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diff --git a/20429-8.txt b/20429-8.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6ba267d --- /dev/null +++ b/20429-8.txt @@ -0,0 +1,9863 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of The Seventh Noon, by Frederick Orin Bartlett + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: The Seventh Noon + +Author: Frederick Orin Bartlett + +Release Date: January 24, 2007 [EBook #20429] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE SEVENTH NOON *** + + + + +Produced by Al Haines + + + + + + + + + + +[Frontispiece: "Spring," she answered. "Just spring" +(missing from book)] + + + + + + +THE SEVENTH NOON + +BY + +FREDERICK ORIN BARTLETT + + +_Author of "The Web of the Golden Spider", +"Joan of the Alley," etc._ + + + +WITH ILLUSTRATIONS BY + +EDMUND FREDERICK + + + +BOSTON + +SMALL, MAYNARD AND COMPANY + +PUBLISHERS + + + + +COPYRIGHT, 1910 + +By Small, Maynard & Company + +(INCORPORATED) + + +Entered at Stationers' Hall + + + +Two editions before publication, January, 1910 + + + + +To + +K. P. B. and K. J. B. + + + + +CONTENTS + + +CHAPTER + + I THE BLACK DOG + II KING OF TO-DAY + III THE BEGINNING OF THE END + IV KISMET + V THE INNER WOODS + VI THE SHADOW ON THE PORTRAITS + VII THE ARSDALES + VIII THE MAN WHO KNEW + IX DAWN + X OUTSIDE THE HEDGE + XI A PARTING AND A MEETING + XII DISTRICT MESSENGER 3457 + XIII THE SLEEPERS + XIV CONSEQUENCES + XV THE DERELICT + XVI THE FOURTH DAY + XVII AN INTERLUDE + XVIII THE MAKING OF A MAN + XIX A MIRACLE + XX A LONG NIGHT + XXI FACING THE SUN + XXII CLOUDS + XXIII WHEN THE DEAD AWAKE + XXIV THE GREATER MASTER + XXV THE SHADOW ON THE FLOOR + XXVI ON THE BRINK + XXVII THE END OF THE BEGINNING + XXVIII THE SEVENTH NOON + + + + +ILLUSTRATIONS + + +"Spring," she answered. "Just spring" . . . _Frontispiece_ + +"What, you, Miss Arsdale?" + +As he studied her it seemed certain that she was +by no means enjoying herself in her present company + +Facing her he faced the pendulum which ticked +out to him the cost of each new picture he had of her + +He lowered the rails, and Miss Arsdale led the way + +"The kid," he announced laconically. "What yuh think of him?" + +At noon! At the seventh noon, the whistle was to blow! + + + + +The Seventh Noon + + +CHAPTER I + +_The Black Dog_ + +"The right to die?" + +Professor Barstow, with a perplexed scowl ruffling the barbette of gray +hairs above his keen eyes, shook his head and turning from the young +man whose long legs extended over the end of the lean sofa upon which +he sprawled in one corner of the laboratory, held the test-tube, which +he had been studying abstractedly, up to the light. The flickering gas +was not good for delicate work, and it was only lately that Barstow, +spurred on by a glimpse of the end to a long series of experiments, had +attempted anything after dark. He squinted thoughtfully at the yellow +fluid in the tube and then, resuming his discussion, declared +emphatically, + +"We have no such right, Peter! You 're wrong. I don't know where, +because you put it too cleverly for me. But I know you 're dead +wrong--even if your confounded old theories are right, even if your +deductions are sound. You 're wrong where you bring up." + +"Man dear," answered the other gently, "you are too good a scientist to +reason so. That is purely feminine logic." + +"I am too good a scientist to believe that anything so complex as human +life was meant to be wasted in a scheme where not so much as an atom is +lost. Bah, your liver is asleep! Too much work--too much work! The +black dog has pounced upon your shoulders!" + +"I never had an attack of the blues or anything similar in my life, +Barstow," Donaldson denied quietly. "You 'll propose smelling salts +next." + +"Then what the devil does ail you?" + +"Nothing ails me. Can't a man have a few theories without the aid of +liver complaint?" + +"Not that kind. They don't go with a sound constitution. When a man +begins to talk of finding no use for life, he 's either a coward or +sick. And--I know you 're not a coward, Peter." + +The man on the couch turned uneasily. + +"Nor sick either. You are as stubborn and narrow as an old woman, +Barstow," he complained. + +"Living is n't a matter of courage, physical or moral. It suits +you--it doesn't happen to suit me, but that doesn't mean that you are +well and moral while I 'm sick and a coward. My difficulty is +simple--clear; I haven't the material means to get out of life what I +want. I 'll admit that I might get it by working longer, but I should +have to work so many years in my own way that there would n't in the +end be enough of me left to enjoy the reward. Now, if I don't like +that proposition, who the devil is to criticize me for not accepting +it?" + +"It's quitting not to stay." + +"It would be if we elected to come. We don't. Moreover, my case is +simplified by circumstances--no one is dependent upon me either +directly or indirectly. I have no relatives--few friends. These, like +you, would call me names for a minute after I 'd gone and then forget." + +"You 're talking beautiful nonsense," observed Barstow. + +"Schopenhauer says--" + +"Damn your barbaric pessimists and all their hungry tribe!" + +Donaldson smiled a trifle condescendingly. + +"What's the use of talking to you when you 'll not admit a sound +deduction? And yet, if I said you don't know what results when you put +together two known chemicals, you 'd--" + +There was a look in Barstow's face that checked Donaldson,--a look of +worried recollection. + +"I 'd say nothing," he asserted earnestly, "because I _don't_ always +know." + +For a moment his fingers fluttered over the medley of bottles upon the +shelves before him. They paused over a small vial containing a +brilliant scarlet liquid. He picked it out and held it to the light. + +"See this?" he asked. + +Donaldson nodded indifferently. + +"It is a case in point. Theoretically I should have here the innocuous +union of three harmless chemicals; as a matter of fact I had occasion +to experiment with it and learned that I had innocently produced a +vicious and unheard-of poison. The stuff is of no use. It is one of +those things a man occasionally stumbles upon in this work,--better +forgotten. How do I account for it? I don't. Even in science there +is always the unknown element which comes in and plays the devil with +results." + +"But according to your no-waste theory, even this discovery ought to +have some use," commented Donaldson with a smile. + +"Well," drawled the chemist whimsically, "perhaps it has; it makes +murder very simple for the laity." + +"How?" + +Barstow turned back to his test-tube, relieved that the conversation +had taken another turn. + +"Because of the slowness with which it works. It requires seven days +for the system to assimilate it and yet the stomach stubbornly retains +it all this while. It is impossible to eliminate it from the body once +it is swallowed. It produces no symptoms and leaves no evidence. +There is no antidote. In the end it paralyzes the heart--swiftly, +silently, surely." + +Donaldson sat up. + +"Any pain?" he inquired. + +"None." + +Barstow ran his finger over a calendar on the wall. Then he glanced at +his watch. + +"Stay a little while longer and you can see for yourself how it works. +I am making a final demonstration of its properties." + +Barstow stepped into the next room. He was gone five minutes and +returned with a scrawny bull terrier scrambling at his heels. The +little brute, overjoyed at his release, frisked across the floor, +clumsily tumbling over his own feet, and sniffed as an overture of +friendship at Donaldson's low shoes. Then wagging his feeble tail he +lifted his head and patiently blinked moist eyes awaiting a verdict. +The young man stooped and scratched behind its ears, the dog holding +his head sideways and pressing against his ankles. He looked like a +dog of the streets, but in his eyes there was the dumb appreciation of +human sympathy which neutralizes breeding and blood. As Barstow +returned to his work, the pup followed after him in a series of awkward +bounds. + +"Poor little pup," murmured Donaldson, sympathetically leaning forward +with his arms upon his knees. "What's his name?" + +"Sandy. But he 's a lucky little pup according to you; within an hour +by the clock he ought to be dead." + +"Dead?" + +"If my poison works. It was seven days ago to-night that I gave him a +dose." + +Donaldson's brows contracted. He was big-hearted. This seemed a cruel +thing to do. He whistled to the pup and called him by name, "Sandy, +Sandy." But the dog only wagged his tail in response and snuggled with +brute confidence closer to his master. Donaldson snapped his fingers +coaxingly, leaning far over towards him. Reluctantly, at a nod from +Barstow, the dog crept belly to the ground across the room. Donaldson +picked up the trembling terrier and settling him into his lap passed +his hand thoughtfully over the warm smooth sides where he could feel +the heart pounding sturdily. + +From the dog, Donaldson lifted his eyes to Barstow's back. They were +dark brown eyes, set deep below a square forehead. His head, too, was +square and drooped a bit between loose shoulders. He smiled to himself +at some passing thought and the smile cast a pleasant softness over +features which at rest appeared rather angular and decidedly intense. +The mouth was large and the irregular teeth were white as a hound's. +His black hair was cut short and at the temples was turning gray, +although he had not yet reached thirty. It was an eager face, a strong +face. It hardened to granite over life in the abstract and softened to +the feminine before concrete examples of it. + +"It is a bit of a paradox," he resumed, "that so harmless a creature as +you, Barstow, should stumble upon so deadly an agent. What do you call +it?" + +"I have n't reported it yet. I don't know as I care to have my name +coupled with it in these days of newspaper notoriety--even though it +may be my one bid for fame." + +Donaldson drew a package of Durham from his pocket and fumbled around +until he found a loose paper. He deftly rolled a cigarette, his long +fingers moving with the dexterity of a pianist. He smoked a moment in +silence, exhaling the smoke thoughtfully with his eyes towards the +ceiling. The dog, his neck outstretched on Donaldson's knee, blinked +sleepily across the room at his master. The gas, blown about by drafts +from the open window, threw grotesque dancing shadows upon the stained, +worn boards of the floor. Finally Donaldson burst out, ever recurring +to the one subject like a man anxious to defend himself, + +"Barstow, I tell you that merely to cling to existence is not an act in +itself either righteous or courageous. If we owe obligations to +individuals we should pay them to the last cent. If we owe obligations +to society, we should pay those, too,--just as we pay our poll tax. +But life is a straight business proposition--pay in some form for what +you get out of it. There are no individuals in my life, as I said. +And what do I owe society? Society does not like what I offer--the +best of me--and will not give me what I want--the best of _it_. Very +well, to the devil with society. Our mutual obligations are cancelled." + +Barstow, still busy with his work, shook his head. + +"You come out wrong every time," he insisted. "You don't seem to get +at the opportunities there are in just living." + +The young man took a long breath. + +"So?" he demanded between half closed teeth. "No?" he challenged with +bitter intensity. "You are wrong; I know all that it is possible for +life to mean! That's the trouble. Oh, I know clear to my parched +soul! I was made to live, Barstow,--made to live life to its fullest! +There isn't a bit of it I don't love,--love too well to be content much +longer to play the galley slave in it. To live is to be free. I love +the blue sky above until I ache to madness that I cannot live under it; +I love the trees and grasses, the oceans, the forests and the denizens +of the forests; I love men and women; I love the press of crowds, the +clamor of men; I love silks and beautiful paintings and clean white +linen and flowers; I love good food, good clothes, good wine, good +music, good sermons, and good books. All--all it is within me to love +and to desire mightily. How I want those things--not morbidly--but +because I have five good senses and God knows how many more; because I +was _made_ to have those things!" + +"Then why don't you keep after them?" demanded Barstow coldly. + +"Because the price of them is so much of my soul and body that I 'd +have nothing left with which to enjoy them afterwards. You can't get +those things honestly in time to enjoy them, in one generation. You +can't get them at all, unless you sell the best part of you as you did +when you came to the Gordon Chemical Company. Oh Lord, Barstow, how +came you to forget all the dreams we used to dream?" + +Barstow turned quickly. There was the look upon his face as of a man +who presses back a little. For a moment he appeared pained. But he +answered steadily, + +"I have other dreams now, saner dreams." + +"Saner dreams? What are your saner dreams but less troublesome +dreams,--lazier dreams? Dreams that fit into things as they are +instead of demanding things as they should be? You sleep o' nights +now; you sleep snugly, you tread safely about the cage they trapped you +into." + +"Then let me alone there. Don't--don't poke me up." + +Donaldson snapped away his cigarette. + +"No. Why should I? But I 'll have none of it. That damned Barnum, +'Society,' shall not catch me and trim my claws and file my teeth." + +He laughed to himself, his lips drawn back a little, rubbing behind the +pup's ears. The dog moved sleepily. + +"Barstow," he continued more calmly, "this is n't a whine. I 'm not +discouraged--it is n't that. I 'm not frightened, nor despondent, nor +worried, understand. I know that things will come out all right by the +time I 'm fifty, but I shall then be fifty. I 'd like a taste of the +jungle now--a week or two of roaming free, of sprawling in the +sunshine, of drinking at the living river, of rolling under the blue +sky. I 'd like to slash around uncurbed outside the pale a little. I +'d like to do it while I 'm young and strong,--I 'd like to do it now." + +"In brief," suggested Barstow, "you desire money." + +"Enough so that I might forget there was such a thing." + +"Well, you 'll have to sell something of yourself to get it." + +"Just so. I won't and there you are. You see I don't fit." + +Donaldson paused a moment and then went on. + +"You know something of my story, you alone of all this grinding city. +You saw me in college and in the law school, where on a coolie diet I +did a man's work. But even you don't know how close to hard pan I was +during those seven years,--down to crackers and water for weeks at a +time." + +"You don't mean to say you went hungry?" + +"Hungry?" laughed Donaldson. "Man dear, there were days when I was +starving! I 've been to classes when I was so weak I could n't push my +pencil. I was hungry, and cold, and lonesome, but at that time I had +my good warm, well-fed dreams, so I did n't mind so much. And always I +thought it would be better next year, but it was n't. None of the +things that come to some men fell to me; it continued the same old +pitiless grind until I began to expect it. Then I said to myself that +it would be different when I got through. But it was n't. I finished, +and you are the only pleasant recollection I have of all that past. +You used to let me sit by your fire and now and then you brought out +cake they had sent you from home." + +"Good Lord," groaned Barstow, "why did n't you let a fellow know?" + +"Why should I let you know? It was my fight. But I 've watched by the +hour your every move about the room, so hungry that my pulse increased +or decreased as you neared or retreated from the closet where you kept +that cake. I 'll admit that this condition was a good deal my +fault,--I had a cursed false pride that forbade my doing for grub what +some of the fellows did. Then, too, I was an optimist; it was coming +out all right in the end. But it did n't and it has n't." + +Donaldson paused. + +"Am I boring you, old man?" + +"No! No! Go on. But if I had suspected--" + +"You could not then have been the friend you were to me,--I 'd have cut +you dead. And understand, I 'm not recalling this now for the purpose +of exciting sympathy. I don't deserve sympathy; I went my own gait and +cheerfully paid the cost, content with my dreams of the future. I +would n't sell one whit of myself. I wouldn't sacrifice one +extravagant belief. I would n't compromise. And I 'm glad I did n't. + +"When I finished my course you lost sight of me, but it was the same +old thing over again. I refused to accept a position in a law office, +because I would n't be fettered. I had certain definite notions of how +a law practice ought to be conducted,--of certain things a decent man +ought not to do. This in turn barred me from a job offered by a street +railway company and another by a promoting syndicate. I took a room +and waited. It has been a long wait, Barstow, a bitter long wait. +Four barren years have gone. I have been hungry again; I have gone on +wearing second-hand clothes; I have slept in second-class surroundings; +my life has resembled life about as much as the naked trees in the Fall +resemble those in June. I have existed after a fashion and learned +that if I skimp and drudge and save for twenty years I can then begin +to do the things I wish to do. But not before,--not before without +compromise. And I 've had enough of the will o' the wisp Future, +enough of the shadowy to-morrows. I 've saved a few hundreds and had a +few hundreds left me recently by the last relative I had on earth. I +'d like to take this and squander it--live a space." + +"Why don't you?" + +"It's the curse of coming back, and the mere fact that your heart +continues to tick forces that upon you. There is only one way--one way +to dodge the mortgage I would place upon my Future by spending these +savings." + +"And that?" + +"Not to let the heart tick on; to bar the future." + +Donaldson moved a bit uneasily. As he did so the pup lost his balance +and fell to the floor. The little fellow struck upon his side but +instantly regained his feet, blinking sleepily at the light. Barstow +took out his watch and squatting nearer him studied him with interest. + +Suddenly the dog's legs crumpled beneath him. He tried to stand, to +make his way to his master, but instantly toppled over on his side. +Donaldson reached for him. That which he lifted was like a limp glove. +He drew back from it in horror, glancing up at Barstow. + +"You see," exclaimed the chemist with evident satisfaction, "almost to +the hour!" + +"But he isn't--" + +"Dead!" + +"Poor Sandy! Poor Sandy!" + +Donaldson gingerly passed his fingers over the dog's hair. He was +curiously unconvinced. There was no responsive lift of the head, no +contented wagging of the tail, but that was the only difference. A +moment ago the dog had been asleep for an hour; now he was asleep for +an eternity. That was the only difference. + +"Well," reflected Barstow, "Sandy had his week; beefsteak, bread and +milk, all he could eat." + +"Is n't that better than being still alive,--hungry in the gutters?" + +"God knows," answered Barstow solemnly, as he picked up the body and +carried it into the next room. "You see what is left." + +As Barstow went out, Donaldson crossed to the chemist's desk. He +fumbled nervously among the bottles until he found the little vial +Barstow had pointed out. He had just time to thrust this into his +pocket and reseat himself before Barstow returned. At the same moment +there was a firm but decidedly feminine knock upon the outer door. The +chemist seemed to recognize it, for instead of his usual impatient +shout he went to the door and opened it. And yet, when the feeble +light revealed his visitor he evinced surprise. + +"What, you, Miss Arsdale?" + +[Illustration: "_What, you, Miss Arsdale?_"] + +"Yes, Professor," she answered, slightly out of breath. "I thought +that if I hurried I might possibly find you here. I am all out of my +brother's medicine and I did not dare wait until to-morrow." + +"I 'm glad you did n't," he responded heartily. "If you will sit down +a moment I will prepare it." + +Donaldson glanced up, irritated to think he had not left earlier and so +escaped the inevitable introduction. He saw a young woman of perhaps +twenty-two or three, and then--the young woman's eyes. They were dark, +but not black, a sort of silver black like gun metal. They were, he +noted instantly, apparently more mature than the rest of her features, +as is sometimes true when the soul grows out of proportion to the +years. Her hair was of a reddish brown; brown in the shadows, a golden +red as she stood beneath the gas-jet. She was a little below medium +height, rather slight, and was dressed in a dark blue pongee suit, the +coat of which reached to her ankles. One might expect most anything of +her, thought Donaldson, child or woman. It would no more surprise one +to see her in tears over a trifle than standing firm in a crisis; +bending over a wisp of embroidery, or driving a sixty horse-power +automobile. Of one thing Donaldson thought he could be sure; that +whatever she did she would do with all her heart. + +These and many other fugitive thoughts passed through Donaldson's brain +during the few minutes he was left here alone with her. What was said +he could not remember a minute afterwards; something of the night, +something of the brilliant reflections of the gas-light in the +varicolored bottles, something of the approaching summer. Her thoughts +seemed to be as far removed from this small room as were his own. + +"Your patient is better?" Barstow inquired, when he returned with the +package. + +Her face lightened instantly. + +"Yes," she answered, "much better." + +"Good." He added, "I should n't think it safe for you to be out alone +at night. Have n't there been a good many highway robberies recently +in your neighborhood?" + +"You have heard?" + +"It would be difficult to listen to the newsboys and not hear that. +The last one, a week ago, made the fourth, didn't it?" + +"I don't know. I seldom read the papers. They are too horrible." + +"I will gladly escort you if--" + +"I could n't think of troubling you," she protested, starting at once +for the door. "I 'm in the machine, so I 'm quite safe. Good night." + +With a nod and smile to both men she went out. + +Donaldson himself prepared to go at once. + +"Well, old man," he apologized nervously to the chemist, "pardon me for +boring you so long. It is bad taste I know for a man to air such views +as mine, but it has done me good." + +"Take my advice and forget them yourself. Go into the country. Loaf a +little in the sunshine. Stay a week. I 'm going off for a while +myself." + +"You leave--" + +"Within a few days, possibly. I can't tell." + +"Well, s' long and a pleasant trip to you." + +Donaldson gripped the older man's hand. The latter gazed at him +affectionately, apprehensively. + +"See here, Peter," he broke out earnestly. "There is one thing even +better for you than the country, a thing that includes the sunshine and +everything else worth while in life. I have hesitated about mentioning +it, but this girl who was here made me think of it again. You know I +'m not a sentimental man, Peter?" + +"Unless you have changed. But your panacea?" + +"Love." + +"That's a generic term." + +"Just plain human love, love for a woman like this one who was here. I +wish you knew her. She 'd be good for you; she 'd give your present +self-centred life a broader meaning." + +Donaldson turned away. + +"Barstow," he replied uneasily, "you 're good,--good clear through, but +we move in different worlds. It is n't in me to love as you mean. I +'m too critical, which is to say too selfish." + +"I think you are selfish, Peter," Barstow agreed frankly, "but I don't +think it's your nature. You 've got into the Slough of Despond, and +the only thing that will drag you out of that is love, love of +something outside yourself. Try it." + +Donaldson shook his head. + +"You 're as good as gold," he declared, "but the things which content +you and me are not the same. Good night." + +"Good night. Be sure to drop in again when I get back." + +Donaldson went out the door. He groped his way down the stairs into +the street. Once he swung abruptly on his heel and stared at the +pavement behind him. He thought he heard at his heels the scratching +padded tread of the pup. + + + + +CHAPTER II + +_King of To-day_ + +Donaldson pressed his way along the lighted streets, clutching the vial +in his pocket with the thrill of a man holding the key to fretting +shackles. One week of life with the future eliminated; one week with no +reckoning to be made at the end; one week with every human fetter struck +off; one week in which to ignore every curbing law of futurity and +abandon himself to the joy of the present! The future--even the narrow +bounds of an earthly future--holds men prisoners. A few careless dogs, +to be sure, live their day, blind to the years to come, but that is brute +stupidity. A few brave souls swagger through their prime with some +bravado, knowing the final cost, but willing to pay it by installments +through the dribbling years which follow; but the usury of time makes +that folly. The wise choke such gypsy impulses--admit the mortgage of +the Present to the Future--and surrender the brisk liberty of youth to +the limping freedom of old age. But Donaldson was too thoughtful a man +to belong to either the first or second class and yet of too lusty stuff +to join the third. + +There were now just two doubtful points which checked him in his first +impulse to swallow the deadly elixir at once,--two questions needing +further thought before he would have a clear conscience about it; he must +convince himself a trifle more clearly that he shifted nothing to the +load of those he left behind, and he must make sure that no element of +fear entered into his act. That phrase of Barstow's, "It's quitting not +to stay," smarted a bit. + +In spite of these vital problems, Donaldson was keenly conscious, even +with his wild freedom still nothing but a conception, of sharpened senses +which responded keenly to the lights and sounds about him. This bottle +which he held made him feel like some old time king's messenger who +carried a warrant making him exempt from local laws. He moved among +people whose perplexed thoughts wandered restlessly down the everlasting +vista of the days ahead, and he alone of them all knew the secret of +being untroubled beyond the week. The world had not for ten years +appeared so gay to him. He felt the exhilarating sting of life as he had +when it first surged in upon him at twenty. The very fact that he held +even a temporary solution to his barren days was enough. In the joy of +his almost august scorn of circumstance he forgot the minor difficulties +which still lay before him. + +He turned aside from the direct course to his room into Broadway. It was +the last of May and early evening. The month revealed itself in the warm +night sky and the buoyant spirits of those below its velvet richness. +Spring was in the air--a stimulation as of etherialized champagne. The +spirit of adventure, the spirit of renaissance, the spirit of creation +was abroad once more. Not a cranny in even this sprawling section of +denaturalized earth but thrilled for the time being with budding hopes, +sap-swollen courage, and bright, colorful dreams. Walking beneath the +spitting glare of the arc-lights, through the golden mist flooding from +the store windows, Donaldson hazily saw again the careless unburdened +world of his early youth. He caught the spirit of Broadway and all +Broadway means in the spring. It was a marionette world where +marionettes dance their gayest. Yesterday this would have been to him +nothing but a dead bioscope picture; now, though he still sat an onlooker +in the pit, it was a living human drama at which he gazed. + +Two dark-haired grisettes passed him, their cheeks aglow and their eyes +dancing. They appeared so full of life, so very gay, that he turned to +glance back at them. He found the eyes of the prettier one upon him; she +had turned to look at him. It was long since even so trifling an +intrigue as this had quickened his life. + +As a matter of fact Donaldson always attracted more interest in feminine +eyes than, in his self engrossment, he was ever aware. Even in his shiny +blue serge suit, baggy at the knees and sagging at the shoulders, even in +his shabby hat, he carried himself with an air. Two things about his +person were always as fine and immaculate as though he were a gentleman +of some fortune, his linen and his shoes. But in addition to such slight +externals Donaldson, although not a large man, had good shoulders, a +well-poised head, and walked with an Indian stride from the hips that +made him noticeable among the flat-footed native New Yorkers. He might +have been mistaken for an ambitious actor of the younger school; even for +a forceful young cleric, save for the fact that he smoked his cigarette +with evident satisfaction. + +He followed an aimless course--but a course fairly prickling with new +sensations--until he stood before one of the popular cafés, now +effervescing with sprightly life. He paused here a moment to listen to +the music. A group of well-groomed men and women laughingly clambered +out of a big touring car and passed in before the obsequious attendants. +He watched them with some envy. Music, good food, good wines, laughter, +and bright eyes--the flimsiest vanities of life to be sure--and yet there +was something in his hungry heart that craved them all. Well, ten years +from now perhaps,--his hand fell upon the vial. No. Not ten years from +now, but to-morrow, even tomorrow, he might claim these luxuries! + +He jumped on a car and in thirty minutes stood in the lean, quiet street +into which for three years he had stared from his third floor room. +These quarters seemed now more than ever a parody on home. This row of +genteel structures which had degenerated into boarding houses for the +indigent and struggling younger generation, and the wrecks of the past, +embodied, in even the blank stare of their exteriors, stupid mediocrity. +He fumbled nervously in his pocket for his latch-key, and opening the +door climbed the three stale flights to his room. He lighted both +gas-jets, but even then the gloom remained. He craved more light--the +dazzling light of arc-lamps, the glare reflected from polished mirrors. +Better absolute darkness than this. He turned out the gas and throwing +open his window leaned far out over the sill. Then he concentrated his +thoughts upon the issue confronting him. + +At the end of other colorless days, when he had come back here only to be +tortured by the stretch of gray road before him, he had considered as a +possibility that which now was almost a reality. He had always been +checked by this desire to have first his taste of life and by the +troublesome conviction that there was something unfair about seizing it +in this way. Furthermore, though he could, without Barstow's discovery, +have lived his week and closed it by any one of a dozen effective means, +he realized that he could not trust even himself to fulfill at the +end--no matter how binding the oath--so fearful a decree. A few deep +draughts of joyous life might turn his head. It was as dangerous an +experiment as taking the first smoke of opium, as tampering with the +first injection of morphine, upon the promise of stopping there. No, +before beginning he must set at work some power outside himself which +should be operative even against his will; which should be as final as +death itself. Until to-night this had seemed an impossibility. Now, +with that chief obstruction removed, he had but to consider the ethics of +the question. + +In arguing with Barstow he had been sincere. He believed as he had said +that a man had the right to end the contract so long as he cheated no one +by so doing. All his life he had paid his way like a man, done his duty +like a good citizen, given a fair return for everything he took. He did +not feel himself indebted to his country, his state, his city, nor to any +living man or woman. In one form and another, he had paid. Few men +could claim this as sincerely as Donaldson. He had lived +conscientiously, so very conscientiously in fact that it was as much +rebellion against self-imposed fetters which now drove him on to an +opposite extreme as any bitterness against that society which had spurned +his idealism. He had refused to compromise and learned that the world +uses only as martyrs those who so refuse. The limitations of his nature +were defined by the fact that he withdrew from so self sacrificing an end +as that. But now if he demanded nothing more--if he was tired of this +give and take--why should he not balance accounts? + +Chiefly because there would still be one week to account for--that last +week in which he should demand most. Like an inspiration came the +solution to this, the final difficulty; economically he was wasting a +life; very well, but if he could find a way of not wasting it, of giving +his life to another, then he would have paid even this last bill. In the +excitement of this new idea, he paced his room. If he could give his +life for another! But supposing this were impossible, supposing no +opportunity should offer, it would be something if he held himself open, +offered himself a free instrument of Fate. He could promise--and he knew +he could keep so sacred a promise as this with death approaching in so +inevitable a form,--he could promise to offer himself upon the slightest +pretext, recklessly and without fear, instantly and without thought, to +the first chance which might come to him to give his life for another. +That was the bond he would give to Fate--the same Fate which had produced +him--his life for the life of another. Let society use him so if such +use could be found for him. He would stand ready, would live up to the +spirit and the letter of the bond unhesitatingly. For one week he would +live his life in the present upon that condition--one week with the +eighth day a blank, one week with the whole world his plaything. + +He stared with new eyes from his window to the jumble of houses below, to +the jumble of stars above. The whole world expanded and vibrated before +the intensity of his passion. He was to condense a possible thirty or +forty years into seven days. To-day was the twenty-third of May. By +to-morrow noon he could adjust all his affairs. With nothing to demand +of them in the future it would be an easy matter to cut them off. On +Friday, May twenty-fourth, then, he could begin. This would bring the +end on the thirty-first. + +He considered a moment; was it better to die at noon or at night? An odd +thing for a man to decide, but such details as this might as well be +fixed now as later. It took but a moment's deliberation; he elected to +go out at high noon. There would be dark enough afterwards--possibly an +eternity of dark. He would face the sun with his last gaze; he would +have the mad riot of men and women at midday ringing last in his ears. + +As he drew in deep breaths it was as if he inhaled the whole world. He +felt as though, if he but stepped out sturdily enough, he could foot the +darkness. His head was light; his brain teemed with wild fancies. Then +pressing through this medley he saw for a moment the young woman who had +come to Barstow's laboratory. The effect was to steady him. He +remembered the sweet girlishness of her face, the freshness of it which +was like the freshness of a garden in the early morning. He realized +that she stood for one thing that he could never know. What was it that +he saw now in those strange eyes that left him a bit wistful at thought +of this? There was not a detail of her features, of her dress, of her +speech, that he could not see now as vividly as though she were still +standing before him. That was odd, too. He was not ordinarily so +impressionable. It occurred to him that he would not like her to know +what he was about to do. Bah, he was getting maudlin! + +Late as it was, he left his room and went downtown to his office. He +worked here until daylight, falling asleep in his chair from four to +seven. He awoke fresh, and even more eager than the night before to +undertake his venture. + +There remained still a few men to be seen. He transacted his business +with a brilliant dispatch and swift decision that startled them. He +disposed of all his office furniture, his books, destroyed all his +letters, made a will leaving instructions for the disposal of his body, +and concluded every other detail of his affairs before eleven o'clock. +When he left his office to go back to his room, he had in his pocket +every cent he possessed in the world in crisp new bank notes. It +amounted to twenty-eight hundred and forty-seven dollars. Not much to +scatter over a long life,--not much as capital. Invested it might yield +some seventy dollars a year. But as ready cash, it really stood for a +fortune. It was the annual income at four per cent on over seventy +thousand dollars, the monthly income on eight hundred and forty thousand +dollars, the weekly income on over three million. For seven days then he +could squander the revenue of a princely estate. + +As a matter of fact his position was even more remarkable; he was as +wealthy--so far as his own capacity for pleasure went--as though the +possessor of thirty million. This because of his limitations; he was +barred from travel; barred from the purchase of future holdings; barred +from everything by this time restriction save what he could absorb within +seven days through his five senses. Being an intelligent man of decent +morals and no bad habits, he was also restrained from license and the +gross extravagance accompanying it. But within his own world, there was +not a desire which need remain unsatisfied. + +Back again in his room he summoned his landlady. + +"I am going away," he informed her briefly. "I sha'n't leave any address +and I 'm going to take with me only the few things I can pack into a +dress-suit case. I 'll give you the rest." + +The woman--she had become rather fond of the quiet, gentle third story +front--looked up sympathetically. + +"Have you had bad news?" + +"Bad news? No," he smiled. "Very good news. I 'm going to take a sort +of vacation." + +"Then perhaps you 'll come back." + +"So, I 'm quite sure I shall never come back." + +She watched him at his packing, still puzzled by his behavior. She +noticed that he took nothing but a few trinkets, a handful of linen, and +a book or two. He glanced at his watch. + +"Madame," he announced, offering her his hand, "it is now eleven thirty. +My vacation begins in half an hour. I must hurry. The remainder of +these things I bequeath to you." + +In twenty minutes he was at the Waldorf. He asked for and was allotted +one of the best rooms in the house, for which he paid the suspicious +clerk in advance. When at length he was left alone in his luxurious +apartments, it was still a few minutes before twelve. He drew the vial +from his pocket without fear, without hesitation. He placed his watch +upon the table before him. Then he sat down and wrote out the following +oath: + + +"I, Peter Donaldson, swear by all that I hold most sacred that I will +offer my life freely and without question for the protection of any human +being needing it during these next seven days in which I shall live." + + +He signed this in a bold scrawling hand. It was as simply and earnestly +expressed as he knew how to make it. + +He uncorked the vial and poured the liquid into a glass without a quaver +of his hand. He mixed a little water with it and raised it to his lips. +There he paused, for once again he seemed to see the big, calm eyes of +the girl now staring at him as though in surprise. But this time he +smiled, and with a little lift of the glass towards her swallowed the +liquid at a gulp. + + + + +CHAPTER III + +_The Beginning of the End_ + +Before the bitter taste of the syrup faded from his tongue, Donaldson's +thoughts shifted from the Ultimate to the Now. He was too good a +sportsman to question his judgment by worry when once committed to an +enterprise. The world now lay before him as he had wished it--an +enchanted land in which he could move with as great freedom as a prince +in the magical kingdoms of Arabia. The Present became sharpened to +poignancy. Even as he stood there musing over the marvel of the new +world into which he had leaped--the old thin world of years condensed +into one thick week--he realized that this very wondering had cost him +five precious minutes. A dozen such periods made an hour, two dozen +hours a day--one seventh of his living space. This thought so whetted +his interest that he could have sat on here indefinitely, thrilled to +the marrow by the mere pageant of life as it passed before his eyes on +the street below. The slightest incident was now dramatic; the hurry +of men and women on their way up-town and down-town, the swift movement +of vehicles, the fluttering of birds in the sunshine, the unceasing, +eager flux of life. It was through the eyes of youth he was +looking--for is youth anything more than the ability to live the +irresponsible days as they come? Youth is Omar without his philosophy. +He grew dizzy. Life taken so was too powerful a stimulant. He must +brace himself. + +He settled into one of the big chairs, closing his eyes to the wonders +about him, and tried to think more soberly. He felt as though he must +dull his quickened senses in some way. His unsheathed nerves quivered +back from so direct a contact with life. + +"Quiet, old man, quiet," he cautioned himself. "There 's a lot of +things you wish to do in these next few days. So you must sober +down--you must get a grip on yourself." + +He rose to his feet determinedly. He must work out of such moods as +this. One of the first things for him to do was to buy a decent +personal outfit. As soon as he gave his mind a definite object upon +which to work, his thoughts instantly cleared. It was just some such +matter-of-fact task as this which he needed. + +He went down-stairs, and stepping into a taxicab, was whisked to one of +the large retail stores. He had no time to squander upon a tailor, but +he was successful in securing a good fit in ready-made clothing. He +bought several street suits, evening clothes, overcoats and hats, much +silk underwear--a luxury he had always promised himself in that ghost +future--and an extravagant supply of cravats, gloves, socks, and odds +and ends. He omitted nothing necessary to make him feel a well-dressed +man so far as he could find it ready made. There was nothing conceited +about Donaldson, nothing of the fop, but he enjoyed both the feeling +and the appearance of rich garments. He hired a messenger boy who +announced his name as Bobby and who followed along at his heels, +collecting the bundles and carrying them out to the waiting cab. + +He was a fresh cheeked youngster with a quick interest in things. He +could n't make up his mind whether Donaldson was really an Indian +prince or whether as a result of drinking he merely felt like one. As +time passed and he saw that the man was neither an oriental nor drunk, +his imagination then wavered between accepting him as an English duke +or a member of the Vanderbilt family. + +Donaldson perceived the keen interest the boy was taking in his +purchases, saw the wonder in his eyes grow, based upon a faith that +still accepted Aladdin as an ever-present possibility, and realized +that Bobby was getting almost as much fun out of this game as he +himself. He began to humor him further by consulting his taste in the +matter of ties and waistcoats, though he found that the latter's +sporting instincts led him to colors too pronounced to harmonize with +his own ideas. Still he appreciated the fact that Bobby was indulging +in almost as many thrills as though he were actually holding the purse. +This became especially true when Donaldson allowed the boy to purchase +for himself such articles as struck his fancy. As a matter of fact +there was not so much difference in the present point of view of the +man and the boy; it was to them both a fairy episode. + +They lounged from one store to another, enjoying the lights, the +colors, the beautiful cloths, choosing where they would with all the +abandon of those with genii to serve them. Donaldson was indulging +something more fundamental than his enjoyment of the things themselves; +this was his first taste, as well as Bobby's, of gratifying desires +without worry of the reckoning. His wishes were now stripped to bare +wants. He was free of the skeleton hand of the Future which had so +long held him prisoner--which had frightened him into depriving himself +of all life's garnishings until his condition had been reduced to one +of monastic simplicity without the monk's redeeming inspiration. He +was no longer mocked by the thin cry of "Wait!" + +He moved about this gay store world with a sense of kingly superiority. +He listened indulgently to the idle chatter of the shop girls, the +rattle of the cash boxes, and smiled at the seriousness with which this +business of selling was pressed. What a tremendous ado they made of +living, with year after year, month after month, day after day, looming +endlessly before them! Not an act which they performed, even to the +tying up of a bundle, ended in itself, but was one of an endless vista +of acts. The burden of the Future was upon them. They drooped, poor +bloodless things, beneath the weight of the relentless days before +them. And so this faded present was all their future, too. They saw +nothing of the joyous world which spun around him bright as a new coin. +They were dead, because of the weary days to come, to the magical +brilliancy of the big arc-lights, to the humor and action of the crowd, +to the quick shifts of colors; they were stupefied by this great flux +of life which swept them on day after day to another day. Often +unexpressed, this, but felt dumbly below the chatter and dry laughter. +They waited, waited, circling about in a gray maelstrom until the grave +sucked them in. He himself had been in the clutch of it. But that was +yesterday. + +To-day he saw all that lay unseen before their dulled vision--all the +show with its million actors. He saw for example the pathos in the +patient eyes of the old lady yonder--still waiting at eighty; he caught +the flash of scarlet ribbon beyond, the silent message of the black one +(another long waiting); the muffled laugh and the muffled oath; the +careless eyes that tossed the coin to the counter, the sharp eyes that +followed it, the dead ones that picked it up and threw it into the +nickeled cash box which flew with it to its golden nest; the tread, the +tread, the tread of a thousand feet, the beat, beat, beat of a thousand +hearts. All these things he saw and heard and felt. + +When he had fully replenished his wardrobe he still had several hours +left to him. He remembered a unique book store just off Fifth Avenue +at West Thirty-ninth Street which he had frequently passed, often +lingering in front of the windows to admire quaint English prints. On +cloudy days especially he had often made it a point to walk up there +and breathe in the spirit of sunshine that he found in the green grass +of the old hunting scenes and in the scarlet coats of the +hearty-cheeked men riding to hounds upon their lean horses. + +"Come on," he called enthusiastically to Bobby. "We 've just begun." + +"Gee!" gasped Bobby. "H'aint you spent it all? Have yer gut more +left?" + +"Lots. As much as I can spend until I die." + +The boy's face grew eager. + +"Say," he asked confidentially. "Where 'd yer git it?" + +"Earned it,--the most of it. Sweat for it and starved for it and +suffered for it! And I earned with it the right to spend it, the +_right_, I tell you!" + +Bobby shrank back a little before such fierceness. The boy felt a +faint suspicion of what had not before occurred to him: that the man +was crazy. But the next second the gentle smile returned to soften the +tense mouth, and the boy's fear vanished. No one could fear Donaldson +when he smiled. + +In front of the modest shop with its quaint sign swinging above the +door, they paused. Donaldson found it difficult to believe that he now +had the right to enter. To him this store had never been anything else +but a part of the scenery of life, a part of the setting of some +foreign world at which he gazed like a boy from the upper galleries of +a theatre. He had rebelled at this, looking with some hostility at the +well groomed men and women who accepted it with such assurance that it +was for them alone, but now he realized the pettiness of that position. +With a few unmortgaged dollars in his pocket, he was instantly one of +them. He could stride in and use the quiet luxury of the place as his +own. + +For half an hour then, he browsed about the sun-lit shop, selecting +here and there bits with which to brighten his room during the week. +He picked out an engraving or two, several English prints which seemed +to welcome him like old friends, and a marine in water color because of +the golden blue in it. His bill exceeded that of the department +stores, and Bobby confidently delivered himself of the opinion that he +had been soaked, "good and plenty." + +From here Donaldson began an extravagant course down Fifth Avenue that +left the boy, who watched him closely every time he paid his bill, +convinced that he had on his hands nothing short of an Arabian Prince +such as his sister had told him of when he had thought her fooling. +They wandered from book store to art store, to Tiffany's, to an antique +shop back to another book store and then to where in his lean days he +had seen a bit of Dresden that brought comfort to him through its +dainty beauty. He took for his own now all the old familiar friends +who had done what they could through store windows to brighten those +days. They should be a part of him; share his week with him. There +was that old hammered copper tray which in the sun glowed like a +cooling ember; there was that hand-illumined volume of Keats which he +had so long craved; there was that vase of Cloisonne, that quaint piece +of ivory browned with age, that old pewter mug reflecting the burden of +its years in its sober surface. All these things he had long ago known +as his own, and now he came to claim them. + +"Mine, all mine!" he exclaimed to the boy. "And was n't it decent of +them to wait for me?" + +"They was waitin' for you all right," agreed Bobby. "They seen you +comin'. They waits fer the easy marks." + +"Yes," returned Donaldson, ignoring the latter's sarcasm. "They saw me +coming when yet I was a great way off. They knew me, so they waited. +I told them all to wait and some day I would come to them." + +"D' yuh mean that ivory monkey waited?" + +"For nearly a year." + +Bobby did not reply, but his respect for Donaldson fell several degrees. + +"There is one thing more, boy," exclaimed Donaldson; "I need flowers." + +He ordered sent to his room two dozen rich lipped roses, a half dozen +potted plants, and a small conservatory of ferns. Then he started back +to the hotel. + +It took the boy several trips to carry the bundles upstairs even when +they were piled to his eyes. When he finished, Donaldson held out his +hand. + +"I 've had a mighty pleasant afternoon with you," he said. "And I hope +we 'll meet again. What's your number?" + +"Thirty-four fifty-seven." + +"Well, thirty-four fifty-seven, give us your hand in case we lose one +another for good." + +The boy gingerly extended his grimy paw. When he removed it, he found +himself clutching a ten-dollar bill. + +Donaldson remained in his room only long enough to arrange his +treasures and slip into his evening clothes. There was too much +outside to be enjoyed for him to appreciate yet the luxury of his +indoor surroundings. He had a passion for people, for crowds of +people. He had thought at first that he might attend the theatre, but +he realized now that the stage puppets were but faint reflections of +the stirring drama all about him--the playwright's plot less gripping +than that in which he himself was the central figure. To pass through +those doors would be more like stepping out of a theatre into the +leaden reality of life as he had seen it before yesterday. + +For an hour or more he rubbed shoulders with the press that was on its +way to find relief from their own lives in the mimic lives of others +behind the footlights. To him in the Now it was comedy enough to watch +them as they filed in; it would have been an anticlimax to have gone +further. He craved good music, but a search of the papers did not +reveal any concert of note, so he sought one of the popular +restaurants, and, choosing a table in a corner, devoted himself to the +ordering of his dinner. He was hungry and took a childish delight in +selecting without first studying the price list. + +When he had concluded, he took a more careful survey of the room. His +wandering gaze was checked by the profile of the woman whose eyes had +haunted him ever since he had first seen them in Barstow's laboratory. +It was Miss Arsdale, and opposite her sat a tall, thin-visaged young +man. As the latter turned and presented a full face view, Donaldson +was held by the peculiarity of his expression. His hot, beadlike eyes +burned from a white sensitive face that was almost emaciated; his thin +lips were set as though in grim resolution; while even his brown hair +refused to lend repose to the face, but, sticking out in cowlicks, +added to the whole effect of nervousness still further exaggerated by +the restless white hands. Over all, like a black veil, was an +expression as of one haunted by a great fear. The man both repelled +and interested Donaldson. There was a shiftiness about the eyes that +excited suspicion, and yet there was in them a silent plea that asked +for sympathy. Save for the eyes, the face had a certain poetic beauty +due to its fine modeling and its savage intensity. The longer +Donaldson studied it, the more sympathy he had for it. He had the +feeling that the fellow had gone through some such crisis as his own. + +But it was difficult to define the girl's relationship to him. There +was not the slightest trace of family resemblance between them, and yet +the man was hardly of a type that she would choose for so intimate a +friend as her presence here with him suggested. She did not talk much, +but seemed rather to be on the alert to protect him as from some unseen +danger which appeared to hang over him. She followed his eyes wherever +they wandered, and clearly took but little pleasure in being here. + +Donaldson found the oddly matched couple absorbing his interest not +only in the other guests but also in his dinner. He finished in almost +the undue haste with which ordinarily he devoured his daily lunch and +with scarcely more appreciation of the superior quality of these richer +dishes. With his black coffee he rolled a cigarette. The familiar old +tobacco brought him back to himself again so that for a few minutes he +was able to give himself up to the swirling strains of the Hungarian +orchestra. But even through the delicious intoxication of the waltz, +the personality of this girl asserted itself to him. He got the +impression now that she herself was in some danger. He wished that he +had asked Barstow more about her. She had not noticed him as yet. He +had watched closely to see if she turned. As he studied her it seemed +certain that she was by no means enjoying herself in her present +company. If given half an opportunity he would go over and speak to +her. + +[Illustration: _As he studied her it seemed certain that she was by no +means enjoying herself in her present company_] + +He wished to see her eyes again. He remembered them distinctly. They +were not black--not gray, but black with the faintest trace of silver, +like starlight on a deep pool. The whites were very clear and blue +tinted. Just then she raised her head and looked at him as though she +had been called. At that moment the orchestra swept their strings in a +minor and swirled off in a mystic dance like that of storm ghosts in +the tree-tops. It caught him up with the girl and for a measure or so +bore them along like leaves, in a new comradeship. To them the light +laughter was hushed; to them the heavy smoke clouds vanished; to them +the Babel of other personalities was no more. They two had been lifted +out of this and carried hand in hand to some distant gypsy region. She +was the first to shake herself free. She started, nodded pleasantly to +him, and turned back to her companion, with a little shiver. + +That was all, but it left Donaldson strangely moved. He paid his check +at once and prepared to leave, hoping that in passing her table he +might find his opportunity to stop a moment. But they too rose as he +was getting into his coat and passed out ahead, the young man evidently +trying to hurry her. + +On the sidewalk Donaldson found them waiting at the curb for a big +automobile which swooped out of the dark to meet them. Making a +pretext of stopping to roll a cigarette, he paused. The girl stepped +into the machine, but her companion instead of following at once gave +an order to the chauffeur. The latter left his seat and the girl +expostulated. The chauffeur apparently hesitated, but, the younger man +insisting, he hurried past Donaldson into the café. Unconsciously +Donaldson moved nearer. He felt a foreboding of danger and a curious +sense of responsibility. He caught a glimpse of the white face of the +girl leaning forward towards her companion--heard her cry as the fellow +stepped into the chauffeur's seat--and, yielding to some impulse, +jumped to the running-board just as the man threw on the power. + +The machine leaped forward with a shock that nearly tossed him off. To +save himself he sprang to the empty seat beside the girl. The man at +the wheel had apparently not noticed him; he had plenty to occupy his +mind to control the machine which was tearing along at the rate of +fifty miles an hour. + +The girl leaned forward and gripped Donaldson's arm. + +"You must stop him," she said. "He has lost himself again! Do you +understand? You must stop him!" + + + + +CHAPTER IV + +_Kismet_ + +The machine swirled around a corner at a speed that swung the rear +wheels clear of the ground. It righted itself as a frightened dog +scrambles to his legs, and shot on up the avenue, which was for the +moment fortunately clear of other vehicles. It took a crossing at a +single leap, missed a dazed pedestrian by an inch, and shot on as mad a +thing as the man who ran it. It was clearly only a matter of minutes +that this could last. Bending low, the madman, with still enough +cunning left to know how to manage the machine, held it to its highest +speed. But his arm was weakening. He did not have the physical +strength to hold steady the vibrating steering gear. The big car began +to tack. + +Donaldson saw the girl's eyes upon him. They were confident with an +instinct that is woman's sixth sense. A man has not lived until he has +seen that look in a woman's eyes. Nor has a man suffered until he +realizes that he must disappoint that look. Donaldson had never been +in an automobile in his life. He knew no more how to control one than +he did an aëroplane. And the arc-lights were flashing by at the rate +of one every four seconds--and a madman at the wheel--and a woman's +eyes upon him. + +Donaldson was naturally a man of some courage, but it is doubtful if +under ordinary conditions this situation would not have brought the +cold sweat to his brow. As it was, he was conscious of only two +emotions; an appreciation of the grim humor which had called upon him +so early in his week to fulfill his oath, and a grinding resentment at +the Fate which had thrust him into a position where he should show so +impotent before those eyes. As far as personal fear went, it was nil. +He was as oblivious to possible pain, possible death, as though he were +now merely recalling a dream. Such contingencies had been decided the +moment he swallowed the scarlet syrup. Fear had been annihilated in +him because the most he had to lose was this next six days. He was too +good a gambler to resent, in a fair game, the turn of the cards against +him. + +He stepped past her and out upon the running board, feeling his way +along to the empty seat. The machine swayed dizzily. The wind tore +off his hat and tugged at his coat, nearly dragging him to the ground +which flowed beneath him as smoothly as a fly belt. He could not have +made that distance yesterday with the assurance of to-day. He swung +himself into the empty seat. + +He had but one thing in mind; he knew that these big machines, in spite +of their tremendous power, were as nicely adjusted as watches. They +had their vital spots, their hearts. If only he could find this +vulnerable place! At his feet he saw a small wooden box fastened to +the dash-board. He did not know what it was, but on a blind chance he +kicked it again and again until it splintered beneath his heels. The +machine swerved across the road and he fought with the crazed man for +the possession of the wheel. He was strong and he had this much at +heart, but the other had the super-human strength of the crazed. Even +as they struggled the machine began to slow down and within a few +hundred yards came to a standstill. In destroying the coil box he had +reached the heart. + +The driver turned upon him, but Donaldson managed to secure a good grip +and dragged the fellow to the ground. The latter was up in a minute +and faced him with that gleam of devilish hatred that marks the foiled +maniac. The girl started to separate the two men, but it was +unnecessary; she saw the murder fade from her companion's face before +the calm untroubled gaze of the other. She saw his strained body +relax, she saw his fists unclench, and she saw him shrink back to her +side trembling in fright. The demon in him had been quelled by the +unflinching eyes of the sane man. + +There was, luckily, no gathering of a crowd, for no one had witnessed +the struggle in the machine. A few steps beyond, the blue and red +lights of a drugstore stained the sidewalk. The girl seized the man's +arm and turned to Donaldson. + +"He is my brother," she explained. "We must leave the machine and get +him home at once. Can we order a cab from somewhere?" + +"At the drugstore we can telephone for one and also reach your garage." + +"Would you mind attending to it?" she asked anxiously. "We will wait +here,--in the car." + +He hesitated. + +"I don't like to leave you here alone," he said. + +"I shall be quite safe--really." + +"But in the drugstore it is warmer, and--" + +"No, no," she broke in hurriedly. "I--I would much rather not." + +Without further parley he took the address of the garage where the +machine had been hired, and walked on to the drugstore. He was back +again in five minutes, relieved to find her safe and the brother still +quiet. While waiting for the cab it occurred to him that he should +also have telephoned for a physician to meet them when they reached the +house. But Miss Arsdale objected at once to this. + +"I think we had better not. But if you would--it's asking a great deal +of you--if you yourself would ride back with us." + +"I had intended to do that," he assured her. + +The cab arrived within a few minutes, and she gave an address off +Riverside Drive. It took half an hour to make the run. On the journey +the three remained silent save for a few commonplaces, for conversation +seemed to have a disquieting effect upon young Arsdale. The lighted +houses flashed past the carriage windows in the soft spring dark, +looking like specks of gold upon black velvet. A certain motherliness +pervaded the night; there was a suggestion of birth everywhere. +Donaldson responded to it with a growing feeling of anticipation. +Sitting here confronting this girl he was swept back to a primal joy of +things, to a sense of new worlds. He felt for a moment as though back +again with her in that gypsy kingdom into which the music had borne +them. + +The cab swung from the boulevard and, after following for a few moments +a somewhat tortuous course among side streets, stopped before an iron +gate which stretched across the drive leading to the house. Either +side of the gate a high hedge extended. The three stepped out and +Donaldson paused a moment before dismissing the cabby. The girl saw +his hesitancy and in her turn seemed rapidly to revolve some question +in her own mind. A quick motion on the part of her brother determined +her. In the shadow of the house he began to show ill-boding symptoms. + +"I wonder if--if you would come in for a minute," she asked in an +undertone. + +Without answer he dismissed the driver and followed her through a small +gate in the hedge, down a short walk, to a brown-stone house with its +entrance on a level with the ground. The house was unlighted and the +lower windows were covered with wooden shutters. In the midst of its +brilliantly lighted neighbors it looked severe and inhospitable. The +girl drew a key from her purse and, opening the door, stepped inside +and switched on the lights. Donaldson found himself in a large, +cheerful looking hall finished in Flemish oak. A broad Colonial +staircase led from the end and swung upstairs in a graceful turn which +formed a landing. The floor was covered with rugs which he recognized +as of almost priceless value. Several oil portraits in heavy frames +ornamented the walls. It took but a glance to see that they were of +the same family and to recognize in all their thin faces an expression +that he had caught in young Arsdale himself--a haunting fear as of some +family tragedy. Through an uncurtained door to the right opened what +appeared to be a library, while to the left--Donaldson turned his back +for a moment upon Arsdale. And the man, freed from the eyes, threw +himself upon Donaldson's shoulder. The woman shouted a warning, but it +was too late. She clutched at her brother's clothes, pulling with all +her strength, crying, + +"Ben! Ben!" + +Donaldson slipped upon the polished floor and Arsdale, throwing his arm +about his victim's neck, secured a very effective strangle hold. It +looked bad for Donaldson. On the smooth waxed floor he could secure no +purchase by which to regain his feet and he could not reach the fellow +with either fist. He was as helpless as though he had the Old Man of +the Mountain upon his back. The world began to swim before his eyes; +the cries of the girl to sound in the distance. Then he smelled the +biting aroma of spirits of ammonia and felt the clutch upon his throat +loosen. He broke free, got upon his feet and found Arsdale rubbing his +smarting eyes while the girl stood over him, frightened at what she had +done, with the empty bottle in her hand. + +"I've blinded him!" she cried, drawing back in horror. + +"Thanks. You 've also prevented him from killing me." + +"Don't say that--not kill!" + +"But the man is n't responsible." + +"That is true, but--even when he is like this he would n't do any harm." + +His throat was still sore from the press of the fellow's fingers, but +he nodded politely. + +Donaldson perceived that she was fighting off a fear. It made the +danger seem even more imminent. He had noted with surprise that no +servants had appeared. This gave a particularly uncanny atmosphere to +the big house, making it look as deserted as though empty of furniture. + +"We must get him upstairs and into bed," she said. "Will you help him?" + +The man was choking and writhing upon the floor in his pain. Donaldson +stooped and wiped off his eyes. Then he placed his arm about him and +half dragged and half carried him up the stairs as she led the way. +She preceded them up two flights, switching on the lights at each +landing, and entered a small, simply furnished room in the middle of +the house,--a room, Donaldson was quick to note, having only a skylight +for a window. Here he dashed cold water into the man's face and placed +him on the bed. As soon as the pain subsided, Miss Arsdale +administered two spoonfuls of a darkish brown medicine which seemed to +have instantly a quieting effect. + +It was the sight of the bottle that again recalled to Donaldson the +fact of his own peculiar position in life. Even at the risk of +appearing rude, he was forced to look at his watch. It was a few +minutes after eleven o'clock. Well, what of it? Had not these hours +been full--had he not had more of real living than during the entire +last decade? He had faced death twice, he had met a woman, and he now +stood at the threshold of a mystery that seemed to demand him. There +was no other interest in his life to occupy him--nothing to prevent him +from throwing himself heart and soul into the case, lending what aid +was possible to this woman. Furthermore, he was clear of all selfish +interests; he need bother himself with no queries of what this might be +worth to him. But it was worth something, it was worth something to +have a woman look at him as this girl had done--with unquestioning +trust in a crisis. + +She glanced up as he replaced his watch. + +"Oh," she exclaimed, "I must detain you no longer!" + +"My time is absolutely yours," he reassured her. "I was merely curious +to know how old I have grown." + +She did not understand. + +"I 'm eleven hours old." + +Again she did not understand, but in turning to care for her brother +she ceased to puzzle over the enigma. Shortly afterwards the patient +closed his eyes and fell into a deep sleep. Immediately the girl led +the way on tiptoe from the room. She locked the door behind her and +preceded Donaldson downstairs. + +Once below there seemed nothing for him to do but to leave, but, quite +aside from the fact that he felt himself to be really needed here, he +was as reluctant to depart as a man is to awake from a pleasant dream. +She had picked up a white silk Japanese shawl and thrown it about her +shoulders. + +He turned to her with the question, + +"Is there nothing more I can do for you? Is there no one I may summon +to help you?" + +"I can manage very well now, thank you." + +"But you can't stay here alone with the boy in this condition." + +"Why not?" + +Her reply came like a rebuke of his impetuous presumption. + +"It is hardly safe for you," he declared more quietly. + +"It is perfectly safe," she answered evenly. + +"I suppose there are servants in the house upon whom you can call," he +hazarded. + +She looked a bit embarrassed. + +"If I should need any one there is my old housekeeper, Marie," she +answered. + +Marie was upstairs, sick in bed with rheumatism, too feeble to move +without help. But to confess this fact to him would be almost to force +him to stay. As welcome a relief as it would be to have him remain +until she had administered the medicine once more, she shrank from +placing him in a position where he would have no alternative. + +She roused herself from the temptation and extended her hand. + +"Thank you is a weak phrase for all you 've done," she said. + +"It is enough." + +He took the hand but he did not say good night. So she withdrew it, +her cheeks a bit redder, her eyes, a trick they had when brilliant, +growing silver. + +He had been studying her keenly, and now removing his overcoat, he said +decidedly, + +"I shall stay a little longer." + +She seemed to hesitate a moment, meeting his eyes quite frankly. Then, +with a little sigh of relief she stepped into the library. + + + + +CHAPTER V + +_The Inner Woods_ + +In the fireplace there were birch logs ready to be kindled. At her +suggestion he put a match to them for the cheeriness they gave while +she lighted a green shaded lamp which radiated a soft glow over the +heavy mahogany library table upon which it stood. The room slowly +warmed out of the gloom and shadows as though the three walls closed in +nearer to the fire. Just outside the radius of warmth the bookbindings +shone gold in the dark. In a frame six inches deep the ghostly +outlines of a portrait of Horace Arsdale flickered near and away as the +flames rose and fell. + +Miss Arsdale came to a chair a little to the left of Donaldson, +brushing back from her eyes the soft hair which in the firelight shone +like burnished copper. He smiled at the strange chance which led her +to seat herself almost directly in front of the grandfather's clock, so +that facing her he faced the pendulum which ticked out to him the cost +of each new picture he had of her. It was now within a few minutes of +midnight--one half of his first day gone before he had more than raised +the glass to his lips. He felt for a moment the petulant annoyance of +a man imposed upon--as though Time were playing him unfairly; until +today the hours had dragged heavily enough; now they sped like arrows. + +[Illustration: _Facing her he faced the pendulum which ticked out to +him the cost of each new picture he had of her_] + +And yet he did not count the time as ill spent. Though he had +anticipated nothing of this sort, he found himself enjoying the +situation with as deep a satisfaction as anything which had so far +occurred in the swift hours which had sped by since noon. Outside lay +the quick-moving throngs which he so loved, in his room there waited +for him the gentle marine, the bit of brown ivory, the luxury of deep +blooming roses, and yet he was not conscious of missing them. Those +things had been waiting for him all through the long tedious years, and +this--well perhaps this, too, had been waiting for him. He wondered if +this effect was produced by the surroundings which were much as he +would have chosen them if he had possessed the means from the first. +The sober good taste of the room, its quiet richness, its air of being +a part of several generations of men of culture pleased him. + +He turned to the girl again. She too was one with this past of the +room. The straight nose with its shell-like nostrils as sensitive to +her thoughts as her eyes, the sharp cut corners of her mouth, and the +fine hair over her white forehead dated back to women whose features +had long been refined through their souls. All that he wished to crowd +into a week, they had possessed for a hundred years or more. It showed +even in this girl who had not yet come into the fulness of her +womanhood. + +She sat uneasily far forward on her chair, leaning toward the flames as +though fearful of what might happen next. The light played upon her +hair and her white face, making her seem almost a thing of some +lighter, spirit world. + +"I don't feel that I ought to detain you," she said, breaking the +silence which he for his part would have been willing to continue, +"but"--she looked up at him with a half-shamed smile--"I have n't the +courage to refuse your kindness." + +"You have the right to accept it merely as a woman," he assured her. + +"But I should n't need help," she answered with some spirit. "I don't +know what has come over me. I 'm just afraid of being alone." + +"It is n't good for any one to be alone." + +"You know?" + +He answered slowly, + +"Yes, I know." + +Did any one know better? The curse of it had driven him to secure at +any cost the broader comradeship of men and women which, if it does not +come through some more subtle means such as she now seemed to suggest +to him, can be found in that cruder relationship always at the command +of those with some fortune. The thought swept over him that if he had +known her before yesterday, he could never have felt alone again. But +what had he to do with yesterday any more than with to-morrow? + +"It is n't that there is anything to be afraid of here," she protested, +to ward off any suspicions that might be lurking in his mind. "It is +n't that. I 'm perfectly safe." + +He nodded, though he by no means agreed with her. + +"It would be just the same," she insisted with almost too much +emphasis, "if Ben were well. I think I must have become panic stricken +with myself." + +He frowned. Then he broke out fiercely, + +"It's the feel of all the silent people in the city around you, +perhaps. They are ghosts, these strangers,--human ghosts with fingers +which clutch your throat if you are n't careful. You sense them in New +York as nowhere else." + +She glanced up quickly, + +"That's an odd idea," she replied. "The loneliness comes then because +you are n't really alone." + +"Yes--here in New York." + +"But that is n't true of the woods," she asserted. + +"You have been much among the trees?" he asked quickly, his voice +softening. + +"Not very much. But enough to learn to love them. Especially the +inner woods." + +He knew what she meant--the forests where things still grow for the sky +and the beasts and not for man; where man may come as guest but not as +master. + +"No," he answered, "one never feels alone there." + +"In there," she faltered, trying to express vague thoughts which yet +were most real to her, "everything seems to be normal." + +He studied her with increasing interest and a growing sense of +comradeship. Her eyes were wonderful as she sat chin in hands, gazing +into the fire, lost in some pleasant picture of the past. When he +looked into them, they caught him up again as they had done in the +café. They swept him to the rhythm of some haunting music back to the +days when his blood had run strong--back to the beauty of the hills at +twenty when he had not felt big enough by himself to absorb their full +marvel. In a dim mystical way he had realized even then that the +keenest edge of their meaning was escaping him. The blue sky above the +trees had seemed like the laughing eyes of a woman and the rustle of +leaves like the whisper of her skirt. He had laughed back boldly then, +feeling in the pride of his strength little need of them. + +Now the eyes of this girl, and the soft modeling of every line of her, +filled him with an infinite tenderness for those forgotten hours. It +was as though she cleared away the intervening years and made him face +the fragrant Spring again. Without diminishing one whit of his +vigorous enjoyment of life, she added an element of refinement to it. + +Half in fear of what this might mean, he shook himself free of the +mood, and moving a chair to the other side of the fire sat down. +Behind her the old clock still ticked as though in malicious +appreciation of the situation. + +She clung to the subject of the woods as though in it she found relief. +She wished to hear more of it from him. It made him appear less a +stranger. When he spoke of these things he went back into her own +past--into the most beautiful, intimate part of it. He was the only +man other than Mr. Arsdale that she could have endured to associate +with those days. She felt at ease with him there, and this made her +feel that he had more right to be here now. His eager face softened +when he spoke of those things. There was in it then none of that +fierceness which had for a moment startled her when he spoke of the +loneliness he had found here in New York. At that moment he had looked +like a man at bay. He had challenged life bitterly. It was not in +keeping with the kindly generous strength of his mouth and chin. + +"Tell me," she asked him, "of some of your days in the woods." + +Yesterday he could not have complied. Those days had seemed dead and +buried. Now he was in the mood for it. He found it pleasant, sitting +here, to go back. + +Each hour stood out as bright with sunshine as a Sorolla. It was as +though they had sprung to life at a call from her--had come to bring +her ease. He talked at random of brooks that start nowhere and go +nowhere, save over white stones and past watercress; of thin ribbed +ferns and of scarlet bunchberries. He told her of a stream he knew, +where, if you lie very quiet in the moss, you see speckled trout dart +over white pebbles into the darker water beneath the lichened rocks. +He told her of the shallows, and pools, and falls you find if you keep +to its banks for the miles it sings by the grave trees. He told her of +mountain tops where he had lain near the stars and watched the noon +clouds sweep half a county with their big shadows. He told her of old +wood roads he had followed through the young maples and birches and +evergreens and pines--roads which lay silent all day long and all night +long, month after month, ready for the feet which might tread it once +in a year. + +So she took him back again to the redolent shadows, back to the +silences where dreams are born. Here he came upon other things--the +old path gay flowered with illusions which led him toward that future-- + +A future? What had he to do with a future? Was he rushing headlong +thus soon into another pit as bad as that from which he had just +escaped? The Future was Now--not one minute, not one second beyond. +He was here before an open fire, with this girl in the background, with +beautiful rugs and pictures about him, with a great seething, +struggling, future-chained horde outside, and the eternal stars +overhead. In the midst of it he was free, and this was enough for him +to know. Now! Now! The girl was now and her eyes were now and the +flush of her velvet cheek was now! + + + + +CHAPTER VI + +_The Shadow on the Portraits_ + +He was roused by the sound of her voice and the single stroke of the +clock back of her. It was one, and he could have sworn that they had +been sitting here less than fifteen minutes. + +"I must go to Ben now," she said. "It is time to give him more +medicine." + +"I will go with you." + +"No," she decided, "I think I had better go alone. A stranger might +frighten him." + +He hesitated with an uneasy sense of foreboding, but she moved past him +determinedly and went up the stairs, leaving him alone with the +haunting picture upon the wall. He moved nearer to study it more in +detail. He caught a trace of resemblance to the boy but none to the +girl. The features were more rugged than those of young Arsdale, and +the forehead was broader and higher, but the mouth was the same--thin, +tense, and yet with no strength of jaw behind it. The cheek bones were +rather high and the eyes set deep but over-close together. It was a +face, thought Donaldson, of which great things might be expected, but +upon which nothing could be depended. The man would move eratically +but brilliantly, like those aquatic fireworks which dart in burning +angles along the face of the water--scarlet serpents shooting to the +right, the left, in their gorgeous irresponsible course towards the +dark. + +As he stood there Donaldson thought he heard the soft tread of feet in +the hall and the click of the outside door as it was opened. He +listened intently, but he heard nothing further. He crossed the +library and looked out. The door was ajar. He flung it open and +peered down the driveway; there was nothing to be seen but the dark +mass of hedge bounding the yard. He went to the foot of the stairs and +listened; there was no sound above. + +The wind may have blown open the door if it had been unlatched, and the +imagined footsteps in the hall may have been nothing but the rustling +of the hangings, but still he was not satisfied. He ventured up the +first flight and paused to listen. He thought he heard a movement +above, but was not quite sure. He neither wished to intrude nor to +frighten her unnecessarily, but he called her name. At first he +received no response, and then, with a sense of relief that made him +realize how deep his fear had been, he saw her come to the head of the +stairs. The light came only from the sick room, so that he could not +see her very clearly. She took a step towards them, and then he +noticed that she swayed and clutched the banister. He was at her side +in three bounds. + +"What is the trouble?" he demanded. + +"If you will steady me a bit," she answered. + +"Are you hurt?" + +"Just dazed a little. Did you stop him?" + +"Stop him? Then some one did go out?" + +"As I opened the door Ben rushed by me and--I fell down. I hoped you +might see him and hold him!" + +"I was at the other end of the library. He must have stolen out on +tiptoe. But you are faint." + +"I am stronger now." + +She started down the stairs with the help of the banister, holding +herself together with remarkable self control. As they came into the +light he saw that she was very pale, but she insisted that she needed +nothing but a breath of cool air. He helped her to the door and here +she sat down for a moment upon the step. + +"I might take a look around the grounds," Donaldson suggested. + +"It is quite useless. He is not here." + +"Then you have an idea where he has gone!" + +She hesitated a moment. + +"Yes," she answered. + +He waited, but she ventured nothing further. + +"I want you to feel," he said quietly, "that you may call upon me for +anything you wish done. My time is my own--quite my own. I place it +at your service." + +She turned to study his face a moment. It was clean and earnest. It +bade her trust. Yet to ask him to do what lay before her was to bring +him, a stranger, into the heart of her family affairs. It was to +involve her in an intimacy from which instinctively she shrank. But +pressing her close was the realization of the imminent danger +threatening the boy. This was no time for quibbling--no time for nice +shadings of propriety. Even if this meant a sacrifice of something of +herself, she must cling to the one spar that promised a chance for her +brother's safety. As Donaldson's eyes met hers, she felt ashamed that +she had hesitated even long enough for these thoughts to flash through +her brain. + +"The boy uses opium," she said without equivocation. + +The bare naming of the drug rolled up the curtain before the whole +tragedy which had been suggested by the portrait in the library; it +explained every detail of this wild night except her presence here +practically alone with the crazed young man. It accounted for her +objection to waiting in the drugstore; it solved the mystery of her +fear of the city shadows. Had he suspected this, he would no more have +allowed her to go up those stairs alone than he would have permitted +her to go unescorted into the cell of a madman. + +"I 'm sorry for him," he murmured. "Then he has gone straight to Mott +Street?" + +"I 'm afraid so. He has been there once before." + +"The habit has been long upon him?" + +"It is inherited. This is the third generation," she admitted, turning +her head aside in shame. + +"But he himself--" + +"Only after his father's death. The father feared this and watched him +every minute. He died thinking the danger was passed, but he left me a +prescription which had been of help to him. It was given him by our +old family physician who has since died. Mr. Barstow knew Dr. Emory +and so has always prepared it for me." + +"How long this last time did he go without the drug?" + +"It is three months since the first attack. This medicine tided him +over five days. He was nervous to-night and begged me to go out to +dinner with him. I 'm afraid it was unwise--the lights and the music +excited him." + +"But you have n't been here alone with him?" + +"There is Marie." + +"Two women alone with a man in that condition--it is n't safe." + +"You don't understand how good he has been. He has struggled hard. He +has allowed me to lock him up--to do everything to help him. He has +never been like this before." + +"It is n't safe for you," he repeated. "Are there no relatives I may +summon?" + +"None," she answered. "I am his cousin--his sister by adoption. There +are no other relatives." + +"No friends?" + +"I would rather fight it out alone," she answered firmly. "I don't +wish my friends to know about this," she added hastily, as though to +avoid further discussion along this line. + +"It was careless of me to leave the door open as I went in." + +"It was lucky for you. He might have--" + +"Don't!" she shuddered. + +He waited a moment. + +"You are brave," he declared, "but this is too big a problem for you to +manage. He should have been placed in the hands of a physician." + +"No," she interrupted. "No one must know of this. I trust you to tell +no one of this." + +He thought a moment. + +"Very well. But in order to locate him now, it will be necessary to +call in the help of the police." + +"The police!" she exclaimed in horror. "No! You must promise me you +will not do that." + +She rose to her feet all excitement. + +"They would not arrest him," he assured her. "They would simply hold +him until we came for him." + +"I would rather not. I would rather wait until he comes back himself +than do that." + +He could not understand her fear, but he was bound to respect it. + +"Very well," he answered quietly. "But I have a friend whom I can +trust. You do not mind if I enlist his help?" + +"He is of the police?" she asked suspiciously. + +"He is a friend," he replied. "It is as a friend he will do this for +me." + +"Oh," she answered confused, "I don't know what to do! But I feel that +I can trust you--I _will_ trust you." + +"Thank you. Then I must begin work at once. There is a telephone in +the house?" + +Her face brightened instantly. He seemed so decisive and sure. The +fact that he was so immediately active, that he did not wait until +daylight, when conditions would be best, but began the search in the +face of apparent impossibility, brought her immediate confidence. She +liked a man who would, without quoting the old saw, hunt for a needle +in a haystack. + +She directed him to the telephone, and he summoned a cab. He returned +with the question, + +"Do you know how much money he had?" + +"Money? He had none." + +"Then," said Donaldson, "won't he come back of himself? Opium is one +thing for which there is no credit." + +"I 'm afraid not. He has been away before without money, and--" + +She stopped as abruptly as though a hand had been placed over her +mouth. Her face clouded as though from some new and half forgotten +fear. She glanced swiftly at Donaldson, as though to see if he had +read the ellipsis. + +When she spoke again it was slowly, each word with an effort. + +"My pocket-book was upstairs. It is possible that he borrowed." + +Donaldson knew the meaning of that. Kleptomania was a characteristic +symptom. Victims of this habit had gone even further in their hot +necessity for money. + +"Perhaps," she suggested hesitatingly, "perhaps this search to-night +may inconvenience you financially. I wish you to feel free to spend +without limit whatever you may find helpful. We have more than ample +funds. Unfortunately I have on hand only a little money, but as soon +as I can get to my bank--" + +"I have enough." He smiled as a new meaning to the phrase came to him. +"More than enough." + +He glanced at the clock. Over half of his first day already gone. He +heard the crunching wheels of the taxicab on the graveled road outside. +Hurrying into the hall he took one of Arsdale's hats--he had lost his +own in the machine--and slipped into his overcoat. Still he paused, +curiously reluctant to leave her. He did not feel that there was very +much waiting for him outside, and here--he would have been content to +live his week in this old library. He had glimpsed a dozen volumes +that he would have enjoyed handling. He would like to spread them out +upon his knee before the fire and read to her at random from them. +Yes, she must be there to complete the library. He was getting loose +again in his thoughts. + +She was looking at him anxiously. + +"I think we shall find him," he said confidently. "At any rate I shall +come back in the morning and report." + +"This seems such an imposition--" she faltered. + +"Please don't look at it in that light," he pleaded earnestly. "I feel +as though I were doing this for an old friend." + +"You are kind to consider it so." + +"You see we have been in the inner woods together." + +She smiled courageously. + +"Good night. I wish you were better guarded here," he added. + +He held out his hand quite frankly. She put her own within it for a +moment. He grew dizzy at the mere touch of it. It was as though his +Lady of the Mountains had suddenly become a living, tangible reality. +The light touch of her fingers was as wine to him. They made the task +before him seem an easy one. They made it a privilege. She thought +that he was making a sacrifice in doing this for her when she was +granting him the boon of returning upon the morrow. + +"Good night," he said again. + +He turned abruptly and opening the door stepped out into the cab +without daring to look back. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + +_The Arsdales_ + +Miss Arsdale hurried upstairs to where in a rear room Marie, with a +candle burning beside her, lay in bed done up like a mummy. + +"Par Di', Mam'selle Elaine," exclaimed the old housekeeper, her eyes +growing brighter at sight of her. "I had a dream about a black horse. +Is anything wrong with you?" + +"Nothing. And your poor lame knees, Marie--they are better?" + +"N'importe," she grunted, "but I do not like the feel of the night. +Was M'sieur Ben down there with you?" + +"Yes." + +"You should be in bed by now. You must go at once." + +"I think I shall sleep in the little room off yours to-night." + +"Bien. Then if you need anything in the night, you can call me." + +Marie was scarcely able to turn herself in her bed, but, she still felt +the responsibility of the house. + +"Very well, Marie. Good night." + +She kissed the old housekeeper upon the forehead and was going out when +she heard the latter murmur as though to herself, + +"The black horse may mean Jacques." + +"Have you heard nothing from him in his new position?" she asked, +turning at the door. + +"Non," she answered sharply. "Go to bed." + +So the girl went on into a darkness that she, too, found ridden by +black horses. + +For three generations the Arsdales had been a family of whom those who +claim New York as their inheritance had known both much and little. It +was impossible to ignore the silent part Horace Arsdale, the +grandfather, had played in the New York business world or the quiet +influence he had exerted in such musical and literary centres as +existed in his day. Any one who knew anybody would answer an inquiry +as to who they might be with a surprised lift of the eyebrows. + +"The Arsdales? Why they are--the Arsdales." + +"But what--" + +"Oh, they are a queer lot. But they have brains and--money." + +Horace Arsdale died in an asylum, and there were the usual ugly rumors +as to what brought him there. He left a son Benjamin, and Benjamin +built the present Arsdale house at a time when it was like building in +the wilderness. Here he shut himself up with his bride, a French girl +he had met on his travels. Ask any one who Benjamin Arsdale was and +they would be apt to answer, + +"Benjamin Arsdale? Oh, he is Benjamin Arsdale. They say he has a +great deal of talent and--money." + +The first statement seemed to be proven by some very delicate lyrical +verse which appeared from time to time in the magazines. Though a +member of the best half dozen New York clubs, not a dozen men out of +the hundreds who knew his name had ever seen him. + +His wife died within three years, some say from a broken heart, some +say from homesickness, leaving a boy child six months old. At this +point Benjamin Arsdale's name disappeared even from the magazines, and +save to a very few people he was as though dead and buried beneath his +odd house. An old Frenchman, his wife, and his son Jacques Moisson +seemed content to live there and look after the household duties. Some +ten years later a little girl of nine appeared, a niece of Arsdale's, +it was said, and this completed the household, though old Pčre Moisson +died in the course of time, leaving his wife and Jacques as a sort of +legacy to his old master, for a body-guard. The only reports of the +inmates to the outside world came through the other servants who were +employed here from time to time, and the most they had to say was that +Arsdale was "queer," and they did n't think it was the place to bring +up young children, though the master did adore the very ground they +walked on. When the children were older, Arsdale was seen at concerts +and the theatre with them, but seemed to resent any attempt on the part +of well meaning acquaintances to renew social ties. People remarked +upon how old for his age he had grown, and some spoke in a whisper of +the spirituality of his features. + +So much every one knew and that was nothing. What Elaine Arsdale, whom +he had legally adopted, knew, was what caused the white light about the +bowed head of the man. When she first learned she could not tell, but +as a very young girl she remembered days when he came to her with his +face very white and tense, and in his eyes the terror of one in great +pain, and said to her, + +"Little girl, will you sit with me a bit?" + +So she would take a seat by the window in the library and he would face +her very quietly with his long fingers twined around the chair arms. +He would not speak and she knew that he did not wish her to speak. He +wished for her only to sit there where he could see her. She was never +afraid, but at times there came into his eyes a look that tempted her +to cry. Sometimes an hour, sometimes two hours passed, and then he +would rise to his feet and walk unsteadily towards her and say, + +"Now I may kiss your forehead, Elaine." + +He would kiss her, and shortly after fall into a deep sleep of +exhaustion. + +Between these periods, which she did not understand save that in some +way he suffered a great deal, he was to her the gentlest and kindest +guardian that ever a girl had. He personally superintended her studies +and those of Ben, her only other playmate. The day was divided into +regular hours for work and play. In the morning at nine he met them in +the library and heard their lessons and gave them their tasks for the +next day. He seemed to know everything and had a way of making one +understand very difficult matters such as fractions and irregular +French verbs. In the afternoon came the music lessons. He was anxious +for them both to play well upon the violin, for he said that it had +been to him one of the greatest joys of his life. Each night before +bedtime he used to play for them himself and make her see finer +pictures than even those she found in her fairy tales. But there were +other times when he could make his violin terrible. He used to punish +Ben in this way. When the latter had been over wilful, he made the boy +stand before him. Then taking a position in front of him, he played +things so wild, so fearful, that the boy would beg for mercy. + +"Do you wish your soul to be like that?" he would demand sternly. + +"No, father, no," Ben would whimper. + +"Then you must control yourself. If ever you lose a grip upon yourself +in temper or anything else, it will be like that." + +But the music even at such times never frightened her, though it +sounded very savage, like the wind through the trees in a thunder storm. + +The only time that he had ever seemed the slightest bit angry at her +was once during that wonderful summer when he had taken them abroad. +She was seventeen, and on the boat she met a man with whom she fell in +love. He was very much older than she, and possessed a glorious +mustache which turned up at the corners. He helped her up and down the +deck one day when the wind was blowing, and that night she lay awake +thinking about him. When she appeared in the morning with her eyes +heavy and her thoughts far away, the father put his arm about her and +escorted her to the stern of the boat. Then sitting down beside her, +he said, + +"Tell me what is on your mind, little girl." + +She told him quite simply, and had been surprised to see his face grow +white and terrible. + +"He put those thoughts into your heart?" + +He rose to his feet and started towards the saloon. She knew what he +was about to do. She flung her arms around his knees and, sobbing, +pleaded with him until he stayed. Then after she had calmed a little, +he talked to her and she listened as though to a stranger. + +"Little girl," he cried fiercely, "there is much that you do not +understand, and much that I pray God you never will understand. One of +these things is the nature of man. If it were not for all the other +fair things there are in life I would place you in a convent, for the +best man who ever lived, little girl, is not good enough to take into +his keeping the worst woman. They break their hearts with their +weaknesses--they break their hearts." + +"But you, dear Dada--" + +"I did it! God forgive me, I did it, too!" + +At this point he gained control of himself and his wild speech, but the +words remained forever an echo in her heart. + +They passed the next summer in the Adirondacks, and here in the deep +woods she spent the pleasantest period of her life. She was strangely +atune with the big pines and the fragrant shadows which lay beneath +them. Arsdale used to sit beside her in these solitudes and read aloud +by the hour from the poets in his sweet musical voice. At such times +she wondered more than ever what he had meant in that outburst on the +steamer. Here, too, he told her more of her mother who had died at +almost the same time that Ben's mother had died. But of the father all +he ever told her was, + +"My brother was an Arsdale--like the rest of us." + +So she lived her peaceful life and was conscious of missing nothing, +save at odd moments the man with the beautiful mustache. Marie, the +old housekeeper, was as careful of her as Jacques was of her father. +Ben was kind to her, though during the latter years he had grown a bit +out of her life. This had worried the father--this and other things. +One day he had called her into the library, and though he was greatly +agitated she saw that it was not in the usual way. + +"Little girl," he said, "if it should so happen that you are ever left +alone here with Ben and he--he does not seem to act quite himself, I +want you to promise me that you will go to this address which I shall +leave for you." + +She had promised, knowing well to what he referred. + +Then his face had hardened. + +"There is still another thing you must promise; if at the end of six +months he is no better I wish you to promise that you will not live in +this house with him or anywhere near him--that you will cut off your +life utterly from his life." + +"But, Dada--" + +"Promise." + +She promised again, little thinking that the crisis of which he seemed +to have a foreboding was so near at hand. A dark day came within two +months when her soul was rent with the knowledge that he lay stark and +cold in that very library where so much of his life had been lived. +Marie gathered her into her arms and held her tight. She stared aghast +at a world which frightened her by its emptiness. At her side stood +Ben, his lips twitching, and in his eyes that haunting fear which +always foreran the father's struggles. A month later the boy did not +come home one night, but came after three days, a feeble wreck of a +man. She tore open the letter the father had left, and this took her +to Barstow, with whom he had evidently left instructions. That was +five months ago, and in the meanwhile she had grown from a very young +girl into a woman. + +This was the sombre background to her frightened thoughts as she lay in +her bed next to Marie. In the midst of all the figures which haunted +her, there stood now one alone who offered her anything but fearful +things--and he was a stranger. Out of the infinite multitude of the +indifferent who surrounded her, he had leaped and within these few +hours made her debtor to him for her life, and now for partial relief +from a strain which was worse than sudden death might have been. In +spite of other torments it was like a cool hand upon her brow to know +that out in that chaos into which the boy had plunged, this other had +followed. She had perfect confidence in him. After all, it is as easy +in a crisis to pick a friend from among strangers as from among friends. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +_The Man Who Knew_ + +There are several members of the New York police force who think they +know their Chinatown; there are several slum workers who think they do; +there are many ugly guides, real guides, who think they do, but Beefy +Saul, ex-newspaper man, ex-United States Chinese immigration inspector, +and finally of the Secret Service, really does. This is because Beefy +Saul knows not only the bad, but the good Chinamen; because he knows +not only the ins and outs of Chinatown, but the ins and outs of New +York; because he knows not only the wiles and weaknesses of Chinamen, +the wiles and weaknesses of ugly souled guides (and of slum workers), +but best of all, because he knows the several members of the New York +police department who think they know their Chinatown. But like men +who know less, Beefy Saul enjoys his sleep and naturally objects to +being roused at three o'clock in the morning, even though in the east +the silver is showing through the black, as Donaldson pointed out, like +the eyes of a certain lady when she smiles (as Donaldson did not point +out). Beefy came down in answer to the insistent bell which connected +with his modest flat--it ought to be called a suite, for the lower hall +boasted only six speaking tubes--and he swore like a pirate as he came. +Finally the broad shoulders, which gave him his name, filled the door +frame. + +"I don't give a tinker's dam who you are," he growled before he had +made out the features before him, "it's a blasted outrage! Hello, Don, +what in thunder brings you out at this time of night? You look white, +man, what's the trouble?" + +Saul hitched up his trousers, his round sleepy face that of a +good-natured farmer. + +"I want you to do me a favor if you will, Beefy. I know it 's a darned +shame to get you out at this hour." + +"Tut, tut, man. If a friend can't get up for another friend, he ain't +much of a friend. Tell your troubles." + +"I 'm looking for a man, Beefy, who 's down there somewhere among your +Chinks." + +"Hitting the pipe?" + +"I 'm afraid so." + +"Have n't any address I suppose--don't know his favorite joint?" + +"I don't know a thing about him except that he has been down there +before--that he lit out again a little over an hour ago, half mad--and +that I must find him." + +"An hour ago, eh? That helps, some. There 's only a few of 'em open +to the public at that time. But say, is there any special hurry? He's +had time to get his dope by now. I 've got some work there in the +morning." + +"There's a girl waiting for him, Beefy, a girl who is paying big for +every hour he's gone." + +"So? Well, m' boy, guess we 'll have to get him then. I 'll be down +in ten minutes. Make yourself at home on the doorstep." + +Donaldson waited in the taxicab. For the first time in his life he +computed the value of one-sixth of an hour. So long as he had been +with the girl--or so long as he had been active in her behalf--the +minutes were filled with sufficient interest to make them pass +unreckoned. But to sit here and wait, to sit here and watch the +seconds wasted, to sit here and be conscious of each one of them as it +bit, like a thieving wharf rat, into his dwindling Present and carried +the morsel of time back to the greedy Past, was a different matter. +When finally Saul appeared with a fat cigar in one corner of his chubby +mouth, Donaldson was halfway across the sidewalk to meet him. + +"Good Lord!" he laughed excitedly, almost pushing the big man toward +the cab, "I thought you were lost up there." + +Saul paused with one foot already on the step. Then turning back, he +struck a match for his cigar. The flare revealed Donaldson's eager +eyes, his tense mouth. He carelessly snapped the burnt match to the +lapel of Donaldson's coat and stooping to pick it off took occasion to +whiff the latter's breath. + +"The sooner we start--" suggested Donaldson, impatiently. + +Saul stepped in, his two hundred pounds making the springs squeak, and +sinking into a corner waited to see what he might learn from +Donaldson's talk. The suspicion had crossed his mind that possibly the +latter had got into some such way himself--it was over a year since he +had seen him--and was taking this method to hunt up an all-night opium +joint. His experience made him constantly suspicious, but unlike the +regular police, a suspicion with him remained a suspicion until proven. +It never gained strength merely by being in his thought. At the end of +five minutes he had discarded this theory. Stopping the machine, he +gave the cabby a real address in the place of the fictitious one he had +first given in Donaldson's hearing. The latter's mind, supernormally +alert, detected the ruse instantly. He placed a hand upon Saul's knee. + +"Beefy, you didn't suspect me, did you?" + +"What the devil is the matter with you then?" demanded Saul. + +"Nothing. What makes you think there is?" + +"The mouth, man, the mouth! You don't get those wrinkles in the corner +and a tight chin by being left alone five minutes, if all that is +troubling you is a lost friend." + +"You 're too confounded suspicious. It's only that I 've so many +things to do, Beefy." + +"Business picked up?" + +Donaldson smiled. Saul had known his Grub Street life. As the cab +sped on he regained his self-control. Action, movement was all he +needed. For the next ten minutes he surprised Saul with his enthusiasm +and loquacity. The latter having known him as a quiet and rather +reserved fellow, finally decided that it was a clear case of woman. +The questions he asked about young Arsdale, in securing a minute +description of the man, confirmed this impression. + +The cab turned into the narrow cobbled streets of Chinatown, past the +dark windows, Chinese stores and restaurants, a region that, deserted +now, appeared in the early morning quiet ominous rather than peaceful. +Dark alleys opened out frequently--alleys which coiled like snakes past +cellar entrances, noisome rears of tottering tenements, to +grease-fingered doors as impassive as the stolid faces of guards who +drowsed behind them asleep to all save those who knew the deadly +pass-word. Paradoxical doors which shut in, instead of out, danger! +But Saul knew them and they knew Saul. He knew further the haunts of +beginners, where opium is high and the surroundings are fairly clean, +he knew the haunts of the confirmed, where opium is cheaper and where +surroundings do not matter at all. Also he knew Wun Chung, who does +not smoke, but who, being rich, controls the trade and so keeps in +touch with all who buy. + +On the way to Chung's Saul made one stop. With Donaldson at his heels, +he darted down a side street, pushed open, without knocking, a dingy +door, went up a flight of stairs, along a dark hallway and down another +flight, where he was stopped by a shadow. The big man spoke his name, +and the shadow turned instantly from a guard to an obsequious servant. +He opened the door and Saul strode across a narrow yard, stooping to +brush beneath the stout clothes-line hung with blankets, an innocent +appearing wash, which however served as an effective barrier to any one +who might approach at a run. They entered the rear of a second +tenement which faced a parallel street, but which, oddly enough, had no +entrance to its rear rooms from the front. Another shadow rose before +them only to vanish as the round red face of Saul appeared. He pushed +on into a long, low-ceilinged room lined with bunks, the air heavy with +the acrid dead smoke of opium. + +"Light," demanded Saul. + +The sleepy proprietor brought a kerosene lamp, the chimney befouled +with soot and grease. It was an old trick. These fellows protect +their customers and through a sooted chimney the feeble light makes +scarcely more than shadows in which it is very difficult to identify a +man. Seizing the slant-eyed ghoul by the arm Saul held the lamp within +an inch of the yellow face, so close that it burned. + +"Don't try such fool things on me, Tong," he warned. "Bring me a +light." + +The Chinaman squirmed in terror, and when loosed was back again in a +hurry with a lamp that lighted the whole room. Saul took it and +examined the nearest bunk. Donaldson glanced at the first face. That +was enough. He retreated to the door for fresh air. Down the line +went Saul, looking like some devil in Hell making tally of lost souls. +He reached in and turned them, one after the other, face to the light, +while Donaldson stood outside, dreading the call that should force him +to look again. He was no man of the world and the reek of the place +appalled him. Nothing he had ever read conveyed anything of the plain +sordidness of it,--the unrelieved pall of it which burdened like the +weary dead stretch of an alkali desert. The scene did not even become +romantic to him, until glancing up, he saw above the irregular +roof-tops, the stars still bright in the virgin purple, saw the +unfouled spaces of the planet fields between them. What had such clean +things as the stars to do with this mired world below? This jeweled +roof was not intended for so squalid a floor. But the stars above +brought him back to the girl again, and she to her brother, and her +brother to this. Strange cycle! Then the stars and the blue gathered +them all into one. Strange one! + +"Not here," announced Saul, wiping the oil from his fingers. Donaldson +breathed more freely. Without delay they hurried back to the cab. + +"I had sort of a hunch that we 'd find him there," said Saul, "but we +did n't. Now we 'll have a cup of tea with Chung and set him to work. +It's a darned sight easier and a lot swifter way when you have n't any +clue at all to work on." + +"And pleasanter," returned Donaldson. "I 've seen enough of this." + +"Not so bad when you get used to 'em," answered Saul, lighting a fresh +cigar. "But I know how you feel; I 'm just that queer about morgues. +Can't get used to 'em nohow. Get the creeps every time I step inside a +morgue. But then I don't hanker after murder work of any sort like +some of the boys. It would be just my chance to get a taste of it +before I 'm done with the Riverside robberies." + +"What are the Riverside robberies?" inquired Donaldson, with a faint +remembrance of the name. + +"You been out of town?" + +"No, but I don't read the papers much." + +"I should say not. Four hold-ups in three weeks, all within half a +mile of one another on Riverside Drive." + +"Riverside Drive?" + +He remembered now. The Arsdale home was near Riverside Drive. Barstow +had spoken of these crimes. + +"You on the case?" he asked indifferently, + +"Yes," answered Saul. "I 'm on the case and if another one breaks, the +case and the Chief will be on me." + +The cab had stopped before an unlighted store. The street light +revealed a window filled with a medley of china, teas, silks, and +joss-sticks. Above, in big gilt letters, was the sign "Wun Chung and +Co." + +It was surprising how quickly in response to Saul's knocking a door to +the left of the main entrance, and leading upstairs, opened. After a +few words with the moon-faced attendant, the light was switched on and +the three ascended to a small room, brilliant with gaudy Oriental +colors and heavy with ebony furnishings. A group of three or four +Chinamen sat at a small table soberly drinking their tea with the +exaggerated innocence of those who have a deck of cards up their +sleeves. The proprietor himself, fat as a butter ball, toddled up to +Saul with a grin upon his round, colorless face. He ordered tea for +all and they sat down. In two minutes Saul had explained what he +wished, and in five a couple of the silent group near had taken Chung's +orders and stolen out like ghosts. + +Saul swallowed his tea boiling hot and glanced at his watch. It was +half-past four. + +"Now," he said, "I 'm going back for a wink of sleep. You can sit on +here or you can have Chung notify you at your hotel, eh, Chung?" + +"Allee light," nodded the proprietor. + +"How long do you think it will take?" asked Donaldson quickly. + +"Might take till noon to search every place--and then we might not find +him if he's an old hand at the game," answered Saul. + +"Till noon!" exclaimed Donaldson irritably. "Good Lord, that's eight +hours!" + +Saul placed his hand affectionately upon Donaldson's shoulder. + +"See here, Don," he replied earnestly. "Take my advice and get some +sleep." + +"Do you think I can waste time in sleep?" + +"Better take a little now or you 'll be having a long one coming to +you." + +"That's just it," retorted Donaldson. "I 've got all eternity for +sleep." + +"So? Well, I 'll take mine here and now, thanks. I want to wake up!" + +The older man's sober common-sense brought Donaldson to himself. + +"Guess you 're right," he admitted. + +He took out a card and scribbled two addresses, one of the Waldorf and +the other of the Arsdale house. + +"You will notify me at one of these places as soon as you learn +anything?" + +"Allee light." + +"_At once_, you understand?" + +Saul insisted upon landing Donaldson at his hotel before going on to +his own home. The latter grasped the big hand of his friend. + +"Beefy," he said, "if ever I can give _her_ a chance to thank you, I +'ll bet you 'll think your trouble worth while." + +"Turn in and give her a chance to thank _you_ in the morning. I reckon +she 'll appreciate that more than an opportunity to thank me." + +The cab bearing the big detective glided off. Donaldson watched it +melt down the dwindling vista until finally, dissolved altogether, it +became one with the dark. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + +_Dawn_ + +Donaldson took a cold dip and then carefully dressed himself in fresh +clothes. Sleep was out of the question. He had never in his life felt +more alert in mind and body. He felt as though he could walk farther, +hear farther, see farther than ever before. He was more keenly +responsive to the perfume of the roses which were now drooping a bit +languidly near the window; he was more alive to the delicate traceries +of the ferns which banked one corner of the room; more appreciative of +the little marine which he had hung near his dresser and--more alive to +her into whose life Fate had picked him up and hurled him. He felt the +warm pressure of her fingers as though they still rested within his; +saw the marvelous quiet beauty of her eyes which had led him so far +back into his past. Again out of this past they led him on--on to--he +was checked as in his picture of her the ticking clock behind her +intruded itself. There stood the sentinel to whom he must give heed. +There stood the warning finger pointing to the seventh noon. + +Good Lord, he must have more room. He must get out into the dawn--out +where he could share these emotions which now surged in upon him with +some virginal passion as big and fresh as the new-born day. He crossed +to the window and looked out upon the dormant city. The morning light +was just beginning to wash out the dark and to sketch in the outlines +of buildings and the gray path of the road between them. He watched +the new creation of a world. Around him lay a million souls ready to +people it--ready to seize it and make it a part of themselves. In a +few hours that dim street would be a bridge over which tens of +thousands of people would pass to sorrow, to joy; to poverty, to +riches; to hate, to love; to death, to life. That was a drama worth +looking at. He must get out and rub shoulders with those who were +playing their parts. He, too, must play his part in it. + +He descended to the office and left instructions with the night clerk +to insist upon a message from whoever might call him up. He would be +back, he said, in an hour. He had not walked long before he found the +city gently astir with life. Passing cars were soon well filled, +traffic fretted the streets lately so quiet, while yawning pedestrians +reminded him that there were still those who slept. At the end of +thirty minutes more of brisk walking, the sky had melted through the +entire gamut of colors, and finally settled into a blinding golden +blue. A newsboy clicking out of space like a locust, shouted "Extra!" +Donaldson gave little heed to the cry until he heard the word +"Riverside," and caught the blatant headlines, "Another robbery." With +an interest growing out of Saul's connection with the case, he skimmed +through the story. + +Then he tossed his paper away and took his course back to the hotel, +glad to forget that sordid bit of drama, in the movement of the crowd +now forcing its way to work. But something was lacking in the +spectacle this morning. The play of light and color he still saw, the +vibrancy of it he still felt, the dramatic quality of it he still +appreciated, but still with the consciousness that it lacked +something--that it had gone a bit flat. He no longer felt that +princely sense of superiority to it--as though it were a gorgeous +pageant upon which he was a mere onlooker. He felt now a harrying +sense of responsibility towards it. It was as though they called him +to join them. He quickened his pace. He must get back to the hotel +and see if any message awaited him. + +He caught his breath--he must get back to her. That was it. That was +what the hurrying passers-by had called to him. Get back to her--what +did the morning count until she became a part of it? It was because +she had placed the red-blooded actuality of life before his eyes in +contrast to the superficial picturesqueness of its expression as he had +viewed it yesterday that the show had lost its vividness. She was +making him see it again with eyes as they were at twenty. He recoiled. +That way lay danger. He must put himself on guard. But from that +moment he had but one object in mind--to get back to her as soon as +possible. + +A telephone message waiting him from Chung reported that no trace could +be found of the boy. + +He jumped into a cab and went at once to the Arsdale house. Miss +Arsdale herself came to the door, her eyes heavy from lack of sleep but +her face lighting instantly at sight of him. + +"You have news?" she exclaimed. + +"No," he answered directly. + +She was a woman with whom one might be direct. + +"No news may be good news," he added. "They have n't been able to +locate him in Chinatown. I don't think there is a nook there in which +he could hide from those people." + +"Then," she exclaimed, "he has gone to Cranton." + +"Then," he answered deliberately, "I will follow him there." + +"No, I could n't allow you. It is two hours from town. You have +already given generously of your time." + +"Miss Arsdale," he said gently, "we of the inner woods must stand by +each other. This week is a sort of vacation for me. I am quite free." + +Yes, she was she he had seen through the tops of the whispering pines +when he had thought it nothing but the blue sky; she was she who had +brushed close to him when he had thought it only the rustling of dry +leaves. Now that she stood beside him, his heart cried out, "Why did +you not come before? Why did you not come a week ago?" If she could +have stood for one brief second in that dingy office which had slowly +closed in upon him until it squeezed the soul out of him, then he would +have forced back the walls again. If only once she had walked by his +side through the crowds, then he would have caught their cry in time. +The world had narrowed down to a pin prick, but if only she had come a +scant two days ago, she would have bent his eye to this tiny aperture +as to the small end of a telescope as she did now and made him see big +enough to grasp the meaning of life. + +Well, the past was dead--even with her eyes magnifying the days to +eternities; the past was dead, even with the delicate poise of her lips +ready to utter prophecies. He must not forget that, and in remembering +this he must choose this opportunity for exiling himself from her for +the day. This mission would consume some six hours. It would take him +out of the city where he would be able to think more clearly. This was +well. + +"Have you any idea how the trains run?" he inquired. + +"I looked them up. There is one at 9.32." + +"I can make it easily," he answered, glancing at the big clock. He had +left his own watch at the hotel. He refused to carry so grim a +reminder. "I suppose I 'll have no trouble in finding the place." + +"You would ask for the Arsdale bungalow," she answered. "Every one +there knows it. But the chances are so slight--it is only that his +father went out there once. After several days Jacques, Marie's boy +and father's servant, found him hidden in the unused cottage. I +thought that possibly Ben might remember this." + +"I should say that it was more than probable that he would go there if +his object is to keep in hiding." + +"It is three miles from the station and quite secluded." + +"That will make a good walk for me." + +He rose to leave at once. But she, too, rose. + +"If you think it best to go," she said firmly, "then I must go, too. I +could not remain here passive another day. And, besides, if he is +there, it is better that I should be with you. I know how to handle +him. He is always gentle with me." + +Donaldson caught his breath. This was an emergency that he had not +foreseen. Manifestly, she could not go. She must not go. It would be +to take her back to the blue sky beneath which she was born. It would +be to give her a setting that would intensify every wild thought he was +trying so hard to throttle. + +"No," he exclaimed. "You had better permit me to go alone." + +"I should not think of it," she answered decisively. + +"But he may not be there. He might come back here while you were gone." + +"He will be quite safe if he returns here." + +"But--" + +"I will see Marie and come down at once." + +She hurried upstairs. + +"Marie," she asked, "is it quite safe to leave you here alone until +afternoon?" + +"Safe? Why not?" + +"I was going out to the bungalow." + +The old servant looked up shrewdly. + +"Is anything the matter?" + +"Nothing that you can help," the girl answered. + +She had not yet told her of Ben's last disappearance. There was no use +in worrying those who could give no help. + +"Bien. Go on. It will do you both good." + +"The telephone is at your bed--you can summon Dr. Abbot if you need +anything." + +"Bien." + +"And perhaps while I am gone Jacques may come for a visit." + +"Perhaps. Run along. The air will do you good." + +The girl kissed the wrinkled forehead and hurried to her own room. +There, before the mirror, she was forced to ask herself the question +which she had tried to escape: "Why are you going?" + +"Because if Ben were there and sick, he might need me!" + +"Why are you going?" + +The woman in the mirror was relentless. + +"Because the house here is so full of shadows." + +"Why are you going?" + +"Because the sun will give me strength." + +"Why are you going?" + +"Because," she flushed guiltily,--"because it will be very much +pleasanter than remaining here alone." + +Whereupon the woman in the mirror ceased her questioning. + +And, in the meanwhile, the relentless old clock was goading Donaldson. +Its methodical, interminable ticking sounded like the approaching +footsteps of a jailer towards the death cell. + +"Don't you know better than to risk yourself out there one whole +spring-time day with her?" it demanded. + +"But with a full realization of the danger I can guard myself," he +answered uneasily. + +"Can you guard _her_?" + +"That is unpardonable presumption," replied Donaldson heatedly. + +"The mellow sun and the birthing flowers are ever presumptuous," +answered the wise old clock. + +"But a man may fight them off." + +"I have ticked here many years and seen many things that man has prided +himself upon having the power to do and yet has failed of doing." + +"I cannot help myself. I should offend her unwarrantedly if I made +further objection." + +"Then you are not all-powerful." + +"I have power over myself. And you are insulting her." + +"Tick-tock. Tick-tock," answered the clock, jeeringly. + +And Donaldson was saved from his impulse to kick the inanimate thing +into splinters by the sound of her footsteps. + + + + +CHAPTER X + +_Outside the Hedge_ + +She came down the stairs, a vision of young womanhood, dressed in +white, with a wide turn-down collar fastened at the throat by a +generous tie of black. Her hat was a girlish affair of black straw +with a cluster of red roses gathered at the brim. She was drawing on +her black gloves as she neared him--with the background of the broad +Colonial staircase--a study for a master. She approached with the +grace of a princess and the poise of a woman twice her years. He now +could have no more bade her remain behind than he could have stopped +the progress of time. There was something almost inevitable in her +movements, as though it had been foreordained that they two should have +this day in the country, no matter under what evil auspices. Without a +word he held open the door for her to pass through and followed her +into the cab. + +Into the Drive they were whirled and so towards the station, the +throbbing heart of the city. The ant-like throng was going and coming, +and now he was one of them. It was as though the strand of his life, +hanging loose, had been caught up, forced into the shuttle, and taken +again into the pattern. At her side he made his way into the depot at +the side of a hundred others; at her side he took his turn in line at +the ticket window; at her side he made his way towards the gates, a +score of others jostling him in criticism of his more moderate pace. +An old client, one of his few, bowed to him. He returned the salute as +though his position were the most matter-of-fact one in the world. Yet +he was still confused. He had been thrust upon the stage but he was +uncertain of his cue. What was the meaning of this figure by his side? +In his old part, she had not been there. + +When at last they were seated side by side in the car and the train +began slowly to pull out, her presence there seemed even more unreal +than ever. But soon he gave himself up comfortably to the illusion. +She was within arm's length of him and they were steaming through the +green country. That was enough for him to know at present. She looked +very trim as compared to the other women who passed in and took their +places in the dusty, red-cushioned seats. She looked more alive--less +a type. She gave tone to the whole car. + +Up to now, she had given her attention to scanning the faces of the +multitude they had passed in the faint hope that by some chance her +brother might be among them, but once the train started she surrendered +herself fully to the new hope which lay ahead of her in the bungalow. +This gave her an opportunity to study more closely this man who so +suddenly had become her chief reliance in this intimate detail of her +life. His kindly good nature furnished her a sharp contrast to the +sober seriousness of the older man with whom so much of her youth had +been lived. He had thrown open the doors and windows of the gloomy +house in which she had so long been pent up. And yet as he rambled on +in an evident attempt to lighten her burden, she caught a note that +piqued her curiosity. It was as though below the surface he was +fretted by some problem which lent a touch of sadness to his hearty +courageous outlook. She felt it, when once on the journey he broke out, + +"Don't ever look below the surface of anything I say. Don't ever try +to look beyond the next step I take. I'm here to-day; gone to-morrow." + +"Like the grass of the field?" she asked with a smile at his +earnestness, which was so at odds with his light eager comments upon +the bits of color which shot by them. + +"Worse--because the grass is helpless." + +"And we? We boast a little more, but are n't we at the mercy of +chance?" + +"Not if we are worthy of our souls." + +She frowned. + +"There is Ben, surely he is not altogether to blame," she objected. + +"Less to blame than some others, perhaps." + +"Then there is the chance that helps us willy nilly," she urged. "You, +to me, are such a chance. Surely it was not within my power to bring +about this good fortune any more than it is within the power of some +others to ward off bad fortune." + +"The mere episode does n't count. The handling of it is always within +our power." + +"And we can turn it to ill or good, as we wish?" + +"Precisely." + +"Providing we are wise enough," she returned. + +"Yes, always providing that. That is the test of us." + +"If we do poorly because of lack of wisdom?" she pressed him further. + +"The cost is the same," he answered bitterly. + +"That is a man's view. I don't like to feel so responsible." + +"It would n't be necessary for women to be responsible for anything if +men lived up to their best." + +She laughed comfortably. He was one who would. She liked the +uncompromising way in which his lips closed below his quick imaginative +eyes. + +It seemed but a matter of minutes before the train drew up at a toy +station which looked like the suburban office of a real estate +development company. Here they learned that the summer schedule was +not yet in force, which meant that they would be unable to find a train +back until four o'clock. + +"I should have inquired at the other end. That oversight is either +chance or stupidity," he exclaimed. + +She met his eyes frankly, apparently not at all disconcerted. + +"We can't decide which until we learn how it turns out, can we?" she +laughed. + +"No," he replied seriously, "it will depend upon that." + +"Then," she said, "we need n't worry until the end. I have a feeling, +grown strong now that we are here, that we shall need the extra time. +I think we shall find him." + +"That result alone will excuse my carelessness." + +She appeared a bit worried over a new thought. + +"I forgot. This will delay you further on your vacation." + +"No. Nothing can do that," he interrupted her. "Every day, every hour +I live is my vacation." + +"That," she said, "is a fine way to take life." + +He looked startled, but hastened to find a vehicle to carry them the +three miles which lay between the station and the bungalow. He found +an old white horse attached to the dusty skeleton of a depot wagon +waiting for chance passengers. They clambered into this and were soon +jogging at an easy pace over the fragrant bordered road which wandered +with apparent aimlessness between the green fields. The driver turned +half way in his seat with easy familiarity as they started up the first +long hill. "Ben't ye afeered to go inter th' house?" he inquired. + +"Afraid of what?" demanded Donaldson. + +"Spooks." + +"They don't come out in the daytime, do they?" + +"I dunno. But they do say as how th' house is ha'nted these times." + +"How did that story start?" + +"Some allows they has seen queer lights there at night. An' there 's +been shadders seen among the trees." + +The girl leaned forward excitedly. + +"Old wives' tales," Donaldson reassured her in an undertone. + +"This has been lately?" he inquired of the driver. + +"Off an' on in th' last few weeks." + +Donaldson turned to the girl whose features had grown fixed again in +that same old gloom of haunting fear. + +"They circulate such yarns as those about every closed house," he said. + +"Those lights and shadows are n't made by ghosts," she whispered. + +"Then--that's so," he answered with sudden understanding. "It's the +boy himself!" + +At the barred lane which swept in a curve out of sight from the road he +dismissed the driver. Even if they were successful in their quest, it +would probably be necessary to straighten out Arsdale before allowing +him to be seen. But as an afterthought he turned back and ordered the +man to call here for them in time to make the afternoon train. + +He lowered the rails, and Miss Arsdale led the way without hesitation +along a grass-grown road and through an old orchard. The trees were +scraggly and untrimmed, littered with dead branches, but Spring, the +mother, had decked them with green leaves and buds until they looked as +jaunty as old people going to a fair. The sun sifted through the +tender sprigs to the sprouting soil beneath, making there the semblance +of a choice rug of a green and gold pattern. The bungalow stood upon +the top of a small hill, concealed from the road. It was of rather +attractive appearance, though sadly in need of repair. All the windows +were curtained and there was no sign of life. The broad piazza which +ran around three sides of it was cluttered with dead leaves. + +[Illustration: _He lowered the rails, and Miss Arsdale led the way_] + +She took the key to the front door from her purse and he inserted it in +the lock. + +"You wait out here," he commanded, "until I take a look around." + +"I would rather go in with you. I know the house." + +"I will open it up first," he said calmly, and stepping in before she +had time to protest further, he closed the door behind him. He heard +her clenched fists pounding excitedly on the panels. + +"Mr. Donaldson," she pleaded, "it isn't safe. You don't know--" + +"Don't do that," he shouted back. "I'll be out in a few moments." + +"But you don't know him," she cried; "he might strike you!" + +"I 'll be on guard," he answered. + +The lower floor was one big room and showed no sign of having been +occupied for years. It was scantily furnished and smelled damp and +musty. At one side a big stone fireplace looked as dead as a tomb. He +pushed through a door into the kitchen which led off this. The +cast-iron stove was rusted and the covers cracked. He glanced into it. +It was free of ashes and the wood-box was empty. + +He came back and slowly mounted the stairs leading to the next floor. +Stopping at the top, he listened. There was no sound. He entered the +sleeping rooms one after another. The beds were stripped of blankets +and the striped canvas of the mattresses was dusty and forbidding. +There were six of these rooms but the farther one alone was habitable. +Here a few blankets covered the bed and in the small fireplace there +were ashes. They were cold, but he detected several bits of charred +paper which were dry and crisp. Some old clothes were scattered about +the floor and several minor articles which he scarcely noticed. He +listened again. There was not a sound, and yet he had a feeling, born +of what he did not know, that he was not alone here. The effect was to +startle him. If he had been just a passing stranger looking for a +place to lodge for the night it would have been sufficient to drive him +outdoors again. + +He came out into the hall which divided the rooms, and there saw a +ladder which led into an unlighted attic. He paused. He heard her +calling to him, but he did not answer. He would soon be down again. + +He mounted the ladder quickly, and peered into the dark of the +unlighted recess. He could make out nothing, and so clambered over a +beam to the unfinished floor to wait until his eyes had become more +accustomed to the shadows. His feet had scarcely touched a firm +foundation before he was conscious of a slight noise behind him. He +turned, and at the same moment a form hurled itself upon him. In the +frenzied movement of the hands for his throat, in the spasmodic clutch +of the arms which clung animal-like about him he recognized the same +mad, unreasoning passion with which young Arsdale had before attacked +him. He could not see his face, and the man uttered no cry. The +fellow's arms seemed stronger than before and even longer. But he +himself was stronger also, and so while the madman from behind clasped +his hands below Donaldson's throat, the latter managed to get his own +arms behind him and secure a firm grip on his assailant's trousers. +Then he threw himself sideways and back as much as possible. They both +fell, and Donaldson in the scramble got to his side and shifted one arm +higher up. The fall, too, loosened the man's strangle hold though he +still remained on top. Donaldson then fought to throw him off, but the +fellow clung so close to his body that he was unable to secure a +purchase. + +The fight now settled down to a trial of strength and endurance between +them. He strained his free arm as though to crush in this demon's +ribs. He kicked out with his feet and knees; he dug his head into the +fellow's chest. The latter clung without cry or word like a living +nightmare. His hand was creeping towards Donaldson's throat again. He +felt it stealing up inch by inch and was powerless to check it. He +rolled and tumbled and pushed. Then his head came down sharply on a +beam and he lost consciousness. + +In the meanwhile Miss Arsdale had waited at the front door, her ears to +the panels. For a few moments she heard Donaldson's footsteps moving +about the house, but soon the walls swallowed him up completely. She +ran back a little and strained her eyes towards the upper windows. +They were darkened with shades. She felt a keen sense of +responsibility for not having told him, from the start, of what a demon +Arsdale became when cornered in this condition. She had half concealed +the fact because of shame and because--she shuddered back from the mere +thought of another possibility so terrible that she could not yet even +admit it to herself. She comforted herself with the memory that at the +last moment she had feebly warned. But twice before she had refused to +admit to him the worst. + +She waited as long as she was able to endure the strain and then +skirted the house to the rear. The kitchen door was wide open. She +pushed forward into the middle of the house, calling his name. +Receiving no response, she mounted the stairs to the second floor. She +glanced into each room. In the farther one an article on the floor, +which had escaped Donaldson's notice, riveted her eyes. It was an +empty pocket-book. It was neither her own nor Arsdale's. Instead of +finding relief in this, it drove her back trembling against the wall. +Then with swift resolution she gathered herself together, picked up the +wallet and hid it in her waist. As she did so, she turned as though +fearful that some one might be observing her act. + +She made her way out into the hall again and there found herself +confronting Donaldson--dusty, bruised, and dishevelled. + +He was leaning against the ladder. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +_A Parting and a Meeting_ + +He was still dazed, but at sight of her he recovered himself and +stepped forward. + +"Are you injured?" she cried. + +"Not in the slightest," he assured her. "I think if I could have seen, +I 'd have thrown him." + +"It was dark--up there?" + +"Pitch dark. Did you see him go out?" + +"No," she answered, steadying herself under the influence of his +steadiness. + +"I 'm sorry he escaped," he apologized. + +"Don't think of that now," she exclaimed. + +She moved nearer him, as though still fearing that he was concealing +some injury from her. He rearranged his disordered collar and tie +while she insisted upon dusting off his coat. He felt the brush of her +fingers in every vein, and stepped almost brusquely towards the +stairway. As a matter of fact he was none the worse for his tussle +save for a good-sized bump which was growing on the back of his head. + +"He may be here in hiding or he may have left the house. I wish you +would step outside until I search the place." + +"I shall remain here with you," she replied stubbornly. + +She was still weak from the excitement of the last few minutes, but she +followed closely at his heels while he went into every room and closet +in the house without success. Once outside, he further made a careful +search of the grounds, but again without result. He felt chagrined +that he had not been strong enough to hold the fellow. He had missed +the opportunity to put an end to her pitiful worry. + +"I don't think he will come back here," he said, as they stood again +before the front door. "He may make for the station in an attempt to +get back to town. Are you strong enough to walk it?" + +"Yes," she said eagerly. + +"I can push on ahead and send a carriage back for you." + +"So. I need the walk. But you--" she began anxiously. + +"I shall enjoy it," he declared. + +They took the pleasant country road, side by side, and in five minutes +he had forgotten the episode in a confusion of thoughts that were cheap +at the cost of a brief struggle with a madman. The wine of her +presence in this medley of blue sky, green grass, and springtime +perfume was a heady drink for one in his condition. The full-throated +birds sang to him, and the booming insects hummed to him and her eyes +prophesied to him of a thousand days like this which lay like roses in +bud. He watched with growing awe the supple movement of her body, the +tender arch of her neck, and the clear surface of her features ever +alive with the quick expression of her eager thoughts. She caught his +gaze once and colored prettily but without lowering her eyes. + +"You belong out here," he exclaimed. "This is where you should live." + +"And you?" + +"I was born in just such surroundings." + +"Why did you leave them? Men are so free." + +"Free?" + +The word startled him. + +"Men are not limited by either time or place," she avowed. + +Time? Time was an ugly word. His face grew serious. + +"I think," he said slowly, "that I am just beginning to learn what +freedom is." + +"And it is?" + +"Like everything else when carried to an extreme--a paradox. Freedom +is slavery--to something, to someone." + +"Then you are a slave?" she laughed. + +"As I thought freedom, I am the freest man on earth to-day." + +"You speak that like a king." + +"Or a slave." + +She puzzled over this a moment as she tried to keep up with him. He +had suddenly increased his pace. + +"Even on your vacation, you could n't be absolutely free, could you? I +feel responsible for that," she apologized. + +"You need n't, for you have given me this bit of road. It is the most +beautiful thing I have ever seen." + +So he turned her away from the subject and breathed more easily. She +had both loosed him and shackled him. What a procession of golden days +she made him see, if only as a mirage. Freedom? If only he could +return to that little office and drudge for her unceasingly--toil and +hack and hew at stubborn fortune merely in the consciousness that she +was somewhere in the world, that would be freedom. He knew it now as +she walked close beside him like a beautiful dream. There was no use +longer in parrying or feinting. The brush of her sleeve made him +dizzy; the sound of her voice set the whole world to music. How +trivial seemed the barriers which had loomed so formidable before him a +day ago. Given the opportunities he had thrown away and he would hew a +path to her as straight as a prairie railroad bed. He would do this, +remaining true to his old dreams and to better dreams. He would face +New York and tear a road through the very centre of it. He would ram +every steel-tipped ideal to its black heart. And all the inspiration +he needed to give him this power was the knowledge that somewhere in +one of its million crannies, this fragile half formed woman was there, +seeing the sky with her silver gray eyes. + +"I 'm afraid you are going too fast," she panted. + +He stopped himself and found her with cheeks flushed in her effort to +keep up with him. + +"Pardon me," he exclaimed, "I did n't realize. I was going pretty +fast. Let's sit down and rest a minute." + +"It is n't necessary if you will only slow down a little." + +"I will." He smiled. "My thoughts were going even faster than my +legs. We 'll rest a little, anyhow." + +They seated themselves beneath a roadside pine which had sprinkled the +ground with redolent brown needles. He wiped his hot forehead. The +undulating green fields throbbed before his excited eyes, as in +midsummer when they glimmer from the heat rays. He burrowed his +tightened fists to the cooler soil below the brown carpet. + +"I guess you are glad to sit down a moment yourself," she suggested, +noting his forced deep breathing. "Your efforts with Ben tired you +more than you thought." + +"I 'd like to have that chance over again--now." + +His tense long body looked like Force incarnate. She caught her breath +quickly. + +"I 'm glad you have n't," she gasped. + +She had the feeling that he could have picked up the boy and hurled him +like a bit of wood into the road. She was not frightened. She liked +to see him in such a mood. It gave her, somehow, a big sense of +safety. It swept away all those haunting fears which had so long been +always present in the background of her consciousness. It did this in +as impersonal a way as the sun scatters shadows. + +"The trouble is," he was saying, "that we don't often get a chance to +try things--the big things--twice. The fairer way would seem to be to +allow this, for we have to fail once in order to learn." + +"You are generalizing?" she asked tentatively. + +"I am sentimentalizing," he answered abruptly, suddenly coming to +himself. He was more personal than he had any right to be. It did no +good to become maudlin over what was irrevocably decided. The Present. +He must cling to that one idea. Let him drink in the sunshine while it +lasted; let him absorb as much of her as he could without taking one +tittle from her. + +His phrase had piqued her curiosity once more. She would like to know +the inner meaning of his impatient eyes, the explanation of why his +lips closed with such spasmodic firmness. There was something +tantalizing in this reserve which he seemed to try so hard to maintain. +She would like to deserve his confidences. He aroused her sympathy--a +shy desire to be tender to him just because in his rugged strength +there seemed to be nothing else but this for which he could need a +woman. But as he glanced up she colored at the presumption of her +thoughts. + +"I think," he said, "that if you are rested we had better start again." + +She rose at once and took her place by his side for the last stretch of +free road that lay between her and the city. + +At the station there was no sign of the fugitive. She objected +instantly to Donaldson's suggestion that she go on while he wait over +the night in the hope that Arsdale might turn up here for the first +train in the morning. + +"You have already sacrificed enough of your time to me and mine," she +protested. "I will not listen to it." + +And if she had been before her mirror doubtless the lady there would +have pressed her to another explanation. + +He submitted reluctantly, a new doubt springing to his eyes. But she +was firm and so they boarded the train once more for home. She used +the word "home," and Donaldson found himself responding to it with a +thrill as though he himself were included. The word had lost its +meaning to him since his freshman year at college. + +They were back behind the hedge in so short a time that the day +scarcely appeared real. She left him a moment in the hall while she +ran upstairs to see Marie. The latter was still in bed, and at sight +of her young mistress had a sharp question upon her lips. + +"Chčrie," she demanded, "why did not Ben go with you?" + +"Ben?" faltered the girl. + +"He was downstairs an hour after you left and would not come in to see +me." + +"Ben was here?" + +"I shouted to him and he answered me. But his voice sounded bad. Is +it well with him?" + +"He may be here now. I will run down and see." + +She flew down the stairs and into his room. It was empty. She rushed +into her own room. It had been rifled. Every drawer was open, and it +took but a glance to see that her few jewels were missing. She panted +back to Marie. + +"You are sure it was he who was here?" + +"Do you think I do not know his voice after all these years?" + +The old woman put out her hand and seized the girl's arm. + +"Again?" she demanded. + +"Yes! Yes! Oh, Marie, what does it all mean?" + +"Ta, ta, chčrie. Rest your head here." + +She drew the young woman down beside her. + +"You went out there all alone. You are brave, but you should not have +done that. You should have taken me with you. See, now, I shall get +well. I shall arise at once. I never knew the black horses to fail +me." + +Marie struggled to her elbow and threw off the clothes. But Elaine +covered her up tight again, forcing her to lie still. + +"Stay here quietly until I come back," she insisted. "I shall not be +gone but a minute." + +She hurried to her own room, trying to understand what the meaning of +this impossible situation might be. Ben was here and Ben was in the +bungalow and--there was the purse. There was the chance, of course, +that Marie was mistaken, but Marie did not make such mistakes as this. +Then one of the two men was not Ben. She took out again the +pocket-book she had found and stared at it as though in hope that she +might receive her answer through this. Then with a perplexed gasp, she +threw it into one of the upset drawers, as though it burned her fingers. + +She went downstairs to Donaldson. For reasons of her own she did not +dare to tell him of this fresh complication, but she insisted that he +should bother himself no more to-night with the matter. + +"You should go straight back home and get some sleep," she told him. + +Home? The word was flat again. + +"And you?" he inquired. + +"I shall try to sleep, too." + +"You have a bolt on your door?" + +"Yes." + +"Will you promise to slide it before you retire?" + +She nodded. + +"If you only had a telephone in your room." + +"There is one in the hall." + +"Then you can call me in a moment if you should get frightened or need +me?" + +"You are good." + +"You will not hesitate?" + +"No." + +"Then I shall feel that I am still near you. I will have a cab in +waiting and on an emergency can reach here in twenty minutes. You +could keep yourself barricaded until then?" + +"Yes. But really there is no need. I--" + +"You have n't wrestled with him. He is strong and--mad." + +Still he hesitated. If it had been possible without compromise to her +he would have remained downstairs. He could roll up in a rug and find +all the sleep that he needed. + +"See here," he exclaimed, as the sane solution to the whole difficulty, +"why don't you let me take you and Marie to the Martha Washington?" + +She placed her hand lightly upon his sleeve. + +"I shall be all right here. You 'd best go at once and get some sleep. +Your eyes look heavy." + +Every minute that he stood near her he grew more reluctant to leave. +It seemed like desertion. As he still stood irresolute, she decided +for him. + +"You must go now," she insisted. + +"Will you call me if you are even so much as worried--even if it is +only a blind making a noise?" + +"Yes, and that will make me feel quite safe." + +The booming of a distant clock--jailer of civilization--warned him that +he must delay no longer. He took her hand a moment and then turned +back into his free barren world. + +He determined to dine somewhere down town and then spend the evening at +a theatre. It was not what he wished, but he did not dare to go back +to his room. He did not crave the movement of the crowds as he had +last night, and yet he felt the need of something that would keep him +from thinking. He jumped into the waiting cab and was driven to Park +Row, where he got out. He had not eaten anything all day and felt +faint. + +Instead, however, of seeking one of the more pretentious dining rooms +he dropped into a quiet restaurant and ate a simple meal. Then he came +out and started to walk leisurely towards the Belasco. + +He had not proceeded a hundred yards before his plan was very +materially changed. He heard a cry, turned quickly, and saw a +messenger boy sprawling in the street. The boy, in darting across, had +tripped over a rope attached to an automobile having a second large +machine in tow. The latter, the driver unable to turn because of +vehicles which had crowded in on both sides of it, was bearing down +upon the boy, who was either stunned or too frightened to move. This +Donaldson took in at a glance as he dived under the belly of a horse, +seized the boy and, having time for nothing else, held him above his +head, dropping him upon the radiator of the approaching machine as it +bore him to the ground. The chauffeur had shoved on his brakes, but +they were weak. The momentum threw Donaldson hard enough to stun him +for a moment and was undoubtedly sufficient to have killed the boy. + +When Donaldson rose to his feet he found himself uninjured but +something of a hero. Several newspaper photographers who happened to +be passing (as newspaper photographers have a way of doing) snapped +him. A reporter friend of Saul's recognized him and asked for a +statement. + +"A statement be hanged," snorted Donaldson. "Where's the kid?" + +"Well," returned the newspaper man, "I 'm darned if I don't make a +statement to you then; that was the quickest and nerviest stunt I 've +ever seen pulled off in New York city." + +"Thanks. Where 's the kid?" + +The kid, with a grin from ear to ear, had kindly assumed a pose upon +the radiator of the machine which had so nearly killed him for the +benefit of the insatiate photographers. It was 3457. + +"You!" exclaimed Donaldson, as he found himself looking into the +familiar face. He lifted the boy to the ground. + +"Let's get out of the crowd, kid," he whispered. "I want to see you." + +He pushed his way through to the sidewalk, followed by the admiring +throng, and hurried along to the nearest cab. He shoved the boy +quickly into this and followed after as the photographers gave one last +despairing snap. + +"Drive anywhere," he ordered the driver. "Only get out of this." + +He turned to the boy. + +"Are you hurt?" + +"No. Are youse?" + +"Not a mite. Where were you bound?" + +"Home." + +"Where is that?" + +The boy gave an address and Donaldson repeated it to the driver. + +"I 'll go along with you and see that you don't block any more traffic." + +"Gee. I never saw the rope." + +"That's because you were in a hurry. It does n't pay to hurry life at +all. Not a second." + +"But the comp'ny can fire yer in a hurry if you don't hurry." + +"A company can hurry because it hasn't a soul. You have. Keep it." + +Donaldson felt as though he had found an old friend. It seemed now a +month ago since he had wandered through the stores with this boy. The +latter recalled again something of the spirit of those hours. + +"Say," asked Bobby, "h'ain't yuh spent all yer coin yet?" + +"No. I have n't had time to spend more than a few dollars since I left +you. I ought to have hung on to you as a mascot." + +"It's a cinch. I c'u'd a-helped yuh if yer 'd follered me. Me ten +spot's gone." + +"How'd you do it?" + +"Huh? Yuh talks as though a feller'd have to hunt round an' find a +hole to drop it inter. Dere 's allers one that's handy, 'n' that's th' +rent hole." + +"That does n't come on you, does it? Where's your Daddy?" + +"Dead," answered the boy laconically. + +The word had a new meaning to Donaldson as it fell from the lips of the +boy. Dead. It was a terrible word. + +"Guess th' ol' gent must ha' thought I was comin' to join him a minute +ago. Would ha' been sort of rough on Mumsy." + +"And on you, too," returned Donaldson fiercely. "You have been cheated +out of a lot of life. Don't let that happen. Cling to every minute +you can get. Die hard, boy. Die hard." + +Bobby yawned. + + + + +CHAPTER XII + +_District Messenger 3457_ + +The home of District Messenger 3457, who was known in private life as +Bobby Wentworth, was what is technically called a basement kitchen. + +Take it between four and five in the afternoon, which was a couple of +hours before Bobby was expected home, and in consequence, at least an +hour and a half before anything was astir in the way of supper, things +got sort of lonesome looking and dull to Sis, daughter of the house. +Ten to one that the baby--the tow-headed youngest--was a bit fussy; ten +to one the mother gave you a sharp answer if you spoke to her, though, +considering everything, she was remarkably patient; ten to one that +every torn and cracked thing in the room became so conspicuous that you +felt like a poor lone orphan girl and wanted to cry. If you did n't +live below the sidewalk this was apt to go on until it was time to get +supper, but here, in order to see to do the mending, the lamp was +lighted, even in May, an hour or so earlier than the fire. + +Then what a change! Instantly it was as though every one was tucked in +from the night as children get tucked into bed. Not being able to see +out of the windows any longer it was possible to imagine out there what +one wished,--a big field, for instance, sprinkled over with flowers. +The dull grays on wall and ceiling became brightened as though mixed +with gold fire paint. Everything snuggled in closer; the kitchen table +covered with a red table-cloth, the mirror with putty in the centre of +the crack to keep the pieces from falling out, the kitchen stove, the +wooden chairs, the iron sink with the tin dishes hanging over it, and +the shelf on the wall with the wooden clock ticking cheerfully away, +all closed in noiselessly nearer to the lamp. Ten to one that now +mother glanced up with a smile; ten to one that the baby chuckled and +fell to playing with his toes if he could n't find anything better +within reach; ten to one there was nothing in the room that did n't +look almost new. One thing was certain,--the light did n't reveal any +dirt that would come off for there was n't any. Mrs. Wentworth's New +England ancestry and training had survived even the blows of a hard +luck which had n't fought her fair. + +On this particular night Sis had just lost herself in her thumbworn +volume of Grimm's Fairy Tales when--there came a kick on the outside +door and the sound of two voices coming down the short hall. The next +minute Bobby entered with his clothes all mud and behind him a strange +gentleman. + +It was evident that something had happened to the boy, but the mother +did not scream. She was not that kind. Her lips tightened as she +braced herself for whatever this new decree of Fate might be. In a +jiffy Bobby, who recognized that look as the same he had seen when they +had brought Daddy home, was at her side. + +"Cheer up, Mumsy," he exclaimed. "Nothin' doin' in caskits this time." + +She lifted her thin, angular face from the boy to Donaldson. The +latter explained, + +"He got tangled up a bit with an automobile, but I guess the machine +got the worst of it. At any rate your boy is all right." + +The mother passed her hand over the lad's head, expressing a world of +tenderness in the act. + +"It was kind of you to bring him home," she said. + +The directness of the woman, her self control, her simplicity, enlisted +Donaldson's interest at once. He had expected hysterics. He would +have staked his last dollar that the woman came from Vermont. His +observant eyes had in these few minutes covered everything in the room, +including the long-handled dipper by the faucet used for dipping into +pails sweating silver mist, the wooden clock upon the mantelpiece, and +the Hicks Almanac hanging below it. He felt as though he were standing +in a Berringdon kitchen with acres of green outside the windows +sweeping in a circle off to the little hills, the acres of forest +green, and the big hills beyond. + +The mother stepped forward and brushed the mud from Bobby's coat. The +baby screwed up his face for a howl to call attention to his neglect in +the midst of all this excitement. + +"What's this?" exclaimed Bobby, picking him up with as substantial an +air of paternity as though he were forty. "What's this? Goneter cry +afore a stranger?" + +He held the child up to Donaldson. + +"The kid," he announced laconically. "What yuh think of him?" + +[Illustration: _"The kid," he announced laconically. "What yuh think +of him?"_] + +"Corker," answered Donaldson. "Let me hold him." + +"Sure. Get a chair for the gent, Sis." + +In another minute Donaldson found himself sitting by the kitchen stove +with a chuckling youngster on his knee. No one paid any attention to +him; just took him for granted as a friend until he felt as though he +had been one of the family all his life. Besides, the centre of the +stage rightly belonged to Bobby, who was occupying it with something of +a swagger in his walk. + +"Well, I hope this will teach you a lesson, Bobby Wentworth," scolded +the mother, now that after various proddings she had determined to her +satisfaction that none of the boy's bones were broken. "I wish to the +Lord you was back where the hills are so steep there ain't no +automobiles." + +Donaldson broke in. + +"You were brought up in the country, Mrs. Wentworth?" + +"Laws, yes, and lived there most of my life." + +"In New England?" + +"Berringdon, Vermont." + +"Berringdon? Your husband was n't one of the Wentworth boys?" + +"He was Jim Wentworth, the oldest" + +"Well, well! Then _you_ are Sally Burnham." + +"And you," she hesitated, "I do b'lieve you 're Peter Donaldson." + +"Yes," he said, "I 'm Peter Donaldson." + +The name from her lips took on its boyhood meaning. He shifted the +youngster to his arms and crossing the room held out his hand to her. + +"We did n't know each other very well in those days, but from now +on--from now on we 're old friends, are n't we?" + +The steel blue eyes grew moist. + +"It's a long time," she said, "since I 've seen any one from there." + +"Or I. You left--" + +"When I was married. Jim came here because his cousin got him a job as +motorman. He done well,--but he was killed by his car just after the +baby was born." + +"Killed? That's tough. And it left you all alone with the children?" + +"Yes. The road paid us a little, but I was sick and the children were +sick, so it did n't last long." + +She was not complaining. It was a bare recital of facts. But it +raised a series of keen incisive thoughts in Donaldson's brain. + +Wentworth had been killed. Chance had deprived this woman of her man; +Chance had grabbed at her boy; Chance had sent Donaldson to save the +latter; Chance--Donaldson caught his breath at the possibility the +sequence suggested--Chance may have sent him to offset as far as +possible the husband's death. It was too late, although he felt the +obligation in a new light, for him to give his life for the life of +that other, but there was one other thing he could do. He could play +the father with what he had left of himself. So that when he came to +face Wentworth--he smiled gently at the approaching possibility--he +could hold his head high as he went to meet him. + +He had argued to Barstow that he was shirking no responsibilities,--but +what of such unseen responsibilities as this? What of the thousand +others that he should die too soon to realize? It was possible that +countless other such opportunities as this must be wasted because he +should not be there to play his part. But there was still time to do +something; he need not see, as with the girl and with love, the fine +possibilities go utterly to waste. + +The mother had noticed a warm light steal over his face, not realizing +how closely his thoughts concerned her own future; she had seen the +sabre cut of pain which had followed his thought of the girl and what +she might have meant, knowing nothing of that grim tragedy. Now she +saw his eyes clear as with their inspired light they were lifted to +her. Yet the talk went on uninterruptedly on the same commonplace +level. + +"How old was Jim?" + +"He was within a week of thirty." + +That was within a few days of his own age. At thirty, Jim Wentworth, +clinging to life, had been wrenched from it; at thirty, he himself had +thrown it away. Wentworth had shouldered his duties manfully; he had +been blind to them. But it was not too late to do something. He was +being led as by Marley's ghost to one new vision of life after another. +He saw love--with death grinning over love's shoulder; he was to be +given a taste of fatherhood,--the grave at his feet. + +"Do you ever hear from the people back home?" he asked abruptly. + +"Not very often," she answered. "After the old folks went I sorter got +out of tech with the others." + +"What became of the homestead?" + +"It was sold little by little when father was sick. When he died there +was n't much left. That went to pay the debts." + +"Who lives there now?" + +"Let me see--I don't think any one is there now. Last I heard, it was +fer sale." + +"Who holds it?" + +"Deacon Staples. Leastways it was him who held the notes." + +"That old pirate? No wonder there was n't anything left." + +"He _was_ a leetle hard," she admitted. "I wanted Jim to go back an' +take it after father died, but he couldn't seem to make a deal with the +deacon." + +"I s'pose not. No one this side of the devil himself will ever make a +square deal with him. He 's still as strong in the church as ever?" + +She smiled. + +"I see by the Berringdon paper that he begun some revival meetin's in +town." + +"Which means he 's just put through some particularly thievish deal and +wants to ease his conscience. Have you the paper? Perhaps the sale is +advertised there." + +She found the paper and ran a finger down the columns until she came to +the item. + +"Makes you feel sort of queer," she said, "to see the old place for +sale. Almost like slaves must ha' felt to see their own in the market." + +She read slowly, + +"'Nice farm for sale cheap; story and a half frame house, good barn, +ten acres of land, and a twenty-acre pasture lot. $1800. Apply to A. +F. Staples, Berringdon, Vermont.' + +"I 'm glad the old pasture is going with the house. Somehow the two +seem to belong together. It was right in front across the road, an' +all us children used to play there. There 's a clump of oak trees at +th' end of it. Hope they have n't cut them down." + +"Eighteen hundred dollars, was it?" asked Donaldson. + +"Eighteen hundred dollars," she repeated slowly. "My, thet 's a lot of +money!" + +"That depends," he said, "on many things. Should you like to go back +there?" + +The answer came before her lips could utter the words, in the awakening +of every dormant hope in her nature--in every suppressed dream. Some +younger creature was freed in the hardening eyes. The strain of the +lips was loosened. Even the passive worn hands became alert. + +"I 'd sell my soul a'most to get back there--to get the children back +there," she answered. + +"It 's the place for them." + +"Thet's the way _I 've_ felt," she ran on. "Mine don't belong here. +It's not 'cause they 're any better, but because they've got the +country in their blood. They was meant to grow up in thet very pasture +just like I did. I 've ben oneasy ever since the boys was born, and so +was Jim. Both of us hankered after the old sights and sounds--the +garden with its mixed up colors an' the smell of lilac an' the tinkle +of the cow bells. Funny how you miss sech little things as those." + +"Little things?" Donaldson returned. "Little things? They are the +really big things; they are the things you remember, the things that +hang by you and sweeten your life to the end!" + +"Then it ain't just my own notions? But I have wanted the children to +grow up in the garden instead of the gutters. If Jim had lived it +would have be'n. We 'd planned to save a little every year until we +had enough ahead to take a mortgage. But you can't do it with nothin'. +There ain't no way, is there?" + +"Perhaps. Perhaps," he said. + +She leaned toward him, in her face the strength of a man. + +"I 'd work," she said, "I 'd work my fingers to the bone if I had a +chance to get back there. I 'm strong 'nuff to take care of a place. +If I only had just a tiny strip of land--just 'nuff fer a garden. I +could get some chickens an' pay off little by little. I 'm good for +ten years yet an' by thet time Bobby would be old 'nough to take hold. +If I only had a chance I could do it!" + +Her cheeks had taken on color. She looked like one inspired. +Donaldson sat dumb in admiration of her splendid courage. + +"How long," he asked, "how long would it take you to get ready to leave +here?" + +She scarcely understood. She didn't dare to understand for fear it +might be a mistake. + +"I mean," he said, "if you had a chance to go back to the farm how long +would it take you to pack up?" + +"You don't mean if--if I _really_ had the chance?" + +He nodded. + +"Lord, if I had the chance--if I _really_ had the chance, I 'd leave +afore to-morrer night." + +"To-morrow is Sunday. But it seems as though you might get ready to +take the noon train on Tuesday." + +She thought he was merely carrying her dream a little farther than she +had ever ventured to carry it herself. So she looked at him with a +smile checked half-way by the beauty of the fantasy. + +"It's too good a'most to dream about," she sighed. + +"It is n't a dream," he answered, "unless it is a dream come true. +Pack up such things as you wish to take with you and be ready to leave +at noon Tuesday." + +"Peter Donaldson!" + +"I 'm in earnest," he assured her. + +"Peter, Peter, it _can't_ be true! I can't believe it!" + +There were tears in her eyes. + +"Hush," he pleaded. "Don't--don't do that. Sit down. Had n't you +better sit down?" + +She obeyed as meekly as a child, her hands clasped in her lap. + +"Now," he said, "I 'll tell you what I want to do; I 'm going to buy +the farm for you and I 'm going to get a couple of cows or so, a yard +full of chickens, a horse and a porker, and start you fair." + +"But why should _you_ do this?" she demanded. + +"I don't exactly know," he answered. "But I 'm going to do for you so +far as I can what Jim would have done if he had lived." + +"But you did n't know Jim!" + +"I did n't, but I know him now. The kids introduced me." + +"He was a good man--a very good man, Peter." + +"Yes, he must have been that. I am glad that I can do something to +finish a good man's work." + +"You are rich? You can afford this?" + +"Yes, I can afford it. But I don't feel that I 'm giving,--I 'm +getting. It would not be possible for me to use my money with greater +satisfaction to myself." + +"Oh, you are generous!" + +"No, not I. I can't claim that. I 've been selfish--intensely, +cowardly selfish." + +He meant to stand squarely before this woman. He would not soil his +act by any hypocrisy. But she only smiled back at him unbelieving. + +He glanced at his watch. It was eight o'clock. He was ready now to +return to the hotel. He wished to leave at once, for he shrank from +the undeserved gratitude he saw welling up in her eyes. + +"You must listen carefully to what I tell you," he said, "for I may not +be able to see you again before you leave. Do you think you can get +ready without any help?" + +"Yes," she answered excitedly; "there is n't much here to pack up." + +"If I were you I would n't pack up anything but what I could put in a +trunk. Sell off these things for what you can get and start fresh. +I'll send you enough to furnish the house." + +"I ought to do that much myself," she objected feebly. + +"No, I want to do this thing right up chuck. As soon as I reach the +hotel I will telephone the Deacon. If I can't buy that house, I 'll +get another, and in either case, I will drop you a note to-night. I +'ll arrange to have the deed left with some one up there, and I 'll +also deposit in the local bank enough for the other things. So all you +'ve to do is to get ready and start on Tuesday. Do you understand?" + +"Yes! Yes!" she gasped. "But it doesn't sound true--it sounds like a +dream." + +"Are you going to have faith enough to act on it?" + +"Oh, I did n't mean that I doubted! I trust you, Peter Donaldson." + +He reached in his pocket and took out five ten-dollar bills. + +"This is for your fare and to settle up any little accounts you may +have." + +She took the money with trembling fingers while Bobby and Sis crowded +around to gape at it. + +"There," exclaimed Donaldson in relief. "Now you 're all fixed up, and +on Monday morning Bobby can throw up his job. He can fire the company." + +"Gee!" he gasped. + +And almost before any of them could catch their breath he had kissed +the baby, gripped Mrs. Wentworth's hand a second, and with a "S'long" +to the others disappeared as though, Sis declared, a magician had waved +his wand over him. + +It was after nine before he finally reached the Waldorf. No message +was waiting for him from either the girl or Saul. He hunted up the +telephone operator at once. + +"Call up Berringdon, Vermont, for me, please." + +"With whom do you wish to talk?" + +"With Deacon Staples." + +He smiled as he saw the hands of the clock pointing to nine-thirty. It +was long after the Deacon's bedtime. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + +_The Sleepers_ + +It was twenty minutes of ten before a sleepy and decidedly irritable +voice responded in answer to Donaldson's cheery hello. There was +little of Christian spirit to be detected in it. + +"Is this Deacon Staples?" + +"Yes. But I 'd like t' know what ye mean by gettin' a man outern bed +at this time of night?" + +"Why, you were n't in bed, Deacon!" + +"In bed? See here, is this some confounded joke?" + +"What kind of a joke, Deacon?" + +"A--joke. Who are you, anyway?" + +"I don't believe you remember me; I 'm Peter Donaldson." + +"Don't recoleck your name. What d' ye want this time o' night?" + +"Why, it's early yet, Deacon. You weren't really in bed!" + +"I tell ye I was, an' that so is all decent folk. Once 'n fer +all--what d'ye want?" + +"I heard you had a house to sell." + +"Wall, I ain't sellin' houses on th' Lord's day." + +"Won't be Sunday for two hours and twenty minutes yet, Deacon. If you +talk lively, you can do a day's work before then. What will you take +for the old Burnham place?" + +The deacon hesitated. He was a bit confused by this unusual way of +doing business. It was too hurried an affair, and besides it did not +give him an opportunity to size up his man. Nor did he know how +familiar this possible purchaser was with the property. + +"Where be you?" he demanded. + +"In New York." + +"In--see here, I rec'gnize your voice; you 're Billy Harkins down to +the corner. Ye need n't think ye can play your jokes on me." + +"We 've only two hours and a quarter left," warned Donaldson. + +"Well, ye need n't think I 'm goin' to stand here in the cold fer thet +long." + +"It's warm 'nuff here," Donaldson answered genially. + +"Maybe ye 've gut more on than I have." + +"Hush, Deacon, there are ladies present." + +"They ain't neither, down here. Our women are in bed, where they +oughter be." + +"Not at this hour! Why, the evening is young yet. But how much will +you take?" + +"Wal, th' place is wuth 'bout two thousand dollars." + +Donaldson realized that it was the magic word "New York" which had so +suddenly inflated the price. The deacon was taking a chance that this +might be some wealthy New Yorker looking for a country home. + +"Do you call that a fair price?" he asked. + +"The house is in good condition, and thar 's over three acres of good +grass land and ten acres of pasture with pooty trees in it." + +"Just so. I 'm not able to look the place over, so I 'll have to +depend upon your word for it. You consider that a fair price for the +property?" + +"Well, o' course, fer cash I might knock off fifty." + +"I see. Then nineteen hundred and fifty is an honest value of the +whole estate?" + +"I 'low as much." + +"Deacon." + +"Yes" (eagerly). + +"You 're a member of the church." + +"Yes" (lamely). + +"And you certainly would n't deal unfairly with a neighbor on Sunday?" + +"What--" + +"It's thirteen minutes of ten on a Saturday night. That's pretty near +Sunday, is n't it?" + +"What of it?" (suspiciously). + +"Remember that advertisement you inserted in the Berringdon Gazette?" + +There was a silence of a minute. + +"Wall," faltered the deacon rather feebly, "I thought mebbe ye wanted +the farm fer a summer place. It's wuth more fer that." + +"It is n't worth a cent more. You simply tried to steal two hundred +dollars." + +"Ye mean ter say--" + +"Exactly that; I 've prevented you from going to bed within two hours +of the Lord's day with the theft of two hundred dollars on your soul." + +"If ye think I 'm gonter stand up here in th' cold and listen to sech +talk as thet--" + +"I 'll give you fifteen hundred dollars cash for the place," +interrupted Donaldson. "And remember that I know you through and +through. I even know how much you stole from old man Burnham." + +This was a chance shot, but it evidently went home from the sound of +uneasy coughing and spluttering that came to him over the telephone. +Donaldson found considerable amusement in grilling this country Shylock. + +"Why, the house 'n' barn is wuth more 'n thet," the deacon exploded. + +"I 'll give you fifteen hundred dollars, and mail the money to you +to-night." + +"See here, I don't know who ye be, but ye 're darned sassy. I won't +trade with ye afore Monday an'--" + +"Then you won't trade at all." + +"I 'll split th'--" + +"You 'll take that price or leave it." + +"I'll take it, but--" + +"Good," broke in Donaldson sharply. "The operator here is a witness. +I 'll send the money to-night, and have a tenant in the house Tuesday. +Good night, Deacon." + +"If yer--" + +The rest of the sentence faded into the jangle of the line, but +Donaldson broke in again. + +"Say, Deacon, were you really in bed at this time of night?" + +"Gol darn--" + +"Careful! Careful!" + +"Wall, ye need n't think cause ye 're in N' York ye can be so all-fired +smart." + +A sharp click told him that the deacon had hung up the receiver in +something of a temper. Donaldson came out of the booth, hesitated, and +then put in another call. He found relaxation in the vaudeville +picture he had of the spindle-shanked hypocrite fretting in the cold so +many miles distant. He was morally certain that the old fellow had +robbed the dying Burnham of half his scant property. If he had had the +time he would have started a lawyer upon an investigation. As he did +n't, and he saw nothing more entertaining ahead of him until morning, +he took satisfaction in pestering him as much as possible in this +somewhat childish way. + +"Keep at him until he answers," he ordered the girl. + +It took ten minutes to rouse the deacon again. + +"Is this Deacon Staples?" he inquired. + +"Consarn ye--" + +"I was n't sure you said good night. I should hate to think you went +to sleep in a temper." + +"It's none of your business how I go to sleep. If you ring me up again +I 'll have the law on ye." + +"So? I 'll return good for evil. I 'll give you a warning; look out +for the ghost of old Burnham to-night." + +"For what?" + +There was fear in the voice. Donaldson smiled. This suggested a new +cue. + +"He's coming sure, because his daughter is a widow, and needs that +money." + +"I held his notes," the deacon explained, as though really anxious to +offer an excuse. "I can prove it." + +"Prove it to Burnham's ghost. He may go back." + +"B--back where?" + +"To his grave. He sleeps uneasy to-night." + +"Be you crazy?" + +"Look behind you--quick!" + +The receiver dropped. Donaldson could hear it swinging against the +wall. Without giving the deacon an opportunity to express his wrath +and fears, Donaldson hung up his own receiver and cheerfully paid the +cost of his twenty-minute talk. + +In spite of the fact that on Thursday night he had slept only three +hours, that on Friday night he had not even lain down, his mind was +still alert. He did not have the slightest sense of weariness. It was +rest enough for him to know that the girl was asleep, relaxation enough +to recall the maiden joy that had freshened the eyes of Mrs. Wentworth. + +It was too late to get a money-order, but he secured a check from the +hotel manager for the amount, and finding in the Berringdon paper the +name of a local lawyer whom he remembered as a boy, he mailed it to him +with a letter of explanation. The deed was to be made out to Mrs. +Alice E. Wentworth, and was to be held until she called for it. In +case of any difficulty--for it occurred to him that the deacon might at +the last moment sacrifice a good trade out of spite--the lawyer was to +telegraph him at once at the Waldorf. + +Then he looked up the time the Berringdon train left and wrote a note +giving Mrs. Wentworth final detailed instructions. + +Then still unwilling to trust himself alone with his thoughts, +Donaldson remained about the lobby. He felt in touch here with all the +wide world which lay spread out below the night sky. He studied with +interest the weary travellers who were dropped here by steamers which +had throbbed across so many turbulent watery miles, by locomotives hot +from their steel-held course. The ever-changing figures absorbed him +until, with her big shouldered husband, a woman entered who remotely +resembled her he had been forced to leave to the protection of one old +serving maid. Then in spite of himself, his thoughts ran wild again. + +He hungered to get back to his old office, where, if he could find +nothing else to do for her, he could at least bury himself in his law +books. This unknown man strode across the lobby so confidently--every +sturdy line of him suggesting blowsy strength. The unknown woman +tripped along at his heels in absolute trust of it. And he, Donaldson, +sat here, a helpless spectator, with a worthier woman trusting him as +though he were such a man. + +In rebellion he argued that it was absurd that such a passion as his +towards a woman of whom he had seen so little should be genuine. His +condition had made him mawkishly sentimental. He had been fascinated +like a callow youngster by her delicate, pretty features; by her deep +gray eyes, her budding lips, her gentle voice. He would be writing +verse next. He was free--free, and in one stroke he had placed the +world at his feet. He was above it--beyond it, and every living human +soul in it. He rose as though to challenge the hotel itself, which +represented the crude active part of this world. + +But with the memory of his afternoon, his declaration of independence +lasted but a moment. He was back in the green fields with her--back in +the blazing sunshine with her, and the knowledge that from there, not +here, the road began along which lay everything his eager nature craved. + +Well, even so, was he going to cower back into a corner? There still +remained to him five days. To use them decently he must keep to the +present. The big future--the true future was dead. Admit it. There +still remained a little future. Let him see what he could do with that. + +A porter came in with a mop and swabbed up the deserted floors. +Donaldson watched every movement of his strong arms and felt sorry, +when, his part played, he retired to the wings. Then he went to his +room. He partly undressed and threw himself upon the bed. It was then +ten minutes of four on Sunday morning, May twenty-sixth. + +In spite of his apparent wakefulness he napped, for when he came to +himself again it was broad daylight. An anxious looking hotel clerk +stood at the foot of his bed, while a pop-eyed bell-boy pressed close +behind him. Donaldson rose to his elbow. + +"What the devil are you doing in here?" he demanded. + +The clerk appeared relieved by the sound of his voice. + +"Why, sir, we got a bit worried about you. We weren't able to raise +you all day yesterday." + +"Could n't what? I sat up until two o'clock this morning in the lobby. +I was awake in my room here two hours after that!" + +"You must be mistaken, sir. We rang your room telephone several times +yesterday, and pounded at your door without getting an answer." + +"I was away during the day, but I was here all last night. I asked you +particularly if any call had been received for me." + +The clerk smiled tentatively. + +"The chamber-maid found you in bed at eleven o'clock in the morning, +sir." + +"The chamber-maid must have come into the wrong room," answered +Donaldson, beginning to suspect that he had caught the two men in the +act of thieving. "I was n't in bed at all yesterday, and left the city +at nine o'clock." + +The clerk hitched uneasily. It was evident to him that Donaldson had +been drinking, and had the usual morning-after reluctance about +admitting it. The night telephone operator had said that he had acted +queer. However, as long as the man was n't dead this did n't concern +him. + +"Sorry the mistake was made, sir," he replied, anxious now to +conciliate the guest. "I would n't have bothered you only the lady +said the call was urgent." + +"Good lord, man, what call?" + +"It is to ring up Miss Arsdale's house at once, sir." + +"When did you get that?" demanded Donaldson, as he sprang from his bed. + +"This morning, sir, at one o'clock." + +In three strides Donaldson was across the room. The hotel attendants +crowded one another in their efforts to get out. + +Donaldson gave the number and waited, every pulse beat of time +throbbing hot through his temples. She had called and been unable to +rouse him, while he lay there like a yokel and dreamed of her! He +conjured up visions of all sorts of disaster. The boy might have +returned and--he shuddered and drew back from the suggestion. He +refused to imagine. He beat a tattoo with the inane hook which summons +Central. + +"Number does n't answer, sir," came the reply. + +"They _must_ answer! You must _make_ them answer." + +Again the interminable wait; again the dead reply. He hung up the +receiver. The hallucinations which swarmed through his brain taken in +connection with the meaningless talk of the hotel employees made him +fear an instant for his sanity. + +He sat down on the edge of the bed and devoted five minutes to the +concentration of his mind upon the fact that he must be cool, must be +steady. Else he would be of no use to any one. He must be deliberate. +Then he dressed himself with complete self-possession. + +When he came down into the lobby he noticed with some astonishment the +business-like appearance of the place for Sunday morning. The clerk +glanced at him curiously as he approached. Donaldson spoke with +exaggerated slowness and precision. + +"I wish," he said, "that you would kindly make a careful note of any +messages which may come to me to-day. Your error of this morning--" + +He stopped as his eye caught the calendar, and its big black numeral. +It read Monday, May 27. He looked from the calendar to the clerk. + +"Have n't you made a mistake?" Donaldson asked. + +"No, sir. Shall I send a boy with you to the Turkish baths, sir?" + +Then the truth dawned upon him; he had lost in sleep one whole precious +day! + +And the girl-- + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + +_Consequences_ + +The driver threw on his high speed after a promise that his fine would +be paid and ten dollars over should they be stopped. He made the house +in fifteen minutes and was lucky enough not to pass a policeman. +Donaldson jumping out bade him wait for further orders. + +Donaldson received no response to his ring. He tried the latch and +found the door locked. On a run he skirted the house to the rear. The +back door was open. He pushed through into the cold kitchen, through +this into the dining room, and so into the hall. There was no sign +either of the servant or of the girl herself. He was now thoroughly +alarmed. + +As he ran up the stairs he was confronted by what he took to be an old +witch in a purple wrapper. She barred his way in a decidedly militant +manner, her sunken black eyes flashing anger. She seemed about to +spring at him. + +"Bien," she croaked, "qui diable are you?" + +He paused. + +"You are Marie?" he demanded. + +"Bien, and you?" + +A voice came from a room leading from the hall. "Marie, who is it? Is +it Ben?" + +"I know not who it is," Marie shouted back; "but if he comes up another +step I will tear out his eyes." + +"Miss Arsdale," called Donaldson, "is anything the trouble? It is +I--Donaldson." + +"You!" + +Her voice, which had at first sounded weary, as the voice of one who +has waited a long while, gathered strength. + +"It is all right, Marie," she called. "This--this is my friend." + +Marie relaxed and gripped the banister for support. She was weak. + +"I have never seen him before," she challenged. + +There was a movement at the door. + +"No, you have never seen him. Come here a moment, Marie." + +With difficulty the old woman hobbled back into the room to her +mistress, and for a few moments Donaldson waited impatiently for the +next development. It came when he heard her voice asking him to come +in. He was in the room in three strides. She was sitting in her chair +with her head bandaged, Marie sitting by her side as though liking but +little his intrusion. At sight of the white strip across her forehead, +he caught his breath. + +"What does this mean?" he demanded with quick assumption of authority. + +"You must n't think it is anything serious," she hastened to explain, +awed by the fierceness of his manner. "It is only that--that he came +back." + +"Arsdale?" + +"Yes." + +"Where is he now?" + +"He went away again. Marie and I tried to hold him, but we weren't +strong enough." + +"It would be easier to hold the devil," interpolated Marie. + +"But you," asked the girl,--"I was afraid you had met with an accident." + +"I?" he cried. "I was asleep--asleep like a drunken lout." + +"All yesterday--all last night?" she asked in astonishment. + +"Yes," he admitted, as though it were an accusation. + +"Ah, that is good," she replied. "You needed the rest." + +"Needed rest, and you in this danger?" he exclaimed contemptuously. +"It was unpardonable of me." + +"No! No! Don't say that. You could have done nothing had you been +here." + +"If ever I get my hands on him again," he cried below his breath. + +"Mon Dieu," broke in Marie. "If I, too--" + +"Hush," interrupted the girl. "It is quite useless for any of us to +attempt more until his money gives out. He came back and found a few +dollars in my purse." + +She had fought this madman, she and this rheumatic old woman, while he +had slept! She had called to him and he had not answered! The blood +went hot to his cheeks. It was enough to make a man feel craven. + +The wounded girl rested her bandaged head on the back of the chair. At +the light in Donaldson's eyes, Marie straightened herself aggressively. + +"Are you badly hurt?" he asked quietly. + +"Only a bump," she laughed, remembering how he had stood by the ladder. +"Marie insisted upon this," she added, lightly touching the cloth about +her forehead. + +"A bump?" snorted Marie. "It is a miracle that she was not altogether +killed. She--" + +But a hand upon the old servant's arm checked her indignation. + +"You two women cannot remain here any longer alone," he said +authoritatively. "Either you must allow me to take you to the shelter +of some friend or--" + +"There is no one," she interrupted quickly. "No one to whom I would go +in this condition. They would not understand." + +"Then," he said, "I must secure a nurse for you." + +"Am I not able to care for the p'tite?" demanded Marie. "A nurse!" + +"A nurse is needed to care for you both. I am going downstairs now to +summon one." + +She protested feebly, and Marie vigorously, but he was insistent. + +"I ought to call your family physician--" + +"No, Mr. Donaldson, you must not do that." + +She was firm upon this point, so he went below to do what else he might. + +At the telephone he found the explanation of his inability to get the +house in the fact that the receiver was hanging loose. It was another +accusation. Doubtless in her weakened condition she had dropped it +from her hand and turned away, too dazed to replace it. The hot shame +of it dried his tongue so that he could scarcely make himself +understood. In spite of this he accomplished many things in a very few +minutes. The operator gave him the number of a near-by reliable nurse, +and finding her in, he sent off the cab for her. Then through an +employment bureau he secured a cook who agreed to reach the house +within an hour. He then telephoned the nearest market and ordered +everything he could think of from beefsteak to fruit, and to this added +everything the marketman could think of. He had no sooner finished +than the nurse arrived. + +By the greatest good luck Miss Colson proved to be young, cheerful, and +capable. She followed Donaldson upstairs and succeeded in winning the +confidence of both the girl and Marie at once. Donaldson left them +together. A little while later he was allowed to come up again. + +"I feel like an unfaithful knight," he said, as he entered. "I deserve +to be dismissed without a word." + +"Because you slept? It was not your fault. I fear I have left you +little time for rest." + +"Why did n't you tell them to break down the doors--to _get_ me!" + +Her face clouded for a moment. + +She saw how chagrined he still felt. + +"Don't blame yourself," she pleaded. "It's all over anyway and you 've +done everything possible. You 've been very thoughtful." + +"I was a fool to leave you here. I should have stayed." + +"That was impossible." + +Donaldson marveled that she could pass off the whole episode so +generously. He refrained from questioning her further as to what had +happened. It was unnecessary, for he knew well enough. + +"Let us choose a pleasanter subject," she said. "Tell me how you +became a great hero." + +"A sorry hero," he answered, not understanding what she meant. + +"No. No. It was fine! It was fine!" + +He was bewildered. + +"You don't mean to say you have n't seen the papers--but then, of +course, you have n't, if you were asleep all day Sunday. Please bring +me that pile in the corner." + +He handed them to her and she unfolded the first page of the uppermost +paper. He found himself confronting a picture of himself as he had +stood, the centre of an admiring crowd, in front of the big machine +which had so nearly killed Bobby. + +He shared the first page with the latest guesses concerning the +Riverside robberies. + +"Well," he stammered, "I 'd forgotten all about that!" + +"Forgotten such an act! You don't half realize what a hero you are. +Listen to the headlines, 'Heroic Rescue,' 'Young Lawyer Gives +Remarkable Exhibition of Nerve,' 'The Name of Lawyer Donaldson +Mentioned for Carnegie Medal,' 'Bravest Deed of the Year,' 'Faced Death +Unflinchingly.'" + +And the pitiful feature of it was that he must sit and listen to this +undeserved praise from her lips. That, knowing deep in his heart his +own unworthiness, he must face her and see her respond to those things +as though he really had been worthy. He, who had done the act under +oath, was receiving the reward of a man who would have done it with no +false stimulus. He, who had been unconsciously braced to it by the +fact that he had so little to lose, was receiving the praise due only a +man who risks all the happiness of a long life. He had faced death +after flinching from life. He was sick of his hypocrisy; he would be +frank with himself. He would be frank with her; he had a right to it +this once. He pressed down the paper she was reading. + +"Don't repeat it," he commanded. "It is n't true! It's all wrong!" + +"What do you mean?" + +"That it's all a lie!" + +"But here 's your picture. And _that 's_ you." + +"Oh, the naked facts are true. But the rest about,--" it was hard to +do this with her eyes upon him, "the rest about being a hero--about +nerve and bravery. It's rot! It is n't so!" + +She threw back her head, resting it upon the top of her chair, and +laughed gently. The color had come back into her cheeks and even the +dark below her eyes seemed to fade. + +"Of course," she returned, "you would n't be a truly hero if you knew +you were one." + +"But I know I 'm not." + +"Of course and so you are!" + +The impulse was strong within him to pour out to her the whole bitter +story. Better to stand shorn and true before her than garbed in such +false colors as these. But as before, he realized that her own welfare +forbade even this relief. + +The nurse approached with a cheery smile, but with an unmistakable air +of authority. + +"You will pardon me," she interrupted, "but we must keep Miss Arsdale +as quiet as possible. I think she ought to try to sleep a little now." + +Sorry as he was to go, Donaldson was relieved to know that he was +leaving her in such good hands. + +The ringing of the front door-bell startled her. She shrank back in +her chair. The nurse was at her side instantly. + +"You had better leave at once," she whispered to Donaldson. + +"It's only the new cook," he answered. + +He went downstairs and ushered her in, and led her to the kitchen. + +"The place is yours," he said, waving his hands about the room, "and +all you 've got to do is to cook quickly and properly whatever order is +sent down to you. Get that?" + +The woman nodded, but glanced suspiciously about the deserted quarters. +The place looked as when first opened in the Fall, after the return +from the summer vacation. + +"The family," Donaldson went on to explain, "consists of three. If you +succeed in satisfying this group I 'll give you an extra ten at the end +of the week." + +"I 'll do it, sor." + +She looked as though she was able. + +"Anything more you want to know?" + +"The rist of the help, sor,--" + +"You 're all of it," he answered briefly. + +Before leaving the house he did one thing more to allay his fears. He +called up a private detective bureau and ordered them to keep watch of +the house night and day until further notice. They were to keep their +eyes open for any slightly deranged person who might seek an entrance. +In the event of capturing him, they were to take him into the house and +put him to bed, remaining at his side until he, Donaldson, arrived. + +Then he ordered his cab to the restaurant of Wun Chung. + + + + +CHAPTER XV + +_The Derelict_ + +Chung had news for him; he had not yet found Arsdale, but his men +reported that yesterday the boy had been concealed at Hop Tung's, where +Saul had first suspected him to be. The evil-eyed proprietor had +hidden him, half in terror of Arsdale himself and half through lust of +his money. Finally, however, fearing for the young man's sanity he had +thrown him out upon the street. It would go hard with the yellow rat, +Chung declared, for such treachery as this to the Lieutenant. + +"It may go hard with all of you," replied Donaldson significantly. +"But you 've another chance yet; the boy is back here somewhere. Find +him within twenty-four hours and I'll help you with Saul." + +"He clome black?" exclaimed Chung. + +"Sometime early this morning." + +If the boy was in the neighborhood, Chung asserted eagerly, he would +find him within an hour or hang the cursed-of-his-ancestors, Tung, by +his pigtail from his own window. + +"Which is better than being locked up in jail. Are you children," +Donaldson exploded, "that you can be duped like that?" + +Chung appeared worried. But his slant eyes contracted until scarcely +more than the eye-lashes were revealed. However inactive he may have +been up to now, Donaldson knew that an end had come to his +sluggishness. When Chung left the room there was determination in +every wrinkle of his loose embroidered blouse. + +So there were some nooks in Chinatown, mused Donaldson, that even Saul +did not know. The longer he sat there, the more indignant he became at +the treachery of this moon-faced traitor who was indirectly responsible +for the nightmare through which the girl had passed. Yet, as he +realized, no more responsible than he himself. He had been a thousand +times more unfaithful to the girl than Tung had been to Saul. + +Chung returned with a brew of his finest tea. He was loquacious. He +tried one subject after another, interjecting protestations of his +friendship for Saul. Donaldson heard nothing but the even voice and +the sibilant dialect. He seemed chained to that one torturing picture. +Even the prospect of finding the boy and so ending the suspense which +had battered Miss Arsdale's nerves for so long brought little relief. +He never could be needed again as he had been needed then. He might +even have been able to detain Arsdale and so have avoided this present +crisis. He felt all the pangs of an honest sentry who, asleep at his +post, awakes to the fact that the enemy has slipped by him in the night. + +It was well within the hour when Chung's lieutenant glided in with a +message that brought a suave smile to the face of his master. + +"Allee light," he announced, beaming upon Donaldson. "Gellelum +dlownslairs." + +"You've found him!" + +"In callage," nodded Chung, with the genial air of a clergyman after +completing a marriage ceremony. + +Donaldson reached the carriage before Chung had descended the first +half-dozen steps. He opened the door and saw a limp, unkempt form +sprawled upon the seat. He recognized it instantly as Arsdale. But +the man was in no condition to be carried home. He must take him +somewhere and watch over him until he was in a more presentable shape. +But one place suggested itself,--his own apartments. + +Donaldson paused. He must take this bedraggled, disheveled remnant of +a man to the rooms which stood for rich cleanliness. He must soil the +nice spotlessness of the retreat for which he had paid so dearly. In +view of the little he had so far enjoyed of his costly privileges, this +last imposition seemed like a grim joke. + +"To the Waldorf," he ordered the driver with a smile. + +He himself climbed up on the box where he could find fresh air. At the +hotel he bribed a bellboy to help him with the man to his room by way +of the servant's entrance. Then he telephoned for the hotel physician, +Dr. Seton. + +Before the doctor arrived Donaldson managed to strip the clothes from +the senseless man and to roll him into bed. Then he sat down in a +chair and stared at him. + +"It's an opium jag," he explained, as soon as Dr. Seton came in, "but +that is n't the worst feature of it. I 'm tied here to him until he +comes to. I can't tell you how valuable my time is to me. I want you +to take the most heroic measures to get him out of it as soon as +possible." + +"Very well, we 'll clear his system of the poison. But we can't be too +violent. We must save his nerves." + +"Damn his nerves," Donaldson exclaimed. "He doesn't deserve nerves." + +The doctor glanced sharply from his patient to Donaldson himself. He +noted the latter's pupils, his tense lips, his tightened fingers. He +had jumped at the word poison, like a murderer at the word police. + +"See here," he demanded, "you have n't any of this stuff in you, have +you?" + +"No," answered Donaldson, calmly. + +"Anything else the matter with you?" + +"Nothing but nervousness, I guess. I 've been under something of a +strain recently." + +Donaldson turned away. He was afraid of the keen eyes of this man. +Barstow had not experimented very long with the stuff; perhaps, after +all, it did produce symptoms. But he reassured himself the next +minute, remembering that the drug was unknown. Barstow had not +revealed his discovery to any one. If he showed a dozen symptoms they +would be unrecognizable. + +The doctor dropped his questioning and turned to his patient. He +subjected the man to the stomach-pump and hot baths. Donaldson +assisted and watched every detail of the vigorous treatment with +increasing interest. At the end of two hours Arsdale was allowed to +sleep. + +Seton put on his coat and wrote out instructions for the further care +of the man. But before leaving he again turned his shrewd eyes upon +Donaldson himself. + +"My boy," he said kindly, "you ought to pay some attention to your own +health. I hate to see a man of your age go to pieces." + +He squinted curiously at Donaldson's eyes. The latter withdrew a +little. + +"What makes you think there is anything wrong with me?" he asked. + +"Your eyes for one thing," he answered. + +"Nonsense. If I need anything, its only a good sweating, such as you +gave Arsdale." + +"There are some poisons not so easily sweated out." + +Donaldson hesitated. While watching this man at work upon the boy, he +had felt a temptation which was now burning hot within him. It was +possible that it was not too late even now to clean his own system of +the drug he had swallowed. This man, he knew, would bring to his aid +all the wisdom of medical science. Barstow may have been mistaken, +although he knew the careful chemist well enough to realize this was +well nigh an impossibility. The next second he held out his hand. It +was steady. He smiled as he saw Seton pause a moment to note if it +trembled. + +"Thanks for all you 've done, doctor," he said. "Do you think I can +take him home tomorrow?" + +"If you follow my instructions. The boy really has a sound physique. +He ought to pull out quickly." + +As the door closed upon the doctor, Donaldson drew a breath of relief. +Thank God he had resisted his impulse. He would keep true to his +compact. He must remain true to himself. That was all that was now +left. There must be no shirking--no flinching. If he had played the +fool, he must not play the coward. The subtle tempter had suggested +the girl, but he realized that he had better not come to her at all +than to come as one who had played unfairly with himself. To be +unfaithful to the spirit of his undertaking would be as weak a thing as +not to fulfill the letter of his oath. His shadowy duty to the girl +would not justify himself in evading a crisis demanding his life for +the life of another, nor would it vindicate the greater evasion. It +was a matter of honor to remain true to that which at the start had +justified the whole hazard to him. It was this which restrained him +even from learning whether or not Barstow was in town. + +The man on the bed was breathing heavily, his lips moving at every +breath in a way to form a grimace. He made in this condition the whole +room as tawdry as a tavern tap. And at the feet of this thing he was +tossing his meager store of golden minutes. + +Yet it was through this inert medium alone that Miss Arsdale could pay +the debt to the father who had been so good to her; and it was only +through this same unsightly shell that he, Donaldson, could in his turn +repay his debt for the dreams she had quickened in him. + +He stepped to the telephone to tell her what he could of that which he +had found and done. The mere sound of her voice as it came over the +wire brightened the room like a flood of light. The joy in it as she +listened to what he had accomplished was payment enough for all he had +sacrificed. He told her that the doctor had advised keeping the boy in +for at least another day. + +"Oh, but you are good!" she exclaimed. "And you will not leave +him--you will guard him against running off again?" + +"I shall stay here at his side until it is absolutely safe to go." + +"If I could only come down!" + +"But you must n't. You must stay where you are and do as you 're told." + +"It will be only for to-day and to-night, won't it?" + +"Probably that is all." + +"That is n't very long." + +"Not as time goes." + +"But it will seem long." + +"Will it--to you?" + +He regretted the question the moment it had been uttered. But it came +to his lips unbidden. + +"Of course," she answered. + +"It will seem very long to me," he returned slowly. "Almost a +lifetime." + +"Perhaps you will telephone now and then." + +"Very often, if I may." + +"The nurse says she 'll not allow me to answer the telephone after nine +at night." + +"Nine to-night is a long way off yet." + +"It's only half a day." + +"But that's twelve hours!" + +"Do you think that long?" + +"Yes. That seems a very long while to me." + +"It is soon gone." + +"Too soon." + +"Then comes the night and then the morning and then you 'll bring him +home." + +"Then I 'll bring him home." + +What a new meaning that word home had when it fell from her lips. What +a new meaning everything had. + +She turned aside to address some one in the room and then her voice +came in complaint. + +"The nurse is here with my medicine." + +"Then close your eyes and swallow it quickly. I 'll telephone you +later and inquire how it tasted." + +"Thank you. Good bye." + +"Good bye." + +He hung up the receiver and settled down to the grim task of counting +the passing minutes which were draining his life as though each minute +were a drop of blood let from an artery. And all the company he had +for it was this poor devil on the bed who grimaced as he breathed. + +He folded his arms. If this, too, was a part of the cost he must pay +it like a man. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +_The Fourth Day_ + +The morning of Tuesday, May twenty-eighth, found Donaldson still +sitting in the chair, facing the form upon the bed. He had not +undressed, and had slept less than an hour. He was now waiting for +eight o'clock, when he had received permission from the nurse to ring +up Miss Arsdale again. + +With some tossing Arsdale had slept on without awaking fully enough to +be conscious of his surroundings. Now, however, Donaldson became aware +that the fellow's brain was clearing. He watched the process with some +interest. It was an hour later before the man began to realize that he +was in a strange room, and that another was in the room with him. It +was evident that he was trying hard, and yet with fear of whither the +road might lead him, to trace himself back. He had singled out +Donaldson for some time, observing him through half-closed eyes, before +he ventured to speak. + +"Where am I?" he finally faltered huskily. + +"In my charge." + +"Who are you?" + +"One Donaldson." + +"I never heard of you." + +"That is not improbable." + +Arsdale reflected upon this for some time before he gained courage to +proceed further. + +"I 'm going to get up," he announced, at the end of some five minutes. + +"No, you 're not. You are going to stay right where you are." + +"What right have you to keep me here?" he demanded. + +"The right of being stronger than you." + +Arsdale struggled feebly to his elbow, but Donaldson pushed him back +with a pressure that would not have made a child waver. He stood +beside him wondering just how much the dulled brain was able to grasp. +The long night had left him with little sympathy. The more he had +thought of that blow, the greater the aversion he felt towards Arsdale. +If the boy had n't struck her he would feel some pity for him, but that +blow given in the dark against a defenseless woman--the one woman who +had been faithful and kind to him--that was too much. It had raised +dark thoughts there in the night. + +Arsdale, his pupils contracted to a pin-point, stared back at him. Yet +his questions proved that he was now possessed of a certain amount of +intelligence. If he was able to realize that he was in a strange +place, he might be able to realize some other things that Donaldson was +determined he _should_. + +"You are n't very clear-headed yet, but can you understand what I am +saying to you now?" + +Arsdale nodded weakly. + +"Do you remember anything of what you did yesterday?" he demanded, in a +vibrant voice that engraved each word upon the sluggish brain. + +"No," answered the man quailing. + +"No? Then I'll tell you. You came back to the house and you struck +your sister." + +"No! No! Not that! I didn't do that." + +Donaldson responded to a new hope. This seemed to prove that the +conscience of the man was not dead. It came to him as a relief. He +was relentless, not out of hate, but because so much depended upon +establishing the fact that the fellow still had a soul. + +"Yes. You did," he repeated, his fingers unconsciously closing into +his palms. "You struck her down." + +"Good God!" + +"Think of that a while and then I 'll tell you more." + +"Is she hurt, is she badly hurt?" + +Without replying Donaldson returned to his chair on the opposite side +of the bed and watched him as a physician might after injecting a +medicine. Arsdale stared back at him in dumb terror. Donaldson could +almost see the gruesome pictures which danced witch-like through his +disordered brain. He did n't enjoy the torture, but he must know just +how much he had upon which to work. + +It was in the early hours of the morning that Donaldson had become +conscious of the new and tremendous responsibility which rested upon +him. To leave Arsdale behind him alive in such a condition as this +would be to leave the curse upon the girl,--would be to desert her to +handle this mad-man alone. He had seen red at the thought of it. It +would be to brand his own act with unpardonable cowardice; it would be +to go down into his grave with the helpless cries of this woman ringing +in his ears; it would be to shirk the greatest and most sacred duty +that can come to a man. The cold sweat had started upon his forehead +at the thought of it. + +The inexorable alternative was scarcely less ghastly. Yet in the face +of this other the alternative had come as a relief. If it cost him his +immortal soul, this other should not be left behind to mar a fair and +unstained life. He would throttle him as he lay there upon the bed +before he would leave him behind to this. He would go to his doom a +murderer before he would leave Arsdale alive to do a fouler murder. +That should be his final sacrifice,--his ultimate renunciation. In its +first conception he had been appalled by the idea, but slowly its +inevitability had paralyzed thought. It had made him feel almost +impersonal. Considering the manner in which he had been thrust into +it, it seemed, as it were, an ordinance of Fate. + +Though this had now become fixed in his mind, there was still the scant +hope that he had grasped from what he had observed in Arsdale's manner. +Given the morsel of a man, and there was still hope. Therefore it was +with considerable interest that he watched for some evidence of the +higher nature, even if only expressed in the crude form of shame. At +times Arsdale looked like a craven cornered to his death--at times like +a man struggling with a great grief--at times like a man dazed and +uncomprehending. + +To himself he moaned continuously. Frequently he rose to his elbow +with the cry, "Is she hurt?" + +Still in silence Donaldson watched him. Once Arsdale fell forward on +his chin, where he lay motionless, his eyes still upon Donaldson. The +latter helped him back to the pillow, but Arsdale shrank from his touch. + +"Your eyes!" he gasped, covering his own with his trembling hand. +"They are the eyes of a devil. Take them off me--take them off!" + +But Arsdale could not endure his blindness long. It made the ugly +visions worse. So, he saw the girl with red blood streaming down her +cheeks. + +The sight of this writhing soul raised many new speculations in +Donaldson's mind especially in connection with its possible outcome. +In the matter of religion he was negative, neither believing any +professed creed nor denying any. He had received no early impetus, and +had up to now been too preoccupied with his earthly interests, with no +great grief or happiness to arouse him, to formulate any theory in his +own mind. Even at the moment he had swallowed the poison the motive +prompting him to it had been so intensely material that it had started +but the most momentary questions. It was the thought of Mrs. +Wentworth, the sight of the baby, the indefinable boundaries of his own +love--it was love that pressed the question in upon him. Now the other +extreme embodied in the sight of the man before him, capped by the +acute query of what the sin of murder might mean, sharpened it to a +real concern. If such love as the mother and the girl connoted forbade +the conception that love expired with life, the torture of this other +stunted soul seemed prophetic of what might be awaiting his own future, +dwarfed by the shifty expedient he had adopted to check its +development. If punishment counted for anything, he was, to be sure, +receiving his full portion right here on earth. The realization of +what he was leaving was an inquisition of the most exquisite order. +But would this be the end? His consciousness, as he sat there, refused +to allow the hope,--refused even to allow the hope to be desired. + +So, face to face, each of these two struggled with the problem of his +next step. To each of them life had a new and terrible significance. +From a calm sea it had changed to wind-rent chaos. It was revealing +its potentialities,--lamb-like when asleep, lion-like when roused. +Tangle-haired Tragedy had stalked forth into the midst of men going +about their business. + +The man on the bed broke out again, + +"Why did n't I die before that? Why did n't I die before?" + +Then he turned upon Donaldson with a new horror in his eyes. + +"I did n't kill her?" he gasped. + +The answer to his cry came--though he could not interpret it--in the +ringing of the telephone. Donaldson crossed to it, while Arsdale +cowered back in bed as though fearing this were news of some fresh +disaster. To him the broken conversation meant nothing; to Donaldson +it brought a relief that saved him almost from madness. + +"Is that you, Mr. Donaldson?" she asked. + +"Yes. And you--you are well?" + +There was a pause, and then came the query again, + +"Is that you?" + +"Yes, can't you hear my voice?" + +"It does n't sound like your voice. Is anything the matter?" + +"No, nothing. I don't understand what you mean." + +She hesitated again and then answered, + +"It--it made me almost afraid." + +"It's your nerves. Did you sleep well?" + +"Yea. And is Ben all right?" + +"Yes." + +"There it is again," she broke in. "Your voice sounds harsh." + +"That must be your imagination." + +"Perhaps," she faltered. "Are you going to bring him home to-day?" + +"Probably not until this evening. But," he broke in, "I shall come +sooner myself. I shall come this morning. Will you tell that +gentleman waiting near the gate to come down here?" + +"What gentleman?" + +"You probably have n't seen him. I put him there on guard." + +"You are thoughtful. Your voice is natural again. Is Ben awake now?" + +"Yes." + +"And does he know?" + +"Some things." + +"Mr. Donaldson," she said, and he caught the shuddering fear in her +voice, "are you keeping anything from me?" + +"I don't know what you mean, but I will come up so that you may see +there has been no change." + +"I still think you are concealing something." + +"Nothing that is not better concealed; nothing that you could help." + +"I should rather know. I do not like being guarded in that way." + +"We all have to guard one another. You in your turn guard me." + +"From what?" + +"Many things. You are doing it now--this minute." + +"From what?" she insisted. + +"From myself." + +"Oh, I don't know what you mean. I think you had better come up here +at once--if it is safe to leave Ben." + +"I shall make it safe. Don't forget to send down my man." + +He hung up the receiver and turned to Arsdale. The latter must have +noticed instantly the change in Donaldson's expression, for he rose to +his elbow with eager face. + +"You'll tell me before you go! You'll tell before--" + +"You didn't kill," answered Donaldson. + +"Thank God!" + +"She is n't even wounded seriously." + +"She knows that it was I?" + +"Yes. She knows." + +"How she must hate me, gentle Elaine." + +"It is hard for her to hate any one." + +"You think she--she might forgive?" + +"I don't know. That remains to be seen." + +The man buried his face in his arms and wept. This was not maudlin +sentimentality; it struck deeper. + +"Are you ready to do anything more than regret?" demanded Donaldson. +"Are you ready to make a fight to quit that stuff?" + +"So help me as long as I live--" + +"Don't tell me that. I want you to think it over a while. I 'm going +to have some one stay here with you until I get back this afternoon. +Will you remain quiet?" + +"Yes." + +"And remember that even if by chance you did n't do much harm, still +you struck. You struck a woman; you struck your sister." + +Arsdale cringed. Each word was a harder blow than he, even in his +madness, could strike. + +"It's a--terrible thing to remember. But--but it will be always with +me. It will never leave me." + +As soon as the detective arrived Donaldson gave him his instructions, +adding, + +"Look out for tricks, and be ready to tell me all he says to you." + +"I 've had 'em before," answered the man. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + +_An Interlude_ + +She was waiting for him in the library with an expression both eager +and worried. She crossed the room to meet him, but paused half-way as +though really fearful of some change. But she saw only the same kind, +tense face, looking perhaps a bit heavy from weariness, the same dark +eyes with their strange fires, the same slight droop of the shoulders. +There was certainly nothing to fear in him as he stood before her with +a tender, quizzical smile about his large mouth. He looked to her now +more like a big boy than the cold, stern man she had half expected. + +"Are you afraid?" he asked. + +"No, not standing here where I can see you. But over the telephone +with your strange voice and your half meanings--what _did_ you mean?" + +"Nothing you need worry about." + +She became suddenly serious. + +"I want to tell you now that there is no need of your trying to hide +anything at all from me about Ben." + +"I am hiding nothing. But," he asked with quick intuition, "are _you_?" + +She hesitated, met his eyes, and dropped her voice. + +"I can tell you nothing--not even you--unless you have learned it." + +"I, in my turn, don't know what you mean," he answered. "I have +learned nothing new about him. And it is too fair a morning," he +concluded abruptly, "to bother over puzzles. Things have happened so +rapidly that we are probably both muddled, and if we could spend the +time in explanations we should doubtless find that neither of us means +anything." + +She was clearly relieved, but it raised a new question in Donaldson's +mind. Of course she understood nothing of what had taken place last +night unless by mental telepathy. But in these days of psychic +revelations a man could n't feel secure even in his thoughts. There +was apparently some inner secret--she had touched upon it +before--relating to the Arsdale curse. Doubtless if one pried +carefully enough many another skeleton could be found in the closets of +the house of this family half-poisoned now through three generations. + +It was early and it suddenly occurred to her that he had probably not +yet breakfasted. + +She struggled a moment with a conflicting sense of hospitality and +propriety, but finally said resolutely, "I should be glad if you would +breakfast with me. You ought to try your new cook." + +The picture he had of her sitting opposite him at the coffee brought +the warm blood to his cheeks. + +"I--why--" + +"Will you have your chop well done?" she broke in, without giving him +time to frame an excuse. + +"Yes," he answered. + +She left him. + +Within a very short time she announced the meal with pretty grace, +which concealed all trace of nervousness, save for the heightened color +of her cheeks, which, he noted, were as scarlet as though she herself +had been bending over a hot stove. She led the way into an exquisite +little dining room, which he at once took to be the expression of her +own taste. It was in white and apple green, with a large trellised +window opening upon the lawn. A small table had been placed in the sun +near the window, and was covered with dazzling white linen, polished +silver, and cut glass, which, catching the morning beams, reflected a +prismatic riot of colors. The chops, lettuce, bread and butter, and +coffee were already served. As he seated her, he felt as though he +were living out a dream--one of the dreams that as a very young man he +had sometimes dreamed when, lying flat upon his back in the sun, he had +watched the big cotton clouds wafted, like thistledown, across the blue. + +It might have been Italy for the blue of the sky and the caressing +warmth of the sun. They threw open the big window and in flooded the +perfume of lilacs and the twitter of sparrows, which is the nearest to +a bird song one can expect in New York. But after all, this was n't +New York; nor Spain; nor even the inner woods; it was just Here. And +Here is where the eyes of a man and a woman meet with spring in their +blood. + +Griefs of loss, bitter, poignant; sorrows of mistakes, bruising, +numbing; the ache of disappointments, ingratitudes, betrayals,--Nature +surging on to her fulfillment sweeps them away, like fences before a +flood, allowing no obstructions to Youth's kinship with Spring. So the +young may not mourn long; so, if they do, they become no longer young. + +The man and the woman might have been two care-free children for all +they were able to resist the magic of this fair morning or the subtler +magic of their own emotions. + +To the man it suggested more than to the woman because he gave more +thought to it, but the woman absorbed more the spirit of it because she +more fully surrendered herself. + +Donaldson found himself with a good appetite. There was nothing +neurotic about him. He was fundamentally normal--fundamentally +wholesome--with no trace of mawkishness in his nature. As he sipped +the hot golden-brown coffee, he tried to get at just what it was that +he felt when he now looked at her. It came to him suddenly and he +spoke it aloud, + +"I seem to have, this minute, a fresher vision of life than I have +known since I was twenty." + +It was something different from anything he had experienced up to now. +It was saner, clearer. + +"It is the morning," she hazarded. "I never saw the grass so green as +it is this morning; I never felt the sun so warm." + +"It is like the peace of the inner woods,--only brighter," he declared. + +"You said such peace never came to any one unless alone." + +"Did I?" + +She nodded. + +"But it _is_ like that," he insisted. "Only more joyous. I think it +is the extra joy in it that makes us not want it alone. Queer, too, it +seems to be born altogether of this spot, of this moment. Understand +what I mean? It does n't seem to go back of the moment we entered this +room and--," he hesitated, "it does n't seem to go forward." + +"It is as though coming in here we had stepped into a beautiful picture +and were living inside the frame for a little," she suggested. + +"Exactly. The frame is the hedge; the picture is the sky, the sun, and +you." + +She laughed, frankly pleased in a childish way, at his conceit. + +"Then for me," she answered, "it must be the sun, the sky, and _you_." + +"We are n't trying to compliment each other, are we?" + +"No," she answered seriously. "I hope not." + +She went on after a moment's reflection, + +"I have been puzzling over the strange chance that brought you into my +life at so opportune a time." + +"I came because you believed in me and because you needed me. You +believed in me because--," he paused, his blood seeming suddenly to run +faster, "because I needed you." + +"You needed me?" + +"Yes," he answered, "I needed you. I needed you long ago." + +"But how--why?" + +"To show me the joy there is in the sunlight wherever it strikes; to +take me with you into this picture." + +Their eyes met. + +"Have I done that?" she asked. + +"Yes." + +She shook her head. + +"I 'm afraid not," she disclaimed, "because the joy has n't been in my +own heart." + +"Nor was it in mine--then." + +Her eyes turned back to his. The silver in them came to the top like +the moon reflection on dark waters through fading clouds. He was +leaning a little towards her. + +"It seems to be something that we can't get alone," he explained. + +"Perhaps it is," she pondered, "perhaps." + +She started back a little, as one who, lost in a sunset, leans too far +over the balcony. Then she smiled. Donaldson's heart answered the +smile. + +"Your coffee is cooling," she said. "May I pour you some fresh?" + +He passed his cup automatically. But the act was enough to bring him +back. A moment gone the room had grown misty. Something had made his +throat ache. He felt taut with a great unexpressed yearning. He +became conscious of his breakfast again. He sipped his hot coffee. + +"I suppose," he reflected, "you ought to know something about me." + +"I am interested," she answered, "but I don't think it matters much." + +Again he saw in her marvelous eyes that look of complete confidence +that had thrilled him first on that mad ride. Again he realized that +there is nothing finer in the world. For a moment the room swam before +him at the memory of his doom. But her calm gaze steadied him at once. +He must cling to the Now. + +"I have n't much I can tell you," he resumed. "My parents died when I +was young. They were New England farm-folk and poor. After I was left +alone, I started in to get an education without a cent to my name. It +took me fifteen years. I graduated from college and then from the law +school. I came here to New York and opened an office. That is all." + +He waved his hand deprecatingly as though ashamed that it was so slight +and undramatic a tale. But she leaned towards him with sudden access +of interest. + +"Fifteen years, and you did it all alone! You must have had to fight." + +"In a way," he answered. + +"Will you tell me more about it?" she asked eagerly. + +"It's not very interesting," he laughed. "It was mostly a grind--just +a plain, unceasing grind. It was n't very exciting--just getting any +old job I could and then studying what time was left." + +"And growing stronger every day--feeling your increasing power!" + +"And my hunger, too, sometimes." + +He tried to make light of it because he didn't wish her to become so +serious over it. He did n't like playing the part of hero. + +"You did n't have enough to eat?" she asked in astonishment. + +"You should have seen me watch Barstow's cake-box." + +He told her the story, making it as humorous as he could. But when he +had finished, she wasn't laughing. For a moment his impulse was to lay +before her the whole story--the bitter climax, the ashen climax, which +lately he had thought so beautiful. She had said that nothing in the +past would matter--but this was of the future, too. Even if she ought +to know, he had no right to force upon her the burden of what was to +come. He found now that he had even cut himself off from the privilege +of being utterly honest with her. To tell her the whole truth might be +to destroy his usefulness to her. She might then scorn his help. He +must not allow that. Nothing could justify that. + +"You are looking very serious," she commented. + +Her own face had in the meanwhile grown brighter. + +"It is all from within," he answered, "all from within. And--now +presto!--it is gone." + +Truly the problem did seem to vanish as he allowed himself to become +conscious of the picture she made there in the sunshine. With her hair +down her back she could have worn short dresses and passed for sixteen. +The smooth white forehead, the exquisite velvet skin with the first +bloom still upon it, the fragile pink ears were all of unfolding +womanhood. + +"Since my mother died," he said, "you are the first woman who has ever +made me serious." + +"Have you been such a recluse then?" + +"Not from principle. I have been a sort of office hermit by necessity." + +"You should not have allowed an office to imprison you," she scolded. +"You should have gone out more." + +"I have--lately." + +"And has it not done you good?" she challenged, not realizing his +narrow application of the statement. + +"A world of good." + +"It brightens one up." + +"Wonderfully." + +"If we stay too much by ourselves we get selfish, don't we?" + +"Intensely. And narrow-minded, and morbid, and petty and--," the words +came charged with bitterness, "and intensely foolish." + +"I 'm glad you crawled out before you became all those things." + +"You gave me a hand or I should n't." + +"I gave you a hand?" + +"Yea," he answered, soberly. + +"Perhaps--perhaps this is another of the things that could n't have +happened to either of us alone." + +"I think you are right," he answered. + +He did not dare to look at her. + +"Perhaps that is true of all the good things in the world," she +hazarded. + +"Perhaps." + +Once again the golden mist--once again the aching yearning. + +The telephone jangled harshly. It was a warning from the world beyond +the hedge, the world they had forgotten. + +The sound of it was to him like the savage clang of barbaric war-gongs. + +With her permission he answered it himself. It was a message from his +man at the Waldorf. + +"He's making an awful fuss, sir. He says as how he wants to go home. +I can hold him all right, only I thought I 'd let you know." + +"Thanks, I 'll be right down." + +"I 'd better go back to your brother," he said to her as he hung up the +receiver. "I want to have a talk with him before bringing him home." + +Her eyes grew moist. + +"How am I ever going to repay you for all you 've done?" + +"You 've repaid me already," he answered briefly and left at once. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + +_The Making of a Man_ + +Donaldson with hands in his pockets stood in front of Arsdale, who had +slumped down into a big leather chair, and admired his work. There was +much still to be done, but, comparing the man before him with the thing +he had brought in here some thirty hours before, the improvement was +most satisfactory. Arsdale, with trimmed hair and clean, shaven face, +in a new outfit from shoes to collar, and sane even if depressed, began +to look a good deal of a man. + +"How do you feel now?" inquired Donaldson. + +Arsdale hitched forward and resting his chin in his hands, elbows on +knees, stared at the floor. + +"Like hell," he answered. + +Donaldson frowned. + +"You deserve to, but you oughtn't," he said. + +"Oh, I deserve it all right. I deserve it--and more!" + +"Yes, you do. But that does n't help any." + +Arsdale groaned. + +"There is n't any help. I 've made a beastly mess out of my life, out +of myself." + +"I wish I could disagree, but I can't," answered Donaldson. + +He walked up and down a moment before the fellow studying him. He was +worried and perplexed. The task before him was an unpleasant one. He +had to overcome a natural repugnance to interference in the life of +another. Under ordinary circumstances he would have watched Arsdale go +to his doom with a feeling of nothing but indifference. In his own +passion for individual liberty he neither demanded nor accepted +sympathy for personal misfortunes or mistakes, and in turn was loath to +trespass either upon the rights or duties of another, but his own life, +through the medium of the boy's sister, was so inextricably entangled +with this other that now he recognized the inevitability of such +interference. On his success or failure to arouse Arsdale largely +depended the happiness of the girl. + +"No," he reflected aloud, "the question is n't how much punishment you +deserve, for the pain you suffer personally does n't, unfortunately, +remedy matters in the slightest. It wouldn't do you any good for me to +kick you about the room or I 'd do it. It would n't do you any good +for me to turn you over to the police or I 'd do that. You 're hard to +get hold of because there's so little left of you." + +Arsdale made no reply. He remained motionless. + +"But," continued Donaldson with emphasis, "that does n't make it any +the less necessary. You 've got to pull what is left together--you 've +got to play the man with what remains. You can't get all the +punishment you deserve and so you 've got to deserve less. This, not +for your own sake, but for the sake of the girl,--for the sake of the +girl you struck." + +"Don't!" + +Arsdale quailed. He glanced up at Donaldson with a look that made the +latter see again Barstow's dog Sandy as he had tottered in his death +throes. But the mere fact that the man quivered back from this +shameful thing was encouraging. It was upon this alone that Donaldson +based his hope, upon this single drop of uncorrupted Arsdale blood +which still nourished some tiny spot in the burned out brain. + +"You must make such reparation as you can," continued Donaldson. "Your +life is n't long enough to do it fully, but you can accomplish +something towards it if you start at once." + +Arsdale shook his head. + +"It's all a beastly mess. It 's too late!" + +Donaldson's lips tightened. + +"Well," he asked, "if you are n't going to do what you can, what do you +propose?" + +Thickly Arsdale answered, + +"I know a way; I 'm going to pull out for the sake of Elaine!" + +Donaldson started as at the cut of a whip-lash. Then he straightened +to meet face to face this new development. Somehow this contingency +had never occurred to him. Now for the moment it disarmed him, for it +brought him down, like a wounded bird, to the level of Arsdale himself. +As voiced by the latter the act expressed the climax of simpering +cowardice. Donaldson, in the first shock of finding himself included +in the same indictment with the very man for whom he had had so little +mercy, felt the same powerlessness that had paralyzed this other. He +was shorn of his strength. He blinked as stupidly at Arsdale as +Arsdale had blinked at him. + +But even as he stood with loose lips before the infirm features of the +younger man, he realized that Arsdale's talk had been the chatter of a +child. He had used the phrase idly and, although it was possible he +might in just as idle a mood commit the act itself, Donaldson was +convinced that it was not yet a fixed idea. With this came the +inspiration which gave him a fresh grip upon himself, that revealed his +great opportunity; he would make Arsdale see all that he himself had +learned in these few days. So in reality he would be giving the best +of his life to another. + +It was like oxygen to one struggling for breath through congested +lungs. He went to the window and in great deep-chested inhalations +stood for a moment drinking in not only the fresh air but with it the +spirit of the eager, turbulent world which was bathed in it, the world +that he now saw so clearly. The sun flashing from the neighboring +windows glinted its glad message of life; the rumbling of the passing +traffic roared it to him in a thundering message, like that of +shattered sea waves; the deep cello-like undernote of the city itself +sang it to him. And the message of all the voices was just, "It is +good to live! It is good to be!" + +He turned back, seeing a new man in the chair before him. Here was a +brother--a brother in a truer sense than a better man could have been. +Coming from different directions, along different roads, through +different temptations, they had reached at last the crumbling edge of +the same dark chasm. They faced the same eternal problem. That made +them brothers. But Donaldson had already seen, already learned; that +made him the stronger brother. + +His face was alight, his body alert, as he came to Arsdale's side. The +latter looked up at him in surprise, feeling his presence before he +saw. Donaldson's first words stirred him, + +"You can't pull out," he said, "because you 're out already. You must +pull in. Don't you see,--you must pull back!" + +"You don't understand what I mean." + +"A great deal better than you yourself do. And in the light of that +understanding I tell you that you can't do it,--that it is n't the way." + +"I 'm no good to any one," Arsdale complained dully. "I don't see why +it would n't be better for everyone if I just quit." + +The word quit was a biting gnome to Donaldson. + +"I know," he answered. "But it is n't right--all because you don't +know and you can't know what you 're quitting. You can't just look +around you and see. You wouldn't just be quitting the girl who perhaps +does n't need you, though you can't even tell that; you would n't be +quitting just your friends who can get along without you--though even +that is n't sure; you 'd be quitting the others, the unseen others, the +unknown others, who are waiting for you, perhaps a year from now, +perhaps twenty years from now, but in their need waiting for you. They +are waiting for you, understand, and for no one else. Just you, no +matter how weak you are, or how poor you are, or how worthless you are, +because it is you and no one else who will fit into their lives to help +complete them." + +"I 'd bring nothing but trouble. I 've been no good to any one." + +"You can't help being good to some one. Queer it sounds, but I believe +that's true. A man never lived, so mean that he didn't do good to some +one." + +"You believe that?" demanded Arsdale. + +"Yes. I know that. I know that, Arsdale!" he answered, his lips +tremulous, a deep-seated light in his eyes. "I know that you can't +possibly be so useless, so cowardly, so utterly bad, but what you 're +still more useless, still more of a coward, still worse when you quit! +Maybe we can't see how--maybe at the time we can't realize it, but it's +so. Some one will get at the good in us if we just fight along, no +matter how we may cover it up." + +Arsdale straightened in his chair. His shaking fingers clutched the +chair arms. But the next second his face clouded. + +"Tell me what good I 've done," he demanded aggressively. + +Donaldson smiled. He could n't very well tell the man the details of +these last few days and what they meant to him, but they proved his +claim. Arsdale had been, if nothing else, a connecting link. It was +he, even this self-indulgent weakling, who had brought Donaldson to his +own, who had led Donaldson, through a series of self-revealing +incidents, to where he could stand quivering with the truth of life, +and give of his strength back to this man to pay the debt. Yes, he +knew what Arsdale had accomplished, and before he was through the +latter should feel its effect. + +"Man," answered Donaldson almost solemnly, "you have done your +good--even you, in spite of yourself." + +"But not to Elaine where I should have done most!" + +Donaldson's hand rested a moment on Arsdale's shoulder. + +"Yes," he said, "I like to think you have been of some service even to +her." + +Arsdale rose to his feet. + +"If I could think that--if I could look her in the eyes again!" + +"Look her in the eyes! Keep those eyes before you! Never get where +those eyes can't follow you! And as you look take my word for it that +even there by a strange chance you 've done your good." + +The man in Arsdale was at the top. For a second he faced Donaldson as +one man should face another. Then he tottered and fell back in his +chair, covering his face with his hands. + +"It's too late," he groaned, "God, it's too late!" + +Donaldson seized him by the shoulder and dragged him to his feet--not +in anger, not in contempt, but in his naked eagerness to make the man +see. Half supporting him, he drew him to the window. He threw it wide +open. + +"Too late!" he cried, waving his hand at the brisk scene upon the +street. "Too late! It is n't too late so long as there's a living +world out there, so long as there's a man or a woman out there! It +isn't too late because there's work for you to do, work for others that +you 've shirked. What is it? I don't know, but it's there. Dig +around until you find it. Maybe to-day it was only to give a nickel to +the blind beggar at the corner, maybe it was only to help an old lady +across the street, maybe it was to do some kindness to your sister. I +don't know what it was, but I know it was something, and went undone +because of you." + +Arsdale, leaning against the window-sill, strained towards Donaldson. + +"That's a queer idea," he whispered hoarsely. + +"And another thing," continued Donaldson, "tangled up with those duties +are all the joys of the world. You 've been looking for them somewhere +else--I 've been looking for them somewhere else--but it is n't any +use. They are right there with your duties--in the keeping of other +people, the unseen others. And they couldn't be bought, not with all +the gold in the world. They must be given if you get them at all." + +Arsdale was listening eagerly. It was as much the spirit back of the +words as the words themselves that made him feel the stirring of a new +power which was a new hope. + +"You!" he exclaimed. "You make a man feel that you know! But the +hellish smoke-hunger--you don't know anything of that." + +"It's a part of the same hellish selfishness which eats the vitals out +of everything. Get out of yourself, get into the lives of others, and +the smoke-hunger will quit you. You could n't go down where you 've +been and made a beast of yourself if you cared more about others than +yourself. The power that drove you down there would n't mean anything +if a stronger power held you back. The point is, Arsdale, the point +is, that all by himself a man is n't worth much. He does n't count. +Either he dries up or he rots." + +"That's true! That's true!" answered Arsdale. "And I 've rotted. If +only I had found you a year ago!" + +"A year ago is dead and buried. Let it alone. Think of the live +things; think of the Now! There 's a big, strong world all around you, +pulsating with life; there 's sunshine in the morning and stars at +night--and they are alive; there are flowers, and birds, and +grasses--all alive; there are live men and women, live questions, and +there is your sister. The world would be alive--would be worth while +if you had only her. She 's a world in herself." + +"You are right. Man, how you know!" + +"Can't you see it yourself? Can't you feel the thrill of it all?" + +"Yes," answered Arsdale, his eyes as alive as Donaldson's, "I see. I +feel. And if I had your strength--" + +"You have the strength! You have everything you need in just your +beating heart and the days ahead of you. Buck up to it!--Go and meet +life half-way. Throw yourself at life! The trouble with you and me is +that we stand still, all curled up in ourselves as in a chrysalis. You +must give yourself room, you must break free from your own selfish +conceit, you must reach a point where you don't give a damn about +yourself! Do you hear--where all the worrying you do is about others? +Then don't worry." + +Arsdale was breathing through his nostrils, his lips closed. + +"It's going to be a hard fight," he said. "It 's going to be a hard +fight, but you make me feel as though I could do it." + +"A hard fight," cried Donaldson. "Why, man, I 'd strip myself down to +you--I 'd go back to where you stand to-day for the fighting chance you +have." + +"You'd--what?" + +Donaldson caught his breath. For a moment he was silent, staring at +the eager life upon the street. Then he turned again to Arsdale. + +"I 'd like to swap places with you--that's all," he said. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + +_A Miracle_ + +Elaine, her pale face tense, heard the steps of Arsdale coming up the +stairs to meet her. Donaldson had telephoned at nine that if she had +not yet retired he was going to bring her brother home. She dreaded +the ordeal for herself and for him. She dreaded lest the aversion she +felt for him with the horror of that night still upon her might +overcome her sense of duty; she dreaded the renewed protestations, the +self abasement, the sight of the maudlin shame of the man. She had +gone through the hysterical scenes so many times that it was growing +difficult, especially in her present condition of weakness, to arouse +the necessary spirit to undergo it. Not only this, but she found +herself inevitably pitting him against the strong self-reliant +character of Donaldson. It had been easier for her to condone when she +had seen Arsdale only as the loved son of the big-hearted elder, but +now that this other unyielding personality had come into her life it +was difficult to avoid comparison. Arsdale when standing beside a man +was only pitiable. + +He faltered at the door and then crossed the room with a poise that +reminded her of the father who to the end had never shown evidence of +any physical weakness in his bearing. In fact in look and carriage, +even in the spotless freshness of his dress which was a characteristic +of the elder, he appeared like his father. She could hardly believe. +She sat as silent as though this were some illusion. + +There was color in the ordinarily yellow cheeks, there was life in the +usually dull eyes, though the spasmodic twitching testified to nerves +still unsteady. When he held out his trembling hand, she took it as +though in a trance. She saw that it was difficult for him to speak. +It was impossible for her. The suggested metamorphosis was too +striking. + +He broke the strained, glad silence. + +"Elaine, can you forget?" + +She uttered his name but could go no further. + +"I can't apologize," he stammered, "it's too ghastly. But if we could +start fresh from to-day, if you could wait a little before judging, and +watch. Perhaps then--" + +She drew him quickly towards her. + +"Can I believe what I see?" she asked. + +"I--I don't know what you see," he answered unsteadily. + +"I see your father. I see the man who was the only father I myself +knew." + +He bent over her. He kissed her forehead. + +"Dear Elaine," he said hoarsely, "you see a man who is going to be a +better man to you." + +"To yourself, Ben,--be better to yourself! Are you going to be that?" + +"That is the way,--by being a man to you and to the others." + +"The others?" + +"The unseen others. You must get Donaldson to tell you about the +others." + +She grasped his wrist with both her hands, looking up at him intently. +Where was the change? A photograph would not have shown all the +change. Yet it was there. Nor was this a temporal reformation based +upon cowardly remorse. It showed too calm, too big an impulse for +that. It was so sincere, so deep, that it did not need words to +express it. + +"I believe you, Ben," she said, "I believe you with all my heart and +soul." + +In the words he realized the divine that is in all women, the eagerness +that is Christ-like in its eternal hunger to seize upon the good in +man. He stooped again and with religious reverence kissed the white +space above her eyes. + +"We 'll not talk about it much, shall we?" he said. "I want you to +believe only as I go on from day to day. I 've some big plans that I +thought up on the way home. Some day we 'll talk those over, but not +now. Donaldson is downstairs." + +He saw the color sweep her face. It suggested to him something that he +had not yet suspected. It came to him like a new revelation of +sunlight. + +He smiled. It was the smile of the father which she had so long +missed, the smile that always greeted her when his sad heart was +fullest of hope and gladness. It was so he used to smile when at +twilight he stood at her side, his long thin arm over her shoulder and +talked of Ben with a new hope born of his own victory. + +"I was going to tell you," he said tenderly, "I was going to tell you +of what a big fine fellow this Donaldson is. But--perhaps you know." + +She refused not to meet her brother's eyes. + +"Yes, Ben," she said, "I know that." + +He took her hand, seating himself on the arm of her chair, the other +arm resting affectionately across her shoulders. So the father had +sometimes sat. + +"Is there more?" he asked softly. + +"So," she answered, starting a little, "not as you mean. But tell me +about him--tell me all about him, Ben." + +He felt her hand throb as he held it. + +"It's just this; that I owe everything in the world to him. I owe my +life to him; I owe," his voice lowered, "I owe my soul to him. You +ought to have heard him talk. But it was n't talking, it wasn't +preaching. I don't know what it was, unless--unless it was praying. +Yet it was n't like that either. He got inside me and made me talk to +myself. It was the first time words ever meant anything to me--that +they ever got a hold on me. You 've talked, little sister, Lord knows +how often, and how deep from the heart, but somehow, dear, nothing of +it sank in below the brain. I understood as in a sort of dream. +Sometimes I even remembered it for a little, but that was all. + +"But he was different, Elaine! If I forgot every word he spoke, the +meaning of it would still be left. I 'd still feel his hand upon my +shoulder, the hand that sank through my shoulder and got a grip on +something inside me. I 'd still feel his eyes burning into mine. I 'd +still see that street out the window and know what it meant. I 'd even +see the little old lady picking her way to the other side,--see the +blind beggar on the corner and the Others. Oh, the Others, Elaine!" + +He had risen from beside her and pressed towards the window as though +once again he wished to taste the air that came down to him from the +star-country to sweeten the decaying soul of him. + +"What was it, Elaine?" he demanded. + +"You heard," she answered, "because every fibre of him is true. Tell +me more." + +"He showed me the sun on the windows!" he ran on eagerly. "He showed +me the people passing on the streets! He showed me what I--even I--had +to do among them. Did you know that we are n't just ourselves--that we +'re a part of a thousand other lives? Did you know that?" + +"It takes a seer really to know that," she answered, "but it's true." + +"That's it," he broke in. "He _knows_! He doesn't guess, he doesn't +reason, he _knows_!" + +She was leaning forward, her head a little back, her eyes half-closed. +He saw the veins in her neck--the light purple penciling of them--as +they throbbed. He was held a moment by the sight. Then he laughed +gently. + +"Little sister," he said, "you know him even better than I." + +She started back. + +He was surprised at the shy beauty he perceived. She had always seemed +to him such a sober body. + +The nurse rapped at the door. + +"It is bedtime," she announced, + +"Yes, nurse," she answered quickly. + +"He asked if he might come to say good night. He 's going to stay here +with me a day or so. Shall I bring him up?" + +She hesitated a moment and then meeting her brother's eyes steadily, +answered, + +"Yes, Ben." + +When Donaldson came into the room she was shocked at the change in his +appearance. It was almost as though what Arsdale had gained Donaldson +had lost. He was colorless, wan, and haggard. His eyes seemed more +deeply imbedded in the dark recesses below his brows. Even his hair at +the temples looked grayer. But neither his voice nor his manner +betrayed the change. The grip of his hand was just as sure; there was +the same certainty in gesture and speech, save perhaps for some +abstraction. + +"They tell me I may stay but a minute," he said, "but it is good to see +you even that long." + +"You brought him back home," she cried. "But it has cost you heavy. +You look tired." + +"I am not tired," he answered shortly. Then turning the talk away from +himself, as he was ever eager to do, he continued, + +"I brought him home, but the burden is still on you." + +"Not a burden any longer. You have removed the burden." + +"I 'm afraid not. There still remains the fight to make him stay. +This is only a beginning." + +His face grew worried. + +"He will stay," she answered confidently, "he will stay because you +reached the father in him and the father was a fighter. I saw the +father in his eyes--I heard his father's voice. It is a miracle!" + +"No. The miracle is how we men keep blind." + +"I feel blind myself when I think how you see." + +"I am no psychic," he exclaimed impatiently. "I see nothing that is +n't before me. You can't help seeing unless you close your eyes. The +world presses in upon you from every side. It is insistent. Even now +the stars outside there are demanding recognition." + +He drew back the crimson curtains draping the big French windows, which +opened upon a balcony. The silver stiletto rays darted a greeting to +him. He swung open the windows. + +"Come out with me and see my friends," he said. + +She rose instantly and followed him. + +He stood there a moment in silence, his head back as he seemed to lead +her into the limitless fragrant purple above. She caught his profile +and saw him like some prophet. It was as though a people were at his +back and he trying to pierce the road ahead for them. The thin face +and erect head seemed to dominate the night. He looked down at her, a +sad smile about his mouth. + +"Out here," he said, "out here with a million miles over our heads we +are freer." + +In her eyes he saw now just what he saw in the stars, the same freedom +of unpathed universes. He saw the same limitlessness. Here there were +no boundaries. A man could go on forever and forever in those eyes--in +their marvelous unfolding. More! More! He would go beyond the +cognate universe, straight into the golden heart of universes beyond. +Eternity was written there. The beacon of her eyes flamed a path that +reached beyond the stars! + +She seemed like nothing but a trusting child. So, she was one with the +great poets. So, she was a great poem. He listened to the same music +which had moved Isaiah. + +"The stars,--they seem to be dancing!" she exclaimed. + +It was to the music of the spheres they were dancing. + +"You!" he commanded, "you must get away from this house. You must take +Ben and get away from here. You must go into a new country. You must +begin your life anew and forget all this, forget everything." + +He paused. + +"Everything," he repeated. "They tell us that the road is straight and +narrow. It's narrow, but it is n't straight. It's crooked and it's +winding and it goes through brake and brush. It's a hard road to find +and a hard road to keep, even with the polestar over our heads. Maybe, +if we were a little above earth--maybe for those who are winged--the +road is straight, but we are n't all winged. Some of us have n't even +sturdy legs and have to creep. Some of us find our legs only after we +are helplessly lost. For down below there is a terrible tangle with +things to be gone around, with things to beat down, and always the +tangle above our heads. So what wonder that we get lost? What wonder?" + +"But I am not lost--you are not lost!" + +"I! I do not matter," he answered slowly. "You must n't let me +matter. I come into your life and I go out of your life and I pray +that I have done no harm." + +His words to her were like words caught in a wind. She heard snatches +of them, but she was unable to piece them together. + +"In your new life you must forget even me. We have met in the brush +and gone on a little way together. We have helped each other in +finding each his true road again. Whether the paths will meet +again--whether the paths will meet again--" he repeated as though deep +in some new and grander reflection, "why, God knows. If we go on +forever, perhaps they will in an aeon or two." + +He paused to give her an opportunity to say something which he might +use as a subject for proceeding farther. His thoughts did n't go very +far along any one line. Always he seemed checked by a wall of +darkness. But she said nothing. The silence lengthened into a minute. + +"Do you understand?" he asked gently. + +"No," she answered frankly. + +"Then--then perhaps we had better go in," he said, fearing for himself. + +He led the way through the swinging windows and closed them behind him. +In the light he saw that she was shivering. + +"I 'm afraid I kept you out there too long," he said anxiously. He +reached her shawl and placed it about her shoulders. His throat ached. + +"I haven't hurt you?" + +"I think you have hurt yourself, somehow." + +She raised her head a little. + +Marie was calling. + +"Good night," he said quickly. + +"Good night." + + + + +CHAPTER XX + +_A Long Night_ + +Donaldson retired to his room, and without undressing threw up his +window and stared at the hedge and the dark that lay beyond. Then he +tried to work out some solution to the problem which confronted him. +There was no use for him to try to blind himself to the fact that he +loved this girl--that was but to shirk the question. She stood out as +the supreme passion of his life and forced upon him a future that had a +meaning beyond anything of which he had ever dreamed. She quickened in +him new hopes, new aspirations, new ambitions. She made him see the +triviality of all that he had most hoped to enjoy during this week; she +opened his eyes to all that he had tried to make Arsdale see. With her +by his side every day would be like that first afternoon; every hour +thrilling with opportunities. The barren future which he had so +feared, even though it offered no greater opportunities than had always +lain before him, would tingle with possibilities. Wait? He could wait +an eternity with her by his side and every waiting minute would be a +golden minute. He could go back to that little office now and find a +thousand things to do. He could hew out a career that would honor her. +He saw numberless chances for reform work into which he could throw +himself, heart and soul, while waiting. But there would be no waiting; +life would begin from the first hour. What more did he need than her? +He shuddered back from his luxurious room at the hotel as from +something cheap. + +A loaf of bread without even so much as a jug of wine would be paradise +enow. Just the opportunity to live and breathe and have his being in +this big pregnant universe was all he craved. He needed nothing else. +So the universe would be his. + +He dared not try to read her thoughts. He had no right to do this. It +did n't matter. Her love was not essential. If he deserved it, that +would come. It was enough that she had given him back his dreams, that +she had taken him back to those fragrant days when his uncrusted soul +had known without knowing. It was enough that the sweetness of her had +become an inseparable part of him for evermore. She was his now, even +though he should never again lay eyes upon her. The only relief he had +was in the thought that she had accomplished this without committing +herself. At least he did not have the burden of her tender love upon +his soul further to complicate matters. + +So much he admitted frankly; so much was fact. The problem which now +confronted him was how he could best escape from involving her at all +in the inevitable climax--how he could make his escape without +destroying in her the ideals with which she had surrounded him and +which she had a right to keep. He owed this to her, to Arsdale, and to +the world of men. + +A dozen times he was upon the point of pushing out into the dark. If +he had followed his own impulse he would have taken some broad road and +footed it hour after hour, through the night, through the next day, +through the next night, and so till the end overtook him, striking him +down in his tracks. He would get as far away as possible, keeping out +under the broad expanse of the sky above. He could find rest only by +taking a course straight on over the hills, turning aside for nothing, +tearing a path through the tangle. + +But he still had his work to do. He must lend his strength to the boy +so long as any strength was left. He must pound into him again and +again the realization of life which he himself had been tempted to +shirk. He must make him see,--must make him know. In recalling that +scene in the room by the window, in recalling his own words to Arsdale, +he felt strangely enough the force of his own thoughts entering into +himself with new life. He listened as it were to himself. Even for +him there were the Others. Down to the last arrow-sped minute there +would still be the Others. Who knew what remained for him to +do--charged with what influence might be even the manner in which he +drew his last breath? If he stood up to it sturdily, if he faced death +with his head high, his shoulders back, even though he might be +cornered in his room like a rat in its hole, so the message might be +wired silently into the heart of some poor devil struggling hard +against his death throes and lend him courage. + +At the end of two hours he undressed and tumbled upon the bed. + +His room was next to Arsdale's room and during the night the latter +came in. + +"I 've had bad dreams about you," the boy exclaimed. "Is anything the +matter?" + +"I 'm not sleeping very well," Donaldson answered. + +"You haven't a fever or anything?" + +"No. Just restless." + +"I have n't slept very well myself. I 've been doing so much thinking. +That keeps a fellow awake." + +"Yes--thinking does. You 'd better let your brain close up shop and +get some rest." + +"I can't. I 've been chewing over what you said, and the more I think +of it, the more I see that you have the right idea. The secret of +keeping happy is to fight for others. It's the only thing that will +make a man put up a good fight, isn't it?" + +"The only thing," answered Donaldson. + +"I don't understand why I did n't realize that before--with Elaine +here. You 'd think she would make a man realize that." + +Donaldson did not answer. + +"I think one reason is," continued the boy, "that until now, until +lately, she's been so nervy herself that she did n't seem to need any +one. She 's been stronger than I. But last night she looked like a +little girl. And now, I'd like to die fighting for her." + +Donaldson found the boy's hand. + +"Never lose that spirit," he said earnestly. "But remember, she 's +worth more than dying for, she 's worth living for." + +"That's so. You put things right every time. She is worth living for. +You are n't much good to people after you 're dead, are you?" + +"Not as far as we know." + +The boy hesitated a moment, a bit confused, and then blurted out, + +"I 'm going to take up some sort of work. Perhaps you can help me get +after something. We have loads of money, you know. I don't think much +of giving it out as cash,--the charity idea. I 've a hunch that I 'd +like to study law and then give my services free to the poor devils who +need a man to look after their interests. They are darned small +interests to men who are only after their fee, but they are big to the +poor devils themselves. And generally they get done. Do you think I +have it in me to study law?" + +"You have it in you to study law with that idea back of you. You 'd +make a great lawyer with that idea." + +"Do you think so?" asked the boy eagerly. + +"I know it." + +"Then perhaps--perhaps--say, would you be willing to take me in with +you?" + +Donaldson moved uneasily. + +"It sounds sort of kiddish, but I know that I 'd do better alongside of +you. I 'd help you around the office. I 'd feel better, just to see +you. Anyway, would you be willing to try me for a while until I sort +of get my bearings?" + +"I like the idea," answered Donaldson. "Let 's talk it over later. +You see there's a chance that I may give up law." + +"Give it up?" + +"I may have to leave this part of the country--for good." + +"Why, man," burst out Arsdale, "you wouldn't leave Elaine?" + +The silence grew ominous. The fighting spirit rose in Arsdale at the +suggestion. + +"You would n't leave Elaine?" he demanded again, turning towards the +form on the bed which looked strangely huddled up. + +"I must leave her with you," answered Donaldson unsteadily. The boy +scarcely recognized the voice, but it roused him to a danger which he +felt without understanding. + +"Why, man dear," he exclaimed, "what would I count to Elaine with you +gone? Don't you know? Have n't you seen?" + +They were the identical words Donaldson had used in trying to open +Arsdale's eyes to another great truth. And Donaldson knew that if they +cut half as deep into the boy as they now cut into him they had left +their mark. He found no answer. He listened with his breath coming as +heavily as the boy's breath had come when they had stood before the +open window. + +Arsdale faltered for words. + +"Why--why Elaine loves you!" he blurted out. + +"Don't!" + +So, too, the boy had exclaimed. + +"Don't you know? I thought you knew everything, Donaldson! I don't +see how you help seeing that. But I suppose it's because you 're so +thoughtful of others that you can't see your own joys. But it's true, +Donaldson. I don't suppose I ought to tell you about it, but man, man, +she loves you! Give me your hand, Donaldson." + +He found it in the dark, hot and dry. + +"I want to tell you how glad I am. I suppose I must be a sort of +father to her now, and I tell you that I would n't give her to another +man in the world but you. You 're the only one worthy of her." + +He pressed the big hand. + +"You 're the one man who can make her happy," he ran on. "You can give +her some of the things she 's been cheated out of. Why, when I was +talking to her last night, her face looked like an angel's as I spoke +of you. It is you who makes it easier for her to forget all the +past--even--even the blow. I knew what it was when I came home--that +you 'd done even that for me--though she couldn't see it. You 've +blotted out of her mind every dark day in her life!" + +"That is something, is n't it?" asked Donaldson almost pleadingly. + +"Something? Something? It's everything. Don't you see now that you +can't go away?" + +"I see," he answered. + +"Well, then, give me your hand again. Sort of trembly, eh? But I 'll +bet you sleep better the rest of the night. And don't you on your life +let her know I told you. She 's proud as the devil. But she would +have done the same for me. They say love is blind," he laughed +excitedly, "but, Holy Smoke, this is the worst case of it I ever saw!" + +Donaldson lay passive. + +"Now," concluded Arsdale, "I 'll go back and see if I can sleep. Good +night." + +Donaldson again lay flat on his back after Arsdale had gone. So he +lay, not sleeping, merely enduring, until, almost imperceptibly at +first, the dark about him began to dissolve. Then he rose, partly +dressed, and sitting by the open window watched the East as the dawn +stole in upon the sleeping city. It came to the attack upon the grim +alleys, the shadows around buildings, the stealthy figures, like a +royal host. A few gray outriders reconnoitred over the horizon line +and sent scurrying to their hovels those who looked up at them from +shifty eyes. Then came a vanguard in brighter colors with crimson +penants who attacked the fields and broad thoroughfares; then the +King's Own in scarlet jackets and wide sweeping banners, bronze tinted, +who charged the smaller streets and factory roofs, and finally the +brave array of all the dazzling host itself, who hurled their golden, +sun-tipped lances into every nook and cranny, awaking to life all save +those whose souls were dark within. + +In watching it Donaldson found the first relief in the long night. His +own mind cleared with the dawn. The day broke so clean and fresh, so +bathed in morning dew, that once again his mind, grown perhaps less +active, clung in some last spasm to the present as when he had sat with +Elaine at breakfast, part of the little Dutch picture. Without +reasoning into the to-morrow, he felt as though this day belonged to +him. As the sun rose higher and stronger, enveloping the world in its +catholic rays, the night seemed only an evil dream. He was both +stronger and weaker. He was swept on, unresisting, by the high flood +of the new day. This world now before his eyes acknowledged nothing of +his agony but came mother-like to ease his fretting. She would have +nothing of the heavy tossings inspired by her sinister sister, the +Night. She was all for clean glad spirits, all for new hopes. So he +who had first frowned at it, who had then watched passively, now rose +to its call. + +He was entitled to this day, sang the tempter sun,--one big day out of +all his life. The crisis would be no more acute upon the morrow and he +might be stronger to meet it. This day was his and hers, and even the +boy's. To accept it would be to shirk nothing; it would be only to +postpone--to weave into the sombre grave vestments be was making for +himself one golden thread. Arsdale's talk had removed the last vestige +of hope. The worst had happened. Surely one gay interlude could add +no burden. A day was always a day, and joys once lived could never be +lost. Always in her life and in his this would remain, and since he +had shouldered the other days as they had come to him, it seemed no +more than right that he should take this. Not to do so would be but +sorry self-imposed martyrdom. + +Arsdale came in, still in his bathrobe, with brisk step and his face +a-beaming. + +"Well," he demanded, "how do you feel now?" + +"Better," answered Donaldson, unhesitatingly. + +"Better! You ought to feel great! Look at the sun out there! Smell +that air! Have you had your tub?" + +"Not yet," smiled Donaldson. + +Arsdale led the way to the shower, and a few minutes later Donaldson +felt his skin tingle to new life beneath the cold spray. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + +_Facing the Sun_ + +When he came down-stairs he found her dressed in white and looking like +a nun. Her hair was brushed back from her forehead and the +silk-figured Japanese shawl was over her shoulders. He recalled the +shawl and with it the picture she had made that first night. + +At the door he called her name and she looked up quickly, swiftly +scanning his face. He crossed to her side. + +"You should n't stay in here," he said. "Come outdoors a moment before +breakfast. It's bright and warm out there." + +She arose, and they went out together to the lawn. Each blade of grass +was wearing its morning jewels. The sun petted them and bestowed +opals, amethysts, and rubies upon them. The hedge was as fresh as if +newly created; the neighboring houses appeared as though a Dutch +housewife had washed them down and sanded them; the sky was a perfect +jewel cut by the Master hand. The peeping and chattering of the +swallows was music, while a robin or two added a longer note to the +sharp staccatos. + +They stood in the deep porch looking out at it, while the sun showered +them with warmth. + +"You 've seen Ben?" he asked. + +"Yes," she answered, turning her face up to his with momentary +brightness. "Yes. And he was like this out here! The change is +wonderful! It is as though he had risen from the dead!" + +Donaldson lifted his head toward the stark blue of the sky. + +"The dead? There are no dead," he exclaimed passionately. "Even those +we bury are ever ready to open their silent lips to us if only we give +them life again. We owe it to them to do that, through our own lives +to continue as best we can their lives here on earth. But we can't do +that as long as we have them dead, can we? And that is true of dead +hopes, of dead loves. We have to face the sun with all those things +and through it breathe into them a new spirit. Do you see, Miss +Arsdale?" + +He did not look at her, but as her voice answered him it seemed to be +stronger. + +"I think--I think I do." + +"Nothing can die, unless we let it die," he ran on, paving the way for +what he realized she must in the end know. "Some of it can disappear +from our sight. But not much. We can bury our dead, but we need n't +bury their glad smiles, we need n't bury the feel of their hands or the +brush of their lips, we need n't bury their songs or the brave spirit +of them. We can keep all that, the living part of them, so long as our +own spirit lives. It is when that dies in us that we truly bury them. +And this is even truer of our loves--intangible spirit things as they +are at best." + +He did not wish that part of him to die utterly in her with his doomed +frame. + +"But--" she shivered, "all this talk of graves and the dead?" + +"It is all of the sun and the living," he replied earnestly. "You must +face the sun with me to-day. Will you?" + +"Yes! Yes! But last night you made me afraid. Was it the dark,--did +you get afraid of the dark? I know what that means." + +"Perhaps," he answered gently. "But if so, it was because I was +foolish enough to let it be dark. And you yourself must never do it +again. If things get bad at night you must wait until morning and then +come out here. So, if you remember what I have said, it will get light +again. Will you promise to do that?" + +"Yes." + +"I 'd like to make this day one that we 'll both remember forever. I +'d like to make it one that we can always turn back to." + +"Yes." + +"Perhaps after to-day we 'll neither of us be afraid of the dark again." + +"I 'm not afraid now." + +"Nor I," he smiled. + +The voice of Arsdale came to them, + +"Oh, Elaine! Oh, Donaldson!" + +She led the way into the house with a lighter step and Arsdale met them +with a beaming face which covered a broad grin. + +"I suppose you two can do without food," he exclaimed, "but I can't. +Breakfast has been waiting ten minutes." + +"It's my fault," apologized Donaldson. + +"You can't see stars in the morning, can you?" chuckled Arsdale. + +"Maybe," answered Donaldson. + +Elaine checked the boy's further comments with a frightened pressure as +she took his arm and passed into the white and green breakfast room. + +There stood the table by the big warm window again, and as she took her +place it seemed as though they were stepping into the same picture +framed by the hedge. She caught Donaldson's eye with a little smile +and saw that he understood. + +Arsdale broke in with renewed enthusiasm for his philanthropic project +and outlined his ambitions to Elaine. + +"You see," he concluded, "some day, little sister, you may see the law +sign 'Donaldson & Arsdale, Counsellors at Law.' Not a bad sounding +firm name, eh?" + +"I think it is great--just great, Ben!" she exclaimed enthusiastically. +"It's almost worth being a man to make your life count for something +like that." + +"I want you to make out a list of books for me to get and I 'll go +down-town this afternoon. I suppose you 've a pretty good law library +yourself?" + +"I had the beginning of one. I sold it." + +"What did you do that for?" + +"My practice was n't big enough to support it. But you--you 'll not be +bothered with lack of clients." + +With school-boy eagerness Arsdale was anxious to plunge into the scheme +at once. + +"And say," he ran on, "I 'm going to look up some offices. I 'll stake +the firm to some good imposing rooms in one of the big law buildings. +Nothing like looking prosperous at the start. Guess I 'll drop +down-town right after breakfast and see what can be had." + +Donaldson didn't have the heart to check him. Later on he would write +him a letter sustaining him in his project and recommending him to a +classmate of his, to whom this partnership would be a godsend, as, a +week ago, it would have been to himself. That was the best he could +think of at the moment and so he let him rattle on. + +As soon as they had finished breakfast Arsdale was off. + +"I 'll leave you two to hunt out new stars as long as that occupation +does n't seem to bore you. I 'll be back for dinner." + +Miss Arsdale looked a bit worried and questioned Donaldson with her +eyes. + +"He 'll be all right," the latter assured her. "Good Lord, a man with +an idea like that is safe anywhere. It's the best thing in the world +for him." + +A little later Donaldson went up-stairs to his room. He took out his +wallet and counted his money. He had over four hundred dollars. At +noon forty-eight hours would be remaining to him. He still had the +ample means of a millionaire for his few needs. + +He was as cool as a man computing what he could spend on a summer +vacation. He was not affected in the slightest by the details of death +or by the mere act of dying itself. He was of the stuff which in a +righteous cause leads a man to face a rifle with a smile. He would +have made a good soldier. The end meant nothing horrible in itself. +It meant only the relinquishing of this bright sky and that still +choicer gift below. + +He rose abruptly and came down-stairs again to the girl, impatient at +being away from her a minute. She was waiting for him. + +"This," he said, "is to be our holiday. I think we had better go into +the country. I should like to go back to Cranton. Is it too far?" + +"Not too far," she answered. "But the memories of the bungalow--" + +"I had forgotten about that. It does n't count with the green fields, +does it? We can avoid the house, but I should like to visit the +orchard and ride behind the old white horse again." + +"I am willing," she replied. + +"Then you will have to get ready quickly." + +They had just time to catch the train and before they knew it they were +there. + +The old white horse was at the little land-office station to meet them +for all the world as though he had been expecting them, and so, for +that matter, were the winding white road, the stile by the lane, and +the orchard itself. It was as though they had been waiting for them +ever since their last visit and were out ready to greet them. + +The driver nodded to them as if they were old friends. + +"Guess ye did n't find no spooks there after all," he remarked. + +"Not a spook. Any more been seen there since?" + +"H'ain't heern of none. Maybe ye took off the cuss." + +"I hope so." + +They dismissed the driver at the lane and then went back a little way +so as to avoid the bungalow. Donaldson was in the best of spirits, for +at the end of the first hour he had solaced himself with the belief +that Arsdale had been mistaken in his statement. She was nothing but a +glad hearted companion in look and speech. They sat down a moment in +the orchard and he was very tender of her, very careful into what trend +he let their thoughts run. But soon he moved on again. He needed to +be active. It was the walk back through the fields to which he had +looked forward. + +They brushed through the ankle-deep grass, pausing here and there to +admire a clump of trees, a striking sky line, or a pretty slope. + +To Donaldson it did not seem possible that this could ever end, that +any act of nature could blot this from his mind as though it had never +been. It was unthinkable that through an eternity he should never know +again the meaning of blue sky, of blossoms, of such profligate pictures +as now met his eye at every step, but above all, that he should be +blind to the girl herself and all for which she stood. No matter how +long the journey he was about to take, no matter through what new +spheres, these things must remain if anything at all of him remained. +So his one thought was to fill himself as full of this day as possible, +to crowd into his flagging brain the many pictures of her and this +setting which so harmonized with her. The deeper joys of love he might +not know, save as his silent heart conjured them, but all that he could +see with his eyes should be his. He would fill his soul so full of +light that the unknown trail would be less dark to him. He would carry +with him for torches the sun and her bright eyes. + +"Let's go back as the crow flies," he suggested. "'Cross country--over +hill and dale. We must n't turn out for anything," he explained, "we +must go crashing through things--trampling them down." + +"My," she cried, mocking his fierceness--little realizing the emotion +to which they gave vent, "my, things had better look out!" + +He paused, caught his breath, and turned to her, an almost terrified +smile about his tense mouth. + +"Oh, little comrade, you 'd best let me be serious." + +"No, no. Not to-day. Let us be as glad as we can,--let us celebrate." + +"Celebrate what?" he demanded, lest she might think that he had +confessed his thoughts to her. + +"Spring," she answered, with a laugh that came from deep within her big +happy heart. "Just spring." + +"Then we must n't trample down anything?" he queried. + +"Nothing that we can help. But we can take the straight course just +the same. We 'll turn aside for the flowers and little trees." + +"And nothing else." + +"Nothing else," she agreed. + +He led the way, his shoulders drooping a trifle and his step not so +light as her step. She could have trodden upon violets without harm to +them. Still, he marched with a sturdiness that was commendable +considering the load he carried. They made their way down through the +orchard and over the sun-flecked grass until they encountered their +first obstacle. It was a stone wall made out of gray field rocks. He +gave her his hand. The fingers clung to his like a child's fingers. +Their warm, soft caress went to his head like wine so that for a +moment, as she stood near him, it was a question whether or not he +could resist drawing her into his arms which throbbed for her. He +spoke nothing; she spoke nothing. There was no boldness in her, nor +any struggle either. With her head thrown back a little, she waited. +So for ten seconds they stood, neither moving. Then he motioned and +she jumped lightly to the ground. He led the way and they took up +their march again, though once behind him she found it difficult to +catch her breath again. + +They moved on down the green hill, across a field, ankle deep in new +grass, into the heavier green of the low lands. So they came to a +meadow brook running shallow over a pebbly bottom but some five yards +wide. There were no stepping stones, but a hundred rods to the right a +small foot bridge crossed. + +Again she waited to see what he would do, while he waited to see what +he would dare. With his heart aching in his throat he challenged +himself. It was asking superhuman strength of him to venture his lips +so near the velvet sheen of her cheeks--he who so soon was going out +with a hungry heart. Her arms would be about his neck--that would be +something to remember at the end--her arms about his neck. He knew +that she expected him in even so slight a thing as this to keep true to +his undertaking and march straight ahead. She realized nothing of the +struggle which checked him. Tragic triviality--the problem of how to +cross a brook with a maid! There was but one way even when it involved +the mauling of a man's heart. + +He held out his arms to her and she came to them quite as simply as she +had taken his proffered hand at the wall. He placed one arm about her +waist and another about her skirts. She clasped her fingers behind his +neck and sat up with as little embarrassment as though riding upon a +ferry. + +He lifted her and the act to him was as though he had condensed a +thousand kisses into one. He walked slowly. This was a brief span +into which to crowd a lifetime of love. In the middle of the brook he +stopped--just a second, to mark the beginning of the end--and then went +on again. When he set her down he was breathing heavily. She had +become a bit self-conscious. Her cheeks were aflame. + +Her low black shoes with their big silk bows tied pertly below her trim +ankles were a goodly sight to see against the green grass as he might +have observed had he looked at them at all. But he did n't. He wiped +his moist forehead as though, instead of a dainty armful, she had been +a burden. + +She shook the wrinkles from her skirt and looked up at him laughing. +Then she frowned. + +"Mr. Donaldson," she scolded, "you walked across there with your shoes +and stockings on." + +"Why, that's so," he exclaimed, looking down at his water-logged shoes +as though in as great surprise as she herself. + +"What are you going to do about it?" + +"I don't know," he answered helplessly. + +"You ought to spread them out in the sun to dry." + +"You can't spread out shoes, can you? Besides we have n't time. We +must hurry right on. Right on, this minute," he added as the motherly +concern in her face set his throat to aching again. + +With the stride of a pioneer he led off, praying that they might not +find in their path another brook. For a stretch of a mile, he pressed +on without once looking around, taking a faster pace than he realized. +The course was a fairly smooth one over an acre or so of pasture, +through a strip of oak woods, and up a stiff slope. It was not until +he reached the top of this that he paused. He looked around and saw +her about halfway up the hill, climbing heavily, her eyes upon the +ground. Even as he watched her, he saw her sway, catch herself, and +push on again without even looking up. It was the act of a woman +almost exhausted. He reached her side in a couple of strides. He +tried to take her arm but she broke free of him and in a final spurt +reached the top of the hill and threw herself upon the ground to catch +her breath. + +"I did n't realize how fast I was going," he apologized kneeling by her +side. "That was unpardonable, but why did n't you call to me?" + +She removed her hat. Then she leaned back upon her hands until she +could speak evenly. A light breeze loosened a brown curl and played +with it. + +"Why did n't you call to me?" + +"Because I wished to keep pace with you." He turned away from her. + +"When you are rested we will start again," he said. + +"Are you ready?" she asked. + +He nodded. + +"Then I am ready." + +"You will take my arm?" + +"No," she answered. + +"Then you must keep by my side where I can watch you." + +They took the remaining distance in more leisurely fashion, now +realizing that they were nearing the outskirts of this fairy kingdom. +With this thought he relaxed a little and instantly the sun and +burgeoning nature claimed him, making light of every problem save the +supreme one of bringing together a man and his mate. + +They crossed a field or two and so came again into the road which they +had left three miles back. Walking a short distance along this, they +found themselves on a sharp hill overlooking the station a few hundred +yards below. With the same impulse they turned back far enough to be +out of sight of this. Twenty minutes still remained to them. They sat +down by the side of the road where they had rested before. A light +breeze pushing through the top of a big pine made a sound as of running +water in the distance. + +With her chin in one hand, elbow on knee, she studied him a moment as +though endowed with sudden inspiration. A quick frown which had +shadowed his face at sight of the railroad had driven home a suspicion +which she had long held. Now she dared to voice it. + +"Have things been mixed up for you--back there?" + +The question startled him. He gave her a swift look as though to +divine the reason for it. It was so direct that it was hard to evade. +And he would not lie directly to her. So he replied bluntly, + +"Yes." + +She waited. He saw her expectant eyes, but he went no further. Part +of the price he paid for being here was renunciation of the balm he +might have in the sharing of his trouble with her. He knew that she +would take his silence for a rebuff, but he could not help that. He +said nothing more, the silence eating into him. + +But something stronger than her pride drove her on. + +"Mr. Donaldson," she said, "you have given a great deal of time to me +and mine--if there is anything I may do in return, you will give me the +privilege?" + +"There is nothing," he answered. + +He saw the puzzled hurt in her eyes. + +"I know all that you with your big heart would do for me," he declared +earnestly, "but honestly there is nothing possible. My worry will cure +itself. I can see the end of it even now." + +"Will the end of it come within a month?" + +"Within a week." + +"Perhaps," she said, "I could hasten the end to a day." + +"No," he smiled, "I 'd rather you would n't. I 'd rather you would +prolong it if you could." + +"Is that a riddle?" + +"To you." + +"Then I can't answer it for I never guessed one in my life." + +So with his knuckles kneading the grass by his side, he made light of +it until she turned away from the subject to admire the blue seen +through the pine needles above their heads. + +Soon he heard the distant low whistle of the engine which was coming +for them like a sheriff with a warrant. + +He was not conscious of very much more until they were back again in +the house and he heard Arsdale's voice, + +"I 've rented the offices, old man! Swellest in the city. To-morrow +you must come down and see them!" + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + +_Clouds_ + +Arsdale was somewhere about the house and Elaine had gone up-stairs +when Donaldson, who had come out-doors to smoke, saw a man with broad +shoulders and a round unshaven face step from a cab, push through the +hedge gate, and come quickly up the path. He watched him with +indifferent interest, until in the dusk he recognized the stubborn +mouth which gripped a cigar as a bull-dog hangs to a rag. Then he +hurried forward with hand extended. + +"Good Lord, Saul," he exclaimed, "where did you drop from?" + +"Hello, Don. I rather hoped that I might run across you here." + +"I 'm ashamed of myself," answered Donaldson guiltily. "I did n't +notify you that we had found him. But the last I heard of you, you +were out of town." + +"Oh, that's all right. Tung gave me the whole story." + +"The rat! He made a lot of trouble for us." + +"And for me, too." + +"Still working on the Riverside robberies?" + +Saul glanced up quickly. Then looking steadily into Donaldson's eyes +as though the reply had some significance he answered, + +"Yes." + +"I wish you luck. And say, old man, I 've worried since for fear lest +you lost a good opportunity for a hot scent the time I kept you out." + +"I did. But I picked it up again by chance." + +"You did? Have you caught the man?" + +"No," answered Saul abstractedly. "Not yet." + +He chewed the stub of his cigar a moment, glancing frequently at the +house. + +"Say," he asked abruptly, "come down the road here a piece with me, +will you?" + +Saul led him to the street and far enough away from the cab so that +their conversation could not be overheard, yet near enough to the +electric light for him to see Donaldson's face clearly. + +"I want you to tell me something about young Arsdale," he began. "Is +he in the house there now?" + +"Yes. And happy as a clam at high water." + +"Has he talked any since he came back?" + +"Talked? He's clear-headed enough, if that is what you mean?" + +"Has he appeared at all worried--as though he had something on his +mind?" + +"Not in the slightest He's taken such a new grip on himself that the +last few days are almost blotted out. You 'd never know him for the +same boy, Saul. He's quit the dope for good." + +"So? Remorse!" + +"Not the kind of remorse you mean, Beefy. This is the real thing." + +Saul thought a moment. Then he asked, + +"You told me, did n't you, that he had no money with him that night?" + +"Not more than a dollar or so." + +"He spent a lot at Tung's." + +"The heathen probably robbed him of it!" + +"Yes, but where did Arsdale get it?" + +Donaldson started. There was something ominous in the question. But +he could n't recount to Saul that disgraceful attack the boy had made +upon his sister when returning for funds. It wouldn't be fair to the +present Arsdale. + +"I don't know," he answered. "What have you up your sleeve, Beefy?" + +"Something bad," replied Saul bluntly. He lowered his voice: "It is +beginning to look as though your young friend might know something +about the robberies that have been taking place around here." + +"What!" + +If an earthquake had suddenly shattered the stone house behind the +hedge, it would have left him no more dazed. + +"I won't say that we 've got him nailed," Saul hastened to explain, +"but it begins to look bad for him." + +"But, man dear," gasped Donaldson, "he is n't a thug! He isn't--" + +"If he 's like the others he 's anything when he wants his smoke. I +'ve seen more of them than you." + +"Saul," he said, "you 're dead wrong about this! You 've made a +horrible mistake!" + +"Perhaps. But he 'll have to explain some things." + +Donaldson took a grip on himself. + +"What's the nature of your evidence?" + +"There 's the question of where he got his funds, first; then the fact +that all the attacks took place within a small radius of this house; +then the motive, and finally the fact, that in a general way he answers +to the description given by four witnesses. He 'll have to take the +third degree on that, anyway." + +The third degree would undoubtedly kill the boy, or, worse, break his +spirit and drive him either to a mad-house or the solace of his drug. +It was a cruel thing to confront him with this at such a point in his +life. It was fiendish, devilish. It was possible that they might even +make the boy believe that in his blind madness he actually did commit +these crimes. Then, as in a lurid moving picture, Donaldson recalled +the uneasiness of the girl; the morning papers with their glaring +headlines of the Riverside robberies, which he had found that morning +scattered about the floor; her fear of the police, and the mystery of +the untold story at which she had hinted. Take these, and the fact +that in his madness Arsdale had actually made an attack upon the girl +and upon himself, similar to those outside the house, and the chain was +a strong one. The pity of it--coming now! + +Yes, it was in this that the cruel injustice lay. Even admitting the +boy to be guilty, it was still an injustice. The man who had done +those things was outside the pale of the law; he was no more. Arsdale +himself, Arsdale the clean-minded young man with a useful life before +him, Arsdale with his new soul, had no more to do with those black +deeds than he himself had. Yet that lumbering Juggernaut, the Law, +could not take this into account. The Law did not deal with souls, but +bodies. + +To this day--what a hideous climax! + +Saul detected the fear in Donaldson's eyes, + +"You know something about this, Don!" he asked eagerly. + +He was no longer a friend; he was scarcely a man; he was a hound who +has picked up his trail. His eyes had narrowed; his round face seemed +to grow almost pointed. He chewed his cigar end viciously. He was +alert in every nerve. + +"You'd better loosen up," he warned, "it's all right to protect a +friend, but it can't be done in a case of this sort. You as a lawyer +ought to know that. It can't be done." + +"Yes, I know, I know. But I want to tell you again that you 're dead +wrong about this. You haven't guessed right, Beefy." + +"That's for others to decide," he returned somewhat sharply. "It 's up +to you to tell what you know." + +"It's hard to do it--it's hard to do it to you." + +Donaldson's face had suddenly grown blank--impassive. The mouth had +hardened and his whole body stiffened almost as it does after death. +When he spoke it was without emotion and in the voice of one who has +repeated a phrase until it no longer has meaning. + +"I realize how you feel," Saul encouraged him, "but there's no way out +of it." + +"No, there's no way out of it. So I give myself up!" + +"But it is n't you I want,--it's Arsdale." + +"No, I guess it's I. See how your descriptions fit me." + +Saul pressed closer. + +"What the devil do you mean?" he demanded. + +"Just this," answered Donaldson dully, "I can't see an innocent man go +to jail." + +To his mind Arsdale was as innocent to-day as though not a shadow of +suspicion rested upon him. + +"Are you mad?" + +"Not yet," answered Donaldson. + +Saul waited a moment. In all his professional career he had never +received a greater surprise than this. He would not have believed +enough of it to react had it not been for Donaldson's expression. Back +of the impassiveness he read guilt, read it in the restless shifting of +the eyes and in the voice dead to hope. Then he said deliberately, + +"I don't believe you, Don." + +"No? Yet you 've got as much evidence against me as against Arsdale." + +"But, God A'mighty, Donaldson, why should you do such a thing?" + +"Why should the boy?" + +Saul seized his arm. + +"You don't tell me that you've fallen into that habit?" + +"Sit in a law-office and do nothing for three years, then--then, +perhaps, you 'll understand." + +Saul threw away his cigar. He studied again the thin face, the +haggardness that comes of opium, the nervous fingers, the vacant shifty +gaze of those on the sharp edge of sanity. Then he lighted a fresh +cigar and declared quietly, + +"I don't believe you!" + +"You 'll have to for the sake of those in the house. They 've been +good to me in there." + +His voice was as hard as black ice and as cold. He looked more like a +magnetized corpse than he did a man. + +"I wish," he continued evenly, "I wish I might have been knocked over +the head before it came to this. If I had known I had to face you, I +would have let it come to that. But I didn't expect this, Beefy." + +"If this story is on the level, you 'd better shut up," warned Saul. +"What you say will be used against you." + +"Thanks for reminding me, but things have come out so wrong that I +can't even shut up. If you should go inside that house with the dream +you sprang on me, you 'd drive the boy crazy and kill the girl. The +boy has been in a bad way, but he's all straight again now, and yet you +might make him believe he did these jobs when out of his head. And +then--and then--why, it would kill them both! That's why I could n't +let you do it. That's why you _must n't_ do anything like that." + +Saul did not answer. He waited. + +"So I might as well make a clean breast of it. Do you remember when +the last job was?" + +"Last Saturday morning." + +"Remember where you were at that time?" + +"Why--that was the morning I went out with you!" + +"Just so," answered Donaldson, his eyes leveled over Saul's head. "I +hate to tell you, but--but it was necessary to do that in order to keep +you away from headquarters." + +Saul reached for his throat, pushing him back a step. + +"You played me traitor like that?" he demanded. + +"It was part of the game," answered Donaldson indifferently. Saul, +fearful of himself, drew back. + +The latter tried to reason it out. A man can change a good deal in a +year, but even with opium it seemed impossible for Donaldson so to +abuse a friendship. But he was checked in his recollection of the man +as he had known him by the memory of that very morning. He had been +suspicious even then that something was wrong. Donaldson had appeared +nervous and altered. + +"Donaldson," he burst out, "I 'd give up my rank to be out of this +mess." + +He added impulsively, + +"Tell me it's all a damned lie, Don!" + +"No," replied Donaldson, "the sooner it's over the better. I 'm all +through now." + +Still Saul hesitated. But there seemed nothing left. + +"Come on," he growled. + +Donaldson followed him to the cab. He was like a man too tired to care. + +"Had n't you better make up some sort of a story for them in there?" +asked Saul, with a jerk of his head towards the house. + +"That's so," answered Donaldson. "Will you trust me for a few minutes?" + +"Take your time," said Saul. + +Donaldson went back up the path and found both Arsdale and his sister +in the library. + +"I 'll have to ask you to excuse me for to-night," he said. "I 've +just had word from a friend who wishes me to spend the night with him." + +They both looked disappointed. + +"He 's waiting out there for me now." + +"Perhaps you will come back later," suggested Arsdale. + +"Not to-night. Perhaps in the morning. I 'll drop you a word if I 'm +kept longer." + +He spoke lightly, with no trace of anything abnormal in his bearing. + +"All right, but we 'll miss you," answered Arsdale. + +The girl said nothing but her face grew suddenly sober. + +They went to the door with him and watched him step into the cab. + +Saul had prayed that he would not return, and now looked more as though +it were he that was being led off. He chewed his unlighted cigar in +silence while the other sat back in his corner with his eyes closed. + +Once on his way to headquarters he leaned forward, and clutching +Donaldson's knee, repeated his cry, + +"Tell me it's all a lie," he begged. "There's time yet. I 'll hustle +you to the train and stake you to Canada. Just give me your word for +it." + +Donaldson shook his head. + +"It would only come back on Arsdale, and that is n't square." + +"Then God help you," murmured Saul. + +The cab stopped before headquarters and Saul, with lagging steps, led +his man in. The Chief listened to the story he told with his keen eyes +kindling like a fire through shavings. He saw the end to the bitter +invective heaped upon him during the last three weeks by the press. +Then he began his gruelling cross-examination. + +The story Donaldson told was simple and convincing. He had come to New +York full of hope, had waited month after month, and had finally become +discouraged. In this extremity he had taken to a drug. His relations +with the Arsdales began less than a week ago and they knew nothing of +him save that he had been of some assistance in helping young Arsdale +straighten out. Arsdale had borrowed money of him, although doubtless +he could not remember it, and had taken it to go down to Tung's. +Feeling a sense of responsibility for the use the boy had made of this +money and out of regard to the sister, he had done his best to help him +pull out. + +When pressed for further details of the crimes themselves, Donaldson +admitted that his memory was very much clouded. He had committed the +assaults when in a mental condition that left them in his memory only +as evil dreams. The substantiation of this must come through his +identification by the witnesses. He could remember nothing of what he +had done with the purses, or the jewels and papers which they +contained. He had used only the money. + +An officer was sent to search his rooms at the hotel, and in the +meanwhile men were sent out to bring in the victims of the assaults. +It was for this test that Donaldson held in check all the reserve power +he had within him. If his story was weak up to this point, he realized +that this identification would substantiate it beyond the shadow of a +doubt. This he knew must be done in order to offset Arsdale's possible +attempt to give himself up when he should hear of this. As a student +he had been impressed with the unreliability of direct evidence, and +here would be an opportunity to test his theory that much of the +evidence to the senses is worthless. From the moment he had determined +upon this course he had based his hopes upon this test. Saul had made +it clear that the descriptions given by the witnesses were vague, and +now in the excitement of confronting their assailant they were apt to +be still more unsubstantial. If he could succeed in terrifying them, +he could convince them to a point where they would make all their +excited visions fit him to a hair. + +And so as each man was brought before him, Donaldson looked at him from +beneath lowering brows with his mind fixed so fiercely upon the +determination to force them to see him as the shadowy brute who had +attacked them that he in reality looked the part. Two of the men +withdrew, wiping their foreheads, after making the identification +absolute. + +The third witness, a woman, promptly fainted. When she revived she +said she was willing to take her oath that this was the man. Not only +was she sure of his height, weight, and complexion, but she recognized +the same malicious gleam which flashed from the demon's eyes as he had +stood over her. She shivered in fright. + +The fourth victim was a man of fifty. He was slower to decide, but the +longer he stood in front of Donaldson, the surer he became. Donaldson, +with his arms folded, never allowed his eyes to move from the honest +eyes of this other. And as he looked he made a mental picture of the +act of creeping up behind this man, of lifting his weapon, finally of +striking. With the act of striking, his shoulders lifted, so intense +was his determination. + +The man drew back from him. + +"Yes," he said, "I am sure. This is the brute." + +It was two hours later before Donaldson was finally handed over to the +officers of the Tombs, and Saul turned back reluctantly to give to the +eager reporters as meagre an outline of the story as he could. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + +_When the Dead Awake_ + +Donaldson, without removing his clothes, tumbled across his bunk and +fell into a merciful stupor which lasted until morning. He was aroused +by a rough shaking and staggered to his feet to find Saul again +confronting him. The latter had evidently been some time at his task, +for he exclaimed, + +"I thought you were dead! You certainly sleep like an honest man." + +"Sleep? Where am I?" + +"You are at present enjoying a cell in the Tombs. You seem to like it." + +Donaldson pressed his hand to his aching eyes. Then slowly the truth +dawned upon him. + +"What day is this?" he asked. + +"Thursday." + +"Yes. Yes. That's so. And to-morrow is Friday." + +"That's a good guess. Do you remember what happened last night?" + +"Yes, I remember. I 'm under arrest. I remember the terror in the +face of that woman!" + +Saul laughed inhumanly. + +"Of all the bogie men I ever saw you were the worst." + +"I suppose I 'll be arraigned this morning." + +"I doubt it, old man. In some ways you deserve it, but I'm afraid the +Chief won't satisfy your morbid cravings. Remember the story you told +him?" + +"Yes." + +"And you 're wide enough awake to understand what I 'm saying to you +now?" + +"Perfectly," answered Donaldson, growing suspicious. + +"Then," exploded Saul, "I want to ask you what the devil your blessed +game is?" + +"I could n't sacrifice an honest man, could I?" + +"Then," went on Saul with increasing vehemence, "I want to tell you +plainly that you 're a chump, because you sacrificed an honest man +after all." + +"You have n't arrested Arsdale? Lord, Saul, you haven't done that, +have you?" + +"No," answered Saul, "I was ass enough to arrest you." + +"It would be wrong, dead wrong, to touch the boy. He didn't have +anything to do with this. There was no one with me." + +Saul took a long breath. + +"I 'm hanged if I ever saw a man _hanker_ after jail the way you do. +And you 've got the papers full of it. And pretty soon I 'll be +getting frantic messages from the girl. And you 've made all sorts of +an ass of yourself. Do you hear--you chump of a hero, you?" + +"What do you mean?" demanded Donaldson. + +"I mean just this; that we 've nailed the right man at last! Got him +with the goods on, so that we won't need the identification of a bunch +of hysterical idiots to prove it. We won't even need a loose-jointed +confession, because we caught him black-handed. But my guess wasn't +such a bad one--it was n't Arsdale, but it was Jacques Moisson, his +father's valet." + +"Jacques Moisson?" + +"The son of that old crone Marie there. He caught the dope habit +evidently from his master and has been to the bad ever since Arsdale +senior died. The old lady has been hiding him part of the time in the +garret of the house." + +Donaldson's thoughts flew back to the bungalow; it was this fellow then +and not Arsdale who had attacked him,--if Saul's story was true. + +Saul approached him with outstretched hand. + +"You played a heavy game, Don." + +Donaldson grew suspicious. + +"I don't know what you 're talking about," he said, his lips coming +tightly together again. + +"No. Of course not! That's right. Keep it up! But I 'll have my +revenge. I 'll give the newspaper boys every detail of it. I 'll see +your name in letters six inches higher than they were even this +morning. I will; I swear it!" + +"Saul," said Donaldson quietly, "you 're doing your best to make me go +back upon my story. You can't do it." + +Saul folded his arms. + +"Of all the heroic liars," he gasped, his face beaming, "you 're the +prince. And," he continued in an undertone, "it 's all for the sake of +a girl." + +Donaldson sprang to his feet. + +"Don't bring in _her_ name, Saul," he commanded. + +"All for the sake of a girl," continued Saul undisturbed. "It took me +some time to work it out, but now I see. Take my hand, won't you, +Donaldson? I want to say God bless you for it." + +Donaldson hesitated. But Saul's eyes were honest. + +"This is the truth you're telling me?" he trembled. + +"The truth," answered the other solemnly. + +"Then you won't touch the boy? There is no further suspicion resting +upon him?" + +"To hell with the boy!" exploded Saul. "You 're free yourself! Don't +you get that?" + +"Yes," answered Donaldson. + +He passed his hand thoughtfully over his face. Then he glanced up with +a smile. + +"I need a shave, don't I?" he asked. + +"You sure do. Let's get out of here. And if I were you I 'd get back +to her about as soon as I could. It's early yet, so maybe she has n't +seen the papers. I gave the boys the real arrest, so that they could +get out an extra on it and take the curse off the first editions. And +now," he added, "and now I 'm going to give them the story of their +lives--the inside story of all this." + +"Don't be a chump, Beefy!" + +"I'll do it," answered Saul firmly. "I'll leave out the girl but I 'll +give them the rest. I 've got some rights in this matter after the way +you 've used me." + +"I know," he apologized, "but there didn't seem any road out of it. If +you 'll just keep quiet about--" + +"Not a word. You 'll take your medicine. Besides, the dear public +will think you were crazy if they don't learn the truth." + +"I don't care about that, if--" + +"Bah! Come on. I 'll get you past the bunch now, but you 'll have to +run for your life after this." + +Saul put him with all possible despatch through the red tape necessary +to secure his acquittal, and then led him out by a side door. He +summoned a cab. + +"They 're waiting," he chuckled. "Twenty of 'em with sharpened pencils +and,--Holy Smoke,--the story! The story!" + +"Forget it, Saul. Forget it--" + +But Saul only pushed him into the cab and hurried back to his joyous +mission. + +Donaldson ordered the driver to the Waldorf. He must get a clean +shave, change his clothes and get back to the Arsdale house before the +first editions were out heralding his arrest. If Jacques had been +arrested at the house it was possible that the excitement might have +prevented them from learning anything at all of his part in the mess. + +He found a letter from Mrs. Wentworth waiting for him. He tore it +open. She wrote: + +"Oh, Peter Donaldson, I wish I had the gift to make you understand how +grateful I am for all you 've done. But I can't until you come up and +visit us. We reached here safely and found everything all right. The +deed was given to me and the money you put in the bank for me. The +house now is all clean and the children are playing out doors. My +heart is overflowing, Peter Donaldson. It is better than anything I +ever dreamed of here. My prayers are with you all the time and I know +they will be heard." + +So she ran on and told him all about the place and what she had already +accomplished. Happiness breathed like a flower's fragrance from every +line of it, until it left him with a lump in his throat. + +"That is something," he said to himself as he finished it. "It has n't +been all waste." + +He went to the barber in better spirits and came back to his room to +read the letter again. It was like a tonic to him. He looked from his +window a moment, to breathe the fresh morning air. + +The street below him was alive once more with its eager life. Men and +women passed to the right and left, the blind beggar still waited at +the corner, the world, expressed now through this one human being, had +abated not one tittle of its activity. The Others were still about +him. The pigeons still cut gray circles through the sunshine and the +girl still waited. As he stood there he heard the raucous cries of the +newsboys shouting "Extra," and knew that he must go on and face this +final crisis. He could not delay another minute. + +When he reached the house he found his worst fears realized. She was +in the library with a crumpled paper in her hand and Arsdale was +bending over her. As he greeted them they both pushed back from him as +though one of the dead had entered. The boy was the first to recover +himself. He sprang to Donaldson's side with his hand out. + +"I told her it was n't true," he exclaimed. "I told her it was all a +beastly lie!" + +He grasped Donaldson's hand and dragged him towards his sister. + +"See," he cried, "see, here he is! The papers lied about him!" + +The girl tottered forward. Donaldson put out his arm and supported her. + +"I 'm sorry you saw the papers," he said quietly. "I was in hopes I +should reach here before that." + +"But what is the meaning of it?" + +"The police made a mistake, that 's all," he explained. + +Arsdale broke in, + +"We 'll sue them for it, Donaldson! I 'll get the best legal talent in +the country and make them sweat for this! It's an outrage!" + +"I 'm sorry you saw the paper," he repeated to the girl. + +Her pale face and startled eyes frightened him. She had withdrawn from +his arm after a minute and now fell into a chair. + +"The blasted idiots," raged the boy. + +The telephone rang imperiously and Arsdale went to answer it, chewing +invectives. + +Donaldson crossed to the side of the girl. + +"Where is Marie?" he asked. + +"She is in bed again. Her poor knees are troubling her." + +"I have both good news and bad news for you," he said after a moment's +hesitation, "the real assailant has been found and it is Jacques +Moisson." + +The girl recoiled. + +"Jacques!" + +"So the police feel sure. They say they caught him this morning in the +attempt to commit another robbery. The Arsdale curse is upon him." + +"Oh," she cried, "that is terrible." + +But as he had guessed, it was good news also. There was no longer any +doubt of who brought that wallet to the bungalow. There was no longer +the grim suspicion of who might have rifled her rooms. The spectres +which had seemed to be moving nearer and nearer her brother vanished +instantly. That burden at least was lifted from her shoulders, even +though it was replaced by another. + +"Poor Marie! Poor Marie!" she moaned. + +"I think she may suspect this," he said. "But it will be better for +you to tell her than the police." + +"Yes, I must go to her at once." + +Arsdale came to the door, his face strangely agitated. He paused there +a moment clinging to the curtains. Then, almost in awe, he came +unsteadily towards Donaldson. The latter straightened to meet him. +The boy started to speak, choked, and, finding Donaldson's hand, seized +it in both his own. Then with his eyes overflowing he found his voice. + +"How am I ever going to repay you for this?" he exclaimed in a daze. + +Elaine was at his side in an instant. + +"What is it, Ben? What is it now?" + +"What is it?" he faltered. "It's so much--it's so much, I can't say it +all at once." + +Donaldson turned away from them both. + +"He," panted the boy, "he gave himself up for me. They thought it was +I, and he went to jail for me." + +"It was a mistake on their part," answered Donaldson. "They did n't +know." + +"And so you shouldered it," she whispered. + +"I knew it would come out all right," he faltered. + +"A reporter rang me up just now," ran on Arsdale. "He told me the +whole thing. The papers are full of it. They--they say you 're great, +Donaldson, but they don't know _how_ great!" + +"If you would n't talk about it," pleaded Donaldson. + +"Talk about it? I want to scream it! I want to get out and stand in +Park Row and yell it. I want every living man and woman in the world +to know about it!" + +"It's all over--it's done with!" + +"No," answered Arsdale, "it's just begun. I feel weak in the knees. I +must go--I must be alone a minute and think this over." + +He staggered from the room and Donaldson turning to the girl, said +gently, "Go to Marie now. She will need you." + +"You," she exclaimed below her breath, "you are wonderful!" + +He turned away his head and she left him there alone. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + +_The Greater Master_ + +In the fifteen minutes that Donaldson waited in the library, he fought +out with himself the question as to whether he had the strength to +remain here in the house on this the day before the end. + +In his decision he took into account his duty towards the boy, the +possible danger to the girl, and his own growing passion. There was +but one answer: he owed it to them all to pull free while there was yet +time. It would be foolhardy to risk here a full day and an evening. + +He felt the approaching crisis more than he had at any time during the +week. + +At times he became panic-stricken at his powerlessness to check for +even one brief pendulum-swing this steady tread of time. Time was such +an intangible thing, and yet what a Juggernaut! There was nothing of +it which he could get hold of to wrestle, and yet it was more powerful +than Samson to throw him in the end. Sly, subtle, bodiless, soulless, +impersonal; expressed in the big clock above the city, and in milady's +dainty watch rising and falling upon her breast; sweeping away cities +and nursing to life violets; tearing down and building up; killing and +begetting; bringing laughter and tears, it is consistent in one thing +alone,--that it never ceases. There is but one word big enough to +express it, and that is God. Without beginning, without end, and never +ceasing. At times he grew breathless, so individualized did every +second become, so fraught with haste. Where was he being dragged, and +in the end would the seconds rest? No, they would go on just the same, +and he might hear them even in his grave. + +With his decision came the even more vital question as to what he +should tell this girl. With the strength of his whole nature he craved +the privilege of standing white before her. He longed to tell her the +whole pitiful complication that he might stand before her without +shadow of hypocrisy. He could then leave with his head up to meet his +doom. But even this crumb of relief was refused him. To do this might +break down the boy and would leave her, if only as a friend, to bear +something of the ensuing hours. He must, then, leave her in darkness, +suffering the lesser stings of doubt and suspicion and bewilderment. +He must leave her in false colors to whatever she might imagine. + +She came back again with her lips quivering. + +"Poor Marie," she gasped. "She lies there broken hearted, praying to +die." + +"I am sorry for her," he said gently. + +"I feel the blame of it," she answered. "Why must the curse of the +house have fallen upon her?" + +"It is difficult to work out such matters," he replied. "But I don't +think you should shoulder the responsibility. We each of us must bear +the burden of our own acts. It makes it even harder when another tries +to relieve us of this." + +"But I can't relieve her. That is the pity of it. She turns away her +head from me for she has taken upon herself all the responsibility for +Jacques." + +"That is the mother in her. There is nothing you can do." + +"She will die of grief." + +"Then she will be dead. So her relief will come." + +The girl drew back a little. + +"She must not die. I must not let her die." + +She looked up at him as though she expected him even in this emergency +to suggest some way out of it. But he was speechless. + +"I must go back to her," she said after a minute. "I must go and +comfort her." + +"Yes," he said, "that is the best you can do. Take her hand and hold +it. That is all you can do. Ben is upstairs?" + +"Yes. I have n't told him yet." + +"Tell him," he advised. "It will help him to have an opportunity to +help another." + +"Then you will excuse me?" + +"Of course. But there is something that I must tell you before you go. +I must leave you both now." + +"You will come back to dinner with us?" + +"I 'm afraid I shall be unable. I start on a long journey. I must say +good bye." + +She fixed her eyes upon him in a new alarm, waiting for what he should +say next. But that was all. That was all he had to say. In those two +words, "Good bye," he bounded all that was in the past, all that was in +the future. + +"You have had some sudden call?" + +"Yes." + +"But you will come back again. Don't--don't make it sound so final." + +"I have no hope of coming back." + +"Oh," she cried, "I thought that now you might find a little rest." + +"Perhaps I shall. I do not know. But before I go I wish to insist +again that you and Ben leave this house and get back into the country +somewhere. Don't think I am presuming, but I should feel better if I +knew you had this in mind. I see so clearly that it is the thing for +you to do." + +"Don't speak as though you were going so far," she shuddered. "What +will Ben do without you?" + +"Get him away from these old surroundings. Let him make +friends--clean, wholesome friends. Let him pursue his hobby. There +are other places besides New York where he is needed. If he is kept +busy I do not fear for him." + +She tried to pierce the white mask he wore. It was quite useless. She +knew that there was something in him now that she could not reach. Yet +she felt that there was need of it. She felt that there was need that +she of all women in the world should force her way into his soul and +there comfort him as he had bidden her comfort Marie. She felt this +with an insurge of passion that left her girlhood behind forever. It +swept away all thoughts of Ben, all thoughts of Marie, all thoughts of +herself. She heard his voice as though in the distance. + +"It is better," he was saying, "to be direct--to be as honest as +possible at such a time as this. We can't say some things very gently, +try as we may, because they are brutal facts in themselves. But I am +going to tell you all I can as simply as I can. I must leave you. It +is n't of my own free will that I go, though at the beginning it was. +Now I go because I must. Perhaps you will never again hear of me. If +you don't you must remember me as you know me now. Do you understand +that, Miss Arsdale? You know me now as I am--as no other human being +knows me. Will you cling to this?" + +"You are to me as you are. So you always will be." + +She met his eyes unflinchingly, feeling a new strength growing within +her. He went on: + +"If we cling to what we ourselves know of our friends--if we cling to +that through thick and thin, nothing that happens to them can matter +much. It is that confidence which lifts our friendships beyond the +reach of the cur snappings of circumstance. So you, whatever you may +hear afterwards, whatever things you find yourself unable to +understand, must hold fast to this week. You must say to yourself," +his voice grew husky, "you must say this,--'If it had been possible for +him to do so, he would have lived out his life as I wished him to live +it out.'" + +As he spoke on, it seemed to him that she, in some subtle way, was +rising superior to him. Instead of losing strength as she stood there +before him, he felt her growing in power. He had been talking to her +as to a child, and now he suddenly found himself confronting a woman. +She was now the dominant personality. When she spoke to him her voice +was firmer and possessed of a new richness. + +"I have heard you," she said. "All the things you spoke are true. Why +are you going?" + +He hesitated at the direct question. + +"Because I must." + +"Why must you?" + +"I cannot tell you." + +She placed a steady hand upon his arm. + +"Yes. You must tell me." + +"Don't tempt me like that!" + +He felt himself weakening. If only he might stand before her with his +mask off. It meant freedom, it meant peace. That was all he +asked--just the privilege of standing stark white before this one woman. + +He turned away. The burden was his and he must bear it, if it crushed +his very soul into the clay. Away from those eyes, he might be able to +write some poor explanation. But to put it into cold words would be +only to force upon her the torture of the next few hours. It was +better for her to believe as she now saw him, as she might guess, than +to suffer the ghastly truth and then shiver at the mud idol that was +left. + +He moved back a step. + +"You must not look at me," he cried. "You must keep your eyes away +from me and--and let me go." + +But she followed, pressing him to the wall as they all had done. The +color leaped to her cheeks. Her eyes grew big and tender. + +"I do not think you understand me," she said. + +He stood awed before what he now saw. It was as though he were looking +at a naked soul. + +"I do not think you understand," she continued, lifting her head a +little. "You will not go, because there can be no call so great as +that which bids you stay." + +He answered, "My master is the master of us all." + +"Then," she returned, "I too must go to meet your master. He must +claim us both." + +"God forbid," he exclaimed. + +"You talk of masters," she ran on more excitedly, "and you are only a +man. We women have a master greater than any you know. You taught me +a moment ago to be direct--to be honest. It is so I must be with you +now. I must be brave," her voice trembled a little, "I must stand face +to face with you. Oh, if you were not so unselfish--so unseeing, you +would not make me do this!" + +He stood speechless--his throat aching the length of it. + +"You treat me like a child, when you have made me a woman! You treat +me like a weakling, when you have given me strength! You tell me you +have some great trouble and then you refuse to allow me to share it! +Don't you see?" + +Her face was transfigured by pure white courage. He trembled before +it. Yet he only gripped himself the firmer and stood before her +immovable, every word she spoke leaving a red welt upon his soul. + +"Peter," she trembled, not in fright but because of her overflowing +heart, "you have shown me the wonder of life during this last week. +You have taken me by the hand and have led me out of the gray barren +land into the flowers and perfume of the orchard. You have done for me +as you did for Ben. Why should I be ashamed to say this? I would not +measure up to you if I kept silent now and let you go alone. I am not +ashamed." + +To himself he said, + +"God give me courage to stand firm." + +"You make it harder for me when you say nothing." + +"I must not listen!" + +"Don't keep me in the dark," she pleaded. "Don't send me back alone +into the dark. It's being alone that hurts." + +To himself he said, + +"God keep me from telling her. God keep me from letting her know of my +love. So it is best." + +"Don't you see now?" + +Again that phrase of his which had come back through Arsdale's lips to +scorch him. + +All he could say aloud was, + +"I must go, and if I can, I will come back." + +"I mean nothing to you if I cannot help you now," she said steadily. +"If the road were smooth to you do you think I could tell you what I +have? It is your need--it is your need that has given me the strength." + +To himself he said, + +"God keep my lips sealed." + +To her he said, + +"I must go." + +She was startled. + +"You remember the orchard, Peter?" + +"As long as I remember anything, I shall remember that." + +"You remember the walk straight through things?" + +"Yes--you at my side." + +"I have just taken it again--alone. I have pressed straight through." + +There was a pause of a few seconds. Then, + +"That is a hard thing for a woman to do." + +There was a longer silence. Then she said tenderly, + +"You look very tired. This day has been heavy to you. Go up-stairs to +your room and rest. Then in the morning--why, in the morning we may +both see clearer." + +"I can rest nowhere. There is no rest left to me." + +"Ah, you look so tired," she repeated. + +He seized her hand and pressed it. Then he turned abruptly towards the +hall. She watched him with a new fright. He paused at the door, his +eyes drawn back to her against his will. She was standing there quite +helpless, a growing pallor sweeping over her cheeks that so lately had +been as richly red as rose leaves. + +"God help me hard now," he moaned. + +She stood before him like a marble statue. There were no tears. + +"I have been very bold," she murmured. "I can never forgive myself +that." + +"You have been wonderful!" he cried. + +"Perhaps you had better go at once, Peter Donaldson," she said. + +He saw her in a blinding white light. + +"God keep you," he managed to say. "God keep you forever and ever." + +He stumbled to the hall, found his hat, and staggered through the door. + +At the hedge a shadow stole out to meet him. It was an ambitious young +reporter. + +"Is this Mr. Donaldson?" he asked. + +"Damn you, no!" shouted Donaldson. "Donaldson is dead!" + + + + +CHAPTER XXV + +_The Shadow on the Floor_ + +Donaldson toiled up the dark staircase leading to Barstow's laboratory. +To him it was as though he were fighting his way through deep water +reaching twenty fathoms above his head. The air was just as cold as +green water; it contained scarcely more life. He felt the same sense +of clammy, lurking things, unknown things, such as crawl along the +slimy bottoms where rotting hulks lie. He was impelled here by the +same sort of fascination which is said to lead murderers back to their +victims, yet it seemed to be the only place where he would be able to +think at all. It was getting back to the beginning--to the +source--where he could start fresh. It was here, and here alone, that +he could write his letter to her. Perhaps here he could make something +out of the chaos of his thoughts. + +When he reached the top of the stairs, he paused before the closed +door. He did not expect Barstow to be in. He hoped that he was not. +He did not wish to face him to-day. To-morrow perhaps--but he realized +that if Barstow had gone on his proposed vacation he would not be back +even then. That did not matter either. The single thing remaining for +him to do was to make Elaine understand something of what his life had +meant, what she had meant in it, what he hoped to mean to her in the +silent future. That must be done alone, and this of all places was +where he could best do it. The mere thought of his room at the hotel +was repulsive to him. + +He listened at the door. There was no sound--no sound save the +interminable "tick-tock, tick-tock" which still haunted him through the +pulse beats in his wrists. He reached forward and touched the knob; +listened again, and then turned it and pressed. The door was locked. +But it was a feeble affair. Barstow had made his experimental +laboratory in this old building to get away from the inquisitive, and +half of the time did not take the trouble to turn the key when he left, +for there was little of value here. + +He knocked on the chance that Barstow might have lain down upon the +sofa for a nap. Again he waited until he heard the "tick-tock, +tick-tock" at his wrists. Then, pressing his body close to the lock, +he turned the knob and pushed steadily. It weakened. He drew back a +little and threw his weight more heavily against it. The lock gave and +the door swung open. + +The sight of the threadbare sofa was as reassuring as the face of an +old friend. Yet what an eternity it seemed since he had sat there and +discussed his barren life with Barstow. The phrases he had used came +back to mock him. He had talked of the things that lay beyond his +reach, while even then they were at his hand, had he been but hardy +enough to seize them; he had spoken of what money could buy for him, +with love eagerly pressing greater gifts upon him without price; he had +hungered for freedom with freedom his for the taking. Sailors have +died of thirst at the broad mouth of the Amazon, thinking it to be the +open salt sea; so he was dying in the midst of clean, sweet life. + +He sat down on the sofa, with his head between his hands and stared at +the glittering rows of bottles which caught the sun. Each one of them +was a laughing demon. They danced and winked their eyes--yellow, blue, +and blood-red. There were a hundred of them keeping step to the +bobbing shadows upon the floor. Row upon row of them--purple, brown, +and blood-red--all dancing, all laughing. + +"You come out wrong every time," Barstow had said. + +And he--he had laughed back even as the bottles were doing. + +He was not cringing even now. He was asking no pity, no mercy. When +he had stepped across the room and had taken down that bottle, he had +been clear-headed; he had been clear-headed when he had swallowed its +contents. The only relief he craved for himself was to be allowed to +remain clear-headed until he should have written his letter. Coming up +the stairs he feared lest this might not be. Now he seemed to be +steadying once more. + +He thought of Sandy. Poor pup, he had gone out easily enough. He had +curled up on a friendly knee and gone to sleep. That was all there had +been to it. It would be an odd thing, he mused, if the dog was where +he could look down on this man-struggle. This braced him up; he would +not have even this dog see him die other than bravely. + +As far as he himself was concerned, he knew that he would go +unflinchingly to meet his final creditor, but there were the +Others--with Sandy there had been no Others. It was easy enough to die +alone, but when in addition to one's own death throes one had to bear +those of others,--that was harder. When he died, it would be as when +several died. There would be that mother in Vermont--part of her would +die with him; there would be Saul--even part of him would die with him; +there was Ben--some of him would die, too; and there was Elaine--good +God, how much of her would die with him? + +He sprang to his feet and began to pace the stained wooden floor. As +he did so, a shadow crawled, from beneath the sofa and stole across the +room like a rat. But unlike a rat, it did not disappear into a hole; +it came back again towards Donaldson. He stopped. Close to the ground +the shadow crept nearer until he saw that it was a dog. Then he saw +that it was a black terrier. Then he saw that in size, color, and +general appearance it was the living double of Sandy. + +He stooped and extended his hand. He tried to pronounce the name, but +his lips were too dry. The dog crouched, frightened, some three feet +distant. Donaldson, squatting there, watched him with straining eyes. +Once again he tried to utter the name. It stuck in his throat, but at +the inarticulate cry he made, the dog wagged his tail so feebly that it +scarcely moved its shadow. Donaldson ventured nearer. The dog rolled +over to its back and held up its trembling forefeet on guard, studying +Donaldson through half closed eyes with its head turned sideways. + +Donaldson put forward his trembling fingers and touched its side. The +dog was warm, even as Sandy had been when he first picked him up. The +dog feebly waved his padded paws and finally rested them upon +Donaldson's hand. + +"Sandy! Sandy!" he murmured, his voice scarcely above a whisper. + +The dumb mouth moved nearer to lick the man's fingers, but his +movements were negative as far as any recognition of the name went. It +was just the friendly overture of any dog to any man. + +If he could get him to answer to the name! It meant life--a chance for +life! It meant, perhaps, that there had been some mistake--that, +perhaps, after all, the poison was not so deadly as Barstow had thought +it. + +He threw himself upon the floor beside the dog. In the body of this +black terrier centred everything in life that a man holds most dear. +If he could speak--if the dumb tongue could wag an answer to that one +question! + +The dog turned over and crawled nearer. Donaldson fixed his burning +eyes upon the blinking brute. + +"Sandy," he cried, "is this you, Sandy?" + +The moist tongue reached for his fingers. + +He took a deep breath. He said, + +"Dick--is this you, Dick?" + +Again the moist tongue reached for his fingers. + +Donaldson picked him up. + +"Sandy," he cried, "answer me." + +The dog closed his eyes as though expecting a blow. + +Donaldson dropped him. The animal crawled away beneath the sofa. +Donaldson felt more alone that minute than he had ever felt in all his +life. It was as though he sat there, the sole living thing in the +broad universe. There was nothing left but the blinking eyes of the +bottles dancing in still brisker joy. He could not endure it. + +Moving across the room he knelt by the sofa and tried to coax the +frightened animal out again. + +"Sandy. Come, Sandy," he called. + +There was no show of life. He snapped his fingers. He groped beneath +the old lounge. Then, in a frenzy of fear, lest it had all been an +apparition, he swung the sofa into the middle of the room. The dog +followed beneath it, but he caught a glimpse of him. He pushed the +sofa back to the wall and began to coax again. + +"Come out, Sandy. I 'll not hurt you. Come, Sandy." + +There was a scratching movement and then the tip of a hot, dry nose +appeared. + +"Come. That 's a good dog. Come." + +He could hear the tail vigorously thumping the floor, but the head +appeared only inch by inch. Donaldson held his breath. + +"Come," he whispered. + +Slowly, with the sly pretension that it demanded a tremendous physical +effort, the dog emerged and stood shivering beneath the big hand which +smoothed its back with cooing words of assurance. + +"Why, I was n't going to hurt you, Sandy," whispered Donaldson, finding +comfort in pronouncing the name. "I was n't going to hurt you. We 're +old friends. Don't you remember, Sandy? Don't you remember the night +I held you? Don't you remember that, Sandy?" + +The dog looked up at him moistening its own dry mouth. In every detail +this was the same dog he had held upon his knee while arguing with +Barstow. He made another test. + +"Mike," he called. + +In response the pup wagged his tail good naturedly and with more +confidence now. + +Donaldson caught his breath. Locked within that tiny brute brain was +the secret of what waited for him on the morrow: love and the glories +of a big life, or death and oblivion. The answer was there behind +those moist eyes. But if he could reach Barstow-- + +Here was a new hope. He could ask him if this was Sandy, and so spare +himself the terrors of the night to come. He had the right to do that +as long as he abided by the decision. There was a telephone here, and +he knew that Barstow lived in an up-town apartment house, so that some +one was sure to be in. He found the number in the battered, +chemical-stained directory, and put in his call. It seemed an hour +before he received his reply. + +"No, sir, Mr. Barstow is away. Any message?" + +"Where has he gone?" asked Donaldson dully. + +"He's off on a yachting cruise, sir." + +It would have been impossible for him to withdraw more completely out +of reach. + +"When do you expect him back?" + +"I don't know, sir. He said he might be gone a day or two or perhaps a +week." + +"And he left?" + +"Last Friday--very unexpectedly." + +Donaldson hung up the receiver, which had grown in his hand as heavy as +lead. He turned back to the dog, who had jumped upon the sofa and was +now cuddled into a corner. He lifted his head and began to tremble +again as Donaldson came nearer. + +"Still afraid of me?" he asked with a sad smile. "Why, there is n't +enough of me left to be afraid of, pup. There 's only about a day of +me left and we ought to be friends during that time." + +He nestled his head down upon the warm body. The dog licked his hair +affectionately. The kindness went to his heart. The attention was +soothing, restful. He responded to it the more, because this dog was +to him the one thing left in the world alive. He snuggled closer to +the silky hide and continued to talk, finding comfort in the sound of +his own voice and the insensate response of the warm head. + +"We ought to be good comrades--you and I--Sandy, because we 're all +alone here in this old rat trap. When a man's alone, Sandy, anything +else in the world that's alive is his brother. The only thing that +counts is being alive. Why, a fly is a better thing than the dead man +he crawls over. And if there be a live man, a dead man, and a fly, +then the fly and the live man are brothers. So you and I are brothers, +and we must fight the devil-eyes in those bottles together." + +They danced before him now--yellow, blue, and blood-red. A more +perfect semblance of an evil gnome could not be made than the +flickering reflection of the sunlight in the bottle of blood-red +liquid. It was never still. It skipped from the bottom of the bottle +to the top and from one side to the other, as though in drunken ecstasy. + +It fascinated Donaldson with the allurement of the gruesome. It was +such a restless, scarlet thing! It looked as though it were trying to +get out of its prison and in baffled rage was shooting its fangs at the +sides, like a bottled viper. + +"See it, Sandy? It's trying to get at us. But it can't, if we keep +together. It's only when a man's alone that those things have any +power. And the little devil knows it. If it were not for you, Sandy, +the thing might drive me mad--might make me mad before I had written my +letter!" + +He sprang to his feet in sudden passion, and the dog with all four feet +planted stiffly on the sofa gave a sharp bark. This broke the tension +at once. + +"That's the dog," Donaldson praised him. "When the shadows get too +close bark at 'em like that!" + +The bellicose attitude of the tiny body brought a smile to Donaldson's +mouth. This, too, was like a bromide to shaking nerves. + +But in this position the dog did not so closely resemble that other dog +which he had held upon his knee. He looked thinner, more angular. His +ears were cocked like two stiff v-shaped funnels. Now he looked like +an older dog. It was more reasonable to suppose, Donaldson realized, +that Barstow had two dogs of this same breed than that a dead dog had +come to life. + +"Sandy!" he called sharply. + +The dog wagged his stub-tail with vigor. + +"Spike!" he called again. + +The tail wagged on with undiminished enthusiasm. + +Donaldson passed his hand over his forehead. + +This was as useless as to try to solve the enigma of the Sphinx. The +dog's lips were sealed as tightly as the stone lips; the barrier +between his brain and Donaldson's brain was as high as that between the +man-chiseled image and the man who chiseled. He was only wasting his +time on such a task, time that he should use in the framing of his +letter. + +He sat down again upon the sofa, took the dog upon his knee, and tried +to think. Before him the bottles danced--purple, brown, and blood-red. +He closed his eyes. He would begin his letter like this: + +"To the most wonderful woman in all the world." + +He would do this because it was true. There was no other woman like +her. No other woman would have so helped an old man in his battle with +himself; no other woman would have stayed on there alone in that house +and would have helped the son in his battle with himself; no other +woman would have followed him as she had wished to do and help him +fight his battle with himself. But she was the most wonderful woman in +the world because of the white courage she had shown in standing before +him and telling of her love. The eyes of her--the glory in her +hair--the marvel in her cheeks--the smile of her! + +He opened his eyes. The devil in the bottle directly in front of him +was more impish than it had been at all. Donaldson rose. The pup +rolled to the floor. Donaldson crossed the room, picked out the +bottle, drew back his arm, and hurled it against the wall, where it +broke into a thousand pieces. It left a gory-looking blotch where it +struck. He went back to the sofa. The dog crept to his side again. +Before him a devil danced in a purple bottle. He closed his eyes. + +He would begin his letter, then, like that. He would go on to tell her +that he was unable to compute his life save in terms of her, that it +had its beginning in her, grew to its fulness through her, and now had +reached its zenith in her. At the brook when he had clasped her in his +arms, he had drunk one deep draught of her. + +He lost himself in one hot love phrase after another. He poured out +his soul in words he had left unspoken to her. He was back again +before the fire, telling her all that he did not tell her then. One +gorgeous image after another swarmed to his brain. He was like a poet +gone mad. He crowded sentence upon sentence, superlative upon +superlative, until he found himself upon his feet, his cheeks hot, and +his breath coming short. Then he caught sight of the crimson stain +upon the wall and felt himself a murderer. He staggered back and threw +himself full-length upon the couch, panting like one at the end of a +long run. He lay here very quietly. + +The dog crawled to his side and licked the hair at his hot temple. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + +_On the Brink_ + +Donaldson was aroused by the dog which was at the door barking +excitedly. It was broad daylight. As Donaldson sprang up he heard the +brisk approach of footsteps, and the next second a key fumbling in the +lock. Before he had fully recovered his senses the door swung open, +and Barstow, tanned and ruddy, burst in. Donaldson stared at him and +he stared at Donaldson. Then, striding over the dog, who yelped in +protest at this treatment, Barstow approached the haggard, unshaven man +who faced him. + +"Good Heavens, Peter!" he cried, "what ails you?" + +Donaldson put out his hand and the other grasped it with the clasp of a +man in perfect health. + +"Can't you speak?" he demanded. "What's the matter with you?" + +"I 'm glad to see you," answered Donaldson. + +"But what are you doing here in this condition? Are you sick?" + +"No, I 'm not sick. I lay down on the sofa and I guess I fell asleep." + +"You look as though you had been sleeping there a month. Sit down, +man. You have a fever." + +"There 's your dog," said Donaldson. + +Barstow turned. The dog, with his forefeet on Barstow's knee, was +stretching his neck towards his master's hand. + +"Hello, pup," he greeted him. "Did the janitor use you all right?" He +shook him off. + +Donaldson sat down. Barstow stood in front of him a moment and then +reached to feel his pulse. It was normal. + +"I 'm not sick, I tell you," said Donaldson, trying to laugh, "I was +just all in. I came up here to see if you were back and slumped down +on the couch. Then I fell asleep. There 's your dog behind you." + +"What of it?" demanded Barstow. + +"Why--he looks glad to see you." + +"What of that?" + +"Nothing." + +Barstow laid his hand on Donaldson's shoulder. + +"Have you been drinking?" he asked. + +"Drinking? No, but I've a thirst a mile long. Any water around here?" + +Barstow went to the closet and came back with a graduating glass full +of lukewarm water. Donaldson swallowed it in a couple of gulps. + +"Lord, that's good!" + +Barstow again bent a perplexed gaze upon him. + +"You have n't been fooling with any sort of dope, Peter?" + +"No." + +"This is straight?" + +"Yes, that's straight," answered Donaldson impatiently. "I tell you +that there is n't anything wrong with me except that I 'm fagged out." + +"You did n't take my advice. You ought to have gone away. Why did n't +you?" + +"I 've been too busy. There's your dog." + +Barstow hung down his hand, that the pup might lick the ends of his +fingers. + +"Peter," he burst out, "you ought to have been with me. If I 'd known +about the trip I 'd have taken you. It was just what you needed--a +week of lolling around a deck in the hot sun with the sea winds blowing +over your face. That's what you want to do--get out under the blue sky +and soak it in. If you don't believe it, look at me. Fit as a fiddle; +strong as a moose. You said you wanted to sprawl in the sunshine,--why +the devil don't you take a week off and do it?" + +"Perhaps I will." + +"That's the stuff. You must do it. You were in bad shape when I left, +but, man dear, you 're on the verge of a serious breakdown now. Do you +realize it?" + +"Yes, I realize it. That 's a good dog of yours, Barstow." + +"What's the matter with the pup? Seems to me you 're taking a deuce of +a lot of interest in him," he returned suspiciously. + +"Dogs seem sort of human when you 're alone with them." + +"This one looks more human than you do. See here, Don, Lindsey said +that he might start off again to-morrow on a short cruise to Newport. +I think I can get you a berth with him. Will you go?" + +"It's good of you, Barstow," answered Donaldson uneasily, "but I don't +like to promise." + +Would Barstow never call the dog by name? He could n't ask him +directly; it would throw too much suspicion upon himself. If Barstow +had left his laboratory that night for his trip, the chances were that +the bottle was not yet missed. He must be cautious. It would be +taking an unfair advantage of Barstow's friendship to allow him to feel +that indirectly he had been responsible for the death of a human being. +Donaldson glanced at his watch. + +It had stopped. + +"What time is it?" he asked. + +"Half past nine." + +Two hours and a half longer! He determined to remain here until +eleven. If, up to that time, Barstow had not called the dog by name he +would leave. He must write that letter and he must put himself as far +out of reach of these friends as possible before the end. If he died +on the train, his body would be put off at the next station and a local +inquest held. The verdict would be heart disease; enough money would +be found in his pocket to bury him; and so the matter would be dropped. + +"I want you to promise, Don," ran on Barstow, "for I tell you that it's +either a rest or the hospital for you. You have nervous prostration +written big all over your face. I know how hard it is to make the +initial effort to pull out when your brain is all wound up, but you 'll +regret it if you don't. And you 'll like the crowd, Don. Lindsey is a +hearty fellow, who hasn't anything to do but live--but he does that +well. He's clean and square as a granite corner-stone. It will do you +good to mix in with him. + +"And his boat is a corker! He spent a quarter of a million on it, and +he 's got a French cook that would make a dead man eat. He 'll put fat +on your bones, Don, and Lindsey will make you laugh. You don't laugh +enough, Don. You 're too serious. And if you have such weather as we +'ve had this week you 'll come back with a spirit that will boost your +law practice double." + +He felt of Donaldson's arm. It was thin and flabby. + +"Good Heavens--here, feel of mine!" + +Donaldson grasped it with his weak fingers. It was beastly thick and +firm. + +"What time is it?" he asked. + +"It is twenty minutes of ten. Is time so important to you?" + +"I must get down-town before long." + +"Rot! Why don't you drop your business here and now. Let things rip." + +"Where 's the dog?" demanded Donaldson. The pup was out of sight. He +felt strangely frightened. He got up and looked all about the room. + +"Where 's he gone?" he demanded again. + +Barstow grasped him by the shoulder. + +"You must pull yourself together," he said seriously. "You 're heading +for a worse place than the hospital." + +"But where the devil has he gone? He was here a minute ago, was n't +he?" + +"Easy, easy," soothed Barstow. "Hold tight!" + +"Find him, won't you, Barstow? Won't you find him?" + +To quiet him Barstow whistled. The dog pounded his tail on the floor +under the lounge. + +"He 's under there," said Barstow. + +"Get him out--get him out where I can see him, won't you?" + +Barstow stooped. + +"Come, Sandy, come," he called. + +Donaldson leaped forward. + +"What did you call him?" he demanded as Barstow staggered back. + +"Have you gone mad?" shouted Barstow. + +"What did you call him?" repeated Donaldson fiercely. "Tell me what +you called him?" + +"I called him Sandy. Control yourself, Don. If you let yourself go +this way--it's the end." + +"The end?" shouted Donaldson. "Man, it 's the beginning! It's just +the beginning! Sandy--Sandy did n't die after all!" + +"Oh, that's what's troubling you," returned Barstow with an air of +relief. "Why did n't you tell me? You thought the dead had risen, eh? +No, the stuff didn't work. The dog only had an attack of acute +indigestion from overeating. But Gad, the coincidence _was_ queer, +when you stop to think of it. I 'd forgotten you left before he came +to." + +"Then," cried Donaldson excitedly, "you did n't have any poison after +all!" + +"No. I was so busy on more important work that my experiments with +that stuff must all of them have been slipshod. But it did look for a +minute as though Sandy here had proven it. But, Lord,--it was n't the +poison that did for him--it was his week. His week was too much for +him!" + +"Give me your hand, Barstow. Give me your hand. I 'm limp as a rag." + +"That's your nerves again. If you were normal, the mere fact that you +thought you saw a spook dog would n't leave you in this shape. Come +over here and sit down." + +"Get me some water, old man--get me a long, long drink." + +When Barstow handed him the glass, which must have held a pint, +Donaldson trembled so that he could hold it to his lips only by using +both hands, as those with palsy do. He swallowed it in great gulps. +He felt as though he were burning up inside. The room began to swim +around him, but with his hands kneading into the old sofa he warded off +unconsciousness. He must not lose a single minute in blankness. He +must get back to her--get back to her as soon as he could stand. She +was suffering, too, though in another way. He must not let another +burning minute scorch her. + +"Perhaps you 'll take my advice now," Barstow was saying, "perhaps you +were near enough the brink that time to listen to me. Tell me I may +ring up Lindsey--tell me now that you 'll go with him." + +"Go--away? Go--out to sea?" cried Donaldson. + +"Yes. To-morrow morning." + +"Why, Lord, man! Lord, man!" he panted, "I--would n't leave New +York--I would n't go out there--for--for a million dollars." + +"You damned ass!" growled Barstow. + +"I--I would n't--go, if the royal yacht--of the King of England were +waiting for me." + +"Some one ought to have the authority to put you in a strait-jacket and +carry you off. I tell you you 're headed for the madhouse, Don!" + +Donaldson staggered to his feet. He put his trembling hands on +Barstow's shoulders. + +"No," he faltered, "no, I 'm headed for life, for life, Barstow! You +hear me? I 'm headed for a paradise right here in New York." + +Barstow felt baffled. The man was in as bad a way as he had ever seen +a man, but he realized the uselessness of combatting that stubborn +will. There was nothing to do but let him go on until he was struck +down helpless. From the bottom of his heart be pitied him. This was +the result of too much brooding alone. + +"Peter," he said, "the loneliest place in this world is New York. Are +you going to let it kill you?" + +"No! It came near it, but I 've beaten it. I 'm bigger now than the +dear old merciless city. It's mine--down to every dark alley. I 've +got it at my feet, Barstow. It is n't going to kill me, it's going to +make me grow. It is n't any longer my master--it's a good-natured, +obedient servant. New York?" he laughed excitedly. "What is New York +but a little strip of ground underneath the stars?" + +"That would sound better if your eyes were clearer and your hand +steadier." + +"You 'd expect a man to be battered up a little, would n't you, after a +hard fight? I 've fought the hardest thing in the world there is to +fight--shadows, Barstow, shadows--with the King Shadow itself at their +head." + +Was the man raving? It sounded so, but Donaldson's eyes, in spite of +their heaviness, were not so near those of madness as they had been a +moment ago. The startled look had left his face. Every feature stood +out brightly, as though lighted from within. His voice was fuller, and +his language, though obscure, more like that of the old Donaldson. +Barstow was mystified. + +"Had n't you better lie down here again?" he suggested. + +"I must go, now. What--what time is it, old man?" + +"Five minutes past ten." + +Donaldson took a deep breath. Time--how it stretched before him like a +flower-strewn path without end. He heard the friendly tick-tock at his +wrists. The minutes were so many jewel boxes, each containing the +choice gift of so many breaths, so many chances to look into her eyes, +so many chances to fulfil duties, so many quaffs of life. + +"My watch has run down," he said, with curious seriousness. "I 'm +going to wind it up again. I 'm going to wind it up again, Barstow." + +He proceeded to do this as though engaged in some mystic rite. + +"May I set it by your watch? I 'd like to set it by your watch, +Barstow." + +He adjusted the hands tenderly, again as though it were the act of a +high priest. + +"Now," he said, "it's going straight. I shall never let the old thing +run down again. I think it hurts a watch, don't you, Barstow?" + +"Yes," answered the latter, amazed at his emphasis upon such +trivialities. + +"Now," he said, "I must hurry. Where's my hat? Oh, there it is. And +Sandy--where's Sandy?" + +The dog crawled out at once at the sound of his name, and he stooped to +pet him a moment. + +"I don't suppose you 'd sell Sandy, would you, Barstow?" + +"I 'll give him to you, if you 'll take him off. I have n't a fit +place to keep him." + +"May I take him now? May I take him with me?" + +"Yes--if you'll come back to me to-morrow and report how you are." + +"I 'll do it. I 'll be here to-morrow." + +He cuddled the dog into his arm and held out his hand. + +"Don't worry about me, old man. Just a little rattled that's all. But +fit as a fiddle; strong as a moose, even if I don't look it as you do!" + +Barstow took his hand, and when Donaldson left, stood at the head of +the stairs anxiously watching him make his way to the street, hugging +the dog tightly to his side. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + +_The End of the Beginning_ + +When Donaldson appeared at the door of the Arsdale house he was +confronted by Ben whose eyes were afire as though he had been drinking. +Before he could speak a word the latter squared off before him +aggressively. + +"What the devil have you done to my sister?" he demanded. + +Donaldson drew back, frightened by the question. + +"What do you mean?" he demanded, the dog dropping from his arms to the +floor. + +"She 's in bed, and half out of her mind," returned the other fiercely. +"She said you 'd gone! Donaldson, if you 've hurt her--" + +The boy's fists were clenched as though he were about to strike. +Donaldson stood with his arms hanging limply by his side. He felt +Arsdale's right to strike if he wished. + +"I have n't gone," he answered. + +"I don't know what has happened," Arsdale ran on heatedly, "but I want +to tell you this--that as much as you 've done for me, I won't stand +for your hurting her." + +"Let me see her," demanded Donaldson, coming to himself. + +"She won't see any one! She 's locked up in her room. She may be +dead. If she is, you 've killed her!" + +Arsdale half choked upon the words. It was with difficulty that he +restrained himself. He was blind to everything, save that in some way +this man was responsible for the girl's suffering. + +"Perhaps she 'll see me. Where is she?" + +Donaldson without waiting for an answer pushed past Arsdale and the +latter allowed it, but followed at his heels. Donaldson knew where she +was without being told. She was in the big front room where the +balcony led outdoors. He went up the stairs heavily, for he knew that +more depended on the next half hour than had anything so far in all +this harrowing week. Though there was plenty of light he groped his +way close to the wall like a blind man. At the closed door he paused +to catch his breath. In the meanwhile the boy, half frantic, pounded +on the panels, shouting over his shoulder, + +"She won't let us in, I tell you! She won't let us in! She may be +dead!" + +At this, Donaldson forced Arsdale back. He put his mouth close to the +insensate wood and called her name. + +"Elaine." + +There was no answer. + +He knocked lightly and called again. Again the silence, the boy +stumbling up against him with an inarticulate cry. The nurse joined +them, and the three stood there in shivering terror. Donaldson felt +panic clutching at his own heart. Before throwing his weight against +the door, he tried once more. + +"Elaine," he cried, "it is I--Donaldson." + +There was the sound of movement within, and then came the stricken plea, + +"Go away. Please go away." + +Arsdale answered, + +"Let me in, Elaine. Nothing shall hurt you. I'll--" + +Donaldson turned upon him and the nurse. + +"Go down-stairs," he commanded. + +His voice made them both shudder back. + +"Go down-stairs," he repeated. "Do you hear! Leave her to me!" + +Arsdale started a protest, but the nurse, in fright, took his arm and +half dragged him towards the stairs. Donaldson followed threateningly. +His face was terrible. He stood at the head of the stairs until they +reached the hall below. Then he returned to the door. + +"Elaine," he said, "I have come back. Do you hear me, Elaine? I have +come back." + +He heard within the sound as of muffled sobbing. He himself was +breathing as though a great weight were on his chest. + +"Elaine," he cried, "won't you open the door to me?" + +The sobbing was broken by a tremulous voice. + +"Is that you, Peter Donaldson?" + +"Yes, yes!" + +"Then go away and leave me, Peter Donaldson." + +"Elaine, can you hear me clearly?" + +There was the pause of a moment, and than the broken voice. + +"Go away." + +"No," he answered steadily, "I can't. I can't go away again until I +see you. You must tell me face to face to go. I 've come back to you." + +She did not answer. + +"Elaine," he cried, "open the door to me. Let me see you." + +"I don't want to see you." + +He waited a moment. Then he said more soberly, + +"Elaine, I can't go away. I must stay right here until I see you. I +sha'n't move from here until my soul goes. Whether you hear me or not, +you will know that I am right here by the door. At the end of one +hour, at the end of two hours, at the end of a day, I shall still be +here. If they try to drag me away, they 'll have to fight--they 'll +have to fight hard." + +There was no answer. He leaned back against the wall. Below, he heard +a whispered conversation between Arsdale and the nurse; within, he +heard nothing. So five minutes passed, and to Donaldson the world was +chaos. He felt as though he were locked up in a tomb. There was the +same feeling of dead weight upon the shoulders; the same sensation of +stifling. Then he heard her voice, + +"Are you still there, Peter Donaldson?" + +"Yes," he answered. + +"Won't you please go away?" + +"I shall not go away until I have seen you." + +Then another long suspense began, but it was shorter than the first. + +"If I let you come in for a minute, will you go then?" + +"Yes," he answered, "I will go then." + +It seemed an eternity before he heard the key turn in the lock and saw +the door swing open a little. He stepped in. She had taken a position +in a far corner. She had drawn the Japanese shawl tightly about her, +and was standing very erect, her white face like chiseled marble. He +started towards her, but she checked him. + +"Do not come any nearer," she commanded. + +He steadied himself. + +"I told you," he began abruptly, "that I was going because I must. +That was true; I went thinking I was to meet Death." + +She took a step towards him. + +"You were ill? You are ill now?" + +"No." + +He paused. Now that the time had come when he could tell her all, it +was a harder thing to do than he had thought. If she withdrew from him +now--what would she do after she had learned? Yet he must do this to +be a free man, to be even a free spirit. There must be no more shadows +between them, not even shadows of the past. + +"I told you," he said, "of my life up to the time I came to New York, +of the daily grind it was to get that far. That was only the +beginning--after that came the real struggle. It was easy to fight +with the enemy in front--with something for your fists to strike +against. But then came the waiting years. I was too blind to see all +the work that lay around me. I was too selfish to see what I might +have fought for. I saw nothing except the wasting months. I lost my +grip. I played the coward." + +He took a quick, sharp breath at the word. It was like plunging a +knife into his own heart to stand before her and say that. + +"One day in the laboratory," he struggled on, "Barstow told me of a +poison which would not kill until the end of seven days. Because I was +not--the best kind of fighter--I--stole it and swallowed it. That was +a week ago. I am here now only because the poison did n't work." + +"You--you tried to kill yourself?" she cried in amazement. + +"Yes," he answered unflinchingly, "I tried to quit. There were many +things I wanted--cheap, trivial things, and at the time I did n't see +my course clear to getting them in any other way. The other +things--the things worth while were around me all the time, but I could +n't see them." + +He paused. She drew away from him. + +"So you see I did not do bravely. I wanted you to know this from the +first, but there didn't seem to be any way. I did n't want to stand +before you as a liar--as a hypocrite, and yet I did n't want to balk +myself in the little good I found myself able to do. That silence was +part of the penalty. I left you yesterday without telling, for the +same reason. That and one other: because I did n't want you to think +me a coward when death might cut off all opportunity for ever proving +otherwise." + +Again he paused, hoping against a dead hope. But she stood there, +cringing away from him, her frightened lips dumb. + +"That is all," he concluded. "Now I will go. But don't you see that I +had to intrude long enough to tell you this? I stand absolutely honest +before you. There isn't a lie in me. Now I am going to work." + +He made an odd looking picture as he stood there. Haggard, hot-eyed, +with a touch of color above his unshaven cheeks, he was like a +victorious general at the end of a hard week's campaign. + +He turned away from her and went out of the room. At the foot of the +stairs he passed in silence Arsdale and the nurse. He turned back. + +"Sandy! Sandy! Where are you?" + +The dog came scrambling over the smooth floor with a joyous yelp. He +picked him up and passing out the door went down the street. The few +remaining dollars he had left burned in his pocket. He tossed them +into the first sewer. He was now free--free to begin clean handed. + +A little farther along he came to a gang of men at work upon the +excavation for a new house. He needed money for food and a night's +lodging. He went to the foreman. + +"Want an extra hand?" + +"Wot th' devil ye 're givin' us?" + +"I 'm in earnest. I have n't a cent. I need work. Try me." + +The burly foreman looked him over with a grin. Then as though he saw a +good joke in it, he gave him a shovel and sent him into the cellar. + +Donaldson removed his coat and rolling up his sleeves took his place +beside the others. Sandy found a comfortable nest in the discarded +garment and settled down contentedly. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII + +_The Seventh Noon_ + +When Arsdale with the nurse at his heels rushed up-stairs, he found his +sister before the mirror combing her hair. There was nothing +hysterical about her, but her white calmness in itself was ominous. + +"What is it, Elaine?" he panted, "has Donaldson gone mad?" + +"No," she answered, "I should say that he is quite sane now." + +"But what the deuce was the trouble with him? He looked as though he +had lost his senses." + +"Perhaps he has just found them." + +The nurse interrupted him, in an aside, + +"I would n't agitate her further." To the girl, she said, "Don't you +think you had better lie down for a little, Miss Arsdale?" + +"Please don't worry about me," she replied calmly, "I am going to +change my dress and then I shall come down-stairs. I wish you would go +to Marie--both of you. It is she who needs attention." + +"But--" broke in Arsdale. + +"There's a good boy. Do what you can to make her comfortable. I will +join you in a few minutes." + +Uncomprehending, Arsdale reluctantly led the way out. She closed the +door behind them and turned to her mirror again. + +"Well," demanded her reflection, "what are you going to do now?" + +"Do? I shall go on as I have always done." + +"Shall you?" + +"Why not? There is Ben. Perhaps we shall go out into the country to +live--perhaps we shall travel." + +"Shall you?" + +"That is certainly the sensible thing to do." + +"Shall you?" + +She smoothed back the hair from her throbbing temples. + +"He looked very much in need of help," suggested the mirror. + +"Who?" + +"Peter Donaldson." + +"Oh," gasped Elaine, "why did he do it? Why did he do it?" + +The mirror recognized the question as one which every woman has asked +at least once in her lifetime. But somehow this did not swerve her +from her insistence. + +"You must judge him from what you yourself have seen of him," the +mirror harped back to Donaldson's own words. + +"He acted bravely before me--before Ben. He did do bravely," cried the +girl. + +"And yet below these acts he had a craven heart?" hinted she of the +mirror. + +"No. No. It isn't possible! It isn't possible!" + +"But he admitted the dreadful thing he tried to do." + +"That was the folly of a moment. He has grown through it. He asked no +mercy--asked no pardon. Did n't you see the expression upon his +haggard face as he left the room?" + +"Were you looking?" queried she of the mirror in surprise. "Your eyes +were away from him." + +"But one couldn't help but see that!" + +The woman in the mirror found herself suddenly put upon the defensive. + +"Where has he gone?" cried the girl. "What is he going to do now?" + +"Will he do bravely whatever lies before him?" + +"Yes. He will! He will!" + +"How do you know?" + +"I know. That is enough." + +"Then why do you not call him back?" + +The girl's cheeks grew scarlet. + +"The shame of what I told him yesterday!" + +"Was it not a bit brave of him to turn away from you?" + +"He should have explained to me at that time why he was going. He +needed me then." + +"Do you not suppose that he knew it? Do you not suppose that it took +the strength of a dozen men to go alone to what he thought was waiting +for him?" + +"I know nothing." + +"And yet you saw his eyes as he stood before you then? And you saw his +eyes as he left you five minutes ago?" + +"I won't see. I can't risk--again!" + +"Yet you love him?" + +Once again the flaming scarlet in her cheeks. Her lips trembled. She +turned away from the mirror. + +"I said nothing of love," she insisted. + +"Yet you love him?" + +"Why did he do it?" she moaned. + +"Yet you love him?" + +"He did so bravely--he spoke so bravely, yet--" + +"He learned. If, of all the world of men, you were to choose one to +stand by your side when hardest pressed, whom would you choose?" + +"I would choose him," answered the girl without hesitation. + +"Why?" + +"Because--" + +"After all, is n't that enough? You would trust him to fight an +eternity as he has fought for you these few days. Twice he staked his +life for you--once his good name." + +"But he thought he was soon to die." + +"All the more precious the time that was left." + +Her eyes brightened. + +"Yes. Yes. I had not thought of that." + +"Yet he did this and further risked what was left to save an unknown +messenger boy." + +"Oh, he did well!" + +"Then he came to you like a man and told what you might never have +discovered, just because he wished to stand clean before you." + +"Yes," she breathed. + +"Why did he do that?" demanded her reflection. + +"I--I don't know." + +"Why did he do that?" + +"Because--" + +"After all, isn't that enough?" + +"But he said nothing. If only he had turned back!" + +"What right had he to say the thing you wish? If he had been less a +man he _would_ have turned back." + +"Where has he gone? What is he going to do?" + +"Why don't you find out?" + +"It would be unmaidenly." + +"Yes, and very womanly. Do you owe him nothing?" + +"I owe him everything." + +"Then--" + +"I must send Ben to find him. I must--oh, but I need n't do anything +more?" + +"No. Nothing more." + +Her heart pounded in her throat in her eagerness to finish her toilet. +Her fingers were so light that she could scarcely hold her comb. She +hurried into a fresh gown and then down-stairs where she found Ben +anxiously pacing the library. He appeared greatly agitated--anchorless. + +"Ben," she began, "I had no right to allow Peter Donaldson to go away +as I did." + +"Little sister," he demanded, "was he unkind to you?" + +"No. No," she broke in eagerly, "he was most generous with me. But +for the moment I could n't see it. It was my fault that he went." + +"But what was the cause of it?" he insisted, puzzled and dazed by the +whole episode. + +"It was nothing that counts now. I want you to promise me, Ben, that +you will never refer to it, that you will never permit him to tell you +of it." + +His face cleared. + +"Just a little tiff? But he took it hard. I never saw a man so worked +up over anything." + +"It belongs to the past," she hurried on, eager to allow it to pass as +he interpreted it. "It would be cruel to him to bring it up again. +Will you promise me, Ben?" + +"I will promise. But I 'm afraid you overdid it. It is going to be +hard to straighten him out." + +"No. It is all straightened out now. All that remains for you to do +is to find him and say that I--that I wish him to come back for lunch." + +"Is it that simple?" + +He smiled, his easy-going nature glad to seize upon anything that +promised relief from such a jumble as this. + +"You must say nothing more than that," she put in, frightened at the +sound of her own words. Supposing that he would not come--supposing +that even now she had presumed too far? + +"You will tell him just that?" + +"Yes," he agreed, "and this morning I would have thought that it was +enough." + +"It is enough now--whatever happens," she said hastily. + +"I must hurry back to Marie," she concluded breathlessly. "You must +not delay. It may be that he is planning to leave town. If so, you +must catch him before he starts." + +He placed his arm tenderly about her slight waist and led her to the +foot of the stairs. + +"You will let me know as soon as you come in?" she pleaded. + +"Yes, and don't worry while I 'm gone." + +Arsdale did not take a cab. He needed a walk to clear his head. The +air was balmy with the fragrance of growing things and he was sensitive +to its influence as he had never been in his life. As he strode along +he felt twice his normal size. And yet what a puppet he was as +compared to this Donaldson who had been willing to take upon his +shoulders the ghastly burden which had been his own. He himself might +bear it to-day, but yesterday it would have crushed him. He had not +realized how low he had sunk until he learned that it was considered a +possibility that he might have committed such crimes as those. If at +first the suspicion had roused his wrath, the sober truth that Jacques +under the same influence was actually guilty had been enough to disarm +him. The past was like a nightmare, and this Donaldson was the man who +had found his hand in the dark and roused him. He quickened his pace. +A small black dog nosing about the fresh dirt thrown from an excavation +to his left attracted his attention to a new house which was going up. +He glanced at the men at work and then stood still in his tracks. Down +there, in his shirt sleeves, bent over a shovel was Peter Donaldson. + +It was impossible to believe, but he stared at the illusion with his +hands getting cold. Then he turned back to the dog. It was the same +pup Donaldson had brought into the house with him. + +He riveted his eyes once more upon the figure standing out among his +fellow workers like a uniformed general in a rabble. He strode to the +side of the foreman of the gang who stood near. + +"Who is that man down there?" he demanded. + +"Dunno," the foreman answered briefly, "he asked fer work this mornin' +and I give him a job." + +"I 'm going to speak to him." + +"Fire erway." + +Arsdale clambered into the hole and reached Donaldson's side before the +latter glanced up. When he did raise his head, it was with an easy, +unembarrassed nod of recognition. + +"Good Lord," gasped Arsdale, "it _is_ you!" + +"Yes." + +Donaldson wiped his wet brow. He was not in particularly good training +for such heavy work. + +"But what the deuce--" + +"I needed money for a night's lodging and took the first job that +offered," he explained. + +There was nothing melodramatic in his speech or attitude. He was not +posing. He spoke of his necessity in the matter-of-fact way in which +he had accepted it. It was necessary to earn the sheer essentials of +life, in order to get a footing--to get sufficient capital to open up +his office again. He would not have borrowed if he could, and a +penniless lawyer in New York is in as bad a position as a penniless +tramp. Not only was he glad of this opportunity to earn a couple of +dollars, but he found pleasure, in spite of the physical strain, in +this most elemental of employments. There was something in the act of +forcing his shovel into the earth that brought him comfort in the +thought that he was beginning in the cleanest of all clean ways. He +was earning his first dollar like a pioneer. He was earning it by the +literal sweat of his brow. + +He turned back from Arsdale's astonished expression to his task. + +"See here, Donaldson," protested the latter excitedly, "this is absurd! +You must quit this. I 've money enough--" + +"And I have n't," interrupted Donaldson heaving a shovel full of moist +dirt into the waiting dump cart. + +Even Arsdale was checked by the expression he caught in Donaldson's +eyes. He ventured nothing further, but, bewildered, stood there, dumb +a moment, before he remembered his message. + +"I came out to find you," he managed to speak. "Elaine wants you to +come back to lunch." + +"What?" + +Donaldson paused in his work and searched Arsdale's face. + +"What did you say?" he demanded slowly. + +"Elaine wants you to come back for lunch. She sent me to find you." + +Arsdale saw Donaldson's lungs expand. He saw every vein in his face +throb with new life. He saw him grow before his eyes to the capacity +of two men. He saw him step forth from this aching begrimed shell into +a new physique as vibrant with fresh strength as a young mountaineer. +It was as startling a metamorphosis as though the man had been touched +with a magician's wand. + +"Thank you," answered Donaldson on a deep intake of breath. "I shall +be glad to come." + +"Drop your shovel then and come along now." + +"No," he replied, as he dug his spade deep into the soil, "I can't quit +my job. The whistle blows at noon." + +At noon! At the seventh noon, the whistle was to blow! He tossed the +weight of two ordinary shovelfuls of gravel into the cart as lightly as +a child tosses a bean bag. + +[Illustration: _At noon! At the seventh noon, the whistle was to +blow!_] + +Perceiving the uselessness of further argument Arsdale climbed out to +the bank, and, sitting on a big boulder, watched Donaldson with dazed +fascination. The foreman passed him once. + +"May be cracked," he remarked, "but I 'd' take a hundred men, the likes +of him." + +"You could n't find them on two continents," answered Arsdale. + +The dog made overtures of friendship and he took him on his knee. + +Donaldson never glanced up. With the precision of a machine he bent +over his shovel, lifted, and threw without pause. The men near him +looked askance at such unceasing labor. + +In time, the foreman blew a shrill note on a whistle and as though he +had applied a brake connected with every man, the shovels dropped and +the motley gang scrambled for their dinner pails. Donaldson for the +first time then lifted his face to Arsdale. The seventh noon had come, +and never had a midday been ushered in to such a sweet note as the +foreman had blown on his penny whistle. + +Donaldson, picking up his coat, made his way to the side of Arsdale, +who had risen to meet him with Sandy barking at his heels. + +"I have only an hour," apologized Donaldson, "I 'm afraid I 'm hardly +in a condition to go into the house." + +"You are n't coming back here?" + +"Yes." + +Once again Arsdale found his protest choked at his lips. What was the +use of talking to a man in such a stubborn mood as this? He led the +way to the house. + +In the hall, he shouted up the stairs, + +"Elaine, Peter Donaldson is here!" + +The girl stepped from the library clutching the silken curtains. She +hesitated a moment at sight of him and then faltering forward, offered +her hand. + +"I 'm glad you came back," she said. + +His fingers closed over her own with a decisiveness that made her catch +her breath. As the woman in the mirror had divined, there was nothing +more left for her to do. + +"But the old chump is going again in an hour," choked Arsdale, "he 's +taken a job shovelling dirt." + +She met Donaldson's eyes. For a moment they questioned him. Then her +own eyes grew moist and she smiled. The joy of it all was too much for +her. She stooped and patted Sandy who was clawing her skirts for +recognition. + +"Oh, little dog," she whispered in his silken ear, "I am glad you came +back. 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