of blind fury--a cry--a confusion of tongues--a circle +of strange faces. Then I see Mat lying back in the arms of a bystander; +myself trembling and bewildered--the knife dropping from my grasp; blood +upon the floor; blood upon my hands; blood upon his shirt. And then I +hear those dreadful words: + +"O, Ben, you have murdered me!" + +He did not die--at least, not there and then. He was carried to the +nearest hospital, and lay for some weeks between life and death. His +case, they said, was difficult and dangerous. The knife had gone in just +below the collarbone, and pierced down into the lungs. He was not +allowed to speak or turn--scarcely to breathe with freedom. He might not +even lift his head to drink. I sat by him day and night all through that +sorrowful time. I gave up my situation on the railway; I quitted my +lodging in the Vicolo Balba; I tried to forget that such a woman as +Gianetta Coneglia had ever drawn breath. I lived only for Mat; and he +tried to live more, I believe, for my sake than his own. Thus, in the +bitter silent hours of pain and penitence, when no hand but mine +approached his lips or smoothed his pillow, the old friendship came back +with even more than its old trust and faithfulness. He forgave me, fully +and freely; and I would thankfully have given my life for him. + +At length there came one bright spring morning, when, dismissed as +convalescent, he tottered out through the hospital gates, leaning on my +arm, and feeble as an infant. He was not cured; neither, as I then +learned to my horror and anguish, was it possible that he ever could be +cured. He might live, with care, for some years; but the lungs were +injured beyond hope of remedy, and a strong or healthy man he could never +be again. These, spoken aside to me, were the parting words of the chief +physician, who advised me to take him further south without delay. + +I took him to a little coast-town called Rocca, some thirty miles beyond +Genoa--a sheltered lonely place along the Riviera, where the sea was even +bluer than the sky, and the cliffs were green with strange tropical +plants, cacti, and aloes, and Egyptian palms. Here we lodged in the +house of a small tradesman; and Mat, to use his own words, "set to work +at getting well in good earnest." But, alas! it was a work which no +earnestness could forward. Day after day he went down to the beach, and +sat for hours drinking the sea air and watching the sails that came and +went in the offing. By-and-by he could go no further than the garden of +the house in which we lived. A little later, and he spent his days on a +couch beside the open window, waiting patiently for the end. Ay, for the +end! It had come to that. He was fading fast, waning with the waning +summer, and conscious that the Reaper was at hand. His whole aim now was +to soften the agony of my remorse, and prepare me for what must shortly +come. + +"I would not live longer, if I could," he said, lying on his couch one +summer evening, and looking up to the stars. "If I had my choice at this +moment, I would ask to go. I should like Gianetta to know that I forgave +her." + +"She shall know it," I said, trembling suddenly from head to foot. + +He pressed my hand. + +"And you'll write to father?" + +"I will." + +I had drawn a little back, that he might not see the tears raining down +my cheeks; but he raised himself on his elbow, and looked round. + +"Don't fret, Ben," he whispered; laid his head back wearily upon the +pillow--and so died. + + * * * * * + +And this was the end of it. This was the end of all that made life life +to me. I buried him there, in hearing of the wash of a strange sea on a +strange shore. I stayed by the grave till the priest and the bystanders +were gone. I saw the earth filled in to the last sod, and the +gravedigger stamp it down with his feet. Then, and not till then, I felt +that I had lost him for ever--the friend I had loved, and hated, and +slain. Then, and not till then, I knew that all rest, and joy, and hope +were over for me. From that moment my heart hardened within me, and my +life was filled with loathing. Day and night, land and sea, labour and +rest, food and sleep, were alike hateful to me. It was the curse of +Cain, and that my brother had pardoned me made it lie none the lighter. +Peace on earth was for me no more, and goodwill towards men was dead in +my heart for ever. Remorse softens some natures; but it poisoned mine. +I hated all mankind; but above all mankind I hated the woman who had come +between us two, and ruined both our lives. + +He had bidden me seek her out, and be the messenger of his forgiveness. +I had sooner have gone down to the port of Genoa and taken upon me the +serge cap and shotted chain of any galley-slave at his toil in the public +works; but for all that I did my best to obey him. I went back, alone +and on foot. I went back, intending to say to her, "Gianetta Coneglia, +he forgave you; but God never will." But she was gone. The little shop +was let to a fresh occupant; and the neighbours only knew that mother and +daughter had left the place quite suddenly, and that Gianetta was +supposed to be under the "protection" of the Marchese Loredano. How I +made inquiries here and there--how I heard that they had gone to +Naples--and how, being restless and reckless of my time, I worked my +passage in a French steamer, and followed her--how, having found the +sumptuous villa that was now hers, I learned that she had left there some +ten days and gone to Paris, where the Marchese was ambassador for the Two +Sicilies--how, working my passage back again to Marseilles, and thence, +in part by the river and in part by the rail, I made my way to +Paris--how, day after day, I paced the streets and the parks, watched at +the ambassador's gates, followed his carriage, and at last, after weeks +of waiting, discovered her address--how, having written to request an +interview, her servants spurned me from her door and flung my letter in +my face--how, looking up at her windows, I then, instead of forgiving, +solemnly cursed her with the bitterest curses my tongue could devise--and +how, this done, I shook the dust of Paris from my feet, and became a +wanderer upon the face of the earth, are facts which I have now no space +to tell. + +The next six or eight years of my life were shifting and unsettled +enough. A morose and restless man, I took employment here and there, as +opportunity offered, turning my hand to many things, and caring little +what I earned, so long as the work was hard and the change incessant. +First of all I engaged myself as chief engineer in one of the French +steamers plying between Marseilles and Constantinople. At Constantinople +I changed to one of the Austrian Lloyd's boats, and worked for some time +to and from Alexandria, Jaffa, and those parts. After that, I fell in +with a party of Mr. Layard's men at Cairo, and so went up the Nile and +took a turn at the excavations of the mound of Nimroud. Then I became a +working engineer on the new desert line between Alexandria and Suez; and +by-and-by I worked my passage out to Bombay, and took service as an +engine fitter on one of the great Indian railways. I stayed a long time +in India; that is to say, I stayed nearly two years, which was a long +time for me; and I might not even have left so soon, but for the war that +was declared just then with Russia. That tempted me. For I loved danger +and hardship as other men love safety and ease; and as for my life, I had +sooner have parted from it than kept it, any day. So I came straight +back to England; betook myself to Portsmouth, where my testimonials at +once procured me the sort of berth I wanted. I went out to the Crimea in +the engine-room of one of her Majesty's war steamers. + +I served with the fleet, of course, while the war lasted; and when it was +over, went wandering off again, rejoicing in my liberty. This time I +went to Canada, and after working on a railway then in progress near the +American frontier, I presently passed over into the States; journeyed +from north to south; crossed the Rocky Mountains; tried a month or two of +life in the gold country; and then, being seized with a sudden, aching, +unaccountable longing to revisit that solitary grave so far away on the +Italian coast, I turned my face once more towards Europe. + +Poor little grave! I found it rank with weeds, the cross half shattered, +the inscription half effaced. It was as if no one had loved him, or +remembered him. I went back to the house in which we had lodged +together. The same people were still living there, and made me kindly +welcome. I stayed with them for some weeks. I weeded, and planted, and +trimmed the grave with my own hands, and set up a fresh cross in pure +white marble. It was the first season of rest that I had known since I +laid him there; and when at last I shouldered my knapsack and set forth +again to battle with the world, I promised myself that, God willing, I +would creep back to Rocca, when my days drew near to ending, and be +buried by his side. + +From hence, being, perhaps, a little less inclined than formerly for very +distant parts, and willing to keep within reach of that grave, I went no +further than Mantua, where I engaged myself as an engine-driver on the +line, then not long completed, between that city and Venice. Somehow, +although I had been trained to the working engineering, I preferred in +these days to earn my bread by driving. I liked the excitement of it, +the sense of power, the rush of the air, the roar of the fire, the +flitting of the landscape. Above all, I enjoyed to drive a night +express. The worse the weather, the better it suited with my sullen +temper. For I was as hard, and harder than ever. The years had done +nothing to soften me. They had only confirmed all that was blackest and +bitterest in my heart. + +I continued pretty faithful to the Mantua line, and had been working on +it steadily for more than seven months when that which I am now about to +relate took place. + +It was in the month of March. The weather had been unsettled for some +days past, and the nights stormy; and at one point along the line, near +Ponte di Brenta, the waters had risen and swept away some seventy yards +of embankment. Since this accident, the trains had all been obliged to +stop at a certain spot between Padua and Ponte di Brenta, and the +passengers, with their luggage, had thence to be transported in all kinds +of vehicles, by a circuitous country road, to the nearest station on the +other side of the gap, where another train and engine awaited them. +This, of course, caused great confusion and annoyance, put all our +time-tables wrong, and subjected the public to a large amount of +inconvenience. In the meanwhile an army of navvies was drafted to the +spot, and worked day and night to repair the damage. At this time I was +driving two through trains each day; namely, one from Mantua to Venice in +the early morning, and a return train from Venice to Mantua in the +afternoon--a tolerably full day's work, covering about one hundred and +ninety miles of ground, and occupying between ten and eleven hours. I +was therefore not best pleased when, on the third or fourth day after the +accident, I was informed that, in addition to my regular allowance of +work, I should that evening be required to drive a special train to +Venice. This special train, consisting of an engine, a single carriage, +and a break-van, was to leave the Mantua platform at eleven; at Padua the +passengers were to alight and find post-chaises waiting to convey them to +Ponte di Brenta; at Ponte di Brenta another engine, carriage, and +break-van were to be in readiness. I was charged to accompany them +throughout. + +"Corpo di Bacco," said the clerk who gave me my orders, "you need not +look so black, man. You are certain of a handsome gratuity. Do you know +who goes with you?" + +"Not I." + +"Not you, indeed! Why, it's the Duca Loredano, the Neapolitan +ambassador." + +"Loredano!" I stammered. "What Loredano? There was a Marchese--" + +"Certo. He was the Marchese Loredano some years ago; but he has come +into his dukedom since then." + +"He must be a very old man by this time." + +"Yes, he is old; but what of that? He is as hale, and bright, and +stately as ever. You have seen him before?" + +"Yes," I said, turning away; "I have seen him--years ago." + +"You have heard of his marriage?" + +I shook my head. + +The clerk chuckled, rubbed his hands, and shrugged his shoulders. + +"An extraordinary affair," he said. "Made a tremendous esclandre at the +time. He married his mistress--quite a common, vulgar girl--a +Genoese--very handsome; but not received, of course. Nobody visits her." + +"Married her!" I exclaimed. "Impossible." + +"True, I assure you." + +I put my hand to my head. I felt as if I had had a fall or a blow. + +"Does she--does she go to-night?" I faltered. + +"O dear, yes--goes everywhere with him--never lets him out of her sight. +You'll see her--la bella Duchessa!" + +With this my informant laughed, and rubbed his hands again, and went back +to his office. + +The day went by, I scarcely know how, except that my whole soul was in a +tumult of rage and bitterness. I returned from my afternoon's work about +7.25, and at 10.30 I was once again at the station. I had examined the +engine; given instructions to the Fochista, or stoker, about the fire; +seen to the supply of oil; and got all in readiness, when, just as I was +about to compare my watch with the clock in the ticket-office, a hand was +laid upon my arm, and a voice in my ear said: + +"Are you the engine-driver who is going on with this special train?" + +I had never seen the speaker before. He was a small, dark man, muffled +up about the throat, with blue glasses, a large black beard, and his hat +drawn low upon his eyes. + +"You are a poor man, I suppose," he said, in a quick, eager whisper, +"and, like other poor men, would not object to be better off. Would you +like to earn a couple of thousand florins?" + +"In what way?" + +"Hush! You are to stop at Padua, are you not, and to go on again at +Ponte di Brenta?" + +I nodded. + +"Suppose you did nothing of the kind. Suppose, instead of turning off +the steam, you jump off the engine, and let the train run on?" + +"Impossible. There are seventy yards of embankment gone, and--" + +"Basta! I know that. Save yourself, and let the train run on. It would +be nothing but an accident." + +I turned hot and cold; I trembled; my heart beat fast, and my breath +failed. + +"Why do you tempt me?" I faltered. + +"For Italy's sake," he whispered; "for liberty's sake. I know you are no +Italian; but, for all that, you may be a friend. This Loredano is one of +his country's bitterest enemies. Stay, here are the two thousand +florins." + +I thrust his hand back fiercely. + +"No--no," I said. "No blood-money. If I do it, I do it neither for +Italy nor for money; but for vengeance." + +"For vengeance!" he repeated. + +At this moment the signal was given for backing up to the platform. I +sprang to my place upon the engine without another word. When I again +looked towards the spot where he had been standing, the stranger was +gone. + +I saw them take their places--Duke and Duchess, secretary and priest, +valet and maid. I saw the station-master bow them into the carriage, and +stand, bareheaded, beside the door. I could not distinguish their faces; +the platform was too dusk, and the glare from the engine fire too strong; +but I recognised her stately figure, and the poise of her head. Had I +not been told who she was, I should have known her by those traits alone. +Then the guard's whistle shrilled out, and the station-master made his +last bow; I turned the steam on; and we started. + +My blood was on fire. I no longer trembled or hesitated. I felt as if +every nerve was iron, and every pulse instinct with deadly purpose. She +was in my power, and I would be revenged. She should die--she, for whom +I had stained my soul with my friend's blood! She should die, in the +plenitude of her wealth and her beauty, and no power upon earth should +save her! + +The stations flew past. I put on more steam; I bade the fireman heap in +the coke, and stir the blazing mass. I would have outstripped the wind, +had it been possible. Faster and faster--hedges and trees, bridges and +stations, flashing past--villages no sooner seen than gone--telegraph +wires twisting, and dipping, and twining themselves in one, with the +awful swiftness of our pace! Faster and faster, till the fireman at my +side looks white and scared, and refuses to add more fuel to the furnace. +Faster and faster, till the wind rushes in our faces and drives the +breath back upon our lips. + +I would have scorned to save myself. I meant to die with the rest. Mad +as I was--and I believe from my very soul that I was utterly mad for the +time--I felt a passing pang of pity for the old man and his suite. I +would have spared the poor fellow at my side, too, if I could; but the +pace at which we were going made escape impossible. + +Vicenza was passed--a mere confused vision of lights. Pojana flew by. +At Padua, but nine miles distant, our passengers were to alight. I saw +the fireman's face turned upon me in remonstrance; I saw his lips move, +though I could not hear a word; I saw his expression change suddenly from +remonstrance to a deadly terror, and then--merciful Heaven! then, for the +first time, I saw that he and I were no longer alone upon the engine. + +There was a third man--a third man standing on my right hand, as the +fireman was standing on my left--a tall, stalwart man, with short curling +hair, and a flat Scotch cap upon his head. As I fell back in the first +shock of surprise, he stepped nearer; took my place at the engine, and +turned the steam off. I opened my lips to speak to him; he turned his +head slowly, and looked me in the face. + +Matthew Price! + +I uttered one long wild cry, flung my arms wildly up above my head, and +fell as if I had been smitten with an axe. + + * * * * * + +I am prepared for the objections that may be made to my story. 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