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@@ -0,0 +1,5316 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of Daddy-Long-Legs, by Jean Webster + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: Daddy-Long-Legs + +Author: Jean Webster + +Release Date: June 9, 2008 [EBook #157] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK DADDY-LONG-LEGS *** + + + + + + + + + + + + + + +DADDY-LONG-LEGS + + +by + +JEAN WEBSTER + + + +Copyright 1912 by The Century Company + + + + +TO YOU + + + + +Blue Wednesday + +The first Wednesday in every month was a Perfectly Awful Day--a day to +be awaited with dread, endured with courage and forgotten with haste. +Every floor must be spotless, every chair dustless, and every bed +without a wrinkle. Ninety-seven squirming little orphans must be +scrubbed and combed and buttoned into freshly starched ginghams; and +all ninety-seven reminded of their manners, and told to say, 'Yes, +sir,' 'No, sir,' whenever a Trustee spoke. + +It was a distressing time; and poor Jerusha Abbott, being the oldest +orphan, had to bear the brunt of it. But this particular first +Wednesday, like its predecessors, finally dragged itself to a close. +Jerusha escaped from the pantry where she had been making sandwiches +for the asylum's guests, and turned upstairs to accomplish her regular +work. Her special care was room F, where eleven little tots, from four +to seven, occupied eleven little cots set in a row. Jerusha assembled +her charges, straightened their rumpled frocks, wiped their noses, and +started them in an orderly and willing line towards the dining-room to +engage themselves for a blessed half hour with bread and milk and prune +pudding. + +Then she dropped down on the window seat and leaned throbbing temples +against the cool glass. She had been on her feet since five that +morning, doing everybody's bidding, scolded and hurried by a nervous +matron. Mrs. Lippett, behind the scenes, did not always maintain that +calm and pompous dignity with which she faced an audience of Trustees +and lady visitors. Jerusha gazed out across a broad stretch of frozen +lawn, beyond the tall iron paling that marked the confines of the +asylum, down undulating ridges sprinkled with country estates, to the +spires of the village rising from the midst of bare trees. + +The day was ended--quite successfully, so far as she knew. The +Trustees and the visiting committee had made their rounds, and read +their reports, and drunk their tea, and now were hurrying home to their +own cheerful firesides, to forget their bothersome little charges for +another month. Jerusha leaned forward watching with curiosity--and a +touch of wistfulness--the stream of carriages and automobiles that +rolled out of the asylum gates. In imagination she followed first one +equipage, then another, to the big houses dotted along the hillside. +She pictured herself in a fur coat and a velvet hat trimmed with +feathers leaning back in the seat and nonchalantly murmuring 'Home' to +the driver. But on the door-sill of her home the picture grew blurred. + +Jerusha had an imagination--an imagination, Mrs. Lippett told her, that +would get her into trouble if she didn't take care--but keen as it was, +it could not carry her beyond the front porch of the houses she would +enter. Poor, eager, adventurous little Jerusha, in all her seventeen +years, had never stepped inside an ordinary house; she could not +picture the daily routine of those other human beings who carried on +their lives undiscommoded by orphans. + + Je-ru-sha Ab-bott + You are wan-ted + In the of-fice, + And I think you'd + Better hurry up! + + +Tommy Dillon, who had joined the choir, came singing up the stairs and +down the corridor, his chant growing louder as he approached room F. +Jerusha wrenched herself from the window and refaced the troubles of +life. + +'Who wants me?' she cut into Tommy's chant with a note of sharp anxiety. + + Mrs. Lippett in the office, + And I think she's mad. + Ah-a-men! + + +Tommy piously intoned, but his accent was not entirely malicious. Even +the most hardened little orphan felt sympathy for an erring sister who +was summoned to the office to face an annoyed matron; and Tommy liked +Jerusha even if she did sometimes jerk him by the arm and nearly scrub +his nose off. + +Jerusha went without comment, but with two parallel lines on her brow. +What could have gone wrong, she wondered. Were the sandwiches not thin +enough? Were there shells in the nut cakes? Had a lady visitor seen +the hole in Susie Hawthorn's stocking? Had--O horrors!--one of the +cherubic little babes in her own room F 'sauced' a Trustee? + +The long lower hall had not been lighted, and as she came downstairs, a +last Trustee stood, on the point of departure, in the open door that +led to the porte-cochere. Jerusha caught only a fleeting impression of +the man--and the impression consisted entirely of tallness. He was +waving his arm towards an automobile waiting in the curved drive. As +it sprang into motion and approached, head on for an instant, the +glaring headlights threw his shadow sharply against the wall inside. +The shadow pictured grotesquely elongated legs and arms that ran along +the floor and up the wall of the corridor. It looked, for all the +world, like a huge, wavering daddy-long-legs. + +Jerusha's anxious frown gave place to quick laughter. She was by +nature a sunny soul, and had always snatched the tiniest excuse to be +amused. If one could derive any sort of entertainment out of the +oppressive fact of a Trustee, it was something unexpected to the good. +She advanced to the office quite cheered by the tiny episode, and +presented a smiling face to Mrs. Lippett. To her surprise the matron +was also, if not exactly smiling, at least appreciably affable; she +wore an expression almost as pleasant as the one she donned for +visitors. + +'Sit down, Jerusha, I have something to say to you.' Jerusha dropped +into the nearest chair and waited with a touch of breathlessness. An +automobile flashed past the window; Mrs. Lippett glanced after it. + +'Did you notice the gentleman who has just gone?' + +'I saw his back.' + +'He is one of our most affluential Trustees, and has given large sums +of money towards the asylum's support. I am not at liberty to mention +his name; he expressly stipulated that he was to remain unknown.' + +Jerusha's eyes widened slightly; she was not accustomed to being +summoned to the office to discuss the eccentricities of Trustees with +the matron. + +'This gentleman has taken an interest in several of our boys. You +remember Charles Benton and Henry Freize? They were both sent through +college by Mr.--er--this Trustee, and both have repaid with hard work +and success the money that was so generously expended. Other payment +the gentleman does not wish. Heretofore his philanthropies have been +directed solely towards the boys; I have never been able to interest +him in the slightest degree in any of the girls in the institution, no +matter how deserving. He does not, I may tell you, care for girls.' + +'No, ma'am,' Jerusha murmured, since some reply seemed to be expected +at this point. + +'To-day at the regular meeting, the question of your future was brought +up.' + +Mrs. Lippett allowed a moment of silence to fall, then resumed in a +slow, placid manner extremely trying to her hearer's suddenly tightened +nerves. + +'Usually, as you know, the children are not kept after they are +sixteen, but an exception was made in your case. You had finished our +school at fourteen, and having done so well in your studies--not +always, I must say, in your conduct--it was determined to let you go on +in the village high school. Now you are finishing that, and of course +the asylum cannot be responsible any longer for your support. As it +is, you have had two years more than most.' + +Mrs. Lippett overlooked the fact that Jerusha had worked hard for her +board during those two years, that the convenience of the asylum had +come first and her education second; that on days like the present she +was kept at home to scrub. + +'As I say, the question of your future was brought up and your record +was discussed--thoroughly discussed.' + +Mrs. Lippett brought accusing eyes to bear upon the prisoner in the +dock, and the prisoner looked guilty because it seemed to be +expected--not because she could remember any strikingly black pages in +her record. + +'Of course the usual disposition of one in your place would be to put +you in a position where you could begin to work, but you have done well +in school in certain branches; it seems that your work in English has +even been brilliant. Miss Pritchard, who is on our visiting committee, +is also on the school board; she has been talking with your rhetoric +teacher, and made a speech in your favour. She also read aloud an +essay that you had written entitled, "Blue Wednesday".' + +Jerusha's guilty expression this time was not assumed. + +'It seemed to me that you showed little gratitude in holding up to +ridicule the institution that has done so much for you. Had you not +managed to be funny I doubt if you would have been forgiven. But +fortunately for you, Mr.--, that is, the gentleman who has just +gone--appears to have an immoderate sense of humour. On the strength +of that impertinent paper, he has offered to send you to college.' + +'To college?' Jerusha's eyes grew big. Mrs. Lippett nodded. + +'He waited to discuss the terms with me. They are unusual. The +gentleman, I may say, is erratic. He believes that you have +originality, and he is planning to educate you to become a writer.' + +'A writer?' Jerusha's mind was numbed. She could only repeat Mrs. +Lippett's words. + +'That is his wish. Whether anything will come of it, the future will +show. He is giving you a very liberal allowance, almost, for a girl +who has never had any experience in taking care of money, too liberal. +But he planned the matter in detail, and I did not feel free to make +any suggestions. You are to remain here through the summer, and Miss +Pritchard has kindly offered to superintend your outfit. Your board +and tuition will be paid directly to the college, and you will receive +in addition during the four years you are there, an allowance of +thirty-five dollars a month. This will enable you to enter on the same +standing as the other students. The money will be sent to you by the +gentleman's private secretary once a month, and in return, you will +write a letter of acknowledgment once a month. That is--you are not to +thank him for the money; he doesn't care to have that mentioned, but +you are to write a letter telling of the progress in your studies and +the details of your daily life. Just such a letter as you would write +to your parents if they were living. + +'These letters will be addressed to Mr. John Smith and will be sent in +care of the secretary. The gentleman's name is not John Smith, but he +prefers to remain unknown. To you he will never be anything but John +Smith. His reason in requiring the letters is that he thinks nothing +so fosters facility in literary expression as letter-writing. Since you +have no family with whom to correspond, he desires you to write in this +way; also, he wishes to keep track of your progress. He will never +answer your letters, nor in the slightest particular take any notice of +them. He detests letter-writing and does not wish you to become a +burden. If any point should ever arise where an answer would seem to +be imperative--such as in the event of your being expelled, which I +trust will not occur--you may correspond with Mr. Griggs, his +secretary. These monthly letters are absolutely obligatory on your +part; they are the only payment that Mr. Smith requires, so you must be +as punctilious in sending them as though it were a bill that you were +paying. I hope that they will always be respectful in tone and will +reflect credit on your training. You must remember that you are +writing to a Trustee of the John Grier Home.' + +Jerusha's eyes longingly sought the door. Her head was in a whirl of +excitement, and she wished only to escape from Mrs. Lippett's +platitudes and think. She rose and took a tentative step backwards. +Mrs. Lippett detained her with a gesture; it was an oratorical +opportunity not to be slighted. + +'I trust that you are properly grateful for this very rare good fortune +that has befallen you? Not many girls in your position ever have such +an opportunity to rise in the world. You must always remember--' + +'I--yes, ma'am, thank you. I think, if that's all, I must go and sew a +patch on Freddie Perkins's trousers.' + +The door closed behind her, and Mrs. Lippett watched it with dropped +jaw, her peroration in mid-air. + + + + +The Letters of + +Miss Jerusha Abbott + +to + +Mr. Daddy-Long-Legs Smith + + + 215 FERGUSSEN HALL + 24th September + +Dear Kind-Trustee-Who-Sends-Orphans-to-College, + +Here I am! I travelled yesterday for four hours in a train. It's a +funny sensation, isn't it? I never rode in one before. + +College is the biggest, most bewildering place--I get lost whenever I +leave my room. I will write you a description later when I'm feeling +less muddled; also I will tell you about my lessons. Classes don't +begin until Monday morning, and this is Saturday night. But I wanted +to write a letter first just to get acquainted. + +It seems queer to be writing letters to somebody you don't know. It +seems queer for me to be writing letters at all--I've never written +more than three or four in my life, so please overlook it if these are +not a model kind. + +Before leaving yesterday morning, Mrs. Lippett and I had a very serious +talk. She told me how to behave all the rest of my life, and +especially how to behave towards the kind gentleman who is doing so +much for me. I must take care to be Very Respectful. + +But how can one be very respectful to a person who wishes to be called +John Smith? Why couldn't you have picked out a name with a little +personality? I might as well write letters to Dear Hitching-Post or +Dear Clothes-Prop. + +I have been thinking about you a great deal this summer; having +somebody take an interest in me after all these years makes me feel as +though I had found a sort of family. It seems as though I belonged to +somebody now, and it's a very comfortable sensation. I must say, +however, that when I think about you, my imagination has very little to +work upon. There are just three things that I know: + +I. You are tall. + +II. You are rich. + +III. You hate girls. + +I suppose I might call you Dear Mr. Girl-Hater. Only that's rather +insulting to me. Or Dear Mr. Rich-Man, but that's insulting to you, as +though money were the only important thing about you. Besides, being +rich is such a very external quality. Maybe you won't stay rich all +your life; lots of very clever men get smashed up in Wall Street. But +at least you will stay tall all your life! So I've decided to call you +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs. I hope you won't mind. It's just a private pet +name we won't tell Mrs. Lippett. + +The ten o'clock bell is going to ring in two minutes. Our day is +divided into sections by bells. We eat and sleep and study by bells. +It's very enlivening; I feel like a fire horse all of the time. There +it goes! Lights out. Good night. + +Observe with what precision I obey rules--due to my training in the +John Grier Home. + + Yours most respectfully, + Jerusha Abbott + + + + +To Mr. Daddy-Long-Legs Smith + + 1st October + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +I love college and I love you for sending me--I'm very, very happy, and +so excited every moment of the time that I can scarcely sleep. You +can't imagine how different it is from the John Grier Home. I never +dreamed there was such a place in the world. I'm feeling sorry for +everybody who isn't a girl and who can't come here; I am sure the +college you attended when you were a boy couldn't have been so nice. + +My room is up in a tower that used to be the contagious ward before +they built the new infirmary. There are three other girls on the same +floor of the tower--a Senior who wears spectacles and is always asking +us please to be a little more quiet, and two Freshmen named Sallie +McBride and Julia Rutledge Pendleton. Sallie has red hair and a +turn-up nose and is quite friendly; Julia comes from one of the first +families in New York and hasn't noticed me yet. They room together and +the Senior and I have singles. Usually Freshmen can't get singles; +they are very scarce, but I got one without even asking. I suppose the +registrar didn't think it would be right to ask a properly brought-up +girl to room with a foundling. You see there are advantages! + +My room is on the north-west corner with two windows and a view. After +you've lived in a ward for eighteen years with twenty room-mates, it is +restful to be alone. This is the first chance I've ever had to get +acquainted with Jerusha Abbott. I think I'm going to like her. + +Do you think you are? + + + Tuesday + +They are organizing the Freshman basket-ball team and there's just a +chance that I shall get in it. I'm little of course, but terribly +quick and wiry and tough. While the others are hopping about in the +air, I can dodge under their feet and grab the ball. It's loads of fun +practising--out in the athletic field in the afternoon with the trees +all red and yellow and the air full of the smell of burning leaves, and +everybody laughing and shouting. These are the happiest girls I ever +saw--and I am the happiest of all! + +I meant to write a long letter and tell you all the things I'm learning +(Mrs. Lippett said you wanted to know), but 7th hour has just rung, and +in ten minutes I'm due at the athletic field in gymnasium clothes. +Don't you hope I'll get in the team? + + Yours always, + Jerusha Abbott + +PS. (9 o'clock.) + +Sallie McBride just poked her head in at my door. This is what she +said: + +'I'm so homesick that I simply can't stand it. Do you feel that way?' + +I smiled a little and said no; I thought I could pull through. At +least homesickness is one disease that I've escaped! I never heard of +anybody being asylum-sick, did you? + + + + + 10th October + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Did you ever hear of Michael Angelo? + +He was a famous artist who lived in Italy in the Middle Ages. +Everybody in English Literature seemed to know about him, and the whole +class laughed because I thought he was an archangel. He sounds like an +archangel, doesn't he? The trouble with college is that you are +expected to know such a lot of things you've never learned. It's very +embarrassing at times. But now, when the girls talk about things that +I never heard of, I just keep still and look them up in the +encyclopedia. + +I made an awful mistake the first day. Somebody mentioned Maurice +Maeterlinck, and I asked if she was a Freshman. That joke has gone all +over college. But anyway, I'm just as bright in class as any of the +others--and brighter than some of them! + +Do you care to know how I've furnished my room? It's a symphony in +brown and yellow. The wall was tinted buff, and I've bought yellow +denim curtains and cushions and a mahogany desk (second hand for three +dollars) and a rattan chair and a brown rug with an ink spot in the +middle. I stand the chair over the spot. + +The windows are up high; you can't look out from an ordinary seat. But +I unscrewed the looking-glass from the back of the bureau, upholstered +the top and moved it up against the window. It's just the right height +for a window seat. You pull out the drawers like steps and walk up. +Very comfortable! + +Sallie McBride helped me choose the things at the Senior auction. She +has lived in a house all her life and knows about furnishing. You +can't imagine what fun it is to shop and pay with a real five-dollar +bill and get some change--when you've never had more than a few cents +in your life. I assure you, Daddy dear, I do appreciate that allowance. + +Sallie is the most entertaining person in the world--and Julia Rutledge +Pendleton the least so. It's queer what a mixture the registrar can +make in the matter of room-mates. Sallie thinks everything is +funny--even flunking--and Julia is bored at everything. She never +makes the slightest effort to be amiable. She believes that if you are +a Pendleton, that fact alone admits you to heaven without any further +examination. Julia and I were born to be enemies. + +And now I suppose you've been waiting very impatiently to hear what I +am learning? + +I. Latin: Second Punic war. Hannibal and his forces pitched camp at +Lake Trasimenus last night. They prepared an ambuscade for the Romans, +and a battle took place at the fourth watch this morning. Romans in +retreat. + +II. French: 24 pages of the Three Musketeers and third conjugation, +irregular verbs. + +III. Geometry: Finished cylinders; now doing cones. + +IV. English: Studying exposition. My style improves daily in +clearness and brevity. + +V. Physiology: Reached the digestive system. Bile and the pancreas +next time. Yours, on the way to being educated, + + Jerusha Abbott + +PS. I hope you never touch alcohol, Daddy? It does dreadful things to +your liver. + + + + + Wednesday + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +I've changed my name. + +I'm still 'Jerusha' in the catalogue, but I'm 'Judy' everywhere else. +It's really too bad, isn't it, to have to give yourself the only pet +name you ever had? I didn't quite make up the Judy though. That's +what Freddy Perkins used to call me before he could talk plainly. + +I wish Mrs. Lippett would use a little more ingenuity about choosing +babies' names. She gets the last names out of the telephone +book--you'll find Abbott on the first page--and she picks the Christian +names up anywhere; she got Jerusha from a tombstone. I've always hated +it; but I rather like Judy. It's such a silly name. It belongs to the +kind of girl I'm not--a sweet little blue-eyed thing, petted and +spoiled by all the family, who romps her way through life without any +cares. Wouldn't it be nice to be like that? Whatever faults I may +have, no one can ever accuse me of having been spoiled by my family! +But it's great fun to pretend I've been. In the future please always +address me as Judy. + +Do you want to know something? I have three pairs of kid gloves. I've +had kid mittens before from the Christmas tree, but never real kid +gloves with five fingers. I take them out and try them on every little +while. It's all I can do not to wear them to classes. + +(Dinner bell. Goodbye.) + + + + + Friday + +What do you think, Daddy? The English instructor said that my last +paper shows an unusual amount of originality. She did, truly. Those +were her words. It doesn't seem possible, does it, considering the +eighteen years of training that I've had? The aim of the John Grier +Home (as you doubtless know and heartily approve of) is to turn the +ninety-seven orphans into ninety-seven twins. + +The unusual artistic ability which I exhibit was developed at an early +age through drawing chalk pictures of Mrs. Lippett on the woodshed door. + +I hope that I don't hurt your feelings when I criticize the home of my +youth? But you have the upper hand, you know, for if I become too +impertinent, you can always stop payment of your cheques. That isn't a +very polite thing to say--but you can't expect me to have any manners; +a foundling asylum isn't a young ladies' finishing school. + +You know, Daddy, it isn't the work that is going to be hard in college. +It's the play. Half the time I don't know what the girls are talking +about; their jokes seem to relate to a past that every one but me has +shared. I'm a foreigner in the world and I don't understand the +language. It's a miserable feeling. I've had it all my life. At the +high school the girls would stand in groups and just look at me. I was +queer and different and everybody knew it. I could FEEL 'John Grier +Home' written on my face. And then a few charitable ones would make a +point of coming up and saying something polite. I HATED EVERY ONE OF +THEM--the charitable ones most of all. + +Nobody here knows that I was brought up in an asylum. I told Sallie +McBride that my mother and father were dead, and that a kind old +gentleman was sending me to college which is entirely true so far as it +goes. I don't want you to think I am a coward, but I do want to be +like the other girls, and that Dreadful Home looming over my childhood +is the one great big difference. If I can turn my back on that and +shut out the remembrance, I think, I might be just as desirable as any +other girl. I don't believe there's any real, underneath difference, +do you? + +Anyway, Sallie McBride likes me! + + Yours ever, + Judy Abbott + (Nee Jerusha.) + + + + + Saturday morning + +I've just been reading this letter over and it sounds pretty +un-cheerful. But can't you guess that I have a special topic due Monday +morning and a review in geometry and a very sneezy cold? + + + + + Sunday + +I forgot to post this yesterday, so I will add an indignant postscript. +We had a bishop this morning, and WHAT DO YOU THINK HE SAID? + +'The most beneficent promise made us in the Bible is this, "The poor ye +have always with you." They were put here in order to keep us +charitable.' + +The poor, please observe, being a sort of useful domestic animal. If I +hadn't grown into such a perfect lady, I should have gone up after +service and told him what I thought. + + + + + 25th October + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +I'm in the basket-ball team and you ought to see the bruise on my left +shoulder. It's blue and mahogany with little streaks of orange. Julia +Pendleton tried for the team, but she didn't get in. Hooray! + +You see what a mean disposition I have. + +College gets nicer and nicer. I like the girls and the teachers and +the classes and the campus and the things to eat. We have ice-cream +twice a week and we never have corn-meal mush. + +You only wanted to hear from me once a month, didn't you? And I've +been peppering you with letters every few days! But I've been so +excited about all these new adventures that I MUST talk to somebody; +and you're the only one I know. Please excuse my exuberance; I'll +settle pretty soon. If my letters bore you, you can always toss them +into the wastebasket. I promise not to write another till the middle +of November. + + Yours most loquaciously, + Judy Abbott + + + + + + 15th November + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Listen to what I've learned to-day. + +The area of the convex surface of the frustum of a regular pyramid is +half the product of the sum of the perimeters of its bases by the +altitude of either of its trapezoids. + +It doesn't sound true, but it is--I can prove it! + +You've never heard about my clothes, have you, Daddy? Six dresses, all +new and beautiful and bought for me--not handed down from somebody +bigger. Perhaps you don't realize what a climax that marks in the +career of an orphan? You gave them to me, and I am very, very, VERY +much obliged. It's a fine thing to be educated--but nothing compared +to the dizzying experience of owning six new dresses. Miss Pritchard, +who is on the visiting committee, picked them out--not Mrs. Lippett, +thank goodness. I have an evening dress, pink mull over silk (I'm +perfectly beautiful in that), and a blue church dress, and a dinner +dress of red veiling with Oriental trimming (makes me look like a +Gipsy), and another of rose-coloured challis, and a grey street suit, +and an every-day dress for classes. That wouldn't be an awfully big +wardrobe for Julia Rutledge Pendleton, perhaps, but for Jerusha +Abbott--Oh, my! + +I suppose you're thinking now what a frivolous, shallow little beast +she is, and what a waste of money to educate a girl? + +But, Daddy, if you'd been dressed in checked ginghams all your life, +you'd appreciate how I feel. And when I started to the high school, I +entered upon another period even worse than the checked ginghams. + +The poor box. + +You can't know how I dreaded appearing in school in those miserable +poor-box dresses. I was perfectly sure to be put down in class next to +the girl who first owned my dress, and she would whisper and giggle and +point it out to the others. The bitterness of wearing your enemies' +cast-off clothes eats into your soul. If I wore silk stockings for the +rest of my life, I don't believe I could obliterate the scar. + + LATEST WAR BULLETIN! + + News from the Scene of Action. + +At the fourth watch on Thursday the 13th of November, Hannibal routed +the advance guard of the Romans and led the Carthaginian forces over +the mountains into the plains of Casilinum. A cohort of light armed +Numidians engaged the infantry of Quintus Fabius Maximus. Two battles +and light skirmishing. Romans repulsed with heavy losses. + + I have the honour of being, + Your special correspondent from the front, + J. Abbott + + +PS. I know I'm not to expect any letters in return, and I've been +warned not to bother you with questions, but tell me, Daddy, just this +once--are you awfully old or just a little old? And are you perfectly +bald or just a little bald? It is very difficult thinking about you in +the abstract like a theorem in geometry. + +Given a tall rich man who hates girls, but is very generous to one +quite impertinent girl, what does he look like? + +R.S.V.P. + + + + + 19th December + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +You never answered my question and it was very important. + + ARE YOU BALD? + + +I have it planned exactly what you look like--very +satisfactorily--until I reach the top of your head, and then I AM +stuck. I can't decide whether you have white hair or black hair or +sort of sprinkly grey hair or maybe none at all. + +Here is your portrait: + +But the problem is, shall I add some hair? + +Would you like to know what colour your eyes are? They're grey, and +your eyebrows stick out like a porch roof (beetling, they're called in +novels), and your mouth is a straight line with a tendency to turn down +at the corners. Oh, you see, I know! You're a snappy old thing with a +temper. + + (Chapel bell.) + + + 9.45 p.m. + +I have a new unbreakable rule: never, never to study at night no +matter how many written reviews are coming in the morning. Instead, I +read just plain books--I have to, you know, because there are eighteen +blank years behind me. You wouldn't believe, Daddy, what an abyss of +ignorance my mind is; I am just realizing the depths myself. The +things that most girls with a properly assorted family and a home and +friends and a library know by absorption, I have never heard of. For +example: + +I never read Mother Goose or David Copperfield or Ivanhoe or Cinderella +or Blue Beard or Robinson Crusoe or Jane Eyre or Alice in Wonderland or +a word of Rudyard Kipling. I didn't know that Henry the Eighth was +married more than once or that Shelley was a poet. I didn't know that +people used to be monkeys and that the Garden of Eden was a beautiful +myth. I didn't know that R. L. S. stood for Robert Louis Stevenson or +that George Eliot was a lady. I had never seen a picture of the 'Mona +Lisa' and (it's true but you won't believe it) I had never heard of +Sherlock Holmes. + +Now, I know all of these things and a lot of others besides, but you +can see how much I need to catch up. And oh, but it's fun! I look +forward all day to evening, and then I put an 'engaged' on the door and +get into my nice red bath robe and furry slippers and pile all the +cushions behind me on the couch, and light the brass student lamp at my +elbow, and read and read and read one book isn't enough. I have four +going at once. Just now, they're Tennyson's poems and Vanity Fair and +Kipling's Plain Tales and--don't laugh--Little Women. I find that I am +the only girl in college who wasn't brought up on Little Women. I +haven't told anybody though (that WOULD stamp me as queer). I just +quietly went and bought it with $1.12 of my last month's allowance; and +the next time somebody mentions pickled limes, I'll know what she is +talking about! + +(Ten o'clock bell. This is a very interrupted letter.) + + + Saturday + +Sir, + +I have the honour to report fresh explorations in the field of +geometry. On Friday last we abandoned our former works in +parallelopipeds and proceeded to truncated prisms. We are finding the +road rough and very uphill. + + + Sunday + +The Christmas holidays begin next week and the trunks are up. The +corridors are so filled up that you can hardly get through, and +everybody is so bubbling over with excitement that studying is getting +left out. I'm going to have a beautiful time in vacation; there's +another Freshman who lives in Texas staying behind, and we are planning +to take long walks and if there's any ice--learn to skate. Then there +is still the whole library to be read--and three empty weeks to do it +in! + +Goodbye, Daddy, I hope that you are feeling as happy as I am. + + Yours ever, + Judy + +PS. Don't forget to answer my question. If you don't want the trouble +of writing, have your secretary telegraph. He can just say: + + Mr. Smith is quite bald, + + or + + Mr. Smith is not bald, + + or + + Mr. Smith has white hair. + + +And you can deduct the twenty-five cents out of my allowance. + +Goodbye till January--and a merry Christmas! + + + + + Towards the end of + the Christmas vacation. + Exact date unknown + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Is it snowing where you are? All the world that I see from my tower is +draped in white and the flakes are coming down as big as pop-corns. +It's late afternoon--the sun is just setting (a cold yellow colour) +behind some colder violet hills, and I am up in my window seat using +the last light to write to you. + +Your five gold pieces were a surprise! I'm not used to receiving +Christmas presents. You have already given me such lots of +things--everything I have, you know--that I don't quite feel that I +deserve extras. But I like them just the same. Do you want to know +what I bought with my money? + +I. A silver watch in a leather case to wear on my wrist and get me to +recitations in time. + +II. Matthew Arnold's poems. + +III. A hot water bottle. + +IV. A steamer rug. (My tower is cold.) + +V. Five hundred sheets of yellow manuscript paper. (I'm going to +commence being an author pretty soon.) + +VI. A dictionary of synonyms. (To enlarge the author's vocabulary.) + +VII. (I don't much like to confess this last item, but I will.) A pair +of silk stockings. + +And now, Daddy, never say I don't tell all! + +It was a very low motive, if you must know it, that prompted the silk +stockings. Julia Pendleton comes into my room to do geometry, and she +sits cross-legged on the couch and wears silk stockings every night. +But just wait--as soon as she gets back from vacation I shall go in and +sit on her couch in my silk stockings. You see, Daddy, the miserable +creature that I am but at least I'm honest; and you knew already, from +my asylum record, that I wasn't perfect, didn't you? + +To recapitulate (that's the way the English instructor begins every +other sentence), I am very much obliged for my seven presents. I'm +pretending to myself that they came in a box from my family in +California. The watch is from father, the rug from mother, the hot +water bottle from grandmother who is always worrying for fear I shall +catch cold in this climate--and the yellow paper from my little brother +Harry. My sister Isabel gave me the silk stockings, and Aunt Susan the +Matthew Arnold poems; Uncle Harry (little Harry is named after him) +gave me the dictionary. He wanted to send chocolates, but I insisted +on synonyms. + +You don't object, do you, to playing the part of a composite family? + +And now, shall I tell you about my vacation, or are you only interested +in my education as such? I hope you appreciate the delicate shade of +meaning in 'as such'. It is the latest addition to my vocabulary. + +The girl from Texas is named Leonora Fenton. (Almost as funny as +Jerusha, isn't it?) I like her, but not so much as Sallie McBride; I +shall never like any one so much as Sallie--except you. I must always +like you the best of all, because you're my whole family rolled into +one. Leonora and I and two Sophomores have walked 'cross country every +pleasant day and explored the whole neighbourhood, dressed in short +skirts and knit jackets and caps, and carrying shiny sticks to whack +things with. Once we walked into town--four miles--and stopped at a +restaurant where the college girls go for dinner. Broiled lobster (35 +cents), and for dessert, buckwheat cakes and maple syrup (15 cents). +Nourishing and cheap. + +It was such a lark! Especially for me, because it was so awfully +different from the asylum--I feel like an escaped convict every time I +leave the campus. Before I thought, I started to tell the others what +an experience I was having. The cat was almost out of the bag when I +grabbed it by its tail and pulled it back. It's awfully hard for me +not to tell everything I know. I'm a very confiding soul by nature; if +I didn't have you to tell things to, I'd burst. + +We had a molasses candy pull last Friday evening, given by the house +matron of Fergussen to the left-behinds in the other halls. There were +twenty-two of us altogether, Freshmen and Sophomores and juniors and +Seniors all united in amicable accord. The kitchen is huge, with +copper pots and kettles hanging in rows on the stone wall--the littlest +casserole among them about the size of a wash boiler. Four hundred +girls live in Fergussen. The chef, in a white cap and apron, fetched +out twenty-two other white caps and aprons--I can't imagine where he +got so many--and we all turned ourselves into cooks. + +It was great fun, though I have seen better candy. When it was finally +finished, and ourselves and the kitchen and the door-knobs all +thoroughly sticky, we organized a procession and still in our caps and +aprons, each carrying a big fork or spoon or frying pan, we marched +through the empty corridors to the officers' parlour, where +half-a-dozen professors and instructors were passing a tranquil +evening. We serenaded them with college songs and offered +refreshments. They accepted politely but dubiously. We left them +sucking chunks of molasses candy, sticky and speechless. + +So you see, Daddy, my education progresses! + +Don't you really think that I ought to be an artist instead of an +author? + +Vacation will be over in two days and I shall be glad to see the girls +again. My tower is just a trifle lonely; when nine people occupy a +house that was built for four hundred, they do rattle around a bit. + +Eleven pages--poor Daddy, you must be tired! I meant this to be just a +short little thank-you note--but when I get started I seem to have a +ready pen. + +Goodbye, and thank you for thinking of me--I should be perfectly happy +except for one little threatening cloud on the horizon. Examinations +come in February. + + Yours with love, + Judy + +PS. Maybe it isn't proper to send love? If it isn't, please excuse. +But I must love somebody and there's only you and Mrs. Lippett to +choose between, so you see--you'll HAVE to put up with it, Daddy dear, +because I can't love her. + + + + + On the Eve + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +You should see the way this college is studying! We've forgotten we +ever had a vacation. Fifty-seven irregular verbs have I introduced to +my brain in the past four days--I'm only hoping they'll stay till after +examinations. + +Some of the girls sell their text-books when they're through with them, +but I intend to keep mine. Then after I've graduated I shall have my +whole education in a row in the bookcase, and when I need to use any +detail, I can turn to it without the slightest hesitation. So much +easier and more accurate than trying to keep it in your head. + +Julia Pendleton dropped in this evening to pay a social call, and +stayed a solid hour. She got started on the subject of family, and I +COULDN'T switch her off. She wanted to know what my mother's maiden +name was--did you ever hear such an impertinent question to ask of a +person from a foundling asylum? I didn't have the courage to say I +didn't know, so I just miserably plumped on the first name I could +think of, and that was Montgomery. Then she wanted to know whether I +belonged to the Massachusetts Montgomerys or the Virginia Montgomerys. + +Her mother was a Rutherford. The family came over in the ark, and were +connected by marriage with Henry the VIII. On her father's side they +date back further than Adam. On the topmost branches of her family +tree there's a superior breed of monkeys with very fine silky hair and +extra long tails. + +I meant to write you a nice, cheerful, entertaining letter tonight, but +I'm too sleepy--and scared. The Freshman's lot is not a happy one. + + Yours, about to be examined, + Judy Abbott + + + + + Sunday + +Dearest Daddy-Long-Legs, + +I have some awful, awful, awful news to tell you, but I won't begin +with it; I'll try to get you in a good humour first. + +Jerusha Abbott has commenced to be an author. A poem entitled, 'From +my Tower', appears in the February Monthly--on the first page, which is +a very great honour for a Freshman. My English instructor stopped me +on the way out from chapel last night, and said it was a charming piece +of work except for the sixth line, which had too many feet. I will +send you a copy in case you care to read it. + +Let me see if I can't think of something else pleasant-- Oh, yes! I'm +learning to skate, and can glide about quite respectably all by myself. +Also I've learned how to slide down a rope from the roof of the +gymnasium, and I can vault a bar three feet and six inches high--I hope +shortly to pull up to four feet. + +We had a very inspiring sermon this morning preached by the Bishop of +Alabama. His text was: 'Judge not that ye be not judged.' It was +about the necessity of overlooking mistakes in others, and not +discouraging people by harsh judgments. I wish you might have heard it. + +This is the sunniest, most blinding winter afternoon, with icicles +dripping from the fir trees and all the world bending under a weight of +snow--except me, and I'm bending under a weight of sorrow. + +Now for the news--courage, Judy!--you must tell. + +Are you SURELY in a good humour? I failed in mathematics and Latin +prose. I am tutoring in them, and will take another examination next +month. I'm sorry if you're disappointed, but otherwise I don't care a +bit because I've learned such a lot of things not mentioned in the +catalogue. I've read seventeen novels and bushels of poetry--really +necessary novels like Vanity Fair and Richard Feverel and Alice in +Wonderland. Also Emerson's Essays and Lockhart's Life of Scott and the +first volume of Gibbon's Roman Empire and half of Benvenuto Cellini's +Life--wasn't he entertaining? He used to saunter out and casually kill +a man before breakfast. + +So you see, Daddy, I'm much more intelligent than if I'd just stuck to +Latin. Will you forgive me this once if I promise never to fail again? + + Yours in sackcloth, + Judy + + + + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +This is an extra letter in the middle of the month because I'm rather +lonely tonight. It's awfully stormy. All the lights are out on the +campus, but I drank black coffee and I can't go to sleep. + +I had a supper party this evening consisting of Sallie and Julia and +Leonora Fenton--and sardines and toasted muffins and salad and fudge +and coffee. Julia said she'd had a good time, but Sallie stayed to +help wash the dishes. + + +I might, very usefully, put some time on Latin tonight but, there's no +doubt about it, I'm a very languid Latin scholar. We've finished Livy +and De Senectute and are now engaged with De Amicitia (pronounced Damn +Icitia). + +Should you mind, just for a little while, pretending you are my +grandmother? Sallie has one and Julia and Leonora each two, and they +were all comparing them tonight. I can't think of anything I'd rather +have; it's such a respectable relationship. So, if you really don't +object--When I went into town yesterday, I saw the sweetest cap of +Cluny lace trimmed with lavender ribbon. I am going to make you a +present of it on your eighty-third birthday. + +! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! + +That's the clock in the chapel tower striking twelve. I believe I am +sleepy after all. + + Good night, Granny. + I love you dearly. + Judy + + + + + + The Ides of March + +Dear D.-L.-L., + +I am studying Latin prose composition. I have been studying it. I +shall be studying it. I shall be about to have been studying it. My +re-examination comes the 7th hour next Tuesday, and I am going to pass +or BUST. So you may expect to hear from me next, whole and happy and +free from conditions, or in fragments. + +I will write a respectable letter when it's over. Tonight I have a +pressing engagement with the Ablative Absolute. + + Yours--in evident haste + J. A. + + + + + 26th March + +Mr. D.-L.-L. Smith, + +SIR: You never answer any questions; you never show the slightest +interest in anything I do. You are probably the horridest one of all +those horrid Trustees, and the reason you are educating me is, not +because you care a bit about me, but from a sense of Duty. + +I don't know a single thing about you. I don't even know your name. +It is very uninspiring writing to a Thing. I haven't a doubt but that +you throw my letters into the waste-basket without reading them. +Hereafter I shall write only about work. + +My re-examinations in Latin and geometry came last week. I passed them +both and am now free from conditions. + + Yours truly, + Jerusha Abbott + + + + + 2nd April + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +I am a BEAST. + +Please forget about that dreadful letter I sent you last week--I was +feeling terribly lonely and miserable and sore-throaty the night I +wrote. I didn't know it, but I was just sickening for tonsillitis and +grippe and lots of things mixed. I'm in the infirmary now, and have +been here for six days; this is the first time they would let me sit up +and have a pen and paper. The head nurse is very bossy. But I've been +thinking about it all the time and I shan't get well until you forgive +me. + +Here is a picture of the way I look, with a bandage tied around my head +in rabbit's ears. + +Doesn't that arouse your sympathy? I am having sublingual gland +swelling. And I've been studying physiology all the year without ever +hearing of sublingual glands. How futile a thing is education! + +I can't write any more; I get rather shaky when I sit up too long. +Please forgive me for being impertinent and ungrateful. I was badly +brought up. + + Yours with love, + Judy Abbott + + + + + THE INFIRMARY + 4th April + +Dearest Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Yesterday evening just towards dark, when I was sitting up in bed +looking out at the rain and feeling awfully bored with life in a great +institution, the nurse appeared with a long white box addressed to me, +and filled with the LOVELIEST pink rosebuds. And much nicer still, it +contained a card with a very polite message written in a funny little +uphill back hand (but one which shows a great deal of character). Thank +you, Daddy, a thousand times. Your flowers make the first real, true +present I ever received in my life. If you want to know what a baby I +am I lay down and cried because I was so happy. + +Now that I am sure you read my letters, I'll make them much more +interesting, so they'll be worth keeping in a safe with red tape around +them--only please take out that dreadful one and burn it up. I'd hate +to think that you ever read it over. + +Thank you for making a very sick, cross, miserable Freshman cheerful. +Probably you have lots of loving family and friends, and you don't know +what it feels like to be alone. But I do. + +Goodbye--I'll promise never to be horrid again, because now I know +you're a real person; also I'll promise never to bother you with any +more questions. + +Do you still hate girls? + + Yours for ever, + Judy + + + + + 8th hour, Monday + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +I hope you aren't the Trustee who sat on the toad? It went off--I was +told--with quite a pop, so probably he was a fatter Trustee. + +Do you remember the little dugout places with gratings over them by the +laundry windows in the John Grier Home? Every spring when the hoptoad +season opened we used to form a collection of toads and keep them in +those window holes; and occasionally they would spill over into the +laundry, causing a very pleasurable commotion on wash days. We were +severely punished for our activities in this direction, but in spite of +all discouragement the toads would collect. + +And one day--well, I won't bore you with particulars--but somehow, one +of the fattest, biggest, JUCIEST toads got into one of those big +leather arm chairs in the Trustees' room, and that afternoon at the +Trustees' meeting--But I dare say you were there and recall the rest? + +Looking back dispassionately after a period of time, I will say that +punishment was merited, and--if I remember rightly--adequate. + +I don't know why I am in such a reminiscent mood except that spring and +the reappearance of toads always awakens the old acquisitive instinct. +The only thing that keeps me from starting a collection is the fact +that no rule exists against it. + + + After chapel, Thursday + +What do you think is my favourite book? Just now, I mean; I change +every three days. Wuthering Heights. Emily Bronte was quite young +when she wrote it, and had never been outside of Haworth churchyard. +She had never known any men in her life; how COULD she imagine a man +like Heathcliffe? + +I couldn't do it, and I'm quite young and never outside the John Grier +Asylum--I've had every chance in the world. Sometimes a dreadful fear +comes over me that I'm not a genius. Will you be awfully disappointed, +Daddy, if I don't turn out to be a great author? In the spring when +everything is so beautiful and green and budding, I feel like turning +my back on lessons, and running away to play with the weather. There +are such lots of adventures out in the fields! It's much more +entertaining to live books than to write them. + +Ow ! ! ! ! ! ! + +That was a shriek which brought Sallie and Julia and (for a disgusted +moment) the Senior from across the hall. It was caused by a centipede +like this: only worse. Just as I had finished the last sentence and +was thinking what to say next--plump!--it fell off the ceiling and +landed at my side. I tipped two cups off the tea table in trying to +get away. Sallie whacked it with the back of my hair brush--which I +shall never be able to use again--and killed the front end, but the +rear fifty feet ran under the bureau and escaped. + +This dormitory, owing to its age and ivy-covered walls, is full of +centipedes. They are dreadful creatures. I'd rather find a tiger +under the bed. + + + Friday, 9.30 p.m. + +Such a lot of troubles! I didn't hear the rising bell this morning, +then I broke my shoestring while I was hurrying to dress and dropped my +collar button down my neck. I was late for breakfast and also for +first-hour recitation. I forgot to take any blotting paper and my +fountain pen leaked. In trigonometry the Professor and I had a +disagreement touching a little matter of logarithms. On looking it up, +I find that she was right. We had mutton stew and pie-plant for +lunch--hate 'em both; they taste like the asylum. The post brought me +nothing but bills (though I must say that I never do get anything else; +my family are not the kind that write). In English class this +afternoon we had an unexpected written lesson. This was it: + + I asked no other thing, + No other was denied. + I offered Being for it; + The mighty merchant smiled. + + Brazil? He twirled a button + Without a glance my way: + But, madam, is there nothing else + That we can show today? + + +That is a poem. I don't know who wrote it or what it means. It was +simply printed out on the blackboard when we arrived and we were +ordered to comment upon it. When I read the first verse I thought I +had an idea--The Mighty Merchant was a divinity who distributes +blessings in return for virtuous deeds--but when I got to the second +verse and found him twirling a button, it seemed a blasphemous +supposition, and I hastily changed my mind. The rest of the class was +in the same predicament; and there we sat for three-quarters of an hour +with blank paper and equally blank minds. Getting an education is an +awfully wearing process! + +But this didn't end the day. There's worse to come. + +It rained so we couldn't play golf, but had to go to gymnasium instead. +The girl next to me banged my elbow with an Indian club. I got home to +find that the box with my new blue spring dress had come, and the skirt +was so tight that I couldn't sit down. Friday is sweeping day, and the +maid had mixed all the papers on my desk. We had tombstone for dessert +(milk and gelatin flavoured with vanilla). We were kept in chapel +twenty minutes later than usual to listen to a speech about womanly +women. And then--just as I was settling down with a sigh of +well-earned relief to The Portrait of a Lady, a girl named Ackerly, a +dough-faced, deadly, unintermittently stupid girl, who sits next to me +in Latin because her name begins with A (I wish Mrs. Lippett had named +me Zabriski), came to ask if Monday's lesson commenced at paragraph 69 +or 70, and stayed ONE HOUR. She has just gone. + +Did you ever hear of such a discouraging series of events? It isn't +the big troubles in life that require character. Anybody can rise to a +crisis and face a crushing tragedy with courage, but to meet the petty +hazards of the day with a laugh--I really think that requires SPIRIT. + +It's the kind of character that I am going to develop. I am going to +pretend that all life is just a game which I must play as skilfully and +fairly as I can. If I lose, I am going to shrug my shoulders and +laugh--also if I win. + +Anyway, I am going to be a sport. You will never hear me complain +again, Daddy dear, because Julia wears silk stockings and centipedes +drop off the wall. + + Yours ever, + Judy + +Answer soon. + + + + + 27th May + +Daddy-Long-Legs, Esq. + +DEAR SIR: I am in receipt of a letter from Mrs. Lippett. She hopes +that I am doing well in deportment and studies. Since I probably have +no place to go this summer, she will let me come back to the asylum and +work for my board until college opens. + +I HATE THE JOHN GRIER HOME. + +I'd rather die than go back. + + Yours most truthfully, + Jerusha Abbott + + + +Cher Daddy-Jambes-Longes, + +Vous etes un brick! + +Je suis tres heureuse about the farm, parceque je n'ai jamais been on a +farm dans ma vie and I'd hate to retourner chez John Grier, et wash +dishes tout l'ete. There would be danger of quelque chose affreuse +happening, parceque j'ai perdue ma humilite d'autre fois et j'ai peur +that I would just break out quelque jour et smash every cup and saucer +dans la maison. + +Pardon brievete et paper. Je ne peux pas send des mes nouvelles +parceque je suis dans French class et j'ai peur que Monsieur le +Professeur is going to call on me tout de suite. + +He did! + + Au revoir, + je vous aime beaucoup. + Judy + + + + + 30th May + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Did you ever see this campus? (That is merely a rhetorical question. +Don't let it annoy you.) It is a heavenly spot in May. All the shrubs +are in blossom and the trees are the loveliest young green--even the +old pines look fresh and new. The grass is dotted with yellow +dandelions and hundreds of girls in blue and white and pink dresses. +Everybody is joyous and carefree, for vacation's coming, and with that +to look forward to, examinations don't count. + +Isn't that a happy frame of mind to be in? And oh, Daddy! I'm the +happiest of all! Because I'm not in the asylum any more; and I'm not +anybody's nursemaid or typewriter or bookkeeper (I should have been, +you know, except for you). + +I'm sorry now for all my past badnesses. + +I'm sorry I was ever impertinent to Mrs. Lippett. + +I'm sorry I ever slapped Freddie Perkins. + +I'm sorry I ever filled the sugar bowl with salt. + +I'm sorry I ever made faces behind the Trustees' backs. + +I'm going to be good and sweet and kind to everybody because I'm so +happy. And this summer I'm going to write and write and write and +begin to be a great author. Isn't that an exalted stand to take? Oh, +I'm developing a beautiful character! It droops a bit under cold and +frost, but it does grow fast when the sun shines. + +That's the way with everybody. I don't agree with the theory that +adversity and sorrow and disappointment develop moral strength. The +happy people are the ones who are bubbling over with kindliness. I +have no faith in misanthropes. (Fine word! Just learned it.) You are +not a misanthrope are you, Daddy? + +I started to tell you about the campus. I wish you'd come for a little +visit and let me walk you about and say: + +'That is the library. This is the gas plant, Daddy dear. The Gothic +building on your left is the gymnasium, and the Tudor Romanesque beside +it is the new infirmary.' + +Oh, I'm fine at showing people about. I've done it all my life at the +asylum, and I've been doing it all day here. I have honestly. + +And a Man, too! + +That's a great experience. I never talked to a man before (except +occasional Trustees, and they don't count). Pardon, Daddy, I don't mean +to hurt your feelings when I abuse Trustees. I don't consider that you +really belong among them. You just tumbled on to the Board by chance. +The Trustee, as such, is fat and pompous and benevolent. He pats one +on the head and wears a gold watch chain. + +That looks like a June bug, but is meant to be a portrait of any +Trustee except you. + +However--to resume: + +I have been walking and talking and having tea with a man. And with a +very superior man--with Mr. Jervis Pendleton of the House of Julia; her +uncle, in short (in long, perhaps I ought to say; he's as tall as you.) +Being in town on business, he decided to run out to the college and +call on his niece. He's her father's youngest brother, but she doesn't +know him very intimately. It seems he glanced at her when she was a +baby, decided he didn't like her, and has never noticed her since. + +Anyway, there he was, sitting in the reception room very proper with +his hat and stick and gloves beside him; and Julia and Sallie with +seventh-hour recitations that they couldn't cut. So Julia dashed into +my room and begged me to walk him about the campus and then deliver him +to her when the seventh hour was over. I said I would, obligingly but +unenthusiastically, because I don't care much for Pendletons. + +But he turned out to be a sweet lamb. He's a real human being--not a +Pendleton at all. We had a beautiful time; I've longed for an uncle +ever since. Do you mind pretending you're my uncle? I believe they're +superior to grandmothers. + +Mr. Pendleton reminded me a little of you, Daddy, as you were twenty +years ago. You see I know you intimately, even if we haven't ever met! + +He's tall and thinnish with a dark face all over lines, and the +funniest underneath smile that never quite comes through but just +wrinkles up the corners of his mouth. And he has a way of making you +feel right off as though you'd known him a long time. He's very +companionable. + +We walked all over the campus from the quadrangle to the athletic +grounds; then he said he felt weak and must have some tea. He proposed +that we go to College Inn--it's just off the campus by the pine walk. +I said we ought to go back for Julia and Sallie, but he said he didn't +like to have his nieces drink too much tea; it made them nervous. So +we just ran away and had tea and muffins and marmalade and ice-cream +and cake at a nice little table out on the balcony. The inn was quite +conveniently empty, this being the end of the month and allowances low. + +We had the jolliest time! But he had to run for his train the minute +he got back and he barely saw Julia at all. She was furious with me +for taking him off; it seems he's an unusually rich and desirable +uncle. It relieved my mind to find he was rich, for the tea and things +cost sixty cents apiece. + +This morning (it's Monday now) three boxes of chocolates came by +express for Julia and Sallie and me. What do you think of that? To be +getting candy from a man! + +I begin to feel like a girl instead of a foundling. + +I wish you'd come and have tea some day and let me see if I like you. +But wouldn't it be dreadful if I didn't? However, I know I should. + +Bien! I make you my compliments. + + 'Jamais je ne t'oublierai.' + Judy + + +PS. I looked in the glass this morning and found a perfectly new +dimple that I'd never seen before. It's very curious. Where do you +suppose it came from? + + + + + 9th June + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Happy day! I've just finished my last examination Physiology. And now: + +Three months on a farm! + +I don't know what kind of a thing a farm is. I've never been on one in +my life. I've never even looked at one (except from the car window), +but I know I'm going to love it, and I'm going to love being FREE. + +I am not used even yet to being outside the John Grier Home. Whenever +I think of it excited little thrills chase up and down my back. I feel +as though I must run faster and faster and keep looking over my +shoulder to make sure that Mrs. Lippett isn't after me with her arm +stretched out to grab me back. + +I don't have to mind any one this summer, do I? + +Your nominal authority doesn't annoy me in the least; you are too far +away to do any harm. Mrs. Lippett is dead for ever, so far as I am +concerned, and the Semples aren't expected to overlook my moral +welfare, are they? No, I am sure not. I am entirely grown up. Hooray! + +I leave you now to pack a trunk, and three boxes of teakettles and +dishes and sofa cushions and books. + + Yours ever, + Judy + + +PS. Here is my physiology exam. Do you think you could have passed? + + + + + LOCK WILLOW FARM, + Saturday night + +Dearest Daddy-Long-Legs, + +I've only just come and I'm not unpacked, but I can't wait to tell you +how much I like farms. This is a heavenly, heavenly, HEAVENLY spot! +The house is square like this: And OLD. A hundred years or so. It +has a veranda on the side which I can't draw and a sweet porch in +front. The picture really doesn't do it justice--those things that +look like feather dusters are maple trees, and the prickly ones that +border the drive are murmuring pines and hemlocks. It stands on the +top of a hill and looks way off over miles of green meadows to another +line of hills. + +That is the way Connecticut goes, in a series of Marcelle waves; and +Lock Willow Farm is just on the crest of one wave. The barns used to +be across the road where they obstructed the view, but a kind flash of +lightning came from heaven and burnt them down. + +The people are Mr. and Mrs. Semple and a hired girl and two hired men. +The hired people eat in the kitchen, and the Semples and Judy in the +dining-room. We had ham and eggs and biscuits and honey and jelly-cake +and pie and pickles and cheese and tea for supper--and a great deal of +conversation. I have never been so entertaining in my life; everything +I say appears to be funny. I suppose it is, because I've never been in +the country before, and my questions are backed by an all-inclusive +ignorance. + +The room marked with a cross is not where the murder was committed, but +the one that I occupy. It's big and square and empty, with adorable +old-fashioned furniture and windows that have to be propped up on +sticks and green shades trimmed with gold that fall down if you touch +them. And a big square mahogany table--I'm going to spend the summer +with my elbows spread out on it, writing a novel. + +Oh, Daddy, I'm so excited! I can't wait till daylight to explore. +It's 8.30 now, and I am about to blow out my candle and try to go to +sleep. We rise at five. Did you ever know such fun? I can't believe +this is really Judy. You and the Good Lord give me more than I +deserve. I must be a very, very, VERY good person to pay. I'm going +to be. You'll see. + + Good night, + Judy + + +PS. You should hear the frogs sing and the little pigs squeal and you +should see the new moon! I saw it over my right shoulder. + + + + + + LOCK WILLOW, + 12th July + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +How did your secretary come to know about Lock Willow? (That isn't a +rhetorical question. I am awfully curious to know.) For listen to +this: Mr. Jervis Pendleton used to own this farm, but now he has given +it to Mrs. Semple who was his old nurse. Did you ever hear of such a +funny coincidence? She still calls him 'Master Jervie' and talks about +what a sweet little boy he used to be. She has one of his baby curls +put away in a box, and it is red--or at least reddish! + +Since she discovered that I know him, I have risen very much in her +opinion. Knowing a member of the Pendleton family is the best +introduction one can have at Lock Willow. And the cream of the whole +family is Master Jervis--I am pleased to say that Julia belongs to an +inferior branch. + +The farm gets more and more entertaining. I rode on a hay wagon +yesterday. We have three big pigs and nine little piglets, and you +should see them eat. They are pigs! We've oceans of little baby +chickens and ducks and turkeys and guinea fowls. You must be mad to +live in a city when you might live on a farm. + +It is my daily business to hunt the eggs. I fell off a beam in the +barn loft yesterday, while I was trying to crawl over to a nest that +the black hen has stolen. And when I came in with a scratched knee, +Mrs. Semple bound it up with witch-hazel, murmuring all the time, +'Dear! Dear! It seems only yesterday that Master Jervie fell off that +very same beam and scratched this very same knee.' + +The scenery around here is perfectly beautiful. There's a valley and a +river and a lot of wooded hills, and way in the distance a tall blue +mountain that simply melts in your mouth. + +We churn twice a week; and we keep the cream in the spring house which +is made of stone with the brook running underneath. Some of the +farmers around here have a separator, but we don't care for these +new-fashioned ideas. It may be a little harder to separate the cream +in pans, but it's sufficiently better to pay. We have six calves; and +I've chosen the names for all of them. + +1. Sylvia, because she was born in the woods. + +2. Lesbia, after the Lesbia in Catullus. + +3. Sallie. + +4. Julia--a spotted, nondescript animal. + +5. Judy, after me. + +6. Daddy-Long-Legs. You don't mind, do you, Daddy? He's pure Jersey +and has a sweet disposition. He looks like this--you can see how +appropriate the name is. + +I haven't had time yet to begin my immortal novel; the farm keeps me +too busy. + + Yours always, + Judy + + +PS. I've learned to make doughnuts. + +PS. (2) If you are thinking of raising chickens, let me recommend Buff +Orpingtons. They haven't any pin feathers. + +PS. (3) I wish I could send you a pat of the nice, fresh butter I +churned yesterday. I'm a fine dairy-maid! + +PS. (4) This is a picture of Miss Jerusha Abbott, the future great +author, driving home the cows. + + + + Sunday + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Isn't it funny? I started to write to you yesterday afternoon, but as +far as I got was the heading, 'Dear Daddy-Long-Legs', and then I +remembered I'd promised to pick some blackberries for supper, so I went +off and left the sheet lying on the table, and when I came back today, +what do you think I found sitting in the middle of the page? A real +true Daddy-Long-Legs! + +I picked him up very gently by one leg, and dropped him out of the +window. I wouldn't hurt one of them for the world. They always remind +me of you. + +We hitched up the spring wagon this morning and drove to the Centre to +church. It's a sweet little white frame church with a spire and three +Doric columns in front (or maybe Ionic--I always get them mixed). + +A nice sleepy sermon with everybody drowsily waving palm-leaf fans, and +the only sound, aside from the minister, the buzzing of locusts in the +trees outside. I didn't wake up till I found myself on my feet singing +the hymn, and then I was awfully sorry I hadn't listened to the sermon; +I should like to know more of the psychology of a man who would pick +out such a hymn. This was it: + + Come, leave your sports and earthly toys + And join me in celestial joys. + Or else, dear friend, a long farewell. + I leave you now to sink to hell. + + +I find that it isn't safe to discuss religion with the Semples. Their +God (whom they have inherited intact from their remote Puritan +ancestors) is a narrow, irrational, unjust, mean, revengeful, bigoted +Person. Thank heaven I don't inherit God from anybody! I am free to +make mine up as I wish Him. He's kind and sympathetic and imaginative +and forgiving and understanding--and He has a sense of humour. + +I like the Semples immensely; their practice is so superior to their +theory. They are better than their own God. I told them so--and they +are horribly troubled. They think I am blasphemous--and I think they +are! We've dropped theology from our conversation. + +This is Sunday afternoon. + +Amasai (hired man) in a purple tie and some bright yellow buckskin +gloves, very red and shaved, has just driven off with Carrie (hired +girl) in a big hat trimmed with red roses and a blue muslin dress and +her hair curled as tight as it will curl. Amasai spent all the morning +washing the buggy; and Carrie stayed home from church ostensibly to +cook the dinner, but really to iron the muslin dress. + +In two minutes more when this letter is finished I am going to settle +down to a book which I found in the attic. It's entitled, On the +Trail, and sprawled across the front page in a funny little-boy hand: + + Jervis Pendleton + if this book should ever roam, + Box its ears and send it home. + + +He spent the summer here once after he had been ill, when he was about +eleven years old; and he left On the Trail behind. It looks well +read--the marks of his grimy little hands are frequent! Also in a +corner of the attic there is a water wheel and a windmill and some bows +and arrows. Mrs. Semple talks so constantly about him that I begin to +believe he really lives--not a grown man with a silk hat and walking +stick, but a nice, dirty, tousle-headed boy who clatters up the stairs +with an awful racket, and leaves the screen doors open, and is always +asking for cookies. (And getting them, too, if I know Mrs. Semple!) He +seems to have been an adventurous little soul--and brave and truthful. +I'm sorry to think he is a Pendleton; he was meant for something better. + +We're going to begin threshing oats tomorrow; a steam engine is coming +and three extra men. + +It grieves me to tell you that Buttercup (the spotted cow with one +horn, Mother of Lesbia) has done a disgraceful thing. She got into the +orchard Friday evening and ate apples under the trees, and ate and ate +until they went to her head. For two days she has been perfectly dead +drunk! That is the truth I am telling. Did you ever hear anything so +scandalous? + + Sir, + I remain, + Your affectionate orphan, + Judy Abbott + + +PS. Indians in the first chapter and highwaymen in the second. I hold +my breath. What can the third contain? 'Red Hawk leapt twenty feet in +the air and bit the dust.' That is the subject of the frontispiece. +Aren't Judy and Jervie having fun? + + + + + 15th September + +Dear Daddy, + +I was weighed yesterday on the flour scales in the general store at the +Comers. I've gained nine pounds! Let me recommend Lock Willow as a +health resort. + + Yours ever, + Judy + + + + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Behold me--a Sophomore! I came up last Friday, sorry to leave Lock +Willow, but glad to see the campus again. It is a pleasant sensation +to come back to something familiar. I am beginning to feel at home in +college, and in command of the situation; I am beginning, in fact, to +feel at home in the world--as though I really belonged to it and had +not just crept in on sufferance. + +I don't suppose you understand in the least what I am trying to say. A +person important enough to be a Trustee can't appreciate the feelings +of a person unimportant enough to be a foundling. + +And now, Daddy, listen to this. Whom do you think I am rooming with? +Sallie McBride and Julia Rutledge Pendleton. It's the truth. We have +a study and three little bedrooms--VOILA! + +Sallie and I decided last spring that we should like to room together, +and Julia made up her mind to stay with Sallie--why, I can't imagine, +for they are not a bit alike; but the Pendletons are naturally +conservative and inimical (fine word!) to change. Anyway, here we are. +Think of Jerusha Abbott, late of the John Grier Home for Orphans, +rooming with a Pendleton. This is a democratic country. + +Sallie is running for class president, and unless all signs fail, she +is going to be elected. Such an atmosphere of intrigue you should see +what politicians we are! Oh, I tell you, Daddy, when we women get our +rights, you men will have to look alive in order to keep yours. +Election comes next Saturday, and we're going to have a torchlight +procession in the evening, no matter who wins. + +I am beginning chemistry, a most unusual study. I've never seen +anything like it before. Molecules and Atoms are the material +employed, but I'll be in a position to discuss them more definitely +next month. + +I am also taking argumentation and logic. + +Also history of the whole world. + +Also plays of William Shakespeare. + +Also French. + +If this keeps up many years longer, I shall become quite intelligent. + +I should rather have elected economics than French, but I didn't dare, +because I was afraid that unless I re-elected French, the Professor +would not let me pass--as it was, I just managed to squeeze through the +June examination. But I will say that my high-school preparation was +not very adequate. + +There's one girl in the class who chatters away in French as fast as +she does in English. She went abroad with her parents when she was a +child, and spent three years in a convent school. You can imagine how +bright she is compared with the rest of us--irregular verbs are mere +playthings. I wish my parents had chucked me into a French convent +when I was little instead of a foundling asylum. Oh no, I don't +either! Because then maybe I should never have known you. I'd rather +know you than French. + +Goodbye, Daddy. I must call on Harriet Martin now, and, having +discussed the chemical situation, casually drop a few thoughts on the +subject of our next president. + + Yours in politics, + J. Abbott + + + + + 17th October + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Supposing the swimming tank in the gymnasium were filled full of lemon +jelly, could a person trying to swim manage to keep on top or would he +sink? + +We were having lemon jelly for dessert when the question came up. We +discussed it heatedly for half an hour and it's still unsettled. +Sallie thinks that she could swim in it, but I am perfectly sure that +the best swimmer in the world would sink. Wouldn't it be funny to be +drowned in lemon jelly? + +Two other problems are engaging the attention of our table. + +1st. What shape are the rooms in an octagon house? Some of the girls +insist that they're square; but I think they'd have to be shaped like a +piece of pie. Don't you? + +2nd. Suppose there were a great big hollow sphere made of +looking-glass and you were sitting inside. Where would it stop +reflecting your face and begin reflecting your back? The more one +thinks about this problem, the more puzzling it becomes. You can see +with what deep philosophical reflection we engage our leisure! + +Did I ever tell you about the election? It happened three weeks ago, +but so fast do we live, that three weeks is ancient history. Sallie +was elected, and we had a torchlight parade with transparencies saying, +'McBride for Ever,' and a band consisting of fourteen pieces (three +mouth organs and eleven combs). + +We're very important persons now in '258.' Julia and I come in for a +great deal of reflected glory. It's quite a social strain to be living +in the same house with a president. + +Bonne nuit, cher Daddy. + + Acceptez mez compliments, + Tres respectueux, + je suis, + Votre Judy + + + + + 12th November + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +We beat the Freshmen at basket ball yesterday. Of course we're +pleased--but oh, if we could only beat the juniors! I'd be willing to +be black and blue all over and stay in bed a week in a witch-hazel +compress. + +Sallie has invited me to spend the Christmas vacation with her. She +lives in Worcester, Massachusetts. Wasn't it nice of her? I shall +love to go. I've never been in a private family in my life, except at +Lock Willow, and the Semples were grown-up and old and don't count. +But the McBrides have a houseful of children (anyway two or three) and +a mother and father and grandmother, and an Angora cat. It's a +perfectly complete family! Packing your trunk and going away is more +fun than staying behind. I am terribly excited at the prospect. + +Seventh hour--I must run to rehearsal. I'm to be in the Thanksgiving +theatricals. A prince in a tower with a velvet tunic and yellow curls. +Isn't that a lark? + + Yours, + J. A. + + + + + Saturday + +Do you want to know what I look like? Here's a photograph of all three +that Leonora Fenton took. + +The light one who is laughing is Sallie, and the tall one with her nose +in the air is Julia, and the little one with the hair blowing across +her face is Judy--she is really more beautiful than that, but the sun +was in her eyes. + + + + + 'STONE GATE', + WORCESTER, MASS., + 31st December + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +I meant to write to you before and thank you for your Christmas cheque, +but life in the McBride household is very absorbing, and I don't seem +able to find two consecutive minutes to spend at a desk. + +I bought a new gown--one that I didn't need, but just wanted. My +Christmas present this year is from Daddy-Long-Legs; my family just +sent love. + +I've been having the most beautiful vacation visiting Sallie. She +lives in a big old-fashioned brick house with white trimmings set back +from the street--exactly the kind of house that I used to look at so +curiously when I was in the John Grier Home, and wonder what it could +be like inside. I never expected to see with my own eyes--but here I +am! Everything is so comfortable and restful and homelike; I walk from +room to room and drink in the furnishings. + +It is the most perfect house for children to be brought up in; with +shadowy nooks for hide and seek, and open fire places for pop-corn, and +an attic to romp in on rainy days and slippery banisters with a +comfortable flat knob at the bottom, and a great big sunny kitchen, and +a nice, fat, sunny cook who has lived in the family thirteen years and +always saves out a piece of dough for the children to bake. Just the +sight of such a house makes you want to be a child all over again. + +And as for families! I never dreamed they could be so nice. Sallie +has a father and mother and grandmother, and the sweetest +three-year-old baby sister all over curls, and a medium-sized brother +who always forgets to wipe his feet, and a big, good-looking brother +named Jimmie, who is a junior at Princeton. + +We have the jolliest times at the table--everybody laughs and jokes and +talks at once, and we don't have to say grace beforehand. It's a +relief not having to thank Somebody for every mouthful you eat. (I +dare say I'm blasphemous; but you'd be, too, if you'd offered as much +obligatory thanks as I have.) + +Such a lot of things we've done--I can't begin to tell you about them. +Mr. McBride owns a factory and Christmas eve he had a tree for the +employees' children. It was in the long packing-room which was +decorated with evergreens and holly. Jimmie McBride was dressed as +Santa Claus and Sallie and I helped him distribute the presents. + +Dear me, Daddy, but it was a funny sensation! I felt as benevolent as +a Trustee of the John Grier home. I kissed one sweet, sticky little +boy--but I don't think I patted any of them on the head! + +And two days after Christmas, they gave a dance at their own house for +ME. + +It was the first really true ball I ever attended--college doesn't +count where we dance with girls. I had a new white evening gown (your +Christmas present--many thanks) and long white gloves and white satin +slippers. The only drawback to my perfect, utter, absolute happiness +was the fact that Mrs. Lippett couldn't see me leading the cotillion +with Jimmie McBride. Tell her about it, please, the next time you +visit the J. G. H. + + Yours ever, + Judy Abbott + + +PS. Would you be terribly displeased, Daddy, if I didn't turn out to +be a Great Author after all, but just a Plain Girl? + + + + + 6.30, Saturday + +Dear Daddy, + +We started to walk to town today, but mercy! how it poured. I like +winter to be winter with snow instead of rain. + +Julia's desirable uncle called again this afternoon--and brought a +five-pound box of chocolates. There are advantages, you see, about +rooming with Julia. + +Our innocent prattle appeared to amuse him and he waited for a later +train in order to take tea in the study. We had an awful lot of +trouble getting permission. It's hard enough entertaining fathers and +grandfathers, but uncles are a step worse; and as for brothers and +cousins, they are next to impossible. Julia had to swear that he was +her uncle before a notary public and then have the county clerk's +certificate attached. (Don't I know a lot of law?) And even then I +doubt if we could have had our tea if the Dean had chanced to see how +youngish and good-looking Uncle Jervis is. + +Anyway, we had it, with brown bread Swiss cheese sandwiches. He helped +make them and then ate four. I told him that I had spent last summer +at Lock Willow, and we had a beautiful gossipy time about the Semples, +and the horses and cows and chickens. All the horses that he used to +know are dead, except Grover, who was a baby colt at the time of his +last visit--and poor Grove now is so old he can just limp about the +pasture. + +He asked if they still kept doughnuts in a yellow crock with a blue +plate over it on the bottom shelf of the pantry--and they do! He +wanted to know if there was still a woodchuck's hole under the pile of +rocks in the night pasture--and there is! Amasai caught a big, fat, +grey one there this summer, the twenty-fifth great-grandson of the one +Master Jervis caught when he was a little boy. + +I called him 'Master Jervie' to his face, but he didn't appear to be +insulted. Julia says she has never seen him so amiable; he's usually +pretty unapproachable. But Julia hasn't a bit of tact; and men, I +find, require a great deal. They purr if you rub them the right way +and spit if you don't. (That isn't a very elegant metaphor. I mean it +figuratively.) + +We're reading Marie Bashkirtseff's journal. Isn't it amazing? Listen +to this: 'Last night I was seized by a fit of despair that found +utterance in moans, and that finally drove me to throw the dining-room +clock into the sea.' + +It makes me almost hope I'm not a genius; they must be very wearing to +have about--and awfully destructive to the furniture. + +Mercy! how it keeps Pouring. We shall have to swim to chapel tonight. + + Yours ever, + Judy + + + + + 20th Jan. + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Did you ever have a sweet baby girl who was stolen from the cradle in +infancy? + +Maybe I am she! If we were in a novel, that would be the denouement, +wouldn't it? + +It's really awfully queer not to know what one is--sort of exciting and +romantic. There are such a lot of possibilities. Maybe I'm not +American; lots of people aren't. I may be straight descended from the +ancient Romans, or I may be a Viking's daughter, or I may be the child +of a Russian exile and belong by rights in a Siberian prison, or maybe +I'm a Gipsy--I think perhaps I am. I have a very WANDERING spirit, +though I haven't as yet had much chance to develop it. + +Do you know about that one scandalous blot in my career the time I ran +away from the asylum because they punished me for stealing cookies? +It's down in the books free for any Trustee to read. But really, +Daddy, what could you expect? When you put a hungry little nine-year +girl in the pantry scouring knives, with the cookie jar at her elbow, +and go off and leave her alone; and then suddenly pop in again, +wouldn't you expect to find her a bit crumby? And then when you jerk +her by the elbow and box her ears, and make her leave the table when +the pudding comes, and tell all the other children that it's because +she's a thief, wouldn't you expect her to run away? + +I only ran four miles. They caught me and brought me back; and every +day for a week I was tied, like a naughty puppy, to a stake in the back +yard while the other children were out at recess. + +Oh, dear! There's the chapel bell, and after chapel I have a committee +meeting. I'm sorry because I meant to write you a very entertaining +letter this time. + + Auf wiedersehen + Cher Daddy, + Pax tibi! + Judy + + +PS. There's one thing I'm perfectly sure of I'm not a Chinaman. + + + + + 4th February + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Jimmie McBride has sent me a Princeton banner as big as one end of the +room; I am very grateful to him for remembering me, but I don't know +what on earth to do with it. Sallie and Julia won't let me hang it up; +our room this year is furnished in red, and you can imagine what an +effect we'd have if I added orange and black. But it's such nice, +warm, thick felt, I hate to waste it. Would it be very improper to +have it made into a bath robe? My old one shrank when it was washed. + +I've entirely omitted of late telling you what I am learning, but +though you might not imagine it from my letters, my time is exclusively +occupied with study. It's a very bewildering matter to get educated in +five branches at once. + +'The test of true scholarship,' says Chemistry Professor, 'is a +painstaking passion for detail.' + +'Be careful not to keep your eyes glued to detail,' says History +Professor. 'Stand far enough away to get a perspective of the whole.' + +You can see with what nicety we have to trim our sails between +chemistry and history. I like the historical method best. If I say +that William the Conqueror came over in 1492, and Columbus discovered +America in 1100 or 1066 or whenever it was, that's a mere detail that +the Professor overlooks. It gives a feeling of security and +restfulness to the history recitation, that is entirely lacking in +chemistry. + +Sixth-hour bell--I must go to the laboratory and look into a little +matter of acids and salts and alkalis. I've burned a hole as big as a +plate in the front of my chemistry apron, with hydrochloric acid. If +the theory worked, I ought to be able to neutralize that hole with good +strong ammonia, oughtn't I? + +Examinations next week, but who's afraid? + + Yours ever, + Judy + + + + + 5th March + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +There is a March wind blowing, and the sky is filled with heavy, black +moving clouds. The crows in the pine trees are making such a clamour! +It's an intoxicating, exhilarating, CALLING noise. You want to close +your books and be off over the hills to race with the wind. + +We had a paper chase last Saturday over five miles of squashy 'cross +country. The fox (composed of three girls and a bushel or so of +confetti) started half an hour before the twenty-seven hunters. I was +one of the twenty-seven; eight dropped by the wayside; we ended +nineteen. The trail led over a hill, through a cornfield, and into a +swamp where we had to leap lightly from hummock to hummock. of course +half of us went in ankle deep. We kept losing the trail, and we wasted +twenty-five minutes over that swamp. Then up a hill through some woods +and in at a barn window! The barn doors were all locked and the window +was up high and pretty small. I don't call that fair, do you? + +But we didn't go through; we circumnavigated the barn and picked up the +trail where it issued by way of a low shed roof on to the top of a +fence. The fox thought he had us there, but we fooled him. Then +straight away over two miles of rolling meadow, and awfully hard to +follow, for the confetti was getting sparse. The rule is that it must +be at the most six feet apart, but they were the longest six feet I +ever saw. Finally, after two hours of steady trotting, we tracked +Monsieur Fox into the kitchen of Crystal Spring (that's a farm where +the girls go in bob sleighs and hay wagons for chicken and waffle +suppers) and we found the three foxes placidly eating milk and honey +and biscuits. They hadn't thought we would get that far; they were +expecting us to stick in the barn window. + +Both sides insist that they won. I think we did, don't you? Because +we caught them before they got back to the campus. Anyway, all +nineteen of us settled like locusts over the furniture and clamoured +for honey. There wasn't enough to go round, but Mrs. Crystal Spring +(that's our pet name for her; she's by rights a Johnson) brought up a +jar of strawberry jam and a can of maple syrup--just made last +week--and three loaves of brown bread. + +We didn't get back to college till half-past six--half an hour late for +dinner--and we went straight in without dressing, and with perfectly +unimpaired appetites! Then we all cut evening chapel, the state of our +boots being enough of an excuse. + +I never told you about examinations. I passed everything with the +utmost ease--I know the secret now, and am never going to fail again. +I shan't be able to graduate with honours though, because of that +beastly Latin prose and geometry Freshman year. But I don't care. +Wot's the hodds so long as you're 'appy? (That's a quotation. I've +been reading the English classics.) + +Speaking of classics, have you ever read Hamlet? If you haven't, do it +right off. It's PERFECTLY CORKING. I've been hearing about +Shakespeare all my life, but I had no idea he really wrote so well; I +always suspected him of going largely on his reputation. + +I have a beautiful play that I invented a long time ago when I first +learned to read. I put myself to sleep every night by pretending I'm +the person (the most important person) in the book I'm reading at the +moment. + +At present I'm Ophelia--and such a sensible Ophelia! I keep Hamlet +amused all the time, and pet him and scold him and make him wrap up his +throat when he has a cold. I've entirely cured him of being +melancholy. The King and Queen are both dead--an accident at sea; no +funeral necessary--so Hamlet and I are ruling in Denmark without any +bother. We have the kingdom working beautifully. He takes care of the +governing, and I look after the charities. I have just founded some +first-class orphan asylums. If you or any of the other Trustees would +like to visit them, I shall be pleased to show you through. I think +you might find a great many helpful suggestions. + + I remain, sir, + Yours most graciously, + OPHELIA, + Queen of Denmark. + + + + + 24th March, + maybe the 25th + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +I don't believe I can be going to Heaven--I am getting such a lot of +good things here; it wouldn't be fair to get them hereafter too. +Listen to what has happened. + +Jerusha Abbott has won the short-story contest (a twenty-five dollar +prize) that the Monthly holds every year. And she's a Sophomore! The +contestants are mostly Seniors. When I saw my name posted, I couldn't +quite believe it was true. Maybe I am going to be an author after all. +I wish Mrs. Lippett hadn't given me such a silly name--it sounds like +an author-ess, doesn't it? + +Also I have been chosen for the spring dramatics--As You Like It out of +doors. I am going to be Celia, own cousin to Rosalind. + +And lastly: Julia and Sallie and I are going to New York next Friday +to do some spring shopping and stay all night and go to the theatre the +next day with 'Master Jervie.' He invited us. Julia is going to stay +at home with her family, but Sallie and I are going to stop at the +Martha Washington Hotel. Did you ever hear of anything so exciting? +I've never been in a hotel in my life, nor in a theatre; except once +when the Catholic Church had a festival and invited the orphans, but +that wasn't a real play and it doesn't count. + +And what do you think we're going to see? Hamlet. Think of that! We +studied it for four weeks in Shakespeare class and I know it by heart. + +I am so excited over all these prospects that I can scarcely sleep. + +Goodbye, Daddy. + +This is a very entertaining world. + + Yours ever, + Judy + + +PS. I've just looked at the calendar. It's the 28th. + +Another postscript. + +I saw a street car conductor today with one brown eye and one blue. +Wouldn't he make a nice villain for a detective story? + + + + + 7th April + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Mercy! Isn't New York big? Worcester is nothing to it. Do you mean +to tell me that you actually live in all that confusion? I don't +believe that I shall recover for months from the bewildering effect of +two days of it. I can't begin to tell you all the amazing things I've +seen; I suppose you know, though, since you live there yourself. + +But aren't the streets entertaining? And the people? And the shops? +I never saw such lovely things as there are in the windows. It makes +you want to devote your life to wearing clothes. + +Sallie and Julia and I went shopping together Saturday morning. Julia +went into the very most gorgeous place I ever saw, white and gold walls +and blue carpets and blue silk curtains and gilt chairs. A perfectly +beautiful lady with yellow hair and a long black silk trailing gown +came to meet us with a welcoming smile. I thought we were paying a +social call, and started to shake hands, but it seems we were only +buying hats--at least Julia was. She sat down in front of a mirror and +tried on a dozen, each lovelier than the last, and bought the two +loveliest of all. + +I can't imagine any joy in life greater than sitting down in front of a +mirror and buying any hat you choose without having first to consider +the price! There's no doubt about it, Daddy; New York would rapidly +undermine this fine stoical character which the John Grier Home so +patiently built up. + +And after we'd finished our shopping, we met Master Jervie at Sherry's. +I suppose you've been in Sherry's? Picture that, then picture the +dining-room of the John Grier Home with its oilcloth-covered tables, +and white crockery that you CAN'T break, and wooden-handled knives and +forks; and fancy the way I felt! + +I ate my fish with the wrong fork, but the waiter very kindly gave me +another so that nobody noticed. + +And after luncheon we went to the theatre--it was dazzling, marvellous, +unbelievable--I dream about it every night. + +Isn't Shakespeare wonderful? + +Hamlet is so much better on the stage than when we analyze it in class; +I appreciated it before, but now, dear me! + +I think, if you don't mind, that I'd rather be an actress than a +writer. Wouldn't you like me to leave college and go into a dramatic +school? And then I'll send you a box for all my performances, and +smile at you across the footlights. Only wear a red rose in your +buttonhole, please, so I'll surely smile at the right man. It would be +an awfully embarrassing mistake if I picked out the wrong one. + +We came back Saturday night and had our dinner in the train, at little +tables with pink lamps and negro waiters. I never heard of meals being +served in trains before, and I inadvertently said so. + +'Where on earth were you brought up?' said Julia to me. + +'In a village,' said I meekly, to Julia. + +'But didn't you ever travel?' said she to me. + +'Not till I came to college, and then it was only a hundred and sixty +miles and we didn't eat,' said I to her. + +She's getting quite interested in me, because I say such funny things. +I try hard not to, but they do pop out when I'm surprised--and I'm +surprised most of the time. It's a dizzying experience, Daddy, to pass +eighteen years in the John Grier Home, and then suddenly to be plunged +into the WORLD. + +But I'm getting acclimated. I don't make such awful mistakes as I did; +and I don't feel uncomfortable any more with the other girls. I used +to squirm whenever people looked at me. I felt as though they saw +right through my sham new clothes to the checked ginghams underneath. +But I'm not letting the ginghams bother me any more. Sufficient unto +yesterday is the evil thereof. + +I forgot to tell you about our flowers. Master Jervie gave us each a +big bunch of violets and lilies-of-the-valley. Wasn't that sweet of +him? I never used to care much for men--judging by Trustees--but I'm +changing my mind. + +Eleven pages--this is a letter! Have courage. I'm going to stop. + + Yours always, + Judy + + + + + 10th April + +Dear Mr. Rich-Man, + +Here's your cheque for fifty dollars. Thank you very much, but I do +not feel that I can keep it. My allowance is sufficient to afford all +of the hats that I need. I am sorry that I wrote all that silly stuff +about the millinery shop; it's just that I had never seen anything like +it before. + +However, I wasn't begging! And I would rather not accept any more +charity than I have to. + + Sincerely yours, + Jerusha Abbott + + + + + 11th April + +Dearest Daddy, + +Will you please forgive me for the letter I wrote you yesterday? After +I posted it I was sorry, and tried to get it back, but that beastly +mail clerk wouldn't give it back to me. + +It's the middle of the night now; I've been awake for hours thinking +what a Worm I am--what a Thousand-legged Worm--and that's the worst I +can say! I've closed the door very softly into the study so as not to +wake Julia and Sallie, and am sitting up in bed writing to you on paper +torn out of my history note-book. + +I just wanted to tell you that I am sorry I was so impolite about your +cheque. I know you meant it kindly, and I think you're an old dear to +take so much trouble for such a silly thing as a hat. I ought to have +returned it very much more graciously. + +But in any case, I had to return it. It's different with me than with +other girls. They can take things naturally from people. They have +fathers and brothers and aunts and uncles; but I can't be on any such +relations with any one. I like to pretend that you belong to me, just +to play with the idea, but of course I know you don't. I'm alone, +really--with my back to the wall fighting the world--and I get sort of +gaspy when I think about it. I put it out of my mind, and keep on +pretending; but don't you see, Daddy? I can't accept any more money +than I have to, because some day I shall be wanting to pay it back, and +even as great an author as I intend to be won't be able to face a +PERFECTLY TREMENDOUS debt. + +I'd love pretty hats and things, but I mustn't mortgage the future to +pay for them. + +You'll forgive me, won't you, for being so rude? I have an awful habit +of writing impulsively when I first think things, and then posting the +letter beyond recall. But if I sometimes seem thoughtless and +ungrateful, I never mean it. In my heart I thank you always for the +life and freedom and independence that you have given me. My childhood +was just a long, sullen stretch of revolt, and now I am so happy every +moment of the day that I can't believe it's true. I feel like a +made-up heroine in a story-book. + +It's a quarter past two. I'm going to tiptoe out to post this off now. +You'll receive it in the next mail after the other; so you won't have a +very long time to think bad of me. + + Good night, Daddy, + I love you always, + Judy + + + + + 4th May + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Field Day last Saturday. It was a very spectacular occasion. First we +had a parade of all the classes, with everybody dressed in white linen, +the Seniors carrying blue and gold Japanese umbrellas, and the juniors +white and yellow banners. Our class had crimson balloons--very +fetching, especially as they were always getting loose and floating +off--and the Freshmen wore green tissue-paper hats with long streamers. +Also we had a band in blue uniforms hired from town. Also about a +dozen funny people, like clowns in a circus, to keep the spectators +entertained between events. + +Julia was dressed as a fat country man with a linen duster and whiskers +and baggy umbrella. Patsy Moriarty (Patrici really. Did you ever hear +such a name? Mrs. Lippett couldn't have done better) who is tall and +thin was Julia's wife in a absurd green bonnet over one ear. Waves of +laughter followed them the whole length of the course. Julia played +the part extremely well. I never dreamed that a Pendleton could +display so much comedy spirit--begging Master Jervie's pardon; I don't +consider him a true Pendleton though, any more than I consider you a +true Trustee. + +Sallie and I weren't in the parade because we were entered for the +events. And what do you think? We both won! At least in something. +We tried for the running broad jump and lost; but Sallie won the +pole-vaulting (seven feet three inches) and I won the fifty-yard sprint +(eight seconds). + +I was pretty panting at the end, but it was great fun, with the whole +class waving balloons and cheering and yelling: + + What's the matter with Judy Abbott? + She's all right. + Who's all right? + Judy Ab-bott! + + +That, Daddy, is true fame. Then trotting back to the dressing tent and +being rubbed down with alcohol and having a lemon to suck. You see +we're very professional. It's a fine thing to win an event for your +class, because the class that wins the most gets the athletic cup for +the year. The Seniors won it this year, with seven events to their +credit. The athletic association gave a dinner in the gymnasium to all +of the winners. We had fried soft-shell crabs, and chocolate ice-cream +moulded in the shape of basket balls. + +I sat up half of last night reading Jane Eyre. Are you old enough, +Daddy, to remember sixty years ago? And, if so, did people talk that +way? + +The haughty Lady Blanche says to the footman, 'Stop your chattering, +knave, and do my bidding.' Mr. Rochester talks about the metal welkin +when he means the sky; and as for the mad woman who laughs like a hyena +and sets fire to bed curtains and tears up wedding veils and +BITES--it's melodrama of the purest, but just the same, you read and +read and read. I can't see how any girl could have written such a +book, especially any girl who was brought up in a churchyard. There's +something about those Brontes that fascinates me. Their books, their +lives, their spirit. Where did they get it? When I was reading about +little Jane's troubles in the charity school, I got so angry that I had +to go out and take a walk. I understood exactly how she felt. Having +known Mrs. Lippett, I could see Mr. Brocklehurst. + +Don't be outraged, Daddy. I am not intimating that the John Grier Home +was like the Lowood Institute. We had plenty to eat and plenty to +wear, sufficient water to wash in, and a furnace in the cellar. But +there was one deadly likeness. Our lives were absolutely monotonous +and uneventful. Nothing nice ever happened, except ice-cream on +Sundays, and even that was regular. In all the eighteen years I was +there I only had one adventure--when the woodshed burned. We had to +get up in the night and dress so as to be ready in case the house +should catch. But it didn't catch and we went back to bed. + +Everybody likes a few surprises; it's a perfectly natural human +craving. But I never had one until Mrs. Lippett called me to the +office to tell me that Mr. John Smith was going to send me to college. +And then she broke the news so gradually that it just barely shocked me. + +You know, Daddy, I think that the most necessary quality for any person +to have is imagination. It makes people able to put themselves in +other people's places. It makes them kind and sympathetic and +understanding. It ought to be cultivated in children. But the John +Grier Home instantly stamped out the slightest flicker that appeared. +Duty was the one quality that was encouraged. I don't think children +ought to know the meaning of the word; it's odious, detestable. They +ought to do everything from love. + +Wait until you see the orphan asylum that I am going to be the head of! +It's my favourite play at night before I go to sleep. I plan it out to +the littlest detail--the meals and clothes and study and amusements and +punishments; for even my superior orphans are sometimes bad. + +But anyway, they are going to be happy. I think that every one, no +matter how many troubles he may have when he grows up, ought to have a +happy childhood to look back upon. And if I ever have any children of +my own, no matter how unhappy I may be, I am not going to let them have +any cares until they grow up. + +(There goes the chapel bell--I'll finish this letter sometime). + + + Thursday + +When I came in from laboratory this afternoon, I found a squirrel +sitting on the tea table helping himself to almonds. These are the +kind of callers we entertain now that warm weather has come and the +windows stay open-- + + + Saturday morning + +Perhaps you think, last night being Friday, with no classes today, that +I passed a nice quiet, readable evening with the set of Stevenson that +I bought with my prize money? But if so, you've never attended a +girls' college, Daddy dear. Six friends dropped in to make fudge, and +one of them dropped the fudge--while it was still liquid--right in the +middle of our best rug. We shall never be able to clean up the mess. + +I haven't mentioned any lessons of late; but we are still having them +every day. It's sort of a relief though, to get away from them and +discuss life in the large--rather one-sided discussions that you and I +hold, but that's your own fault. You are welcome to answer back any +time you choose. + +I've been writing this letter off and on for three days, and I fear by +now vous etes bien bored! + + Goodbye, nice Mr. Man, + Judy + + + + +Mr. Daddy-Long-Legs Smith, + +SIR: Having completed the study of argumentation and the science of +dividing a thesis into heads, I have decided to adopt the following +form for letter-writing. It contains all necessary facts, but no +unnecessary verbiage. + +I. We had written examinations this week in: + A. Chemistry. + B. History. + +II. A new dormitory is being built. + A. Its material is: + (a) red brick. + (b) grey stone. + B. Its capacity will be: + (a) one dean, five instructors. + (b) two hundred girls. + (c) one housekeeper, three cooks, twenty waitresses, + twenty chambermaids. + +III. We had junket for dessert tonight. + +IV. I am writing a special topic upon the Sources of Shakespeare's +Plays. + +V. Lou McMahon slipped and fell this afternoon at basket ball, and she: + A. Dislocated her shoulder. + B. Bruised her knee. + +VI. I have a new hat trimmed with: + A. Blue velvet ribbon. + B. Two blue quills. + C. Three red pompoms. + +VII. It is half past nine. + +VIII. Good night. + + Judy + + + + + 2nd June + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +You will never guess the nice thing that has happened. + +The McBrides have asked me to spend the summer at their camp in the +Adirondacks! They belong to a sort of club on a lovely little lake in +the middle of the woods. The different members have houses made of +logs dotted about among the trees, and they go canoeing on the lake, +and take long walks through trails to other camps, and have dances once +a week in the club house--Jimmie McBride is going to have a college +friend visiting him part of the summer, so you see we shall have plenty +of men to dance with. + +Wasn't it sweet of Mrs. McBride to ask me? It appears that she liked +me when I was there for Christmas. + +Please excuse this being short. It isn't a real letter; it's just to +let you know that I'm disposed of for the summer. + + Yours, + In a VERY contented frame of mind, + Judy + + + + + 5th June + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Your secretary man has just written to me saying that Mr. Smith prefers +that I should not accept Mrs. McBride's invitation, but should return +to Lock Willow the same as last summer. + +Why, why, WHY, Daddy? + +You don't understand about it. Mrs. McBride does want me, really and +truly. I'm not the least bit of trouble in the house. I'm a help. +They don't take up many servants, and Sallie an I can do lots of useful +things. It's a fine chance for me to learn housekeeping. Every woman +ought to understand it, and I only know asylum-keeping. + +There aren't any girls our age at the camp, and Mrs. McBride wants me +for a companion for Sallie. We are planning to do a lot of reading +together. We are going to read all of the books for next year's +English and sociology. The Professor said it would be a great help if +we would get our reading finished in the summer; and it's so much +easier to remember it if we read together and talk it over. + +Just to live in the same house with Sallie's mother is an education. +She's the most interesting, entertaining, companionable, charming woman +in the world; she knows everything. Think how many summers I've spent +with Mrs. Lippett and how I'll appreciate the contrast. You needn't be +afraid that I'll be crowding them, for their house is made of rubber. +When they have a lot of company, they just sprinkle tents about in the +woods and turn the boys outside. It's going to be such a nice, healthy +summer exercising out of doors every minute. Jimmie McBride is going +to teach me how to ride horseback and paddle a canoe, and how to shoot +and--oh, lots of things I ought to know. It's the kind of nice, jolly, +care-free time that I've never had; and I think every girl deserves it +once in her life. Of course I'll do exactly as you say, but please, +PLEASE let me go, Daddy. I've never wanted anything so much. + +This isn't Jerusha Abbott, the future great author, writing to you. +It's just Judy--a girl. + + + + 9th June + +Mr. John Smith, + +SIR: Yours of the 7th inst. at hand. In compliance with the +instructions received through your secretary, I leave on Friday next to +spend the summer at Lock Willow Farm. + +I hope always to remain, + (Miss) Jerusha Abbott + + + + + LOCK WILLOW FARM, + 3rd August + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +It has been nearly two months since I wrote, which wasn't nice of me, I +know, but I haven't loved you much this summer--you see I'm being frank! + +You can't imagine how disappointed I was at having to give up the +McBrides' camp. Of course I know that you're my guardian, and that I +have to regard your wishes in all matters, but I couldn't see any +REASON. It was so distinctly the best thing that could have happened +to me. If I had been Daddy, and you had been Judy, I should have said, +'Bless you my child, run along and have a good time; see lots of new +people and learn lots of new things; live out of doors, and get strong +and well and rested for a year of hard work.' + +But not at all! Just a curt line from your secretary ordering me to +Lock Willow. + +It's the impersonality of your commands that hurts my feelings. It +seems as though, if you felt the tiniest little bit for me the way I +feel for you, you'd sometimes send me a message that you'd written with +your own hand, instead of those beastly typewritten secretary's notes. +If there were the slightest hint that you cared, I'd do anything on +earth to please you. + +I know that I was to write nice, long, detailed letters without ever +expecting any answer. You're living up to your side of the +bargain--I'm being educated--and I suppose you're thinking I'm not +living up to mine! + +But, Daddy, it is a hard bargain. It is, really. I'm so awfully +lonely. You are the only person I have to care for, and you are so +shadowy. You're just an imaginary man that I've made up--and probably +the real YOU isn't a bit like my imaginary YOU. But you did once, when +I was ill in the infirmary, send me a message, and now, when I am +feeling awfully forgotten, I get out your card and read it over. + +I don't think I am telling you at all what I started to say, which was +this: + +Although my feelings are still hurt, for it is very humiliating to be +picked up and moved about by an arbitrary, peremptory, unreasonable, +omnipotent, invisible Providence, still, when a man has been as kind +and generous and thoughtful as you have heretofore been towards me, I +suppose he has a right to be an arbitrary, peremptory, unreasonable, +invisible Providence if he chooses, and so--I'll forgive you and be +cheerful again. But I still don't enjoy getting Sallie's letters about +the good times they are having in camp! + +However--we will draw a veil over that and begin again. + +I've been writing and writing this summer; four short stories finished +and sent to four different magazines. So you see I'm trying to be an +author. I have a workroom fixed in a corner of the attic where Master +Jervie used to have his rainy-day playroom. It's in a cool, breezy +corner with two dormer windows, and shaded by a maple tree with a +family of red squirrels living in a hole. + +I'll write a nicer letter in a few days and tell you all the farm news. + +We need rain. + + Yours as ever, + Judy + + + + + 10th August + +Mr. Daddy-Long-Legs, + +SIR: I address you from the second crotch in the willow tree by the +pool in the pasture. There's a frog croaking underneath, a locust +singing overhead and two little 'devil downheads' darting up and down +the trunk. I've been here for an hour; it's a very comfortable crotch, +especially after being upholstered with two sofa cushions. I came up +with a pen and tablet hoping to write an immortal short story, but I've +been having a dreadful time with my heroine--I CAN'T make her behave as +I want her to behave; so I've abandoned her for the moment, and am +writing to you. (Not much relief though, for I can't make you behave +as I want you to, either.) + +If you are in that dreadful New York, I wish I could send you some of +this lovely, breezy, sunshiny outlook. The country is Heaven after a +week of rain. + +Speaking of Heaven--do you remember Mr. Kellogg that I told you about +last summer?--the minister of the little white church at the Corners. +Well, the poor old soul is dead--last winter of pneumonia. I went half +a dozen times to hear him preach and got very well acquainted with his +theology. He believed to the end exactly the same things he started +with. It seems to me that a man who can think straight along for +forty-seven years without changing a single idea ought to be kept in a +cabinet as a curiosity. I hope he is enjoying his harp and golden +crown; he was so perfectly sure of finding them! There's a new young +man, very consequential, in his place. The congregation is pretty +dubious, especially the faction led by Deacon Cummings. It looks as +though there was going to be an awful split in the church. We don't +care for innovations in religion in this neighbourhood. + +During our week of rain I sat up in the attic and had an orgy of +reading--Stevenson, mostly. He himself is more entertaining than any +of the characters in his books; I dare say he made himself into the +kind of hero that would look well in print. Don't you think it was +perfect of him to spend all the ten thousand dollars his father left, +for a yacht, and go sailing off to the South Seas? He lived up to his +adventurous creed. If my father had left me ten thousand dollars, I'd +do it, too. The thought of Vailima makes me wild. I want to see the +tropics. I want to see the whole world. I am going to be a great +author, or artist, or actress, or playwright--or whatever sort of a +great person I turn out to be. I have a terrible wanderthirst; the +very sight of a map makes me want to put on my hat and take an umbrella +and start. 'I shall see before I die the palms and temples of the +South.' + + + + Thursday evening at twilight, + sitting on the doorstep. + +Very hard to get any news into this letter! Judy is becoming so +philosophical of late, that she wishes to discourse largely of the +world in general, instead of descending to the trivial details of daily +life. But if you MUST have news, here it is: + +Our nine young pigs waded across the brook and ran away last Tuesday, +and only eight came back. We don't want to accuse anyone unjustly, but +we suspect that Widow Dowd has one more than she ought to have. + +Mr. Weaver has painted his barn and his two silos a bright pumpkin +yellow--a very ugly colour, but he says it will wear. + +The Brewers have company this week; Mrs. Brewer's sister and two nieces +from Ohio. + +One of our Rhode Island Reds only brought off three chicks out of +fifteen eggs. We can't imagine what was the trouble. Rhode island +Reds, in my opinion, are a very inferior breed. I prefer Buff +Orpingtons. + +The new clerk in the post office at Bonnyrigg Four Corners drank every +drop of Jamaica ginger they had in stock--seven dollars' worth--before +he was discovered. + +Old Ira Hatch has rheumatism and can't work any more; he never saved +his money when he was earning good wages, so now he has to live on the +town. + +There's to be an ice-cream social at the schoolhouse next Saturday +evening. Come and bring your families. + +I have a new hat that I bought for twenty-five cents at the post +office. This is my latest portrait, on my way to rake the hay. + +It's getting too dark to see; anyway, the news is all used up. + + Good night, + Judy + + + + + Friday + +Good morning! Here is some news! What do you think? You'd never, +never, never guess who's coming to Lock Willow. A letter to Mrs. +Semple from Mr. Pendleton. He's motoring through the Berkshires, and +is tired and wants to rest on a nice quiet farm--if he climbs out at +her doorstep some night will she have a room ready for him? Maybe +he'll stay one week, or maybe two, or maybe three; he'll see how +restful it is when he gets here. + +Such a flutter as we are in! The whole house is being cleaned and all +the curtains washed. I am driving to the Corners this morning to get +some new oilcloth for the entry, and two cans of brown floor paint for +the hall and back stairs. Mrs. Dowd is engaged to come tomorrow to +wash the windows (in the exigency of the moment, we waive our +suspicions in regard to the piglet). You might think, from this account +of our activities, that the house was not already immaculate; but I +assure you it was! Whatever Mrs. Semple's limitations, she is a +HOUSEKEEPER. + +But isn't it just like a man, Daddy? He doesn't give the remotest hint +as to whether he will land on the doorstep today, or two weeks from +today. We shall live in a perpetual breathlessness until he comes--and +if he doesn't hurry, the cleaning may all have to be done over again. + +There's Amasai waiting below with the buckboard and Grover. I drive +alone--but if you could see old Grove, you wouldn't be worried as to my +safety. + +With my hand on my heart--farewell. + + Judy + + +PS. Isn't that a nice ending? I got it out of Stevenson's letters. + + + + + Saturday + +Good morning again! I didn't get this ENVELOPED yesterday before the +postman came, so I'll add some more. We have one mail a day at twelve +o'clock. Rural delivery is a blessing to the farmers! Our postman not +only delivers letters, but he runs errands for us in town, at five +cents an errand. Yesterday he brought me some shoe-strings and a jar +of cold cream (I sunburned all the skin off my nose before I got my new +hat) and a blue Windsor tie and a bottle of blacking all for ten cents. +That was an unusual bargain, owing to the largeness of my order. + +Also he tells us what is happening in the Great World. Several people +on the route take daily papers, and he reads them as he jogs along, and +repeats the news to the ones who don't subscribe. So in case a war +breaks out between the United States and Japan, or the president is +assassinated, or Mr. Rockefeller leaves a million dollars to the John +Grier Home, you needn't bother to write; I'll hear it anyway. + +No sign yet of Master Jervie. But you should see how clean our house +is--and with what anxiety we wipe our feet before we step in! + +I hope he'll come soon; I am longing for someone to talk to. Mrs. +Semple, to tell you the truth, gets rather monotonous. She never lets +ideas interrupt the easy flow of her conversation. It's a funny thing +about the people here. Their world is just this single hilltop. They +are not a bit universal, if you know what I mean. It's exactly the +same as at the John Grier Home. Our ideas there were bounded by the +four sides of the iron fence, only I didn't mind it so much because I +was younger, and was so awfully busy. By the time I'd got all my beds +made and my babies' faces washed and had gone to school and come home +and had washed their faces again and darned their stockings and mended +Freddie Perkins's trousers (he tore them every day of his life) and +learned my lessons in between--I was ready to go to bed, and I didn't +notice any lack of social intercourse. But after two years in a +conversational college, I do miss it; and I shall be glad to see +somebody who speaks my language. + +I really believe I've finished, Daddy. Nothing else occurs to me at +the moment--I'll try to write a longer letter next time. + + Yours always, + Judy + + +PS. The lettuce hasn't done at all well this year. It was so dry +early in the season. + + + + + 25th August + +Well, Daddy, Master Jervie's here. And such a nice time as we're +having! At least I am, and I think he is, too--he has been here ten +days and he doesn't show any signs of going. The way Mrs. Semple +pampers that man is scandalous. If she indulged him as much when he +was a baby, I don't know how he ever turned out so well. + +He and I eat at a little table set on the side porch, or sometimes +under the trees, or--when it rains or is cold--in the best parlour. He +just picks out the spot he wants to eat in and Carrie trots after him +with the table. Then if it has been an awful nuisance, and she has had +to carry the dishes very far, she finds a dollar under the sugar bowl. + +He is an awfully companionable sort of man, though you would never +believe it to see him casually; he looks at first glance like a true +Pendleton, but he isn't in the least. He is just as simple and +unaffected and sweet as he can be--that seems a funny way to describe a +man, but it's true. He's extremely nice with the farmers around here; +he meets them in a sort of man-to-man fashion that disarms them +immediately. They were very suspicious at first. They didn't care for +his clothes! And I will say that his clothes are rather amazing. He +wears knickerbockers and pleated jackets and white flannels and riding +clothes with puffed trousers. Whenever he comes down in anything new, +Mrs. Semple, beaming with pride, walks around and views him from every +angle, and urges him to be careful where he sits down; she is so afraid +he will pick up some dust. It bores him dreadfully. He's always +saying to her: + +'Run along, Lizzie, and tend to your work. You can't boss me any +longer. I've grown up.' + +It's awfully funny to think of that great big, long-legged man (he's +nearly as long-legged as you, Daddy) ever sitting in Mrs. Semple's lap +and having his face washed. Particularly funny when you see her lap! +She has two laps now, and three chins. But he says that once she was +thin and wiry and spry and could run faster than he. + +Such a lot of adventures we're having! We've explored the country for +miles, and I've learned to fish with funny little flies made of +feathers. Also to shoot with a rifle and a revolver. Also to ride +horseback--there's an astonishing amount of life in old Grove. We fed +him on oats for three days, and he shied at a calf and almost ran away +with me. + + Wednesday + +We climbed Sky Hill Monday afternoon. That's a mountain near here; not +an awfully high mountain, perhaps--no snow on the summit--but at least +you are pretty breathless when you reach the top. The lower slopes are +covered with woods, but the top is just piled rocks and open moor. We +stayed up for the sunset and built a fire and cooked our supper. +Master Jervie did the cooking; he said he knew how better than me and +he did, too, because he's used to camping. Then we came down by +moonlight, and, when we reached the wood trail where it was dark, by +the light of an electric bulb that he had in his pocket. It was such +fun! He laughed and joked all the way and talked about interesting +things. He's read all the books I've ever read, and a lot of others +besides. It's astonishing how many different things he knows. + +We went for a long tramp this morning and got caught in a storm. Our +clothes were drenched before we reached home but our spirits not even +damp. You should have seen Mrs. Semple's face when we dripped into her +kitchen. + +'Oh, Master Jervie--Miss Judy! You are soaked through. Dear! Dear! +What shall I do? That nice new coat is perfectly ruined.' + +She was awfully funny; you would have thought that we were ten years +old, and she a distracted mother. I was afraid for a while that we +weren't going to get any jam for tea. + + + + Saturday + +I started this letter ages ago, but I haven't had a second to finish it. + +Isn't this a nice thought from Stevenson? + + + The world is so full of a number of things, + I am sure we should all be as happy as kings. + + +It's true, you know. The world is full of happiness, and plenty to go +round, if you are only willing to take the kind that comes your way. +The whole secret is in being PLIABLE. In the country, especially, +there are such a lot of entertaining things. I can walk over +everybody's land, and look at everybody's view, and dabble in +everybody's brook; and enjoy it just as much as though I owned the +land--and with no taxes to pay! + +It's Sunday night now, about eleven o'clock, and I am supposed to be +getting some beauty sleep, but I had black coffee for dinner, so--no +beauty sleep for me! + +This morning, said Mrs. Semple to Mr. Pendleton, with a very determined +accent: + +'We have to leave here at a quarter past ten in order to get to church +by eleven.' + +'Very well, Lizzie,' said Master Jervie, 'you have the buggy ready, and +if I'm not dressed, just go on without waiting.' 'We'll wait,' said +she. + +'As you please,' said he, 'only don't keep the horses standing too +long.' + +Then while she was dressing, he told Carrie to pack up a lunch, and he +told me to scramble into my walking clothes; and we slipped out the +back way and went fishing. + +It discommoded the household dreadfully, because Lock Willow of a +Sunday dines at two. But he ordered dinner at seven--he orders meals +whenever he chooses; you would think the place were a restaurant--and +that kept Carrie and Amasai from going driving. But he said it was all +the better because it wasn't proper for them to go driving without a +chaperon; and anyway, he wanted the horses himself to take me driving. +Did you ever hear anything so funny? + +And poor Mrs. Semple believes that people who go fishing on Sundays go +afterwards to a sizzling hot hell! She is awfully troubled to think +that she didn't train him better when he was small and helpless and she +had the chance. Besides--she wished to show him off in church. + +Anyway, we had our fishing (he caught four little ones) and we cooked +them on a camp-fire for lunch. They kept falling off our spiked sticks +into the fire, so they tasted a little ashy, but we ate them. We got +home at four and went driving at five and had dinner at seven, and at +ten I was sent to bed and here I am, writing to you. + +I am getting a little sleepy, though. + + Good night. + + +Here is a picture of the one fish I caught. + + + + +Ship Ahoy, Cap'n Long-Legs! + +Avast! Belay! Yo, ho, ho, and a bottle of rum. Guess what I'm +reading? Our conversation these past two days has been nautical and +piratical. Isn't Treasure Island fun? Did you ever read it, or wasn't +it written when you were a boy? Stevenson only got thirty pounds for +the serial rights--I don't believe it pays to be a great author. Maybe +I'll be a school-teacher. + +Excuse me for filling my letters so full of Stevenson; my mind is very +much engaged with him at present. He comprises Lock Willow's library. + +I've been writing this letter for two weeks, and I think it's about +long enough. Never say, Daddy, that I don't give details. I wish you +were here, too; we'd all have such a jolly time together. I like my +different friends to know each other. I wanted to ask Mr. Pendleton if +he knew you in New York--I should think he might; you must move in +about the same exalted social circles, and you are both interested in +reforms and things--but I couldn't, for I don't know your real name. + +It's the silliest thing I ever heard of, not to know your name. Mrs. +Lippett warned me that you were eccentric. I should think so! + + Affectionately, + Judy + + +PS. On reading this over, I find that it isn't all Stevenson. There +are one or two glancing references to Master Jervie. + + + + + 10th September + +Dear Daddy, + +He has gone, and we are missing him! When you get accustomed to people +or places or ways of living, and then have them snatched away, it does +leave an awfully empty, gnawing sort of sensation. I'm finding Mrs. +Semple's conversation pretty unseasoned food. + +College opens in two weeks and I shall be glad to begin work again. I +have worked quite a lot this summer though--six short stories and seven +poems. Those I sent to the magazines all came back with the most +courteous promptitude. But I don't mind. It's good practice. Master +Jervie read them--he brought in the post, so I couldn't help his +knowing--and he said they were DREADFUL. They showed that I didn't +have the slightest idea of what I was talking about. (Master Jervie +doesn't let politeness interfere with truth.) But the last one I +did--just a little sketch laid in college--he said wasn't bad; and he +had it typewritten, and I sent it to a magazine. They've had it two +weeks; maybe they're thinking it over. + +You should see the sky! There's the queerest orange-coloured light +over everything. We're going to have a storm. + + +It commenced just that moment with tremendously big drops and all the +shutters banging. I had to run to close the windows, while Carrie flew +to the attic with an armful of milk pans to put under the places where +the roof leaks and then, just as I was resuming my pen, I remembered +that I'd left a cushion and rug and hat and Matthew Arnold's poems +under a tree in the orchard, so I dashed out to get them, all quite +soaked. The red cover of the poems had run into the inside; Dover +Beach in the future will be washed by pink waves. + +A storm is awfully disturbing in the country. You are always having to +think of so many things that are out of doors and getting spoiled. + + Thursday + +Daddy! Daddy! What do you think? The postman has just come with two +letters. + +1st. My story is accepted. $50. + +ALORS! I'm an AUTHOR. + +2nd. A letter from the college secretary. I'm to have a scholarship +for two years that will cover board and tuition. It was founded for +'marked proficiency in English with general excellency in other lines.' +And I've won it! I applied for it before I left, but I didn't have an +idea I'd get it, on account of my Freshman bad work in maths and Latin. +But it seems I've made it up. I am awfully glad, Daddy, because now I +won't be such a burden to you. The monthly allowance will be all I'll +need, and maybe I can earn that with writing or tutoring or something. + +I'm LONGING to go back and begin work. + + Yours ever, + Jerusha Abbott, + + Author of When the Sophomores Won + the Game. For sale at all news + stands, price ten cents. + + + + + 26th September + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Back at college again and an upper classman. Our study is better than +ever this year--faces the South with two huge windows and oh! so +furnished. Julia, with an unlimited allowance, arrived two days early +and was attacked with a fever for settling. + +We have new wall paper and oriental rugs and mahogany chairs--not +painted mahogany which made us sufficiently happy last year, but real. +It's very gorgeous, but I don't feel as though I belonged in it; I'm +nervous all the time for fear I'll get an ink spot in the wrong place. + +And, Daddy, I found your letter waiting for me--pardon--I mean your +secretary's. + +Will you kindly convey to me a comprehensible reason why I should not +accept that scholarship? I don't understand your objection in the +least. But anyway, it won't do the slightest good for you to object, +for I've already accepted it and I am not going to change! That sounds +a little impertinent, but I don't mean it so. + +I suppose you feel that when you set out to educate me, you'd like to +finish the work, and put a neat period, in the shape of a diploma, at +the end. + +But look at it just a second from my point of view. I shall owe my +education to you just as much as though I let you pay for the whole of +it, but I won't be quite so much indebted. I know that you don't want +me to return the money, but nevertheless, I am going to want to do it, +if I possibly can; and winning this scholarship makes it so much +easier. I was expecting to spend the rest of my life in paying my +debts, but now I shall only have to spend one-half of the rest of it. + +I hope you understand my position and won't be cross. The allowance I +shall still most gratefully accept. It requires an allowance to live +up to Julia and her furniture! I wish that she had been reared to +simpler tastes, or else that she were not my room-mate. + +This isn't much of a letter; I meant to have written a lot--but I've +been hemming four window curtains and three portieres (I'm glad you +can't see the length of the stitches), and polishing a brass desk set +with tooth powder (very uphill work), and sawing off picture wire with +manicure scissors, and unpacking four boxes of books, and putting away +two trunkfuls of clothes (it doesn't seem believable that Jerusha +Abbott owns two trunks full of clothes, but she does!) and welcoming +back fifty dear friends in between. + +Opening day is a joyous occasion! + +Good night, Daddy dear, and don't be annoyed because your chick is +wanting to scratch for herself. She's growing up into an awfully +energetic little hen--with a very determined cluck and lots of +beautiful feathers (all due to you). + + Affectionately, + Judy + + + + + 30th September + +Dear Daddy, + +Are you still harping on that scholarship? I never knew a man so +obstinate, and stubborn and unreasonable, and tenacious, and +bull-doggish, and unable-to-see-other-people's-point-of-view, as you. + +You prefer that I should not be accepting favours from strangers. + +Strangers!--And what are you, pray? + +Is there anyone in the world that I know less? I shouldn't recognize +you if I met you in the street. Now, you see, if you had been a sane, +sensible person and had written nice, cheering fatherly letters to your +little Judy, and had come occasionally and patted her on the head, and +had said you were glad she was such a good girl--Then, perhaps, she +wouldn't have flouted you in your old age, but would have obeyed your +slightest wish like the dutiful daughter she was meant to be. + +Strangers indeed! You live in a glass house, Mr. Smith. + +And besides, this isn't a favour; it's like a prize--I earned it by +hard work. If nobody had been good enough in English, the committee +wouldn't have awarded the scholarship; some years they don't. Also-- +But what's the use of arguing with a man? You belong, Mr. Smith, to a +sex devoid of a sense of logic. To bring a man into line, there are +just two methods: one must either coax or be disagreeable. I scorn to +coax men for what I wish. Therefore, I must be disagreeable. + +I refuse, sir, to give up the scholarship; and if you make any more +fuss, I won't accept the monthly allowance either, but will wear myself +into a nervous wreck tutoring stupid Freshmen. + +That is my ultimatum! + +And listen--I have a further thought. Since you are so afraid that by +taking this scholarship I am depriving someone else of an education, I +know a way out. You can apply the money that you would have spent for +me towards educating some other little girl from the John Grier Home. +Don't you think that's a nice idea? Only, Daddy, EDUCATE the new girl +as much as you choose, but please don't LIKE her any better than me. + +I trust that your secretary won't be hurt because I pay so little +attention to the suggestions offered in his letter, but I can't help it +if he is. He's a spoiled child, Daddy. I've meekly given in to his +whims heretofore, but this time I intend to be FIRM. + +Yours, + With a mind, + Completely and Irrevocably and + World-without-End Made-up, + + Jerusha Abbott + + + + + 9th November + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +I started down town today to buy a bottle of shoe blacking and some +collars and the material for a new blouse and a jar of violet cream and +a cake of Castile soap--all very necessary; I couldn't be happy another +day without them--and when I tried to pay the car fare, I found that I +had left my purse in the pocket of my other coat. So I had to get out +and take the next car, and was late for gymnasium. + +It's a dreadful thing to have no memory and two coats! + +Julia Pendleton has invited me to visit her for the Christmas holidays. +How does that strike you, Mr. Smith? Fancy Jerusha Abbott, of the John +Grier Home, sitting at the tables of the rich. I don't know why Julia +wants me--she seems to be getting quite attached to me of late. I +should, to tell the truth, very much prefer going to Sallie's, but +Julia asked me first, so if I go anywhere it must be to New York +instead of to Worcester. I'm rather awed at the prospect of meeting +Pendletons EN MASSE, and also I'd have to get a lot of new clothes--so, +Daddy dear, if you write that you would prefer having me remain quietly +at college, I will bow to your wishes with my usual sweet docility. + +I'm engaged at odd moments with the Life and Letters of Thomas +Huxley--it makes nice, light reading to pick up between times. Do you +know what an archaeopteryx is? It's a bird. And a stereognathus? I'm +not sure myself, but I think it's a missing link, like a bird with +teeth or a lizard with wings. No, it isn't either; I've just looked in +the book. It's a mesozoic mammal. + +I've elected economics this year--very illuminating subject. When I +finish that I'm going to take Charity and Reform; then, Mr. Trustee, +I'll know just how an orphan asylum ought to be run. Don't you think +I'd make an admirable voter if I had my rights? I was twenty-one last +week. This is an awfully wasteful country to throw away such an +honest, educated, conscientious, intelligent citizen as I would be. + + Yours always, + Judy + + + + + 7th December + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Thank you for permission to visit Julia--I take it that silence means +consent. + +Such a social whirl as we've been having! The Founder's dance came +last week--this was the first year that any of us could attend; only +upper classmen being allowed. + +I invited Jimmie McBride, and Sallie invited his room-mate at +Princeton, who visited them last summer at their camp--an awfully nice +man with red hair--and Julia invited a man from New York, not very +exciting, but socially irreproachable. He is connected with the De la +Mater Chichesters. Perhaps that means something to you? It doesn't +illuminate me to any extent. + +However--our guests came Friday afternoon in time for tea in the senior +corridor, and then dashed down to the hotel for dinner. The hotel was +so full that they slept in rows on the billiard tables, they say. +Jimmie McBride says that the next time he is bidden to a social event +in this college, he is going to bring one of their Adirondack tents and +pitch it on the campus. + +At seven-thirty they came back for the President's reception and dance. +Our functions commence early! We had the men's cards all made out +ahead of time, and after every dance, we'd leave them in groups, under +the letter that stood for their names, so that they could be readily +found by their next partners. Jimmie McBride, for example, would stand +patiently under 'M' until he was claimed. (At least, he ought to have +stood patiently, but he kept wandering off and getting mixed with 'R's' +and 'S's' and all sorts of letters.) I found him a very difficult +guest; he was sulky because he had only three dances with me. He said +he was bashful about dancing with girls he didn't know! + +The next morning we had a glee club concert--and who do you think wrote +the funny new song composed for the occasion? It's the truth. She +did. Oh, I tell you, Daddy, your little foundling is getting to be +quite a prominent person! + +Anyway, our gay two days were great fun, and I think the men enjoyed +it. Some of them were awfully perturbed at first at the prospect of +facing one thousand girls; but they got acclimated very quickly. Our +two Princeton men had a beautiful time--at least they politely said +they had, and they've invited us to their dance next spring. We've +accepted, so please don't object, Daddy dear. + +Julia and Sallie and I all had new dresses. Do you want to hear about +them? Julia's was cream satin and gold embroidery and she wore purple +orchids. It was a DREAM and came from Paris, and cost a million +dollars. + +Sallie's was pale blue trimmed with Persian embroidery, and went +beautifully with red hair. It didn't cost quite a million, but was +just as effective as Julia's. + +Mine was pale pink crepe de chine trimmed with ecru lace and rose +satin. And I carried crimson roses which J. McB. sent (Sallie having +told him what colour to get). And we all had satin slippers and silk +stockings and chiffon scarfs to match. + +You must be deeply impressed by these millinery details. + +One can't help thinking, Daddy, what a colourless life a man is forced +to lead, when one reflects that chiffon and Venetian point and hand +embroidery and Irish crochet are to him mere empty words. Whereas a +woman--whether she is interested in babies or microbes or husbands or +poetry or servants or parallelograms or gardens or Plato or bridge--is +fundamentally and always interested in clothes. + +It's the one touch of nature that makes the whole world kin. (That +isn't original. I got it out of one of Shakespeare's plays). + +However, to resume. Do you want me to tell you a secret that I've +lately discovered? And will you promise not to think me vain? Then +listen: + +I'm pretty. + +I am, really. I'd be an awful idiot not to know it with three +looking-glasses in the room. + + A Friend + + +PS. This is one of those wicked anonymous letters you read about in +novels. + + + + 20th December + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +I've just a moment, because I must attend two classes, pack a trunk and +a suit-case, and catch the four-o'clock train--but I couldn't go +without sending a word to let you know how much I appreciate my +Christmas box. + +I love the furs and the necklace and the Liberty scarf and the gloves +and handkerchiefs and books and purse--and most of all I love you! But +Daddy, you have no business to spoil me this way. I'm only human--and +a girl at that. How can I keep my mind sternly fixed on a studious +career, when you deflect me with such worldly frivolities? + +I have strong suspicions now as to which one of the John Grier Trustees +used to give the Christmas tree and the Sunday ice-cream. He was +nameless, but by his works I know him! You deserve to be happy for all +the good things you do. + +Goodbye, and a very merry Christmas. + + Yours always, + Judy + + +PS. I am sending a slight token, too. Do you think you would like her +if you knew her? + + + + + 11th January + +I meant to write to you from the city, Daddy, but New York is an +engrossing place. + +I had an interesting--and illuminating--time, but I'm glad I don't +belong to such a family! I should truly rather have the John Grier +Home for a background. Whatever the drawbacks of my bringing up, there +was at least no pretence about it. I know now what people mean when +they say they are weighed down by Things. The material atmosphere of +that house was crushing; I didn't draw a deep breath until I was on an +express train coming back. All the furniture was carved and +upholstered and gorgeous; the people I met were beautifully dressed and +low-voiced and well-bred, but it's the truth, Daddy, I never heard one +word of real talk from the time we arrived until we left. I don't +think an idea ever entered the front door. + +Mrs. Pendleton never thinks of anything but jewels and dressmakers and +social engagements. She did seem a different kind of mother from Mrs. +McBride! If I ever marry and have a family, I'm going to make them as +exactly like the McBrides as I can. Not for all the money in the world +would I ever let any children of mine develop into Pendletons. Maybe +it isn't polite to criticize people you've been visiting? If it isn't, +please excuse. This is very confidential, between you and me. + +I only saw Master Jervie once when he called at tea time, and then I +didn't have a chance to speak to him alone. It was really +disappointing after our nice time last summer. I don't think he cares +much for his relatives--and I am sure they don't care much for him! +Julia's mother says he's unbalanced. He's a Socialist--except, thank +Heaven, he doesn't let his hair grow and wear red ties. She can't +imagine where he picked up his queer ideas; the family have been Church +of England for generations. He throws away his money on every sort of +crazy reform, instead of spending it on such sensible things as yachts +and automobiles and polo ponies. He does buy candy with it though! He +sent Julia and me each a box for Christmas. + +You know, I think I'll be a Socialist, too. You wouldn't mind, would +you, Daddy? They're quite different from Anarchists; they don't +believe in blowing people up. Probably I am one by rights; I belong to +the proletariat. I haven't determined yet just which kind I am going +to be. I will look into the subject over Sunday, and declare my +principles in my next. + +I've seen loads of theatres and hotels and beautiful houses. My mind +is a confused jumble of onyx and gilding and mosaic floors and palms. +I'm still pretty breathless but I am glad to get back to college and my +books--I believe that I really am a student; this atmosphere of +academic calm I find more bracing than New York. College is a very +satisfying sort of life; the books and study and regular classes keep +you alive mentally, and then when your mind gets tired, you have the +gymnasium and outdoor athletics, and always plenty of congenial friends +who are thinking about the same things you are. We spend a whole +evening in nothing but talk--talk--talk--and go to bed with a very +uplifted feeling, as though we had settled permanently some pressing +world problems. And filling in every crevice, there is always such a +lot of nonsense--just silly jokes about the little things that come up +but very satisfying. We do appreciate our own witticisms! + +It isn't the great big pleasures that count the most; it's making a +great deal out of the little ones--I've discovered the true secret of +happiness, Daddy, and that is to live in the now. Not to be for ever +regretting the past, or anticipating the future; but to get the most +that you can out of this very instant. It's like farming. You can +have extensive farming and intensive farming; well, I am going to have +intensive living after this. I'm going to enjoy every second, and I'm +going to KNOW I'm enjoying it while I'm enjoying it. Most people don't +live; they just race. They are trying to reach some goal far away on +the horizon, and in the heat of the going they get so breathless and +panting that they lose all sight of the beautiful, tranquil country +they are passing through; and then the first thing they know, they are +old and worn out, and it doesn't make any difference whether they've +reached the goal or not. I've decided to sit down by the way and pile +up a lot of little happinesses, even if I never become a Great Author. +Did you ever know such a philosopheress as I am developing into? + + Yours ever, + Judy + +PS. It's raining cats and dogs tonight. Two puppies and a kitten have +just landed on the window-sill. + + + + +Dear Comrade, + +Hooray! I'm a Fabian. + +That's a Socialist who's willing to wait. We don't want the social +revolution to come tomorrow morning; it would be too upsetting. We +want it to come very gradually in the distant future, when we shall all +be prepared and able to sustain the shock. + +In the meantime, we must be getting ready, by instituting industrial, +educational and orphan asylum reforms. + + Yours, with fraternal love, + Judy + +Monday, 3rd hour + + + + + 11th February +Dear D.-L.-L., + +Don't be insulted because this is so short. It isn't a letter; it's +just a LINE to say that I'm going to write a letter pretty soon when +examinations are over. It is not only necessary that I pass, but pass +WELL. I have a scholarship to live up to. + + Yours, studying hard, + J. A. + + + + + 5th March + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +President Cuyler made a speech this evening about the modern generation +being flippant and superficial. He says that we are losing the old +ideals of earnest endeavour and true scholarship; and particularly is +this falling-off noticeable in our disrespectful attitude towards +organized authority. We no longer pay a seemly deference to our +superiors. + +I came away from chapel very sober. + +Am I too familiar, Daddy? Ought I to treat you with more dignity and +aloofness?--Yes, I'm sure I ought. I'll begin again. + +My Dear Mr. Smith, + +You will be pleased to hear that I passed successfully my mid-year +examinations, and am now commencing work in the new semester. I am +leaving chemistry--having completed the course in qualitative +analysis--and am entering upon the study of biology. I approach this +subject with some hesitation, as I understand that we dissect +angleworms and frogs. + +An extremely interesting and valuable lecture was given in the chapel +last week upon Roman Remains in Southern France. I have never listened +to a more illuminating exposition of the subject. + +We are reading Wordsworth's Tintern Abbey in connection with our course +in English Literature. What an exquisite work it is, and how +adequately it embodies his conceptions of Pantheism! The Romantic +movement of the early part of the last century, exemplified in the +works of such poets as Shelley, Byron, Keats, and Wordsworth, appeals +to me very much more than the Classical period that preceded it. +Speaking of poetry, have you ever read that charming little thing of +Tennyson's called Locksley Hall? + +I am attending gymnasium very regularly of late. A proctor system has +been devised, and failure to comply with the rules causes a great deal +of inconvenience. The gymnasium is equipped with a very beautiful +swimming tank of cement and marble, the gift of a former graduate. My +room-mate, Miss McBride, has given me her bathing-suit (it shrank so +that she can no longer wear it) and I am about to begin swimming +lessons. + +We had delicious pink ice-cream for dessert last night. Only vegetable +dyes are used in colouring the food. The college is very much opposed, +both from aesthetic and hygienic motives, to the use of aniline dyes. + +The weather of late has been ideal--bright sunshine and clouds +interspersed with a few welcome snow-storms. I and my companions have +enjoyed our walks to and from classes--particularly from. + +Trusting, my dear Mr. Smith, that this will find you in your usual good +health, + + I remain, + Most cordially yours, + Jerusha Abbott + + + + + 24th April + +Dear Daddy, + +Spring has come again! You should see how lovely the campus is. I +think you might come and look at it for yourself. Master Jervie +dropped in again last Friday--but he chose a most unpropitious time, +for Sallie and Julia and I were just running to catch a train. And +where do you think we were going? To Princeton, to attend a dance and +a ball game, if you please! I didn't ask you if I might go, because I +had a feeling that your secretary would say no. But it was entirely +regular; we had leave-of-absence from college, and Mrs. McBride +chaperoned us. We had a charming time--but I shall have to omit +details; they are too many and complicated. + + + Saturday + +Up before dawn! The night watchman called us--six of us--and we made +coffee in a chafing dish (you never saw so many grounds!) and walked +two miles to the top of One Tree Hill to see the sun rise. We had to +scramble up the last slope! The sun almost beat us! And perhaps you +think we didn't bring back appetites to breakfast! + +Dear me, Daddy, I seem to have a very ejaculatory style today; this +page is peppered with exclamations. + +I meant to have written a lot about the budding trees and the new +cinder path in the athletic field, and the awful lesson we have in +biology for tomorrow, and the new canoes on the lake, and Catherine +Prentiss who has pneumonia, and Prexy's Angora kitten that strayed from +home and has been boarding in Fergussen Hall for two weeks until a +chambermaid reported it, and about my three new dresses--white and pink +and blue polka dots with a hat to match--but I am too sleepy. I am +always making this an excuse, am I not? But a girls' college is a busy +place and we do get tired by the end of the day! Particularly when the +day begins at dawn. + + Affectionately, + Judy + + + + + 15th May + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Is it good manners when you get into a car just to stare straight ahead +and not see anybody else? + +A very beautiful lady in a very beautiful velvet dress got into the car +today, and without the slightest expression sat for fifteen minutes and +looked at a sign advertising suspenders. It doesn't seem polite to +ignore everybody else as though you were the only important person +present. Anyway, you miss a lot. While she was absorbing that silly +sign, I was studying a whole car full of interesting human beings. + +The accompanying illustration is hereby reproduced for the first time. +It looks like a spider on the end of a string, but it isn't at all; +it's a picture of me learning to swim in the tank in the gymnasium. + +The instructor hooks a rope into a ring in the back of my belt, and +runs it through a pulley in the ceiling. It would be a beautiful +system if one had perfect confidence in the probity of one's +instructor. I'm always afraid, though, that she will let the rope get +slack, so I keep one anxious eye on her and swim with the other, and +with this divided interest I do not make the progress that I otherwise +might. + +Very miscellaneous weather we're having of late. It was raining when I +commenced and now the sun is shining. Sallie and I are going out to +play tennis--thereby gaining exemption from Gym. + + + A week later + +I should have finished this letter long ago, but I didn't. You don't +mind, do you, Daddy, if I'm not very regular? I really do love to +write to you; it gives me such a respectable feeling of having some +family. Would you like me to tell you something? You are not the only +man to whom I write letters. There are two others! I have been +receiving beautiful long letters this winter from Master Jervie (with +typewritten envelopes so Julia won't recognize the writing). Did you +ever hear anything so shocking? And every week or so a very scrawly +epistle, usually on yellow tablet paper, arrives from Princeton. All +of which I answer with business-like promptness. So you see--I am not +so different from other girls--I get letters, too. + +Did I tell you that I have been elected a member of the Senior Dramatic +Club? Very recherche organization. Only seventy-five members out of +one thousand. Do you think as a consistent Socialist that I ought to +belong? + +What do you suppose is at present engaging my attention in sociology? +I am writing (figurez vous!) a paper on the Care of Dependent Children. +The Professor shuffled up his subjects and dealt them out +promiscuously, and that fell to me. C'est drole ca n'est pas? + +There goes the gong for dinner. I'll post this as I pass the box. + + Affectionately, + J. + + + + + 4th June + +Dear Daddy, + +Very busy time--commencement in ten days, examinations tomorrow; lots +of studying, lots of packing, and the outdoor world so lovely that it +hurts you to stay inside. + +But never mind, vacation's coming. Julia is going abroad this +summer--it makes the fourth time. No doubt about it, Daddy, goods are +not distributed evenly. Sallie, as usual, goes to the Adirondacks. +And what do you think I am going to do? You may have three guesses. +Lock Willow? Wrong. The Adirondacks with Sallie? Wrong. (I'll never +attempt that again; I was discouraged last year.) Can't you guess +anything else? You're not very inventive. I'll tell you, Daddy, if +you'll promise not to make a lot of objections. I warn your secretary +in advance that my mind is made up. + +I am going to spend the summer at the seaside with a Mrs. Charles +Paterson and tutor her daughter who is to enter college in the autumn. +I met her through the McBrides, and she is a very charming woman. I am +to give lessons in English and Latin to the younger daughter, too, but +I shall have a little time to myself, and I shall be earning fifty +dollars a month! Doesn't that impress you as a perfectly exorbitant +amount? She offered it; I should have blushed to ask for more than +twenty-five. + +I finish at Magnolia (that's where she lives) the first of September, +and shall probably spend the remaining three weeks at Lock Willow--I +should like to see the Semples again and all the friendly animals. + +How does my programme strike you, Daddy? I am getting quite +independent, you see. You have put me on my feet and I think I can +almost walk alone by now. + +Princeton commencement and our examinations exactly coincide--which is +an awful blow. Sallie and I did so want to get away in time for it, +but of course that is utterly impossible. + +Goodbye, Daddy. Have a nice summer and come back in the autumn rested +and ready for another year of work. (That's what you ought to be +writing to me!) I haven't any idea what you do in the summer, or how +you amuse yourself. I can't visualize your surroundings. Do you play +golf or hunt or ride horseback or just sit in the sun and meditate? + +Anyway, whatever it is, have a good time and don't forget Judy. + + + + + 10th June + +Dear Daddy, + +This is the hardest letter I ever wrote, but I have decided what I must +do, and there isn't going to be any turning back. It is very sweet and +generous and dear of you to wish to send me to Europe this summer--for +the moment I was intoxicated by the idea; but sober second thoughts +said no. It would be rather illogical of me to refuse to take your +money for college, and then use it instead just for amusement! You +mustn't get me used to too many luxuries. One doesn't miss what one +has never had; but it's awfully hard going without things after one has +commenced thinking they are his--hers (English language needs another +pronoun) by natural right. Living with Sallie and Julia is an awful +strain on my stoical philosophy. They have both had things from the +time they were babies; they accept happiness as a matter of course. +The World, they think, owes them everything they want. Maybe the World +does--in any case, it seems to acknowledge the debt and pay up. But as +for me, it owes me nothing, and distinctly told me so in the beginning. +I have no right to borrow on credit, for there will come a time when +the World will repudiate my claim. + +I seem to be floundering in a sea of metaphor--but I hope you grasp my +meaning? Anyway, I have a very strong feeling that the only honest +thing for me to do is to teach this summer and begin to support myself. + + + + MAGNOLIA, + Four days later + +I'd got just that much written, when--what do you think happened? The +maid arrived with Master Jervie's card. He is going abroad too this +summer; not with Julia and her family, but entirely by himself I told +him that you had invited me to go with a lady who is chaperoning a +party of girls. He knows about you, Daddy. That is, he knows that my +father and mother are dead, and that a kind gentleman is sending me to +college; I simply didn't have the courage to tell him about the John +Grier Home and all the rest. He thinks that you are my guardian and a +perfectly legitimate old family friend. I have never told him that I +didn't know you--that would seem too queer! + +Anyway, he insisted on my going to Europe. He said that it was a +necessary part of my education and that I mustn't think of refusing. +Also, that he would be in Paris at the same time, and that we would run +away from the chaperon occasionally and have dinner together at nice, +funny, foreign restaurants. + +Well, Daddy, it did appeal to me! I almost weakened; if he hadn't been +so dictatorial, maybe I should have entirely weakened. I can be +enticed step by step, but I WON'T be forced. He said I was a silly, +foolish, irrational, quixotic, idiotic, stubborn child (those are a few +of his abusive adjectives; the rest escape me), and that I didn't know +what was good for me; I ought to let older people judge. We almost +quarrelled--I am not sure but that we entirely did! + +In any case, I packed my trunk fast and came up here. I thought I'd +better see my bridges in flames behind me before I finished writing to +you. They are entirely reduced to ashes now. Here I am at Cliff Top +(the name of Mrs. Paterson's cottage) with my trunk unpacked and +Florence (the little one) already struggling with first declension +nouns. And it bids fair to be a struggle! She is a most uncommonly +spoiled child; I shall have to teach her first how to study--she has +never in her life concentrated on anything more difficult than +ice-cream soda water. + +We use a quiet corner of the cliffs for a schoolroom--Mrs. Paterson +wishes me to keep them out of doors--and I will say that I find it +difficult to concentrate with the blue sea before me and ships +a-sailing by! And when I think I might be on one, sailing off to +foreign lands--but I WON'T let myself think of anything but Latin +Grammar. + + +The prepositions a or ab, absque, coram, cum, de e or ex, prae, pro, +sine, tenus, in, subter, sub and super govern the ablative. + + +So you see, Daddy, I am already plunged into work with my eyes +persistently set against temptation. Don't be cross with me, please, +and don't think that I do not appreciate your kindness, for I +do--always--always. The only way I can ever repay you is by turning +out a Very Useful Citizen (Are women citizens? I don't suppose they +are.) Anyway, a Very Useful Person. And when you look at me you can +say, 'I gave that Very Useful Person to the world.' + +That sounds well, doesn't it, Daddy? But I don't wish to mislead you. +The feeling often comes over me that I am not at all remarkable; it is +fun to plan a career, but in all probability I shan't turn out a bit +different from any other ordinary person. I may end by marrying an +undertaker and being an inspiration to him in his work. + + Yours ever, + Judy + + + + + 19th August + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +My window looks out on the loveliest landscape--ocean-scape, +rather--nothing but water and rocks. + +The summer goes. I spend the morning with Latin and English and +algebra and my two stupid girls. I don't know how Marion is ever going +to get into college, or stay in after she gets there. And as for +Florence, she is hopeless--but oh! such a little beauty. I don't +suppose it matters in the least whether they are stupid or not so long +as they are pretty? One can't help thinking, though, how their +conversation will bore their husbands, unless they are fortunate enough +to obtain stupid husbands. I suppose that's quite possible; the world +seems to be filled with stupid men; I've met a number this summer. + +In the afternoon we take a walk on the cliffs, or swim, if the tide is +right. I can swim in salt water with the utmost ease you see my +education is already being put to use! + +A letter comes from Mr. Jervis Pendleton in Paris, rather a short +concise letter; I'm not quite forgiven yet for refusing to follow his +advice. However, if he gets back in time, he will see me for a few +days at Lock Willow before college opens, and if I am very nice and +sweet and docile, I shall (I am led to infer) be received into favour +again. + +Also a letter from Sallie. She wants me to come to their camp for two +weeks in September. Must I ask your permission, or haven't I yet +arrived at the place where I can do as I please? Yes, I am sure I +have--I'm a Senior, you know. Having worked all summer, I feel like +taking a little healthful recreation; I want to see the Adirondacks; I +want to see Sallie; I want to see Sallie's brother--he's going to teach +me to canoe--and (we come to my chief motive, which is mean) I want +Master Jervie to arrive at Lock Willow and find me not there. + +I MUST show him that he can't dictate to me. No one can dictate to me +but you, Daddy--and you can't always! I'm off for the woods. + + Judy + + + + + CAMP MCBRIDE, + 6th September + +Dear Daddy, + +Your letter didn't come in time (I am pleased to say). If you wish your +instructions to be obeyed, you must have your secretary transmit them +in less than two weeks. As you observe, I am here, and have been for +five days. + +The woods are fine, and so is the camp, and so is the weather, and so +are the McBrides, and so is the whole world. I'm very happy! + +There's Jimmie calling for me to come canoeing. Goodbye--sorry to have +disobeyed, but why are you so persistent about not wanting me to play a +little? When I've worked all the summer I deserve two weeks. You are +awfully dog-in-the-mangerish. + +However--I love you still, Daddy, in spite of all your faults. + + Judy + + + + + 3rd October +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Back at college and a Senior--also editor of the Monthly. It doesn't +seem possible, does it, that so sophisticated a person, just four years +ago, was an inmate of the John Grier Home? We do arrive fast in +America! + +What do you think of this? A note from Master Jervie directed to Lock +Willow and forwarded here. He's sorry, but he finds that he can't get +up there this autumn; he has accepted an invitation to go yachting with +some friends. Hopes I've had a nice summer and am enjoying the country. + +And he knew all the time that I was with the McBrides, for Julia told +him so! You men ought to leave intrigue to women; you haven't a light +enough touch. + +Julia has a trunkful of the most ravishing new clothes--an evening gown +of rainbow Liberty crepe that would be fitting raiment for the angels +in Paradise. And I thought that my own clothes this year were +unprecedentedly (is there such a word?) beautiful. I copied Mrs. +Paterson's wardrobe with the aid of a cheap dressmaker, and though the +gowns didn't turn out quite twins of the originals, I was entirely +happy until Julia unpacked. But now--I live to see Paris! + +Dear Daddy, aren't you glad you're not a girl? I suppose you think +that the fuss we make over clothes is too absolutely silly? It is. No +doubt about it. But it's entirely your fault. + +Did you ever hear about the learned Herr Professor who regarded +unnecessary adornment with contempt and favoured sensible, utilitarian +clothes for women? His wife, who was an obliging creature, adopted +'dress reform.' And what do you think he did? He eloped with a chorus +girl. + + Yours ever, + Judy + + +PS. The chamber-maid in our corridor wears blue checked gingham +aprons. I am going to get her some brown ones instead, and sink the +blue ones in the bottom of the lake. I have a reminiscent chill every +time I look at them. + + + + + + 17th November + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Such a blight has fallen over my literary career. I don't know whether +to tell you or not, but I would like some sympathy--silent sympathy, +please; don't re-open the wound by referring to it in your next letter. + +I've been writing a book, all last winter in the evenings, and all the +summer when I wasn't teaching Latin to my two stupid children. I just +finished it before college opened and sent it to a publisher. He kept +it two months, and I was certain he was going to take it; but yesterday +morning an express parcel came (thirty cents due) and there it was back +again with a letter from the publisher, a very nice, fatherly +letter--but frank! He said he saw from the address that I was still at +college, and if I would accept some advice, he would suggest that I put +all of my energy into my lessons and wait until I graduated before +beginning to write. He enclosed his reader's opinion. Here it is: + +'Plot highly improbable. Characterization exaggerated. Conversation +unnatural. A good deal of humour but not always in the best of taste. +Tell her to keep on trying, and in time she may produce a real book.' + +Not on the whole flattering, is it, Daddy? And I thought I was making +a notable addition to American literature. I did truly. I was +planning to surprise you by writing a great novel before I graduated. +I collected the material for it while I was at Julia's last Christmas. +But I dare say the editor is right. Probably two weeks was not enough +in which to observe the manners and customs of a great city. + +I took it walking with me yesterday afternoon, and when I came to the +gas house, I went in and asked the engineer if I might borrow his +furnace. He politely opened the door, and with my own hands I chucked +it in. I felt as though I had cremated my only child! + +I went to bed last night utterly dejected; I thought I was never going +to amount to anything, and that you had thrown away your money for +nothing. But what do you think? I woke up this morning with a +beautiful new plot in my head, and I've been going about all day +planning my characters, just as happy as I could be. No one can ever +accuse me of being a pessimist! If I had a husband and twelve children +swallowed by an earthquake one day, I'd bob up smilingly the next +morning and commence to look for another set. + + Affectionately, + Judy + + + + + 14th December + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +I dreamed the funniest dream last night. I thought I went into a book +store and the clerk brought me a new book named The Life and Letters of +Judy Abbott. I could see it perfectly plainly--red cloth binding with +a picture of the John Grier Home on the cover, and my portrait for a +frontispiece with, 'Very truly yours, Judy Abbott,' written below. But +just as I was turning to the end to read the inscription on my +tombstone, I woke up. It was very annoying! I almost found out whom +I'm going to marry and when I'm going to die. + +Don't you think it would be interesting if you really could read the +story of your life--written perfectly truthfully by an omniscient +author? And suppose you could only read it on this condition: that +you would never forget it, but would have to go through life knowing +ahead of time exactly how everything you did would turn out, and +foreseeing to the exact hour the time when you would die. How many +people do you suppose would have the courage to read it then? or how +many could suppress their curiosity sufficiently to escape from reading +it, even at the price of having to live without hope and without +surprises? + +Life is monotonous enough at best; you have to eat and sleep about so +often. But imagine how DEADLY monotonous it would be if nothing +unexpected could happen between meals. Mercy! Daddy, there's a blot, +but I'm on the third page and I can't begin a new sheet. + +I'm going on with biology again this year--very interesting subject; +we're studying the alimentary system at present. You should see how +sweet a cross-section of the duodenum of a cat is under the microscope. + +Also we've arrived at philosophy--interesting but evanescent. I prefer +biology where you can pin the subject under discussion to a board. +There's another! And another! This pen is weeping copiously. Please +excuse its tears. + +Do you believe in free will? I do--unreservedly. I don't agree at all +with the philosophers who think that every action is the absolutely +inevitable and automatic resultant of an aggregation of remote causes. +That's the most immoral doctrine I ever heard--nobody would be to blame +for anything. If a man believed in fatalism, he would naturally just +sit down and say, 'The Lord's will be done,' and continue to sit until +he fell over dead. + +I believe absolutely in my own free will and my own power to +accomplish--and that is the belief that moves mountains. You watch me +become a great author! I have four chapters of my new book finished +and five more drafted. + +This is a very abstruse letter--does your head ache, Daddy? I think +we'll stop now and make some fudge. I'm sorry I can't send you a +piece; it will be unusually good, for we're going to make it with real +cream and three butter balls. + + Yours affectionately, + Judy + + +PS. We're having fancy dancing in gymnasium class. You can see by the +accompanying picture how much we look like a real ballet. The one at +the end accomplishing a graceful pirouette is me--I mean I. + + + + + 26th December + +My Dear, Dear, Daddy, + +Haven't you any sense? Don't you KNOW that you mustn't give one girl +seventeen Christmas presents? I'm a Socialist, please remember; do you +wish to turn me into a Plutocrat? + +Think how embarrassing it would be if we should ever quarrel! I should +have to engage a moving-van to return your gifts. + +I am sorry that the necktie I sent was so wobbly; I knit it with my own +hands (as you doubtless discovered from internal evidence). You will +have to wear it on cold days and keep your coat buttoned up tight. + +Thank you, Daddy, a thousand times. I think you're the sweetest man +that ever lived--and the foolishest! + + Judy + + +Here's a four-leaf clover from Camp McBride to bring you good luck for +the New Year. + + + + + 9th January + +Do you wish to do something, Daddy, that will ensure your eternal +salvation? There is a family here who are in awfully desperate +straits. A mother and father and four visible children--the two older +boys have disappeared into the world to make their fortune and have not +sent any of it back. The father worked in a glass factory and got +consumption--it's awfully unhealthy work--and now has been sent away to +a hospital. That took all their savings, and the support of the family +falls upon the oldest daughter, who is twenty-four. She dressmakes for +$1.50 a day (when she can get it) and embroiders centrepieces in the +evening. The mother isn't very strong and is extremely ineffectual and +pious. She sits with her hands folded, a picture of patient +resignation, while the daughter kills herself with overwork and +responsibility and worry; she doesn't see how they are going to get +through the rest of the winter--and I don't either. One hundred +dollars would buy some coal and some shoes for three children so that +they could go to school, and give a little margin so that she needn't +worry herself to death when a few days pass and she doesn't get work. + +You are the richest man I know. Don't you suppose you could spare one +hundred dollars? That girl deserves help a lot more than I ever did. +I wouldn't ask it except for the girl; I don't care much what happens +to the mother--she is such a jelly-fish. + +The way people are for ever rolling their eyes to heaven and saying, +'Perhaps it's all for the best,' when they are perfectly dead sure it's +not, makes me enraged. Humility or resignation or whatever you choose +to call it, is simply impotent inertia. I'm for a more militant +religion! + +We are getting the most dreadful lessons in philosophy--all of +Schopenhauer for tomorrow. The professor doesn't seem to realize that +we are taking any other subject. He's a queer old duck; he goes about +with his head in the clouds and blinks dazedly when occasionally he +strikes solid earth. He tries to lighten his lectures with an +occasional witticism--and we do our best to smile, but I assure you his +jokes are no laughing matter. He spends his entire time between +classes in trying to figure out whether matter really exists or whether +he only thinks it exists. + +I'm sure my sewing girl hasn't any doubt but that it exists! + +Where do you think my new novel is? In the waste-basket. I can see +myself that it's no good on earth, and when a loving author realizes +that, what WOULD be the judgment of a critical public? + + + Later + +I address you, Daddy, from a bed of pain. For two days I've been laid +up with swollen tonsils; I can just swallow hot milk, and that is all. +'What were your parents thinking of not to have those tonsils out when +you were a baby?' the doctor wished to know. I'm sure I haven't an +idea, but I doubt if they were thinking much about me. + + Yours, + J. A. + + + + + Next morning + +I just read this over before sealing it. I don't know WHY I cast such +a misty atmosphere over life. I hasten to assure you that I am young +and happy and exuberant; and I trust you are the same. Youth has +nothing to do with birthdays, only with ALIVEDNESS of spirit, so even +if your hair is grey, Daddy, you can still be a boy. + + Affectionately, + Judy + + + + + 12th Jan. + +Dear Mr. Philanthropist, + +Your cheque for my family came yesterday. Thank you so much! I cut +gymnasium and took it down to them right after luncheon, and you should +have seen the girl's face! She was so surprised and happy and relieved +that she looked almost young; and she's only twenty-four. Isn't it +pitiful? + +Anyway, she feels now as though all the good things were coming +together. She has steady work ahead for two months--someone's getting +married, and there's a trousseau to make. + +'Thank the good Lord!' cried the mother, when she grasped the fact that +that small piece of paper was one hundred dollars. + +'It wasn't the good Lord at all,' said I, 'it was Daddy-Long-Legs.' +(Mr. Smith, I called you.) + +'But it was the good Lord who put it in his mind,' said she. + +'Not at all! I put it in his mind myself,' said I. + +But anyway, Daddy, I trust the good Lord will reward you suitably. You +deserve ten thousand years out of purgatory. + + Yours most gratefully, + Judy Abbott + + + + + 15th Feb. + +May it please Your Most Excellent Majesty: + +This morning I did eat my breakfast upon a cold turkey pie and a goose, +and I did send for a cup of tee (a china drink) of which I had never +drank before. + +Don't be nervous, Daddy--I haven't lost my mind; I'm merely quoting +Sam'l Pepys. We're reading him in connection with English History, +original sources. Sallie and Julia and I converse now in the language +of 1660. Listen to this: + +'I went to Charing Cross to see Major Harrison hanged, drawn and +quartered: he looking as cheerful as any man could do in that +condition.' And this: 'Dined with my lady who is in handsome mourning +for her brother who died yesterday of spotted fever.' + +Seems a little early to commence entertaining, doesn't it? A friend of +Pepys devised a very cunning manner whereby the king might pay his +debts out of the sale to poor people of old decayed provisions. What +do you, a reformer, think of that? I don't believe we're so bad today +as the newspapers make out. + +Samuel was as excited about his clothes as any girl; he spent five +times as much on dress as his wife--that appears to have been the +Golden Age of husbands. Isn't this a touching entry? You see he +really was honest. 'Today came home my fine Camlett cloak with gold +buttons, which cost me much money, and I pray God to make me able to +pay for it.' + +Excuse me for being so full of Pepys; I'm writing a special topic on +him. + +What do you think, Daddy? The Self-Government Association has +abolished the ten o'clock rule. We can keep our lights all night if we +choose, the only requirement being that we do not disturb others--we +are not supposed to entertain on a large scale. The result is a +beautiful commentary on human nature. Now that we may stay up as long +as we choose, we no longer choose. Our heads begin to nod at nine +o'clock, and by nine-thirty the pen drops from our nerveless grasp. +It's nine-thirty now. Good night. + + + Sunday + +Just back from church--preacher from Georgia. We must take care, he +says, not to develop our intellects at the expense of our emotional +natures--but methought it was a poor, dry sermon (Pepys again). It +doesn't matter what part of the United States or Canada they come from, +or what denomination they are, we always get the same sermon. Why on +earth don't they go to men's colleges and urge the students not to +allow their manly natures to be crushed out by too much mental +application? + +It's a beautiful day--frozen and icy and clear. As soon as dinner is +over, Sallie and Julia and Marty Keene and Eleanor Pratt (friends of +mine, but you don't know them) and I are going to put on short skirts +and walk 'cross country to Crystal Spring Farm and have a fried chicken +and waffle supper, and then have Mr. Crystal Spring drive us home in +his buckboard. We are supposed to be inside the campus at seven, but +we are going to stretch a point tonight and make it eight. + +Farewell, kind Sir. + + I have the honour of subscribing myself, + Your most loyall, dutifull, faithfull and obedient servant, + J. Abbott + + + + + March Fifth + +Dear Mr. Trustee, + +Tomorrow is the first Wednesday in the month--a weary day for the John +Grier Home. How relieved they'll be when five o'clock comes and you +pat them on the head and take yourselves off! Did you (individually) +ever pat me on the head, Daddy? I don't believe so--my memory seems to +be concerned only with fat Trustees. + +Give the Home my love, please--my TRULY love. I have quite a feeling +of tenderness for it as I look back through a haze of four years. When +I first came to college I felt quite resentful because I'd been robbed +of the normal kind of childhood that the other girls had had; but now, +I don't feel that way in the least. I regard it as a very unusual +adventure. It gives me a sort of vantage point from which to stand +aside and look at life. Emerging full grown, I get a perspective on +the world, that other people who have been brought up in the thick of +things entirely lack. + +I know lots of girls (Julia, for instance) who never know that they are +happy. They are so accustomed to the feeling that their senses are +deadened to it; but as for me--I am perfectly sure every moment of my +life that I am happy. And I'm going to keep on being, no matter what +unpleasant things turn up. I'm going to regard them (even toothaches) +as interesting experiences, and be glad to know what they feel like. +'Whatever sky's above me, I've a heart for any fate.' + +However, Daddy, don't take this new affection for the J.G.H. too +literally. If I have five children, like Rousseau, I shan't leave them +on the steps of a foundling asylum in order to insure their being +brought up simply. + +Give my kindest regards to Mrs. Lippett (that, I think, is truthful; +love would be a little strong) and don't forget to tell her what a +beautiful nature I've developed. + + Affectionately, + Judy + + + + LOCK WILLOW, + 4th April + +Dear Daddy, + +Do you observe the postmark? Sallie and I are embellishing Lock Willow +with our presence during the Easter Vacation. We decided that the best +thing we could do with our ten days was to come where it is quiet. Our +nerves had got to the point where they wouldn't stand another meal in +Fergussen. Dining in a room with four hundred girls is an ordeal when +you are tired. There is so much noise that you can't hear the girls +across the table speak unless they make their hands into a megaphone +and shout. That is the truth. + +We are tramping over the hills and reading and writing, and having a +nice, restful time. We climbed to the top of 'Sky Hill' this morning +where Master Jervie and I once cooked supper--it doesn't seem possible +that it was nearly two years ago. I could still see the place where +the smoke of our fire blackened the rock. It is funny how certain +places get connected with certain people, and you never go back without +thinking of them. I was quite lonely without him--for two minutes. + +What do you think is my latest activity, Daddy? You will begin to +believe that I am incorrigible--I am writing a book. I started it +three weeks ago and am eating it up in chunks. I've caught the secret. +Master Jervie and that editor man were right; you are most convincing +when you write about the things you know. And this time it is about +something that I do know--exhaustively. Guess where it's laid? In the +John Grier Home! And it's good, Daddy, I actually believe it is--just +about the tiny little things that happened every day. I'm a realist +now. I've abandoned romanticism; I shall go back to it later though, +when my own adventurous future begins. + +This new book is going to get itself finished--and published! You see +if it doesn't. If you just want a thing hard enough and keep on trying, +you do get it in the end. I've been trying for four years to get a +letter from you--and I haven't given up hope yet. + +Goodbye, Daddy dear, + +(I like to call you Daddy dear; it's so alliterative.) + + Affectionately, + Judy + + +PS. I forgot to tell you the farm news, but it's very distressing. +Skip this postscript if you don't want your sensibilities all wrought +up. + +Poor old Grove is dead. He got so that he couldn't chew and they had +to shoot him. + +Nine chickens were killed by a weasel or a skunk or a rat last week. + +One of the cows is sick, and we had to have the veterinary surgeon out +from Bonnyrigg Four Corners. Amasai stayed up all night to give her +linseed oil and whisky. But we have an awful suspicion that the poor +sick cow got nothing but linseed oil. + +Sentimental Tommy (the tortoise-shell cat) has disappeared; we are +afraid he has been caught in a trap. + +There are lots of troubles in the world! + + + + + 17th May + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +This is going to be extremely short because my shoulder aches at the +sight of a pen. Lecture notes all day, immortal novel all evening, +make too much writing. + +Commencement three weeks from next Wednesday. I think you might come +and make my acquaintance--I shall hate you if you don't! Julia's +inviting Master Jervie, he being her family, and Sallie's inviting +Jimmie McB., he being her family, but who is there for me to invite? +Just you and Lippett, and I don't want her. Please come. + +Yours, with love and writer's cramp. + Judy + + + + + LOCK WILLOW, + 19th June + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +I'm educated! My diploma is in the bottom bureau drawer with my two +best dresses. Commencement was as usual, with a few showers at vital +moments. Thank you for your rosebuds. They were lovely. Master +Jervie and Master Jimmie both gave me roses, too, but I left theirs in +the bath tub and carried yours in the class procession. + +Here I am at Lock Willow for the summer--for ever maybe. The board is +cheap; the surroundings quiet and conducive to a literary life. What +more does a struggling author wish? I am mad about my book. I think +of it every waking moment, and dream of it at night. All I want is +peace and quiet and lots of time to work (interspersed with nourishing +meals). + +Master Jervie is coming up for a week or so in August, and Jimmie +McBride is going to drop in sometime through the summer. He's +connected with a bond house now, and goes about the country selling +bonds to banks. He's going to combine the 'Farmers' National' at the +Corners and me on the same trip. + +You see that Lock Willow isn't entirely lacking in society. I'd be +expecting to have you come motoring through--only I know now that that +is hopeless. When you wouldn't come to my commencement, I tore you +from my heart and buried you for ever. + + Judy Abbott, A.B. + + + + + 24th July + +Dearest Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Isn't it fun to work--or don't you ever do it? It's especially fun +when your kind of work is the thing you'd rather do more than anything +else in the world. I've been writing as fast as my pen would go every +day this summer, and my only quarrel with life is that the days aren't +long enough to write all the beautiful and valuable and entertaining +thoughts I'm thinking. + +I've finished the second draft of my book and am going to begin the +third tomorrow morning at half-past seven. It's the sweetest book you +ever saw--it is, truly. I think of nothing else. I can barely wait in +the morning to dress and eat before beginning; then I write and write +and write till suddenly I'm so tired that I'm limp all over. Then I go +out with Colin (the new sheep dog) and romp through the fields and get +a fresh supply of ideas for the next day. It's the most beautiful book +you ever saw--Oh, pardon--I said that before. + +You don't think me conceited, do you, Daddy dear? + +I'm not, really, only just now I'm in the enthusiastic stage. Maybe +later on I'll get cold and critical and sniffy. No, I'm sure I won't! +This time I've written a real book. Just wait till you see it. + +I'll try for a minute to talk about something else. I never told you, +did I, that Amasai and Carrie got married last May? They are still +working here, but so far as I can see it has spoiled them both. She +used to laugh when he tramped in mud or dropped ashes on the floor, but +now--you should hear her scold! And she doesn't curl her hair any +longer. Amasai, who used to be so obliging about beating rugs and +carrying wood, grumbles if you suggest such a thing. Also his neckties +are quite dingy--black and brown, where they used to be scarlet and +purple. I've determined never to marry. It's a deteriorating process, +evidently. + +There isn't much of any farm news. The animals are all in the best of +health. The pigs are unusually fat, the cows seem contented and the +hens are laying well. Are you interested in poultry? If so, let me +recommend that invaluable little work, 200 Eggs per Hen per Year. I am +thinking of starting an incubator next spring and raising broilers. +You see I'm settled at Lock Willow permanently. I have decided to stay +until I've written 114 novels like Anthony Trollope's mother. Then I +shall have completed my life work and can retire and travel. + +Mr. James McBride spent last Sunday with us. Fried chicken and +ice-cream for dinner, both of which he appeared to appreciate. I was +awfully glad to see him; he brought a momentary reminder that the world +at large exists. Poor Jimmie is having a hard time peddling his bonds. +The 'Farmers' National' at the Corners wouldn't have anything to do +with them in spite of the fact that they pay six per cent. interest +and sometimes seven. I think he'll end up by going home to Worcester +and taking a job in his father's factory. He's too open and confiding +and kind-hearted ever to make a successful financier. But to be the +manager of a flourishing overall factory is a very desirable position, +don't you think? Just now he turns up his nose at overalls, but he'll +come to them. + +I hope you appreciate the fact that this is a long letter from a person +with writer's cramp. But I still love you, Daddy dear, and I'm very +happy. With beautiful scenery all about, and lots to eat and a +comfortable four-post bed and a ream of blank paper and a pint of +ink--what more does one want in the world? + + Yours as always, + Judy + +PS. The postman arrives with some more news. We are to expect Master +Jervie on Friday next to spend a week. That's a very pleasant +prospect--only I am afraid my poor book will suffer. Master Jervie is +very demanding. + + + + + 27th August + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Where are you, I wonder? + +I never know what part of the world you are in, but I hope you're not +in New York during this awful weather. I hope you're on a mountain +peak (but not in Switzerland; somewhere nearer) looking at the snow and +thinking about me. Please be thinking about me. I'm quite lonely and +I want to be thought about. Oh, Daddy, I wish I knew you! Then when +we were unhappy we could cheer each other up. + +I don't think I can stand much more of Lock Willow. I'm thinking of +moving. Sallie is going to do settlement work in Boston next winter. +Don't you think it would be nice for me to go with her, then we could +have a studio together? I would write while she SETTLED and we could +be together in the evenings. Evenings are very long when there's no +one but the Semples and Carrie and Amasai to talk to. I know in +advance that you won't like my studio idea. I can read your +secretary's letter now: + + +'Miss Jerusha Abbott. + 'DEAR MADAM, + +'Mr. Smith prefers that you remain at Lock Willow. + 'Yours truly, + 'ELMER H. GRIGGS.' + + +I hate your secretary. I am certain that a man named Elmer H. Griggs +must be horrid. But truly, Daddy, I think I shall have to go to +Boston. I can't stay here. If something doesn't happen soon, I shall +throw myself into the silo pit out of sheer desperation. + +Mercy! but it's hot. All the grass is burnt up and the brooks are dry +and the roads are dusty. It hasn't rained for weeks and weeks. + +This letter sounds as though I had hydrophobia, but I haven't. I just +want some family. + +Goodbye, my dearest Daddy. + + I wish I knew you. + Judy + + + + + LOCK WILLOW, + 19th September + +Dear Daddy, + +Something has happened and I need advice. I need it from you, and from +nobody else in the world. Wouldn't it be possible for me to see you? +It's so much easier to talk than to write; and I'm afraid your +secretary might open the letter. + Judy + +PS. I'm very unhappy. + + + + + LOCK WILLOW, + 3rd October + +Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Your note written in your own hand--and a pretty wobbly hand!--came +this morning. I am so sorry that you have been ill; I wouldn't have +bothered you with my affairs if I had known. Yes, I will tell you the +trouble, but it's sort of complicated to write, and VERY PRIVATE. +Please don't keep this letter, but burn it. + +Before I begin--here's a cheque for one thousand dollars. It seems +funny, doesn't it, for me to be sending a cheque to you? Where do you +think I got it? + +I've sold my story, Daddy. It's going to be published serially in +seven parts, and then in a book! You might think I'd be wild with joy, +but I'm not. I'm entirely apathetic. Of course I'm glad to begin +paying you--I owe you over two thousand more. It's coming in +instalments. Now don't be horrid, please, about taking it, because it +makes me happy to return it. I owe you a great deal more than the mere +money, and the rest I will continue to pay all my life in gratitude and +affection. + +And now, Daddy, about the other thing; please give me your most worldly +advice, whether you think I'll like it or not. + +You know that I've always had a very special feeling towards you; you +sort of represented my whole family; but you won't mind, will you, if I +tell you that I have a very much more special feeling for another man? +You can probably guess without much trouble who he is. I suspect that +my letters have been very full of Master Jervie for a very long time. + +I wish I could make you understand what he is like and how entirely +companionable we are. We think the same about everything--I am afraid +I have a tendency to make over my ideas to match his! But he is almost +always right; he ought to be, you know, for he has fourteen years' +start of me. In other ways, though, he's just an overgrown boy, and he +does need looking after--he hasn't any sense about wearing rubbers when +it rains. He and I always think the same things are funny, and that is +such a lot; it's dreadful when two people's senses of humour are +antagonistic. I don't believe there's any bridging that gulf! + +And he is--Oh, well! He is just himself, and I miss him, and miss him, +and miss him. The whole world seems empty and aching. I hate the +moonlight because it's beautiful and he isn't here to see it with me. +But maybe you've loved somebody, too, and you know? If you have, I +don't need to explain; if you haven't, I can't explain. + +Anyway, that's the way I feel--and I've refused to marry him. + +I didn't tell him why; I was just dumb and miserable. I couldn't think +of anything to say. And now he has gone away imagining that I want to +marry Jimmie McBride--I don't in the least, I wouldn't think of +marrying Jimmie; he isn't grown up enough. But Master Jervie and I got +into a dreadful muddle of misunderstanding and we both hurt each +other's feelings. The reason I sent him away was not because I didn't +care for him, but because I cared for him so much. I was afraid he +would regret it in the future--and I couldn't stand that! It didn't +seem right for a person of my lack of antecedents to marry into any +such family as his. I never told him about the orphan asylum, and I +hated to explain that I didn't know who I was. I may be DREADFUL, you +know. And his family are proud--and I'm proud, too! + +Also, I felt sort of bound to you. After having been educated to be a +writer, I must at least try to be one; it would scarcely be fair to +accept your education and then go off and not use it. But now that I +am going to be able to pay back the money, I feel that I have partially +discharged that debt--besides, I suppose I could keep on being a writer +even if I did marry. The two professions are not necessarily exclusive. + +I've been thinking very hard about it. Of course he is a Socialist, +and he has unconventional ideas; maybe he wouldn't mind marrying into +the proletariat so much as some men might. Perhaps when two people are +exactly in accord, and always happy when together and lonely when +apart, they ought not to let anything in the world stand between them. +Of course I WANT to believe that! But I'd like to get your unemotional +opinion. You probably belong to a Family also, and will look at it +from a worldly point of view and not just a sympathetic, human point of +view--so you see how brave I am to lay it before you. + +Suppose I go to him and explain that the trouble isn't Jimmie, but is +the John Grier Home--would that be a dreadful thing for me to do? It +would take a great deal of courage. I'd almost rather be miserable for +the rest of my life. + +This happened nearly two months ago; I haven't heard a word from him +since he was here. I was just getting sort of acclimated to the +feeling of a broken heart, when a letter came from Julia that stirred +me all up again. She said--very casually--that 'Uncle Jervis' had been +caught out all night in a storm when he was hunting in Canada, and had +been ill ever since with pneumonia. And I never knew it. I was +feeling hurt because he had just disappeared into blankness without a +word. I think he's pretty unhappy, and I know I am! + +What seems to you the right thing for me to do? + + Judy + + + + + 6th October + +Dearest Daddy-Long-Legs, + +Yes, certainly I'll come--at half-past four next Wednesday afternoon. +Of COURSE I can find the way. I've been in New York three times and am +not quite a baby. I can't believe that I am really going to see +you--I've been just THINKING you so long that it hardly seems as though +you are a tangible flesh-and-blood person. + +You are awfully good, Daddy, to bother yourself with me, when you're +not strong. Take care and don't catch cold. These fall rains are very +damp. + + Affectionately, + Judy + + +PS. I've just had an awful thought. Have you a butler? I'm afraid of +butlers, and if one opens the door I shall faint upon the step. What +can I say to him? You didn't tell me your name. Shall I ask for Mr. +Smith? + + + + + Thursday Morning + +My Very Dearest Master-Jervie-Daddy-Long-Legs Pendleton-Smith, + +Did you sleep last night? I didn't. Not a single wink. I was too +amazed and excited and bewildered and happy. I don't believe I ever +shall sleep again--or eat either. But I hope you slept; you must, you +know, because then you will get well faster and can come to me. + +Dear Man, I can't bear to think how ill you've been--and all the time I +never knew it. When the doctor came down yesterday to put me in the +cab, he told me that for three days they gave you up. Oh, dearest, if +that had happened, the light would have gone out of the world for me. +I suppose that some day in the far future--one of us must leave the +other; but at least we shall have had our happiness and there will be +memories to live with. + +I meant to cheer you up--and instead I have to cheer myself. For in +spite of being happier than I ever dreamed I could be, I'm also +soberer. The fear that something may happen rests like a shadow on my +heart. Always before I could be frivolous and care-free and +unconcerned, because I had nothing precious to lose. But now--I shall +have a Great Big Worry all the rest of my life. Whenever you are away +from me I shall be thinking of all the automobiles that can run over +you, or the sign-boards that can fall on your head, or the dreadful, +squirmy germs that you may be swallowing. My peace of mind is gone for +ever--but anyway, I never cared much for just plain peace. + +Please get well--fast--fast--fast. I want to have you close by where I +can touch you and make sure you are tangible. Such a little half hour +we had together! I'm afraid maybe I dreamed it. If I were only a +member of your family (a very distant fourth cousin) then I could come +and visit you every day, and read aloud and plump up your pillow and +smooth out those two little wrinkles in your forehead and make the +corners of your mouth turn up in a nice cheerful smile. But you are +cheerful again, aren't you? You were yesterday before I left. The +doctor said I must be a good nurse, that you looked ten years younger. +I hope that being in love doesn't make every one ten years younger. +Will you still care for me, darling, if I turn out to be only eleven? + +Yesterday was the most wonderful day that could ever happen. If I live +to be ninety-nine I shall never forget the tiniest detail. The girl +that left Lock Willow at dawn was a very different person from the one +who came back at night. Mrs. Semple called me at half-past four. I +started wide awake in the darkness and the first thought that popped +into my head was, 'I am going to see Daddy-Long-Legs!' I ate breakfast +in the kitchen by candle-light, and then drove the five miles to the +station through the most glorious October colouring. The sun came up +on the way, and the swamp maples and dogwood glowed crimson and orange +and the stone walls and cornfields sparkled with hoar frost; the air +was keen and clear and full of promise. I knew something was going to +happen. All the way in the train the rails kept singing, 'You're going +to see Daddy-Long-Legs.' It made me feel secure. I had such faith in +Daddy's ability to set things right. And I knew that somewhere another +man--dearer than Daddy--was wanting to see me, and somehow I had a +feeling that before the journey ended I should meet him, too. And you +see! + +When I came to the house on Madison Avenue it looked so big and brown +and forbidding that I didn't dare go in, so I walked around the block +to get up my courage. But I needn't have been a bit afraid; your +butler is such a nice, fatherly old man that he made me feel at home at +once. 'Is this Miss Abbott?' he said to me, and I said, 'Yes,' so I +didn't have to ask for Mr. Smith after all. He told me to wait in the +drawing-room. It was a very sombre, magnificent, man's sort of room. I +sat down on the edge of a big upholstered chair and kept saying to +myself: + +'I'm going to see Daddy-Long-Legs! I'm going to see Daddy-Long-Legs!' + + +Then presently the man came back and asked me please to step up to the +library. I was so excited that really and truly my feet would hardly +take me up. Outside the door he turned and whispered, 'He's been very +ill, Miss. This is the first day he's been allowed to sit up. You'll +not stay long enough to excite him?' I knew from the way he said it +that he loved you--and I think he's an old dear! + +Then he knocked and said, 'Miss Abbott,' and I went in and the door +closed behind me. + +It was so dim coming in from the brightly lighted hall that for a +moment I could scarcely make out anything; then I saw a big easy chair +before the fire and a shining tea table with a smaller chair beside it. +And I realized that a man was sitting in the big chair propped up by +pillows with a rug over his knees. Before I could stop him he +rose--rather shakily--and steadied himself by the back of the chair and +just looked at me without a word. And then--and then--I saw it was +you! But even with that I didn't understand. I thought Daddy had had +you come there to meet me or a surprise. + +Then you laughed and held out your hand and said, 'Dear little Judy, +couldn't you guess that I was Daddy-Long-Legs?' + +In an instant it flashed over me. Oh, but I have been stupid! A +hundred little things might have told me, if I had had any wits. I +wouldn't make a very good detective, would I, Daddy? Jervie? What +must I call you? Just plain Jervie sounds disrespectful, and I can't +be disrespectful to you! + +It was a very sweet half hour before your doctor came and sent me away. +I was so dazed when I got to the station that I almost took a train for +St Louis. And you were pretty dazed, too. You forgot to give me any +tea. But we're both very, very happy, aren't we? I drove back to Lock +Willow in the dark but oh, how the stars were shining! And this +morning I've been out with Colin visiting all the places that you and I +went to together, and remembering what you said and how you looked. +The woods today are burnished bronze and the air is full of frost. +It's CLIMBING weather. I wish you were here to climb the hills with +me. I am missing you dreadfully, Jervie dear, but it's a happy kind of +missing; we'll be together soon. We belong to each other now really +and truly, no make-believe. Doesn't it seem queer for me to belong to +someone at last? It seems very, very sweet. + +And I shall never let you be sorry for a single instant. + + Yours, for ever and ever, + Judy + + +PS. This is the first love-letter I ever wrote. 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