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diff --git a/old/2684.txt b/old/2684.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..39be60f --- /dev/null +++ b/old/2684.txt @@ -0,0 +1,11472 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of Five Tales, by John Galsworthy + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.net + + +Title: Five Tales + +Author: John Galsworthy + +Release Date: September 25, 2004 [EBook #2684] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK FIVE TALES *** + + + + +Produced by David Widger + + + + + +FIVE TALES + + +by John Galsworthy + + +"Life calls the tune, we dance." + + + + +CONTENTS: + +THE FIRST AND LAST THE FIRST AND LAST + +A STOIC A STOIC + +THE APPLE TREE THE APPLE TREE + +THE JURYMAN THE JURYMAN + +INDIAN SUMMER OF A FORSYTE [Also posted as Etext #2594] + +[In this 1919 edition of "Five Tales" the fifth tale was "Indian +Summer of a Forsyte;" in later collections, "Indian Summer..." became +the first section of the second volume of The Forsyte Saga] + + + + + +THE FIRST AND LAST + +"So the last shall be first, and the first last."--HOLY WRIT. + + + +It was a dark room at that hour of six in the evening, when just the + +single oil reading-lamp under its green shade let fall a dapple of light +over the Turkey carpet; over the covers of books taken out of the +bookshelves, and the open pages of the one selected; over the deep blue +and gold of the coffee service on the little old stool with its Oriental +embroidery. Very dark in the winter, with drawn curtains, many rows of +leather-bound volumes, oak-panelled walls and ceiling. So large, too, +that the lighted spot before the fire where he sat was just an oasis. +But that was what Keith Darrant liked, after his day's work--the hard +early morning study of his "cases," the fret and strain of the day in +court; it was his rest, these two hours before dinner, with books, +coffee, a pipe, and sometimes a nap. In red Turkish slippers and his old +brown velvet coat, he was well suited to that framing of glow and +darkness. A painter would have seized avidly on his clear-cut, yellowish +face, with its black eyebrows twisting up over eyes--grey or brown, one +could hardly tell, and its dark grizzling hair still plentiful, in spite +of those daily hours of wig. He seldom thought of his work while he sat +there, throwing off with practised ease the strain of that long attention +to the multiple threads of argument and evidence to be disentangled--work +profoundly interesting, as a rule, to his clear intellect, trained to +almost instinctive rejection of all but the essential, to selection of +what was legally vital out of the mass of confused tactical and human +detail presented to his scrutiny; yet sometimes tedious and wearing. As +for instance to-day, when he had suspected his client of perjury, and was +almost convinced that he must throw up his brief. He had disliked the +weak-looking, white-faced fellow from the first, and his nervous, shifty +answers, his prominent startled eyes--a type too common in these days of +canting tolerations and weak humanitarianism; no good, no good! + +Of the three books he had taken down, a Volume of Voltaire--curious +fascination that Frenchman had, for all his destructive irony!--a volume +of Burton's travels, and Stevenson's "New Arabian Nights," he had pitched +upon the last. He felt, that evening, the want of something sedative, a +desire to rest from thought of any kind. The court had been crowded, +stuffy; the air, as he walked home, soft, sou'-westerly, charged with +coming moisture, no quality of vigour in it; he felt relaxed, tired, even +nervy, and for once the loneliness of his house seemed strange and +comfortless. + +Lowering the lamp, he turned his face towards the fire. Perhaps he would +get a sleep before that boring dinner at the Tellasson's. He wished it +were vacation, and Maisie back from school. A widower for many years, he +had lost the habit of a woman about him; yet to-night he had a positive +yearning for the society of his young daughter, with her quick ways, and +bright, dark eyes. Curious what perpetual need of a woman some men had! +His brother Laurence--wasted--all through women--atrophy of willpower! A +man on the edge of things; living from hand to mouth; his gifts all down +at heel! One would have thought the Scottish strain might have saved +him; and yet, when a Scotsman did begin to go downhill, who could go +faster? Curious that their mother's blood should have worked so +differently in her two sons. He himself had always felt he owed all his +success to it. + +His thoughts went off at a tangent to a certain issue troubling his legal +conscience. He had not wavered in the usual assumption of omniscience, +but he was by no means sure that he had given right advice. Well! +Without that power to decide and hold to decision in spite of misgiving, +one would never have been fit for one's position at the Bar, never have +been fit for anything. The longer he lived, the more certain he became +of the prime necessity of virile and decisive action in all the affairs +of life. A word and a blow--and the blow first! Doubts, hesitations, +sentiment the muling and puking of this twilight age--! And there welled +up on his handsome face a smile that was almost devilish--the tricks of +firelight are so many! It faded again in sheer drowsiness; he slept.... + +He woke with a start, having a feeling of something out beyond the light, +and without turning his head said: "What's that?" There came a sound as +if somebody had caught his breath. He turned up the lamp. + +"Who's there?" + +A voice over by the door answered: + +"Only I--Larry." + +Something in the tone, or perhaps just being startled out of sleep like +this, made him shiver. He said: + +"I was asleep. Come in!" + +It was noticeable that he did not get up, or even turn his head, now that +he knew who it was, but waited, his half-closed eyes fixed on the fire, +for his brother to come forward. A visit from Laurence was not an +unmixed blessing. He could hear him breathing, and became conscious of a +scent of whisky. Why could not the fellow at least abstain when he was +coming here! It was so childish, so lacking in any sense of proportion +or of decency! And he said sharply: + +"Well, Larry, what is it?" + +It was always something. He often wondered at the strength of that sense +of trusteeship, which kept him still tolerant of the troubles, amenable +to the petitions of this brother of his; or was it just "blood" feeling, +a Highland sense of loyalty to kith and kin; an old-time quality which +judgment and half his instincts told him was weakness but which, in spite +of all, bound him to the distressful fellow? Was he drunk now, that he +kept lurking out there by the door? And he said less sharply: + +"Why don't you come and sit down?" + +He was coming now, avoiding the light, skirting along the walls just +beyond the radiance of the lamp, his feet and legs to the waist brightly +lighted, but his face disintegrated in shadow, like the face of a dark +ghost. + +"Are you ill, man?" + +Still no answer, save a shake of that head, and the passing up of a hand, +out of the light, to the ghostly forehead under the dishevelled hair. +The scent of whisky was stronger now; and Keith thought: + +'He really is drunk. Nice thing for the new butler to see! If he can't +behave--' + +The figure against the wall heaved a sigh--so truly from an overburdened +heart that Keith was conscious with a certain dismay of not having yet +fathomed the cause of this uncanny silence. He got up, and, back to the +fire, said with a brutality born of nerves rather than design: + +"What is it, man? Have you committed a murder, that you stand there dumb +as a fish?" + +For a second no answer at all, not even of breathing; then, just the +whisper: + +"Yes." + +The sense of unreality which so helps one at moments of disaster enabled +Keith to say vigorously: + +"By Jove! You have been drinking!" + +But it passed at once into deadly apprehension. + +"What do you mean? Come here, where I can see you. What's the matter +with you, Larry?" + +With a sudden lurch and dive, his brother left the shelter of the shadow, +and sank into a chair in the circle of light. And another long, broken +sigh escaped him. + +"There's nothing the matter with me, Keith! It's true!" + +Keith stepped quickly forward, and stared down into his brother's face; +and instantly he saw that it was true. No one could have simulated the +look in those eyes--of horrified wonder, as if they would never again get +on terms with the face to which they belonged. To see them squeezed the +heart-only real misery could look like that. Then that sudden pity became +angry bewilderment. + +"What in God's name is this nonsense?" + +But it was significant that he lowered his voice; went over to the door, +too, to see if it were shut. Laurence had drawn his chair forward, +huddling over the fire--a thin figure, a worn, high-cheekboned face with +deep-sunk blue eyes, and wavy hair all ruffled, a face that still had a +certain beauty. Putting a hand on that lean shoulder, Keith said: + +"Come, Larry! Pull yourself together, and drop exaggeration." + +"It's true; I tell you; I've killed a man." + +The noisy violence of that outburst acted like a douche. What was the +fellow about--shouting out such words! But suddenly Laurence lifted his +hands and wrung them. The gesture was so utterly painful that it drew a +quiver from Keith's face. + +"Why did you come here," he said, "and tell me this?" + +Larry's face was really unearthly sometimes, such strange gleams passed +up on to it! + +"Whom else should I tell? I came to know what I'm to do, Keith? Give +myself up, or what?" + +At that sudden introduction of the practical Keith felt his heart twitch. +Was it then as real as all that? But he said, very quietly: + +"Just tell me--How did it come about, this--affair?" + +That question linked the dark, gruesome, fantastic nightmare on to +actuality. + +"When did it happen?" + +"Last night." + +In Larry's face there was--there had always been--something childishly +truthful. He would never stand a chance in court! And Keith said: + +"How? Where? You'd better tell me quietly from the beginning. Drink +this coffee; it'll clear your head." + +Laurence took the little blue cup and drained it. + +"Yes," he said. "It's like this, Keith. There's a girl I've known for +some months now--" + +Women! And Keith said between his teeth: "Well?" + +"Her father was a Pole who died over here when she was sixteen, and left +her all alone. A man called Walenn, a mongrel American, living in the +same house, married her, or pretended to--she's very pretty, Keith--he +left her with a baby six months old, and another coming. That one died, +and she did nearly. Then she starved till another fellow took her on. +She lived with him two years; then Walenn turned up again, and made her +go back to him. The brute used to beat her black and blue, all for +nothing. Then he left her again. When I met her she'd lost her elder +child, too, and was taking anybody who came along." + +He suddenly looked up into Keith's face. + +"But I've never met a sweeter woman, nor a truer, that I swear. Woman! +She's only twenty now! When I went to her last night, that brute--that +Walenn--had found her out again; and when he came for me, swaggering and +bullying--Look!"--he touched a dark mark on his forehead--"I took his +throat in my hands, and when I let go--" + +"Yes?" + +"Dead. I never knew till afterwards that she was hanging on to him +behind." + +Again he made that gesture-wringing his hands. + +In a hard voice Keith said: + +"What did you do then?" + +"We sat by it a long time. Then I carried it on my back down the street, +round a corner to an archway." + +"How far?" + +"About fifty yards." + +"Was anyone--did anyone see?" + +"No." + +"What time?" + +"Three." + +"And then?" + +"Went back to her." + +"Why--in Heaven's name?" + +"She was lonely and afraid; so was I, Keith." + +"Where is this place?" + +"Forty-two, Borrow Street, Soho." + +"And the archway?" + +"Corner of Glove Lane." + +"Good God! Why--I saw it in the paper!" + +And seizing the journal that lay on his bureau, Keith read again that +paragraph: "The body of a man was found this morning under an archway in +Glove Lane, Soho. From marks about the throat grave suspicions of foul +play are entertained. The body had apparently been robbed, and nothing +was discovered leading to identification." + +It was real earnest, then. Murder! His own brother! He faced round and +said: + +"You saw this in the paper, and dreamed it. Understand--you dreamed it!" + +The wistful answer came: + +"If only I had, Keith--if only I had!" + +In his turn, Keith very nearly wrung his hands. + +"Did you take anything from the--body?" + +"This dropped while we were struggling.", + +It was an empty envelope with a South American post-mark addressed: +"Patrick Walenn, Simon's Hotel, Farrier Street, London." Again with that +twitching in his heart, Keith said: + +"Put it in the fire." + +Then suddenly he stooped to pluck it out. By that command--he +had--identified himself with this--this--But he did not pluck it out. It +blackened, writhed, and vanished. And once more he said: + +"What in God's name made you come here and tell me?" + +"You know about these things. I didn't mean to kill him. I love the +girl. What shall I do, Keith? + +"Simple! How simple! To ask what he was to do! It was like Larry! And +he said: + +"You were not seen, you think?" "It's a dark street. There was no one +about." + +"When did you leave this girl the second time?" + +"About seven o'clock." + +"Where did you go?" + +"To my rooms." + +"In Fitzroy Street?" + +"Yes." + +"Did anyone see you come in?" + +"No." + +"What have you done since?" + +"Sat there." + +"Not been out?" + +"No." + +"Not seen the girl?" + +"No." + +"You don't know, then, what she's done since?" + +"No." + +"Would she give you away?" + +"Never." + +"Would she give herself away--hysteria?" + +"No." + +"Who knows of your relations with her?" + +"No one." + +"No one?" + +"I don't know who should, Keith." + +"Did anyone see you going in last night, when you first went to her?" + +"No. She lives on the ground floor. I've got keys." + +"Give them to me. What else have you that connects you with her?" + +"Nothing." + +"In your rooms?" + +"No." + +"No photographs. No letters?" + +"No." + +"Be careful." + +"Nothing." + +"No one saw you going back to her the second time?" + +"No." + +"No one saw you leave her in the morning?" + +"No." + +"You were fortunate. Sit down again, man. I must think." + +Think! Think out this accursed thing--so beyond all thought, and all +belief. But he could not think. Not a coherent thought would come. And +he began again: + +"Was it his first reappearance with her?" + +"Yes." + +"She told you so?" + +"Yes." + +"How did he find out where she was?" + +"I don't know." + +"How drunk were you?" + +"I was not drunk." + +"How much had you drunk?" + +"About two bottles of claret--nothing." + +"You say you didn't mean to kill him?" + +"No-God knows!" + +"That's something." + +What made you choose the arch?" + +"It was the first dark place." + +"Did his face look as if he had been strangled?" + +"Don't!" + +"Did it?" + +"Yes." + +"Very disfigured?" + +"Yes." + +"Did you look to see if his clothes were marked?" + +"No." + +"Why not?" + +"Why not? My God! If you had done it!" + +"You say he was disfigured. Would he be recognisable?" + +"I don't know." + +"When she lived with him last--where was that?" + +"I don't know for certain. Pimlico, I think." + +"Not Soho?" + +"No." + +"How long has she been at the Soho place?" + +"Nearly a year." + +"Always the same rooms?" + +"Yes." + +"Is there anyone living in that house or street who would be likely to +know her as his wife?" + +"I don't think so." + +"What was he?" + +"I should think he was a professional 'bully.'" + +"I see. Spending most of his time abroad, then?" + +"Yes." + +"Do you know if he was known to the police?" + +"I haven't heard of it." + +"Now, listen, Larry. When you leave here go straight home, and don't go +out till I come to you, to-morrow morning. Promise that!" + +"I promise." + +"I've got a dinner engagement. I'll think this out. Don't drink. Don't +talk! Pull yourself together." + +"Don't keep me longer than you can help, Keith!" + +That white face, those eyes, that shaking hand! With a twinge of pity in +the midst of all the turbulence of his revolt, and fear, and disgust +Keith put his hand on his brother's shoulder, and said: + +"Courage!" + +And suddenly he thought: 'My God! Courage! I shall want it all myself!' + + + + +II + +Laurence Darrant, leaving his brother's house in the Adelphi, walked +northwards, rapidly, slowly, rapidly again. For, if there are men who by +force of will do one thing only at a time, there are men who from lack of +will do now one thing, now another; with equal intensity. To such +natures, to be gripped by the Nemesis which attends the lack of +self-control is no reason for being more self-controlled. Rather does it +foster their pet feeling: "What matter? To-morrow we die!" The effort of +will required to go to Keith had relieved, exhausted and exasperated him. +In accordance with those three feelings was the progress of his walk. He +started from the door with the fixed resolve to go home and stay there +quietly till Keith came. He was in Keith's hands, Keith would know what +was to be done. But he had not gone three hundred yards before he felt +so utterly weary, body and soul, that if he had but had a pistol in his +pocket he would have shot himself in the street. Not even the thought of +the girl--this young unfortunate with her strange devotion, who had kept +him straight these last five months, who had roused in him a depth of +feeling he had never known before--would have availed against that sudden +black defection. Why go on--a waif at the mercy of his own nature, a +straw blown here and there by every gust which rose in him? Why not have +done with it for ever, and take it out in sleep? + +He was approaching the fatal street, where he and the girl, that early +morning, had spent the hours clutched together, trying in the refuge of +love to forget for a moment their horror and fear. Should he go in? He +had promised Keith not to. Why had he promised? He caught sight of +himself in a chemist's lighted window. Miserable, shadowy brute! And he +remembered suddenly a dog he had picked up once in the streets of Pera, a +black-and-white creature--different from the other dogs, not one of their +breed, a pariah of pariahs, who had strayed there somehow. He had taken +it home to the house where he was staying, contrary to all custom of the +country; had got fond of it; had shot it himself, sooner than leave it +behind again to the mercies of its own kind in the streets. Twelve years +ago! And those sleevelinks made of little Turkish coins he had brought +back for the girl at the hairdresser's in Chancery Lane where he used to +get shaved--pretty creature, like a wild rose. He had asked of her a +kiss for payment. What queer emotion when she put her face forward to +his lips--a sort of passionate tenderness and shame, at the softness and +warmth of that flushed cheek, at her beauty and trustful gratitude. She +would soon have given herself to him--that one! He had never gone there +again! And to this day he did not know why he had abstained; to this day +he did not know whether he were glad or sorry not to have plucked that +rose. He must surely have been very different then! Queer business, +life--queer, queer business!--to go through it never knowing what you +would do next. Ah! to be like Keith, steady, buttoned-up in success; a +brass pot, a pillar of society! Once, as a boy, he had been within an +ace of killing Keith, for sneering at him. Once in Southern Italy he had +been near killing a driver who was flogging his horse. And now, that +dark-faced, swinish bully who had ruined the girl he had grown to +love--he had done it! Killed him! Killed a man! + +He who did not want to hurt a fly. The chemist's window comforted him +with the sudden thought that he had at home that which made him safe, in +case they should arrest him. He would never again go out without some of +those little white tablets sewn into the lining of his coat. Restful, +even exhilarating thought! They said a man should not take his own life. +Let them taste horror--those glib citizens! Let them live as that girl +had lived, as millions lived all the world over, under their canting +dogmas! A man might rather even take his life than watch their cursed +inhumanities. + +He went into the chemist's for a bromide; and, while the man was mixing +it, stood resting one foot like a tired horse. The "life" he had +squeezed out of that fellow! After all, a billion living creatures gave +up life each day, had it squeezed out of them, mostly. And perhaps not +one a day deserved death so much as that loathly fellow. Life! a +breath--aflame! Nothing! Why, then, this icy clutching at his heart? + +The chemist brought the draught. + +"Not sleeping, sir?" + +"No." + +The man's eyes seemed to say: 'Yes! Burning the candle at both ends--I +know!' Odd life, a chemist's; pills and powders all day long, to hold the +machinery of men together! Devilish odd trade! + +In going out he caught the reflection of his face in a mirror; it seemed +too good altogether for a man who had committed murder. There was a sort +of brightness underneath, an amiability lurking about its shadows; +how--how could it be the face of a man who had done what he had done? +His head felt lighter now, his feet lighter; he walked rapidly again. + +Curious feeling of relief and oppression all at once! Frightful--to long +for company, for talk, for distraction; and--to be afraid of it! The +girl--the girl and Keith were now the only persons who would not give him +that feeling of dread. And, of those two--Keith was not...! Who could +consort with one who was never wrong, a successful, righteous fellow; a +chap built so that he knew nothing about himself, wanted to know nothing, +a chap all solid actions? To be a quicksand swallowing up one's own +resolutions was bad enough! But to be like Keith--all willpower, +marching along, treading down his own feelings and weaknesses! No! One +could not make a comrade of a man like Keith, even if he were one's +brother? The only creature in all the world was the girl. She alone +knew and felt what he was feeling; would put up with him and love him +whatever he did, or was done to him. He stopped and took shelter in a +doorway, to light a cigarette. He had suddenly a fearful wish to pass the +archway where he had placed the body; a fearful wish that had no sense, +no end in view, no anything; just an insensate craving to see the dark +place again. He crossed Borrow Street to the little lane. There was +only one person visible, a man on the far side with his shoulders hunched +against the wind; a short, dark figure which crossed and came towards him +in the flickering lamplight. What a face! Yellow, ravaged, clothed +almost to the eyes in a stubbly greyish growth of beard, with blackish +teeth, and haunting bloodshot eyes. And what a figure of rags--one +shoulder higher than the other, one leg a little lame, and thin! A surge +of feeling came up in Laurence for this creature, more unfortunate than +himself. There were lower depths than his! + +"Well, brother," he said, "you don't look too prosperous!" + +The smile which gleamed out on the man's face seemed as unlikely as a +smile on a scarecrow. + +"Prosperity doesn't come my way," he said in a rusty voice. "I'm a +failure--always been a failure. And yet you wouldn't think it, would +you?--I was a minister of religion once." + +Laurence held out a shilling. But the man shook his head. + +"Keep your money," he said. "I've got more than you to-day, I daresay. +But thank you for taking a little interest. That's worth more than money +to a man that's down." + +"You're right." + +"Yes," the rusty voice went on; "I'd as soon die as go on living as I do. +And now I've lost my self-respect. Often wondered how long a starving +man could go without losing his self-respect. Not so very long. You +take my word for that." And without the slightest change in the monotony +of that creaking voice he added: + +"Did you read of the murder? Just here. I've been looking at the +place." + +The words: 'So have I!' leaped up to Laurence's lips; he choked them down +with a sort of terror. + +"I wish you better luck," he said. "Goodnight!" and hurried away. A +sort of ghastly laughter was forcing its way up in his throat. Was +everyone talking of the murder he had committed? Even the very +scarecrows? + + + + +III + +There are some natures so constituted that, due to be hung at ten +o'clock, they will play chess at eight. Such men invariably rise. They +make especially good bishops, editors, judges, impresarios, Prime +ministers, money-lenders, and generals; in fact, fill with exceptional +credit any position of power over their fellow-men. They have spiritual +cold storage, in which are preserved their nervous systems. In such men +there is little or none of that fluid sense and continuity of feeling +known under those vague terms, speculation, poetry, philosophy. Men of +facts and of decision switching imagination on and off at will, +subordinating sentiment to reason... one does not think of them when +watching wind ripple over cornfields, or swallows flying. + +Keith Darrant had need for being of that breed during his dinner at the +Tellassons. It was just eleven when he issued from the big house in +Portland Place and refrained from taking a cab. He wanted to walk that +he might better think. What crude and wanton irony there was in his +situation! To have been made father-confessor to a murderer, he--well on +towards a judgeship! With his contempt for the kind of weakness which +landed men in such abysses, he felt it all so sordid, so "impossible," +that he could hardly bring his mind to bear on it at all. And yet he +must, because of two powerful instincts--self-preservation and +blood-loyalty. + +The wind had still the sapping softness of the afternoon, but rain had +held off so far. It was warm, and he unbuttoned his fur overcoat. The +nature of his thoughts deepened the dark austerity of his face, whose +thin, well-cut lips were always pressing together, as if, by meeting, to +dispose of each thought as it came up. He moved along the crowded +pavements glumly. That air of festive conspiracy which drops with the +darkness on to lighted streets, galled him. He turned off on a darker +route. + +This ghastly business! Convinced of its reality, he yet could not see +it. The thing existed in his mind, not as a picture, but as a piece of +irrefutable evidence. Larry had not meant to do it, of course. But it +was murder, all the same. Men like Larry--weak, impulsive, sentimental, +introspective creatures--did they ever mean what they did? This man, +this Walenn, was, by all accounts, better dead than alive; no need to +waste a thought on him! But, crime--the ugliness--Justice unsatisfied! +Crime concealed--and his own share in the concealment! And yet--brother +to brother! Surely no one could demand action from him! It was only a +question of what he was going to advise Larry to do. To keep silent, and +disappear? Had that a chance of success? Perhaps if the answers to his +questions had been correct. But this girl! Suppose the dead man's +relationship to her were ferreted out, could she be relied on not to +endanger Larry? These women were all the same, unstable as water, +emotional, shiftless pests of society. Then, too, a crime untracked, +dogging all his brother's after life; a secret following him wherever he +might vanish to; hanging over him, watching for some drunken moment, to +slip out of his lips. It was bad to think of. A clean breast of it? +But his heart twitched within him. "Brother of Mr. Keith Darrant, the +well-known King's Counsel"--visiting a woman of the town, strangling with +his bare hands the woman's husband! No intention to murder, but--a dead +man! A dead man carried out of the house, laid under a dark archway! +Provocation! Recommended to mercy--penal servitude for life! Was that +the advice he was going to give Larry to-morrow morning? + +And he had a sudden vision of shaven men with clay-coloured features, +run, as it were, to seed, as he had seen them once in Pentonville, when +he had gone there to visit a prisoner. Larry! Whom, as a baby creature, +he had watched straddling; whom, as a little fellow, he had fagged; whom +he had seen through scrapes at college; to whom he had lent money time +and again, and time and again admonished in his courses. Larry! Five +years younger than himself; and committed to his charge by their mother +when she died. To become for life one of those men with faces like +diseased plants; with no hair but a bushy stubble; with arrows marked on +their yellow clothes! Larry! One of those men herded like sheep; at the +beck and call of common men! A gentleman, his own brother, to live that +slave's life, to be ordered here and there, year after year, day in, day +out. Something snapped within him. He could not give that advice. +Impossible! But if not, he must make sure of his ground, must verify, +must know. This Glove Lane--this arch way? It would not be far from +where he was that very moment. He looked for someone of whom to make +enquiry. A policeman was standing at the corner, his stolid face +illumined by a lamp; capable and watchful--an excellent officer, no +doubt; but, turning his head away, Keith passed him without a word. +Strange to feel that cold, uneasy feeling in presence of the law! A grim +little driving home of what it all meant! Then, suddenly, he saw that +the turning to his left was Borrow Street itself. He walked up one side, +crossed over, and returned. He passed Number Forty-two, a small house +with business names printed on the lifeless windows of the first and +second floors; with dark curtained windows on the ground floor, or was +there just a slink of light in one corner? Which way had Larry turned? +Which way under that grisly burden? Fifty paces of this squalid +street-narrow, and dark, and empty, thank heaven! Glove Lane! Here it +was! A tiny runlet of a street. And here--! He had run right on to the +arch, a brick bridge connecting two portions of a warehouse, and dark +indeed. + +"That's right, gov'nor! That's the place!" He needed all his +self-control to turn leisurely to the speaker. "'Ere's where they found +the body--very spot leanin' up 'ere. They ain't got 'im yet. Lytest--me +lord!" + +It was a ragged boy holding out a tattered yellowish journal. His lynx +eyes peered up from under lanky wisps of hair, and his voice had the +proprietary note of one making "a corner" in his news. Keith took the +paper and gave him twopence. He even found a sort of comfort in the +young ghoul's hanging about there; it meant that others besides himself +had come morbidly to look. By the dim lamplight he read: "Glove Lane +garrotting mystery. Nothing has yet been discovered of the murdered +man's identity; from the cut of his clothes he is supposed to be a +foreigner." The boy had vanished, and Keith saw the figure of a +policeman coming slowly down this gutter of a street. A second's +hesitation, and he stood firm. Nothing obviously could have brought him +here save this "mystery," and he stayed quietly staring at the arch. The +policeman moved up abreast. Keith saw that he was the one whom he had +passed just now. He noted the cold offensive question die out of the +man's eyes when they caught the gleam of white shirt-front under the +opened fur collar. And holding up the paper, he said: + +"Is this where the man was found?" + +"Yes, sir." + +"Still a mystery, I see?" + +"Well, we can't always go by the papers. But I don't fancy they do know +much about it, yet." + +"Dark spot. Do fellows sleep under here?" + +The policeman nodded. "There's not an arch in London where we don't get +'em sometimes." + +"Nothing found on him--I think I read?" + +"Not a copper. Pockets inside out. There's some funny characters about +this quarter. Greeks, Hitalians--all sorts." + +Queer sensation this, of being glad of a policeman's confidential tone! + +"Well, good-night!" + +"Good-night, sir. Good-night!" + +He looked back from Borrow Street. The policeman was still standing +there holding up his lantern, so that its light fell into the archway, as +if trying to read its secret. + +Now that he had seen this dark, deserted spot, the chances seemed to him +much better. "Pockets inside out!" Either Larry had had presence of +mind to do a very clever thing, or someone had been at the body before +the police found it. That was the more likely. A dead backwater of a +place. At three o'clock--loneliest of all hours--Larry's five minutes' +grim excursion to and fro might well have passed unseen! Now, it all +depended on the girl; on whether Laurence had been seen coming to her or +going away; on whether, if the man's relationship to her were discovered, +she could be relied on to say nothing. There was not a soul in Borrow +Street now; hardly even a lighted window; and he took one of those rather +desperate decisions only possible to men daily accustomed to the instant +taking of responsibility. He would go to her, and see for himself. He +came to the door of Forty-two, obviously one of those which are only shut +at night, and tried the larger key. It fitted, and he was in a +gas-lighted passage, with an oil-clothed floor, and a single door to his +left. He stood there undecided. She must be made to understand that he +knew everything. She must not be told more than that he was a friend of +Larry's. She must not be frightened, yet must be forced to give her very +soul away. A hostile witness--not to be treated as hostile--a matter for +delicate handling! But his knock was not answered. + +Should he give up this nerve-racking, bizarre effort to come at a basis +of judgment; go away, and just tell Laurence that he could not advise +him? And then--what? Something must be done. He knocked again. Still +no answer. And with that impatience of being thwarted, natural to him, +and fostered to the full by the conditions of his life, he tried the +other key. It worked, and he opened the door. Inside all was dark, but a +voice from some way off, with a sort of breathless relief in its foreign +tones, said: + +"Oh! then it's you, Larry! Why did you knock? I was so frightened. Turn +up the light, dear. Come in!" + +Feeling by the door for a switch in the pitch blackness he was conscious +of arms round his neck, a warm thinly clad body pressed to his own; then +withdrawn as quickly, with a gasp, and the most awful terror-stricken +whisper: + +"Oh! Who is it?" + +With a glacial shiver down his own spine, Keith answered + +"A friend of Laurence. Don't be frightened!" + +There was such silence that he could hear a clock ticking, and the sound +of his own hand passing over the surface of the wall, trying to find the +switch. He found it, and in the light which leaped up he saw, stiffened +against a dark curtain evidently screening off a bedroom, a girl +standing, holding a long black coat together at her throat, so that her +face with its pale brown hair, short and square-cut and curling up +underneath, had an uncanny look of being detached from any body. Her +face was so alabaster pale that the staring, startled eyes, dark blue or +brown, and the faint rose of the parted lips, were like colour stainings +on a white mask; and it had a strange delicacy, truth, and pathos, such +as only suffering brings. Though not susceptible to aesthetic emotion, +Keith was curiously affected. He said gently: + +"You needn't be afraid. I haven't come to do you harm--quite the +contrary. May I sit down and talk?" And, holding up the keys, he added: +"Laurence wouldn't have given me these, would he, if he hadn't trusted +me?" + +Still she did not move, and he had the impression that he was looking at +a spirit--a spirit startled out of its flesh. Nor at the moment did it +seem in the least strange that he should conceive such an odd thought. +He stared round the room--clean and tawdry, with its tarnished gilt +mirror, marble-topped side-table, and plush-covered sofa. Twenty years +and more since he had been in such a place. And he said: + +"Won't you sit down? I'm sorry to have startled you." + +But still she did not move, whispering: + +"Who are you, please?" + +And, moved suddenly beyond the realm of caution by the terror in that +whisper, he answered: + +"Larry's brother." + +She uttered a little sigh of relief which went to Keith's heart, and, +still holding the dark coat together at her throat, came forward and sat +down on the sofa. He could see that her feet, thrust into slippers, were +bare; with her short hair, and those candid startled eyes, she looked +like a tall child. He drew up a chair and said: + +"You must forgive me coming at such an hour; he's told me, you see." He +expected her to flinch and gasp; but she only clasped her hands together +on her knees, and said: + +"Yes?" + +Then horror and discomfort rose up in him, afresh. + +"An awful business!" + +Her whisper echoed him: + +"Yes, oh! yes! Awful--it is awful!" + +And suddenly realising that the man must have fallen dead just where he +was sitting, Keith became stock silent, staring at the floor. + +"Yes," she whispered; "Just there. I see him now always falling!" + +How she said that! With what a strange gentle despair! In this girl of +evil life, who had brought on them this tragedy, what was it which moved +him to a sort of unwilling compassion? + +"You look very young," he said. + +"I am twenty." + +"And you are fond of--my brother?" + +"I would die for him." + +Impossible to mistake the tone of her voice, or the look in her eyes, +true deep Slav eyes; dark brown, not blue as he had thought at first. It +was a very pretty face--either her life had not eaten into it yet, or the +suffering of these last hours had purged away those marks; or perhaps +this devotion of hers to Larry. He felt strangely at sea, sitting there +with this child of twenty; he, over forty, a man of the world, +professionally used to every side of human nature. But he said, +stammering a little: + +"I--I have come to see how far you can save him. Listen, and just answer +the questions I put to you." + +She raised her hands, squeezed them together, and murmured: + +"Oh! I will answer anything." + +"This man, then--your--your husband--was he a bad man?" + +"A dreadful man." + +"Before he came here last night, how long since you saw him?" + +"Eighteen months." + +"Where did you live when you saw him last?" + +"In Pimlico." + +"Does anybody about here know you as Mrs. Walenn?" + +"No. When I came here, after my little girl died, I came to live a bad +life. Nobody knows me at all. I am quite alone." + +"If they discover who he was, they will look for his wife?" + +"I do not know. He did not let people think I was married to him. I was +very young; he treated many, I think, like me." + +"Do you think he was known to the police?" + +She shook her head. "He was very clever." + +"What is your name now?" + +"Wanda Livinska." + +"Were you known by that name before you were married?" + +"Wanda is my Christian name. Livinska--I just call myself." + +"I see; since you came here." + +"Yes." + +"Did my brother ever see this man before last night?" + +"Never." + +"You had told him about his treatment of you?" + +"Yes. And that man first went for him." + +"I saw the mark. Do you think anyone saw my brother come to you?" + +"I do not know. He says not." + +"Can you tell if anyone saw him carrying the--the thing away?" + +"No one in this street--I was looking." + +"Nor coming back?" + +"No one." + +"Nor going out in the morning?" + +"I do not think it." + +"Have you a servant?" + +"Only a woman who comes at nine in the morning for an hour." + +"Does she know Larry?" + +"No." + +"Friends, acquaintances?" + +"No; I am very quiet. And since I knew your brother, I see no one. +Nobody comes here but him for a long time now." + +"How long?" + +"Five months." + +"Have you been out to-day?" + +"No." + +"What have you been doing?" + +"Crying." + +It was said with a certain dreadful simplicity, and pressing her hands +together, she went on: + +"He is in danger, because of me. I am so afraid for him." Holding up his +hand to check that emotion, he said: + +"Look at me!" + +She fixed those dark eyes on him, and in her bare throat, from which the +coat had fallen back, he could see her resolutely swallowing down her +agitation. + +"If the worst comes to the worst, and this man is traced to you, can you +trust yourself not to give my brother away?" + +Her eyes shone. She got up and went to the fireplace: + +"Look! I have burned all the things he has given me--even his picture. +Now I have nothing from him." + +Keith, too, got up. + +"Good! One more question: Do the police know you, because--because of +your life?" + +She shook her head, looking at him intently, with those mournfully true +eyes. And he felt a sort of shame. + +"I was obliged to ask. Do you know where he lives?" + +"Yes." + +"You must not go there. And he must not come to you, here." + +Her lips quivered; but she bowed her head. Suddenly he found her quite +close to him, speaking almost in a whisper: + +"Please do not take him from me altogether. I will be so careful. I +will not do anything to hurt him; but if I cannot see him sometimes, I +shall die. Please do not take him from me." And catching his hand +between her own, she pressed it desperately. It was several seconds +before Keith said: + +"Leave that to me. I will see him. I shall arrange. You must leave +that to me." + +"But you will be kind?" + +He felt her lips kissing his hand. And the soft moist touch sent a queer +feeling through him, protective, yet just a little brutal, having in it a +shiver of sensuality. He withdrew his hand. And as if warned that she +had been too pressing, she recoiled humbly. But suddenly she turned, and +stood absolutely rigid; then almost inaudibly whispered: "Listen! +Someone out--out there!" And darting past him she turned out the light. + +Almost at once came a knock on the door. He could feel--actually feel +the terror of this girl beside him in the dark. And he, too, felt +terror. Who could it be? No one came but Larry, she had said. Who else +then could it be? Again came the knock, louder! He felt the breath of +her whisper on his cheek: "If it is Larry! I must open." He shrank back +against the wall; heard her open the door and say faintly: "Yes. Please! +Who?" + +Light painted a thin moving line on the wall opposite, and a voice which +Keith recognised answered: + +"All right, miss. Your outer door's open here. You ought to keep it +shut after dark." + +God! That policeman! And it had been his own doing, not shutting the +outer door behind him when he came in. He heard her say timidly in her +foreign voice: "Thank you, sir!" the policeman's retreating steps, the +outer door being shut, and felt her close to him again. That something in +her youth and strange prettiness which had touched and kept him gentle, +no longer blunted the edge of his exasperation, now that he could not see +her. They were all the same, these women; could not speak the truth! +And he said brusquely: + +"You told me they didn't know you!" + +Her voice answered like a sigh: + +"I did not think they did, sir. It is so long I was not out in the town, +not since I had Larry." + +The repulsion which all the time seethed deep in Keith welled up at those +words. His brother--son of his mother, a gentleman--the property of this +girl, bound to her, body and soul, by this unspeakable event! But she +had turned up the light. Had she some intuition that darkness was +against her? Yes, she was pretty with that soft face, colourless save +for its lips and dark eyes, with that face somehow so touchingly, so +unaccountably good, and like a child's. + +"I am going now," he said. "Remember! He mustn't come here; you mustn't +go to him. I shall see him to-morrow. If you are as fond of him as you +say--take care, take care!" + +She sighed out, "Yes! oh, yes!" and Keith went to the door. She was +standing with her back to the wall, and to follow him she only moved her +head--that dove-like face with all its life in eyes which seemed saying: +'Look into us; nothing we hide; all--all is there!' + +And he went out. + +In the passage he paused before opening the outer door. He did not want +to meet that policeman again; the fellow's round should have taken him +well out of the street by now, and turning the handle cautiously, he +looked out. No one in sight. He stood a moment, wondering if he should +turn to right or left, then briskly crossed the street. A voice to his +right hand said: + +"Good-night, sir." + +There in the shadow of a doorway the policeman was standing. The fellow +must have seen him coming out! Utterly unable to restrain a start, and +muttering "Goodnight!" Keith walked on rapidly: + +He went full quarter of a mile before he lost that startled and uneasy +feeling in sardonic exasperation that he, Keith Darrant, had been taken +for a frequenter of a lady of the town. The whole thing--the whole +thing!--a vile and disgusting business! His very mind felt dirty and +breathless; his spirit, drawn out of sheath, had slowly to slide back +before he could at all focus and readjust his reasoning faculty. +Certainly, he had got the knowledge he wanted. There was less danger +than he thought. That girl's eyes! No mistaking her devotion. She +would not give Larry away. Yes! Larry must clear out--South +America--the East--it did not matter. But he felt no relief. The cheap, +tawdry room had wrapped itself round his fancy with its atmosphere of +murky love, with the feeling it inspired, of emotion caged within those +yellowish walls and the red stuff of its furniture. That girl's face! +Devotion; truth, too, and beauty, rare and moving, in its setting of +darkness and horror, in that nest of vice and of disorder!... The dark +archway; the street arab, with his gleeful: "They 'ain't got 'im yet!"; +the feel of those bare arms round his neck; that whisper of horror in the +darkness; above all, again, her child face looking into his, so truthful! +And suddenly he stood quite still in the street. What in God's name was +he about? What grotesque juggling amongst shadows, what strange and +ghastly eccentricity was all this? The forces of order and routine, all +the actualities of his daily life, marched on him at that moment, and +swept everything before them. It was a dream, a nightmare not real! It +was ridiculous! That he--he should thus be bound up with things so black +and bizarre! + +He had come by now to the Strand, that street down which every day he +moved to the Law Courts, to his daily work; his work so dignified and +regular, so irreproachable, and solid. No! The thing was all a +monstrous nightmare! It would go, if he fixed his mind on the familiar +objects around, read the names on the shops, looked at the faces passing. +Far down the thoroughfare he caught the outline of the old church, and +beyond, the loom of the Law Courts themselves. The bell of a fire-engine +sounded, and the horses came galloping by, with the shining metal, rattle +of hoofs and hoarse shouting. Here was a sensation, real and harmless, +dignified and customary! A woman flaunting round the corner looked up at +him, and leered out: "Good-night!" Even that was customary, tolerable. +Two policemen passed, supporting between them a man the worse for liquor, +full of fight and expletives; the sight was soothing, an ordinary thing +which brought passing annoyance, interest, disgust. It had begun to +rain; he felt it on his face with pleasure--an actual thing, not +eccentric, a thing which happened every day! + +He began to cross the street. Cabs were going at furious speed now that +the last omnibus had ceased to run; it distracted him to take this +actual, ordinary risk run so often every day. During that crossing of +the Strand, with the rain in his face and the cabs shooting past, he +regained for the first time his assurance, shook off this unreal sense of +being in the grip of something, and walked resolutely to the corner of +his home turning. But passing into that darker stretch, he again stood +still. A policeman had also turned into that street on the other side. +Not--surely not! Absurd! They were all alike to look at--those fellows! +Absurd! He walked on sharply, and let himself into his house. But on +his way upstairs he could not for the life of him help raising a corner +of a curtain and looking from the staircase window. The policeman was +marching solemnly, about twenty-five yards away, paying apparently no +attention to anything whatever. + + + + +IV + +Keith woke at five o'clock, his usual hour, without remembrance. But the +grisly shadow started up when he entered his study, where the lamp +burned, and the fire shone, and the coffee was set ready, just as when +yesterday afternoon Larry had stood out there against the wall. For a +moment he fought against realisation; then, drinking off his coffee, sat +down sullenly at the bureau to his customary three hours' study of the +day's cases. + +Not one word of his brief could he take in. It was all jumbled with +murky images and apprehensions, and for full half an hour he suffered +mental paralysis. Then the sheer necessity of knowing something of the +case which he had to open at half-past ten that morning forced him to a +concentration which never quite subdued the malaise at the bottom of his +heart. Nevertheless, when he rose at half-past eight and went into the +bathroom, he had earned his grim satisfaction in this victory of +will-power. By half-past nine he must be at Larry's. A boat left London +for the Argentine to-morrow. If Larry was to get away at once, money +must be arranged for. And then at breakfast he came on this paragraph in +the paper: + + "SOHO MURDER. + +"Enquiry late last night established the fact that the Police have +discovered the identity of the man found strangled yesterday morning +under an archway in Glove Lane. An arrest has been made." + +By good fortune he had finished eating, for the words made him feel +physically sick. At this very minute Larry might be locked up, waiting +to be charged-might even have been arrested before his own visit to the +girl last night. If Larry were arrested, she must be implicated. What, +then, would be his own position? Idiot to go and look at that archway, +to go and see the girl! Had that policeman really followed him home? +Accessory after the fact! Keith Darrant, King's Counsel, man of mark! +He forced himself by an effort, which had something of the heroic, to +drop this panicky feeling. Panic never did good. He must face it, and +see. He refused even to hurry, calmly collected the papers wanted for +the day, and attended to a letter or two, before he set out in a taxi-cab +to Fitzroy Street. + +Waiting outside there in the grey morning for his ring to be answered, he +looked the very picture of a man who knew his mind, a man of resolution. +But it needed all his will-power to ask without tremor: "Mr. Darrant in?" +to hear without sign of any kind the answer: "He's not up yet, sir." + +"Never mind; I'll go in and see him. Mr. Keith Darrant." + +On his way to Laurence's bedroom, in the midst of utter relief, he had +the self-possession to think: 'This arrest is the best thing that could +have happened. It'll keep their noses on a wrong scent till Larry's got +away. The girl must be sent off too, but not with him.' Panic had ended +in quite hardening his resolution. He entered the bedroom with a feeling +of disgust. The fellow was lying there, his bare arms crossed behind his +tousled head, staring at the ceiling, and smoking one of many cigarettes +whose ends littered a chair beside him, whose sickly reek tainted the +air. That pale face, with its jutting cheek-bones and chin, its hollow +cheeks and blue eyes far sunk back--what a wreck of goodness! + +He looked up at Keith through the haze of smoke and said quietly: "Well, +brother, what's the sentence? 'Transportation for life, and then to be +fined forty pounds?'" + +The flippancy revolted Keith. It was Larry all over! Last night +horrified and humble, this morning, "Don't care" and feather-headed. He +said sourly: + +"Oh! You can joke about it now?" + +Laurence turned his face to the wall. + +"Must." + +Fatalism! How detestable were natures like that! + +"I've been to see her," he said. + +"You?" + +"Last night. She can be trusted." + +Laurence laughed. + +"That I told you." + +"I had to see for myself. You must clear out at once, Larry. She can +come out to you by the next boat; but you can't go together. Have you any +money?" + +"No." + +"I can foot your expenses, and lend you a year's income in advance. But +it must be a clean cut; after you get out there your whereabouts must +only be known to me." + +A long sigh answered him. + +"You're very good to me, Keith; you've always been very good. I don't +know why." + +Keith answered drily + +"Nor I. There's a boat to the Argentine tomorrow. You're in luck; +they've made an arrest. It's in the paper." + +"What?" + +The cigarette end dropped, the thin pyjama'd figure writhed up and stood +clutching at the bedrail. + +"What?" + +The disturbing thought flitted through Keith's brain: 'I was a fool. He +takes it queerly; what now?' + +Laurence passed his hand over his forehead, and sat down on the bed. + +"I hadn't thought of that," he said; "It does me!" + +Keith stared. In his relief that the arrested man was not Laurence, this +had not occurred to him. What folly! + +"Why?" he said quickly; "an innocent man's in no danger. They always +get the wrong man first. It's a piece of luck, that's all. It gives us +time." + +How often had he not seen that expression on Larry's face, wistful, +questioning, as if trying to see the thing with his--Keith's-eyes, trying +to submit to better judgment? And he said, almost gently-- + +"Now, look here, Larry; this is too serious to trifle with. Don't worry +about that. Leave it to me. Just get ready to be off'. I'll take your +berth and make arrangements. Here's some money for kit. I can come +round between five and six, and let you know. Pull yourself together, +man. As soon as the girl's joined you out there, you'd better get across +to Chile, the further the better. You must simply lose yourself: I must +go now, if I'm to get to the Bank before I go down to the courts." And +looking very steadily at his brother, he added: + +"Come! You've got to think of me in this matter as well as of yourself. +No playing fast and loose with the arrangements. Understand?" + +But still Larry gazed up at him with that wistful questioning, and not +till he had repeated, "Understand?" did he receive "Yes" for answer. + +Driving away, he thought: 'Queer fellow! I don't know him, shall never +know him!' and at once began to concentrate on the practical +arrangements. At his bank he drew out L400; but waiting for the notes to +be counted he suffered qualms. A clumsy way of doing things! If there +had been more time! The thought: 'Accessory after the fact!' now +infected everything. Notes were traceable. No other way of getting him +away at once, though. One must take lesser risks to avoid greater. From +the bank he drove to the office of the steamship line. He had told Larry +he would book his passage. But that would not do! He must only ask +anonymously if there were accommodation. Having discovered that there +were vacant berths, he drove on to the Law Courts. If he could have +taken a morning off, he would have gone down to the police court and seen +them charge this man. But even that was not too safe, with a face so +well known as his. What would come of this arrest? Nothing, surely! +The police always took somebody up, to keep the public quiet. Then, +suddenly, he had again the feeling that it was all a nightmare; Larry had +never done it; the police had got the right man! But instantly the +memory of the girl's awe-stricken face, her figure huddling on the sofa, +her words "I see him always falling!" came back. God! What a business! + +He felt he had never been more clear-headed and forcible than that +morning in court. When he came out for lunch he bought the most +sensational of the evening papers. But it was yet too early for news, +and he had to go back into court no whit wiser concerning the arrest. +When at last he threw off wig and gown, and had got through a conference +and other necessary work, he went out to Chancery Lane, buying a paper on +the way. Then he hailed a cab, and drove once more to Fitzroy Street. + + + + +V + +Laurence had remained sitting on his bed for many minutes. An innocent +man in no danger! Keith had said it--the celebrated lawyer! Could he +rely on that? Go out 8,000 miles, he and the girl, and leave a +fellow-creature perhaps in mortal peril for an act committed by himself? + +In the past night he had touched bottom, as he thought: become ready to +face anything. When Keith came in he would without murmur have accepted +the advice: "Give yourself up!" He was prepared to pitch away the end of +his life as he pitched from him the fag-ends of his cigarettes. And the +long sigh he had heaved, hearing of reprieve, had been only half relief. +Then, with incredible swiftness there had rushed through him a feeling of +unutterable joy and hope. Clean away--into a new country, a new life! +The girl and he! Out there he wouldn't care, would rejoice even to have +squashed the life out of such a noisome beetle of a man. Out there! +Under a new sun, where blood ran quicker than in this foggy land, and +people took justice into their own hands. For it had been justice on +that brute even though he had not meant to kill him. And then to hear of +this arrest! They would be charging the man to-day. He could go and see +the poor creature accused of the murder he himself had committed! And he +laughed. Go and see how likely it was that they might hang a fellow-man +in place of himself? He dressed, but too shaky to shave himself, went +out to a barber's shop. While there he read the news which Keith had +seen. In this paper the name of the arrested man was given: "John Evan, +no address." To be brought up on the charge at Bow Street. Yes! He +must go. Once, twice, three times he walked past the entrance of the +court before at last he entered and screwed himself away among the tag +and bobtail. + +The court was crowded; and from the murmurs round he could tell that it +was his particular case which had brought so many there. In a dazed way +he watched charge after charge disposed of with lightning quickness. But +were they never going to reach his business? And then suddenly he saw +the little scarecrow man of last night advancing to the dock between two +policemen, more ragged and miserable than ever by light of day, like some +shaggy, wan, grey animal, surrounded by sleek hounds. + +A sort of satisfied purr was rising all round; and with horror Laurence +perceived that this--this was the man accused of what he himself had +done--this queer, battered unfortunate to whom he had shown a passing +friendliness. Then all feeling merged in the appalling interest of +listening. The evidence was very short. Testimony of the hotel-keeper +where Walenn had been staying, the identification of his body, and of a +snake-shaped ring he had been wearing at dinner that evening. Testimony +of a pawnbroker, that this same ring was pawned with him the first thing +yesterday morning by the prisoner. Testimony of a policeman that he had +noticed the man Evan several times in Glove Lane, and twice moved him on +from sleeping under that arch. Testimony of another policeman that, when +arrested at midnight, Evan had said: "Yes; I took the ring off his +finger. I found him there dead .... I know I oughtn't to have done +it.... I'm an educated man; it was stupid to pawn the ring. I found him +with his pockets turned inside out." + +Fascinating and terrible to sit staring at the man in whose place he +should have been; to wonder when those small bright-grey bloodshot eyes +would spy him out, and how he would meet that glance. Like a baited +raccoon the little man stood, screwed back into a corner, mournful, +cynical, fierce, with his ridged, obtuse yellow face, and his stubbly +grey beard and hair, and his eyes wandering now and again amongst the +crowd. But with all his might Laurence kept his face unmoved. Then came +the word "Remanded"; and, more like a baited beast than ever, the man was +led away. + +Laurence sat on, a cold perspiration thick on his forehead. Someone +else, then, had come on the body and turned the pockets inside out before +John Evan took the ring. A man such as Walenn would not be out at night +without money. Besides, if Evan had found money on the body he would +never have run the risk of taking that ring. Yes, someone else had come +on the body first. It was for that one to come forward, and prove that +the ring was still on the dead man's finger when he left him, and thus +clear Evan. He clung to that thought; it seemed to make him less +responsible for the little man's position; to remove him and his own deed +one step further back. If they found the person who had taken the money, +it would prove Evan's innocence. He came out of the court in a sort of +trance. And a craving to get drunk attacked him. One could not go on +like this without the relief of some oblivion. If he could only get +drunk, keep drunk till this business was decided and he knew whether he +must give himself up or no. He had now no fear at all of people +suspecting him; only fear of himself--fear that he might go and give +himself up. Now he could see the girl; the danger from that was as +nothing compared with the danger from his own conscience. He had +promised Keith not to see her. Keith had been decent and loyal to +him--good old Keith! But he would never understand that this girl was +now all he cared about in life; that he would rather be cut off from life +itself than be cut off from her. Instead of becoming less and less, she +was becoming more and more to him--experience strange and thrilling! Out +of deep misery she had grown happy--through him; out of a sordid, +shifting life recovered coherence and bloom, through devotion to him him, +of all people in the world! It was a miracle. She demanded nothing of +him, adored him, as no other woman ever had--it was this which had +anchored his drifting barque; this--and her truthful mild intelligence, +and that burning warmth of a woman, who, long treated by men as but a +sack of sex, now loves at last. + +And suddenly, mastering his craving to get drunk, he made towards Soho. +He had been a fool to give those keys to Keith. She must have been +frightened by his visit; and, perhaps, doubly miserable since, knowing +nothing, imagining everything! Keith was sure to have terrified her. +Poor little thing! + +Down the street where he had stolen in the dark with the dead body on his +back, he almost ran for the cover of her house. The door was opened to +him before he knocked, her arms were round his neck, her lips pressed to +his. The fire was out, as if she had been unable to remember to keep +warm. A stool had been drawn to the window, and there she had evidently +been sitting, like a bird in a cage, looking out into the grey street. +Though she had been told that he was not to come, instinct had kept her +there; or the pathetic, aching hope against hope which lovers never part +with. + +Now that he was there, her first thoughts were for his comfort. The fire +was lighted. He must eat, drink, smoke. There was never in her doings +any of the "I am doing this for you, but you ought to be doing that for +me" which belongs to so many marriages, and liaisons. She was like a +devoted slave, so in love with the chains that she never knew she wore +them. And to Laurence, who had so little sense of property, this only +served to deepen tenderness, and the hold she had on him. He had +resolved not to tell her of the new danger he ran from his own +conscience. But resolutions with him were but the opposites of what was +sure to come; and at last the words: + +"They've arrested someone," escaped him. + +From her face he knew she had grasped the danger at once; had divined it, +perhaps, before he spoke. But she only twined her arms round him and +kissed his lips. And he knew that she was begging him to put his love +for her above his conscience. Who would ever have thought that he could +feel as he did to this girl who had been in the arms of many! The +stained and suffering past of a loved woman awakens in some men only +chivalry; in others, more respectable, it rouses a tigerish itch, a +rancorous jealousy of what in the past was given to others. Sometimes it +will do both. When he had her in his arms he felt no remorse for killing +the coarse, handsome brute who had ruined her. He savagely rejoiced in +it. But when she laid her head in the hollow of his shoulder, turning to +him her white face with the faint colour-staining on the parted lips, the +cheeks, the eyelids; when her dark, wide-apart, brown eyes gazed up in +the happiness of her abandonment--he felt only tenderness and protection. + +He left her at five o'clock, and had not gone two streets' length before +the memory of the little grey vagabond, screwed back in the far corner of +the dock like a baited raccoon, of his dreary, creaking voice, took +possession of him again; and a kind of savagery mounted in his brain +against a world where one could be so tortured without having meant harm +to anyone. + +At the door of his lodgings Keith was getting out of a cab. They went in +together, but neither of them sat down; Keith standing with his back to +the carefully shut door, Laurence with his back to the table, as if they +knew there was a tug coming. And Keith said: "There's room on that boat. +Go down and book your berth before they shut. Here's the money!" + +"I'm going to stick it, Keith." + +Keith stepped forward, and put a roll of notes on the table. + +"Now look here, Larry. I've read the police court proceedings. There's +nothing in that. Out of prison, or in prison for a few weeks, it's all +the same to a night-bird of that sort. Dismiss it from your +mind--there's not nearly enough evidence to convict. This gives you your +chance. Take it like a man, and make a new life for yourself." + +Laurence smiled; but the smile had a touch of madness and a touch of +malice. He took up the notes. + +"Clear out, and save the honour of brother Keith. Put them back in your +pocket, Keith, or I'll put them in the fire. Come, take them!" And, +crossing to the fire, he held them to the bars. "Take them, or in they +go!" + +Keith took back the notes. + +"I've still got some kind of honour, Keith; if I clear out I shall have +none, not the rag of any, left. It may be worth more to me than that--I +can't tell yet--I can't tell." There was a long silence before Keith +answered. "I tell you you're mistaken; no jury will convict. If they +did, a judge would never hang on it. A ghoul who can rob a dead body +ought to be in prison. What he did is worse than what you did, if you +come to that!" Laurence lifted his face. "Judge not, brother," he said; +"the heart is a dark well." Keith's yellowish face grew red and swollen, +as though he were mastering the tickle of a bronchial cough. "What are +you going to do, then? I suppose I may ask you not to be entirely +oblivious of our name; or is such a consideration unworthy of your +honour?" Laurence bent his head. The gesture said more clearly than +words: 'Don't kick a man when he's down!' + +"I don't know what I'm going to do--nothing at present. I'm awfully +sorry, Keith; awfully sorry." + +Keith looked at him, and without another word went out. + + + + +VI + +To any, save philosophers, reputation may be threatened almost as much by +disgrace to name and family as by the disgrace of self. Keith's instinct +was always to deal actively with danger. But this blow, whether it fell +on him by discovery or by confession, could not be countered. As blight +falls on a rose from who knows where, the scandalous murk would light on +him. No repulse possible! Not even a wriggling from under! Brother of +a murderer hung or sent to penal servitude! His daughter niece to a +murderer! His dead mother-a murderer's mother! And to wait day after +day, week after week, not knowing whether the blow would fall, was an +extraordinarily atrocious penance, the injustice of which, to a man of +rectitude, seemed daily the more monstrous. + +The remand had produced evidence that the murdered man had been drinking +heavily on the night of his death, and further evidence of the accused's +professional vagabondage and destitution; it was shown, too, that for +some time the archway in Glove Lane had been his favourite night haunt. +He had been committed for trial in January. This time, despite +misgivings, Keith had attended the police court. To his great relief +Larry was not there. But the policeman who had come up while he was +looking at the archway, and given him afterwards that scare in the girl's +rooms, was chief witness to the way the accused man haunted Glove Lane. +Though Keith held his silk hat high, he still had the uncomfortable +feeling that the man had recognised him. + +His conscience suffered few, if any, twinges for letting this man rest +under the shadow of the murder. He genuinely believed that there was not +evidence enough to convict; nor was it in him to appreciate the tortures +of a vagabond shut up. The scamp deserved what he had got, for robbing a +dead body; and in any case such a scarecrow was better off in prison than +sleeping out under archways in December. Sentiment was foreign to +Keith's character, and his justice that of those who subordinate the +fates of the weak and shiftless to the needful paramountcy of the strong +and well established. + +His daughter came back from school for the Christmas holidays. It was +hard to look up from her bright eyes and rosy cheeks and see this shadow +hanging above his calm and ordered life, as in a glowing room one's eye +may catch an impending patch of darkness drawn like a spider's web across +a corner of the ceiling. + +On the afternoon of Christmas Eve they went, by her desire, to a church +in Soho, where the Christmas Oratorio was being given; and coming away +passed, by chance of a wrong turning, down Borrow Street. Ugh! How that +startled moment, when the girl had pressed herself against him in the +dark, and her terror-stricken whisper: "Oh! Who is it?" leaped out +before him! Always that business--that ghastly business! After the +trial he would have another try to get them both away. And he thrust his +arm within his young daughter's, hurrying her on, out of this street +where shadows filled all the winter air. + +But that evening when she had gone to bed he felt uncontrollably +restless. He had not seen Larry for weeks. What was he about? What +desperations were hatching in his disorderly brain? Was he very +miserable; had he perhaps sunk into a stupor of debauchery? And the old +feeling of protectiveness rose up in him; a warmth born of long ago +Christmas Eves, when they had stockings hung out in the night stuffed by +a Santa Claus, whose hand never failed to tuck them up, whose kiss was +their nightly waft into sleep. + +Stars were sparkling out there over the river; the sky frosty-clear, and +black. Bells had not begun to ring as yet. And obeying an obscure, deep +impulse, Keith wrapped himself once more into his fur coat, pulled a +motoring cap over his eyes, and sallied forth. In the Strand he took a +cab to Fitzroy Street. There was no light in Larry's windows, and on a +card he saw the words "To Let." Gone! Had he after all cleared out for +good? But how-without money? And the girl? Bells were ringing now in +the silent frostiness. Christmas Eve! And Keith thought: 'If only this +wretched business were off my mind! Monstrous that one should suffer for +the faults of others!' He took a route which led him past Borrow Street. +Solitude brooded there, and he walked resolutely down on the far side, +looking hard at the girl's window. There was a light. The curtains just +failed to meet, so that a thin gleam shone through. He crossed; and +after glancing swiftly up and down, deliberately peered in. + +He only stood there perhaps twenty seconds, but visual records gleaned in +a moment sometimes outlast the visions of hours and days. The electric +light was not burning; but, in the centre of the room the girl was +kneeling in her nightgown before a little table on which were four +lighted candles. Her arms were crossed on her breast; the candle-light +shone on her fair cropped hair, on the profile of cheek and chin, on her +bowed white neck. For a moment he thought her alone; then behind her saw +his brother in a sleeping suit, leaning against the wall, with arms +crossed, watching. It was the expression on his face which burned the +whole thing in, so that always afterwards he was able to see that little +scene--such an expression as could never have been on the face of one +even faintly conscious that he was watched by any living thing on earth. +The whole of Larry's heart and feeling seemed to have come up out of him. +Yearning, mockery, love, despair! The depth of his feeling for this +girl, his stress of mind, fears, hopes; the flotsam good and evil of his +soul, all transfigured there, exposed and unforgettable. The +candle-light shone upward on to his face, twisted by the strangest smile; +his eyes, darker and more wistful than mortal eyes should be, seemed to +beseech and mock the white-clad girl, who, all unconscious, knelt without +movement, like a carved figure of devotion. The words seemed coming from +his lips: "Pray for us! Bravo! Yes! Pray for us!" And suddenly Keith +saw her stretch out her arms, and lift her face with a look of ecstasy, +and Laurence starting forward. What had she seen beyond the candle +flames? It is the unexpected which invests visions with poignancy. +Nothing more strange could Keith have seen in this nest of the murky and +illicit. But in sheer panic lest he might be caught thus spying he drew +back and hurried on. So Larry was living there with her! When the moment +came he could still find him. + +Before going in, he stood full five minutes leaning on the terrace +parapet before his house, gazing at the star-frosted sky, and the river +cut by the trees into black pools, oiled over by gleams from the +Embankment lamps. And, deep down, behind his mere thoughts, he +ached-somehow, somewhere ached. Beyond the cage of all that he saw and +heard and thought, he had perceived something he could not reach. But the +night was cold, the bells silent, for it had struck twelve. Entering his +house, he stole upstairs. + + + + +VII + +If for Keith those six weeks before the Glove Lane murder trial came on +were fraught with uneasiness and gloom, they were for Laurence almost the +happiest since his youth. From the moment when he left his rooms and +went to the girl's to live, a kind of peace and exaltation took +possession of him. Not by any effort of will did he throw off the +nightmare hanging over him. Nor was he drugged by love. He was in a +sort of spiritual catalepsy. In face of fate too powerful for his will, +his turmoil, anxiety, and even restlessness had ceased; his life floated +in the ether of "what must come, will." Out of this catalepsy, his spirit +sometimes fell headlong into black waters. In one such whirlpool he was +struggling on the night of Christmas Eve. When the girl rose from her +knees he asked her: + +"What did you see?" + +Pressing close to him, she drew him down on to the floor before the fire; +and they sat, knees drawn up, hands clasped, like two children trying to +see over the edge of the world. + +"It was the Virgin I saw. She stood against the wall and smiled. We +shall be happy soon." + +"When we die, Wanda," he said, suddenly, "let it be together. We shall +keep each other warm, out there." + +Huddling to him she whispered: "Yes, oh, yes! If you die, I could not go +on living." + +It was this utter dependence on him, the feeling that he had rescued +something, which gave him sense of anchorage. That, and his buried life +in the retreat of these two rooms. Just for an hour in the morning, from +nine to ten, the charwoman would come, but not another soul all day. +They never went out together. He would stay in bed late, while Wanda +bought what they needed for the day's meals; lying on his back, hands +clasped behind his head, recalling her face, the movements of her slim, +rounded, supple figure, robing itself before his gaze; feeling again the +kiss she had left on his lips, the gleam of her soft eyes, so strangely +dark in so fair a face. In a sort of trance he would lie till she came +back. Then get up to breakfast about noon off things which she had +cooked, drinking coffee. In the afternoon he would go out alone and walk +for hours, any where, so long as it was East. To the East there was +always suffering to be seen, always that which soothed him with the +feeling that he and his troubles were only a tiny part of trouble; that +while so many other sorrowing and shadowy creatures lived he was not cut +off. To go West was to encourage dejection. In the West all was like +Keith, successful, immaculate, ordered, resolute. He would come back +tired out, and sit watching her cook their little dinner. The evenings +were given up to love. Queer trance of an existence, which both were +afraid to break. No sign from her of wanting those excitements which +girls who have lived her life, even for a few months, are supposed to +need. She never asked him to take her anywhere; never, in word, deed, +look, seemed anything but almost rapturously content. And yet he knew, +and she knew, that they were only waiting to see whether Fate would turn +her thumb down on them. In these days he did not drink. Out of his +quarter's money, when it came in, he had paid his debts--their expenses +were very small. He never went to see Keith, never wrote to him, hardly +thought of him. And from those dread apparitions--Walenn lying with the +breath choked out of him, and the little grey, driven animal in the +dock--he hid, as only a man can who must hide or be destroyed. But daily +he bought a newspaper, and feverishly, furtively scanned its columns. + + + + +VIII + +Coming out of the Law Courts on the afternoon of January 28th, at the +triumphant end of a desperately fought will case, Keith saw on a poster +the words: "Glove Lane Murder: Trial and Verdict"; and with a rush of +dismay he thought: 'Good God! I never looked at the paper this morning!' +The elation which had filled him a second before, the absorption he had +felt for two days now in the case so hardly won, seemed suddenly quite +sickeningly trivial. What on earth had he been doing to forget that +horrible business even for an instant? He stood quite still on the +crowded pavement, unable, really unable, to buy a paper. But his face +was like a piece of iron when he did step forward and hold his penny out. +There it was in the Stop Press! "Glove Lane Murder. The jury returned a +verdict of Guilty. Sentence of death was passed." + +His first sensation was simple irritation. How had they come to commit +such an imbecility? Monstrous! The evidence--! Then the futility of +even reading the report, of even considering how they had come to record +such a verdict struck him with savage suddenness. There it was, and +nothing he could do or say would alter it; no condemnation of this +idiotic verdict would help reverse it. The situation was desperate, +indeed! That five minutes' walk from the Law Courts to his chambers was +the longest he had ever taken. + +Men of decided character little know beforehand what they will do in +certain contingencies. For the imaginations of decided people do not +endow mere contingencies with sufficient actuality. Keith had never +really settled what he was going to do if this man were condemned. Often +in those past weeks he had said to himself: "Of course, if they bring him +in guilty, that's another thing!" But, now that they had, he was beset +by exactly the same old arguments and feelings, the same instincts of +loyalty and protection towards Laurence and himself, intensified by the +fearful imminence of the danger. And yet, here was this man about to be +hung for a thing he had not done! Nothing could get over that! But then +he was such a worthless vagabond, a ghoul who had robbed a dead body. If +Larry were condemned in his stead, would there be any less miscarriage of +justice? To strangle a brute who had struck you, by the accident of +keeping your hands on his throat a few seconds too long, was there any +more guilt in that--was there even as much, as in deliberate theft from a +dead man? Reverence for order, for justice, and established fact, will, +often march shoulder to shoulder with Jesuitry in natures to whom success +is vital. + +In the narrow stone passage leading to his staircase, a friend had called +out: "Bravo, Darrant! That was a squeak! Congratulations!" And with a +bitter little smile Keith thought: 'Congratulations! I!' + +At the first possible moment the hurried back to the Strand, and hailing +a cab, he told the man to put him down at a turning near to Borrow +Street. + +It was the girl who opened to his knock. Startled, clasping her hands, +she looked strange to Keith in her black skirt and blouse of some soft +velvety stuff the colour of faded roses. Her round, rather long throat +was bare; and Keith noticed fretfully that she wore gold earrings. Her +eyes, so pitch dark against her white face, and the short fair hair, +which curled into her neck, seemed both to search and to plead. + +"My brother?" + +"He is not in, sir, yet." + +"Do you know where he is?" + +"No." + +"He is living with you here now?" + +"Yes." + +"Are you still as fond of him as ever, then?" + +With a movement, as though she despaired of words, she clasped her hands +over her heart. And he said: + +"I see." + +He had the same strange feeling as on his first visit to her, and when +through the chink in the curtains he had watched her kneeling--of pity +mingled with some faint sexual emotion. And crossing to the fire he +asked: + +"May I wait for him?" + +"Oh! Please! Will you sit down?" + +But Keith shook his head. And with a catch in her breath, she said: + +"You will not take him from me. I should die." + +He turned round on her sharply. + +"I don't want him taken from you. I want to help you keep him. Are you +ready to go away, at any time?" + +"Yes. Oh, yes!" + +"And he?" + +She answered almost in a whisper: + +"Yes; but there is that poor man." + +"That poor man is a graveyard thief; a hyena; a ghoul--not worth +consideration." And the rasp in his own voice surprised him. + +"Ah!" she sighed. "But I am sorry for him. Perhaps he was hungry. I +have been hungry--you do things then that you would not. And perhaps he +has no one to love; if you have no one to love you can be very bad. I +think of him often--in prison." + +Between his teeth Keith muttered: "And Laurence?" + +"We do never speak of it, we are afraid." + +"He's not told you, then, about the trial?" + +Her eyes dilated. + +"The trial! Oh! He was strange last night. This morning, too, he got +up early. Is it-is it over?" + +"Yes." + +"What has come?" + +"Guilty." + +For a moment Keith thought she was going to faint. She had closed her +eyes, and swayed so that he took a step, and put his hands on her arms. + +"Listen!" he said. "Help me; don't let Laurence out of your sight. We +must have time. I must see what they intend to do. They can't be going +to hang this man. I must have time, I tell you. You must prevent his +giving himself up." + +She stood, staring in his face, while he still held her arms, gripping +into her soft flesh through the velvety sleeves. + +"Do you understand?" + +"Yes-but if he has already!" + +Keith felt the shiver which ran through her. And the thought rushed into +his mind: 'My God! Suppose the police come round while I'm here!' If +Larry had indeed gone to them! If that Policeman who had seen him here +the night after the murder should find him here again just after the +verdict! He said almost fiercely: + +"Can I trust you not to let Larry out of your sight? Quick! Answer!" + +Clasping her hands to her breast, she answered humbly: + +"I will try." + +"If he hasn't already done this, watch him like a lynx! Don't let him go +out without you. I'll come to-morrow morning early. You're a Catholic, +aren't you? Swear to me that you won't let him do anything till he's +seen me again." + +She did not answer, looking past him at the door; and Keith heard a key +in the latch. There was Laurence himself, holding in his hand a great +bunch of pink lilies and white narcissi. His face was pale and haggard. +He said quietly: + +"Hallo, Keith!" + +The girl's eyes were fastened on Larry's face; and Keith, looking from +one to the other, knew that he had never had more need for wariness. + +"Have you seen?" he said. + +Laurence nodded. His expression, as a rule so tell-tale of his emotions, +baffled Keith utterly. + +"Well?" + +"I've been expecting it." + +"The thing can't stand--that's certain. But I must have time to look +into the report. I must have time to see what I can do. D'you +understand me, Larry--I must have time." He knew he was talking at +random. The only thing was to get them away at once out of reach of +confession; but he dared not say so. + +"Promise me that you'll do nothing, that you won't go out even till I've +seen you to-morrow morning." + +Again Laurence nodded. And Keith looked at the girl. Would she see that +he did not break that promise? Her eyes were still fixed immovably on +Larry's face. And with the feeling that he could get no further, Keith +turned to go. + +"Promise me," he said. + +Laurence answered: "I promise." + +He was smiling. Keith could make nothing of that smile, nor of the +expression in the girl's eyes. And saying: "I have your promise, I rely +on it!" he went. + + + + +IX + +To keep from any woman who loves, knowledge of her lover's mood, is as +hard as to keep music from moving the heart. But when that woman has +lived in suffering, and for the first time knows the comfort of love, +then let the lover try as he may to disguise his heart--no use! Yet by +virtue of subtler abnegation she will often succeed in keeping it from +him that she knows. + +When Keith was gone the girl made no outcry, asked no questions, managed +that Larry should not suspect her intuition; all that evening she acted +as if she knew of nothing preparing within him, and through him, within +herself. + +His words, caresses, the very zest with which he helped her to prepare +the feast, the flowers he had brought, the wine he made her drink, the +avoidance of any word which could spoil their happiness, all--all told +her. He was too inexorably gay and loving. Not for her--to whom every +word and every kiss had uncannily the desperate value of a last word and +kiss--not for her to deprive herself of these by any sign or gesture +which might betray her prescience. Poor soul--she took all, and would +have taken more, a hundredfold. She did not want to drink the wine he +kept tilting into her glass, but, with the acceptance learned by women +who have lived her life, she did not refuse. She had never refused him +anything. So much had been required of her by the detestable, that +anything required by a loved one was but an honour. + +Laurence drank deeply; but he had never felt clearer, never seen things +more clearly. The wine gave him what he wanted, an edge to these few +hours of pleasure, an exaltation of energy. It dulled his sense of pity, +too. It was pity he was afraid of--for himself, and for this girl. To +make even this tawdry room look beautiful, with firelight and +candlelight, dark amber wine in the glasses, tall pink lilies spilling +their saffron, exuding their hot perfume he and even himself must look +their best. And with a weight as of lead on her heart, she managed that +for him, letting him strew her with flowers and crush them together with +herself. Not even music was lacking to their feast. Someone was playing +a pianola across the street, and the sound, very faint, came stealing +when they were silent--swelling, sinking, festive, mournful; having a +far-off life of its own, like the flickering fire-flames before which +they lay embraced, or the lilies delicate between the candles. Listening +to that music, tracing with his finger the tiny veins on her breast, he +lay like one recovering from a swoon. No parting. None! But sleep, as +the firelight sleeps when flames die; as music sleeps on its deserted +strings. + +And the girl watched him. + +It was nearly ten when he bade her go to bed. And after she had gone +obedient into the bedroom, he brought ink and paper down by the fire. The +drifter, the unstable, the good-for-nothing--did not falter. He had +thought, when it came to the point, he would fail himself; but a sort of +rage bore him forward. If he lived on, and confessed, they would shut +him up, take from him the one thing he loved, cut him off from her; sand +up his only well in the desert. Curse them! And he wrote by firelight +which mellowed the white sheets of paper; while, against the dark +curtain, the girl, in her nightgown, unconscious of the cold, stood +watching. + +Men, when they drown, remember their pasts. Like the lost poet he had +"gone with the wind." Now it was for him to be true in his fashion. A +man may falter for weeks and weeks, consciously, subconsciously, even in +his dreams, till there comes that moment when the only thing impossible +is to go on faltering. The black cap, the little driven grey man looking +up at it with a sort of wonder--faltering had ceased! + +He had finished now, and was but staring into the fire. + + "No more, no more, the moon is dead, + And all the people in it; + The poppy maidens strew the bed, + We'll come in half a minute." + +Why did doggerel start up in the mind like that? Wanda! The weed-flower +become so rare he would not be parted from her! The fire, the candles, +and the fire--no more the flame and flicker! + +And, by the dark curtain, the girl watched. + + + + +X + +Keith went, not home, but to his club; and in the room devoted to the +reception of guests, empty at this hour, he sat down and read the report +of the trial. The fools had made out a case that looked black enough. +And for a long time, on the thick soft carpet which let out no sound of +footfall, he paced up and down, thinking. He might see the defending +counsel, might surely do that as an expert who thought there had been +miscarriage of justice. They must appeal; a petition too might be +started in the last event. The thing could--must be put right yet, if +only Larry and that girl did nothing! + +He had no appetite, but the custom of dining is too strong. And while he +ate, he glanced with irritation at his fellow-members. They looked so at +their ease. Unjust--that this black cloud should hang over one blameless +as any of them! Friends, connoisseurs of such things--a judge among +them--came specially to his table to express their admiration of his +conduct of that will case. Tonight he had real excuse for pride, but he +felt none. Yet, in this well-warmed quietly glowing room, filled with +decorously eating, decorously talking men, he gained insensibly some +comfort. This surely was reality; that shadowy business out there only +the drear sound of a wind one must and did keep out--like the poverty and +grime which had no real existence for the secure and prosperous. He +drank champagne. It helped to fortify reality, to make shadows seem more +shadowy. And down in the smoking-room he sat before the fire, in one of +those chairs which embalm after-dinner dreams. He grew sleepy there, and +at eleven o'clock rose to go home. But when he had once passed down the +shallow marble steps, out through the revolving door which let in no +draughts, he was visited by fear, as if he had drawn it in with the +breath of the January wind. Larry's face; and the girl watching it! Why +had she watched like that? Larry's smile; and the flowers in his hand? +Buying flowers at such a moment! The girl was his slave-whatever he told +her, she would do. But she would never be able to stop him. At this +very moment he might be rushing to give himself up! + +His hand, thrust deep into the pocket of his fur coat, came in contact +suddenly with something cold. The keys Larry had given him all that time +ago. There they had lain forgotten ever since. The chance touch decided +him. He turned off towards Borrow Street, walking at full speed. He +could but go again and see. He would sleep better if he knew that he had +left no stone unturned. At the corner of that dismal street he had to +wait for solitude before he made for the house which he now loathed with +a deadly loathing. He opened the outer door and shut it to behind him. +He knocked, but no one came. Perhaps they had gone to bed. Again and +again he knocked, then opened the door, stepped in, and closed it +carefully. Candles lighted, the fire burning; cushions thrown on the +floor in front of it and strewn with flowers! The table, too, covered +with flowers and with the remnants of a meal. Through the half-drawn +curtain he could see that the inner room was also lighted. Had they gone +out, leaving everything like this? Gone out! His heart beat. Bottles! +Larry had been drinking! + +Had it really come? Must he go back home with this murk on him; knowing +that his brother was a confessed and branded murderer? He went quickly, +to the half-drawn curtains and looked in. Against the wall he saw a bed, +and those two in it. He recoiled in sheer amazement and relief. Asleep +with curtains undrawn, lights left on? Asleep through all his knocking! +They must both be drunk. The blood rushed up in his neck. Asleep! And +rushing forward again, he called out: "Larry!" Then, with a gasp he went +towards the bed. "Larry!" No answer! No movement! Seizing his +brother's shoulder, he shook it violently. It felt cold. They were +lying in each other's arms, breast to breast, lips to lips, their faces +white in the light shining above the dressing-table. And such a shudder +shook Keith that he had to grasp the brass rail above their heads. Then +he bent down, and wetting his finger, placed it close to their joined +lips. No two could ever swoon so utterly as that; not even a drunken +sleep could be so fast. His wet finger felt not the faintest stir of +air, nor was there any movement in the pulses of their hands. No breath! +No life! The eyes of the girl were closed. How strangely innocent she +looked! Larry's open eyes seemed to be gazing at her shut eyes; but +Keith saw that they were sightless. With a sort of sob he drew down the +lids. Then, by an impulse that he could never have explained, he laid a +hand on his brother's head, and a hand on the girl's fair hair. The +clothes had fallen down a little from her bare shoulder; he pulled them +up, as if to keep her warm, and caught the glint of metal; a tiny gilt +crucifix no longer than a thumbnail, on a thread of steel chain, had +slipped down from her breast into the hollow of the arm which lay round +Larry's neck. Keith buried it beneath the clothes and noticed an +envelope pinned to the coverlet; bending down, he read: "Please give this +at once to the police.--LAURENCE DARRANT." He thrust it into his pocket. +Like elastic stretched beyond its uttermost, his reason, will, faculties +of calculation and resolve snapped to within him. He thought with +incredible swiftness: 'I must know nothing of this. I must go!' And, +almost before he knew that he had moved, he was out again in the street. + +He could never have told of what he thought while he was walking home. +He did not really come to himself till he was in his study. There, with a +trembling hand, he poured himself out whisky and drank it off. If he had +not chanced to go there, the charwoman would have found them when she +came in the morning, and given that envelope to the police! He took it +out. He had a right--a right to know what was in it! He broke it open. + +"I, Laurence Darrant, about to die by my own hand, declare that this is a +solemn and true confession. I committed what is known as the Glove Lane +Murder on the night of November the 27th last in the following way"--on +and on to the last words--"We didn't want to die; but we could not bear +separation, and I couldn't face letting an innocent man be hung for me. +I do not see any other way. I beg that there may be no postmortem on our +bodies. The stuff we have taken is some of that which will be found on +the dressing-table. Please bury us together. + +"LAURENCE DARRANT. "January the 28th, about ten o'clock p.m." + +Full five minutes Keith stood with those sheets of paper in his hand, +while the clock ticked, the wind moaned a little in the trees outside, +the flames licked the logs with the quiet click and ruffle of their +intense far-away life down there on the hearth. Then he roused himself, +and sat down to read the whole again. + +There it was, just as Larry had told it to him-nothing left out, very +clear; even to the addresses of people who could identify the girl as +having once been Walenn's wife or mistress. It would convince. Yes! It +would convince. + +The sheets dropped from his hand. Very slowly he was grasping the +appalling fact that on the floor beside his chair lay the life or death +of yet another man; that by taking this confession he had taken into his +own hands the fate of the vagabond lying under sentence of death; that he +could not give him back his life without incurring the smirch of this +disgrace, without even endangering himself. If he let this confession +reach the authorities, he could never escape the gravest suspicion that +he had known of the whole affair during these two months. He would have +to attend the inquest, be recognised by that policeman as having come to +the archway to see where the body had lain, as having visited the girl +the very evening after the murder. Who would believe in the mere +coincidence of such visits on the part of the murderer's brother. But +apart from that suspicion, the fearful scandal which so sensational an +affair must make would mar his career, his life, his young daughter's +life! Larry's suicide with this girl would make sensation enough as it +was; but nothing to that other. Such a death had its romance; involved +him in no way save as a mourner, could perhaps even be hushed up! The +other--nothing could hush that up, nothing prevent its ringing to the +house-tops. He got up from his chair, and for many minutes roamed the +room unable to get his mind to bear on the issue. Images kept starting up +before him. The face of the man who handed him wig and gown each +morning, puffy and curious, with a leer on it he had never noticed +before; his young daughter's lifted eyebrows, mouth drooping, eyes +troubled; the tiny gilt crucifix glinting in the hollow of the dead +girl's arm; the sightless look in Larry's unclosed eyes; even his own +thumb and finger pulling the lids down. And then he saw a street and +endless people passing, turning to stare at him. And, stopping in his +tramp, he said aloud: "Let them go to hell! Seven days' wonder!" Was he +not trustee to that confession! Trustee! After all he had done nothing +to be ashamed of, even if he had kept knowledge dark. A brother! Who +could blame him? And he picked up those sheets of paper. But, like a +great murky hand, the scandal spread itself about him; its coarse +malignant voice seemed shouting: "Paiper!... Paiper!... Glove Lane +Murder!... Suicide and confession of brother of well-known K.C.... +Well-known K.C.'s brother.... Murder and suicide.... Paiper!" Was he to +let loose that flood of foulness? Was he, who had done nothing, to smirch +his own little daughter's life; to smirch his dead brother, their dead +mother--himself, his own valuable, important future? And all for a sewer +rat! Let him hang, let the fellow hang if he must! And that was not +certain. Appeal! Petition! He might--he should be saved! To have got +thus far, and then, by his own action, topple himself down! + +With a sudden darting movement he thrust the confession in among the +burning coals. And a smile licked at the folds in his dark face, like +those flames licking the sheets of paper, till they writhed and +blackened. With the toe of his boot he dispersed their scorched and +crumbling wafer. Stamp them in! Stamp in that man's life! Burnt! No +more doubts, no more of this gnawing fear! Burnt? A man--an +innocent-sewer rat! Recoiling from the fire he grasped his forehead. It +was burning hot and seemed to be going round. + +Well, it was done! Only fools without will or purpose regretted. And +suddenly he laughed. So Larry had died for nothing! He had no will, no +purpose, and was dead! He and that girl might now have been living, +loving each other in the warm night, away at the other end of the world, +instead of lying dead in the cold night here! Fools and weaklings +regretted, suffered from conscience and remorse. A man trod firmly, held +to his purpose, no matter what! + +He went to the window and drew back the curtain. What was that? A +gibbet in the air, a body hanging? Ah! Only the trees--the dark +trees--the winter skeleton trees! Recoiling, he returned to his armchair +and sat down before the fire. It had been shining like that, the lamp +turned low, his chair drawn up, when Larry came in that afternoon two +months ago. Bah! He had never come at all! It was a nightmare. He had +been asleep. How his head burned! And leaping up, he looked at the +calendar on his bureau. "January the 28th!" No dream! His face +hardened and darkened. On! Not like Larry! On! +1914. + + + + +A STOIC + +I + +1 + + "Aequam memento rebus in arduis + Servare mentem:"--Horace. + +In the City of Liverpool, on a January day of 1905, the Board-room of +"The Island Navigation Company" rested, as it were, after the labours of +the afternoon. The long table was still littered with the ink, pens, +blotting-paper, and abandoned documents of six persons--a deserted +battlefield of the brain. And, lonely, in his chairman's seat at the top +end old Sylvanus Heythorp sat, with closed eyes, still and heavy as an +image. One puffy, feeble hand, whose fingers quivered, rested on the arm +of his chair; the thick white hair on his massive head glistened in the +light from a green-shaded lamp. He was not asleep, for every now and +then his sanguine cheeks filled, and a sound, half sigh, half grunt, +escaped his thick lips between a white moustache and the tiny tuft of +white hairs above his cleft chin. Sunk in the chair, that square thick +trunk of a body in short black-braided coat seemed divested of all neck. + +Young Gilbert Farney, secretary of "The Island Navigation Company," +entering his hushed Board-room, stepped briskly to the table, gathered +some papers, and stood looking at his chairman. Not more than +thirty-five, with the bright hues of the optimist in his hair, beard, +cheeks, and eyes, he had a nose and lips which curled ironically. For, +in his view, he was the Company; and its Board did but exist to chequer +his importance. Five days in the week for seven hours a day he wrote, +and thought, and wove the threads of its business, and this lot came down +once a week for two or three hours, and taught their grandmother to suck +eggs. But watching that red-cheeked, white-haired, somnolent figure, his +smile was not so contemptuous as might have been expected. For after +all, the chairman was a wonderful old boy. A man of go and insight could +not but respect him. Eighty! Half paralysed, over head and ears in +debt, having gone the pace all his life--or so they said!--till at last +that mine in Ecuador had done for him--before the secretary's day, of +course, but he had heard of it. The old chap had bought it up on +spec'--"de l'audace, toujours de l'audace," as he was so fond of +saying--paid for it half in cash and half in promises, and then--the +thing had turned out empty, and left him with L20,000 worth of the old +shares unredeemed. The old boy had weathered it out without a bankruptcy +so far. Indomitable old buffer; and never fussy like the rest of them! +Young Farney, though a secretary, was capable of attachment; and his eyes +expressed a pitying affection. The Board meeting had been long and +"snadgy"--a final settling of that Pillin business. Rum go the chairman +forcing it on them like this! And with quiet satisfaction the secretary +thought 'And he never would have got it through if I hadn't made up my +mind that it really is good business!' For to expand the company was to +expand himself. Still, to buy four ships with the freight market so +depressed was a bit startling, and there would be opposition at the +general meeting. Never mind! He and the chairman could put it +through--put it through. And suddenly he saw the old man looking at him. + +Only from those eyes could one appreciate the strength of life yet +flowing underground in that well-nigh helpless carcase--deep-coloured +little blue wells, tiny, jovial, round windows. + +A sigh travelled up through layers of flesh, and he said almost +inaudibly: + +"Have they come, Mr. Farney?" + +"Yes, sir. I've put them in the transfer office; said you'd be with them +in a minute; but I wasn't going to wake you." + +"Haven't been asleep. Help me up." + +Grasping the edge of the table with his trembling hands, the old man +pulled, and, with Farney heaving him behind, attained his feet. He stood +about five feet ten, and weighed fully fourteen stone; not corpulent, but +very thick all through; his round and massive head alone would have +outweighed a baby. With eyes shut, he seemed to be trying to get the +better of his own weight, then he moved with the slowness of a barnacle +towards the door. The secretary, watching him, thought: 'Marvellous old +chap! How he gets about by himself is a miracle! And he can't retire, +they say-lives on his fees!' + +But the chairman was through the green baize door. At his tortoise gait +he traversed the inner office, where the youthful clerks suspended their +figuring--to grin behind his back--and entered the transfer office, where +eight gentlemen were sitting. Seven rose, and one did not. Old Heythorp +raised a saluting hand to the level of his chest and moving to an +arm-chair, lowered himself into it. + +"Well, gentlemen?" + +One of the eight gentlemen got up again. + +"Mr. Heythorp, we've appointed Mr. Brownbee to voice our views. Mr. +Brownbee!" And down he sat. + +Mr. Brownbee rose a stoutish man some seventy years of age, with little +grey side whiskers, and one of those utterly steady faces only to be seen +in England, faces which convey the sense of business from father to son +for generations; faces which make wars, and passion, and free thought +seem equally incredible; faces which inspire confidence, and awaken in +one a desire to get up and leave the room. Mr. Brownbee rose, and said in +a suave voice: + +"Mr. Heythorp, we here represent about L14,000. When we had the pleasure +of meeting you last July, you will recollect that you held out a prospect +of some more satisfactory arrangement by Christmas. We are now in +January, and I am bound to say we none of us get younger." + +From the depths of old Heythorp a preliminary rumble came travelling, +reached the surface, and materialised-- + +"Don't know about you--feel a boy, myself." + +The eight gentlemen looked at him. Was he going to try and put them off +again? Mr. Brownbee said with unruffled calm: + +"I'm sure we're very glad to hear it. But to come to the point. We have +felt, Mr. Heythorp, and I'm sure you won't think it unreasonable, +that--er--bankruptcy would be the most satisfactory solution. We have +waited a long time, and we want to know definitely where we stand; for, +to be quite frank, we don't see any prospect of improvement; indeed, we +fear the opposite." + +"You think I'm going to join the majority." + +This plumping out of what was at the back of their minds produced in Mr. +Brownbee and his colleagues a sort of chemical disturbance. They +coughed, moved their feet, and turned away their eyes, till the one who +had not risen, a solicitor named Ventnor, said bluffly: + +"Well, put it that way if you like." + +Old Heythorp's little deep eyes twinkled. + +"My grandfather lived to be a hundred; my father ninety-six--both of them +rips. I'm only eighty, gentlemen; blameless life compared with theirs." + +"Indeed," Mr. Brownbee said, "we hope you have many years of this life +before you." + +"More of this than of another." And a silence fell, till old Heythorp +added: "You're getting a thousand a year out of my fees. Mistake to kill +the goose that lays the golden eggs. I'll make it twelve hundred. If +you force me to resign my directorships by bankruptcy, you won't get a +rap, you know." + +Mr. Brownbee cleared his throat: + +"We think, Mr. Heythorp, you should make it at least fifteen hundred. In +that case we might perhaps consider--" + +Old Heythorp shook his head. + +"We can hardly accept your assertion that we should get nothing in the +event of bankruptcy. We fancy you greatly underrate the possibilities. +Fifteen hundred a year is the least you can do for us." + +"See you d---d first." + +Another silence followed, then Ventnor, the solicitor, said irascibly: + +"We know where we are, then." + +Brownbee added almost nervously: + +"Are we to understand that twelve hundred a year is your--your last +word?" + +Old Heythorp nodded. "Come again this day month, and I'll see what I can +do for you;" and he shut his eyes. + +Round Mr. Brownbee six of the gentlemen gathered, speaking in low voices; +Mr. Ventnor nursed a leg and glowered at old Heythorp, who sat with his +eyes closed. Mr. Brownbee went over and conferred with Mr. Ventnor, then +clearing his throat, he said: + +"Well, sir, we have considered your proposal; we agree to accept it for +the moment. We will come again, as you suggest, in a month's time. + +"We hope that you will by then have seen your way to something more +substantial, with a view to avoiding what we should all regret, but which +I fear will otherwise become inevitable." + +Old Heythorp nodded. The eight gentlemen took their hats, and went out +one by one, Mr. Brownbee courteously bringing up the rear. + +The old man, who could not get up without assistance, stayed musing in +his chair. He had diddled 'em for the moment into giving him another +month, and when that month was up-he would diddle 'em again! A month +ought to make the Pillin business safe, with all that hung on it. That +poor funkey chap Joe Pillin! A gurgling chuckle escaped his red lips. +What a shadow the fellow had looked, trotting in that evening just a +month ago, behind his valet's announcement: "Mr. Pillin, sir." + +What a parchmenty, precise, thread-paper of a chap, with his bird's claw +of a hand, and his muffled-up throat, and his quavery: + +"How do you do, Sylvanus? I'm afraid you're not--" + +"First rate. Sit down. Have some port." + +"Port! I never drink it. Poison to me! Poison!" + +"Do you good!" + +"Oh! I know, that's what you always say." + +You've a monstrous constitution, Sylvanus. If I drank port and smoked +cigars and sat up till one o'clock, I should be in my grave to-morrow. +I'm not the man I was. The fact is, I've come to see if you can help me. +I'm getting old; I'm growing nervous...." + +"You always were as chickeny as an old hen, Joe." + +"Well, my nature's not like yours. To come to the point, I want to sell +my ships and retire. I need rest. Freights are very depressed. I've got +my family to think of." + +"Crack on, and go broke; buck you up like anything!" + +"I'm quite serious, Sylvanus." + +"Never knew you anything else, Joe." + +A quavering cough, and out it had come: + +"Now--in a word--won't your 'Island Navigation Company' buy my ships?" + +A pause, a twinkle, a puff of smoke. "Make it worth my while!" He had +said it in jest; and then, in a flash, the idea had come to him. Rosamund +and her youngsters! What a chance to put something between them and +destitution when he had joined the majority! And so he said: "We don't +want your silly ships." + +That claw of a hand waved in deprecation. "They're very good +ships--doing quite well. It's only my wretched health. If I were a +strong man I shouldn't dream...." + +"What d'you want for 'em?" Good Lord! how he jumped if you asked him a +plain question. The chap was as nervous as a guinea-fowl! + +"Here are the figures--for the last four years. I think you'll agree +that I couldn't ask less than seventy thousand." + +Through the smoke of his cigar old Heythorp had digested those figures +slowly, Joe Pillin feeling his teeth and sucking lozenges the while; then +he said: + +"Sixty thousand! And out of that you pay me ten per cent., if I get it +through for you. Take it or leave it." + +"My dear Sylvanus, that's almost-cynical." + +"Too good a price--you'll never get it without me." + +"But a--but a commission! You could never disclose it!" + +"Arrange that all right. Think it over. Freights'll go lower yet. Have +some port." + +"No, no! Thank you. No! So you think freights will go lower?" + +"Sure of it." + +"Well, I'll be going. I'm sure I don't know. It's--it's--I must think." + +"Think your hardest." + +"Yes, yes. Good-bye. I can't imagine how you still go on smoking those +things and drinking port. + +"See you in your grave yet, Joe." What a feeble smile the poor fellow +had! Laugh-he couldn't! And, alone again, he had browsed, developing +the idea which had come to him. + +Though, to dwell in the heart of shipping, Sylvanus Heythorp had lived at +Liverpool twenty years, he was from the Eastern Counties, of a family so +old that it professed to despise the Conquest. Each of its generations +occupied nearly twice as long as those of less tenacious men. +Traditionally of Danish origin, its men folk had as a rule bright +reddish-brown hair, red cheeks, large round heads, excellent teeth and +poor morals. They had done their best for the population of any county +in which they had settled; their offshoots swarmed. Born in the early +twenties of the nineteenth century, Sylvanus Heythorp, after an education +broken by escapades both at school and college, had fetched up in that +simple London of the late forties, where claret, opera, and eight per +cent. for your money ruled a cheery roost. Made partner in his shipping +firm well before he was thirty, he had sailed with a wet sheet and a +flowing tide; dancers, claret, Cliquot, and piquet; a cab with a tiger; +some travel--all that delicious early-Victorian consciousness of nothing +save a golden time. It was all so full and mellow that he was forty +before he had his only love affair of any depth--with the daughter of one +of his own clerks, a liaison so awkward as to necessitate a sedulous +concealment. The death of that girl, after three years, leaving him a, +natural son, had been the chief, perhaps the only real, sorrow of his +life. Five years later he married. What for? God only knew! as he was +in the habit of remarking. His wife had been a hard, worldly, +well-connected woman, who presented him with two unnatural children, a +girl and a boy, and grew harder, more worldly, less handsome, in the +process. The migration to Liverpool, which took place when he was sixty +and she forty-two, broke what she still had of heart, but she lingered on +twelve years, finding solace in bridge, and being haughty towards +Liverpool. Old Heythorp saw her to her rest without regret. He had felt +no love for her whatever, and practically none for her two children--they +were in his view colourless, pragmatical, very unexpected characters. +His son Ernest--in the Admiralty--he thought a poor, careful stick. His +daughter Adela, an excellent manager, delighting in spiritual +conversation and the society of tame men, rarely failed to show him that +she considered him a hopeless heathen. They saw as little as need be of +each other. She was provided for under that settlement he had made on +her mother fifteen years ago, well before the not altogether unexpected +crisis in his affairs. Very different was the feeling he had bestowed on +that son of his "under the rose." The boy, who had always gone by his +mother's name of Larne, had on her death been sent to some relations of +hers in Ireland, and there brought up. He had been called to the Dublin +bar, and married, young, a girl half Cornish and half Irish; presently, +having cost old Heythorp in all a pretty penny, he had died impecunious, +leaving his fair Rosamund at thirty with a girl of eight and a boy of +five. She had not spent six months of widowhood before coming over from +Dublin to claim the old man's guardianship. A remarkably pretty woman, +like a full-blown rose, with greenish hazel eyes, she had turned up one +morning at the offices of "The Island Navigation Company," accompanied by +her two children--for he had never divulged to them his private address. +And since then they had always been more or less on his hands, occupying +a small house in a suburb of Liverpool. He visited them there, but never +asked them to the house in Sefton Park, which was in fact his daughter's; +so that his proper family and friends were unaware of their existence. + +Rosamund Larne was one of those precarious ladies who make uncertain +incomes by writing full-bodied storyettes. In the most dismal +circumstances she enjoyed a buoyancy bordering on the indecent; which +always amused old Heythorp's cynicism. But of his grandchildren Phyllis +and Jock (wild as colts) he had become fond. And this chance of getting +six thousand pounds settled on them at a stroke had seemed to him nothing +but heaven-sent. As things were, if he "went off"--and, of course, he +might at any moment, there wouldn't be a penny for them; for he would +"cut up" a good fifteen thousand to the bad. He was now giving them some +three hundred a year out of his fees; and dead directors unfortunately +earned no fees! Six thousand pounds at four and a half per cent., +settled so that their mother couldn't "blue it," would give them a +certain two hundred and fifty pounds a year-better than beggary. And the +more he thought the better he liked it, if only that shaky chap, Joe +Pillin, didn't shy off when he'd bitten his nails short over it! + +Four evenings later, the "shaky chap" had again appeared at his house in +Sefton Park. + +"I've thought it over, Sylvanus. I don't like it. + +"No; but you'll do it." + +"It's a sacrifice. Fifty-four thousand for four ships--it means a +considerable reduction in my income." + +"It means security, my boy." + +"Well, there is that; but you know, I really can't be party to a secret +commission. If it came out, think of my name and goodness knows what." + +"It won't come out." + +"Yes, yes, so you say, but--" + +"All you've got to do's to execute a settlement on some third parties +that I'll name. I'm not going to take a penny of it myself. Get your +own lawyer to draw it up and make him trustee. You can sign it when the +purchase has gone through. I'll trust you, Joe. What stock have you got +that gives four and a half per cent.?" + +"Midland" + +"That'll do. You needn't sell." + +"Yes, but who are these people?" + +"Woman and her children I want to do a good turn to." What a face the +fellow had made! "Afraid of being connected with a woman, Joe?" + +"Yes, you may laugh--I am afraid of being connected with someone else's +woman. I don't like it--I don't like it at all. I've not led your life, +Sylvanus." + +"Lucky for you; you'd have been dead long ago. Tell your lawyer it's an +old flame of yours--you old dog!" + +"Yes, there it is at once, you see. I might be subject to blackmail." + +"Tell him to keep it dark, and just pay over the income, quarterly." + +"I don't like it, Sylvanus--I don't like it." + +"Then leave it, and be hanged to you. Have a cigar?" + +"You know I never smoke. Is there no other way?" + +"Yes. Sell stock in London, bank the proceeds there, and bring me six +thousand pounds in notes. I'll hold 'em till after the general meeting. +If the thing doesn't go through, I'll hand 'em back to you." + +"No; I like that even less." + +"Rather I trusted you, eh!" + +"No, not at all, Sylvanus, not at all. But it's all playing round the +law." + +"There's no law to prevent you doing what you like with your money. What +I do's nothing to you. And mind you, I'm taking nothing from it--not a +mag. You assist the widowed and the fatherless--just your line, Joe!" + +"What a fellow you are, Sylvanus; you don't seem capable of taking +anything seriously." + +"Care killed the cat!" + +Left alone after this second interview he had thought: 'The beggar'll +jump.' + +And the beggar had. That settlement was drawn and only awaited +signature. The Board to-day had decided on the purchase; and all that +remained was to get it ratified at the general meeting. Let him but get +that over, and this provision for his grandchildren made, and he would +snap his fingers at Brownbee and his crew-the canting humbugs! "Hope you +have many years of this life before you!" As if they cared for anything +but his money--their money rather! And becoming conscious of the length +of his reverie, he grasped the arms of his chair, heaved at his own bulk, +in an effort to rise, growing redder and redder in face and neck. It was +one of the hundred things his doctor had told him not to do for fear of +apoplexy, the humbug! Why didn't Farney or one of those young fellows +come and help him up? To call out was undignified. But was he to sit +there all night? Three times he failed, and after each failure sat +motionless again, crimson and exhausted; the fourth time he succeeded, +and slowly made for the office. Passing through, he stopped and said in +his extinct voice: + +"You young gentlemen had forgotten me." + +"Mr. Farney said you didn't wish to be disturbed, sir." + +"Very good of him. Give me my hat and coat." + +"Yes, sir." + +"Thank you. What time is it?" + +"Six o'clock, sir." + +"Tell Mr. Farney to come and see me tomorrow at noon, about my speech for +the general meeting." + +"Yes, Sir." + +"Good-night to you." + +"Good-night, Sir." + +At his tortoise gait he passed between the office stools to the door, +opened it feebly, and slowly vanished. + +Shutting the door behind him, a clerk said: + +"Poor old chairman! He's on his last!" + +Another answered: + +"Gosh! He's a tough old hulk. He'll go down fightin'." + + + + +2 + +Issuing from the offices of "The Island Navigation Company," Sylvanus +Heythorp moved towards the corner whence he always took tram to Sefton +Park. The crowded street had all that prosperous air of catching or +missing something which characterises the town where London and New York +and Dublin meet. Old Heythorp had to cross to the far side, and he +sallied forth without regard to traffic. That snail-like passage had in +it a touch of the sublime; the old man seemed saying: "Knock me down and +be d---d to you--I'm not going to hurry." His life was saved perhaps ten +times a day by the British character at large, compounded of phlegm and a +liking to take something under its protection. The tram conductors on +that line were especially used to him, never failing to catch him under +the arms and heave him like a sack of coals, while with trembling hands +he pulled hard at the rail and strap. + +"All right, sir?" + +"Thank you." + +He moved into the body of the tram, where somebody would always get up +from kindness and the fear that he might sit down on them; and there he +stayed motionless, his little eyes tight closed. With his red face, tuft +of white hairs above his square cleft block of shaven chin, and his big +high-crowned bowler hat, which yet seemed too petty for his head with its +thick hair--he looked like some kind of an idol dug up and decked out in +gear a size too small. + +One of those voices of young men from public schools and exchanges where +things are bought and sold, said: + +"How de do, Mr. Heythorp?" + +Old Heythorp opened his eyes. That sleek cub, Joe Pillin's son! What a +young pup-with his round eyes, and his round cheeks, and his little +moustache, his fur coat, his spats, his diamond pin! + +"How's your father?" he said. + +"Thanks, rather below par, worryin' about his ships. Suppose you haven't +any news for him, sir?" + +Old Heythorp nodded. The young man was one of his pet abominations, +embodying all the complacent, little-headed mediocrity of this new +generation; natty fellows all turned out of the same mould, sippers and +tasters, chaps without drive or capacity, without even vices; and he did +not intend to gratify the cub's curiosity. + +"Come to my house," he said; "I'll give you a note for him." + +"Tha-anks; I'd like to cheer the old man up." + +The old man! Cheeky brat! And closing his eyes he relapsed into +immobility. The tram wound and ground its upward way, and he mused. When +he was that cub's age--twenty-eight or whatever it might be--he had done +most things; been up Vesuvius, driven four-in-hand, lost his last penny +on the Derby and won it back on the Oaks, known all the dancers and +operatic stars of the day, fought a duel with a Yankee at Dieppe and +winged him for saying through his confounded nose that Old England was +played out; been a controlling voice already in his shipping firm; drunk +five other of the best men in London under the table; broken his neck +steeple-chasing; shot a burglar in the legs; been nearly drowned, for a +bet; killed snipe in Chelsea; been to Court for his sins; stared a ghost +out of countenance; and travelled with a lady of Spain. If this young +pup had done the last, it would be all he had; and yet, no doubt, he +would call himself a "spark." + +The conductor touched his arm. + +"'Ere you are, sir." + +"Thank you." + +He lowered himself to the ground, and moved in the bluish darkness +towards the gate of his daughter's house. Bob Pillin walked beside him, +thinking: 'Poor old josser, he is gettin' a back number!' And he said: +"I should have thought you ought to drive, sir. My old guv'nor would +knock up at once if he went about at night like this." + +The answer rumbled out into the misty air: + +"Your father's got no chest; never had." + +Bob Pillin gave vent to one of those fat cackles which come so readily +from a certain type of man; and old Heythorp thought: + +'Laughing at his father! Parrot!' + +They had reached the porch. + +A woman with dark hair and a thin, straight face and figure was arranging +some flowers in the hall. She turned and said: + +"You really ought not to be so late, Father! It's wicked at this time of +year. Who is it--oh! Mr. Pillin, how do you do? Have you had tea? +Won't you come to the drawing-room; or do you want to see my father?" + +"Tha-anks! I believe your father--" And he thought: 'By Jove! the old +chap is a caution!' For old Heythorp was crossing the hall without +having paid the faintest attention to his daughter. Murmuring again: + +"Tha-anks awfully; he wants to give me something," he followed. Miss +Heythorp was not his style at all; he had a kind of dread of that thin +woman who looked as if she could never be unbuttoned. They said she was +a great churchgoer and all that sort of thing. + +In his sanctum old Heythorp had moved to his writing-table, and was +evidently anxious to sit down. + +"Shall I give you a hand, sir?" + +Receiving a shake of the head, Bob Pillin stood by the fire and watched. +The old "sport" liked to paddle his own canoe. Fancy having to lower +yourself into a chair like that! When an old Johnny got to such a state +it was really a mercy when he snuffed out, and made way for younger men. +How his Companies could go on putting up with such a fossil for chairman +was a marvel! The fossil rumbled and said in that almost inaudible +voice: + +"I suppose you're beginning to look forward to your father's shoes?" + +Bob Pillin's mouth opened. The voice went on: + +"Dibs and no responsibility. Tell him from me to drink port--add five +years to his life." + +To this unwarranted attack Bob Pillin made no answer save a laugh; he +perceived that a manservant had entered the room. + +"A Mrs. Larne, sir. Will you see her?" + +At this announcement the old man seemed to try and start; then he nodded, +and held out the note he had written. Bob Pillin received it together +with the impression of a murmur which sounded like: "Scratch a poll, +Poll!" and passing the fine figure of a woman in a fur coat, who seemed +to warm the air as she went by, he was in the hall again before he +perceived that he had left his hat. + +A young and pretty girl was standing on the bearskin before the fire, +looking at him with round-eyed innocence. He thought: 'This is better; I +mustn't disturb them for my hat'; and approaching the fire, said: + +"Jolly cold, isn't it?" + +The girl smiled: "Yes-jolly." + +He noticed that she had a large bunch of violets at her breast, a lot of +fair hair, a short straight nose, and round blue-grey eyes very frank and +open. "Er" he said, "I've left my hat in there." + +"What larks!" And at her little clear laugh something moved within Bob +Pillin. + +"You know this house well?" + +She shook her head. "But it's rather scrummy, isn't it?" + +Bob Pillin, who had never yet thought so answered: + +"Quite O.K." + +The girl threw up her head to laugh again. "O.K.? What's that?" + +Bob Pillin saw her white round throat, and thought: 'She is a ripper!' +And he said with a certain desperation: + +"My name's Pillin. Yours is Larne, isn't it? Are you a relation here?" + +"He's our Guardy. Isn't he a chook?" + +That rumbling whisper like "Scratch a Poll, Poll!" recurring to Bob +Pillin, he said with reservation: + +"You know him better than I do." "Oh! Aren't you his grandson, or +something?" + +Bob Pillin did not cross himself. + +"Lord! No! My dad's an old friend of his; that's all." + +"Is your dad like him?" + +"Not much." + +"What a pity! It would have been lovely if they'd been Tweedles." + +Bob Pillin thought: 'This bit is something new. I wonder what her +Christian name is.' And he said: + +"What did your godfather and godmothers in your baptism---?" + +The girl laughed; she seemed to laugh at everything. + +"Phyllis." + +Could he say: "Is my only joy"? Better keep it! But-for what? He +wouldn't see her again if he didn't look out! And he said: + +"I live at the last house in the park-the red one. D'you know it? Where +do you?" + +"Oh! a long way--23, Millicent Villas. It's a poky little house. I hate +it. We have awful larks, though." + +"Who are we?" + +"Mother, and myself, and Jock--he's an awful boy. You can't conceive +what an awful boy he is. He's got nearly red hair; I think he'll be just +like Guardy when he gets old. He's awful!" + +Bob Pillin murmured: + +"I should like to see him." + +"Would you? I'll ask mother if you can. You won't want to again; he +goes off all the time like a squib." She threw back her head, and again +Bob Pillin felt a little giddy. He collected himself, and drawled: + +"Are you going in to see your Guardy?" + +"No. Mother's got something special to say. We've never been here +before, you see. Isn't he fun, though?" + +"Fun!" + +"I think he's the greatest lark; but he's awfully nice to me. Jock calls +him the last of the Stoic'uns." + +A voice called from old Heythorp's den: + +"Phyllis!" It had a particular ring, that voice, as if coming from +beautifully formed red lips, of which the lower one must curve the least +bit over; it had, too, a caressing vitality, and a kind of warm falsity. + +The girl threw a laughing look back over her shoulder, and vanished +through the door into the room. + +Bob Pillin remained with his back to the fire and his puppy round eyes +fixed on the air that her figure had last occupied. He was experiencing +a sensation never felt before. Those travels with a lady of Spain, +charitably conceded him by old Heythorp, had so far satisfied the +emotional side of this young man; they had stopped short at Brighton and +Scarborough, and been preserved from even the slightest intrusion of +love. A calculated and hygienic career had caused no anxiety either to +himself or his father; and this sudden swoop of something more than +admiration gave him an uncomfortable choky feeling just above his high +round collar, and in the temples a sort of buzzing--those first symptoms +of chivalry. A man of the world does not, however, succumb without a +struggle; and if his hat had not been out of reach, who knows whether he +would not have left the house hurriedly, saying to himself: "No, no, my +boy; Millicent Villas is hardly your form, when your intentions are +honourable"? For somehow that round and laughing face, bob of glistening +hair, those wide-opened grey eyes refused to awaken the beginnings of +other intentions--such is the effect of youth and innocence on even the +steadiest young men. With a kind of moral stammer, he was thinking: 'Can +I--dare I offer to see them to their tram? Couldn't I even nip out and +get the car round and send them home in it? No, I might miss +them--better stick it out here! What a jolly laugh! What a tipping +face--strawberries and cream, hay, and all that! Millicent Villas!' And +he wrote it on his cuff. + +The door was opening; he heard that warm vibrating voice: "Come along, +Phyllis!"--the girl's laugh so high and fresh: "Right-o! Coming!" And +with, perhaps, the first real tremor he had ever known, he crossed to the +front door. All the more chivalrous to escort them to the tram without a +hat! And suddenly he heard: "I've got your hat, young man!" And her +mother's voice, warm, and simulating shock: "Phyllis, you awful gairl! +Did you ever see such an awful gairl; Mr.---" + +"Pillin, Mother." + +And then--he did not quite know how--insulated from the January air by +laughter and the scent of fur and violets, he was between them walking to +their tram. It was like an experience out of the "Arabian Nights," or +something of that sort, an intoxication which made one say one was going +their way, though one would have to come all the way back in the same +beastly tram. Nothing so warming had ever happened to him as sitting +between them on that drive, so that he forgot the note in his pocket, and +his desire to relieve the anxiety of the "old man," his father. At the +tram's terminus they all got out. There issued a purr of invitation to +come and see them some time; a clear: "Jock'll love to see you!" A low +laugh: "You awful gairl!" And a flash of cunning zigzagged across his +brain. Taking off his hat, he said: + +"Thanks awfully; rather!" and put his foot back on the step of the tram. +Thus did he delicately expose the depths of his chivalry! + +"Oh! you said you were going our way! What one-ers you do tell! Oh!" +The words were as music; the sight of those eyes growing rounder, the +most perfect he had ever seen; and Mrs. Larne's low laugh, so warm yet so +preoccupied, and the tips of the girl's fingers waving back above her +head. He heaved a sigh, and knew no more till he was seated at his club +before a bottle of champagne. Home! Not he! He wished to drink and +dream. "The old man" would get his news all right to-morrow! + + + + +3 + +The words: "A Mrs. Larne to see you, sir," had been of a nature to +astonish weaker nerves. What had brought her here? She knew she mustn't +come! Old Heythorp had watched her entrance with cynical amusement. The +way she whiffed herself at that young pup in passing, the way her eyes +slid round! He had a very just appreciation of his son's widow; and a +smile settled deep between his chin tuft and his moustache. She lifted +his hand, kissed it, pressed it to her splendid bust, and said: + +"So here I am at last, you see. Aren't you surprised?" + +Old Heythorp, shook his head. + +"I really had to come and see you, Guardy; we haven't had a sight of you +for such an age. And in this awful weather! How are you, dear old +Guardy?" + +"Never better." And, watching her green-grey eyes, he added: + +"Haven't a penny for you!" + +Her face did not fall; she gave her feather-laugh. + +"How dreadful of you to think I came for that! But I am in an awful fix, +Guardy." + +"Never knew you not to be." + +"Just let me tell you, dear; it'll be some relief. I'm having the most +terrible time." + +She sank into a low chair, disengaging an overpowering scent of violets, +while melancholy struggled to subdue her face and body. + +"The most awful fix. I expect to be sold up any moment. We may be on +the streets to-morrow. I daren't tell the children; they're so happy, +poor darlings. I shall be obliged to take Jock away from school. And +Phyllis will have to stop her piano and dancing; it's an absolute crisis. +And all due to those Midland Syndicate people. I've been counting on at +least two hundred for my new story, and the wretches have refused it." + +With a tiny handkerchief she removed one tear from the corner of one eye. +"It is hard, Guardy; I worked my brain silly over that story." + +From old Heythorp came a mutter which sounded suspiciously like: + +"Rats!" + +Heaving a sigh, which conveyed nothing but the generosity of her +breathing apparatus, Mrs. Larne went on: + +"You couldn't, I suppose, let me have just one hundred?" + +"Not a bob." + +She sighed again, her eyes slid round the room; then in her warm voice +she murmured: + +"Guardy, you were my dear Philip's father, weren't you? I've never said +anything; but of course you were. He was so like you, and so is Jock." + +Nothing moved in old Heythorp's face. No pagan image consulted with +flowers and song and sacrifice could have returned less answer. Her dear +Philip! She had led him the devil of a life, or he was a Dutchman! And +what the deuce made her suddenly trot out the skeleton like this? But +Mrs. Larne's eyes were still wandering. + +"What a lovely house! You know, I think you ought to help me, Guardy. +Just imagine if your grandchildren were thrown out into the street!" + +The old man grinned. He was not going to deny his relationship--it was +her look-out, not his. But neither was he going to let her rush him. + +"And they will be; you couldn't look on and see it. Do come to my rescue +this once. You really might do something for them." + +With a rumbling sigh he answered: + +"Wait. Can't give you a penny now. Poor as a church mouse." + +"Oh! Guardy + +"Fact." + +Mrs. Larne heaved one of her most buoyant sighs. She certainly did not +believe him. + +"Well!" she said; "you'll be sorry when we come round one night and sing +for pennies under your window. Wouldn't you like to see Phyllis? I left +her in the hall. She's growing such a sweet gairl. Guardy just fifty!" + +"Not a rap." + +Mrs. Larne threw up her hands. "Well! You'll repent it. I'm at my last +gasp." She sighed profoundly, and the perfume of violets escaped in a +cloud; Then, getting up, she went to the door and called: "Phyllis!" + +When the girl entered old Heythorp felt the nearest approach to a flutter +of the heart for many years. She had put her hair up! She was like a +spring day in January; such a relief from that scented humbug, her +mother. Pleasant the touch of her lips on his forehead, the sound of her +clear voice, the sight of her slim movements, the feeling that she did +him credit--clean-run stock, she and that young scamp Jock--better than +the holy woman, his daughter Adela, would produce if anyone were ever +fool enough to marry her, or that pragmatical fellow, his son Ernest. + +And when they were gone he reflected with added zest on the six thousand +pounds he was getting for them out of Joe Pillin and his ships. He would +have to pitch it strong in his speech at the general meeting. With +freights so low, there was bound to be opposition. No dash nowadays; +nothing but gabby caution! They were a scrim-shanking lot on the +Board--he had had to pull them round one by one--the deuce of a tug +getting this thing through! And yet, the business was sound enough. +Those ships would earn money, properly handled-good money + +His valet, coming in to prepare him for dinner, found him asleep. He had +for the old man as much admiration as may be felt for one who cannot put +his own trousers on. He would say to the housemaid Molly: "He's a game +old blighter--must have been a rare one in his day. Cocks his hat at you, +even now, I see!" To which the girl, Irish and pretty, would reply: +"Well, an' sure I don't mind, if it gives um a pleasure. 'Tis better +anyway than the sad eye I get from herself." + +At dinner, old Heythorp always sat at one end of the rosewood table and +his daughter at the other. It was the eminent moment of the day. With +napkin tucked high into his waistcoat, he gave himself to the meal with +passion. His palate was undimmed, his digestion unimpaired. He could +still eat as much as two men, and drink more than one. And while he +savoured each mouthful he never spoke if he could help it. The holy +woman had nothing to say that he cared to hear, and he nothing to say +that she cared to listen to. She had a horror, too, of what she called +"the pleasures of the table"--those lusts of the flesh! She was always +longing to dock his grub, he knew. Would see her further first! What +other pleasures were there at his age? Let her wait till she was eighty. +But she never would be; too thin and holy! + +This evening, however, with the advent of the partridge she did speak. + +"Who were your visitors, Father?" + +Trust her for nosing anything out! Fixing his little blue eyes on her, +he mumbled with a very full mouth: "Ladies." + +"So I saw; what ladies?" + +He had a longing to say: 'Part of one of my families under the rose.' As +a fact it was the best part of the only one, but the temptation to +multiply exceedingly was almost overpowering. He checked himself, +however, and went on eating partridge, his secret irritation crimsoning +his cheeks; and he watched her eyes, those cold precise and round grey +eyes, noting it, and knew she was thinking: 'He eats too much.' + +She said: "Sorry I'm not considered fit to be told. You ought not to be +drinking hock." + +Old Heythorp took up the long green glass, drained it, and repressing +fumes and emotion went on with his partridge. His daughter pursed her +lips, took a sip of water, and said: + +"I know their name is Larne, but it conveyed nothing to me; perhaps it's +just as well." + +The old man, mastering a spasm, said with a grin: + +"My daughter-in-law and my granddaughter." + +"What! Ernest married--Oh! nonsense!" + +He chuckled, and shook his head. + +"Then do you mean to say, Father, that you were married before you +married my mother?" + +"No." + +The expression on her face was as good as a play! + +She said with a sort of disgust: "Not married! I see. I suppose those +people are hanging round your neck, then; no wonder you're always in +difficulties. Are there any more of them?" + +Again the old man suppressed that spasm, and the veins in his neck and +forehead swelled alarmingly. If he had spoken he would infallibly have +choked. He ceased eating, and putting his hands on the table tried to +raise himself. He could not and subsiding in his chair sat glaring at +the stiff, quiet figure of his daughter. + +"Don't be silly, Father, and make a scene before Meller. Finish your +dinner." + +He did not answer. He was not going to sit there to be dragooned and +insulted! His helplessness had never so weighed on him before. It was +like a revelation. A log--that had to put up with anything! A log! +And, waiting for his valet to return, he cunningly took up his fork. + +In that saintly voice of hers she said: + +"I suppose you don't realise that it's a shock to me. I don't know what +Ernest will think--" + +"Ernest be d---d." + +"I do wish, Father, you wouldn't swear." + +Old Heythorp's rage found vent in a sort of rumble. How the devil had he +gone on all these years in the same house with that woman, dining with +her day after day! But the servant had come back now, and putting down +his fork he said: + +"Help me up!" + +The man paused, thunderstruck, with the souffle balanced. To leave +dinner unfinished--it was a portent! + +"Help me up!" + +"Mr. Heythorp's not very well, Meller; take his other arm." + +The old man shook off her hand. + +"I'm very well. Help me up. Dine in my own room in future." + +Raised to his feet, he walked slowly out; but in his sanctum he did not +sit down, obsessed by this first overwhelming realisation of his +helplessness. He stood swaying a little, holding on to the table, till +the servant, having finished serving dinner, brought in his port. + +"Are you waiting to sit down, sir?" + +He shook his head. Hang it, he could do that for himself, anyway. He +must think of something to fortify his position against that woman. And +he said: + +"Send me Molly!" + +"Yes, sir." The man put down the port and went. + +Old Heythorp filled his glass, drank, and filled again. He took a cigar +from the box and lighted it. The girl came in, a grey-eyed, dark-haired +damsel, and stood with her hands folded, her head a little to one side, +her lips a little parted. The old man said: + +"You're a human being." + +"I would hope so, sirr." + +"I'm going to ask you something as a human being--not a servant--see?" + +"No, sirr; but I will be glad to do anything you like." + +"Then put your nose in here every now and then, to see if I want +anything. Meller goes out sometimes. Don't say anything; Just put your +nose in." + +"Oh! an' I will; 'tis a pleasure 'twill be to do ut." + +He nodded, and when she had gone lowered himself into his chair with a +sense of appeasement. Pretty girl! Comfort to see a pretty face--not a +pale, peeky thing like Adela's. His anger burned up anew. So she +counted on his helplessness, had begun to count on that, had she? She +should see that there was life in the old dog yet! And his sacrifice of +the uneaten souffle, the still less eaten mushrooms, the peppermint sweet +with which he usually concluded dinner, seemed to consecrate that +purpose. They all thought he was a hulk, without a shot left in the +locker! He had seen a couple of them at the Board that afternoon +shrugging at each other, as though saying: 'Look at him!' And young +Farney pitying him. Pity, forsooth! And that coarse-grained solicitor +chap at the creditors' meeting curling his lip as much as to say: 'One +foot in the grave!' He had seen the clerks dowsing the glim of their +grins; and that young pup Bob Pillin screwing up his supercilious mug +over his dog-collar. He knew that scented humbug Rosamund was getting +scared that he'd drop off before she'd squeezed him dry. And his valet +was always looking him up and down queerly. As to that holy woman--! +Not quite so fast! Not quite so fast! And filling his glass for the +fourth time, he slowly sucked down the dark red fluid, with the "old +boots" flavour which his soul loved, and, drawing deep at his cigar, +closed his eyes. + + + + +II + +1 + +The room in the hotel where the general meetings of "The Island +Navigation Company" were held was nearly full when the secretary came +through the door which as yet divided the shareholders from their +directors. Having surveyed their empty chairs, their ink and papers, and +nodded to a shareholder or two, he stood, watch in hand, contemplating +the congregation. A thicker attendance than he had ever seen! Due, no +doubt, to the lower dividend, and this Pillin business. And his tongue +curled. For if he had a natural contempt for his Board, with the +exception of the chairman, he had a still more natural contempt for his +shareholders. Amusing spectacle when you came to think of it, a general +meeting! Unique! Eighty or a hundred men, and five women, assembled +through sheer devotion to their money. Was any other function in the +world so single-hearted. Church was nothing to it--so many motives were +mingled there with devotion to one's soul. A well-educated young +man--reader of Anatole France, and other writers--he enjoyed ironic +speculation. What earthly good did they think they got by coming here? +Half-past two! He put his watch back into his pocket, and passed into the +Board-room. + +There, the fumes of lunch and of a short preliminary meeting made cosy +the February atmosphere. By the fire four directors were conversing +rather restlessly; the fifth was combing his beard; the chairman sat with +eyes closed and red lips moving rhythmically in the sucking of a lozenge, +the slips of his speech ready in his hand. The secretary said in his +cheerful voice: "Time, sir." + +Old Heythorp swallowed, lifted his arms, rose with help, and walked +through to his place at the centre of the table. The five directors +followed. And, standing at the chairman's right, the secretary read the +minutes, forming the words precisely with his curling tongue. Then, +assisting the chairman to his feet, he watched those rows of faces, and +thought: 'Mistake to let them see he can't get up without help. He ought +to have let me read his speech--I wrote it.' + +The chairman began to speak: + +"It is my duty and my pleasure,' ladies and gentlemen, for the nineteenth +consecutive year to present to you the directors' report and the accounts +for the past twelve months. You will all have had special notice of a +measure of policy on which your Board has decided, and to which you will +be asked to-day to give your adherence--to that I shall come at the end +of my remarks...." + +"Excuse me, sir; we can't hear a word down here." + +'Ah!' thought the secretary, 'I was expecting that.' + +The chairman went on, undisturbed. But several shareholders now rose, +and the same speaker said testily: "We might as well go home. If the +chairman's got no voice, can't somebody read for him?" + +The chairman took a sip of water, and resumed. Almost all in the last +six rows were now on their feet, and amid a hubbub of murmurs the +chairman held out to the secretary the slips of his speech, and fell +heavily back into his chair. + +The secretary re-read from the beginning; and as each sentence fell from +his tongue, he thought: 'How good that is!' 'That's very clear!' 'A +neat touch!' 'This is getting them.' It seemed to him a pity they could +not know it was all his composition. When at last he came to the Pillin +sale he paused for a second. + +"I come now to the measure of policy to which I made allusion at the +beginning of my speech. Your Board has decided to expand your enterprise +by purchasing the entire fleet of Pillin & Co., Ltd. By this transaction +we become the owners of the four steamships Smyrna, Damascus, Tyre, and +Sidon, vessels in prime condition with a total freight-carrying capacity +of fifteen thousand tons, at the low inclusive price of sixty thousand +pounds. Gentlemen, de l'audace, toujours de l'audace!"--it was the +chairman's phrase, his bit of the speech, and the secretary did it more +than justice. "Times are bad, but your Board is emphatically of the +opinion that they are touching bottom; and this, in their view, is the +psychological moment for a forward stroke. They confidently recommend +your adoption of their policy and the ratification of this purchase, +which they believe will, in the not far distant future, substantially +increase the profits of the Company." The secretary sat down with +reluctance. The speech should have continued with a number of appealing +sentences which he had carefully prepared, but the chairman had cut them +out with the simple comment: "They ought to be glad of the chance." It +was, in his view, an error. + +The director who had combed his beard now rose--a man of presence, who +might be trusted to say nothing long and suavely. While he was speaking +the secretary was busy noting whence opposition was likely to come. The +majority were sitting owl-like-a good sign; but some dozen were studying +their copies of the report, and three at least were making +notes--Westgate, for, instance, who wanted to get on the Board, and was +sure to make himself unpleasant--the time-honoured method of vinegar; and +Batterson, who also desired to come on, and might be trusted to support +the Board--the time-honoured method of oil; while, if one knew anything +of human nature, the fellow who had complained that he might as well go +home would have something uncomfortable to say. The director finished +his remarks, combed his beard with his fingers, and sat down. + +A momentary pause ensued. Then Messieurs Westgate and Batterson rose +together. Seeing the chairman nod towards the latter, the secretary +thought: 'Mistake! He should have humoured Westgate by giving him +precedence.' But that was the worst of the old man, he had no notion of +the suaviter in modo! Mr. Batterson thus unchained--would like, if he +might be so allowed, to congratulate the Board on having piloted their +ship so smoothly through the troublous waters of the past year. With +their worthy chairman still at the helm, he had no doubt that in spite of +the still low--he would not say falling--barometer, and +the-er-unseasonable climacteric, they might rely on weathering +the--er--he would not say storm. He would confess that the present +dividend of four per cent. was not one which satisfied every aspiration +(Hear, hear!), but speaking for himself, and he hoped for others--and +here Mr. Batterson looked round--he recognised that in all the +circumstances it was as much as they had the right--er--to expect. But +following the bold but to his mind prudent development which the Board +proposed to make, he thought that they might reasonably, if not +sanguinely, anticipate a more golden future. ("No, no!") A shareholder +said, 'No, no!' That might seem to indicate a certain lack of confidence +in the special proposal before the meeting. ("Yes!") From that lack of +confidence he would like at once to dissociate himself. Their chairman, +a man of foresight and acumen, and valour proved on many a field +and--er--sea, would not have committed himself to this policy without +good reason. In his opinion they were in safe hands, and he was glad to +register his support of the measure proposed. The chairman had well said +in his speech: 'de l'audace, toujours de l'audace!' Shareholders would +agree with him that there could be no better motto for Englishmen. Ahem! + +Mr. Batterson sat down. And Mr. Westgate rose: He wanted--he said--to +know more, much more, about this proposition, which to his mind was of a +very dubious wisdom.... 'Ah!' thought the secretary, 'I told the old boy +he must tell them more'.... To whom, for instance, had the proposal +first been made? To him!--the chairman said. Good! But why were Pillins +selling, if freights were to go up, as they were told? + +"Matter of opinion." + +"Quite so; and in my opinion they are going lower, and Pillins were right +to sell. It follows that we are wrong to buy." ("Hear, hear!" "No, +no!") "Pillins are shrewd people. What does the chairman say? Nerves! +Does he mean to tell us that this sale was the result of nerves?" + +The chairman nodded. + +"That appears to me a somewhat fantastic theory; but I will leave that +and confine myself to asking the grounds on which the chairman bases his +confidence; in fact, what it is which is actuating the Board in pressing +on us at such a time what I have no hesitation in stigmatising as a rash +proposal. In a word, I want light as well as leading in this matter." + +Mr. Westgate sat down. + +What would the chairman do now? The situation was distinctly +awkward--seeing his helplessness and the lukewarmness of the Board behind +him. And the secretary felt more strongly than ever the absurdity of his +being an underling, he who in a few well-chosen words could so easily +have twisted the meeting round his thumb. Suddenly he heard the long, +rumbling sigh which preluded the chairman's speeches. + +"Has any other gentleman anything to say before I move the adoption of +the report?" + +Phew! That would put their backs up. Yes, sure enough it had brought +that fellow, who had said he might as well go home, to his feet! Now for +something nasty! + +"Mr. Westgate requires answering. I don't like this business. I don't +impute anything to anybody; but it looks to me as if there were something +behind it which the shareholders ought to be told. Not only that; but, +to speak frankly, I'm not satisfied to be ridden over roughshod in this +fashion by one who, whatever he may have been in the past, is obviously +not now in the prime of his faculties." + +With a gasp the secretary thought: 'I knew that was a plain-spoken man!' + +He heard again the rumbling beside him. The chairman had gone crimson, +his mouth was pursed, his little eyes were very blue. + +"Help me up," he said. + +The secretary helped him, and waited, rather breathless. + +The chairman took a sip of water, and his voice, unexpectedly loud, broke +an ominous hush: + +"Never been so insulted in my life. My best services have been at your +disposal for nineteen years; you know what measure of success this +Company has attained. I am the oldest man here, and my experience of +shipping is, I hope, a little greater than that of the two gentlemen who +spoke last. I have done my best for you, ladies and gentlemen, and we +shall see whether you are going to endorse an indictment of my judgment +and of my honour, if I am to take the last speaker seriously. This +purchase is for your good. 'There is a tide in the affairs of men'--and +I for one am not content, never have been, to stagnate. If that is what +you want, however, by all means give your support to these gentlemen and +have done with it. I tell you freights will go up before the end of the +year; the purchase is a sound one, more than a sound one--I, at any rate, +stand or fall by it. Refuse to ratify it, if you like; if you do, I +shall resign." + +He sank back into his seat. The secretary, stealing a glance, thought +with a sort of enthusiasm: 'Bravo! Who'd have thought he could rally his +voice like that? A good touch, too, that about his honour! I believe +he's knocked them. + +It's still dicky, though, if that fellow at the back gets up again; the +old chap can't work that stop a second time. 'Ah! here was 'old +Apple-pie' on his hind legs. That was all right! + +"I do not hesitate to say that I am an old friend of the chairman; we +are, many of us, old friends of the chairman, and it has been painful to +me, and I doubt not to others, to hear an attack made on him. If he is +old in body, he is young in mental vigour and courage. I wish we were +all as young. We ought to stand by him; I say, we ought to stand by +him." ("Hear, hear! Hear, hear!") And the secretary thought: 'That's +done it!' And he felt a sudden odd emotion, watching the chairman bobbing +his body, like a wooden toy, at old Appleby; and old Appleby bobbing +back. Then, seeing a shareholder close to the door get up, thought: +'Who's that? I know his face--Ah! yes; Ventnor, the solicitor--he's one +of the chairman's creditors that are coming again this afternoon. What +now?' + +"I can't agree that we ought to let sentiment interfere with our judgment +in this matter. The question is simply: How are our pockets going to be +affected? I came here with some misgivings, but the attitude of the +chairman has been such as to remove them; and I shall support the +proposition." The secretary thought: 'That's all right--only, he said it +rather queerly--rather queerly.' + +Then, after a long silence, the chairman, without rising, said: + +"I move the adoption of the report and accounts." + +"I second that." + +"Those in favour signify the same in the usual way. Contrary? Carried." +The secretary noted the dissentients, six in number, and that Mr. +Westgate did not vote. + +A quarter of an hour later he stood in the body of the emptying room +supplying names to one of the gentlemen of the Press. The passionless +fellow said: "Haythorp, with an 'a'; oh! an 'e'; he seems an old man. +Thank you. I may have the slips? Would you like to see a proof? With +an 'a' you said--oh! an 'e.' Good afternoon!" And the secretary thought: +'Those fellows, what does go on inside them? Fancy not knowing the old +chairman by now!'... + + + + +2 + +Back in the proper office of "The Island Navigation Company" old Heythorp +sat smoking a cigar and smiling like a purring cat. He was dreaming a +little of his triumph, sifting with his old brain, still subtle, the +wheat from the chaff of the demurrers: Westgate--nothing in +that--professional discontent till they silenced him with a place on the +board--but not while he held the reins! That chap at the back--an +ill-conditioned fellow! "Something behind!" Suspicious brute! There +was something--but--hang it! they might think themselves lucky to get +four ships at that price, and all due to him! It was on the last speaker +that his mind dwelt with a doubt. That fellow Ventnor, to whom he owed +money--there had been something just a little queer about his tone--as +much as to say, "I smell a rat." Well! one would see that at the +creditors' meeting in half an hour. + +"Mr. Pillin, sir." + +"Show him in!" + +In a fur coat which seemed to extinguish his thin form, Joe Pillin +entered. It was snowing, and the cold had nipped and yellowed his meagre +face between its slight grey whiskering. He said thinly: + +"How are you, Sylvanus? Aren't you perished in this cold?" + +"Warm as a toast. Sit down. Take off your coat." + +"Oh! I should be lost without it. You must have a fire inside you. +So-so it's gone through?" + +Old Heythorp nodded; and Joe Pillin, wandering like a spirit, scrutinised +the shut door. He came back to the table, and said in a low voice: + +"It's a great sacrifice." + +Old Heythorp smiled. + +"Have you signed the deed poll?" + +Producing a parchment from his pocket Joe Pillin unfolded it with caution +to disclose his signature, and said: + +"I don't like it--it's irrevocable." + +A chuckle escaped old Heythorp. + +"As death." + +Joe Pillin's voice passed up into the treble clef. + +"I can't bear irrevocable things. I consider you stampeded me, playing +on my nerves." + +Examining the signatures old Heythorp murmured: + +"Tell your lawyer to lock it up. He must think you a sad dog, Joe." + +"Ah! Suppose on my death it comes to the knowledge of my wife!" + +"She won't be able to make it hotter for you than you'll be already." + +Joe Pillin replaced the deed within his coat, emitting a queer thin +noise. He simply could not bear joking on such subjects. + +"Well," he said, "you've got your way; you always do. Who is this Mrs. +Larne? You oughtn't to keep me in the dark. It seems my boy met her at +your house. You told me she didn't come there." + +Old Heythorp said with relish: + +"Her husband was my son by a woman I was fond of before I married; her +children are my grandchildren. You've provided for them. Best thing you +ever did." + +"I don't know--I don't know. I'm sorry you told me. It makes it all the +more doubtful. As soon as the transfer's complete, I shall get away +abroad. This cold's killing me. I wish you'd give me your recipe for +keeping warm." + +"Get a new inside." + +Joe Pillin regarded his old friend with a sort of yearning. "And yet," +he said, "I suppose, with your full-blooded habit, your life hangs by a +thread, doesn't it?" + +"A stout one, my boy" + +"Well, good-bye, Sylvanus. You're a Job's comforter; I must be getting +home." He put on his hat, and, lost in his fur coat, passed out into the +corridor. On the stairs he met a man who said: + +"How do you do, Mr. Pillin? I know your son. Been' seeing the chairman? +I see your sale's gone through all right. I hope that'll do us some +good, but I suppose you think the other way?" + +Peering at him from under his hat, Joe Pillin said: + +"Mr. Ventnor, I think? Thank you! It's very cold, isn't it?" And, with +that cautious remark, he passed on down. + +Alone again, old Heythorp thought: 'By George! What a wavering, +quavering, thread paper of a fellow! What misery life must be to a chap +like that! He walks in fear--he wallows in it. Poor devil!' And a +curious feeling swelled his heart, of elation, of lightness such as he +had not known for years. Those two young things were safe now from +penury-safe! After dealing with those infernal creditors of his he would +go round and have a look at the children. With a hundred and twenty a +year the boy could go into the Army--best place for a young scamp like +that. The girl would go off like hot cakes, of course, but she needn't +take the first calf that came along. As for their mother, she must look +after herself; nothing under two thousand a year would keep her out of +debt. But trust her for wheedling and bluffing her way out of any +scrape! Watching his cigar-smoke curl and disperse he was conscious of +the strain he had been under these last six weeks, aware suddenly of how +greatly he had baulked at thought of to-day's general meeting. Yes! It +might have turned out nasty. He knew well enough the forces on the +Board, and off, who would be only too glad to shelve him. If he were +shelved here his other two Companies would be sure to follow suit, and +bang would go every penny of his income--he would be a pauper dependant +on that holy woman. Well! Safe now for another year if he could stave +off these sharks once more. It might be a harder job this time, but he +was in luck--in luck, and it must hold. And taking a luxurious pull at +his cigar, he rang the handbell. + +"Bring 'em in here, Mr. Farney. And let me have a cup of China tea as +strong as you can make it." + +"Yes, sir. Will you see the proof of the press report, or will you leave +it to me?" + +"To you." + +"Yes, sir. It was a good meeting, wasn't it?" + +Old Heythorp nodded. + +"Wonderful how your voice came back just at the right moment. I was +afraid things were going to be difficult. The insult did it, I think. +It was a monstrous thing to say. I could have punched his head." + +Again old Heythorp nodded; and, looking into the secretary's fine blue +eyes, he repeated: "Bring 'em in." + +The lonely minute before the entrance of his creditors passed in the +thought: 'So that's how it struck him! Short shrift I should get if it +came out.' + +The gentlemen, who numbered ten this time, bowed to their debtor, +evidently wondering why the deuce they troubled to be polite to an old +man who kept them out of their money. Then, the secretary reappearing +with a cup of China tea, they watched while their debtor drank it. The +feat was tremulous. Would he get through without spilling it all down +his front, or choking? To those unaccustomed to his private life it was +slightly miraculous. He put the cup down empty, tremblingly removed some +yellow drops from the little white tuft below his lip, refit his cigar, +and said: + +"No use beating about the bush, gentlemen; I can offer you fourteen +hundred a year so long as I live and hold my directorships, and not a +penny more. If you can't accept that, you must make me bankrupt and get +about sixpence in the pound. My qualifying shares will fetch a couple of +thousand at market price. I own nothing else. The house I live in, and +everything in it, barring my clothes, my wine, and my cigars, belong to +my daughter under a settlement fifteen years old. My solicitors and +bankers will give you every information. That's the position in a +nutshell." + +In spite of business habits the surprise of the ten gentlemen was only +partially concealed. A man who owed them so much would naturally say he +owned nothing, but would he refer them to his solicitors and bankers +unless he were telling the truth? Then Mr. Ventnor said: + +"Will you submit your pass books?" + +"No, but I'll authorise my bankers to give you a full statement of my +receipts for the last five years--longer, if you like." + +The strategic stroke of placing the ten gentlemen round the Board table +had made it impossible for them to consult freely without being +overheard, but the low-voiced transference of thought travelling round +was summed up at last by Mr. Brownbee. + +"We think, Mr. Heythorp, that your fees and dividends should enable you +to set aside for us a larger sum. Sixteen hundred, in fact, is what we +think you should give us yearly. Representing, as we do, sixteen +thousand pounds, the prospect is not cheering, but we hope you have some +good years before you yet. We understand your income to be two thousand +pounds." + +Old Heythorp shook his head. "Nineteen hundred and thirty pounds in a +good year. Must eat and drink; must have a man to look after me not as +active as I was. Can't do on less than five hundred pounds. Fourteen +hundred's all I can give you, gentlemen; it's an advance of two hundred +pounds. That's my last word." + +The silence was broken by Mr. Ventnor. + +"And it's my last word that I'm not satisfied. If these other gentlemen +accept your proposition I shall be forced to consider what I can do on my +own account." + +The old man stared at him, and answered: + +"Oh! you will, sir; we shall see." + +The others had risen and were gathered in a knot at the end of the table; +old Heythorp and Mr. Ventnor alone remained seated. The old man's lower +lip projected till the white hairs below stood out like bristles. 'You +ugly dog,' he was thinking, 'you think you've got something up your +sleeve. Well, do your worst!' The "ugly dog" rose abruptly and joined +the others. And old Heythorp closed his eyes, sitting perfectly still, +with his cigar, which had gone out, sticking up between his teeth. Mr. +Brownbee turning to voice the decision come to, cleared his throat. + +"Mr. Heythorp," he said, "if your bankers and solicitors bear out your +statements, we shall accept your offer faute de mieux, in consideration +of your--" but meeting the old man's eyes, which said so very plainly: +"Blow your consideration!" he ended with a stammer: "Perhaps you will +kindly furnish us with the authorisation you spoke of?" + +Old Heythorp nodded, and Mr. Brownbee, with a little bow, clasped his hat +to his breast and moved towards the door. The nine gentlemen followed. +Mr. Ventnor, bringing up the rear, turned and looked back. But the old +man's eyes were already closed again. + +The moment his creditors were gone, old Heythorp sounded the hand-bell. + +"Help me up, Mr. Farney. That Ventnor--what's his holding?" + +"Quite small. Only ten shares, I think." + +"Ah! What time is it?" + +"Quarter to four, sir." + +"Get me a taxi." + +After visiting his bank and his solicitors he struggled once more into +his cab and caused it to be driven towards Millicent Villas. A kind of +sleepy triumph permeated his whole being, bumped and shaken by the cab's +rapid progress. So! He was free of those sharks now so long as he could +hold on to his Companies; and he would still have a hundred a year or +more to spare for Rosamund and her youngsters. He could live on four +hundred, or even three-fifty, without losing his independence, for there +would be no standing life in that holy woman's house unless he could pay +his own scot! A good day's work! The best for many a long month! + +The cab stopped before the villa. + + + + +3 + +There are rooms which refuse to give away their owners, and rooms which +seem to say: 'They really are like this.' Of such was Rosamund Larne's--a +sort of permanent confession, seeming to remark to anyone who entered: +'Her taste? Well, you can see--cheerful and exuberant; her habits--yes, +she sits here all the morning in a dressing-gown, smoking cigarettes and +dropping ink; kindly observe my carpet. Notice the piano--it has a look +of coming and going, according to the exchequer. This very +deep-cushioned sofa is permanent, however; the water-colours on the walls +are safe, too--they're by herself. Mark the scent of mimosa--she likes +flowers, and likes them strong. No clock, of course. Examine the +bureau--she is obviously always ringing for "the drumstick," and saying: +"Where's this, Ellen, and where's that? You naughty gairl, you've been +tidying." Cast an eye on that pile of manuscript--she has evidently a +genius for composition; it flows off her pen--like Shakespeare, she never +blots a line. See how she's had the electric light put in, instead of +that horrid gas; but try and turn either of them on--you can't; last +quarter isn't paid, of course; and she uses an oil lamp, you can tell +that by the ceiling: The dog over there, who will not answer to the name +of 'Carmen,' a Pekinese spaniel like a little Djin, all prominent eyes +rolling their blacks, and no nose between--yes, Carmen looks as if she +didn't know what was coming next; she's right--it's a pet-and-slap-again +life! Consider, too, the fittings of the tea-tray, rather soiled, though +not quite tin, but I say unto you that no millionaire's in all its glory +ever had a liqueur bottle on it.' + +When old Heythorp entered this room, which extended from back to front of +the little house, preceded by the announcement "Mr. Aesop," it was +resonant with a very clatter-bodandigo of noises, from Phyllis playing +the Machiche; from the boy Jock on the hearthrug, emitting at short +intervals the most piercing notes from an ocarina; from Mrs. Larne on the +sofa, talking with her trailing volubility to Bob Pillin; from Bob Pillin +muttering: "Ye-es! Qui-ite! Ye-es!" and gazing at Phyllis over his +collar. And, on the window-sill, as far as she could get from all this +noise, the little dog Carmen was rolling her eyes. At sight of their +visitor Jock blew one rending screech, and bolting behind the sofa, +placed his chin on its top, so that nothing but his round pink unmoving +face was visible; and the dog Carmen tried to climb the blind cord. + +Encircled from behind by the arms of Phyllis, and preceded by the +gracious perfumed bulk of Mrs. Larne, old Heythorp was escorted to the +sofa. It was low, and when he had plumped down into it, the boy Jock +emitted a hollow groan. Bob Pillin was the first to break the silence. + +"How are you, sir? I hope it's gone through." + +Old Heythorp nodded. His eyes were fixed on the liqueur, and Mrs. Larne +murmured: + +"Guardy, you must try our new liqueur. Jock, you awful boy, get up and +bring Guardy a glass." + +The boy Jock approached the tea-table, took up a glass, put it to his eye +and filled it rapidly. + +"You horrible boy, you could see that glass has been used." + +In a high round voice rather like an angel's, Jock answered: + +"All right, Mother; I'll get rid of it," and rapidly swallowing the +yellow liquor, took up another glass. + +Mrs. Larne laughed. + +"What am I to do with him?" + +A loud shriek prevented a response. Phyllis, who had taken her brother +by the ear to lead him to the door, let him go to clasp her injured self. + +Bob Pillin went hastening towards her; and following the young man with +her chin, Mrs. Larne said, smiling: + +"Aren't those children awful? He's such a nice fellow. We like him so +much, Guardy." + +The old man grinned. So she was making up to that young pup! Rosamund +Larne, watching him, murmured: + +"Oh! Guardy, you're as bad as Jock. He takes after you terribly. Look +at the shape of his head. Jock, come here!" The innocent boy +approached; with his girlish complexion, his flowery blue eyes, his +perfect mouth, he stood before his mother like a large cherub. And +suddenly he blew his ocarina in a dreadful manner. Mrs. Larne launched a +box at his ears, and receiving the wind of it he fell prone. + +"That's the way he behaves. Be off with you, you awful boy. I want to +talk to Guardy." + +The boy withdrew on his stomach, and sat against the wall cross-legged, +fixing his innocent round eyes on old Heythorp. Mrs. Larne sighed. + +"Things are worse and worse, Guardy. I'm at my wits' end to tide over +this quarter. You wouldn't advance me a hundred on my new story? I'm +sure to get two for it in the end." + +The old man shook his head. + +"I've done something for you and the children," he said. "You'll get +notice of it in a day or two; ask no questions." + +"Oh! Guardy! Oh! you dear!" And her gaze rested on Bob Pillin, leaning +over the piano, where Phyllis again sat. + +Old Heythorp snorted. "What are you cultivating that young gaby for? She +mustn't be grabbed up by any fool who comes along." + +Mrs. Larne murmured at once: + +"Of course, the dear gairl is much too young. Phyllis, come and talk to +Guardy!" + +When the girl was installed beside him on the sofa, and he had felt that +little thrill of warmth the proximity of youth can bring, he said: + +"Been a good girl?" + +She shook her head. + +"Can't, when Jock's not at school. Mother can't pay for him this term." + +Hearing his name, the boy Jock blew his ocarina till Mrs. Larne drove him +from the room, and Phyllis went on: + +"He's more awful than anything you can think of. Was my dad at all like +him, Guardy? Mother's always so mysterious about him. I suppose you +knew him well." + +Old Heythorp, incapable of confusion, answered stolidly: + +"Not very." + +"Who was his father? I don't believe even mother knows." + +"Man about town in my day." + +"Oh! your day must have been jolly. Did you wear peg-top trousers, and +dundreary's?" + +Old Heythorp nodded. + +"What larks! And I suppose you had lots of adventures with opera dancers +and gambling. The young men are all so good now." Her eyes rested on +Bob Pillin. "That young man's a perfect stick of goodness." + +Old Heythorp grunted. + +"You wouldn't know how good he was," Phyllis went on musingly, "unless +you'd sat next him in a tunnel. The other day he had his waist squeezed +and he simply sat still and did nothing. And then when the tunnel ended, +it was Jock after all, not me. His face was--Oh! ah! ha! ha! Ah! ha!" +She threw back her head, displaying all her white, round throat. Then +edging near, she whispered: + +"He likes to pretend, of course, that he's fearfully lively. He's +promised to take mother and me to the theatre and supper afterwards. +Won't it be scrummy! Only, I haven't anything to go in." + +Old Heythorp said: "What do you want? Irish poplin?" + +Her mouth opened wide: "Oh! Guardy! Soft white satin!" + +"How many yards'll go round you?" + +"I should think about twelve. We could make it ourselves. You are a +chook!" + +A scent of hair, like hay, enveloped him, her lips bobbed against his +nose,--and there came a feeling in his heart as when he rolled the first +sip of a special wine against his palate. This little house was a +rumty-too affair, her mother was a humbug, the boy a cheeky young rascal, +but there was a warmth here he never felt in that big house which had +been his wife's and was now his holy daughter's. And once more he +rejoiced at his day's work, and the success of his breach of trust, which +put some little ground beneath these young feet, in a hard and +unscrupulous world. Phyllis whispered in his ear: + +"Guardy, do look; he will stare at me like that. Isn't it awful--like a +boiled rabbit?" + +Bob Pillin, attentive to Mrs. Larne, was gazing with all his might over +her shoulder at the girl. The young man was moonstruck, that was clear! +There was something almost touching in the stare of those puppy dog's +eyes. And he thought 'Young beggar--wish I were his age!' The utter +injustice of having an old and helpless body, when your desire for +enjoyment was as great as ever! They said a man was as old as he felt! +Fools! A man was as old as his legs and arms, and not a day younger. +He heard the girl beside him utter a discomfortable sound, and saw her +face cloud as if tears were not far off; she jumped up, and going to the +window, lifted the little dog and buried her face in its brown and white +fur. Old Heythorp thought: 'She sees that her humbugging mother is using +her as a decoy.' But she had come back, and the little dog, rolling its +eyes horribly at the strange figure on the sofa, in a desperate effort to +escape succeeded in reaching her shoulder, where it stayed perched like a +cat, held by one paw and trying to back away into space. Old Heythorp +said abruptly: + +"Are you very fond of your mother?" + +"Of course I am, Guardy. I adore her." + +"H'm! Listen to me. When you come of age or marry, you'll have a +hundred and twenty a year of your own that you can't get rid of. Don't +ever be persuaded into doing what you don't want. And remember: Your +mother's a sieve, no good giving her money; keep what you'll get for +yourself--it's only a pittance, and you'll want it all--every penny." + +Phyllis's eyes had opened very wide; so that he wondered if she had taken +in his words. + +"Oh! Isn't money horrible, Guardy?" + +"The want of it." + +"No, it's beastly altogether. If only we were like birds. Or if one +could put out a plate overnight, and have just enough in the morning to +use during the day." + +Old Heythorp sighed. + +"There's only one thing in life that matters--independence. Lose that, +and you lose everything. That's the value of money. Help me up." + +Phyllis stretched out her hands, and the little dog, running down her +back, resumed its perch on the window-sill, close to the blind cord. + +Once on his feet, old Heythorp said: + +"Give me a kiss. You'll have your satin tomorrow." + +Then looking at Bob Pillin, he remarked: + +"Going my way? I'll give you a lift." + +The young man, giving Phyllis one appealing look, answered dully: +"Tha-anks!" and they went out together to the taxi. In that draughtless +vehicle they sat, full of who knows what contempt of age for youth; and +youth for age; the old man resenting this young pup's aspiration to his +granddaughter; the young man annoyed that this old image had dragged him +away before he wished to go. Old Heythorp said at last: + +"Well?" + +Thus expected to say something, Bob Pillin muttered + +"Glad your meetin' went off well, sir. You scored a triumph I should +think." + +"Why?" + +"Oh! I don't know. I thought you had a good bit of opposition to +contend with." + +Old Heythorp looked at him. + +"Your grandmother!" he said; then, with his habitual instinct of attack, +added: "You make the most of your opportunities, I see." + +At this rude assault Bob Pillin's red-cheeked face assumed a certain +dignity. "I don't know what you mean, sir. Mrs. Larne is very kind to +me." + +"No doubt. But don't try to pick the flowers." + +Thoroughly upset, Bob Pillin preserved a dogged silence. This fortnight, +since he had first met Phyllis in old Heythorp's hall, had been the most +singular of his existence up to now. He would never have believed that a +fellow could be so quickly and completely bowled, could succumb without a +kick, without even wanting to kick. To one with his philosophy of having +a good time and never committing himself too far, it was in the nature of +"a fair knock-out," and yet so pleasurable, except for the wear and tear +about one's chances. If only he knew how far the old boy really counted +in the matter! To say: "My intentions are strictly honourable" would be +old-fashioned; besides--the old fellow might have no right to hear it. +They called him Guardy, but without knowing more he did not want to admit +the old curmudgeon's right to interfere. + +"Are you a relation of theirs, sir?" + +Old Heythorp nodded. + +Bob Pillin went on with desperation: + +"I should like to know what your objection to me is." + +The old man turned his head so far as he was able; a grim smile bristled +the hairs about his lips, and twinkled in his eyes. What did he object +to? Why--everything! Object to! That sleek head, those puppy-dog eyes, +fattish red cheeks, high collars, pearl pin, spats, and drawl-pah! the +imbecility, the smugness of his mug; no go, no devil in any of his sort, +in any of these fish-veined, coddled-up young bloods, nothing but playing +for safety! And he wheezed out: + +"Milk and water masquerading as port wine." + +Bob Pillin frowned. + +It was almost too much for the composure even of a man of the world. That +this paralytic old fellow should express contempt for his virility was +really the last thing in jests. Luckily he could not take it seriously. +But suddenly he thought: 'What if he really has the power to stop my +going there, and means to turn them against me!' And his heart quailed. + +"Awfully sorry, sir," he said, "if you don't think I'm wild enough. +Anything I can do for you in that line--" + +The old man grunted; and realising that he had been quite witty, Bob +Pillin went on: + +"I know I'm not in debt, no entanglements, got a decent income, pretty +good expectations and all that; but I can soon put that all right if I'm +not fit without." + +It was perhaps his first attempt at irony, and he could not help thinking +how good it was. + +But old Heythorp preserved a deadly silence. He looked like a stuffed +man, a regular Aunt Sally sitting there, with the fixed red in his +cheeks, his stivered hair, square block of a body, and no neck that you +could see-only wanting the pipe in his mouth! Could there really be +danger from such an old idol? The idol spoke: + +"I'll give you a word of advice. Don't hang round there, or you'll burn +your fingers. Remember me to your father. Good-night!" + +The taxi had stopped before the house in Sefton Park. An insensate +impulse to remain seated and argue the point fought in Bob Pillin with an +impulse to leap out, shake his fist in at the window, and walk off. He +merely said, however: + +"Thanks for the lift. Good-night!" And, getting out deliberately, he +walked off. + +Old Heythorp, waiting for the driver to help him up, thought 'Fatter, but +no more guts than his father!' + +In his sanctum he sank at once into his chair. It was wonderfully still +there every day at this hour; just the click of the coals, just the +faintest ruffle from the wind in the trees of the park. And it was +cosily warm, only the fire lightening the darkness. A drowsy beatitude +pervaded the old man. A good day's work! A triumph--that young pup had +said. Yes! Something of a triumph! He had held on, and won. And +dinner to look forward to, yet. A nap--a nap! And soon, rhythmic, soft, +sonorous, his breathing rose, with now and then that pathetic twitching +of the old who dream. + + + + +III + +1 + +When Bob Pillin emerged from the little front garden of 23, Millicent +Villas ten days later, his sentiments were ravelled, and he could not get +hold of an end to pull straight the stuff of his mind. + +He had found Mrs. Larne and Phyllis in the sitting-room, and Phyllis had +been crying; he was sure she had been crying; and that memory still +infected the sentiments evoked by later happenings. Old Heythorp had +said: "You'll burn your fingers." The process had begun. Having sent +her daughter away on a pretext really a bit too thin, Mrs. Larne had +installed him beside her scented bulk on the sofa, and poured into his +ear such a tale of monetary woe and entanglement, such a mass of present +difficulties and rosy prospects, that his brain still whirled, and only +one thing emerged clearly-that she wanted fifty pounds, which she would +repay him on quarter-day; for their Guardy had made a settlement by +which, until the dear children came of age, she would have sixty pounds +every quarter. It was only a question of a few weeks; he might ask +Messrs. Scriven and Coles; they would tell him the security was quite +safe. He certainly might ask Messrs. Scriven and Coles--they happened +to be his father's solicitors; but it hardly seemed to touch the point. +Bob Pillin had a certain shrewd caution, and the point was whether he was +going to begin to lend money to a woman who, he could see, might borrow +up to seventy times seven on the strength of his infatuation for her +daughter. That was rather too strong! Yet, if he didn't she might take +a sudden dislike to him, and where would he be then? Besides, would not a +loan make his position stronger? And then--such is the effect of love +even on the younger generation--that thought seemed to him unworthy. If +he lent at all, it should be from chivalry--ulterior motives might go +hang! And the memory of the tear-marks on Phyllis's pretty pale-pink +cheeks; and her petulantly mournful: "Oh! young man, isn't money +beastly!" scraped his heart, and ravished his judgment. All the same, +fifty pounds was fifty pounds, and goodness knew how much more; and what +did he know of Mrs. Larne, after all, except that she was a relative of +old Heythorp's and wrote stories--told them too, if he was not mistaken? +Perhaps it would be better to see Scrivens'. But again that absurd +nobility assaulted him. Phyllis! Phyllis! Besides, were not +settlements always drawn so that they refused to form security for +anything? Thus, hampered and troubled, he hailed a cab. He was dining +with the Ventnors on the Cheshire side, and would be late if he didn't +get home sharp to dress. + +Driving, white-tied--and waist-coated, in his father's car, he thought +with a certain contumely of the younger Ventnor girl, whom he had been +wont to consider pretty before he knew Phyllis. And seated next her at +dinner, he quite enjoyed his new sense of superiority to her charms, and +the ease with which he could chaff and be agreeable. And all the time he +suffered from the suppressed longing which scarcely ever left him now, to +think and talk of Phyllis. Ventnor's fizz was good and plentiful, his +old Madeira absolutely first chop, and the only other man present a +teetotal curate, who withdrew with the ladies to talk his parish shop. +Favoured by these circumstances, and the perception that Ventnor was an +agreeable fellow, Bob Pillin yielded to his secret itch to get near the +subject of his affections. + +"Do you happen," he said airily, "to know a Mrs. Larne--relative of old +Heythorp's--rather a handsome woman-she writes stories." + +Mr. Ventnor shook his head. A closer scrutiny than Bob Pillin's would +have seen that he also moved his ears. + +"Of old Heythorp's? Didn't know he had any, except his daughter, and +that son of his in the Admiralty." + +Bob Pillin felt the glow of his secret hobby spreading within him. + +"She is, though--lives rather out of town; got a son and daughter. I +thought you might know her stories--clever woman." + +Mr. Ventnor smiled. "Ah!" he said enigmatically, "these lady novelists! +Does she make any money by them?" + +Bob Pillin knew that to make money by writing meant success, but that not +to make money by writing was artistic, and implied that you had private +means, which perhaps was even more distinguished. And he said: + +"Oh! she has private means, I know." + +Mr. Ventnor reached for the Madeira. + +"So she's a relative of old Heythorp's," he said. "He's a very old +friend of your father's. He ought to go bankrupt, you know." + +To Bob Pillin, glowing with passion and Madeira, the idea of bankruptcy +seemed discreditable in connection with a relative of Phyllis. Besides, +the old boy was far from that! Had he not just made this settlement on +Mrs. Larne? And he said: + +"I think you're mistaken. That's of the past." + +Mr. Ventnor smiled. + +"Will you bet?" he said. + +Bob Pillin also smiled. "I should be bettin' on a certainty." + +Mr. Ventnor passed his hand over his whiskered face. "Don't you believe +it; he hasn't a mag to his name. Fill your glass." + +Bob Pillin said, with a certain resentment: + +"Well, I happen to know he's just made a settlement of five or six +thousand pounds. Don't know if you call that being bankrupt." + +"What! On this Mrs. Larne?" + +Confused, uncertain whether he had said something derogatory or +indiscreet, or something which added distinction to Phyllis, Bob Pillin +hesitated, then gave a nod. + +Mr. Ventnor rose and extended his short legs before the fire. + +"No, my boy," he said. "No!" + +Unaccustomed to flat contradiction, Bob Pillin reddened. + +"I'll bet you a tenner. Ask Scrivens." + +Mr. Ventnor ejaculated: + +"Scrivens---but they're not--" then, staring rather hard, he added: "I +won't bet. You may be right. Scrivens are your father's solicitors too, +aren't they? Always been sorry he didn't come to me. Shall we join the +ladies?" And to the drawing-room he preceded a young man more uncertain +in his mind than on his feet.... + +Charles Ventnor was not one to let you see that more was going on within +than met the eye. But there was a good deal going on that evening, and +after his conversation with young Bob he had occasion more than once to +turn away and rub his hands together. When, after that second creditors' +meeting, he had walked down the stairway which led to the offices of "The +Island Navigation Company," he had been deep in thought. Short, squarely +built, rather stout, with moustache and large mutton-chop whiskers of a +red brown, and a faint floridity in face and dress, he impressed at first +sight only by a certain truly British vulgarity. One felt that here was +a hail-fellow--well-met man who liked lunch and dinner, went to +Scarborough for his summer holidays, sat on his wife, took his daughters +out in a boat and was never sick. One felt that he went to church every +Sunday morning, looked upwards as he moved through life, disliked the +unsuccessful, and expanded with his second glass of wine. But then a +clear look into his well-clothed face and red-brown eyes would give the +feeling: 'There's something fulvous here; he might be a bit too foxy.' A +third look brought the thought: 'He's certainly a bully.' He was not a +large creditor of old Heythorp. With interest on the original, he +calculated his claim at three hundred pounds--unredeemed shares in that +old Ecuador mine. But he had waited for his money eight years, and could +never imagine how it came about that he had been induced to wait so long. +There had been, of course, for one who liked "big pots," a certain +glamour about the personality of old Heythorp, still a bit of a swell in +shipping circles, and a bit of an aristocrat in Liverpool. But during +the last year Charles Ventnor had realised that the old chap's star had +definitely set--when that happens, of course, there is no more glamour, +and the time has come to get your money. Weakness in oneself and others +is despicable! Besides, he had food for thought, and descending the +stairs he chewed it: He smelt a rat--creatures for which both by nature +and profession he had a nose. Through Bob Pillin, on whom he sometimes +dwelt in connection with his younger daughter, he knew that old Pillin +and old Heythorp had been friends for thirty years and more. That, to an +astute mind, suggested something behind this sale. The thought had +already occurred to him when he read his copy of the report. A +commission would be a breach of trust, of course, but there were ways of +doing things; the old chap was devilish hard pressed, and human nature +was human nature! His lawyerish mind habitually put two and two +together. The old fellow had deliberately appointed to meet his +creditors again just after the general meeting which would decide the +purchase--had said he might do something for them then. Had that no +significance? + +In these circumstances Charles Ventnor had come to the meeting with eyes +wide open and mouth tight closed. And he had watched. It was certainly +remarkable that such an old and feeble man, with no neck at all, who +looked indeed as if he might go off with apoplexy any moment, should +actually say that he "stood or fell" by this purchase, knowing that if he +fell he would be a beggar. Why should the old chap be so keen on getting +it through? It would do him personally no good, unless--Exactly! He had +left the meeting, therefore, secretly confident that old Heythorp had got +something out of this transaction which would enable him to make a +substantial proposal to his creditors. So that when the old man had +declared that he was going to make none, something had turned sour in his +heart, and he had said to himself: "All right, you old rascal! You don't +know C. V." The cavalier manner of that beggarly old rip, the defiant +look of his deep little eyes, had put a polish on the rancour of one who +prided himself on letting no man get the better of him. All that +evening, seated on one side of the fire, while Mrs. Ventnor sat on the +other, and the younger daughter played Gounod's Serenade on the +violin--he cogitated. And now and again he smiled, but not too much. He +did not see his way as yet, but had little doubt that before long he +would. It would not be hard to knock that chipped old idol off his +perch. There was already a healthy feeling among the shareholders that +he was past work and should be scrapped. The old chap should find that +Charles V. was not to be defied; that when he got his teeth into a thing, +he did not let it go. By hook or crook he would have the old man off his +Boards, or his debt out of him as the price of leaving him alone. His +life or his money--and the old fellow should determine which. With the +memory of that defiance fresh within him, he almost hoped it might come +to be the first, and turning to Mrs. Ventnor, he said abruptly: + +"Have a little dinner Friday week, and ask young Pillin and the curate." +He specified the curate, a tee-totaller, because he had two daughters, +and males and females must be paired, but he intended to pack him off +after dinner to the drawing-room to discuss parish matters while he and +Bob Pillin sat over their wine. What he expected to get out of the young +man he did not as yet know. + +On the day of the dinner, before departing for the office, he had gone to +his cellar. Would three bottles of Perrier Jouet do the trick, or must +he add one of the old Madeira? He decided to be on the safe side. A +bottle or so of champagne went very little way with him personally, and +young Pillin might be another. + +The Madeira having done its work by turning the conversation into such an +admirable channel, he had cut it short for fear young Pillin might drink +the lot or get wind of the rat. And when his guests were gone, and his +family had retired, he stood staring into the fire, putting together the +pieces of the puzzle. Five or six thousand pounds--six would be ten per +cent. on sixty! Exactly! Scrivens--young Pillin had said! But Crow & +Donkin, not Scriven & Coles, were old Heythorp's solicitors. What could +that mean, save that the old man wanted to cover the tracks of a secret +commission, and had handled the matter through solicitors who did not +know the state of his affairs! But why Pillin's solicitors? With this +sale just going through, it must look deuced fishy to them too. Was it +all a mare's nest, after all? In such circumstances he himself would +have taken the matter to a London firm who knew nothing of anybody. +Puzzled, therefore, and rather disheartened, feeling too that touch of +liver which was wont to follow his old Madeira, he went up to bed and +woke his wife to ask her why the dickens they couldn't always have soup +like that! + +Next day he continued to brood over his puzzle, and no fresh light came; +but having a matter on which his firm and Scrivens' were in touch, he +decided to go over in person, and see if he could surprise something out +of them. Feeling, from experience, that any really delicate matter would +only be entrusted to the most responsible member of the firm, he had +asked to see Scriven himself, and just as he had taken his hat to go, he +said casually: + +"By the way, you do some business for old Mr. Heythorp, don't you?" + +Scriven, raising his eyebrows a little, murmured: "Er--no," in exactly +the tone Mr. Ventnor himself used when he wished to imply that though he +didn't as a fact do business, he probably soon would. He knew therefore +that the answer was a true one. And non-plussed, he hazarded: + +"Oh! I thought you did, in regard to a Mrs. Larne." + +This time he had certainly drawn blood of sorts, for down came Scriven's +eyebrows, and he said: + +"Mrs. Larne--we know a Mrs. Larne, but not in that connection. Why?" + +"Oh! Young Pillin told me--" + +"Young Pillin? Why, it's his---!" A little pause, and then: "Old Mr. +Heythorp's solicitors are Crow & Donkin, I believe." + +Mr. Ventnor held out his hand. "Yes, yes," he said; "goodbye. Glad to +have got that matter settled up," and out he went, and down the street, +important, smiling. By George! He had got it! "It's his +father"--Scriven had been going to say. What a plant! Exactly! Oh! +neat! Old Pillin had made the settlement direct; and the solicitors were +in the dark; that disposed of his difficulty about them. No money had +passed between old Pillin and old Heythorp not a penny. Oh! neat! But +not neat enough for Charles Ventnor, who had that nose for rats. Then +his smile died, and with a little chill he perceived that it was all +based on supposition--not quite good enough to go on! What then? +Somehow he must see this Mrs. Larne, or better--old Pillin himself. The +point to ascertain was whether she had any connection of her own with +Pillin. Clearly young Pillin didn't know of it; for, according to him, +old Heythorp had made the settlement. By Jove! That old rascal was +deep--all the more satisfaction in proving that he was not as deep as C. +V. To unmask the old cheat was already beginning to seem in the nature +of a public service. But on what pretext could he visit Pillin? A +subscription to the Windeatt almshouses! That would make him talk in +self-defence and he would take care not to press the request to the +actual point of getting a subscription. He caused himself to be driven +to the Pillin residence in Sefton Park. Ushered into a room on the +ground floor, heated in American fashion, Mr. Ventnor unbuttoned his +coat. A man of sanguine constitution, he found this hot-house atmosphere +a little trying. And having sympathetically obtained Joe Pillin's +reluctant refusal--Quite so! One could not indefinitely extend one's +subscriptions even for the best of causes!--he said gently: + +"By the way, you know Mrs. Larne, don't you?" + +The effect of that simple shot surpassed his highest hopes. Joe Pillin's +face, never highly coloured, turned a sort of grey; he opened his thin +lips, shut them quickly, as birds do, and something seemed to pass with +difficulty down his scraggy throat. The hollows, which nerve exhaustion +delves in the cheeks of men whose cheekbones are not high, increased +alarmingly. For a moment he looked deathly; then, moistening his lips, +he said: + +"Larne--Larne? No, I don't seem---" + +Mr. Ventnor, who had taken care to be drawing on his gloves, murmured: + +"Oh! I thought--your son knows her; a relation of old Heythorp's," and +he looked up. + +Joe Pillin had his handkerchief to his mouth; he coughed feebly, then +with more and more vigour: + +"I'm in very poor health," he said, at last. "I'm getting abroad at +once. This cold's killing me. What name did you say?" And he remained +with his handkerchief against his teeth. + +Mr. Ventnor repeated: + +"Larne. Writes stories." + +Joe Pillin muttered into his handkerchief + +"Ali! H'm! No--I--no! My son knows all sorts of people. I shall have +to try Mentone. Are you going? Good-bye! Good-bye! I'm sorry; ah! ha! +My cough--ah! ha h'h'm! Very distressing. Ye-hes! My cough-ah! ha +h'h'm! Most distressing. Ye-hes!" + +Out in the drive Mr. Ventnor took a deep breath of the frosty air. Not +much doubt now! The two names had worked like charms. This weakly old +fellow would make a pretty witness, would simply crumple under +cross-examination. What a contrast to that hoary old sinner Heythorp, +whose brazenness nothing could affect. The rat was as large as life! +And the only point was how to make the best use of it. Then--for his +experience was wide--the possibility dawned on him, that after all, this +Mrs. Larne might only have been old Pillin's mistress--or be his natural +daughter, or have some other blackmailing hold on him. Any such +connection would account for his agitation, for his denying her, for his +son's ignorance. Only it wouldn't account for young Pillin's saying that +old Heythorp had made the settlement. He could only have got that from +the woman herself. Still, to make absolutely sure, he had better try and +see her. But how? It would never do to ask Bob Pillin for an +introduction, after this interview with his father. He would have to go +on his own and chance it. Wrote stories did she? Perhaps a newspaper +would know her address; or the Directory would give it--not a common +name! And, hot on the scent, he drove to a post office. Yes, there it +was, right enough! "Larne, Mrs. R., 23, Millicent Villas." And thinking +to himself: 'No time like the present,' he turned in that direction. The +job was delicate. He must be careful not to do anything which might +compromise his power of making public use of his knowledge. Yes-ticklish! +What he did now must have a proper legal bottom. Still, anyway you looked +at it, he had a right to investigate a fraud on himself as a shareholder +of "The Island Navigation Company," and a fraud on himself as a creditor +of old Heythorp. Quite! But suppose this Mrs. Larne was really +entangled with old Pillin, and the settlement a mere reward of virtue, +easy or otherwise. Well! in that case there'd be no secret commission to +make public, and he needn't go further. So that, in either event, he +would be all right. Only--how to introduce himself? He might pretend he +was a newspaper man wanting a story. No, that wouldn't do! He must not +represent that he was what he was not, in case he had afterwards to +justify his actions publicly, always a difficult thing, if you were not +careful! At that moment there came into his mind a question Bob Pillin +had asked the other night. "By the way, you can't borrow on a +settlement, can you? Isn't there generally some clause against it?" Had +this woman been trying to borrow from him on that settlement? But at this +moment he reached the house, and got out of his cab still undecided as to +how he was going to work the oracle. Impudence, constitutional and +professional, sustained him in saying to the little maid: + +"Mrs. Larne at home? Say Mr. Charles Ventnor, will you?" + +His quick brown eyes took in the apparel of the passage which served for +hall--the deep blue paper on the walls, lilac-patterned curtains over the +doors, the well-known print of a nude young woman looking over her +shoulder, and he thought: 'H'm! Distinctly tasty!' They noted, too, a +small brown-and-white dog cowering in terror at the very end of the +passage, and he murmured affably: "Fluffy! Come here, Fluffy!" till +Carmen's teeth chattered in her head. + +"Will you come in, sir?" + +Mr. Ventnor ran his hand over his whiskers, and, entering a room, was +impressed at once by its air of domesticity. On a sofa a handsome woman +and a pretty young girl were surrounded by sewing apparatus and some +white material. The girl looked up, but the elder lady rose. + +Mr. Ventnor said easily + +"You know my young friend, Mr. Robert Pillin, I think." + +The lady, whose bulk and bloom struck him to the point of admiration, +murmured in a full, sweet drawl: + +"Oh! Ye-es. Are you from Messrs. Scrivens?" + +With the swift reflection: 'As I thought!' Mr. Ventnor answered: + +"Er--not exactly. I am a solicitor though; came just to ask about a +certain settlement that Mr. Pillin tells me you're entitled under." + +"Phyllis dear!" + +Seeing the girl about to rise from underneath the white stuff, Mr. +Ventnor said quickly: + +"Pray don't disturb yourself--just a formality!" It had struck him at +once that the lady would have to speak the truth in the presence of this +third party, and he went on: "Quite recent, I think. This'll be your +first interest-on six thousand pounds? Is that right?" And at the +limpid assent of that rich, sweet voice, he thought: 'Fine woman; what +eyes!' + +"Thank you; that's quite enough. I can go to Scrivens for any detail. +Nice young fellow, Bob Pillin, isn't he?" He saw the girl's chin tilt, +and Mrs. Larne's full mouth curling in a smile. + +"Delightful young man; we're very fond of him." + +And he proceeded: + +"I'm quite an old friend of his; have you known him long?" + +"Oh! no. How long, Phyllis, since we met him at Guardy's? About a +month. But he's so unaffected--quite at home with us. A nice fellow." + +Mr. Ventnor murmured: + +"Very different from his father, isn't he?" + +"Is he? We don't know his father; he's a shipowner, I think." + +Mr. Ventnor rubbed his hands: "Ye-es," he said, "just giving up--a warm +man. Young Pillin's a lucky fellow--only son. So you met him at old Mr. +Heythorp's. I know him too--relation of yours, I believe." + +"Our dear Guardy such a wonderful man." + +Mr. Ventnor echoed: "Wonderful--regular old Roman." + +"Oh! but he's so kind!" Mrs. Larne lifted the white stuff: "Look what +he's given this naughty gairl!" + +Mr. Ventnor murmured: "Charming! Charming! Bob Pillin said, I think, +that Mr. Heythorp was your settlor." + +One of those little clouds which visit the brows of women who have owed +money in their time passed swiftly athwart Mrs. Larne's eyes. For a +moment they seemed saying: 'Don't you want to know too much?' Then they +slid from under it. + +"Won't you sit down?" she said. "You must forgive our being at work." + +Mr. Ventnor, who had need of sorting his impressions, shook his head. + +"Thank you; I must be getting on. Then Messrs. Scriven can--a mere +formality! Goodbye! Good-bye, Miss Larne. I'm sure the dress will be +most becoming." + +And with memories of a too clear look from the girl's eyes, of a warm +firm pressure from the woman's hand, Mr. Ventnor backed towards the door +and passed away just in time to avoid hearing in two voices: + +"What a nice lawyer!" + +"What a horrid man!" + +Back in his cab, he continued to rub his hands. No, she didn't know old +Pillin! That was certain; not from her words, but from her face. She +wanted to know him, or about him, anyway. She was trying to hook young +Bob for that sprig of a girl--it was clear as mud. H'm! it would +astonish his young friend to hear that he had called. Well, let it! And +a curious mixture of emotions beset Mr. Ventnor. He saw the whole thing +now so plainly, and really could not refrain from a certain admiration. +The law had been properly diddled! There was nothing to prevent a man +from settling money on a woman he had never seen; and so old Pillin's +settlement could probably not be upset. But old Heythorp could. It was +neat, though, oh! neat! And that was a fine woman--remarkably! He had a +sort of feeling that if only the settlement had been in danger, it might +have been worth while to have made a bargain--a woman like that could +have made it worth while! And he believed her quite capable of +entertaining the proposition! Her eye! Pity--quite a pity! Mrs. +Ventnor was not a wife who satisfied every aspiration. But alas! the +settlement was safe. This baulking of the sentiment of love, whipped up, +if anything, the longing for justice in Mr. Ventnor. That old chap +should feel his teeth now. As a piece of investigation it was not so +bad--not so bad at all! He had had a bit of luck, of course,--no, not +luck--just that knack of doing the right thing at the right moment which +marks a real genius for affairs. + +But getting into his train to return to Mrs. Ventnor, he thought: 'A +woman like that would have been--!' And he sighed. + + + + +2 + +With a neatly written cheque for fifty pounds in his pocket Bob Pillin +turned in at 23, Millicent Villas on the afternoon after Mr. Ventnor's +visit. Chivalry had won the day. And he rang the bell with an elation +which astonished him, for he knew he was doing a soft thing. + +"Mrs. Larne is out, sir; Miss Phyllis is at home." + +His heart leaped. + +"Oh-h! I'm sorry. I wonder if she'd see me?" + +The little maid answered + +"I think she's been washin' 'er'air, sir, but it may be dry be now. I'll +see." + +Bob Pillin stood stock still beneath the young woman on the wall. He +could scarcely breathe. If her hair were not dry--how awful! Suddenly he +heard floating down a clear but smothered "Oh! Gefoozleme!" and other +words which he could not catch. The little maid came running down. + +"Miss Phyllis says, sir, she'll be with you in a jiffy. And I was to +tell you that Master Jock is loose, sir." + +Bob Pillin answered "Tha-anks," and passed into the drawing-room. He +went to the bureau, took an envelope, enclosed the cheque, and addressing +it: "Mrs. Larne," replaced it in his pocket. Then he crossed over to the +mirror. Never till this last month had he really doubted his own face; +but now he wanted for it things he had never wanted. It had too much +flesh and colour. It did not reflect his passion. This was a handicap. +With a narrow white piping round his waistcoat opening, and a buttonhole +of tuberoses, he had tried to repair its deficiencies. But do what he +would, he was never easy about himself nowadays, never up to that pitch +which could make him confident in her presence. And until this month to +lack confidence had never been his wont. A clear, high, mocking voice +said: + +"Oh-h! Conceited young man!" + +And spinning round he saw Phyllis in the doorway. Her light brown hair +was fluffed out on her shoulders, so that he felt a kind of +fainting-sweet sensation, and murmured inarticulately: + +"Oh! I say--how jolly!" + +"Lawks! It's awful! Have you come to see mother?" + +Balanced between fear and daring, conscious of a scent of hay and verbena +and camomile, Bob Pillin stammered: + +"Ye-es. I--I'm glad she's not in, though." + +Her laugh seemed to him terribly unfeeling. + +"Oh! oh! Don't be foolish. Sit down. Isn't washing one's head awful?" + +Bob Pillin answered feebly: + +"Of course, I haven't much experience." + +Her mouth opened. + +"Oh! You are--aren't you?" + +And he thought desperately: 'Dare I--oughtn't I--couldn't I somehow take +her hand or put my arm round her, or something?' Instead, he sat very +rigid at his end of the sofa, while she sat lax and lissom at the other, +and one of those crises of paralysis which beset would-be lovers fixed +him to the soul. + +Sometimes during this last month memories of a past existence, when chaff +and even kisses came readily to the lips, and girls were fair game, would +make him think: 'Is she really such an innocent? Doesn't she really want +me to kiss her?' Alas! such intrusions lasted but a moment before a +blast of awe and chivalry withered them, and a strange and tragic +delicacy--like nothing he had ever known--resumed its sway. And suddenly +he heard her say: + +"Why do you know such awful men?" + +"What? I don't know any awful men." + +"Oh yes, you do; one came here yesterday; he had whiskers, and he was +awful." + +"Whiskers?" His soul revolted in disclaimer. "I believe I only know one +man with whiskers--a lawyer." + +"Yes--that was him; a perfectly horrid man. Mother didn't mind him, but +I thought he was a beast." + +"Ventnor! Came here? How d'you mean?" + +"He did; about some business of yours, too." Her face had clouded over. +Bob Pillin had of late been harassed by the still-born beginning of a +poem: + + "I rode upon my way and saw + A maid who watched me from the door." + +It never grew longer, and was prompted by the feeling that her face was +like an April day. The cloud which came on it now was like an April +cloud, as if a bright shower of rain must follow. Brushing aside the two +distressful lines, he said: + +"Look here, Miss Larne--Phyllis--look here!" + +"All right, I'm looking!" + +"What does it mean--how did he come? What did he say?" + +She shook her head, and her hair quivered; the scent of camomile, +verbena, hay was wafted; then looking at her lap, she muttered: + +"I wish you wouldn't--I wish mother wouldn't--I hate it. Oh! Money! +Beastly--beastly!" and a tearful sigh shivered itself into Bob Pillin's +reddening ears. + +"I say--don't! And do tell me, because--" + +"Oh! you know." + +"I don't--I don't know anything at all. I never---" + +Phyllis looked up at him. "Don't tell fibs; you know mother's borrowing +money from you, and it's hateful!" + +A desire to lie roundly, a sense of the cheque in his pocket, a feeling +of injustice, the emotion of pity, and a confused and black astonishment +about Ventnor, caused Bob Pillin to stammer: + +"Well, I'm d---d!" and to miss the look which Phyllis gave him through +her lashes--a look saying: + +"Ah! that's better!" + +"I am d---d! Look here! D'you mean to say that Ventnor came here about +my lending money? I never said a word to him---" + +"There you see--you are lending!" + +He clutched his hair. + +"We've got to have this out," he added. + +"Not by the roots! Oh! you do look funny. I've never seen you with your +hair untidy. Oh! oh!" + +Bob Pillin rose and paced the room. In the midst of his emotion he could +not help seeing himself sidelong in the mirror; and on pretext of holding +his head in both his hands, tried earnestly to restore his hair. Then +coming to a halt he said: + +"Suppose I am lending money to your mother, what does it matter? It's +only till quarter-day. Anybody might want money." + +Phyllis did not raise her face. + +"Why are you lending it?" + +"Because--because--why shouldn't I?" and diving suddenly, he seized her +hands. + +She wrenched them free; and with the emotion of despair, Bob Pillin took +out the envelope. + +"If you like," he said, "I'll tear this up. I don't want to lend it, if +you don't want me to; but I thought--I thought--" It was for her alone +he had been going to lend this money! + +Phyllis murmured through her hair: + +"Yes! You thought that I--that's what's so hateful!" + +Apprehension pierced his mind. + +"Oh! I never--I swear I never--" + +"Yes, you did; you thought I wanted you to lend it." + +She jumped up, and brushed past him into the window. + +So she thought she was being used as a decoy! That was awful--especially +since it was true. He knew well enough that Mrs. Larne was working his +admiration for her daughter for all that it was worth. And he said with +simple fervour: + +"What rot!" It produced no effect, and at his wits' end, he almost +shouted: "Look, Phyllis! If you don't want me to--here goes!" Phyllis +turned. Tearing the envelope across he threw the bits into the fire. +"There it is," he said. + +Her eyes grew round; she said in an awed voice: "Oh!" + +In a sort of agony of honesty he said: + +"It was only a cheque. Now you've got your way." + +Staring at the fire she answered slowly: + +"I expect you'd better go before mother comes." + +Bob Pillin's mouth fell afar; he secretly agreed, but the idea of +sacrificing a moment alone with her was intolerable, and he said hardily: + +"No, I shall stick it!" + +Phyllis sneezed. + +"My hair isn't a bit dry," and she sat down on the fender with her back +to the fire. + +A certain spirituality had come into Bob Pillin's face. If only he could +get that wheeze off: "Phyllis is my only joy!" or even: "Phyllis--do +you--won't you--mayn't I?" But nothing came--nothing. + +And suddenly she said: + +"Oh! don't breathe so loud; it's awful!" + +"Breathe? I wasn't!" + +"You were; just like Carmen when she's dreaming." + +He had walked three steps towards the door, before he thought: 'What does +it matter? I can stand anything from her; and walked the three steps +back again. + +She said softly: + +"Poor young man!" + +He answered gloomily: + +"I suppose you realise that this may be the last time you'll see me?" + +"Why? I thought you were going to take us to the theatre." + +"I don't know whether your mother will--after---" + +Phyllis gave a little clear laugh. + +"You don't know mother. Nothing makes any difference to her." + +And Bob Pillin muttered: + +"I see." He did not, but it was of no consequence. Then the thought of +Ventnor again ousted all others. What on earth-how on earth! He +searched his mind for what he could possibly have said the other night. +Surely he had not asked him to do anything; certainly not given him their +address. There was something very odd about it that had jolly well got +to be cleared up! And he said: + +"Are you sure the name of that Johnny who came here yesterday was +Ventnor?" + +Phyllis nodded. + +"And he was short, and had whiskers?" + +"Yes; red, and red eyes." + +He murmured reluctantly: + +"It must be him. Jolly good cheek; I simply can't understand. I shall +go and see him. How on earth did he know your address?" + +"I expect you gave it him." + +"I did not. I won't have you thinking me a squirt." + +Phyllis jumped up. "Oh! Lawks! Here's mother!" Mrs. Larne was coming +up the garden. Bob Pillin made for the door. "Good-bye," he said; "I'm +going." But Mrs. Larne was already in the hall. Enveloping him in fur +and her rich personality, she drew him with her into the drawing-room, +where the back window was open and Phyllis gone. + +"I hope," she said, "those naughty children have been making you +comfortable. That nice lawyer of yours came yesterday. He seemed quite +satisfied." + +Very red above his collar, Bob Pillin stammered: + +"I never told him to; he isn't my lawyer. I don't know what it means." + +Mrs. Larne smiled. "My dear boy, it's all right. You needn't be so +squeamish. I want it to be quite on a business footing." + +Restraining a fearful inclination to blurt out: "It's not going to be on +any footing!" Bob Pillin mumbled: "I must go; I'm late." + +"And when will you be able---?" + +"Oh! I'll--I'll send--I'll write. Good-bye!" And suddenly he found +that Mrs. Larne had him by the lapel of his coat. The scent of violets +and fur was overpowering, and the thought flashed through him: 'I believe +she only wanted to take money off old Joseph in the Bible. I can't leave +my coat in her hands! What shall I do?' + +Mrs. Larne was murmuring: + +"It would be so sweet of you if you could manage it today"; and her hand +slid over his chest. "Oh! You have brought your cheque-book--what a +nice boy!" + +Bob Pillin took it out in desperation, and, sitting down at the bureau, +wrote a cheque similar to that which he had torn and burned. A warm kiss +lighted on his eyebrow, his head was pressed for a moment to a furry +bosom; a hand took the cheque; a voice said: "How delightful!" and a +sigh immersed him in a bath of perfume. Backing to the door, he gasped: + +"Don't mention it; and--and don't tell Phyllis, please. Good-bye!" + +Once through the garden gate, he thought: 'By gum! I've done it now. +That Phyllis should know about it at all! That beast Ventnor!' + +His face grew almost grim. He would go and see what that meant anyway! + + + + +3 + +Mr. Ventnor had not left his office when his young friend's card was +brought to him. Tempted for a moment to deny his own presence, he +thought: 'No! What's the good? Bound to see him some time!' If he had +not exactly courage, he had that peculiar blend of self-confidence and +insensibility which must needs distinguish those who follow the law; nor +did he ever forget that he was in the right. + +"Show him in!" he said. + +He would be quite bland, but young Pillin might whistle for an +explanation; he was still tormented, too, by the memory of rich curves +and moving lips, and the possibilities of better acquaintanceship. + +While shaking the young man's hand his quick and fulvous eye detected at +once the discomposure behind that mask of cheek and collar, and relapsing +into one of those swivel chairs which give one an advantage over men more +statically seated, he said: + +"You look pretty bobbish. Anything I can do for you?" + +Bob Pillin, in the fixed chair of the consultor, nursed his bowler on his +knee. + +"Well, yes, there is. I've just been to see Mrs. Larne." + +Mr. Ventnor did not flinch. + +"Ah! Nice woman; pretty daughter, too!" And into those words he put a +certain meaning. He never waited to be bullied. Bob Pillin felt the +pressure of his blood increasing. + +"Look here, Ventnor," he said, "I want an explanation." + +"What of?" + +"Why, of your going there, and using my name, and God knows what." + +Mr. Ventnor gave his chair two little twiddles before he said + +"Well, you won't get it." + +Bob Pillin remained for a moment taken aback; then he muttered +resolutely: + +"It's not the conduct of a gentleman." + +Every man has his illusions, and no man likes them disturbed. The +gingery tint underlying Mr. Ventnor's colouring overlaid it; even the +whites of his eyes grew red." + +"Oh!" he said; "indeed! You mind your own business, will you?" + +"It is my business--very much so. You made use of my name, and I don't +choose---" + +"The devil you don't! Now, I tell you what---" + +Mr. Ventnor leaned forward--"you'd better hold your tongue, and not +exasperate me. I'm a good-tempered man, but I won't stand your +impudence." + +Clenching his bowler hat, and only kept in his seat by that sense of +something behind, Bob Pillin ejaculated: + +"Impudence! That's good--after what you did! Look here, why did you? +It's so extraordinary!" + +Mr. Ventnor answered: + +"Oh! is it? You wait a bit, my friend!" + +Still more moved by the mystery of this affair, Bob Pillin could only +mutter: + +"I never gave you their address; we were only talking about old +Heythorp." + +And at the smile which spread between Mr. Ventnor's whiskers, he jumped +up, crying: + +"It's not the thing, and you're not going to put me off. I insist on an +explanation." + +Mr. Ventnor leaned back, crossing his stout legs, joining the tips of his +thick fingers. In this attitude he was always self-possessed. + +"You do--do you?" + +"Yes. You must have had some reason." + +Mr. Ventnor gazed up at him. + +"I'll give you a piece of advice, young cock, and charge you nothing for +it, too: Ask no questions, and you'll be told no lies. And here's +another: Go away before you forget yourself again." + +The natural stolidity of Bob Pilings face was only just proof against +this speech. He said thickly: + +"If you go there again and use my name, I'll Well, it's lucky for you +you're not my age. Anyway I'll relieve you of my acquaintanceship in +future. Good-evening!" and he went to the door. Mr. Ventnor had risen. + +"Very well," he said loudly. "Good riddance! You wait and see which +boot the leg is on!" + +But Bob Pillin was gone, leaving the lawyer with a very red face, a very +angry heart, and a vague sense of disorder in his speech. Not only Bob +Pillin, but his tender aspirations had all left him; he no longer dallied +with the memory of Mrs. Larne, but like a man and a Briton thought only +of how to get his own back, and punish evildoers. The atrocious words of +his young friend, "It's not the conduct of a gentleman," festered in the +heart of one who was made gentle not merely by nature but by Act of +Parliament, and he registered a solemn vow to wipe the insult out, if not +with blood, with verjuice. It was his duty, and they should d---d well +see him do it! + + + + +IV + +Sylvanus Heythorp seldom went to bed before one or rose before eleven. +The latter habit alone kept his valet from handing in the resignation +which the former habit prompted almost every night. + +Propped on his pillows in a crimson dressing-gown, and freshly shaved, he +looked more Roman than he ever did, except in his bath. Having disposed +of coffee, he was wont to read his letters, and The Morning Post, for he +had always been a Tory, and could not stomach paying a halfpenny for his +news. Not that there were many letters--when a man has reached the age +of eighty, who should write to him, except to ask for money? + +It was Valentine's Day. Through his bedroom window he could see the +trees of the park, where the birds were in song, though he could not hear +them. He had never been interested in Nature--full-blooded men with +short necks seldom are. + +This morning indeed there were two letters, and he opened that which +smelt of something. Inside was a thing like a Christmas card, save that +the naked babe had in his hands a bow and arrow, and words coming out of +his mouth: "To be your Valentine." There was also a little pink note +with one blue forget-me-not printed at the top. It ran: + +"DEAREST GUARDY,--I'm sorry this is such a mangy little valentine; I +couldn't go out to get it because I've got a beastly cold, so I asked +Jock, and the pig bought this. The satin is simply scrumptious. If you +don't come and see me in it some time soon, I shall come and show it to +you. I wish I had a moustache, because my top lip feels just like a +matchbox, but it's rather ripping having breakfast in bed. Mr. Pillin's +taking us to the theatre the day after to-morrow evening. Isn't it +nummy! I'm going to have rum and honey for my cold. + +"Good-bye, "Your PHYLLIS." + +So this that quivered in his thick fingers, too insensitive to feel it, +was a valentine for him! + +Forty years ago that young thing's grandmother had given him his last. +It made him out a very old chap! Forty years ago! Had that been himself +living then? And himself, who, as a youth came on the town in +'forty-five? Not a thought, not a feeling the same! They said you +changed your body every seven years. The mind with it, too, perhaps! +Well, he had come to the last of his bodies, now! And that holy woman +had been urging him to take it to Bath, with her face as long as a +tea-tray, and some gammon from that doctor of his. Too full a +habit--dock his port--no alcohol--might go off in a coma any night! +Knock off not he! Rather die any day than turn tee-totaller! When a man +had nothing left in life except his dinner, his bottle, his cigar, and +the dreams they gave him--these doctors forsooth must want to cut them +off! No, no! Carpe diem! while you lived, get something out of it. And +now that he had made all the provision he could for those youngsters, his +life was no good to any one but himself; and the sooner he went off the +better, if he ceased to enjoy what there was left, or lost the power to +say: "I'll do this and that, and you be jiggered!" Keep a stiff lip +until you crashed, and then go clean! He sounded the bell beside him +twice-for Molly, not his man. And when the girl came in, and stood, +pretty in her print frock, her fluffy over-fine dark hair escaping from +under her cap, he gazed at her in silence. + +"Yes, sirr?" + +"Want to look at you, that's all." + +"Oh I an' I'm not tidy, sirr." + +"Never mind. Had your valentine?" + +"No, sirr; who would send me one, then?" + +"Haven't you a young man?" + +"Well, I might. But he's over in my country. + +"What d'you think of this?" + +He held out the little boy. + +The girl took the card and scrutinised it reverently; she said in a +detached voice: + +"Indeed, an' ut's pretty, too." + +"Would you like it?" + +"Oh I if 'tis not taking ut from you." + +Old Heythorp shook his head, and pointed to the dressing-table. + +"Over there--you'll find a sovereign. Little present for a good girl." + +She uttered a deep sigh. "Oh! sirr, 'tis too much; 'tis kingly." + +"Take it." + +She took it, and came back, her hands clasping the sovereign and the +valentine, in an attitude as of prayer. + +The old man's gaze rested on her with satisfaction. + +"I like pretty faces--can't bear sour ones. Tell Meller to get my bath +ready." + +When she had gone he took up the other letter--some lawyer's writing, and +opening it with the usual difficulty, read: + +"February 13, 1905. + +"SIR,--Certain facts having come to my knowledge, I deem it my duty to +call a special meeting of the shareholders of 'The Island Navigation +Coy.,' to consider circumstances in connection with the purchase of Mr. +Joseph Pillin's fleet. And I give you notice that at this meeting your +conduct will be called in question. + +"I am, Sir, "Yours faithfully, +"CHARLES VENTNOR. +"SYLVANUS HEYTHORP, ESQ." + +Having read this missive, old Heythorp remained some minutes without +stirring. Ventnor! That solicitor chap who had made himself unpleasant +at the creditors' meetings! + +There are men whom a really bad bit of news at once stampedes out of all +power of coherent thought and action, and men who at first simply do not +take it in. Old Heythorp took it in fast enough; coming from a lawyer it +was about as nasty as it could be. But, at once, with stoic wariness his +old brain began casting round. What did this fellow really know? And +what exactly could he do? One thing was certain; even if he knew +everything, he couldn't upset that settlement. The youngsters were all +right. The old man grasped the fact that only his own position was at +stake. But this was enough in all conscience; a name which had been +before the public fifty odd years--income, independence, more perhaps. +It would take little, seeing his age and feebleness, to make his +Companies throw him over. But what had the fellow got hold of? How +decide whether or no to take notice; to let him do his worst, or try and +get into touch with him? And what was the fellow's motive? He held ten +shares! That would never make a man take all this trouble, and over a +purchase which was really first-rate business for the Company. Yes! His +conscience was quite clean. He had not betrayed his Company--on the +contrary, had done it a good turn, got them four sound ships at a low +price--against much opposition. That he might have done the Company a +better turn, and got the ships at fifty-four thousand, did not trouble +him--the six thousand was a deuced sight better employed; and he had not +pocketed a penny piece himself! But the fellow's motive? Spite? Looked +like it. Spite, because he had been disappointed of his money, and +defied into the bargain! H'm! If that were so, he might still be got to +blow cold again. His eyes lighted on the pink note with the blue +forget-me-not. It marked as it were the high water mark of what was left +to him of life; and this other letter in his hand-by Jove! Low water +mark! And with a deep and rumbling sigh he thought: 'No, I'm not going +to be beaten by this fellow.' + +"Your bath is ready, sir." + +Crumpling the two letters into the pocket of his dressing-gown, he said: + +"Help me up; and telephone to Mr. Farney to be good enough to come +round." .... + +An hour later, when the secretary entered, his chairman was sitting by +the fire perusing the articles of association. And, waiting for him to +look up, watching the articles shaking in that thick, feeble hand, the +secretary had one of those moments of philosophy not too frequent with +his kind. Some said the only happy time of life was when you had no +passions, nothing to hope and live for. But did you really ever reach +such a stage? The old chairman, for instance, still had his passion for +getting his own way, still had his prestige, and set a lot of store by +it! And he said: + +"Good morning, sir; I hope you're all right in this east wind. The +purchase is completed." + +"Best thing the company ever did. Have you heard from a shareholder +called Ventnor. You know the man I mean?" + +"No, sir. I haven't." + +"Well! You may get a letter that'll make you open your eyes. An +impudent scoundrel! Just write at my dictation." + +"February 14th, 1905. + +"CHARLES VENTNOR, Esq. + +"SIR,--I have your letter of yesterday's date, the contents of which I am +at a loss to understand. My solicitors will be instructed to take the +necessary measures." + +'Phew What's all this about?' the secretary thought. + +"Yours truly...." + +"I'll sign." And the shaky letters closed the page: +"SYLVANUS HEYTHORP." + +"Post that as you go." + +"Anything else I can do for you, sir?" + +"Nothing, except to let me know if you hear from this fellow." + +When the secretary had gone the old man thought: 'So! The ruffian hasn't +called the meeting yet. That'll bring him round here fast enough if it's +his money he wants-blackmailing scoundrel!' + +"Mr. Pillin, sir; and will you wait lunch, or will you have it in the +dining-room?" + +"In the dining-room." + +At sight of that death's-head of a fellow, old Heythorp felt a sort of +pity. He looked bad enough already--and this news would make him look +worse. Joe Pillin glanced round at the two closed doors. + +"How are you, Sylvanus? I'm very poorly." He came closer, and lowered +his voice: "Why did you get me to make that settlement? I must have been +mad. I've had a man called Ventnor--I didn't like his manner. He asked +me if I knew a Mrs. Larne." + +"Ha! What did you say?" + +"What could I say? I don't know her. But why did he ask?" + +"Smells a rat." + +Joe Pillin grasped the edge of the table with both hands. + +"Oh!" he murmured. "Oh! don't say that!" + +Old Heythorp held out to him the crumpled letter. + +When he had read it Joe Pillin sat down abruptly before the fire. + +"Pull yourself together, Joe; they can't touch you, and they can't upset +either the purchase or the settlement. They can upset me, that's all." + +Joe Pillin answered, with trembling lips: + +"How you can sit there, and look the same as ever! Are you sure they +can't touch me?" + +Old Heyworth nodded grimly. + +"They talk of an Act, but they haven't passed it yet. They might prove a +breach of trust against me. But I'll diddle them. Keep your pecker up, +and get off abroad." + +"Yes, yes. I must. I'm very bad. I was going to-morrow. But I don't +know, I'm sure, with this hanging over me. My son knowing her makes it +worse. He picks up with everybody. He knows this man Ventnor too. And +I daren't say anything to Bob. What are you thinking of, Sylvanus? You +look very funny!" + +Old Heythorp seemed to rouse himself from a sort of coma. + +"I want my lunch," he said. "Will you stop and have some?" + +Joe Pillin stammered out: + +"Lunch! I don't know when I shall eat again. What are you going to do, +Sylvanus?" + +"Bluff the beggar out of it." + +"But suppose you can't?" + +"Buy him off. He's one--of my creditors." + +Joe Pillin stared at him afresh. "You always had such nerve," he said +yearningly. "Do you ever wake up between two and four? I do--and +everything's black." + +"Put a good stiff nightcap on, my boy, before going to bed." + +"Yes; I sometimes wish I was less temperate. But I couldn't stand it. +I'm told your doctor forbids you alcohol." + +"He does. That's why I drink it." + +Joe Pillin, brooding over the fire, said: "This meeting--d'you think they +mean to have it? D'you think this man really knows? If my name gets +into the newspapers--" but encountering his old friend's deep little +eyes, he stopped. "So you advise me to get off to-morrow, then?" + +Old Heythorp nodded. + +"Your lunch is served, sir." + +Joe Pillin started violently, and rose. + +"Well, good-bye, Sylvanus-good-bye! I don't suppose I shall be back till +the summer, if I ever come back!" He sank his voice: "I shall rely on +you. You won't let them, will you?" + +Old Heythorp lifted his hand, and Joe Pillin put into that swollen +shaking paw his pale and spindly fingers. "I wish I had your pluck," he +said sadly. "Good-bye, Sylvanus," and turning, he passed out. + +Old Heythorp thought: 'Poor shaky chap. All to pieces at the first +shot!' And, going to his lunch, ate more heavily than usual. + + + + +2 + +Mr. Ventnor, on reaching his office and opening his letters, found, as he +had anticipated, one from "that old rascal." Its contents excited in him +the need to know his own mind. Fortunately this was not complicated by a +sense of dignity--he only had to consider the position with an eye on not +being made to look a fool. The point was simply whether he set more +store by his money than by his desire for--er--Justice. If not, he had +merely to convene the special meeting, and lay before it the plain fact +that Mr. Joseph Pillin, selling his ships for sixty thousand pounds, had +just made a settlement of six thousand pounds on a lady whom he did not +know, a daughter, ward, or what-not--of the purchasing company's +chairman, who had said, moreover, at the general meeting, that he stood +or fell by the transaction; he had merely to do this, and demand that an +explanation be required from the old man of such a startling coincidence. +Convinced that no explanation would hold water, he felt sure that his +action would be at once followed by the collapse, if nothing more, of +that old image, and the infliction of a nasty slur on old Pillin and his +hopeful son. On the other hand, three hundred pounds was money; and, if +old Heythorp were to say to him: "What do you want to make this fuss +for--here's what I owe you!" could a man of business and the world let +his sense of justice--however he might itch to have it satisfied--stand +in the way of what was after all also his sense of Justice?--for this +money had been owing to him for the deuce of along time. In this +dilemma, the words: + +"My solicitors will be instructed" were of notable service in helping him +to form a decision, for he had a certain dislike of other solicitors, and +an intimate knowledge of the law of libel and slander; if by any remote +chance there should be a slip between the cup and the lip, Charles +Ventnor might be in the soup--a position which he deprecated both by +nature and profession. High thinking, therefore, decided him at last to +answer thus: + +"February 19th, 1905. + +"SIR,--I have received your note. I think it may be fair, before taking +further steps in this matter, to ask you for a personal explanation of +the circumstances to which I alluded. I therefore propose with your +permission to call on you at your private residence at five o'clock +to-morrow afternoon. + +"Yours faithfully, +"CHARLES VENTNOR. + +"SYLVANUS HEYTHORP, Esq." + +Having sent this missive, and arranged in his mind the damning, if +circumstantial, evidence he had accumulated, he awaited the hour with +confidence, for his nature was not lacking in the cock-surety of a +Briton. All the same, he dressed himself particularly well that morning, +putting on a blue and white striped waistcoat which, with a +cream-coloured tie, set off his fulvous whiskers and full blue eyes; and +he lunched, if anything, more fully than his wont, eating a stronger +cheese and taking a glass of special Club ale. He took care to be late, +too, to show the old fellow that his coming at all was in the nature of +an act of grace. A strong scent of hyacinths greeted him in the hall; +and Mr. Ventnor, who was an amateur of flowers, stopped to put his nose +into a fine bloom and think uncontrollably of Mrs. Larne. Pity! The +things one had to give up in life--fine women--one thing and another. +Pity! The thought inspired in him a timely anger; and he followed the +servant, intending to stand no nonsense from this paralytic old rascal. + +The room he entered was lighted by a bright fire, and a single electric +lamp with an orange shade on a table covered by a black satin cloth. +There were heavily gleaming oil paintings on the walls, a heavy old brass +chandelier without candles, heavy dark red curtains, and an indefinable +scent of burnt acorns, coffee, cigars, and old man. He became conscious +of a candescent spot on the far side of the hearth, where the light fell +on old Heythorp's thick white hair. + +"Mr. Ventnor, sir." + +The candescent spot moved. A voice said: "Sit down." + +Mr. Ventnor sat in an armchair on the opposite side of the fire; and, +finding a kind of somnolence creeping over him, pinched himself. He +wanted all his wits about him. + +The old man was speaking in that extinct voice of his, and Mr. Ventnor +said rather pettishly: + +"Beg pardon, I don't get you." + +Old Heythorp's voice swelled with sudden force: + +"Your letters are Greek to me." + +"Oh! indeed, I think we can soon make them into plain English!" + +"Sooner the better." + +Mr. Ventnor passed through a moment of indecision. Should he lay his +cards on the table? It was not his habit, and the proceeding was +sometimes attended with risk. The knowledge, however, that he could +always take them up again, seeing there was no third person here to +testify that he had laid them down, decided him, and he said: + +"Well, Mr. Heythorp, the long and short of the matter is this: Our friend +Mr. Pillin paid you a commission of ten per cent. on the sale of his +ships. Oh! yes. He settled the money, not on you, but on your relative +Mrs. Larne and her children. This, as you know, is a breach of trust on +your part." + +The old man's voice: "Where did you get hold of that cock-and-bull +story?" brought him to his feet before the fire. + +"It won't do, Mr. Heythorp. My witnesses are Mr. Pillin, Mrs. Larne, and +Mr. Scriven." + +"What have you come here for, then--blackmail?" + +Mr. Ventnor straightened his waistcoat; a rush of conscious virtue had +dyed his face. + +"Oh! you take that tone," he said, "do you? You think you can ride +roughshod over everything? Well, you're very much mistaken. I advise +you to keep a civil tongue and consider your position, or I'll make a +beggar of you. I'm not sure this isn't a case for a prosecution!" + +"Gammon!" + +The choler in Charles Ventnor kept him silent for a moment; then he burst +out: + +"Neither gammon nor spinach. You owe me three hundred pounds, you've +owed it me for years, and you have the impudence to take this attitude +with me, have you? Now, I never bluster; I say what I mean. You just +listen to me. Either you pay me what you owe me at once, or I call this +meeting and make what I know public. You'll very soon find out where you +are. And a good thing, too, for a more unscrupulous--unscrupulous---" he +paused for breath. + +Occupied with his own emotion, he had not observed the change in old +Heythorp's face. The imperial on that lower lip was bristling, the +crimson of those cheeks had spread to the roots of his white hair. He +grasped the arms of his chair, trying to rise; his swollen hands +trembled; a little saliva escaped one corner of his lips. And the words +came out as if shaken by his teeth: + +"So-so-you-you bully me!" + +Conscious that the interview had suddenly passed from the phase of +negotiation, Mr. Ventnor looked hard at his opponent. He saw nothing but +a decrepit, passionate, crimson-faced old man at bay, and all the +instincts of one with everything on his side boiled up in him. The +miserable old turkey-cock--the apoplectic image! And he said: + +"And you'll do no good for yourself by getting into a passion. At your +age, and in your condition, I recommend a little prudence. Now just take +my terms quietly, or you know what'll happen. I'm not to be intimidated +by any of your airs." And seeing that the old man's rage was such that +he simply could not speak, he took the opportunity of going on: "I don't +care two straws which you do--I'm out to show you who's master. If you +think in your dotage you can domineer any longer--well, you'll find two +can play at that game. Come, now, which are you going to do?" + +The old man had sunk back in his chair, and only his little deep-blue +eyes seemed living. Then he moved one hand, and Mr. Ventnor saw that he +was fumbling to reach the button of an electric bell at the end of a +cord. 'I'll show him,' he thought, and stepping forward, he put it out +of reach. + +Thus frustrated, the old man remained-motionless, staring up. The word +"blackmail" resumed its buzzing in Mr. Ventnor's ears. The impudence the +consummate impudence of it from this fraudulent old ruffian with one foot +in bankruptcy and one foot in the grave, if not in the dock. + +"Yes," he said, "it's never too late to learn; and for once you've come +up against someone a leetle bit too much for you. Haven't you now? +You'd better cry 'Peccavi.'" + +Then, in the deathly silence of the room, the moral force of his +position, and the collapse as it seemed of his opponent, awakening a +faint compunction, he took a turn over the Turkey carpet to readjust his +mind. + +"You're an old man, and I don't want to be too hard on you. I'm only +showing you that you can't play fast and loose as if you were God +Almighty any longer. You've had your own way too many years. And now +you can't have it, see!" Then, as the old man again moved forward in his +chair, he added: "Now, don't get into a passion again; calm yourself, +because I warn you--this is your last chance. I'm a man of my word; and +what I say, I do." + +By a violent and unsuspected effort the old man jerked himself up and +reached the bell. Mr. Ventnor heard it ring, and said sharply: + +"Mind you, it's nothing to me which you do. I came for your own good. +Please yourself. Well?" + +He was answered by the click of the door and the old man's husky voice: + +"Show this hound out! And then come back!" + +Mr. Ventnor had presence of mind enough not to shake his fist. Muttering: +"Very well, Mr. Heythorp! Ah! Very well!" he moved with dignity to the +door. The careful shepherding of the servant renewed the fire of his +anger. Hound! He had been called a hound! + + + + +3 + +After seeing Mr. Ventnor off the premises the man Meller returned to his +master, whose face looked very odd--"all patchy-like," as he put it in +the servants' hall, as though the blood driven to his head had mottled +for good the snowy whiteness of the forehead. He received the unexpected +order: + +"Get me a hot bath ready, and put some pine stuff in it." + +When the old man was seated there, the valet asked: + +"How long shall I give you, sir?" + +"Twenty minutes." + +"Very good, sir." + +Lying in that steaming brown fragrant liquid, old Heythorp heaved a +stertorous sigh. By losing his temper with that ill-conditioned cur he +had cooked his goose. It was done to a turn; and he was a ruined man. +If only--oh! if only he could have seized the fellow by the neck and +pitched him out of the room! To have lived to be so spoken to; to have +been unable to lift hand or foot, hardly even his voice--he would sooner +have been dead! Yes--sooner have been dead! A dumb and measureless +commotion was still at work in the recesses of that thick old body, +silver-brown in the dark water, whose steam he drew deep into his +wheezing lungs, as though for spiritual relief. To be beaten by a cur +like that! To have that common cad of a pettifogging lawyer drag him +down and kick him about; tumble a name which had stood high, in the dust! +The fellow had the power to make him a byword and a beggar! It was +incredible! But it was a fact. And to-morrow he would begin to do +it--perhaps had begun already. His tree had come down with a crash! +Eighty years-eighty good years! He regretted none of them-regretted +nothing; least of all this breach of trust which had provided for his +grandchildren--one of the best things he had ever done. The fellow was a +cowardly hound, too! The way he had snatched the bell-pull out of his +reach-despicable cur! And a chap like that was to put "paid" to the +account of Sylvanus Heythorp, to "scratch" him out of life--so near the +end of everything, the very end! His hand raised above the surface fell +back on his stomach through the dark water, and a bubble or two rose. Not +so fast--not so fast! He had but to slip down a foot, let the water +close over his head, and "Good-bye" to Master Ventnor's triumph Dead men +could not be kicked off the Boards of Companies. Dead men could not be +beggared, deprived of their independence. He smiled and stirred a little +in the bath till the water reached the white hairs on his lower lip. It +smelt nice! And he took a long sniff: He had had a good life, a good +life! And with the thought that he had it in his power at any moment to +put Master Ventnor's nose out of joint--to beat the beggar after all, a +sense of assuagement and well-being crept over him. His blood ran more +evenly again. He closed his eyes. They talked about an +after-life--people like that holy woman. Gammon! You went to sleep--a +long sleep; no dreams. A nap after dinner! Dinner! His tongue sought +his palate! Yes! he could eat a good dinner! That dog hadn't put him +off his stroke! The best dinner he had ever eaten was the one he gave to +Jack Herring, Chichester, Thornworthy, Nick Treffry and Jolyon Forsyte at +Pole's. Good Lord! In 'sixty--yes--'sixty-five? Just before he fell in +love with Alice Larne--ten years before he came to Liverpool. That was a +dinner! Cost twenty-four pounds for the six of them--and Forsyte an +absurdly moderate fellow. Only Nick Treff'ry and himself had been +three-bottle men! Dead! Every jack man of them. And suddenly he +thought: 'My name's a good one--I was never down before--never beaten!' + +A voice above the steam said: + +"The twenty minutes is up, sir." + +"All right; I'll get out. Evening clothes." + +And Meller, taking out dress suit and shirt, thought: 'Now, what does the +old bloomer want dressin' up again for; why can't he go to bed and have +his dinner there? When a man's like a baby, the cradle's the place for +him.'.... + +An hour later, at the scene of his encounter with Mr. Ventnor, where the +table was already laid for dinner, old Heythorp stood and gazed. The +curtains had been drawn back, the window thrown open to air the room, and +he could see out there the shapes of the dark trees and a sky +grape-coloured, in the mild, moist night. It smelt good. A sensuous +feeling stirred in him, warm from his bath, clothed from head to foot in +fresh garments. Deuce of a time since he had dined in full fig! He +would have liked a woman dining opposite--but not the holy woman; no, by +George!--would have liked to see light falling on a woman's shoulders +once again, and a pair of bright eyes! He crossed, snail-like, towards +the fire. There that bullying fellow had stood with his back to +it--confound his impudence!--as if the place belonged to him. And +suddenly he had a vision of his three secretaries' faces--especially +young Farney's as they would look, when the pack got him by the throat +and pulled him down. His co-directors, too! Old Heythorp! How are the +mighty fallen! And that hound jubilant! + +His valet passed across the room to shut the window and draw the +curtains. This chap too! The day he could no longer pay his wages, and +had lost the power to say "Shan't want your services any more"--when he +could no longer even pay his doctor for doing his best to kill him off! +Power, interest, independence, all--gone! To be dressed and undressed, +given pap, like a baby in arms, served as they chose to serve him, and +wished out of the way--broken, dishonoured! + +By money alone an old man had his being! Meat, drink, movement, breath! +When all his money was gone the holy woman would let him know it fast +enough. They would all let him know it; or if they didn't, it would be +out of pity! He had never been pitied yet--thank God! And he said: + +"Get me up a bottle of Perrier Jouet. What's the menu?" + +"Germane soup, sir; filly de sole; sweetbread; cutlet soubees, rum +souffly." + +"Tell her to give me a hors d'oeuvre, and put on a savoury." + +"Yes, sir." + +When the man had gone, he thought: 'I should have liked an oyster--too +late now!' and going over to his bureau, he fumblingly pulled out the top +drawer. There was little in it--Just a few papers, business papers on +his Companies, and a schedule of his debts; not even a copy of his +will--he had not made one, nothing to leave! Letters he had never kept. +Half a dozen bills, a few receipts, and the little pink note with the +blue forget-me-not. That was the lot! An old tree gives up bearing +leaves, and its roots dry up, before it comes down in a wind; an old +man's world slowly falls away from him till he stands alone in the night. +Looking at the pink note, he thought: 'Suppose I'd married Alice--a man +never had a better mistress!' He fumbled the drawer to; but still he +strayed feebly about the room, with a curious shrinking from sitting +down, legacy from the quarter of an hour he had been compelled to sit +while that hound worried at his throat. He was opposite one of the +pictures now. It gleamed, dark and oily, limning a Scots Grey who had +mounted a wounded Russian on his horse, and was bringing him back +prisoner from the Balaclava charge. A very old friend--bought in +'fifty-nine. It had hung in his chambers in the Albany--hung with him +ever since. With whom would it hang when he was gone? For that holy +woman would scrap it, to a certainty, and stick up some Crucifixion or +other, some new-fangled high art thing! She could even do that now if +she liked--for she owned it, owned every mortal stick in the room, to the +very glass he would drink his champagne from; all made over under the +settlement fifteen years ago, before his last big gamble went wrong. "De +l'audace, toujours de l'audace!" The gamble which had brought him down +till his throat at last was at the mercy of a bullying hound. The pitcher +and the well! At the mercy---! The sound of a popping cork dragged him +from reverie. He moved to his seat, back to the window, and sat down to +his dinner. By George! They had got him an oyster! And he said: + +"I've forgotten my teeth!" + +While the man was gone for them, he swallowed the oysters, methodically +touching them one by one with cayenne, Chili vinegar, and lemon. Ummm! +Not quite what they used to be at Pimm's in the best days, but not +bad--not bad! Then seeing the little blue bowl lying before him, he +looked up and said: + +"My compliments to cook on the oysters. Give me the champagne." And he +lifted his trembling teeth. Thank God, he could still put 'em in for +himself! The creaming goldenish fluid from the napkined bottle slowly +reached the brim of his glass, which had a hollow stem; raising it to his +lips, very red between the white hairs above and below, he drank with a +gurgling noise, and put the glass down-empty. Nectar! And just cold +enough! + +"I frapped it the least bit, sir." + +"Quite right. What's that smell of flowers?" + +"It's from those 'yacinths on the sideboard, sir. They come from Mrs. +Larne, this afternoon." + +"Put 'em on the table. Where's my daughter?" + +"She's had dinner, sir; goin' to a ball, I think." + +"A ball!" + +"Charity ball, I fancy, sir." + +"Ummm! Give me a touch of the old sherry with the soup." + +"Yes, sir. I shall have to open a bottle:" + +"Very well, then, do!" + +On his way to the cellar the man confided to Molly, who was carrying the +soup: + +"The Gov'nor's going it to-night! What he'll be like tomorrow I dunno." + +The girl answered softly: + +"Poor old man, let um have his pleasure." And, in the hall, with the +soup tureen against her bosom, she hummed above the steam, and thought of +the ribbons on her new chemises, bought out of the sovereign he had given +her. + +And old Heythorp, digesting his osyters, snuffed the scent of the +hyacinths, and thought of the St. Germain, his favourite soup. It would +n't be first-rate, at this time of year--should be made with little young +home-grown peas. Paris was the place for it. Ah! The French were the +fellows for eating, and--looking things in the face! Not hypocrites--not +ashamed of their reason or their senses! + +The soup came in. He sipped it, bending forward as far as he could, his +napkin tucked in over his shirt-front like a bib. He got the bouquet of +that sherry to a T--his sense of smell was very keen to-night; rare old +stuff it was--more than a year since he had tasted it--but no one drank +sherry nowadays, hadn't the constitution for it! The fish came up, and +went down; and with the sweetbread he took his second glass of champagne. +Always the best, that second glass--the stomach well warmed, and the +palate not yet dulled. Umm! So that fellow thought he had him beaten, +did he? And he said suddenly: + +"The fur coat in the wardrobe, I've no use for it. You can take it away +to-night." + +With tempered gratitude the valet answered: + +"Thank you, sir; much obliged, I'm sure." So the old buffer had found +out there was moth in it! + +"Have I worried you much?" + +"No, sir; not at all, sir--that is, no more than reason." + +"Afraid I have. Very sorry--can't help it. You'll find that, when you +get like me." + +"Yes, sir; I've always admired your pluck, sir. + +"Um! Very good of you to say so." + +"Always think of you keepin' the flag flying', sir." + +Old Heythorp bent his body from the waist. + +"Much obliged to you." + +"Not at all, sir. Cook's done a little spinach in cream with the +soubees." + +"Ah! Tell her from me it's a capital dinner, so far." + +"Thank you, sir." + +Alone again, old Heythorp sat unmoving, his brain just narcotically +touched. "The flag flyin'--the flag flyin'!" He raised his glass and +sucked. He had an appetite now, and finished the three cutlets, and all +the sauce and spinach. Pity! he could have managed a snipe fresh shot! +A desire to delay, to lengthen dinner, was strong upon him; there were +but the souffle' and the savoury to come. He would have enjoyed, too, +someone to talk to. He had always been fond of good company--been good +company himself, or so they said--not that he had had a chance of late. +Even at the Boards they avoided talking to him, he had noticed for a long +time. Well! that wouldn't trouble him again--he had sat through his last +Board, no doubt. They shouldn't kick him off, though; he wouldn't give +them that pleasure--had seen the beggars hankering after his chairman's +shoes too long. The souffle was before him now, and lifting his glass, he +said: + +"Fill up." + +"These are the special glasses, sir; only four to the bottle." + +"Fill up." + +The servant filled, screwing up his mouth. + +Old Heythorp drank, and put the glass down empty with a sigh. He had +been faithful to his principles, finished the bottle before touching the +sweet--a good bottle--of a good brand! And now for the souffle! +Delicious, flipped down with the old sherry! So that holy woman was +going to a ball, was she! How deuced funny! Who would dance with a dry +stick like that, all eaten up with a piety which was just sexual +disappointment? Ah! yes, lots of women like that--had often noticed +'em--pitied 'em too, until you had to do with them and they made you as +unhappy as themselves, and were tyrants into the bargain. And he asked: + +"What's the savoury?" + +"Cheese remmykin, sir." + +His favourite. + +"I'll have my port with it--the 'sixty-eight." The man stood gazing with +evident stupefaction. He had not expected this. The old man's face was +very flushed, but that might be the bath. He said feebly: + +"Are you sure you ought, sir?" + +"No, but I'm going to." + +"Would you mind if I spoke to Miss Heythorp, Sir?" + +"If you do, you can leave my service." + +"Well, Sir, I don't accept the responsibility." + +"Who asked you to?" + +"No, Sir...." + +"Well, get it, then; and don't be an ass." + +"Yes, Sir." If the old man were not humoured he would have a fit, +perhaps! + +And the old man sat quietly staring at the hyacinths. He felt happy, his +whole being lined and warmed and drowsed--and there was more to come! +What had the holy folk to give you compared with the comfort of a good +dinner? Could they make you dream, and see life rosy for a little? No, +they could only give you promissory notes which never would be cashed. A +man had nothing but his pluck--they only tried to undermine it, and make +him squeal for help. He could see his precious doctor throwing up his +hands: "Port after a bottle of champagne--you'll die of it!" And a very +good death too--none better. A sound broke the silence of the closed-up +room. Music? His daughter playing the piano overhead. Singing too! +What a trickle of a voice! Jenny Lind! The Swedish nightingale--he had +never missed the nights when she was singing--Jenny Lind! + +"It's very hot, sir. Shall I take it out of the case?" + +Ah! The ramequin! + +"Touch of butter, and the cayenne!" + +"Yes, sir." + +He ate it slowly, savouring each mouthful; had never tasted a better. +With cheese--port! He drank one glass, and said: + +"Help me to my chair." + +And settled there before the fire with decanter and glass and hand-bell +on the little low table by his side, he murmured: + +"Bring coffee, and my cigar, in twenty minutes." + +To-night he would do justice to his wine, not smoking till he had +finished. As old Horace said: + +"Aequam memento rebus in arduis Servare mentem." + +And, raising his glass, he sipped slowly, spilling a drop or two, +shutting his eyes. + +The faint silvery squealing of the holy woman in the room above, the +scent of hyacinths, the drowse of the fire, on which a cedar log had just +been laid, the feeling of the port soaking down into the crannies of his +being, made up a momentary Paradise. Then the music stopped; and no +sound rose but the tiny groans of the log trying to resist the fire. +Dreamily he thought: 'Life wears you out--wears you out. Logs on a +fire!' And he filled his glass again. That fellow had been careless; +there were dregs at the bottom of the decanter and he had got down to +them! Then, as the last drop from his tilted glass trickled into the +white hairs on his chin, he heard the coffee tray put down, and taking +his cigar he put it to his ear, rolling it in his thick fingers. In +prime condition! And drawing a first whiff, he said: + +"Open that bottle of the old brandy in the sideboard." + +"Brandy, sir? I really daren't, sir." + +"Are you my servant or not?" + +"Yes, sir, but---" + +A minute of silence, then the man went hastily to the sideboard, took out +the bottle, and drew the cork. The tide of crimson in the old man's face +had frightened him. + +"Leave it there." + +The unfortunate valet placed the bottle on the little table. 'I'll have +to tell her,' he thought; 'but if I take away the port decanter and the +glass, it won't look so bad.' And, carrying them, he left the room. + +Slowly the old man drank his coffee, and the liqueur of brandy. The +whole gamut! And watching his cigar-smoke wreathing blue in the orange +glow, he smiled. The last night to call his soul his own, the last night +of his independence. Send in his resignations to-morrow--not wait to be +kicked off! Not give that fellow a chance! + +A voice which seemed to come from far off, said: + +"Father! You're drinking brandy! How can you--you know it's simple +poison to you!" A figure in white, scarcely actual, loomed up close. He +took the bottle to fill up his liqueur glass, in defiance; but a hand in +a long white glove, with another dangling from its wrist, pulled it away, +shook it at him, and replaced it in the sideboard. And, just as when Mr. +Ventnor stood there accusing him, a swelling and churning in his throat +prevented him from speech; his lips moved, but only a little froth came +forth. + +His daughter had approached again. She stood quite close, in white +satin, thin-faced, sallow, with eyebrows raised, and her dark hair +frizzed--yes! frizzed--the holy woman! With all his might he tried to +say: 'So you bully me, do you--you bully me to-night!' but only the word +"so" and a sort of whispering came forth. He heard her speaking. "It's +no good your getting angry, Father. After champagne--it's wicked!" Then +her form receded in a sort of rustling white mist; she was gone; and he +heard the sputtering and growling of her taxi, bearing her to the ball. +So! She tyrannised and bullied, even before she had him at her mercy, +did she? She should see! Anger had brightened his eyes; the room came +clear again. And slowly raising himself he sounded the bell twice, for +the girl, not for that fellow Meller, who was in the plot. As soon as +her pretty black and white-aproned figure stood before him, he said: + +"Help me up." + +Twice her soft pulling was not enough, and he sank back. The third time +he struggled to his feet. + +"Thank you; that'll do." Then, waiting till she was gone, he crossed the +room, fumbled open the sideboard door, and took out the bottle. Reaching +over the polished oak, he grasped a sherry glass; and holding the bottle +with both hands, tipped the liquor into it, put it to his lips and +sucked. Drop by drop it passed over his palate mild, very old, old as +himself, coloured like sunlight, fragrant. To the last drop he drank it, +then hugging the bottle to his shirt-front, he moved snail-like to his +chair, and fell back into its depths. For some minutes he remained there +motionless, the bottle clasped to his chest, thinking: 'This is not the +attitude of a gentleman. I must put it down on the table-on the table;' +but a thick cloud was between him and everything. It was with his hands +he would have to put the bottle on the table! But he could not find his +hands, could not feel them. His mind see-sawed in strophe and +antistrophe: "You can't move!"--"I will move!" "You're beaten"--"I'm not +beat." "Give up"--"I won't." That struggle to find his hands seemed to +last for ever--he must find them! After that--go down--all +standing--after that! Everything round him was red. Then the red cloud +cleared just a little, and he could hear the clock--"tick-tick-tick"; a +faint sensation spread from his shoulders down to his wrists, down his +palms; and yes--he could feel the bottle! He redoubled his struggle to +get forward in his chair; to get forward and put the bottle down. It was +not dignified like this! One arm he could move now; but he could not +grip the bottle nearly tight enough to put it down. Working his whole +body forward, inch by inch, he shifted himself up in the chair till he +could lean sideways, and the bottle, slipping down his chest, dropped +slanting to the edge of the low stool-table. Then with all his might he +screwed his trunk and arms an inch further, and the bottle stood. He had +done it--done it! His lips twitched into a smile; his body sagged back +to its old position. He had done it! And he closed his eyes .... + +At half-past eleven the girl Molly, opening the door, looked at him and +said softly: "Sirr! there's some ladies, and a gentleman!" But he did +not answer. And, still holding the door, she whispered out into the +hall: + +"He's asleep, miss." + +A voice whispered back: + +"Oh! Just let me go in, I won't wake him unless he does. But I do want +to show him my dress." + +The girl moved aside; and on tiptoe Phyllis passed in. She walked to +where, between the lamp-glow and the fire-glow, she was lighted up. White +satin--her first low-cut dress--the flush of her first supper party--a +gardenia at her breast, another in her fingers! Oh! what a pity he was +asleep! How red he looked! How funnily old men breathed! And +mysteriously, as a child might, she whispered: + +"Guardy!" + +No answer! And pouting, she stood twiddling the gardenia. Then suddenly +she thought: 'I'll put it in his buttonhole! When he wakes up and sees +it, how he'll jump!' + +And stealing close, she bent and slipped it in. Two faces looked at her +from round the door; she heard Bob Pillin's smothered chuckle; her +mother's rich and feathery laugh. Oh! How red his forehead was! She +touched it with her lips; skipped back, twirled round, danced silently a +second, blew a kiss, and like quicksilver was gone. + +And the whispering, the chuckling, and one little out-pealing laugh rose +in the hall. + +But the old man slept. Nor until Meller came at his usual hour of +half-past twelve, was it known that he would never wake. + + + + +THE APPLE TREE + + "The Apple-tree, the singing and the gold." + MURRAY'S "HIPPOLYTUS of EURIPIDES." + +In their silver-wedding day Ashurst and his wife were motoring along the +outskirts of the moor, intending to crown the festival by stopping the +night at Torquay, where they had first met. This was the idea of Stella +Ashurst, whose character contained a streak of sentiment. If she had +long lost the blue-eyed, flower-like charm, the cool slim purity of face +and form, the apple-blossom colouring, which had so swiftly and so oddly +affected Ashurst twenty-six years ago, she was still at forty-three a +comely and faithful companion, whose cheeks were faintly mottled, and +whose grey-blue eyes had acquired a certain fullness. + +It was she who had stopped the car where the common rose steeply to the +left, and a narrow strip of larch and beech, with here and there a pine, +stretched out towards the valley between the road and the first long high +hill of the full moor. She was looking for a place where they might +lunch, for Ashurst never looked for anything; and this, between the +golden furze and the feathery green larches smelling of lemons in the +last sun of April--this, with a view into the deep valley and up to the +long moor heights, seemed fitting to the decisive nature of one who +sketched in water-colours, and loved romantic spots. Grasping her paint +box, she got out. + +"Won't this do, Frank?" + +Ashurst, rather like a bearded Schiller, grey in the wings, tall, +long-legged, with large remote grey eyes which sometimes filled with +meaning and became almost beautiful, with nose a little to one side, and +bearded lips just open--Ashurst, forty-eight, and silent, grasped the +luncheon basket, and got out too. + +"Oh! Look, Frank! A grave!" + +By the side of the road, where the track from the top of the common +crossed it at right angles and ran through a gate past the narrow wood, +was a thin mound of turf, six feet by one, with a moorstone to the west, +and on it someone had thrown a blackthorn spray and a handful of +bluebells. Ashurst looked, and the poet in him moved. At cross-roads--a +suicide's grave! Poor mortals with their superstitions! Whoever lay +there, though, had the best of it, no clammy sepulchre among other +hideous graves carved with futilities--just a rough stone, the wide sky, +and wayside blessings! And, without comment, for he had learned not to +be a philosopher in the bosom of his family, he strode away up on to the +common, dropped the luncheon basket under a wall, spread a rug for his +wife to sit on--she would turn up from her sketching when she was +hungry--and took from his pocket Murray's translation of the +"Hippolytus." He had soon finished reading of "The Cyprian" and her +revenge, and looked at the sky instead. And watching the white clouds so +bright against the intense blue, Ashurst, on his silver-wedding day, +longed for--he knew not what. Maladjusted to life--man's organism! +One's mode of life might be high and scrupulous, but there was always an, +undercurrent of greediness, a hankering, and sense of waste. Did women +have it too? Who could tell? And yet, men who gave vent to their +appetites for novelty, their riotous longings for new adventures, new +risks, new pleasures, these suffered, no doubt, from the reverse side of +starvation, from surfeit. No getting out of it--a maladjusted animal, +civilised man! There could be no garden of his choosing, of "the +Apple-tree, the singing, and the gold," in the words of that lovely Greek +chorus, no achievable elysium in life, or lasting haven of happiness for +any man with a sense of beauty--nothing which could compare with the +captured loveliness in a work of art, set down for ever, so that to look +on it or read was always to have the same precious sense of exaltation +and restful inebriety. Life no doubt had moments with that quality of +beauty, of unbidden flying rapture, but the trouble was, they lasted no +longer than the span of a cloud's flight over the sun; impossible to keep +them with you, as Art caught beauty and held it fast. They were fleeting +as one of the glimmering or golden visions one had of the soul in nature, +glimpses of its remote and brooding spirit. Here, with the sun hot on +his face, a cuckoo calling from a thorn tree, and in the air the honey +savour of gorse--here among the little fronds of the young fern, the +starry blackthorn, while the bright clouds drifted by high above the +hills and dreamy valleys here and now was such a glimpse. But in a +moment it would pass--as the face of Pan, which looks round the corner of +a rock, vanishes at your stare. And suddenly he sat up. Surely there +was something familiar about this view, this bit of common, that ribbon +of road, the old wall behind him. While they were driving he had not +been taking notice--never did; thinking of far things or of nothing--but +now he saw! Twenty-six years ago, just at this time of year, from the +farmhouse within half a mile of this very spot he had started for that +day in Torquay whence it might be said he had never returned. And a +sudden ache beset his heart; he had stumbled on just one of those past +moments in his life, whose beauty and rapture he had failed to arrest, +whose wings had fluttered away into the unknown; he had stumbled on a +buried memory, a wild sweet time, swiftly choked and ended. And, turning +on his face, he rested his chin on his hands, and stared at the short +grass where the little blue milkwort was growing.... + + + + +I + +And this is what he remembered. + +On the first of May, after their last year together at college, Frank +Ashurst and his friend Robert Garton were on a tramp. They had walked +that day from Brent, intending to make Chagford, but Ashurst's football +knee had given out, and according to their map they had still some seven +miles to go. They were sitting on a bank beside the-road, where a track +crossed alongside a wood, resting the knee and talking of the universe, +as young men will. Both were over six feet, and thin as rails; Ashurst +pale, idealistic, full of absence; Garton queer, round-the-corner, +knotted, curly, like some primeval beast. Both had a literary bent; +neither wore a hat. + +Ashurst's hair was smooth, pale, wavy, and had a way of rising on either +side of his brow, as if always being flung back; Carton's was a kind of +dark unfathomed mop. They had not met a soul for miles. + +"My dear fellow," Garton was saying, "pity's only an effect of +self-consciousness; it's a disease of the last five thousand years. The +world was happier without." + +Ashurst, following the clouds with his eyes, answered: + +"It's the pearl in the oyster, anyway." + +"My dear chap, all our modern unhappiness comes from pity. Look at +animals, and Red Indians, limited to feeling their own occasional +misfortunes; then look at ourselves--never free from feeling the +toothaches of others. Let's get back to feeling for nobody, and have a +better time." + +"You'll never practise that." + +Garton pensively stirred the hotch-potch of his hair. + +"To attain full growth, one mustn't be squeamish. To starve oneself +emotionally's a mistake. All emotion is to the good--enriches life." + +"Yes, and when it runs up against chivalry?" + +"Ah! That's so English! If you speak of emotion the English always +think you want something physical, and are shocked. They're afraid of +passion, but not of lust--oh, no!--so long as they can keep it secret." + +Ashurst did not answer; he had plucked a blue floweret, and was twiddling +it against the sky. A cuckoo began calling from a thorn tree. The sky, +the flowers, the songs of birds! Robert was talking through his hat! +And he said: + +"Well, let's go on, and find some farm where we can put up." In uttering +those words, he was conscious of a girl coming down from the common just +above them. She was outlined against the sky, carrying a basket, and you +could see that sky through the crook of her arm. And Ashurst, who saw +beauty without wondering how it could advantage him, thought: 'How +pretty!' The wind, blowing her dark frieze skirt against her legs, +lifted her battered peacock tam-o'-shanter; her greyish blouse was worn +and old, her shoes were split, her little hands rough and red, her neck +browned. Her dark hair waved untidy across her broad forehead, her face +was short, her upper lip short, showing a glint of teeth, her brows were +straight and dark, her lashes long and dark, her nose straight; but her +grey eyes were the wonder-dewy as if opened for the first time that day. +She looked at Ashurst--perhaps he struck her as strange, limping along +without a hat, with his large eyes on her, and his hair falling back. He +could not take off what was not on his head, but put up his hand in a +salute, and said: + +"Can you tell us if there's a farm near here where we could stay the +night? I've gone lame." + +"There's only our farm near, sir." She spoke without shyness, in a +pretty soft crisp voice. + +"And where is that?" + +"Down here, sir." + +"Would you put us up?" + +"Oh! I think we would." + +"Will you show us the way?" + +"Yes, Sir." + +He limped on, silent, and Garton took up the catechism. + +"Are you a Devonshire girl?" + +"No, Sir." + +"What then?" + +"From Wales." + +"Ah! I thought you were a Celt; so it's not your farm?" + +"My aunt's, sir." + +"And your uncle's?" + +"He is dead." + +"Who farms it, then?" + +"My aunt, and my three cousins." + +"But your uncle was a Devonshire man?" + +"Yes, Sir." + +"Have you lived here long?" "Seven years." + +"And how d'you like it after Wales?" "I don't know, sir." + +"I suppose you don't remember?" "Oh, yes! But it is different." + +"I believe you!" + +Ashurst broke in suddenly: "How old are you?" + +"Seventeen, Sir." + +"And what's your name?" "Megan David." + +"This is Robert Garton, and I am Frank Ashurst. We wanted to get on to +Chagford." + +"It is a pity your leg is hurting you." + +Ashurst smiled, and when he smiled his face was rather beautiful. + +Descending past the narrow wood, they came on the farm suddenly-a long, +low, stone-built dwelling with casement windows, in a farmyard where pigs +and fowls and an old mare were straying. A short steep-up grass hill +behind was crowned with a few Scotch firs, and in front, an old orchard +of apple trees, just breaking into flower, stretched down to a stream and +a long wild meadow. A little boy with oblique dark eyes was shepherding +a pig, and by the house door stood a woman, who came towards them. The +girl said: + +"It is Mrs. Narracombe, my aunt." + +"Mrs. Narracombe, my aunt," had a quick, dark eye, like a mother +wild-duck's, and something of the same snaky turn about her neck. + +"We met your niece on the road," said Ashurst; "she thought you might +perhaps put us up for the night." + +Mrs. Narracombe, taking them in from head to heel, answered: + +"Well, I can, if you don't mind one room. Megan, get the spare room +ready, and a bowl of cream. You'll be wanting tea, I suppose." + +Passing through a sort of porch made by two yew trees and some +flowering-currant bushes, the girl disappeared into the house, her +peacock tam-o'-shanter bright athwart that rosy-pink and the dark green +of the yews. + +"Will you come into the parlour and rest your leg? You'll be from +college, perhaps?" + +"We were, but we've gone down now." + +Mrs. Narracombe nodded sagely. + +The parlour, brick-floored, with bare table and shiny chairs and sofa +stuffed with horsehair, seemed never to have been used, it was so +terribly clean. Ashurst sat down at once on the sofa, holding his lame +knee between his hands, and Mrs. Narracombe gazed at him. He was the +only son of a late professor of chemistry, but people found a certain +lordliness in one who was often so sublimely unconscious of them. + +"Is there a stream where we could bathe?" + +"There's the strame at the bottom of the orchard, but sittin' down you'll +not be covered!" + +"How deep?" + +"Well, 'tis about a foot and a half, maybe." + +"Oh! That'll do fine. Which way?" + +"Down the lane, through the second gate on the right, an' the pool's by +the big apple tree that stands by itself. There's trout there, if you +can tickle them." + +"They're more likely to tickle us!" + +Mrs. Narracombe smiled. "There'll be the tea ready when you come back." + +The pool, formed by the damming of a rock, had a sandy bottom; and the +big apple tree, lowest in the orchard, grew so close that its boughs +almost overhung the water; it was in leaf, and all but in flower-its +crimson buds just bursting. There was not room for more than one at a +time in that narrow bath, and Ashurst waited his turn, rubbing his knee +and gazing at the wild meadow, all rocks and thorn trees and feld +flowers, with a grove of beeches beyond, raised up on a flat mound. +Every bough was swinging in the wind, every spring bird calling, and a +slanting sunlight dappled the grass. He thought of Theocritus, and the +river Cherwell, of the moon, and the maiden with the dewy eyes; of so +many things that he seemed to think of nothing; and he felt absurdly +happy. + + + + +2 + +During a late and sumptuous tea with eggs to it, cream and jam, and thin, +fresh cakes touched with saffron, Garton descanted on the Celts. It was +about the period of the Celtic awakening, and the discovery that there +was Celtic blood about this family had excited one who believed that he +was a Celt himself. Sprawling on a horse hair chair, with a hand-made +cigarette dribbling from the corner of his curly lips, he had been +plunging his cold pin-points of eyes into Ashurst's and praising the +refinement of the Welsh. To come out of Wales into England was like the +change from china to earthenware! Frank, as a d---d Englishman, had not +of course perceived the exquisite refinement and emotional capacity of +that Welsh girl! And, delicately stirring in the dark mat of his still +wet hair, he explained how exactly she illustrated the writings of the +Welsh bard Morgan-ap-Something in the twelfth century. + +Ashurst, full length on the horsehair sofa, and jutting far beyond its +end, smoked a deeply-coloured pipe, and did not listen, thinking of the +girl's face when she brought in a relay of cakes. It had been exactly +like looking at a flower, or some other pretty sight in Nature-till, with +a funny little shiver, she had lowered her glance and gone out, quiet as +a mouse. + +"Let's go to the kitchen," said Garton, "and see some more of her." + +The kitchen was a white-washed room with rafters, to which were attached +smoked hams; there were flower-pots on the window-sill, and guns hanging +on nails, queer mugs, china and pewter, and portraits of Queen Victoria. +A long, narrow table of plain wood was set with bowls and spoons, under a +string of high-hung onions; two sheep-dogs and three cats lay here and +there. On one side of the recessed fireplace sat two small boys, idle, +and good as gold; on the other sat a stout, light-eyed, red-faced youth +with hair and lashes the colour of the tow he was running through the +barrel of a gun; between them Mrs. Narracombe dreamily stirred some +savoury-scented stew in a large pot. Two other youths, oblique-eyed, +dark-haired, rather sly-faced, like the two little boys, were talking +together and lolling against the wall; and a short, elderly, clean-shaven +man in corduroys, seated in the window, was conning a battered journal. +The girl Megan seemed the only active creature-drawing cider and passing +with the jugs from cask to table. Seeing them thus about to eat, Garton +said: + +"Ah! If you'll let us, we'll come back when supper's over," and without +waiting for an answer they withdrew again to the parlour. But the colour +in the kitchen, the warmth, the scents, and all those faces, heightened +the bleakness of their shiny room, and they resumed their seats moodily. + +"Regular gipsy type, those boys. There was only one Saxon--the fellow +cleaning the gun. That girl is a very subtle study psychologically." + +Ashurst's lips twitched. Garton seemed to him an ass just then. Subtle +study! She was a wild flower. A creature it did you good to look at. +Study! + +Garton went on: + +"Emotionally she would be wonderful. She wants awakening." + +"Are you going to awaken her?" + +Garton looked at him and smiled. 'How coarse and English you are!' that +curly smile seemed saying. + +And Ashurst puffed his pipe. Awaken her! That fool had the best opinion +of himself! He threw up the window and leaned out. Dusk had gathered +thick. The farm buildings and the wheel-house were all dim and bluish, +the apple trees but a blurred wilderness; the air smelled of woodsmoke +from the kitchen fire. One bird going to bed later than the others was +uttering a half-hearted twitter, as though surprised at the darkness. +From the stable came the snuffle and stamp of a feeding horse. And away +over there was the loom of the moor, and away and away the shy stars +which had not as yet full light, pricking white through the deep blue +heavens. A quavering owl hooted. Ashurst drew a deep breath. What a +night to wander out in! A padding of unshod hoofs came up the lane, and +three dim, dark shapes passed--ponies on an evening march. Their heads, +black and fuzzy, showed above the gate. At the tap of his pipe, and a +shower of little sparks, they shied round and scampered. A bat went +fluttering past, uttering its almost inaudible "chip, chip." Ashurst +held out his hand; on the upturned palm he could feel the dew. Suddenly +from overhead he heard little burring boys' voices, little thumps of +boots thrown down, and another voice, crisp and soft--the girl's putting +them to bed, no doubt; and nine clear words "No, Rick, you can't have the +cat in bed"; then came a skirmish of giggles and gurgles, a soft slap, a +laugh so low and pretty that it made him shiver a little. A blowing +sound, and the glim of the candle which was fingering the dusk above, +went out; silence reigned. Ashurst withdrew into the room and sat down; +his knee pained him, and his soul felt gloomy. + +"You go to the kitchen," he said; "I'm going to bed." + + + + +3 + +For Ashurst the wheel of slumber was wont to turn noiseless and slick and +swift, but though he seemed sunk in sleep when his companion came up, he +was really wide awake; and long after Carton, smothered in the other bed +of that low-roofed room, was worshipping darkness with his upturned nose, +he heard the owls. Barring the discomfort of his knee, it was not +unpleasant--the cares of life did not loom large in night watches for +this young man. In fact he had none; just enrolled a barrister, with +literary aspirations, the world before him, no father or mother, and four +hundred a year of his own. Did it matter where he went, what he did, or +when he did it? His bed, too, was hard, and this preserved him from +fever. He lay, sniffing the scent of the night which drifted into the +low room through the open casement close to his head. Except for a +definite irritation with his friend, natural when you have tramped with a +man for three days, Ashurst's memories and visions that sleepless night +were kindly and wistful and exciting. One vision, specially clear and +unreasonable, for he had not even been conscious of noting it, was the +face of the youth cleaning the gun; its intent, stolid, yet startled +uplook at the kitchen doorway, quickly shifted to the girl carrying the +cider jug. This red, blue-eyed, light-lashed, tow-haired face stuck as +firmly in his memory as the girl's own face, so dewy and simple. But at +last, in the square of darkness through the uncurtained casement, he saw +day coming, and heard one hoarse and sleepy caw. Then followed silence, +dead as ever, till the song of a blackbird, not properly awake, +adventured into the hush. And, from staring at the framed brightening +light, Ashurst fell asleep. + +Next day his knee was badly swollen; the walking tour was obviously over. +Garton, due back in London on the morrow, departed at midday with an +ironical smile which left a scar of irritation--healed the moment his +loping figure vanished round the corner of the steep lane. All day +Ashurst rested his knee, in a green-painted wooden chair on the patch of +grass by the yew-tree porch, where the sunlight distilled the scent of +stocks and gillyflowers, and a ghost of scent from the flowering-currant +bushes. Beatifically he smoked, dreamed, watched. + +A farm in spring is all birth-young things coming out of bud and shell, +and human beings watching over the process with faint excitement feeding +and tending what has been born. So still the young man sat, that a +mother-goose, with stately cross-footed waddle, brought her six +yellow-necked grey-backed goslings to strop their little beaks against +the grass blades at his feet. Now and again Mrs. Narracombe or the girl +Megan would come and ask if he wanted anything, and he would smile and +say: "Nothing, thanks. It's splendid here." Towards tea-time they came +out together, bearing a long poultice of some dark stuff in a bowl, and +after a long and solemn scrutiny of his swollen knee, bound it on. When +they were gone, he thought of the girl's soft "Oh!"--of her pitying eyes, +and the little wrinkle in her brow. And again he felt that unreasoning +irritation against his departed friend, who had talked such rot about +her. When she brought out his tea, he said: + +"How did you like my friend, Megan?" + +She forced down her upper lip, as if afraid that to smile was not polite. +"He was a funny gentleman; he made us laugh. I think he is very clever." + +"What did he say to make you laugh?" + +"He said I was a daughter of the bards. What are they?" + +"Welsh poets, who lived hundreds of years ago." + +"Why am I their daughter, please?" + +"He meant that you were the sort of girl they sang about." + +She wrinkled her brows. "I think he likes to joke. Am I?" + +"Would you believe me, if I told you?" + +"Oh, yes." + +"Well, I think he was right." + +She smiled. + +And Ashurst thought: 'You are a pretty thing!' + +"He said, too, that Joe was a Saxon type. What would that be?" + +"Which is Joe? With the blue eyes and red face?" + +"Yes. My uncle's nephew." + +"Not your cousin, then?" + +"No." + +"Well, he meant that Joe was like the men who came over to England about +fourteen hundred years ago, and conquered it." + +"Oh! I know about them; but is he?" + +"Garton's crazy about that sort of thing; but I must say Joe does look a +bit Early Saxon." + +"Yes." + +That "Yes" tickled Ashurst. It was so crisp and graceful, so conclusive, +and politely acquiescent in what was evidently. Greek to her. + +"He said that all the other boys were regular gipsies. He should not +have said that. My aunt laughed, but she didn't like it, of course, and +my cousins were angry. Uncle was a farmer--farmers are not gipsies. It +is wrong to hurt people." + +Ashurst wanted to take her hand and give it a squeeze, but he only +answered: + +"Quite right, Megan. By the way, I heard you putting the little ones to +bed last night." + +She flushed a little. "Please to drink your tea--it is getting cold. +Shall I get you some fresh?" + +"Do you ever have time to do anything for yourself?" + +"Oh! Yes." + +"I've been watching, but I haven't seen it yet." + +She wrinkled her brows in a puzzled frown, and her colour deepened. + +When she was gone, Ashurst thought: 'Did she think I was chaffing her? I +wouldn't for the world!' He was at that age when to some men "Beauty's a +flower," as the poet says, and inspires in them the thoughts of chivalry. +Never very conscious of his surroundings, it was some time before he was +aware that the youth whom Garton had called "a Saxon type" was standing +outside the stable door; and a fine bit of colour he made in his soiled +brown velvet-cords, muddy gaiters, and blue shirt; red-armed, red-faced, +the sun turning his hair from tow to flax; immovably stolid, persistent, +unsmiling he stood. Then, seeing Ashurst looking at him, he crossed the +yard at that gait of the young countryman always ashamed not to be slow +and heavy-dwelling on each leg, and disappeared round the end of the +house towards the kitchen entrance. A chill came over Ashurst's mood. +Clods? With all the good will in the world, how impossible to get on +terms with them! And yet--see that girl! Her shoes were split, her +hands rough; but--what was it? Was it really her Celtic blood, as Garton +had said?--she was a lady born, a jewel, though probably she could do no +more than just read and write! + +The elderly, clean-shaven man he had seen last night in the kitchen had +come into the yard with a dog, driving the cows to their milking. Ashurst +saw that he was lame. + +"You've got some good ones there!" + +The lame man's face brightened. He had the upward look in his eyes which +prolonged suffering often brings. + +"Yeas; they'm praaper buties; gude milkers tu." + +"I bet they are." + +"'Ope as yure leg's better, zurr." + +"Thank you, it's getting on." + +The lame man touched his own: "I know what 'tes, meself; 'tes a main +worritin' thing, the knee. I've a-'ad mine bad this ten year." + +Ashurst made the sound of sympathy which comes so readily from those who +have an independent income, and the lame man smiled again. + +"Mustn't complain, though--they mighty near 'ad it off." + +"Ho!" + +"Yeas; an' compared with what 'twas, 'tes almost so gude as nu." + +"They've put a bandage of splendid stuff on mine." + +"The maid she picks et. She'm a gude maid wi' the flowers. There's +folks zeem to know the healin' in things. My mother was a rare one for +that. 'Ope as yu'll zune be better, zurr. Goo ahn, therr!" + +Ashurst smiled. "Wi' the flowers!" A flower herself! + +That evening, after his supper of cold duck, junket, and cider, the girl +came in. + +"Please, auntie says--will you try a piece of our Mayday cake?" + +"If I may come to the kitchen for it." + +"Oh, yes! You'll be missing your friend." + +"Not I. But are you sure no one minds?" + +"Who would mind? We shall be very pleased." + +Ashurst rose too suddenly for his stiff knee, staggered, and subsided. +The girl gave a little gasp, and held out her hands. Ashurst took them, +small, rough, brown; checked his impulse to put them to his lips, and let +her pull him up. She came close beside him, offering her shoulder. And +leaning on her he walked across the room. That shoulder seemed quite the +pleasantest thing he had ever touched. But, he had presence of mind +enough to catch his stick out of the rack, and withdraw his hand before +arriving at the kitchen. + +That night he slept like a top, and woke with his knee of almost normal +size. He again spent the morning in his chair on the grass patch, +scribbling down verses; but in the afternoon he wandered about with the +two little boys Nick and Rick. It was Saturday, so they were early home +from school; quick, shy, dark little rascals of seven and six, soon +talkative, for Ashurst had a way with children. By four o'clock they had +shown him all their methods of destroying life, except the tickling of +trout; and with breeches tucked up, lay on their stomachs over the trout +stream, pretending they had this accomplishment also. They tickled +nothing, of course, for their giggling and shouting scared every spotted +thing away. Ashurst, on a rock at the edge of the beech clump, watched +them, and listened to the cuckoos, till Nick, the elder and less +persevering, came up and stood beside him. + +"The gipsy bogle zets on that stone," he said. + +"What gipsy bogie?" + +"Dunno; never zeen 'e. Megan zays 'e zets there; an' old Jim zeed 'e +once. 'E was zettin' there naight afore our pony kicked--in father's +'ead. 'E plays the viddle." + +"What tune does he play?" + +"Dunno." + +"What's he like?" + +"'E's black. Old Jim zays 'e's all over 'air. 'E's a praaper bogle. 'E +don' come only at naight." The little boy's oblique dark eyes slid +round. "D'yu think 'e might want to take me away? Megan's feared of +'e." + +"Has she seen him?" + +"No. She's not afeared o' yu." + +"I should think not. Why should she be?" + +"She zays a prayer for yu." + +"How do you know that, you little rascal?" + +"When I was asleep, she said: 'God bless us all, an' Mr. Ashes.' I yeard +'er whisperin'." + +"You're a little ruffian to tell what you hear when you're not meant to +hear it!" + +The little boy was silent. Then he said aggressively: + +"I can skin rabbets. Megan, she can't bear skinnin' 'em. I like blood." + +"Oh! you do; you little monster!" + +"What's that?" + +"A creature that likes hurting others." + +The little boy scowled. "They'm only dead rabbets, what us eats." + +"Quite right, Nick. I beg your pardon." + +"I can skin frogs, tu." + +But Ashurst had become absent. "God bless us all, and Mr. Ashes!" And +puzzled by that sudden inaccessibility, Nick ran back to the stream where +the giggling and shouts again uprose at once. + +When Megan brought his tea, he said: + +"What's the gipsy bogle, Megan?" + +She looked up, startled. + +"He brings bad things." + +"Surely you don't believe in ghosts?" + +"I hope I will never see him." + +"Of course you won't. There aren't such things. What old Jim saw was a +pony." + +"No! There are bogies in the rocks; they are the men who lived long +ago." + +"They aren't gipsies, anyway; those old men were dead long before gipsies +came." + +She said simply: "They are all bad." + +"Why? If there are any, they're only wild, like the rabbits. The +flowers aren't bad for being wild; the thorn trees were never +planted--and you don't mind them. I shall go down at night and look for +your bogie, and have a talk with him." + +"Oh, no! Oh, no!" + +"Oh, yes! I shall go and sit on his rock." + +She clasped her hands together: "Oh, please!" + +"Why! What 'does it matter if anything happens to me?" + +She did not answer; and in a sort of pet he added: + +"Well, I daresay I shan't see him, because I suppose I must be off soon." + +"Soon?" + +"Your aunt won't want to keep me here." + +"Oh, yes! We always let lodgings in summer." + +Fixing his eyes on her face, he asked: + +"Would you like me to stay?" + +"Yes." + +"I'm going to say a prayer for you to-night!" + +She flushed crimson, frowned, and went out of the room. He sat, cursing +himself, till his tea was stewed. It was as if he had hacked with his +thick boots at a clump of bluebells. Why had he said such a silly thing? +Was he just a towny college ass like Robert Garton, as far from +understanding this girl? + +Ashurst spent the next week confirming the restoration of his leg, by +exploration of the country within easy reach. Spring was a revelation to +him this year. In a kind of intoxication he would watch the pink-white +buds of some backward beech tree sprayed up in the sunlight against the +deep blue sky, or the trunks and limbs of the few Scotch firs, tawny in +violent light, or again, on the moor, the gale-bent larches which had +such a look of life when the wind streamed in their young green, above +the rusty black underboughs. Or he would lie on the banks, gazing at the +clusters of dog-violets, or up in the dead bracken, fingering the pink, +transparent buds of the dewberry, while the cuckoos called and yafes +laughed, or a lark, from very high, dripped its beads of song. It was +certainly different from any spring he had ever known, for spring was +within him, not without. In the daytime he hardly saw the family; and +when Megan brought in his meals she always seemed too busy in the house +or among the young things in the yard to stay talking long. But in the +evenings he installed himself in the window seat in the kitchen, smoking +and chatting with the lame man Jim, or Mrs. Narracombe, while the girl +sewed, or moved about, clearing the supper things away. And sometimes, +with the sensation a cat must feel when it purrs, he would become +conscious that Megan's eyes--those dew-grey eyes--were fixed on him with +a sort of lingering soft look which was strangely flattering. + +It was on Sunday week in the evening, when he was lying in the orchard +listening to a blackbird and composing a love poem, that he heard the +gate swing to, and saw the girl come running among the trees, with the +red-cheeked, stolid Joe in swift pursuit. About twenty yards away the +chase ended, and the two stood fronting each other, not noticing the +stranger in the grass--the boy pressing on, the girl fending him off. +Ashurst could see her face, angry, disturbed; and the youth's--who would +have thought that red-faced yokel could look so distraught! And +painfully affected by that sight, he jumped up. They saw him then. +Megan dropped her hands, and shrank behind a tree trunk; the boy gave an +angry grunt, rushed at the bank, scrambled over and vanished. Ashurst +went slowly up to her. She was standing quite still, biting her lip-very +pretty, with her fine, dark hair blown loose about her face, and her eyes +cast down. + +"I beg your pardon," he said. + +She gave him one upward look, from eyes much dilated; then, catching her +breath, turned away. Ashurst followed. + +"Megan!" + +But she went on; and taking hold of her arm, he turned her gently round +to him. + +"Stop and speak to me." + +"Why do you beg my pardon? It is not to me you should do that." + +"Well, then, to Joe." + +"How dare he come after me?" + +"In love with you, I suppose." + +She stamped her foot. + +Ashurst uttered a short laugh. "Would you like me to punch his head?" + +She cried with sudden passion: + +"You laugh at me-you laugh at us!" + +He caught hold of her hands, but she shrank back, till her passionate +little face and loose dark hair were caught among the pink clusters of +the apple blossom. Ashurst raised one of her imprisoned hands and put +his lips to it. He felt how chivalrous he was, and superior to that clod +Joe--just brushing that small, rough hand with his mouth I Her shrinking +ceased suddenly; she seemed to tremble towards him. A sweet warmth +overtook Ashurst from top to toe. This slim maiden, so simple and fine +and pretty, was pleased, then, at the touch of his lips! And, yielding +to a swift impulse, he put his arms round her, pressed her to him, and +kissed her forehead. Then he was frightened--she went so pale, closing +her eyes, so that the long, dark lashes lay on her pale cheeks; her +hands, too, lay inert at her sides. The touch of her breast sent a +shiver through him. "Megan!" he sighed out, and let her go. In the +utter silence a blackbird shouted. Then the girl seized his hand, put it +to her cheek, her heart, her lips, kissed it passionately, and fled away +among the mossy trunks of the apple trees, till they hid her from him. + +Ashurst sat down on a twisted old tree growing almost along the ground, +and, all throbbing and bewildered, gazed vacantly at the blossom which +had crowned her hair--those pink buds with one white open apple star. +What had he done? How had he let himself be thus stampeded by +beauty--pity--or--just the spring! He felt curiously happy, all the +same; happy and triumphant, with shivers running through his limbs, and a +vague alarm. This was the beginning of--what? The midges bit him, the +dancing gnats tried to fly into his mouth, and all the spring around him +seemed to grow more lovely and alive; the songs of the cuckoos and the +blackbirds, the laughter of the yaflies, the level-slanting sunlight, the +apple blossom which had crowned her head! He got up from the old trunk +and strode out of the orchard, wanting space, an open sky, to get on +terms with these new sensations. He made for the moor, and from an ash +tree in the hedge a magpie flew out to herald him. + +Of man--at any age from five years on--who can say he has never been in +love? Ashurst had loved his partners at his dancing class; loved his +nursery governess; girls in school-holidays; perhaps never been quite out +of love, cherishing always some more or less remote admiration. But this +was different, not remote at all. Quite a new sensation; terribly +delightful, bringing a sense of completed manhood. To be holding in his +fingers such a wild flower, to be able to put it to his lips, and feel it +tremble with delight against them! What intoxication, and--embarrassment! +What to do with it--how meet her next time? His first caress had been +cool, pitiful; but the next could not be, now that, by her burning little +kiss on his hand, by her pressure of it to her heart, he knew that she +loved him. Some natures are coarsened by love bestowed on them; others, +like Ashurst's, are swayed and drawn, warmed and softened, almost +exalted, by what they feel to be a sort of miracle. + +And up there among the tors he was racked between the passionate desire +to revel in this new sensation of spring fulfilled within him, and a +vague but very real uneasiness. At one moment he gave himself up +completely to his pride at having captured this pretty, trustful, +dewy-eyed thing! At the next he thought with factitious solemnity: 'Yes, +my boy! But look out what you're doing! You know what comes of it!' + +Dusk dropped down without his noticing--dusk on the carved, +Assyrian-looking masses of the rocks. And the voice of Nature said: +"This is a new world for you!" As when a man gets up at four o'clock and +goes out into a summer morning, and beasts, birds, trees stare at him and +he feels as if all had been made new. + +He stayed up there for hours, till it grew cold, then groped his way down +the stones and heather roots to the road, back into the lane, and came +again past the wild meadow to the orchard. There he struck a match and +looked at his watch. Nearly twelve! It was black and unstirring in +there now, very different from the lingering, bird-befriended brightness +of six hours ago! And suddenly he saw this idyll of his with the eyes of +the outer world--had mental vision of Mrs. Narracombe's snake-like neck +turned, her quick dark glance taking it all in, her shrewd face +hardening; saw the gipsy-like cousins coarsely mocking and distrustful; +Joe stolid and furious; only the lame man, Jim, with the suffering eyes, +seemed tolerable to his mind. And the village pub!--the gossiping +matrons he passed on his walks; and then--his own friends--Robert +Carton's smile when he went off that morning ten days ago; so ironical +and knowing! Disgusting! For a minute he literally hated this earthy, +cynical world to which one belonged, willy-nilly. The gate where he was +leaning grew grey, a sort of shimmer passed be fore him and spread into +the bluish darkness. The moon! He could just see it over the bank be +hind; red, nearly round-a strange moon! And turning away, he went up the +lane which smelled of the night and cowdung and young leaves. In the +straw-yard he could see the dark shapes of cattle, broken by the pale +sickles of their horns, like so many thin moons, fallen ends-up. He +unlatched the farm gate stealthily. All was dark in the house. Muffling +his footsteps, he gained the porch, and, blotted against one of the yew +trees, looked up at Megan's window. It was open. Was she sleeping, or +lying awake perhaps, disturbed--unhappy at his absence? An owl hooted +while he stood there peering up, and the sound seemed to fill the whole +night, so quiet was all else, save for the never-ending murmur of the +stream running below the orchard. The cuckoos by day, and now the +owls--how wonderfully they voiced this troubled ecstasy within him! And +suddenly he saw her at her window, looking out. He moved a little from +the yew tree, and whispered: "Megan!" She drew back, vanished, +reappeared, leaning far down. He stole forward on the grass patch, hit +his shin against the green-painted chair, and held his breath at the +sound. The pale blur of her stretched-down arm and face did not stir; he +moved the chair, and noiselessly mounted it. By stretching up his arm he +could just reach. Her hand held the huge key of the front door, and he +clasped that burning hand with the cold key in it. He could just see her +face, the glint of teeth between her lips, her tumbled hair. She was +still dressed--poor child, sitting up for him, no doubt! "Pretty Megan!" +Her hot, roughened fingers clung to his; her face had a strange, lost +look. To have been able to reach it--even with his hand! The owl +hooted, a scent of sweetbriar crept into his nostrils. Then one of the +farm dogs barked; her grasp relaxed, she shrank back. + +"Good-night, Megan!" + +"Good-night, sir!" She was gone! With a sigh he dropped back to earth, +and sitting on that chair, took off his boots. Nothing for it but to +creep in and go to bed; yet for a long while he sat unmoving, his feet +chilly in the dew, drunk on the memory of her lost, half-smiling face, +and the clinging grip of her burning fingers, pressing the cold key into +his hand. + + + + +5 + +He awoke feeling as if he had eaten heavily overnight, instead of having +eaten nothing. And far off, unreal, seemed yesterday's romance! Yet it +was a golden morning. Full spring had burst at last--in one night the +"goldie-cups," as the little boys called them, seemed to have made the +field their own, and from his window he could see apple blossoms covering +the orchard as with a rose and white quilt. He went down almost dreading +to see Megan; and yet, when not she but Mrs. Narracombe brought in his +breakfast, he felt vexed and disappointed. The woman's quick eye and +snaky neck seemed to have a new alacrity this morning. Had she noticed? + +"So you an' the moon went walkin' last night, Mr. Ashurst! Did ye have +your supper anywheres?" + +Ashurst shook his head. + +"We kept it for you, but I suppose you was too busy in your brain to +think o' such a thing as that?" + +Was she mocking him, in that voice of hers, which still kept some Welsh +crispness against the invading burr of the West Country? If she knew! +And at that moment he thought: 'No, no; I'll clear out. I won't put +myself in such a beastly false position.' + +But, after breakfast, the longing to see Megan began and increased with +every minute, together with fear lest something should have been said to +her which had spoiled everything. Sinister that she had not appeared, +not given him even a glimpse of her! And the love poem, whose +manufacture had been so important and absorbing yesterday afternoon under +the apple trees, now seemed so paltry that he tore it up and rolled it +into pipe spills. What had he known of love, till she seized his hand +and kissed it! And now--what did he not know? But to write of it seemed +mere insipidity! He went up to his bedroom to get a book, and his heart +began to beat violently, for she was in there making the bed. He stood +in the doorway watching; and suddenly, with turbulent joy, he saw her +stoop and kiss his pillow, just at the hollow made by his head last +night. + +How let her know he had seen that pretty act of devotion? And yet, if +she heard him stealing away, it would be even worse. She took the pillow +up, holding it as if reluctant to shake out the impress of his cheek, +dropped it, and turned round. + +"Megan!" + +She put her hands up to her cheeks, but her eyes seemed to look right +into him. He had never before realised the depth and purity and touching +faithfulness in those dew-bright eyes, and he stammered: + +"It was sweet of you to wait up for me last night." + +She still said nothing, and he stammered on: + +"I was wandering about on the moor; it was such a jolly night. I--I've +just come up for a book." + +Then, the kiss he had seen her give the pillow afflicted him with sudden +headiness, and he went up to her. Touching her eyes with his lips, he +thought with queer excitement: 'I've done it! Yesterday all was +sudden--anyhow; but now--I've done it!' The girl let her forehead rest +against his lips, which moved downwards till they reached hers. That +first real lover's kiss-strange, wonderful, still almost innocent--in +which heart did it make the most disturbance? + +"Come to the big apple tree to-night, after they've gone to bed. +Megan-promise!" + +She whispered back: "I promise." + +Then, scared at her white face, scared at everything, he let her go, and +went downstairs again. Yes! He had done it now! Accepted her love, +declared his own! He went out to the green chair as devoid of a book as +ever; and there he sat staring vacantly before him, triumphant and +remorseful, while under his nose and behind his back the work of the farm +went on. How long he had been sitting in that curious state of vacancy +he had no notion when he saw Joe standing a little behind him to the +right. The youth had evidently come from hard work in the fields, and +stood shifting his feet, breathing loudly, his face coloured like a +setting sun, and his arms, below the rolled-up sleeves of his blue shirt, +showing the hue and furry sheen of ripe peaches. His red lips were open, +his blue eyes with their flaxen lashes stared fixedly at Ashurst, who +said ironically: + +"Well, Joe, anything I can do for you?" + +"Yeas." + +"What, then?" + +"Yu can goo away from yere. Us don' want yu." + +Ashurst's face, never too humble, assumed its most lordly look. + +"Very good of you, but, do you know, I prefer the others should speak for +themselves." + +The youth moved a pace or two nearer, and the scent of his honest heat +afflicted Ashurst's nostrils. + +"What d'yu stay yere for?" + +"Because it pleases me." + +"Twon't please yu when I've bashed yure head in!" + +"Indeed! When would you like to begin that?" + +Joe answered only with the loudness of his breathing, but his eyes looked +like those of a young and angry bull. Then a sort of spasm seemed to +convulse his face. + +"Megan don' want yu." + +A rush of jealousy, of contempt, and anger with this thick, +loud-breathing rustic got the better of Ashurst's self-possession; he +jumped up, and pushed back his chair. + +"You can go to the devil!" + +And as he said those simple words, he saw Megan in the doorway with a +tiny brown spaniel puppy in her arms. She came up to him quickly: + +"Its eyes are blue!" she said. + +Joe turned away; the back of his neck was literally crimson. + +Ashurst put his finger to the mouth of the little brown bullfrog of a +creature in her arms. How cosy it looked against her! + +"It's fond of you already. Ah I Megan, everything is fond of you." + +"What was Joe saying to you, please?" + +"Telling me to go away, because you didn't want me here." + +She stamped her foot; then looked up at Ashurst. At that adoring look he +felt his nerves quiver, just as if he had seen a moth scorching its +wings. + +"To-night!" he said. "Don't forget!" + +"No." And smothering her face against the puppy's little fat, brown +body, she slipped back into the house. + +Ashurst wandered down the lane. At the gate of the wild meadow he came +on the lame man and his cows. + +"Beautiful day, Jim!" + +"Ah! 'Tes brave weather for the grass. The ashes be later than th' oaks +this year. 'When th' oak before th' ash---'" + +Ashurst said idly: "Where were you standing when you saw the gipsy bogie, +Jim?" + +"It might be under that big apple tree, as you might say." + +"And you really do think it was there?" + +The lame man answered cautiously: + +"I shouldn't like to say rightly that 't was there. 'Twas in my mind as +'twas there." + +"What do you make of it?" + +The lame man lowered his voice. + +"They du zay old master, Mist' Narracombe come o' gipsy stock. But +that's tellin'. They'm a wonderful people, yu know, for claimin' their +own. Maybe they knu 'e was goin', and sent this feller along for +company. That's what I've a-thought about it." + +"What was he like?" + +"'E 'ad 'air all over 'is face, an' goin' like this, he was, zame as if +'e 'ad a viddle. They zay there's no such thing as bogies, but I've +a-zeen the 'air on this dog standin' up of a dark naight, when I couldn' +zee nothin', meself." + +"Was there a moon?" + +"Yeas, very near full, but 'twas on'y just risen, gold-like be'ind them +trees." + +"And you think a ghost means trouble, do you?" + +The lame man pushed his hat up; his aspiring eyes looked at Ashurst more +earnestly than ever. + +"'Tes not for me to zay that but 'tes they bein' so unrestin'like. +There's things us don' understand, that's zartin, for zure. There's +people that zee things, tu, an' others that don't never zee nothin'. Now, +our Joe--yu might putt anything under'is eyes an e'd never zee it; and +them other boys, tu, they'm rattlin' fellers. But yu take an' putt our +Megan where there's suthin', she'll zee it, an' more tu, or I'm +mistaken." + +"She's sensitive, that's why." + +"What's that?" + +"I mean, she feels everything." + +"Ah! She'm very lovin'-'earted." + +Ashurst, who felt colour coming into his cheeks, held out his tobacco +pouch. + +"Have a fill, Jim?" + +"Thank 'ee, sir. She'm one in an 'underd, I think." + +"I expect so," said Ashurst shortly, and folding up his pouch, walked on. + +"Lovin'-hearted!" Yes! And what was he doing? What were his +intentions--as they say towards this loving-hearted girl? The thought +dogged him, wandering through fields bright with buttercups, where the +little red calves were feeding, and the swallows flying high. Yes, the +oaks were before the ashes, brown-gold already; every tree in different +stage and hue. The cuckoos and a thousand birds were singing; the little +streams were very bright. The ancients believed in a golden age, in the +garden of the Hesperides!... A queen wasp settled on his sleeve. Each +queen wasp killed meant two thousand fewer wasps to thieve the apples +which would grow from that blossom in the orchard; but who, with love in +his heart, could kill anything on a day like this? He entered a field +where a young red bull was feeding. It seemed to Ashurst that he looked +like Joe. But the young bull took no notice of this visitor, a little +drunk himself, perhaps, on the singing and the glamour of the golden +pasture, under his short legs. Ashurst crossed out unchallenged to the +hillside above the stream. From that slope a for mounted to its crown of +rocks. The ground there was covered with a mist of bluebells, and nearly +a score of crab-apple trees were in full bloom. He threw himself down on +the grass. The change from the buttercup glory and oak-goldened glamour +of the fields to this ethereal beauty under the grey for filled him with +a sort of wonder; nothing the same, save the sound of running water and +the songs of the cuckoos. He lay there a long time, watching the +sunlight wheel till the crab-trees threw shadows over the bluebells, his +only companions a few wild bees. He was not quite sane, thinking of that +morning's kiss, and of to-night under the apple tree. In such a spot as +this, fauns and dryads surely lived; nymphs, white as the crab-apple +blossom, retired within those trees; fauns, brown as the dead bracken, +with pointed ears, lay in wait for them. The cuckoos were still calling +when he woke, there was the sound of running water; but the sun had +couched behind the tor, the hillside was cool, and some rabbits had come +out. 'Tonight!' he thought. Just as from the earth everything was +pushing up, unfolding under the soft insistent fingers of an unseen hand, +so were his heart and senses being pushed, unfolded. He got up and broke +off a spray from a crab-apple tree. The buds were like +Megan--shell-like, rose-pink, wild, and fresh; and so, too, the opening +flowers, white, and wild; and touching. He put the spray into his coat. +And all the rush of the spring within him escaped in a triumphant sigh. +But the rabbits scurried away. + + + + +6 + +It was nearly eleven that night when Ashurst put down the pocket +"Odyssey" which for half an hour he had held in his hands without +reading, and slipped through the yard down to the orchard. The moon had +just risen, very golden, over the hill, and like a bright, powerful, +watching spirit peered through the bars of an ash tree's half-naked +boughs. In among the apple trees it was still dark, and he stood making +sure of his direction, feeling the rough grass with his feet. A black +mass close behind him stirred with a heavy grunting sound, and three +large pigs settled down again close to each other, under the wall. He +listened. There was no wind, but the stream's burbling whispering +chuckle had gained twice its daytime strength. One bird, he could not +tell what, cried "Pippip," "Pip-pip," with perfect monotony; he could +hear a night-Jar spinning very far off; an owl hooting. Ashurst moved a +step or two, and again halted, aware of a dim living whiteness all round +his head. On the dark unstirring trees innumerable flowers and buds all +soft and blurred were being bewitched to life by the creeping moonlight. +He had the oddest feeling of actual companionship, as if a million white +moths or spirits had floated in and settled between dark sky and darker +ground, and were opening and shutting their wings on a level with his +eyes. In the bewildering, still, scentless beauty of that moment he +almost lost memory of why he had come to the orchard. The flying glamour +which had clothed the earth all day had not gone now that night had +fallen, but only changed into this new form. He moved on through the +thicket of stems and boughs covered with that live powdering whiteness, +till he reached the big apple tree. No mistaking that, even in the dark, +nearly twice the height and size of any other, and leaning out towards +the open meadows and the stream. Under the thick branches he stood still +again, to listen. The same sounds exactly, and a faint grunting from the +sleepy pigs. He put his hands on the dry, almost warm tree trunk, whose +rough mossy surface gave forth a peaty scent at his touch. Would she +come--would she? And among these quivering, haunted, moon-witched trees +he was seized with doubts of everything! All was unearthly here, fit for +no earthly lovers; fit only for god and goddess, faun and nymph not for +him and this little country girl. Would it not be almost a relief if she +did not come? But all the time he was listening. And still that unknown +bird went "Pip-pip," "Pip-pip," and there rose the busy chatter of the +little trout stream, whereon the moon was flinging glances through the +bars of her tree-prison. The blossom on a level with his eyes seemed to +grow more living every moment, seemed with its mysterious white beauty +more and more a part of his suspense. He plucked a fragment and held it +close--three blossoms. Sacrilege to pluck fruit-tree blossom--soft, +sacred, young blossom--and throw it away! Then suddenly he heard the +gate close, the pigs stirring again and grunting; and leaning against the +trunk, he pressed his hands to its mossy sides behind him, and held his +breath. She might have been a spirit threading the trees, for all the +noise she made! Then he saw her quite close--her dark form part of a +little tree, her white face part of its blossom; so still, and peering +towards him. He whispered: "Megan!" and held out his hands. She ran +forward, straight to his breast. When he felt her heart beating against +him, Ashurst knew to the full the sensations of chivalry and passion. +Because she was not of his world, because she was so simple and young and +headlong, adoring and defenceless, how could he be other than her +protector, in the dark! Because she was all simple Nature and beauty, as +much a part of this spring night as was the living blossom, how should he +not take all that she would give him how not fulfil the spring in her +heart and his! And torn between these two emotions he clasped her close, +and kissed her hair. How long they stood there without speaking he knew +not. The stream went on chattering, the owls hooting, the moon kept +stealing up and growing whiter; the blossom all round them and above +brightened in suspense of living beauty. Their lips had sought each +other's, and they did not speak. The moment speech began all would be +unreal! Spring has no speech, nothing but rustling and whispering. +Spring has so much more than speech in its unfolding flowers and leaves, +and the coursing of its streams, and in its sweet restless seeking! And +sometimes spring will come alive, and, like a mysterious Presence stand, +encircling lovers with its arms, laying on them the fingers of +enchantment, so that, standing lips to lips, they forget everything but +just a kiss. While her heart beat against him, and her lips quivered on +his, Ashurst felt nothing but simple rapture--Destiny meant her for his +arms, Love could not be flouted! But when their lips parted for breath, +division began again at once. Only, passion now was so much the +stronger, and he sighed: + +"Oh! Megan! Why did you come?" She looked up, hurt, amazed. + +"Sir, you asked me to." + +"Don't call me 'sir,' my pretty sweet." "What should I be callin" you?" + +"Frank." + +"I could not. Oh, no!" + +"But you love me--don't you?" + +"I could not help lovin' you. I want to be with you--that's all." + +"All!" + +So faint that he hardly heard, she whispered: "I shall die if I can't be +with you." + +Ashurst took a mighty breath. + +"Come and be with me, then!" + +"Oh!" + +Intoxicated by the awe and rapture in that "Oh!" he went on, whispering: + +"We'll go to London. I'll show you the world. + +"And I will take care of you, I promise, Megan. I'll never be a brute to +you!" + +"If I can be with you--that is all." + +He stroked her hair, and whispered on: + +"To-morrow I'll go to Torquay and get some money, and get you some +clothes that won't be noticed, and then we'll steal away. And when we +get to London, soon perhaps, if you love me well enough, we'll be +married." + +He could feel her hair shiver with the shake of her head. + +"Oh, no! I could not. I only want to be with you!" + +Drunk on his own chivalry, Ashurst went on murmuring, "It's I who am not +good enough for you. Oh! Megan, when did you begin to love me?" + +"When I saw you in the road, and you looked at me. The first night I +loved you; but I never thought you would want me." + +She slipped down suddenly to her knees, trying to kiss his feet. + +A shiver of horror went through Ashurst; he lifted her up bodily and held +her fast--too upset to speak. + +She whispered: "Why won't you let me?" + +"It's I who will kiss your feet!" + +Her smile brought tears into his eyes. The whiteness of her moonlit face +so close to his, the faint pink of her opened lips, had the living +unearthly beauty of the apple blossom. + +And then, suddenly, her eyes widened and stared past him painfully; she +writhed out of his arms, and whispered: "Look!" + +Ashurst saw nothing but the brightened stream, the furze faintly gilded, +the beech trees glistening, and behind them all the wide loom of the +moonlit hill. Behind him came her frozen whisper: "The gipsy bogie!" + +"Where?" + +"There--by the stone--under the trees!" + +Exasperated, he leaped the stream, and strode towards the beech clump. +Prank of the moonlight! Nothing! In and out of the boulders and thorn +trees, muttering and cursing, yet with a kind of terror, he rushed and +stumbled. Absurd! Silly! Then he went back to the apple tree. But she +was gone; he could hear a rustle, the grunting of the pigs, the sound of +a gate closing. Instead of her, only this old apple tree! He flung his +arms round the trunk. What a substitute for her soft body; the rough +moss against his face--what a substitute for her soft cheek; only the +scent, as of the woods, a little the same! And above him, and around, +the blossoms, more living, more moonlit than ever, seemed to glow and +breathe. + + + + +7 + +Descending from the train at Torquay station, Ashurst wandered +uncertainly along the front, for he did not know this particular queen of +English watering places. Having little sense of what he had on, he was +quite unconscious of being remarkable among its inhabitants, and strode +along in his rough Norfolk jacket, dusty boots, and battered hat, without +observing that people gazed at him rather blankly. He was seeking a +branch of his London bank, and having found one, found also the first +obstacle to his mood. Did he know anyone in Torquay? No. In that case, +if he would wire to his bank in London, they would be happy to oblige him +on receipt of the reply. That suspicious breath from the matter-of-fact +world somewhat tarnished the brightness of his visions. But he sent the +telegram. + +Nearly opposite to the post office he saw a shop full of ladies' +garments, and examined the window with strange sensations. To have to +undertake the clothing of his rustic love was more than a little +disturbing. He went in. A young woman came forward; she had blue eyes +and a faintly puzzled forehead. Ashurst stared at her in silence. + +"Yes, sir?" + +"I want a dress for a young lady." + +The young woman smiled. Ashurst frowned the peculiarity of his request +struck him with sudden force. + +The young woman added hastily: + +"What style would you like--something modish?" + +"No. Simple." + +"What figure would the young lady be?" + +"I don't know; about two inches shorter than you, I should say." + +"Could you give me her waist measurement?" + +Megan's waist! + +"Oh! anything usual!" + +"Quite!" + +While she was gone he stood disconsolately eyeing the models in the +window, and suddenly it seemed to him incredible that Megan--his Megan +could ever be dressed save in the rough tweed skirt, coarse blouse, and +tam-o'-shanter cap he was wont to see her in. The young woman had come +back with several dresses in her arms, and Ashurst eyed her laying them +against her own modish figure. There was one whose colour he liked, a +dove-grey, but to imagine Megan clothed in it was beyond him. The young +woman went away, and brought some more. But on Ashurst there had now come +a feeling of paralysis. How choose? She would want a hat too, and +shoes, and gloves; and, suppose, when he had got them all, they +commonised her, as Sunday clothes always commonised village folk! Why +should she not travel as she was? Ah! But conspicuousness would matter; +this was a serious elopement. And, staring at the young woman, he +thought: 'I wonder if she guesses, and thinks me a blackguard?' + +"Do you mind putting aside that grey one for me?" he said desperately at +last. "I can't decide now; I'll come in again this afternoon." + +The young woman sighed. + +"Oh! certainly. It's a very tasteful costume. I don't think you'll get +anything that will suit your purpose better." + +"I expect not," Ashurst murmured, and went out. + +Freed again from the suspicious matter-of-factness of the world, he took +a long breath, and went back to visions. In fancy he saw the trustful, +pretty creature who was going to join her life to his; saw himself and +her stealing forth at night, walking over the moor under the moon, he +with his arm round her, and carrying her new garments, till, in some +far-off wood, when dawn was coming, she would slip off her old things and +put on these, and an early train at a distant station would bear them +away on their honeymoon journey, till London swallowed them up, and the +dreams of love came true. + +"Frank Ashurst! Haven't seen you since Rugby, old chap!" + +Ashurst's frown dissolved; the face, close to his own, was blue-eyed, +suffused with sun--one of those faces where sun from within and without +join in a sort of lustre. And he answered: + +"Phil Halliday, by Jove!" + +"What are you doing here?" + +"Oh! nothing. Just looking round, and getting some money. I'm staying +on the moor." + +"Are you lunching anywhere? Come and lunch with us; I'm here with my +young sisters. They've had measles." + +Hooked in by that friendly arm Ashurst went along, up a hill, down a +hill, away out of the town, while the voice of Halliday, redolent of +optimism as his face was of sun, explained how "in this mouldy place the +only decent things were the bathing and boating," and so on, till +presently they came to a crescent of houses a little above and back from +the sea, and into the centre one an hotel--made their way. + +"Come up to my room and have a wash. Lunch'll be ready in a jiffy." + +Ashurst contemplated his visage in a looking-glass. After his farmhouse +bedroom, the comb and one spare shirt regime of the last fortnight, this +room littered with clothes and brushes was a sort of Capua; and he +thought: 'Queer--one doesn't realise But what--he did not quite know. + +When he followed Halliday into the sitting room for lunch, three faces, +very fair and blue-eyed, were turned suddenly at the words: "This is +Frank Ashurst my young sisters." + +Two were indeed young, about eleven and ten. The third was perhaps +seventeen, tall and fair-haired too, with pink-and-white cheeks just +touched by the sun, and eyebrows, rather darker than the hair, running a +little upwards from her nose to their outer points. The voices of all +three were like Halliday's, high and cheerful; they stood up straight, +shook hands with a quick movement, looked at Ashurst critically, away +again at once, and began to talk of what they were going to do in the +afternoon. A regular Diana and attendant nymphs! After the farm this +crisp, slangy, eager talk, this cool, clean, off-hand refinement, was +queer at first, and then so natural that what he had come from became +suddenly remote. The names of the two little ones seemed to be Sabina +and Freda; of the eldest, Stella. + +Presently the one called Sabina turned to him and said: + +"I say, will you come shrimping with us?--it's awful fun!" + +Surprised by this unexpected friendliness, Ashurst murmured: + +"I'm afraid I've got to get back this afternoon." + +"Oh!" + +"Can't you put it off?" + +Ashurst turned to the new speaker, Stella, shook his head, and smiled. +She was very pretty! Sabina said regretfully: "You might!" Then the talk +switched off to caves and swimming. + +"Can you swim far?" + +"About two miles." + +"Oh!" + +"I say!" + +"How jolly!" + +The three pairs of blue eyes, fixed on him, made him conscious of his new +importance--The sensation was agreeable. Halliday said: + +"I say, you simply must stop and have a bathe. You'd better stay the +night." + +"Yes, do!"' + +But again Ashurst smiled and shook his head. Then suddenly he found +himself being catechised about his physical achievements. He had +rowed--it seemed--in his college boat, played in his college football +team, won his college mile; and he rose from table a sort of hero. The +two little girls insisted that he must see "their" cave, and they set +forth chattering like magpies, Ashurst between them, Stella and her +brother a little behind. In the cave, damp and darkish like any other +cave, the great feature was a pool with possibility of creatures which +might be caught and put into bottles. Sabina and Freda, who wore no +stockings on their shapely brown legs, exhorted Ashurst to join them in +the middle of it, and help sieve the water. He too was soon bootless and +sockless. Time goes fast for one who has a sense of beauty, when there +are pretty children in a pool and a young Diana on the edge, to receive +with wonder anything you can catch! Ashurst never had much sense of +time. It was a shock when, pulling out his watch, he saw it was well +past three. No cashing his cheque to-day-the bank would be closed before +he could get there. Watching his expression, the little girls cried out +at once: + +"Hurrah! Now you'll have to stay!" + +Ashurst did not answer. He was seeing again Megan's face, when at +breakfast time he had whispered: "I'm going to Torquay, darling, to get +everything; I shall be back this evening. If it's fine we can go +to-night. Be ready." He was seeing again how she quivered and hung on +his words. What would she think? Then he pulled himself together, +conscious suddenly of the calm scrutiny of this other young girl, so tall +and fair and Diana-like, at the edge of the pool, of her wondering blue +eyes under those brows which slanted up a little. If they knew what was +in his mind--if they knew that this very night he had meant! Well, there +would be a little sound of disgust, and he would be alone in the cave. +And with a curious mixture of anger, chagrin, and shame, he put his watch +back into his pocket and said abruptly: + +"Yes; I'm dished for to-day." + +"Hurrah! Now you can bathe with us." + +It was impossible not to succumb a little to the contentment of these +pretty children, to the smile on Stella's lips, to Halliday's "Ripping, +old chap! I can lend you things for the night!" But again a spasm of +longing and remorse throbbed through Ashurst, and he said moodily: + +"I must send a wire!" + +The attractions of the pool palling, they went back to the hotel. Ashurst +sent his wire, addressing it to Mrs. Narracombe: "Sorry, detained for the +night, back to-morrow." Surely Megan would understand that he had too +much to do; and his heart grew lighter. It was a lovely afternoon, warm, +the sea calm and blue, and swimming his great passion; the favour of +these pretty children flattered him, the pleasure of looking at them, at +Stella, at Halliday's sunny face; the slight unreality, yet extreme +naturalness of it all--as of a last peep at normality before he took this +plunge with Megan! He got his borrowed bathing dress, and they all set +forth. Halliday and he undressed behind one rock, the three girls behind +another. He was first into the sea, and at once swam out with the +bravado of justifying his self-given reputation. When he turned he could +see Halliday swimming along shore, and the girls flopping and dipping, +and riding the little waves, in the way he was accustomed to despise, but +now thought pretty and sensible, since it gave him the distinction of the +only deep-water fish. But drawing near, he wondered if they would like +him, a stranger, to come into their splashing group; he felt shy, +approaching that slim nymph. Then Sabina summoned him to teach her to +float, and between them the little girls kept him so busy that he had no +time even to notice whether Stella was accustomed to his presence, till +suddenly he heard a startled sound from her: She was standing submerged +to the waist, leaning a little forward, her slim white arms stretched out +and pointing, her wet face puckered by the sun and an expression of fear. + +"Look at Phil! Is he all right? Oh, look!" + +Ashurst saw at once that Phil was not all right. He was splashing and +struggling out of his depth, perhaps a hundred yards away; suddenly he +gave a cry, threw up his arms, and went down. Ashurst saw the girl +launch herself towards him, and crying out: "Go back, Stella! Go back!" +he dashed out. He had never swum so fast, and reached Halliday just as +he was coming up a second time. It was a case of cramp, but to get him +in was not difficult, for he did not struggle. The girl, who had stopped +where Ashurst told her to, helped as soon as he was in his depth, and +once on the beach they sat down one on each side of him to rub his limbs, +while the little ones stood by with scared faces. Halliday was soon +smiling. It was--he said--rotten of him, absolutely rotten! If Frank +would give him an arm, he could get to his clothes all right now. +Ashurst gave him the arm, and as he did so caught sight of Stella's face, +wet and flushed and tearful, all broken up out of its calm; and he +thought: 'I called her Stella! Wonder if she minded?' + +While they were dressing, Halliday said quietly, "You saved my life, old +chap!" + +"Rot!" + +Clothed, but not quite in their right minds, they went up all together to +the hotel and sat down to tea, except Halliday, who was lying down in his +room. After some slices of bread and jam, Sabina said: + +"I say, you know, you are a brick!" And Freda chimed in: + +"Rather!" + +Ashurst saw Stella looking down; he got up in confusion, and went to the +window. From there he heard Sabina mutter: "I say, let's swear blood +bond. Where's your knife, Freda?" and out of the corner of his eye +could see each of them solemnly prick herself, squeeze out a drop of +blood and dabble on a bit of paper. He turned and made for the door. + +"Don't be a stoat! Come back!" His arms were seized; imprisoned between +the little girls he was brought back to the table. On it lay a piece of +paper with an effigy drawn in blood, and the three names Stella Halliday, +Sabina Halliday, Freda Halliday--also in blood, running towards it like +the rays of a star. Sabina said: + +"That's you. We shall have to kiss you, you know." + +And Freda echoed: + +"Oh! Blow--Yes!" + +Before Ashurst could escape, some wettish hair dangled against his face, +something like a bite descended on his nose, he felt his left arm +pinched, and other teeth softly searching his cheek. Then he was +released, and Freda said: + +"Now, Stella." + +Ashurst, red and rigid, looked across the table at a red and rigid +Stella. Sabina giggled; Freda cried: + +"Buck up--it spoils everything!" + +A queer, ashamed eagerness shot through Ashurst: then he said quietly: + +"Shut up, you little demons!" + +Again Sabina giggled. + +"Well, then, she can kiss her hand, and you can put it against your nose. +It is on one side!" + +To his amazement the girl did kiss her hand and stretch it out. Solemnly +he took that cool, slim hand and laid it to his cheek. The two little +girls broke into clapping, and Freda said: + +"Now, then, we shall have to save your life at any time; that's settled. +Can I have another cup, Stella, not so beastly weak?" Tea was resumed, +and Ashurst, folding up the paper, put it in his pocket. The talk turned +on the advantages of measles, tangerine oranges, honey in a spoon, no +lessons, and so forth. Ashurst listened, silent, exchanging friendly +looks with Stella, whose face was again of its normal sun-touched pink +and white. It was soothing to be so taken to the heart of this jolly +family, fascinating to watch their faces. And after tea, while the two +little girls pressed seaweed, he talked to Stella in the window seat and +looked at her water-colour sketches. The whole thing was like a +pleasurable dream; time and incident hung up, importance and reality +suspended. Tomorrow he would go back to Megan, with nothing of all this +left save the paper with the blood of these children, in his pocket. +Children! Stella was not quite that--as old as Megan! Her talk--quick, +rather hard and shy, yet friendly--seemed to flourish on his silences, +and about her there was something cool and virginal--a maiden in a bower. +At dinner, to which Halliday, who had swallowed too much sea-water, did +not come, Sabina said: + +"I'm going to call you Frank." + +Freda echoed: + +"Frank, Frank, Franky." + +Ashurst grinned and bowed. + +"Every time Stella calls you Mr. Ashurst, she's got to pay a forfeit. +It's ridiculous." + +Ashurst looked at Stella, who grew slowly red. Sabina giggled; Freda +cried: + +"She's 'smoking'--'smoking!'--Yah!" + +Ashurst reached out to right and left, and grasped some fair hair in each +hand. + +"Look here," he said, "you two! Leave Stella alone, or I'll tie you +together!" + +Freda gurgled: + +"Ouch! You are a beast!" + +Sabina murmured cautiously: + +"You call her Stella, you see!" + +"Why shouldn't I? It's a jolly name!" + +"All right; we give you leave to!" + +Ashurst released the hair. Stella! What would she call him--after this? +But she called him nothing; till at bedtime he said, deliberately: + +"Good-night, Stella!" + +"Good-night, Mr.----Good-night, Frank! It was jolly of you, you know!" + +"Oh-that! Bosh!" + +Her quick, straight handshake tightened suddenly, and as suddenly became +slack. + +Ashurst stood motionless in the empty sitting-room. Only last night, +under the apple tree and the living blossom, he had held Megan to him, +kissing her eyes and lips. And he gasped, swept by that rush of +remembrance. To-night it should have begun-his life with her who only +wanted to be with him! And now, twenty-four hours and more must pass, +because-of not looking at his watch! Why had he made friends with this +family of innocents just when he was saying good-bye to innocence, and +all the rest of it? 'But I mean to marry her,' he thought; 'I told her +so!' + +He took a candle, lighted it, and went to his bedroom, which was next to +Halliday's. His friend's voice called, as he was passing: + +"Is that you, old chap? I say, come in." + +He was sitting up in bed, smoking a pipe and reading. + +"Sit down a bit." + +Ashurst sat down by the open window. + +"I've been thinking about this afternoon, you know," said Halliday rather +suddenly. "They say you go through all your past. I didn't. I suppose I +wasn't far enough gone." + +"What did you think of?" + +Halliday was silent for a little, then said quietly + +"Well, I did think of one thing--rather odd--of a girl at Cambridge that +I might have--you know; I was glad I hadn't got her on my mind. Anyhow, +old chap, I owe it to you that I'm here; I should have been in the big +dark by now. No more bed, or baccy; no more anything. I say, what d'you +suppose happens to us?" + +Ashurst murmured: + +"Go out like flames, I expect." + +"Phew!" + +"We may flicker, and cling about a bit, perhaps." + +"H'm! I think that's rather gloomy. I say, I hope my young sisters have +been decent to you?" + +"Awfully decent." + +Halliday put his pipe down, crossed his hands behind his neck, and turned +his face towards the window. + +"They're not bad kids!" he said. + +Watching his friend, lying there, with that smile, and the candle-light +on his face, Ashurst shuddered. Quite true! He might have been lying +there with no smile, with all that sunny look gone out for ever! He +might not have been lying there at all, but "sanded" at the bottom of the +sea, waiting for resurrection on the ninth day, was it? And that smile of +Halliday's seemed to him suddenly something wonderful, as if in it were +all the difference between life and death--the little flame--the all! He +got up, and said softly: + +"Well, you ought to sleep, I expect. Shall I blow out?" + +Halliday caught his hand. + +"I can't say it, you know; but it must be rotten to be dead. Good-night, +old boy!" + +Stirred and moved, Ashurst squeezed the hand, and went downstairs. The +hall door was still open, and he passed out on to the lawn before the +Crescent. The stars were bright in a very dark blue sky, and by their +light some lilacs had that mysterious colour of flowers by night which no +one can describe. Ashurst pressed his face against a spray; and before +his closed eyes Megan started up, with the tiny brown spaniel pup against +her breast. "I thought of a girl that I might have you know. I was glad +I hadn't got her on my mind!" He jerked his head away from the lilac, +and began pacing up and down over the grass, a grey phantom coming to +substance for a moment in the light from the lamp at either end. He was +with her again under the living, breathing white ness of the blossom, the +stream chattering by, the moon glinting steel-blue on the bathing-pool; +back in the rapture of his kisses on her upturned face of innocence and +humble passion, back in the suspense and beauty of that pagan night. He +stood still once more in the shadow of the lilacs. Here the sea, not the +stream, was Night's voice; the sea with its sigh and rustle; no little +bird, no owl, no night-Jar called or spun; but a piano tinkled, and the +white houses cut the sky with solid curve, and the scent from the lilacs +filled the air. A window of the hotel, high up, was lighted; he saw a +shadow move across the blind. And most queer sensations stirred within +him, a sort of churning, and twining, and turning of a single emotion on +itself, as though spring and love, bewildered and confused, seeking the +way, were baffled. This girl, who had called him Frank, whose hand had +given his that sudden little clutch, this girl so cool and pure--what +would she think of such wild, unlawful loving? He sank down on the +grass, sitting there cross-legged, with his back to the house, motionless +as some carved Buddha. Was he really going to break through innocence, +and steal? Sniff the scent out of a wild flower, and--perhaps--throw it +away? "Of a girl at Cambridge that I might have--you know!" He put his +hands to the grass, one on each side, palms downwards, and pressed; it +was just warm still--the grass, barely moist, soft and firm and friendly. +'What am I going to do?' he thought. Perhaps Megan was at her window, +looking out at the blossom, thinking of him! Poor little Megan! 'Why +not?' he thought. 'I love her! But do I really love her? or do I only +want her because she is so pretty, and loves me? What am I going to do?' +The piano tinkled on, the stars winked; and Ashurst gazed out before him +at the dark sea, as if spell-bound. He got up at last, cramped and +rather chilly. There was no longer light in any window. And he went in +to bed. + +Out of a deep and dreamless sleep he was awakened by the sound of +thumping on the door. A shrill voice called: + +"Hi! Breakfast's ready." + +He jumped up. Where was he--? Ah! + +He found them already eating marmalade, and sat down in the empty place +between Stella and Sabina, who, after watching him a little, said: + +"I say, do buck up; we're going to start at half-past nine." + +"We're going to Berry Head, old chap; you must come!" + +Ashurst thought: 'Come! Impossible. I shall be getting things and going +back.' He looked at Stella. She said quickly: + +"Do come!" + +Sabina chimed in: + +"It'll be no fun without you." + +Freda got up and stood behind his chair. + +"You've got to come, or else I'll pull your hair!" + +Ashurst thought: 'Well--one day more--to think it over! One day more!' +And he said: + +"All right! You needn't tweak my mane!" + +"Hurrah!" + +At the station he wrote a second telegram to the farm, and then tore it +up; he could not have explained why. From Brixham they drove in a very +little wagonette. There, squeezed between Sabina and Freda, with his +knees touching Stella's, they played "Up, Jenkins "; and the gloom he was +feeling gave way to frolic. In this one day more to think it over, he +did not want to think! They ran races, wrestled, paddled--for to-day +nobody wanted to bathe--they sang catches, played games, and ate all they +had brought. The little girls fell asleep against him on the way back, +and his knees still touched Stella's in the narrow wagonette. It seemed +incredible that thirty hours ago he had never set eyes on any of those +three flaxen heads. In the train he talked to Stella of poetry, +discovering her favourites, and telling her his own with a pleasing sense +of superiority; till suddenly she said, rather low: + +"Phil says you don't believe in a future life, Frank. I think that's +dreadful." + +Disconcerted, Ashurst muttered: + +"I don't either believe or not believe--I simply don't know." + +She said quickly: + +"I couldn't bear that. What would be the use of living?" + +Watching the frown of those pretty oblique brows, Ashurst answered: + +"I don't believe in believing things because a one wants to." + +"But why should one wish to live again, if one isn't going to?" + +And she looked full at him. + +He did not want to hurt her, but an itch to dominate pushed him on to +say: + +"While one's alive one naturally wants to go on living for ever; that's +part of being alive. But it probably isn't anything more." + +"Don't you believe in the Bible at all, then?" + +Ashurst thought: 'Now I shall really hurt her!' + +"I believe in the Sermon on the Mount, because it's beautiful and good +for all time." + +"But don't you believe Christ was divine?" + +He shook his head. + +She turned her face quickly to the window, and there sprang into his mind +Megan's prayer, repeated by little Nick: "God bless us all, and Mr. +Ashes!" Who else would ever say a prayer for him, like her who at this +moment must be waiting--waiting to see him come down the lane? And he +thought suddenly: 'What a scoundrel I am!' + +All that evening this thought kept coming back; but, as is not unusual, +each time with less poignancy, till it seemed almost a matter of course +to be a scoundrel. And--strange!--he did not know whether he was a +scoundrel if he meant to go back to Megan, or if he did not mean to go +back to her. + +They played cards till the children were sent off to bed; then Stella +went to the piano. From over on the window seat, where it was nearly +dark, Ashurst watched her between the candles--that fair head on the +long, white neck bending to the movement of her hands. She played +fluently, without much expression; but what a Picture she made, the faint +golden radiance, a sort of angelic atmosphere hovering about her! Who +could have passionate thoughts or wild desires in the presence of that +swaying, white-clothed girl with the seraphic head? She played a thing of +Schumann's called "Warum?" Then Halliday brought out a flute, and the +spell was broken. After this they made Ashurst sing, Stella playing him +accompaniments from a book of Schumann songs, till, in the middle of "Ich +grolle nicht," two small figures clad in blue dressing-gowns crept in and +tried to conceal themselves beneath the piano. The evening broke up in +confusion, and what Sabina called "a splendid rag." + +That night Ashurst hardly slept at all. He was thinking, tossing and +turning. The intense domestic intimacy of these last two days, the +strength of this Halliday atmosphere, seemed to ring him round, and make +the farm and Megan--even Megan--seem unreal. Had he really made love to +her--really promised to take her away to live with him? He must have +been bewitched by the spring, the night, the apple blossom! This May +madness could but destroy them both! The notion that he was going to +make her his mistress--that simple child not yet eighteen--now filled him +with a sort of horror, even while it still stung and whipped his blood. +He muttered to himself: "It's awful, what I've done--awful!" And the +sound of Schumann's music throbbed and mingled with his fevered thoughts, +and he saw again Stella's cool, white, fair-haired figure and bending +neck, the queer, angelic radiance about her. 'I must have been--I must +be-mad!' he thought. 'What came into me? Poor little Megan!' "God +bless us all, and Mr. Ashes!" "I want to be with you--only to be with +you!" And burying his face in his pillow, he smothered down a fit of +sobbing. Not to go back was awful! To go back--more awful still! + +Emotion, when you are young, and give real vent to it, loses its power of +torture. And he fell asleep, thinking: 'What was it--a few kisses--all +forgotten in a month!' + +Next morning he got his cheque cashed, but avoided the shop of the +dove-grey dress like the plague; and, instead, bought himself some +necessaries. He spent the whole day in a queer mood, cherishing a kind +of sullenness against himself. Instead of the hankering of the last two +days, he felt nothing but a blank--all passionate longing gone, as if +quenched in that outburst of tears. After tea Stella put a book down +beside him, and said shyly: + +"Have you read that, Frank?" + +It was Farrar's "Life of Christ." Ashurst smiled. Her anxiety about his +beliefs seemed to him comic, but touching. Infectious too, perhaps, for +he began to have an itch to justify himself, if not to convert her. And +in the evening, when the children and Halliday were mending their +shrimping nets, he said: + +"At the back of orthodox religion, so far as I can see, there's always +the idea of reward--what you can get for being good; a kind of begging +for favours. I think it all starts in fear." + +She was sitting on the sofa making reefer knots with a bit of string. She +looked up quickly: + +"I think it's much deeper than that." + +Ashurst felt again that wish to dominate. + +"You think so," he said; "but wanting the 'quid pro quo' is about the +deepest thing in all of us! It's jolly hard to get to the bottom of it!" + +She wrinkled her brows in a puzzled frown. + +"I don't think I understand." + +He went on obstinately: + +"Well, think, and see if the most religious people aren't those who feel +that this life doesn't give them all they want. I believe in being good +because to be good is good in itself." + +"Then you do believe in being good?" + +How pretty she looked now--it was easy to be good with her! And he +nodded and said: + +"I say, show me how to make that knot!" + +With her fingers touching his, in manoeuvring the bit of string, he felt +soothed and happy. And when he went to bed he wilfully kept his thoughts +on her, wrapping himself in her fair, cool sisterly radiance, as in some +garment of protection. + +Next day he found they had arranged to go by train to Totnes, and picnic +at Berry Pomeroy Castle. Still in that resolute oblivion of the past, he +took his place with them in the landau beside Halliday, back to the +horses. And, then, along the sea front, nearly at the turning to the +railway station, his heart almost leaped into his mouth. Megan--Megan +herself!--was walking on the far pathway, in her old skirt and jacket and +her tam-o'-shanter, looking up into the faces of the passers-by. +Instinctively he threw his hand up for cover, then made a feint of +clearing dust out of his eyes; but between his fingers he could see her +still, moving, not with her free country step, but wavering, +lost-looking, pitiful-like some little dog which has missed its master +and does not know whether to run on, to run back--where to run. How had +she come like this?--what excuse had she found to get away?--what did she +hope for? But with every turn of the wheels bearing him away from her, +his heart revolted and cried to him to stop them, to get out, and go to +her! When the landau turned the corner to the station he could stand it +no more, and opening the carriage door, muttered: "I've forgotten +something! Go on--don't wait for me! I'll join you at the castle by the +next train!" He jumped, stumbled, spun round, recovered his balance, and +walked forward, while the carriage with the astonished Hallidays rolled +on. + +From the corner he could only just see Megan, a long way ahead now. He +ran a few steps, checked himself, and dropped into a walk. With each +step nearer to her, further from the Hallidays, he walked more and more +slowly. How did it alter anything--this sight of her? How make the +going to her, and that which must come of it, less ugly? For there was no +hiding it--since he had met the Hallidays he had become gradually sure +that he would not marry Megan. It would only be a wild love-time, a +troubled, remorseful, difficult time--and then--well, then he would get +tired, just because she gave him everything, was so simple, and so +trustful, so dewy. And dew--wears off! The little spot of faded colour, +her tam-o'-shanter cap, wavered on far in front of him; she was looking +up into every face, and at the house windows. Had any man ever such a +cruel moment to go through? Whatever he did, he felt he would be a +beast. And he uttered a groan which made a nursemaid turn and stare. He +saw Megan stop and lean against the sea-wall, looking at the sea; and he +too stopped. Quite likely she had never seen the sea before, and even in +her distress could not resist that sight. 'Yes-she's seen nothing,' he +thought; 'everything's before her. And just for a few weeks' passion, I +shall be cutting her life to ribbons. I'd better go and hang myself +rather than do it!' And suddenly he seemed to see Stella's calm eyes +looking into his, the wave of fluffy hair on her forehead stirred by the +wind. Ah! it would be madness, would mean giving up all that he +respected, and his own self-respect. He turned and walked quickly back +towards the station. But memory of that poor, bewildered little figure, +those anxious eyes searching the passers-by, smote him too hard again, +and once more he turned towards the sea. + +The cap was no longer visible; that little spot of colour had vanished in +the stream of the noon promenaders. And impelled by the passion of +longing, the dearth which comes on one when life seems to be whirling +something out of reach, he hurried forward. She was nowhere to be seen; +for half an hour he looked for her; then on the beach flung himself face +downward in the sand. To find her again he knew he had only to go to the +station and wait till she returned from her fruitless quest, to take her +train home; or to take train himself and go back to the farm, so that she +found him there when she returned. But he lay inert in the sand, among +the indifferent groups of children with their spades and buckets. Pity +at her little figure wandering, seeking, was well-nigh merged in the +spring-running of his blood; for it was all wild feeling now--the +chivalrous part, what there had been of it, was gone. He wanted her +again, wanted her kisses, her soft, little body, her abandonment, all her +quick, warm, pagan emotion; wanted the wonderful feeling of that night +under the moonlit apple boughs; wanted it all with a horrible intensity, +as the faun wants the nymph. The quick chatter of the little bright +trout-stream, the dazzle of the buttercups, the rocks of the old "wild +men"; the calling of the cuckoos and yaffles, the hooting of the owls; +and the red moon peeping out of the velvet dark at the living whiteness +of the blossom; and her face just out of reach at the window, lost in its +love-look; and her heart against his, her lips answering his, under the +apple tree--all this besieged him. Yet he lay inert. What was it which +struggled against pity and this feverish longing, and kept him there +paralysed in the warm sand? Three flaxen heads--a fair face with friendly +blue--grey eyes, a slim hand pressing his, a quick voice speaking his +name--"So you do believe in being good?" Yes, and a sort of atmosphere +as of some old walled-in English garden, with pinks, and cornflowers, and +roses, and scents of lavender and lilaccool and fair, untouched, almost +holy--all that he had been brought up to feel was clean and good. And +suddenly he thought: 'She might come along the front again and see me!' +and he got up and made his way to the rock at the far end of the beach. +There, with the spray biting into his face, he could think more coolly. +To go back to the farm and love Megan out in the woods, among the rocks, +with everything around wild and fitting--that, he knew, was impossible, +utterly. To transplant her to a great town, to keep, in some little flat +or rooms, one who belonged so wholly to Nature--the poet in him shrank +from it. His passion would be a mere sensuous revel, soon gone; in +London, her very simplicity, her lack of all intellectual quality, would +make her his secret plaything--nothing else. The longer he sat on the +rock, with his feet dangling over a greenish pool from which the sea was +ebbing, the more clearly he saw this; but it was as if her arms and all +of her were slipping slowly, slowly down from him, into the pool, to be +carried away out to sea; and her face looking up, her lost face with +beseeching eyes, and dark, wet hair-possessed, haunted, tortured him! He +got up at last, scaled the low rock-cliff, and made his way down into a +sheltered cove. Perhaps in the sea he could get back his control--lose +this fever! And stripping off his clothes, he swam out. He wanted to +tire himself so that nothing mattered and swam recklessly, fast and far; +then suddenly, for no reason, felt afraid. Suppose he could not reach +shore again--suppose the current set him out--or he got cramp, like +Halliday! He turned to swim in. The red cliffs looked a long way off. +If he were drowned they would find his clothes. The Hallidays would +know; but Megan perhaps never--they took no newspaper at the farm. And +Phil Halliday's words came back to him again: "A girl at Cambridge I +might have Glad I haven't got her on my mind!" And in that moment of +unreasoning fear he vowed he would not have her on his mind. Then his +fear left him; he swam in easily enough, dried himself in the sun, and +put on his clothes. His heart felt sore, but no longer ached; his body +cool and refreshed. + +When one is as young as Ashurst, pity is not a violent emotion. And, +back in the Hallidays' sitting-room, eating a ravenous tea, he felt much +like a man recovered from fever. Everything seemed new and clear; the +tea, the buttered toast and jam tasted absurdly good; tobacco had never +smelt so nice. And walking up and down the empty room, he stopped here +and there to touch or look. He took up Stella's work-basket, fingered +the cotton reels and a gaily-coloured plait of sewing silks, smelt at the +little bag filled with woodroffe she kept among them. He sat down at the +piano, playing tunes with one finger, thinking: 'To-night she'll play; I +shall watch her while she's playing; it does me good to watch her.' He +took up the book, which still lay where she had placed it beside him, and +tried to read. But Megan's little, sad figure began to come back at +once, and he got up and leaned in the window, listening to the thrushes +in the Crescent gardens, gazing at the sea, dreamy and blue below the +trees. A servant came in and cleared the tea away, and he still stood, +inhaling the evening air, trying not to think. Then he saw the Hallidays +coming through the gate of the Crescent, Stella a little in front of Phil +and the children, with their baskets, and instinctively he drew back. +His heart, too sore and discomfited, shrank from this encounter, yet +wanted its friendly solace--bore a grudge against this influence, yet +craved its cool innocence, and the pleasure of watching Stella's face. +From against the wall behind the piano he saw her come in and stand +looking a little blank as though disappointed; then she saw him and +smiled, a swift, brilliant smile which warmed yet irritated Ashurst. + +"You never came after us, Frank." + +"No; I found I couldn't." + +"Look! We picked such lovely late violets!" She held out a bunch. +Ashurst put his nose to them, and there stirred within him vague +longings, chilled instantly by a vision of Megan's anxious face lifted to +the faces of the passers-by. + +He said shortly: "How jolly!" and turned away. He went up to his room, +and, avoiding the children, who were coming up the stairs, threw himself +on his bed, and lay there with his arms crossed over his face. Now that +he felt the die really cast, and Megan given up, he hated himself, and +almost hated the Hallidays and their atmosphere of healthy, happy English +homes. + +Why should they have chanced here, to drive away first love--to show him +that he was going to be no better than a common seducer? What right had +Stella, with her fair, shy beauty, to make him know for certain that he +would never marry Megan; and, tarnishing it all, bring him such +bitterness of regretful longing and such pity? Megan would be back by +now, worn out by her miserable seeking--poor little thing!--expecting, +perhaps, to find him there when she reached home. Ashurst bit at his +sleeve, to stifle a groan of remorseful longing. He went to dinner glum +and silent, and his mood threw a dinge even over the children. It was a +melancholy, rather ill tempered evening, for they were all tired; several +times he caught Stella looking at him with a hurt, puzzled expression, +and this pleased his evil mood. He slept miserably; got up quite early, +and wandered out. He went down to the beach. Alone there with the +serene, the blue, the sunlit sea, his heart relaxed a little. Conceited +fool--to think that Megan would take it so hard! In a week or two she +would almost have forgotten! And he well, he would have the reward of +virtue! A good young man! If Stella knew, she would give him her +blessing for resisting that devil she believed in; and he uttered a hard +laugh. But slowly the peace and beauty of sea and sky, the flight of the +lonely seagulls, made him feel ashamed. He bathed, and turned homewards. + +In the Crescent gardens Stella herself was sitting on a camp stool, +sketching. He stole up close behind. How fair and pretty she was, bent +diligently, holding up her brush, measuring, wrinkling her brows. + +He said gently: + +"Sorry I was such a beast last night, Stella." + +She turned round, startled, flushed very pink, and said in her quick way: + +"It's all right. I knew there was something. Between friends it doesn't +matter, does it?" + +Ashurst answered: + +"Between friends--and we are, aren't we?" + +She looked up at him, nodded vehemently, and her upper teeth gleamed +again in that swift, brilliant smile. + +Three days later he went back to London, travelling with the Hallidays. +He had not written to the farm. What was there he could say? + +On the last day of April in the following year he and Stella were +married.... + +Such were Ashurst's memories, sitting against the wall among the gorse, +on his silver-wedding day. At this very spot, where he had laid out the +lunch, Megan must have stood outlined against the sky when he had first +caught sight of her. Of all queer coincidences! And there moved in him a +longing to go down and see again the farm and the orchard, and the meadow +of the gipsy bogle. It would not take long; Stella would be an hour yet, +perhaps. + +How well he remembered it all--the little crowning group of pine trees, +the steep-up grass hill behind! He paused at the farm gate. The low +stone house, the yew-tree porch, the flowering currants--not changed a +bit; even the old green chair was out there on the grass under the +window, where he had reached up to her that night to take the key. Then +he turned down the lane, and stood leaning on the orchard gate-grey +skeleton of a gate, as then. A black pig even was wandering in there +among the trees. Was it true that twenty-six years had passed, or had he +dreamed and awakened to find Megan waiting for him by the big apple tree? +Unconsciously he put up his hand to his grizzled beard and brought +himself back to reality. Opening the gate, he made his way down through +the docks and nettles till he came to the edge, and the old apple tree +itself. Unchanged! A little more of the greygreen lichen, a dead branch +or two, and for the rest it might have been only last night that he had +embraced that mossy trunk after Megan's flight and inhaled its woody +savour, while above his head the moonlit blossom had seemed to breathe +and live. In that early spring a few buds were showing already; the +blackbirds shouting their songs, a cuckoo calling, the sunlight bright +and warm. Incredibly the same-the chattering trout-stream, the narrow +pool he had lain in every morning, splashing the water over his flanks +and chest; and out there in the wild meadow the beech clump and the stone +where the gipsy bogie was supposed to sit. And an ache for lost youth, a +hankering, a sense of wasted love and sweetness, gripped Ashurst by the +throat. Surely, on this earth of such wild beauty, one was meant to hold +rapture to one's heart, as this earth and sky held it! And yet, one +could not! + +He went to the edge of the stream, and looking down at the little pool, +thought: 'Youth and spring! What has become of them all, I wonder?' + +And then, in sudden fear of having this memory jarred by human encounter, +he went back to the lane, and pensively retraced his steps to the +crossroads. + +Beside the car an old, grey-bearded labourer was leaning on a stick, +talking to the chauffeur. He broke off at once, as though guilty of +disrespect, and touching his hat, prepared to limp on down the lane. + +Ashurst pointed to the narrow green mound. "Can you tell me what this +is?" + +The old fellow stopped; on his face had come a look as though he were +thinking: 'You've come to the right shop, mister!' + +"'Tes a grave," he said. + +"But why out here?" + +The old man smiled. "That's a tale, as yu may say. An' not the first +time as I've a-told et--there's plenty folks asks 'bout that bit o' turf. +'Maid's Grave' us calls et, 'ereabouts." + +Ashurst held out his pouch. "Have a fill?" + +The old man touched his hat again, and slowly filled an old clay pipe. +His eyes, looking upward out of a mass of wrinkles and hair, were still +quite bright. + +"If yu don' mind, zurr, I'll zet down my leg's 'urtin' a bit today." And +he sat down on the mound of turf. + +"There's always a flower on this grave. An' 'tain't so very lonesome, +neither; brave lot o' folks goes by now, in they new motor cars an' +things--not as 'twas in th' old days. She've a got company up 'ere. +'Twas a poor soul killed 'erself." + +"I see!" said Ashurst. "Cross-roads burial. I didn't know that custom +was kept up." + +"Ah! but 'twas a main long time ago. Us 'ad a parson as was very +God-fearin' then. Let me see, I've a 'ad my pension six year come +Michaelmas, an' I were just on fifty when t'appened. There's none livin' +knows more about et than what I du. She belonged close 'ere; same farm +as where I used to work along o' Mrs. Narracombe 'tes Nick Narracombe's +now; I dus a bit for 'im still, odd times." + +Ashurst, who was leaning against the gate, lighting his pipe, left his +curved hands before his face for long after the flame of the match had +gone out. + +"Yes?" he said, and to himself his voice sounded hoarse and queer. + +"She was one in an 'underd, poor maid! I putts a flower 'ere every time +I passes. Pretty maid an' gude maid she was, though they wouldn't burry +'er up to th' church, nor where she wanted to be burried neither." The +old labourer paused, and put his hairy, twisted hand flat down on the +turf beside the bluebells. + +"Yes?" said Ashurst. + +"In a manner of speakin'," the old man went on, "I think as 'twas a +love-story--though there's no one never knu for zartin. Yu can't tell +what's in a maid's 'ead but that's wot I think about it." He drew his +hand along the turf. "I was fond o' that maid--don' know as there was +anyone as wasn' fond of 'er. But she was to lovin'-'earted--that's where +'twas, I think." He looked up. And Ashurst, whose lips were trembling +in the cover of his beard, murmured again: "Yes?" + +"'Twas in the spring, 'bout now as 't might be, or a little +later--blossom time--an' we 'ad one o' they young college gentlemen +stayin' at the farm-nice feller tu, with 'is 'ead in the air. I liked 'e +very well, an' I never see nothin' between 'em, but to my thinkin' 'e +turned the maid's fancy." The old man took the pipe out of his mouth, +spat, and went on: + +"Yu see, 'e went away sudden one day, an' never come back. They got 'is +knapsack and bits o' things down there still. That's what stuck in my +mind--'is never sendin' for 'em. 'Is name was Ashes, or somethen' like +that." + +"Yes?" said Ashurst once more. + +The old man licked his lips. + +"'Er never said nothin', but from that day 'er went kind of dazed lukin'; +didn'seem rightly therr at all. I never knu a'uman creature so changed +in me life--never. There was another young feller at the farm--Joe +Biddaford 'is name wer', that was praaperly sweet on 'er, tu; I guess 'e +used to plague 'er wi 'is attentions. She got to luke quite wild. I'd +zee her sometimes of an avenin' when I was bringin' up the calves; ther' +she'd stand in th' orchard, under the big apple tree, lukin' straight +before 'er. 'Well,' I used t'think, 'I dunno what 'tes that's the matter +wi' yu, but yu'm lukin' pittiful, that yu be!'" + +The old man refit his pipe, and sucked at it reflectively. + +"Yes?" said Ashurst. + +"I remembers one day I said to 'er: 'What's the matter, Megan?'--'er name +was Megan David, she come from Wales same as 'er aunt, ol' Missis +Narracombe. 'Yu'm frettin' about somethin'. I says. 'No, Jim,' she +says, 'I'm not frettin'.' 'Yes, yu be!' I says. 'No,' she says, and to +tears cam' rollin' out. 'Yu'm cryin'--what's that, then?' I says. She +putts 'er 'and over 'er 'eart: 'It 'urts me,' she says; 'but 'twill sune +be better,' she says. 'But if anything shude 'appen to me, Jim, I wants +to be burried under this 'ere apple tree.' I laughed. 'What's goin' to +'appen to yu?' I says; 'don't 'ee be fulish.' 'No,' she says, 'I won't be +fulish.' Well, I know what maids are, an' I never thought no more about +et, till two days arter that, 'bout six in the avenin' I was comin' up +wi' the calves, when I see somethin' dark lyin' in the strame, close to +that big apple tree. I says to meself: 'Is that a pig-funny place for a +pig to get to!' an' I goes up to et, an' I see what 'twas." + +The old man stopped; his eyes, turned upward, had a bright, suffering +look. + +"'Twas the maid, in a little narrer pool ther' that's made by the +stoppin' of a rock--where I see the young gentleman bathin' once or +twice. 'Er was lyin' on 'er face in the watter. There was a plant o' +goldie-cups growin' out o' the stone just above 'er'ead. An' when I come +to luke at 'er face, 'twas luvly, butiful, so calm's a baby's--wonderful +butiful et was. When the doctor saw 'er, 'e said: 'Er culdn' never +a-done it in that little bit o' watter ef' er 'adn't a-been in an +extarsy.' Ah! an' judgin' from 'er face, that was just 'ow she was. Et +made me cry praaper-butiful et was! 'Twas June then, but she'd afound a +little bit of apple-blossom left over somewheres, and stuck et in 'er +'air. That's why I thinks 'er must abeen in an extarsy, to go to et gay, +like that. Why! there wasn't more than a fute and 'arf o' watter. But I +tell 'ee one thing--that meadder's 'arnted; I knu et, an' she knu et; an' +no one'll persuade me as 'tesn't. I told 'em what she said to me 'bout +bein' burried under th' apple tree. But I think that turned 'em--made et +luke to much 's ef she'd 'ad it in 'er mind deliberate; an' so they +burried 'er up 'ere. Parson we 'ad then was very particular, 'e was." + +Again the old man drew his hand over the turf. + +"'Tes wonderful, et seems," he added slowly, "what maids 'll du for love. +She 'ad a lovin-'eart; I guess 'twas broken. But us never knu nothin'!" + +He looked up as if for approval of his story, but Ashurst had walked past +him as if he were not there. + +Up on the top of the hill, beyond where he had spread the lunch, over, +out of sight, he lay down on his face. So had his virtue been rewarded, +and "the Cyprian," goddess of love, taken her revenge! And before his +eyes, dim with tears, came Megan's face with the sprig of apple blossom +in her dark, wet hair. 'What did I do that was wrong?' he thought. +'What did I do?' But he could not answer. Spring, with its rush of +passion, its flowers and song-the spring in his heart and Megan's! Was +it just Love seeking a victim! The Greek was right, then--the words of +the "Hippolytus" as true to-day! + + "For mad is the heart of Love, + And gold the gleam of his wing; + And all to the spell thereof + Bend when he makes his spring. + All life that is wild and young + In mountain and wave and stream + All that of earth is sprung, + Or breathes in the red sunbeam; + Yea, and Mankind. O'er all a royal throne, + Cyprian, Cyprian, is thine alone!" + +The Greek was right! Megan! Poor little Megan--coming over the hill! +Megan under the old apple tree waiting and looking! Megan dead, with +beauty printed on her! + +A voice said: + +"Oh, there you are! Look!" + +Ashurst rose, took his wife's sketch, and stared at it in silence. + +"Is the foreground right, Frank?" + +"Yes." + +"But there's something wanting, isn't there?" + +Ashurst nodded. Wanting? The apple tree, the singing, and the gold! + +And solemnly he put his lips to her forehead. It was his silver-wedding +day. +1916 + + + + +THE JURYMAN + + "Don't you see, brother, I was reading yesterday the Gospel + about Christ, the little Father; how He suffered, how He walked + on the earth. I suppose you have heard about it?" + + "Indeed, I have," replied Stepanuitch; "but we are people in + darkness; we can't read."--TOLSTOI. + +Mr. Henry Bosengate, of the London Stock Exchange, seated himself in his +car that morning during the great war with a sense of injury. Major in a +Volunteer Corps; member of all the local committees; lending this very +car to the neighbouring hospital, at times even driving it himself for +their benefit; subscribing to funds, so far as his diminished income +permitted--he was conscious of being an asset to the country, and one +whose time could not be wasted with impunity. To be summoned to sit on a +jury at the local assizes, and not even the grand jury at that! It was +in the nature of an outrage. + +Strong and upright, with hazel eyes and dark eyebrows, pinkish-brown +cheeks, a forehead white, well-shaped, and getting high, with greyish +hair glossy and well-brushed, and a trim moustache, he might have been +taken for that colonel of Volunteers which indeed he was in a fair way of +becoming. + +His wife had followed him out under the porch, and stood bracing her +supple body clothed in lilac linen. Red rambler roses formed a sort of +crown to her dark head; her ivory-coloured face had in it just a +suggestion of the Japanese. + +Mr. Bosengate spoke through the whirr of the engine: + +"I don't expect to be late, dear. This business is ridiculous. There +oughtn't to be any crime in these days." + +His wife--her name was Kathleen--smiled. She looked very pretty and +cool, Mr. Bosengate thought. To him bound on this dull and stuffy +business everything he owned seemed pleasant--the geranium beds beside +the gravel drive, his long, red-brick house mellowing decorously in its +creepers and ivy, the little clock-tower over stables now converted to a +garage, the dovecote, masking at the other end the conservatory which +adjoined the billiard-room. Close to the red-brick lodge his two +children, Kate and Harry, ran out from under the acacia trees, and waved +to him, scrambling bare-legged on to the low, red, ivy-covered wall which +guarded his domain of eleven acres. Mr. Bosengate waved back, thinking: +'Jolly couple--by Jove, they are!' Above their heads, through the trees, +he could see right away to some Downs, faint in the July heat haze. And +he thought: 'Pretty a spot as one could have got, so close to Town!' + +Despite the war he had enjoyed these last two years more than any of the +ten since he built "Charmleigh" and settled down to semi-rural +domesticity with his young wife. There had been a certain piquancy, a +savour added to existence, by the country's peril, and all the public +service and sacrifice it demanded. His chauffeur was gone, and one +gardener did the work of three. He enjoyed-positively enjoyed, his +committee work; even the serious decline of business and increase of +taxation had not much worried one continually conscious of the national +crisis and his own part therein. The country had wanted waking up, +wanted a lesson in effort and economy; and the feeling that he had not +spared himself in these strenuous times, had given a zest to those quiet +pleasures of bed and board which, at his age, even the most patriotic +could retain with a good conscience. He had denied himself many +things--new clothes, presents for Kathleen and the children, travel, and +that pine-apple house which he had been on the point of building when the +war broke out; new wine, too, and cigars, and membership of the two Clubs +which he had never used in the old days. The hours had seemed fuller and +longer, sleep better earned--wonderful, the things one could do without +when put to it! He turned the car into the high road, driving dreamily +for he was in plenty of time. The war was going pretty well now; he was +no fool optimist, but now that conscription was in force, one might +reasonably hope for its end within a year. Then there would be a boom, +and one might let oneself go a little. Visions of theatres and supper +with his wife at the Savoy afterwards, and cosy night drives back into +the sweet-smelling country behind your own chauffeur once more teased a +fancy which even now did not soar beyond the confines of domestic +pleasures. He pictured his wife in new dresses by Jay--she was fifteen +years younger than himself, and "paid for dressing" as they said. He had +always delighted--as men older than their wives will--in the admiration +she excited from others not privileged to enjoy her charms. Her rather +queer and ironical beauty, her cool irreproachable wifeliness, was a +constant balm to him. They would give dinner parties again, have their +friends down from town, and he would once more enjoy sitting at the foot +of the dinner table while Kathleen sat at the head, with the light soft +on her ivory shoulders, behind flowers she had arranged in that original +way of hers, and fruit which he had grown in his hot-houses; once more he +would take legitimate interest in the wine he offered to his guests--once +more stock that Chinese cabinet wherein he kept cigars. Yes--there was a +certain satisfaction in these days of privation, if only from the +anticipation they created. + +The sprinkling of villas had become continuous on either side of the high +road; and women going out to shop, tradesmen's boys delivering victuals, +young men in khaki, began to abound. Now and then a limping or bandaged +form would pass--some bit of human wreckage; and Mr. Bosengate would +think mechanically: 'Another of those poor devils! Wonder if we've had +his case before us!' + +Running his car into the best hotel garage of the little town, he made +his way leisurely over to the court. It stood back from the +market-place, and was already lapped by a sea of persons having, as in +the outer ring at race meetings, an air of business at which one must not +be caught out, together with a soaked or flushed appearance. Mr. +Bosengate could not resist putting his handkerchief to his nose. He had +carefully drenched it with lavender water, and to this fact owed, +perhaps, his immunity from the post of foreman on the jury--for, say what +you will about the English, they have a deep instinct for affairs. + +He found himself second in the front row of the jury box, and through the +odour of "Sanitas" gazed at the judge's face expressionless up there, for +all the world like a bewigged bust. His fellows in the box had that +appearance of falling between two classes characteristic of jurymen. Mr. +Bosengate was not impressed. On one side of him the foreman sat, a +prominent upholsterer, known in the town as "Gentleman Fox." His dark +and beautifully brushed and oiled hair and moustache, his radiant linen, +gold watch and chain, the white piping to his waistcoat, and a habit of +never saying "Sir" had long marked him out from commoner men; he +undertook to bury people too, to save them trouble; and was altogether +superior. On the other side Mr. Bosengate had one of those men, who, +except when they sit on juries, are never seen without a little brown +bag, and the appearance of having been interrupted in a drink. Pale and +shiny, with large loose eyes shifting from side to side, he had an +underdone voice and uneasy flabby hands. Mr. Bosengate disliked sitting +next to him. Beyond this commercial traveller sat a dark pale young man +with spectacles; beyond him again, a short old man with grey moustache, +mutton chops, and innumerable wrinkles; and the front row was completed +by a chemist. The three immediately behind, Mr. Bosengate did not +thoroughly master; but the three at the end of the second row he learned +in their order of an oldish man in a grey suit, given to winking; an +inanimate person with the mouth of a moustachioed codfish, over whose +long bald crown three wisps of damp hair were carefully arranged; and a +dried, dapperish, clean-shorn man, whose mouth seemed terrified lest it +should be surprised without a smile. Their first and second verdicts were +recorded without the necessity for withdrawal, and Mr. Bosengate was +already sleepy when the third case was called. The sight of khaki +revived his drooping attention. But what a weedy-looking specimen! This +prisoner had a truly nerveless pitiable dejected air. If he had ever had +a military bearing it had shrunk into him during his confinement. His +ill-shaped brown tunic, whose little brass buttons seemed trying to keep +smiling, struck Mr. Bosengate as ridiculously short, used though he was +to such things. 'Absurd,' he thought--'Lumbago! Just where they ought +to be covered!' Then the officer and gentleman stirred in him, and he +added to himself: 'Still, there must be some distinction made!' The +little soldier's visage had once perhaps been tanned, but was now the +colour of dark dough; his large brown eyes with white showing below the +iris, as so often in the eyes of very nervous people--wandered from face +to face, of judge, counsel, jury, and public. There were hollows in his +cheeks, his dark hair looked damp; around his neck he wore a bandage. +The commercial traveller on Mr. Bosengate's left turned, and whispered: +"Felo de se! My hat! what a guy!" Mr. Bosengate pretended not to +hear--he could not bear that fellow!--and slowly wrote on a bit of paper: +"Owen Lewis." Welsh! Well, he looked it--not at all an English face. +Attempted suicide--not at all an English crime! Suicide implied +surrender, a putting-up of hands to Fate--to say nothing of the religious +aspect of the matter. And suicide in khaki seemed to Mr. Bosengate +particularly abhorrent; like turning tail in face of the enemy; almost +meriting the fate of a deserter. He looked at the prisoner, trying not +to give way to this prejudice. And the prisoner seemed to look at him, +though this, perhaps, was fancy. + +The Counsel for the prosecution, a little, alert, grey, decided man, +above military age, began detailing the circumstances of the crime. Mr. +Bosengate, though not particularly sensitive to atmosphere, could +perceive a sort of current running through the Court. It was as if jury +and public were thinking rhythmically in obedience to the same +unexpressed prejudice of which he himself was conscious. Even the +Caesar-like pale face up there, presiding, seemed in its ironic serenity +responding to that current. + +"Gentlemen of the jury, before I call my evidence, I direct your +attention to the bandage the accused is still wearing. He gave himself +this wound with his Army razor, adding, if I may say so, insult to the +injury he was inflicting on his country. He pleads not guilty; and +before the magistrates he said that absence from his wife was preying on +his mind"--the advocate's close lips widened--"Well, gentlemen, if such +an excuse is to weigh with us in these days, I'm sure I don't know what's +to happen to the Empire." + +'No, by George!' thought Mr. Bosengate. + +The evidence of the first witness, a room-mate who had caught the +prisoner's hand, and of the sergeant, who had at once been summoned, was +conclusive and he began to cherish a hope that they would get through +without withdrawing, and he would be home before five. But then a hitch +occurred. The regimental doctor failed to respond when his name was +called; and the judge having for the first time that day showed himself +capable of human emotion, intimated that he would adjourn until the +morrow. + +Mr. Bosengate received the announcement with equanimity. He would be +home even earlier! And gathering up the sheets of paper he had scribbled +on, he put them in his pocket and got up. The would-be suicide was being +taken out of the court--a shambling drab figure with shoulders hunched. +What good were men like that in these days! What good! The prisoner +looked up. Mr. Bosengate encountered in full the gaze of those large +brown eyes, with the white showing underneath. What a suffering, +wretched, pitiful face! A man had no business to give you a look like +that! The prisoner passed on down the stairs, and vanished. Mr. +Bosengate went out and across the market place to the garage of the hotel +where he had left his car. The sun shone fiercely and he thought: 'I must +do some watering in the garden.' He brought the car out, and was about +to start the engine, when someone passing said: "Good evenin'. +Seedy-lookin' beggar that last prisoner, ain't he? We don't want men of +that stamp." It was his neighbour on the jury, the commercial traveller, +in a straw hat, with a little brown bag already in his hand and the froth +of an interrupted drink on his moustache. Answering curtly: "Good +evening!" and thinking: 'Nor of yours, my friend!' Mr. Bosengate started +the car with unnecessary clamour. But as if brought back to life by the +commercial traveller's remark, the prisoner's figure seemed to speed +along too, turning up at Mr. Bosengate his pitifully unhappy eyes. Want +of his wife!--queer excuse that for trying to put it out of his power +ever to see her again! Why! Half a loaf, even a slice, was better than +no bread. Not many of that neurotic type in the Army--thank Heaven! The +lugubrious figure vanished, and Mr. Bosengate pictured instead the form +of his own wife bending over her "Gloire de Dijon roses" in the rosery, +where she generally worked a little before tea now that they were short +of gardeners. He saw her, as often he had seen her, raise herself and +stand, head to one side, a gloved hand on her slender hip, gazing as it +were ironically from under drooped lids at buds which did not come out +fast enough. And the word 'Caline,' for he was something of a French +scholar, shot through his mind: 'Kathleen--Caline!' If he found her +there when he got in, he would steal up on the grass and--ah! but with +great care not to crease her dress or disturb her hair! 'If only she +weren't quite so self-contained,' he thought; 'It's like a cat you can't +get near, not really near!' + +The car, returning faster than it had come down that morning, had already +passed the outskirt villas, and was breasting the hill to where, among +fields and the old trees, Charmleigh lay apart from commoner life. +Turning into his drive, Mr. Bosengate thought with a certain surprise: 'I +wonder what she does think of! I wonder!' He put his gloves and hat +down in the outer hall and went into the lavatory, to dip his face in +cool water and wash it with sweet-smelling soap--delicious revenge on the +unclean atmosphere in which he had been stewing so many hours. He came +out again into the hall dazed by soap and the mellowed light, and a voice +from half-way up the stairs said: "Daddy! Look!" His little daughter +was standing up there with one hand on the banisters. She scrambled on +to them and came sliding down, her frock up to her eyes, and her holland +knickers to her middle. Mr. Bosengate said mildly: + +"Well, that's elegant!" + +"Tea's in the summer-house. Mummy's waiting. Come on!" + +With her hand in his, Mr. Bosengate went on, through the drawing-room, +long and cool, with sun-blinds down, through the billiard-room, high and +cool, through the conservatory, green and sweet-smelling, out on to the +terrace and the upper lawn. He had never felt such sheer exhilarated joy +in his home surroundings, so cool, glistening and green under the July +sun; and he said: + +"Well, Kit, what have you all been doing?" + +"I've fed my rabbits and Harry's; and we've been in the attic; Harry got +his leg through the skylight." + +Mr. Bosengate drew in his breath with a hiss. + +"It's all right, Daddy; we got it out again, it's only grazed the skin. +And we've been making swabs--I made seventeen, Mummy made thirty-three, +and then she went to the hospital. Did you put many men in prison?" + +Mr. Bosengate cleared his throat. The question seemed to him untimely. + +"Only two." + +"What's it like in prison, Daddy?" + +Mr. Bosengate, who had no more knowledge than his little daughter, +replied in an absent voice: + +"Not very nice." + +They were passing under a young oak tree, where the path wound round to +the rosery and summer-house. Something shot down and clawed Mr. +Bosengate's neck. His little daughter began to hop and suffocate with +laughter. + +"Oh, Daddy! Aren't you caught! I led you on purpose!" + +Looking up, Mr. Bosengate saw his small son lying along a low branch +above him--like the leopard he was declaring himself to be (for fear of +error), and thought blithely: 'What an active little chap it is!' "Let me +drop on your shoulders, Daddy--like they do on the deer." + +"Oh, yes! Do be a deer, Daddy!" + +Mr. Bosengate did not see being a deer; his hair had just been brushed. +But he entered the rosery buoyantly between his offspring. His wife was +standing precisely as he had imagined her, in a pale blue frock open at +the neck, with a narrow black band round the waist, and little accordion +pleats below. She looked her coolest. Her smile, when she turned her +head, hardly seemed to take Mr. Bosengate seriously enough. He placed +his lips below one of her half-drooped eyelids. She even smelled of +roses. His children began to dance round their mother, and Mr. +Bosengate,--firmly held between them, was also compelled to do this, +until she said: + +"When you've quite done, let's have tea!" + +It was not the greeting he had imagined coming along in the car. Earwigs +were plentiful in the summer-house--used perhaps twice a year, but +indispensable to every country residence--and Mr. Bosengate was not sorry +for the excuse to get out again. Though all was so pleasant, he felt +oddly restless, rather suffocated; and lighting his pipe, began to move +about among the roses, blowing tobacco at the greenfly; in war-time one +was never quite idle! And suddenly he said: + +"We're trying a wretched Tommy at the assizes." + +His wife looked up from a rose. + +"What for?" + +"Attempted suicide." + +"Why did he?" + +"Can't stand the separation from his wife." + +She looked at him, gave a low laugh, and said: + +"Oh dear!" + +Mr. Bosengate was puzzled. Why did she laugh? He looked round, saw that +the children were gone, took his pipe from his mouth, and approached her. + +"You look very pretty," he said. "Give me a kiss!" + +His wife bent her body forward from the waist, and pushed her lips out +till they touched his moustache. Mr. Bosengate felt a sensation as if he +had arisen from breakfast, without having eaten marmalade. He mastered +it, and said: + +"That jury are a rum lot." + +His wife's eyelids flickered. "I wish women sat on juries." + +"Why?" + +"It would be an experience." + +Not the first time she had used that curious expression! Yet her life +was far from dull, so far as he could see; with the new interests created +by the war, and the constant calls on her time made by the perfection of +their home life, she had a useful and busy existence. Again the random +thought passed through him: 'But she never tells me anything!' And +suddenly that lugubrious khaki-clad figure started up among the rose +bushes. "We've got a lot to be thankful for!" he said abruptly. "I must +go to work!" His wife, raising one eyebrow, smiled. "And I to weep!" +Mr. Bosengate laughed--she had a pretty wit! And stroking his comely +moustache where it had been kissed, he moved out into the sunshine. All +the evening, throughout his labours, not inconsiderable, for this jury +business had put him behind time, he was afflicted by that restless +pleasure in his surroundings; would break off in mowing the lower lawn to +look at the house through the trees; would leave his study and committee +papers, to cross into the drawing-room and sniff its dainty fragrance; +paid a special good-night visit to the children having supper in the +schoolroom; pottered in and out from his dressing room to admire his wife +while she was changing for dinner; dined with his mind perpetually on the +next course; talked volubly of the war; and in the billiard room +afterwards, smoking the pipe which had taken the place of his cigar, +could not keep still, but roamed about, now in conservatory, now in the +drawing-room, where his wife and the governess were still making swabs. +It seemed to him that he could not have enough of anything. About eleven +o'clock he strolled out beautiful night, only just dark enough--under the +new arrangement with Time--and went down to the little round fountain +below the terrace. His wife was playing the piano. Mr. Bosengate looked +at the water and the flat dark water lily leaves which floated there; +looked up at the house, where only narrow chinks of light showed, because +of the Lighting Order. The dreamy music drifted out; there was a scent +of heliotrope. He moved a few steps back, and sat in the children's +swing under an old lime tree. Jolly--blissful--in the warm, bloomy dark! +Of all hours of the day, this before going to bed was perhaps the +pleasantest. He saw the light go up in his wife's bed room, unscreened +for a full minute, and thought: 'Aha! If I did my duty as a special, I +should "strafe" her for that.' She came to the window, her figure +lighted, hands up to the back of her head, so that her bare arms gleamed. +Mr. Bosengate wafted her a kiss, knowing he could not be seen. 'Lucky +chap!' he mused; 'she's a great joy!' Up went her arm, down came the +blind the house was dark again. He drew a long breath. 'Another ten +minutes,' he thought, 'then I'll go in and shut up. By Jove! The limes +are beginning to smell already!' And, the better to take in that acme of +his well-being, he tilted the swing, lifted his feet from the ground, and +swung himself toward the scented blossoms. He wanted to whelm his senses +in their perfume, and closed his eyes. But instead of the domestic +vision he expected, the face of the little Welsh soldier, hare-eyed, +shadowy, pinched and dark and pitiful, started up with such disturbing +vividness that he opened his eyes again at once. Curse! The fellow +almost haunted one! Where would he be now poor little devil!--lying in +his cell, thinking--thinking of his wife! Feeling suddenly morbid, Mr. +Bosengate arrested the swing and stood up. Absurd!--all his well-being +and mood of warm anticipation had deserted him! 'A d---d world!' he +thought. 'Such a lot of misery! Why should I have to sit in judgment on +that poor beggar, and condemn him?' He moved up on to the terrace and +walked briskly, to rid himself of this disturbance before going in. +'That commercial traveller chap,' he thought, 'the rest of those +fellows--they see nothing!' And, abruptly turning up the three stone +steps, he entered the conservatory, locked it, passed into the billiard +room, and drank his barley water. One of the pictures was hanging +crooked; he went up to put it straight. Still life. Grapes and apples, +and--lobsters! They struck him as odd for the first time. Why lobsters? +The whole picture seemed dead and oily. He turned off the light, and +went upstairs, passed his wife's door, into his own room, and undressed. +Clothed in his pyjamas he opened the door between the rooms. By the +light coming from his own he could see her dark head on the pillow. Was +she asleep? No--not asleep, certainly. The moment of fruition had come; +the crowning of his pride and pleasure in his home. But he continued to +stand there. He had suddenly no pride, no pleasure, no desire; nothing +but a sort of dull resentment against everything. He turned back; shut +the door, and slipping between the heavy curtains and his open window, +stood looking out at the night. 'Full of misery!' he thought. 'Full of +d---d misery!' + + + + +II + +Filing into the jury box next morning, Mr. Bosengate collided slightly +with a short juryman, whose square figure and square head of stiff +yellow-red hair he had only vaguely noticed the day before. The man +looked angry, and Mr. Bosengate thought: 'An ill-bred dog, that!' + +He sat down quickly, and, to avoid further recognition of his fellows, +gazed in front of him. His appearance on Saturdays was always military, +by reason of the route march of his Volunteer Corps in the afternoon. +Gentleman Fox, who belonged to the corps too, was also looking square; +but that commercial traveller on his other side seemed more louche, and +as if surprised in immorality, than ever; only the proximity of Gentleman +Fox on the other side kept Mr. Bosengate from shrinking. Then he saw the +prisoner being brought in, shadowy and dark behind the brightness of his +buttons, and he experienced a sort of shock, this figure was so exactly +that which had several times started up in his mind. Somehow he had +expected a fresh sight of the fellow to dispel and disprove what had been +haunting him, had expected to find him just an outside phenomenon, not, +as it were, a part of his own life. And he gazed at the carven +immobility of the judge's face, trying to steady himself, as a drunken +man will, by looking at a light. The regimental doctor, unabashed by the +judge's comment on his absence the day before, gave his evidence like a +man who had better things to do, and the case for the prosecution was +forthwith rounded in by a little speech from counsel. The matter--he +said--was clear as daylight. Those who wore His Majesty's uniform, +charged with the responsibility and privilege of defending their country, +were no more entitled to desert their regiments by taking their own lives +than they were entitled to desert in any other way. He asked for a +conviction. Mr. Bosengate felt a sympathetic shuffle passing through all +feet; the judge was speaking: + +"Prisoner, you can either go into the witness box and make your statement +on oath, in which case you may be cross-examined on it; or you can make +your statement there from the dock, in which case you will not be +cross-examined. Which do you elect to do?" + +"From here, my lord." + +Seeing him now full face, and, as it might be, come to life in the effort +to convey his feelings, Mr. Bosengate had suddenly a quite different +impression of the fellow. It was as if his khaki had fallen off, and he +had stepped out of his own shadow, a live and quivering creature. His +pinched clean-shaven face seemed to have an irregular, wilder, hairier +look, his large nervous brown eyes darkened and glowed; he jerked his +shoulders, his arms, his whole body, like a man suddenly freed from cramp +or a suit of armour. + +He spoke, too, in a quick, crisp, rather high voice, pinching his +consonants a little, sharpening his vowels, like a true Welshman. + +"My lord and misters the jury," he said: "I was a hairdresser when the +call came on me to join the army. I had a little home and a wife. I +never thought what it would be like to be away from them, I surely never +did; and I'm ashamed to be speaking it out like this--how it can squeeze +and squeeze a man, how it can prey on your mind, when you're nervous like +I am. 'Tis not everyone that cares for his home--there's lots o' them +never wants to see their wives again. But for me 'tis like being shut up +in a cage, it is!" Mr. Bosengate saw daylight between the skinny fingers +of the man's hand thrown out with a jerk. "I cannot bear it shut up away +from wife and home like what you are in the army. So when I took my +razor that morning I was wild--an' I wouldn't be here now but for that +man catching my hand. There was no reason in it, I'm willing to confess. +It was foolish; but wait till you get feeling like what I was, and see +how it draws you. Misters the jury, don't send me back to prison; it is +worse still there. If you have wives you will know what it is like for +lots of us; only some is more nervous than others. I swear to you, sirs, +I could not help it---?" Again the little man flung out his hand, his +whole thin body shook and Mr. Bosengate felt the same sensation as when +he drove his car over a dog--"Misters the jury, I hope you may never in +your lives feel as I've been feeling." + +The little man ceased, his eyes shrank back into their sockets, his +figure back into its mask of shadowy brown and gleaming buttons, and Mr. +Bosengate was conscious that the judge was making a series of remarks; +and, very soon, of being seated at a mahogany table in the jury's +withdrawing room, hearing the, voice of the man with hair like an Irish +terrier's saying: "Didn't he talk through his hat, that little blighter!" +Conscious, too, of the commercial traveller, still on his left--always on +his left!--mopping his brow, and muttering: "Phew! It's hot in there +to-day!" while an effluvium, as of an inside accustomed to whisky came +from him. Then the man with the underlip and the three plastered wisps +of hair said: + +"Don't know why we withdrew, Mr. Foreman!" + +Mr. Bosengate looked round to where, at the head of the table, Gentleman +Fox sat, in defensive gentility and the little white piping to his +waistcoat saying blandly: + +"I shall be happy to take the sense of the jury." + +There was a short silence, then the chemist murmured: + +"I should say he must have what they call claustrophobia." + +"Clauster fiddlesticks! The feller's a shirker, that's all. Missed his +wife--pretty excuse! Indecent, I call it!" + +The speaker was the little wire-haired man; and emotion, deep and angry, +stirred in Mr. Bosengate. That ill-bred little cur! He gripped the edge +of the table with both hands. + +"I think it's d-----d natural!" he muttered. But almost before the +words had left his lips he felt dismay. What had he said--he, nearly a +colonel of volunteers--endorsing such a want of patriotism! And hearing +the commercial traveller murmuring: "'Ear, 'ear!" he reddened violently. + +The wire-headed man said roughly: + +"There's too many of these blighted shirkers, and too much pampering of +them." + +The turmoil in Mr. Bosengate increased; he remarked in an icy voice: + +"I agree to no verdict that'll send the man back to prison." + +At this a real tremor seemed to go round the table, as if they all saw +themselves sitting there through lunch time. Then the large grey-haired +man given to winking, said: + +"Oh! Come, sir--after what the judge said! Come, sir! What do you say, +Mr. Foreman?" + +Gentleman Fox--as who should say 'This is excellent value, but I don't +wish to press it on you!'--answered: + +"We are only concerned with the facts. Did he or did he not try to +shorten his life?" + +"Of course he did--said so himself," Mr. Bosengate heard the wire-haired +man snap out, and from the following murmur of assent he alone abstained. +Guilty! Well--yes! There was no way out of admitting that, but his +feelings revolted against handing "that poor little beggar" over to the +tender mercy of his country's law. His whole soul rose in arms against +agreeing with that ill-bred little cur, and the rest of this job-lot. He +had an impulse to get up and walk out, saying: "Settle it your own way. +Good morning." + +"It seems, sir," Gentleman Fox was saying, "that we're all agreed to +guilty, except yourself. If you will allow me, I don't see how you can +go behind what the prisoner himself admitted." + +Thus brought up to the very guns, Mr. Bosengate, red in the face, thrust +his hands deep into the side pockets of his tunic, and, staring straight +before him, said: + +"Very well; on condition we recommend him to mercy." + +"What do you say, gentlemen; shall we recommend him to mercy?" + +"'Ear, 'ear!" burst from the commercial traveller, and from the chemist +came the murmur: + +"No harm in that." + +"Well, I think there is. They shoot deserters at the front, and we let +this fellow off. I'd hang the cur." + +Mr. Bosengate stared at that little wire-haired brute. "Haven't you any +feeling for others?" he wanted to say. "Can't you see that this poor +devil suffers tortures?" But the sheer impossibility of doing this +before ten other men brought a slight sweat out on his face and hands; +and in agitation he smote the table a blow with his fist. The effect was +instantaneous. Everybody looked at the wire-haired man, as if saying: +"Yes, you've gone a bit too far there!" The "little brute" stood it for +a moment, then muttered surlily: + +"Well, commend 'im to mercy if you like; I don't care." + +"That's right; they never pay any attention to it," said the grey-haired +man, winking heartily. And Mr. Bosengate filed back with the others into +court. + +But when from the jury box his eyes fell once more on the hare-eyed +figure in the dock, he had his worst moment yet. Why should this poor +wretch suffer so--for no fault, no fault; while he, and these others, and +that snapping counsel, and the Caesar-like judge up there, went off to +their women and their homes, blithe as bees, and probably never thought +of him again? And suddenly he was conscious of the judge's voice: + +"You will go back to your regiment, and endeavour to serve your country +with better spirit. You may thank the jury that you are not sent to +prison, and your good fortune that you were not at the front when you +tried to commit this cowardly act. You are lucky to be alive." + +A policeman pulled the little soldier by the arm; his drab figure with +eyes fixed and lustreless, passed down and away. From his very soul Mr. +Bosengate wanted to lean out and say: "Cheer up, cheer up! I understand." + +It was nearly ten o'clock that evening before he reached home, motoring +back from the route march. His physical tiredness was abated, for he had +partaken of a snack and a whisky and soda at the hotel; but mentally he +was in a curious mood. His body felt appeased, his spirit hungry. +Tonight he had a yearning, not for his wife's kisses, but for her +understanding. He wanted to go to her and say: "I've learnt a lot +to-day-found out things I never thought of. Life's a wonderful thing, +Kate, a thing one can't live all to oneself; a thing one shares with +everybody, so that when another suffers, one suffers too. It's come to +me that what one has doesn't matter a bit--it's what one does, and how +one sympathises with other people. It came to me in the most +extraordinary vivid way, when I was on that jury, watching that poor +little rat of a soldier in his trap; it's the first time I've ever +felt--the--the spirit of Christ, you know. It's a wonderful thing, +Kate--wonderful! We haven't been close--really close, you and I, so that +we each understand what the other is feeling. It's all in that, you +know; understanding--sympathy--it's priceless. When I saw that poor +little devil taken down and sent back to his regiment to begin his +sorrows all over again--wanting his wife, thinking and thinking of her +just as you know I would be thinking and wanting you, I felt what an +awful outside sort of life we lead, never telling each other what we +really think and feel, never being really close. I daresay that little +chap and his wife keep nothing from each other--live each other's lives. +That's what we ought to do. Let's get to feeling that what really +matters is--understanding and loving, and not only just saying it as we +all do, those fellows on the jury, and even that poor devil of a +judge--what an awful life judging one's fellow-creatures. + +"When I left that poor little Tommy this morning, and ever since, I've +longed to get back here quietly to you and tell you about it, and make a +beginning. There's something wonderful in this, and I want you to feel +it as I do, because you mean such a lot to me." + +This was what he wanted to say to his wife, not touching, or kissing her, +just looking into her eyes, watching them soften and glow as they surely +must, catching the infection of his new ardour. And he felt unsteady, +fearfully unsteady with the desire to say it all as it should be said: +swiftly, quietly, with the truth and fervour of his feeling. + +The hall was not lit up, for daylight still lingered under the new +arrangement. He went towards the drawing-room, but from the very door +shied off to his study and stood irresolute under the picture of a "Man +catching a flea" (Dutch school), which had come down to him from his +father. The governess would be in there with his wife! He must wait. +Essential to go straight to Kathleen and pour it all out, or he would +never do it. He felt as nervous as an undergraduate going up for his +viva' voce. This thing was so big, so astoundingly and unexpectedly +important. He was suddenly afraid of his wife, afraid of her coolness +and her grace, and that something Japanese about her--of all those +attributes he had been accustomed to admire most; afraid, as it were, of +her attraction. He felt young to-night, almost boyish; would she see +that he was not really fifteen years older than herself, and she not +really a part of his collection, of all the admirable appointments of his +home; but a companion spirit to one who wanted a companion badly. In +this agitation of his soul he could keep still no more than he could last +night in the agitation of his senses; and he wandered into the +dining-room. A dainty supper was set out there, sandwiches, and cake, +whisky and the cigarettes--even an early peach. Mr. Bosengate looked at +this peach with sorrow rather than disgust. The perfection of it was of +a piece with all that had gone before this new and sudden feeling. Its +delicious bloom seemed to heighten his perception of the hedge around +him, that hedge of the things he so enjoyed, carefully planted and tended +these many years. He passed it by uneaten, and went to the window. Out +there all was darkening, the fountain, the lime tree, the flower-beds, +and the fields below, with the Jersey cows who would come to your call; +darkening slowly, losing form, blurring into soft blackness, vanishing, +but there none the less--all there--the hedge of his possessions. He +heard the door of the drawing-room open, the voices of his wife and the +governess in the hall, going up to bed. If only they didn't look in here! +If only! The voices ceased. He was safe now--had but to follow in a few +minutes, to make sure of Kathleen alone. He turned round and stared down +the length of the dark dining-room, over the rosewood table, to where in +the mirror above the sideboard at the far end, his figure bathed, a +stain, a mere blurred shadow; he made his way down to it along the table +edge, and stood before himself as close as he could get. His throat and +the roof of his mouth felt dry with nervousness; he put out his finger +and touched his face in the glass. 'You're an ass!' he thought. 'Pull +yourself together, and get it over. She will see; of course she will!' +He swallowed, smoothed his moustache, and walked out. Going up the +stairs, his heart beat painfully; but he was in for it now, and marched +straight into her room. Dressed only in a loose blue wrapper, she was +brushing her dark hair before the glass. Mr. Bosengate went up to her +and stood there silent, looking down. The words he had thought of were +like a swarm of bees buzzing in his head, yet not one would fly from +between his lips. His wife went on brushing her hair under the light +which shone on her polished elbows. She looked up at him from beneath +one lifted eyebrow. + +"Well, dear--tired?" + +With a sort of vehemence the single word "No" passed out. A faint, a +quizzical smile flitted over her face; she shrugged her shoulders ever so +gently. That gesture--he had seen it before! And in desperate desire to +make her understand, he put his hand on her lifted arm. + +"Kathleen, stop--listen to me!" His fingers tightened in his agitation +and eagerness to make his great discovery known. But before he could get +out a word he became conscious of that cool round arm, conscious of her +eyes half-closed, sliding round at him, of her half-smiling lips, of her +neck under the wrapper. And he stammered: + +"I want--I must--Kathleen, I---" + +She lifted her shoulders again in that little shrug. "Yes--I know; all +right!" + +A wave of heat and shame, and of God knows what came over Mr. Bosengate; +he fell on his knees and pressed his forehead to her arm; and he was +silent, more silent than the grave. Nothing--nothing came from him but +two long sighs. Suddenly he felt her hand stroke his +cheek--compassionately, it seemed to him. She made a little movement +towards him; her lips met his, and he remembered nothing but that.... + +In his own room Mr. Bosengate sat at his wide open window, smoking a +cigarette; there was no light. Moths went past, the moon was creeping +up. He sat very calm, puffing the smoke out in to the night air. +Curious thing-life! Curious world! Curious forces in it--making one do +the opposite of what one wished; always--always making one do the +opposite, it seemed! The furtive light from that creeping moon was +getting hold of things down there, stealing in among the boughs of the +trees. 'There's something ironical,' he thought, 'which walks about. +Things don't come off as you think they will. I meant, I tried but one +doesn't change like that all of a sudden, it seems. Fact is, life's too +big a thing for one! All the same, I'm not the man I was yesterday--not +quite!' He closed his eyes, and in one of those flashes of vision which +come when the senses are at rest, he saw himself as it were far down +below--down on the floor of a street narrow as a grave, high as a +mountain, a deep dark slit of a street walking down there, a black midget +of a fellow, among other black midgets--his wife, and the little soldier, +the judge, and those jury chaps--fantoches straight up on their tiny +feet, wandering down there in that dark, infinitely tall, and narrow +street. 'Too much for one!' he thought; 'Too high for one--no getting on +top of it. We've got to be kind, and help one another, and not expect too +much, and not think too much. That's--all!' And, squeezing out his +cigarette, he took six deep breaths of the night air, and got into bed. + + + + +INDIAN SUMMER OF A FORSYTE + + "And Summer's lease hath all + too short a date." + --Shakespeare + +I + +In the last day of May in the early 'nineties, about six o'clock of the +evening, old Jolyon Forsyte sat under the oak tree below the terrace of +his house at Robin Hill. He was waiting for the midges to bite him, +before abandoning the glory of the afternoon. His thin brown hand, where +blue veins stood out, held the end of a cigar in its tapering, +long-nailed fingers--a pointed polished nail had survived with him from +those earlier Victorian days when to touch nothing, even with the tips of +the fingers, had been so distinguished. His domed forehead, great white +moustache, lean cheeks, and long lean jaw were covered from the westering +sunshine by an old brown Panama hat. His legs were crossed; in all his +attitude was serenity and a kind of elegance, as of an old man who every +morning put eau de Cologne upon his silk handkerchief. At his feet lay a +woolly brown-and-white dog trying to be a Pomeranian--the dog Balthasar +between whom and old Jolyon primal aversion had changed into attachment +with the years. Close to his chair was a swing, and on the swing was +seated one of Holly's dolls--called 'Duffer Alice'--with her body fallen +over her legs and her doleful nose buried in a black petticoat. She was +never out of disgrace, so it did not matter to her how she sat. Below +the oak tree the lawn dipped down a bank, stretched to the fernery, and, +beyond that refinement, became fields, dropping to the pond, the coppice, +and the prospect--'Fine, remarkable'--at which Swithin Forsyte, from +under this very tree, had stared five years ago when he drove down with +Irene to look at the house. Old Jolyon had heard of his brother's +exploit--that drive which had become quite celebrated on Forsyte 'Change. +Swithin! And the fellow had gone and died, last November, at the age of +only seventy-nine, renewing the doubt whether Forsytes could live for +ever, which had first arisen when Aunt Ann passed away. Died! and left +only Jolyon and James, Roger and Nicholas and Timothy, Julia, Hester, +Susan! And old Jolyon thought: 'Eighty-five! I don't feel it--except +when I get that pain.' + +His memory went searching. He had not felt his age since he had bought +his nephew Soames' ill-starred house and settled into it here at Robin +Hill over three years ago. It was as if he had been getting younger +every spring, living in the country with his son and his +grandchildren--June, and the little ones of the second marriage, Jolly +and Holly; living down here out of the racket of London and the cackle of +Forsyte 'Change,' free of his boards, in a delicious atmosphere of no +work and all play, with plenty of occupation in the perfecting and +mellowing of the house and its twenty acres, and in ministering to the +whims of Holly and Jolly. All the knots and crankiness, which had +gathered in his heart during that long and tragic business of June, +Soames, Irene his wife, and poor young Bosinney, had been smoothed out. +Even June had thrown off her melancholy at last--witness this travel in +Spain she was taking now with her father and her stepmother. Curiously +perfect peace was left by their departure; blissful, yet blank, because +his son was not there. Jo was never anything but a comfort and a +pleasure to him nowadays--an amiable chap; but women, somehow--even the +best--got a little on one's nerves, unless of course one admired them. + +Far-off a cuckoo called; a wood-pigeon was cooing from the first elm-tree +in the field, and how the daisies and buttercups had sprung up after the +last mowing! The wind had got into the sou' west, too--a delicious air, +sappy! He pushed his hat back and let the sun fall on his chin and cheek. +Somehow, to-day, he wanted company--wanted a pretty face to look at. +People treated the old as if they wanted nothing. And with the +un-Forsytean philosophy which ever intruded on his soul, he thought: +'One's never had enough. With a foot in the grave one'll want something, +I shouldn't be surprised!' Down here--away from the exigencies of +affairs--his grandchildren, and the flowers, trees, birds of his little +domain, to say nothing of sun and moon and stars above them, said, 'Open, +sesame,' to him day and night. And sesame had opened--how much, perhaps, +he did not know. He had always been responsive to what they had begun to +call 'Nature,' genuinely, almost religiously responsive, though he had +never lost his habit of calling a sunset a sunset and a view a view, +however deeply they might move him. But nowadays Nature actually made him +ache, he appreciated it so. Every one of these calm, bright, lengthening +days, with Holly's hand in his, and the dog Balthasar in front looking +studiously for what he never found, he would stroll, watching the roses +open, fruit budding on the walls, sunlight brightening the oak leaves and +saplings in the coppice, watching the water-lily leaves unfold and +glisten, and the silvery young corn of the one wheat field; listening to +the starlings and skylarks, and the Alderney cows chewing the cud, +flicking slow their tufted tails; and every one of these fine days he +ached a little from sheer love of it all, feeling perhaps, deep down, +that he had not very much longer to enjoy it. The thought that some +day--perhaps not ten years hence, perhaps not five--all this world would +be taken away from him, before he had exhausted his powers of loving it, +seemed to him in the nature of an injustice brooding over his horizon. If +anything came after this life, it wouldn't be what he wanted; not Robin +Hill, and flowers and birds and pretty faces--too few, even now, of those +about him! With the years his dislike of humbug had increased; the +orthodoxy he had worn in the 'sixties, as he had worn side-whiskers out +of sheer exuberance, had long dropped off, leaving him reverent before +three things alone--beauty, upright conduct, and the sense of property; +and the greatest of these now was beauty. He had always had wide +interests, and, indeed could still read The Times, but he was liable at +any moment to put it down if he heard a blackbird sing. Upright conduct, +property--somehow, they were tiring; the blackbirds and the sunsets never +tired him, only gave him an uneasy feeling that he could not get enough +of them. Staring into the stilly radiance of the early evening and at +the little gold and white flowers on the lawn, a thought came to him: +This weather was like the music of 'Orfeo,' which he had recently heard +at Covent Garden. A beautiful opera, not like Meyerbeer, nor even quite +Mozart, but, in its way, perhaps even more lovely; something classical +and of the Golden Age about it, chaste and mellow, and the Ravogli +'almost worthy of the old days'--highest praise he could bestow. The +yearning of Orpheus for the beauty he was losing, for his love going down +to Hades, as in life love and beauty did go--the yearning which sang and +throbbed through the golden music, stirred also in the lingering beauty +of the world that evening. And with the tip of his cork-soled, +elastic-sided boot he involuntarily stirred the ribs of the dog +Balthasar, causing the animal to wake and attack his fleas; for though he +was supposed to have none, nothing could persuade him of the fact. When +he had finished he rubbed the place he had been scratching against his +master's calf, and settled down again with his chin over the instep of +the disturbing boot. And into old Jolyon's mind came a sudden +recollection--a face he had seen at that opera three weeks ago--Irene, +the wife of his precious nephew Soames, that man of property! Though he +had not met her since the day of the 'At Home' in his old house at +Stanhope Gate, which celebrated his granddaughter June's ill-starred +engagement to young Bosinney, he had remembered her at once, for he had +always admired her--a very pretty creature. After the death of young +Bosinney, whose mistress she had so reprehensibly become, he had heard +that she had left Soames at once. Goodness only knew what she had been +doing since. That sight of her face--a side view--in the row in front, +had been literally the only reminder these three years that she was still +alive. No one ever spoke of her. And yet Jo had told him something +once--something which had upset him completely. The boy had got it from +George Forsyte, he believed, who had seen Bosinney in the fog the day he +was run over--something which explained the young fellow's distress--an +act of Soames towards his wife--a shocking act. Jo had seen her, too, +that afternoon, after the news was out, seen her for a moment, and his +description had always lingered in old Jolyon's mind--'wild and lost' he +had called her. And next day June had gone there--bottled up her +feelings and gone there, and the maid had cried and told her how her +mistress had slipped out in the night and vanished. A tragic business +altogether! One thing was certain--Soames had never been able to lay +hands on her again. And he was living at Brighton, and journeying up and +down--a fitting fate, the man of property! For when he once took a +dislike to anyone--as he had to his nephew--old Jolyon never got over it. +He remembered still the sense of relief with which he had heard the news +of Irene's disappearance. It had been shocking to think of her a +prisoner in that house to which she must have wandered back, when Jo saw +her, wandered back for a moment--like a wounded animal to its hole after +seeing that news, 'Tragic death of an Architect,' in the street. Her +face had struck him very much the other night--more beautiful than he had +remembered, but like a mask, with something going on beneath it. A young +woman still--twenty-eight perhaps. Ah, well! Very likely she had another +lover by now. But at this subversive thought--for married women should +never love: once, even, had been too much--his instep rose, and with it +the dog Balthasar's head. The sagacious animal stood up and looked into +old Jolyon's face. 'Walk?' he seemed to say; and old Jolyon answered: +"Come on, old chap!" + +Slowly, as was their wont, they crossed among the constellations of +buttercups and daisies, and entered the fernery. This feature, where +very little grew as yet, had been judiciously dropped below the level of +the lawn so that it might come up again on the level of the other lawn +and give the impression of irregularity, so important in horticulture. +Its rocks and earth were beloved of the dog Balthasar, who sometimes +found a mole there. Old Jolyon made a point of passing through it +because, though it was not beautiful, he intended that it should be, some +day, and he would think: 'I must get Varr to come down and look at it; +he's better than Beech.' For plants, like houses and human complaints, +required the best expert consideration. It was inhabited by snails, and +if accompanied by his grandchildren, he would point to one and tell them +the story of the little boy who said: 'Have plummers got leggers, Mother? +'No, sonny.' 'Then darned if I haven't been and swallowed a snileybob.' +And when they skipped and clutched his hand, thinking of the snileybob +going down the little boy's 'red lane,' his eyes would twinkle. Emerging +from the fernery, he opened the wicket gate, which just there led into +the first field, a large and park-like area, out of which, within brick +walls, the vegetable garden had been carved. Old Jolyon avoided this, +which did not suit his mood, and made down the hill towards the pond. +Balthasar, who knew a water-rat or two, gambolled in front, at the gait +which marks an oldish dog who takes the same walk every day. Arrived at +the edge, old Jolyon stood, noting another water-lily opened since +yesterday; he would show it to Holly to-morrow, when 'his little sweet' +had got over the upset which had followed on her eating a tomato at +lunch--her little arrangements were very delicate. Now that Jolly had +gone to school--his first term--Holly was with him nearly all day long, +and he missed her badly. He felt that pain too, which often bothered him +now, a little dragging at his left side. He looked back up the hill. +Really, poor young Bosinney had made an uncommonly good job of the house; +he would have done very well for himself if he had lived! And where was +he now? Perhaps, still haunting this, the site of his last work, of his +tragic love affair. Or was Philip Bosinney's spirit diffused in the +general? Who could say? That dog was getting his legs muddy! And he +moved towards the coppice. There had been the most delightful lot of +bluebells, and he knew where some still lingered like little patches of +sky fallen in between the trees, away out of the sun. He passed the +cow-houses and the hen-houses there installed, and pursued a path into +the thick of the saplings, making for one of the bluebell plots. +Balthasar, preceding him once more, uttered a low growl. Old Jolyon +stirred him with his foot, but the dog remained motionless, just where +there was no room to pass, and the hair rose slowly along the centre of +his woolly back. Whether from the growl and the look of the dog's +stivered hair, or from the sensation which a man feels in a wood, old +Jolyon also felt something move along his spine. And then the path +turned, and there was an old mossy log, and on it a woman sitting. Her +face was turned away, and he had just time to think: 'She's +trespassing--I must have a board put up!' before she turned. Powers +above! The face he had seen at the opera--the very woman he had just +been thinking of! In that confused moment he saw things blurred, as if a +spirit--queer effect--the slant of sunlight perhaps on her violet-grey +frock! And then she rose and stood smiling, her head a little to one +side. Old Jolyon thought: 'How pretty she is!' She did not speak, +neither did he; and he realized why with a certain admiration. She was +here no doubt because of some memory, and did not mean to try and get out +of it by vulgar explanation. + +"Don't let that dog touch your frock," he said; "he's got wet feet. Come +here, you!" + +But the dog Balthasar went on towards the visitor, who put her hand down +and stroked his head. Old Jolyon said quickly: + +"I saw you at the opera the other night; you didn't notice me." + +"Oh, yes! I did." + +He felt a subtle flattery in that, as though she had added: 'Do you think +one could miss seeing you?' + +"They're all in Spain," he remarked abruptly. "I'm alone; I drove up for +the opera. The Ravogli's good. Have you seen the cow-houses?" + +In a situation so charged with mystery and something very like emotion he +moved instinctively towards that bit of property, and she moved beside +him. Her figure swayed faintly, like the best kind of French figures; +her dress, too, was a sort of French grey. He noticed two or three silver +threads in her amber-coloured hair, strange hair with those dark eyes of +hers, and that creamy-pale face. A sudden sidelong look from the velvety +brown eyes disturbed him. It seemed to come from deep and far, from +another world almost, or at all events from some one not living very much +in this. And he said mechanically: + +"Where are you living now?" + +"I have a little flat in Chelsea." + +He did not want to hear what she was doing, did not want to hear +anything; but the perverse word came out: + +"Alone?" + +She nodded. It was a relief to know that. And it came into his mind +that, but for a twist of fate, she would have been mistress of this +coppice, showing these cow-houses to him, a visitor. + +"All Alderneys," he muttered; "they give the best milk. This one's a +pretty creature. Woa, Myrtle!" + +The fawn-coloured cow, with eyes as soft and brown as Irene's own, was +standing absolutely still, not having long been milked. She looked round +at them out of the corner of those lustrous, mild, cynical eyes, and from +her grey lips a little dribble of saliva threaded its way towards the +straw. The scent of hay and vanilla and ammonia rose in the dim light of +the cool cow-house; and old Jolyon said: + +"You must come up and have some dinner with me. I'll send you home in +the carriage." + +He perceived a struggle going on within her; natural, no doubt, with her +memories. But he wanted her company; a pretty face, a charming figure, +beauty! He had been alone all the afternoon. Perhaps his eyes were +wistful, for she answered: "Thank you, Uncle Jolyon. I should like to." + +He rubbed his hands, and said: + +"Capital! Let's go up, then!" And, preceded by the dog Balthasar, they +ascended through the field. The sun was almost level in their faces now, +and he could see, not only those silver threads, but little lines, just +deep enough to stamp her beauty with a coin-like fineness--the special +look of life unshared with others. "I'll take her in by the terrace," he +thought: "I won't make a common visitor of her." + +"What do you do all day?" he said. + +"Teach music; I have another interest, too." + +"Work!" said old Jolyon, picking up the doll from off the swing, and +smoothing its black petticoat. "Nothing like it, is there? I don't do +any now. I'm getting on. What interest is that?" + +"Trying to help women who've come to grief." Old Jolyon did not quite +understand. "To grief?" he repeated; then realised with a shock that she +meant exactly what he would have meant himself if he had used that +expression. Assisting the Magdalenes of London! What a weird and +terrifying interest! And, curiosity overcoming his natural shrinking, he +asked: + +"Why? What do you do for them?" + +"Not much. I've no money to spare. I can only give sympathy and food +sometimes." + +Involuntarily old Jolyon's hand sought his purse. He said hastily: "How +d'you get hold of them?" + +"I go to a hospital." + +"A hospital! Phew!" + +"What hurts me most is that once they nearly all had some sort of +beauty." + +Old Jolyon straightened the doll. "Beauty!" he ejaculated: "Ha! Yes! A +sad business!" and he moved towards the house. Through a French window, +under sun-blinds not yet drawn up, he preceded her into the room where he +was wont to study The Times and the sheets of an agricultural magazine, +with huge illustrations of mangold wurzels, and the like, which provided +Holly with material for her paint brush. + +"Dinner's in half an hour. You'd like to wash your hands! I'll take you +to June's room." + +He saw her looking round eagerly; what changes since she had last visited +this house with her husband, or her lover, or both perhaps--he did not +know, could not say! All that was dark, and he wished to leave it so. +But what changes! And in the hall he said: + +"My boy Jo's a painter, you know. He's got a lot of taste. It isn't +mine, of course, but I've let him have his way." + +She was standing very still, her eyes roaming through the hall and music +room, as it now was--all thrown into one, under the great skylight. Old +Jolyon had an odd impression of her. Was she trying to conjure somebody +from the shades of that space where the colouring was all pearl-grey and +silver? He would have had gold himself; more lively and solid. But Jo +had French tastes, and it had come out shadowy like that, with an effect +as of the fume of cigarettes the chap was always smoking, broken here and +there by a little blaze of blue or crimson colour. It was not his dream! +Mentally he had hung this space with those gold-framed masterpieces of +still and stiller life which he had bought in days when quantity was +precious. And now where were they? Sold for a song! That something +which made him, alone among Forsytes, move with the times had warned him +against the struggle to retain them. But in his study he still had +'Dutch Fishing Boats at Sunset.' + +He began to mount the stairs with her, slowly, for he felt his side. + +"These are the bathrooms," he said, "and other arrangements. I've had +them tiled. The nurseries are along there. And this is Jo's and his +wife's. They all communicate. But you remember, I expect." + +Irene nodded. They passed on, up the gallery and entered a large room +with a small bed, and several windows. + +"This is mine," he said. The walls were covered with the photographs of +children and watercolour sketches, and he added doubtfully: + +"These are Jo's. The view's first-rate. You can see the Grand Stand at +Epsom in clear weather." + +The sun was down now, behind the house, and over the 'prospect' a +luminous haze had settled, emanation of the long and prosperous day. Few +houses showed, but fields and trees faintly glistened, away to a loom of +downs. + +"The country's changing," he said abruptly, "but there it'll be when +we're all gone. Look at those thrushes--the birds are sweet here in the +mornings. I'm glad to have washed my hands of London." + +Her face was close to the window pane, and he was struck by its mournful +look. 'Wish I could make her look happy!' he thought. 'A pretty face, +but sad!' And taking up his can of hot water he went out into the +gallery. + +"This is June's room," he said, opening the next door and putting the can +down; "I think you'll find everything." And closing the door behind her +he went back to his own room. Brushing his hair with his great ebony +brushes, and dabbing his forehead with eau de Cologne, he mused. She had +come so strangely--a sort of visitation; mysterious, even romantic, as if +his desire for company, for beauty, had been fulfilled by whatever it was +which fulfilled that sort of thing. And before the mirror he +straightened his still upright figure, passed the brushes over his great +white moustache, touched up his eyebrows with eau de Cologne, and rang +the bell. + +"I forgot to let them know that I have a lady to dinner with me. Let cook +do something extra, and tell Beacon to have the landau and pair at +half-past ten to drive her back to Town to-night. Is Miss Holly asleep?" + +The maid thought not. And old Jolyon, passing down the gallery, stole on +tiptoe towards the nursery, and opened the door whose hinges he kept +specially oiled that he might slip in and out in the evenings without +being heard. + +But Holly was asleep, and lay like a miniature Madonna, of that type +which the old painters could not tell from Venus, when they had completed +her. Her long dark lashes clung to her cheeks; on her face was perfect +peace--her little arrangements were evidently all right again. And old +Jolyon, in the twilight of the room, stood adoring her! It was so +charming, solemn, and loving--that little face. He had more than his +share of the blessed capacity of living again in the young. They were to +him his future life--all of a future life that his fundamental pagan +sanity perhaps admitted. There she was with everything before her, and +his blood--some of it--in her tiny veins. There she was, his little +companion, to be made as happy as ever he could make her, so that she +knew nothing but love. His heart swelled, and he went out, stilling the +sound of his patent-leather boots. In the corridor an eccentric notion +attacked him: To think that children should come to that which Irene had +told him she was helping! Women who were all, once, little things like +this one sleeping there! 'I must give her a cheque!' he mused; 'Can't +bear to think of them!' They had never borne reflecting on, those poor +outcasts; wounding too deeply the core of true refinement hidden under +layers of conformity to the sense of property--wounding too grievously +the deepest thing in him--a love of beauty which could give him, even +now, a flutter of the heart, thinking of his evening in the society of a +pretty woman. And he went downstairs, through the swinging doors, to the +back regions. There, in the wine-cellar, was a hock worth at least two +pounds a bottle, a Steinberg Cabinet, better than any Johannisberg that +ever went down throat; a wine of perfect bouquet, sweet as a +nectarine--nectar indeed! He got a bottle out, handling it like a baby, +and holding it level to the light, to look. Enshrined in its coat of +dust, that mellow coloured, slender-necked bottle gave him deep pleasure. +Three years to settle down again since the move from Town--ought to be in +prime condition! Thirty-five years ago he had bought it--thank God he had +kept his palate, and earned the right to drink it. She would appreciate +this; not a spice of acidity in a dozen. He wiped the bottle, drew the +cork with his own hands, put his nose down, inhaled its perfume, and went +back to the music room. + +Irene was standing by the piano; she had taken off her hat and a lace +scarf she had been wearing, so that her gold-coloured hair was visible, +and the pallor of her neck. In her grey frock she made a pretty picture +for old Jolyon, against the rosewood of the piano. + +He gave her his arm, and solemnly they went. The room, which had been +designed to enable twenty-four people to dine in comfort, held now but a +little round table. In his present solitude the big dining-table +oppressed old Jolyon; he had caused it to be removed till his son came +back. Here in the company of two really good copies of Raphael Madonnas +he was wont to dine alone. It was the only disconsolate hour of his day, +this summer weather. He had never been a large eater, like that great +chap Swithin, or Sylvanus Heythorp, or Anthony Thornworthy, those cronies +of past times; and to dine alone, overlooked by the Madonnas, was to him +but a sorrowful occupation, which he got through quickly, that he might +come to the more spiritual enjoyment of his coffee and cigar. But this +evening was a different matter! His eyes twinkled at her across the +little table and he spoke of Italy and Switzerland, telling her stories +of his travels there, and other experiences which he could no longer +recount to his son and grand-daughter because they knew them. This fresh +audience was precious to him; he had never become one of those old men +who ramble round and round the fields of reminiscence. Himself quickly +fatigued by the insensitive, he instinctively avoided fatiguing others, +and his natural flirtatiousness towards beauty guarded him specially in +his relations with a woman. He would have liked to draw her out, but +though she murmured and smiled and seemed to be enjoying what he told +her, he remained conscious of that mysterious remoteness which +constituted half her fascination. He could not bear women who threw +their shoulders and eyes at you, and chattered away; or hard-mouthed +women who laid down the law and knew more than you did. There was only +one quality in a woman that appealed to him--charm; and the quieter it +was, the more he liked it. And this one had charm, shadowy as afternoon +sunlight on those Italian hills and valleys he had loved. The feeling, +too, that she was, as it were, apart, cloistered, made her seem nearer to +himself, a strangely desirable companion. When a man is very old and +quite out of the running, he loves to feel secure from the rivalries of +youth, for he would still be first in the heart of beauty. And he drank +his hock, and watched her lips, and felt nearly young. But the dog +Balthasar lay watching her lips too, and despising in his heart the +interruptions of their talk, and the tilting of those greenish glasses +full of a golden fluid which was distasteful to him. + +The light was just failing when they went back into the music-room. And, +cigar in mouth, old Jolyon said: + +"Play me some Chopin." + +By the cigars they smoke, and the composers they love, ye shall know the +texture of men's souls. Old Jolyon could not bear a strong cigar or +Wagner's music. He loved Beethoven and Mozart, Handel and Gluck, and +Schumann, and, for some occult reason, the operas of Meyerbeer; but of +late years he had been seduced by Chopin, just as in painting he had +succumbed to Botticelli. In yielding to these tastes he had been +conscious of divergence from the standard of the Golden Age. Their +poetry was not that of Milton and Byron and Tennyson; of Raphael and +Titian; Mozart and Beethoven. It was, as it were, behind a veil; their +poetry hit no one in the face, but slipped its fingers under the ribs and +turned and twisted, and melted up the heart. And, never certain that +this was healthy, he did not care a rap so long as he could see the +pictures of the one or hear the music of the other. + +Irene sat down at the piano under the electric lamp festooned with +pearl-grey, and old Jolyon, in an armchair, whence he could see her, +crossed his legs and drew slowly at his cigar. She sat a few moments +with her hands on the keys, evidently searching her mind for what to give +him. Then she began and within old Jolyon there arose a sorrowful +pleasure, not quite like anything else in the world. He fell slowly into +a trance, interrupted only by the movements of taking the cigar out of +his mouth at long intervals, and replacing it. She was there, and the +hock within him, and the scent of tobacco; but there, too, was a world of +sunshine lingering into moonlight, and pools with storks upon them, and +bluish trees above, glowing with blurs of wine-red roses, and fields of +lavender where milk-white cows were grazing, and a woman all shadowy, +with dark eyes and a white neck, smiled, holding out her arms; and +through air which was like music a star dropped and was caught on a cow's +horn. He opened his eyes. Beautiful piece; she played well--the touch +of an angel! And he closed them again. He felt miraculously sad and +happy, as one does, standing under a lime-tree in full honey flower. Not +live one's own life again, but just stand there and bask in the smile of +a woman's eyes, and enjoy the bouquet! And he jerked his hand; the dog +Balthasar had reached up and licked it. + +"Beautiful!" He said: "Go on--more Chopin!" + +She began to play again. This time the resemblance between her and +'Chopin' struck him. The swaying he had noticed in her walk was in her +playing too, and the Nocturne she had chosen and the soft darkness of her +eyes, the light on her hair, as of moonlight from a golden moon. +Seductive, yes; but nothing of Delilah in her or in that music. A long +blue spiral from his cigar ascended and dispersed. 'So we go out!' he +thought. 'No more beauty! Nothing?' + +Again Irene stopped. + +"Would you like some Gluck? He used to write his music in a sunlit +garden, with a bottle of Rhine wine beside him." + +"Ah! yes. Let's have 'Orfeo.'" Round about him now were fields of gold +and silver flowers, white forms swaying in the sunlight, bright birds +flying to and fro. All was summer. Lingering waves of sweetness and +regret flooded his soul. Some cigar ash dropped, and taking out a silk +handkerchief to brush it off, he inhaled a mingled scent as of snuff and +eau de Cologne. 'Ah!' he thought, 'Indian summer--that's all!' and he +said: "You haven't played me 'Che faro.'" + +She did not answer; did not move. He was conscious of something--some +strange upset. Suddenly he saw her rise and turn away, and a pang of +remorse shot through him. What a clumsy chap! Like Orpheus, she of +course--she too was looking for her lost one in the hall of memory! And +disturbed to the heart, he got up from his chair. She had gone to the +great window at the far end. Gingerly he followed. Her hands were +folded over her breast; he could just see her cheek, very white. And, +quite emotionalized, he said: + +"There, there, my love!" The words had escaped him mechanically, for +they were those he used to Holly when she had a pain, but their effect +was instantaneously distressing. She raised her arms, covered her face +with them, and wept. + +Old Jolyon stood gazing at her with eyes very deep from age. The +passionate shame she seemed feeling at her abandonment, so unlike the +control and quietude of her whole presence was as if she had never before +broken down in the presence of another being. + +"There, there--there, there!" he murmured, and putting his hand out +reverently, touched her. She turned, and leaned the arms which covered +her face against him. Old Jolyon stood very still, keeping one thin hand +on her shoulder. Let her cry her heart out--it would do her good. + +And the dog Balthasar, puzzled, sat down on his stern to examine them. + +The window was still open, the curtains had not been drawn, the last of +daylight from without mingled with faint intrusion from the lamp within; +there was a scent of new-mown grass. With the wisdom of a long life old +Jolyon did not speak. Even grief sobbed itself out in time; only Time +was good for sorrow--Time who saw the passing of each mood, each emotion +in turn; Time the layer-to-rest. There came into his mind the words: 'As +panteth the hart after cooling streams'--but they were of no use to him. +Then, conscious of a scent of violets, he knew she was drying her eyes. +He put his chin forward, pressed his moustache against her forehead, and +felt her shake with a quivering of her whole body, as of a tree which +shakes itself free of raindrops. She put his hand to her lips, as if +saying: "All over now! Forgive me!" + +The kiss filled him with a strange comfort; he led her back to where she +had been so upset. And the dog Balthasar, following, laid the bone of +one of the cutlets they had eaten at their feet. + +Anxious to obliterate the memory of that emotion, he could think of +nothing better than china; and moving with her slowly from cabinet to +cabinet, he kept taking up bits of Dresden and Lowestoft and Chelsea, +turning them round and round with his thin, veined hands, whose skin, +faintly freckled, had such an aged look. + +"I bought this at Jobson's," he would say; "cost me thirty pounds. It's +very old. That dog leaves his bones all over the place. This old +'ship-bowl' I picked up at the sale when that precious rip, the Marquis, +came to grief. But you don't remember. Here's a nice piece of Chelsea. +Now, what would you say this was?" And he was comforted, feeling that, +with her taste, she was taking a real interest in these things; for, +after all, nothing better composes the nerves than a doubtful piece of +china. + +When the crunch of the carriage wheels was heard at last, he said: + +"You must come again; you must come to lunch, then I can show you these +by daylight, and my little sweet--she's a dear little thing. This dog +seems to have taken a fancy to you." + +For Balthasar, feeling that she was about to leave, was rubbing his side +against her leg. Going out under the porch with her, he said: + +"He'll get you up in an hour and a quarter. Take this for your +protegees," and he slipped a cheque for fifty pounds into her hand. He +saw her brightened eyes, and heard her murmur: "Oh! Uncle Jolyon!" and a +real throb of pleasure went through him. That meant one or two poor +creatures helped a little, and it meant that she would come again. He +put his hand in at the window and grasped hers once more. The carriage +rolled away. He stood looking at the moon and the shadows of the trees, +and thought: 'A sweet night! She......!' +II + +Two days of rain, and summer set in bland and sunny. Old Jolyon walked +and talked with Holly. At first he felt taller and full of a new vigour; +then he felt restless. Almost every afternoon they would enter the +coppice, and walk as far as the log. 'Well, she's not there!' he would +think, 'of course not!' And he would feel a little shorter, and drag his +feet walking up the hill home, with his hand clapped to his left side. +Now and then the thought would move in him: 'Did she come--or did I dream +it?' and he would stare at space, while the dog Balthasar stared at him. +Of course she would not come again! He opened the letters from Spain +with less excitement. They were not returning till July; he felt, oddly, +that he could bear it. Every day at dinner he screwed up his eyes and +looked at where she had sat. She was not there, so he unscrewed his eyes +again. + +On the seventh afternoon he thought: 'I must go up and get some boots.' +He ordered Beacon, and set out. Passing from Putney towards Hyde Park he +reflected: 'I might as well go to Chelsea and see her.' And he called +out: "Just drive me to where you took that lady the other night." The +coachman turned his broad red face, and his juicy lips answered: "The +lady in grey, sir?" + +"Yes, the lady in grey." What other ladies were there! Stodgy chap! + +The carriage stopped before a small three-storied block of flats, +standing a little back from the river. With a practised eye old Jolyon +saw that they were cheap. 'I should think about sixty pound a year,' he +mused; and entering, he looked at the name-board. The name 'Forsyte' was +not on it, but against 'First Floor, Flat C' were the words: 'Mrs. Irene +Heron.' Ah! She had taken her maiden name again! And somehow this +pleased him. He went upstairs slowly, feeling his side a little. He +stood a moment, before ringing, to lose the feeling of drag and +fluttering there. She would not be in! And then--Boots! The thought +was black. What did he want with boots at his age? He could not wear out +all those he had. + +"Your mistress at home?" + +"Yes, sir." + +"Say Mr. Jolyon Forsyte." + +"Yes, sir, will you come this way?" + +Old Jolyon followed a very little maid--not more than sixteen one would +say--into a very small drawing-room where the sun-blinds were drawn. It +held a cottage piano and little else save a vague fragrance and good +taste. He stood in the middle, with his top hat in his hand, and +thought: 'I expect she's very badly off!' There was a mirror above the +fireplace, and he saw himself reflected. An old-looking chap! He heard +a rustle, and turned round. She was so close that his moustache almost +brushed her forehead, just under her hair. + +"I was driving up," he said. "Thought I'd look in on you, and ask you +how you got up the other night." + +And, seeing her smile, he felt suddenly relieved. She was really glad to +see him, perhaps. + +"Would you like to put on your hat and come for a drive in the Park?" + +But while she was gone to put her hat on, he frowned. The Park! James +and Emily! Mrs. Nicholas, or some other member of his precious family +would be there very likely, prancing up and down. And they would go and +wag their tongues about having seen him with her, afterwards. Better +not! He did not wish to revive the echoes of the past on Forsyte +'Change. He removed a white hair from the lapel of his +closely-buttoned-up frock coat, and passed his hand over his cheeks, +moustache, and square chin. It felt very hollow there under the +cheekbones. He had not been eating much lately--he had better get that +little whippersnapper who attended Holly to give him a tonic. But she +had come back and when they were in the carriage, he said: + +"Suppose we go and sit in Kensington Gardens instead?" and added with a +twinkle: "No prancing up and down there," as if she had been in the +secret of his thoughts. + +Leaving the carriage, they entered those select precincts, and strolled +towards the water. + +"You've gone back to your maiden name, I see," he said: "I'm not sorry." + +She slipped her hand under his arm: "Has June forgiven me, Uncle Jolyon?" + +He answered gently: "Yes--yes; of course, why not?" + +"And have you?" + +"I? I forgave you as soon as I saw how the land really lay." And +perhaps he had; his instinct had always been to forgive the beautiful. + +She drew a deep breath. "I never regretted--I couldn't. Did you ever +love very deeply, Uncle Jolyon?" + +At that strange question old Jolyon stared before him. Had he? He did +not seem to remember that he ever had. But he did not like to say this +to the young woman whose hand was touching his arm, whose life was +suspended, as it were, by memory of a tragic love. And he thought: 'If I +had met you when I was young I--I might have made a fool of myself, +perhaps.' And a longing to escape in generalities beset him. + +"Love's a queer thing," he said, "fatal thing often. It was the +Greeks--wasn't it?--made love into a goddess; they were right, I dare +say, but then they lived in the Golden Age." + +"Phil adored them." + +Phil! The word jarred him, for suddenly--with his power to see all round +a thing, he perceived why she was putting up with him like this. She +wanted to talk about her lover! Well! If it was any pleasure to her! +And he said: "Ah! There was a bit of the sculptor in him, I fancy." + +"Yes. He loved balance and symmetry; he loved the whole-hearted way the +Greeks gave themselves to art." + +Balance! The chap had no balance at all, if he remembered; as for +symmetry--clean-built enough he was, no doubt; but those queer eyes of +his, and high cheek-bones--Symmetry? + +"You're of the Golden Age, too, Uncle Jolyon." + +Old Jolyon looked round at her. Was she chaffing him? No, her eyes were +soft as velvet. Was she flattering him? But if so, why? There was +nothing to be had out of an old chap like him. + +"Phil thought so. He used to say: 'But I can never tell him that I +admire him.'" + +Ah! There it was again. Her dead lover; her desire to talk of him! And +he pressed her arm, half resentful of those memories, half grateful, as +if he recognised what a link they were between herself and him. + +"He was a very talented young fellow," he murmured. "It's hot; I feel +the heat nowadays. Let's sit down." + +They took two chairs beneath a chestnut tree whose broad leaves covered +them from the peaceful glory of the afternoon. A pleasure to sit there +and watch her, and feel that she liked to be with him. And the wish to +increase that liking, if he could, made him go on: + +"I expect he showed you a side of him I never saw. He'd be at his best +with you. His ideas of art were a little new--to me "--he had stiffed +the word 'fangled.' + +"Yes: but he used to say you had a real sense of beauty." Old Jolyon +thought: 'The devil he did!' but answered with a twinkle: "Well, I have, +or I shouldn't be sitting here with you." She was fascinating when she +smiled with her eyes, like that! + +"He thought you had one of those hearts that never grow old. Phil had +real insight." + +He was not taken in by this flattery spoken out of the past, out of a +longing to talk of her dead lover--not a bit; and yet it was precious to +hear, because she pleased his eyes and heart which--quite true!--had +never grown old. Was that because--unlike her and her dead lover, he had +never loved to desperation, had always kept his balance, his sense of +symmetry. Well! It had left him power, at eighty-four, to admire beauty. +And he thought, 'If I were a painter or a sculptor! But I'm an old chap. +Make hay while the sun shines.' + +A couple with arms entwined crossed on the grass before them, at the edge +of the shadow from their tree. The sunlight fell cruelly on their pale, +squashed, unkempt young faces. "We're an ugly lot!" said old Jolyon +suddenly. "It amazes me to see how--love triumphs over that." + +"Love triumphs over everything!" + +"The young think so," he muttered. + +"Love has no age, no limit, and no death." + +With that glow in her pale face, her breast heaving, her eyes so large +and dark and soft, she looked like Venus come to life! But this +extravagance brought instant reaction, and, twinkling, he said: "Well, if +it had limits, we shouldn't be born; for by George! it's got a lot to put +up with." + +Then, removing his top hat, he brushed it round with a cuff. The great +clumsy thing heated his forehead; in these days he often got a rush of +blood to the head--his circulation was not what it had been. + +She still sat gazing straight before her, and suddenly she murmured: + +"It's strange enough that I'm alive." + +Those words of Jo's 'Wild and lost' came back to him. + +"Ah!" he said: "my son saw you for a moment--that day." + +"Was it your son? I heard a voice in the hall; I thought for a second it +was--Phil." + +Old Jolyon saw her lips tremble. She put her hand over them, took it +away again, and went on calmly: "That night I went to the Embankment; a +woman caught me by the dress. She told me about herself. When one knows +that others suffer, one's ashamed." + +"One of those?" + +She nodded, and horror stirred within old Jolyon, the horror of one who +has never known a struggle with desperation. Almost against his will he +muttered: "Tell me, won't you?" + +"I didn't care whether I lived or died. When you're like that, Fate +ceases to want to kill you. She took care of me three days--she never +left me. I had no money. That's why I do what I can for them, now." + +But old Jolyon was thinking: 'No money!' What fate could compare with +that? Every other was involved in it. + +"I wish you had come to me," he said. "Why didn't you?" But Irene did +not answer. + +"Because my name was Forsyte, I suppose? Or was it June who kept you +away? How are you getting on now?" His eyes involuntarily swept her +body. Perhaps even now she was--! And yet she wasn't thin--not really! + +"Oh! with my fifty pounds a year, I make just enough." The answer did +not reassure him; he had lost confidence. And that fellow Soames! But +his sense of justice stifled condemnation. No, she would certainly have +died rather than take another penny from him. Soft as she looked, there +must be strength in her somewhere--strength and fidelity. But what +business had young Bosinney to have got run over and left her stranded +like this! + +"Well, you must come to me now," he said, "for anything you want, or I +shall be quite cut up." And putting on his hat, he rose. "Let's go and +get some tea. I told that lazy chap to put the horses up for an hour, +and come for me at your place. We'll take a cab presently; I can't walk +as I used to." + +He enjoyed that stroll to the Kensington end of the gardens--the sound of +her voice, the glancing of her eyes, the subtle beauty of a charming form +moving beside him. He enjoyed their tea at Ruffel's in the High Street, +and came out thence with a great box of chocolates swung on his little +finger. He enjoyed the drive back to Chelsea in a hansom, smoking his +cigar. She had promised to come down next Sunday and play to him again, +and already in thought he was plucking carnations and early roses for her +to carry back to town. It was a pleasure to give her a little pleasure, +if it WERE pleasure from an old chap like him! The carriage was already +there when they arrived. Just like that fellow, who was always late when +he was wanted! Old Jolyon went in for a minute to say good-bye. The +little dark hall of the flat was impregnated with a disagreeable odour of +patchouli, and on a bench against the wall--its only furniture--he saw a +figure sitting. He heard Irene say softly: "Just one minute." In the +little drawing-room when the door was shut, he asked gravely: "One of +your protegees?" + +"Yes. Now thanks to you, I can do something for her." + +He stood, staring, and stroking that chin whose strength had frightened +so many in its time. The idea of her thus actually in contact with this +outcast grieved and frightened him. What could she do for them? Nothing. +Only soil and make trouble for herself, perhaps. And he said: "Take +care, my dear! The world puts the worst construction on everything." + +"I know that." + +He was abashed by her quiet smile. "Well then--Sunday," he murmured: +"Good-bye." + +She put her cheek forward for him to kiss. + +"Good-bye," he said again; "take care of yourself." And he went out, not +looking towards the figure on the bench. He drove home by way of +Hammersmith; that he might stop at a place he knew of and tell them to +send her in two dozen of their best Burgundy. She must want picking-up +sometimes! Only in Richmond Park did he remember that he had gone up to +order himself some boots, and was surprised that he could have had so +paltry an idea. + + + + +III + +The little spirits of the past which throng an old man's days had never +pushed their faces up to his so seldom as in the seventy hours elapsing +before Sunday came. The spirit of the future, with the charm of the +unknown, put up her lips instead. Old Jolyon was not restless now, and +paid no visits to the log, because she was coming to lunch. There is +wonderful finality about a meal; it removes a world of doubts, for no one +misses meals except for reasons beyond control. He played many games +with Holly on the lawn, pitching them up to her who was batting so as to +be ready to bowl to Jolly in the holidays. For she was not a Forsyte, +but Jolly was--and Forsytes always bat, until they have resigned and +reached the age of eighty-five. The dog Balthasar, in attendance, lay on +the ball as often as he could, and the page-boy fielded, till his face +was like the harvest moon. And because the time was getting shorter, +each day was longer and more golden than the last. On Friday night he +took a liver pill, his side hurt him rather, and though it was not the +liver side, there is no remedy like that. Anyone telling him that he had +found a new excitement in life and that excitement was not good for him, +would have been met by one of those steady and rather defiant looks of +his deep-set iron-grey eyes, which seemed to say: 'I know my own business +best.' He always had and always would. + +On Sunday morning, when Holly had gone with her governess to church, he +visited the strawberry beds. There, accompanied by the dog Balthasar, he +examined the plants narrowly and succeeded in finding at least two dozen +berries which were really ripe. Stooping was not good for him, and he +became very dizzy and red in the forehead. Having placed the +strawberries in a dish on the dining-table, he washed his hands and +bathed his forehead with eau de Cologne. There, before the mirror, it +occurred to him that he was thinner. What a 'threadpaper' he had been +when he was young! It was nice to be slim--he could not bear a fat chap; +and yet perhaps his cheeks were too thin! She was to arrive by train at +half-past twelve and walk up, entering from the road past Drage's farm at +the far end of the coppice. And, having looked into June's room to see +that there was hot water ready, he set forth to meet her, leisurely, for +his heart was beating. The air smelled sweet, larks sang, and the Grand +Stand at Epsom was visible. A perfect day! On just such a one, no +doubt, six years ago, Soames had brought young Bosinney down with him to +look at the site before they began to build. It was Bosinney who had +pitched on the exact spot for the house--as June had often told him. In +these days he was thinking much about that young fellow, as if his spirit +were really haunting the field of his last work, on the chance of +seeing--her. Bosinney--the one man who had possessed her heart, to whom +she had given her whole self with rapture! At his age one could not, of +course, imagine such things, but there stirred in him a queer vague +aching--as it were the ghost of an impersonal jealousy; and a feeling, +too, more generous, of pity for that love so early lost. All over in a +few poor months! Well, well! He looked at his watch before entering the +coppice--only a quarter past, twenty-five minutes to wait! And then, +turning the corner of the path, he saw her exactly where he had seen her +the first time, on the log; and realised that she must have come by the +earlier train to sit there alone for a couple of hours at least. Two +hours of her society missed! What memory could make that log so dear to +her? His face showed what he was thinking, for she said at once: + +"Forgive me, Uncle Jolyon; it was here that I first knew." + +"Yes, yes; there it is for you whenever you like. You're looking a +little Londony; you're giving too many lessons." + +That she should have to give lessons worried him. Lessons to a parcel of +young girls thumping out scales with their thick fingers. + +"Where do you go to give them?" he asked. + +"They're mostly Jewish families, luckily." + +Old Jolyon stared; to all Forsytes Jews seem strange and doubtful. + +"They love music, and they're very kind." + +"They had better be, by George!" He took her arm--his side always hurt +him a little going uphill--and said: + +"Did you ever see anything like those buttercups? They came like that in +a night." + +Her eyes seemed really to fly over the field, like bees after the flowers +and the honey. "I wanted you to see them--wouldn't let them turn the +cows in yet." Then, remembering that she had come to talk about +Bosinney, he pointed to the clock-tower over the stables: + +"I expect he wouldn't have let me put that there--had no notion of time, +if I remember." + +But, pressing his arm to her, she talked of flowers instead, and he knew +it was done that he might not feel she came because of her dead lover. + +"The best flower I can show you," he said, with a sort of triumph, "is my +little sweet. She'll be back from Church directly. There's something +about her which reminds me a little of you," and it did not seem to him +peculiar that he had put it thus, instead of saying: "There's something +about you which reminds me a little of her." Ah! And here she was! + +Holly, followed closely by her elderly French governess, whose digestion +had been ruined twenty-two years ago in the siege of Strasbourg, came +rushing towards them from under the oak tree. She stopped about a dozen +yards away, to pat Balthasar and pretend that this was all she had in her +mind. Old Jolyon, who knew better, said: + +"Well, my darling, here's the lady in grey I promised you." + +Holly raised herself and looked up. He watched the two of them with a +twinkle, Irene smiling, Holly beginning with grave inquiry, passing into +a shy smile too, and then to something deeper. She had a sense of +beauty, that child--knew what was what! He enjoyed the sight of the kiss +between them. + +"Mrs. Heron, Mam'zelle Beauce. Well, Mam'zelle--good sermon?" + +For, now that he had not much more time before him, the only part of the +service connected with this world absorbed what interest in church +remained to him. Mam'zelle Beauce stretched out a spidery hand clad in a +black kid glove--she had been in the best families--and the rather sad +eyes of her lean yellowish face seemed to ask: "Are you well-brrred?" +Whenever Holly or Jolly did anything unpleasing to her--a not uncommon +occurrence--she would say to them: "The little Tayleurs never did +that--they were such well-brrred little children." Jolly hated the +little Tayleurs; Holly wondered dreadfully how it was she fell so short +of them. 'A thin rum little soul,' old Jolyon thought her--Mam'zelle +Beauce. + +Luncheon was a successful meal, the mushrooms which he himself had picked +in the mushroom house, his chosen strawberries, and another bottle of the +Steinberg cabinet filled him with a certain aromatic spirituality, and a +conviction that he would have a touch of eczema to-morrow. + +After lunch they sat under the oak tree drinking Turkish coffee. It was +no matter of grief to him when Mademoiselle Beauce withdrew to write her +Sunday letter to her sister, whose future had been endangered in the past +by swallowing a pin--an event held up daily in warning to the children to +eat slowly and digest what they had eaten. At the foot of the bank, on a +carriage rug, Holly and the dog Balthasar teased and loved each other, +and in the shade old Jolyon with his legs crossed and his cigar +luxuriously savoured, gazed at Irene sitting in the swing. A light, +vaguely swaying, grey figure with a fleck of sunlight here and there upon +it, lips just opened, eyes dark and soft under lids a little drooped. She +looked content; surely it did her good to come and see him! The +selfishness of age had not set its proper grip on him, for he could still +feel pleasure in the pleasure of others, realising that what he wanted, +though much, was not quite all that mattered. + +"It's quiet here," he said; "you mustn't come down if you find it dull. +But it's a pleasure to see you. My little sweet is the only face which +gives me any pleasure, except yours." + +From her smile he knew that she was not beyond liking to be appreciated, +and this reassured him. "That's not humbug," he said. "I never told a +woman I admired her when I didn't. In fact I don't know when I've told a +woman I admired her, except my wife in the old days; and wives are +funny." He was silent, but resumed abruptly: + +"She used to expect me to say it more often than I felt it, and there we +were." Her face looked mysteriously troubled, and, afraid that he had +said something painful, he hurried on: "When my little sweet marries, I +hope she'll find someone who knows what women feel. I shan't be here to +see it, but there's too much topsy-turvydom in marriage; I don't want her +to pitch up against that." And, aware that he had made bad worse, he +added: "That dog will scratch." + +A silence followed. Of what was she thinking, this pretty creature whose +life was spoiled; who had done with love, and yet was made for love? Some +day when he was gone, perhaps, she would find another mate--not so +disorderly as that young fellow who had got himself run over. Ah! but +her husband? + +"Does Soames never trouble you?" he asked. + +She shook her head. Her face had closed up suddenly. For all her +softness there was something irreconcilable about her. And a glimpse of +light on the inexorable nature of sex antipathies strayed into a brain +which, belonging to early Victorian civilisation--so much older than this +of his old age--had never thought about such primitive things. + +"That's a comfort," he said. "You can see the Grand Stand to-day. Shall +we take a turn round?" + +Through the flower and fruit garden, against whose high outer walls peach +trees and nectarines were trained to the sun, through the stables, the +vinery, the mushroom house, the asparagus beds, the rosery, the +summer-house, he conducted her--even into the kitchen garden to see the +tiny green peas which Holly loved to scoop out of their pods with her +finger, and lick up from the palm of her little brown hand. Many +delightful things he showed her, while Holly and the dog Balthasar danced +ahead, or came to them at intervals for attention. It was one of the +happiest afternoons he had ever spent, but it tired him and he was glad +to sit down in the music room and let her give him tea. A special little +friend of Holly's had come in--a fair child with short hair like a boy's. +And the two sported in the distance, under the stairs, on the stairs, and +up in the gallery. Old Jolyon begged for Chopin. She played studies, +mazurkas, waltzes, till the two children, creeping near, stood at the +foot of the piano their dark and golden heads bent forward, listening. +Old Jolyon watched. + +"Let's see you dance, you two!" + +Shyly, with a false start, they began. Bobbing and circling, earnest, +not very adroit, they went past and past his chair to the strains of that +waltz. He watched them and the face of her who was playing turned +smiling towards those little dancers thinking: + +'Sweetest picture I've seen for ages.' + +A voice said: + +"Hollee! Mais enfin--qu'est-ce que tu fais la--danser, le dimanche! +Viens, donc!" + +But the children came close to old Jolyon, knowing that he would save +them, and gazed into a face which was decidedly 'caught out.' + +"Better the day, better the deed, Mam'zelle. It's all my doing. Trot +along, chicks, and have your tea." + +And, when they were gone, followed by the dog Balthasar, who took every +meal, he looked at Irene with a twinkle and said: + +"Well, there we are! Aren't they sweet? Have you any little ones among +your pupils?" + +"Yes, three--two of them darlings." + +"Pretty?" + +"Lovely!" + +Old Jolyon sighed; he had an insatiable appetite for the very young. "My +little sweet," he said, "is devoted to music; she'll be a musician some +day. You wouldn't give me your opinion of her playing, I suppose?" + +"Of course I will." + +"You wouldn't like--" but he stifled the words "to give her lessons." The +idea that she gave lessons was unpleasant to him; yet it would mean that +he would see her regularly. She left the piano and came over to his +chair. + +"I would like, very much; but there is--June. When are they coming +back?" + +Old Jolyon frowned. "Not till the middle of next month. What does that +matter?" + +"You said June had forgiven me; but she could never forget, Uncle +Jolyon." + +Forget! She must forget, if he wanted her to. + +But as if answering, Irene shook her head. "You know she couldn't; one +doesn't forget." + +Always that wretched past! And he said with a sort of vexed finality: + +"Well, we shall see." + +He talked to her an hour or more, of the children, and a hundred little +things, till the carriage came round to take her home. And when she had +gone he went back to his chair, and sat there smoothing his face and +chin, dreaming over the day. + +That evening after dinner he went to his study and took a sheet of paper. +He stayed for some minutes without writing, then rose and stood under the +masterpiece 'Dutch Fishing Boats at Sunset.' He was not thinking of that +picture, but of his life. He was going to leave her something in his +Will; nothing could so have stirred the stilly deeps of thought and +memory. He was going to leave her a portion of his wealth, of his +aspirations, deeds, qualities, work--all that had made that wealth; going +to leave her, too, a part of all he had missed in life, by his sane and +steady pursuit of wealth. All! What had he missed? 'Dutch Fishing +Boats' responded blankly; he crossed to the French window, and drawing +the curtain aside, opened it. A wind had got up, and one of last year's +oak leaves which had somehow survived the gardener's brooms, was dragging +itself with a tiny clicking rustle along the stone terrace in the +twilight. Except for that it was very quiet out there, and he could +smell the heliotrope watered not long since. A bat went by. A bird +uttered its last 'cheep.' And right above the oak tree the first star +shone. Faust in the opera had bartered his soul for some fresh years of +youth. Morbid notion! No such bargain was possible, that was real +tragedy! No making oneself new again for love or life or anything. +Nothing left to do but enjoy beauty from afar off while you could, and +leave it something in your Will. But how much? And, as if he could not +make that calculation looking out into the mild freedom of the country +night, he turned back and went up to the chimney-piece. There were his +pet bronzes--a Cleopatra with the asp at her breast; a Socrates; a +greyhound playing with her puppy; a strong man reining in some horses. +'They last!' he thought, and a pang went through his heart. They had a +thousand years of life before them! + +'How much?' Well! enough at all events to save her getting old before her +time, to keep the lines out of her face as long as possible, and grey +from soiling that bright hair. He might live another five years. She +would be well over thirty by then. 'How much?' She had none of his +blood in her! In loyalty to the tenor of his life for forty years and +more, ever since he married and founded that mysterious thing, a family, +came this warning thought--None of his blood, no right to anything! It +was a luxury then, this notion. An extravagance, a petting of an old +man's whim, one of those things done in dotage. His real future was +vested in those who had his blood, in whom he would live on when he was +gone. He turned away from the bronzes and stood looking at the old +leather chair in which he had sat and smoked so many hundreds of cigars. +And suddenly he seemed to see her sitting there in her grey dress, +fragrant, soft, dark-eyed, graceful, looking up at him. Why! She cared +nothing for him, really; all she cared for was that lost lover of hers. +But she was there, whether she would or no, giving him pleasure with her +beauty and grace. One had no right to inflict an old man's company, no +right to ask her down to play to him and let him look at her--for no +reward! Pleasure must be paid for in this world. 'How much?' After +all, there was plenty; his son and his three grandchildren would never +miss that little lump. He had made it himself, nearly every penny; he +could leave it where he liked, allow himself this little pleasure. He +went back to the bureau. 'Well, I'm going to,' he thought, 'let them +think what they like. I'm going to!' And he sat down. + +'How much?' Ten thousand, twenty thousand--how much? If only with his +money he could buy one year, one month of youth. And startled by that +thought, he wrote quickly: + +'DEAR HERRING,--Draw me a codicil to this effect: "I leave to my niece +Irene Forsyte, born Irene Heron, by which name she now goes, fifteen +thousand pounds free of legacy duty." 'Yours faithfully, 'JOLYON +FORSYTE.' + +When he had sealed and stamped the envelope, he went back to the window +and drew in a long breath. It was dark, but many stars shone now. + + + + +IV + +He woke at half-past two, an hour which long experience had taught him +brings panic intensity to all awkward thoughts. Experience had also +taught him that a further waking at the proper hour of eight showed the +folly of such panic. On this particular morning the thought which +gathered rapid momentum was that if he became ill, at his age not +improbable, he would not see her. From this it was but a step to +realisation that he would be cut off, too, when his son and June returned +from Spain. How could he justify desire for the company of one who had +stolen--early morning does not mince words--June's lover? That lover was +dead; but June was a stubborn little thing; warm-hearted, but stubborn as +wood, and--quite true--not one who forgot! By the middle of next month +they would be back. He had barely five weeks left to enjoy the new +interest which had come into what remained of his life. Darkness showed +up to him absurdly clear the nature of his feeling. Admiration for +beauty--a craving to see that which delighted his eyes. + +Preposterous, at his age! And yet--what other reason was there for asking +June to undergo such painful reminder, and how prevent his son and his +son's wife from thinking him very queer? He would be reduced to sneaking +up to London, which tired him; and the least indisposition would cut him +off even from that. He lay with eyes open, setting his jaw against the +prospect, and calling himself an old fool, while his heart beat loudly, +and then seemed to stop beating altogether. He had seen the dawn +lighting the window chinks, heard the birds chirp and twitter, and the +cocks crow, before he fell asleep again, and awoke tired but sane. Five +weeks before he need bother, at his age an eternity! But that early +morning panic had left its mark, had slightly fevered the will of one who +had always had his own way. He would see her as often as he wished! Why +not go up to town and make that codicil at his solicitor's instead of +writing about it; she might like to go to the opera! But, by train, for +he would not have that fat chap Beacon grinning behind his back. Servants +were such fools; and, as likely as not, they had known all the past +history of Irene and young Bosinney--servants knew everything, and +suspected the rest. He wrote to her that morning: + +"MY DEAR IRENE,--I have to be up in town to-morrow. If you would like to +have a look in at the opera, come and dine with me quietly ...." + +But where? It was decades since he had dined anywhere in London save at +his Club or at a private house. Ah! that new-fangled place close to +Covent Garden.... + +"Let me have a line to-morrow morning to the Piedmont Hotel whether to +expect you there at 7 o'clock." "Yours affectionately, "JOLYON FORSYTE." + +She would understand that he just wanted to give her a little pleasure; +for the idea that she should guess he had this itch to see her was +instinctively unpleasant to him; it was not seemly that one so old should +go out of his way to see beauty, especially in a woman. + +The journey next day, short though it was, and the visit to his lawyer's, +tired him. It was hot too, and after dressing for dinner he lay down on +the sofa in his bedroom to rest a little. He must have had a sort of +fainting fit, for he came to himself feeling very queer; and with some +difficulty rose and rang the bell. Why! it was past seven! And there he +was and she would be waiting. But suddenly the dizziness came on again, +and he was obliged to relapse on the sofa. He heard the maid's voice +say: + +"Did you ring, sir?" + +"Yes, come here"; he could not see her clearly, for the cloud in front of +his eyes. "I'm not well, I want some sal volatile." + +"Yes, sir." Her voice sounded frightened. + +Old Jolyon made an effort. + +"Don't go. Take this message to my niece--a lady waiting in the hall--a +lady in grey. Say Mr. Forsyte is not well--the heat. He is very sorry; +if he is not down directly, she is not to wait dinner." + +When she was gone, he thought feebly: 'Why did I say a lady in grey--she +may be in anything. Sal volatile!' He did not go off again, yet was not +conscious of how Irene came to be standing beside him, holding smelling +salts to his nose, and pushing a pillow up behind his head. He heard her +say anxiously: "Dear Uncle Jolyon, what is it?" was dimly conscious of +the soft pressure of her lips on his hand; then drew a long breath of +smelling salts, suddenly discovered strength in them, and sneezed. + +"Ha!" he said, "it's nothing. How did you get here? Go down and +dine--the tickets are on the dressing-table. I shall be all right in a +minute." + +He felt her cool hand on his forehead, smelled violets, and sat divided +between a sort of pleasure and a determination to be all right. + +"Why! You are in grey!" he said. "Help me up." Once on his feet he gave +himself a shake. + +"What business had I to go off like that!" And he moved very slowly to +the glass. What a cadaverous chap! Her voice, behind him, murmured: + +"You mustn't come down, Uncle; you must rest." + +"Fiddlesticks! A glass of champagne'll soon set me to rights. I can't +have you missing the opera." + +But the journey down the corridor was troublesome. What carpets they had +in these newfangled places, so thick that you tripped up in them at every +step! In the lift he noticed how concerned she looked, and said with the +ghost of a twinkle: + +"I'm a pretty host." + +When the lift stopped he had to hold firmly to the seat to prevent its +slipping under him; but after soup and a glass of champagne he felt much +better, and began to enjoy an infirmity which had brought such solicitude +into her manner towards him. + +"I should have liked you for a daughter," he said suddenly; and watching +the smile in her eyes, went on: + +"You mustn't get wrapped up in the past at your time of life; plenty of +that when you get to my age. That's a nice dress--I like the style." + +"I made it myself." + +Ah! A woman who could make herself a pretty frock had not lost her +interest in life. + +"Make hay while the sun shines," he said; "and drink that up. I want to +see some colour in your cheeks. We mustn't waste life; it doesn't do. +There's a new Marguerite to-night; let's hope she won't be fat. And +Mephisto--anything more dreadful than a fat chap playing the Devil I +can't imagine." + +But they did not go to the opera after all, for in getting up from dinner +the dizziness came over him again, and she insisted on his staying quiet +and going to bed early. When he parted from her at the door of the +hotel, having paid the cabman to drive her to Chelsea, he sat down again +for a moment to enjoy the memory of her words: "You are such a darling to +me, Uncle Jolyon!" Why! Who wouldn't be! He would have liked to stay up +another day and take her to the Zoo, but two days running of him would +bore her to death. No, he must wait till next Sunday; she had promised +to come then. They would settle those lessons for Holly, if only for a +month. It would be something. That little Mam'zelle Beauce wouldn't +like it, but she would have to lump it. And crushing his old opera hat +against his chest he sought the lift. + +He drove to Waterloo next morning, struggling with a desire to say: +'Drive me to Chelsea.' But his sense of proportion was too strong. +Besides, he still felt shaky, and did not want to risk another aberration +like that of last night, away from home. Holly, too, was expecting him, +and what he had in his bag for her. Not that there was any cupboard love +in his little sweet--she was a bundle of affection. Then, with the +rather bitter cynicism of the old, he wondered for a second whether it +was not cupboard love which made Irene put up with him. No, she was not +that sort either. She had, if anything, too little notion of how to +butter her bread, no sense of property, poor thing! Besides, he had not +breathed a word about that codicil, nor should he--sufficient unto the +day was the good thereof. + +In the victoria which met him at the station Holly was restraining the +dog Balthasar, and their caresses made 'jubey' his drive home. All the +rest of that fine hot day and most of the next he was content and +peaceful, reposing in the shade, while the long lingering sunshine +showered gold on the lawns and the flowers. But on Thursday evening at +his lonely dinner he began to count the hours; sixty-five till he would +go down to meet her again in the little coppice, and walk up through the +fields at her side. He had intended to consult the doctor about his +fainting fit, but the fellow would be sure to insist on quiet, no +excitement and all that; and he did not mean to be tied by the leg, did +not want to be told of an infirmity--if there were one, could not afford +to hear of it at his time of life, now that this new interest had come. +And he carefully avoided making any mention of it in a letter to his son. +It would only bring them back with a run! How far this silence was due +to consideration for their pleasure, how far to regard for his own, he +did not pause to consider. + +That night in his study he had just finished his cigar and was dozing +off, when he heard the rustle of a gown, and was conscious of a scent of +violets. Opening his eyes he saw her, dressed in grey, standing by the +fireplace, holding out her arms. The odd thing was that, though those +arms seemed to hold nothing, they were curved as if round someone's neck, +and her own neck was bent back, her lips open, her eyes closed. She +vanished at once, and there were the mantelpiece and his bronzes. But +those bronzes and the mantelpiece had not been there when she was, only +the fireplace and the wall! Shaken and troubled, he got up. 'I must +take medicine,' he thought; 'I can't be well.' His heart beat too fast, +he had an asthmatic feeling in the chest; and going to the window, he +opened it to get some air. A dog was barking far away, one of the dogs +at Gage's farm no doubt, beyond the coppice. A beautiful still night, +but dark. 'I dropped off,' he mused, 'that's it! And yet I'll swear my +eyes were open!' A sound like a sigh seemed to answer. + +"What's that?" he said sharply, "who's there?" + +Putting his hand to his side to still the beating of his heart, he +stepped out on the terrace. Something soft scurried by in the dark. +"Shoo!" It was that great grey cat. 'Young Bosinney was like a great +cat!' he thought. 'It was him in there, that she--that she was--He's got +her still!' He walked to the edge of the terrace, and looked down into +the darkness; he could just see the powdering of the daisies on the +unmown lawn. Here to-day and gone to-morrow! And there came the moon, +who saw all, young and old, alive and dead, and didn't care a dump! His +own turn soon. For a single day of youth he would give what was left! +And he turned again towards the house. He could see the windows of the +night nursery up there. His little sweet would be asleep. 'Hope that +dog won't wake her!' he thought. 'What is it makes us love, and makes us +die! I must go to bed.' + +And across the terrace stones, growing grey in the moonlight, he passed +back within. + +How should an old man live his days if not in dreaming of his well-spent +past? In that, at all events, there is no agitating warmth, only pale +winter sunshine. The shell can withstand the gentle beating of the +dynamos of memory. The present he should distrust; the future shun. From +beneath thick shade he should watch the sunlight creeping at his toes. +If there be sun of summer, let him not go out into it, mistaking it for +the Indian-summer sun! Thus peradventure he shall decline softly, +slowly, imperceptibly, until impatient Nature clutches his wind-pipe and +he gasps away to death some early morning before the world is aired, and +they put on his tombstone: 'In the fulness of years!' yea! If he +preserve his principles in perfect order, a Forsyte may live on long +after he is dead. + +Old Jolyon was conscious of all this, and yet there was in him that which +transcended Forsyteism. For it is written that a Forsyte shall not love +beauty more than reason; nor his own way more than his own health. And +something beat within him in these days that with each throb fretted at +the thinning shell. His sagacity knew this, but it knew too that he +could not stop that beating, nor would if he could. And yet, if you had +told him he was living on his capital, he would have stared you down. No, +no; a man did not live on his capital; it was not done! The shibboleths +of the past are ever more real than the actualities of the present. And +he, to whom living on one's capital had always been anathema, could not +have borne to have applied so gross a phrase to his own case. Pleasure is +healthful; beauty good to see; to live again in the youth of the +young--and what else on earth was he doing! + +Methodically, as had been the way of his whole life, he now arranged his +time. On Tuesdays he journeyed up to town by train; Irene came and dined +with him. And they went to the opera. On Thursdays he drove to town, +and, putting that fat chap and his horses up, met her in Kensington +Gardens, picking up the carriage after he had left her, and driving home +again in time for dinner. He threw out the casual formula that he had +business in London on those two days. On Wednesdays and Saturdays she +came down to give Holly music lessons. The greater the pleasure he took +in her society, the more scrupulously fastidious he became, just a +matter-of-fact and friendly uncle. Not even in feeling, really, was he +more--for, after all, there was his age. And yet, if she were late he +fidgeted himself to death. If she missed coming, which happened twice, +his eyes grew sad as an old dog's, and he failed to sleep. + +And so a month went by--a month of summer in the fields, and in his +heart, with summer's heat and the fatigue thereof. Who could have +believed a few weeks back that he would have looked forward to his son's +and his grand-daughter's return with something like dread! There was such +a delicious freedom, such recovery of that independence a man enjoys +before he founds a family, about these weeks of lovely weather, and this +new companionship with one who demanded nothing, and remained always a +little unknown, retaining the fascination of mystery. It was like a +draught of wine to him who has been drinking water for so long that he +has almost forgotten the stir wine brings to his blood, the narcotic to +his brain. The flowers were coloured brighter, scents and music and the +sunlight had a living value--were no longer mere reminders of past +enjoyment. There was something now to live for which stirred him +continually to anticipation. He lived in that, not in retrospection; the +difference is considerable to any so old as he. The pleasures of the +table, never of much consequence to one naturally abstemious, had lost +all value. He ate little, without knowing what he ate; and every day +grew thinner and more worn to look at. He was again a 'threadpaper'; and +to this thinned form his massive forehead, with hollows at the temples, +gave more dignity than ever. He was very well aware that he ought to see +the doctor, but liberty was too sweet. He could not afford to pet his +frequent shortness of breath and the pain in his side at the expense of +liberty. Return to the vegetable existence he had led among the +agricultural journals with the life-size mangold wurzels, before this new +attraction came into his life--no! He exceeded his allowance of cigars. +Two a day had always been his rule. Now he smoked three and sometimes +four--a man will when he is filled with the creative spirit. But very +often he thought: 'I must give up smoking, and coffee; I must give up +rattling up to town.' But he did not; there was no one in any sort of +authority to notice him, and this was a priceless boon. + +The servants perhaps wondered, but they were, naturally, dumb. Mam'zelle +Beauce was too concerned with her own digestion, and too 'wellbrrred' to +make personal allusions. Holly had not as yet an eye for the relative +appearance of him who was her plaything and her god. It was left for +Irene herself to beg him to eat more, to rest in the hot part of the day, +to take a tonic, and so forth. But she did not tell him that she was the +a cause of his thinness--for one cannot see the havoc oneself is working. +A man of eighty-five has no passions, but the Beauty which produces +passion works on in the old way, till death closes the eyes which crave +the sight of Her. + +On the first day of the second week in July he received a letter from his +son in Paris to say that they would all be back on Friday. This had +always been more sure than Fate; but, with the pathetic improvidence +given to the old, that they may endure to the end, he had never quite +admitted it. Now he did, and something would have to be done. He had +ceased to be able to imagine life without this new interest, but that +which is not imagined sometimes exists, as Forsytes are perpetually +finding to their cost. He sat in his old leather chair, doubling up the +letter, and mumbling with his lips the end of an unlighted cigar. After +to-morrow his Tuesday expeditions to town would have to be abandoned. He +could still drive up, perhaps, once a week, on the pretext of seeing his +man of business. But even that would be dependent on his health, for now +they would begin to fuss about him. The lessons! The lessons must go +on! She must swallow down her scruples, and June must put her feelings +in her pocket. She had done so once, on the day after the news of +Bosinney's death; what she had done then, she could surely do again now. +Four years since that injury was inflicted on her--not Christian to keep +the memory of old sores alive. June's will was strong, but his was +stronger, for his sands were running out. Irene was soft, surely she +would do this for him, subdue her natural shrinking, sooner than give him +pain! The lessons must continue; for if they did, he was secure. And +lighting his cigar at last, he began trying to shape out how to put it to +them all, and explain this strange intimacy; how to veil and wrap it away +from the naked truth--that he could not bear to be deprived of the sight +of beauty. Ah! Holly! Holly was fond of her, Holly liked her lessons. +She would save him--his little sweet! And with that happy thought he +became serene, and wondered what he had been worrying about so fearfully. +He must not worry, it left him always curiously weak, and as if but half +present in his own body. + +That evening after dinner he had a return of the dizziness, though he did +not faint. He would not ring the bell, because he knew it would mean a +fuss, and make his going up on the morrow more conspicuous. When one +grew old, the whole world was in conspiracy to limit freedom, and for +what reason?--just to keep the breath in him a little longer. He did not +want it at such cost. Only the dog Balthasar saw his lonely recovery +from that weakness; anxiously watched his master go to the sideboard and +drink some brandy, instead of giving him a biscuit. When at last old +Jolyon felt able to tackle the stairs he went up to bed. And, though +still shaky next morning, the thought of the evening sustained and +strengthened him. It was always such a pleasure to give her a good +dinner--he suspected her of undereating when she was alone; and, at the +opera to watch her eyes glow and brighten, the unconscious smiling of her +lips. She hadn't much pleasure, and this was the last time he would be +able to give her that treat. But when he was packing his bag he caught +himself wishing that he had not the fatigue of dressing for dinner before +him, and the exertion, too, of telling her about June's return. + +The opera that evening was 'Carmen,' and he chose the last entr'acte to +break the news, instinctively putting it off till the latest moment. + +She took it quietly, queerly; in fact, he did not know how she had taken +it before the wayward music lifted up again and silence became necessary. +The mask was down over her face, that mask behind which so much went on +that he could not see. She wanted time to think it over, no doubt! He +would not press her, for she would be coming to give her lesson to-morrow +afternoon, and he should see her then when she had got used to the idea. +In the cab he talked only of the Carmen; he had seen better in the old +days, but this one was not bad at all. When he took her hand to say +good-night, she bent quickly forward and kissed his forehead. + +"Good-bye, dear Uncle Jolyon, you have been so sweet to me." + +"To-morrow then," he said. "Good-night. Sleep well." She echoed +softly: "Sleep well" and from the cab window, already moving away, he saw +her face screwed round towards him, and her hand put out in a gesture +which seemed to linger. + +He sought his room slowly. They never gave him the same, and he could +not get used to these 'spick-and-spandy' bedrooms with new furniture and +grey-green carpets sprinkled all over with pink roses. He was wakeful +and that wretched Habanera kept throbbing in his head. + +His French had never been equal to its words, but its sense he knew, if +it had any sense, a gipsy thing--wild and unaccountable. Well, there was +in life something which upset all your care and plans--something which +made men and women dance to its pipes. And he lay staring from deep-sunk +eyes into the darkness where the unaccountable held sway. You thought +you had hold of life, but it slipped away behind you, took you by the +scruff of the neck, forced you here and forced you there, and then, +likely as not, squeezed life out of you! It took the very stars like +that, he shouldn't wonder, rubbed their noses together and flung them +apart; it had never done playing its pranks. Five million people in this +great blunderbuss of a town, and all of them at the mercy of that +Life-Force, like a lot of little dried peas hopping about on a board when +you struck your fist on it. Ah, well! Himself would not hop much +longer--a good long sleep would do him good! + +How hot it was up here!--how noisy! His forehead burned; she had kissed +it just where he always worried; just there--as if she had known the very +place and wanted to kiss it all away for him. But, instead, her lips +left a patch of grievous uneasiness. She had never spoken in quite that +voice, had never before made that lingering gesture or looked back at him +as she drove away. + +He got out of bed and pulled the curtains aside; his room faced down over +the river. There was little air, but the sight of that breadth of water +flowing by, calm, eternal, soothed him. 'The great thing,' he thought +'is not to make myself a nuisance. I'll think of my little sweet, and go +to sleep.' But it was long before the heat and throbbing of the London +night died out into the short slumber of the summer morning. And old +Jolyon had but forty winks. + +When he reached home next day he went out to the flower garden, and with +the help of Holly, who was very delicate with flowers, gathered a great +bunch of carnations. They were, he told her, for 'the lady in grey'--a +name still bandied between them; and he put them in a bowl in his study +where he meant to tackle Irene the moment she came, on the subject of +June and future lessons. Their fragrance and colour would help. After +lunch he lay down, for he felt very tired, and the carriage would not +bring her from the station till four o'clock. But as the hour approached +he grew restless, and sought the schoolroom, which overlooked the drive. +The sun-blinds were down, and Holly was there with Mademoiselle Beauce, +sheltered from the heat of a stifling July day, attending to their +silkworms. Old Jolyon had a natural antipathy to these methodical +creatures, whose heads and colour reminded him of elephants; who nibbled +such quantities of holes in nice green leaves; and smelled, as he +thought, horrid. He sat down on a chintz-covered windowseat whence he +could see the drive, and get what air there was; and the dog Balthasar +who appreciated chintz on hot days, jumped up beside him. Over the +cottage piano a violet dust-sheet, faded almost to grey, was spread, and +on it the first lavender, whose scent filled the room. In spite of the +coolness here, perhaps because of that coolness the beat of life +vehemently impressed his ebbed-down senses. Each sunbeam which came +through the chinks had annoying brilliance; that dog smelled very strong; +the lavender perfume was overpowering; those silkworms heaving up their +grey-green backs seemed horribly alive; and Holly's dark head bent over +them had a wonderfully silky sheen. A marvellous cruelly strong thing +was life when you were old and weak; it seemed to mock you with its +multitude of forms and its beating vitality. He had never, till those +last few weeks, had this curious feeling of being with one half of him +eagerly borne along in the stream of life, and with the other half left +on the bank, watching that helpless progress. Only when Irene was with +him did he lose this double consciousness. + +Holly turned her head, pointed with her little brown fist to the +piano--for to point with a finger was not 'well-brrred'--and said slyly: + +"Look at the 'lady in grey,' Gran; isn't she pretty to-day?" + +Old Jolyon's heart gave a flutter, and for a second the room was clouded; +then it cleared, and he said with a twinkle: + +"Who's been dressing her up?" + +"Mam'zelle." + +"Hollee! Don't be foolish!" + +That prim little Frenchwoman! She hadn't yet got over the music lessons +being taken away from her. That wouldn't help. His little sweet was the +only friend they had. Well, they were her lessons. And he shouldn't +budge shouldn't budge for anything. He stroked the warm wool on +Balthasar's head, and heard Holly say: "When mother's home, there won't +be any changes, will there? She doesn't like strangers, you know." + +The child's words seemed to bring the chilly atmosphere of opposition +about old Jolyon, and disclose all the menace to his new-found freedom. +Ah! He would have to resign himself to being an old man at the mercy of +care and love, or fight to keep this new and prized companionship; and to +fight tired him to death. But his thin, worn face hardened into +resolution till it appeared all Jaw. This was his house, and his affair; +he should not budge! He looked at his watch, old and thin like himself; +he had owned it fifty years. Past four already! And kissing the top of +Holly's head in passing, he went down to the hall. He wanted to get hold +of her before she went up to give her lesson. At the first sound of +wheels he stepped out into the porch, and saw at once that the victoria +was empty. + +"The train's in, sir; but the lady 'asn't come." + +Old Jolyon gave him a sharp upward look, his eyes seemed to push away +that fat chap's curiosity, and defy him to see the bitter disappointment +he was feeling. + +"Very well," he said, and turned back into the house. He went to his +study and sat down, quivering like a leaf. What did this mean? She might +have lost her train, but he knew well enough she hadn't. 'Good-bye, dear +Uncle Jolyon.' Why 'Good-bye' and not 'Good-night'? And that hand of +hers lingering in the air. And her kiss. What did it mean? Vehement +alarm and irritation took possession of him. He got up and began to pace +the Turkey carpet, between window and wall. She was going to give him +up! He felt it for certain--and he defenceless. An old man wanting to +look on beauty! It was ridiculous! Age closed his mouth, paralysed his +power to fight. He had no right to what was warm and living, no right to +anything but memories and sorrow. He could not plead with her; even an +old man has his dignity. Defenceless! For an hour, lost to bodily +fatigue, he paced up and down, past the bowl of carnations he had +plucked, which mocked him with its scent. Of all things hard to bear, +the prostration of will-power is hardest, for one who has always had his +way. Nature had got him in its net, and like an unhappy fish he turned +and swam at the meshes, here and there, found no hole, no breaking point. +They brought him tea at five o'clock, and a letter. For a moment hope +beat up in him. He cut the envelope with the butter knife, and read: + +"DEAREST UNCLE JOLYON,--I can't bear to write anything that may +disappoint you, but I was too cowardly to tell you last night. I feel I +can't come down and give Holly any more lessons, now that June is coming +back. Some things go too deep to be forgotten. It has been such a joy +to see you and Holly. Perhaps I shall still see you sometimes when you +come up, though I'm sure it's not good for you; I can see you are tiring +yourself too much. I believe you ought to rest quite quietly all this +hot weather, and now you have your son and June coming back you will be +so happy. Thank you a million times for all your sweetness to me. + +"Lovingly your IRENE." + +So, there it was! Not good for him to have pleasure and what he chiefly +cared about; to try and put off feeling the inevitable end of all things, +the approach of death with its stealthy, rustling footsteps. Not good +for him! Not even she could see how she was his new lease of interest in +life, the incarnation of all the beauty he felt slipping from him. + +His tea grew cold, his cigar remained unlit; and up and down he paced, +torn between his dignity and his hold on life. Intolerable to be +squeezed out slowly, without a say of your own, to live on when your will +was in the hands of others bent on weighing you to the ground with care +and love. Intolerable! He would see what telling her the truth would +do--the truth that he wanted the sight of her more than just a lingering +on. He sat down at his old bureau and took a pen. But he could not +write. There was something revolting in having to plead like this; plead +that she should warm his eyes with her beauty. It was tantamount to +confessing dotage. He simply could not. And instead, he wrote: + +"I had hoped that the memory of old sores would not be allowed to stand +in the way of what is a pleasure and a profit to me and my little +grand-daughter. But old men learn to forego their whims; they are +obliged to, even the whim to live must be foregone sooner or later; and +perhaps the sooner the better. "My love to you, "JOLYON FORSYTE." + +'Bitter,' he thought, 'but I can't help it. I'm tired.' He sealed and +dropped it into the box for the evening post, and hearing it fall to the +bottom, thought: 'There goes all I've looked forward to!' + +That evening after dinner which he scarcely touched, after his cigar +which he left half-smoked for it made him feel faint, he went very slowly +upstairs and stole into the night-nursery. He sat down on the +window-seat. A night-light was burning, and he could just see Holly's +face, with one hand underneath the cheek. An early cockchafer buzzed in +the Japanese paper with which they had filled the grate, and one of the +horses in the stable stamped restlessly. To sleep like that child! He +pressed apart two rungs of the venetian blind and looked out. The moon +was rising, blood-red. He had never seen so red a moon. The woods and +fields out there were dropping to sleep too, in the last glimmer of the +summer light. And beauty, like a spirit, walked. 'I've had a long life,' +he thought, 'the best of nearly everything. I'm an ungrateful chap; I've +seen a lot of beauty in my time. Poor young Bosinney said I had a sense +of beauty. There's a man in the moon to-night!' A moth went by, +another, another. 'Ladies in grey!' He closed his eyes. A feeling that +he would never open them again beset him; he let it grow, let himself +sink; then, with a shiver, dragged the lids up. There was something +wrong with him, no doubt, deeply wrong; he would have to have the doctor +after all. It didn't much matter now! Into that coppice the moon-light +would have crept; there would be shadows, and those shadows would be the +only things awake. No birds, beasts, flowers, insects; Just the +shadows--moving; 'Ladies in grey!' Over that log they would climb; would +whisper together. She and Bosinney! Funny thought! And the frogs and +little things would whisper too! How the clock ticked, in here! It was +all eerie--out there in the light of that red moon; in here with the +little steady night-light and, the ticking clock and the nurse's +dressing-gown hanging from the edge of the screen, tall, like a woman's +figure. 'Lady in grey!' And a very odd thought beset him: Did she +exist? Had she ever come at all? Or was she but the emanation of all +the beauty he had loved and must leave so soon? The violet-grey spirit +with the dark eyes and the crown of amber hair, who walks the dawn and +the moonlight, and at blue-bell time? What was she, who was she, did she +exist? He rose and stood a moment clutching the window-sill, to give him +a sense of reality again; then began tiptoeing towards the door. He +stopped at the foot of the bed; and Holly, as if conscious of his eyes +fixed on her, stirred, sighed, and curled up closer in defence. He +tiptoed on and passed out into the dark passage; reached his room, +undressed at once, and stood before a mirror in his night-shirt. What a +scarecrow--with temples fallen in, and thin legs! His eyes resisted his +own image, and a look of pride came on his face. All was in league to +pull him down, even his reflection in the glass, but he was not +down--yet! He got into bed, and lay a long time without sleeping, trying +to reach resignation, only too well aware that fretting and +disappointment were very bad for him. + +He woke in the morning so unrefreshed and strengthless that he sent for +the doctor. After sounding him, the fellow pulled a face as long as your +arm, and ordered him to stay in bed and give up smoking. That was no +hardship; there was nothing to get up for, and when he felt ill, tobacco +always lost its savour. He spent the morning languidly with the +sun-blinds down, turning and re-turning The Times, not reading much, the +dog Balthasar lying beside his bed. With his lunch they brought him a +telegram, running thus: + +'Your letter received coming down this afternoon will be with you at +four-thirty. Irene.' + +Coming down! After all! Then she did exist--and he was not deserted. +Coming down! A glow ran through his limbs; his cheeks and forehead felt +hot. He drank his soup, and pushed the tray-table away, lying very quiet +until they had removed lunch and left him alone; but every now and then +his eyes twinkled. Coming down! His heart beat fast, and then did not +seem to beat at all. At three o'clock he got up and dressed +deliberately, noiselessly. Holly and Mam'zelle would be in the +schoolroom, and the servants asleep after their dinner, he shouldn't +wonder. He opened his door cautiously, and went downstairs. In the hall +the dog Balthasar lay solitary, and, followed by him, old Jolyon passed +into his study and out into the burning afternoon. He meant to go down +and meet her in the coppice, but felt at once he could not manage that in +this heat. He sat down instead under the oak tree by the swing, and the +dog Balthasar, who also felt the heat, lay down beside him. He sat there +smiling. What a revel of bright minutes! What a hum of insects, and +cooing of pigeons! It was the quintessence of a summer day. Lovely! And +he was happy--happy as a sand-boy, whatever that might be. She was +coming; she had not given him up! He had everything in life he +wanted--except a little more breath, and less weight--just here! He +would see her when she emerged from the fernery, come swaying just a +little, a violet-grey figure passing over the daisies and dandelions and +'soldiers' on the lawn--the soldiers with their flowery crowns. He would +not move, but she would come up to him and say: 'Dear Uncle Jolyon, I am +sorry!' and sit in the swing and let him look at her and tell her that he +had not been very well but was all right now; and that dog would lick her +hand. That dog knew his master was fond of her; that dog was a good dog. + +It was quite shady under the tree; the sun could not get at him, only +make the rest of the world bright so that he could see the Grand Stand at +Epsom away out there, very far, and the cows cropping the clover in the +field and swishing at the flies with their tails. He smelled the scent +of limes, and lavender. Ah! that was why there was such a racket of +bees. They were excited--busy, as his heart was busy and excited. +Drowsy, too, drowsy and drugged on honey and happiness; as his heart was +drugged and drowsy. Summer--summer--they seemed saying; great bees and +little bees, and the flies too! + +The stable clock struck four; in half an hour she would be here. He would +have just one tiny nap, because he had had so little sleep of late; and +then he would be fresh for her, fresh for youth and beauty, coming +towards him across the sunlit lawn--lady in grey! And settling back in +his chair he closed his eyes. Some thistle-down came on what little air +there was, and pitched on his moustache more white than itself. He did +not know; but his breathing stirred it, caught there. A ray of sunlight +struck through and lodged on his boot. A bumble-bee alighted and +strolled on the crown of his Panama hat. And the delicious surge of +slumber reached the brain beneath that hat, and the head swayed forward +and rested on his breast. Summer--summer! So went the hum. + +The stable clock struck the quarter past. The dog Balthasar stretched +and looked up at his master. The thistledown no longer moved. The dog +placed his chin over the sunlit foot. It did not stir. The dog withdrew +his chin quickly, rose, and leaped on old Jolyon's lap, looked in his +face, whined; then, leaping down, sat on his haunches, gazing up. And +suddenly he uttered a long, long howl. + +But the thistledown was still as death, and the face of his old master. + +Summer--summer--summer! 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