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If you are not located in the United States, you'll have +to check the laws of the country where you are located before using this ebook. + + + + +Title: Nona Vincent + + +Author: Henry James + + + +Release Date: February 15, 2015 [eBook #2717] +[This file was first posted on July 3, 2000] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: UTF-8 + + +***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK NONA VINCENT*** + + +Transcribed from 1893 Macmillan and Co. edition by David Price, email +ccx074@pglaf.org. Proofed by Nina Hall, Mohua Sen, Bridie, Francine +Smith and David. + + + + + + NONA VINCENT. + + +I. + + +“I WONDERED whether you wouldn’t read it to me,” said Mrs. Alsager, as +they lingered a little near the fire before he took leave. She looked +down at the fire sideways, drawing her dress away from it and making her +proposal with a shy sincerity that added to her charm. Her charm was +always great for Allan Wayworth, and the whole air of her house, which +was simply a sort of distillation of herself, so soothing, so beguiling +that he always made several false starts before departure. He had spent +some such good hours there, had forgotten, in her warm, golden +drawing-room, so much of the loneliness and so many of the worries of his +life, that it had come to be the immediate answer to his longings, the +cure for his aches, the harbour of refuge from his storms. His +tribulations were not unprecedented, and some of his advantages, if of a +usual kind, were marked in degree, inasmuch as he was very clever for one +so young, and very independent for one so poor. He was eight-and-twenty, +but he had lived a good deal and was full of ambitions and curiosities +and disappointments. The opportunity to talk of some of these in +Grosvenor Place corrected perceptibly the immense inconvenience of +London. This inconvenience took for him principally the line of +insensibility to Allan Wayworth’s literary form. He had a literary form, +or he thought he had, and her intelligent recognition of the circumstance +was the sweetest consolation Mrs. Alsager could have administered. She +was even more literary and more artistic than he, inasmuch as he could +often work off his overflow (this was his occupation, his profession), +while the generous woman, abounding in happy thoughts, but unedited and +unpublished, stood there in the rising tide like the nymph of a fountain +in the plash of the marble basin. + +The year before, in a big newspapery house, he had found himself next her +at dinner, and they had converted the intensely material hour into a +feast of reason. There was no motive for her asking him to come to see +her but that she liked him, which it was the more agreeable to him to +perceive as he perceived at the same time that she was exquisite. She +was enviably free to act upon her likings, and it made Wayworth feel less +unsuccessful to infer that for the moment he happened to be one of them. +He kept the revelation to himself, and indeed there was nothing to turn +his head in the kindness of a kind woman. Mrs. Alsager occupied so +completely the ground of possession that she would have been condemned to +inaction had it not been for the principle of giving. Her husband, who +was twenty years her senior, a massive personality in the City and a +heavy one at home (wherever he stood, or even sat, he was monumental), +owned half a big newspaper and the whole of a great many other things. +He admired his wife, though she bore no children, and liked her to have +other tastes than his, as that seemed to give a greater acreage to their +life. His own appetites went so far he could scarcely see the boundary, +and his theory was to trust her to push the limits of hers, so that +between them the pair should astound by their consumption. His ideas +were prodigiously vulgar, but some of them had the good fortune to be +carried out by a person of perfect delicacy. Her delicacy made her play +strange tricks with them, but he never found this out. She attenuated +him without his knowing it, for what he mainly thought was that he had +aggrandised _her_. Without her he really would have been bigger still, +and society, breathing more freely, was practically under an obligation +to her which, to do it justice, it acknowledged by an attitude of +mystified respect. She felt a tremulous need to throw her liberty and +her leisure into the things of the soul—the most beautiful things she +knew. She found them, when she gave time to seeking, in a hundred +places, and particularly in a dim and sacred region—the region of active +pity—over her entrance into which she dropped curtains so thick that it +would have been an impertinence to lift them. But she cultivated other +beneficent passions, and if she cherished the dream of something fine the +moments at which it most seemed to her to come true were when she saw +beauty plucked flower-like in the garden of art. She loved the perfect +work—she had the artistic chord. This chord could vibrate only to the +touch of another, so that appreciation, in her spirit, had the added +intensity of regret. She could understand the joy of creation, and she +thought it scarcely enough to be told that she herself created happiness. +She would have liked, at any rate, to choose her way; but it was just +here that her liberty failed her. She had not the voice—she had only the +vision. The only envy she was capable of was directed to those who, as +she said, could do something. + +As everything in her, however, turned to gentleness, she was admirably +hospitable to such people as a class. She believed Allan Wayworth could +do something, and she liked to hear him talk of the ways in which he +meant to show it. He talked of them almost to no one else—she spoiled +him for other listeners. With her fair bloom and her quiet grace she was +indeed an ideal public, and if she had ever confided to him that she +would have liked to scribble (she had in fact not mentioned it to a +creature), he would have been in a perfect position for asking her why a +woman whose face had so much expression should not have felt that she +achieved. How in the world could she express better? There was less +than that in Shakespeare and Beethoven. She had never been more generous +than when, in compliance with her invitation, which I have recorded, he +brought his play to read to her. He had spoken of it to her before, and +one dark November afternoon, when her red fireside was more than ever an +escape from the place and the season, he had broken out as he came +in—“I’ve done it, I’ve done it!” She made him tell her all about it—she +took an interest really minute and asked questions delightfully apt. She +had spoken from the first as if he were on the point of being acted, +making him jump, with her participation, all sorts of dreary intervals. +She liked the theatre as she liked all the arts of expression, and he had +known her to go all the way to Paris for a particular performance. Once +he had gone with her—the time she took that stupid Mrs. Mostyn. She had +been struck, when he sketched it, with the subject of his drama, and had +spoken words that helped him to believe in it. As soon as he had rung +down his curtain on the last act he rushed off to see her, but after that +he kept the thing for repeated last touches. Finally, on Christmas day, +by arrangement, she sat there and listened to it. It was in three acts +and in prose, but rather of the romantic order, though dealing with +contemporary English life, and he fondly believed that it showed the hand +if not of the master, at least of the prize pupil. + +Allan Wayworth had returned to England, at two-and-twenty, after a +miscellaneous continental education; his father, the correspondent, for +years, in several foreign countries successively, of a conspicuous London +journal, had died just after this, leaving his mother and her two other +children, portionless girls, to subsist on a very small income in a very +dull German town. The young man’s beginnings in London were difficult, +and he had aggravated them by his dislike of journalism. His father’s +connection with it would have helped him, but he was (insanely, most of +his friends judged—the great exception was always Mrs. Alsager) +_intraitable_ on the question of form. Form—in his sense—was not +demanded by English newspapers, and he couldn’t give it to them in +_their_ sense. The demand for it was not great anywhere, and Wayworth +spent costly weeks in polishing little compositions for magazines that +didn’t pay for style. The only person who paid for it was really Mrs. +Alsager: she had an infallible instinct for the perfect. She paid in her +own way, and if Allan Wayworth had been a wage-earning person it would +have made him feel that if he didn’t receive his legal dues his palm was +at least occasionally conscious of a gratuity. He had his limitations, +his perversities, but the finest parts of him were the most alive, and he +was restless and sincere. It is however the impression he produced on +Mrs. Alsager that most concerns us: she thought him not only remarkably +good-looking but altogether original. There were some usual bad things +he would never do—too many prohibitive puddles for him in the short cut +to success. + +For himself, he had never been so happy as since he had seen his way, as +he fondly believed, to some sort of mastery of the scenic idea, which +struck him as a very different matter now that he looked at it from +within. He had had his early days of contempt for it, when it seemed to +him a jewel, dim at the best, hidden in a dunghill, a taper burning low +in an air thick with vulgarity. It was hedged about with sordid +approaches, it was not worth sacrifice and suffering. The man of +letters, in dealing with it, would have to put off all literature, which +was like asking the bearer of a noble name to forego his immemorial +heritage. Aspects change, however, with the point of view: Wayworth had +waked up one morning in a different bed altogether. It is needless here +to trace this accident to its source; it would have been much more +interesting to a spectator of the young man’s life to follow some of the +consequences. He had been made (as he felt) the subject of a special +revelation, and he wore his hat like a man in love. An angel had taken +him by the hand and guided him to the shabby door which opens, it +appeared, into an interior both splendid and austere. The scenic idea +was magnificent when once you had embraced it—the dramatic form had a +purity which made some others look ingloriously rough. It had the high +dignity of the exact sciences, it was mathematical and architectural. It +was full of the refreshment of calculation and construction, the +incorruptibility of line and law. It was bare, but it was erect, it was +poor, but it was noble; it reminded him of some sovereign famed for +justice who should have lived in a palace despoiled. There was a fearful +amount of concession in it, but what you kept had a rare intensity. You +were perpetually throwing over the cargo to save the ship, but what a +motion you gave her when you made her ride the waves—a motion as rhythmic +as the dance of a goddess! Wayworth took long London walks and thought +of these things—London poured into his ears the mighty hum of its +suggestion. His imagination glowed and melted down material, his +intentions multiplied and made the air a golden haze. He saw not only +the thing he should do, but the next and the next and the next; the +future opened before him and he seemed to walk on marble slabs. The more +he tried the dramatic form the more he loved it, the more he looked at it +the more he perceived in it. What he perceived in it indeed he now +perceived everywhere; if he stopped, in the London dusk, before some +flaring shop-window, the place immediately constituted itself behind +footlights, became a framed stage for his figures. He hammered at these +figures in his lonely lodging, he shaped them and he shaped their +tabernacle; he was like a goldsmith chiselling a casket, bent over with +the passion for perfection. When he was neither roaming the streets with +his vision nor worrying his problem at his table, he was exchanging ideas +on the general question with Mrs. Alsager, to whom he promised details +that would amuse her in later and still happier hours. Her eyes were +full of tears when he read her the last words of the finished work, and +she murmured, divinely— + +“And now—to get it done, to get it done!” + +“Yes, indeed—to get it done!” Wayworth stared at the fire, slowly rolling +up his type-copy. “But that’s a totally different part of the business, +and altogether secondary.” + +“But of course you want to be acted?” + +“Of course I do—but it’s a sudden descent. I want to intensely, but I’m +sorry I want to.” + +“It’s there indeed that the difficulties begin,” said Mrs. Alsager, a +little off her guard. + +“How can you say that? It’s there that they end!” + +“Ah, wait to see where they end!” + +“I mean they’ll now be of a totally different order,” Wayworth explained. +“It seems to me there can be nothing in the world more difficult than to +write a play that will stand an all-round test, and that in comparison +with them the complications that spring up at this point are of an +altogether smaller kind.” + +“Yes, they’re not inspiring,” said Mrs. Alsager; “they’re discouraging, +because they’re vulgar. The other problem, the working out of the thing +itself, is pure art.” + +“How well you understand everything!” The young man had got up, +nervously, and was leaning against the chimney-piece with his back to the +fire and his arms folded. The roll of his copy, in his fist, was +squeezed into the hollow of one of them. He looked down at Mrs. Alsager, +smiling gratefully, and she answered him with a smile from eyes still +charmed and suffused. “Yes, the vulgarity will begin now,” he presently +added. + +“You’ll suffer dreadfully.” + +“I shall suffer in a good cause.” + +“Yes, giving _that_ to the world! You must leave it with me, I must read +it over and over,” Mrs. Alsager pleaded, rising to come nearer and draw +the copy, in its cover of greenish-grey paper, which had a generic +identity now to him, out of his grasp. “Who in the world will do it?—who +in the world _can_?” she went on, close to him, turning over the leaves. +Before he could answer she had stopped at one of the pages; she turned +the book round to him, pointing out a speech. “That’s the most beautiful +place—those lines are a perfection.” He glanced at the spot she +indicated, and she begged him to read them again—he had read them +admirably before. He knew them by heart, and, closing the book while she +held the other end of it, he murmured them over to her—they had indeed a +cadence that pleased him—watching, with a facetious complacency which he +hoped was pardonable, the applause in her face. “Ah, who can utter such +lines as _that_?” Mrs. Alsager broke out; “whom can you find to do +_her_?” + +“We’ll find people to do them all!” + +“But not people who are worthy.” + +“They’ll be worthy enough if they’re willing enough. I’ll work with +them—I’ll grind it into them.” He spoke as if he had produced twenty +plays. + +“Oh, it will be interesting!” she echoed. + +“But I shall have to find my theatre first. I shall have to get a +manager to believe in me.” + +“Yes—they’re so stupid!” + +“But fancy the patience I shall want, and how I shall have to watch and +wait,” said Allan Wayworth. “Do you see me hawking it about London?” + +“Indeed I don’t—it would be sickening.” + +“It’s what I shall have to do. I shall be old before it’s produced.” + +“I shall be old very soon if it isn’t!” Mrs. Alsager cried. “I know one +or two of them,” she mused. + +“Do you mean you would speak to them?” + +“The thing is to get them to read it. I could do that.” + +“That’s the utmost I ask. But it’s even for that I shall have to wait.” + +She looked at him with kind sisterly eyes. “You sha’n’t wait.” + +“Ah, you dear lady!” Wayworth murmured. + +“That is _you_ may, but _I_ won’t! Will you leave me your copy?” she +went on, turning the pages again. + +“Certainly; I have another.” Standing near him she read to herself a +passage here and there; then, in her sweet voice, she read some of them +out. “Oh, if _you_ were only an actress!” the young man exclaimed. + +“That’s the last thing I am. There’s no comedy in _me_!” + +She had never appeared to Wayworth so much his good genius. “Is there +any tragedy?” he asked, with the levity of complete confidence. + +She turned away from him, at this, with a strange and charming laugh and +a “Perhaps that will be for you to determine!” But before he could +disclaim such a responsibility she had faced him again and was talking +about Nona Vincent as if she had been the most interesting of their +friends and her situation at that moment an irresistible appeal to their +sympathy. Nona Vincent was the heroine of the play, and Mrs. Alsager had +taken a tremendous fancy to her. “I can’t _tell_ you how I like that +woman!” she exclaimed in a pensive rapture of credulity which could only +be balm to the artistic spirit. + +“I’m awfully glad she lives a bit. What I feel about her is that she’s a +good deal like _you_,” Wayworth observed. + +Mrs. Alsager stared an instant and turned faintly red. This was +evidently a view that failed to strike her; she didn’t, however, treat it +as a joke. “I’m not impressed with the resemblance. I don’t see myself +doing what she does.” + +“It isn’t so much what she _does_,” the young man argued, drawing out his +moustache. + +“But what she does is the whole point. She simply tells her love—I +should never do that.” + +“If you repudiate such a proceeding with such energy, why do you like her +for it?” + +“It isn’t what I like her for.” + +“What else, then? That’s intensely characteristic.” + +Mrs. Alsager reflected, looking down at the fire; she had the air of +having half-a-dozen reasons to choose from. But the one she produced was +unexpectedly simple; it might even have been prompted by despair at not +finding others. “I like her because _you_ made her!” she exclaimed with +a laugh, moving again away from her companion. + +Wayworth laughed still louder. “You made her a little yourself. I’ve +thought of her as looking like you.” + +“She ought to look much better,” said Mrs. Alsager. “No, certainly, I +shouldn’t do what _she_ does.” + +“Not even in the same circumstances?” + +“I should never find myself in such circumstances. They’re exactly your +play, and have nothing in common with such a life as mine. However,” +Mrs. Alsager went on, “her behaviour was natural for _her_, and not only +natural, but, it seems to me, thoroughly beautiful and noble. I can’t +sufficiently admire the talent and tact with which you make one accept +it, and I tell you frankly that it’s evident to me there must be a +brilliant future before a young man who, at the start, has been capable +of such a stroke as that. Thank heaven I can admire Nona Vincent as +intensely as I feel that I don’t resemble her!” + +“Don’t exaggerate that,” said Allan Wayworth. + +“My admiration?” + +“Your dissimilarity. She has your face, your air, your voice, your +motion; she has many elements of your being.” + +“Then she’ll damn your play!” Mrs. Alsager replied. They joked a little +over this, though it was not in the tone of pleasantry that Wayworth’s +hostess soon remarked: “You’ve got your remedy, however: have her done by +the right woman.” + +“Oh, have her ‘done’—have her ‘done’!” the young man gently wailed. + +“I see what you mean, my poor friend. What a pity, when it’s such a +magnificent part—such a chance for a clever serious girl! Nona Vincent +is practically your play—it will be open to her to carry it far or to +drop it at the first corner.” + +“It’s a charming prospect,” said Allan Wayworth, with sudden scepticism. +They looked at each other with eyes that, for a lurid moment, saw the +worst of the worst; but before they parted they had exchanged vows and +confidences that were dedicated wholly to the ideal. It is not to be +supposed, however, that the knowledge that Mrs. Alsager would help him +made Wayworth less eager to help himself. He did what he could and felt +that she, on her side, was doing no less; but at the end of a year he was +obliged to recognise that their united effort had mainly produced the +fine flower of discouragement. At the end of a year the lustre had, to +his own eyes, quite faded from his unappreciated masterpiece, and he +found himself writing for a biographical dictionary little lives of +celebrities he had never heard of. To be printed, anywhere and anyhow, +was a form of glory for a man so unable to be acted, and to be paid, even +at encyclopædic rates, had the consequence of making one resigned and +verbose. He couldn’t smuggle style into a dictionary, but he could at +least reflect that he had done his best to learn from the drama that it +is a gross impertinence almost anywhere. He had knocked at the door of +every theatre in London, and, at a ruinous expense, had multiplied +type-copies of _Nona Vincent_ to replace the neat transcripts that had +descended into the managerial abyss. His play was not even declined—no +such flattering intimation was given him that it had been read. What the +managers would do for Mrs. Alsager concerned him little today; the thing +that was relevant was that they would do nothing for _him_. That +charming woman felt humbled to the earth, so little response had she had +from the powers on which she counted. The two never talked about the +play now, but he tried to show her a still finer friendship, that she +might not think he felt she had failed him. He still walked about London +with his dreams, but as months succeeded months and he left the year +behind him they were dreams not so much of success as of revenge. +Success seemed a colourless name for the reward of his patience; +something fiercely florid, something sanguinolent was more to the point. +His best consolation however was still in the scenic idea; it was not +till now that he discovered how incurably he was in love with it. By the +time a vain second year had chafed itself away he cherished his fruitless +faculty the more for the obloquy it seemed to suffer. He lived, in his +best hours, in a world of subjects and situations; he wrote another play +and made it as different from its predecessor as such a very good thing +could be. It might be a very good thing, but when he had committed it to +the theatrical limbo indiscriminating fate took no account of the +difference. He was at last able to leave England for three or four +months; he went to Germany to pay a visit long deferred to his mother and +sisters. + +Shortly before the time he had fixed for his return he received from Mrs. +Alsager a telegram consisting of the words: “Loder wishes see you—putting +_Nona_ instant rehearsal.” He spent the few hours before his departure +in kissing his mother and sisters, who knew enough about Mrs. Alsager to +judge it lucky this respectable married lady was not there—a relief, +however, accompanied with speculative glances at London and the morrow. +Loder, as our young man was aware, meant the new “Renaissance,” but +though he reached home in the evening it was not to this convenient +modern theatre that Wayworth first proceeded. He spent a late hour with +Mrs. Alsager, an hour that throbbed with calculation. She told him that +Mr. Loder was charming, he had simply taken up the play in its turn; he +had hopes of it, moreover, that on the part of a professional pessimist +might almost be qualified as ecstatic. It had been cast, with a margin +for objections, and Violet Grey was to do the heroine. She had been +capable, while he was away, of a good piece of work at that foggy old +playhouse the “Legitimate;” the piece was a clumsy _réchauffé_, but she +at least had been fresh. Wayworth remembered Violet Grey—hadn’t he, for +two years, on a fond policy of “looking out,” kept dipping into the +London theatres to pick up prospective interpreters? He had not picked +up many as yet, and this young lady at all events had never wriggled in +his net. She was pretty and she was odd, but he had never prefigured her +as Nona Vincent, nor indeed found himself attracted by what he already +felt sufficiently launched in the profession to speak of as her artistic +personality. Mrs. Alsager was different—she declared that she had been +struck not a little by some of her tones. The girl was interesting in +the thing at the “Legitimate,” and Mr. Loder, who had his eye on her, +described her as ambitious and intelligent. She wanted awfully to get +on—and some of those ladies were so lazy! Wayworth was sceptical—he had +seen Miss Violet Grey, who was terribly itinerant, in a dozen theatres +but only in one aspect. Nona Vincent had a dozen aspects, but only one +theatre; yet with what a feverish curiosity the young man promised +himself to watch the actress on the morrow! Talking the matter over with +Mrs. Alsager now seemed the very stuff that rehearsal was made of. The +near prospect of being acted laid a finger even on the lip of inquiry; he +wanted to go on tiptoe till the first night, to make no condition but +that they should speak his lines, and he felt that he wouldn’t so much as +raise an eyebrow at the scene-painter if he should give him an old oak +chamber. + +He became conscious, the next day, that his danger would be other than +this, and yet he couldn’t have expressed to himself what it would be. +Danger was there, doubtless—danger was everywhere, in the world of art, +and still more in the world of commerce; but what he really seemed to +catch, for the hour, was the beating of the wings of victory. Nothing +could undermine that, since it was victory simply to be acted. It would +be victory even to be acted badly; a reflection that didn’t prevent him, +however, from banishing, in his politic optimism, the word “bad” from his +vocabulary. It had no application, in the compromise of practice; it +didn’t apply even to his play, which he was conscious he had already +outlived and as to which he foresaw that, in the coming weeks, frequent +alarm would alternate, in his spirit, with frequent esteem. When he went +down to the dusky daylit theatre (it arched over him like the temple of +fame) Mr. Loder, who was as charming as Mrs. Alsager had announced, +struck him as the genius of hospitality. The manager began to explain +why, for so long, he had given no sign; but that was the last thing that +interested Wayworth now, and he could never remember afterwards what +reasons Mr. Loder had enumerated. He liked, in the whole business of +discussion and preparation, even the things he had thought he should +probably dislike, and he revelled in those he had thought he should like. +He watched Miss Violet Grey that evening with eyes that sought to +penetrate her possibilities. She certainly had a few; they were +qualities of voice and face, qualities perhaps even of intelligence; he +sat there at any rate with a fostering, coaxing attention, repeating over +to himself as convincingly as he could that she was not common—a +circumstance all the more creditable as the part she was playing seemed +to him desperately so. He perceived that this was why it pleased the +audience; he divined that it was the part they enjoyed rather than the +actress. He had a private panic, wondering how, if they liked _that_ +form, they could possibly like his. His form had now become quite an +ultimate idea to him. By the time the evening was over some of Miss +Violet Grey’s features, several of the turns of her head, a certain +vibration of her voice, had taken their place in the same category. She +_was_ interesting, she was distinguished; at any rate he had accepted +her: it came to the same thing. But he left the theatre that night +without speaking to her—moved (a little even to his own mystification) by +an odd procrastinating impulse. On the morrow he was to read his three +acts to the company, and then he should have a good deal to say; what he +felt for the moment was a vague indisposition to commit himself. +Moreover he found a slight confusion of annoyance in the fact that though +he had been trying all the evening to look at Nona Vincent in Violet +Grey’s person, what subsisted in his vision was simply Violet Grey in +Nona’s. He didn’t wish to see the actress so directly, or even so simply +as that; and it had been very fatiguing, the effort to focus Nona both +through the performer and through the “Legitimate.” Before he went to +bed that night he posted three words to Mrs. Alsager—“She’s not a bit +like it, but I dare say I can make her do.” + +He was pleased with the way the actress listened, the next day, at the +reading; he was pleased indeed with many things, at the reading, and most +of all with the reading itself. The whole affair loomed large to him and +he magnified it and mapped it out. He enjoyed his occupation of the big, +dim, hollow theatre, full of the echoes of “effect” and of a queer smell +of gas and success—it all seemed such a passive canvas for his picture. +For the first time in his life he was in command of resources; he was +acquainted with the phrase, but had never thought he should know the +feeling. He was surprised at what Loder appeared ready to do, though he +reminded himself that he must never show it. He foresaw that there would +be two distinct concomitants to the artistic effort of producing a play, +one consisting of a great deal of anguish and the other of a great deal +of amusement. He looked back upon the reading, afterwards, as the best +hour in the business, because it was then that the piece had most struck +him as represented. What came later was the doing of others; but this, +with its imperfections and failures, was all his own. The drama lived, +at any rate, for that hour, with an intensity that it was promptly to +lose in the poverty and patchiness of rehearsal; he could see its life +reflected, in a way that was sweet to him, in the stillness of the little +semi-circle of attentive and inscrutable, of water-proofed and +muddy-booted, actors. Miss Violet Grey was the auditor he had most to +say to, and he tried on the spot, across the shabby stage, to let her +have the soul of her part. Her attitude was graceful, but though she +appeared to listen with all her faculties her face remained perfectly +blank; a fact, however, not discouraging to Wayworth, who liked her +better for not being premature. Her companions gave discernible signs of +recognising the passages of comedy; yet Wayworth forgave her even then +for being inexpressive. She evidently wished before everything else to +be simply sure of what it was all about. + +He was more surprised even than at the revelation of the scale on which +Mr. Loder was ready to proceed by the discovery that some of the actors +didn’t like their parts, and his heart sank as he asked himself what he +could possibly do with them if they were going to be so stupid. This was +the first of his disappointments; somehow he had expected every +individual to become instantly and gratefully conscious of a rare +opportunity, and from the moment such a calculation failed he was at sea, +or mindful at any rate that more disappointments would come. It was +impossible to make out what the manager liked or disliked; no judgment, +no comment escaped him; his acceptance of the play and his views about +the way it should be mounted had apparently converted him into a veiled +and shrouded figure. Wayworth was able to grasp the idea that they would +all move now in a higher and sharper air than that of compliment and +confidence. When he talked with Violet Grey after the reading he +gathered that she was really rather crude: what better proof of it could +there be than her failure to break out instantly with an expression of +delight about her great chance? This reserve, however, had evidently +nothing to do with high pretensions; she had no wish to make him feel +that a person of her eminence was superior to easy raptures. He guessed, +after a little, that she was puzzled and even somewhat frightened—to a +certain extent she had not understood. Nothing could appeal to him more +than the opportunity to clear up her difficulties, in the course of the +examination of which he quickly discovered that, so far as she _had_ +understood, she had understood wrong. If she was crude it was only a +reason the more for talking to her; he kept saying to her “Ask me—ask me: +ask me everything you can think of.” + +She asked him, she was perpetually asking him, and at the first +rehearsals, which were without form and void to a degree that made them +strike him much more as the death of an experiment than as the dawn of a +success, they threshed things out immensely in a corner of the stage, +with the effect of his coming to feel that at any rate she was in +earnest. He felt more and more that his heroine was the keystone of his +arch, for which indeed the actress was very ready to take her. But when +he reminded this young lady of the way the whole thing practically +depended on her she was alarmed and even slightly scandalised: she spoke +more than once as if that could scarcely be the right way to construct a +play—make it stand or fall by one poor nervous girl. She was almost +morbidly conscientious, and in theory he liked her for this, though he +lost patience three or four times with the things she couldn’t do and the +things she could. At such times the tears came to her eyes; but they +were produced by her own stupidity, she hastened to assure him, not by +the way he spoke, which was awfully kind under the circumstances. Her +sincerity made her beautiful, and he wished to heaven (and made a point +of telling her so) that she could sprinkle a little of it over Nona. +Once, however, she was so touched and troubled that the sight of it +brought the tears for an instant to his own eyes; and it so happened +that, turning at this moment, he found himself face to face with Mr. +Loder. The manager stared, glanced at the actress, who turned in the +other direction, and then smiling at Wayworth, exclaimed, with the humour +of a man who heard the gallery laugh every night: + +“I say—I say!” + +“What’s the matter?” Wayworth asked. + +“I’m glad to see Miss Grey is taking such pains with you.” + +“Oh, yes—she’ll turn me out!” said the young man, gaily. He was quite +aware that it was apparent he was not superficial about Nona, and +abundantly determined, into the bargain, that the rehearsal of the piece +should not sacrifice a shade of thoroughness to any extrinsic +consideration. + +Mrs. Alsager, whom, late in the afternoon, he used often to go and ask +for a cup of tea, thanking her in advance for the rest she gave him and +telling her how he found that rehearsal (as _they_ were doing it—it was a +caution!) took it out of one—Mrs. Alsager, more and more his good genius +and, as he repeatedly assured her, his ministering angel, confirmed him +in this superior policy and urged him on to every form of artistic +devotion. She had, naturally, never been more interested than now in his +work; she wanted to hear everything about everything. She treated him as +heroically fatigued, plied him with luxurious restoratives, made him +stretch himself on cushions and rose-leaves. They gossipped more than +ever, by her fire, about the artistic life; he confided to her, for +instance, all his hopes and fears, all his experiments and anxieties, on +the subject of the representative of Nona. She was immensely interested +in this young lady and showed it by taking a box again and again (she had +seen her half-a-dozen times already), to study her capacity through the +veil of her present part. Like Allan Wayworth she found her encouraging +only by fits, for she had fine flashes of badness. She was intelligent, +but she cried aloud for training, and the training was so absent that the +intelligence had only a fraction of its effect. She was like a knife +without an edge—good steel that had never been sharpened; she hacked away +at her hard dramatic loaf, she couldn’t cut it smooth. + + + + +II. + + +“CERTAINLY my leading lady won’t make Nona much like _you_!” Wayworth one +day gloomily remarked to Mrs. Alsager. There were days when the prospect +seemed to him awful. + +“So much the better. There’s no necessity for that.” + +“I wish you’d train her a little—you could so easily,” the young man went +on; in response to which Mrs. Alsager requested him not to make such +cruel fun of her. But she was curious about the girl, wanted to hear of +her character, her private situation, how she lived and where, seemed +indeed desirous to befriend her. Wayworth might not have known much +about the private situation of Miss Violet Grey, but, as it happened, he +was able, by the time his play had been three weeks in rehearsal, to +supply information on such points. She was a charming, exemplary person, +educated, cultivated, with highly modern tastes, an excellent musician. +She had lost her parents and was very much alone in the world, her only +two relations being a sister, who was married to a civil servant (in a +highly responsible post) in India, and a dear little old-fashioned aunt +(really a great-aunt) with whom she lived at Notting Hill, who wrote +children’s books and who, it appeared, had once written a Christmas +pantomime. It was quite an artistic home—not on the scale of Mrs. +Alsager’s (to compare the smallest things with the greatest!) but +intensely refined and honourable. Wayworth went so far as to hint that +it would be rather nice and human on Mrs. Alsager’s part to go there—they +would take it so kindly if she should call on them. She had acted so +often on his hints that he had formed a pleasant habit of expecting it: +it made him feel so wisely responsible about giving them. But this one +appeared to fall to the ground, so that he let the subject drop. Mrs. +Alsager, however, went yet once more to the “Legitimate,” as he found by +her saying to him abruptly, on the morrow: “Oh, she’ll be very +good—she’ll be very good.” When they said “she,” in these days, they +always meant Violet Grey, though they pretended, for the most part, that +they meant Nona Vincent. + +“Oh yes,” Wayworth assented, “she wants so to!” + +Mrs. Alsager was silent a moment; then she asked, a little +inconsequently, as if she had come back from a reverie: “Does she want to +_very_ much?” + +“Tremendously—and it appears she has been fascinated by the part from the +first.” + +“Why then didn’t she say so?” + +“Oh, because she’s so funny.” + +“She _is_ funny,” said Mrs. Alsager, musingly; and presently she added: +“She’s in love with you.” + +Wayworth stared, blushed very red, then laughed out. “What is there +funny in that?” he demanded; but before his interlocutress could satisfy +him on this point he inquired, further, how she knew anything about it. +After a little graceful evasion she explained that the night before, at +the “Legitimate,” Mrs. Beaumont, the wife of the actor-manager, had paid +her a visit in her box; which had happened, in the course of their brief +gossip, to lead to her remarking that she had never been “behind.” Mrs. +Beaumont offered on the spot to take her round, and the fancy had seized +her to accept the invitation. She had been amused for the moment, and in +this way it befell that her conductress, at her request, had introduced +her to Miss Violet Grey, who was waiting in the wing for one of her +scenes. Mrs. Beaumont had been called away for three minutes, and during +this scrap of time, face to face with the actress, she had discovered the +poor girl’s secret. Wayworth qualified it as a senseless thing, but +wished to know what had led to the discovery. She characterised this +inquiry as superficial for a painter of the ways of women; and he +doubtless didn’t improve it by remarking profanely that a cat might look +at a king and that such things were convenient to know. Even on this +ground, however, he was threatened by Mrs. Alsager, who contended that it +might not be a joking matter to the poor girl. To this Wayworth, who now +professed to hate talking about the passions he might have inspired, +could only reply that he meant it couldn’t make a difference to Mrs. +Alsager. + +“How in the world do you know what makes a difference to _me_?” this lady +asked, with incongruous coldness, with a haughtiness indeed remarkable in +so gentle a spirit. + +He saw Violet Grey that night at the theatre, and it was she who spoke +first of her having lately met a friend of his. + +“She’s in love with you,” the actress said, after he had made a show of +ignorance; “doesn’t that tell you anything?” + +He blushed redder still than Mrs. Alsager had made him blush, but +replied, quickly enough and very adequately, that hundreds of women were +naturally dying for him. + +“Oh, I don’t care, for you’re not in love with _her_!” the girl +continued. + +“Did she tell you that too?” Wayworth asked; but she had at that moment +to go on. + +Standing where he could see her he thought that on this occasion she +threw into her scene, which was the best she had in the play, a brighter +art than ever before, a talent that could play with its problem. She was +perpetually doing things out of rehearsal (she did two or three to-night, +in the other man’s piece), that he as often wished to heaven Nona Vincent +might have the benefit of. She appeared to be able to do them for every +one but him—that is for every one but Nona. He was conscious, in these +days, of an odd new feeling, which mixed (this was a part of its oddity) +with a very natural and comparatively old one and which in its most +definite form was a dull ache of regret that this young lady’s unlucky +star should have placed her on the stage. He wished in his worst +uneasiness that, without going further, she would give it up; and yet it +soothed that uneasiness to remind himself that he saw grounds to hope she +would go far enough to make a marked success of Nona. There were strange +and painful moments when, as the interpretress of Nona, he almost hated +her; after which, however, he always assured himself that he exaggerated, +inasmuch as what made this aversion seem great, when he was nervous, was +simply its contrast with the growing sense that there _were_ +grounds—totally different—on which she pleased him. She pleased him as a +charming creature—by her sincerities and her perversities, by the +varieties and surprises of her character and by certain happy facts of +her person. In private her eyes were sad to him and her voice was rare. +He detested the idea that she should have a disappointment or an +humiliation, and he wanted to rescue her altogether, to save and +transplant her. One way to save her was to see to it, to the best of his +ability, that the production of his play should be a triumph; and the +other way—it was really too queer to express—was almost to wish that it +shouldn’t be. Then, for the future, there would be safety and peace, and +not the peace of death—the peace of a different life. It is to be added +that our young man clung to the former of these ways in proportion as the +latter perversely tempted him. He was nervous at the best, increasingly +and intolerably nervous; but the immediate remedy was to rehearse harder +and harder, and above all to work it out with Violet Grey. Some of her +comrades reproached him with working it out only with her, as if she were +the whole affair; to which he replied that they could afford to be +neglected, they were all so tremendously good. She was the only person +concerned whom he didn’t flatter. + +The author and the actress stuck so to the business in hand that she had +very little time to speak to him again of Mrs. Alsager, of whom indeed +her imagination appeared adequately to have disposed. Wayworth once +remarked to her that Nona Vincent was supposed to be a good deal like his +charming friend; but she gave a blank “Supposed by whom?” in consequence +of which he never returned to the subject. He confided his nervousness +as freely as usual to Mrs. Alsager, who easily understood that he had a +peculiar complication of anxieties. His suspense varied in degree from +hour to hour, but any relief there might have been in this was made up +for by its being of several different kinds. One afternoon, as the first +performance drew near, Mrs. Alsager said to him, in giving him his cup of +tea and on his having mentioned that he had not closed his eyes the night +before: + +“You must indeed be in a dreadful state. Anxiety for another is still +worse than anxiety for one’s self.” + +“For another?” Wayworth repeated, looking at her over the rim of his cup. + +“My poor friend, you’re nervous about Nona Vincent, but you’re infinitely +more nervous about Violet Grey.” + +“She _is_ Nona Vincent!” + +“No, she isn’t—not a bit!” said Mrs. Alsager, abruptly. + +“Do you really think so?” Wayworth cried, spilling his tea in his alarm. + +“What I think doesn’t signify—I mean what I think about that. What I +meant to say was that great as is your suspense about your play, your +suspense about your actress is greater still.” + +“I can only repeat that my actress _is_ my play.” + +Mrs. Alsager looked thoughtfully into the teapot. + +“Your actress is your—” + +“My what?” the young man asked, with a little tremor in his voice, as his +hostess paused. + +“Your very dear friend. You’re in love with her—at present.” And with a +sharp click Mrs. Alsager dropped the lid on the fragrant receptacle. + +“Not yet—not yet!” laughed her visitor. + +“You will be if she pulls you through.” + +“You declare that she _won’t_ pull me through.” + +Mrs. Alsager was silent a moment, after which she softly murmured: “I’ll +pray for her.” + +“You’re the most generous of women!” Wayworth cried; then coloured as if +the words had not been happy. They would have done indeed little honour +to a man of tact. + +The next morning he received five hurried lines from Mrs. Alsager. She +had suddenly been called to Torquay, to see a relation who was seriously +ill; she should be detained there several days, but she had an earnest +hope of being able to return in time for his first night. In any event +he had her unrestricted good wishes. He missed her extremely, for these +last days were a great strain and there was little comfort to be derived +from Violet Grey. She was even more nervous than himself, and so pale +and altered that he was afraid she would be too ill to act. It was +settled between them that they made each other worse and that he had now +much better leave her alone. They had pulled Nona so to pieces that +nothing seemed left of her—she must at least have time to grow together +again. He left Violet Grey alone, to the best of his ability, but she +carried out imperfectly her own side of the bargain. She came to him +with new questions—she waited for him with old doubts, and half an hour +before the last dress-rehearsal, on the eve of production, she proposed +to him a totally fresh rendering of his heroine. This incident gave him +such a sense of insecurity that he turned his back on her without a word, +bolted out of the theatre, dashed along the Strand and walked as far as +the Bank. Then he jumped into a hansom and came westward, and when he +reached the theatre again the business was nearly over. It appeared, +almost to his disappointment, not bad enough to give him the consolation +of the old playhouse adage that the worst dress-rehearsals make the best +first nights. + +The morrow, which was a Wednesday, was the dreadful day; the theatre had +been closed on the Monday and the Tuesday. Every one, on the Wednesday, +did his best to let every one else alone, and every one signally failed +in the attempt. The day, till seven o’clock, was understood to be +consecrated to rest, but every one except Violet Grey turned up at the +theatre. Wayworth looked at Mr. Loder, and Mr. Loder looked in another +direction, which was as near as they came to conversation. Wayworth was +in a fidget, unable to eat or sleep or sit still, at times almost in +terror. He kept quiet by keeping, as usual, in motion; he tried to walk +away from his nervousness. He walked in the afternoon toward Notting +Hill, but he succeeded in not breaking the vow he had taken not to meddle +with his actress. She was like an acrobat poised on a slippery ball—if +he should touch her she would topple over. He passed her door three +times and he thought of her three hundred. This was the hour at which he +most regretted that Mrs. Alsager had not come back—for he had called at +her house only to learn that she was still at Torquay. This was probably +queer, and it was probably queerer still that she hadn’t written to him; +but even of these things he wasn’t sure, for in losing, as he had now +completely lost, his judgment of his play, he seemed to himself to have +lost his judgment of everything. When he went home, however, he found a +telegram from the lady of Grosvenor Place—“Shall be able to come—reach +town by seven.” At half-past eight o’clock, through a little aperture in +the curtain of the “Renaissance,” he saw her in her box with a cluster of +friends—completely beautiful and beneficent. The house was +magnificent—too good for his play, he felt; too good for any play. +Everything now seemed too good—the scenery, the furniture, the dresses, +the very programmes. He seized upon the idea that this was probably what +was the matter with the representative of Nona—she was only too good. He +had completely arranged with this young lady the plan of their relations +during the evening; and though they had altered everything else that they +had arranged they had promised each other not to alter this. It was +wonderful the number of things they had promised each other. He would +start her, he would see her off—then he would quit the theatre and stay +away till just before the end. She besought him to stay away—it would +make her infinitely easier. He saw that she was exquisitely dressed—she +had made one or two changes for the better since the night before, and +that seemed something definite to turn over and over in his mind as he +rumbled foggily home in the four-wheeler in which, a few steps from the +stage-door, he had taken refuge as soon as he knew that the curtain was +up. He lived a couple of miles off, and he had chosen a four-wheeler to +drag out the time. + +When he got home his fire was out, his room was cold, and he lay down on +his sofa in his overcoat. He had sent his landlady to the dress-circle, +on purpose; she would overflow with words and mistakes. The house seemed +a black void, just as the streets had done—every one was, formidably, at +his play. He was quieter at last than he had been for a fortnight, and +he felt too weak even to wonder how the thing was going. He believed +afterwards that he had slept an hour; but even if he had he felt it to be +still too early to return to the theatre. He sat down by his lamp and +tried to read—to read a little compendious life of a great English +statesman, out of a “series.” It struck him as brilliantly clever, and +he asked himself whether that perhaps were not rather the sort of thing +he ought to have taken up: not the statesmanship, but the art of brief +biography. Suddenly he became aware that he must hurry if he was to +reach the theatre at all—it was a quarter to eleven o’clock. He +scrambled out and, this time, found a hansom—he had lately spent enough +money in cabs to add to his hope that the profits of his new profession +would be great. His anxiety, his suspense flamed up again, and as he +rattled eastward—he went fast now—he was almost sick with alternations. +As he passed into the theatre the first man—some underling—who met him, +cried to him, breathlessly: + +“You’re wanted, sir—you’re wanted!” He thought his tone very ominous—he +devoured the man’s eyes with his own, for a betrayal: did he mean that he +was wanted for execution? Some one else pressed him, almost pushed him, +forward; he was already on the stage. Then he became conscious of a +sound more or less continuous, but seemingly faint and far, which he took +at first for the voice of the actors heard through their canvas walls, +the beautiful built-in room of the last act. But the actors were in the +wing, they surrounded him; the curtain was down and they were coming off +from before it. They had been called, and _he_ was called—they all +greeted him with “Go on—go on!” He was terrified—he couldn’t go on—he +didn’t believe in the applause, which seemed to him only audible enough +to sound half-hearted. + +“Has it gone?—_has_ it gone?” he gasped to the people round him; and he +heard them say “Rather—rather!” perfunctorily, mendaciously too, as it +struck him, and even with mocking laughter, the laughter of defeat and +despair. Suddenly, though all this must have taken but a moment, Loder +burst upon him from somewhere with a “For God’s sake don’t keep them, or +they’ll _stop_!” “But I can’t go on for _that_!” Wayworth cried, in +anguish; the sound seemed to him already to have ceased. Loder had hold +of him and was shoving him; he resisted and looked round frantically for +Violet Grey, who perhaps would tell him the truth. There was by this +time a crowd in the wing, all with strange grimacing painted faces, but +Violet was not among them and her very absence frightened him. He +uttered her name with an accent that he afterwards regretted—it gave +them, as he thought, both away; and while Loder hustled him before the +curtain he heard some one say “She took her call and disappeared.” She +had had a call, then—this was what was most present to the young man as +he stood for an instant in the glare of the footlights, looking blindly +at the great vaguely-peopled horseshoe and greeted with plaudits which +now seemed to him at once louder than he deserved and feebler than he +desired. They sank to rest quickly, but he felt it to be long before he +could back away, before he could, in his turn, seize the manager by the +arm and cry huskily—“Has it really gone—_really_?” + +Mr. Loder looked at him hard and replied after an instant: “The play’s +all right!” + +Wayworth hung upon his lips. “Then what’s all wrong?” + +“We must do something to Miss Grey.” + +“What’s the matter with her?” + +“She isn’t _in_ it!” + +“Do you mean she has failed?” + +“Yes, damn it—she has failed.” + +Wayworth stared. “Then how can the play be all right?” + +“Oh, we’ll save it—we’ll save it.” + +“Where’s Miss Grey—where _is_ she?” the young man asked. + +Loder caught his arm as he was turning away again to look for his +heroine. “Never mind her now—she knows it!” + +Wayworth was approached at the same moment by a gentleman he knew as one +of Mrs. Alsager’s friends—he had perceived him in that lady’s box. Mrs. +Alsager was waiting there for the successful author; she desired very +earnestly that he would come round and speak to her. Wayworth assured +himself first that Violet had left the theatre—one of the actresses could +tell him that she had seen her throw on a cloak, without changing her +dress, and had learnt afterwards that she had, the next moment, flung +herself, after flinging her aunt, into a cab. He had wished to invite +half a dozen persons, of whom Miss Grey and her elderly relative were +two, to come home to supper with him; but she had refused to make any +engagement beforehand (it would be so dreadful to have to keep it if she +shouldn’t have made a hit), and this attitude had blighted the pleasant +plan, which fell to the ground. He had called her morbid, but she was +immovable. Mrs. Alsager’s messenger let him know that he was expected to +supper in Grosvenor Place, and half an hour afterwards he was seated +there among complimentary people and flowers and popping corks, eating +the first orderly meal he had partaken of for a week. Mrs. Alsager had +carried him off in her brougham—the other people who were coming got into +things of their own. He stopped her short as soon as she began to tell +him how tremendously every one had been struck by the piece; he nailed +her down to the question of Violet Grey. Had she spoilt the play, had +she jeopardised or compromised it—had she been utterly bad, had she been +good in any degree? + +“Certainly the performance would have seemed better if _she_ had been +better,” Mrs. Alsager confessed. + +“And the play would have seemed better if the performance had been +better,” Wayworth said, gloomily, from the corner of the brougham. + +“She does what she can, and she has talent, and she looked lovely. But +she doesn’t _see_ Nona Vincent. She doesn’t see the type—she doesn’t see +the individual—she doesn’t see the woman you meant. She’s out of it—she +gives you a different person.” + +“Oh, the woman I meant!” the young man exclaimed, looking at the London +lamps as he rolled by them. “I wish to God she had known _you_!” he +added, as the carriage stopped. After they had passed into the house he +said to his companion: + +“You see she _won’t_ pull me through.” + +“Forgive her—be kind to her!” Mrs. Alsager pleaded. + +“I shall only thank her. The play may go to the dogs.” + +“If it does—if it does,” Mrs. Alsager began, with her pure eyes on him. + +“Well, what if it does?” + +She couldn’t tell him, for the rest of her guests came in together; she +only had time to say: “It _sha’n’t_ go to the dogs!” + +He came away before the others, restless with the desire to go to Notting +Hill even that night, late as it was, haunted with the sense that Violet +Grey had measured her fall. When he got into the street, however, he +allowed second thoughts to counsel another course; the effect of knocking +her up at two o’clock in the morning would hardly be to soothe her. He +looked at six newspapers the next day and found in them never a good word +for her. They were well enough about the piece, but they were unanimous +as to the disappointment caused by the young actress whose former efforts +had excited such hopes and on whom, on this occasion, such pressing +responsibilities rested. They asked in chorus what was the matter with +her, and they declared in chorus that the play, which was not without +promise, was handicapped (they all used the same word) by the odd want of +correspondence between the heroine and her interpreter. Wayworth drove +early to Notting Hill, but he didn’t take the newspapers with him; Violet +Grey could be trusted to have sent out for them by the peep of dawn and +to have fed her anguish full. She declined to see him—she only sent down +word by her aunt that she was extremely unwell and should be unable to +act that night unless she were suffered to spend the day unmolested and +in bed. Wayworth sat for an hour with the old lady, who understood +everything and to whom he could speak frankly. She gave him a touching +picture of her niece’s condition, which was all the more vivid for the +simple words in which it was expressed: “She feels she isn’t right, you +know—she feels she isn’t right!” + +“Tell her it doesn’t matter—it doesn’t matter a straw!” said Wayworth. + +“And she’s so proud—you know how proud she is!” the old lady went on. + +“Tell her I’m more than satisfied, that I accept her gratefully as she +is.” + +“She says she injures your play, that she ruins it,” said his +interlocutress. + +“She’ll improve, immensely—she’ll grow into the part,” the young man +continued. + +“She’d improve if she knew how—but she says she doesn’t. She has given +all she has got, and she doesn’t know what’s wanted.” + +“What’s wanted is simply that she should go straight on and trust me.” + +“How can she trust you when she feels she’s losing you?” + +“Losing me?” Wayworth cried. + +“You’ll never forgive her if your play is taken off!” + +“It will run six months,” said the author of the piece. + +The old lady laid her hand on his arm. “What will you do for her if it +does?” + +He looked at Violet Grey’s aunt a moment. “Do you say your niece is very +proud?” + +“Too proud for her dreadful profession.” + +“Then she wouldn’t wish you to ask me that,” Wayworth answered, getting +up. + +When he reached home he was very tired, and for a person to whom it was +open to consider that he had scored a success he spent a remarkably +dismal day. All his restlessness had gone, and fatigue and depression +possessed him. He sank into his old chair by the fire and sat there for +hours with his eyes closed. His landlady came in to bring his luncheon +and mend the fire, but he feigned to be asleep, so as not to be spoken +to. It is to be supposed that sleep at last overtook him, for about the +hour that dusk began to gather he had an extraordinary impression, a +visit that, it would seem, could have belonged to no waking +consciousness. Nona Vincent, in face and form, the living heroine of his +play, rose before him in his little silent room, sat down with him at his +dingy fireside. She was not Violet Grey, she was not Mrs. Alsager, she +was not any woman he had seen upon earth, nor was it any masquerade of +friendship or of penitence. Yet she was more familiar to him than the +women he had known best, and she was ineffably beautiful and consoling. +She filled the poor room with her presence, the effect of which was as +soothing as some odour of incense. She was as quiet as an affectionate +sister, and there was no surprise in her being there. Nothing more real +had ever befallen him, and nothing, somehow, more reassuring. He felt +her hand rest upon his own, and all his senses seemed to open to her +message. She struck him, in the strangest way, both as his creation and +as his inspirer, and she gave him the happiest consciousness of success. +If she was so charming, in the red firelight, in her vague, +clear-coloured garments, it was because he had made her so, and yet if +the weight seemed lifted from his spirit it was because she drew it away. +When she bent her deep eyes upon him they seemed to speak of safety and +freedom and to make a green garden of the future. From time to time she +smiled and said: “I live—I live—I live.” How long she stayed he couldn’t +have told, but when his landlady blundered in with the lamp Nona Vincent +was no longer there. He rubbed his eyes, but no dream had ever been so +intense; and as he slowly got out of his chair it was with a deep still +joy—the joy of the artist—in the thought of how right he had been, how +exactly like herself he had made her. She had come to show him that. At +the end of five minutes, however, he felt sufficiently mystified to call +his landlady back—he wanted to ask her a question. When the good woman +reappeared the question hung fire an instant; then it shaped itself as +the inquiry: + +“Has any lady been here?” + +“No, sir—no lady at all.” + +The woman seemed slightly scandalised. “Not Miss Vincent?” + +“Miss Vincent, sir?” + +“The young lady of my play, don’t you know?” + +“Oh, sir, you mean Miss Violet Grey!” + +“No I don’t, at all. I think I mean Mrs. Alsager.” + +“There has been no Mrs. Alsager, sir.” + +“Nor anybody at all like her?” + +The woman looked at him as if she wondered what had suddenly taken him. +Then she asked in an injured tone: “Why shouldn’t I have told you if +you’d ’ad callers, sir?” + +“I thought you might have thought I was asleep.” + +“Indeed you were, sir, when I came in with the lamp—and well you’d earned +it, Mr. Wayworth!” + +The landlady came back an hour later to bring him a telegram; it was just +as he had begun to dress to dine at his club and go down to the theatre. + +“See me to-night in front, and don’t come near me till it’s over.” + +It was in these words that Violet communicated her wishes for the +evening. He obeyed them to the letter; he watched her from the depths of +a box. He was in no position to say how she might have struck him the +night before, but what he saw during these charmed hours filled him with +admiration and gratitude. She _was_ in it, this time; she had pulled +herself together, she had taken possession, she was felicitous at every +turn. Fresh from his revelation of Nona he was in a position to judge, +and as he judged he exulted. He was thrilled and carried away, and he +was moreover intensely curious to know what had happened to her, by what +unfathomable art she had managed in a few hours to effect such a change +of base. It was as if _she_ had had a revelation of Nona, so convincing +a clearness had been breathed upon the picture. He kept himself quiet in +the _entr’actes_—he would speak to her only at the end; but before the +play was half over the manager burst into his box. + +“It’s prodigious, what she’s up to!” cried Mr. Loder, almost more +bewildered than gratified. “She has gone in for a new reading—a blessed +somersault in the air!” + +“Is it quite different?” Wayworth asked, sharing his mystification. + +“Different? Hyperion to a satyr! It’s devilish good, my boy!” + +“It’s devilish good,” said Wayworth, “and it’s in a different key +altogether from the key of her rehearsal.” + +“I’ll run you six months!” the manager declared; and he rushed round +again to the actress, leaving Wayworth with a sense that she had already +pulled him through. She had with the audience an immense personal +success. + +When he went behind, at the end, he had to wait for her; she only showed +herself when she was ready to leave the theatre. Her aunt had been in +her dressing-room with her, and the two ladies appeared together. The +girl passed him quickly, motioning him to say nothing till they should +have got out of the place. He saw that she was immensely excited, lifted +altogether above her common artistic level. The old lady said to him: +“You must come home to supper with us: it has been all arranged.” They +had a brougham, with a little third seat, and he got into it with them. +It was a long time before the actress would speak. She leaned back in +her corner, giving no sign but still heaving a little, like a subsiding +sea, and with all her triumph in the eyes that shone through the +darkness. The old lady was hushed to awe, or at least to discretion, and +Wayworth was happy enough to wait. He had really to wait till they had +alighted at Notting Hill, where the elder of his companions went to see +that supper had been attended to. + +“I was better—I was better,” said Violet Grey, throwing off her cloak in +the little drawing-room. + +“You were perfection. You’ll be like that every night, won’t you?” + +She smiled at him. “Every night? There can scarcely be a miracle every +day.” + +“What do you mean by a miracle?” + +“I’ve had a revelation.” + +Wayward stared. “At what hour?” + +“The right hour—this afternoon. Just in time to save me—and to save +_you_.” + +“At five o’clock? Do you mean you had a visit?” + +“She came to me—she stayed two hours.” + +“Two hours? Nona Vincent?” + +“Mrs. Alsager.” Violet Grey smiled more deeply. “It’s the same thing.” + +“And how did Mrs. Alsager save you?” + +“By letting me look at her. By letting me hear her speak. By letting me +know her.” + +“And what did she say to you?” + +“Kind things—encouraging, intelligent things.” + +“Ah, the dear woman!” Wayworth cried. + +“You ought to like her—she likes _you_. She was just what I wanted,” the +actress added. + +“Do you mean she talked to you about Nona?” + +“She said you thought she was like her. She _is_—she’s exquisite.” + +“She’s exquisite,” Wayworth repeated. “Do you mean she tried to coach +you?” + +“Oh, no—she only said she would be so glad if it would help me to see +her. And I felt it did help me. I don’t know what took place—she only +sat there, and she held my hand and smiled at me, and she had tact and +grace, and she had goodness and beauty, and she soothed my nerves and +lighted up my imagination. Somehow she seemed to _give_ it all to me. I +took it—I took it. I kept her before me, I drank her in. For the first +time, in the whole study of the part, I had my model—I could make my +copy. All my courage came back to me, and other things came that I +hadn’t felt before. She was different—she was delightful; as I’ve said, +she was a revelation. She kissed me when she went away—and you may guess +if I kissed _her_. We were awfully affectionate, but it’s _you_ she +likes!” said Violet Grey. + +Wayworth had never been more interested in his life, and he had rarely +been more mystified. “Did she wear vague, clear-coloured garments?” he +asked, after a moment. + +Violet Grey stared, laughed, then bade him go in to supper. “_You_ know +how she dresses!” + +He was very well pleased at supper, but he was silent and a little +solemn. He said he would go to see Mrs. Alsager the next day. He did +so, but he was told at her door that she had returned to Torquay. She +remained there all winter, all spring, and the next time he saw her his +play had run two hundred nights and he had married Violet Grey. His +plays sometimes succeed, but his wife is not in them now, nor in any +others. At these representations Mrs. Alsager continues frequently to be +present. + + + + +***END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK NONA VINCENT*** + + +******* This file should be named 2717-0.txt or 2717-0.zip ******* + + +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: +http://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/2/7/1/2717 + + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions will +be renamed. + +Creating the works from print editions not protected by U.S. copyright +law means that no one owns a United States copyright in these works, +so the Foundation (and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United +States without permission and without paying copyright +royalties. 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You may copy it, give it away or re-use it under the terms of +the Project Gutenberg License included with this eBook or online at +www.gutenberg.org. If you are not located in the United States, you'll have +to check the laws of the country where you are located before using this ebook. + + + + +Title: Nona Vincent + + +Author: Henry James + + + +Release Date: February 15, 2015 [eBook #2717] +[This file was first posted on July 3, 2000] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-646-US (US-ASCII) + + +***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK NONA VINCENT*** +</pre> +<p>Transcribed from 1893 Macmillan and Co. edition by David +Price, email ccx074@pglaf.org. Proofed by Nina Hall, Mohua +Sen, Bridie, Francine Smith and David.</p> +<h1>NONA VINCENT.</h1> +<h2>I.</h2> +<p>“I <span class="smcap">wondered</span> whether you +wouldn’t read it to me,” said Mrs. Alsager, as they +lingered a little near the fire before he took leave. She +looked down at the fire sideways, drawing her dress away from it +and making her proposal with a shy sincerity that added to her +charm. Her charm was always great for Allan Wayworth, and +the whole air of her house, which was simply a sort of +distillation of herself, so soothing, so beguiling that he always +made several false starts before departure. He had spent +some such good hours there, had forgotten, in her warm, golden +drawing-room, so much of the loneliness and so many of the +worries of his life, that it had come to be the immediate answer +to his longings, the cure for his aches, the harbour of refuge +from his storms. His tribulations were not unprecedented, +and some of his advantages, if of a usual kind, were marked in +degree, inasmuch as he was very clever for one so young, and very +independent for one so poor. He was eight-and-twenty, but +he had lived a good deal and was full of ambitions and +curiosities and disappointments. The opportunity to talk of +some of these in Grosvenor Place corrected perceptibly the +immense inconvenience of London. This inconvenience took +for him principally the line of insensibility to Allan +Wayworth’s literary form. He had a literary form, or +he thought he had, and her intelligent recognition of the +circumstance was the sweetest consolation Mrs. Alsager could have +administered. She was even more literary and more artistic +than he, inasmuch as he could often work off his overflow (this +was his occupation, his profession), while the generous woman, +abounding in happy thoughts, but unedited and unpublished, stood +there in the rising tide like the nymph of a fountain in the +plash of the marble basin.</p> +<p>The year before, in a big newspapery house, he had found +himself next her at dinner, and they had converted the intensely +material hour into a feast of reason. There was no motive +for her asking him to come to see her but that she liked him, +which it was the more agreeable to him to perceive as he +perceived at the same time that she was exquisite. She was +enviably free to act upon her likings, and it made Wayworth feel +less unsuccessful to infer that for the moment he happened to be +one of them. He kept the revelation to himself, and indeed +there was nothing to turn his head in the kindness of a kind +woman. Mrs. Alsager occupied so completely the ground of +possession that she would have been condemned to inaction had it +not been for the principle of giving. Her husband, who was +twenty years her senior, a massive personality in the City and a +heavy one at home (wherever he stood, or even sat, he was +monumental), owned half a big newspaper and the whole of a great +many other things. He admired his wife, though she bore no +children, and liked her to have other tastes than his, as that +seemed to give a greater acreage to their life. His own +appetites went so far he could scarcely see the boundary, and his +theory was to trust her to push the limits of hers, so that +between them the pair should astound by their consumption. +His ideas were prodigiously vulgar, but some of them had the good +fortune to be carried out by a person of perfect delicacy. +Her delicacy made her play strange tricks with them, but he never +found this out. She attenuated him without his knowing it, +for what he mainly thought was that he had aggrandised +<i>her</i>. Without her he really would have been bigger +still, and society, breathing more freely, was practically under +an obligation to her which, to do it justice, it acknowledged by +an attitude of mystified respect. She felt a tremulous need +to throw her liberty and her leisure into the things of the +soul—the most beautiful things she knew. She found +them, when she gave time to seeking, in a hundred places, and +particularly in a dim and sacred region—the region of +active pity—over her entrance into which she dropped +curtains so thick that it would have been an impertinence to lift +them. But she cultivated other beneficent passions, and if +she cherished the dream of something fine the moments at which it +most seemed to her to come true were when she saw beauty plucked +flower-like in the garden of art. She loved the perfect +work—she had the artistic chord. This chord could +vibrate only to the touch of another, so that appreciation, in +her spirit, had the added intensity of regret. She could +understand the joy of creation, and she thought it scarcely +enough to be told that she herself created happiness. She +would have liked, at any rate, to choose her way; but it was just +here that her liberty failed her. She had not the +voice—she had only the vision. The only envy she was +capable of was directed to those who, as she said, could do +something.</p> +<p>As everything in her, however, turned to gentleness, she was +admirably hospitable to such people as a class. She +believed Allan Wayworth could do something, and she liked to hear +him talk of the ways in which he meant to show it. He +talked of them almost to no one else—she spoiled him for +other listeners. With her fair bloom and her quiet grace +she was indeed an ideal public, and if she had ever confided to +him that she would have liked to scribble (she had in fact not +mentioned it to a creature), he would have been in a perfect +position for asking her why a woman whose face had so much +expression should not have felt that she achieved. How in +the world could she express better? There was less than +that in Shakespeare and Beethoven. She had never been more +generous than when, in compliance with her invitation, which I +have recorded, he brought his play to read to her. He had +spoken of it to her before, and one dark November afternoon, when +her red fireside was more than ever an escape from the place and +the season, he had broken out as he came +in—“I’ve done it, I’ve done +it!” She made him tell her all about it—she +took an interest really minute and asked questions delightfully +apt. She had spoken from the first as if he were on the +point of being acted, making him jump, with her participation, +all sorts of dreary intervals. She liked the theatre as she +liked all the arts of expression, and he had known her to go all +the way to Paris for a particular performance. Once he had +gone with her—the time she took that stupid Mrs. +Mostyn. She had been struck, when he sketched it, with the +subject of his drama, and had spoken words that helped him to +believe in it. As soon as he had rung down his curtain on +the last act he rushed off to see her, but after that he kept the +thing for repeated last touches. Finally, on Christmas day, +by arrangement, she sat there and listened to it. It was in +three acts and in prose, but rather of the romantic order, though +dealing with contemporary English life, and he fondly believed +that it showed the hand if not of the master, at least of the +prize pupil.</p> +<p>Allan Wayworth had returned to England, at two-and-twenty, +after a miscellaneous continental education; his father, the +correspondent, for years, in several foreign countries +successively, of a conspicuous London journal, had died just +after this, leaving his mother and her two other children, +portionless girls, to subsist on a very small income in a very +dull German town. The young man’s beginnings in +London were difficult, and he had aggravated them by his dislike +of journalism. His father’s connection with it would +have helped him, but he was (insanely, most of his friends +judged—the great exception was always Mrs. Alsager) +<i>intraitable</i> on the question of form. Form—in +his sense—was not demanded by English newspapers, and he +couldn’t give it to them in <i>their</i> sense. The +demand for it was not great anywhere, and Wayworth spent costly +weeks in polishing little compositions for magazines that +didn’t pay for style. The only person who paid for it +was really Mrs. Alsager: she had an infallible instinct for the +perfect. She paid in her own way, and if Allan Wayworth had +been a wage-earning person it would have made him feel that if he +didn’t receive his legal dues his palm was at least +occasionally conscious of a gratuity. He had his +limitations, his perversities, but the finest parts of him were +the most alive, and he was restless and sincere. It is +however the impression he produced on Mrs. Alsager that most +concerns us: she thought him not only remarkably good-looking but +altogether original. There were some usual bad things he +would never do—too many prohibitive puddles for him in the +short cut to success.</p> +<p>For himself, he had never been so happy as since he had seen +his way, as he fondly believed, to some sort of mastery of the +scenic idea, which struck him as a very different matter now that +he looked at it from within. He had had his early days of +contempt for it, when it seemed to him a jewel, dim at the best, +hidden in a dunghill, a taper burning low in an air thick with +vulgarity. It was hedged about with sordid approaches, it +was not worth sacrifice and suffering. The man of letters, +in dealing with it, would have to put off all literature, which +was like asking the bearer of a noble name to forego his +immemorial heritage. Aspects change, however, with the +point of view: Wayworth had waked up one morning in a different +bed altogether. It is needless here to trace this accident +to its source; it would have been much more interesting to a +spectator of the young man’s life to follow some of the +consequences. He had been made (as he felt) the subject of +a special revelation, and he wore his hat like a man in +love. An angel had taken him by the hand and guided him to +the shabby door which opens, it appeared, into an interior both +splendid and austere. The scenic idea was magnificent when +once you had embraced it—the dramatic form had a purity +which made some others look ingloriously rough. It had the +high dignity of the exact sciences, it was mathematical and +architectural. It was full of the refreshment of +calculation and construction, the incorruptibility of line and +law. It was bare, but it was erect, it was poor, but it was +noble; it reminded him of some sovereign famed for justice who +should have lived in a palace despoiled. There was a +fearful amount of concession in it, but what you kept had a rare +intensity. You were perpetually throwing over the cargo to +save the ship, but what a motion you gave her when you made her +ride the waves—a motion as rhythmic as the dance of a +goddess! Wayworth took long London walks and thought of +these things—London poured into his ears the mighty hum of +its suggestion. His imagination glowed and melted down +material, his intentions multiplied and made the air a golden +haze. He saw not only the thing he should do, but the next +and the next and the next; the future opened before him and he +seemed to walk on marble slabs. The more he tried the +dramatic form the more he loved it, the more he looked at it the +more he perceived in it. What he perceived in it indeed he +now perceived everywhere; if he stopped, in the London dusk, +before some flaring shop-window, the place immediately +constituted itself behind footlights, became a framed stage for +his figures. He hammered at these figures in his lonely +lodging, he shaped them and he shaped their tabernacle; he was +like a goldsmith chiselling a casket, bent over with the passion +for perfection. When he was neither roaming the streets +with his vision nor worrying his problem at his table, he was +exchanging ideas on the general question with Mrs. Alsager, to +whom he promised details that would amuse her in later and still +happier hours. Her eyes were full of tears when he read her +the last words of the finished work, and she murmured, +divinely—</p> +<p>“And now—to get it done, to get it +done!”</p> +<p>“Yes, indeed—to get it done!” Wayworth +stared at the fire, slowly rolling up his type-copy. +“But that’s a totally different part of the business, +and altogether secondary.”</p> +<p>“But of course you want to be acted?”</p> +<p>“Of course I do—but it’s a sudden +descent. I want to intensely, but I’m sorry I want +to.”</p> +<p>“It’s there indeed that the difficulties +begin,” said Mrs. Alsager, a little off her guard.</p> +<p>“How can you say that? It’s there that they +end!”</p> +<p>“Ah, wait to see where they end!”</p> +<p>“I mean they’ll now be of a totally different +order,” Wayworth explained. “It seems to me +there can be nothing in the world more difficult than to write a +play that will stand an all-round test, and that in comparison +with them the complications that spring up at this point are of +an altogether smaller kind.”</p> +<p>“Yes, they’re not inspiring,” said Mrs. +Alsager; “they’re discouraging, because they’re +vulgar. The other problem, the working out of the thing +itself, is pure art.”</p> +<p>“How well you understand everything!” The +young man had got up, nervously, and was leaning against the +chimney-piece with his back to the fire and his arms +folded. The roll of his copy, in his fist, was squeezed +into the hollow of one of them. He looked down at Mrs. +Alsager, smiling gratefully, and she answered him with a smile +from eyes still charmed and suffused. “Yes, the +vulgarity will begin now,” he presently added.</p> +<p>“You’ll suffer dreadfully.”</p> +<p>“I shall suffer in a good cause.”</p> +<p>“Yes, giving <i>that</i> to the world! You must +leave it with me, I must read it over and over,” Mrs. +Alsager pleaded, rising to come nearer and draw the copy, in its +cover of greenish-grey paper, which had a generic identity now to +him, out of his grasp. “Who in the world will do +it?—who in the world <i>can</i>?” she went on, close +to him, turning over the leaves. Before he could answer she +had stopped at one of the pages; she turned the book round to +him, pointing out a speech. “That’s the most +beautiful place—those lines are a perfection.” +He glanced at the spot she indicated, and she begged him to read +them again—he had read them admirably before. He knew +them by heart, and, closing the book while she held the other end +of it, he murmured them over to her—they had indeed a +cadence that pleased him—watching, with a facetious +complacency which he hoped was pardonable, the applause in her +face. “Ah, who can utter such lines as +<i>that</i>?” Mrs. Alsager broke out; “whom can you +find to do <i>her</i>?”</p> +<p>“We’ll find people to do them all!”</p> +<p>“But not people who are worthy.”</p> +<p>“They’ll be worthy enough if they’re willing +enough. I’ll work with them—I’ll grind it +into them.” He spoke as if he had produced twenty +plays.</p> +<p>“Oh, it will be interesting!” she echoed.</p> +<p>“But I shall have to find my theatre first. I +shall have to get a manager to believe in me.”</p> +<p>“Yes—they’re so stupid!”</p> +<p>“But fancy the patience I shall want, and how I shall +have to watch and wait,” said Allan Wayworth. +“Do you see me hawking it about London?”</p> +<p>“Indeed I don’t—it would be +sickening.”</p> +<p>“It’s what I shall have to do. I shall be +old before it’s produced.”</p> +<p>“I shall be old very soon if it isn’t!” Mrs. +Alsager cried. “I know one or two of them,” she +mused.</p> +<p>“Do you mean you would speak to them?”</p> +<p>“The thing is to get them to read it. I could do +that.”</p> +<p>“That’s the utmost I ask. But it’s +even for that I shall have to wait.”</p> +<p>She looked at him with kind sisterly eyes. “You +sha’n’t wait.”</p> +<p>“Ah, you dear lady!” Wayworth murmured.</p> +<p>“That is <i>you</i> may, but <i>I</i> won’t! +Will you leave me your copy?” she went on, turning the +pages again.</p> +<p>“Certainly; I have another.” Standing near +him she read to herself a passage here and there; then, in her +sweet voice, she read some of them out. “Oh, if +<i>you</i> were only an actress!” the young man +exclaimed.</p> +<p>“That’s the last thing I am. There’s +no comedy in <i>me</i>!”</p> +<p>She had never appeared to Wayworth so much his good +genius. “Is there any tragedy?” he asked, with +the levity of complete confidence.</p> +<p>She turned away from him, at this, with a strange and charming +laugh and a “Perhaps that will be for you to +determine!” But before he could disclaim such a +responsibility she had faced him again and was talking about Nona +Vincent as if she had been the most interesting of their friends +and her situation at that moment an irresistible appeal to their +sympathy. Nona Vincent was the heroine of the play, and +Mrs. Alsager had taken a tremendous fancy to her. “I +can’t <i>tell</i> you how I like that woman!” she +exclaimed in a pensive rapture of credulity which could only be +balm to the artistic spirit.</p> +<p>“I’m awfully glad she lives a bit. What I +feel about her is that she’s a good deal like +<i>you</i>,” Wayworth observed.</p> +<p>Mrs. Alsager stared an instant and turned faintly red. +This was evidently a view that failed to strike her; she +didn’t, however, treat it as a joke. “I’m +not impressed with the resemblance. I don’t see +myself doing what she does.”</p> +<p>“It isn’t so much what she <i>does</i>,” the +young man argued, drawing out his moustache.</p> +<p>“But what she does is the whole point. She simply +tells her love—I should never do that.”</p> +<p>“If you repudiate such a proceeding with such energy, +why do you like her for it?”</p> +<p>“It isn’t what I like her for.”</p> +<p>“What else, then? That’s intensely +characteristic.”</p> +<p>Mrs. Alsager reflected, looking down at the fire; she had the +air of having half-a-dozen reasons to choose from. But the +one she produced was unexpectedly simple; it might even have been +prompted by despair at not finding others. “I like +her because <i>you</i> made her!” she exclaimed with a +laugh, moving again away from her companion.</p> +<p>Wayworth laughed still louder. “You made her a +little yourself. I’ve thought of her as looking like +you.”</p> +<p>“She ought to look much better,” said Mrs. +Alsager. “No, certainly, I shouldn’t do what +<i>she</i> does.”</p> +<p>“Not even in the same circumstances?”</p> +<p>“I should never find myself in such circumstances. +They’re exactly your play, and have nothing in common with +such a life as mine. However,” Mrs. Alsager went on, +“her behaviour was natural for <i>her</i>, and not only +natural, but, it seems to me, thoroughly beautiful and +noble. I can’t sufficiently admire the talent and +tact with which you make one accept it, and I tell you frankly +that it’s evident to me there must be a brilliant future +before a young man who, at the start, has been capable of such a +stroke as that. Thank heaven I can admire Nona Vincent as +intensely as I feel that I don’t resemble her!”</p> +<p>“Don’t exaggerate that,” said Allan +Wayworth.</p> +<p>“My admiration?”</p> +<p>“Your dissimilarity. She has your face, your air, +your voice, your motion; she has many elements of your +being.”</p> +<p>“Then she’ll damn your play!” Mrs. Alsager +replied. They joked a little over this, though it was not +in the tone of pleasantry that Wayworth’s hostess soon +remarked: “You’ve got your remedy, however: have her +done by the right woman.”</p> +<p>“Oh, have her ‘done’—have her +‘done’!” the young man gently wailed.</p> +<p>“I see what you mean, my poor friend. What a pity, +when it’s such a magnificent part—such a chance for a +clever serious girl! Nona Vincent is practically your +play—it will be open to her to carry it far or to drop it +at the first corner.”</p> +<p>“It’s a charming prospect,” said Allan +Wayworth, with sudden scepticism. They looked at each other +with eyes that, for a lurid moment, saw the worst of the worst; +but before they parted they had exchanged vows and confidences +that were dedicated wholly to the ideal. It is not to be +supposed, however, that the knowledge that Mrs. Alsager would +help him made Wayworth less eager to help himself. He did +what he could and felt that she, on her side, was doing no less; +but at the end of a year he was obliged to recognise that their +united effort had mainly produced the fine flower of +discouragement. At the end of a year the lustre had, to his +own eyes, quite faded from his unappreciated masterpiece, and he +found himself writing for a biographical dictionary little lives +of celebrities he had never heard of. To be printed, +anywhere and anyhow, was a form of glory for a man so unable to +be acted, and to be paid, even at encyclopædic rates, had +the consequence of making one resigned and verbose. He +couldn’t smuggle style into a dictionary, but he could at +least reflect that he had done his best to learn from the drama +that it is a gross impertinence almost anywhere. He had +knocked at the door of every theatre in London, and, at a ruinous +expense, had multiplied type-copies of <i>Nona Vincent</i> to +replace the neat transcripts that had descended into the +managerial abyss. His play was not even declined—no +such flattering intimation was given him that it had been +read. What the managers would do for Mrs. Alsager concerned +him little today; the thing that was relevant was that they would +do nothing for <i>him</i>. That charming woman felt humbled +to the earth, so little response had she had from the powers on +which she counted. The two never talked about the play now, +but he tried to show her a still finer friendship, that she might +not think he felt she had failed him. He still walked about +London with his dreams, but as months succeeded months and he +left the year behind him they were dreams not so much of success +as of revenge. Success seemed a colourless name for the +reward of his patience; something fiercely florid, something +sanguinolent was more to the point. His best consolation +however was still in the scenic idea; it was not till now that he +discovered how incurably he was in love with it. By the +time a vain second year had chafed itself away he cherished his +fruitless faculty the more for the obloquy it seemed to +suffer. He lived, in his best hours, in a world of subjects +and situations; he wrote another play and made it as different +from its predecessor as such a very good thing could be. It +might be a very good thing, but when he had committed it to the +theatrical limbo indiscriminating fate took no account of the +difference. He was at last able to leave England for three +or four months; he went to Germany to pay a visit long deferred +to his mother and sisters.</p> +<p>Shortly before the time he had fixed for his return he +received from Mrs. Alsager a telegram consisting of the words: +“Loder wishes see you—putting <i>Nona</i> instant +rehearsal.” He spent the few hours before his +departure in kissing his mother and sisters, who knew enough +about Mrs. Alsager to judge it lucky this respectable married +lady was not there—a relief, however, accompanied with +speculative glances at London and the morrow. Loder, as our +young man was aware, meant the new “Renaissance,” but +though he reached home in the evening it was not to this +convenient modern theatre that Wayworth first proceeded. He +spent a late hour with Mrs. Alsager, an hour that throbbed with +calculation. She told him that Mr. Loder was charming, he +had simply taken up the play in its turn; he had hopes of it, +moreover, that on the part of a professional pessimist might +almost be qualified as ecstatic. It had been cast, with a +margin for objections, and Violet Grey was to do the +heroine. She had been capable, while he was away, of a good +piece of work at that foggy old playhouse the +“Legitimate;” the piece was a clumsy +<i>réchauffé</i>, but she at least had been +fresh. Wayworth remembered Violet Grey—hadn’t +he, for two years, on a fond policy of “looking out,” +kept dipping into the London theatres to pick up prospective +interpreters? He had not picked up many as yet, and this +young lady at all events had never wriggled in his net. She +was pretty and she was odd, but he had never prefigured her as +Nona Vincent, nor indeed found himself attracted by what he +already felt sufficiently launched in the profession to speak of +as her artistic personality. Mrs. Alsager was +different—she declared that she had been struck not a +little by some of her tones. The girl was interesting in +the thing at the “Legitimate,” and Mr. Loder, who had +his eye on her, described her as ambitious and intelligent. +She wanted awfully to get on—and some of those ladies were +so lazy! Wayworth was sceptical—he had seen Miss +Violet Grey, who was terribly itinerant, in a dozen theatres but +only in one aspect. Nona Vincent had a dozen aspects, but +only one theatre; yet with what a feverish curiosity the young +man promised himself to watch the actress on the morrow! +Talking the matter over with Mrs. Alsager now seemed the very +stuff that rehearsal was made of. The near prospect of +being acted laid a finger even on the lip of inquiry; he wanted +to go on tiptoe till the first night, to make no condition but +that they should speak his lines, and he felt that he +wouldn’t so much as raise an eyebrow at the scene-painter +if he should give him an old oak chamber.</p> +<p>He became conscious, the next day, that his danger would be +other than this, and yet he couldn’t have expressed to +himself what it would be. Danger was there, +doubtless—danger was everywhere, in the world of art, and +still more in the world of commerce; but what he really seemed to +catch, for the hour, was the beating of the wings of +victory. Nothing could undermine that, since it was victory +simply to be acted. It would be victory even to be acted +badly; a reflection that didn’t prevent him, however, from +banishing, in his politic optimism, the word “bad” +from his vocabulary. It had no application, in the +compromise of practice; it didn’t apply even to his play, +which he was conscious he had already outlived and as to which he +foresaw that, in the coming weeks, frequent alarm would +alternate, in his spirit, with frequent esteem. When he +went down to the dusky daylit theatre (it arched over him like +the temple of fame) Mr. Loder, who was as charming as Mrs. +Alsager had announced, struck him as the genius of +hospitality. The manager began to explain why, for so long, +he had given no sign; but that was the last thing that interested +Wayworth now, and he could never remember afterwards what reasons +Mr. Loder had enumerated. He liked, in the whole business +of discussion and preparation, even the things he had thought he +should probably dislike, and he revelled in those he had thought +he should like. He watched Miss Violet Grey that evening +with eyes that sought to penetrate her possibilities. She +certainly had a few; they were qualities of voice and face, +qualities perhaps even of intelligence; he sat there at any rate +with a fostering, coaxing attention, repeating over to himself as +convincingly as he could that she was not common—a +circumstance all the more creditable as the part she was playing +seemed to him desperately so. He perceived that this was +why it pleased the audience; he divined that it was the part they +enjoyed rather than the actress. He had a private panic, +wondering how, if they liked <i>that</i> form, they could +possibly like his. His form had now become quite an +ultimate idea to him. By the time the evening was over some +of Miss Violet Grey’s features, several of the turns of her +head, a certain vibration of her voice, had taken their place in +the same category. She <i>was</i> interesting, she was +distinguished; at any rate he had accepted her: it came to the +same thing. But he left the theatre that night without +speaking to her—moved (a little even to his own +mystification) by an odd procrastinating impulse. On the +morrow he was to read his three acts to the company, and then he +should have a good deal to say; what he felt for the moment was a +vague indisposition to commit himself. Moreover he found a +slight confusion of annoyance in the fact that though he had been +trying all the evening to look at Nona Vincent in Violet +Grey’s person, what subsisted in his vision was simply +Violet Grey in Nona’s. He didn’t wish to see +the actress so directly, or even so simply as that; and it had +been very fatiguing, the effort to focus Nona both through the +performer and through the “Legitimate.” Before +he went to bed that night he posted three words to Mrs. +Alsager—“She’s not a bit like it, but I dare +say I can make her do.”</p> +<p>He was pleased with the way the actress listened, the next +day, at the reading; he was pleased indeed with many things, at +the reading, and most of all with the reading itself. The +whole affair loomed large to him and he magnified it and mapped +it out. He enjoyed his occupation of the big, dim, hollow +theatre, full of the echoes of “effect” and of a +queer smell of gas and success—it all seemed such a passive +canvas for his picture. For the first time in his life he +was in command of resources; he was acquainted with the phrase, +but had never thought he should know the feeling. He was +surprised at what Loder appeared ready to do, though he reminded +himself that he must never show it. He foresaw that there +would be two distinct concomitants to the artistic effort of +producing a play, one consisting of a great deal of anguish and +the other of a great deal of amusement. He looked back upon +the reading, afterwards, as the best hour in the business, +because it was then that the piece had most struck him as +represented. What came later was the doing of others; but +this, with its imperfections and failures, was all his own. +The drama lived, at any rate, for that hour, with an intensity +that it was promptly to lose in the poverty and patchiness of +rehearsal; he could see its life reflected, in a way that was +sweet to him, in the stillness of the little semi-circle of +attentive and inscrutable, of water-proofed and muddy-booted, +actors. Miss Violet Grey was the auditor he had most to say +to, and he tried on the spot, across the shabby stage, to let her +have the soul of her part. Her attitude was graceful, but +though she appeared to listen with all her faculties her face +remained perfectly blank; a fact, however, not discouraging to +Wayworth, who liked her better for not being premature. Her +companions gave discernible signs of recognising the passages of +comedy; yet Wayworth forgave her even then for being +inexpressive. She evidently wished before everything else +to be simply sure of what it was all about.</p> +<p>He was more surprised even than at the revelation of the scale +on which Mr. Loder was ready to proceed by the discovery that +some of the actors didn’t like their parts, and his heart +sank as he asked himself what he could possibly do with them if +they were going to be so stupid. This was the first of his +disappointments; somehow he had expected every individual to +become instantly and gratefully conscious of a rare opportunity, +and from the moment such a calculation failed he was at sea, or +mindful at any rate that more disappointments would come. +It was impossible to make out what the manager liked or disliked; +no judgment, no comment escaped him; his acceptance of the play +and his views about the way it should be mounted had apparently +converted him into a veiled and shrouded figure. Wayworth +was able to grasp the idea that they would all move now in a +higher and sharper air than that of compliment and +confidence. When he talked with Violet Grey after the +reading he gathered that she was really rather crude: what better +proof of it could there be than her failure to break out +instantly with an expression of delight about her great +chance? This reserve, however, had evidently nothing to do +with high pretensions; she had no wish to make him feel that a +person of her eminence was superior to easy raptures. He +guessed, after a little, that she was puzzled and even somewhat +frightened—to a certain extent she had not +understood. Nothing could appeal to him more than the +opportunity to clear up her difficulties, in the course of the +examination of which he quickly discovered that, so far as she +<i>had</i> understood, she had understood wrong. If she was +crude it was only a reason the more for talking to her; he kept +saying to her “Ask me—ask me: ask me everything you +can think of.”</p> +<p>She asked him, she was perpetually asking him, and at the +first rehearsals, which were without form and void to a degree +that made them strike him much more as the death of an experiment +than as the dawn of a success, they threshed things out immensely +in a corner of the stage, with the effect of his coming to feel +that at any rate she was in earnest. He felt more and more +that his heroine was the keystone of his arch, for which indeed +the actress was very ready to take her. But when he +reminded this young lady of the way the whole thing practically +depended on her she was alarmed and even slightly scandalised: +she spoke more than once as if that could scarcely be the right +way to construct a play—make it stand or fall by one poor +nervous girl. She was almost morbidly conscientious, and in +theory he liked her for this, though he lost patience three or +four times with the things she couldn’t do and the things +she could. At such times the tears came to her eyes; but +they were produced by her own stupidity, she hastened to assure +him, not by the way he spoke, which was awfully kind under the +circumstances. Her sincerity made her beautiful, and he +wished to heaven (and made a point of telling her so) that she +could sprinkle a little of it over Nona. Once, however, she +was so touched and troubled that the sight of it brought the +tears for an instant to his own eyes; and it so happened that, +turning at this moment, he found himself face to face with Mr. +Loder. The manager stared, glanced at the actress, who +turned in the other direction, and then smiling at Wayworth, +exclaimed, with the humour of a man who heard the gallery laugh +every night:</p> +<p>“I say—I say!”</p> +<p>“What’s the matter?” Wayworth asked.</p> +<p>“I’m glad to see Miss Grey is taking such pains +with you.”</p> +<p>“Oh, yes—she’ll turn me out!” said the +young man, gaily. He was quite aware that it was apparent +he was not superficial about Nona, and abundantly determined, +into the bargain, that the rehearsal of the piece should not +sacrifice a shade of thoroughness to any extrinsic +consideration.</p> +<p>Mrs. Alsager, whom, late in the afternoon, he used often to go +and ask for a cup of tea, thanking her in advance for the rest +she gave him and telling her how he found that rehearsal (as +<i>they</i> were doing it—it was a caution!) took it out of +one—Mrs. Alsager, more and more his good genius and, as he +repeatedly assured her, his ministering angel, confirmed him in +this superior policy and urged him on to every form of artistic +devotion. She had, naturally, never been more interested +than now in his work; she wanted to hear everything about +everything. She treated him as heroically fatigued, plied +him with luxurious restoratives, made him stretch himself on +cushions and rose-leaves. They gossipped more than ever, by +her fire, about the artistic life; he confided to her, for +instance, all his hopes and fears, all his experiments and +anxieties, on the subject of the representative of Nona. +She was immensely interested in this young lady and showed it by +taking a box again and again (she had seen her half-a-dozen times +already), to study her capacity through the veil of her present +part. Like Allan Wayworth she found her encouraging only by +fits, for she had fine flashes of badness. She was +intelligent, but she cried aloud for training, and the training +was so absent that the intelligence had only a fraction of its +effect. She was like a knife without an edge—good +steel that had never been sharpened; she hacked away at her hard +dramatic loaf, she couldn’t cut it smooth.</p> +<h2>II.</h2> +<p>“<span class="smcap">Certainly</span> my leading lady +won’t make Nona much like <i>you</i>!” Wayworth one +day gloomily remarked to Mrs. Alsager. There were days when +the prospect seemed to him awful.</p> +<p>“So much the better. There’s no necessity +for that.”</p> +<p>“I wish you’d train her a little—you could +so easily,” the young man went on; in response to which +Mrs. Alsager requested him not to make such cruel fun of +her. But she was curious about the girl, wanted to hear of +her character, her private situation, how she lived and where, +seemed indeed desirous to befriend her. Wayworth might not +have known much about the private situation of Miss Violet Grey, +but, as it happened, he was able, by the time his play had been +three weeks in rehearsal, to supply information on such +points. She was a charming, exemplary person, educated, +cultivated, with highly modern tastes, an excellent +musician. She had lost her parents and was very much alone +in the world, her only two relations being a sister, who was +married to a civil servant (in a highly responsible post) in +India, and a dear little old-fashioned aunt (really a great-aunt) +with whom she lived at Notting Hill, who wrote children’s +books and who, it appeared, had once written a Christmas +pantomime. It was quite an artistic home—not on the +scale of Mrs. Alsager’s (to compare the smallest things +with the greatest!) but intensely refined and honourable. +Wayworth went so far as to hint that it would be rather nice and +human on Mrs. Alsager’s part to go there—they would +take it so kindly if she should call on them. She had acted +so often on his hints that he had formed a pleasant habit of +expecting it: it made him feel so wisely responsible about giving +them. But this one appeared to fall to the ground, so that +he let the subject drop. Mrs. Alsager, however, went yet +once more to the “Legitimate,” as he found by her +saying to him abruptly, on the morrow: “Oh, she’ll be +very good—she’ll be very good.” When they +said “she,” in these days, they always meant Violet +Grey, though they pretended, for the most part, that they meant +Nona Vincent.</p> +<p>“Oh yes,” Wayworth assented, “she wants so +to!”</p> +<p>Mrs. Alsager was silent a moment; then she asked, a little +inconsequently, as if she had come back from a reverie: +“Does she want to <i>very</i> much?”</p> +<p>“Tremendously—and it appears she has been +fascinated by the part from the first.”</p> +<p>“Why then didn’t she say so?”</p> +<p>“Oh, because she’s so funny.”</p> +<p>“She <i>is</i> funny,” said Mrs. Alsager, +musingly; and presently she added: “She’s in love +with you.”</p> +<p>Wayworth stared, blushed very red, then laughed out. +“What is there funny in that?” he demanded; but +before his interlocutress could satisfy him on this point he +inquired, further, how she knew anything about it. After a +little graceful evasion she explained that the night before, at +the “Legitimate,” Mrs. Beaumont, the wife of the +actor-manager, had paid her a visit in her box; which had +happened, in the course of their brief gossip, to lead to her +remarking that she had never been “behind.” +Mrs. Beaumont offered on the spot to take her round, and the +fancy had seized her to accept the invitation. She had been +amused for the moment, and in this way it befell that her +conductress, at her request, had introduced her to Miss Violet +Grey, who was waiting in the wing for one of her scenes. +Mrs. Beaumont had been called away for three minutes, and during +this scrap of time, face to face with the actress, she had +discovered the poor girl’s secret. Wayworth qualified +it as a senseless thing, but wished to know what had led to the +discovery. She characterised this inquiry as superficial +for a painter of the ways of women; and he doubtless didn’t +improve it by remarking profanely that a cat might look at a king +and that such things were convenient to know. Even on this +ground, however, he was threatened by Mrs. Alsager, who contended +that it might not be a joking matter to the poor girl. To +this Wayworth, who now professed to hate talking about the +passions he might have inspired, could only reply that he meant +it couldn’t make a difference to Mrs. Alsager.</p> +<p>“How in the world do you know what makes a difference to +<i>me</i>?” this lady asked, with incongruous coldness, +with a haughtiness indeed remarkable in so gentle a spirit.</p> +<p>He saw Violet Grey that night at the theatre, and it was she +who spoke first of her having lately met a friend of his.</p> +<p>“She’s in love with you,” the actress said, +after he had made a show of ignorance; “doesn’t that +tell you anything?”</p> +<p>He blushed redder still than Mrs. Alsager had made him blush, +but replied, quickly enough and very adequately, that hundreds of +women were naturally dying for him.</p> +<p>“Oh, I don’t care, for you’re not in love +with <i>her</i>!” the girl continued.</p> +<p>“Did she tell you that too?” Wayworth asked; but +she had at that moment to go on.</p> +<p>Standing where he could see her he thought that on this +occasion she threw into her scene, which was the best she had in +the play, a brighter art than ever before, a talent that could +play with its problem. She was perpetually doing things out +of rehearsal (she did two or three to-night, in the other +man’s piece), that he as often wished to heaven Nona +Vincent might have the benefit of. She appeared to be able +to do them for every one but him—that is for every one but +Nona. He was conscious, in these days, of an odd new +feeling, which mixed (this was a part of its oddity) with a very +natural and comparatively old one and which in its most definite +form was a dull ache of regret that this young lady’s +unlucky star should have placed her on the stage. He wished +in his worst uneasiness that, without going further, she would +give it up; and yet it soothed that uneasiness to remind himself +that he saw grounds to hope she would go far enough to make a +marked success of Nona. There were strange and painful +moments when, as the interpretress of Nona, he almost hated her; +after which, however, he always assured himself that he +exaggerated, inasmuch as what made this aversion seem great, when +he was nervous, was simply its contrast with the growing sense +that there <i>were</i> grounds—totally different—on +which she pleased him. She pleased him as a charming +creature—by her sincerities and her perversities, by the +varieties and surprises of her character and by certain happy +facts of her person. In private her eyes were sad to him +and her voice was rare. He detested the idea that she +should have a disappointment or an humiliation, and he wanted to +rescue her altogether, to save and transplant her. One way +to save her was to see to it, to the best of his ability, that +the production of his play should be a triumph; and the other +way—it was really too queer to express—was almost to +wish that it shouldn’t be. Then, for the future, +there would be safety and peace, and not the peace of +death—the peace of a different life. It is to be +added that our young man clung to the former of these ways in +proportion as the latter perversely tempted him. He was +nervous at the best, increasingly and intolerably nervous; but +the immediate remedy was to rehearse harder and harder, and above +all to work it out with Violet Grey. Some of her comrades +reproached him with working it out only with her, as if she were +the whole affair; to which he replied that they could afford to +be neglected, they were all so tremendously good. She was +the only person concerned whom he didn’t flatter.</p> +<p>The author and the actress stuck so to the business in hand +that she had very little time to speak to him again of Mrs. +Alsager, of whom indeed her imagination appeared adequately to +have disposed. Wayworth once remarked to her that Nona +Vincent was supposed to be a good deal like his charming friend; +but she gave a blank “Supposed by whom?” in +consequence of which he never returned to the subject. He +confided his nervousness as freely as usual to Mrs. Alsager, who +easily understood that he had a peculiar complication of +anxieties. His suspense varied in degree from hour to hour, +but any relief there might have been in this was made up for by +its being of several different kinds. One afternoon, as the +first performance drew near, Mrs. Alsager said to him, in giving +him his cup of tea and on his having mentioned that he had not +closed his eyes the night before:</p> +<p>“You must indeed be in a dreadful state. Anxiety +for another is still worse than anxiety for one’s +self.”</p> +<p>“For another?” Wayworth repeated, looking at her +over the rim of his cup.</p> +<p>“My poor friend, you’re nervous about Nona +Vincent, but you’re infinitely more nervous about Violet +Grey.”</p> +<p>“She <i>is</i> Nona Vincent!”</p> +<p>“No, she isn’t—not a bit!” said Mrs. +Alsager, abruptly.</p> +<p>“Do you really think so?” Wayworth cried, spilling +his tea in his alarm.</p> +<p>“What I think doesn’t signify—I mean what I +think about that. What I meant to say was that great as is +your suspense about your play, your suspense about your actress +is greater still.”</p> +<p>“I can only repeat that my actress <i>is</i> my +play.”</p> +<p>Mrs. Alsager looked thoughtfully into the teapot.</p> +<p>“Your actress is your—”</p> +<p>“My what?” the young man asked, with a little +tremor in his voice, as his hostess paused.</p> +<p>“Your very dear friend. You’re in love with +her—at present.” And with a sharp click Mrs. +Alsager dropped the lid on the fragrant receptacle.</p> +<p>“Not yet—not yet!” laughed her visitor.</p> +<p>“You will be if she pulls you through.”</p> +<p>“You declare that she <i>won’t</i> pull me +through.”</p> +<p>Mrs. Alsager was silent a moment, after which she softly +murmured: “I’ll pray for her.”</p> +<p>“You’re the most generous of women!” +Wayworth cried; then coloured as if the words had not been +happy. They would have done indeed little honour to a man +of tact.</p> +<p>The next morning he received five hurried lines from Mrs. +Alsager. She had suddenly been called to Torquay, to see a +relation who was seriously ill; she should be detained there +several days, but she had an earnest hope of being able to return +in time for his first night. In any event he had her +unrestricted good wishes. He missed her extremely, for +these last days were a great strain and there was little comfort +to be derived from Violet Grey. She was even more nervous +than himself, and so pale and altered that he was afraid she +would be too ill to act. It was settled between them that +they made each other worse and that he had now much better leave +her alone. They had pulled Nona so to pieces that nothing +seemed left of her—she must at least have time to grow +together again. He left Violet Grey alone, to the best of +his ability, but she carried out imperfectly her own side of the +bargain. She came to him with new questions—she +waited for him with old doubts, and half an hour before the last +dress-rehearsal, on the eve of production, she proposed to him a +totally fresh rendering of his heroine. This incident gave +him such a sense of insecurity that he turned his back on her +without a word, bolted out of the theatre, dashed along the +Strand and walked as far as the Bank. Then he jumped into a +hansom and came westward, and when he reached the theatre again +the business was nearly over. It appeared, almost to his +disappointment, not bad enough to give him the consolation of the +old playhouse adage that the worst dress-rehearsals make the best +first nights.</p> +<p>The morrow, which was a Wednesday, was the dreadful day; the +theatre had been closed on the Monday and the Tuesday. +Every one, on the Wednesday, did his best to let every one else +alone, and every one signally failed in the attempt. The +day, till seven o’clock, was understood to be consecrated +to rest, but every one except Violet Grey turned up at the +theatre. Wayworth looked at Mr. Loder, and Mr. Loder looked +in another direction, which was as near as they came to +conversation. Wayworth was in a fidget, unable to eat or +sleep or sit still, at times almost in terror. He kept +quiet by keeping, as usual, in motion; he tried to walk away from +his nervousness. He walked in the afternoon toward Notting +Hill, but he succeeded in not breaking the vow he had taken not +to meddle with his actress. She was like an acrobat poised +on a slippery ball—if he should touch her she would topple +over. He passed her door three times and he thought of her +three hundred. This was the hour at which he most regretted +that Mrs. Alsager had not come back—for he had called at +her house only to learn that she was still at Torquay. This +was probably queer, and it was probably queerer still that she +hadn’t written to him; but even of these things he +wasn’t sure, for in losing, as he had now completely lost, +his judgment of his play, he seemed to himself to have lost his +judgment of everything. When he went home, however, he +found a telegram from the lady of Grosvenor +Place—“Shall be able to come—reach town by +seven.” At half-past eight o’clock, through a +little aperture in the curtain of the “Renaissance,” +he saw her in her box with a cluster of friends—completely +beautiful and beneficent. The house was +magnificent—too good for his play, he felt; too good for +any play. Everything now seemed too good—the scenery, +the furniture, the dresses, the very programmes. He seized +upon the idea that this was probably what was the matter with the +representative of Nona—she was only too good. He had +completely arranged with this young lady the plan of their +relations during the evening; and though they had altered +everything else that they had arranged they had promised each +other not to alter this. It was wonderful the number of +things they had promised each other. He would start her, he +would see her off—then he would quit the theatre and stay +away till just before the end. She besought him to stay +away—it would make her infinitely easier. He saw that +she was exquisitely dressed—she had made one or two changes +for the better since the night before, and that seemed something +definite to turn over and over in his mind as he rumbled foggily +home in the four-wheeler in which, a few steps from the +stage-door, he had taken refuge as soon as he knew that the +curtain was up. He lived a couple of miles off, and he had +chosen a four-wheeler to drag out the time.</p> +<p>When he got home his fire was out, his room was cold, and he +lay down on his sofa in his overcoat. He had sent his +landlady to the dress-circle, on purpose; she would overflow with +words and mistakes. The house seemed a black void, just as +the streets had done—every one was, formidably, at his +play. He was quieter at last than he had been for a +fortnight, and he felt too weak even to wonder how the thing was +going. He believed afterwards that he had slept an hour; +but even if he had he felt it to be still too early to return to +the theatre. He sat down by his lamp and tried to +read—to read a little compendious life of a great English +statesman, out of a “series.” It struck him as +brilliantly clever, and he asked himself whether that perhaps +were not rather the sort of thing he ought to have taken up: not +the statesmanship, but the art of brief biography. Suddenly +he became aware that he must hurry if he was to reach the theatre +at all—it was a quarter to eleven o’clock. He +scrambled out and, this time, found a hansom—he had lately +spent enough money in cabs to add to his hope that the profits of +his new profession would be great. His anxiety, his +suspense flamed up again, and as he rattled eastward—he +went fast now—he was almost sick with alternations. +As he passed into the theatre the first man—some +underling—who met him, cried to him, breathlessly:</p> +<p>“You’re wanted, sir—you’re +wanted!” He thought his tone very ominous—he +devoured the man’s eyes with his own, for a betrayal: did +he mean that he was wanted for execution? Some one else +pressed him, almost pushed him, forward; he was already on the +stage. Then he became conscious of a sound more or less +continuous, but seemingly faint and far, which he took at first +for the voice of the actors heard through their canvas walls, the +beautiful built-in room of the last act. But the actors +were in the wing, they surrounded him; the curtain was down and +they were coming off from before it. They had been called, +and <i>he</i> was called—they all greeted him with +“Go on—go on!” He was terrified—he +couldn’t go on—he didn’t believe in the +applause, which seemed to him only audible enough to sound +half-hearted.</p> +<p>“Has it gone?—<i>has</i> it gone?” he gasped +to the people round him; and he heard them say +“Rather—rather!” perfunctorily, mendaciously +too, as it struck him, and even with mocking laughter, the +laughter of defeat and despair. Suddenly, though all this +must have taken but a moment, Loder burst upon him from somewhere +with a “For God’s sake don’t keep them, or +they’ll <i>stop</i>!” “But I can’t +go on for <i>that</i>!” Wayworth cried, in anguish; +the sound seemed to him already to have ceased. Loder had +hold of him and was shoving him; he resisted and looked round +frantically for Violet Grey, who perhaps would tell him the +truth. There was by this time a crowd in the wing, all with +strange grimacing painted faces, but Violet was not among them +and her very absence frightened him. He uttered her name +with an accent that he afterwards regretted—it gave them, +as he thought, both away; and while Loder hustled him before the +curtain he heard some one say “She took her call and +disappeared.” She had had a call, then—this was +what was most present to the young man as he stood for an instant +in the glare of the footlights, looking blindly at the great +vaguely-peopled horseshoe and greeted with plaudits which now +seemed to him at once louder than he deserved and feebler than he +desired. They sank to rest quickly, but he felt it to be +long before he could back away, before he could, in his turn, +seize the manager by the arm and cry huskily—“Has it +really gone—<i>really</i>?”</p> +<p>Mr. Loder looked at him hard and replied after an instant: +“The play’s all right!”</p> +<p>Wayworth hung upon his lips. “Then what’s +all wrong?”</p> +<p>“We must do something to Miss Grey.”</p> +<p>“What’s the matter with her?”</p> +<p>“She isn’t <i>in</i> it!”</p> +<p>“Do you mean she has failed?”</p> +<p>“Yes, damn it—she has failed.”</p> +<p>Wayworth stared. “Then how can the play be all +right?”</p> +<p>“Oh, we’ll save it—we’ll save +it.”</p> +<p>“Where’s Miss Grey—where <i>is</i> +she?” the young man asked.</p> +<p>Loder caught his arm as he was turning away again to look for +his heroine. “Never mind her now—she knows +it!”</p> +<p>Wayworth was approached at the same moment by a gentleman he +knew as one of Mrs. Alsager’s friends—he had +perceived him in that lady’s box. Mrs. Alsager was +waiting there for the successful author; she desired very +earnestly that he would come round and speak to her. +Wayworth assured himself first that Violet had left the +theatre—one of the actresses could tell him that she had +seen her throw on a cloak, without changing her dress, and had +learnt afterwards that she had, the next moment, flung herself, +after flinging her aunt, into a cab. He had wished to +invite half a dozen persons, of whom Miss Grey and her elderly +relative were two, to come home to supper with him; but she had +refused to make any engagement beforehand (it would be so +dreadful to have to keep it if she shouldn’t have made a +hit), and this attitude had blighted the pleasant plan, which +fell to the ground. He had called her morbid, but she was +immovable. Mrs. Alsager’s messenger let him know that +he was expected to supper in Grosvenor Place, and half an hour +afterwards he was seated there among complimentary people and +flowers and popping corks, eating the first orderly meal he had +partaken of for a week. Mrs. Alsager had carried him off in +her brougham—the other people who were coming got into +things of their own. He stopped her short as soon as she +began to tell him how tremendously every one had been struck by +the piece; he nailed her down to the question of Violet +Grey. Had she spoilt the play, had she jeopardised or +compromised it—had she been utterly bad, had she been good +in any degree?</p> +<p>“Certainly the performance would have seemed better if +<i>she</i> had been better,” Mrs. Alsager confessed.</p> +<p>“And the play would have seemed better if the +performance had been better,” Wayworth said, gloomily, from +the corner of the brougham.</p> +<p>“She does what she can, and she has talent, and she +looked lovely. But she doesn’t <i>see</i> Nona +Vincent. She doesn’t see the type—she +doesn’t see the individual—she doesn’t see the +woman you meant. She’s out of it—she gives you +a different person.”</p> +<p>“Oh, the woman I meant!” the young man exclaimed, +looking at the London lamps as he rolled by them. “I +wish to God she had known <i>you</i>!” he added, as the +carriage stopped. After they had passed into the house he +said to his companion:</p> +<p>“You see she <i>won’t</i> pull me +through.”</p> +<p>“Forgive her—be kind to her!” Mrs. Alsager +pleaded.</p> +<p>“I shall only thank her. The play may go to the +dogs.”</p> +<p>“If it does—if it does,” Mrs. Alsager began, +with her pure eyes on him.</p> +<p>“Well, what if it does?”</p> +<p>She couldn’t tell him, for the rest of her guests came +in together; she only had time to say: “It +<i>sha’n’t</i> go to the dogs!”</p> +<p>He came away before the others, restless with the desire to go +to Notting Hill even that night, late as it was, haunted with the +sense that Violet Grey had measured her fall. When he got +into the street, however, he allowed second thoughts to counsel +another course; the effect of knocking her up at two +o’clock in the morning would hardly be to soothe her. +He looked at six newspapers the next day and found in them never +a good word for her. They were well enough about the piece, +but they were unanimous as to the disappointment caused by the +young actress whose former efforts had excited such hopes and on +whom, on this occasion, such pressing responsibilities +rested. They asked in chorus what was the matter with her, +and they declared in chorus that the play, which was not without +promise, was handicapped (they all used the same word) by the odd +want of correspondence between the heroine and her +interpreter. Wayworth drove early to Notting Hill, but he +didn’t take the newspapers with him; Violet Grey could be +trusted to have sent out for them by the peep of dawn and to have +fed her anguish full. She declined to see him—she +only sent down word by her aunt that she was extremely unwell and +should be unable to act that night unless she were suffered to +spend the day unmolested and in bed. Wayworth sat for an +hour with the old lady, who understood everything and to whom he +could speak frankly. She gave him a touching picture of her +niece’s condition, which was all the more vivid for the +simple words in which it was expressed: “She feels she +isn’t right, you know—she feels she isn’t +right!”</p> +<p>“Tell her it doesn’t matter—it doesn’t +matter a straw!” said Wayworth.</p> +<p>“And she’s so proud—you know how proud she +is!” the old lady went on.</p> +<p>“Tell her I’m more than satisfied, that I accept +her gratefully as she is.”</p> +<p>“She says she injures your play, that she ruins +it,” said his interlocutress.</p> +<p>“She’ll improve, immensely—she’ll grow +into the part,” the young man continued.</p> +<p>“She’d improve if she knew how—but she says +she doesn’t. She has given all she has got, and she +doesn’t know what’s wanted.”</p> +<p>“What’s wanted is simply that she should go +straight on and trust me.”</p> +<p>“How can she trust you when she feels she’s losing +you?”</p> +<p>“Losing me?” Wayworth cried.</p> +<p>“You’ll never forgive her if your play is taken +off!”</p> +<p>“It will run six months,” said the author of the +piece.</p> +<p>The old lady laid her hand on his arm. “What will +you do for her if it does?”</p> +<p>He looked at Violet Grey’s aunt a moment. +“Do you say your niece is very proud?”</p> +<p>“Too proud for her dreadful profession.”</p> +<p>“Then she wouldn’t wish you to ask me that,” +Wayworth answered, getting up.</p> +<p>When he reached home he was very tired, and for a person to +whom it was open to consider that he had scored a success he +spent a remarkably dismal day. All his restlessness had +gone, and fatigue and depression possessed him. He sank +into his old chair by the fire and sat there for hours with his +eyes closed. His landlady came in to bring his luncheon and +mend the fire, but he feigned to be asleep, so as not to be +spoken to. It is to be supposed that sleep at last overtook +him, for about the hour that dusk began to gather he had an +extraordinary impression, a visit that, it would seem, could have +belonged to no waking consciousness. Nona Vincent, in face +and form, the living heroine of his play, rose before him in his +little silent room, sat down with him at his dingy +fireside. She was not Violet Grey, she was not Mrs. +Alsager, she was not any woman he had seen upon earth, nor was it +any masquerade of friendship or of penitence. Yet she was +more familiar to him than the women he had known best, and she +was ineffably beautiful and consoling. She filled the poor +room with her presence, the effect of which was as soothing as +some odour of incense. She was as quiet as an affectionate +sister, and there was no surprise in her being there. +Nothing more real had ever befallen him, and nothing, somehow, +more reassuring. He felt her hand rest upon his own, and +all his senses seemed to open to her message. She struck +him, in the strangest way, both as his creation and as his +inspirer, and she gave him the happiest consciousness of +success. If she was so charming, in the red firelight, in +her vague, clear-coloured garments, it was because he had made +her so, and yet if the weight seemed lifted from his spirit it +was because she drew it away. When she bent her deep eyes +upon him they seemed to speak of safety and freedom and to make a +green garden of the future. From time to time she smiled +and said: “I live—I live—I live.” +How long she stayed he couldn’t have told, but when his +landlady blundered in with the lamp Nona Vincent was no longer +there. He rubbed his eyes, but no dream had ever been so +intense; and as he slowly got out of his chair it was with a deep +still joy—the joy of the artist—in the thought of how +right he had been, how exactly like herself he had made +her. She had come to show him that. At the end of +five minutes, however, he felt sufficiently mystified to call his +landlady back—he wanted to ask her a question. When +the good woman reappeared the question hung fire an instant; then +it shaped itself as the inquiry:</p> +<p>“Has any lady been here?”</p> +<p>“No, sir—no lady at all.”</p> +<p>The woman seemed slightly scandalised. “Not Miss +Vincent?”</p> +<p>“Miss Vincent, sir?”</p> +<p>“The young lady of my play, don’t you +know?”</p> +<p>“Oh, sir, you mean Miss Violet Grey!”</p> +<p>“No I don’t, at all. I think I mean Mrs. +Alsager.”</p> +<p>“There has been no Mrs. Alsager, sir.”</p> +<p>“Nor anybody at all like her?”</p> +<p>The woman looked at him as if she wondered what had suddenly +taken him. Then she asked in an injured tone: “Why +shouldn’t I have told you if you’d ’ad callers, +sir?”</p> +<p>“I thought you might have thought I was +asleep.”</p> +<p>“Indeed you were, sir, when I came in with the +lamp—and well you’d earned it, Mr. +Wayworth!”</p> +<p>The landlady came back an hour later to bring him a telegram; +it was just as he had begun to dress to dine at his club and go +down to the theatre.</p> +<p>“See me to-night in front, and don’t come near me +till it’s over.”</p> +<p>It was in these words that Violet communicated her wishes for +the evening. He obeyed them to the letter; he watched her +from the depths of a box. He was in no position to say how +she might have struck him the night before, but what he saw +during these charmed hours filled him with admiration and +gratitude. She <i>was</i> in it, this time; she had pulled +herself together, she had taken possession, she was felicitous at +every turn. Fresh from his revelation of Nona he was in a +position to judge, and as he judged he exulted. He was +thrilled and carried away, and he was moreover intensely curious +to know what had happened to her, by what unfathomable art she +had managed in a few hours to effect such a change of base. +It was as if <i>she</i> had had a revelation of Nona, so +convincing a clearness had been breathed upon the picture. +He kept himself quiet in the <i>entr’actes</i>—he +would speak to her only at the end; but before the play was half +over the manager burst into his box.</p> +<p>“It’s prodigious, what she’s up to!” +cried Mr. Loder, almost more bewildered than gratified. +“She has gone in for a new reading—a blessed +somersault in the air!”</p> +<p>“Is it quite different?” Wayworth asked, sharing +his mystification.</p> +<p>“Different? Hyperion to a satyr! It’s +devilish good, my boy!”</p> +<p>“It’s devilish good,” said Wayworth, +“and it’s in a different key altogether from the key +of her rehearsal.”</p> +<p>“I’ll run you six months!” the manager +declared; and he rushed round again to the actress, leaving +Wayworth with a sense that she had already pulled him +through. She had with the audience an immense personal +success.</p> +<p>When he went behind, at the end, he had to wait for her; she +only showed herself when she was ready to leave the +theatre. Her aunt had been in her dressing-room with her, +and the two ladies appeared together. The girl passed him +quickly, motioning him to say nothing till they should have got +out of the place. He saw that she was immensely excited, +lifted altogether above her common artistic level. The old +lady said to him: “You must come home to supper with us: it +has been all arranged.” They had a brougham, with a +little third seat, and he got into it with them. It was a +long time before the actress would speak. She leaned back +in her corner, giving no sign but still heaving a little, like a +subsiding sea, and with all her triumph in the eyes that shone +through the darkness. The old lady was hushed to awe, or at +least to discretion, and Wayworth was happy enough to wait. +He had really to wait till they had alighted at Notting Hill, +where the elder of his companions went to see that supper had +been attended to.</p> +<p>“I was better—I was better,” said Violet +Grey, throwing off her cloak in the little drawing-room.</p> +<p>“You were perfection. You’ll be like that +every night, won’t you?”</p> +<p>She smiled at him. “Every night? There can +scarcely be a miracle every day.”</p> +<p>“What do you mean by a miracle?”</p> +<p>“I’ve had a revelation.”</p> +<p>Wayward stared. “At what hour?”</p> +<p>“The right hour—this afternoon. Just in time +to save me—and to save <i>you</i>.”</p> +<p>“At five o’clock? Do you mean you had a +visit?”</p> +<p>“She came to me—she stayed two hours.”</p> +<p>“Two hours? Nona Vincent?”</p> +<p>“Mrs. Alsager.” Violet Grey smiled more +deeply. “It’s the same thing.”</p> +<p>“And how did Mrs. Alsager save you?”</p> +<p>“By letting me look at her. By letting me hear her +speak. By letting me know her.”</p> +<p>“And what did she say to you?”</p> +<p>“Kind things—encouraging, intelligent +things.”</p> +<p>“Ah, the dear woman!” Wayworth cried.</p> +<p>“You ought to like her—she likes <i>you</i>. +She was just what I wanted,” the actress added.</p> +<p>“Do you mean she talked to you about Nona?”</p> +<p>“She said you thought she was like her. She +<i>is</i>—she’s exquisite.”</p> +<p>“She’s exquisite,” Wayworth repeated. +“Do you mean she tried to coach you?”</p> +<p>“Oh, no—she only said she would be so glad if it +would help me to see her. And I felt it did help me. +I don’t know what took place—she only sat there, and +she held my hand and smiled at me, and she had tact and grace, +and she had goodness and beauty, and she soothed my nerves and +lighted up my imagination. Somehow she seemed to +<i>give</i> it all to me. I took it—I took it. +I kept her before me, I drank her in. For the first time, +in the whole study of the part, I had my model—I could make +my copy. All my courage came back to me, and other things +came that I hadn’t felt before. She was +different—she was delightful; as I’ve said, she was a +revelation. She kissed me when she went away—and you +may guess if I kissed <i>her</i>. We were awfully +affectionate, but it’s <i>you</i> she likes!” said +Violet Grey.</p> +<p>Wayworth had never been more interested in his life, and he +had rarely been more mystified. “Did she wear vague, +clear-coloured garments?” he asked, after a moment.</p> +<p>Violet Grey stared, laughed, then bade him go in to +supper. “<i>You</i> know how she dresses!”</p> +<p>He was very well pleased at supper, but he was silent and a +little solemn. He said he would go to see Mrs. Alsager the +next day. He did so, but he was told at her door that she +had returned to Torquay. She remained there all winter, all +spring, and the next time he saw her his play had run two hundred +nights and he had married Violet Grey. His plays sometimes +succeed, but his wife is not in them now, nor in any +others. 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Proofing was by Nina +Hall, Mohua Sen, Bridie, Francine Smith and David. + + + + + +Nona Vincent + +by Henry James + + + + +CHAPTER I. + + + +"I wondered whether you wouldn't read it to me," said Mrs. Alsager, +as they lingered a little near the fire before he took leave. She +looked down at the fire sideways, drawing her dress away from it and +making her proposal with a shy sincerity that added to her charm. +Her charm was always great for Allan Wayworth, and the whole air of +her house, which was simply a sort of distillation of herself, so +soothing, so beguiling that he always made several false starts +before departure. He had spent some such good hours there, had +forgotten, in her warm, golden drawing-room, so much of the +loneliness and so many of the worries of his life, that it had come +to be the immediate answer to his longings, the cure for his aches, +the harbour of refuge from his storms. His tribulations were not +unprecedented, and some of his advantages, if of a usual kind, were +marked in degree, inasmuch as he was very clever for one so young, +and very independent for one so poor. He was eight-and-twenty, but +he had lived a good deal and was full of ambitions and curiosities +and disappointments. The opportunity to talk of some of these in +Grosvenor Place corrected perceptibly the immense inconvenience of +London. This inconvenience took for him principally the line of +insensibility to Allan Wayworth's literary form. He had a literary +form, or he thought he had, and her intelligent recognition of the +circumstance was the sweetest consolation Mrs. Alsager could have +administered. She was even more literary and more artistic than he, +inasmuch as he could often work off his overflow (this was his +occupation, his profession), while the generous woman, abounding in +happy thoughts, but unedited and unpublished, stood there in the +rising tide like the nymph of a fountain in the plash of the marble +basin. + +The year before, in a big newspapery house, he had found himself next +her at dinner, and they had converted the intensely material hour +into a feast of reason. There was no motive for her asking him to +come to see her but that she liked him, which it was the more +agreeable to him to perceive as he perceived at the same time that +she was exquisite. She was enviably free to act upon her likings, +and it made Wayworth feel less unsuccessful to infer that for the +moment he happened to be one of them. He kept the revelation to +himself, and indeed there was nothing to turn his head in the +kindness of a kind woman. Mrs. Alsager occupied so completely the +ground of possession that she would have been condemned to inaction +had it not been for the principle of giving. Her husband, who was +twenty years her senior, a massive personality in the City and a +heavy one at home (wherever he stood, or even sat, he was +monumental), owned half a big newspaper and the whole of a great many +other things. He admired his wife, though she bore no children, and +liked her to have other tastes than his, as that seemed to give a +greater acreage to their life. His own appetites went so far he +could scarcely see the boundary, and his theory was to trust her to +push the limits of hers, so that between them the pair should astound +by their consumption. His ideas were prodigiously vulgar, but some +of them had the good fortune to be carried out by a person of perfect +delicacy. Her delicacy made her play strange tricks with them, but +he never found this out. She attenuated him without his knowing it, +for what he mainly thought was that he had aggrandised HER. Without +her he really would have been bigger still, and society, breathing +more freely, was practically under an obligation to her which, to do +it justice, it acknowledged by an attitude of mystified respect. She +felt a tremulous need to throw her liberty and her leisure into the +things of the soul--the most beautiful things she knew. She found +them, when she gave time to seeking, in a hundred places, and +particularly in a dim and sacred region--the region of active pity-- +over her entrance into which she dropped curtains so thick that it +would have been an impertinence to lift them. But she cultivated +other beneficent passions, and if she cherished the dream of +something fine the moments at which it most seemed to her to come +true were when she saw beauty plucked flower-like in the garden of +art. She loved the perfect work--she had the artistic chord. This +chord could vibrate only to the touch of another, so that +appreciation, in her spirit, had the added intensity of regret. She +could understand the joy of creation, and she thought it scarcely +enough to be told that she herself created happiness. She would have +liked, at any rate, to choose her way; but it was just here that her +liberty failed her. She had not the voice--she had only the vision. +The only envy she was capable of was directed to those who, as she +said, could do something. + +As everything in her, however, turned to gentleness, she was +admirably hospitable to such people as a class. She believed Allan +Wayworth could do something, and she liked to hear him talk of the +ways in which he meant to show it. He talked of them almost to no +one else--she spoiled him for other listeners. With her fair bloom +and her quiet grace she was indeed an ideal public, and if she had +ever confided to him that she would have liked to scribble (she had +in fact not mentioned it to a creature), he would have been in a +perfect position for asking her why a woman whose face had so much +expression should not have felt that she achieved. How in the world +could she express better? There was less than that in Shakespeare +and Beethoven. She had never been more generous than when, in +compliance with her invitation, which I have recorded, he brought his +play to read to her. He had spoken of it to her before, and one dark +November afternoon, when her red fireside was more than ever an +escape from the place and the season, he had broken out as he came +in--"I've done it, I've done it!" She made him tell her all about +it--she took an interest really minute and asked questions +delightfully apt. She had spoken from the first as if he were on the +point of being acted, making him jump, with her participation, all +sorts of dreary intervals. She liked the theatre as she liked all +the arts of expression, and he had known her to go all the way to +Paris for a particular performance. Once he had gone with her--the +time she took that stupid Mrs. Mostyn. She had been struck, when he +sketched it, with the subject of his drama, and had spoken words that +helped him to believe in it. As soon as he had rung down his curtain +on the last act he rushed off to see her, but after that he kept the +thing for repeated last touches. Finally, on Christmas day, by +arrangement, she sat there and listened to it. It was in three acts +and in prose, but rather of the romantic order, though dealing with +contemporary English life, and he fondly believed that it showed the +hand if not of the master, at least of the prize pupil. + +Allan Wayworth had returned to England, at two-and-twenty, after a +miscellaneous continental education; his father, the correspondent, +for years, in several foreign countries successively, of a +conspicuous London journal, had died just after this, leaving his +mother and her two other children, portionless girls, to subsist on a +very small income in a very dull German town. The young man's +beginnings in London were difficult, and he had aggravated them by +his dislike of journalism. His father's connection with it would +have helped him, but he was (insanely, most of his friends judged-- +the great exception was always Mrs. Alsager) INTRAITABLE on the +question of form. Form--in his sense--was not demanded by English +newspapers, and he couldn't give it to them in THEIR sense. The +demand for it was not great anywhere, and Wayworth spent costly weeks +in polishing little compositions for magazines that didn't pay for +style. The only person who paid for it was really Mrs. Alsager: she +had an infallible instinct for the perfect. She paid in her own way, +and if Allan Wayworth had been a wage-earning person it would have +made him feel that if he didn't receive his legal dues his palm was +at least occasionally conscious of a gratuity. He had his +limitations, his perversities, but the finest parts of him were the +most alive, and he was restless and sincere. It is however the +impression he produced on Mrs. Alsager that most concerns us: she +thought him not only remarkably good-looking but altogether original. +There were some usual bad things he would never do--too many +prohibitive puddles for him in the short cut to success. + +For himself, he had never been so happy as since he had seen his way, +as he fondly believed, to some sort of mastery of the scenic idea, +which struck him as a very different matter now that he looked at it +from within. He had had his early days of contempt for it, when it +seemed to him a jewel, dim at the best, hidden in a dunghill, a taper +burning low in an air thick with vulgarity. It was hedged about with +sordid approaches, it was not worth sacrifice and suffering. The man +of letters, in dealing with it, would have to put off all literature, +which was like asking the bearer of a noble name to forego his +immemorial heritage. Aspects change, however, with the point of +view: Wayworth had waked up one morning in a different bed +altogether. It is needless here to trace this accident to its +source; it would have been much more interesting to a spectator of +the young man's life to follow some of the consequences. He had been +made (as he felt) the subject of a special revelation, and he wore +his hat like a man in love. An angel had taken him by the hand and +guided him to the shabby door which opens, it appeared, into an +interior both splendid and austere. The scenic idea was magnificent +when once you had embraced it--the dramatic form had a purity which +made some others look ingloriously rough. It had the high dignity of +the exact sciences, it was mathematical and architectural. It was +full of the refreshment of calculation and construction, the +incorruptibility of line and law. It was bare, but it was erect, it +was poor, but it was noble; it reminded him of some sovereign famed +for justice who should have lived in a palace despoiled. There was a +fearful amount of concession in it, but what you kept had a rare +intensity. You were perpetually throwing over the cargo to save the +ship, but what a motion you gave her when you made her ride the +waves--a motion as rhythmic as the dance of a goddess! Wayworth took +long London walks and thought of these things--London poured into his +ears the mighty hum of its suggestion. His imagination glowed and +melted down material, his intentions multiplied and made the air a +golden haze. He saw not only the thing he should do, but the next +and the next and the next; the future opened before him and he seemed +to walk on marble slabs. The more he tried the dramatic form the +more he loved it, the more he looked at it the more he perceived in +it. What he perceived in it indeed he now perceived everywhere; if +he stopped, in the London dusk, before some flaring shop-window, the +place immediately constituted itself behind footlights, became a +framed stage for his figures. He hammered at these figures in his +lonely lodging, he shaped them and he shaped their tabernacle; he was +like a goldsmith chiselling a casket, bent over with the passion for +perfection. When he was neither roaming the streets with his vision +nor worrying his problem at his table, he was exchanging ideas on the +general question with Mrs. Alsager, to whom he promised details that +would amuse her in later and still happier hours. Her eyes were full +of tears when he read her the last words of the finished work, and +she murmured, divinely - + +"And now--to get it done, to get it done!" + +"Yes, indeed--to get it done!" Wayworth stared at the fire, slowly +rolling up his type-copy. "But that's a totally different part of +the business, and altogether secondary." + +"But of course you want to be acted?" + +"Of course I do--but it's a sudden descent. I want to intensely, but +I'm sorry I want to." + +"It's there indeed that the difficulties begin," said Mrs. Alsager, a +little off her guard. + +"How can you say that? It's there that they end!" + +"Ah, wait to see where they end!" + +"I mean they'll now be of a totally different order," Wayworth +explained. "It seems to me there can be nothing in the world more +difficult than to write a play that will stand an all-round test, and +that in comparison with them the complications that spring up at this +point are of an altogether smaller kind." + +"Yes, they're not inspiring," said Mrs. Alsager; "they're +discouraging, because they're vulgar. The other problem, the working +out of the thing itself, is pure art." + +"How well you understand everything!" The young man had got up, +nervously, and was leaning against the chimney-piece with his back to +the fire and his arms folded. The roll of his copy, in his fist, was +squeezed into the hollow of one of them. He looked down at Mrs. +Alsager, smiling gratefully, and she answered him with a smile from +eyes still charmed and suffused. "Yes, the vulgarity will begin +now," he presently added. + +"You'll suffer dreadfully." + +"I shall suffer in a good cause." + +"Yes, giving THAT to the world! You must leave it with me, I must +read it over and over," Mrs. Alsager pleaded, rising to come nearer +and draw the copy, in its cover of greenish-grey paper, which had a +generic identity now to him, out of his grasp. "Who in the world +will do it?--who in the world CAN?" she went on, close to him, +turning over the leaves. Before he could answer she had stopped at +one of the pages; she turned the book round to him, pointing out a +speech. "That's the most beautiful place--those lines are a +perfection." He glanced at the spot she indicated, and she begged +him to read them again--he had read them admirably before. He knew +them by heart, and, closing the book while she held the other end of +it, he murmured them over to her--they had indeed a cadence that +pleased him--watching, with a facetious complacency which he hoped +was pardonable, the applause in her face. "Ah, who can utter such +lines as THAT?" Mrs. Alsager broke out; "whom can you find to do +HER?" + +"We'll find people to do them all!" + +"But not people who are worthy." + +"They'll be worthy enough if they're willing enough. I'll work with +them--I'll grind it into them." He spoke as if he had produced +twenty plays. + +"Oh, it will be interesting!" she echoed. + +"But I shall have to find my theatre first. I shall have to get a +manager to believe in me." + +"Yes--they're so stupid!" + +"But fancy the patience I shall want, and how I shall have to watch +and wait," said Allan Wayworth. "Do you see me hawking it about +London?" + +"Indeed I don't--it would be sickening." + +"It's what I shall have to do. I shall be old before it's produced." + +"I shall be old very soon if it isn't!" Mrs. Alsager cried. "I know +one or two of them," she mused. + +"Do you mean you would speak to them?" + +"The thing is to get them to read it. I could do that." + +"That's the utmost I ask. But it's even for that I shall have to +wait." + +She looked at him with kind sisterly eyes. "You sha'n't wait." + +"Ah, you dear lady!" Wayworth murmured. + +"That is YOU may, but _I_ won't! Will you leave me your copy?" she +went on, turning the pages again. + +"Certainly; I have another." Standing near him she read to herself a +passage here and there; then, in her sweet voice, she read some of +them out. "Oh, if YOU were only an actress!" the young man +exclaimed. + +"That's the last thing I am. There's no comedy in ME!" + +She had never appeared to Wayworth so much his good genius. "Is +there any tragedy?" he asked, with the levity of complete confidence. + +She turned away from him, at this, with a strange and charming laugh +and a "Perhaps that will be for you to determine!" But before he +could disclaim such a responsibility she had faced him again and was +talking about Nona Vincent as if she had been the most interesting of +their friends and her situation at that moment an irresistible appeal +to their sympathy. Nona Vincent was the heroine of the play, and +Mrs. Alsager had taken a tremendous fancy to her. "I can't TELL you +how I like that woman!" she exclaimed in a pensive rapture of +credulity which could only be balm to the artistic spirit. + +"I'm awfully glad she lives a bit. What I feel about her is that +she's a good deal like YOU," Wayworth observed. + +Mrs. Alsager stared an instant and turned faintly red. This was +evidently a view that failed to strike her; she didn't, however, +treat it as a joke. "I'm not impressed with the resemblance. I +don't see myself doing what she does." + +"It isn't so much what she DOES," the young man argued, drawing out +his moustache. + +"But what she does is the whole point. She simply tells her love--I +should never do that." + +"If you repudiate such a proceeding with such energy, why do you like +her for it?" + +"It isn't what I like her for." + +"What else, then? That's intensely characteristic." + +Mrs. Alsager reflected, looking down at the fire; she had the air of +having half-a-dozen reasons to choose from. But the one she produced +was unexpectedly simple; it might even have been prompted by despair +at not finding others. "I like her because YOU made her!" she +exclaimed with a laugh, moving again away from her companion. + +Wayworth laughed still louder. "You made her a little yourself. +I've thought of her as looking like you." + +"She ought to look much better," said Mrs. Alsager. "No, certainly, +I shouldn't do what SHE does." + +"Not even in the same circumstances?" + +"I should never find myself in such circumstances. They're exactly +your play, and have nothing in common with such a life as mine. +However," Mrs. Alsager went on, "her behaviour was natural for HER, +and not only natural, but, it seems to me, thoroughly beautiful and +noble. I can't sufficiently admire the talent and tact with which +you make one accept it, and I tell you frankly that it's evident to +me there must be a brilliant future before a young man who, at the +start, has been capable of such a stroke as that. Thank heaven I can +admire Nona Vincent as intensely as I feel that I don't resemble +her!" + +"Don't exaggerate that," said Allan Wayworth. + +"My admiration?" + +"Your dissimilarity. She has your face, your air, your voice, your +motion; she has many elements of your being." + +"Then she'll damn your play!" Mrs. Alsager replied. They joked a +little over this, though it was not in the tone of pleasantry that +Wayworth's hostess soon remarked: "You've got your remedy, however: +have her done by the right woman." + +"Oh, have her 'done'--have her 'done'!" the young man gently wailed. + +"I see what you mean, my poor friend. What a pity, when it's such a +magnificent part--such a chance for a clever serious girl! Nona +Vincent is practically your play--it will be open to her to carry it +far or to drop it at the first corner." + +"It's a charming prospect," said Allan Wayworth, with sudden +scepticism. They looked at each other with eyes that, for a lurid +moment, saw the worst of the worst; but before they parted they had +exchanged vows and confidences that were dedicated wholly to the +ideal. It is not to be supposed, however, that the knowledge that +Mrs. Alsager would help him made Wayworth less eager to help himself. +He did what he could and felt that she, on her side, was doing no +less; but at the end of a year he was obliged to recognise that their +united effort had mainly produced the fine flower of discouragement. +At the end of a year the lustre had, to his own eyes, quite faded +from his unappreciated masterpiece, and he found himself writing for +a biographical dictionary little lives of celebrities he had never +heard of. To be printed, anywhere and anyhow, was a form of glory +for a man so unable to be acted, and to be paid, even at +encyclopaedic rates, had the consequence of making one resigned and +verbose. He couldn't smuggle style into a dictionary, but he could +at least reflect that he had done his best to learn from the drama +that it is a gross impertinence almost anywhere. He had knocked at +the door of every theatre in London, and, at a ruinous expense, had +multiplied type-copies of Nona Vincent to replace the neat +transcripts that had descended into the managerial abyss. His play +was not even declined--no such flattering intimation was given him +that it had been read. What the managers would do for Mrs. Alsager +concerned him little today; the thing that was relevant was that they +would do nothing for HIM. That charming woman felt humbled to the +earth, so little response had she had from the powers on which she +counted. The two never talked about the play now, but he tried to +show her a still finer friendship, that she might not think he felt +she had failed him. He still walked about London with his dreams, +but as months succeeded months and he left the year behind him they +were dreams not so much of success as of revenge. Success seemed a +colourless name for the reward of his patience; something fiercely +florid, something sanguinolent was more to the point. His best +consolation however was still in the scenic idea; it was not till now +that he discovered how incurably he was in love with it. By the time +a vain second year had chafed itself away he cherished his fruitless +faculty the more for the obloquy it seemed to suffer. He lived, in +his best hours, in a world of subjects and situations; he wrote +another play and made it as different from its predecessor as such a +very good thing could be. It might be a very good thing, but when he +had committed it to the theatrical limbo indiscriminating fate took +no account of the difference. He was at last able to leave England +for three or four months; he went to Germany to pay a visit long +deferred to his mother and sisters. + +Shortly before the time he had fixed for his return he received from +Mrs. Alsager a telegram consisting of the words: "Loder wishes see +you--putting Nona instant rehearsal." He spent the few hours before +his departure in kissing his mother and sisters, who knew enough +about Mrs. Alsager to judge it lucky this respectable married lady +was not there--a relief, however, accompanied with speculative +glances at London and the morrow. Loder, as our young man was aware, +meant the new "Renaissance," but though he reached home in the +evening it was not to this convenient modern theatre that Wayworth +first proceeded. He spent a late hour with Mrs. Alsager, an hour +that throbbed with calculation. She told him that Mr. Loder was +charming, he had simply taken up the play in its turn; he had hopes +of it, moreover, that on the part of a professional pessimist might +almost be qualified as ecstatic. It had been cast, with a margin for +objections, and Violet Grey was to do the heroine. She had been +capable, while he was away, of a good piece of work at that foggy old +playhouse the "Legitimate;" the piece was a clumsy rechauffe, but she +at least had been fresh. Wayworth remembered Violet Grey--hadn't he, +for two years, on a fond policy of "looking out," kept dipping into +the London theatres to pick up prospective interpreters? He had not +picked up many as yet, and this young lady at all events had never +wriggled in his net. She was pretty and she was odd, but he had +never prefigured her as Nona Vincent, nor indeed found himself +attracted by what he already felt sufficiently launched in the +profession to speak of as her artistic personality. Mrs. Alsager was +different--she declared that she had been struck not a little by some +of her tones. The girl was interesting in the thing at the +"Legitimate," and Mr. Loder, who had his eye on her, described her as +ambitious and intelligent. She wanted awfully to get on--and some of +those ladies were so lazy! Wayworth was sceptical--he had seen Miss +Violet Grey, who was terribly itinerant, in a dozen theatres but only +in one aspect. Nona Vincent had a dozen aspects, but only one +theatre; yet with what a feverish curiosity the young man promised +himself to watch the actress on the morrow! Talking the matter over +with Mrs. Alsager now seemed the very stuff that rehearsal was made +of. The near prospect of being acted laid a finger even on the lip +of inquiry; he wanted to go on tiptoe till the first night, to make +no condition but that they should speak his lines, and he felt that +he wouldn't so much as raise an eyebrow at the scene-painter if he +should give him an old oak chamber. + +He became conscious, the next day, that his danger would be other +than this, and yet he couldn't have expressed to himself what it +would be. Danger was there, doubtless--danger was everywhere, in the +world of art, and still more in the world of commerce; but what he +really seemed to catch, for the hour, was the beating of the wings of +victory. Nothing could undermine that, since it was victory simply +to be acted. It would be victory even to be acted badly; a +reflection that didn't prevent him, however, from banishing, in his +politic optimism, the word "bad" from his vocabulary. It had no +application, in the compromise of practice; it didn't apply even to +his play, which he was conscious he had already outlived and as to +which he foresaw that, in the coming weeks, frequent alarm would +alternate, in his spirit, with frequent esteem. When he went down to +the dusky daylit theatre (it arched over him like the temple of fame) +Mr. Loder, who was as charming as Mrs. Alsager had announced, struck +him as the genius of hospitality. The manager began to explain why, +for so long, he had given no sign; but that was the last thing that +interested Wayworth now, and he could never remember afterwards what +reasons Mr. Loder had enumerated. He liked, in the whole business of +discussion and preparation, even the things he had thought he should +probably dislike, and he revelled in those he had thought he should +like. He watched Miss Violet Grey that evening with eyes that sought +to penetrate her possibilities. She certainly had a few; they were +qualities of voice and face, qualities perhaps even of intelligence; +he sat there at any rate with a fostering, coaxing attention, +repeating over to himself as convincingly as he could that she was +not common--a circumstance all the more creditable as the part she +was playing seemed to him desperately so. He perceived that this was +why it pleased the audience; he divined that it was the part they +enjoyed rather than the actress. He had a private panic, wondering +how, if they liked THAT form, they could possibly like his. His form +had now become quite an ultimate idea to him. By the time the +evening was over some of Miss Violet Grey's features, several of the +turns of her head, a certain vibration of her voice, had taken their +place in the same category. She WAS interesting, she was +distinguished; at any rate he had accepted her: it came to the same +thing. But he left the theatre that night without speaking to her-- +moved (a little even to his own mystification) by an odd +procrastinating impulse. On the morrow he was to read his three acts +to the company, and then he should have a good deal to say; what he +felt for the moment was a vague indisposition to commit himself. +Moreover he found a slight confusion of annoyance in the fact that +though he had been trying all the evening to look at Nona Vincent in +Violet Grey's person, what subsisted in his vision was simply Violet +Grey in Nona's. He didn't wish to see the actress so directly, or +even so simply as that; and it had been very fatiguing, the effort to +focus Nona both through the performer and through the "Legitimate." +Before he went to bed that night he posted three words to Mrs. +Alsager--"She's not a bit like it, but I dare say I can make her do." + +He was pleased with the way the actress listened, the next day, at +the reading; he was pleased indeed with many things, at the reading, +and most of all with the reading itself. The whole affair loomed +large to him and he magnified it and mapped it out. He enjoyed his +occupation of the big, dim, hollow theatre, full of the echoes of +"effect" and of a queer smell of gas and success--it all seemed such +a passive canvas for his picture. For the first time in his life he +was in command of resources; he was acquainted with the phrase, but +had never thought he should know the feeling. He was surprised at +what Loder appeared ready to do, though he reminded himself that he +must never show it. He foresaw that there would be two distinct +concomitants to the artistic effort of producing a play, one +consisting of a great deal of anguish and the other of a great deal +of amusement. He looked back upon the reading, afterwards, as the +best hour in the business, because it was then that the piece had +most struck him as represented. What came later was the doing of +others; but this, with its imperfections and failures, was all his +own. The drama lived, at any rate, for that hour, with an intensity +that it was promptly to lose in the poverty and patchiness of +rehearsal; he could see its life reflected, in a way that was sweet +to him, in the stillness of the little semi-circle of attentive and +inscrutable, of water-proofed and muddy-booted, actors. Miss Violet +Grey was the auditor he had most to say to, and he tried on the spot, +across the shabby stage, to let her have the soul of her part. Her +attitude was graceful, but though she appeared to listen with all her +faculties her face remained perfectly blank; a fact, however, not +discouraging to Wayworth, who liked her better for not being +premature. Her companions gave discernible signs of recognising the +passages of comedy; yet Wayworth forgave her even then for being +inexpressive. She evidently wished before everything else to be +simply sure of what it was all about. + +He was more surprised even than at the revelation of the scale on +which Mr. Loder was ready to proceed by the discovery that some of +the actors didn't like their parts, and his heart sank as he asked +himself what he could possibly do with them if they were going to be +so stupid. This was the first of his disappointments; somehow he had +expected every individual to become instantly and gratefully +conscious of a rare opportunity, and from the moment such a +calculation failed he was at sea, or mindful at any rate that more +disappointments would come. It was impossible to make out what the +manager liked or disliked; no judgment, no comment escaped him; his +acceptance of the play and his views about the way it should be +mounted had apparently converted him into a veiled and shrouded +figure. Wayworth was able to grasp the idea that they would all move +now in a higher and sharper air than that of compliment and +confidence. When he talked with Violet Grey after the reading he +gathered that she was really rather crude: what better proof of it +could there be than her failure to break out instantly with an +expression of delight about her great chance? This reserve, however, +had evidently nothing to do with high pretensions; she had no wish to +make him feel that a person of her eminence was superior to easy +raptures. He guessed, after a little, that she was puzzled and even +somewhat frightened--to a certain extent she had not understood. +Nothing could appeal to him more than the opportunity to clear up her +difficulties, in the course of the examination of which he quickly +discovered that, so far as she HAD understood, she had understood +wrong. If she was crude it was only a reason the more for talking to +her; he kept saying to her "Ask me--ask me: ask me everything you +can think of." + +She asked him, she was perpetually asking him, and at the first +rehearsals, which were without form and void to a degree that made +them strike him much more as the death of an experiment than as the +dawn of a success, they threshed things out immensely in a corner of +the stage, with the effect of his coming to feel that at any rate she +was in earnest. He felt more and more that his heroine was the +keystone of his arch, for which indeed the actress was very ready to +take her. But when he reminded this young lady of the way the whole +thing practically depended on her she was alarmed and even slightly +scandalised: she spoke more than once as if that could scarcely be +the right way to construct a play--make it stand or fall by one poor +nervous girl. She was almost morbidly conscientious, and in theory +he liked her for this, though he lost patience three or four times +with the things she couldn't do and the things she could. At such +times the tears came to her eyes; but they were produced by her own +stupidity, she hastened to assure him, not by the way he spoke, which +was awfully kind under the circumstances. Her sincerity made her +beautiful, and he wished to heaven (and made a point of telling her +so) that she could sprinkle a little of it over Nona. Once, however, +she was so touched and troubled that the sight of it brought the +tears for an instant to his own eyes; and it so happened that, +turning at this moment, he found himself face to face with Mr. Loder. +The manager stared, glanced at the actress, who turned in the other +direction, and then smiling at Wayworth, exclaimed, with the humour +of a man who heard the gallery laugh every night: + +"I say--I say!" + +"What's the matter?" Wayworth asked. + +"I'm glad to see Miss Grey is taking such pains with you." + +"Oh, yes--she'll turn me out!" said the young man, gaily. He was +quite aware that it was apparent he was not superficial about Nona, +and abundantly determined, into the bargain, that the rehearsal of +the piece should not sacrifice a shade of thoroughness to any +extrinsic consideration. + +Mrs. Alsager, whom, late in the afternoon, he used often to go and +ask for a cup of tea, thanking her in advance for the rest she gave +him and telling her how he found that rehearsal (as THEY were doing +it--it was a caution!) took it out of one--Mrs. Alsager, more and +more his good genius and, as he repeatedly assured her, his +ministering angel, confirmed him in this superior policy and urged +him on to every form of artistic devotion. She had, naturally, never +been more interested than now in his work; she wanted to hear +everything about everything. She treated him as heroically fatigued, +plied him with luxurious restoratives, made him stretch himself on +cushions and rose-leaves. They gossipped more than ever, by her +fire, about the artistic life; he confided to her, for instance, all +his hopes and fears, all his experiments and anxieties, on the +subject of the representative of Nona. She was immensely interested +in this young lady and showed it by taking a box again and again (she +had seen her half-a-dozen times already), to study her capacity +through the veil of her present part. Like Allan Wayworth she found +her encouraging only by fits, for she had fine flashes of badness. +She was intelligent, but she cried aloud for training, and the +training was so absent that the intelligence had only a fraction of +its effect. She was like a knife without an edge--good steel that +had never been sharpened; she hacked away at her hard dramatic loaf, +she couldn't cut it smooth. + + + +CHAPTER II. + + + +"Certainly my leading lady won't make Nona much like YOU!" Wayworth +one day gloomily remarked to Mrs. Alsager. There were days when the +prospect seemed to him awful. + +"So much the better. There's no necessity for that." + +"I wish you'd train her a little--you could so easily," the young man +went on; in response to which Mrs. Alsager requested him not to make +such cruel fun of her. But she was curious about the girl, wanted to +hear of her character, her private situation, how she lived and +where, seemed indeed desirous to befriend her. Wayworth might not +have known much about the private situation of Miss Violet Grey, but, +as it happened, he was able, by the time his play had been three +weeks in rehearsal, to supply information on such points. She was a +charming, exemplary person, educated, cultivated, with highly modern +tastes, an excellent musician. She had lost her parents and was very +much alone in the world, her only two relations being a sister, who +was married to a civil servant (in a highly responsible post) in +India, and a dear little old-fashioned aunt (really a great-aunt) +with whom she lived at Notting Hill, who wrote children's books and +who, it appeared, had once written a Christmas pantomime. It was +quite an artistic home--not on the scale of Mrs. Alsager's (to +compare the smallest things with the greatest!) but intensely refined +and honourable. Wayworth went so far as to hint that it would be +rather nice and human on Mrs. Alsager's part to go there--they would +take it so kindly if she should call on them. She had acted so often +on his hints that he had formed a pleasant habit of expecting it: it +made him feel so wisely responsible about giving them. But this one +appeared to fall to the ground, so that he let the subject drop. +Mrs. Alsager, however, went yet once more to the "Legitimate," as he +found by her saying to him abruptly, on the morrow: "Oh, she'll be +very good--she'll be very good." When they said "she," in these +days, they always meant Violet Grey, though they pretended, for the +most part, that they meant Nona Vincent. + +"Oh yes," Wayworth assented, "she wants so to!" + +Mrs. Alsager was silent a moment; then she asked, a little +inconsequently, as if she had come back from a reverie: "Does she +want to VERY much?" + +"Tremendously--and it appears she has been fascinated by the part +from the first." + +"Why then didn't she say so?" + +"Oh, because she's so funny." + +"She IS funny," said Mrs. Alsager, musingly; and presently she added: +"She's in love with you." + +Wayworth stared, blushed very red, then laughed out. "What is there +funny in that?" he demanded; but before his interlocutress could +satisfy him on this point he inquired, further, how she knew anything +about it. After a little graceful evasion she explained that the +night before, at the "Legitimate," Mrs. Beaumont, the wife of the +actor-manager, had paid her a visit in her box; which had happened, +in the course of their brief gossip, to lead to her remarking that +she had never been "behind." Mrs. Beaumont offered on the spot to +take her round, and the fancy had seized her to accept the +invitation. She had been amused for the moment, and in this way it +befell that her conductress, at her request, had introduced her to +Miss Violet Grey, who was waiting in the wing for one of her scenes. +Mrs. Beaumont had been called away for three minutes, and during this +scrap of time, face to face with the actress, she had discovered the +poor girl's secret. Wayworth qualified it as a senseless thing, but +wished to know what had led to the discovery. She characterised this +inquiry as superficial for a painter of the ways of women; and he +doubtless didn't improve it by remarking profanely that a cat might +look at a king and that such things were convenient to know. Even on +this ground, however, he was threatened by Mrs. Alsager, who +contended that it might not be a joking matter to the poor girl. To +this Wayworth, who now professed to hate talking about the passions +he might have inspired, could only reply that he meant it couldn't +make a difference to Mrs. Alsager. + +"How in the world do you know what makes a difference to ME?" this +lady asked, with incongruous coldness, with a haughtiness indeed +remarkable in so gentle a spirit. + +He saw Violet Grey that night at the theatre, and it was she who +spoke first of her having lately met a friend of his. + +"She's in love with you," the actress said, after he had made a show +of ignorance; "doesn't that tell you anything?" + +He blushed redder still than Mrs. Alsager had made him blush, but +replied, quickly enough and very adequately, that hundreds of women +were naturally dying for him. + +"Oh, I don't care, for you're not in love with HER!" the girl +continued. + +"Did she tell you that too?" Wayworth asked; but she had at that +moment to go on. + +Standing where he could see her he thought that on this occasion she +threw into her scene, which was the best she had in the play, a +brighter art than ever before, a talent that could play with its +problem. She was perpetually doing things out of rehearsal (she did +two or three to-night, in the other man's piece), that he as often +wished to heaven Nona Vincent might have the benefit of. She +appeared to be able to do them for every one but him--that is for +every one but Nona. He was conscious, in these days, of an odd new +feeling, which mixed (this was a part of its oddity) with a very +natural and comparatively old one and which in its most definite form +was a dull ache of regret that this young lady's unlucky star should +have placed her on the stage. He wished in his worst uneasiness +that, without going further, she would give it up; and yet it soothed +that uneasiness to remind himself that he saw grounds to hope she +would go far enough to make a marked success of Nona. There were +strange and painful moments when, as the interpretress of Nona, he +almost hated her; after which, however, he always assured himself +that he exaggerated, inasmuch as what made this aversion seem great, +when he was nervous, was simply its contrast with the growing sense +that there WERE grounds--totally different--on which she pleased him. +She pleased him as a charming creature--by her sincerities and her +perversities, by the varieties and surprises of her character and by +certain happy facts of her person. In private her eyes were sad to +him and her voice was rare. He detested the idea that she should +have a disappointment or an humiliation, and he wanted to rescue her +altogether, to save and transplant her. One way to save her was to +see to it, to the best of his ability, that the production of his +play should be a triumph; and the other way--it was really too queer +to express--was almost to wish that it shouldn't be. Then, for the +future, there would be safety and peace, and not the peace of death-- +the peace of a different life. It is to be added that our young man +clung to the former of these ways in proportion as the latter +perversely tempted him. He was nervous at the best, increasingly and +intolerably nervous; but the immediate remedy was to rehearse harder +and harder, and above all to work it out with Violet Grey. Some of +her comrades reproached him with working it out only with her, as if +she were the whole affair; to which he replied that they could afford +to be neglected, they were all so tremendously good. She was the +only person concerned whom he didn't flatter. + +The author and the actress stuck so to the business in hand that she +had very little time to speak to him again of Mrs. Alsager, of whom +indeed her imagination appeared adequately to have disposed. +Wayworth once remarked to her that Nona Vincent was supposed to be a +good deal like his charming friend; but she gave a blank "Supposed by +whom?" in consequence of which he never returned to the subject. He +confided his nervousness as freely as usual to Mrs. Alsager, who +easily understood that he had a peculiar complication of anxieties. +His suspense varied in degree from hour to hour, but any relief there +might have been in this was made up for by its being of several +different kinds. One afternoon, as the first performance drew near, +Mrs. Alsager said to him, in giving him his cup of tea and on his +having mentioned that he had not closed his eyes the night before: + +"You must indeed be in a dreadful state. Anxiety for another is +still worse than anxiety for one's self." + +"For another?" Wayworth repeated, looking at her over the rim of his +cup. + +"My poor friend, you're nervous about Nona Vincent, but you're +infinitely more nervous about Violet Grey." + +"She IS Nona Vincent!" + +"No, she isn't--not a bit!" said Mrs. Alsager, abruptly. + +"Do you really think so?" Wayworth cried, spilling his tea in his +alarm. + +"What I think doesn't signify--I mean what I think about that. What +I meant to say was that great as is your suspense about your play, +your suspense about your actress is greater still." + +"I can only repeat that my actress IS my play." + +Mrs. Alsager looked thoughtfully into the teapot. + +"Your actress is your--" + +"My what?" the young man asked, with a little tremor in his voice, as +his hostess paused. + +"Your very dear friend. You're in love with her--at present." And +with a sharp click Mrs. Alsager dropped the lid on the fragrant +receptacle. + +"Not yet--not yet!" laughed her visitor. + +"You will be if she pulls you through." + +"You declare that she WON'T pull me through." + +Mrs. Alsager was silent a moment, after which she softly murmured: +"I'll pray for her." + +"You're the most generous of women!" Wayworth cried; then coloured as +if the words had not been happy. They would have done indeed little +honour to a man of tact. + +The next morning he received five hurried lines from Mrs. Alsager. +She had suddenly been called to Torquay, to see a relation who was +seriously ill; she should be detained there several days, but she had +an earnest hope of being able to return in time for his first night. +In any event he had her unrestricted good wishes. He missed her +extremely, for these last days were a great strain and there was +little comfort to be derived from Violet Grey. She was even more +nervous than himself, and so pale and altered that he was afraid she +would be too ill to act. It was settled between them that they made +each other worse and that he had now much better leave her alone. +They had pulled Nona so to pieces that nothing seemed left of her-- +she must at least have time to grow together again. He left Violet +Grey alone, to the best of his ability, but she carried out +imperfectly her own side of the bargain. She came to him with new +questions--she waited for him with old doubts, and half an hour +before the last dress-rehearsal, on the eve of production, she +proposed to him a totally fresh rendering of his heroine. This +incident gave him such a sense of insecurity that he turned his back +on her without a word, bolted out of the theatre, dashed along the +Strand and walked as far as the Bank. Then he jumped into a hansom +and came westward, and when he reached the theatre again the business +was nearly over. It appeared, almost to his disappointment, not bad +enough to give him the consolation of the old playhouse adage that +the worst dress-rehearsals make the best first nights. + +The morrow, which was a Wednesday, was the dreadful day; the theatre +had been closed on the Monday and the Tuesday. Every one, on the +Wednesday, did his best to let every one else alone, and every one +signally failed in the attempt. The day, till seven o'clock, was +understood to be consecrated to rest, but every one except Violet +Grey turned up at the theatre. Wayworth looked at Mr. Loder, and Mr. +Loder looked in another direction, which was as near as they came to +conversation. Wayworth was in a fidget, unable to eat or sleep or +sit still, at times almost in terror. He kept quiet by keeping, as +usual, in motion; he tried to walk away from his nervousness. He +walked in the afternoon toward Notting Hill, but he succeeded in not +breaking the vow he had taken not to meddle with his actress. She +was like an acrobat poised on a slippery ball--if he should touch her +she would topple over. He passed her door three times and he thought +of her three hundred. This was the hour at which he most regretted +that Mrs. Alsager had not come back--for he had called at her house +only to learn that she was still at Torquay. This was probably +queer, and it was probably queerer still that she hadn't written to +him; but even of these things he wasn't sure, for in losing, as he +had now completely lost, his judgment of his play, he seemed to +himself to have lost his judgment of everything. When he went home, +however, he found a telegram from the lady of Grosvenor Place--"Shall +be able to come--reach town by seven." At half-past eight o'clock, +through a little aperture in the curtain of the "Renaissance," he saw +her in her box with a cluster of friends--completely beautiful and +beneficent. The house was magnificent--too good for his play, he +felt; too good for any play. Everything now seemed too good--the +scenery, the furniture, the dresses, the very programmes. He seized +upon the idea that this was probably what was the matter with the +representative of Nona--she was only too good. He had completely +arranged with this young lady the plan of their relations during the +evening; and though they had altered everything else that they had +arranged they had promised each other not to alter this. It was +wonderful the number of things they had promised each other. He +would start her, he would see her off--then he would quit the theatre +and stay away till just before the end. She besought him to stay +away--it would make her infinitely easier. He saw that she was +exquisitely dressed--she had made one or two changes for the better +since the night before, and that seemed something definite to turn +over and over in his mind as he rumbled foggily home in the four- +wheeler in which, a few steps from the stage-door, he had taken +refuge as soon as he knew that the curtain was up. He lived a couple +of miles off, and he had chosen a four-wheeler to drag out the time. + +When he got home his fire was out, his room was cold, and he lay down +on his sofa in his overcoat. He had sent his landlady to the dress- +circle, on purpose; she would overflow with words and mistakes. The +house seemed a black void, just as the streets had done--every one +was, formidably, at his play. He was quieter at last than he had +been for a fortnight, and he felt too weak even to wonder how the +thing was going. He believed afterwards that he had slept an hour; +but even if he had he felt it to be still too early to return to the +theatre. He sat down by his lamp and tried to read--to read a little +compendious life of a great English statesman, out of a "series." It +struck him as brilliantly clever, and he asked himself whether that +perhaps were not rather the sort of thing he ought to have taken up: +not the statesmanship, but the art of brief biography. Suddenly he +became aware that he must hurry if he was to reach the theatre at +all--it was a quarter to eleven o'clock. He scrambled out and, this +time, found a hansom--he had lately spent enough money in cabs to add +to his hope that the profits of his new profession would be great. +His anxiety, his suspense flamed up again, and as he rattled +eastward--he went fast now--he was almost sick with alternations. As +he passed into the theatre the first man--some underling--who met +him, cried to him, breathlessly: + +"You're wanted, sir--you're wanted!" He thought his tone very +ominous--he devoured the man's eyes with his own, for a betrayal: +did he mean that he was wanted for execution? Some one else pressed +him, almost pushed him, forward; he was already on the stage. Then +he became conscious of a sound more or less continuous, but seemingly +faint and far, which he took at first for the voice of the actors +heard through their canvas walls, the beautiful built-in room of the +last act. But the actors were in the wing, they surrounded him; the +curtain was down and they were coming off from before it. They had +been called, and HE was called--they all greeted him with "Go on--go +on!" He was terrified--he couldn't go on--he didn't believe in the +applause, which seemed to him only audible enough to sound half- +hearted. + +"Has it gone?--HAS it gone?" he gasped to the people round him; and +he heard them say "Rather--rather!" perfunctorily, mendaciously too, +as it struck him, and even with mocking laughter, the laughter of +defeat and despair. Suddenly, though all this must have taken but a +moment, Loder burst upon him from somewhere with a "For God's sake +don't keep them, or they'll STOP!" "But I can't go on for THAT!" +Wayworth cried, in anguish; the sound seemed to him already to have +ceased. Loder had hold of him and was shoving him; he resisted and +looked round frantically for Violet Grey, who perhaps would tell him +the truth. There was by this time a crowd in the wing, all with +strange grimacing painted faces, but Violet was not among them and +her very absence frightened him. He uttered her name with an accent +that he afterwards regretted--it gave them, as he thought, both away; +and while Loder hustled him before the curtain he heard some one say +"She took her call and disappeared." She had had a call, then--this +was what was most present to the young man as he stood for an instant +in the glare of the footlights, looking blindly at the great vaguely- +peopled horseshoe and greeted with plaudits which now seemed to him +at once louder than he deserved and feebler than he desired. They +sank to rest quickly, but he felt it to be long before he could back +away, before he could, in his turn, seize the manager by the arm and +cry huskily--"Has it really gone--REALLY?" + +Mr. Loder looked at him hard and replied after an instant: "The +play's all right!" + +Wayworth hung upon his lips. "Then what's all wrong?" + +"We must do something to Miss Grey." + +"What's the matter with her?" + +"She isn't IN it!" + +"Do you mean she has failed?" + +"Yes, damn it--she has failed." + +Wayworth stared. "Then how can the play be all right?" + +"Oh, we'll save it--we'll save it." + +"Where's Miss Grey--where IS she?" the young man asked. + +Loder caught his arm as he was turning away again to look for his +heroine. "Never mind her now--she knows it!" + +Wayworth was approached at the same moment by a gentleman he knew as +one of Mrs. Alsager's friends--he had perceived him in that lady's +box. Mrs. Alsager was waiting there for the successful author; she +desired very earnestly that he would come round and speak to her. +Wayworth assured himself first that Violet had left the theatre--one +of the actresses could tell him that she had seen her throw on a +cloak, without changing her dress, and had learnt afterwards that she +had, the next moment, flung herself, after flinging her aunt, into a +cab. He had wished to invite half a dozen persons, of whom Miss Grey +and her elderly relative were two, to come home to supper with him; +but she had refused to make any engagement beforehand (it would be so +dreadful to have to keep it if she shouldn't have made a hit), and +this attitude had blighted the pleasant plan, which fell to the +ground. He had called her morbid, but she was immovable. Mrs. +Alsager's messenger let him know that he was expected to supper in +Grosvenor Place, and half an hour afterwards he was seated there +among complimentary people and flowers and popping corks, eating the +first orderly meal he had partaken of for a week. Mrs. Alsager had +carried him off in her brougham--the other people who were coming got +into things of their own. He stopped her short as soon as she began +to tell him how tremendously every one had been struck by the piece; +he nailed her down to the question of Violet Grey. Had she spoilt +the play, had she jeopardised or compromised it--had she been utterly +bad, had she been good in any degree? + +"Certainly the performance would have seemed better if SHE had been +better," Mrs. Alsager confessed. + +"And the play would have seemed better if the performance had been +better," Wayworth said, gloomily, from the corner of the brougham. + +"She does what she can, and she has talent, and she looked lovely. +But she doesn't SEE Nona Vincent. She doesn't see the type--she +doesn't see the individual--she doesn't see the woman you meant. +She's out of it--she gives you a different person." + +"Oh, the woman I meant!" the young man exclaimed, looking at the +London lamps as he rolled by them. "I wish to God she had known +YOU!" he added, as the carriage stopped. After they had passed into +the house he said to his companion: + +"You see she WON'T pull me through." + +"Forgive her--be kind to her!" Mrs. Alsager pleaded. + +"I shall only thank her. The play may go to the dogs." + +"If it does--if it does," Mrs. Alsager began, with her pure eyes on +him. + +"Well, what if it does?" + +She couldn't tell him, for the rest of her guests came in together; +she only had time to say: "It SHA'N'T go to the dogs!" + +He came away before the others, restless with the desire to go to +Notting Hill even that night, late as it was, haunted with the sense +that Violet Grey had measured her fall. When he got into the street, +however, he allowed second thoughts to counsel another course; the +effect of knocking her up at two o'clock in the morning would hardly +be to soothe her. He looked at six newspapers the next day and found +in them never a good word for her. They were well enough about the +piece, but they were unanimous as to the disappointment caused by the +young actress whose former efforts had excited such hopes and on +whom, on this occasion, such pressing responsibilities rested. They +asked in chorus what was the matter with her, and they declared in +chorus that the play, which was not without promise, was handicapped +(they all used the same word) by the odd want of correspondence +between the heroine and her interpreter. Wayworth drove early to +Notting Hill, but he didn't take the newspapers with him; Violet Grey +could be trusted to have sent out for them by the peep of dawn and to +have fed her anguish full. She declined to see him--she only sent +down word by her aunt that she was extremely unwell and should be +unable to act that night unless she were suffered to spend the day +unmolested and in bed. Wayworth sat for an hour with the old lady, +who understood everything and to whom he could speak frankly. She +gave him a touching picture of her niece's condition, which was all +the more vivid for the simple words in which it was expressed: "She +feels she isn't right, you know--she feels she isn't right!" + +"Tell her it doesn't matter--it doesn't matter a straw!" said +Wayworth. + +"And she's so proud--you know how proud she is!" the old lady went +on. + +"Tell her I'm more than satisfied, that I accept her gratefully as +she is." + +"She says she injures your play, that she ruins it," said his +interlocutress. + +"She'll improve, immensely--she'll grow into the part," the young man +continued. + +"She'd improve if she knew how--but she says she doesn't. She has +given all she has got, and she doesn't know what's wanted." + +"What's wanted is simply that she should go straight on and trust +me." + +"How can she trust you when she feels she's losing you?" + +"Losing me?" Wayworth cried. + +"You'll never forgive her if your play is taken off!" + +"It will run six months," said the author of the piece. + +The old lady laid her hand on his arm. "What will you do for her if +it does?" + +He looked at Violet Grey's aunt a moment. "Do you say your niece is +very proud?" + +"Too proud for her dreadful profession." + +"Then she wouldn't wish you to ask me that," Wayworth answered, +getting up. + +When he reached home he was very tired, and for a person to whom it +was open to consider that he had scored a success he spent a +remarkably dismal day. All his restlessness had gone, and fatigue +and depression possessed him. He sank into his old chair by the fire +and sat there for hours with his eyes closed. His landlady came in +to bring his luncheon and mend the fire, but he feigned to be asleep, +so as not to be spoken to. It is to be supposed that sleep at last +overtook him, for about the hour that dusk began to gather he had an +extraordinary impression, a visit that, it would seem, could have +belonged to no waking consciousness. Nona Vincent, in face and form, +the living heroine of his play, rose before him in his little silent +room, sat down with him at his dingy fireside. She was not Violet +Grey, she was not Mrs. Alsager, she was not any woman he had seen +upon earth, nor was it any masquerade of friendship or of penitence. +Yet she was more familiar to him than the women he had known best, +and she was ineffably beautiful and consoling. She filled the poor +room with her presence, the effect of which was as soothing as some +odour of incense. She was as quiet as an affectionate sister, and +there was no surprise in her being there. Nothing more real had ever +befallen him, and nothing, somehow, more reassuring. He felt her +hand rest upon his own, and all his senses seemed to open to her +message. She struck him, in the strangest way, both as his creation +and as his inspirer, and she gave him the happiest consciousness of +success. If she was so charming, in the red firelight, in her vague, +clear-coloured garments, it was because he had made her so, and yet +if the weight seemed lifted from his spirit it was because she drew +it away. When she bent her deep eyes upon him they seemed to speak +of safety and freedom and to make a green garden of the future. From +time to time she smiled and said: "I live--I live--I live." How +long she stayed he couldn't have told, but when his landlady +blundered in with the lamp Nona Vincent was no longer there. He +rubbed his eyes, but no dream had ever been so intense; and as he +slowly got out of his chair it was with a deep still joy--the joy of +the artist--in the thought of how right he had been, how exactly like +herself he had made her. She had come to show him that. At the end +of five minutes, however, he felt sufficiently mystified to call his +landlady back--he wanted to ask her a question. When the good woman +reappeared the question hung fire an instant; then it shaped itself +as the inquiry: + +"Has any lady been here?" + +"No, sir--no lady at all." + +The woman seemed slightly scandalised. "Not Miss Vincent?" + +"Miss Vincent, sir?" + +"The young lady of my play, don't you know?" + +"Oh, sir, you mean Miss Violet Grey!" + +"No I don't, at all. I think I mean Mrs. Alsager." + +"There has been no Mrs. Alsager, sir." + +"Nor anybody at all like her?" + +The woman looked at him as if she wondered what had suddenly taken +him. Then she asked in an injured tone: "Why shouldn't I have told +you if you'd 'ad callers, sir?" + +"I thought you might have thought I was asleep." + +"Indeed you were, sir, when I came in with the lamp--and well you'd +earned it, Mr. Wayworth!" + +The landlady came back an hour later to bring him a telegram; it was +just as he had begun to dress to dine at his club and go down to the +theatre. + +"See me to-night in front, and don't come near me till it's over." + +It was in these words that Violet communicated her wishes for the +evening. He obeyed them to the letter; he watched her from the +depths of a box. He was in no position to say how she might have +struck him the night before, but what he saw during these charmed +hours filled him with admiration and gratitude. She WAS in it, this +time; she had pulled herself together, she had taken possession, she +was felicitous at every turn. Fresh from his revelation of Nona he +was in a position to judge, and as he judged he exulted. He was +thrilled and carried away, and he was moreover intensely curious to +know what had happened to her, by what unfathomable art she had +managed in a few hours to effect such a change of base. It was as if +SHE had had a revelation of Nona, so convincing a clearness had been +breathed upon the picture. He kept himself quiet in the entr'actes-- +he would speak to her only at the end; but before the play was half +over the manager burst into his box. + +"It's prodigious, what she's up to!" cried Mr. Loder, almost more +bewildered than gratified. "She has gone in for a new reading--a +blessed somersault in the air!" + +"Is it quite different?" Wayworth asked, sharing his mystification. + +"Different? Hyperion to a satyr! It's devilish good, my boy!" + +"It's devilish good," said Wayworth, "and it's in a different key +altogether from the key of her rehearsal." + +"I'll run you six months!" the manager declared; and he rushed round +again to the actress, leaving Wayworth with a sense that she had +already pulled him through. She had with the audience an immense +personal success. + +When he went behind, at the end, he had to wait for her; she only +showed herself when she was ready to leave the theatre. Her aunt had +been in her dressing-room with her, and the two ladies appeared +together. The girl passed him quickly, motioning him to say nothing +till they should have got out of the place. He saw that she was +immensely excited, lifted altogether above her common artistic level. +The old lady said to him: "You must come home to supper with us: it +has been all arranged." They had a brougham, with a little third +seat, and he got into it with them. It was a long time before the +actress would speak. She leaned back in her corner, giving no sign +but still heaving a little, like a subsiding sea, and with all her +triumph in the eyes that shone through the darkness. The old lady +was hushed to awe, or at least to discretion, and Wayworth was happy +enough to wait. He had really to wait till they had alighted at +Notting Hill, where the elder of his companions went to see that +supper had been attended to. + +"I was better--I was better," said Violet Grey, throwing off her +cloak in the little drawing-room. + +"You were perfection. You'll be like that every night, won't you?" + +She smiled at him. "Every night? There can scarcely be a miracle +every day." + +"What do you mean by a miracle?" + +"I've had a revelation." + +Wayward stared. "At what hour?" + +"The right hour--this afternoon. Just in time to save me--and to +save YOU." + +"At five o'clock? Do you mean you had a visit?" + +"She came to me--she stayed two hours." + +"Two hours? Nona Vincent?" + +"Mrs. Alsager." Violet Grey smiled more deeply. "It's the same +thing." + +"And how did Mrs. Alsager save you?" + +"By letting me look at her. By letting me hear her speak. By +letting me know her." + +"And what did she say to you?" + +"Kind things--encouraging, intelligent things." + +"Ah, the dear woman!" Wayworth cried. + +"You ought to like her--she likes YOU. She was just what I wanted," +the actress added. + +"Do you mean she talked to you about Nona?" + +"She said you thought she was like her. She IS--she's exquisite." + +"She's exquisite," Wayworth repeated. "Do you mean she tried to +coach you?" + +"Oh, no--she only said she would be so glad if it would help me to +see her. And I felt it did help me. I don't know what took place-- +she only sat there, and she held my hand and smiled at me, and she +had tact and grace, and she had goodness and beauty, and she soothed +my nerves and lighted up my imagination. Somehow she seemed to GIVE +it all to me. I took it--I took it. I kept her before me, I drank +her in. For the first time, in the whole study of the part, I had my +model--I could make my copy. All my courage came back to me, and +other things came that I hadn't felt before. She was different--she +was delightful; as I've said, she was a revelation. She kissed me +when she went away--and you may guess if I kissed HER. We were +awfully affectionate, but it's YOU she likes!" said Violet Grey. + +Wayworth had never been more interested in his life, and he had +rarely been more mystified. "Did she wear vague, clear-coloured +garments?" he asked, after a moment. + +Violet Grey stared, laughed, then bade him go in to supper. "YOU +know how she dresses!" + +He was very well pleased at supper, but he was silent and a little +solemn. He said he would go to see Mrs. Alsager the next day. He +did so, but he was told at her door that she had returned to Torquay. +She remained there all winter, all spring, and the next time he saw +her his play had run two hundred nights and he had married Violet +Grey. His plays sometimes succeed, but his wife is not in them now, +nor in any others. At these representations Mrs. Alsager continues +frequently to be present. + + + + + +End of The Project Gutenberg Etext of Nona Vincent, by Henry James + diff --git a/old/nonav10.zip b/old/nonav10.zip Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..401795e --- /dev/null +++ b/old/nonav10.zip |
