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diff --git a/26992-8.txt b/26992-8.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..ab179f6 --- /dev/null +++ b/26992-8.txt @@ -0,0 +1,16117 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of The Wind Before the Dawn, by Dell H. Munger + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: The Wind Before the Dawn + +Author: Dell H. Munger + +Release Date: October 22, 2008 [EBook #26992] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE WIND BEFORE THE DAWN *** + + + + +Produced by Roger Frank and the Online Distributed +Proofreading Team at http://www.pgdp.net + + + + + + + + + +THE WIND BEFORE THE DAWN + + + + +[Illustration: "THE GIRL ALSO KNELT AT HIS SIDE RENDERING SUCH +ASSISTANCE AS WAS IN HER POWER"] + + + + +THE WIND BEFORE THE DAWN + +BY DELL H. MUNGER + +A. L. BURT COMPANY +Publishers--New York + + + + +Copyright, 1912, by +Doubleday, Page & Company + +All rights reserved, including that of +translation into foreign languages, +including the Scandinavian + + + + +CONTENTS + +CHAPTER + + I Castles in Spain 3 + + II Brushing up to go to Topeka 43 + + III Reforms not easy to Discuss 74 + + IV A cultured man 92 + + V Reaching hungry hands toward a symbol 115 + + VI "Didn't take 'em long" 131 + + VII Erasing her blackboard 150 + + VIII Cyclones 174 + + IX "Against her instincts, against her better + judgment, against her will" 195 + + X Philosophy of Elizabeth's life voiced 210 + + XI "Wives, submit yourselves unto your + husbands, as unto the Lord" 224 + + XII "Pore little woman" 266 + + XIII "Ennobled by the reflected story of + another's goodness and love" 291 + + XIV Mortgages of soul 317 + + XV Hugh Noland 353 + + XVI Revivifying fires 356 + + XVII Adjusting domestic to social ideals 372 + + XVIII The child of her body 399 + + XIX "Her wages, food and clothing she + must accept" 419 + + XX The cream-jars of her life 426 + + XXI Bound to the stake 458 + + XXII "There are some things we have + to settle for ourselves" 467 + + XXIII "At any cost" 496 + + XXIV Facing consequences 506 + + XXV "The weight of a dollaree and out + of debt don't forget that" 534 + + XXVI "Was--was my papa here then?" 540 + + XXVII To do over, and to do better, + was the opportunity offered 548 + + XXVIII "Till death do you part" considered 562 + + + + +THE WIND BEFORE THE DAWN + + + + +CHAPTER I + +CASTLES IN SPAIN + + +The unclouded sun of a burning August day had driven bird and beast to +shelter wherever a bit of shade could be found. The Kansas prairie +afforded little refuge from sun or wind. The long stretches of low rolling +hills were mostly covered with short grass, now dry from a protracted +season of drought. Occasionally a group of stunted cottonwood trees +surrounded an equally stunted looking hut, or dugout, but the blazing +sunshine had browned all to a monotonous tone in keeping with the +monotonous life it represented. The only corn to be seen was of the +variety called sod-corn, which, unwashed by rain for a full month now, had +failed to mature, such stalks as had tasselled at all being as barren as +the rest because the tender silks had dried too rapidly and could furnish +no fertilizing moisture to the pollen which sifted down from the scanty +bloom above. + +The sun's rays beat down upon the head of a fourteen-year-old girl who +rode slowly around a herd of cattle, the members of which lay in the +unavailing shade of the rosin weeds or browsed drowsily on the short +grass. The day had been long and hard. The child knew that it was not +later than two o'clock, having counted the hours eagerly since early +morning, and having eaten her bit of cornbread and bacon full two hours +before. She stopped her horse for the fortieth time, however, to get the +angle of her shadow on the ground and to confirm her calculations. The +sigh she gave as she again started on her round was not of relief, but of +resignation. It was necessary to keep on the move or she was likely to +fall asleep in her saddle, and then the cattle would escape to the nearby +fields, and there would be a neighbourhood altercation over the matter, +whether the fields held crops of value or not, farmers being jealous of +their territorial rights, and ready to resent intrusion upon them. + +Another horseback rider was moving across the prairie toward her, and the +girl smiled when she saw him and stopped to watch his calico pony lope +unevenly across the grass-covered slope. The pony was prone to drop into a +rough trot at short intervals, and at such times was urged to renewed +efforts by a dig of its rider's heels in the under regions of its stunted +body. In order to get his heels in contact with his mount, the lanky boy +was obliged to elevate his knees slightly, and when it was over his feet +dropped languidly and his heavy plow-shoes dangled loosely, with several +inches of bare ankle in evidence before the faded overalls concealed +further stretches of the hairy legs. + +"Howdie, Lizzie!" he said with a pleasant smile as he drew his pony up +beside her. "I've got something to tell you. We've sold out, an' goin' +right off. Th' other folks moved in last night. They was goin' through +with a wagon an' stopped to eat. They found out that pap wanted to sell +an' go back to Minnesoty, an' took th' land quick. I've come to say +good-bye." + +It had been so exciting that he had tumbled his news all out at once, +although he was a quiet boy and slow of speech. + +"Oh, Luther! Are you really going away?" The girl exclaimed in dismay. + +"Yass," the boy replied, falling back unconsciously into Swedish +pronunciation. He had begun his announcement with pleased animation, but +now that it was out, and she was sorry, the going did not seem so +pleasing. "I wisht I wasn't!" he added with quick dejection. + +"I should think you'd be glad. I'd be glad, if I was going too." + +The boy looked surprised and asked with some curiosity, "What do you want +to go for? I thought you liked Kansas." + +"Put your hand on your horse's neck," she commanded, leaning forward and +setting the example. + +The boy did as she told him, but drew his hand back suddenly. + +"Gosh!" he exclaimed. "Don't their hair get hot in this sun!" + +"Well, I'm just as hot as that all over," she replied emphatically, "and I +want to go to a country where a body can get under a tree once in a while. +I can't go in till five o'clock, and I forgot my jug, and I'm so thirsty I +feel as if I'd crack like this ground," she said, pointing to the earth +between them. + +"Jimminy! I'll ride back and fetch you a drink," he said, poking his heels +into his pony's ribs so suddenly that the little beast kicked spitefully. + +The girl called after him to "never mind," but he was off on his errand. +It was a good mile to her home, but the boy knew what it meant to forget +the water-jug on a day like this. + +When he returned half an hour later the sunshine had changed character and +there was a peculiar dimming of its brilliancy. + +"Is it going to rain?" the girl asked as she lowered the jug to her knee. +She wiped her lips on the skirt of the faded sunbonnet she wore and looked +up again. + +"Rain!" Luther Hansen swept the horizon with the air of one who knew the +signs, backing his horse about to see on all sides as he did so. + +"Th' don't seem t' be any clouds," he said in surprise. "Ain't it queer! +Looks's if it might be some kind of eclipse," he said. "Do you +remember--no, of course you don't--but, th' was an eclipse of th' +sun--total, I believe they called it--when I was only about seven year +old. All th' chickens went to roost, it got so dark, an' when th' cover +come off they crowed's if 'twas mornin'. We had a blue hen an' she crowed +too. Pap killed 'er. He said it was bad luck t' have a hen crowin' about +th' place." + +"You all don't believe in luck, do you?" the child asked. + +"I don't, but pap does," the boy answered apologetically. "I cried about +th' blue hen; she was just like a dog; she'd let you ketch 'er, an' she'd +sing, 'co-ook, co-ook, co-ook,' to 'erself, right in your arms, an' wasn't +afraid. She wouldn't never set though. I guess that's why pap was so ready +with his axe." + +Happening to look up again, the girl gave an exclamation of surprise. "Is +it snow?" she asked. + +"No!" + +They sat with their faces turned skyward, studying the upper air intently. +The sun was completely obscured now and the rapidly moving mass, not +unlike snow indeed, was being driven straight toward the north. Whatever +it was, it was driving fiercely ahead, as if impelled by a strong wind, +though there was not a breath of air stirring below. Soon small objects +began to detach themselves from the mass, so that the eye could +distinguish separate particles, which looked not unlike scraps of silver +driven with terrific force from the tail end of some gigantic machine. One +of these scraps struck the girl on the cheek and she put her hand up +quickly to feel the spot. While examining the place she received a similar +blow on the forehead and another on the back of her hand. Drawing her +bonnet down tight over her face for protection, she shaded her eyes and +again looked up. The whole moving cloud had lowered to a distinguishable +distance. + +"Why, they're all grasshoppers!" she exclaimed; and indeed so true was the +observation and so rapidly were the grasshoppers settling that the boy and +girl were obliged to turn their backs and shield their faces from the +storm. + +The cattle also, annoyed by the myriads of insects settling upon them, +began to move about restlessly and presently to mill slowly around, +threshing with their heads from side to side while they whipped their +flanks with their tails. + +"I didn't know they came like this!" the girl said, as Luther's pony +sidled over toward her. + +"What'd you say?" the boy demanded, leaning forward to catch her reply. + +"I said I didn't know they came like this," the girl shouted, raising her +voice to make herself heard above the rasping noise of many wings. "Father +read out of the _Prairie Farmer_ last week that they was hatching out in +the south." + +The two drifted apart and circled about the herd again. The cattle were +growing more restless and began to move determinedly away from the +oncoming swarm. To keep them in the centre of the section, and away from +the cornfields, the girl whipped her horse into a gallop. + +Without paying the slightest attention to either her voice or her whip, +half blinded in fact by the cutting wings of the grasshoppers, the +irritated cattle began to move faster and, before either boy or girl knew +what was happening, were in full trot toward the north. Seeing that the +matter was becoming serious, Luther lent all the aid of which he was +capable and circled about the herd, shouting with all his strength, but +the cattle, contending against countless numbers of smaller things and +unable to look steadily in any direction because of the little wings which +cut like the blades of many saws, stumbled blindly against his horse if he +got in their way, and, shifting around him, went on. + +The girl was beside herself with trouble and anxiety. Lashing her horse +one minute, and the nearest cow the next, she raged up and down in front +of the herd, bending all her energies toward deflecting her charges from +their course, but the struggle was useless. + +Seeing that they could do nothing, Luther caught her horse by the bit as +she passed him and shouted explanations in her ear. + +"Let 'em go, Lizzie! You can't stop 'em! I'll have t' come with you! We'll +just follow 'em up!" + +"But they're going to get into that field right off if we don't get them +turned!" the girl cried in distress, pulling down her long scoop-like +bonnet and holding it together to keep the grasshoppers out of her face +while they talked. + +The cattle now broke into a run. There was nothing to do but follow, as +Luther had advised. But the exasperated beasts were not looking for fodder +and paid no attention to the corn. They were not out on a picnicking +expedition; they were escaping from this tormenting swarm of insects which +settled on itching back and horns and tail, settled anywhere that a +sufficiently broad surface presented itself. Having started to run, they +ran on and on and on. The boy and girl followed, their horses stumbling +blindly over the ridges between which the corn was growing. The grayish +brown sod, through which the matted white roots of the grass showed +plainly, lay in fine lines down the long field, their irregular edges +causing horses and cattle to go down on their knees frequently as they +ran. But though the cattle sometimes fell, they were as quickly up and +pushed blindly ahead, neither knowing nor caring where they were going, +their only instinct being to get away. + +Not a breath of air was in motion except such as was stirred by the wings +of the grasshoppers or was blown from the hot nostrils of the harassed +cattle. They passed through the cornfield, over a stubblefield beyond, +through a slough, another stubblefield, and on to the open prairie of +another section of "Railroad land." The boy and girl made no further +attempt to guide them. A cow, with the tickling feet of half a dozen of +these devils of torment on the end of a bare, wet nose, was in no state of +mind to be argued with, and the tossing horns, threshing about to free the +head from the pests, were to be taken into sober account. All they could +do was to let the maddened beasts take their own course. + +For an hour, helpless to prevent the stampede, desiring nothing now but to +keep the cattle in sight, the weary, sunbaked children trudged along in +the rear of the herd, following through fields cut and uncut, over the +short grass of the hills or the long bluestem of the hollows, their horses +sweating profusely, their own faces too parched to emit moisture, +conscious only of the business of following the panting herd and of +avoiding the pitfalls under their horses' feet. + +At last the cattle came to a walk. The heat of the day and the unusual +exertion had told upon them. Occasionally a tongue lolled from the mouth +of some wearied beast, but it was not permitted even that respite for +long; the grasshoppers respected no part of the bovine anatomy, and with +an angry snort and an annoyed toss of the head the tongue would be +withdrawn. + +The perspiring cattle seemed so fatigued that the despairing children +thought at last that they might be turned toward home, but though whips +and voices were used to the utmost the nettled beasts could not be made to +face the stinging devils which settled thicker and ever thicker about +them. They came down to a walk, but they walked doggedly toward the north. +At last the sun's rays began to peep through. The air soon cleared, and +the scorched and burning children began to wish for even a cloud of +grasshoppers to protect them from the heat. Wherever the light fell it +disclosed moving masses of locusts which covered the entire face of the +landscape. The teeming cloud of insects was a pest equal to that of the +lice of Egypt. They overflowed the Kansas prairies like the lava from +Mount Vesuvius, burying vegetation and causing every living thing to flee +from their path. + +At last the storm spent itself. The sun came out clear, and as hot as +molten brass. The cattle could hold out no longer. The swarms which flew +up in front of their moving feet were as unbearable as any that had come +from above. The exhausted beasts gave up and permitted themselves to be +headed toward home. + +"I began to think they wouldn't stop till they had reached the State +line," the girl said with a relieved sigh, when they were safely started +down the first road they came upon after turning south again. + +Luther made no reply. He had stopped the pony and was watching the inroads +of numberless scissor-like mouths on a stub of corn near the roadside. The +tassel was gone, the edges of the leaves were eaten away, and lines of +hungry insects hung to the centre rib of each blade, gnawing and cutting +at every inch of the stem. + +"Th' won't be a cornstalk left standin' by night," Luther observed as the +girl rode up to see what it was that attracted his attention. "Crackie! +but I'm glad pap's sold out. It'd be no shoes for me this winter if we +didn't get away," he added, spitefully brushing a grasshopper from the end +of his nose and rubbing the injured member. + +The girl's face fell at the mention of hard times. Times were always hard +in the Farnshaw home, but she could never get accustomed to them, and each +new phase of the trouble was a blow. The sensitive child already carried a +load of financial worry which was tugging at every pleasure her young life +craved. + +"Won't we have any corn at all?" she cried in dismay. + +"I don't know," Luther answered dubiously. "It'll be starvin' times about +here. You better get your folks t' sell out and go East too," he said, +without looking up. + +The child's fear of financial disaster was eased by the prospect of "goin' +East." The "East" was the fairyland of her dreams, the childhood's home of +her father, who was a good story-teller when he was not irritated, the +Mecca and Medina of all the pilgrimages of all their little world. To go +East was to be a travelled person, to attain distinction, just the next +best thing in fact to being made President of the United States. To go +East was to live near the timber, where one could wander for hours, days, +ages, in the cool freshness of its shady paths. The sunburned child, with +her jug hanging by a strap from the saddle horn, had a swift, rapturous +vision of alluring, mossy banks, canopied by rustling leaves, before she +was called back to the stern hills of her native Kansas and the sterner +necessity of forcing a hundred head of maddened cattle to keep within the +confines of an illy defined road. + +By the time they had ridden ahead and crowded the cattle down to the right +of way again, the child's natural good sense and business instincts had +combined to temporarily shatter the dream. + +"Nobody 'd buy us out if there ain't nothing to feed the cattle," she +said, watching the boy's face eagerly in the hope that he would reassure +her. + +When he did not speak, she added, with discouraged conviction, "Pa +wouldn't sell out anyhow; ma's been trying to get him to for a year." + +"He'll have to. You won't be able t' stay if there's nothin' t' feed," the +lad said with emphasis, and then added with a giggle, "I bet th' Cranes is +mad for bein' in such a hurry t' get in. They paid pap th' money last +night, an' made 'im promise t' give possession 'fore t'morrow night. Three +hundred dollars! Th' old woman took it out of 'er stockin'." + +"Three hundred dollars!" Lizzie Farnshaw repeated, whirling her horse +about suddenly at the mention of a sum of money which ran into hundreds. +She looked at the boy enviously. She was but fourteen, and did not realize +that more than three hundred acres of fertile land had been exchanged for +the sum. Her spirits rose as they turned to follow the cattle again. +Perhaps, as Luther had said, they would have to sell out also. The dream +of going East absorbed her once more. As she dreamed, however, a shrewd +eye was kept on the cattle. As nearly as possible she lived up to the +trust reposed in her. Quick to serve, sensitive, honest, dependable as she +was, these cattle constituted the point of contact between the developing +girl and her developing philosophy of life. Duty pointed sternly to the +undesired task, and duty was writ large on the pages of Lizzie Farnshaw's +monotonous life. Her hands and face had browned thickly at its bidding, +but though, as she had remarked a couple of hours before, she should crack +like the sunbaked earth beneath her feet, she would not fail in her +obligation to keep the cattle out of other men's fields, and her father +out of the primitive courts where damages could be assessed. Poverty she +had always known, but now they were threatened with a new and more +dreadful form of it than any hitherto encountered, a fact of which courts +took no cognizance. Hope and fear alternated in her heart as she rode +along, but for the most part the young life in her clung to the idea of +the Eastern trip. Hope springs eternal in the child heart. Perhaps after +all they would have to leave Kansas, as Luther had said. If only----. In +spite of the arguments of good sense she clung to the idea. She was glad +Luther was there. In her simple way she had told her plans, her hopes, and +her fears to Luther's willing ears ever since she had known him: she did +so now. A Maggie Tulliver in her own family, Luther was the one +compensating feature of her life. Luther not only understood but was +interested. His tallow-candle face and faded hair were those of the--in +that country--much despised Swede, but the child saw the gentle spirit +shining out of his kindly blue eyes. Luther was her oracle, and she quoted +his words so often at home that it was a family joke. + +Luther Hansen was the only preacher to whom Lizzie Farnshaw ever listened. +Her Sundays had been spent on the prairies from choice. Mrs. Farnshaw +mourned over what she considered her daughter's unregenerate condition, +but Mr. Farnshaw was quite willing that the child should herd the cattle +if she preferred it to spending an hour at "meetin'." Luther, who also +until this year had herded his father's cattle and who usually spent the +long days with the girl, had quaint ways of looking at religious questions +which was a never-ending source of delight and interest to her. Their +problems at home as well as at school were subjects of common discussion. +He had been the beginning and the end of her social life. Now she took him +into her dream of going away, and discussed her ideas of the best way of +disposing of the stock by sale or gift, the sort of home she would have +with her grandparents, and pictured, with a vivid imagination, the woods +and streams she had heard her father describe. If she only could go! They +stopped at every field to watch the voracious insects, which were eating +every green thing upon which they happened to alight. A turnip patch on +the corner of the Farnshaw place which had been straggling, but green, +when the cattle had passed through it that afternoon, had not a leaf to +show as they returned. The ground was dotted all over the patch with small +holes where the hungry swarms, not satisfied with the tops, had followed +the stems down into the earth, eating out the bulbs to the very taproots. + +They drove the cattle across to the usual feeding place, but the +grasshoppers flew up in continuous clouds before every moving object, and +it was impossible for them to eat. + +"Why don't you take them in and shut them up?" Luther asked when he saw +that the herd was so restless that the child could not manage them alone. + +"Pa wouldn't let me," she sighed, and continued to ride around her +charges. + +Luther had intended going home long before this, but he knew that Lizzie +could not control the restless cattle, and so he stayed with her, rather +glad of the excuse to do so. Josiah Farnshaw's temper was a matter of +neighbourhood knowledge. A word of explanation to his father, Luther knew, +would be all that he would need to make the fact of his absence +commendable. He was glad of any excuse which would leave him with Lizzie +Farnshaw for an extra hour, but he was to find that hour disappointing, +for the cattle were restless and kept them both in constant motion. + +When at last the time came to corral the stock a new calamity was +discovered. The cattle wandered into the edge of a field of flax as they +neared the barn. Luther, following them, dropped from the back of his pony +and stopped to examine the grain. The girl was excitedly getting the +straying animals crowded on toward the pens and it was not till she had +the gate shut fast on them that she could take time to join him. + +"What is it?" she asked as she rode up. + +The lanky boy, who was really a man, measured the field slowly with his +eye, calculating the damage before he answered slowly: + +"Kicked it out o' th' pods flyin' through. Must 'a' been twenty acres. +What made you let it get s' ripe for? It ought t' been cut three days ago, +anyhow." + +The girl was out of her saddle in an instant. She walked into the body of +the field somewhat, her face quivering pitifully as she examined the grain +for herself. It was only too true! The beautiful brown seeds carpeted the +earth around the roots of the flax, but no amount of harvesting would ever +gather so much as a handful. The crop was a total loss. + +"Poor ma!" she cried, when convinced beyond a doubt of the empty bolls. +With the eyes of the prematurely old, she saw the extent of the ruin, and +she knew what would be its effect upon the mother who seldom knew joy. + +The loss of the turnips had seemed bad enough, but while watching the +green things about her disappear it had not occurred to the child that the +grasshoppers would eat the dry and, as Luther had said, overripe stems of +the flax. Still less had it occurred to her that the insignificant wings +and feet of such small things could do damage to an entire field by merely +flying through it. + +That flax was of paramount importance in the family calculations just now. +In her considerations of the prospective move to the East, the price of +this flax had figured largely. Family discussions had centred about that +field for weeks. It was the one definite starting point in the bickerings +about their weak and indefinite plans for the future. The loss of every +other family asset could not have undone the child's faith in the ultimate +good of things so overwhelmingly. She choked back a sob as she mounted her +horse again. + +"Poor ma!" she repeated. "Pa told her she could have the money from the +flax to go and see grandma on. You know grandma's old, and they think she +can't live through the winter. That's one reason why I was so glad when I +thought we were going to have to go East to live. She don't hardly know +her own children any more, I hope ma don't know about the flax; She'll be +sure to have one of her spells, and she's just got over one. Ain't it +awful?" + +Luther feared she was going to cry, and, man fashion, prepared to flee. + +"I've got t' go, Lizzie," he said, and awkwardly held out his hand. + +All thought of the flax disappeared from the girl's mind. + +"Oh, Luther!" she exclaimed in new distress, "won't I ever see you +again?" + +The thought was so overwhelming that her tears came now from quite a +different cause, and the frank eyes threatened to overflow as she stood +clasping his bony hand in hers insistently. "What will I do without you?" +she sobbed. + +The unexpected question and the unexpected tears had an uncomfortable +effect on the boy. He grew suddenly embarrassed and drew his hand away. + +Some indefinable thing about the action made her conscious that there was +a change in his feelings. It checked her rising emotions and made her +curious. What was he embarrassed about? The girl stole a look at him, +which left him still more disturbed and uneasy. It was an intangible thing +upon which she could not remark and yet could not fail to recognize. +Luther had never been awkward in her presence before. Their association +had been of the most offhand and informal character. As a boy of fifteen +he had carried her, a girl of eleven, over many a snowbank their first +winter of school in the Prairie Home school district. They had herded +cattle together, waded the shallow ponds and hunted for mussel shells, and +until this year they had seen each other daily. This year Luther had taken +a man's place in the fields and the girl had seen him at rare intervals. +She was not conscious of the change which this year of dawning adolescence +had brought to them both. Luther had developed a growing need of a razor +on his thin, yellow face, while she, four years younger, had also matured. +The outgrown calico dress she wore was now halfway to her knees, its +sleeves exposed some inches of sunburned wrists, and the scanty waist +disclosed a rapidly rounding form. Young womanhood was upon her, unknown +to her, and but now discovered by Luther Hansen. For the first time Luther +felt the hesitancy of a youth in the presence of a maid. + +"I shall miss you _so!_" the girl said, looking at him, puzzled by the +indefinable something in his manner which was a new element in their +communications. + +Her frank curiosity put the boy utterly to rout. The blood surged to his +pale face and pounded in the veins under his ears, half choking him; it +cut short the leave-taking and left the child bewildered and half hurt. + +She watched the calico pony lope away in a cloud of scurrying grasshoppers +and wondered in a child-like way what could have happened. This abrupt and +confused departure increased the loneliness she felt. He was her one real +friend, and her tears came again as she turned toward the house. + +There was little time given the child to indulge her feelings, or to +speculate upon a friend's confusion or adieus, for a sharp voice summoned +her to the house and fresh duties. + +"When I call you I want you to step spry," was the greeting the child +received from the stooped figure putting the potatoes over the fire to +fry, as she entered the door. + +Mrs. Farnshaw had her head tied up in a white cloth; "the spell" had +arrived. It was no time to tell of the loss of the flax, and Luther's +going was not mentioned, because Mrs. Farnshaw shared the public contempt +for his nationality and had failed to get her daughter's confidence in +that quarter. + +"Here, set this table for me; I'm clear done out. Did you ever hear of +such a crazy thing as all them hoppers comin' down like bees? Your pa's +gone over to Hansen's t' see what he thinks. Looks 's if we'd be harder up +'n ever, an' I thought I'd done 'bout all th' savin' a woman could do +a'ready. I'm goin' t' get right off t' mother's soon's ever we can sell +that flax. If I don't, we'll be havin' t' use th' money for feed." + +Her daughter made no reply. It was no time, when her mother was having one +of her periodical sick-headaches, to let it be known that there was no +flax to sell. That flax had been one long series of troublesome worries, +to which the total loss was a fittingly tragic end. The restless +grasshoppers outside were forgotten. + +Some weeks before, Mr. Farnshaw had given a grudging consent to the use of +the proceeds from the flax crop for a trip' to his wife's old home while +her mother yet lived. Josiah Farnshaw's temper was an uncertain quantity. +Had Mrs. Farnshaw been wise she would have dropped all reference to the +flax when the promise was obtained. But Mrs. Farnshaw had to talk; it was +her fate. She had hovered about the field, she had centred her faculties +on the considerations of harvesting, and prices. She laboriously and +obviously collected eggs, skimped the family on its supply of butter, and +had counted her chickens to see how many she could sacrifice for the +purchase of "a decent bit of black." + +As she sewed upon the premature emblems of her coming woe, she had +discussed the desirability of threshing out of the shock instead of +waiting for the stack to go through the sweating process; she talked, +talked, talked, with an endless clacking, till her husband fled from her +presence or cut her short with an oath. He wished he had never planted +flax, he wished he had never heard of it, he wished--he hardly knew what +he did wish, but he was sick of flax. + +Crops of all sorts were shortened by continued drought; corn would be an +utter failure. He had given notes for a new harvester and other machinery +while the prospects for crops were good, and the knowledge that implement +dealers would collect those notes whether the yield of grain was equal to +their demands or not tightened the set lines about his naturally stern +mouth and irritated a temper never good at the best. Daily he became more +obstinate and unapproachable. + +Josiah Farnshaw was not only obstinate, he was surly. Nothing could induce +him to show any interest in the flax field after he found that his wife +was looking out for its advantages. If she suggested that they go to +examine it, he was instantly busy. If she asked when he intended to begin +the cutting, he was elaborately indifferent and replied, "When its ripe; +there's plenty of time." When at last the field showed a decided tendency +to brown, he helped a neighbour instead of beginning on Friday, as his +wife urged. Saturday he found something wrong with the binder. By Saturday +night he began to see that the grain was ripening fast. He was warned and +was ready to actually start the machine early the next day. His grizzled +face concealed the grin it harboured at the idea of running the harvester +on Sunday; he knew Mrs. Farnshaw's scruples. The flax had ripened, almost +overnight, because of the extreme heat. Torn with anxiety and the certain +knowledge that haste was necessary, Mrs. Farnshaw quoted scripture and +hesitated. Her husband, who had delayed in all possible ways up to this +time, and had refused to listen to her advice, became suddenly anxious to +do "that cuttin'." Now that his wife hesitated from principle, he was +intensely anxious to move contrary to her scruples. + +The knowledge that her husband was enjoying her indecision, and that he +was grimly thinking that her religious scruples would not stand the test, +made her even less able to decide a question than usual. + +The game was getting exciting and he let her argue, urging with pretended +indifference that, "That flax's dead ripe now an' if it shatters out on +th' ground you kin blame yourself," adding with grim humour, "There's +nothin' like th' sound of money t' bring folks t' their senses. It's good +as a pinch of pepper under th' nose of a bulldog." + +There was everything to point that way, but a woman and a mother must +vindicate her claims to religion, and Mrs. Farnshaw refused to give her +consent to the Sunday harvesting. + +Torn between her desire to save every grain of the precious crop and the +fear of a hell that burned with fire and brimstone, her husband's scorn +did what neither had been able to do. Mrs. Farnshaw forbade the machine +being taken to the field, and then cried herself into a headache. + +"Do as you please; it's your lookout, but I tell you It'll be a sick +lookin' field by to-morrow mornin'," was Mr. Farnshaw's final shot. + +When her decision was finally reached, Mr. Farnshaw became alarmed. He +knew he had let the flax go too long uncut. He had half believed in the +reasons he had given for delay up to this point, but suddenly realizing +that the overripe grain would suffer great loss if left another day in the +hot sun, he reasoned with real earnestness that it must be cut if it were +to be saved. His wife, thoroughly convinced that he was still tormenting +her and that he would never let her hear the last of the matter if she +gave up, closed her lips down firmly and declined to allow it to be done. + +All this the child had heard argued out that morning. It was a cruel +position in which to place one of her years. Part of it she had +comprehended, part had escaped her, but she was sensitive to the +atmosphere of suffering. The details of past elements in the tragedy she +could not be expected to understand. The stunted, barren life of her +mother was but half guessed. What child could know of the heartsick +longing for affection and a but little understood freedom, the daily +coercion, the refusal of her husband to speak kindly or to meet her eye +with a smile? + +The sorely puzzled and bewildered woman thought affection was withheld +from her because of something done or undone, and strove blindly to +achieve it by acts, not knowing that acts have little, if anything, to do +with affection. She strove daily to win love, not knowing that love is a +thing outside the power to win or bestow. Had she had understanding she +would have spared the child with whom she worked; instead, she talked on +with her dreary whine, morbidly seeking a sympathy of which she did not +know how to avail herself when it was so plainly hers. + +With a lump in her throat of which the mother did not even suspect, Lizzie +Farnshaw set the table, cut the bread, brought the water, "put up the +chairs," and, when her father came from the stable, slipped out to where +he was washing for supper and whispered about the flax, asking him not to +mention it while her mother was suffering with the headache. + +The news was not news to Josiah Farnshaw, who had examined the field +anxiously as he had returned from Hansen's. Sobered by the loss, he was +less disagreeable than usual and only pushed his daughter out of his way +as he reached around her for the sun-cracked bar of yellow laundry soap +with which to wash his hands. Thankful to have the unpleasant but +important matter, as she thought, safely attended to, the child returned +to help lift the meal to the bare kitchen table. + +The illy lighted room, with its one small window, was dim and dismal in +the dusk of evening. In spite of the added heat it would produce, the +child decided that a light was necessary. + +After the kerosene lamp was lighted, she turned to see if her mother +needed her help again. The crooked blaze ran up unexpectedly and blacked +the cracked chimney on one side with a soot so thick that one half of the +room was soon in semi-darkness. Mrs. Farnshaw took it fretfully in hand. + +"Why can't you trim it when you see it runnin' up that way?" she demanded +querulously, poking at the lopsided and deeply charred wick with a sliver +obtained from the side of the wood-box. + +Her ministrations were not very successful, however, for when the chimney +was replaced it ran up on the other side, and in the end her daughter had +to prosecute a search for the scissors and cut the wick properly. As they +worked over the ill-smelling light, Albert, the youngest of the three +children of the household, burst into the kitchen crying excitedly: + +"Ma, did you know that th' flax was all whipped out of th' pods on to the +ground?" + +Mrs. Farnshaw, who had received the lamp from her daughter's hand, let it +fall on the edge of an upturned plate in her excitement, and then, seeing +what she had done, fumbled blindly in a terrified effort to right it +before it should go over. The cracked chimney fell from its moorings, and, +striking a teacup, spattered broken glass over the table like hailstones. +The entire family scrambled to save the lamp itself from a similar fate +and were plunged into darkness by the girl blowing out its flame to save +an explosion. + +The excitement of the moment served, temporarily, to lessen the blow of +Albert's announcement, but by the time "a dip" had been constructed the +full weight of the disaster had fallen upon the defeated and despairing +woman, and to protect her from the taunts of the head of the house, Lizzie +induced her to go to bed, where she sobbed throughout the night. + +The next day was hot and windy. The grasshoppers, unable to fly in a +strong wind, clung to the weeds, to the dry grass, the stripped branches +of the half-grown trees, to the cattle and hogs upon which they happened +to alight, and even to people themselves, unless brushed off. + +Lizzie took the cattle out to the usual grazing ground, but there was no +Luther to help, and the grasshoppers made the lives of the restless +animals so unendurable that in real alarm, lest they run away again, she +took them home, preferring her father's wrath to the experience of getting +them back if they should get beyond her control. Fortune favoured her. +Unable to endure the demonstrations of grief at home, her father had taken +himself to a distant neighbour's to discuss the "plague of locusts." + +The wind blew a gale throughout the day, sweeping remorselessly over the +unobstructed hillsides. Unable to fly, the helpless insects hugged the +earth while the gale tore over the Kansas prairies with a fearful +velocity. With feminine instinct, every female grasshopper burrowed into +the dry earth, making a hole which would receive almost her entire body +back of her wings and legs. The spring sod, half rotted and loosened from +the grass roots, furnished the best lodgment. In each hole, as deep down +as her body could reach, her pouch of eggs was deposited. + +No attempt was made to cover the hole, and by night the sod presented a +honeycombed appearance never before seen by the oldest settlers. Having +performed nature's functions, and provided for the propagation of their +kind, the lately fecund grasshoppers were hungry when the act was over. +Not a spear of anything green was left. The travel-worn horde had devoured +everything in sight the day before. Evening closed in upon a restless and +excited swarm of starving insects, but they were unable to fly at night or +while the wind was blowing. + +It was necessary to find food; hunger's pangs may not be suffered long by +creatures whose active life is numbered in weeks. The high wind had cooled +the air and made the locusts stupid and sleepy, but when the next morning +the wind had fallen, and the sun had warmed their bodies, as fast as they +were able all were on the wing, headed for the north. The air was calm, +and by ten o'clock they were away in swarms, leaving ruin and desolation +to show that they had sojourned in the land. + +The situation was truly desperate. Cattle, horses, and hogs were without +food of any sort. Many families were new to the country and had depended +upon sod-corn for the winter's supply of provender for both man and beast. +Mr. Farnshaw, being one of the older residents, had grown a crop of wheat, +so that his bread was assured; but the herd of cattle which had been his +delight was now a terrorizing burden. Cattle and horses could not live on +wheat, and there was no hay because of the dry weather. What was to be +done? + +That night the neighbours held a consultation at the Farnshaw house, where +grizzled and despairing men discussed the advisability of "goin' East," +and ways and means of getting there. The verdict was strongly in favour of +going. + +Mrs. Farnshaw brightened. Perhaps, after all, she would get away from +these wind-blown prairies, where no shade offered its protecting presence +against a sun which took life and spirits out of the pluckiest of them. +Even more childish than the daughter at her side, Mrs. Farnshaw clapped +her hands with joy as she leaned forward expectantly to address her new +neighbour. + +"If I can only get t' my mother's, I won't care for nothin' after that. My +heart goes out t' Mrs. Crane. Think of all that good money goin' t' them +Swedes! You just better pocket your loss an' get away while you can." + +"You're goin' too, then, Farnshaw?" the new neighbour asked. + +All eyes turned upon Mr. Farnshaw, who had not as yet expressed himself on +either side. These neighbours had asked to assemble in his house because +his kitchen afforded more room than any other house in the vicinity, the +kitchen being a large room with no beds in it to take up floor space. + +Mrs. Farnshaw realized as soon as the question was asked that her joy had +been premature. + +Josiah Farnshaw sat with his chair tilted back on two legs against the +wall, snapping the blade of his pocket knife back and forth as he +considered what he was going to say in reply. He felt all eyes turned in +his direction and quite enjoyed the suspense. Mr. Farnshaw was an artist +in calculating the suspense of others. He gave them plenty of time to get +their perspective before he replied. At last he shut the blade of the +knife down ostentatiously, replaced it in his trousers' pocket, and +announced slowly: + +"Well, sir, as for me and mine, I think we'll stay right here." + +Mrs. Farnshaw gave a despairing, "Oh!" and covered her face with her hands +to strangle back her tears. Her one hope had been that poverty would +accomplish what the flax had failed to do. + +"Why--I thought you said there'd be nothin' t' feed an' you'd have t'," +said a man whose shaggy whiskers had not seen a comb that year. "What'll +you do? You can't see things starve!" + +"I thought you was strong for goin'. What'll you do with all your stock?" +another said, and all bent forward and waited for his answer as if he +could find a way out of the tangle for them. + +"That's just it." Again he paused, enjoying the suspense that his silence +created. Mr. Farnshaw was not popular, but he had more stock than all his +simple neighbours put together and was conscious that money, or its +equivalent, had weight. "That's just it," he repeated to add emphasis to +his opinion. "What is a man to do? You folks that have nothin' but your +teams an' wagons can load th' family in an' get away. How'd I feel 'bout +th' time that I got t' th' Missouri River if I knowed all them hogs an' +cattle was layin' around here too weak t' get up cause they hadn't been +fed?" + +He dropped his argument into the midst of them and then sat back and +enjoyed its effect. He had intended to go till ten minutes previous. The +argument sounded good to him now, however. It put him on a higher basis +with himself, in spite of the fact that it had only popped into his head +while he was clicking his knife blade. He conceived a new liking for +himself. "No, sir," he continued; "I'll stay by it." + +"I don't see as your stayin' helps anything if you ain't got nothin' t' +feed," was the reiterated objection. + +"Well," Mr. Farnshaw replied, careful not to look in his wife's direction, +"I was for goin' at first, but I've listened t' you folks an' I've come t' +th' conclusion that you ain't goin' t' better yourselves any. If you go +East, You'll have t' come back here in th' spring, or live on day's work +there--an'--an' I'll take my chances right here. It's a long lane that has +no turn. Grasshoppers can't stay always." + +"What'll you do if all them eggs hatch out an' eat th' crops in th' +spring?" the new neighbour asked, determined to look on all sides of the +question before he decided to give up his recently purchased farm, and +glad of this opportunity to get the opinions of his fellow sufferers on +that particular phase of his unexpected calamity. "What'll you do with all +that bunch of cattle, anyhow?" he added. + +"I'll share what I've got with th' stuff, an' if part of it dies I'll drag +it out on th' hill t' rot; th' rest I'll stay by," was the stubborn reply. +"As for them eggs a-hatchin', they'll be good ones if they can stand a +Kansas winter; they'll do a blamed sight better'n any eggs Mrs. Farnshaw +gethers in. They'd better go south." + +This raised a laugh. The grim humour of anything, that could get away, +spending a winter in Kansas, appealed to these grizzly pioneers, who +struggled with the question of fuel in a country where there was little +natural timber, and coal must be paid for before it was burned. But all +their arguments would not turn him from his course. + +"Your wife's turrible set on goin', Farnshaw," one of the men said to him +as they went to the stable for their horses when the meeting broke up. + +"Women's always wantin' things," was the indifferent reply. "Say, you've +got a stack of wheat straw. What'll you take for it?" + +In the house the sympathetic daughter helped her mother prepare for bed. + +"I thought sure to-night we'd get to go," the child said. "If you could +get back East you might get to stay; and then you wouldn't have to cry so +much," she added as she picked up the abandoned clothing her mother had +left lying on the floor. + +Mrs. Farnshaw, who was turning the same matter over disconsolately as she +sat on the side of the bed, shook her head with the bitter certainty that +her fate would pursue her, and replied hopelessly: + +"It wouldn't make no difference, I guess, Lizzie. He'd be there, an' it'd +be just the same." + +And the girl, who was naturally reflective, carried with her to the loft +overhead that night a new idea: that it was not the place, but the manner +in which lives were lived, which mattered. + +The preparations for the coming of that winter were the strangest ever +witnessed in a farming community. Never had any man known fuel to be so +scarce. Cornstalks, which were usually staple articles for fuel in that +country, had been eaten almost to the very ground, but the stubs were +gathered, the dirt shaken from them, and they were then carted to the +house. Rosin weeds were collected and piled in heaps. The dried dung of +cattle, scattered over the grazing lands, and called "buffalo chips," was +stored in long ricks, also, and used sparingly, for even this simple fuel +was so scarce as to necessitate care in its use. + +To keep out the driving winds, the houses were banked with sods and earth +halfway to the roofs. With so little material for keeping warm, and that +of the lightest variety, it was necessary to make the living quarters +impervious to the never-ceasing winds which tore at the thin walls of the +unprotected houses that sheltered such folk as were hardy enough to +remain. + +It was impossible to build sheds for all the stock, so the hogs were +allowed to swarm under the feet of the horses tied in the straw stable, +and many and sad were the accidents to the smaller animals. It was soon +clear that not many of them could be carried through till the spring. +Seeing that they lost weight rapidly, as many as were full grown were +killed and their flabby carcasses salted away to be eaten. + +Fortunately, the grasshoppers had not arrived in Kansas till after the +small grain had been nearly all cut, so that there was considerable oat +and wheat straw in the country. Mr. Farnshaw bargained for every straw +stack he could find, but straw was a poor substitute for the corn and hay +to which the cattle were accustomed, and as the weeks lengthened into +months, and winter closed in, the unprotected cattle grew thinner and ever +thinner. Corn was quoted in the markets at a dollar a bushel, but in fact +was not to be had at any price. Iowa had had a drought, and Illinois was +the nearest base of supplies, and as it was generally known that there was +no money west of the Missouri River, no grain was sent to Kansas. + +Finding that the horses did not thrive on the straw alone, and knowing +that wheat would very quickly kill them, Mr. Farnshaw put away a +sufficient amount of oats for seed and then carefully portioned out the +rest to be fed to four of his best broodmares, hoping to be able to put in +the spring crops with them as well as to save the coming colts of two. The +rest, he decided, must take their chances on getting through the winter +alive. + +The family food consisted largely of bread and the slabs of thin meat, +with a sort of coffee made from browned rye. As a "company dish" there was +a scanty supply of sweet corn, dried before the drought had cut the crop +short. There were no eggs, because the chickens had sickened from eating +grasshoppers in the fall and nearly all had died. The few hens which +remained clung to the limbs of the half-grown cottonwood trees throughout +the long winter nights, and found barely food enough during the day to +keep life in their fuzzy bodies, which could not even furnish the oil +necessary to lay their feathers smooth, much less foster the growth of +eggs. + +Josiah Farnshaw secretly questioned the propriety of having remained in +that desolate territory when, as spring approached, the shrunken cows died +one after another in giving birth to the calves which had matured in their +slowly perishing bodies, but he made no sign or admission of the fact. + +It was a season of gloom such as our frontier states had never known, and +to add to the general depression there was a growing conviction that the +hatching of the grasshoppers' eggs when warm weather came would complete +the famine. + +To support his action in refusing to go East, Josiah Farnshaw asserted +stubbornly that the frost of their hard winter would certainly kill the +larvae of the locusts. So persistent was his attitude that at short +intervals throughout the entire winter rumours that "th' hopper eggs is +dead 's doornails" stirred the community and set its members to making +tests in a vain endeavour to establish their truth. Pieces of earth, +honeycombed with the tiny nests, would be placed near the fire and kept at +as regular a degree of warmth as possible, the condition of the eggs would +be noted carefully, and in a short time the hopes of the anxious pioneers +would be dashed to the ground by wriggling little insects climbing +cheerfully out of their winter quarters and hopping about in a vain search +for something green to live upon. Often, in sheer desperation, the +harassed settler would sweep the hatching brood into the fire, remarking +as he did so, "Burnin's too good for such pests," and always fear gripped +the heart. If the crops in spring were eaten, other homes must be sought, +and all knew that the weakened horses were unfit for travel. In fact, no +team in that entire country was fit to travel far or fast, except the two +which Mr. Farnshaw groomed and fed so carefully for the sake of the spring +work and the much desired colts. + +The depression and worries of the Farnshaw home increased the spirit of +contention and distrust of its guardians. The husband daily grew surlier +and more unpleasant and the wife more lachrymose and subject to "spells." +The children learned to avoid the presence of either parent as much as +possible, and to look outside the home for the joy childhood demands. The +chores were heavy and difficult, but could at least be performed in the +open light of God's great out-of-doors, where the imagination could people +the world with pleasant features and pleasant prospects. + +The cattle were driven daily to the ponds, half a mile away, for water, +and if the ice was thick and the axe-handle benumbing to the mittened +hands as they chopped the holes for the tottering animals to drink from, +there was the prospect of a slide on the uncut portions of the ice later; +and as the plucky youngsters followed the cattle home they dreamed of +skates to be obtained in the dim future, and tried to run fast enough to +keep warm. The blessing of childhood is that it cannot be cheated of its +visions, and the blood of adolescence was coursing riotously through the +veins of the daughter of the Farnshaw house. If her hands were cold when +she returned to the barnyard, after watering the cattle, she beat them +about her shoulders or held them against the shrunken flank of some dumb +animal, or blew her breath through the fingers of her knitted mittens; but +her thoughts were of other things. + +It is an old saying that "God helps them who help themselves," and in the +case of Lizzie Farnshaw the axiom became a living truth. While the rest of +her family suffered and magnified their sufferings, she, by a vivid +imagination, placed herself in the path of fortune and obtained the thing +she demanded. The simple country schoolhouse that year, dreary and +cheerless enough to the pert Miss who had come out from Topeka to teach +there, and incidentally to collect twenty-five dollars a month from the +school board, was to be the scene of the initial change in Lizzie +Farnshaw's life. + +Verily, God helps them who help themselves, and Lizzie Farnshaw proved the +old saw by laying hold of and absorbing every new idea and mannerism of +which the new teacher was arrogantly possessed--absorbed them, but +transmuted them, winnowing out the coarse, the sarcastic, the unkind, and +making of what was left a substance of finer fibre. + +The number of children in the Prairie Home school that year was limited to +five, the rest having departed for the indefinable land known as the +"East." Three of these children came from the Farnshaw home and the other +two from the new neighbours, the Cranes, on the Hansen place. + +Sadie Crane hated the new teacher with all the might that her pinched +little twelve-year-old body could bring to bear. She saw only the +snippish, opinionated, young peacock, and the self-assurance which came +from the empty-headed ability to tie a ribbon well. She was so occupied +with resenting the young teacher's feeling of vast superiority that she +failed to understand, as did the Farnshaw child, that along with all that +vainglorious assumption went a real knowledge of some things with which it +was valuable to become acquainted. + +To the spiteful Crane child the schoolma'am was "stuck-up," while to the +imaginative daughter of the Farnshaw house she was a bird of paradise, and +though Lizzie was conscious that the teacher's voice was harsh, and her +air affected, the child reached out like a drowning man toward this symbol +of the life she coveted. To her the new teacher was a gift from heaven +itself. + +This young girl from Topeka brought into activity every faculty the +sensitive, ambitious child possessed. + +Lizzie Farnshaw laid hold, with a strong hand, upon every blessing which +came in her way. She knew that the foppish young thing at the teacher's +desk was "stuck-up," but Lizzie was willing that she should be whatever +she chose, so long as it was possible to live near her, to study her, and +to become like the best that was in her. + +The teacher's matter-of-fact assumption that no self-respecting person +failed to obtain a high-school education was a good thing for the country +girl, however overdrawn it might be. Lizzie Farnshaw listened and built +air-castles. To this one child, out of that entire community, the idea +appealed alluringly. But for her castles in Spain she must have burst with +her unexpressed desires. To add fuel to the fires of her fancy, Mr. +Farnshaw also fell under the fascinations of the school teacher and +boasted in the bosom of his family that "Lizzie's just as smart as that +Topeka girl any day," and when his daughter began to talk hopefully about +teaching school it appealed to the father's pride, and he encouraged her +dreams. He had been the leading man in the community since coming to +Kansas because of the number of cattle he had been able to accumulate. A +small legacy had aided in that accumulation, and it appealed to his pride +to have his daughter's intellectual ambitions adding to the general family +importance. Pride is an important factor in the lives of all, but to the +children of the farm it is an ambrosia, which once sipped is never +forgotten and to obtain which many strange sacrifices will be made. Mr. +Farnshaw usually regarded a request from his children as a thing to be +denied promptly, and always as a matter for suspicion. Yet here he was, +considering soberly, yea pleasurably, a move involving money, at a time +when money was more than usually scarce. His assent was even of such a +nature as to deceive both himself and the child into thinking that it was +being done for her benefit! + +The young girl received a new impetus toward improvement. The family began +to regard her as a member set apart, as one from whom special things were +to be expected. From being just comfortably at the head of her classes, +she became more ambitious, reached over into new territory, and induced +the teacher to create new classes for her benefit. The subjects required +for the examination of teachers were added to those usually carried. There +was a real purpose in her efforts now, and the smoky kerosene lamp burned +stubbornly till late hours. + +The new teacher not only listened to recitations but appealed to the +artistic in the newly developing woman. She rolled her hair from neck to +brow in a "French twist" and set on the top of it an "Alsatian bow," which +stood like gigantic butterfly wings across her proud head. The long basque +of her school dress was made after the newest pattern and had smoke-pearl +buttons, in overlapping groups of three, set on each side of its vest +front. The skirt of this wonderful dress was "shirred" and hung in +graceful festoons between the rows of gatherings, and was of an entirely +new style. Last, but not least, the teacher's feet were shod in "side +laces," the first pair of a new kind of shoes, destined to become popular, +which laced on the inside of the ankle instead of on the top as we have +them now. Of all her stylish attractions this was the most absorbing. +"Fool shoes," Sadie Crane called them, and her little black eyes twinkled +with a consuming spite when she mentioned them, but the ambitious Farnshaw +child, reaching out for improvement and change, coveted them, and preened +her own feathers, and mimicked, and dreamed. She accepted the shoes just +as she accepted the teacher's other attributes: they were better than her +own. + +To be better than her own--that was the measure of Lizzie Farnshaw's +demand. If the shoes, the clothing, the manners, the ideas, were better +than her own they were worthy of honest consideration. The teacher's +tongue was sharp and her criticisms ruthless, but they had elements of +truth in them, and even when they were directed against the child herself +they were a splendid spur. The young girl copied her manners, her gait, +and her vocabulary. She watched her own conversation to see that she did +not say "have went" and "those kind"; she became observant of the state of +her finger-nails; if she had to lace her shoes with twine string, she +blackened the string with soot from the under side of the stove lids, and +polished her shoes from the same source. + +Mrs. Farnshaw, broken with the cold, the privations of the long winter, +and the growing disappointments of her domestic life, saw nothing but +overdressing and foolishness in her daughter's new attention to the +details of personal appearance. Burdened with her inability to furnish the +clothes the family needed, she complained monotonously over every evidence +of the young girl's desire to beautify herself. When the mother's +complaints became unendurable, the father usually growled out a stern, +"Let the child alone," but for the most part the growing girl lived a life +apart from her family, thought along different lines, and built about the +future a wall they could never climb, and over whose rim they would +rarely, if ever, catch a glimpse of the world within. No life, however +hard, could ever tame that spirit, or grind its owner into an alien groove +after that year of imaginative castle building. + + + + +CHAPTER II + +BRUSHING UP TO GO TO TOPEKA + + +With the opening of spring and the coming of the young grass, the handful +of cattle that had not died of starvation began to look healthier. A +shipment of seed corn for planting, and even a stinted amount for feed, +had been sent from the East in March. But for that donation even the work +horses must have succumbed. Josiah Farnshaw had the best horses in the +country and was suspected of having had far more help than he had really +received. The two teams he had favoured all winter against the seeding +season were the envy of all. Some of the old neighbours, after a winter +spent with the wife's relatives in the East, had decided to return and +take the chances of the grasshopper-ridden Middle West, and had come with +horses able to drag the plow, but, worn from travel, most of them were +practically useless. + +There was a lull after the small grain was in the ground. The menacing +eggs of the grasshoppers began to hatch as the sun warmed the earth. It +was a period of intense anxiety. So many months had been spent in +alternate intervals of hope and fear that now, since the test was actually +and immediately to be made, the tension was terrific. Men rose as soon as +the first light of day appeared and went to examine the tender grain, +without which they could not remain upon the land which had cost so dear +in the suffering of the winter just past. + +A surprise was in store for them. The young insects matured rapidly. While +they appeared in swarms, it was noticed that they disappeared immediately +upon hatching. + +Kansas began to get its breath. + +Never was promise of crops more encouraging. There was a distinct note of +reassurance and hopefulness in the air. What became of the grasshoppers +nobody knew exactly, but they went almost as fast as they hatched. Some +shook their heads and said, "Wait till hot weather." + +Josiah Farnshaw moved steadily ahead with his planting. He announced that +he had faith in Kansas--had always had--he'd stand on the burning deck! +While others hesitated, he took advantage of wind and weather to get his +crops in the ground. He had been right all along. He did not propose "to +be run off of the land he had homesteaded and set with trees by any durned +little bugs he'd ever come across." It was necessary to be up and doing if +a man was going to provide for a family. + +Now this assertion proved to be true, for the agent of the harvester +company visited him and requested payment of the notes given the year +before. The agent was gracious when the inability to pay was explained. He +would renew the paper if it could be secured by the land. There was no +hurry about payment, but it was necessary for the details to be finished +up in a business-like manner. The thing looked simple enough. It was a +just debt and Mr. Farnshaw intended to pay it. He'd as soon it was secured +by the land as any other way. The details were soon arranged. + +Mr. Farnshaw agreed to meet the agent in Colebyville, the nearest town, +the next day, and have the papers made out. After the agent was gone Mr. +Farnshaw went to the house to inform his wife that she was to go to town +and attach her name to the document. + +The storm of protest was expected, and when Mrs. Farnshaw broke out with: + +"Now, pa, you ain't never goin' t' mortgage th' farm, are you?" he +answered surlily: + +"Yes, I be, an' I don't want no words about it neither," and walked +determinedly out of the house, leaving his wife to cry out her fears with +her children. + +"We won't have where to lay our heads, soon," she announced bitterly. +"I've seen somethin' of th' mortgage business an' I ain't never seen any +of 'em free from payin' interest afterward." This was no mere personal +quarrel. Her children distinguished that. This was real, definite +trouble. + +Accustomed as the child was to her mother's woes, Lizzie Farnshaw was +moved to unusual demonstrations by the quality of the outburst of tears +which followed the words, and said impulsively: + +"Never you mind, ma, I'm going to teach school in another year, and I'll +help pay the interest; and we'll get out of debt, too, somehow." + +Mrs. Farnshaw brightened. + +"I hadn't thought of that!" she said. "I'm glad you're willin' t' help +out. I had thought maybe you'd get me one of them new nubies after you got +some money of your own." She went into the other room to lay out the black +dress, which death had sanctified some months before, for use on the +morrow. The opportunity to wear the emblems of mourning turned her +childish mind away from the object of her journey, and left her as +unconscious as the young girl herself that the mortgage had extended from +the land to the lives of herself and her husband, and that in that promise +it had laid its withering hand on the future of her child as well. + +The promise of assistance had been lightly given; unearned money is always +easily spent; besides, a teacher's salary seemed rolling wealth to the +girl who had never had a whole dollar in her life. The question of paying +the next year's interest was for the time settled. The next morning the +healthy young mind was much more largely concerned with the appearance of +her mother in the new black dress than with either the mourning it +represented or the mortgage which occasioned its presence. She sensed +dimly that a mortgage was a calamity, but her vigorous youth refused to +concern itself for long with a disaster so far removed as the next year. + +But though calamity might pursue Lizzie Farnshaw on one hand, true to her +innate nature she handled fate in so masterful a manner that even poverty +could not cheat her youth of all its prerogatives. In order to +sufficiently nourish the teams which must be used in seeding, Josiah +Farnshaw had been obliged to use a part of his seed corn for feed. In +despair at the thought of not being able to plant all the land under +cultivation, he was overjoyed to hear that a farmer by the name of Hornby, +who lived twenty miles or more to the south, had a new and desirable +variety which he was trying to exchange for cows with young calves by +their sides. A calf was selected from their diminished herd, its mother +tied behind the wagon which held it, and Lizzie taken along to assist in +driving. The journey, though begun in early morning, was a tedious one, +for the cow fretted, the day was hot, and the footsore and weary child was +worn out long before the Hornby place was reached. It was after nine +o'clock when they did arrive, the last five miles having been made with +the added burden of a horse which seemed not at all well. Mr. Farnshaw +would not even go into the house to eat supper, but asked the farmer to +see that Lizzie was put to bed at once, while he remained with the sick +horse. The best team had been chosen for this trip, in spite of the near +approach of foaling time for one of the mares, because the other horses +were too reduced by lack of food to drive so far. + +After eating a bowl of bread and milk the tired child was taken to her +room by Mrs. Hornby, and in spite of the ruffled curtains which adorned +the windows and the other evidences of taste and refinement about her, she +was soon fast asleep. + +The next morning at daybreak the household of Nathan Hornby was astir. The +first object upon which Lizzie's eyes fell was Susan Hornby herself, who +had come to call her to breakfast. + +"Your father took one of our horses and started right off home this +morning. The one that was sick last night died and left a little colt. He +said he thought he had better get the other one home at once, so he took +ours. Come right into our room to wash and comb." + +Lizzie was on her feet instantly and followed her hostess into the next +room, making love to the neat white bows of her hostess' apron-strings as +she went. What did she care about her father's departure without her when +she could wash her face in a white bowl whose pitcher stood beside the +washstand, and comb her hair before a looking-glass "where you could see +your head and your belt at the same time?" But the combing was destined to +be a lengthy process, for before the child had pulled her comb through the +first lock attacked she saw reflected beside her face in that mirror an +old-fashioned, black walnut secretary _full of books_! Lizzie Farnshaw had +never seen a dozen books in one house in her life except school books, and +here were rows of books that didn't look like any she had ever seen. She +took her comb and walked over to the bookcase where she could read the +titles and comb at the same time, the spacious mirror, two whole feet in +length, being forgotten in this much more desirable gift of fortune. + +Susan Hornby's eyes twinkled with delight. In the five years she had been +in Kansas she had never been able to persuade any one to read with her. +Here was a kindred spirit. She looked at the fifteen-year-old girl and was +anxious to know how it happened that she was interested in books at her +time of life. + +"Do you like to read?" + +The question was repeated, and once more she asked it before the child +heard her. + +"I guess you do," she laughed, answering her own question. "We'll have +some good times before your father comes back for you. Come on to +breakfast now--the men are waiting." + +Lizzie Farnshaw fell naturally into her improved surroundings. The +educating processes of reforming her language that year had also tended to +improve the girl in other ways and it was with her straight brown hair +gathered into neat braids, clean finger-nails, and a feeling of general +self-respect that she approached Susan Hornby's white-clothed table and +was introduced to Mr. Hornby and the hired men who were already seated +there. + +"Right glad t' see you. I been feedin' th' colt. It's about as likely a +specimine as you be," was Nathan Hornby's salutation, and his handclasp +was as hearty as his stubby fingered, hairy hands could make it. + +Lizzie slipped quietly into her chair at his side, and stole a glance up +at him again. All through the meal he found her eyes turning toward him +curiously, and at last he said good-naturedly: + +"I'll know you next time whether you do me or not." + +The remark was a random one and meant nothing at all, except that he had +been conscious of her close attention, but something in the way her gaze +was withdrawn showed that whatever she had been thinking she wished to +conceal it, and in the end it made Nathan Hornby really uncomfortable. The +fact of the matter was that Nathan's language did not fit his +surroundings. Susan Hornby's house was in advance of the country in which +they lived, while her husband fitted the pioneer life he had chosen. Of +this fact neither husband nor wife seemed to be conscious. Nathan was ten +years older than the woman he had married. In accepting him she had +accepted him as he was; later she had grown, but to her he remained the +same; he was just Nathan, and needed no analysis. They lived and loved, +and radiated the harmony which was theirs. The incongruities of their +union were evident to this child, who was supersensitive about grammatical +constructions, but their harmony was to be one of the strong lessons of +her life. Lizzie was accustomed to ungrammatical language at home, but the +atmosphere of this house made ignorance of good form noticeable. She liked +Mr. Hornby, but she wondered a little about his association with his wife +and her home. She went with him to see the colt after breakfast and +remarked upon his neat barnyard in a manner which lifted the cloud upon +his face; he had had a feeling that he did not somehow come up to her +expectations. + +The little colt nosed about his hand looking for food, and Nathan +laughed. + +"It's just like th' human critter o' that age--wants t' try everything in +its mouth," he said, trying to find a topic of conversation. + +Again Nathan Hornby caught a flicker of surprise in Lizzie Farnshaw's eye, +and again he was disconcerted. + +"Wonder what I done t' set that child t' lookin' at me so funny?" he asked +himself as he went to the field later, and being big-hearted and ignorant +was unaware that a man could hamstring himself by an ungrammatical +phrase. + +All day Susan Hornby read with the young girl and questioned her to get +into touch with her life and thought, and when night came was wildly +enthusiastic about her. + +"Nate, she's worth a lift," she said to her husband after Lizzie had again +been tucked into bed. "Let's take her with us to Topeka this fall and put +her into the high school. She's--she's just the age our Katie would have +been. She says some teacher told her she was ready for the high school." + +"Better wait till I'm elected, Sue," Nathan replied, and then, seeing +Susan's face cloud over with disappointment, added more cheerfully: + +"Of course I don't care if you have the child, but you mustn't get to +countin' on this thing. That's th' trouble with these here fool politics: +they get folks t' countin' on things that can't come around." + +Long after his wife was asleep, however, he mused upon the prospects of +going to Topeka, and for her sake he wanted to go. Nathan Hornby always +spoke of his chances of being elected to the legislature of his state +deprecatingly. He swaggered and pretended to be indifferent, but the worm +of desire burrowed deeper every time Topeka was mentioned. The very fact +that he was uneducated, and, as the Democrats had said, unfit, made him +desire it the more. Criticism had aroused the spirit of contest in him. +Also he wanted Susan, now that she had begun to plan for it, to have it. +Nathan Hornby knew that the woman he had married was his superior, and +loved her for it. Masculine jealousy he did not know. He would have been +sincerely glad to have had her elected to the legislature of Kansas +instead of himself. + +"It's like Sue t' want t' take th' girl," he meditated, the next day in +the cornfield. "She'll see Katie in every girl she sees for th' rest of +'er days, I reckon. I wouldn't 'a' had no show at Topeka, nohow, if she +hadn't 'a' made Wallace feel good 'bout that crazy thing he calls 'is +wife. Curious how big things hinge on little ones. Now Sue had no more +idea o' gettin' a nomination t' th' legislature for me than that hen she +was foolin' with this mornin'." Later, he remembered the thing that had +worried him before the subject of Topeka came up. "Wonder what I done that +set that youngster t' lookin' at me so funny?" + +Mrs. Hornby had not set her heart on going to Topeka foolishly, but she +wanted to go and it entered into all her plans. She did not tell the young +girl of her plans at once, but waited for her to make her place in +Nathan's heart, as she was sure she would do. On that point the girl +succeeded surprisingly. Her knowledge of horses, of harness, of farm +subjects in general made good soil for conversation with her host, and her +love for the motherless colt called her to the barn and made special +openings for communications. Nathan called the colt, which was of the +feminine gender, Pat, because its upper lip was so long, and that too the +girl enjoyed, and entered into the joke by softening the name to Patsie. +They were good friends. Having decided to befriend her, the man's interest +in her increased. She was to be theirs. The sense of possession grew with +both husband and wife. Already they had cast their lot with the child, and +when at last they put the question of the high school to her, the +friendship was firmly welded by the extravagance of its reception. + +"Think of it! Think of it! Only think of it! I didn't know how it was +going to come about, but I was sure I was going to get it somehow!" the +young girl cried, dancing about the room excitedly. "Whenever I was afraid +something was going to keep me from it, I used to say, 'I will! I will! I +will go to high school!' Oh, isn't it too lovely! Do you think my saying +it made any difference?" she asked eagerly; and the quaint couple, who +were born two generations in advance of the birth cry of New Thought, +laughed innocently and made no reply. + +When the floodgates of surprise and emotion were opened, and she began to +talk of her hopes and fears, it was but natural that she should speak of +her struggles for personal improvement, though this was instinctively done +when Mr. Hornby was absent. + +Curiously enough, some of her points of information were as helpful to +Susan Hornby as they had been to her. Mrs. Hornby knew the rules of good +grammar, but many little observances of table manners had changed since +her youth. She read and was well informed on general topics of the day, +but her life for more than fifteen years had been spent with Nathan and +with the hired men who ate at her table, and she had become careless of +small things, so that she listened with an amused smile, but with real +profit as well, to Lizzie's confidences that "You shouldn't cross your +knife and fork on your plate when you are through eating, like the hired +men, but lay them side by side, neat and straight"; that "You shouldn't +eat with your knife, neither," and that "To sip your coffee out of your +saucer with a noise like grasshoppers' wings was just awful!" She, too, +was brushing up to go to Topeka, and while much in advance of her husband +or any of her associates in society matters, she had lived the life of the +farm, and to the end of her existence would be conscious of the +inequalities of her education. Of this she said nothing to the child, but +listened and remembered. Occasionally she reminded the girl that they +might not go to Topeka, but even as she warned she was quickening the +subconscious mind to aid in recording any fact which might be advantageous +when she herself got there, and her love for the child grew. The girl was +part of the scheme. In a week she had become one of the family. + +At the end of the week Mr. Farnshaw did not appear; farm matters had +detained him, so that the opportunity for a closer acquaintance with his +daughter was permitted. Under Mrs. Hornby the child blossomed naturally. +The old-fashioned secretary was the young girl's delight. Seeing her +shaking in silent glee over "David Copperfield" one night, and remembering +her eager pursuit of intellectual things, Mrs. Hornby remarked to her +husband, "As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he." The world of to-day +would add to Susan Hornby's little speech, "Not only as a man thinketh in +his heart, so is he," but "So shall he live, and do, and be surrounded." +This simple daughter of the farm, the herds, and the homesteaded hills of +bleak and barren Kansas, where the educated and intellectual of earth were +as much foreigners as the inhabitants of far off Russia or Hindustan, had +by her thought not only prepared herself for the life she coveted, but had +compelled the opportunity to enter upon her travels therein. When Mr. +Farnshaw arrived, Mrs. Hornby was fortunate in the form of her request to +take his daughter with her, and it was arranged that if they went to +Topeka the child should be a member of their household. + +"We'll be just as good to her as if she were our own," she promised, and +then added reflectively, "We're going to call her her full name too. +Elizabeth was my mother's name. It's so much prettier than Lizzie." + +Under any other circumstances Mr. Farnshaw would have seen symptoms of +being "stuck-up" in the change of name, but Elizabeth had been his +mother's name, and although he had little recollection of his mother, and +had never heard her called by her given name, he had seen it writ large on +her tombstone, and, his eye having become accustomed to the word, his ear +fell naturally into line with its pronunciation; besides, his daughter was +to be a school-teacher, and was to sign contracts like a man, and must +have a proper sort of name. She was to live in the house of a member of +the legislature, too, and already called him and his wife "Uncle" and +"Aunt." Mr. Farnshaw tasted pride and found it a sweet morsel. + +Election day came the first week in November and Nathan was successful. +With the high school year in view, they moved to Topeka the next week. It +was as if they were literally to educate their Katie. A slight +disappointment awaited them. Though they were ready the young girl did not +come immediately. + +According to the dilatory methods of the Farnshaw household, +Elizabeth--she had been supported by her father when the boys had shown an +inclination to laugh her out of the change of name--was three weeks later +yet in going. The eager girl urged at home that she would be behind her +classes if she went into school so late in the term, but her parents, who +knew nothing of school requirements, refused to let her go till the corn +was all husked and everything snug for the winter, arguing that so much +stock had been lost the winter before that every care must be taken of +what was left. Tears at the prospect of such a handicap made no +impression, and it was not till December that the child and her father set +off in the farm wagon for Topeka, two days distant. Railroad fare was not +to be considered, and two new dresses and a new pair of shoes--not +side-laces--were all the additions to her wardrobe. + +Susan Hornby was much annoyed at the delay, but met the young girl with +open arms when she arrived. + +She was less happy in accosting Mr. Farnshaw. + +"Why in this world did you keep her so late? Half the year is gone!" was +her luckless remark to him. + +"She's doin' mighty well t' get t' come at all," Mr. Farnshaw replied, +taking instant offence. "I'm th' only man in our part of th' country +that's givin' 'is childern any show at th' high school at all, I can tell +you. I knew I wouldn't get no thanks for it from th' beginnin'. That's th' +way with things nowadays," was his reply. + +"Oh, well, we all know you have needed her, and that it's hard to spare a +child on the farm, but we were so anxious to have her have all that could +be got out of this year," Mrs. Hornby said, divided between a desire to +scold the man and a real disinclination to hurt any one. So much valuable +time had been lost. She saw that she must be politic for Elizabeth's sake, +however, for the child's appearance told the experienced woman that she +must keep him in a good humour and inveigle him into giving her a little +money for clothes. + +"We'll just make the best of the time that is left, little girl," Mrs. +Hornby said cheerfully, and in that only added to the impression already +made, for Mr. Farnshaw remembered his daughter's tears, and the feeling +grew that instead of being lauded for what he considered a great sacrifice +on his part, he was coming in for a blame wholly unexpected, and that this +woman was siding with the girl and going to spoil her. People of the farm, +more than any other class, resent being blamed, and Josiah Farnshaw was an +extreme representative of his class. He had come to Topeka delighted with +himself because of the fine opportunities he was giving his daughter, and +here was this woman at the first word finding fault because he had not +done better; it was no wonder that children were not satisfied with +anything a man could give them! + +There was now no possibility of Elizabeth entering school till after +Christmas, and Aunt Susan turned her attention to efforts to get the most +out of the time they would have to reorganize the poorly constructed +dresses. She was considerate of Mr. Farnshaw's evident sensitiveness, +seeing also that he had no real comprehension of the damage done by the +delay, and made him comfortable by urging him to stay on after he was +really ready to go home. So successful was she that he forgot for the time +he was in her presence that all was not in his favour, and she was able to +induce him to give all that he was able to give toward the improvements +she suggested in his daughter's wearing apparel. Elizabeth was surprised +at the ready response to demands made upon his purse, but here again Mrs. +Hornby left a sting, wholly unintended and at the time not recognized by +Mr. Farnshaw himself, but remembered by him later and never forgotten +after it was once fixed firmly in his mind. Aunt Susan, concerned for the +entrance of the child into the company of those of her own age, pointed +out to her father the gayly dressed girls of Elizabeth's age, and +suggested that a new coat would be an absolute necessity. Mr. Farnshaw had +given Mrs. Hornby all the money he had with him except four dollars, and +his wife had given him a list of groceries to be purchased in the city. It +rather pleased him to use the money toward his daughter's adornment and it +tickled his pride as well to give his last cent toward her education. Mrs. +Hornby looked at the money he placed in her hand, and hesitated visibly. +Josiah Farnshaw stiffened at her manner. Aunt Susan hated to ask for more, +but this would not buy the girl a coat that she could wear in Topeka! + +"You are just as good as you can be about this, Mr. Farnshaw, but--but a +coat like the other girls have will cost at least eight or ten dollars." +She felt his attitude. + +The amount named took the man's breath. He had given all he had and yet +this woman, whom he had begun to like again, was not satisfied! + +"A man can't do no more'n he can, an' that's th' last red cent I've got," +he replied, humiliated at the necessity of the confession. + +"Oh! I'm so sorry," Aunt Susan exclaimed, really so at having forced the +statement. She sat with her brows knit in serious thought a moment, and a +light began to break in upon her. Elizabeth had to have that wrap somehow +and here was a way right before her. She remembered a long cape she had +noticed going down the street that very morning. + +"I guess we can make it do," she said hesitantly. She was thinking out her +plan and spoke slowly. "We'll just make a cloak ourselves. We can do it." + +Josiah Farnshaw left the next day for home, in a good humour with himself +and his munificence, but on the way home remembered Susan Hornby's +hesitancy and later decision to make the cloak herself, and the worm of +suspicion began to gnaw again. + +"If that woman could make something that'd do, what'd she ask for one of +them expensive coats for?" he asked himself. "I guess it's only th' girl +that figures in that deal! I ain't nothin' but th' oats she feeds on +nohow," he reflected, and having once given the thought lodgment it grew +and became the chief stone of the corner. + +Our own comes to us, and Josiah Farnshaw had formed the habit of that kind +of thinking. He felt that he was being robbed, and forgot that his +daughter was being befriended, and out of his trip to Topeka got only a +sour distaste for the woman he could clearly see was going to encourage +the child in extravagance. He had never spent so much money on the entire +family in a winter as he had done on that girl, and yet it wasn't enough. +"He'd bet he'd never give 'er another year's schoolin'. She'd come home +an' get a summer school--that's what she'd do. All folks thought about +nowadays was clothes!" + +To Elizabeth Farnshaw every day of that busy month was full of unconscious +growth. As soon as Mr. Farnshaw was out of sight, Mrs. Hornby said to +Elizabeth: + +"Now, my child, I am going to take up the seams in that basque." + +Elizabeth looked down at her "long basque" in dismay; she had striven hard +over that waist and had thought that it would do very well, though +conscious that it had faults. Her face flushed as she answered +reluctantly: + +"The seam in the back isn't quite straight, but--I never made one like it +before--and I thought it would do." + +"So it would, dear, but it can do better and we've got plenty of time to +fix it. You'll feel ever so much better about it when you see how the +other girls are dressed." + +As Aunt Susan snipped and ripped and rebasted the refractory seam, +Elizabeth brought out her little stores of finery to discuss their +artistic features. + +"Look," she said, opening a pasteboard box which held her few ribbons. "I +coaxed a long time for that, but I got it." She held up for Aunt Susan's +approval a new Alsatian bow of pink ribbon. "I wanted the wide, but they +didn't have it, so I got a lot of the narrow and hid the joinings in the +pleats. I think it's pretty, don't you?" + +Susan Hornby looked at the bow critically, and then seeing Elizabeth's +face cloud over with a suspicion that she did not regard the treasure with +favour, said slowly: + +"It's pretty--that is, it's a pretty colour; but I was looking to see +about how many yards there was in it, for the girls aren't wearing +Alsatian bows, as you call them, this year. They seem to be wearing their +hair mostly in two plain braids. I'm glad of it, for you look ever so much +better with your hair done that way. We can rip it up and press the +ribbon. I'm awfully glad you've got such a lot; It'll make lovely bows for +the braids." + +While Elizabeth ripped her bow to pieces Aunt Susan's tongue ran on with +the subject nearest her heart. + +"To-morrow morning I'm going to have you sit by that window and watch the +girls that go past about school time. You'll learn more this month doing +that than you would in school, I expect. It's just as well you can't start +till next term, since you didn't get here at first." + +"Next term!" her new dresses with their long basques--long basques were +more talked of than any other feature of dress that year, not by Elizabeth +alone but all womankind--had seemed so magnificent that she could not +think of it being necessary to take a whole month to make them over. + +"Yes, not till after Christmas. You can't start in at the middle of a term +in high school like you can in the country. We'll get you a wrap made +before that time. I told your father I couldn't think of your going +without a coat of some sort. He didn't feel that he could afford a coat, +so I'm going to get the cloth and you and I will make you a circular this +week." + +"A circular? What's that?" + +Aunt Susan explained the new kind of cape which came down to the bottom of +the dress and had a hood lined with bright coloured silk and was puckered +with rubber to make it fit the face. + +It took all day to finish the basque, and the next morning Elizabeth +watched the well-dressed city girls loiter past, and was glad that she +could have a month to get ready to meet them in the schoolroom. She had +never known anybody dressed so well for anything but a funeral, or a +party, or to go to church. They actually wore gloves to school! Elizabeth +looked at her brown hands and decided that she would wear her mittens to +bed till her hands sweated themselves to a proper degree of whiteness, and +Susan Hornby let her look on, and weigh, and exclaim. Thus was Elizabeth +Farnshaw's education begun. + +The afternoon was spent selecting the goods for the new cape, and +wandering about the great stores and the streets; a new pair of pretty +gray gloves were obtained, and for the first time Elizabeth heard the term +"lisle thread" used as against the common term of cotton for all things +not silk or woollen. The new cape was to have a wonderful metal fastener +called a clasp, and life ran like a silver stream the next two days as +they sewed on the new-fangled garment. + +Oh, father! could you have but seen truly, how great would have been your +joy! + +Each day Elizabeth watched the boys and girls come and go past Nathan +Hornby's house, and when the cape was finished she and Aunt Susan went +daily on shopping expeditions. It was the most wonderful week of her +fifteen years, and was well rounded out by going to church on Sunday and +for the first time listening to a choir, and seeing a window of softly +coloured glass. She almost wondered if she had been transported from the +body to the heaven of crowns and harps which her mother loved to +describe. + +To heaven Elizabeth Farnshaw had gone in very truth, but it was the heaven +of adolescence and developing womanhood. In the short time she had been +observing the comings and goings of the boys and girls of their +neighbourhood one young man had begun to stand out from the rest. +Elizabeth was nearly sixteen, and when she saw _him_ now in a pew a few +seats ahead of her she made a little movement of astonishment. + +Aunt Susan caught the sound of the indrawn breath and looked around +inquiringly, but Elizabeth, with eyes modestly down, studied her +gray-gloved hands and seemed unaware of her scrutiny. Happiness had been +Elizabeth Farnshaw's daily portion for weeks, but this was different. Here +was happiness of another sort, with other qualities, composed of more +compelling elements. The gamut of bliss had not all been run. Elizabeth +had progressed from Arcadia to Paradise and was invoicing her emotions. +She never shied around a subject, but looked all things in the face; and +she found this delightfully surprising world of emotions as entrancing as +the external one of mellow light, music, good clothes, and educational +prospects. The rest of the hour was a blissful dream, in which the only +thought was a wish for Luther and his stunted pony and the freedom of +grassy slopes where she could pour out her newfound joy. With each new +event of this life the loss of Luther was accentuated. + +Nathan Hornby and his wife had no acquaintances in Topeka. They left the +church as soon as the service was over. The young girl went with them, +conscious that _he_ was behind her, glad that her new cape was finished, +wondering if _he_ noticed it, eager to be seen yet wanting to hide, and +foolishly aglow and wishing devoutly that she had eyes in the back of her +head. Henceforth Elizabeth lived in the thought of seeing _him_. She +dubbed him "The Unknown," and if she looked out of the window at home, it +was in the hope of seeing him pass; on the way to school she was alert and +watchful for a glimpse of him in the distance; if she went to church it +was to look for him as soon as seated, though he was rarely there. If she +saw him in the morning her day was made glad; if she failed to see him she +looked forward with anticipation to the next day. + +The winter spent itself. January passed, and February. The glad days ran +on in kaleidoscopic readjustment of joy, work, wonder, and unfoldment, as +far as Elizabeth's own life was concerned. After the manner of youth, her +own affairs absorbed her. In fact the young girl was so filled with the +delights of her own little world that it was only gradually that she began +to understand that the life in Topeka was not as fortunate with the dear +couple who had shared with her their home. The first signs of trouble were +made manifest to her by the increasing tenderness with which Susan Hornby +hovered around her mate, and her evident and growing solicitude. + +Elizabeth was startled when she did at last comprehend the gloom and +anxiety about her. The manner of the pair prevented questions, but, as she +watched covertly, Aunt Susan's distress was transferred to her. Elizabeth +was not curious, but she was intensely sympathetic, and from disinterested +motives she became keenly observant of all that took place about her. No +opportunity to help offered. With a sharp realization that her best +friends were in trouble, she was obliged to conceal any trace of that +knowledge. Nathan and his wife talked apart and in low tones, avoiding the +young girl's presence, and were evidently puzzled and uneasy. It was +Elizabeth's way to make the troubles of those about her her own. Longing +to help, it was impossible to be indifferent. Gradually she got bits of +indirect light upon the subject. From little things dropped accidentally, +and often from explanations which circumstances forced upon them, +Elizabeth learned that money was scarce. This came as a shock, and with +all the hurt and heartsick worry which the mention of finances always +brought to the girl. Why must people have money? she asked herself daily. +And mixed with dreams of "The Unknown" came speculations as to the part +which money played in the game of life, and the bondage of men to it, and +a longing to be free from its withering grasp. In her childish mind the +matter of freedom became slightly mixed and she dreamed dreams of being +free by owning unlimited amounts of it, and she coveted marvellous bank +accounts, acquired in some mystical way, with which the woes of humanity +could be relieved by giving. Along with this new idea of dispensing +charity grew a desire to know why the crop of cash was short in Nathan +Hornby's home. In her innocent way she led up to the subject of expenses +in general, but Aunt Susan kept family affairs strictly in the family and +vouchsafed no explanations, unaware that the example she set in that way +was to bear strange and unexpected fruit. But though Elizabeth carried the +reflex of the anxiety of those about her, she was scarcely sixteen, and +youth and joy and life claimed her attention and the affairs of her stage +in life's span crowded out the affairs of others. + +These were days of transition. The child was becoming a woman. The love +which was flowing out of her heart like a spring freshet toward one who, +because she saw him less often was the more often in her thoughts, was +making Elizabeth Farnshaw more observant of those who professed love. +Desiring mutual relations, she became sensitive to the communications of +those about her who had to do with mutual relations. + +Elizabeth saw that the more trouble clouded the brow of Nathan Hornby the +cheerier and closer Aunt Susan drew to him. There was none of the quarrels +here to which Elizabeth had become accustomed when things went wrong at +home. The contrast between her father's and mother's daily life and that +of Nathan and Susan Hornby in times of trouble was the subject of constant +thought. Nathan and Susan Hornby were to be guide-posts along the highway +of Elizabeth Farnshaw's domestic affairs. Love pointed her thoughts toward +marriage, and here was a worthy model after which to build. Her natural +affection and gratitude were enhanced by the fact that this couple with +whom she lived, and who were otherwise very dear to her, were the +immediate example of all that was noble in the world of her present +dreams. + +The fact that the harmony between Aunt Susan and her mate was of stern +stuff and not matured solely upon success and pleasure added to the +strength of that example. Elizabeth had not been taken into the confidence +of either; their private affairs were kept screened from the gaze of any +but themselves. By a word dropped here and there, however, she learned +that Nathan had speculated and lost much money; also that he had favoured +measures advanced by butter-tongued lobbyists, and that he had lost the +good-will of many of his constituents. + +While Elizabeth watched the tender association of Nathan Hornby and his +wife and found such glowing tribute in her heart toward the life they +lived together, a tragedy, in spite of the support and affection lavished +by a faithful wife, was to leave the sunny, cordial man a broken, +half-suspicious one. + +Nathan Hornby was to learn that legislative assemblies were death-traps to +those whom providence had failed to coach in diplomacy and judgment, that +legislation was a game at which none but gamesters might successfully +play, a devouring flame singeing the wings of all who failed to +distinguish between the light of a common candle and that of a real sun, +that it was a nightmare to most, and ticklish business for all. Unable to +distinguish between the good and the bad intentions of those who advocated +the passage of bills, convinced long before the end of the legislative +session that a bill looking innocent and direct in its wording might be +evil and indirect in its outworking, Nathan became more and more confused +and less and less able to withstand the attacks made upon him. + +Nathan Hornby was a leaden figure in the legislative assembly. He was +honest, but slow of wit, and apt to become passive if pushed beyond his +power to understand. This man who could throw the earth up to a hill of +corn with skill and precision, who could build a haystack which would turn +the rains and snows of winter, and break a colt to the harness without +breaking its spirit, who had handled successfully the problems to which he +had been trained, was not able to throw arguments up to the legislative +hill or protect his reputation against the floods of criticism and +accusation to which his actions were subjected either here in the Capitol +or at home among his constituents. His spirit was broken: he recognized +that he was totally unfit for the position into which fortune had thrust +him. Nathan sat back in his chair, in the House, with few books and papers +on the desk before him, and these unopened, his manner, like his wrinkled +boots, indicative of the farm, his whole attitude that of the +unsophisticated. He listened to the speeches made around him, but had no +ideas to express. He was a pathetic figure. Only the accidents of +Grasshopper Year, when legislative timber was scarce, could have placed +him in such a position. His tough, shaven cheeks grew thinner day by day +as he pulled at the brush of grizzled chin-whiskers and tried to +understand what went on before him. + +During those days Susan was both his refuge and the cross of his +crucifixion. The deeper his difficulties became the more he turned to her +for help, certain not only that she understood better than he the measures +about which his colleagues argued, but that she understood him and his +failures, as well as his needs. It was because Susan understood that the +cross was so heavy. If his wife had been a dull woman, if she had been a +woman without ambitions of her own, if she could have been hoaxed into +thinking him the equal of his associates, it would have been easier; but +Nathan was aware that Susan Hornby knew to the finest detail the nature of +his failure as well as she understood and loved the best in him. During +those gloomy days the man marvelled at the gentleness of her solicitations +for his cheering and encouragement, not realizing that woman is by nature +faithful where man is appreciative of her devotion. Appreciation! that had +been the keynote of Nathan Hornby's attitude toward his wife. Susan had +always known what she ought to do, what she wanted to do, and what it was +best for her to do, and in all matters where her individual affairs were +concerned Nathan had never interposed coercion nor advice. If Susan made +mistakes, her husband knew that they were the mistakes of the head and not +of the heart, and left her to correct them in her own way. + +Susan Hornby had always been free, and now the walls of love and trust +which Nathan Hornby had builded about their home for nearly twenty years +were to be a flawless rampart behind which he could take refuge from foes +without and receive help from within. At Nathan's request his wife came +day after day and listened to the discussions toward the end of the +session. Nathan sat before her dumb, but she was the anchor to his +drifting soul as the political landslide took the ground out from under +his feet. + +"I only wisht I'd 'a' taken you in on this thing sooner," he said on one +occasion, and remembered those first weeks when he had felt +self-sufficient, and had made false moves at the State House, and had also +let himself be inveigled into buying "a few margins." That was the +bitterest drop in his cup. Wheat had dropped steadily from the very day he +had begun buying. A steady decline in prices was unthinkable, and it was +not till their land was endangered that the trusting man began to take +alarm, and even then he let the speculators who profited by the sales +induce him to make one more wild investment to save that which he had +already lost. + +His certainty that his neighbors would take revenge upon _him_ for +political differences by sly prods regarding speculation was of slight +importance, but Susan was to be humiliated before them!--Susan, who had +tried to help him to see the dangers--Susan, who did not complain when she +was called upon to sign the deeds to the land she had helped to win from +the Indians and the wilderness of uncultivated things. Nathan remembered +on that bitter day that but for her adventurous spirit he would have been +working at day's wages in old Indiana, instead of having a home and being +an active member of his community and a member of the legislature of his +state, with opportunities to prove himself a man in the world of men. He +had failed, and his failure reacted upon her. It was not the loss of money +and political prestige alone which bit. Another phase of their life in +Topeka added its humiliation. Nathan had wanted his wife to share his +political honours and had found himself ignorant of every means by which +these things could be brought to her. He had heard of gay winters at the +Capital, but they lived apart from it all. The house in which he had +placed her was attractive and on a good street, but the men whom he met at +the State House soon saw that nothing was to be gained through knowing +Nathan Hornby, and failed to ask their wives to call upon his wife. + +Disaster is in exact ratio to our valuation of things. Although Nathan +Hornby had lost three fourths of his land, his reputation as a business +man and politician, and his faith in men, he still had left the one +essential gift which should have helped him to win again all that which he +had lost. Susan Hornby, like Ruth of old, abandoned all else and abode +with her husband in love, cheering him at each problematical step, and +saying as they returned from the notary's office after signing away their +land to a stranger: + +"Never mind, Nate, there are only two of us," and for the first time since +their little daughter had been taken from them, he had replied: + +"Yes, only two, thank God!" and had kissed awkwardly the hand laid over +his mouth, and Susan had seen the glitter of a tear on his faded lashes, +the first in many years. + +Susan knew that Nathan would never forget the failures of that year, but +she also knew that the comfort of accustomed activities would help to fill +his mind and keep his thoughts from sore introspection. Here in Topeka +there was nothing to do but cogitate and reflect. It was therefore a +relief to her when Elizabeth received a letter from her mother summoning +her home to teach a spring term of school. While at any other time she +would have been filled with indignation at the recall of Elizabeth just as +she was beginning to get settled to her new work, Susan Hornby felt that +Elizabeth needed education less at this point than Nathan needed the busy +seeding season to occupy his troubled thoughts. + + + + +CHAPTER III + +REFORMS NOT EASY TO DISCUSS + + +Elizabeth kept her tears and regrets to herself. She cried them out on her +pillow that night, all the disappointments and handicaps of that wonderful +year of experience and aspiration, but as she cried she planned the +arrangements of her going. + +The letter was received on Thursday night; Elizabeth decided that she +would go for her books the next day, and say her farewells to desk, +recitation room, and the halls that had been dear to her. When Elizabeth +was called to the blackboard that afternoon to explain a problem in +algebra, the board, the pointer, the very chalk in her fingers cried aloud +their unity with her life and thought, and she sat down when it was over +with a great throbbing in her throat and ears, and a sense of overwhelming +disaster. + +As Elizabeth carried her books home under her arm, bulging out one side of +her circular like an unevenly inflated pudding-bag, the throbbing +continued, and she turned into the less frequented streets with the +certainty that she was going to disgrace herself with tears shed publicly. +It had been a trying day, and in spite of all efforts her emotions broke +loose before she could gain the shelter of home. Hurrying blindly to get +the last block covered, she nearly dropped her books as she turned the +corner. + +"The Unknown" was coming toward her! + +Her startled glance of recognition was so unexpectedly open that he +thought that he had probably met her. He looked puzzled, but lifted his +hat as she hurried past him, wiping the tears from her face with her free +hand. + +A boy called from across the street an instant later. + +"Oh, Hugh, I'm coming over for some help on that chem. ex. to-night." + +"All right," came the answer from "The Unknown," and mixed with +Elizabeth's mortifying confusion was a quick thrill at knowing his name. + +"Hugh!" + +No opportunity had ever come to meet him or to find out what his name +might be. Elizabeth was conscious that her life on the farm had made of +her an impossible mate for this young man who, even among the young men of +the city, was set apart by a peculiar grace and culture. She remembered +the hat which had not merely been lifted from the head, but had been +carried below the chin as he bowed distantly, and also the well-bred +curiosity of his look. The rest of the leave-taking was made easier by +having met him, and received his bow, and acquired the glorious, mystical +knowledge of his name. + +To round out the experiences of the winter, fate decreed that Mr. Farnshaw +could not come for her, and the glitter of the inside of a railway coach, +with its brass lamps, plush seats, and polished woods, was added to her +experimental knowledge. Luther was somehow connected in her mind with the +day's experiences and she wished devoutly that she could talk to him about +the disappointment of leaving her school before the end of the term, and +of this journey home on the train, and of Hugh. Yes, Elizabeth would have +told Luther even of Hugh. Luther Hansen was to Elizabeth Farnshaw +unchanged and unchangeable. The transformations of her own life did not +call for any such transformations in him. He was Luther. It had been his +mental processes which had won and now sustained her attachment for him. +Their two minds had worked together as one mind while they had struggled +with the innocent problems of their childhood days, and Elizabeth still +felt incomplete without him. She had been less conscious of Luther's +absence the first year than at any time since his going away, but in +Topeka, and now that she was approaching the scene of their association +together, Elizabeth wanted him with a depth of homesickness she had never +felt before. It was hard to go back to the old battleground and not find +him there. The prospects in store for her at home made her shrink. +Elizabeth fell to wondering if any improvement in that home were possible. +She had had them quite cheerfully in mind all winter, but now that the +distance between her home and herself lessened rapidly a feeling of +inadequacy came upon her, and the glitter of the wonderful coach in which +she was riding was forgotten. Could she help? The only thing that was very +clear to her was that much patience would be necessary. At Uncle Nathan's +they had been gentle and loving and tolerant. + +"Can I make them see it--and see how?" she asked herself so many times +that the wheels beneath her took up the refrain. + +"Gentle and loving and tolerant--gentle and loving and tolerant--gentle +and loving and tolerant," they sang for miles as she sat with her young +brow puckered into a deep frown. + +The realities of life were thrust into the foreground the moment Elizabeth +arrived, and for new reasons she missed Luther. Mr. Farnshaw resented the +new circular. + +"Is that th' damned fool kind of coat she was talkin' about?" he inquired +as his daughter alighted from the farm wagon at the kitchen door that +afternoon. "It ain't got no warmth," he added scornfully. "Th' ain' +nothin' to it but looks, an' not much of that. What 'd y' you do with th' +coat you had?" + +The old heartsickening contention had begun. + +"I've got it." + +"Well, you see that you wear it and don't go makin' a fool out of yourself +around here. I'd 'a' kept my money if I'd 'a' knowed it was goin' t' be +put into a thing that'd swell up in th' wind like a balloon." + +Mrs. Farnshaw saw the look that swept over Elizabeth's face and +instinctively ranged herself on the side of the young girl. She saw with a +woman's eyes the style in the garment and its importance in her daughter's +appearance. When Elizabeth took it off her mother took it to the bedroom +to put it away, remarking in a whisper that it made her look quite like a +school-teacher ought to look. She was secretly glad that her daughter had +it, since it was already paid for and she did not have to make it. It +would be the most observed wrap in the schoolhouse the next Sunday if she +could only persuade Elizabeth to go to meeting. The metal clasp had +virtues all its own. + +"I think it's ever so much more stuck-up than if it had buttons," she +whispered. + +The undertone rasped on Elizabeth's nerves. Aunt Susan never differed with +Uncle Nate in undertones. + +"Let's get supper, ma," she said, to shake herself from threatened +despondency. + +But though Elizabeth bustled energetically about the getting of that meal, +the eating of it was not a very great success. Mr. Farnshaw discoursed +upon the senselessness of prevailing styles, with the new cape plainly in +mind, and Mrs. Farnshaw nudged her daughter's knee under the table +whenever Elizabeth seemed inclined to defensive retorts. + +When Mr. Farnshaw had taken the milk pails on his arm and repaired to the +corral, however, Mrs. Farnshaw turned from a belated churning and +administered the caution in words: + +"Don't ever say anything back to your pa, Lizzie; he gets worse and worse +all th' time." + +Elizabeth considered the subject for some minutes. The wear and tear of +the discords of her mother's life she knew were far more responsible for +her mother's broken health than anything she did in the way of hard work. +It seemed a good time to begin the reforms upon which her heart was set. + +"Ma, I've been thinking about you a good deal this winter," she began +slowly. "Something is wrong with us all." The girl thought again for a +moment. Her mother watched her with sharp attention and waited. Reforms +were not easy to discuss with her mother; they were very different, +Elizabeth and her mother. Elizabeth hardly dared express her longing to +reorganize their home. If only she could effect a reformation! Her heart +had been set on it all winter. She knew now how people _could_ live if +only they understood how to do it. Her help here was needed. When she +began to speak again it was very slowly, and with a careful consideration +of the words she was using. + +"We ought all of us to be different. We go along day after day hating our +work, scolding and fretting at each other, and never really happy, any of +us, and I've been wondering why?" + +Her mother eyed her closely. Something of the girl's mood stirred a +responsive chord. + +"I've thought of it too," she said, "but I can't never tell why it is +though, unless"--she spoke slowly and Elizabeth was encouraged--"unless +it's because we don't never belong to ourselves. Now your pa wants t' run +th' house, an' th' farm, an' you children, an' me, an' everything, an' I'm +so tired, an' never have any help, that anybody'd be cross. Nobody ever +pities me, though. Here, take this dasher an' finish this here churnin' +for me." + +Elizabeth took the dasher into her own hand and stood looking down +meditatively at the cream gathered about the hole in the churn lid. The +first sentence of her mother's remark struck her attention. + +"Why can't folks belong to themselves?" she asked, letting the dasher rest +while she churned mental problems of greater moment. + +Mrs. Farnshaw looked up quickly. "Well, if you think you can marry an' +belong t' yourself, just you try it," she replied. + +"But, ma, if a man loved a woman couldn't she get him to leave her free? +Now--" + +Mrs. Farnshaw cut her short. "Love! Men don't know how to spell th' word. +They get a woman, an' after she's got children they know she can't help +herself. She's got t' stick to it 'cause she can't raise 'em alone +an'--an' it don't make no difference whether he takes care of 'em or +not--" Words failed the exasperated woman. + +Elizabeth studied her mother with a new interest. She began to apply her +mother's words to her own case. She knew that her mother had wanted her +services this spring as much as her father, and remembered the letter +calling her home. + +"But that don't cover your case, ma. You love pa more than you do us +children; you know you do, and we know that you do too." + +Mrs. Farnshaw usually denied the most obvious thing if her protective +instincts prompted her to do so, but her daughter had hit the bull's-eye +so exactly that for the moment she had no defence ready. Elizabeth was +encouraged by her mother's silence. Mrs. Farnshaw talked so much that it +was not easy to get her attention. The young girl, glowing with the +discoveries made in Aunt Susan's home, desired to get at the bottom of the +causes of inharmony in her own and to reorganize it on a better basis. It +looked as if she was to be granted a hearing upon her schemes. + +"I don't care about him running over _us_ so much," she said +diplomatically, "but you let him run over you in the same way. Now isn't +there some way to come at him and get him to see it. When we're alone you +talk about him domineering over you, but when he's here you let him say +anything he wants to and you never try to help yourself. Why don't you +strike out on a new tack and say you won't do it when he makes +unreasonable demands? Why don't you reason with him good-naturedly, if you +think that's better, without crying, I mean, and then if he won't listen +at all----" + +"I don't know, Lizzie," the mother interposed slowly. "I sometimes think I +will an' then when he's here something won't let me. It ain't what he says +to you; it's--it's--something he does to you when he looks at you. I'm as +weak as water when he looks at me. I don't know why. I guess it's because +I've always give up--an'--an'--I can't tell why. A woman does just like a +horse--there's more'n one kind of whippin' a man can give--an' she gets +scared--an' minds. A man begins right from th' first t' tell her what to +do an' she loves 'im and wants t' please 'im, an' before long she don't +have her way no more'n a nigger." + +Some of the truth of the statement came within the grasp of the daughter, +who was looking across the idle churn with her mind fixed in singleness of +purpose upon remedies, and yet she felt that there was some other element +in the matter not yet accounted for. The hopeless tone of the older woman, +however, goaded her young spirit into forgetting the caution necessary to +dealing with the subject. Her blood fired with resentment that one life +should be so crushed by another. It was her mother whose shoulders drooped +with a burden too heavy for her to throw off. + +"If you're sure of that, why don't you leave him? We children are old +enough to support ourselves and----" + +"Lizzie!" + +Elizabeth had overshot the mark. Her mother was of another generation. + +"But, ma," the girl protested quickly, "I don't say leave him if you can +find any way of settling matters. Can't you have a talk with him--and get +him to let you alone if you are willing to do the very best you can? +That's the best way. Have you tried it?" + +"No I hain't," the mother replied shortly; "it wouldn't do no good. But if +my talkin' t' you is goin' t' make you say such things, I ain't goin't' +talk t' you no more. When folks is married they're married, an' I don't +believe in partin', nor talk of partin'." + +"Well, I think maybe you are right, but if you and pa are going to live +together you ought to try and have it out, and be a help to each other +instead----" She broke off and thought a moment, "Now Aunt Susan and Uncle +Nate----" + +"Stop right there!" Mrs. Farnshaw cried, afire with jealousy. "That +woman's brought more trouble into this house a'ready than She'll ever take +out. Your pa's been rantin' about her all winter an'--an' he said you'd be +pokin' her ways into our faces th' very day you got home. I 'spect she's +th' one that got it into your head to talk of partin', most likely." + +"Oh, now, ma, don't go on like that. You don't know about Aunt Susan. +She's the last person in the world to ever suggest such a thing. That's +just what I started out to say--they never have a word about anything. +It's the loveliest home to live in, and I was just thinking that they must +have found----" + +"I said I didn't want t' hear nothin' more about them folks, an' I don't," +Mrs. Farnshaw cried, caught on the other horn of the argument and even +more deeply offended than before. "She'll most likely get all your love +just like she got all your father's money last winter. You needn't mention +her here no more. Th' school directors 'll be over to see you about +fillin' out that term, to-night," Mrs. Farnshaw ended shortly, and turned +the subject of conversation to other channels. + +"Me? To fill out the term?" Elizabeth exclaimed in surprise. "What's gone +wrong with the school here? I don't want a piece of a term, and I don't +want, ever, to teach in this district where I've gone to school." + +"Well, you're goin' to," was the brief reply. "Your pa an' me told 'em +you'd take it." + +"But how does it happen that the school is without a teacher?" Elizabeth +asked with curiosity, ignoring the curt disposal of her services. She was +accustomed to the peremptory measures of her parents. + +"Jake Ransom run him out. He just piked off after he got his money order +cashed last Saturday mornin'." + +"And you expect me to take a school that's all upside down from that kind +of handling--and me without any experience?" + +"You'll take it an' You'll do your best, an' we won't hear no more about +it. Here, ma, tie up this finger," Mr. Farnshaw said. He had just come in +from the barn in time to hear his daughter's objections. + +Later in the evening the directors came. Family pressure was strong, and +with reluctance Elizabeth accepted the month yet to be taught. It would +help with the interest, and that interest clouded the family sky to the +horizon on every side now. Elizabeth was divided between a fear of +inability to manage a demoralized school and the desire to add twenty-five +dollars to the family revenue. In anticipation she saw the unruly boys +supported and encouraged in insubordination by such as Sadie Crane, who +was jealously ready to resent her--a former playmate--in the rôle of +authority. And to put herself right with the governing board Elizabeth +told the new director--Sadie's own father--her fears on that score. + +"They have played with me and we have had the sort of quarrels all +children have, Mr. Crane, and I may not be able to manage them." + +Lon Crane was ignorant and uncouth, but big of heart, and the openness of +the discussion pleased him. + +"You jest take that school, young lady, an' I'll see that my end of th' +thing's kep' up. I'll come over there an thrash every mother's son of 'em +if I have t'. I'd kind o' like t' lick a few of 'em anyhow, an' if my +young ones give any trouble, you jes' stop in on your way home an' I'll +see that it don't never happen ag'in." + +Half the battle was won; she let him hold her hand a moment at +leave-taking while he reinforced his remarks by many repetitions. + +"Don't you worry, Sis," he repeated as he backed out of the door; "you +needn't be afraid; this here school board's at your back. We know it's a +bad school, but, by ginger! we'll see that you're stood by. You jes' let +me know if that there Jake Ransom tries any more monkeyshines and I'll tan +his hide till It'll be good for shoe leather." + +It occurred to Elizabeth that every word they were saying would be carried +to the boy long before Monday morning and that a bad matter might from the +very goodness of the teller's intentions be made worse. + +"How old did you say the Ransom boy was?" she asked with concern. + +"Fifteen--and a stinker if there ever was one." + +"Then I think maybe I'll have a show. I thought he was older than that," +she said diplomatically. "Now may I ask that what we have said be kept +quiet? I would rather like to have a fair show with him--and I'll admit +I'd like to be on good terms. Promise me that what we have said may be a +secret even from your own family till after Monday." + +Elizabeth went forward and spoke confidentially. The man liked her even +better than before. + +"I'll do it, by jing!" he exclaimed. "They'll be wantin' t' know soon's +ever I get home what we done about it, an' fur once they'll suck their +thumbs. Look out fur that boy, though; he's a black sheep that lives +around in any flock; ain't got no home. I'll help if I'm needed." + +Elizabeth listened closely to all that she heard her brothers say about +Jake Ransom, trying to form some estimate of his character, and soon came +to the conclusion that whatever else the boy might be, he was at least not +to be classed as a sneak. In fact, Jake seemed to have rather a surprising +faculty for announcing his policies before he began action. + +When school opened Monday morning the bully was easily recognizable. +Elizabeth had gone through all the stages of fright, of distaste for the +job, and lastly of set determination to show this district that she could +take that boy and not only conquer him but become friends with him. +Instead of being nervous about the coming encounter, however, Elizabeth +grew more steady and self-reliant as she felt his eyes upon her, and +actually became interested in the small affairs preceding the ringing of +the bell, and forgot him altogether till it was time to call the roll. + +Jacob Ransom's name came last on the list. A titter ran around the room +when it was called. The tone of reply was louder than the rest and defiant +of manner. Elizabeth looked around the room with frank inquiry and the +titter died down. She let her gaze wander quietly and naturally down the +aisle to the seat of the bully and was surprised to find that she liked +the boy. + +Closing the roll book and following an instinct rather than a formulated +plan, Elizabeth walked slowly down the room to his desk. A faint giggle +behind her spoke of the hushed expectations of trouble. + +"If I hear any more laughing in this room, I shall inquire into the +matter," she said sternly, facing about beside Jake's desk. + +The instant response to that remark gave her confidence in her own powers. +It was the first time she had ever used the tone of authority and she +instinctively recognized that the quality of her personality in that +position was good. Both she and Jake Ransom were on trial in that room. + +"So you are the 'Jake' I have heard about?" she said, looking him frankly +in the face and letting him see that she was measuring him openly. "Is +your name Jake or Jacob?" she asked, as if it were an important matter to +get settled. + +"Don't call me Jacob," the boy snapped. + +"I think I like the nickname better myself," Elizabeth replied easily. Her +good fairy beckoned her on. "These children are all laughing because they +think we are going to pull each other's hair presently. We will show them +at least that we are a lady and a gentleman, I trust. Let me see your +books." She looked at him with such straightforward sincerity that the boy +returned the look in the same spirit. + +The books were produced in surprise; this was walking into the middle of +the ring and bidding for an _open_ fight, if fight they must. The boy +loved a square deal. Jake Ransom's sting had been drawn. + +"You are in advance of the rest of the school. Are you preparing for the +high school?" Elizabeth asked, emphasizing her surprise. + +"Lord, no!" the boy blurted out. + +Elizabeth looked through the book in her hand slowly before she asked: + +"Why don't you? I was only about as far along as this in arithmetic last +year. Some one said you were ready for it." + +"Oh, I kin do 'rithmetic all right, but I ain't no good in nothin' +else--an'--an'--wouldn't I look fine teachin' school?" Jake Ransom +exclaimed, but the bully melted out of him by way of the fact that she had +heard good reports of him. He would not smoke this level-eyed girl out of +the schoolhouse, nor sprinkle the floor with cayenne, as was the usual +proceeding of the country bumpkin who failed to admire his teacher. Jake +Ransom was not really a bully; he was a shy boy who had been domineered +over by a young popinjay of a teacher who had never taught school before +and who had himself many lessons to learn in life's school. The boy +brought out his slate, spit on its grimy surface and wiped it with his +sleeve. One of the buttons on his cuff squeaked as he wiped it across, and +the children had something tangible to laugh at. Elizabeth was wise enough +to take no notice of that laugh. + +Some one has said that experience is not as to duration but as to +intensity, and it was Elizabeth's fate to live at great pressure in every +important stage of her life. But for the fact that she had made a friend +of Jake Ransom that month's events would have had a different story. Sadie +Crane took exceptions to every move made and every mandate issued from the +teacher's desk. The spirit of insubordination to which the entire school +had been subjected that winter made good soil for Sadie's tares. For the +most part the dissatisfaction was a subtle thing, an undercurrent of which +Elizabeth was aware, but upon which she could lay no finger of rebuke, but +at times it was more traceable, and then, to the young teacher's surprise, +Jake Ransom had ways of dealing with the offenders outside of school +hours. Sadie's tongue was sharp and she was accustomed to a wholesome +attitude of fear among the scholars, but her first thrusts at Jake had +aroused a demon of which she had little dreamed. Jake had no foolish pride +and would admit his faults so guilelessly that her satire fell to the +ground. He was an entirely new sort to the spiteful child. The terrible +advantage the person who will admit his faults cheerfully has over the one +who has pride and evades was never more manifest. Jake Ransom pointed out +to a credulous following the causes of Sadie's disaffection, and left the +envious child in such a state of futile rage that she was ready to burst +with her ill-directed fury. In the end the month's work had to be granted +the tribute of success, and the term closed with a distinct triumph for +Elizabeth and the experience of a whole year's trial crowded into four +short weeks. + +At home things were not so fortunate. The young girl had come back from +Topeka with higher ideals of home life, of personal conduct, and of good +manners than she had ever had before. It was so good to have something +better, and Elizabeth hungered to pass along the transforming things she +had found; but when she tried to give the boys gentle hints about correct +ways of eating she was greeted with guffaws and sarcastic chuckles about +handling soup with a fork. Mrs. Farnshaw saw nothing but Susan Hornby's +interference, Mr. Farnshaw told her to attend to her own affairs until her +help was desired, and when the child was rebuffed and unable to hide her +disappointment and retired within herself, both parents resented the +evident and growing difference between her and themselves. + +It was to escape from a home which was unendurable that Elizabeth +flat-footedly, and for the first time, refused to accede to her parents' +authority. When the matter of a spring term of school came up for +discussion she refused to teach the home school again, though Mr. Crane +had been so pleased with her work that he had offered it to her. When +asked if Jake Ransom was the objection she indignantly asserted to the +contrary. + +"He was the best pupil I had," she said, "but I don't want to teach at +home, and I won't do it," and that was all she would say. She secured a +school ten miles north of her home; ten miles had been the nearest point +which she would consider. + +The interest was at last paid, but when the summer groceries were paid for +there was no money left with which to go back to Topeka, and it was +necessary to teach a winter school. Elizabeth went to work anew to collect +funds for another year's schooling. Mr. Farnshaw sold himself short of +corn in the fall, however, and the young girl was expected to make up the +deficit. In the spring the interest was to be paid again, and so at the +end of a year and a half the situation was unchanged. The next year a +threshing machine was added to the family assets, and again the cry of +"help" went up, again Elizabeth's plans were sacrificed. The next year the +interest was doubled, and for four years Elizabeth Farnshaw worked against +insurmountable odds. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + +A CULTURED MAN + + +When no remonstrance of hers availed to prevent the constant increase of +expenses, Elizabeth saw that her assistance, instead of helping the family +to get out of debt, was simply the means of providing toys for +experimentation, and that she was being quietly but persistenly euchred +out of all that her heart cherished. Mr. Farnshaw valued the machinery he +was collecting about him, Mrs. Farnshaw valued the money, partly because +in one way and another it added to the family possessions, and also +because her husband having found out that he could obtain it through her +easier than by direct appeal, she could avoid unpleasantness with him by +insisting upon her daughter giving it to him; but Elizabeth's education +was valued by no one but Elizabeth, and unless she were to learn her +lesson quickly the time for an education to be obtained would have +passed. + +"It's of no use for you to talk to me, ma," Elizabeth said the spring +after she was twenty years old, "I shall keep every cent I make this +summer. Pa gets into debt and won't let anybody help him out, and I am +going to go to Topeka this fall. I'm years older right now than the rest +of the scholars will be--not a single pupil that was there when I went +before will be there--and I'm going to go. I don't ever intend to pay the +interest on that old mortgage again--it's just pouring money into a +rat-hole!" + +[Illustration: "'NOW LOOK HERE, LIZZIE, ... YOUR PA EXPECTS IT'"] + +It was early morning and they were planting potatoes. Her mother stood +with her back turned toward the raw April wind as they talked, her old +nubia tied loosely about her head and neck, and her hands red with the +cold. + +"Now look here, Lizzie"--Mrs. Farnshaw always refused to use the full +name--"your pa expects it." + +"Of course he expects it; that's why he keeps adding to the mortgage; but +that don't make any difference. I'm going to Topeka this fall just the +same. I am not going to pay one dollar on the interest in May, and you can +tell pa if you like." + +Mrs. Farnshaw was alarmed. Elizabeth had protested and tried to beg off +from the yearly stipend before, but never in that manner. The tone her +daughter had used frightened her and she quivered with an unacknowledged +fear. Her husband's wrath was the Sheol she fought daily to avoid. What +would become of them if the interest were not paid? + +Added to Mrs. Farnshaw's personal desire to command her daughter's funds +there was the solid fear of her husband's estimate of her failure. She +could not look in his eye and tell him that she was unable to obtain their +daughter's consent. To live in the house with him after Lizzie had told +him herself was equally unthinkable, for his wrath would be visited upon +her own head. + +"My child! My child!" she cried, "you don't have to be told what he will +do t' me." + +There was a long pause while she sobbed. The pause became a compelling +one; some one had to speak. + +"I can't help it, ma," Elizabeth said doggedly after a time. + +"Oh, but you don't know what it means. Come on to th' house. I can't work +no more, an' I've got t' talk this thing out with you." + +They picked up the pails and the hoe with which they had been covering the +hills and went to the house, carrying a burden that made a potato-planting +day a thing of no consequence. + +The mother busied herself with the cob fire as she argued, and Elizabeth +put away the old mittens with which she had protected her hands from the +earth which never failed to leave them chapped, before she picked up the +broom and began an onslaught on the red and fluffy dust covering the +kitchen floor. + +"You see, You'll go off t' teach an' won't know nothin' about it, +an'--an'--I'll have it t' bear an'----" The pause was significant. + +Mrs. Farnshaw watched her daughter furtively and strained her ears for +signs of giving up. At last Elizabeth said slowly: + +"I'm as sorry as I can be, ma, but--I'm twenty years old, and I've _got_ +to go." + +There was no doubting that her mind was made up, and yet her mother threw +herself against that stone wall of determination in frantic despair. + +"Lizzie, Lizzie, Lizzie! I can't live an' have you do it. You don't know, +child, what I have to bear." + +"Now look here, ma; you won't let me have things out openly with pa and +come to an understanding with him, and when I told you four years ago that +you ought to leave him if you couldn't live with him peaceably you talked +as if I had committed some sort of sin. You and pa are determined to fuss +it out and I can't help it, and I've sacrificed four good years to you and +the interest is bigger than it ever was. I haven't helped you one bit. If +you want to go on living with him You'll do it in your own way, but if +your life is unbearable, and you want to leave him, I'll see that you are +provided for. The law would give you a share of this----" + +The noise of the broom and of their voices had prevented them from hearing +any other sounds, but a shadow fell across the middle door and Josiah +Farnshaw entered the kitchen a blazing picture of wrath. Before he could +speak, however, the dog on the doorstep barked sharply at a stranger who +was close upon him, and the irate father was obliged to smooth his +manner. + +Elizabeth escaped to the bedroom as her father crossed to the kitchen to +see what the man wanted, and Mr. Farnshaw went on out to the pens a moment +later with the "hog buyer," as the man proved to be. + +"My God! My God! What have you done?" Mrs. Farnshaw cried, following +Elizabeth into the bedroom. + +"I don't know, ma," the girl cried, as white as her mother. "I'm going to +get off to hunt up a school while that man is here. The sun has come out +and it's only ten o'clock. If you're afraid, come along," she advised, as +she hurried into a clean calico dress and took down her old black riding +skirt from its nail. + +"Lizzie!" the mother exclaimed, as much afraid of the advice as she was of +her husband. + +There was little time left her for argument, for Elizabeth hurriedly tied +a thick green veil over her plain straw hat and left the house. The hog +pens were on the opposite side of the stable from the house and Elizabeth +soon had Patsie, now a mare of five years, saddled and bridled. + +The air was softening, and it occurred to her that it was going to rain, +as she hurried out of the yard, but she did not wait to get extra wraps +nor her umbrella. The best thing to do, she knew, was to get away while +that hog buyer was there and trust to luck for the edge of her father's +anger to wear away before she returned. + +Fortunately she had worn her old coat, which was heavy and waterproof, and +when it did begin to rain half an hour later, instead of turning back she +pressed forward, more afraid of the thunderstorm at home than any to be +encountered on the way. + +Elizabeth rode steadily southward, thinking out her share in this new +quarrel in which she had embroiled her parents, unaware that as it +drizzled it became warmer and that the day had become spring-like and +endurable. She began to question the propriety of having suggested drastic +measures to her mother. "Till death do you part" rang in her ears in spite +of the certainty that the union of her mother and her father was an unholy +thing which was damning them more surely than a separation could possibly +do. Of only one thing could Elizabeth be sure: she saw without mistake at +last that she must decide upon her own duties hereafter without listening +to a mother who could not decide anything for herself. + +The director of the district to which Elizabeth first turned her steps was +away from home when she arrived and it was necessary to consider where she +would go next. After some thought she decided to try the Chamberlain +district, which lay between there and her home. It was eight miles from +the Farnshaw homestead and far enough away so that she would not have to +board with her parents and she determined to try to meet the school board, +which met usually on the first Tuesday night in April. + +The fact of facing around toward the north again set her to considering +what course of action she would pursue when she went back home. + +"I'll go back, I guess, and be patient with whatever he feels like doing +with me," she resolved, reflecting that from her father's standpoint he +had a very real grievance against her. "It was a dreadful thing for him to +hear me advising ma to leave him. I guess I owe it to them to try to +straighten it up. But I don't believe it can ever be straightened up," she +ended doubtfully. + +Elizabeth was passing a grove of young cottonwood trees and was so +absorbed in her thoughts that, becoming only half conscious that Patsie +was lagging and that time was passing rapidly, she gave her a slap with +the strap in her hand, urging the horse to a faster pace as she rounded +the corner of the section without looking up. Patsie broke into a long, +easy lope. Suddenly Elizabeth became conscious of the noise of other hoofs +splashing toward them. Glancing up, she saw a farm team almost upon them, +whose driver was stooped to avoid the rain. + +Elizabeth pulled her horse up sharply, and to one side. The trail was an +old one, and the sloping, washed-out rut was deep. Patsie lost her footing +and, after a slipping plunge or two, fell floundering on her side before +her mistress could support her with the rein. Active as a boy, Elizabeth +loosened her foot from the stirrup and flung herself to the other side of +the road, out of the way of the dangerous hoofs. Elizabeth slipped as her +feet struck the ground and she landed on "all-fours" in the grass. + +The young man, suddenly awake to what had happened, was out of his high +seat and had the mare by the bridle before its rider had fairly scrambled +up. + +"I beg your pardon! Are you hurt?" he called across the wagon, when +Patsie, still nervous from her fall, hung back as far as her rein would +permit and not only refused to be led but threatened to break away +altogether. + +"Not at all! Not a bit! Whoa! Patsie! Whoa! Lady!" Elizabeth cried, coming +around to them, and extending a smeary, dripping hand for the taut rein. + +The young man let her step in front of him and put her hand on the strap, +but kept his own there as well, while they both followed the backing horse +with braced steps, the girl talking soothingly to the frightened animal +the while. The naturally docile filly responded to the voice she had heard +from earliest colthood and soon let Elizabeth approach close enough to put +her hand on the bit. The seriousness of the affair gave way to the comic +when the horse began to snatch bits of grass from the roadside. + +The young couple laughed and looked at each other rather sheepishly as +they saw that further cooperation was not needed. They untangled their +hands where they had slipped tight together in the loop of the bridle rein +as they had followed the rearing beast. + +"She has broken the girth," the young man said, lifting his hat +ceremoniously and with a manner not born of life on the farm. + +He threw the stirrup over the top of the saddle and fished under the now +quiet horse for her dangling surcingle. Having secured it, he untied the +strap and examined it to see if it were sufficiently long to permit of +tying another knot. Deciding that it was, he tied one end in the ring in +the saddle and, passing the other through the ring of the girth, drew it +up with a strong, steady pull. His side face against the saddle, as he +pulled, permitted him to examine curiously the young girl in front of +him. + +"Are you sure you are not hurt at all?" he asked solicitously. + +"Not a bit--only muddy," she replied, stooping to brush her earth-stained +hands through the rain-laden grass at the roadside. He was still working +with the straps when her hands were cleaned and watched her openly as she +shielded her face behind Patsie's head while waiting. The water dripped +from the ends of her braided brown hair and the long dark lashes of her +brown eyes were mist-laden also. He examined all the accoutrements of her +mount minutely. When at last it occurred to her that he was giving them +extra attention for the sake of extending the time Elizabeth's eyes +lighted up with a humorous twinkle. The young man caught and rightly +interpreted the expression and was embarrassed. + +"I think it's all right," he said quickly. "I'm awfully sorry to have been +so stupid. I never thought of meeting any one in all this rain." + +Elizabeth took that as a reflection upon her presence out of doors on such +a day, and leading her horse down into the deep road sprang into the +saddle from the bank before he could offer his assistance. + +"Thank you for helping me," she said, and was off toward the west before +he could speak. + +She was gone, and he could do nothing but look after her helplessly. + +"Your horse has lamed itself," he called when he was at last able to +concern himself with such matters, but either the spattering hoofbeats +prevented her hearing his voice or she was determined not to reply; he +could not tell which. There was nothing to do but return to his wagon. + +"Confound it!" he exclaimed. "Now you've made an ass of yourself and let +her get away without finding out who she was or where she lived." He liked +her--and he was an ass! He anathematized himself openly. + +When well away from the man, Elizabeth saw that his observation regarding +the prospects of meeting people on such a day was a perfectly natural one +and not aimed at her at all. She laughed at the spectacle she was sure she +must have presented, and wished now that she had not been in such a hurry +in leaving him. Here was a man worth looking at. The gesture as he had +lifted his hat indicated refinement. + +"Curious that I haven't seen him--he lives here some where," she pondered, +and now that she could not find out she rated herself severely for the +embarrassment which was apt to assail her at critical moments. + +Patsie limped miserably, and Elizabeth brought her down to a walk and let +her droop along the old country road, and speculated on this new specimen +of masculinity which had dropped from the skies to puzzle and delight her +soul. + +The rain beat heavily now, and Elizabeth began to take her situation into +account after thinking over the stranger a few minutes. There was a +perfect deluge of water from the burdened sky, and though no sign of a +house could be seen, she knew she could not be far from the Chamberlain +homestead; but the ground was becoming more and more soggy, and her +garments were not of the heaviest. Patsie's feet went ploop, ploop, ploop, +in the soft, muddy road. Elizabeth urged her to the fastest possible +walking speed in spite of her lameness. To trot or gallop was impossible, +and the young horse slipped now and then in a manner which would have +unseated a less skilful rider. + +The sodden Kansas road was aflood with this spring rain. Patsie laboured +heavily and Elizabeth gave herself up to her cogitations again. Her mind +had reacted to more pleasant subjects than home affairs. + +It had been a dreary, disheartening ride, and yet it had had its +compensations, for was not the rider young and the earth filled with the +freshness of spring? The short and tender grass bordered the road to the +very wheel-ruts; the meadow larks sang regardless of the rain, or mayhap +in sheer meadow-lark delight because of it. To the south a prairie chicken +drummed, and a cow called to her calf, whose reply came from a point still +farther in the distance. At the sound of the cow's lowing Elizabeth +Farnshaw peered delightedly through mists. + +"I knew it couldn't be much farther, Patsie," she said, leaning forward +and patting the neck of the dripping horse. Little spurts of water flew +spatteringly from under the affectionate palm, and Elizabeth shook her +bare hand to free it from the wet hairs which adhered to it, laughing at +her rainsoaked condition. + +It was indeed a time for seeking shelter. + +Presently the rattle of a chain was heard nearby, then the outlines of a +straw stable were seen, and from the foreground of mist a man appeared +unhitching a team of horses from a large farm wagon. Patsie gave a little +nicker of anticipation as she scented the sacks of oats, carefully +covered, in the back of the wagon. The old man rose from his stooping +position in unfastening the tugs and faced the newcomer. + +"Why, it's Miss Farnshaw! Gee whiz! Be you a duck t' be out on such a day +as this?" he inquired, stepping forward when he saw that she was coming +in. Then chuckling at his own humour, he added: + +"I guess you be a goslin'--a goslin' bein' a young goose, you know." + +Elizabeth Farnshaw laughed. "But my feathers aren't turning the rain, Mr. +Chamberlain." It was the second time within the hour that she had been +reminded that women were not expected to go out of doors in a rainstorm. + +"That's because you're such a young goose, you know; you ain't got no +feathers yet, it's only down." + +"Fairly caught!" she replied, backing her horse around so that the rain +would come from behind, "Tell me, does the school board meet to-night?" + +"Oh, ho!" the farmer replied, "that's th' way th' wind blows, is it? Now +look here, young lady, if you be as prompt in lickin' them youngsters in +season an' out o' season as you be in lookin' up schools I guess You'll +do. Yes, sir-ee, th' school board meets to-night an' you jes' come t' th' +house an' have a bite t' eat an' we'll see what we can do for you. Why, +stars an' garters!" he exclaimed as he lifted her down from her horse, +"Liza Ann 'll have t' put you in th' oven along with th' rest of th' +goslins." Then he added: "Now you run along to th' house, an' I'll take +this horse in hand. I judge by its nicker you didn't stop for no dinner +to-day." + +Mrs. Chamberlain appeared at the door and her husband called to her, + +"Liza Ann! here's Miss Farnshaw, as wet as that last brood of chickens you +found under th' corn-planter. Give 'er a dry pair of shoes an' take 'er +wet coat off o' 'er." + +As Elizabeth turned to her hostess, the old man exclaimed, "Why, Gosh all +Friday, what's happened to your horse?" + +"I'm awfully worried about Patsie's foot. She slipped in the muddy road +this afternoon. Do you suppose It'll lay her up? It's a busy time and pa +needs her." + +"I don't know; it's in a ticklish place. I'll rub it good with Mustang +liniment; that's th' best thing I know of. Now you run on to th' house; +you're wet enough t' wake up lame yourself in th' mornin'," he admonished, +straightening up, with his hands on the small of his back. + +Having dismissed Elizabeth, Silas Chamberlain took Patsie's saddle from +her back and laid it across Old Queen's harness, taking his own team into +the barn first. Old Queen was an unsocial animal and it was necessary to +tie her in the far stall when a strange horse was brought into the barn, +as she had a way of treating intruders badly. She sniffed at the saddle +distrustfully as Mr. Chamberlain tied her up. + +"Whoa! there!" he said emphatically, giving her a slap on the flank which +sent her into the opposite corner of the stall. "You needn't be s' all +fired touchy you can't let a strange saddle come into th' stall. That +saddle's carried th' pluckiest girl in this end of th' county t'day. +Gosh-a-livin's! Think of her a comin' out on a day like this, an' smilin' +at them wet feathers, as she called 'em, 's if it didn't make no +difference bein' wet at all. Now if John Hunter gets his eyes on 'er +there'll be an end of ma's board money; an' then how'll I finish payin' +fur that sewin' machine?" + +In the house, after some time spent in trying to be stiffly polite to her +guest, the unwilling hostess began the supper. The potatoes were put on to +fry, the kettle sang, and Mrs. Chamberlain sat down to grind the coffee in +a mill which she grasped firmly between her knees. + +"Maybe you 'uns don't drink coffee?" she remarked anxiously, stopping to +look over at the girl, who sat near the fire drying her shoes in the +oven. + +"Oh, yes," Elizabeth answered slowly, coming back reluctantly from a +consideration of the handsome stranger she had met; "that is," she added +confusedly, "I never drink anything but water, anyhow." + +Mrs. Chamberlain gave a relieved sigh. "I was afraid you'd rather have +tea, an' I ain't got no tea in th' house. Bein' farmin' season now it +seems as if I can't never get t' town." + +Just then one adventurous chick which, with the rest of the brood, had +been discovered under the corn-planter earlier in the day, jumped out of +the box in which it had been kept near the fire. Mrs. Chamberlain set the +mill on the table and gave chase to the runaway. + +"That's th' peertest chicken of th' lot," she remarked as she again +enveloped him in the old woollen skirt, from the folds of which came much +distressed cheeping. "They're hungry, I think," she added, reaching for a +bowl of yellow cornmeal which she mixed with water. Lifting the skirt off +the little brood carefully, and giving it a cautious shake to assure +herself that no unwary chick was caught in its folds, she dropped some of +the mixture in the middle of the box, tapping lightly with the spoon to +call the attention of the chicks to its presence. The chickens pecked +hungrily, and there was a satisfied note in the twitterings of the downy +little group as Mrs. Chamberlain turned to the preparation of her supper +again. + +"Yes, he's th' peertest chicken of th' lot; an' I'd most as soon he'd been +more like th' rest--he's always gettin' out of th' box." + +"Now, Liza Ann, you ain't thinkin' nothin' of th' kind," said her husband, +who had hurried with his evening chores so as to get a chance to visit +with the company and had just come in from the stable. "You know you said +yourself, 'Thank goodness, there's one on 'em alive,' when you fished 'em +out from under that planter. Th' same thing's keeping 'im on th' go now +that kept 'im from givin' up as quick as th' rest did then. Chicken's is +like boys, Miss Farnshaw," Silas continued, addressing Elizabeth; "th' +ones that makes th' most trouble when thy're little, you can count on as +bein' th' most likely when they're growed up. Now, Liza Ann there counted +on that chicken soon's ever she set eyes on 'im." + +Having washed his face and hands in the tin basin on the bench just +outside the kitchen door, Silas Chamberlain combed his curly locks of iron +gray before the little looking glass which was so wrinkled that he looked +like some fantastic caricature when mirrored on its surface. After a short +grace at the opening of the meal, he passed a dish of potatoes, +remarking: + +"We ain't much hands t' wait on th' table, Miss Farnshaw; You'll have t' +reach an' help yourself." + +"Who's this plate for?" Elizabeth asked at last, designating the vacant +place at her side. + +"That's John's," said Mrs. Chamberlain. + +"John Hunter's, Miss Farnshaw," said Silas. "He's our boarder, an' th' +likeliest young man in these parts." Then he added with conviction, "You +two be goin' t' like each other." + +A girlish blush covered the well-tanned cheeks, and to hide her +embarrassment Elizabeth said with a laugh: + +"Describe this beau ideal of yours." + +"Now, Si, do let th' child alone," Mrs. Chamberlain protested. "He's +always got t' tease," she added deprecatingly. + +"Sometimes I be an' sometimes not. Miss Farnshaw made me think of you some +way when I see her this afternoon." Noting his wife's look of surprise, he +explained: "I mean when I see you down to th' Cherryvale meetin' house. +An' it didn't take me long t' make up my mind after that, neither." + +Mrs. Chamberlain smiled at the mention of girlhood days, but said nothing, +and Silas turned to Elizabeth again with his honest face alight with +memories of youth. + +"You see, Miss Farnshaw, I'd gone out on th' hunt of a stray calf, an' an +unexpected shower came on--th' kind that rains with th' sun still a +shinin'--an' I dug my heels into old Charlie's flanks an' hurried along +down th' road to th' meeting house, a few rods farther on, when what +should I see but a pretty girl on th' steps of that same place of refuge! +Well, I begged 'er pardon, but I stayed on them there steps till that +shower cleared off. Most of th' time I was a prayin' that another cloud +would appear, an' I didn't want it no bigger than a man's hand neither. +No, sir-ee, I wouldn't 'a' cared if it'd 'a' been as big as th' whole Bay +of Biscay. An' what I was thinkin' jest now was that there was about th' +same fundamental differences 'tween you an' John Hunter that th' was +'tween Liza Ann an' me. He's light haired an' blue eyed, an tall an' slim, +an' he's openin' up a new farm, an' 'll need a wife. He talks of his +mother comin' out t' keep house for him, but, law's sakes! she wasn't +raised on a farm an' wouldn't know nothin' about farm work. Oh, yes, I +forgot t' tell you th' best part of my story: I got t' carry Miss Liza Ann +Parkins home on old Charlie, 'cause th' crick rose over th' banks outen +th' clouds of rain I prayed for!" + +"Now, Si Chamberlain, there ain't a word of truth in that, an' you know +it," said his wife, passing Elizabeth a hot biscuit. "I walked home by th' +turnpike road, Miss Farnshaw, though we did wait a bit, till it dried up a +little." + +Her husband's laugh rang out; he had trapped Liza Ann into the discussion, +in spite of herself, and he had trapped her into an admission as well. + +"Well," he said, "I may be mistaken about th' details, but I've always had +a soft spot in my heart for th' rainy days since that particular time." + +"But you haven't told me why Mr. Hunter isn't here to eat his supper," +said Elizabeth, "nor have you told me what he is like." + +"Oh, he's gone over to Colebyville for his mail, an' won't be home till +late--in all this mud. As to what he's like--it ain't easy t' tell what +John's like; he's--he's a university feller; most folks say he's a dude, +but we like him?" + +"What university?" Elizabeth asked with a quick indrawn breath; she knew +now whom she had met on the road that afternoon. + +"He comes from Illinois. I guess it's th' State University--I never asked +him. His father died an' left him this land an' he's come out here to farm +it. Couldn't plow a straight furrow t' save his life when he come a little +over a year ago, but he's picked up right smart," Silas added, thereby +giving the information the young girl wanted. + +This young man was to be in this neighbourhood all summer. Still another +reason for applying for the Chamberlain school. + +As Elizabeth helped Liza Ann with her dishwashing after supper, John +Hunter came in. The ground had been too soft for them to hear the wagon +when he drove up. Silas introduced them promptly and added with a grin: + +"You've heard of folks that didn't know enough t' come in out of th' rain? +Well, that's her!" + +John Hunter's eyes twinkled an amused recognition, but he did not mention +the accident in which Patsie had come to grief. + +"I am very glad to meet you, Miss Farnshaw; we are both wet weather +birds." + +Seeing Liza Ann reach for a frying pan, he addressed himself to her: + +"Never mind any supper for me, Mrs. Chamberlain. I knew I'd be late, as I +had to go around by Warren's after I got back, and I got an early supper +at the new hotel before I left town!" + +"The extravagance of that!" exclaimed Mrs. Chamberlain, to whom hotel +bills were unknown. + +John Hunter went to the door to clean some extra mud off his boot tops, +and to hide a wide and fatuous smile at the thought of tricking Silas out +of his accustomed joke. He felt nearer the girl, because she too had been +silent regarding the afternoon encounter. He liked the mutuality of it and +resolved that it should not be the last touch of that sort between them. +While not really intellectual, John Hunter had the polish and tastes of +the college man, and here he reflected was a girl who seemed near being on +his own level. She looked, he thought, as if she could see such small +matters as bespattered clothes. + +Silas followed him out. "You didn't bed them horses down did you?" he +asked. + +"No. I expect we'd better do it now and have it out of the way." + +As they entered the dark stable and felt their way along the back of the +little alley, behind the stalls, for the pitchforks, the younger man asked +indifferently: + +"Who did you say the young lady was?" + +"Oh, ho!" shouted Silas; "it didn't take you long. I knew you'd be +courtin' of me along with your questions. Now look here, John Hunter, you +can't go an' carry this schoolma'am off till this here term's finished. I +look fur Carter an' that new director over to-night, for a school meetin', +an' I'm blamed if I'm goin' t' have you cuttin' into our plans--no, +sirr-ee--she's t' be left free t' finish up this school, anyhow, if I help +'er get it." + +"No danger! You get her the school; but how does she come to have that air +away out here? Does she come from some town near here?" + +"Town nothin'! She was jest raised on these prairies, same as th' rest of +us. Ain't she a dandy! No, sir--'er father's a farmer--'bout as common as +any of us, an' she ain't had no different raisin'. She's different in +'erself somehow. Curious thing how one body'll have a thing an' another +won't, an' can't seem t' get it, even when he wants it an' tries. Now you +couldn't make nothin' but jest plain farmer out of me, no matter what you +done t' me." + +"Do you think they'll give her the school?" John asked. + +Silas's laugh made the young man uncomfortable. He had intended to avoid +the necessity for it, but had forgotten himself. + +"There's Carter now," was all the reply the old man gave as he moved +toward the door, which he could dimly see now that he had been in the +darkness long enough for his eyes to become accustomed to it. The +splashing footsteps of a horse and the voice of a man cautioning it came +from toward the road. + +"That you, Carter?" Silas called. + +"Yes. This ground's fairly greasy to-night," answered the voice. + +"Bring your horse in here; there's room under cover for it," was the +rejoinder. + +They tied it in the darkness, feeling their way from strap to manger. "The +Farnshaw girl's here waitin' fur th' school." + +"Glad of that," replied the newcomer. "I don't know her very well, but +they say she can handle youngsters. She's had some extry schoolin' too. +Don't know as that makes any difference in a summer term, but it's never +in th' way." + +The young man slipped out of the stable, intending to get a word with the +new teacher before the others came to the house. The school was assured to +her with two members of the board in her favour, he reflected. Liza Ann +had gone to the other room, and finding the way clear he asked in a half +whisper: + +"Did you lame your horse badly?" And when Elizabeth only nodded and looked +as if she hoped her hostess had not heard, John Hunter was filled with +joy. The mutuality of the reticence put them on the footing of good +fellowship. There was no further opportunity for conversation, as they +heard Silas and Carter on the step and a third party hail them from a +distance. + +There was a moment's delay and when the door did at last open Elizabeth +Farnshaw gave a glad cry: + +"Uncle Nate! Where in the world did you come from?" + +She caught Nathan Hornby by the lapels of his wet overcoat and stood him +off from her, looking at him in such a transport of joy that they were the +centre of an admiring and curious group instantly. + +While Nathan explained that they had only last month traded their wooded +eighty for a hundred and sixty acres of prairie land in this district, and +that it had been their plan to surprise her the next Sunday by driving +over to see her before she had heard that they were in that part of the +state, Elizabeth sat on the edge of the wood-box and still held to his +coat as if afraid the vision might vanish from her sight, and asked +questions twice as fast as the pleased old man could answer them, and +learned that Nathan had been appointed to fill out the unexpired term of +the moderator of the Chamberlain school district, with whom he had traded +for the land. The business of the evening was curtailed to give the pair a +chance to talk, and when the contract was signed, Elizabeth said that she +would go home with Nathan, and John Hunter thrust himself into the +felicitous arrangement by taking the young girl over in his farm wagon, it +being decided that Patsie's lameness made it best for her to remain housed +in Silas's barn for the night. + +It was a mile and a half along soggy roads to Nathan Hornby's, and John +Hunter made as much of the time fortune had thrown at him as possible. +They sat under one umbrella, and found the distance short, and John told +her openly that he was glad she was to be in his neighbourhood. + + + + +CHAPTER V + +REACHING HUNGRY HANDS TOWARD A SYMBOL + + +Susan Hornby's delight over Elizabeth's coming was the most satisfying +thing Nathan had seen since his return from Topeka. He had traded the land +to please his wife, by getting nearer Elizabeth, but the presence of the +girl in the house was so overwhelmingly surprising that Susan was swept by +its very suddenness into shedding tears of actual joy. Elizabeth was put +to the disconcerting necessity of explaining that her mother somewhat +resented Aunt Susan's influence upon her daughter's life when she found +her friends enthusiastically planning visits in the near future. She +softened the details as much as possible and passed it over as only a bit +of maternal jealousy, but was obliged to let this dear friend see that it +was rather a serious matter in her calculations. Susan Hornby now +understood why Elizabeth had never visited her in these four years. + +With the eyes of love Aunt Susan saw that four years in a position of +authority had ripened her darling, and made of her a woman of wit and +judgment, who could tell a necessary thing in a right manner or with a +reserve which was commendable. Eagerly she studied her to see what the +changes of those formative years had brought her. She listened to +Elizabeth's plans for going to Topeka, and rejoiced that the intellectual +stimulus was still strong in her. Elizabeth was obliged to explain away +her parent's attitude regarding further education, and left much for the +older woman to fill in by her intuitions and experience of the world, but +there again Susan Hornby saw evidences of strength which made her feel +that the loss was offset by power gained. Elizabeth Farnshaw had matured +and had qualities which would command recognition. John Hunter had shown +that he recognized them--a thing which Elizabeth without egotism also +knew. + +It was a new experience to go to sleep thinking of any man but Hugh. In +the darkness of the little bedroom in which Elizabeth slept that night +Hugh's priority was met face to face by John Hunter's proximity. +Possession is said to be nine points in the law, and John Hunter was on +the ground. The girl had been shut away from those of her kind until her +hungry hands in that hour of thought, reached out to the living presence +of the cultured man, and her hungry heart prayed to heaven that she might +not be altogether unpleasing to him. + +In the hour spent with John Hunter she had learned that he had come to +Kansas to open a farm on the only unmortgaged piece of property which his +father had left him when he died; that his mother intended to come to him +as soon as he had a house built; and by an accidental remark she had also +learned that there were lots in some eastern town upon which enough money +could be raised to stock the farm with calves and that it was the young +man's intention to farm this land himself. It seemed so incredible that +John Hunter should become a farmer that by her astonished exclamation over +it she had left him self-satisfied at her estimate of his foreignness to +the life he was driven to pursue. + +Elizabeth saw that if John Hunter must needs run a farm that he would do +his best at it, but that he did not wish to _appear_ one with a rôle, and +being young and with her own philosophy of life in a very much muddled +condition, she liked him the better for it. Crucified daily by the +incongruities of her own home, she craved deliverance from it and all it +represented. + +Just now Elizabeth Farnshaw was going home with something akin to fear in +her heart. She rated herself soundly for the useless advice she had thrust +upon her mother and for the entangling difficulties which her thoughtless +words had produced. That the union of her parents was unclean, that it was +altogether foul and by far worse than a divorce, she still felt confident, +but she saw that her mother was totally unable to comprehend the +difference between a clean separate life and the nagging poison dealt out +as daily bread to the husband with whom she lived; but she saw that +because of that very inability to understand the difference, the mother +must be left to find the light in her own way. In her desire to help, +Elizabeth had but increased her mother's burdens, and she tried to assume +an attitude of added tenderness toward her in her own mind, and puckered +her young face into a frown as she let Patsie limp slowly from one low +hill to another. + +"I'll do everything I can to square the deal for ma," she resolved, but in +her heart there was a sick suspicion that all she could do was not much, +and that it had small chance really to avail. + +Elizabeth had started early for home, but the sun rode high in the heavens +before she arrived. Albert, who was herding the cattle on the short grass +a half mile from home, warned her as she passed that she would do well to +hurry to the house. + +"Pa waited for you to do the milking, Bess, an' you didn't come. He's mad +as a hornet, an' You'll have t' bring th' cows out after he gets +through." + +It was a friendly warning. To be milking at that hour, when all the men in +the neighbourhood were already following plow and harrow, was an important +matter on the farm. Plainly it had been arranged to make Elizabeth feel a +hindrance to the business of getting in the crops, and it was with +increased apprehension that she approached home. + +The storm broke as soon as she was within hailing distance. + +"It's time you brought that horse home, young lady. You see to it that +it's harnessed for th' drag as quick as ever you can. Next time you get a +horse You'll know it." + +When Elizabeth started on and Mr. Farnshaw saw that Patsie was lame his +anger knew no bounds, and the sound of his exasperated voice could have +been heard half a mile away as he poured out a stream of vituperation. + +Elizabeth dodged into the barn as soon as its friendly door could be +reached, thankful that the cows were as far as they were from it. Joe was +harnessing a team in the far corner. + +"You better shy around pa, Sis; and get t' th' house," he cautioned. + +"All right. He told me to harness Patsie, but she's so lame I know she +can't work--what will I do?" + +"If she can't work, she can't. How did it happen?" + +"She strained herself just before I got to Mr. Chamberlain's. I was +passing a young man by the name of Hunter and she fell flat. Say, do you +know anything about Mr. Hunter?" + +"Yes, yes. Jimmie Crane says he's a stuck-up, who's goin' t' show us +country jakes how t' farm; but th' best thing you can do is t' get in an' +not let pa get any excuse for a row." + +Mr. Farnshaw had taken the milkpails to the house while they were talking +and it was Elizabeth's fate to encounter him on the doorstep as she ran up +to the kitchen door. + +"Where were you last night?" + +"I'm awfully sorry about the horse, pa. I hurried this morning, but Patsie +was so lame and I had to come all the way from the Chamberlain district. +The Haddon school board didn't meet this week and the director of number +Twelve was away, and it was so late last night that I couldn't get home." + +"Oh, you've always got a good excuse. I bet you didn't get a school after +all." + +Elizabeth had been edging toward the door as her father was speaking and +now made her escape to the inside of the house as she replied over her +shoulder in a perfectly respectful tone: + +"Oh, yes, I did, and it begins Monday." + +"Well, it's better than I expected. Now see to it that you get that riding +skirt off an' come an' drive my team while I finish them oats." + +The daughter stopped where she stood and was going to reply that she must +get ready if she were to go to Aunt Susan's the next day, but on second +thought closed her mouth down firmly. She knew she would do well if she +escaped with no harder tax laid upon her temper than that of putting off +her arrival at the Hornby home, and she turned to do as she was bidden. + +When Elizabeth found her homecoming unpleasant and her father sullen and +evidently nursing his wrath, she faced the storm without protest, took all +that was said quietly, helped in the fields and endeavoured to make up for +her unfortunate words in every helpful way possible. In all, she was so +subtly generous with her assistance that it was impossible to bring on a +quarrel with her, and the sour demeanour of her father was so carefully +handled that Friday arrived without an open break having occurred. A new +dress had been one of the longed-for accomplishments of the week's work, +but certain of Aunt Susan's help when she was safely entrenched in her +home, Elizabeth retired to the attic whenever she saw her father approach +the house. His attitude was threatening, but the anxious girl was able to +delay the encounter. It could only be _delayed_, for Mr. Farnshaw made a +virtue of not forgetting unpleasant things. + +The only unfortunate occurrence of the week was the presence of Sadie +Crane and her mother when Mr. Hunter drove up to the back door for +Elizabeth's trunk, but even this had had its beneficial side, for Josiah +Farnshaw had been mending harness, because a shower had made the ground +too wet to plow, and the presence of neighbours made it possible to get +the trunk packed without unpleasantness. When John Hunter drove up to the +back door, Mr. Farnshaw rose from his chair beside the window and went to +help put his daughter's possessions in the wagon. Sadie crossed over to +the window to get a look at Lizzie's new beau. + +Sadie Crane was now sixteen years old, and being undersized and childish +of appearance had never had the pleasure of the company of a young man. +The yearning in her pettish face as she stood unevenly on the discarded +harness, looking out of the window toward John Hunter, caught Elizabeth's +attention and illuminated the whole affair to the older girl. + +"Dude!" Sadie exclaimed spitefully, facing about and evidently offering +insult. + +But Elizabeth Farnshaw had seen the unsatisfied look which preceded the +remark and it was excused. Sadie was just Sadie, and not to be taken +seriously. + +"He'd better soak his head; he can't farm." + +No one replied, and Elizabeth said hurried good-byes and escaped. + +But though Sadie Crane was undersized and spoke scornfully, she was old +enough to feel a woman's desires and dream a woman's dreams. She watched +the pair drive away together in pleasant converse on the quilt-lined +spring seat of the farm wagon, and swallowed a sob. + +"Lizzie always had th' best of everything," she reflected. + +The roads were slippery and gave an excuse for driving slowly, and the +young man exerted himself to be agreeable. The distaste for the presence +of the Cranes at her home when he came for her, his possible opinion of +her family and friends, the prolonged struggle with her father, even the +headache from which she had not been free for days, melted out of +Elizabeth's mind in the joy of that ride, and left it a perfect +experience. It began to rain before they were halfway to their +destination, and they sat shoulder to shoulder under the umbrella, with +one of the quilts drawn around both. There was a sack of butterscotch, and +they talked of Scott, and Dickens, and the other books Elizabeth Farnshaw +had absorbed from Aunt Susan's old-fashioned library; and Elizabeth was +surprised to find that she had read almost as much as this college man, +and still more surprised to find that she remembered a great deal more of +what she had read than he seemed to do. She asked many questions about his +college experiences and learned that he had lacked but a year and a half +of graduation. + +"Why didn't you finish?" she asked curiously. + +"Well, you know, father died, and I didn't have hardly enough to finish +on, so I thought I'd come out here and get to making something. I didn't +care to finish. I'd had my fun out of it. I wish I hadn't gone at all. If +I'd gone into the office with my father and been admitted to the Bar it +would have been better for me. I wouldn't have been on the farm then," he +said regretfully. + +"Then why didn't you go into the law? You could have made it by yourself," +Elizabeth said, understanding that it hurt John Hunter's pride to farm. + +The young man shrugged his dripping shoulders and pulled the quilt tighter +around them as he answered indifferently: + +"Not very well. Father left very little unmortgaged except mother's own +property, and I thought I'd get out of Canton. It ain't easy to live +around folks you know unless you have money." + +"But you could have worked your way through college; lots of boys do it," +the girl objected. + +"Not on your life!" John Hunter exclaimed emphatically. "I don't go to +college that way." After a few moments' musing he added slowly, "I'll make +money enough to get out of here after a while." + +"I only wish I'd had your chance," Elizabeth said with a sigh. + +"Let's talk about something cheerful," young Hunter replied, when he +realized that the ride was nearly over. "When may I come to see you +again?" he asked. "You are to see a good deal of me this summer if you +will permit it." + +Elizabeth Farnshaw caught a happy breath before she replied. He wanted to +come; she was to see much of him this summer if she would permit it! Could +nature and fate ask for more? + +When Elizabeth arrived, the old couple bustled about the bright carpeted +room, making it comfortable, and cooing over the return of their prodigal, +till a heaven of homeness was made of her advent. + +Half an hour later Elizabeth, dry and warm and with a cup of tea beside +her which she had found it easier to accept than to refuse, looked about +her and invoiced the changes of four years which in her preoccupied state +of mind during her former visit she had neglected to think upon. There +were many little changes in the household arrangement, due to the +observations of the winter spent in Topeka. In personal appearance Aunt +Susan herself showed improvement. + +When Elizabeth's attention was turned to Nathan, however, the glad little +enumeration became a more sober one. In the days when they had fed the +motherless Patsie together Nathan Hornby had been portly, even inclined to +stoutness, and his face, though tough from wind and sun, inclined to be +ruddy. The genial gray eyes had sparkled with confidence in himself and +good-will toward all about him. At Silas Chamberlain's house a week ago +the girl had noticed that Nathan let others arrange the business details +of contracts and credentials, but his joy at meeting her had obscured the +habitual sadness of his present manner. She had noticed that he was +thinner, but to-night she saw the waste and aging which had consumed him. +The belt line which had bulged comfortably under the vest of five years +ago was flat and flabby, the thick brown hair which had shown scarcely a +thread of white was now grizzled and thin, the ruddy cheeks had fallen in, +and two missing lower teeth made him whistle his s'es through the gap with +a sound unlike his bluff speech of their first acquaintance, so that +without the face which accompanied the words she could hardly have +recognized the connection between the man who had and the man who did +embody the same personality. The cogitations of the first half hour in the +white counterpaned bed that night left Elizabeth in a maze of wonder over +his physical as well as mental collapse. + +Aunt Susan was evidently aware of changes also, for she hovered over him +solicitously. Nathan Hornby was a broken man. + +School opened auspiciously on Monday; John Hunter came and stayed to walk +home with Elizabeth on Tuesday afternoon, and the glad weeks which +followed were but the happy record of so many rides, walks, and talks, and +the dreams of Elizabeth Farnshaw and John Hunter. He was with the girl +daily. Elizabeth never expressed the smallest desire for anything human +hand could obtain for her that John Hunter did not instantly assure her +that she should receive it. If she stayed to sweep out the schoolhouse, +John would almost certainly appear at the door before she had +finished--his fields commanded a view of her comings and goings--if she +went to Carter's to have a money order cashed he accompanied her; if she +wished to go anywhere she had but to mention it and John Hunter and his +team were at her service. + +Elizabeth could not have been otherwise than happy. The spring, with its +freshness and promise, was symbolical of the gladsome currents of her life +that joyous April and May. Her lightest wish was the instant consideration +of the man she admired above all others, and that man, in refinement of +appearance and knowledge of the world, was as far above those of the +country community in which they lived as the sun was above the smoky +kerosene lamps by which the members of that community lighted themselves +to bed. + +John Hunter, during the season of his courtship, served the girl of his +choice almost upon his knees. He made her feel that she could command his +services, his time, and himself. By his request he ceased to ask when he +could come again, but encouraged, even commanded, her to tell him when and +where she wished to be taken and to let him come to see her unannounced. +He paid tribute to her as if she had been a goddess and he her devotee. + +Silas looked on and chuckled. + +"Didn't take 'em long," he remarked to Liza Ann, and when as usual his +wife did not reply, he added: "Glad we're to have 'em for neighbours. +She's about th' liveliest meadow lark on these prairies, an' if she don't +sing on a fence post it's 'cause she ain't built that way, an' can't; +she's full enough to." + +Susan Hornby looked on and had her misgivings. She saw the devotion the +young man poured out at her darling's feet, and she knew that it was the +fervour of the courting time in a man's life that made him abandon his own +interests and plans while he plumed himself and pursued his desired mate. +She saw the rapturous, dreamy look of love and mating time in Elizabeth's +eyes, and she knew that the inevitable had happened, but she was not +content. Premonitions which she sought to strangle shook her whenever the +pair wandered away on real or fictitious errands. She saw that no word of +love had yet been spoken, but every look cried it aloud and the day could +not be far distant. + +Between corn planting and corn plowing the foundations of the new house +had been laid and work on it had progressed fitfully and whenever the +young man could find time to help the occasional mason who laid brick and +stone for simple foundations, and who had crops of his own to tend between +times. The work had progressed slowly, but at last the wall had been +finished and the carpenters had come to do their share. It gave excuse for +many trips in the evening twilight. They usually went on horseback, and +Silas's pony with Liza Ann's sidesaddle on its back had more business on +hand that month than in all the other years of its lazy existence. + +Susan Hornby watched the pair ride away one evening the first week in +June. Nathan stood at her side on the doorstep. + +"Of course he loves her; how could he help it? and yet----" + +"And yet, what?" Nathan asked impatiently. "She wants him, an' he wants +her, an' you stand there lookin' as if that wasn't enough." + +Susan Hornby turned to her husband with some uncertainty regarding his +comprehension of the subject, and with a gentle patience with his mood. +Nathan was often impatient of late. + +"Yes, I know--only it seems as if----" + +"Well, now what's lacking?" her husband asked when she again broke off the +sentence doubtfully. "He's got a good farm, an' he needs a wife to help +him run it. From what he says, his mother's too old t' be of any help. He +can't run it alone, an' seems t' me it's a good thing for both of 'em." + +"That's just it!" Susan Hornby broke out, turning back, her eyes following +the progress of the pair toward the crimson west, her thoughts running +ahead to the unknown future where the progress of the soul would be helped +or hindered; "that's just it! He has a farm; now he's going to need a wife +to help run it--just as he needs a horse. If he'd only be fair about it, +but he's misleading her. She thinks he'll always do things the way he's +doing them now, and he won't; there'll be an end to that kind of thing +some day--and--and when they're married and he's got her fast, that kind +of man won't be nice about it--and--they'll live on the farm--and life's +so hard sometimes! Oh! I can't bear to see her broken to it!" she cried +with such intensity that the man at her side caught his breath with a sort +of sob. + +"Anybody'd think to hear you talk, Susan, that marryin' was a thing to be +feared, an' that I'd been mean t' you." + +What had she done? There was a half-frightened pause as Susan Hornby +struggled to bring herself back to the husband standing beside her who was +broken by failure. + +"Bless your old soul, Nate," she answered quickly, and with the flush of +confusion on her face strangely like the flush of guilt, "if he's only +half as good to her as you've been to me, She'll never have anything to +complain of nor need anybody's sympathy." + +Susan understood that her assurance did not wholly reassure that bleeding +heart, and to turn Nathan's thoughts to other things she slipped one hand +through his arm, and picking up the milk pails from the bench at her side +with the other, said with a little laugh: + +"There now! I'll do your milking for that. You throw down the hay while I +do it. There's nothing the matter with you and me, except that I've done a +washing to-day and you don't sleep well of late. I haven't one thing in +all this world to complain of, and this would be the happiest year of my +life if you weren't a bit gloomy and under the weather. Come on--I'm +nervous. You know I never am well in hot weather." + +Nathan knew that Susan was really worried over Elizabeth's prospects, but +her luckless remark upon the marriage of farmers cut into his raw, +quivering consciousness of personal failure like a saw-bladed knife, +torturing the flesh as it went. His failure to place her where her own +natural characteristics and attainments deserved had eaten into his mind +like acid. In proportion as he loved her and acknowledged her worth he was +humiliated by the fact that she was not getting all out of life of which +she was capable, as his wife, and it left him sensitive regarding her +possible estimate of it. + +"She always seems satisfied," he said to himself as he turned his +pitchfork to get a hold on the pile into which he had thrust it, "but here +she is pityin' this here girl that's goin' t' be married as if she goin' +t' be damned." + +The Adam's apple in his wrinkled throat tightened threateningly, and to +keep down any unmanly weakness it indicated he fell upon the hay savagely, +but the suspicion stayed with him and left its bitter sting. + + + + +CHAPTER VI + +"DIDN'T TAKE 'EM LONG" + + +John Hunter and Elizabeth Farnshaw rode away in the cool summer evening, +wholly unconscious of the thoughts of others. The sun had dropped behind +the low hills in front of them, and as they rode along, the light-floating +clouds were dyed blazing tints of red and gold, as glowing and rosy as +life itself appeared to the young pair. Elizabeth took off her hat and let +the cool evening breeze blow through the waves of hair on her temples and +about the smooth braids which, because of the heat of the prematurely hot +summer day, had been wound about her head. Her eyes were dreamy and her +manner detached as she let the pony wander a half length ahead of its +companion, and she was unaware that John was not talking. She was just +drinking in the freshness of the evening breeze and sky, scarcely +conscious of any of her surroundings, glad as a kitten to be alive, and as +unaware of self as a young animal should be. + +John Hunter rode at her side, watching the soft curls on her round girlish +neck, athrob and athrill with her presence, and trying to formulate the +thing he had brought her out to say. It was not till they were turning +into the lane beside the new house that his companion realized that he had +been more than usually quiet. + +"You are a Quaker to-night, evidently, and do not speak till the spirit +moves, Mr. Hunter," she said, facing about near the gateway and waiting +for him to ride alongside. + +The young man caught the cue. "I wish you would call me John. I've been +intending to ask you for some time. I have a given name," he added. + +"Will you do the same?" she asked. + +"Call myself John?" he replied. + +They both laughed as if a great witticism had been perpetrated. + +"No, call me by my given name." + +"Lizzie, Bess, Elizabeth, or Sis?" he asked, remembering the various +nicknames of her family. + +"You may call me whatever you choose," she answered, drawing the pony up +where they were to dismount. + +John Hunter stepped to the ground and with his bridle rein over his arm +came around to the left side of her pony. Laying one hand on its neck and +the other on the hand that grasped its bridle, he looked up into her face +earnestly and said: + +"I would like to call you 'Wife,' if I may, Elizabeth," and held up his +arms quickly to help her from the saddle. + +When she was on the ground before him he barred her way and stood, pulsing +and insistent, waiting for her answer. + +It was a full minute before either moved, she looking down at their feet, +he looking at her and trying to be sure he could push his claims. + +When Elizabeth did look up it was with her eyes brimming shyly over with +happy tears, and without waiting for her answer in words, John Hunter +gathered her into his arms and smothered her face in kisses. + +Ten minutes later they tied the horses to the new hitching post and passed +into the yard. + +"It is to be your house and mine, dearie," the young man said, and then +looked down at her to see why she did not answer. + +Elizabeth was walking toward the house which was to be hers, oblivious of +time and place, almost unconscious of the man at her side, stunned by the +unexpectedness of this precious gift of love which had just been offered +her. As they stepped upon the little back porch, he said: + +"I brought you over to ask your advice about the stairway; the carpenters +want to leave one step in the sitting room. It'll be back far enough from +the chimney to be out of the way and it makes their calculations easier +about the stairs somehow. What do you think?" + +Elizabeth was altogether too new in the sense of possession to grasp the +full significance of the question. John Hunter laughed at the look she +turned upon him and said, with a large and benevolent wave of the hand, +indicating the entire premises: + +"The house is yours, little girl, and you are to have it as you want it. +The only desire I have on earth is to do things for you." + +Elizabeth shot a quick look of joy up to him. "No one but Aunt Susan has +ever wanted to do anything for me," she said, and opening her arms held +them out to him, crying, "Am I to be happy? John! John! do you love me, +really?" + +And that was the burden of their conversation during the entire stay. + +"It can't be possible, John," the happy girl said at one point. "I have +never known love--and--and I want it till I could die for it." + +"Just so you don't die _of_ it, You'll be all right," John Hunter replied, +and went home from Nathan's, later, whistling a merry tune. He had not +known that love poured itself out with such abandonment. It was a new +feature of the little god's manoeuvring, but John doubted not that it was +the usual thing where a girl really cared for a man. + +"I'll farm the whole place next year, and It'll be different from boarding +at the Chamberlains', where they don't have any napkins and the old man +sucks his coffee out of his saucer as if it hurt him. Mother 'll like her +too, after we get her away from that sort of thing and brush her up, and +get her into the Hunter ways," he told himself as he tied the pony in the +dark stall. + +The next day was a dream to the young girl, who patiently watched the +clock and waited for the hour of visiting the new house again. "I have no +higher desire on earth than to do things for you," was the undercurrent of +her thoughts. She was to escape from the things which threatened at home. +Instead of always rendering services, which were seldom satisfactory after +she had sacrificed herself to them, she was to be served as well. Oh, the +glad thought! Not of service as such, but of the mutuality of it. She +loved John Hunter and he loved her. There was to be understanding between +them. That was the joy of it. To put her hand on the arm of one that +appreciated not only her but all that she aimed at, to open her heart to +him, to be one with him in aspiration, that was the point of value which +Elizabeth Farnshaw never doubted was to be the leading characteristic of +their life together. + +Now that she was engaged, Elizabeth felt herself emancipated from home +authority. She would belong to herself hereafter. She would stay with Aunt +Susan till she had her sewing done for the winter at Topeka. She would go +to school only one year, just enough to polish up on social ideas and +matters of dress. Elizabeth Farnshaw knew that both John Hunter and his +mother were critical upon those accomplishments and her pride told her to +prepare for the mother's inspection. She knew that she was considered a +country girl by those of superior advantages, and she was resolved to show +what could be done in a year in the way of improvement; then she would +come home and teach for money with which to buy her wedding outfit, and +then they would be married. Two years and the certainty of graduation +would have suited her better, but two years was a long time. The picture +of John without her, and the home he was building for her, planted +themselves in the foreground of her thoughts, and Elizabeth was unselfish. +She would not make John Hunter wait. She would make that one year at +Topeka equal to two in the intensity of its living. She would remain away +the shortest possible length of time which was required for her +preparation. Elizabeth was glad that John had his mother to keep house for +him, because she did not want him to be lonesome while she was gone, +though she did not doubt that he would come to Topeka many times while she +was there. Her mind flew off in another direction at that, and she planned +to send him word when there were good lectures to attend. + +"John likes those things," she thought, and was filled with a new joy at +the prospect of their books, and lectures, and intellectual pursuits. Her +plan of teaching in the high school was abandoned. It was better to be +loved and have a home with John Hunter than to live in Topeka. The more +Elizabeth thought of it the more she was convinced that her plan was +complete. She was glad there was a month to spare before Mrs. Hunter came. +John's mother was the only warning finger on Elizabeth's horizon. She had +always been conscious of a note of anxiety in John Hunter's voice and +manner whenever he spoke of his mother coming to Kansas to live, and she +found the anxiety had been transferred to her own mind when she began to +consider her advent into the home John was building. She had gathered, +more from his manner than anything definitely said, that his mother would +not approve of much that she would be obliged to meet in the society about +them, that she was a social arbiter in a class of women superior to these +simple farmers' wives, and that her whole life and thought were of a +different and more desirable sort. When Elizabeth thought of Mrs. Hunter +she unconsciously glanced down at herself, her simple print dress, her +brown hands, and the heavy shoes which much walking made necessary, and +wondered how she did really appear; and there was a distinct misgiving in +everything where the older woman had to be considered. + +John came early that evening. The carpenters had raised new questions +about shelves and doors and Elizabeth must go over and decide those +matters. They walked over, and it was late before all the simple +arrangements could be decided upon. As they returned they walked close +together in the centre of the deep road so as to avoid the dew-laden grass +on either side. The open door of Nathan's house gave out a hospitable +light, but they were content to saunter slowly, listening to the harvest +crickets which were already chirruping in the weeds about them, and +looking at the lazy red disk of the moon just peeping above the eastern +horizon. + +"I shall write mother of our engagement to-night," John said after a +rather long silence. + +"Oh, don't," the girl replied, awakened suddenly from a reverie of a +different sort. "Let's keep it a secret for a while. I haven't told Aunt +Susan yet, and I don't want to tell her till I go to Topeka. Of course +I'll have to explain if you come down there to see me." + +"To Topeka?" John exclaimed in astonishment. + +Elizabeth laughed merrily. "Why, yes," she said. "Isn't it like me to +think you knew all about that? I'm going to Topeka to school this +winter--and--and I hope You'll come a lot. We'll have awfully good times. +Then I'll teach another term and get my wedding clothes and get them made, +and then, John Hunter, I am yours to have and to hold," she ended +happily. + +"You don't mean that you are going to school again now that you are going +to get married?" John Hunter asked with such incredulity that Elizabeth +laughed a little joyous laugh full of girlish amusement, full of love and +anticipation. + +"Why of course--why not? All the more because we are going to be married. +I'll want to brush up on lots of things before I have to live near your +mother; and--and we'll have awfully good times when you come to see me." + +"Oh, goodness!" John said irritably. "I'd counted on being married this +fall. I simply can't wait two years, and that is all there is about it." +Elizabeth argued easily at first, certain that it could be readily +arranged, but John became more and more positive. At last she became +worried. + +The harvest crickets were forgotten as the young girl pressed closer to +his side, explaining the necessity, pointing out that it was to be her +last little fling at the education for which she had planned so long, her +timidity where his mother was concerned, and her desire to enter the +family upon equal social terms. + +"It is all tomfoolery," John answered with fixity of purpose. "You don't +need a thing that you haven't already got--except," he added slowly, +"except what mother could help you to. But that isn't the point. I shall +need you. It's time for me to get down to business and raise some money. +Between building the house and going"--John hesitated--"and not applying +myself as I should, I'm not making anything this summer. I want to get +away from this--from here--some day, and I want to begin real work at +once. Mother can help you in anything you don't know; she's up on all +those things; and we've got to get down to business," he repeated. + +There was a tone of finality in it. Elizabeth recognized it, but her plans +were made and she was not ready to give them up. + +"I can't go into your house, John, I simply cannot, without getting away +and learning some things. When I become your wife I want to be a woman you +are proud to take to your mother. I can't have it otherwise." + +There was quiet while she waited for the answer to her assertion. +Elizabeth thought he was formulating a reply. The silence lengthened, and +still she waited. They were getting nearer the house and she moved more +slowly, drawing on his arm to check his advance. At last, realizing that +he did not intend to speak when they were just outside of the lighted +doorstep, Elizabeth stopped and, facing around so that she could see him +in the dim light, asked: + +"What is it? What have I done to offend you?" + +"Nothing, only it upsets every plan I have on earth. I tell you, it's all +foolishness; and besides, I need you. Now see here"--and he went on to +show her how his mother knew all the things she was going to Topeka to +learn, and to outline his schemes for the future. + +Confused by his opposition, and not knowing just how to meet this first +difference of opinion, Elizabeth listened and made no reply. It was her +way to wait when disturbed until she saw her way clear. Elizabeth was +sound and sturdy but not quick and resourceful when attacked. John talked +on till he had finished his argument and then turned to the house again. +When they arrived at the step he said a whispered good-bye and was gone +before Elizabeth realized that he was not coming in with her. + +Susan Hornby had risen from her chair, thinking that John was coming into +the house, and when she saw that he did not she slipped her arm about the +young girl and kissed her as she was passing. + +"I'm going to bed, Aunt Susan," Elizabeth said, and passed on to the door +of her own room. Susan Hornby knew that something had gone wrong. + +Saturday morning was spent by Elizabeth sewing on a dress she was anxious +to finish before Mrs. Hunter came, and when there were only mornings and +evenings in which to sew, and inexperience made much ripping necessary, +the work did not progress rapidly. As she sewed she considered. No, she +would not give up the year away at school. It was absolutely essential +that she come into the Hunter family equipped and ready to assume the rôle +which a wife should play in it. She would be married without a whole new +outfit of clothes, but the year at school was a necessity. Elizabeth's +pride revolted against being taught social customs by John Hunter's +mother. As she thought of the year he must spend alone, however, she was +quite willing to give up teaching an extra year for the sake of the usual +bridal finery. She resolved to tell him that. She would be married in the +simplest thing she had if he wished. + +Fate in the person of John Hunter himself took the settlement of the +bride's gown out of Elizabeth's hands. Just before noon he stopped, on his +way back from Colebyville, to give Susan Hornby the mail he had brought +out from the post-office. Elizabeth followed him to the wagon when he went +out. + +"Well, I wrote mother. Can you be ready by October?" He spoke across the +backs of the horses as he untied them, and was very busy with the straps. + +Elizabeth Farnshaw's face contracted visibly. He had taken advantage of +her. + +"How could you do it?" she asked indignantly. + +"Why, I thought it was settled! I told you I couldn't wait a whole year, +much less two. I told you about getting Mitchell County land and getting +down to cattle raising right off. You didn't say anything." + +There was such righteous innocence in his voice that the sting of +deception was drawn from her mind. The young girl made no reply, but +leaned her head against the withers of the horse at her side and looked +down at her foot to hide her tears. It was a blow. She was conscious that +somehow there had been a lack of high principle in it. Her silence the +night before _had_ given some colour to the claim of it having been +settled, but there had been a haste about this letter which was +suspicious. Why could he not have stopped on the way to town as well as +now on the way home? + +The question which was forming in Elizabeth's mind was cut short by +feeling John's arm stealing around her. She started and glanced at the +house apprehensively. + +"Oh, they can't see us," John said, glad to have that phase of the +situation up for argument. "It wouldn't matter if they did, since we are +to be married so soon." He added the last warily and watched to see its +effect upon her. + +"But I didn't want it to be as soon as that," the girl objected +half-heartedly, making her usual mistake of laying the vital point of +difference away to be settled in her own mind before she discussed it. +Perhaps after all John had thought it was settled the night before; at any +rate she would not speak of her suspicion till sure on that point. + +John Hunter noticed that she did not refuse outright to consent to the +early marriage and drew her complacently to him. + +"I couldn't wait that long, sweet. I want you and I want you now." + +He drew her close, in a firm, insistent grasp of his strong arm. Her +resistance began to melt. + +"I love you," his voice said close to her ear. She felt his eyes seeking +hers. His was the position of advantage. Elizabeth loved love, and she had +never had it before. She had never been wanted for love's sake. She wished +to believe him. It came over her that she had wronged him by even the +thought of an advantage having been taken of her. John's arm was about +her, he was pleading his love. Why be unpleasant about it? It was only a +little thing. As she had said in her engagement hour, Elizabeth wanted +love till she could die for it. She gave up, though something in her held +back and was left hungry. + +As John Hunter drove home to Liza Ann's waiting dinner he said to +himself: + +"Gosh! but I'm glad I got that letter off. I knew I'd better do it this +morning or she'd be hanging back. It worked better than I had any reason +to expect. She's going to be easy to manage. Mother ain't able to cook for +hired men. She's never had it to do--and she don't have to begin. This +school business is all foolishness, anyhow." + +Elizabeth did not stand as usual and watch her lover drive toward home. +Something in her wanted to run away, to cry out, to forget. She was torn +by some indefinable thing; her confidence had received a shock. She went +back to the house, but to sew was impossible now. She decided to go home, +to walk. The long stretches of country road would give time and isolation +in which to think. She announced her determination briefly as she passed +through the kitchen, oblivious of Aunt Susan's questioning eyes. Snatching +up the large sunbonnet which was supposed to protect her from the browning +effects of Kansas winds and sun, she told the older woman, who made no +effort to disguise her astonishment at the sudden change, to tell John to +come for her on the morrow, and set off toward the north. + +Elizabeth knew that her father's temper made her homegoing an unsafe +procedure, but the tumult within her demanded that she get away from Susan +Hornby and think her own thoughts unobserved. + +But though the walk gave her time to think, Elizabeth was no nearer a +decision when she sighted the Farnshaw cottonwoods than she had been when +she started out. The sun burned her shoulders where the calico dress was +thin, and she wiped her perspiring face as she stopped determinedly to +come to some conclusion before she should encounter her mother. + +"I suppose I ought to give up to him," she said, watching a furry-legged +bumblebee as it moved about over the face of a yellow rosin weed flower by +the roadside. "I wouldn't care if it weren't for his mother. I'd like to +get some of these country ways worked out of me before I have to see too +much of her. She'll never feel the same toward me if she has to tell me +what to do and what not to do. If only he didn't want me so badly. If only +I could have one year away." + +The new house pleaded for John Hunter, the content of a home, life with +the young man himself. Elizabeth had reasoned away her distrust of the +means by which her consent had been gained, but her heart clung to the +desire to appear well before Mrs. Hunter. Something warned her that she +must enter that house on an equal footing with the older woman. + +"Well, he wants me, and I ought to be glad he is in a hurry. I'll do it. I +ought to have insisted last night if I meant to hold out, and not have let +him misunderstand me. If it weren't for his mother, I wouldn't care." + +Having decided to accept the terms offered her, Elizabeth sat down in the +shade of a clump of weeds and pictured, as she rested, the home which was +to be hers. Compared to those of the farmers' wives about them, it was to +be sumptuous. She thought of its size, its arrangement, and the man who +was inviting her to share it with him, and a glad little thrill ran +through her. When Elizabeth began to sum up her blessings she began to be +ashamed of having suspected John Hunter of duplicity in writing the +letter. + +"He told me he had no higher desires on earth than to do things for me," +she said, springing up and starting home with a song in her heart. + +Mrs. Farnshaw, called to the door by the barking of the dogs, exclaimed: + +"What in this world brings you home at this time of day?" Mrs. Farnshaw's +hands were covered with the dough of her belated Saturday's baking. + +"Just had to come, mummie; just had to come," Elizabeth cried, giving her +mother a rapturous little hug. + +Mrs. Farnshaw ducked her head to avoid the manoeuvre, saying petulantly: + +"Look out! Can't you see I'm in th' flour up t' my elbows." + +Elizabeth flicked her dress sleeve and laughed in merry derision. + +"Kansas flour brushes off easily, ma," she said, "and I've got something +to tell you." + +The corners of Mrs. Farnshaw's mouth twitched in a pleased effort to cover +a smile. + +Elizabeth was surprised at her own statement. She had not exactly intended +to tell her mother at this time and could not understand herself in having +put the idea forth, that she had come all the way home to tell something +of importance. She sat down and leaned her elbows on the littered kitchen +table too confused to speak for a moment. She had made the plunge; there +was no other excuse for the trip that she could think of at that time, +and, with a feeling that Aunt Susan had been defrauded of something +distinctly belonging to her, Elizabeth broke the silence with the bald +statement. + +"Mr. Hunter and I are going to be married." + +"Well, Lizzie, that ain't much news; we seen it comin' weeks ago," the +mother replied with a laugh. + +"You did? I don't see how you knew," the girl said, startled out of her +confusion. + +"What's he been comin' here so steady for?" Mrs. Farnshaw replied, +scraping the side of her bread pan with a kitchen knife, and ready to +enter into this delightful bit of argument. Lizzie was doing well for +herself. + +"Lots of girls have steady company and don't get married either," the girl +replied hesitantly. + +"Oh, yes, but this is different," the mother said. "When's it goin' t' +be?" + +"Some time in October," Elizabeth said, her words dragging. She had +consented, but the mere mention of the time made her shrink. + +"Is th' house done?" Mrs. Farnshaw asked, her mind, like her hands, filled +with practical concerns. + +"Almost," Elizabeth returned as she rose to get the broom with which to +sweep the ever dusty floor. "It's ready to paint," she added. + +"Is it goin' t' be painted? Will it be white and have green shutters?" + +Elizabeth laughed at the gratified pride in her mother's tone. + +"I don't know, ma," she said, looking for the shovel, which, when it could +be located, served as a dustpan. + +"Didn't he ask you what colour to put on it?" the mother asked, fishing +the shovel out of the rubbish collected behind the rusty cook stove. "Now +look here, Lizzie," she added with sudden suspicion, "don't you go an' +spoil him right t' begin with. You let him see that you want things your +own way about th' house. If you set your foot down now, You'll have it +easier all th' way through. That's where I made my mistake. I liked t' +give up t' your pa at first an' then--an' then he got t' thinkin' I didn't +have no right t' want anything my way." + +Mrs. Farnshaw filled the hungry stove with cobs and studied the subject +dejectedly. + +"I don't get my way about nothin'. I can't go t' town t' pick out a new +dress that is bought with money I get from th' eggs, even. He'll manage +most any way t' get off t' town so's t' keep me from knowin' he's goin', +an' then make me send th' eggs an' butter by some one that's goin' by. He +makes me stay home t' watch something if he has t' let me know he's goin' +his self. I don't own my house, nor my children, nor myself." + +The undercurrent of Elizabeth's thoughts as she listened to the spiritless +tale was, "but John's so different from pa." + +"I reckon I'll never have no help from you now," Mrs. Farnshaw continued +in the same whine. + +The girl crossed the room and put her arms tenderly around her mother's +neck. + +"I'll live real near you, ma, and you can come and see me every few days. +Don't let's spoil these last few weeks by worrying," Elizabeth said, her +eyes opened to the longing expressed. + +Mrs. Farnshaw was heating the oven for baking, and broke away from the +sympathetic clasp to refill the roaring stove. + +"These cobs don't last a minute," she said, and then turned to Elizabeth +again. "You'll have th' nicest house in th' country. My! won't it make th' +Cranes jealous?" + +"They don't count," Elizabeth answered. "I believe you think more of +John's house than you do of him." + +"No, I don't, but I'm glad t' see you doin' so well for yourself." + +As she finished speaking, Mr. Farnshaw came into the kitchen. + +"Well, pa, how do you do?" Elizabeth said, turning toward him pleasantly. +She wanted to tell him of her engagement, now that she had told her +mother, and she wanted to be at peace with him. + +Mr. Farnshaw mumbled a curt reply and, picking up the empty basket +standing beside the stove, went out of the house, slamming the door behind +him significantly. + +"I wanted to tell him myself," Elizabeth said with a half-shamed look in +her mother's direction. "I'm glad all men aren't like that." + +"Well, he remembers that awful thing you said about partin'----" Mrs. +Farnshaw began. + +"But this isn't any new thing in him, ma. He's always been that way," +Elizabeth objected, determined not to let her mother start on that subject +to-day. + +"Oh, I know it! They all get that way if they're let; think they own +everything in sight. They get worse, too, as they get older. You do what I +said an' set your foot down about that house," her mother replied, and +turned to put a pan of bread in the oven. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + +ERASING HER BLACKBOARD + + +John's attention centred about the new house and each day found him more +impatient to see it finished. The creature comforts of life were his main +ideals and he wanted to get settled. Sunday afternoon found him early at +Nathan's to consult with Elizabeth about the kitchen windows. Susan +Hornby's surprised recognition of his annoyance, when he was told that she +had gone home, added to the unpleasantness of the eight-mile drive. What +business had that woman studying him or his moods? he asked himself as he +drove away. He would not get out of the wagon when he reached Elizabeth's +home, though the sun was hot and Mrs. Farnshaw urged him to do so. He was +irritated, he did not know at what, but he was. He hurried Elizabeth away +without ceremony. As soon as they were beyond earshot he began to voice +his grievances. The point he discussed had nothing whatever to do with the +real ground for his irritability, but served as an outlet for his acrid +frame of mind. + +"If you want to go anywhere, let me know it so that I can take you. I +can't have you running around the country in this fashion," he began. + +Elizabeth, who had felt his manner, looked up in puzzled surprise. She +could see nothing in that to be fretted about. It was so good to see him, +to have him with her again after a night spent in her father's house, that +she was ready to concede any point her lover might raise, but this seemed +so trivial that she laughed a happy laugh as she answered caressingly: + +"I have always walked whenever and wherever I chose around here. I like +it, dear." + +"That don't make any difference; it ain't good for any woman to walk eight +miles at one time," John answered shortly. + +Unable to see the reason for laying stress upon the danger in doing a +thing she had done for years without harm to herself, Elizabeth was +surprised into continuing the argument without at all caring whether she +ever walked again or not. + +"I've walked that much a hundred times in my life, and I'll probably walk +it a hundred times more," she replied with a laugh. + +"Not if you live with me," John Hunter announced, standing as solid as a +rock on the issue now that he had raised it. + +"But why not?" the girl inquired, still but little concerned, and looking +her betrothed over with a girl's eye for correct combinations of collar, +tie, and driving gloves. Those gloves had been the chief objection +Elizabeth's brothers had been able to raise against the Eastern man, and +gave colour to the spiteful "dude" with which John Hunter was mentioned by +the envious. + +"Why not?" John repeated after her. "Because it don't look well." + +The ridiculous and inadequate reply drew the girl still deeper into the +discussion. She began to reason with him quite earnestly. She had always +walked a great deal; she loved it. Walking was jolly fun. Everybody knew +she was not as dependent upon being taken as the ordinary woman. When, +however, John would not give in and insisted that things were different +now that they were engaged, she ceased to say more. + +"You see," he concluded, "people expect me to take you. They'll think +something's happened and that I don't want to. If I want to take my future +wife, she ought to be willing to be taken. I don't want you ever to walk +home again." + +Elizabeth Farnshaw was young, the experiences of her night at home had +made her covet peace, she was unaware that she was being moulded, or that +her lover considered the Hunter ways, as such, especially desirable. +Willing to pay the price, rather enjoying the masterful way in which her +betrothed insisted upon serving her, reflecting that no one had ever been +willing to serve her at all, and feeling that it was a minor matter, she +gave up. + +"All right! I like to walk, but if you look at it in that way I won't do +it again," she promised, and in the silence which followed stole a look +now and then at John Hunter, revelling in his well-groomed appearance. A +vision of her father's slatternly, one-suspendered shoulders, and +button-less sleeves flapping about his rough brown wrists, set against +this well-shirted gentleman produced sharp contrast and made of the future +a thing altogether desirable. The useless arguments between her parents +arose before her also; she resolved to argue less and love more. It was +something, she reflected, to know when to lay an argument down. Besides, +John wanted it. Leaning over, she rubbed her cheek softly against his +sleeve. + +"I never thought I could be so happy." The words were whispered tenderly, +as she looked up into his face. + +Could mortal man fail to appreciate the manner of the surrender? There was +nothing left to argue about; all had been granted. Elizabeth was learning, +as all women have had to do before her, that the man-creature loves to be +adored, that by cloaking her own desires, stroking his fur the right way, +giving it little pats of approval and admitting the pleasure conferred by +his presence, she could work a magic. John's arm dropped about her and she +gave herself up to the delights of being cuddled. + +It was not possible for the inexperienced girl to measure the importance +of the freedom she had surrendered. Elizabeth desired to forget the +unpleasant things. Real issues were obscured for the girl by her desire to +escape from her father's house. In addition to that, Elizabeth had not yet +become analytical. Instead of meditating upon the manner or the +positiveness of her lover's commands, she took counsel with herself how to +make their lives different from her parents', and in her efforts to keep +her own attitude right forgot to see to it that there was a similar +attitude on the part of her future husband. + +As they drove along with John's arm about her they ceased to talk, and +Elizabeth's thoughts drifted off to her affairs with her father and the +night just spent at home. Mr. Farnshaw had adopted the policy of +contemptuous silence toward her, and Elizabeth hoped devoutly that he +would continue in that frame of mind. Only so would she dare to spend at +home the weeks between the close of school and her marriage. She had +counted much upon spending those weeks with Aunt Susan, who daily became +dearer. She was not moved to tell Aunt Susan girlish secrets, but she was +understood and rightly valued in Susan Hornby's home; and now, during this +one of all the critical periods in her life the most important, Elizabeth +desired to be with her, but Mrs. Farnshaw demanded uncompromisingly that +her daughter come home at that time. There was no escaping Mrs. Farnshaw's +demands on her children, and, troubled and uncertain, Elizabeth pondered +and snuggled closer to the man who was to deliver her from them. + +The pair drove to the new house before going to the Hornbys' for the rest +of the day. John ceased to be fretful, and by the time for leaving had +arrived, Elizabeth had forgotten that he had ever been so. That evening +Aunt Susan was told of the engagement, and having divined its arrival, she +was able to hide any misgivings she had about it. Besides, not having +anything upon which to fasten her objections to John Hunter, she was wise +enough to know that love must have its way, and when Elizabeth pictured +the life that awaited her, her lover's good points, and her satisfaction +rang out in a song of glad notes with no hint of apprehension, the older +woman tried to enter into the spirit of the hour. + +Elizabeth was certain she could meet John Hunter's moods as the occasion +required. No doubts assailed her about the future life except where John's +mother was concerned. When Elizabeth got to that point in her reflections +she stopped short without speaking of the matter and announced her +intention of going to bed. Elizabeth Farnshaw loved John Hunter devotedly, +but his mother was another matter. There was a strong undercurrent of +anxiety whenever Mrs. Hunter had to be considered. The nearer the time +came for her arrival, the more the girl dreaded meeting her. Elizabeth was +loyal to John, however, and Susan Hornby was given no hint of that dread. + +Mrs. Hunter came west the last week of school, and when John was so busy +getting her and her household goods settled that Elizabeth did not see him +the entire week, it was like a stab to the sensitive girl. Filled with a +natural sense of good-byes to all that she had known and loved in the +work, the impending changes in her life took on a troubled air when John +failed to come as usual and did not account for the delay. By some +psychological process Susan Hornby's misgivings began to be transferred to +Elizabeth's mind. Always as they sewed together Elizabeth was tempted to +talk about the subject, but something held her back. Often Susan Hornby, +who suspected her troubled state of mind, was moved to ask questions and +could not. + +A week is a long time when anxiety governs the thoughts, and as Elizabeth +grew more lonely she crept into Aunt Susan's arms as well as into her +heart. It became her custom to creep up to the older woman after the lamps +were lighted and lay her head in her lap, while she would imprison one of +Aunt Susan's hands so as to be able to fondle it. The evidences of +affection became more and more a part of her thoughts now that the days +were slipping by without receiving those evidences from the one who had +educated her in them. + +The last day of school arrived. John had told Elizabeth the week before +that he expected to take her and her trunk home, but not having seen him +nor had a word from him recently regarding the matter, a strange feeling +of disaster made the closing school exercises unreal and uninteresting. +After the children were gone, Elizabeth began the task of cleaning the +schoolroom and putting it in order. She set about the work slowly, making +it last as long as she could. School teaching had been pleasant work. It +had been the one free field of action life had ever granted her, the one +point where she had ever possessed herself and moved unquestioned. The +presence of John Hunter's mother in the community had made the teaching +seem a refuge to the young girl who was to live in the house with her. +Elizabeth had not understood that Mrs. Hunter was actually to live with +them till a short time before her arrival, and then had very nearly given +offence to her lover by an astonished exclamation of surprise. Perceiving +that she had done so she hastened to say that she would be very glad to +have his mother with them. As soon as Elizabeth had got away, and taken +time to think it out, she saw that she had lied. John also knew that it +was not exactly true, and was therefore more sensitive. It had been the +first point of real difference between them. There had been no discussion +of it. Elizabeth would have been glad to go to him and say that she wished +it, but she did not wish it and would not lie consciously. If it had to +be, she would make the best of it and make his mother as welcome as she +could, but with the instincts of all young things, the girl wanted to live +alone with her mate. The unnaturalness of having others thrust upon them +during that first year of married life jarred upon her, just as it has +jarred upon every bride who has been compelled to endure it since the +beginning of time. It made of the new home a workshop instead of a nest, +and took from the glamour of marriage. It made the girl cling to the +freedom of the country schoolhouse and fear the new life, where the +examples presented to her by those who had tried it were discouraging to +an observant onlooker. All this came up as she worked, and saddened the +day even more than before. As she put the broom away in the corner beside +the water pail, she noticed that the blackboard remained to be cleaned. +Taking an eraser she rubbed vigorously. + +"It is a rat. Run, rat, run," begun as high as little arms could reach, +and straggling zigzagingly down toward the bottom, was the last to be +attacked. As her hand passed reluctantly over it she said aloud: + +"I'm erasing my blackboard too. Pretty soon I won't be a girl any more. +Pretty soon----" + +She checked herself, and putting away the eraser, packed the few +belongings in the drawer of the desk into a neat bundle to be carried +home. With the package under her arm and her little tin dinner pail +dangling from her wrist, Elizabeth fitted the key into the lock. As it +clicked under her fingers the thought came to her that she must turn it +over to the school board. The finality of it clutched her. Thrusting the +key back into the door, she was about to go into the little room again for +another look around, when Susan Hornby's voice at her elbow made her +start. + +Aunt Susan saw the tears which had sprung into the young eyes at the +leave-taking and drew her down on the step. + +"What is it?" she asked earnestly. "You ought to tell me if you are +worried." + +The tears which had been gathering spilled themselves over cheek and +chin. + +"Will I get like the rest of them, Aunt Susan?--never go anywhere, never +read anything, have nothing ahead but the same weary round over again +every day?" she queried, when she was able to command her voice. + +Susan Hornby's face worked determinedly to control her own emotions for a +moment before she could speak. + +Elizabeth continued: "I've been--I've been so happy this summer, Aunt +Susan, and--and I'm a little afraid of that other life. Don't think I +don't want to be married--I do," she felt bound to interpose. "It's +just--just that--well, you can see how it is; the married women around +here wear faded things, and--and their teeth get bad--and a man hardly +ever wants to take his wife anywhere. Look at Mrs. Carter, and Mrs. Crane, +and ma. Poor ma! She never gets to go anywhere she wants to." + +The girlish questionings and fears broke down Susan Hornby's control and +she fell on Elizabeth's neck and sobbed openly as she said: + +"I know, I know. I've thought of little else of late. My poor little ewe +lamb! My poor little ewe lamb!" + +The ethics of Susan Hornby's generation did not permit of an outright +discussion of the marriage relation. She did not have the matter clear in +her own mind, but a sort of dull terror came over her whenever she thought +of Elizabeth becoming John Hunter's wife. She could hardly have told why. +She knew that somehow human beings missed the highest in the marriage +relation and that the undiscussed things of life had to do with the +failure; she knew also that her instincts regarding this marriage were +true, but she could sound no warning because her knowledge came from the +instincts and had no outward evidence of fact with which to support it. To +how large a degree did these warnings apply to all? Susan Hornby had +plenty of time to wonder and think, for Elizabeth cried softly to herself +without speaking further. The older woman's hand wandered over the glossy +braids in her lap, and her eyes wandered off toward the Carter homestead +while her mind struggled with the problems of the neighbourhood. Elizabeth +had put into words a thing she had herself observed. She saw the +irritability of men toward their wives; she saw women about them who +toiled earnestly, who bore children, and who denied themselves every sort +of pleasurable relation at the demand of husbands who never gave them a +look of comradery or good fellowship in return. Was it the weariness of +the struggle to live, or was it sex, or was it the evil domination of men? +This girl whose sunny hair she was caressing was to go under the merciless +hammer of the matrimonial auctioneer. What was to be her fate? Susan +Hornby saw that love had touched the highest in Elizabeth Farnshaw's +nature and that the girl yearned toward a high ideal of family life. She +had shown it in her girlish chatter as they had sewed together. Could she +attain to it? Susan Hornby thought of John Hunter and stiffened. She felt +that Elizabeth would yearn toward it all the days of her life with him and +never catch even a fleeting glimpse of it. + +Elizabeth snuggled closer on the step and reached for the hand stroking +her head. + +"It isn't the faded dresses, Aunt Susan; it's--it's the faded life I'm +afraid of," she whispered thickly. + +Susan Hornby bent her head to catch the sobbing voice, and losing control +of her reserve, said abruptly: "I know it, I know all about it. If I +thought John Hunter'd let you set at home like----" + +She knew while the words were still in her mouth that it was a mistake. +The girl shrank away and dropped the hand she had been fondling. There was +absolute silence for a moment, the older woman dumb, unable to go on, +unable to explain, unable to retract, or extricate herself in any way. The +discussion had promised so well at first that both had entered into it +with zest, and yet the moment it had become personal, loyalty had risen +between them and hushed their words and left them uncomfortable. The +silence became so intolerable that Elizabeth arose, and unable to look up +turned and fumbled with the lock on the schoolhouse door. Aunt Susan rose +also and waited, without speaking, for her to start home. Something hurt +on both sides. Neither blamed the other, but both were to look back to the +rough schoolhouse steps and the half-hearted discussion of man's +domination and woman's inability to defend herself against it. + +Before supper was quite finished John came to take Elizabeth to meet his +mother. He was all bustle and activity; in fact, John Hunter was at his +best. He took possession of her in exactly the way to show how unnecessary +her fears had been. The reaction set in. John was fresh and clean of linen +and finger-nails and pleasing to the eye. Elizabeth's mood changed the +moment he presented himself on Nathan's doorstep. Every fear of the faded +life disappeared in his magical presence. John Hunter at least was not +faded. After all, Elizabeth had been a bit piqued and really wanted to +meet Mrs. Hunter. John whisked her off merrily and carried her to the home +which was to be theirs. + +"Mother, this is Elizabeth Farnshaw, soon to be your daughter," was the +introduction he gave her when his mother met them at the door, and then +watched narrowly to see what sort of impression Elizabeth would make. + +Mrs. Hunter kissed the girl gravely, and still retaining her hand stepped +back and looked at her curiously, but kindly. + +"I am glad you are to be John's wife, dear," she said slowly. "I am sure +we shall like each other. We must--he is all I have, you know." + +Elizabeth, who had felt herself on trial, was near tears, but her lover +saved her from that embarrassment when, feeling that the Hunter approval +was accorded, he stepped forward and put his arms about the two, kissing +first one and then the other. + +"My mother and my wife-to-be must certainly like each other," he said. + +They passed into the house, over which John and his mother conducted +Elizabeth, talking of its arrangement and furnishings. The girl had +supposed that she had a fairly definite idea of the appearance that house +would have, having overseen every feature of its building, but it was a +world of surprises she entered upon to-day. In her wildest dreams of what +they would do when they had become rich, as they had planned much to do, +this daughter of the Kansas prairies had never pictured such tasteful +home-making. Each bedroom had its bureau with bedstead to match, and the +one downstairs had ruffled pillow-shams. + +"This is to be your own room," Mrs. Hunter whispered in Elizabeth's ear, +and the young girl stole a shy look at her lover, who was drumming on the +window and had not heard, and made no reply, but it gave her a sense of +possession in the new house which she had very nearly lost of late. + +It was reserved for the new cook stove in the spotless kitchen to complete +the surprises of Elizabeth's new world. Elizabeth fingered the nickled +knobs, exclaimed over the reservoir for hot water at its back and the +warming closet below, and investigated all its secret places as if it had +been a toy. John Hunter gave his mother an approving nod behind the girl's +back, and the visit was a success. Elizabeth forgot that she was to share +the honours of the home with "Mother Hunter," as she had secretly called +her a few times, and in the end overstayed her time till the leave-taking +at Aunt Susan's had to be cut short, and they were late in arriving at her +father's house. + +The day, which had had so many variations, however, like a piece of music, +was to return to the original theme before it closed. It had been a day of +forebodings and anxiety. Fate never permitted Elizabeth Farnshaw more than +a short snatch at happiness, and as John Hunter drove away after he had +helped her deposit her trunk in a dusty corner, the girl wanted to run +after him and implore him not to leave her at the mercy of the morrow. + +As she gazed about the cheerless kitchen she noticed a muffled lump in the +middle of the table. The sponge for the Saturday's baking had been warmly +wrapped for the night. To-morrow would be bake day! Oh, joy! Elizabeth +resolved to insist upon kneading the dough the next morning, and before +starting up the ladder to the loft where she was to sleep she hunted +around in the kitchen safe for the cook book, wondering if by any chance +she could induce her mother to let her try her hand at baking a cake +also. + +"Go to bed, in there!" growled a voice from the other room, and the girl +climbed to her pallet, on which dreams of cooking were to entertain her +waking as well as her sleeping hours. + +Elizabeth's cooking schemes turned out rather better than she had +expected. There are some things common to all women, and Mrs. Farnshaw +entered into her daughter's desire to learn to cater to the appetite of +the man she was going to marry. She worked with the girl at the home-made +kitchen table, and as they worked she talked of many things which to her +mind were essential to preparations for marriage, of the dresses to be +made, of the new house, which was Mrs. Farnshaw's pride, and of John +Hunter himself. By some unlucky chance Elizabeth mentioned her father's +name. Mrs. Farnshaw had been waiting for an opportunity to speak of the +misunderstanding between her husband and their daughter. It is the +tendency of the weak to waste much time and energy in reconciliations, and +to Mrs. Farnshaw peace meant far more than principles. She gave little +thought to the rightness of her husband's demands, but bent every faculty +toward coaxing her family to accede to them. If he were angry, all must +move in cautious attempt to placate his temper, and if his feelings were +hurt no principle must be permitted to stand in the way of excuse and +explanation. She was rejoiced when Elizabeth mentioned her father's name +and forced upon her at once the necessity of asking pardon for the +luckless remark regarding separation which Mr. Farnshaw had overheard +three months before. + +"But it isn't a particle of use, ma," Elizabeth replied when pushed to the +point of answering. "You know he'll hate me now, no matter what I ever do. +I've only got along peaceably this far by not talking to him of anything +at all. It's his way. Let it alone. I'm sorry I ever said it, but it can't +be helped." + +"Yes, it can," Mrs. Farnshaw persisted. "Anyhow, he's your pa, +an'--an'--an' you owe it t' him. You owe it t' me too, t' make it right. +I'll never have a day of peace with him again if you don't. You'd no +business t' talk of partin' nohow! 'Taint decent, an'--an' it give him th' +feelin' that I was sidin' in with such talk." + +Mrs. Farnshaw had been shrewd enough to save her strongest point till the +last. That was the lever by which she could pry Elizabeth loose from her +seated conviction that nothing could be done. Those sentiments had been +_Elizabeth's_, not her mother's. Something was due the mother who had been +compelled to share the blame for words as abhorrent to her as they were to +the irate husband who supposed she had instigated them. Elizabeth knew +that her mother would never have a day of peace with the man in any case, +but she knew from her own experience with him that a remark such as she +had made would be used to worry her mother and to stir even more bitter +accusations than usual. In her heart she knew that nothing she could say +would change her father's feelings or alter his belief about the matter, +but she did feel that her mother was justified from her own standpoint in +making the demand. As she stirred the cake dough and pondered, she glanced +across the table to the open door of her mother's scantily furnished +bedroom opposite. A vision of ruffled pillow-shams where she was soon to +sleep came to her in strong contrast. The memory of muffled sobs which she +had heard coming from that poverty-stricken couch in the corner opposite +the door was set over against the peaceful look of the room which was to +be hers. She was going away to be happy: why not do this thing her mother +asked before she went? Elizabeth knew that her attempt at reconciliation +would be fruitless, but she resolved to do the best she could to leave all +possible comfort to the mother whose portion was sorrow and bread eaten in +bitterness and disappointment. She thought it out slowly. After pondering +a long time, during which Mrs. Farnshaw studied her but did not speak, +Elizabeth delivered her promise. + +"I'll do the best I can, ma. I don't believe It'll do any good, but it +isn't fair that you should suffer for a thing you hate as bad as he does. +Don't let's talk about it, and let me find my own time to do it. +I'll--I'll do my very best." + +Pushing the cake-bowl away from her, she went around the table, and taking +her mother's face between her hands she stroked the thin hair away from +the wasted forehead, and kissed her with a tenderness which brought a +quiver to the unsatisfied lips. + +"I'll do it as well as I possibly know how. I--I'm going away to be happy, +and--and I want you to be happy too." + +It was easier to say than to do, for things went wrong about the barn, and +when supper time arrived Elizabeth decided to wait for a more propitious +time. + +In spite of her determination to get the disagreeable task behind her as +soon as possible, Elizabeth could find no chance at the breakfast table +the next morning to broach the subject, though she tried several times. +Mrs. Farnshaw gave her warning looks, but it was clearly not the time. +When at last the family was ready for divine services and Mr. Farnshaw +drove up in front of the house with the lumber wagon, the mother gave +Elizabeth a little push toward the door, admonishing her to "be quick +about it. Now's your time." + +Elizabeth went slowly out. Mr. Farnshaw had just jumped out of the wagon +and when he saw his daughter coming stooped quickly to examine the leather +shoe sole which served to protect the brake. The elaborate attempt to +ignore her presence made the hard duty still harder. She waited for him to +take cognizance of her presence, and to cover her confusion adjusted and +readjusted a strap on Patsie's harness, thankful for the presence of her +favourite. + +"Let that harness alone!" her father commanded when he was at last +embarrassed by his prolonged inspection of the wagon-brake. + +"All right, pa," Elizabeth replied, glad to have the silence broken in any +manner. "I--I came out to talk to you. If I--if I've done anything to +annoy you, ever, I want to ask your pardon. I--ma--I want to tell you that +John Hunter and I are to be married this fall, and--and I'd like to be the +kind of friends we ought to be before I go away." + +The last sounded rather good to the girl and she stopped, encouraged, also +feeling that it was best to let well enough alone; but when she looked up +at him and encountered his look she shrank as if to avoid something aimed +at her. + +The tyrant detests anything which cringes before him, and Josiah Farnshaw +was as much fired to anger by what he saw in his daughter's face as he +could have been by her defiance. + +"Oh, I know you'd like to be friends!" he sneered with the fierce hatred +of a man caught in an evil act. "Now that you're goin' away you'd like t' +be on good terms with me, would you? How many cows would you like for your +peaceable intentions? What's th' price of your friendship, anyhow? Of +course you don't owe me anything! You're a lady! Now that you're goin' t' +set up housekeepin' you'd like t' be good friends. You'll get nothin' from +me; I'll let you know that right here and now. Go along with you; I don't +want nothin' from you, an' I don't propose t' give nothin' to you." + +It was so coarse, so brutal, so untrue, that the girl met him once in his +life as he deserved. + +"Keep your cows," she said in the low tones of concentrated bitterness. "I +don't want them, nor money from you. I don't owe you anything, either. +I've done more work and furnished you more money than ever I cost you +since the day I was born. I knew no one could explain anything to you. I +told ma so, but she's afraid for her life of you, and insisted. I've tried +to keep the peace with you, really, but no one ever has or ever will be +able to do that. I'll let you alone after this." + +"You damned huzzy!" the now thoroughly aroused man exclaimed, lunging +forward to strike her with his open hand. He had only listened to her so +far because there had been something so compelling in the rush of her +words that he had been stupefied by astonishment into doing so. + +Patsie, who was in line with the blow, reared and threw herself against +her mate, knowing what that tone of her master's voice indicated, and his +hands were so occupied for a few seconds in quieting the team that he +could not follow his daughter and administer the chastisement he wished. + +"I'll thrash you within an inch of your life!" he cried, however, when he +saw her disappearing through the open door of the house. + +"Now, and what have you done?" Mrs. Farnshaw demanded when the breathless +girl pushed rapidly past her at the inner door and faced about defiantly +in the middle of the kitchen. + +"I don't want to hear another word about it, ever. I've done it about as +bad as I could, I guess, but I'll never take another whipping from him, +and you needn't expect it." + +"I didn't mean it the way it sounded," she moaned after the family had +gone, referring to the figurative speech, "She's afraid for her life of +you." That had been meant in a very different sense. The girl would have +given much to have unsaid it, to have given any sort of explanation. + +It was not possible to explain anything to Josiah Farnshaw, and +remembering the threat to flog her as soon as he returned from meeting, +Elizabeth began to put up her hair and prepare for the departure which was +her only way of escape. Josiah Farnshaw never forgot a promise of that +sort. + +"I'll go to Aunt Susan's," she resolved, and as soon as she could get her +dress changed and a few things thrown quickly into the trunk which she had +partially unpacked the day before, Elizabeth took her parasol and started +toward the south. John lived in that direction also, and would be on his +way to see her, for his mother had asked Elizabeth to spend the day with +her. She would ask John to come for her trunk and then have him take her +to Susan Hornby's house. Aunt Susan would welcome her with open arms. She +was covered with perspiration when she met her lover, who was hot and +uncomfortable also, and had been cursing every mile of the shadeless +Kansas road. John's relief was so great at meeting her a couple of miles +on the way that he did not inquire why she was there at that hour till she +was seated beside him. + +"But your father can't do anything to you," he objected when she had +outlined her plan of going to Aunt Susan's to stay till the wedding. +"Everybody knows that you have left there and You'll have to explain +things and get into a scandal." + +Without going into details, Elizabeth insisted that he drive on at once +and get her trunk before her father and the family should get home from +church. + +John Hunter argued the matter. + +"If you leave home," he said slowly, refusing to drive on, "people will +talk, and it isn't to be considered." + +There was a pause. Should she explain the case fully? It could not be +done. John could not be made to understand. Elizabeth knew that even in +the primitive community in which she had been brought up a man would be +filled with disgust at the idea of striking a full-grown woman on any sort +of provocation, and that a man reared as John Hunter had been reared would +be alienated not only from her family but from her. + +Caught like a rat in a trap, Elizabeth Farnshaw let her future husband +study her curiously, while she deliberated and cast about for some means +of getting his approval to her scheme without villifying her parents by +telling the whole truth. + +"I'll be nearer you, and Aunt Susan's always glad to have me," she said +coaxingly. + +It was a good bit of argument to put forth at that moment. The sun poured +his heat out upon them in scalding fierceness, and John Hunter had cursed +his luck every mile he had covered that morning. He had been accustomed to +reach her in fifteen minutes, and the suggestion that she go back to the +old place began to look more reasonable, yet he hesitated and was +reluctant to let a breath of gossip touch his future wife. Whether +Elizabeth were right or wrong did not enter into his calculations. + +It looked as if his consent was not to be obtained. She could not go +back. + +"I'm not going home, and that is all that there is about it," the girl +announced in desperation. + +John still hung back. + +When he did not reply and it became necessary for her to go into the +details she had been trying to avoid, it was done reluctantly and with as +little emphasis put upon the possibility of physical chastisement as could +be done and convince him at all. To Elizabeth's surprise John did not take +much notice of that element. It did not occur to her at that time that it +was a strange thing that her lover should fail to be stirred by the +probability of her receiving a blow. Elizabeth had never had consideration +shown her by any one but Susan Hornby and had not yet learned to expect +it. John struck the horses with the dangling lines he held and drove on +toward the waiting trunk. She watched him as he rode by her side moodily +thinking of the gossip threatened, and while it was not the mood she +wished him to entertain, it did not occur to her that it was anything but +a natural one. They rode without speaking until the house was reached. + +"This'll have to be explained to mother," he remarked discontentedly as he +shoved the unoffending trunk into the back of the wagon. Elizabeth made no +reply. She had been thinking of that very thing. + + + + +VIII + +CYCLONES + + +Susan Hornby asked no questions when Elizabeth and John presented +themselves at her door. Their embarrassed faces warned her. She gathered +Elizabeth into her arms for a brief hug, and then pushed her toward the +inside of the house, remaining behind to show John where to put the trunk. +When it had been set beside the kitchen door she dismissed him by saying: + +"I won't ask you to stay for a bite of dinner, since your mother is alone, +Mr. Hunter." + +"Well--er--that is--mother expected Elizabeth over there," John stammered, +looking toward the front room. + +"Tell your mother Elizabeth will stay right here till she has rested up +from that headache," the woman replied with the tone of having settled the +matter. + +Elizabeth, in the other room, noted that he did not argue about it and +heard him drive away with mixed feelings. When at last Aunt Susan's +questions were answered the girl in turn became questioner. + +"Will she think--John's mother--that we're coarse and common?" she asked +when she had told as much as she could bring herself to tell of the +morning's altercation. + +The look on the older woman's face was not a hopeful one, and the girl got +up restlessly from the trunk-top where she had dropped beside her. She +remembered the fear, half expressed, on the schoolhouse steps two days +before and drew within herself, sick with life. + +"Can I put my trunk away?" she asked, to break the awkward silence she +felt coming. + +"Yes," was the relieved answer, and each took a handle, carrying the light +piece of baggage to the bedroom. At the door Elizabeth stopped short. A +strange coat and vest were spread carelessly over the bed, and a razor +strop lay across the back of the little rocking chair. + +"Oh, I forgot!" Susan Hornby exclaimed, sweeping the offending male attire +into her apron. "A young fellow stopped last night and asked to stay till +he could get a house built on that land west of Hunter's. You're going to +have a bachelor for a neighbour." + +"Who?" Elizabeth asked, and then added, "What will he do for a room if I +take this one?" + +"I don't know," Aunt Susan replied to the last clause of the question. +"The room is yours, anyhow. I'm so glad to have you back that I'd turn him +out if need be. Honestly, we could hardly eat Saturday. Nate was as bad as +I was. They've gone to Colebyville together to-day. I'm glad Nate's got +him--he's lonesome enough these days." + +It was Elizabeth's turn to cheer up Aunt Susan, for she always fell into a +gloom when she mentioned Nathan. It took Elizabeth's mind from her own +affairs, and by the time the unpacking was finished the volatile spirits +of youth had asserted themselves. They took a walk toward evening, and +only returned in time to meet John Hunter, who had come to see his +betrothed about a trip he had decided suddenly to take to Mitchell County. +He had spoken of it to Elizabeth before, and had only waited to get his +mother established and a desirable hired man to run the place in his +absence. The man had come that day asking for work and giving good +references and John had decided to go at once. + +In the excitement of preparation John seemed to have forgotten the +discomforts of the morning, and though he soon took his departure, he left +Elizabeth less unhappy than she had been. Nathan and the new man were +coming in the distance as John Hunter drove away, and the girl turned back +into the kitchen to help with the supper. + + * * * * * + +"Lizzie Farnshaw! And you are the Elizabeth these folk have been talkin' +about? Well, I'll be hornswoggled!" + +Nathan and the new boarder had just come in. + +"Is it really you, Luther?" Elizabeth asked, and there was no mistaking +the glad tones. + +They looked each other over for changes; they sat beside each other at the +table, and Elizabeth asked questions and talked excitedly while he ate. + +"Your hair is darker, and it's curly," she remarked, remembering the +tow-coloured locks cut square across the boyish, sunburned neck. + +Luther Hansen's face crinkled into fine lines and his blue-gray eyes +laughed amusedly. + +"Got darker as I got older, Lizzie, an' th' typhoid put them girl-twists +into th' ends of it. Bet you're a wishin' for it--all th' women folks do. +Wish you had it." + +They went for a walk after supper and talked of many things. He was the +same Luther, grown older and even more companionable. Elizabeth learned +that both his parents had died, leaving the then seventeen-year-old boy a +piece of land heavily mortgaged, and with nothing but a broken down team +and a superannuated cow to raise the debt. By constant labour and +self-denial the boy had lifted the financial load, and then happening to +meet a man who owned this Kansas land had traded, with the hope that on +the cheaper land he could reach out faster and get a good increase on the +original price besides. + +"I remembered th' kind of land it was about here, an' didn't need t' come +an' see it first," he said. "I was goin' t' hunt you up 'fore long, +anyhow. I never thought of these folks a knowin' you, though, after I got +here. Funny, ain't it? I'm right glad t' be back t' you," was his frank +confession. + +And Elizabeth Farnshaw looked up happily into his face, meeting his eye +squarely and without embarrassment. It was as natural to have Luther, and +to have him say that he wanted to see her, as it would have been to listen +to the announcement from her brother. + +"I'm so glad," she replied, "and I've so much to tell you that I hardly +know where to begin." + +Luther laughed. + +"Mrs. Hornby thought I'd be put out about that room, but I told 'er +nothin' like that'd bother me if it brought you t' th' house. I've been +sleepin' under th' wagon all th' way down from Minnesoty an' I can go +right on doin' it." + +They did not go far, but wandered back and sat on Nathan's unpainted +doorstep while the stars came out, and Elizabeth forgot all about the +trials of the morning, and told him of her engagement to John Hunter. + +"I'm going to live right next to your farm, Luther, and you must----" + +Elizabeth Farnshaw had started to say that he must know John, and somehow +the words got suddenly tangled in her throat, and the sentence was +unfinished for the fraction of a moment and then ended differently from +what she had intended: "And I shall be so glad to have you for a +neighbour, and You'll marry--now who will you marry?" + +Luther, who had begun to like this new Elizabeth even better than the girl +of six years ago, had his little turn in the dark shadow of Nathan's +overhanging roof at the mention of this love affair, but he swallowed the +bitter pill like a man. The renewed acquaintance had been begun on +friendly lines and through all the days which followed it was kept rigidly +on that ground. He was glad to have been told frankly and at once of John +Hunter's claims. + +In spite of the fact that Elizabeth had stumbled and found herself unable +to suggest that John and Luther were to be friends, she talked to Luther +of her plans, her hopes of becoming a good housekeeper, her efforts at +cooking, and of the sewing she was engaged upon. He learned, in time, of +the disagreements with her father, and was not surprised, and with him she +took up the subject of the marital relations at home. Luther's experience +was more limited than Susan Hornby's, but he looked the matter of personal +relations squarely in the face and discussed them without reserve. There +was always something left to be finished between them, and night after +night they walked or sat together on the doorstep till late. Nathan looked +on disapprovingly, not understanding the bond between them, but Susan, who +heard the girl chatting happily about her coming marriage, saw that the +friendship was on safe ground and laughed away his fears. + +Nathan had found his first friend since his Topeka experience, and was +unwilling to see him come to harm; also, while Nathan had come to love +Elizabeth almost as much as his own daughter, and to miss her when she was +away, he was uncomfortably aware that she prized a culture which he did +not possess, and was subject to fits of jealousy and distrust because of +it. + +Days passed. Elizabeth could not induce herself to call on her future +mother-in-law. The surety that she was cheapened by reports of her home +affairs stung her consciousness and made it impossible to make the call +which she knew she would certainly give offence by omitting. This, too, +she talked over with Luther, and he advised her to go at once. Each day +she would promise, and each day she would make excuses to herself and him, +till at last the man's sober sense told him it must not be put off +longer. + +One evening, after John had been gone two weeks, and Elizabeth explained +the fact of not having gone to see Mrs. Hunter because of the extreme +heat, Luther suggested that she go over to the "shanty" with him. + +"I forgot my coat, and it looks as if it'd rain 'fore mornin'," he +remarked. "I kept th' harness on th' horses, so's t' drive over." + +As Elizabeth expected, the visit to Mrs. Hunter was the first subject +broached after they started. + +"You're goin' t' live in th' house with Mrs. Hunter, Lizzie"--Luther +always used the old-fashioned name--"an' you must be friends with 'er," he +cautioned. + +"I know it, Luther. I'll go to-morrow, sure, no matter what happens," the +girl promised, her words coming so slowly that there was no mistaking her +reluctance. "I just can't bear to, but I will." + +Luther considered at some length. + +"She'll be lonesome, not knowin' anybody here," he said with almost equal +reluctance. "I--I want t' see you start in right. You've got t' live in +th' house with 'er." + +The last clause of his argument was not exactly in line with the +impression he wished to produce; in fact, it was only a weak repetition of +what he had begun the argument with, but somehow, like Elizabeth, that was +the main fact in the case which absorbed his attention. He was +dissatisfied with it, but could think of no way to state it better; so to +turn the subject to something foreign to the hated topic, he remarked on a +hayfield they were passing. + +"Them windrows ought t' 'a' been shocked up," he said, casting his eye up +at the northwest to measure the clouds. "Jimminy!" he exclaimed, slapping +the team with the lines. "I wonder if I've brought you out here t' get you +wet?" + +He glanced apprehensively at Elizabeth's thin print dress as the startled +team jerked the old lumber wagon over the rough road, and half wished he +had not brought her with him, for the signs were ominous. The breeze, +which had been fitful when they had started, had died away altogether. Not +a breath of air was stirring; even the birds and crickets were silent. + +The storm was gathering rapidly. + +They rounded the corner, near his building place, on a full trot, and +plunged into the grove of cottonwoods which surrounded the "shanty," with +a consciousness that if they were to avoid a wetting, haste was +necessary. + +The faded coat, which was the object of the journey, hung on the handle of +the windlass at the newly sunk well. The dried lumps of blue clay heaped +themselves about the new pine curb and the young man stumbled awkwardly +over the sunbaked clods as he reached for his coat. As he turned back +toward the wagon an exclamation of dismay escaped him. The storm had +gathered so rapidly that the boiling clouds could be plainly seen now +above the tops of the ragged trees which surrounded the place. Instead of +waiting to put the coat on, Luther flung it into the back of the wagon, +and, climbing hastily over the hub, turned the horses and drove them into +the open road. One glance after they were free from the grove was enough. +With a shout, he stood up, urging the horses into a gallop. + +Boiling like smoke from the stack of a rapidly moving locomotive, the +storm bore down upon the level Kansas prairie. Not a sound was heard +except a dull roar from the north. Urging the horses to their utmost +efforts with voice and threatening gestures, Luther looked back at the +girl on the spring seat reassuringly. + +"We're makin' good time, Lizzie," he shouted, "but I'm afraid You'll get +th' starch took out of that purty dress. I never thought of this when I +brought you." + +Elizabeth, clinging to the backless spring seat with both hands, smiled +back at him. It was only a storm, and at best could only soak their +clothes and hair; but to Luther more than that was indicated. + +As they rounded the corner and turned toward the north, a sudden puff of +wind jerked the shapeless straw hat from Luther's head and sent it +careening dizzily over the stubs of the hay field at the right. Hats cost +money, and Luther pulled up the galloping horses. Hardly waiting to see +whether Elizabeth caught the lines he flung to her, he sprang to the +ground and gave chase. The hat rolled flat side down against a windrow and +stuck, so that it looked as if it were to be captured, but before he +reached it the wind, which had now become a steady blow, caught it, and as +the only loose thing of its size to be found, played tag with its owner. +At last he turned back, gasping for breath and unable to lift his head +against the blast. + +A fleeting glimpse of Elizabeth standing up in the wagon was all that he +got, for a blinding flash of lightning split the sky from north to south, +followed by a terrific crash of thunder. Half stunned, he fell into the +deep rut of an old road crossing the hayfield at right angles to his +course. + +As he arose a moment later, a scene never to be forgotten met his gaze. +One of his horses lay motionless on the ground, the other was struggling +feebly to regain its feet, and Elizabeth was scrambling wildly out of the +wagon. Rushing to her side, Luther drew her away from the floundering +horse. A gust of rain struck them. + +"Can you hold his head," Luther shouted in her ear, "while I get him out +of the harness?" + +Elizabeth nodded, and together they caught the bit and laid the beast's +head flat on the ground, where the girl held it fast by main force while +Luther worked at the straps and buckles. + +"At last!" he cried, when the name-strap gave way under his fingers. He +flung the neck-yoke over against the body of the dead horse, and stepped +back to free himself from the dangling lines. + +Elizabeth let the horse's head loose and jumped back, still holding to the +halter-strap. The frightened animal bounded to its feet with a neigh of +alarm, dragging the girl out of Luther's reach just as a thunderous roar +and utter darkness enveloped them. + +What happened, exactly, the man never knew. He picked himself up, half +senseless, some minutes later, covered with mud, and his clothing half +torn from his body. At first he could not recall where he was; then seeing +the dead horse in the road, and the upturned bed of the wagon itself, he +realized that they had been struck by a cyclone. + +The darkness had whirled away with the retreating tornado, and a gray +light showed the demoralized wagon overturned by the roadside. The wagon +was in painful evidence, but Elizabeth? Where was Elizabeth? Looking +wildly about in all directions, Luther called her name: + +"Lizzie! Lizzie! God in heaven! What has become of you?" + +He remembered the fate of a girl in Marshall County which he had heard +discussed only last week. That child had been picked up by one of these +whirling devils and her neck broken against a tree! + +With a wild cry, he turned and ran in the direction of the receding storm, +calling her name and looking frantically on both sides of the path where +the cyclone had licked the ground as clean as a swept floor. He could see +nothing at all of Elizabeth. Realizing at last that he was wasting his +efforts, and that some degree of composure would assist in the search, +Luther stopped and looked about him. + +Outside the immediate path of the cyclone, which was cleared of every +movable thing, the hay was tossed and thrown about as if it had been +forked over the ground to dry itself from the wetting it had had. Hay +everywhere, but no living thing to be seen. Could it be that Elizabeth had +been carried completely away by the storm, or was she buried in the hay +somewhere? + +Unresponsive as all nature to human emotions, the tumbled grass lay about +him, a picture of confusion and ruin. The futility of human effort was +borne in upon him as he scanned the waste. A pile larger than the +surrounding piles separated itself from the scattered heaps at last. He +regarded it eagerly. Yes! there was a flutter of wet calico. + +Half rejoicing, half terrified at the prospect of what he might find, +Luther Hansen ran and flung himself down on his knees beside it, dragging +at the half-buried form of the girl in frantic haste. She was doubled +together and mixed with the hay as if, after being picked up with it, she +had been whirled with it many times and then contemptuously flung aside. + +Drawing her out, Luther gathered her into his arms and listened to her +heart beat to make certain that she still lived. + +Though limp and unconscious, Elizabeth Farnshaw was alive, and Luther drew +her up and leaned her loosely rolling head on his shoulder while he +considered what to do. + +A sharp, peppering fall of hail struck them. Luther looked about quickly +for shelter. The Kansas prairie stretched level and bare before him. Not +even a bush presented itself. The size of the hailstones increased. + +Elizabeth began to show signs of returning consciousness and to move +feebly. + +The hailstones came down like a very avalanche of ice. It became necessary +to interpose his body between her and the storm. He thought of the coat +they had come to obtain, but that had probably gone with the hat and the +hay and all other things in the route of the hurricane. He stooped close +over her quivering form and let the frozen pellets fall on his unprotected +head. The deluge was mercifully short, but at the end Luther Hansen was +almost beaten into insensibility. + +When the hailstorm was over the rain burst upon them with renewed fury, +and the wind blew as cold as a winter's gale. The chill stung them into +activity. Luther got slowly, to his feet, bracing himself against the +blast as he did so, and also pulled up the now conscious girl. Elizabeth's +strength had not returned and she fell back, dragging him to his knees at +her side. The rain ran off her hair and clothes in streams, and against +the storm her thin cotton dress was of no protection whatever. Luther +urged her to control her shaking limbs and try to walk. It could only be +accomplished by much effort. When at last she staggered to her feet, he +put his arm about her and with bent head turned to face the rain, which +cut like switches at their faces and cold shoulders, to which the wet +cotton garments clung like part of the very skin itself. + +The wind blew a gale. It was almost impossible to make headway against it. +Had it not been for Elizabeth's chilled state Luther would have slipped +down in a wagon rut and waited for the squall to subside, but it was +essential that the girl be got under shelter of some sort At length, after +struggling and buffeting with the storm for what seemed an age, +alternately resting and then battling up the road toward home, they turned +the corner of the section from which the Hornby house could be seen. + +Suddenly, Elizabeth gave a frightened scream. Luther, whose head had been +bowed against the wind, looked up with a start. + +"Good God!" broke from his lips. + +Only a twisted pile of débris was to be seen where that house had stood. + +With the impulse to reach it instantly, they started on a run, hand in +hand, but the fierceness of the gale prevented them. Out of breath before +they had gone a dozen yards, there was nothing to do but stop and recover +breath and start again at a pace more in keeping with their powers. +Impatient and horrified, they struggled ahead, running at times, +stumbling, falling, but not giving up. Terrified by the thought of they +knew not what possible disaster ahead of them, they at last turned into +the little path leading to the ruined house. + +Picking their way over scattered bits of household belongings, broken +boards and shingles, for some distance, they at last reached the main pile +of timbers. The girl's heart sank at the thought of what they might find +there, and she made a gesture of distress. + +"This is no place for you, Lizzie," Luther said, quick to comprehend, and +sick with pity for her. + +As he spoke, his foot sank between some timbers into a pile of wet cloth, +and thinking that it was a human form, he shuddered and fell forward to +avoid giving an injury the nature of which he could only guess. + +They dug frantically at the pile, and were relieved to find that it was +only a ragged knot of rainsoaked carpet. It indicated, however, the +possibilities of the moment, and Luther ceased to urge the now frenzied +girl to leave him, and together they stumbled about in their search. +Darkness was falling rapidly, and they called first the name of Nathan, +and then of his wife, beside themselves because they could not find even a +trace of either to indicate their fate. Had the storm picked them up as it +had done Elizabeth and carried them out of the wreckage? + +Luther stopped and shouted the thought into Elizabeth's ear. The wind +dropped for an instant, and they stood looking about the place as well as +the gloom would permit. The rain fell less noisily also. All at once they +heard their names called from somewhere toward the north. Turning, they +saw, what they had not noticed before, that the straw sheds and the +granary were untouched by the tornado. + +"Here, Luther! Here, Lizzie!" came another call from the granary door. + +Nathan Hornby, faintly seen, was shouting to them at the top of his voice. +A new dash of rain came, and the wind redoubled its fury as if vexed with +itself for having carelessly let the wayfarers get a glimpse of the +harbour where it would be unable to do them further harm. With a glad cry, +they ran toward the beckoning figure, and a second later Elizabeth was +lifted by Nathan and Luther into the open door of the bin-room, and +literally fell across the shifting grain into Aunt Susan's open arms, +sobbing and clinging to her as if fearing that the fierce winds would +snatch her away. The relief was almost too much for the girl. + +"Aunt Susan! Aunt Susan! How could I live without you?" she sobbed. + +Susan Hornby drew the horse blanket with which she was covered over the +shuddering child in her arms, and patted and soothed her, crying softly +for joy as she did so, for the fears of the last hour had been mutual. The +thought of her darling out in the storm, suffering she knew not what, had +unnerved Susan Hornby, and brought home to her as nothing else had ever +done a realization of the precious relation between them. + +"My daughter! My daughter! My Katy's own self!" she repeated over and +over. + +The reaction of fright and cold and wet brought on a chill which set +Elizabeth's teeth to chattering audibly. Aunt Susan was beside herself +with worry. Do what she would, the girl could not control herself. They +rubbed and worked with her for some minutes. Luther was alarmed and blamed +himself for having taken her out in threatening weather. Elizabeth +insisted that no harm had come to her except a wetting, but could not +convince the others till Nathan had a bright idea. + +"Here! we'll scoop these warm oats over you. They're as warm as +toast--havin' th' blazin' sun on th' roof of this place all day." + +The two men were alert for any signs of the old building toppling over +under the terrific pressure of the wind, and had kept pretty close to the +door; but they moved over in the direction of the two women, and using +their hands as shovels soon had them well covered with oats. + +"There you are," Nathan shouted, when Susan had begged them to desist +because of the dust they were raising. "We'll set you folks a sproutin' if +heat an' moisture's got anything t' do with it," he continued. + +He pulled some grain sacks out of the empty wheat bin and advised Luther +to wrap them around himself. "I'm some wet, myself," he announced, "but +I've got warm ragin' round here like a gopher. Now tell us how you folks +come t' get here in all this storm. What'd you do with th' horses?" + +All this had been shouted at the top of his voice, for the wind rattled +and tore at the old building with the noise of a cannonade, as if +determined to wreck even this shelter. It was not possible to see one's +hand in the darkness, for when the door had been pulled shut after the +young couple, the last ray of light was shut out. Besides, night had +fallen now, and the darkness outside was no less dense. + +Luther told in as few words as possible of the catastrophe which had +befallen them on the road. + +"Why, Susan," Nathan exclaimed, "th' same twister struck them as struck +us! Now don't that beat you? Funny th' stables didn't go, too. That's th' +way with them things--they go along an' mow a patch a rod 'r two wide as +clean as a whistle, an' not touch a thing ten feet away. Lord man!" he +cried, turning toward Luther in the dark with a reminiscent giggle, "you +should 'a' seen us. Sue saw th' storm a-comin', an' she run out t' git th' +chickens in, an' nothin' 'd do 'er when she see th' way them clouds was a +actin' but I must come in, too. We didn't even milk! I never see anything +come on like it; we didn't hardly have time t' git th' winders shut till +we could hear it roarin'! Lord, you should 'a' heard it come! All at onct +it got dark, an' th' house begun t' rock; an' then it slid along on th' +ground, an' then it lifted clear up at th' northeast corner, an' we slid +down in a heap on th' other side along o' th' cupboards an' th' kitchen +table an' crocks we'd set out for th' milk we didn't get into 'em, an' +then th' house lit over on th' other corner an' went t' pieces like a +dry-goods box. That kitchen table was th' savin' of us! I don't know how +it got over us, but there it was with th' safe an' water-bench a holdin' +th' timbers off'n us." Nathan wound up his story in a lowered tone, and +there was silence for a moment as each went over his personal experience +in thought. + +"Gittin' warm there, Elizabeth?" he asked after a time. + +"A little," the girl answered, still shivering, but with less audible +chattering of her teeth. + +"You'll be all right in half an hour," Nathan said with a relieved sigh. +"I think we'll put a little more of these oats over you for good luck," he +added. + +They heaped the warm grain thick about her, and then, because it was hard +to converse with the noise of the roaring wind outside, gave up the +effort. The old granary had a good roof and did not leak; they grew less +frightened, and Elizabeth grew warm in Aunt Susan's arms and slept at +last. The rest lay long, listening to the angry blast, counting up their +losses and planning to reconstruct so as to fit the new circumstances. For +Luther another horse would be needed, while Nathan would have to build a +house and furnish it anew. + +After the wind subsided the two men discussed in low tones the best way of +beginning on the morrow, and it was finally decided that Luther should go +out and appeal to the neighbours to gather together and assist in sorting +and saving such things as were worth it, and construct out of the broken +timbers a habitation which would shelter them till a better could be +erected. Fortunately, Luther had used none of the lumber of his last load, +and but little of the one he had bought before. + +It was almost morning before they fell asleep, and the sun was shining +brightly before they awoke. As they emerged from the musty oats bin into +the fresh air, which had been purified by the wind and rain of the night +before, a curious sight met their eyes. + +The house was indeed a wreck! Roof, side-walls, plaster, floor, and +furniture were mixed in one indistinguishable mass. The kitchen table +Nathan had mentioned stood as a centre-pole under a leaning pile of boards +and splintered scantlings, and had evidently done much to save the lives +of its owners when the roof fell. One end of the house lay, almost +uninjured, on the grass, the window panes unbroken and still in their +frames. Other windows had been hurled from the walls to which they +belonged and ground to powder. Half the roof had been deposited between +the road and the rest of the débris as carefully as if it had been lifted +by some gigantic machinery, and was unhurt, while the other side, +splintered and riddled, was jumbled together with joists, siding, and +kitchen chairs. + +They spent but little time over the ruin of treasures, but after a hurried +breakfast, consisting of such eggs as they could find about the haystacks, +and coffee--rainsoaked, but still coffee, which was dug out of a stone jar +where it had fallen--the men went at once for help. + +In spite of bridges washed out, and many hindrances, sympathetic farmers +began to gather within two hours after Luther had started out. The lumber +he had offered was brought and many willing hands began the erection of +the simple four-room house on the old foundation. The place was cleared, +furniture carried to one side, while broken timbers were carried to the +other and sorted, nails drawn, and every available stick laid in neat +piles ready for those who had brought saws and hammers for building. + +Susan and Elizabeth sorted the soaked and muddy clothing, carpets, and +bedclothes, and Mrs. Chamberlain and other neighbour women, around a great +out-of-door fire near the well, washed and spread the clothes on the grass +to dry. + +As if by magic, a house arose before night and, minus doors and windows, +but otherwise ready for occupancy, offered its shelter to the tired but +grateful family. Broken bedsteads had been mended and put in place, +feather-beds had been dried in the hot sun, straw ticks had been filled +with clean hay; broken chairs nailed or wired together occupied their old +places; the kitchen safe, with its doors replaced but shutting grudgingly, +was in its old corner, and the unplastered house had a look of homey +comfort in spite of the lack of some of its usual features. + +Luther, who was a sort of carpenter, donated his services for several +days, and except for patches of new weather-boarding or shingles mixed +with the old there was little to indicate the path of a cyclone in the +country. Yes, there was a pile of splintered boards tossed roughly +together not far from the back door, and the usual fuel of corncobs was +below par. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + +"AGAINST HER INSTINCTS, AGAINST HER BETTER +JUDGMENT, AGAINST HER WILL" + + +Mrs. Hunter did not come to help, nor to call upon Elizabeth and Susan +Hornby, after the disaster, and Elizabeth was finally obliged to go to see +John's mother without any encouragement other than Luther's urging. + +The day came at last when the call had to be made, and for the first time +Elizabeth came in contact with polite society which smiles and bows in +polite form without any especial regard for sincerity. There was not a +ripple of discontent on the surface at her future home. Mrs. Hunter might +never have heard of the girl's family difficulties. The girl might have +called the day before, so courteous and charming was the dignified +hospitality with which she was accepted. Elizabeth felt as if the most +painful possibility of her life had been safely put behind her. She had +been nervous and uncomfortable about this visit, and was correspondingly +sensitive to the perfect manner of her hostess, and carried away with her +a new problem to work upon: if John Hunter's mother, by her poise and +presence, made of his home a social unit of appearance and value, John +Hunter's wife must not fall below the grade of that home when she became +its mistress. She pondered long upon that subtle air of good breeding +which ignored real issues and smoothed communication by seeming not to +know disagreeable facts. Elizabeth decided that it was much more desirable +than the rugged honesty with which the primitive folk about them would +have humiliated themselves by explanation and apology. She would copy that +suavity of manner. Also, she resolved not to discuss grievances. They were +a bore and it was horribly countrified. + +"I will not let myself think any more about it. I will be myself, and not +be affected by what the rest of the folks do, and I'll not let myself sit +and fumble with my buttons because some one else is going to think about +them. Mrs. Hunter's manners are beautiful. I'd just love her if I didn't +know I was going to have to live with her," she thought. Mrs. Hunter was a +fixture in Elizabeth's mental world, and her estimates were the standards +Elizabeth considered when she sewed alone or when Aunt Susan was silent. +The girl was both fascinated and repelled by them. Mrs. Hunter's bearing +was the subject of constant and delighted meditation, while the cold +carefulness of it was a terrorizing nightmare. The girl kept up a +conversation with Aunt Susan on the sewing, or a fire of mirth and jollity +with Nathan or Luther, with this undercurrent of thought always going on. +How was she to emulate that polish with so little experience in social +affairs she would ask herself one moment, and the next would be harassed +by the certainty that equal perfection in housekeeping and entertainment +would be expected of her. There was no escaping her fate. If she was to +learn these things, she must learn them of John's mother. There was no way +of acquiring them beforehand. Elizabeth faced her position squarely: she +decided to accept her teacher. At least Mrs. Hunter seemed willing to make +it easy for her. + +When Elizabeth went home that night she spoke in glowing terms of Mrs. +Hunter's friendly reception, and praised the real merit of her +housekeeping, letting Luther see that she hoped to acquire it, and left +the little group around the supper table in great good humour because the +visit had been a success. She took Luther after the meal was over and went +to look for the eggs about the haystacks, talking all the while of John +Hunter's mother in the happiest manner she could assume. The visit to +John's home had made her a bit homesick for John himself. Luther's +presence had so completely filled the days since John's departure that she +had not been lonesome for him, but the house with which he was associated +had brought John back to the foreground of her consciousness with a rush, +and Luther saw that she was aglow with longing for the man she was to +marry. They did not walk as usual after the eggs were hunted, but went +back to the house, where Elizabeth excused herself and soon went to bed. +John was expected now at any time. + +When John did arrive two days later he found a welcome awaiting him that +was all that the most exacting of men could have desired, a thing which +astonished him somewhat, for rumour had reached him as soon as he had come +into the home neighbourhood that the new Swede had cut him out. John came +to see Elizabeth with curiosity predominating in his mind, though there +was a distinct feeling of determination to master the situation if rumour +had been right. + +Luther was not at the house when John Hunter arrived. Elizabeth's delight +over her lover's return was not a thing to be deceived about, but one +thing left its impress upon his mind: Elizabeth called this new man by his +given name and spoke of him as one speaks of an intimate. This was soon +dismissed from John's mind, however, for Elizabeth was all agog to learn +about the Mitchell County land which he said he had bought, and John +Hunter stretched his legs out comfortably in the mended rocker of Nathan +Hornby's little front room and talked enthusiastically of the pasture he +would have for surplus cattle when he had got the farm in running order. +No reference was made to Elizabeth's affairs with her family. John was +keenly appreciative of her joy in his presence, and the old relations were +renewed; in fact, the relations were on a better basis than they had been +for several days before John's absence. By a curious stroke of fate, +Luther was away from the house every time John Hunter called for over a +week. It whetted John's interest in the other man not to be able to see +him, and it added an element to the courtship which had threatened to +disappear. This other man on the scene made him apprehensive; he wanted +the centre of the stage for himself, and he became more ardent. Elizabeth +was courted with sweet manner, and all her wishes considered. + +The summer was a happy one. Aside from a simple white dress to be married +in, and two calico dresses for house wear, Elizabeth put her own sewing +away and helped Aunt Susan repair her quilts and carpets which had +suffered badly in the cyclone. Two weeks had to be given up to the +plastering of the remodelled house, and all the furniture was revarnished +by their own hands. By the time all this was finished the girl felt a +personal possession in every article the house contained, and it had +indeed become a home to her. The home she had left was scarcely more than +a shadow in Elizabeth's mind. The work of remodelling and brightening up +Nathan's house was hastened because of the wedding, which they planned to +have take place there. Susan Hornby and Elizabeth had grown closer than +ever since the storm, when each had feared the loss of the other. They +worked and sewed together, skimping Nathan and Luther on the cooking till +the former threatened to turn cook in self-defence. + +Mrs. Farnshaw had not come to help when the neighbours put up the +demolished house. The bridges had been out and no one had gone to warn her +that help was needed. When the news had arrived the omission had been +taken as an offence and no effort had been made to go at all. The last +week in September, however, Elizabeth's mother came to see her. The girl +was helping Susan Hornby put fresh straw under the rag carpet in the front +room. The straw was carefully spread and the carpet tacked along one side +of the room, and Elizabeth, hammer in hand, turned over from her knees to +a sitting position and surveyed her mother with a dull fear at her heart; +she knew what her mother's presence meant. Mrs. Farnshaw resented the new +carpet, she resented Susan Hornby, she resented the comradeship she felt +existed between her daughter and this alien woman who was no relation to +her by the ties of blood. Ignoring Aunt Susan's courteous attempts to make +her feel welcome, she drove straight to the object of her visit and +demanded that Elizabeth come home to be married. + +"I'm going to be married right here, ma," Elizabeth replied, twisting the +hammer around in the other hand and filled with apprehension. She knew her +mother's tendency to hold fast to foolish demands. + +Mrs. Farnshaw's ready handkerchief went up to her eyes at once. + +"Now look a' here, Lizzie, I ain't got no other girl, an' it's a pretty +how-de-do if I can't have my only daughter married from my own house." + +Elizabeth fidgeted about, laying her hammer down and picking up a straw +that had pushed its way through the loose rags of the carpet on which she +sat. After a time she turned her eyes to Aunt Susan with a mute call for +help. Susan Hornby was decidedly uncomfortable. + +"I thought of course you'd come home to be married," Mrs. Farnshaw +continued. + +"You know pa 'd raise a fuss as soon as I appeared," her daughter +replied. + +Mrs. Farnshaw brightened. She was strong on argument. Elizabeth's silence +had disconcerted her, but if she would talk--well, Mrs. Farnshaw began to +have hopes. + +"You've been away all summer," she sobbed, returning to her handkerchief. + +Elizabeth kept her eyes on Aunt Susan's face and did not reply again. +There was another silence. + +Mrs. Farnshaw began to be desperate. + +"Folks has talked an' talked," she said, "an' I let 'em, because I thought +when you come home for th' weddin' it'd put a stop t' their tongues. +You've been down here, an' you don't know how hard it's been." + +Elizabeth had listened in a distressed silence and studied Susan Hornby's +face for signs of assistance. + +"I guess they haven't talked----" she began at length, and then stopped +short at something in Aunt Susan's eye which confirmed her mother's +words. + +"Oh, yes, they have," her mother hastened to say. "They say you ain't got +no proper pride, an' they say you've got too stuck up t' live to home any +longer, now that you're goin' t' marry rich, an' they say I can't make +your things good enough for you t' be married in, an'----" + +Mrs. Farnshaw had voiced her greatest grievance--her neighbours criticised +her. She broke into such real weeping that it was impossible not to be +moved by it. + +Forgetting her policy of silence, Elizabeth argued and explained. Talking +to her mother, but keeping her eyes glued on Aunt Susan's, she went into +details about the difficulty at home. + +"You know pa 'll find some excuse to strike me as soon as I get there," +she concluded. She had a painful sense of weakness and inadequacy in the +presence of her mother's determination. Her own worries seemed so trivial +in the presence of her mother's sorrow. + +"E won't, I tell you," Mrs. Farnshaw repeated for the twentieth time. +"E'll let you alone if you do th' right thing. We love our children--if +th' neighbours don't think so," she wailed. + +As she talked, however, she kept a shrewd eye on her daughter and soon saw +that Elizabeth's eyes turned to those of Aunt Susan. It was not enough for +this Hornby woman to be neutral; Mrs. Farnshaw decided to enlist her. + +"If you had a girl you'd want 'er t' be married in your own house, I +know," she said, leaning forward eagerly. "Suppose you only had th' +one----" She saw the quick tears gathering. "Did you ever have a little +girl?" she asked. + +Susan Hornby's emotions mastered her. She made no attempt to reply. + +"Then tell 'er t' come home for just two more days," she said quickly. "I +don't ask for no more than that. Just long enough to put an end t' this +talk. I don't never 'spect t' have 'er after that, but----" + +She sprang to her feet and, crossing the room, dragged Elizabeth to her +feet also. + +"I've got t' have you, Lizzie, an' that's all th' is about it!" They +looked at each other a long time. Elizabeth weakened. + +What could the girl do? Against her instincts, against her better +judgment, against her will, she consented. + +"See to it, then, that no new thing comes up to disgrace us," she said, +stepping back to avoid the compelling touch of the hand that clutched at +her sleeve, still looking across despairingly at Aunt Susan. + +All help had been taken from that quarter. Bewildered, torn between her +comprehension of mother love and a real knowledge of this particular case, +Susan Hornby fumbled with the hem of her apron and did not look up. + +Elizabeth, alone and without support, was easily victimized. + +"I'll go," she said briefly. + + * * * * * + +So the peaceful summer ended for Elizabeth Farnshaw with her promise to go +home. She hated to go, but the phrasing of her mother's plea, "just two +more days," helped to sustain her. It had been a happy summer, two days +would not be long, and then would come John and the new home. + +There had been many reasons for the happiness of Elizabeth's last weeks of +girlhood. The days had been full of pleasant work, and John had taken +regular and masterful possession of her evenings. He came always such a +picture of natty cleanliness and taste that it was a joy to be the object +of his wooing. When John had found that Elizabeth was not in love with +Luther, as she had been reported to be, but accorded the old grounds of +affection to him, he had spread himself comfortably in Luther's presence +and drawn him into conversation whenever it could be done. In addition to +a desire to set his well-polished boots in strong contrast against those +of busy, unobserving Luther, the only dressing of which was an occasional +soaking in oil to keep them from cracking, John Hunter had been half +forced to like honest, kindly Luther Hansen. Luther was not a man to +arouse antagonisms. He assumed his natural rôle with Elizabeth even before +her fiancé and let the ground of their cordiality and friendship rest on +such sensible basis that they were accepted as a matter of course. + +John Hunter had been restless and half angry when he had first come home +from Mitchell County--a thing he had not let Elizabeth see--but his +feelings had been soothed and delighted by the display of her preference +for him on his return. A new buggy had been purchased, and it was John +Hunter's pride. + +Elizabeth was unconscious of any rivalry. The new buggy was a great +acquisition. It was the first to appear in that part of the country. She +felt favoured to have it at her service, but the crown of all her felicity +had been John Hunter's adoration, which had been poured at her feet +without stint. If she wished to go anywhere, she had but to mention it. +The relations of the early summer had been reëstablished. He talked of the +new land, and of the cattle to be placed on it in two or three years, when +the calves he was buying would be grown. The lots in which he had held an +equity since his father's death had been sold before his mother's +departure from the old home, and twenty-five calves had been picked up +from the surrounding farmers with the money thus secured. Every evening +John drove to some farm to look for young cattle, and Elizabeth +accompanied him. Cash had been paid for the Western land, and at the end +of the summer most of the money that had been received from the estate had +been invested. + +As they drove from farm to farm, discussing prices; sheds, feed, and the +wintering of stock, the girl's heart swelled with gratitude that her lines +had fallen in such well-provided places. The pinch of poverty was to be +lifted from her life. + +More than the plenty, Elizabeth prized the peace which seemed to be +drifting in her direction. + +Every day since John Hunter's return had been a happy day. John consulted +her judgment and her wishes, and it was done with that air of comradeship +which was the most sought-for thing in Elizabeth Farnshaw's life. All her +lonely days she had longed for it, and in all her girlish dreams it had +been the prime factor. She had obtained glimpses of it in Susan Hornby's +home, and now, she told herself joyfully, it was to be a permanent feature +of her future life. + +With Mrs. Farnshaw's advent a series of unpleasant things began to +manifest. John was glad that the marriage was to take place in Elizabeth's +own home. Because of their engagement, he had heard little of the gossip +about her, but it had been enough to make him suspect more and wish her +well out of it. If now she would go home it would make the whole thing +look right and stop the reports. + +John Hunter was distinctly a man of moods and reflected the conditions in +which he happened for the moment to find himself. When he came to see +Elizabeth the night after her mother had been to see her, he was pleased +that she was to go home the next day, but he instantly partook of the +discontent she showed. He took her to his mother's house for a short stay, +but both were heavy of spirits and John was actually depressed. Elizabeth +was almost abnormally sensitive to the attitude assumed toward her, and +had she been shrewd she would never have carried any doubts of her own +efficiency or judgment to her lover, but she was as open as a little +child. John left her at the little gate and drove away so promptly that +the girl's lip quivered as she turned in the dark to go to the house. + +Elizabeth found Luther seated on the low doorstep. The shadow of the house +prevented her from seeing him till she was almost upon him. + +"Of all things! I never thought of you being here," she exclaimed, +thinking of the kiss she had just received not three rods distant. + +Luther laughed sheepishly. + +"I hadn't intended t' see your good-nights," he said honestly, "but I'd +'a' made a worse mess of it by runnin' than I did by settin' still. +Anyhow, you're goin' t' be married in three days, an' it needn't make no +difference. I've been a thinkin' about you an' I waited up t' talk." He +made room on the step for her to sit beside him. + +"Thinking about me?" + +"Yes. Mrs. Hornby says your mother was here to-day. She's kind of worried +about it--you goin' home, I mean. I don't know about that--I hope It'll be +all right. Try an' make it right, Lizzie. Th' Hunters go a good deal on +looks." + +Elizabeth was silent. + +Luther felt it and interpreted her silence rightly. + +"Is that something I'm not to talk about, Lizzie?" he asked. + +The question hurt worse than the statement. + +"I--I--don't know why you ask me such a thing, Luther," she faltered. + +Luther arose. He was not to be offended, nor would he put away what he had +waited to say. + +"I only wanted to say that--well, do what th' folks ask of you, Lizzie. +You're only home for a couple of days an'--an'"--after a long pause--"an' +it won't hurt nobody." + +Elizabeth got up slowly. + +"Good-night, Luther," she said. + +She wanted to offer him her hand; she was sure she was hurting him, but +she could not talk to him on this point; the very truth of his suspicious +that the Hunter estimate of her might be affected by scandal made of it a +sore point. Elizabeth Farnshaw would be loyal to mutual relations, even +where Luther's feelings were concerned. + +They met in the morning on perfectly friendly ground, but there was an +attitude of reserve which brooked no remark on her part. Luther departed +early for his own house, and John Hunter came before noon to take her to +her father's home. After all her simple possessions were in the wagon, +Elizabeth went back and threw herself into the arms of Aunt Susan, who was +crying miserably. + +"Oh, Aunt Susan! I feel as if I had taken leave of you forever. I've--I've +been so happy in this house--till yesterday. Can I ever repay what you've +done for me?" + +Susan Hornby gathered Elizabeth into her arms and sobbed more vehemently. +The silence was unbroken except by those sobs, and at last the girl, moved +out of herself, tried to comfort her, and said coaxingly: + +"I'll live right near you. I'll see you every few days and--and I'll never +forget how good you've been to me. It's--it's too bad these last two days +had to be so--so different. I--I don't know what went wrong, +but--but"--she laughed desperately--"where have our good times gone to? +I'm going to be married to the man I love--and I'm going to live right +near you--and--what is the matter with us, anyway?" + +Susan Hornby clung to the girl and could not cease crying, till at last +Elizabeth lifted her chin on one finger and with a corner of Aunt Susan's +own apron, wiped the tears from the contorted face. + +"Now then, don't cry," she said, kissing her again and again. + +"Keep the folks in a good humour, dear. The Hunters 'll feel awful if +anything more happens," Susan Hornby faltered, and then, to keep the girl +from, replying, and to avoid the surprise and pain in the young face, +pushed her gently but firmly toward the door and John Hunter, who was +waiting impatiently. + + + + +CHAPTER X + +PHILOSOPHY OF ELIZABETH'S LIFE VOICED + + +"To-morrow," Elizabeth said, significantly, as John turned back to get +into the wagon after they had deposited the trunk in the house. + +"To-morrow," John smiled back at her. It was a reluctant smile he gave +her, but the bid for affection in her young eyes was irresistible. + +"He had to be nice," she thought as she walked back to the house; "it was +a good way." + +A sudden thought came to her. + +"Did you ask Luther to the wedding?" she asked of her mother as she +entered. + +"No, I didn't. What do you want of that Swede?" Mrs. Farnshaw asked +petulantly. "I should think----" + +What she thought was never recorded in words, for Elizabeth was out of the +house like a flash, calling to John Hunter as she ran down the road after +him. It was a surprised John who took her message. + +"Yes, I'll tell him, but I don't see what you want of that Swede--he +always seems to cut such a figure in everything you do," John said +discontentedly. + +"Well, just tell him that ma sends the invitation, will you?" was all +Elizabeth could say. + +It was John's first contemptuous remark about Luther, and it disturbed +her. They were to live closer to Luther Hansen than any other neighbour +and it was essential that they be on friendly terms. She had hoped it +might be that John would appreciate the good things in Luther which even +his nationality could not spoil. Dear old Luther! In spite of the +observation she had seemed to resent the night before, Elizabeth loved +him--loved him all the more because she had been obliged to hurt him. It +suddenly occurred to her that John might not deliver her message. She put +the thought away from her instantly, saying aloud: + +"He'd do anything he knew I wanted him to do," and then was struck with +the doubtful tone in which it was said. + +"What did you say?" her mother asked, for Elizabeth had just entered the +door. + +"Nothing. I hate this wedding!" + +"Well, now, I like that, after all I've done to give you a good time," the +mother said angrily. + +"No, ma; you mean to give yourself a good time. You make me come home when +I don't want to, and you ask people I hate to have, and then you leave out +the people I want most. It isn't my wedding. I'm going to stand up and be +married so as to get rid of it all, but John won't have the minister I +want, you won't have the people I want, I'm most sure pa 'll kick up some +kind of a row about it--and--and I was so happy till you came and made me +consent to it. What did you do it for?" + +"Do it for? You ungrateful child! What did I do it for? I'll tell you," +Mrs. Farnshaw's eyes hardened into momentary coals of fire. "I did it +because I don't like your whole goings on. Minister? Why don't you say +preacher, like the rest of your folks? It's that Hornby woman. She made +you talk of divorces----" At thought of all her supposed wrongs at the +hand of Susan Hornby Mrs. Farnshaw broke into a half scream and ended by +throwing herself into a chair by her daughter's side and clinging to her +hand with her upturned face streaming over with tears, her mouth convulsed +with pain till speech was impossible. + +Moved to repentance at the sight of the pang she had caused, Elizabeth +fell on her knees by her mother's side, and with her arms encircling her, +cried contritely: + +"I didn't mean it, ma, really--that is, I didn't mean it that way. Don't +mind what I said. I do love you." + +Mrs. Farnshaw clung to her, so shaken by sobs that she still could not +speak, and the penitent daughter soothed and comforted her with her own +heart breaking at the thoughtlessness of her speech. + +"Put it away and don't remember it; I didn't mean it. I'm tired to +death--and--and----" She pondered a moment and then made the experiment. +"And I want to speak of Aunt Susan to you. I can't bear to have you feel +so bad about me liking her. She hasn't put a single notion into my head. +Be good and get acquainted with her. She'd like to have you. If you knew +her you'd know how different she is from what you think. I'll take you to +see her the very first time you come to see me. Say you will." + +Elizabeth stroked the thin hair back from the passion-worn face, and +waited for her reply. + +Mrs. Farnshaw shook her head, but could not meet the offer squarely. + +"The two of you'd be a wishin' you could get rid of me so's you could talk +your own kind of talk," she said with conviction. "'Taint any use, Lizzie; +I ain't your kind. Your pa 'd be madder at me 'n ever, too." + +"Well, he's mad all the time, anyhow," Elizabeth said. + +"No 'e wasn't till you said that awful thing--that is, 'e was mad often +enough, but not like 'e's been since. You don't know what you done t' your +mother then. Be good, an' go t' 'im, an' settle 'is mind 'fore you're +married. It don't matter if I know Miss Hornby 'r not; but what a +difference it'd make t' me if he only knowed I never put you up t' that +partin' business! Please do it fur me, Lizzie." + +This was an unexpected turn. Elizabeth had hoped to avoid the recurrence +of this issue. Knowing that she was keeping her mother in cruel suspense, +Elizabeth hesitated and by every sign showed her disinclination to discuss +the subject. What should she do? What _could_ she do? The tortured eyes of +her mother studied her with an intensity which she could not avoid. To +consent was to fail with her father, to refuse was to make matters much +worse with the mother she had just hurt. Luther had warned her to avoid +collisions with her family which were liable to cause gossip; Aunt Susan +had implored her to keep the folks in a good humour; her own instincts +were against the movement, but her feelings were pleading for the mother +who begged her to try once again to obtain reconciliation before she was +married. Ah! if this time would end it! + +"Say you will," the mother begged with pathetic brevity. + +"I'd do it in a minute if there were the least opportunity to succeed, +ma," Elizabeth said reluctantly, and not looking toward her. "If I do it +and fail, You'll be wanting me to go right on with it after I'm married, +and that I won't do for anybody." The sentence ended savagely. + +Mrs. Farnshaw studied her daughter eagerly. She began to have hopes. Now, +if only she could get the right touch on her appeal. + +"If You'll do it, an' be careful-like, Lizzie," she said compellingly, "if +You'll be careful-like this time, I'll never ask you again. I can't live +this way any longer. I won't never ask you again. Please," she insisted. +"Speak real soft an' nice-like. Please." + +"But, ma, are you crazy? You told me--you told me that--oh dear, what's +the use to tell you what you said?" the girl cried, her judgment giving +its last caution a hearing. + +What was the use indeed! + +In the end Elizabeth consented--consented with kindliness of manner. Since +she was going to do it at all she would do it lovingly. She argued herself +into that mood before she agreed to the move. Her mother had a hard life; +on one who knew her doubted that fact. Neither would any one have doubted +that Mr. Farnshaw led a hard life also. Some devil of unrest demanded +excitement and disagreement. + +"Keep the folks in a good humour," Luther had said. + +Elizabeth had no support from any quarter. She could only consent. + +"I'll do it, ma," she agreed. "I am going away to be happy. John and his +mother never have a word together that isn't pleasant." + +"I hope so," Mrs. Farnshaw said with relief, "but men don't always treat +their wives like they do their mothers. It's something they get t' feel +about their wives that's th' trouble. Women think th' only way t' be good +wives's t' give up--an' men think so too. Women's most always afraid of +what th' men 'll think, an' th' men know it." + +"Well, ma, come on! There's lots to do; let's get at it." + +Elizabeth was in no mood to philosophize. She hated the coming conference +with her father to the utter exclusion of every other thought at that +moment, and had hardly heard what her mother had said. + +"You'll never regret bein' good t' your old mother," Mrs. Farnshaw said, +rubbing her hand over the girl's glossy braids as Elizabeth turned away to +begin the work she had suggested. "My! it don't seem like six weeks since +I was your age--young an' startin' out--an' life looked good t' me, I kin +tell you. Now I ain't got nothin' t' be good t' me but you." + +"I think I'll wash my hair before the sun gets low," Elizabeth said. "Then +I'll help you in here." She was disturbed about the promise she had given +and wanted to get away from her mother before she should say some unlucky +thing that would show it. She let her hair down and loosened it with a +toss of her head. It was a glittering garment which covered her from head +to knees in wavy strands which flew about her in lines of beauty as she +moved about getting her hot water and towels. Mrs. Farnshaw watched her +with an expression near real affection. She came over and ran her hands +through the rippling mass as the girl turned to go out of doors where she +could splash comfortably, and after she had gone passed her hands over her +own faded locks slowly. + +"Lizzie's always had th' best of everything," she said, shaking her head +sadly. "I wisht she wasn't s' set against 'er pa. I'm goin' t' make 'er do +it all th' same." + +The girl in the backyard pondered upon the same thing as she dried her +hair in the hot sun. + +"I hate it," she thought, "but I'm going to do it just the best I know +how. Ma _didn't_ say it, nor agree with it, and I'm going to make it as +easy as I can for her before I go. Will we ever be like they are?" she +asked herself half seriously, and felt sure it could not be. "Ma has +always insisted on things and never lets pa nor the rest of us forget +anything or lay it down. I believe a woman can manage those things. Aunt +Susan does." + +As Elizabeth started to the house, she noticed her father and the boys +coming from the cornfield with a wagon-load of snapped corn. Joe drove the +team and his father sat in the back with his feet dangling over the +end-gate. They were turning into the barnyard when she discovered them. + +With her hair floating about her like a veil, she started at once for the +barn. She could not talk this out with her mother listening, and if she +did not do it now it would be forced upon her at supper, when her father +was certain to be in his worst mood. Mr. Farnshaw always came to the table +tired. + +Seeing Elizabeth coming toward him, Mr. Farnshaw dropped from the wagon +and went to fill the swill pails. The hogs knew they were to be fed and +set up their usual noisy clamour. It was his purpose to divert their +attention till the boys could drive the wagon into the corral, hoping also +to leave his daughter where she could not approach him. Mr. Farnshaw +delighted in making people wait. With a pail in either hand he advanced to +the fence. The hogs left the gate and ran to meet him, upsetting the +trough as they came. Setting the pails down, he snatched up a peeled osage +stick, kept outside of the pen for that purpose, and belaboured angrily +the snouts sticking over the fence. The pigs were hungry and persistent. +By the time they were beaten into a respectable awe and had backed away +squealing, Mr. Farnshaw discovered his daughter at his elbow. He had +intended to ignore her; he turned red with rage. With a look of infinite +contempt, he stooped and picked up a pail. + +"What a racket they do make," she remarked, smiling at him without +offence. + +In spite of her smiling manner, Elizabeth was half sick with apprehension. +It was not a propitious time to approach him, but Mr. Farnshaw watched to +see that a propitious moment should not arrive when he was in one of his +sulking fits. Elizabeth had played that game with him before. With her +courage oozing away, and a feeling that there was no benefit in seeming +not to know what he was thinking about, she put her hand on his sleeve +saying: + +"Don't be cross with me, pa. Really I _do_ want to be friends." + +Mr. Farnshaw jerked his arm aside to avoid her touch and spilled half the +pail of swill on the ground. He lurched over to the other side to right +the pail; the bucket at his feet upset, pouring dishwater, milk, and +potato peelings over his heavy plow-shoes as it went. To avoid the onrush +of the greasy tide he sprang back, slipped in its oily overflow, and fell, +the pail he held pouring its contents over him as he went. His gray +whiskers, the bottom of his jersey, his very ears dripped swill as he +arose. It was disconcertingly funny, and the girl helped him to his feet, +laughing in spite of every effort to restrain herself. + +To lose his temper was bad enough, but to be made ridiculous and be +laughed at at the same time was more than the man could endure. He was +insane with fury. There was such a look of malignity on his face as he +jerked away and turned to face her that the girl, suddenly sobered, dodged +and started to run. Her long hair trailed across his arm, and lost to +every consideration but that of satisfying his temper, he caught it as she +passed and swinging the osage stick to which he still clung, shouted: + +"Damn you! This is th' kind of friends I'll be." + +He struck with all his force, jerking her hair at the same time. Thrown +from her feet, the full weight of the girl's body came on her hair. It +hurt cruelly. She veered around on her knees and caught the now tangled +hair with both hands to ease the strain. He grabbed her by one arm and +rained blows on her thinly clad shoulders which hissed in tune with the +man's temper as they fell. + +"I'll be friends with you!" he shrieked. "I'll send you t' that young +smartie with some marks on you that'll show 'im what kind of a wife he's +gettin'. You told your ma t' leave me! Maybe You'll be leavin' him next. +Tell 'im I said so, will you?" + +Cut by the flexible withe, which left welts like ribbons on her young +shoulders, the girl was unable to endure more passively, and struggled to +free herself. The partially successful opposition infuriated the man. He +was not accustomed to defence. His fury knew no restraint. He rained the +blows harder than ever and the girl finally caught the whip itself. +Catching the limber end desperately, she jerked it sidewise; +unconsciously, she had deflected her father's hand so that it struck her +head just below the ear. It stretched her senseless at his feet. + +Josiah Farnshaw was aghast. With a gulping cry of alarm and pity, he +stooped to lift his unconscious daughter. He had not intended to do so +brutal a thing. + +"Now look what you've gone an' done!" + +Mrs. Farnshaw had watched Elizabeth go to him with something of prayer in +her heart. She knew the girl's intention was to be square about the +apology and she had strained every nerve to watch the encounter. At the +first blow she had started to the scene of action. + +"I think you might have----" + +The man's relenting mood vanished. He dropped the limp body and rose to +his full height. + +"You damned fool," he exclaimed, "if you hadn't set this a goin' an' kept +it a goin' this wouldn't 'a' happened. Of all th' blasted, impossible +things it's t' have a snivelling she-devil always at your elbow. Keep your +hands off of me!" he cried, shaking himself loose from the detaining hand +she had laid on his arm. "I'm goin' t' git." + +The boys had arrived by that time. They carried the girl to the well and +bathed her face and hands with fresh water, while the head of the house +strode down the road toward the north. Elizabeth was not seriously injured +and recovered consciousness as soon as the water touched her. Mrs. +Farnshaw left the task of resuscitation to her sons and looked after her +rapidly disappearing husband with eyes that longed for reconciliation. +Reconciliation for one thing or another had been the most driving +inspiration her twenty years of married life had known; it was her most +potent incentive. Cowed and broken, fear bound her fast to his footsteps. +Not even the daughter struggling to her feet at her side could detract her +attention from his receding form. + +Elizabeth stood balancing herself dizzily for a moment before she began +really to see or grasp what was going on around her; then the full value +of the mishap broke upon her. All that Luther and Aunt Susan had hinted at +had befallen her in spite of every effort to avoid it. + +But not even the calamity which had befallen them could stop their busy +fingers. The preparations for the wedding feast were a merciful feature of +the rest of the evening. The guests had been invited and must be prepared +for. The hair that had been washed was braided, the mother's tears dried, +and every member of the family pressed into the service. The entire house +was cleaned and rearranged. Not till after midnight did the members of the +little group seek their beds. Mr. Farnshaw had not returned. They had even +forgotten him a large part of the time in the hurry. Elizabeth regarded +the half dozen bruises which her sleeves would not cover with alarm when +she was at last ready to climb her ladder. Joe covered them with a +liniment which he brought from the barn. As he set the dusty bottle on the +kitchen table after the anointing had been done, he remarked dryly: + +"Wonder if you an' me 'll ever do that kind of thing t' our young ones? +Everybody's always said we was like the old man." + +"Take that nasty smellin' bottle out of here, an' don't begin any talk +about your pa. Everybody get t' bed," Mrs. Farnshaw commanded. + +Even the absence of her husband could not dim the interest of Mrs. +Farnshaw in the coming spectacle of her daughter's marriage. With the +capacity of a little child to suffer from unkindness or neglect, she +combined the same child-like capability to enjoy pageantry of any sort. +Benches for curious neighbours surrounded Mrs. Farnshaw's bed when she +retired, and unaccustomed things filled every nook of the usually +unattractive room. Evergreen boughs stared at her from the corner opposite +her bed; the bed was to be removed in the morning. It had been her own +romantic idea to have a bower for the bride and groom. She had been so +busy making that bower that she had forgotten her own troubles for an hour +and more, but she remembered them now and her interest died out. With a +quivering indrawn breath she turned out the light and dived into the huge +feather-bed, smothering her sobs by crushing her pillow against her face. + +Elizabeth, upstairs, had her own disappointments to go over, and her +mother's sobbing coloured her ruminations. Her vision had been cleared. In +spite of youth, and of humiliation, she saw that the blow that had undone +her had been accidental. She saw what the encouragement of temper would +lead to. She saw the gradual growth and stimulation of that temper in the +daily contentions of her father and mother. + +She rubbed her bruises and thought long on the troubles about her. +Accusations and defence, she decided, were at the root of them. They were +the universal topics of the conversations at home and among all the people +she had ever known except the Hornbys and the Chamberlains. + +"Defence!" she said in a scornful whisper. "What does it matter _who_ is +wrong in anything? The only thing that matters is _what_ is wrong and to +find a way to make it come out better next time," and at last went to +sleep quite unaware that she had evolved a philosophy which rightly +applied would reorganize the world. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +"WIVES, SUBMIT YOURSELVES UNTO YOUR +HUSBANDS, AS UNTO THE LORD" + + +The day after the wedding was Friday, or "sweep day," as Mrs. Hunter +called it. Anxious to begin as she expected to hold out, and to form +regular habits in John's wife, Mrs. Hunter superintended the housecleaning +processes. + +Elizabeth had had no idea that any one could put in so many hours with +broom and dust rag, but when it was done, looked about her with +housekeeperly delight in the orderly, well-kept rooms. As they had worked +that day the girl had been keenly observant of John's mother. She could +not tell whether John had told her of the trouble in her home or not. Mrs. +Hunter did not refer to it directly or indirectly, and this fact was the +subject of much thought. This faultless manner of dismissing unpleasant +things stood out in strong contrast to the endless and tiresome +discussions to which the girl was accustomed. Elizabeth wished she could +find time to run over to Uncle Nate's for a chat with Aunt Susan, but the +busy day absorbed her and there was no time to go anywhere; in fact, it +was time for John to come home from Colebyville, where he had gone to hunt +for a hired man before the cleaning was really finished. Glancing up at +the clock on the lambrequined shelf in the sitting room, the girl was +surprised to see that it was already four o'clock. The cleaning was +finished and she ran to the kitchen to put up the rag in her hand, and +then went hurriedly into her bedroom to comb her hair and get her dress +changed before John should come. + +Absorbed in her dressing, Elizabeth did not hear her husband enter the +house until she heard him talking to his mother in the dining room. With +freshly combed hair and clean calico dress she ran with a glad little +bound to meet him. + +John Hunter and his mother stopped short with their conversation when they +saw her and were plainly embarrassed. + +The young wife became conscious that something was wrong and stopped in +the middle of the room, looking from one to the other in mute inquiry. + +Mrs. Hunter turned and went back to the kitchen. John came toward his +wife. + +"What is it, John? What has happened?" she asked in a whisper. There was a +sick look on John Hunter's face. + +Elizabeth did not put her hand on him as was her usual way. The girl-wife +had an indistinct feeling that her husband and his mother were a +combination for the moment of which she was not a part. + +"Enough has happened," the man said, passing her and going toward their +bedroom. "Come in here!" + +He held the door open for her to enter, and she passed in and stood +waiting while he shut it behind them. + +"What is it, John?" she queried, unable to wait longer. + +"Your father has gone to Colebyville and got into a drunken row," was the +bald statement. "Everybody in the country knows about his fuss with you." + +He did not offer to touch her, but walked over to the window and began to +drum on the window-pane with nervous fingers. + +"Drunk! Row! My father was never drunk in his life!" was the astonished +exclamation with which Elizabeth Hunter met this unbelievable accusation. + +"Well, he's been drunk enough to last the rest of his life this time, and +we're the laughing stock of this whole country." + +John Hunter had gone to Colebyville that morning in the new buggy, rather +pleased to be the centre of observation and remark. He quite liked to +swagger before these country people whom he chose otherwise to ignore. He +was well dressed, his buggy was the admired of all admirers, and he was +newly married. Country gossip had some pleasing qualifications. When he +had arrived at Colebyville, however, John Hunter had found that country +people had little ways of their own for the edification of the +vainglorious, and that trim young men in buggies became infinitely more +interesting to the scorned when they could be associated with scandal. He +soon found that he was the object of much amused discussion and shortly it +became evident that they were quite willing that he should know that he +was the object of ridicule. Pretending friendship, one of them enlightened +him as to the exact circumstances which were amusing them, and then +sneaked back to his companions with a verbatim report of his surprised +exclamations. John Hunter did not enjoy being the victim of a trap laid by +those he had patronized. It had been a humiliating day, and John Hunter +always handed his misfortunes along. He poured his disgust over his wife +as if she alone were responsible for all he had suffered that day. + +"What was the row with you about, anyway?" he inquired with evident +aversion to her presence. + +Elizabeth had withered into a quivering semblance of the confident woman +who had run to meet him five minutes ago. Her knees shook under her with +collapse. She sat down on the edge of the bed and stammered her +explanations as if she had been a naughty child caught red-handed in some +act of which she was ashamed. + +"It--oh, John! I only went to him to make up about--about other things. +We--we didn't have any fuss exactly. It--it was just the same old thing. +I--I begged ma not to make me go home. I told her what he would--I knew +he'd whip me, but she would have me go." + +"Well, he couldn't whip you for nothing," John said, with brutal inquiry. +"What'd you fall out with him for? I never heard of such a thing as a girl +who was a woman grown that fell out with her father till he whipped her." + +Exasperated and miserable, John bestowed blame in the only convenient +place he found. + +The young wife buried her face in the counterpane and did not attempt to +reply, and after looking dully at her for a moment John Hunter went out +and left her to carry her burden of shame alone. The sound of the closing +door assured her that at least she could be alone in her tears, and the +humbled girl gave herself up to sobbing. Luther and Aunt Susan would never +be quite convinced that she had done her best to avoid trouble; she even +wondered herself if there might not have been some fault in the way she +had approached her father. As usual, Elizabeth was concerned with the +trouble of others. The whole dreadful thing passed before her with the +vividness of actual reproduction. John's mother knew this at any rate. +That was a sore point. They were in the kitchen talking it over now! With +the conviction of absolute certainty, Elizabeth buried her face in the +counterpane of her bridal couch and sobbed in desolate abandon. + +After a time John came back again and looked into the room. Seeing her +distress, he went over slowly and lifted her to her feet with a stir of +pity. + +"Don't cry," he said gloomily. "It can't be helped. Come on out to the +kitchen and help mother with the supper." + +Elizabeth knew that at that moment he did not want to caress her, but her +hungry soul craved comfort beyond her power to control and she dug her +face into his breast and sobbed there unasked. + +[Illustration: "THE YOUNG WIFE BURIED HER FACE IN THE COUNTERPANE +AND DID NOT ATTEMPT TO REPLY"] + +John's arms closed about her in a relaxed sort of way, and patting her +head half-heartedly, he said again: + +"Come on, dear. Mother's out there getting supper alone." He took his own +pocket handkerchief and wiped her tear-stained face and, after kissing +her, pushed her gently but firmly toward the kitchen. + +Supper was not a cheerful meal. Elizabeth's voice was thick from crying +and she did not talk at all, while John and his mother could not discuss +the topic uppermost in their minds in her presence. The feeling that there +was a combination of which she was not a part grew upon the young wife, +and a longing for Aunt Susan grew with it. + +"I'd like to go over to Uncle Nate's immediately after supper," she said. +"I'll do the dishes while you hitch up." + +"Good Lord! I don't want to go over there to-night," was the reply. "I +wish you'd quit calling those people 'Aunt' and 'Uncle'." + +Elizabeth's face blazed with colour as he got up and went into the sitting +room. The brutality of the answer was so evident to John's mother that she +followed him. + +"You had better take Elizabeth to Mr. Hornby's, John. I don't think you +should speak to her in that way, either," she said in a low tone of +voice. + +Elizabeth could not hear Mrs. Hunter's remarks, but John's reply was +audible enough. + +"I'm not going over there to-night. I don't feel as if I ever wanted to go +anywhere again." + +She also heard Mrs. Hunter's low "Sh!" and felt more than ever an alien. + +When the dishes were finished Mrs. Hunter went upstairs. John followed +her. + +"I will not be hurt, because I will not see hurt," Elizabeth told herself +as she slipped through the house to her own room. Because her lips +quivered as she said it, she busied herself in taking down her hair to +brush for the night. Her sleeves were tight and hindered, and she took off +her dress and folded it across the back of a chair carefully, and finished +braiding her hair in her petticoat. + +John found her with her white arms uplifted as she combed the long +strands. Moved by her girlish beauty and freshness, he went over and put +his arms about her. The girl's mouth was full of hairpins, and she mumbled +something he did not understand. He kept his arms about her insistently, +and rubbed his chin on her smooth shoulder with a little laugh. She +struggled to free herself, but he held her teasingly, and finally +accepting the playful tussle as an apology, though she knew it was not an +adequate one, she gave up. She was resolved not to split hairs with her +husband over small matters; she would not nurse grievances. + +As for John Hunter, he had not thought of apology,--or of the necessity of +one; he had been moved by the sight of the tempting figure of the woman he +possessed. + +Elizabeth loved her husband and wished to believe that he loved her; she +was unwilling to begin her married life with any sort of whining or +suspicion, so she ended the matter by resting unresisting in his arms and +turning her young face up to be kissed. + +The next morning Elizabeth washed the dishes alone, and Mrs. Hunter +followed John to the barn and later to the pasture, where he went to catch +a horse. + +"Where are you going with a horse?" his mother asked as they passed +through the pasture gate. + +"I have to go over to Chamberlain's to help with a small stack of hay he +put up in the field and wants to move, now that he's got the time. I told +him he'd better let me help him before the new hired man comes to begin +the husking; I'm going to need the team every day after that," John +replied. + +"So you got a man, did you?" Mrs. Hunter said, catching hold of his arm to +keep him from outwalking her. "If you're going as far as Chamberlain's +you'd better take Elizabeth over to Mr. Hornby's while you're hitched up. +I'll get dinner. You hurt her feelings last night, and that'll be a good +way to make it right with her." + +"Now look here, mother," John Hunter answered decidedly, "I'll do nothing +of the kind. With this story going around we'll stay at home where we +belong. Anyhow, the sooner she's cut away from these country jakes the +better for her, and I'll begin right here and now. I don't intend--never +have intended--to have these people tacked to my coat-tails every move I +make. If she's hurt, She'll simply have to get over it; besides, she +didn't stay mad long--you saw that for yourself. She's all right if she's +managed right." + +It was true, Mrs. Hunter reflected. Elizabeth had not seemed to take much +offence, and was perfectly good-natured this morning. She did not intend +to interfere with the affairs of her son and his wife. Elizabeth seemed +submissive, and promised well. She hoped that this horrid gossip would die +down. That was a nasty thing to be mixed up with. Mr. Hunter had never had +anything like that happen to him before, and she was devoutly glad they +were away out here in Kansas where no one who had ever known them would +hear it. Elizabeth would be all the better as a wife if she did not start +out by running around too much. It did not occur to Mrs. Hunter, nor to +her son, that if the old acquaintances were to be taken away from +Elizabeth that in all justice she must be provided with new ones. In fact, +it did not occur to them at all that her opinions were of any value +whatever. Why should John explain his plans to her? Why, indeed? + +As she went about her Saturday morning's work Elizabeth watched John and +his mother stroll down the path in the pasture, certain that she herself +was the subject of their conversation, and her eyes burned with unshed +tears. The intimacy between John and his mother seemed so much more firmly +established than the intimacy between John and herself that she was filled +with lonesomeness and a longing for Aunt Susan. + +"To-morrow's Sunday and there'll be nothing to do. He'll have to take me +then. He was tired and upset by that horrid talk last night. Oh, why do I +have to be mixed up with things I can't help--and--and have him cross, and +everything?" She ended with a little shuddering cry, and buried her head +in the kitchen towel and gave up to the tears which, now that she was +alone, she could candidly shed. How she longed for Aunt Susan, and yet she +could not have talked to her of these things; but in spite of that she +wanted her. + + * * * * * + +"Will you go over to--to Mrs. Hornby's with us to-day?" she asked Mrs. +Hunter at the breakfast table the next morning. + +"Why--yes--if you're going," Mrs. Hunter answered with a hesitant glance +at John. + +The tone and the hesitancy struck Elizabeth. She looked at John as she had +seen the older woman do. + +"Mother spoke yesterday of your going," John said quickly, "and I +said--well, I want to get some more cleaning done about that barn before +the man comes. There's plenty of time about that. Let them come here if +they want to see us." + +"But I want to go," Elizabeth persisted. She had been accustomed to +dictating where John Hunter should take her. John himself had taught her +to do so. + +"Well, there's plenty of time. I'm busy to-day, if it is Sunday," was all +that her husband thought it necessary to reply. + +The hope that Aunt Susan would come to see her if she found that they were +not coming over helped Elizabeth to accept the brusque refusal better than +she otherwise would have done. John was cheerful and pleasant, and the +hurt that she had felt at first died away. He asked her to go to the barn +with him and was merry and full of small talk and chatter, such as lovers +appreciate, and the girl finally concluded that that must be his naturally +decided manner when suddenly approached on a subject to which he could not +consent. Elizabeth was aware that there was little consideration shown her +at such times, but was resolved not to find fault unless the question were +a vital one. Altogether it was a happy day. Gratitude was a large feature +of Elizabeth's make-up, and there was something about being in the +atmosphere of refinement and beauty which made her accept many little +evidences of inattentiveness on the part of her husband. As she helped +with the cooking, she was conscious of the difference between the kitchen +utensils of this and her own home; as she swept she contrasted the +red-and-green ingrain carpet of the sitting room with the worn and ugly +rag carpet of her mother's house; as she set the table she reflected that +no other house of that community boasted a dining room, and certainly no +other young wife could say she had napkins and a white tablecloth every +day in the week; and there was yet a larger item than these for which the +girl was thankful: no girl she had ever known had married so cultured a +man. Elizabeth looked across the table as she served the pie at dinner and +in spite of every snub was humbly thankful to be a part of that family. +Nor was she a mere snob and deserving of what she got in the way of ill +treatment because she submitted to it; Elizabeth was a young girl of +artistic temperament, craving beauty, and longing for the companionship of +those who talked in terms comprehensible to her at the same time that they +advanced her æsthetic education and possibilities. In proportion as she +valued this thing was she to pay her price. + +The price Elizabeth was to pay came at strange and unexpected moments. The +hired man, when he appeared, proved to be Jake Ransom, now a man, and +ready to do a man's work in his simple station. Jake of course knew for +whom he was to work and came into the kitchen to his first meal with his +face wreathed in a sheepish grin. + +"I'd better 'a' taken your advice an' gone t' th' high school," he said, +extending his calloused hand to shake. "Only I wouldn't 'a' been workin' +fur you." + +He laughed his great hearty guffaw, partly in embarrassment and partly +because he really enjoyed the joke of the possibility of him being an +educated man. It was a cheap country pleasantry, and said with genuine +good-fellowship, but Mrs. Hunter, who heard it as she turned to the dining +room with the coffee pot in her hand, disapproved of the familiarity of +it. Mrs. Hunter had disapproved of the plate laid for Jake at the family +table and was out of sorts with the country life into which she had been +plunged. + +After Jake had gone to bed upstairs--and that was another grievance of +Mrs. Hunter's, this having the hired man in the room next to her own--she +took up the matter of his position in her son's house seriously. + +"All the hired help in the country eat at the table and are accorded the +privileges of any member of the family, mother," John replied to her +objections. + +"You don't mean that You'll have to have them at your table day after +day--always?" his mother exclaimed. "You'll never have any home life at +all." + +"As long as we farm, mother, we'll be in exactly that position," John +said, stirring the fire in the sitting-room stove, about which they were +gathered for the evening. + +"But they eat so awfully much," Mrs. Hunter continued, "and they drink out +of their saucers, and suck their teeth till it makes one sick!" Then +happening to look across at Elizabeth she caught the flush on her young +face and stopped so short that all were embarrassed. + +John got up suddenly and left the room and the house. The two women sat in +an uncomfortable silence for some minutes, and then the elder of them went +upstairs to bed, leaving the younger to her mortifying thoughts. Elizabeth +remembered the scorn of the young teacher in her own childhood for the +same offence and reflected that she had been unable to break her family of +similar habits. As far as she was concerned, however, the presence of the +hired man at her table was far less disturbing than that of her husband's +mother. Part of the time she was happy to learn from Mrs. Hunter, but more +of the time she was restless under her supervision. + +The week had been an uncomfortable one in both tangible and intangible +ways. Elizabeth had often found John and his mother talking and have them +drop the conversation when she appeared. She had had many humiliating +hours over the disgrace she knew they were discussing. The fact had come +out that Mr. Farnshaw had returned to his home, but nothing beyond that. + +Another week passed, and again John refused to take Elizabeth to see Aunt +Susan. This time he said that the team had worked all week, and that he +felt that the horses needed rest. A new team was added to the farm assets +and the next Sunday John said he was too tired himself to go away from +home. Never once did he say that he had any motive which extended beyond +the time at hand. Each Sunday the excuse fitted the circumstances of that +particular day, and he talked of going in a general way as if it were a +matter of course that they would go soon. It was clearly the duty of the +young couple to make the first visit, and as clearly Nathan Hornby and his +wife were waiting for them to do so. Elizabeth was puzzled by her +husband's refusal. At the end of a month she became alarmed for fear their +neglect would give offence to the dear couple who had sheltered her when +she was in need. It had not occurred to her to discredit John's reasons, +though she began to suspect that she had married the sort of man she had +heard much about--the husband who never wanted to go anywhere. + +Early in December Mrs. Hunter was called East by the serious illness of a +sister in Illinois. The day she left a heavy snow fell. Elizabeth went out +into the still yard and let the white flakes fall on her uncovered head +with such a sense of freedom as she had never felt since her marriage. + +"The house is mine," she whispered ecstatically; "the house is all mine, +and now I can go out of doors if I want to and not be criticised." + +Elizabeth had been far more accustomed to barn life than the life of the +house. This was a thing that Mrs. Hunter could not understand. It was not +the correct thing for a woman to go about the barn where a hired man was +employed, even if her husband worked at his side, and Elizabeth's trips to +the cow stable and granaries had been discouraged. Jake Ransom had been +shrewd enough to see that his first joke in the Hunter house had been +unpleasant to the mother of his employer and had never trespassed upon the +grounds of familiarity again, but Elizabeth had been criticised until +willing to give up her trips to the scene of her husband's work. John +might be impatient, but Elizabeth loved him; his mother was patient but +critical, and Elizabeth did not love her; therefore the first feeling of +relief when the older woman had gone away included the delight of being +free to go where she wished--at his side. The barns were a source of great +interest to Elizabeth. The pride of the girl, accustomed to straw stables +and slatternly yards and unhoused machinery, in the well-kept barnyard of +her husband was natural and commendatory. John had order well developed in +his scheme of things. John's cribs did not stand open to the weather. Now +that Mrs. Hunter was away, Elizabeth spent most of the day going about the +place, looking into every bin, and making the acquaintance of each new +animal they possessed. Jake was helping Silas and it left the girl plenty +of time to explore. The amount of new stock struck her as surprising. Here +too she was glad. John was evidently going to be a man of large affairs. +Elizabeth had a sudden desire to run over and talk it over with Luther as +she had done when she drove out with her affianced husband to buy the +calves. She was surprised to see how the little bunch of calves had grown, +not only in size but in numbers. The thought of Luther carried her back, +as she stood looking over the calf yard, to the matter of visiting Aunt +Susan. Of late the feeling had grown strong upon her that Mrs. Hunter had +had something to do with John's reluctance to making this visit. The +calves ceased to interest her and she wandered slowly back to the house +thinking about it. There were so many phases of her domestic affairs to +consider: Aunt Susan's right to the evidences of her love and her +inability to show that love because of her husband's reluctance to take +her; Luther's evident offence, and the possibility that the wedding +invitation had not been extended to him by John, since he had never paid +them a neighbourly visit; the close alliance between John and his mother +and the brusqueness with which John disposed of any request of hers if he +did not choose of himself to do the thing she wanted--all called for +examination. Elizabeth shook the snow from her hair and cloak and built up +the fire, intending to sit down by it and think over her situation, but +John arrived in the middle of her preparations and supper had to be +hastily prepared, for the afternoon had gone and much of the regular +morning's work still remained to be done. With flying feet, Elizabeth +attacked the task of getting things in order, and it was a relief when +John, who had left the last chores to Jake, came in and helped her. They +had hardly ever been left alone in the house in all the three months they +had been married, and to Elizabeth it was working in fairyland to have +John make one side of a bed's clothes lie smooth while she pulled and +straightened at the other. + +With Mrs. Hunter gone, John took up the task of drilling his young wife in +the Hunter ways. To Elizabeth he was a model husband. She contrasted her +father's stupid inability and unwillingness inside of his home with the +orderly and systematic way in which John Hunter helped her. John took part +in whatever household function was taking place in his presence. He wiped +the dishes if she washed them; if a carpet was to be swept he handled the +broom if he were there to do it, and he never went to the field without +filling the reservoir and water pail as well as the coal scuttle and cob +basket. He assumed the management of cooking and housework so subtly that +the unsophisticated girl saw only his helpfulness; in fact, he had only +helpfulness in mind. John had ideas of neatness and order which made of +housekeeping a never-ending process, but John himself laboured steadily +toward their accomplishment, and he was so successful in inspiring her +with those same ideals that her pride helped her over many a weary day's +cleaning. She entered into them week after week and became expert at +ironing, baking, and all the little offices of the domestic altar. All her +strength was given to her work each day, and for a time she succeeded +comfortably, but as the days shortened and the routine became more +exacting she longed for the out-of-door freedom in which she had been +raised. + +Christmas passed, and still Elizabeth had entered no house except her own +since her marriage in October. This would not have disturbed her, for she +was not a girl who cared for visiting, if it had not been that Aunt Susan +was being neglected. + +Mrs. Farnshaw came and did not fail to let Elizabeth know that the country +gossips were concerned with tales supposed to account for her secluded way +of living. Some said that she was too "stuck-up" to associate with her old +friends, while others said that John Hunter had married her to keep his +house, but that he was not proud of her and preferred to leave her at +home. Luther had completed his "shanty," and Elizabeth knew by the smoke +she could see rising from his chimney that he no longer lived with Aunt +Susan; also Elizabeth heard bits of gossip about him from Jake, who had +taken a great liking to Luther and often spent his evenings with him. +Luther Hansen had come to borrow a scoop shovel when he had shelled his +corn, but John had managed to accept it as a barnyard call and had not +invited him to the house, and after the scoop was returned Luther did not +come again. Elizabeth had days when she wanted his cheery presence and +sensible ways of looking at life, but she was almost glad he did not come; +she could not have explained her seclusion to him nor could she have +refused to explain. The girl's pride was cut to the quick. + +January passed, and February. One afternoon in early March Elizabeth sat +at the dining-room window sewing and meditating sadly upon John's growing +irritability whenever she mentioned Aunt Susan. She was unable as yet to +force him to take her as she requested; neither had she been able to get +her own consent to going the first time to the house of this old friend +alone and have Aunt Susan's questioning eyes looking her over for +explanations. She was puzzled still, for John usually spoke of her friends +with respect, and there was nothing to indicate his reasons for opposition +except that he was simply averse to visiting on general principles, and +even then why should he so resolutely refuse to accommodate her when he +was so reasonable on all other subjects? + +"I don't care, I'm going this week if he's ever so cross," she muttered. + +Almost at the same instant she looked up and saw a bobsled coming into the +side lane. + +"Aunt Susan's very self!" she cried, pushing away the little garment on +which she was sewing, and running to the door. + +She met the muffled figure halfway down the path, called to Nathan to take +his team to the barn, where they would be out of the cutting wind, and +bundled Susan Hornby into the house with little shrieks of delight and +welcome. + +Susan Hornby knew that she was wanted at the end of that five minutes. + +"However could you know that I was wanting you so bad to-day?" Elizabeth +said finally, as she thrust her guest down into a rocking chair and then +went down on her knees to unfasten her overshoes. + +"Land sakes! What are you trying to do--and you----" The sentence stopped +and the speaker looked embarrassed. + +Elizabeth, still on her knees, looked up. A soft blush covered her face as +she gave a happy little laugh. + +"Yes--it's true," she whispered. "Oh, Aunt Susan, I'm so happy!" + +Outside, Nathan Hornby seized the opportunity to look around the barns. + +"Good cattle sheds," he remarked to himself. "Good bunch of pigs, too. I +hope 'e ain't goin' into debt, as they say, but I swan, it looks like +it." + +Nathan's survey of the barns had given the two women inside the house time +to talk over the affair so close to their hearts, and the little sitting +room had been turned into a temple by the presence of a young mother that +was to be and that older but childless mother who loved her as her own. +Elizabeth, still on her knees, laid her head in Aunt Susan's lap as of +old, and Susan Hornby, with every hurt buried, listened to her +confessions, with her free hand feeling its way over the thick braids as +she prayed earnestly in her heart that her beloved child would go through +the travail awaiting her without harm and not be left childless in her old +age. + +When Nathan's heavy boot crunched on the snow-covered doorstep, Elizabeth +ran to meet him with the broom and a whole world's wealth of welcome in +voice and manner. + +"I'm so glad you came to-day. I've been wanting Aunt Susan _so_ of late. +Isn't it a heavy snow for this late in the season?" + +She rattled busily along to carry the impress of welcome, for the old man +had not responded to her as his wife had done. + +"Well, now," said candid Nathan, "you don't exactly give one th' +impression of pinin' t' see folks when you never come over at all." + +Elizabeth knew that though he regarded the broom with which he brushed at +his boots with extra attention, he was listening closely for her answer. + +"There's John!" she cried, seeing her husband as he drove a bunch of +calves into the lane. She hastened to tell her guest that her husband had +been some miles to the west to attend a sale, and pretended to have +forgotten Nathan's awkward remark. + +She was glad to see that John left Jake to turn the calves into the yards +and came to the house at once, with cordiality shining out of every line +of his face. He made Nathan Hornby so welcome that every sign of +displeasure faded from Nathan's countenance. He gave a hasty brush at his +boots and came in to shake hands with Susan Hornby. He stirred the fire +briskly, and remarked to Nathan: + +"Ain't that a dandy bunch of calves? I had a chance to get them at that +Irishman's sale--I forget his name--oh, yes, Tim--Tim--you know? I ought +to know myself since I just signed a note to him. Averaged eighteen +dollars a head--forty-three of 'em. With corn at thirty cents, they'll +turn quick money." + +The fire roared under his vigorous poking, and he applied himself to +putting more coal in the stove without looking up. + +Elizabeth Hunter's face lost the happy expression with which she had been +regarding him as he welcomed the old couple and stirred the fire, +presumably for their benefit. He _had_ been glad to see them: they had +helped him over an awkward announcement. He had not told her he meant to +get these cattle, and he had let her think that he meant to take her +advice and not go into debt any more than he had already done. + +John Hunter heard his wife's low exclamation of surprise. He was glad it +was over. + +Susan Hornby heard it too and caught the sick look on her face, but though +she wondered about it she asked no questions, for Elizabeth Hunter was a +woman of reserve. Elizabeth Hunter had developed a power unknown to +Elizabeth Farnshaw. + +"Got a good many sheds built a'ready, I see," was the next remark the girl +heard. + +"Yes," John replied, still devoting himself to the fire. "I expected to +get the stock sooner--haven't used it all this year--but it's there for +next season. I've got about all the cattle I'll get now. I told Carter I'd +take seventeen head of his. He was going to put them up at his sale next +week, but I persuaded him to let me have them in a bunch. I'll get them +home to-morrow. Got 'em on 6 per cent. They'll grow into money every day +this summer--mostly two-year-olds. Don't you think so?" + +"That's all owin'," Nathan replied slowly. "Cattle take a lot of cover, +an' you ain't usin' straw sheds." + +"Oh, my sheds ain't cost so very much," John replied easily. "They're +substantial too. I don't think much of the straw-shed business. It'll do +for Hansen, now, that ain't got anything to put under cover, but when a +man's got anything----" John filled out the sentence with an expressive +gesture, and then before any one could speak said casually: "By the way, I +hear the Swede's going to be married to-morrow." + +"Married?" Elizabeth Hunter exclaimed. Every word of the conversation had +been a stab, but to have Luther called a Swede was too much. + +"Yes, dear," Aunt Susan said, laying a hand on her arm. "I meant to have +told you and I hadn't got to it yet. Nate and I are invited to the +wedding. It's Sadie Crane, you know." + +Elizabeth fell into the nearest chair utterly limp. "Sadie Crane?" she +said over and over. + +"I knew you'd hate to have it Sadie, but any woman could be glad to get a +man as good as Luther, and she's crazy over him. He'll make her a good +husband whether she makes a good wife or not. She'll have her own way a +good deal further than most wives." + +John Hunter suspected that the latter was said for his benefit. + +Nathan and Susan Hornby disagreed, as much as it was possible for them to +do, on the way home. + +"You may say what you please, if she don't come it's because she don't +want to. You couldn't ask for a more rousin' welcome 'n _he_ give us," +Nathan said as he watched the forefoot on the off horse to see whether it +was a cake of snow that made it limp or a more serious trouble. + +"It wasn't any more rousing than hers was when I went in and--and look how +he spoke of Luther," Susan replied hesitatingly. She hardly dare point out +the weakness of John, however angry she was at him, for she had had +trouble enough to get Nathan to bring her at all. + +"That's so," Nathan admitted. "They're a pair of snobs, anyhow. You think +she treats you all right, but you saw how she shied round th' subject when +I put it straight to 'er. I went because you wanted me to--but I ain't +sure----" Nathan Hornby ceased to speak before his sentence was finished. +Elizabeth's neglect had been another nail in the coffin of his friendly +trust. Susan had had hard work to persuade him to bring her to-day and had +hoped that some lucky circumstance would help to dispel his suspicions. +This had looked possible at first, but she saw that he still nursed his +grievances. + +Susan had her suspicions also, but they were of John, not of Elizabeth. +Elizabeth had been as glad to see her as she had always been, whatever +there might have been that was unexplainable on the surface. Susan Hornby +knew with a knowledge that was unassailable that Elizabeth Hunter loved +her as much as Elizabeth Farnshaw had done. + +"I don't care, I'm going again some day before long," she said; "she won't +be going out much now for a while." + +"Well, now, look here," Nathan said, stubbornly sticking to a conviction +from which he was unable to get away. "You think Hunter keeps her from +coming. He give us more of a welcome 'n she did, a good sight." + +Susan Hornby glanced around at her husband in astonishment. She had never +said that she thought Elizabeth was prevented by John from coming to see +them. Nathan had measured her better than she had realized. + +"No-o, he didn't," she replied slowly. She resolved to speak frankly. "You +didn't see her when she took me into the house. Honestly, Nate, it was +better than a whole revival service to have that girl tell me of--of----" + +"I didn't see that," Nathan interrupted, "I only know he _was_ glad t' see +us; you saw that for yourself." + +"I was just going to say----" Susan considered a moment and then said +firmly: "He was glad to see us because there was something about those +cattle he hadn't told her. Didn't you see the look on her face?" + +"That wouldn't make no difference with th' way he'd do by us. 'E was as +glad as could be, an' asked you t' come back 's if you'd been 'is mother. +It's some stuck-up notion of hers--this thing of them not visitin' their +neighbours." + +Susan looked up at him indulgently. + +"You won't refuse to be good friends with her--for my sake, Nate. She was +as glad to see me as a little child." + +"Why don't she come t' see you then?" Nathan asked sternly, able only to +see the one point. + +"I don't exactly know, Nate. I couldn't crowd her on that matter--she +looked so worried when I brought it up that I just let it go. I only +_know_ she wants to come." + +They dropped the subject and rode along over the smooth road, too absorbed +in their own thoughts to get pleasure out of this last sleighride of the +season, both endeavoring to solve the problem from their own viewpoint, +Nathan full of distrust and suspicion, his wife too well versed in human +nature to doubt Elizabeth's honesty or believe that she was spoiled by a +fine home or an advanced social position. At last she spoke her +conclusions: + +"There's something in her face I like better'n ever, but there's a worried +something there I don't like to see." + +Nathan was sorry he had criticised Elizabeth. Sue loved the girl. Nathan +and Susan discussed, but never argued. If Susan remained of her first +opinion after talking a thing over, Nathan conceded within himself that +she had some good reason for her convictions even where he could not +agree. + +"Sue 'll have t' see it for herself," he meditated. "I'd be glad t' see +'er right. We'll see how it turns out." But as he tried to get himself +into that frame of mind he remembered how many days had been spoiled for +his wife that winter because she longed for Elizabeth, and he +involuntarily muttered: + +"Dirty little huzzy!" and ground his straggling teeth as he thought of +it. + + * * * * * + +After Nathan and Susan Hornby had turned into the main road, John walked +slowly back to the house. + +"What'd I say that Mrs. Hornby didn't like?" he asked, as he entered the +kitchen where Elizabeth was preparing the supper which Nathan had declined +to stay and eat. + +Elizabeth's brow was drawn into a puckered wrinkle. She followed her own +laborious thinking, unaware that her husband had spoken. + +"What'd I say that riled Mrs. Hornby?" he repeated. + +Elizabeth heard the question now and looked up. It was hard to answer. To +mention the tone in which he had spoken of Luther was useless she knew. +Her hesitancy annoyed her husband. + +"Well, what's wrong?" + +"Nothing--that is----" Elizabeth could not discuss it. + +John Hunter resented her silence. He turned without speaking and picked up +the water pail quickly. John heaped coals of fire by performing household +duties. + +Reflecting that he was going to be angry whether she talked out or not, +Elizabeth laid a detaining hand on his arm and spoke of what she felt she +could get his attention fixed upon. + +"I was thinking of all that money we're going to have to pay some day, +John. I--I've tried before to make you understand me. Oh, John, dear, +don't you see--but then, no, of course you don't, you've never had the +experience of it. You see, dear, I've had it. It takes the heart out of +people. You never get rid of it after you get into it once. You just go +on, you get old and quarrelsome--and--and you never have any good times +because you're afraid of something--of the interest that's got to be met, +and things. Why won't you let me help you? You didn't tell me about these +last cattle, nor the Carter lot. Why----" + +"Now look here, Elizabeth, a man can't run to the house and consult a +woman about every little thing he does, before he does it. I always tell +you when I can. I told you about this." + +Irritability was John Hunter's strongest weapon. + +"I don't want you to run to the house to tell me about every little thing +you do," the young wife explained patiently, "but these debts will not be +little things when they come to be paid off, dear. Really, you don't know +how they will sap you and me later on; they may even take the farm right +out from under our feet. There are so many things that can happen to +cattle--and interest _has_ to be paid. That's the awful part of it, +and----" + +John fidgeted uneasily and did not look at her. He wanted to get away. He +had not come in to talk of this. Elizabeth held his sleeve and he had to +say something. + +"I haven't failed to get what you need out of this money," he said at +last. "I can't have you shutting out opportunities for business. I'll +raise the interest. If I furnish the money I ought to be free to make a +living the best way I see how. What do you know about a man's business?" + +Desiring only to convince him, which she could not do if he were +irritated, Elizabeth laid her paring knife on the kitchen table and put +her arm about her husband's neck coaxingly. + +"Of course you get everything I need, dear; that isn't the trouble. I +don't want to shut out opportunities for business either, but I gave up my +education to help pay interest. I know how hard it is to raise. The calves +die, and the cows don't give milk enough to make up the difference. The +loss---- Oh, I know," she said putting her hand affectionately over his +mouth to still the objection he had started to offer. "You think beef +cattle will be different, but black-leg gets into a herd of beef cattle +just as readily as into the cows and calves, and frosted corn is a +liability Kansas farmers always have hanging over a crop. I'm not +complaining about the cattle that are paid for--it's those we'd have to +pay for that were dead. The money was yours and you had a right to spend +it as you chose, but the debts will be _ours_. The skimping and saving +will fall on me as much as on you, and skimping makes people mean and +penurious. Promise me you won't go into debt without telling me again." + +"Forget it, little woman," John replied, patting her face and kissing it +many times. "I'll never do anything to disgrace you." + +He had not replied to a single argument; he had not made a single promise. +Elizabeth submitted to his caresses with a sigh. It was useless. She could +not fall out with him for the sake of the child that was coming. She +resolved to accept what she could get and try to be patient. + +"I'm glad you were so nice to Aunt Susan," she said, trying to get away +from the impossible and make as much as she could out of the possible. +"we'll go over Sunday. I'd begun to think you'd never do it. We'll take +them by surprise." + +John Hunter laughed indulgently. "You think you got me that time," he +said, and escaped to the well without further remark. + +Elizabeth looked after him, and pondered, with a quivering lip, on the +wilfulness of the refusal to promise. She had been so sure that she was +escaping the hell of mortgages and interest when she married. The farm was +already carrying every cent the loan companies would give on first papers. +If anything should happen to the stock they would have to put a second +mortgage on part of it. John was determined to work on a large scale. She +had tried many times to show him how hard it would be to raise large +incumbrances, but whenever she did so he became fretful and for days +spoiled the home comfort for which she strove. Elizabeth tried to model +their home life after that of Aunt Susan, and leave her husband free to +use his own judgment, but this matter of indebtedness was alarming. She +knew how slowly money came in on the farm and how impossible it was to +raise a mortgage once it was plastered over a piece of land. Already she +saw the day of payments, note-renewals, and chattel mortgages staring them +in the face. Elizabeth's pride had suffered a fall. She saw the weary +years stretch ahead of them without joy and without hope other than that +which those about them had, unless some special providence assisted them +to avoid the common lot of farmers. As she went about her table-setting, +however, the quality of the linen, of the dishes, of every object in the +room differed from anything she had ever known, and the hope of youth came +to her aid. This home should be different from the rest; she would make it +so by patience as well as by its possessions. The black-leg was not an +immediate danger, and she would look for the best. + + * * * * * + +Winter passed, and spring. The patience Elizabeth had vowed to command had +been tried to the utmost in some particulars. John had never taken her to +see Aunt Susan. Sometimes he said "wait till next week," sometimes he said +he was tired, more often he retired into his accustomed irritability, and +at last because of the evidences of her pregnant state she ceased to +desire it. The winter had not been totally unpleasant. If she did not +irritate her husband they were very happy together. John had pleasant +little ways about the house and was as helpful as the most exacting woman +could demand. The spring had been harder because Elizabeth had less +strength and the house and garden work had increased. It took three hired +men to keep the farm work done, and there were many mouths to fill. + +One particularly hot day in June John unloaded on the kitchen table an +armful of groceries he had just brought from town, remarking as he did +so: + +"I brought home some dried blackberries for pies, Elizabeth." + +Hepsie Brown, the lately acquired hired girl, stood at Elizabeth's elbow, +and began to put the parcels away in the cupboard. + +Elizabeth took a couple of letters he was handing her and went into the +sitting room to read them. John followed her in. + +"Be sure you make the pies," he said with an emphasis which showed he +meant to have it remembered. + +"All right, dear." + +"You'd better cook the fruit to-night," he added. + +"All right. I'll tell Hepsie." + +"Better do it yourself," he cautioned. + +"She can do it. I'll tell her," Elizabeth said without looking up, but she +knew that that would not end the discussion the moment it was out of her +mouth. She recognized John's most unpleasant insisting mood. + +"Mother always tends to her own pie-baking. Girls never get things right," +he said emphatically, waiting for her to raise her eyes to his. + +"Yes, yes, dear," the girl answered, looking up as he required. "She can +do it just as well as I can; it don't hurt her to stand on her feet." + +She had given the sign of submission and he was ready to be pleasant about +it, but he reiterated the demand. + +"I know, dear," he said, kissing her, "but I can't bear to have things +coming on the table not right when we have men about. It don't take long +to make a few pies." + +Elizabeth rose wearily, put the letters down and went to the kitchen. Her +face was drawn and there was a fagged, weary droop to the shoulders. John +demanded that the house and cooking be kept up to the city standard, +forgetting that there was a garden to keep in order also, besides little +chickens to feed and butter to be made. If Elizabeth had said she were +sick and had gone to bed, John would have had the doctor come to see her +twice as often as necessary, and would have exhausted the little town of +Colebyville to supply such things as she could eat, but it never occurred +to John Hunter that as long as his wife was able to go about the house +that she might know what she should do much better than he. + +Elizabeth was unable to defend herself. She coveted peace, and she could +not have peace unless she responded to John's suggestions. Also, at this +time Elizabeth was determined that she would not be cross. The coming +child absorbed her mind as much as it absorbed her body. She would not let +one hour of discord or inharmony affect its life. Elizabeth had no idea +how to manage her husband so as to get him even to listen to her side of +an argument. The girl was worn out by useless things which she could not +avoid doing. + +Elizabeth was extremely nervous at this period of her life. John went to +bed full of healthy fatigue and slept soundly till morning, and knew +nothing of mental and physical strains which left his wife more tired in +the morning than when she went to bed at night. Elizabeth had been a +strong girl, but she was supporting the life of another; she tossed and +moaned through the two or three short hours in which she could sleep, and +for the rest lay wide-eyed, staring into the darkness, filled with terror +at what the rapidly approaching future held for her. In her girlish +imaginings and fears, ignorant of the facts a young mother should have +known, she had magnified the sufferings of childbirth till life was a +network of horrors, and her nerves were at the breaking point. + +The next morning Elizabeth, with aching back and trembling knees, her face +flushed from the heat of the stove, stood at the kitchen table rolling out +the pie crust. A tear rolled down her cheek. Hepsie, who stood near and +was regarding her sympathetically, laid firm hold on the rolling-pin. + +"I knew you'd no business t' do it. Now you go in an' set down in th' +rockin' chair while I finish this here batch of pies." + +Hepsie was older than Elizabeth and making pies had been her business; the +crust was mixed and the fruit had been cooked the night before. Reflecting +that not much could happen to a pie after getting that far on the road to +perfection, Elizabeth let the rolling-pin be taken from her hand and went +in wearily to throw herself on the lounge to rest. + +John came into the kitchen and his face darkened. + +"Tell Mrs. Hunter that I look for Hansen to help with the grain to-day, +and that I told him to bring his wife with him," he said to Hepsie, and +went out, banging the door after him. + +Elizabeth had heard him come in and had risen to explain, but stopped +short when she heard that Luther had been asked to help. Her first feeling +was of a joy which brought the tears to her eyes. John had been +persistently cool whenever Luther had been mentioned since their marriage. +The next feeling of which she was conscious was an intense distaste to +having Sadie in the house with her all day, and this was followed by the +thought that John had known that Luther and Sadie were coming since the +day before and had said nothing about it to her; but small time was given +her to think about any phase of the matter, for Luther's familiar, +unpainted wagon was at that very moment coming into the side lane. With a +conviction that she had not been told till it was absolutely necessary, +Elizabeth walked promptly out to meet her young neighbours. + +It was the old Luther which greeted her. + +"You know my wife, Lizzie," he said with such a happy look in Sadie's +direction that Elizabeth's heart responded to the call for open +friendship. Luther never nursed suspicion. + +"I should just say I did," Elizabeth replied warmly, extending her hand to +the little woman Luther was setting on her feet. Luther climbed promptly +into the high seat from which he had just lifted his wife and held his own +hand down to Elizabeth from there. + +"It was mighty fine for you to send word for her t' come along." + +And Elizabeth did not let him gather from any hint of expression or word +that so far from sending word for Sadie to spend the day with her, she had +not known till in these last ten minutes that either of them was expected. +John came and talked to Luther, mounting the spring-seat at his side to +ride to the field, but did not look at Elizabeth, though she looked at him +longingly and everything in her cried out for reconciliation and openness. +John had a way of ignoring her when explanations had to be made. + +Luther's attitude toward his wife had influenced Elizabeth in Sadie's +favour as nothing else had ever been able to do. She began to feel less +hostile, and as they turned toward the house asked her interestedly how +she was "coming on" with her garden and chickens. This was common ground, +and Sadie warmed to the real welcome she was accorded. She stopped beside +Elizabeth's coops in the backyard and examined the little groups of +begging, downy balls with the animation of a true farmer's wife. Here was +something she knew as well as Elizabeth; in fact, when a count was made it +was discovered that Sadie's broods several times outnumbered those of the +neighbour she envied. It was an absorbing topic of conversation, and the +two women stood for some moments with the hungry little beggars clamouring +lustily about them. Suddenly they became conscious of the smell of burning +sugar. + +"Oh, my goodness!" Elizabeth exclaimed, and ran to the kitchen, leaving +her guest to follow as she chose. + +Hepsie had gone upstairs, and as Elizabeth opened the oven door a cloud of +smoke rolled out which nearly blinded her and set her to coughing. + +Sadie followed her in and somehow her mood changed as she looked over the +well-kept kitchen. Something in the tidy order and tasty arrangement of +its shelves hurt. Sadie was not a natural housekeeper. + +"Bet she just thinks she beat us all," she thought as she laid her bonnet +on the sitting-room sofa, where she had felt of the pillows, and the +lambrequin which hung from the long shelf where the clock and vasts stood, +on the opposite side of the room. "Bet she don't put on no airs about me +just the same." She looked at the small bookcase below the mantel in a +perfect rage of envy. Elizabeth was surrounded by the things which +befitted Elizabeth, and Sadie realized as she had never done in their +childhood the chasm which separated them, and knew nothing of the anguish +of the young wife as she laboured with the disfigured pies, nor that +Elizabeth thought of the look of love she had seen Sadie receive with +something very like envy in her heart. + +Elizabeth thought long upon the joy in Luther's face as he greeted her. +John must have made some move about the request for help which covered the +neglect of all these months adequately to Luther. Sadie finished her +inspection of the inner regions and returned to the kitchen primed with +things to be said to her rival, and Elizabeth fared badly at her hands. +Her innate refinement would not let Elizabeth strike back in the coarse +way in which she was attacked, and she listened to hints and pretended +sympathy on the subject of Farnshaw domestic difficulties, of reported +debts which John Hunter had contracted, and neighbourhood estimates of the +fact of her own secluded manner of life since her marriage, till her head +swam and her memory was scorched for many a day. But though her head ached +and her knees almost refused to perform their office, Elizabeth remained +in the kitchen and superintended every dish prepared for that harvest +dinner. The fact that the pies had scorched left her with the feeling that +John had had a foundation of real fact for his demand that she give them +her personal attention, and left her humbled and ready to beg forgiveness. +Every fibre of her cried out for the trust she had seen in Luther's glance +at Sadie. _There_ was true marriage, and the state which she laboured +daily to establish. + +At dinner John did not look at Elizabeth, though her eyes sought his +constantly, and when the pie was passed around she remarked on its trimmed +edges shamefacedly. + +Silas Chamberlain wiped his knife on a piece of bread and slid it under +the section nearest him. + +"You never mind about them edges. It looks like a good pie t' me, an' John +here will eat his share of it, I'll warrant you. Th' rest of this company +can survive if he does. I just been a thinkin' as I set here what a +stunnin' cook you've got t' be in these ten months. I used t' think you'd +have a lot t' learn after you was married, but you seem t' 'a' learned it +short off--eh, John?" + +John Hunter had to reply. "I've been sorry mother had to go away. +Elizabeth's done pretty well, but mother would have been a great help, +with her fixed ways of doing things," he said reluctantly. + +Luther had been looking earnestly at John, but spared Elizabeth when he +saw her confusion by looking quickly down at his plate and saying +nothing. + +"Don't know's Lizzie needs any help as far as doin' things is concerned, +though she may need more rest," Silas returned; and Sadie took up the +subject. + +"I think my stove bakes a little better on the bottom," she remarked +critically. + +"I low t' taste your pies to-morrow if it don't rain," Silas answered her +without looking up from the bite he was severing with the knife upon which +it was to be conveyed to his mouth. + +Luther Hansen's laugh rang out heartily. + +"Don't," he said, winking at Sadie. "She'll be keepin' me out of th' field +t' fire th' oven." + +The sting of the criticism was drawn by Luther's merry acceptation of it. +Sadie laughed too, but the hint left its rankling point. These same men +would harvest for them on the morrow, and as Sadie looked over Elizabeth +Hunter's well set table she knew that she would not have the advantage on +her side. + +"Lizzie's always had th' best of everything," she thought. + +Silas Chamberlain thought over the day's events as he rode slowly home. +While unhitching, Old Queen nipped angrily at Bob, who had sniffed at her +collar pad, and Silas cuffed her ears. + +"Whoa, there, you spiteful beast! You'll be wantin' pie that's a leetle +better done on th' under crust next. Drat 'er! I could 'a' fit right +there, only--well you kin allus hit harder with that kind of folks if you +don't let yourself git riled. Pore little woman! Not little, neither--but +a year ago so young an' glowin' with happiness. Used t' make me think of a +bob-white, trottin' up an down these roads s' contented like, an' allus so +friendly an' sociable. Looks 's if she didn't have spirits enough t' laugh +at nothin' these days. Looks 's if she'd had a peep into a den of wild +beasts an' was afraid they'd break out an' get 'er. Liza Ann's got t' go +an' see 'er, an' I'm goin' t' tell 'er so." + +As Silas went toward the house, he stopped suddenly and looked back at the +wagon, which stood in the same place he had left it that rainy afternoon +over a year ago. + +"She looked that peert with 'er red lips an' bright eyes, a askin' if th' +school board was t' meet. Pore little woman--she ain't a goslin' any more, +an' 'er new feathers ain't turnin' th' rain very good neither," he +reflected, shaking his head. + +The long day ended at last and John came to the house after the evening +chores were finished. Elizabeth waited for him in her bedroom. Throughout +the entire evening she had been telling herself that she must make this +thing right. For the sake of the expected child she must not let her mind +be disturbed with the hurt feeling she had been unable to put away since +John had gone out without letting her explain about the morning's baking. +She allowed herself no angry or resentful thought for the prolonged and +cruel reproach. Dry-eyed, she sat by the open window in her nightdress, +making buttonholes in a tiny slip as she waited. She heard him deposit the +basket of cobs beside the kitchen stove, which he never forgot to bring in +at night, and by the rattle of the dipper which followed and the chug, +chug, chug of the pump knew that he was filling the reservoir. Breakfast +on the farm was an early meal and greatly facilitated by small +preparations. John never forgot nor neglected his part of the household +duties. Elizabeth sighed. John had the appearance of right on his side +when he demanded her highest efforts at the household altar. She put away +the little slip as she heard him coming toward the bedroom and rose to +meet him. The tears came in spite of every effort to stay them, and to +hide her face she dug it deep into his shoulder while she sobbed out her +story. It was a full minute before John's arm went about her, but at last +reflecting that something was due one in her condition, he patted her +heaving shoulders and said as if addressing a child: + +"There, there now, I never thought of you feeling so bad," and after a +minute's thought added, "but you see, dear, the part of the dinner you saw +to yourself was all right, and the pies had to be apologized for." + + + + +CHAPTER XII + +"PORE LITTLE WOMAN" + + +Silas Chamberlain answered to a loud knock on his door at the midnight +hour. It was the first week of August. + +"From Hunter's, you say?" + +There was a mumbled conversation at the door. + +"Why, yes, of course. Come right in--glad t' have you. When was you +called--an hour an' a half ago? Now you come right upstairs, an' we'll +have you in bed in two shakes. There now--them covers'll be too heavy, I +'spect, but you kin throw 'em off if you don't want 'em. Jest keep that +light. I'll git another downstairs. Good-night. Oh, yes! Jake's gone for +th' doctor, you say? Started an hour an' a half ago? Guess 'e ain't there +yet--seven mile you know. Well, good-night!" + +Silas stumbled down the steep stairs. + +"Liza Ann, it's come! Pore little woman!" + +He got back into bed and lay so still that his wife thought him asleep. +"Pore child!" she heard him say just as she was drifting off to dreamland. +An hour passed. An hour and a half. There was the sound of wheels. + +"That's th' doctor, Liza Ann." There was no reply. + +The old man fidgeted for fifteen minutes more; he had grown nervous. He +slid out of the bed quietly and went to the barn. + +"Thought I heard a noise," he told himself by way of excuse for his +action. "Wonder if Old Queen's loose?" He felt his way along the manger +carefully. Unaccustomed to midnight visitors, Queen snorted and shrank +from his hand when he touched her. + +"Whoa, there! You needn't be so blamed 'fraid--nothin's goin' t' hurt you. +You ain't a woman." + +Silas found a nail-keg and sat down on it across from the nibbling horses, +and thought and waited. + +"He's there by this time," he murmured presently. "Wisht they'd 'a' sent +for Liza Ann. No, I guess it's better not. She wouldn't know what t' do, +havin' no experience." + +He debated with himself as to whether he should go back to bed or not. + +"Couldn't sleep," he concluded. "Lord! how long the nights is when a +feller's awake!" + +The horses ate on uninterruptedly and the soft breeze stole through the +old barn, while everything in nature was indicative of peace except the +old man, whose mind worked relentlessly on the situation of the young wife +whose certain suffering racked him almost as much as if he had stood in +its presence. + +"Gosh-a-livin's!" he exclaimed as a new thought struck him. "I wonder +which one of 'em Jake got. Now that young Doc Stubbins ain't got no more +sense 'n a louse. I ought t' 'a' told John an' I forgot. Lord! Lord! th' +chances th' poor critters have t' take!" + +Mrs. Chamberlain was awakened in the gray light of morning as her husband +crept shivering into bed. + +"Where you been?" she asked. + +"Out t' th' barn. Heard a noise an' thought I'd better look into it," was +Silas's reply. + + * * * * * + +As the sun rose the new life was ushered in. Doctor Morgan did not start +home till after nine o'clock. + +"Who is to have charge of your wife, Mr. Hunter?" he asked as he paused in +the door and looked back at his patient anxiously. Seven miles was a long +distance--and she might need him suddenly. + +"Why, I thought Hepsie and I could care for her," John replied. Trained +nurses were unheard of in those days. + +"It simply cannot be," answered the old man. (Doctor Stubbins had not been +engaged.) "Another attack like this last one would--well, you _must_ have +some one of experience here. It's a matter of life or death--at least it +might be," he added under his breath. "Couldn't you stay?" he asked Susan +Hornby, who sat with the baby on her knee. "The girl's liable to slip away +from us before I could get here." + +It was arranged that Aunt Susan should stay with the young mother, who was +too weak to turn her head on the pillow it lay upon, for as the old doctor +had said she was a desperately sick girl. They had but just kept her with +them. The presence of Aunt Susan was almost as delightful to Elizabeth +Hunter as the head of the child on her arm. Weak and exhausted, she was +permitted such rest as she had not known in all the days of her married +life. The darkened room and the quiet of the next three days were such a +mercy to her tired nerves that she would have been glad to lie there for +ages. Doctor Morgan let Susan Hornby return to her home and husband at the +end of the week, confident that with care, Hepsie could perform the little +offices required, but he was to learn that country people have little +judgment in serious cases of illness, and that the young mother's room +would be filled with company when he came out the next day. + +Mr. and Mrs. Crane were the first to arrive on Sunday morning, and when +John announced that they were driving up to the hitching post, Elizabeth +begged weakly for him to say that she was too ill to see any one that day. +John would have been glad to deliver that message, remembering the wedding +day, but Sadie was with her mother, and John had found Luther a convenient +neighbour of late. + +"We can't offend them," he said. + +"But I can't have them. Please, John--with my head aching already." + +"Don't speak so loud," John said warningly. + +Mrs. Farnshaw came and had to have her team tied to the barnyard fence. +She walked to the house with the rest of the company, and even in their +presence could not restrain her complaints because she had not been +notified of her daughter's serious illness and the arrival of the child. +Elizabeth's protest that they had been absorbed by that illness, and too +busy to think of anything but the most urgent and immediate duties, did +not quiet the objections, for Mrs. Farnshaw had the habit of weak +insistence. Her mother's whine was never so hard to bear. + +"Where's Mr. Farnshaw?" Mr. Crane asked. "He's grandpa now." + +Elizabeth shrank into her pillows, and Mrs. Farnshaw bridled angrily. + +"He's busy," was her tart reply. + +"I should think he'd want t' see his grandson. Lizzie, you haven't showed +me that boy," Mr. Crane insisted. + +And Elizabeth, weak and worn, had to draw the sleeping child from under +the quilts at her side and show him off as if he had been a roll of butter +at a country fair, while constant reference was made to one phase or +another of the unpleasant things in her experience. Her colour deepened +and her head thumped more and more violently, and by noon when they +trooped out to the dining room, where Hepsie had a good dinner waiting, +the girl-wife was worn out. She could not eat the food brought to her, but +drank constantly, and was unable to get a snatch of sleep before the +visitors assembled about her bed again. + +At four o'clock Doctor Morgan arrived and Luther Hansen came for Sadie. +Sadie saw him drive in, and laughed unpleasantly. + +"Luther wasn't a bit for comin', but I told him I'd come over with ma, an' +he could come after me. He's always chicken-hearted, an' said since Lizzie +was so sick we oughtn't t' come. I don't see as you're s' sick, Lizzie; +you've got lots of good colour in your face, an' th' way you pull that +baby around don't look much like you was goin' t' kick the bucket just +yet." + +Elizabeth made no reply, but watched John help Doctor Morgan tie his +team. + +"How's Mrs. Hunter?" Doctor Morgan asked John as he came around to the +gate after the horses were fastened. + +"All right, I guess. She's had a good deal of company to-day. I didn't +want them, but you can't offend people." + +"We usually have a good deal of company at a funeral," the old doctor said +dryly, as he viewed the extra horses and wagons about the fence. + +When he entered the sickroom his face hardened. + +"I'm not as much afraid of your neighbours as you are, Mr. Hunter," he +said, and went to the middle door and beckoned Luther to come with him +into the yard. A few words was all that was needed with Luther Hansen, and +the doctor returned to his patient. + + * * * * * + +Sadie was more sarcastic than usual as they drove home. + +"I wouldn't 'a' come if I'd a known I wasn't wanted," she remarked +sulkily. + +"But, Sadie, Doc Morgan says she's worse! I'd turn 'em out quick enough if +it was you." + +Poor little Sadie Hansen caught the spirit of the remark. Nothing like it +had ever before been offered her in all her bitter, sensitive experience. +She looked up at her husband mollified, and let even Elizabeth have a +season of rest as she considered this astonishing thing which marriage had +brought to her. + +Susan Hornby, who had thought her darling resting on this quiet Sabbath +day, was reëstablished at the bedside, and it was not till the morning of +the tenth day that she again left the house. At the end of that time she +was dismissed reluctantly by the good old doctor himself. It had been such +a good excuse to be with Elizabeth that Aunt Susan had persuaded the +long-suffering Nathan that her presence beside her was a thing not to be +denied, and Nathan, glad to see Sue so happy, ate many a cold meal that +haying season and did not complain. It was a great event in Susan Hornby's +life. Gentle and cordial to all, Susan Hornby lived much alone--alone most +of all when surrounded with her neighbours. Elizabeth was her only real +tie. + +"Oh, child! I'm so glad you've got him," she said one day as she laid the +beautiful brown head on Elizabeth's arm. + +Elizabeth patted the hand that was drawing the little white shawl over the +baby's head. Master John Hunter--the babe had been named for its +father--had had his daily bath, and robed in fresh garments, and being +well fed and housed in the snuggest of all quarters, the little triangle +made by a mother's arm, settled himself for his daily nap, while the two +women watched him with the eyes of affection. Never again do we so nearly +attain perfect peace in this turbulent life as during those first few +weeks when the untroubled serenity of human existence is infringed upon by +nothing but a desire for nourishment, which is conveniently present, to be +had at the first asking, and which there is such a heaven of delight in +obtaining. We are told that we can only enter the Kingdom of Heaven by +becoming as little children: no other Kingdom of Heaven is adequate after +that. + +The life in this little room had taken Susan Hornby back to her own youth, +and as often as otherwise when Master John was being put through his daily +ablutions it was the little Katie of long ago that she bathed and robed +fresh and clean for the morning nap. At other times Elizabeth was her +Katie grown older. It was the flowering time of Susan Hornby's life. The +fact that Elizabeth had never crossed her threshold since her marriage to +John Hunter had faded out of Aunt Susan's mind. Elizabeth's every word and +look spoke the affection she felt for her. Other people might sneer and +doubt, but Susan Hornby accepted what her instincts told her was genuine. + + * * * * * + +Elizabeth got about the house slowly. The days in bed had been made +tolerable by the presence of those she loved, but she was far from strong, +and she looked forward with reluctance to the time when Aunt Susan would +not be with her. John complained of Hepsie's work only when with his wife +alone, for Aunt Susan had been so constant in her praises that he would +not start a discussion which he had found he brought out by such +criticism. + +Susan Hornby looked on, and was as much puzzled as ever about the +relations of the young couple. Elizabeth was evidently anxious about +John's opinions, but she never by so much as a word indicated that they +differed from hers. She spoke of him with all the glow of her early love; +she pointed out his helpfulness as if he were the only man in the world +who looked after the kitchen affairs with such exactitude; she would have +the baby named for no one else, and all her life and thought centred +around him in so evident a manner that Aunt Susan could not but feel that +she was the happiest of wives. She talked of her ideals of harmony, of her +thankfulness for the example of the older woman's life with her husband, +of her desire to pattern after that example, of everything that was good +and hopeful in her life, with so much enthusiasm as to completely convince +her friend that she had found a fitting abiding place. And, indeed, +Elizabeth believed all that she said. Each mistake of their married life +together had been put away as a mistake. Each day she began in firm faith +in the possibility of bringing about necessary changes. If she failed, she +was certain in her own mind that the failure had been due to some weakness +of her own. Never did man have a more patient, trusting wife than John +Hunter. There had been much company about the house of late, and there had +been no difficulties. Elizabeth was not yet analytical enough to reason +out that because of the presence of that company far less demand had been +made upon her by her husband. She thought that they were really getting on +better than they had done, and told herself happily that it must be +because she was more rested than she had been and was therefore not so +annoyed by small things. It was ever Elizabeth's way to look for blame in +herself. The baby was a great source of pleasure also. He was a good child +and slept in the most healthy fashion, though beginning now when awake to +look about him a little and try to associate himself with his +surroundings. Elizabeth had begun to look forward to Silas's first visit +with the child. Silas had quaint ways with the young, and it was with very +real pleasure that she dragged herself to the door and admitted him the +first week she was out of bed. Elizabeth led the old man to the lounge on +tiptoe. + +"I want you to see him, Mr. Chamberlain; you and he are to be great +friends," she said as she went down on her knees and drew the white shawl +reverently from the sleeping face. "Isn't he a fine, big fellow?" she +asked, looking up at the old man. + +"'E ought t' be, havin' you for his mother," Silas said with an attempt at +being witty, and looking at the baby shyly. + +The baby roused a little, and stretched and grunted, baby fashion. + +"Lordie! what good sleep they do have!" Silas said, holding out his finger +to the little red hand extended toward him, and then withdrawing it +suddenly. "Now, Liza Ann sleeps just like that t' this day." He spoke +hesitatingly, as if searching for a topic of conversation. "She does 'er +work regular like, an' she sleeps as regular as she works. I often think +what a satisfyin' sort of life she leads, anyhow. She tends t' 'er own +business an' she don't tend t' nobody else's, an'--an'--she ain't got no +more on 'er mind 'n that there baby." + +Elizabeth gathered the child into her arms and seated herself in a rocking +chair, while the old man sat stiffly down on the edge of the lounge and +continued: + +"Now I ain't that way, you know. I have a most uncomfortable way of +gettin' mixed up in th' affairs of others." + +"But it's always a friendly interest," Elizabeth interposed, mystified by +his curious manner and rambling conversation. + +Silas crossed his knees and, clasping his hands about the uppermost one, +rocked back and forth on the edge of the lounge. + +"Most allus," he admitted, "but not quite. Now I'm fair ready t' fight +that new Mis Hansen. I've been right fond of Luther, for th' short time +I've knowed 'im, but what he see in that there Sadie Crane's beyond me. +_He's_ square. He looks you in th' face 's open 's day when he talks t' +you, an' you know th' ain't no lawyer's tricks in th' wordin' of it. But +she's different. They was over t' our house Sunday 'fore last an' I never +knowed Liza Ann t' be's near explodin' 's she was 'fore they left. It done +me right smart good t' see 'er brace up an' defend 'erself. I tell you Mis +Hansen see she'd riled a hornet 'fore she got away. Liza Ann 'll take an' +take, till you hit 'er just right, an' then--oh, my!" + +Silas ended with a chuckle. + +"After they left, she just told me I could exchange works with somebody +else; she wasn't goin' t' have that woman comin' t' our house no more." + +"Sadie is awfully provoking," Elizabeth admitted, "but--but--Luther likes +her, and Luther is a good judge of people, I always thought." + +"Yep," Silas admitted in return, "an' I don't understand it. Anyhow, I +never knew Liza Ann come s' near forgettin' 'erself. It was worth a day's +travel t' see." + +They talked of other things, the baby dropped asleep in its mother's arms, +and Silas took his departure. + +"How unlike him," Elizabeth said to herself as she watched him go to his +wagon. + +Silas rode away in an ill-humour with himself. + +"Now there I've been an' talked like a lunatic asylum," he meditated. "I +allus was that crazy about babies! Here I've gone an' talked spiteful +about th' neighbours, an' told things that hadn't ought t' be told. If I'd +a talked about that baby, I'd 'a' let 'er see I was plum foolish about +it--an' I couldn't think of a blessed thing but th' Hansens." + +He rode for a while with a dissatisfied air which gave way to a look of +yearning. + +"My! How proud a man ought t' be! How little folks knows what they've got +t' be thankful for! Now I'll bet 'e just takes it as a matter of course, +an' never stops t' think whether other folks is as lucky or not. She +don't. She's in such a heaven of delight, she don't care if she has lost +'er purty colour, or jumped into a life that'll make an ol' woman of 'er +'fore she's hardly begun t' be a girl, nor nothin'. She's just livin' in +that little un, an' don't even know that can't last long." + +There was a long pause, and then he broke out again. + +"Think of a man havin' all that, an' not knowin' th' worth of it! Lord! If +I'd 'a' had--but there now, Liza Ann wouldn't want me t' mourn over +it--not bein' 'er fault exactly. Guess I ought t' be patient; but I would +'a' liked a little feller." + + * * * * * + +When John came home that night Elizabeth told him of Silas's visit. + +"He hardly looked at baby at all," she said disappointedly, "and I'd +counted on his cunning ways with it more than anybody's. I thought he'd be +real pleased with it, and instead of that, he didn't seem interested in it +at all, and sat and stared at me and talked about Sadie. I thought sure +he'd want to hold it--he's got such cute ways." + +"How could you expect an old fellow like him to care for babies?" John +said, smiling at the thought of it. "A man has to experience such things +to know what they mean." + +He took the child from her arms and sat down to rock it while he waited +for the supper to be put on the table. + +"Say," he began, "I saw Hepsie setting the sponge for to-morrow's bread as +I came through the kitchen. I'll take care of baby, and you go and see +about it. The bread hasn't been up to standard since you've been sick. +You'll have to look after things a little closer now that you are up +again." + +Elizabeth, whose back was not strong, had been sitting on the lounge, and +now dropped into a reclining position as she replied: + +"The bread has not been bad, John. Aunt Susan was always marvelling at how +good it was compared to the usual hired girl's bread." + +"It was pretty badly burned last time," John observed dryly. + +"That didn't happen in the sponge, dear, and anybody burns the bread +sometimes," she returned; "besides that, it makes my back ache to stir +things these days." + +John Hunter did not reply, but every line of him showed his displeasure. +It was not possible to go on talking about anything else while he was +annoyed, and the girl began to feel she was not only lazy but easily +irritated about a very small thing. Reflecting that her back would quit +hurting if she rested afterward, she arose from the lounge and dragged +herself to the kitchen, where she stirred the heavy sponge batter as she +was bidden. + +Mrs. Hunter was expected to return in a little over a week, and the first +days when Elizabeth was able to begin to do small things about the house +were spent in getting the house cleaning done and the entire place in +order for her coming. It happened that a light frost fell upon Kansas that +year weeks before they were accustomed to look for it; and the tomato +vines were bitten. It was necessary to can quickly such as could be saved. +In those days all the fruit and vegetables used on Kansas farms were "put +up" at home, and Elizabeth, with two, and sometimes more, hired men to +cook for, was obliged to have her pantry shelves well stocked. The heat of +the great range and the hurry of the extra work flushed the pale face and +made deep circles below her eyes, but Elizabeth's pride in her table kept +her at her post till the canning was done. By Saturday night the tomatoes +were all "up," and the carpets upstairs had been beaten and retacked. Mrs. +Hunter's room had been given the most exact care and was immaculate with +tidies and pillow-shams, ironed by Elizabeth's own hands, and the chickens +to be served on the occasion of her arrival were "cut up" and ready for +the frying pan. + +Sunday there was a repast fit for a king when John and his mother came +from town. Every nerve in Elizabeth's body had been stretched to the limit +in the production of that meal. Too tired to eat herself, the young wife +sat with her baby in her arms and watched the hungry family devour the +faultless repast. She might be tired, but the dinner was a success. The +next morning, when the usual rising hour of half-past four o'clock came, +it seemed to the weary girl that she could not drag herself up to +superintend the getting of the breakfast. + +"Mother'll help you with the morning work and you can lie down afterward," +John assured her when she expressed a half determination not to rise. + +But after breakfast Mrs. Hunter suggested that they scour the tinware, and +the three women put in the spare time of the entire morning polishing and +rubbing pans and lids. As they worked, Mrs. Hunter discussed tinware, till +not even the shininess of the pans upon which they worked could cover the +disappointment of the girl that her mother-in-law should have discovered +it in such a neglected condition. + +"Really, child, it isn't fit to put milk in again till it's in better +condition. How did you happen to let it get so dull and rusty?" + +"Now, mother, it isn't rusty at all. It is pretty dull, but that's not +Hepsie's fault. It was as bright as a pin when I got up, but we've had the +tomatoes to put up and the housecleaning to do and it couldn't be helped," +Elizabeth replied, covering up any share the girl might have had in the +matter. She knew the extra work which had fallen on Hepsie's shoulders in +those last weeks, and particularly since she herself had been out of bed, +for the girl loved Elizabeth and had shielded her by extra steps many +times when her own limbs must have ached with weariness. + +"You don't mean to say you used the tin pans for any thing as corroding as +tomatoes!" Mrs. Hunter exclaimed in astonishment. + +"We used everything in sight I think--and then didn't have enough," +Elizabeth said with a laugh. + +"But you should never use your milk pans for anything but milk, dear," the +older woman remonstrated. "You know milk takes up everything that comes +its way, and typhoid comes from milk oftener than any other source." + +"There are no typhoids in tomatoes fresh from the vine," Elizabeth replied +testily, and Mrs. Hunter dropped the subject. + +But though she dropped the subject she did not let the pans drop till the +last one shone like a mirror. With the large number of cows they were +milking many receptacles were needed and John had got those pans because +they were lighter to handle than the heavy stone crocks used by most +farmers' wives. Elizabeth was more appreciative, of those pans than any +purchase which had been made for her benefit in all the months she had +served as John's housekeeper, but by the time she was through scouring she +was ready to throw them at any one who was foolish enough to address her +upon housekeeping; besides, she plainly discerned the marks of discontent +upon Hepsie's face. Hepsie was a faithful servitor, but she had learned by +several years of service to stop before her energies were exhausted. It +was the first sign of dissatisfaction she had ever shown, and Elizabeth +was concerned. + +The next morning Elizabeth's head was one solid, throbbing globe of roar +and pain. Mrs. Hunter brought her a dainty breakfast which it was +impossible for her to eat, and said with genuine affection: + +"We have let you do too much, my dear, and I mean to take some of this +burden off of your shoulders. You're not yourself yet. John tells me you +were sicker than people usually are at such times. I ought to have helped +the girl with that tinware yesterday and sent you to bed." + +Elizabeth listened with some alarm to the proposition of Mrs. Hunter +taking the house into her own hands, but she was touched by the real +sympathy and concern evident. + +"It's good of you, mother. You'll have to be careful about Hepsie, though. +You must not call her 'the girl' where she hears you. You see she is one +of our old neighbours, and--and--well, they hate to be called that--and +they aren't exactly servants." + +"Well, I'll get the dinner for her--it's wash day. Don't try to get up," +Mrs. Hunter said, taking the breakfast away with her. + +"Be careful about Hepsie, mother," Elizabeth called after her in an +undertone. "She's a good girl, if you understand her and--and they leave +you at the drop of a hat." + +Hepsie's going came sooner than even Elizabeth had feared. She brought a +cup of coffee to her at noon, but avoided conversation and went out at +once. + +Elizabeth called her mother-in-law to her after dinner was over and +cautioned her afresh. + +"But I haven't had a word with her that was ill-natured or cross," Mrs. +Hunter protested indignantly. + +"I don't suppose you have, mother," the miserable girl replied, puzzled as +to how she was to make the older woman understand. "It's--it's a way you +have. I saw that she was hurt about that tinware. She's been very +satisfactory, really. She takes every step off of me that she can. She's +the best in the country--and--and they hang together too. If we lost her, +we'd have a hard time getting another." + +"Well, it makes me cross to have to work with them as if they were rotten +eggs and we were afraid of breaking one, but if I have it to do I suppose +I can. I only looked after the clothes to see that she got the streaks out +of them. I knew she was mad about something, but I rinsed them myself; I +always do that." + +After Mrs. Hunter was gone Elizabeth thought the matter over seriously. +Neither Hepsie nor any other girl they could get in that country was going +to have her work inspected as if she were a slave. They were free-born +American women, ignorant of many things regarding the finer kinds of +housekeeping in most instances, but independent from birth and +surroundings. In fact, there was a peculiar swagger of independence which +bordered upon insolence in most of the homes from which Kansas help must +be drawn. Elizabeth knew that their dignity once insulted they could not +be held to any contract. + +Mrs. Hunter went back to the kitchen and tried to redeem the mistakes she +had made, but Hepsie would not be cajoled and the unpleasantness grew. +Saturday night the girl came to Elizabeth and said, without looking her in +the face at all: + +"Jake says, if he can have th' team, he'll take me home. I--I think I +won't stay any longer." + +"Do you have to go, Hepsie?" Elizabeth said, her face troubled. + +Hepsie avoided her glance because she knew the trouble was there. Hepsie +had been very happy in this house and had been proud of a chance to keep +its well supplied shelves in satisfactory condition. Gossip hovered over +whatever went on in the Hunter home, and there was a distinction in being +associated with it; also Hepsie had come to love Elizabeth more than she +usually did her country mistresses. She saw that all the unkind things +which were being said about Elizabeth's stuck-up propensities were untrue, +and that Elizabeth Hunter was as sensible and kindly as could be wished +when people understood her. + +"I'll be up and around hereafter," Elizabeth continued. "You don't +understand mother. She's all right, only she isn't used to the farm." + +"I guess I understand 'er all right," Hepsie said sullenly; "'t wouldn't +make no difference, you bein' up. She'd be a-tellin' me what t' do just +th' same, an' I'm tired enough, washdays, without havin' somebody t' +aggravate me about every piece that goes through th' rench." + +She stood waiting for Elizabeth to speak, and when she did not, added +resentfully: + +"You an' me always got along. We had a clean house, too, if Mr. Hunter +didn't think I knew much." + +Elizabeth's surprise was complete. She had not supposed the girl knew +John's estimate of her work. John was usually so clever about keeping out +of sight when he insisted upon anything unpleasant that it had never +occurred to Elizabeth that Hepsie was aware that John insisted upon having +her do things which he felt that Hepsie could not be trusted to do +unwatched. There was nothing more to be said. She reckoned the girl's +wages, and told her that Jake could have the team. + +Before Hepsie went that night, she came back to the bedroom and cuddled +the baby tenderly. + +"I'm--I'm sorry t' go an' leave you with th' baby so little, Lizzie. +'Taint hardly fair, but--but if you worked out a while you'd learn t' quit +'fore you was wore out." She stood thinking a moment, and then cautioned +Elizabeth sincerely: "I'm goin' t' say one thing 'fore I leave: you'd +better ship that old woman 'fore you try t' get another girl around these +parts. I'll be asked why I left an'--an' I'll have t' tell, or git folks +t' thinkin' I'm lazy an' you won't have me." + +Elizabeth's heart sank. She would not plead for the girl to keep still. It +would have been of no use; besides, her own sense of fairness told her +that there was room for all that had been hinted at. + + * * * * * + +Monday John spent the day looking for a girl to take Hepsie's place. Tired +and discouraged, he came home about four o'clock in the afternoon. + +"Could you get me a bite to eat?" he asked Elizabeth as he came in. "I +haven't had a bite since breakfast." + +Elizabeth laid the baby on the bed, and turned patiently toward the +kitchen. An hour was consumed in getting the extra meal and doing the +dishes afterward, and then it was time to begin the regular supper for the +rest of the family. When John found that she had thrown herself down on +the bed to nurse the baby instead of coming to the table for her supper, +he insisted that she at least come and pour the tea, and when she sat +unresistant through the meal, but could not eat, he sent her to bed and +helped his mother wash the supper dishes without complaint. The next +morning, however, he hailed her forth to assist with the half-past four +o'clock breakfast relentlessly, unaware that she had spent a weary and +sleepless night. + +"Are you going to look for a girl to-day?" she asked as he was leaving the +house after the breakfast was eaten. + +"Oh! I suppose so, but I haven't much hopes of getting one," he answered +impatiently. Then seeing the tears in her eyes at the thought of the +washing waiting to be done, he kissed her tenderly. "I'll do the best I +can, dear; I know you're tired." + +"Well, the next one I get I hope mother 'll let me manage her. If Hepsie +wouldn't stand her ways of talking about things none of the rest will." +After a moment's reflection she added: "I cannot do all this work myself. +I'm so tired I'm ready to die." + +John slipped his arm about her and said earnestly: + +"I'll do all I can to help you with the dinner dishes, but you are not to +say one word to mother about this." + +It was gently put, but authoritative. + +"Then you needn't look for one at all," she said sharply. + +John's arm fell from about her and he looked at her in cold astonishment. + +"I don't care," she insisted. "I can't keep a girl and have mother looking +over every piece of washing that is hung on the line." + +"Mother kept girls a long time in her own house," he answered, taking +offence at once. + +"I don't care; she dealt with a different kind of girls." Then with a +sudden illumination, she added: "She didn't have such quantities of work +to do, either. If we go on this way we'll have to have help and keep it or +we'll have to cut down the farm work." She brightened with the thought. +"Let's cut the work down anyhow, dear. I'd have so much an easier time +and--and you wouldn't have all those wages to raise every month, and we +could live so much more comfortably." + +She leaned forward eagerly. + +"I don't see but we're living as comfortably as folks usually do," John +replied evasively. + +"I know, dear, but we have to have the men at meals all the time +and--and----" + +"Now see here, Elizabeth, don't go and get foolish. A man has to make a +living," John said fretfully. + +The girl had worked uncomplainingly until her last remnant of strength was +gone, and they were neither willing to do the thing which made it possible +to keep help, nor to let her do the work as she was able to do it. With it +all, however, she tried patiently to explain and arrange. Something had to +be done. + +"I know you have to make a living, John, and I often think that I must let +you do it in your own way, but there are so many things that are getting +into a snarl while we try it this way. We don't have much home with +strangers at our table every day in the year. We never have a meal alone. +I wouldn't mind that, but it makes more work than I am able to do, it is +getting you into debt deeper every month to pay their wages, and you don't +know how hard it is going to be to pay those debts a few years from now. +But that isn't the worst of it as far as I am concerned. I work all the +time and you--you aren't satisfied with what I do when I do everything my +strength will let me do. I can't do any more than I'm doing either." + +"I _am_ satisfied with what you do," he said with evident annoyance at +having his actions and words remarked upon. "Besides, you have mother to +help you." He had ignored her remarks upon the question of debts, +determined to fasten the attention elsewhere. + +The little ruse succeeded, for Elizabeth's attention was instantly riveted +upon her own hopeless situation. + +"It isn't much help to run the girl out and then make it so hard to get +another one," she said bitterly. + +Instantly she wished she had not said it. It was true, but she wished she +could have held it back. John did not realize as she did how hard it was +going to be to get another girl. She had not told him of Hepsie's remarks +nor of her advice. Elizabeth was not a woman to tattle, and the "old +woman" Hepsie had referred to was his mother. + +"Don't think I'm hard on her, John. If we could only get another girl I +wouldn't care." + +She waited for him to speak, and, when he did not do so, asked +hopelessly: + +"Don't you think we can get another girl pretty soon if we go a good ways +off from this neighbourhood?" + +"I don't know anything about it, and I don't want to hear anything more +about it either," was the ungracious reply. + +"I am in the wrong. You will hear no more on either subject." + +The tone was earnest. Elizabeth meant what she said. John went from the +house without the customary good-bye kiss. We live and learn, and we learn +most when we get ourselves thoroughly in the wrong. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + +"ENNOBLED BY THE REFLECTED STORY OF +ANOTHER'S GOODNESS AND LOVE" + + +It was on a Saturday, three weeks after Mrs. Hunter's return, that +Elizabeth asked to make her first visit with the baby. + +"Aunt Susan was here so much while I was sick, John, that I feel that we +must go to see them to-morrow." + +"Oh, my goodness!" John replied, stepping to the cupboard to put away the +pile of plates in his hands. "I'm tired enough to stay at home." + +They had just finished washing the supper dishes together, and Elizabeth +considered as she emptied the dishpan and put it away. She had been +refused so often that she rather expected it, and yet she had thought by +the cordiality with which John had always treated Aunt Susan that he would +be reasonable about this visit now that she was able, and the baby old +enough to go out. + +Elizabeth was never clear about a difficulty, nor had her defences well in +hand upon the first occasion. With those she loved, and with John in +particular, any offence had to be repeated over and over again before she +could protect herself. She felt her way slowly and tried to preserve her +ideals; she tried to be fair. She could not tell quickly what to do about +a situation; she took a long time to get at her own attitudes and +understand them, and it took her still longer to get at the real +intentions of others. As she brought out her cold-boiled potatoes and +began to peel them for breakfast, she reflected that Aunt Susan had come +as regularly to see them as if she had always been well treated, until +Mrs. Hunter's coming. At that point the visits had dropped off. + +"Baby is nearly three months old, and I promised Aunt Susan that I'd take +him to see her the first place I took him. We owe it to her, and I'm not +going to neglect her any more. We can leave a dinner of cold chicken and +pies for the men, and I'll get a hot supper for them when I come home. I'd +like to start about ten o'clock." + +It sounded so much as if it were all settled that the girl felt that it +really was. + +"That leaves mother here alone all day, and I'm not going to do it," John +returned with equal assurance. + +"Mother can go with us. I should want her to do that, and I'm sure Aunt +Susan would." + +Mrs. Hunter was passing through the room with the broom and dustpan and +paused long enough to say pleasantly: + +"Don't count on me, children. I'll take care of myself and get the men a +hot dinner besides. I'd just as soon." + +"We'd like to have you go, mother, and I'm sure Aunt Susan would want us +to bring you," Elizabeth replied with a little catch in her breath. If +Mrs. Hunter refused to go, John would not take her if she begged on her +knees. + +"No, I don't want to go. I'll get the dinner though, and you needn't hurry +back." She went on upstairs contentedly and with the feeling that she had +arranged the matter to everybody's liking. + +"Let her get the dinner then," Elizabeth said, exasperated. "I'll leave +everything ready for it." + +"I shall not go and leave her alone all day. She has a hard enough time +out on this farm without getting the feeling that we care as little as +that for her comfort. Besides that, the buggy is not mended yet." + +"We can go in the lumber wagon. We didn't have a buggy till long after we +were engaged," Elizabeth said, not going into the matter of leaving his +mother at home, which she knew would be useless. + +"I should think you'd want to rest when you did get a chance. You talk all +the time about having too much to do," John replied evasively. + +"I wouldn't get any rest," Elizabeth replied quickly. "I'd get a +dinner--that's what I'd have to do if I stayed at home. I'd be on my feet +three solid hours and then have to nurse the baby. That's the rest I'd +have." + +"The devil!" was the answer she got as John went out. + +The weeks flew past, and still Elizabeth served hot dinners and mourned in +secret over Susan Hornby's neglected kindness. Aunt Susan had been +cheerful as well as discreet during those weeks when she had helped them. +She had been so happy over the evident friendliness of John Hunter that +she had felt sure that the old cordiality was to be resumed. + +After what seemed to Elizabeth endless weeks, a curious circumstance aided +her in getting to Aunt Susan's in the end. Mrs. Hunter, who was not +greatly concerned about her disappointment, heard constant reference to +Mrs. Hornby's assistance at the time of the baby's coming, and knowing +that there would be discussion of their neglect to her in the +neighbourhood, joined authoritatively in Elizabeth's entreaty the next +time it was mentioned, thereby accomplishing through fear of gossip a +thing which no amount of coaxing on Elizabeth's part could ever have done, +and at last the trip was to be made. + +Susan Hornby's home was so unchanged in the year that Elizabeth had been +gone that, but for the baby in her arms, she could hardly have realized +that she had been away. Aunt Susan sent her to the bedroom with the wraps +when they were taken off. It was the same little room the girl had +occupied for half that year, the same rag carpet, the same mended rocking +chair which had come to grief in the cyclone, and the knitted tidy which +the girl herself had made. With the hot tears running down her cheeks the +girl-mother threw herself upon the bed and buried her face in the baby's +wraps to stifle the cry she was afraid would escape her. In the sanctuary +of her girlhood's highest hopes, Elizabeth sobbed out her disappointments +and acknowledged to herself that life had tricked her into a sorry network +of doubts and unsettled mysteries. For the first time she sunk her pride +and let Susan think what she would of her prolonged absence, and went +openly to the kitchen to bathe her face in Nathan's familiar tin basin. A +sudden suspicion of John's reception at Nathan's hands made it possible to +go back to Aunt Susan with a smile on her lips. + +Indeed, Elizabeth's suspicions were so far true that they were a +certainty. Nathan, by Luther's marriage to a woman the old man suspected +of every evil, had cut himself off from every friend. Nathan had been +thrown in upon himself and had pondered and nursed his suspicions of all +men, and of John Hunter in particular. He finished the milking without +offering to go into the house; and John, who had insisted upon coming at +night instead of on a Sunday, was obliged to stand around the cow stable +and wait, or go to the house alone. He chose the former course and was +made happy by the arrival of Jake, who had not known where his employer +was going when his team was hitched to the wagon. + +"I've just been over to Luther's, Mrs. Hornby," Jake said when they +finally stood around Aunt Susan's fire. "Did you know Sadie was sick? +Luther's awful good to 'er, but I know she'd be glad t' see a woman body +about once in a while." + +"Wisht she'd die an' get out of th' way," Nathan Hornby said bitterly. "A +body could see Luther once in a while then 'thout havin' 'is words cut up +an' pasted together some new way for passin' round." + +No one spoke, and Nathan felt called upon to defend his words. + +"I don't care! It's a God's pity t' have a woman like that carry off th' +best man this country's ever had, an' then fix up every word 'is friends +says t' him so's t' make trouble." + +Nathan's whole bitter longing for companionship was laid bare. Elizabeth's +eyes filled with tears; Elizabeth was lonely also. + +The call was a short one. John moved early to go home and there was +nothing to do but give way. It was not till the next day that Elizabeth +suspected that Nathan's remarks had offended John Hunter, and then in +spite of her eagerness to keep the peace between the two men, she laughed +aloud. She was also somewhat amused at the insistence on a call upon Sadie +which John wanted that she should make. The perfect frankness of his +announcement that Luther was a convenient neighbour, and that they must +pay neighbourly attention to illness, when he had never encouraged her to +go for any other reason, was a new viewpoint from which the young wife +could observe the workings of his mind. Something about it subtracted from +her faith in him, and in life. + +While she was still washing the dinner dishes John came in to discuss the +visit. Elizabeth was athrob with the weariness of a half day spent at the +ironing table, and to avoid dressing the baby had asked Mrs. Hunter to +take care of him. + +With no other visible reason but his customary obstinacy, John insisted +upon the child being taken. + +"I've got to get back early and get the coloured clothes folded down. +Every one of the boys had a white shirt and two or three collars this +week, so I asked mother to keep him for me," Elizabeth said. + +"Now see here," John argued. "Mother 'll fold those clothes and you can +just as well take him along and make a decent visit. They're the nicest +people in the country, according to some of the neighbours." + +Elizabeth's laugh nettled her husband. When he appeared with the wagon, +she was ready, with the baby in her arms. + +The wind was keen and cold, the laprobes flew and fluttered in derisive +refusal to be tucked in. + +"Take the buggy in and have it mended the next time you go to town," she +said, with her teeth chattering, as they drew near to Luther's home. "I +want to go up to see ma before long and it's almost impossible to keep a +baby covered on this high seat." She thought a while and then added, "I +haven't been home since I was married." + +"I shouldn't think you'd ever want to go," John replied ungraciously. + +Tears of anger as well as mortification filled her eyes, and her throat +would not work. It was to stop gossip as much as to see her mother that +the girl desired to make the visit. The world was right: John was not +proud of her. + +The sight of the "shanty" as they turned the corner near Luther's place +brought a new train of thought. Dear, kindly, sweet-souled Luther! The +world disapproved of his marriage too. He was coming toward them now, his +ragged overcoat blowing about him as he jumped over the ridges made by the +plow in turning out the late potatoes he had been digging. + +"You carry the baby in for Lizzie, an' I'll tie these horses," he said, +beaming with cordiality. "Got caught with Sadie's sickness an' let half +th' potatoes freeze 's hard 's brickbats." + +It was so cold that Elizabeth did not stand to ask about Sadie, but turned +to the house to escape the blast. + +"I'll come for you at five if I can get back. I'm going over to see about +some calves at Warren's," John said as they went up the path. + +"Is that why you insisted that I bring the baby? You needn't have been +afraid to tell me; you do as you please anyhow." + +"H-s-sh! Here comes Hansen," John Hunter said warningly, and turned back +to the wagon, giving the child into Luther's arms at the door. + +Luther Hansen cuddled the child warmly to him and without waiting to go in +the house raised the white shawl from its sleeping face for a peep at it. + +"We lost ours," he said simply. + +The house sheltered them from the wind, and Elizabeth stopped and looked +up at him in astonishment. + +"You don't mean it? I--I didn't know you were expecting a child, Luther. +I'm so sorry. I wish I'd known." + +The expression of sympathy escaped her unconsciously. Elizabeth would +always want to know of Luther's joys and sorrows. + +A glad little light softened the pain in his face, and he looked at her +with a steady gaze, discerning the feeling of sound friendship behind the +words. + +"I believe you are," he said, expressing the confirmation of a thing he +had never doubted. "I ain't askin' you any questions, Lizzie, I just +know--that's all." + +With something like a glow about his heart, he opened the door of his +simple dwelling. He had never doubted her, nor believed the nonsense he +had heard about her, but he had just had his faith refreshed. He carried +the baby to the one little bedroom of his house, scuffing a wooden rocking +chair behind him across the rough floor. He established Elizabeth in it +beside Sadie, and then placing the sleeping child in its mother's arms +went back to the potato field, hurrying his work to finish before dark. He +understood in a measure why this was Elizabeth's first visit to them, and +he did not resent it. Luther never resented. He lived his own kindly, +industrious life. If people did not like Sadie he accepted it as a fact, +but not as a thing to be aggrieved about. He could wait for Sadie to grow, +and others must wait also. In the meantime, Luther watched Elizabeth and +desired growth for her; her smallest movement was of interest to him. +Elizabeth as a mother was a new feature. He remembered the deft way she +had nestled the baby to her as he had relinquished it a few moments +before, and thought with a sigh, of the cowhide-covered trunk filled with +little garments under the bed by which she sat. Not even Sadie knew what +the loss of that first child meant to Luther. A new love for women's ways +with babies grew up in him as he thought of Elizabeth's cuddling. + +In the house, Elizabeth was getting into touch with the young mother who +was childless. Sadie, in spite of a determination not to do so, was +warming to that touch reluctantly. After all, it was pleasant to be +telling Elizabeth about it, and to have her asking as if she wanted to +know. + +"Yes--I took bad about a week ago," she was saying. "I'd been kind of +miserable for several days. I got a fall that last rain we had, an' I +didn't seem t' get over it." + +"I'd have come sooner if I'd known it," Elizabeth said, thinking of +Luther's acceptance of a similar statement. "Jake didn't even tell us last +night what was the matter." + +"I guess he didn't know. Would you 'a' come if you'd 'a' known, Lizzie?" +Before Elizabeth could reply, she continued, "Ma used t' think it'd be +kind o' nice for me t' live close t' you, but I knew you wouldn't never +come t' see me. I used t' be kind o' jealous cause Luther liked you s' +much. I said everything mean I could think of about you, t' him--but law! +Luther ain't got no pride. He don't care. He defends you from everybody, +whether you come t' see us 'r not." + +It was a curious little confession and one Sadie had not intended to make. +Something big and sweet in Elizabeth had forced it from her. It +embarrassed Elizabeth Hunter, and it held things which could not be +discussed, and she turned the subject without answering. + +"When did you lose the baby?" + +"Oh, it only lived a couple of hours. You see it was too soon an'--an' it +wasn't right. Th' doctor didn't expect it t' live as long as it did, but +Luther would have it that it could, an' kept 'em a tryin' everything that +could be thought of." + +Sadie's voice died away gradually and she lay looking out of the window +retrospectively: the last two weeks had brought food for much thinking. + +"I didn't know, Lizzie, that a man could be as good as Luther. I'd always +kind o' hated men, an' I thought I'd have t' fight my way through, like +th' rest of th' women, an'--an'--he's that good an' thoughtful of me, an' +of everybody else, that I'm clean ashamed of myself half th' time. He +nearly had a fit when' he found out that I'd slipped with that wood. 'Twas +ironing day, an' th' box got empty--an' then, when th' baby died, it just +seemed as if he couldn't stand it." + +She looked up at Elizabeth earnestly: "I never heard any one but th' +preacher pray out loud, Lizzie, an'--an'--somehow--well," she stumbled, +"Luther prayed so sweet, when he see it was gone--I--I ain't thought of +much else since. It--it seemed like th' baby'd done something good t' both +of us." + +The spiteful, pettish face was for the moment ennobled by the reflected +glory of another's goodness and love. Elizabeth caught a glimpse of a +condition which makes heaven here upon earth. There was the harmony here +in the "shanty" such as she coveted and strove in vain to establish in her +own home. Of course there would be harmony where Luther Hansen was +concerned: Luther _was_ harmony. Ignoring his part in the little drama, +she was wise enough to touch the other side of the story in her reply. + +"These little ones bring blessings all their own, Sadie," she said, giving +the hand on the patchwork quilt a little squeeze. + +There was that in the impulsive little touch which was to be a lasting +reminder to Sadie Hansen that Elizabeth Hunter responded to the things +which were making of her life a different story. They had found common +ground, where neither scoffed at the other. + +"Did your baby make you feel that way?" she asked earnestly. + + * * * * * + +When Luther came at five o'clock to say that John was waiting he found +them, at peace, with the baby between them. + +Luther tucked Elizabeth and her child into the unprotected wagon seat with +concern. + +"This wind's a tartar. Pull th' covers down tight over its face, Lizzie. +What's become of th' buggy, Hunter?" + +Luther saw Elizabeth's face harden in a sudden contraction of pain, and +glanced across at John, but whatever there was about it that hurt belonged +to Elizabeth alone, for John Hunter pulled at the flapping laprobes +without seeming to have heard clearly and evidently thinking that the +remark was addressed to his wife. Dusk was falling, and Luther watched +them drive away with a premonition of trouble as the night seemed to close +in about them. He turned his back to the wind and stood humped over, +peering through the evening at their disappearing forms. He saw Elizabeth +snatch at the corner of the robe as they turned into the main road, and +dug his own hands deeper into his pockets with his attention turned from +Elizabeth and her possible trouble to that of the child. + +"Hope th' little feller don't ketch cold." He turned to the house filled +with his vision of a baby being cuddled close in a mother's arms, and with +a new understanding of the comfort of such cuddling. His breath flew +before him in a frosty stream when he entered the kitchen, and he hastened +to build a fire and set the teakettle on to heat. He lighted a lamp and +set it on a chair, and also stirred the fire in the little stove in +Sadie's room before he went to milk. + +"Wisht Lizzie'd come oftener. Wonder why she don't. She don't seem near as +stuck-up as she used to. Say, Luther, Lizzie told me th' queerest thing: +she says th' way a mother feels before a baby's born makes a difference. +She says if a woman's mean before a child comes It'll make th' young one +mean too. She told a lot of things that showed it's true, about folks we +know? I wonder how she learns everything? Ain't she smart! I wisht she'd +come oftener. Say, if I ever get that way again----" The sentence was +unfinished. + +"Wisht ours 'd 'a' lived," Luther said longingly. + +"Did Lizzie's baby make you feel that way too?" + +Luther went to milk with a song in his heart. The little word "too" told +more than all the discussions they had ever had. Sadie had not been +pleased about the coming of the child they had lost. + +"If I could get 'em together more," he said wistfully. "It was a good +thing t' have 'er see Lizzie an' 'er baby together. I hope th' little Tad +don't ketch cold. That laprobe didn't stay tucked in very well." + +As he rose from milking the last cow, his mind went back to his visitors. + +"Somethin' hurt Lizzie about th' buggy 'r somethin'--she's too peaked for +her, too." + +Luther's premonitions about the Hunter baby were only too well founded. +The cold was not serious, but there was a frightened skirmish for hot +water and lubricants before morning. The hoarse little cough gave way +under the treatment, but the first baby's first cold is always a thing of +grave importance to inexperienced parents, and Elizabeth knew that her +chances of getting to go home, or any other place, that winter, were +lessened. Her growing fear of neighbourhood criticism outgrew her fear of +refusal, however, and at the end of the next week she reminded her husband +that she had planned to take the child to see her mother. + +"You may be willing to take that child out again; I'm not," he replied +severely. + + * * * * * + +A bright idea struck Elizabeth's imagination after she had gone to bed +that night. Why not ask her own family, the Chamberlains, Aunt Susan's, +and Luther Hansen's to a Thanksgiving dinner? She was so elated by the +idea that she could hardly get to sleep at all, and before she could +settle herself to rest she had killed in her imagination the half dozen or +more turkeys she had raised that season. A big dinner given to those who +could act as mouthpieces would silence a lot of talk; also, it would take +away a certain questioning look the girl feared in Luther's and Aunt +Susan's eyes. The latter was the sorest point of her married life, and the +conviction that they were thinking much worse things than were true did +not make her any more comfortable. All Sunday she planned, and Sunday +night went to bed with the first secret thought she had ever harboured +from her husband's knowledge. + +Mrs. Hunter entered into the plan with zest when on Monday afternoon it +became necessary to tell her. She had begun to love her son's wife in +spite of her family history. Had Elizabeth known how to manage it she +could have made of John's mother a comfortable ally, but Elizabeth, with +characteristic straightforwardness, sought no alliance except the natural +one with her husband. The two women planned the articles to be served in +the dinner, and then turned to the discussion of other preparations about +the house. Elizabeth was proud of the home of which she was a part, but +her strength was limited since baby's coming, and after looking about her +critically decided that there would be no necessity for any more cleaning +than the regular weekly amount. + +"We'll have to get the cleaning done on Wednesday instead of Friday, but I +think that will be all that will be needed. The carpets were put down +fresh the week before you came home, and I don't intend to take them up +again till spring." + +"I think so," Mrs. Hunter agreed, "but You'll have to have the curtains in +the dining room washed, and the tidies and pillow-shams done up fresh." + +"Now, mother!" Elizabeth exclaimed, "don't begin to lay out work I can't +get done. The tidies are not hard, and I could do the shams, but those +curtains are not to be thought of. I'd be so tired if I had to go to work +and wash all that, after the washing I put on the line to-day, that I just +wouldn't be able to get the dinner on the table Thursday. Talking about +the dinner, I think we'd better have two turkeys. I can roast two by +putting them in the one big pan." + +Mrs. Hunter was willing that the younger woman should prove her talent as +a cook, but she planned to take some of the necessary things upon her own +shoulders, and to take her son into her schemes for brightening things up +a bit. Accordingly, the next morning she asked John to help her take the +curtains down. + +Elizabeth had been so full of her own plans that she had forgotten to tell +John's mother that she intended to keep them secret till she had all her +preparations made. The next morning when she heard the thud of some one +stepping down from a chair, and her husband say: "There you are! How do +you happen to be taking the curtains down at this time of the week?" she +realized as she had never done before how much afraid of him she really +was, for her pulses bounded, and her ears boomed like cannon, long before +John had time to appear in the door to inquire who was coming, and why +they were to do so. + +With a look very much like guilt, Elizabeth told over the names of her +proposed guests, but with Mrs. Hunter in the next room she could not tell +him why it meant so much to her to ask these people to dine with them. + +The customary protest was offered without delay. + +"I don't believe I'd do it, dear. Thanksgiving is a day for home folks, +not neighbours, and, besides, see all the work it will make." + +"The work is just what we choose to make it. If I'd known mother was going +to clean house I wouldn't have said anything about it," Elizabeth answered +sullenly. + +"Sh!" John Hunter said in a low tone and with a look of anger that was +direct and full of meaning. + +Elizabeth was ready to cry. She was angry. In every move she made she was +checkmated; not because it was not a good move, but because it was hers. +She could readily have given up any one thing as it came along, but the +true meaning and spirit of these interferences were beginning to dawn upon +her. However, once more she yielded to the unreasonable wishes of her +husband and the dinner was given up. She made no attempt to finish the +mincemeat they had planned to chop after dinner, but after putting the +baby to sleep threw a shawl about her and slipping out of the house ran to +the barn and down the creek in the pasture while John was helping his +mother rehang the freshly ironed curtains. + +They were only having two meals a day now that the corn was all picked, +and dinner came so late in the afternoon that there was already a blaze of +sunset colour in the west as she passed around the barn and started down +the bank of the stream. The sun had set, but was still reflected on the +heaps of billowy gray clouds just above the horizon. It made the snow in +front of her a delicate pink. The girl had not got far enough from the +house to see a sunset for months. The freshness and keenness of the air, +the colours in the sky, the grandeur and sublimity of it all chased away +her anger and left her in a mood to reason over her situation. She +followed the cow-path down to the bed of the stream and then threaded her +way along its winding route for a greater distance than she had ever gone +before. A broken willow barred her way after a time, and she climbed up on +its swaying trunk and let her feet dangle over the frozen streamlet below. +The snow made lighter than usual the early evening and extended the time +she could safely stay so far from the house. + +The colours faded rapidly from the sky and the bewildered girl returned to +her own affairs, which were puzzling enough. Of late she had found herself +unable to maintain her enthusiasm. She found herself increasingly +irritable--from her standpoint the one thing most to be despised in others +and which she had supposed most impossible in herself. There were so many +unforeseen possibilities within herself that she devoted her entire +attention to her own actions and impulses, and was completely drawn away +from the consideration of the motives of others by her struggle with the +elemental forces in which she found herself engulfed. The temper aroused +by John's objection to her Thanksgiving company had indications in spite +of the fact that she had controlled it. Elizabeth knew that she had but +barely kept her speech within the limits of kindliness and consideration +for Mrs. Hunter, who had not wished to frustrate her plans at all, and she +knew that she would be less likely to do so if the offence were repeated. +She knew that Mrs. Hunter tried with real honesty of purpose to keep on +good terms with her, and yet she also knew that she was increasingly +annoyed with whatever she did. There was an element of unfairness in her +attitude toward the older woman which alarmed her. + +"I'm just like pa, after all," she thought as she swung her feet and +looked in a troubled way down at the frozen stream below. + +Elizabeth reflected that when Aunt Susan, or Silas, or Luther Hansen came +into the house she became instantly her own buoyant, optimistic self: not +that she intentionally feigned such feelings for the benefit of her +company, but she felt the presence of trust, of faith in herself and her +powers. She did not recognize that such trust was necessary to the +unfoldment of character, nor even that it was her birthright. + +The girl watched the gathering twilight and deliberately let the time pass +without attempting to return to the house until compelled to do so by real +darkness, realizing that some beneficial thing was happening in her in +this free out-of-doors place, for she was less annoyed and more analytical +with each breath she drew in it. + +"If only I'd take time to do this sort of thing I'd be more as I ought to +be," she meditated when she had at last risen to go home. "I won't be like +pa! I won't! I won't!" she reiterated many times as she walked back, over +the frozen cow-path. "I'll come here every few days. Ma and pa were born +to be happy, only they never took time to be." + +And though John was cross because the baby had cried in her absence, +Elizabeth felt that she had been helped by getting away from him. She +accepted her husband's reproaches without reply, and was able to forget +them even while they were still issuing from his mouth. She kept her +temper down all that week, and though the Thanksgiving invitations were +not sent, she cooked the dinner and put as many hours into its concoction +as if she had had all the people she had hoped to have about her board to +eat it, and she was so sunny and natural as she served it that John did +not even guess that she was governing herself consciously. She stayed at +home the next Sunday and the next, and John Hunter was unaware that she +was endeavouring to surrender herself to his will. + +"She'll get over wanting to run somewhere all the time," he told his +mother, and Mrs. Hunter, to whom these people were not pleasing, agreed +with him, and thought that it was just as well if it were so, not +realizing that the girl lived alone in their house and that she might have +an attitude toward these people distinctly different from theirs. + +This winter, like the preceding one, passed with Elizabeth at home. There +was no peace to be had if she thought of going anywhere for any purpose +whatever. Elizabeth went nowhere and required few clothes. The cold the +child had caught on that first trip to Luther's was sufficient excuse to +prevent any further foolishness on the part of its mother. However, a trip +to town was in waiting for Elizabeth Hunter and was proposed by John +Hunter himself. + +There had been a "warm spell" in the month of February and John had asked +Elizabeth to help him with the pump in the barnyard, which had been +working badly for days. It was Saturday evening, and Jake and the other +hired man had been granted time off that day; the pump had refused to work +at all after they were gone, and with a hundred cattle waiting for water +it was necessary to impress any one available with the duty of helping. +Elizabeth was more than willing to help: it meant a couple of hours out of +doors. They had worked industriously and their efforts were about crowned +with success when Mrs. Hunter came out to them with the baby wrapped in a +warm shawl. John tossed aside the extra piece of leather he had cut from +the top of an old boot and fitted the round piece in his hand about the +sucker. + +"Now, mother, you shouldn't bring that child out here; You'll have him +sick on our hands again," he said. + +"Oh, lots of children go out of doors in winter. I took you out whenever I +wanted to, and you've lived to tell the tale," his mother said easily, +seating herself on the end of the trough. + +"Well, I don't want anything to happen to him for a few days, I can tell +you. I want you to keep him and let Elizabeth go in to town with me and +sign the mortgage on this eighty, Monday," John replied, examining the +valve with great attention. + +"Why, I thought this eighty was already mortgaged!" Mrs. Hunter +exclaimed. + +"Well, it is," John replied uneasily, "but I've got to raise the interest +before I can get that bunch of shoats ready to sell, and I've got to do it +that way." + +He did not look at either of the two women, but kept himself very busy +about the rod and sucker he was manipulating. + +Mrs. Hunter seldom remarked upon anything that was done about the farm, +but this was surprising news. _A second mortgage_ on part of the land! She +had just opened her mouth to speak, when she happened to glance across at +her daughter-in-law. Elizabeth's face was white. Something in it implored +Mrs. Hunter to go away, to leave them to have the matter out together, and +the older woman took her cue from it and went with a haste which caused +her son to look up from the piston with which he fumbled. + +"She's gone to the house; I motioned to her to go," Elizabeth announced. +"She don't know much about mortgages, but she knows this won't do. You +told me last week that the hogs would be ready in time. My soul alive, +John! do you realize what you are doing? This is the home-eighty! What's +happened to the hogs?" + +"Say, look here! If I want to mortgage this eighty, I'm going to do it. +Those hogs are just where it pays to feed them. If I sell now, I'll lose +half the profits." + +John got up and faced her ready to fight, if fight he must on this +question. He had chosen an opportune time to tell it, but he meant to do +as he wished about those hogs and the land and whatever else they +possessed. He hated to open a discussion, but he did not hate to continue +one after he had made the plunge. He had feasible reasons for all that he +did. + +Elizabeth saw that he meant to insist and she resented the deception he +had practised in securing this loan without telling her, but the danger +was so great that she could not afford to let her feelings blind her, nor +to put the thing in a bad light by seeming to wrangle about it. She looked +at him steadily, so steadily, in fact, that John was disconcerted. The +work in hand gave excuse for withdrawing his eyes and Elizabeth watched +him arrange the knot of the rope so that they could lower the pipe back +into the well. The girl did not begin to speak at once: she marshalled her +forces and considered what manner of argument she would put forth. She +knew that every piece of land they possessed except the Mitchell County +pastures was covered with one third of its value in incumbrances. If the +interest was hard to meet now, what would it be three years hence? She had +come to understand that the man she had married was not a farmer. She +helped him lower the long pipe into the well, and watched him try the pump +handle to see if the sucker would work. It was slow in drawing, and she +filled a small pail from the trough and poured it into the pump head. +After a few sputtering strokes the water began to come freely, and then +she had to wait for the pumping to stop before she could make herself +heard above its rumblings. + +John Hunter knew perfectly well that Elizabeth was waiting and prolonged +the work till the great trough was full. When it began to overflow and +there was no further need for drawing water, he turned abruptly toward the +gate where the cattle were. Elizabeth had waited in the frosty air till +she was chilled from standing and could not remain for the stock to drink +before she had a chance to go to the house. + +"I want to talk to you before those cattle come out here," she said, more +hurt by his avoidance of her now than she had been by the original +deception; he was really ignoring her as a factor in their mutual affairs. +"I have to protest against this mortgage, John. We ought to keep a small +home free at least, and instead of putting more on this eighty we ought to +sell enough of the stuff to pay off on this part. Every farmer in this +country has his nose on the interest grindstone, and my life has been +spoiled with it ever since I can remember. Please, dear, let's not put a +second mortgage on this eighty." + +In her anxiety to get John's attention Elizabeth went forward and put her +hand on his arm, forgetting in her earnestness the slight he had just +shown toward her in ignoring her claims to a voice in the matter. + +John Hunter shook off the detaining hand impatiently. + +"If you're going to run this business you may as well do it without my +help and I'll quit," he said, his body braced away from her with the plain +intimation that he preferred that she should not touch him. + +Elizabeth hesitated. Her impulse was to turn and leave him without further +words, but the farm, their future comfort, the whole scheme of family +peace and harmony depended upon obtaining a hearing. + +"I don't want to run things--really, I do not. I've never tried to, but +I've lived on a farm, and I know how impossible it is ever to raise a +mortgage if you get it on a place. I--let's sell enough to raise the one +we have on this eighty while we can, instead. I'm willing to live on a +little; but, oh, John, I do so want to have one place that is our own." + +"There's money in those cattle," John answered sullenly. "A woman don't +know anything about such things. You'll go and get mother started on it +too, I suppose. I'm going to do as I see fit about it, anyhow. I know +there's money to be made there." + +With a great sob in her throat, Elizabeth turned to the house. + +"Look here, Elizabeth," John called after her peremptorily. + +Elizabeth stopped respectfully to listen, but she did not return to his +side. John waited, thinking she would come to him. + +"Cattle ain't like ordinary farming," he argued with a flush of anger. "A +man simply has to take time to let steers grow into money. We haven't been +at it a long enough time. Those big steers will be ready to feed this +fall, and corn's going to be cheap. We'd be cutting off our noses to spite +our own faces to sell now." + +"Perhaps," the girl replied bitterly, and went on to the house. + +She knew that John had argued with the hope of getting her to admit +herself in the wrong, not to hear her side of the case. + +John Hunter gazed after his retreating wife in vexed petulance for a +moment and then, with a sigh of relief, turned toward the waiting cattle. + +"She'll be ready when I want to go to town all the same," he reflected. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + +MORTGAGES OF SOUL + + +The mortgage was signed. The fine weather had brought many people to +Colebyville. Elizabeth had not been in town for a year, and the sight of +pleasant, happy folk greeting each other cordially and wandering from +store to store bartering eggs and butter for groceries and family +necessities, and exchanging ideas and small talk about their purchases, +had accentuated her isolation. Those people who knew her spoke to her +also, but with an air of suspicion and reserve. A puzzling feature of the +day had been that John had received a more cordial reception than she had. +The main suspicion had been directed against her. There seemed to be a +certain acceptance of John's "stuck-upness." He had some reason for his +attitude toward them which they were inclined to accept, but Elizabeth saw +that to this community she was a "beggar on horseback." Instead of seeing +that the man who had thrust her into this false relation was utterly +inadequate to realize it, or that if he realized it he was utterly +indifferent to her sufferings in it, she inquired into her own failure to +get his attention, and felt that he was after all a better husband than +any she had ever known, with few exceptions. John had managed to add to +her confusion where he was concerned that day by being floridly insistent +upon her spending a generous sum upon her purchases and taking as much +interest in what she bought as a woman. There had been so much to buy that +Elizabeth's economical soul had been torn by the desire to cut down the +expense. The baby was ready for short clothes and there had been materials +for little dresses, stockings, little shoes, a hood and cloak, to get for +him alone, and Elizabeth saw in every dollar spent a dollar lost at +interest-paying time. John had been happy and genial on the way home and +had altogether treated her so much better than her mood had permitted her +to treat him that there was a bit of self-accusation in her meditations. +Everything had gone wrong. The waters of human affection ran everywhere in +the wrong direction. She desired understanding between herself and her +husband; her attitude toward the community in which they lived had been +one of friendliness, her attitude toward Aunt Susan and Luther one of +whole-hearted love, her attitude toward this family of which she found +herself a part that of a devoted slave, yet nowhere had she been able to +make proper alliances. Some curious defeating element had crept into every +relation life offered her. While the rest ate supper that night, +Elizabeth, who had no appetite and was too sick with a sense of failure to +eat, nursed her baby and meditated upon the indications of the day's +occurrences. Forgetting her surroundings, she drew in a fluttering, +sobbing breath. Jake Ransom, across the corner of the table, caught the +sound of that sob and flashed a quick glance in her direction. His eyes +were as quickly withdrawn, but Elizabeth knew without looking up that he +had heard. With a desire to escape observation, she made an excuse of +putting the baby away and went to the bedroom with the child. Slipping him +into his little nightdress she made him comfortable for the night, after +which she went back to the dining room to keep Jake from thinking she had +anything to cry about. There was an added hum of voices, and she went in +with some curiosity. + +Silas Chamberlain stood beside the stove with his old cap and his +home-knit mittens under his arm, while he leaned over the welcome fire. +The blues were gone instantly. There was such a glad light in her eyes as +she advanced to meet him that Jake Ransom wondered if he had been mistaken +in the quivering breath, and there was such genuine pleasure in her +surprised greeting that Silas Chamberlain was warmed and fed by it. + +"Where's that baby?" he demanded. "You ain't gone an' tucked him into bed +this time o' night, have you? I come special t' see 'im." + +For months Elizabeth had wanted to see Silas and the baby in a "free for +all tumble" and her eyes danced with delight at the idea. She had not had +such a thrill in many weeks; the young mother spoke in every line of her +young face. As if by magic her troubles fell away from her. Crooking her +finger beckoningly at the old man, she crept on tiptoe to the bedroom +door. She had left a lamp lighted in the room and it was possible to +observe the baby without him being aware of their presence. Silas had +crept behind her like an Indian stalking a deer, and she caught his +suppressed breath as she turned with her finger on her lips at the door. +The rest of the group trailed behind with anticipatory grins. + +Master John Hunter lay on the bed, very wide awake, making sputtering +efforts to devour his thumb, while he kicked his little feet as vigorously +as the confines of the pinning-blanket would allow. + +Silas chuckled. Hearing a noise at the door, the heir of the house rolled +his head on his pillow till his mother's face came within the range of his +vision. Her absence that day had made the child more than usually eager +for her presence. The little feet kicked more wildly than ever, and +forgetting the generous slice of thumb still to be devoured, he grinned +such a vast and expansive grin that the hand to which the thumb was +attached, being free, joined the other in waving salutations of such +joyful pantomime that the object of his industrious beckonings, completely +carried into the current, rushed at him and, sweeping him up in her arms, +tossed him on high as gleefully as if she had not been weighed down by +care but a moment before the old man's advent into the room. + +"There, Mr. Chamberlain, was there ever another like him?" she cried. + +Baby, who had come down from a point as high as his mother's arms could +reach, doubled his fat little body together with a smothered, squeezed off +little gurgle of delight. Silas was aquiver with sympathetic glee. Those +were not the days when babies were raised by scientific rules, and Silas +caught the child from its mother's arms and repeated the tossing process, +while the baby shouted and struggled. At last the three, followed by the +family, retired to convenient chairs about the sitting-room fire. + +"Now, Jack Horner, you can pare that thumb down a leetle more if you want +t'. You've swallowed enough wind to give you the colic for a day or two," +Silas said when the child began to hiccough. + +Elizabeth clapped her hands delightedly. + +"You have named the baby!" she exclaimed. + +"How's that?" Silas asked. + +"Oh, John can't bear to have him called Johnnie, and John is too awfully +old for him now. Little Jack Horner--no, Little Jack Hunter. I'm so glad! +I just do love it; and we had called him Baby till I was afraid we'd never +quit it," Elizabeth said. + +They kept the old man as long as they could induce him to stay, and when +he did go home it was with the settled conviction that he had been wanted. +He described the visit enthusiastically to Liza Ann and tried to induce +her to go over to see Elizabeth the next Sunday. Silas craved the +privilege of that baby's presence. + +"I know, Si," his wife replied, "but she could come here if she wanted to. +It's her fool notions. John was th' greatest hand t' go you ever saw till +he married her, an' now he don't go nowhere, an' when I asked him about +it, he said she wasn't well! She's as well as any woman that's nursin', +an' she's got his mother t' help 'er too." + +"Well, I don't pretend t' know th' why's an' th' wherefores of it, but I +do know there ain't a stuck-up bone in 'er body--I don't care what nobody +says," loyal Silas Chamberlain replied. + +The new mood stayed with Elizabeth Hunter and called for much perplexed +introspection. It had been a perplexing day. There was no reason that she +could assign for her contradictory actions. She found herself even +softened toward John and able to enter into his attempt to be sociable +after Silas's departure. He seemed to be anxious to set himself before her +in a kindlier light and she was able to meet the attempt as he wished. +Elizabeth lost faith in herself as she saw her apparent whimsicalness and +began to lash herself into line as John and his mother wished. She asked +no more to be taken places. + +In May, Luther came to help John with his team, and for the first time in +months Elizabeth saw a neighbour woman. Luther lifted Sadie down from the +high seat with as much care as if she had been a child. + +"Sadie's lonesome at the house alone all day, an' it was good of you, +Lizzie, t' ask 'er," he said as he climbed back into the wagon. + +Elizabeth wanted a visit with Luther, himself, but was less fearful of a +day with Sadie than she had been. She took her guest into the house and at +the sitting-room door paused to point to Master Jack, who sat on an old +quilt with a pillow at his back, digging his little heels into the floor +and holding out dimpled hands imploringly. + +"You darling child!" Sadie cried, going down on her knees at his side and +hugging him till he sent up an indignant howl. "Isn't he cunnin'? Isn't +he?" she cried, releasing him and subsiding into a doubled figure by his +side. "Honestly, Lizzie, why don't you bring him over?" + +She looked so insistent, that she had to be answered. + +"I don't go any place, Sadie," Elizabeth answered truthfully. + +"Is it so, that Mr. Hunter won't take you?" Sadie asked, and then at sight +of the anger in Elizabeth's face rose to her knees and laid her hand on +her arm hastily. "I didn't say that to hurt; honestly, Lizzie, I didn't. +I'm trying not to do that this time." + +Elizabeth's indignation was cooled slightly by the genuineness of the +speech, but she did not understand the last sentence till her eye happened +to fall on Sadie's form. In a flash she saw what was meant. Forgetting her +hurt, she was silent from pure delight. She knew what a child would mean +in that home. The other misunderstood her silence and hastened on with her +apologies: + +"Honest, Lizzie, I didn't want to hurt, but they do say such mean things +about it that I want you t' know. Why don't you ever take Mrs. Hunter and +th' baby and go t' meetin'?" + +Elizabeth's face went white as she realized that she must continue to +answer since she had begun. + +"I don't care in the least what they say, Sadie, and I don't want you ever +to mention this to me again," she said sternly. + +Sadie's face worked in silent misery till she could control her voice. + +"You won't be mad at me, Lizzie? I told Luther I wouldn't be mean t' +nobody till _it_ was born," she said with quivering lip. + +Elizabeth took some seconds to consider the thing that had been told to +her. It was of far more importance than the gossip Sadie had just hinted +at, but the gossip must be answered first. + +"I won't be mad at you at all," she said after a moment. "That is, I won't +if I never have to listen to such things again. I don't care in the least, +if I don't have to hear it. Don't ever come to me again with anything that +anybody says. Now, then, tell me about yourself. I half believe you're +glad of it." + +"Glad?" Sadie told her secret, which could be a secret no more. Luther had +wanted the child, and she had come to the point of wanting it for his +sake, and the sight of chubby Jack Hunter had aroused the latent mother +love in her till, as she talked, her eyes shone with the brightness of +imaginative maternity. She implored Elizabeth to come to her aid when the +day of her labour arrived in September, and rambled along telling of their +preparations for its coming, and little home incidents, disclosing a home +life of so sweet a character that if Elizabeth Hunter had not been sincere +and utterly without jealousy she would have drawn the discussion to a +close. + +The incident had a peculiar effect upon Elizabeth. She began really to +like Sadie, and all her old desire for harmony in the home welled up in +her anew. The old attitude of self-blame was assumed also. Here was Sadie +Crane, the most spiteful girl that had ever been raised on these prairies, +able to command the love and respect of the man she had married, to do +things because her husband desired them, even so difficult a thing as the +bearing of children, and she, Elizabeth, had failed to accomplish any of +these things. There was a renewed resolve to be more patient. Elizabeth +hated sulking, and the remembrance of the day when she had gone to sign +the mortgage and had been unable to respond to John's good-humoured +willingness to get abundant supplies because she saw the money going out +so fast was fixed in her mind with new significance. Here was Sadie doing +the things that her husband wished of her and obtaining not only his love +but her own self-respect, while she, Elizabeth, was able to command +neither. Instead of reasoning upon the differences between the two +husbands, Elizabeth reasoned on the differences between her own actions +and those of Sadie, and from the results of that reasoning entered upon a +period of self-denial and abject devotion to the man of her choice. John +Hunter accepted this new devotion with satisfied serenity, and, not being +obstructed in any of his little exactions, became more cheerful and +agreeable to live with. This added to Elizabeth's conviction that the +difficulty had been somewhat within herself. She ceased to ask for the +things which caused friction, and there was a season of comparative +peace. + +In July, however, a new phase of the old difficulty arose. Nathan and +Susan Hornby were driving past the Hunter house one Sunday afternoon. +Elizabeth saw them and with a glad little shout ran to the road to greet +them. + +Susan Hornby's delight was fully equal to her own. The two persuaded +Nathan to wait till Aunt Susan should have time to go into the house and +see the baby. Nathan would not go in, but sat waiting in offended +aloofness in the wagon. + +"Why don't you come to see me, Elizabeth?" Aunt Susan whispered as they +went back to the wagon. "He's always loved you so, but he thinks--well, +he's always been so good to me about everything else, but his feelings are +awfully hurt about you. Can't you come soon?" She looked into the girl's +face with such a wealth of pent-up love that Elizabeth answered +positively: + +"I will come next Sunday, Aunt Susan. You may look for us, for we'll be +there." + +The glad look in Susan Hornby's eyes was a sad reproach to the younger +woman, and though Elizabeth wondered how she would get her husband's +consent, she made up her mind to force him by every means in her power to +comply. All through the week she had it upon her mind, but Elizabeth had +learned not to open a discussion till the necessity of action was upon +her, and it was not till Sunday morning that she mentioned the visit to +John. + +Nothing but the pleading in Susan Hornby's face could have induced +Elizabeth to ask to be taken to see her at this time, but the troubled +whispering of Aunt Susan about this visit had awakened Elizabeth to the +tragedy of her neglect. Susan Hornby had never before whispered where +Nathan was concerned before. Elizabeth at last saw the loneliness of the +old couple. It would never do to continue such treatment of those who had +befriended her when she was in need. + +Jack was fretful that Sunday morning and John walked the floor with him +while Elizabeth finished her breakfast dishes. The breakfast had been late +and it was time to get ready if they were to go. Her heart sank as she +approached the subject. Jack had not slept well of late. He was not ill, +but teething. Always a light sleeper, Elizabeth had kept the fact of his +indisposition to herself, hoping that John, who slept soundly, might not +be aware of it, but the baby had fretted in the daytime and was now +tossing restlessly in his father's arms. Elizabeth was worn out from the +loss of sleep and was half afraid to trust herself to make the request, +because it would require politic treatment to get John in the mood. If she +became vexed or upset by his opposition she would lose her opportunity. +Elizabeth was weaker than John when her feelings were ruffled. She had +planned and waited till the last moment, afraid of herself and afraid of +her husband. She looked at him as he paced back and forth, back and forth, +with a torrent of longing swelling up in her and threatening to bring her +tears. She must find a way to get his ear. + +"Let me take Jack," she said, hoping that something in the conversation +would give her a natural opening for what must come. + +"Poor little chap," John replied, releasing the child. + +Elizabeth was bathed in perspiration from the hurry of having late +breakfast and the fact that she would never dare to ask to be taken before +all the work was done and the kitchen ready for close inspection, and she +thought indignantly of the scrubbed floors of yesterday and wondered how +the child could be expected to be well when he was fed on overheated milk +day after day. Instantly she put the thought away from her. She must be +cool and careful if she were to get to Aunt Susan's to-day. + +"I'll sponge him off with soda in his bath and he'll be all right. I told +Aunt Susan we'd take dinner with them to-day, and it's nearly half-past +ten now. They have dinner at noon on Sunday as well as other days; so run +and hitch up, and I'll be ready with baby. I'll have your things laid out +so you can jump right into them when you come in." + +She looked down at the baby so as not to meet his eye, but the offhand +assumption of his readiness to go seemed to her to be encouraging. + +"With that child?" was the astonished exclamation. + +"It won't hurt him as much as for me to stand over the stove and cook a +dinner at home," Elizabeth answered firmly, "and, besides, John, I +promised Aunt Susan we'd come. Now don't be cross. I've got to go, and +that's all there is about it." + +John Hunter was actually astonished now. He had started out with his usual +pretenses, but this was something new. Elizabeth had promised without +consulting him! What was happening? + +"You may be willing to take that child out in his condition--I'm not," he +said severely. "I don't understand what you're thinking about." + +"_I'm_ thinking there'd be less harm to him in a day of rest for his +mother than anything else," she said bitterly, "and I am not allowed to +get a minute of it in this house. _You'd_ let me heat his milk to the +boiling point to get dinner and think it was what we both deserved!" + +She was instantly dismayed at what she had done. She had spit out all the +actuality of her convictions in spite of every effort not to reply +unkindly when he was unfair to her. She could not afford to retort sharply +to-day. She must resort to other tactics if she were to win to-day. +Besides, the truth was only a half-truth. John did not in his heart wish +either of them harm; he was just a blind sort of bossing creature who had +somehow got into command of her and enjoyed bullying her and setting tasks +to keep her occupied. He owned her, however, and she must court his +consent to this visit. + +"Please, dear. I told Aunt Susan we'd come. I'd--I'd have told you +before--only--only I was afraid you'd not be willing--and then I'd get to +crying and give up--and I've got to go. Now don't be cross. Go this once +good-naturedly." + +To get close to him she put her hand on his arm and put up her face +coaxingly for a kiss. + +John Hunter ignored his wife's signal for tender relations and shook off +her hand impatiently without looking at her. + +"Even if Jack were well I wouldn't go away and leave mother alone all +day." John moved restlessly away from her. + +Elizabeth would not give up. + +"I'll manage mother. She'll go if I insist." John was edging toward the +door. "Anyhow I told Aunt Susan I'd come." John was going through the +door. "Please hurry. We must be on our way pretty soon," she called after +his receding back. + +Elizabeth's lips tightened with vexation at the contempt shown by his +refusal to answer, and then loosened and spread into an amused smile. + +"He can be just as mad as he wants to. I stuck to it and am going to get +to go. It's better than to give up to him all the time." + +She turned into the sitting room and putting the baby on the floor emptied +the clothespin bag in his lap to keep him occupied, and flew up the stairs +to Mrs. Hunter's room. + +"Mother, we're going to Aunt Susan's to-day and you are to go with us. Now +don't say you aren't, for it is settled," she said, slipping her hand over +the older woman's mouth to prevent the objection she saw coming, but +nothing she would do or say would persuade the older woman to go. + +"I'll settle that with John when he comes in," Mrs. Hunter said, slipping +away from the restraining hand. "There's no reason why you should stay at +home on my account and I will not have it done," was all that she could +get out of her. + +"But John will not go without you!" Elizabeth cried in dismay. + +The girl was tempted to tell her of the gossip she had heard, but it +suddenly seemed small and not worth while. She had already told her that +Aunt Susan had her promise to come in time for dinner; it occurred to her +to tell her of Nathan's attitude toward them for their unfriendly neglect, +but that too seemed unnecessary and trivial since they were going. On that +point Elizabeth did not intend to give in an inch: she was going, even if +John _was_ cross about it. + +"Yes, he will go without me, for I'll see that he does," Mrs. Hunter +assured her, and with that Elizabeth was content. + +Taking the baby to her own room, she undressed and bathed him and then +arrayed him in the daintiest white dress she had for him, determined that +Aunt Susan should see him at his best. As she nursed him so that he would +drop off to sleep till they were ready to go, she looked long and +earnestly at the soft skin and dark lashes of his baby face and realized +as she had never done before the loneliness of the old couple whom they +were going to visit. The little Katie of that house had been taken from +them at about this age. A sob arose in Elizabeth's throat when she +considered how they had besought her for an opportunity to pour the +dammed-up stream of their love at the feet of this child, and how slighted +their efforts had been. + +Jack was wide-eyed and would not sleep, and after losing much valuable +time his mother set him in the middle of the bed and began her own +preparations. As she looked about for something suitable to wear, she saw +a simple white percale with red dots scattered over it, which she had worn +the summer she had lived in Aunt Susan's house. So little had she gone out +and so free from personal vanity was she that it was still eligible to +best wear. Besides, it had associations that were pleasant. + +"Why, I made it in Aunt Susan's own house," she said aloud. + +She looked down at it wistfully; those had been happy days. + +A sudden impulse made her drop her heavy hair from its coil high on her +head and, picking up her comb, divide it with deft movement. Brushing it +into shape, she braided it as of old, in two braids, and then fished with +rapturous fingers in her ribbon box for the bows she had always worn with +that dress. When the bows were tied she put the braids back with a +characteristic toss of the head and stood looking at herself in the +glass. + +"There now, he can't be cross after that," she said, feeling more as if +she were her real self than she had done for many months. + +Jack was restless and cried. Elizabeth turned to him with a start. + +"You blessed baby! Your mother was way off and had forgotten that there +was such a small person as you." + +She sat down and nursed him again to fill in the time till his father +should come and dress. This time he seemed sleepy, and Elizabeth sang +happily to him, kissing his pink palm and satisfying the maternal instinct +in her by softly stroking his plump body. He had never looked so fair to +her in all the months that she had had him. John was long in coming and +she fell into a dreamy state of maternal comfort as she rocked, and forgot +the hour and the place and the dinner that would soon be waiting at Aunt +Susan's, till the baby went to sleep in her arms. + +When Jack was at last soundly asleep she placed him on the bed, covering +him with a piece of white mosquito netting to keep the flies from +disturbing him, and, rearranging dress and ribbons, went into the sitting +room to see what time it was. An exclamation of dismay escaped her. It was +but ten minutes to twelve o'clock! She had dreamed much longer than she +had been aware. In a fever of hurry she ran back to the bedroom and laid +out John's best suit. That had pleasant associations also. But what could +be keeping him so long when it was time to go? As soon as everything was +in order she ran to the barn to see what the trouble was. John came out as +she neared the barn door, talking to Jake, who followed leisurely. + +"Are you ready to dress?" she asked hastily, vexed at the signs of +loitering. + +"Dress? Why--what? Oh, I forgot. I told you I didn't want to go," he said +impatiently. + +"Well, you're going to take me if it is late," she said firmly. "Aunt +Susan was told that we'd come, and she has dinner waiting this minute. +Jake, put the horses in the wagon while Mr. Hunter dresses, and be as +quick about it as you can." + +"The horses--th' horses are in th' pasture, Lizzie," Jake said hesitantly. +"I didn't know an'--an'--I--an' we turned 'em out an hour ago." + +Jake Ransom saw the colour die out of the young face and understood +exactly what had happened. He saw her turn without a look at her husband +and start to the house, bowed and broken and without hope. Jake understood +that a trick had been played on her, for he had been slow about turning +the horses out and John had untied and led the team used for driving to +the pasture gate himself. + +"I don't know whether I kin ketch 'em 'r not, but I'll try," he called +after her. + +Elizabeth turned back hopefully, but John said + +"Now look here, Elizabeth, those horses have been playing like mad for +half an hour, and you could no more catch them than you could fly." +Turning to Jake, "I'll take Mrs. Hunter next Sunday if she's just got to +go. A man wants to rest when Sunday comes," he added under his breath. + +Jake Ransom watched Elizabeth drag her listless feet up the steps and shot +a look of disdain at the back of John Hunter as he followed her. + +"You dirty cuss!" he exclaimed under his breath. "Lizzie's as good a woman +as th' is in this country, an' she don't git nothin' she wants. I bet I +see t' gittin' them horses ready next Sunday myself." + +Going into her bedroom, Elizabeth Hunter laid off the finery of girlhood, +and with it her girlhood also. + +"I'll never ask him again," she told herself, and put her hair back into +its woman's knot and went to the kitchen and began dinner. + + * * * * * + +Susan Hornby shaded her eyes with her hand, and looked up the road for the +fortieth time. + +"The baby must be worse, Nate," she said to her husband when at last there +had to be a discussion of the matter. + +Nathan Hornby followed her into the kitchen and helped to take up the +dinner which had been waiting over an hour. His head burned with +indignation, but there was something in Susan's defeat which brooked no +discussion on his side. They had come as near quarrelling over this +invitation as they had ever done about anything in their married life. + +As they sat at the table eating their belated dinner, a lonely horseman +appeared coming down the road from the west. + +"It's Jake! I wonder if he's going for the doctor?" Susan exclaimed. "You +never can tell what anybody has to contend with." And the meal was left to +cool unfinished as the old couple left the house and hailed the rider. + +"I didn't hear nothin' about th' baby bein' worse," Jake was obliged to +answer when put under question. + +He was so conscious that Elizabeth would not approve of the truth being +told that he stammered and made his listeners feel that something was left +untold. In fact, Jake's reticence was of the exact quality to add to the +distrust already aroused. He edged away at last and left Susan Hornby +looking at her husband in such a state that Nathan was moved to say: + +"Never mind, Sue, I'll take you over after dinner and you can see for +yourself." + +Susan Hornby turned and started to the house. Nathan followed her aquiver +with the slight that his common sense told him had been put upon her by +those whom she had so faithfully and fully served. + +Susan stumbled and put her hands to her head with a harsh laugh. Nathan +hurried forward a step and looked searchingly into her face. With a great +sob, he put his arms about her. Susan paid not the slightest attention to +him, but let herself be guided along the path without actual resistance. +Her face was flushed and her eyes did not see. She went docilely to her +room and permitted the stricken husband to place her on the bed, where he +loosened her collar and, removing her clothing, dressed her for bed as if +she had been a little child. When nothing more could be done, he knelt by +her and fondling her unresponsive hand let the tears he could no longer +control pour over his ashen cheeks. + +"Don't you know me, Sue? Don't you know your old Nate at all?" he +quavered, but there was no reply except the puffing breath which was every +moment growing more and more laboured. Nathan knew what it meant--she had +been so once before. + +As the Hunter family sat about the dinner table on Tuesday, Silas +Chamberlain drove up to the side gate, and after tying his team came to +the door. He entered when bidden, but would not sit down, and looked about +him with an effort to adjust his impressions with what he saw before him. + +"Ain't you goin' t' th' funeral?" he asked when he saw that there seemed +to be no air of mourning in the house. + +"Funeral?" John Hunter exclaimed. "Who's dead?" + +"I told Nate Hornby you didn't know nothin' about it." + +"Hornby? We haven't heard of any one being dead. Who is it?" John Hunter +asked, puzzled at the reticence of the old man, who stood with his straw +hat in his hand and slid his fingers about its greasy brim uneasily. + +"Is--is it possible you all didn't know Mrs. Hornby was sick?" he asked, +unable to lift his eyes. + +There was a low cry from Elizabeth Hunter, the noise of her escape to the +privacy of her own room, the sound of moans and cries after the door was +shut, and Silas Chamberlain paid bitter toll for delivering his message. +The family sat stunned and silent in the presence of those sounds of +grief. The bowed head of the old man told his comprehension of the news +and left Jake Ransom with an understanding of him which words could never +have given. + +As soon as Elizabeth could get control of her feelings and command her +scattered senses, she snatched her bonnet from the chair beside the bed +where she had dropped it before dinner and flew to the dining room again, +her one impulse to get to the side of the friend whose spirit had gone +from her. Going to Silas, she clutched him by the arm with fingers that +sank into the flesh like a vise. + +"Take me to her!--take me now!" she cried, pushing him toward the door. + +"I'll take you, Elizabeth," John Hunter said, rising, and Jake Ransom saw +the look of nameless horror she took on at thought of her husband's +presence. + +"Take me to her at once, Mr. Chamberlain. Do, for God's sake, take me to +her!" she cried, and pulled the old man through the door with nervous +hands, and then ran down the path before him and began to pull at the +straps with which the horses were tied. + +John followed them out, still protesting that he would take her himself if +she would wait, but without a look in his direction she urged Silas on. + +"Hurry! Hurry! Do!" she implored, and Silas gave the horses such a sharp +slap with the lines that they started on a swift trot almost before they +were seated, leaving John Hunter in the midst of his expostulations. + +"I'll bring her back safe," Silas called over his shoulder. + +Now that no further action was possible, Elizabeth sat with her hands +clasped, her teeth set, and her eyes looking into vacancy, numbed beyond +words, asking no questions and making no complaints. Silas's heart beat +with an anguish of sympathy. He stopped at his own house a moment to tell +Liza Ann that he would come back for her within the hour, and still +Elizabeth gave no sign of realizing what was going on about her. + +At last a terrible thought took hold of Silas, and he pulled up his team, +which was sweating heavily. + +"You ain't fit t' go, Lizzie. You ain't fit t' go, child. I'm goin' t' +take you back home." He began to turn the horses' heads toward home, and +then stopped for her wandering wits to gather. + +"Why, oh, why don't you hurry?" Elizabeth exclaimed when she realized that +they were standing still. + +The old man's heart was torn with pity, and it was in the voice of a +mother that he addressed her. + +"You ain't fit t' go," he repeated. "I'm going t' take you back home." +There was a white look about her mouth that frightened him. + +The girl grasped his arm with fingers that closed with a grip like a +drowning person. + +"I couldn't see her when she was living--surely I can see her dead." Then +with a wail, "Oh, no--no, not dead! Oh, my God!" + +She sobbed in a dry sort of way that contracted Silas's throat to witness, +and left the old man almost as undone as herself, and without further +argument he drove on to Nathan Hornby's desolated home, where he lifted +her tenderly down from the high seat, with a mist before his eyes that +blurred her image till it was unrecognizable, and stood watching her go up +the path. + +A woman met her at the door, but she did not know who, and brushed past +her hurriedly and ran into the kitchen, where she could see Nathan Hornby +sitting with his head on his arms beside the kitchen table. + +Going down on her knees with a swift movement, Elizabeth threw her arm +across his shoulder, and laid her head beside his, sobbing convulsively. +Nathan raised his head in dull surprise, and seeing who it was, shook her +arm off resentfully and rose to his feet. Elizabeth crawled after him on +her knees and clasped his own with both arms, turning her stricken face up +to his and crying: + +"Oh, I know! I know how you feel, but truly, truly, Uncle Nate, I am not +to blame. For God's sake--for God's sake, forgive!" + +He looked down on her coldly and was tempted to spurn her from him with +his foot, but there was such anguish in voice and eye as he himself had +hardly felt, and his wife's words, her last words, flashed through his +bewildered brain: "We can't tell what anybody has to contend with." He +stood irresolute while she rose to her feet. When he did not answer her, +Elizabeth threw herself down in the chair from which he had just risen and +bowing her head on the table moaned in such bitterness of spirit that +Nathan was moved to pity, and would have comforted her if he could. + +Silas, having tied his team, came to the kitchen door, but on seeing its +occupants turned hastily and went out to his wagon again, where he stood +choking and swallowing in helpless misery. + +Presently, Nathan Hornby, at a loss to check her grief, laid a hand on her +shoulder and said: + +"Come and see her, Elizabeth." + +Elizabeth Hunter arose like one walking in her sleep and followed Nathan +to the sitting room. The black casket resting on two chairs in the middle +of the room was a worse shock than any she had yet had, and with a +horror-stricken cry of fright she fled to the kitchen again, and when +Nathan reached her side, her teeth were chattering and great beads of +sweat covered her quivering face; she sank into Nathan's chair unable to +support herself. + +When at last she was assisted tenderly to her feet, she begged feebly to +be taken home. + +"But you can't ride that far," Silas protested, pityingly. "You just +naturally can't ride that far in th' big wagon, child." + +For answer she dragged herself forward and staggered to the chair where +they had put her bonnet. Nathan saw that her strength was returning and +gave Silas a little nod. They each took an arm to steady her, and so +Elizabeth passed from the presence of her one dear friend into a life as +colourless as the form she left behind. + + * * * * * + +"He's an awful sick child, Mrs. Hunter, but we may--I believe we will pull +him through." + +It was Thursday, and Doctor Morgan sat opposite Elizabeth, holding the +hand of the shadow of the baby of three days ago. + +"You see that milk has not agreed with him. Mr. Hunter says you took a +drive over to Hornby's the day of the funeral. The heat and excitement has +been too much for you. You nursed him immediately on getting home?" + +"Yes," she replied lifelessly. + +"Well, we'll have to wean him now," the old doctor said, looking the +unresponsive mother over sharply. "It won't do to try any experiments with +him. Your milk may be all right now, but he wouldn't stand a relapse." + +Elizabeth made no reply and listened patiently to his directions for +preparing the new food. After he was gone, she laid the shrunken little +body on the bed and went to the kitchen to prepare the milk. She took up +the new bottle with the rubber on the end and looked at it in stupefied, +aimless disgust. Her impulse was to fling it out of the open door, but +remembering that she would but poison him by putting his lips to her own +breast, she turned to the table and placing the bottle in a pan covered it +with cold water and set it on the stove to come to a slow boil. + +Going back to the bedroom she picked up the pillow--the child was so limp +that they had to handle him on a pillow--and sat down, holding it close to +her heart. + +John came in. She did not look up. He came over to her and stooped to look +at the half-conscious child, who lay with half-open eyes and under jaw +dropped down. There were deep greenish rings under those eyes, and a great +sob broke from John Hunter's throat. + +Elizabeth stirred dully and looked up, but did not speak. There was that +about her which made her unapproachable. She showed no resentment, no +anger, no emotion of any sort. She had come home from Nathan's house as +she was now. She had refused to go to the funeral, but she had had supper +ready when John and his mother had returned from the graveyard, and it had +been as orderly and as well cooked as usual, but she had not talked at the +meal, nor seemed to hear when she was spoken to, but there was evidently +no pouting. John had tried to explain, and she had given silent +opportunity, and when it had been finished had said, "Yes," in a hollow +voice, and had moved on about her work without looking up, but there had +been no apparent resentment. + +Before bedtime that night the baby (who had gone to sleep while she had +nursed him when she had come home), awoke crying. She had taken him up and +had offered her breast, but it had turned away as if sickened, and had +continued to cry till, presently, it had doubled its little body together +with a sharp scream and vomited till its breath was nearly gone. There had +been a sour odour to the contents of its stomach that had struck terror to +their hearts, and before morning Doctor Morgan was at its side. He had +noted the leaden movements of the mother and calling John outside had +questioned him regarding her. John, troubled at her indifference to him +and the lifelessness of her attitude even toward the babe, had told him +all he knew--as he understood it. + +"Of course she boarded with them two years ago," he had said in +concluding, "but I don't see that that needs to cut such a figure." + +"Were your wife and Mrs. Hornby great friends?" Doctor Morgan asked, +studying John Hunter and puzzling over the evident mystery of the +situation. + +"Ye-e-s-s!" with perplexed deliberation; "that is, she liked her better +than any of the rest of the neighbours around here. She wanted to go there +last Sunday and I thought the baby wasn't fit to take out. It looks now as +if I was right." + +"Well, she's had a shock of some kind, and if you don't look out She'll be +down on our hands too. You'd better get a girl or let your mother do the +work for a couple of weeks," Doctor Morgan advised. + +And John Hunter had looked faithfully for some one to take his wife's +place in the kitchen and had found what she had told him when Hepsie left +to be true. In many places where there was no excuse given and girls were +at home he had met with a sort of refusal which stung him to the quick. + +Elizabeth rocked the baby with a mechanical dead sort of care. John was +emotional enough to be badly broken up by the child's looks, but +Elizabeth's unresponsiveness at such a time made of it a tragedy which he +could not understand; he wanted greetings and discussion, and attentions +showered upon him as usual, and they were not forthcoming. He could not +understand what had brought this state of things to pass, but no more +could he question one who was so evidently removed from present +conditions. With a sense of forlornness he had never known, he fell on his +knees by her side and laid his head against her arm, seeking comfort, and +when she still did not speak, the fullness of his misery became apparent, +and he got up unsteadily and left the house. + +Slowly life and returning interest awakened in the child; still more +slowly did the mother take up her threads in the web of living. The old +routine was established, with a few exceptions. Elizabeth arose early and +prepared breakfast before sunrise as before, the washing and ironing were +as well done, but when she prepared to clean the kitchen floor the first +washday after Aunt Susan's death, she took the mop down from its nail on +the back porch and used it as she had done that first winter. + +John and his mother came in with the clothes basket as she started to +wring out the mop to wipe the first corner finished. + +"Hadn't I better get down and scrub it for you with the brush?" John +asked. + +"There will be no more of that in my kitchen," replied Elizabeth, and she +had quietly continued her work without looking up. + +"Why not?" had been the astonished query. + +"We will not argue it," she had said in the same spiritless tone in which +she always spoke those days, and had been so quietly determined that she +got her way. John could not argue with a woman who was so unresistant of +manner: to him, manner constituted argument. Elizabeth went her own quiet +way and took no part in the things that went on about her unless her +services were required, then she served faithfully and uncomplainingly, +but she held converse with no one in the happy way of old. + +Thus summer passed, and autumn also. Little Jack walked now and was +beginning to lisp an occasional word, making of himself a veritable fairy +in the household. With the close of the warm weather he grew less and less +fretful, and when the first snow fell he became as happy and active as a +kitten. The mother had kept him with her every minute, and when her work +had been done, which was seldom, was satisfied to rock him and listen to +his baby chatter. + +Elizabeth had not been angry in the whole six months, neither had she been +glad. She never vexed John by asking to be taken places. Gladly would he +have taken her, if by so doing he could have brought back her old +enthusiasm and girlish glee, for Elizabeth had been the life of the +household, and things had settled into a dead monotony that made of their +home but a house since Susan Hornby's death. Sometimes, vexed by her +passive acceptation of whatever came, John would throw out stinging +observations about women who made their husbands turn to others for their +society, and then be left in an uncomfortable situation by the fact that +he had aroused neither anger nor annoyance, for Elizabeth would inquire in +her lifeless tones what he wished her to do which was left undone. Puzzled +by her real meekness of spirit, the man was compelled to admit that she +made no vexatious demands upon him and that she laboured unceasingly to +keep the soulless home in order. One of the strange and contradictory +things in the situation was that John Hunter did not turn to the mother +whom he had ever been ready to exalt for consolation in this time of +trouble; the demand his feelings made was for the companionship which +while it was his he had not desired. The revelation of the months showed +him what he had lost. Mrs. Hunter was as much in the dark about the real +cause of Elizabeth's changed condition as was John. + +"The ride to Mr. Hornby's had something to do with it," she said dubiously +when talking the matter over with her son after the baby began to get well +and Elizabeth showed no improvement in a mental way. + +"It comes from that ride in the hot sun. You see it made the baby sick +too; but it ain't any use to say so to her," John replied, but in spite of +the firmness of his tone there was a puzzled look on his face and the last +word dragged with indecision. + +"She was very fond of Mrs. Hornby, too, and that may have had something to +do with it," Mrs. Hunter observed. + +"Ye-e-s-s-s!" John replied. "But she couldn't care for that kind of people +enough to make herself sick about them," he said more firmly. + +Mrs. Hunter considered slowly for some moments. + +"I guess you're right," she said at last. "She seemed to be attached to +them, but she don't ask to go to see him since his wife's death; and I +should think now's when her love for them would show out." + +"I wish to God she would ask to go anywhere. I'm tired of the kind of life +we're leading," John said in a manner which supported his words. + +The weariness of life was modified, or at least shifted from one shoulder +to the other for John Hunter by the increasing burden of financial +worries. In this also he was denied any comfort or assistance from +Elizabeth; she asked no questions, and if he talked of notes which were +falling due, or of interest soon to be paid, she listened without remark, +and moved about her endless round of cleaning, cooking, or sewing +apparently absorbed in the work in hand. If he complained about expenses, +the only reply he received was for the food on the table to be of a +plainer quality and a lessened grocery bill the next time he went to town. +This he would not permit, being sensitive about the opinions of the men +who worked for him. Elizabeth never remarked upon the matter of keeping +three men through the winter as she would have done a year ago when there +was little to do which counted in farm affairs. She left her husband free +to do as he chose on all those matters. She did not sulk; she had lost +hope, she was temporarily beaten. In that first hour after her return from +Aunt Susan's death chamber she had meditated flight. She longed to get +away, to go anywhere where she would never see her husband's face again, +but there was Jack. Jack belonged to his father as much as to her, and +Elizabeth was fair. Besides, she was helpless about the support of the +child. Her health was quite seriously interfered with by the ache in her +back which was always present since the baby's coming. She had told her +mother but two short years before that she would not live with a man who +would treat her as her father treated his wife, and here she found herself +in those few months as enmeshed as her mother had ever been. Aye! even +more so. Hers was a position even more to be feared, because it was more +subtle, more intangible, more refined, and John's rule as determined and +unyielding as that of Josiah Farnshaw. + +Having failed to act in that first hour of her trouble, Elizabeth drifted +into inaction. Even her thoughts moved slowly as she pondered on her +situation; her thoughts moved slowly, but they moved constantly. Under all +that quiet of manner was a slow fire of reasoning which was working things +out. Gradually Elizabeth was getting a view of the real trouble. Two +things absorbed her attention: one was the domination of men, and the +other was the need of money adjustment. To live under the continual +interference of a man who refused to listen to the story of one's needs +was bad enough, but to live without an income while one had a small child +was worse. She would leave this phase of her difficulties at times and +wander back to the character of the treatment she received and compare it +to that accorded to her mother. It occasioned great surprise to find +herself admiring her father's manner more than that of her husband. Mr. +Farnshaw had the virtue of frankness in his mastery, John used +subterfuges; Mr. Farnshaw was openly brutal, John secretly heartless; her +father was a domineering man, her husband even more determined, more +inflexible. While considering the possibility of escape by running away, +many things were clarified in Elizabeth's mind regarding her position as a +wife, and the position of all wives. She, for the first time, began to see +the many whips which a determined husband had at his command, chief of +which was the crippling processes of motherhood. She could not teach +school--Jack was too young; neither could she take any other work and keep +the child with her. As she meditated upon the impossibility of the various +kinds of work a woman could do, another phase of her situation arose +before her: even if the baby were older, and a school easily obtained, the +gossip that would follow a separation would be unendurable. Having +accumulated a reputation for snobbishness and aristocratic seclusion, +people would not neglect so rare an opportunity to even old scores. She +would be a grass widow, a subject for all the vulgar jest and loathsome +wit of the community. Country people know how to sting and annoy in a +thousand ways. However, the possibility of this sort of retribution was +put entirely away by the baby's illness. By the time Jack had recovered, +the young mother was worn to a lifeless machine, compelled to accept what +came to her. Her youth, her health, her strength were gone; worse than all +that, her interest in things, in her own affairs even, had almost gone. + +John wandered about the house disconsolate and dissatisfied, and made +amends in curious little ways, and from John's standpoint. He opened +relations with Elizabeth's family and insisted upon taking her home for a +visit. Elizabeth went with him, and accepted the more than half-willing +recognition of her father, who wanted to get into communication with the +baby. He was offering for sale a young team and John, thinking to do a +magnanimous thing, bought Patsie. Elizabeth accepted the visit and the +horse without emotions of any sort, and left her husband annoyed and her +family floundering in perplexity at her passive attitude toward life. At +home that night he said to her sneeringly: + +"No matter what a man does for you, you pout, and act as if you didn't +like it. If I don't offer to take you you're mad, and if I do you set +around and act as if you were bored to death by having to go. What th' +devil's a man to do?" + +"I was perfectly willing to go," was the reply, and she went on dressing +Jack for bed without looking up. + +John cast a baffled look at her as she carried the child out of the room, +and returned to his uncomfortable thoughts without trying to talk of +anything else when she returned and sat down to sew. The sitting room in +which they spent their evenings was in perfect order; the whole house was +never so orderly, nor their table better served, but John pined for +companionship. The work he had worn her out in doing was never better +performed, but there was no love in the doing, and when he addressed her, +though her answer was always ready and kind, there was no love in it, and +he was learning that our equity in the life of another has fixed and +unalterable lines of demarkation. + +Thus matters progressed till February, when Jake was called home to Iowa +by the death of his mother. Jake had lived such a careless, happy-go-lucky +sort of life that he was obliged to borrow a large part of his railroad +fare from John Hunter, who was himself so badly in debt that he was +wondering how he was to meet the interest which would fall due in May. +John gave him the money with the understanding that Jake would come back +in time for the early seeding, and prepared to take him into town. Jake +was the only man left on the farm, and there was consternation in John's +heart at the prospect of having all the chores thrown upon his own +shoulders in cold weather. Jake had been the only reliable man he had ever +been able to hire. The more independent sort of hired men resented John +Hunter's interference in the farm work, which they understood far better +than he, and seldom stayed long, but Jake Ransom liked Elizabeth, was +close friends with Luther Hansen, and since he saw the mistress of the +house drooping and discouraged, doubly appreciated the home into which he +had fallen. Jake had been devoted to Elizabeth with a dog-like devotion +since his first meeting with her in the little schoolhouse six years +before. He was more than glad that he could secure his return to the +Hunter home by the simple method of borrowing money. More nearly than any +one else in her whole circle of acquaintances, Jake Ransom had Elizabeth's +situation figured out. He wanted to come back to her service, and it was +with a satisfied security that he helped prepare the bobsled for the trip +to town. They went early and took Mrs. Hunter with them to do some +shopping for herself and Elizabeth. John hoped to find a man who could +come back with them that afternoon and help with the work of watering and +feeding the hundred and fifty head of cattle that made of their farm life +a busy round of daily toil. + + + + +CHAPTER XV + +HUGH NOLAND + + +Doctor Morgan folded his stethoscope and thrust it into his inner pocket. + +"Your heart's been pounding like that for seven years, you say?" he asked +of the man sitting before him. + +"Seven years in May," was the brief answer. + +The patient got up from the office chair and adjusted his waistcoat. The +waistcoat was ample and covered a broad chest. The face also was broad, +with a square chin, and eyes set well apart. The man was twenty-eight or +thirty years old and nearly six feet in height. + +"I know all you've got to tell me," he said, going to the mirror to brush +his tumbled hair. "They sent me out to find a place on a farm because +medicine wouldn't do anything for me. I'm tolerably comfortable if I don't +overdo--that is, if I stay out of doors while I'm doing. I don't expect +you to make a new man out of me; I only thought I'd have you look me over +the first thing, because I might need you suddenly, and it's better for +you to know what sort of patient you've got beforehand." He paused for an +inspection of his well-groomed hands. + +"You may not need me for years," Doctor Morgan interrupted hastily. "That +kind of a heart outlasts the other organs sometimes. The doctor twisted +the heavy-linked watch chain which dangled from his vest pocket as if +calling upon it for words. Of course an out-of-doors life is best. What +have you been doing of late?" he asked. + +"Teaching in the old university since I got my degree, but they've sent me +out like a broken-down fire horse. I'll get used to it," the young man +said indifferently. He was accustomed to signs of hopelessness when his +case was discussed, and was unmoved by them. + +"Have you family ties?" the doctor asked. He liked the grit this man's +manner indicated. + +"None that need to be counted," was the brief reply. + +The doctor noticed that his patient wasted no extra words in self-pity. +"That's good! It lessens a man's worries. And--where are you staying, Mr. +Noland?" + +"At the hotel, till I get a place on a farm. Before I invest I'm going to +get my bearings about farms, by working around till I get on to things. +You don't know of a place where a man could work for his board for a month +till the spring seeding and things come on do you?" + +He was pushing the cuticle back from his finger-nails as they talked, and +Doctor Morgan smiled. + +"Those hands don't look much like farm work," he said. + +The man laughed easily. "Oh, that's habit. I'll get over it after a +while." + +"You will if you work for these yahoos around here much. Why don't you +invest in land and have your own home right from the start? A man like you +can't live in the kind of houses and do the kind of work You'll find in +this country." + +"I wouldn't work for myself--I've nothing to work for. When you take away +a man's chances to marry and live the normal life, you make a sluggard of +him. I've got to have a partner, and have his interests to serve as well +as my own, or I won't work, and in the meantime I want to look about a bit +before I pick up some one to go into business with. I won't be long +finding some one." + +"No whine in him," was the doctor's mental comment, but what he said was: +"Well, You'll find life about here a bit dull. Come in, and make yourself +at home in this office while you're in town, and I'll see what I can do +about finding a place for you." + +After he had watched his patient swing off up the street he considered the +case seriously. + +"College athletics do just about that sort of thing for a boy," he said +aloud. "Now I believe Silas Chamberlain would take him for his board, and +there ain't any children there. Children's the devil in a farmhouse: no +manners, and they set right on top of you, and if you say anything the +folks are hurt. He's a nice fellow, and I intend to hold on to him. It was +like old times to talk for a while to a man that knows chemistry and +things. I'll see more of him. I'm gettin' old altogether too fast in this +blamed hole. I need some one to talk to that's more like a man ought to +be." + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +REVIVIFYING FIRES + + +It was butchering day at Silas Chamberlain's and Liza Ann had the +household astir early. Luther Hansen was master of ceremonies in the +backyard, and relieved Silas of the heavy lifting. It was a day for +visiting and neighbourly activity as well as hard work. Hugh Noland had +been sent to Silas the week before by Doctor Morgan, and assisted in +rolling the pork barrel from the cellar door to a convenient post near the +out-of-door fire, where they sunk the bottom of it into the frozen earth +and carefully tilted it to the proper angle for scalding purposes. + +"It's fifteen years since I've been at 'a killing,' and I feel as if I +were ten years old again," Noland said as he watched the hard earth give +way under the mattock Luther wielded. + +"Go hunt a straw in that case, and I'll see that you get the bladder. +Shall I save you the pig's tail?" Luther said as he settled the barrel +into the cavity. + +They swung the great iron kettle over the pile of kindling and corncobs +laid ready for lighting, and then carried water to fill it. + +As the last bucket was emptied into the kettle, Luther turned and swung +his cap at John Hunter and Jake, who were passing in the bobsled. + +"Hunters," he explained. "Have you met them yet?" + +"No," replied Noland. "Who are they? He drives a good team." + +"Nearest neighbours on th' west over there," Luther said, pointing to the +roofs of the Hunter place, plainly to be seen over the rise of land +between. "They're th' folks for you t' know--th' only ones with +book-learnin' around here. Goin' t' stay with th' Chamberlains long?" + +"No," replied the other, with a look of reticence; "that is, only for a +time. He don't hire much, he tells me. I'm just helping him till he gets +his fencing tightened up and this work done. Why?" + +"Well, I was just a thinkin' that that's th' place for you. Hunter hires a +lot of work done, and--and you'd like each other. You're th' same kind of +folks. I wonder how he come t' be takin' 'is man along t' town with 'im? +Th' was a trunk in th' back of the sled too, but that may 'a' been for +Mrs. Hunter. That was 'is mother with 'im." + +There was not much time to speculate about future work, there was much to +be done in the present, and before noon five limp bodies had been dragged +from the pens to the scalding barrel, plunged into the steaming water, +turned, twisted, turned again, and after being churned back and forth till +every inch of the black hides was ready to shed its coat of hair and +scarf-skin, were drawn out upon the wheelbarrow. Then a gambol-stick was +thrust through the tendons of the hind legs and the hogs were suspended +from a cross pole about six feet from the ground, where they hung while +the great corn-knives scraped and scratched and scrubbed and scoured till +the black bodies gradually lost their coating and became pink and tender +looking and perfectly clean. They were then drawn and left to cool and +stiffen. + +The sloppy, misty weather made the work hard because of the frozen earth +under the melting snow, and the steaming, half foggy atmosphere was too +warm for comfort of men working over an open fire and a steaming barrel of +hot water, but by noon the butchering was finished. To the new man it was +a journey back to childhood. How well he remembered the various features +of preparation: the neighbours asked in to assist, the odours pleasant and +unpleasant, the bustling about of his mother as she baked and boiled and +stewed for the company, the magic circle about the pens from which he was +excluded when the men went forth with the rifle, and the squeal which +followed the rifle's crack, and the fear which gripped him when he thought +the poor pig was hurt, but which was explained away by his father, who, +proud of his marksmanship, assured him that "that pig never knew what hit +it." + +In addition to the fact that the man had spent his childhood on a farm, he +had the happy faculty of entering into the life of the people among whom +he found himself. He entertained the little group at the dinner table that +day with a description of his mother's soap-making, and discussed the best +ways of preparing sausage for summer use as if he himself were a cook; and +as Luther listened he was convinced that the Hunter home was the proper +place for him to settle down. + +At two o'clock Luther started home with some spareribs, wrapped in one of +Liza Ann's clean towels, under his arm. It was early, but nothing more +could be done at Silas's house till the carcasses were cold enough to cut +and trim, and, besides, there was an ominous looking bank of dull gray +cloud in the northwest. Luther swung along the road toward the west +energetically. + +The wind gave a little twisting flurry, and dropped completely when he was +about halfway between Chamberlain's and the Hunter place. A few minutes +later there was a puff of wind from the opposite direction, succeeded by a +feeling of chill. Luther scanned the horizon and stepped faster. When the +advance guard of fine snow began to sift down from the leaden sky above, +he started to run. He had lived in the north, and knew the meaning of the +rapidly darkening sky. The signs were unmistakable. Presently the fine +flakes began to rush along toward the south with greater force. The wind +came on steadily now. Luther looked about anxiously, making a note of the +location of things. It was still a quarter of a mile to Hunter's. As he +peered ahead, wishing himself nearer protection, with a roar the blizzard +fell upon him, blotting out the landscape before him as completely as if a +curtain had fallen between. + +With all his might Luther struggled forward. The wind came from the right +side and almost carried him from his feet. He had been standing over a +steaming kettle and scalding barrel most of the day, and the icy blast +went through him, chilling his blood instantly. Luther knew his danger. +This was not a cyclone where men were carried away by the winds of summer; +this was a winter's storm where men could freeze to death, and men froze +quickly in blizzards. The driving particles of snow and ice made it +impossible to look ahead. He shielded his face with his right arm, and +tried, as he hurried forward, to keep in mind the exact direction of the +Hunter house. If he could only reach that he would be safe. The road was a +new one, recently opened, and not well defined. It was almost at once +obliterated. Little needles of ice thrust themselves at him with stinging +force, and he could not see; the blinding snow whirled and whistled about +his feet, and in five minutes Luther Hansen realized that he had got out +of the road. He stopped in alarm and, turning his back to the storm, tried +to see about him. The gray wall of snow completely obscured every object +from his sight. He had a sense of being the only thing alive in the +universe; all else seemed to have been destroyed. His every nerve ached +with the cold, but peer about as he would he could not possibly tell where +he was. He remembered that there had been a cornfield on his right, and +thought that he must have gone too far south, for he was certainly in the +meadow now. The pressure of the wind, he reflected, would naturally carry +him in that direction, so he faced around and started on, bearing +stubbornly toward the north. Every fibre in him shook; no cold he had ever +felt in Minnesota was equal to this; there was a quality in the pressure +of this cold that was deadly. The wind pierced in spite of every kind of +covering. Real fear began to lay hold upon him. He stumbled easily; the +action of his limbs began to give him alarm. The package of spareribs fell +from under his arm, and he stooped to pick it up. As he bent over the wind +caught him like a tumble-weed and threw him in a shivering heap on the +ground. He had worn no mittens in the morning, and his hands stung as if +tortured by the lashes of many whips. To ease their hurt he remained +huddled together with his back to the wind while he breathed on his +freezing fingers, but remembered that that was the surest way to add to +the nip of the cold in a blast which condensed the breath from his mouth +into icicles before it had time to get away from his moustache. Staggering +to his feet, he stumbled on toward the Hunter house, trying as hard as his +fast benumbing senses would permit to bear toward the wind and the +cornfield at the right. He had not picked up the package--had forgotten it +in fact--and now he tried to beat his freezing hands across his shoulders +as he ran. The bitter wind could not be endured, and he crossed his hands, +thrusting them into his sleeves, hoping to warm them somehow on his +wrists; but with eyes uncovered he could not gauge his steps, and stumbled +and fell. Unable to get his hands out of his sleeves in time to protect +himself, he tripped forward awkwardly and scratched his face on the cut +stubs of the meadow-grass. Evidently he had not reached the road as yet. +He knew the road so well that he could have kept it with a bandage over +his eyes but for the wind which thrust him uncertainly from his course. It +was that which was defeating him. Try as he would, he could not keep his +attention fixed upon the necessity of staying near that cornfield. +Determined to find it before he proceeded farther toward the west, he +faced the wind squarely, and, bracing his body firmly, hurried as fast as +he could toward the stalkfield. + +After a time he seemed to wake up; he was not facing the wind, and he was +aching miserably. Luther Hansen knew what that meant: he was freezing. +Already the lethargy of sleep weighted each dragging foot. He thought of +the nest an old sow had been building in the pen next to the one where the +killing had been done that day. With the instincts of her kind, the +mother-pig had prepared for the storm by making a bed where it would be +sheltered. Luther's mind dwelt lingeringly upon its cozy arrangement; +every atom of his body craved shelter. Death by freezing faced him +already, though he had been in the grip of the storm but one short quarter +of an hour. He had lost consciousness of time: he only knew that he was +freezing within sight of home. Nothing but action could save him. Nerving +himself for another trial, the bewildered man turned toward the north and +walked into the very teeth of the storm, searching for the lost trail. +Sometimes he thought his foot had found it; then it would be lost again. +He wandered on hours, days, weeks--he wandered shivering over the meadow, +the road, the state of Kansas--over the whole globe and through all space, +till at last a great wall shut off the offending wind, the roar of the +planets lessened, and the numb and frozen man fell forward insensible, +striking his head against a dark obstruction thrusting its shoulder +through a bank of dirty gray snow. + +The sound of a heavy body falling on her doorstep brought Elizabeth Hunter +to the door. She opened it cautiously. The snow swirled in as it was drawn +back and the heated air of the sitting room rushed out, forming a cloud of +steam which almost prevented her from seeing the helpless figure at her +feet. She could not distinguish the features, but it was a man, and the +significance of his presence was plain. Seizing him about the body, +Elizabeth dragged him into the house, and shut the door behind him to keep +out the blast. + +"Luther Hansen!" she exclaimed. + +Finding that she could not arouse him, she pulled the relaxed and +nerveless form to the lounge, but when she attempted to lift the limp +figure to the couch she found it almost more than all her woman's strength +could accomplish. Luther stirred and muttered, but could not be awakened +sufficiently to help himself, and it was only after some minutes and the +putting forth of every ounce of strength that the girl had that he was at +last stretched upon the lounge. Elizabeth brought blankets to cover the +shivering, muttering, delirious man, and having heard that the frost must +be drawn gradually from frozen extremities, and being unable to get his +hands and feet into cold water, she brought and wrapped wet towels about +them, and chafed his frozen face. + +It was a long time before the white nose and cheeks began to show colour; +then the ears became scarlet, and pain began to sting the man into +consciousness. The chafing hurt, and Luther fought off the hands that +rubbed so tenderly. + +Gradually Luther Hansen awoke to his surroundings. Delirium and reality +mixed helplessly for some moments. He remembered his struggles to reach +the Hunter house, but the gap in the train of his affairs made him suspect +that this was a phase of delirium and that he was in reality freezing. He +was stinging all over. He wanted to find out where he was, and tried to +get upon his feet. + +"You are right here in my house, Luther," Elizabeth said, holding him on +his pillow. + +Luther relaxed and lay looking at her for some time before he asked: + +"How did I get here, Lizzie?" + +"I don't know, Luther," she replied. "I heard you fall on the doorstep. I +never was so surprised. How did you come to be out--and without mittens +too?" + +She removed the wet towel from one of his hands, and he drew it away with +a groan. + +"I expect, Lizzie, it's frozen. You better rub it with snow." + +The question of how he reached her house puzzled Luther throughout the +long afternoon and evening, while they listened to the roar of the wind +and talked of the unsheltered cattle in the many Kansas stalkfields. + +"The only thing that kept our cattle from being out of doors was the fact +that Jake had to go to Iowa and John had to take him to town," Elizabeth +had said at one point. + +"Has Jake left for good?" Luther asked hesitatingly. He knew John's +unpopularity with the men who worked for him and was a little afraid to +ask Elizabeth, who might be sensitive about it. + +"No. Jake has lost his mother, but he'll come back for the spring seeding. +Jake's a good man; he and John seem to get along pretty well." It was +Elizabeth's turn to speak hesitatingly. She did not know how much Luther +knew of John's affairs with his men, nor what opinion Jake might have +expressed to Luther. + +"Jake's a curious cub! He's been your dog, Lizzie, ever since that school +business. I've heard 'im tell it over twenty times." + +"I wish we could find another like him," Elizabeth said wistfully. "John +isn't able to take care of all this stock unless he gets a man in +Colebyville to-day, and--and if he did, the man, as likely as not, +wouldn't stay more than a week or two." + +Luther Hansen looked up eagerly. + +"Lizzie, I've found th' very man for you folks. He'll stay too. He's a +fellow by th' name of Noland--workin' for Chamberlain, an' wants a job +right soon--got a lot of book-learnin'--just your kind." + +"I'll have John see him when he gets home," Elizabeth answered +indifferently. "My! I wonder when they will be able to get back?" she +added. + +"They wasn't through tradin' when this thing come on," Luther replied. +"Anyhow, houses was too thick t' get lost th' first half of th' way. +Listen to that wind, though! I'm glad t' be here if I do look like a +turkey gobbler with these ears," he laughed. + +It was so cold that Elizabeth had built a roaring fire, and to keep the +snow, which penetrated every crack, from sifting under the door, she laid +old coats and carpets across the sill. She brought coal and cobs from the +shed, stopping each trip to get warm, for even to go the twenty steps +required to get to the cobhouse was to experience more cold than she had +ever encountered in all the days when she had plowed through the snows of +Kansas winters while teaching; in fact, had the fuel been much farther +from her door she would hardly have ventured out for it at all in a wind +which drove one out of his course at every fresh step and so confused and +blinded him that the points of the compass were a blank, and paths could +not be located for the drifts, which ran in every direction the swirling +wind chose to build them. She had gone around the shed to the back door, +knowing that the front door being on the windward side could not be shut +again if once opened, and the few extra steps necessary to creep around +the building froze her to the bone, for the eddying wind had carried the +snow deep at that point and, being enough sheltered to prevent packing, +had left it a soft pile into which she sank almost to her waist. She was +obliged to hunt for a shovel and clear the snow out of the doorway when +she was through, and her hands were completely numbed when she reached the +house after it was over. With the feeling that she might not be able to +reach the shed at all in the morning, or that the doors might be drifted +shut altogether, Elizabeth had taken enough cobs and coal into the kitchen +to half fill the room and was ready to withstand a siege of days, but she +paid toll with aching hands and feet that frightened Luther into a new +realization of the nature of the storm. + +When at last the one fire Elizabeth thought it wise to keep up was rebuilt +and dry shoes had replaced the wet ones, she settled down beside the +lounge, with her feet in another chair to keep them off the cold floor, +and turned to Luther expectantly. + +"This storm's awful, as you say," she said in reply to his observation +that it might hold for days, "but I'm just so glad of a real chance for a +visit with you that I'm quite willing to bring cobs and keep fires." + +"If that's true, why don't you come t' see us as you ought t', Lizzie?" +Luther said, looking her searchingly in the eye. "I never meddle in other +people's business, but you ain't th' stuck-up thing folks says you are. +Honest now, why don't you do as a neighbour should?" + +Elizabeth Hunter's face flushed crimson and she leaned forward to tuck the +old coat, in which she had wrapped her feet, more closely about them while +she took time to get herself ready to answer the paralyzing question. The +longer she waited the harder it became to meet the kindly questioning eyes +bent upon her, and the more embarrassing it became to answer at all. She +fumbled and tucked and was almost at the point of tears when Jack, who was +asleep on a bed made on two chairs, began to fret. Seizing the welcome +means of escape, she got up and took the child, sitting down a little +farther away from Luther and hugging the baby as if he were a refuge from +threatened harm. + +Luther felt the distance between them, but decided to force the issue. He +came about it from another quarter, but with inflexible determination. + +"I hope Sadie got her kindling in before the storm began. It'll be awful +cold in th' mornin', and--I do wish I could 'a' got home. Sadie's fires +always go out." + +"Your cobs are closer to the house than mine; Sadie 'll get along all +right." + +"How do you know where our cobhouse is now, Lizzie? You ain't seen it for +over a year," Luther observed quietly. And when Elizabeth did not reply, +said with his eyes fastened on Jack's half-asleep face: "I wonder how +Janie is?" + +Glad to talk of anything but herself and her own affairs, Elizabeth +answered with feverish readiness the last half of Luther's observation. + +"You never told me what the baby's name was before. Isn't it sweet?" + +"Do you know, Lizzie, that Sadie 'd most made 'er mind up t' call it after +you, if it was a girl, if you'd 'a' come t' be with 'er when it was born, +as you said you would?" Luther looked at her almost tenderly, and with a +yearning beyond words. + +"After me? She didn't send for me when she was sick, Luther." + +"No, but she would 'a', if you'd 'a' come as you ought t' 'a' done them +months when she wasn't goin' out." He looked at her penetratingly. + +"I haven't been anywhere since Aunt Susan's death," Elizabeth evaded, +determined not to recognize his trend. + +"You could 'a' come before her death, there was plenty of time. Now look +here, I ain't goin' t' beat about th' bush. I'm talkin' square. You can't +git away from me. You've had th' best chance a woman ever had t' help +another woman, an' you didn't take it. Sadie was that took by what you +said about bein' glad for th' chance t' have your baby, an' th' idea of +helpin' him t' have th' best disposition you could give 'im, that she +didn't talk of nothin' else for weeks, an' she looked for you till she was +sick, an' you never come. I want t' know why?" + +Elizabeth Hunter had come to the judgment-bar; she could not escape these +cross-questions, neither could she answer. Her face grew white as Luther +Hansen looked searchingly into it, and her breath came hard and harder as +he looked and waited. This chance to talk to Luther was like wine to her +hungry soul, but John Hunter was her husband and she refused to accuse him +even after the long months of despair she had suffered at his hands. +Luther let her gather herself for her reply, not adding a word to the +demand for truth and friendship. How he trusted her in spite of it all! He +watched her indecision change to indignation at his insistence, and he saw +her head grow clear as she decided upon her course. + +"I will not discuss the past with you, Luther," she said slowly, as one +who comes to a conclusion as he proceeds. "I cannot tell you all the +things which have led up to it. I am going to ask you not to mention it to +me again, but I will try to do it better next time. I had no idea that +Sadie cared whether I came to see her or not; she had always seemed to +dislike me." Elizabeth added the last hesitatingly lest she hurt Luther's +feelings. + +"Lizzie, I won't be put off. If you don't want t' tell me _why_ you've +done as you have, I won't ask you t', but you've got t' let me talk t' you +about it all th' same. I ain't a man t' let myself mix up in my +neighbours' affairs, but, Lizzie, you ought t' live up t' th' things God's +put int' your power t' do. Now, then, you let folks get a wrong idea of +you. You've got more education 'n anybody else's got in this country, an' +you've got more money, an' you've got more everything 'n th' rest of us, +an' what's it been give t' you for if it ain't goin' t' come t' nothin'? +Here you've had th' best chance t' do somethin' for a neighbour woman a +woman ever had: Sadie's been that took with th' things you said about +children that she was ready t' listen t' you on anything, an' you won't +let 'er have a chance t' get at you at all--an' ain't she come out? You'd +have t' live with 'er, Lizzie, t' know what that little woman's done fur +herself this last year--an' it was you that helped t' do it. Honest, now, +don't you see yourself that if you've had things give t' you that th' rest +ain't had that you owe somethin' t' th' rest of us?" + +In all the weary discordant time when she had struggled for better +conditions Elizabeth Hunter had never thought of anything in the situation +but the bettering of her own surroundings. It had been the suffering of +blind stupidity, of youth, of the human being too deeply submerged to +think of aught but personal affairs. Luther drew her attention to the main +facts of her life, drawing her away from self. It was a simple occurrence, +a simple subject, a simple question: it was in itself the reason for the +perpetuation of their friendship. The winds blew, the snow found its way +under door and sash and heaped itself in ridges across the floor, and in +spite of the roaring fire they were not always warm, but throughout the +night Elizabeth sat beside her lifelong friend and drew in a revivifying +fire which was to remould and make over a life which had almost flickered +to a smouldering resentment and inactivity. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + +ADJUSTING DOMESTIC TO SOCIAL IDEALS + + +The next morning the wind blew the fine snow in one vast driving cloud; it +was impossible to see a hundred feet. Elizabeth knew that the stock was +suffering, but was almost certain that she could not reach them. It would +not be hard to reach the barn, since the wind would be with her, but to +return would be a different matter. To feel that she had done all that she +could, she went as far as the gate, and when she could not see the house +from that point was sufficiently warned and struggled back to safety. No +sound but that of the storm came to her even at the gate, but she was +certain that the famishing cattle were calling for food. Her day was +consumed in the care of Luther's inflamed hands and feet. The only remedy +she knew was wet cloths and she worked anxiously to reduce the swelling +and congestion. + +About four o'clock the wind dropped. Though the air was still full of fine +snow, Elizabeth wrapped herself in John's old overcoat and muffler, and +putting a pair of Jake's heavy mittens on her hands, and taking the +milkpails on her arm to save a trip back for them, she went to the barn. + +The barn door stuck, with the snow which had collected in the runway, and +she had to fumble for some time before it would come open. A perfect babel +of voices greeted her. Jake had left the south door of the barn ajar when +he left that morning, and the eddying snow had banked itself along the +entire centre of the building. Patsie stood in the stall nearest the door, +humped up with the cold, and with a layer of snow on her hips and +spreading black tail. She turned sidewise and pawed furiously, giving +shrill little whinnies as Elizabeth seized a half-bushel measure and waded +through the snow to the oats bin. + +"No, corn's better this cold weather," the girl said aloud, and hurried to +the other bin. Soon the horses were making noise enough to inflame the +appetites of the other animals, who redoubled their cries. + +She investigated the pens and found the hogs in good condition, but the +drifts so high as to make it possible for them to make neighbourly visits +from pen to pen, and even into the cattle yard. It was a struggle to carry +the heavy ear corn from the crib to the pens, but it was done, and then +Elizabeth turned her attention to the excited cattle. + +Taking time to rest and get her breath, Elizabeth noticed that a few of +the hogs had not come to get their feed, and went to investigate the +cause. They seemed to be fighting over some choice morsel on the far side +of the cattle yard. At first she thought that it was one of their number +that they were fighting about, but as she approached the knot, one of them +ran off to one side dragging something, its head held high to avoid +stepping on the grewsome thing it carried. One of the young cows had lost +her calf in the freezing storm, and the hogs were fighting over its torn +and mangled body. Elizabeth sought out the little mother, and segregating +her from the herd, drove her into the straw cow-stable, where she would be +sheltered. The other milch cows had been left in their stalls by the men +the day before, and snorted and tugged at their ropes as the newcomer +appeared. Elizabeth tied the heifer, and then shut the door after her and +returned to the unprotected herd outside. + +The fodder was so full of snow that it was impossible for the girl to +handle it at all, so she dug the ladder out of the snow and placed it +against the long hayrick beside the fence and forked the hay over into the +racks below. It required every ounce of strength she had to throw the hay +clear of the stack and in line with the racks where the cattle could reach +it, but the girl worked with a will, while the cattle fought for best +places, or any place at all, and reached hungry tongues for the sweet +hay. + +Elizabeth worked with joy and energy. The mood of the storm was upon the +girl. Not before in all the months she had been married had she ever moved +in perfect freedom in her native out-of-doors element. It was a gift of +the gods and not to be despised or neglected, for to-morrow would come +John--and prison bars. Before she had begun, she faced the wind, and with +bounding joy looked over the drifted fields toward the north and +northeast. The air was clearing. The world looked different from this +lofty position. She was Elizabeth again, Elizabeth transformed and made +new. The lethargy of recent months had slipped away; something about the +rush and motion of things in the last twenty-four hours inspired her; the +fierce winds of yesterday and to-day stirred her spirit to do, to be in +motion herself. They had communicated their energy, their life, their free +and ungoverned humour. Elizabeth's thoughts ran on as fast as her blood. +She thought of Luther, and of all he had said to her, of her neglected +opportunities which he had pointed out to her, and wondered modestly if he +were right, and then knew that he was. She thought of how she, the +out-of-door prisoner of her father's home, had become the indoor prisoner +of her husband's home. She had thought that to marry and escape her +father's grasp was to possess herself; but Elizabeth Hunter saw that as a +wife she was really much less free. She thought of the sacrifices she had +made in the hope of securing harmony, and she thought of the futility of +it all. She decided that if a woman were enslaved it was because she +herself permitted it, that to yield where she should stand fast did not +secure a man's love, it only secured his contempt and increased his +demands. In the three years she had been married she had not been +permitted an hour of real companionship until the accident of this storm +had brought an old friend to her door and kept him there till she had had +a chance to realize the mental depths to which she had fallen in her +isolation. In all the time she had been married she had not thought of +anything but the bare details of their daily life. A woman had to have the +association of congenial people to keep her from falling into housekeeping +dry-rot. For thirty-six hours she had possessed herself, and in that time +she had renewed her youth and acquired a new outlook. As she stood looking +across the fields, her eyes fell on Nathan Hornby's chimney. The wind had +dropped so completely that the air had cleared of snow, and the curling +smoke from a freshly built fire arose in the frosty air, sending a thrill +of homesickness through her as she pictured the orderly kitchen in which +that fire was built. Was it orderly now that its guardian angel was gone? +The hideous cruelty of a neglect which kept her from knowing whether it +was well kept swept over her. Once she would have spent herself in +emotionalism and tears at remembrance of it, but Elizabeth had advanced. + +"I'll go and see him to-morrow, or as soon as the roads are fit," was her +resolve. "Luther's right; he usually is." + +The cattle calling from below brought her back to the necessities of the +hour. Laying hold of the frosty pitchfork she renewed her attack upon the +hay and continued till the racks were filled. By the time the ladder was +put away again her hands were stinging till it was impossible to work, and +she ran to the barn where she could put them against Patsie's flank while +she blew her warm breath upon them. Patsie was ticklish, and twitched her +loose hide nervously and gnawed at her feed-box with little squeals of +excitement. The feed-box was of two-inch lumber instead of the usual sort. +It was like all John did: so much attention put in one place there was no +time for the rest; well done, but much left undone. Everything about +John's barn was orderly and well built. There had been a time when she had +rejoiced at what seemed to be thrift, but to-day she saw it from a new +angle; Mr. Farnshaw had wastefully let his machinery rot and his stock +perish from cold, but here was wastefulness of another sort; Elizabeth +speculated on the cost of this barn and thought of the interest to be +paid. + +On her way to the cow-stable where the little mother whose calf had fallen +a victim to the cold awaited her, she thought of the toolroom where she +had gone for her feed. A forty-dollar set of harness hung there: Carter's +harness had chains instead of leather tugs, and would outwear them several +times over. It was an orderly toolroom: the bridles occupied a row over +the collars, hames and back-bands came next, and on the other side of the +room, on six-inch spikes, hung extra clevises, buckles, straps, and such +materials as accidents to farm machinery required. John's mending was well +provided for and well done. Elizabeth would have loved just this sort of +order if it had not been so costly. + +The little cow was so hungry that she hardly knew that she was giving her +milk into a foreign receptacle till a voice at the stable door made her +jump so violently that the pail was knocked over and Elizabeth had to +scramble hastily to avoid a similar fate. + +"Well, now, there you be! Gosh-a-livin's!----" + +Silas Chamberlain never finished that speech. The milk from the rolling +pail spattered over his feet as he sprang to Elizabeth's rescue. The +little cow tore at the rope that held her, and every mate she had in the +stable joined her in snorting and threatening to bolt over the mangers. +The old man, "So-bossied," and vented all the soothing cattle talk he +could command while he looked on in embarrassed confusion. + +"Now ain't that jes' like me?" he queried in dismay. "Look what I've gone +an' done!" He picked up the empty pail and handed it to the man that was +with him to keep it from being trampled upon by the plunging cows, while +he tried to establish confidential relations with them. + +"Never mind, Mr. Chamberlain. She's only a heifer and never milked before. +She wouldn't have let me get that far without trouble, anyhow, if she +hadn't been so hungry. The hogs killed her calf last night or this morning +and I thought I'd milk her before I began on the rest. I don't suppose +John can get home before to-morrow night, and the chores had to be done. +Here, there's an extra bucket or two. Do you want to help milk? they'll +quit fussing in a minute." + +"Course I do. That's what Noland an' I come for. This is Mrs. Hunter, +Noland," Silas said, remembering formalities at the last moment. "We +thought John wouldn't 'a' got back 'fore th' storm come on. Now let's get +this milkin' done 'fore dark or we'll be havin' t' ask for a lantern." + +"Oh! Mr. Chamberlain, I forgot to tell you that Luther Hansen got caught +in the storm and nearly froze," Elizabeth said when they had settled +themselves to the work. "He's at our house now; his feet and hands are +awful. I think they're all right, but I wish we could get at Doctor +Morgan." + +The old man nearly upset the milk a second time in his astonishment, and +the milking was cut as short as could decently be done so as to get to the +house. The early winter night had settled down and the sting of the cold +was paralyzing as they hastened in. Silas went straight to Luther, and +Elizabeth and the new man brought a fresh supply of coal and cobs before +they went in. They met Silas coming out as they carried the last basketful +from the shed. + +"I'm goin' right over t' tell Sadie," he announced. "I brought Noland over +to help, but Luther says you're goin' t' need 'im right along, an' I'll +jes' leave 'im for good. You'll like each other an' he'll want t' stay as +bad as You'll want 'im." + +Silas had poured the whole arrangement out, and as it was about what was +necessary it was accepted. + +The presence of a stranger necessitated more formal housekeeping, and when +the new man came back from helping Silas saddle Patsie he found the +kitchen in order and the savoury smell of fresh biscuits and ham. A small +table was placed beside Luther, and the ham and hot things had a seasoning +of brilliant, intellectual conversation, for the man from college was +adept at entertaining his fellow men and showed his best powers. + +Elizabeth was too tired to stay awake long and she left him and Luther +chatting, after she had shown Mr. Noland where he was to sleep and had +filled the cold bed with hot flatirons to take the chill from the icy +sheets. However happy she may have been while feeding the stock, she had +to acknowledge that the loss of sleep the night before and the +unaccustomed use of the pitchfork had made of her bed a desirable place. +She awoke when the stranger went up the stairs, but was asleep before his +footsteps had reached the room above her. A tantalizing remembrance of his +face disturbed her for a moment, but only for a moment, and then tired +nature carried her back to the land of dreams. She had seen him somewhere, +but where, she was too sleepy to think out. + +The next morning Silas came with his bobsled and they helped Luther into a +chair and carried him in it to the sled and so to his home. John and his +mother came a little after noon, and the girl watched to see how her +husband would like the new man, half afraid that because she had secured +him in John's absence that he would not like him, and she wished it might +be possible to keep him with them. She need not have worried, for Hugh +Noland had looked about the place and decided to make himself so necessary +to its proprietor that his presence would be desired, and he had gifts +which favoured him in that respect. Besides, John had been unsuccessful in +obtaining help and was overjoyed to come home and find the cattle fed and +everything at the barn in good order. Patsie and her mate were hitched to +the lumber wagon and stood waiting in the lane when John came and Jack was +being wrapped in his warmest cloak. + +"Where on earth are you going?" John asked in profound astonishment. + +"I told Mr. Noland to hitch up and take me to Uncle Nathan's, but now that +you are here, you can go if you wish," Elizabeth replied quietly. "I +should have gone a long time ago. Will you go along mother, or will you +stay at home after climbing these drifts all day? I think now that you're +at home we'll take the sled instead of the wagon. You won't mind making +the change, will you?" + +She ended by addressing the new man, and it was all so naturally done that +John Hunter swallowed whatever was uncomfortable in it. He would not go +himself, and Elizabeth set off with the stranger, glad of the chance to do +so. + +"I'll drive right home and help with things there. What time shall I come +back for you?" Noland asked as he set her on the ground as near Nathan's +doorstep as he could get the team to go. + +"Not till after five. Mother's there and I'll let her get your suppers, +and I'll get mine here with Uncle Nate." + +It was such a perfectly normal arrangement that Hugh Noland did not guess +that there was anything new in it. He drove away with a feeling of +disappointment because he had been unable to draw her into conversation on +the way over. She had proven herself a good conversationalist at meals and +he looked forward to a time when he would be a permanent part of that +household. Luther and Silas had been right. Here was the partner he was +looking for if he could only make himself appreciated. + +He had laid out every faculty and put it to the best use for that purpose +and had been a bit disconcerted to have her suddenly become +uncommunicative. + +Nathan was at the barn; he saw them stop and recognized his visitor. + +"Humph!" he snorted in disgust. However, a man could not leave a woman +with a baby in her arms standing on his doorstep on a raw February day. + +"How do you do, Uncle Nate?" the girl said timidly as soon as he was near +enough to accost. + +Nathan's greeting was short and inhospitable. He did not offer to shake +hands, nor pretend to see the hand she extended to him. Instead, he opened +the door and invited her gruffly to enter. Closing the door behind them, +he went to the stove and began to stir the fire industriously. + +Elizabeth saw that she must have the difficulty over at once or her +courage would wilt. Setting Jack on the floor, she went to Nathan and put +her hand on his arm detainingly. + +"You have fire enough, Uncle Nate. Let me talk to you." + +"Well?" he said briefly. + +The girl was staggered by the nature of her reception. It was worse than +she had expected. Luther Hansen's estimate of the real situation had been +only too right. She stood before Nathan Hornby trembling and disconcerted +by the wall of his silence. The old kitchen clock ticked loudly, she could +hear her own pulses, and the freshly stirred fire roared--roared in a +rusty and unpolished stove. Dust lay thick on the unswept floor. Nathan +needed her. She would win her way back to his heart. + +"Uncle Nate, I don't blame you one bit if you aren't nice to me. I haven't +deserved it, but----" + +"I guess you needn't 'Uncle Nate' me any more," he said when she paused. + +His speech was bitter and full of animosity, but it was better than his +compelling silence. + +"I don't blame you one bit for being mad at me----I should think you would +be. I don't know what I'm going to say to you either, but I've come to beg +your forgiveness," she stammered. + +Nathan Hornby did not speak, but waited coldly for her to continue. There +was plainly no help offered her. + +"I--I can't explain, Uncle Nate--I am going to call you so--you--you shall +not put me away. I have come for your forgiveness and--and I'm going to +stay till I get it. I--I can't explain--there--there are things in life +that we can't explain, but I'm innocent of this stuck-up business you +think I've had. I--I've loved you and Aunt Susan. Oh, Uncle Nate, I've +loved her better than I ever did my own mother," she ended with a sob. + +There was the voice of honesty in what she said, but Nathan remembered his +wrongs. + +"If that's so, why didn't you come t' see 'er?" he said. "If you loved +'er, why'd you let 'er go down to 'er grave a pinin' for you? She looked +for you till she was crazy 'most, an' she never got a decent word out of +you, nor a decent visit neither. If you loved 'er, what'd you act that way +for?" + +The memory of that last day, when his wife had yearned so pitifully for +this girl, arose before him as he stood there, and shook his faith in the +honesty of Elizabeth's purposes in spite of the earnestness of her +manner. + +"That is the one thing I cannot explain, Uncle Nate," Elizabeth answered. +"I--I was all ready to come that day and--and--then I couldn't." + +She buried her face in her hands at the memory of it and burst into +tears. + +"Is it true that Hunter won't take you anywhere?" he asked pointedly. + +"You have been listening to the Cranes," she answered. + +"I've been listenin' t' more'n them," he said with the fixed purpose of +drawing her out on the subject. "I've been listenin' t' some as says +you're too high and mighty t' associate with th' likes of us--an' I've +heard it said that your husband won't take you nowhere. Now I just +naturally know that a man can't shut a woman up in this American country, +so's she can't go anywhere she wants t', if she wants t' bad enough; an' I +remember how Hunter was 'fore 'e married you; 'e was always on th' go--an' +there's a nigger in th' woodpile somewheres." + +Elizabeth was for the moment staggered. What he said was so true. And yet, +how untrue! It was hard to think with the eye of suspicion on her. +Appearances were against her, but she was determined not to discuss the +privacies of her married life. She paused and looked Nathan squarely in +the face till she could control her reasoning faculties. + +"That is neither here nor there," she said quite firmly at last. "I shall +not defend myself to you, Uncle Nate, nor explain away bad reports. It +would not help me and it would not help you. What I am here for is to +offer you my love _now_. What I want you to believe is that I mean it, +that I've wanted to come, that I'm here because I want to be here, and +that I never mean to neglect you again. I--I couldn't come to see +her--but, oh, Uncle Nate, mayn't I come to see you? I can't tell you all +the little ins and outs of why I haven't come before, but you must believe +me." + +Elizabeth ended imploringly. + +The man was softened by her evident sincerity in spite of himself, and yet +his wound was of long standing, his belief in her honesty shaken, his +beloved wife in her grave, assisted to her final stroke by this girl's +neglect, and he could not lay his bitterness aside easily. He did not +speak. + +The silence which followed was broken only by the ticking of the +old-fashioned Seth Thomas clock and the roar of the fire. + +Elizabeth looked around the familiar room in her dilemma, entangled in the +mesh of her loyalty to her husband's dubious and misleading actions. +Nearly every article in that room was associated with some tender +recollection in the girl's mind. Not even the perplexity of the moment +could entirely shut out the reminiscent side of the occasion. The +bread-board, dusty and unused, leaned against the flour barrel, the little +line above it where the dishtowels should hang sagged under the weight of +a bridle hung there to warm the frosty bit, the rocking chair, mended with +broom wire after the cyclone, and on its back Aunt Susan's chambray +sunbonnet where it had fallen from its nail: all familiar. With a little +cry Elizabeth fell on her knees by Nathan Hornby's side. + +"Oh, Uncle Nate! you can't tell what others have to contend with, and--and +you must not even ask, but----" She could not proceed for sobs. + +Nathan Hornby's own face twitched and trembled with emotion. The girl had +unconsciously used Susan's own last words. His heart was touched. Susan's +great love for Elizabeth pleaded for her. + +"Can't I come, Uncle Nate? Won't you be friends with me?" + +And Nathan Hornby, who wanted her friendship, answered reluctantly: + +"Yes-s-s--come along if you want t'. You won't find it a very cheerful +place t' come to, but she'd be glad t' know you're here, I guess." + +Jack, sitting in his shawls and wraps on the floor, began to cry. He had +been neglected long enough. His mother got suddenly to her feet. Both +stooped to take the baby. Elizabeth resigned him to Nathan, instinctively +realizing that Jack was a good advocate in her favour if Nathan still +retained fragments of his grievances. She let the old man retain him on +his lap while she busied herself about him unpinning his shawls. + +It was home-like and companionable to have a woman and baby in the house, +and Nathan Hornby had been lonesome a long time. He clucked to the baby +and began to trot him up and down on his knee. With a relieved sigh +Elizabeth dropped into a chair and watched them. + +Jack, unaccustomed to whiskers, put his hand out to investigate. Nathan +waggled his chin to shake its pendant brush, and Jack started nervously. +Nathan looked across at Elizabeth and laughed. That little laugh did a +world of good in aiding Elizabeth's plans. It was not possible for Nathan +to catch her eye in good-natured raillery and remain cool of manner; that +laugh and the glance that went with it did much to wash away his hurt. In +his secret soul Nathan had craved Elizabeth's love and Elizabeth's baby. +She had been like a daughter in the house. He had missed her almost as +much as his wife had done, but he had resented her long absence. He had +come to the house determined not to forget his wrongs, and here he was, in +less than fifteen minutes, smiling at her over the head of the baby in +friendly amusement. He was puzzled now at the readiness with which he had +given in, but Nathan found his love stronger than his grievances. + +"Take off your things, Lizzie; th' house's yours if you--if you really +want it to be." + +Elizabeth took off her wraps and prepared to begin work on the disorderly +kitchen. Aunt Susan's limp apron hung on the nail from which the bonnet +had fallen, and she put it on, looking about her, undecided where it was +best to commence. + +"I've come to help--where shall I begin?" she said. + +"If I could tell you what t' do I could 'a' done it myself," Nathan said +ruefully. + +Elizabeth thought of the orderly wife who was gone and a sob arose in her +throat. + +"Oh, Uncle Nate! You don't know how I miss her sometimes." + +And Nathan Hornby replied sadly: + +"I kind a think maybe I do." + + * * * * * + +The night was cloudy and the long diagonal drifts made it hard to drive +after dark. The chores had kept Noland later than he had thought and it +was dusk when he arrived at Nathan's for Elizabeth. + +Hugh Noland had been spending the afternoon with John Hunter about the +barn, measuring him and talking of farm prospects. Here was the place for +him to settle down, if he could arrange for a partnership. He was so much +convinced of this that he was endeavouring to make the alliances of +friendship before he led up to the more serious one. It had baffled him to +have Elizabeth answer in monosyllables both going to Mr. Hornby's and +again during their return; he wanted to talk. Her home was the first +farmhouse he had ever entered that he felt could be home to him; its +evidences of culture and refinement had made as lasting an impression upon +Hugh Noland as that same home had done upon Elizabeth when John Hunter had +taken her to see his mother in it. It was an oasis in the rural desert. He +meant to exert every effort to establish himself in it. When Elizabeth did +not respond to his attempts at conversation, he fell back upon the +analysis of herself and her husband which had been going on in his mind +all day. They were evidently not people who felt above their neighbours on +account of their superior education, for she had gone to spend a whole +afternoon with that plain old farmer and she had shown the liveliest +interest, even friendship, for the Swede on the other side of the farm. He +liked them the better for that. If a man or woman lived in a community he +or she should be a part of that community. Hugh Noland never doubted that +the friendly interest he had witnessed was the regularly established +course of action and that it was mutual in the household. Coming into the +household at this transition point, he was to make many such mistakes in +his estimates. + +John Hunter was at the side gate to assist his wife and baby out of the +sled. He left Elizabeth to carry Jack to the house and went to the barn to +help Noland put the team away. This man, who took milking as a lark, and +all farm work as a thing to be desired, and yet was a gentleman, was to +John Hunter, who scorned these things as beneath himself, an anomaly. It +had never occurred to John that labour of that sort could have dignity, +nor that a man could choose it as a livelihood unless driven to it. It had +never occurred to him that if driven to it one should enter into it as a +real participant. To him it was a thing to endure for a time and never +refer to after it could be put behind him. The beauty of the dawn, the +pleasant odours of new-mown hay, the freshness of the crisp air, the +association with the living creatures about him, the joys of a clean life, +all escaped him. Hugh Noland had enumerated these things, and many more, +while they had worked together that afternoon, and John Hunter accepted +the enumeration, not because it was fundamentally true, but because it was +the estimate of a cultured and well-educated man. + +John Hunter had been vexed at Elizabeth for the sangfroid with which she +had walked away from established custom in ordering the team prepared for +her to be taken to Nathan's, but with Noland present he had accepted it +without remark. Here was a man before whom John would always, but +instinctively rather than premeditatively, endeavour to show his best +side. + +Hugh Noland went to the house with John, talking farm work and prices of +produce as if they were matters of pleasant as well as necessary +importance, and he set John to talking in his best vein and without +superciliousness; he had the faculty of bringing out the best in the +people he met. He brought some of his books--he had stopped at the +Chamberlain homestead for his trunk on their return that evening--and +added them to those already on the Hunter shelves. While arranging them, +he sat on the floor before the bookcase and glancing over the titles of +those belonging to the family, opened an occasional one and read aloud a +verse or a paragraph or two. He read with zest and enthusiasm. He was +fresh from the world of lectures and theatres, and the social life of the +city, and became a rejuvenating leaven for this entire household. + + * * * * * + +Luther was on Elizabeth's mind when she awakened the next morning, and as +soon as the breakfast work was finished and she had time to get the house +in order, she decided to move from her new standpoint and go to see him. +To this end she asked Mrs. Hunter to keep Jack while she was gone, and to +the older woman's objections that she should let the men hitch up the sled +and drive her over she answered firmly: + +"I don't want a word said about it. I will go whenever I please without +arguing it with anybody." + +In her secret soul she was glad to get past the barn without John seeing +her. She would not have permitted him to stop her, or delay her visit, but +a discussion with her husband was apt to hold surprises and she to become +confused and angry, and worsted in the _manner_ of her insistence. To get +away without having to explain put her in good spirits. + +The sun shone brightly and the air, though snappy and cold, was brisk and +fresh. It was the first free walk of a mile Elizabeth had ever taken since +her marriage. Elizabeth was herself again. She skirted around the long +drifts as she crossed the field humming a snatch of tune with all her +blood atingle with the delight of being alone in the vast silent fields. +The mere passing of time since Aunt Susan's death had gradually worked a +change in her condition, which Luther's presence and the stimulating +quality of his words, John's absence, the intoxication of the wild and +unfettered storm, the visit to Nathan Hornby's, and the invigorating +personality of Hugh Noland had combined to rejuvenate in the crushed and +beaten girl. Life held meanings to which she had long been blind. +Elizabeth set about the reorganizing of her life with no bitterness toward +John, only glad to have found herself, with duty to herself as well as +others still possible. + +Sadie Hansen met Elizabeth at the door with such evident uneasiness that +Elizabeth was moved to ask: + +"Luther's all right, Sadie?" + +"Yes-s-s!" Sadie replied slowly, and with such reluctance that Elizabeth +was puzzled. + +Sadie took her to the bedroom and shut the door behind her as tight as if +she hoped to shut out some evil spirit in the action. Her manner filled +Elizabeth with curiosity, but she crossed to Luther and held out her +hand. + +"Before you 'uns begin," Sadie said with the air of burning her bridges +behind her, and before any one had had a chance to speak, "I want t' tell +you something. I could 'a' told it in th' kitchen," she stammered, "but I +made up my mind last night that I'd have it out with both of you. I've +done you th' meanest trick, Lizzie. Luther said you was goin' t' Hornby's +yesterday. Did you go?" + +Elizabeth, standing at the head of Luther's bed, nodded in her surprise, +feeling that her visit with Nathan was not a subject to which she could +lend words. + +"Now look here, Lizzie, if what I said t' th' Hornbys has made any +difference, I'll go t' him an' take it back right before your face." + +Elizabeth's eyes opened in astonishment. + +"Uncle Nate did not mention it to me," Elizabeth replied. + +"Well, I've made up my mind I want t' tell it, an' have it off my mind." + +Sadie considered a moment and then plunged into her tale hurriedly, for +fear that her courage would cease to support her. + +"Well, when I was to your house last summer, an' you told me about th' +effect it had on a baby t' have a mother that never got mad, I come home +an' tried t' do everything I thought you meant an'--seems t' me I never +was s' mean in my life. Mean feelin' I mean. I got along pretty well at +first--I guess it was somethin' new--? but th' nearer I got t' th' time, +th' worse I got. I scolded Luther Hansen till I know he wished he'd never +been born. Th' worst of it was that I'd told 'im how--what a difference it +made, and he was that anxious----?" + +Luther raised his hand to protest, but Sadie waved him aside and +continued: + +"Oh, you needn't defend me, Luther!" she exclaimed. "I've been meaner 'n +you know of." Turning to Elizabeth again, "I used t' look over t' your +house an' feel--an' feel 's if I could only see you an' talk a while, I'd +git over wantin' t' be s' mean, but you wouldn't never come t' see +us--an'--an' I didn't feel's if--I didn't feel free t' go any more, 'cause +ma said you didn't want t' be sociable with our kind of folks." + +Sadie paused a moment to crease the hem of her apron and get the twitching +out of the corners of her distressed mouth. + +"Well, at last, when you didn't come, an' I couldn't git no help from no +one, I just said every mean thing I could. I told Hornby a week 'fore his +wife died that you said you didn't want t' change visits with us country +jakes, 'cause you wanted your boy t' be different from th' likes of us. +Ma'd heard that somewhere, but I told it t' 'im 's if you'd said it t' me. +Sue Hornby put 'er hand on my arm an' said, so kind like, 'Sadie, ain't +you 'fraid t' talk that way an' you in that fix?' An' I just cried an' +cried, an' couldn't even tell 'er I'd tried t' do different." + +Luther Hansen had been trying to interrupt the flow of his wife's +confession, and broke in at this point by saying: + +"Sadie's nervous an' upset over----" + +"No, I ain't," Sadie replied hastily. "I've been as mean as mud, an' here +she's took care of you, an' I've gone an' got Hornby mad at 'er. He +believed what I told, if 'is wife didn't. They say, Lizzie, that 'e lives +there all by 'iself an'----" Sadie choked, and waited for Elizabeth to +speak. + +"I guess you've worried about nothing," Elizabeth said brightly. "I've +been to see him, and we're good friends--the best kind in fact, and no one +could ever make us anything else hereafter." She looked down at Luther and +smiled. + +"Will it make any difference with my baby?" Sadie asked anxiously, her +mind working like a treadmill in its own little round. + +"No, Sadie--that is, I guess not. I've been thinking, as I listened to +you, that the way you tried would have to count--it's bigger than anything +else you've done." + +Sadie Hansen dropped into a chair sobbing hysterically. + +Elizabeth's hand went to the girl's shoulder comfortingly. + +"God does not ask that we succeed, Sadie; he asks that we try." + + * * * * * + +Elizabeth was back in her own kitchen in time to get dinner. John had seen +her as she came home, but made no remark. + +At the end of three weeks there was a consultation between Hugh Noland and +John regarding a possible partnership. Not only did Noland like John +Hunter, but he was delighted with the atmosphere with which he found him +surrounded. + +"This is a home," had been Hugh's secret analysis of the household. In +fact the home was the main feature of the Hunter farm, the main reason for +wishing to stay. + +To John the offer of partnership was a blessing from heaven itself. The +matter of interest was pressing on him far more than he had acknowledged +to Elizabeth. It galled him to discuss things with her since she had +ceased to ask about them or even to show any concern. He did not realize +that she had been compelled to consider the matter hopeless. + +It was agreed that Hugh should lift the indebtedness and have one half +interest in the concern, land and stock. There would be about five hundred +dollars left over after all the debts were paid, and John gleefully +decided to buy some more calves with the residue. + +"But we shall need every cent of that for running expenses this summer," +Noland objected. + +"Oh, well, if we do, we can always get money on sixty or ninety day +loans," John replied easily. + +"I'd rather not go into debt, with my health," the new partner said +decidedly. + +He happened to look across at Elizabeth and caught the alert sign of +approval in her face. He had heard Silas and some others discuss the +Hunter mortgages, but here was a still more significant evidence. +Elizabeth had not signalled him, but the look told the story; in fact, it +told more than the girl had intended. + +"I should consider it a necessary condition of any business I went into," +he added steadily. "I am an uncertain quantity, as I have told you, with +this heart, and I could not be worried with debts." + +Elizabeth did not look at him this time, but he saw the look of +satisfaction and heard her indrawn breath. And now the really lovable side +of Hugh Noland began to show out. Feeling now that he was a real member of +the family, he began to give himself to its pleasing features. The +evening's reading became a thing to which the whole group looked forward. +The flow of companionship exceeded anything any member of the family had +ever anticipated. Jake arrived in time for the spring work, as he had +agreed, and was astonished by every feature of the family life which he +saw about him. Elizabeth was cheerful, even happy, while John Hunter was +another man. Jake figured out the changes about him wistfully, craving a +part in the good-fellowship. Here was contentment such as Jake had never +witnessed. Not a trace of the old tragic conditions seemed to remain. Jake +had missed the key to the situation by his absence at the time of the +blizzard, but he was keenly aware that some change had been wrought. He +studied Hugh Noland and was even more enthusiastic about his personality +and powers than the family. All called the new man by his given name, a +sure sign of their affection. + +Elizabeth had worked a radical change in her life. Jake watched her come +and go without remark from her husband, give her orders to Hugh to hitch +up for her if she chose to drive, or if she walked, going without +permission, and was almost as pleased as she. He saw that she had learned +to keep her own counsel and not to speak of her plans till the time for +action had arrived. He felt a something new in her. + +Elizabeth had, in fact, learned that while openness was a point of +character, nevertheless, if she dealt openly with her husband it led to +quarrelsome discussions. She saw that John did not know why he opposed +her, that it was instinctive. As she studied him, however, she found how +widely separated they were in spirit. The calm which Jake saw, was all +there, but there were other things fully as vital which had not been there +before. The self-questioning of those months previous to Aunt Susan's +death had been productive of results. While a certain openness of attitude +had disappeared, there was the strength which has all the difference +between deceit and reserve in Elizabeth Hunter's face. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + +THE CHILD OF HER BODY + + +In the spring Elizabeth's affairs, which had promised to straighten out, +were complicated from a new quarter. She was now to test her strength +against the greatest of all problems for women and to find out if she +could put her precepts into practice. The probability of a second child +had become a certainty; the necessity of adjusting her good-will to +accidental child-bearing was upon her. Often and often her words to +Sadie--"I always wanted my baby"--rose up to accuse her. Only of late had +suspicion become a certainty. Elizabeth did not greet that certainty with +joy. Life was hard; she had more work to do already than she was able to +perform; try as she would she could not get her mental consent. Why must +she have this undesired child? When the thought first wormed its way into +her head, Elizabeth passed from disappointment to self-accusation. By +every law of God and man a mother should want her child; if she did not, +then she stood accused at Nature's bar. + +"For its sake I've got to want it; I'll make myself," she decided. But she +did not want it, and found to her growing dismay that she could not make +herself satisfied about it. Instead of becoming reconciled, the question +enlarged and grew and gained in point and force. The girl decided that she +would be glad in spite of every opposing thing, but her resolution was +formed with tears in her heart, if not in her eyes, and the weary ache in +her back never ceased. "It must not be so. My child must be welcome!" +Elizabeth told herself each morning, but she was too tired; it was not +welcome, and all her efforts failed to make it so. + +John was vexed when he found her in tears. + +"The idea!" he exclaimed. "Now if we were too poor to feed and clothe it +there'd be some excuse, but----" He made his pause as expressive as he +could. + +"It isn't that. I--I'm so tired and--I ought to be glad--and--and I'm +not," she began. + +"Well, I suppose with mother gone"--Mrs. Hunter had returned to her old +home on a visit--"you _have_ got a good deal to look after, but I've got +to get to the field now. You're always raking something up that looks +wrong to you. If you'd stick to your work and not run around looking for +trouble you'd be able to want it, maybe." + +The force of her husband's suggestion struck the girl. Perhaps it was true +that she had missed the very highest for herself in loving ease and +comfort enough to seek them. To put discontent away from her and to keep +her thoughts occupied she began the spring housecleaning. There was so +much regular cooking and milk work that only one room could be attacked at +a time, but she kept busy, and the plan worked admirably during the day. +She was not sleeping well, however, and found that nights have a power all +their own. When the lights went out, thought held the girl in its +relentless grip. It was of no use to lengthen her working hours in the +hope that sleep would come more promptly, for the more exhausted Elizabeth +became the less able was she to sleep, and thought stared at her out of +the darkness with eyes like living coals. + +Wherever Elizabeth turned this monster confronted her, this monster whose +tail was a question mark, whose body obscured everything on the horizon of +the immediate future except its own repulsive presence, and threw her back +upon the suffering present and the much to be deplored past. Was it right +to permit a child to come when joy had gone out of relations between its +parents? This question grew and ripened and spread, and whenever she +summoned up enough will-power to weed it out for an hour it would spring +up anew, refreshed and more tenacious than ever. + +"Whether it's right or not for John and me to have a child after we've +quit loving each other, if I can only be glad it's coming, or even be +willing to have it, I won't mind, now," she told herself. But she was not +glad, and she was not even willing. She dragged herself about, keeping +busy day after day as her husband had advised; it was her only refuge, and +one which could not avail very long, for already she was worn out. On the +last day of the cleaning, Hugh Noland came to the door of her room and +speaking from the outside said: + +"I came in to see if I couldn't help you a little in getting ready for +those shellers, Mrs. Hunter." Hugh had noticed her weary look of late, +and, as all the men about the house did, tried to help whenever there was +time to be spared from the fields or when extra work was required of her. + +"Shellers?" + +Elizabeth backed out of the closet she was cleaning, and came around to +the door. + +"Shellers? Are we going to have shellers?" + +"To-morrow," he said in surprise. + +In spite of her exclamation of astonishment Elizabeth noted a familiar +look on Hugh Noland's face which had something in it that always caught +her attention. Always when an unexpected thing came upon Hugh, Elizabeth +had a sense of having had past relations with him. + +"You don't tell me you didn't know?" + +"I surely didn't. When did John go to see the men about it? Why, I haven't +even bread baked!" she exclaimed. + +"That's funny! Well--I suppose he forgot to tell you. The men passed here +before dinner and he went out to the road and engaged them. We've got a +little corn left over, and prices seem to be up this week." + +"Well, it's only one of many things," she said, trying to smile. + +Her eyes wandered over the disordered bedroom as she considered. Clothing, +boots, shoes, and other articles of apparel lay scattered over the bed. +Her orderly soul could not leave them without finishing. + +"I'll tell you what you do--I'll straighten up here. You go over to Uncle +Nate's and get me some yeast. I'll have to bake. I made him some yeast the +last time I made for myself, and he'll have some left. It's been too damp +and cloudy to make any of late. Then I'll see what you can do," she said +wearily. "I surely will need help if I've got to have a dozen extra men +without notice. I suppose John forgot. He's usually thoughtful about the +cooking for strange men." + +Something in the hurt, weary look of her went to Hugh Noland's heart. + +"I'll run over to Hornby's and back in half an hour unless he's at the far +side of the field. Anyhow, I'll get back the very first minute I can. I +have to start to Mitchell County to-morrow, early in the morning, so I +won't have any time to do anything except to-night. I can kill the +chickens for you, and bring things up out of the cellar. What on earth +made anybody put a cave as far from the kitchen door as that for is more +than I can see," he said, taking vengeance on the first unpleasant feature +of her circumstances that presented itself. + +Hugh did not at all understand why she was sick and unequal to the demands +made upon her strength, but he did see that she was so, and that her tired +young face wore a discouraged expression. + +"I'll take Jack with me; that'll help some," he said as an afterthought. + +"If you would----" The relief in her voice told the strain it was upon her +to work and watch the toddling child. "I'll tell you--hurry back and tack +this carpet down for me. I'll have the room and closet straightened up so +that you can do it by then." + +She wiped Jack's dirty face with the end of a towel she thrust into the +water pitcher on the washstand and sent him off with a kiss to the welcome +ride. As she worked after they were gone, she ran over in her mind the +supplies on hand for the feeding of fifteen men on such short notice. +Threshing and corn-shelling meant hard work to the men who followed the +business, but it meant feasting and festivity as well, and it was with the +prospect of much cooking on the morrow that Elizabeth furrowed her +forehead, and hurried with the replacing of the contents of the closet. +There was a sponge to be set to-night and bread to bake to-morrow; there +was a cake to be baked, beans picked over and set to soak, and dried fruit +to stew; also, and what was more annoying, she had let the churning run +over for twenty-four hours in order to finish her cleaning. + +"If I can't get around to that churning, I'll just let it go if it does +sour," she decided at last. + +When Hugh came back she set him to work at the carpet and went to the +kitchen to look after things there. Nathan had offered to keep Jack when +he heard of the unexpected work his mother was going to have thrust upon +her, and Hugh, remembering Elizabeth's relieved expression when he had +offered to bring the child, was only too glad to leave him in such good +hands. + +"How long is that child going to stay at Hornby's?" John demanded the next +morning. He set the heavy cream jar on the table and faced Elizabeth, who +was kneading the bread on the big bread-board which rested on the top of +the flour barrel. + +"I don't know--till Uncle Nate gets time to bring him home to-day, I +suppose." + +Elizabeth did not look up. + +"Well, I don't want this thing to happen again. A child that age has no +business away from home. What was your idea, anyhow?" + +"Ask Hugh. I didn't have anything to do with it. I didn't even know it +till he got back. He knew you had engaged the shellers without giving me +any notice, and he knew I had too much for any woman to do. Uncle Nate +knew it too. Go on, and don't bother me this morning; I'm so tired I can't +talk about it, anyhow." + +John Hunter was instantly apologetic. + +"Oh, well, if Hugh did it I suppose he meant well. He got off all right. I +look for some results with that Mitchell County land if he goes into it +right. I'll send the cattle down as soon as he has time to get the fences +in line and a man to look after them. I brought this cream up; it won't +keep any longer." + +John lifted the lid of the cream jar and sniffed with disapproval. "I'll +just put it into the churn for you." + +"Oh, dear! what did you bring it up for to-day? I can't churn with all +I've got to do. Take it back." + +"It won't keep!" + +"Well--I can't churn, and I won't, so there! I've got all I can do to-day. +I should not have let it go, but the cleaning dragged so; besides, I +didn't know I was going to have all these men to-day and I thought I could +get it done. Take it back. I can't have the churn around in the way +to-day. I've never let a churning go to waste in my life, but if this gets +too sour it won't cost any more than to have hired a girl to help with the +work this week. Go on, and take it to the cellar and let me alone." + +Elizabeth turned her back to show him that the argument was over, and did +not see that he went out without it, leaving it on the back of the one +small kitchen table she had. The pies she had just finished baking were +ready to be taken from the oven, and when she turned to put them on the +table she was confronted by the cream jar. The table was not large and she +must have room for the food to be cooked that day, so Elizabeth lifted the +heavy jar from the table and, after the pies were out, brought the churn. +She could not carry it to the cellar again and there was no other way. + +The sour cream refused to yield, and the girl churned on and on while she +watched the dinner cook. The dinner boiled and bubbled, and the stove was +working as actively in the kitchen as the corn-sheller was doing in the +barnyard, when Nathan set Jack in the doorway and followed him in. Nathan +sniffed appreciatively. + +"Smells pretty good in here," he said, and then surveying the room in +surprise added, "What on earth be you churnin' for? Ain't you got enough +t' do, child?" + +Elizabeth stooped to gather Jack into her arms and made no reply. + +"It's as hot as th' devil in here," Nathan said, taking his coat off. +"Here let me have a turn at that churn. You ought t' be in bed. That's +where Sue'd put you if she was here." + +He took the dasher into his own hand and began a brave onslaught on the +over-sour cream. The butter gave signs of coming, but would not gather. He +churned, and the sweat of his brow had to be wiped frequently to keep it +from where he would literally have it to eat; it ran down inside his +prickly blue flannel shirt, it stood out on his hair, hands and arms like +dew on the morning grass, and the old man looked out to the wheezing +corn-sheller and envied the men working in the cool breeze where life and +courage could be sustained while one laboured. + +"I wouldn't be a woman for fifty dollars a day," he announced with grim +conviction. "It'd make a devil out of anybody t' work in this hell-hole. +No wonder you're s' peeked, child." + + * * * * * + +John came back to the house almost immediately after leaving it to go to +work in the afternoon. + +"You'll have to bake more pies, Elizabeth. The men have been put back by a +breakdown. They won't be able to get through before five or half-past," he +said, coming into the kitchen to investigate the larder. + +"They can't?" Elizabeth exclaimed, longing for the rest she had planned to +get after the dinner work was finished. + +"No. It's too bad, but it can't be helped. Now you get the oven going and +I'll come in and help you about beating the eggs. You'll have to make +custard pie, I guess, for there ain't enough fruit to make any more. +Hurry, and I'll be in in a few minutes." + +"I'm not going to make any more pies to-day," Elizabeth replied. + +"You'll have to. Men like pies better than anything you could put on the +table. How are you off for meat? Have you chicken enough left or shall I +bring up a ham?" + +Elizabeth faced this second meal with a dread she could not have +expressed; she was so tired that she could scarcely stand; her back ached, +and there was a strange pain pulling at her vitals. + +"I'll attend to the supper. Go right on out of here. I am not going to +bake any more pies. You crowded that churning on me this morning and you'd +make my work double what it ought to be if I let you help. Go on!" + +John brushed past her and lifted the bread-box. + +The fierce heat of the cook stove, the pain in her back, the certain +knowledge of suggestions to come, broke down the poise the girl was trying +to maintain. + +"I don't want any remarks about that bread-box! I've got sense enough to +get supper. Go on out to your own work and let me attend to mine." + +John Hunter stepped back in astonishment. He had been sympathetic, and had +really wanted to be helpful. He was insulted and struck an attitude +intended to convey the fact, but his wife closed the oven door with a bang +and left the room without looking at him. + +John punished his wife that night by letting her wash the supper dishes +alone. + +The next morning John continued to be aloof of manner and went to his work +without attempting to empty the skimmed milk as usual, or to strain the +new milk which stood at the top of the long cellar stairs. Elizabeth +skimmed and strained and put the shelves in order. Her head ached, and her +back never ceased hurting. When the last crock had been carried from the +cave, the half-sick girl dragged herself to the bedroom and threw herself +down on the unmade bed. + +"I don't care--I won't do another stroke till I feel better, if it's never +done. It wasn't nice for me to scold yesterday when he really wanted to +help, but he makes so much extra work that I _can't_ get it all done. It +don't hurt him any more to be scolded than it does me to be kept on my +feet after everything in my body is pulling out. He won't run off again +and leave me to carry that heavy milk. I don't know why I didn't just +leave it." + +Elizabeth did not realize that she had done more than waste useful +strength on useless tasks. She had yet to find out that it would have been +cheaper to have left the entire contents of the cellar to sour or mould +than to have worked on after she could do no more in comfort. It took +Doctor Morgan to point out to her that farmers and their wives place undue +value on a dollar's worth of milk, and that they support those of his +profession at a far greater price than their butter would cost if they fed +the milk to the pigs; also that they fill the asylums with victims and +give younger women the chance to spend what they have worked to save after +they are transplanted to other regions. They had been obliged to send for +the doctor at noon. + +The name of peritonitis did not impress the young wife with any importance +when the old doctor warned her to lie still and rest. The fierce pain was +eased by getting off her feet and she was so glad to rest that she took +his advice, but she had had no illness and little experience with chronic +ailments. He hoped to pull her through without the threatened disaster, +but warned her solemnly. + +"I'm glad we have you where you can't carry anything more out of that +confounded hole in the ground," he said savagely. "You'd never quit till +you were down, anyhow. Now don't you lift that child, no matter whether he +cries or not." + +He took John aside and talked to him seriously about his wife, and +demanded that there be a hired girl procured. John listened as seriously +and went to the kitchen and got the supper and prepared for breakfast. He +worked diligently and took Elizabeth a dainty bite to eat, but when the +question of a girl came up, he had his own say about that. + +"I'll do the work in this house till you can get around yourself, but I +never intend to look for a girl in this country again. You'll be stronger +after a bit and then you can look for one." + +He put Jack's nightgown over his little head and buttoned it in the back +while he talked. + +"This 'll pass over, and You'll be better in a week's time. I don't care +if you have two girls, so I don't have to hunt them. Here, Jack, let me +slip that shoe off." + +"I can't seem to get well, though, with the drag of the housework on my +mind," the girl said drearily. + +Elizabeth wanted a woman in the kitchen. She lay without speaking for a +moment, thinking that as usual she was unable to get the thing that her +own judgment demanded. John would wash his dishes clean and keep the +cooking and sweeping done as well as she, but she knew that the first day +she would be out of bed she would be dragged to the kitchen to consult and +oversee continually. + +"Doctor Morgan said I might not be able to get around much all summer," +she ventured, exaggerating the words of the old doctor somewhat in her +determination to get help at all costs that would leave her free to get +well. + +"At least you can wait and see," John replied indifferently, already +concerned with his own problems. He pushed Jack from his lap and sat lost +in thought. + +Elizabeth made it a rule never to argue unless there was hope of righting +things. To say one word more was to lose her temper and that she tried not +to do. The girl was really very ill; her head ached, and her body was sore +and tender. She had not had a whole night's sleep for weeks and every +nerve in her body cried out for rest; she wanted the light put out, she +wanted to get quiet and to forget the house, and to be freed from the +confusion; she was so nervous that she started at every noise. The night +was cool and Jack, who shivered in his thin gown, crawled into his +father's lap. John wanted to think at that moment, and to get rid of him +put him firmly down on the foot of the bed, moving over to give him room +at his side as he did so. + +"Oh, don't shake the bed!" Elizabeth exclaimed, with such concentrated +irritation that John set the child on the floor hastily. + +"I only thought you could watch him a minute. I can't keep him on my lap +all the time," John replied. + +"Well, put him in the bed then, or tie him up or do something. I don't +want to watch him, and his climbing around on the bed sets me crazy!" she +exclaimed, pushing the child away from her pillow. + +"We don't tie children up in the Hunter family," John replied, as usual +falling upon the unimportant phase of the discussion and, instead of +putting the child in bed, carried him off to the sitting room, where he +fell into another brown study and let the baby slip from his lap again. + +Jack, as soon as released, ran back to the bedroom and threw himself up +against the side of the bed, stretching his arms up to be taken. + +"Don't, dear; go to papa," Elizabeth said, trying to reach him. + +Jack sidled away toward the foot of the bed, where he regarded his mother +with stolid eyes, and beat a tattoo on the bed-rail with his hard little +head. + +"Jack! Don't do that!" she commanded sharply. + +It was torture for her to have the bed jarred. + +Jack, baby fashion, raised his head and gave the bed-rail another whack. + +Elizabeth sat up suddenly and gave the child such a resounding slap that +he sat down, shaking the whole house with the impact, his screams quite in +keeping with the occasion. John carried the crying child out of the room, +shutting the door with such a bang that the house and bed shook anew, and +the girl had to bite her lip to keep from screaming. + +It was the first time Elizabeth had ever struck her child in anger. +Usually gentle and patient with his baby wilfulness, her heart recoiled at +the deed. She knew that the possibilities of that action had been growing +upon her of late. Nothing could excuse it to the accusing judge of +Elizabeth's own soul. It was as if she were fenced around with a thousand +devils; turn where she would there was no help and but little hope. She +had come to understand herself enough to know that with sufficient +provocation she would almost certainly do it again. The girl thought of +her father. The deed was so like things that she had seen him do that she +almost tore her hair as she prayed to be spared such a soul-destroying +fate. + +It was Jack's future estimates of her that caused her so much distress. +The things emphasized by the mother in a home, she knew, were the things +emphasized in the lives of her children. She had only to look at Jack's +father to see the evidences of that truth. Mrs. Hunter's cleanliness and +order, her tendency to over-emphasize details, were her son's strongest +watchwords. It was absolutely imperative that she do the right thing by +Jack. As she pondered she decided that she would rise up and make one more +effort for the child. Then, like a creeping serpent, the thought of her +attitude toward the child of her body suddenly presented its forked tongue +and demanded that its future be reckoned with. From what principle was she +dealing with it? Elizabeth knelt before the shrine of that child, not in +joy and adoration, but with a fear which had almost become a hatred. + +Elizabeth did not realize that it was the work and worry which she had +gone through in these last weeks which made her irritable. She did not +recognize the difference between nerves and temper, but she had come to +understand that the unborn child was draining her strength. The prayer in +her heart as she lay there thinking it out was for help to adjust her life +to the conditions which she must meet, for strength to control herself, +and for the power to so order her mental attitude toward this new child +that she might be able to love it as it certainly deserved to be loved. +But even as she prayed a horrible thought took possession of her: + +"If only it would die and be prematurely released, as Doctor Morgan had +said there was danger of it doing!" + +It was then that Elizabeth Hunter realized the possibilities in herself. +That was murder! If John complicated her work throughout eternity it would +not warrant such an attitude. But this second child! It was the absorbing +topic of her thoughts as she vainly tried to rest. She was so worn out +that she could face no more work than she already had to do, and ever as +she thought this serpent of temptation thrust its head out at her and +said: "If the child would only die!" + +Elizabeth had only to get out of bed and go to work to rid herself of the +hateful burden in the present state of her health, but under no +circumstances would she have done it. She would have parted with her right +hand before she would have helped to destroy a life she had permitted to +spring into being, and yet---- The thought occurred, and recurred, in +spite of every effort, "If only----" And she knew that if it happened +without her assistance she would be glad. + +Elizabeth's distress increased, and when John brought her dinner on a tray +covered with a fresh napkin and beside the plate a violet he and Jack had +found in the pasture she brightened with pleasure at the dainty +arrangement, but did not touch the food. + +"Now be good to the baby; he's been asking for you all morning," he said, +kissing Elizabeth with an effort at kindliness and understanding. + +Elizabeth's head was aching wildly, and she was so nervous that she could +scarcely endure being spoken to at all. + +"Then don't leave him here, John, for I can't bear to have him fussing +around," she said, trying to be appreciative. + +"Oh, well, if you don't want him at all, I'll take him out again," he said +crossly, setting the tray on a chair beside the bed. + +He was able, however, to see that the girl was not altogether herself, and +shut the door behind him carefully. The door shut so softly that the latch +did not catch. When Jack finished his dinner he came running to his +mother's room at once. The door gave way under his hand and he stood +looking into the room curiously. After a glance around, he advanced +confidently toward the bed with a mischievous twinkle in his eyes. + +Elizabeth set her teeth hard. She was unable to reach out and lift him to +a chair where he would not jar the bed, so it was her intention to be +patient. + +Jack's eyes fell upon the tray as he passed it, and he wheeled around and +took stock of the contents of this new form of table. Frantic with +irritability and knowing that she would be at fault in the manner of +correcting the child, his mother let him eat out of the plate she had left +untouched, rather than have a scene with him. Presently, however, Jack +laid down the spoon with which he had been eating and attacked a dish of +berries with his hands, letting the drops from the ends of his fingers +trickle down the front of his clean gingham dress. Elizabeth happened to +look up and saw what he was doing. There was no telling when she could get +another washing done and her impulse was to spring at him and snatch him +from harm's way, but she was trying to be more gentle and, drawing in a +deep breath, she spoke as quietly as she could command herself to do. + +"Don't do that, Jack," she said, reaching out her hand to take him by the +arm. + +Jack clutched the dish in sudden haste and raised it to his mouth, letting +a stream of the purple juice dribble from it to his own bulging front +before his mother could get her hand on him. Then, fearing a repetition of +the blow of the night before, the baby threw himself on the floor, +screaming loudly. + +John came excitedly from the kitchen. + +"What have you done to him now?" he asked, and without waiting to hear her +reply went out, flinging the door back with a crash. + +It was nearly dark when Doctor Morgan came, but although he was anxious to +get back to his office he saw at once that he must stay with the suffering +girl. + +In the morning he called John out to the buggy and had a little talk with +him. + +"I feel, Hunter, as if I'd been a little to blame for this thing," he said +as he picked up his lines to start for home. "I thought you'd be able to +see that noise and worry were bad for her. I ought to have impressed the +gravity of her condition on you and warned you that she must not be +worried by that baby. You can see every muscle in her set hard when the +bed is jarred. That child's got to be kept out of there. Those things hurt +a woman in that condition like a knife." + +"She's been awfully cross and cried about everything this week, but she +hasn't complained much--that is, of anything but a little backache," John +replied, fingering the whipstock of the doctor's buggy and not able to +connect the present serious illness with any real reason. + +"Little backache!" Doctor Morgan exclaimed with exasperation. "I never +seem to be able to get you men to understand that noise hurts a woman +sometimes worse than if you'd hit her with a ball-bat. Hurts, mind! It +ain't imagination; it hurts, and will send a fever up in no time. Have I +made it clear to you?" he asked doubtfully. + +"I guess you have," John said, relinquishing the whipstock. "She's been +awfully fretful, but I never thought of her being sick enough for this." + +"Well," the old doctor said emphatically. "You've lost the child, and +You'll lose your wife if you don't look out. You get a girl in that +kitchen, and see to it that she tends things without Mrs. Hunter having to +look after her. She won't do another day's work for a good long time--and +mind, I say, You'll lose her yet if you don't keep that child off her till +she has a chance to get well." + +As Doctor Morgan drove away he said meditatively: + +"Think I got him that time. Blamed fool!" + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + +"HER WAGES, FOOD AND CLOTHING SHE +MUST ACCEPT" + + +Luther Hansen was at the door when John returned, and they entered the +sitting room together. Jack was leaning against the bedroom door, and +John, who remembered Doctor Morgan's parting advice, went to close it. The +baby ran to his mother, escaping the outstretched hands of the father, who +was after him, but the child had miscalculated the opposition this time +and was taken firmly into John's arms and lifted free from the bed. + +"Tell Luther to come to me," Elizabeth whispered. + +"Doctor Morgan said----" John began. + +"Tell Luther to come to me," Elizabeth repeated, putting every particle of +strength she had into her voice so that by having Luther hear her John +would be obliged to comply. + +Luther came without having to be told. + +"Luther, could you get Hepsie back for me, if you told her Mother Hunter +was gone and would not come back?" she asked, falling back into a whisper +from sheer weakness. + +Luther bent to catch her words. Elizabeth's illness showed plainly in her +pinched face this morning; he would have done anything she asked of him. + +"Of course," he answered cheerfully. + +Luther really did not know whether Hepsie could be had, but he meant to +have her if she was not already at work somewhere else. He listened to the +directions and promised without equivocation that Hepsie would come. He +understood that for some reason the thing Elizabeth asked of him she could +ask of him alone, but was careful to couch his replies so that that fact +was not indicated even to her. + +When it was arranged, Elizabeth closed her weary eyes as a sign that she +wished to be alone, and the men retired from the room, leaving her in the +first real peace she had known since her illness began. With Hepsie in the +house, she could look forward to the days to come with less dismay. She +resolved that if she did get the girl back that she would keep her as long +as there were hired men to cook for. With the assurance that Hugh would +keep John from falling into debt again there would be funds to pay her and +there was as much need of a girl in the kitchen as of men in the field. + +Hepsie came gladly. She had always liked Elizabeth, and the well-furnished +Hunter house, with the equally well-furnished pantry, was desirable. + +Elizabeth's life was in grave danger and when John at last grasped the +fact he looked after her needs rigorously. He tiptoed about the house, +looking to it personally that no discomfort assailed the wan patient. Jack +learned the note of authority in his father's voice, and incidentally the +weight of his hand also, and quiet prevailed. John reflected the mood of +the sick room in every step he took. Much of the time Elizabeth was too +ill to observe John's changed attitude, but the second week she began to +awake to things about her. She went over the situation again and again. +Something had to be done. Things had promised to straighten out since +Hugh's coming, but the very day of his first absence the old coercion was +renewed. John would not have brought the cream jar up without asking if +Hugh had been there, or if he had done so she could have mentioned the +inconvenience of its presence before Hugh and got it carried back to the +cellar. The importance of Hugh's presence loomed up before Elizabeth as +she lay considering her situation; Hugh was her only hope for better +conditions. She had accepted Hugh as a happy feature of the family life +and of the business, but she had not thought of him as a factor in her +personal affairs. + +There was another feature of the weariness which came from being pushed +beyond the amount of work she was momentarily able to do: she became +irritable with Jack when tired, and then John interfered. Here again, her +only hope lay in Hugh. With Hugh present John was suave, polite, and apt +to treat her as a man is supposed to treat his wife. Considering all these +things, Elizabeth began to look forward to Hugh's return eagerly. + +As if to favour Elizabeth's plans, Hugh Noland found Mitchell County a +lonely place to stay and as soon as the fencing was finished put a man in +charge and returned with all possible speed. + +"Oh, John, you brother!" he exclaimed when he met John Hunter at the +kitchen door the day he arrived. He held out both his hands. "I haven't +had such a sense of coming _home_ since my mother's death." + +They greeted, and looked at each other long and earnestly, and John Hunter +allowed himself to enter into closer relations of friendship and love than +he had ever done in the twenty-seven years of his life. + +"I'm glad you're here," John said when he had recovered from his surprise +over this unusual demonstration of affection. "We're going to lift +Elizabeth out into a chair for the first time to-day. She'll be glad +you've come too." + +"How is she? You didn't say much about her in your last letter." + +"Wasn't much to say," John replied. "She's better--that's the main thing. +Come on into the sitting-room till I can get her ready and get a quilt in +the rocking chair." + +"Got a girl, I see!" Hugh remarked in a whisper as they closed the door +behind them. + +"Yes, and a good one fortunately. Too much milk and butter. I found that +out when I got at it. No more buttermaking in mine. I had the whole thing +on my hands for over a week. I turned half those cows out to grass," John +said, bringing forward the chair for the invalid. + +"I was afraid the morning I left that she had too much to do with all +those shellers on such short notice." + +Hugh stooped to pick up the baby. + +"How are you, partner?" he cried, swinging the delighted child up to the +ceiling. Jack was wild with joy. Hugh stood with legs wide apart and +cuddled the baby to him for a squeeze. This was part of the homecoming +too. He was still hugging Jack tenderly when John beckoned from the +bedroom door. + +Hugh drew the rocking chair into the bedroom and then stopped to stare at +the wasted figure wrapped in a quilt who had to be supported while he +adjusted it. + +"John! You didn't tell me she was like this!" + +He took the thin hands in his, both of them, just as he had done John's a +moment before, and was moved almost to tears by the pallid face. +Elizabeth's brown eyes had fallen back into her bony, sharp-lined head, +and her nose was thin and drawn. + +"Words fail me, Mrs. Hunter," he said feelingly. + +But though words failed to express Hugh Noland's sympathy his eyes did +not, and the girl, who had not had an hour's sympathetic companionship +since he had been gone, caught the fact and was cheered by it. + +Hugh Noland was vital and invigorating. Elizabeth listened to his account +of the adventures in Mitchell County. He was a good story-teller and his +incidents were well selected. She was too weak to sit up a whole hour and +was carried tenderly back to her bed, where the family life centred now +that she was becoming able to stand the noise and confusion of it. + +During the days which followed, Hugh, at John's suggestion, brought his +books and read aloud to them in that little bedroom in the warm spring +evenings, and life in the Hunter house took on a brighter complexion than +it had ever before assumed. + +John, who had been sleeping in Hugh's room since Elizabeth's serious +illness, returned to his own bed. He looked about him for Jack the first +night and asked where he was. + +"I sent him up to Hepsie's room," Elizabeth said quietly. + +"To sleep!" + +"Yes." + +"The children in the Hunter family are not put into the servants' beds," +John Hunter replied. The unexplained statement was offensive to a man +accustomed to being consulted. + +To punish her John went to sleep without giving her the usual good-night +kiss. + +"He'd have been cross, anyhow," was all the thought she gave that part of +the circumstance. Could John Hunter have known that the absence of that +kiss was a relief, and that he made of his presence sometimes an +intolerable nightmare, he might have saved for himself a corner in her +tired heart against the days to come. John's zeal and passion had gone +into the pursuit of their courtship days. Now they were married, +possession was a fact: Elizabeth was his wife. + +Elizabeth understood that John was whimsical and tyrannical, but not +intentionally evil, but in spite of the fact that she had John's character +summed up and understood that much that he did was not deliberately +intended to do her injury, that little of it was in fact, she felt a +growing disinclination for his presence. The unloved, undesired child +which she had lost was a warning guidepost pointing its finger away from a +continuance of marital relations. No conditions could make it right for +her to have another child till love again existed between them. She saw +that nothing could excuse or make decent the child of wornout conditions; +nothing but affection made marriage worthy, and when that affection had +departed from a man and woman, to thrust life upon a child was a crime +against that child, a crime against nature and a crime against themselves +and society; yet, what could she do? Her health was broken, and she +without means of support. After Aunt Susan's death the girl had seriously +considered separation; she still considered it, but not seriously. Though +she cried "Fool! fool!" many times, she had given her youth, her health, +her strength to John Hunter, and her wages--food and clothing--she must +accept. + + + + +CHAPTER XX + +THE CREAM-JARS OF HER LIFE + + +While Elizabeth progressed toward health the work on the Hunter farm +progressed also. Because of taking the cattle to Mitchell County it was +possible to get in a greater acreage of small grain and corn. Patsie had a +small colt at her side, as did her mate also, and there was an extra man +needed in the field most of the time, but after repeated consultations it +was decided that by using care the teams they had would be able to plow +the corn, and that they could hire help for the harvesting cheaper than +they could buy another pair of horses. + +However, in spite of the discussions which were supposed to have settled +the matter, John came home from Colebyville one Saturday with a new team. + +"What do you think of them?" he asked Hugh, who opened the gate to let him +into the barnyard. "I just made up my mind that it wasn't economy to push +the horses we had so hard. I got them at a bargain." + +"You've bought them, you say?" + +"Yes," was the brief answer. + +"I'd take them back," Hugh said slowly but decidedly. "Horses and dogs +talk with their tails, and I don't like the way this one acts." + +"I can't take them back. I got them from a mover. I got them for a song, +and we're going to need them for the binder. I know what we said," he went +on, interrupting Hugh, who was trying to speak, "but there was a bargain +in them and we do need them." + +"But we haven't the money! How did you buy them? You couldn't pay for them +outright." + +Hugh Noland had been feeling his way down the foreleg of the horse nearest +him. The animal was nervous and had crowded over against its mate in an +endeavour to get away. Both its ears were laid back, and there was a +half-threatening air about its movements. As Hugh straightened up to +continue the discussion of finances, it jumped aside, quivering with +fright. + +"I gave a check on the bank," John replied uneasily. Hugh had never +criticised him before. + +Hugh was taken up with soothing the nervous animal for a moment. + +"You'll run out of money before the summer's over," he said warningly. + +"Oh, I've had to borrow a little already. With Elizabeth's illness and +all, I saw we weren't going to get through, so I just took out a loan of +five hundred and paid Doc Morgan while I was at it. I meant to have told +you. I've got some calves coming from over west to-morrow too." John +poured it all out while he was at it, with a relief in having it over. + +There was a pause. When Hugh Noland again spoke it was with a distinct +note of firmness and almost of authority. + +"The plain understanding in our partnership--the one I laid the most +stress upon to start with--was that there should be no debts. I'm willing +that you should be free to select a team; it isn't that. Did you borrow +this money in the firm's name?" + +"Yes-s-s. I didn't think you'd care about a little sum like that," John +said slowly. He was very uncomfortable. "I turned my personal note in on +the account book for the doctor's bill. You can see it on the book." + +"I don't doubt at all but that you did, John. You're not called into +question, old boy, on any other matter than the one of debts, but You'll +never put this firm five cents in debt without coming to an instant +understanding. I came to this country to get well. I won't get well, but I +won't allow myself to get into anything that will run me down quicker with +worry. You knew it before you went in with me--and you agreed." + +That was the final word John Hunter felt as he tied the skittish brute he +had just purchased in the stall beside the door, and turned to put the hay +down from the loft above. The sound of plunging feet and snorts of wild +terror when the hay fell into the manger turned his mind to the probable +truth of Hugh's opinion of the lately purchased horses. + +"I wonder if the blamed brutes are going to be too maggoty for our use +after all," he thought. "It'd be just my luck. He was fair about it +though," John admitted reluctantly. "Oh, well, after all, he's worth +having around, and I'm going to do a deal better than I would if he hadn't +come along. Elizabeth was right--I did get in too deep." And with this +astonishing admission, John Hunter finished haying the horses and walked +slowly to the house, thinking about the new horses, and half prepared to +admit that he had made a mistake in buying them outright from a man who +was able to get away before they could be proven, but Elizabeth and Hugh +were already sitting by the table in the living room and he knew he was +wanted. He went to the bedroom to wash his hands--John could not form the +habit of washing in the kitchen as other farmers did--and as he washed, +meditated, and as he meditated he found himself ready to accept this +reproof from Hugh Noland, ready to live up to agreements if Hugh imposed +them, ready to listen to Hugh and love him. Something in Hugh Noland was +so fundamentally square that the principle of squareness took on a new +meaning to John Hunter. + +"Here you are! You're the one that's insisted on these readings most, and +you're always late," Hugh cried as John came from the bedroom, fresh and +well groomed as if he had not done barn chores a few minutes before. + +The reading was part of John Hunter's play world. John was not a man of +scholarly tastes, but reading, like the use of the hairbrush he had just +laid down, was good form: they were both part of the world to which John +wished to belong. A book might or might not relate to that world, but it +was a book and seemed to do so, and while John Hunter might or might not +get much intellectual advancement out of a book, he got advancement out of +sitting in Hugh Noland's presence and opening his heart to the love and +respect Hugh commanded from him. John did not close himself off from +Hugh's influence as he did from Elizabeth's, and the things he refused to +take from her he adopted and readily set into action at Hugh's +suggestion. + +It was destined to be the last night in which John was to be permitted the +comfort of this new feature of home life, however. As they were gathered +about the breakfast table a man rode into the lane and called John Hunter +to the door without getting off his horse. + +"Doc Morgan was goin' past my house this mornin' an' asked me if I'd bring +this over t' you. 'E said it came after you left town, an' th' agent +didn't know how t' git over t' you 'thout he was comin' this way this +mornin'. Hope it ain't no bad news." + +He waited to see John tear open the envelope and read the telegram. + +"My mother's sick," was John's hurried statement as he turned toward the +house. + +Hugh drove John Hunter to the station. The sun was hot and he had read +till nearly midnight the night before, and, busy season though it was, he +thought it best not to start home till toward night. Doctor Morgan had +returned home and Hugh, as was his custom, went to the office for a chat. +It was one of the chief delights of both to have an hour together. + +"Do they get along well together--Hunter and his wife?" Doctor Morgan +asked after he had taken Hugh's health into account. + +"You'd think so if you'd heard the directions I received for her care just +now," Hugh answered with a laugh. + +"Well, I don't care--I couldn't make him understand about her when she was +sick. He let that squalling brat crawl over her, and let her do baking and +things she wasn't fit to do till she was worn out," the old doctor said +resentfully. Then added as an afterthought, "Say! You're not letting him +run you into debt, are you?" + +"No debts in mine. There's one note and It'll be cleared up as soon as the +small grain can be disposed of. I put the clamps on that as soon as I +heard of it. It won't happen again. I think his wife was about as glad of +the end of the credit business as any of us," Hugh said, and then added +with a laugh: "I think you're mistaken about his treatment of her, though. +You should have heard the directions he gave me about her as the train was +about to pull out; you'd have thought she was his favourite child and that +I was going to neglect her." + +Doctor Morgan snorted contemptuously. + +"Oh, yes, I know him. Hunter loves to give directions to anything from a +puppy dog to a preacher. That's what's the matter with her. He directs +_her_ all the time as if she didn't have sense enough to cook hot water or +wash the baby. He ain't any worse than a lot of men I know of, but you +expect more of a man that's half-educated. I tell you, Noland, the trouble +'s in this business of men owning women. I've practised in these parts +ever since this country's been opened, and I see a good deal of +husbands--and they're a bad lot." + +Hugh Noland watched the old doctor with a twinkle in his eye. + +"You aren't going to give us men all a knock, are you?" he said amusedly. + +"I'm not saying anybody's bad," Doctor Morgan said, following out his own +reasonings. "The trouble 's in men owning everything. Theoretically, a +woman shares in the property, and of course she does if she gets a +divorce, but as long as she lives with him he's the one that has the money +and she has to ask for it if she has ever so little. You take Mrs. Hunter: +she don't spend a cent he don't oversee and comment on; she's dependent on +that man for every bite she eats and for every stitch she wears and he +interferes with every blessed thing she does. Give that woman some money +of her own, Noland, and where'd she be? John Hunter 'd treat her as an +equal in a minute; he'd know she could quit, and he'd come to terms." + +Doctor Morgan swung the stethoscope with which he had been listening to +Hugh's heart, and proceeded without waiting for Hugh to speak. + +"Oh, we doctors see a side of women's lives you other men don't know +anything about. We see them suffer, and we know that the medicine we give +them is all knocked out by the doings of the men they live with, and we +can't raise our hands to stop the thing at the bottom of it all. Why, that +woman's just lost a child I know she was glad to lose, and--oh, don't +misunderstand me! She never told me she was glad she lost it, but how in +God's name could she be otherwise? She couldn't do all he required of her +without it. She had butter to make, and shellers to cook for, and then the +damned fool 'd shove that heavy baby on her--and he actually talked to me +about her being cross!" + +Hugh Noland was beginning to feel that living in a man's house did not +constitute a knowledge of him, and yet there were the things he himself +had seen and heard. + +"But, he's looking after her now as if she were a baby herself," he +protested. "He urged me to look after her, and see that she didn't have to +lift Jack yet for a while, and to humour the hired girl for fear they'd +lose her, and he even insisted that I keep up the reading aloud that I've +been doing for them." + +"I don't doubt that," the old doctor said, a bit nettled. "He's not all +bad. He's a right good fellow--that's the very point I'm trying to make. +It's because he _owns_ her and thinks he has a right to run her +affairs--that's the trouble at the bottom of the whole thing. Now that +she's sick he'll see that she don't have to lift the baby. If she owned +herself she could stop lifting the baby before she got sick; a man can't +tell when a woman feels like working and when she don't. What I want to +say is, that a man browbeats a woman because she hasn't any money and +can't help herself. Give a woman a home of her own that he couldn't touch, +and then give her an income fit to raise her children, and he'd come into +that house and behave, or he'd be sent out again, and she wouldn't age ten +years in three, nor be dragged down to the hell of nagging to protect +herself against him. I tell you, Noland, Kansas would be a stronger state +right now, and a damned sight stronger state twenty years from now, if the +women owned and run half of its affairs at least." Doctor Morgan ended +quite out of breath. + +"I guess you're right, doctor, but I've got to get some barb wire loaded +to take home, and you've preached the regulation hour and a half," Hugh +said. He was living in the Hunter home, and he really loved both John +Hunter and his wife, and honour demanded that he should not gossip about +them. + +"Right you are, my boy. And I see your point too; I've no business to talk +professional secrets even to you." He laid his arm affectionately across +the younger man's shoulder and squared him around so that he could look +into his face. "This is only a side of life I battle with in almost every +home I go into. I'm almost glad you can't marry; It'll leave you where I +can respect you. Think of a woman having a child she don't want! and think +of a man respecting himself afterward! It destroys a woman's body, but the +men--well, it's the most damnable, soul-destroying thing in a man's life; +he's lost and don't even know it. Run along," he said after a pause, "or +I'll hold forth for another hour in an unprofessional way. It makes me +swear to see a pretty girl made old before she's twenty-five." + +But Elizabeth Hunter was not to be an old woman before she was +twenty-five, for Elizabeth had Hepsie in the kitchen, she had learned to +protect herself by refusing to be oppressed about the work she did do, and +the weeks of rest that followed John's going were filled with the things +which rested and restored her. It was not long till she was as attractive +as she had ever been in all the years of her girlhood. Elizabeth was +barely twenty-three, and there was a good constitution back of her which +rest could set right; she was one of nature's favourites to whom colour +and spirits return quickly. Every charm of person she had was enhanced by +her present surroundings, for the brightness and freedom which came from +John's absence were the crowning things needed to complete her recovery. + +Hugh Noland read to Elizabeth nightly, and in the daytime her comfort was +his first thought. The work of cooking for those shellers had been his +work as much as John's, but it had all fallen on her, fallen, according to +Doctor Morgan, at a time when a man shielded even the mare in his harness +from overwork. As he watched the colour come back to the girl's face day +by day he recognized that the miracle was brought about by rest. In the +return of Elizabeth's beauty there was a new element which Hugh Noland saw +but did not recognize as new: to the roundness of girlhood was added the +strength and experience of womanhood, to the mere physical charm of youth +the maturity and poise of the woman who has fought, if not conquered, +self. + +John had set the example of late hours, and the two read throughout the +long, early summer evenings quite as much from habit as from inclination. +It had been the established custom of the house for so long that Hepsie +and the hired man accepted it as a matter of course. The men saw little of +it because one of the first things Hugh had done when he had returned from +Mitchell County had been to partition off a room in the well-built barn +for the accommodation of the men. Jake, who loved Elizabeth with a +dog-like fidelity, came and went about the house more freely than the +rest, and saw the two seated about the sitting-room lamp, and was as glad +as if he had had a place among them. + +"It's hers, God bless 'er!" he had said the night after John's departure, +"an' I'm mighty glad she's got it. She ain't had much t' make 'er glad +since I've been around these diggin's." + +Those were evenings never to be forgotten. As Hugh read, Elizabeth +listened with the open-mouthed joy of girlhood, but the substance of what +they read was viewed from the standpoint of a woman. Hugh found the girl's +mind keen and alert. They began to turn to the classics, and Hugh Noland, +whose profession it had been to teach, was surprised and delighted with +the aptitude and viewpoints of his pupil. Elizabeth pursued literature +with her usual thoroughgoing absorption; the dictionary was brought out +and laid upon the table, and with it she spent long hours when Hugh was in +the field. + +The second week in June, Hugh Noland was brought to a sudden stop in the +delicious holiday experience by a remark of Elizabeth's. The book had been +finished earlier than was usual for them to stop reading, and it had been +decided that it was too late to begin another that night. Hugh was not +ready to go to bed, and sat watching her as she straightened up the +littered table. A book of poems they had once read fell open and the girl +picked it up and began to read to herself. In a moment she was literally +engulfed in it, and he watched her deep abstraction in full sympathy with +the mood it represented. Presently she began to read aloud. + +Elizabeth read on and on, and Hugh dropped back into his chair and +listened, studying her as she stood before him reading so intently that +she forgot that she stood. When the end was reached she dropped the book +on the table with a rapturous indrawn breath. + +"I never knew what real happiness was before," she said. "I wonder if they +read in heaven?" + +"They'd have to let us read in our heaven or it wouldn't be heaven," Hugh +Noland replied. + +With the words still in his mouth he realized what he had said. The +serpent had invaded their paradise: henceforth they would wander outside +of its confines. With a self-conscious flush, he shifted the eyes into +which she was looking, and arose to say good-night. + +Although she did not understand it, Elizabeth also turned hastily away; +Hugh Noland's embarrassment communicated itself to her. Her confusion +puzzled her. Glancing at the clock, she saw that it was near midnight; she +had read longer than she had thought. In her surprised consideration of +what Hepsie would think if she should hear Hugh pass her door at that +hour, she got the first burst of light on the subject. Until now she had +gone along night after night reading with Hugh Noland, absorbed in the +books, and without any sort of attitude toward the man except that of +good-fellowship, but now she stood revealed to herself and was covered +with shame. That Hugh might be in love with her did not occur to her, but +that he knew that she had feelings out of keeping with her vows of +marriage she felt certain, and with her usual intensity Elizabeth went +over the mark in her shame and contrition. + +"What must he have thought I meant? What must he think of me as a woman? +Worse yet, what must he think of me as a wife?" she asked herself, and +each question left her more bitterly humiliated, more self-distrusting, +more unhappy. + +They were to learn, however, that three months of continual association +over the books had formed a habit not easily laid aside. To the habit of +intellectual companionship had been added the joy of close and +reciprocated affection, and the sudden breaking off of this daily +communication left both of them, especially Hugh, in a condition of almost +tragic loneliness, but honest of heart and true of purpose, both avoided +further readings. + +The nights were hot now; "good corn weather," Jake called it, and the time +had come to "lay by" the early planting. John's absence had retarded the +plowing, for try as he would the chores kept Hugh late in the morning and +had compelled him to quit early at night. It had not been his intention to +take the place of an active field worker, but the season had come on so +rapidly that the weeds threatened to get the better of the hired men, and +though it was all to learn over again, Hugh had gone out with the +intention of doing good work and had succeeded, to Jake's astonishment and +great admiration. It served Hugh's plans at this point to put in the long +hours away from the house, knowing that otherwise he would fall back into +the old life of the book at once. At first the heavy cultivator handles +absorbed his time and thought, for it was fifteen years since Hugh Noland +had cultivated corn, but when the work became more mechanical his mind +wandered back to forbidden ground and the days were harder than any he had +ever known. + +One frightfully hot day, near the end of the plowing of the first field, +which lay near the house, Hugh found it necessary to rest the horses +frequently. With each period of rest his thoughts returned to Elizabeth +with new force and longing; his mind worked continually on the reading +matter they had gone over, and constantly he wanted to elaborate or +discuss some subject left unfinished. It was the devil with which he had +to wrestle. Also, she showed the strain of disappointment when he met her +at meals, and he found himself struggling with Doctor Morgan's +observations on her health, her husband, and her happiness. As far as John +was concerned, he thought the old doctor was mistaken, and be it +remembered, Hugh Noland had a genuine liking for John Hunter. That liking +added to the seriousness of his situation in John Hunter's home. + +He mopped his perspiring brow, while little wet lines showed in the +creases of his sleeves and across the back of his thin summer shirt. The +fierce heat parched his mouth and his whole burning body called for a +drink. Tying his team to a post an hour after noon he vaulted over the +fence and walked to the creek, picking his way down to the narrow stream. +The heat of summer was drying the brook up rapidly; already there was but +a tiny rivulet, but such as was left curled and trickled between grassy +banks in a manner to attract the eye of a thirsty man. Hugh knelt on a +hummock with his hand on the opposite bank and drank as only the man who +plows corn on a hot June day can. As he stood up he paused with his +handkerchief halfway to his face and listened, while the water dripped +from nose and chin unheeded. The continuous tones of a voice reading aloud +reached him. It was such a curious place to encounter such a phenomenon +that he listened intently for a moment. + +"Elizabeth!" he whispered. + +Every pulse in Hugh Noland's body pounded suddenly. On the first impulse +he was away in her direction, walking rapidly and without effort at +concealment. Without taking time to think, without knowing or caring +whether it were wise, he walked as straight toward the spot as the laden +bee to the hive. + +Hugh's coming fell upon Elizabeth suddenly, but the perfect naturalness of +her joy put him at his ease. + +"I heard you reading," he said simply. "What are you working on now?" + +He threw himself down on the grass beside the willow trunk on which she +was seated and held out his hand for the book. After running his eye over +the page he handed it back to her with the request that she read on. The +heat of the summer day shimmered along the horizon outside, but here in +the cool shade of the willows the delicious afternoon air lulled his +senses and made of the spot a paradise of comfort and contentment. The +girl was the embodiment of everything sweet and womanly to him, and the +joy of the moment, bringing added colour to her cheeks, made the utmost +contrast imaginable to the dust and drudgery of the afternoon in the corn +rows. + +Hugh's coming had been so obviously voluntary and joyous that the fear she +had entertained, that he would think ill of her as John Hunter's wife, was +set at rest. The old confidence, sympathy, and companionship were +retendered, and the girl met it with her habitual openness. She accepted +the book from his hand and read as asked. Hugh Noland watched her +earnestly, and recalled the things he had been told about her and her +affairs. On more than one occasion he had been told that she had been +neglected, and at the time had put the tale away as foolish farm gossip, +but Doctor Morgan was no fool, and his gossip was usually not only true +but had on this particular occasion fallen out with vehemence and +conviction. As he looked at her he asked himself how any man could neglect +a woman of Elizabeth's sincere qualities. She was so true that the only +indication that he had ever received of even a slight difference of +opinion with her husband had been the accidental one regarding debts. He +remembered a remark of Sadie Hansen's to the effect that John Hunter never +took his wife anywhere, and he remembered that in the four months he had +been in the house he had never heard him offer to do so, and then Hugh +Noland remembered that he had no right to think about it at all. However, +his mind recurred to it in spite of all he could do, and presently he was +immersed in the old consideration. Loyalty must be one of her qualities: +four months he had been in her house and she had never been taken anywhere +except to Nathan's, where he himself had taken her, and she had never +remarked upon it, and she was but twenty-three! + +"Twenty-three!" he said under his breath. + +"What was it you said?" Elizabeth asked, looking up. + +"Nothing," he replied guiltily. + +Elizabeth became conscious and embarrassed. + +"I've kept you all afternoon!" she exclaimed, getting suddenly to her +feet. + +"I wanted to be kept," Hugh admitted slowly, rising also. "It's +frightfully hot in the middle of the afternoon. I'll work late, and milk +after dark." + +"I'll bring up the cows and do the milking," she volunteered. + +"Let me see you!" he protested, and went to his work again. + +Hugh Noland had never even guessed that he would walk deliberately over +and spend a whole afternoon with a woman he had no right to love after +becoming aware that he was already in love with her. For the first time he +stood in the limelight of strong emotions and knew himself for what he +was, not only that he was a mere man, but that he was a man who was not +showing the proper control over feelings and emotions which thousands of +men and women alike controlled every day. He worked his problem over as he +worked the mellow soil about the corn roots and made himself late, but +with contradictory impulses hurried the milking when he did get at it so +as to get down to the book again. + +Elizabeth had taken time to think out her side of their position, and told +herself that she hoped that Hugh would not offer to read to-night, but as +the time approached she trimmed the lamp and arranged the books on the +sitting-room table with a slight sense of worry for fear he would not +come, and conscious that the evening was going fast. It was late when they +began, and correspondingly late when they finished the reading that +night. + +The next night Hugh sat on the upturned manure cart talking to the men +till he saw Elizabeth put out the light in the sitting room, and then, in +spite of the fact that he had been strong enough to stay away, was sorry +that he had not had one more night's reading with her before John came +home. John was coming in the morning, and Hugh was to meet him, and Hugh +Noland did not like himself, nor the position he would be in when he +thought of greeting John Hunter as a friend. + +The better to think things out and decide what he would do, Hugh sat down +on the doorstep and did not go in. The night was perfect. There was a full +moon and the soft breeze was a delicious reminder of the coolness of the +leafy bower among the willows where he had spent the afternoon with +Elizabeth. There was to be no more of Elizabeth for him, God bless her! +Elizabeth was a wife and honour demanded that not even a glance of +affection pass between them. This Hugh Noland believed, and yet when they +were together their little embarrassments cried their love aloud, and +neither could mentally avoid the issue. Each had known that the other had +resolved and suffered and fallen into the temptation of the reading. The +book was becoming a delicious torment. He could not stay in that house. +Plainly, it was going to be necessary for him to go away. The business +demanded his attention, and he decided to go to Mitchell County. At that +point Hugh stopped in his calculations to consider how things would run at +this end of the line if he did so. + +In summing the business up, Hugh summed up his impression of John Hunter +along with it, and found himself reluctant to go away and leave everything +in his hands. John was industrious and tidy about his work. Dear old John! +He had come very near Hugh's heart in the short time they had been +together. The daily consideration of possible death had mellowed Hugh +Noland's naturally fine nature, and given him the tenderness of attitude +and thought that the sublime and inevitable impose upon those who live in +its shadow. Actions considered as final are warmer and less likely to be +inconsiderate than those where there is a feeling of indefinite time to +correct mistakes. Hugh sat now and let his heart run out to John with all +the love of a more than usually affectionate nature. In his heart he +wanted John back home, and yet it made him uneasy. There was a peculiar +sense of being a traitor as he considered the meeting with this man who +had trusted his home in his hands. In regard to the business, he, Hugh, +would have to let things take their own course. All he had on earth was in +this farm now, but he would get away as soon as he could possibly do so; +he would sacrifice that much to the man whose home he had entered. Hugh +knew to a nicety how necessary it would be for his interests in a business +way to be here on the ground and keep John Hunter from going into debt. +Hugh had his own judgment, neighbourhood gossip, and Doctor Morgan's plain +instructions on that point, but was resolved to go if he lost all that he +had in so doing. "Well, at any rate, he can't mortgage anything without +consulting me, and I'll get as much of the stock out there as I can after +next year--that is, if there is any next year for me," he said, as he got +up to go to bed long after midnight. + +The morning of John's return Elizabeth asked Hugh to take her as far as +Nathan's on his way in to town. Hugh had not sat on the step till midnight +the night before to let himself fall into temptation the first thing in +the morning, and suggested that since the shafts of the buggy were mended +that she drive over to Nathan's alone, giving as his reason that he might +be unable to come back promptly. The girl fell into his plan so readily +that Hugh in his contradictory frame of mind wondered about it and was +half hurt. As he hitched Patsie into the shafts, however, he reasoned it +out that Elizabeth Hunter was probably making the same fight that he was +making. He tied the mare in the side lane and left her there without going +to the house as usual to help with Jack. If she were fighting for her own +esteem, as he was doing, Hugh resolved not to be the cause of temptation; +it made him feel a little better about meeting John. Could he have known, +as Elizabeth did, that it was the first time since her marriage that she +had had the privilege of driving alone and that the precedent once +established would settle the possibility of demanding a horse whenever she +wanted it, it would have put a different complexion on the matter. + +In order for Elizabeth to use the buggy, however, Hugh was obliged to +drive the strange team. Jake had been using them since John's absence, but +had come in from the field the night before with the announcement that he +did not intend "to risk his neck with them broncos any more." Before Hugh +got to Colebyville he was thoroughly displeased with them, and spoke of +his dislike of them to John on the way home. + +"A few days on the harvester 'll fix them," John replied. + +"Well, they're acting better than they did on the way in. They're hot and +tired, and maybe the harvester will do it, but they're a bad lot," Hugh +replied wearily. "I feel that I've got to get away to Mitchell County. The +cattle have been on my mind for days. You'll have this team on your hands, +for none of the men but Jake would try to use them, and he told me last +night he'd used them for the last time." + +"Aren't you well, Hugh?" John Hunter asked with such concern that Hugh was +covered with humiliation and shame. + +"Oh, yes-s-s. But you can run the place and I'm not hanging out like I +thought I could--and I like it down there; it's more like the life I've +been ordered to lead." + +"Wait till the rye has been cut. Did you say Silas wanted us to cut his +too?" John Hunter asked. + +"Yes. He stopped me as I drove over this morning. The boys will lay the +early corn by to-day; we can get the binder out to-morrow and see that it +is ready by the day after. We might have been through with the corn +to-day, but I've been lazy of late. I knocked off and rested and read most +of the hot part of yesterday afternoon," Hugh replied slowly. He wished in +his heart that he could tell all. + +"That's the thing to do. I'm not going to have you going down to Mitchell +County while it's so hot. You'll lay around the house and read, that's +what You'll do, and I'll run this farm for a while." + +The thought of that took Hugh Noland's breath. That was what he was +running away from, but he could think of no reason but his health, and +dropped the subject to get away from it. + +John Hunter asked questions about every feature of the farm work, and as +he asked watched Hugh's face, looking anxiously for signs of breaking +health. Under no conditions would he let Hugh get sick. Hugh had been the +happiest circumstance of this farming experience. There was a discouraged +note in Hugh's voice that John did not like. + +"Did you see Morgan to-day?" he asked after he had had all the farm work +explained to him. + +"Oh, now, don't you get to worrying because I happen to mention my health. +Yes, I saw Morgan, and he agreed with me that the other place would be +better for me. I can run that and you can run this, and with care we ought +to make some money pretty soon." + +"But that takes you away from us and--and we want you here!" John +exclaimed with such fervour that Hugh winced under it. + +Hugh smiled so sadly back at the eager, boyish face turned to his that +John was more than ever sure he was ill. His hand shot out to him with an +almost womanish sympathy. + +"We'll see to it that you're kept busy where you belong, and the work +won't wear you out either, my boy," he said. + +Hugh saw that he was getting deeper in at every word he uttered and went +back to a discussion of the farm work. + +Elizabeth waited intentionally till she saw the men pass Nathan's house +before she started home. Try as she would, she did not yearn for her +husband's return. Life was short, her youth was going fast, and her fear +of the faded life grew as she looked forward to an old age spent with John +Hunter after Hugh's departure. Hugh must go, there was no question about +that. He had told her night before last that he thought of it; had spoken +of it incidentally enough, but in such wise that the girl knew why he was +going. She had felt at the time that Hugh listened for her reply, but +there was none she could make, and her silence added the final word to his +decision. Elizabeth knew that it was the only honourable course; she +consented to it in her mind, and yet, as she looked ahead to a time when +she could not have him to take shelter behind with the cream jars of her +life, she was sick at what she must face. Even to-day she hoped that he +would be present when she drove Patsie into the yard. + +Fortune favoured Elizabeth in getting home with the horse and buggy. John +had said that he was going to the pasture to look over the stock, and when +Hugh saw Elizabeth drive through the gate they had left open, there was +nothing for him to do but go forward to take her horse. John had seen her +coming and had come back from the pasture gate, and the three met. + +"See how brave I have become in your absence," she said. + +"Well, I guess you've driven horses as long as I have," John Hunter +replied happily, and kissed the astonished wife and the child in her arms +with such real pleasure in returning to them that it was good to meet him +after all. + +"If he'd always be like that," Elizabeth thought wistfully, and Hugh +Noland felt more like a criminal in the presence of that kiss than he had +ever done in his life. + +"Here, I'll tie Patsie up after I give her a drink. You go in with +Elizabeth and I'll follow as soon as its done," John said to Hugh, and +turning to Elizabeth said, "You haven't taken very good care of him since +I've been away, dear. Go on in and get a book and I'll listen for an hour +before I go to the pasture." + +"I'll do no such thing. I'll go to that pasture with you--that's what I'll +do. I'm not sick. Rats! Elizabeth knows I----" + +Hugh Noland stopped short, "I beg your pardon, Mrs. Hunter," he added +confusedly. + +"I don't know why you shouldn't call me by my first name; I do you," +Elizabeth answered, glad in spite of herself. + +Hugh went away with John, and Elizabeth had a long time to think about it. +It was the first time Hugh had ever dropped into the least familiarity in +addressing her, and no amount of reasoning could keep her from feeling a +thrill of pleasure over it. She did not approve of herself, but the thrill +was there. She hated herself, but the thrill remained. She wondered +bitterly if she would ever be able to approve of herself again; every turn +of life's wheel brought out some new and hitherto unsuspected +characteristic, and try as she would she could not make herself do as her +code of morals demanded that she should. She thought of her various +friends; none of them had ever been guilty of the things Elizabeth found +herself culpable of. Sadie had rebelled against her first child, but when +shown the consequences had cheerfully applied the lesson, while she, +Elizabeth, had been unable to put into practice later the very precepts +she had so glibly given her neighbour. None of her friends had ever +committed the folly of falling in love with men who were not their +husbands. + +Elizabeth would not stay for the reading that night, and had a bad hour +before she fell asleep. Her love for Hugh looked even worse to her since +John's arrival than it had done before. This new phase of her life was +even less able to command respect than any which had preceded it. Why was +she vexed with such unheard of temptations? It did not comfort her to +reason it out that this thing had fallen upon her without any wish of +hers, that the thrill which had followed his use of her name was not a +thing she had deliberately fostered within herself; she demanded of +herself that she should not thrill at his voice, not knowing that she +demanded the impossible. + +The rye was to be cut at Silas Chamberlain's. John suggested to Elizabeth +that she had better go over to help Liza Ann, since she was alone, saying +that he would take her over when he went. Hugh was to go with the machine. +Jake would drive the extra team over, and the other two men would plow +corn at home. A few minutes before nine o'clock John announced that he was +ready. He had come in to carry Jack to the buggy for her. John had gone +away with the impressions of Elizabeth's illness still upon him, and +looked out for her with the same care he had accorded her when an +invalid. + +"How long?" he asked, dropping down on the foot of the bed beside the +machine upon which she had been putting in the spare time. + +"Just this one little seam; I'll have it done then." + +She stooped over the machine to finish the seam quickly, not liking to +keep John waiting when he was already somewhat late. + +Jack slipped from his father's lap, and fascinated by the swiftly moving +wheel on a level with his face, put out a pudgy little forefinger to feel +of it as it went around. His mother saw it and stopped short with a little +cry of alarm. + +"Don't do that, Jack!" she said sharply. "It'll take your finger right off +of your hand if you get it in there." + +Jack put his hand behind his little back, and stood in round-eyed wonder +watching the wheel as she started to sew again. + +John was getting restless and wanted to go. + +"Aren't you about----" + +Elizabeth looked up at him as he started to speak, and Jack's finger shot +out to the forbidden wheel on the instant. Elizabeth saw it at a point +when she could not control the pedal with her foot. Mother love brought a +scream to her lips, and to save the child she gave him a shove with her +hand. Jack fell on the floor in a heap, striking his head on the bedpost +as he did so. + +John had clutched at him ineffectually as he fell and caught him up as +soon as he could get hold of him, turning him over in his arms to see +where he was hurt. The blood spurted from the little nose, giving an +appearance of serious injury to the matter all out of proportion to the +exact nature of the damage sustained, but as usual, when excited, John saw +only surface indications. + +"What does possess you when you're cross?" he exclaimed as he relinquished +his hold on the baby, who, however badly he might be hurt, was struggling +to get to his mother's arms. + +Elizabeth carried the screaming child to the kitchen to bathe the bruised +nose and apply a wet cloth to the nasty blue ridge beginning to form where +the little cheek had encountered the bedpost. + +"I never saw any one act like you do with a child," John said with his +usual irritation. + +"I didn't intend to knock him over, but I couldn't stop my foot and I +thought he'd get his little finger taken right off before my very eyes." + +"Well, you shouldn't go at him so rough. You always treat him as if he +were a block of wood." + +Elizabeth's lips closed down tight, and to keep Jack from hearing further +criticisms of her management she went back to the bedroom. When John was +ready to go he called to her from the lane, and she carried Jack to the +door instead of laying him down. + +"Take Hepsie with you. Tell Mrs. Chamberlain that I got ready to come. +He'd probably be cross if I went now. Hepsie's in the potato patch," +Elizabeth said in a low voice, and went back so promptly that John could +not reply. + +John took Hepsie with him, and explained to Liza Ann, as Elizabeth +requested, that she was unable to come because Jack had hurt himself. + +The day was dry and hot, and John Hunter consumed water like a fish upon +all occasions. The discovery that the water-jugs had been left at home +called for instant action when he arrived in the field. Silas had put his +team on the binder and Patsie was free for use on just such errands as +this. The machine had just been driven up to where Hugh could ask for +water also. John crossed over and laid his hand on the lines. + +"Here, you take the horse and go for the water. I forgot the jugs; You'll +have to go clear home after them." + +"Why don't you do it?" Hugh asked. + +John Hunter looked him over rather sharply and replied: + +"Because I'm going to drive this binder to-day. I don't like your voice +very well since I got home, Hugh." + +"You won't hear very much more of it if I can get away day after +to-morrow," Hugh replied, smiling at the turn he had given to John's +sympathy. + +John Hunter grinned back at him, but kept his hand on the lines, and Hugh +got down. + +"You can't start day after to-morrow, for we won't get this rye done, and +you won't start then, my boy, with such a note in your voice as that. I've +spoken to Jake about it and he'll go. I don't propose to have you that far +away when you are not well--it ain't what we want you for. Go on and get +that water," he added when he saw the expression of protest in Hugh's +face. + +Hugh went without argument, but his determination was as strong as ever. +Instead of going around the road he drove across the field to the fence +between the two places, and, tying Patsie, walked through the cornfield to +the pasture and on toward the house. + +The hot sun blazed fiercely down on his thinly clad back, and he noticed +as he struggled through the tasselling corn that the leaves were already +firing about the roots. Rain was essential, but he reflected that enough +rain to do the corn any good would ruin the small grain now ready to cut. +"Kansas luck," he muttered as he crossed the deep ridges thrown up by his +own cultivator a few days before. Not a breath of air was stirring, and by +the time he had reached the house he was hot and tired. Reflecting that +John had taken Elizabeth to Chamberlain's, he decided to rest before he +started back with the heavy water-jugs. He stopped in the kitchen for a +drink and took a small bottle out of his pocket. + +"Two, I guess, this time," he said as he poured the tablets into his hand. +He dropped his finger on the other wrist a moment, and then swallowed both +pellets. + +Elizabeth heard him settle himself in a rocking chair with a long-drawn +breath of comfort. She was giving Jack little pats to ease him off to +sleep and the house was very quiet. She decided to keep still and let him +return to the field without seeing her tear-stained face, but Jack roused +with a low whimpering cry which she felt sure Hugh must have heard, and as +soon as the child was asleep she walked out without further effort at +concealment. + +At the noise of the opening door Hugh Noland sprang to his feet in +surprise; he had been half-asleep. + +"Why, I didn't know that you were here!" he exclaimed when he saw that it +was Elizabeth. "I thought you went to Chamberlain's." + +His eyes riveted themselves upon her swollen eyelids, and when she stood +embarrassed before him and did not reply readily, conscious only of his +searching gaze, he misunderstood and added gravely: + +"Elizabeth, there is something I must speak about. I cannot have you +worried over matters between us----" + +Elizabeth Hunter's eyes ceased to be shy and troubled and came up to his +in such complete astonishment that he broke off in confusion. + +There was a pause for one short second, and then Elizabeth spoke in +nervous haste, and as if to ward off something. + +"I--I--I wasn't crying about--that is, I hurt Jack accidentally and--and +John misunderstood." + +Even while the words were still in her mouth, she realized by his +expression that what she was saying sounded like a complaint, as if she +were exposing a difference between herself and her husband, and that was +the one thing that under no circumstances had she ever done. She made a +frightened stop without ending the sentence. + +As if to save his mother from needless embarrassment, Jack slipped to the +floor and came stumbling out on sleepy legs, tired and cross, and rubbing +his sweaty little face with hot, sweaty little fists, and demanding his +mother's attention. Elizabeth turned to him with a relief beyond words. + +Hugh Noland, who had always loved the child, was never so glad to see him, +and slipped away while he was being soothed and petted out of his tears +and discomfort. Both Hugh and Elizabeth knew that but for Jack's timely +interruption words would have escaped Hugh that they both preferred should +not be uttered. Both knew the situation, but both saw that it would be +easier, as well as safer and more honourable, not to discuss it. + +"I'll not think any more about going away--I wouldn't do it if I had +money," she decided as she watched Hugh return with his jug. "I married +John Hunter in good faith, and I'll live with him in good faith and +straighten things out." The thought of her love for Hugh came up and she +added, "I don't care! I didn't go out to hunt up a love for him and I +can't help it if it has come to me; but I hope he gets away to Mitchell +County day after to-morrow." + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + +BOUND TO THE STAKE + + +The harvesting dragged out to the third day, and Silas, who had a felon, +could not give help when John came to the point of cutting his own grain. +It was almost impossible to get help, for the reason that the dry weather +had hastened the reaping of all early crops. It was decided that Elizabeth +should drive back and forth with the water, and John take a hand at the +shocking. This left Hugh on the machine, a thing John disliked to do, but +Hugh made no complaints and accepted the post readily. Hugh had seen that +he could not refer to his health without endangering his chance of getting +away. John looked him over critically as he mounted the binder, realizing +fully that he was unfit to ride in the hot sun all day. + +"I'll take his place this afternoon if the shocking never gets done," was +his mental resolve as he turned to his own share of the work. + +The men had taken one jug of water with them, so that it was not necessary +for Elizabeth to go with a fresh one till ten o'clock. She tied Patsie to +the fence and, taking Jack with her, crawled under and started across the +field to a point where she could meet the oncoming binder, so that Hugh +could take the heavy jug on the machine around to the other side of the +field where the shockers were. Jack's short legs had hard work in the +stubble, and she kept a tight hold on him with one hand while she carried +the jug with the other. + +Hugh saw them coming and called to her to wait till he could come for the +jug. Doctor Morgan had especially cautioned against heavy lifting. + +The new team which John had bought was hitched to the pole of the +harvester, and as he drew them up, a botfly buzzed suddenly about the +forelegs of the off-wheel horse. The animal struck at it angrily with its +foot, giving a shrill snort. Its mate threw itself to the other side, +rattling the double-trees of the leaders against their heels. There was a +frightened spring on the part of one of the horses in front, and at that +the wild and half-broken wheel horses began to plunge ahead. + +Thoroughly frightened, the four horses became unmanageable at once, and +the one nearest the revolving reel got its tail over the line, where it +held firmly to it as it reared and kicked. Almost before it was clear what +had happened, the horses were on a full run down the field, with a +barbed-wire fence ahead. Hugh could do but one thing. He circled them +about toward the outside of the field by the one line he could control, +while he frantically jammed the lever down, which threw the machine out of +gear, but at the speed at which the machine was going the lever would not +act. The one line swung the horses around in a short circle, and as the +thoroughly alarmed man raised his head he was horrified to find that +Elizabeth, encumbered with the jug, and so thoroughly frightened that she +held on to it and to Jack's hand with equal tenacity, was within the +radius of the circle. + +The baby, the mother, and the heavy water-jug were in the centre of that +narrowing ring, and the natural and spontaneous thing to do was to run in +the direction away from the careening harvester. They ran, but only for a +few yards, for by the time they thought that they were nearing a point of +safety at the circumference of the circle, the horses were nearing that +point also, and to attempt to cross it was suicidal. + +"Go back!" shouted Hugh, his whole body breaking into a cold sweat as the +woman and child turned to run in the opposite direction. + +Had presence of mind been possible at that moment, Elizabeth could have +slipped quickly behind the binder and passed outside the ring the charging +animals were making, but as it was, she simply ran blindly back once more +to another and more dangerous point inside their lessening orbit. One more +such run and both mother and child would be exhausted. + +With the cold sweat of terror breaking over him, Hugh Noland slackened his +hold on the line and flung himself off the high seat to run to her +assistance. As he jumped, the horses of their own accord turned sharper +yet, and the bull-wheel, striking a badger hole, threw the machine over +sidewise and completely upside down. The wheel horses, released by the +coupling-pin falling from the main clevis, kicked themselves loose from +the other team and tore madly across the uncut grain. + +Elizabeth Hunter escaped death by the overturning of the heavy binder, but +when she arrived at the twisted and broken harvester, Hugh Noland lay +pinned under the wreckage, white and insensible. + +It took but a few moments for the men, who had come running at the first +sounds of the commotion, to lift the heavy machinery from the limp body +and lay the wounded man down under the shade of a large shock of rye. +While Luther bent to examine the senseless form, John rushed one of the +men frantically off for Doctor Morgan. + +"No! Wait--I'll go myself!" he called as the man was driving away, and +flinging himself into the buggy, which Elizabeth had left at the fence, +laid the whip on the back of the frightened Patsie. + +It was not till John was halfway to Colebyville that Hugh Noland opened +his eyes. Luther was stooping over him, bathing his face with water from +the jug which Elizabeth had so unconsciously provided. The girl also knelt +at his side rendering such assistance as was in her power, and when Hugh +actually showed signs of being alive she buried her face in her hands and +sobbed with an abandon which Luther Hansen could not mistake. The hired +men had gone to get the leaders, which, being reliable horses, had got +over their fright and were nibbling the fresh grass by the fence. The +other team was completely out of sight. They covered Hugh from the +scorching sun till the men could bring the wagon from the barn, and then +the sad little cavalcade returned to the house with the injured man. + +Doctor Morgan arrived with John in his own buggy two hours later, and then +a strange thing was discovered. No bones were broken, and no internal +injuries were in evidence which would necessarily give cause for alarm. +The examination pointed to an excited heart chiefly, the weakest link in +Hugh Noland's system and the place where new troubles centred and +aggravated old ones. That the man's life had not been instantaneously +crushed out was due to the fact that the long steel levers had stuck in +the hard earth and held the machine up. But the trouble with the heart had +been accentuated acutely before the binder had even capsized, for that +horrible nightmare of galloping down upon the girl had evidently begun +what the later catastrophe had carried to a farther and really dangerous +stage. + +Hugh was placed in the downstairs bedroom by the men, whose hearts were +wrung at every step they carried him, and, as Luther remarked, because +Elizabeth would have the care of him and stairs were deadly things in case +of sickness. + +Doctor Morgan came again before night, intending to stay with the patient +till morning. John met him at the gate. With the feeling that he had been +responsible for this terrible accident to Hugh, whom he loved as he had +never loved any other human being, John had spent an afternoon of agony. +The rest of the men could look for a neighbour to finish the grain with +another machine, but for him, he spent the time at Hugh's side. + +"How is he?" Doctor Morgan asked almost before he was within speaking +distance. + +"Resting. We don't trouble him, but he seems quiet." + +"That's good!" the old man exclaimed. He had come with his heart in his +mouth, as they say in that country. "I wish I had as good a report for +you," he added. + +"Why--what's happened to me?" John asked in surprise. + +"The young mare you drove in died in the stable. It's hot weather, and I +guess you were pretty badly excited. I told the men in the livery to shut +the colt up; it kept nosing around the carcass and it isn't good for it. +You'd better get in as early as you can and look after it yourself. Those +stable men don't care for anything that ain't their own." + +John Hunter stood speechless till the end of the story, and then helped +tie the doctor's team. + +"That all comes from that miserable team! I'm glad one of them did have to +be shot. I've half a notion to shoot the other one; it's all cut up by the +wire and 'll take no end of trouble to cure. Hugh said horses and dogs +talked with their tails, and I guess they do. Say, will you tell Elizabeth +about the horse? It's one I got from her father and she's terribly fond of +it." + +Elizabeth met Doctor Morgan as he came from Hugh's room a few minutes +later with the unspoken question so plainly evident in her face that he +answered it without waiting to be asked. + +"No signs of further trouble, little woman, thank God! They tell me you +were near being run over by that binder too." + +Elizabeth evaded the last remark. + +"That's nothing. But are you sure about Hugh?" she asked in a voice that +quavered a little. + +"Now look here," the doctor said, concerned at once for her welfare. "We +can't have you go and get upset. It looks as if Noland got out of that +pretty lucky. The only thing that's worrying me is that infernal heart of +his." + +John came in at that point and the old doctor addressed himself to him. + +"This woman'll have to take care of Noland, Hunter, and I want you to see +to it that she don't have another thing to do. She can't have that child +dragging on her, and we'll have to look out that she don't overdo, or +we'll have her down on our hands too. The trouble with peritonitis is that +it don't get well as fast as it looks to. A slight thing will often start +it up anew, and peritonitis is the devil if it gets to recurring." + +"We'll all help take care of Hugh," John promised readily. + +Doctor Morgan looked at John Hunter and back to Elizabeth dubiously. He +reflected that the same lack of caution which had killed the mare +yesterday might kill a man in case of excitement. + +"It isn't necessarily help that she's going to need. It won't be so hard +to take care of him, if she isn't worried by a lot of other things. I +don't want another soul to touch that medicine. We've got to be mighty +careful about that. Heart remedies are poison and as quick as lightning in +their action, and we can't afford to take any chances on that kind of +stuff. I'm right glad to put your wife at the helm in this thing; she's +definite and dependable, two things we doctors don't often find when we +need them most." + +Turning to Elizabeth he said: + +"It may be rather hard on you, but our main care is to pull this man +through the next ten days. If he don't have some one to look after him +right, he may slip through our fingers." + +"Why--I thought you said he was all right," Elizabeth faltered. + +In his efforts to impress the need of care with the medicine, Doctor +Morgan had gone over the mark and added to the fears he had started out to +allay. Elizabeth was as white as if all the blood in her body had been +taken away. + +"Now don't begin to worry till I tell you there's need, child," he said +half irritably. "All that's necessary is for you to look after that +medicine. Noland 'll come out all right with you to nurse him. I wouldn't +mind being sick myself, Hunter, with her to hold the spoon," he said, +trying to put a merry face on the matter. "Did it ever occur to you that +you were a lucky dog to come into this country and run off with the nicest +girl in it the first year you were here?" + +As the doctor drove home the next morning, he said to himself: + +"I guess I fixed it about that medicine;" then, his mind reverting to the +conversation at the gate, he added, "I wasn't goin' to tell her about that +horse; let him tell her himself. Blamed fool! I think I headed off his +issuing orders about that sick-bed too. Poor little girl! Now if she'd +only married Noland!" + +The old doctor gave a long, low whistle as a sudden thought struck him, +but he put it away, and being a busy man thought no more about it for +weeks. + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + +"THERE ARE SOME THINGS WE HAVE +TO SETTLE FOR OURSELVES" + + +John's being away from home those first days of Hugh's illness--he had +gone to Colebyville to dispose of Patsie's body and secure a new team to +finish harvesting--kept him from getting the run of the affairs of the +sickroom, and enabled Elizabeth to assume the care of the invalid in her +own way. An idea once fixed in John Hunter's head was fixed, and having +accepted the plan of Doctor Morgan that Elizabeth was to be in sole charge +of care and medicine, he went his way without thrusting his suggestions +upon her, and Elizabeth, having learned not to discuss things with him, +did not speak of her work nor of anything connected with the invalid. In +fact, as soon as John entered the sickroom she went out, as one of the +best ways she knew of to avoid accidents of conversation. John came to +Hugh's bedside but little, supposing that he needed rest, and willing to +sacrifice his all to the comfort of the pale invalid. With the tears of a +woman in his heart if not in his eyes, John watched from afar the face of +the man he had been the unconscious means of injuring, and tiptoed about +the outer rooms with a fear of death which only John could feel. Another +thing kept him out of the sickroom: impressed with the idea that his +carelessness in the purchase of the first team had led up to this trouble, +he had gone to the other extreme in replacing them, and had paid three +hundred and twenty-five dollars for one of the best and most thoroughly +proven teams in the country. There were no available funds and he had been +obliged to give a note for them; this must in time come to Hugh's notice, +and John had a distinct remembrance of a former note, and did not wish to +repeat the experience. Luther, who came often to see Hugh, had spoken to +John of Patsie's death in Elizabeth's presence, and after the first pained +expression of surprise and grief, Elizabeth had never mentioned it again. +John had noticed also that Elizabeth had never asked the price of the last +team, nor seemed to take any interest in them, and he hoped by the same +means to avoid confessing to Hugh. + +John Hunter was glad at this time to escape discussions of an unpleasant +nature; he was more broken by the accident than he ever admitted; he +accused himself more bitterly than any one would ever accuse him; he had +broken up a working team, he had killed his best horse, and he had been +all but responsible for the death of his best friend, and when John +Hunter's own misdeeds hit hard enough, he would face things squarely, and +no matter how hard he worked to avoid owning up to others, would +acknowledge to himself that he was in the wrong. Hugh's white face grew +whiter each day and accused him enough without further words. To escape +it, John worked busily, and there was need of work, for the rapidly drying +fields required his entire attention during the day, and he left Hugh to +his wife's care, glad to do so. + +There were times, however, when John was alone with Hugh, and at such +times, because he was full of self-blame and humiliation, he listened to +what Hugh said with a peculiar attention. Hugh saw that John worried +himself half sick over his misfortune, and reached out the hand of love +and fellowship for which John hungered at this time. He talked of his +possible death as if it were but a journey, which always convulsed John's +face with child-like emotions. He talked of the farm work, and kept close +track of what was done. He knew that John had had to go into debt for the +team, and he wanted John to tell him, without being asked, that a note had +been given. When he did not, Hugh passed the matter over without reference +and with a sigh. Hugh Noland was not criticising John Hunter or any of his +actions these days, but Hugh studied John and found his weaknesses, and +tried to give him such help as he thought possible. Hugh had long days to +think, and he began to yearn over this man to whom he had been a sort of +traitor. He saw John's wilfulness with Elizabeth--heard many things +without being able to avoid hearing them, being pinned to his bed--he saw +where John's irritability lost good help during the busy season and left +double duty for faithful Jake, his supercilious attitude toward Luther, +and his illy concealed contempt for the farmers about them, and one of his +ways of keeping his mind off John's wife was to keep it on John and John's +needs. Hugh kept Luther with him whenever Luther could be spared from his +home in the evenings, and he spoke to John of Luther with growing +affection. When he grew stronger, he discussed farm work and farmers with +John in a way that savoured of interest in their problems; he asked Nathan +and Silas and Carter and Bob Warren in and talked to them of fertilizers +and drainage, and when John insisted that those things were in the future, +he said: + +"Yes, but they will come up in our time; you see I come from a place where +those things were already a necessity to the farmers. I am a farmer myself +now and I think about those things." + +Hugh knew that his consideration of fertilizers was superfluous in a +country that was hardly past the sod-corn stage, but he longed to dignify +this work to John Hunter, since John would give his formative years here +and be unable to do other things if he ever made money enough to get away, +as he hoped. Hugh had had enough work in the agricultural department of an +eastern university before he had come to Kansas, to make it possible for +him to interest these men in the future development of their state. Doctor +Morgan, who had been rather unwilling that serious subjects should be +discussed in the sickroom, asked curiously one day: + +"What the devil do you want to prate such nonsense as that to these folks +for? They won't need any kind of fertilizers in this country for twenty +years. You'd better be resting instead of shooting such useless stuff as +that at _them_." + +"I want to talk farming to John Hunter as if it were a respectable +business to engage in, Doctor. I don't have to tell you how he views it." + +"What in Sam Hill's the difference how he views it?" the doctor asked in +astonishment. "He's nothing but a cheap skate, and you can't make anything +else out of him." + +Hugh Noland looked at the doctor and made no reply; he understood that the +unfortunate vision of John Hunter which Doctor Morgan had got would +prevent him from seeing the point he was trying to make, and so let the +matter drop, but he kept John with him evenings and worked along on his +own lines and with persistence. He wanted to feel right about his stay in +John's home, and one of the ways of doing it was to get close to John's +heart on important matters. He spoke of Jack as a future farmer, and when +John indignantly resented the implication and said that he expected his +son to be an educated man, Hugh replied: + +"Why, of course you do, but an educated farmer is exactly the thing to +make of him. Look at the clean life you'd place him in." + +And so the days ran on in the sick-chamber. If John was with Hugh, +Elizabeth busied herself about the house elsewhere, and John rarely saw +them together, unless there was medicine to administer, and then the girl +gave it without remark. A growing fear had taken possession of her lest +John should fly out at her in unpleasant fashion before Hugh. The +situation between the two had been made so much more acute by Hugh's +accidental reference to it when he had thought that she was crying about +him, that she was supersensitive regarding her half-formed complaint in +explanation. But for that reference, they could have gone along +indefinitely with a pretence of indifference, but enough had been said to +tear away the veil and leave them self-conscious and mutually humiliated. +Their little avoidances of touch or tenderness spoke in a language not to +be misunderstood, and their eyes told unconsciously all that they refused +to say with their tongues. + +Elizabeth, in her own way, worried herself half sick in her endeavours to +care for him gently and yet give him no cause to think she was making a +demand for a love of which neither approved, but which having once been +put into words was a constant factor in their association. Once when she +was bathing his face, Hugh thought she lingered longer over it than was +necessary and drew himself back on his pillow suddenly, saying: + +"Don't Elizabeth. I should have my arms about you in a minute if you did +that, and you are John's wife--and I couldn't look him in the face if I +did a thing of that sort." + +Elizabeth turned away without replying, her eyes full of tears. He had +misunderstood her cruelly. The one thing Elizabeth Hunter was trying to do +was not to show her affection for this man who was not her husband, but as +she became worn and tired from duty at the sick-bed it became more and +more evident that she could not accomplish it. + +Hugh had the daily fear of her peritonitis coming back upon her; Doctor +Morgan had warned him while John was away. Unable to lift his head from +his pillow without assistance, Hugh saw her growing thin and discouraged, +and knew that it was the enforced condition of caring for him which made +her so; yet when she tried to avoid his sympathetic eyes, he instantly +misunderstood her and was hurt. That she was not really strong enough to +assume the care of him added to his uneasiness, and often when he was on +the point of saying so, she mistook his glance and was so distant that it +died on his lips. And so the days ran into each other with the pair. If +for any reason one advanced, the other retreated, and at last the +condition became unbearable. + +Elizabeth gave much and consuming thought to the issue brought about by +the fact that her husband, still living in the house with her, had no idea +that she could be in love with another man, even though her husband no +longer loved her. Any sort of love-making was a violation of her marriage +vows, and for her to put love for another man into words was to fall to a +level to which she had never in her life thought of doing. + +What was she to do? John never saw anything except in the light of his own +instincts and emotions, and an idea or a prejudice once fixed in his mind +could be uprooted by nothing but death; therefore to confess to him and +thereby make it possible to get away from Hugh would prejudice him against +Hugh, whom he would be certain to think had stolen something to which he +alone had the right, and against her whom he felt that he possessed, and +upon whom he could wreak almost any form of public revenge. Hugh had tried +to get away and John had himself held him, but John could not remember +that nor listen to it if told. Every effort had been made by Hugh to avoid +Elizabeth since he had found out the true situation, but nothing would +convince John of that. Had John Hunter the right then, being the kind of +man he was, to a confession from her that would confuse the whole issue +and do vital wrong to everybody concerned, including the baby, who must +suffer with the mother who would be made to seem much worse than she was. +This Elizabeth Hunter asked herself daily, and with the fear that her +conscience would force her to confession should she permit any +demonstration of affection, and to avoid any possibility of it, she became +colder and colder in her manner toward the sick man. + +The effort to keep off dangerous ground was disastrous, for Hugh instantly +misunderstood it, and the gloom which settled over him increased the +difficulties with which Elizabeth had to contend. Doctor Morgan saw that +his patient, who had seemed slightly better, fell back again, and he +worried about his despondent condition. + +"Cheer him up, Mrs. Hunter! Read to him! Anything!" he would exclaim. +"He's got to have peace of mind, or there's no hope in the world of his +recovery. Something more 'n staved-in ribs is keeping him down," the +doctor urged, not knowing that he laid impossible burdens on shoulders too +young to bear them. + +The two duties, the one to her husband and the one to her patient, stared +her in the face, and she had no one with whom to advise or consult. + +"I don't care! His life's worth more than for me to approve of myself as a +wife," she decided at last, and yet when she gave Hugh his next dose of +medicine she was colder and more on her guard than ever. + +Luther Hansen came to see Hugh that afternoon. Elizabeth received an +inspiration when he started away and followed him out of the house. + +"Luther, will he die?" she asked. + +"I don't know, Lizzie," Luther said quietly, not knowing what to say to +such a question, and too honest to evade. + +At the time of the accident to the binder, when Elizabeth knelt, broken +with exhaustion and terror, looking at the man she loved who lay under the +mass of machinery with the colour of death upon him, no one but a blind +man could have mistaken the utter abandonment of her grief, and certainly +of all men Luther was not blind. Now he recognized the heartache back of +Elizabeth's question and with an instinct to cheer was almost persuaded to +answer in the negative. In his heart he thought Hugh would die. The +rapidly failing strength of the man indicated that he would do so unless +something came to buoy him up. + +"I don't know, Lizzie," he added, as if squaring his conscience, "he looks +so weak and troubled like." + +Luther realized the moment it was out of his mouth that he had said the +wrong thing. Elizabeth's lips grew white and she held her breath a moment +as if preparing to accept what she knew must be the truth. + +"Lizzie," asked Luther gently, "would you like to talk to me about it?" + +The girl's face tensed strangely and her quivering lips refused to do her +bidding for a full minute, the relief was so great. + +"I--I came out for that," she said simply when she could speak. "It's so +good of you to understand and make it easy for me. I'll walk over toward +home with you." + +They walked slowly through the barnyard, across the creek, and over the +pleasant pasture land. Neither spoke. Elizabeth, now that she had decided +to talk to Luther about the circumstances with which she contended, could +not bring herself readily to do so. Luther had always the insight of true +wisdom, which let others gauge their own inclinations. When they came to +the fence which was the boundary line between Luther's and John Hunter's +farms, they stopped. There was a line of willow trees running at intervals +down the fence, and Luther waved his hand in the direction of a shady spot +beside them. + +"Set down, Lizzie," he said, seating himself half-facing her. + +Elizabeth Hunter crumpled up on the grass with her back against a fence +post, and thought while Luther got out his knife and looked for something +to whittle. + +"Tell me about it," he said at last. "You want to--and--and I'm a safe +person." + +She looked up at him, glad that he had assumed it, and smoothed the path +to confession. + +"I know you're safe, Luther. You're more than that, God bless you!" + +And to this man whom she had always trusted Elizabeth poured out all her +fears, her feelings, and her frantic cry for help. + +"I've had no one to talk to, Luther," she ended, "and I don't believe a +human being can go on always and not put things into words." + +They talked on and on. Having started, she let him see the consuming +struggle between right and wrong which she waged every day. + +"Doctor Morgan says, 'Cheer him up! Cheer him up,' and what am I to do?" +she closed in desperation. + +Elizabeth Hunter had told far more than she supposed. She had bared a +yearning, struggling heart to Luther's gaze, a soul seeking a right path +where there seemed no sure road, nothing but confusion. + +Luther longed to help, but the problem presented insurmountable +difficulties; to adopt a rigid code of morals as such was to come out at +the end of the journey with something in herself and society satisfied, +and Hugh Noland's life sacrificed, as Doctor Morgan had said; to adopt a +sympathetic attitude would spare the life of a useful man, but with her +code shattered. If only she could take John into her confidence both might +be possible. + +"Lizzie, you couldn't tell Hunter, could you?" Even as he asked it he knew +it could not be done. + +"I would tell John instantly if he were like you, Luther," was her reply. +"I think Hugh himself would have been glad to. If he could have explained, +he could have got away. No--John isn't the kind of man. He wouldn't +understand, and he'd make it a great deal worse than it is to everybody. +He'd accuse me and spoil Jack's life, and----" + +The hopelessness of it left her silent for a minute, and then Doctor +Morgan's warnings came up to be reckoned with. + +"The doctor says he'll die if he's worried, Luther. What am I to do?" she +demanded, wanting him to settle the question for her, and letting the +tears run unrestrained down her cheeks. + +Luther Hansen looked at her pityingly and shook his head. + +"There are some things we have to settle for ourselves, Lizzie, and this +is one of them for you. I do know," he said trustfully, "whatever you do +'ll be right." + +The interview was ended. Luther helped Elizabeth to her feet, and went +away to his own house and waiting chores, leaving the question with +her--Elizabeth Hunter--whose life had been punctuated with interrogation +points. + +Elizabeth walked back slowly, going over every hint and suggestion to be +gained from Luther's discussion of her situation. Nothing was clear except +that whatever her decision, it must be the nearest right of anything she +was able to understand. She remembered as she stopped to fasten the +barnyard gate behind her that Luther had said as he left her: + +"He'll go away as soon as he is able, you say, Lizzie," and she remembered +the lingering tones of fondness in Luther's voice when Hugh's name was +mentioned. + +It was not easy for Luther to say, let him die, either. + +Elizabeth remembered at that point that Hugh's medicine was long overdue, +that medicine was more important just now than any of the questions with +which she had been struggling. With a frightened little cry she ran to the +house and to the sick-chamber. + +"Never mind, Elizabeth," Hugh said when he saw her shuffling the papers +about in search of the bottle. "Jack came in and I had Hepsie give it to +me. I've decided that it isn't a good plan to have it there, and I'll keep +it under my pillow hereafter." + +"I--I went out with Luther, Hugh, and I didn't realize that I was gone so +long. You've missed two doses!" She noticed that Hugh called her by her +given name altogether now. + +Hugh laughed a sad little laugh. + +"Well, I've had the one for this hour at least. I--I tried to take it +alone. I guess I won't try that again. It stuck in my throat and I got a +strangling spell. I coughed till--well, I thought I was going to get out +of taking medicine altogether. It's a terrible fear that grips a fellow +when he gets something stuck in his throat and knows that he can't lift +his head off his pillow. It isn't so much that he's afraid to die--it's +the death struggle he's afraid of." + +Absorbed in his own thoughts, Hugh Noland closed his eyes and did not see +the effect his words produced upon Elizabeth. By some sort of +psychological process he had placed that death struggle before her very +eyes. Hugh, all unconscious that he had made any impression, unconscious +that her attitude toward death differed from his own, or that his death +could mean much more to her than deliverance from the presence and care of +him, lay with his eyes closed, thinking his own bitter thoughts. + +There was indeed enough in Hugh Noland's appearance to terrify the girl as +he lay before her, wasted and woebegone, his low forehead blue-veined and +colourless, his hands blue-veined and transparent, and all his shrunken +figure sharply outlined under the thin summer covering of the bed with +ghastly and suggestive significance. Instantly she wanted to go down by +his side and with her arms about him give him the sympathy and comfort his +lonely heart craved, but because it was so deliciously tempting she +distrusted the impulse and, turning hastily, walked out of the room and +out of the house, going on a run to her refuge in the willows. But though +she agonized till dark she found herself no nearer a solution than +before. + +Hugh felt the distance Elizabeth maintained and also the fact that she was +not well. How he hated it when she had to lift him for his medicine. +Doctor Morgan had especially talked about her lifting when she was at +first convalescing. His heart was very bad that night. + +About three o'clock the next afternoon Elizabeth tiptoed in to see if he +slept. + +"I'm awake," he said without opening his eyes. + +Always when Hugh did not open his eyes Elizabeth was filled with +premonitions. He was very pinched and wan to-day. With a pain at her own +heart, Elizabeth brought a fresh glass of water for his medicine. She had +to speak to him to get him ready to take it from her hand. Kneeling, she +put her arm under the pillow to raise his head while he drank. + +Hugh fumbled with the little bottle as he tried to return the extra disks +he had accidentally poured out into his hand. Elizabeth waited till he had +the cork in place, with her arm still under the pillow. He turned his face +toward her as he thrust the bottle back, and accidentally touched her hand +under his head. He glanced up consciously. Her breath, fresh, warm, full +of the life man adores, came to him from her parted lips, and to get away +from the impulse to say things he was resolved not to say, he closed his +eyes and turned his head feebly. + +A gasp of fright came from the girl as she saw the contortion of his +haggard face. + +"Hugh!" she exclaimed. + +The glass she held fell from her fingers and rolled to the foot of the +bed, scattering its contents abroad unobserved, as she threw her other arm +across him and lifted him for the air she supposed he needed. Their +breaths mingled. Human nature is but human nature, man is but man and +woman is but woman in the final analysis: they were in the hands of a fate +stronger than either of them at that moment. + +Elizabeth struggled no more; right or wrong, it had happened, and she +brought her rocking chair and with her free hand clasped in his, read and +took life as it came. After that, sin nor sickness could keep them from +being happy. If the girl talked of the better course of restoring the old +reserve, Hugh's hand would reach out imploringly: + +"Only till I get well, dearest; I won't trouble your conscience after +that. I know you don't feel right about this, but I can't go back to a +life without any affection again while I'm here," and Elizabeth always +responded to that call. She reflected that even Luther could not condemn +her for it. + +Yet when John was in the house or whenever she was obliged to be careful +about Hepsie, as she often was, she was outraged in her own sight, and her +colours trailed in the dust of humiliation, for she saw that the path she +was treading was one of unaccustomed duplicity. + +"If I could only approve of myself," she said to Hugh, and then was sorry +she had spoken, for Hugh Noland's face grew more white and he closed his +eyes with a little sob. + +"Oh, my darling," he said when he could speak again, "you long for that +and I like you for it too, but I'm weak. I want to be loved and petted, +and--I'm so tired that I don't want to think about it at all. Kiss me, +sweet," and Elizabeth kissed him, and was glad in spite of herself. + +"You shall not have to think till you're well," she promised, and the days +ran on throughout the blazing summer, and Hugh improved, and Elizabeth won +Doctor Morgan's admiration as a nurse. + +In the midst of the deceptions which Elizabeth Hunter was called upon to +practise, however, she followed the natural trend of her character in ways +which proved how fundamental truth and outrightness were in her make-up. +Having discussed Hugh with Luther, she told Hugh that she had done so. +This gave Hugh a wrong impression of affairs between the two which she was +obliged to set right. + +"No, Luther never loved me--that is, he never said that he did. That isn't +the way we feel about each other. We've just been good friends always. We +herded cattle together and told each other things all our lives. I could +tell Luther anything." + +"Well, he couldn't love that black-eyed thing he lives with," Hugh said. + +"I don't know how it is myself, but he does, and Luther never lies. You +can see that he's square with her. He gives her a kind of companionship +that will keep her out of the position I'm in, too," she said with +conviction, and then saw the kind of blow that she had dealt, and covered +her face with her hands for shame. + +Elizabeth heard the invalid sigh deeply. When she could speak again, she +slid down on her knees by his bed and, laying her arm across the shoulders +of the man she had hurt, faced herself and her deeds squarely, as was her +way. + +"It's of no use, Hugh. We've got to face it. I didn't intend to hurt you, +but I'm in a serious position. I must think of this thing all my life--and +I shall shrink whenever I do. I shall see everybody in the light of my own +life. I made no comparison between you and Luther. There's love and love +in this world, as I've found out. John thought he loved me and I thought I +loved him--and look at us! I don't know what Luther would do if he were +placed where we are, but that is not the question. I hurt you just now; +but, oh, Hugh! I love you too--God help me, and in the midst of it all I +want my self-respect back till I could almost die to get it. Sometimes I +think I'll go and tell John yet." + +When for sheer want of breath Elizabeth stopped and looked at Hugh Noland +inquiringly, he asked eagerly: + +"Could we?" + +And for a long time she looked at him, till her eyes took on a faraway +look which said that she was going over details and experiences of the +past. In the light of those experiences she finally shook her head. + +"No," she said with simple conviction. "You don't know John. He'd never +understand that---- Well, he'd mix everything uselessly. It would fall +hardest on Jack; his future would be spoiled by the humiliation of having +everybody think I was worse than I----" + +Elizabeth could not finish her sentence for the pain on the face before +her, and hid her face on the same pillow and cried out her grief and +heartache till Hugh had to warn her that Hepsie might come in. + +It was well that Elizabeth's mind was occupied with Hepsie while she +bathed and cooled her swollen eyelids. Long afterward she remembered Hugh +had laid his arm across his white face at that moment, but she was never +to know the fulness of the self-reproach nor the depths of the despair +which Hugh Noland suffered--Hugh, who loved her. For himself, he did not +so much care, being a man and accustomed to the life of men in those +things, but he saw the endless round of her days, carrying with her +through them all the secrecy and shame of it; she who loved openness! If +she had been a woman who looked herself less squarely in the face it would +have been less hard. + +"I think I'll talk to Luther too," he said at last. "You couldn't drive +Patsie over for him this evening, could you?" he asked. + +Elizabeth looked down at him in surprise as she wiped her hands. + +"Why--why, I thought you knew about Patsie," she said hesitatingly. +"Patsie's dead." + +"Dead?" + +"Yes. She died the night you were hurt. John drove her for Doctor Morgan," +the girl said, wishing that she could keep the news from him. + +After that first startled exclamation Hugh did not remark on the mare's +death; he noticed that Elizabeth never blamed John for things when talking +of him, and he liked her for it. + +"What became of the horses that day--the ones on the binder? You kept me +so stupefied at first that I sort of forgot about them." + +He forced from her all the vital details of the purchase of the new +horses. After he had received the answers she felt obliged to give he did +not comment upon any feature of the story. They never criticised anything +John did between them; in fact, they rarely mentioned his name, but Hugh +was struck with the necessity of knowing methods and facts regarding the +business and asking such simple questions as he was warranted in asking. +When the discussion was finished he asked again for Luther, and she +promised to get him as soon as possible. + +Hugh Noland had a long afternoon to think out the situation into which he +had thrust Elizabeth, for when Elizabeth arrived at Luther's house he had +gone to town and the sun was so hot that she rested before starting home. +Hugh was only disturbed by Hepsie, who came once an hour to give him the +drink necessary when medicine time came around. It was lonesome with +Elizabeth away, but it let him think more clearly. Hugh saw that he had +entangled Elizabeth in a life which contained something altogether +extraneous to her whole character. Because she was perfectly open, the +greater would be the damage which must result to her if this life went on. +One wild moment of hope had been granted him when they had discussed the +possibility of telling John. How well Hugh remembered the searching +thought Elizabeth had given his question before she had shaken her head. +The time taken to think soberly of confession told more plainly than all +her words how much she desired it. The one thing in life which Elizabeth +most disliked was duplicity, and yet so long as he remained an invalid +their relations would be kept up. For this alone he would have been glad +to crawl on his knees to Colebyville, though he died on the way. Something +must be done to free the girl and put her back into a life of which she +could approve. With self-respect restored, Elizabeth was the kind of woman +who would take hold of the merely unpleasant features of her life, and in +time find a way of overcoming them. A plan began to formulate in Hugh +Noland's head. + +The next morning Hepsie came and asked for a few days off to get some +needed sewing done. With Hugh's illness and the extra work of it she had +let her own work drag till she felt that she could neglect it no longer. +Elizabeth let her go, thinking guiltily that there would be less danger of +the discovery she seemed to be ever fearing these days. How they had gone +so long without it she could not understand. To get her dinner dishes out +of the way early she put Jack to sleep immediately after they were through +eating and then hurried the dishes so as to get in a long afternoon's +reading. The dishes took a long time in spite of her efforts to hurry. +When at last she did finish she hastened to the bedroom with a glass of +water in her hand. Hugh had been thinking seriously and was worn out with +the tangle of wrongdoing in which he found himself, the solution of which +involved such unsatisfactory changes, and now just weakly wanted to be +loved. He did not speak, but after the tablet was swallowed invited a kiss +by a glance of the eye, and when it was given, drew her head down on his +breast and lay patting it. + +Jack had wakened and toddled into the room on his sleepy little legs. The +child staggered over to his mother and laid his head against her arm, +murmuring sleepily: + +"Love oo too!" + +Elizabeth Hunter sprang to her feet as if a clap of thunder had +unexpectedly sent its report through the hot afternoon air. Her guilty +eyes sought Hugh's. Jack encircled her knees with his fat little arms and, +standing on his tiptoes to be taken, repeated: + +"Love oo too!" + +There was a noise at the well and Elizabeth, glad of a chance to escape +from the room, went out. John was pumping water over a jug to cool it +before he filled it. The sight of the man who was her husband had a +curious effect on Elizabeth; everything in her, mentally and physically, +became chaotic, her ears buzzed, her temples throbbed, and there was an +inner shrinking which could scarcely be controlled. John had seen her and +waited for her to come out to the well. + +When the jug was full, John leaned forward to kiss Jack and a sick sort of +fear took hold of her lest he would offer to kiss her also. His breath +fell hot on her neck as he sought Jack's face on her shoulder, but he did +not offer to kiss her, and she turned away with an unspeakable relief. + +"Take Jack and I'll carry the jug out to the boys while you have a chat +with Hugh," Elizabeth said suddenly. + +John was very tired, the field where they had been cutting shock corn was +very hot, and the house looked cool and inviting. + +"Well, I guess I will." + +The jug was heavier than Elizabeth had thought and she sat down to rest on +the way, observing as she did so that Doctor Morgan was driving into the +lane. + +"I am not absolved from blame because he scolds," she told herself. + +As she thought of her duties in life, Jack's affectionate little speech of +half an hour ago came to mind. Aye! there was the crux of the whole +difficulty. She was Jack's mother! A line of Emerson's which she had read +with Hugh once came to her mind: "In my dealings with my child, my Latin +and my Greek, my accomplishments and my money, stead me nothing. They are +all lost upon him: but as much soul as I have avails." Her whole mind was +taken up with the quotation as soon as it came before her. + +"As much soul as I have avails!" Over and over she repeated it, and when +she at last saw John bearing down upon her she got up guiltily and waited +instead of going on with the jug alone. + +"Was it too heavy?" he asked. "I'll take it over and come back for you. +Doctor Morgan wants to see you. I'll come back; it's too hot for me; I'm +going to rest." + +The cool house had appealed to John Hunter. + +At the house Hugh Noland was asking searching questions of the old +doctor. + +"When do you intend to let me get out of here, Doctor?" he asked. + +"Out of here?" the doctor exclaimed. "Not till you're well enough. Just +what do you mean by 'out of here?'" he asked in return. + +"Just what I said. When will I be well enough to go to Mitchell County?" + +There was an intensity about it which caught the doctor's attention. + +"Now look here, Noland, you won't go to Mitchell County for a year with +such a heart as that--it's too far from your friends, my boy. Be good and +don't you get to worrying. You've got to stand it. Be a man." + +Had Doctor Morgan shown any tenderness Hugh Noland would have told him the +real reason for wanting to get away, but something in the banter of being +admonished to be a man took away the thing which made it possible. + +"Then can't I be taken into town?" Hugh asked when he had had time to +swallow the bitter pill. + +"Into town? Now? Well, not that anybody knows of at this time. Now look +here, you've got a splendid place to stay; why can't you be sensible and +lay here and get well? You worry till I might as well go and turn this +medicine down the gullet of one of Hunter's pigs. Be a man," he repeated, +hoping to whip the discouraged patient into line with good sense. + +"It isn't a case of being a man, when a woman's got to take care of you +that had better be taking care of herself," Hugh said bitterly. + +"Is Mrs. Hunter getting down on our hands too? That won't do. I'm glad we +sent for her." + +Hugh Noland knew that he had played his last card, and he knew that he had +lost. Elizabeth walked in at that moment, followed by John. Doctor Morgan +addressed himself to her, taking her aside while they talked. + +"All moonshine, Noland, old boy," he exclaimed when he followed Elizabeth +back to the sickroom a few minutes later. "This girl's as sound as a +dollar. Noland's been thinking he's too much trouble, Mrs. Hunter." + +Doctor Morgan saw Hugh Noland's colour die out, and dropped his finger on +the patient's wrist apprehensively. Neither spoke. To change the subject, +and also to get a chance to observe the sick man under less conscious +circumstances, Doctor Morgan addressed John: + +"By the way, Hunter, that man you bought the team of got in a pinch and +asked me to shave the note for him. It's all right, is it?" + +A sort of electric thrill ran from each to all in the room. Doctor Morgan +understood that he had unwittingly opened Pandora's box; Hugh gave no +sign, but though John answered promptly and positively in the one word, +"Surely," a warning was somehow conveyed to John that this was more than a +merely unfortunate moment. He had been uncomfortable about the note, and +under ordinary circumstances would have been glad to have the first +knowledge of it come to Hugh in the presence of a third party, but now, by +some indefinable thing which was neither sight nor sound, he knew that the +news was not news to Hugh, and by the same intangible, vague thing, by +some prophetic premonition, John knew that this matter of the note was a +disaster. + +There was a long pause, finally broken by Hugh. + +"Will you be going home by Hansen's to-night, Doctor?" + +"I can as well as any other way," the doctor said, glad to hear voices +again. + +"Will you ask Hansen to come over in the morning, then?" Hugh asked. + +Both Doctor Morgan and John Hunter looked over at Hugh sharply, wondering +what he could want of Luther, but the sick man closed his eyes as a way of +ending the argument. Doctor Morgan dropped his finger on the patient's +wrist again and looked at John warningly: + +"I think I'll be going. You stay with Noland, Hunter. I want a word with +Mrs. Hunter before I go. I'll stop at Hansen's, Noland." + +Doctor Morgan took Elizabeth out and questioned her closely about the diet +and other important matters, but was able to elicit nothing new. + +"I've been encouraged of late," the old doctor said, shaking his head, +"but here he is as bad as ever--that is, as discouraged and restless. Have +you been reading to him lately? What's on his nerves, anyhow?" + +When the doctor could get no additional information regarding Hugh's +condition from Elizabeth, he gave it up and turned his attention to the +girl herself. + +"I told him you were as fine as a dollar, but I'm not sure about you. I'm +going to bring you a tonic to-morrow. I'll be out in the morning, early, +and I'll try and see him to-morrow night late. I don't like the way he +looked to-night. Say, you don't know what he wants of Hansen do you?" + +"No. He asked me to go over yesterday afternoon after him, but Luther +wasn't there and hasn't come in since. It's a busy time and he probably +thought very little of it. Hugh often sends for him. Do you think he's +worse, Doctor?" she asked anxiously. + +"No, not specially," the old doctor answered gruffly, as he turned toward +Luther Hansen's house. He was a bit annoyed because he thought Hugh showed +too little backbone, as he termed it. + +John Hunter sat long beside the invalid, cut to the quick by the languid +air and shrunken frame. He wanted to talk about the note now that it was +not a secret, but Hugh lay absolutely silent and did not open his eyes +until the lamp was brought in. At that he shifted uneasily and asked that +it be kept in the other room till needed at medicine time. John finally +gave it up and went softly out, convinced that Hugh wanted rest and quiet. +John was broken in many ways by the continued illness for which he felt +himself responsible, and had particularly wanted a chance to talk +to-night. + +When all had gone to bed but Elizabeth, Hugh called her to him. + +Elizabeth answered the call, but stood at a distance from the bed. It had +come. Hugh had always known it would, but now that it was here it was hard +to face. + +"You mean it, I know you do, Elizabeth," he said. "I want you to do it, +but--O God! how hard it's going to be!" + +He held out his empty arms to her for a last embrace. + +Elizabeth shook her head. + +"Now's the time to begin, Hugh. 'Too,' Jack says. That tells the whole +story. I shall pollute his life also. I shall stand, not for what I think +I am, but for what I am, in that child's sight. I reasoned it out when you +were so ill, and I thought this was justifiable, and oh, Hugh! I've +dragged myself down in my own sight and I've dragged you down with me. It +isn't enough for me to seem to be right, I've got to _be_ right," she said +in a low tone, and with added shame because she had to keep her voice from +John's ears--John who slept upstairs and trusted them. + +"It would be easier for you, Elizabeth, if I were not here," Hugh Noland +said sadly. "You could kill it out alone." + +"But I am not alone. You are here, and have got to help me. Tell me that +you will--at any cost," she leaned forward, and in her eagerness raised +her voice till he pointed upward warningly. + +When she had given his medicine without a touch of tenderness, he said to +her: + +"You have bid my soul forth. I will give you that help, at any cost." + +He made the last sentence stand out, but in her earnestness she did not +notice it or think of it again till it was significant. She went back to +her bed on the sitting-room couch and to the broken rest allowed to those +who watch with the sick. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + +"AT ANY COST" + + +The old doctor delivered the message to Luther, and the next morning he +appeared at the sickroom door. + +While he was talking to Hugh, Nathan Hornby came and was called into the +sickroom also. Elizabeth was too busy with her own work to think much +about this visit, and before it was finished Doctor Morgan was with her +questioning her about the night spent by her patient. + +Nathan came to the kitchen while they were talking. + +"I think I'll take that youngster home with me if you're goin' t' be alone +t' day," he announced. + +Doctor Morgan looked relieved. + +"That's about the kindest thing you could do for this girl," he said. +"Noland isn't as well as I'd like to have him, and she's up every hour in +the night. It takes a hired girl to run off at a time like this." + +Elizabeth defended Hepsie at once. "Hepsie's pure gold. She waited a long +time for Hugh to get well. Please, Doctor, don't make any such remark as +that outside of this house or some one 'll tell her I said it. Really, +she's the best help a woman ever had. She'll come back the first of next +week. She said she'd come back any day I'd send for her. She'd do anything +for me." + +"I guess you're right, little woman," Doctor Morgan laughed. "I wish all +the same that you had some one with you so that you could stay right with +that boy." + +All through the forenoon Elizabeth kept out of the sickroom except when +the medicine was due, and then got away as fast as she could, though it +was not easy to do so, for Doctor Morgan had urged her to entertain the +invalid and keep him cheered up, letting her see that he was more than +usually worried. She meant to live up to her resolutions, but in the +afternoon Hugh was so quiet that it seemed ominous and began to worry +her. + +"Oh, Hugh! how can I do right if you take it this way?" she cried in +despair, and would have stroked his hair if he had not shrunk from her +hand. + +"Don't, Elizabeth. You have asked for help. I have to give it in my own +way. I have done harm enough to your life. Make it as easy for me as you +can, for I'm only a man and--well, I've promised to help you--_at any +cost_. You've nothing to worry about. I'm no worse than I've been," he +ended in a whisper, and closed his eyes, as was his way when he did not +want to talk. + +The girl tiptoed out, and left him to his thoughts. Her own were anything +but satisfactory. He was more wan and tragic than ever before, and Doctor +Morgan had especially cautioned her. She worked in the kitchen most of the +evening, keeping out of his presence, and so the long, hard, +unsatisfactory day passed, was recorded in the annals of time, and forever +gone from the opportunity to alter or change its record. + +Luther Hansen came in after dark. Elizabeth answered his knock. + +"Alone?" he asked in astonishment when he entered the sitting room. + +"Yes. Mr. Chamberlain wanted John to bring the men over and load hogs for +him. It's been too hot to take them to town in the daytime. Hugh's asleep, +I think," she said in a low tone. "I didn't take a light in, because he +likes to be in the dark, but I spoke to him two or three times and he +didn't answer. Are you in a hurry? I hate to waken him." + +Doctor Morgan came as they talked. He stopped to look Elizabeth over +before going to the sickroom, and then took the lamp she handed him and, +followed by Luther, left Elizabeth standing in the dining room. She heard +the doctor's sharp order, "Take this light, Hansen," and ran to help. + +The horror, the anguish, the regret of that hour are best left untold. The +number of disks gone from the bottle under the pillow gave the doctor his +clue. One final effort must have been made by the desperate invalid to +secure for himself the drink which would wash them down without the +dreaded coughing spell. + +The old doctor, who loved them both, and Luther Hansen also, witnessed +Elizabeth's despair, and listened to her story. As Luther had said a few +weeks before, he was a safe person, and her secret remained a secret. +Luther led her away into the night and sat silently by while her grief +spent itself in tears; it was a necessary stage. When John and the men +came, he led her back, and himself met them at the gate to explain. + +The morning and the evening were the first day; the comings and goings of +the inquisitive and the sympathetic were alike unremarked by Elizabeth. +Only for that first hour did her grief run to tears; it was beyond tears. +At the coroner's inquest she answered penetrating questions as if they +related to the affairs of others, and when at last the weary body, whose +spirit had been strong enough to lay it aside, had been buried on the bare +hillside, the neighbours and those who came to the funeral from curiosity +agreed that Elizabeth Hunter could stand anything. So little evidence of +emotion had she given that Mrs. Crane remarked to Mrs. Farnshaw as they +rode home together: + +"I declare, Lizzie's th' coolest hand I ever met. She couldn't 'a' liked +Mr. Noland very much. She wasn't near as broke up as Mr. Hunter was, an' +when I asked her if she wouldn't feel kind of spooky in that house after +such a thing, she just looked at me, funny-like, an' says 'Why?' an' +didn't seem t' care a bit." + +Doctor Morgan drove home from the graveyard with the family. + +"I suppose you know, Hunter, that there's a will," he said before he +helped Elizabeth into the buggy. + +"No! Who's got it?" John exclaimed. + +"He gave it to me, with a note asking me not to read it till after he was +buried, if he should die." + +John and Elizabeth followed the doctor's rig home across the long stretch +of prairie. + +"Did you know that Hugh left a will?" John Hunter asked Elizabeth, after +driving a long time in silence. + +"Luther told me last night. I didn't think much about it and I forgot to +tell you," Elizabeth returned briefly, and fell back into her own sad +thoughts again. + +John Hunter looked at his wife in surprise. + +"Luther!" he exclaimed. + +"Yes," she answered indifferently, not looking up, and unaware that John +was regarding her with a surprise which amounted almost to suspicion. + +John let the subject drop, but as they rode home he had an uncomfortable +sense of unpleasant things to come: first of all why had the presence of +the will been concealed from him, Hugh Noland's partner and closest +friend? secondly, why had Luther Hansen been told? thirdly, why had +Elizabeth declined just now to discuss it with him after knowing about it +for some time? He could not put his finger on the exact trouble, but John +Hunter was affronted. + +The truth of the matter was that Elizabeth had only heard of the will the +night before, and had been too stunned by other things to care much about +it. If she had thought about it at all she would have supposed that John +had been told also, but Elizabeth had been occupied with troubles quite +aside from material things, and now did not talk because she was concerned +with certain sad aspects of the past and almost as sad forebodings for the +future. + +"You better come in too, Hansen," Doctor Morgan said to Luther, when they +arrived at the Hunter house. + +Sadie had stayed with Hepsie at the house, and Luther had expected to take +her and go straight home. The two women had been busy in the three hours +since the body of Hugh Noland had been taken from the house. The mattress +which had been put out in the hot sun for two days had been brought in, +and order had been restored to the death chamber. There was a dinner ready +for the party of sorrowing friends who had loved the man that had been +laid to his final rest, and it was not till after it was eaten that the +subject of the will was mentioned again. + +They sat about the table and listened to Doctor Morgan's remarks and the +reading of the important document. + +"I have," Doctor Morgan began, "a letter from Mr. Noland written the day +before his death, in which he tells me that he has made a will of which I +am to be made the sole executor. In that letter he enclosed another sealed +one on which he had written instructions that it was not to be opened till +after his death. I opened the latter this morning, and in it he states +frankly that he has decided to voluntarily leave his slowly dissolving +body, and spare further pain to those he loves. Perhaps--perhaps I could +have helped him, if I'd known. I can't tell," the old doctor said +brokenly. "He asked me to do something for him that I guess I ought to +have done, but I thought he was all right as he was, and I wouldn't do it. +However, he asked me as his executor to see to it that every provision of +this will, which I have never seen, be carried out to the letter. Hansen, +here, is one of the witnesses he tells me, and Hornby is the other. It is +unnecessary for me to say that I shall have to carry out these +instructions as I have been commanded to do." + +Turning to John, he added: + +"I hope, Hunter, that there's nothing in this that will work any +inconvenience to you, and I hardly think it will." + +John Hunter sat through the opening of the envelope and the rapid survey +which Doctor Morgan gave its contents before he began to read, stirred by +varying emotions. Suspicion crawled through his brain, leaving her slimy +trail; why had there been need of secrecy? Why had all these people been +told, and he, John Hunter alone, left out? Nathan Hornby and Luther Hansen +witnesses! But most of all, as was to be expected, his suspicions were +directed toward Elizabeth. She had known--she probably knew from the +beginning. She was in the conspiracy. Of the fact of a conspiracy John +Hunter felt certain when Doctor Morgan cleared his throat and began to +read: + + Hunter's Farm, + Colebyville, Kansas, + August 22, 18-- + + Know all men by these presents that I, Hugh Noland, being of sound + mind and memory, not acting under duress, menace, fraud, or undue + influence of any person whatsoever, do make, publish, and declare + this my last will and testament. + + First, I order and direct that all my just debts be paid by my + executor, hereinafter named. + + Second, I expressly provide, order, and direct that all my estate, + consisting of one half of the lands and chattels of the firm of + "Hunter and Noland" shall be settled by my executor, hereinafter + named, without the intervention of the courts, and given, whole and + entire, to Elizabeth Hunter, and to her heirs and assigns forever, + and that the division be a legal division, so arranged that all deeds + to the land and all rights to the personal property shall be legally + hers. + + This I do as an inadequate return for all she has done and tried to + do for me. + + Lastly, I hereby nominate and appoint George W. Morgan, M. D., sole + executor of this my last will and testament, to serve without bonds + or the intervention of any court. + + In testimony whereof I hereunto set my hand and seal, and publish and + declare this my last will and testament, on this twenty-second day of + August, in the year of our Lord 18---- + + Signed, Hugh Noland. + + Witnesses: Luther Hansen, Nathan Hornby. + +There was a pause. Surprise held every person present, for the witnesses +had seen only their signatures up to now, not the will, and Doctor Morgan +was no less astonished than the rest. At last he reached his hand across +the table to Elizabeth saying: + +"It's an instrument that I shall get some pleasure at least from +administering, Mrs. Hunter. You deserve it. I'm glad it goes to you. It's +like the boy! God rest his weary soul, and forgive his impatience to be +off! we'll miss him," he added brokenly. + +Elizabeth sat with her hands clasped on the table in front of her, neither +hearing nor seeing more. She was unaware that she was the object of +everybody's attention and that all eyes were turned on her. The merely +material items contained in that instrument were of little moment to her +just then; to every one else, except perhaps Luther, they were all that +there was of importance. Sadie Hansen looked at her young neighbour, +overcome by the fact that she was to have several thousand dollars all her +own; Luther's gray eyes dwelt upon her affectionately, glad that this last +evidence of Hugh Noland's sacrifice was hers; Doctor Morgan thought of the +power it would give her to control the financial side of her life, and +John Hunter was glad that at least the money was to remain in the +business, and ready to forget the supposed plot. + +Elizabeth was aroused by Doctor Morgan placing a sealed envelope in her +hand and saying: + +"This seems to be for you, Mrs. Hunter. It was in this big envelope with +the will, and I didn't see it till just now." + +The girl was so surprised that she turned the envelope over two or three +times and read her name carefully to realize that the letter was for her, +and from Hugh's own hand. When at last it was clear to her, her face +flushed with confusion, and the first tears which had dimmed her eyes +since the hour of his death came to her relief. But the tears did not +fall. Realizing that the eyes of all present were upon her, she controlled +herself, and rising said: + +"Excuse me one moment, till I have read it," and passed into her own +bedroom, where, with the sense of his presence, she clasped it to her +tenderly an instant, and still standing, broke the seal. + +It was simple, sincere, and so formal that all the world might have read +it, and yet, it said all that she would have wanted him to say. + + My Dear Elizabeth [it began]: When this reaches your hand, my heart + will have ceased to trouble either of us. I will have fought my + little fight; I will have kept the faith--which I started out too + late to keep. The little I leave you will be small recompense for all + I have cost you, but it is all I have, and will, I hope, help toward + emancipating you from care. My one earnest bit of advice to you is, + _keep it free from debts_. + + I wish I might have spared you these last few days and their various + burdens, but I am sure they will be less heavy than if I chose to + wait. + + Hugh. + +Elizabeth Hunter returned to the table with the open letter, which she +handed to Doctor Morgan saying: + +"Read it aloud, Doctor," and stood behind her chair with her head bowed +while it was being done. + +When it was finished, she looked about her, measuring the different +members of the group, wondering if it said the things to them which it +cried aloud to her. The survey was satisfactory, till she suddenly +realized that John was not there. + +"Where's John," she asked. + +"Gone out to see Nate Hornby--he's brought the baby," Luther answered. + +Doctor Morgan started for home, taking the will with him to have it +legally probated, and Elizabeth took Jack from his father's arms, and went +back to put away her letter, forgetting that John had not heard it read. +Nathan came to spend the rest of the day. He knew from personal experience +the cheerlessness of the house which has but lately harboured the dead. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + +FACING CONSEQUENCES + + +The next Sunday John was thrown in upon Elizabeth for entertainment. He +had been a little more tender with her since the funeral, reflecting that +women were easily upset by death and that this death had been particularly +tragic in its sadness and disturbing features. He missed Hugh, and an +intangible something about the will made him uncomfortable; but they would +be rich in time and he could simply oversee the business, and life would +be more satisfactory. If he thought of Luther and Nathan as witnesses, the +thought was made partially acceptable since they could see that Hugh had +placed the property in his, John Hunter's, hands. When the uncomfortable +things wormed their way forward and would be considered, he tried to +reason them out. Some features of it could be accounted for; for instance, +he, John Hunter, had probably not been consulted by Hugh for legal +reasons, since the money was to come to them. Hugh must have considered +that. But Elizabeth had known! He had forgotten that. Right there John +went into a brown study. Had she known before Hugh's death? It was queer, +but she never mentioned Hugh these days, nor the will, nor--no, she did +not speak of the letter, much less offer to show it to him. Still, the +money was theirs. That was the solid rock under John Hunter's feet. +Whatever else happened, the money was theirs. Now he could open out and +farm on a scale befitting a man of his parts. They would make something +yet. This farming venture had not turned out so badly after all. + +A slight rain was falling, the first in two months, two of the most +important months in the year; but it was only a drizzle and not enough to +benefit the corn, which--even the last planting--was ruined. The heat and +drought had forced a premature ripening, and the stubby ears, fully +formed, were empty of developing grains, except near the butts. It was +discouraging to lose the corn, and John, to take the place of the +shortened crop, had had a field plowed and sewed to millet. A promise of +rain meant a probable crop of that substitute for the heavier grain, but +it must be rain, not a mere shower. Disappointed at the stingy display of +water, John wandered about the house, disturbed by Jack's noise, and +irritably uncomfortable. + +"Come on in and sit down," he urged when he saw that Elizabeth intended to +help Hepsie with the dishes. + +"All right. Let the work go, Hepsie, and I'll do it later," Elizabeth said +quietly. She dreaded an hour with John when he was in that mood, but there +seemed to be no help for it. + +The two women cleared the dinner table and righted the dining room before +they stopped, then Elizabeth closed the kitchen door and left the +dishwashing till she could get away from the conference requested. Hepsie +had hurried to get started early for her home and Elizabeth had entered +into her plans and offered assistance. + +"Why don't you let Hepsie finish them alone?" John said petulantly. + +Elizabeth made no reply, but took Jack on her lap and rocked him to keep +herself occupied. There was less opportunity for disagreement if the child +were still while his father talked. + +"If this rain'd only get busy we'd have a crop of millet yet," John began. +"Corn's going to be mighty high and scarce this fall." + +Elizabeth did not reply; something in the air warned her to let John do +the talking. She had ceased to enter into conversation with him unless +something vital made it necessary to speak. The vital thing was not long +in forthcoming. The whimsical weather made him depressed and kept his mind +on the gloomy crop outlook. + +"Confound this beastly drizzle! If it'd only get down to business and rain +we'd pull out yet. There'll be corn to buy for the cattle and the very +devil to pay everywhere. I've got to lengthen out the sheds over those +feeders--it hurried the cattle to get around them last winter--and here's +all these extra expenses lately. There's no way out of it--we've got to +put a mortgage on that west eighty. I'll take up the horse note in that +case, and Johnson's offering that quarter section so cheap that I think +I'll just make the loan big enough to cover the first payment and take it +in. We'll never get it as cheap again." + +Elizabeth's eyes were wide open now, but she considered a moment before +she began to speak. + +"We can't do that," she said slowly at last. "We're out of debt, except +your personal note for the five hundred and the one for the team. It won't +do to mortgage again." + +"But we'll have to mortgage, with the crop short, and all those cattle!" +he exclaimed. + +"Sell a part of them as grass cattle, and use the money to buy corn for +the rest," she advised. + +"Grass cattle are soft and don't weigh down like corn-fed steers. It would +be sheer waste," John insisted. + +Elizabeth understood that right now they were to test their strength. She +thought it over carefully, not speaking till she had decided what to say. +The old path of mortgages and interest meant the old agony of dread of +pay-day and the heart eaten out of every day of their existence, and yet +she was careful not to rush into discussion. Her voice became more quiet +as she felt her way in the debate. + +"You are right as far as you go, grass cattle do not sell for as much, +but, on the other hand, a loan means interest, and there is always a +chance of the loss of a steer or two and then the profit is gone and you +have your mortgage left. Luther said yesterday that they had black-leg +over north of home, and you know how contagious it is." + +"Oh, Luther! Of course Luther knows all there is to know about anything," +sneered her husband, to whom Luther was a sore point just now. + +Elizabeth realized her mistake in mentioning Luther's name to John almost +before it was out of her mouth. John's instincts made him bluster and get +off the subject of business and on to that of personalities at once. She +did not reply to the taunt, but went quietly back to the point of +business. + +"The price of corn," she said with perfect control, "will go way up after +this dry weather, but the price of beef doesn't always rise in proportion. +Besides that, this is a bad year to get tied up in the money market." + +"We're going to have to do it all the same," John replied, spurred on by +the mention of Luther's name to compel her consent. + +"But, we can't do it. Hugh especially directed in his letter that we must +not go into debt." + +"I have not had the honour of seeing Hugh's letter to you, and therefore I +do not know," John returned. That was another sore point. + +"So you didn't! Doctor Morgan read it to all the rest." + +Elizabeth had forgotten that John had not heard the letter read, and rose +promptly and went for it. She laid it on the table at his elbow when she +returned saying: + +"I had forgotten--you didn't hear it when the doctor read it that day." + +John Hunter brushed it aside with his arm. + +"I don't wish to see it, thank you." + +The letter fell on the floor. Elizabeth stooped quickly and picked it up. + +"You may do as you wish about that; I shall not consent to the mortgage +just the same," she said, her temper getting the better of her at last. +She turned to the bedroom to put the letter away. + +"Now look here, Elizabeth!" John called after her. + +Seeing the ineffectiveness of carrying on the conversation when they were +not face to face, John waited till she returned. When she was seated again +and had begun to rock the restless child once more, he began: + +"We may as well understand each other right now as any time. If you're +going to run this place, I want to know it, and I'll step down and out." + +John looked belligerent and waited for her to do her womanly duty and give +in. Elizabeth made no reply. John waited. He continued to wait for some +seconds. + +"I shall not consent to a mortgage," was the quiet answer. + +John Hunter flung himself out of the house. + +It was a bad afternoon for John. The drizzle had hardly been enough to lay +the dust, but had made it impossible to walk through the grass or over the +fields; his pride made it impossible for him to go back to the house, and +so there was no place open to him except the hayloft, where he turned his +own gloomy thoughts over and reasoned out this new development. A day's +pouting, he was certain, would win his point; it would probably be all +right when he went back at supper time, but he saw difficulties ahead with +Elizabeth feeling that she had a right to an opinion regarding the +property. + +"I shall let her see that I mean business all the same. I'm not going to +have her interfering in my work. Let her attend to her own, as a woman +ought to do," he concluded. + +He did wish, however, that he had read the letter. Doctor Morgan had +referred to the letter also as being authority. He had an uncomfortable +feeling that if he ever saw that letter that he would have to ask again; +Elizabeth was a little less easy of late to manage than she had been that +first year; she could put a thing aside and not discuss it almost as well +as he could. + +At that point John's mind flamed up against Luther Hansen. Elizabeth was +always quoting Luther. He was glad he had let her see just now that she +need not quote that common Swede to him any more. He didn't know a necktie +from a shoelace! Hugh might have asked him to witness the will, but Hugh +had seen fit to leave the money to them, all the same. Whatever else hurt, +the money was his, and he'd turn everything into cattle, and get rich, and +get out of this damned hole. + +Elizabeth, in the house, was doing her own thinking. The conversation just +finished had indications. She saw that her husband had a definite policy +in regard to the management of the property, that he did not mean to let +her have any more to do with it than when it was all his own. A creeping +suspicion came to her that if she refused to consent to further mortgages +her husband might leave her. There had been a violence in his tones as +well as in his manner beyond any he had ever assumed toward her. Elizabeth +shrank in a heartsick way from the contest. If he would mortgage the one +eighty and then stop she would far rather have given away that much land +than to have the quarrel, but that she knew he would not do. She could not +for a moment think of giving up if she expected to have a roof over her +head that was unencumbered when she was old. Though half the property was +now hers by actual right, she would not interfere with anything he wished +to do with it except to place a loan against it. If he insisted upon +mortgages, though their disagreement became a scandal, she resolved that +she would not consent. + + * * * * * + +John ate his supper without speaking to any one, and waited from then till +bedtime for his answer, but Elizabeth gave no sign. The next day he +waited, and the next, with increasing uneasiness and alarm. He decided at +last to force her consent. + +The third day he put one of the new horses in the single buggy and left +the place without saying where he was going, and not even when he returned +in the evening did he mention what his errand had been. + +The following morning a team was driven into the side lane and Elizabeth +saw John meet the driver and help him tie his horses. There was the air of +a prearranged thing between them, and as they came toward the house it +flashed through her mind what had been done. Her whole form straightened +instinctively and she grasped her broom rigidly as she left the dining +room and went to her own bedroom to get control of herself before she +should have to meet the stranger. She realized that the man was the +Johnson John had spoken of as having the quarter section of land for sale. +She was to be called upon to act. The thing she must do she knew was +right; could she make the manner of the doing of it right also? She would +not humiliate him if she could help it; she stayed in her room, hoping +that he would come to call her himself and then she could warn him when he +was alone, but John would not meet her except in the presence of the +stranger, and sent Hepsie to call her. There was no help for it, and +Elizabeth went as she was bidden--went quietly, and was introduced to the +neighbour whom she had never seen. + +"Mr. Johnson has accepted my proposition, Elizabeth, to give him +twenty-five dollars an acre for the quarter next to ours," John said after +all were seated. + +The girl waited quietly. She noticed that John did not mention the terms +of payment, and waited for him to commit himself on that point. + +"Do you know where those blank deeds are? We can make one out while we +conclude the details, and then go in to Colebyville to-morrow and have a +notary take our signatures," John concluded easily. + +Elizabeth hesitated visibly, and John had a startled moment, but she went +for the blanks at last, as he directed. The two men sat with their heads +together, and wrote carefully in the numbers and legal description of the +land. + +"And the party of the first part further agrees that the sum of----" John +was reading as he wrote it in. His voice ran on to the close. When the +writing was finished the man Johnson rose, and, picking up his straw hat, +said: + +"I guess I'll be hurrying on toward home now. I'll stop in on the way +to-morrow morning. You'd just as well ride with me." + +"Oh, I'll have to take Mrs. Hunter in with me," John replied, "and I can +just as well hitch up to my own rig." + +"What are you taking me in with you for, John?" Elizabeth asked, perfectly +quiet on the outside, but aquiver with humiliation and dread because of +the thing she was being compelled to do. + +"To fix up the papers on the west eighty; you know It'll be necessary for +you to sign them too." Addressing Mr. Johnson, he added easily: "My wife +objects to going into debt, Mr. Johnson, but I felt this too good an +opportunity to let pass, and since we can arrange it so that I won't have +to raise but a thousand dollars just now, I'm sure She'll see the +advisability of the move." + +Elizabeth considered a second before she began to speak, and then said +slowly: + +"Mr. Hunter does not understand the nature of my objection, I see. Of +course if he can arrange it with you so that all the indebtedness falls on +the land he is buying, I should have no objections whatever, but we cannot +mortgage our home. The provisions of the will forbid it, and I shall live +up to those provisions absolutely." + +The silence which followed was vocal with astonishment. The man looked +from husband to wife for signs of quarrelling, but Elizabeth returned his +gaze quietly, and without signs of anger, and John also gave no indication +of anything but surprise. After a gasping instant, during which his +instincts warned him to keep on the side of decency, John accepted the +situation with seeming calm. + +"Well, Mr. Johnson, if Mrs. Hunter feels that way about it, there's +nothing to do. I'm sorry to have brought you over on a fool's errand," he +said suavely, "but it can't be helped now. We'll take the land later, +however," and ushered his guest out of the house and helped him untie his +team without any sign of the tempest within. + +John went back to the house with no concealment and no cajolery. + +"We may as well know where we are and what we mean to do right here and +now, Elizabeth," he began. "If you're going to do this kind of thing, I +want to know it." + +Elizabeth was ready for the storm, and met it without flurry. She looked +at her husband quietly, steadily, sorrowfully. + +"I shall sign no mortgages, if that is what you are in doubt about," she +said. "I had not intended to ask for a legal division of the property, but +since you demand the right to make loans, I shall not cripple your plans +with what is your own. I will have my part set aside; you can farm it in +any way you choose, but you can only mortgage what is yours. I would have +told you so if you had played fair and discussed this thing with me +instead of leaving the house or blustering. You can tell me what you mean +to do where I am concerned--you would if I were a man--or you can take +just what you did to-day. You try to put me where I can't help myself +before strangers when you want me to do a thing you know I don't think I +ought to do; and you can't handle me that way any longer." + +John Hunter had been working himself into a passion as he listened and +burst out: + +"And You'll work for the best interests of this farm, that's what You'll +do! Every time I ask you to sign a paper you make a little more fuss. +Because I got in pretty deep before is no sign I'm going to do it again, +and when I tell you to sign anything You'll do it." + +His feet were very wide apart, and he thrust his face forward at her, his +eyes glaring into hers with every trick which instinct prompted him to use +in compelling her obedience. + +Elizabeth barely glanced at him, and then looked down at the floor, +quietly considering in what way she should reply to such an attack. + +John was disconcerted; his little stage play had fallen flat. + +After a moment's pause, Elizabeth began very quietly: + +"I will not interfere with anything you do about the land which has been +left to me, except that I will not have one cent of mortgage on it. If you +will keep out of debt, you can manage it any way you choose, but I will +have every step of the business explained to me which involves the safety +of my home, and it will be explained to me beforehand--or the same thing +will happen that has just happened. I will not be deceived, even in little +things." + +The girl looked him squarely and kindly in the face, but her look was as +firm as if he had not blustered. + +"I have not deceived you. I brought this man here and explained the whole +thing before your face, besides telling you the other day that I intended +to have that land." + +"You are shuffling with the truth, and you know it," she said sternly. +"You did not tell me you had made any arrangements with him, nor that you +intended to do so, only in a general way. You thought you'd catch me +before him when it came to signing the papers, and then you thought I +couldn't help myself." + +"I have not tried to deceive you! I brought him here and explained every +detail," he said with such a righteous appearance of innocence that +Elizabeth was tempted to laugh. "We've fallen to a pretty state of affairs +when my own wife hints at my having lied to her," John insisted. + +Elizabeth spoke slowly, measuring her words, realizing that the crisis of +their lives was upon them. + +"I will not accuse you any more, but I will explain the plan on which I +will do business with you." + +"You needn't bother," John interrupted sarcastically. "I will let you run +it." + +"I will not go into debt," Elizabeth continued as calmly as if he had not +interrupted. "That is the absolute decision I have come to. You will not +explain to me _after_ you have decided to do a thing and in the presence +of other people, where my property and my freedom are concerned. On the +other hand, if you are determined to go into debt and branch out into a +larger business, I feel that I cannot deny you the right to do as you wish +with what is your own, and if you choose to do so will divide the property +and leave you as free to mortgage and sell as if you were not married to +me. I will leave you as free as I ask to be myself." + +"Free! Free to be made a fool of. No, ma'am; you don't run any such gag as +that on me. The people in this community are only too anxious to talk +about me; they'd roll it under their tongues like a sweet morsel, that as +soon as you got hold of the money you put the screws on me. You gave +Johnson just such a handle this afternoon as that. You'll behave yourself, +and look after your house and child as a woman ought to do, and I'll take +charge of the work out of doors as a man ought to do." + +Elizabeth interrupted him eagerly: + +"Now right there, John, you have struck the very heart of the thing which +first made me feel that I must take care of myself in my own way. You have +never allowed me to bake a pie or a loaf of bread, nor churn, nor anything +without you told me how to do it; and then you feel that you have the +right to mortgage the home right over my head and think I have no rights +in the matter." + +It was John's turn to interrupt eagerly. + +"Who put that home over your head?" he asked, for the first time +addressing himself to the real issue of the home. + +Elizabeth looked at him steadily. She was surprised to find herself +talking thus quietly, she who had been so prone to emotional hindrances. + +"Since I have been in your house I have had my food and clothes. I don't +have to tell you that my mere work is worth far more than that. I have +borne you a child. Motherhood entitles me to a share in the estate, since +I have the child on my hands; besides, I could have been teaching school +these years and not only earned my living but have been free to go and +come as I have never been free here." + +"That has nothing to do with it. You are married and your duty lies here +as well as your work. It's a wife I want. If you're going to be a wife, be +one; if you're going to be a boss, I want to know it, and I'll get out." + +"Two things I will have my say about: I will not mortgage the half of the +land which is mine, and I will not be interfered with when I have to +correct Jack," Elizabeth said slowly. "Also when I see fit to go anywhere +I shall go hereafter. I was never allowed to go to see Aunt Susan, and she +went down to her death thinking I didn't want to come. Of course that's +different now: I do go when I want to these days, but I got my first +warning right there that I must take care of myself. You don't intend to +tell me anything about what you mean to do with me, ever, if you can help +it." + +"You'll go into Colebyville and sign the papers on that land all the +same," John said doggedly. + +"I will sign no papers till there is a legal division of the property, +John. I mean what I say. I'll let people talk if you crowd me before +them," the girl said decisively. + +John glared at her in desperation. + +"Damn it! no wonder folks talked the week we were married! I've been +humiliated ever since I brought you into this house," the man cried, +breaking into a passion again. "A pretty figure You'll cut, with this last +thing added to your reputation. Everybody knows you couldn't get along +with your father. I let you down easy with Johnson just now, in spite of +the humiliating place you put me in, but if you think I'm going to be +driven at your beck and call you're mistaken." + +John stopped to give effect to his words. He was just beginning to realize +that Elizabeth was not giving up, and that it was a fight to the finish. +The feature John disliked was that it was a fight in the open. Well, let +her fight in the open, she should see that he would not be beaten. + +Elizabeth, to be less conscious of the eyes glaring at her, picked up her +sewing, which had been tossed on the lounge an hour ago, and began to ply +her needle. + +John broke out anew, really losing control of himself this time. + +"It's the most outrageous thing I ever heard of--a woman humiliating her +husband by refusing to sign papers when he has brought the man right into +the house to fix them up! A pretty reputation I'll get out of it! It's +sickening, disgusting. What do you expect me to do? Tell me that. If I +want to buy a load of hay or a boar pig, am I to say to a man, 'Wait till +I ask my wife if I can?'" + +He stood leering at her, hot with passion, determined to make her speak. +The vulgarity of his discussion nauseated her, but since she must discuss, +she was resolved to do it quietly and on decent ground as far as she was +concerned. Without fear she replied slowly: + +"You know perfectly well what I have asked of you, John. You won't gain +anything by blustering. I mean to be consulted on all important matters +like loans, deeds, and mortgages, exactly as you'd consult with a man, and +I intend to be consulted _before_ the thing is done, and not have you take +advantage of me in the presence of strangers. You needn't shuffle matters. +You understand what I mean, and you can't fool me. Be sensible and do the +right thing by me, and give me the chance to do the right thing by you." + +"I've done the right thing by you already, and I'll go about my own +affairs as a man should, and You'll attend to your own affairs as a woman +should if you live with me, and leave me free to act like a man. Do you +understand that?" he demanded. + +"I'm sorry, John," she said, falling back to the needle, which she had let +rest again for a moment. There was a little choke in her voice, but she +was firm. + +"What do you mean by that?" he asked, suspicious that she was not giving +up as he intended that she should do. + +"I mean just what I said a minute ago: I will let you mortgage your half +of this farm after it is divided, but I will not sign any such papers on +the other half. I will not be taken advantage of before strangers; I will +let them talk first, and I will take care of my house as I see fit. Also, +I will not speak when you manage Jack, and you will not interfere when I +have to do it--that is, we will not interfere with each other _before the +child_." + +John Hunter's face turned scarlet, his cheeks stung as if he had been +slapped; she was not giving in at all! He stood before her incensed beyond +words for a moment, breathing hard and almost bursting with what he +considered the insult of it; then the blood which had mounted to his head +receded and left him deadly white. + +"I don't exactly understand you," he said in level tones, "but you shall +understand me. I will never be made a fool of by you again; if you're +going to run things, say it out, and I'll let you have it and run it +alone." + +It was hopeless; she did not reply, but stitched in and out on Jack's +little frock, sick at heart with the shame of such a quarrel, since it was +to accomplish nothing. + +"Answer me!" he thundered. + +Elizabeth laid her sewing on the lounge beside her, and rose to her feet. +She looked him squarely in the face and answered as he demanded. + +"I will sign no papers of which I do not approve, and certainly none which +I have been deceived about in any way. Aside from that you are free to run +the farm as you wish." + +"Then take the whole damned thing, and I'll go back to mother and make a +home for her. She was never allowed to have a home in this house after you +came into it," he flung out. "I'll take the Mitchell County land, and you +can have what's here. That's what you and Hornby and Hansen planned from +the first, I should judge. That's why you got Noland to do it." + +Thrusting his hat down to his very ears, he strode from the house, +swinging the screen door behind him so hard that it broke and the split +corner fell out and hung dangling by the net, which kept the splintered +frame from falling to the ground. + +Elizabeth closed the panelled door to keep out the flies, and turned +quietly to the bedroom for her bonnet. She spoke to Hepsie, who had heard +the entire argument, as she passed through the kitchen, asking her to keep +Jack for her, and walked through the barnyard, through the wet pasture, +and on to her haunt in the willows, where she could think undisturbed. + +John was still standing in the harness room of the barn when he heard the +door close behind Elizabeth, and saw her coming that way. + +Elizabeth was coming to the barn! He gave a start of surprise. Even while +he had not given up all thought of her coming to his terms, he wondered at +her giving in so promptly. John drew back so that she should not see that +he was watching her. When she did not immediately appear he thought with a +smile of satisfaction that she had stopped, not finding it easy to +approach after the haughty manner in which she had just dismissed his +demands. He waited a moment, considering terms of capitulation, and then +walked unconcernedly out. + +The truth broke upon him. She had passed the barn, she was on her way to +the willows, not to him. Something in John Hunter sickened. + +Up to the moment when John had seen his wife coming toward him he had been +fully prepared to stand by the terms of dissolution which he had made. But +in that moment when he watched her recede from him in the direction of the +willows, the tide of his feelings turned; he wished he had not issued his +ultimatum; he wished he had not put it to the test. + +The triumph of receiving her submission had been his first thought when he +had seen her come from the house, and it had been a sweet morsel while it +had lasted, but when he had seen her going from him toward the willows, he +suddenly realized that triumph had slipped from his grasp. Suddenly he +desired to possess her. Not since the first six weeks of their +acquaintance had Elizabeth looked so fair to him. He had put her away! A +great sob rose up in him. He had said that he would go back to his mother, +and his fate was sealed. He had gone to the barn to saddle his horse and +start on the instant for Mitchell County and the cattle he had chosen as +his portion, but all at once the glamour of his going died away and he saw +the choice he had made. To crown his cheerless flight, Jack was at Nathan +Hornby's, and pride would not let him follow the child up even when he was +going away forever. Nate Hornby had had something to do with this business +of Elizabeth getting the money, and he had also had something to do with +her determination to take the money out of his, her husband's, hands, and +he, John Hunter, would not humble himself before him. Long before +Elizabeth's return from the willows her husband was away. + +Great was Elizabeth Hunter's surprise when John did not appear at supper. +She had not taken him seriously; he had always blustered, and while she +had realized that he was angry enough to make his word good, she had +supposed that he would make a division of the property if he intended to +leave her, and make arrangements for the child. She did not believe that +he was gone, and answered the observations and questions of the hired men +by saying that he had probably gone for the baby. In fact, having once +said it, it sounded plausible to her, and she waited till far into the +night for the sound of his horse's footsteps. + +The suspicion which at midnight was yet a suspicion was by morning a +certainty, but Elizabeth kept her own counsel, and when Nathan brought +Jack at noon she did not speak of her husband's absence. The second day +the hired men began to make mention of it, and the evening of the third +day Luther Hansen appeared at the sitting-room door. + +"Lizzie, what's this I hear about Hunter?" he asked, looking searchingly +into her face. + +Elizabeth told him all that she knew, except the unjust thing he had said +about Luther. + +"I don't know anything about his plans," she concluded, "except that he +said he meant to go to his mother after he had marketed the cattle. You'll +hear from the neighbours that Hugh's money has set me up and made a fool +of me, and various other things," she added; and she saw in his face that +it had already been said. + +The girl sat and looked into the night through the open door for a moment +and then went on: + +"I shall go to Colebyville to-morrow, and see Doctor Morgan and look after +business matters. I'll tell you what we decide upon when I get home. +There'll have to be a real division of the property now. I don't know what +to do about living here alone. I suppose there'll be every kind of +gossip?" + +The last part of the sentence was a question, and one Luther was not the +man to evade. + +"You'll have a lot of talk that hain't got no truth in it to meet," he +said reluctantly. "You'll have t' have some one with you here. You +couldn't git Hornby, could you?" Luther knew the nature of the gossip the +neighbours would wreak upon her. + +A light fell upon Elizabeth. + +"The very idea!" she exclaimed. "Just what I need to do and at the same +time just what I would love to do." + +Luther was delighted that that important feature of the matter could be so +easily arranged. He could not bear to have her mixed up with any sort of +scandal, when her neighbours so little understood the real situation, and +would be so ready to strike her wherever they could. + +"Then you go an' see Hornby to-night, Lizzie. Have Jake hitch up for you, +an' take Hepsie along." Luther paused a moment and then proceeded on +another phase of her troubles. + +"Lizzie, how do you feel about it? Do you--would you like t' have 'im +back? 'Cause if you would, I'll go to Mitchell County for you. You ain't +goin' t' have no easy time of it here. Folks--specially th' women's--goin' +t' have it in for you quite a bit." + +"No," Elizabeth answered promptly. "I'll take whatever comes from my +neighbours. I can shut my doors and keep them outside, but, Luther, I +can't go on as things have been on the inside of my own house. I don't +want to talk about it at all, even to you, but I shall let him go. It's +better than some other things. We'd simply come to the place where we had +to understand each other. I'd a great deal rather have him back than to +have him gone, but he wouldn't understand at all if I sent for him." + +Luther looked at her approvingly and yet something in him held back. He +longed to spare her all the low tittle-tattle of her neighbours, the +coarse jests of the hired men among themselves, and the eternal suspicions +of the women. + +"I know all you would say, Luther," she said, understanding his reluctance +to give up. "I know what these women who think I haven't wanted to visit +them will say, and I don't blame them, but I will not send for him now or +ever. I have wronged him in ways he has known nothing of--maybe the +scandal I haven't deserved at his hands will square that deal a +little--but that is not the present difficulty. We'll have to have an +agreement about our plan of life together. If he ever comes back I shall +never deceive him again, but I will never be deceived by him again, +either." + +"Well, you know best, Lizzie. I'll talk to Jake for you. You'd best try t' +keep him an' Hepsie. They're good friends an' you're goin' t' need +friends." + + * * * * * + +Luther saw that the buggy was got ready for Elizabeth and Hepsie, and +after they had gone talked to the men, telling them that Elizabeth had +asked him to do so. He told them her offer was for them to stay on at the +usual wage, or go now so that she could fill their places. After they had +signified their willingness to remain in her employment, he took Jake +aside and had a long talk with him. + +Jake Ransom filled with anger when the two were alone. + +"I didn't say anything when you was a talkin' t' them men," he said +confidentially, "but I ain't lived in this house for close on three year +now without learnin' somethin'. Damned fool! never done nothin' she's +wanted 'im to since I've been here. She got 'er eye-teeth cut when Mis +Hornby died, but it most killed 'er. I've watched 'er a gittin' hold of +'erself gradual-like, an' I knew there'd be an end of his bossin' some +day. Gosh! I'm glad she got th' money! Noland was some fond of her." + +Jake stole a sidelong glance at Luther as he said it and waited to see if +he would elicit an answer. When Luther did not reply, he added: + +"I'm dog'on glad I've been here. Lots of folks 'll ask me questions, an' +won't I be innocent? You kin help at your end of this thing too. I guess +we kin do it 'tween us." + +The understanding was perfect, but Jake took warning by Luther's refusal +to discuss private affairs. Without saying just what was intended, each +knew what course of action the other meant to take, and so Elizabeth was +granted friends at the critical moment of her life and spared much that +was hard in a community where personalities were the only topics of +conversation. + + * * * * * + +Nathan Hornby was only too glad to live in the house with Jack Hunter. As +he remarked, it would take no more time to drive over to his work than to +cook his own breakfast in the morning. + +Hepsie was at this time Elizabeth's principal defender. While listening to +the reading of the will on the day of the funeral, Hepsie, old in the ways +of her little world, had known that some explanation would have to be made +of so unusual a matter as a man leaving his money to another man's wife, +instead of to the man himself, and had begun by giving out the report +which she intended the world to accept, by talking to Sadie Hansen before +she got out of the dooryard. Hepsie knew that first reports went farthest +with country folk, and Luther, who understood better than any one else why +the money had been left to Elizabeth, was inwardly amused at Sadie's +explanations afterward. + +"You know, Luther," Sadie had said on the way home that day, "Mr. Noland +told Hepsie he was agoin' t' leave his share of th' land to Lizzie, 'cause +Doc Morgan says She'll never be strong again after overworkin' for all +them men, an' things. An' she says he felt awful bad 'cause he was a +layin' there sick so long an' her a havin' t' do for 'im when she wasn't +able--an' do you know, she thinks that's why he killed hisself? I always +did like 'im. I think it was mighty nice for him t' leave 'er th' stuff. +My! think of a woman havin' a farm all 'er own!" + +And Luther Hansen listened to Sadie telling her mother the same thing the +next day, and smiled again, for Mrs. Crane could talk much, and was to +talk to better purpose than she knew. + +Also, when Elizabeth went to the little schoolhouse to meeting the first +Sunday of her widowhood, being determined to be a part of the community in +which she lived, Hepsie was on the outskirts of the little crowd after +services were over, to explain in a whisper that Lizzie was "goin' t' go +t' meetin' now like she'd always wanted to do, only Mr. Hunter never 'd +take 'er anywhere 'cause 'e felt hisself too good." + +Hepsie was to fight Elizabeth's battles on many occasions and stayed on, +watchful as a hawk of Elizabeth's reputation. A sly joke among the hired +men while discussing their position in the house of "the grass-widder" +drove Hepsie beside herself and made her even more ready than she had been +at first to serve the interests of one who was to have no easy time among +her jealous neighbours. Elizabeth knew that in that hour she could have +had most of these people for her friends had it not been that she was +supposed to be "stuck-up." This also was a price she was to pay for having +let her husband dominate her. + +When Doctor Morgan was told of Elizabeth's plan to farm the place herself +he was delighted and approved of it heartily. + +"You're a little brick, Mrs. Hunter," he said. "I'll back you in anything +you decide to do. It was devilish mean to run off without settling affairs +up. If any of these yahoos around here say anything about it they'll get a +setting up from me that they won't want again. But I'm mighty glad you've +got Hornby. That'll keep actual slander off of you. How much did you say +you owed now?" + +"Five hundred--and some expenses for Mr. Noland--besides the note you hold +for the team. I've got about a hundred in the bank, but I shall need a +pony to ride about the farm, and that will take about half of what I have +ready. + +"The pony's a good idea. There's no telling what would be made out of you +wandering around the fields on foot to look after the hired men, but on +horseback you'd be all right. Now don't you worry about that note of +mine--I'm in no hurry," the doctor said encouragingly. Elizabeth saw the +advantage of having Doctor Morgan as an enthusiastic advocate of her +plans. + +"What about the land, Doctor?" the girl asked next. "I want a legal +division as soon as possible. Will it have to be appraised and sold?" + +Doctor Morgan noted joyfully that Elizabeth Hunter had her business well +in mind, and assured her that it would be only a formality to have the +appraising done, as she could buy it in herself, and further assured her +that he would himself confer with John after all was settled. + + + + +CHAPTER XXV + +"THE WEIGHT OF A DOLLAREE AND OUT +OF DEBT DON'T FORGET THAT" + + +Nathan Hornby moved promptly over to the Hunter farm, and established +himself in Hugh's old room upstairs. + +The farm work prospered under Elizabeth's management. She was fortunate +enough to trade a young heifer with a calf at her side for Silas's pony, +and because feed was scarce she sold most of the stock, keeping only such +as she desired to open farming with the next spring. The hogs were +marketed early, and the few steers left when the cattle had been taken to +Mitchell County were sold to the first buyer who offered a reasonable +figure for them; the cows which gave evidence of increase were kept and +the rest sold. Altogether money enough was raised to pay the note for the +team and all the outstanding indebtedness except the note for five hundred +dollars. The latter did not mature till May and could stand. The expense +of feeding discouraged the farmers and prices dropped steadily all +winter. + +When April came the Johnson land was sold to a stranger, who came and +offered to buy the west eighty of Elizabeth's land. The five hundred would +be due the next month. The new neighbour coveted that eighty, and +Elizabeth decided that if she could get a price warranting its sale she +would sell, pay off the five hundred, and put the rest into calves while +they were cheap. She offered the land for thirty-five dollars an acre. It +was unheard of! No one had ever asked so much for land in that country, +but the man wanted to add that land to his farm, and after some bargaining +paid the price. + +Frugal and cautious, Elizabeth paid the five hundred with the first check +she drew against the price of the land. That left two thousand for calves +and three hundred for running expenses. John had taken one horse out of +the new team when he went away, and Elizabeth decided not to buy another, +but to hire a horse in harvesting time. There were three full teams for +the plows, besides the horse which had been hurt in the runaway. It had +recovered and, though scarred and stiffened, could be used for ordinary +work. She took good care to have it hitched beside a solid, trusty mate +and treated gently to soothe its wild nature. + +No word had come from John except when Doctor Morgan wrote him of the +appraisement of the land. Then a curt letter had been received saying that +whatever they did would be satisfactory to him and that when the deeds +came he would sign them. Not to be outdone, Elizabeth bought the portion +of land which did not have the house and buildings, agreeing to rent the +home eighty until such time as he should choose to sell it, and expressing +a desire, since Jack had been born there, to buy the home if John should +ever wish to part with it. To his suggestion that she use the home without +rent--in fact, an offer of it as his share of support of the +child--Elizabeth refused to listen. + +"I'll rent it of him as I would of anybody, Doctor," she had replied, and +made out a note on the spot. + +John had written that he was in the commission business in Chicago, and +did not say whether his mother was with him nor not. To Elizabeth he did +not write, but to Jack he sent loads of toys and a sled at Christmas +time. + +Elizabeth had not attempted to communicate with John direct, but had +rented his share of the land from him through Doctor Morgan. The sale of +the west eighty gave her enough money to stock the place with every animal +it would hold. When the girl began to look about her for calves, she found +that because of the price of corn many farmers were selling their hogs at +a sacrifice. Hogs were quick money. She invested in such as were ready for +increase, and by harvest time there was a fine lot of pigs on the Hunter +farm. Every cow had been milked, and the calves raised by hand so as to +have the milk for the young pigs till the early corn could be gathered. +Milking was hard work, but Elizabeth Hunter's pride was up. + +Elizabeth's pride had had some sore pricks. In spite of every effort to +avoid hearing the small talk regarding herself, Elizabeth had been obliged +to listen to such portions as dribbled through from her mother, and an +occasional remark from Sadie Hansen. Sadie Hansen's life was a reorganized +one, but there were small lapses, and from force of habit she repeated +things, though she was in the main about the kindest neighbour Elizabeth +had. With Mrs. Farnshaw the case was different. She was Elizabeth's +mother, and certain privileges must be accorded her because of the +relationship. When she chose to disapprove of the separation of her +daughter from her husband, the daughter was compelled to recognize her +right to protest, and often inadvertently to listen to the gossip which +her mother urged as reasons for her objections. Mrs. Farnshaw came often +and talked volubly. Elizabeth shielded herself as best she could from her +mother's prattlings, but had to endure many tearful complaints, for her +mother was suffering much loneliness and discomfort since her daughter's +marriage. Josiah Farnshaw did not forget, nor let his wife forget, the +disaffection of Elizabeth. + +Once when Mrs. Farnshaw had gone beyond the mark where her daughter could +receive it in silence, urging that Elizabeth call her husband home and +submit herself to the matrimonial yoke, the girl turned upon her in +annoyance: + +"You'd have me just where you are yourself, ma. You say pa mistreats +you--that's just what was coming to me. If I didn't have money enough that +was all my own to live on, my husband would be sneering at me and keeping +me in hot water all the time, exactly as pa sneers at you." + +"But you're separated!" Mrs. Farnshaw cried. + +"Yes," the girl said slowly, "and because we are separated I can go to +town if I like, I can go to church, I can go to see a neighbour, or my +mother, without hating to ask for a horse to drive or being told when to +come home, and when Jack is naughty I can talk to him without having +anybody set his little will against mine and make it harder to deal with +him. Oh, mother mine! Can't you see that I'm happier than you are?" + +"But, you're livin' apart and--and folks is a talkin'!" the mother +exclaimed hopelessly. + +"Let them talk. Their talk don't hurt me, and it shouldn't hurt you. They +don't talk before me." + +"But they talk behind your back, Lizzie," Mrs. Farnshaw said with a wise +nod of the head. + +"They talked about us when John was here, ma, and they always talk about +us; it doesn't matter much what they talk about; they wouldn't pay off the +mortgage, nor the interest, nor raise Jack right, nor give me a chance to +rest on washday. Some will say I was in the wrong, some that John was, and +they all said that I was stuck-up and wouldn't visit with them when it +wasn't so at all. They are looking to see _who_ was wrong; I have reasoned +out _what_ was wrong. It's principles, not personalities, that get people +into troubles that don't seem to have any way out. Oh! can't you see, ma, +that I'm free, and the women that talk about me are just where they've +always been. Free! and don't forget that I'm out of debt. That's more than +you've got by staying with your husband, and you haven't been able to keep +people from talking after all. Free, and out of debt! Don't forget it." + +"Well, you wouldn't 'a' been free, either, if Mr. Noland hadn't 'a' left +you th' money," Mrs. Farnshaw replied. + +Elizabeth dropped into a retrospective mood for a moment before she +answered, and then said slowly: + +"I know that. God in Heaven, how well I know it! And do you know I think +about it every day--what could be done for the poor women on these hot +Kansas prairies if there were some way to see that every girl that loves a +man enough to marry him could have money enough to keep her if she +couldn't live under the work and children he crowds on her. I'm free, +because I have money enough all my own to live on. That's the weight of a +dollar. Don't forget that, you poor ma, who have never had a dollar except +what has been doled out to you by the man you married. The weight of a +dollar," Elizabeth added meditatively, "that's what it is!" + +Mrs. Farnshaw, who had bought the groceries for her little family with the +butter and eggs, and whose sugar had sometimes been short because there +was a supply of Horse Shoe Plug to provide also, had no answer ready. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + +"WAS--WAS MY PAPA HERE THEN?" + + +Two years of favourable weather and good fortune with her livestock saw +the money Elizabeth had invested in hogs doubled and trebled, and later, +when the Johnson land was again offered for sale, she was able to buy it +for cash and have the place well stocked after it was done. Silas +Chamberlain, who watched Elizabeth with the same fatherly interest he had +felt when her child was born, and who glowed with secret pride at the way +in which she had won her way back into the country society about them, +came in often and offered his measure of good-natured praise. He had +prophesied the first time she had cooked for harvest hands that she would +become a famous cook, but he had not expected to find her a famous farmer. +What was still more astonishing to the old man was that she had become +noted in quite other ways. The move she had made in going to meeting the +first Sunday after John's departure, and Hepsie's explanation of it, had +worked to her advantage in reestablishing her in the community as one of +its factors, and opened to her the opportunity to wield the influence +which Luther had pointed out to her the best educated woman in a community +should wield. She took a class in the little Sunday school at the +schoolhouse, not so much because she was an enthusiastic churchwoman as +because it was the place where contact could be had. Elizabeth belonged to +no church, but Elizabeth could turn the conversation of the church +members, among whom she mingled, from gossip to better things, and there +was not a quilting bee nor an aid society meeting in the country around to +which she was not invited, and which she did not raise to a higher +standard by her presence. + +The snubs which the neighbour women were at first anxious to deliver fell +flat in the quiet unconsciousness with which they were met. Elizabeth felt +that much of the treatment she received was given in righteous +indignation, and pursued the policy when possible to do so of not seeing +it, and when it must be met to meet it with perfect good humour. She kept +her credit good among the men with whom she bartered for young stock, and +there began to creep in a better feeling for her within the first six +months after she assumed the care of the farm and the problematical +position of a "grass widow" in the neighborhood. Doctor Morgan, Hepsie, +Jake, and Luther were splendid assets in the race with public feeling, and +Silas saw his young neighbour's affairs straighten out with chuckles of +delight. He watched her manoeuvre with her business deals and saw the +cool-headedness of them with growing enthusiasm. He passed Nathan on his +way to the field one spring morning and noticed that Nathan was using a +seeder from the Hunter farm. It was bright with a coat of freshly dried +paint. + +"That's what she borrowed my brushes for last week," he exclaimed to +Nathan. "Ever see anything like 'er?" he asked admiringly. "Takes care of +everything. Did you ever see th' likes of them hogs? She's made more money +sellin' that land an' buyin' of it back 'n most of us old heads 'll make +in five year. Everything she touches seems t' have a wad stuck under it +somewheres." + +Elizabeth was more than merely successful in money matters; she was a +reorganized woman from the standpoint of health also. She was no more the +weary, harassed woman who had churned, baked, and cooked for shellers, and +had so nearly found an early grave. The satisfaction of working +unrestrained, of resting when nature and woman's constitution demanded, +and the whole matter of living without fear, had given her a sound and +healthy body and a mind broader and less liable to emotional bias. The +principle which she had demanded from her husband in their last +conversation she put into practice. Hepsie ruled the house very much as if +it were her own. Elizabeth knew from experience the dreariness of +housework where all individuality is denied the worker. Hepsie came and +went as the exigencies of the work permitted, and there was always a horse +provided for her journeys away from the place; in fact, Hepsie was much +more free than her mistress had been in her first three years in the same +house. Elizabeth demanded good service, but she gave good service also, +and from being a good joke to work for the grass widow, it came to be +recognized that the Hunter farm was a good place to live, and when the +spring came around the men who had worked there the season before always +presented themselves for fresh hiring. + +Two years more passed, and Master Jack Hunter was seven years old. On his +seventh birthday his mother dressed him and herself carefully and rode +over to the lonely graveyard. She did not go flower-laden. Rather, she +went as was her custom, to spend an hour with the quiet dead in silent +thought. Hugh Noland's sacrifice had not been in vain. The life he had +laid down had, whatever its mistakes and weaknesses, been a happy one to +himself, and had carried a ray of cheer to all with whom it had come in +contact, while his death had pointed toward an ideal of purity, in spite +of failures. That brief period during which Elizabeth had been compelled +to live a double life for his sake had held many lessons, and had forever +weaned her from duplicity of any sort. Those special hours--the hours +spent beside Hugh Noland's grave--were spent in searching self-inquiry, in +casting up accounts, in measuring herself against the principles with +which she struggled. People had gone out of her wrestlings; principles +remained. Here Elizabeth meditated upon the fact that because the +neighbourhood sentiment and discussion centred around their home, she and +John Hunter had missed a golden opportunity in not having become a force +for good during those first years of their marriage. + +The hour spent beside Hugh's grave was her sacrament. There she went to +renew her faith in her own powers, which Hugh's interest and estimates had +first taught her to recognize; there she went to renew her vows of higher +living, and there to contemplate the freedom which Hugh Noland had given +her. But for the land and stock which gave her an independent income she +would have been as tearful, worn, and despondent as many of the women +about her. Her heart was very tender toward Hugh as she sat beside his +grave to-day. She held his letter--the only one he had ever written, +her--in her hands. As she read it over, part of its last sentence, "and +will, I hope, help toward emancipating you from care," struck her +attention, and her eyes filled with tears. + +"What is it, mamma? What hurts?" Jack asked, always quick to respond to +his mother's moods. + +"Nothing, dear, but Uncle Hugh's letter. He wrote it just before he died. +He was very kind to me," she said, patting the face thrust up for a kiss. + +"Was--was my papa here then?" the child asked, curious about the life he +could not remember, and trying to relate things as he heard of them in +their true relation to the father who was a mysterious personage and +therefore interesting. + +When his mother did not answer, he crept closer and, laying his head +against her arm, said wistfully: + +"Mamma, will my papa ever come back to us?" + +"I don't know, Jack," she answered quietly. "Perhaps. If he don't, you +shall go and see him when you are a big boy. Now run away, and leave mamma +a chance to think for a whole ten minutes." + +The child ran off to the horses, and Elizabeth faced the life she led. A +curious thing was made plain to her in that hour--namely, that Hugh, whom +she remembered tenderly, was but a memory, while John Hunter, the father +of her child, whom she had no other cause to love, was a living force in +her life, and that at the child's simple question a longing flamed up, and +a feeling that she wished he were there. She remembered him as he would +ride with his hat in his hand, his fair, soft hair wind-blown about his +temples, and she would have been glad to go forth to meet him and try anew +to build a life together which would be livable to both. + +A long time she pondered, and the impulse to write to him came over her, +but that impulse was followed by retrospection, and as one thing after +another arose out of the past in solemn procession, closing with the +unloved and unwished-for child which she had lost five years ago, she knew +that she would not open a correspondence. At that point, and with the +memory of the sweltering day and the unnecessary churning, her tender +memory of Hugh, who had made her free and economically independent, welled +up in her in one glad tide of thanksgiving, and she thought of her mother +and the thousands of other women on these Kansas prairies who had not been +saved from such a fate by being made independent landowners, and she +pondered on their fate till she longed for a way out for all women who +were mothers. + +"This income could have set John free too, if he would only have thought +it over," she said to herself. "He need not have been burdened with us +while he was getting his depths in the business world," she concluded. + +Wherever Elizabeth's thoughts turned to-day, John was the centre of them. +Elizabeth had never been resentful toward her husband, and the +never-ceasing cause of speculation and comment in the neighbourhood had +been upon the fact that though she lived apart from him, she never seemed +to think of divorce. Elizabeth's attitude toward John was that of a mother +who waits for a child to find the real light on a situation. She rarely +heard from him, and never directly. She knew of some of his affairs +through Doctor Morgan, with whom John corresponded when business required, +but she wrote regularly to Mrs. Hunter, who had gone to her son the second +year he had been away, and who had written to her at that time. Elizabeth +had been glad of so simple a means of keeping the link unbroken between +him and his child. It had been no part of her plan to separate Jack from +his father. She would not ask John to return, but she wished him to have +such knowledge of his son as his temper would permit. She wrote such +details of the home and the child as would interest them, knowing that +John would read the letters. Somehow, to-day she wished that she could +write to him direct, but as she thought she shook her head. + +"It cannot be," she said aloud. + +"Mamma, if you don't come we won't have time to go for the mail," Jack +called. + +The pleasant afternoon had waned; Elizabeth Hunter gazed about her in +astonishment; it was indeed late. + +She stooped and passed her hand over the name cut in the marble slab. +"Hugh Noland, aged twenty-nine." + +"Hugh Noland, dear," she said aloud, "you have set me financially free, +but there is another kind of freedom I have got to win for myself. I've +got to tell John the things that we wanted to tell and were too cowardly +to do. If we ever come together again I shall tell it out, if all this +country gets to hear it. Jack can better afford to take the disgrace of it +than to have a mother who carries it about with her as a secret. Without +honesty no other virtue is a virtue at all." + +Elizabeth's eyes were full of tears as she voiced her vow, but there was a +sense of relief welling up within her that she had not known in all the +five years Hugh had lain here. She stood very quiet till her emotions were +under control and her sunny self in command again, then she blew a kiss at +Aunt Susan's grave and went to the waiting child and with him rode a merry +race toward Colebyville. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + +TO DO OVER, AND TO DO BETTER, +WAS THE OPPORTUNITY OFFERED + + +Elizabeth Hunter and her son were still breathing hard from rapid riding +when they drew up in front of the post-office. Elizabeth dropped from the +saddle, tossing her rein to Jack to hold till her return, and went inside. +She was to remember this day and the dingy little window through which +mail was passed. The postmaster was a new man and tossed the letters out +carelessly; therefore he did not see the sudden start the girl gave as she +began to gather them up. + +John Hunter's familiar handwriting stared at her from the top envelope. + +Elizabeth thought of many things while she waited for the man to run +through the newspapers and magazines. Half an hour ago she had registered +a vow beside Hugh Noland's grave. She was to be tested promptly. When all +was handed out to her, she took the pile--Elizabeth's magazines supplied +the entire community with reading material, and were handed from house to +house till as ragged as the tumble weeds of her native Kansas--and put +them all in the canvas bag at Jack's saddle horn. The letter was unopened. +Something made her wait. Something said that John was asking to return--to +do over, and to do better, was the opportunity offered to her. Her vow +rose up before her; without the fulfillment of that vow there could be no +_better_, that she recognized--and yet---- + +[Illustration: "JOHN HUNTER'S FAMILIAR HANDWRITING STARED AT +HER FROM THE TOP ENVELOPE"] + +All through the long ride home she pondered upon the past and upon the +possibilities of the future. Not till after Jack was safely tucked away in +his bed, not till Hepsie had her supper work done and had gone upstairs +and all the various members of her household had retired for the night, +and she was certain of hours for uninterrupted thinking, did Elizabeth +Hunter bring out the unopened letter and lay it on the table before her. +Even then she renewed her vow before she broke the seal. Was he the old +John, who would fly out impulsively and cover them all with disgrace if +she told him? she asked herself many times. In a cold sweat of terror, she +asked herself also if it were possible to build right in this new +endeavour without telling John of the love which she had shown to Hugh; +the temptation was terrible, but she was compelled to shake her head. The +habit of openness and fair dealing would not hold her excused; there was +no other way, she must tell it out. Carefully she went over all the things +that would be lost if this story should be bruited abroad. Jack would be +disgraced, she would be stripped of her influence in the neighbourhood, +slain in the sight of her friends who had fought her battles for her +because they believed in her, stripped of everything which had gone to +make life worth the living, and she would place herself in the power of a +man whose only attitude toward the story might be one of self-righteous +justification. Was it worth the price? Her own words rose up before her, +"Without honesty no other virtue is a virtue at all." Elizabeth pondered a +long time, and again her own words rose up to confront her, "It does not +matter _who_ is wrong, the thing that matters is _what_ is wrong," and for +Elizabeth there was no escape. This had been the philosophy of her life; +she was called upon to stand or fall on that ground. With her head bowed +in acknowledgment, she drew the missive out of its envelope and began to +read: + + Dear Elizabeth: This letter will no doubt surprise you, but I + couldn't wait any longer. I might begin by saying that I was homesick + for Jack--which is true--but I'm going to confess that I'm homesick + for you too. Is there still hope? I would have written you long ago, + but I went into things too heavy and lost the money I got for the + cattle--and then I couldn't. It would have looked like asking to come + back to the land. As you know, I mortgaged the home eighty--it hurt + some to do that, knowing you'd have to sign it--and began slower. I + got along very well, but it was terribly tedious, and at last, after + three years of steady work, and no debts, I couldn't wait any longer, + and put half of what I had on the Board of Trade proceedings. _I + won!_ Last Saturday I sold all I had, and now while I can come to you + right, I want to ask if you will take me? Take me quick, if you are + going to, before I do some reckless thing and lose it again. I hear + you have prospered; that was why I had to wait so long. I often think + of dear old Hugh, and his interest in some of the things about the + neighbourhood, and I have been given to see while living in this + rotten hole of a city how much I underestimated the people about us + in Kansas. I would be glad to come back and live among them. Will you + let me? A telegram will bring me to you on the next train. + + With love to both you and Jack, who will be seven years old this + week, + + Affectionately, + John. + +The tension was broken. Elizabeth laid the letter back with a smile. How +like John to suggest a telegram! John never could wait. How well she knew +his little weaknesses; the written characters of the missive had the +flowing curves of haste in their running letters. He had written on the +impulse of the moment, no matter how long the desire had been in his +heart. The very spontaneity of the confession was unpremeditated and +worked in John Hunter's favour. He had remembered Jack's birthday too! +That day seven years ago rose up in Elizabeth's memory to plead for Jack's +father. She earnestly desired John's presence, and yet--could it be done? + +Far into the night Elizabeth Hunter sat with the letter before her, +reading and rereading it, pondering upon the possibilities of the future, +seeing them in the light of the past she had spent with him, wondering +what sort of man her husband had become in the five years since she had +seen him. The letter sounded as if those years might have been profitable +ones. There was both the openness of real honesty and the reserve of real +strength in the confession about his financial affairs. The most hopeful +thing she found in the letter was the sentence about Hugh's estimate of +the neighbours among whom they had lived and the implied comparison +regarding the city in which he now did business. Dear old John! Had +Chicago business men tried the methods on him that he had thought it fair +to apply to his dealings with her? In the midst of that question rose the +one--would John Hunter feel the same toward Hugh Noland's estimates when +he was told the truth about his wife's affection for Hugh, and of the +weakness of both in the demonstrations of that affection? Well, it had to +be told. Scandal would be hard to face with no denial possible. Doctor +Morgan had known it all and still trusted her; likewise Luther; but +Hepsie, and Jake, and Sadie? Besides, Jack would have to know, and would +suffer for things of which he was innocent! The girl wrestled with the +subject till midnight, and long after. At last, to put it where she could +not deceive herself, she wrote a simple statement of the whole thing and +sealed it up with John's address upon the envelope, and then raising her +hand solemnly promised herself that this letter which contained the truth, +the whole truth, and nothing but the truth should be mailed as she had +written it without being opened to change a word. She would answer John's +letter in one apart from this and send it by the same mail, but this +letter she would send as it stood. + +As she got up to go to bed, she picked up the bag in which they brought +the mail and felt in it to see if anything were left. A small narrow book +that opened endwise and had the name of the Bank of Colebyville on it was +all. It was a fitting end to her considerations. She had never owned a +checkbook till recent years. Because of its presence, she might yet be +able to answer John Hunter as he wished. She thought long on her +situation. There was no sleep in her. The larger, the universal, aspects +of the question began to crowd in upon her mind. + +"There is no other way," she said. "A woman, to be free, must have money +of her own. She must not be supported by a man." + +She stepped out on the porch and stood looking toward the east. The +refreshing breeze which had sprung up cooled and invigorated her. + +"The wind before the dawn! The beginning of a new day!" she said aloud. + +Turning toward the kitchen, she began to pack a box which stood waiting on +the end of the kitchen table. Doughnuts, cookies and pies had been left +there to cool the evening before. Mrs. Farnshaw was to have threshers to +cook for to-day, and Elizabeth had grown thoughtful of the mother, who was +aging visibly. In such ways as she could, she spared her mother's strength +and gave her the comfort of frequent visits and companionship. In order to +get the long eight-mile drive over before it became hot, it was necessary +to get an early start, and Elizabeth, with Jack at her side, was on the +road before the sun was fairly above the horizon. + +About eight o'clock Mrs. Farnshaw turned at the sound of their feet on her +doorstep. She set her cob basket on the floor, put the stove lid over the +roaring fire, and turned to Jack with grandmotherly delight. + +"You're a real comfort, Lizzie," she said, straightening up with Jack in +her arms. "I never used t' think you would be, but you are. I'm that tired +that I'm ready t' drop." + +"Anything more than usual?" Elizabeth asked, noting the fagged and heavy +face, and the gathering tears. + +"Oh, nothin' more 'n 'as happened many a time; only 'e grows crosser, +seems to me, as 'e grows older. He was particular bad last night, and I +didn't sleep none. It's awful hot weather t' lay awake." + +When Elizabeth did not reply, the mother said testily: + +"Now I s'pose You'll be thinkin' that you don't have t' care for what a +man says." + +Elizabeth laughed, but not in her usual merry way. + +"Perhaps," she said slowly. "I was thinking farther than that--I was +wondering----" She paused to think and then broke out suddenly. "John's +written to ask if he can come back, and I was just wondering----" + +Mrs. Farnshaw was all animation at once, her own troubles forgotten. + +"You don't say?" she exclaimed. "Now look here, Lizzie, you're goin' t' +let him come?" + +Elizabeth had told her mother on the impulse of the moment after +withholding the news from Nathan and even from Jack. The child had been +wriggling out of his grandmother's arms and had not heard what his mother +said. Elizabeth waited till he was out of hearing. She half regretted +having mentioned it. She was going to have to argue out her decision with +her mother, and she had made no decision. + +The mother's accidental remark had produced the impulse to tell. Well, it +was all right. It might be that she could decide better after discussing +it with some one. Elizabeth looked at her mother doubtfully. + +"I don't know, ma. I may. It's all owing to whether we can agree on the +terms of starting over." + +"You ain't goin' t' lay down rules t' him?" the mother cried in +amazement. + +"Now's my time to find out what rules he's going to lay down to me at +least," Elizabeth said dryly. + +"But I never heard of such a thing! Say, don't you love 'im any more, +Lizzie?" + +"I--I think I do, ma," Elizabeth said slowly. "But there's the very +trouble with women. They think they ought to love a man enough to take him +without a definite understanding, and then they find that a woman's love +means mostly obedience to a man. Yes, I think I love him. But I'm going to +know what he expects, and I'm going to tell him what I expect, and make no +mistakes this time. We'll know before we begin." + +"But he may not take you," Mrs. Farnshaw said in a frightened whisper. + +"I rather think I'm taking him," Elizabeth said, beginning to unload the +box of provisions she had brought. "You forget that I'm making my own +living." + +"That _does_ make a difference," Mrs. Farnshaw admitted. + +"That makes _all_ the difference," Elizabeth replied positively. "The +longer I look at it the more convinced I am that the whole thing hinges +right on that point. If we live together again I'll know that it isn't +because he feels that having married me he must keep me in food and +clothes, and he'll know that it's because I want to and not because I've +got a child to be supported. I believe I love him; but if I didn't know I +could leave him in a minute if he made me do things that I wasn't able to +do I wouldn't dare to say yes. Knowing that I don't have to live with him +if he begins to order me around, I think I'll try it." + +"You're a queer girl, Lizzie," the mother said, puzzled and uncertain what +to think of the philosophy she propounded. "You don't seem to be afraid of +men at all." + +"I don't have to be, ma, because no man will ever again pay for my food +and clothes. You are not to tell anybody, even the boys. I may not do it +yet. I didn't intend to tell you for a while, but you insisted on telling +me what I was thinking about, and it popped right out at you." + +Elizabeth gave her mother a tender look and added: "I told you first when +he asked me before," which was a thing her mother could understand and +appreciate. Elizabeth was considerate of the little mother whose life was +hard, and who was afraid of a man. + +At that point Elizabeth fell into a brown study. She argued for her own +rights, knowing that only on that path could peace come to either herself +or John, but she did not feel herself wholly worthy, and John wholly +unworthy; she knew her weaknesses, and she knew she had wronged John +Hunter as well as he had wronged her; she was willing to take him if he +would be as willing to correct his faults and confess them as she was +willing to do. She did not ask of John Hunter that he be always right in +his actions toward her, but that he discuss their grievances and let them +look together for better ways of settling what was right for each. She was +so deep in her own thoughts that she did not hear Jack, who called to her +from the door: + +"Mamma, let's go! Come on! They're going right now, mamma!" + +Elizabeth did not hear the child till he tugged at her skirts and +exclaimed: + +"Come on, mamma! Grandma won't care. Come on!" + +His mother looked down at the boy with a smile. How well she remembered +the delights of threshing-day herself. She looked about the kitchen to see +what had yet to be done. + +"Wait a little, Jack. I've got to help get the table set and the dinner on +to cook. You wouldn't have me leave grandma to do all the work alone, +would you?" she asked suggestively. + +As Jack hesitated between his great desire to see the marvel of the +stackyard and his desire to show as much manliness as his mother evidently +expected of him, there was a noise on the doorstep and Hepsie came +smilingly in. + +"I followed you all on th' pony," she said. "I fixed it up with th' boys +yesterday t' take a cold dinner to-day an' let me come an' help here. +We're lookin' out that you don't hurt yourself to-day, Mis Farnshaw," she +added, addressing the older woman. + +"Now you can go to the threshing machine too, grandma!" Jack cried with +delight. "Come on, let's go right now!" + +"Not now, Jack," Elizabeth said. "Hepsie didn't come to get the dinner +alone." + +"Oh, yes, she did! She likes to," Jack replied so confidently that they +all laughed, and Hepsie fell on the child and hugged him. + +"Of course I did, Jack. Grandma will show me what to do, and then she and +mamma can take you out to see the machine go round and round like a big +coffee mill, and maybe Jack can ride one of the horses." + +"Oh, Hepsie! Don't put that into the child's head," Elizabeth interposed +hastily. "I wouldn't have him on one of those horses for anything." + +"Mamma says I spoil you, Jack. Run along now, and let me look after this +dinner." + +As soon as the tables were set and the dinner on to cook, Elizabeth and +her mother took the excited child and started to the barnyard. Mrs. +Farnshaw was pulled along by the impatient grandson, and Elizabeth came at +some distance behind, having stopped to glance in the chicken house as she +went. The marvellous ant-hill called a stackyard would not permit Jack to +wait for his mother. + +Mr. Farnshaw saw them coming. He would gladly have avoided his wife and +daughter, but Jack took things for granted and always insisted upon +dragging his mother into his grandfather's presence and mixing them up in +the conversation. Elizabeth had dropped behind purposely, knowing her +father's feelings toward her, and did not hear Jack say persuasively: + +"Grandpa, let Jack drive and make the horses go round." + +"No, no, Jack," Mrs. Farnshaw said quickly. "Mamma said you could not go +on the horsepower." + +Mr. Farnshaw gave his wife a look of disdain and, stooping, picked the +child up. Mrs. Farnshaw gave a little cry. When his own team came around, +Mr. Farnshaw walked in front of it and started toward the platform on +which Albert stood swinging a long whip. + +The "near horse" of the Farnshaw team was a stolid and reliable mare, +mother of many colts. She was so placed because it had been decided to put +a young stallion of uncertain temper beside her. + +The restive, irritable beast sustained his reputation by nipping angrily +at Mr. Farnshaw as he dodged under the straps with which the horses were +tied to the reach ahead. To have passed in front of this team unencumbered +and alone when the power was in motion would have been foolhardy; but with +Jack in his arms it was an act of mock-heroics typical of the whole +bull-headed character of Josiah Farnshaw. He stumbled slightly in +springing out of the horse's way, and with Jack, who was a load, in his +arms, was barely able to keep his feet. + +A shout went up from every man who saw the occurrence, and Albert shut off +the power in the endeavour to stop the machine. + +Mr. Farnshaw sprang toward the inner corner of the triangular space +occupied by the team, and as the machine slowly came to a full stop set +Jack on the boards at Albert's feet and turned toward the horses. The +stallion threw a challenge at the man who had escaped its teeth, reared +angrily, shook its black mane, and, with teeth exposed and ears laid back, +prepared for another lunge. Not only Mrs. Farnshaw but every man on the +ground called to Josiah Farnshaw to get out of the way of the infuriated +beast. Instead of heeding the frantic warnings, Mr. Farnshaw, determined +to let his onlooking neighbours see that he was not afraid, sprang forward +and struck the squealing animal a stinging blow on the nose with his fist. +Taken by surprise, the horse set back so suddenly that he broke the straps +with which he and his mate were fastened to the reach, falling against the +mare, who was thoroughly frightened by her master's menacing blow. The +team behind them reared and snorted as the stallion sprang to its feet +again. + +Then a strange and terrible thing happened. The horse stopped and made +ready for the plunge he had in mind. There were warning cries from every +man in the stackyard, but there was no chance to escape. With a scream +which struck terror to the hearts of the onlookers the brute sprang upon +the man and sunk its teeth through flesh and bone alike as it grabbed the +arm which was aiming a puny blow, and shook him as if he were a rag, +flinging him against the ground under its feet, and shaking him as a dog +shakes a rat it has captured. The men could not rush in, because the other +horse was on the outside of the team and was kicking and struggling to +free itself from the shrieking stallion. Every team attached to the +machine was tearing at its moorings, and horrified as the men were they +were obliged to attempt to control the other horses. The team immediately +in front of the stallion broke away altogether, carrying away with it the +reach to which it was fastened. Seeing his opportunity, Joe Farnshaw +rushed into the space left open by the disappearance of the other team, +and with a well-directed blow from an iron bar he had snatched up, he +staggered the horse so that it dropped the nerveless thing it had been +shaking, and stood stunned and trembling, sight, sound, and all other +matters of sense gone. The body was snatched away from in front of the +tottering horse in time to save it from the heavy weight of the falling +animal, which began to tremble, and then, losing control of its legs +altogether, fell heavily toward the platform, dragging its mate to her +knees as it went. + +Elizabeth quieted her shrieking mother as best she could while she hugged +her rescued child to her bosom, and the sons of Josiah Farnshaw helped the +men to lay the broken body of their father upon an improvised stretcher to +be removed to the house. Kind hands performed the little duties necessary +on such occasions, and then the horrified men stayed on, gathered in +little groups about the dead stallion in the stackyard. + +When all was done and the family were reduced to that terrorizing state of +idleness which comes to those who stand about their dead, Elizabeth took +Jack and wandered out of the house to where she could see Joe standing +near the well. Together they glanced across to the men standing around the +torn and dismantled horsepower. + +"Pa was like that horse, Joe," Elizabeth said with a sudden gleam of +insight. "They were both ruled by unbridled passions. Everything they did +they mixed up with hate. You couldn't touch either of them without having +them lay back their ears." + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII + +"TILL DEATH DO YOU PART" CONSIDERED + + +The day after Josiah Farnshaw was buried, Elizabeth sat down to answer +John's letter. It was not easy to do, and she sat for a long time with her +chin in her hand before she began to write. The death of her father +related to the things of which she must speak. She began by telling him +the circumstances of her father's death and showed him that the tragedy +had been the result of pride and the habit of domination, of an +unwillingness to listen to advice, or to discuss necessary matters. Her +brothers had urged that the stallion be left in the barn and that another +horse be substituted, since by its outcries and prancings it would keep +the strange horses nervous and irritable, but Mr. Farnshaw, having said in +the beginning that the animal should be used, would not listen to anything +that the family wished him to do in the matter. Mrs. Farnshaw had objected +to Jack being placed upon the horsepower, but once having started to place +him there, her husband would listen to no caution. Last but not least of +those refusals to advise with those who knew as well as he what should be +done had been the one of not heeding the cries of the men who had warned +him not to approach the vicious brute. To dominate had been the keynote of +her father's character; his death had been a fitting symbol of his +overweening desire to pursue that phantom. + +After enlarging upon the causes of the tragedy, she took up the matter of +the refusal to listen to necessary explanations which had had so much to +do with her separation from her husband. + + Hugh Noland's life was sacrificed because he could not go to you and + talk to you of necessary things, and I am determined that if you and + I ever come together again that neither of us shall be afraid to talk + out anything in this whole world that is of interest to us both. Hugh + and I would have been so glad to go to you and ask you to let him be + taken away, or to have asked you to help us to higher living till he + was well enough to go. I need hardly tell you that we both recognized + that it was wronging you for him to stay on in the house after we + discovered that we loved each other. Hugh planned to go, and then + came the accident, and we were helpless. At last, in order not to + defeat me when he saw that I was trying to overcome the fault in + myself, he thought it necessary to die so that I should be free. You + know, John dear, I should never try to live with you again unless I + could tell you _anything_ and know that you'd listen and be fair, + even to my love for another man. There you have me as I am. If you + don't want me, don't take me; but at least you are not deceived about + the kind of woman you are going to live with this time. + +Then Elizabeth pointed out to him how he had refused to read Hugh's +innocent letter, and then went on to consider affairs between herself and +John. + + You will probably remember also that when we were talking over the + coming of our second child five years ago you said that I was foolish + to be disturbed about it--that if I had not had the wherewithal to + feed and clothe it I might have had good cause for complaint, but + otherwise not. That is another matter we must settle before we reopen + life together. Mere food and clothes are but a part of a child's + natural and proper rights of inheritance. My future children--and I + hope I shall have more than the one I have now--must be prepared for + earnestly and rightly. We are better prepared to have children now + than when we were younger, but if we wish the best from our children, + we must give the best to their beginnings as well as to their + upbringings, and you and I would, I am sure, come much closer to each + other and begin to understand each other much better after adopting + such a policy. When we were married our love would not permit us to + exact conditions, but I have learned to love you and myself enough to + wish to consider all the conditions of which I have been speaking + before we begin to live together again. + + Years ago I was glibly willing to advise my mother to get a + divorce--for her I am not sure yet but that it was the only way to + freedom--but I have lived and learned, and you see that for myself I + have not wanted it. I have come to understand that you and I are + bound together--not by the fact of Jack's presence, I mean not by the + mere knowledge that we have him, but by some other law of which he is + but the outward evidence. No magistrate could separate us. I belong + to you and you belong to me by some primal law of life, not because + some minister said over us, "Till death do you part," but because _we + have permitted ourselves to become one flesh_. Having set up these + relations, let us struggle with the conditions they entail. + + There must be freedom in our home if it is to be reorganized. I want + you to be just as free as I am. I told you before you left that you + should run the farm; I still prefer it. I don't care what you do on + it, so long as you do not mortgage it. I think I have a right to keep + a certain part of it free from debt if I choose to do so, so as to be + sure of a home in my old age, since I have to suffer if we lose it; + otherwise you are free to do as you wish with any part of it. + + I think I have a better sort of love to offer you than I had before, + just because it includes a knowledge of our weaknesses. I have had to + tell you all this in order that we begin square, but I liked your + letter, and I believe we can come to an understanding. My love for + Hugh Noland is but a memory, but when your letter came I found that + my love for you was a living thing, that I wanted you very much, and + even as I write you these words I want you. + +When her writing was finished Elizabeth went to the barn to saddle the +horses, thinking that she would take Jack with her and ride into town to +mail both letters in the cool of the evening. 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