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diff --git a/17428-8.txt b/17428-8.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..49cc46d --- /dev/null +++ b/17428-8.txt @@ -0,0 +1,10184 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of Pembroke, by Mary E. Wilkins Freeman + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: Pembroke + A Novel + +Author: Mary E. Wilkins Freeman + +Release Date: December 31, 2005 [EBook #17428] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK PEMBROKE *** + + + + +Produced by Jeff Kaylin + + + + + +Transcriber's Note: +The images for this text were scanned from the 1894 edition. + + + + +Pembroke + +Mary E. Wilkins + +Harper & Brothers Publishers; New York: 1900 + + +[Illustration: "'It's beautiful,' Rose said"] + + +Introductory Sketch + + +_Pembroke_ was originally intended as a study of the human will in +several New England characters, in different phases of disease and +abnormal development, and to prove, especially in the most marked +case, the truth of a theory that its cure depended entirely upon the +capacity of the individual for a love which could rise above all +considerations of self, as Barnabas Thayer's love for Charlotte +Barnard finally did. + +While Barnabas Thayer is the most pronounced exemplification of this +theory, and while he, being drawn from life, originally suggested the +scheme of the study, a number of the other characters, notably +Deborah Thayer, Richard Alger, and Cephas Barnard, are instances of +the same spiritual disease. Barnabas to me was as much the victim of +disease as a man with curvature of the spine; he was incapable of +straightening himself to his former stature until he had laid hands +upon a more purely unselfish love than he had ever known, through his +anxiety for Charlotte, and so raised himself to his own level. + +When I make use of the term abnormal, I do not mean unusual in any +sense. I am far from any intention to speak disrespectfully or +disloyally of those stanch old soldiers of the faith who landed upon +our inhospitable shores and laid the foundation, as on a very rock of +spirit, for the New England of to-day; but I am not sure, in spite of +their godliness, and their noble adherence, in the face of obstacles, +to the dictates of their consciences, that their wills were not +developed past the reasonable limit of nature. What wonder is it that +their descendants inherit this peculiarity, though they may develop +it for much less worthy and more trivial causes than the exiling +themselves for a question of faith, even the carrying-out of personal +and petty aims and quarrels? + +There lived in a New England village, at no very remote time, a man +who objected to the painting of the kitchen floor, and who quarrelled +furiously with his wife concerning the same. When she persisted, in +spite of his wishes to the contrary, and the floor was painted, he +refused to cross it to his dying day, and always, to his great +inconvenience, but probably to his soul's satisfaction, walked around +it. + +A character like this, holding to a veriest trifle with such a +deathless cramp of the will, might naturally be regarded as a notable +exception to a general rule; but his brethren who sit on church steps +during services, who are dumb to those whom they should love, and +will not enter familiar doors because of quarrels over matters of +apparently no moment, are legion. _Pembroke_ is intended to portray a +typical New England village of some sixty years ago, as many of the +characters flourished at that time, but villages of a similar +description have existed in New England at a much later date, and +they exist to-day in a very considerable degree. There are at the +present time many little towns in New England along whose pleasant +elm or maple shaded streets are scattered characters as pronounced as +any in Pembroke. A short time since a Boston woman recited in my +hearing a list of seventy-five people in the very small Maine village +in which she was born and brought up, and every one of the characters +which she mentioned had some almost incredibly marked physical or +mental characteristic. + +However, this state of things--this survival of the more prominent +traits of the old stiff-necked ones, albeit their necks were +stiffened by their resistance of the adversary--can necessarily be +known only to the initiated. The sojourner from cities for the summer +months cannot often penetrate in the least, though he may not be +aware of it, the reserve and dignified aloofness of the dwellers in +the white cottages along the road over which he drives. He often +looks upon them from the superior height of a wise and keen student +of character; he knows what he thinks of them, but he never knows +what they think of him or themselves. Unless he is a man of the +broadest and most democratic tendencies, to whom culture and the +polish of society is as nothing beside humanity, and unless he +returns, as faithfully as the village birds to their nests, to his +summer home year after year, he cannot see very far below the +surfaces of villages of which Pembroke is typical. Quite naturally, +when the surfaces are broken by some unusual revelation of a +strongly serrate individuality, and the tale thereof is told +at his dinner-table with an accompaniment of laughter and +exclamation-points, he takes that case for an isolated and by no +means typical one, when, if the truth were told, the village windows +are full of them as he passes by. + +However, this state of things must necessarily exist, and has +existed, in villages which, like Pembroke, have not been brought much +in contact with outside influences, and have not been studied or +observed at all by people not of their kind by birth or long +familiarity. In towns which have increased largely in population, and +have become more or less assimilated with a foreign element, these +characters do not exist in such a large measure, are more isolated in +reality, and have, consequently, less claim to be considered types. +But there have been, and are to-day in New England, hundreds of +villages like Pembroke, where nearly every house contains one or more +characters so marked as to be incredible, though a writer may be +prevented, for obvious reasons, from mentioning names and proving +facts. + +There is often to a mind from the outside world an almost repulsive +narrowness and a pitiful sordidness which amounts to tragedy in the +lives of such people as those portrayed in _Pembroke_, but quite +generally the tragedy exists only in the comprehension of the +observer and not at all in that of the observed. The pitied would +meet pity with resentment; they would be full of wonder and wrath if +told that their lives were narrow, since they have never seen the +limit of the breadth of their current of daily life. A singing-school +is as much to them as a symphony concert and grand opera to their +city brethren, and a sewing church sociable as an afternoon tea. +Though the standard of taste of the simple villagers, and their +complete satisfaction therewith, may reasonably be lamented, as also +their restricted view of life, they are not to be pitied, generally +speaking, for their unhappiness in consequence. It may be that the +lack of unhappiness constitutes the real tragedy. + + + +Chapter I + + +At half-past six o'clock on Sunday night Barnabas came out of his +bedroom. The Thayer house was only one story high, and there were no +chambers. A number of little bedrooms were clustered around the three +square rooms--the north and south parlors, and the great kitchen. + +Barnabas walked out of his bedroom straight into the kitchen where +the other members of the family were. They sat before the hearth fire +in a semi-circle--Caleb Thayer, his wife Deborah, his son Ephraim, +and his daughter Rebecca. It was May, but it was quite cold; there +had been talk of danger to the apple blossoms; there was a crisp +coolness in the back of the great room in spite of the hearth fire. + +Caleb Thayer held a great leather-bound Bible on his knees, and was +reading aloud in a solemn voice. His wife sat straight in her chair, +her large face tilted with a judicial and argumentative air, and +Rebecca's red cheeks bloomed out more brilliantly in the heat of the +fire. She sat next her mother, and her smooth dark head with its +carven comb arose from her Sunday kerchief with a like carriage. She +and her mother did not look alike, but their motions were curiously +similar, and perhaps gave evidence to a subtler resemblance in +character and motive power. + +Ephraim, undersized for his age, in his hitching, home-made clothes, +twisted himself about when Barnabas entered, and stared at him with +slow regard. He eyed the smooth, scented hair, the black satin vest +with a pattern of blue flowers on it, the blue coat with brass +buttons, and the shining boots, then he whistled softly under his +breath. + +"Ephraim!" said his mother, sharply. She had a heavy voice and a +slight lisp, which seemed to make it more impressive and more +distinctively her own. Caleb read on ponderously. + +"Where ye goin', Barney?" Ephraim inquired, with a chuckle and a +grin, over the back of his chair. + +"Ephraim!" repeated his mother. Her blue eyes frowned around his +sister at him under their heavy sandy brows. + +Ephraim twisted himself back into position. "Jest wanted to know +where he was goin'," he muttered. + +Barnabas stood by the window brushing his fine bell hat with a white +duck's wing. He was a handsome youth; his profile showed clear and +fine in the light, between the sharp points of his dicky bound about +by his high stock. His cheeks were as red as his sister's. + +When he put on his hat and opened the door, his mother herself +interrupted Caleb's reading. + +"Don't you stay later than nine o'clock, Barnabas," said she. + +The young man murmured something unintelligibly, but his tone was +resentful. + +"I ain't going to have you out as long as you were last Sabbath +night," said his mother, in quick return. She jerked her chin down +heavily as if it were made of iron. + +Barnabas went out quickly, and shut the door with a thud. + +[Illustration: "Barnabas went out quickly"] + +"If he was a few years younger, I'd make him come back an' shut that +door over again," said his mother. + +Caleb read on; he was reading now one of the imprecatory psalms. +Deborah's blue eyes gleamed with warlike energy as she listened: she +confused King David's enemies with those people who crossed her own +will. + +Barnabas went out of the yard, which was wide and deep on the south +side of the house. The bright young grass was all snowed over with +cherry blossoms. Three great cherry-trees stood in a row through the +centre of the yard; they had been white with blossoms, but now they +were turning green; and the apple-trees were in flower. + +There were many apple-trees behind the stone-walls that bordered the +wood. The soft blooming branches looked strangely incongruous in the +keen air. The western sky was clear and yellow, and there were a few +reefs of violet cloud along it. Barnabas looked up at the apple +blossoms over his head, and wondered if there would be a frost. From +their apple orchard came a large share of the Thayer income, and +Barnabas was vitally interested in such matters now, for he was to be +married the last of June to Charlotte Barnard. He often sat down with +a pencil and slate, and calculated, with intricate sums, the amounts +of his income and their probable expenses. He had made up his mind +that Charlotte should have one new silk gown every year, and two new +bonnets--one for summer and one for winter. His mother had often +noted, with scorn, that Charlotte Barnard wore her summer bonnet with +another ribbon on it winters, and, moreover, had not had a new bonnet +for three years. + +"She looks handsomer in it than any girl in town, if she hasn't," +Barnabas had retorted with quick resentment, but he nevertheless felt +sensitive on the subject of Charlotte's bonnet, and resolved that she +should have a white one trimmed with gauze ribbons for summer, and +one of drawn silk, like Rebecca's, for winter, only the silk should +be blue instead of pink, because Charlotte was fair. + +Barnabas had even pondered with tender concern, before he bought his +fine flowered satin waistcoat, if he might not put the money it would +cost into a bonnet for Charlotte, but he had not dared to propose it. +Once he had bought a little blue-figured shawl for her, and her +father had bade her return it. + +"I ain't goin' to have any young sparks buyin' your clothes while you +are under my roof," he had said. + +Charlotte had given the shawl back to her lover. "Father don't feel +as if I ought to take it, and I guess you'd better keep it now, +Barney," she said, with regretful tears in her eyes. + +Barnabas had the blue shawl nicely folded in the bottom of his little +hair-cloth trunk, which he always kept locked. + +After a quarter of a mile the stone-walls and the spray of apple +blossoms ended; there was a short stretch of new fence, and a new +cottage-house only partly done. The yard was full of lumber, and a +ladder slanted to the roof, which gleamed out with the fresh pinky +yellow of unpainted pine. + +Barnabas stood before the house a few minutes, staring at it. Then he +walked around it slowly, his face upturned. Then he went in the front +door, swinging himself up over the sill, for there were no steps, and +brushing the sawdust carefully from his clothes when he was inside. +He went all over the house, climbing a ladder to the second story, +and viewing with pride the two chambers under the slant of the new +roof. He had repelled with scorn his father's suggestion that he have +a one-story instead of a story-and-a-half house. Caleb had an +inordinate horror and fear of wind, and his father, who had built the +house in which he lived, had it before him. Deborah often descanted +indignantly upon the folly of sleeping in little tucked-up bedrooms +instead of good chambers, because folks' fathers had been scared to +death of wind, and Barnabas agreed with her. If he had inherited any +of his father's and grandfather's terror of wind, he made no +manifestation of it. + +In the lower story of the new cottage were two square front rooms +like those in his father's house, and behind them the great kitchen +with a bedroom out of it, and a roof of its own. + +Barnabas paused at last in the kitchen, and stood quite still, +leaning against a window casement. The windows were not in, and the +spaces let in the cool air and low light. Outside was a long reach of +field sloping gently upward. In the distance, at the top of the hill, +sharply outlined against the sky, was a black angle of roof and a +great chimney. A thin column of smoke rose out of it, straight and +dark. That was where Charlotte Barnard lived. + +Barnabas looked out and saw the smoke rising from the chimney of the +Barnard house. There was a little hollow in the field that was quite +blue with violets, and he noted that absently. A team passed on the +road outside; it was as if he saw and heard everything from the +innermost recesses of his own life, and everything seemed strange and +far off. + +He turned to go, but suddenly stood still in the middle of the +kitchen, as if some one had stopped him. He looked at the new +fireless hearth, through the open door into the bedroom which he +would occupy after he was married to Charlotte, and through others +into the front rooms, which would be apartments of simple state, not +so closely connected with every-day life. The kitchen windows would +be sunny. Charlotte would think it a pleasant room. + +"Her rocking-chair can set there," said Barnabas aloud. The tears +came into his eyes; he stepped forward, laid his smooth boyish cheek +against a partition wall of this new house, and kissed it. It was a +fervent demonstration, not towards Charlotte alone, nor the joy to +come to him within those walls, but to all life and love and nature, +although he did not comprehend it. He half sobbed as he turned away; +his thoughts seemed to dazzle his brain, and he could not feel his +feet. He passed through the north front room, which would be the +little-used parlor, to the door, and suddenly started at a long black +shadow on the floor. It vanished as he went on, and might have been +due to his excited fancy, which seemed substantial enough to cast +shadows. + +"I shall marry Charlotte, we shall live here together all our lives, +and die here," thought Barnabas, as he went up the hill. "I shall lie +in my coffin in the north room, and it will all be over," but his +heart leaped with joy. He stepped out proudly like a soldier in a +battalion, he threw back his shoulders in his Sunday coat. + +The yellow glow was paling in the west, the evening air was like a +cold breath in his face. He could see the firelight flickering upon +the kitchen wall of the Barnard house as he drew near. He came up +into the yard and caught a glimpse of a fair head in the ruddy glow. +There was a knocker on the door; he raised it gingerly and let it +fall. It made but a slight clatter, but a woman's shadow moved +immediately across the yard outside, and Barnabas heard the inner +door open. He threw open the outer one himself, and Charlotte stood +there smiling, and softly decorous. Neither of them spoke. Barnabas +glanced at the inner door to see if it were closed, then he caught +Charlotte's hands and kissed her. + +"You shouldn't do so, Barnabas," whispered Charlotte, turning her +face away. She was as tall as Barnabas, and as handsome. + +"Yes, I should," persisted Barnabas, all radiant, and his face +pursued hers around her shoulder. + +"It's pretty cold out, ain't it?" said Charlotte, in a chiding voice +which she could scarcely control. + +"I've been in to see our house. Give me one more kiss. Oh, +Charlotte!" + +"Charlotte!" cried a deep voice, and the lovers started apart. + +"I'm coming, father," Charlotte cried out. She opened the door and +went soberly into the kitchen, with Barnabas at her heels. Her +father, mother, and Aunt Sylvia Crane sat there in the red gleam of +the firelight and gathering twilight. Sylvia sat a little behind the +others, and her face in her white cap had the shadowy delicacy of one +of the flowering apple sprays outside. + +"How d'ye do?" said Barnabas in a brave tone which was slightly +aggressive. Charlotte's mother and aunt responded rather nervously. + +"How's your mother, Barnabas?" inquired Mrs. Barnard. + +"She's pretty well, thank you." + +Charlotte pulled forward a chair for her lover; he had just seated +himself, when Cephas Barnard spoke in a voice as sudden and gruff as +a dog's bark. Barnabas started, and his chair grated on the sanded +floor. + +"Light the candle, Charlotte," said Cephas, and Charlotte obeyed. She +lighted the candle on the high shelf, then she sat down next +Barnabas. Cephas glanced around at them. He was a small man, with a +thin face in a pale film of white locks and beard, but his black eyes +gleamed out of it with sharp fixedness. Barnabas looked back at him +unflinchingly, and there was a curious likeness between the two pairs +of black eyes. Indeed, there had been years ago a somewhat close +relationship between the Thayers and the Barnards, and it was not +strange if one common note was repeated generations hence. + +Cephas had been afraid lest Barnabas should, all unperceived in the +dusk, hold his daughter's hand, or venture upon other loverlike +familiarity. That was the reason why he had ordered the candle +lighted when it was scarcely dark enough to warrant it. + +But Barnabas seemed scarcely to glance at his sweetheart as he sat +there beside her, although in some subtle fashion, perhaps by some +finer spiritual vision, not a turn of her head, nor a fleeting +expression on her face, like a wind of the soul, escaped him. He saw +always Charlotte's beloved features high and pure, almost severe, but +softened with youthful bloom, her head with fair hair plaited in a +smooth circle, with one long curl behind each ear. Charlotte would +scarcely have said he had noticed, but he knew well she had on a new +gown of delaine in a mottled purple pattern, her worked-muslin +collar, and her mother's gold beads which she had given her. + +Barnabas kept listening anxiously for the crackle of the hearth fire +in the best room; he hoped Charlotte had lighted the fire, and they +should soon go in there by themselves. They usually did of a Sunday +night, but sometimes Cephas forbade his daughter to light the fire +and prohibited any solitary communion between the lovers. + +"If Barnabas Thayer can't set here with the rest of us, he can go +home," he proclaimed at times, and he had done so to-night. Charlotte +had acquiesced forlornly; there was nothing else for her to do. Early +in her childhood she had learned along with her primer her father's +character, and the obligations it imposed upon her. + +"You must be a good girl, and mind; it's your father's way," her +mother used to tell her. Mrs. Barnard herself had spelt out her +husband like a hard and seemingly cruel text in the Bible. She +marvelled at its darkness in her light, but she believed in it +reverently, and even pugnaciously. + +The large, loosely built woman, with her heavy, sliding step, waxed +fairly decisive, and her soft, meek-lidded eyes gleamed hard and +prominent when her elder sister, Hannah, dared inveigh against +Cephas. + +"I tell you it is his way," said Sarah Barnard. And she said it as if +"his way" was the way of the King. + +"His way!" Hannah would sniff back. "His way! Keepin' you all on rye +meal one spell, an' not lettin' you eat a mite of Injun, an' then +keepin' you on Injun without a mite of rye! Makin' you eat nothin' +but greens an' garden stuff, an' jest turnin' you out to graze an' +chew your cuds like horned animals one spell, an' then makin' you +live on meat! Lettin' you go abroad when he takes a notion, an' then +keepin' you an' Charlotte in the house a year!" + +"It's his way, an' I ain't goin' to have anything said against it," +Sarah Barnard would retort stanchly, and her sister would sniff back +again. Charlotte was as loyal as her mother; she did not like it if +even her lover intimated anything in disfavor of her father. + +No matter how miserable she was in consequence of her acquiescence +with her father's will, she sternly persisted. + +To-night she knew that Barnabas was waiting impatiently for her +signal to leave the rest of the company and go with her into the +front room; there was also a tender involuntary impatience and +longing in every nerve of her body, but nobody would have suspected +it; she sat there as calmly as if Barnabas were old Squire Payne, who +sometimes came in of a Sabbath evening, and seemed to be listening +intently to her mother and her Aunt Sylvia talking about the spring +cleaning. + +Cephas and Barnabas were grimly silent. The young man suspected that +Cephas had prohibited the front room; he was indignant about that, +and the way in which Charlotte had been summoned in from the entry, +and he had no diplomacy. + +Charlotte, under her calm exterior, grew uneasy; she glanced at her +mother, who glanced back. It was to both women as if they felt by +some subtle sense the brewing of a tempest. Charlotte unobtrusively +moved her chair a little nearer her lover's; her purple delaine skirt +swept his knee; both of them blushed and trembled with Cephas's black +eyes upon them. + +Charlotte never knew quite how it began, but her father suddenly +flung out a dangerous topic like a long-argued bone of contention, +and he and Barnabas were upon it. Barnabas was a Democrat, and Cephas +was a Whig, and neither ever forgot it of the other. None of the +women fairly understood the point at issue; it was as if they drew +back their feminine skirts and listened amazed and trembling to this +male hubbub over something outside their province. Charlotte grew +paler and paler. She looked piteously at her mother. + +"Now, father, don't," Sarah ventured once or twice, but it was like a +sparrow piping against the north wind. + +Charlotte laid her hand on her lover's arm and kept it there, but he +did not seem to heed her. "Don't," she said; "don't, Barnabas. I +think there's going to be a frost to-night; don't you?" But nobody +heard her. Sylvia Crane, in the background, clutched the arms of her +rocking-chair with her thin hands. + +Suddenly both men began hurling insulting epithets at each other. +Cephas sprang up, waving his right arm fiercely, and Barnabas shook +off Charlotte's hand and was on his feet. + +"Get out of here!" shouted Cephas, in a hoarse voice--"get out of +here! Get out of this house, an' don't you ever darse darken these +doors again while the Lord Almighty reigns!" The old man was almost +inarticulate; he waved his arms, wagged his head, and stamped; he +looked like a white blur with rage. + +"I never will, by the Lord Almighty!" returned Barnabas, in an awful +voice; then the door slammed after him. Charlotte sprang up. + +"Set down!" shouted Cephas. Charlotte rushed forward. "You set down!" +her father repeated; her mother caught hold of her dress. + +"Charlotte, do set down," she whispered, glancing at her husband in +terror. But Charlotte pulled her dress away. + +"Don't you stop me, mother. I am not going to have him turned out +this way," she said. Her father advanced threateningly, but she set +her young, strong shoulders against him and pushed past out of the +door. The door was slammed to after her and the bolt shot, but she +did not heed that. She ran across the yard, calling: "Barney! Barney! +Barney! Come back!" Barnabas was already out in the road; he never +turned his head, and kept on. Charlotte hurried after him. "Barney," +she cried, her voice breaking with sobs--"Barney, do come back. You +aren't mad at me, are you?" Barney never turned his head; the +distance between them widened as Charlotte followed, calling. She +stopped suddenly, and stood watching her lover's dim retreating back, +straining with his rapid strides. + +"Barney Thayer," she called out, in an angry, imperious tone, "if +you're ever coming back, you come now!" + +But Barney kept on as if he did not hear. Charlotte gasped for breath +as she watched him; she could scarcely help her feet running after +him, but she would not follow him any farther. She did not call him +again; in a minute she turned around and went back to the house, +holding her head high in the dim light. + +She did not try to open the door; she was sure it was locked, and she +was too proud. She sat down on the flat, cool door-stone, and +remained there as dusky and motionless against the old gray panel of +the door as the shadow of some inanimate object that had never moved. + +The wind began to rise, and at the same time the full moon, impelled +softly upward by force as unseen as thought. Charlotte's fair head +gleamed out abruptly in the moonlight like a pale flower, but the +folds of her mottled purple skirt were as vaguely dark as the foliage +on the lilac-bush beside her. All at once the flowering branches on a +wide-spreading apple-tree cut the gloom like great silvery wings of a +brooding bird. The grass in the yard was like a shaggy silver fleece. +Charlotte paid no more attention to it all than to her own breath, or +a clock tick which she would have to withdraw from herself to hear. + +A low voice, which was scarcely more than a whisper, called her, a +slender figure twisted itself around the front corner of the house +like a vine. "Charlotte, you there?" Charlotte did not hear. Then the +whisper came again. "Charlotte!" + +Charlotte looked around then. + +A slender white hand reached out in the gloom around the corner and +beckoned. "Charlotte, come; come quick." + +Charlotte did not stir. + +"Charlotte, do come. Your mother's dreadful afraid you'll catch cold. +The front door is open." + +Charlotte sat quite rigid. The slender figure began moving towards +her stealthily, keeping close to the house, advancing with frequent +pauses like a wary bird. When she got close to Charlotte she reached +down and touched her shoulder timidly. "Oh, Charlotte, don't you feel +bad? He'd ought to know your father by this time; he'll get over it +and come back," she whispered. + +"I don't want him to come back," Charlotte whispered fiercely in +return. + +Sylvia stared at her helplessly. Charlotte's face looked strange and +hard in the moonlight. "Your mother's dreadful worried," she +whispered again, presently. "She thinks you'll catch cold. I come out +of the front door on purpose so you can go in that way. Your father's +asleep in his chair. He told your mother not to unbolt this door +to-night, and she didn't darse to. But we went past him real still to +the front one, an' you can slip in there and get up to your chamber +without his seeing you. Oh, Charlotte, do come!" + +Charlotte arose, and she and Sylvia went around to the front door. +Sylvia crept close to the house as before, but Charlotte walked +boldly along in the moonlight. "Charlotte, I'm dreadful afraid he'll +see you," Sylvia pleaded, but Charlotte would not change her course. + +Just as they reached the front door it was slammed with a quick puff +of wind in their faces. They heard Mrs. Barnard's voice calling +piteously. "Oh, father, do let her in!" it implored. + +"Don't you worry, mother," Charlotte called out. "I'll go home with +Aunt Sylvia." + +"Oh, Charlotte!" her mother's voice broke in sobs. + +"Don't you worry, mother," Charlotte repeated, with an unrelenting +tone in the comforting words. "I'll go right home with Aunt Sylvia. +Come," she said, imperatively to her aunt, "I am not going to stand +here any longer," and she went out into the road, and hastened down +it, as Barnabas had done. + +"I'll take her right home with me," Sylvia called to her sister in a +trembling voice (nobody knew how afraid she was of Cephas); and she +followed Charlotte. + +Sylvia lived on an old road that led from the main one a short +distance beyond the new house, so the way led past it. Charlotte went +on at such a pace that Sylvia could scarcely keep up with her. She +slid along in her wake, panting softly, and lifting her skirts out of +the evening dew. She was trembling with sympathy for Charlotte, and +she had also a worry of her own. When they reached the new house she +fairly sobbed outright, but Charlotte went past in her stately haste +without a murmur. + +"Oh, Charlotte, don't feel so bad," mourned her aunt. "I know it will +all come right." But Charlotte made no reply. Her dusky skirts swept +around the bushes at the corner of the road, and Sylvia hurried +tremulously after her. + +Neither of them dreamed that Barnabas watched them, standing in one +of the front rooms of his new house. He had gone in there when he +fled from Cephas Barnard's, and had not yet been home. He recognized +Charlotte's motions as quickly as her face, and knew Sylvia's voice, +although he could not distinguish what she said. He watched them turn +the corner of the other road, and thought that Charlotte was going to +spend the night with her aunt--he did not dream why. He had resolved +to stay where he was in his desolate new house, and not go home +himself. + +A great grief and resentment against the whole world and life itself +swelled high within him. It was as if he lost sight of individual +antagonists, and burned to dash life itself in the face because he +existed. The state of happiness so exalted that it became almost +holiness, in which he had been that very night, flung him to lower +depths when it was retroverted. He had gone back to first causes in +the one and he did the same in the other; his joy had reached out +into eternity, and so did his misery. His natural religious bent, +inherited from generations of Puritans, and kept in its channel by +his training from infancy, made it impossible for him to conceive of +sympathy or antagonism in its fullest sense apart from God. + +Sitting on a pile of shavings in a corner of the north room, he +fairly hugged himself with fierce partisanship. "What have I done to +be treated in this way?" he demanded, setting his face ahead in the +darkness; and he did not see Cephas Barnard's threatening +countenance, but another, gigantic with its vague outlines, which his +fancy could not limit, confronting him with terrible negative power +like a stone image. He struck out against it, and the blows fell back +on his own heart. + +"What have I done?" he demanded over and over of this great immovable +and silent consciousness which he realized before him. "Have I not +kept all thy commandments from childhood? Have I ever failed to +praise thee as the giver of my happiness, and ask thy blessing upon +it? What have I done that it should be taken away? It was given to me +only to be taken away. Why was it given to me, then?--that I might be +mocked? Oh, I am mocked, I am mocked!" he cried out, in a great rage, +and he struck out in the darkness, and his heart leaped with futile +pain. The possibility that his misery might not be final never +occurred to him. It never occurred to him that he could enter Cephas +Barnard's house again, ask his pardon, and marry Charlotte. It seemed +to him settled and inevitable; he could not grasp any choice in the +matter. + +Barnabas finally threw himself back on the pile of shavings, and lay +there sullenly. Great gusts of cold wind came in at the windows at +intervals, a loose board somewhere in the house rattled, the trees +outside murmured heavily. + +"There won't be a frost," Barnabas thought, his mind going apace on +its old routine in spite of its turmoil. Then he thought with the +force of an oath that he did not care if there was a frost. All the +trees this spring had blossomed only for him and Charlotte; now there +was no longer any use in that; let the blossoms blast and fall! + + + +Chapter II + + +Sylvia Crane's house was the one in which her grandmother had been +born, and was the oldest house in the village. It was known as the +"old Crane place." It had never been painted, it was shedding its +flapping gray shingles like gray scales, the roof sagged in a mossy +hollow before the chimney, the windows and doors were awry, and the +whole house was full of undulations and wavering lines, which gave it +a curiously unreal look in broad daylight. In the moonlight it was +the shadowy edifice built of a dream. + +As Sylvia and Charlotte came to the front door it seemed as if they +might fairly walk through it as through a gray shadow; but Sylvia +stooped, and her shoulders strained with seemingly incongruous force, +as if she were spending it to roll away a shadow. On the flat +doorstep lay a large round stone, pushed close against the door. +There were no locks and keys in the old Crane place; only bolts. +Sylvia could not fasten the doors on the inside when she went away, +so she adopted this expedient, which had been regarded with favor by +her mother and grandmother before her, and illustrated natures full +of gentle fallacies which went far to make existence comfortable. + +Always on leaving the house alone the Crane women had bolted the side +door, which was the one in common use, gone out the front one, and +laboriously rolled this same round stone before it. Sylvia reasoned +as her mother and grandmother before her, with the same simplicity: +"When the stone's in front of the door, folks must know there ain't +anybody to home, because they couldn't put it there if they was." + +And when some neighbor had argued that the evil-disposed might roll +away the stone and enter at will, Sylvia had replied, with the +innocent conservatism with which she settled an argument, "Nobody +ever did." + +To-night she rolled away the stone to the corner of the door-step, +where it had lain through three generations when the Crane women were +at home, and sighed with regret that she had defended the door with +it. "I wish I hadn't put the stone up," she thought. "If I hadn't, +mebbe he'd gone in an' waited." She opened the door, and the gloom of +the house, deeper than the gloom of the night, appeared. "You wait +here a minute," she said to Charlotte, "an' I'll go in an' light a +candle." + +Charlotte waited, leaning against the door-post. There was a flicker +of fire within. Then Sylvia held the flaring candle towards her. +"Come in," she said; "the candle's lit." + +There was a bed of coals on the hearth in the best room; Sylvia had +made a fire there before going over to her sister's, but it had +burned low. The glow of the coals and the smoky flare of the candle +lighted the room uncertainly, scattering and not dispelling the +shadows. There was a primly festive air in the room. The +flag-bottomed chairs stood by twos, finely canted towards each other, +against the wall; the one great hair-cloth rocker stood +ostentatiously in advance of them, facing the hearth fire; the long +level of the hair-cloth sofa gleamed out under stiff sweeps of the +white fringed curtains at the window behind it. The books on the +glossy card-table were set canting towards each other like the +chairs, and with their gilt edges towards the light. And Sylvia had +set also on the table a burnished pitcher of a rosy copper-color full +of apple blossoms. + +She looked at it when she had set the candle on the shelf. It seemed +to her that all the light in the room centred on it, and it shone in +her eyes like a copper lamp. + +Charlotte also glanced at it. "Why, Richard must have come while you +were over to our house," she said. + +"It don't make any odds if he did," returned Sylvia, with a faint +blush and a bridle. Sylvia was much younger than her sister. Standing +there in the dim light she did not look so much older than her niece. +Her figure had the slim angularity and primness which are sometimes +seen in elderly women who are not matrons, and she had donned a +little white lace cap at thirty, but her face had still a delicate +bloom, and the wistful wonder of expression which belongs to youth. + +However, she never thought of Charlotte as anything but a child as +compared with herself. Sylvia felt very old, and the more so that she +grudged her years painfully. She stirred up the fire a little, +holding back her shiny black silk skirt carefully. Charlotte stood +leaning against the shelf, looking moodily down at the fire. + +"I wouldn't feel bad if I was you, Charlotte," Sylvia ventured, +timidly. + +"I guess we'd better go to bed pretty soon," returned Charlotte. "It +must be late." + +"Had you rather sleep with me, Charlotte, or sleep in the spare +chamber?" + +"I guess I'll go in the spare chamber." + +"Well, I'll get you a night-gown." + +Both of their faces were sober, but perfectly staid. They bade each +other good-night without a quiver; but Charlotte, after she had said +her dutiful and unquestioning prayer, and lay folded in Sylvia's +ruffled night-gown in the best bed, shook with great sobs. "Poor +Barney!" she kept muttering. "Poor Barney! poor Barney!" + +The doors were all open, and once she thought she heard a sob from +below, then concluded she must be mistaken. But she was not, for +Sylvia Crane was lamenting as sorely as the younger maiden up-stairs. +"Poor Richard!" she repeated, piteously. "Poor Richard! There he +came, and the stone was up, and he had to go away." + +The faces which were so clear to the hearts of both women, as if they +were before their eyes, had a certain similarity. Indeed, Richard +Alger and Barnabas Thayer were distantly related on the mother's +side, and people said they looked enough alike to be brothers. Sylvia +saw the same type of face as Charlotte, only Richard's face was +older, for he was six years older than she. + +"If I hadn't put the stone up," she moaned, "maybe he would have +thought I didn't hear him knock, an' he'd come in an' waited. Poor +Richard, I dunno what he thought! It's the first time it's happened +for eighteen years." + +Sylvia, as she lay there, looked backward, and it seemed to her that +the eighteen years were all made up of the Sunday nights on which +Richard Alger had come to see her, as if they were all that made them +immortal and redeemed them from the dead past. She had endured grief, +but love alone made the past years stand out for her. Sylvia, in +looking back over eighteen years, forgot the father, mother, and +sister who had died in that time; their funeral trains passed before +her eyes like so many shadows. She forgot all their cares and her +own; she forgot how she had nursed her bedridden mother for ten +years; she forgot everything but those blessed Sunday nights on which +Richard Alger had come. She called to mind every little circumstance +connected with them--how she had adorned the best room by slow +degrees, saving a few cents at a time from her sparse income, because +he sat in it every Sunday night; how she had had the bed which her +mother and grandmother kept there removed because the fashion had +changed, and the guilty audacity with which she had purchased a +hair-cloth sofa to take its place. + +That adorning of the best room had come to be a religion with Sylvia +Crane. As faithfully as any worshipper of the Greek deity she laid +her offerings, her hair-cloth sofa and rocker, her copper-gilt +pitcher of apple blossoms, upon the altar of love. + +Sylvia recalled, sobbing more piteously in the darkness, sundry +dreams, which had never been realized, of herself and Richard sitting +side by side and hand in hand, as confessed lovers, on that sofa. +Richard Alger, during all those eighteen years, had never made love +to Sylvia, unless his constant attendance upon Sabbath evenings could +be so construed, as it was in that rural neighborhood, and as Sylvia +was fain to construe it in her innocent heart. + +It is doubtful if Sylvia, in her perfect decorum and long-fostered +maiden reserve, fairly knew that Richard Alger had never made love to +her. She scarcely expected her dreams of endearments to be realized; +she regarded them, except in desperate moods, with shame. If her old +admirer had, indeed, attempted to sit by her side upon that +hair-cloth sofa and hold her hand, she would have arisen as if +propelled by stiff springs of modest virtue. She did not fairly know +that she was not made love to after the most honorable and orthodox +fashion without a word of endearment or a caress; for she had been +trained to regard love as one of the most secret of the laws of +nature, to be concealed, with shamefaced air, even from herself; but +she did know that Richard had never asked her to marry him, and for +that she was impatient without any self-reserve; she was even +confidential with her sister, Charlotte's mother. + +"I don't want to say anything outside," she once said, "but I do +think it would be a good deal better for him if we was settled down. +He ain't half taken care of since his mother died." + +"He's got money enough," returned Mrs. Barnard. + +"That can't buy everything." + +"Well, I don't pity him; I pity you," said Mrs. Barnard. + +"I guess I shall get along a while longer, as far as that goes," +Sylvia had replied to her sister, with some pride. "I ain't worried +on my account." + +"Women don't worry much on their own accounts, but they've got +accounts," returned Mrs. Barnard, with more contempt for her sister +than she had ever shown for herself. "You're gettin' older, Sylvy." + +"I know it," Sylvia had replied, with a quick shrinking, as if from a +blow. + +The passing years, as they passed for her, stung her like swarming +bees, with bitter humiliation; but never for herself, only for +Richard. Nobody knew how painfully she counted the years, how she +would fain have held time back with her thin hands, how futilely and +pitifully she set her loving heart against it, and not for herself +and her own vanity, but for the sake of her lover. She had come, in +the singleness of her heart, to regard herself in the light of a +species of coin to be expended wholly for the happiness and interest +of one man. Any depreciation in its value was of account only as it +affected him. + +Sylvia Crane, sitting in the meeting-house of a Sunday, used to watch +the young girls coming in, as radiant and flawless as new flowers, in +their Sunday bests, with a sort of admiring envy, which could do them +no harm, but which tore her own heart. + +When she should have been contrasting the wickedness of her soul with +the grace of the Divine Model, she was contrasting her fading face +with the youthful bloom of the young girls. "He'd ought to marry one +of them," she thought; "he'd ought to, by good rights." It never +occurred to Sylvia that Richard also was growing older, and that he +was, moreover, a few years older than she. She thought of him as an +immortal youth; his face was the same to her as when she had first +seen it. + +When it came before a subtler vision than her bodily one, there in +the darkness and loneliness of this last Sunday night, it wore the +beauty and innocent freshness of a child. If Richard Alger could have +seen his own face as the woman who loved him saw it, he could never +have doubted his own immortality. + +"There he came, an' the stone was up, an' he had to go away," moaned +Sylvia, catching her breath softly. Many a time she had pitied +Richard because he had not the little womanly care which men need; +she had worried lest his stockings were not darned, and his food not +properly cooked; but to-night she had another and strange anxiety. +She worried lest she herself had hurt him and sent him home with a +heavy heart. + +Sylvia had gone about for the last few days with her delicate face as +irresponsibly calm as a sweet-pea; nobody had dreamed of the turmoil +in her heart. On the Wednesday night before she had nearly reached +the climax of her wishes. Richard had come, departing from his usual +custom--he had never called except on Sunday before--and remained +later. It was ten o'clock before he went home. He had been very +silent all the evening, and had sat soberly in the great best +rocking-chair, which was, in a way, his throne of state, with Sylvia +on the sofa on his right. Many a time she had dreamed that he came +over there and sat down beside her, and that night it had come to +pass. + +Just before ten o'clock he had arisen hesitatingly; she thought it +was to take leave, but she sat waiting and trembling. They had sat in +the twilight and young moonlight all the evening. Richard had checked +her when she attempted to light a candle. That had somehow made the +evening seem strange, and freighted with consequences; and besides +the white light of the moon, full of mystic influence, there was +something subtler and more magnetic, which could sway more than the +tides, even the passions of the human heart, present, and they both +felt it. + +Neither had said much, and they had been sitting there nearly two +hours, when Richard had arisen, and moved curiously, rather as if he +was drawn than walked of his own volition, over to the sofa. He sank +down upon it with a little cough. Sylvia moved away a little with an +involuntary motion, which was pure maidenliness. + +"It's getting late," remarked Richard, trying to make his voice +careless, but it fell in spite of him into deep cadences. + +"It ain't very late, I guess," Sylvia had returned, tremblingly. + +"I ought to be going home." + +Then there was silence for a while. Sylvia glanced sidewise, timidly +and adoringly, at Richard's smoothly shaven face, pale as marble in +the moonlight, and waited, her heart throbbing. + +[Illustration: "Sylvia glanced timidly at Richard's smoothly-shaven +face"] + +"I've been coming here a good many years," Richard observed finally, +and his own voice had a solemn tremor. + +Sylvia made an almost inarticulate assent. + +"I've been thinking lately," said Richard; then he paused. They could +hear the great clock out in the kitchen tick. Sylvia waited, her very +soul straining, although shrinking at the same time, to hear. + +"I've been thinking lately," said Richard again, "that--maybe--it +would be wise for--us both to--make some different arrangement." + +Sylvia bent her head low. Richard paused for the second time. "I have +always meant--" he began again, but just then the clock in the +kitchen struck the first stroke of ten. Richard caught his breath and +arose quickly. Never in his long courtship had he remained as late as +that at Sylvia Crane's. It was as if a life-long habit struck as well +as the clock, and decided his times for him. + +"I must be going," said he, speaking against the bell notes. Sylvia +arose without a word of dissent, but Richard spoke as if she had +remonstrated. + +"I'll come again next Sunday night," said he, apologetically. + +Sylvia followed him to the door. They bade each other good-night +decorously, with never a parting kiss, as they had done for years. +Richard went out of sight down the white gleaming road, and she went +in and to bed, with her heart in a great tumult of expectation and +joyful fear. + +She had tried to wait calmly for Sunday night. She had done her neat +household tasks as usual, her face and outward demeanor were sweetly +unruffled, but her thoughts seemed shivering with rainbows that +constantly dazzled her with sweet shocks when her eyes met them. Her +feet seemed constantly flying before her into the future, and she +could scarcely tell where she might really be, in the present or in +her dreams, which had suddenly grown so real. + +On Sunday morning she had curled her soft fair hair, and arranged +with trepidation one long light curl outside her bonnet on each side +of her face. Her bonnet was tied under her chin with a green ribbon, +and she had a little feathery green wreath around her face inside the +rim. Her wide silk skirt was shot with green and blue, and rustled as +she walked up the aisle to her pew. People stared after her without +knowing why. There was no tangible change in her appearance. She had +worn that same green shot silk many Sabbaths; her bonnet was three +summers old; the curls drooping on her cheeks were an innovation, but +the people did not recognize the change as due to them. Sylvia +herself had looked with pleased wonder at her face in the glass; it +was as if all her youthful beauty had suddenly come up, like a +withered rose which is dipped in a vase. + +"I sha'n't look so terrible old side of him when I go out bride," she +reflected, happily, smiling fondly at herself. All the way to meeting +that Sunday morning she saw her face as she had seen it in the glass, +and it was as if she walked with something finer than herself. + +Richard Alger sat with the choir in a pew beside the pulpit, at right +angles with the others. He had a fine tenor voice, and had sung in +the choir ever since he was a boy. When Sylvia sat down in her place, +which was in full range of his eyes, he glanced at her without +turning his head; he meant to look away again directly, so as not to +be observed, but her face held him. A color slowly flamed out on his +pale brown cheeks; his eyes became intense and abstracted. A soprano +singer nudged the girl at her side; they both glanced at him and +tittered, but he did not notice it. + +Sylvia knew that he was looking at her, but she never looked at him. +She sat soberly waving a little brown fan before her face; the light +curls stirred softly. She wondered what he thought of them; if he +considered them too young for her, and silly; but he did not see them +at all. He had no eye for details. And neither did she even hear his +fine tenor, still sweet and powerful, leading all the other male +voices when the choir stood up to sing. She thought only of Richard +himself. + +After meeting, when she went down the aisle, several women had spoken +to her, inquired concerning her health, and told her, with wondering +eyes, that she looked well. Richard was far behind her, but she did +not look around. They very seldom accosted each other, unless it was +unavoidable, in any public place. Still, Sylvia, going out with +gentle flounces of her green shot silk, knew well that Richard's eyes +followed her, and his thought was close at her side. + +After she got home from meeting that Sunday, Sylvia Crane did not +know how to pass the time until the evening. She could not keep +herself calm and composed as was her wont on the Sabbath day. She +changed her silk for a common gown; she tried to sit down and read +the Bible quietly and with understanding, but she could not. She +turned to Canticles, and read a page or two. She had always believed +loyally and devoutly in the application to Christ and the Church; but +suddenly now, as she read, the restrained decorously chanting New +England love-song in her maiden heart had leaped into the fervid +measures of the oriental King. She shut the Bible with a clap. "I +ain't giving the right meaning to it," she said, sternly, aloud. + +She put away the Bible, went into the pantry, and got out some bread +and cheese for her luncheon, but she could eat nothing. She picked +the apple blossoms and arranged them in the copper-gilt pitcher on +the best-room table. She even dusted off the hair-cloth sofa and +rocker, with many compunctions, because it was Sunday. "I know I +hadn't ought to do it to-day," she murmured, apologetically, "but +they do get terrible dusty, and need dusting every day, and he is +real particular, and he'll have on his best clothes." + +Finally, just before twilight, Sylvia, unable to settle herself, had +gone over to her sister's for a little call. Richard never came +before eight o'clock, except in winter, when it was dark earlier. +There was a certain half-shamefaced reserve about his visits. He knew +well enough that people looked from their windows as he passed, and +said, facetiously, "There goes Richard Alger to court Sylvy Crane." +He preferred slipping past in a half-light, in which he did not seem +so plain to himself, and could think himself less plain to other +people. + +Sylvia, detained at her sister's by the quarrel between Cephas and +Barnabas, had arisen many a time to take leave, all palpitating with +impatience, but her sister had begged her, in a distressed whisper, +to remain. + +"I guess you can get along without Richard Alger one Sunday evening," +she had said finally, quite aloud, and quite harshly. "I guess your +own sister has just as much claim on you as he has. I dunno what's +going to be done. I don't believe Charlotte's father will let her in +the house to-night." + +Poor Sylvia had sunk back in her chair. To her sensitive conscience +the duty nearest at hand seemed always to bark the loudest, and the +precious moments had gone by until she knew that Richard had come, +found the stone before the door, and gone away, and all her sweet +turmoil of hope and anticipation had gone for naught. + +Sylvia, lying there awake that night, her mind carrying her back over +all that had gone before, had no doubt that this was the end of +everything. Not originally a subtle discerner of character, she had +come insensibly to know Richard so well that certain results from +certain combinations of circumstances in his life were as plain and +inevitable to her as the outcome of a simple sum in mathematics. +"He'd got 'most out of his track for once," she groaned out softly, +"but now he's pushed back in so hard he can't get out again if he +wants to. I dunno how he's going to get along." + +Sylvia, with the roof settling over her head, with not so much upon +her few sterile acres to feed her as to feed the honey-bees and +birds, with her heart in greater agony because its string of joy had +been strained so high and sweetly before it snapped, did not lament +over herself at all; neither did she over the other woman who lay +up-stairs suffering in a similar case. She lamented only over Richard +living alone and unministered to until he died. + +When daylight came she got up, dressed herself, and prepared +breakfast. Charlotte came down before it was ready. "Let me help get +breakfast," she said, with an assumption of energy, standing in the +kitchen doorway in her pretty mottled purple delaine. The purple was +the shade of columbine, and very becoming to Charlotte. In spite of +her sleepless night, her fine firm tints had not faded; she was too +young and too strong and too full of involuntary resistance. She had +done up her fair hair compactly; her chin had its usual proud lift. + +Sylvia, shrinking as if before some unseen enemy as she moved about, +her face all wan and weary, glanced at her half resentfully. "I guess +she 'ain't had any such night as I have," she thought. "Girls don't +know much about it." + +"No, I don't need any help," she replied, aloud. "I 'ain't got +anything to do but to stir up an Injun cake. You've got your best +dress on. You'd better go and sit down." + +"It won't hurt my dress any." Charlotte glanced down half scornfully +at her purple skirt. It had lost all its glory for her. She was not +even sure that Barney had seen it. + +"Set down. I've got breakfast 'most ready," Sylvia said, again, more +peremptorily than she was wont, and Charlotte sat down in the +hollow-backed cherry rocking-chair beside the kitchen window, leaned +her head back, and looked out indifferently between the lilac-bushes. +The bushes were full of pinkish-purple buds. Sylvia's front yard +reached the road in a broad slope, and the ground was hard, and green +with dampness under the shade of a great elm-tree. The grass would +never grow there over the roots of the elm, which were flung out +broadly like great recumbent limbs over the whole yard, and were +barely covered by the mould. + +Across the street, seen under the green sweep of the elm, was an +orchard of old apple-trees which had blossomed out bravely that +spring. Charlotte looked at the white and rosy masses of bloom. + +"I guess there wasn't any frost last night, after all," she remarked. + +"I dunno," responded Sylvia, in a voice which made her niece look +around at her. There was a curious impatient ring in it which was +utterly foreign to it. There was a frown between Sylvia's gentle +eyes, and she moved with nervous jerks, setting down dishes hard, as +if they were refractory children, and lashing out with spoons as if +they were whips. The long, steady strain upon her patience had not +affected her temper, but this last had seemed to bring out a certain +vicious and waspish element which nobody had suspected her to +possess, and she herself least of all. She felt this morning disposed +to go out of her way to sting, and as if some primal and evil +instinct had taken possession of her. She felt shocked at herself, +but all the more defiant and disposed to keep on. + +"Breakfast is ready," she announced, finally; "if you don't set right +up an' eat it, it will be gettin' cold. I wouldn't give a cent for +cold Injun cake." + +Charlotte arose promptly and brought a chair to the table, which +Sylvia always set punctiliously in the centre of the kitchen as if +for a large family. + +"Don't scrape your chair on the floor that way; it wears 'em all +out," cried Sylvia, sharply. + +Charlotte stared at her again, but she said nothing; she sat down and +began to eat absently. Sylvia watched her angrily between her own +mouthfuls, which she swallowed down defiantly like medicine. + +"It ain't much use cookin' things if folks don't eat 'em," said she. + +"I am eating," returned Charlotte. + +"Eatin'? Swallowin' down Injun cake as if it was sawdust! I don't +call that eatin'. You don't act as if you tasted a mite of it!" + +"Aunt Sylvy, what has got into you?" said Charlotte. + +"Got into me? I should think you'd talk about anything gettin' into +me, when you set there like a stick. I guess you 'ain't got all there +is to bear." + +"I never thought I had," said Charlotte. + +"Well, I guess you 'ain't." + +They went on swallowing their food silently; the great clock ticked +slowly, and the spring birds called outside; but they heard neither. +The shadows of the young elm leaves played over the floor and the +white table-cloth. It was much warmer that morning, and the shadows +were softer. + +Before they had finished breakfast, Charlotte's mother came, +advancing ponderously, with soft thuds, across the yard to the side +door. She opened it and peered in. + +"Here you be," said she, scanning both their faces with anxious and +deprecating inquiry. + +"Can't you come in, an' not stand there holdin' the door open?" +inquired Sylvia. "I feel the wind on my back, and I've got a bad pain +enough in it now." + +Mrs. Barnard stepped in, and shut the door quickly, in an alarmed +way. + +"Ain't you feelin' well this mornin', Sylvy?" said she. + +"Oh yes, I'm feelin' well enough. It ain't any matter how I feel, but +it's a good deal how some other folks do." + +Sarah Barnard sank into the rocking-chair, and sat there looking at +them hesitatingly, as if she did not dare to open the conversation. + +Suddenly Sylvia arose and went out of the kitchen with a rush, +carrying a plate of Indian cake to feed the hens. "I can't set here +all day; I've got to do something," she announced as she went. + +When the door had closed after her, Mrs. Barnard turned to Charlotte. + +"What's the matter with her?" she asked, nodding towards the door. + +"I don't know." + +"She ain't sick, is she? I never see her act so. Sylvy's generally +just like a lamb. You don't s'pose she's goin' to have a fever, do +you?" + +"I don't know." + +Suddenly Charlotte, who was still sitting at the table, put up her +two hands with a despairing gesture, and bent her head forward upon +them. + +"Now don't, you poor child," said her mother, her eyes growing +suddenly red. "Didn't he even turn round when you called him back +last night?" + +Charlotte shook her bowed head dumbly. + +"Don't you s'pose he'll ever come again?" + +Charlotte shook her head. + +"Mebbe he will. I know he's terrible set." + +"Who's set?" demanded Sylvia, coming in with her empty plate. + +"Oh, I was jest sayin' that I thought Barney was kinder set," replied +her sister, mildly. + +"He ain't no more set than Cephas," returned Sylvia. + +"Cephas ain't set. It's jest his way." + +Sylvia sniffed. She looked scornfully at Charlotte, who had raised +her head when she came in, but whose eyes were red. "Folks had better +been created without ways, then," she retorted. "They'd better have +been created slaves; they'd been enough sight happier an' better off, +an' so would other folks that they have to do with, than to have so +many ways, an' not sense enough to manage 'em. I don't believe in +free-will, for my part." + +"Sylvy Crane, you ain't goin' to deny one of the doctrines of the +Church at your time of life?" demanded a new voice. Sylvia's other +sister, Hannah Berry, stood in the doorway. + +Sylvia ordinarily was meek before her, but now she faced her. "Yes, I +be," said she; "I don't approve of free-will, and I ain't afraid to +say it." + +Sylvia had always been considered very unlike Mrs. Hannah Berry in +face and character. Now, as she stood before her, a curious +similarity appeared; even her voice sounded like her sister's. + +"What on earth ails you, Sylvy?" asked Mrs. Berry, ignoring suddenly +the matter in hand. + +"Nothin' ails me that I know of. I don't think much of free-will, an' +I ain't goin' to say I do when I don't." + +"Then all I've got to say is you'd ought to be ashamed of yourself. +Why, I should think you was crazy, Sylvy Crane, settin' up yourself +agin' the doctrines of the Word. I'd like to know what you know about +them." + +"I know enough to see how they work," returned Sylvia, undauntedly, +"an' I ain't goin' to pretend I'm blind when I can see." + +Sylvia's serene arc of white forehead was shortened by a distressed +frown, her mild mouth dropped sourly at the corners, and the lips +were compressed. Her white cap was awry, and one of yesterday's curls +hung lankly over her left cheek. + +"You look an' act like a crazy creature," said Hannah Berry, eying +her with indignant amazement. She walked across the room to another +rocking-chair, moving with unexpected heaviness. She was in reality +as stout as her sister Sarah Barnard, but she had a long, thin, and +rasped face, which misled people. + +"Now," said she, looking around conclusively, "I ain't come over here +to argue about free-will. I want to know what all this is about?" + +"All what?" returned Mrs. Barnard, feebly. She was distinctly afraid +of her imperious sister, yet she was conscious of a quiver of +resentment. + +"All this fuss about Barney Thayer," said Hannah Berry. + +"How did you hear about it?" Mrs. Barnard asked with a glance at +Charlotte, who was sitting erect with her cheeks very red and her +mouth tightly closed. + +"Never mind how I heard," replied Hannah. "I did hear, an' that's +enough. Now I want to know if you're really goin' to set down like an +old hen an' give up, an' let this match between Charlotte an' a good, +smart, likely young man like Barnabas Thayer be broken off on account +of Cephas Barnard's crazy freaks?" + +Sarah stiffened her neck. "There ain't no call for you to speak that +way, Hannah. They got to talkin' over the 'lection." + +"The 'lection! I'd like to know what business they had talkin' about +it Sabbath night anyway? I ain't blamin' Barnabas so much; he's +younger an' easier stirred up; but Cephas Barnard is an old man, an' +he has been a church-member for forty year, an' he ought to know +enough to set a better example. I'd like to know what difference it +makes about the 'lection anyway? What odds does it make which one is +President if he rules the country well? An' that they can't tell till +they've tried him awhile anyway. I guess they don't think much about +the country; it's jest to have their own way about it. I'd like to +know what mortal difference it's goin' to make to Barney Thayer or +Cephas Barnard which man is President? He won't never hear of them, +an' they won't neither of them make him rule any different after he's +chose. It's jest like two little boys--one wants to play marbles +'cause the other wants to play puss-in-the-corner, an' that's all the +reason either one of 'em's got for standin' out. Men ain't got any +too much sense anyhow, when you come right down to it. They don't +ever get any too much grown up, the best of 'em. I'd like to know +what Cephas Barnard has got to say because he's drove a good, likely +young man like Barnabas Thayer off an' broke off his daughter's +match? It ain't likely she'll ever get anybody now; young men like +him, with nice new houses put up to go right to housekeepin' in as +soon as they are married, don't grow on every bush. They ain't quite +so thick as wild thimbleberries. An' Charlotte ain't got any money +herself, an' her father ain't got any to build a house for her. I'd +like to know what he's got to say about it?" + +Mrs. Barnard put up her apron and began to weep helplessly. + +"Don't, mother," said Charlotte, in an undertone. But her mother +began talking in a piteous wailing fashion. + +"You hadn't ought to talk so about Cephas," she moaned. "He's my +husband. I guess you wouldn't like it if anybody talked so about your +husband. Cephas ain't any worse than anybody else. It's jest his way. +He wa'n't any more to blame than Barney; they both got to talkin'. I +know Cephas is terrible upset about it this mornin'; he 'ain't really +said so in so many words, but I know by the way he acts. He said this +mornin' that he didn't know but we were eatin' the wrong kind of +food. Lately he's had an idea that mebbe we'd ought to eat more meat; +he's thought it was more strengthenin', an' we'd ought to eat things +as near like what we wanted to strengthen as could be. I've made a +good deal of bone soup. But now he says he thinks mebbe he's been +mistaken, an' animal food kind of quickens the animal nature in us, +an' that we'd better eat green things an' garden sass." + +"I guess garden sass will strengthen the other kind of sass that +Cephas Barnard has got in him full as much as bone soup has," +interrupted Hannah Berry, with a sarcastic sniff. + +"I dunno but he's right," said Mrs. Barnard. "Cephas thinks a good +deal an' looks into things. I kind of wish he'd waited till the +garden had got started, though, for there ain't much we can eat now +but potatoes an' turnips an' dandelion greens." + +"If you want to live on potatoes an' turnips an' dandelion greens, +you can," cried Hannah Berry; "What I want to know is if you're goin' +to settle down an' say nothin', an' have Charlotte lose the best +chance she'll ever have in her life, if she lives to be a hundred--" + +Charlotte spoke up suddenly; her blue eyes gleamed with steely light. +She held her head high as she faced her aunt. + +"I don't want any more talk about it, Aunt Hannah," said she. + +"Hey?" + +"I don't want any more talk about it." + +"Well, I guess you'll have more talk about it; girls don't get jilted +without there is talk generally. I guess you'll have to make up your +mind to it, for all you put on such airs with your own aunt, who left +her washin' an' come over here to take your part. I guess when you +stand out in the road half an hour an' call a young man to come back, +an' he don't come, that folks are goin' to talk some. Who's that +comin' now?" + +"It's Cephas," whispered Mrs. Barnard, with a scared glance at +Charlotte. + +Cephas Barnard entered abruptly, and stood for a second looking at +the company, while they looked back at him. His eyes were stolidly +defiant, but he stood well back, and almost shrank against the door. +There seemed to be impulses in Hannah's and Sylvia's faces +confronting his. + +He turned to his wife. "When you comin' home?" said he. + +"Oh, Cephas! I jest ran over here a minute. I--wanted to +see--if--Sylvy had any emptins. Do you want me an' Charlotte to come +now?" + +Cephas turned on his heel. "I think it's about time for you both to +be home," he grunted. + +Sarah Barnard arose and looked with piteous appeal at Charlotte. + +Charlotte hesitated a second, then she arose without a word, and +followed her mother, who followed Cephas. They went in a procession +of three, with Cephas marching ahead like a general, across the yard, +and Sylvia and Hannah stood at a window watching them. + +"Well," said Hannah Berry, "all I've got to say is I'm thankful I +'ain't got a man like that, an' you ought to be mighty thankful you +'ain't got any man at all, Sylvy Crane." + + + +Chapter III + + +When Cephas Barnard and his wife and daughter turned into the main +road and came in sight of the new house, not one of them appeared to +even glance at it, yet they all saw at once that there were no +workmen about, and they also saw Barnabas himself ploughing with a +white horse far back in a field at the left of it. + +[Illustration: "They came in sight of the house"] + +They all kept on silently. Charlotte paled a little when she caught +sight of Barney, but her face was quite steady. "Hold your dress up a +little higher; the grass is terrible wet," her mother whispered once, +and that was all that any of them said until they reached home. + +Charlotte went at once up-stairs to her own chamber, took off her +purple gown, and hung it up in her closet, and got out a common one. +The purple gown was part of her wedding wardrobe, and she had worn it +in advance with some misgivings. "I dunno but you might jest as well +wear it a few Sundays," her mother had said; "you're goin' to have +your silk dress to come out bride in. I dunno as there's any sense in +your goin' lookin' like a scarecrow all the spring because you're +goin' to get married." + +So Charlotte had put on the new purple dress the day before; now it +looked, as it hung in the closet, like an effigy of her happier self. + +When Charlotte went down-stairs she found her mother showing much +more spirit than usual in an altercation with her father. Sarah +Barnard stood before her husband, her placid face all knitted with +perplexed remonstrance. "Why, I can't, Cephas," she said. "Pies can't +be made that way." + +"I know they can," said Cephas. + +"They can't, Cephas. There ain't no use tryin'. It would jest be a +waste of the flour." + +"Why can't they, I'd like to know?" + +"Folks don't ever make pies without lard, Cephas." + +"Why don't they?" + +"Why, they wouldn't be nothin' more than-- You couldn't eat them +nohow if they was made so, Cephas. I dunno how the sorrel pies would +work. I never heard of anybody makin' sorrel pies. Mebbe the Injuns +did; but I dunno as they ever made pies, anyway. Mebbe the sorrel, if +it had some molasses on it for juice, wouldn't taste very bad; I +dunno; but anyway, if the sorrel did work, the other wouldn't. I +can't make pies fit to eat without any lard or any butter or anything +any way in the world, Cephas." + +"I know you can make 'em without," said Cephas, and his black eyes +looked like flint. Mrs. Barnard appealed to her daughter. + +"Charlotte," said she, "you tell your father that pies can't be made +fit to eat without I put somethin' in 'em for short'nin'." + +"No, they can't, father," said Charlotte. + +"He wants me to make sorrel pies, Charlotte," Mrs. Barnard went on, +in an injured and appealing tone which she seldom used against +Cephas. "He's been out in the field, an' picked all that sorrel," and +she pointed to a pan heaped up with little green leaves on the table, +"an' I tell him I dunno how that will work, but he wants me to make +the pie-crust without a mite of short'nin', an' I can't do that +nohow, can I?" + +"I don't see how you can," assented Charlotte, coldly. + +Cephas went with a sudden stride towards the pantry. "I'll make 'em +myself, then," he cried. + +Mrs. Barnard gasped, and looked piteously at her daughter. "What you +goin' to do, Cephas?" she asked, feebly. + +Cephas was in the pantry rattling the dishes with a fierce din. "I'm +a-goin' to make them sorrel pies myself," he shouted out, "if none of +you women folks know enough to." + +"Oh, Cephas, you can't!" + +Cephas came out, carrying the mixing-board and rolling-pin like a +shield and a club; he clapped them heavily on to the table. + +Mrs. Barnard stood staring aghast at him; Charlotte sat down, took +some lace edging from her pocket, and began knitting on it. She +looked hard and indifferent. + +"Oh, Charlotte, ain't it dreadful?" her mother whispered, when Cephas +went into the pantry again. + +"I don't care if he makes pies out of burrs," returned Charlotte, +audibly, but her voice was quite even. + +"I don't b'lieve but what sorrel would do some better than burrs," +said her mother, "but he can't make pies without short'nin' nohow." + +Cephas came out of the pantry with a large bowl of flour and a spoon. +"He 'ain't sifted it," Mrs. Barnard whispered to Charlotte, as though +Cephas were not there; then she turned to him. "You sifted the flour, +didn't you, Cephas?" said she. + +"You jest let me alone," said Cephas, grimly. "I'm goin' to make +these pies, an' I don't need any help. I've picked the sorrel, an' +I've got the brick oven all heated, an' I know what I want to do, an' +I'm goin' to do it!" + +"I've got some pumpkin that would make full as good pies as sorrel, +Cephas. Mebbe the sorrel will be real good. I ain't sayin' it won't, +though I never heard of sorrel pies; but you know pumpkin is good, +Cephas." + +"I know pumpkin pies have milk in 'em," said Cephas; "an' I tell you +I ain't goin' to have anything of an animal nature in 'em. I've been +studyin' into it, an' thinkin' of it, an' I've made up my mind that +I've made a mistake along back, an' we've ate too much animal food. +We've ate a whole pig an' half a beef critter this winter, to say +nothin' of eggs an' milk, that are jest as much animal as meat, +accordin' to my way of thinkin'. I've reasoned it out all along that +as long as we were animals ourselves, an' wanted to strengthen +animal, that it was common-sense that we ought to eat animal. It +seemed to me that nature had so ordered it. I reasoned it out that +other animals besides man lived on animals, except cows, an' they, +bein' ruminatin' animals, ain't to be compared to men--" + +"I should think we'd be somethin' like 'em if we eat that," said Mrs. +Barnard, pointing at the sorrel, with piteous sarcasm. + +"It's the principle I'm thinkin' about," said Cephas. He stirred some +salt into the flour very carefully, so not a dust fell over the brim +of the bowl. + +"Horses don't eat meat, neither, an' they don't chew their cuds," +Mrs. Barnard argued further. She had never in her life argued with +Cephas; but sorrel pies, after the night before, made her wildly +reckless. + +Cephas got a gourdful of water from the pail in the sink, and carried +it carefully over to the table. "Horses are the exception," he +returned, with dignified asperity. "There always are exceptions. What +I was comin' at was--I'd been kind of wrong in my reasonin'. That is, +I 'ain't reasoned far enough. I was right so far as I went." + +Cephas poured some water from the gourd into the bowl of flour and +began stirring. + +Sarah caught her breath. "He's makin'--paste!" she gasped. "He's jest +makin' flour paste!" + +"Jest so far as I went I was right," Cephas resumed, pouring in a +little more water with a judicial air. "I said Man was animal, an' he +is animal; an' if you don't take anything else into account, he'd +ought to live on animal food, jest the way I reasoned it out. But +you've got to take something else into account. Man is animal, but he +ain't all animal. He's something else. He's spiritual. Man has +command over all the other animals, an' all the beasts of the field; +an' it ain't because he's any better an' stronger animal, because he +ain't. What's a man to a horse, if the horse only knew it? but the +horse don't know it, an' there's jest where Man gets the advantage. +It's knowledge an' spirit that gives Man the rule over all the other +animals. Now, what we want is to eat the kind of things that will +strengthen knowledge an' spirit an' self-control, because the first +two ain't any account without the last; but there ain't no kind of +food that's known that can do that. If there is, I 'ain't never heard +of it." + +Cephas dumped the whole mass of paste with a flop upon the +mixing-board, and plunged his fists into it. Sarah made an +involuntary motion forward, then she stood back with a great sigh. + +"But what we can do," Cephas proceeded, "is to eat the kind of things +that won't strengthen the animal nature at the expense of the +spiritual. We know that animal food does that; we can see how it +works in tigers an' bears. Now, it's the spiritual part of us we want +to strengthen, because that is the biggest strength we can get, an' +it's worth more. It's what gives us the rule over animals. It's +better for us to eat some other kind of food, if we get real weak and +pindlin' on it, rather than eat animal food an' make the animal in us +stronger than the spiritual, so we won't be any better than wild +tigers an' bears, an' lose our rule over the other animals." + +Cephas took the rolling-pin and brought it heavily down upon the +sticky mass on the board. Sarah shuddered and started as if it had +hit her. "Now, if we can't eat animal food," said Cephas, "what other +kind of food can we eat? There ain't but one other kind that's known +to man, an' that's vegetable food, the product of the earth. An' +that's of two sorts: one gets ripe an' fit to eat in the fall of the +year, an' the other comes earlier in the spring an' summer. Now, in +order to carry out the plans of nature, we'd ought to eat these +products of the earth jest as near as we can in the season of 'em. +Some had ought to be eat in the fall an' winter, an' some in the +spring an' summer. Accordin' to my reasonin', if we all lived this +way we should be a good deal better off; our spiritual natures would +be strengthened, an' we should have more power over other animals, +an' better dispositions ourselves." + +"I've seen horses terribly ugly, an' they don't eat a mite of meat," +said Sarah, with tremulous boldness. Her right hand kept moving +forward to clutch the rolling-pin, then she would draw it back. + +"'Ain't I told ye once horses were the exceptions?" said Cephas, +severely. "There has to be exceptions. If there wa'n't any exceptions +there couldn't be any rule, an' there bein' exceptions shows there is +a rule. Women can't ever get hold of things straight. Their minds +slant off sideways, the way their arms do when they fling a stone." + +Cephas brought the rolling-pin down upon the paste again with fierce +impetus. "You'll break it," Sarah murmured, feebly. Cephas brought it +down again, his mouth set hard; his face showed a red flush through +his white beard, the veins on his high forehead were swollen and his +brows scowling. The paste adhered to the rolling-pin; he raised it +with an effort; his hands were helplessly sticky. Sarah could +restrain herself no longer. She went into the pantry and got a dish +of flour, and spooned out some suddenly over the board and Cephas's +hands. "You've got to have some more flour," she said, in a desperate +tone. + +Cephas's black eyes flashed at her. "I wish you would attend to your +own work, an' leave me alone," said he. But at last he succeeded in +moving the rolling-pin over the dough as he had seen his wife move +it. + +"He ain't greasin' the pie-plates," said Sarah, as Cephas brought a +piece of dough with a dexterous jerk over a plate; "there ain't much +animal in the little mite of lard it takes to grease a plate." + +Cephas spread handfuls of sorrel leaves over the dough; then he +brought the molasses-jug from the pantry, raised it, and poured +molasses over the sorrel with an imperturbable air. + +Sarah watched him; then she turned to Charlotte. "To think of eatin' +it!" she groaned, quite openly; "it looks like p'ison." + +Charlotte made no response; she knitted as one of the Fates might +have spun. Sarah sank down on a chair, and looked away from Cephas +and his cookery, as if she were overcome, and quite done with all +remonstrance. + +Never before had she shown so much opposition towards one of her +husband's hobbies, but this galloped so ruthlessly over her own +familiar fields that she had plucked up boldness to try to veer it +away. + +Somebody passed the window swiftly, the door opened abruptly, and +Mrs. Deborah Thayer entered. "_Good_-mornin'," said she, and her +voice rang out like a herald's defiance. + +Sarah Barnard arose, and went forward quickly. "Good-mornin'," she +responded, with nervous eagerness. "Good-mornin', Mis' Thayer. Come +in an' set down, won't you?" + +"I 'ain't come to set down," responded Deborah's deep voice. + +She moved, a stately high-hipped figure, her severe face almost +concealed in a scooping green barège hood, to the centre of the +floor, and stood there with a pose that might have answered for a +statue of Judgment. She turned her green-hooded head slowly towards +them all in turn. Sarah watched her and waited, her eyes dilated. +Cephas rolled out another pie, calmly. Charlotte knitted fast; her +face was very pale. + +"I've come over here," said Deborah Thayer, "to find out what my son +has done." + +There was not a sound, except the thud of Cephas's rolling-pin. + +"Mr. Barnard!" said Deborah. Cephas did not seem to hear her. + +"Mr. Barnard!" she said, again. There was that tone of command in her +voice which only a woman can accomplish. It was full of that maternal +supremacy which awakens the first instinct of obedience in man, and +has more weight than the voice of a general in battle. Cephas did not +turn his head, but he spoke. "What is it ye want?" he said, gruffly. + +"I want to know what my son has done, an' I want you to tell me in so +many words. I ain't afraid to face it. What has my son done?" + +Cephas grunted something inarticulate. + +"What?" said Deborah. "I can't hear what you say. I want to know what +my son has done. I've heard how you turned him out of your house last +night, and I want to know what it was for. I want to know what he has +done. You're an old man, and a God-fearing one, if you have got your +own ideas about some things. Barnabas is young, and apt to be +headstrong. He ain't always been as mindful of obedience as he might +be. I've tried to do my best by him, but he don't always carry out my +teachin's. I ain't afraid to say this, if he is my son. I want to +know what he's done. If it's anything wrong, I shall be jest as hard +on him as the Lord for it. I'm his mother, but I can see his faults, +and be just. I want to know what he has done." + +Charlotte gave one great cry. "Oh, Mrs. Thayer, he hasn't done +anything wrong; Barney hasn't done anything wrong!" + +But Deborah quite ignored her. She kept her eyes fixed upon Cephas. +"What has my son done?" she demanded again. "If he's done anything +wrong I want to know it. I ain't afraid to deal with him. You ordered +him out of your house, and he didn't come home at all last night. I +don't know where he was. He won't speak a word this mornin' to tell +me. I've been out in the field where he's to work ploughin', and I +tried to make him tell me, but he wouldn't say a word. I sat up and +waited all night, but he didn't come home. Now I want to know where +he was, and what he's done, and why you ordered him out of the house. +If he's been swearin', or takin' anything that didn't belong to him, +or drinkin', I want to know it, so I can deal with him as his mother +had ought to deal." + +"He hasn't been doing anything wrong!" Charlotte cried out again; +"you ought to be ashamed of yourself talking so about him, when +you're his mother!" + +Deborah Thayer never glanced at Charlotte. She kept her eyes fixed +upon Cephas. "What has he done?" she repeated. + +"I guess he didn't do much of anything," Mrs. Barnard murmured, +feebly; but Deborah did not seem to hear her. + +Cephas opened his mouth as if perforce. "Well," he said, slowly, "we +got to talkin'--" + +"Talkin' about what?" + +"About the 'lection. I think, accordin' to my reasonin', that what we +eat had a good deal to do with it." + +"What?" + +"I think if you'd kept your family on less meat, and given 'em more +garden-stuff to eat Barney wouldn't have been so up an' comin'. It's +what he's eat that's made him what he is." + +Deborah stared at Cephas in stern amazement. "You're tryin' to make +out, as near as I can tell," said she, "that whatever my son has done +wrong is due to what he's eat, and not to original sin. I knew you +had queer ideas, Cephas Barnard, but I didn't know you wa'n't sound +in your faith. What I want to know is, what has he done?" + +Suddenly Charlotte sprang up, and pushed herself in between her +father and Mrs. Thayer; she confronted Deborah, and compelled her to +look at her. + +"I'll tell you what he's done," she said, fiercely. "I know what he's +done; you listen to me. He has done nothing--nothing that you've got +to deal with him for. You needn't feel obliged to deal with him. He +and father got into a talk over the 'lection, and they had words +about it. He didn't talk any worse than father, not a mite. Father +started it, anyway, and he knew better; he knew just how set Barney +was on his own side, and how set he was on his; he wanted to pick a +quarrel." + +"Charlotte!" shouted Cephas. + +"You keep still, father," returned Charlotte, with steady fierceness. +"I've never set myself up against you in my whole life before; but +now I'm going to, because it's just and right. Father wanted to pick +a quarrel," she repeated, turning to Deborah; "he's been kind of +grouty to Barney for some time. I don't know why; he took a notion +to, I suppose. When they got to having words about the 'lection, +father begun it. I heard him. Barney answered back, and I didn't +blame him; I would, in his place. Then father ordered him out of the +house, and he went. I don't see what else he could do. And I don't +blame him because he didn't go home if he didn't feel like it." + +"Didn't he go away from here before nine o'clock?" demanded Deborah, +addressing Charlotte at last. + +"Yes, he did, some time before nine; he had plenty of time to go home +if he wanted to." + +"Where was he, then, I'd like to know?" + +"I don't know, and I wouldn't lift my finger to find out. I am not +afraid he was anywhere he hadn't ought to be, nor doin' anything he +hadn't ought to." + +"Didn't you stand out in the road and call him back, and he wouldn't +come, nor even turn his head to look at you?" asked Deborah. + +"Yes, I did," returned Charlotte, unflinchingly. "And I don't blame +him for not coming back and not turning his head. I wouldn't if I'd +been in his place." + +"You'll have to uphold him a long time, then; I can tell you that," +said Deborah. "He won't never come back if he's said he won't. I know +him; he's got some of me in him." + +"I'll uphold him as long as I live," said Charlotte. + +"I wonder you ain't ashamed to talk so." + +"I am not." + +Deborah looked at Charlotte as if she would crush her; then she +turned away. + +"You're a hard woman, Mrs. Thayer, and I pity Barney because he's got +you for a mother," Charlotte said, in undaunted response to Deborah's +look. + +"Well, you'll never have to pity yourself on that account," retorted +Deborah, without turning her head. + +The door opened softly, and a girl of about Charlotte's age slipped +in. Nobody except Mrs. Barnard, who said, absently, "How do you do, +Rose?" seemed to notice her. She sat down unobtrusively in a chair +near the door and waited. Her blue eyes upon the others were so +intense with excitement that they seemed to blot out the rest of her +face. She had her blue apron tightly rolled about both hands. + +Deborah Thayer, on her way to the door, looked at her as if she had +been a part of the wall, but suddenly she stopped and cast a glance +at Cephas. "What be you makin'?" she asked, with a kind of scorn at +him, and scorn at her own curiosity. + +Cephas did not reply, but he looked ugly as he slapped another piece +of dough heavily upon a plate. + +Deborah, as if against her will, moved closer to the table and bent +over the pan of sorrel. She smelled of it; then she took a leaf and +tasted it, cautiously. She made a wry face. "It's sorrel," said she. +"You're makin' pies out of sorrel. A man makin' pies out of sorrel!" + +She looked at Cephas like a condemning judge. He shot a fiery glance +at her, but said nothing. He sprinkled the sorrel leaves in the pie. + +"Well," said Deborah, "I've got a sense of justice, and if my son, or +any other man, has asked a girl to marry him, and she's got her +weddin' clothes ready, I believe in his doin' his duty, if he can be +made to; but I must say if it wa'n't for that, I'd rather he'd gone +into a family that was more like other folks. I'm goin' to do the +best I can, whether you go half way or not. I'm goin' to try to make +my son do his duty. I don't expect he will, but I shall do all I can, +tempers or no tempers, and sorrel pies or no sorrel pies." + +Deborah went out, and shut the door heavily after her. + + + +Chapter IV + + +After Deborah Thayer had shut the door, the young girl sitting beside +it arose. "I didn't know she was in here, or I wouldn't have come +in," she said, nervously. + +"That don't make any odds," replied Mrs. Barnard, who was trembling +all over, and had sunk helplessly into a rocking-chair, which she +swayed violently and unconsciously. + +Cephas opened the door of the brick oven, and put in a batch of his +pies, and the click of the iron latch made her start as if it were a +pistol-shot. + +Charlotte got up and went out of the room with a backward glance and +a slight beckoning motion of her head, and the girl slunk after her +so secretly that it seemed as if she did not see herself. Cephas +looked sharply after them, but said nothing; he was like a +philosopher in such a fury of research and experiment that for the +time he heeded thoroughly nothing else. + +The young girl, who was Rose Berry, Charlotte's cousin, followed her +panting up the steep stairs to her chamber. She was a slender little +creature, and was now overwrought with nervous excitement. She fairly +gasped for breath when she sat down in the little wooden chair in +Charlotte's room. Charlotte sat on the bed. The two girls looked at +each other--Rose with a certain wary alarm and questioning in her +eyes, Charlotte with a dignified confidence of misery. + +"I didn't sleep here last night," Charlotte said, at length. + +"You went over to Aunt Sylvy's, didn't you?" returned Rose, as if +that were all the matter in hand. + +Charlotte nodded, then she looked moodily past her cousin's face out +of the window. + +"You've heard about it, I suppose?" said Charlotte. + +"Something," replied Rose, evasively. + +"I don't see how it got out, for my part. I don't believe he told +anybody." + +Rose flushed all over her little eager face and her thin neck. She +opened her mouth as if to speak, then shut it with a catch of her +breath. + +"I can't imagine how it got out," repeated Charlotte. + +Rose looked at Charlotte with a painful effort; she clutched her +hands tightly into fists as she spoke. "I was coming up here 'cross +lots last night, and I heard you out in the road calling Barney," she +said, as if she forced out the words. + +"Rose Berry, you didn't tell!" + +"I went home and told mother, that's all. I didn't think that it +would do any harm, Charlotte." + +"It'll be all over town, that's all. It's bad enough, anyway." + +"I don't believe it'll get out; I told mother not to tell." + +"Mrs. Thayer knew." + +"Maybe Barney told her." + +"Rose Berry, you know better. You know Barney wouldn't do such a +thing." + +"No; I don't s'pose he would." + +"Don't suppose! Don't you know?" + +"Yes, of course I do. I know Barney just as well as you do, +Charlotte. Oh, Charlotte, don't feel bad. I wouldn't have told mother +if I'd thought. I didn't mean to do any harm. I was all upset myself +by it. Don't cry, Charlotte." + +"I ain't going to cry," said Charlotte, with spirit. "I've stopped +cryin'." She wiped her eyes forcibly with her apron, and gave her +head a proud toss. "I know you didn't mean to do any harm, Rose, and +I suppose it would have got out anyway. 'Most everything does get out +but good deeds." + +"I truly didn't mean to do any harm, Charlotte," Rose repeated. + +"I know you didn't. We won't say any more about it." + +"I was just running over across lots last night," Rose said. "I +supposed you'd be in the front room with Barney, but I thought I'd +see Aunt Sarah. I'd got terrible lonesome; mother had gone to sleep +in her chair, and father had gone to bed. When I got out by the +stone-wall next the wood I heard you; then I ran right back. Don't +you--suppose he'll ever come again, Charlotte?" + +"No," said Charlotte. + +"Oh, Charlotte!" There was a curious quality in the girl's voice, as +if some great hidden emotion in her heart tried to leap to the +surface and make a sound, although it was totally at variance with +the import of her cry. Charlotte started, without knowing why. It was +as if Rose's words and her tone had different meanings, and +conflicted like the wrong lines with a tune. + +"I gave it up last night," said Charlotte. "It's all over. I'm goin' +to pack my wedding things away." + +"I don't see what makes you so sure." + +"I know him." + +"But I don't see what you've done, Charlotte; he didn't quarrel with +you." + +"That don't make any odds. He can't get married to me now without he +breaks his will, and he can't. He can't get outside himself enough to +break it. I've studied it all out. It's like ciphering. It's all +over." + +"Charlotte." + +"What is it?" + +"Why--couldn't you go somewhere else to get married? What's the need +of his comin' here, if he's been ordered out, and he's said he +wouldn't?" + +"That's just the letter of it," returned Charlotte, scornfully. "Do +you suppose he could cheat himself that way, or I'd have him if he +could? When Barney Thayer went out of this house last night, and said +what he did, he meant that it was all over, that he was never going +to marry me, nor have anything more to do with us, and he's going to +stand by it. I am not finding any fault with him. I've made up my +mind that it's all over, and I'm going to pack away my weddin' +things." + +"Oh, Charlotte, you take it so calm!" + +"What do you want me to do?" + +"If it was anybody else, I should think they didn't care." + +"Maybe I don't." + +"I couldn't bear it so, anyhow! I couldn't!" Rose cried out, with +sudden passion. "I wouldn't bear it. I'd go down on my knees to him +to come back!" Rose flung back her head and looked at Charlotte with +a curious defiance; her face grew suddenly intense, and seemed to +open out into bloom and color like a flower. The pupils of her blue +eyes dilated until they looked black; her thin lips looked full and +red; her cheeks were flaming; her slender chest heaved. "I would," +said she; "I don't care, I would." + +Charlotte looked at her, and a quivering flush like a reflection was +left on her fair, steady face. + +"I would," said Rose again. + +"It wouldn't do any good." + +"It would if he cared anything about you." + +"It would if he could give up to the care. Barney Thayer has got a +terrible will that won't always let him do what he wants to himself." + +"I don't believe he's enough of a fool to put his own eyes out." + +"You don't know him." + +"I'd try, anyway." + +"It wouldn't do any good." + +"I don't believe you care anything about him, Charlotte Barnard!" +Rose cried out. "If you did, you couldn't give him up so easy for +such a silly thing. You sit there just as calm. I don't believe but +what you'll have another fellow on the string in a month. I know one +that's dying to get you." + +"Maybe I shall," replied Charlotte. + +"Won't you, now?" Rose tried to speak archly, but her eyes were +fiercely eager. + +"I can't tell till I get home from the grave," said Charlotte. "You +might wait till I did, Rose." She got up and went to dusting her +bureau and the little gilt-framed mirror behind it. Her lips were +shut tightly, and she never looked at her cousin. + +"Now don't get mad, Charlotte," Rose said. "Maybe I ought not to have +spoken so, but it did seem to me you couldn't care as _much_-- It +does seem to me I couldn't settle down and be so calm if I was in +your place, and all ready to be married to anybody. I should want to +do something." + +"I should, if there was anything to do," said Charlotte. She stopped +dusting and leaned against the wall, reflecting. "I wish it was a +real mountain to move," said she; "I'd do it." + +"I'd go right down in the field where he is ploughing, and I'd make +him say he'd come to see me to-night." + +"I called him back last night--you heard me," said Charlotte, with +slow bitterness. Her square delicate chin dipped into the muslin +folds of her neckerchief; she looked steadily at the floor and bent +her brow. + +"I'd call him again." + +"You would, would you?" cried Charlotte, straightening herself. "You +would stand out in the road and keep on calling a man who wouldn't +even turn his head? You'd keep on calling, and let all the town +hear?" + +"Yes, I would. I would! I wouldn't be ashamed of anything if I was +going to marry him. I'd go on my knees before him in the face and +eyes of the whole town." + +"Well, I wouldn't," said Charlotte. + +"I would, if I was sure he thought as much of me as I did of him." + +Charlotte looked at her proudly. "I'm sure enough of that," said she. + +Rose winced a little. "Then I wouldn't mind what I did," she +persisted, stubbornly. + +"Well, I would," said Charlotte; "but maybe I don't care. Maybe all +this isn't as hard for me as it would be for another girl." +Charlotte's voice broke, but she tossed her head back with a proud +motion; she took up the dusting-cloth and fell to work again. + +"Oh, Charlotte!" said Rose; "I didn't mean that. Of course I know you +care. It's awful. It was only because I didn't see how you could seem +so calm; it ain't like me. Of course I know you feel bad enough +underneath. Your wedding-clothes all done and everything. They are +pretty near all done, ain't they, Charlotte?" + +"Yes," said Charlotte. "They're--pretty near--done." She tried to +speak steadily, but her voice failed. Suddenly she threw herself on +the bed and hid her face, and her whole body heaved and twisted with +great sobs. + +"Oh, poor Charlotte, don't!" Rose cried, wringing her own hands; her +face quivered, but she did not weep. + +"Maybe I don't care," sobbed Charlotte; "maybe--I don't care." + +"Oh, Charlotte!" Rose looked at Charlotte's piteous girlish shoulders +shaken with sobs, and the fair prostrate girlish head. Charlotte all +drawn up in this little heap upon the bed looked very young and +helpless. All her womanly stateliness, which made her seem so +superior to Rose, had vanished. Rose pulled her chair close to the +bed, sat down, and laid her little thin hand on Charlotte's arm, and +Charlotte directly felt it hot through her sleeve. "Don't, +Charlotte," Rose said; "I'm sorry I spoke so." + +"Maybe I don't care," Charlotte sobbed out again. "Maybe I don't." + +"Oh, Charlotte, I'm sorry," Rose said, trembling. "I do know you +care; don't you feel so bad because I said that." + +Rose tightened her grasp on Charlotte's arm; her voice changed +suddenly. "Look here, Charlotte," said she, "I'll do anything in the +world I can to help you; I promise you that, and I mean it, honest." + +Charlotte reached around a hand, and clasped her cousin's. + +"I'm sorry I spoke so," Rose said. + +"Never mind," Charlotte responded, chokingly. She sobbed a little +longer from pure inertia of grief; then she raised herself, shaking +off Rose's hand. "It's all right," said she; "I needn't have minded; +I know you didn't mean anything. It was just--the last straw, +and--when you said that about my wedding-clothes--" + +"Oh, Charlotte, you did speak about them yourself first," Rose said, +deprecatingly. + +"I did, so nobody else would," returned Charlotte. She wiped her +eyes, drooping her stained face away from her cousin with a kind of +helpless shame; then she smoothed her hair with the palms of her +hands. "I know you didn't mean any harm, Rose," she added, presently. +"I got my silk dress done last Wednesday; I wanted to tell you." +Charlotte tried to smile at Rose with her poor swollen lips and her +reddened eyes. + +"I'm sorry I said anything," Rose repeated; "I ought to have known it +would make you feel bad, Charlotte." + +"No, you hadn't. I was terrible silly. Don't you want to see my +dress, Rose?" + +"Oh, Charlotte! you don't want to show it to me?" + +"Yes, I do. I want you to see it--before I pack it away. It's in the +north chamber." + +Rose followed Charlotte out of the room across the passageway to the +north chamber. Charlotte had had one brother, who had died some ten +years before, when he was twenty. The north chamber had been his +room, the bureau drawers were packed with his clothes, and the silk +hat which had been the pride of his early manhood hung on the nail +where he had left it, and also his Sunday coat. His mother would not +have them removed, but kept them there, with frequent brushings, to +guard against dust and moths. + +Always when Charlotte entered this small long room, which was full of +wavering lines from its uneven floor and walls and ceiling and the +long arabesques on its old blue-and-white paper, whose green paper +curtains with fringed white dimity ones drooping over them were +always drawn, and in summertime when the windows were open undulated +in the wind, she had the sense of a presence, dim, but as positive as +the visions she had used to have of faces in the wandering design of +the old wall-paper when she had studied it in her childhood. Ever +since her brother's death she had had this sense of his presence in +his room; now she thought no more of it than of any familiar figure. +All the grief at his death had vanished, but she never entered his +old room that the thought of him did not rise up before her and stay +with her while she remained. + +Now, when she opened the door, and the opposite green and white +curtains flew out in the draught towards her, they were no more +evident than this presence to which she now gave no thought, and +pushed by her brother's memory without a glance. + +Rose followed her to the bed. A white linen sheet was laid over the +chintz counterpane. Charlotte lifted the sheet. + +"I took the last stitch on it Wednesday night," she said, in a hushed +voice. + +"Didn't he come that night?" + +"I finished it before he came." + +"Did he see it?" + +Charlotte nodded. The two girls stood looking solemnly at the silk +dress. + +"You can't see it here; it's too dark," said Charlotte, and she +rolled up a window curtain. + +"Yes, I can see better," said Rose, in a whisper. "It's beautiful, +Charlotte." + +The dress was spread widely over the bed in crisp folds. It was +purple, plaided vaguely with cloudy lines of white and delicate +rose-color. Over it lay a silvery lustre that was the very light of +the silken fabric. + +Rose felt it reverently. "How thick it is!" said she. + +"Yes, it's a good piece," Charlotte replied. + +"You thought you'd have purple?" + +"Yes, he liked it." + +"Well, it's pretty, and it's becoming to you." + +Charlotte took up the skirt, and slipped it, loud with silken +whispers, over her head. It swept out around her in a great circle; +she looked like a gorgeous inverted bell-flower. + +"It's beautiful," Rose said. + +Charlotte's face, gazing downward at the silken breadths, had quite +its natural expression. It was as if her mind in spite of herself +would stop at old doors. + +"Try on the waist," pleaded Rose. + +Charlotte slipped off her calico waist, and thrust her firm white +arms into the flaring silken sleeves of the wedding-gown. Her neck +arose from it with a grand curve. She stood before the glass and +strained the buttons together, frowning importantly. + +"It fits you like a glove," Rose murmured, admiringly, smoothing +Charlotte's glossy back. + +"I've got a spencer-cape to wear over my neck to meeting," Charlotte +said, and she opened the upper-most drawer in the chest and took out +a worked muslin cape, and adjusted it carefully over her shoulders, +pinning it across her bosom with a little brooch of her brother's +hair in a rim of gold. + +"It's elegant," said Rose. + +"I'll show you my bonnet," said Charlotte. She went into a closet and +emerged with a great green bandbox. + +Rose bent over, watching her breathlessly as she opened it. "Oh!" she +cried. "Oh, Charlotte!" + +Charlotte held up the bonnet of fine Dunstable straw, flaring in +front, and trimmed under the brim with a delicate lace ruche and a +wreath of feathery white flowers. Bows of white gauze ribbon stood up +from it stiffly. Long ribbon strings floated back over her arm as she +held it up. + +"Try it on," said Rose. + +Charlotte stepped before the glass and adjusted the bonnet to her +head. She tied the strings carefully under her chin in a great square +bow; then she turned towards Rose. The fine white wreath under the +brim encircled her face like a nimbus; she looked as she might have +done sitting a bride in the meeting-house. + +"It's beautiful," Rose said, smiling, with grave eyes. "You look real +handsome in it, Charlotte." Charlotte stood motionless a moment, with +Rose surveying her. + +"Oh, Charlotte," Rose cried out, suddenly, "I don't believe but what +you'll have him, after all!" Rose's eyes were sharp upon Charlotte's +face. It was as if the bridal robes, which were so evident, became +suddenly proofs of something tangible and real, like a garment left +by a ghost. Rose felt a sudden conviction that the quarrel was but a +temporary thing; that Charlotte would marry Barney, and that she knew +it. + +A change came over Charlotte's face. She began untying the bonnet +strings. + +"Sha'n't you?" repeated Rose, breathlessly. + +"No, I sha'n't." + +Charlotte took the bonnet off and smoothed the creases carefully out +of the strings. + +"If I were you," Rose cried out, "I'd feel like tearing that bonnet +to pieces!" + +Charlotte replaced it in the bandbox, and began unfastening her +dress. + +"I don't see how you can bear the sight of them. I don't believe I +could bear them in the house!" Rose cried out again. "I would put +that dress in the rag-bag if it was mine!" Her cheeks burned and her +eyes were quite fierce upon the dress as Charlotte slipped it off and +it fell to the floor in a rustling heap around her. + +"I don't see any sense in losing everything you have ever had because +you haven't got anything now," Charlotte returned, in a stern voice. +She laid the shining silk gown carefully on the bed, and put on her +cotton one again. Her face was quite steady. + +Rose watched her with the same sharp question in her eyes. "You know +you and Barney will make it up," she said, at length. + +"No, I don't," returned Charlotte. "Suppose we go down-stairs now. +I've got some work I ought to do." + +Charlotte pulled down the green paper shades of the windows, and went +out of the room. Rose followed. Charlotte turned to go down-stairs, +but Rose caught her arm. + +"Wait a minute," said she. "Look here, Charlotte." + +"What is it?" + +"Charlotte," said Rose again; then she stopped. + +Charlotte turned and looked at her. Rose's eyes met hers, and her +face had a noble expression. + +"You write a note to him, and I'll carry it," said Rose. "I'll go +down in the field where he is, on my way home." + +Tears sprang into Charlotte's eyes. "You're real good, Rose," she +said; "but I can't." + +"Hadn't you better?" + +"No; I can't. Don't let's talk any more about it." + +Charlotte pushed past Rose's detaining hand, and the girls went +down-stairs. Mrs. Barnard looked around dejectedly at them as they +entered the kitchen. Her eyes were red, and her mouth drooping; she +was clearing the débris of the pies from the table; there was a smell +of baking, but Cephas had gone out. She tried to smile at Rose. "Are +you goin' now?" said she. + +"Yes; I've got to. I've got to sew on my muslin dress. When are you +coming over, Aunt Sarah? You haven't been over to our house for an +age." + +"I don't care if I never go anywhere!" cried Sarah Barnard, with +sudden desperation. "I'm discouraged." She sank in a chair, and flung +her apron over her face. + +"Don't, mother," said Charlotte. + +"I can't help it," sobbed her mother. "You're young and you've got +more strength to bear it, but mine's all gone. I feel worse about you +than if it was myself, an' there's so much to put up with besides. I +don't feel as if I could put up with things much longer, nohow." + +"Uncle Cephas ought to be ashamed of himself!" Rose cried out. + +Sarah stood up. "Well, I don't s'pose I have so much to put up with +as some folks," she said, catching her breath as if it were her +dignity. "Your Uncle Cephas means well. It did seem as if them sorrel +pies were the last straw, but I hadn't ought to have minded it." + +"You haven't got to eat sorrel pies, have you?" Rose asked, in a +bewildered way. + +"I don't s'pose they'll be any worse than some other things we eat," +Sarah answered, scraping the pie-board again. + +"I don't see how you can." + +"I guess they won't hurt us any," Sarah said, shortly, and Rose +looked abashed. + +"Well, I must be going," said she. + +As she went out, she looked hesitatingly at Charlotte. "Hadn't you +better?" she whispered. Charlotte shook her head, and Rose went out +into the spring sunlight. She bent her head as she went down the road +before the sweet gusts of south wind; the white apple-trees seemed to +sing, for she could not see the birds in them. + +Rose's face between the green sides of her bonnet had in it all the +quickened bloom of youth in spring; her eyes had all the blue +surprise of violets; she panted softly between red swelling lips as +she walked; pulses beat in her crimson cheeks. Her slender figure +yielded to the wind as to a lover. She passed Barney Thayer's new +house; then she came opposite the field where he was at work +ploughing, driving a white horse, stooping to his work in his blue +frock. + +Rose stood still and looked at him; then she walked on a little way; +then she paused again. Barney never looked around at her. There was +the width of a field between them. + +Finally Rose went through the open bars into the first field. She +crossed it slowly, holding up her skirts where there was a wet gleam +through darker grass, and getting a little nosegay of violets with a +busy air, as if that were what she had come for. She passed through +the other bars into the second field, and Barney was only a little +way from her. He did not glance at her then. He was ploughing with +the look that Cadmus might have worn preparing the ground for the +dragon's teeth. + +Rose held up her skirts, and went along the furrows behind him. +"Hullo, Barney," she said, in a trembling voice. + +"Hullo," he returned, without looking around, and he kept on, with +Rose following. + +"Barney," said she, timidly. + +"Well?" said Barney, half turning, with a slight show of courtesy. + +"Do you know if Rebecca is at home?" + +"I don't know whether she is or not." + +Barney held stubbornly to his rocking plough, and Rose followed. + +"Barney," said she, again. + +"Well?" + +"Stop a minute, and look round here." + +"I can't stop to talk." + +"Yes, you can; just a minute. Look round here." + +Barney stopped, and turned a stern, miserable face over his shoulder. + +"I've been up to Charlotte's," Rose said. + +"I don't know what that is to me." + +"Barney Thayer, ain't you ashamed of yourself?" + +"I can't stop to talk." + +"Yes, you can. Look here. Charlotte feels awfully." + +Barney stood with his back to Rose; his very shoulders had a dogged +look. + +"Barney, why don't you make up with her?" + +Barney stood still. + +"Barney, she feels awfully because you didn't come back when she +called you last night." + +Barney made no reply. He and the white horse stood like statues. + +"Barney, why don't you make up with her? I wish you would." Rose's +voice was full of tender inflections; it might have been that of an +angel peace-making. + +Barney turned around between the handles of the plough, and looked at +her steadily. "You don't know anything about it, Rose," he said. + +Rose looked up in his face, and her own was full of fine pleading. +"Oh, Barney," she said, "poor Charlotte does feel so bad! I know that +anyhow." + +"You don't know how I am situated. I can't--" + +"Do go and see her, Barney." + +"Do you think I'm going into Cephas Barnard's house after he's +ordered me out?" + +"Go up the road a little way, and she'll come and meet you. I'll run +ahead and tell her." + +Barney shook his head. "I can't; you don't know anything about it, +Rose." He looked into Rose's eyes. "You're real good, Rose," he said, +as if with a sudden recognition of her presence. + +Rose blushed softly, a new look came into her eyes, she smiled up at +him, and her face was all pink and sweet and fully set towards him, +like a rose for which he was a sun. + +"No, I ain't good," she whispered. + +"Yes, you are; but I can't. You don't know anything about it." He +swung about and grasped his plough-handles again. + +"Barney, do stop a minute," Rose pleaded. + +"I can't stop any longer; there's no use talking," Barney said; and +he went on remorselessly through the opening furrow. Just before he +turned the corner Rose made a little run forward and caught his arm. + +"You don't think I've done anything out of the way speaking to you +about it, do you, Barney?" she said, and she was half crying. + +"I don't know why I should think you had; I suppose you meant all +right," Barney said. He pulled his arm away softly, and jerked the +right rein to turn the horse. "G'lang!" he cried out, and strode +forward with a conclusive air. + +Rose stood looking after him a minute; then she struck off across the +field. Her knees trembled as she stepped over the soft plough-ridges. + +When she was out on the road again she went along quickly until she +came to the Thayer house. She was going past that when she heard some +one calling her name, and turned to see who it was. + +Rebecca Thayer came hurrying out of the yard with a basket on her +arm. "Wait a minute," she called, "and I'll go along with you." + + + +Chapter V + + +Rebecca, walking beside Rose, looked like a woman of another race. +She was much taller, and her full, luxuriant young figure looked +tropical beside Rose's slender one. Her body undulated as she walked, +but Rose moved only with forward flings of delicate limbs. + +"I've got to carry these eggs down to the store and get some sugar," +said Rebecca. + +Rose assented, absently. She was full of the thought of her talk with +Barney. + +"It's a pleasant day, ain't it?" said Rebecca. + +"Yes, it's real pleasant. Say, Rebecca, I'm awful afraid I made +Barney mad just now." + +"Why, what did you do?" + +"I stopped in the field when I was going by. I'd been up to see +Charlotte, and I said something about it to him." + +"How much do you know about it?" Rebecca asked, abruptly. + +"Charlotte told me this mornin', and last night when I was going to +her house across lots I saw Barney going, and heard her calling him +back. I thought I'd see if I couldn't coax him to make up with her, +but I couldn't." + +"Oh, he'll come round," said Rebecca. + +"Then you think it'll be made up?" Rose asked, quickly. + +"Of course it will. We're having a terrible time about poor Barney. +He didn't come home last night, and it's much as ever he's spoken +this morning. He wouldn't eat any breakfast. He just went into his +room, and put on his other clothes, and then went out in the field to +work. He wouldn't tell mother anything about it. I never saw her so +worked up. She's terribly afraid he's done something wrong." + +"He hasn't done anything wrong," returned Rose. "I think your mother +is terrible hard on him. It's Uncle Cephas; he just picked the +quarrel. He hasn't never more'n half liked Barney. So you think +Barney will make up with Charlotte, and they'll get married, after +all?" + +"Of course they will," Rebecca replied, promptly. "I guess they won't +be such fools as not to for such a silly reason as that, when +Barney's got his house 'most done, and Charlotte has got all her +wedding-clothes ready." + +"Ain't Barney terrible set?" + +"He's set enough, but I guess you'll find he won't be this time." + +"Well, I'm sure I hope he won't be," Rose said, and she walked along +silently, her face sober in the depths of her bonnet. + +They came to Richard Alger's house on the right-hand side of the +road, and Rebecca looked reflectively at the white cottage with its +steep peak of Gothic roof set upon a ploughed hill. "It's queer how +he's been going with your aunt Sylvy all these years," she said. + +"Yes, 'tis," assented Rose, and she too glanced up at the house. As +they looked, a man came around the corner with a basket. He was about +to plant potatoes in his hilly yard. + +"There he is now," said Rose. + +They watched Richard Alger coming towards them, past a great tree +whose new leaves were as red as flowers. + +"What do you suppose the reason is?" Rebecca said, in a low voice. + +"I don't know. I suppose he's got used to living this way." + +"I shouldn't think they'd be very happy," Rebecca said; and she +blushed, and her voice had a shamefaced tone. + +"I don't suppose it makes so much difference when folks get older," +Rose returned. + +"Maybe it don't. Rose." + +"What is it?" + +"I wish you'd go into the store with me." + +Rose laughed. "What for?" + +"Nothing. Only I wish you would." + +"You afraid of William?" Rose peered around into Rebecca's bonnet. + +Rebecca blushed until tears came to her eyes. "I'd like to know what +I'd be afraid of William Berry for," she replied. + +"Then what do you want me to go into the store with you for?" + +"Nothing." + +"You're a great ninny, Rebecca Thayer," Rose said, laughing, "but +I'll go if you want me to. I know William won't like it. You run away +from him the whole time. There isn't another girl in Pembroke treats +him as badly as you do." + +"I don't treat him badly." + +"Yes, you do. And I don't believe but what you like him, Rebecca +Thayer; you wouldn't act so silly if you didn't." + +Rebecca was silent. Rose peered around in her face again. "I was only +joking. I think a sight more of you for not running after him, and so +does William. You haven't any idea how some of the girls act chasing +to the store. Mother and I have counted 'em some days, and then we +plague William about it, but he won't own up they come to see him. He +acts more ashamed of it than the girls do." + +"That's one thing I never would do--run after any fellow," said +Rebecca. + +"I wouldn't either." + +Then the two girls had reached the tavern and the store. Rose's +father, Silas Berry, had kept the tavern, but now it was closed, +except to occasional special guests. He had gained a competency, and +his wife Hannah had rebelled against further toil. Then, too, the +railroad had been built through East Pembroke instead of Pembroke, +the old stage line had become a thing of the past, and the tavern was +scantily patronized. Still, Silas Berry had given it up with great +reluctance; he cherished a grudge against his wife because she had +insisted upon it, and would never admit that business policy had +aught to do with it. + +The store adjoining the tavern, which he had owned for years, he +still retained, but his son William had charge of it. Silas Berry was +growing old, and the year before had had a slight shock of paralysis, +which had made him halt and feeble, although his mind was as clear as +ever. However, although he took no active part in the duties of the +store, he was still there, and sharply watchful for his interests, +the greater part of every day. + +The two girls went up the steps to the store piazza. Rose stepped +forward and looked in the door. "Father's in there, and Tommy Ray," +she whispered. "You needn't be afraid to go in." But she entered as +she spoke, and Rebecca followed her. + +There was one customer in the great country store, a stout old man, +on the grocery side. His broad red face turned towards them a second, +then squinted again at some packages on the counter. He was haggling +for garden seeds. William Berry, who was waiting upon him, did not +apparently look at his sister and Rebecca Thayer, but Rebecca had +entered his heart as well as the store, and he saw her face deep in +his own consciousness. + +Tommy Ray, the great white-headed boy who helped William in the +store, shuffled along behind the counter indeterminately, but the +girls did not seem to see him. Rose was talking fast to Rebecca. He +lounged back against the shelves, stared out the door, and whistled. + +Out of the obscurity in the back of the store an old man's narrow +bristling face peered, watchful as a cat, his body hunched up in a +round-backed arm-chair. + +"Mr. Nims will go in a minute," Rose whispered, and presently the old +farmer clamped past them out the door, counting his change from one +hand to the other, his lips moving. + +William Berry replaced the seed packages which the customer had +rejected on the shelves as the girls approached him. + +"Rebecca's got some eggs to sell," Rose announced. + +[Illustration: "'Rebecca's got some eggs to sell'"] + +William Berry's thin, wide-shouldered figure towered up behind the +counter; he smiled, and the smile was only a deepening of the +pleasant intensity of his beardless face, with its high pale forehead +and smooth crest of fair hair. The lines in his face scarcely +changed. + +"How d'ye do?" said he. + +"How d'ye do?" returned Rebecca, with fluttered dignity. Her face +bloomed deeply pink in the green tunnel of her sun-bonnet, her black +eyes were as soft and wary as a baby's, her full red lips had a +grave, innocent expression. + +"How many dozen eggs have you got, Rebecca?" Rose inquired, peering +into the basket. + +"Two; mother couldn't spare any more to-day," Rebecca replied, in a +trembling voice. + +"How much sugar do you give for two dozen eggs, William?" asked Rose. + +William hesitated; he gave a scarcely perceptible glance towards the +watchful old man, whose eyes seemed to gleam out of the gloom in the +back of the store. "Well, about two pounds and a half," he replied, +in a low voice. + +Rebecca set her basket of eggs on the counter. + +"How many pound did you tell her, William?" called the old man's +hoarse voice. + +William compressed his lips. "About two and a half, father." + +"How many?" + +"Two and a half." + +"How many dozen of eggs?" + +"Two." + +"You ain't offerin' of her two pound of sugar for two dozen eggs?" + +"I said two pounds and a half of sugar, father," said William. He +began counting the eggs. + +"Be you gone crazy?" + +"Never mind," whispered Rebecca. "That's too much sugar for the eggs. +Mother didn't expect so much. Don't say any more about it, William." +Her face was quite steady and self-possessed now, as she looked at +William, frowning heavily over the eggs. + +"Give Rebecca two pounds of sugar for the eggs, father, and call it +square," Rose called out. + +Silas Berry pulled himself up a joint at a time; then he came forward +at a stiff halt, his face pointing out in advance of his body. He +entered at the gap in the counter, and pressed close to his son's +side. Then he looked sharply across at Rebecca. "Sugar is fourteen +cents a pound now," said he, "an' eggs ain't fetchin' more'n ten +cents a dozen. You tell your mother." + +"Father, I told her I'd giver her two and a half pounds for two +dozen," said William; he was quite pale. He began counting the eggs +over again, and his hands trembled. + +"I'll take just what you're willing to give," Rebecca said to Silas. + +"Sugar is fourteen cents a pound, an' eggs is fetchin' ten cents a +dozen," said the old man; "you can have a pound and a half of sugar +for them eggs if you can give me a cent to boot." + +Rebecca colored. "I'm afraid I haven't got a cent with me," said she; +"I didn't fetch my purse. You'll have to give me a cent's worth less +sugar, Mr. Berry." + +"It's kinder hard to calkilate so close as that," returned Silas, +gravely; "you had better tell your mother about it, an' you come back +with the cent by-an'-by." + +"Why, father!" cried Rose. + +William shouldered his father aside with a sudden motion. "I'm +tending to this, father," he said, in a stern whisper; "you leave it +alone." + +"I ain't goin' to stan' by an' see you givin' twice as much for eggs +as they're worth 'cause it's a gal you're tradin' with. That wa'n't +never my way of doin' business, an' I ain't goin' to have it done in +my store. I shouldn't have laid up a cent if I'd managed any such +ways, an' I ain't goin' to see my hard earnin's wasted by you. You +give her a pound and a half of sugar for them eggs and a cent to +boot." + +"You sha'n't lose anything by it, father," said William, fiercely. +"You leave me alone." + +The sugar-barrel stood quite near. William strode over to it, and +plunged in the great scoop with a grating noise. He heaped it +recklessly on some paper, and laid it on the steelyards. + +"Don't give me more'n a pound and a half," Rebecca said, softly. + +"Keep still," Rose whispered in her ear. + +Silas pushed forward, and bent over the steelyards. "You've weighed +out nigh three," he began. Then his son's face suddenly confronted +his, and he stopped talking and stood back. + +Almost involuntarily at times Silas Berry yielded to the combination +of mental and superior physical force in his son. While his own mind +had lost nothing of its vigor, his bodily weakness made him +distrustful of it sometimes, when his son towered over him in what +seemed the might of his own lost strength and youth, brandishing his +own old weapons. + +William tied up the sugar neatly; then he took the eggs from +Rebecca's basket, and put the parcel in their place. Silas began +lifting the eggs from the box in which William had put them, and +counted them eagerly. + +"There ain't but twenty-three eggs here," he called out, as Rebecca +and Rose turned away, and William was edging after them from behind +the counter. + +"I thought there were two dozen," Rebecca responded, in a distressed +voice. + +"Of course there are two dozen," said Rose, promptly. "You 'ain't +counted 'em right, father. Go along, Rebecca; it's all right." + +"I tell ye it ain't," said Silas. "There ain't but twenty-three. It's +bad enough to be payin' twice what they're wuth for eggs, without +havin' of 'em come short." + +"I tell you I counted 'em twice over, and they're all right. You keep +still, father," said William's voice at his ear, in a fierce whisper, +and Silas subsided into sullen mutterings. + +William had meditated following Rebecca to the door; he had even +meditated going farther; but now he stood back behind the counter, +and began packing up some boxes with a busy air. + +"Ain't you going a piece with Rebecca, and carry her basket, +William?" Rose called back, when the two girls reached the door. + +Rebecca clutched her arm. "Oh, don't," she gasped, and Rose giggled. + +"Ain't you, William?" she said again. + +Rebecca hurried out the door, but she heard William reply coldly that +he couldn't, he was too busy. She was half crying when Rose caught up +with her. + +"William wanted to go bad enough, but he was too upset by what father +said. You mustn't mind father," Rose said, peering around into +Rebecca's bonnet. "Why, Rebecca, what is the matter?" + +"I didn't go into that store a step to see William Berry. You know I +didn't," Rebecca cried out, with sudden passion. Her voice was hoarse +with tears; her face was all hot and quivering with shame and anger. + +"Why, of course you didn't," Rose returned, in a bewildered way. "Who +said you did, Rebecca?" + +"You know I didn't. I hated to go to the store this morning. I told +mother I didn't want to, but she didn't have a mite of sugar in the +house, and there wasn't anybody else to send. Ephraim ain't very +well, and Doctor Whiting says he ought not to walk very far. I had to +come, but I didn't come to see William Berry, and nobody has any call +to think I did." + +"I don't know who said you did. I don't know what you mean, Rebecca." + +"You acted as if you thought so. I don't want William Berry seeing me +home in broad daylight, when I've been to the store to trade, and you +needn't think that's what I came for, and he needn't." + +"Good land, Rebecca Thayer, he didn't, and I was just in fun. He'd +have come with you, but he was so mad at what father said that he +backed out. William's just about as easy upset as you are. I didn't +mean any harm. Say, Rebecca, come into the house a little while, +can't you? I don't believe your mother is in any great hurry for the +sugar." Rose took hold of Rebecca's arm, but Rebecca jerked herself +away with a sob, and went down the road almost on a run. + +"Well, I hope you're touchy enough, Rebecca Thayer," Rose called out, +as she stood looking after her. "Folks will begin to think you did +come to see William if you make such a fuss when nobody accuses you +of it, if you don't look out." + +Rebecca hastened trembling down the road. She made no reply, but she +knew that Rose was quite right, and that she had attacked her with +futile reproaches in order to save herself from shame in her own +eyes. Rebecca knew quite well that in spite of her hesitation and +remonstrances, in spite of her maiden shrinking on the threshold of +the store, she had come to see William Berry. She had been glad, +although she had turned a hypocritical face towards her own +consciousness, that Ephraim was not well enough and she was obliged +to go. Her heart had leaped with joy when Rose had proposed William's +walking home with her, but when he refused she was crushed with +shame. "He thought I came to see him," she kept saying to herself as +she hurried along, and there was no falsehood that she would not have +sworn to to shield her modesty from such a thought on his part. + +When she got home and entered the kitchen, she kept her face turned +away from her mother. "Here's the sugar," she said, and she took it +out of the basket and placed it on the table. + +"How much did he give you?" asked Deborah Thayer; she was standing +beside the window beating eggs. Over in the field she could catch a +glimpse of Barnabas now and then between the trees as he passed with +his plough. + +"About two pounds." + +"That was doin' pretty well." + +Rebecca said nothing. She turned to go out of the room. + +"Where are you going?" her mother asked, sharply. "Take off your +bonnet. I want you to beat up the butter and sugar; this cake ought +to be in the oven." + +Deborah's face, as she beat the eggs and made cake, looked as full of +stern desperation as a soldier's on the battle-field. Deborah never +yielded to any of the vicissitudes of life; she met them in fair +fight like enemies, and vanquished them, not with trumpet and spear, +but with daily duties. It was a village story how Deborah Thayer +cleaned all the windows in the house one afternoon when her first +child had died in the morning. To-day she was in a tumult of wrath +and misery over her son; her mouth was so full of the gall of +bitterness that no sweet on earth could overcome it; but she made +sweet cake. + +Rebecca took off her sun-bonnet and hung it on a peg; she got a box +from the pantry, and emptied the sugar into in, still keeping her +face turned away as best she could from her mother's eyes. + +Deborah looked approvingly at the sugar. "It's nigher three pounds +than anything else. I guess you were kind of favored, Rebecca. Did +William wait on you?" + +"Yes, he did." + +"I guess you were kind of favored," Deborah repeated, and a +half-smile came over her grim face. + +Rebecca said nothing. She got some butter, and fell to work with a +wooden spoon, creaming the butter and sugar in a brown wooden bowl +with swift turns of her strong white wrist. Ephraim watched her +sharply; he sat by a window stoning raisins. His mother had forbidden +him to eat any, as she thought them injurious to him; but he +carefully calculated his chances, and deposited many in his mouth +when she watched Barney; but his jaws were always gravely set when +she turned his way. + +Ephraim's face had a curious bluish cast, as if his blood were the +color of the juice of a grape. His chest heaved shortly and heavily. +The village doctor had told is mother that he had heart-disease, +which might prove fatal, although there was a chance of his +outgrowing it, and Deborah had set her face against that. + +Ephraim's face, in spite of its sickly hue, had a perfect healthiness +and naturalness of expression, which insensibly gave confidence to +his friends, although it aroused their irritation. A spirit of boyish +rebellion and importance looked out of Ephraim's black eyes; his +mouth was demure with mischief, his gawky figure perpetually uneasy +and twisting, as if to find entrance into small forbidden places. +There was something in Ephraim's face, when she looked suddenly at +him, which continually led his mother to infer that he had been +transgressing. "What have you been doin', Ephraim?" she would call +out, sharply, many a time, with no just grounds for suspicion, and be +utterly routed by Ephraim's innocent, wondering grin in response. + +The boy was set about with restrictions which made his life +miserable, but the labor of picking over plums for a cake was quite +to his taste. He dearly loved plums, although they were especially +prohibited. He rolled one quietly under his tongue, and watched +Rebecca with sharp eyes. She could scarcely keep her face turned away +from him and her mother too. + +"Say, mother, Rebecca's been cryin'!" Ephraim announced, suddenly. + +Deborah turned and looked at Rebecca's face bending lower over the +wooden bowl; her black lashes rested on red circles, and her lips +were swollen. + +"I'd like to know what you've been cryin' about," said Deborah. It +was odd that she did not think that Rebecca's grief might be due to +the worry over Barney; but she did not for a minute. She directly +attributed it to some personal and strictly selfish consideration +which should arouse her animosity. + +"Nothing," said Rebecca, with sulky misery. + +"Yes, you've been cryin' about something, too. I want to know what +'tis." + +"Nothing. I wish you wouldn't, mother." + +"Did you see William Berry over to the store?" + +"I told you I did once." + +"Well, you needn't bite my head off. Did he say anything to you?" + +"He weighed out the sugar. I know one thing: I'll never set my foot +inside that store again as long as I live!" + +"I'd like to know what you mean, Rebecca Thayer." + +"I ain't going to have folks think I'm running after William Berry." + +"I'd like to know who thinks you are. If it's Hannah Berry, she +needn't talk, after the way her daughter has chased over here. Mebbe +it's all you Rose Berry has been to see, but I've had my doubts. What +did Hannah Berry say to you?" + +"She didn't say anything. I haven't seen her." + +"What was it, then?" + +But Rebecca would not tell her mother what the trouble had been; she +could not bring herself to reveal how William had been urged to walk +home with her and how coldly he had refused, and finally Deborah, in +spite of baffled interest, turned upon her. "Well, I hope you didn't +do anything unbecoming," said she. + +"Mother, you know better." + +"Well, I hope you didn't." + +"Mother, I won't stand being talked to so!" + +"I rather think I shall talk to you all I think I ought to for your +own good," said Deborah, with fierce persistency. "I ain't goin' to +have any daughter of mine doin' anything bold and forward, if I know +it." + +Rebecca was weeping quite openly now. "Mother, you know you sent me +down to the store yourself; there wasn't anybody else to go," she +sobbed out. + +"Your goin' to the store wa'n't anything. I guess you can go to the +store to trade off some eggs for sugar when I'm makin' cake without +William Berry thinkin' you're runnin' after him, or Hannah Berry +thinkin' so either. But there wa'n't any need of your makin' any +special talk with him, or lookin' as if you was tickled to death to +see him." + +"I didn't. I wouldn't go across the room to see William Berry. You +haven't any right to say such things to me, mother." + +"I guess I've got a right to talk to my own daughter. I should think +things had come to a pretty pass if I can't speak when I see you +doin' out of the way. I know one thing, you won't go to that store +again. I'll go myself next time. Have you got that butter an' sugar +mixed up?" + +"I hope you will go, I'm sure. I don't want to," returned Rebecca. +She had stopped crying, but her face was burning; she hit the spoon +with dull thuds against the wooden bowl. + +"Don't you be saucy. That's done enough; give it here." + +Deborah finished the cake with a master hand. When she measured the +raisins which Ephraim had stoned she cast a sharp glance at him, but +he was ready for it with beseechingly upturned sickly face. "Can't I +have just one raisin, mother?" he pleaded. + +"Yes, you may, if you 'ain't eat any while you was pickin' of 'em +over," she answered. And he reached over a thumb and finger and +selected a large fat plum, which he ate with ostentatious relish. +Ephraim's stomach oppressed him, his breath came harder, but he had a +sense of triumph in his soul. This depriving him of the little +creature comforts which he loved, and of the natural enjoyments of +boyhood, aroused in him a blind spirit of revolution which he felt +virtuous in exercising. Ephraim was absolutely conscienceless with +respect to all his stolen pleasures. + +Deborah had a cooking-stove. She had a progressive spirit, and when +stoves were first introduced had promptly done away with the brick +oven, except on occasions when much baking-room was needed. After her +new stove was set up in her back kitchen, she often alluded to Hannah +Berry's conservative principles with scorn. Hannah's sister, Mrs. +Barnard, had told her how a stove could be set up in the tavern any +minute; but Hannah despised new notions. "Hannah won't have one, +nohow," said Mrs. Barnard. "I dunno but I would, if Cephas could +afford it, and wa'n't set against it. It seems to me it might save a +sight of work." + +"Some folks are rooted so deep in old notions that they can't see +their own ideas over them," declared Deborah. Often when she cooked +in her new stove she inveighed against Hannah Berry's foolishness. + +"If Hannah Berry wants to heat up a whole brick oven and work the +whole forenoon to bake a loaf of cake, she can," said she, as she put +the pan of cake in the oven. "Now, you watch this, Rebecca Thayer, +and don't you let it burn, and you get the potatoes ready for +dinner." + +"Where are you going, mother?" asked Ephraim. + +"I'm just goin' to step out a little way." + +"Can't I go too?" + +"No; you set still. You ain't fit to walk this mornin'. You know what +the doctor told you." + +"It won't hurt me any," whined Ephraim. There were times when the +spirit of rebellion in him made illness and even his final demise +flash before his eyes like sweet overhanging fruit, since they were +so strenuously forbidden. + +"You set still," repeated his mother. She tied on her own green +sun-bonnet, stiffened with pasteboard, and went with it rattling +against her ears across the fields to the one where her son was +ploughing. The grass was not wet, but she held her dress up high, +showing her thick shoes and her blue yarn stockings, and took long +strides. Barney was guiding the plough past her when she came up. + +"You stop a minute," she said, authoritatively. "I want to speak to +you." + +"Whoa!" said Barney, and pulled up the horse. "Well, what is it?" he +said, gruffly, with his eyes upon the plough. + +"You go this minute and set the men to work on your house again. You +leave the horse here--I'll watch him--and go and tell Sam Plummer to +come and get the other men." + +"G'lang!" said Barney, and the horse pulled the plough forward with a +jerk. + +Mrs. Thayer seized Barney's arm. "You stop!" said she. "Whoa, whoa! +Now you look here, Barnabas Thayer. I don't know what you did to make +Cephas Barnard order you out of the house, but I know it was +something. I ain't goin' to believe it was all about the election. +There was something back of that. I ain't goin' to shield you because +you're my son. I know jest how set you can be in your own ways, and +how you can hang on to your temper. I've known you ever since you was +a baby; you can't teach me anything new about yourself. I don't know +what you did to make Cephas mad, but I know what you've got to do +now. You go and set the men to work on that house again, and then you +go over to Cephas Barnard's, and you tell him you're sorry for what +you've done. I don't care anything about Cephas Barnard, and if I'd +had my way in the first place I wouldn't have had anything to do with +him or his folks either; but now you've got to do what's right if +you've gone as far as this, and Charlotte's all ready to be married. +You go right along, Barnabas Thayer!" + +Barnabas stood immovable, his face set past his mother, as +irresponsively unyielding as a rock. + +"Be you goin'?" + +Barnabas did not reply. His mother moved, and brought her eyes on a +range with his, and the two faces confronted each other in silence, +while it was as if two wills clashed swords in advance of them. + +Then Mrs. Thayer moved away. "I ain't never goin' to say anything +more to you about it," she said; "but there's one thing--you needn't +come home to dinner. You sha'n't ever sit down to a meal in your +father's and mother's house whilst this goes on." + +"G'lang!" said Barnabas. The horse started, and he bent to the +plough. His mother stepped homeward over the plough-ridges with stern +unyielding steps, as if they were her enemies slain in battle. + +Just as she reached her own yard her husband drove in on a rattling +farm cart. She beckoned to him, and he pulled the horse up short. + +"I've told him he needn't come home to dinner," she said, standing +close to the wheel. + +Caleb looked down at her with a scared expression. "Well, I s'pose +you know what's best, Deborah," he said. + +"If he can't do what's right he's got to suffer for it," returned +Deborah. + +She went into the house, and Caleb drove clanking into the barn. + +Before dinner the old man stole off across lots, keeping well out of +sight of the kitchen windows lest his wife should see him, and +pleaded with Barnabas, but all in vain. The young man was more +outspoken with his father, but he was just as firm. + +"Your mother's terrible set about it, Barney. You'd better go over to +Charlotte's and make up." + +"I can't; it's all over," Barney said, in reply; and Caleb at length +plodded soberly and clumsily home. + +After dinner he went out behind the barn, and Rebecca, going to feed +the hens, found him sitting under the wild-cherry tree, fairly +sobbing in his old red handkerchief. + +She went near him, and stood looking at him with restrained sympathy. + +"Don't feel bad, father," she said, finally. "Barney'll get over it, +and come to supper." + +"No, he won't," groaned the old man--"no, he won't. He's jest like +your mother." + + + +Chapter VI + + +The weeks went on, and still Barnabas had not yielded. The story of +his quarrel with Cephas Barnard and his broken engagement with +Charlotte had become an old one in Pembroke, but it had not yet lost +its interest. A genuine excitement was so rare in the little peaceful +village that it had to be made to last, and rolled charily under the +tongue like a sweet morsel. However, there seemed to be no lack now, +for the one had set others in motion: everybody knew how Barnabas +Thayer no longer lived at home, and did not sit in his father's pew +in church, but in the gallery, and how Richard Alger had stopped +going to see Sylvia Crane. + +There was not much walking in the village, except to and from church +on a Sabbath day; but now on pleasant Sabbath evenings an occasional +couple, or an inquisitive old man with eyes sharp under white brows, +and chin set ahead like a pointer's, strolled past Sylvia's house and +the Thayer house, Barney's new one and Cephas Barnard's. + +They looked sharply and furtively to see if Sylvia had a light in her +best room, and if Richard Alger's head was visible through the +window, if Barney Thayer had gone home and yielded to his mother's +commands, if any more work had been done on the new house, and if he +perchance had gone a-courting Charlotte again. + +But they never saw Richard Alger's face in poor Sylvia's best room, +although her candle was always lit, they never saw Barney at his old +home, the new house advanced not a step beyond its incompleteness, +and Barney never was seen at Charlotte Barnard's on a Sabbath night. +Once, indeed, there was a rumor to that effect. A man's smooth dark +head was visible at one of the front-room windows opposite +Charlotte's fair one, and everybody took it for Barney's. + +The next morning Barney's mother came to the door of the new house. +"I want to know if it's true that you went over there last night," +she said; her voice was harsh, but her mouth was yielding. + +"No, I didn't," said Barney, shortly, and Deborah went away with a +harsh exclamation. Before long she knew and everybody else knew that +the man who had been seen at Charlotte's window was not Barney, but +Thomas Payne. + +Presently Ephraim came slowly across to the garden-patch where Barney +was planting. He was breathing heavily, and grinning. When he reached +Barney he stood still watching him, and the grin deepened. "Say, +Barney," he panted at length. + +"Well, what is it?" + +"You've lost your girl; did you know it, Barney?" + +Barney muttered something unintelligible; it sounded like the growl +of a dog, but Ephraim was not intimidated. He chuckled with delight +and spoke again. "Say, Barney, Thomas Payne's got your girl; did you +know it, Barney?" + +Barney turned threateningly, but he was helpless before his brother's +sickly face, and Ephraim knew it. That purple hue and that panting +breath had gained an armistice for him on many a battle-field, and he +had a certain triumph in it. It was power of a lugubrious sort, +certainly, but still it was power, and so to be enjoyed. + +"Thomas Payne's got your girl," he repeated; "he was over there +a-courtin' of her last night; a-settin' up along of her." + +Barney took a step forward, and Ephraim fell back a little, still +grinning imperturbably. "You mind your own business," Barney said, +between his teeth; and right upon his words followed Ephraim's hoarse +chuckle and his "Thomas Payne's got your girl." + +Barney turned about and went on with his planting. Ephraim, standing +a little aloof, somewhat warily since his brother's threatening +advance, kept repeating his one remark, as mocking as the snarl of a +mosquito. "Thomas Payne's got your girl, Barney. Say, did you know +it? Thomas Payne's got your girl." + +Finally Ephraim stepped close to Barney and shouted it into his ear: +"Say, Barney, Barney Thayer, be you deaf? Thomas Payne has +got--your--_girl!"_ But Barney planted on; his nerves were quivering, +the impetus to strike out was so strong in his arms that it seemed as +if it must by sheer mental force affect his teasing brother, but he +made no sign, and said not another word. + +Ephraim, worsted at length by silence, beat a gradual retreat. +Half-way across the field his panting voice called back, "Barney, +Thomas Payne has got your girl," and ended in a choking giggle. +Barney planted, and made no response; but when Ephraim was well out +of sight, he flung down his hoe with a groaning sigh, and went +stumbling across the soft loam of the garden-patch into a little +woody thicket beside it. He penetrated deeply between the trees and +underbrush, and at last flung himself down on his face among the soft +young flowers and weeds. "Oh, Charlotte!" he groaned out. "Oh, +Charlotte, Charlotte!" Barney began sobbing and crying like a child +as he lay there; he moved his arms convulsively, and tore up handfuls +of young grass and leaves, and flung them away in the unconscious +gesturing of grief. "Oh, I can't, I can't!" he groaned. +"I--can't--Charlotte! I can't--let any other man have you! No other +man shall have you!" he cried out, fiercely, and flung up his head; +"you are mine, mine! I'll kill any other man that touches you!" +Barney got up, and his face was flaming; he started off with a great +stride, and then he stopped short and flung an arm around the slender +trunk of a white-birch tree, and pulled it against him and leaned +against it as if it were Charlotte, and laid his cheek on the cool +white bark and sobbed again like a girl. "Oh, Charlotte, Charlotte!" +he moaned, and his voice was drowned out by the manifold rustling of +the young birch leaves, as a human grief is overborne and carried out +of sight by the soft, resistless progress of nature. + +Barney, although his faith in Charlotte had been as strong as any +man's should be in his promised wife, had now no doubt but this other +man had met with favor in her eyes. But he had no blame for her, nor +even any surprise at her want of constancy. He blamed the Lord, for +Charlotte as well as for himself. "If this hadn't happened she never +would have looked at any one else," he thought, and his thought had +the force of a blow against fate. + +This Thomas Payne was the best match in the village; he was the +squire's son, good-looking, and college-educated. Barney had always +known that he fancied Charlotte, and had felt a certain triumph that +he had won her in the face of it. "You might have somebody that's a +good deal better off if you didn't have me," he said to her once, and +they both knew whom he meant. "I don't want anybody else," Charlotte +had replied, with her shy stateliness. Now Barney thought that she +had changed her mind; and why should she not? A girl ought to marry +if she could; he could not marry her himself, and should not expect +her to remain single all her life for his sake. Of course Charlotte +wanted to be married, like other women. This probable desire of +Charlotte's for love and marriage in itself, apart from him, thrilled +his male fancy with a certain holy awe and respect, from his love for +her and utter ignorance of the attitude of womankind. Then, too, he +reflected that Thomas Payne would probably make her a good husband. +"He can buy her everything she wants," he thought, with a curious +mixture of gratulation for her and agony on his own account. He +thought of the little bonnets he had meant to buy for her himself, +and these details pierced his heart like needles. He sobbed, and the +birch-tree quivered in a wind of human grief. He saw Charlotte going +to church in her bridal bonnet with Thomas Payne more plainly than he +could ever see her in life, for a torturing imagination reflects life +like a magnifying-glass, and makes it clearer and larger than +reality. He saw Charlotte with Thomas Payne, blushing all over her +proud, delicate face when he looked at her; he saw her with Thomas +Payne's children. "O God!" he gasped, and he threw himself down on +the ground again, and lay there, face downward, motionless as if fate +had indeed seized him and shaken the life out of him and left him +there for dead; but it was his own will which was his fate. + +"Barney," his father called, somewhere out in the field. "Barney, +where be you?" + +"I'm coming," Barney called back, in a surly voice, and he pulled +himself up and pushed his way out of the thicket to the ploughed +field where his father stood. + +"Oh, there you be!" said Caleb. Barney grunted something +inarticulate, and took up his hoe again. Caleb stood watching him, +his eyes irresolute under anxiously frowning brows. "Barney," he +said, at length. + +"Well, what do you want?" + +"I've jest heard--" the old man began; then he stopped with a jump. + +"I don't want to hear what you've heard. Keep it to yourself if +you've heard anything!" Barney shouted. + +"I didn't know as you knew," Caleb stammered, apologetically. "I +didn't know as you'd heard, Barney." + +Caleb went to the edge of the field, and sat down on a great stone +under a wild-cherry tree. He was not feeling very well; his head was +dizzy, and his wife had given him a bowl of thoroughwort and ordered +him not to work. + +Caleb pushed his hat back and passed his hand across his forehead. It +was hot, and his face was flushed. He watched his son following up +his work with dogged energy as if it were an enemy, and his mind +seemed to turn stupid in the face of speculation, like a boy's over a +problem in arithmetic. + +There was no human being so strange and mysterious, such an unknown +quantity, to Caleb Thayer as his own son. He had not one trait of +character in common with him--at least, not one so translated into +his own vernacular that he could comprehend it. It was to Caleb as if +he looked in a glass expecting to see his own face, and saw therein +the face of a stranger. + +The wind was quite cool, and blew full on Caleb as he sat there. +Barney kept glancing at him. At length he spoke. "You'll get cold if +you sit there in that wind, father," he sang out, and there was a +rude kindliness in his tone. + +Caleb jumped up with alacrity. "I dunno but I shall. I guess you're +right. I wa'n't goin' to set here but a minute," he answered, +eagerly. Then he went over to Barney again, and stood near watching +him. Barney's hoe clinked on a stone, and he stooped and picked it +out of the loam, and threw it away. "There's a good many stone in +this field," said the old man. + +"There's some." + +"It was a heap of work clearin' of it in the first place. You wa'n't +more'n two year old when I cleared it. My brother Simeon helped me. +It was five year before he got the fever an' died." Caleb looked at +his son with anxious pleading which was out of proportion to his +words, and seemed to apply to something behind them in his own mind. + +Barney worked on silently. + +"I don't believe but what--if you was--to go over there--you could +get her back again now, away from that Payne fellar," Caleb blurted +out, suddenly; then he shrank back as if from an anticipated blow. + +Barney threw a hoeful of earth high in air and faced his father. + +"Once for all, father," said he, "I don't want to hear another word +about this." + +"I shouldn't have said nothin', Barney, but I kinder thought--" + +"I don't care what you thought. Keep your thoughts to yourself." + +"I know she allers thought a good deal of you, an'--" + +"I don't want another word out of your mouth about it, father." + +"Well, I ain't goin' to say nothin' about it if you don't want me to, +Barney; but you know how mother feels, an'-- Well, I ain't goin' to +say no more." + +Caleb passed his hand across his forehead, and set off across the +field. Just before he was out of hearing, Barney hailed him. + +"Do you feel better'n you did, father?" said he. + +"What say, Barney?" + +"Do you feel better'n you did this morning?" + +"Yes, I feel some better, Barney--some considerable better." Caleb +started to go back to Barney; then he paused and stood irresolute, +smiling towards him. "I feel considerable better," he called again; +"my head ain't nigh so dizzy as 'twas." + +"You'd better go home, father, and lay down, and see if you can't get +a nap," called Barney. + +"Yes, I guess I will; I guess 'twould be a good plan," returned the +old man, in a pleased voice. And he went on, clambered clumsily over +a stone-wall, disappeared behind some trees, reappeared in the open, +then disappeared finally over the slope of the hilly field. + +It was just five o'clock in the afternoon. Presently a woman came +hurrying across the field, with some needle-work gathered up in her +arms. She had been spending the afternoon at a neighbor's with her +sewing, and was now hastening home to get supper for her husband. She +was a pretty woman, and she had not been married long. She nodded to +Barney as she hurried past him, holding up her gay-flowered calico +skirt tidily. Her smooth fair hair shone like satin in the sun; she +wore a little blue kerchief tied over her head, and it slipped back +as she ran against the wind. She did not speak to Barney nor smile; +he thought her handsome face looked severely at him. She had always +known him, although she had not been one of his mates; she was +somewhat older. + +Barney felt a pang of misery as this fair, severe, and happy face +passed him by. He wondered if she had been up to Charlotte's, and if +Charlotte or her mother had been talking to her, and if she knew +about Thomas Payne. He watched her out of sight in a swirl of gay +skirts, her blue and golden head bobbing with her dancing steps; then +he glanced over his shoulder at his poor new house, with its fireless +chimneys. If all had gone well, he and Charlotte would have been +married by this time, and she would have been bestirring herself to +get supper for him--perhaps running home from a neighbor's with her +sewing as this other woman was doing. All the sweet domestic comfort +which he had missed seemed suddenly to toss above his eyes like the +one desired fruit of his whole life; its wonderful unknown flavor +tantalized his soul. All at once he thought how Charlotte would +prepare supper for another man, and the thought seemed to tear his +heart like a panther. "He sha'n't have her!" he cried out, quite +loudly and fiercely. His own voice seemed to quiet him, and he fell +to work again with his mouth set hard. + +In half an hour he quitted work, and went up to his house with his +hoe over his shoulder like a bayonet. The house was just as the +workmen had left it on the night before his quarrel with Cephas +Barnard. He had himself fitted some glass into the windows of the +kitchen and bedroom, and boarded up the others--that was all. He had +purchased a few simple bits of furniture, and set up his miserable +bachelor house-keeping. Barney was no cook, and he could purchase no +cooked food in Pembroke. He had subsisted mostly upon milk and eggs +and a poor and lumpy quality of corn-meal mush, which he had made +shift to stir up after many futile efforts. + +The first thing which he saw on entering the room to-night was a +generous square of light Indian cake on the table. It was not in a +plate, the edges were bent and crumbling, and the whole square looked +somewhat flattened. Barney knew at once that his father had saved it +from his own supper, had slipped it slyly into his pocket, and stolen +across the field with it. His mother had not given him a mouthful +since she had forbidden him to come home to dinner, and his sister +had not dared. + +Barney sat down and ate the Indian cake, a solitary householder at +his solitary table, around which there would never be any faces but +those of his dead dreams. Afterwards he pulled a chair up to an open +window, and sat there, resting his elbows on the sill, staring out +vacantly. The sun set, and the dusk deepened; the air was loud with +birds; there were shouts of children in the distance; gradually these +died away, and the stars came out. The wind was damp and sweet; over +in the field pale shapes of mist wavered and changed like phantoms. A +woman came running noiselessly into the yard, and pressed against the +door panting, and knocked. Barney saw the swirl of light skirts +around the corner; then the knock came. + +[Illustration: "Barney sat staring at vacancy"] + +He got up, trembling, and opened the door, and stood there looking at +the woman, who held her hooded head down. + +"It's me, Barney," said Charlotte's voice. + +"Come in," said Barney, and he moved aside. + +But Charlotte stood still. "I can say what I want to here," she +whispered, panting. "Barney." + +"Well, what is it, Charlotte?" + +"Barney." + +Barney waited. + +"I've come over here to-night, Barney, to see you," said Charlotte, +with solemn pauses between her words. "I don't know as I ought to; I +don't know but I ought to have more pride. I thought at first I +never--could--but afterwards I thought it was my duty. Barney, are +you going to let--anything like this--come between us--forever?" + +"There's no use talking, Charlotte." + +Charlotte's hooded figure stood before him stiff and straight. There +was resolution in her carriage, and her pleading tone was grave and +solemn. + +"Barney," she said again; and Barney waited, his pale face standing +aloof in the dark. + +"Barney, do you think it is right to let anything like this come +between you and me, when we were almost husband and wife?" + +"It's no use talking, Charlotte." + +"Do you think this is right, Barney?" + +Barney was silent. + +"If you can't answer me I will go home," said Charlotte, and she +turned, but Barney caught her in his arms. He held her close, +breathing in great pants. He pulled her hood back with trembling +strength, and kissed her over and over, roughly. + +"Charlotte," he half sobbed. + +Charlotte's voice, full of a great womanly indignation, sounded in +his ear. "Barney, you let me go," she said, and Barney obeyed. + +"When I came here alone this way I trusted you to treat me like a +gentleman," said she. She pulled her hood over her face again and +turned to go. "I shall never speak to you about this again," said +she. "You have chosen your own way, and you know best whether it's +right, or you're happy in it." + +"I hope you'll be happy, Charlotte," Barney said, with a great sigh. + +"That doesn't make any difference to you," said Charlotte, coldly. + +"Yes, it does; it does, Charlotte! When I heard about Thomas Payne, I +felt as if--if it would make you happy. I--" + +"What about Thomas Payne?" asked Charlotte, sharply. + +"I heard--how he was coming to see you--" + +"Do you mean that you want me to marry Thomas Payne, Barney Thayer?" + +"I want you to be happy, Charlotte." + +"Do you want me to marry Thomas Payne?" + +Barney was silent. + +"Answer me," cried Charlotte. + +"Yes, I do," replied Barney, firmly, "if it would make you happy." + +"You want me to marry Thomas Payne?" repeated Charlotte. "You want me +to be his wife instead of yours, and go to live with him instead of +you? You want me to live with another man?" + +"It ain't right for you not to get married," Barney said, and his +voice was hoarse and strange. + +"You want me to get married to another man? Do you know what it +means?" + +Barney gave a groan that was half a cry. + +"Do you?" + +"Oh, Charlotte!" Barney groaned, as if imploring her for pity. + +"You want me to marry Thomas Payne, and live with him--" + +"He'd--make you a good husband. He's--Charlotte--I can't. You've got +to be happy. It isn't right--I can't--" + +"Well," said Charlotte, "I will marry him. Good-night, Barney +Thayer." She went swiftly out of the yard. + +"Charlotte!" Barney called after her, as if against his will; but she +never turned her head. + + + +Chapter VII + + +On the north side of the old tavern was a great cherry orchard. In +years back it had been a source of considerable revenue to Silas +Berry, but for some seasons his returns from it had been very small. +The cherries had rotted on the branches, or the robins had eaten +them, for Silas would not give them away. Rose and her mother would +smuggle a few small baskets of cherries to Sylvia Crane and Mrs. +Barnard, but Silas's displeasure, had he found them out, would have +been great. "I ain't a-goin' to give them cherries away to nobody," +he would proclaim. "If folks don't want 'em enough to pay for 'em +they can go without." + +Many a great cherry picnic had been held in Silas Berry's orchard. +Parties had come in great rattling wagons from all the towns about, +and picked cherries and ate their fill at a most overreaching and +exorbitant price. + +There were no cherries like those in Silas Berry's orchard in all the +country roundabout. There was no competition, and for many years he +had had it all his own way. The young people's appetite for cherries +and their zeal for pleasure had overcome their indignation at his +usury. But at last Silas's greed got the better of his financial +shrewdness; he increased his price for cherries every season, and the +year after the tavern closed it became so preposterous that there was +a rebellion. It was headed by Thomas Payne, who, as the squire's son +and the richest and most freehanded young man in town, could incur no +suspicion of parsimony. Going one night to the old tavern to make +terms with Silas for the use of his cherry orchard, for a party which +included some of his college friends from Boston and his fine +young-lady cousin from New York, and hearing the preposterous sum +which Silas stated as final, he had turned on his heel with a strong +word under his breath. "You can eat your cherries yourself and be +damned," said Thomas Payne, and was out of the yard with the gay +swagger which he had learned along with his Greek and Latin at +college. The next day Silas saw the party in Squire Payne's big +wagon, with Thomas driving, and the cousin's pink cheeks and white +plumed hat conspicuous in the midst, pass merrily on their way to a +cherryless picnic at a neighboring pond, and the young college men +shouted out a doggerel couplet which the wit of the party had made +and set to a rough tune. + +"Who lives here?" the basses demanded in grim melody, and the tenors +responded, "Old Silas Berry, who charges sixpence for a cherry." + +Silas heard the mocking refrain repeated over and over between shouts +of laughter long after they were out of sight. + +Rose, who had not been bidden to the picnic, heard it and wept as she +peered around her curtain at the gay party. William, who had also not +been bidden, stormed at his father, and his mother joined him. + +"You're jest a-puttin' your own eyes out, Silas Berry," said she; +"you hadn't no business to ask such a price for them cherries; it's +more than they are worth; folks won't stand it. You asked too much +for 'em last year." + +"I know what I'm about," returned Silas, sitting in his arm-chair at +the window, with dogged chin on his breast. + +"You wait an' see," said Hannah. "You've jest put your own eyes out." + +And after-events proved that Hannah was right. Silas Berry's cherry +orchard was subjected to a species of ostracism in the village. There +were no more picnics held there, people would buy none of his +cherries, and he lost all the little income which he had derived from +them. Hannah often twitted him with it. "You can see now that what I +told you was true," said she; "you put your own eyes out." Silas +would say nothing in reply; he would simply make an animal sound of +defiance like a grunt in his throat, and frown. If Hannah kept on, he +would stump heavily out of the room, and swing the door back with a +bang. + +This season Hannah had taunted her husband more than usual with his +ill-judged parsimony in the matter of the cherries. The trees were +quite loaded with the small green fruit, and there promised to be a +very large crop. One day Silas turned on her. "You wait," said he; +"mebbe I know what I'm about, more'n you think I do." + +Hannah scowled with sharp interrogation at her husband's shrewdly +leering face. "What be you agoin' to do?" she demanded. But she got +no more out of him. + +One morning about two weeks before the cherries were ripe Silas went +halting in a casual way across the south yard towards his daughter +Rose, who was spreading out some linen to bleach. He picked up a few +stray sticks on the way, ostentatiously, as if that were his errand. + +Rose was spreading out the lengths of linen in a wide sunny space +just outside the shade of the cherry-trees. Her father paused, tilted +his head back, and eyed the trees with a look of innocent reflection. +Rose glanced at him, then she went on with her work. + +"Guess there's goin' to be considerable many cherries this year," +remarked her father, in an affable and confidential tone. + +"I guess so," replied Rose, shortly, and she flapped out an end of +the wet linen. The cherries were a sore subject with her. + +"I guess there's goin' to be more than common," said Silas, still +gazing up at the green boughs full of green fruit clusters. + +Rose made no reply; she was down on her knees in the grass stretching +the linen straight. + +"I've been thinkin'," her father continued, slowly, "that--mebbe +you'd like to have a little--party, an' ask some of the young folks, +an' eat some of 'em when they get ripe. You could have four trees to +pick off of." + +"I should think we'd had enough of cherry parties," Rose cried out, +bitterly. + +"I didn't say nothin' about havin' 'em pay anything," said her +father. + +Rose straightened herself and looked at him incredulously. "Do you +mean it, father?" said she. + +"'Ain't I jest said you might, if you wanted to?" + +"Do you mean to have them come here and not pay, father?" + +"There ain't no use tryin' to sell any of 'em," replied Silas. "You +can talk it over with your mother, an' do jest as you're a mind to +about it, that's all. If you want to have a few of the young folks +over here when them cherries are ripe, you can have four of them +trees to pick off of. I ain't got no more to say about it." + +Silas turned in a peremptory and conclusive manner. Rose fairly +gasped as she watched his stiff one-sided progress across the yard. +The vague horror of the unusual stole over her. A new phase of her +father's character stood between her and all her old memories like a +supernatural presence. She left the rest of the linen in the basket +and sought her mother in the house. "Mother!" she called out, in a +cautious voice, as soon as she entered the kitchen. Mrs. Berry's face +looked inquiringly out of the pantry, and Rose motioned her back, +went in herself, and shut the door. + +"What be you a-shuttin' the door for?" asked her mother, wonderingly. + +"I don't know what has come over father." + +"What do you mean, Rose Berry? He 'ain't had another shock?" + +"I'm dreadful afraid he's going to! I'm dreadful afraid something's +going to happen to him!" + +"I'd like to know what you mean?" Mrs. Berry was quite pale. + +"Father says I can have a cherry party, and they needn't pay +anything." + +Her mother stared at her. "He didn't!" + +"Yes, he did." + +They looked in each other's eyes, with silent renewals of doubt and +affirmation. Finally Mrs. Berry laughed. "H'm! Don't you see what +your father's up to?" she said. + +"No, I don't. I'm scared." + +"You needn't be. You ain't very cute. He's an old head. He thinks if +he has this cherry party for nothin' folks will overlook that other +affair, an' next year they'll buy the cherries again. Mebbe he thinks +they'll buy the other trees this year, after the party. How many +trees did he say you could have?" + +"Four. Maybe that is it." + +"Of course 'tis. Your father's an old head. Well, you'd better ask +'em. They won't see through it, and it'll make things pleasanter. +I've felt bad enough about it. I guess Mis' Thayer won't look down on +us quite so much if we ask a party here and let 'em eat cherries for +nothin'. It's more'n she'd do, I'll warrant." + +"Maybe they won't any of them come," said Rose. + +"H'm! Don't you worry about that. They'll come fast enough. I never +see any trouble yet about folks comin' to get anything good that they +didn't have to pay for." + +Rose and her mother calculated how many to invite to the party. They +decided to include all the available young people in Pembroke. + +"We might jest as well while we're about it," said Hannah, +judiciously. "There are cherries enough, and the Lord only knows when +your father 'll have another freak like this. I guess it's like an +eclipse of the sun, an' won't come again very soon." + +Within a day or two all the young people had been bidden to the +cherry party, and, as Mrs. Berry had foretold, accepted. Their +indignation was not proof against the prospect of pleasure; and, +moreover, they all liked Rose and William, and would not have refused +on their account. + +The week before the party, when the cherries were beginning to turn +red, and the robins had found them out, was an arduous one to little +Ezra Ray, a young brother of Tommy Ray, who tended in Silas Berry's +store. He was hired for twopence to sit all day in the cherry orchard +and ring a cow-bell whenever the robins made excursions into the +trees. From earliest dawn when the birds were first astir, until they +sought their little nests, did Ezra sit uncomfortably upon a hard +peaked rock in the midst of the orchard and jingle his bell. + +He was white-headed, and large of his age like his brother. His pale +blue eyes were gravely vacant under his thick white thatch; his chin +dropped; his mouth gaped with stolid patience. There was no +mitigation for his dull task; he was not allowed to keep his vigil on +a comfortable branch of a tree with the mossy trunk for a support to +his back, lest he might be tempted to eat of the cherries, and turn +pal of the robins instead of enemy. He dared not pull down any low +bough and have a surreptitious feast, for he understood well that +there were likely to be sharp eyes at the rear windows of the house, +that it was always probable that old Silas Berry, of whom he was in +mortal fear, might be standing at his back, and, moreover, he should +be questioned, and had not falsehood for refuge, for he was a good +child, and would be constrained to speak the truth. + +They would not let him have a gun instead of a bell, although he +pleaded hard. Could he have sat there presenting a gun like a sentry +on duty, the week, in spite of discomfort and deprivations, would +have been full of glory and excitement. As it was, the dulness and +monotony of the jingling of the cow-bell made even his stupid +childish mind dismal. All the pleasant exhilaration of youth seemed +to have deserted the boy, and life to him became as inane and bovine +as to the original ringer of that bell grazing all the season in her +own shadow over the same pasture-ground. + +And more than all, that twopence for which Ezra toiled so miserably +was to go towards the weaving of a rag carpet which his mother was +making, and for which she was saving every penny. He could not lay it +out in red-and-white sugar-sticks at the store. He sat there all the +week, and every time there was a whir of little brown wings and the +darting flash of a red breast among the cherry branches he rang in +frantic haste the old cow-bell. All the solace he obtained was an +occasional robin-pecked cherry which he found in the grass, and then +Mr. Berry questioned him severely when he saw stains around his mouth +and on his fingers. + +He was on hand early in the morning on the day of the cherry picnic, +trudging half awake, with the taste of breakfast in his mouth, +through the acres of white dewy grass. He sat on his rock until the +grass was dry, and patiently jingled his cow-bell. It was to young +Ezra Ray, although all unwittingly, as if he himself were assisting +in the operations of nature. He watched so assiduously that it was as +if he dried the dewy grass and ripened the cherries. + +When the cherry party began to arrive he still sat on his rock and +jingled his bell; he did not know when to stop. But his eyes were +upon the assembling people rather than upon the robins. He watched +the brave young men whose ignominy of boyhood was past, bearing +ladders and tossing up shining tin pails as they came. He watched the +girls swinging their little straw baskets daintily; his stupidly +wondering eyes followed especially Rebecca Thayer. Rebecca, in her +black muslin, with her sweet throat fairly dazzling above the +half-low bodice, and wound about twice with a slender gold chain, +with her black silk apron embroidered with red roses, and beautiful +face glowing with rich color between the black folds of her hair, +held the instinctive attention of the boy. He stared at her as she +stood talking to another girl with her back quite turned upon all the +young men, until his own sister touched him upon the shoulder with a +sharp nudge of a bony little hand. + +Amelia Ray's face, blonde like her brother's, but sharp with the +sharpness of the thin and dark, was thrust into his. "You must go +right home now," declared her high voice. "Mother said so." + +"I'm going to stay and help pick 'em," said Ezra, in a voice which +was not affirmative. + +"No, you ain't." + +"I can climb trees." + +"You've got to go right straight home. Mother wants you to wind balls +for the rag carpet." + +And then Ezra Ray, with disconsolate gaping face over his shoulder, +retreated with awkward lopes across the field, the cow-bell +accompanying his steps with doleful notes. + +There were about forty young people at the party when all were +assembled. They came mostly in couples, although now and then a +little group of girls advanced across the field, and young men came +singly. Barnabas Thayer came alone, and rather late; Rebecca had come +some time before with one of her girl mates who had stopped for her. +Barnabas, slender and handsome in his best suit, advancing with a +stern and almost martial air, tried not to see Charlotte Barnard; but +it was as if her face were the natural focus for his eyes, which they +could not escape. However, Charlotte was not talking to Thomas Payne; +he was not even very near her. He was already in the top of a +cherry-tree picking busily. Barney saw his trim dark head and his +bright blue waistcoat among the branches, and his heart gave a guilty +throb of relief. But soon he noted that Charlotte had not her basket, +and the conviction seized him that Thomas had it and was filling it +with the very choicest cherries from the topmost branches, as was +indeed the case. + +Charlotte never looked at Barney, although she knew well when he +came. She stood smiling beside another girl, her smooth fair hair +gleaming in the sun, her neck showing pink through her embroidered +lace kerchief, and her gleaming head and her neck seemed to survey +Barney as consciously as her face. Suddenly the fierceness of the +instinct of possession seized him; he said to himself that it was his +wife's neck; no one else should see it. He felt like tearing off his +own coat and covering her with rude force. It made no difference to +him that nearly every other girl there, his sister among the rest, +wore her neck uncovered by even a kerchief; he felt that Charlotte +should not have done so. The other young men were swarming up the +trees with the girls' baskets, but he stood aloof with his forehead +knitted; it was as if all his reason had deserted him. All at once +there was a rustle at his side, and Rose Berry touched him on the +arm; he started, and looked down into her softly glowing little face. + +[Illustration: "Charlotte stood beside another girl"] + +"Oh, here you are!" said she, and her voice had adoring cadences. + +Barney nodded. + +"I was afraid you weren't coming," said she, and she panted softly +through her red parted lips. + +Rose's crisp pink muslin gown flared scalloping around her like the +pink petals of a hollyhock; her slender white arms showed through the +thin sleeves. Barney could not look away from her wide-open, +unfaltering blue eyes, which suddenly displayed to him strange +depths. Charlotte, during all his courtship, had never looked up in +his face like that. He could not himself have told why; but Charlotte +had never for one moment lost sight of the individual, and the +respect due him, in her lover. Rose, in the heart of New England, +bred after the precepts of orthodoxy, was a pagan, and she worshipped +Love himself. Barney was simply the statue that represented the +divinity; another might have done as well had the sculpture been as +fine. + +"I told you I was coming," Barney said, slowly, and his voice sounded +odd to himself. + +"I know you did, but I was afraid you wouldn't." + +Rose still held her basket. Barney reached out for it. "Let me get +some cherries for you," he said. + +"Oh, I guess you hadn't better," Rose returned, holding the basket +firmly. + +"Why not?" + +"I'm--afraid Charlotte won't like it," Rose said. Her face, upturned +to Barney, was full of pitiful seriousness, like a child's. + +"Give me the basket," demanded Barney, and she yielded. She stood +watching him as he climbed the nearest tree; then she turned and met +Charlotte's stern eyes full upon her. Rose went under the tree +herself, pulled down a low branch, and began to eat; several other +girls were doing the same. Thomas Payne passed the tree, bearing +carefully Charlotte's little basket heaped with the finest cherries. +Rose tossed her head defiantly. "She needn't say anything," she +thought. + +The morning advanced, the sun stood high, and there was a light wind, +which now and then caused the cherry-leaves to smite the faces of the +pickers. There were no robins in the trees that morning; there were +only swift whirs of little wings in the distance, and sweet flurried +calls which were scarcely noted in the merry clamor of the young men +and girls. + +Silas Berry stood a little aloof, leaning on a stout cane, looking on +with an inscrutable expression on his dry old face. He noted +everything; he saw Rose talking to Barney; he saw his son William +eating cherries with Rebecca Thayer out of one basket; but his +expression never changed. The predominant trait in his whole +character had seemed to mould his face to itself unchangeably, as the +face of a hunting-dog is moulded to his speed and watchfulness. + +"Don't Mr. Berry look just like an old miser?" a girl whispered to +Rebecca Thayer; then she started and blushed confusedly, for she +remembered suddenly that William Berry was said to be waiting upon +Rebecca, and she also remembered that Charlotte Barnard, who was +within hearing distance, was his niece. + +Rebecca blushed, too. "I never thought of it," she said, in a +constrained voice. + +"Well, I don't know as he does," apologized the girl. "I suppose I +thought of it because he's thin. I always had an idea that a miser +was thin." Then she slipped away, and presently whispered to another +girl what a mistaken speech she had made, and they put their heads +together with soft, averted giggles. + +The girls had brought packages of luncheon in their baskets, which +they had removed to make space for the cherries, and left with Mrs. +Berry in the tavern. At noon they sent the young men for them, and +prepared to have dinner at a little distance from the trees where +they had been picking, where the ground was clean. William and Rose +also went up to the tavern, and Rose beckoned to Barney as she passed +him. "Don't you want to come?" she whispered, as he followed +hesitatingly; "there's something to carry." + +When the party returned, Mrs. Berry was with them, and she and Rose +bore between them a small tub of freshly-fried hot doughnuts. Mrs. +Berry had utterly refused to trust it to the young men. "I know +better than to let you have it," she said, laughing. "You'd eat all +the way there, and there wouldn't be enough left to go round. Me and +Rose will carry it; it ain't very heavy." William and Barney each +bore two great jugs of molasses-and-water spiced with ginger. + +Silas pulled himself up stiffly when he saw them coming; he had been +sitting upon the peaked rock whereon Ezra Ray had kept vigil with the +cow-bell. Full of anxiety had he been all day lest they should pick +from any except the four trees which he had set apart for them, and +his anxiety was greater since he knew that the best cherries were not +on those four trees. Silas sidled painfully towards his wife and +daughter; he peered over into the tub, but they swung it +remorselessly past him, even knocking his shin with its iron-bound +side. + +"What you got there?" he demanded, huskily. + +"Don't you say one word," returned his wife, with a fierce shake of +her head at him. + +"What's in them jugs?" + +"It's nothing but sweetened water. Don't, father," pleaded Rose under +her breath, her pretty face flaming. + +Her mother scowled indomitably at Silas tagging threateningly at her +elbow. "Don't you say one word," she whispered again. + +"You ain't goin' to--give 'em--" + +"Don't you speak," she returned, hissing out the "s." + +Silas said no more. He followed on, and watched the doughnuts being +distributed to the merry party seated in a great ring like a very +garland of youth under his trees; he saw them drink his sweetened +water. + +"Don't you want some?" asked his wife's defiantly pleasant voice in +his ear. + +"No, I don't want none," he returned. + +Finally, long before they had finished eating, he went home to the +tavern. There was no one in the house. He stole cautiously into the +pantry, and there was a reserve of doughnuts in a large milk-pan +sitting before the window. Silas crooked his old arm around the pan, +carried it painfully across the great kitchen and the entry into the +best room, and pushed it far under the bureau. Then he returned, and +concealed the molasses-jug in the brick oven. He stood for a minute +in the middle of the kitchen floor, chuckling and nodding as if to +the familiar and confidential spirit of his own greed; then he went +out, and a short way down the road to the cottage house where old +Hiram Baxter lived and kept a little shoemaker's shop in the L. He +entered, and sat down in the little leather-reeking place with Hiram, +and was safe and removed from inquiry when Mrs. Berry returned to the +tavern for the remaining doughnuts and to mix more sweetened water. +The doughnuts could not be found, but she carried a pail across to +the store, got more molasses from the barrel, and so in one point +outwitted her husband. + +Mrs. Berry was famous for her rich doughnuts, and the first supply +had been quite exhausted. William went up to her at once when she +returned to the party. "Where's the rest of the doughnuts?" he +whispered. + +"Your father's hid 'em," she whispered back. "Hush, don't say +anything." + +William scowled and made an exclamation. "The old--" + +"Hush!" whispered his mother again; "go up to the house and get the +sweetened water. I've mixed another jug." + +"Where is he?" demanded William. + +"I dunno. He ain't to the store." + +William strode off across the field, and he searched through the +house with an angry stamping and banging of doors, but he could not +find his father or the doughnuts. "Father!" he called, in an angry +shout, standing in the doorway, "Father!" But there was no reply, and +he went back to the others with the jug of sweetened water. Rebecca +watched him with furtive, anxious eyes, but he avoided looking at +her. When he passed her a tumbler of sweetened water she took it and +thanked him fervently, but he did not seem to heed her at all. + +After dinner they played romping games under the trees--hunt the +slipper, and button, and Copenhagen. Mrs. Barnard and two other women +had come over to see the festivity, and they sat at a little distance +with Mrs. Berry, awkwardly disposed against the trunks of trees, with +their feet tucked under their skirts to keep them from the damp +ground. + +Copenhagen was the favorite game of the young people, and they played +on and on while the afternoon deepened. Clinging to the rope they +formed a struggling ring, looping this way and that way as the +pursuers neared them. Their laughter and gay cries formed charming +discords; their radiant faces had the likeness of one family of +flowers, through their one expression. The wind blew harder; the +girls' muslin skirts clung to their limbs as they moved against it, +and flew out around their heels in fluttering ruffles. The cherry +boughs tossed over their heads full of crisp whispers among their +dark leaves and red fruit clusters. Over across the field, under the +low-swaying boughs, showed the old red wall of the tavern, and +against it a great mass of blooming phlox, all vague with distance +like purple smoke. Over on the left, fence rails glistened purple in +the sun and wind--a bluebird sat on a crumbling post and sang. But +the young men and girls playing Copenhagen saw and heard nothing of +these things. + +They heard only that one note of love which all unwittingly, and +whether they would or not, they sang to each other through all the +merry game. Charlotte heard it whether she would or not, and so did +Barney, and it produced in them as in the others a reckless +exhilaration in spite of their sadness. William Berry forgot all his +mortification and annoyance as he caught Rebecca's warm fingers on +the rope and bent over her red, averted cheek. Barney, when he had +grasped Rose's hands, which had fairly swung the rope his way, kissed +her with an ardor which had in it a curious, fierce joy, because at +that moment he caught a glimpse of Thomas Payne's handsome, audacious +face meeting Charlotte's. + +Barney had not wished to play, but he played with zeal, only he never +seemed to see Charlotte's fingers on the rope, and Charlotte never +saw his. The girls' cheeks flushed deeper, their smooth locks became +roughened. The laughter waxed louder and longer; the matrons looking +on doubled their broad backs with responsive merriment. It became +like a little bacchanalian rout in a New England field on a summer +afternoon, but they did not know it in their simple hearts. + +At six o'clock the mist began to rise, the sunlight streamed through +the trees in slanting golden shafts, long drawn out like organ +chords. The young people gathered up their pails and baskets and went +home, flocking down the road together, calling back farewells to Rose +and William and their mother, who stood in front of the tavern +watching them out of sight. + +They were not quite out of sight when they came to Hiram Baxter's +little house, and Silas Berry emerged from the shop door. "Hullo!" he +cried out, and they all stopped, smiling at him with a cordiality +which had in it a savor of apology. Indeed, Thomas Payne had just +remarked, with a hearty chorus of assents, that he guessed the old +man wasn't so bad after all. + +Silas advanced towards them; he also was smiling. He fumbled in his +waistcoat pocket, and drew out a roll of paper which he shook out +with trembling fingers. He stepped close to Thomas Payne and extended +it. + +"What is it?" asked the young man. + +Silas smiled up in his face with the ingenuous smile of a child. + +"What is it?" Thomas Payne asked again. + +The others crowded around. + +"It's nothin' but the bill," replied Silas, in a wheedling whisper. +His dry old face turned red, his smile deepened. + +"The bill for what?" demanded Thomas Payne, and he seized the paper. + +"For the cherries you eat," replied Silas. "I've always been in the +habit of chargin' more, but I've took off a leetle this time." His +voice had a ring of challenge, his eyes were sharp, while his mouth +smiled. + +Thomas Payne scowled over the bill. The other young men peered at it +over his shoulder, and repeated the amount with whistles and +half-laughs of scorn and anger. The girls ejaculated to each other in +whispers. Silas stood impervious, waiting. + +The young men whipped out their purses without a word, but Thomas +motioned them back. "I'll pay, and we'll settle afterwards. We can't +divide up here," he said, and he crammed some money hard in Silas's +eagerly outstretched hand. "Thank you for your hospitality, Mr. +Berry," said Thomas Payne, his face all flaming and his eyes +flashing, but his voice quite steady. "I hope you'll have as good +luck selling your cherries next year." + +There was a little exulting titter over the sarcasm among the girls, +in which Rebecca did not join; then the party kept on. The indignant +clamor waxed loud in a moment; they scarcely waited for the old man's +back to be turned on his return to the tavern. + +But the young people, crying out all together against this last +unparalleled meanness, had not reached the foot of the hill, where +some of them separated, when they heard the quick pound of running +feet behind them and a hoarse voice calling on Thomas Payne to stop. +They all turned, and William came up, pale and breathing hard. "What +did you pay him?" he asked of Thomas Payne. + +"See here, William, we all know you had nothing to do with it," +Thomas cried out. + +"What did you pay him?" William repeated, in a stern gasp. + +"It's all right." + +"You tell me what you paid him." + +Thomas Payne blushed all over his handsome boyish face. He half +whispered the amount to William, although the others knew it as well +as he. + +William pulled out his purse, and counted out some money with +trembling fingers. "Take it, for God's sake!" said he, and Thomas +Payne took it. "We all know that you knew nothing about it," he said +again. The others chimed in with eager assent, but William gave his +head a shake, as if he shook off water, and broke away from them all, +and pelted up the hill with his heart so bitterly sore that it seemed +as if he trod on it at every step. + +A voice was crying out behind him, but he never heeded. There were +light, hurrying steps after him, and a soft flutter of girlish +skirts, but he never looked away from his own self until Rebecca +touched his arm. Then he looked around with a start and a great +blush, and jerked his arm away. + +But Rebecca followed him up quite boldly, and caught his arm again, +and looked up in his face. "Don't you feel bad," said she; "don't you +feel bad. You aren't to blame." + +"Isn't he my father?" + +"You aren't to blame for that." + +"Disgrace comes without blame," said William, and he moved on. + +Rebecca kept close to his side, clinging to his arm. "It's your +father's way," said she. "He's honest, anyway. Nobody can say he +isn't honest." + +"It depends upon what you call honest," William said, bitterly. +"You'd better run back, Rebecca. You don't want them to think you're +going with me, and they will. I'm disgraced, and so is Rose. You'd +better run back." + +Rebecca stopped, and he did also. She looked up in his face; her +mouth was quivering with a kind of helpless shame, but her eyes were +full of womanly courage and steadfastness. "William," said she, "I +ran away in the face and eyes of them all to comfort you. They saw +me, and they can see me now, but I don't care. And I don't care if +you see me; I always have cared, but I don't now. I have always been +terribly afraid lest you should think I was running after you, but I +ain't afraid now. Don't you feel bad, William. That's all I care +about. Don't you feel bad; nobody is going to think any less of you. +I don't; I think more." + +William looked down at her; there was a hesitating appeal in his +face, as in that of a hurt child. Suddenly Rebecca raised both her +arms and put them around his neck; he leaned his cheek down against +her soft hair. "Poor William," she whispered, as if he had been her +child instead of her lover. + +A girl in the merry party speeding along at the foot of the hill +glanced around just then; she turned again, blushing hotly, and +touched a girl near her, who also glanced around. Then their two +blushing faces confronted each other with significant half-shamed +smiles of innocent young girlhood. + +They locked arms, and whispered as they went on. "Did you see?" +"Yes." "His head?" "Yes." "Her arms?" "Yes." Neither had ever had a +lover. + +But the two lovers at the top of the hill paid no heed. The party +were all out of sight when they went slowly down in the gathering +twilight. William left Rebecca when they came opposite her house. + + + +Chapter VIII + + +When Rebecca entered the house, her mother was standing over the +stove, making milk-toast for supper. The boiling milk steamed up +fiercely in her face. "What makes you so long behind the others?" she +demanded, without turning, stirring the milk as she spoke. + +"I guess I ain't much, am I?" Rebecca said, evasively. She tried to +make her voice sound as it usually did, but she could not. It broke +and took on faltering cadences, as if she were intoxicated with some +subtle wine of the spirit. + +Her mother looked around at her. Rebecca's face was full of a strange +radiance which she could not subdue before her mother's hard, +inquiring gaze. Her cheeks burned with splendid color, her lips +trembled into smiles in spite of herself, her eyes were like dark +fires, shifting before her mother's, but not paling. + +"Ephraim see 'em all go by half an hour ago," said her mother. + +Rebecca made no reply. + +"If," said her mother, "you stayed behind to see William Berry, I can +tell you one thing, once for all: you needn't do it again." + +"I had to see him about something," Rebecca faltered. + +"Well, you needn't see him again about anything. You might jest as +well understand it first as last: if you've got any idea of havin' +William Berry, you've got to give it up." + +"Mother, I'd like to know what you mean!" Rebecca cried out, +blushing. + +"Look 'round here at me!" her mother ordered, suddenly. + +"Don't, mother." + +"Look at me!" + +Rebecca lifted her face perforce, and her mother eyed her pitilessly. +"You ain't been tellin' of him you'd have him, now?" said she. "Why +don't you speak?" + +"Not--just." + +"Then you needn't." + +"Mother!" + +"You needn't talk. You can jest make up your mind to it. You ain't +goin' to marry William Berry. Your brother has had enough to do with +that family." + +"Mother, you won't stop my marrying William because Barney won't +marry his cousin Charlotte? There ain't any sense in that." + +"I've got my reasons, an' that's enough for you," said Deborah. "You +ain't goin' to marry William Berry." + +"I am, if you haven't got any better reason than that. I won't stand +it, mother; it ain't right!" Rebecca cried out. + +"Then," said Deborah, and as she spoke she began spooning out the +toast gravy into a bowl with a curious stiff turn of her wrist and a +superfluous vigor of muscle, as if it were molten lead instead of +milk; and, indeed, she might, from the look in her face, have been +one of her female ancestors in the times of the French and Indian +wars, casting bullets with the yells of savages in her ears--"then," +said she, "I sha'n't have any child but Ephraim left, that's all!" + +"Mother, don't!" gasped Rebecca. + +"There's another thing: if you marry William Berry against your +parents' wishes, you know what you have to expect. You remember your +aunt Rebecca." + +Rebecca twisted her whole body about with the despairing motion with +which she would have wrung her hands, flung open the door, and ran +out of the room. + +Deborah went on spooning up the toast. Ephraim had come in just as +she spoke last to Rebecca, and he stood staring, grinning with gaping +mouth. + +"What's Rebecca done, mother?" he asked, pleadingly, catching hold of +his mother's dress. + +"Nothin' for you to know. Go an' wash your face an' hands, an' come +in to supper." + +"Mother, what's she done?" Ephraim's pleading voice lengthened into a +whine. He took more liberties with his mother than any one else +dared; he even jerked her dress now by way of enforcing an answer. +But she grasped his arm so vigorously that he cried out. "Go out to +the pump, an' wash your face an' hands," she repeated, and Ephraim +made a little involuntary run to the door. + +As he went out he rolled his eyes over his shoulder at his mother +with tragic surprise and reproach, but she paid no attention. When he +came in she ignored the great painful sigh which he heaved and the +podgy hand clapped ostentatiously over his left side. "Draw your +chair up," said she. + +"I dunno as I want any supper. I've got a pain. Oh dear!" Ephraim +writhed, with attentive eyes upon his mother; he was like an +executioner turning an emotional thumbscrew on her. But Deborah +Thayer's emotions sometimes presented steel surfaces. "You can have a +pain, then," said she. "I ain't goin' to let you go to ruin because +you ain't well, not if I know it. You've got to mind, sick or well, +an' you might jest as well know it. I'll have one child obey me, +whether or no. Set up to the table." + +Ephraim drew up his chair, whimpering; but he fell to on the +milk-toast with ardor, and his hand dropped from his side. He had +eaten half a plateful when his father came in. Caleb had been +milking; the cows had been refractory as he drove them from pasture, +and he was late. + +"Supper's been ready half an hour," his wife said, when he entered. + +"The heifer run down the old road when I was a-drivin' of her home, +an' I had to chase her," Caleb returned, meekly, settling down in his +arm-chair at the table. + +"I guess that heifer wouldn't cut up so every night if I had the +drivin' of her," remarked Deborah. She filled a plate with toast and +passed it over to Caleb. + +Caleb set it before him, but he did not begin to eat. He looked at +Rebecca's empty place, then at his wife's face, long and pale and +full of stern rancor, behind the sugar-bowl and the cream-pitcher. + +"Rebecca got home?" he ventured, with wary eyes upon her. + +"Yes, she's got home." + +Caleb winked, meekly. "Ain't she comin' to supper?" + +"I dunno whether she is or not." + +"Does she know it's ready?" Deborah vouchsafed no reply. She poured +out the tea. + +Caleb grated his chair suddenly. "I'll jest speak to her," he +proclaimed, courageously. + +"She knows it's ready. You set still," said Deborah. And Caleb drew +his chair close again, and loaded his knife with toast, bringing it +around to his mouth with a dexterous sidewise motion. + +"She ain't sick, is she?" he said, presently, with a casual air. + +"No, I guess she ain't sick." + +"I s'pose she eat so many cherries she didn't want any supper," Caleb +said, chuckling anxiously. His wife made no reply. Ephraim reached +over slyly for the toast-spoon, and she pushed his hand back. + +"You can't have any more," said she. + +"Can't I have jest a little more, mother?" + +"No, you can't." + +"I feel faint at my stomach, mother." + +"You can keep on feelin' faint." + +"Can't I have a piece of pie, mother?" + +"You can't have another mouthful of anything to eat to-night." + +Ephraim clapped his hand to his side again and sighed, but his mother +took no notice. + +"Have you got a pain, sonny?" asked Caleb. + +"Yes, dreadful. Oh!" + +"Hadn't he ought to have somethin' on it?" Caleb inquired, looking +appealingly at Deborah. + +"He can have some of his doctor's medicine if he don't feel better," +she replied, in a hard voice. "Set your chair back now, Ephraim, and +get out your catechism." + +"I don't feel fit to, mother," groaned Ephraim. + +"You do jest as I tell you," said his mother. + +And Ephraim, heaving with sighs, muttering angrily far under his +breath lest his mother should hear, pulled his chair back to the +window, and got his catechism out of the top drawer of his father's +desk, and began droning out in his weak, sulky voice the first +question therein: "What is the chief end of man?" + +"Now shut the book and answer it," said his mother, and Ephraim +obeyed. + +Ephraim was quite conversant with the first three questions and their +answers, after that his memory began to weaken; either he was a +naturally dull scholar, or his native indolence made him appear so. +He had been drilled nightly upon the "Assembly's Catechism" for the +past five years, and had had many a hard bout with it before that in +his very infancy, when his general health admitted--and sometimes, it +seemed to Ephraim, when it had not admitted. + +Many a time had the boy panted for breath when he rehearsed those +grandly decisive, stately replies to those questions of all ages, but +his mother had been obdurate. He could not understand why, but in +reality Deborah held her youngest son, who was threatened with death +in his youth, to the "Assembly's Catechism" as a means of filling his +mind with spiritual wisdom, and fitting him for that higher state to +which he might soon be called. Ephraim had been strictly forbidden to +attend school--beyond reading he had no education; but his mother +resolved that spiritual education he should have, whether he would or +not, and whether the doctor would or not. So Ephraim laboriously read +the Bible through, a chapter at a time, and he went, step by step, +through the wisdom of the Divines of Westminster. No matter how much +he groaned over it, his mother was pitiless. Sometimes Caleb plucked +up courage and interceded. "I don't believe he feels quite ekal to +learnin' of his stint to-night," he would say, and then his eyes +would fall before the terrible stern pathos in Deborah's, as she +would reply in her deep voice: "If he can't learn nothin' about +books, he's got to learn about his own soul. He's got to, whether it +hurts him or not. I shouldn't think, knowin' what you know, you'd say +anything, Caleb Thayer." + +And Caleb's old face would quiver suddenly like a child's; he would +rub the back of his hand across his eyes, huddle himself into his +arm-chair, and say no more; and Deborah would sharply order Ephraim, +spying anxiously over his catechism, to go on with the next question. + +It was nearly dark to-night when Ephraim finished his stint; he was +slower than usual, his progress being somewhat hindered by the +surreptitious eating of a hard red apple, which he had stowed away in +his jacket-pocket. Hard apples were strictly forbidden to Ephraim as +articles of diet, and to eat many during the season required +diplomacy. + +The boy's jaws worked with furious zeal over the apple during his +mother's temporary absences from the room on household tasks, and on +her return were mumbling solemnly and innocently the precepts of the +catechism, after a spasmodic swallowing. His father was nodding in +his chair and saw nothing, and had he seen would not have betrayed +him. After a little inefficient remonstrance on his own account, +Caleb always subsided, and watched anxiously lest Deborah should +discover the misdemeanor and descend upon Ephraim. + +To-night, after the task was finished, Deborah sent Ephraim stumbling +out of the room to bed, muttering remonstrances, his eyes as wild and +restless as a cat's, his ears full of the nocturnal shouts of his +play-fellows that came through the open windows. + +"Mother, can't I go out an' play ball a little while?" sounded in a +long wail from the dusk outside the door. + +"You go to bed," answered his mother. Then the slamming of a door +shook the house. + +"If he wa'n't sick, I'd whip him," said Deborah, between tight lips; +the spiritual whip which Ephraim held by right of his illness over +her seemed to sing past her ears. She shook Caleb with the force with +which she might have shaken Ephraim. "You'd better get up an' go to +bed now, instead of sleepin' in your chair," she said, imperatively; +and Caleb obeyed, staggering, half-dazed, across the floor into the +bedroom. Deborah was only a few years younger than her husband, but +she had retained her youthful vigor in much greater degree. She never +felt the drowsiness of age stealing over her at nightfall. Indeed, +oftentimes her senses seemed to gain in alertness as the day wore on, +and many a night she was up and at work long after all the other +members of her family were in bed. There came at such times to +Deborah Thayer a certain peace and triumphant security, when all the +other wills over which her own held contested sway were lulled to +sleep, and she could concentrate all her energies upon her work. Many +a long task of needle-work had she done in the silence of the night, +by her dim oil lamp; in years past she had spun and woven, and there +was in a clothes-press up-stairs a wonderful coverlid in an intricate +pattern of blue and white, and not a thread of it woven by the light +of the sun. + +[Illustration: "Many a long task of needle-work had she done"] + +None of the neighbors knew why Deborah Thayer worked so much at +night; they attributed it to her tireless industry. "The days wa'n't +never long enough for Deborah Thayer," they said--and she did not +know why herself. + +There was deep in her heart a plan for the final disposition of these +nightly achievements, but she confided it to no one, not even to +Rebecca. The blue-and-white coverlid, many a daintily stitched linen +garment and lace-edged pillow-slip she destined for Rebecca when she +should be wed, although she frowned on Rebecca's lover and spoke +harshly to her of marriage. To-night, while Rebecca lay sobbing in +her little bedroom, the mother knitted assiduously until nearly +midnight upon a wide linen lace with which to trim dimity curtains +for the daughter's bridal bedstead. + +Deborah needed no lamplight for this knitting-work; she was so +familiar with it, having knitted yards with her thoughts elsewhere, +that she could knit without seeing her needles. + +So she sat in the deepening dusk and knitted, and heard the laughter +and shouts of the boys at play a little way down the road with a +deeper pang than Ephraim had ever felt over his own deprivation. + +She was glad when the gay hubbub ceased and the boys were haled into +bed. Shortly afterwards she heard out in the road a quick, manly +tread and a merry whistle. She did not know the tune, but only one +young man in Pembroke could whistle like that. "It's Thomas Payne +goin' up to see Charlotte Barnard," she said to herself, with a +bitter purse of her lips in the dark. That merry whistler, passing +her poor cast-out son in his lonely, half-furnished house, whose +dark, shadowy walls she could see across the field, smote her as +sorely as he smote him. It seemed to her that she could hear that +flute-like melody even as far as Charlotte's door. In spite of her +stern resolution to be just, a great gust of wrath shook her. +"Lettin' of him come courtin' her when it ain't six weeks since +Barney went," she said, quite out loud, and knitted fiercely. + +But poor Thomas Payne, striding with his harmless swagger up the +hill, whistling as loud as might be one of his college airs, need +not, although she knew it not and he knew it not himself, have +disturbed her peace of mind. + +Charlotte, at the cherry party, had asked him, with a certain +dignified shyness, if he could come up to her house that evening, and +he had responded with alacrity. "Why, of course I can," he cried, +blushing joyfully all over his handsome face--"of course I can, +Charlotte!" And he tried to catch one of her hands hanging in the +folds of her purple dress, but she drew it away. + +"I want to see you a few minutes about something," she said, soberly; +and then she pressed forward to speak to another girl, and he could +not get another word with her about it. + +Charlotte, after she got home from the party, had changed her pretty +new gown for her every-day one of mottled brown calico set with a +little green sprig, and had helped her mother get supper. + +Cephas, however, was late, and did not come home until just before +Thomas Payne arrived. Sarah had begun to worry. "I don't see where +your father is," she kept saying to Charlotte. When she heard his +shuffling step on the door-stone she started as if he had been her +lover. When he came in she scrutinized him anxiously, to see if he +looked ill or disturbed. Sarah Barnard, during all absences of her +family, dug busily at imaginary pitfalls for them; had they all +existed the town would have been honey-combed. + +"There ain't nothin' happened, has there, Cephas?" she said. + +"I dunno of anythin' that's happened." + +"I got kind of worried. I didn't know where you was." Sarah had an +air of apologizing for her worry. Cephas made no reply; he did not +say where he had been, nor account for his tardiness; he did not look +at his wife, standing before him with her pathetically inquiring +face. He pulled a chair up to the table and sat down, and Charlotte +set his supper before him. It was a plate of greens, cold boiled +dock, and some rye-and-Indian bread. Cephas still adhered to his +vegetarian diet, although he pined on it, and the longing for the +flesh-pots was great in his soul. However, he said no more about +sorrel pies, for the hardness and the flavor of those which he had +prepared had overcome even his zeal of invention. He ate of them +manfully twice; then he ate no more, and he did not inquire how Sarah +disposed of them after they had vainly appeared on the table a week. +She, with no pig nor hens to eat them, was forced, with many +misgivings as to the waste, to deposit them in the fireplace. + +"They actually made good kindlin' wood," she told her sister Sylvia. +"Poor Cephas, he didn't have no more idea than a baby about makin' +pies." All Sarah's ire had died away; to-night she set a large plump +apple-pie slyly on the table--an apple-pie with ample allowance of +lard in the crust thereof; and she felt not the slightest exultation, +only honest pleasure, when she saw, without seeming to, Cephas cut +off a goodly wedge, after disposing of his dock greens. + +"Poor father, I'm real glad he's tastin' of the pie," she whispered +to Charlotte in the pantry; "greens ain't very fillin'." + +Charlotte smiled, absently. Presently she slipped into the best room +and lighted the candles. "You expectin' of anybody to-night?" her +mother asked, when she came out. + +"I didn't know but somebody might come," Charlotte replied, +evasively. She blushed a little before her mother's significantly +smiling face, but there was none of the shamed delight which should +have accompanied the blush. She looked very sober--almost stern. + +"Hadn't you better put on your other dress again, then?" asked her +mother." + +"No, I guess this 'll do." + +Cephas ate his pie in silence--he had helped himself to another +piece--but he heard every word. After he had finished, he fumbled in +his pocket for his old leather purse, and counted over a little store +of money on his knee. + +Charlotte was setting away the dishes in the pantry when her father +came up behind her and crammed something into her hand. She started. +"What is it?" said she. + +"Look and see," said Cephas. + +Charlotte opened her hand, and saw a great silver dollar. "I thought +mebbe you'd like to buy somethin' with it," said Cephas. He cleared +his throat, and went out through the kitchen into the shed. Charlotte +was too amazed to thank him; her mother came into the pantry. "What +did he give you?" she whispered. + +Charlotte held up the money. "Poor father," said Sarah Barnard, "he's +doin' of it to make up. He was dreadful sorry about that other, an' +he's tickled 'most to death now he thinks you've got somebody else, +and are contented. Poor father, he ain't got much money, either." + +"I don't want it," Charlotte said, her steady mouth quivering +downward at the corners. + +"You keep it. He'd feel all upset if you didn't. You'll find it come +handy. I know you've got a good many things now, but you had ought to +have a new cape come fall; you can't come out bride in a muslin one +when snow flies." Sarah cast a half-timid, half-shrewd glance at +Charlotte, who put the dollar in her pocket. + +"A green satin cape, lined and wadded, would be handsome," pursued +her mother. + +"I sha'n't ever come out bride," said Charlotte. + +"How you talk. There, he's comin' now!" + +And, indeed, at that the clang of the knocker sounded through the +house. Charlotte took off her apron and started to answer it, but her +mother caught her and pinned up a stray lock of hair. "I 'most wish +you had put on your other dress again," she whispered. + +Sarah listened with her ear close to the crack of the kitchen door +when her daughter opened the outside one. She heard Thomas Payne's +hearty greeting and Charlotte's decorous reply. The door of the front +room shut, then she set the kitchen door ajar softly, but she could +hear nothing but a vague hum of voices across the entry; she could +not distinguish a word. However, it was as well that she could not, +for her heart would have sunk, as did poor Thomas Payne's. + +Thomas, with his thick hair brushed into a shining roll above his +fair high forehead, in his best flowered waistcoat and blue coat with +brass buttons, sat opposite Charlotte, his two nicely booted feet +toeing out squarely on the floor, his two hands on his knees, and +listened to what she had to say, while his boyish face changed and +whitened. Thomas was older than Charlotte, but he looked younger. +It seemed, too, as if he looked younger when with her than at other +times, although he was always anxiously steady and respectful, and +lost much of that youthful dash which made him questioningly admired +by the young people of Pembroke. + +Charlotte began at once after they were seated. Her fair, grave face +colored, her voice had in it a solemn embarrassment. "I don't know +but you thought I was doing a strange thing to ask you to come here +to-night," she said. + +"No, I didn't; I didn't think so, Charlotte," Thomas declared, +warmly. + +"I felt as if I ought to. I felt as if it was my duty to," said she. +She cast her eyes down. Thomas waited, looking at her with vague +alarm. Somehow some college scrapes of his flashed into his head, and +he had a bewildered idea the she had found them out and that her +sweet rigid innocence was shocked, and she was about to call him to +account. + +But Charlotte continued, raising her eyes, and meeting his gravely +and fairly: + +"You've been coming here three Sabbath evenings running, now," said +she. + +"Yes, I know I have, Charlotte." + +"And you mean to keep on coming, if I don't say anything to hinder +it?" + +"You know I do, Charlotte," replied Thomas, with ardent eyes upon her +face. + +"Then," said Charlotte, "I feel as if it was my duty to say this to +you, Thomas. If you come in any other way than as a friend, if you +come on any other errand than friendship, you must not come here any +more. It isn't right for me to encourage you, and let you come here +and get your feelings enlisted. If you come here occasionally as a +friend in friendship I shall be happy to have you, but you must not +come here with any other hopes or feelings." + +Charlotte's solemnly stilted words, and earnest, severe face chilled +the young man opposite. His face sobered. "You mean that you can't +ever think of me in any other way than as a friend," he said. + +Charlotte nodded. "You know it is not because there's one thing +against you, Thomas." + +"Then it is Barney, after all." + +"I was all ready to marry him a few weeks ago," Charlotte said, with +a kind of dignified reproach. + +Thomas colored. "I know it, Charlotte; I ought not to have +expected--I suppose you couldn't get over it so soon. I couldn't if I +had been in your place, and been ready to marry anybody. But I didn't +know about girls; I didn't know but they were different; I always +heard they got over things quicker. I ought not to have thought-- +But, oh, Charlotte, if I wait, if you have a little more time, don't +you think you will feel different about it?" + +Charlotte shook her head. + +"But he is such a good-for-nothing dog to treat you the way he does, +Charlotte!" Thomas cried out, in a great burst of wrath and jealous +love. + +"I don't want to hear another word like that, Thomas Payne," +Charlotte said, sternly, and the young man drooped before her. + +"I beg your pardon, Charlotte," said he. "I suppose I ought not to +have spoken so, if you-- Oh, Charlotte, then you don't think you ever +can get over this and think a little bit of me?" + +"No," replied Charlotte, in a steady voice, "I don't think I ever +can, Thomas." + +"I don't mean that I am trying to get you away from any other fellow, +Charlotte--I wouldn't do anything like that; but if he won't-- Oh, +Charlotte, are you sure?" + +"I don't think I ever can," repeated Charlotte, monotonously, looking +at the wall past Thomas. + +"I've always thought so much of you, Charlotte, though I never told +you so." + +"You'd better not now." + +"Yes, I'm going to, now. I've got to. Then I'll never say another +word--I'll go away, and never say another word." Thomas got up, and +brought his chair close to Charlotte's. "Don't move away," he +pleaded; "let me sit here near you once--I never shall again. I'm +going to tell you, Charlotte. I used to look across at you sitting +in the meeting-house, Sabbath days, when I was a boy, and think you +were the handsomest girl I ever saw. Then I did try to go with you +once before I went to college; perhaps you didn't know that I meant +anything, but I did. Barney was in the way then a little, but I +didn't think much of it. I didn't know that he really meant to go +with you. You let me go home with you two or three times--perhaps you +remember." + +Charlotte nodded. + +"I never forgot," said Thomas Payne. "Well, father found it out, and +he had a talk with me. He made me promise to wait till I got through +college before I said anything to you; he was doing a good deal for +me, you know. So I waited, and the first thing I knew, when I came +home, they said Barney Thayer was waiting on you, and I thought it +was all settled and there was nothing more to be done. I made up my +mind to bear it like a man and make the best of it, and I did. But +this spring when I was through college, and that happened betwixt you +and Barney, when he--didn't come back to you, and you didn't seem to +mind so much, I couldn't help having a little hope. I waited and +kept thinking he'd make up with you, but he didn't, and I knew how +determined he was. Then finally I began to make a few advances, +but--well, it's all over now, Charlotte. There's only one thing I'd +like to ask: if I hadn't waited, as I promised father, would it have +made any difference? Did you always like Barney Thayer?" + +"Yes; it wouldn't have made any difference," Charlotte said. There +were tears in her eyes. + +Thomas Payne arose. "Then that is all," said he. "I never had any +chance, if I had only known. I've got nothing more to say. I want to +thank you for asking me to come here to-night and telling me. It was +a good deal kinder than to let me keep on coming. That would have +been rather hard on a fellow." Thomas Payne fairly laughed, although +his handsome face was white. "I hope it will all come right betwixt +you and Barney, Charlotte," he said, "and don't you worry about me, I +shall get on. I'll own this seems a little harder than it was before, +but I shall get on." Thomas brushed his bell hat carefully with his +cambric handkerchief, and stowed it under his arm. "Good-bye, +Charlotte," said he, in his old gay voice; "when you ask me, I'll +come and dance at your wedding." + +Charlotte got up, trembling. Thomas reached out his hand and touched +her smooth fair head softly. "I never touched you nor kissed you, +except in games like that Copenhagen to-day," said he; "but I've +thought of it a good many times." + +Charlotte drew back. "I can't, Thomas," she faltered. She could not +herself have defined her reason for refusing her cast-off lover this +one comfort, but it was not so much loyalty as the fear of disloyalty +which led her to do so. In spite of herself, she saw Barney for an +instant beside Thomas to his disadvantage, and her love could not +cover him, extend it as she would. The conviction was strong upon her +that Thomas was the better man of the two, although she did not love +him. + +"All right," said Thomas, "I ought not to have asked it of you, +Charlotte. Good-bye." + +As soon as Thomas Payne got out in the dark night air, and the door +had shut behind him, he set up his merry whistle. Charlotte stood at +the front window, and heard it from far down the hill. + + + +Chapter IX + + +One Sunday evening, about four months after the cherry party, +Barnabas Thayer came out of his house and strolled slowly across the +road. Then he paused, and leaned up against some pasture bars and +looked around him. There was nobody in sight on the road in either +direction, and everything was very still, except for the vibrating +calls of the hidden insects that come to their flood-tide of life in +early autumn. + +Barnabas listened to those calls, which had in them a certain element +of mystery, as have all things which reach only one sense. They were +in their humble way the voices of the unseen, and as he listened they +seemed to take on a rhythmic cadence. Presently the drone of +multifold vibrations sounded in his ears with even rise and fall, +like the mighty breathing of Nature herself. The sun was low, and the +sky was full of violet clouds. Barney could see outlined faintly +against them the gray sweep of the roof that covered Charlotte's +daily life. + +Soon the bell for the evening meeting began to ring, and Barney +started. People might soon appear on their way to meeting, and he +did not want to see them. Barney avoided everybody now; he had been +nowhere since the cherry party, not even to meeting. He led the life +of a hermit, and seldom met his kind at all, except at the store, +where he went to buy the simple materials for his solitary meals. + +Barney turned aside from the main road into the old untravelled one +leading past Sylvia Crane's house. It appeared scarcely more than a +lane; the old wheel-ruts were hidden between green weedy ridges, the +bordering stone-walls looked like long green barrows, being overgrown +with poison-ivy vines and rank shrubs. For a long way there was no +house except Sylvia Crane's. There was one cellar where a house had +stood before Barney could remember. There were a few old blackened +chimney-bricks still there, the step-stone worn by dead and forgotten +feet, and the old lilac-bushes that had grown against the front +windows. Two poplar-trees, too, stood where the front yard had met +the road, casting long shadows like men. Sylvia Crane's house was +just beyond, and Barney passed it with a furtive anxious glance, +because Charlotte's aunt lived there. He saw nobody at the windows, +but the guardian-stone was quite rolled away from the door, so Sylvia +was at home. + +Barney walked a little way beyond; then he sat down on the +stone-wall, and remained there, motionless. He heard the meeting-bell +farther away, then it ceased. The wind was quite crisp and cool, and +it smote his back from the northwest. He could smell wild-grapes and +the pungent odor of decaying leaves. The autumn was beginning, and +over his thoughts, raised like a ghost from the ashes of the summer, +stole a vague vision of the winter. He saw for a second the driving +slant of the snow-storm over the old drifting road, he saw the white +slant of Sylvia's house-roof through it. And at the same time a +curious, pleasant desire, which might be primitive and coeval with +the provident passion of the squirrels and honey-bees, thrilled him. +Then he dismissed it bitterly. What need of winter-stores and +provisions for sweet home-comfort in the hearts of freezing storms +was there for him? What did he care whether or not he laid in stores +of hearth-wood, of garden produce, of apples, just for himself in his +miserable solitude? The inborn desire of Northern races at the +approach of the sterile winters, containing, as do all desires to +insure their fulfilment, the elements of human pleasure, failed +suddenly to move him when he remembered that his human life, in one +sense, was over. + +[Illustration: "He remained there motionless"] + +Opposite him across the road, in an old orchard, was a tree full of +apples. The low sun struck them, and they showed spheres of rosy +orange, as brilliant as Atalanta's apples of gold, against the +background of dark violet clouds. Barney looked at this tree, which +was glorified for the time almost out of its common meaning as a +tree, as he might have looked at a gorgeous procession passing before +him, while his mind was engrossed with his own misery, seeming to +project before his eyes like a veil. + +Presently it grew dusky, and the glowing apples faded; the town-clock +struck eight. Barney counted the strokes; then he arose and went +slowly back. He had not gone far when he saw at a distance down the +road a man and woman strolling slowly towards him. They disappeared +suddenly, and he thought they had turned into a lane which opened +upon the road just there. He thought to himself, and with no concern, +that it might have been his sister Rebecca--something about the +woman's gait suggested her--and William Berry. He knew that William +was not allowed in his mother's house, and that he and Rebecca met +outside. He looked up the dusky lane when he came to it, but he saw +nobody. + +When he reached Sylvia Crane's house he noticed that the front door +was open, and a woman stood there in a dim shaft of candle-light +which streamed from the room beyond. He started, for he thought it +might be Charlotte; then he saw that it was Sylvia Crane leaning out +towards him, shading her eyes with her hand. + +He said "Good-evening" vaguely, and passed on. Then he heard a cry of +indistinct words behind him, and turned. "What is it?" he called. But +still he could not understand what she said, her voice was so broken, +and he went back. + +When he got quite close to the gate he understood. "You ain't goin' +past, Richard? You ain't goin' past, Richard?" Sylvia was wailing +over and over, clinging to the old gate-post. + +Barney stood before her, hesitating. Sylvia reached out a hand +towards him, clutching piteously with pale fingers through the gloom. +Barney drew back from the poor hand. "I rather think--you've--made a +mistake," he faltered out. + +"You ain't goin' past, Richard?" Sylvia wailed out again. She flung +out her lean arm farther towards him. Then she wavered. Barney +thought she was going to fall, and he stepped forward and caught +hold of her elbow. "I guess you don't feel well, do you, Miss Crane?" +he said. "I guess you had better go into the house, hadn't you?" + +"I feel--kind of--bad--I--thought you was goin'--past," gasped +Sylvia. Barney supported her awkwardly into the house. At times she +leaned her whole trembling weight upon him, and then withdrew +herself, all unnerved as she was, with the inborn maiden reticence +which so many years had strengthened; once she pushed him from her, +then drooped upon his arm again, and all the time she kept moaning, +"I thought you was goin' right past, Richard, I thought you was goin' +right past." + +And Barney kept repeating, "I guess you've made a mistake, Miss +Crane"; but she did not heed him. + +When they were inside the parlor he shifted her weight gently on to +the sofa, and would have drawn off; but she clung to his arm, and it +seemed to him that he was forced to sit down beside her or be rough +with her. "I thought you was goin' right past, Richard," she said +again. + +"I ain't Richard," said Barney; but she did not seem to hear him. She +looked straight in his face with a strange boldness, her body +inclined towards him, her head thrown back. Her thin, faded cheeks +were burning, her blue eyes eager, her lips twitching with pitiful +smiles. The room was dim with candle-light, but everything in it was +distinct, and Sylvia Crane, looking straight at Barney Thayer's face, +saw the face of Richard Alger. + +Suddenly Barney himself had a curious impression. The features of +Richard Alger instead of his own seemed to look back at him from his +own thoughts. He dashed his hand across his face with an impatient, +bewildered motion, as if he brushed away unseen cobwebs, and stood +up. "You have made--" he began again; but Sylvia interrupted him with +a weak cry. "Set down here, set down here, jest a minute, if you +don't want to kill me!" she wailed out, and she clutched at his +sleeve and pulled him down, and before he knew what she was doing had +shrunk close to him, and laid her head on his shoulder. She went on +talking desperately in her weak voice--strained shrill octaves above +her ordinary tone. + +"I've had this--sofa ten years," she said--"ten years, Richard--an' +you never set with me on it before, an'--you'd been comin'--here a +long while before that came betwixt us last spring, Richard. Ain't +you forgiven me yet?" + +Barney made no reply. + +"Can't you put your arm around me jest once, Richard?" she went on. +"You ain't never, an' you've been comin' here a long while. I've had +this sofa ten years." + +Barney put his arm around her, seemingly with no volition of his own. + +"It's six months to-day sence you came last," Sylvia said--"it's six +whole months; an' when I see you goin' past to-night, it didn't seem +as if I could bear it--it didn't seem as if I could bear it, +Richard." Sylvia turned her pale profile closer to Barney's breast +and sobbed faintly. "I've watched so long for you," she sighed out; +"all these months I've sat there at the window, strainin' my eyes +into the dark. Oh, you don't know, Richard, you won't never know!" + +Barney trembled with Sylvia's sobs. He sat with a serious +shamefacedness, his arm around the poor bony waist, staring over the +faded fair head, which had never lain on any lover's breast except in +dreams. For the moment he could not stir; he had a feeling of horror, +as if he saw his own double. There was a subtle resemblance which +lay deeper than the features between him and Richard Alger. Sylvia +saw it, and he saw his own self reflected as Richard Alger in that +straining mental vision of hers which exceeded the spiritual one. + +"Can't you forgive me, an'--come again the way--you used to?" Sylvia +panted out. "I couldn't get home before, that night, nohow. I +couldn't, Richard--'twas the night Charlotte an' Barney fell out. +They had a dreadful time. I had to stay there. It wa'n't my fault. +If Barney had come back, I could have got here in season; but poor +Charlotte was settin' out there all alone on the doorstep, an' her +father wouldn't let her in, an' Sarah took on so I had to stay. I +thought I should die when I got back an' found out you'd been here +an' gone. Ain't you goin' to forgive me, Richard?" + +Barney suddenly removed his arm from Sylvia's waist, pushed her +clinging hands away, and stood up again. "Now, Miss Crane," he said, +"I've got to tell you. You've got to listen, and take it in. I am +not Richard Alger; I am Barney Thayer." + +"What?" Sylvia said, feebly, looking up at him. "I don't know what +you say, Richard; I wish you'd say it again." + +"I ain't Richard Alger; I am Barney Thayer," repeated Barney, in a +loud, distinct voice. Sylvia's straining, questioning eyes did not +leave his face. "You made a mistake," said Barney. + +Sylvia turned her eyes away; she laid her head down on the arm of the +hair-cloth sofa, and gasped faintly. Barney bent over her. "Now don't +feel bad, Miss Crane," said he; "I sha'n't ever say a word about this +to anybody." + +Sylvia made no reply; she lay there half gasping for breath, and her +face looked deathly to Barney. + +"Miss Crane, are you sick?" he cried out in alarm. When she did not +answer, he even laid hold of her shoulder, and shook her gently, and +repeated the question. He did not know if she were faint or dying; he +had never seen anybody faint or die. He wished instinctively that his +mother were there; he thought for a second of running for her in +spite of everything. + +"I'll go and get some water for you, Miss Crane," he said, +desperately, and seized the candle, and went with it, flaring and +leaving a wake of smoke, out into the kitchen. He presently came back +with a dipper of water, and held it dripping over Sylvia. "Hadn't you +better drink a little?" he urged. But Sylvia suddenly motioned him +away and sat up. "No, I don't want any water; I don't want anything +after this," she said, in a quick, desperate tone. "I can never look +anybody in the face again. I can never go to meetin' again." + +"Don't you feel so about it, Miss Crane," Barney pleaded, his own +voice uncertain and embarrassed. "The room ain't very light, and it's +dark outside; maybe I do look like him a little. It ain't any wonder +you made the mistake." + +"It wa'n't that," returned Sylvia. "I dunno what the reason was; it +don't make any difference. I can't never go to meetin' again." + +"I sha'n't tell anybody," said Barney; "I sha'n't ever speak of it to +any human being." + +Sylvia turned on him with sudden fierceness. "You had better not," +said she, "when you're doin' jest the same as Richard Alger yourself, +an' you're makin' Charlotte sit an' watch an' suffer for nothin' at +all, jest as he makes me. You had better not tell of it, Barney +Thayer, when it was all due to your awful will that won't let you +give in to anybody, in the first place, an' when you are so much like +Richard Alger yourself that it's no wonder that anybody that knows +him body and soul, as I do, took you for him. You had better not +tell." + +Again Barney seemed to see before his eyes that image of himself as +Richard Alger, and he could no more change it than he could change +his own image in the looking-glass. He said not another word, but +carried the dipper of water back to the kitchen, returned with the +candle, setting it gingerly on the white mantel-shelf between a vase +of dried flowers and a mottle-backed shell, and went out of the +house. Sylvia did not speak again; but he heard her moan as he closed +the door, and it seemed to him that he heard her as he went down the +road, although he knew that he could not. + +It was quite dark now; all the light came from a pale wild sky. The +moon was young, and feebly intermittent with the clouds. + +Barney, hastening along, was all trembling and unnerved. He tried to +persuade himself that the woman whom he had just left was ill, and +laboring under some sudden aberration of mind; yet, in spite of +himself, he realized a terrible rationality in it. Little as he had +been among the village people of late, and little as he had heard of +the village gossip, he knew the story of Richard Alger's desertion +of Sylvia Crane. Was he not like Richard Alger in his own desertion +of Charlotte Barnard? and had not Sylvia been as little at fault +in taking one for the other as if they had been twin brothers? +Might there not be a closer likeness between characters than +features--perhaps by a repetition of sins and deformities? and might +not one now and then be able to see it? + +Then the question came, was Charlotte like Sylvia? Was Charlotte even +now sitting watching for him with that awful eagerness which comes +from a hunger of the heart? He had seen one woman's wounded heart, +and, like most men, was disposed to generalize, and think he had seen +the wounded hearts of all women. + +When he had reached the turn of the road, and had come out on the +main one where his house was, and where Charlotte lived, he stood +still, looking in her direction. He seemed to see her, a quarter of a +mile away in the darkness, sitting in her window watching for him, as +Sylvia had watched for Richard. + +He set his mouth hard and crossed the road. He had just reached his +own yard when there was the pale flutter of a skirt out of the +darkness before him, and a little shadowy figure met him with a soft +shock. The was a smothered nervous titter from the figure. Barney did +not know who it was; he muttered an apology, and was about to pass +into his yard when Rose Berry's voice arrested him. It was quite +trembling and uncertain; all the laughter had gone out of it. + +"Oh, it's you," said she; "you frightened me. I didn't know who it +was." + +Barney felt suddenly annoyed without knowing why. "Oh, is it you, +Rose?" he returned, stiffly. "It's a pleasant evening;" then he +turned. + +"Barney!" Rose said, and her voice sounded as if she were weeping. + +Barney stopped and waited. + +"I want to know if--you're mad with me, Barney." + +"No, of course I ain't; why?" + +"I thought you'd acted kind of queer to me lately." + +Barney stood still, frowning in the darkness. "I don't know what you +mean," he said at length. "I don't know how I've treated you any +different from any of the girls." + +"You haven't been to see me, and--you've hardly spoken to me since +the cherry party." + +"I haven't been to see anybody," said Barney, shortly; and he turned +away again, but Rose caught his arm. "Then you are sure you aren't +mad with me?" she whispered. + +"Of course I'm sure," Barney returned, impatiently. + +"It would kill me if you were," Rose whispered. She pressed close to +him; he could feel her softly panting against his side, her head sunk +on his shoulder. "I've been worrying about it all these months," she +said in his ear. Her soft curly hair brushed his cheek, but her +little transient influence over him was all gone. He felt angry and +ashamed. + +"I haven't thought anything about it," he said, brusquely. + +Rose sobbed faintly, but she did not move away from him. Suddenly +that cruel repulsion which seizes mankind towards reptiles and +unsought love seized Barney. He unclasped her clinging hands, and +fairly pushed her away from him. "Good-night, Rose," he said, +shortly, and turned, and went up the path to his own door with +determined strides. + +"Barney!" Rose called after him; but he paid no attention. She even +ran up the path after him; but the door shut, and she turned back. +She was trembling from head to foot, there was a great rushing in her +ears; but she heard a quick light step behind her when she got out on +the road, and she hurried on before it with a vague dread. + +She almost ran at length; but the footsteps gained on her. A dark +skirt brushed her light-colored one, and Charlotte's voice, full of +contempt and indignation, said in her ear: "Oh, I thought it was +you." + +"I--was coming up--to your--house," Rose faltered; she could hardly +get her breath to speak. + +"Why didn't you come, then?" demanded Charlotte. "What made you go to +Barney Thayer's?" + +"I didn't," said Rose, in feeble self-defence. "He was out in the +road--I--just stopped to--speak to him--" + +"You were coming out of his yard," Charlotte said, pitilessly. "You +followed him in there--I saw you. Shame on you!" + +"Oh, Charlotte, I haven't done anything out of the way," pleaded +Rose, weakly. + +"You have tried your best to get Barney Thayer all the time you have +been pretending to be such a good friend to me. I don't know what you +call out of the way." + +"Charlotte, don't--I haven't." + +"Yes, you have. I am going to tell you, once for all, what I think of +you. You've been a false friend to me; and now when Barney don't +notice you, you follow him up as no girl that thought anything of +herself would. And you don't even care anything for him; you haven't +even that for an excuse." + +"You don't know but what I do!" Rose cried out, desperately. + +"Yes, I do know. If anybody else came along, you'd care for him just +the same." + +"I shouldn't--Charlotte, I should never have thought of Barney if +he--hadn't left you, you know I shouldn't." + +"That's no excuse," said Charlotte, sternly. + +"You said yourself he would never come back to you," said Rose. + +"Would you have liked me to have done so by you, if you had been in +my place?" + +Rose twitched herself about. "You can't expect him never to marry +anybody because he isn't going to marry you," she said, defiantly. + +"I don't--I am not quite so selfish as that. But he won't ever marry +anybody he don't like because she follows him up, and I don't see how +that alters what you've done." + +Rose began to walk away. Charlotte stood still, but she raised her +voice. "I am not very happy," said she, "and I sha'n't be happy my +whole life, but I wouldn't change places with you. You've lowered +yourself, and that's worse than any unhappiness." + +Rose fled away in the darkness without another word, and Charlotte +crossed the road to go to her Aunt Sylvia's. + +Rose, as she went on, felt as if all her dreams were dying within +her; a dull vision of the next morning when she should awake without +them weighed upon her. She had a childish sense of shame and remorse, +and a conviction of the truth of Charlotte's words. And yet she had +an injured and bewildered feeling, as if somewhere in this terrible +nature, at whose mercy she was, there was some excuse for her. + +Rose was nearly home when she began to meet the people coming from +meeting. She kept close to the wall, and scudded along swiftly that +no one might recognize her. All at once a young man whom she had +passed turned and walked along by her side, making a shy clutch at +her arm. + +"Oh, it's you," she said, wearily. + +"Yes; do you care if I walk along with you?" + +"No," said Rose, "not if you want to." + +An old pang of gratitude came over her. It was only the honest, +overgrown boy, Tommy Ray, of the store. She had known he worshipped +her afar off; she had laughed at him and half despised him, but now +she felt suddenly humble and grateful for even this devotion. She +moved her arm that he might hold it more closely. + +"It's too dark for you to be out alone," he said, in his embarrassed, +tender voice. + +"Yes, it's pretty dark," said Rose. Her voice shook. They had passed +the last group of returning people. Suddenly Rose, in spite of +herself, began to cry. She sobbed wildly, and the boy, full of alarm +and sympathy, walked on by her side. + +"There ain't anything--scared you, has there?" he stammered out, +awkwardly, at length. + +"No," sobbed Rose. + +"You ain't sick?" + +"No, it isn't anything." + +The boy held her arm closer; he trembled and almost sobbed himself +with sympathy. Before they reached the old tavern Rose had stopped +crying--she even tried to laugh and turn it off with a jest. "I don't +know what got into me," she said; "I guess I was nervous." + +"I didn't know but something had scared you," said the boy. + +They stood on the door-steps; the house was dark. Rose's parents had +gone to bed, and William was out. The boy still held Rose's arm. He +had adored her secretly ever since he was a child, and he had never +dared as much as that before. He had thought of Rose like a queen or +a princess, and the thought had ennobled his boyish ignorance and +commonness. + +"No, I wasn't scared," said Rose, and something in her voice gave +sudden boldness to her young lover. + +He released her arm, and put both his arms around her. "I'm sorry you +feel so bad," he whispered, panting. + +"It isn't anything," returned Rose, but she half sobbed again; the +boy's round cheek pressed against her wet, burning one. He was +several years younger than she. She had half scorned him, but she had +one of those natures that crave love for its own sweetness as palates +crave sugar. + +She wept a little on his shoulder; and the boy, half beside himself +with joy and terror, stood holding her fast in his arms. + +"Don't feel bad," he kept whispering. Finally Rose raised herself. "I +must go in," she whispered; "good-night." + +The boy's pleading face, his innocent, passionate lips approached +hers, and they kissed each other. + +"Don't you--like me a little?" gasped the boy. + +"Maybe I will," Rose whispered back. His face came closer, and she +kissed him again. Then, with a murmured "good-night," she fled into +the house, and the boy went down the hill with sweeter dreams in his +heart than those which she had lost. + + + +Chapter X + + +On the Sunday following the one of Barnabas Thayer's call Sylvia +Crane appeared at meeting in a black lace veil like a Spanish +señorita. The heavily wrought black lace fell over her face, and +people could get only shifting glimpses of her delicate features +behind it. + +Richard Alger glanced furtively at the pale face shrinking austerely +behind the net-work of black silk leaves and flowers, and wondered at +some change which he felt but could not fathom. He scarcely knew that +she had never worn the veil before. And Richard Alger, had he known, +could never have fathomed the purely feminine motive compounded of +pride and shame which led his old sweetheart to unearth from the +depths of a bandbox her mother's worked-lace veil, and tie its narrow +black drawing-string with trembling fingers over her own bonnet. + +"I'd like to know what in creation you've got that veil on for?" +whispered her sister, Hannah Berry, as they went down the aisle after +meeting. + +"I thought I would," responded Sylvia's muffled voice behind the +veil. + +"You've got the flowers right over your eyes. I shouldn't think you +could see to walk. You ain't never worn a veil in your life. I can't +see what has got into you," persisted Hannah. + +Sylvia edged away from her as soon as she could, and glided down the +road towards her own house swiftly, although her knees trembled. +Sylvia's knees always trembled when she came out of church, after she +had sat an hour and a half opposite Richard Alger. To-day they felt +weaker than ever, after her encounter with Hannah. Nobody knew the +terror Sylvia had of her sister's discovering how she had called in +Barnabas Thayer, and in a manner unveiled her maiden heart to him. +When Charlotte had come in that night after Barnabas had gone, and +discovered her crying on the sofa, she had jumped up and confronted +her with a fierce instinct of concealment. + +"There ain't nothin' new the matter," she said, in response to +Charlotte's question; "I was thinkin' about mother; I'm apt to when +it comes dusk." It was the first deliberate lie that Sylvia Crane had +ever told in her life. She reflected upon it after Charlotte had +gone, and reflected also with fierce hardihood that she would lie +again were it necessary. Should she hesitate at a lie if it would +cover the maiden reserve that she had cherished so long? + +However, Charlotte had suspected more than her aunt knew of the true +cause of her agitation. A similar motive for grief made her acute. +Sylvia, mourning alone of a Sabbath night upon her hair-cloth sofa, +struck an old chord of her own heart. Charlotte dared not say a +word to comfort her directly. She condoled with her for the +fifteen-years-old loss of her mother, and did not allude to Richard +Alger; but going home she said to herself, with a miserable qualm of +pity, that poor Aunt Sylvia was breaking her heart because Richard +had stopped coming. + +"It's harder for Aunt Sylvia because she's older," thought Charlotte, +on her way home that night. But then she thought also, with a sorer +qualm of self-pity, that Sylvia had not quite so long a life before +her, to live alone. Charlotte had nearly reached her own home that +night when two figures suddenly slunk across the road before her. She +at once recognized Rebecca Thayer as one of them, and called out +"Good-evening, Rebecca!" to her. + +Rebecca made only a muttered sound in response, and they both +disappeared in the darkness. There was a look of secrecy and flight +about it which somehow startled Charlotte, engrossed as she was with +her own troubles and her late encounter with Rose. + +When she got into the house she spoke of it to her mother. Cephas had +gone to bed, and Sarah was sitting up waiting for her. + +"I met Rebecca and William out here," said she, untying her hat, "and +I thought they acted real queer." Sarah cast a glance at the bedroom +door, which was ajar, and motioned Charlotte to close it. Charlotte +tiptoed across the room and shut the door softly, lest she should +awaken her father; then her mother beckoned her to come close, and +whispered something in her ear. + +Charlotte started, and a great blush flamed out all over her face and +neck. She looked at her mother with angry shame. "I don't believe a +word of it," said she; "not a word of it." + +"I walked home from meetin' with Mrs. Allen this evenin'," said her +mother, "an' she says it's all over town. She says Rebecca's been +stealin' out, an' goin' to walk with him unbeknownst to her mother +all summer. You know her mother wouldn't let him come to the house." + +"I don't believe one word of it," repeated Charlotte. + +"Mis' Allen says it's so," said Sarah. "She says Mis' Thayer has had +to stay home from evenin' meetin' on account of Ephraim--she don't +like to leave him alone, he ain't been quite so well lately--an' +Rebecca has made believe go to meetin' when she's been off with +William. Mis' Thayer went to meetin' to-night." + +"Wasn't Mr. Thayer there?" + +"Yes, he was there, but he wouldn't know what was goin' on. 'Tain't +very hard to pull the wool over Caleb Thayer's eyes." + +"I don't believe one word of it," Charlotte said, again. When she +went up-stairs to bed that whisper of her mother's seemed to sound +through and above all her own trouble. It was to her like a note of +despair and shame, quite outside her own gamut of life. She could not +believe that she heard it at all. Rebecca's face as she had always +known her came up before her. "I don't believe one word of it," she +said again to herself. + +But that whisper which had shocked her ear had already begun to be +repeated all over the village--by furtive matrons, behind their +hands, when the children had been sent out of the room; by girls, +blushing beneath each other's eyes as they whispered; by the lounging +men in the village store; it was sent like an evil strain through the +consciousness of the village, until everybody except Rebecca's own +family had heard it. + +Barnabas saw little of other people, and nobody dared repeat the +whisper to him, and they had too much mercy or too little courage to +repeat it to Caleb or Deborah. Indeed, it is doubtful if any woman in +the village, even Hannah Berry, would have ventured to face Deborah +Thayer with this rumor concerning her daughter. + +Deborah had of late felt anxious about Rebecca, who did not seem like +herself. Her face was strangely changed; all the old meaning had gone +out of it, and given place to another, which her mother could not +interpret. Sometimes Rebecca looked like a stranger to her as she +moved about the house. She said to many that Rebecca was miserable, +and was incensed that she got so little sympathy in response. Once +when Rebecca fainted in meeting, and had to be carried out, she felt +in the midst of her alarm a certain triumph. "I guess folks will see +now that I ain't been fussin' over her for nothin'," she thought. +When Rebecca revived under a sprinkle of water, out in the vestibule, +she said impatiently to the other women bending their grave, +concerned faces over her, "She's been miserable for some time. I +ain't surprised at this at all myself." + +Deborah watched over Rebecca with a fierce, pecking tenderness like a +bird. She brewed great bowls of domestic medicines from nuts and +herbs, and made her drink whether she would or not. She sent her to +bed early, and debarred her from the night air. She never had a +suspicion of the figure slipping softly as a shadow across the north +parlor and out the front door night after night. + +She never exchanged a word with Rebecca about William Berry. She +tried to persuade herself that Rebecca no longer thought much about +him; she drove from her mind the fear lest Rebecca's illness might be +due to grief at parting from him. She looked at Thomas Payne with a +speculative eye; she thought that he would make a good husband for +Rebecca; she dreamed of him, and built bridal castles for him and her +daughter, as she knitted those yards of lace at night, when Rebecca +had gone to bed in her little room off the north parlor. When Thomas +Payne went west a month after Charlotte Barnard had refused him, she +transferred her dreams to some fine stranger who should come to the +village and at once be smitten with Rebecca. She never thought it +possible that Rebecca could be persisting in her engagement to +William Berry against her express command. Her own obstinacy was +incredible to her in her daughter; she had not the slightest +suspicion of it, and Rebecca had less to guard against. + +As the fall advanced Rebecca showed less and less inclination to go +in the village society. Her mother fairly drove her out at times. +Once Rebecca, utterly overcome, sank down in a chair and wept when +her mother urged her to go to a husking-party in the neighborhood. + +"You've got to spunk up an' go, if you don't feel like it," said her +mother. "You'll feel better for it afterwards. There ain't no use in +givin' up so. I'm goin' to get you a new crimson woollen dress, an' +I'm goin' to have you go out more'n you've done lately." + +"I--don't want a new dress," returned Rebecca, with wild sobs. + +"Well, I'm goin' to get you one to-morrow," said her mother. "Now go +an' wash your face an' do up your hair, an' get ready. You can wear +your brown dress, with the cherry ribbon in your hair, to-night." + +"I don't--feel fit to, mother," moaned Rebecca, piteously. + +But Deborah would not listen to her. She made her get ready for the +husking-party, and looked at her with pride when she stood all +dressed to go, in the kitchen. + +"You look better than you've done for some time," said she, "an' that +brown dress don't look bad, either, if you have had it three winters. +I'm goin' to get you a nice new crimson woollen this winter. I've had +my mind made up to for some time." + +After Rebecca had gone and Ephraim had said his catechism and gone to +bed, Deborah sat and knitted, and planned to get the crimson dress +for Rebecca the next day. + +She looked over at Caleb, who sat dozing by the fire. "I'll go +to-morrow, if he ain't got to spend all that last interest-money for +the parish taxes an' cuttin' that wood," said she. "I dunno how much +that wood-cuttin' come to, an' he won't know to-night if I wake him +up. I can't get it through his head. But I'll buy it to-morrow if +there's money enough left." + +But Deborah was forced to wait a few weeks, since it took all the +interest-money for the parish taxes and to pay for the wood-cutting. +She had to wait until Caleb had sold some of the wood, and that took +some time, since seller and purchasers were slow-motioned. + +At last, one afternoon, she drove herself over to Bolton in the +chaise to buy the dress. She went to Bolton, because she would not go +herself to Silas Berry's store and trade with William. She could send +Caleb there for household goods, but this dress she would trust no +one but herself to purchase. + +She had planned that Rebecca should go with her, but the girl looked +so utterly wan and despairing that day that she forbore to insist +upon it. Caleb would have accompanied her, but she would not let him. +"I never did think much of men-folks standin' round in stores gawpin' +while women-folks was tradin'," said she. She would not allow Ephraim +to go, although he pleaded hard. It was quite a cold day, and she was +afraid of the sharp air for his laboring breath. + +A little after noon she set forth, all alone in the chaise, slapping +the reins energetically over the white horse's back, a thick green +veil tied over her bonnet under her chin, and the thin, sharp wedge +of face visible between the folds crimsoning in the frosty wind. + +While she was gone Rebecca sat beside the window and sewed, Caleb +shelled corn in the chimney-corner, and Ephraim made a pretence of +helping him. "You set down an' help your father shell corn while I am +gone," his mother had sternly ordered. + +Occasionally Ephraim addressed whining remonstrances to his father, +and begged to be allowed to go out-of-doors, and Caleb would quiet +him with one effectual rejoinder: "You know she won't like it if you +do, sonny. You know what she said." + +Caleb, as he shelled the corn with the pottering patience of old age +and constitutional slowness, glanced now and then at his daughter in +the window. He thought she looked very badly, and he had all the time +lately the bewildered feeling of a child who sees in a familiar face +the marks of emotions unknown to it. + +"Don't you feel as well as common to-day, Rebecca?" he asked once, +and cleared his throat. + +"I don't feel sick, as I know of, any day," replied Rebecca, shortly, +and her face reddened. + +As she sewed she looked out now and then at the wild December day, +the trees reeling in the wind, and the sky driving with the leaden +clouds. It was too cold and too windy to snow all the afternoon, but +towards night it moderated, and the wind died down. When Mrs. Thayer +came home it was snowing quite hard, and her green veil was white +when she entered the kitchen. She took it off and shook it, +sputtering moisture in the fireplace. + +"There's goin' to be a hard storm; it's lucky I went to-day," said +she. "I kept the dress under the buffalo-robe, an' that ain't hurt +any." + +Deborah waxed quite angry, when she proudly shook out the soft +gleaming crimson lengths of thibet, because Rebecca showed so little +interest in it. "You don't deserve to have a new dress; you act like +a stick of wood," she said. + +Rebecca made no reply. Presently, when she had gone out of the room +for something, Caleb said, anxiously, "I guess she don't feel quite +so well as common to-night." + +"I'm gettin' most out of patience; I dunno what ails her. I'm goin' +to have the doctor if this keeps on," returned Deborah. + +Ephraim, sucking a stick of candy brought to him from Bolton, cast a +strange glance at his mother--a glance compounded of shrewdness and +terror; but she did not see it. + +It snowed hard all night; in the morning the snow was quite deep, and +there was no appearance of clearing. As soon as the breakfast dishes +were put away, Deborah got out the crimson thibet. She had learned +the tailoring and dressmaking trade in her youth, and she always cut +and fitted the garments for the family. + +She worked assiduously; by the middle of the forenoon the dress was +ready to be tried on. Ephraim and his father were out in the barn, +she and Rebecca were alone in the house. + +She made Rebecca stand up in the middle of the kitchen floor, and she +began fitting the crimson gown to her. Rebecca stood drooping +heavily, her eyes cast down. Suddenly her mother gave a great start, +pushed the girl violently from her, and stood aloof. She did not +speak for a few minutes; the clock ticked in the dreadful silence. +Rebecca cast one glance at her mother, whose eyes seemed to light the +innermost recesses of her being to her own vision; then she would +have looked away, but her mother's voice arrested her. + +"Look at me," said Deborah. And Rebecca looked; it was like +uncovering a disfigurement or a sore. + +"What--ails you?" said her mother, in a terrible voice. + +Then Rebecca turned her head; her mother's eyes could not hold her +any longer. It was as if her very soul shrank. + +"Go out of this house," said her mother, after a minute. + +Rebecca did not make a sound. She went, bending as if there were a +wind at her back impelling her, across the kitchen in her quilted +petticoat and her crimson thibet waist, her white arms hanging bare. +She opened the door that led towards her own bedroom, and passed out. + +Presently Deborah, still standing where Rebecca had left her, heard +the front door of the house shut. After a few minutes she took the +broom from its peg in the corner, went through the icy north parlor, +past Rebecca's room, to the front door. The snow heaped on the outer +threshold had fallen in when Rebecca opened it, and there was a +quantity on the entry floor. + +Deborah opened the door again, and swept out the snow carefully; she +even swept the snow off the steps outside, but she never cast a +glance up or down the road. Then she beat the snow off the broom, and +went in and locked the door behind her. + +On her way back to the kitchen she paused at Rebecca's little +bedroom. The waist of the new gown lay on the bad. She took it out +into the kitchen, and folded it carefully with the skirt and the +pieces; then she carried it up to the garret and laid it away in a +chest. + +When Caleb and Ephraim came in from the barn they found Deborah +sitting at the window knitting a stocking. She did not look up when +they entered. + +The corn was not yet shelled, and Caleb arranged his baskets in the +chimney-corner, and fell to again. Ephraim began teasing his mother +to let him crack some nuts, but she silenced him peremptorily. "Set +down an' help your father shell that corn," said she. And Ephraim +pulled a grating chair up to his father, muttering cautiously. + +Caleb kept looking at Deborah anxiously. He glanced at the door +frequently. + +"Where's Rebecca?" he asked at last. + +"I dunno," replied Deborah. + +"Has she laid down?" + +"No, she ain't." + +"She ain't gone out in the snow, has she?" Caleb said, with deploring +anxiety. + +Deborah answered not a word. She pursed her lips and knitted. + +"She ain't, has she, mother?" + +"Keep on with your corn," said Deborah; and that was all she would +say. + +Presently she arose and prepared dinner in the same dogged silence. +Caleb, and even Ephraim, watched her furtively, with alarmed eyes. + +When Rebecca did not appear at the dinner-table Caleb did not say +anything about it, but his old face was quite pale. He ate his dinner +from the force of habit of over seventy years, during which time he +had always eaten his dinner, but he did not taste it consciously. + +He made up his mind that as soon as he got up from the table he would +go over to Barney's and consult him. After he pushed his chair away +he was slipping out shyly, but Deborah stopped him. + +"Set down an' finish that corn. I don't want it clutterin' up the +kitchen any longer," said she. + +"I thought I'd jest slip out a minute, mother." + +Deborah motioned him towards the chimney-corner and the baskets of +corn with a stern gesture, and Caleb obeyed. Ephraim, too, settled +down beside his father, and fell to shelling corn without being told. +He was quite cowed and intimidated by this strange mood of his +mother's, and involuntarily shrank closer to his father when she +passed near him. + +Caleb and Ephraim both watched Deborah with furtive terror, as she +moved about, washing and putting away the dinner-dishes and sweeping +the kitchen. + +They looked at each other, when, after the after-dinner housework was +all done, she took her shawl and hood from the peg, and drew some old +wool socks of Caleb's over her shoes. She went out without saying a +word. Ephraim waited a few minutes after the door shut behind her; +then he ran to the window. + +"She's gone to Barney's," he announced, rolling great eyes over his +shoulder at his father; and the old man also went over to the window +and watched Deborah plodding through the snow up the street. + +It was not snowing so hard now, and the clouds were breaking, but a +bitter wind was blowing from the northwest. It drove Deborah along +before it, lashing her skirts around her gaunt limbs; but she leaned +back upon it, and did not bend. + +The road was not broken out, and the snow was quite deep, but she +went along with no break in her gait. She went into Barney's yard and +knocked at his door. She set her mouth harder when she heard him +coming. + +Barney opened the door and started when he saw who was there. "Is it +you, mother?" he said, involuntarily; then his face hardened like +hers, and he waited. The mother and son confronted each other looked +more alike than ever. + +Deborah opened her mouth to speak twice before she made a sound. She +stood upright and unyielding, but her face was ghastly, and she drew +her breath in long, husky gasps. Finally she spoke, and Barney +started again at her voice. + +"I want you to go after William Berry and make him marry Rebecca," +she said. + +"Mother, what do you mean?" + +"I want you to go after William Berry and make him marry Rebecca." + +"Mother!" + +"Rebecca is gone. I turned her out of the house this mornin'. I don't +know where she is. Go and find her, and make William Berry marry +her." + +"Mother, before the Lord, I don't know what you mean!" Barney cried +out. "You didn't turn Rebecca out of the house in all this storm! +What did you turn her out for? Where is she?" + +"I don't know where she is. I turned her out because I wouldn't have +her in the house. You brought it all on us; if you hadn't acted so I +shouldn't have felt as I did about her marryin'. Now you can go an' +find her, and get William Berry an' make him marry her. I ain't got +anything more to do with it." + +Deborah turned, and went out of the yard. + +"Mother!" Barney called after her, but she kept on. He stood for a +second looking after her retreating figure, struggling sternly with +the snow-drifts, meeting the buffets of the wind with her head up; +then he went in, and put on his boots and his overcoat. + +Barney had heard not one word of the village gossip, and the +revelation in his mother's words had come to him with a great shock. +As he went up the hill to the old tavern he could hardly believe that +he had understood her rightly. Once he paused and turned, and was +half inclined to go back. He was as pure-minded as a girl, and almost +as ignorant; he could not believe that he knew what she meant. + +Barney hesitated again before the store; then he opened the great +clanging door and went in. A farmer, in a blue frock stiff with snow, +had just completed his purchases and was going out. William, who had +been waiting upon him, was quite near the door behind the counter. At +the farther end of the store could be seen the red glow of a stove +and Tommy Ray's glistening fair had. Some one else, who had shrunk +out of sight when Barney entered, was also there. + +Barney saw no one but William. He looked at him, and all his +bewilderment gathered itself into a point. He felt a sudden fierce +impulse to spring at him. + +William looked at Barney, and his faced changed in a minute. He took +up his hat, and came around the counter. "Did you want to see me?" he +said, hoarsely. + +"Come outside," said Barney. And the two men went out, and stood in +the snow before the store. + +"Where is Rebecca?" said Barney. He looked at William, and again the +savage impulse seized him. William did not shrink before it. + +[Illustration: "'Where is Rebecca?' said Barney"] + +"What do you mean?" he returned. His lips were quite stiff and white, +but he looked back at Barney. + +"Don't you know where she is?" + +"Before God I don't, Barney. What do you mean?" + +"She left home this morning. Mother turned her out." + +"Turned her out!" repeated William. + +"Come with me and find her and marry her, or I'll kill you," said +Barney, and he lashed out suddenly with his fist in William's face. + +"You won't need to, for I'll kill myself if I don't," William gasped +out. Then he turned and ran. + +"Where are you going?" Barney shouted, rushing after him, in a fury. + +"To put the horse in the cutter," William called back. And, indeed, +he was headed towards the barn. Barney followed him, and the two men +put the horse between the shafts. Once William asked, hoarsely, "Any +idea which way?" and Barney shook his head. + +"What time did she go?" + +"Some time this forenoon." + +William groaned. + +The horse was nearly harnessed when Tommy Ray came running out from +the store, and beckoned to Barney. "Rose says she see her going up +the turnpike this morning," he said, in a low voice. "She was up in +her chamber that looks over the turnpike, and she see somebody goin' +up the turnpike. She thought it looked like Rebecca, but she supposed +it must be Mis' Jim Sloane. It must have been Rebecca." + +"What time was it?" William asked, thrusting his white face between +them. The boy turned aside with a gesture of contempt and dislike. +"About half-past ten," he answered, shortly. Then he turned on his +heel and went back to the store. Rose was peering around the +half-open door with a white, shocked face. Somehow she had fathomed +the cause of the excitement. + +"We'll go up the turnpike, then," said Barney. William nodded. The +two men sprang into the cutter, and the snow flew in their faces from +the horse's hoofs as they went out the barn door. + +The old tavern stood facing the old turnpike road to Boston, but the +store and barn faced on the new road at its back, and people +generally approached the tavern by that way. + +William and Barney had to drive down the hill; then turn the corner, +and up the hill again on the old turnpike. + +There was not a house on that road for a full mile. William urged the +horse as fast as he could through the fresh snow. Both men kept a +sharp lookout at the sides of the road. The sun was out now, and the +snow was blinding white; the north wind drove a glittering spray as +sharp and stinging as diamond-dust in their faces. + +Once William cried out, with a dry sob, "My God, she'll freeze in +this wind, if she's out in it!" + +And Barney answered, "Maybe it would be better for her if she did." + +William looked at him for the first time since they started. "See +here, Barney," he said, "God knows it's not to shield myself--I'm +past that; but I've begged her all summer to be married. I've been +down on my knees to her to be married before it came to this." + +"Why wouldn't she?" + +"I don't know, oh, I don't know! The poor girl was near distracted. +Her mother forbade her to marry me, and held up her Aunt Rebecca, who +married against her parents' wishes and hung herself, before her, all +the time. Your trouble with Charlotte Barnard brought it all about. +Her mother never opposed it before. I begged her to marry me, but she +was afraid, or something, I don't know what." + +"Can't you drive faster?" said Barney. + +William had been urging the horse while he spoke, but now he shook +the whip over him again. + +Mrs. Jim Sloane's house was a long, unpainted cottage quite near the +road. The woman who lived alone there was under a kind of indefinite +ban in the village. Her husband, who had died several years before, +had been disreputable and drunken, and the mantle of his disgrace had +seemed to fall upon his wife, if indeed she was not already provided +with such a mantle of her own. Everybody spoke slightingly of Mrs. +Jim Sloane. The men laughed meaningly when they saw her pass, wrapped +in an old plaid shawl, which she wore summer and winter, and which +seemed almost like a uniform. Stories were told of her dirt and +shiftlessness, of the hens which roosted in her kitchen. Poor Mrs. +Jim Sloane, in her blue plaid shawl, tramping frequently from her +solitary house through the village, was a byword and a mocking to all +the people. + +When William and Barney came abreast of her house they saw the blue +flutter of Mrs. Jim Sloane's shawl out before, above the blue dazzle +of the snow. + +"Hullo!" she was crying out in her shrill voice, and waving her hand +to them to stop. + +William pulled the horse up short, and the woman came plunging +through the snow close to his side. + +"She's in here," she said, with a knowing smile. The faded fair hair +blew over her eyes; she pushed it back with a coquettish gesture; +there was a battered prettiness about her thin pink-and-white face, +turning blue in the sharp wind. + +"When did she get here?" asked Barney. + +"This forenoon. She fell down out here, couldn't get no farther. I +came out an' got her into the house. Didn't know but she was done to; +but I fixed her up some hot drink an' made her lay down. I s'posed +you'd be along." She smiled again. + +William jumped out of the cutter, and tied the horse to an old +fence-post. Then he and Barney followed the woman into the house. +Barney looked at the old blue plaid shawl with utter disgust and +revulsion. He had always felt a loathing for the woman, and her being +a distant relative on his father's side intensified it. + +Mrs. Sloane threw open the door, and bade them enter, as if to a +festival. "Walk right in," said she. + +There was a wild flutter of hens as they entered. Mrs. Sloane drove +them before her. "The hen-house roof fell in, an' I have to keep 'em +in here," she said, and shooed them and shook her shawl at them, +until they alighted all croaking with terror upon the bed in the +corner. + +Then she looked inquiringly around the room. "Why," she cried, "she's +gone; she was settin' here in this rockin'-chair when I went out. She +must have run when she see you comin'!" + +Mrs. Sloane hustled through a door, the tattered fringes of her shawl +flying, and then her voice, shrilly expostulating, was heard in the +next room. + +The two men waited, standing side by side near the door in a shamed +silence. They did not look at each other. + +Presently Mrs. Sloane returned without her shawl. Her old cotton gown +showed tattered and patched, and there were glimpses of her sharp +white elbows at the sleeves. "She won't come out a step," she +announced. "I can't make her. She's takin' on terribly." + +William made a stride forward. "I'll go in and see her," he said, +hoarsely; but Mrs. Jim Sloane stood suddenly in his way, her slender +back against the door. + +"No, you ain't goin' in," said she, "I told her I wouldn't let you go +in." + +William looked at her. + +"She's dreadful set against either one of you comin' in, an' I told +her you shouldn't," she said, firmly. She smoothed her wild locks +down tightly over her ears as she spoke. All the coquettish look was +gone. + +William turned around, and looked helplessly at Barney, and Barney +looked back at him. Then Barney put on his hat, and shrugged himself +more closely into his great-coat. + +"I'll go and get the minister," he said. + +Mrs. Sloane thrust her chin out alertly. "Goin' to get her married +right off?" she asked, with a confidential smile. + +Barney ignored her. "I guess it's the best way to do," he said, +sternly, to William; and William nodded. + +"Well, I guess 'tis the best way," Mrs. Sloane said, with cheerful +assent. "I don't b'lieve you could hire her to come out of that room +an' go to the minister's, nohow. She's terrible upset, poor thing." + +As Barney went out of the door he cast a look full of involuntary +suspicion back at William, and hesitated a second on the threshold. +Mrs. Sloane intercepted the look. "I'll look out he don't run away +while you're gone," she said; then she laughed. + +William's white face flamed up suddenly, but he made no reply. When +Barney had gone he drew a chair up close to the hearth, and sat +there, bent over, with his elbows on his knees. Mrs. Sloane sat down +on the foot of the bed, close to the door of the other room, as if +she were mounting guard over it. She kept looking at William, and +smiling, and opening her mouth to speak, then checking herself. + +"It's a pretty cold day," she said, finally. + +William grunted assent without looking up. Then he motioned with his +shoulder towards the door of the other room. "Ain't it cold in +there?" he half whispered. + +"I rolled her all up in my shawl; I guess she won't ketch cold; it's +thick," responded the woman, effusively, and William said no more. He +sat with his chin in his hands and his eyes fixed absently. The fire +was smoking over a low, red glow of coals, the chimney-place yawned +black before him, the hearth was all strewn with pots and kettles, +and the shelf above it was piled high with a vague household litter. +It had leaked around the chimney, and there was a great discolored +blotch on the wall above the shelf, and the ceiling. Two or three +hens came pecking around the kettles at William's feet. + +To this young man, brought up in the extreme thrift and neatness of a +typical New England household, this strange untidiness, as he viewed +it through his strained mental state, seemed to have a deeper +significance, and reveal the very shame and squalor of the soul +itself, and its own existence and thoughts, by material images. + +He might from his own sensations, as he sat there, have been actually +translated into a veritable hell, from the utter strangeness of the +atmosphere which his thoughts seemed to gasp in. William had never +come fully into the atmosphere of his own sin before, but now he had, +and somehow the untidy pots and kettles on the hearth made it more +real. He was conscious as he sat there of very little pity for the +girl in the other room, of very little love for her, and also of very +little love or pity for himself; he felt nothing but a kind of +horror. He saw suddenly the alien side of life, and the alien side of +his own self, which he would always have kept faced out towards +space, away from all eyes, like the other side of the moon, and that +was for the time all he could grasp. + +Once or twice Mrs. Sloane volunteered a remark, but he scarcely +responded, and once he heard absently her voice and Rebecca's in the +other room. Otherwise he sat in utter silence, except for the low +chuckle of the hens and the taps of their beaks against the iron +pots, until Barney came with the minister and the minister's wife. + +Barney had taken the minister aside, and asked him, stammeringly, if +he thought his wife would come. He could not bear the thought of the +Sloane woman's being a witness at his sister's wedding. The minister +and his wife were both very young, and had not lived long in +Pembroke. They looked much alike: the minister's small, pale, peaked +face peered with anxious solicitude between the folds of the great +green scarf which he tied over his cap, and his wife looked like him +out of her great wadded green silk hood, when they got into the +sleigh with Barney. + +The minister had had a whispered conference with his wife, and now +she never once let her eyes rest on either of the two men as they +slid swiftly along over the new snow. Her heart beat loudly in her +ears, her little thin hands were cold in her great muff. She had +married very young, out of a godly New England minister's home. She +had never known anything like this before, and a sort of general +shame of femininity seemed to be upon her. + +When she followed her husband into Mrs. Sloane's house she felt +herself as burdened with shame--as if she stood in Rebecca's place. +Her little face, all blue with the sharp cold, shrank, shocked and +sober, into the depths of her great hood. She stood behind her +husband, her narrow girlish shoulders bending under her thick +mantilla, and never looked at the face of anybody in the room. + +She did not see William at all. He stood up before them as they +entered; they all nodded gravely. Nobody spoke but Mrs. Sloane, +vibrating nervously in the midst of her clamorous hens, and Barney +silenced her. + +"We'll go right in," he said, in a stern, peremptory tone; then he +turned to William. "Are you ready?" he asked. + +William nodded, with his eyes cast down. The party made a motion +towards the other room, but Mrs. Sloane unexpectedly stood before the +door. + +"I told her there shouldn't nobody come in," said she, "an' I ain't +goin' to have you all bustin' in on her without she knows it. She's +terrible upset. You wait a minute." + +Mrs. Sloane's blue eyes glared defiantly at the company. The +minister's wife bent her hooded head lower. She had heard about Mrs. +Sloane, and felt as if she were confronted by a woman from Revelation +and there was a flash of scarlet in the room. + +"Go in and tell her we are coming," said Barney. And Mrs. Sloane +slipped out of the room cautiously, opening the door only a little +way. Her voice was heard, and suddenly Rebecca's rang out shrill in +response, although they could not distinguish the words. Mrs. Sloane +looked out. "She says she won't be married," she whispered. + +"You let me see her," said Barney, and he took a stride forward, but +Mrs. Sloane held the door against him. + +"You can't," she whispered again. "I'll talk to her some more. I can +talk her over, if anybody can." + +Barney fell back, and again the door was shut and the voices were +heard. This time Rebecca's arose into a wail, and they heard her cry +out, "I won't, I won't! Go away, and stop talking to me! I won't! Go +away!" + +William turned around, and hid his face against the corner of the +mantel-shelf. Barney went up and clapped him roughly on the shoulder. +"Can't you go in there and make her listen to reason?" he said. + +But just then Mrs. Sloane opened the door again. "You can walk right +in now," she announced, smiling, her thin mouth sending the lines of +her whole face into smirking upward curves. + +The whole company edged forward solemnly. Mrs. Sloane was following, +but Barney stood in her way. "I guess you'd better not come in," he +said, abruptly. + +Mrs. Sloane's face flushed a burning red. "I guess," she began, in a +loud voice, but Barney shut the door in her face. She ran noisily, +stamping her feet like an angry child, to the fireplace, caught up a +heavy kettle, and threw it down on the hearth. The hens flew up with +a great clamor and whir of wings; Mrs. Sloane's shrill, mocking laugh +arose above it. She began talking in a high-pitched voice, flinging +out vituperations which would seem to patter against the closed door +like bullets. Suddenly she stopped, as if her ire had failed her, and +listened intently to a low murmur from the other room. She nodded her +head when it ceased. + +The door opened soon, and all except Rebecca came out. They stood +consulting together in low voices, and Mrs. Sloane listened. They +were deciding where to take Rebecca. + +All at once Mrs. Sloane spoke. Her voice was still high-pitched with +anger. + +"If you want to know where to take her to, I can tell you," said she. +"I'd keep her here an' welcome, but I s'pose you think I ain't good +enough, you're all such mighty particular folks, an' ain't never had +no disgrace in your own families. William Berry can't take her to his +home to-night, for his mother wouldn't leave a whole skin on either +of 'em. Her own mother has turned her out, an' Barney can't take her +in. She's got to go somewhere where there's a woman; she's terrible +upset. There ain't no other way but for you an' Mis' Barnes to take +her home to-night, an' keep her till William gets a place fixed to +put her in." Mrs. Sloane turned to the minister and his wife, +regarding them with a mixture of defiance, sarcasm, and appeal. + +They looked at each other hesitatingly. The minister's wife paled +within her hood, and her eyes reddened with tears. + +"I shouldn't s'pose you'd need any time to think on it, such good +folks as you be," said Mrs. Sloane. "There ain't no other way. She's +got to be where there's a woman." + +Mrs. Barnes turned her head towards her husband. "She can come, if +you think she ought to," she said, in a trembling voice. + +The sun was setting when the party started. William led Rebecca out +through the kitchen--a muffled, hesitating figure, whose very +identity seemed to be lost, for she wore Mrs. Sloane's blue plaid +shawl pinned closely over her head and face--and lifted her into his +cutter with the minister and his wife. Then he and Barney walked +along, plodding through the deep snow behind the cutter. The sun was +setting, and it was bitterly cold; the snow creaked and the trees +swung with a stiff rattle of bare limbs in the wind. + +The two men never spoke to each other. The minister drove slowly, and +they could always see Mrs. Jim Sloane's blue plaid shawl ahead. + +When they reached the Caleb Thayer house, Barney stopped and William +followed on alone after the sleigh. + +Barney turned into the yard, and his father was standing in the barn +door, looking out. + +"Tell mother she's married," Barney sang out, hoarsely. Then he went +back to the road, and home to his own house. + + + +Chapter XI + + +Barney went to see Rebecca the next day, but the minister's wife came +to the door and would not admit him. She puckered her lips painfully, +and a blush shot over her face and little thin throat as she stood +there before him. "I guess you had better not come in," said she, +nervously. "I guess you had better wait until Mrs. Berry gets settled +in her house. Mr. Berry is going to hire the old Bennett place. I +guess it would be pleasanter." + +Barney turned away, blushing also as he stammered an assent. Always +keenly alive to the shame of the matter, it seemed as if his sense of +it were for the moment intensified. The minister's wife's whole +nature seemed turned into a broadside of mirrors towards Rebecca's +shame and misery, and it was as if the reflection was multiplied in +Barney as he looked at her. + +Still, he could not take the shame to his own nature as she could, +being a woman. He looked back furtively at the house as he went down +the road, thinking he might catch a glimpse of poor Rebecca at the +window. + +But Rebecca kept herself well hid. After William had hired the old +Bennet house and established her there, she lived with curtains down +and doors bolted. Never a neighbor saw her face at door or window, +although all the women who lived near did their housework with eyes +that way. She would not go to the door if anybody knocked. The caller +would hear her scurrying away. Nobody could gain admittance if +William were not at home. + +Barney went to the door once, and her voice sounded unexpectedly loud +and piteously shrill in response to his knock. + +"You can't come in! go away!" cried Rebecca. + +"I don't want to say anything hard to you," said Barney. + +"Go away, go away!" repeated Rebecca, and then he heard her sob. + +"Don't cry," pleaded Barney, futilely, through the door. But he heard +his sister's retreating steps and her sobs dying away in the +distance. + +He went away, and did not try to see her again. + +Rose went to see Rebecca, stealing out of a back door and scudding +across snowy fields lest her mother should espy her and stop her. But +Rebecca had not come to the door, although Rose had stood there a +long time in a bitter wind. + +"She wouldn't let me in," she whispered to her brother in the store, +when she returned. She was friendly to him in a shamefaced, evasive +sort of way, and she alone of his family. His father and mother +scarcely noticed him. + +"Much as ever as she'll let me in, poor girl," responded William, +looking miserably aside from his sister's eyes and weighing out some +meal. + +"She wouldn't let mother in if she went there," said Rose. She felt a +little piqued at Rebecca's refusing her admittance. It was as if all +her pity and generous sympathy had been thrust back upon her, and her +pride in it swamped. + +"There's no danger of her going there," William returned, bitterly. + +And there was not. Hannah Berry would have set herself up in a +pillory as soon as she would have visited her son's wife. She +scarcely went into a neighbor's lest she should hear some allusion to +it. + +Rebecca's father often walked past her house with furtive, wistful +eyes towards the windows. Once or twice when nobody was looking he +knocked timidly, but he never got any response. He always took a +circuitous route home, that his wife might not know where he had +been. Deborah never spoke of Rebecca; neither Caleb nor Ephraim dared +mention her name in her hearing. + +Although Deborah never asked a question, and although people were shy +of alluding to Rebecca, she yet seemed to know, in some occult and +instinctive fashion, all about her. + +When a funeral procession passed the Thayer house one afternoon +Deborah knew quite well whose little coffin was in the hearse, +although she could scarcely have said that anybody had told her. + +Caleb came to her after dinner, with a strange, defiant air. "I want +a clean dicky, mother; I'm agoin'," said he. And Deborah got out the +old man's Sunday clothes for him without a word. She even brushed his +hair with hard, careful strokes, and helped him on with his +great-coat; but she never said a word about Rebecca and her baby's +funeral. + +"They had some white posies on it," Caleb volunteered, tremblingly, +when he got home. + +Deborah made no reply. + +"There was quite a lot there," added Caleb. + +"Go an' bring me in some kindlin' wood," said Deborah. + +Ephraim stood by, staring alternately at his father and mother. He +had watched the funeral procession pass with furtive interest. + +"It won't hurt you none to make a few lamp-lighters," said his +mother. "You set right down here, an' I'll get you some paper." + +Ephraim clapped his hand to his side, and rolled his eyes agonizingly +towards his mother, but she took no notice. She got some paper out of +the cupboard, and Ephraim sat down and began quirling it into long +spirals with a wretched sulky air. + +Since his sister's marriage Ephraim had had a sterner experience than +had ever fallen to his lot before. His mother redoubled her +discipline over him. It was as if she had resolved, since all her +vigorous training had failed in the case of his sister, that she +would intensify it to such purpose that it should not fail with him. + +So strait and narrow was the path in which Ephraim was forced to +tread those wintry days, so bound and fettered was he by precept and +admonition, that it seemed as if his very soul could do no more than +shuffle along where his mother pointed. + +A scanty and simple diet had Ephraim, and it seemed to him not so +much from a solicitude for his health as from a desire to mortify his +flesh for the good of his spirit. Ephraim obeyed perforce; he was +sincerely afraid of his mother, but he had within him a dogged and +growing resentment against those attempts to improve his spirit. + +Not a bit of cake was he allowed to taste. When the door of a certain +closet in which pound-cake for possible guests was always kept in a +jar, and had been ever since Ephraim could remember, was opened, the +boy's eyes would fairly glare with desire. "Jest gimme a little +scrap, mother," he would whine. He had formerly, on rare occasions, +been allowed a small modicum of cake, but now his mother was +unyielding. He got not a crumb; he could only sniff hungrily at the +rich, spicy, and fruity aroma which came forth from the closet, and +swallow at it vainly and unsatisfactorily with straining palate. + +Ephraim was not allowed a soft-stoned plum from a piece of mince-pie; +the pie had always been tabooed. He was not even allowed to pick over +the plums for the pies, unless under the steady watch of his mother's +eyes. Once she seemed to see him approach a plum to his mouth when +her back was towards him. + +"What are you doing, Ephraim?" she said, and her voice sounded to the +boy like one from the Old Testament. He put the plum promptly into +the bowl instead of his mouth. + +"I ain't doin' nothin', mother," said he; but his eyes rolled +alarmedly after his mother as she went across the kitchen. That +frightened Ephraim. He was a practical boy and not easily imposed +upon, but it really seemed to him that his mother had seen him, after +some occult and uncanny fashion, from the back of her head. A vague +and preposterous fancy actually passed through his bewildered boyish +brain that the little, tightly twisted knob of hair on the back of a +feminine head might have some strange visual power of its own. + +He never dared taste another plum, even if the knob of hair directly +faced him. + +Every day Ephraim had a double task to learn in his catechism, for +Deborah held that no labor, however arduous, which savored of the +Word and the Spirit could work him bodily ill. If Ephraim had been +enterprising and daring enough, he would have fairly cursed the +Westminster divines, as he sat hour after hour, crooking his boyish +back painfully over their consolidated wisdom, driving the letter of +their dogmas into his boyish brain, while the sense of them utterly +escaped him. + +There was one whole day during which Ephraim toiled, laboriously +conning over the majestic sentences in loud whispers, and received +thereby only a vague impression and maudlin hope that he himself +might be one of the elect of which they treated, because he was so +strenuously deprived of plums in this life, and might therefore +reasonably expect his share of them in the life to come. + +That day poor Ephraim--glancing between whiles at some boys out +coasting over in a field, down a fine icy slope, hearing now and then +their shouts of glee--had a certain sense of superiority and +complacency along with the piteous and wistful longing which always +abode in his heart. + +"Maybe," thought Ephraim, half unconsciously, not framing the thought +in words to his mind--"maybe if I am a good boy, and don't have any +plums, nor go out coasting like them, I shall go to heaven, and maybe +they won't." Ephraim's poor purple face at the window-pane took on a +strange, serious expression as he evolved his childish tenet of +theology. His mother came in from another room. "Have you got that +learned?" said she, and Ephraim bent over his task again. + +Ephraim had not been quite as well as usual this winter, and his +mother had been more than usually anxious about him. She called the +doctor in finally, and followed him out into the cold entry when he +left. "He's worse than he has been, ain't he?" she said, abruptly. + +The doctor hesitated. He was an old man with a moderate manner. He +buttoned his old great-coat, redolent of drugs, closer, his breath +steamed out in the frosty entry. "I guess you had better be a little +careful about getting him excited," he said at last, evasively. "You +had better get along as easy as you can with him." The doctor's +manner implied more than his words; he had his own opinion of Deborah +Thayer's sternness of rule, and he had sympathy with Rebecca. + +Deborah seemed to have an intuition of it, for she looked at him, and +raised her voice after a manner which would have become the Deborah +of the scriptures. + +"What would you have me do?" she demanded. "Would you have me let him +have his own way if it were for the injury of his soul?" It was +curious that Deborah, as she spoke, seemed to look only at the +spiritual side of the matter. The idea that her discipline was +actually necessary for her son's bodily weal did not occur to her, +and she did not urge it as an argument. + +"I guess you had better be a little careful and get along as easy as +you can," repeated the doctor, opening the door. + +"That ain't all that's to be thought of," said Deborah, with stern +and tragic emphasis, as the doctor went out. + +"What did the doctor say, mother?" Ephraim inquired, when she went +into the room again. He looked half scared, half important, as he sat +in the great rocking-chair by the fire. He breathed short, and his +words were disconnected as he spoke. + +His mother, for answer, took the catechism from the shelf, and +extended it towards him with a decisive thrust of her arm. + +"It is time you studied some more," said she. + +Ephraim jerked himself away from the proffered book. "I don't want to +study any more now, mother," he whined. + +"Take it," said Deborah. + +Caleb was paring apples for pies on the other side of the hearth. +Ephraim looked across at him desperately. "I want to play holly-gull +with father," he said. + +"Ephraim!" + +"Can't I play holly-gull with father jest a little while?" + +"You take this book and study your lesson," said Deborah, between +nearly closed lips. + +Ephraim began to weep; he took the book with a vicious snatch and an +angry sob. "Won't never let me do anythin' I want to," he cried, +convulsively. + +"Not another word," said Deborah. Ephraim bent over his catechism +with half-suppressed sobs. He dared not weep aloud. Deborah went into +the pantry with the medicine-bottle which the doctor had left; she +wanted a spoon. Caleb caught hold of her dress as she was passing +him. + +"What is it?" said she. + +"Look here, jest a minute, mother." + +"I can't stop, father; Ephraim has got to have his medicine." + +"Jest look here a minute, mother." + +Deborah bent her head impatiently, and Caleb whispered. "No, he +can't; I told him he couldn't," she said aloud, and passed on into +the pantry. + +Caleb looked over at Ephraim with piteous and helpless sympathy. +"Never you mind, sonny," he said, cautiously. + +"She--makes--" began Ephraim with a responsive plaint; but his mother +came out of the pantry, and he stopped short. Caleb dropped a pared +apple noisily into the pan. + +"You'll dent that pan, father, if you fling the apples in that way," +said Deborah. She had a thick silver spoon, and she measured out a +dose of the medicine for Ephraim. She approached him, extending the +spoon carefully. "Open your mouth," commanded she. + +"Oh, mother, I don't want to take it!" + +"Open your mouth!" + +"Oh, mother--I don't--want to--ta-ke it!" + +"Now, sonny, I wouldn't mind takin' of it. It's real good medicine +that the doctor left you, an' father's payin' consid'able for it. The +doctor thinks it's goin' to make you well," said Caleb, who was +looking on anxiously. + +"Open your mouth and _take_ it!" said Deborah, sternly. She presented +the spoon at Ephraim as if it were a bayonet and there were death at +the point. + +"Oh, mother," whimpered Ephraim. + +"Mebbe mother will let you have a little taste of lasses arter it, if +you take it real good," ventured Caleb. + +"No, he won't have any lasses after it," said Deborah. "I'm a-tendin' +to him, father. Now, Ephraim, you take this medicine this minute, or +I shall give you somethin' worse than medicine. Open your mouth!" And +Ephraim opened his mouth as if his mother's will were a veritable +wedge between his teeth, swallowed the medicine with a miserable +gulp, and made a grotesque face of wrath and disgust. Caleb, +watching, swallowed and grimaced at the same instant that his son +did. There were tears in his old eyes as he took up another apple to +pare. + +Deborah set the bottle on the shelf and laid the spoon beside it. +"You've got to take this every hour for a spell," said she, "an' I +ain't goin' to have any such work, if you be sick; you can make up +your mind to it." + +And make up his mind to this unwelcome dose Ephraim did. Once an hour +his mother stood over him with the spoon, and the fierce odor of the +medicine came to his nostrils; he screwed his eyes tight, opened his +mouth, and swallowed without a word. There were limits to his +mother's patience which Ephraim dared not pass. He had only vague +ideas of what might happen if he did, but he preferred to be on the +safe side. So he took the medicine, and did not lift his voice +against it, although he had his thoughts. + +It did seem as if the medicine benefited him. He breathed more easily +after a while, and his color was more natural. Deborah felt +encouraged; she even went down upon her stiff knees after her family +were in bed, and thanked the Lord from the depths of her sorely +chastened but proud heart. She did not foresee what was to come of +it; for that very night Ephraim, induced thereto by the salutary +effect of the medicine, which removed somewhat the restriction of his +laboring heart upon his boyish spirits, perpetrated the crowning act +of revolt and rebellion of his short life. + +The moon was bright that night. The snow was frozen hard. The long +hills where the boys coasted looked like slopes of silver. Ephraim +had to go to bed at eight. He lay, well propped up on pillows, in his +little bedroom, and he could hear the shouts of the coasting boys. +Now that he could breathe more easily the superiority of his enforced +deprivation of such joys no longer comforted him as much as it had +done. His curtain was up, and the moonlight lay on his bed. The +mystic influence of that strange white orb which moves the soul of +the lover to dream of love and yearnings after it, which saddens with +sweet wounds the soul who has lost it forever, which increases the +terrible freedom of the maniac, and perhaps moves the tides, +apparently increased the longing in the heart of one poor boy for all +the innocent hilarity of his youth which he had missed. + +Ephraim lay there in the moonlight, and longed as he had never longed +before to go forth and run and play and halloo, to career down those +wonderful shining slants of snow, to be free and equal with those +other boys, whose hearts told off their healthy lives after the +Creator's plan. + +The clock in the kitchen struck nine, then ten. Caleb and Deborah +went to bed, and Ephraim could hear his father's snores and his +mother's heavy breathing from a distant room. Ephraim could not go to +sleep. He lay there and longed for the frosty night air, the sled, +and the swift flight down the white hill as never lover longed for +his mistress. + +At half-past ten o'clock Ephraim rose up. He dressed himself in the +moonlight--all except his shoes; those he carried in his hand--and +stole out in his stocking-feet to the entryway, where his warm coat +and cap, which he so seldom wore, hung. Ephraim pulled the cap over +his ears, put on the coat, cautiously unbolted the door, and stepped +forth like a captive from prison. + +He sat down on the doorstep and put on his shoes, tying them with +trembling, fumbling fingers. He expected every minute to hear his +mother's voice. + +Then he ran down the yard to the wood shed. It was so intensely cold +that the snow did not yield to his tread, but gave out quick sibilant +sounds. It seemed to him like a whispering multitude called up by his +footsteps, and as if his mother must hear. + +He knew where Barney's old sled hung in the woodshed, and the +woodshed door was unlocked. + +Presently a boyish figure fled swiftly out of the Thayer yard with a +bobbing sled in his wake. He expected every minute to hear the door +or window open; but he cleared the yard and dashed up the road, and +nobody arrested him. + +[Illustration: "A boyish figure fled swiftly out of the Thayer yard"] + +Ephraim knew well the way to the coasting-hill, which was considered +the best in the village, although he had never coasted there himself, +except twice or thrice, surreptitiously, on another boy's sled, and +not once this winter. He heard no more shouts; the frosty air was +very still. He thought to himself that the other boys had gone home, +but he did not care. + +However, when he reached the top of the hill there was another boy +with his sled. He had been all ready to coast down, but had seen +Ephraim coming, and waited. + +"Hullo!" he called. + +"Hullo!" returned Ephraim, panting. + +Then the boy stared. "It ain't you, Ephraim Thayer!" he demanded. + +"Why ain't it me?" returned Ephraim, with a manful air, swaggering +back his shoulders at the other boy, who was Ezra Ray. + +"Why, I didn't know your mother ever let you out," said Ezra, in a +bewildered fashion. In fact, the vision of Ephraim Thayer out with a +sled, coasting, at eleven o'clock at night, was startling. Ezra +remembered dazedly how he had heard his mother say that very +afternoon that Ephraim was worse, that the doctor had been there last +Saturday, and she didn't believe he would live long. He looked at +Ephraim standing there in the moonlight almost as if he were a +spirit. + +"She ain't let me for some time; I've been sick," admitted Ephraim, +yet with defiance. + +"I heard you was awful sick," said Ezra. + +"I was; but the doctor give me some medicine that cured me." + +Ephraim placed his sled in position and got on stiffly. The other boy +still watched. "She know you're out to-night?" he inquired, abruptly. + +Ephraim looked up at him. "S'pose you think you'll go an' tell her, +if she don't," said he. + +"No, I won't, honest." + +"Hope to die if you do?" + +"Yes." + +"Well, then, I run out of the side door." + +"Both on 'em asleep?" + +Ephraim nodded. + +Ezra Ray whistled. "You'll get a whippin' when your mother finds it +out." + +"No, I sha'n't. Mother can't whip me, because the doctor says it +ain't good for me. You goin' down?" + +"Can't go down but once. I've got to go home, or mother 'll give it +to me." + +"Does she ever whip you?" + +"Sometimes." + +"Mine don't," said Ephraim, and he felt a superiority over Ezra Ray. +He thought, too, that his sled was a better one. It was not painted, +nor was it as new as Ezra's, but it had a reputation. Barney had won +many coasting laurels with it in his boyhood, and his little brother, +who had never used it himself, had always looked upon it with +unbounded faith and admiration. + +He gathered up his sled-rope, spurred himself into a start with his +heels, and went swiftly down the long hill, gathering speed as he +went. Poor Ephraim had an instinct for steering; he did not swerve +from the track. The frosty wind smote his face, his breath nearly +failed him, but half-way down he gave a triumphant whoop. When he +reached the foot of the hill he had barely wind enough to get off his +sled and drag it to one side, for Ezra Ray was coming down. + +Ezra did not slide as far as Ephraim had done. Ephraim watched +anxiously lest he should. "That sled of yours ain't no good," he +panted, when Ezra had stopped several yards from where he stood. + +"Guess it ain't quite so fast as yours," admitted Ezra. "That's your +brother's, ain't it?" + +"Yes." + +"Well, that sled can't be beat in town. Mine's 'bout as good as any, +'cept that. I've always heard my brother say that your brother's sled +was the best one he ever see." + +Ephraim stood looking at his brother's old battered but distinguished +sled as if it had been a blood-horse. "Guess it can't be beat," he +chuckled. + +"No sir, it can't," said Ezra. He started off past Ephraim down the +road, with his sled trailing at his heels. + +"Hullo!" called Ephraim, "ain't you goin' up again?" + +"Can't, got to go home." + +"Less try it jest once more, an' see if you can't go further." + +"No, I can't, nohow. Mother won't like it as 'tis." + +"Whip you?" + +"'Spect so; don't mind it if she does." Ezra brought a great show of +courage to balance the other's immunity from danger. "Don't mind +nothin' 'bout a little whippin'," he added, with a brave and +contemptuous air. He whistled as he went on. + +Ephraim stood watching him. He had enough brave blood in his veins to +feel that this contempt of a whipping was a greater thing than not +being whipped. He felt an envious admiration of Ezra Ray, but that +did not prevent his calling after him: + +"Ezra!" + +"What say?" + +"You ain't goin' to tell my mother?" + +"Didn't I say I wasn't? I don't tell fibs. Hope to die if I do." + +Ezra's brave whistle, as cheerfully defiant of his mother's +prospective wrath as the note of a bugler advancing to the charge, +died away in the distance. For Ephraim now began the one unrestrained +hilarity of his whole life. All by himself in the white moonlight and +the keen night air he climbed the long hill, and slid down over and +over. He ignored his feeble and laboring breath of life. He trod +upon, he outspeeded all infirmities of the flesh in his wild triumph +of the spirit. He shouted and hallooed as he shot down the hill. His +mother could not have recognized his voice had she heard it, for it +was the first time that the boy had ever given full cry to the +natural voice of youth and his heart. A few stolen races, and sorties +up apple-trees, a few stolen slides had poor Ephraim Thayer had; they +had been snatched in odd minutes, at the imminent danger of +discovery; but now he had the wide night before him; he had broken +over all his trammels, and he was free. + +Up and down the hill went Ephraim Thayer, having the one playtime of +his life, speeding on his brother's famous sled against bondage and +deprivation and death. It was after midnight when he went home; all +the village lights were out; the white road stretched before him, as +still and deserted as a road through solitude itself. Ephraim had +never been out-of-doors so late before, he had never been so alone in +his life, but he was not afraid. He was not afraid of anything in the +lonely night, and he was not afraid of his mother at home. He thought +to himself exultantly that Ezra Ray had been no more courageous than +he, although, to be sure, he had not a whipping to fear like Ezra. +His heart was full of joyful triumph that he was not wholly guilty, +since it was the outcome of an innocent desire. + +As he walked along he tipped up his face and stared with his stupid +boyish eyes at the stars paling in the full moonlight, and the great +moon herself overriding the clouds and the stars. It made him think +of the catechism and the Commandments, and then a little pang of +terror shot through him, but even that did not daunt him. He did not +look up at the stars again, but bent his head and trudged on, with +the sled-rope pulling at his weak chest. + +When he reached his own yard he stepped as carefully as he could; +still he was not afraid. He put the sled back in the shed; then he +stole into the house. He took off his shoes in the entry, and got +safely into his own room. He was in his night-gown and all ready for +bed when another daring thought struck him. + +Ephraim padded softly on his bare feet out through the kitchen to the +pantry. Every third step or so he stopped and listened to the heavy +double breathing from the bedroom beyond. So long as that continued +he was safe. He listened, and then slid on a pace or two as noiseless +as a shadow in the moonlight. + +Ephraim knew well where the mince-pies were kept. There was a long +row of them covered with towels on an upper shelf. + +Ephraim hoisted himself painfully upon a meal-bucket, and clawed a +pie over the edge of the shelf. He could scarcely reach, and there +was quite a loud grating noise. He stood trembling on the bucket and +listened, but the double breathing continued. Deborah had been +unusually tired that night; she had gone to bed earlier, and slept +more soundly. + +Ephraim broke a great jagged half from the mince-pie; then replaced +it with another grating slide. Again he listened, but his mother had +not been awakened. + +Ephraim crept back to his bedroom. There he sat on the edge of his +bed and devoured his pie. The rich spicy compound and the fat plums +melted on his tongue, and the savor thereof delighted his very soul. +Then Ephraim got into bed and pulled the quilts over him. For the +first and only occasion in his life he had had a good time. + +The next morning Ephraim felt very ill, but he kept it from his +mother. He took his medicine of his own accord several times, and +turned his head from her, that she might not notice his laboring +breath. + +In the middle of the forenoon Deborah went out. She had to drive over +to Bolton to get some sugar and tea. She would not buy anything now +at Berry's store. Caleb had gone down to the lot to cut a little +wood; he had harnessed the horse for her before he went. It was a +cold day, and she wrapped herself up well in two shawls and a thick +veil over her hood. When she was all ready she gave Ephraim his +parting instructions, rearing over him with stern gestures, like a +veiled justice. + +"Now," said she, "you listen to what I tell you. When your father +comes in you tell him I want him to set right down and finish parin' +them apples. They are spoilin', an' I'm goin' to make 'em into sauce. +You tell him to set right down and go to work on 'em; he can get 'em +done by the time I get home, an' I can make the sauce this afternoon. +You set here an' take your medicine an' learn your catechism. You can +study over the Commandments, too; you ain't got 'em any too well. Do +you hear?" + +"Yes, ma'am," said Ephraim. He looked away from his mother as he +spoke, and his panting breath clouded the clear space on the frosty +window-pane. He sat beside the window in the rocking-chair. + +"Mind you tell your father about them apples," repeated his mother as +she went out. + +"Yes, ma'am," said Ephraim. He watched his mother drive out of the +yard, guiding the horse carefully through the frozen ridges of the +drive. Presently he took another spoonful of his medicine. He felt a +little easier, but still very ill. His father came a few minutes +after his mother had gone. He heard him stamping in through the back +door; then his frost-reddened old face looked in on Ephraim. + +"Mother gone?" said he. + +"She's jest gone," replied Ephraim. His father came in. He looked at +the boy with a childish and anxious sweetness. "Don't you feel quite +as well as you did?" he inquired. + +"Dunno as I do." + +"Took your medicine reg'lar?" + +Ephraim nodded. + +"I guess it's good medicine," said Caleb; "it come real high; I guess +the doctor thought consid'ble of it. I'd take it reg'lar if I was +you. I thought you looked as if you didn't feel quite so well as +common when I come in." + +Caleb took off his boots and tended the fire. Ephraim began to feel a +little better; his heart did not beat quite so laboriously. + +He did not say a word to his father about paring the apples. Caleb +went into the pantry and came back eating a slice of mince-pie. + +"I found there was a pie cut, and I thought mother wouldn't mind if I +took a leetle piece," he remarked, apologetically. He would never +have dared take the pie without permission had his wife been at home. +"She ain't goin' to be home till arter dinner-time, an' I began to +feel kinder gone," added Caleb. He stood by the fire, and munched the +pie with a relish slightly lessened by remorse. "Don't you want +nothin'" he asked of Ephraim. "Mebbe a little piece of pie wouldn't +hurt you none." + +Caleb's ideas of hygienic food were primitive. He believed, as +innocently as if he had lived in Eden before the Prohibition, that +all food which he liked was good for him, and he applied his theory +to all mankind. He had deferred to Deborah's imperious will, but he +had never been able to understand why she would not allow Ephraim to +eat mince-pie or anything else which his soul loved and craved. + +"No, guess I don't," Ephraim replied. He gazed moodily out of the +window. "Father," said he, suddenly. + +"What say, sonny?" + +"I eat some of that pie last night." + +"Mother give it to you?" + +"No; I clim up on the meal-bucket, an' got it in the night." + +"You might have fell, an' then I dunno what mother'd ha' said to +you," said Caleb. + +"An' I did somethin' else." + +"What else did you do?" + +"I went out a-coastin' after you an' her was asleep." + +"You didn't, now?" + +"Yes, I did." + +"An' we didn't neither on us wake up?" + +"You was a-snorin' the whole time." + +"I don't s'pose you'd oughter have done it, Ephraim," said Caleb, and +he tried to make his tone severe. + +"I never went a-coastin' in my whole life before," said Ephraim; "it +ain't fair." + +"I dunno what mother 'd say if she was to find out about it," said +Caleb, and he shook his head. + +"Ezra Ray was the only one that was out there, an' he said he +wouldn't tell." + +"Well, mebbe he won't, mebbe he won't. I guess you most hadn't +oughter gone unbeknownst to your mother, sonny." + +"Barney's sled jest beat Ezra's all holler." + +"It did, hey? That allers was a good sled," returned the old man, +chuckling. + +Caleb went into the pantry again, and returned rattling a handful of +corn. "Want a game of holly-gull?" he asked. "I've got a leetle time +to spare now while mother's gone." + +"Guess so," replied Ephraim. He dragged his chair forward to the +hearth; he and his father sat opposite each other and played the old +childish game of holly-gull. Ephraim was very fond of the game, and +would have played it happily hour after hour had not Deborah esteemed +it a sinful waste of time. When Caleb held up his old fist, wherein +he had securely stowed a certain number of kernels of corn, and +demanded, "Holly-gull, hand full, passel how many?" Ephraim's spirit +was thrilled with a fine stimulation, of which he had known little in +his life. If he guessed the number of kernels right and confiscated +the contents of his father's hand, he felt the gratified ambition of +a successful financier; if he lost, his heart sank, only to bound +higher with new hope for the next chance. A veritable gambling game +was holly-gull, but they gambled for innocent Indian-corn instead of +the coin of the realm, and nobody suspected it. The lack of value of +the stakes made the game quite harmless and unquestioned in public +opinion. + +The waste of time was all Deborah's objection to the game. Caleb and +Ephraim said not a word about it to each other, but both kept an +anxious ear towards Deborah's returning sleigh-bells. + +At last they both heard the loud, brazen jingle entering the yard, +and Caleb gathered all the corn together and stowed it away in his +pocket. Then he stood on the hearth, looking like a guilty child. +Ephraim went slowly over to the window; he did not feel quite so well +again. + +Deborah's harsh "Whoa!" sounded before the door; presently she came +in, her garments radiating cold air, her arms full of bundles. + +"What you standin' there for, father?" she demanded of Caleb. "Why +didn't you come out an' take some of these bundles? Why ain't you +goin' out an' puttin' the horse up instead of standin' there +starin'?" + +"I'm goin' right off, mother," Caleb answered, apologetically; and he +turned his old back towards her and scuffled out in haste. + +"Put on your cap!" Deborah called after him. + +She laid off her many wraps, her hood and veil, and mufflers and +shawls, folded them carefully, and carried them into her bedroom, to +be laid in her bureau drawers. Deborah was very orderly and +methodical. + +"Did you take your medicine?" she asked Ephraim as she went out of +the room. + +"Yes, ma'am," said he. He did not feel nearly as well; he kept his +face turned from his mother. Ephraim was accustomed to complain +freely, but now the coasting and the mince-pie had made him patient. +He was quite sure that his bad feelings were due to that, and suppose +his mother should suspect and ask him what he had been doing! He was +also terrified by the thought of the holly-gull and her unfulfilled +order about the apple-paring. He sat very still; his heart shook his +whole body, which had grown thin lately. He looked very small, in +spite of his sturdy build. + +Deborah was gone quite a while; she had left some work unfinished in +her bedroom that morning. Caleb returned before she did, and pulled +up a chair close to the fire. He was holding his reddened fingers out +towards the blaze to warm them when Deborah came in. + +She looked at him, then around the room, inquiringly. + +"Where did you put the apples?" said she to Caleb. + +Caleb stared around at her. "What apples, mother?" he asked, feebly. + +"The apples I left for you to pare. I want to put 'em on before I get +dinner." + +"I ain't heard nothin' about apples, mother." + +"Ain't you pared any apples this forenoon?" + +"I didn't know as you wanted any pared, mother." + +Deborah turned fiercely on Ephraim. + +"Ephraim Thayer, look here!" said she. Ephraim turned his poor blue +face slowly; his breath came shortly between his parted lips; he +clapped one hand to his side. "Didn't you tell your father to pare +them apples, the way I told you to?" she demanded. + +Ephraim dropped his chin lower. + +"Answer me!" + +"No, ma'am." + +"What have you been a-doin' of?" + +"Playin'." + +"Playin' what?" + +"Holly-gull." + +Deborah stood quite still for a moment. Her mouth tightened; she grew +quite pale. Ephraim and Caleb watched her. Deborah strode across the +room, out into the shed. + +"I guess she won't say much; don't you be scared, Ephraim," whispered +Caleb. + +But Ephraim, curious to say, did not feel scared. Suddenly his mother +seemed to have lost all her terrifying influence over him. He felt +very strange, and as if he were sinking away from it all through deep +abysses. + +His mother came back, and she held a stout stick in her right hand. +Caleb gasped when he saw it. "Mother, you ain't goin' to whip him?" +he cried out. + +"Father, you keep still!" commanded Deborah. "Ephraim, you come with +me!" + +She led the way into Ephraim's little bedroom, and he stumbled up and +followed her. He saw the stick before him in his mother's hand; he +knew she was going to whip him, but he did not feel in the least +disturbed or afraid. Ezra Ray could not have faced a whipping any +more courageously than Ephraim. But he staggered as he went, and his +feet met the floor with strange shocks, since he had prepared his +steps for those deep abysses. + +He and his mother stood together in his little bedroom. She, when she +faced him, saw how ill he looked, but she steeled herself against +that. She had seen him look as badly before; she was not to be +daunted by that from her high purpose. For it was a high purpose to +Deborah Thayer. She did not realize the part which her own human will +had in it. + +She lifted up her voice and spoke solemnly. Caleb, listening, all +trembling, at the kitchen door, heard her. + +"Ephraim," said his mother, "I have spared the rod with you all my +life because you were sick. Your brother and your sister have both +rebelled against the Lord and against me. You are all the child I've +got left. You've got to mind me and do right. I ain't goin' to spare +you any longer because you ain't well. It is better you should be +sick than be well and wicked and disobedient. It is better that your +body should suffer than your immortal soul. Stand still." + +Deborah raised her stick, and brought it down. She raised it again, +but suddenly Ephraim made a strange noise and sunk away before it, +down in a heap on the floor. + +Caleb heard him fall, and came quickly. + +"Oh, mother," he sobbed, "is he dead? What ails him?" + +"He's got a bad spell," said Deborah. "Help me lay him on the bed." +Her face was ghastly. She spoke with hoarse pulls for breath, but she +did not flinch. She and Caleb laid Ephraim on his bed; then she +worked over him for a few minutes with mustard and hot-water--all the +simple remedies in which she was skilled. She tried to pour a little +of the doctor's medicine into his mouth, but he did not swallow, and +she wiped it away. + +"Go an' get Barney to run for the doctor, quick!" she told Caleb at +last. Caleb fled, sobbing aloud like a child, out of the house. +Deborah closed the boy's eyes, and straightened him a little in the +bed. Then she stood over him there, and began to pray aloud. It was a +strange prayer, full of remorse, of awful agony, of self-defense of +her own act, and her own position as the vicar of God upon earth for +her child. "I couldn't let him go astray too!" she shrieked out. "I +couldn't, I couldn't! O Lord, thou knowest that I couldn't! I +would--have lain him upon--the altar, as Abraham laid Isaac! Oh, +Ephraim, my son, my son, my son!" + +Deborah prayed on and on. The doctor and a throng of pale women came +in; the yard was full of shocked and staring people. Deborah heeded +nothing; she prayed on. + +Some of the women got her into her own room. She stayed there, with a +sort of rigid settling into the spot where she was placed and she +pleaded with the Lord for upholding and justification until the +daylight faded, and all night. The women, Mrs. Ray and the doctor's +wife, who watched with poor Ephraim, heard her praying all night +long. They sat in grave silence, and their eyes kept meeting with +shocked significance as they listened to her. Now and then they wet +the cloth on Ephraim's face. About two o'clock Mrs. Ray tiptoed into +the pantry, and brought forth a mince-pie. "I found one that had been +cut on the top shelf," she whispered. She and the doctor's wife ate +the remainder of poor Ephraim's pie. + +The two women stayed next day and assisted in preparations for the +funeral. Deborah seemed to have no thought for any of her household +duties. She stayed in her bedroom most of the time, and her praying +voice could be heard at intervals. + +Some other women came in, and they went about with silent efficiency, +performing their services to the dead and setting the house in order; +but they said very little to Deborah. When she came out of her room +they eyed her with a certain grim furtiveness, and they never said a +word to her about Ephraim. + +It was already known all over the village that she had been whipping +Ephraim when he died. Poor old Caleb, when the neighbors had come +flocking in, had kept repeating with childish sobs, "Mother hadn't +ought to have whipped him! mother hadn't ought to have whipped him!" + +"Did Mrs. Thayer whip that boy?" the doctor had questioned, sharply, +before all the women, and Caleb had sobbed back, hoarsely, "She was +jest a-whippin' of him; I told her she hadn't ought to." + +That had been enough. "She whipped him," the women repeated to each +other in shocked pantomime. They all knew how corporal punishment had +been tabooed for Ephraim. + +The Thayer house was crowded the afternoon of the funeral. The decent +black-clad village people, with reddening eyes and mouths drooping +with melancholy, came in throngs into the snowy yard. The men in +their Sunday gear tiptoed creaking across the floors; the women, +feeling for their pocket-handkerchiefs, padded softly and heavily +after them, folded in their black shawls like mourning birds. + +[Illustration: "The Thayer house was crowded the afternoon of the +funeral"] + +Caleb and Deborah and Barney sat in the north parlor, where Ephraim +lay. Deborah's hoarse laments, which were not like the ordinary +hysterical demonstrations of feminine grief, being rather a stern +uprising and clamor of herself against her own heart, filled the +house. + +The minister had to pray and speak against it; scarcely any one +beyond the mourners' room could hear his voice. It was a hard task +that the poor young minister had. He was quite aware of the feeling +against Deborah, and it required finesse to avoid jarring that, and +yet display the proper amount of Christian sympathy for the +afflicted. Then there were other difficulties. The minister had +prayed in his closet for a small share of the wisdom of Solomon +before setting forth. + +The people in the other rooms leaned forward and strained their ears. +The minister's wife sat beside her husband with bright spots of color +in her cheeks, her little figure nervously contracted in her chair. +They had had a discussion concerning the advisability of his +mentioning the sister and daughter in his prayer, and she had pleaded +with him strenuously that he should not. + +When the minister prayed for the afflicted "sister and daughter, who +was now languishing upon a bed of sickness," his wife's mouth +tightened, her feet and hands grew cold. It seemed to her that her +own tongue pronounced every word that her husband spoke. And there +was, moreover, a little nervous thrill through the audience. Oddly +enough, everybody seemed to hear that portion of the minister's +prayer quite distinctly. Even one old deaf man in the farthest corner +of the kitchen looked meaningly at his neighbor. + +The service was a long one. The village hearse and the line of black +covered wagons waited in front of the Thayer house over an hour. +There had been another fall of snow the night before, and now the +north wind blew it over the country. Outside ghostly spirals of snow +raised from the new drifts heaped along the road-sides like graves, +disappeared over the fields, and moved on the borders of distant +woods, while in-doors the minister held forth, and the choir sang +funeral hymns with a sweet uneven drone of grief and consolation. + +When at last the funeral was over and the people came out, they bent +their heads before this wild storm which came from the earth instead +of the sky. + +The cemetery was a mile out of the village; when the procession came +driving rapidly home it was nearly sunset, and the thoughts of the +people turned from poor Ephraim to their suppers. It is only for a +minute that death can blur life for the living. Still, when the +evening smoke hung over the roofs the people talked untiringly of +Ephraim and his mother. + +As time went on the dark gossip in the village swelled louder. It was +said quite openly that Deborah Thayer had killed her son Ephraim. The +neighbors did not darken her doors. The minister and his wife called +once. The minister offered prayer and spoke formal words of +consolation as if he were reading from invisible notes. His wife sat +by in stiff, scared silence. Deborah nodded in response; she said +very little. + +Indeed, Deborah had become very silent. She scarcely spoke to Caleb. +For hours after he had gone to bed the poor bewildered old man could +hear his wife wrestling in prayer with the terrible angel of the Lord +whom she had evoked by the stern magic of grief and remorse. He could +hear her harsh, solemn voice in self-justification and agonized +appeal. After a while he learned to sleep with it still ringing in +his ears, and his heavy breathing kept pace with Deborah's prayer. + +Deborah had not the least doubt that she had killed her son Ephraim. + +There was some talk of the church's dealing with her, some women +declared that they would not go to meeting if she did; but no +stringent measures were taken, and she went to church every Sunday +all the rest of the winter and during the spring. + +It was an afternoon in June when the doctor's wife and Mrs. Ray went +into Deborah Thayer's yard. They paused hesitatingly before the door. + +"I think you're the one that ought to tell her," said Mrs. Ray. + +"I think it's your place to, seeing as 'twas your Ezra that knew +about it," returned the doctor's wife. Her voice sounded like the hum +of a bee, being full of husky vibrations; her double chin sank into +her broad heaving bosom, folded over with white plaided muslin. + +"Seems to me it belongs to you, as long as you're the doctor's wife," +said Mrs. Ray. She was very small and lean beside the soft bulk of +the other woman, but there was a sort of mental uplifting about her +which made her unconscious of it. Mrs. Ray had never considered +herself a small woman; she seemed always to see the tops of other +women's heads. + +The doctor's wife looked at her dubiously, panting softly all over +her great body. It was a warm afternoon. The low red and white +rose-bushes sprayed all around the step-stone, and they were full of +roses. The doctor's wife raised the brass knocker. "Well, I'd just as +lieves," said she, resignedly. "She'd ought to be told, anyway; the +doctor said so." The knocker fell with a clang of brass. + +Deborah opened the door at once. "Good-afternoon," said she. + +"We thought we'd come over a few minutes, it's so pleasant this +afternoon," said the doctor's wife. + +"Walk in," said Deborah. She aided them in through the kitchen to the +north parlor. She always entertained guests there on warm afternoons. + +The north parlor was very cool and dark; the curtains were down, and +undulated softly like sails. Deborah placed the big haircloth +rocking-chair for the doctor's wife, and Mrs. Ray sat down on the +sofa. + +There was a silence. The doctor's wife flushed red. Mrs. Ray's sharp +face was imperturbable. Deborah, sitting erect in one of her best +flag-bottomed chairs, looked as if she were alone in the room. + +The doctor's wife cleared her throat. "Mis' Thayer," she began. + +Deborah looked at her with calm expectation. + +"Mis' Thayer," said the doctor's wife, "Mis' Ray and I thought we +ought to come over here this afternoon. Mis' Ray heard something last +night, an' she came over an' told the doctor, an' he said you ought +to know--" + +The doctor's wife paused, panting. Then the door opened and Caleb +peered in. He bowed stiffly to the two guests; then, with +apprehensive glances at his wife, slid into a chair near the door. + +"Mis' Ray's Ezra told her last night," proceeded the doctor's wife, +"that the night before your son died he run away unbeknown to you, +an' went slidin' down hill. The doctor says mebbe that was what +killed him. He said you'd ought to know." + +Deborah leaned forward; her face worked like the breaking up of an +icy river. "Be you sure?" said she. + +"Ezra told me last night," interposed Mrs. Ray. "I had a hard time +gettin' it out of him; he promised Ephraim he wouldn't tell. But +somethin' he said made me suspect, an' I got it out of him. He said +Ephraim told him he run away, an' he left him there slidin' when he +came home. 'Twas as much as 'leven o'clock then; I remember I give +Ezra a whippin' next mornin' for stayin' out so late. But then, of +course, whippin' Ezra wa'n't nothin' like whippin' Ephraim." + +"The doctor says most likely that was what killed him, after all, an' +you'd ought to know," said the doctor's wife. + +"Be you sure?" said Deborah again. + +"Ephraim wa'n't to blame. He never had no show; he never went +a-slidin' like the other little fellers," said Caleb, suddenly, out +of his corner; and he snivelled as he spoke. + +Deborah turned on him sharply. "Did you know anything about it?" said +she. + +"He told me on 't that mornin'," said Caleb; "he told me how he'd +been a-slidin', an' how he eat some mince-pie." + +"Eat--some--mince-pie!" gasped Deborah, and there was a great light +of hope in her face. + +"Well," said the doctor's wife, "if that boy eat mince-pie, an' slid +down hill, too, I guess you ain't much call to worry about anything +you've done, Mis' Thayer. I know what the doctor has said right +along." + +The doctor's wife arose with a certain mild impressiveness, as if +some mantle of her husband's authority had fallen upon her. She shook +out her ample skirts as if they were redolent of rhubarb and mint. +"Well, I guess we had better be going," said she, and her inflections +were like the doctor's. + +Mrs. Ray rose also. "Well, we thought you'd ought to know," said she. + +"I'm much obliged to you," said Deborah. + +She went through the kitchen with them. When the door was shut behind +them she turned to Caleb, who had shuffled along at her heels. "Oh, +father, why didn't you tell me if you knew, why didn't you tell me?" +she gasped out. + +Caleb stared at her. "Why, mother?" he returned. + +"Didn't you know I thought I'd killed him, father? didn't you know I +thought I'd killed my son? An' now maybe I haven't! maybe I haven't! +O Lord, I thank thee for letting me know before I die! Maybe I +haven't killed him, after all!" + +"I didn't s'pose it would make any difference," said Caleb, +helplessly. + +Suddenly, to the old man's great terror, his wife caught hold of him +and clung to him. He staggered a little; his arms hung straight at +his sides. "Why, what ails you, mother?" he stammered out. "I didn't +tell you, 'cause I thought you'd be blamin' him for 't. Mother, don't +you take on so; now don't!" + +"I--wish--you'd go an' get Rebecca an' Barney, father," said Deborah, +faintly. She suddenly wavered so that her old husband wavered with +her, and they reeled back and forth like two old trees in a wind. + +"Why, what ails you, mother, what ails you?" Caleb gasped out. He +caught Deborah's arm, and clutched out at something to save himself. +Then they sank to the floor together. + +Barney had just come up from the field, and was at his own door when +his father came panting into the yard. "What is it? what's the +matter?" he cried out. + +"Mother's fell!" gasped Caleb. + +"Fell! has she hurt her?" + +"Dunno--she can't get up; come quick!" + +As Barney rushed out of the yard he cast a glance up the hill towards +Charlotte's house; in every crisis of his life his mind turned +involuntarily to her, as if she were another self, to be made +acquainted with all its exigencies. But when he came out on the road +he met Charlotte herself face to face; she had been over to her Aunt +Sylvia's. + +"Something is wrong with mother," Barney said, with a strange appeal. +Then he went on, and Charlotte was at his side, running as fast as +he. Caleb hurried after them, panting, the tears running down his old +cheeks. + +"Father says she's fell!" Barney said, as they sped along. + +"Maybe she's only fainted," responded Charlotte's steady, faithful +voice. + +But Deborah Thayer had more than fainted. It might have been that +Ephraim had inherited from her the heart-taint that had afflicted and +shortened his life, and it might have been that her terrible +experiences of the last few months would have strained her heart to +its undoing, had its valves been made of steel. + +Barney carried his mother into the bedroom, and laid her on the bed. +He and Charlotte worked over her, but she never spoke nor moved +again. At last Charlotte laid her hand on Barney's arm. "Come out +now," said she, and Barney followed her out. + +When they were out in the kitchen Barney looked in her face. "It's no +use, she's gone!" he said, hoarsely. Charlotte nodded. Suddenly she +put her arms up around his neck, and drew his head down to her bosom, +and held it there, stroking his cheek. + +"Oh, Charlotte," Barney sobbed. Charlotte bent over him, whispering +softly, smoothing his hair and cheek with her tender hand. + +Caleb had gone for the doctor and Rebecca while they tried to restore +Deborah, and had given the alarm on the way. Some women came hurrying +in with white faces, staring curiously even then at Barney and +Charlotte; but she never heeded them, except to answer in the +affirmative when they asked, in shocked voices, if Deborah was dead. +She went on soothing Barney, as if he had been her child, with no +more shame in it, until he raised his white face from her breast of +his own accord. + +"Oh, Charlotte, you will stay to-night, won't you?" he pleaded. + +"Yes, I'll stay," said Charlotte. Young as Charlotte was, she had +watched with the sick and sat up with the dead many a time. So she +and the doctor's wife watched with Deborah Thayer that night. Rebecca +came, but she was not strong enough to stay. The next day Charlotte +assisted in the funeral preparations. It made a great deal of talk in +the village. People wondered if Barney would marry her now, and if +she would sit with the mourners at the funeral. But she sat with her +father and mother in the south room, and time went on after Deborah +died, and Barney did not marry her. + + + +Chapter XII + + +A few days after Deborah's funeral Charlotte had an errand at the +store after supper. When she went down the hill the sun had quite +set, but there was a clear green light. The sky gave it out, and +there seemed to be also a green glow from the earth. Charlotte went +down the hill with the evening air fresh and damp in her face. Lilacs +were in blossom all about, and their fragrance was so vital and +intense that it seemed almost like a wide presence in the green +twilight. + +She reached Barney's house, and passed it; then she came to the +Thayer house. Before that lay the garden. The ranks of pease and +beans were in white blossom, and there was a pale shimmer as of a +cobweb veil over it. + +Charlotte had passed the garden when she heard a voice behind her: + +"Charlotte!" + +She stopped, and Barney came up. + +"Good-evening," said he. + +"Good-evening," said Charlotte. + +"I saw you going by," said Barney. Then he paused again, and +Charlotte waited. + +"I saw you going by," he repeated, "and--I thought I'd like to speak +to you. I wanted to thank you for what you did--about mother." + +"You're very welcome," replied Charlotte. + +Barney ground a stone beneath his heel. "I sha'n't ever forget it, +and--father won't, either," he said. His voice trembled, and yet +there was a certain doggedness in it. + +Charlotte stood waiting. Barney turned slowly away. "Good-night," he +said. + +"Good-night," returned Charlotte, quickly, and she fairly sprang away +from him and down the road. Her limbs trembled, but she held her head +up proudly. She understood it all perfectly. Barney had meant to +inform her that his behavior towards her on the day his mother died +had been due to a momentary weakness; that she was to expect nothing +further. She went on to the store and did her errand, then went home. +As she entered the kitchen her mother came through from the front +room. She had been sitting at a window watching for Charlotte to +return; she thought Barney might be with her. + +"Well, you've got home," said she, and it sounded like a question. + +"Yes," said Charlotte. She laid her parcels on the table. "I guess +I'll go to bed," she added. + +"Why, it's dreadful early to go to bed, ain't it?" + +"Well, I'm tired; I guess I'll go." + +The candle-light was dim in the room, but Sarah eyed her daughter +sharply. She thought she looked pale. + +"Did you meet anybody?" she asked. + +"I don't know; there wasn't many folks out." + +"You didn't see Barney, did you?" + +"Yes, I met him." + +Charlotte lighted another candle, and opened the door. + +"Look here," said her mother. + +"Well?" replied Charlotte, with a sort of despairing patience. + +"What did he say to you? I want to know." + +"He didn't say much of anything. He thanked me for what I did about +his mother." + +"Didn't he say anything about anything else?" + +"No, he didn't." Charlotte went out, shielding her candle. + +"You don't mean that he didn't say anything, after the way he acted +that day his mother died?" + +"I didn't expect him to say anything." + +"He's treated you mean, Charlotte," her mother cried out, with a half +sob. "He'd ought to be strung up after he acted so, huggin' an' +kissin' you right before folk's face and eyes." + +"It was more my fault than 'twas his," returned Charlotte; and she +shut the door. + +"Then I should think you'd be ashamed of yourself," Sarah called +after her, but Charlotte did not seem to hear. + +"I never see such work, for my part," Sarah wailed out to herself. + +"Mother, you come in here a minute," Cephas called out of the +bedroom. He had gone to bed soon after supper. + +"Anythin' new about Barney?" he asked, when his wife stood beside +him. + +"Barney ain't no more notion of comin' back than he had before, in +spite of all the talk. I never see such work," replied Sarah, in a +voice strained high with tears. + +"I call it pretty doin's," assented Cephas. His pale face, with its +venerable beard, was closely set about with his white nightcap. He +lay staring straight before him with a solemnly reflective air. + +"I wish you hadn't brought up 'lection that time, father," ventured +Sarah, with a piteous sniff. + +"If the Democratic party had only lived different, an' hadn't eat so +much meat, there wouldn't have been any trouble," returned Cephas, +magisterially. "If you go far enough, you'll always get back to that. +A man is what he puts into his mouth. Meat victuals is at the bottom +of democracy. If there wa'n't any meat eat there wouldn't be any +Democratic party, an' there wouldn't be any wranglin' in the state. +There'd be one party, jest as there'd ought to be." + +"I wish you hadn't brought it up, father," Sarah lamented again; +"it's most killin' me." + +"If we hadn't both of us been eatin' so much animal food there +wouldn't have been any trouble," repeated Cephas. + +"Well, I dunno much about animal food, but I know I'm about +discouraged," said Sarah. And she went back to the kitchen, and sat +down in the rocking-chair and cried a long time, with her apron over +her face. Her heartache was nearly as sore as her daughter's +up-stairs. + +Charlotte did not speak to Barney again all summer--indeed, she +scarcely ever saw him. She had an occasional half-averted glimpse of +his figure across the fields, and that was all. Barney had gone back +to the old house to live with his father, and remained there through +the summer and fall; but Caleb died in November. He had never been +the same since Deborah's death; whether, like an old tree whose roots +are no longer so firm in the earth that they can withstand every wind +of affliction, the shock itself had shaken him to his fall, or the +lack of that strange wontedness which takes the place of early love +and passion had enfeebled him, no one could tell. He had seemed to +simply stare at life from a sunny place on a stone-wall or a +door-step all summer. + +When the autumn set in he sat in his old chair by the fire. Caleb had +always felt cold since Deborah died. When the bell tolled off his +years, one morning in November, nobody felt surprised. People had +said to each other for some time that Caleb Thayer was failing. + +Barney, after his father died, went back to his own forlorn new house +to live, and his sister Rebecca and her husband came to live in the +old one. Rebecca went to meeting now every Sunday, wearing her +mother's black shawl and a black ribbon on her bonnet, and sitting in +her mother's place in the Thayer pew. She never went anywhere else, +her rosy color had gone, and she looked old and haggard. + +Barney went into his sister's now and then of a Sunday night, and sat +with her and William an hour or so. He and William would sometimes +warm into quite an animated discussion over politics or theology, +while Rebecca sat silently by. Barney went nowhere else, not even to +meeting. Sundays he used to watch furtively for Charlotte to go past +with her father and mother. Quite often Sylvia Crane used to appear +from her road and join them, and walk along with Charlotte. Barney +used to look at her moving down the road at Charlotte's side, as at +the merest supernumerary on his own tragic stage. But every tragedy +has its multiplying glass to infinity, and every actor has his own +tragedy. Sylvia Crane that winter, all secretly and silently, was +acting her own principal rôle in hers. She had quite come to the end +of her small resources, and nobody, except the selectmen of Pembroke, +knew it. They were three saturnine, phlegmatic, elderly men, old +Squire Payne being the chairman, and they kept her secret well. +Sylvia waylaid them in by-places, she stole around to the back door +of Squire Payne's house by night, she conducted herself as if it were +a guilty intrigue, and all to keep her poverty hid as long as may be. + +Old Squire Payne was a widower, a grave old man of few words. He +advanced poor Sylvia meagre moneys on her little lands, and he told +nobody. There came a day when he gave her the last dollar upon her +New England soil, full of old plough-ridges and dried weeds and +stones. + +Sylvia went home with it in the pocket of her quilted petticoat under +her dress skirt. She kept feeling of it to see if it were safe as she +walked along. The snow was quite deep, the road was not well broken +out, and she plodded forward with bent head, her black skirt +gathering a crusty border of snow. + +She had to pass Richard Alger's house, but she never looked up. It +was six o'clock, and quite dark; it had been dark when she set out at +five. The housewives were preparing supper; there was a smell of +burning pine-wood in the air, and now and then a savory scent of +frying meat. Sylvia had smelled brewing tea and baking bread in +Squire Payne's house, and she had heard old Margaret, the Scotch +woman who had lived with the squire's family ever since she could +remember, stepping around in another room. Old Margaret was almost +the only servant, the only regular and permanent servant, in +Pembroke, and she enjoyed a curious sort of menial distinction: she +dressed well, wore a handsome cashmere shawl which had come from +Scotland, and held her head high in the squire's pew. People saluted +her with respect, and her isolation of inequality gave her a reversed +dignity. + +Sylvia had hoped Margaret would not come in while she sat with the +squire. She was afraid of her eyes, which flashed keen like a man's +under shaggy brows. She did not want her to see the squire counting +out the money from his leather purse, although she knew that Margaret +would keep her own counsel. + +She had been glad enough to escape and not see her appear behind the +bulk of the squire in the doorway. Squire Payne was full of laborious +courtesy, and always himself aided Sylvia to the door when she came +for money, and that always alarmed her. She would drop a meek +courtesy on trembling knees and hurry away. + +Sylvia had almost reached the old road leading to her own house, when +she saw a figure advancing towards her through the dusk. She saw it +was a woman by the wide swing of the skirts, and trembled. She felt a +presentiment as to who it was. She held her head down and well to one +side, she bent over and tried to hurry past, but the figure stopped. + +"Is that you, Sylvy Crane?" said her sister, Hannah Berry. + +Sylvia did not stop. "Yes, it's me," she stammered. "Good-evenin', +Hannah." + +She tried to pass, but Hannah stood in her way. "What you hurryin' so +for?" she asked, sharply; "where you been?" + +"Where _you_ been?" returned Sylvia, trembling. + +"Up to Sarah's. Charlotte, she's gone down to Rebecca's. She's +terrible thick with Rebecca. Well, I've been to see Rebecca; an' +Rose, she's been, an' I ain't nothin' to say. William has got her for +a wife, an' we've got to hold up our heads before folks; an' when it +comes right down to it, there's a good many folks can't say much. If +Charlotte Barnard wants to be thick with Rebecca, she can. Her mother +won't say nothin'. She always was as easy as old Tilly; an' as for +Cephas, he's either eatin' grass, or he ain't eatin' grass, an' +that's all he cares about, unless he gets stirred up about politics, +the way he did with Barney Thayer. I dunno but Charlotte thinks +she'll get him back again goin' to see Rebecca. I miss my guess but +what she sees him there sometimes. I wouldn't have a daughter of mine +chasin' a fellar that had give her the mitten; but Charlotte ain't +got no pride, nor her mother, neither. Where did you say you'd been, +trapesin' through the snow?" + +"Has Rose got her things most done?" asked Sylvia, desperately. +Distress was awakening duplicity in her simple, straightforward +heart. All Hannah Berry's thought slid, as it were, in well-greased +grooves; only give one a starting push and it went on indefinitely +and left all others behind, and her sister Sylvia knew it. + +"Well, she's got 'em pretty near done," replied Hannah Berry. "Her +underclothes are all done, an' the quilts; the weddin'-dress ain't +bought yet, an' she's got to have a mantilla. Do you know Charlotte +ain't never wore that handsome mantilla she had when she was +expectin' to marry Barney?" + +"Ain't she?" + +"No, she ain't, nor her silk gown neither. I said all I darsed to. I +thought mebbe she or Sarah would offer; they both of 'em know how +hard it is to get anything out of Silas; but they didn't, an' I +wa'n't goin' to ask, nohow. I shall get a new silk an' a mantilla for +Rose, an' not be beholden to nobody, if I have to sell the spoons I +had when I was married." + +"I don't s'pose they have much to do with," said Sylvia. She began to +gradually edge past her sister. + +"Of course they haven't; I know that jest as well as you do. But if +Charlotte ain't goin' to get married she don't want any weddin'-gown +an' mantilla, an' she won't ever get married. She let Thomas Payne +slip, an' there ain't nobody else I can think of for her. If she +ain't goin' to want weddin'-clothes, I don't see why she an' her +mother would be any poorer for givin' hers away. 'Twouldn't cost 'em +any more than to let 'em lay in the chest. Well, I've got to go home; +it's supper-time. Where did you say you'd been, Sylvy?" + +Sylvia was well past her sister; she pretended not to hear. "You +ain't been over for quite a spell," she called back, faintly. + +"I know I ain't," returned Hannah. "I've been tellin' Rose we'd come +over to tea some afternoon before she was married." + +"Do," said Sylvia, but the cordiality in her voice seemed to +overweigh it. + +"Well, mebbe we'll come over to-morrow," said Hannah. "We've got some +pillow-slips to trim, an' we can bring them. You'd better ask Sarah +an' Charlotte, if she can stay away from Rebecca Thayer's long +enough." + +"Yes, I will," said Sylvia, feebly, over her shoulder. + +"We'll come early," said Hannah. Then the sisters sped apart through +the early winter darkness. Poor Sylvia fairly groaned out loud when +her sister was out of hearing and she had turned the corner of the +old road. + +"What shall I do? what shall I do?" she muttered. + +Her sisters to tea meant hot biscuits and plum sauce and pie and +pound-cake and tea. Sylvia had yet a little damson sauce at the +bottom of a jar, although she had not preserved last year, for lack +of sugar; but hot biscuits and pie, the pound-cake and tea would have +to be provided. + +She felt again of the little money-store in her pocket; that was all +that stood between her and the poor-house; every penny was a barrier +and had its carefully calculated value. This outlay would reduce +terribly her little period of respite and independence; yet she +hesitated as little as Fouquet planning the splendid entertainment, +which would ruin him, for Louis XIII. + +Her sisters and nieces must come to tea; and all the food, which was +the village fashion and as absolute in its way as court etiquette, +must be provided. + +"They'll suspect if I don't," said Sylvia Crane. + +She rolled away the stone from the door and entered her solitary +house. She lighted her candle and prepared for bed. She did not get +any supper. She said to herself with a sudden fierceness, which came +over her at times--a mild impulse of rebellion which indicated +perhaps some strain from far-off, untempered ancestors, which had +survived New England generations--that she did not care if she never +ate supper again. + +"They're all comin' troopin' in here to-morrow, an' it's goin' to +take about all the little I've got left to get victuals for 'em, an' +I've got to go without to-night if I starve!" she cried out quite +loud and defiantly, as if her hard providence lurked within hearing +in some dark recess of the room. + +She raked ashes over the coals in the fireplace. "I'll go to bed an' +save the fire, too," she said; "it'll take about all the wood I've +got left to-morrow. I've got to heat the oven. Might as well go to +bed, an' lay there forever, anyway. If I stayed up till doomsday +nobody'd come." + +Sylvia set the shovel back with a vicious clatter; then she struck +out--like a wilful child who hurts itself because of its rage and +impotent helplessness to hurt aught else--her thin, red hand against +the bricks of the chimney. She looked at the bruises on it with +bitter exultation, as if she saw in them some evidence of her own +freedom and power, even to her own hurt. + +When she went to bed she stowed away her money under the feather-bed. +She could not go to sleep. Some time in the night a shutter in +another room up-stairs banged. She got up, lighted the candle, and +trod over the icy floors to the room relentlessly with her bare feet. +There was a pane of glass broken behind the shutter, and the wind had +loosened the fastening. Sylvia forced the shutter back; in a strange +rage she heard another pane of glass crack. "I don't care if every +pane of glass in the window is broken," she muttered, as she hooked +the fastening with angry, trembling fingers. + +Her thin body in its cotton night-gown, cramped with long rigors of +cold, her delicate face reddened as if before a fire, her jaws felt +almost locked as she went through the deadly cold of the lonely house +back to bed; but that strange rage in her heart enabled her to defy +it, and awakened within her something like blasphemy against life and +all the conditions thereof, but never against Richard Alger. She +never felt one throb of resentment against him. She even wondered, +when she was back in bed, if he had bedclothing enough, if the quilts +and bed-puffs that his mother had left were not worn out; her own +were very thin. + +The next day Sylvia heated her brick oven; she went to the store and +bought materials, and made pound-cake and pies. While they were +baking she ran over and invited Charlotte and her mother. She did not +see Cephas; he had gone to draw some wood. + +"I'd like to have him come, too," she said, as she went out; "but I +dunno as he'd eat anything I've got for tea." + +"Land! he eats anything when he goes out anywhere to tea," replied +Mrs. Barnard. "He was over to Hannah's a while ago, an' he eat +everything. He eats pie-crust with shortenin' now, anyway. He got so +he couldn't stan' it without. I guess he'd like to come. He'll have +to draw wood some this afternoon, but he can come in time for tea. +I'll lay out his clothes on the bed for him." + +"Well, have him come, then," said Sylvia. Sylvia was nearly out of +the yard when Charlotte called after her: "Don't you want me to come +over and help you, Aunt Sylvia?" she called out. She stood in the +door with her apron flying out in the wind like a blue flag. + +"No, I guess not," replied Sylvia; "I don't need any help. I ain't +got much to do." + +"I think Aunt Sylvia looks sick," Charlotte said to her mother when +she went in. + +"I thought she looked kind of peaked," said Sarah. But neither of +them dreamed of the true state of affairs: how poor Sylvia Crane, +half-starved and half-frozen in heart and stomach, was on the verge +of bankruptcy of all her little worldly possessions. + +Sylvia's sisters, practical enough in other respects, were singularly +ignorant and incompetent concerning any property except the few +dollars and cents in their own purses. + +They had always supposed Sylvia had enough to live on, as long as she +lived at all. They had a comfortable sense of generosity and +self-sacrifice, since they had let her have all the old homestead +after her mother's death without a word, and even against covert +remonstrances on the parts of their husbands. + +Silas Berry had once said out quite openly to his wife and Sarah +Barnard: "That will had ought to be broke, accordin' to my way of +thinkin'," and Hannah had returned with spirit: "It won't ever be +broke unless it's against my will, Silas Berry. I know it seems +considerable for Sylvy to have it all, but she's took care of mother +all those years, an' I don't begrutch it to her, an' she's a-goin' to +have it. I don't much believe Richard Alger will ever have her now +she's got so old, an' she'd ought to have enough to live on the rest +of her life an' keep her comfortable." + +Therefore Sylvia's sisters had a conviction that she was comfortably +provided with worldly gear. Mrs. Berry was even speculating upon the +probability of her giving Rose something wherewith to begin +house-keeping when her marriage with Tommy Ray took place. + +The two sisters, with their daughters, came early that afternoon. +Mrs. Berry and Rose sewed knitted lace on pillow-slips; Mrs. Barnard +and Charlotte were making new shirts for Cephas; Charlotte sat by the +window and set beautiful stitches in her father's linen shirt-bosoms, +while her aunt Hannah's tongue pricked her ceaselessly as with small +goading thorns. + +"I s'pose this seems kind of natural to you, don't it, Charlotte, +gettin' pillow-slips ready?" said Mrs. Berry. + +"I don't know but it does," answered Charlotte, never raising her +eyes from her work. Her mother flushed angrily. She opened her mouth +as if to speak, then she shut it again hard. + +"Let me see, how many did you make?" asked Mrs. Berry. + +"She made two dozen pair," Charlotte's mother answered for her. + +"An' you've got 'em all laid away, yellowin'?" + +"I guess they ain't yellowed much," said Sarah Barnard. + +"I don't see when you're ever goin' to use 'em." + +"Mebbe there'd be chances enough to use 'em if some folks was as +crazy to take up with 'em as some other folks," returned Sarah +Barnard. + +"I'd like to know what you mean?" + +"Oh, nothin'. If folks want chances to make pillow-slips bad enough +there's generally poor tools enough layin' 'round, that's all." + +"I'd like to know what you mean, Sarah Barnard." + +"Oh, I don't mean nothin'," answered Sarah Barnard. She glanced at +her daughter Charlotte and smiled slyly, but Charlotte never returned +the glance and smile. She sewed steadily. Rose colored, but she said +nothing. She looked very pretty and happy, as she sat there, sewing +knitted lace on her wedding-pillows; and she really was happy. Her +passionate heart had really satisfied itself with the boyish lover +whom she would have despised except for lack of a better. She was and +would be happy enough; it was only a question of deterioration of +character, and the nobility of applying to the need of love the rules +of ordinary hunger and thirst, and eating contentedly the crust when +one could not get the pie, of drinking the water when one could not +get the wine. Contentment may be sometimes a degradation; but she was +happier than she had ever been in her life, although she had a little +sense of humiliation when she reflected that Tommy Ray, younger than +herself, tending store under her brother, was not exactly a brilliant +match for her, and that everybody in the village would think so. So +she colored angrily when her aunt Sarah spoke as she did, although +she said nothing. But her mother, although she had rebelled in +private bitterly against her daughter's choice, was ready enough to +take up the cudgels for her in public. + +"Well," said Hannah Berry, "two old maids in the family is about +enough, accordin' to my way of thinkin'." + +"It's better to be an old maid than to marry somebody you don't want, +jest for the sake of bein' married," retorted Sarah Barnard, +fiercely. + +The two sisters clashed like two thorny bushes of one family in a +gale the whole afternoon. The two daughters sewed silently, and +Sylvia knitted a stocking with scarcely a word until she arose to get +tea. + +Cephas and Silas both came to tea, which was served in state, with a +fine linen table-cloth, and Sylvia's mother's green and white +sprigged china. Nobody suspected, as they tasted the damson sauce +with the thin silver spoons, as they tilted the green and white +teacups to their lips, and ate the rich pound-cake and pie, what a +very feast of renunciation and tragedy this was to poor Sylvia Crane. +Cephas and Silas, indeed, knew that money had been advanced her by +the town upon her estate, but they were far from suspecting, and, +indeed, were unwilling to suspect, how nearly it was exhausted and +the property lived out. It was only a meagre estimate that the town +of Pembroke had made of the Crane ancestral acres. If Silas and +Cephas had ever known what it was, they had dismissed it from their +minds, they were interested in not knowing. Suppose their wives +should want to give her a home and support. + +The women knew nothing whatever. + +When they went home, an hour after tea, Hannah Berry turned to Sylvia +in the doorway. "I suppose you know the weddin' is comin' off pretty +soon now," said she. + +"Yes, I s'posed 'twas," answered Sylvia, trying to smile. + +"Well, I thought I'd jest mention it, so you could get your present +ready," said Hannah. She nudged Rose violently as she spoke. + +"I don't care; I meant to give her a hint," she said, chuckling, when +they were outside. "She can give you something jest as well as not; +she might give you some silver teaspoons, or a table, or sofa. There! +she bought that handsome sofa for herself a few years ago, an' she +didn't need it more'n nothin' at all. I suppose she thought Richard +Alger was comin' steady, but now he's stopped." + +Rose was married in a few weeks. The morning of the wedding-day +Sylvia went into Berry's store and called William aside. + +"If you can, I wish you'd come 'round by-an'-by with your horse an' +your wood-sled," said she. + +"Yes, guess I can; what is it you want?" asked William, eying her +curiously. She was very pale; there were red circles around her eyes, +and her mouth trembled. + +"Oh, it ain't anything, only a little present I wanted to send to +Rose," replied Sylvia. + +"Well," said William, "I'll be along by-an'-by." He looked after her +in a perplexed way as she went out. + +Silas was in the back of the store, and presently he came forward. +"What she want you to do?" he inquired of his son. + +William told him. The old man chuckled. "Hannah give her a hint +'tother day, an' I guess she took it," he said. + +"I thought she looked pretty poorly," said William--"looked as if +she'd been crying or something. How do you suppose that property +holds out, father? I heard the town was allowing her on it." + +"Oh, I guess it'll last her as long as she lives," replied Silas, +gruffly. "Your mother had ought to had her thirds in it." + +"I don't know about that," said William. "Aunt Sylvy had a hard time +takin' care of grandmother." + +"She was paid for 't," returned Silas. + +"Richard Alger treated her mean." + +"Guess he sat out considerable firewood an' candle-grease," assented +the old man. + +A customer came in then, and Ezra Ray sprang forward. He was all +excited over his brother's wedding, and was tending store in his +place that day. His mother was making him a new suit to wear to the +wedding, and he felt as if the whole affair hung, as it were, upon +the buttons of his new jacket and the straps of his new trousers. + +"Guess I might as well go over to Aunt Sylvy's now as any time," said +William. + +"Don't see what she wanted you to fetch the horse an' sled for," +ruminated Silas. "Mother thought most likely she'd give some silver +teaspoons if she give anything." + +William went out to the barn, put the horse in the sled, and drove +down the hill towards Sylvia's. When he returned the old thin silver +teaspoons of the Crane family were in his coat-pocket, and Sylvia's +dearly beloved and fondly cherished hair-cloth sofa was on the sled +behind him. + +"What in creation did she send them old teaspoons and that old sofa +for?" his mother asked, disgustedly. + +"I don't know," replied William, soberly; "but I do know one thing: I +hated to take them bad enough. She acted all upset over it. I think +she'd better have kept her sofa and teaspoons as long as she lived." + +"Course she was upset givin' away anything," scolded his mother. "It +was jest like her, givin' away a passel of old truck ruther than +spend any money. Well, I s'pose you may as well set that sofa in the +parlor. It ain't hurt much, anyway." + +Rose and her husband were to live with her parents for the present. +She was married that evening. She wore a blue silk dress, and some +rose-geranium blossoms and leaves in her hair. Tommy Ray sat by her +side on Sylvia's sofa until the company and the minister were all +there. Then they stood up and were married. + +Sylvia came to the wedding in her best silk gown; she had trembled +lest Richard Alger should be there, but he had not been invited. +Hannah Berry cherished a deep resentment against him. + +"I ain't goin' to have any man that's treated one of my folks as mean +as he has set foot in my house to a weddin', not if I know it," she +told Rose. + +After the marriage-cake and cider were passed around, the old people +sat solemnly around the borders of the rooms, and the young people +played games. William and his wife were not there. Hannah had not +dared to slight them, but William could not prevail upon Rebecca to +go. + +Barney, also, had not been invited to the wedding. Mrs. Berry had an +open grudge against him on her niece's account, and a covert one on +her daughter's. Hannah Berry had a species of loyalty in her nature, +inasmuch as she would tolerate ill-treatment of her kin from nobody +but her own self. + +Charlotte Barnard came with her father and mother, and sat quietly +with them all the evening. She was beginning insensibly to rather +hold herself aloof from the young people, and avoid joining in their +games. She felt older. People had wondered if she would not wear the +dress she had had made for her own wedding, but she did not. She wore +her old purple silk, which had been made over from one of her +mother's, and a freshly-starched muslin collar. The air was full of +the rich sweetness of cake; there was a loud discord of laughter and +high shrill voices, through which yet ran a subtle harmony of mirth. +Laughing faces nodded and uplifted like flowers in the merry romping +throngs in the middle of the room, while the sober ones against the +walls watched with grave, elderly, retrospective eyes. + +As soon as she could, Sylvia Crane stole into her sister's bedroom, +where the women's outside garments were heaped high on the bed, got +her own, opened the side door softly, and went home. The next day she +was going to the poor-house, and nobody but the three selectmen of +Pembroke knew it. She had begged them, almost on her knees, to tell +nobody until she was there. + +That night she rolled away the guardian stone from before the door +with the feeling that it was for the last time. All that night she +worked. She could not go to bed, she could not sleep, and she had +gone beyond any frenzy of sorrow and tears. All her blind and +helpless rage against life and the obdurately beneficent force, which +had been her conception of Providence, was gone. When the battle is +over there is no more need for the fury of combat. Sylvia felt her +battle was over, and she felt the peace of defeat. + +She was to take a few necessaries to the poor-house with her; she had +them to pack, and she also had some cleaning to do. + +She had a vague idea that the town, which seemed to loom over her +like some dreadful shadowy giant of a child's story, would sell the +house, and it must be left in neat order for the inspection of seller +and buyer. "I ain't goin' to have the town lookin' over the house an' +sayin' it ain't kept decent," she said. So she worked hard all night, +and her candle lit up first one window, then another, moving all over +the house like a will-o'-the-wisp. + +The man who had charge of the poor-house came for her the next +morning at ten o'clock. Sylvia was all ready. At quarter past ten he +drove out of the old road where the Crane house stood and down the +village street. The man's name was Jonathan Leavitt. He was quite old +but hearty, with a stubbly fringe of white beard around a ruddy face. +He had come on a wood-sled for the greater convenience of bringing +Sylvia's goods. There were a feather-bed, bolster, and pillows, tied +up in an old homespun blanket, on the rear of the sled; there was +also a red chest, and a great bundle of bedclothing. Sylvia sat in +her best rocking-chair just behind Jonathan Leavitt, who drove +standing. + +"It's a pleasant day for this time of year," he observed to Sylvia +when they started. Sylvia nodded assent. + +Jonathan Leavitt had had a fear lest Sylvia might make a disturbance +about going. Many a time had it taken hours for him to induce a poor +woman to leave her own door-stone; and when at length they had set +forth, it was to an accompaniment of shrill, piteous lamentations, so +strained and persistent that they seemed scarcely human, and more +like the cries of a scared cat being hauled away from her home. +Everybody on the road had turned to look after the sled, and Jonathan +Leavitt had driven on, looking straight ahead, his face screwed hard, +lashing now and then his old horse, with a gruff shout. Now he felt +relieved and grateful to Sylvia for going so quietly. He was disposed +to be very friendly to her. + +"You'd better keep your rockin'-chair kind of stiddy," he said, when +they turned the corner into the new road, and the chair oscillated +like an uneasy berth at sea. + +Sylvia sat up straight in the chair. She had on her best bonnet and +shawl, and her worked lace veil over her face. Her poor blue eyes +stared out between the black silk leaves and roses. If she had been a +dead woman and riding to her grave, and it had been possible for her +to see as she was borne along the familiar road, she would have +regarded everything in much the same fashion that she did now. She +looked at everything--every tree, every house and wall--with a pang +of parting forever. She felt as if she should never see them again in +their old light. + +The poor-house was three miles out of the village; the road lay past +Richard Alger's house. When they drew near it Sylvia bent her head +low and averted her face; she shut her eyes behind the black roses. +She did not want to know when she passed the house. An awful shame +that Richard should see her riding past to the poor-house seized upon +her. + +The wood-sled went grating on, a chain rattled; she calculated that +they were nearly past when there was a jerk, and Jonathan Leavitt +cried "Hullo!" + +"Where are you going?" shouted another voice. Sylvia knew it. Her +heart pounded. She turned her face farther to one side, and did not +open her eyes. + +Richard Alger came plunging down out of his yard. His handsome face +was quite pale under a slight grizzle of beard, he was in his +shirt-sleeves, he had on no dicky or stock, and his sinewy throat +showed. + +"Where you goin'?" he gasped out again, as he came up to the sled. + +"I'm a takin' Sylvy home. Why?" inquired Jonathan Leavitt, with a +dazed look. + +"Home? What are you headed this way for? What are all those things on +the sled?" + +"She's lived out her place, an' the town's jest took it; guess you +didn't know, Richard," said Jonathan Leavitt. His eyes upon the other +man were half shrewdly inquiring, half bewildered. + +Sylvia never turned her head. She sat with her eyes closed behind her +veil. + +[Illustration: "Sylvia never turned her head"] + +"Just turn that sled 'round," said Richard Alger. + +"Turn the sled 'round?" + +"Yes, turn it 'round!" Richard himself grasped the bay horse by the +bit as he spoke. "Back, back!" he shouted. + +"What are you doin' on, Richard?" cried the old man; but he pulled +his right rein mechanically, and the sled slewed slowly and safely +around. + +Richard jumped on and stood just beside Sylvia, holding to a stake. +"Where d'ye want to go?" asked the old man. + +"Back." + +"But the town--" + +"I'll take care of the town." + +Jonathan Leavitt drove back. Sylvia opened her eyes a little way, and +saw Richard's back. "You'll catch cold without your coat," she half +gasped. + +"No, I sha'n't," returned Richard, but he did not turn his head. + +Sylvia did not say any more. She was trembling so that her very +thoughts seemed to waver. They turned the corner of the old road, and +drove up to her old house. Richard stepped off the sled, and held out +his hands to Sylvia. "Come, get off," said he. + +"I dunno about this," said Jonathan Leavitt. "I'm willin' as far as +I'm concerned, Richard, but I've had my instructions." + +"I tell you I'll take care of it," said Richard Alger. "I'll settle +all the damages with the town. Come, Sylvia, get off." + +And Sylvia Crane stepped weakly off the wood-sled, and Richard Alger +helped her into the house. "Why, you can't hardly walk," said he, and +Sylvia had never heard anything like the tenderness in his tone. He +bent down and rolled away the stone. Sylvia had rolled it in front of +the door herself, when she went out, as she supposed, for the last +time. Then he opened the door, and took hold of her slender shawled +arm, and half lifted her in. + +"Go in an' sit down," said he, "while we get the things in." + +Sylvia went mechanically into her clean, fireless parlor; it was the +room where she had always received Richard. She sat down in a +flag-bottomed chair and waited. + +Richard and Jonathan Leavitt came into the house tugging the +feather-bed between them. "We'll put it in the kitchen," she heard +Richard say. They brought in the chest and the bundle of bedding. +Then Richard came into the parlor carrying the rocking-chair before +him. "You want this in here, don't you?" he said. + +"It belongs here," said Sylvia, faintly. Jonathan Leavitt gathered up +his reins and drove out of the yard. + +Richard set down the chair; then he went and stood before Sylvia. + +"Look here, Sylvia," said he. Then he stopped and put his hands over +his face. His whole frame shook. Sylvia stood up. "Don't, Richard," +she said. + +"I never had any idea of this," said Richard Alger, with a great +groaning sob. + +"Don't you feel so bad, Richard," said Sylvia. + +Suddenly Richard put is arm around Sylvia, and pulled her close to +him. "I'll look out and do better by you the rest of your life, +anyhow," he said. He took hold of Sylvia's veil and pulled it back. +Her pale face drooped before him. + +"You look--half--starved," he groaned. Sylvia looked up and saw tears +on his rough cheeks. + +"Don't you feel bad, Richard," she said again. + +"I'd ought to feel bad," said Richard, fiercely. + +"I couldn't help it, that night you come an' found me gone. It was +that night Charlotte had the trouble with Barney. Sarah, she wouldn't +let me come home any sooner. I was dreadful upset about it." + +"I've been meaner than sin, an' I don't know as it makes it any +better, because I couldn't seem to help it," said Richard Alger. "I +didn't forget you a single minute, Sylvia, an' I was awful sorry for +you, an' there wasn't a Sabbath night that I didn't want to come more +than I wanted to go to Heaven! But I couldn't, I couldn't nohow. I've +always had to travel in tracks, an' no man livin' knows how deep a +track he's in till he gets jolted out of it an' can't get back. But +I've got into a track now, an' I'll die before I get out of it. There +ain't any use in your lookin' at me, Sylvia, but if you can make up +your mind to have me, I'll try my best, an' do all I can to make it +all up to you in the time that's left." + +"I'm afraid you've had a dreadful hard time, livin' alone so long, +an' tryin' to do for yourself," said Sylvia, pitifully. + +"I'm glad I have," replied Richard, grimly. + +He clasped Sylvia closer; her best bonnet was all crushed against his +breast. He looked around over her head, as if searching for +something. + +"Where's the sofa gone?" he asked. + +"I gave it to Rose for a weddin' present. I thought I shouldn't ever +need it," Sylvia murmured. + +"Well, I've got one, it ain't any matter," said Richard. + +He moved towards the rocking-chair, drawing Sylvia gently along with +him. + +"Sit down, Sylvia," said he, softly. + +"No, you sit down in the rocking-chair, Richard," said Sylvia. She +reached out and pulled a flag-bottomed chair close and sat down +herself. Richard sat in the rocking-chair. + +Sylvia untied her bonnet, took it off, and straightened it. Richard +watched her. "I want you to have a white bonnet," said he. + +"I'm too old, Richard," Sylvia replied, blushing. + +"No, you ain't," he said, defiantly; "you've got to have a white +bonnet." + +Sylvia looked in his face--and indeed hers looked young enough for a +white bonnet; it flushed and lit up, like an old flower revived in a +new spring. + +Richard leaned over towards her, and the two old lovers kissed each +other. Richard moved his chair close to hers, and Sylvia felt his arm +coming around her waist. She sat still. "Put your head down on my +shoulder," whispered Richard. + +And Sylvia laid her head on Richard's shoulder. She felt as if she +were dreaming of a dream. + + + +Chapter XIII + + +When Richard Alger went home he wore an old brown shawl of Sylvia's +over his shoulders. He had demurred a little. "I can't go down the +street with your shawl on, Sylvia," he had pleaded, but Sylvia +insisted. + +"You'll catch your death of cold, goin' home in your shirt-sleeves," +she said. "They won't know it's my shawl. Men wear shawls." + +"You've worn this ever since I've known you, Sylvia, an' I ain't +given to catchin' cold easy," said Richard almost pitifully. But he +stood still and let Sylvia pin the shawl around his neck. Sylvia +seemed to have suddenly acquired a curious maternal authority over +him, and he submitted to it as if it were merely natural that he +should. + +Richard Alger went meekly down the road, wearing the old brown shawl +that had often draped Sylvia Crane's slender feminine shoulders when +she walked abroad, since she was a young girl. Sylvia had always worn +it corner-wise, but she had folded it square for him as making it +more of a masculine garment. Two corners waved out stiffly from his +square shoulders. He tried to swing his arms unconcernedly under it; +once the fringe hit his hand and he jumped. + +He was shame-faced when he struck out into the main road, but he did +not dream of taking off the shawl. A very passion of obedience and +loyalty to Sylvia had taken possession of him. With every submission +after long persistency, there is a strong reverse action, as from the +sudden cessation of any motion. Richard now yielded in more marked +measure than he had opposed. He had borne with his whimsical will +against all his sweetheart's dearest wishes during the better part of +her life; now he would wear any insignia of bondage if she bade him. + +He had gone a short distance on the main road when he met Hannah +Berry. She was hurrying along, her face was quite red, and he could +hear her pant as she drew near. She looked at him sharply, she fairly +narrowed her eyes over the shawl. "Good-mornin'," said she. + +Richard said "Good-morning," gruffly. The shawl blew out against +Hannah's shoulder as she passed him. She turned about and stared +after him, and he knew it. He went on with dogged chin in the folds +of the shawl. + +Hannah Berry hurried along to Sylvia Crane's. When she opened the +door Sylvia was just coming out of the parlor, and the two sisters +met in the entry with a kind of shock. + +"Oh, it's you," murmured Sylvia. Sylvia cast down her eyes before her +sister. She tried not to smile. Her hair was tumbled and there were +red spots on her cheeks. + +"Has he been here all this time?" demanded Hannah. + +"He's just gone." + +"I met him out here. What in creation did you rig him up in your old +shawl for, Sylvy Crane?" + +"He was in his shirt-sleeves, an' I wasn't goin' to have him catch +his death of cold," replied Sylvia with dignity. + +"In his shirt-sleeves!" + +"Yes, he run out just as he was." + +"Land sakes!" said Hannah. The two women looked at each other. +Suddenly Hannah threw out her arms from under her shawl, and clasped +Sylvia. "Oh, Sylvy," she sobbed out, "to think you was settin' out +for the poor-house this mornin', an' we havin' a weddin' last night, +an' never knowin' it! Why didn't you say anythin' about it, why +didn't you, Sylvy?" + +"I knew you couldn't do anything, Hannah." + +"Knew I couldn't do anything! Do you suppose me or Sarah would have +let all the sister we've got go to the poor-house whilst we had a +roof over our heads? We'd took you right in, either one of us." + +"I was afraid Silas an' Cephas wouldn't be willin'." + +"I guess they'd had to be willin'. I told Silas just now that if +Richard Alger didn't come forward like a man, you was comin' to my +house, an' have the best we've got as long as you lived. Silas, he +said he thought you'd ought to earn your own livin', an' I told him +there wa'n't any chance for a woman like you to earn your livin' in +Pembroke, that you could earn your livin' enough livin' at your own +sister's. Oh, Sylvy, I can't stand it, when I think of your startin' +out that way, an' never sayin' a word." Hannah sobbed convulsively on +her sister's shoulder. There were tears in Sylvia's eyes, but her +face above her sister's head was radiant. "Don't, Hannah," she said. +"It's all over now, you know." + +"Is he--goin' to have you now--Sylvy?" + +"I guess so, maybe," said Sylvia. + +"I suppose you'll go to his house, this is so run down." + +"He's goin' to fix this one up." + +"You think you'd rather live here, then? Well, I s'pose I should. I +s'pose he's goin' to buy it. The town hadn't ought to ask much. Sylvy +Crane, I can't get it through my head, nohow." + +"What?" said Sylvia. + +"How you run out this nice place so quick. I thought an' Sarah +thought you'd got enough to last you jest as long as you lived, an' +have some left to leave then." + +Hannah stood back and looked at her sister sharply. + +"I've always been as savin' as I knew how," said Sylvia. + +"Well, I dunno but you have. You got that sofa, that cost +considerable. I shouldn't have thought you'd got that, if you'd known +how things were, Sylvy." + +"I kinder felt as if I needed it." + +"Well, I guess you might have got along without that, anyhow. +Richard's got one, ain't he?" + +"Yes, he says he has." + +"I thought I remembered his mother's buyin' one just before his +father died. Well, you'll have his sofa, then; if I remember right, +it's a better one than yours that you give Rose. Now, Sylvy Crane, +you jest put on your hood an' shawl, an' come home with me, an' have +some dinner. Have you got anything in the house to eat?" + +"I've got a few things," replied Sylvia, evasively. + +"What?" + +"Some potatoes an' apples." + +"Potatoes an' apples!" Hannah began to sob again. "To think of your +comin' to this," she wailed. "My own sister not havin' anything in +the house to eat, an' settin' out for the poor-house, an' everybody +in town knowin' it." + +"Don't feel bad about it, Hannah; it's all over now," said Sylvia. + +"Don't feel bad about it! I guess you'd feel bad about it if you was +in my place," returned Hannah. "I s'pose you think now you've got +Richard Alger that there's nothin' else makes any odds. I guess I've +got some feelin's. Get your hood and shawl, now do; dinner was all +ready when I come away." + +"I guess I'd better not, Hannah," said Sylvia. It seemed to her that +she never would want anything to eat again. She wanted to be alone in +her old house, and hug her happiness to her heart, whose starvation +had caused her more agony than any other. Now that was appeased she +cared for nothing else. + +"You come right along," said Hannah. "I've got a nice roast spare-rib +an' turnip an' squash, an' you're goin' to come an' have some of it." + +When Hannah and Sylvia got out on the main road, they heard Sarah +Barnard's voice calling them. She was hurrying down the hill. Cephas +had just come home with the news. Jonathan Leavitt had spread it over +the village from the nucleus of the store where he had stopped on his +way home. + +Sarah Barnard sat down on the snowy stone-wall among the last year's +blackberry vines, and cried as if her heart would break. Finally +Hannah, after joining with her awhile, turned to and comforted her. + +"Land sake, don't take on so, Sarah Barnard!" said she; "it's all +over now. Sylvy's goin' to marry Richard Alger, an' there ain't a man +in Pembroke any better off, unless it's Squire Payne. She's goin' to +have him right off, an' he's goin' to buy the house an' fix it up, +an' she's goin' to have all his mother's nice things, an' she's +comin' home with me now, an' have some nice roast spare-rib an' +turnip. There ain't nothin' to take on about." + +Hannah fairly pulled Sarah off the stone-wall. "Sylvy an' me have got +to go," said she. "You come down this afternoon, an' we'll all go +over to her house, an' talk it over. I s'pose Richard will come +to-night. I hope he'll shave first, an' put on his coat. I never see +such a lookin' sight as he was when I met him jest now." + +"I didn't see as he looked very bad," said Sylvia, with dignity. + +"It seems as if it would kill me jest to think of it," sobbed Sarah +Barnard, turning tremulously away. + +"Don't you feel bad about it any longer, Sarah," Sylvia said, half +absently. Her hair blew out wildly from under her hood over her +flushed cheeks; she smiled as if at something visible, past her +sister, and past everything around her. + +"I tell you there ain't nothin' to be killed about!" Hannah called +after Sarah; she caught hold of Sylvia's arm. "Sarah always was kind +of hystericky," said she. "That spare-rib will be all dried up, an' I +wouldn't give a cent for it, if you don't come along." + +Richard Alger and Sylvia Crane were married very soon. There was no +wedding, and people were disappointed about that. Hannah Berry tried +to persuade Sylvia to have one. "I'm willin' to make the cake," said +she. "I've jest been through one weddin', but I'll do it. If I'd been +goin' with a feller as long as you have with him, I wouldn't get +cheated out of a weddin', anyhow. I'd have a weddin' an' I'd have +cake, an' I'd ask folks, especially after what's happened. I'd let +'em see I wa'n't quite so far gone, if I had set out for the +poor-house once. I'd have a weddin'. Richard's got money enough. I +had real good-luck with Rose's cake, an' I ain't afraid to try yours. +I guess I should make it a little mite stiffer than I did hers." + +But Sylvia was obdurate. She did not say much, but she went her own +way. She had gained a certain quiet decision and dignity which +bewildered everybody. Her sisters had dimly realized that there was +something about her out of plumb, as it were. Her nature had been +warped to one side by one concentrated and unsatisfied desire. "Seems +to me, sometimes, as if Sylvy was kind of queer," Hannah Berry often +said. "I dunno but she's kinder turned on Richard Alger," Sarah would +respond. Now she seemed suddenly to have regained her equilibrium, +and no longer slanted doubtfully across her sisters' mental horizons. + +She and Richard went to the minister's house early one Sabbath +morning, and were married. Then they went to meeting, Sylvia on +Richard's arm. They sat side by side in the Alger pew; it was on the +opposite side of the meeting-house from Sylvia's old pew. It seemed +to her as if she would see her old self sitting there alone, as of +old, if she looked across. She fixed her eyes straight ahead, and +never glanced at Richard by her side. She held her white-bonneted +head up like some gentle flower which had sprung back to itself after +a hard wind. She had a new white bridal bonnet, as Richard had +wished; it was trimmed with white plumes and ribbons, and she wore a +long white-worked veil over her face. The wrought net-work, as +delicate as frost, softened all the hard lines and fixed tints, and +gave to her face an illusion of girlhood. She wore the two curls over +her cheeks. Richard had asked her why she didn't curl her hair as she +used to do. + +All the people saw Sylvia's white bonnet; it seemed to turn their +eyes like a brilliant white spot, which reflected all the light in +the meeting-house. But there were a few women who eyed more sharply +Sylvia's wedding-gown and mantilla, for she wore the very ones which +poor Charlotte Barnard had made ready for her own bridal. Sylvia was +just about her niece's height; the gown had needed a little taking in +to fit her thinner form, and that was all. + +Charlotte's mother had brought them over to Sylvia's one night, all +nicely folded in white linen towels. + +"Charlotte wants you to have 'em; she says she won't ever need 'em, +poor child!" she said, in response to Sylvia's remonstrances. Mrs. +Barnard's eyes were red, as if she had been crying. It had apparently +been harder for her to give up the poor slighted wedding-clothes than +for her daughter. Charlotte had not shed a tear when she took them +out of the chest and shook off the sprigs of lavender which she had +laid over them; but it seemed to her that she could smell that faint +elusive breath of lavender across the meeting-house when Sylvia came +in, and the rustle of her bridal-gown was as loud in her ears as if +she herself wore it. + +"Somebody might just as well have them, and have some good of them," +she had told her mother, and she spoke as if they were the garments +of some one who was dead. + +"Seems to me, as much as they cost, you'd ought to wear 'em +yourself," said her mother. + +"I never shall," Charlotte said, firmly; "and they might just as well +do somebody some good." Charlotte's New England thrift and practical +sense stretched her sentiment on the rack, and she never made a +sound. + +Barney, watching out from his window that Sunday, caught a flash of +green and purple from Sylvia's silken skirt as she turned the corner +of the old road with Richard. "She's got on Charlotte's +wedding-dress. She's--given it to her," he said, with a gasp. He had +never forgotten it since the day Charlotte had shown it to him. He +had pictured her in it, hundreds of times, to his own delight and +torment. He had a fierce impulse to rush out and strip his +Charlotte's wedding-clothes from this other bride's back. + +"She's gone and given it away, and she hasn't got a good silk dress +herself; she's wearing her old cloak to meeting," he half sobbed to +himself. He wondered piteously, thinking of his savings and of his +property since his father's death, if he might not, at least, buy +Charlotte a new silk dress and a mantilla. "I don't believe she'd be +mad," he said; "but I'm afraid her father wouldn't let her wear it." + +The more he thought of it the more it seemed as if he could not bear +it, unless he could buy Charlotte the silk dress. "Her clothes ain't +as good as mine," he said, and he thought of his best blue broadcloth +suit, and his flowered vest and silk hat. It seemed to him that with +all the terrible injury he was doing Charlotte, he also injured her +by having better clothes than she, and that that was something which +might be set right. + +As Barney sat by his window that Sunday afternoon he saw a man coming +down the hill. He watched him idly, then his heart leaped and he +leaned forward. The man advanced with a careless, stately swing, his +head was thrown back, his mulberry-colored coat had a sheen like a +leaf in the sun. The man was Thomas Payne. Barney turned white as he +watched him. He had not known he was in town, and his jealous heart +at once whispered that he had come to see Charlotte. Thomas Payne +came opposite the house, then passed out of sight. Barney sat with +staring eyes full of miserable questioning upon the road. Had he been +to see Charlotte? he speculated. He had come from that direction; but +Barney remembered, with a sigh of hope, that Squire Payne had a +sister, an old maiden lady, who lived a half-mile beyond Charlotte. +Perhaps Thomas Payne had been to see his aunt. + +[Illustration: "Thomas Payne advanced with a careless, stately +swing"] + +All the rest of the day Barney was in an agony of doubt and unrest +over the unsettled question. He had been living lately in a sort of +wretched peace of remorse and misery; now it was rudely shaken. He +walked the floor; at night he could not sleep. He seemed to be in a +very torture-chamber of his own making, and the tortures were worse +than any enemies could have devised. Suppose Thomas Payne was sitting +up with Charlotte this Sunday night. Once he thought, wildly, of +going up the hill to see if there was a light in her parlor, but it +seemed to him as if the doubt was more endurable than the certainty +might be. Suppose Thomas Payne was sitting up with Charlotte; he +called to mind all her sweet ways. Suppose she was looking and +speaking to Thomas Payne in this way or that way; his imagination +threw out pictures before him upon which he could not close his eyes. +He saw Thomas Payne's face all glowing with triumph, he saw +Charlotte's with the old look that she had worn for him. Charlotte's +caresses had been few and maidenly; they all came into his mind like +stings. He knew just how she would put her tender arm around this +other man's neck, how she would lift grave, willing lips to his. He +wished that they had never been for him, for all they seemed worth to +him now was this bitter knowledge. His fancy led him on and on to his +own torment. There was a bridal mist around Charlotte. He followed +the old courses of his own dreams, after his memories were passed, +and they caused him worse agony. + +The next morning Barney went to the store. It was absolutely +necessary for him to go, but he shunned everybody. He had a horrible +fear lest somebody should say, "Hallo, Barney, know Thomas Payne's +goin' to marry your old girl?" He had planned the very words, and the +leer of sly exultation that would accompany it. + +But he made his purchase and went out, and nobody spoke to him. He +had not seen Thomas Payne in the back part of the store behind the +stove. Presently Thomas got up and lounged leisurely out through the +store, exchanging a word with one and another on his way. When he got +out Barney was going down the road quite a way ahead of him. Thomas +Payne kept on in his tracks. There was another man coming towards +him, and presently he stood aside to let him pass. "Good-day, Royal," +said Thomas Payne. + +"Good-day, Thomas," returned the other. "When d'ye get home?" + +"Day before yesterday. How are you this winter, Royal?" + +"Well, I'm pretty fair to middlin'." The man's face, sunken in his +feeble chest far below the level of Thomas's eyes, looked up at him +with a sort of whimsical patience. His back was bent like a bow; he +had had curvature of the spine for years, from a fall when a young +man. + +"Glad to hear that," returned Thomas. The man passed him, walking as +if he were vainly trying to straighten himself at every step. He held +his knees stiff and threw his elbows back, but his back still curved +pitifully, although it seemed as if he were half cheating himself +into the belief that he was walking as straight as other men. + +Thomas walked on rapidly, lessening the distance between himself and +Barney. As he went on he began to have a curious fancy, which he +could hardly persuade himself was a fancy. It seemed to him that +Barney Thayer was walking like the man whom he had just met, that his +back had that same terrible curve. + +Thomas Payne stared in strange bewilderment at Barney's back. "It +can't be that he has spine disease, that he has got hurt in any way," +he thought to himself. The purpose with which he had started out +rather paled in his mind. He walked more rapidly. It certainly seemed +to him that Barney's back was bent. He got within hailing distance +and called out. + +"Hallo!" cried Thomas Payne. + +Barney turned around, and it seemed as if he turned with the feeble, +crooked motion of the other man. He saw Thomas Payne, and his face +was ghastly white, but he stood still and waited. + +"How are you?" Thomas said, gruffly, as he came up. + +"How are you, Thomas?" returned Barney. He looked at Thomas with a +dogged expectancy. He thought he was going to tell him that he was to +marry Charlotte. + +But Thomas was surveying him still in that strange bewilderment. +"Look here, Barney," said he, bluntly, "have you been sick? I haven't +heard of it." + +"No, I haven't," replied Barney, wonderingly. + +Thomas's eyes were fixed upon his back. "I didn't know but you had +got hurt or something," said he. + +Barney shook his head. Thomas thought to himself that his back was +certainly curved. "I guess I'll walk along with you a little way," +said he; "I've got something I wanted to say. For God's sake, Barney, +you are sick!" + +"No, I ain't sick." + +"You are white as death." + +"There's nothing the matter with me," Barney half gasped. He turned +and walked on, and his back still bent like a bow to Thomas Payne's +eyes. + +Thomas went on silently until they had passed a house just beyond. +Then he stopped again. "Look here, Barney," said he. + +"Well," said Barney. He stopped, but he did not turn or face Thomas. +He only presented to him that curved, or semblance of a curved, back. + +"I want to speak to you about Charlotte Barnard," said Thomas Payne, +abruptly. Barney waited without a word. + +"I suppose you'll think it's none of my business, and in one way it +isn't," said Thomas, "but I am going to say it for her sake; I have +made up my mind to. It seems to me it's time, if anybody cares +anything about her. What are you treating Charlotte Barnard so for, +Barnabas Thayer? It's time you gave an account to somebody, and you +can give it to me." + +Barney did not answer. + +"Speak, you miserable coward!" shouted Thomas Payne, with a sudden +threatening motion of his right arm. + +Then Barney turned, and Thomas started back at the sight of his face. +"I can't help it," he said. + +"Can't help it, you--" + +"I can't, before God, Thomas." + +"Why not?" + +Barney raised his right hand and pointed past Thomas. +"You--met--Royal Bennet just--now," he gasped, hoarsely. + +Thomas nodded. + +"You--saw--his--back?" + +"Yes." + +"Well, something like that ails me. I--can't help it--before God." + +"You don't mean--" Thomas said, and stopped, looking at Barney's +back. + +"I mean that's why I can't--help it." + +"Have you hurt your back?" Thomas asked, in a subdued tone. + +"I've hurt my soul," said Barney. "It happened that Sunday night +years ago. I--can't get over it. I am bent like his back." + +"I should think you'd better get over it, then, if that's all," +Thomas Payne said, roughly. + +"I--can't, any more than he can." + +"Do you mean your back's hurt? For God's sake talk sense, Barney!" +Thomas cried out, in bewilderment. + +"It's more than my back; it's me." + +Thomas stared at Barney; a horror as of something uncanny and +abnormal stole over him. Was the man's back curved, or had he by some +subtle vision a perception of some terrible spiritual deformity, only +symbolized by a curved spine? In a minute he gave an impatient stamp, +and tried to shake himself free from the vague pity and horror which +the other had aroused. + +"Do you know that you are ruining the life of the best woman that +ever lived?" he demanded, fiercely. + +Barney looked at him, and suddenly there was a flash as of something +noble in his face. + +"Look here, Thomas," he said, brokenly, in hoarse gasps. "Last night +I--went mad, almost, because--I thought--maybe you'd been to +see--her. I--saw you coming down the hill. I thought--I'd die +thinking of--you--with her. I can't tell you--what I've been through, +what I've suffered, and--what I suffer right along. I know I ain't to +be pitied. I know--there ain't any pity--anywhere for anything--like +this. I don't pity--myself. But it's awful. If you could get a sight +of it, you'd know." + +Again to Thomas Payne, looking at the other, it was as if he saw a +pale agonized face staring up at him from the midst of a curved mass +of deformity. He shuddered. + +"I don't know what to make of you, Barney Thayer," he said, looking +away. + +"There's one thing--I want to say," Barney went on. "I think there's +enough of a man left in me--I--think I've got strength enough to say +it. She--ought to be happy. I don't want her--wasting her whole +life--God knows--I don't--no matter what it does--to me. I--wish-- +See here, Thomas. I know you--like her. Maybe she'll--turn to you. It +seems as if she must. I hope you will--oh, for God's sake, be--good +to her, Thomas!" + +Thomas Payne's face was as white as Barney's. He turned to go. +"There's no use talking this way. You know Charlotte Barnard as well +as I do," he said. "You know she's one of the women that never love +any man but one. I don't want another man's wife, if she'd have me." +Suddenly he faced Barney again. "For God's sake, Barney," he cried +out, "be a man and go back to her, and marry her!" + +Barney shook his head; with a kind of a sob he turned around and went +his way without another word. Thomas Payne said no more; he stared +after Barney's retreating figure, and again the look of bewilderment +and horror was in his face. + +That afternoon he asked his father, with a casual air, if he had +heard anything about Barney Thayer getting his back injured in any +way. + +"Why, no, I can't say as I have," returned the squire. + +"I saw him this morning, and I thought his back looked as if it was +growing like Royal Bennet's. I dare say I imagined it," said Thomas. +Then he went out of the room whistling. + +But, during his few weeks' stay in Pembroke, he put the same question +to one and another, with varying results. Some said at once, with a +sudden look of vague horror, that it was so. That Barney Thayer was +indeed growing deformed; that they had noticed it. Others scouted the +idea. "Saw him this morning, and he's as straight as he ever was," +they said. + +Whether Barney Thayer's back was, indeed, bowed into that terrible +spinal curve or not, Thomas Payne could not tell by any agreement of +witnesses. If some, gifted with acute spiritual insight, really +perceived that dreadful warping of a diseased will, and clothed it +with a material image for their own grosser senses; or if Barney, +through dwelling upon his own real but hidden infirmity, had actually +come unconsciously to give it a physical expression, and walked at +times through the village with his back bent like his spirit, +although not diseased, Thomas Payne could only speculate. He finally +began to adopt the latter belief, as he himself, sometimes on meeting +Barney, thought that he walked as erect as he ever had. + +Thomas Payne stayed several weeks in Pembroke, and he did not go to +see Charlotte. Once he met her in the street, and stopped and shook +hands with gay heartiness. + +"He's got over caring about me," Charlotte thought to herself with a +strange pang, which shocked and shamed her. "Most likely he's got +somebody out West, where he is," she said to herself firmly; that she +ought to be glad if he had, and that she was; and yet she was not, +although she never owned it to herself, and was stanchly loyal to her +old love. + +Charlotte herself often fancied uneasily that Barney's back was +growing like Royal Bennet's. She watched him furtively when she +could. Then she would say to herself, another time, that she must +have imagined it. + +Thomas Payne went away the first of May. That evening Charlotte sat +on the door-step in the soft spring twilight. Her mother had just +come home from her sister Hannah Berry's. "Thomas Payne went this +afternoon," her mother said, standing before her. + +"Did he?" said Charlotte. + +"You might have had him if you hadn't stuck to a poor stick that +ain't fit to tie your shoes up!" Sarah cried out, with sudden +bitterness. Her voice sounded like Hannah Berry's. Charlotte knew +that was just what her aunt Hannah had said about it. + +"I don't ask him to tie my shoes up," returned Charlotte. + +"You can stan' up for him all you want to," said her mother. "You +know he's a poor tool, an' he's treatin' you mean. You know he can't +begin to come up to a young man like Thomas Payne." + +"Thomas Payne don't want me, and I don't want him; don't talk any +more about it, mother." + +"I think somebody ought to talk about it," said her mother, and she +pushed roughly past Charlotte into the house. + +Charlotte sat on the door-step a long while. "If Thomas Payne has got +anybody out West, I guess she'll be glad to see him," she thought. +The fancy pained her, and yet she seemed to see Thomas Payne and +Barney side by side, the one like a young prince--handsome and +stately, full of generous bravery--the other vaguely crouching +beneath some awful deformity, pitiful yet despicable in the eyes of +men, and her whole soul cleaved to her old lover. "What we've got is +ours," she said to herself. + +As she sat there a band of children went past, with a shrill, sweet +clamor of voices. They were out hanging May-baskets and bunches of +anemones. That was the favorite sport of the village children during +the month of May. The woods were full of soft, innocent, seeking +faces, bending over the delicate bells nodding in the midst of whorls +of dark leaves. Every evening, after sundown, there were mysterious +bursts of laughter and tiny scamperings around doors, and great balls +of bloom swinging from the latchets when they were opened; but no +person in sight, only soft gurgles of mirth and delight sounded +around a corner of darkness. + +After Charlotte went to bed that night she thought she heard somebody +at the south door. "It is the children with some may-flowers," she +thought. But presently she reflected that it was very late for the +children to be out. + +After a little while she got up, and stole down-stairs to the door, +feeling her way through the dark house. + +She opened the south door cautiously, and put her hand out. There +were no flowers swinging from the latch as she half expected. Her +bare feet touched something on the door-step; she stooped, and there +was a great package. + +Charlotte took it up, and went noiselessly back to her room with it. +She lighted a candle, and unfastened the paper wrappings. She gave a +little cry. There were yards of beautiful silk shimmering with lilac +and silver and rose-color, and there was also a fine lace mantle. + +Charlotte looked at them; she was quite pale and trembling. She +folded the silk and lace again carefully, and put them in a chest out +of sight. Then she went back to bed, and lay there crying wildly. + +"Poor Barney! poor Barney!" she sobbed to herself. + +The next evening, after Cephas and Sarah had gone to bed, Charlotte +crept out of the house with the package under her shawl. It was still +early. She ran nearly all the way to Barney Thayer's house; she was +afraid of meeting somebody, but she did not. + +She knocked softly on Barney's door, and heard him coming to open it +at once. When he saw her standing there he gave a great start, and +did not say anything. Charlotte thought he did not recognize her in +the dusk. + +"It's me, Barney," she said. + +"I know you," said Barney. She held out the package to him. "I've +brought this back," said she. + +Barney made no motion to take it from her. + +"I can't take it," she said, firmly. + +Suddenly Barney threw up his hands over his face. "Can't you take +just that much from me, Charlotte? Can't you let me do as much as +that for you?" he groaned out. + +"No, I can't," said Charlotte. "You must take it back, Barney." + +"Oh, Charlotte, can't you--take that much from me?" + +"I can take nothing from you as things are," Charlotte replied. + +"I wanted you to have a dress. I saw you had given the other away. I +didn't think--there was any harm in buying it for you, Charlotte." + +"It isn't your place to buy dresses for me as things are," said +Charlotte. She extended the package, and he took it, as if by force. +She heard him sob. + +"You must never try to do anything like this again," she said. "I +want you to understand it, Barney." + +Then she went away, and left him standing there holding his discarded +gift. + + + +Chapter XIV + + +After a while the village people ceased to have the affairs of Barney +Thayer and Charlotte Barnard particularly upon their minds. As time +went on, and nothing new developed in the case, they no longer dwelt +upon it. Circumstances, like people, soon show familiar faces, and +are no longer stared after and remarked. The people all became +accustomed to Barney living alone in his half-furnished house season +after season, and to Charlotte walking her solitary maiden path. They +seldom spoke of it among themselves; sometimes, when a stranger came +to town, they pointed out Barney and Charlotte as they would have any +point of local interest. + +"Do you see that house?" a woman bent on hospitable entertainment +said as she drove a matronly cousin from another village down the +street; "the one with the front windows boarded up, without any step +to the front door? Well, Barney Thayer lives there all alone. He's +old Caleb Thayer's son, all the son that's left; the other one died. +There was some talk of his mother's whippin' him to death. She died +right after, but they said afterwards that she didn't, that he run +away one night, an' went slidin' downhill, an' that was what killed +him; he'd always had heart trouble. I dunno; I always thought Deborah +Thayer was a pretty good woman, but she was pretty set. I guess +Barney takes after her. He was goin' with Charlotte Barnard years +ago--I guess 'twas as much as nine or ten years ago, now--an' they +were goin' to be married. She was all ready--weddin'-dress an' bonnet +an' everything--an' this house was 'most done an' ready for them to +move into; but one Sunday night Barney he went up to see Charlotte, +an' he got into a dispute with her father about the 'lection, an' the +old man he ordered Barney out of the house, an' Barney he went out, +an' he never went in again--couldn't nobody make him. His mother she +talked; it 'most killed her; an' I guess Charlotte said all she +could, but he wouldn't stir a peg. + +"He went right to livin' in his new house, an' he lives there now; he +ain't married, an' Charlotte ain't. She's had chances, too. Squire +Payne's son, he wanted her bad." + +The visiting cousin's mild, interrogative face peered out around the +black panel of the covered wagon at Barney's poor house; her +spectacles glittered at it in the sun. "I want to know!" said she, +with the expression of strained, entertained amiability which she +wore through her visit. + +When they passed the Barnard house the Pembroke woman partly drew +rein again; the old horse meandered in a zigzag curve, with his head +lopping. "That's where Charlotte Barnard lives," she said. Suddenly +she lowered her voice. "There she is now, out in the yard," she +whispered. + +Again the visiting cousin peered out. "She's good-lookin', ain't +she?" she remarked, cautiously viewing Charlotte's straight figure +and fair face as she came towards them out of the yard. + +"She ain't so good-lookin' as she used to be," rejoined the other +woman. "I guess she's goin' down to her aunt Sylvy's--Sylvy Crane as +was. She married Richard Alger a while ago, after she'd been goin' +with him over twenty year. He's fixed up the old Crane place. It got +dreadful run down, an' Sylvy she actually set out for the poor-house, +an' Richard he stopped Jonathan Leavitt, he was carryin' of her over +there, an' he brought her home, an' married her right off. That +brought him to the point. Sylvy lives on the old road; we can drive +round that way when we go home, an' I'll show you the place." + +When they presently drove down the green length of the old road, the +visiting cousin spied interestedly at Sylvia's house and Sylvia's own +delicate profile frilled about with lace, drooping like the raceme of +some white flower in one of the windows. + +"That's her at the window," whispered the Pembroke woman, "an' +there's Richard out there in the bean-poles." Just then Richard +peered out at them from the green ranks of the beans at the sound of +their wheels, and the Pembroke woman nodded, with a cough. + +They drove slowly out of the old road into the main-travelled one, +and presently passed the old Thayer house. A woman's figure fled +hurriedly up the yard into the house as they approached. There was a +curious shrinking look about her as she fled, her very clothes, her +muslin skirts, her light barège shawl, her green bonnet, seemed to +slant away before the eyes of the two women who were watching her. + +The Pembroke woman leaned close to her cousin's ear, and whispered +with a sharp hiss of breath. The cousin started and colored red all +over her matronly face and neck. She stared with a furtive shamed air +at poor Rebecca hastening into her house. The door closed after her +with a quick slam. + +It was always to Rebecca, years beyond her transgression, admitted +ostensibly to her old standing in the village, as if an odor of +disgrace and isolation still clung to her, shaken out from her every +motion from the very folds of her garments. It came in her own +nostrils wherever she went, like a miserable emanation of her own +personality. She always shrank back lest others noticed it, and she +always would. She particularly shunned strangers. The sight of a +strange woman clothed about with utter respectability and strictest +virtue intimidated her beyond her power of self-control, for she +always wondered if she had been told about her, and realized that, if +she had, her old disgrace had assumed in this new mind a hideous +freshness. + +After the door had slammed behind Rebecca the two women drove home, +and the guest was presently feasted on company-fare for supper, and +all these strange tragedies and histories to which she had listened +had less of a savor in her memory, than the fine green tea and the +sweet cake on her tongue. The hostess, too, did not have them in mind +any longer; she pressed the plum-cake and hot biscuits and honey on +her cousin, in lieu of gossip, for entertainment. The stories were +old to her, except as she found a new listener to them, and they had +never had any vital interest for her. They had simply made her +imagination twang pleasantly, and now they could hardly stir the old +vibrations. + +It seemed sometimes as if their hard story must finally grow old, and +lose its bitter savor to Charlotte and Barney themselves. Sometimes +Charlotte's mother looked at her inquiringly and said to herself, "I +don't believe she ever thinks about it now." She told Cephas so, and +the old man nodded. "She's a fool if she does," he returned, gruffly. + +Cephas had never told anybody how he had gone once to Barney Thayer's +door, and there stood long and delivered himself of a strange +harangue, wherein the penitence and desire for peace had been thinly +veiled by a half-wild and eccentric philosophy; but the gist of which +had been the humble craving for pardon of an old man, and his +beseeching that his daughter's lover, separated from her by his own +fault, should forget it and come back to her. + +"I haven't got anything to say about it," Barney had replied, and the +old man had seemed to experience a sudden shock and rebound, as from +the unexpected face of a rock in his path. + +However, he still hoped that Barney would relent and come. The next +Sunday evening he had himself laid the parlor fire all ready for +lighting, and hinted that Charlotte should change her dress. When +nobody came he looked more crestfallen than his daughter; she +suspected, although he never knew it. + +Charlotte had never learned any trade, but she had a reputation for +great natural skill with her needle. Gradually, as she grew older, +she settled into the patient single-woman position as assister at +feasts, instead of participator. When a village girl of a younger +generation than herself was to be married, she was in great demand +for the preparation of the bridal outfit and the finest needle-work. +She would go day after day to the house of the bride-elect, and sew +from early morning until late night upon the elaborate quilts, the +dainty linen, and the fine new wedding-gowns. + +She bore herself always with a steady cheerfulness; nobody dreamed +that this preparing others for the happiness which she herself had +lost was any trial to her. Nobody dreamed that every stitch which she +set in wedding-garments took painfully in a piece of her own heart, +and that not from envy. Her faithful needle, as she sewed, seemed to +keep her old wounds open like a harrow, but she never shrank. She saw +the sweet, foolish smiles and blushes of happy girls whose very wits +were half astray under the dazzle of love; she felt them half tremble +under her hands as she fitted the bridal-gowns to their white +shoulders, as if under the touch of their lovers. + +They walked before her and met her like doppelgängers, wearing the +self-same old joy of her own face, but she looked at them +unswervingly. It is harder to look at the likeness of one's joy than +at one's old sorrow, for the one was dearer. If Charlotte's task +whereby she earned her few shillings had been the consoling and +strengthening of poor forsaken, jilted girls, instead of the arraying +of brides, it would have been a happier and an easier one. + +But she sat sewing fine, even stitches by the light of the evening +candle, hearing the soft murmur of voices from the best rooms, where +the fond couples sat, smiling like a soldier over her work. She +pinned on bridal veils and flowers, and nobody knew that her own face +instead of the bride's seemed to smile mockingly at her through the +veil. + +She was much happier, although she would have sternly denied it to +herself, when she was watching with the sick and putting her +wonderful needle-work into shrouds, for it was in request for that +also. + +Except for an increase in staidness and dignity, and a certain +decorous change in her garments, Charlotte Barnard did not seem to +grow old at all. Her girlish bloom never faded under her sober +bonnet, although ten years had gone by since her own marriage had +been broken off. + +Barney used to watch furtively Charlotte going past. He knew quite +well when she was helping such and such a girl get ready to be +married. He saw her going home, a swift shadowy figure, after dark, +with her few poor shillings in her pocket. That she should go out to +work filled him with a fierce resentment. With a childish and +masculine disregard for all except bare actualities, he could not see +why she need to, why she could not let him help her. He knew that +Cephas Barnard's income was very meagre, that Charlotte needed her +little earnings for the barest necessaries; but why could she not let +him give them to her? + +Barney was laying up money. He had made his will, whereby he left +everything to Charlotte, and to her children after her if she +married. He worked very hard. In summer he tilled his great farm, in +winter he cut wood. + +The winter of the tenth year after his quarrel with Charlotte was a +very severe one--full of snow-storms and fierce winds, and bitterly +cold. All winter long the swamps were frozen up, and men could get +into them to cut wood. Barney went day after day and cut the wood in +a great swamp a mile behind his house. He stood from morning until +night hewing down the trees, which had gotten their lusty growth from +the graves of their own kind. Their roots were sunken deep among and +twined about the very bones of their fathers which helped make up the +rich frozen soil of the great swamp. The crusty snow was three feet +deep; the tall blackberry vines were hooped with snow, set fast at +either end like snares: it was hard work making one's way through +them. The snow was over the heads of those dried weeds which did not +blow away in the autumn, but stayed on their stalks with that +persistency of life that outlives death; but all the sturdy bushes, +which were almost trees, the swamp-pinks and the wild-roses, waxed +gigantic, lost their own outlines, and stretched out farther under +their loads of snow. + +Barney hewed wood in the midst of this white tangle of trees and +bushes and vines, which were like a wild, dumb multitude of +death-things pressing ever against him, trying to crowd him away. +When he hit them as he passed, they swung back in his face with a +semblance of life. If a squirrel chattered and leaped between some +white boughs, he started as if some dead thing had come to life, for +it seemed like the voice and motion of death rather than of life. + +Half a mile away at the right other wood-cutters were at work. When +the wind was the right way he could now and then hear the strokes of +their axes and a shout. Often as he worked alone, swinging his axe +steadily with his breath in a white cloud before his face, he amused +himself miserably--as one might with a bitter sweetmeat--with his old +dreams. + +He had no dreams in the present; they all belonged to the past, and +he dreamed them over as one sings over old songs. Sometimes it seemed +quite possible that they still belonged to his life, and might still +come true. + +Then he would hear a hoarse shout through the still air from the +other side of the swamp, and he would know suddenly that Charlotte +would never wait in his home yonder, while he worked, and welcome him +home at night. + +The other wood-cutters had families. They had to pass his lot on +their way out to the open road. Barney would either retreat farther +among the snowy thickets, or else work with such fury that he could +seem not to see them as they filed past. + +Often he did not go home at noon, and ate nothing from morn until +night. He cut wood many days that winter when the other men thought +the weather too severe and sat huddled over their fires in their +homes, shoving their chairs this and that way at their wives' +commands, or else formed chewing and gossiping rings within the +glowing radius of the red-hot store stove. + +"See Barney Thayer goin' cross lots with his axe as I come by," one +said to another, rolling the tobacco well back into his grizzled +cheek. + +"Works as if he was possessed," was the reply, in a +half-inarticulate, gruff murmur. + +"Well, he can if he wants to," said still another. "I ain't goin' to +work out-doors in any such weather as this for nobody, not if I know +it, an' I've got a wife an' eight children, an' he ain't got nobody." +And the man cast defiant eyes at the great store-windows, dim with +thick blue sheaves of frost. + +On a day like that Barney seemed to be hewing asunder not only the +sturdy fibres of oak and hemlock, but the terrible sinews of frost +and winter, and many a tree seemed to rear itself over him +threatening stiffly like an old man of death. Only by fierce contest, +as it were, could he keep himself alive, but he had a certain delight +in working in the swamp during those awful arctic days. The sense +that he could still fight and conquer something, were it only the +simple destructive force of nature, aroused in him new self-respect. + +Through snow-storms Barney plunged forth to the swamp, and worked all +day in the thick white slant of the storm, with the snow heaping +itself upon his bowed shoulders. + +People prophesied that he would kill himself; but he kept on day +after day, and had not even a cold until February. Then there came a +south rain and a thaw, and Barney went to the swamp and worked two +days knee-deep in melting snow. Then there was a morning when he +awoke as if on a bed of sharp knives, and lay alone all day and all +that night, and all the next day and that night, not being able to +stir without making the knives cut into his vitals. + +Barney lay there all that time, and his soul became fairly bound into +passiveness with awful fetters of fiery bone and muscle; sometimes he +groaned, but nobody heard him. The last night he felt as if his whole +physical nature was knitting about him and stifling him with awful +coils of pain. The tears rolled over his cheeks. He prayed with +hoarse gasps, and he could not tell if anybody heard him. A dim light +from a window in the Barnard house on the hill lay into the kitchen +opposite his bedroom door. He thought of Charlotte, as if he had been +a child and she his mother. The maternal and protecting element in +her love was all that appealed to him then, and all that he missed or +wanted. "Charlotte, Charlotte," he mumbled to himself with his +parched, quivering lips. + +At noon the next day Cephas Barnard came home from the store; he had +been down to buy some molasses. When he entered his kitchen he set +the jug down on the table with a hard clap, then stood still in his +wet boots. + +Sarah and Charlotte were getting dinner, both standing over the +stove. Sarah glanced at Cephas furtively, then at Charlotte; Cephas +never stirred. A pool of water collected around his boots, his brows +bent moodily under his cap. + +"Why don't you set down, Cephas, an' take off your boots?" Sarah +ventured at length, timidly. + +"Folks are fools," grunted Cephas. + +"I dunno what you mean, Cephas." + +Cephas got the boot-jack out of the corner, sat down, and began +jerking off the wet boots with sympathetic screws of his face. + +Sarah stood with a wooden spoon uplifted, eying him anxiously. +Charlotte went into the pantry. + +"There 'ain't anythin' happened, has there, Cephas?" said Sarah, +presently. + +Cephas pulled off the second boot, and sat holding his blue yarn +stocking-feet well up from the wet floor. "There ain't no need of +havin' the rheumatiz, accordin' to my way of thinkin'," said he. + +"Who's got the rheumatiz, Cephas?" + +"If folks lived right they wouldn't have it." + +"You 'ain't got it, have you, Cephas?" + +"I 'ain't never had a tech of it in my life except once, an' then +'twas due to my not drinkin' enough." + +"Not drinkin' enough?" + +"Yes, I didn't drink enough water. Folks with rheumatiz had ought to +drink all the water they can swaller. They had ought to drink more'n +they eat." + +"I dunno what you mean, Cephas." + +"It stands to reason. I've worked it all out in my mind. Rheumatiz +comes on in wet weather, because there's too much water an' damp +'round. Now, if there's too much water outside, you can kind of even +it up by takin' more water inside. The reason for any sickness +is--the balance ain't right. The weight gets shifted, an' folks begin +to topple, then they're sick. If it goes clean over, they die. The +balance has got to be kept even if you want to be well. When the +swamps are fillin' up with water, an' there's too much moisture in +the outside air, an' too much pressure of it on your bones an' +joints, if you swallow enough water inside it keeps things even. If +Barney Thayer had drunk a gallon of water a day, he might have worked +in the wet swamp till doomsday an' he wouldn't have got the +rheumatiz." + +"Has Barney Thayer got the rheumatiz, Cephas?" + +Charlotte's pale face appeared in the pantry door. + +"Yes, he has got it bad. 'Ain't stirred out of his bed since night +before last; been all alone; nobody knew it till William Berry went +in this forenoon. Guess he'd died there if he'd been left much +longer." + +"Who's with him now?" asked Charlotte, in a quick, strained voice. + +"The Ray boy is sittin' with him, whilst William is gone to the North +Village to see if he can get somebody to come. There's a widow woman +over there that goes out nussin', Silas said, an' they hope they can +get her. The doctor says he's got to have somebody." + +"Rebecca can't do anything, of course," said Sarah, meditatively; "he +'ain't got any of his own folks to come, poor feller." + +Charlotte crossed the kitchen floor with a resolute air. + +"What are you goin' to do, Charlotte?" her mother asked in a +trembling voice. + +Charlotte turned around and faced her father and mother. "I shouldn't +think you'd ask me," said she. + +"You ain't--goin'--over--?" + +"Of course I am going over there. Do you suppose I am going to let +him lie there and suffer all alone, with nobody to take care of him?" + +"There's--the woman--comin'." + +"She can't come. I know who the woman is. They tried to get her when +Squire Payne's sister died last week. Aunt Sylvy told me about it. +She was engaged 'way ahead." + +"Oh, Charlotte! I'm afraid you hadn't ought to go," her mother said, +half crying. + +"I've got to go, mother," Charlotte said, quietly. She opened the +door. + +"You come back here!" Cephas called after her in a great voice. + +Charlotte turned around. "I am going, father," said she. + +"You ain't goin' a step." + +"Yes, I am." + +"Oh, Charlotte! I'll go over," sobbed her mother. + +"You haven't gone a step out-doors for a month with your own lame +knee. I am the one to go, and I am going." + +"You ain't goin' a step." + +"Oh, Charlotte! I'm afraid you hadn't better," wailed Sarah. + +Charlotte stood before them both. "Look here, father and mother," +said she. "I've never gone against your wishes in my life, but now +I'm going to. It's my duty to. I was going to marry him once." + +"You didn't marry him," said Cephas. + +"I was willing to marry him, and that amounts to the same thing for +any woman," said Charlotte. "It is just as much my duty to go to him +when he's sick; I am going. There's no use talking, I am going." + +"You needn't come home again, then," said her father. + +"Oh, Cephas!" Sarah cried out. "Charlotte, don't go against your +father's wishes! Charlotte!" + +But Charlotte shut the door and hurried up-stairs to her room. Her +mother followed her, trembling. Cephas sat still, dangling his +stocking-feet clear of the floor. He had an ugly look on his face. +Presently he heard the two women coming down-stairs, and his wife's +sobbing, pleading voice; then he heard the parlor door shut; +Charlotte had gone through the house, and out the front door. + +Sarah came in, sniffing piteously. "Oh, Cephas! don't you be hard on +the poor child; she felt as if she had got to go," she said, +chokingly. + +Cephas got up, went padding softly and cautiously in his +stocking-feet across the floor to the sink, and took a long drink +with loud gulps out of the gourd in the water-pail. + +"I don't want to have no more talk about it; I've said my say," said +he, with a hard breath, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. + +Charlotte, with a little bundle under her arm, hastened down the +hill. When she reached Barney's house she went around and knocked at +the side door. As she went into the yard she could see dimly a +white-capped woman's head in a south window of the Thayer house +farther down the road, and she knew that Rebecca's nurse was watching +her. Rebecca's second baby was a week old, so she could do nothing +for her brother. + +Charlotte knocked softly and waited. She heard a loud clamping step +across the floor inside, and a whistle. A boy opened the door and +stood staring at her, half abashed, half impudently important, his +mouth still puckered with the whistle. + +"Is there anybody here but you, Ezra?" asked Charlotte. + +The boy shook his head. + +"I have come to take care of Mr. Thayer now," said Charlotte. + +She entered, and Ezra Ray stood aside, rolling his eyes after her as +she went through the kitchen. He whistled again half involuntarily, a +sudden jocular pipe on the brink of motion, like a bird. Charlotte +turned and shook her head at him, and he stopped short. He sat down +on a chair near the door, and dangled his feet irresolutely. + +Charlotte went into the bedroom where Barney lay, a rigidly twisted, +groaning heap under a mass of bed-clothing, which Ezra Ray had kept +over him with energy. She bent over him. "I've come to take care of +you, Barney," said she. His eyes, half dazed in his burning face, +looked up at her with scarcely any surprise. + +[Illustration: "'I've come to take care of you'"] + +Charlotte laid back some of the bedclothes whose weight was a +torture, and straightened the others. She worked about the house +noiselessly and swiftly. She was skilful in the care of the sick; she +had had considerable experience. Soon everything was clean and in +order; there was a pleasant smell of steeping herbs through the +house. Charlotte had set an old remedy of her mother's steeping over +the fire--a harmless old-wives' decoction, with which to supplement +the doctor's remedies, and give new courage to the patient's mind. + +Barney came to think that this remedy which Charlotte prepared was of +more efficacy than any which the doctor mixed in his gallipots. That +is, when he could think at all, and his mind and soul was able to +reassert itself over his body. He had a hard illness, and after he +was out of bed he could only sit bent miserably over in a +quilt-covered rocking-chair beside the fire. He could not straighten +himself up without agonizing pain. People thought that he never +would, and he thought so himself. His grandfather, his mother's +father, had been in a similar condition for years before his death. +People called that to mind, and so did Barney. "He's goin' to be the +way his grandfather Emmons was," the men said in the store. Barney +could dimly remember that old figure bent over almost on all-fours +like a dog; its wretched, grizzled face turned towards the earth with +a brooding sternness of contemplation. He wondered miserably where +his grandfather's old cane was, when he should be strong enough in +his pain-locked muscles to leave his rocking-chair and crawl about in +the spring sunshine. It used to be in the garret of the old house. He +thought that he would ask Rebecca or William to look for it some day. +He hesitated to speak about it. He half dreaded to think that the +time was coming when he would be strong enough to move about, for +then he was afraid Charlotte would leave him and go home. He had been +afraid that she would when he left his bed. He had a childishly +guilty feeling that he had perhaps stayed there a little longer than +was necessary on that account. One Sunday the doctor had said quite +decisively to Charlotte, "It won't hurt him any to be got up a little +while to-morrow. It will be better for him. You can get William to +come in and help." Charlotte had come back from the door and reported +to Barney, and he had turned his face away with a quivering sigh. + +"Why, what is the matter? Don't you want to be got up?" asked +Charlotte. + +"Yes," said Barney, miserably. + +"What is the matter?" Charlotte said, bending over him. "Don't you +feel well enough?" + +Barney gave her a pitiful, shamed look like a child. "You'll go, +then," he half sobbed. + +Charlotte turned away quickly. "I shall not go as long as you need +me, Barney," she said, with a patient dignity. + +Barney did not dream against what odds Charlotte had stayed with him. +Her mother had come repeatedly, and expostulated with her out in the +entry when she went away. + +"It ain't fit for you to stay here, as if you was married to him, +when you ain't, and ain't ever goin' to be, as near as I can make +out," she said. "William can get that woman over to the North Village +now, or I can come, or your aunt Hannah would come for a while, till +Rebecca gets well enough to see to him a little. She was sayin' +yesterday that it wa'n't fit for you to stay here." + +"I'm here, and I'm going to stay here till he's better than he is +now," said Charlotte. + +"Folks will talk." + +"I can't help it if they do. I'm doing what I think is right." + +"It ain't fit for an unmarried woman like you to be takin' care of +him," said her mother, and a sudden blush flamed over her old face. + +Charlotte did not blush at all. "William comes in every day," she +said, simply. + +"I think he could get along a while now with what William does an' +what we could cook an' bring in," pleaded her mother. "I'd come over +every day an' set a while; I'd jest as lieves as not. If you'd only +come home, Charlotte. Your father didn't mean anythin' when he said +you shouldn't. He asked me jest this mornin' when you was comin'." + +"I ain't coming till he's well enough so he don't need me," said +Charlotte. "There's no use talking, mother. I must go back now; he'll +wonder what we're talking about;" and she shut the door gently upon +her mother, still talking. + +Her aunt Hannah came, and her aunt Sylvia, quaking with gentle fears. +She even had to listen to remonstrances from William Berry, honestly +grateful as he was for her care of his brother-in-law. + +"I ain't quite sure that it's right for you to stay here, Charlotte," +he said, looking away from her uncomfortably. "Rebecca says--'Hadn't +you better let me go for that woman again?'" + +"I think I had better stay for the present," Charlotte replied. + +"Of course--I know you do better for him--than anybody else could, +but--" + +"How is Rebecca?" asked Charlotte. + +"She is getting along pretty well, but it's slow. She's kind of +worried about you, you know. She's had considerable herself to bear. +It's hard to have folks--" William stopped short, his face burning. + +"I am not afraid, if I know I am doing what is right," said +Charlotte. "You tell Rebecca I am coming in to see her as soon as I +can get a chance." + +One contingency had never occurred to Barney in his helpless clinging +to Charlotte. He had never once dreamed that people might talk +disparagingly about her in consequence. He had, partly from his +isolated life, partly from natural bent, a curious innocence and +ignorance in his conception of human estimates of conduct. He had not +the same vantage-points with many other people, and indeed in many +cases seemed to hold the identical ones which he had chosen when a +child and first observed anything. + +If now and then he overheard a word of expostulation, he never +interpreted it rightly. He thought that people considered it wrong +for Charlotte to do so much for him, and weary herself, when he had +treated her so badly. And he agreed with them. + +He thought that he should never stand upright again. He went always +before his own mental vision bent over like his grandfather, his face +inclined ever downward towards his miserable future. + +Still, as he sat after William had gotten him up in the morning, +bowed over pitifully in his chair, there was at times a strange look +in his eyes as he watched Charlotte moving about, which seemed +somehow to give the lie to his bent back. Often Charlotte would start +as she met this look, and think involuntarily that he was quite +straight; then she would come to her old vision with a shock, and see +him sitting there as he was. + +At last there came a day when the minister and one of the deacons of +the church called and asked to see Charlotte privately. Barney looked +at them, startled and quite white. They sat with him quite a long +while, when, after many coercive glances between the deacon and the +minister, the latter had finally arisen and made the request, in a +trembling, embarrassed voice. + +Charlotte led them at once into the unfinished front parlor, with its +boarded-up windows. Barney heard her open the front door to give them +light and air. He sat still and waited, breathing hard. A terrible +dread and curiosity came over him. It seemed as if his soul +overreached his body into that other room. Without overhearing a +word, suddenly a knowledge quite foreign to his own imagination +seemed to come to him. + +Presently he heard the front door shut, then Charlotte came in alone. +She was very pale, but she had a sweet, exalted look as her eyes met +Barney's. + +"Have they gone?" he asked, hoarsely. + +Charlotte nodded. + +"What--did they want?" + +"Never mind," said Charlotte. + +"I want to know." + +"It is nothing for you to worry about." + +"I know," said Barney. + +"You didn't hear anything?" Charlotte cried out in a startled voice. + +"No, I didn't hear, but I know. The church--don't--think you ought +to--stay here. They are--going to--take it--up. I never--thought of +that, Charlotte. I never thought of that." + +"Don't you worry anything about it." Charlotte had never touched him, +except to minister to his illness, since she had been there. Now she +went close, and smoothed his hair with her tender hands. "Don't you +worry," she said again. + +Barney looked up in her face. "Charlotte." + +"What is it?" + +"I--want you--to go--home." + +Charlotte started. "I shall not go home as long as you need me," she +said. "You need not think I mind what they say." + +"I--want you to go home." + +"Barney!" + +"I mean what--I say. I--want you to go--now." + +"Not now?" + +"Yes, now." + +Charlotte drew back; her lips wore a white line. She went out into +the front south room, where she had slept. She did not come back. +Barney listened until he heard the front door shut after her. Then he +waited fifteen minutes, with his eyes upon the clock. Then he got up +out of his chair. He moved his body as if it were some piece of +machinery outside himself, as if his will were full of dominant +muscles. He got his hat off the peg, where it had hung for weeks; he +went out of the house and out of the yard. + +His sister Rebecca was moving feebly up the road with her little baby +in her arms. She was taking her first walk out in the spring +sunshine. The nurse had gone away the week before. Her face was clear +and pale. All her sweet color was gone, but her eyes were radiant, +and she held up her head in the old way. This new love was lifting +her above her old memories. + +She stared wonderingly over the baby's little downy head at her +brother. "It can't be Barney," she said out loud to herself. She +stood still in the road, staring after him with parted lips. The baby +wailed softly, and she hushed it mechanically, her great, happy, +startled eyes fixed upon her brother. + +Barnabas went on up the hill to Charlotte Barnard's. The spring was +advancing. All the trees were full of that green nebula of life which +comes before the blossom. Little wings, bearing birds and songs, cut +the air. A bluebird shone on a glistening fence-rail, like a jewel on +a turned hand. Over across the fields red oxen were moving down +plough-ridges, the green grass was springing, the air was full of +that strange fragrance which is more than fragrance, since it strikes +the thoughts, which comes in the spring alone, being the very odor +thrown off by the growing motion of life and the resurrection. + +Barney Thayer went slowly up the hill with a curious gait and strange +gestures, as if his own angel were wrestling with himself, casting +him off with strong motions as of wings. + +He fought, as it were, his way step by step. He reached the top of +the hill, and went into the yard of the Barnard house. Sarah Barnard +saw him coming, and shrieked out, "There's Barney, there's Barney +Thayer comin'! He's walkin', he's walkin' straight as anybody!" + +When Barney reached the door, they all stood there--Cephas and Sarah +and Charlotte. Barney stood before them all with that noble bearing +which comes from humility itself when it has fairly triumphed. + +Charlotte came forward, and he put his arm around her. Then he looked +over her head at her father. "I've come back," said he. + +"Come in," said Cephas. + +And Barney entered the house with his old sweetheart and his old +self. + +THE END + + + + + + + + +End of the Project Gutenberg EBook of Pembroke, by Mary E. 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