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LEE, R.A. +British Military Attache with the United States Army + + + + +Contents + +THE LION AND THE UNICORN + +ON THE FEVER SHIP + +THE MAN WITH ONE TALENT + +THE VAGRANT + +THE LAST RIDE TOGETHER + + + + +THE LION AND THE UNICORN + +Prentiss had a long lease on the house, and because it stood in +Jermyn Street the upper floors were, as a matter of course, +turned into lodgings for single gentlemen; and because Prentiss +was a Florist to the Queen, he placed a lion and unicorn over his +flowershop, just in front of the middle window on the first +floor. By stretching a little, each of them could see into the +window just beyond him, and could hear all that was said inside; +and such things as they saw and heard during the reign of Captain +Carrington, who moved in at the same time they did! By day the +table in the centre of the room was covered with maps, and the +Captain sat with a box of pins, with different-colored flags +wrapped around them, and amused himself by sticking them in the +maps and measuring the spaces in between, swearing meanwhile to +himself. It was a selfish amusement, but it appeared to be the +Captain's only intellectual pursuit, for at night, the maps were +rolled up, and a green cloth was spread across the table, and +there was much company and popping of soda-bottles, and little +heaps of gold and silver were moved this way and that across the +cloth. The smoke drifted out of the open windows, and the +laughter of the Captain's guests rang out loudly in the empty +street, so that the policeman halted and raised his eyes +reprovingly to the lighted windows, and cabmen drew up beneath +them and lay in wait, dozing on their folded arms, for the +Captain's guests to depart. The Lion and the Unicorn were rather +ashamed of the scandal of it, and they were glad when, one day, +the Captain went away with his tin boxes and gun-cases piled high +on a four-wheeler. + +Prentiss stood on the sidewalk and said: "I wish you good luck, +sir." And the Captain said: "I'm coming back a Major, +Prentiss." But he never came back. And one day--the Lion +remembered the day very well, for on that same day the +newsboys ran up and down Jermyn Street shouting out the news of +"a 'orrible disaster" to the British arms. It was then that a +young lady came to the door in a hansom, and Prentiss went out to +meet her and led her upstairs. They heard him unlock the +Captain's door and say, "This is his room, miss," and after he +had gone they watched her standing quite still by the centre +table. She stood there for a very long time looking slowly about +her, and then she took a photograph of the Captain from the frame +on the mantel and slipped it into her pocket, and when she went +out again her veil was down, and she was crying. She must have +given Prentiss as much as a sovereign, for he called her "Your +ladyship," which he never did under a sovereign. + +And she drove off, and they never saw her again either, nor could +they hear the address she gave the cabman. But it was somewhere +up St. John's Wood way. + +After that the rooms were empty for some months, and the Lion and +the Unicorn were forced to amuse themselves with the beautiful +ladies and smart-looking men who came to Prentiss to buy +flowers and "buttonholes," and the little round baskets of +strawberries, and even the peaches at three shillings each, which +looked so tempting as they lay in the window, wrapped up in +cotton-wool, like jewels of great price. + +Then Philip Carroll, the American gentleman, came, and they heard +Prentiss telling him that those rooms had always let for five +guineas a week, which they knew was not true; but they also knew +that in the economy of nations there must always be a higher +price for the rich American, or else why was he given that +strange accent, except to betray him into the hands of the London +shopkeeper, and the London cabby? + +The American walked to the window toward the west, which was the +window nearest the Lion, and looked out into the graveyard of St. +James's Church, that stretched between their street and +Piccadilly. + +"You're lucky in having a bit of green to look out on," he said +to Prentiss. "I'll take these rooms--at five guineas. That's +more than they're worth, you know, but as I know it, too, your +conscience needn't trouble you." + +Then his eyes fell on the Lion, and he nodded to him gravely. +"How do you do?" he said. "I'm coming to live with you for a +little time. I have read about you and your friends over there. +It is a hazard of new fortunes with me, your Majesty, so be kind +to me, and if I win, I will put a new coat of paint on your +shield and gild you all over again." + +Prentiss smiled obsequiously at the American's pleasantry, but +the new lodger only stared at him. + +"He seemed a social gentleman," said the Unicorn, that night, +when the Lion and he were talking it over. "Now the Captain, the +whole time he was here, never gave us so much as a look. This +one says he has read of us." + +"And why not?" growled the Lion. "I hope Prentiss heard what he +said of our needing a new layer of gilt. It's disgraceful. You +can see that Lion over Scarlett's, the butcher, as far as Regent +Street, and Scarlett is only one of Salisbury's creations. He +received his Letters-Patent only two years back. We date from +Palmerston." + +The lodger came up the street just at that moment, and stopped +and looked up at the Lion and the Unicorn from the sidewalk, +before he opened the door with his night-key. They heard him +enter the room and feel on the mantel for his pipe, and a moment +later he appeared at the Lion's window and leaned on the sill, +looking down into the street below and blowing whiffs of smoke up +into the warm night-air. + +It was a night in June, and the pavements were dry under foot and +the streets were filled with well-dressed people, going home from +the play, and with groups of men in black and white, making their +way to supper at the clubs. Hansoms of inky-black, with shining +lamps inside and out, dashed noiselessly past on mysterious +errands, chasing close on each other's heels on a mad race, each +to its separate goal. From the cross streets rose the noises of +early night, the rumble of the 'buses, the creaking of their +brakes, as they unlocked, the cries of the "extras," and the +merging of thousands of human voices in a dull murmur. The great +world of London was closing its shutters for the night, and +putting out the lights; and the new lodger from across the sea +listened to it with his heart beating quickly, and laughed to +stifle the touch of fear and homesickness that rose in him. + +"I have seen a great play to-night," he said to the Lion, "nobly +played by great players. What will they care for my poor wares? +I see that I have been over-bold. But we cannot go back now--not +yet." + +He knocked the ashes out of his pipe, and nodded "good-night" to +the great world beyond his window. "What fortunes lie with ye, +ye lights of London town?" he quoted, smiling. And they heard +him close the door of his bedroom, and lock it for the night. + +The next morning he bought many geraniums from Prentiss and +placed them along the broad cornice that stretched across the +front of the house over the shop window. The flowers made a band +of scarlet on either side of the Lion as brilliant as a Tommy's +jacket. + +"I am trying to propitiate the British Lion by placing flowers +before his altar," the American said that morning to a +visitor. + +"The British public you mean," said the visitor; "they are each +likely to tear you to pieces." + +"Yes, I have heard that the pit on the first night of a bad play +is something awful," hazarded the American. + +"Wait and see," said the visitor. + +"Thank you," said the American, meekly. + +Every one who came to the first floor front talked about a play. +It seemed to be something of great moment to the American. It +was only a bundle of leaves printed in red and black inks and +bound in brown paper covers. There were two of them, and the +American called them by different names: one was his comedy and +one was his tragedy. + +"They are both likely to be tragedies," the Lion heard one of the +visitors say to another, as they drove away together. "Our young +friend takes it too seriously." + +The American spent most of his time by his desk at the window +writing on little blue pads and tearing up what he wrote, or in +reading over one of the plays to himself in a loud voice. In +time the number of his visitors increased, and to some of these +he would read his play; and after they had left him he was +either depressed and silent or excited and jubilant. The Lion +could always tell when he was happy because then he would go to +the side table and pour himself out a drink and say, "Here's to +me," but when he was depressed he would stand holding the glass +in his hand, and finally pour the liquor back into the bottle +again and say, "What's the use of that?" + +After he had been in London a month he wrote less and was more +frequently abroad, sallying forth in beautiful raiment, and +coming home by daylight. + +And he gave suppers too, but they were less noisy than the +Captain's had been, and the women who came to them were much more +beautiful, and their voices when they spoke were sweet and low. +Sometimes one of the women sang, and the men sat in silence while +the people in the street below stopped to listen, and would say, +"Why, that is So-and-So singing," and the Lion and the Unicorn +wondered how they could know who it was when they could not see +her. + +The lodger's visitors came to see him at all hours. They +seemed to regard his rooms as a club, where they could always +come for a bite to eat or to write notes; and others treated it +like a lawyer's office and asked advice on all manner of strange +subjects. Sometimes the visitor wanted to know whether the +American thought she ought to take Lœ10 a week and go on tour, or +stay in town and try to live on Lœ8; or whether she should paint +landscapes that would not sell, or racehorses that would; or +whether Reggie really loved her and whether she really loved +Reggie; or whether the new part in the piece at the Court was +better than the old part at Terry's, and wasn't she getting too +old to play "ingenues" anyway. + +The lodger seemed to be a general adviser, and smoked and +listened with grave consideration, and the Unicorn thought his +judgment was most sympathetic and sensible. + +Of all the beautiful ladies who came to call on the lodger the +one the Unicorn liked the best was the one who wanted to know +whether she loved Reggie and whether Reggie loved her. She +discussed this so interestingly while she consumed tea and +thin slices of bread that the Unicorn almost lost his balance in +leaning forward to listen. Her name was Marion Cavendish and it +was written over many photographs which stood in silver frames in +the lodger's rooms. She used to make the tea herself, while the +lodger sat and smoked; and she had a fascinating way of doubling +the thin slices of bread into long strips and nibbling at them +like a mouse at a piece of cheese. She had wonderful little +teeth and Cupid's-bow lips, and she had a fashion of lifting her +veil only high enough for one to see the two Cupid-bow lips. +When she did that the American used to laugh, at nothing +apparently, and say, "Oh, I guess Reggie loves you well enough." + +"But do I love Reggie?" she would ask sadly, with her tea-cup +held poised in air. + +" I am sure I hope not," the lodger would reply, and she +would put down the veil quickly, as one would drop a curtain over +a beautiful picture, and rise with great dignity and say, "if you +talk like that I shall not come again." + +She was sure that if she could only get some work to do her +head would be filledwith more important matters than whether +Reggie loved her or not. + +"But the managers seem inclined to cut their cavendish very fine +just at present," she said. "If I don't get a part soon," she +announced, "I shall ask Mitchell to put me down on the list for +recitations at evening parties." + +"That seems a desperate revenge," said the American; "and +besides, I don't want you to get a part, because some one might +be idiotic enough to take my comedy, and if he should, you must +play Nancy." + +"I would not ask for any salary if I could play Nancy," Miss +Cavendish answered. + +They spoke of a great many things, but their talk always ended by +her saying that there must be some one with sufficient sense to +see that his play was a great play, and by his saying that none +but she must play Nancy. + +The Lion preferred the tall girl with masses and folds of brown +hair, who came from America to paint miniatures of the British +aristocracy. Her name was Helen Cabot, and he liked her because +she was so brave and fearless, and so determined to be +independent of every one, even of the lodger--especially of +the lodger, who it appeared had known her very well at home. The +lodger, they gathered, did not wish her to be independent of him +and the two Americans had many arguments and disputes about it, +but she always said, "It does no good, Philip; it only hurts us +both when you talk so. I care for nothing, and for no one but my +art, and, poor as it is, it means everything to me, and you do +not, and, of course, the man I am to marry, must." Then Carroll +would talk, walking up and down, and looking very fierce and +determined, and telling her how he loved her in such a way that +it made her look even more proud and beautiful. And she would +say more gently, "It is very fine to think that any one can care +for like that, and very helpful. But unless I cared in the same +way it would be wicked of me to marry you, and besides--" She +would add very quickly to prevent his speaking again--" I don't +want to marry you or anybody, and I never shall. I want to be +free and to succeed in my work, just as you want to succeed in +your work. So please never speak of this again." When she +went away the lodger used to sit smoking in the big arm-chair and +beat the arms with his hands, and he would pace up and down the +room while his work would lie untouched and his engagements pass +forgotten. + +Summer came and London was deserted, dull, and dusty, but the +lodger stayed on in Jermyn Street. Helen Cabot had departed on a +round of visits to country houses in Scotland, where, as she +wrote him, she was painting miniatures of her hosts and studying +the game of golf. Miss Cavendish divided her days between the +river and one of the West End theatres. She was playing a small +part in a farce-comedy. + +One day she came up from Cookham earlier than usual, looking very +beautiful in a white boating frock and a straw hat with a Leander +ribbon. Her hands and arms were hard with dragging a punting +pole and she was sunburnt and happy, and hungry for tea. + +"Why don't you come down to Cookham and get out of this heat?" +Miss Cavendish asked. "You need it; you look ill." + +"I'd like to, but I can't," said Carroll. "The fact is, I paid +in advance for these rooms, and if I lived anywhere else I'd be +losing five guineas a week on them." + +Miss Cavendish regarded him severely. She had never quite +mastered his American humor. + +"But five guineas--why that's nothing to you," she said. +Something in the lodger's face made her pause. "You don't +mean----" + +"Yes, I do," said the lodger, smiling. "You see, I started in to +lay siege to London without sufficient ammunition. London is a +large town, and it didn't fall as quickly as I thought it would. +So I am economizing. Mr. Lockhart's Coffee Rooms and I are no +longer strangers." + +Miss Cavendish put down her cup of tea untasted and leaned toward +him + +"Are you in earnest?" she asked. "For how long?" + +"Oh, for the last month," replied the lodger; "they are not at +all bad--clean and wholesome and all that." + +"But the suppers you gave us, and this," she cried, suddenly, +waving her hands over the pretty tea-things, "and the cake +and muffins?" + +"My friends, at least," said Carroll, "need not go to +Lockhart's." + +"And the Savoy?" asked Miss Cavendish, mournfully shaking her +head. + +"A dream of the past," said Carroll, waving his pipe through the +smoke. "Gatti's? Yes, on special occasions; but for necessity, +the Chancellor's, where one gets a piece of the prime roast beef +of Old England, from Chicago, and potatoes for ninepence--a pot +of bitter twopence-halfpenny, and a penny for the waiter. It's +most amusing on the whole. I am learning a little about London, +and some things about myself. They are both most interesting +subjects." + +"Well, I don't like it," Miss Cavendish declared helplessly. +"When I think of those suppers and the flowers, I feel--I feel +like a robber." + +"Don't," begged Carroll. "I am really the most happy of men-- +that is, as the chap says in the play, I would be if I wasn't so +damned miserable. But I owe no man a penny and I have assets--I +have Lœ80 to last me through the winter and two marvellous +plays; and I love, next to yourself, the most wonderful woman God +ever made. That's enough." + +"But I thought you made such a lot of money by writing?" asked +Miss Cavendish. + +"I do--that is, I could," answered Carroll, "if I wrote the +things that sell; but I keep on writing plays that won't." + +"And such plays!" exclaimed Marion, warmly; "and to think that +they are going begging." She continued indignantly, "I can't +imagine what the managers do want." + +"I know what they don't want," said the American. Miss Cavendish +drummed impatiently on the tea-tray. + +"I wish you wouldn't be so abject about it," she said. "If I +were a man I'd make them take those plays." + +"How?" asked the American; "with a gun?" + +"Well, I'd keep at it until they read them," declared Marion. +"I'd sit on their front steps all night and I'd follow them in +cabs, and I'd lie in wait for them at the stage-door. I'd just +make them take them." + +Carroll sighed and stared at the ceiling. "I guess I'll give up +and go home," he said. + +"Oh, yes, do, run away before you are beaten," said Miss +Cavendish, scornfully. "Why, you can't go now. Everybody will +be back in town soon, and there are a lot of new plays coming on, +and some of them are sure to be failures, and that's our chance. +You rush in with your piece and somebody may take it sooner than +close the theatre." + +"I'm thinking of closing the theatre myself," said Carroll. +"What's the use of my hanging on here?" he exclaimed. "It +distresses Helen to know I am in London, feeling about her as I +do--and the Lord only knows how it distresses me. And, maybe, if +I went away," he said, consciously, "she might miss me. She +might see the difference." + +Miss Cavendish held herself erect and pressed her lips together +with a severe smile. "If Helen Cabot doesn't see the difference +between you and the other men she knows now," she said, "I doubt +if she ever will. Besides--" she continued, and then hesitated. +"Well, go on," urged Carroll. + +"Well, I was only going to say," she explained, "that leaving the +girl alone never did the man any good unless he left her alone +willingly. If she's sure he still cares, it's just the same to +her where he is. He might as well stay on in London as go to +South Africa. It won't help him any. The difference comes when +she finds he has stopped caring. Why, look at Reggie. He tried +that. He went away for ever so long, but he kept writing me from +wherever he went, so that he was perfectly miserable--and I went +on enjoying myself. Then when he came back, he tried going about +with his old friends again. He used to come to the theatre with +them--oh, with such nice girls--but he always stood in the back +of the box and yawned and scowled--so I knew. And, anyway, he'd +always spoil it all by leaving them and waiting at the stage +entrance for me. But one day he got tired of the way I treated +him and went off on a bicycle tour with Lady Hacksher's girls and +some men from his regiment, and he was gone three weeks and never +sent me even a line; and I got so scared; I couldn't sleep, and +I stood it for three days more, and then I wired him to come +back or I'd jump off London Bridge; and he came back that very +night from Edinburgh on the express, and I was so glad to see him +that I got confused, and in the general excitement I promised to +marry him, so that's how it was with us." + +"Yes," said the American, without enthusiasm; "but then I still +care, and Helen knows I care." + +"Doesn't she ever fancy that you might care for some one else? +You have a lot of friends, you know." + +"Yes, but she knows they are just that--friends," said the +American. + +Miss Cavendish stood up to go, and arranged her veil before the +mirror above the fireplace. + +"I come here very often to tea," she said. + +"It's very kind of you," said Carroll. He was at the open +window, looking down into the street for a cab. + +"Well, no one knows I am engaged to Reggie," continued Miss +Cavendish, "except you and Reggie, and he isn't so sure. SHE +doesn't know it." + +"Well?" said Carroll. + +Miss Cavendish smiled a mischievous kindly smile at him from the +mirror. + +"Well?" she repeated, mockingly. Carroll stared at her and +laughed. After a pause he said: "It's like a plot in a comedy. +But I'm afraid I'm too serious for play-acting." + +"Yes, it is serious," said Miss Cavendish. She seated herself +again and regarded the American thoughtfully. "You are too good +a man to be treated the way that girl is treating you, and no one +knows it better than she does. She'll change in time, but just +now she thinks she wants to be independent. She's in love with +this picture-painting idea, and with the people she meets. It's +all new to her--the fuss they make over her and the titles, and +the way she is asked about. We know she can't paint. We know +they only give her commissions because she's so young and pretty, +and American. She amuses them, that's all. Well, that cannot +last; she'll find it out. She's too clever a girl, and she is +too fine a girl to be content with that long. Then--then she'll +come back to you. She feels now that she has both you and the +others, and she's making you wait: so wait and be cheerful. +She's worth waiting for; she's young, that's all. She'll see the +difference in time. But, in the meanwhile, it would hurry +matters a bit if she thought she had to choose between the new +friends and you." + +"She could still keep her friends, and marry me," said Carroll; +"I have told her that a hundred times. She could still paint +miniatures and marry me. But she won't marry me." + +"She won't marry you because she knows she can whenever she wants +to;" cried Marion. "Can't you see that? But if she thought you +were going to marry some one else now?" + +"She would be the first to congratulate me," said Carroll. He +rose and walked to the fireplace, where he leaned with his arm on +the mantel. There was a photograph of Helen Cabot near his hand, +and he turned this toward him and stood for some time staring at +it. "My dear Marion," he said at last, "I've known Helen ever +since she was as young as that. Every year I've loved her more, +and found new things in her to care for; now I love her more +than any other man ever loved any other woman." + +Miss Cavendish shook her head sympathetically. + +"Yes, I know," she said; "that's the way Reggie loves me, too." + +Carroll went on as though he had not heard her. + +"There's a bench in St. James's Park," he said, "where we used to +sit when she first came here, when she didn't know so many +people. We used to go there in the morning and throw penny buns +to the ducks. That's been my amusement this summer since you've +all been away--sitting on that bench, feeding penny buns to the +silly ducks--especially the black one, the one she used to like +best. And I make pilgrimages to all the other places we ever +visited together, and try to pretend she is with me. And I +support the crossing sweeper at Lansdowne Passage because she +once said she felt sorry for him. I do all the other absurd +things that a man in love tortures himself by doing. But to what +end? She knows how I care, and yet she won't see why we +can't go on being friends as we once were. What's the use of it +all? " + +"She is young, I tell you," repeated Miss Cavendish, "and she's +too sure of you. You've told her you care; now try making her +think you don't care." + +Carroll shook his head impatiently. + +"I will not stoop to such tricks and pretence, Marion," he cried +impatiently. "All I have is my love for her; if I have to cheat +and to trap her into caring, the whole thing would be degraded." + +Miss Cavendish shrugged her shoulders and walked to the door. +"Such amateurs!" she exclaimed, and banged the door after her. + +Carroll never quite knew how he had come to make a confidante of +Miss Cavendish. Helen and he had met her when they first arrived +in London, and as she had acted for a season in the United +States, she adopted the two Americans--and told Helen where to go +for boots and hats, and advised Carroll about placing his plays. +Helen soon made other friends, and deserted the artists, with +whom her work had first thrown her. She seemed to prefer the +society of the people who bought her paintings, and who +admired and made much of the painter. As she was very beautiful +and at an age when she enjoyed everything in life keenly and +eagerly, to give her pleasure was in itself a distinct +pleasure; and the worldly tired people she met were considering +their own entertainment quite as much as hers when they asked her +to their dinners and dances, or to spend a week with them in the +country. In her way, she was as independent as was Carroll in +his, and as she was not in love, as he was, her life was not +narrowed down to but one ideal. But she was not so young as to +consider herself infallible, and she had one excellent friend on +whom she was dependent for advice and to whose directions she +submitted implicitly. This was Lady Gower, the only person to +whom Helen had spoken of Carroll and of his great feeling for +her. Lady Gower, immediately after her marriage, had been a +conspicuous and brilliant figure in that set in London which +works eighteen hours a day to keep itself amused, but after the +death of her husband she had disappeared into the country as +completely as though she had entered a convent, and after +several years had then re-entered the world as a professional +philanthropist. Her name was now associated entirely with +Women's Leagues, with committees that presented petitions to +Parliament, and with public meetings, at which she spoke with +marvellous ease and effect. Her old friends said she had taken +up this new pose as an outlet for her nervous energies, and as an +effort to forget the man who alone had made life serious to her. +Others knew her as an earnest woman, acting honestly for what she +thought was right. Her success, all admitted, was due to her +knowledge of the world and to her sense of humor, which taught +her with whom to use her wealth and position, and when to demand +what she wanted solely on the ground that the cause was just. + +She had taken more than a fancy for Helen, and the position of +the beautiful, motherless girl had appealed to her as one filled +with dangers. When she grew to know Helen better, she recognized +that these fears were quite unnecessary, and as she saw more of +her she learned to care for her deeply. Helen had told her much +of Carroll and of his double purpose in coming to London; of +his brilliant work and his lack of success in having it +recognized; and of his great and loyal devotion to her, and of +his lack of success, not in having that recognized, but in her +own inability to return it. Helen was proud that she had been +able to make Carroll care for her as he did, and that there was +anything about her which could inspire a man whom she admired so +much, to believe in her so absolutely and for so long a time. +But what convinced her that the outcome for which he hoped was +impossible, was the very fact that she could admire him, and see +how fine and unselfish his love for her was, and yet remain +untouched by it. + +She had been telling Lady Gower one day of the care he had taken +of her ever since she was fourteen years of age, and had quoted +some of the friendly and loverlike acts he had performed in her +service, until one day they had both found out that his attitude +of the elder brother was no longer possible, and that he loved +her in the old and only way. Lady Gower looked at her rather +doubtfully and smiled. + +"I wish you would bring him to see me, Helen" she said; "I think +I should like your friend very much. From what you tell me of +him I doubt if you will find many such men waiting for you in +this country. Our men marry for reasons of property, or they +love blindly, and are exacting and selfish before and after they +are married. I know, because so many women came to me when my +husband was alive to ask how it was that I continued so happy in +my married life." + +"But I don't want to marry any one," Helen remonstrated gently. +"American girls are not always thinking only of getting married." + +"What I meant was this," said Lady Gower, "that, in my +experience, I have heard of but few men who care in the way this +young man seems to care for you. You say you do not love him; +but if he had wanted to gain my interest, he could not have +pleaded his cause better than you have done. He seems to see +your faults and yet love you still, in spite of them--or on +account of them. And I like the things he does for you. I like, +for instance, his sending you the book of the moment every +week for two years. That shows a most unswerving spirit of +devotion. And the story of the broken bridge in the woods is a +wonderful story. If I were a young girl, I could love a man for +that alone. It was a beautiful thing to do." + +Helen sat with her chin on her hands, deeply considering this new +point of view. + +"I thought it very foolish of him," she confessed questioningly, +"to take such a risk for such a little thing." + +Lady Gower smiled down at her from the height of her many years. + +"Wait," she said dryly, "you are very young now--and very rich; +every one is crowding to give you pleasure, to show his +admiration. You are a very fortunate girl. But later, these +things which some man has done because he loved you, and which +you call foolish, will grow large in your life, and shine out +strongly, and when you are discouraged and alone, you will take +them out, and the memory of them will make you proud and happy. +They are the honors which women wear in secret." + +Helen came back to town in September, and for the first few days +was so occupied in refurnishing her studio and in visiting the +shops that she neglected to send Carroll word of her return. +When she found that a whole week had passed without her having +made any effort to see him, and appreciated how the fact would +hurt her friend, she was filled with remorse, and drove at once +in great haste to Jermyn Street, to announce her return in +person. On the way she decided that she would soften the blow of +her week of neglect by asking him to take her out to luncheon. +This privilege she had once or twice accorded him, and she felt +that the pleasure these excursions gave Carroll were worth the +consternation they caused to Lady Gower. + +The servant was uncertain whether Mr. Carroll was at home or not, +but Helen was too intent upon making restitution to wait for the +fact to be determined, and, running up the stairs, knocked +sharply at the door of his study. + +A voice bade her come in, and she entered, radiant and smiling +her welcome. But Carroll was not there to receive it, and +instead, Marion Cavendish looked up at her from his desk where +she was busily writing. Helen paused with a surprised laugh, but +Marion sprang up and hailed her gladly. They met half way across +the room and kissed each other with the most friendly feeling. + +Philip was out, Marion said, and she had just stepped in for a +moment to write him a note. If Helen would excuse her, she would +finish it, as she was late for rehearsal. + +But she asked over her shoulder, with great interest, if Helen +had passed a pleasant summer. She thought she had never seen her +looking so well. Helen thought Miss Cavendish herself was +looking very well also, but Marion said no; that she was too +sunburnt, she would not be able to wear a dinner-dress for a +month. There was a pause while Marion's quill scratched +violently across Carroll's note-paper. Helen felt that in some +way she was being treated as an intruder; or worse, as a guest. +She did not sit down, it seemed impossible to do so, but she +moved uncertainly about the room. She noted that there were +many changes, it seemed more bare and empty; her picture was +still on the writing-desk, but there were at least six new +photographs of Marion. Marion herself had brought them to the +room that morning, and had carefully arranged them in conspicuous +places. But Helen could not know that. She thought there was an +unnecessary amount of writing scribbled over the face of each. + +Marion addressed her letter and wrote "Immediate" across the +envelope, and placed it before the clock on the mantelshelf. +"You will find Philip looking very badly," she said, as she +pulled on her gloves. "He has been in town all summer, working +very hard--he has had no holiday at all. I don't think he's +well. I have been a great deal worried about him," she added. +Her face was bent over the buttons of her glove, and when she +raised her blue eyes to Helen they were filled with serious +concern. + +"Really," Helen stammered, "I--I didn't know--in his letters he +seemed very cheerful." + +Marion shook her head and turned and stood looking +thoughtfully out of the window. "He's in a very hard place," she +began abruptly, and then stopped as though she had thought better +of what she intended to say. Helen tried to ask her to go on, +but could not bring herself to do so. She wanted to get away. + +"I tell him he ought to leave London," Marion began again; "he +needs a change and a rest." + +"I should think he might," Helen agreed, "after three months of +this heat. He wrote me he intended going to Herne Bay or over to +Ostend." + +"Yes, he had meant to go," Marion answered. She spoke with the +air of one who possessed the most intimate knowledge of Carroll's +movements and plans, and change of plans. "But he couldn't," she +added. "He couldn't afford it. Helen," she said, turning to the +other girl, dramatically, "do you know--I believe that Philip is +very poor." + +Miss Cabot exclaimed incredulously, "Poor!" She laughed. "Why, +what do you mean?" + +"I mean that he has no money," Marion answered, sharply. "These +rooms represent nothing. He only keeps them on because he paid +for them in advance. He's been living on three shillings a day. +That's poor for him. He takes his meals at cabmen's shelters and +at Lockhart's, and he's been doing so for a month." + +Helen recalled with a guilty thrill the receipt of certain boxes +of La France roses--cut long, in the American fashion--which had +arrived within the last month at various country houses. She +felt indignant at herself, and miserable. Her indignation was +largely due to the recollection that she had given these flowers +to her hostess to decorate the dinner-table. + +She hated to ask this girl of things which she should have known +better than any one else. But she forced herself to do it. She +felt she must know certainly and at once. + +"How do you know this?" she asked. "Are you sure there is no +mistake?" + +"He told me himself," said Marion, "when he talked of letting the +plays go and returning to America. He said he must go back; +that his money was gone." + +"He is gone to America!" Helen said, blankly. + +"No, he wanted to go, but I wouldn't let him," Marion went on. +"I told him that some one might take his play any day. And this +third one he has written, the one he finished this summer in +town, is the best of all, I think. It's a love-story. It's +quite beautiful." She turned and arranged her veil at the glass, +and as she did so, her eyes fell on the photographs of herself +scattered over the mantelpiece, and she smiled slightly. But +Helen did not see her--she was sitting down now, pulling at the +books on the table. She was confused and disturbed by emotions +which were quite strange to her, and when Marion bade her good-by +she hardly noticed her departure. What impressed her most of all +in what Marion had told her, was, she was surprised to find, that +Philip was going away. That she herself had frequently urged him +to do so, for his own peace of mind, seemed now of no +consequence. Now that he seriously contemplated it, she +recognized that his absence meant to her a change in +everything. She felt for the first time the peculiar place he +held in her life. Even if she had seen him but seldom, the fact +that he was within call had been more of a comfort and a +necessity to her than she understood. + +That he was poor, concerned her chiefly because she knew that, +although this condition could only be but temporary, it would +distress him not to have his friends around him, and to entertain +them as he had been used to do. She wondered eagerly if she +might offer to help him, but a second thought assured her that, +for a man, that sort of help from a woman was impossible. + +She resented the fact that Marion was deep in his confidence; +that it was Marion who had told her of his changed condition and +of his plans. It annoyed her so acutely that she could not +remain in the room where she had seen her so complacently in +possession. And after leaving a brief note for Philip, she went +away. She stopped a hansom at the door, and told the man to +drive along the Embankment--she wanted to be quite alone, and she +felt she could see no one until she had thought it all out, +and had analyzed the new feelings. + +So for several hours she drove slowly up and down, sunk far back +in the cushions of the cab, and staring with unseeing eyes at the +white enamelled tariff and the black dash-board. + +She assured herself that she was not jealous of Marion, because, +in order to be jealous, she first would have to care for Philip +in the very way she could not bring herself to do. + +She decided that his interest in Marion hurt her, because it +showed that Philip was not capable of remaining true to the one +ideal of his life. She was sure that this explained her +feelings--she was disappointed that he had not kept up to his own +standard; that he was weak enough to turn aside from it for the +first pretty pair of eyes. But she was too honest and too just +to accept that diagnosis of her feelings as final--she knew there +had been many pairs of eyes in America and in London, and that +though Philip had seen them, he had not answered them when they +spoke. No, she confessed frankly, she was hurt with herself +for neglecting her old friend so selfishly and for so long a +time; his love gave him claims on her consideration, at least, +and she had forgotten that and him, and had run after strange +gods and allowed others to come in and take her place, and to +give him the sympathy and help which she should have been the +first to offer, and which would have counted more when coming +from her than from any one else. She determined to make amends +at once for her thoughtlessness and selfishness, and her brain +was pleasantly occupied with plans and acts of kindness. It was +a new entertainment, and she found she delighted in it. She +directed the cabman to go to Solomons's, and from there sent +Philip a bunch of flowers and a line saying that on the following +day she was coming to take tea with him. She had a guilty +feeling that he might consider her friendly advances more +seriously than she meant them, but it was her pleasure to be +reckless: her feelings were running riotously, and the sensation +was so new that she refused to be circumspect or to consider +consequences. Who could tell, she asked herself with a +quick, frightened gasp, but that, after all, it might be that she +was learning to care? From Solomons's she bade the man drive to +the shop in Cranbourne Street where she was accustomed to +purchase the materials she used in painting, and Fate, which uses +strange agents to work out its ends, so directed it that the +cabman stopped a few doors below this shop, and opposite one +where jewelry and other personal effects were bought and sold. +At any other time, or had she been in any other mood, what +followed might not have occurred, but Fate, in the person of the +cabman, arranged it so that the hour and the opportunity came +together. + +There were some old mezzotints in the window of the loan shop, a +string of coins and medals, a row of new French posters; and far +down to the front a tray filled with gold and silver cigarette- +cases and watches and rings. It occurred to Helen, who was still +bent on making restitution for her neglect, that a cigarette-case +would be more appropriate for a man than flowers, and more +lasting. And she scanned the contents of the window with the +eye of one who now saw in everything only something which might +give Philip pleasure. The two objects of value in the tray upon +which her eyes first fell were the gold seal-ring with which +Philip had sealed his letters to her, and, lying next to it, his +gold watch! There was something almost human in the way the ring +and watch spoke to her from the past--in the way they appealed to +her to rescue them from the surroundings to which they had been +abandoned. She did not know what she meant to do with them nor +how she could return them to Philip; but there was no question of +doubt in her manner as she swept with a rush into the shop. +There was no attempt, either, at bargaining in the way in which +she pointed out to the young woman behind the counter the +particular ring and watch she wanted. They had not been left as +collateral, the young woman said; they had been sold outright. + +"Then any one can buy them?" Helen asked eagerly. "They are for +sale to the public--to any one?" + + +The young woman made note of the customer's eagerness, but +with an unmoved countenance. + +"Yes, miss, they are for sale. The ring is four pounds and the +watch twenty-five." + +"Twenty-nine pounds!" Helen gasped. + +That was more money than she had in the world, but the fact did +not distress her, for she had a true artistic disregard for ready +money, and the absence of it had never disturbed her. But now it +assumed a sudden and alarming value. She had ten pounds in her +purse and ten pounds at her studio--these were just enough to pay +for a quarter's rent and the rates, and there was a hat and cloak +in Bond Street which she certainly must have. Her only assets +consisted of the possibility that some one might soon order a +miniature, and to her mind that was sufficient. Some one always +had ordered a miniature, and there was no reasonable doubt but +that some one would do it again. For a moment she questioned if +it would not be sufficient if she bought the ring and allowed the +watch to remain. But she recognized that the ring meant more to +her than the watch, while the latter, as an old heirloom which +had been passed down to him from a great-grandfather, meant +more to Philip. It was for Philip she was doing this, she +reminded herself. She stood holding his possessions, one in each +hand, and looking at the young woman blankly. She had no doubt +in her mind that at least part of the money he had received for +them had paid for the flowers he had sent to her in Scotland. +The certainty of this left her no choice. She laid the ring and +watch down and pulled the only ring she possessed from her own +finger. It was a gift from Lady Gower. She had no doubt that it +was of great value. + +"Can you lend me some money on that?" she asked. It was the +first time she had conducted a business transaction of this +nature, and she felt as though she were engaging in a burglary. + +"We don't lend money, miss," the girl said, "we buy outright. I +can give you twenty-eight shillings for this," she added. + +"Twenty-eight shillings," Helen gasped; "why, it is worth--oh, +ever so much more than that!" + +"That is all it is worth to us," the girl answered. She regarded +the ring indifferently and laid it away from her on the counter. +The action was final. + +Helen's hands rose slowly to her breast, where a pretty watch +dangled from a bowknot of crushed diamonds. It was her only +possession, and she was very fond of it. It also was the gift of +one of the several great ladies who had adopted her since her +residence in London. Helen had painted a miniature of this +particular great lady which had looked so beautiful that the +pleasure which the original of the portrait derived from the +thought that she still really looked as she did in the miniature +was worth more to her than many diamonds. + +But it was different with Helen, and no one could count what it +cost her to tear away her one proud possession. + +"What will you give me for this?" she asked defiantly. + +The girl's eyes showed greater interest. "I can give you twenty +pounds for that," she said. + +"Take it, please," Helen begged, as though she feared if she +kept it a moment longer she might not be able to make the +sacrifice. + +"That will be enough now," she went on, taking out her ten-pound +note. She put Lady Gower's ring back upon her finger and picked +up Philip's ring and watch with the pleasure of one who has come +into a great fortune. She turned back at the door. + +"Oh," she stammered, "in case any one should inquire, you are not +to say who bought these." + +"No, miss, certainly not," said the woman. Helen gave the +direction to the cabman and, closing the doors of the hansom, sat +looking down at the watch and the ring, as they lay in her lap. +The thought that they had been his most valued possessions, which +he had abandoned forever, and that they were now entirely hers, +to do with as she liked, filled her with most intense delight and +pleasure. She took up the heavy gold ring and placed it on the +little finger of her left hand; it was much too large, and she +removed it and balanced it for a moment doubtfully in the palm of +her right hand. She was smiling, and her face was lit with +shy and tender thoughts. She cast a quick glance to the left and +right as though fearful that people passing in the street would +observe her, and then slipped the ring over the fourth finger of +her left hand. She gazed at it with a guilty smile and then, +covering it hastily with her other hand, leaned back, clasping it +closely, and sat frowning far out before her with puzzled eyes. + +To Carroll all roads led past Helen's studio, and during the +summer, while she had been absent in Scotland it was one of his +sad pleasures to make a pilgrimage to her street and to pause +opposite the house and look up at the empty windows of her rooms. + +It was during this daily exercise that he learned, through the +arrival of her luggage, of her return to London, and when day +followed day without her having shown any desire to see him or to +tell him of her return he denounced himself most bitterly as a +fatuous fool. + +At the end of the week he sat down and considered his case quite +calmly. For three years he had loved this girl, deeply and +tenderly. He had been lover, brother, friend, and guardian. +During that time, even though she had accepted him in every +capacity except as that of the prospective husband, she had never +given him any real affection, nor sympathy, nor help; all she had +done for him had been done without her knowledge or intent. To +know her, to love her, and to scheme to give her pleasure had +been its own reward, and the only one. For the last few months +he had been living like a crossing-sweeper in order to be able to +stay in London until she came back to it, and that he might still +send her the gifts he had always laid on her altar. He had not +seen her in three months. Three months that had been to him a +blank, except for his work--which like all else that he did, was +inspired and carried on for her. Now at last she had returned +and had shown that, even as a friend, he was of so little account +in her thoughts, of so little consequence in her life, that after +this long absence she had no desire to learn of his welfare or to +see him--she did not even give him the chance to see her. And +so, placing these facts before him for the first time since +he had loved her, he considered what was due to himself. "Was it +good enough?" he asked. "Was it just that he should continue to +wear out his soul and body for this girl who did not want what he +had to give, who treated him less considerately than a man whom +she met for the first time at dinner? He felt he had reached the +breaking-point; that the time had come when he must consider what +he owed to himself. There could never be any other woman save +Helen, but as it was not to be Helen, he could no longer, with +self-respect, continue to proffer his love only to see it +slighted and neglected. He was humble enough concerning himself, +but of his love he was very proud. Other men could give her more +in wealth or position, but no one could ever love her as he did. +"He that hath more let him give," he had often quoted to her +defiantly, as though he were challenging the world, and now he +felt he must evolve a make-shift world of his own--a world in +which she was not his only spring of acts; he must begin all over +again and keep his love secret and sacred until she +understood it and wanted it. And if she should never want it he +would at least have saved it from many rebuffs and insults. + +With this determination strong in him, the note Helen had left +for him after her talk with Marion, and the flowers, and the note +with them, saying she was coming to take tea on the morrow, +failed to move him except to make him more bitter. He saw in +them only a tardy recognition of her neglect--an effort to make +up to him for thoughtlessness which, from her, hurt him worse +than studied slight. + +A new regime had begun, and he was determined to establish it +firmly and to make it impossible for himself to retreat from it; +and in the note in which he thanked Helen for the flowers and +welcomed her to tea, he declared his ultimatum. + +"You know how terribly I feel," he wrote; "I don't have to tell +you that, but I cannot always go on dragging out my love and +holding it up to excite your pity as beggars show their sores. I +cannot always go on praying before your altar, cutting myself +with knives and calling upon you to listen to me. You know +that there is no one else but you, and that there never can be +any one but you, and that nothing is changed except that after +this I am not going to urge and torment you. I shall wait as I +have always waited--only now I shall wait in silence. You know +just how little, in one way, I have to offer you, and you know +just how much I have in love to offer you. It is now for you to +speak--some day, or never. But you will have to speak first. +You will never hear a word of love from me again. Why should +you? You know it is always waiting for you. But if you should +ever want it, you must come to me, and take off your hat and put +it on my table and say, 'Philip, I have come to stay.' Whether +you can ever do that or not can make no difference in my love for +you. I shall love you always, as no man has ever loved a woman +in this world, but it is you who must speak first; for me, the +rest is silence." + +The following morning as Helen was leaving the house she found +this letter lying on the hall-table, and ran back with it to her +rooms. A week before she would have let it lie on the table +and read it on her return. She was conscious that this was what +she would have done, and it pleased her to find that what +concerned Philip was now to her the thing of greatest interest. +She was pleased with her own eagerness--her own happiness was a +welcome sign, and she was proud and glad that she was learning to +care. + +She read the letter with an anxious pride and pleasure in each +word that was entirely new. Philip's recriminations did not hurt +her, they were the sign that he cared; nor did his determination +not to speak of his love to her hurt her, for she believed him +when he said that he would always care. She read the letter +twice, and then sat for some time considering the kind of letter +Philip would have written had he known her secret--had he known +that the ring he had abandoned was now upon her finger. + +She rose and, crossing to a desk, placed the letter in a drawer, +and then took it out again and re-read the last page. When she +had finished it she was smiling. For a moment she stood +irresolute, and then, moving slowly toward the centre-table, cast +a guilty look about her and, raising her hands, lifted her +veil and half withdrew the pins that fastened her hat. + +"Philip," she began in a frightened whisper, "I have--I have come +to--" + +The sentence ended in a cry of protest, and she rushed across the +room as though she were running from herself. She was blushing +violently. + +"Never!" she cried, as she pulled open the door; "I could never +do it--never!" + +The following afternoon, when Helen was to come to tea, Carroll +decided that he would receive her with all the old friendliness, +but that he must be careful to subdue all emotion. + +He was really deeply hurt at her treatment, and had it not been +that she came on her own invitation he would not of his own +accord have sought to see her. In consequence, he rather +welcomed than otherwise the arrival of Marion Cavendish, who came +a half-hour before Helen was expected, and who followed a hasty +knock with a precipitate entrance. + +"Sit down," she commanded breathlessly; "and listen. I've been +at rehearsal all day, or I'd have been here before you were +awake." She seated herself nervously and nodded her head at +Carroll in an excited and mysterious manner. + +"What is it?" he asked. "Have you and Reggie--" + +"Listen," Marion repeated, "our fortunes are made; that is what's +the matter--and I've made them. If you took half the interest in +your work I do, you'd have made yours long ago. Last night," she +began impressively, "I went to a large supper at the Savoy, and I +sat next to Charley Wimpole. He came in late, after everybody +had finished, and I attacked him while he was eating his supper. +He said he had been rehearsing 'Caste' after the performance; +that they've put it on as a stop-gap on account of the failure of +the 'Triflers,' and that he knew revivals were of no use; that he +would give any sum for a good modern comedy. That was my cue, +and I told him I knew of a better comedy than any he had produced +at his theatre in five years, and that it was going begging. He +laughed, and asked where was he to find this wonderful comedy, +and I said, 'It's been in your safe for the last two months +and you haven't read it.' He said, 'Indeed, how do you know +that?' and I said, 'Because if you'd read it, it wouldn't be in +your safe, but on your stage.' So he asked me what the play was +about, and I told him the plot and what sort of a part his was, +and some of his scenes, and he began to take notice. He forgot +his supper, and very soon he grew so interested that he turned +his chair round and kept eying my supper-card to find out who I +was, and at last remembered seeing me in 'The New Boy'--and a +rotten part it was, too--but he remembered it, and he told me to +go on and tell him more about your play. So I recited it, bit by +bit, and he laughed in all the right places and got very much +excited, and said finally that he would read it the first thing +this morning." Marion paused, breathlessly. "Oh, yes, and he +wrote your address on his cuff," she added, with the air of +delivering a complete and convincing climax. + +Carroll stared at her and pulled excitedly on his pipe. + +"Oh, Marion!" he gasped, "suppose he should? He won't +though," he added, but eying her eagerly and inviting +contradiction. + +"He will," she answered, stoutly, "if he reads it." + +"The other managers read it," Carroll suggested, doubtfully. + +"Yes, but what do they know?" Marion returned, loftily. "He +knows. Charles Wimpole is the only intelligent actor-manager in +London." + +There was a sharp knock at the door, which Marion in her +excitement had left ajar, and Prentiss threw it wide open with an +impressive sweep, as though he were announcing royalty: "Mr. +Charles Wimpole," he said. + +The actor-manager stopped in the doorway bowing gracefully, his +hat held before him and his hand on his stick as though it were +resting on a foil. He had the face and carriage of a gallant of +the days of Congreve, and he wore his modern frock-coat with as +much distinction as if it were of silk and lace. He was +evidently amused. "I couldn't help overhearing the last line," +he said, smiling. "It gives me a good entrance." + +Marion gazed at him blankly: "Oh," she gasped, "we--we--were just +talking about you." + +"If you hadn't mentioned my name," the actor said, "I should +never have guessed it. And this is Mr. Carroll, I hope." + +The great man was rather pleased with the situation. As he read +it, it struck him as possessing strong dramatic possibilities: +Carroll was the struggling author on the verge of starvation: +Marion, his sweetheart, flying to him gave him hope; and he was +the good fairy arriving in the nick of time to set everything +right and to make the young people happy and prosperous. He +rather fancied himself in the part of the good fairy, and as he +seated himself he bowed to them both in a manner which was +charmingly inclusive and confidential. + +"Miss Cavendish, I imagine, has already warned you that you might +expect a visit from me," he said tentatively. Carroll nodded. +He was too much concerned to interrupt. + +"Then I need only tell you," Wimpole continued, "that I got up at +an absurd hour this morning to read your play; that I did +read it; that I like it immensely--and that if we can come to +terms I shall produce it I shall produce it at once, within a +fortnight or three weeks." + +Carroll was staring at him intently and continued doing so after +Wimpole had finished speaking. The actor felt he had somehow +missed his point, or that Carroll could not have understood him, +and repeated, "I say I shall put it in rehearsal at once." + +Carroll rose abruptly, and pushed back his chair. "I should be +very glad," he murmured, and strode over to the window, where he +stood with his back turned to his guests. Wimpole looked after +him with a kindly smile and nodded his head appreciatively. He +had produced even a greater effect than his lines seemed to +warrant. When he spoke again, it was quite simply, and +sincerely, and though he spoke for Carroll's benefit, he +addressed himself to Marion. + +"You were quite right last night," he said, "it is a most +charming piece of work. I am really extremely grateful to you +for bringing it to my notice." He rose, and going to +Carroll, put his hand on his shoulder. "My boy," he said, "I +congratulate you. I should like to be your age, and to have +written that play. Come to my theatre to-morrow and we will talk +terms. Talk it over first with your friends, so that I sha'n't +rob you. Do you think you would prefer a lump sum now, and so be +done with it altogether, or trust that the royalties may--" + +"Royalties," prompted Marion, in an eager aside. + +The men laughed. "Quite right," Wimpole assented, good- +humoredly; "it's a poor sportsman who doesn't back his own horse. + +Well, then, until to-morrow." + +"But," Carroll began, "one moment please. I haven't thanked +you." + +"My dear boy," cried Wimpole, waving him away with his stick, "it +is I who have to thank you." + +"And--and there is a condition," Carroll said, "which goes with +the play. It is that Miss Cavendish is to have the part of +Nancy." + +Wimpole looked serious and considered for a moment. + +"Nancy," he said, "the girl who interferes--a very good part. +I have cast Miss Maddox for it in my mind, but, of course, if the +author insists--" + +Marion, with her elbows on the table, clasped her hands +appealingly before her. + +"Oh, Mr. Wimpole!" she cried, "you owe me that, at least." + +Carroll leaned over and took both of Marion's hands in one of +his. + +"It's all right," he said; "the author insists." + +Wimpole waved his stick again as though it were the magic wand of +the good fairy. + +"You shall have it," he said. "I recall your performance in 'The +New Boy' with pleasure. I take the play, and Miss Cavendish +shall be cast for Nancy. We shall begin rehearsals at once. I +hope you are a quick study." + +"I'm letter-perfect now{,}" laughed Marion. + +Wimpole turned at the door and nodded to them. They were both so +young, so eager, and so jubilant that he felt strangely old and +out of it. "Good-by, then," he said. + +"Good-by, sir," they both chorussed. And Marion cried after +him, "And thank you a thousand times." + +He turned again and looked back at them, but in their rejoicing +they had already forgotten him. "Bless you, my children," he +said, smiling. As he was about to close the door a young girl +came down the passage toward it, and as she was apparently going +to Carroll's rooms, the actor left the door open behind him. + +Neither Marion nor Carroll had noticed his final exit. They were +both gazing at each other as though, could they find speech, they +would ask if it were true. + +"It's come at last, Marion," Philip said, with an uncertain +voice. + +"I could weep," cried Marion. " Philip," she exclaimed, "I would +rather see that play succeed than any play ever written, and I +would rather play that part in it than--Oh, Philip," she ended. +"I'm so proud of you!" and rising, she threw her arms about his +neck and sobbed on his shoulder. + +Carroll raised one of her hands and kissed the tips of her +fingers gently. "I owe it to you, Marion," he said--"all to +you." + +This was the tableau that was presented through the open door to +Miss Helen Cabot, hurrying on her errand of restitution and good- +will, and with Philip's ring and watch clasped in her hand. They +had not heard her, nor did they see her at the door, so she drew +back quickly and ran along the passage and down the stairs into +the street. + +She did not need now to analyze her feelings. They were only too +evident. For she could translate what she had just seen as +meaning only one thing--that she had considered Philip's love so +lightly that she had not felt it passing away from her until her +neglect had killed it--until it was too late. And now that it +was too late she felt that without it her life could not go on. +She tried to assure herself that only the fact that she had lost +it made it seem invaluable, but this thought did not comfort +her--she was not deceived by it, she knew that at last she cared +for him deeply and entirely. In her distress she blamed herself +bitterly, but she also blamed Philip no less bitterly for having +failed to wait for her. "He might have known that I must love +him in time," she repeated to herself again and again. She +was so unhappy that her letter congratulating Philip on his good +fortune in having his comedy accepted seemed to him cold and +unfeeling, and as his success meant for him only what it meant to +her, he was hurt and grievously disappointed. + +He accordingly turned the more readily to Marion, whose interests +and enthusiasm at the rehearsals of the piece seemed in contrast +most friendly and unselfish. He could not help but compare the +attitude of the two girls at this time, when the failure or +success of his best work was still undecided. He felt that as +Helen took so little interest in his success he could not dare to +trouble her with his anxieties concerning it, and she attributed +his silence to his preoccupation and interest in Marion. So the +two grew apart, each misunderstanding the other and each troubled +in spirit at the other's indifference. + +The first night of the play justified all that Marion and Wimpole +had claimed for it, and was a great personal triumph for the new +playwright. The audience was the typical first-night +audience of the class which Charles Wimpole always commanded. It +was brilliant, intelligent, and smart, and it came prepared to be +pleased. + +From one of the upper stage-boxes Helen and Lady Gower watched +the successful progress of the play with an anxiety almost as +keen as that of the author. To Helen it seemed as though the +giving of these lines to the public--these lines which he had so +often read to her, and altered to her liking--was a desecration. +It seemed as though she were losing him indeed--as though he now +belonged to these strange people, all of whom were laughing and +applauding his words, from the German Princess in the Royal box +to the straight-backed Tommy in the pit. Instead of the painted +scene before her, she saw the birch-trees by the river at home, +where he had first read her the speech to which they were now +listening so intensely--the speech in which the hero tells the +girl he loves her. She remembered that at the time she had +thought how wonderful it would be if some day some one made such +a speech to her--not Philip--but a man she loved. And now? +If Philip would only make that speech to her now! + +He came out at last, with Wimpole leading him, and bowed across a +glaring barrier of lights at a misty but vociferous audience that +was shouting the generous English bravo! and standing up to +applaud. He raised his eyes to the box where Helen sat, and saw +her staring down at the tumult, with her hands clasped under her +chin. Her face was colorless, but lit with the excitement of the +moment; and he saw that she was crying. + +Lady Gower, from behind her, was clapping her hands delightedly. + +"But, my dear Helen," she remonstrated breathlessly, "you never +told me he was so good-looking." + +"Yes," said Helen, rising abruptly, "he is--very good-looking." + +She crossed the box to where her cloak was hanging, but instead +of taking it down buried her face in its folds. + +"My dear child!" cried Lady Gower, in dismay. "What is it? The +excitement has been too much for you." + +"No, I am just happy," sobbed Helen. "I am just happy for him." + +"We will go and tell him so then," said Lady Gower. "I am sure +he would like to hear it from you to-night." + +Philip was standing in the centre of the stage, surrounded by +many pretty ladies and elderly men. Wimpole was hovering over +him as though he had claims upon him by the right of discovery. + +But when Philip saw Helen, he pushed his way toward her eagerly +and took her hand in both of his. + +"I am so glad, Phil," she said. She felt it all so deeply that +she was afraid to say more, but that meant so much to her that +she was sure he would understand. + +He had planned it very differently. For a year he had dreamed +that, on the first night of his play, there would be a supper, +and that he would rise and drink her health, and tell his friends +and the world that she was the woman he loved, and that she had +agreed to marry him, and that at last he was able, through the +success of his play, to make her his wife. + +And now they met in a crowd to shake hands, and she went her way +with one of her grand ladies, and he was left among a group of +chattering strangers. The great English playwright took him by +the hand and in the hearing of all, praised him gracefully and +kindly. It did not matter to Philip whether the older playwright +believed what he said or not; he knew it was generously meant. + +"I envy you this," the great man was saying. "Don't lose any of +it, stay and listen to all they have to say. You will never live +through the first night of your first play but once." + +"Yes, I hear them," said Philip, nervously; "they are all too +kind. But I don't hear the voice I have been listening for," he +added in a whisper. The older man pressed his hand again +quickly. "My dear boy," he said, "I am sorry." + +"Thank you," Philip answered. + +Within a week he had forgotten the great man's fine words of +praise, but the clasp of his hand he cherished always. + +Helen met Marion as she was leaving the stage door and stopped to +congratulate her on her success in the new part. Marion was +radiant. To Helen she seemed obstreperously happy and jubilant. + +"And, Marion," Helen began bravely, "I also want to congratulate +you on something else. You--you--neither of you have told me +yet," she stammered, "but I am such an old friend of both that I +will not be kept out of the secret." At these words Marion's air +of triumphant gayety vanished; she regarded Helen's troubled eyes +closely and kindly. + +"What secret, Helen?" she asked. + +"I came to the door of Philip's room the other day when you did +not know I was there," Helen answered; "and I could not help +seeing how matters were. And I do congratulate you both--and +wish you--oh, such happiness!" Without a word Marion dragged her +back down the passage to her dressing-room, and closed the door. + +"Now tell me what you mean," she said. + +"I am sorry if I discovered anything you didn't want known yet," +said Helen, "but the door was open. Mr. Wimpole had just left +you and had not shut it, and I could not help seeing." + +Marion interrupted her with an eager exclamation of +enlightenment. + +"Oh, you were there, then," she cried. "And you?" she asked +eagerly--"you thought Phil cared for me--that we are engaged, and +it hurt you; you are sorry? Tell me," she demanded, "are you +sorry?" + +Helen drew back and stretched out her hand toward the door. + +"How can you! she exclaimed, indignantly. "You have no right." + +Marion stood between her and the door. + +"I have every right," she said, "to help my friends, and I want +to help you and Philip. And indeed I do hope you ARE sorry. +I hope you are miserable. And I'm glad you saw me kiss him. +That was the first and the last time, and I did it because I was +happy and glad for him; and because I love him too, but not in +the least in the way he loves you. No one ever loved any one as +he loves you. And it's time you found it out. And if I have +helped to make you find it out I'm glad, and I don't care how +much I hurt you." + +"Marion!" exclaimed Helen," what does it mean? Do you mean +that you are not engaged; that--" + +"Certainly not," Marion answered. "I am going to marry Reggie. +It is you that Philip loves, and I am very sorry for you that you +don't love him." + +Helen clasped Marion's hands in both of hers. + +"But, Marion!" she cried, "I do, oh, I do!" + + +There was a thick yellow fog the next morning, and with it rain +and a sticky, depressing dampness which crept through the window- +panes, and which neither a fire nor blazing gas-jets could +overcome. + +Philip stood in front of the fireplace with the morning papers +piled high on the centre-table and scattered over the room about +him. + +He had read them all, and he knew now what it was to wake up +famous, but he could not taste it. Now that it had come it meant +nothing, and that it was so complete a triumph only made it the +harder. In his most optimistic dreams he had never imagined +success so satisfying as the reality had proved to be; but in +his dreams Helen had always held the chief part, and without her, +success seemed only to mock him. + +He wanted to lay it all before her, to say, "If you are pleased, +I am happy. If you are satisfied, then I am content. It was +done for you, and I am wholly yours, and all that I do is yours." + +And, as though in answer to his thoughts, there was an instant +knock at the door, and Helen entered the room and stood smiling +at him across the table. + +Her eyes were lit with excitement, and spoke with many emotions, +and her cheeks were brilliant with color. He had never seen her +look more beautiful. + +"Why, Helen!" he exclaimed, "how good of you to come. Is there +anything wrong? Is anything the matter?" + +She tried to speak, but faltered, and smiled at him appealingly. + +"What is it?" he asked in great concern. + +Helen drew in her breath quickly, and at the same moment motioned +him away--and he stepped back and stood watching her in much +perplexity. + +With her eyes fixed on his she raised her hands to her head, +and her fingers fumbled with the knot of her veil. She pulled it +loose, and then, with a sudden courage, lifted her hat proudly, +as though it were a coronet, and placed it between them on his +table. + +"Philip," she stammered, with the tears in her voice and eyes, +"if you will let me--I have come to stay." + +The table was no longer between them. He caught her in his arms +and kissed her face and her uncovered head again and again. From +outside the rain beat drearily and the fog rolled through the +street, but inside before the fire the two young people sat close +together, asking eager questions or sitting in silence, staring +at the flames with wondering, happy eyes. + + +The Lion and the Unicorn saw them only once again. It was a +month later when they stopped in front of the shop in a four- +wheeler, with their baggage mixed on top of it, and steamer- +labels pasted over every trunk. + +"And, oh, Prentiss!" Carroll called from the cab-window. "I came +near forgetting. I promised to gild the Lion and the Unicorn +if I won out in London. So have it done, please, and send the +bill to me. For I've won out all right." And then he shut the +door of the cab, and they drove away forever. + +"Nice gal, that," growled the Lion. "I always liked her. I am +glad they've settled it at last." + +The Unicorn sighed, sentimentally. "The other one's worth two of +her," he said. + + + +ON THE FEVER SHIP + +There were four rails around the ship's sides, the three lower +ones of iron and the one on top of wood, and as he looked between +them from the canvas cot he recognized them as the prison-bars +which held him in. Outside his prison lay a stretch of blinding +blue water which ended in a line of breakers and a yellow coast +with ragged palms. Beyond that again rose a range of mountain- +peaks, and, stuck upon the loftiest peak of all, a tiny block- +house. It rested on the brow of the mountain against the naked +sky as impudently as a cracker-box set upon the dome of a great +cathedral. + +As the transport rode on her anchor-chains, the iron bars around +her sides rose and sank and divided the landscape with parallel +lines. From his cot the officer followed this phenomenon with +severe, painstaking interest. Sometimes the wooden rail swept up +to the very block-house itself, and for a second of time +blotted it from sight. And again it sank to the level of the +line of breakers, and wiped them out of the picture as though +they were a line of chalk. + +The soldier on the cot promised himself that the next swell of +the sea would send the lowest rail climbing to the very top of +the palm-trees or, even higher, to the base of the mountains; and +when it failed to reach even the palm-trees he felt a distinct +sense of ill use, of having been wronged by some one. There was +no other reason for submitting to this existence, save these +tricks upon the wearisome, glaring landscape; and, now, whoever +it was who was working them did not seem to be making this effort +to entertain him with any heartiness. + +It was most cruel. Indeed, he decided hotly, it was not to be +endured; he would bear it no longer, he would make his escape. +But he knew that this move, which could be conceived in a +moment's desperation, could only be carried to success with great +strategy, secrecy, and careful cunning. So he fell back upon his +pillow and closed his eyes, as though he were asleep, and +then opening them again, turned cautiously, and spied upon his +keeper. As usual, his keeper sat at the foot of the cot turning +the pages of a huge paper filled with pictures of the war printed +in daubs of tawdry colors. His keeper was a hard-faced boy +without human pity or consideration, a very devil of obstinacy +and fiendish cruelty. To make it worse, the fiend was a person +without a collar, in a suit of soiled khaki, with a curious red +cross bound by a safety-pin to his left arm. He was intent upon +the paper in his hands; he was holding it between his eyes and +his prisoner. His vigilance had relaxed, and the moment seemed +propitious. With a sudden plunge of arms and legs, the prisoner +swept the bed sheet from him, and sprang at the wooden rail and +grasped the iron stanchion beside it. He had his knee pressed +against the top bar and his bare toes on the iron rail beneath +it. Below him the blue water waited for him. It was cool and +dark and gentle and deep. It would certainly put out the fire in +his bones, he thought; it might even shut out the glare of the +sun which scorched his eyeballs. + +But as he balanced for the leap, a swift weakness and nausea +swept over him, a weight seized upon his body and limbs. He +could not lift the lower foot from the iron rail, and he swayed +dizzily and trembled. He trembled. He who had raced his men and +beaten them up the hot hill to the trenches of San Juan. But now +he was a baby in the hands of a giant, who caught him by the +wrist and with an iron arm clasped him around his waist and +pulled him down, and shouted, brutally, "Help, some of you'se, +quick; he's at it again. I can't hold him." + +More giants grasped him by the arms and by the legs. One of them +took the hand that clung to the stanchion in both of his, and +pulled back the fingers one by one, saying, "Easy now, +Lieutenant--easy." + +The ragged palms and the sea and block-house were swallowed up in +a black fog, and his body touched the canvas cot again with a +sense of home-coming and relief and rest. He wondered how he +could have cared to escape from it. He found it so good to be +back again that for a long time he wept quite happily, until the +fiery pillow was moist and cool. + +The world outside of the iron bars was like a scene in a theatre +set for some great event, but the actors were never ready. He +remembered confusedly a play he had once witnessed before that +same scene. Indeed, he believed he had played some small part in +it; but he remembered it dimly, and all trace of the men who had +appeared with him in it was gone. He had reasoned it out that +they were up there behind the range of mountains, because great +heavy wagons and ambulances and cannon were emptied from the +ships at the wharf above and were drawn away in long lines behind +the ragged palms, moving always toward the passes between the +peaks. At times he was disturbed by the thought that he should +be up and after them, that some tradition of duty made his +presence with them imperative. There was much to be done back of +the mountains. Some event of momentous import was being carried +forward there, in which he held a part; but the doubt soon passed +from him, and he was content to lie and watch the iron bars +rising and falling between the block-house and the white +surf. + +If they had been only humanely kind, his lot would have been +bearable, but they starved him and held him down when he wished +to rise; and they would not put out the fire in the pillow, which +they might easily have done by the simple expedient of throwing +it over the ship's side into the sea. He himself had done this +twice, but the keeper had immediately brought a fresh pillow +already heated for the torture and forced it under his head. + +His pleasures were very simple, and so few that he could not +understand why they robbed him of them so jealously. One was to +watch a green cluster of bananas that hung above him from the +awning twirling on a string. He could count as many of them as +five before the bunch turned and swung lazily back again, when he +could count as high as twelve; sometimes when the ship rolled +heavily he could count to twenty. It was a most fascinating +game, and contented him for many hours. But when they found this +out they sent for the cook to come and cut them down, and the +cook carried them away to his galley. + +Then, one day, a man came out from the shore, swimming through +the blue water with great splashes. He was a most charming man, +who spluttered and dove and twisted and lay on his back and +kicked his legs in an excess of content and delight. It was a +real pleasure to watch him; not for days had anything so amusing +appeared on the other side of the prison-bars. But as soon as +the keeper saw that the man in the water was amusing his +prisoner, he leaned over the ship's side and shouted, "Sa-ay, +you, don't you know there's sharks in there?" + +And the swimming man said, "The h--ll there is!" and raced back +to the shore like a porpoise with great lashing of the water, and +ran up the beach half-way to the palms before he was satisfied to +stop. Then the prisoner wept again. It was so disappointing. +Life was robbed of everything now. He remembered that in a +previous existence soldiers who cried were laughed at and mocked. + +But that was so far away and it was such an absurd superstition +that he had no patience with it. For what could be more +comforting to a man when he is treated cruelly than to cry. +It was so obvious an exercise, and when one is so feeble that one +cannot vault a four-railed barrier it is something to feel that +at least one is strong enough to cry. + +He escaped occasionally, traversing space with marvellous +rapidity and to great distances, but never to any successful +purpose; and his flight inevitably ended in ignominious recapture +and a sudden awakening in bed. At these moments the familiar and +hated palms, the peaks and the block-house were more hideous in +their reality than the most terrifying of his nightmares. + +These excursions afield were always predatory; he went forth +always to seek food. With all the beautiful world from which to +elect and choose, he sought out only those places where eating +was studied and elevated to an art. These visits were much more +vivid in their detail than any he had ever before made to these +same resorts. They invariably began in a carriage, which carried +him swiftly over smooth asphalt. One route brought him across a +great and beautiful square, radiating with rows and rows of +flickering lights; two fountains splashed in the centre of the +square, and six women of stone guarded its approaches. One of +the women was hung with wreaths of mourning. Ahead of him the +late twilight darkened behind a great arch, which seemed to rise +on the horizon of the world, a great window into the heavens +beyond. At either side strings of white and colored globes hung +among the trees, and the sound of music came joyfully from +theatres in the open air. He knew the restaurant under the trees +to which he was now hastening, and the fountain beside it, and +the very sparrows balancing on the fountain's edge; he knew every +waiter at each of the tables, he felt again the gravel crunching +under his feet, he saw the maitre d'hotel coming forward +smiling to receive his command, and the waiter in the green apron +bowing at his elbow, deferential and important, presenting the +list of wines. But his adventure never passed that point, for he +was captured again and once more bound to his cot with a close +burning sheet. + +Or else, he drove more sedately through the London streets in +the late evening twilight, leaning expectantly across the doors +of the hansom and pulling carefully at his white gloves. Other +hansoms flashed past him, the occupant of each with his mind +fixed on one idea--dinner. He was one of a million of people who +were about to dine, or who had dined, or who were deep in dining. + +He was so famished, so weak for food of any quality, that the +galloping horse in the hansom seemed to crawl. The lights of the +Embankment passed like the lamps of a railroad station as seen +from the window of an express; and while his mind was still torn +between the choice of a thin or thick soup or an immediate attack +upon cold beef, he was at the door, and the chasseur touched +his cap, and the little chasseur put the wicker guard over the +hansom's wheel. As he jumped out he said, "Give him half-a- +crown," and the driver called after him, "Thank you, sir." + +It was a beautiful world, this world outside of the iron bars. +Every one in it contributed to his pleasure and to his comfort. +In this world he was not starved nor manhandled. He thought +of this joyfully as he leaped up the stairs, where young men with +grave faces and with their hands held negligently behind their +backs bowed to him in polite surprise at his speed. But they had +not been starved on condensed milk. He threw his coat and hat at +one of them, and came down the hall fearfully and quite weak with +dread lest it should not be real. His voice was shaking when he +asked Ellis if he had reserved a table. The place was all so +real, it must be true this time. The way Ellis turned and ran +his finger down the list showed it was real, because Ellis always +did that, even when he knew there would not be an empty table for +an hour. The room was crowded with beautiful women; under the +light of the red shades they looked kind and approachable, and +there was food on every table, and iced drinks in silver buckets. + +It was with the joy of great relief that he heard Ellis say to +his underling, "Numero cinq, sur la terrace, un couvert." It was +real at last. Outside, the Thames lay a great gray shadow. The +lights of the Embankment flashed and twinkled across it, the +tower of the House of Commons rose against the sky, and here, +inside, the waiter was hurrying toward him carrying a smoking +plate of rich soup with a pungent intoxicating odor. + +And then the ragged palms, the glaring sun, the immovable peaks, +and the white surf stood again before him. The iron rails swept +up and sank again, the fever sucked at his bones, and the pillow +scorched his cheek. + +One morning for a brief moment he came back to real life again +and lay quite still, seeing everything about him with clear eyes +and for the first time, as though he had but just that instant +been lifted over the ship's side. His keeper, glancing up, found +the prisoner's eyes considering him curiously, and recognized the +change. The instinct of discipline brought him to his feet with +his fingers at his sides. + +"Is the Lieutenant feeling better?" + +The Lieutenant surveyed him gravely. + +"You are one of our hospital stewards." + +"Yes, Lieutenant." + +"Why ar'n't you with the regiment?" + +"I was wounded, too, sir. I got it same time you did, +Lieutenant." + +"Am I wounded? Of course, I remember. Is this a hospital ship?" + +The steward shrugged his shoulders. "She's one of the +transports. They have turned her over to the fever cases." + +The Lieutenant opened his lips to ask another question; but his +own body answered that one, and for a moment he lay silent. + +"Do they know up North that I--that I'm all right?" + +"Oh, yes, the papers had it in--there was pictures of the +Lieutenant in some of them." + +"Then I've been ill some time?" + +"Oh, about eight days." + +The soldier moved uneasily, and the nurse in him became +uppermost. + +"I guess the Lieutenant hadn't better talk any more," he said. +It was his voice now which held authority. + +The Lieutenant looked out at the palms and the silent gloomy +mountains and the empty coast-line, where the same wave was +rising and falling with weary persistence. + +"Eight days," he said. His eyes shut quickly, as though with a +sudden touch of pain. He turned his head and sought for the +figure at the foot of the cot. Already the figure had grown +faint and was receding and swaying. + +"Has any one written or cabled?" the Lieutenant spoke, hurriedly. + +He was fearful lest the figure should disappear altogether before +he could obtain his answer. "Has any one come?" + +"Why, they couldn't get here, Lieutenant, not yet." + +The voice came very faintly. "You go to sleep now, and I'll run +and fetch some letters and telegrams. When you wake up, may be +I'll have a lot for you." + +But the Lieutenant caught the nurse by the wrist, and crushed his +hand in his own thin fingers. They were hot, and left the +steward's skin wet with perspiration. The Lieutenant laughed +gayly. + +"You see, Doctor," he said, briskly, "that you can't kill me. I +can't die. I've got to live, you understand. Because, sir, she +said she would come. She said if I was wounded, or if I was ill, +she would come to me. She didn't care what people thought. She +would come any way and nurse me--well, she will come. + +"So, Doctor--old man--" He plucked at the steward's sleeve, and +stroked his hand eagerly, "old man--" he began again, +beseechingly, "you'll not let me die until she comes, will you? +What? No, I know I won't die. Nothing made by man can kill me. +No, not until she comes. Then, after that--eight days, she'll be +here soon, any moment? What? You think so, too? Don't you? +Surely, yes, any moment. Yes, I'll go to sleep now, and when you +see her rowing out from shore you wake me. You'll know her; you +can't make a mistake. She is like--no, there is no one like +her--but you can't make a mistake." + +That day strange figures began to mount the sides of the ship, +and to occupy its every turn and angle of space. Some of them +fell on their knees and slapped the bare deck with their hands, +and laughed and cried out, "Thank God, I'll see God's country +again!" Some of them were regulars, bound in bandages; some were +volunteers, dirty and hollow-eyed, with long beards on boys' +faces. Some came on crutches; others with their arms around +the shoulders of their comrades, staring ahead of them with a +fixed smile, their lips drawn back and their teeth protruding. +At every second step they stumbled, and the face of each was +swept by swift ripples of pain. + +They lay on cots so close together that the nurses could not walk +between them. They lay on the wet decks, in the scuppers, and +along the transoms and hatches. They were like shipwrecked +mariners clinging to a raft, and they asked nothing more than +that the ship's bow be turned toward home. Once satisfied as to +that, they relaxed into a state of self-pity and miserable +oblivion to their environment, from which hunger nor nausea nor +aching bones could shake them. + +The hospital steward touched the Lieutenant lightly on the +shoulder. + +"We are going North, sir," he said. "The transport's ordered +North to New York, with these volunteers and the sick and +wounded. Do you hear me, sir?" + +The Lieutenant opened his eyes. "Has she come?" he asked. + +"Gee!" exclaimed the hospital steward. He glanced impatiently at +the blue mountains and the yellow coast, from which the transport +was drawing rapidly away. + +"Well, I can't see her coming just now," he said. "But she +will," he added. + +"You let me know at once when she comes." + +"Why, cert'nly, of course," said the steward. + +Three trained nurses came over the side just before the transport +started North. One was a large, motherly-looking woman, with a +German accent. She had been a trained nurse, first in Berlin, +and later in the London Hospital in Whitechapel, and at Bellevue. + +The nurse was dressed in white, and wore a little silver medal at +her throat; and she was strong enough to lift a volunteer out of +his cot and hold him easily in her arms, while one of the +convalescents pulled his cot out of the rain. Some of the men +called her "nurse;" others, who wore scapulars around their +necks, called her "Sister;" and the officers of the medical staff +addressed her as Miss Bergen. + +Miss Bergen halted beside the cot of the Lieutenant and +asked, "Is this the fever case you spoke about, Doctor--the one +you want moved to the officers' ward?" She slipped her hand up +under his sleeve and felt his wrist. + +"His pulse is very high," she said to the steward. "When did you +take his temperature?" She drew a little morocco case from her +pocket and from that took a clinical thermometer, which she shook +up and down, eying the patient meanwhile with a calm, impersonal +scrutiny. The Lieutenant raised his head and stared up at the +white figure beside his cot. His eyes opened and then shut +quickly, with a startled look, in which doubt struggled with +wonderful happiness. His hand stole out fearfully and warily +until it touched her apron, and then, finding it was real, he +clutched it desperately, and twisting his face and body toward +her, pulled her down, clasping her hands in both of his, and +pressing them close to his face and eyes and lips. He put them +from him for an instant, and looked at her through his tears. + +"Sweetheart," he whispered, "sweetheart, I knew you'd come." + +As the nurse knelt on the deck beside him, her thermometer +slipped from her fingers and broke, and she gave an exclamation +of annoyance. The young Doctor picked up the pieces and tossed +them overboard. Neither of them spoke, but they smiled +appreciatively. The Lieutenant was looking at the nurse with the +wonder and hope and hunger of soul in his eyes with which a dying +man looks at the cross the priest holds up before him. What he +saw where the German nurse was kneeling was a tall, fair girl +with great bands and masses of hair, with a head rising like a +lily from a firm, white throat, set on broad shoulders above a +straight back and sloping breast--a tall, beautiful creature, +half-girl, half-woman, who looked back at him shyly, but +steadily. + +"Listen," he said. + +The voice of the sick man was so sure and so sane that the young +Doctor started, and moved nearer to the head of the cot. +"Listen, dearest," the Lieutenant whispered. "I wanted to tell +you before I came South. But I did not dare; and then I was +afraid something might happen to me, and I could never tell you, +and you would never know. So I wrote it to you in the will I +made at Baiquiri, the night before the landing. If you hadn't +come now, you would have learned it in that way. You would have +read there that there never was any one but you; the rest were +all dream people, foolish, silly--mad. There is no one else in +the world but you; you have been the only thing in life that has +counted. I thought I might do something down here that would +make you care. But I got shot going up a hill, and after that I +wasn't able to do anything. It was very hot, and the hills were +on fire; and they took me prisoner, and kept me tied down here, +burning on these coals. I can't live much longer, but now that I +have told you I can have peace. They tried to kill me before you +came; but they didn't know I loved you, they didn't know that men +who love you can't die. They tried to starve my love for you, to +burn it out of me; they tried to reach it with their knives. But +my love for you is my soul, and they can't kill a man's soul. +Dear heart, I have lived because you lived. Now that you +know--now that you understand--what does it matter?" + +Miss Bergen shook her head with great vigor. "Nonsense," she +said, cheerfully. "You are not going to die. As soon as we move +you out of this rain, and some food cook--" + +"Good God!" cried the young Doctor, savagely. "Do you want to +kill him?" + +When she spoke the patient had thrown his arms heavily across his +face, and had fallen back, lying rigid on the pillow. + +The Doctor led the way across the prostrate bodies, apologizing +as he went. "I am sorry I spoke so quickly," he said, "but he +thought you were real. I mean he thought you were some one he +really knew--" + +"He was just delirious," said the German nurse, calmly. + +The Doctor mixed himself a Scotch and soda and drank it with a +single gesture. + +"Ugh!" he said to the ward-room. "I feel as though I'd been +opening another man's letters." + + +The transport drove through the empty seas with heavy, clumsy +upheavals, rolling like a buoy. Having been originally +intended for the freight-carrying trade, she had no sympathy +with hearts that beat for a sight of their native land, or for +lives that counted their remaining minutes by the throbbing of +her engines. Occasionally, without apparent reason, she was +thrown violently from her course: but it was invariably the case +that when her stern went to starboard, something splashed in the +water on her port side and drifted past her, until, when it had +cleared the blades of her propeller, a voice cried out, and she +was swung back on her home-bound track again. + +The Lieutenant missed the familiar palms and the tiny block- +house; and seeing nothing beyond the iron rails but great wastes +of gray water, he decided he was on board a prison-ship, or that +he had been strapped to a raft and cast adrift. People came for +hours at a time and stood at the foot of his cot, and talked with +him and he to them--people he had loved and people he had long +forgotten, some of whom he had thought were dead. One of them he +could have sworn he had seen buried in a deep trench, and covered +with branches of palmetto. He had heard the bugler, with +tears choking him, sound "taps;" and with his own hand he had +placed the dead man's campaign hat on the mound of fresh earth +above the grave. Yet here he was still alive, and he came with +other men of his troop to speak to him; but when he reached out +to them they were gone--the real and the unreal, the dead and the +living--and even She disappeared whenever he tried to take her +hand, and sometimes the hospital steward drove her away. + +"Did that young lady say when she was coming back again?" he +asked the steward. + +"The young lady! What young lady?" asked the steward, wearily. + +"The one who has been sitting there," he answered. He pointed +with his gaunt hand at the man in the next cot. + +"Oh, that young lady. Yes, she's coming back. She's just gone +below to fetch you some hard-tack." + +The young volunteer in the next cot whined grievously. + +"That crazy man gives me the creeps," he groaned. "He's always +waking me up, and looking at me as though he was going to eat +me." + +"Shut your head," said the steward. "He's a better man crazy +than you'll ever be with the little sense you've got. And he has +two Mauser holes in him. Crazy, eh? It's a damned good thing +for you that there was about four thousand of us regulars just as +crazy as him, or you'd never seen the top of the hill." + +One morning there was a great commotion on deck, and all the +convalescents balanced themselves on the rail, shivering in their +pajamas, and pointed one way. The transport was moving swiftly +and smoothly through water as flat as a lake, and making a great +noise with her steam-whistle. The noise was echoed by many more +steam-whistles; and the ghosts of out-bound ships and tugs and +excursion steamers ran past her out of the mist and disappeared, +saluting joyously. All of the excursion steamers had a heavy +list to the side nearest the transport, and the ghosts on them +crowded to that rail and waved handkerchiefs and cheered. The +fog lifted suddenly, and between the iron rails the +Lieutenant saw high green hills on either side of a great harbor. + +Houses and trees and thousands of masts swept past like a +panorama; and beyond was a mirage of three cities, with curling +smoke-wreaths and sky-reaching buildings, and a great swinging +bridge, and a giant statue of a woman waving a welcome home. + +The Lieutenant surveyed the spectacle with cynical disbelief. He +was far too wise and far too cunning to be bewitched by it. In +his heart he pitied the men about him, who laughed wildly, and +shouted, and climbed recklessly to the rails and ratlines. He +had been deceived too often not to know that it was not real. He +knew from cruel experience that in a few moments the tall +buildings would crumble away, the thousands of columns of white +smoke that flashed like snow in the sun, the busy, shrieking tug- +boats, and the great statue would vanish into the sea, leaving it +gray and bare. He closed his eyes and shut the vision out. It +was so beautiful that it tempted him; but he would not be mocked, +and he buried his face in his hands. They were carrying the +farce too far, he thought. It was really too absurd; for now +they were at a wharf which was so real that, had he not known by +previous suffering, he would have been utterly deceived by it. +And there were great crowds of smiling, cheering people, and a +waiting guard of honor in fresh uniforms, and rows of police +pushing the people this way and that; and these men about him +were taking it all quite seriously, and making ready to +disembark, carrying their blanket-rolls and rifles with them. + +A band was playing joyously, and the man in the next cot, who was +being lifted to a stretcher, said, "There's the Governor and his +staff; that's him in the high hat." It was really very well +done. The Custom-house and the Elevated Railroad and Castle +Garden were as like to life as a photograph, and the crowd was as +well handled as a mob in a play. His heart ached for it so that +he could not bear the pain, and he turned his back on it. It was +cruel to keep it up so long. His keeper lifted him in his arms, +and pulled him into a dirty uniform which had belonged, +apparently, to a much larger man--a man who had been killed +probably, for there were dark-brown marks of blood on the +tunic and breeches. When he tried to stand on his feet, Castle +Garden and the Battery disappeared in a black cloud of night, +just as he knew they would; but when he opened his eyes from the +stretcher, they had returned again. It was a most remarkably +vivid vision. They kept it up so well. Now the young Doctor and +the hospital steward were pretending to carry him down a gang- +plank and into an open space; and he saw quite close to him a +long line of policemen, and behind them thousands of faces, some +of them women's faces--women who pointed at him and then shook +their heads and cried, and pressed their hands to their cheeks, +still looking at him. He wondered why they cried. He did not +know them, nor did they know him. No one knew him; these people +were only ghosts. + +There was a quick parting in the crowd. A man he had once known +shoved two of the policemen to one side, and he heard a girl's +voice speaking his name, like a sob; and She came running out +across the open space and fell on her knees beside the +stretcher, and bent down over him, and he was clasped in two +young, firm arms. + +"Of course it is not real, of course it is not She," he assured +himself. "Because She would not do such a thing. Before all +these people She would not do it." + +But he trembled and his heart throbbed so cruelly that he could +not bear the pain. + +She was pretending to cry. + +"They wired us you had started for Tampa on the hospital ship," +She was saying, "and Aunt and I went all the way there before we +heard you had been sent North. We have been on the cars a week. +That is why I missed you. Do you understand? It was not my +fault. I tried to come. Indeed, I tried to come." + +She turned her head and looked up fearfully at the young Doctor. + +"Tell me, why does he look at me like that?" she asked. "He +doesn't know me. Is he very ill? Tell me the truth." She drew +in her breath quickly. "Of course you will tell me the truth." + +When she asked the question he felt her arms draw tight about his +shoulders. It was as though she was holding him to herself, +and from some one who had reached out for him. In his trouble he +turned to his old friend and keeper. His voice was hoarse and +very low. + +"Is this the same young lady who was on the transport--the one +you used to drive away?" + +In his embarrassment, the hospital steward blushed under his tan, +and stammered. + +"Of course it's the same young lady," the Doctor answered +briskly. "And I won't let them drive her away." He turned to +her, smiling gravely. "I think his condition has ceased to be +dangerous, madam," he said. + +People who in a former existence had been his friends, and Her +brother, gathered about his stretcher and bore him through the +crowd and lifted him into a carriage filled with cushions, among +which he sank lower and lower. Then She sat beside him, and he +heard Her brother say to the coachman, "Home, and drive slowly +and keep on the asphalt." + +The carriage moved forward, and She put her arm about him and his +head fell on her shoulder, and neither of them spoke. The +vision had lasted so long now that he was torn with the joy that +after all it might be real. But he could not bear the awakening +if it were not, so he raised his head fearfully and looked up +into the beautiful eyes above him. His brows were knit, and he +struggled with a great doubt and an awful joy. + +"Dearest," he said, "is it real?" + +"Is it real?" she repeated. + +Even as a dream, it was so wonderfully beautiful that he was +satisfied if it could only continue so, if but for a little +while. + +"Do you think," he begged again, trembling, "that it is going to +last much longer?" + +She smiled, and, bending her head slowly, kissed him. + +"It is going to last--always," she said. + + + +THE MAN WITH ONE TALENT + +The mass-meeting in the Madison Square Garden which was to help +set Cuba free was finished, and the people were pushing their way +out of the overheated building into the snow and sleet of the +streets. They had been greatly stirred and the spell of the last +speaker still hung so heavily upon them that as they pressed down +the long corridor they were still speaking loudly in his praise. + +A young man moved eagerly amongst them, and pushed his way to +wherever a voice was raised above the rest. He strained forward, +listening openly, as though he tried to judge the effect of the +meeting by the verdict of those about him. + +But the words he overheard seemed to clash with what he wished +them to be, and the eager look on his face changed to one of +doubt and of grave disappointment. When he had reached the +sidewalk he stopped and stood looking back alternately into the +lighted hall and at the hurrying crowds which were dispersing +rapidly. He made a movement as though he would recall them, as +though he felt they were still unconvinced, as though there was +much still left unsaid. + +A fat stranger halted at his elbow to light his cigar, and +glancing up nodded his head approvingly. + +"Fine speaker, Senator Stanton, ain't he?" he said. + +The young man answered eagerly. "Yes," he assented, "he is a +great orator, but how could he help but speak well with such a +subject?" + +"Oh, you ought to have heard him last November at Tammany Hall," +the fat stranger answered. "He wasn't quite up to himself to- +night. He wasn't so interested. Those Cubans are foreigners, +you see, but you ought to heard him last St. Patrick's day on +Home Rule for Ireland. Then he was talking! That speech made +him a United States senator, I guess. I don't just see how +he expects to win out on this Cuba game. The Cubans haven't got +no votes." + +The young man opened his eyes in some bewilderment. + +"He speaks for the good of Cuba, for the sake of humanity," he +ventured. + +"What?" inquired the fat stranger. "Oh, yes, of course. Well, I +must be getting on. Good-night, sir." + +The stranger moved on his way, but the young man still lingered +uncertainly in the snow-swept corridor shivering violently with +the cold and stamping his feet for greater comfort. His face was +burned to a deep red, which seemed to have come from some long +exposure to a tropical sun, but which held no sign of health. +His cheeks were hollow and his eyes were lighted with the fire of +fever and from time to time he was shaken by violent bursts of +coughing which caused him to reach toward one of the pillars for +support. + +As the last of the lights went out in the Garden, the speaker of +the evening and three of his friends came laughing and talking +down the long corridor. Senator Stanton was a conspicuous +figure at any time, and even in those places where his portraits +had not penetrated he was at once recognized as a personage. +Something in his erect carriage and an unusual grace of movement, +and the power and success in his face, made men turn to look at +him. He had been told that he resembled the early portraits of +Henry Clay, and he had never quite forgotten the coincidence. + +The senator was wrapping the collar of his fur coat around his +throat and puffing contentedly at a fresh cigar, and as he +passed, the night watchman and the ushers bowed to the great man +and stood looking after him with the half-humorous, half-envious +deference that the American voter pays to the successful +politician. At the sidewalk, the policemen hurried to open the +door of his carriage and in their eagerness made a double line, +through which he passed nodding to them gravely. The young man +who had stood so long in waiting pushed his way through the line +to his side. + +"Senator Stanton," he began timidly, "might I speak to you a +moment? My name is Arkwright; I am just back from Cuba, and +I want to thank you for your speech. I am an American, and I +thank God that I am since you are too, sir. No one has said +anything since the war began that compares with what you said to- +night. You put it nobly, and I know, for I've been there for +three years, only I can't make other people understand it, and I +am thankful that some one can. You'll forgive my stopping you, +sir, but I wanted to thank you. I feel it very much." + +Senator Stanton's friends had already seated themselves in his +carriage and were looking out of the door and smiling with mock +patience. But the senator made no move to follow them. Though +they were his admirers they were sometimes skeptical, and he was +not sorry that they should hear this uninvited tribute. So he +made a pretence of buttoning his long coat about him, and nodded +encouragingly to Arkwright to continue. "I'm glad you liked it, +sir," he said with the pleasant, gracious smile that had won him +a friend wherever it had won him a vote. "It is very +satisfactory to know from one who is well informed on the +subject that what I have said is correct. The situation there is +truly terrible. You have just returned, you say? Where were +you--in Havana?" + +"No, in the other provinces, sir," Arkwright answered. "I have +been all over the island, I am a civil engineer. The truth has +not been half told about Cuba, I assure you, sir. It is massacre +there, not war. It is partly so through ignorance, but +nevertheless it is massacre. And what makes it worse is, that it +is the massacre of the innocents. That is what I liked best of +what you said in that great speech, the part about the women and +children." + +He reached out his hands detainingly, and then drew back as +though in apology for having already kept the great man so long +waiting in the cold. "I wish I could tell you some of the +terrible things I have seen," he began again, eagerly as Stanton +made no movement to depart. "They are much worse than those you +instanced to-night, and you could make so much better use of them +than any one else. I have seen starving women nursing dead +babies, and sometimes starving babies sucking their dead mother's +breasts; I have seen men cut down in the open roads and while +digging in the fields--and two hundred women imprisoned in one +room without food and eaten with small-pox, and huts burned while +the people in them slept--" + +The young man had been speaking impetuously, but he stopped as +suddenly, for the senator was not listening to him. He had +lowered his eyes and was looking with a glance of mingled +fascination and disgust at Arkwright's hands. In his earnestness +the young man had stretched them out, and as they showed behind +the line of his ragged sleeves the others could see, even in the +blurred light and falling snow, that the wrists of each hand were +gashed and cut in dark-brown lines like the skin of a mulatto, +and in places were a raw red, where the fresh skin had but just +closed over. The young man paused and stood shivering, still +holding his hands out rigidly before him. + +The senator raised his eyes slowly and drew away. + +"What is that?" he said in a low voice, pointing with a gloved +finger at the black lines on the wrists. + +A sergeant in the group of policemen who had closed around the +speakers answered him promptly from his profound fund of +professional knowledge. + +"That's handcuffs, senator," he said importantly, and glanced at +Stanton as though to signify that at a word from him he would +take this suspicious character into custody. The young man +pulled the frayed cuffs of his shirt over his wrists and tucked +his hands, which the cold had frozen into an ashy blue, under his +armpits to warm them. + +"No, they don't use handcuffs in the field," he said in the same +low, eager tone; "they use ropes and leather thongs; they +fastened me behind a horse and when he stumbled going down the +trail it jerked me forward and the cords would tighten and tear +the flesh. But they have had a long time to heal now. I have +been eight months in prison." + +The young men at the carriage window had ceased smiling and were +listening intently. One of them stepped out and stood +beside the carriage door looking down at the shivering +figure before him with a close and curious scrutiny. + +"Eight months in prison!" echoed the police sergeant with a note +of triumph; "what did I tell you?" + +"Hold your tongue!" said the young man at the carriage door. +There was silence for a moment, while the men looked at the +senator, as though waiting for him to speak. + +"Where were you in prison, Mr. Arkwright?" he asked. + +"First in the calaboose at Santa Clara for two months, and then +in Cabanas. The Cubans who were taken when I was, were shot by +the fusillade on different days during this last month. Two of +them, the Ezetas, were father and son, and the Volunteer band +played all the time the execution was going on, so that the other +prisoners might not hear them cry 'Cuba Libre' when the order +came to fire. But we heard them." + +The senator shivered slightly and pulled his fur collar up +farther around his face. "I'd like to talk with you," he said, +"if you have nothing to do to-morrow. I'd like to go into +this thing thoroughly. Congress must be made to take some +action." + +The young man clasped his hands eagerly. "Ah, Mr. Stanton, if +you would," he cried, "if you would only give me an hour! I +could tell you so much that you could use. And you can believe +what I say, sir--it is not necessary to lie--God knows the truth +is bad enough. I can give you names and dates for everything I +say. Or I can do better than that, sir. I can take you there +yourself--in three months I can show you all you need to see, +without danger to you in any way. And they would not know me, +now that I have grown a beard, and I am a skeleton to what I was. + +I can speak the language well, and I know just what you should +see, and then you could come back as one speaking with authority +and not have to say, 'I have read,' or 'have been told,' but you +can say, 'These are the things I have seen'--and you could free +Cuba." + +The senator coughed and put the question aside for the moment +with a wave of the hand that held his cigar. "We will talk of +that to-morrow also. Come to lunch with me at one. My +apartments are in the Berkeley on Fifth Avenue. But aren't you +afraid to go back there?" he asked curiously. "I should think +you'd had enough of it. And you've got a touch of fever, haven't +you?" He leaned forward and peered into the other's eyes. + +"It is only the prison fever," the young man answered; "food and +this cold will drive that out of me. And I must go back. There +is so much to do there," he added. "Ah, if I could tell them, as +you can tell them, what I feel here." He struck his chest +sharply with his hand, and on the instant fell into a fit of +coughing so violent that the young man at the carriage door +caught him around the waist, and one of the policemen supported +him from the other side. + +"You need a doctor," said the senator kindly. "I'll ask mine to +have a look at you. Don't forget, then, at one o'clock to- +morrow. We will go into this thing thoroughly." He shook +Arkwright warmly by the hand and stooping stepped into the +carriage. The young man who had stood at the door followed him +and crowded back luxuriously against the cushions. The +footman swung himself up beside the driver, and said "Uptown +Delmonico's," as he wrapped the fur rug around his legs, and with +a salute from the policemen and a scraping of hoofs on the +slippery asphalt the great man was gone. + +"That poor fellow needs a doctor," he said as the carriage rolled +up the avenue, "and he needs an overcoat, and he needs food. He +needs about almost everything, by the looks of him." + +But the voice of the young man in the corner of the carriage +objected drowsily-- + +"On the contrary," he said, "it seemed to me that he had the one +thing needful." + +By one o'clock of the day following, Senator Stanton, having read +the reports of his speech in the morning papers, punctuated with +"Cheers," "Tremendous enthusiasm" and more "Cheers," was still in +a willing frame of mind toward Cuba and her self-appointed envoy, +young Mr. Arkwright. + +Over night he had had doubts but that the young man's enthusiasm +would bore him on the morrow, but Mr. Arkwright, when he +appeared, developed, on the contrary, a practical turn of mind +which rendered his suggestions both flattering and feasible. He +was still terribly in earnest, but he was clever enough or +serious enough to see that the motives which appealed to him +might not have sufficient force to move a successful statesman +into action. So he placed before the senator only those +arguments and reasons which he guessed were the best adapted to +secure his interest and his help. His proposal as he set it +forth was simplicity itself. + +"Here is a map of the island," he said; "on it I have marked the +places you can visit in safety, and where you will meet the +people you ought to see. If you leave New York at midnight you +can reach Tampa on the second day. From Tampa we cross in +another day to Havana. There you can visit the Americans +imprisoned in Morro and Cabanas, and in the streets you can see +the starving pacificos. From Havana I shall take you by rail to +Jucaro, Matanzas, Santa Clara and Cienfuegos. You will not be +able to see the insurgents in the fields--it is not necessary +that you should--but you can visit one of the sugar +plantations and some of the insurgent chiefs will run the forts +by night and come in to talk with you. I will show you burning +fields and houses, and starving men and women by the thousands, +and men and women dying of fevers. You can see Cuban prisoners +shot by a firing squad and you can note how these rebels meet +death. You can see all this in three weeks and be back in New +York in a month, as any one can see it who wishes to learn the +truth. Why, English members of Parliament go all the way to +India and British Columbia to inform themselves about those +countries, they travel thousands of miles, but only one member of +either of our houses of Congress has taken the trouble to cross +these eighty miles of water that lie between us and Cuba. You +can either go quietly and incognito, as it were, or you can +advertise the fact of your going, which would be better. And +from the moment you start the interest in your visit will grow +and increase until there will be no topic discussed in any of our +papers except yourself, and what you are doing and what you mean +to do. + +"By the time you return the people will be waiting, ready and +eager to hear whatever you may have to say. Your word will be +the last word for them. It is not as though you were some +demagogue seeking notoriety, or a hotel piazza correspondent at +Key West or Jacksonville. You are the only statesman we have, +the only orator Americans will listen to, and I tell you that +when you come before them and bring home to them as only you can +the horrors of this war, you will be the only man in this +country. You will be the Patrick Henry of Cuba; you can go down +to history as the man who added the most beautiful island in the +seas to the territory of the United States, who saved thousands +of innocent children and women, and who dared to do what no other +politician has dared to do--to go and see for himself and to come +back and speak the truth. It only means a month out of your +life, a month's trouble and discomfort, but with no risk. What +is a month out of a lifetime, when that month means immortality +to you and life to thousands? In a month you would make a half +dozen after-dinner speeches and cause your friends to laugh +and applaud. Why not wring their hearts instead, and hold this +thing up before them as it is, and shake it in their faces? Show +it to them in all its horror--bleeding, diseased and naked, an +offence to our humanity, and to our prated love of liberty, and +to our God." + +The young man threw himself eagerly forward and beat the map with +his open palm. But the senator sat apparently unmoved gazing +thoughtfully into the open fire, and shook his head. + +While the luncheon was in progress the young gentleman who the +night before had left the carriage and stood at Arkwright's side, +had entered the room and was listening intently. He had invited +himself to some fresh coffee, and had then relapsed into an +attentive silence, following what the others said with an amused +and interested countenance. Stanton had introduced him as Mr. +Livingstone, and appeared to take it for granted that Arkwright +would know who he was. He seemed to regard him with a certain +deference which Arkwright judged was due to some fixed position +the young man held, either of social or of political value. + +"I do not know," said Stanton with consideration, "that I am +prepared to advocate the annexation of the island. It is a +serious problem." + +"I am not urging that," Arkwright interrupted anxiously; "the +Cubans themselves do not agree as to that, and in any event it is +an afterthought. Our object now should be to prevent further +bloodshed. If you see a man beating a boy to death, you first +save the boy's life and decide afterward where he is to go to +school. If there were any one else, senator," Arkwright +continued earnestly, "I would not trouble you. But we all know +your strength in this country. You are independent and fearless, +and men of both parties listen to you. Surely, God has given you +this great gift of oratory, if you will forgive my speaking so, +to use only in a great cause. A grand organ in a cathedral is +placed there to lift men's thoughts to high resolves and +purposes, not to make people dance. A street organ can do that. +Now, here is a cause worthy of your great talents, worthy of +a Daniel Webster, of a Henry Clay." + +The senator frowned at the fire and shook his head doubtfully. + +"If they knew what I was down there for," he asked, "wouldn't +they put me in prison too?" + +Arkwright laughed incredulously. + +"Certainly not," he said; "you would go there as a private +citizen, as a tourist to look on and observe. Spain is not +seeking complications of that sort. She has troubles enough +without imprisoning United States senators." + +"Yes; but these fevers now," persisted Stanton, "they're no +respecter of persons, I imagine. A United States senator is not +above smallpox or cholera." + +Arkwright shook his head impatiently and sighed. + +"It is difficult to make it clear to one who has not been there," +he said. "These people and soldiers are dying of fever because +they are forced to live like pigs, and they are already sick with +starvation. A healthy man like yourself would be in no more +danger than you would be in walking through the wards of a New +York hospital." + +Senator Stanton turned in his armchair, and held up his hand +impressively. + +"If I were to tell them the things you have told me," he said +warningly, "if I were to say I have seen such things--American +property in flames, American interests ruined, and that five +times as many women and children have died of fever and +starvation in three months in Cuba as the Sultan has massacred in +Armenia in three years--it would mean war with Spain." + +"Well?" said Arkwright. + +Stanton shrugged his shoulders and sank back again in his chair. + +"It would either mean war," Arkwright went on, "or it might mean +the sending of the Red Cross army to Cuba. It went to +Constantinople, five thousand miles away, to help the Armenian +Christians--why has it waited three years to go eighty miles to +feed and clothe the Cuban women and children? It is like sending +help to a hungry peasant in Russia while a man dies on your +doorstep." + +"Well," said the senator, rising, "I will let you know to-morrow. + +If it is the right thing to do, and if I can do it, of course it +must be done. We start from Tampa, you say? I know the +presidents of all of those roads and they'll probably give me a +private car for the trip down. Shall we take any newspaper men +with us, or shall I wait until I get back and be interviewed? +What do you think?" + +"I would wait until my return," Arkwright answered, his eyes +glowing with the hope the senator's words had inspired, "and then +speak to a mass-meeting here and in Boston and in Chicago. Three +speeches will be enough. Before you have finished your last one +the American warships will be in the harbor of Havana." + +"Ah, youth, youth!" said the senator, smiling gravely, "it is no +light responsibility to urge a country into war." + +"It is no light responsibility," Arkwright answered, "to know you +have the chance to save the lives of thousands of little children +and helpless women and to let the chance pass." + +"Quite so, that is quite true," said the senator. "Well, good- +morning. I shall let you know to-morrow." + +Young Livingstone went down in the elevator with Arkwright, and +when they had reached the sidewalk stood regarding him for a +moment in silence. + +"You mustn't count too much on Stanton, you know," he said +kindly; "he has a way of disappointing people." + +"Ah, he can never disappoint me," Arkwright answered confidently, +"no matter how much I expected. Besides, I have already heard +him speak." + +"I don't mean that, I don't mean he is disappointing as a +speaker. Stanton is a great orator, I think. Most of those +Southerners are, and he's the only real orator I ever heard. But +what I mean is, that he doesn't go into things impulsively; he +first considers himself, and then he considers every other side +of the question before he commits himself to it. Before he +launches out on a popular wave he tries to find out where it is +going to land him. He likes the sort of popular wave that +carries him along with it where every one can see him; he +doesn't fancy being hurled up on the beach with his mouth full of +sand." + +"You are saying that he is selfish, self-seeking?" Arkwright +demanded with a challenge in his voice. "I thought you were his +friend." + +"Yes, he is selfish, and yes, I am his friend," the young man +answered, smiling; "at least, he seems willing to be mine. I am +saying nothing against him that I have not said to him. If +you'll come back with me up the elevator I'll tell him he's a +self-seeker and selfish, and with no thought above his own +interests. He won't mind. He'd say I cannot comprehend his +motives. Why, you've only to look at his record. When the +Venezuelan message came out he attacked the President and +declared he was trying to make political capital and to drag us +into war, and that what we wanted was arbitration; but when the +President brought out the Arbitration Treaty he attacked that too +in the Senate and destroyed it. Why? Not because he had +convictions, but because the President had refused a foreign +appointment to a friend of his in the South. He has been a +free silver man for the last ten years, he comes from a free +silver state, and the members of the legislature that elected him +were all for silver, but this last election his Wall Street +friends got hold of him and worked on his feelings, and he +repudiated his party, his state, and his constituents and came +out for gold." + +"Well, but surely," Arkwright objected, "that took courage? To +own that for ten years you had been wrong, and to come out for +the right at the last." + +Livingstone stared and shrugged his shoulders. "It's all a +question of motives," he said indifferently. "I don't want to +shatter your idol; I only want to save you from counting too much +on him." + +When Arkwright called on the morrow Senator Stanton was not at +home, and the day following he was busy, and could give him only +a brief interview. There were previous engagements and other +difficulties in the way of his going which he had not foreseen, +he said, and he feared he should have to postpone his visit to +Cuba indefinitely. He asked if Mr. Arkwright would be so +kind as to call again within a week; he would then be better able +to give him a definite answer. + +Arkwright left the apartment with a sensation of such keen +disappointment that it turned him ill and dizzy. He felt that +the great purpose of his life was being played with and put +aside. But he had not selfish resentment on his own account; he +was only the more determined to persevere. He considered new +arguments and framed new appeals; and one moment blamed himself +bitterly for having foolishly discouraged the statesman by too +vivid pictures of the horrors he might encounter, and the next, +questioned if he had not been too practical and so failed because +he had not made the terrible need of immediate help his sole +argument. Every hour wasted in delay meant, as he knew, the +sacrifice of many lives, and there were other, more sordid and +more practical, reasons for speedy action. For his supply of +money was running low and there was now barely enough remaining +to carry him through the month of travel he had planned to take +at Stanton's side. What would happen to him when that +momentous trip was over was of no consequence. He would have +done the work as far as his small share in it lay, he would have +set in motion a great power that was to move Congress and the +people of the United States to action. If he could but do that, +what became of him counted for nothing. + +But at the end of the week his fears and misgivings were +scattered gloriously and a single line from the senator set his +heart leaping and brought him to his knees in gratitude and +thanksgiving. On returning one afternoon to the mean lodging +into which he had moved to save his money, he found a telegram +from Stanton and he tore it open trembling between hope and fear. + +"Have arranged to leave for Tampa with you Monday, at midnight" +it read. "Call for me at ten o'clock same evening.--STANTON." + +Arkwright read the message three times. There was a heavy, +suffocating pressure at his heart as though it had ceased +beating. He sank back limply upon the edge of his bed and +clutching the piece of paper in his two hands spoke the words +aloud triumphantly as though to assure himself that they +were true. Then a flood of unspeakable relief, of happiness and +gratitude, swept over him, and he turned and slipped to the +floor, burying his face in the pillow, and wept out his thanks +upon his knees. + +A man so deeply immersed in public affairs as was Stanton and +with such a multiplicity of personal interests, could not prepare +to absent himself for a month without his intention becoming +known, and on the day when he was to start for Tampa the morning +newspapers proclaimed the fact that he was about to visit Cuba. +They gave to his mission all the importance and display that +Arkwright had foretold. Some of the newspapers stated that he +was going as a special commissioner of the President to study and +report; others that he was acting in behalf of the Cuban legation +in Washington and had plenipotentiary powers. Opposition organs +suggested that he was acting in the interests of the sugar trust, +and his own particular organ declared that it was his intention +to free Cuba at the risk of his own freedom, safety, and even +life. + +The Spanish minister in Washington sent a cable for +publication to Madrid, stating that a distinguished American +statesman was about to visit Cuba, to investigate, and, later, to +deny the truth of the disgraceful libels published concerning the +Spanish officials on the island by the papers of the United +States. At the same time he cabled in cipher to the captain- +general in Havana to see that the distinguished statesman was +closely spied upon from the moment of his arrival until his +departure, and to place on the "suspect" list all Americans and +Cubans who ventured to give him any information. + +The afternoon papers enlarged on the importance of the visit and +on the good that would surely come of it. They told that Senator +Stanton had refused to be interviewed or to disclose the object +of his journey. But it was enough, they said, that some one in +authority was at last to seek out the truth, and added that no +one would be listened to with greater respect than would the +Southern senator. On this all the editorial writers were agreed. + +The day passed drearily for Arkwright. Early in the morning he +packed his valise and paid his landlord, and for the +remainder of the day walked the streets or sat in the hotel +corridor waiting impatiently for each fresh edition of the +papers. In them he read the signs of the great upheaval of +popular feeling that was to restore peace and health and plenty +to the island for which he had given his last three years of +energy and life. + +He was trembling with excitement, as well as with the cold, when +at ten o'clock precisely he stood at Senator Stanton's door. He +had forgotten to eat his dinner, and the warmth of the dimly lit +hall and the odor of rich food which was wafted from an inner +room touched his senses with tantalizing comfort. + +"The senator says you are to come this way, sir," the servant +directed. He took Arkwright's valise from his hand and parted +the heavy curtains that hid the dining-room, and Arkwright +stepped in between them and then stopped in some embarrassment. +He found himself in the presence of a number of gentlemen seated +at a long dinner-table, who turned their heads as he entered and +peered at him through the smoke that floated in light layers +above the white cloth. The dinner had been served, but the +senator's guests still sat with their chairs pushed back from a +table lighted by candles under yellow shades, and covered with +beautiful flowers and with bottles of varied sizes in stands of +quaint and intricate design. Senator Stanton's tall figure +showed dimly through the smoke, and his deep voice hailed +Arkwright cheerily from the farther end of the room. "This way, +Mr. Arkwright," he said. "I have a chair waiting for you here." +He grasped Arkwright's hand warmly and pulled him into the vacant +place at his side. An elderly gentleman on Arkwright's other +side moved to make more room for him and shoved a liqueur glass +toward him with a friendly nod and pointed at an open box of +cigars. He was a fine-looking man, and Arkwright noticed that he +was regarding him with a glance of the keenest interest. All of +those at the table were men of twice Arkwright's age, except +Livingstone, whom he recognized and who nodded to him pleasantly +and at the same time gave an order to a servant, pointing at +Arkwright as he did so. Some of the gentlemen wore their +business suits, and one opposite Arkwright was still in his +overcoat, and held his hat in his hand. These latter seemed to +have arrived after the dinner had begun, for they formed a second +line back of those who had places at the table; they all seemed +to know one another and were talking with much vivacity and +interest. + +Stanton did not attempt to introduce Arkwright to his guests +individually, but said: "Gentlemen, this is Mr. Arkwright, of +whom I have been telling you, the young gentleman who has done +such magnificent work for the cause of Cuba." Those who caught +Arkwright's eye nodded to him, and others raised their glasses at +him, but with a smile that he could not understand. It was as +though they all knew something concerning him of which he was +ignorant. He noted that the faces of some were strangely +familiar, and he decided that he must have seen their portraits +in the public prints. After he had introduced Arkwright, the +senator drew his chair slightly away from him and turned in what +seemed embarrassment to the man on his other side. The +elderly gentleman next to Arkwright filled his glass, a servant +placed a small cup of coffee at his elbow, and he lit a cigar and +looked about him. + +"You must find this weather very trying after the tropics," his +neighbor said. + +Arkwright assented cordially. The brandy was flowing through his +veins and warming him; he forgot that he was hungry, and the +kind, interested glances of those about him set him at his ease. +It was a propitious start, he thought, a pleasant leave-taking +for the senator and himself, full of good will and good wishes. + +He turned toward Stanton and waited until he had ceased speaking. + +"The papers have begun well, haven't they?" he asked, eagerly. + +He had spoken in a low voice, almost in a whisper, but those +about the table seemed to have heard him, for there was silence +instantly and when he glanced up he saw the eyes of all turned +upon him and he noticed on their faces the same smile he had seen +there when he entered. + +"Yes," Stanton answered constrainedly. "Yes, I--" he +lowered his voice, but the silence still continued. Stanton had +his eyes fixed on the table, but now he frowned and half rose +from his chair. + +"I want to speak with you, Arkwright," he said. "Suppose we go +into the next room. I'll be back in a moment," he added, nodding +to the others. + +But the man on his right removed his cigar from his lips and said +in an undertone, "No, sit down, stay where you are;" and the +elderly gentleman at Arkwright's side laid his hand detainingly +on his arm. "Oh, you won't take Mr. Arkwright away from us, +Stanton?" he asked, smiling. + +Stanton shrugged his shoulders and sat down again, and there was +a moment's pause. It was broken by the man in the overcoat, who +laughed. + +"He's paying you a compliment, Mr. Arkwright," he said. He +pointed with his cigar to the gentleman at Arkwright's side. + +"I don't understand," Arkwright answered doubtfully. + +"It's a compliment to your eloquence--he's afraid to leave you +alone with the senator. Livingstone's been telling us that +you are a better talker than Stanton." Arkwright turned a +troubled countenance toward the men about the table, and then +toward Livingstone, but that young man had his eyes fixed gravely +on the glasses before him and did not raise them. + +Arkwright felt a sudden, unreasonable fear of the circle of +strong-featured, serene and confident men about him. They seemed +to be making him the subject of a jest, to be enjoying something +among themselves of which he was in ignorance, but which +concerned him closely. He turned a white face toward Stanton. + +"You don't mean," he began piteously, "that--that you are not +going? Is that it--tell me--is that what you wanted to say?" + +Stanton shifted in his chair and muttered some words between his +lips, then turned toward Arkwright and spoke quite clearly and +distinctly. + +"I am very sorry, Mr. Arkwright," he said, "but I am afraid I'll +have to disappoint you. Reasons I cannot now explain have arisen +which make my going impossible--quite impossible," he added +firmly--"not only now, but later," he went on quickly, as +Arkwright was about to interrupt him. + +Arkwright made no second attempt to speak. He felt the muscles +of his face working and the tears coming to his eyes, and to hide +his weakness he twisted in his chair and sat staring ahead of him +with his back turned to the table. He heard Livingstone's voice +break the silence with some hurried question, and immediately his +embarrassment was hidden in a murmur of answers and the moving of +glasses as the men shifted in their chairs and the laughter and +talk went on as briskly as before. Arkwright saw a sideboard +before him and a servant arranging some silver on one of the +shelves. He watched the man do this with a concentrated interest +as though the dull, numbed feeling in his brain caught at the +trifle in order to put off, as long as possible, the +consideration of the truth. + +And then beyond the sideboard and the tapestry on the wall above +it, he saw the sun shining down upon the island of Cuba, he saw +the royal palms waving and bending, the dusty columns of +Spanish infantry crawling along the white roads and leaving +blazing huts and smoking cane-fields in their wake; he saw +skeletons of men and women seeking for food among the refuse of +the street; he heard the order given to the firing squad, the +splash of the bullets as they scattered the plaster on the prison +wall, and he saw a kneeling figure pitch forward on its face, +with a useless bandage tied across its sightless eyes. + +Senator Stanton brought him back with a sharp shake of the +shoulder. He had also turned his back on the others, and was +leaning forward with his elbows on his knees. He spoke rapidly, +and in a voice only slightly raised above a whisper. + +"I am more than sorry, Arkwright," he said earnestly. "You +mustn't blame me altogether. I have had a hard time of it this +afternoon. I wanted to go. I really wanted to go. The thing +appealed to me, it touched me, it seemed as if I owed it to +myself to do it. But they were too many for me," he added with a +backward toss of his head toward the men around his table. + +"If the papers had not told on me I could have got well away," he +went on in an eager tone, "but as soon as they read of it, they +came here straight from their offices. You know who they are, +don't you?" he asked, and even in his earnestness there was an +added touch of importance in his tone as he spoke the name of his +party's leader, of men who stood prominently in Wall Street and +who were at the head of great trusts. + +"You see how it is," he said with a shrug of his shoulders. +"They have enormous interests at stake. They said I would drag +them into war, that I would disturb values, that the business +interests of the country would suffer. I'm under obligations to +most of them, they have advised me in financial matters, and they +threatened--they threatened to make it unpleasant for me." His +voice hardened and he drew in his breath quickly, and laughed. +"You wouldn't understand if I were to tell you. It's rather +involved. And after all, they may be right, agitation may be bad +for the country. And your party leader after all is your party +leader, isn't he, and if he says 'no' what are you to do? +My sympathies are just as keen for these poor women and children +as ever, but as these men say, 'charity begins at home,' and we +mustn't do anything to bring on war prices again, or to send +stocks tumbling about our heads, must we?" He leaned back in his +chair again and sighed. "Sympathy is an expensive luxury, I +find," he added. + +Arkwright rose stiffly and pushed Stanton away from him with his +hand. He moved like a man coming out of a dream. + +"Don't talk to me like that," he said in a low voice. The noise +about the table ended on the instant, but Arkwright did not +notice that it had ceased. "You know I don't understand that," +he went on; "what does it matter to me!" He put his hand up to +the side of his face and held it there, looking down at Stanton. +He had the dull, heavy look in his eyes of a man who has just +come through an operation under some heavy drug. "'Wall Street,' +'trusts,' 'party leaders,'" he repeated, "what are they to me? +The words don't reach me, they have lost their meaning, it is a +language I have forgotten, thank God!" he added. He turned +and moved his eyes around the table, scanning the faces of the +men before him. + +"Yes, you are twelve to one," he said at last, still speaking +dully and in a low voice, as though he were talking to himself. +"You have won a noble victory, gentlemen. I congratulate you. +But I do not blame you, we are all selfish and self-seeking. I +thought I was working only for Cuba, but I was working for +myself, just as you are. I wanted to feel that it was I who had +helped to bring relief to that plague-spot, that it was through +my efforts the help had come. Yes, if he had done as I asked, I +suppose I would have taken the credit." + +He swayed slightly, and to steady himself caught at the back of +his chair. But at the same moment his eyes glowed fiercely and +he held himself erect again. He pointed with his finger at the +circle of great men who sat looking up at him in curious silence. + +"You are like a ring of gamblers around a gaming table," he cried +wildly, "who see nothing but the green cloth and the wheel and +the piles of money before them, who forget in watching the +money rise and fall, that outside the sun is shining, that human +beings are sick and suffering, that men are giving their lives +for an idea, for a sentiment, for a flag. You are the money- +changers in the temple of this great republic and the day will +come, I pray to God, when you will be scourged and driven out +with whips. Do you think you can form combines and deals that +will cheat you into heaven? Can your 'trusts' save your souls-- +is 'Wall Street' the strait and narrow road to salvation?" + +The men about the table leaned back and stared at Arkwright in as +great amazement as though he had violently attempted an assault +upon their pockets, or had suddenly gone mad in their presence. +Some of them frowned, and others appeared not to have heard, and +others smiled grimly and waited for him to continue as though +they were spectators at a play. + +The political leader broke the silence with a low aside to +Stanton. "Does the gentleman belong to the Salvation Army?" he +asked. + +Arkwright whirled about and turned upon him fiercely. + +"Old gods give way to new gods," he cried. "Here is your +brother. I am speaking for him. Do you ever think of him? How +dare you sneer at me?" he cried. "You can crack your whip over +that man's head and turn him from what in his heart and +conscience he knows is right; you can crack your whip over the +men who call themselves free-born American citizens and who have +made you their boss--sneer at them if you like, but you have no +collar on my neck. If you are a leader, why don't you lead your +people to what is good and noble? Why do you stop this man in +the work God sent him here to do? You would make a party hack of +him, a political prostitute, something lower than the woman who +walks the streets. She sells her body--this man is selling his +soul." + +He turned, trembling and quivering, and shook his finger above +the upturned face of the senator. + +"What have you done with your talents, Stanton?" he cried. "What +have you done with your talents?" + +The man in the overcoat struck the table before him with his +fist so that the glasses rang. + +"By God," he laughed, "I call him a better speaker than Stanton! +Livingstone's right, he IS better than Stanton--but he lacks +Stanton's knack of making himself popular," he added. He looked +around the table inviting approbation with a smile, but no one +noticed him, nor spoke to break the silence. + +Arkwright heard the words dully and felt that he was being +mocked. He covered his face with his hands and stood breathing +brokenly; his body was still trembling with an excitement he +could not master. + +Stanton rose from his chair and shook him by the shoulder. "Are +you mad, Arkwright?" he cried. "You have no right to insult my +guests or me. Be calm--control yourself." + +"What does it matter what I say?" Arkwright went on desperately. +"I am mad. Yes, that is it, I am mad. They have won and I have +lost, and it drove me beside myself. I counted on you. I knew +that no one else could let my people go. But I'll not +trouble you again. I wish you good-night, sir, and good-bye. If +I have been unjust, you must forget it." + +He turned sharply, but Stanton placed a detaining hand on his +shoulder. "Wait," he commanded querulously; "where are you +going? Will you, still--?" + +Arkwright bowed his head. "Yes," he answered. "I have but just +time now to catch our train--my train, I mean." + +He looked up at Stanton and taking his hand in both of his, drew +the man toward him. All the wildness and intolerance in his +manner had passed, and as he raised his eyes they were full of a +firm resolve. + +"Come," he said simply; "there is yet time. Leave these people +behind you. What can you answer when they ask what have you done +with your talents?" + +"Good God, Arkwright," the senator exclaimed angrily, pulling his +hand away; "don't talk like a hymn-book, and don't make another +scene. What you ask is impossible. Tell me what I can do to +help you in any other way, and--" + +"Come," repeated the young man firmly. + +"The world may judge you by what you do to-night." + +Stanton looked at the boy for a brief moment with a strained and +eager scrutiny, and then turned away abruptly and shook his head +in silence, and Arkwright passed around the table and on out of +the room. + +A month later, as the Southern senator was passing through the +reading-room of the Union Club, Livingstone beckoned to him, and +handing him an afternoon paper pointed at a paragraph in silence. + +The paragraph was dated Sagua la Grande, and read: + +"The body of Henry Arkwright, an American civil engineer, was +brought into Sagua to-day by a Spanish column. It was found +lying in a road three miles beyond the line of forts. Arkwright +was surprised by a guerilla force while attempting to make his +way to the insurgent camp, and on resisting was shot. The body +has been handed over to the American consul for interment. It is +badly mutilated." + +Stanton lowered the paper and stood staring out of the window at +the falling snow and the cheery lights and bustling energy +of the avenue. + +"Poor fellow," he said, "he wanted so much to help them. And he +didn't accomplish anything, did he?" + +Livingstone stared at the older man and laughed shortly. + +"Well, I don't know," he said. "He died. Some of us only +live." + + + +THE VAGRANT + +His Excellency Sir Charles Greville, K. C M. G., Governor of the +Windless Islands, stood upon the veranda of Government House +surveying the new day with critical and searching eyes. Sir +Charles had been so long absolute monarch of the Windless Isles +that he had assumed unconsciously a mental attitude of suzerainty +over even the glittering waters of the Caribbean Sea, and the +coral reefs under the waters, and the rainbow skies that floated +above them. But on this particular morning not even the critical +eye of the Governor could distinguish a single flaw in the +tropical landscape before him. + +The lawn at his feet ran down to meet the dazzling waters of the +bay, the blue waters of the bay ran to meet a great stretch of +absinthe green, the green joined a fairy sky of pink and +gold and saffron. Islands of coral floated on the sea of +absinthe, and derelict clouds of mother-of-pearl swung low above +them, starting from nowhere and going nowhere, but drifting +beautifully, like giant soap-bubbles of light and color. Where +the lawn touched the waters of the bay the cocoanut-palms reached +their crooked lengths far up into the sunshine, and as the sea- +breeze stirred their fronds they filled the hot air with whispers +and murmurs like the fluttering of many fans. Nature smiled +boldly upon the Governor, confident in her bountiful beauty, as +though she said, "Surely you cannot but be pleased with me to- +day." And, as though in answer, the critical and searching +glance of Sir Charles relaxed. + +The crunching of the gravel and the rattle of the sentry's musket +at salute recalled him to his high office and to the duties of +the morning. He waved his hand, and, as though it were a wand, +the sentry moved again, making his way to the kitchen-garden, and +so around Government House and back to the lawn-tennis court, +maintaining in his solitary pilgrimage the dignity of her +Majesty's representative, as well as her Majesty's power +over the Windless Isles. + +The Governor smiled slightly, with the ease of mind of one who +finds all things good. Supreme authority, surroundings of +endless beauty, the respectful, even humble, deference of his +inferiors, and never even an occasional visit from a superior, +had in four years lowered him into a bed of ease and self- +satisfaction. He was cut off from the world, and yet of it. +Each month there came, via Jamaica, the three weeks' old copy +of The Weekly Times; he subscribed to Mudie's Colonial Library; +and from the States he had imported an American lawn-mower, the +mechanism of which no one as yet understood. Within his own +borders he had created a healthy, orderly seaport out of what had +been a sink of fever and a refuge for all the ne'er-do-wells and +fugitive revolutionists of Central America. + +He knew, as he sat each evening on his veranda, looking across +the bay, that in the world beyond the pink and gold sunset men +were still panting, struggling, and starving; crises were rising +and passing; strikes and panics, wars and the rumors of +wars, swept from continent to continent; a plague crept through +India; a filibuster with five hundred men at his back crossed an +imaginary line and stirred the world from Cape Town to London; +Emperors were crowned; the good Queen celebrated the longest +reign; and a captain of artillery imprisoned in a swampy island +in the South Atlantic caused two hemispheres to clamor for his +rescue, and lit a race war that stretched from Algiers to the +boulevards. + +And yet, at the Windless Isles, all these happenings seemed to +Sir Charles like the morning's memory of a dream. For these +things never crossed the ring of the coral reefs; he saw them +only as pictures in an illustrated paper a month old. And he was +pleased to find that this was so. He was sufficient to himself, +with his own responsibilities and social duties and public works. + +He was a man in authority, who said to others, "Come!" and "Go!" +Under him were commissioners, and under the commissioners +district inspectors and boards of education and of highways. For +the better health of the colony he had planted trees that +sucked the malaria from the air; for its better morals he had +substituted as a Sunday amusement cricket-matches for cock- +fights; and to keep it at peace he had created a local +constabulary of native negroes, and had dressed them in the cast- +off uniforms of London policemen. His handiwork was everywhere, +and his interest was all sunk in his handiwork. The days passed +gorgeous with sunshine, the nights breathed with beauty. It was +an existence of leisurely occupation, and one that promised no +change, and he was content. + +As it was Thursday, the Council met that morning, and some +questions of moment to the colony were to be brought up for +consideration. The question of the dog-tax was one which +perplexed Sir Charles most particularly. The two Councillors +elected by the people and the three appointed by the crown had +disagreed as to this tax. Of the five hundred British subjects +at the seaport, all but ten were owners of dogs, and it had +occurred to Sassoon, the chemist, that a tax of half-a-crown a +year on each of these dogs would meet the expense of +extending the oyster-shell road to the new cricket-grounds. To +this Snellgrove, who held the contract for the narrow-gauge +railroad, agreed; but the three crown Councillors opposed the tax +vigorously, on the ground that as scavengers alone the dogs were +a boon to the colony and should be encouraged. The fact that +each of these gentlemen owned not only one, but several dogs of +high pedigree made their position one of great delicacy. + +There was no way by which the Governor could test the popular +will in the matter, except through his secretary, Mr. Clarges, +who, at the cricket-match between the local eleven and the +officers and crew of H. M. S. Partridge, had been informed by +the other owners of several fox-terriers that, in their opinion, +the tax was a piece of "condemned tommy-rot." From this the +Governor judged that it would not prove a popular measure. As he +paced the veranda, drawing deliberately on his cigar, and +considering to which party he should give the weight of his final +support, his thoughts were disturbed by the approach of a +stranger, who advanced along the gravel walk, guarded on +either side by one of the local constabulary. The stranger was +young and of poor appearance. His bare feet were bound in a pair +of the rope sandals worn by the natives, his clothing was of torn +and soiled drill, and he fanned his face nonchalantly with a +sombrero of battered and shapeless felt. + +Sir Charles halted in his walk, and holding his cigar behind his +back, addressed himself to the sergeant. + +"A vagrant?" he asked. + +The words seemed to bear some amusing significance to the +stranger, for his face lit instantly with a sweet and charming +smile, and while he turned to hear the sergeant's reply, he +regarded him with a kindly and affectionate interest. + +"Yes, your Excellency." + +The Governor turned to the prisoner. + +"Do you know the law of this colony regarding vagrants?" + +"I do not," the young man answered. His tone was politely +curious, and suggested that he would like to be further informed +as to the local peculiarities of a foreign country. + +"After two weeks' residence," the Governor recited, impressively, +"all able-bodied persons who will not work are put to work or +deported. Have you made any effort to find work?" + +Again the young man smiled charmingly. He shook his head and +laughed. "Oh dear no," he said. + +The laugh struck the Governor as impertinent. + +"Then you must leave by the next mail-steamer, if you have any +money to pay your passage, or, if you have no money, you must go +to work on the roads. Have you any money?" + +"If I had, I wouldn't--be a vagrant," the young man answered. +His voice was low and singularly sweet. It seemed to suit the +indolence of his attitude and the lazy, inconsequent smile. "I +called on our consular agent here," he continued, leisurely, "to +write a letter home for money, but he was disgracefully drunk, so +I used his official note-paper to write to the State Department +about him, instead." + +The Governor's deepest interest was aroused. The American +consular agent was one of the severest trials he was forced to +endure. + +"You are not a British subject, then? Ah, I see--and--er--your +representative was unable to assist you?" + +"He was drunk," the young man repeated, placidly. "He has been +drunk ever since I have been here, particularly in the mornings." + +He halted, as though the subject had lost interest for him, and +gazed pleasantly at the sunny bay and up at the moving palms. + +"Then," said the Governor, as though he had not been interrupted, +"as you have no means of support, you will help support the +colony until you can earn money to leave it. That will do, +sergeant." + +The young man placed his hat upon his head and turned to move +away, but at the first step he swayed suddenly and caught at the +negro's shoulder, clasping his other hand across his eyes. The +sergeant held him by the waist, and looked up at the Governor +with some embarrassment. + +"The young gentleman has not been well, Sir Charles," he said, +apologetically. + +The stranger straightened himself up and smiled vaguely. +"I'm all right," he murmured. "Sun's too hot." + +"Sit down," said the Governor. + +He observed the stranger more closely. He noticed now that +beneath the tan his face was delicate and finely cut, and that +his yellow hair clung closely to a well-formed head. + +"He seems faint. Has he had anything to eat?" asked the +Governor. + +The sergeant grinned guiltily. "Yes, Sir Charles; we've been +feeding him at the barracks. It's fever, sir." + +Sir Charles was not unacquainted with fallen gentlemen, "beach- +combers," "remittance men," and vagrants who had known better +days, and there had been something winning in this vagrant's +smile, and, moreover, he had reported that thorn in his flesh, +the consular agent, to the proper authorities. + +He conceived an interest in a young man who, though with naked +feet, did not hesitate to correspond with his Minister of Foreign +Affairs. + +"How long have you been ill?" he asked. + +The young man looked up from where he had sunk on the steps, and +roused himself with a shrug. "It doesn't matter," he said. +"I've had a touch of Chagres ever since I was on the Isthmus. I +was at work there on the railroad." + +"Did you come here from Colon?" + +"No; I worked up the Pacific side. I was clerking with Rossner +Brothers at Amapala for a while, because I speak a little German, +and then I footed it over to Puerto Cortez and got a job with the +lottery people. They gave me twenty dollars a month gold for +rolling the tickets, and I put it all in the drawing, and won as +much as ten." He laughed, and sitting erect, drew from his +pocket a roll of thin green papers. "These are for the next +drawing," he said. "Have some?" he added. He held them towards +the negro sergeant, who, under the eye of the Governor, resisted, +and then spread the tickets on his knee like a hand at cards. "I +stand to win a lot with these," he said, with a cheerful sigh. +"You see, until the list's published I'm prospectively worth +twenty thousand dollars. And," he added, "I break stones in the +sun." He rose unsteadily, and saluted the Governor with a +nod. "Good-morning, sir," he said, "and thank you." + +"Wait," Sir Charles commanded. A new form of punishment had +suggested itself, in which justice was tempered with mercy. "Can +you work one of your American lawn-mowers?" he asked. + +The young man laughed delightedly. "I never tried," he said, +"but I've seen it done." + +"If you've been ill, it would be murder to put you on the shell +road." The Governor's dignity relaxed into a smile. "I don't +desire international complications," he said. "Sergeant, take +this--him--to the kitchen, and tell Corporal Mallon to give him +that American lawn-mowing machine. Possibly he may understand +its mechanism. Mallon only cuts holes in the turf with it." And +he waved his hand in dismissal, and as the three men moved away +he buried himself again in the perplexities of the dog-tax. + +Ten minutes later the deliberations of the Council were disturbed +by a loud and persistent rattle, like the whir of a Maxim gun, +which proved, on investigation, to arise from the American lawn- +mower. The vagrant was propelling it triumphantly across +the lawn, and gazing down at it with the same fond pride with +which a nursemaid leans over the perambulator to observe her +lusty and gurgling charge. + + +The Councillors had departed, Sir Charles was thinking of +breakfast, the Maxim-like lawn-mower still irritated the silent +hush of midday, when from the waters of the inner harbor there +came suddenly the sharp report of a saluting gun and the rush of +falling anchor-chains. There was still a week to pass before the +mail-steamer should arrive, and H. M. S. Partridge had +departed for Nassau. Besides these ships, no other vessel had +skirted the buoys of the bay in eight long smiling months. Mr. +Clarges, the secretary, with an effort to appear calm, and the +orderly, suffocated with the news, entered through separate doors +at the same instant. + +The secretary filed his report first. "A yacht's just anchored +in the bay, Sir Charles," he said. + +The orderly's face fell. He looked aggrieved. "An American +yacht," he corrected. + +"And much larger than the Partridge," continued the secretary. + +The orderly took a hasty glance back over his shoulder. "She has +her launch lowered already, sir," he said. + +Outside the whir of the lawn-mower continued undisturbed. Sir +Charles reached for his marine-glass, and the three men hurried +to the veranda. + +"It looks like a man-of-war," said Sir Charles. "No," he added, +adjusting the binocular; "she's a yacht. She flies the New York +Yacht Club pennant--now she's showing the owner's absent pennant. + +He must have left in the launch. He's coming ashore now." + +"He seems in a bit of a hurry," growled Mr. Clarges. + +"Those Americans always--" murmured Sir Charles from behind the +binocular. He did not quite know that he enjoyed this sudden +onslaught upon the privacy of his harbor and port. + +It was in itself annoying, and he was further annoyed to find +that it could in the least degree disturb his poise. + +The launch was growing instantly larger, like an express train +approaching a station at full speed; her flags flew out as flat +as pieces of painted tin; her bits of brass-work flashed like +fire. Already the ends of the wharves were white with groups of +natives. + +"You might think he was going to ram the town," suggested the +secretary. + +"Oh, I say," he exclaimed, in remonstrance, "he's making in for +your private wharf." + +The Governor was rearranging the focus of the glass with nervous +fingers. "I believe," he said, "no--yes--upon my word, there +are--there are ladies in that launch!" + +"Ladies, sir!" The secretary threw a hasty glance at the +binocular, but it was in immediate use. + +The clatter of the lawn-mower ceased suddenly, and the relief of +its silence caused the Governor to lower his eyes. He saw the +lawn-mower lying prostrate on the grass. The vagrant had +vanished. + +There was a sharp tinkle of bells, and the launch slipped up to +the wharf and halted as softly as a bicycle. A man in a +yachting-suit jumped from her, and making some laughing +speech to the two women in the stern, walked briskly across the +lawn, taking a letter from his pocket as he came. Sir Charles +awaited him gravely; the occupants of the launch had seen him, +and it was too late to retreat. + +"Sir Charles Greville, I believe," said the yachtsman. He bowed, +and ran lightly up the steps. "I am Mr. Robert Collier, from New +York," he said. "I have a letter to you from your ambassador at +Washington. If you'll pardon me, I'll present it in person. I +had meant to leave it, but seeing you--" He paused, and gave the +letter in his hand to Sir Charles, who waved him towards his +library. + +Sir Charles scowled at the letter through his monocle, and then +shook hands with his visitor. "I am very glad to see you, Mr. +Collier," he said. "He says here you are preparing a book on our +colonies in the West Indies." He tapped the letter with his +monocle. "I am sure I shall be most happy to assist you with any +information in my power." + +"Well, I am writing a book--yes," Mr. Collier observed, +doubtfully, "but it's a logbook. This trip I am on pleasure +bent, and I also wish to consult with you on a personal matter. +However, that can wait." He glanced out of the windows to where +the launch lay in the sun. "My wife came ashore with me, Sir +Charles," he said, "so that in case there was a Lady Greville, +Mrs. Collier could call on her, and we could ask if you would +waive etiquette and do us the honor to dine with us to-night on +the yacht--that is, if you are not engaged." + +Sir Charles smiled. "There is no Lady Greville," he said, "and I +personally do not think I am engaged elsewhere." He paused in +thought, as though to make quite sure he was not. "No," he +added, "I have no other engagement. I will come with pleasure." + +Sir Charles rose and clapped his hands for the orderly. +"Possibly the ladies will come up to the veranda?" he asked. "I +cannot allow them to remain at the end of my wharf." He turned, +and gave directions to the orderly to bring limes and bottles of +soda and ice, and led the way across the lawn. + +Mrs. Collier and her friend had not explored the grounds of +Government House for over ten minutes before Sir Charles felt +that many years ago he had personally arranged their visit, that +he had known them for even a longer time, and that, now that they +had finally arrived, they must never depart. + +To them there was apparently nothing on his domain which did not +thrill with delightful interest. They were as eager as two +children at a pantomime, and as unconscious. As a rule, Sir +Charles had found it rather difficult to meet the women of his +colony on a path which they were capable of treading +intelligently. In fairness to them, he had always sought out +some topic in which they could take an equal part--something +connected with the conduct of children, or the better ventilation +of the new school-house and chapel. But these new-comers did not +require him to select topics of conversation; they did not even +wait for him to finish those which he himself introduced. They +flitted from one end of the garden to the other with the +eagerness of two midshipmen on shore leave, and they found +something to enjoy in what seemed to the Governor the most +commonplace of things. The Zouave uniform of the sentry, the old +Spanish cannon converted into peaceful gate-posts, the aviary +with its screaming paroquets, the botanical station, and even the +ice-machine were all objects of delight. + +On the other hand, the interior of the famous palace, which had +been sent out complete from London, and which was wont to fill +the wives of the colonials with awe or to reduce them to +whispers, for some reason failed of its effect. But they said +they "loved" the large gold V. R.'s on the back of the +Councillors' chairs, and they exclaimed aloud over the red +leather despatch-boxes and the great seal of the colony, and the +mysterious envelopes marked "On her Majesty's service." + +"Isn't it too exciting, Florence?" demanded Mrs. Collier. "This +is the table where Sir Charles sits and writes letters' on her +Majesty's service,' and presses these buttons, and war-ships +spring up in perfect shoals. Oh, Robert," she sighed, "I do wish +you had been a Governor!" + +The young lady called Florence stood looking down into the great +arm-chair in front of the Governor's table. + +"May I?" she asked. She slid fearlessly in between the oak arms +of the chair and smiled about her. Afterwards Sir Charles +remembered her as she appeared at that moment with the red +leather of the chair behind her, with her gloved hands resting on +the carved oak, and her head on one side, smiling up at him. She +gazed with large eyes at the blue linen envelopes, the stiff +documents in red tape, the tray of black sand, and the goose- +quill pens. + +"I am now the Countess Zika," she announced; "no, I am Diana of +the Crossways, and I mean to discover a state secret and sell it +to the Daily Telegraph. Sir Charles," she demanded, "if I +press this electric button is war declared anywhere, or what +happens?" + +"That second button," said Sir Charles, after deliberate +scrutiny, "is the one which communicates with the pantry." + +The Governor would not consider their returning to the yacht for +luncheon. + +"You might decide to steam away as suddenly as you came," he +said, gallantly, "and I cannot take that chance. This is +Bachelor's Hall, so you must pardon my people if things do not go +very smoothly." He himself led them to the great guest-chamber, +where there had not been a guest for many years, and he noticed, +as though for the first time, that the halls through which they +passed were bare, and that the floor was littered with unpacked +boxes and gun-cases. He also observed for the first time that +maps of the colony, with the coffee-plantations and mahogany belt +marked in different inks, were not perhaps so decorative as +pictures and mirrors and family portraits. And he could have +wished that the native servants had not stared so admiringly at +the guests, nor directed each other in such aggressive whispers. +On those other occasions, when the wives of the Councillors came +to the semi-annual dinners, the native servants had seemed +adequate to all that was required of them. He recollected with a +flush that in the town these semi-annual dinners were described +as banquets. He wondered if to these visitors from the +outside world it was all equally provincial. + +But their enjoyment was apparently unfeigned and generous. It +was evident that they had known each other for many years, yet +they received every remark that any of them made as though it had +been pronounced by a new and interesting acquaintance. Sir +Charles found it rather difficult to keep up with the talk across +the table, they changed the subject so rapidly, and they half +spoke of so many things without waiting to explain. He could not +at once grasp the fact that people who had no other position in +the world save that of observers were speaking so authoritatively +of public men and public measures. He found, to his delight, +that for the first time in several years he was not presiding at +his own table, and that his guests seemed to feel no awe of him. + +"What's the use of a yacht nowadays?" Collier was saying--" +what's the use of a yacht, when you can go to sleep in a wagon- +lit at the Gare du Nord, and wake up at Vladivostok? And look at +the time it saves; eleven days to Gib, six to Port Said, and +fifteen to Colombo--there you are, only half-way around, and +you're already sixteen days behind the man in the wagon-lit." + +"But nobody wants to go to Vladivostok," said Miss Cameron, "or +anywhere else in a wagon-lit. But with a yacht you can explore +out-of-the-way places, and you meet new and interesting people. +We wouldn't have met Sir Charles if we had waited for a wagon- +lit." She bowed her head to the Governor, and he smiled with +gratitude. He had lost Mr. Collier somewhere in the Indian +Ocean, and he was glad she had brought them back to the Windless +Isles once more. + +"And again I repeat that the answer to that is, 'Why not? said +the March Hare,'" remarked Mr. Collier, determinedly. + +The answer, as an answer, did not strike Sir Charles as a very +good one. But the ladies seemed to comprehend, for Miss Cameron +said: "Did I tell you about meeting him at Oxford just a few +months before his death--at a children's tea-party? He was so +sweet and understanding with them! Two women tried to lionize +him, and he ran away and played with the children. I was +more glad to meet him than any one I can think of. Not as a +personage, you know, but because I felt grateful to him." + +"Yes, that way, distinctly," said Mrs. Collier. "I should have +felt that way towards Mrs. Ewing more than any one else." + +"I know, 'Jackanapes,'" remarked Collier, shortly; "a brutal +assault upon the feelings, I say." + +"Some one else said it before you, Robert," Mrs. Collier +commented, calmly. "Perhaps Sir Charles met him at Apia." They +all turned and looked at him. He wished he could say he had met +him at Apia. He did not quite see how they had made their way +from a children's tea party at Oxford to the South Pacific +islands, but he was anxious to join in somewhere with a clever +observation. But they never seemed to settle in one place +sufficiently long for him to recollect what he knew of it. He +hoped they would get around to the west coast of Africa in time. +He had been Governor of Sierra Leone for five years. + +His success that night at dinner on the yacht was far better. +The others seemed a little tired after the hours of sight-seeing +to which he had treated them, and they were content to listen. +In the absence of Mr. Clarges, who knew them word by word, he +felt free to tell his three stories of life at Sierra Leone. He +took his time in the telling, and could congratulate himself that +his efforts had never been more keenly appreciated. He felt that +he was holding his own. + +The night was still and warm, and while the men lingered below at +the table, the two women mounted to the deck and watched the +lights of the town as they vanished one by one and left the moon +in unchallenged possession of the harbor. For a long time Miss +Cameron stood silent, looking out across the bay at the shore and +the hills beyond. A fish splashed near them, and the sound of +oars rose from the mist that floated above the water, until they +were muffled in the distance. The palms along the shore +glistened like silver, and overhead the Southern Cross shone +white against a sky of purple. The silence deepened and +continued for so long a time that Mrs. Collier felt its +significance, and waited for the girl to end it. + +Miss Cameron raised her eyes to the stars and frowned. "I am not +surprised that he is content to stay here," she said. "Are you? +It is so beautiful, so wonderfully beautiful." + +For a moment Mrs. Collier made no answer. "Two years is a long +time, Florence," she said; "and he is all I have; he is not only +my only brother, he is the only living soul who is related to me. + +That makes it harder." + +The girl seemed to find some implied reproach in the speech, for +she turned and looked at her friend closely. "Do you feel it is +my fault, Alice?" she asked. + +The older woman shook her head. "How could it be your fault?" +she answered. "If you couldn't love him enough to marry him, you +couldn't, that's all. But that is no reason why he should have +hidden himself from all of us. Even if he could not stand being +near you, caring as he did, he need not have treated me so. +We have done all we can do, and Robert has been more than fine +about it. He and his agents have written to every consul and +business house in Central America, and I don't believe there is a +city that he hasn't visited. He has sent him money and letters +to every bank and to every post-office--" + +The girl raised her head quickly. + +"--but he never calls for either," Mrs. Collier continued, "for I +know that if he had read my letters he would have come home." + +The girl lifted her head as though she were about to speak, and +then turned and walked slowly away. After a few moments she +returned, and stood, with her hands resting on the rail, looking +down into the water. "I wrote him two letters," she said. In +the silence of the night her voice was unusually clear and +distinct. "I--you make me wonder--if they ever reached him." + +Mrs. Collier, with her eyes fixed upon the girl, rose slowly from +her chair and came towards her. She reached out her hand and +touched Miss Cameron on the arm. + +"Florence," she said, in a whisper, "have you--" + +The girl raised her head slowly, and lowered it again. "Yes," +she answered; "I told him to come back--to come back to me. +Alice," she cried, "I--I begged him to come back!" She tossed +her hands apart and again walked rapidly away, leaving the older +woman standing motionless. + +A moment later, when Sir Charles and Mr. Collier stepped out upon +the deck, they discovered the two women standing close together, +two white, ghostly figures in the moonlight, and as they advanced +towards them they saw Mrs. Collier take the girl for an instant +in her arms. + +Sir Charles was asking Miss Cameron how long she thought an +immigrant should be made to work for his freehold allotment, when +Mr. Collier and his wife rose at the same moment and departed on +separate errands. They met most mysteriously in the shadow of +the wheel-house. + +"What is it? Is anything wrong with Florence?" Collier asked, +anxiously. "Not homesick, is she?" + +Mrs. Collier put her hands on her husband's shoulders and shook +her head. + +"Wrong? No, thank Heaven! it's as right as right can be!" she +cried. "She's written to him to come back, but he's never +answered, and so--and now it's all right." + +Mr. Collier gazed blankly at his wife's upturned face. "Well, I +don't see that," he remonstrated. "What's the use of her being +in love with him now when he can't be found? What? Why didn't +she love him two years ago when he was where you could get at +him--at her house, for instance. He was there most of his time. +She would have saved a lot of trouble. However," he added, +energetically, "this makes it absolutely necessary to find that +young man and bring him to his senses. We'll search this place +for the next few days, and then we'll try the mainland again. I +think I'll offer a reward for him, and have it printed in +Spanish, and paste it up in all the plazas. We might add a line +in English, 'She has changed her mind.' That would bring him +home, wouldn't it?" + +"Don't be unfeeling, Robert," said Mrs. Collier. + +Her husband raised his eyes appealingly, and addressed himself to +the moon. "I ask you now," he complained, "is that fair to a man +who has spent six months on muleback trying to round up a +prodigal brother-in-law?" + +That same evening, after the ladies had gone below, Mr. Collier +asked Sir Charles to assist him in his search for his wife's +brother, and Sir Charles heartily promised his most active co- +operation. There were several Americans at work in the interior, +he said, as overseers on the coffee-plantations. It was possible +that the runaway might be among them. It was only that morning, +Sir Charles remembered, that an American had been at work +"repairing his lawn-mower," as he considerately expressed it. He +would send for him on the morrow. + +But on the morrow the slave of the lawn-mower was reported on the +list of prisoners as "missing," and Corporal Mallon was grieved, +but refused to consider himself responsible. Sir Charles himself +had allowed the vagrant unusual freedom, and the vagrant had +taken advantage of it, and probably escaped to the hills, or up +the river to the logwood camp. + +"Telegraph a description of him to Inspector Garrett," Sir +Charles directed, "and to the heads of all up stations. And when +he returns, bring him to me." + +So great was his zeal that Sir Charles further offered to join +Mr. Collier in his search among the outlying plantations; but Mr. +Collier preferred to work alone. He accordingly set out at once, +armed with letters to the different district inspectors, and in +his absence delegated to Sir Charles the pleasant duty of caring +for the wants of Miss Cameron and his wife. Sir Charles regarded +the latter as deserving of all sympathy, for Mr. Collier, in his +efforts to conceal the fact from the Governor that Florence +Cameron was responsible, or in any way concerned, in the +disappearance of the missing man, had been too mysterious. Sir +Charles was convinced that the fugitive had swindled his brother- +in-law and stolen his sister's jewels. + +The days which followed were to the Governor days and nights of +strange discoveries. He recognized that the missionaries +from the great outside world had invaded his shores and disturbed +his gods and temples. Their religion of progress and activity +filled him with doubt and unrest. + +"In this century," Mr. Collier had declared, "nothing can stand +still. It's the same with a corporation, or a country, or a man. + +We must either march ahead or fall out. We can't mark time. +What?" + +"Exactly--certainly not," Sir Charles had answered. But in his +heart he knew that he himself had been marking time under these +soft tropical skies while the world was pushing forward. The +thought had not disturbed him before. Now he felt guilty. He +conceived a sudden intolerance, if not contempt, for the little +village of whitewashed houses, for the rafts of mahogany and of +logwood that bumped against the pier-heads, for the sacks of +coffee piled high like barricades under the corrugated zinc sheds +along the wharf. Each season it had been his pride to note the +increase in these exports. The development of the resources of +his colony had been a work in which he had felt that the +Colonial Secretary took an immediate interest. He had believed +that he was one of the important wheels of the machinery which +moved the British Empire: and now, in a day, he was undeceived. +It was forced upon him that to the eyes of the outside world he +was only a greengrocer operating on a large scale; he provided +the British public with coffee for its breakfast, with drugs for +its stomach, and with strange woods for its dining-room furniture +and walking-sticks. He combated this ignominious +characterization of his position indignantly. The new arrivals +certainly gave him no hint that they considered him so lightly. +This thought greatly comforted him, for he felt that in some way +he was summoning to his aid all of his assets and resources to +meet an expert and final valuation. As he ranged them before him +he was disturbed and happy to find that the value he placed upon +them was the value they would have in the eyes of a young girl-- +not a girl of the shy, mother-obeying, man-worshipping English +type, but a girl such as Miss Cameron seemed to be, a girl who +could understand what you were trying to say before you said +it, who could take an interest in rates of exchange and preside +at a dinner table, who was charmingly feminine and clever, and +who was respectful of herself and of others. In fact, he +decided, with a flush, that Miss Cameron herself was the young +girl he had in his mind. + +"Why not?" he asked. + +The question came to him in his room, the sixth night of their +visit, and he strode over to the long pier-glass and stood +studying himself critically for the first time in years. He was +still a fine-looking, well-kept man. His hair was thin, but that +fact did not show; and his waist was lost, but riding and tennis +would set that right. He had means outside of his official +salary, and there was the title, such as it was. Lady Greville +the wife of the birthday knight sounded as well as Lady Greville +the marchioness. And Americans cared for these things. He +doubted whether this particular American would do so, but he was +adding up all he had to offer, and that was one of the assets. +He was sure she would not be content to remain mistress of +the Windless Isles. Nor, indeed, did he longer care to be master +there, now that he had inhaled this quick, stirring breath from +the outer world. He would resign, and return and mix with the +world again. He would enter Parliament; a man so well acquainted +as himself with the Gold Coast of Africa and with the trade of +the West Indies must always be of value in the Lower House. This +value would be recognized, no doubt, and he would become at first +an Under-Secretary for the Colonies, and then, in time, Colonial +Secretary and a cabinet minister. She would like that, he +thought. And after that place had been reached, all things were +possible. For years he had not dreamed such dreams--not since he +had been a clerk in the Foreign Office. They seemed just as +possible now as they had seemed real then, and just as near. He +felt it was all absolutely in his own hands. + +He descended to the dining-room with the air of a man who already +felt the cares of high responsibility upon his shoulders. His +head was erect and his chest thrown forward. He was ten +years younger; his manner was alert, assured, and gracious. As +he passed through the halls he was impatient of the familiar +settings of Government House; they seemed to him like the +furnishings of a hotel where he had paid his bill, and where his +luggage was lying strapped for departure in the hallway. + +In his library he saw on his table a number of papers lying open +waiting for his signature, the dog-tax among the others. He +smiled to remember how important it had seemed to him in the +past--in that past of indolence and easy content. Now he was on +fire to put this rekindled ambition to work, to tell the woman +who had lighted it that it was all from her and for her, that +without her he had existed, that now he had begun to live. + +They had never found him so delighful{sic} as he appeared that +night. He was like a man on the eve of a holiday. He made a +jest of his past efforts; he made them see, as he now saw it for +the first time, that side of the life of the Windless Isles which +was narrow and petty, even ridiculous. He talked of big men in a +big way; he criticised, and expounded, and advanced his own +theories of government and the proper control of an empire. + +Collier, who had returned from his unsuccessful search of the +plantations, shook his head. + +"It's a pity you are not in London now," he said, sincerely. +"They need some one there who has been on the spot. They can't +direct the colonies from what they know of them in Whitehall." + +Sir Charles fingered the dinner cloth nervously, and when he +spoke, fixed his eyes anxiously upon Miss Cameron. + +"Do you know," he said, "I have been thinking of doing that very +thing, of resigning my post here and going back, entering +Parliament, and all the rest of it." + +His declaration met with a unanimous chorus of delight. Miss +Cameron nodded her head with eager approval. + +"Yes, if I were a man, that is where I should wish to be," she +said, "at the heart of it. Why, whatever you say in the House of +Commons is heard all over the world the next morning." + +Sir Charles felt the blood tingle in his pulses. He had not been +so stirred in years. Her words ran to his head like wine. + +Mr. Collier raised his glass. + +"Here's to our next meeting," he said, "on the terrace of the +House of Commons." + +But Miss Cameron interrupted. "No; to the Colonial Secretary," +she amended. + +"Oh yes," they assented, rising, and so drank his health, smiling +down upon him with kind, friendly glances and good-will. + +"To the Colonial Secretary," they said. Sir Charles clasped the +arms of his chair tightly with his hands; his eyes were half +closed, and his lips pressed into a grim, confident smile. He +felt that a single word from her would make all that they +suggested possible. If she cared for such things, they were +hers; he had them to give; they were ready lying at her feet. He +knew that the power had always been with him, lying dormant in +his heart and brain. It had only waited for the touch of the +Princess to wake it into life. + +The American visitors were to sail for the mainland the next day, +but he had come to know them so well in the brief period of +their visit that he felt he dared speak to her that same night. +At least he could give her some word that would keep him in her +mind until they met again in London, or until she had considered +her answer. He could not expect her to answer at once. She +could take much time. What else had he to do now but to wait for +her answer? It was now all that made life. + +Collier and his wife had left the veranda and had crossed the +lawn towards the water's edge. The moonlight fell full upon them +with all the splendor of the tropics, and lit the night with a +brilliant, dazzling radiance. From where Miss Cameron sat on the +veranda in the shadow, Sir Charles could see only the white +outline of her figure and the indolent movement of her fan. +Collier had left his wife and was returning slowly towards the +step. Sir Charles felt that if he meant to speak he must speak +now, and quickly. He rose and placed himself beside her in the +shadow, and the girl turned her head inquiringly and looked up at +him. + +But on the instant the hush of the night was broken by a +sharp challenge, and the sound of men's voices raised in anger; +there was the noise of a struggle on the gravel, and from the +corner of the house the two sentries came running, dragging +between them a slight figure that fought and wrestled to be free. + +Sir Charles exclaimed with indignant impatience, and turning, +strode quickly to the head of the steps. + +"What does this mean?" he demanded. "What are you doing with +that man? Why did you bring him here?" + +As the soldiers straightened to attention, their prisoner ceased +to struggle, and stood with his head bent on his chest. His +sombrero was pulled down low across his forehead. + +"He was crawling through the bushes, Sir Charles," the soldier +panted, "watching that gentleman, sir,"--he nodded over his +shoulder towards Collier. "I challenged, and he jumped to run, +and we collared him. He resisted, Sir Charles." + +The mind of the Governor was concerned with other matters than +trespassers. + +"Well, take him to the barracks, then," he said. "Report to +me in the morning. That will do." + +The prisoner wheeled eagerly, without further show of resistance, +and the soldiers closed in on him on either side. But as the +three men moved away together, their faces, which had been in +shadow, were now turned towards Mr. Collier, who was advancing +leisurely, and with silent footsteps, across the grass. He met +them face to face, and as he did so the prisoner sprang back and +threw out his arms in front of him, with the gesture of a man who +entreats silence. Mr. Collier halted as though struck to stone, +and the two men confronted each other without moving. + +"Good God!" Mr. Collier whispered. + +He turned stiffly and slowly, as though in a trance, and beckoned +to his wife, who had followed him. + +"Alice!" he called. He stepped backwards towards her, and taking +her hand in one of his, drew her towards the prisoner. "Here he +is!" he said. + +They heard her cry "Henry!" with the fierceness of a call for +help, and saw her rush forward and stumble into the arms of +the prisoner, and their two heads were bent close together. + +Collier ran up the steps and explained breathlessly. + +"And now," he gasped, in conclusion, "what's to be done? What's +he arrested for? Is it bailable? What?" + +"Good heavens!" exclaimed Sir Charles, miserably. "It is my +fault entirely. I assure you I had no idea. How could I? But I +should have known, I should have guessed it." He dismissed the +sentries with a gesture. "That will do," he said. "Return to +your posts." + +Mr. Collier laughed with relief. + +"Then it is not serious?" he asked. + +"He--he had no money, that was all," exclaimed Sir Charles. +"Serious? Certainly not. Upon my word, I'm sorry--" + +The young man had released himself from his sister's embrace, and +was coming towards them; and Sir Charles, eager to redeem +himself, advanced hurriedly to greet him. But the young man did +not see him; he was looking past him up the steps to where Miss +Cameron stood in the shadow. + +Sir Charles hesitated and drew back. The young man stopped at +the foot of the steps, and stood with his head raised, staring up +at the white figure of the girl, who came slowly forward. + +It was forced upon Sir Charles that in spite of the fact that the +young man before them had but just then been rescued from arrest, +that in spite of his mean garments and ragged sandals, something +about him--the glamour that surrounds the prodigal, or possibly +the moonlight--gave him an air of great dignity and distinction. + +As Miss Cameron descended the stairs, Sir Charles recognized for +the first time that the young man was remarkably handsome, and he +resented it. It hurt him, as did also the prodigal's youth and +his assured bearing. He felt a sudden sinking fear, a weakening +of all his vital forces, and he drew in his breath slowly and +deeply. But no one noticed him; they were looking at the tall +figure of the prodigal, standing with his hat at his hip and his +head thrown back, holding the girl with his eyes. + +Collier touched Sir Charles on the arm, and nodded his head +towards the library. "Come," he whispered, "let us old people +leave them together. They've a good deal to say." Sir Charles +obeyed in silence, and crossing the library to the great oak +chair, seated himself and leaned wearily on the table before him. +He picked up one of the goose quills and began separating it into +little pieces. Mr. Collier was pacing up and down, biting +excitedly on the end of his cigar. "Well, this has +certainly been a great night," he said. "And it is all due to +you, Sir Charles--all due to you. Yes, they have you to thank +for it." + +"They? " said Sir Charles. He knew that it had to come. He +wanted the man to strike quickly. + +"They? Yes--Florence Cameron and Henry," Mr. Collier answered. +"Henry went away because she wouldn't marry him. She didn't care +for him then, but afterwards she cared. Now they're reunited,-- +and so they're happy; and my wife is more than happy, and I won't +have to bother any more; and it's all right, and all through +you." + +"I am glad," said Sir Charles. There was a long pause, which the +men, each deep in his own thoughts, did not notice. + +"You will be leaving now, I suppose?" Sir Charles asked. He was +looking down, examining the broken pen in his hand. + +Mr. Collier stopped in his walk and considered. "Yes, I suppose +they will want to get back," he said. "I shall be sorry myself. +And you? What will you do?" + +Sir Charles started slightly. He had not yet thought what he +would do. His eyes wandered over the neglected work, which had +accumulated on the desk before him. Only an hour before he had +thought of it as petty and little, as something unworthy of his +energy. Since that time what change had taken place in him? + +For him everything had changed, he answered, but in him there had +been no change; and if this thing which the girl had brought into +his life had meant the best in life, it must always mean that. +She had been an inspiration; she must remain his spring of +action. Was he a slave, he asked himself, that he should rebel? +Was he a boy, that he could turn his love to aught but the +best account? He must remember her not as the woman who had +crushed his spirit, but as she who had helped him, who had lifted +him up to something better and finer. He would make sacrifice in +her name; it would be in her name that he would rise to high +places and accomplish much good. + +She would not know this, but he would know. + +He rose and brushed the papers away from him with an impatient +sweep of the hand. + +"I shall follow out the plan of which I spoke at dinner," he +answered. "I shall resign here, and return home and enter +Parliament." + +Mr. Collier laughed admiringly. "I love the way you English take +your share of public life," he said, "the way you spend +yourselves for your country, and give your brains, your lives, +everything you have--all for the empire." + +Through the open window Sir Charles saw Miss Cameron half hidden +by the vines of the veranda. The moonlight falling about +her transformed her into a figure which was ideal, mysterious, +and elusive, like a woman in a dream. He shook his head wearily. + +"For the empire?" he asked. + + + +THE LAST RIDE TOGETHER + +A SKETCH CONTAINING THREE POINTS OF VIEW + +What the Poet Laureate wrote. + + "There are girls in the Gold Reef City + There are mothers and children too! + And they cry 'Hurry up for pity!' + So what can a brave man do? + + "I suppose we were wrong, were mad men, + Still I think at the Judgment Day, + When God sifts the good from the bad men, + There'll be something more to say." + +What more the Lord Chief Justice found to say. + + +"In this case we know the immediate consequence of your crime. +It has been the loss of human life, it has been the +disturbance of public peace, it has been the creation of a +certain sense of distrust of public professions and of public +faith. . . . The sentence of this Court therefore is that, as to +you, Leander Starr Jameson, you be confined for a period of +fifteen months without hard labor; that you, Sir John Willoughby, +have ten months' imprisonment; and that you, etc., etc." + + London Times, July 29th. + + What the Hon. "Reggie" Blake thought about it. + + "H. M. HOLLOWAY PRISON, + "July 28th. + +"I am going to keep a diary while I am in prison, that is, if +they will let me. I never kept one before because I hadn't the +time; when I was home on leave there was too much going on to +bother about it, and when I was up country I always came back +after a day's riding so tired that I was too sleepy to write +anything. And now that I have the time, I won't have anything to +write about. I fancy that more things happened to me today +than are likely to happen again for the next eight months, so I +will make this day take up as much room in the diary as it can. +I am writing this on the back of the paper the Warder uses for +his official reports, while he is hunting up cells to put us in. +We came down on him rather unexpectedly and he is nervous. + +"Of course, I had prepared myself for this after a fashion, +but now I see that somehow I never really did think I would be in +here, and all my friends outside, and everything going on just +the same as though I wasn't alive somewhere. It's like telling +yourself that your horse can't possibly pull off a race, so that +you won't mind so much if he doesn't, but you always feel just as +bad when he comes in a loser. A man can't fool himself into +thinking one way when he is hoping the other. + +"But I am glad it is over, and settled. It was a great bore +not knowing your luck and having the thing hanging over your head +every morning when you woke up. Indeed it was quite a relief +when the counsel got all through arguing over those +proclamations, and the Chief Justice summed up, but I nearly +went to sleep when I found he was going all over it again to the +jury. I didn't understand about those proclamations myself and +I'll lay a fiver the jury didn't either. The Colonel said he +didn't. I couldn't keep my mind on what Russell was explaining +about, and I got to thinking how much old Justice Hawkins looked +like the counsel in 'Alice in Wonderland' when they tried the +knave of spades for stealing the tarts. He had just the same +sort of a beak and the same sort of a wig, and I wondered why he +had his wig powdered and the others didn't. Pollock's wig had a +hole in the top; you could see it when he bent over to take +notes. He was always taking notes. I don't believe he +understood about those proclamations either; he never seemed to +listen, anyway. + +"The Chief Justice certainly didn't love us very much, that's +sure; and he wasn't going to let anybody else love us either. I +felt quite the Christian Martyr when Sir Edward was speaking in +defence. He made it sound as though we were all a lot of Adelphi +heroes and ought to be promoted and have medals, but when +Lord Russell started in to read the Riot Act at us I began to +believe that hanging was too good for me. I'm sure I never knew +I was disturbing the peace of nations; it seems like such a large +order for a subaltern. + +"But the worst was when they made us stand up before all those +people to be sentenced. I must say I felt shaky about the knees +then, not because I was afraid of what was coming, but because it +was the first time I had ever been pointed out before people, and +made to feel ashamed. And having those girls there, too, looking +at one. That wasn't just fair to us. It made me feel about ten +years old, and I remembered how the Head Master used to call me +to his desk and say, 'Blake Senior, two pages of Horace and keep +in bounds for a week.' And then I heard our names and the +months, and my name and 'eight months' imprisonment,' and there +was a bustle and murmur and the tipstaves cried, 'Order in the +Court,' and the Judges stood up and shook out their big red +skirts as though they were shaking off the contamination of our +presence and rustled away, and I sat down, wondering how +long eight months was, and wishing they'd given me as much as +they gave Jameson. + +"They put us in a room together then, and our counsel said how +sorry they were, and shook hands, and went off to dinner and left +us. I thought they might have waited with us and been a little +late for dinner just that once; but no one waited except a lot of +costers outside whom we did not know. It was eight o'clock and +still quite light when we came out, and there was a line of four- +wheelers and a hansom ready for us. I'd been hoping they would +take us out by the Strand entrance, just because I'd like to have +seen it again, but they marched us instead through the main +quadrangle--a beastly, gloomy courtyard that echoed, and out, +into Carey Street--such a dirty, gloomy street. The costers and +clerks set up a sort of a cheer when we came out, and one of them +cried, 'God bless you, sir,' to the doctor, but I was sorry they +cheered. It seemed like kicking against the umpire's decision. +The Colonel and I got into a hansom together and we trotted +off into Chancery Lane and turned into Holborn. Most of the +shops were closed, and the streets looked empty, but there was a +lighted clock-face over Mooney's public-house, and the hands +stood at a quarter past eight. I didn't know where Holloway was, +and was hoping they would have to take us through some decent +streets to reach it; but we didn't see a part of the city that +meant anything to me, or that I would choose to travel through +again. + +"Neither of us talked, and I imagined that the people in the +streets knew we were going to prison, and I kept my eyes on the +enamel card on the back of the apron. I suppose I read, 'Two- +wheeled hackney carriage: if hired and discharged within the +four-mile limit, 1s.' at least a hundred times. I got more +sensible after a bit, and when we had turned into Gray's Inn Road +I looked up and saw a tram in front of us with 'Holloway Road and +King's X,' painted on the steps, and the Colonel saw it about the +same time I fancy, for we each looked at the other, and the +Colonel raised his eyebrows. It showed us that at least the +cabman knew where we were going. + +"'They might have taken us for a turn through the West End first, +I think,' the Colonel said. 'I'd like to have had a look around, +wouldn't you? This isn't a cheerful neighborhood, is it?' + +"There were a lot of children playing in St. Andrew's Gardens, +and a crowd of them ran out just as we passed, shrieking and +laughing over nothing, the way kiddies do, and that was about the +only pleasant sight in the ride. I had quite a turn when we came +to the New Hospital just beyond, for I thought it was Holloway, +and it came over me what eight months in such a place meant. I +believe if I hadn't pulled myself up sharp, I'd have jumped out +into the street and run away. It didn't last more than a few +seconds, but I don't want any more like them. I was afraid, +afraid--there's no use pretending it was anything else. I was in +a dumb, silly funk, and I turned sick inside and shook, as I have +seen a horse shake when he shies at nothing and sweats and +trembles down his sides. + +"During those few seconds it seemed to be more than I could +stand; I felt sure that I couldn't do it--that I'd go mad if they +tried to force me. The idea was so terrible--of not being master +over your own legs and arms, to have your flesh and blood and +what brains God gave you buried alive in stone walls as though +they were in a safe with a time-lock on the door set for eight +months ahead. There's nothing to be afraid of in a stone wall +really, but it's the idea of the thing--of not being free to move +about, especially to a chap that has always lived in the open as +I have, and has had men under him. It was no wonder I was in a +funk for a minute. I'll bet a fiver the others were, too, if +they'll only own up to it. I don't mean for long, but just when +the idea first laid hold of them. Anyway, it was a good lesson +to me, and if I catch myself thinking of it again I'll whistle, +or talk to myself out loud and think of something cheerful. And +I don't mean to be one of those chaps who spends his time in jail +counting the stones in his cell, or training spiders, or +measuring how many of his steps make a mile, for madness +lies that way. I mean to sit tight and think of all the good +times I've had, and go over them in my mind very slowly, so as to +make them last longer and remember who was there and what we +said, and the jokes and all that; I'll go over house-parties I +have been on, and the times I've had in the Riviera, and scouting +parties Dr. Jim led up country when we were taking Matabele Land. + +"They say that if you're good here they give you things to read +after a month or two, and then I can read up all those +instructive books that a fellow never does read until he's laid +up in bed. + +"But that's crowding ahead a bit; I must keep to what happened +to-day. We struck York Road at the back of the Great Western +Terminus, and I half hoped we might see some chap we knew coming +or going away: I would like to have waved my hand to him. It +would have been fun to have seen his surprise the next morning +when he read in the paper that he had been bowing to jail-birds, +and then I would like to have cheated the tipstaves out of just +one more friendly good-by. I wanted to say good-by to +somebody, but I really couldn't feel sorry to see the last of any +one of those we passed in the streets--they were such a dirty, +unhappy-looking lot, and the railroad wall ran on forever +apparently, and we might have been in a foreign country for all +we knew of it. There were just sooty gray brick tenements and +gas-works on one side, and the railroad cutting on the other, and +semaphores and telegraph wires overhead, and smoke and grime +everywhere, it looked exactly like the sort of street that should +lead to a prison, and it seemed a pity to take a smart hansom and +a good cob into it. + +"It was just a bit different from our last ride together--when we +rode through the night from Krugers-Dorp with hundreds of horses' +hoofs pounding on the soft veldt behind us, and the carbines +clanking against the stirrups as they swung on the sling belts. +We were being hunted then, harassed on either side, scurrying for +our lives like the Derby Dog in a race-track when every one hoots +him and no man steps out to help--we were sick for sleep, sick +for food, lashed by the rain, and we knew that we were +beaten; but we were free still, and under open skies with the +derricks of the Rand rising like gallows on our left, and +Johannesburg only fifteen miles away." + + + + + +End of Project Gutenberg Etext of The Lion and the Unicorn, by Davis + |
