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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6833f05 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text diff --git a/13997-0.txt b/13997-0.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..a6ef637 --- /dev/null +++ b/13997-0.txt @@ -0,0 +1,10661 @@ +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 13997 *** + +REAL FOLKS + +by + +MRS. A. D. T. WHITNEY + +1893 + + + + + + + +CONTENTS + + + I. THIS WAY, AND THAT + II. LUCLARION + III. BY STORY-RAIL: TWENTY-SIX YEARS AN HOUR + IV. AFTERWARDS IS A LONG TIME + V. HOW THE NEWS CAME TO HOMESWORTH + VI. AND + VII. WAKING UP + VIII. EAVESDROPPING IN ASPEN STREET + IX. HAZEL'S INSPIRATION + X. COCKLES AND CRAMBO + XI. MORE WITCH-WORK + XII. CRUMBS + XIII. PIECES OF WORLDS + XIV. "SESAME; AND LILIES" + XV. WITH ALL ONE'S MIGHT + XVI. SWARMING + XVII. QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS + XVIII. ALL AT ONCE + XIX. INSIDE + XX. NEIGHBORS AND NEXT OF KIN + XXI. THE HORSESHOE + XXII. MORNING GLORIES + + + + + +I. + +THIS WAY, AND THAT. + + +The parlor blinds were shut, and all the windows of the third-story +rooms were shaded; but the pantry window, looking out on a long low +shed, such as city houses have to keep their wood in and to dry +their clothes upon, was open; and out at this window had come two +little girls, with quiet steps and hushed voices, and carried their +books and crickets to the very further end, establishing themselves +there, where the shade of a tall, round fir tree, planted at the +foot of the yard below, fell across the building of a morning. + +"It was prettier down on the bricks," Luclarion had told them. But +they thought otherwise. + +"Luclarion doesn't know," said Frank. "People _don't_ know things, I +think. I wonder why, when they've got old, and ought to? It's like +the sea-shore here, I guess, only the stones are all stuck down, and +you mustn't pick up the loose ones either." + +Frank touched lightly, as she spoke, the white and black and gray +bits of gravel that covered the flat roof. + +"And it smells--like the pine forests!" + +The sun was hot and bright upon the fir branches and along the +tar-cemented roof. + +"How do you know about sea-shores and pine forests?" asked Laura, +with crushing common sense. + +"I don't know; but I do," said Frank. + +"You don't know anything but stories and pictures and one tree, and +a little gravel, all stuck down tight." + +"I'm glad I've got one tree. And the rest of it,--why listen! It's +in the _word_, Laura. _Forest_. Doesn't that sound like thousands of +them, all fresh and rustling? And Ellen went to the sea-shore, in +that book; and picked up pebbles; and the sea came up to her feet, +just as the air comes up here, and you can't get any farther,"--said +Frank, walking to the very edge and putting one foot out over, while +the wind blew in her face up the long opening between rows of brick +houses of which theirs was in the midst upon one side. + +"A great sea!" exclaimed Laura, contemptuously. "With all those +other wood-sheds right out in it, all the way down!" + +"Well, there's another side to the sea; and capes, and islands," +answered Frank, turning back. "Besides, I don't pretend it _is_; I +only think it seems a little bit like it. I'm often put in mind of +things. I don't know why." + +"I'll tell you what it is like," said Laura. "It's like the gallery +at church, where the singers stand up in a row, and look down, and +all the people look up at them. I like high places. I like Cecilia, +in the 'Bracelets,' sitting at the top, behind, when her name was +called out for the prize; and 'they all made way, and she was on the +floor in an instant.' I should like to have been Cecilia!" + +"Leonora was a great deal the best." + +"I know it; but she don't _stand out_." + +"Laura! You're just like the Pharisees! You're always wishing for +long clothes and high seats!" + +"There ain't any Pharisees, nowadays," said Laura, securely. After +which, of course, there was nothing more to be insisted. + +Mrs. Lake, the housekeeper, came to the middle upper window, and +moved the blind a little. Frank and Laura were behind the fir. They +saw her through the branches. She, through the farther thickness of +the tree, did not notice them. + +"That was good," said Laura. "She would have beckoned us in. I hate +that forefinger of hers; it's always hushing or beckoning. It's only +two inches long. What makes us have to mind it so?" + +"She puts it all into those two inches," answered Frank. "All the +_must_ there is in the house. And then you've got to." + +"I wouldn't--if father wasn't sick." + +"Laura," said Frank, gravely, "I don't believe father is going to +get well. What do you suppose they're letting us stay at home from +school for?" + +"O, that," said Laura, "was because Mrs. Lake didn't have time to +sew the sleeves into your brown dress." + +"I could have worn my gingham, Laura. What if he should die pretty +soon? I heard her tell Luclarion that there must be a change before +long. They talk in little bits, Laura, and they say it solemn." + +The children were silent for a few minutes. Frank sat looking +through the fir-tree at the far-off flecks of blue. + +Mr. Shiere had been ill a long time. They could hardly think, now, +what it would seem again not to have a sick father; and they had had +no mother for several years,--many out of their short remembrance of +life. Mrs. Lake had kept the house, and mended their clothes, and +held up her forefinger at them. Even when Mr. Shiere was well, he +had been a reserved man, much absorbed in business since his wife's +death, he had been a very sad man. He loved his children, but he was +very little with them. Frank and Laura could not feel the shock and +loss that children feel when death comes and robs them suddenly of a +close companionship. + +"What do you suppose would happen then?" asked Laura, after awhile. +"We shouldn't be anybody's children." + +"Yes, we should," said Frank; "we should be God's.' + +"Everybody else is that,--_besides_," said Laura. + +"We shall have black silk pantalets again, I suppose,"--she began, +afresh, looking down at her white ones with double crimped +ruffles,--"and Mrs. Gibbs will come in and help, and we shall have +to pipe and overcast." + +"O, Laura, how nice it was ever so long ago!" cried Frank, suddenly, +never heeding the pantalets, "when mother sent us out to ask company +to tea,--that pleasant Saturday, you know,--and made lace pelerines +for our dolls while we were gone! It's horrid, when other girls have +mothers, only to have a _housekeeper_! And pretty soon we sha'n't +have anything, only a little corner, away back, that we can't hardly +recollect." + +"They'll do something with us; they always do," said Laura, +composedly. + +The children of this world, even _as_ children, are wisest in their +generation. Frank believed they would be God's children; she could +not see exactly what was to come of that, though, practically. Laura +knew that people always did something; something would be sure to +be done with them. She was not frightened; she was even a little +curious. + +A head came up at the corner of the shed behind them, a pair of +shoulders,--high, square, turned forward; a pair of arms, long +thence to the elbows, as they say women's are who might be good +nurses of children; the hands held on to the sides of the steep +steps that led up from the bricked yard. The young woman's face was +thin and strong; two great, clear, hazel eyes looked straight out, +like arrow shots; it was a clear, undeviating glance; it never +wandered, or searched, or wavered, any more than a sunbeam; it +struck full upon whatever was there; it struck _through_ many things +that were transparent to their quality. She had square, white, +strong teeth, that set together like the faces of a die; they showed +easily when she spoke, but the lips closed over them absolutely and +firmly. Yet they were pleasant lips, and had a smile in them that +never went quite out; it lay in all the muscles of the mouth and +chin; it lay behind, in the living spirit that had moulded to itself +the muscles. + +This was Luclarion. + +"Your Aunt Oldways and Mrs. Oferr have come. Hurry in!" + +Now Mrs. Oldways was only an uncle's wife; Mrs. Oferr was their +father's sister. But Mrs. Oferr was a rich woman who lived in New +York, and who came on grand and potent, with a scarf or a pair of +shoe-bows for each of the children in her big trunk, and a hundred +and one suggestions for their ordering and behavior at her tongue's +end, once a year. Mrs. Oldways lived up in the country, and was +"aunt" to half the neighborhood at home, and turned into an aunt +instantly, wherever she went and found children. If there were no +children, perhaps older folks did not call her by the name, but they +felt the special human kinship that is of no-blood or law, but is +next to motherhood in the spirit. + +Mrs. Oferr found the open pantry window, before the children had +got in. + +"Out there!" she exclaimed, "in the eyes of all the neighbors in the +circumstances of the family! Who does, or _don't_ look after you?" + +"Hearts'-sake!" came up the pleasant tones of Mrs. Oldways from +behind, "how can they help it? There isn't any other out-doors. If +they were down at Homesworth now, there'd be the lilac garden and +the old chestnuts, and the seat under the wall. Poor little souls!" +she added, pitifully, as she lifted them in, and kissed them. "It's +well they can take any comfort. Let 'em have all there is." + +Mrs. Oferr drew the blinds, and closed the window. + +Frank and Laura remembered the strangeness of that day all their +lives. How they sat, shy and silent, while Luclarion brought in cake +and wine; how Mrs. Oferr sat in the large morocco easy-chair and +took some; and Mrs. Oldways lifted Laura, great girl as she was, +into her lap first, and broke a slice for her; how Mrs. Oldways went +up-stairs to Mrs. Lake, and then down into the kitchen to do +something that was needed; and Mrs. Oferr, after she had visited her +brother, lay down in the spare chamber for a nap, tired with her +long journey from New York, though it had been by boat and cars, +while there was a long staging from Homesworth down to Nashua, on +Mrs. Oldways' route. Mrs. Oldways, however, was "used," she said, +"to stepping round." It was the sitting that had tired her. + +How they were told not to go out any more, or to run up and +down-stairs; and how they sat in the front windows, looking out +through the green slats at so much of the street world as they could +see in strips; how they obtained surreptitious bits of bread from +dinner, and opened a bit of the sash, and shoved out crumbs under +the blinds for the pigeons that flew down upon the sidewalk; how +they wondered what kind of a day it was in other houses, where there +were not circumstances in the family, where children played, and +fathers were not ill, but came and went to and from their stores; +and where two aunts had not come, both at once, from great ways off, +to wait for something strange and awful that was likely to befall. + +When they were taken in, at bedtime, to kiss their father and say +good-night, there was something portentous in the stillness there; +in the look of the sick man, raised high against the pillows, and +turning his eyes wistfully toward them, with no slightest movement +of the head; in the waiting aspect of all things,--the appearance as +of everybody being to sit up all night except themselves. + +Edward Shiere brought his children close to him with the magnetism +of that look; they bent down to receive his kiss and his good-night, +so long and solemn. He had not been in the way of talking to them +about religion in his life. He had only insisted on their truth and +obedience; that was the beginning of all religion. Now it was given +him in the hour of his death what he should speak; and because he +had never said many such words to them before, they fell like the +very touch of the Holy Ghost upon their young spirits now,-- + +"Love God, and keep His commandments. Good-by." + +In the morning, when they woke, Mrs. Lake was in their room, talking +in a low voice with Mrs. Oferr, who stood by an open bureau. They +heard Luclarion dusting down the stairs. + +Who was taking care of their father? + +They did not ask. In the night, he had been taken care of. It was +morning with him, now, also. + +Mrs. Lake and Mrs. Oferr were calculating,--about black pantalets, +and other things. + +This story is not with the details of their early orphan life. When +Edward Shiere was buried came family consultations. The two aunts +were the nearest friends. Nobody thought of Mr. Titus Oldways. He +never was counted. He was Mrs. Shiere's uncle,--Aunt Oldways' +uncle-in-law, therefore, and grand-uncle to these children. But +Titus Oldways never took up any family responsibilities; he had been +shy of them all his single, solitary life. He seemed to think he +could not drop them as he could other things, if he did not find +them satisfactory. Besides, what would he know about two young +girls? + +He saw the death in the paper, and came to the funeral; then he went +away again to his house in Greenley Street at the far West End, and +to his stiff old housekeeper, Mrs. Froke, who knew his stiff old +ways. And, turning his back on everybody, everybody forgot all about +him. Except as now and then, at intervals of years, there broke out +here or there, at some distant point in some family crisis, a sudden +recollection from which would spring a half suggestion, "Why, +there's Uncle Titus! If he was only,"--or, "if he would only,"--and +there it ended. Much as it might be with a housewife, who says of +some stored-away possession forty times, perhaps, before it ever +turns out available, "Why, there's that old gray taffety! If it were +only green, now!" or, "If there were three or four yards more of +it!" + +Uncle Titus was just Uncle Titus, neither more nor less; so Mrs. +Oferr and Aunt Oldways consulted about their own measures and +materials; and never reckoned the old taffety at all. There was +money enough to clothe and educate; little more. + +"I will take home _one_," said Mrs. Oferr, distinctly. + +So, they were to be separated? + +They did not realize what this was, however. They were told of +letters and visits; of sweet country-living, of city sights and +pleasures; of kittens and birds' nests, and the great barns; of +music and dancing lessons, and little parties,--"by-and-by, when it +was proper." + +"Let me go to Homesworth," whispered Frank to Aunt Oldways. + +Laura gravitated as surely to the streets and shops, and the great +school of young ladies. + +"One taken and the other left," quoted Luclarion, over the packing +of the two small trunks. + +"We're both going," says Laura, surprised. "_One_ taken? Where?" + +"Where the carcass is," answered Luclarion. + +"There's one thing you'll have to see to for yourselves. I can't +pack it. It won't go into the trunks." + +"What, Luclarion?" + +"What your father said to you that night." + +They were silent. Presently Frank answered, softly,--"I hope I +shan't forget that." + +Laura, the pause once broken, remarked, rather glibly, that she "was +afraid there wouldn't be much chance to recollect things at Aunt +Oferr's." + +"She isn't exactly what I call a heavenly-minded woman," said +Luclarion, quietly. + +"She is very much _occupied_," replied Laura, grandly taking up the +Oferr style. "She visits a great deal, and she goes out in the +carriage. You have to change your dress every day for dinner, and +I'm to take French lessons." + +The absurd little sinner was actually proud of her magnificent +temptations. She was only a child. Men and women never are, of +course. + +"I'm afraid it will be pretty hard to remember," repeated Laura, +with condescension. + +"_That's_ your stump!" + +Luclarion fixed the steadfast arrow of her look straight upon her, +and drew the bow with this twang. + + + + +II. + +LUCLARION. + + +How Mrs. Grapp ever came to, was the wonder. Her having the baby was +nothing. Her having the name for it was the astonishment. + +Her own name was Lucy; her husband's Luther: that, perhaps, +accounted for the first syllable; afterwards, whether her mind +lapsed off into combinations of such outshining appellatives as +"Clara" and "Marion," or whether Mr. Grapp having played the +clarionet, and wooed her sweetly with it in her youth, had anything +to do with it, cannot be told; but in those prescriptive days of +quiet which followed the domestic advent, the name did somehow grow +together in the fancy of Mrs. Luther; and in due time the life-atom +which had been born indistinguishable into the natural world, was +baptized into the Christian Church as "Luclarion" Grapp. +Thenceforth, and no wonder, it took to itself a very especial +individuality, and became what this story will partly tell. + +Marcus Grapp, who had the start of Luclarion in this "meander,"--as +their father called the vale of tears,--by just two years' time, and +was y-_clipped_, by everybody but his mother "Mark,"--in his turn, +as they grew old together, cut his sister down to "Luke." Then +Luther Grapp called them both "The Apostles." And not far wrong; +since if ever the kingdom of heaven does send forth its +Apostles--nay, its little Christs--into the work on earth, in these +days, it is as little children into loving homes. + +The Apostles got up early one autumn morning, when Mark was about +six years old, and Luke four. They crept out of their small +trundle-bed in their mother's room adjoining the great kitchen, and +made their way out softly to the warm wide hearth. + +There were new shoes, a pair apiece, brought home from the Mills the +night before, set under the little crickets in the corners. These +had got into their dreams, somehow, and into the red rooster's first +halloo from the end room roof, and into the streak of pale daylight +that just stirred and lifted the darkness, and showed doors and +windows, but not yet the blue meeting-houses on the yellow +wall-paper, by which they always knew when it was really morning; +and while Mrs. Grapp was taking that last beguiling nap in which one +is conscious that one means to get up presently, and rests so +sweetly on one's good intentions, letting the hazy mirage of the +day's work that is to be done play along the horizon of dim thoughts +with its unrisen activities,--two little flannel night-gowns were +cuddled in small heaps by the chimney-side, little bare feet were +trying themselves into the new shoes, and lifting themselves up, +crippled with two inches of stout string between the heels. + +Then the shoes were turned into spans of horses, and chirruped and +trotted softly into their cricket-stables; and then--what else was +there to do, until the strings were cut, and the flannel night-gowns +taken off? + +It was so still out here, in the big, busy, day-time room; it was +like getting back where the world had not begun; surely one must do +something wonderful with the materials all lying round, and such an +opportunity as that. + +It was old-time then, when kitchens had fire-places; or rather the +house was chiefly fire-place, in front of and about which was more +or less of kitchen-space. In the deep fire-place lay a huge mound of +gray ashes, a Vesuvius, under which red bowels of fire lay hidden. +In one corner of the chimney leaned an iron bar, used sometimes in +some forgotten, old fashioned way, across dogs or pothooks,--who +knows now? At any rate, there it always was. + +Mark, ambitious, put all his little strength to it this morning and +drew it down, carefully, without much clatter, on the hearth. Then +he thought how it would turn red under those ashes, where the big +coals were, and how it would shine and sparkle when he pulled it out +again, like the red-hot, hissing iron Jack-the-Giant-Killer struck +into the one-eyed monster's eye. So he shoved it in; and forgot it +there, while he told Luke--very much twisted and dislocated, and +misjoined--the leading incidents of the giant story; and then lapsed +off, by some queer association, into the Scripture narrative of +Joseph and his brethren, who "pulled his red coat off, and put him +in a _fit_, and left him there." + +"And then what?" says Luke. + +"Then,--O, my iron's done! See here, Luke!"--and taking it prudently +with the tongs, he pulled back the rod, till the glowing end, a foot +or more of live, palpitating, flamy red, lay out upon the broad open +bricks. + +"There, Luke! You daresn't put your foot on _that_!" + +Dear little Luke, who wouldn't, at even four years old, be dared! + +And dear little white, tender, pink-and-lily foot! + +The next instant, a shriek of pain shot through Mrs. Grapp's ears, +and sent her out of her dreams and out of her bed, and with one +single impulse into the kitchen, with her own bare feet, and in her +night-gown. + +The little foot had only touched; a dainty, timid, yet most +resolute touch; but the sweet flesh shriveled, and the fierce +anguish ran up every fibre of the baby body, to the very heart and +brain. + +"O! O, O!" came the long, pitiful, shivering cries, as the mother +gathered her in her arms. + +"What is it? What did you do? How came you to?" And all the while +she moved quickly here and there, to cupboard and press-drawer, +holding the child fast, and picking up as she could with one hand, +cotton wool, and sweet-oil flask, and old linen bits; and so she +bound it up, saying still, every now and again, as all she could +say,--"What _did_ you do? How came you to?" + +Till, in a little lull of the fearful smart, as the air was shut +away, and the oil felt momentarily cool upon the ache, Luke answered +her,-- + +"He hed I dare-hn't, and ho I did!" + +"You little fool!" + +The rough word was half reaction of relief, that the child could +speak at all, half horrible spasm of all her own motherly nerves +that thrilled through and through with every pang that touched the +little frame, hers also. Mothers never do part bonds with babies +they have borne. Until the day they die, each quiver of their life +goes back straight to the heart beside which it began. + +"You Marcus! What did you mean?" + +"I meant she darsn't; and she no business to 'a dars't," said Mark, +pale with remorse and fright, but standing up stiff and manful, with +bare common sense, when brought to bay. And then he marched away +into his mother's bedroom, plunged his head down into the clothes, +and cried,--harder than Luclarion. + +Nobody wore any new shoes that day; Mark for a punishment,--though +he flouted at the penalty as such, with an, "I guess you'd see me!" +And there were many days before poor little Luclarion could wear any +shoes at all. + +The foot got well, however, without hindrance. But Luke was the same +little fool as ever; that was not burnt out. She would never be +"dared" to anything. + +They called it "stumps" as they grew older. They played "stumps" all +through the barns and woods and meadows; over walls and rocks, and +rafters and house-roofs. But the burnt foot saved Luke's neck scores +of times, doubtless. Mark remembered it; he never "stumped" her to +any certain hurt, or where he could not lead the way himself. + +The mischief they got into and out of is no part of my story; but +one day something happened--things do happen as far back in lives as +that--which gave Luclarion her clew to the world. + +They had got into the best parlor,--that sacred place of the New +England farm-house, that is only entered by the high-priests +themselves on solemn festivals, weddings and burials, Thanksgivings +and quiltings; or devoutly, now and then to set the shrine in order, +shut the blinds again, and so depart, leaving it to gather the gloom +and grandeur that things and places and people do when they are good +for nothing else. + +The children had been left alone; for their mother had gone to a +sewing society, and Grashy, the girl, was up-stairs in her +kitchen-chamber-bedroom, with a nail over the door-latch to keep +them out while she "fixed over" her best gown. + +"Le's play Lake Ontario," says Marcus. + +Now Lake Ontario, however they had pitched upon it, stood with them +for all the waters that are upon the face of the earth, and all the +confusion and peril of them. To play it, they turned the room into +one vast shipwreck, of upset and piled up chairs, stools, boxes, +buckets, and what else they could lay hands on; and among and over +them they navigated their difficult and hilarious way. By no means +were they to touch the floor; that was the Lake,--that were to +drown. + +It was Columbus sometimes; sometimes it was Captain Cook; to-day, it +was no less than Jason sailing after the golden fleece. + +Out of odd volumes in the garret, and out of "best books" taken down +from the secretary in the "settin'-room," and put into their hands, +with charges, of a Sunday, to keep them still, they had got these +things, jumbled into strange far-off and near fantasies in their +childish minds. "Lake Ontario" included and connected all. + +"I'll tell you what it is," said Marcus, tumbling up against the +parlor door and an idea at once. "In here!" + +"What?" asked Luke, breathless, without looking up, and paddling +with the shovel, from an inverted rocking-chair. + +"The golden thing! Hush!" + +At this moment Grashy came into the kitchen, took a little tin +kettle from a nail over the dresser, and her sun-bonnet from another +behind the door, and made her way through the apartment as well as +she could for bristling chair-legs, with exemplary placidity. She +was used to "Lake Ontario." + +"Don't get into any mischief, you Apostles," was her injunction. +"I'm goin' down to Miss Ruddock's for some 'east." + +"Good,"; says Mark, the instant the door was shut "Now this is +Colchis, and I'm going in." + +He pronounced it much like "cold-cheese," and it never occurred to +him that he was naming any unusual or ancient locality. There was a +"Jason" in the Mills Village. He kept a grocer's shop. Colchis might +be close by for all he knew; out beyond the wall, perhaps, among the +old barrels. Children _place_ all they read or hear about, or even +all they imagine, within a very limited horizon. They cannot go +beyond their world. Why should they? Neither could those very +venerable ancients. + +"'Tain't," says Luclarion, with unbeguiled practicality. "It's just +ma's best parlor, and you mustn't." + +It was the "mustn't" that was the whole of it. If Mark had asserted +that the back kitchen, or the cellar-way closet was Colchis, she +would have indorsed it with enthusiasm, and followed on like a loyal +Argonaut, as she was. But her imagination here was prepossessed. +Nothing in old fable could be more environed with awe and mystery +than this best parlor. + +"And, besides," said Luclarion, "I don't care for the golden +fleece; I'm tired of it. Let's play something else." + +"I'll tell you what there is in here," persisted Mark. "There's two +enchanted children. I've seen 'em!" + +"Just as though," said Luke contemptuously. "Ma ain't a witch." + +"Tain't ma. She don't know. They ain't visible to her. _She_ thinks +it's nothing but the best parlor. But it opens out, right into the +witch country,--not for her. 'Twill if we go. See if it don't." + +He had got hold of her now; Luclarion could not resist that. +Anything might be true of that wonderful best room, after all. It +was the farthest Euxine, the witch-land, everything, to them. + +So Mark turned the latch and they crept in + +"We must open a shutter," Mark said, groping his way. + +"Grashy will be back," suggested Luke, fearfully. + +"Guess so!" said Mark. "She ain't got coaxed to take her sun-bonnet +off yet, an' it'll take her ninety-'leven hours to get it on again." + +He had let in the light now from the south window. + +The red carpet on the floor; the high sofa of figured hair-cloth, +with brass-headed nails, and brass rosettes in the ends of the hard, +cylinder pillows; the tall, carved cupboard press, its doors and +drawers glittering with hanging brass handles; right opposite the +door by which they had come in, the large, leaning mirror, +gilt--garnished with grooved and beaded rim and an eagle and +ball-chains over the top,--all this, opening right in from the +familiar every-day kitchen and their Lake Ontario,--it certainly +meant something that such a place should be. It meant a great deal +more than sixteen feet square could hold, and what it really was did +not stop short at the gray-and-crimson stenciled walls. + +The two were all alone in it; perhaps they had never been all alone +in it before. I think, notwithstanding their mischief and +enterprise, they never had. + +And deep in the mirror, face to face with them, coming down, it +seemed, the red slant of an inner and more brilliant floor, they saw +two other little figures. Their own they knew, really, but elsewhere +they never saw their own figures entire. There was not another +looking-glass in the house that was more than two feet long, and +they were all hung up so high! + +"There!" whispered Mark. "There they are, and they can't get out." + +"Of course they can't," said sensible Luclarion. + +"If we only knew the right thing to say, or do, they might," said +Mark. "It's that they're waiting for, you see. They always do. It's +like the sleeping beauty Grashy told us." + +"Then they've got to wait a hundred years," said Luke. + +"Who knows when they began?" + +"They do everything that we do," said Luclarion, her imagination +kindling, but as under protest. "If we could jump in perhaps they +would jump out." + +"We might jump _at_ 'em," said Marcus. "Jest get 'em going, and +may-be they'd jump over. Le's try." + +So they set up two chairs from Lake Ontario in the kitchen doorway, +to jump from; but they could only jump to the middle round of the +carpet, and who could expect that the shadow children should be +beguiled by that into a leap over bounds? They only came to the +middle round of _their_ carpet. + +"We must go nearer; we must set the chairs in the middle, and jump +close. Jest _shave_, you know," said Marcus. + +"O, I'm afraid," said Luclarion. + +"I'll tell you what! Le's _run_ and jump! Clear from the other side +of the kitchen, you know. Then they'll have to run too, and may-be +they can't stop." + +So they picked up chairs and made a path, and ran from across the +broad kitchen into the parlor doorway, quite on to the middle round +of the carpet, and then with great leaps came down bodily upon the +floor close in front of the large glass that, leaned over them, with +two little fallen figures in it, rolling aside quickly also, over +the slanting red carpet. + +But, O dear what did it? + +Had the time come, anyhow, for the old string to part its last +fibre, that held the mirror tilting from the wall,--or was it the +crash of a completed spell? + +There came a snap,--a strain,--as some nails or screws that held it +otherwise gave way before the forward pressing weight, and down, +flat-face upon the floor, between the children, covering them with +fragments of splintered glass and gilded wood,--eagle, ball-chains, +and all,--that whole magnificence and mystery lay prostrate. + +Behind, where it had been, was a blank, brown-stained cobwebbed +wall, thrown up harsh and sudden against them, making the room +small, and all the enchanted chamber, with its red slanting carpet, +and its far reflected corners, gone. + +The house hushed up again after that terrible noise, and stood just +the same as ever. When a thing like that happens, it tells its own +story, just once, and then it is over. _People_ are different. They +keep talking. + +There was Grashy to come home. She had not got there in time to hear +the house tell it. She must learn it from the children. Why? + +"Because they knew," Luclarion said. "Because, then, they could not +wait and let it be found out." + +"We never touched it," said Mark. + +"We jumped," said Luke. + +"We couldn't help it, if _that_ did it. S'posin' we'd jumped in the +kitchen, or--the--flat-irons had tumbled down,--or anything? That +old string was all wore out." + +"Well, we was here, and we jumped; and we know." + +"We was here, of course; and of course we couldn't help knowing, +with all that slam-bang. Why, it almost upset Lake Ontario! We can +tell how it slammed, and how we thought the house was coming down. I +did." + +"And how we were in the best parlor, and how we jumped," reiterated +Luclarion, slowly. "Marcus, it's a stump!" + +They were out in the middle of Lake Ontario now, sitting right down +underneath the wrecks, upon the floor; that is, under water, without +ever thinking of it. The parlor door was shut, with all that +disaster and dismay behind it. + +"Go ahead, then!" said Marcus, and he laid himself back desperately +on the floor. "There's Grashy!" + +"Sakes and patience!" ejaculated Grashy, merrily, coming in. +"They're drownded,--dead, both of 'em; down to the bottom of Lake +Ontariah!" + +"No we ain't," said Luclarion, quietly. "It isn't Lake Ontario now. +It's nothing but a clutter. But there's an awful thing in the best +parlor, and we don't know whether we did it or not. We were in +there, and we jumped." + +Grashy went straight to the parlor door, and opened it. She looked +in, turned pale, and said "'Lection!" + +That is a word the women have, up in the country, for solemn +surprise, or exceeding emergency, or dire confusion. I do not know +whether it is derived from religion or politics. It denotes a vital +crisis, either way, and your hands full. Perhaps it had the +theological association in Grashy's mind, for the next thing she +said was, "My soul!" + +"Do you know what that's a sign of, you children?" + +"Sign the old thing was rotten," said Marcus, rather sullenly. + +"Wish that was all," said Grashy, her lips white yet. "Hope there +mayn't nothin' dreadful happen in this house before the year's out. +It's wuss'n thirteen at the table." + +"Do you s'pose we did it?" asked Luke, anxiously. + +"Where was you when it tumbled?" + +"Right in front of it. But we were rolling away. _We_ tumbled." + +"'Twould er come down the fust jar, anyway, if a door had slammed. +The string's cut right through," said Grashy, looking at the two +ends sticking up stiff and straight from the top fragment of the +frame. "But the mercy is you war'n't smashed yourselves to bits and +flinders. Think o'that!" + +"Do you s'pose ma'll think of that?" asked Luclarion. + +"Well--yes; but it may make her kinder madder,--just at first, you +know. Between you and me and the lookin'-glass, you see,--well, yer +ma is a pretty strong-feelin' woman," said Grashy, reflectively. +"'Fi was you I wouldn't say nothin' about it. What's the use? _I_ +shan't." + +"It's a stump," repeated Luclarion, sadly, but in very resolute +earnest. + +Grashy stared. + +"Well, if you ain't the curiousest young one, Luke Grapp!" said she, +only half comprehending. + +When Mrs. Grapp came home, Luclarion went into her bedroom after +her, and told her the whole story. Mrs. Grapp went into the parlor, +viewed the scene of calamity, took in the sense of loss and narrowly +escaped danger, laid the whole weight of them upon the disobedience +to be dealt with, and just as she had said, "You little fool!" out +of the very shock of her own distress when Luke had burned her baby +foot, she turned back now, took the two children up-stairs in +silence, gave them each a good old orthodox whipping, and tucked +them into their beds. + +They slept one on each side of the great kitchen-chamber. + +"Mark," whispered Luke, tenderly, after Mrs. Grapp's step had died +away down the stairs. "How do you feel?" + +"Hot!" said Mark. "How do you?" + +"You ain't mad with me, be you?" + +"No." + +"Then I feel real cleared up and comfortable. But it _was_ a stump, +wasn't it?" + + * * * * * + +From that time forward, Luclarion Grapp had got her light to go by. +She understood life. It was "stumps" all through. The Lord set them, +and let them; she found that out afterward, when she was older, and +"experienced religion." I think she was mistaken in the dates, +though; it was _recognition_, this later thing; the experience was +away back,--at Lake Ontario. + +It was a stump when her father died, and her mother had to manage +the farm, and she to help her. The mortgage they had to work off was +a stump; but faith and Luclarion's dairy did it. It was a stump when +Marcus wanted to go to college, and they undertook that, after the +mortgage. It was a stump when Adam Burge wanted her to marry him, +and go and live in the long red cottage at Side Hill, and she could +not go till they had got through with helping Marcus. It was a +terrible stump when Adam Burge married Persis Cone instead, and she +had to live on and bear it. It was a stump when her mother died, and +the farm was sold. + +Marcus married; he never knew; he had a belles-lettres professorship +in a new college up in D----. He would not take a cent of the farm +money; he had had his share long ago; the four thousand dollars +were invested for Luke. He did the best he could, and all he knew; +but human creatures can never pay each other back. Only God can do +that, either way. + +Luclarion did not stay in ----. There were too few there now, and +too many. She came down to Boston. Her two hundred and eighty +dollars a year was very good, as far as it went, but it would not +keep her idle; neither did she wish to live idle. She learned +dress-making; she had taste and knack; she was doing well; she +enjoyed going about from house to house for her days' work, and then +coming back to her snug room at night, and her cup of tea and her +book. + +Then it turned out that so much sewing was not good for her; her +health was threatened; she had been used to farm work and "all +out-doors." It was a "stump" again. That was all she called it; she +did not talk piously about a "cross." What difference did it make? +There is another word, also, for "cross" in Hebrew. + +Luclarion came at last to live with Mrs. Edward Shiere. And in that +household, at eight and twenty, we have just found her. + + + + +III. + +BY STORY-RAIL: TWENTY-SIX YEARS AN HOUR. + + +Laura Shiere did not think much about the "stump," when, in her dark +gray merino travelling dress, and her black ribbons, nicely +appointed, as Mrs. Oferr's niece should be, down to her black kid +gloves and broad-hemmed pocket-handkerchief, and little black straw +travelling-basket (for morocco bags were not yet in those days), she +stepped into the train with her aunt at the Providence Station, on +her way to Stonington and New York. + +The world seemed easily laid out before her. She was like a cousin +in a story-book, going to arrive presently at a new home, and begin +a new life, in which she would be very interesting to herself and to +those about her. She felt rather important, too, with her money +independence--there being really "property" of hers to be spoken of +as she had heard it of late. She had her mother's diamond ring on +her third finger, and was comfortably conscious of it when she drew +off her left-hand glove. Laura Shiere's nature had only been +stirred, as yet, a very little below the surface, and the surface +rippled pleasantly in the sunlight that was breaking forth from the +brief clouds. + +Among the disreputable and vociferous crowd of New York hack +drivers, that swarmed upon the pier as the _Massachusetts_ glided +into her dock, it was good to see that subduedly respectable and +consciously private and superior man in the drab overcoat and the +nice gloves and boots, who came forward and touched his hat to Mrs. +Oferr, took her shawl and basket, and led the way, among the +aggravated public menials, to a handsome private carriage waiting on +the street. + +"All well at home, David?" asked Mrs. Oferr. + +"All well, ma'am, thank you," replied David. + +And another man sat upon the box, in another drab coat, and touched +_his_ hat; and when they reached Waverley Place and alighted, Mrs. +Oferr had something to say to him of certain directions, and +addressed him as "Moses." + +It was very grand and wonderful to order "David" and "Moses" about. +Laura felt as if her aunt were something only a little less than +"Michael with the sword." Laura had a susceptibility for dignities; +she appreciated, as we have seen out upon the wood-shed, "high +places, and all the people looking up." + +David and Moses were brothers, she found out; she supposed that was +the reason they dressed alike, in drab coats; as she and Frank used +to wear their red merinos, and their blue ginghams. A little spasm +did come up in her throat for a minute, as she thought of the old +frocks and the old times already dropped so far behind; but Alice +and Geraldine Oferr met her the next instant on the broad staircase +at the back of the marble-paved hall, looking slight and delicate, +and princess-like, in the grand space built about them for their +lives to move in; and in the distance and magnificence of it all, +the faint little momentary image of Frank faded away. + +She went up with them out of the great square hall, over the stately +staircase, past the open doors of drawing-rooms and library, +stretching back in a long suite, with the conservatory gleaming +green from the far end over the garden, up the second stairway to +the floor where their rooms were; bedrooms and nursery,--this last +called so still, though the great, airy front-room was the place +used now for their books and amusements as growing young +ladies,--all leading one into another around the skylighted upper +hall, into which the sunshine came streaked with amber and violet +from the richly colored glass. She had a little side apartment given +to her for her own, with a recessed window, in which were blossoming +plants just set there from the conservatory; opposite stood a white, +low bed in a curtained alcove, and beyond was a dressing-closet. +Laura thought she should not be able to sleep there at all for a +night or two, for the beauty of it and the good time she should be +having. + +At that same moment Frank and her Aunt Oldways were getting down +from the stage that had brought them over from Ipsley, where they +slept after their day's journey from Boston,--at the doorstone of +the low, broad-roofed, wide-built, roomy old farm-house in +Homesworth. + +Right in the edge of the town it stood, its fields stretching over +the south slope of green hills in sunny uplands, and down in meadowy +richness to the wild, hidden, sequestered river-side, where the +brown water ran through a narrow, rocky valley,--Swift River they +called it. There are a great many Swift Rivers in New England. It +was only a vehement little tributary of a larger stream, beside +which lay larger towns; it was doing no work for the world, +apparently, at present; there were no mills, except a little +grist-mill to which the farmers brought their corn, cuddled among +the rocks and wild birches and alders, at a turn where the road came +down, and half a dozen planks made a bit of a bridge. + +"O, what beautiful places!" cried Frank, as they crossed the little +bridge, and glanced either way into a green, gray, silvery vista of +shrubs and rocks, and rushing water, with the white spires of +meadow-sweet and the pink hardback, and the first bright plumes of +the golden rod nodding and shining against the shade,--as they +passed the head of a narrow, grassy lane, trod by cows' feet, and +smelling of their milky breaths, and the sweetness of hay-barns,--as +they came up, at length, over the long slope of turf that carpeted +the way, as for a bride's feet, from the roadside to the very +threshold. She looked along the low, treble-piled garden wall, too, +and out to the open sheds, deep with pine chips; and upon the broad +brown house-roof, with its long, gradual decline, till its eaves +were within reach of a child's fingers from the ground; and her +quick eye took in facilities. + +"O, if Laura could see this! After the old shed-top in Brier Street, +and the one tree!" + +But Laura had got what the shed-top stood for with her; it was +Frank who had hearkened to whole forests in the stir of the one +brick-rooted fir. To that which each child had, it was already +given. + +In a week or two Frank wrote Laura a letter. It was an old-fashioned +letter, you know; a big sheet, written close, four pages, +all but the middle of the last page, which was left for the +"superscription." Then it was folded, the first leaf turned down +twice, lengthwise; then the two ends laid over, toward each other; +then the last doubling, or rather trebling, across; and the open +edge slipped over the folds. A wafer sealed it, and a thimble +pressed it,--and there were twenty-five cents postage to pay. That +was a letter in the old times, when Laura and Frank Shiere were +little girls. And this was that letter:-- + + DEAR LAURA,--We got here safe, Aunt Oldways and I, a week ago + last Saturday, and it is _beautiful_. There is a green + lane,--almost everybody has a green lane,--and the cows go up + and down, and the swallows build in the barn-eaves. They fly + out at sundown, and fill all the sky up. It is like the specks + we used to watch in the sunshine when it came in across the + kitchen, and they danced up and down and through and away, and + seemed to be live things; only we couldn't tell, you know, what + they were, or if they really did know how good it was. But + these are big and real, and you can see their wings, and you + know what they mean by it. I guess it is all the same thing, + only some things are little and some are big. You can see the + stars here, too,--such a sky full. And that is all the same + again. + + There are beautiful roofs and walls here. I guess you would + think you were high up! Harett and I go up from under the + cheese-room windows right over the whole house, and we sit on + the peak by the chimney. Harett is Mrs. Dillon's girl. Not the + girl that lives with her,--her daughter. But the girls that + live with people are daughters here. Somebody's else, I mean. + They are all alike. I suppose her name is Harriet, but they all + call her Harett. I don't like to ask her for fear she should + think I thought they didn't know how to pronounce. + + I go to school with Harett; up to the West District. We carry + brown bread and butter, and doughnuts, and cheese, and + apple-pie in tin pails, for luncheon. Don't you remember the + brown cupboard in Aunt Oldways' kitchen, how sagey, and + doughnutty, and good it always smelt? It smells just so now, + and everything tastes just the same. + + There is a great rock under an oak tree half way up to school, + by the side of the road. We always stop there to rest, coming + home. Three of the girls come the same way as far as that, and + we always save some of our dinner to eat up there, and we tell + stories. I tell them about dancing-school, and the time we went + to the theatre to see "Cinderella," and going shopping with + mother, and our little tea-parties, and the Dutch dolls we made + up in the long front chamber. O, _don't_ you remember, Laura? + What different pieces we have got into our remembrances + already! I feel as if I was making patchwork. Some-time, + may-be, I shall tell somebody about living _here_. Well, they + will be beautiful stories! Homesworth is an elegant place to + live in. You will see when you come next summer. + + There is an apple tree down in the south orchard that bends + just like a horse's back. Then the branches come up over your + head and shade you. We ride there, and we sit and eat summer + apples there. Little rosy apples with dark streaks in them all + warm with the sun. You can't think what a smell they have, just + like pinks and spice boxes. Why don't they keep a little way + off from each other in cities, and so have room for apple + trees? I don't see why they need to crowd so. I hate to think + of you all shut up tight when I am let right out into green + grass, and blue sky, and apple orchards. That puts me in mind + of something! Zebiah Jane, Aunt Oldways' girl, always washes + her face in the morning at the pump-basin out in the back + dooryard, just like the ducks. She says she can't spatter round + in a room; she wants all creation for a slop-bowl. I feel as if + we had all creation for everything up here. But I can't put all + creation in a letter if I try. _That_ would spatter dreadfully. + + I expect a long letter from you every day now. But I don't see + what you will make it out of. I think I have got all the + _things_ and you won't have anything left but the _words_. I am + sure you don't sit out on the wood-shed at Aunt Oferr's, and I + don't believe you pound stones and bricks, and make colors. Do + you know when we rubbed our new shoes with pounded stone and + made them gray? + + I never told you about Luclarion. She came up as soon as the + things were all sent off, and she lives at the minister's. + Where she used to live is only two miles from here, but other + people live there now, and it is built on to and painted straw + color, with a green door. + + Your affectionate sister, + FRANCES SHIERE. + + +When Laura's letter came this was it:-- + + DEAR FRANK,--I received your kind letter a week ago, but we + have been very busy having a dressmaker and doing all our fall + shopping, and I have not had time to answer it before. We shall + begin to go to school next week, for the vacations are over, + and then I shall have ever so much studying to do. I am to take + lessons on the piano, too, and shall have to practice two hours + a day. In the winter we shall have dancing-school and + practicing parties. Aunt has had a new bonnet made for me. She + did not like the plain black silk one. This is of _gros + d'Afrique_, with little bands and cordings round the crown and + front; and I have a dress of _gros d'Afrique_, too, trimmed + with double folds piped on. For every-day I have a new black + _mousseline_ with white clover leaves on it, and an all-black + French chally to wear to dinner. I don't wear my black and + white calico at all. Next summer aunt means to have me wear + white almost all the time, with lavender and violet ribbons. I + shall have a white muslin with three skirts and a black sash to + wear to parties and to Public Saturdays, next winter. They have + Public Saturdays at dancing-school every three weeks. But only + the parents and relations can come. Alice and Geraldine dance + the shawl-dance with Helena Pomeroy, with crimson and white + Canton crape scarfs. They have showed me some of it at home. + Aunt Oferr says I shall learn the _gavotte_. + + Aunt Oferr's house is splendid. The drawing-room is full of + sofas, and divans, and ottomans, and a _causeuse_, a little + S-shaped seat for two people. Everything is covered with blue + velvet, and there are blue silk curtains to the windows, and + great looking-glasses between, that you can see all down into + through rooms and rooms, as if there were a hundred of them. Do + you remember the story Luclarion used to tell us of when she + and her brother Mark were little children and used to play that + the looking-glass-things were real, and that two children lived + in them, in the other room, and how we used to make believe too + in the slanting chimney glass? You could make believe it here + with _forty_ children. But I don't make believe much now. There + is such a lot that is real, and it is all so grown up. It would + seem so silly to have such plays, you know. I can't help + thinking the things that come into my head though, and it seems + sometimes just like a piece of a story, when I walk into the + drawing-room all alone, just before company comes, with my + _gros d'Afrique_ on, and my puffed lace collar, and my hair + tied back with long new black ribbons. It all goes through my + head just how I look coming in, and how grand it is, and what + the words would be in a book about it, and I seem to act a + little bit, just to myself as if I were a girl in a story, and + it seems to say, "And Laura walked up the long drawing-room and + took a book bound in crimson morocco from the white marble pier + table and sat down upon the velvet ottoman in the balcony + window." But what happened then it never tells. I suppose it + will by and by. I am getting used to it all, though; it isn't + so _awfully_ splendid as it was at first. + + I forgot to tell you that my new bonnet flares a great deal, + and that I have white lace quilling round the face with little + black dotty things in it on stems. They don't wear those close + cottage bonnets now. And aunt has had my dresses made longer + and my pantalettes shorter, so that they hardly show at all. + She says I shall soon wear long dresses, I am getting so tall. + Alice wears them now, and her feet look so pretty, and she has + such pretty slippers: little French purple ones, and sometimes + dark green, and sometimes beautiful light gray, to go with + different dresses. I don't care for anything but the slippers, + but I _should_ like such ones as hers. Aunt says I can't, of + course, as long as I wear black, but I can have purple ones + next summer to wear with my white dresses. That will be when I + come to see you. + + I am afraid you will think this is a very _wearing_ kind of a + letter, there are so many 'wears' in it. I have been reading it + over so far, but I can't put in any other word. + + Your affectionate sister, + LAURA SHIERE. + + P.S. Aunt Oferr says Laura Shiere is such a good sounding name. + It doesn't seem at all common. I am glad of it. I should hate + to be common. + +I do not think I shall give you any more of it just here than these +two letters tell. We are not going through all Frank and Laura's +story. That with which we have especially to do lies on beyond. But +it takes its roots in this, as all stories take their roots far back +and underneath. + +Two years after, Laura was in Homesworth for her second summer visit +at the farm. It was convenient, while the Oferrs were at Saratoga. +Mrs. Oferr was very much occupied now, of course, with introducing +her own daughters. A year or two later, she meant to give Laura a +season at the Springs. "All in turn, my dear, and good time," she +said. + +The winter before, Frank had been a few weeks in New York. But it +tired her dreadfully, she said. She liked the theatres and the +concerts, and walking out and seeing the shops. But there was "no +place to get out of it into." It didn't seem as if she ever really +got home and took off her things. She told Laura it was like that +first old letter of hers; it was just "wearing," all the time. + +Laura laughed. "But how can you live _without_ wearing?" said she. + +Frank stood by, wondering, while Laura unpacked her trunks that +morning after her second arrival at Aunt Oldways'. She had done now +even with the simplicity of white and violet, and her wardrobe +blossomed out like the flush of a summer garden. + +She unfolded a rose-colored muslin, with little raised embroidered +spots, and threw it over the bed. + +"Where _will_ you wear that, up here?" asked Frank, in pure +bewilderment. + +"Why, I wear it to church, with my white Swiss mantle," answered +Laura. "Or taking tea, or anything. I've a black silk _visite_ for +cool days. That looks nice with it. And see here,--I've a pink +sunshade. They don't have them much yet, even in New York. Mr. +Pemberton Oferr brought these home from Paris, for Gerry and Alice, +and me. Gerry's is blue. See! it tips back." And Laura set the dashy +little thing with its head on one side, and held it up coquettishly. + +"They used them in carriages in Paris, he said, and in St. +Petersburg, driving out on the Nevskoi Prospekt." + +"But where are your common things?" + +"Down at the bottom; I haven't come to them. They were put in first, +because they would bear squeezing. I've two French calicoes, with +pattern trimmings; and a lilac jaconet, with ruffles, open down the +front." + +Laura wore long dresses now; and open wrappers were the height of +the style. + +Laura astonished Homesworth the first Sunday of this visit, with her +rose-colored toilet. Bonnet of shirred pink silk with moss rosebuds +and a little pink lace veil; the pink muslin, full-skirted over two +starched petticoats; even her pink belt had gay little borders of +tiny buds and leaves, and her fan had a pink tassel. + +"They're the things I wear; why shouldn't I?" she said to Frank's +remonstrance. + +"But up here!" said Frank. "It would seem nicer to wear +something--stiller." + +So it would; a few years afterward Laura herself would have seen +that it was more elegant; though Laura Shiere was always rather +given to doing the utmost--in apparel--that the occasion tolerated. +Fashions grew stiller in years after. But this June Sunday, +somewhere in the last thirties or the first forties, she went into +the village church like an Aurora, and the village long remembered +the resplendence. Frank had on a white cambric dress, with a real +rose in the bosom, cool and fresh, with large green leaves; and her +"cottage straw" was trimmed with white lutestring, crossed over the +crown. + +"Do you feel any better?" asked Aunt Oldways of Laura, when they +came home to the country tea-dinner. + +"Better--how?" asked Laura, in surprise. + +"After all that 'wear' and _stare_," said Aunt Oldways, quietly. + +Aunt Oldways might have been astonished, but she was by no means +awestruck, evidently; and Aunt Oldways generally spoke her mind. + +Somehow, with Laura Shiere, pink was pinker, and ribbons were more +rustling than with most people. Upon some quiet unconscious folks, +silk makes no spread, and color little show; with Laura every gleam +told, every fibre asserted itself. It was the live Aurora, bristling +and tingling to its farthest electric point. She did not toss or +flaunt, either; she had learned better of Signor Pirotti how to +carry herself; but she was in conscious _rapport_ with every thing +and stitch she had about her. Some persons only put clothes on to +their bodies; others really seem to contrive to put them on to their +souls. + +Laura Shiere came up to Homesworth three years later, with something +more wonderful than a pink embossed muslin:--she had a lover. + +Mrs. Oferr and her daughters were on their way to the mountains; +Laura was to be left with the Oldways. Grant Ledwith accompanied +them all thus far on their way; then he had to go back to Boston. + +"I can't think of anything but that pink sunshade she used to carry +round canted all to one side over her shoulder," said Aunt Oldways, +looking after them down the dusty road the morning that he went +away. Laura, in her white dress and her straw hat and her silly +little bronze-and-blue-silk slippers printing the roadside gravel, +leaning on Grant Ledwith's arm, seemed only to have gained a fresh, +graceful adjunct to set off her own pretty goings and comings with, +and to heighten the outside interest of that little point of +eternity that she called her life. Mr. Ledwith was not so much a man +who had won a woman, as Laura was a girl who had "got a beau." + +She had sixteen tucked and trimmed white skirts, too, she told +Frank; she should have eight more before she was married; people +wore ever so many skirts now, at a time. She had been to a party a +little while ago where she wore _seven_. + +There were deep French embroidery bands around some of these white +skirts; those were beautiful for morning dresses. Geraldine Oferr +was married last winter; Laura had been her bridesmaid; Gerry had a +white brocade from Paris, and a point-lace veil. She had three dozen +of everything, right through. They had gone to housekeeping up town, +in West Sixteenth Street. Frank would have to come to New York next +winter, or in the spring, to be _her_ bridesmaid; then she would +see; then--who knew! + +Frank was only sixteen, and she lived away up here in Homesworth +among the hills; she had not "seen," but she had her own little +secret, for all that; something she neither told nor thought, yet +which was there; and it came across her with a queer little thrill +from the hidden, unlooked-at place below thought, that "Who" +_didn't_ know. + +Laura waited a year for Grant Ledwith's salary to be raised to +marrying point; he was in a wholesale woolen house in Boston; he was +a handsome fellow, with gentlemanly and taking address,--capital, +this, for a young salesman; and they put his pay up to two thousand +dollars within that twelvemonth. Upon this, in the spring, they +married; took a house in Filbert Street, down by the river, and set +up their little gods. These were: a sprinkle of black walnut and +brocatelle in the drawing-room, a Sheffield-plate tea-service, and a +crimson-and-giltedged dinner set that Mrs. Oferr gave them; twilled +turkey-red curtains, that looked like thibet, in the best chamber; +and the twenty-four white skirts and the silk dresses, and whatever +corresponded to them on the bride-groom's part, in their wardrobes. +All that was left of Laura's money, and all that was given them by +Grant Ledwith's father, and Mr. Titus Oldways' astounding present of +three hundred dollars, without note or comment,--the first reminder +they had had of him since Edward Shiere's funeral, "and goodness +knew how he heard anything now," Aunt Oferr said,--had gone to this +outfit. But they were well set up and started in the world; so +everybody said, and so they, taking the world into their young, +confident hands for a plaything, not knowing it for the perilous +loaded shell it is, thought, merrily, themselves. + +Up in Homesworth people did not have to wait for two thousand dollar +salaries. They would not get them if they did. + +Oliver Ripwinkley, the minister's son, finished his medical studies +and city hospital practice that year, and came back, as he had +always said he should do, to settle down for a country doctor. Old +Doctor Parrish, the parson's friend of fifty years, with no child of +his own, kept the place for Oliver, and hung up his old-fashioned +saddle-bags in the garret the very day the young man came home. He +was there to be "called in," however, and with this backing, and the +perforce of there being nobody else, young Doctor Ripwinkley had ten +patients within the first week; thereby opportunity for shewing +himself in the eyes of ten families as a young man who "appeared to +know pretty well what he was about." + +So that when he gave further proof of the same, by asking, within +the week that followed, the prettiest girl in Homesworth, Frances +Shiere, to come and begin the world with him at Mile Hill village, +nobody, not even Frank herself, was astonished. + +She bought three new gowns, a shawl, a black silk mantle, and a +straw bonnet. She made six each of every pretty white garment that a +woman wears; and one bright mellow evening in September, they took +their first tea in the brown-carpeted, white-shaded little corner +room in the old "Rankin house;" a bigger place than they really +wanted yet, and not all to be used at first; but rented +"reasonable," central, sunshiny, and convenient; a place that they +hoped they should buy sometime; facing on the broad sidegreen of the +village street, and running back, with its field and meadow +belongings, away to the foot of great, gray, sheltering Mile Hill. + +And the vast, solemn globe, heedless of what lit here or there upon +its breadth, or took up this or that life in its little freckling +cities, or between the imperceptible foldings of its hills,--only +carrying way-passengers for the centuries,--went plunging on its +track, around and around, and swept them all, a score of times, +through its summer and its winter solstices. + + + + +IV. + +AFTERWARDS IS A LONG TIME. + + +Old Mr. Marmaduke Wharne had come down from Outledge, in the +mountains, on his way home to New York. He had stopped in Boston to +attend to some affairs of his own,--if one can call them so, since +Marmaduke Wharne never had any "own" affairs that did not chiefly +concern, to their advantage, somebody else,--in which his friend Mr. +Titus Oldways was interested, not personally, but Wharne fashion. +Now, reader, you know something about Mr. Titus Oldways, which up to +this moment, only God, and Marmaduke Wharne, and Rachel Froke, who +kept Mr. Oldways' house, and wore a Friend's drab dress and white +cap, and said "Titus," and "Marmaduke" to the two old gentlemen, and +"thee" and "thou" to everybody,--have ever known. In a general way +and relation, I mean; separate persons knew particular things; but +each separate person thought the particular thing he knew to be a +whimsical exception. + +Mr. Oldways did not belong to any church: but he had an English +Prayer-book under his Bible on his study table, and Baxter and +Fenelon and à Kempis and "Wesley's Hymns," and Swedenborg's "Heaven +and Hell" and "Arcana Celestia," and Lowell's "Sir Launfal," and +Dickens's "Christmas Carol," all on the same set of shelves,--that +held, he told Marmaduke, his religion; or as much of it as he could +get together. And he had this woman, who was a Friend, and who +walked by the Inner Light, and in outer charity, if ever a woman +did, to keep his house. "For," said he, "the blessed truth is, that +the Word of God is in the world. Alive in it. When you know that, +and wherever you can get hold of his souls, then and there you've +got your religion,--a piece at a time. To prove and sort your +pieces, and to straighten the tangle you might otherwise get into, +there's _this_," and he laid his hand down on the Four Gospels, +bound in white morocco, with a silver cross upon the cover,--a +volume that no earthly creature, again, knew of, save Titus and +Marmaduke and Rachel Froke, who laid it into a drawer when she swept +and dusted, and placed it between the crimson folds of its quilted +silken wrapper when she had finished, burnishing the silver cross +gently with a scrap of chamois leather cut from a clean piece every +time. There was nothing else delicate and exquisite in all the plain +and grim establishment; and the crimson wrapper was comfortably +worn, and nobody would notice it, lying on the table there, with an +almanac, a directory, the big, open Worcester's Dictionary, and the +scattered pamphlets and newspapers of the day. + +Out in the world, Titus Oldways went about with visor down. + +He gave to no fairs nor public charities; "let them get all they +could that way, it wasn't his way," he said to Rachel Froke. The +world thought he gave nothing, either of purse or life. + +There was a plan they had together,--he and Marmaduke Wharne,--this +girls' story-book will not hold the details nor the idea of +it,--about a farm they owned, and people working it that could go +nowhere else to work anything; and a mill-privilege that might be +utilized and expanded, to make--not money so much as safe and honest +human life by way of making money; and they sat and talked this plan +over, and settled its arrangements, in the days that Marmaduke +Wharne was staying on in Boston, waiting for his other friend, Miss +Craydocke, who had taken the River Road down from Outledge, and so +come round by Z----, where she was staying a few days with the +Goldthwaites and the Inglesides. Miss Craydocke had a share or two +in the farm and in the mill. + +And now, Titus Oldways wanted to know of Marmaduke Wharne what he +was to do for Afterwards. + +It was a question that had puzzled and troubled him. Afterwards. + +"While I live," he said, "I will do what I can, and _as_ I can. I +will hand over my doing, and the wherewith, to no society or +corporation. I'll pay no salaries nor circumlocutions. Neither will +I--afterwards. And how is my money going to work on?" + +"_Your_ money?" + +"Well,--God's money." + +"How did it work when it came to you?" + +Mr. Oldways was silent. + +"He chose to send it to you. He made it in the order of things that +it should come to you. You began, yourself, to work for money. You +did not understand, then, that the money would be from God and was +for Him." + +"He made me understand." + +"Yes. He looked out for that part of it too. He can look out for it +again. His word shall not return unto him void." + +"He has given me this, though, to pass on; and I will not put it +into a machine. I want to give some living soul a body for its +living. Dead charities are dead. It's of no use to will it to you, +Marmaduke; I'm as likely to stay on, perhaps, as you are." + +"And the youngest life might drop, the day after your own. You can't +take it out of God's hand." + +"I must either let it go by law, or will it--here and there. I know +enough whom it would help; but I want to invest, not spend it; to +invest it in a life--or lives--that will carry it on from where I +leave it. How shall I know?" + +"He giveth it a body as it pleaseth Him," quoted Marmaduke Wharne, +thoughtfully. "I am English, you know, Oldways; I can't help +reverencing the claims of next of kin. Unless one is plainly shown +otherwise, it seems the appointment. How can we set aside his ways +until He clearly points us out his own exception?" + +"My 'next' are two women whom I don't know, my niece's children. She +died thirty years ago." + +"Perhaps you ought to know them." + +"I know _about_ them; I've kept the run; but I've held clear of +family. They didn't need me, and I had no right to put it into their +heads they did, unless I fully meant"-- + +He broke off. + +"They're like everybody else, Wharne; neither better nor worse, I +dare say; but the world is full of just such women. How do I know +this money would be well in their hands--even for themselves?" + +"Find out." + +"One of 'em was brought up by an Oferr woman!" + +The tone in which he _commonized_ the name to a satiric general +term, is not to be written down, and needed not to be interpreted. + +"The other is well enough," he went on, "and contented enough. +A doctor's widow, with a little property, a farm and two +children,--her older ones died very young,--up in New Hampshire. I +might spoil _her_; and the other,--well, you see as I said, I _don't +know_." + +"Find out," said Marmaduke Wharne, again. + +"People are not found out till they are tried." + +"Try 'em!" + +Mr. Oldways had been sitting with his head bent, thoughtfully, his +eyes looking down, his hands on the two stiff, old-fashioned arms of +his chair. At this last spondaic response from Marmaduke, he lifted +his eyes and eyebrows,--not his head,--and raised himself slightly +with his two hands pressing on the chair arms; the keen glance and +the half-movement were impulsively toward his friend. + +"Eh?" said he. + +"Try 'em," repeated Marmaduke Wharne. "Give God's way a chance." + +Mr. Oldways, seated back in his chair again, looked at him intently; +made a little vibration, as it were, with his body, that moved his +head up and down almost imperceptibly, with a kind of gradual +assenting apprehension, and kept utterly silent. + +So, their talk being palpably over for this time, Marmaduke Wharne +got up presently to go. They nodded at each other, friendlily, as he +looked back from the door. + +Left alone, Mr. Titus Oldways turned in his swivel-chair, around to +his desk beside which he was sitting. + +"Next of kin?" he repeated to himself. "God's way?--Well! Afterwards +is a long time. A man must give it up somewhere. Everything escheats +to the king at last." + +And he took a pen in his hand and wrote a letter. + + + + +V. + +HOW THE NEWS CAME TO HOMESWORTH. + + +"I wish I lived in the city, and had a best friend," said Hazel +Ripwinkley to Diana, as they sat together on the long, red, sloping +kitchen roof under the arches of the willow-tree, hemming towels for +their afternoon "stent." They did this because their mother sat on +the shed roof under the fir, when she was a child, and had told them +of it. Imagination is so much greater than fact, that these +children, who had now all that little Frank Shiere had dreamed of +with the tar smell and the gravel stones and the one tree,--who +might run free in the wide woods and up the breezy hillsides,--liked +best of all to get out on the kitchen roof and play "old times," and +go back into their mother's dream. + +"I wish I lived in a block of houses, and could see across the +corner into my best friend's room when she got up in the morning!" + +"And could have that party!" said Diana. + +"Think of the clean, smooth streets, with red sidewalks, and people +living all along, door after door! I like things set in rows, and +people having places, like the desks at school. Why, you've got to +go way round Sand Hill to get to Elizabeth Ann Dorridon's. I should +like to go up steps, and ring bells!" + +"I don't know," said Diana, slowly. "I think birds that build little +nests about anywhere in the cunning, separate places, in the woods, +or among the bushes, have the best time." + +"Birds, Dine! It ain't birds, it's people! What has that to do with +it?" + +"I mean I think nests are better than martin-boxes." + +"Let's go in and get her to tell us that story. She's in the round +room." + +The round room was a half ellipse, running in against the curve of +the staircase. It was a bit of a place, with the window at one end, +and the bow at the other. It had been Doctor Ripwinkley's office, +and Mrs. Ripwinkley sat there with her work on summer afternoons. +The door opened out, close at the front, upon a great flat stone in +an angle, where was also entrance into the hall by the house-door, +at the right hand. The door of the office stood open, and across the +stone one could look down, between a range of lilac bushes and the +parlor windows, through a green door-yard into the street. + +"Now, Mother Frank, tell us about the party!" + +They called her "Mother Frank" when they wished to be particularly +coaxing. They had taken up their father's name for her, with their +own prefix, when they were very little ones, before he went away and +left nobody to call her Frank, every day, any more. + +"That same little old story? Won't you ever be tired of it,--you +great girls?" asked the mother; for she had told it to them ever +since they were six and eight years old. + +"Yes! No, never!" said the children. + +For how _should_ they outgrow it? It was a sunny little bit out of +their mother's own child-life. We shall go back to smaller things, +one day, maybe, and find them yet more beautiful. It is the _going_ +back, together. + +"The same old way?" + +"Yes; the very same old way." + +"We had little open-work straw hats and muslin pelisses,--your Aunt +Laura and I,"--began Mrs. Ripwinkley, as she had begun all those +scores of times before. "Mother put them on for us,--she dressed us +just alike, always,--and told us to take each other's hands, and go +up Brier and down Hickory streets, and stop at all the houses that +she named, and that we knew; and we were to give her love and +compliments, and ask the mothers in each house,--Mrs. Dayton, and +Mrs. Holridge (she lived up the long steps), and Mrs. Waldow, and +the rest of them, to let Caroline and Grace and Fanny and Susan, and +the rest of _them_, come at four o'clock, to spend the afternoon and +take tea, if it was convenient." + +"O, mother!" said Hazel, "you didn't say that when you _asked_ +people, you know." + +"O, no!" said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "That was when we went to stop a +little while ourselves, without being asked. Well, it was to please +to let them come. And all the ladies were at home, because it was +only ten o'clock; and they all sent their love and compliments, and +they were much obliged, and the little girls would be very happy. + +"It was a warm June day; up Brier Street was a steep walk; down +Hickory we were glad to keep on the shady side, and thought it was +nice that Mrs. Bemys and Mrs. Waldow lived there. The strings of our +hats were very moist and clinging when we got home, and Laura had a +blue mark under her chin from the green ribbon. + +"Mother was in her room, in her white dimity morning gown, with +little bows up the front, the ends trimmed with cambric edging. She +took off our hats and our pelisses,--the tight little sleeves came +off wrong side out,--sponged our faces with cool water, and brushed +out Laura's curls. That was the only difference between us. I +hadn't any curls, and my hair had to be kept cropped. Then she went +to her upper bureau drawer and took out two little paper boxes. + +"'Something has come for Blanche and Clorinda, since you have been +gone,' she said, smiling. 'I suppose you have been shopping?' We +took the paper boxes, laughing back at her with a happy +understanding. We were used to these little plays of mother's, and +she couldn't really surprise us with her kindnesses. We went and sat +down in the window-seat, and opened them as deliberately and in as +grown-up a way as we could. Inside them were two little lace +pelerines lined with rose-colored silk. The boxes had a faint smell +of musk. The things were so much better for coming in boxes! Mother +knew that. + +"Well, we dressed our dolls, and it was a great long sunshiny +forenoon. Mother and Luclarion had done something in the kitchen, +and there was a smell of sweet baking in the house. Every now and +then we sniffed, and looked at each other, and at mother, and +laughed. After dinner we had on our white French calicoes with blue +sprigs, and mother said she should take a little nap, and we might +go into the parlor and be ready for our company. She always let us +receive our own company ourselves at first. And exactly at four +o'clock the door-bell rang, and they began to come. + +"Caroline and Fanny Dayton had on white cambric dresses, and green +kid slippers. That was being very much dressed, indeed. Lucy Waldow +wore a pink lawn, and Grace Holridge a buff French print. Susan +Bemys said her little sister couldn't come because they couldn't +find her best shoes. Her mother thought she had thrown them out of +the window. + +"When they all got there we began to play 'Lady Fair;' and we had +just got all the 'lady fairs,' one after another, into our ring, and +were dancing and singing up and down and round and round, when the +door opened and mother walked in. + +"We always thought our mother was the prettiest of any of the girls' +mothers. She had such bright shining hair, and she put it up with +shell combs into such little curly puffs. And she never seemed fussy +or old, but she came in among us with such a beautiful, smiling way, +as if she knew beforehand that it was all right, and there was no +danger of any mischief, or that we shouldn't behave well, but she +only wanted to see the good time. That day she had on a white muslin +dress with little purple flowers on it, and a bow of purple ribbon +right in the side of her hair. She had a little piece of fine work +in her hand, and after she had spoken to all the little girls and +asked them how their mothers were, she went and sat down in one of +the front windows, and made little scollops and eyelets. I remember +her long ivory stiletto, with a loop of green ribbon through the +head of it, and the sharp, tiny, big-bowed scissors that lay in her +lap, and the bright, tapering silver thimble on her finger. + +"Pretty soon the door opened again, softly; a tray appeared, with +Hannah behind it. On the tray were little glass saucers with +confectionery in them; old-fashioned confectionery,--gibraltars, and +colored caraways, and cockles with mottoes. We were in the middle of +'So says the Grand Mufti,' and Grace Holridge was the Grand Mufti. +Hannah went up to her first, as she stood there alone, and Grace +took a saucer and held it up before the row of us, and said, '_Thus_ +says the Grand Mufti!' and then she bit a red gibraltar, and +everybody laughed. She did it so quickly and so prettily, putting +it right into the play. It was good of her not to say, '_So_ says +the Grand Mufti.' At least we thought so then, though Susan Bemys +said it would have been funnier. + +"We had a great many plays in those days, and it took a long +afternoon to get through with them. We had not begun to wonder what +we should do next, when tea time came, and we went down into the +basement room. It wasn't tea, though; it was milk in little clear, +pink mugs, some that mother only had out for our parties, and cold +water in crimped-edge glasses, and little biscuits, and +sponge-cakes, and small round pound-cakes frosted. These were what +had smelt so good in the morning. + +"We stood round the table; there was not room for all of us to sit, +and mother helped us, and Hannah passed things round. Susan Bemys +took cake three times, and Lucy Waldow opened her eyes wide, and +Fanny Dayton touched me softly under the table. + +"After tea mother played and sung some little songs to us; and then +she played the 'Fisher's Hornpipe' and 'Money Musk,' and we danced a +little contra-dance. The girls did not all know cotillons, and some +of them had not begun to go to dancing-school. Father came home and +had his tea after we had done ours, and then he came up into the +parlor and watched us dancing. Mr. Dayton came in, too. At about +half past eight some of the other fathers called, and some of the +mothers sent their girls, and everybody was fetched away. It was +nine o'clock when Laura and I went to bed, and we couldn't go to +sleep until after the clock struck ten, for thinking and saying what +a beautiful time we had had, and anticipating how the girls would +talk it all over next day at school. That," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, +when she had finished, "was the kind of a party we used to have in +Boston when I was a little girl. I don't know what the little girls +have now." + +"Boston!" said Luclarion, catching the last words as she came in, +with her pink cape bonnet on, from the Homesworth variety and +finding store, and post-office. "You'll talk them children off to +Boston, finally, Mrs. Ripwinkley! Nothing ever tugs so at one end, +but there's something tugging at the other; and there's never a hint +nor a hearing to anybody, that something more doesn't turn up +concerning it. Here's a letter, Mrs. Ripwinkley!" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley took it with some surprise. It was not her sister's +handwriting nor Mr. Ledwith's, on the cover; and she rarely had a +letter from them that was posted in Boston, now. They had been +living at a place out of town for several years. Mrs. Ledwith knew +better than to give her letters to her husband for posting. They got +lost in his big wallet, and stayed there till they grew old. + +Who should write to Mrs. Ripwinkley, after all these years, from +Boston? + +She looked up at Luclarion, and smiled. "It didn't take a Solomon," +said she, pointing to the postmark. + +"No, nor yet a black smooch, with only four letters plain, on an +invelup. 'Taint that, it's the drift of things. Those girls have got +Boston in their minds as hard and fast as they've got heaven; and I +mistrust mightily they'll get there first somehow!" + +The girls were out of hearing, as she said this; they had got their +story, and gone back to their red roof and their willow tree. + +"Why, Luclarion!" exclaimed Mrs. Ripwinkley, as she drew out and +unfolded the letter sheet. "It's from Uncle Titus Oldways." + +"Then he ain't dead," remarked Luclarion, and went away into the +kitchen. + + "MY DEAR FRANCES,--I am seventy-eight years old. It is time I + got acquainted with some of my relations. I've had other work + to do in the world heretofore (at least I thought I had), and + so, I believe, have they. But I have a wish now to get you and + your sister to come and live nearer to me, that we may find out + whether we really are anything to each other or not. It seems + natural, I suppose, that we might be; but kinship doesn't all + run in the veins. + + "I do not ask you to do this with reference to any possible + intentions of mine that might concern you after my death; my + wish is to do what is right by you, in return for your + consenting to my pleasure in the matter, while I am alive. It + will cost you more to live in Boston than where you do now, and + I have no business to expect you to break up and come to a new + home unless I can make it an object to you in some way. You can + do some things for your children here that you could not do in + Homesworth. I will give you two thousand dollars a year to live + on, and secure the same to you if I die. I have a house here in + Aspen Street, not far from where I live myself, which I will + give to either of you that it may suit. That you can settle + between you when you come. It is rather a large house, and Mrs. + Ledwith's family is larger, I think, than yours. The estate is + worth ten thousand dollars, and I will give the same sum to the + one who prefers, to put into a house elsewhere. I wish you to + reckon this as all you are ever to expect from me, except the + regard I am willing to believe I may come to have for you. I + shall look to hear from you by the end of the week. + + "I remain, yours truly, + + "TITUS OLDWAYS." + +"Luclarion!" cried Mrs. Ripwinkley, with excitement, "come here and +help me think!" + +"Only four days to make my mind up in," she said again, when +Luclarion had read the letter through. + +Luclarion folded it and gave it back. + +"It won't take God four days to think," she answered quietly; "and +you can ask _Him_ in four minutes. You and I can talk afterwards." +And Luclarion got up and went away a second time into the kitchen. + +That night, after Diana and Hazel were gone to bed, their mother and +Luclarion Grapp had some last words about it, sitting by the +white-scoured kitchen table, where Luclarion had just done mixing +bread and covered it away for rising. Mrs. Ripwinkley was apt to +come out and talk things over at this time of the kneading. She +could get more from Luclarion then than at any other opportunity. +Perhaps that was because Miss Grapp could not walk off from the +bread-trough; or it might be that there was some sympathy between +the mixing of her flour and yeast into a sweet and lively +perfection, and the bringing of her mental leaven wholesomely to +bear. + +"It looks as if it were meant, Luclarion," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, at +last. "And just think what it will be for the children." + +"I guess it's meant fast enough," replied Luclarion. "But as for +what it will be for the children,--why, that's according to what you +all make of it. And that's the stump." + +Luclarion Grapp was fifty-four years old; but her views of life were +precisely the same that they had been at twenty-eight. + + + + +VI. + +AND. + + +There is a piece of Z----, just over the river, that they call +"And." + +It began among the school-girls; Barbara Holabird had christened it, +with the shrewdness and mischief of fourteen years old. She said the +"and-so-forths" lived there. + +It was a little supplementary neighborhood; an after-growth, coming +up with the railroad improvements, when they got a freight station +established on that side for the East Z---- mills. "After Z----, +what should it be but 'And?'" Barbara Holabird wanted to know. The +people who lived there called it East Square; but what difference +did that make? + +It was two miles Boston-ward from Z---- centre, where the down +trains stopped first; that was five minutes gained in the time +between it and the city. Land was cheap at first, and sure to come +up in value; so there were some streets laid out at right angles, +and a lot of houses put up after a pattern, as if they had all been +turned out of blanc-mange moulds, and there was "East Square." Then +people began by-and-by to build for themselves, and a little variety +and a good deal of ambition came in. They had got to French roofs +now; this was just before the day of the multitudinous little paper +collar-boxes with beveled covers, that are set down everywhere now, +and look as if they could be lifted up by the chimneys, any time, +and be carried off with a thumb and finger. Two and a half story +houses, Mansarded, looked grand; and the East Square people thought +nothing slight of themselves, though the "old places" and the real +Z---- families were all over on West Hill. + +Mrs. Megilp boarded in And for the summer. + +"Since Oswald had been in business she couldn't go far from the +cars, you know; and Oswald had a boat on the river, and he and +Glossy enjoyed that so much. Besides, she had friends in Z----, +which made it pleasant; and she was tired, for her part, of crowds +and fashion. All she wanted was a quiet country place. She knew the +Goldthwaites and the Haddens; she had met them one year at +Jefferson." + +Mrs. Megilp had found out that she could get larger rooms in And +than she could have at the mountains or the sea-shore, and at half +the price; but this she did not mention. Yet there was nothing +shabby in it, except her carefully _not_ mentioning it. + +Mrs. Megilp was Mrs. Grant Ledwith's chief intimate and counselor. +She was a good deal the elder; that was why it was mutually +advantageous. Grant Ledwith was one of the out-in-the-world, +up-to-the-times men of the day; the day in which everything is +going, and everybody that is in active life has, somehow or other, +all that is going. Grant Ledwith got a good salary, an inflated +currency salary; and he spent it all. His daughters were growing up, +and they were stylish and pretty; Mrs. Megilp took a great interest +in Agatha and Florence Ledwith, and was always urging their mother +to "do them justice." "Agatha and Florence were girls who had a +right to every advantage." Mrs. Megilp was almost old enough to be +Laura Ledwith's mother; she had great experience, and knowledge of +the world; and she sat behind Laura's conscience and drove it tandem +with her inclination. + +Per contra, it was nice for Mrs. Megilp, who was a widow, and whose +income did not stretch with the elasticity of the times, to have +friends who lived like the Ledwiths, and who always made her +welcome; it was a good thing for Glossy to be so fond of Agatha and +Florence, and to have them so fond of her. "She needed young +society," her mother said. One reason that Glossy Megilp needed +young society might be in the fact that she herself was twenty-six. + +Mrs. Megilp had advised the Ledwiths to buy a house in Z----. "It +was just far enough not to be suburban, but to have a society of its +own; and there _was_ excellent society in Z----, everybody knew. +Boston was hard work, nowadays; the distances were getting to be so +great." Up to the West and South Ends,--the material distances,--she +meant to be understood to say; but there was an inner sense to Mrs. +Megilp's utterances, also. + +"One might as well be quite out of town; and then it was always +something, even in such city connection as one might care to keep +up, to hail from a well-recognized social independency; to belong to +Z---- was a standing, always. It wasn't like going to Forest Dell, +or Lakegrove, or Bellair; cheap little got-up places with fancy +names, that were strung out on the railroads like French gilt beads +on a chain." + +But for all that, Mrs. Ledwith had only got into "And;" and Mrs. +Megilp knew it. + +Laura did not realize it much; she had bowing and speaking +acquaintance with the Haddens and the Hendees, and even with the +Marchbankses, over on West Hill; and the Goldthwaites and the +Holabirds, down in the town, she knew very well. She did not care to +come much nearer; she did not want to be bound by any very +stringent and exclusive social limits; it was a bother to keep up +to all the demands of such a small, old-established set. Mrs. Hendee +would not notice, far less be impressed by the advent of her +new-style Brussels carpet with a border, or her full, fresh, +Nottingham lace curtains, or the new covering of her drawing-room +set with cuir-colored terry. Mrs. Tom Friske and Mrs. Philgry, down +here at East Square, would run in, and appreciate, and admire, and +talk it all over, and go away perhaps breaking the tenth commandment +amiably in their hearts. + +Mrs. Ledwith's nerves had extended since we saw her as a girl; they +did not then go beyond the floating ends of her blue or rose-colored +ribbons, or, at furthest, the tip of her jaunty laced sunshade; now +they ramified,--for life still grows in some direction,--to her +chairs, and her china, and her curtains, and her ruffled +pillow-shams. Also, savingly, to her children's "suits," and party +dresses, and pic-nic hats, and double button gloves. Savingly; for +there is a leaven of grace in mother-care, even though it be +expended upon these. Her friend, Mrs. Inchdeepe, in Helvellyn Park, +with whom she dined when she went shopping in Boston, had _nothing_ +but her modern improvements and her furniture. "My house is my +life," she used to say, going round with a Canton crape duster, +touching tenderly carvings and inlayings and gildings. + +Mrs. Megilp was spending the day with Laura Ledwith; Glossy was gone +to town, and thence down to the sea-shore, with some friends. + +Mrs. Megilp spent a good many days with Laura. She had large, bright +rooms at her boarding-house, but then she had very gristly veal pies +and thin tapioca puddings for dinner; and Mrs. Megilp's constitution +required something more generous. She was apt to happen in at this +season, when Laura had potted pigeons. A little bird told her; a +dozen little birds, I mean, with their legs tied together in a +bunch; for she could see the market wagon from her window, when it +turned up Mr. Ledwith's avenue. + +Laura had always the claret pitcher on her dinner table, too; and +claret and water, well-sugared, went deliciously with the savory +stew. + +They were up-stairs now, in Laura's chamber; the bed and sofa were +covered with silk and millinery; Laura was looking over the girls' +"fall things;" there was a smell of sweet marjoram and thyme and +cloves, and general richness coming up from the kitchen; there was a +bland sense of the goodness of Providence in Mrs. Megilp's--no, not +heart, for her heart was not very hungry; but in her eyes and +nostrils. + +She was advising Mrs. Ledwith to take Desire and Helena's two green +silks and make them over into one for Helena. + +"You can get two whole back breadths then, by piecing it up under +the sash; and you _can't_ have all those gores again; they are quite +done with. Everybody puts in whole breadths now. There's just as +much difference in the _way_ of goring a skirt, as there is between +gores and straight selvages." + +"They do hang well, though; they have such a nice slope." + +"Yes,--but the stripes and the seams! Those tell the story six rods +off; and then there _must_ be sashes, or postillions, or something; +they don't make anything without them; there isn't any finish to a +round waist unless you have something behind." + +"They wore belts last year, and I bought those expensive gilt +buckles. I'm sure they used to look sweetly. But there! a fashion +doesn't last nowadays while you're putting a thing on and walking +out of the house!" + +"And don't put in more than three plaits," pursued Mrs. Megilp, +intent on the fate of the green silks. "Everything is gathered; you +see that is what requires the sashes; round waists and gathers have +a queer look without." + +"If you once begin to alter, you've got to make all over," said Mrs. +Ledwith, a little fractiously, putting the scissors in with +unwilling fingers. She knew there was a good four days' work before +her, and she was quick with her needle, too. + +"Never mind; the making over doesn't cost anything; you turn off +work so easily; and then you've got a really stylish thing." + +"But with all the ripping and remodelling, I don't get time to turn +round, myself, and _live_! It is all fall work, and spring work, and +summer work and winter work. One drive rushes pell-mell right over +another. There isn't time enough to make things and have them; the +good of them, I mean." + +"The girls get it; we have to live in our children," said Mrs. +Megilp, self-renouncingly. "I can never rest until Glossy is +provided with everything; and you know, Laura, I _am_ obliged to +contrive." + +Mrs. Megilp and her daughter Glaucia spent about a thousand dollars +a year, between them, on their dress. In these days, this is a +limited allowance--for the Megilps. But Mrs. Megilp was a woman of +strict pecuniary principle; the other fifteen hundred must pay all +the rest; she submitted cheerfully to the Divine allotment, and +punctually made the two ends meet. She will have this to show, when +the Lord of these servants cometh and reckoneth with them, and that +man who has been also in narrow circumstances, brings his nicely +kept talent out of his napkin. + +Desire Ledwith, a girl of sixteen, spoke suddenly from a corner +where she sat with a book,-- + +"I do wonder who '_they_' are, mamma!" + +"Who?" said Mrs. Ledwith, half rising from her chair, and letting +some breadths of silk slide down upon the floor from her lap, as she +glanced anxiously from the window down the avenue. She did not want +any company this morning. + +"Not that, mamma; I don't mean anybody coming. The 'theys' that +wear, and don't wear, things; the theys you have to be just like, +and keep ripping and piecing for." + +"You absurd child!" exclaimed Mrs. Ledwith, pettishly. "To make me +spill a whole lapful of work for that! They? Why, everybody, of +course." + +"Everybody complains of them, though. Jean Friske says her mother is +all discouraged and worn out. There isn't a thing they had last year +that won't have to be made over this, because they put in a breadth +more behind, and they only gore side seams. And they don't wear +black capes or cloth sacks any more with all kinds of dresses; you +must have suits, clear through. It seems to me 'they' is a nuisance. +And if it's everybody, we must be part of it. Why doesn't somebody +stop?" + +"Desire, I wish you'd put away your book, and help, instead of +asking silly questions. You can't make the world over, with 'why +don'ts?'" + +"I'll _rip_," said Desire, with a slight emphasis; putting her book +down, and coming over for a skirt and a pair of scissors. "But you +know I'm no good at putting together again. And about making the +world over, I don't know but that might be as easy as making over +all its clothes, I'd as lief try, of the two." + +Desire was never cross or disagreeable; she was only +"impracticable," her mother said. "And besides that, she didn't know +what she really did want. She was born hungry and asking, with those +sharp little eyes, and her mouth always open while she was a baby. +'It was a sign,' the nurse said, when she was three weeks old. And +then the other sign,--that she should have to be called 'Desire!'" + +Mrs. Megilp--for Mrs. Megilp had been in office as long ago as +that--had suggested ways of getting over or around the difficulty, +when Aunt Desire had stipulated to have the baby named for her, and +had made certain persuasive conditions. + +"There's the pretty French turn you might give it,--'Desirée.' Only +one more 'e,' and an accent. That is so sweet, and graceful, and +distinguished!" + +"But Aunt Desire won't have the name twisted. It is to be real, +plain Desire, or not at all." + +Mrs. Megilp had shrugged her shoulders. + +"Well, of course it can be that, to christen by, and marry by, and +be buried by. But between whiles,--people pick up names,--you'll +see!" + +Mrs. Megilp began to call her "Daisy" when she was two years old. +Nobody could help what Mrs. Megilp took a fancy to call her by way +of endearment, of course; and Daisy she was growing to be in the +family, when one day, at seven years old, she heard Mrs. Megilp say +to her mother,-- + +"I don't see but that you've all got your _Desire_, after all. The +old lady is satisfied; and away up there in Hanover, what can it +signify to her? The child is 'Daisy,' practically, now, as long as +she lives." + +The sharp, eager little gray eyes, so close together in the high, +delicate head, glanced up quickly at speaker and hearer. + +"What old lady, mamma, away up in Hanover?" + +"Your Aunt Desire, Daisy, whom you were named for. She lives in +Hanover. You are to go and see her there, this summer." + +"Will she call me Daisy?" + +The little difficulty suggested in this question had singularly +never occurred to Mrs. Ledwith before. Miss Desire Ledwith never +came down to Boston; there was no danger at home. + +"No. She is old-fashioned, and doesn't like pet names. She will call +you Desire. That is your name, you know." + +"Would it signify if she thought you called me Daisy?" asked the +child frowning half absently over her doll, whose arm she was +struggling to force into rather a tight sleeve of her own +manufacture. + +"Well, perhaps she might not exactly understand. People always went +by their names when she was a child, and now hardly anybody does. +She was very particular about having you called for her, and you +_are_, you know. I always write 'Desire Ledwith' in all your books, +and--well, I always _shall_ write it so, and so will you. But you +can be Daisy when we make much of you here at home, just as Florence +is Flossie." + +"No, I can't," said the little girl, very decidedly, getting up and +dropping her doll. "Aunt Desire, away up in Hanover, is thinking all +the time that there is a little Desire Ledwith growing up down here. +I don't mean to have her cheated. I'm going to went by my name, as +she did. Don't call me Daisy any more, all of you; for I shan't +come!" + +The gray eyes sparkled; the whole little face scintillated, as it +were. Desire Ledwith had a keen, charged little face; and when +something quick and strong shone through it, it was as if somewhere +behind it there had been struck fire. + +She was true to that through all the years after; going to school +with Mabels and Ethels and Graces and Ediths,--not a girl she knew +but had a pretty modern name,--and they all wondering at that stiff +little "Desire" of hers that she would go by. When she was twelve +years old, the old lady up in Hanover had died, and left her a gold +watch, large and old-fashioned, which she could only keep on a stand +in her room,--a good solid silver tea-set, and all her spoons, and +twenty-five shares in the Hanover Bank. + +Mrs. Megilp called her Daisy, with gentle inadvertence, one day +after that. Desire lifted her eyes slowly at her, with no other +reply in her face, or else. + +"You might please your mother now, I think," said Mrs. Megilp. +"There is no old lady to be troubled by it." + +"A promise isn't ever dead, Mrs. Megilp," said Desire, briefly. "I +shall keep our words." + +"After all," Mrs. Megilp said privately to the mother, "there is +something quietly aristocratic in an old, plain, family name. I +don't know that it isn't good taste in the child. Everybody +understands that it was a condition, and an inheritance." + +Mrs. Megilp had taken care of that. She was watchful for the small +impressions she could make in behalf of her particular friends. She +carried about with her a little social circumference in which all +was preëminently as it should be. + +But,--as I would say if you could not see it for yourself--this is +a digression. We will go back again. + +"If it were any use!" said Desire, shaking out the deep plaits as +she unfastened them from the band. "But you're only a piece of +everybody after all. You haven't anything really new or particular +to yourself, when you've done. And it takes up so much time. Last +year, this was so pretty! _Isn't_ anything actually pretty in +itself, or can't they settle what it is? I should think they had +been at it long enough." + +"Fashions never were so graceful as they are this minute," said Mrs. +Megilp. "Of course it is art, like everything else, and progress. +The world is getting educated to a higher refinement in it, every +day. Why, it's duty, child!" she continued, exaltedly. "Think what +the world would be if nobody cared. We ought to make life beautiful. +It's meant to be. There's not only no virtue in ugliness, but almost +no virtue _with_ it, I think. People are more polite and +good-natured when they are well dressed and comfortable." + +"_That's_ dress, too, though," said Desire, sententiously. "You've +got to stay at home four days, and rip, and be tired, and cross, and +tried-on-to, and have no chance to do anything else, before you can +put it all on and go out and be good-natured and bland, and help put +the beautiful face on the world, _one_ day. I don't believe it's +political economy." + +"Everybody doesn't have to do it for themselves. Really, when I hear +people blamed for dress and elegance,--why, the very ones who have +the most of it are those who sacrifice the least time to it. They +just go and order what they want, and there's the end of it. When it +comes home, they put it on, and it might as well be a flounced silk +as a plain calico." + +"But we _do_ have to think, Mrs. Megilp. And work and worry. And +then we _can't_ turn right round in the things we know every stitch +of and have bothered over from beginning to end, and just be lilies +of the field!" + +"A great many people do have to wash their own dishes, and sweep, +and scour; but that is no reason it ought not to be done. I always +thought it was rather a pity that was said, _just so_," Mrs. Megilp +proceeded, with a mild deprecation of the Scripture. "There _is_ +toiling and spinning; and will be to the end of time, for some of +us." + +"There's cauliflower brought for dinner, Mrs. Ledwith," said +Christina, the parlor girl, coming in. "And Hannah says it won't go +with the pigeons. Will she put it on the ice for to-morrow?" + +"I suppose so," said Mrs. Ledwith, absently, considering a breadth +that had a little hitch in it. "Though what we shall have to-morrow +I'm sure I don't know," she added, rousing up. "I wish Mr. Ledwith +wouldn't send home the first thing he sees, without any reference." + +"And here's the milkman's bill, and a letter," continued Christina, +laying them down on a chair beside her mistress, and then departing. + +Great things come into life so easily, when they do come, right +alongside of milk-bills and cabbages! And yet one may wait so long +sometimes for anything to happen _but_ cabbages! + +The letter was in a very broad, thick envelope, and sealed with wax. + +Mrs. Ledwith looked at it curiously before she opened it. She +did not receive many letters. She had very little time for +correspondence. It was addressed to "Mrs. Laura Ledwith." That +was odd and unusual, too. + +Mrs. Megilp glanced at her over the tortoise-shell rims of her +eye-glasses, but sat very quiet, lest she should delay the opening. +She would like to know what could be in that very business-like +looking despatch, and Laura would be sure to tell her. It must be +something pretty positive, one way or another; it was no +common-place negative communication. Laura might have had property +left her. Mrs. Megilp always thought of possibilities like that. + +When Laura Ledwith had unfolded the large commercial sheet, and +glanced down the open lines of square, upright characters, whose +purport could be taken in at sight, like print, she turned very red +with a sudden excitement. Then all the color dropped away, and there +was nothing in her face but blank, pale, intense surprise. + +"It is a most _won_derful thing!" said she, at last, slowly; and her +breath came like a gasp with her words. "My great-uncle, Mr. +Oldways." + +She spoke those four words as if from them Mrs. Megilp could +understand everything. + +Mrs. Megilp thought she did. + +"Ah! Gone?" she asked, pathetically. + +"Gone! No, indeed!" said Mrs. Ledwith. "He wrote the letter. He +wants me to _come_; me, and all of us,--to Boston, to live; and to +get acquainted with him." + +"My dear," said Mrs. Megilp, with the promptness and benignity of a +Christian apostle, "it's your duty to go." + +"And he offers me a house, and two thousand dollars a year." + +"My dear," said Mrs. Megilp, "it is _emphatically_ your duty to go." + +All at once something strange came over Laura Ledwith. She crumpled +the letter tight in her hands with a clutch of quick excitement, and +began to choke with a little sob, and to laugh at the same time. + +"Don't give way!" cried Mrs. Megilp, coming to her and giving her a +little shake and a slap. "If you do once you will again, and you're +_not_ hystericky!" + +"He's sent for Frank, too. Frank and I will be together again in +dear old Boston! But--we can't be children and sit on the shed any +more; and--it _isn't_ dear old Boston, either!" + +And then Laura gave right up, and had a good cry for five minutes. +After that she felt better, and asked Mrs. Megilp how she thought a +house in Spiller Street would do. + +But she couldn't rip any more of those breadths that morning. + +Agatha and Florence came in from some calls at the Goldthwaites and +the Haddens, and the news was told, and they had their bonnets to +take off, and the dinner-bell rang, and the smell of the spicy +pigeon-stew came up the stairs, all together. And they went down, +talking fast; and one said "house," and another "carpets," and +another "music and German;" and Desire, trailing a breadth of green +silk in her hand that she had never let go since the letter was +read, cried out, "oratorios!" And nobody quite knew what they were +going down stairs for, or had presence of mind to realize the +pigeons, or help each other or themselves properly, when they got +there! Except Mrs. Megilp, who was polite and hospitable to them +all, and picked two birds in the most composed and elegant manner. + +When the dessert was put upon the table, and Christina, confusedly +enlightened as to the family excitement, and excessively curious, +had gone away into the kitchen, Mrs. Ledwith said to Mrs. Megilp,-- + +"I'm not sure I should fancy Spiller Street, after all; it's a sort +of a corner. Westmoreland Street or Helvellyn Park might be nice. I +know people down that way,--Mrs. Inchdeepe." + +"Mrs. Inchdeepe isn't exactly 'people,'" said Mrs. Megilp, in a +quiet way that implied more than grammar. "Don't get into 'And' in +Boston, Laura!--With such an addition to your income, and what your +uncle gives you toward a house, I don't see why you might not think +of Republic Avenue." + +"We shall have plenty of thinking to do about everything," said +Laura. + +"Mamma," said Agatha, insinuatingly, "I'm thinking, already; about +that rose-pink paper for my room. I'm glad now I didn't have it +here." + +Agatha had been restless for white lace, and rose-pink, and a +Brussels carpet ever since her friend Zarah Thoole had come home +from Europe and furnished a morning-room. + +All this time Mr. Grant Ledwith, quite unconscious of the impending +changes with which his family were so far advanced in imagination, +was busy among bales and samples in Devonshire Street. It got to be +an old story by the time the seven o'clock train was in, and he +reached home. It was almost as if it had all happened a year ago, +and they had been waiting for him to come home from Australia. + +There was so much to explain to him that it was really hard to make +him understand, and to bring him up to the point from which they +could go on together. + + + + +VII. + +WAKING UP. + + +The Ledwiths took apartments in Boston for a month. They packed away +the furniture they wanted to keep for upper rooms, in the attics of +their house at Z----. They had an auction of all the furniture of +their drawing-room, dining-room, library, and first floor of +sleeping-rooms. Then they were to let their house. Meanwhile, one +was to be fixed upon and fitted up in Boston. In all this Mrs. +Megilp advised, invaluably. + +"It's of no use to move things," she said. "Three removes are as bad +as a fire; and nothing ever fits in to new places. Old wine and new +bottles, you know! Clear all off with a country auction. Everybody +comes, and they all fight for everything. Things bring more than +their original cost. Then you've nothing to do but order according +to your taste." + +Mr. Oldways had invited both his nieces to his own house on their +arrival. But here again Mrs. Megilp advised,--so judiciously. + +"There are too many of you; it would be a positive infliction. And +then you'll have all your running about and planning and calculating +to do, and the good old gentleman would think he had pulled half +Boston down about his ears. Your sister can go there; it would be +only generous and thoughtful to give way to her. There are only +three of them, and they are strange, you know, to every thing, and +wouldn't know which way to turn. I can put you in the way of rooms +at the Bellevue, exactly the thing, for a hundred and fifty a +month. No servants, you see; meals at the restaurant, and very good, +too. The Wedringtons are to give them up unexpectedly; going to +Europe; poor Mrs. Wedrington is so out of health. And about the +house; don't decide in a hurry; see what your uncle says, and your +sister. It's very likely she'll prefer the Aspen Street house; and +it _would_ be out of the way for you. Still it is not to be +_refused_, you know; of course it is very desirable in many +respects; roomy, old-fashioned, and a garden. I think your sister +will like those things; they're what she has been used to. If she +does, why it's all comfortably settled, and nobody refuses. It is so +ungracious to appear to object; a gift horse, you know." + +"Not to be refused; only by no means to be taken; masterly +inactivity till somebody else is hooked; and then somebody else is +to be grateful for the preference. I wish Mrs. Megilp wouldn't shine +things up so; and that mother wouldn't go to her to black all her +boots!" + +Desire said this in secret, indignant discomfort, to Helena, the +fourth in the family, her chum-sister. Helena did very well to talk +to; she heard anything; then she pranced round the room and chaffed +the canary. + +"Chee! chee! chee! chiddle, iddle, iddle, iddle, e-e-ee! Where do +you keep all your noise and your breath? You're great, aren't you? +You do that to spite people that have to work up one note at a time. +You don't take it in away down under your belt, do you? You're not +particular about that. You don't know much, after all. You don't +know _how_ you do it. You aren't learning of Madame Caroletti. And +you haven't learned two quarters, any way. You were only just born +last spring. Set up! Tr-r-r-r-e-e-ee! I can do that myself. I don't +believe you've got an octave in you. Poh!" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley came down from the country with a bonnet on that +had a crown, and with not a particle of a chignon. When she was +married, twenty-five years before, she wore a French twist,--her +hair turned up in waves from her neck as prettily as it did away +from her forehead,--and two thick coiled loops were knotted and +fastened gracefully at the top. She had kept on twisting her hair +so, all these years; and the rippling folds turned naturally under +her fingers into their places. The color was bright still, and it +had not thinned. Over her brows it parted richly, with no fuzz or +crimp; but a sweet natural wreathing look that made her face young. +Mrs. Ledwith had done hers over slate-pencils till she had burned it +off; and now tied on a friz, that came low down, for fashion's sake, +and left visible only a little bunch of puckers between her eyebrows +and the crowsfeet at the corners. The back of her head was weighted +down by an immense excrescence in a bag. Behind her ears were bare +places. Mrs. Ledwith began to look old-young. And a woman cannot get +into a worse stage of looks than that. Still, she was a showy +woman--a good exponent of the reigning style; and she was +handsome--she and her millinery--of an evening, or in the street. + +When I began that last paragraph I meant to tell you what else Mrs. +Ripwinkley brought with her, down out of the country and the old +times; but hair takes up a deal of room. She brought down all her +dear old furniture. That is, it came after her in boxes, when she +had made up her mind to take the Aspen Street house. + +"Why, that's the sofa Oliver used to lie down on when he came home +tired from his patients, and that's the rocking-chair I nursed my +babies in; and this is the old oak table we've sat round three times +a day, the family of us growing and thinning, as the time went on, +all through these years. It's like a communion table, now, Laura. Of +course such things had to come." + +This was what she answered, when Laura ejaculated her amazement at +her having brought "old Homesworth truck" to Boston. + +"You see it isn't the walls that make the home; we can go away from +them and not break our hearts, so long as our own goes with us. The +little things that we have used, and that have grown around us with +our living,--they are all of living that we can handle and hold on +to; and if I went to Spitzbergen, I should take as many of them as I +could." + +The Aspen Street house just suited Mrs. Ripwinkley, and Diana, and +Hazel. + +In the first place, it was wooden; built side to the street, so that +you went up a little paved walk, in a shade of trees, to get to the +door; and then the yard, on the right hand side as you came in, was +laid out in narrow walks between borders of blossoming plants. There +were vines against the brick end of the next building,--creepers and +morning-glories, and white and scarlet runners; and a little +martin-box was set upon a pole in the still, farther corner. + +The rooms of the house were low, but large; and some of the windows +had twelve-paned sashes,--twenty-four to a window. Mrs. Ripwinkley +was charmed with these also. They were like the windows at Mile +Hill. + +Mrs. Ledwith, although greatly relieved by her sister's prompt +decision for the house which she did _not_ want, felt it in her +conscience to remonstrate a little. + +"You have just come down from the mountains, Frank, after your +twenty-five years' sleep; you've seen nothing by and by you will +think differently. This house is fearfully old-fashioned, +_fearfully_; and it's away down here on the wrong side of the hill. +You can never get up over Summit Street from here." + +"We are used to hills, and walking." + +"But I mean--that isn't all. There are other things you won't be +able to get over. You'll never shake off Aspen Street dust,--you nor +the children." + +"I don't think it is dusty. It is quiet, and sheltered, and clean. I +like it ever so much," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. + +"O, dear, you don't understand in the least! It's wicked to let you +go on so! You poor, dear, simple little old soul!" + +"Never mind," said Mrs. Megilp. "It's all well enough for the +present. It pleases the old gentleman, you know; and after all he's +done, he ought to be pleased. One of you should certainly be in his +neighborhood. _He_ has been here from time immemorial; and any place +grows respectable by staying in it long enough--from _choice_. +Nobody will wonder at Mrs. Ripwinkley's coming here at his request. +And when she _does_ move, you see, she will know exactly what she is +about." + +"I almost doubt if she ever _will_ know what she is about," said +Laura. + +"In that case,--well,"--said Mrs. Megilp, and stopped, because it +really was not in the least needful to say more. + +Mrs. Megilp felt it judicious, for many reasons, that Mrs. +Ripwinkley should he hidden away for awhile, to get that mountain +sleep out of her eyes, if it should prove possible; just as we rub +old metal with oil and put it by till the rust comes off. + +The Ledwiths decided upon a house in Shubarton Place that would not +seem quite like taking old Uncle Titus's money and rushing away +with it as far as city limits would allow; and Laura really did wish +to have the comfort of her sister's society, in a cozy way, of +mornings, up in her room; that was her chief idea about it. There +were a good many times and things in which she scarcely expected +much companionship from Frank. She would not have said even to +herself, that Frank was rusty; and she would do her faithful and +good-natured best to rub her up; but there was an instinct with her +of the congruous and the incongruous; and she would not do her +Bath-brick polishing out on the public promenade. + +They began by going together to the carpet stores and the paper +warehouses; but they ended in detailing themselves for separate +work; their ideas clashed ridiculously, and perpetually confused +each other. Frank remembered loyally her old brown sofa and chairs; +she would not have gay colors to put them out of countenance; for +even if she re-covered them, she said they should have the same old +homey complexion. So she chose a fair, soft buff, with a pattern of +brown leaves, for her parlor paper; Mrs. Ledwith, meanwhile, +plunging headlong into glories of crimson and garnet and gold. +Agatha had her blush pink, in panels, with heart-of-rose borders, +set on with delicate gilt beadings; you would have thought she was +going to put herself up, in a fancy-box, like a French _mouchoir_ or +a _bonbon_. + +"Why _don't_ you put your old brown things all together in an +up-stairs room, and call it Mile Hill? You could keep it for old +times' sake, and sit there mornings; the house is big enough; and +then have furniture like other people's in the parlor?" + +"You see it wouldn't be _me_." said Mrs. Ripwinkley, simply. + +"They keep saying it 'looks,' and 'it looks,'" said Diana to her +mother, at home. "Why must everything _look_ somehow?" + +"And every_body_, too," said Hazel. "Why, when we meet any one in +the street that Agatha and Florence know, the minute they have gone +by they say, 'She didn't look well to-day,' or, 'How pretty she did +look in that new hat!' And after the great party they went to at +that Miss Hitchler's, they never told a word about it except how +girls 'looked.' I wonder what they _did_, or where the good time +was. Seems to me people ain't living,--they are only just looking; +or _is_ this the same old Boston that you told about, and where are +the real folks, mother?" + +"We shall find them," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, cheerily; "and the real +of these, too, when the outsides are settled. In the meantime, we'll +make our house say, and not look. Say something true, of course. +Things won't say anything else, you see; if you try to make them, +they don't speak out; they only stand in a dumb show and make +faces." + +"That's looking!" said Hazel. "Now I know." + +"How those children do grow!" said Mrs. Ripwinkley, as they went off +together. "Two months ago they were sitting out on the kitchen roof, +and coming to me to hear the old stories!" + +"Transplantin'," said Luclarion. "That's done it." + +At twelve and fourteen, Hazel and Diana could be simple as +birds,--simpler yet, as human children waiting for all things,--in +their country life and their little dreams of the world. Two months' +contact with people and things in a great city had started the life +that was in them, so that it showed what manner of growth it was to +be of. + +And little Hazel Ripwinkley had got hold already of the small end of +a very large problem. + +But she could not make it out that this was the same old Boston +that her mother had told about, or where the nice neighbors were +that would be likely to have little tea-parties for their children. + + + + +VIII. + +EAVESDROPPING IN ASPEN STREET. + + +Some of the old builders,--not the _very_ old ones, for they built +nothing but rope-walks down behind the hill,--but some of those who +began to go northwest from the State House to live, made a pleasant +group of streets down there on the level stretching away to the +river, and called them by fresh, fragrant, country-suggesting +names. Names of trees and fields and gardens, fruits and blossoms; +and they built houses with gardens around them. In between the +blocks were deep, shady places; and the smell of flowers was tossed +back and forth by summer winds between the walls. Some nice old +people stayed on there, and a few of their descendants stay on there +still, though they are built in closely now, for the most part, and +coarse, common things have much intruded, and Summit Street +overshadows them with its palaces. + +Here and there a wooden house, set back a little, like this of the +Ripwinkleys in Aspen Street, gives you a feeling of Boston in the +far back times, as you go by; and here and there, if you could get +into the life of the neighborhood, you might perhaps find a +household keeping itself almost untouched with change, though there +has been such a rush and surge for years up and over into the newer +and prouder places. + +At any rate, Titus Oldways lived here in Greenley Street; and he +owned the Aspen Street house, and another over in Meadow Place, and +another in Field Court. He meant to stretch his control over them as +long as he could, and keep them for families; therefore he valued +them at such rates as they would bring for dwellings; he would not +sell or lease them for any kind of "improvements;" he would not have +their little door-yards choked up, or their larger garden spaces +destroyed, while he could help it. + +Round in Orchard Street lived Miss Craydocke. She was away again, +now, staying a little while with the Josselyns in New York. Uncle +Titus told Mrs. Ripwinkley that when Miss Craydocke came back it +would be a neighborhood, and they could go round; now it was only +back and forth between them and him and Rachel Froke. There were +other people, too, but they would be longer finding them out. +"You'll know Miss Craydocke as soon as you see her; she is one of +those you always seem to have seen before." + +Now Uncle Titus would not have said this to everybody; not even if +everybody had been his niece, and had come to live beside him. + +Orchard Street is wide and sunny and pleasant; the river air comes +over it and makes it sweet; and Miss Craydocke's is a big, generous +house, of which she only uses a very little part herself, because +she lets the rest to nice people who want pleasant rooms and can't +afford to pay much rent; an old gentleman who has had a hard time in +the world, but has kept himself a gentleman through it all, and his +little cheery old lady-wife who puts her round glasses on and +stitches away at fine women's under-garments and flannel +embroideries, to keep things even, have the two very best rooms; and +a clergyman's widow, who copies for lawyers, and writes little +stories for children, has another; and two orphan sisters who keep +school have another; and Miss Craydocke calls her house the Beehive, +and buzzes up and down in it, and out and in, on little "seeing-to" +errands of care and kindness all day long, as never any queen-bee +did in any beehive before, but in a way that makes her more truly +queen than any sitting in the middle cell of state to be fed on +royal jelly. Behind the Beehive, is a garden, as there should be; +great patches of lily-of-the valley grow there that Miss Craydocke +ties up bunches from in the spring and gives away to little +children, and carries into all the sick rooms she knows of, and the +poor places. I always think of those lilies of the valley when I +think of Miss Craydocke. It seems somehow as if they were blooming +about her all the year through; and so they are, perhaps, invisibly. +The other flowers come in their season; the crocuses have been done +with first of all; the gay tulips and the snowballs have made the +children glad when they stopped at the gate and got them, going to +school. Miss Craydocke is always out in her garden at school-time. +By and by there are the tall white lilies, standing cool and serene +in the July heats; then Miss Craydocke is away at the mountains, +pressing ferns and drying grasses for winter parlors; but there is +somebody on duty at the garden dispensary always, and there are +flower-pensioners who know they may come in and take the gracious +toll. + +Late in the autumn, the nasturtiums and verbenas and marigolds are +bright; and the asters quill themselves into the biggest globes they +can, of white and purple and rose, as if it were to make the last +glory the best, and to do the very utmost of the year. Then the +chrysanthemums go into the house and bloom there for Christmas-time. + +There is nothing else like Miss Craydocke's house and garden, I do +believe, in all the city of the Three Hills. It is none too big for +her, left alone with it, the last of her family; the world is none +too big for her; she is glad to know it is all there. She has a use +for everything as fast as it comes, and a work to do for everybody, +as fast as she finds them out. And everybody,--almost,--catches it +as she goes along, and around her there is always springing up a +busy and a spreading crystallizing of shining and blessed elements. +The world is none too big for her, or for any such, of course, +because,--it has been told why better than I can tell it,--because +"ten times one is always ten." + +It was a gray, gusty morning. It had not set in to rain +continuously; but the wind wrung handfuls of drops suddenly from the +clouds, and flung them against the panes and into the wayfarers' +faces. + +Over in the house opposite the Ripwinkley's, at the second story +windows, sat two busy young persons. Hazel, sitting at her window, +in "mother's room," where each had a corner, could see across; and +had got into the way of innocent watching. Up in Homesworth, she had +used to watch the robins in the elm-trees; here, there was human +life, in little human nests, all about her. + +"It's the same thing, mother," she would say, "isn't it, now? Don't +you remember in that book of the 'New England Housekeeper,' that you +used to have, what the woman said about the human nature of the +beans? It's in beans, and birds, and bird's nests; and folks, and +folks' nests. It don't make much difference. It's just snugness, and +getting along. And it's so nice to see!" + +Hazel put her elbows up on the window-sill, and looked straight over +into that opposite room, undisguisedly. + +The young man, in one window, said to his sister in the other, at +the same moment,-- + +"Our company's come! There's that bright little girl again!" + +And the sister said, "Well, it's pretty much all the company we can +take in! She brings her own seat and her own window; and she doesn't +interrupt. It's just the kind for us, Kentie!" + +"She's writing,--copying something,--music, it looks like; see it +there, set up against the shutter. She always goes out with a music +roll in her hand. I wonder whether she gives or takes?" said Diana, +stopping on her way to her own seat to look out over Hazel's +shoulder. + +"Both, I guess," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "Most people do. Why don't +you put your flowers in the window, Hazel?" + +"Why, so I will!" + +They were a great bunch of snowy white and deep crimson asters, with +green ivy leaves, in a tall gray glass vase. Rachel Froke had just +brought them in from Miss Craydocke's garden. + +"They're looking, mother! Only I do think it's half too bad! That +girl seems as if she would almost reach across after them. Perhaps +they came from the country, and haven't had any flowers." + +"Thee might take them over some," said Mrs. Froke, simply. + +"O, I shouldn't dare! There are other people in the house, and I +don't know their names, or anything. I wish I could, though." + +"I can," said Rachel Froke. "Thee'll grow tall enough to step over +pebbles one of these days. Never mind; I'll fetch thee more +to-morrow; and thee'll let the vase go for a while? Likely they've +nothing better than a tumbler." + +Rachel Froke went down the stairs, and out along the paved walk, +into the street. She stopped an instant on the curb-stone before she +crossed, and looked up at those second story windows. Hazel watched +her. She held up the vase slightly with one hand, nodding her little +gray bonnet kindly, and beckoned with the other. + +The young girl started from her seat. + +In another minute Hazel saw them together in the doorway. + +There was a blush and a smile, and an eager brightness in the face, +and a quick speaking thanks, that one could read without hearing, +from the parted lips, on the one side, and the quiet, unflutterable +gray bonnet calmly horizontal on the other; and then the door was +shut, and Rachel Froke was crossing the damp pavement again. + +"I'm so glad Aspen Street is narrow!" said Hazel. "I should hate to +be way off out of sight of people. What did you say to her, Mrs. +Froke?" she asked, as the Friend reentered. Hazel could by no means +take the awful liberty of "Rachel." + +"I said the young girl, Hazel Ripwinkley, being from the country, +knew how good flowers were to strangers in the town, and that she +thought they might be strange, and might like some." + +Hazel flushed all up. At that same instant, a gentle nod and smile +came across from window to window, and she flushed more, till the +tears sprung with the shy, glad excitement, as she returned it and +then shrunk away. + +"And she said, 'Thank her, with Dorris Kincaid's love,'" proceeded +Rachel Froke. + +"O, _mother_!" exclaimed Hazel. "And you did it all, right off so, +Mrs. Froke. I don't see how grown up people dare, and know how!" + +Up the stairs ran quick feet in little clattering heeled boots. +Desire Ledwith, with a purple waterproof on, came in. + +"I couldn't stay at home to-day," she said, "I wanted to be where +it was all-togetherish. It never is at our house. Now it's set up, +they don't do anything with it." + +"That's because it '_looks_'--so elegant," said Hazel, catching +herself up in dismay. + +"It's because it's the crust, I think," said Desire. "Puff paste, +like an oyster patty; and they haven't got anything cooked yet for +the middle. I wonder when they will. I had a call yesterday, all to +myself," she went on, with a sudden change of tone and topic. +"Agatha was hopping and I wouldn't tell her what I said, or how I +behaved. That new parlor girl of ours thinks we're all or any of us +'Miss Ledwith,' mamma included, and so she let him in. He had on +lavender pantaloons and a waxed moustache." + +"The rain is just pouring down!" said Diana, at the garden window. + +"Yes; I'm caught. That's what I meant," said Desire. "You've got to +keep me all day, now. How will you get home, Mrs. Froke? Or won't +you have to stay, too?" + +"Thee may call me Rachel, Desire Ledwith, if thee pleases. I like it +better. I am no mistress. And for getting home, it is but just round +the corner. But there is no need yet. I came for an hour, to sit +here with friend Frances. And my hour is not yet up." + +"I'm glad of that, for there is something I want you to tell me. I +haven't quite got at it myself, yet; so as to ask, I mean. Wait a +minute!" And she put her elbows up on her knees, and held her thumbs +against her ears, and her fingers across her forehead; sitting +squarely opposite the window to which she had drawn up her chair +beside Diane, and looking intently at the driving streams that +rushed and ran down against the glass. + +"I was sitting in the bay-window at home, when it began this +morning; that made me think. All the world dripping wet, and I just +put there dry and safe in the middle of the storm, shut up behind +those great clear panes and tight sashes. How they did have to +contrive, and work, before there were such places made for people! +What if they had got into their first scratchy little houses, and +sat behind the logs as we do behind glass windows and thought, as I +was thinking, how nice it was just to be covered up from the rain? +Is it all finished now? Hasn't anybody got to contrive anything +more? And who's going to do it--and everything. And what are we good +for,--just _we_,--to come and expect it all, modern-improved! I +don't think much of our place among things, do you, Mrs. +Froke?--There, I believe that's it, as near as I can!'" + +"Why does thee ask me, Desire?" + +"I don't know. I don't know any whys or what fors. 'Behold we know +not anything,'--Tennyson and I! But you seem so--pacified--I suppose +I thought you must have settled most things in your mind." + +"Every builder--every little joiner--did his piece,--thought his +thought out, I think likely. There's no little groove or moulding or +fitting or finish, but is a bit of somebody's living; and life +grows, going on. We've all got our piece to do," said Rachel. + +"I asked Mrs. Mig," Desire pursued, "and she said some people's part +was to buy and employ and encourage; and that spending money helps +all the world; and then she put another cushion to her back, and +went on tatting." + +"Perhaps it does--in spite of the world," said Rachel Froke, +quietly. + +"But I guess nobody is to sit by and _only_ encourage; God has +given out no such portion as that, I do believe. We can encourage +each other, and every one do his own piece too." + +"I didn't really suppose Mrs. Mig knew," said Desire, demurely. "She +never began at the bottom of anything. She only finishes off. She +buys pattern worsted work, and fills it in. That's what she's doing +now, when she don't tat; a great bunch of white lilies, grounding it +with olive. It's lovely; but I'd rather have made the lilies. She'll +give it to mother, and then Glossy will come and spend the winter +with us. Mrs. Mig is going to Nassau with a sick friend; she's +awfully useful--for little overseeings and general touchings up, +after all the hard part is done. Mrs. Mig's sick friends always have +nurses and waiting maids--Mrs. F---- Rachel! Do you know, I haven't +got any piece!" + +"No, I don't know; nor does thee either, yet," said Rachel Froke. + + * * * * * + +"It's all such bosh!" said Kenneth Kincaid, flinging down a handful +of papers. "I've no right, I solemnly think, to help such stuff out +into the world! A man can't take hold anywhere, it seems, without +smutting his fingers!" + +Kenneth Kincaid was correcting proof for a publisher. What he had to +work on this morning was the first chapters of a flimsy novel. + +"It isn't even confectionery," said he. "It's terra alba and +cochineal. And when it comes to the sensation, it will be benzine +for whiskey. Real things are bad enough, for the most part, in this +world; but when it comes to sham fictions and adulterated poisons, +Dorris, I'd rather help bake bread, if it were an honest loaf, or +make strong shoes for laboring men!" + +"You don't always get things like that," said Dorris. "And you know +you're not responsible. Why will you torment yourself so?" + +"I was so determined not to do anything but genuine work; work that +the world wanted; and to have it come down to this!" + +"Only for a time, while you are waiting." + +"Yes; people must eat while they are waiting; that's the--devil of +it! I'm not swearing, Dorris, dear; it came truly into my head, that +minute, about the Temptation in the Wilderness." Kenneth's voice was +reverent, saying this; and there was an earnest thought in his face. + +"You'll never like anything heartily but your Sunday work." + +"That's what keeps me here. My week-day work might be wanted +somewhere else. And perhaps I ought to go. There's Sunday work +everywhere." + +"If you've found one half, hold on to it;" said Dorris. "The other +can't be far off." + +"I suppose there are a score or two of young architects in this +city, waiting for a name or a chance to make one, as I am. If it +isn't here for all of them, somebody has got to quit." + +"And somebody has got to hold on," repeated Dorris. "You are morbid, +Kent, about this 'work of the world.'" + +"It's overdone, everywhere. Fifth wheels trying to hitch on to every +coach. I'd rather be the one wheel of a barrow." + +"The Lord is Wheelwright, and Builder," said Dorris, very simply. +"You _are_ a wheel, and He has made you; He'll find an axle for you +and put you on; and you shall go about his business, so that you +shall wonder to remember that you were ever leaning up against a +wall. Do you know, Kentie, life seems to me like the game we used +to play at home in the twilight. When we shut our eyes and let each +other lead us, until we did not know where we were going, or in what +place we should come out. I should not care to walk up a broad path +with my eyes wide open, now. I'd rather feel the leading. To-morrow +always makes a turn. It's beautiful! People don't know, who _never_ +shut their eyes!" + +Kenneth had taken up a newspaper. + +"The pretenses at doing! The dodges and go-betweens that make a sham +work between every two real ones! There's hardly a true business +carried on, and if there is, you don't know where or which. Look at +the advertisements. Why, they cheat with their very tops and faces! +See this man who puts in big capitals: 'Lost! $5,000! $1,000 +reward!' and then tells you, in small type, that five thousand +dollars are lost every year by breaking glass and china, that his +cement will mend! What business has he to cry 'Wolf!' to the +hindrance of the next man who may have a real wolf to catch? And +what business has the printer, whom the next man will pay to +advertise his loss, to help on a lie like this beforehand? I'm only +twenty-six years old, Dorris, and I'm getting ashamed of the world!" + +"Don't grow hard, Kenneth. 'The Son of Man came not to condemn the +world, but to save it.' Let's each try to save our little piece!" + +We are listening across the street, you see; between the windows in +the rain; it is strange what chords one catches that do not catch +each other, and were never planned to be played together,--by the +_players_. + +Kenneth Kincaid's father Robert had been a ship-builder. When +shipping went down in the whirlpool of 1857, Robert Kincaid's +building had gone; and afterward he had died leaving his children +little beside their education, which he thanked God was secured, and +a good repute that belonged to their name, but was easily forgotten +in the crowd of young and forward ones, and in the strife and +scramble of a new business growth. + +Between college and technical studies Kenneth had been to the war. +After that he had a chance to make a fortune in Wall Street. His +father's brother, James, offered to take him in with him to buy and +sell stocks and gold, to watch the market, to touch little unseen +springs, to put the difference into his own pocket every time the +tide of value shifted, or could be made to seem to shift. He might +have been one of James R. Kincaid and Company. He would have none of +it. He told his uncle plainly that he wanted real work; that he had +not come back from fighting to--well, there he stopped, for he could +not fling the truth in his uncle's face; he said there were things +he meant to finish learning, and would try to do; and if nobody +wanted them of him he would learn something else that was needed. So +with what was left to his share from his father's little remnant of +property, he had two years at the Technological School, and here he +was in Boston waiting. You can see what he meant by real work, and +how deep his theories and distinctions lay. You can see that it +might be a hard thing for one young man, here or there, to take up +the world on these terms now, in this year of our Lord eighteen +hundred and sixty-nine. + +Over the way Desire Ledwith was beginning again, after a pause in +which we have made our little chassée. + +"I know a girl," she said, "who has got a studio. And she talks +about art, and she knows styles, and who has done what, and she runs +about to see pictures, and she copies things, and she has little +plaster legs and toes and things hanging round everywhere. She +thinks it is something great; but it's only Mig, after all. +Everything is. Florence Migs into music. And I won't Mig, if I never +do anything. I'm come here this morning to darn stockings." And she +pulled out of her big waterproof pocket a bundle of stockings and a +great white ball of darning cotton and a wooden egg. + +"There is always one thing that is real," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, +gently, "and that shows the way surely to all the rest." + +"I know what you mean," said Desire, "of course; but they've mixed +that all up too, like everything else, so that you don't know where +it is. Glossy Megilp has a velvet prayer-book, and she blacks her +eyelashes and goes to church. We've all been baptized, and we've +learned the Lord's Prayer, and we're all Christians. What is there +more about it? I wish, sometimes, they had let it all alone. I think +they vaccinated us with religion, Aunt Frank, for fear we should +take it the natural way." + +"Thee is restless," said Rachel Froke, tying on her gray cloak. "And +to make us so is oftentimes the first thing the Lord does for us. It +was the first thing He did for the world. Then He said, 'Let there +be light!' In the meantime, thee is right; just darn thy stockings." +And Rachel went. + +They had a nice morning, after that, "leaving frets alone," as Diana +said. Diana Ripwinkley was happy in things just as they were. If the +sun shone, she rejoiced in the glory; if the rain fell, it shut her +in sweetly to the heart of home, and the outside world grew fragrant +for her breathing. There was never anything in her day that she +could spare out of it, and there were no holes in the hours either. +"Whether she was most bird or bee, it was hard to tell," her mother +said of her; from the time she used to sweep and dust her garret +baby-house along the big beams in the old house at Homesworth, and +make little cheeses, and set them to press in wooden pill-boxes from +which she had punched the bottoms out, till now, that she began to +take upon herself the daily freshening of the new parlors in Aspen +Street, and had long lessons of geometry to learn, whose dry +demonstrations she set to odd little improvised recitatives of +music, and chanted over while she ran up and down putting away clean +linen for her mother, that Luclarion brought up from the wash. + +As for Hazel, she was only another variation upon the same sweet +nature. There was more of outgo and enterprise with her. Diana made +the thing or the place pleasant that she was in or doing. Hazel +sought out new and blessed inventions. "There was always something +coming to the child that wouldn't ever have come to no one else," +Luclarion said. "And besides that, she was a real 'Witch Hazel;' she +could tell where the springs were, and what's more, where they +warn't." + +Luclarion Grapp would never have pleaded guilty to "dropping into +poetry" in any light whatsoever; but what she meant by this was not +exactly according to the letter, as one may easily see. + + + + +IX. + +HAZEL'S INSPIRATION. + + +What was the use of "looking," unless things were looked at? Mrs. +Ledwith found at the end of the winter that she ought to give a +party. Not a general one; Mrs. Ledwith always said "not a general +one," as if it were an exception, whereas she knew better than ever +to undertake a general party; her list would be _too_ general, and +heterogeneous. It would simply be a physical, as well as a social, +impossibility. She knew quantities of people separately and very +cordially, in her easy have-a-good-time-when-you-can style, that she +could by no means mix, or even gather together. She picked up +acquaintances on summer journeys, she accepted civilities wherever +she might be, she asked everybody to her house who took a fancy to +her, or would admire her establishment, and if she had had a spring +cleaning or a new carpeting, or a furbishing up in any way, the next +thing was always to light up and play it off,--to try it on to +somebody. What were houses for? And there was always somebody who +ought to be paid attention to; somebody staying with a friend, or a +couple just engaged, or if nothing else, it was her turn to have the +sewing-society; and so her rooms got aired. Of course she had to air +them now! The drawing-room, with its apricot and coffee-brown +furnishings, was lovely in the evening, and the crimson and garnet +in the dining-room was rich and cozy, and set off brilliantly her +show of silver and cut-glass; and then, there was the new, real, +sea-green China. + +So the party was had. There were some people in town from New York; +she invited them and about a hundred more. The house lit up +beautifully; the only pity was that Mrs. Ledwith could not wear her +favorite and most becoming colors, buff and chestnut, because she +had taken that family of tints for her furniture; but she found a +lovely shade of violet that would hold by gas-light, and she wore +black Fayal lace with it, and white roses upon her hair. Mrs. +Treweek was enchanted with the brown and apricot drawing-room, and +wondered where on earth they had got that particular shade, for "my +dear! she had ransacked Paris for hangings in just that perfect, +soft, ripe color that she had in her mind and never could hit upon." +Mrs. MacMichael had pushed the grapes back upon her plate to examine +the pattern of the bit of china, and had said how lovely the +coloring was, with the purple and pale green of the fruit. And these +things, and a few more like them, were the residuum of the whole, +and Laura Ledwith was satisfied. + +Afterward, "while they were in the way of it," Florence had a little +_musicale_; and the first season in Shubarton Place was over. + +It turned out, however, as it did in the old rhyme,--they shod the +horse, and shod the mare, and let the little colt go bare. Helena +was disgusted because she could not have a "German." + +"We shall have to be careful, now that we have fairly settled down," +said Laura to her sister; "for every bit of Grant's salary will have +been taken up with this winter's expenses. But one wants to begin +right, and after that one can go on moderately. I'm good at +contriving, Frank; only give me something to contrive with." + +"Isn't it a responsibility," Frank ventured, "to think what we shall +contrive _for_?" + +"Of course," returned Mrs. Ledwith, glibly. "And my first duty is +to my children. I don't mean to encourage them to reckless +extravagance; as Mrs. Megilp says, there's always a limit; but it's +one's duty to make life beautiful, and one can't do too much for +home. I want my children to be satisfied with theirs, and I want to +cultivate their tastes and accustom them to society. I can't do +_everything_ for them; they will dress on three hundred a year +apiece, Agatha and Florence; and I can assure you it needs +management to accomplish that, in these days!" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley laughed, gently. + +"It would require management with us to get rid of that, upon +ourselves." + +"O, my dear, don't I tell you continually, you haven't waked up yet? +Just rub your eyes a while longer,--or let the girls do it for +you,--and you'll see! Why, I know of girls,--girls whose mothers +have limited incomes, too,--who have been kept plain, actually +_plain_, all their school days, but who must have now six and eight +hundred a year to go into society with. And really I wouldn't +undertake it for less, myself, if I expected to keep up with +everything. But I must treat mine all alike, and we must be +contented with what we have. There's Helena, now, crazy for a young +party; but I couldn't think of it. Young parties are ten times worse +than old ones; there's really no _end_ to the expense, with the +German, and everything. Helena will have to wait; and yet,--of +course, if I could, it is desirable, almost necessary; acquaintances +begin in the school-room,--society, indeed; and a great deal would +depend upon it. The truth is, you're no sooner born, now-a-days, +than you have to begin to keep up; or else--you're dropped out." + +"O, Laura! do you remember the dear little parties our mother used +to make for us? From four till half-past eight, with games, and tea +at six, and the fathers looking in?" + +"And cockles, and mottoes, and printed cambric dresses, and milk and +water! Where are the children, do you suppose, you dear old Frau Van +Winkle, that would come to such a party now?" + +"Children must be born simple, as they were then. There's nothing my +girls would like better, even at their age, than to help at just +such a party. It is a dream of theirs. Why shouldn't somebody do it, +just to show how good it is?" + +"You can lead a horse to water, you know, Frank, but you can't make +him drink. And the colts are forty times worse. I believe you might +get some of the mothers together for an ancient tea-drink, just in +the name of old association; but the _babies_ would all turn up +their new-fashioned little noses." + +"O, dear!" sighed Frau Van Winkle. "I wish I knew people!" + +"By the time you do, you'll know the reason why, and be like all the +rest." + +Hazel Ripwinkley went to Mrs. Hilman's school, with her cousin +Helena. That was because the school was a thoroughly good one; the +best her mother could learn of; not because it was kept in parlors +in Dorset Street, and there were girls there who came from palaces +west of the Common, in the grand avenues and the ABC streets; nor +did Hazel wear her best gray and black velvet suit for every day, +though the rich colored poplins with their over-skirts and sashes, +and the gay ribbons for hair and neck made the long green baize +covered tables look like gardenplots with beds of bloom, and quite +extinguished with their brilliancy the quiet, one skirted brown +merino that she brushed and folded every night, and put on with +fresh linen cuffs and collar every morning. + +"It is an idiosyncrasy of Aunt Frances," Helena explained, with the +grandest phrase she could pick out of her "Synonymes," to cow down +those who "wondered." + +Privately, Helena held long lamentations with Hazel, going to and +fro, about the party that she could not have. + +"I'm actually ashamed to go to school. There isn't a girl there, who +can pretend to have anything, that hasn't had some kind of a company +this winter. I've been to them all, and I feel real mean,--sneaky. +What's 'next year?' Mamma puts me off with that. Poh? Next year +they'll all begin again. You can't skip birthdays." + +"I'll tell you what!" said Hazel, suddenly, inspired by much the +same idea that had occurred to Mrs. Ripwinkley; "I mean to ask my +mother to let _me_ have a party!" + +"You! Down in Aspen Street! Don't, for pity's sake, Hazel!" + +"I don't believe but what it could be done over again!" said Hazel, +irrelevantly, intent upon her own thought. + +"It couldn't be done _once_! For gracious grandmother's sake, don't +think of it!" cried the little world-woman of thirteen. + +"It's gracious grandmother's sake that made me think of it," said +Hazel, laughing. "The way she used to do." + +"Why don't you ask them to help you hunt up old Noah, and all get +back into the ark, pigeons and all?" + +"Well, I guess they had pretty nice times there, any how; and if +another big rain comes, perhaps they'll have to!" + +Hazel did not intend her full meaning; but there is many a faint, +small prophecy hid under a clover-leaf. + +Hazel did not let go things; her little witch-wand, once pointed, +held its divining angle with the might of magic until somebody broke +ground. + +"It's awful!" Helena declared to her mother and sisters, with tears +of consternation. "And she wants me to go round with her and carry +'compliments!' It'll never be got over,--never! I wish I could go +away to boarding-school!" + +For Mrs. Ripwinkley had made up her unsophisticated mind to try this +thing; to put this grain of a pure, potent salt, right into the +seethe and glitter of little Boston, and find out what it would +decompose or precipitate. For was not she a mother, testing the +world's chalice for her children? What did she care for the hiss and +the bubble, if they came? + +She was wider awake than Mrs. Ledwith knew; perhaps they who come +down from the mountain heights of long seclusion can measure the +world's paces and changes better than they who have been hurried in +the midst of them, on and on, or round and round. + +Worst of all, old Uncle Titus took it up. + +It was funny,--or it would have been funny, reader, if anybody but +you and I and Rachel Froke knew exactly how,--to watch Uncle Titus +as he kept his quiet eye on all these things,--the things that he +had set going,--and read their revelations; sheltered, disguised, +under a character that the world had chosen to put upon him, like +Haroun Alraschid in the merchant's cloak. + +They took their tea with him,--the two families,--every Sunday +night. Agatha Ledwith "filled him in" a pair of slippers that very +first Christmas; he sat there in the corner with his old leather +ones on, when they came, and left them, for the most part, to their +own mutual entertainment, until the tea was ready. It was a sort of +family exchange; all the plans and topics came up, particularly on +the Ledwith side, for Mrs. Ripwinkley was a good listener, and Laura +a good talker; and the fun,--that you and I and Rachel Froke could +guess,--yes, and a good deal of unsuspected earnest, also,--was all +there behind the old gentleman's "Christian Age," as over brief +mentions of sermons, or words about books, or little brevities of +family inquiries and household news, broke small floods of +excitement like water over pebbles, as Laura and her daughters +discussed and argued volubly the matching and the flouncing of a +silk, or the new flowering and higher pitching of a bonnet,--since +"they are wearing everything all on the top, you know, and mine +looks terribly meek;" or else descanted diffusely on the +unaccountableness of the somebodies not having called, or the bother +and forwardness of the some-other-bodies who had, and the +eighty-three visits that were left on the list to be paid, and +"never being able to take a day to sit down for anything." + +"What is it all for?" Mrs. Ripwinkley would ask, over again, the +same old burden of the world's weariness falling upon her from her +sister's life, and making her feel as if it were her business to +clear it away somehow. + +"Why, to live!" Mrs. Ledwith would reply. "You've got it all to do, +you see." + +"But I don't really see, Laura, where the living comes in." + +Laura opens her eyes. + +"_Slang_?" says she. "Where did you get hold of that?" + +"Is it slang? I'm sure I don't know. I mean it." + +"Well, you _are_ the funniest! You don't _catch_ anything. Even a +by-word must come first-hand from you, and mean something!" + +"It seems to me such a hard-working, getting-ready-to-be, and then +not being. There's no place left for it,--because it's all place." + +"Gracious me, Frank! If you are going to sift everything so, and get +back of everything! I can't live in metaphysics: I have to live in +the things themselves, amongst other people." + +"But isn't it scene and costume, a good deal of it, without the +play? It may be that I don't understand, because I have not got into +the heart of your city life; but what comes of the parties, for +instance? The grand question, beforehand, is about wearing, and then +there's a retrospection of what was worn, and how people looked. It +seems to be all surface. I should think they might almost send in +their best gowns, or perhaps a photograph,--if photographs ever were +becoming,--as they do visiting cards." + +"Aunt Frank," said Desire, "I don't believe the 'heart of city life' +is in the parties, or the parlors. I believe there's a great lot of +us knocking round amongst the dry goods and the furniture that never +get any further. People must be _living_, somewhere, _behind_ the +fixings. But there are so many people, nowadays, that have never +quite got fixed!" + +"You might live all your days here," said Mrs. Ledwith to her +sister, passing over Desire, "and never get into the heart of it, +for that matter, unless you were born into it. I don't care so much, +for my part. I know plenty of nice people, and I like to have things +nice about me, and to have a pleasant time, and to let my children +enjoy themselves. The 'heart,' if the truth was known, is a +dreadful still place. I'm satisfied." + +Uncle Titus's paper was folded across the middle; just then he +reversed the lower half; that brought the printing upside down; but +he went on reading all the same. + +"_I_'m going to have a real party," said Hazel, "a real, +gracious-grandmother party; just such as you and mother had, Aunt +Laura, when you were little." + +Her Aunt Laura laughed good-naturedly. + +"I guess you'll have to go round and knock up the grandmothers to +come to it, then," said she. "You'd better make it a fancy dress +affair at once, and then it will be accounted for." + +"No; I'm going round to invite; and they are to come at four, and +take tea at six; and they're just to wear their afternoon dresses; +and Miss Craydocke is coming at any rate; and she knows all the old +plays, and lots of new ones; and she is going to show how." + +"I'm coming, too," said Uncle Titus, over his newspaper, with his +eyes over his glasses. + +"That's good," said Hazel, simply, least surprised of any of the +conclave. + +"And you'll have to play the muffin man. 'O, don't you know,'"--she +began to sing, and danced two little steps toward Mr. Oldways. "O, I +forgot it was Sunday!" she said, suddenly stopping. + +"Not much wonder," said Uncle Titus. "And not much matter. _Your_ +Sunday's good enough." + +And then he turned his paper right side up; but, before he began +really to read again, he swung half round toward them in his +swivel-chair, and said,-- + +"Leave the sugar-plums to me, Hazel; I'll come early and bring 'em +in my pocket." + +"It's the first thing he's taken the slightest notice of, or +interest in, that any one of us has been doing," said Agatha +Ledwith, with a spice of momentary indignation, as they walked along +Bridgeley Street to take the car. + +For Uncle Titus had not come to the Ledwith party. "He never went +visiting, and he hadn't any best coat," he told Laura, in verbal +reply to the invitation that had come written on a square satin +sheet, once folded, in an envelope with a big monogram. + +"It's of no consequence," said Mrs. Ledwith, "any way. Only a +child's play." + +"But it will be, mother; you don't know," said Helena. "She's going +right in everywhere, with that ridiculous little invitation; to the +Ashburnes and the Geoffreys, and all! She hasn't the least idea of +any difference; and just think what the girls will say, and how they +will stare, and laugh! I wish she wasn't my cousin!" + +"Helena!" + +Mrs. Ledwith spoke with real displeasure; for she was good-natured +and affectionate in her way; and her worldly ambitions were rather +wide than high, as we have seen. + +"Well, I can't help it; you don't know, mother," Helena repeated. +"It's horrid to go to school with all those stiffies, that don't +care a snap for you, and only laugh." + +"Laughing is vulgar," said Agatha. If any indirect question were +ever thrown upon the family position, Agatha immediately began +expounding the ethics of high breeding, as one who had attained. + +"It is only half-way people who laugh," she said. "Ada Geoffrey and +Lilian Ashburne never laugh--_at_ anybody--I am sure." + +"No, they don't; not right out. They're awfully polite. But you can +feel it, underneath. They have a way of keeping so still, when you +know they would laugh if they did anything." + +"Well, they'll neither laugh nor keep still, about this. You need +not be concerned. They'll just not go, and that will be the end of +it." + +Agatha Ledwith was mistaken. She had been mistaken about two things +to-night. The other was when she had said that this was the first +time Uncle Oldways had noticed or been interested in anything they +did. + + + + +X. + +COCKLES AND CRAMBO. + + +Hazel Ripwinkley put on her nankeen sack and skirt, and her little +round, brown straw hat. For May had come, and almost gone, and it +was a day of early summer warmth. + +Hazel's dress was not a "suit;" it had been made and worn two +summers before suits were thought of; yet it suited very well, as +people's things are apt to do, after all, who do not trouble +themselves about minutiæ of fashion, and so get no particular +antediluvian marks upon them that show when the flood subsides. + +Her mother knew some things that Hazel did not. Mrs. Ripwinkley, if +she had been asleep for five and twenty years, had lost none of her +perceptive faculties in the trance. But she did not hamper her child +with any doubts; she let her go on her simple way, under the shield +of her simplicity, to test this world that she had come into, for +herself. + +Hazel had written down her little list of the girls' names that she +would like to ask; and Mrs. Ripwinkley looked at it with a smile. +There was Ada Geoffrey, the banker's daughter, and Lilian Ashburne, +the professor's,--heiresses each, of double lines of birth and +wealth. She could remember how, in her childhood, the old names +sounded, with the respect that was in men's tones when they were +spoken; and underneath were Lois James and Katie Kilburnie, children +of a printer and a hatter. They had all been chosen for their purely +personal qualities. A child, let alone, chooses as an angel chooses. + +It remained to be seen how they would come together. + +At the very head, in large, fair letters, was,-- + + "MISS CRAYDOCKE." + +Down at the bottom, she had just added,-- + + "MR. KINCAID AND DORRIS." + +"For, if I have _some_ grown folks, mother, perhaps I ought to have +_other_ grown folks,--'to keep the balance true.' Besides, Mr. +Kincaid and Dorris always like the _little_ nice times." + +From the day when Dorris Kincaid had come over with the gray glass +vase and her repeated thanks, when the flowers had done their +ministry and faded, there had been little simple courtesies, each +way, between the opposite houses; and once Kenneth and his sister +had taken tea with the Ripwinkleys, and they had played "crambo" +and "consequences" in the evening. The real little game of +"consequences," of which this present friendliness was a link, was +going on all the time, though they did not stop to read the lines as +they folded them down, and "what the world said" was not one of the +items in their scheme of it at all. + +It would have been something worth while to have followed Hazel as +she went her rounds, asking quietly at each house to see Mrs. This +or That, "as she had a message;" and being shown, like a little +representative of an almost extinct period, up into the parlor, or +the dressing-room of each lady, and giving her quaint errand. + +"I am Hazel Ripwinkley," she would say, "and my mother sends her +compliments, and would like to have Lilian,"--or whoever +else,--"come at four o'clock to-day, and spend the afternoon and +take tea. I'm to have a little party such as she used to have, and +nobody is to be much dressed up, and we are only to play games." + +"Why, that is charming!" cried Mrs. Ashburne; for the feeling of +her own sweet early days, and the old B---- Square house, came over +her as she heard the words. "It is Lilian's music afternoon; but +never mind; give my kind compliments to your mother, and she will be +very happy to come." + +And Mrs. Ashburne stooped down and kissed Hazel, when she went away. + +She stood in the deep carved stone entrance-way to Mrs. Geoffrey's +house, in the same fearless, Red Riding Hood fashion, just as she +would have waited in any little country porch up in Homesworth, +where she had need indeed to knock. + +Not a whit dismayed was she either, when the tall manservant opened +to her, and admitted her into the square, high, marble-paved hall, +out of which great doors were set wide into rooms rich and quiet +with noble adorning and soft shading,--where pictures made such a +magic upon the walls, and books were piled from floor to ceiling; +and where her little figure was lost as she went in, and she +hesitated to take a seat anywhere, lest she should be quite hidden +in some great arm-chair or sofa corner, and Mrs. Geoffrey should not +see her when she came down. + +So, as the lady entered, there she was, upright and waiting, on her +two feet, in her nankeen dress, just within the library doors, with +her face turned toward the staircase. + +"I am Hazel Ripwinkley," she began; as if she had said, I am +Pease-blossom or Mustard-seed; "I go to school with Ada." And went +on, then, with her compliments and her party. And at the end she +said, very simply,-- + +"Miss Craydocke is coming, and she knows the games." + +"Miss Craydocke, of Orchard Street? And where do you live?" + +"In Aspen Street, close by, in Uncle Oldways' house. We haven't +lived there very long,--only this winter; before that we always +lived in Homesworth." + +"And Homesworth is in the country? Don't you miss that?" + +"Yes; but Aspen Street isn't very bad; we've got a garden. Besides, +we like streets and neighbors." + +Then she added,--for her little witch-stick felt spiritually the +quality of what she spoke to,--"Wouldn't Mr. Geoffrey come for Ada +in the evening?" + +"I haven't the least doubt he would!" said Mrs. Geoffrey, her face +all alive with exquisite and kindly amusement, and catching the +spirit of the thing from the inimitable simplicity before her, such +as never, she did believe, had walked into anybody's house before, +in this place and generation, and was no more to be snubbed than a +flower or a breeze or an angel. + +It was a piece of Witch Hazel's witchery, or inspiration, that she +named Miss Craydocke; for Miss Craydocke was an old, dear friend of +Mrs. Geoffrey's, in that "heart of things" behind the fashions, +where the kingdom is growing up. But of course Hazel could not have +known that; something in the lady's face just made her think of the +same thing in Miss Craydocke's, and so she spoke, forgetting to +explain, nor wondering in the very least, when she was met with +knowledge. + +It was all divining, though, from the beginning to the end. That was +what took her into these homes, rather than to a score of other +places up and down the self-same streets, where, if she had got in +at all, she would have met strange, lofty stares, and freezing +"thank you's," and "engagements." + +"I've found the real folks, mother, and they're all coming!" she +cried, joyfully, running in where Mrs. Ripwinkley was setting little +vases and baskets about on shelf and table, between the white, +plain, muslin draperies of the long parlor windows. In vases and +baskets were sweet May flowers; bunches of deep-hued, rich-scented +violets, stars of blue and white periwinkle, and Miss Craydocke's +lilies of the valley in their tall, cool leaves; each kind gathered +by itself in clusters and handfuls. Inside the wide, open fireplace, +behind the high brass fender and the shining andirons, was a +"chimney flower pot," country fashion, of green lilac boughs,--not +blossoms,--and woodbine sprays, and crimson and white tulips. The +room was fair and fragrant, and the windows were wide open upon +vines and grass. + +"It looks like you, mother, just as Mrs. Geoffrey's house looks like +her. Houses ought to look like people, I think." + +"There's your surprise, children. We shouldn't be doing it right +without a surprise, you know." + +And the surprise was not dolls' pelerines, but books. "Little Women" +was one, which sent Diana and Hazel off for a delicious two hours' +read up in their own room until dinner. + +After dinner, Miss Craydocke came, in her purple and white striped +mohair and her white lace neckerchief; and at three o'clock Uncle +Titus walked in, with his coat pockets so bulgy and rustling and +odorous of peppermint and sassafras, that it was no use to pretend +to wait and be unconscious, but a pure mercy to unload him so that +he might be able to sit down. + +Nobody knows to this day where he got them; he must have ordered +them somewhere, one would think, long enough before to have special +moulds and implements made; but there were large, beautiful +cockles,--not of the old flour-paste sort, but of clear, sparkling +sugar, rose-color, and amber, and white, with little slips of tinted +paper tucked within, and these printed delicately with pretty rhymes +and couplets, from real poets; things to be truly treasured, yet +simple, for children's apprehension, and fancy, and fun. And there +were "Salem gibraltars," such as we only get out of Essex County now +and then, for a big charitable Fair, when Salem and everywhere else +gets its spirit up to send its best and most especial; and there +were toys and devices in sugar--flowers and animals, hats, bonnets, +and boots, apples, and cucumbers,--such as Diana and Hazel, and even +Desire and Helena had never seen before. + +"It isn't quite fair," said good Miss Craydocke. "We were to go back +to the old, simple fashions of things; and here you are beginning +over again already with sumptuous inventions. It's the very way it +came about before, till it was all spoilt." + +"No," said Uncle Titus, stoutly. "It's only 'Old _and_ New,'--the +very selfsame good old notions brought to a little modern +perfection. They're not French flummery, either; and there's not a +drop of gin, or a flavor of prussic acid, or any other abominable +chemical, in one of those contrivances. They're as innocent as they +look; good honest mint and spice and checkerberry and lemon and +rose. I know the man that made 'em!" + +Helena Ledwith began to think that the first person, singular or +plural, might have a good time; but that awful third! Helena's +"they" was as potent and tremendous as her mother's. + +"It's nice," she said to Hazel; "but they don't have inch things. I +never saw them at a party. And they don't play games; they always +dance. And it's broad, hot daylight; and--you haven't asked a single +boy!" + +"Why, I don't know any! Only Jimmy Scarup; and I guess he'd rather +play ball, and break windows!" + +"Jimmy Scarup!" And Helena turned away, hopeless of Hazel's +comprehending. + +But "they" came; and "they" turned right into "we." + +It was not a party; it was something altogether fresh and new; the +house was a new, beautiful place; it was like the country. And Aspen +Street, when you got down there, was so still and shady and sweet +smelling and pleasant. They experienced the delight of finding out +something. + +Miss Craydocke and Hazel set them at it,--their good time; they had +planned it all out, and there was no stiff, shy waiting. They began, +right off, with the "Muffin Man." Hazel danced up to Desire:-- + + "O, _do_ you know the Muffin Man, + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man? + O, _do_ you know the Muffin Man + That lives in Drury Lane?" + + "O, yes, I know the Muffin Man, + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man, + O, yes, I know the Muffin Man + That lives in Drury Lane." + +And so they danced off together:-- + + "Two of us know the Muffin Man, + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man, + Two of us know the Muffin Man + That lives in Drury Lane." + +And then they besieged Miss Craydocke; and then the three met Ada +Geoffrey, just as she had come in and spoken to Diana and Mrs. +Ripwinkley; and Ada had caught the refrain, and responded instantly; +and _four_ of them knew the Muffin Man. + +"I know they'll think it's common and queer, and they'll laugh +to-morrow," whispered Helena to Diana, as Hazel drew the lengthening +string to Dorris Kincaid's corner and caught her up; but the next +minute they were around Helena in her turn, and they were laughing +already, with pure glee; and five faces bent toward her, and five +voices sang,-- + + "O, _don't_ you know the Muffin Man?" + +And Helena had to sing back that she did; and then the six made a +perfect snarl around Mrs. Ripwinkley herself, and drew her in; and +then they all swept off and came down across the room upon Mr. +Oldways, who muttered, under the singing, "seven women! Well, the +Bible says so, and I suppose it's come!" and then he held out both +hands, while his hard face unbent in every wrinkle, with a smile +that overflowed through all their furrowed channels, up to his very +eyes; like some sparkling water that must find its level; and there +were eight that knew the Muffin Man. + +So nine, and ten, and up to fifteen; and then, as their line broke +away into fragments, still breathless with fun, Miss Craydocke +said,--her eyes brimming over with laughing tears, that always came +when she was gay,-- + +"There, now! we all know the 'Muffin Man;' therefore it follows, +mathematically, I believe, that we must all know each other. I think +we'll try a sitting-down game next. I'll give you all something. +Desire, you can tell them what to do with it, and Miss Ashburne +shall predict me consequences." + +So they had the "Presentation Game;" and the gifts, and the +dispositions, and the consequences, when the whispers were over, and +they were all declared aloud, were such hits and jumbles of sense +and nonsense as were almost too queer to have been believed. + +"Miss Craydocke gave me a butter firkin," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "I +was to put it in the parlor and plant vanilla beans in it; and the +consequence would be that Birnam Wood would come to Dunsinane." + +"She gave me a wax doll," said Helena. "I was to buy it a pair of +high-heeled boots and a chignon; and the consequence would be that +she would have to stand on her head." + +"She gave me," said Mr. Oldways, "an iron spoon. I was to deal out +sugar-plums with it; and the consequence would be that you would all +go home." + +"She gave me," said Lois James, "Woman's Rights. I shouldn't know +what to do with them; and the consequence would be a terrible +mortification to all my friends." + +"She gave me," said Hazel, "a real good time. I was to pass it +round; and the consequence would be an earthquake." + +Then they had "Scandal;" a whisper, repeated rapidly from ear to +ear. It began with, "Luclarion is in the kitchen making +tea-biscuits;" and it ended with the horrible announcement that +there were "two hundred gallons of hot pitch ready, and that +everybody was to be tipped into it." + +"Characters," and "Twenty Questions," and "How, When, and Where," +followed; and then they were ready for a run again, and they played +"Boston," in which Mr. Oldways, being "Sceattle," was continually +being left out, whereupon he declared at last, that he didn't +believe there was any place for him, or even that he was down +anywhere on the map, and it wasn't fair, and he was going to secede; +and that broke up the play; for the groat fun of all the games had +come to be Miss Craydocke and Uncle Titus, as it always is the great +fun to the young ones when the elders join in,--the older and the +soberer, the better sport; there is always something in the "fathers +looking on;" that is the way I think it is among them who always do +behold the Face of the Father in heaven,--smiling upon their smiles, +glowing upon their gladness. + +In the tea-room, it was all even more delightful yet; it was further +out into the garden, shaded at the back by the deep leafiness of +grape-vines, and a trellis work with arches in it that ran up at the +side, and would be gay by and by with scarlet runners, and +morning-glories, and nasturtiums, that were shooting up strong and +swift already, from the neatly weeded beds. + +Inside, was the tall old semicircular sideboard, with gingerbread +grooves carved all over it; and the real brass "dogs," with heads on +their fore-paws, were lying in the fire-place, under the lilac +boughs; and the square, plain table stood in the midst, with its +glossy white cloth that touched the floor at the corners, and on it +were the identical pink mugs, and a tall glass pitcher of milk, and +plates of the thinnest and sweetest bread and butter, and early +strawberries in a white basket lined with leaves, and the +traditional round frosted cakes upon a silver plate with a network +rim. + +And Luclarion and Mrs. Ripwinkley waited upon them all, and it was +still no party, to be compared or thought of with any salad and +ice-pudding and Germania-band affair, such as they had had all +winter; but something utterly fresh and new and by itself,--place, +and entertainment, and people, and all. + +After tea, they went out into the garden; and there, under the shady +horse-chestnuts, was a swing; and there were balls with which Hazel +showed them how to play "class;" tossing in turn against the high +brick wall, and taking their places up and down, according to the +number of their catches. It was only Miss Craydocke's "Thread the +Needle" that got them in again; and after that, she showed them +another simple old dancing game, the "Winding Circle," from which +they were all merrily and mysteriously untwisting themselves with +Miss Craydocke's bright little thin face and her fluttering cap +ribbons, and her spry little trot leading them successfully off, +when the door opened, and the grand Mr. Geoffrey walked in; the man +who could manage State Street, and who had stood at the right hand +of Governor and President, with his clear brain, and big purse, and +generous hand, through the years of the long, terrible war; the man +whom it was something for great people to get to their dinners, or +to have walk late into an evening drawing-room and dignify an +occasion for the last half hour. + +Mrs. Ripwinkley was just simply glad to see him; so she was to see +Kenneth Kincaid, who came a few minutes after, just as Luclarion +brought the tray of sweetmeats in, which Mrs. Ripwinkley had so far +innovated upon the gracious-grandmother plan as to have after tea, +instead of before. + +The beautiful cockles and their rhymes got their heads all together +around the large table, for the eating and the reading. Mr. Geoffrey +and Uncle Titus sat talking European politics together, a little +aside. The sugar-plums lasted a good while, with the chatter over +them; and then, before they quite knew what it was all for, they had +got slips of paper and lead pencils before them, and there was to be +a round of "Crambo" to wind up. + +"O, I don't know how!" and "I never can!" were the first words, as +they always are, when it was explained to the uninitiated; but Miss +Craydocke assured them that "everybody could;" and Hazel said that +"nobody expected real poetry; it needn't be more than two lines, and +those might be blank verse, if they were _very_ hard, but jingles +were better;" and so the questions and the wards were written and +folded, and the papers were shuffled and opened amid outcries of, +"O, this is awful!" "_What_ a word to get in!" "Why, they haven't +the least thing to do with each other!" + +"That's the beauty of it," said Miss Craydocke, unrelentingly; "to +_make_ them have; and it is funny how much things do have to do with +each other when they once happen to come across." + +Then there were knit brows, and desperate scratchings, and such +silence that Mr. Geoffrey and Uncle Titus stopped short on the +Alabama question, and looked round to see what the matter was. + +Kenneth Kincaid had been modestly listening to the older gentlemen, +and now and then venturing to inquire or remark something, with an +intelligence that attracted Mr. Geoffrey; and presently it came out +that he had been south with the army; and then Mr. Geoffrey asked +questions of him, and they got upon Reconstruction business, and +comparing facts and exchanging conclusions, quite as if one was not +a mere youth with only his eyes and his brains and his conscience to +help him in his first grapple with the world in the tangle and +crisis at which he found it, and the other a grave, practiced, +keen-judging man, the counsellor of national leaders. + +After all, they had no business to bring the great, troublesome, +heavy-weighted world into a child's party. I wish man never would; +though it did not happen badly, as it all turned out, that they did +a little of it in this instance. If they had thought of it, +"Crambo" was good for them too, for a change; and presently they did +think of it; for Dorris called out in distress, real or pretended, +from the table,-- + +"Kentie, here's something you must really take off my hands! I +haven't the least idea what to do with it." + +And then came a cry from Hazel,-- + +"No fair! We're all just as badly off, and there isn't one of us +that has got a brother to turn to. Here's another for Mr. Kincaid." + +"There are plenty more. Come, Mr. Oldways, Mr. Geoffrey, won't you +try 'Crambo?' There's a good deal in it, as there is in most +nonsense." + +"We'll come and see what it is," said Mr. Geoffrey; and so the +chairs were drawn up, and the gray, grave heads looked on over the +young ones. + +"Why, Hazel's got through!" said Lois, scratching violently at her +paper, and obliterating three obstinate lines. + +"O, I didn't bother, you see! I just stuck the word right in, like a +pin into a pincushion, and let it go. There wasn't anything else to +do with it." + +"I've got to make my pincushion," said Dorris. + +"I should think you had! Look at her! She's writing her paper all +over! O, my gracious, she must have done it before!" + +"Mother and Mr. Geoffrey are doing heaps, too! We shall have to +publish a book," said Diana, biting the end of her pencil, and +taking it easy. Diana hardly ever got the rhymes made in time; but +then she always admired everybody's else, which was a good thing for +somebody to be at leisure to do. + +"Uncle Oldways and Lilian are folding up," said Hazel. + +"Five minutes more," said Miss Craydocke, keeping the time with her +watch before her. "Hush!" + +When the five minutes were rapped out, there were seven papers to be +read. People who had not finished this time might go on when the +others took fresh questions. + +Hazel began reading, because she had been ready first. + +"'What is the difference between sponge-cake and doughnuts?' +'Hallelujah.'" + + "Airiness, lightness, and insipidity; + Twistiness, spiciness, and solidity. + Hallelujah! I've got through! + That is the best that I can do!'" + +There was a shout at Hazel's pinsticking. + +"Now, Uncle Titus! You finished next." + +"My question is a very comprehensive one," said Uncle Titus, "with a +very concise and suggestive word. 'How wags the world?' 'Slambang.'" + + "'The world wags on + With lies and slang; + With show and vanity, + Pride and inanity, + Greed and insanity, + And a great slambang!'" + +"That's only _one_ verse," said Miss Craydocke. "There's another; +but he didn't write it down." + +Uncle Titus laughed, and tossed his Crambo on the table. "It's true, +so far, anyway," said he. + +"_So far_ is hardly ever quite true," said Miss Craydocke + +Lilian Ashburne had to answer the question whether she had ever read +"Young's Night Thoughts;" and her word was "Comet." + + "'Pray might I be allowed a pun, + To help me through with just this one? + I've tried to read Young's Thoughts of Night, + But never yet could come it, quite.'" + +"O, O, O! That's just like Lilian, with her soft little 'prays' and +'allow me's,' and her little pussy-cat ways of sliding through tight +places, just touching her whiskers!" + +"It's quite fair," said Lilian, smiling, "to slide through if you +can." + +"Now, Mr. Geoffrey." + +And Mr. Geoffrey read,-- + +"'What is your favorite color?' 'One-hoss.'" + + "'Do you mean, my friend, for a one-hoss shay, + Or the horse himself,--black, roan, or bay? + In truth, I think I can hardly say; + I believe, for a nag, "I bet on the gray." + + "'For a shay, I would rather not have yellow, + Or any outright, staring color, + That makes the crowd look after a fellow, + And the little _gamins_ hoot and bellow. + + "'Do you mean for ribbons? or gowns? or eyes? + Or flowers? or gems? or in sunset skies? + For many questions, as many replies, + Drops of a rainbow take rainbow dyes. + + "'The world is full, and the world is bright; + Each thing to its nature parts the light; + And each for its own to the Perfect sight + Wears that which is comely, and sweet, and right.'" + +"O, Mr. Geoffrey! That's lovely!" cried the girl voices, all around +him. And Ada made a pair of great eyes at her father, and said,-- + +"What an awful humbug you have been, papa! To have kept the other +side up with care all your life! Who ever suspected _that_ of you?" + +Diana and Hazel were not taken so much by surprise, their mother +had improvised little nursery jingles for them all their baby days, +and had played Crambo with them since; so they were very confident +with their "Now, mother:" and looked calmly for something +creditable. + +"'What is your favorite name?'" read Mrs. Ripwinkley. "And the word +is 'Stuff.'" + + "'When I was a little child, + Looking very meek and mild, + I liked grand, heroic names,-- + Of warriors, or stately dames: + Zenobia, and Cleopatra; + (No rhyme for that this side Sumatra;) + Wallace, and Helen Mar,--Clotilda, + Berengaria, and Brunhilda; + Maximilian; Alexandra; + Hector, Juno, and Cassandra; + Charlemagne and Britomarte, + Washington and Bonaparte; + Victoria and Guinevere, + And Lady Clara Vere de Vere. + --Shall I go on with all this stuff, + Or do you think it is enough? + I cannot tell you what dear name + I love the best; I play a game; + And tender earnest doth belong + To quiet speech, not silly song.'" + +"That's just like mother; I should have stopped as soon as I'd got +the 'stuff' in; but she always shapes off with a little morriowl," +said Hazel. "Now, Desire!" + +Desire frantically scribbled a long line at the end of what she had +written; below, that is, a great black morass of scratches that +represented significantly the "Slough of Despond" she had got into +over the winding up, and then gave,-- + +"'Which way would you rather travel,--north or south?' +'Goosey-gander.'" + + "'O, goosey-gander! + If I might wander, + It should be toward the sun; + The blessed South + Should fill my mouth + With ripeness just begun. + For bleak hills, bare, + With stunted, spare, + And scrubby, piney trees, + Her gardens rare, + And vineyards fair, + And her rose-scented breeze. + For fearful blast, + Skies overcast, + And sudden blare and scare + Long, stormless moons, + And placid noons, + And--all sorts of comfortablenesses,--there!'" + +"That makes me think of father's horse running away with him once," +said Helena, "when he had to head him right up against a brick wall, +and knock everything all to smash before he could stop!" + +"Anybody else?" + +"Miss Kincaid, I think," said Mr. Geoffrey. He had been watching +Dorris's face through the play, flashing and smiling with the +excitement of her rhyming, and the slender, nervous fingers twisting +tremulously the penciled slip while she had listened to the others. + +"If it isn't all rubbed out," said Dorris, coloring and laughing to +find how badly she had been treating her own effusion. + +"You see it _was_ rather an awful question,--'What do you want +most?' And the word is, 'Thirteen.'" + +She caught her breath a little quickly as she began:-- + + "'Between yourself, dear, myself, and the post, + There are the thirteen things that I want the most. + I want to be, sometimes, a little stronger; + I want the days to be a little longer; + I'd like to have a few less things to do; + I'd better like to better do the few: + I want--and this might almost lead my wishes,-- + A bigger place to keep my mops and dishes. + I want a horse; I want a little buggy, + To ride in when the days grow hot and muggy; + I want a garden; and,--perhaps it's funny,-- + But now and then I want a little money. + I want an easy way to do my hair; + I want an extra dress or two to wear; + I want more patience; and when all is given, + I think I want to die and go to heaven!'" + +"I never saw such bright people in all my life!" said Ada Geoffrey, +when the outcry of applause for Dorris had subsided, and they began +to rise to go. "But the _worst_ of all is papa! I'll never get over +it of you, see if I do! Such a cheat! Why, it's like playing dumb +all your life, and then just speaking up suddenly in a quiet way, +some day, as if it was nothing particular, and nobody cared!" + +With Hazel's little divining-rod, Mrs. Ripwinkley had reached out, +testing the world for her, to see what some of it might be really +made of. Mrs. Geoffrey, from her side, had reached out in turn, +also, into this fresh and simple opportunity, to see what might be +there worth while. + +"How was it, Aleck?" she asked of her husband, as they sat together +in her dressing-room, while she brushed out her beautiful hair. + +"Brightest people I have been among for a long time--and nicest," +said the banker, concisely. "A real, fresh little home, with a +mother in it. Good place for Ada to go, and good girls for her to +know; like the ones I fell in love with a hundred years ago." + +"That rhymed oracle,--to say nothing of the _fraction_ of a +compliment,--ought to settle it," said Mrs. Geoffrey, laughing. + +"Rhymes have been the order of the evening. I expect to talk in +verse for a week at least." + +And then he told her about the "Crambo." + +A week after, Mrs. Ledwith was astonished to find, lying on the +mantel in her sister's room, a card that had been sent up the day +before,-- + + "MRS. ALEXANDER H. GEOFFREY." + + + + +XI. + +MORE WITCH-WORK. + + +Hazel was asked to the Geoffreys' to dinner. + +Before this, she and Diana had both been asked to take tea, and +spend an evening, but this was Hazel's little especial "invite," as +she called it, because she and Ada were writing a dialogue together +for a composition at school. + +The Geoffreys dined at the good old-fashioned hour of half past two, +except when they had formal dinner company; and Hazel was to come +right home from school with Ada, and stay and spend the afternoon. + +"What intimacy!" Florence Ledwith had exclaimed, when she heard of +it. + +"But it isn't at all on the grand style side; people like the +Geoffreys do such things quite apart from their regular connection; +it is a sort of 'behind the scenes;'" said Glossy Megilp, who was +standing at Florence's dressing-glass, touching up the little heap +of "friz" across her forehead. + +"Where's my poker?" she asked, suddenly, breaking off from the +Geoffrey subject, and rummaging in a dressing box, intent upon +tutoring some little obstinate loop of hair that would be _too_ +frizzy. + +"I should think a 'blower' might be a good thing to add to your +tools, Glossy," said Desire. "You have brush, poker, and tongs, now, +to say nothing of coal-hod," she added, glancing at the little open +japanned box that held some kind of black powder which had to do +with the shadow of Glossy's eyelashes upon occasion, and the +emphasis upon the delicate line of her brows. + +"No secret," said Glossy, magnanimously. "There it is! It is no +greater sin than violet powder, or false tails, for that matter; and +the little gap in my left eyebrow was never deliberately designed. +It was a 'lapsus naturæ;' I only follow out the hint, and complete +the intention. Something _is_ left to ourselves; as the child said +about the Lord curling her hair for her when she was a baby and +letting her do it herself after she grew big enough. What are our +artistic perceptions given to us for, unless we're to make the best +of ourselves in the first place?" + +"But it isn't all eyebrows," said Desire, half aloud. + +"Of course not," said Glossy Megilp. "Twice a day I have to do +myself up somehow, and why shouldn't it be as well as I can? Other +things come in their turn, and I do them." + +"But, you see, the friz and the fix has to be, anyhow, whether or +no. Everything isn't done, whether or no. I guess it's the 'first +place,' that's the matter." + +"I think you have a very theoretical mind, Des, and a slightly +obscure style. You can't be satisfied till everything is all mapped +out, and organized, and justified, and you get into horrible snarls +trying to do it. If I were you, I would take things a little more as +they come." + +"I can't," said Desire. "They come hind side before and upside +down." + +"Well, if everybody is upside down, there's a view of it that makes +it all right side up, isn't there? It seems to be an established +fact that we must dress and undress, and that the first duty of the +day is to get up and put on our clothes. We aren't ready for much +until we do. And one person's dressing may require one thing, and +another's another. Some people have a cork leg to put on, and some +people have false teeth; and they wouldn't any of them come hobbling +or mumbling out without them, unless there was a fire or an +earthquake, I suppose." + +Glossy Megilp's arguments and analogies perplexed Desire, always. +They sometimes silenced her; but they did not always answer her. She +went back to what they had been discussing before. + +"To 'lay down the shubbel and the hoe,'--here's your poker, under +the table-flounce, Glossy,--and to 'take up the fiddle and the bow,' +again,--I think it's real nice and beautiful for Hazel--" + +"To 'go where the good darkies go'?" + +"Yes. It's the _good_ of her that's got her in. And I believe you +and Florence both would give your best boots to be there too, if it +_is_ behind. Behind the fixings and the fashions is where people +_live_; 'dere's vat I za-ay!'" she ended, quoting herself and Rip +Van Winkle. + +"Maybe," said Florence, carelessly; "but I'd as lief be _in_ the +fashion, after all. And that's where Hazel Ripwinkley never will +get, with all her taking little novelties." + +Meanwhile, Hazel Ripwinkley was deep in the delights of a great +portfolio of rare engravings; prints of glorious frescoes in old +churches, and designs of splendid architecture; and Mrs. Geoffrey, +seeing her real pleasure, was sitting beside her, turning over the +large sheets, and explaining them; telling her, as she gazed into +the wonderful faces of the Saints and the Evangelists in Correggio's +frescoes of the church of San Giovanni at Parma, how the whole dome +was one radiant vision of heavenly glory, with clouds and angel +faces, and adoring apostles, and Christ the Lord high over all; and +that these were but the filling in between the springing curves of +the magnificent arches; describing to her the Abbess's room in San +Paolo, with its strange, beautiful heathen picture over the mantel, +of Diana mounting her stag-drawn car, and its circular walls painted +with trellis-work and medallioned with windows, where the heads of +little laughing children, and graceful, gentle animals peeped in +from among vines and flowers. + +Mrs. Geoffrey did not wonder that Hazel lingered with delight over +these or over the groups by Raphael in the Sistine Chapel,--the +quiet pendentives, where the waiting of the world for its salvation +was typified in the dream-like, reclining forms upon the still, +desert sand; or the wonderful scenes from the "Creation,"--the +majestic "Let there be Light!" and the Breathing of the breath of +life into Man. She watched the surprise and awe with which the child +beheld for the first time the daring of inspiration in the +tremendous embodiment of the Almighty, and waited while she could +hardly take her eyes away. But when, afterward, they turned to a +portfolio of Architecture, and she found her eager to examine spires +and arches and capitals, rich reliefs and stately facades and +sculptured gates, and exclaiming with pleasure at the colored +drawings of Florentine ornamentation, she wondered, and questioned +her,-- + +"Have you ever seen such things before? Do you draw? I should hardly +think you would care so much, at your age." + +"I like the prettiness," said Hazel, simply, "and the grandness; but +I don't suppose I should care so much if it wasn't for Dorris and +Mr. Kincaid. Mr. Kincaid draws buildings; he's an architect; only he +hasn't architected much yet, because the people that build things +don't know him. Dorris was so glad to give him a Christmas present +of 'Daguerreotypes de Paris,' with the churches and arches and +bridges and things; she got it at a sale; I wonder what they would +say to all these beauties!" + +Then Mrs. Geoffrey found what still more greatly enchanted her, a +volume of engravings, of English Home Architecture; interiors of old +Halls, magnificent staircases, lofty libraries and galleries dim +with space; exteriors, gabled, turreted and towered; long, rambling +piles of manor houses, with mixed styles of many centuries. + +"They look as if they were brimfull of stories!" Hazel cried. "O, if +I could only carry it home to show to the Kincaids!" + +"You may," said Mrs. Geoffrey, as simply, in her turn, as if she +were lending a copy of "Robinson Crusoe;' never letting the child +guess by a breath of hesitation the value of what she had asked. + +"And tell me more about these Kincaids. They are friends of yours?" + +"Yes; we've known them all winter. They live right opposite, and sit +in the windows, drawing and writing. Dorris keeps house up there in +two rooms. The little one is her bedroom; and Mr. Kincaid sleeps on +the big sofa. Dorris makes crackle-cakes, and asks us over. She +cooks with a little gas-stove. I think it is beautiful to keep house +with not very much money. She goes out with a cunning white basket +and buys her things; and she does all her work up in a corner on a +white table, with a piece of oil-cloth on the floor; and then she +comes over into her parlor, she says, and sits by the window. It's a +kind of a play all the time." + +"And Mr. Kincaid?" + +"Dorris says he might have been rich by this time, if he had gone +into his Uncle James's office in New York. Mr. James Kincaid is a +broker, and buys gold. But Kenneth says gold stands for work, and if +he ever has any he'll buy it with work. He wants to do some real +thing. Don't you think that's nice of him?" + +"Yes, I do," said Mrs. Geoffrey. "And Dorris is that bright girl +who wanted thirteen things, and rhymed them into 'Crambo?' Mr. +Geoffrey told me." + +"Yes, ma'am; Dorris can do almost anything." + +"I should like to see Dorris, sometime. Will you bring her here, +Hazel?" + +Hazel's little witch-rod felt the almost impassible something in the +way. + +"I don't know as she would be _brought_," she said. + +Mrs. Geoffrey laughed. + +"You have an instinct for the fine proprieties, without a bit of +respect for any conventional fences," she said. "I'll _ask_ Dorris." + +"Then I'm sure she'll come," said Hazel, understanding quite well +and gladly the last three words, and passing over the first phrase +as if it had been a Greek motto, put there to be skipped. + +"Ada has stopped practicing," said Mrs. Geoffrey, who had undertaken +the entertainment of her little guest during her daughter's half +hour of music. "She will be waiting for you now." + +Hazel instantly jumped up. + +But she paused after three steps toward the door, to say gently, +looking back over her shoulder with a shy glance out of her timidly +clear eyes,-- + +"Perhaps,--I hope I haven't,--stayed too long!" + +"Come back, you little hazel-sprite!" cried Mrs. Geoffrey; and when +she got her within reach again, she put her hands one each side of +the little blushing, gleaming face, and kissed it, saying,-- + +"I don't _think_,--I'm slow, usually, in making up my mind about +people, big or little,--but I don't think you can stay too long,--or +come too often, dear!" + +"I've found another for you, Aleck," she said, that night at the +hair-brushing, to her husband. + +He always came to sit in her dressing-room, then; and it was at this +quiet time that they gave each other, out of the day they had lived +in their partly separate ways and duties, that which made it for +each like a day lived twice, so that the years of their life counted +up double. + +"He is a young architect, who hasn't architected much, because he +doesn't know the people who build things; and he wouldn't be a gold +broker with his uncle in New York, because he believes in doing +money's worth in the world for the world's money. Isn't he one?" + +"Sounds like it," said Mr. Geoffrey. "What is his name?" + +"Kincaid." + +"Nephew of James R. Kincaid?" said Mr. Geoffrey, with an +interrogation that was also an exclamation. "And wouldn't go in with +him! Why, it was just to have picked up dollars!" + +"Exactly," replied his wife. "That was what he objected to." + +"I should like to see the fellow." + +"Don't you remember? You have seen him! The night you went for Ada +to the Aspen Street party, and got into 'Crambo.' He was there; and +it was his sister who wanted thirteen things. I guess they do!" + +"Ask them here," said the banker. + +"I mean to," Mrs. Geoffrey answered. "That is, after I've seen +Hapsie Craydocke. She knows everything. I'll go there to-morrow +morning." + + * * * * * + +"'Behind' is a pretty good way to get in--to some places," said +Desire Ledwith, coming into the rose-pink room with news. +"Especially an omnibus. And the Ripwinkleys, and the Kincaids, and +old Miss Craydocke, and for all I know, Mrs. Scarup and Luclarion +Grapp are going to Summit Street to tea to-night. Boston is +topsy-turvey; Holmes was a prophet; and 'Brattle Street and Temple +Place are interchanging cards!' Mother, we ought to get intimate +with the family over the grocer's shop. Who knows what would come of +it? There are fairies about in disguise, I'm sure; or else it's the +millennium. Whichever it is, it's all right for Hazel, though; she's +ready. Don't you feel like foolish virgins, Flo and Nag? I do." + +I am afraid it was when Desire felt a little inclination to "nag" +her elder sister, that she called her by that reprehensible name. +Agatha only looked lofty, and vouchsafed no reply; but Florence +said,-- + +"There's no need of any little triumphs or mortifications. Nobody +crows, and nobody cries. _I_'m glad. Diana's a dear, and Hazel's a +duck, besides being my cousins; why shouldn't I? Only there _is_ a +large hole for the cats, and a little hole for the kittens; and I'd +as lief, myself, go in with the cats." + +"The Marchbankses are staying there, and Professor Gregory. I don't +know about cats," said Desire, demurely. + +"It's a reason-why party, for all that," said Agatha, carelessly, +recovering her good humor. + +"Well, when any nice people ask me, I hope there _will_ be a 'reason +why.' It's the persons of consequence that make the 'reason why.'" + +And Desire had the last word. + + * * * * * + +Hazel Ripwinkley was thinking neither of large holes nor little +ones,--cats nor kittens; she was saying to Luclarion, sitting in her +shady down-stairs room behind the kitchen, that looked out into the +green yard corner, "how nicely things came out, after all!" + +"They seemed so hobblety at first, when I went up there and saw all +those beautiful books, and pictures, and people living amongst them +every day, and the poor Kincaids not getting the least bit of a +stretch out of their corner, ever. I'll tell you what I thought, +Luclarion;" and here she almost whispered, "I truly did. I thought +God was making a mistake." + +Luclarion put out her lips into a round, deprecating pucker, at +that, and drew in her breath,-- + +"Oo--sh!" + +"Well, I mean it seemed as if there was a mistake somewhere; and +that I'd no business, at any rate, with what they wanted so. I +couldn't get over it until I asked for those pictures; and mother +said it was such a bold thing to do!" + +"It was bold," said Luclarion; "but it wasn't forrud. It was gi'n +you, and it hit right. That was looked out for." + +"It's a stumpy world," said Luclarion Grapp to Mrs. Ripwinkley, +afterward; "but some folks step right over their stumps athout +scarcely knowin' when!" + + + + +XII. + +CRUMBS. + + +Desire Ledwith was, at this epoch, a perplexity and a worry,--even a +positive terror sometimes,--to her mother. + +It was not a case of the hen hatching ducks, it was rather as if a +hen had got a hawk in her brood. + +Desire's demurs and questions,--her dissatisfactions, sittings and +contempts,--threatened now and then to swoop down upon the family +life and comfort with destroying talons. + +"She'll be an awful, strong-minded, radical, progressive, +overturning woman," Laura said, in despair, to her friend Mrs. +Megilp. "And Greenley Street, and Aspen Street, and that everlasting +Miss Craydocke, are making her worse. And what can I do? Because +there's Uncle." + +Right before Desire,--not knowing the cloud of real bewilderment +that was upon her young spiritual perceptions, getting their first +glimpse of a tangled and conflicting and distorted world,--she drew +wondering comparisons between her elder children and this odd, +anxious, restless, sharp-spoken girl. + +"I don't understand it," she would say. "It isn't a bit like a child +of mine. I always took things easy, and got the comfort of them +somehow; I think the world is a pretty pleasant place to live in, +and there's lots of satisfaction to be had; and Agatha and Florence +take after me; they are nice, good-natured, contented girls; +managing their allowances,--that I wish were more,--trimming their +own bonnets, and enjoying themselves with their friends, +girl-fashion." + +Which was true. Agatha and Florence were neither fretful nor +dissatisfied; they were never disrespectful, perhaps because Mrs. +Ledwith demanded less of deferential observance than of a kind of +jolly companionship from her daughters; a go-and-come easiness in +and out of what they called their home, but which was rather the +trimming-up and outfitting place,--a sort of Holmes' Hole,--where +they put in spring and fall, for a thorough overhaul and rig; and at +other times, in intervals or emergencies, between their various and +continual social trips and cruises. They were hardly ever +all-togetherish, as Desire had said, if they ever were, it was over +house cleaning and millinery; when the ordering was complete,--when +the wardrobes were finished,--then the world was let in, or they let +themselves out, and--"looked." + +"Desire is different," said Mrs. Ledwith. "She's like Grant's +father, and her Aunt Desire,--pudgicky and queer." + +"Well, mamma," said the child, once, driven to desperate logic for +defense, "I don't see how it can be helped. If you _will_ marry into +the Ledwith family, you can't expect to have your children all +Shieres!" + +Which, again, was very true. Laura laughed at the clever sharpness +of it, and was more than half proud of her bold chick-of-prey, after +all. + +Yet Desire remembered that her Aunt Frances was a Shiere, also; and +she thought there might easily be two sides to the same family; why +not, since there were two sides still further back, always? There +was Uncle Titus; who knew but it was the Oldways streak in him after +all? + +Desire took refuge, more and more, with Miss Craydocke, and Rachel +Froke, and the Ripwinkleys; she even went to Luclarion with +questions, to get her quaint notions of things; and she had ventured +into Uncle Titus's study, and taken down volumes of Swedenborg to +pry into, while he looked at her with long keen regards over his +spectacles, and she did not know that she was watched. + +"That young girl, Desire, is restless, Titus," Rachel Froke said to +him one day. "She is feeling after something; she wants something +real to do; and it appears likely to me that she will do it, if they +don't take care." + +After that, Uncle Titus fixed his attention upon her yet more +closely; and at this time Desire stumbled upon things in a strange +way among his bookshelves, and thought that Rachel Froke was growing +less precise in her fashion of putting to rights. Books were tucked +in beside each other as if they had been picked up and bestowed +anyhow; between "Heaven and Hell" and the "Four Leading Doctrines," +she found, one day, "Macdonald's Unspoken Sermons," and there was a +leaf doubled lengthwise in the chapter about the White Stone and the +New Name. Another time, a little book of poems, by the same author, +was slid in, open, over the volumes of Darwin and Huxley, and the +pages upon whose outspread faces it lay were those that bore the +rhyme of the blind Bartimeus:-- + + "O Jesus Christ! I am deaf and blind; + Nothing comes through into my mind, + I only am not dumb: + Although I see Thee not, nor hear, + I cry because Thou mayst be near + O Son of Mary! come!" + +Do you think a girl of seventeen may not be feeling out into the +spiritual dark,--may not be stretching helpless hands, vaguely, +toward the Hands that help? Desire Ledwith laid the book down again, +with a great swelling breath coming up slowly out of her bosom, and +with a warmth of tears in her earnest little eyes. And Uncle Titus +Oldways sat there among his papers, and never moved, or seemed to +look, but saw it all. + +He never said a word to her himself; it was not Uncle Titus's way to +talk, and few suspected him of having anything to say in such +matters; but he went to Friend Froke and asked her,-- + +"Haven't you got any light that might shine a little for that child, +Rachel?" + +And the next Sunday, in the forenoon, Desire came in; came in, +without knowing it, for her little light. + +She had left home with the family on their way to church; she was +dressed in her buff silk pongee suit trimmed with golden brown bands +and quillings; she had on a lovely new brown hat with tea roses in +it; her gloves and boots were exquisite and many buttoned; Agatha +and Florence could not think what was the matter when she turned +back, up Dorset Street, saying suddenly, "I won't go, after all." +And then she had walked straight over the hill and down to Greenley +Street, and came in upon Rachel, sitting alone in a quiet gray +parlor that was her own, where there were ferns and ivies in the +window, and a little canary, dressed in brown and gold like Desire +herself, swung over them in a white wire cage. + +When Desire saw how still it was, and how Rachel Froke sat there +with her open window and her open book, all by herself, she stopped +in the doorway with a sudden feeling of intrusion, which had not +occurred to her as she came. + +"It's just what I want to come into; but if I do, it won't be +there. I've no right to spoil it. Don't mind, Rachel. I'll go away." + +She said it softly and sadly, as if she could not help it, and was +turning back into the hall. + +"But I do mind," said Rachel, speaking quickly. "Thee will come in, +and sit down. Whatever it is thee wants, is here for thee. Is it the +stillness? Then we will be still." + +"That's so easy to say. But you can't do it for me. _You_ will be +still, and I shall be all in a stir. I want so to be just hushed +up!" + +"Fed, and hushed up, in somebody's arms, like a baby. I know," said +Rachel Froke. + +"How does she know?" thought Desire; but she only looked at her with +surprised eyes, saying nothing. + +"Hungry and restless; that's what we all are," said Rachel Froke, +"until"-- + +"Well,--until?" demanded the strange girl, impetuously, as Rachel +paused. "I've been hungry ever since I was born, mother says." + +"Until He takes us up and feeds us." + +"Why don't He?--Mrs. Froke, when does He give it out? Once a month, +in church, they have the bread and the wine? Does that do it?" + +"Thee knows we do not hold by ordinances, we Friends," said Rachel. +"But He gives the bread of life. Not once a month, or in any place; +it is his word. Does thee get no word when thee goes to church? Does +nothing come to thee?" + +"I don't know; it's mixed up; the church is full of bonnets; and +people settle their gowns when they come in, and shake out their +hitches and puffs when they go out, and there's professional music +at one end, and--I suppose it's because I'm bad, but I don't know; +half the time it seems to me it's only Mig at the other. Something +all fixed up, and patted down, and smoothed over, and salted and +buttered, like the potato hills they used to make on my plate for me +at dinner, when I was little. But it's soggy after all, and has an +underground taste. It isn't anything that has just grown, up in the +light, like the ears of corn they rubbed in their hands. Breakfast +is better than dinner. Bread, with yeast in it, risen up new. They +don't feed with bread very often." + +"The yeast in the bread, and the sparkle in the wine they are the +life of it; they are what make the signs." + +"If they only gave it out fresh, and a little of it! But they keep +it over, and it grows cold and tough and flat, and people sit round +and pretend, but they don't eat. They've eaten other things,--all +sorts of trash,--before they came. They've spoiled their appetites. +Mine was spoiled, to-day. I felt so new and fussy, in these brown +things. So I turned round, and came here." + +Mr. Oldways' saying came back into Mrs. Froke's mind:-- + +"Haven't you got any light, Rachel, that might shine a little for +that child?" + +Perhaps that was what the child had come for. + +What had the word of the Spirit been to Rachel Froke this day? The +new, fresh word, with the leaven in it? "A little of it;" that was +what she wanted. + +Rachel took up the small red Bible that lay on the lightstand beside +her. + +"I'll will give thee my First-Day crumb, Desire," she said. "It may +taste sweet to thee." + +She turned to Revelation, seventh chapter. + +"Look over with me; thee will see then where the crumb is," she +said; and as Desire came near and looked over her upon the page, +she read from the last two verses:-- + +"They shall hunger no more, neither thirst any more. + +"For the _Tenderness_ that is in the midst of the _Almightiness_ +shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of water; +and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes." + +Her voice lingered over the words she put for the "Lamb" and the +"Throne," so that she said "Tenderness" with its own very yearning +inflection, and "Almightiness" with a strong fullness, glad in that +which can never fall short or be exhausted. Then she softly laid +over the cover, and sat perfectly still. It was the Quaker silence +that falls upon them in their assemblies, leaving each heart to +itself and that which the Spirit has given. + +Desire was hushed all through; something living and real had +thrilled into her thought; her restlessness quieted suddenly under +it, as Mary stood quiet before the message of the angel. + +When she did speak again, after a time, as Rachel Froke broke the +motionless pause by laying the book gently back again upon the +table, it was to say,-- + +"Why don't they preach like that, and leave the rest to preach +itself? A Sermon means a Word; why don't they just say the word, and +let it go?" + +The Friend made no reply. + +"I never could--quite--like that about the 'Lamb,' before," said +Desire, hesitatingly. "It seemed,--I don't know,--putting Him +_down_, somehow; making him tame; taking the grandness away that +made the gentleness any good. But,--'Tenderness;' that is beautiful! +Does it mean so in the other place? About taking away the sins,--do +you think?" + +"'The Tenderness of God--the Compassion--that taketh away the sins +of the world?'" Mrs. Froke repeated, half inquiringly. "Jesus +Christ, God's Heart of Love toward man? I think it is so. I think, +child, thee has got thy crumb also, to-day." + +But not all yet. + +Pretty soon, they heard the front door open, and Uncle Titus come +in. Another step was behind his; and Kenneth Kincaid's voice was +speaking, about some book he had called to take. + +Desire's face flushed, and her manner grew suddenly flurried. + +"I must go," she said, starting up; yet when she got to the door, +she paused and delayed. + +The voices were talking on, in the study; somehow, Desire had last +words also, to say to Mrs. Froke. + +She was partly shy about going past that open door, and partly +afraid they might not notice her if she did. Back in her girlish +thought was a secret suggestion that she was pushing at all the time +with a certain self-scorn and denial, that it might happen that she +and Kenneth Kincaid would go out at the same moment; if so, he would +walk up the street with her, and Kenneth Kincaid was one of the few +persons whom Desire Ledwith thoroughly believed in and liked. "There +was no Mig about him," she said. It is hazardous when a girl of +seventeen makes one of her rare exceptions in her estimate of +character in favor of a man of six and twenty. + +Yet Desire Ledwith hated "nonsense;" she wouldn't have anybody +sending her bouquets as they did to Agatha and Florence; she had an +utter contempt for lavender pantaloons and waxed moustaches; but for +Kenneth Kincaid, with his honest, clear look at life, and his high +strong purpose, to say friendly things,--tell her a little now and +then of how the world looked to him and what it demanded,--this +lifted her up; this made it seem worth while to speak and to hear. + +So she was very glad when Uncle Titus saw her go down the hall, +after she had made up her mind that that way lay her straight path, +and that things contrived were not things worth happening,--and +spoke out her name, so that she had to stop, and turn to the open +doorway and reply; and Kenneth Kincaid came over and held out his +hand to her. He had two books in the other,--a volume of Bunsen and +a copy of "Guild Court,"--and he was just ready to go. + +"Not been to church to-day?" said Uncle Titus to Desire. + +"I've been--to Friend's Meeting," the girl answered. + +"Get anything by that?" he asked, gruffly, letting the shag down +over his eyes that behind it beamed softly. + +"Yes; a morsel," replied Desire. "All I wanted." + +"All you wanted? Well, that's a Sunday-full!" + +"Yes, sir, I think it is," said she. + +When they got out upon the sidewalk, Kenneth Kincaid asked, "Was it +one of the morsels that may be shared, Miss Desire? Some crumbs +multiply by dividing, you know." + +"It was only a verse out of the Bible, with a new word in it." + +"A new word? Well, I think Bible verses often have that. I suppose +it was what they were made for." + +Desire's glance at him had a question in it. + +"Made to look different at different times, as everything does that +has life in it. Isn't that true? Clouds, trees, faces,--do they ever +look twice the same?" + +"Yes," said Desire, thinking especially of the faces. "I think they +do, or ought to. But they may look _more_." + +"I didn't say _contradictory_. To look more, there must be a +difference; a fresh aspect. And that is what the world is full of; +and the world is the word of God." + +"The world?" said Desire, who had been taught in a dried up, +mechanical sort of way, that the Bible is the word of God; and +practically left to infer that, that point once settled, it might be +safely shut, up between its covers and not much meddled with, +certainly not over freely interpreted. + +"Yes. What God had to say. In the beginning was the Word, and the +Word was God. Without him was not anything made that was made." + +Desire's face brightened. She knew those words by heart. They were +the first Sunday-school lesson she ever committed to memory, out of +the New Testament; "down to 'grace and truth,'" as she recollected. +What a jumble of repetitions it had been to her, then! Sentences so +much alike that she could not remember them apart, or which way they +came. All at once the simple, beautiful meaning was given to her. + +_What God had to say._ + +And it took a world,--millions, of worlds,--to say it with. + +"And the Bible, too?" she said, simply following out her own mental +perception, without giving the link. It was not needed. They were +upon one track. + +"Yes; all things; and all _souls_. The world-word comes through +things; the Bible came through souls. And it is all the more alive, +and full, and deep, and changing; like a river." + +"Living fountains of waters! that was part of the morsel to-day," +Desire repeated impulsively, and then shyly explained. + +"And the new word?" + +Desire shrunk into silence for a moment; she was not used to, or +fond of Bible quoting, or even Bible talk; yet sin was hungering all +the time for Bible truth. + +Mr. Kincaid waited. + +So she repeated it presently; for Desire never made a fuss; she was +too really sensitive for that. + +"'The Tenderness in the midst of the Almightiness shall feed them, +and shall lead them to living fountains of water.'" + +Mr. Kincaid recognized the "new word," and his face lit up. + +"'The Lamb in the midst of the Throne,'" he said. "Out of the Heart +of God, the Christ. Who was there before; the intent by which all +things were made. The same yesterday, and to-day, and forever; who +ever liveth to make intercession for us. Christ _had to be_. The +Word, full of grace, must be made flesh. Why need people dispute +about Eternity and Divinity, if they can only see that?--Was that +Mrs. Froke's reading?" + +"Yes; that was Rachel's sermon." + +"It is an illumination." + +They walked all up Orchard Street without another word. + +Then Kenneth Kincaid said,--"Miss Desire, why won't you come and +teach in the Mission School?" + +"I teach? Why, I've got everything to learn!" + +"But as fast as you _do_ learn; the morsels, you know. That is the +way they are given out. That is the wonder of the kingdom of heaven. +There is no need to go away and buy three hundred pennyworth before +we begin, that every one may take a little; the bread given as the +Master breaks it feeds them till they are filled; and there are +baskets full of fragments to gather up." + +Kenneth Kincaid's heart was in his Sunday work, as his sister had +said. The more gladly now, that the outward daily bread was being +given. + +Mr. Geoffrey,--one of those busy men, so busy that they do promptly +that which their hands find to do,--had put Kenneth in the way of +work. It only needed a word from him, and the surveying and laying +out of some new streets and avenues down there where Boston is +growing so big and grand and strange, were put into his charge. +Kenneth was busy now, cheerily busy, from Monday morning to Saturday +night; and restfully busy on the Sunday, straightening the paths and +laying out the ways for souls to walk in. He felt the harmony and +the illustration between his week and his Sunday, and the one +strengthening the other, as all true outward work does harmonize +with and show forth, and help the spiritual doing. It could not have +been so with that gold work, or any little feverish hitching on to +other men's business; producing nothing, advancing nothing, only +standing between to snatch what might fall, or to keep a premium for +passing from hand to hand. + +Our great cities are so full,--our whole country is so +overrun,--with these officious middle-men whom the world does not +truly want; chiffonniers of trade, who only pick up a living out of +the great press and waste and overflow; and our boys are so eager to +slip in to some such easy, ready-made opportunity,--to get some +crossing to sweep. + +What will come of it all, as the pretenses multiply? Will there be +always pennies for every little broom? Will two, and three, and six +sweeps be tolerated between side and side? By and by, I think, they +will have to turn to and lay pavements. Hard, honest work, and the +day's pay for it; that is what we have got to go back to; that and +the day's snug, patient living, which the pay achieves. + +Then, as I say, the week shall illustrate the Sunday, and the Sunday +shall glorify the week; and what men do and build shall stand true +types, again, for the inner growth and the invisible building; so +that if this outer tabernacle were dissolved, there should be seen +glorious behind it, the house not made with hands,--eternal. + +As Desire Ledwith met this young Kenneth Kincaid from day to day, +seeing him so often at her Aunt Ripwinkley's, where he and Dorris +went in and out now, almost like a son and daughter,--as she walked +beside him this morning, hearing him say these things, at which +the heart-longing in her burned anew toward the real and +satisfying,--what wonder was it that her restlessness grasped at +that in his life which was strong and full of rest; that she felt +glad and proud to have him tell his thought to her; that without any +silliness,--despising all silliness,--she should yet be conscious, +as girls of seventeen are conscious, of something that made her day +sufficient when she had so met him,--of a temptation to turn into +those streets in her walks that led his way? Or that she often, with +her blunt truth, toward herself as well as others, and her quick +contempt of sham and subterfuge, should snub herself mentally, and +turn herself round as by a grasp of her own shoulders, and make +herself walk off stoutly in a far and opposite direction, when, +without due need and excuse, she caught herself out in these things? + +What wonder that this stood in her way, for very pleasantness, when +Kenneth asked her to come and teach in the school? That she was +ashamed to let herself do a thing--even a good thing, that her life +needed,--when there was this conscious charm in the asking; this +secret thought--that she should walk up home with him every Sunday! + +She remembered Agatha and Florence, and she imagined, perhaps, more +than they would really have thought of it at home; and so as they +turned into Shubarton Place,--for he had kept on all the way along +Bridgeley and up Dorset Street with her,--she checked her steps +suddenly as they came near the door, and said brusquely,-- + +"No, Mr. Kincaid; I can't come to the Mission. I might learn A, and +teach them that; but how do I know I shall ever learn B, myself?" + +He had left his question, as their talk went on, meaning to ask it +again before they separated. He thought it was prevailing with her, +and that the help that comes of helping others would reach her need; +it was for her sake he asked it; he was disappointed at the sudden, +almost trivial turn she gave it. + +"You have taken up another analogy, Miss Desire," he said. "We were +talking about crumbs and feeding. The five loaves and the five +thousand. 'Why reason ye because ye have no bread? How is it that ye +do not understand?'" + +Kenneth quoted these words naturally, pleasantly; as he might quote +anything that had been spoken to them both out of a love and +authority they both recognized, a little while ago. + +But Desire was suddenly sharp and fractious. If it had not touched +some deep, live place in her, she would not have minded so much. It +was partly, too, the coming toward home. She had got away out of the +pure, clear spaces where such things seemed to be fit and +unstrained, into the edge of her earth atmosphere again, where, +falling, they took fire. Presently she would be in that ridiculous +pink room, and Glossy Megilp would be chattering about "those lovely +purple poppies with the black grass," that she had been lamenting +all the morning she had not bought for her chip hat, instead of the +pomegranate flowers. And Agatha would be on the bed, in her cashmere +sack, reading Miss Braddon. + +"It would sound nice to tell them she was going down to the Mission +School to give out crumbs!" + +Besides, I suppose that persons of a certain temperament never utter +a more ungracious "No," than when they are longing all the time to +say "Yes." + +So she turned round on the lower step to Kenneth, when he had asked +that grave, sweet question of the Lord's, and said perversely,-- + +"I thought you did not believe in any brokering kind of business. +It's all there,--for everybody. Why should I set up to fetch and +carry?" + +She did not look in his face as she said it; she was not audacious +enough to do that; she poked with the stick of her sunshade between +the uneven bricks of the sidewalk, keeping her eyes down, as if she +watched for some truth she expected to pry up. But she only wedged +the stick in so that she could not get it out; and Kenneth Kincaid +making her absolutely no answer at all, she had to stand there, +growing red and ashamed, held fast by her own silly trap. + +"Take care; you will break it," said Kenneth, quietly, as she gave +it a twist and a wrench. And he put out his hand, and took it from +hers, and drew gently upward in the line in which she had thrust it +in. + +"You were bearing off at an angle. It wanted a straight pull." + +"I never pull straight at anything. I always get into a crook, +somehow. You didn't answer me, Mr. Kincaid. I didn't mean to be +rude--or wicked. I didn't mean--" + +"What you said. I know that; and it's no use to answer what people +don't mean. That makes the crookedest crook of all." + +"But I think I did mean it partly; only not contrarimindedly. I do +mean that I have no business--yet awhile. It would only be--Migging +at gospel!" + +And with this remarkable application of her favorite illustrative +expression, she made a friendly but abrupt motion of leave-taking, +and went into the house. + +Up into her own room, in the third story, where the old furniture +was, and no "fadging,"--and sat down, bonnet, gloves, sunshade, and +all, in her little cane rocking-chair by the window. + +Helena was down in the pink room, listening with charmed ears to the +grown up young-ladyisms of her elder sisters and Glossy Megilp. + +Desire sat still until the dinner-bell rang, forgetful of her dress, +forgetful of all but one thought that she spoke out as she rose at +last at the summons to take off her things in a hurry,-- + +"I wonder,--I _wonder_--if I shall ever live anything all straight +out!" + + + + +XIII. + +PIECES OF WORLDS. + + +Mr. Dickens never put a truer thought into any book, than he put at +the beginning of "Little Dorrit." + +That, from over land and sea, from hundreds, thousands of miles +away, are coming the people with whom we are to have to do in our +lives; and that, "what is set to us to do to them, and what is set +for them to do to us, will all be done." + +Not only from far places in this earth, over land and sea,--but from +out the eternities, before and after,--from which souls are born, +and into which they die,--all the lines of life are moving +continually which are to meet and join, and bend, and cross our own. + +But it is only with a little piece of this world, as far as we can +see it in this short and simple story, that we have now to do. + +Rosamond Holabird was coming down to Boston. + +With all her pretty, fresh, delicate, high-lady ways, with her +beautiful looks, and her sweet readiness for true things and noble +living, she was coming, for a few days only,--the cooperative +housekeeping was going on at Westover, and she could not be spared +long,--right in among them here in Aspen Street, and Shubarton +Place, and Orchard Street, and Harrisburg Square, where Mrs. +Scherman lived whom she was going to stay with. But a few days may +be a great deal. + +Rosamond Holabird was coming for far more than she knew. Among +other things she was coming to get a lesson; a lesson right on in a +course she was just now learning; a lesson of next things, and best +things, and real folks. + +You see how it happened,--where the links were; Miss Craydocke, and +Sin Scherman, and Leslie Goldthwaite, were dear friends, made to +each other one summer among the mountains. Leslie had had Sin and +Miss Craydocke up at Z----, and Rosamond and Leslie were friends, +also. + +Mrs. Frank Scherman had a pretty house in Harrisburg Square. She had +not much time for paying fashionable calls, or party-going, or +party-giving. As to the last, she did not think Frank had money +enough yet to "circumfuse," she said, in that way. + +But she had six lovely little harlequin cups on a side-shelf in her +china closet, and six different-patterned breakfast plates, with +colored borders to match the cups; rose, and brown, and gray, and +vermilion, and green, and blue. These were all the real china she +had, and were for Frank and herself and the friends whom she made +welcome,--and who might come four at once,--for day and night. She +delighted in "little stays;" in girls who would go into the nursery +with her, and see Sinsie in her bath; or into the kitchen, and help +her mix up "little delectabilities to surprise Frank with;" only the +trouble had got to be now, that the surprise occurred when the +delectabilities did not. Frank had got demoralized, and expected +them. She rejoiced to have Miss Craydocke drop in of a morning and +come right up stairs, with her little petticoats and things to work +on; and she and Frank returned these visits in a social, cosy way, +after Sinsie was in her crib for the night. Frank's boots never went +on with a struggle for a walk down to Orchard Street; but they were +terribly impossible for Continuation Avenue. + +So it had come about long ago, though I have not had a corner to +mention it in, that they "knew the Muffin Man," in an Aspen Street +sense; and were no strangers to the charm of Mrs. Ripwinkley's +"evenings." There was always an "evening" in the "Mile Hill House," +as the little family and friendly coterie had come to call it. + +Rosamond and Leslie had been down together for a week once, at the +Schermans; and this time Rosamond was coming alone. She had business +in Boston for a day or two, and had written to ask Asenath "if she +might." There were things to buy for Barbara, who was going to be +married in a "navy hurry," besides an especial matter that had +determined her just at this time to come. + +And Asenath answered, "that the scarlet and gray, and green and blue +were pining and fading on the shelf; and four days would be the very +least to give them all a turn and treat them fairly; for such things +had their delicate susceptibilities, as Hans Andersen had taught us +to know, and might starve and suffer,--why not? being made of +protoplasm, same as anybody." + +Rosamond's especial errand to the city was one that just a little +set her up, innocently, in her mind. She had not wholly got the +better,--when it interfered with no good-will or generous +dealing,--of a certain little instinctive reverence for imposing +outsides and grand ways of daily doing; and she was somewhat +complacent at the idea of having to go,--with kindly and needful +information,--to Madam Mucklegrand, in Spreadsplendid Park. + +Madam Mucklegrand was a well-born Boston lady, who had gone to +Europe in her early youth, and married a Scottish gentleman with a +Sir before his name. Consequently, she was quite entitled to be +called "my lady;" and some people who liked the opportunity of +touching their republican tongues to the salt of European +dignitaries, addressed her so; but, for the most part, she assumed +and received simply the style of "Madam." A queen may be called +"Madam," you know. It covers an indefinite greatness. But when she +spoke of her late,--very long ago,--husband, she always named him as +"Sir Archibald." + +Madam Mucklegrand's daughter wanted a wet-nurse for her little baby. + +Up in Z----, there was a poor woman whose husband, a young brakeman +on the railroad, had been suddenly killed three months ago, before +her child was born. There was a sister here in Boston, who could +take care of it for her if she could go to be foster-mother to some +rich little baby, who was yet so poor as this--to need one. So +Rosamond Holabird, who was especially interested for Mrs. Jopson, +had written to Asenath, and had an advertisement put in the +"Transcript," referring to Mrs. Scherman for information. And the +Mucklegrand carriage had rolled up, the next day, to the house in +Harrisburg Square. + +They wanted to see the woman, of course, and to hear all about +her,--more than Mrs. Scherman was quite able to tell; therefore when +she sent a little note up to Z----, by the evening mail, Rosamond +replied with her "Might she come?" + +She brought Jane Jopson and the baby down with her, left them over +night at Mrs. Ginnever's, in Sheafe Street, and was to go for them +next morning and take them up to Spreadsplendid Park. She had sent a +graceful, polite little note to Madam Mucklegrand, dated "Westover, +Z----," and signed, "Rosamond Holabird," offering to do this, that +there might not be the danger of Jane's losing the chance in the +meanwhile. + +It was certainly to accomplish the good deed that Rosamond cared +the most; but it was also certainly something to accomplish it in +that very high quarter. It lent a piquancy to the occasion. + +She came down to breakfast very nicely and discriminatingly dressed, +with the elegant quietness of a lady who knew what was simply +appropriate to such an errand and the early hour, but who meant to +be recognized as the lady in every unmistakable touch; and there was +a carriage ordered for her at half past nine. + +Sin Scherman was a cute little matron; she discerned the dash of +subdued importance in Rosamond's air; and she thought it very +likely, in the Boston nature of things, that it would get +wholesomely and civilly toned down. + +Just at this moment, Rosamond, putting on her little straw bonnet +with real lace upon it, and her simple little narrow-bordered green +shawl, that was yet, as far as it went, veritable cashmere,--had a +consciousness, in a still, modest way, not only of her own personal +dignity as Rosamond Holabird, who was the same going to see Madam +Mucklegrand, or walking over to Madam Pennington's, and as much in +her place with one as the other; but of the dignity of Westover +itself, and Westover ladyhood, represented by her among the palaces +of Boston-Appendix to-day. + +She was only twenty, this fair and pleasant Rosamond of ours, and +country simple, with all her native tact and grace; and she forgot, +or did not know how full of impressions a life like Madam +Mucklegrand's might be, and how very trifling and fleeting must be +any that she might chance to make. + +She drove away down to the North End, and took Jane Jopson and her +baby in,--very clean and shiny, both of them,--and Jane +particularly nice in the little black crape bonnet that Rosamond +herself had made, and the plain black shawl that Mrs. Holabird had +given her. + +She stood at the head of the high, broad steps, with her mind very +much made up in regard to her complete and well-bred self-possession, +and the manner of her quietly assured self-introduction. She had her +card all ready that should explain for her; and to the servant's +reply that Madam Mucklegrand was in, she responded by moving forward +with only enough of voluntary hesitation to allow him to indicate to +her the reception room, at the door of which she gave him the little +pasteboard, with,-- + +"Take that to her, if you please," and so sat down, very much as if +she had been in such places frequently before, which she never had. +One may be quite used to the fine, free essence of gentle living, +and never in all one's life have anything to do with such solid, +concrete expression of it as Rosamond saw here. + +Very high, to begin with, the ceiled and paneled room was; reaching +up into space as if it had really been of no consequence to the +builders where they should put the cover on; and with no remotest +suggestion of any reserve for further superstructure upon the same +foundation. + +Very dark, and polished, and deeply carved, and heavily ornamented +were its wainscotings, and frames, and cornices; out of the new look +of the streets, which it will take them yet a great while to +outgrow, she had stepped at once into a grand, and mellow, and +ancient stateliness. + +There were dim old portraits on the walls, and paintings that hinted +at old mastership filled whole panels; and the tall, high-backed, +wonderfully wrought oaken chairs had heraldic devices in relief upon +their bars and corners; and there was a great, round mosaic table, +in soft, rich, dark colors, of most precious stones; these, in +turn, hidden with piles of rare engravings. + +The floor was of dark woods, inlaid; and sumptuous rugs were put +about upon it for the feet, each one of which was wide enough to +call a carpet. + +And nothing of it all was _new_; there was nothing in the room but +some plants in a jardiniere by the window, that seemed to have a bit +of yesterday's growth upon it. + +A great, calm, marble face of Jove looked down from high up, out of +the shadows. + +Underneath sat Rosamond Holabird, holding on to her identity and her +self-confidence. + +Madam Mucklegrand came in plainly enough dressed,--in black; you +would not notice what she had on; but you would notice instantly the +consummate usedness to the world and the hardening into the mould +thereof that was set and furrowed upon eye and lip and brow. + +She sailed down upon Rosamond like a frigate upon a graceful little +pinnace; and brought to within a pace or two of her, continuing to +stand an instant, as Rosamond rose, just long enough for the shadow +of a suggestion that it might not be altogether material that she +should be seated again at all. + +But Rosamond made a movement backward to her chair, and laid her +hand upon its arm, and then Madam Mucklegrand decided to sit down. + +"You called about the nurse, I conclude, Miss--Holabird?" + +"Yes, ma'am; I thought you had some questions you wished to ask, and +that I had better come myself. I have her with me, in the carriage." + +"Thank you," said Madam Mucklegrand, politely. + +But it was rather a _de haut en bas_ politeness; she exercised it +also toward her footman. + +Then followed inquiries about age, and health, and character. +Rosamond told all she knew, clearly and sufficiently, with some +little sympathetic touches that she could not help, in giving her +story. + +Madam Mucklegrand met her nowhere, however, on any common ground; +she passed over all personal interest; instead of two women +befriending a third in her need, who in turn was to give life to a +little child waiting helplessly for some such ministry, it might +have been the leasing of a house, or the dealing about some +merchandise, that was between them. + +Rosamond proposed, at last, to send Jane Jopson in. + +Jane and her baby were had in, and had up-stairs; the physician and +attending nurse pronounced upon her; she was brought down again, to +go home and dispose of her child, and return. Rosamond, meanwhile, +had been sitting under the marble Jove. + +There was nothing really rude in it; she was there on business; what +more could she expect? But then she knew all the time, that she too +was a lady, and was taking trouble to do a kind thing. It was not so +that Madam Mucklegrand would have been treated at Westover. + +Rosamond was feeling pretty proud by the time Madam Mucklegrand came +down stairs. + +"We have engaged the young woman: the doctor quite approves; she +will return without delay, I hope?" + +As if Rosamond were somehow responsible all through. + +"I have no doubt she will; good morning, madam." + +"Good morning. I am, really, very much obliged. You have been of +great service." + +Rosamond turned quietly round upon the threshold. + +"That was what I was very anxious to be," she said, in her perfectly +sweet and musical voice,--"to the poor woman." + +Italics would indicate too coarsely the impalpable emphasis she put +upon the last two words. But Mrs. Mucklegrand caught it. + +Rosamond went away quite as sure of her own self-respect as ever, +but very considerably cured of Spreadsplendidism. + +This was but one phase of it, she knew; there are real folks, also, +in Spreadsplendid Park; they are a good deal covered up, there, to +be sure; but they can't help that. It is what always happens to +somebody when Pyramids are built. Madam Mucklegrand herself was, +perhaps, only a good deal covered up. + +How lovely it was to go down into Orchard Street after that, and +take tea with Miss Craydocke! How human and true it seemed,--the +friendliness that shone and breathed there, among them all. How +kingdom-of-heaven-like the air was, and into what pleasantness of +speech it was born! + +And then Hazel Ripwinkley came over, like a little spirit from +another blessed society, to tell that "the picture-book things were +all ready, and that it would take everybody to help." + +That was Rosamond's first glimpse of Witch Hazel, who found her out +instantly,--the real, Holabirdy part of her,--and set her down at +once among her "folks." + +It was bright and cheery in Mrs. Ripwinkley's parlor; you could +hardly tell whence the cheeriness radiated, either. + +The bright German lamp was cheery, in the middle of the round table; +the table was cheery, covered with glossy linen cut into large, +square book-sheets laid in piles, and with gay pictures of all +kinds, brightly colored; and the scissors,--or scissorses,--there +were ever so many shining pairs of them,--and the little mucilage +bottles, and the very scrap-baskets,--all looked cozy and +comfortable, and as if people were going to have a real good time +among them, somehow. + +And the somehow was in making great beautiful, everlasting +picture-books for the little orphans in Miss Craydocke's Home,--the +Home, that is, out of several blessed and similar ones that she was +especially interested in, and where Hazel and Diana had been with +her until they knew all the little waifs by sight and name and +heart, and had their especial chosen property among them, as they +used to have among the chickens and the little yellow ducks at +Homesworth Farm. + +Mrs. Ripwinkley was cheery; it might be a question whether all the +light did not come from her first, in some way, and perhaps it did; +but then Hazel was luminous, and she fluttered about with quick, +happy motions, till like a little glancing taper she had shone upon +and lit up everybody and everything; and Dorris was sunny with clear +content, and Kenneth was blithe, and Desire was scintillant, as she +always was either with snaps or smiles; and here came in beaming +Miss Craydocke, and gay Asenath and her handsome husband; and our +Rosa Mundi; there,--how can you tell? It was all round; and it was +more every minute. + +There were cutters and pasters and stitchers and binders and every +part was beautiful work, and nobody could tell which was +pleasantest. Cutting out was nice, of course; who doesn't like +cutting out pictures? Some were done beforehand, but there were as +many left as there would be time for. And pasting, on the fine, +smooth linen, making it glow out with charming groups and tints of +flowers and birds and children in gay clothes,--that was +delightful; and the stitchers had the pleasure of combining and +arranging it all; and the binders,--Mrs. Ripwinkley and Miss +Craydocke,--finished all off with the pretty ribbons and the gray +covers, and theirs being the completing touch, thought _they_ had +the best of it. + +"But I don't think finishing is best, mother," said Hazel, who was +diligently snipping in and out around rose leaves or baby faces, as +it happened. "I think beginning is always beautiful. I never want to +end off,--anything nice, I mean." + +"Well, we don't end off this," said Diana. "There's the giving, +next." + +"And then their little laughs and Oo's," said Hazel. + +"And their delight day after day; and the comfort of them in their +little sicknesses," said Miss Craydocke. + +"And the stories that have got to be told about every picture," said +Dorris. + +"No; nothing really nice does end; it goes on and on," said Mrs. +Ripwinkley. + +"Of course!" said Hazel, triumphantly, turning on the Drummond light +of her child-faith. "We're forever and ever people, you know!" + +"Please paste some more flowers, Mr. Kincaid," said Rosamond, who +sat next him, stitching. "I want to make an all-flower book of this. +No,--not roses; I've a whole page already; this great white lily, I +think. That's beautiful!" + +"Wouldn't it do to put in this laurel bush next, with the bird's +nest in it?" + +"O, those lovely pink and white laurels! Yes. Where did you get such +pictures, Miss Hazel?" + +"O, everybody gave them to us, all summer, ever since we began. Mrs. +Geoffrey gave those flowers; and mother painted some. She did that +laurel. But don't call me Miss Hazel, please; it seems to send me +off into a corner." + +Rosamond answered by a little irresistible caress; leaning her head +down to Hazel, on her other side, until her cheek touched the +child's bright curls, quickly and softly. There was magnetism +between those two. + +Ah, the magnetism ran round! + +"For a child's picture-book, Mrs. Ripwinkley?" said Mrs. Scherman, +reaching over for the laurel picture. "Aren't these almost +too exquisite? They would like a big scarlet poppy just as +well,--perhaps better. Or a clump of cat-o'-nine-tails," she added, +whimsically. + +"There _is_ a clump of cat-o'-nine-tails," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "I +remember how I used to delight in them as a child,--the real ones." + +"Pictures are to _tell_ things," said Desire, in her brief way. + +"These little city refugees _must_ see them, somehow," said +Rosamond, gently. "I understand. They will never get up on the +mountains, maybe, where the laurels grow, or into the shady swamps +among the flags and the cat-o'-nine-tails. You have _picked out_ +pictures to give them, Mrs. Ripwinkley." + +Kenneth Kincaid's scissors stopped a moment, as he looked at +Rosamond, pausing also over the placing of her leaves. + +Desire saw that from the other side; she saw how beautiful and +gracious this girl was--this Rosamond Holabird; and there was a +strange little twinge in her heart, as she felt, suddenly, that let +there be ever so much that was true and kindly, or even tender, in +her, it could never come up in her eyes or play upon her lips like +that she could never say it out sweetly and in due place everything +was a spasm with her; and nobody would ever look at her just as +Kenneth Kincaid looked at Rosamond then. + +She said to herself, with her harsh, unsparing honesty, that it must +be a "hitch inside;" a cramp or an awkwardness born in her, that set +her eyes, peering and sharp, so near together, and put that knot +into her brows instead of their widening placidly, like Rosamond's, +and made her jerky in her speech. It was no use; she couldn't look +and behave, because she couldn't _be_; she must just go boggling and +kinking on, and--losing everything, she supposed. + +The smiles went down, under a swift, bitter little cloud, and the +hard twist came into her face with the inward pinching she was +giving herself; and all at once there crackled out one of her sharp, +strange questions; for it was true that she could not do otherwise; +everything was sudden and crepitant with her. + +"Why need all the good be done up in batches, I wonder? Why can't it +be spread round, a little more even? There must have been a good +deal left out somewhere, to make it come in a heap, so, upon you, +Miss Craydocke!" + +Hazel looked up. + +"I know what Desire means," she said. "It seemed just so to me, +_one_ way. Why oughtn't there to be _little_ homes, done-by-hand +homes, for all these little children, instead of--well--machining +them all up together?" + +And Hazel laughed at her own conceit. + +"It's nice; but then--it isn't just the way. If we were all brought +up like that we shouldn't know, you see!" + +"You wouldn't want to be brought up in a platoon, Hazel?" said +Kenneth Kincaid. "No; neither should I." + +"I think it was better," said Hazel, "to have my turn of being a +little child, all to myself; _the_ little child, I mean, with the +rest of the folks bigger. To make much of me, you know. I shouldn't +want to have missed that. I shouldn't like to be _loved_ in a +platoon." + +"Nobody is meant to be," said Miss Craydocke. + +"Then why--" began Asenath Scherman, and stopped. + +"Why what, dear?" + +"Revelations," replied Sin, laconically. "There are loads of people +there, all dressed alike, you know; and--well--it's platoony, I +think, rather! And down here, such a world-full; and the sky--full +of worlds. There doesn't seem to be much notion of one at a time, in +the general plan of things." + +"Ah, but we've got the key to all that," said Miss Craydocke. "'The +very hairs of your head are all numbered.' It may be impossible with +us, you know, but not with Him." + +"Miss Hapsie! you always did put me down, just when I thought I was +smart," said Sin Scherman. + +Asenath loved to say "Miss Hapsie," now and then, to her friend, +ever since she had found out what she called her "squee little +name." + +"But the little children, Miss Craydocke," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "It +seems to me Desire has got a right thought about it." + +Mrs. Ripwinkley and Hazel always struck the same note. The same +delicate instinct moved them both. Hazel "knew what Desire meant;" +her mother did not let it be lost sight of that it was Desire who +had led the way in this thought of the children; so that the abrupt +beginning--the little flash out of the cloud--was quite forgotten +presently, in the tone of hearty understanding and genuine interest +with which the talk went on; and it was as if all that was generous +and mindfully suggestive in it had first and truly come from her. +They unfolded herself for her--these friendly ones--as she could not +do; out of her bluntness grew a graciousness that lay softly over +it; the cloud itself melted away and floated off; and Desire began +to sparkle again more lambently. For she was not one of the kind to +be meanly or enviously "put out." + +"It seemed to me there must be a great many spare little corners +somewhere, for all these spare little children," she said, "and +that, lumped up together so, there was something they did not get." + +"That is precisely the thing," said Miss Craydocke, emphatically. "I +wonder, sometimes," she went on, tenderly, "if whenever God makes a +little empty place in a home, it isn't really on purpose that it +might be filled with one of these,--if people only thought." + +"Miss Craydocke," said Hazel, "how did you begin your beehive?" + +"I!" said the good lady. "I didn't. It began itself." + +"Well, then, how did you _let_ it begin?" + +"Ah!" + +The tone was admissive, and as if she had said, "_That_ is another +thing!" She could not contradict that she had let it be. + +"I'll tell you a queer story," she said, "of what they say they used +to do, in old Roman Catholic times and places, when they wanted to +_keep up_ a beehive that was in any danger of dwindling or growing +unprofitable. I read it somewhere in a book of popular beliefs and +customs about bees and other interesting animals. An old woman once +went to her friend, and asked her what she did to make her hive so +gainful. And this was what the old wife said; it sounds rather +strange to us, but if there is anything irreverent in it, it is the +word and not the meaning; 'I go,' she said, 'to the priest, and get +a little round Godamighty, and put it in the hive, and then all goes +well; the bees thrive, and there is plenty of honey; they always +come, and stay, and work, when _that_ is there." + +"A little round--something awful! what _did_ she mean?" asked Mrs. +Scherman. + +"She meant a consecrated wafer,--the Sacrament. We don't need to put +the wafer in; but if we let _Him_ in, you see,--just say to Him it +is his house, to do with as He likes,--He takes the responsibility, +and brings in all the rest." + +Nobody saw, under the knitting of Desire Ledwith's brows, and the +close setting of her eyes, the tenderness with which they suddenly +moistened, and the earnestness with which they gleamed. Nobody knew +how she thought to herself inwardly, in the same spasmodic fashion +that she used for speech,-- + +"They Mig up their parlors with upholstery, and put rose-colored +paper on their walls, and call them _their_ houses; and shut the +little round awfulness and goodness out! We've all been doing it! +And there's no place left for what might come in." + +Mrs. Scherman broke the hush that followed what Miss Hapsie said. +Not hastily, or impertinently; but when it seemed as if it might be +a little hard to come down into the picture-books and the pleasant +easiness again. + +"Let's make a Noah's Ark picture-book,--you and I," she said to +Desire. "Give us all your animals,--there's a whole Natural History +full over there, all painted with splendid daubs of colors; the +children did that, I know, when they _were_ children. Come; we'll +have everything in, from an elephant to a bumble-bee!" + +"We did not mean to use those, Mrs. Scherman," said Desire. "We did +not think they were good enough. They are _so_ daubed up." + +"They're perfectly beautiful. Exactly what the young ones will like. +Just divide round, and help. We'll wind up with the most wonderful +book of all; the book they'll all cry for, and that will have to be +given always, directly after the Castor Oil." + +It took them more than an hour to do that, all working hard; and a +wonderful thing it was truly, when it was done. Mrs. Scherman and +Desire Ledwith directed all the putting together, and the grouping +was something astonishing. + +There were men and women,--the Knowers, Sin called them; she said +that was what she always thought the old gentleman's name was, in +the days when she first heard of him, because he knew so much; and +in the backgrounds of the same sheets were their country cousins, +the orangs, and the little apes. Then came the elephants, and the +camels, and the whales; "for why shouldn't the fishes be put in, +since they must all have been swimming round sociably, if they +weren't inside; and why shouldn't the big people be all kept +together properly?" + +There were happy families of dogs and cats and lions and snakes and +little humming-birds; and in the last part were all manner of bugs, +down to the little lady-bugs in blazes of red and gold, and the gray +fleas and mosquitoes which Sin improvised with pen and ink, in a +swarm at the end. + +"And after that, I don't believe they wanted any more," she said; +and handed over the parts to Miss Craydocke to be tied together. +For this volume had had to be made in many folds, and Mrs. +Ripwinkley's blue ribbon would by no means stretch over the back. + +And by that time it was eleven o'clock, and they had worked four +hours. They all jumped up in a great hurry then, and began to say +good-by. + +"This must not be the last we are to have of you, Miss Holabird," +said Mrs. Ripwinkley, laying Rosamond's shawl across her shoulders. + +"Of course not," said Mrs Scherman, "when you are all coming to our +house to tea to-morrow night." + +Rosamond bade the Ripwinkleys good-night with a most sweet +cordiality, and thanks for the pleasure she had had, and she told +Hazel and her mother that it was "neither beginning nor end, she +believed; for it seemed to her that she had only found a little new +piece of her world, and that Aspen Street led right out of Westover +in the invisible geography, she was sure." + +"Come!" said Miss Craydocke, standing on the doorsteps. "It is all +invisible geography out here, pretty nearly; and we've all our +different ways to go, and only these two unhappy gentlemen to insist +on seeing everybody home." + +So first the whole party went round with Miss Hapsie, and then +Kenneth and Dorris, who always went home with Desire, walked up +Hanley Street with the Schermans and Rosamond, and so across through +Dane Street to Shubarton Place. + +But while they were on their way, Hazel Ripwinkley was saying to her +mother, up in her room, where they made sometimes such long +good-nights,-- + +"Mother! there were some little children taken away from you before +we came, you know? And now we've got this great big house, and +plenty of things, more than it takes for us." + +"Well?" + +"Don't you think it's expected that we should do something with the +corners? There's room for some real good little times for somebody. +I think we ought to begin a beehive." + +Mrs. Ripwinkley kissed Hazel very tenderly, and said, only,-- + +"We can wait, and see." + +Those are just the words that mothers so often put children off +with! But Mrs. Ripwinkley, being one of the real folks, meant it; +the very heart of it. + +In that little talk, they took the consecration in; they would wait +and see; when people do that, with an expectation, the beehive +begins. + + * * * * * + +Up Hanley Street, the six fell into pairs. + +Mrs. Scherman and Desire, Dorris and Mr. Scherman, Rosamond and +Kenneth Kincaid. + +It only took from Bridgeley Street up to Dane, to tell Kenneth +Kincaid so much about Westover, in answer to his questions, that he +too thought he had found a new little piece of his world. What +Rosamond thought, I do not know; but a girl never gives a young man +so much as she gave Kenneth in that little walk without having some +of the blessed consciousness that comes with giving. The sun knows +it shines, I dare say; or else there is a great waste of hydrogen +and other things. + +There was not much left for poor little Desire after they parted +from the Schermans and turned the corner of Dane Street. Only a +little bit of a way, in which new talk could hardly begin, and just +time for a pause that showed how the talk that had come to an end +was missed or how, perhaps, it stayed in the mind, repeating itself, +and keeping it full. + +Nobody said anything till they had crossed B---- Street; and then +Dorris said, "How beautiful,--_real_ beautiful, Rosamond Holabird +is!" And Kenneth answered, "Did you hear what she said to Mrs. +Ripwinkley?" + +They were full of Rosamond! Desire did not speak a word. + +Dorris had heard and said it over. It seemed to please Kenneth to +hear it again. "A piece of her world!" + +"How quickly a true person springs to what belongs to--their life!" +said Kenneth, using that wrong little pronoun that we shall never be +able to do without. + +"People don't always get what belongs, though," blurted Desire at +last, just as they came to the long doorsteps. "Some people's lives +are like complementary colors, I think; they see blue, and live +red!" + +"But the colors are only accidentally--I mean temporarily--divided; +they are together in the sun; and they join somewhere--beyond." + +"I hate beyond!" said Desire, recklessly. "Good-night. Thank you." +And she ran up the steps. + +Nobody knew what she meant. Perhaps she hardly knew herself. + +They only thought that her home life was not suited to her, and that +she took it hard. + + + + +XIV. + +"SESAME; AND LILIES." + + +"I've got a discouragement at my stomach," said Luclarion Grapp. + +"What's the matter?" asked Mrs. Ripwinkley, naturally. + +"Mrs. Scarup. I've been there. There ain't any bottom to it." + +"Well?" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley knew that Luclarion had more to say, and that she +waited for this monosyllable. + +"She's sick again. And Scarup, he's gone out West, spending a +hundred dollars to see whether or no there's a chance anywhere for a +_smart_ man,--and that ain't he, so it's a double waste,--to make +fifty. No girl; and the children all under foot, and Pinkie looking +miserable over the dishes." + +"Pinkie isn't strong." + +"No. She's powerful weak. I just wish you'd seen that dirty +settin'-room fire-place; looks as if it hadn't been touched since +Scarup smoked his pipe there, the night before he went off a +wild-gandering. And clo'es to be ironed, and the girl cleared out, +because 'she'd always been used to fust-class families.' There +wasn't anything to your hand, and you couldn't tell where to begin, +unless you began with a cataplasm!" + +Luclarion had heard, by chance, of a cataclysm, and that was what +she meant. + +"It wants--creation, over again! Mrs. Scarup hadn't any fit +breakfast; there was burnt toast, made out of tough bread, that +she'd been trying to eat; and a cup of tea, half drunk; something +the matter with that, I presume. I'd have made her some gruel, if +there'd been a fire; and if there'd been any kindlings, I'd have +made her a fire; but there 'twas; there wasn't any bottom to it!" + +"You had better make the gruel here, Luclarion." + +"That's what I come back for. But--Mrs. Ripwinkley!" + +"Well?" + +"Don't it appear to you it's a kind of a stump? I don't want to do +it just for the satisfaction; though it _would_ be a satisfaction to +plough everything up thorough, and then rake it over smooth; what do +you think?" + +"What have you thought, Luclarion? Something, of course." + +"She wants a real smart girl--for two dollars a week. She can't get +her, because she ain't. And I kind of felt as though I should like +to put in. Seemed to me it was a--but there! I haven't any right to +stump _you_." + +"Wouldn't it be rather an aggravation? I don't suppose you would +mean to stay altogether?" + +"Not unless--but don't go putting it into my head, Mrs. Ripwinkley. +I shall feel as if I _was_. And I don't think it goes quite so far +as that, yet. We ain't never stumped to more than one thing at a +time. What she wants is to be straightened out. And when things once +looked _my_ way, she might get a girl, you see. Anyhow, 'twould +encourage Pinkie, and kind of set her going. Pinkie likes things +nice; but it's such a Hoosac tunnel to undertake, that she just lets +it all go, and gets off up-stairs, and sticks a ribbon in her hair. +That's all she _can_ do. I s'pose 'twould take a fortnight, maybe?" + +"Take it, Luclarion," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, smiling. Luclarion +understood the smile. + +"I s'pose you think it's as good as took. Well, perhaps it is--spoke +for. But it wasn't me, you know. Now what'll you do?" + +"Go into the kitchen and make the pudding." + +"But then?" + +"We are not stumped for then, you know." + +"There was a colored girl here yesterday, from up in Garden Street, +asking if there was any help wanted. I think she came in partially, +to look at the flowers; the 'sturtiums _are_ splendid, and I gave +her some. She was awfully dressed up,--for colors, I mean; but she +looked clean and pleasant, and spoke bright. Maybe she'd come, +temporary. She seemed taken with things. I know where to find her, +and I could go there when I got through with the gruel. Mrs. Scarup +must have that right off." + +And Luclarion hurried away. + +It was not the first time Mrs. Ripwinkley had lent Luclarion; but +Miss Grapp had not found a kitchen mission in Boston heretofore. It +was something new to bring the fashion of simple, prompt, neighborly +help down intact from the hills, and apply it here to the tangle of +city living, that is made up of so many separate and unrecognized +struggles. + +When Hazel came home from school, she went all the way up the garden +walk, and in at the kitchen door. "That was the way she took it +all," she said; "first the flowers, and then Luclarion and what they +had for dinner, and a drink of water; and then up-stairs, to +mother." + +To-day she encountered in the kitchen a curious and startling +apparition of change. + +A very dusky brown maiden, with a petticoat of flashing purple, and +a jacket of crimson, and extremely puzzling hair tied up with knots +of corn color, stood in possession over the stove, tending a +fricassee, of which Hazel recognized at once the preparation and +savor as her mother's; while beside her on a cricket, munching cold +biscuit and butter with round, large bites of very white little +teeth, sat a small girl of five of the same color, gleaming and +twinkling as nothing human ever does gleam and twinkle but a little +darkie child. + +"Where is Luclarion?" asked Hazel, standing still in the middle of +the floor, in her astonishment. + +"I don't know. I'm Damaris, and this one's little Vash. Don't go for +callin' me Dam, now; the boys did that in my last place, an' I left, +don' yer see? I ain't goin' to be swore to, anyhow!" + +And Damaris glittered at Hazel, with her shining teeth and her quick +eyes, full of fun and good humor, and enjoyed her end of the joke +extremely. + +"Have you come to _stay_?" asked Hazel. + +"'Course. I don' mostly come for to go." + +"What does it mean, mother?" Hazel asked, hurrying up into her +mother's room. + +And then Mrs. Ripwinkley explained. + +"But what _is_ she? Black or white? She's got straight braids and +curls at the back of her head, like everybody's"-- + +"'Course," said a voice in the doorway. "An' wool on top,--place +where wool ought to grow,--same's everybody, too." + +Damaris had come up, according to orders, to report a certain point +in the progress of the fricassee. + +"They all pulls the wool over they eyes, now-days, an sticks the +straight on behind. Where's the difference?" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley made some haste to rise and move toward the +doorway, to go down stairs, turning Damaris from her position, and +checking further remark. Diana and Hazel stayed behind, and laughed. +"What fun!" they said. + +It was the beginning of a funny fortnight; but it is not the fun I +have paused to tell you of; something more came of it in the +home-life of the Ripwinkleys; that which they were "waiting to see." + +Damaris wanted a place where she could take her little sister; she +was tired of leaving her "shyin' round," she said. And Vash, with +her round, fuzzy head, her bright eyes, her little flashing teeth, +and her polished mahogany skin,--darting up and down the house "on +Aarons," or for mere play,--dressed in her gay little scarlet +flannel shirt-waist, and black and orange striped petticoat,--was +like some "splendid, queer little fire-bug," Hazel said, and made a +surprise and a picture wherever she came. She was "cute," too, as +Damaris had declared beforehand; she was a little wonder at noticing +and remembering, and for all sorts of handiness that a child of five +could possibly be put to. + +Hazel dressed rag babies for her, and made her a soap-box baby-house +in the corner of the kitchen, and taught her her letters; and began +to think that she should hate to have her go when Luclarion came +back. + +Damaris proved clever and teachable in the kitchen; and had, above +all, the rare and admirable disposition to keep things scrupulously +as she had found them; so that Luclarion, in her afternoon trips +home, was comforted greatly to find that while she was "clearing and +ploughing" at Mrs. Scarup's, her own garden of neatness was not +being turned into a howling wilderness; and she observed, as is +often done so astutely, that "when you _do_ find a neat, capable, +colored help, it's as good help as you can have." Which you may +notice is just as true without the third adjective as with. + +Luclarion herself was having a splendid time. + +The first thing she did was to announce to Mrs. Scarup that she was +out of her place for two weeks, and would like to come to her at her +wages; which Mrs. Scarup received with some such awed and +unbelieving astonishment as she might have done the coming of a +legion of angels with Gabriel at their head. And when one strong, +generous human will, with powers of brain and body under it +sufficient to some good work, comes down upon it as Luclarion did +upon hers, there _is_ what Gabriel and his angels stand for, and no +less sent of God. + +The second thing Luclarion did was to clean that "settin'-room +fire-place," to restore the pleasant brown color of its freestone +hearth and jambs, to polish its rusty brasses till they shone like +golden images of gods, and to lay an ornamental fire of chips and +clean little sticks across the irons. Then she took a wet broom and +swept the carpet three times, and dusted everything with a damp +duster; and then she advised Mrs. Scarup, whom the gruel had already +cheered and strengthened, to be "helped down, and sit there in the +easy-chair, for a change, and let her take her room in hand." And no +doctor ever prescribed any change with better effect. There are a +good many changes that might be made for people, without sending +them beyond their own doors. But it isn't the doctors who always +know _what_ change, or would dare to prescribe it if they did. + +Mrs. Scarup was "helped down," it seemed,--really up, rather,--into +a new world. Things had begun all over again. It was worth while to +get well, and take courage. Those brasses shone in her face like +morning suns. + +"Well, I do declare to Man, Miss Grapp!" she exclaimed; and breath +and expression failed together, and that was all she could say. + +Up-stairs, Luclarion swept and rummaged. She found the sheet and +towel drawers, and made everything white and clean. She laid fresh +napkins over the table and bureau tops, and set the little +things--boxes, books, what not,--daintily about on them. She put a +clean spread on the bed, and gathered up things for the wash she +meant to have, with a recklessness that Mrs. Scarup herself would +never have dared to use, in view of any "help" she ever expected to +do it. + +And then, with Pinkie to lend feeble assistance, Luclarion turned to +in the kitchen. + +It was a "clear treat," she told Mrs. Ripwinkley afterward. "Things +had got to that state of mussiness, that you just began at one end +and worked through to the other, and every inch looked new made over +after you as you went along." + +She put the children out into the yard on the planks, and gave them +tin pans and clothes-pins to keep house with, and gingerbread for +their dinner. She and Pinkie had cups of tea, and Mrs. Scarup had +her gruel, and went up to bed again; and that was another new +experience, and a third stage in her treatment and recovery. + +When it came to the cellar, Luclarion got the chore-man in; and when +all was done, she looked round on the renovated home, and said +within herself, "If Scarup, now, will only break his neck, or get +something to do, and stay away with his pipes and his boots and his +contraptions!" + +And Scarup did. He found a chance in some freight-house, and wrote +that he had made up his mind to stay out there all winter; and Mrs. +Scarup made little excursions about the house with her returning +strength, and every journey was a pleasure-trip, and the only misery +was that at the end of the fortnight Miss Grapp was going away, and +then she should be "all back in the swamp again." + +"No, you won't," said Luclarion; "Pinkie's waked up, and she's going +to take pride, and pick up after the children. She can do that, now; +but she couldn't shoulder everything. And you'll have somebody in +the kitchen. See if you don't. I've 'most a mind to say I'll stay +till you do." + +Luclarion's faith was strong; she knew, she said, that "if she was +doing at her end, Providence wasn't leaving off at his. Things would +come round." + +This was how they did come round. + +It only wanted a little sorting about. The pieces of the puzzle were +all there. Hazel Ripwinkley settled the first little bit in the +right place. She asked her mother one night, if she didn't think +they might begin their beehive with a fire-fly? Why couldn't they +keep little Vash? + +"And then," said Diana, in her quiet way, slipping one of the big +three-cornered pieces of the puzzle in, "Damaris might go to Mrs. +Scarup for her two dollars a week. She is willing to work for that, +if she can get Vash taken. And this would be all the same, and +better." + +Desire was with them when Luclarion came in, and heard it settled. + +"How is it that things always fall right together for you, so? How +_came_ Damaris to come along?" + +"You just take hold of something and try," said Luclarion. "You'll +find there's always a working alongside. Put up your sails, and the +wind will fill 'em." + +Uncle Titus wanted to know "what sort of use a thing like that +could be in a house?" + +He asked it in his very surliest fashion. If they had had any +motives of fear or favor, they would have been disconcerted, and +begun to think they had made a mistake. + +But Hazel spoke up cheerily,-- + +"Why, to wait on people, uncle. She's the nicest little +fetch-and-carrier you ever saw!" + +"Humph! who wants to be waited on, here? You girls, with feet and +hands of your own? Your mother doesn't, I know." + +"Well, to wait _on_, then," says Hazel, boldly. "I'm making her a +baby-house, and teaching her to read; and Diana is knitting scarlet +stockings for her, to wear this winter. We like it." + +"O, if you like it! That's always a reason. I only want to have +people give the real one." + +And Uncle Titus walked off, so that nobody could tell whether _he_ +liked it or not. + +Nobody told him anything about the Scarups. But do you suppose he +didn't know? Uncle Titus Oldways was as sharp as he was blunt. + +"I guess I know, mother," said Hazel, a little while after this, one +day, "how people write stories." + +"Well?" asked her mother, looking up, ready to be amused with +Hazel's deep discovery. + +"If they can just begin with one thing, you see, that makes the next +one. It can't help it, hardly. Just as it does with us. What made me +think of it was, that it seemed to me there was another little piece +of our beehive story all ready to put on; and if we went and did +it,--I wonder if you wouldn't, mother? It fits exactly." + +"Let me see." + +"That little lame Sulie at Miss Craydocke's Home, that we like so +much. Nobody adopts her away, because she is lame; her legs are no +use at all, you know, and she just sits all curled up in that great +round chair that Mrs. Geoffrey gave her, and sews patchwork, and +makes paper dolls. And when she drops her scissors, or her thread, +somebody has to come and pick it up. She wants waiting on; she just +wants a little lightning-bug, like Vash, to run round for her all +the time. And we don't, you see; and we've got Vash! And Vash--likes +paper dolls." + +Hazel completed the circle of her argument with great triumph. + +"An extra piece of bread to finish your too much butter," said +Diana. + +"Yes. Doesn't it just make out?" said Hazel, abating not a jot of +her triumph, and taking things literally, as nobody could do better +than she, upon occasion, for all her fancy and intuition. + +"I wonder what Uncle Oldways would say to that," said Diana. + +"He'd say 'Faugh, faugh!' But he doesn't mean faugh, faugh, half the +time. If he does, he doesn't stick to it. Mother," she asked rather +suddenly, "do you think Uncle Oldways feels as if we oughtn't to +do--other things--with his money?" + +"What other things?" + +"Why, _these_ others. Vash, and Sulie, perhaps. Wouldn't he like it +if we turned his house into a Beehive?" + +"It isn't his house," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, "He has given it to me." + +"Well,--do you feel 'obligated,' as Luclarion says?' + +"In a certain degree,--yes. I feel bound to consider his comfort +and wishes, as far as regards his enjoyment with us, and fulfilling +what he reasonably looked for when he brought us here." + +"Would that interfere?" + +"Suppose you ask him, Hazel?" + +"Well, I could do that." + +"Hazel wouldn't mind doing anything!" said Diana, who, to tell the +truth was a little afraid of Uncle Titus, and who dreaded of all +things, being snubbed. + +"Only," said Hazel, to whom something else had just occurred, +"wouldn't he think--wouldn't it be--_your_ business?" + +"It is all your plan, Hazel. I think he would see that." + +"And you are willing, if he doesn't care?" + +"I did not quite say that. It would be a good deal to think of." + +"Then I'll wait till you've thought," said clear-headed little +Hazel. + +"But it fits right on. I can see that. And Miss Craydocke said +things would, after we had begun." + +Mrs. Ripwinkley took it into her thoughts, and carried it about with +her for days, and considered it; asking herself questions. + +Was it going aside in search of an undertaking that did not belong +to her? + +Was it bringing home a care, a responsibility, for which they were +not fitted,--which might interfere with the things they were meant, +and would be called, to do? + +There was room and opportunity, doubtless, for them to do something; +Mrs. Ripwinkley had felt this; she had not waited for her child to +think of it for her; she had only waited, in her new, strange +sphere, for circumstances to guide the way, and for the Giver of +all circumstance to guide her thought. She chose, also, in the +things that would affect her children's life and settle duties for +them, to let them grow also to those duties, and the perception of +them, with her. To this she led them, by all her training and +influence; and now that in Hazel, her child of quick insight and +true instincts, this influence was bearing fruit and quickening to +action, she respected her first impulses; she believed in them; they +had weight with her, as argument in themselves. These impulses, in +young, true souls, freshly responding, are, she knew, as the +proof-impressions of God's Spirit. + +Yet she would think; that was her duty; she would not do a thing +hastily, or unwisely. + +Sulie Praile had been a good while, now, at the Home. + +A terrible fall, years ago, had caused a long and painful illness, +and resulted in her present helplessness. But above those little +idle, powerless limbs, that lay curled under the long, soft skirt +she wore, like a baby's robe, were a beauty and a brightness, a +quickness of all possible motion, a dexterous use of hands, and a +face of gentle peace and sometimes glory, that were like a +benediction on the place that she was in; like the very Holy Ghost +in tender form like a dove, resting upon it, and abiding among them +who were there. + +In one way, it would hardly be so much a giving as a taking, to +receive her in. Yet there was care to assume, the continuance of +care to promise or imply; the possibility of conflicting plans in +much that might be right and desirable that Mrs. Ripwinkley should +do for her own. Exactly what, if anything, it would be right to +undertake in this, was matter for careful and anxious reflection. + +The resources of the Home were not very large; there were painful +cases pressing their claims continually, as fast as a little place +was vacated it could be filled; was wanted, ten times over; and +Sulie Praile had been there a good while. If somebody would only +take her, as people were very ready to take--away to happy, simple, +comfortable country homes, for mere childhood's sake--the round, +rosy, strong, and physically perfect ones! But Sulie must be lifted +and tended; she must keep somebody at home to look after her; no one +could be expected to adopt a child like that. + +Yet Hazel Ripwinkley thought they could be; thought, in her +straightforward, uncounting simplicity, that it was just the +natural, obvious, beautiful thing to do, to take her home--into a +real home--into pleasant family life; where things would not crowd; +where she could be mothered and sistered, as girls ought to be, when +there are so many nice places in the world, and not so many people +in them as there might be. When there could be so much visiting, and +spare rooms kept always in everybody's house, why should not +somebody who needed to, just come in and stay? What were the spare +places made for? + +"We might have Sulie for this winter," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, at +last. "They would let her come to us for that time; and it would be +a change for her, and leave a place for others. Then if anything +made it impossible for us to do more, we should not have raised an +expectation to be disappointed. And if we can and ought to do more, +it will be shown us by that time more certainly." + +She asked Miss Craydocke about it, when she came home from Z---- +that fall. She had been away a good deal lately; she had been up to +Z---- to two weddings,--Leslie Goldthwaite's and Barbara Holabird's. +Now she was back again, and settled down. + +Miss Craydocke thought it a good thing wisely limited. + +"Sulie needs to be with older girls; there is no one in the Home to +be companion to her; the children are almost all little. A winter +here would be a blessing to her!" + +"But the change again, if she should have to make it?" suggested +Mrs. Ripwinkley. + +"Good things don't turn to bad ones because you can't have them any +more. A thing you're not fit for, and never ought to have had, may; +but a real good stays by; it overflows all the rest. Sulie Praile's +life could never be so poor again, after a winter here with you, as +it might be if she had never had it. If you'd like her, let her +come, and don't be a bit afraid. We're only working by inches, any +of us; like the camel's-hair embroiderers in China. But it gets put +together; and it is beautiful, and large, and whole, somewhere." + +"Miss Craydocke always knows," said Hazel. + +Nobody said anything again, about Uncle Titus. A winter's plan need +not be referred to him. But Hazel, in her own mind, had resolved to +find out what was Uncle Titus's, generally and theoretically; how +free they were to be, beyond winter plans and visits of weeks; how +much scope they might have with this money and this house, that +seemed so ample to their simple wants, and what they might do with +it and turn it into, if it came into their heads or hearts or +consciences. + +So one day she went in and sat down by him in the study, after she +had accomplished some household errand with Rachel Froke. + +Other people approached him with more or less of strategy, afraid of +the tiger in him; Desire Ledwith faced him courageously; only Hazel +came and nestled up beside him, in his very cage, as if he were no +wild beast, after all. + +Yet he pretended to growl, even at her, sometimes; it was so funny +to see her look up and chirp on after it, like some little bird to +whom the language of beasts was no language at all, and passed by on +the air as a very big sound, but one that in no wise concerned it. + +"We've got Sulie Praile to spend the winter, Uncle Titus," she said. + +"Who's Sulie Praile?" + +"The lame girl, from the Home. We wanted somebody for Vash to wait +on, you know. She sits in a round chair, that twists, like yours; +and she's--just like a lily in a vase!" Hazel finished her sentence +with a simile quite unexpected to herself. + +There was something in Sulie's fair, pale, delicate face, and her +upper figure, rising with its own peculiar lithe, easily swayed +grace from among the gathered folds of the dress of her favorite +dark green color, that reminded--if one thought of it, and Hazel +turned the feeling of it into a thought at just this moment--of a +beautiful white flower, tenderly and commodiously planted. + +"Well, I suppose it's worth while to have a lame girl to sit up in a +round chair, and look like a lily in a vase, is it?" + +"Uncle Titus, I want to know what you think about some things." + +"That is just what I want to know myself, sometimes. To find out +what one thinks about things, is pretty much the whole finding, +isn't it?" + +"Don't be very metaphysical, please, Uncle Titus. Don't turn your +eyes round into the back of your head. That isn't what I mean." + +"What do you mean?" + +"Just plain looking." + +"O!" + +"Don't you think, when there are places, all nice and ready,--and +people that would like the places and haven't got 'em,--that the +people ought to be put into the places?" + +"'The shirtless backs put into the shirts?'" + +"Why, yes, of course. What are shirts made for?" + +"For some people to have thirty-six, and some not to have any," said +Mr. Oldways. + +"No," said Hazel. "Nobody wants thirty-six, all at once. But what I +mean is, rooms, and corners, and pleasant windows, and seats at the +table; places where people come in visiting, and that are kept saved +up. I can't bear an empty box; that is, only for just one pleasant +minute, while I'm thinking what I can put into it." + +"Where's your empty box, now?" + +"Our house _was_ rather empty-boxy. Uncle Titus, do you mind how we +fill it up,--because you gave it to us, you know?" + +"No. So long as you don't crowd yourselves out." + +"Or you, Uncle Titus. We don't want to crowd you out. Does it crowd +you any to have Sulie and Vash there, and to have us 'took up' with +them, as Luclarion says?" + +How straight Witch Hazel went to her point! + +"Your catechism crowds me just a little, child," said Uncle Titus. +"I want to see you go your own way. That is what I gave you the +house for. Your mother knows that. Did she send you here to ask me?" + +"No. I wanted to know. It was I that wanted to begin a kind of a +Beehive--like Miss Craydocke's. Would you care if it was turned +quite into a Beehive, finally?" + +Hazel evidently meant to settle the furthest peradventure, now she +had begun. + +"Ask your mother to show you the deed. 'To Frances Ripwinkley, her +heirs and assigns,'--that's you and Diana,--'for their use and +behoof, forever.' I've no more to do with it." + +"'Use, and behoof,'" said Hazel, slowly. And then she turned the +leaves of the great Worcester that lay upon the study table, and +found "Behoof." + +"'Profit,--gain,--benefit;' then that's what you meant; that we +should make as much more of it as we could. That's what I think, +Uncle Titus. I'm glad you put 'behoof in." + +"They always put it in, child!" + +"Do they? Well, then, they don't always work it out!" and Hazel +laughed. + +At that, Mr. Oldways pulled off his spectacles, looked sharp at +Hazel with two sharp, brown eyes,--set near together, Hazel noticed +for the first time, like Desire's,--let the keenness turn gradually +into a twinkle, suffered the muscles that had held his lips so grim +to relax, and laughed too; his peculiar, up-and-down shake of a +laugh, in which head and shoulders made the motions, as if he were a +bottle, and there were a joke inside of him which was to be well +mixed up to be thoroughly enjoyed. + +"Go home to your mother, jade-hopper!" he said, when he had done; +"and tell her I'm coming round to-night, to tea, amongst your +bumble-bees and your lilies!" + + + + +XV. + +WITH ALL ONE'S MIGHT. + + +Let the grapes be ever so sweet, and hang in plenty ever so low, +there is always a fair bunch out of reach. + +Mrs. Ledwith longed, now, to go to Europe. + +At any rate, she was eager to have her daughters go. But, after just +one year, to take what her Uncle Oldways had given her, in return +for her settling herself near him, and _un_settle herself, and go +off to the other side of the world! Besides, what he had given her +would not do it. That was the rub, after all. What was two thousand +a year, now-a-days? Nothing is anything, now-a-days. And it takes +everything to do almost nothing. + +The Ledwiths were just as much pinched now as they were before they +ever heard from Uncle Oldways. People with unlimited powers of +expansion always are pinched; it is good for them; one of the saving +laws of nature that keeps things decently together. + +Yet, in the pink room of a morning, and in the mellow-tinted +drawing-room of an evening, it was getting to be the subject +oftenest discussed. It was that to which they directed the combined +magnetism of the family will; everything was brought to bear upon it; +Bridget's going away on Monday morning, leaving the clothes in the +tubs, the strike-price of coal, and the overcharge of the grocer; +Florence's music, Helena's hopeless distress over French and German; +even Desire's listlessness and fidgets; most of all Mrs. Megilp's +plans, which were ripening towards this long coveted end. She and +Glossy really thought they should go this winter. + +"It is a matter of economy now; everybody's going. The Fargo's and +the Fayerwerses, and the Hitherinyons have broken all up, and are +going out to stay indefinitely. The Fayerwerses have been saving up +these four years to get away, there are so many of them, you know; +the passage money counts, and the first travelling; but after you +_are_ over, and have found a place to settle down in,"--then +followed all the usual assertions as to cheap delights and +inestimable advantages, and emancipation from all American household +ills and miseries. + +Uncle Oldways came up once in a while to the house in Shubarton +Place, and made an evening call. He seemed to take apricot-color for +granted, when he got there, as much as he did the plain, old, +unrelieved brown at Mrs. Ripwinkley's; he sat quite unconcernedly in +the grand easy chair that Laura wheeled out for him; indeed, it +seemed as if he really, after a manner, indorsed everything by his +acceptance without demur of what he found. But then one must sit +down on something; and if one is offered a cup of coffee, or +anything on a plate, one cannot easily protest against sea-green +china. We do, and we have, and we wear, and we say, a great +many things, and feel ourselves countenanced and confirmed, +somehow,--perhaps excused,--because nobody appears surprised or says +anything. But what should they say; and would it be at all proper +that they should be surprised? If we only thought of it, and once +tried it, we might perhaps find it quite as easy and encouraging, on +the same principle, _not_ to have apricot rep and sea-green china. + +One night Mr. Oldways was with them when the talk turned eastwardly +over the water. There were new names in the paper, of people who +had gone out in the _Aleppo_, and a list of Americans registered at +Bowles Brothers,' among whom were old acquaintance. + +"I declare, how they all keep turning up there" said Mrs. Ledwith. + +"The war doesn't seem to make much difference," said her husband. + +"To think how lucky the Vonderbargens were, to be in Paris just at +the edge of the siege!" said Glossy Megilp. "They came back from +Como just in time; and poor Mr. Washburne had to fairly hustle them +off at last. They were buying silks, and ribbons, and gloves, up to +the last minute, for absolutely nothing. Mrs. Vonderbargen said it +seemed a sin to come away and leave anything. I'm sure I don't know +how they got them all home; but they did." + +Glossy had been staying lately with the Vonderbargens in New York. +She stayed everywhere, and picked up everything. + +"You have been abroad, Mrs. Scherman?" said Mrs. Ledwith, +inquiringly, to Asenath, who happened to be calling, also, with her +husband, and was looking at some photographs with Desire. + +"No, ma'am," answered Mrs. Scherman, very promptly, not having +spoken at all before in the discussion. "I do not think I wish to +go. The syphon has been working too long." + +"The Syphon?" + +Mrs. Ledwith spoke with a capital S in her mind; but was not quite +sure whether what Mrs. Scherman meant might be a line of Atlantic +steamers or the sea-serpent. + +"Yes, ma'am. The emptying back and forth. There isn't much that is +foreign over there, now, nor very much that is native here. The +hemispheres have got miserably mixed up. I think when I go 'strange +countries for to see,' it will have to be Patagonia or Independent +Tartary." + +Uncle Oldways turned round with his great chair, so as to face +Asenath, and laughed one of his thorough fun digesting laughs, his +keen eyes half shut with the enjoyment, and sparkling out through +their cracks at her. + +But Asenath had resumed her photographs with the sweetest and +quietest unconsciousness. + +Mrs. Ledwith let her alone after that; and the talk rambled on to +the schools in Munich, and the Miracle Plays at Oberammergau. + +"To think of _that_ invasion!" said Asenath, in a low tone to +Desire, "and corrupting _that_ into a show, with a run of regular +performances! I do believe they have pulled down the last unprofaned +thing now, and trampled over it." + +"If we go," said Mrs. Megilp, "we shall join the Fayerwerses, and +settle down with them quietly in some nice place; and then make +excursions. We shall not try to do all Europe in three months; we +shall choose, and take time. It is the only way really to enjoy or +acquire; and the quiet times are so invaluable for the lessons and +languages." + +Mrs. Megilp made up her little varnishes with the genuine gums of +truth and wisdom; she put a beautiful shine even on to her limited +opportunities and her enforced frugalities. + +"Mrs. Ledwith, you _ought_ to let Agatha and Florence go too. I +would take every care of them; and the expense would be so +divided--carriages, and couriers, and everything--that it would be +hardly anything." + +"It is a great opportunity," Mrs. Ledwith said, and sighed. "But it +is different with us from what it is with you. We must still be a +family here, with nearly the same expenses. To be sure Desire has +done with school, and she doesn't care for gay society, and Helena +is a mere child yet; if it ever could"-- + +And so it went on between the ladies, while Mr. Oldways and Mr. +Ledwith and Frank Scherman got into war talk, and Bismarck policy, +and French poss--no, _im_-possibilities. + +"I don't think Uncle Oldways minded much," said Mrs. Ledwith to +Agatha, and Mrs. Megilp, up-stairs, after everybody had gone who was +to go. + +"He never minds anything," said Agatha. + +"I don't know," said Mrs. Megilp, slowly. "He seemed mightily +pleased with what Asenath Scherman said." + +"O, she's pretty, and funny; it makes no difference what she says; +people are always pleased." + +"We might dismiss one girl this winter," said Mrs. Ledwith, "and +board in some cheap country place next summer. I dare say we could +save it in the year's round; the difference, I mean. When you +weren't actually travelling, it wouldn't cost more than to have you +here,--dress and all. + +"They wouldn't need to have a new thing," said Glossy. + +"Those people out at Z---- want to buy the house. I've a great mind +to coax Grant to sell, and take a slice right out, and send them," +said Mrs. Ledwith, eagerly. She was always eager to accomplish the +next new thing for her children; and, to say the truth, did not much +consider herself. And so far as they had ever been able, the +Ledwiths had always been rather easily given to "taking the slice +right out." + +The Megilps had had a little legacy of two or three thousand +dollars, and were quite in earnest in their plans, this time, which +had been talk with them for many years. + +"Those poor Fayerwerses!" said Asenath to her husband, walking home. +"Going out now, after the cheap European living of a dozen years +ago! The ghost always goes over on the last load. I wonder at Mrs. +Megilp. She generally knows better." + +"She'll do," said Frank Scherman. "If the Fayerwerses stick +anywhere, as they probably will, she'll hitch on to the Fargo's, and +turn up at Jerusalem. And then there are to be the Ledwiths, and +their 'little slice.'" + +"O, dear! what a mess people do make of living!" said Asenath. + +Uncle Titus trudged along down Dorset Street with his stick under +his arm. + +"Try 'em! Find 'em out!" he repeated to himself. "That's what +Marmaduke said. Try 'em with this,--try 'em with that; a good deal, +or a little; having and losing, and wanting. That's what the Lord +does with us all; and I begin to see He has a job of it!" + +The house was sold, and Agatha and Florence went. + +It made home dull for poor Desire, little as she found of real +companionship with her elder sisters. But then she was always +looking for it, and that was something. Husbands and wives, parents +and children, live on upon that, through years of repeated +disappointments, and never give up the expectation of that which is +somewhere, and which these relations represent to them, through all +their frustrated lives. + +That is just why. It _is_ somewhere. + +It turned out a hard winter, in many ways, for Desire Ledwith. She +hated gay company, and the quiet little circle that she had become +fond of at her Aunt Ripwinkley's was broken somewhat to them all, +and more to Desire than, among what had grown to be her chronic +discontents, she realized or understood, by the going away for a +time of Kenneth Kincaid. + +What was curious in the happening, too, he had gone up to "And" to +build a church. That had come about through the Marchbankses' +knowledge of him, and this, you remember, through their being with +the Geoffreys when the Kincaids were first introduced in Summit +Street. + +The Marchbankses and the Geoffreys were cousins. A good many Boston +families are. + +Mr. Roger Marchbanks owned a good deal of property in And. The +neighborhood wanted a church; and he interested himself actively and +liberally in behalf of it, and gave the land,--three lots right out +of the middle of Marchbanks Street, that ran down to the river. + +Dorris kept her little room, and was neighborly as heretofore; but +she was busy with her music, and had little time but her evenings; +and now there was nobody to walk home with Desire to Shubarton +Place, if she stayed in Aspen Street to tea. She came sometimes, and +stayed all night; but that was dreary for Helena, who never +remembered to shut the piano or cover up the canary, or give the +plants in the bay window their evening sprinkle, after the furnace +heat had been drying them all day. + +Kenneth Kincaid came down for his Sundays with Dorris, and his work +at the Mission; a few times he called in at Uncle Oldways' after +tea, when the family was all together; but they saw him very seldom; +he gave those Sunday evenings mostly to needed rest, and to quiet +talk with Dorris. + +Desire might have gone to the Mission this winter, easily enough, +after all. Agatha and Florence and Glossy Megilp were not by to make +wondering eyes, or smile significant smiles; but there was something +in herself that prevented; she knew that it would be more than half +to _get_, and she still thought she had so little to give! Besides, +Kenneth Kincaid had never asked her again, and she could not go to +him and say she would come. + +Desire Ledwith began to have serious question of what life was ever +going to be for her. She imagined, as in our early years and our +first gray days we are all apt to imagine, that she had found out a +good deal that it was _not_ going to be. + +She was not going to be beautiful, or accomplished, or even, she was +afraid, agreeable; she found that such hard work with most people. +She was not ever--and that conclusion rested closely upon these +foregoing--to be married, and have a nice husband and a pretty +house, and go down stairs and make snow-puddings and ginger-snaps of +a morning, and have girls staying with her, and pleasant people in +to tea; like Asenath Scherman. She couldn't write a book,--that, +perhaps, was one of her premature decisions, since nobody knows till +they try, and the books are lying all round, in leaves, waiting only +to be picked up and put together,--or paint a picture; she couldn't +bear parties, and clothes were a fuss, and she didn't care to go to +Europe. + +She thought she should rather like to be an old maid, if she could +begin right off, and have a little cottage out of town somewhere, or +some cosy rooms in the city. At least, she supposed that was what +she had got to be, and if that were settled, she did not see why it +might not be begun young, as well as married life. She could not +endure waiting, when a thing was to be done. + +"Aunt Frances," she said one day, "I wish I had a place of my own. +What is the reason I can't? A girl can go in for Art, and set up a +studio; or she can go to Rome, and sculp, and study; she can learn +elocution, and read, whether people want to be read to or not; and +all that is Progress and Woman's Rights; why can't she set up a +_home_?" + +"Because, I suppose, a house is not a home; and the beginning of a +home is just what she waits for. Meanwhile, if she has a father and +a mother, she would not put a slight on _their_ home, or fail of her +share of the duty in it." + +"But nobody would think I failed in my duty if I were going to be +married. I'm sure mamma would think I was doing it beautifully. And +I never shall be married. Why can't I live something out for myself, +and have a place of my own? I have got money enough to pay my rent, +and I could do sewing in a genteel way, or keep a school for little +children. I'd rather--take in back stairs to wash," she exclaimed +vehemently, "than wait round for things, and be nothing! And I +should like to begin young, while there might be some sort of fun in +it. You'd like to come and take tea with me, wouldn't you, Aunt +Frank?" + +"If it were all right that you should have separate teas of your +own." + +"And if I had waffles. Well, I should. I think, just now, there's +nothing I should like so much as a little kitchen of my own, and a +pie-board, and a biscuit-cutter, and a beautiful baking oven, and a +Japan tea-pot." + +"The pretty part. But brooms, and pails, and wash-tubs, and the back +stairs?" + +"I specified back stairs in the first place, of my own accord. I +wouldn't shirk. Sometimes I think that real good old-fashioned hard +work is what I do want. I should like to find the right, honest +thing, and do it, Aunt Frank." + +She said it earnestly, and there were tears in her eyes. + +"I believe you would," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "But perhaps the right, +honest thing, just now, is to wait patiently, with all your might." + +"Now, that's good," said Desire, "and cute of you, too, that last +piece of a sentence. If you had stopped at '_patiently_,' as people +generally do! That's what exasperates; when you want to do something +with all your might. It almost seems as if I could, when you put it +so." + +"It is a 'stump,' Luclarion would say." + +"Luclarion is a saint and a philosopher. I feel better," said +Desire. + +She stayed feeling better all that afternoon; she helped Sulie +Praile cut out little panels from her thick sheet of gray +painting-board, and contrived her a small easel with her round +lightstand and a book-rest; for Sulie was advancing in the fine +arts, from painting dollies' paper faces in cheap water colors, to +copying bits of flowers and fern and moss, with oils, on gray board; +and she was doing it very well, and with exquisite delight. + +To wait, meant something to wait for; something coming by and by; +that was what comforted Desire to-day, as she walked home alone in +the sharp, short, winter twilight; that, and the being patient with +all one's might. To be patient, is to be also strong; this she saw, +newly; and Desire coveted, most of all, to be strong. + +Something to wait for. "He does not cheat," said Desire, low down in +her heart, to herself. For the child had faith, though she could not +talk about it. + +Something; but very likely not the thing you have seen, or dreamed +of; something quite different, it may be, when it comes; and it may +come by the way of losing, first, all that you have been able yet, +with a vague, whispering hope, to imagine. + +The things we do not know! The things that are happening,--the +things that are coming; rising up in the eastward of our lives below +the horizon that we can yet see; it may be a star, it may be a +cloud! + +Desire Ledwith could not see that out at Westover, this cheery +winter night, it was one of dear Miss Pennington's "Next Thursdays;" +she could not see that the young architect, living away over there +in the hundred-year-old house on the side of East Hill, a boarder +with old Miss Arabel Waite, had been found, and appreciated, and +drawn into their circle by the Haddens and the Penningtons and the +Holabirds and the Inglesides; and that Rosamond was showing him the +pleasant things in their Westover life,--her "swan's nest among the +reeds," that she had told him of,--that early autumn evening, when +they had walked up Hanley Street together. + + + + +XVI. + +SWARMING. + + +Spring came on early, with heavy rains and freshets in many parts of +the country. + +It was a busy time at Z----. + +Two things had happened there that were to give Kenneth Kincaid more +work, and would keep him where he was all summer. + +Just before he went to Z----, there had been a great fire at West +Hill. All Mr. Roger Marchbanks's beautiful place was desolate. +House, conservatories, stables, lovely little vine-covered rustic +buildings, exquisitely tended shrubbery,--all swept over in one +night by the red flames, and left lying in blackness and ashes. + +For the winter, Mr. Marchbanks had taken his family to Boston; now +he was planning eagerly to rebuild. Kenneth had made sketches; Mr. +Marchbanks liked his ideas; they had talked together from time to +time. Now, the work was actually in hand, and Kenneth was busy with +drawings and specifications. + +Down at the river, during the spring floods, a piece of the bridge +had been carried away, and the dam was broken through. There were +new mill buildings, too, going up, and a block of factory houses. +All this business, through Mr. Marchbanks directly or indirectly, +fell also into Kenneth's hands. + +He wrote blithe letters to Dorris; and Dorris, running in and out +from her little spring cleanings that Hazel was helping her with, +told all the letters over to the Ripwinkleys. + +"He says I must come up there in my summer vacation and board with +his dear old Miss Waite. Think of Kentie's being able to give me +such a treat as that! A lane, with ferns and birches, and the +woods,--_pine_ woods!--and a hill where raspberries grow, and the +river!" + +Mrs. Ledwith was thinking of her summer plans at this time, also. +She remembered the large four-windowed room looking out over the +meadow, that Mrs. Megilp and Glossy had at Mrs. Prendible's, for +twelve dollars a week, in And. She could do no better than that, at +country boarding, anywhere; and Mr. Ledwith could sleep at the house +in Shubarton Place, getting his meals down town during the week, and +come up and spend his Sundays with them. A bedroom, in addition, for +six dollars more, would be all they would want. + +The Ripwinkleys were going up to Homesworth by and by for a little +while, and would take Sulie Praile with them. Sulie was ecstatically +happy. She had never been out of the city in all her life. She felt, +she said, "as if she was going to heaven without dying." Vash was to +be left at Mrs. Scarup's with her sister. + +Miss Craydocke would be away at the mountains; all the little life +that had gathered together in the Aspen Street neighborhood, seemed +about to be broken up. + +Uncle Titus Oldways never went out of town, unless on business. +Rachel Froke stayed, and kept his house; she sat in the gray room, +and thought over the summers she had had. + +"Thee never loses anything out of thy life that has been in," she +said. "Summer times are like grains of musk; they keep their smell +always, and flavor the shut-up places they are put away in." + +For you and me, reader, we are to go to Z---- again. I hope you like +it. + +But before that, I must tell you what Luclarion Grapp has done. + +Partly from the principle of her life, and partly from the spirit of +things which she would have caught at any rate, from the Ripwinkley +home and the Craydocke "Beehive,"--for there is nothing truer than +that the kingdom of heaven is like leaven,--I suppose she had been +secretly thinking for a good while, that she was having too easy a +time here, in her first floor kitchen and her garden bedroom; that +this was not the life meant for her to live right on, without +scruple or question; and so began in her own mind to expect some +sort of "stump;" and even to look about for it. + +"It isn't as it was when Mrs. Ripwinkley was a widow, and +poor,--that is, comparative; and it took all her and my contrivance +to look after the place and keep things going, and paying, up in +Homesworth; there was something to buckle to, then; but now, +everything is eased and flatted out, as it were; it makes me +res'less, like a child put to bed in the daytime." + +Luclarion went down to the North End with Miss Craydocke, on errands +of mercy; she went in to the new Mission, and saw the heavenly +beauty of its intent, and kindled up in her soul at it; and she came +home, time after time, and had thoughts of her own about these +things, and the work in the world there was to do. + +She had cleaned up and set things going at Mrs. Scarup's; she +learned something in doing that, beyond what she knew when she set +about it; her thoughts began to shape themselves to a theory; and +the theory took to itself a text and a confirmation and a command. + +"Go down and be a neighbor to them that have fallen among thieves." + +Luclarion came to a resolution in this time of May, when everybody +was making plans and the spring-cleaning was all done. + +She came to Mrs. Ripwinkley one morning, when she was folding away +winter clothes, and pinning them up in newspapers, with camphor-gum; +and she said to her, without a bit of preface,--Luclarion hated +prefaces,-- + +"Mrs. Ripwinkley, I'm going to swarm!" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley looked up in utter surprise; what else could she do? + +"Of course 'm, when you set up a Beehive, you must have expected it; +it's the natural way of things; they ain't good for much unless they +do. I've thought it all over; I'll stay and see you all off, first, +if you want me to, and then--I'll swarm." + +"Well," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, assenting in full faith, beforehand; +for Mrs. Ripwinkley, if I need now to tell you of it, was not an +ordinary woman, and did not take things in an ordinary selfish way, +but grasped right hold of the inward right and truth of them, and +believed in it; sometimes before she could quite see it; and she +never had any doubt of Luclarion Grapp. "Well! And now tell me all +about it." + +"You see," said Luclarion, sitting down in a chair by the window, as +Mrs. Ripwinkley suspended her occupation and took one by the +bedside, "there's places in this town that folks leave and give up. +As the Lord might have left and give up the world, because there was +dirt and wickedness in it; only He didn't. There's places where it +ain't genteel, nor yet respectable, to live; and so those places +grow more disrespectable and miserable every day. They're left to +themselves. What I think is, they hadn't ought to be. There's one +clean spot down there now, in the very middle of the worst dirt. +And it ain't bad to live in. _That's_ started. Now, what I think is, +that somebody ought to start another, even if its only a little one. +Somebody ought to just go there and _live_, and show 'em how, just +as I took and showed Mrs. Scarup, and she's been living ever since, +instead of scratching along. If some of them folks had a clean, +decent neighbor to go to see,--to drink tea with, say,--and was to +catch an idea of her fixings and doings, why, I believe there'd be +more of 'em,--cleaned up, you know. They'd get some kind of an +ambition and a hope. Tain't enough for ladies--though I bless 'em in +my soul for what I've seen 'em do--to come down there of a Fridays, +and teach and talk awhile, and then go home to Summit Street and +Republic Avenue, and take up _their_ life again where they left it +off, that is just as different as heaven is from 'tother place; +somebody's got to come right down _out_ of heaven, and bring the +life in, and live it amongst them miserable folks, as the Lord Jesus +Christ came and did! And it's borne in upon me, strong and clear, +that that's what's got to be before all's righted. And so--for a +little piece of it, and a little individual stump--I'm going to +swarm, and settle, and see what'll come." + +Mrs. Ripwinkley was looking very intently at Luclarion. Her breath +went and came hurriedly, and her face turned pale with the grand +surprise of such a thought, such a plan and purpose, so simply and +suddenly declared. Her eyes were large and moist with feeling. + +"Do you _know_, Luclarion," she exclaimed at last, "do you realize +what this is that you are thinking of; what a step it would be to +take,--what a work it would be to even hope to begin to do? Do you +know how strange it is,--how almost impracticable,--that it is not +even safe?" + +"'Twasn't _safe_ for Him--when He came into the world," Luclarion +answered. + +"Not to say I think there's any comparison," she began again, +presently, "or that I believe there's anything to be really scared +of,--except dirt; and you _can_ clean a place round you, as them +Mission people have done. Why, there ain't a house in Boston nicer, +or sweeter, or airier even, than that one down in Arctic Street, +with beautiful parlors and bedrooms, and great clean galleries +leading round, and skylighted,--_sky_ lighted! for you see the blue +heaven is above all, and you _can_ let the skylight in, without any +corruption coming in with it; and if twenty people can do that much, +or a hundred,--one can do something. 'Taint much, either, to +undertake; only to be willing to go there, and make a clean place +for yourself, and a home; and live there, instead of somewheres else +that's ready made; and let it spread. And you know I've always +looked forrud to some kind of a house-keep of my own, finally." + +"But, Luclarion, I don't understand! All alone? And you couldn't use +a whole house, you know. Your neighbors would be _inmates_. Why, it +seems to me perfectly crazy!" + +"Now, ma'am, did you ever know me to go off on a tangent, without +some sort of a string to hold on to? I ain't goin' to swarm all +alone! I never heard of such a thing. Though if I couldn't _swarm_, +and the thing was to be done, I say I'd try it. But Savira Golding +is going to be married to Sam Gallilee, next month; and he's a +stevedore, and his work is down round the wharves; he's class-leader +in our church, and a first-rate, right-minded man, or else Savira +wouldn't have him; for if Savira ain't a clear Christian, and a +doing woman, there ain't one this side of Paradise. Now, you see, +Sam Gallilee makes money; he runs a gang of three hundred men. He +can afford a good house, and a whole one, if he wants; but he's +going in for a big one, and neighbors. They mean to live nice,--he +and Savira; and she has pretty, tasty ways; there'll be white +curtains, and plants blooming in her windows, you may make sure; +she's always had 'em in that little up-stairs dress-making room of +hers; and boxes of mignonette and petunias on the ledges; and birds +singing in a great summer cage swung out against the wall. She's one +of the kind that reaches out, and can't be kept in; and she knows +her gifts, and is willing to go and let her light shine where it +will help others, and so glorify; and Sam, he's willing too, and +sees the beauty of it. And so,--well, that's the swarm." + +"And the 'little round Godamighty in the middle of it,'" said Mrs. +Ripwinkley, her face all bright and her eyes full of tears. + +"_Ma'am_!" + +Then Mrs. Ripwinkley told her Miss Craydocke's story. + +"Well," said Luclarion, "there's something dear and +right-to-the-spot about it; but it does sound singular; and it +certainly ain't a thing to say careless." + + * * * * * + +Desire Ledwith grew bright and excited as the summer came on, and +the time drew near for going to Z----. She could not help being +glad; she did not stop to ask why; summer-time was reason enough, +and after the weariness of the winter, the thought of Z---- and the +woods and the river, and sweet evenings and mornings, and gardens +and orchards, and road-side grass, was lovely to her. + +"It is so pleasant up there!" she would keep saying to Dorris; and +somehow she said it to Dorris oftener than to anybody else. + +There was something fitful and impetuous in her little outbursts of +satisfaction; they noticed it in her; the elder ones among them +noticed it with a touch of anxiety for her. + +Miss Craydocke, especially, read the signs, matching them with +something that she remembered far back in the life that had closed +so peacefully, with white hairs and years of a serene content and +patience, over all unrest and disappointment, for herself. She was +sorry for this young girl, for whom she thought she saw an +unfulfilled dream of living that should go by her like some bright +cloud, just near enough to turn into a baptism of tears. + +She asked Desire, one day, if she would not like to go with her, +this summer, to the mountains. + +Desire put by the suggestion hastily. + +"O, no, thank you, Miss Craydocke, I must stay with mamma and +Helena. And besides," she added, with the strict, full truth she +always demanded of herself, "I _want_ to go to Z----." + +"Yes," said Miss Craydocke. + +There was something tender, like a shade of pity, in her tone. + +"But you would enjoy the mountains. They are full of strength and +rest. One hardly understands the good the hills do one. David did, +looking out into them from Jerusalem. 'I will look to the hills, +from whence cometh my strength.'" + +"Some time," said Desire. "Some time I shall need the hills, and--be +ready for them. But this summer--I want a good, gay, young time. I +don't know why, except that I shall be just eighteen this year, and +it seems as if, after that, I was going to be old. And I want to be +with people I know. I _can_ be gay in the country; there is +something to be gay about. But I can't dress and dance in the city. +That is all gas-light and get-up." + +"I suppose," said Miss Craydocke, slowly, "that our faces are all +set in the way we are to go. Even if it is--" She stopped. She was +thinking of one whose face had been set to go to Jerusalem. Her own +words had led her to something she had not foreseen when she began. + +Nothing of such suggestion came to Desire. She was in one of her +rare moods of good cheer. + +"I suppose so," she said, heedlessly. And then, taking up a thought +of her own suddenly,--"Miss Craydocke! Don't you think people almost +always live out their names? There's Sin Scherman; there'll always +be a little bit of mischief and original naughtiness in her,--with +the harm taken out of it; and there's Rosamond Holabird,--they +couldn't have called her anything better, if they'd waited for her +to grow up; and Barb _was_ sharp; and our little Hazel is witchy and +sweet and wild-woodsy; and Luclarion,--isn't that shiny and +trumpety, and doesn't she do it? And then--there's me. I shall +always be stiff and hard and unsatisfied, except in little bits of +summer times that won't come often. They might as well have +christened me Anxiety. I wonder why they didn't." + +"That would have been very different. There is a nobleness in +Desire. You will overlive the restless part," said Miss Craydocke. + +"Was there ever anything restless in your life, Miss Craydocke? And +how long did it take to overlive it? It doesn't seem as if you had +ever stubbed your foot against anything; and I'm _always_ stubbing." + +"My dear, I have stubbed along through fifty-six years; and the +years had all three hundred and sixty-five days in them. There were +chances,--don't you think so?" + +"It looks easy to be old after it is done," said Desire. "Easy and +comfortable. But to be eighteen, and to think of having to go on to +be fifty-six; I beg your pardon,--but I wish it was over!" + +And she drew a deep breath, heavy with the days that were to be. + +"You are not to take it all at once, you know," said Miss Craydocke. + +"But I do, every now and then. I can't help it. I am sure it is the +name. If they had called me 'Hapsie,' like you, I should have gone +along jolly, as you do, and not minded. You see you have to _hear_ +it all the time; and it tunes you up to its own key. You can't feel +like a Dolly, or a Daisy, when everybody says--De-sire!" + +"I don't know how I came to be called 'Hapsie,'" said Miss +Craydocke. "Somebody who liked me took it up, and it seemed to get +fitted on. But that wasn't when I was young." + +"What was it, then?" asked Desire, with a movement of interest. + +"Keren-happuch," said Miss Craydocke, meekly. "My father named me, +and he always called me so,--the whole of it. He was a severe, +Old-Testament man, and _his_ name was Job." + +Desire was more than half right, after all. There was a good deal of +Miss Craydocke's story hinted in those few words and those two +ancient names. + +"But I turned into 'Miss Craydocke' pretty soon, and settled down. I +suppose it was very natural that I should," said the sweet old maid, +serenely. + + + + +XVII. + +QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS. + + +The evening train came in through the little bend in the edge of the +woods, and across the bridge over the pretty rapids, and slid to its +stopping-place under the high arches of the other bridge that +connected the main street of Z---- with its continuation through +"And." + +There were lights twinkling in the shops, where they were making +change, and weighing out tea and sugar, and measuring calico, +although outside it was not yet quite dark. + +The train was half an hour late; there had been a stoppage at some +draw or crossing near the city. + +Mr. Prendible was there, to see if his lodgers were come, and to get +his evening paper; the platform was full of people. Old Z---- +acquaintances, many of them, whom Desire and her mother were +pleased, and Helena excited to see. + +"There's Kenneth Kincaid!" she exclaimed, quite loudly, pulling +Desire's sleeve. + +"Hush!" said Desire, twitching away. "How can you, Helena?" + +"He's coming,--he heard me!" cried Helena, utterly impenitent. + +"I should think he might!" And Desire walked off a little, to look +among the trunks that were being tumbled from the baggage car. + +She had seen him all the time; he had been speaking to Ruth +Holabird, and helping her up the steps with her parcels. Mr. +Holabird was there with the little Westover carryall that they kept +now; and Kenneth put her in, and then turned round in time to hear +Helena's exclamation and to come down again. + +"Can I help you? I'm very glad you are come," he said, cordially. + +Well; he might have said it to anybody. Again, well; it was enough +to say to anybody. Why should Desire feel cross? + +He took Helena's bag; she had a budget beside; Mr. Prendible +relieved Mrs. Ledwith; Desire held on valiantly to her own things. +Kenneth walked over the bridge with them, and down the street to Mr. +Prendible's door; there he bade them good-by and left them. + +It was nice to be in Z----; it was very sweet here under the +blossoming elms and locusts; it was nice to see Kenneth Kincaid +again, and to think that Dorris was coming by and by, and that the +lanes were green and full of ferns and vines, and that there was to +be a whole long summer; but there were so many people down there on +the platform,--there was such a muss always; Ruth Holabird was a +dear little thing, but there were always so many Ruths about! and +there was only one cross, stiff, odd, uncomfortable Desire! + +But the very next night Kenneth came down and stayed an hour; there +was a new moon glistening through the delicate elm-tips, and they +sat out on the piazza and breathed in such an air as they had not +had in their nostrils for months and months. + +The faint, tender light from the golden west in which the new moon +lay, showed the roof and tower of the little church, Kenneth's first +beautiful work; and Kenneth told them how pleasant it was up at Miss +Arabel's, and of the tame squirrels that he fed at his window, and +of the shady pasture-path that led away over the brook from the +very door, and up among pines and into little still nooks where dry +mossy turf and warm gray rocks were sheltered in by scraggy cedars +and lisping birches, so that they were like field-parlors opening in +and out from each other with all sorts of little winding and +climbing passages, between clumps of bayberry bushes and tall ferns; +and that the girls from Z---- and Westover made morning picnics +there, since Lucilla Waters had grown intimate with Delia Waite and +found it out; and that Delia Waite and even Miss Arabel carried +their dressmaking down there sometimes in a big white basket, and +stayed all day under the trees. They had never used to do this; they +had stayed in the old back sitting room with all the litter round, +and never thought of it till those girls had come and showed them +how. + +"I think there is the best and sweetest neighborliness and most +beautiful living here in Z----, that I ever knew in any place," said +Kenneth Kincaid; "except that little piece of the same thing in +Aspen Street." + +Kenneth had found out how Rosamond Holabird recognized Aspen Street +as a piece of her world. + +Desire hated, as he spoke, her spitefulness last night; what she had +said to herself of "so many Ruths;" why could not she not be pleased +to come into this beautiful living and make a little part of it? + +She was pleased; she would be; she found it very easy when Kenneth +said to her in that frank intimate way,--"I wish you and your mother +would come over and see what Dorris will want, and help me a little +about that room of hers. I told Miss Waite not to bother; just to +let the old things stand,--I knew Dorris would like them,--and +anything else I would get for her myself. I mean Dolly shall take a +long vacation this year; from June right through to September; and +its 'no end of jolly,' as those English fellows say, that you have +come too!" + +Kenneth Kincaid was fresher and pleasanter and younger himself, than +Desire had ever seen him before; he seemed to have forgotten that +hard way of looking at the world; he had found something so +undeniably good in it. I am afraid Desire had rather liked him for +his carping, which was what he least of all deserved to be liked +for. It showed how high and pure his demands were; but his praise +and admissions were better; it is always better to discern good than +to fret at the evil. + +"I shall see you every day," he said, when he shook hands at +parting; "and Helena, if you want a squirrel to keep in your pocket +next winter, I'll begin training one for you at once." + +He had taken them right to himself, as if they belonged to him; he +spoke as if he were very glad that he should see them every day. + +Desire whistled over her unpacking; she could not sing, but she +could whistle like a blackbird. When her father came up on Saturday +night, he said that her eyes were brighter and her cheeks were +rounder, for the country air; she would take to growing pretty +instead of strong-minded, if she didn't look out. + +Kenneth came round on Monday, after tea, to ask them to go over to +Miss Waite's and make acquaintance. + +"For you see," he said, "you will have to be very intimate there, +and it is time to begin. It will take one call to be introduced, and +another, at least, to get up-stairs and see that beautiful breezy +old room that can't be lived in in winter, but is to be a delicious +sort of camping-out for Dolly, all summer. It is all windows and +squirrel-holes and doors that won't shut. Everything comes in but +the rain; but the roof is tight on that corner. Even the woodbine +has got tossed in through a broken upper pane, and I wouldn't have +it mended on any account. There are swallows' nests in the chimneys, +and wrens under the gable, and humming-birds in the honeysuckle. +When Dolly gets there, it will be perfect. It just wants her to take +it all right into her heart and make one piece of it. _They_ don't +know,--the birds and the squirrels,--it takes the human. There has +to be an Adam in every garden of Eden." + +Kenneth really chattered, from pure content and delight. + +It did not take two visits to get up-stairs. Miss Arabel met them +heartily. She had been a shy, timid old lady, from long neglect and +humble living; but lately she had "come out in society," Delia said. +Society had come after her, and convinced her that she could make +good times for it. + +She brought out currant wine and gave them, the first thing; and +when Kenneth told her that they were his and Dorris's friends, and +were coming next week to see about getting ready for her, she took +them right round through all four of the ground rooms, to the queer +corner staircase, and up into the "long west chamber," to show them +what a rackety old place it was, and to see whether they supposed it +could be made fit. + +"Why it's like the Romance of the Forest!" said Helena, delighted. +"I wish _we_ had come here. Don't you have ghosts, or robbers, or +something, up and down those stairs, Miss Waite?" For she had spied +a door that led directly out of the room, from beside the chimney, +up into the rambling old garret, smelling of pine boards and +penny-royal. + +"No; nothing but squirrels and bees, and sometimes a bat," answered +Miss Arabel. + +"Well, it doesn't want fixing. If you fix it, you will spoil it. I +shall come here and sleep with Dorris,--see if I don't." + +The floor was bare, painted a dark, marbled gray. In the middle was +a great braided rug, of blue and scarlet and black. The walls were +pale gray, with a queer, stencilled scroll-and-dash border of +vermilion and black paint. + +There was an old, high bedstead, with carved frame and posts, bare +of drapery; an antiquated chest of drawers; and a half-circular +table with tall, plain, narrow legs, between two of the windows. +There was a corner cupboard, and a cupboard over the chimney. The +doors of these, and the high wainscot around the room, were stained +in old-fashioned "imitation mahogany," very streaky and red. The +wainscot was so heavily finished that the edge running around the +room might answer for a shelf. + +"Just curtains, and toilet covers, and a little low rocking chair," +said Mrs. Ledwith. "That is all you want." + +"But the windows are so high," suggested Desire. "A low chair would +bury her up, away from all the pleasantness. I'll tell you what I +would have, Mr. Kincaid. A kind of dais, right across that corner, +to take in two windows; with a carpet on it, and a chair, and a +little table." + +"Just the thing!" said Kenneth. "That is what I wanted you for, Miss +Desire," he said in a pleased, gentle way, lowering his tone to her +especial hearing, as he stood beside her in the window. + +And Desire was very happy to have thought of it. + +Helena was spurred by emulation to suggest something. + +"I'd have a--hammock--somewhere," she said. + +"Good," said Kenneth. "That shall be out under the great butternut." + +The great butternut walled in one of the windows with a wilderness +of green, and the squirrels ran chattering up and down the brown +branches, and peeping in all day. In the autumn, when the nuts were +ripe, they would be scrambling over the roof, and in under the +eaves, to hide their stores in the garret, Miss Arabel told them. + +"Why doesn't everbody have an old house, and let the squirrels in?" +cried Helena, in a rapture. + +In ten days more,--the first week of June,--Dorris came. + +Well,--"That let in all the rest," Helena said, and Desire, may be, +thought. "We shan't have it to ourselves any more." + +The girls could all come down and call on Dorris Kincaid, and they +did. + +But Desire and Helena had the first of it; nobody else went right up +into her room; nobody else helped her unpack and settle. And she was +so delighted with all that they had done for her. + +The dais was large enough for two or three to sit upon at once, and +it was covered with green carpet of a small, mossy pattern, and the +window was open into the butternut on one side, and into the +honeysuckle on the other, and it was really a bower. + +"I shall live ten hours in one," said Dorris. + +"And you'll let me come and sleep with you some night, and hear the +bats," said Helena. + +The Ledwiths made a good link; they had known the Kincaids so well; +if it had been only Dorris, alone, with her brother there, the +Westover girls might have been shy of coming often. Since Kenneth +had been at Miss Waite's, they had already grown a little less free +of the beautiful woods that they had just found out and begun fairly +to enjoy last autumn. + +But the Ledwiths made a strong party; and they lived close by; +there were plans continually. + +Since Leslie Goldthwaite and Barbara Holabird were married and gone, +and the Roger Marchbankses were burned out, and had been living in +the city and travelling, the Hobarts and the Haddens and Ruth and +Rosamond and Pen Pennington had kept less to their immediate +Westover neighborhood than ever; and had come down to Lucilla's, and +to Maddy Freeman's, and the Inglesides, as often as they had induced +them to go up to the Hill. + +Maud Marchbanks and the Hendees were civil and neighborly enough at +home, but they did not care to "ramify." So it came to pass that +they were left a good deal to themselves. Olivia and Adelaide, when +they came up to Westover, to their uncle's, wondered "that papa +cared to build again; there really wasn't anything to come for; West +Hill was entirely changed." + +So it was; and a very good thing. + +I came across the other day, reading over Mr. Kingsley's "Two Years +Ago," a true word as to social needs in England, that reminded me of +this that the Holabirds and the Penningtons and the Inglesides have +been doing, half unconsciously, led on from "next" to next, in +Z----. + +Mr. Kingsley, after describing a Miss Heale, and others of her +class,--the middle class, with no high social opportunities, and +with time upon their hands, wasted often in false dreams of life and +unsatisfied expectations, "bewildering heart and brain with novels," +for want of a nobler companionship, says this: "Till in country +villages, the ladies who interest themselves about the poor will +recollect that the farmers' and tradesmens' daughters are just as +much in want of their influence as the charity children and will +yield a far richer return for their labor, so long will England be +full of Miss Heales." + +If a kindly influence and fellowship are the duty of the +aristocratic girls of England toward their "next," below, how far +more false are American girls to the spirit of their country, and +the blessed opportunities of republican sympathies and equalities, +when they try to draw invisible lines between themselves and those +whose outer station differs by but so little, and whose hearts and +minds, under the like culture with their own, crave, just as they +do, the best that human intercourse can give. Social science has +something to do, before--or at least simultaneously with--reaching +down to the depths where all the wrongs and blunders and +mismanagements of life have precipitated their foul residuum. A +master of one of our public schools, speaking of the undue culture +of the brain and imagination, in proportion to the opportunities +offered socially for living out ideas thus crudely gathered, said +that his brightest girls were the ones who in after years, impatient +of the little life gave them to satisfy the capacities and demands +aroused and developed during the brief period of school life, and +fed afterwards by their own ill-judged and ill-regulated reading, +were found fallen into lives of vice. Have our women, old or young, +who make and circumscribe the opportunities of social intercourse +and enjoyment, nothing to search out here, and help, as well, or as +soon as, to get their names put on committee lists, and manage these +public schools themselves, which educate and stimulate up to the +point of possible fierce temptation, and then have nothing more that +they can do? + +It was a good thing for Desire Ledwith to grow intimate, as she did, +with Rosamond Holabird. There were identical points of character +between the two. They were both so real. + +"You don't want to _play_ anything," Barbara Holabird had said to +Rosamond once, in some little discussion of social appearances and +pretensions. "And that's the beauty of you!" + +It was the beauty of Desire Ledwith also; only, with Rosamond, her +ambitions had clothed themselves with a grace and delicateness that +would have their own perfect and thorough as far as it went; and +with Desire, the same demands of true living had chafed into an +impatience with shams and a blunt disregard of and resistance to all +conventionalisms. + +"You are a good deal alike, you two," Kenneth Kincaid said to them +one day, in a talk they all three happened to have together. + +And he had told Rosamond afterward that there was "something grand +in Desire Ledwith; only grand things almost always have to grow with +struggles." + +Rosamond had told this again to Desire. + +It was not much wonder that she began to be happier; to have a +hidden comfort of feeling that perhaps the "waiting with all her +might" was nearly over, and the "by and by" was blossoming for her, +though the green leaves of her own shy sternness with herself folded +close down about the sweetening place, and she never parted them +aside to see where the fragrance came from. + + * * * * * + +They were going to have a grand, large, beautiful supper party in +the woods. + +Mrs. Holabird and Mrs. Hobart were the matrons, and gave out the +invitations. + +"I don't think I could possibly spend a Tuesday afternoon with a +little 't,'" said Mrs. Lewis Marchbanks laughing, and tossing down +poor, dear, good Mrs. Hobart's note upon her table. "It is _rather_ +more than is to be expected!" + +"Doctor and Mrs. Hautayne are here, and Dakie Thayne is home from +West Point. It will be rather a nice party." + +"The Holabirds seem to have got everything into their own hands," +said Mrs. Marchbanks, haughtily. "It is always a pity when people +take the lead who are not exactly qualified. Mrs. Holabird _will_ +not discriminate!' + +"I think the Holabirds are splendid," spoke up Lily, "and I don't +think there's any fun in sticking up by ourselves! I can't bear to +be judicious!" + +Poor little Lily Marchbanks had been told a tiresome many times that +she must be "judicious" in her intimacies. + +"You can be _pleasant_ to everybody," said mother and elder sister, +with a salvo of Christian benignity. + +But it is so hard for little children to be pleasant with fence and +limitation. + +"Where must I stop?" Lily had asked in her simplicity. "When they +give me a piece of their luncheon, or when they walk home from +school, or when they say they will come in a little while?" + +But there came a message back from Boston by the eleven o'clock +train on the morning of the Tuesday with a little "t," from Mr. +Marchbanks himself, to say that his brother and Mr. Geoffrey would +come up with him to dinner, and to desire that carriages might be +ready afterward for the drive over to Waite's grove. + +Mrs. Marchbanks marveled, but gave her orders. Arthur came out +early, and brought with him his friend Archie Mucklegrand, and these +two were bound also for the merry-making. + +Now Archie Mucklegrand was the identical youth of the lavender +pantaloons and the waxed moustache, whom Desire, as "Miss Ledwith," +had received in state a year and a half ago. + +So it was an imposing cavalcade, after all, from West Hill, that +honored the very indiscriminate pleasure party, and came riding and +driving in at about six o'clock. There were the barouche and the +coupé; for the ladies and elder gentlemen, and the two young men +accompanied them on horseback. + +Archie Mucklegrand had been at West Hill often before. He and +Arthur had just graduated at Harvard, and the Holabirds had had +cards to their grand spread on Class Day. Archie Mucklegrand had +found out what a pretty girl--and a good deal more than merely +pretty--Rosamond Holabird was; and although he might any day go +over to his big, wild Highland estate, and take upon himself the +glory of "Sir Archibald" there among the hills and moors,--and +though any one of a good many pretty girls in Spreadsplendid Park +and Republic Avenue might be induced, perhaps, if he tried, to go +with him,--all this did not hinder him from perceiving that up +here in Z---- was just the most bewitching companionship he had +ever fallen in with, or might ever be able to choose for himself +for any going or abiding; that Rosamond Holabird was just the +brightest, and sweetest, and most to his mind of any girl that he +had ever seen, and most like "the woman" that a man might dream +of. I do not know that he quite said it all to himself in +precisely that way; I am pretty sure that he did not, as yet; but +whatever is off-hand and young-mannish and modern enough to +express to one's self without "sposhiness" an admiration and a +preference like that, he undoubtedly did say. At any rate after +his Christmas at Z---- with Arthur, and some charade parties they +had then at Westover, and after Class Day, when everybody had been +furious to get an introduction, and all the Spreadsplendid girls +and their mothers had been wondering who that Miss Holabird was +and where she came from, and Madam Mucklegrand herself--not having +the slightest recollection of her as the Miss Holabird of that +early-morning business call, whose name she had just glanced at +and dropped into an Indian china scrap-jar before she went +down-stairs--had asked him the same questions, and pronounced that +she was "an exceedingly graceful little person, certainly,"--after +all this, Archie had made up his--mind, shall I say? at least his +inclination, and his moustache--to pursue the acquaintance, and be +as irresistible as he could. + +But Rosamond had learned--things do so play into our lives in a +benign order--just before that Christmas time and those charades, in +one of which Archie Mucklegrand had sung to her, so expressively, +the "Birks of Aberfeldy,"--that Spreadsplendid Park was not, at +least his corner of it,--a "piece of her world;" and she did not +believe that Aberfeldy would be, either, though Archie's voice was +beautiful, and-- + + "Bonnie lassie, will ye go?" + +sounded very enticing--in a charade. + +So she was quite calm when the Marchbanks party came upon the +ground, and Archie Mucklegrand, with white trousers and a lavender +tie, and the trim, waxed moustache, looking very handsome in spite +of his dapperness, found her out in the first two minutes, and +attached himself to her forthwith in a most undetachable and +determined manner, which was his way of being irresistible. + +They were in the midst of their tea and coffee when the West Hill +party came. Miss Arabel was busy at the coffee-table between the two +oaks, pouring out with all her might, and creaming the fragrant cups +with a rich lavishness that seemed to speak of milky mothers without +number or limit of supply; and Rosamond, as the most natural and +hospitable thing to do, conducted the young gentleman as soon as she +could to that lady, and commended him to her good offices. + +These were not to be resisted; and as soon as he was occupied, +Rosamond turned to attend to others coming up; and the groups +shifting, she found herself presently a little way off, and +meanwhile Mrs. Marchbanks and her son had reached the table and +joined Archie. + +"I say, Arthur! O, Mrs. Marchbanks! You never got such coffee as +this, I do believe! The open air has done something to it, or else +the cream comes from some supernal cows! Miss Holabird!" + +Rosamond turned round. + +"I don't see,--Mrs. Marchbanks ought to have some of this coffee, +but where is your good woman gone?" For Miss Arabel had stepped +round behind the oak-tree for a moment, to see about some +replenishing. + +In her prim, plain dress, utterly innocent of style or _bias_, and +her zealous ministry, good Miss Arabel might easily be taken for +some comfortable, superior old servant; but partly from a sudden +sense of fun,--Mrs. Marchbanks standing there in all her elegant +dignity,--and partly from a jealous chivalry of friendship, Rosamond +would not let it pass so. + +"Good woman? Hush! she is one of our hostesses, the owner of the +ground, and a dear friend of mine. Here she is. Miss Waite, let me +introduce Mr. Archibald Mucklegrand. Mrs. Marchbanks will like some +coffee, please." + +Which Mrs. Marchbanks took with a certain look of amazement, that +showed itself subtilely in a slight straightening of the lips and an +expansion of the nostrils. She did not _sniff_; she was a great deal +too much a lady; she was Mrs. Marchbanks, but if she had been Mrs. +Higgin, and had felt just so, she would have sniffed. + +Somebody came up close to Rosamond on the other side. + +"That was good," said Kenneth Kincaid. "Thank you for that, Miss +Rosamond." + +"Will you have some more?" asked Rosamond, cunningly, pretending to +misunderstand, and reaching her hand to take his empty cup. + +"One mustn't ask for all one would like," said Kenneth, +relinquishing the cup, and looking straight in her eyes. + +Rosamond's eyes fell; she had no rejoinder ready; it was very well +that she had the cup to take care of, and could turn away, for she +felt a very foolish color coming up in her face. + +She made herself very busy among the guests. Archie Mucklegrand +stayed by, and spoke to her every time he found a chance. At last, +when people had nearly done eating and drinking, he asked her if she +would not show him the path down to the river. + +"It must be beautiful down there under the slope," he said. + +She called Dorris and Desire, then, and Oswald Megilp, who was with +them. He was spending a little time here at the Prendibles, with his +boat on the river, as he had used to do. When he could take an +absolute vacation, he was going away with a pedestrian party, among +the mountains. There was not much in poor Oswald Megilp, but Desire +and Rosamond were kind to him now that his mother was away. + +As they all walked down the bank among the close evergreens, they +met Mr. Geoffrey and Mr. Marchbanks, with Kenneth Kincaid, coming +up. Kenneth came last, and the two parties passed each other single +file, in the narrow pathway. + +Kenneth paused as he came close to Rosamond, holding back a bough +for her. + +"I have something very nice to tell you," he whispered, "by and by. +But it is a secret, as yet. Please don't stay down there very long." + +Nobody heard the whisper but Rosamond; if they could have done so, +he would not have whispered. Archie Mucklegrand was walking rather +sulkily along before; he had not cared for a party to be made up +when he asked Rosamond to go down to the river with him. Desire and +Dorris had found some strange blossom among the underbrush, and were +stopping for it; and Oswald Megilp was behind them. For a few +seconds, Kenneth had Rosamond quite to himself. + +The slight delay had increased the separation between her and Archie +Mucklegrand, for he had kept steadily on in his little huff. + +"I do not think we shall be long," said Rosamond, glancing after +him, and looking up, with her eyes bright. She was half merry with +mischief, and half glad with a quieter, deeper pleasure, at +Kenneth's words. + +He would tell her something in confidence; something that he was +glad of; he wanted her to know it while it was yet a secret; she had +not the least guess what it could be; but it was very "nice" +already. Rosamond always did rather like to be told things first; to +have her friends confide in and consult with her, and rely upon her +sympathy; she did not stop to separate the old feeling which she was +quite aware of in herself, from something new that made it +especially beautiful that Kenneth Kincaid should so confide and +rely. + +Rosamond was likely to have more told her to-night than she quite +dreamed of. + +"Desire!" + +They heard Mrs. Ledwith's voice far back among the trees. + +Desire answered. + +"I want you, dear!" + +"Something about shawls and baskets, I suppose," said Desire, +turning round, perhaps a little the more readily that Kenneth was +beside her now, going back also. + +Dorris and Oswald Megilp, finding there was a move to return, and +being behind Desire in the pathway, turned also, as people will who +have no especial motive for going one way rather than another; and +so it happened that after all Rosamond and Archie Mucklegrand walked +on down the bank to the river together, by themselves. + +Archie's good humor returned quickly. + +"I am glad they are gone; it was such a fuss having so many," he +said. + +"We shall have to go back directly; they are beginning to break up," +said Rosamond. + +And then, coming out to the opening by the water, she began to talk +rather fast about the prettiness of the view, and to point out the +bridge, and the mills, and the shadow of East Hill upon the water, +and the curve of the opposite shore, and the dip of the shrubs and +their arched reflections. She seemed quite determined to have all +the talk to herself. + +Archie Mucklegrand played with his stick, and twisted the end of +his moustache. Men never ought to allow themselves to learn that +trick. It always comes back upon them when it makes them look most +foolish. + +Archie said nothing, because there was so much he wanted to say, and +he did not know how to begin. + +He knew his mother and sister would not like it,--as long as they +could help it, certainly,--therefore he had suddenly made up his +mind that there should be no such interval. He could do as he +pleased; was he not Sir Archibald? And there was his Boston +grandfather's property, too, of which a large share had been left +outright to him; and he had been twenty-one these six months. There +was nothing to hinder; and he meant to tell Rosamond Holabird that +he liked her better than any other girl in the world. Somebody else +would be telling her so, if he didn't; he could see how they all +came round her; perhaps it might be that tall, quiet, cheeky looking +fellow,--that Kincaid. He would be before him, at any rate. + +So he stood and twisted his moustache, and said nothing,--nothing, I +mean, except mere little words of assent and echo to Rosamond's +chatter about the pretty view. + +At last,--"You are fond of scenery, Miss Holabird?" + +Rosamond laughed. + +"O yes, I suppose I am; but we don't call this scenery. It is just +pleasantness,--beauty. I don't think I quite like the word +'scenery.' It seems artificial,--got up for outside effect. And the +most beautiful things do not speak from the outside, do they? I +never travelled, Mr. Mucklegrand. I have just lived here, until I +have lived _into_ things, or they into me. I rather think it is +travelling, skimming about the world in a hurry, that makes people +talk about 'scenery.' Isn't it?" + +"I dare say. I don't care for skimming, myself. But I like to go to +nice places, and stay long enough to get into them, as you say. I +mean to go to Scotland next year. I've a place there among the hills +and lochs, Miss Rosamond." + +"Yes. I have heard so. I should think you would wish to go and see +it." + +"I'll tell you what I wish, Miss Holabird!" he said suddenly, +letting go his moustache, and turning round with sufficient +manfulness, and facing her. "I suppose there is a more gradual and +elegant way of saying it; but I believe straightforward is as good +as any. I wish you cared for me as I care for you, and then you +would go with me." + +Rosamond was utterly confounded. She had not imagined that it could +be hurled at her, this fashion; she thought she could parry and put +aside, if she saw anything coming. She was bewildered and breathless +with the shock of it; she could only blindly, and in very foolish +words, hurl it back. + +"O, dear, no!" she exclaimed, her face crimson. "I mean--I don't--I +couldn't! I beg your pardon, Mr. Mucklegrand; you are very good; I +am very sorry; but I wish you hadn't said so. We had better go +back." + +"No," said Archie Mucklegrand, "not yet. I've said it now. I said it +like a moon calf, but I mean it like a man. Won't you--can't you--be +my wife, Rosamond? I must know that." + +"No, Mr. Mucklegrand," answered Rosamond, quite steadily now and +gently. "I could not be. We were never meant for each other. You +will think so yourself next year,--by the time you go to Scotland." + +"I shall never think so." + +Of course he said that; young men always do; they mean it at the +moment, and nothing can persuade them otherwise. + +"I told you I had lived right here, and grown into these things, and +they into me," said Rosamond, with a sweet slow earnestness, as if +she thought out while she explained it; and so she did; for the +thought and meaning of her life dawned upon her with a new +perception, as she stood at this point and crisis of it in the +responsibility of her young womanhood. "And these, and all the +things that have influenced me, have given my life its direction; +and I can see clearly that it was never meant to be your way. I do +not know what it will be; but I know yours is different. It would be +wrenching mine to turn it so." + +"But I would turn mine for you," said Archie. + +"You couldn't. Lives _grow_ together. They join beforehand, if they +join at all. You like me, perhaps,--just what you see of me; but you +do not know me, nor I you. If it--this--were meant, we should." + +"Should what?" + +"Know. Be sure." + +"I am sure of what I told you." + +"And I thank you very much; but I do not--I never could--belong to +you." + +What made Rosamond so wise about knowing and belonging? + +She could not tell, herself; she had never thought it out before; +but she seemed to see it very clearly now. She did not belong to +Archie Mucklegrand, nor he to her; he was mistaken; their lives had +no join; to make them join would be a force, a wrenching. + +Archie Mucklegrand did not care to have it put on such deep ground. +He liked Rosamond; he wanted her to like him; then they should be +married, of coarse, and go to Scotland, and have a good time; but +this quiet philosophy cooled him somewhat. As they walked up the +bank together, he wondered at himself a little that he did not feel +worse about it. If she had been coquettish, or perverse, she might +have been all the more bewitching to him. If he had thought she +liked somebody else better, he might have been furiously jealous; +but "her way of liking a fellow would be a slow kind of a way, after +all." That was the gist of his thought about it; and I believe that +to many very young men, at the age of waxed moustaches and German +dancing, that "slow kind of a way" in a girl is the best possible +insurance against any lasting damage that their own enthusiasm might +suffer. + +He had not been contemptible in the offering of his love; his best +had come out at that moment; if it does not come out then, +somehow,--through face and tone, in some plain earnestness or simple +nobleness, if not in fashion of the spoken word as very well it may +not,--it must be small best that the man has in him. + +Rosamond's simple saying of the truth, as it looked to her in that +moment of sure insight, was the best help she could have given him. +Truth is always the best help. He did not exactly understand the +wherefore, as she understood it; but the truth touched him +nevertheless, in the way that he could perceive. They did not +"belong" to each other. + +And riding down in the late train that evening, Archie Mucklegrand +said to himself, drawing a long breath,--"It would have been an +awful tough little joke, after all, telling it to the old lady!" + +"Are you too tired to walk home?" Kenneth Kincaid asked of Rosamond, +helping her put the baskets in the carriage. + +Dakie Thayne had asked Ruth the same question five minutes before, +and they two had gone on already. Are girls ever too tired to walk +home after a picnic, when the best of the picnic is going to walk +home with them? Of course Rosamond was not too tired; and Mrs. +Holabird had the carryall quite to herself and her baskets. + +They took the River Road, that was shady all the way, and sweet now +with the dropping scents of evening; it was a little longer, too, I +think, though that is one of the local questions that have never yet +been fully decided. + +"How far does Miss Waite's ground run along the river?" asked +Kenneth, taking Rosamond's shawl over his arm. + +"Not far; it only just touches; it runs back and broadens toward the +Old Turnpike. The best of it is in those woods and pastures." + +"So I thought. And the pastures are pretty much run out." + +"I suppose so. They are full of that lovely gray crackling moss." + +"Lovely for picnics. Don't you think Miss Waite would like to sell?" + +"Yes, indeed, if she could. That is her dream; what she has been +laying up for her old age: to turn the acres into dollars, and build +or buy a little cottage, and settle down safe. It is all she has in +the world, except her dressmaking." + +"Mr. Geoffrey and Mr. Marchbanks want to buy. They will offer her +sixteen thousand dollars. That is the secret,--part of it." + +"O, Mr. Kincaid! How glad,--how _sorry_, I can't help being, too! +Miss Waite to be so comfortable! And never to have her dear old +woods to picnic in any more! I suppose they want to make streets +and build it all up." + +"Not all. I'll tell you. It is a beautiful plan. Mr. Geoffrey wants +to build a street of twenty houses,--ten on a side,--with just a +little garden plot for each, and leave the woods behind for a piece +of nature for the general good,--a real Union Park; a place for +children to play in, and grown folks to rest and walk and take tea +in, if they choose; but for nobody to change or meddle with any +further. And these twenty houses to be let to respectable persons of +small means, at rents that will give him seven per cent, for his +whole outlay. Don't you see? Young people, and people like Miss +Waite herself, who don't want _much_ house-room, but who want it +nice and comfortable, and will keep it so, and who _do_ want a +little of God's world-room to grow in, that they can't get in the +crowded town streets, where the land is selling by the foot to be +all built over with human packing-cases, and where they have to pay +as much for being shut up and smothered, as they will out here to +live and breathe. That Mr. Geoffrey is a glorious man, Rosamond! He +is doing just this same thing in the edges of three or four other +towns, buying up the land just before it gets too dear, to save for +people who could not save it for themselves. He is providing for a +class that nobody seems to have thought of,--the nice, narrow-pursed +people, and the young beginners, who get married and take the world +in the old-fashioned way." + +He had no idea he had called her "Rosamond," till he saw the color +shining up so in her face verifying the name. Then it flashed out +upon him as he sent his thought back through the last few sentences +that he had spoken. + +"I beg your pardon," he said, suddenly. "But I was so full of this +beautiful doing,--and I always think of you so! Is there a sin in +that?" + +Rosamond colored deeper yet, and Kenneth grew more bold. He had +spoken it without plan; it had come of itself. + +"I can't help it now. I shall say it again, unless you tell me not! +Rosamond! I shall have these houses to build. I am getting ever so +much to do. Could you begin the world with me, Rosamond?" + +Rosamond did not say a word for a full minute. She only walked +slowly by his side, her beautiful head inclined gently, shyly; her +sweet face all one bloom, as faces never bloom but once. + +Then she turned toward him and put out her hand. + +"I will begin the world with you," she said. + +And their world--that was begun for them before they were +born--lifted up its veil and showed itself to them, bright in the +eternal morning. + + * * * * * + +Desire Ledwith walked home all alone. She left Dorris at Miss +Waite's, and Helena had teased to stay with her. Mrs. Ledwith had +gone home among the first, taking a seat offered her in Mrs. Tom +Friske's carriage to East Square; she had a headache, and was tired. + +Desire felt the old, miserable questions coming up, tempting her. + +Why? + +Why was she left out,--forgotten? Why was there nothing, very much, +in any of this, for her? + +Yet underneath the doubting and accusing, something lived--stayed +by--to rebuke it; rose up above it finally, and put it down, though +with a thrust that hurt the heart in which the doubt was trampled. + +Wait. Wait--with all your might! + +Desire could do nothing very meekly; but she could even _wait_ with +all her might. She put her foot down with a will, at every step. + +"I was put here to be Desire Ledwith," she said, relentlessly, to +herself; "not Rosamond Holabird, nor even Dolly. Well, I suppose I +can stay put, and _be_! If things would only _let_ me be!" + +But they will not. Things never do, Desire. + +They are coming, now, upon you. Hard things,--and all at once. + + + + +XVIII. + +ALL AT ONCE. + + +There was a Monday morning train going down from Z----. + +Mr. Ledwith and Kenneth Kincaid were in it, reading the morning +papers, seated side by side. + +It was nearly a week since the picnic, but the engagement of +Rosamond and Kenneth had not transpired. Mr. Holabird had been away +in New York. Of course nothing was said beyond Mrs. Holabird and +Ruth and Dolly Kincaid, until his return. But Kenneth carried a +happy face about with him, in the streets and in the cars and about +his work; and his speech was quick and bright with the men he met +and had need to speak to. It almost told itself; people might have +guessed it, if they had happened, at least to see the _two_ faces in +the same day, and if they were alive to sympathetic impressions of +other people's pain or joy. There are not many who stop to piece +expressions, from pure sympathy, however; they are, for the most +part, too busy putting this and that together for themselves. + +Desire would have guessed it in a minute; but she saw little of +either in this week. Mrs. Ledwith was not well, and there was a +dress to be made for Helena. + +Kenneth Kincaid's elder men friends said of him, when they saw him +in these days, "That's a fine fellow; he is doing very well." They +could read that; he carried it in his eye and in his tone and in his +step, and it was true. + +It was a hot morning; it would be a stifling day in the city. They +sat quiet while they could, in the cars, taking the fresh air of the +fields and the sea reaches, reading the French news, and saying +little. + +They came almost in to the city terminus, when the train stopped. +Not at a station. There were people to alight at the last but one; +these grew impatient after a few minutes, and got out and walked. + +The train still waited. + +Mr. Ledwith finished a column he was reading, and then looked up, as +the conductor came along the passage. + +"What is the delay?" he asked of him. + +"Freight. Got such a lot of it. Takes a good while to handle." + +Freight outward bound. A train making up. + +Mr. Ledwith turned to his newspaper again. + +Ten minutes went by. Kenneth Kincaid got up and went out, like many +others. They might be kept there half an hour. + +Mr. Ledwith had read all his paper, and began to grow impatient. He +put his head out at the window, and looked and listened. Half the +passengers were outside. Brake-men were walking up and down. + +"Has he got a flag out there?" says the conductor to one of these. + +"Don't know. Can't see. Yes, he has; I heard him whistle brakes." + +Just then, their own bell sounded, and men jumped on board. Kenneth +Kincaid came back to his seat. + +Behind, there was a long New York train coming in. + +Mr. Ledwith put his head out again, and looked back. All right; +there had been a flag; the train had slackened just beyond a curve. + +But why will people do such things? What is the use of asking? Mr. +Ledwith still looked out; he could not have told you why. + +A quicker motion; a darkening of the window; a freight car standing +upon a siding, close to the switch, as they passed by; a sudden, +dull blow, half unheard in the rumble of the train. Women, sitting +behind, sprang up,--screamed; one dropped, fainting: they had seen a +ghastly sight; warm drops of blood flew in upon them; the car was in +commotion. + +Kenneth Kincaid, with an exclamation of horror, clutched hold of a +lifeless body that fell--was thrust--backward beside him; the poor +head fractured, shattered, against the fatal window frame. + + * * * * * + +The eleven o'clock train came out. + +People came up the street,--a group of gentlemen, three or +four,--toward Mr. Prendible's house. + +Desire sat in a back window behind the blinds, busy. Mrs. Ledwith +was lying on the bed. + +Steps came in at the house door. + +There was an exclamation; a hush. Mr. Prendible's voice, Kenneth +Kincaid's, Mr. Dimsey's, the minister's. + +"O! How? "--Mrs. Prendible's voice, now. + +"Take care!" + +"Where are they?" + +Mrs. Ledwith heard. + +"What is the matter?"--springing up, with a sudden instinct of +precognition. + +Desire had not seen or heard till now. She dropped her work. + +"What is it, mother?" + +Mrs. Ledwith was up, upon the floor; in the doorway out in the +passage; trembling; seized all over with a horrible dread and vague +knowledge. + +"_Tell_ me what it is!" she cried, to those down below. + +They were all there upon the staircase; Mrs. Prendible furthest up. + +"O, Mrs. Ledwith!" she cried. "_Don't_ be frightened! _Don't_ take +on! Take it easy,--do!" + +Desire rushed down among them; past Mrs. Prendible, past the +minister, straight to Kenneth Kincaid. + +Kenneth took her right in his arms, and carried her into a little +room below. + +"There could have been no pain," he said, tenderly. "It was the +accident of a moment. Be strong,--be patient, dear!" + +There had been tender words natural to his lips lately. It was not +strange that in his great pity he used them now. + +"My father!" gasped Desire. + +"Yes; your father. It was our Father's will." + +"Help me to go to my mother!" + +She took his hand, half blind, almost reeling. + +And then they all, somehow, found themselves up-stairs. + +There were moans of pain; there were words of prayer. We have no +right there. It is all told. + + * * * * * + +"Be strong,--be patient, dear!" + +It came back, in the midst of the darkness, the misery; it helped +her through those days; it made her strong for her mother. It +comforted her, she hardly knew how much; but O, how cruel it seemed +afterward! + +They went directly down to Boston. Mr. Ledwith was buried from their +own house. It was all over; and now, what should they do? Uncle +Titus came to see them. Mrs. Ripwinkley came right back from +Homesworth. Dorris Kincaid left her summer-time all behind, and +came to stay with them a week in Shubarton Place. Mrs. Ledwith +craved companionship; her elder daughters were away; there were +these five weeks to go by until she could hear from them. She would +not read their letters that came now, full of chat and travel. + +Poor Laura! her family scattered; her dependence gone; her life all +broken down in a moment! + +Dorris Kincaid did not speak of Kenneth and Rosamond. How could she +bring news of others' gladness into that dim and sorrowful house? + +Luclarion Grapp shut up her rooms, left her plants and her birds +with Mrs. Gallilee, and came up to Shubarton Place in the beginning. +There were no servants there; everything was adrift; the terrible +blows of life take people between the harness, most unprovided, +unawares. + +It was only for a little while, until they could hear from the +girls, and make plans. Grant Ledwith's income died with him; there +was ten thousand dollars, life insurance; that would give them a +little more than a sixth part of what his salary had been; and there +were the two thousand a year of Uncle Titus; and the house, on which +there was a twelve thousand dollar mortgage. + +Mrs. Ledwith had spent her life in cutting and turning and planning; +after the first shock was over, even her grief was counterpoised and +abated, by the absorption of her thoughts into the old channels. +What they should do, how they should live, what they could have; how +it should be contrived and arranged. Her mind busied itself with all +this, and her trouble was veiled,--softened. She had a dozen +different visions and schemes, projected into their details of +residence, establishment, dress, ordering,--before the letters +came, bringing back the first terribleness in the first reception of +and response to it, of her elder children. + +It was so awful to have them away,--on the other side of the world! +If they were only once all together again! Families ought not to +separate. But then, it had been for their good; how could she have +imagined? She supposed she should have done the same again, under +the same circumstances. + +And then came Mrs. Megilp's letter, delayed a mail, as she would +have delayed entering the room, if they had been rejoined in their +grief, until the family had first been gathered together with their +tears and their embraces. + +Then she wrote,--as she would have come in; and her letter, as +her visit would have been, was after a few words of tender +condolence,--and they were very sweet and tender, for Mrs. Megilp +knew how to lay phrases like illuminating gold-leaf upon her +meaning,--eminently practical and friendly, full of judicious, not +to say mitigating, suggestions. + +It was well, she thought, that Agatha and Florence were with her. +They had been spared so much; and perhaps if all this had happened +first, they might never have come. As to their return, she thought +it would be a pity; "it could not make it really any better for +you," she said; "and while your plans are unsettled, the fewer you +are, the more easily you will manage. It seems hard to shadow their +young lives more than is inevitable; and new scenes and interests +are the very best things for them; their year of mourning would be +fairly blotted out at home, you know. For yourself, poor friend, of +course you cannot care; and Desire and Helena are not much come +forward, but it would be a dead blank and stop to them, so much +lost, right out; and I feel as if it were a kind Providence for the +dear girls that they should be just where they are. We are living +quietly, inexpensively; it will cost no more to come home at one +time than at another;" etc. + +There are persons to whom the pastime of life is the whole business +of it; sickness and death and misfortune,--to say nothing of cares +and duties--are the interruptions, to be got rid of as they may. + +The next week came more letters; they had got a new idea out there. +Why should not Mrs. Ledwith and the others come and join them? They +were in Munich, now; the schools were splendid; would be just the +thing for Helena; and "it was time for mamma to have a rest." + +This thought, among the dozen others, had had its turn in Mrs. +Ledwith's head. To break away, and leave everything, that is the +impulse of natures like hers when things go hard and they cannot +shape them. Only to get off; if she could do that! + +Meanwhile, it was far different with Desire. + +She was suffering with a deeper pain; not with a sharper loss, for +she had seen so little of her father; but she looked in and back, +and thought of what she _ought_ to miss, and what had never been. + +She ought to have known her father better; his life ought to have +been more to her; was it her fault, or, harder yet, had it been his? +This is the sorest thrust of grief; when it is only shock, and pity, +and horror, and after these go by, not grief enough! + +The child wrestled with herself, as she always did, questioning, +arraigning. If she could make it all right, in the past, and now; if +she could feel that all she had to do was to be tenderly sorry, and +to love on through the darkness, she would not mind the dark; it +would be only a phase of the life,--the love. But to have lived her +life so far, to have had the relations of it, and yet _not_ to have +lived it, not to have been real child, real sister, not to be real +stricken daughter now, tasting the suffering just as God made it to +be tasted,--was she going through all things, even this, in a vain +shadow? _Would_ not life touch her? + +She went away back, strangely, and asked whether she had had any +business to be born? Whether it were a piece of God's truth at all, +that she and all of them should be, and call themselves a +household,--a home? The depth, the beauty of it were so unfulfilled! +What was wrong, and how far back? Living in the midst of +superficialities; in the noontide of a day of shams; putting her +hands forth and grasping, almost everywhere, nothing but thin, hard +surface,--she wondered how much of the world was real; how many came +into the world where, and as, God meant them to come. What it was to +"climb up some other way into the sheepfold," and to be a thief and +a robber, even of life! + +These were strange thoughts. Desire Ledwith was a strange girl. + +But into the midst there crept one comfort; there was one glimpse +out of the darkness into the daylight. + +Kenneth Kincaid came in often to see them,--to inquire; just now he +had frequent business in the city; he brought ferns and flowers, +that Dorris gathered and filled into baskets, fresh and damp with +moss. + +Dorris was a dear friend; she dwelt in the life and the brightness; +she reached forth and gathered, and turned and ministered again. The +ferns and flowers were messages; leaves out of God's living Word, +that she read, found precious, and sent on; apparitions, they +seemed standing forth to sense, and making sweet, true signs from +the inner realm of everlasting love and glory. + +And Kenneth,--Desire had never lost out of her heart those +words,--"Be strong,--be patient, dear!" + +He did not speak to her of himself; he could not demand +congratulation from her grief; he let it be until she should somehow +learn, and of her own accord, speak to him. + +So everybody let her alone, poor child, to her hurt. + +The news of the engagement was no Boston news; it was something that +had occurred, quietly enough, among a few people away up in Z----. +Of the persons who came in,--the few remaining in town,--nobody +happened to know or care. The Ripwinkleys did, of course; but Mrs. +Ripwinkley remembered last winter, and things she had read in +Desire's unconscious, undisguising face, and aware of nothing that +could be deepening the mischief now, thinking only of the sufficient +burden the poor child had to bear, thought kindly, "better not." + +Meanwhile Mrs. Ledwith was dwelling more and more upon the European +plan. She made up her mind, at last, to ask Uncle Titus. When all +was well, she would not seem to break a compact by going away +altogether, so soon, to leave him; but now,--he would see the +difference; perhaps advise it. She would like to know what he would +advise. After all that had happened,--everything so changed,--half +her family abroad,--what could she do? Would it not be more prudent +to join them, than to set up a home again without them, and keep +them out there? And all Helena's education to provide for, and +everything so cheap and easy there, and so dear and difficult here? + +"Now, tell me, truly, uncle, should you object? Should you take it +at all hard? I never meant to have left you, after all you have +done; but you see I have to break up, now poor Grant is gone; we +cannot live as we did before, even with what you do; and--for a +little while--it is cheaper there; and by and by we can come back +and make some other plan. Besides, I feel sometimes as if I _must_ +go off; as if there weren't anything left here for me." + +Poor woman! poor _girl_, still,--whose life had never truly taken +root! + +"I suppose," said Uncle Titus, soberly, "that God shines all round. +He's on this side as much as He is on that." + +Mrs. Ledwith looked up out of her handkerchief, with which at that +moment she had covered her eyes. + +"I never knew Uncle Titus was pious!" she said to herself. And her +astonishment dried her tears. + +He said nothing more that was pious, however; he simply assured her, +then and in conversations afterward, that he should take nothing +"hard;" he never expected to bind her, or put her on parole; he +chose to come to know his relatives, and he had done so; he had also +done what seemed to him right, in return for their meeting him half +way; they were welcome to it all, to take it and use it as they best +could, and as circumstances and their own judgment dictated. If they +went abroad, he should advise them to do it before the winter. + +These words implied consent, approval. Mrs. Ledwith went up-stairs +after them with a heart so much lightened that she was very nearly +cheerful. There would be a good deal to do now, and something to +look forward to; the old pulses of activity were quickened. She +could live with those faculties that had been always vital in her, +as people breathe with one live lung; but trouble and change had +wrought in her no deeper or further capacity; had wakened nothing +that had never been awake before. + +The house and furniture were to be sold; they would sail in +September. + +When Desire perceived that it was settled, she gave way; she had +said little before; her mother had had many plans, and they amused +her; she would not worry her with opposition; and besides, she was +herself in a secret dream of a hope half understood. + +It happened that she told it to Kenneth Kincaid herself; she saw +almost every one who came, instead of her mother; Mrs. Ledwith lived +in her own room chiefly. This was the way in which it had come +about, that nobody noticed or guessed how it was with Desire, and +what aspect Kenneth's friendship and kindness, in the simple history +of those few weeks, might dangerously grow to bear with her. + +Except one person. Luclarion Grapp, at last, made up her mind. + +Kenneth heard what Desire told him, as he heard all she ever had to +tell, with a gentle interest; comforted her when she said she could +not bear to go, with the suggestion that it might not be for very +long; and when she looked up in his face with a kind of strange, +pained wonder, and repeated,-- + +"But I cannot _bear_,--I tell you, I cannot _bear_ to go!" he +answered,-- + +"One can bear all that is right; and out of it the good will come +that we do not know. All times go by. I am sorry--very sorry--that +you must go; but there will be the coming back. We must all wait for +that." + +She did not know what she looked for; she did not know what she +expected him to mean; she expected nothing; the thought of his +preventing it in any way never entered into her head; she knew, if +she _had_ thought, how he himself was waiting, working. She only +wanted him to _care_. Was this caring? Much? She could not tell. + +"We never can come _back_," she said, impetuously. "There will be +all the time--everything--between." + +He almost spoke to her of it, then; he almost told her that the +everything might be more, not less; that friendships gathered, +multiplied; that there would be one home, he hoped, in which, by and +by, she would often be; in which she would always be a dear and +welcome comer. + +But she was so sad, so tried; his lips were held; in his pure, +honest kindness, he never dreamt of any harm that his silence might +do; it only seemed so selfish to tell her how bright it was with +him. + +So he said, smiling,-- + +"And who knows what the 'everything' may be?" And he took both her +hands in his as he said good-by,--for his little stops were of +minutes on his way, always,--and held them fast, and looked warmly, +hopefully into her face. + +It was all for her,--to give her hope and courage; but the light of +it was partly kindled by his own hope and gladness that lay behind; +and how could she know that, or read it right? It was at once too +much, and not enough, for her. + +Five minutes after, Luclarion Grapp went by the parlor door with a +pile of freshly ironed linen in her arms, on her way up-stairs. + +Desire lay upon the sofa, her face down upon the pillow; her arms +were thrown up, and her hands clasped upon the sofa-arm; her frame +shook with sobs. + +Luclarion paused for the time of half a step; then she went on. She +said to herself in a whisper, as she went,-- + +"It is a stump; a proper hard one! But there's nobody else; and I +have got to tell her!" + + * * * * * + +That evening, under some pretense of clean towels, Luclarion came up +into Desire's room. + +She was sitting alone, by the window, in the dark. + +Luclarion fussed round a little; wiped the marble slab and the +basin; set things straight; came over and asked Desire if she should +not put up the window-bars, and light the gas. + +"No," said Desire. "I like this best." + +So did Luclarion. She had only said it to make time. + +"Desire," she said,--she never put the "Miss" on, she had been too +familiar all her life with those she was familiar with at all,--"the +fact is I've got something to say, and I came up to say it." + +She drew near--came close,--and laid her great, honest, faithful +hand on the back of Desire Ledwith's chair, put the other behind her +own waist, and leaned over her. + +"You see, I'm a woman, Desire, and I know. You needn't mind me, I'm +an old maid; that's the way I do know. Married folks, even mothers, +half the time forget. But old maids never forget. I've had my +stumps, and I can see that you've got yourn. But you'd ought to +understand; and there's nobody, from one mistake and another, that's +going to tell you. It's awful hard; it will be a trouble to you at +first,"--and Luclarion's strong voice trembled tenderly with the +sympathy that her old maid heart had in it, after, and because of, +all those years,--"but Kenneth Kincaid"-- + +"_What_!" cried Desire, starting to her feet, with a sudden +indignation. + +"Is going to be married to Rosamond Holabird," said Luclarion, very +gently. "There! you ought to know, and I have told you." + +"What makes you suppose that that would be a trouble to me?" blazed +Desire. "How do you dare"-- + +"I didn't dare; but I had to!" sobbed Luclarion, putting her arms +right round her. + +And then Desire--as she would have done at any rate, for that blaze +was the mere flash of her own shame and pain--broke down with a +moan. + +"All at once! All at once!" she said piteously, and hid her face in +Luclarion's bosom. + +And Luclarion folded her close; hugged her, the good woman, in her +love that was sisterly and motherly and all, because it was the love +of an old maid, who had endured, for a young maid upon whom the +endurance was just laid,--and said, with the pity of heaven in the +words,-- + +"Yes. All at once. But the dear Lord stands by. Take hold of His +hand,--and bear with all your might!" + + + + +XIX. + +INSIDE. + + +"Do you think, Luclarion," said Desire, feebly, as Luclarion came to +take away her bowl of chicken broth,--"that it is my _duty_ to go +with mamma?" + +"I don't know," said Luclarion, standing with the little waiter in +her right hand, her elbow poised upon her hip,--"I've thought of +that, and I _don't_ know. There's most generally a stump, you see, +one way or another, and that settles it, but here there's one both +ways. I've kinder lost my road: come to two blazes, and can't tell +which. Only, it ain't my road, after all. It lays between the Lord +and you, and I suppose He means it shall. Don't you worry; there'll +be some sort of a sign, inside or out. That's His business, you've +just got to keep still, and get well." + +Desire had asked her mother, before this, if she would care very +much,--no, she did not mean that,--if she would be disappointed, or +disapprove, that she should stay behind. + +"Stay behind? Not go to Europe? Why, where _could_ you stay? What +would you do?" + +"There would be things to do, and places to stay," Desire had +answered, constrainedly. "I could do like Dorris." + +"Teach music!" + +"No. I don't know music. But I might teach something I do know. Or I +could--rip," she said, with an odd smile, remembering something she +had said one day so long ago; the day the news came up to Z---- +from Uncle Oldways. "And I might make out to put together for other +people, and for a real business. I never cared to do it just for +myself." + +"It is perfectly absurd," said Mrs Ledwith. "You couldn't be left to +take care of yourself. And if you could, how it would look! No; of +course you must go with us." + +"But do you _care_?" + +"Why, if there were any proper way, and if you really hate so to +go,--but there isn't," said Mrs. Ledwith, not very grammatically or +connectedly. + +"She _doesn't_ care," said Desire to herself, after her mother had +left her, turning her face to the pillow, upon which two tears ran +slowly down. "And that is my fault, too, I suppose. I have never +been _anything_!" + +Lying there, she made up her mind to one thing. She would get Uncle +Titus to come, and she would talk to him. + +"He won't encourage me in any notions," she said to herself. "And I +mean now, if I can find it out, to do the thing God means; and then +I suppose,--I _believe_,--the snarl will begin to unwind." + +Meanwhile, Luclarion, when she had set a nice little bowl of +tea-muffins to rise, and had brought up a fresh pitcher of ice-water +into Desire's room, put on her bonnet and went over to Aspen Street +for an hour. + +Down in the kitchen, at Mrs. Ripwinkley's, they were having a nice +time. + +Their girl had gone. Since Luclarion left, they had fallen into that +Gulf-stream which nowadays runs through everybody's kitchen. Girls +came, and saw, and conquered in their fashion; they muddled up, and +went away. + +The nice times were in the intervals when they _had_ gone away. + +Mrs. Ripwinkley did not complain; it was only her end of the +"stump;" why should she expect to have a Luclarion Grapp to serve +her all her life? + +This last girl had gone as soon as she found out that Sulie Praile +was "no relation, and didn't anyways belong there, but had been took +in." She "didn't go for to come to work in an _Insecution_. She had +always been used to first-class private families." + +Girls will not stand any added numbers, voluntarily assumed, or even +involuntarily befalling; they will assist in taking up no new +responsibilities; to allow things to remain as they are, and cannot +help being, is the depth of their condescension,--the extent of what +they will put up with. There must be a family of some sort, of +course, or there would not be a "place;" that is what the family is +made for; but it must be established, no more to fluctuate; that is, +you may go away, some of you, if you like, or you may die; but +nobody must come home that has been away, and nobody must be born. +As to anybody being "took in!" Why, the girl defined it; it was not +being a family, but an _Insecution_. + +So the three--Diana, and Hazel, and Sulie--were down in the kitchen; +Mrs. Ripwinkley was busy in the dining-room close by; there was a +berry-cake to be mixed up for an early tea. Diana was picking over +the berries, Hazel was chopping the butter into the flour, and Sulie +on a low cushioned seat in a corner--there was one kept ready for +her in every room in the house, and Hazel and Diana carried her +about in an "arm-chair," made of their own clasped hands and wrists, +wherever they all wanted to go,--Sulie was beating eggs. + +Sulie did that so patiently; you see she had no temptation to jump +up and run off to anything else. The eggs turned, under her +fingers, into thick, creamy, golden froth, fine to the last possible +divisibility of the little air-bubbles. + +They could not do without Sulie now. They had had her for "all +winter;" but in that winter she had grown into their home. + +"Why," said Hazel to her mother, when they had the few words about +it that ended in there being no more words at all,--"that's the way +children are _born_ into houses, isn't it? They just come; and +they're new and strange at first, and seem so queer. And then after +a while you can't think how the places were, and they not in them. +Sulie belongs, mother!" + +So Sulie beat eggs, and darned stockings, and painted her lovely +little flower-panels and racks and easels, and did everything that +could be done, sitting still in her round chair, or in the cushioned +corners made for her; and was always in the kitchen, above all, when +any pretty little cookery was going forward. + +Vash ran in and out from the garden, and brought balsamine blossoms, +from which she pulled the little fairy slippers, and tried to match +them in pairs; and she picked off the "used-up and puckered-up" +morning glories, which she blew into at the tube-end, and "snapped" +on the back of her little brown hand. + +Wasn't that being good for anything, while berry-cake was making? +The girls thought it was; as much as the balsamine blossoms were +good for anything, or the brown butterflies with golden spots on +their wings, that came and lived among them. The brown butterflies +were a "piece of the garden;" little brown Vash was a piece of the +house. Besides, she would eat some of the berry-cake when it was +made; wasn't that worth while? She would have a "little teenty one" +baked all for herself in a tin pepper-pot cover. Isn't that the +special pleasantness of making cakes where little children are? + +Vash was always ready for an "Aaron," too; they could not do without +her, any more than without Sulie. Pretty soon, when Diana should +have left school, and Vash should be a little bigger, they meant to +"coöperate," as the Holabirds had done at Westover. + +Of course, they knew a great deal about the Holabirds by this time. +Hazel had stayed a week with Dorris at Miss Waite's; and one of +Witch Hazel's weeks among "real folks" was like the days or hours in +fairy land, that were years on the other side. She found out so much +and grew so close to people. + +Hazel and Ruth Holabird were warm friends. And Hazel was to be +Ruth's bridesmaid, by and by! + +For Ruth Holabird was going to be married to Dakie Thayne. + +"That seemed so funny," Hazel said. "Ruth didn't _look_ any older +than she did; and Mr. Dakie Thayne was such a nice boy!" + +He was no less a man, either; he had graduated among the first three +at West Point; he was looking earnestly for the next thing that he +should do in life with his powers and responsibilities; he did not +count his marrying a _separate_ thing; that had grown up alongside +and with the rest; of course he could do nothing without Ruth; that +was just what he had told her; and she,--well Ruth was always a +sensible little thing, and it was just as plain to her as it was to +him. Of course she must help him think and plan; and when the plans +were made, it would take two to carry them out; why, yes, they must +be married. What other way would there be? + +That wasn't what she _said_, but that was the quietly natural and +happy way in which it grew to be a recognized thing in her mind, +that pleasant summer after he came straight home to them with his +honors and his lieutenant's commission in the Engineers; and his +hearty, affectionate taking-for-granted; and it was no surprise or +question with her, only a sure and very beautiful "rightness," when +it came openly about. + +Dakie Thayne was a man; the beginning of a very noble one; but it is +the noblest men that always keep a something of the boy. If you had +not seen anything more of Dakie Thayne until he should be forty +years old, you would then see something in him which would be +precisely the same that it was at Outledge, seven years ago, with +Leslie Goldthwaite, and among the Holabirds at Westover, in his +first furlough from West Point. + +Luclarion came into the Ripwinkley kitchen just as the cakes--the +little pepper-pot one and all--were going triumphantly into the +oven, and Hazel was baring her little round arms to wash the dishes, +while Diana tended the pans. + +Mrs. Ripwinkley heard her old friend's voice, and came out. + +"That girl ought to be here with you; or somewheres else than where +she is, or is likely to be took," said Luclarion, as she looked +round and sat down, and untied her bonnet-strings. + +Miss Grapp hated bonnet-strings; she never endured them a minute +longer than she could help. + +"Desire?" asked Mrs. Ripwinkley, easily comprehending. + +"Yes; Desire. I tell you she has a hard row to hoe, and she wants +comforting. She wants to know if it is her duty to go to Yourup with +her mother. Now it may be her duty to be _willing_ to go; but it +ain't anybody's else duty to let her. That's what came to me as I +was coming along. I couldn't tell _her_ so, you see, because it +would interfere with her part; and that's all in the tune as much as +any; only we've got to chime in with our parts at the right stroke, +the Lord being Leader. Ain't that about it, Mrs. Ripwinkley?" + +"If we are sure of the score, and can catch the sign," said Mrs. +Ripwinkley, thoughtfully. + +"Well, I've sung mine; it's only one note; I may have to keep +hammering on it; that's according to how many repeats there are to +be. Mr. Oldways, he ought to know, for one. Amongst us, we have got +to lay our heads together, and work it out. She's a kind of an odd +chicken in that brood; and my belief is she's like the ugly duck +Hazel used to read about. But she ought to have a chance; if she's a +swan, she oughtn't to be trapesed off among the weeds and on the dry +ground. 'Tisn't even ducks she's hatched with; they don't take to +the same element." + +"I'll speak to Uncle Titus, and I will think," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. + +But before she did that, that same afternoon by the six o'clock +penny post, a little note went to Mr. Oldways:-- + + "DEAR UNCLE TITUS,-- + + "I want to talk with you a little. If I were well, I should + come to see you in your study. Will you come up here, and see + me in my room? + + "Yours sincerely, DESIRE LEDWITH." + +Uncle Titus liked that. It counted upon something in him which few +had the faith to count upon; which, truly he gave few people reason +to expect to find. + +He put his hat directly on, took up his thick brown stick, and +trudged off, up Borden Street to Shubarton Place. + +When Luclarion let him in, he told her with some careful emphasis, +that he had come to see Desire. + +"Ask her if I shall come up," he said. "I'll wait down here." + +Helena was practicing in the drawing-room. Mrs. Ledwith lay, half +asleep, upon a sofa. The doors into the hall were shut,--Luclarion +had looked to that, lest the playing should disturb Desire. + +Luclarion was only gone three minutes. Then she came back, and led +Mr. Oldways up three flights of stairs. + +"It's a long climb, clear from the door," she said. + +"I can climb," said Mr. Oldways, curtly. + +"I didn't expect it was going to stump _you_," said Luclarion, just +as short in her turn. "But I thought I'd be polite enough to mention +it." + +There came a queer little chuckling wheeze from somewhere, like a +whispered imitation of the first few short pants of a steam-engine: +that was Uncle Titus, laughing to himself. + +Luclarion looked down behind her, out of the corner of her eyes, as +she turned the landing. Uncle Titus's head was dropped between his +shoulders, and his shoulders were shaking up and down. But he kept +his big stick clutched by the middle, in one hand, and the other +just touched the rail as he went up. Uncle Titus was not out of +breath. Not he. He could laugh and climb. + +Desire was sitting up for a little while, before going to bed again +for the night. There was a low gas-light burning by the +dressing-table, ready to turn up when the twilight should be gone; +and a street lamp, just lighted, shone across into the room. +Luclarion had been sitting with her, and her gray knitting-work lay +upon the chair that she offered when she had picked it up, to Mr. +Oldways. Then she went away and left them to their talk. + +"Mrs. Ripwinkley has been spry about it," she said to herself, going +softly down the stairs. "But she always was spry." + +"You're getting well, I hope," said Uncle Titus, seating himself, +after he had given Desire his hand. + +"I suppose so," said Desire, quietly. "That was why I wanted to see +you. I want to know what I ought to do when I am well." + +"How can I tell?" asked Uncle Titus, bluntly. + +"Better than anybody I can ask. The rest are all too sympathizing. I +am afraid they would tell me as I wish they should." + +"And I don't sympathize? Well, I don't think I do much. I haven't +been used to it." + +"You have been used to think what was right; and I believe you would +tell me truly. I want to know whether I ought to go to Europe with +my mother." + +"Why not? Doesn't she want you to go?"--and Uncle Titus was sharp +this time. + +"I suppose so; that is, I suppose she expects I will. But I don't +know that I should be much except a hindrance to her. And I think I +could stay and do something here, in some way. Uncle Titus, I hate +the thought of going to Europe! Now, don't you suppose I ought to +go?" + +"_Why_ do you hate the thought of going to Europe?" asked Uncle +Titus, regarding her with keenness. + +"Because I have never done anything real in all my life!" broke +forth Desire. "And this seems only plastering and patching what +can't be patched. I want to take hold of something. I don't want to +float round any more. What is there left of all we have ever tried +to do, all these years? Of all my poor father's work, what is there +to show for it now? It has all melted away as fast as it came, like +snow on pavements; and now his life has melted away; and I feel as +if we had never been anything real to each other! Uncle Titus, I +can't tell you _how_ I feel!" + +Uncle Titus sat very still. His hat was in one hand, and both +together held his cane, planted on the floor between his feet. Over +hat and cane leaned his gray head, thoughtfully. If Desire could +have seen his eyes, she would have found in them an expression that +she had never supposed could be there at all. + +She had not so much spoken _to_ Uncle Titus, in these last words of +hers, as she had irresistibly spoken _out_ that which was in her. +She wanted Uncle Titus's good common sense and sense of right to +help her decide; but the inward ache and doubt and want, out of +which grew her indecisions,--these showed themselves forth at that +moment simply because they must, with no expectation of a response +from him. It might have been a stone wall that she cried against; +she would have cried all the same. + +Then it was over, and she was half ashamed, thinking it was of no +use, and he would not understand; perhaps that he would only set the +whole down to nerves and fidgets and contrariness, and give her no +common sense that she wanted, after all. + +But Uncle Titus spoke, slowly; much as if he, too, were speaking out +involuntarily, without thought of his auditor. People do so speak, +when the deep things are stirred; they speak into the deep that +answereth unto itself,--the deep that reacheth through all souls, +and all living, whether souls feel into it and know of it or not. + +"The real things are inside," he said. "The real world is the inside +world. _God_ is not up, nor down, but in the _midst_." + +Then he looked up at Desire. + +"What is real of your life is living inside you now. That is +something. Look at it and see what it is." + +"Discontent. Misery. Failure." + +"_Sense_ of failure. Well. Those are good things. The beginning of +better. Those are _live_ things, at any rate." + +Desire had never thought of that. + +Now _she_ sat still awhile. + +Then she said,--"But we can't _be_ much, without doing it. I suppose +we are put into a world of outsides for something." + +"Yes. To find out what it means. That's the inside of it. And to +help make the outside agree with the in, so that it will be easier +for other people to find out. That is the 'kingdom come and will be +done, on earth as it is in heaven.' Heaven is the inside,--the truth +of things." + +"Why, I never knew"--began Desire, astonished. She had almost +finished aloud, as her mother had done in her own mind. She never +knew that Uncle Oldways was "pious." + +"Never knew that was what it meant? What else can it mean? What do +you suppose the resurrection was, or is?" + +Desire answered with a yet larger look of wonder, only in the dim +light it could not be wholly seen. + +"The raising up of the dead; Christ coming up out of the tomb." + +"The coming out of the tomb was a small part of it; just what could +not help being, if the rest was. Jesus Christ rose out of dead +_things_, I take it, into these very real ones that we are talking +of, and so lived in them. The resurrection is a man's soul coming +alive to the soul of creation--God's soul. _That_ is eternal life, +and what Jesus of Nazareth was born to show. Our coming to that is +our being 'raised with Him;' and it begins, or ought to, a long way +this side the tomb. If people would only read the New Testament, +expecting to get as much common sense and earnest there as they do +among the new lights and little 'progressive-thinkers' that are +trying to find it all out over again, they might spare these +gentlemen and themselves a great deal of their trouble." + +The exclamation rose half-way to her lips again,--"I never knew you +thought like this. I never heard you talk of these things before!" + +But she held it back, because she would not stop him by reminding +him that he _was_ talking. It was just the truth that was saying +itself. She must let it say on, while it would. + +"Un--" + +She stopped there, at the first syllable. She would not even call +him "Uncle Titus" again, for fear of recalling him to himself, and +hushing him up. + +"There is something--isn't there--about those who _attain_ to that +resurrection; those who are _worthy_? I suppose there must be some +who are just born to this world, then, and never--'born again?'" + +"It looks like it, sometimes; who can tell?" + +"Uncle Oldways,"--it came out this time in her earnestness, and her +strong personal appeal,--"do you think there are some people--whole +families of people--who have no business in the reality of things +to be at all? Who are all a mistake in the world, and have nothing +to do with its meaning? I have got to feeling sometimes lately, as +if--_I_--had never had any business to be." + +She spoke slowly--awe-fully. It was a strange speech for a girl in +her nineteenth year. But she was a girl in this nineteenth century, +also; and she had caught some of the thoughts and questions of it, +and mixed them up with her own doubts and unsatisfactions which they +could not answer. + +"The world is full of mistakes; mistakes centuries long; but it is +full of salvation and setting to rights, also. 'The kingdom of +heaven is like leaven, which a woman hid in three measures of meal +till the whole was leavened.' You have been _allowed_ to be, Desire +Ledwith. And so was the man that was born blind. And I think there +is a colon put into the sentence about him, where a comma was meant +to be." + +Desire did not ask him, then, what he meant; but she turned to the +story after he had gone, and found this:-- + +"Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents, but that the works +of God should be manifest in him." + +You can see, if you look also, where she took the colon out, and put +the comma in. + +Were all the mistakes--the sins, even--for the very sake of the pure +blessedness and the more perfect knowledge of the setting right? + +Desire began to think that Uncle Oldways' theology might help her. + +What she said to him now was,-- + +"I want to do something. I should like to go and live with +Luclarion, I think, down there in Neighbor Street. I should like to +take hold of some other lives,--little children's, perhaps,"--and +here Desire's voice softened,--"that don't seem to have any business +to be, either, and see if I could help or straighten anything. Then +I feel is if I should know." + +"Then--according to the Scripture--you _would_ know. But--that's +undertaking a good deal. Luclarion Grapp has got there; but she has +been fifty-odd years upon the road. And she has been doing real +things all the time. That's what has brought her there. You can't +boss the world's hard jobs till you've been a journeyman at the easy +ones." + +"And I've missed my apprenticeship!" said Desire, with changed voice +and face, falling back into her disheartenment again. + +"No!" Uncle Oldways almost shouted. "Not if you come to the Master +who takes in the eleventh hour workers. And it isn't the eleventh +hour with you,--_child_!" + +He dwelt on that word "child," reminding her of her short mistaking +and of the long retrieval. Her nineteen years and the forever and +ever contrasted themselves before her suddenly, in the light of +hope. + +She turned sharply, though, to look at her duty. Her journeyman's +duty of easy things. + +"Must I go to Europe with my mother?" she asked again, the +conversation coming round to just that with which it had begun. + +"I'll talk with your mother," said Uncle Oldways, getting up and +looking into his hat, as a man always does when he thinks of putting +it on presently. "Good-night. I suppose you are tired enough now. +I'll come again and see you." + +Desire stood up and gave him her hand. + +"I thank you, Uncle Titus, with all my heart." + +He did not answer her a word; but he knew she meant it. + +He did not stop that night to see his niece. He went home, to think +it over. But as he walked down Borden Street, swinging his big +stick, he said to himself,-- + +"Next of kin! Old Marmaduke Wharne was right. But it takes more than +the Family Bible to tell you which it is!" + +Two days after, he had a talk with Mrs. Ledwith which relieved both +their minds. + +From the brown-and-apricot drawing-room,--from among the things +that stood for nothing now, and had never stood for home,--he went +straight up, without asking, and knocked at Desire's third-story +door. + +"Come in!" she said, without a note of expectation in her voice. + +She had had a dull morning. Helena had brought her a novel from +Loring's that she could not read. Novels, any more than life, cannot +be read with very much patience, unless they touch something besides +surface. Why do critics--some of them--make such short, smart +work,--such cheerful, confident despatch, nowadays, of a story with +religion in it, as if it were an abnormity,--a thing with sentence +of death in itself, like a calf born with two heads,--that needs not +their trouble, save to name it as it is? Why, that is, if religion +stand for the relation of things to spirit, which I suppose it +should? Somebody said that somebody had written a book made up of +"spiritual struggles and strawberry short-cake." That was bright and +funny; and it seemed to settle the matter; but, taking strawberry +short-cake representatively, what else is human experience on earth +made up of? And are novels to be pictures of human experience, or +not? + +This has nothing to do with present matters, however, except that +Desire found nothing real in her novel, and so had flung it aside, +and was sitting rather listlessly with her crochet which she never +cared much for, when Uncle Oldways entered. + +Her face brightened instantly as he came in. He sat down just where +he had sat the other night. Mr. Oldways had a fashion of finding the +same seat a second time when he had come in once; he was a man who +took up most things where he left them off, and this was an +unconscious sign of it. + +"Your mother has decided to sell the house on the 23d, it seems," he +said. + +"Yes; I have been out twice. I shall be able to go away by then; I +suppose that is all she has waited for." + +"Do you think you could be contented to come and live with me?" + +"Come and _live_?" + +"Yes. And let your mother and Helena go to Europe." + +"O, Uncle Oldways! I think I could _rest_ there! But I don't want +only to rest, you know. I must do something. For myself, to begin +with. I have made up my mind not to depend upon my mother. Why +should I, any more than a boy? And I am sure I cannot depend on +anybody else." + +These were Desire Ledwith's thanks; and Mr. Oldways liked them. She +did not say it to please him; she thought it seemed almost +ungrateful and unwilling; but she was so intent on taking up life +for herself. + +"You must have a place to do in,--or from," said Mr. Oldways. "And +it is better you should be under some protection. You must consent +to that for your mother's sake. How much money have you got?" + +"Two hundred and fifty dollars a year. Of my own." + +This was coming to business and calculation and common sense. Desire +was encouraged. Uncle Oldways did not think her quite absurd. + +"That will clothe you,--without much fuss and feathers?" + +"I have done with fuss and feathers,"--Desire said with a grave +smile, glancing at her plain white wrapper and the black shawl that +was folded around her. + +"Then come where is room for you and a welcome, and do as much more +as you please, and can, for yourself, or for anybody else. I won't +give you a cent; you shall have something to do for me, if you +choose. I am an old man now, and want help. Perhaps what I want as +much as anything is what I've been all my life till lately, pretty +obstinate in doing without." + +Uncle Oldways spoke short, and drew his breath in and puffed it out +between his sentences, in his bluff way; but his eyes were kind, as +he sat looking at the young girl over his hat and cane. + +She thought of the still, gray parlor; of Rachel Froke and her face +of peace; and the Quaker meeting and the crumbs last year; of Uncle +Oldways' study, and his shelves rich with books; of the new +understanding that had begun between herself and him, and the faith +she had found out, down beneath his hard reserves; of the beautiful +neighborhood, Miss Craydocke's Beehive, Aunt Franks' cheery home and +the ways of it, and Hazel's runnings in and out. It seemed as if the +real things had opened for her, and a place been made among them in +which she should have "business to be," and from which her life +might make a new setting forth. + +"And mamma knows?" she said, inquiringly, after that long pause. + +"Yes. I told you I would talk with her. That is what we came to. It +is only for you to say, now." + +"I will come. I shall be glad to come!" And her face was full of +light as she looked up and said it. + + * * * * * + +Desire never thought for a moment of what her mother could not help +thinking of; of what Mrs. Megilp thought and said, instantly, when +she learned it three weeks later. + +It is wonderful how abiding influence is,--even influence to which +we are secretly superior,--if ever we have been subjected to, or +allowed ourselves to be swayed by it. The veriest tyranny of +discipline grows into one's conscience, until years after, when life +has got beyond the tyranny, conscience,--or something superinduced +upon it,--keeps up the echo of the old mandates, and one can take no +comfort in doing what one knows all the time one has a perfect +right, besides sound reason, to do. It was a great while before our +grandmothers' daughters could peaceably stitch and overcast a seam, +instead of over-sewing and felling it. I know women who feel to this +moment as if to sit down and read a book of a week-day, in the +daytime, were playing truant to the needle, though all the +sewing-machines on the one hand, and all the demand and supply of +mental culture on the other, of this present changed and bettered +time, protest together against the absurdity. + +Mrs. Ledwith had heard the Megilp precepts and the Megilp +forth-putting of things, until involuntarily everything showed +itself to her in a Megilp light. The Megilp "sense of duty," +therefore, came up as she unhesitatingly assented to Uncle Oldways' +proposal and request. He wanted Desire; of course she could not say +a word; she owed him something, which she was glad she could so make +up; and secretly there whispered in her mind the suggestion which +Mrs. Megilp, on the other side of the water, spoke right out. + +"If he wants her, he must mean something by her. He is an old man; +he might not live to give her back into her mother's keeping; what +would she do there, in that old house of his, if he should die, +unless--he _does_ mean something? He has taken a fancy to her; she +is odd, as he is; and he isn't so queer after all, but that his +crotchets have a good, straightforward sense of justice in them. +Uncle Titus knows what he is about; and what's more, just what he +ought to be about. It is a good thing to have Desire provided for; +she is uncomfortable and full of notions, and she isn't likely ever +to be married." + +So Desire was given up, easily, she could not help feeling; but she +knew she had been a puzzle and a vexation to her mother, and that +Mrs. Ledwith had never had the least idea what to do with her; least +of all had she now, what she should do with her abroad. + +"It was so much better for her that Uncle Titus had taken her home." +With these last words Mrs. Ledwith reassured herself and cheered her +child. + +Perhaps it would have been the same--it came into Desire's head, +that would conceive strange things--if the angels had taken her. + +Mrs. Ledwith went to New York; she stayed a few days with Mrs. +Macmichael, who wanted her to buy lace for her in Brussels and +Bohemian glass in Prague; then a few days more with her cousin, +Geraldine Raxley; and then the _City of Antwerp_ sailed. + + + + +XX. + +NEIGHBORS AND NEXT OF KIN. + + +"I'll tell you what to do with them, Luclarion," said Hazel briskly. +"Teach them to play." + +"Music! Pianners!" exclaimed Luclarion, dismayed. + +"No. Games. Teach them to have good times. That was the first thing +ever we learnt, wasn't it, Dine? And we never could have got along +without it." + +"It takes _you_!" said Luclarion, looking at Hazel with delighted +admiration. + +"Does it? Well I don't know but it does. May I go, mother? +Luclarion, haven't you got a great big empty room up at the top of +the house?" + +Luclarion had. + +"That's just what it's for, then. Couldn't Mr. Gallilee put up a +swing? And a 'flying circle' in the middle? You see they can't go +out on the roofs; so they must have something else that will seem +kind of flighty. And _I'll_ tell you how they'll learn their +letters. Sulie and I will paint 'em; great big ones, all colors; and +hang 'em up with ribbons, and every child that learns one, so as to +know it everywhere, shall take it down and carry it home. Then we +will have marbles for numbers; and they shall play addition games, +and multiplication games, and get the sums for prizes; the ones that +get to the head, you know. Why, you don't understand _objects_, +Luclarion!" + +Luclarion had been telling them of the wild little folk of Neighbor +Street, and worse, of Arctic Street. She wanted to do something with +them. She had tried to get them in with gingerbread and popcorn; +they came in fast enough for those; but they would not stay. They +were digging in the gutters and calling names; learning the foul +language of the places into which they were born; chasing and hiding +in alley-ways; filching, if they could, from shops; going off +begging with lies on their lips. It was terrible to see the springs +from which the life of the city depths was fed. + +"If you could stop it _there_!" Luclarion said, and said with +reason. + +"Will you let me go?" asked Hazel of her mother, in good earnest. + +"'Twon't hurt her," put in Luclarion. "Nothing's catching that you +haven't got the seeds of in your own constitution. And so the +catching will be the other way." + +The seeds of good,--to catch good; that was what Luclarion Grapp +believed in, in those dirty little souls,--no, those clean little +_souls_, overlaid with all outward mire and filth of body, clothing, +speech, and atmosphere, for a mile about; through which they could +no more grope and penetrate, to reach their own that was hidden from +them in the clearer life beyond, than we can grope and reach to +other stars. + +"I will get Desire," quoth Hazel, inspired as she always was, both +ways. + +Running in at the house in Greenley Street the next Thursday, she +ran against Uncle Titus coming out. + +"What now?" he demanded. + +"Desire," said Hazel. "I've come for her. We're wanted at +Luclarion's. We've got work to do." + +"Humph! Work? What kind?" + +"Play," said Hazel, laughing. She delighted to bother and mystify +Uncle Titus, and imagined that she did. + +"I thought so. Tea parties?" + +"Something like," said Hazel. "There are children down there that +don't know how to grow up. They haven't any comfortable sort of +fashion of growing up. Somebody has got to teach them. They don't +know how to play 'Grand Mufti,' and they never heard of 'King George +and his troops.' Luclarion tried to make them sit still and learn +letters; but of course they wouldn't a minute longer than the +gingerbread lasted, and they are eating her out of house and home. +It will take young folks, and week-days, you see; so Desire and I +are going." And Hazel ran up the great, flat-stepped staircase. + +"Lives that have no business to be," said Uncle Titus to himself, +going down the brick walk. "The Lord has His own ways of bringing +lives together. And His own business gets worked out among them, +beyond their guessing. When a man grows old, he can stand still now +and then, and see a little." + +It was a short cross street that Luclarion lived in, between two +great thoroughfares crowded with life and business, bustle, +drudgery, idleness, and vice. You will not find the name I give +it,--although you may find one that will remind you of it,--in any +directory or on any city map. But you can find the places without +the names; and if you go down there with the like errands in your +heart, you will find the work, as she found it, to do. + +She heard the noise of street brawls at night, voices of men and +women quarreling in alley-ways, and up in wretched garrets; flinging +up at each other, in horrible words, all the evil they knew of in +each other's lives,--"away back," Luclarion said, "to when they were +little children." + +"And what is it," she would say to Mrs. Ripwinkley telling her +about it, "that _flings_ it up, and can call it a shame, after all +the shames of years and years? Except just _that_ that the little +children _were_, underneath, when the Lord let them--He knows +why--be born so? I tell you, ma'am, it's a mystery; and the nigher +you come to it, the more it is; it's a piece of hell and a piece of +heaven; it's the wrastle of the angel and the dragon; and it's going +on at one end, while they're building up their palaces and living +soft and sweet and clean at the other, with everything hushed up +that can't at least _seem_ right and nice and proper. I know there's +good folks there, in the palaces; _beautiful_ folks; there, and all +the way down between; with God's love in them, and His hate, that is +holy, against sin; and His pity, that is _prayers_ in them, for all +people and places that are dark; but if they would _come down_ +there, and take hold! I think it's them that would, that might have +part in the first resurrection, and live and reign the thousand +years." + +Luclarion never counted herself among them,--those who were to have +thrones and judgments; she forgot, even, that she had gone down and +taken hold; her words came burning-true, out of her soul; and in the +heat of truth they were eloquent. + +But I meant to tell you of her living. + +In the daytime it was quiet; the gross evils crept away and hid from +the sunshine; there was labor to take up the hours, for those who +did labor; and you might not know or guess, to go down those +avenues, that anything worse gathered there than the dust of the +world's traffic that the lumbering drays ground up continually with +their wheels, and the wind,--that came into the city from far away +country places of green sweetness, and over hills and ponds and +streams and woods,--flung into the little children's faces. + +Luclarion had taken a house,--one of two, that fronted upon a +little planked court; aside, somewhat, from Neighbor Street, as that +was a slight remove from the absolute terrible contact of Arctic +Street. But it was in the heart of that miserable quarter; she could +reach out her hands and touch and gather in, if it would let her, +the wretchedness. She had chosen a place where it was possible for +her to make a nook of refuge, not for herself only, or so much, as +for those to whom she would fain be neighbor, and help to a better +living. + +It had been once a dwelling of some well-to-do family of the days +gone by; of some merchant, whose ventures went out and came in at +those wharves below, whence the air swept up pure, then, with its +salt smell, into the streets. The rooms were fairly large; Luclarion +spent money out of her own little property, that had been growing by +care and saving till she could spare from it, in doing her share +toward having it all made as sweet and clean as mortar and whitewash +and new pine-boards and paint and paper could make it. All that was +left of the old, they scoured with carbolic soap; and she had the +windows opened, and in the chimneys that had been swept of their +soot she had clear fires made and kept burning for days. + +Then she put her new, plain furnishings into her own two down-stairs +rooms; and the Gallilees brought in theirs above; and beside them, +she found two decent families,--a German paper-hanger's, and that of +a carpenter at one of the theatres, whose wife worked at +dressmaking,--to take the rest. Away up, at the very top, she had +the wide, large room that Hazel spoke of, and a smaller one to which +she climbed to sleep, for the sake of air as near heaven as it could +be got. + +One of her lower-rooms was her living and housekeeping room; the +other she turned into a little shop, in which she sold tapes and +needles and cheap calicoes and a few ribbons; and kept a counter on +the opposite side for bread and yeast, gingerbread, candy, and the +like. She did this partly because she must do something to help out +the money for her living and her plans, and partly to draw the women +and children in. How else could she establish any relations between +herself and them, or get any permanent hold or access? She had +"turned it all over in her mind," she said; "and a tidy little shop +with fair, easy prices, was the very thing, and a part of just what +she came down there to do." + +She made real, honest, hop-raised bread, of sweet flour that she +gave ten dollars a barrel for; it took a little more than a pint, +perhaps, to make a tea loaf; that cost her three cents; she sold her +loaf for four, and it was better than they could get anywhere else +for five. Then, three evenings in a week, she had hot muffins, or +crumpets, home-made; (it was the subtle home touch and flavor that +she counted on, to carry more than a good taste into their mouths, +even a dim notion of home sweetness and comfort into their hearts;) +these first,--a quart of flour at five cents, two eggs at a cent +apiece, and a bit of butter, say three cents more, with three cents +worth of milk, made an outlay of fifteen cents for a dozen and a +half; so she sold them for ten cents a dozen, and the like had never +been tasted or dreamed of in all that region round about; no, nor I +dare almost to say, in half the region round about Republic Avenue +either, where they cannot get Luclarion Grapps to cook. + +The crumpets were cheaper; they were only bread-sponge, baked on a +griddle; they were large, and light and tender; a quart of flour +would make ten; she gave the ten for seven cents. + +And do you see, putting two cents on every quart of her flour, for +her labor, she _earned_, not _made_,--that word is for speculators +and brokers,--with a barrel of one hundred and ninety six pounds or +quarts, three dollars and ninety-two cents? The beauty of it was, +you perceive, that she did a small business; there was an eager +market for all she could produce, and there was no waste to allow a +margin for. + +I am not a bit of a political economist myself; but I have a shrewd +suspicion that Luclarion Grapp was, besides having hit upon the +initial, individual idea of a capital social and philanthropic +enterprise. + +This was all she tried to do at first; she began with bread; the +Lord from heaven began with that; she fed as much of the multitude +as she could reach; they gathered about her for the loaves; and they +got, consciously or unconsciously, more than they came or asked for. + +They saw her clean-swept floor; her netted windows that kept the +flies out, the clean, coarse white cotton shades,--tacked up, and +rolled and tied with cord, country-fashion, for Luclarion would not +set any fashions that her poor neighbors might not follow if they +would;--and her shelves kept always dusted down; they could see her +way of doing that, as they happened in at different times, when she +whisked about, lightly and nicely, behind and between her jars and +boxes and parcels with the little feather duster that she kept +hanging over her table where she made her change and sat at her +sewing. + +They grew ashamed by degrees,--those coarse women,--to come in in +their frowsy rags, to buy her delicate muffins or her white loaves; +they would fling on the cleanest shawl they had or could borrow, to +"cut round to Old Maid Grapp's," after a cent's worth of yeast,--for +her yeast, also, was like none other that could be got, and would +_almost_ make her own beautiful bread of itself. + +Back of the shop was her house-room; the cheapest and cleanest of +carpet,--a square, bound round with bright-striped carpet-binding,--laid +in the middle of a clean dark yellow floor; a plain pine table, scoured +white, standing in the middle of that; on it, at tea-time, common blue +and white crockery cups and plates, and a little black teapot; a napkin, +coarse, but fresh from the fold, laid down to save, and at the same +time to set off, with a touch of delicate neatness, the white table; +a wooden settee, with a home-made calico-covered cushion and pillows, +set at right angles with the large, black, speckless stove; a wooden +rocking-chair, made comfortable in like manner, on the other side; the +sink in the corner, clean, freshly rinsed, with the bright tin basin +hung above it on a nail. + +There was nothing in the whole place that must not be, in some +shape, in almost the poorest; but all so beautifully ordered, so +stainlessly kept. Through that open door, those women read a daily +sermon. + +And Luclarion herself,--in a dark cotton print gown, a plain strip +of white about the throat,--even that was cotton, not linen, and two +of them could be run together in ten minutes for a cent,--and a +black alpacca apron, never soiled or crumpled, but washed and ironed +when it needed, like anything else,--her hair smoothly gathered back +under a small white half-handkerchief cap, plain-hemmed,--was the +sermon alive; with the soul of it, the inner sweetness and purity, +looking out at them from clear pleasant eyes, and lips cheery with a +smile that lay behind them. + +She had come down there just to do as God told her to be a neighbor, +and to let her light shine. He would see about the glorifying. + +She did not try to make money out of her candy, or her ginger-nuts; +she kept those to entice the little children in; to tempt them to +come again when they had once done an errand, shyly, or saucily, or +hang-doggedly,--it made little difference which to her,--in her +shop. + +"I'll tell you what it's like," Hazel said, when she came in and +up-stairs the first Saturday afternoon with Desire, and showed and +explained to her proudly all Luclarion's ways and blessed +inventions. "It's like your mother and mine throwing crumbs to make +the pigeons come, when they were little girls, and lived in +Boston,--I mean _here_!" + +Hazel waked up at the end of her sentence, suddenly, as we all do +sometimes, out of talking or thinking, to the consciousness that it +was _here_ that she had mentally got round to. + +Desire had never heard of the crumbs or the pigeons. Mrs. Ledwith +had always been in such a hurry, living on, that she never stopped +to tell her children the sweet old tales of how she _had_ lived. Her +child-life had not ripened in her as it had done in Frank. + +Desire and Hazel went up-stairs and looked at the empty room. It was +light and pleasant; dormer windows opened out on a great area of +roofs, above which was blue sky; upon which, poor clothes fluttered +in the wind, or cats walked and stretched themselves safely and +lazily in the sun. + +"I always _do_ like roofs!" said Hazel. "The nicest thing in 'Mutual +Friend' is Jenny Wren up on the Jew's roof, being dead. It seems +like getting up over the world, and leaving it all covered up and +put away." + +"Except the old clothes," said Desire. + +"They're _washed_" answered Hazel, promptly; and never stopped to +think of the meaning. + +Then she jumped down from the window, along under which a great +beam made a bench to stand on, and looked about the chamber. + +"A swing to begin with," she said. "Why what is that? Luclarion's +got one!" + +Knotted up under two great staples that held it, was the long loop +of clean new rope; the notched board rested against the chimney +below. + +"It's all ready! Let's go down and catch one! Luclarion, we've come +to tea," she announced, as they reached the sitting-room. "There's +the shop bell!" + +In the shop was a woman with touzled hair and a gown with placket +split from gathers to hem, showing the ribs of a dirty skeleton +skirt. A child with one garment on,--some sort of woolen thing that +had never been a clean color, and was all gutter-color now,--the +woman holding the child by the hand here, in a safe place, in a way +these mothers have who turn their children out in the street dirt +and scramble without any hand to hold. No wonder, though, perhaps; +in the strangeness and unfitness of the safe, pure place, doubtless +they feel an uneasy instinct that the poor little vagabonds have got +astray, and need some holding. + +"Give us a four-cent loaf!" said the woman, roughly, her eyes +lowering under crossly furrowed brows, as she flung two coins upon +the little counter. + +Luclarion took down one, looked at it, saw that it had a pale side, +and exchanged it for another. + +"Here is a nice crusty one," she said pleasantly, turning to wrap it +in a sheet of paper. + +"None o' yer gammon! Give it here; there's your money; come along, +Crazybug!" And she grabbed the loaf without a wrapper, and twitched +the child. + +Hazel sat still. She knew there was no use. But Desire with her +point-black determination, went right at the boy, took hold of his +hand, dirt and all; it was disagreeable, therefore she thought she +must do it. + +"Don't you want to come and swing?" she said. + +"---- yer swing! and yer imperdence! Clear out! He's got swings +enough to home! Go to ----, and be ----, you ---- ---- ----!" + +Out of the mother's mouth poured a volley of horrible words, like a +hailstorm of hell. + +Desire fell back, as from a blinding shock of she knew not what. + +Luclarion came round the counter, quite calmly. + +"Ma'am," she said, "those words won't hurt _her_. She don't know the +language. But you've got God's daily bread in your hand; how can you +talk devil's Dutch over it?" + +The woman glared at her. But she saw nothing but strong, calm, +earnest asking in the face; the asking of God's own pity. + +She rebelled against that, sullenly; but she spoke no more foul +words. I think she could as soon have spoken them in the face of +Christ; for it was the Christ in Luclarion Grapp that looked out at +her. + +"You needn't preach. You can order me out of your shop, if you like. +I don't care." + +"I don't order you out. I'd rather you would come again. I don't +think you will bring that street-muck with you, though." + +There was both confidence and command in the word like the "Neither +do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more." It detached the street-muck +from the woman. It was not _she_; it was defilement she had picked +up, when perhaps she could not help it. She could scrape her shoes +at the door, and come in clean. + +"You know a darned lot about it, I suppose!" were the last words of +defiance; softened down, however, you perceive, to that which can be +printed. + +Desire was pale, with a dry sob in her throat, when the woman had +gone and Luclarion turned round. + +"The angels in heaven know; why shouldn't you?" said Luclarion. +"That's what we've got to help." + +A child came in afterwards, alone; with an actual clean spot in the +middle of her face, where a ginger-nut or an acid drop might go in. +This was a regular customer of a week past. The week had made that +clean spot; with a few pleasant and encouraging hints from +Luclarion, administered along with the gingerbread. + +Now it was Hazel's turn. + +The round mouth and eyes, with expectation in them, were like a spot +of green to Hazel, feeling with her witch-wand for a human spring. +But she spoke to Desire, looking cunningly at the child. + +"Let us go back and swing," she said. + +The girl's head pricked itself up quickly. + +"We've got a swing up-stairs," said Hazel, passing close by, and +just pausing. "A new one. I guess it goes pretty high; and it looks +out of top windows. Wouldn't you like to come and see?" + +The child lived down in a cellar. + +"Take up some ginger-nuts, and eat them there," said Luclarion to +Hazel. + +If it had not been for that, the girl would have hung back, afraid +of losing her shop treat. + +Hazel knew better than to hold out her hand, at this first essay; +she would do that fast enough when the time came. She only walked +on, through the sitting-room, to the stairs. + +The girl peeped, and followed. + +Clean stairs. She had never trodden such before. Everything was +strange and clean here, as she had never seen anything before in all +her life, except the sky and the white clouds overhead. Heaven be +thanked that they are held over us, spotless, always! + +Hazel heard the little feet, shuffling, in horrible, distorted +shoes, after her, over the steps; pausing, coming slowly but still +starting again, and coming on. + +Up on the high landing, under the skylight, she opened the door wide +into the dormer-windowed room, and went in; she and Desire, neither +of them looking round. + +Hazel got into the swing. Desire pushed; after three vibrations they +saw the ragged figure standing in the doorway, watching, turning its +head from side to side as the swing passed. + +"Almost!" cried Hazel, with her feet up at the window. "There!" She +thrust them out at that next swing; they looked as if they touched +the blue. + +"I can see over all the chimneys, and away off, down the water! Now +let the old cat die." + +Out again, with a spring, as the swinging slackened, she still took +no notice of the child, who would have run, like a wild kitten, if +she had gone after her. She called Desire, and plunged into a closet +under the eaves. + +"I wonder what's here!" she exclaimed. + +"Rats!" + +The girl in the doorway saw the dark, into which the low door +opened; she was used to rats in the dark. + +"I don't believe it," says Hazel; "Luclarion has a cut, a great big +buff one with green eyes. She came in over the roofs, and she runs +up here nights. I shouldn't wonder if there might be kittens, +though,--one of these days, at any rate. Why! what a place to play +'Dare' in! It goes way round, I don't know where! Look here, +Desire!" + +She sat on the threshold, that went up a step, over the beam, and so +leaned in. She had one eye toward the girl all the time, out of the +shadow. She beckoned and nodded, and Desire came. + +At the same moment, the coast being clear, the girl gave a sudden +scud across, and into the swing. She began to scuff with her +slipshod, twisted shoes, pushing herself. + +Hazel gave another nod behind her to Desire. Desire stood up, and as +the swing came back, pushed gently, touching the board only. + +The girl laughed out with the sudden thrill of the motion. Desire +pushed again. + +Higher and higher, till the feet reached up to the window. + +"There!" she cried; and kicked an old shoe off, out over the roof. +"I've lost my shoe!" + +"Never mind; it'll be down in the yard," said Hazel. + +Thereupon the child, at the height of her sweep again, kicked out +the other one. + +Desire and Hazel, together, pushed her for a quarter of an hour. + +"Now let's have ginger-cakes," said Hazel, taking them out of her +pocket, and leaving the "cat" to die. + +Little Barefoot came down at that, with a run; hanging to the rope +at one side, and dragging, till she tumbled in a sprawl upon the +floor. + +"You ought to have waited," said Desire. + +"Poh! I don't never wait!" cried the ragamuffin rubbing her elbows. +"I don't care." + +"But it isn't nice to tumble round," suggested Hazel. + +"I _ain't_ nice," answered the child, and settled the subject. + +"Well, these ginger-nuts are," said Hazel. "Here!" + +"Have you had a good time?" she asked when the last one was eaten, +and she led the way to go down-stairs. + +"Good time! That ain't nothin'! I've had a reg'lar bust! I'm comin' +agin'; it's bully. Now I must get my loaf and my shoes, and go along +back and take a lickin'." + +That was the way Hazel caught her first child. + +She made her tell her name,--Ann Fazackerley,--and promise to come +on Saturday afternoon, and bring two more girls with her. + +"We'll have a party," said Hazel, "and play Puss in the Corner. But +you must get leave," she added. "Ask your mother. I don't want you +to be punished when you go home." + +"Lor! you're green! I ain't got no mother. An' I always hooks jack. +I'm licked reg'lar when I gets back, anyway. There's half a dozen of +'em. When 'tain't one, it's another. That's Jane Goffey's bread; +she's been a swearin' after it this hour, you bet. But I'll +come,--see if I don't!" + +Hazel drew a hard breath as she let the girl go. Back to her crowded +cellar, her Jane Goffeys, the swearings, and the lickings. What was +one hour at a time, once or twice a week, to do against all this? + +But she remembered the clean little round in her face, out of which +eyes and mouth looked merrily, while she talked rough slang; the +same fun and daring,--nothing worse,--were in this child's face, +that might be in another's saying prettier words. How could she help +her words, hearing nothing but devil's Dutch around her all the +time? Children do not make the language they are born into. And the +face that could be simply merry, telling such a tale as that,--what +sort of bright little immortality must it be the outlook of? + +Hazel meant to try her hour. + + * * * * * + +This is one of my last chapters. I can only tell you now they +began,--these real folks,--the work their real living led them up +to. Perhaps some other time we may follow it on. If I were to tell +you now a finished story of it, I should tell a story ahead of the +world. + +I can show you what six weeks brought it to. I can show you them +fairly launched in what may grow to a beautiful private charity,--an +"Insecution,"--a broad social scheme,--a millennium; at any rate, a +life work, change and branch as it may, for these girls who have +found out, in their girlhood, that there is genuine living, not mere +"playing pretend," to be done in the world. But you cannot, in +little books of three hundred pages, see things through. I never +expected or promised to do that. The threescore years and ten +themselves, do not do it. + +It turned into regular Wednesday and Saturday afternoons. Three +girls at first, then six, then less again,--sometimes only one or +two; until they gradually came up to and settled at, an average of +nine or ten. + +The first Saturday they took them as they were. The next time they +gave them a stick of candy each, the first thing, then Hazel's +fingers were sticky, and she proposed the wash-basin all round, +before they went up-stairs. The bright tin bowl was ready in the +sink, and a clean round towel hung beside; and with some red and +white soap-balls, they managed to fascinate their dirty little +visitors into three clean pairs of hands, and three clean faces as +well. + +The candy and the washing grew to be a custom; and in three weeks' +time, watching for a hot day and having it luckily on a Saturday, +they ventured upon instituting a whole bath, in big round tubs, in +the back shed-room, where a faucet came in over a wash bench, and a +great boiler was set close by. + +They began with a foot-paddle, playing pond, and sailing chips at +the same time; then Luclarion told them they might have tubs full, +and get in all over and duck, if they liked; and children who may +hate to be washed, nevertheless are always ready for a duck and a +paddle. So Luclarion superintended the bath-room; Diana helped her; +and Desire and Hazel tended the shop. Luclarion invented a +shower-bath with a dipper and a colander; then the wet, tangled hair +had to be combed,--a climax which she had secretly aimed at with a +great longing, from the beginning; and doing this, she contrived +with carbolic soap and a separate suds, and a bit of sponge, to give +the neglected little heads a most salutary dressing. + +Saturday grew into bath-day; soap-suds suggested bubbles; and the +ducking and the bubbling were a frolic altogether. + +Then Hazel wished they could be put into clean clothes each time; +wouldn't it do, somehow? + +But that would cost. Luclarion had come to the limit of her purse; +Hazel had no purse, and Desire's was small. + +"But you see they've _got_ to have it," said Hazel; and so she went +to her mother, and from her straight to Uncle Oldways. + +They counted up,--she and Desire, and Diana; two little common +suits, of stockings, underclothes, and calico gowns, apiece; +somebody to do a washing once a week, ready for the change; and +then--"those horrid shoes!" + +"I don't see how you can do it," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "The things +will be taken away from them, and sold. You would have to keep +doing, over and over, to no purpose, I am afraid." + +"I'll see to that," said Luclarion, facing her "stump." "We'll do +for them we can do for; if it ain't ones, it will be tothers. Those +that don't keep their things, can't have 'em; and if they're taken +away, I won't sell bread to the women they belong to, till they're +brought back. Besides, the _washing_ kind of sorts 'em out, +beforehand. 'Taint the worst ones that are willing to come, or to +send, for that. You always have to work in at an edge, in anything, +and make your way as you go along. It'll regulate. I'm _living_ +there right amongst 'em; I've got a clew, and a hold; I can follow +things up; I shall have a 'circle;' there's circles everywhere. And +in all the wheels there's a moving _spirit_; you ain't got to depend +just on yourself. Things work; the Lord sees to it; it's _His_ +business as much as yours." + +Hazel told Uncle Titus that there were shoes and stockings and gowns +wanted down in Neighbor Street; things for ten children; they must +have subscriptions. And so she had come to him. + +The Ripwinkleys had never given Uncle Titus a Christmas or a +birthday present, for fear they should seem to establish a mutual +precedent. They had never talked of their plans which involved +calculation, before him; they were terribly afraid of just one thing +with him, and only that one,--of anything most distantly like what +Desire Ledwith called "a Megilp bespeak." But now Hazel went up to +him as bold as a lion. She took it for granted he was like other +people,--"real folks;" that he would do--what must be done. + +"How much will it cost?" + +"For clothes and shoes for each child, about eight dollars for three +months, we guess," said Hazel. "Mother's going to pay for the +washing!" + +"_Guess_? Haven't you calculated?" + +"Yes, sir. 'Guess' and 'calculate' mean the same thing in Yankee," +said Hazel, laughing. + +Uncle Titus laughed in and out, in his queer way, with his shoulders +going up and down. + +Then he turned round, on his swivel chair, to his desk, and wrote a +check for one hundred dollars. + +"There. See how far you can make that go." + +"That's good," said Hazel, heartily, looking at it; "that's +splendid!" and never gave him a word of personal thanks. It was a +thing for mutual congratulations, rather, it would seem; the "good" +was just what they all wanted, and there it was. Why should anybody +in particular be thanked, as if anybody in particular had asked for +anything? She did not say this, or think it; she simply did not +think about it at all. + +And Uncle Oldways--again--liked it. + +There! I shall not try, now, to tell you any more; their +experiences, their difficulties, their encouragements, would make +large material for a much larger book. I want you to know of the +idea, and the attempt. If they fail, partly,--if drunken fathers +steal the shoes, and the innocent have to forfeit for the +guilty,--if the bad words still come to the lips often, though Hazel +tells them they are not "nice,"--and beginning at the outside, they +are in a fair way of learning the niceness of being nice,--if some +children come once or twice, and get dressed up, and then go off +and live in the gutters again until the clothes are gone,--are these +real failures? There is a bright, pure place down there in Neighbor +Street, and twice a week some little children have there a bright, +pure time. Will this be lost in the world? In the great Ledger of +God will it always stand unbalanced on the debit side? + +If you are afraid it will fail,--will be swallowed up in the great +sink of vice and misery, like a single sweet, fresh drop, sweet only +while it is falling,--go and do likewise; rain down more; make the +work larger, stronger; pour the sweetness in faster, till the wide, +grand time of full refreshing shall have come from the presence of +the Lord! + +Ada Geoffrey went down and helped. Miss Craydocke is going to knit +scarlet stockings all winter for them; Mr. Geoffrey has put a +regular bath-room in for Luclarion, with half partitions, and three +separate tubs; Mrs. Geoffrey has furnished a dormitory, where little +homeless ones can be kept to sleep. Luclarion has her hands full, +and has taken in a girl to help her, whose board and wages Rachel +Froke and Asenath Scherman pay. A thing like that spreads every way; +you have only to be among, and one of--Real Folks. + + * * * * * + +Desire, besides her work in Neighbor Street, has gone into the +Normal School. She wants to make herself fit for any teaching; she +wants also to know and to become a companion of earnest, working +girls. + +She told Uncle Titus this, after she had been with him a month, and +had thought it over; and Uncle Titus agreed, quite as if it were no +real concern of his, but a very proper and unobjectionable plan for +her, if she liked it. + +One day, though, when Marmaduke Wharne--who had come this fall again +to stay his three days, and talk over their business,--sat with him +in his study, just where they had sat two years and a little more +ago, and Hazel and Desire ran up and down stairs together, in and +out upon their busy Wednesday errands,--Marmaduke said to Titus,-- + +"Afterwards is a long time, friend; but I mistrust you have found +the comfort, as well as the providence, of 'next of kin?'" + +"Afterwards _is_ a long time," said Titus Oldways, gravely; "but the +Lord's line of succession stretches all the way through." + +And that same night he had his other old friend, Miss Craydocke, in; +and he brought two papers that he had ready, quietly out to be +signed, each with four names: "Titus Oldways," by itself, on the one +side; on the other,-- + + "RACHEL FROKE, + MARMADUKE WHARNE, + KEREN-HAPPUCH CRAYDOCKE." + +And one of those two papers--which are no further part of the +present story, seeing that good old Uncle Titus is at this moment +alive and well, as he has a perfect right, and is heartily welcome +to be, whether the story ever comes to a regular winding up or +not--was laid safely away in a japanned box in a deep drawer of his +study table; and Marmaduke Wharne put the other in his pocket. + +He and Titus knew. I myself guess, and perhaps you do; but neither +you nor I, nor Rachel, nor Keren-happuch, know for certain; and it +is no sort of matter whether we do or not. + +The "next of kin" is a better and a deeper thing than any claim of +law or register of bequest can show. Titus Oldways had found that +out; and he had settled in his mind, to his restful and satisfied +belief, that God, to the last moment of His time, and the last +particle of His created substance, can surely care for and order and +direct His own. + +Is that end and moral enough for a two years' watchful trial and a +two years' simple tale? + + + + +XXI. + +THE HORSESHOE. + + +They laid out the Waite Place in this manner:-- + +Right into the pretty wooded pasture, starting from a point a little +way down the road from the old house, they projected a roadway which +swept round, horseshoe fashion, till it met itself again within a +space of some twenty yards or so; and this sweep made a +frontage--upon its inclosed bit of natural, moss-turfed green, +sprinkled with birch and pine and oak trees, and with gray +out-croppings of rock here and there--for the twenty houses, behind +which opened the rest of the unspoiled, irregular, open slope and +swell and dingle of the hill-foot tract that dipped down at one +reach, we know, to the river. + +The trees, and shrubs, and vines, and ferns, and stones, were left +in their wild prettiness; only some roughness of nature's wear and +tear of dead branches and broken brushwood, and the like, were taken +away, and the little footpaths cleared for pleasant walking. + +There were all the little shady, sweet-smelling nooks, just as they +had been; all the little field-parlors, opening with their winding +turns between bush and rock, one into another. The twenty households +might find twenty separate places, if they all wanted to take a +private out-door tea at once. + +The cellars were dug; the frames were up; workmen were busy with +brick and mortar, hammer and plane; two or three buildings were +nearly finished, and two--the two standing at the head of the +Horseshoe, looking out at the back into the deepest and pleasantest +wood-aisle, where the leaves were reddening and mellowing in the +early October frost, and the ferns were turning into tender +transparent shades of palest straw-color--were completed, and had +dwellers in them; the cheeriest, and happiest, and coziest of +neighbors; and who do you think these were? + +Miss Waite and Delia, of course, in one house; and with them, +dividing the easy rent and the space that was ample for four women, +were Lucilla Waters and her mother. In the other, were Kenneth and +Rosamond Kincaid and Dorris. + +Kenneth and Rosamond had been married just three weeks. Rosamond had +told him she would begin the world with him, and they had begun. +Begun in the simple, true old-fashioned way, in which, if people +only would believe it, it is even yet not impossible for young men +and women to inaugurate their homes. + +They could not have had a place at Westover, and a horse and buggy +for Kenneth to go back and forth with; nor even a house in one of +the best streets of Z----; and down at East Square everything was +very modern and pretentious, based upon the calculation of rising +values and a rush of population. + +But here was this new neighborhood of--well, yes,--"model houses;" a +blessed Christian speculation for a class not easily or often +reached by any speculations save those that grind and consume their +little regular means, by forcing upon them the lawless and arbitrary +prices of the day, touching them at every point in their _living_, +but not governing correspondingly their income, as even the +hod-carrier's and railroad navvy's daily pay is reached and ruled to +meet the proportion of the time. + +They would be plain, simple, little-cultured people that would live +there: the very "betwixt and betweens" that Rosamond had used to +think so hardly fated. Would she go and live among them, in one of +these little new, primitive homes, planted down in the pasture-land, +on the outskirts? Would she--the pretty, graceful, elegant +Rosamond--live semi-detached with old Miss Arabel Waite? + +That was just exactly the very thing she would do; the thing she did +not even let Kenneth think of first, and ask her, but that, when +they had fully agreed that they would begin life somehow, in some +right way together, according to their means, she herself had +questioned him if they might not do. + +And so the houses were hurried in the building; for old Miss Arabel +must have hers before the winter; (it seems strange how often the +change comes when one could not have waited any longer for it;) and +Kenneth had mill building, and surveying, and planning, in East +Square, and Mr. Roger Marchbanks' great gray-stone mansion going up +on West Hill, to keep him busy; work enough for any talented young +fellow, fresh from the School of Technology, who had got fair hold +of a beginning, to settle down among and grasp the "next things" +that were pretty sure to follow along after the first. + +Dorris has all Ruth's music scholars, and more; for there has never +been anybody to replace Miss Robbyns, and there are many young girls +in Z----, and down here in East Square, who want good teaching and +cannot go away to get it. She has also the organ-playing in the new +church. + +She keeps her morning hours and her Saturdays to help Rosamond; for +they are "coöperating" here, in the new home; what was the use, +else, of having coöperated in the old? Rosamond cannot bear to have +any coarse, profane fingers laid upon her little household +gods,--her wedding-tins and her feather dusters,--while the first +gloss and freshness are on, at any rate; and with her dainty handling, +the gloss is likely to last a long while. + +Such neighbors, too, as the Waites and Waterses are! How they helped +in the fitting up, running in in odd half hours from their own +nailing and placing, which they said could wait awhile, since they +weren't brides; and such real old times visiting as they have +already between the houses; coming and taking right hold, with +wiping up dinner plates as likely as not, if that is the thing in +hand; picking up what is there, as easily as "the girls" used to +help work out some last new pattern of crochet, or try over music, +or sort worsteds for gorgeous affghans for the next great fair! + +Miss Arabel is apt to come in after dinner, and have a dab at the +plates; she knows she interrupts nothing then; and she "has never +been used to sitting talking, with gloves on and a parasol in her +lap." And now she has given up trying to make impossible biases, she +has such a quantity of time! + +It was the matter of receiving visits from her friends who _did_ sit +with their parasols in their laps, or who only expected to see the +house, or look over wedding presents, that would be the greatest +hindrance, Rosamond realized at once; that is, if she would let it; +so she did just the funniest thing, perhaps, that ever a bride did +do: she set her door wide open from her pretty parlor, with its +books and flowers and pictures and window-draperies of hanging +vines, into the plain, cozy little kitchen, with its tin pans and +bright new buckets and its Shaker chairs; and when she was busy +there, asked her girl-friends right in, as she had used to take them +up into her bedroom, if she were doing anything pretty or had +something to show. + +And they liked it, for the moment, at any rate; they could not help +it; they thought it was lovely; a kind of bewitching little play at +keeping house; though some of them went away and wondered, and said +that Rosamond Holabird had quite changed all her way of living and +her position; it was very splendid and strong-minded, they supposed; +but they never should have thought it of her, and of course she +could not keep it up. + +"And the neighborhood!" was the cry. "The rabble she has got, and is +going to have, round her! All planks and sand, and tubs of mortar, +now; you have to half break your neck in getting up there; and when +it is settled it will be--such a frowze of common people! Why the +foreman of our factory has engaged a house, and Mrs. Haslam, who +actually used to do up laces for mamma, has got another!" + +That is what is said--in some instances--over on West Hill, when the +elegant visitors came home from calling at the Horseshoe. Meanwhile, +what Rosamond does is something like this, which she happened to do +one bright afternoon a very little while ago. + +She and Dorris had just made and baked a charming little tea-cake, +which was set on a fringed napkin in a round white china dish, and +put away in the fresh, oak-grained kitchen pantry, where not a crumb +or a slop had ever yet been allowed to rest long enough to defile or +give a flavor of staleness; out of which everything is tidily used +up while it is nice, and into which little delicate new-made bits +like this, for next meals, are always going. + +The tea-table itself,--with its three plates, and its new silver, +and the pretty, thin, shallow cups and saucers, that an Irish girl +would break a half-dozen of every week,--was laid with exquisite +preciseness; the square white napkins at top and bottom over the +crimson cloth, spread to the exactness of a line, and every knife +and fork at fair right angles; the loaf was upon the white carved +trencher, and nothing to be done when Kenneth should come in, but to +draw the tea, and bring the brown cake forth. + +Rosamond will not leave all these little doings to break up the +pleasant time of his return; she will have her leisure then, let her +be as busy as she may while he is away. + +There was an hour or more after all was done; even after the +Panjandrums had made their state call, leaving their barouche at the +heel of the Horseshoe, and filling up all Rosamond's little +vestibule with their flounces, as they came in and went out. + +The Panjandrums were new people at West Hill; very new and very +grand, as only new things and new people can be, turned out in the +latest style pushed to the last agony. Mrs. Panjandrum's dress was +all in two shades of brown, to the tips of her feathers, and the +toes of her boots, and the frill of her parasol; and her carriage +was all in two shades of brown, likewise; cushions, and tassels, +and panels; the horses themselves were cream-color, with dark +manes and tails. Next year, perhaps, everything will be in +pansy-colors,--black and violet and gold; and then she will probably +have black horses with gilded harness and royal purple tails. + +It was very good of the Panjandrums, doubtless, to come down to the +Horseshoe at all; I am willing to give them all the credit of really +admiring Rosamond, and caring to see her in her little new home; but +there are two other things to be considered also: the novel kind of +home Rosamond had chosen to set up, and the human weakness of +curiosity concerning all experiments, and friends in all new lights; +also the fact of that other establishment shortly to branch out of +the Holabird connection. The family could not quite go under water, +even with people of the Panjandrum persuasion, while there was such +a pair of prospective corks to float them as Mr. and Mrs. Dakie +Thayne. + +The Panjandrum carriage had scarcely bowled away, when a little +buggy and a sorrel pony came up the road, and somebody alighted with +a brisk spring, slipped the rein with a loose knot through the +fence-rail at the corner, and came up one side of the two-plank +foot-walk that ran around the Horseshoe; somebody who had come home +unexpectedly, to take his little wife to ride. Kenneth Kincaid had +business over at the new district of "Clarendon Park." + +Drives, and livery-stable bills, were no part of the items allowed +for, in the programme of these young people's living; therefore +Rosamond put on her gray hat, with its soft little dove's breast, +and took her bright-striped shawl upon her arm, and let Kenneth lift +her into the buggy--for which there was no manner of need except +that they both liked it,--with very much the feeling as if she were +going off on a lovely bridal trip. They had had no bridal trip, you +see; they did not really want one; and this little impromptu drive +was such a treat! + +Now the wonders of nature and the human mind show--if I must go so +far to find an argument for the statement I am making--that into a +single point of time or particle of matter may be gathered the +relations of a solar system or the experiences of a life; that a +universe may be compressed into an atom, or a molecule expanded into +a macrocosm; therefore I expect nobody to sneer at my Rosamond as +childishly nappy in her simple honeymoon, or at me for making +extravagant and unsupported assertions, when I say that this hour +and a half, and these four miles out to Clarendon Park and +back,--the lifting and the tucking in, and the setting off, the +sitting side by side in the ripe October air and the golden +twilight, the noting together every pretty turn, every flash of +autumn color in the woods, every change in the cloud-groupings +overhead, every glimpse of busy, bright-eyed squirrels up and down +the walls, every cozy, homely group of barnyard creatures at the +farmsteads, the change, the pleasure, the thought of home and +always-togetherness,--all this made the little treat of a country +ride as much to them, holding all that any wandering up and down the +whole world in their new companionship could hold,--as a going to +Europe, or a journey to mountains and falls and sea-sides and +cities, in a skimming of the States. You cannot have more than there +is; and you do not care, for more than just what stands for and +emphasizes the essential beauty, the living gladness, that no +_place_ gives, but that hearts carry about into places and baptize +them with, so that ever afterward a tender charm hangs round them, +because "we saw it _then_." + +And Kenneth and Rosamond Kincaid had all these bright associations, +these beautiful glamours, these glad reminders, laid up for years to +come, in a four miles space that they might ride or walk over, +re-living it all, in the returning Octobers of many other years. I +say they had a bridal tour that day, and that the four miles were as +good as four thousand. Such little bits of signs may stand for such +high, great, blessed things! + +"How lovely stillness and separateness are!" said Rosamond as they +sat in the buggy, stopping to enjoy a glimpse of the river on one +side, and a flame of burning bushes on the other, against the dark +face of a piece of woods that held the curve of road in which they +stood, in sheltered quiet. "How pretty a house would be, up on that +knoll. Do you know things puzzle me a little, Kenneth? I have almost +come to a certain conclusion lately, that people are not meant to +live apart, but that it is really everybody's duty to live in a +town, or a village, or in some gathering of human beings together. +Life tends to that, and all the needs and uses of it; and yet,--it +is so sweet in a place like this,--and however kind and social you +may be, it seems once in a while such an escape! Do you believe in +beautiful country places, and in having a little piece of creation +all to yourself, if you can get it, or if not what do you suppose +all creation is made for?" + +"Perhaps just that which you have said, Rose." Rosamond has now, +what her mother hinted once, somebody to call her "Rose," with a +happy and beautiful privilege. "Perhaps to escape into. Not for one, +here and there, selfishly, all the time; but for the whole, with +fair share and opportunity. Creation is made very big, you see, and +men and women are made without wings, and with very limited hands +and feet. Also with limited lives; that makes the time-question, and +the hurry. There is a suggestion,--at any rate, a necessity,--in +that. It brings them within certain spaces, always. In spite of all +the artificial lengthening of railroads and telegraphs, there must +still be centres for daily living, intercourse, and need. People +tend to towns; they cannot establish themselves in isolated +independence. Yet packing and stifling are a cruelty and a sin. I do +not believe there ought to be any human being so poor as to be +forced to such crowding. The very way we are going to live at the +Horseshoe, seems to me an individual solution of the problem. It +ought to come to pass that our towns should be built--and if built +already, wrongly, _thinned out_,--on this principle. People are +coming to learn a little of this, and are opening parks and squares +in the great cities, finding that there must be room for bodies and +souls to reach out and breathe. If they could only take hold of some +of their swarming-places, where disease and vice are festering, and +pull down every second house and turn it into a garden space, I +believe they would do more for reform and salvation than all their +separate institutions for dealing with misery after it is let grow, +can ever effect." + +"O, why _can't_ they?" cried Rose. "There is money enough, +somewhere. Why can't they do it, instead of letting the cities grow +horrid, and then running away from it themselves, and buying acres +and acres around their country places, for fear somebody should come +too near, and the country should begin to grow horrid too?" + +"Because the growing and the crowding and the striving of the city +_make_ so much of the money, little wife! Because to keep everybody +fairly comfortable as the world goes along, there could not be so +many separate piles laid up; it would have to be used more as it +comes, and it could not come so fast. If nobody cared to be very +rich, and all were willing to live simply and help one another, in +little 'horseshoe neighborhoods,' there wouldn't be so much that +looks like grand achievement in the world perhaps; but I think maybe +the very angels might show themselves out of the unseen, and bring +the glory of heaven into it!" + +Kenneth's color came, and his eyes glowed, as he spoke these words +that burst into eloquence with the intensity of his meaning; and +Rosamond's face was holy-pale, and her look large, as she listened; +and they were silent for a minute or so, as the pony, of his own +accord, trotted deliberately on. + +"But then, the beauty, and the leisure, and all that grows out of +them to separate minds, and what the world gets through the +refinement of it! You see the puzzle comes back. Must we never, in +this life, gather round us the utmost that the world is capable of +furnishing? Must we never, out of this big creation, have the piece +to ourselves, each one as he would choose?" + +"I think the Lord would show us a way out of that," said Kenneth. "I +think He would make His world turn out right, and all come to good +and sufficient use, if we did not put it in a snarl. Perhaps we can +hardly guess what we might grow to all together,--'the whole body, +fitly joined by that which every joint supplieth, increasing and +building itself up in love.' And about the quietness, and the +separateness,--we don't want to _live_ in that, Rose; we only want +it sometimes, to make us fitter to live. When the disciples began to +talk about building tabernacles on the mountain of the vision, +Christ led them straight down among the multitude, where there was a +devil to be cast out. It is the same thing in the old story of the +creation. God worked six days, and rested one." + +"Well," said Rose, drawing a deep breath, "I am glad we have begun +at the Horseshoe! It was a great escape for me, Kenneth. I am such a +worldly girl in my heart. I should have liked so much to have +everything elegant and artistic about me." + +"I think you do. I think you always will. Not because of the +worldliness in you, though; but the _other_-worldliness, the sense +of real beauty and truth. And I am glad that we have begun at all! +It was a greater escape for me. I was in danger of all sorts of +hardness and unbelief. I had begun to despise and hate things, +because they did not work rightly just around me. And then I fell +in, just in time, with some real, true people; and then you came, +with the 'little piece of your world,' and then I came here, and saw +what your world was, and how you were making it, Rose! How a little +community of sweet and generous fellowship was crystallizing here +among all sorts--outward sorts--of people; a little community of the +kingdom; and how you and yours had done it." + +"O, Kenneth! I was the worst little atom in the whole crystal! I +only got into my place because everybody else did, and there was +nothing else left for me to do." + +"You see I shall never believe that," said Kenneth, quietly. "There +is no flaw in the crystal. You were all polarized alike. And +besides, can't I see daily just how your nature draws and points?" + +"Well, never mind," said Rose. "Only some particles are natural +magnets, I believe, and some get magnetized by contact. Now that we +have hit upon this metaphor, isn't it funny that our little social +experiment should have taken the shape of a horseshoe?" + +"The most sociable, because the most magnetic, shape it could take. +You will see the power it will develop. There's a great deal in +merely taking form according to fundamental principles. Witness the +getting round a fireside. Isn't that a horseshoe? And could half as +much sympathy be evolved from a straight line?" + +"I believe in firesides," said Rose. + +"And in women who can organize and inform them," said Kenneth. +"First, firesides; then neighborhoods; that is the way the world's +life works out; and women have their hands at the heart of it. They +can do so much more there than by making the laws! When the life is +right, the laws will make themselves, or be no longer needed. They +are such mere outside patchwork,--makeshifts till a better time!" + +"Wrong living must make wrong laws, whoever does the voting," said +Rosamond, sagely. + +"False social standards make false commercial ones; inflated +pretensions demand inflated currency; selfish, untrue domestic +living eventuates in greedy speculations and business shams; and all +in the intriguing for corrupt legislation, to help out partial +interests. It isn't by multiplying the voting power, but by +purifying it, that the end is to be reached." + +"That is so sententious, Kenneth, that I shall have to take it home +and ravel it out gradually in my mind in little shreds. In the mean +while, dear, suppose we stop in the village, and get some little +brown-ware cups for top-overs. You never ate any of my top-overs? +Well, when you do, you'll say that all the world ought to be brought +up on top-overs." + +Rosamond was very particular about her little brown-ware cups. They +had to be real stone,--brown outside, and gray-blue in; and they +must be of a special size and depth. When they were found, and done +up in a long parcel, one within another, in stout paper, she carried +it herself to the chaise, and would scarcely let Kenneth hold it +while she got in; after which, she laid it carefully across her lap, +instead of putting it behind upon the cushion. + +'You see they were rather dear; but they are the only kind worth +while. Those little yellow things would soak and crack, and never +look comfortable in the kitchen-closet. I give you very fair +warning, I shall always want the best of things but then I shall +take very fierce and jealous care of them,--like this.' + +And she laid her little nicely-gloved hand across her homely +parcel, guardingly. + +How nice it was to go buying little homely things together! Again, +it was as good and pleasant,--and meant ever so much more,--than if +it had been ordering china with a monogram in Dresden, or glass in +Prague, with a coat-of-arms engraved. + +When they drove up to the Horseshoe, Dakie Thayne and Ruth met them. +They had been getting "spiritual ferns" and sumach leaves with +Dorris; "the dearest little tips," Ruth said, "of scarlet and +carbuncle, just like jets of fire." + +And now they would go back to tea, and eat up the brown cake? + +"Real Westover summum-bonum cake?" Dakie wanted to know. "Well, he +couldn't stand against that. Come, Ruthie!" And Ruthie came. + +"What do you think Rosamond says?" said Kenneth, at the tea-table, +over the cake. "That everybody ought to live in a city or a village, +or, at least, a Horseshoe. She thinks nobody has a right to stick +his elbows out, in this world. She's in a great hurry to be packed +as closely as possible here." + +"I wish the houses were all finished, and our neighbors in; that is +what I said," said Rosamond. "I should like to begin to know about +them, and feel settled; and to see flowers in their windows, and +lights at night." + +"And you always hated so a 'little crowd!'" said Ruth. + +"It isn't a crowd when they _don't_ crowd," said Rosamond. "I can't +bear little miserable jostles." + +"How good it will be to see Rosamond here, at the head of her court; +at the top of the Horseshoe," said Dakie Thayne. "She will be quite +the 'Queen of the County.'" + +"Don't!" said Rosamond. "I've a very weak spot in my head. You can't +tell the mischief you might do. No, I won't be queen!" + +"Any more than you can help," said Dakie. + +"She'll be Rosa Mundi, wherever she is," said Ruth affectionately. + +"I think that is just grand of Kenneth and Rosamond," said Dakie +Thayne, as he and Ruth were walking home up West Hill in the +moonlight, afterward. "What do you think you and I ought to do, one +of these days, Ruthie? It sets me to considering. There are more +Horseshoes to make, I suppose, if the world is to jog on." + +"_You_ have a great deal to consider about," said Ruth, +thoughtfully. "It was quite easy for Kenneth and Rosamond to +see what they ought to do. But you might make a great many +Horseshoes,--or something!" + +"What do you mean by that second person plural, eh? Are you shirking +your responsibilities, or are you addressing your imaginary +Boffinses? Come, Ruthie, I can't have that! Say 'we,' and I'll face +the responsibilities and talk it all out; but I won't have anything +to do with 'you!'" + +"Won't you?" said Ruth, with piteous demureness. "How can I say +'we,' then?" + +"You little cat! How you can scratch!" + +"There are such great things to be done in the world Dakie," Ruth +said seriously, when they had got over that with a laugh that lifted +her nicely by the "we" question. "I can't help thinking of it." + +"O," said Dakie, with significant satisfaction. "We're getting on +better. Well?" + +"Do you know what Hazel Ripwinkley is doing? And what Luclarion +Grapp has done? Do you know how they are going among poor people, in +dreadful places,--really living among them, Luclarion is,--and +finding out, and helping, and showing how? I thought of that +to-night, when they talked about living in cities and villages. +Luclarion has gone away down to the very bottom of it. And somehow, +one can't feel satisfied with only reaching half-way, when one +knows--and might!" + +"Do you mean, Ruthie, that you and I might go and _live_ in such +places? Do you think I could take you there?" + +"I don't know, Dakie," Ruth answered, forgetting in her earnestness, +to blush or hesitate for what he said;--"but I feel as if we ought +to reach down, somehow,--_away_ down! Because that, you see, is the +_most_. And to do only a little, in an easy way, when we are made so +strong to do; wouldn't it be a waste of power, and a missing of the +meaning? Isn't it the 'much' that is required of us, Dakie?" + +They were under the tall hedge of the Holabird "parcel of ground," +on the Westover slope, and close to the home gates. Dakie Thayne put +his arm round Ruth as she said that, and drew her to him. + +"We will go and be neighbors somewhere, Ruthie. And we will make as +big a Horseshoe as we can." + + + + +XXII. + +MORNING GLORIES. + + +And Desire? + +Do you think I have passed her over lightly in her troubles? Or do +you think I am making her out to have herself passed over them +lightly? + +Do you think it is hardly to be believed that she should have turned +round from these shocks and pains that bore down so heavily and all +at once upon her, and taken kindly to the living with old Uncle +Titus and Rachel Froke in the Greenley Street house, and going down +to Luclarion Grapp's to help wash little children's faces, and teach +them how to have innocent good times? Do you think there is little +making up in all that for her, while Rosamond Kincaid is happy in +her new home, and Ruth and Dakie Thayne are looking out together +over the world,--which can be nowhere wholly sad to them, since they +are to go down into it together,--and planning how to make long arms +with their wealth, to reach the largest neighborhood they can? In +the first place, do you know how full the world is, all around you, +of things that are missed by those who say nothing, but go on living +somehow without them? Do you know how large a part of life, even +young life, is made of the days that have never been lived? Do you +guess how many girls, like Desire, come near something that they +think they might have had, and then see it drift by just beyond +their reach, to fall easily into some other hand that seems hardly +put out to grasp it? + +And do you see, or feel, or guess how life goes on, incompleteness +and all, and things settle themselves one way, if not another, +simply because the world does not stop, but keeps turning, and +tossing off days and nights like time-bubbles just the same? + +Do you ever imagine how different this winter's parties are from +last, or this summer's visit or journey from those of the summer +gone,--to many a maiden who has her wardrobe made up all the same, +and takes her German or her music lessons, and goes in and out, and +has her ticket to the Symphony Concerts, and is no different to look +at, unless perhaps with a little of the first color-freshness gone +out of her face,--while secretly it seems to her as if the sweet +early symphony of her life were all played out, and had ended in a +discord? + +We begin, most of us, much as we are to go on. Real or mistaken, the +experiences of eighteen initiate the lesson that those of two and +three score after years are needed to unfold and complete. What is +left of us is continually turning round, perforce, to take up with +what is left of the world, and make the best of it. + +Thus much for what does happen, for what we have to put up with, for +the mere philosophy of endurance, and the possibility of things +being endured. We do live out our years, and get and bear it all. +And the scars do not show much outside; nay, even we ourselves can +lay a finger on the place, after a little time, without a cringe. + +Desire Ledwith did what she had to do; there was a way made for her, +and there was still life left. + +But there is a better reading of the riddle. There is never a +"Might-have-been" that touches with a sting, but reveals also to us +an inner glimpse of the wide and beautiful "May Be." It is all +there; somebody else has it now while we wait; but the years of God +are full of satisfying, each soul shall have its turn; it is His +good _pleasure_ to give us the kingdom. There is so much room, there +are such thronging possibilities, there is such endless hope! + +To feel this, one must feel, however dimly, the inner realm, out of +which the shadows of this life come and pass, to interpret to us the +laid up reality. + +"The real world is the inside world." + +Desire Ledwith blessed Uncle Oldways in her heart for giving her +that word. + +It comforted her for her father. If his life here had been hard, +toilsome, mistaken even; if it had never come to that it might have +come to; if she, his own child, had somehow missed the reality of +him here, and he of her,--was he not passed now into the within? +Might she not find him there; might they not silently and +spiritually, without sign, but needing no sign, begin to understand +each other now? Was not the real family just beginning to be born +into the real home? + +Ah, that word _real_! How deep we have to go to find the root of it! +It is fast by the throne of God; in the midst. + +Hazel Ripwinkley talked about "real folks." She sifted, and she +found out instinctively the true livers, the genuine _neahburs_, +nigh-dwellers; they who abide alongside in spirit, who shall find +each other in the everlasting neighborhood, when the veil falls. + +But there, behind,--how little, in our petty outside vexations or +gladnesses, we stop to think of or perceive it!--is the actual, even +the present, inhabiting; there is the kingdom, the continuing city, +the real heaven and earth in which we already live and labor, and +build up our homes and lay up our treasure and the loving Christ, +and the living Father, and the innumerable company of angels, and +the unseen compassing about of friends gone in there, and they on +this earth who truly belong to us inwardly, however we and they may +be bodily separated,--are the Real Folks! + +What matters a little pain, outside? Go _in_, and rest from it! + +There is where the joy is, that we read outwardly, spelling by +parts imperfectly, in our own and others' mortal experience; there +is the content of homes, the beauty of love, the delight of +friendship,--not shut in to any one or two, but making the common +air that all souls breathe. No one heart can be happy, that all +hearts may not have a share of it. Rosamond and Kenneth, Dakie and +Ruth, cannot live out obviously any sweetness of living, cannot +sing any notes of the endless, beautiful score, that Desire +Ledwith, and Luclarion Grapp, and Rachel Froke, and Hapsie +Craydocke, and old Miss Arabel Waite, do not just as truly get the +blessed grace and understanding of; do not catch and feel the +perfect and abounding harmony of. Since why? No lip can sound more +than its own few syllables of music; no life show more than its +own few accidents and incidents and groupings; the vast melody, +the rich, eternal satisfying, are behind; and the signs are for us +all! + +You may not think this, or see it so, in your first tussle and +set-to with the disappointing and eluding things that seem the real +and only,--missing which you miss all. This chapter may be less to +you--less _for_ you, perhaps--than for your elders; the story may +have ended, as to that you care for, some pages back; but for all +that, this is certain; and Desire Ledwith has begun to find it, for +she is one of those true, grand spirits to whom personal loss or +frustration are most painful as they seem to betoken something +wrong or failed in the general scheme and justice. This terrible +"why should it be?" once answered,--once able to say to themselves +quietly, "It is all right; the beauty and the joy are there; the +song is sung, though we are of the listeners; the miracle-play is +played, though but a few take literal part, and many of us look on, +with the play, like the song, moving through our souls only, or our +souls moving in the vital sphere of it, where the stage is wide +enough for all;"--once come to this, they have entered already into +that which is behind, and nothing of all that goes forth thence into +the earth to make its sunshine can be shut off from them forever. + +Desire is learning to be glad, thinking of Kenneth and Rosamond, +that this fair marriage should have been. It is so just and exactly +best; Rosamond's sweet graciousness is so precisely what Kenneth's +sterner way needed to have shine upon it; her finding and making of +all manner of pleasantness will be so good against his sharp +discernment of the wrong; they will so beautifully temper and +sustain each other! + +Desire is so generous, so glad of the truth, that she can stand +aside, and let this better thing be, and say to herself that it _is_ +better. + +Is not this that she is growing to inwardly, more blessed than any +marriage or giving in marriage? Is it not a partaking of the +heavenly Marriage Supper? + +"We two might have grumbled at the world until we grumbled at each +other." + +She even said that, calmly and plainly, to herself. + +And then that manna was fed to her afresh of which she had been +given first to eat so long a while ago; that thought of "the Lamb in +the midst of the Throne" came back to her. Of the Tenderness deep +within the Almightiness that holds all earth and heaven and time and +circumstance in its grasp. Her little, young, ignorant human heart +begins to rest in that great warmth and gentleness; begins to be +glad to wait there for what shall arise out of it, moving the +Almightiness for her,--even on purpose for her,--in the by-and-by; +she begins to be sure; of what, she knows not,--but of a great, +blessed, beautiful something, that just because she is at all, shall +be for her; that she shall have a part, somehow, even in the +_showing_ of His good; that into the beautiful miracle-play she +shall be called, and a new song be given her, also, to sing in the +grand, long, perfect oratorio; she begins to pray quietly, that, +"loving the Lord, always above all things, she may obtain His +promises, which exceed all that she can desire." + +And waiting, resting, believing, she begins also to work. This +beginning is even as an ending and forehaving, to any human soul. + +I will tell you how she woke one morning; of a little poem that +wrote itself along her chamber wall. + +It was a square, pleasant old room, with a window in an angle toward +the east. A great, old-fashioned mirror hung opposite, between the +windows that looked out north-westwardly; the morning and the +evening light came in upon her. Beside the solid, quaint old +furnishings of a long past time, there were also around her the +things she had been used to at home; her own little old +rocking-chair, her desk and table, and her toilet and mantel +ornaments and things of use. A pair of candle-branches with dropping +lustres,--that she had marveled at and delighted in as a child, and +had begged for herself when they fell into disuse in the +drawing-room,--stood upon the chimney along which the first +sun-rays glanced. Just in those days of the year, they struck in so +as to shine level through the clear prisms, and break into a hundred +little rainbows. + +She opened her eyes, this fair October morning, and lay and looked +at the little scattered glories. + +All around the room, on walls, curtains, ceiling,--falling like +bright soft jewels upon table and floor, touching everything with a +magic splendor,--were globes and shafts of colored light. Softly +blended from glowing red to tenderly fervid blue, they lay in +various forms and fragments, as the beam refracted or the objects +caught them. + +Just on the edge of the deep, opposite window-frame, clung one +vivid, separate flash of perfect azure, all alone, and farthest off +of all. + +Desire wondered, at first glance, how it should happen till she saw, +against a closet-door ajar, a gibbous sphere of red and golden +flame. Yards apart the points were, and a shadow lay between; but +the one sure sunbeam knew no distance, and there was no radiant line +of the spectrum lost. + +Desire remembered her old comparison of complementary colors: "to +see blue, and to live red," she had said, complaining. + +But now she thought,--"Foreshortening! In so many things, that is +all,--if we could only see as the Sun sees!" + +One bit of our living, by itself, all one deep, burning, bleeding +color, maybe; but the globe is white,--the blue is somewhere. And, +lo! a soft, still motion; a little of the flame-tint has dropped +off; it has leaped to join itself to the blue; it gives itself over; +and they are beautiful together,--they fulfill each other; yet, in +the changing never a thread falls quite away into the dark. Why, it +is like love joining itself to love again! + +As God's sun climbs the horizon, His steadfast, gracious purpose, +striking into earthly conditions, seems to break, and scatter, and +divide. Half our heart is here, half there; our need and ache are +severed from their help and answer; the tender blue waits far off +for the eager, asking red; yet just as surely as His light shines +on, and our life moves under it, so surely, across whatever gulf, +the beauty shall all be one again; so surely does it even now move +all together, perfect and close always under His eye, who never +sends a _half_ ray anywhere. + + * * * * * + +She read her little poem,--sent to her; she read it through. She +rose up glad and strong; her room was full of glorious sunshine now; +the broken bits of color were all taken up in one full pouring of +the day. + +She went down with the light of it in her heart, and all about her. + +Uncle Oldways met her at the foot of the wide staircase. "Good-day, +child!" he said to her in his quaint fashion. "Why it _is_ good day! +Your face shines." + +"You have given me a beautiful east window, uncle," said Desire, +"and the morning has come in!" + +And from the second step, where she still stood, she bent forward a +little, put her hands softly upon his shoulders, and for the first +time, kissed his cheek. + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 13997 *** diff --git a/13997-h/13997-h.htm b/13997-h/13997-h.htm new file mode 100644 index 0000000..e0c868d --- /dev/null +++ b/13997-h/13997-h.htm @@ -0,0 +1,12885 @@ +<!DOCTYPE HTML PUBLIC "-//W3C//DTD HTML 4.01 Transitional//EN"> +<html> +<head> +<meta http-equiv="Content-Type" content="text/html; charset=UTF-8"> +<title>The Project Gutenberg eBook of Real Folks, by Mrs. A. D. T. 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D. T. Whitney</h1> +<hr class="full" noshade> +<br><br><br><br> + +<h1> + REAL FOLKS +</h1> +<br> +<h4> +BY +</h4> + +<h2> +M<small>RS</small>. A. D. T. WHITNEY +</h2> + +<br> +<h5>1893</h5> +<br> +<br> + +<hr class="long"> +<br> +<br> +<br> + <h3>CONTENTS</h3> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0001"> +I. THIS WAY, AND THAT</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0002"> +II. LUCLARION</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0003"> +III. BY STORY-RAIL: TWENTY-SIX YEARS AN HOUR</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0004"> +IV. AFTERWARDS IS A LONG TIME</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0005"> +V. HOW THE NEWS CAME TO HOMESWORTH</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0006"> +VI. AND</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0007"> +VII. WAKING UP</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0008"> +VIII. EAVESDROPPING IN ASPEN STREET</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0009"> +IX. HAZEL'S INSPIRATION</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0010"> +X. COCKLES AND CRAMBO</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0011"> +XI. MORE WITCH-WORK</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0012"> +XII. CRUMBS</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0013"> +XIII. PIECES OF WORLDS</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0014"> +XIV. "SESAME; AND LILIES"</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0015"> +XV. WITH ALL ONE'S MIGHT</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0016"> +XVI. SWARMING</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0017"> +XVII. QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0018"> +XVIII. ALL AT ONCE</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0019"> +XIX. INSIDE</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0020"> +XX. NEIGHBORS AND NEXT OF KIN</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0021"> +XXI. THE HORSESHOE </a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0022"> +XXII. MORNING GLORIES</a></p> +<br> +<br> +<br> +<hr class="long"> +<br> +<br> +<a name="2H_4_0001"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + I. +</h2> + + +<h3>THIS WAY, AND THAT. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +The parlor blinds were shut, and all the windows of the third-story +rooms were shaded; but the pantry window, looking out on a long low +shed, such as city houses have to keep their wood in and to dry +their clothes upon, was open; and out at this window had come two +little girls, with quiet steps and hushed voices, and carried their +books and crickets to the very further end, establishing themselves +there, where the shade of a tall, round fir tree, planted at the +foot of the yard below, fell across the building of a morning. +</p> +<p> +"It was prettier down on the bricks," Luclarion had told them. But +they thought otherwise. +</p> +<p> +"Luclarion doesn't know," said Frank. "People <i>don't</i> know things, I +think. I wonder why, when they've got old, and ought to? It's like +the sea-shore here, I guess, only the stones are all stuck down, and +you mustn't pick up the loose ones either." +</p> +<p> +Frank touched lightly, as she spoke, the white and black and gray +bits of gravel that covered the flat roof. +</p> +<p> +"And it smells—like the pine forests!" +</p> +<p> +The sun was hot and bright upon the fir branches and along the +tar-cemented roof. +</p> +<p> +"How do you know about sea-shores and pine forests?" asked Laura, +with crushing common sense. +</p> +<p> +"I don't know; but I do," said Frank. +</p> +<p> +"You don't know anything but stories and pictures and one tree, and +a little gravel, all stuck down tight." +</p> +<p> +"I'm glad I've got one tree. And the rest of it,—why listen! It's +in the <i>word</i>, Laura. <i>Forest</i>. Doesn't that sound like thousands of +them, all fresh and rustling? And Ellen went to the sea-shore, in +that book; and picked up pebbles; and the sea came up to her feet, +just as the air comes up here, and you can't get any farther,"—said +Frank, walking to the very edge and putting one foot out over, while +the wind blew in her face up the long opening between rows of brick +houses of which theirs was in the midst upon one side. +</p> +<p> +"A great sea!" exclaimed Laura, contemptuously. "With all those +other wood-sheds right out in it, all the way down!" +</p> +<p> +"Well, there's another side to the sea; and capes, and islands," +answered Frank, turning back. "Besides, I don't pretend it <i>is</i>; I +only think it seems a little bit like it. I'm often put in mind of +things. I don't know why." +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you what it is like," said Laura. "It's like the gallery +at church, where the singers stand up in a row, and look down, and +all the people look up at them. I like high places. I like Cecilia, +in the 'Bracelets,' sitting at the top, behind, when her name was +called out for the prize; and 'they all made way, and she was on the +floor in an instant.' I should like to have been Cecilia!" +</p> +<p> +"Leonora was a great deal the best." +</p> +<p> +"I know it; but she don't <i>stand out</i>." +</p> +<p> +"Laura! You're just like the Pharisees! You're always wishing for +long clothes and high seats!" +</p> +<p> +"There ain't any Pharisees, nowadays," said Laura, securely. After +which, of course, there was nothing more to be insisted. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Lake, the housekeeper, came to the middle upper window, and +moved the blind a little. Frank and Laura were behind the fir. They +saw her through the branches. She, through the farther thickness of +the tree, did not notice them. +</p> +<p> +"That was good," said Laura. "She would have beckoned us in. I hate +that forefinger of hers; it's always hushing or beckoning. It's only +two inches long. What makes us have to mind it so?" +</p> +<p> +"She puts it all into those two inches," answered Frank. "All the +<i>must</i> there is in the house. And then you've got to." +</p> +<p> +"I wouldn't—if father wasn't sick." +</p> +<p> +"Laura," said Frank, gravely, "I don't believe father is going to +get well. What do you suppose they're letting us stay at home from +school for?" +</p> +<p> +"O, that," said Laura, "was because Mrs. Lake didn't have time to +sew the sleeves into your brown dress." +</p> +<p> +"I could have worn my gingham, Laura. What if he should die pretty +soon? I heard her tell Luclarion that there must be a change before +long. They talk in little bits, Laura, and they say it solemn." +</p> +<p> +The children were silent for a few minutes. Frank sat looking +through the fir-tree at the far-off flecks of blue. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Shiere had been ill a long time. They could hardly think, now, +what it would seem again not to have a sick father; and they had had +no mother for several years,—many out of their short remembrance of +life. Mrs. Lake had kept the house, and mended their clothes, and +held up her forefinger at them. Even when Mr. Shiere was well, he +had been a reserved man, much absorbed in business since his wife's +death, he had been a very sad man. He loved his children, but he was +very little with them. Frank and Laura could not feel the shock and +loss that children feel when death comes and robs them suddenly of a +close companionship. +</p> +<p> +"What do you suppose would happen then?" asked Laura, after awhile. +"We shouldn't be anybody's children." +</p> +<p> +"Yes, we should," said Frank; "we should be God's.' +</p> +<p> +"Everybody else is that,—<i>besides</i>," said Laura. +</p> +<p> +"We shall have black silk pantalets again, I suppose,"—she began, +afresh, looking down at her white ones with double crimped +ruffles,—"and Mrs. Gibbs will come in and help, and we shall have +to pipe and overcast." +</p> +<p> +"O, Laura, how nice it was ever so long ago!" cried Frank, suddenly, +never heeding the pantalets, "when mother sent us out to ask company +to tea,—that pleasant Saturday, you know,—and made lace pelerines +for our dolls while we were gone! It's horrid, when other girls have +mothers, only to have a <i>housekeeper</i>! And pretty soon we sha'n't +have anything, only a little corner, away back, that we can't hardly +recollect." +</p> +<p> +"They'll do something with us; they always do," said Laura, +composedly. +</p> +<p> +The children of this world, even <i>as</i> children, are wisest in their +generation. Frank believed they would be God's children; she could +not see exactly what was to come of that, though, practically. Laura +knew that people always did something; something would be sure to +be done with them. She was not frightened; she was even a little +curious. +</p> +<p> +A head came up at the corner of the shed behind them, a pair of +shoulders,—high, square, turned forward; a pair of arms, long +thence to the elbows, as they say women's are who might be good +nurses of children; the hands held on to the sides of the steep +steps that led up from the bricked yard. The young woman's face was +thin and strong; two great, clear, hazel eyes looked straight out, +like arrow shots; it was a clear, undeviating glance; it never +wandered, or searched, or wavered, any more than a sunbeam; it +struck full upon whatever was there; it struck <i>through</i> many things +that were transparent to their quality. She had square, white, +strong teeth, that set together like the faces of a die; they showed +easily when she spoke, but the lips closed over them absolutely and +firmly. Yet they were pleasant lips, and had a smile in them that +never went quite out; it lay in all the muscles of the mouth and +chin; it lay behind, in the living spirit that had moulded to itself +the muscles. +</p> +<p> +This was Luclarion. +</p> +<p> +"Your Aunt Oldways and Mrs. Oferr have come. Hurry in!" +</p> +<p> +Now Mrs. Oldways was only an uncle's wife; Mrs. Oferr was their +father's sister. But Mrs. Oferr was a rich woman who lived in New +York, and who came on grand and potent, with a scarf or a pair of +shoe-bows for each of the children in her big trunk, and a hundred +and one suggestions for their ordering and behavior at her tongue's +end, once a year. Mrs. Oldways lived up in the country, and was +"aunt" to half the neighborhood at home, and turned into an aunt +instantly, wherever she went and found children. If there were no +children, perhaps older folks did not call her by the name, but they +felt the special human kinship that is of no-blood or law, but is +next to motherhood in the spirit. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Oferr found the open pantry window, before the children had +got in. +</p> +<p> +"Out there!" she exclaimed, "in the eyes of all the neighbors in the +circumstances of the family! Who does, or <i>don't</i> look after you?" +</p> +<p> +"Hearts'-sake!" came up the pleasant tones of Mrs. Oldways from +behind, "how can they help it? There isn't any other out-doors. If +they were down at Homesworth now, there'd be the lilac garden and +the old chestnuts, and the seat under the wall. Poor little souls!" +she added, pitifully, as she lifted them in, and kissed them. "It's +well they can take any comfort. Let 'em have all there is." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Oferr drew the blinds, and closed the window. +</p> +<p> +Frank and Laura remembered the strangeness of that day all their +lives. How they sat, shy and silent, while Luclarion brought in cake +and wine; how Mrs. Oferr sat in the large morocco easy-chair and +took some; and Mrs. Oldways lifted Laura, great girl as she was, +into her lap first, and broke a slice for her; how Mrs. Oldways went +up-stairs to Mrs. Lake, and then down into the kitchen to do +something that was needed; and Mrs. Oferr, after she had visited her +brother, lay down in the spare chamber for a nap, tired with her +long journey from New York, though it had been by boat and cars, +while there was a long staging from Homesworth down to Nashua, on +Mrs. Oldways' route. Mrs. Oldways, however, was "used," she said, +"to stepping round." It was the sitting that had tired her. +</p> +<p> +How they were told not to go out any more, or to run up and +down-stairs; and how they sat in the front windows, looking out +through the green slats at so much of the street world as they could +see in strips; how they obtained surreptitious bits of bread from +dinner, and opened a bit of the sash, and shoved out crumbs under +the blinds for the pigeons that flew down upon the sidewalk; how +they wondered what kind of a day it was in other houses, where there +were not circumstances in the family, where children played, and +fathers were not ill, but came and went to and from their stores; +and where two aunts had not come, both at once, from great ways off, +to wait for something strange and awful that was likely to befall. +</p> +<p> +When they were taken in, at bedtime, to kiss their father and say +good-night, there was something portentous in the stillness there; +in the look of the sick man, raised high against the pillows, and +turning his eyes wistfully toward them, with no slightest movement +of the head; in the waiting aspect of all things,—the appearance as +of everybody being to sit up all night except themselves. +</p> +<p> +Edward Shiere brought his children close to him with the magnetism +of that look; they bent down to receive his kiss and his good-night, +so long and solemn. He had not been in the way of talking to them +about religion in his life. He had only insisted on their truth and +obedience; that was the beginning of all religion. Now it was given +him in the hour of his death what he should speak; and because he +had never said many such words to them before, they fell like the +very touch of the Holy Ghost upon their young spirits now,— +</p> +<p> +"Love God, and keep His commandments. Good-by." +</p> +<p> +In the morning, when they woke, Mrs. Lake was in their room, talking +in a low voice with Mrs. Oferr, who stood by an open bureau. They +heard Luclarion dusting down the stairs. +</p> +<p> +Who was taking care of their father? +</p> +<p> +They did not ask. In the night, he had been taken care of. It was +morning with him, now, also. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Lake and Mrs. Oferr were calculating,—about black pantalets, +and other things. +</p> +<p> +This story is not with the details of their early orphan life. When +Edward Shiere was buried came family consultations. The two aunts +were the nearest friends. Nobody thought of Mr. Titus Oldways. He +never was counted. He was Mrs. Shiere's uncle,—Aunt Oldways' +uncle-in-law, therefore, and grand-uncle to these children. But +Titus Oldways never took up any family responsibilities; he had been +shy of them all his single, solitary life. He seemed to think he +could not drop them as he could other things, if he did not find +them satisfactory. Besides, what would he know about two young +girls? +</p> +<p> +He saw the death in the paper, and came to the funeral; then he went +away again to his house in Greenley Street at the far West End, and +to his stiff old housekeeper, Mrs. Froke, who knew his stiff old +ways. And, turning his back on everybody, everybody forgot all about +him. Except as now and then, at intervals of years, there broke out +here or there, at some distant point in some family crisis, a sudden +recollection from which would spring a half suggestion, "Why, +there's Uncle Titus! If he was only,"—or, "if he would only,"—and +there it ended. Much as it might be with a housewife, who says of +some stored-away possession forty times, perhaps, before it ever +turns out available, "Why, there's that old gray taffety! If it were +only green, now!" or, "If there were three or four yards more of +it!" +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus was just Uncle Titus, neither more nor less; so Mrs. +Oferr and Aunt Oldways consulted about their own measures and +materials; and never reckoned the old taffety at all. There was +money enough to clothe and educate; little more. +</p> +<p> +"I will take home <i>one</i>," said Mrs. Oferr, distinctly. +</p> +<p> +So, they were to be separated? +</p> +<p> +They did not realize what this was, however. They were told of +letters and visits; of sweet country-living, of city sights and +pleasures; of kittens and birds' nests, and the great barns; of +music and dancing lessons, and little parties,—"by-and-by, when it +was proper." +</p> +<p> +"Let me go to Homesworth," whispered Frank to Aunt Oldways. +</p> +<p> +Laura gravitated as surely to the streets and shops, and the great +school of young ladies. +</p> +<p> +"One taken and the other left," quoted Luclarion, over the packing +of the two small trunks. +</p> +<p> +"We're both going," says Laura, surprised. "<i>One</i> taken? Where?" +</p> +<p> +"Where the carcass is," answered Luclarion. +</p> +<p> +"There's one thing you'll have to see to for yourselves. I can't +pack it. It won't go into the trunks." +</p> +<p> +"What, Luclarion?" +</p> +<p> +"What your father said to you that night." +</p> +<p> +They were silent. Presently Frank answered, softly,—"I hope I +shan't forget that." +</p> +<p> +Laura, the pause once broken, remarked, rather glibly, that she "was +afraid there wouldn't be much chance to recollect things at Aunt +Oferr's." +</p> +<p> +"She isn't exactly what I call a heavenly-minded woman," said +Luclarion, quietly. +</p> +<p> +"She is very much <i>occupied</i>," replied Laura, grandly taking up the +Oferr style. "She visits a great deal, and she goes out in the +carriage. You have to change your dress every day for dinner, and +I'm to take French lessons." +</p> +<p> +The absurd little sinner was actually proud of her magnificent +temptations. She was only a child. Men and women never are, of +course. +</p> +<p> +"I'm afraid it will be pretty hard to remember," repeated Laura, +with condescension. +</p> +<p> +"<i>That's</i> your stump!" +</p> +<p> +Luclarion fixed the steadfast arrow of her look straight upon her, +and drew the bow with this twang. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0002"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + II. +</h2> +<h3> + LUCLARION. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +How Mrs. Grapp ever came to, was the wonder. Her having the baby was +nothing. Her having the name for it was the astonishment. +</p> +<p> +Her own name was Lucy; her husband's Luther: that, perhaps, +accounted for the first syllable; afterwards, whether her mind +lapsed off into combinations of such outshining appellatives as +"Clara" and "Marion," or whether Mr. Grapp having played the +clarionet, and wooed her sweetly with it in her youth, had anything +to do with it, cannot be told; but in those prescriptive days of +quiet which followed the domestic advent, the name did somehow grow +together in the fancy of Mrs. Luther; and in due time the life-atom +which had been born indistinguishable into the natural world, was +baptized into the Christian Church as "Luclarion" Grapp. +Thenceforth, and no wonder, it took to itself a very especial +individuality, and became what this story will partly tell. +</p> +<p> +Marcus Grapp, who had the start of Luclarion in this "meander,"—as +their father called the vale of tears,—by just two years' time, and +was y-<i>clipped</i>, by everybody but his mother "Mark,"—in his turn, +as they grew old together, cut his sister down to "Luke." Then +Luther Grapp called them both "The Apostles." And not far wrong; +since if ever the kingdom of heaven does send forth its +Apostles—nay, its little Christs—into the work on earth, in these +days, it is as little children into loving homes. +</p> +<p> +The Apostles got up early one autumn morning, when Mark was about +six years old, and Luke four. They crept out of their small +trundle-bed in their mother's room adjoining the great kitchen, and +made their way out softly to the warm wide hearth. +</p> +<p> +There were new shoes, a pair apiece, brought home from the Mills the +night before, set under the little crickets in the corners. These +had got into their dreams, somehow, and into the red rooster's first +halloo from the end room roof, and into the streak of pale daylight +that just stirred and lifted the darkness, and showed doors and +windows, but not yet the blue meeting-houses on the yellow +wall-paper, by which they always knew when it was really morning; +and while Mrs. Grapp was taking that last beguiling nap in which one +is conscious that one means to get up presently, and rests so +sweetly on one's good intentions, letting the hazy mirage of the +day's work that is to be done play along the horizon of dim thoughts +with its unrisen activities,—two little flannel night-gowns were +cuddled in small heaps by the chimney-side, little bare feet were +trying themselves into the new shoes, and lifting themselves up, +crippled with two inches of stout string between the heels. +</p> +<p> +Then the shoes were turned into spans of horses, and chirruped and +trotted softly into their cricket-stables; and then—what else was +there to do, until the strings were cut, and the flannel night-gowns +taken off? +</p> +<p> +It was so still out here, in the big, busy, day-time room; it was +like getting back where the world had not begun; surely one must do +something wonderful with the materials all lying round, and such an +opportunity as that. +</p> +<p> +It was old-time then, when kitchens had fire-places; or rather the +house was chiefly fire-place, in front of and about which was more +or less of kitchen-space. In the deep fire-place lay a huge mound of +gray ashes, a Vesuvius, under which red bowels of fire lay hidden. +In one corner of the chimney leaned an iron bar, used sometimes in +some forgotten, old fashioned way, across dogs or pothooks,—who +knows now? At any rate, there it always was. +</p> +<p> +Mark, ambitious, put all his little strength to it this morning and +drew it down, carefully, without much clatter, on the hearth. Then +he thought how it would turn red under those ashes, where the big +coals were, and how it would shine and sparkle when he pulled it out +again, like the red-hot, hissing iron Jack-the-Giant-Killer struck +into the one-eyed monster's eye. So he shoved it in; and forgot it +there, while he told Luke—very much twisted and dislocated, and +misjoined—the leading incidents of the giant story; and then lapsed +off, by some queer association, into the Scripture narrative of +Joseph and his brethren, who "pulled his red coat off, and put him +in a <i>fit</i>, and left him there." +</p> +<p> +"And then what?" says Luke. +</p> +<p> +"Then,—O, my iron's done! See here, Luke!"—and taking it prudently +with the tongs, he pulled back the rod, till the glowing end, a foot +or more of live, palpitating, flamy red, lay out upon the broad open +bricks. +</p> +<p> +"There, Luke! You daresn't put your foot on <i>that</i>!" +</p> +<p> +Dear little Luke, who wouldn't, at even four years old, be dared! +</p> +<p> +And dear little white, tender, pink-and-lily foot! +</p> +<p> +The next instant, a shriek of pain shot through Mrs. Grapp's ears, +and sent her out of her dreams and out of her bed, and with one +single impulse into the kitchen, with her own bare feet, and in her +night-gown. +</p> +<p> +The little foot had only touched; a dainty, timid, yet most +resolute touch; but the sweet flesh shriveled, and the fierce +anguish ran up every fibre of the baby body, to the very heart and +brain. +</p> +<p> +"O! O, O!" came the long, pitiful, shivering cries, as the mother +gathered her in her arms. +</p> +<p> +"What is it? What did you do? How came you to?" And all the while +she moved quickly here and there, to cupboard and press-drawer, +holding the child fast, and picking up as she could with one hand, +cotton wool, and sweet-oil flask, and old linen bits; and so she +bound it up, saying still, every now and again, as all she could +say,—"What <i>did</i> you do? How came you to?" +</p> +<p> +Till, in a little lull of the fearful smart, as the air was shut +away, and the oil felt momentarily cool upon the ache, Luke answered +her,— +</p> +<p> +"He hed I dare-hn't, and ho I did!" +</p> +<p> +"You little fool!" +</p> +<p> +The rough word was half reaction of relief, that the child could +speak at all, half horrible spasm of all her own motherly nerves +that thrilled through and through with every pang that touched the +little frame, hers also. Mothers never do part bonds with babies +they have borne. Until the day they die, each quiver of their life +goes back straight to the heart beside which it began. +</p> +<p> +"You Marcus! What did you mean?" +</p> +<p> +"I meant she darsn't; and she no business to 'a dars't," said Mark, +pale with remorse and fright, but standing up stiff and manful, with +bare common sense, when brought to bay. And then he marched away +into his mother's bedroom, plunged his head down into the clothes, +and cried,—harder than Luclarion. +</p> +<p> +Nobody wore any new shoes that day; Mark for a punishment,—though +he flouted at the penalty as such, with an, "I guess you'd see me!" +And there were many days before poor little Luclarion could wear any +shoes at all. +</p> +<p> +The foot got well, however, without hindrance. But Luke was the same +little fool as ever; that was not burnt out. She would never be +"dared" to anything. +</p> +<p> +They called it "stumps" as they grew older. They played "stumps" all +through the barns and woods and meadows; over walls and rocks, and +rafters and house-roofs. But the burnt foot saved Luke's neck scores +of times, doubtless. Mark remembered it; he never "stumped" her to +any certain hurt, or where he could not lead the way himself. +</p> +<p> +The mischief they got into and out of is no part of my story; but +one day something happened—things do happen as far back in lives as +that—which gave Luclarion her clew to the world. +</p> +<p> +They had got into the best parlor,—that sacred place of the New +England farm-house, that is only entered by the high-priests +themselves on solemn festivals, weddings and burials, Thanksgivings +and quiltings; or devoutly, now and then to set the shrine in order, +shut the blinds again, and so depart, leaving it to gather the gloom +and grandeur that things and places and people do when they are good +for nothing else. +</p> +<p> +The children had been left alone; for their mother had gone to a +sewing society, and Grashy, the girl, was up-stairs in her +kitchen-chamber-bedroom, with a nail over the door-latch to keep +them out while she "fixed over" her best gown. +</p> +<p> +"Le's play Lake Ontario," says Marcus. +</p> +<p> +Now Lake Ontario, however they had pitched upon it, stood with them +for all the waters that are upon the face of the earth, and all the +confusion and peril of them. To play it, they turned the room into +one vast shipwreck, of upset and piled up chairs, stools, boxes, +buckets, and what else they could lay hands on; and among and over +them they navigated their difficult and hilarious way. By no means +were they to touch the floor; that was the Lake,—that were to +drown. +</p> +<p> +It was Columbus sometimes; sometimes it was Captain Cook; to-day, it +was no less than Jason sailing after the golden fleece. +</p> +<p> +Out of odd volumes in the garret, and out of "best books" taken down +from the secretary in the "settin'-room," and put into their hands, +with charges, of a Sunday, to keep them still, they had got these +things, jumbled into strange far-off and near fantasies in their +childish minds. "Lake Ontario" included and connected all. +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you what it is," said Marcus, tumbling up against the +parlor door and an idea at once. "In here!" +</p> +<p> +"What?" asked Luke, breathless, without looking up, and paddling +with the shovel, from an inverted rocking-chair. +</p> +<p> +"The golden thing! Hush!" +</p> +<p> +At this moment Grashy came into the kitchen, took a little tin +kettle from a nail over the dresser, and her sun-bonnet from another +behind the door, and made her way through the apartment as well as +she could for bristling chair-legs, with exemplary placidity. She +was used to "Lake Ontario." +</p> +<p> +"Don't get into any mischief, you Apostles," was her injunction. +"I'm goin' down to Miss Ruddock's for some 'east." +</p> +<p> +"Good,"; says Mark, the instant the door was shut "Now this is +Colchis, and I'm going in." +</p> +<p> +He pronounced it much like "cold-cheese," and it never occurred to +him that he was naming any unusual or ancient locality. There was a +"Jason" in the Mills Village. He kept a grocer's shop. Colchis might +be close by for all he knew; out beyond the wall, perhaps, among the +old barrels. Children <i>place</i> all they read or hear about, or even +all they imagine, within a very limited horizon. They cannot go +beyond their world. Why should they? Neither could those very +venerable ancients. +</p> +<p> +"'Tain't," says Luclarion, with unbeguiled practicality. "It's just +ma's best parlor, and you mustn't." +</p> +<p> +It was the "mustn't" that was the whole of it. If Mark had asserted +that the back kitchen, or the cellar-way closet was Colchis, she +would have indorsed it with enthusiasm, and followed on like a loyal +Argonaut, as she was. But her imagination here was prepossessed. +Nothing in old fable could be more environed with awe and mystery +than this best parlor. +</p> +<p> +"And, besides," said Luclarion, "I don't care for the golden +fleece; I'm tired of it. Let's play something else." +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you what there is in here," persisted Mark. "There's two +enchanted children. I've seen 'em!" +</p> +<p> +"Just as though," said Luke contemptuously. "Ma ain't a witch." +</p> +<p> +"Tain't ma. She don't know. They ain't visible to her. <i>She</i> thinks +it's nothing but the best parlor. But it opens out, right into the +witch country,—not for her. 'Twill if we go. See if it don't." +</p> +<p> +He had got hold of her now; Luclarion could not resist that. +Anything might be true of that wonderful best room, after all. It +was the farthest Euxine, the witch-land, everything, to them. +</p> +<p> +So Mark turned the latch and they crept in +</p> +<p> +"We must open a shutter," Mark said, groping his way. +</p> +<p> +"Grashy will be back," suggested Luke, fearfully. +</p> +<p> +"Guess so!" said Mark. "She ain't got coaxed to take her sun-bonnet +off yet, an' it'll take her ninety-'leven hours to get it on again." +</p> +<p> +He had let in the light now from the south window. +</p> +<p> +The red carpet on the floor; the high sofa of figured hair-cloth, +with brass-headed nails, and brass rosettes in the ends of the hard, +cylinder pillows; the tall, carved cupboard press, its doors and +drawers glittering with hanging brass handles; right opposite the +door by which they had come in, the large, leaning mirror, +gilt—garnished with grooved and beaded rim and an eagle and +ball-chains over the top,—all this, opening right in from the +familiar every-day kitchen and their Lake Ontario,—it certainly +meant something that such a place should be. It meant a great deal +more than sixteen feet square could hold, and what it really was did +not stop short at the gray-and-crimson stenciled walls. +</p> +<p> +The two were all alone in it; perhaps they had never been all alone +in it before. I think, notwithstanding their mischief and +enterprise, they never had. +</p> +<p> +And deep in the mirror, face to face with them, coming down, it +seemed, the red slant of an inner and more brilliant floor, they saw +two other little figures. Their own they knew, really, but elsewhere +they never saw their own figures entire. There was not another +looking-glass in the house that was more than two feet long, and +they were all hung up so high! +</p> +<p> +"There!" whispered Mark. "There they are, and they can't get out." +</p> +<p> +"Of course they can't," said sensible Luclarion. +</p> +<p> +"If we only knew the right thing to say, or do, they might," said +Mark. "It's that they're waiting for, you see. They always do. It's +like the sleeping beauty Grashy told us." +</p> +<p> +"Then they've got to wait a hundred years," said Luke. +</p> +<p> +"Who knows when they began?" +</p> +<p> +"They do everything that we do," said Luclarion, her imagination +kindling, but as under protest. "If we could jump in perhaps they +would jump out." +</p> +<p> +"We might jump <i>at</i> 'em," said Marcus. "Jest get 'em going, and +may-be they'd jump over. Le's try." +</p> +<p> +So they set up two chairs from Lake Ontario in the kitchen doorway, +to jump from; but they could only jump to the middle round of the +carpet, and who could expect that the shadow children should be +beguiled by that into a leap over bounds? They only came to the +middle round of <i>their</i> carpet. +</p> +<p> +"We must go nearer; we must set the chairs in the middle, and jump +close. Jest <i>shave</i>, you know," said Marcus. +</p> +<p> +"O, I'm afraid," said Luclarion. +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you what! Le's <i>run</i> and jump! Clear from the other side +of the kitchen, you know. Then they'll have to run too, and may-be +they can't stop." +</p> +<p> +So they picked up chairs and made a path, and ran from across the +broad kitchen into the parlor doorway, quite on to the middle round +of the carpet, and then with great leaps came down bodily upon the +floor close in front of the large glass that, leaned over them, with +two little fallen figures in it, rolling aside quickly also, over +the slanting red carpet. +</p> +<p> +But, O dear what did it? +</p> +<p> +Had the time come, anyhow, for the old string to part its last +fibre, that held the mirror tilting from the wall,—or was it the +crash of a completed spell? +</p> +<p> +There came a snap,—a strain,—as some nails or screws that held it +otherwise gave way before the forward pressing weight, and down, +flat-face upon the floor, between the children, covering them with +fragments of splintered glass and gilded wood,—eagle, ball-chains, +and all,—that whole magnificence and mystery lay prostrate. +</p> +<p> +Behind, where it had been, was a blank, brown-stained cobwebbed +wall, thrown up harsh and sudden against them, making the room +small, and all the enchanted chamber, with its red slanting carpet, +and its far reflected corners, gone. +</p> +<p> +The house hushed up again after that terrible noise, and stood just +the same as ever. When a thing like that happens, it tells its own +story, just once, and then it is over. <i>People</i> are different. They +keep talking. +</p> +<p> +There was Grashy to come home. She had not got there in time to hear +the house tell it. She must learn it from the children. Why? +</p> +<p> +"Because they knew," Luclarion said. "Because, then, they could not +wait and let it be found out." +</p> +<p> +"We never touched it," said Mark. +</p> +<p> +"We jumped," said Luke. +</p> +<p> +"We couldn't help it, if <i>that</i> did it. S'posin' we'd jumped in the +kitchen, or—the—flat-irons had tumbled down,—or anything? That +old string was all wore out." +</p> +<p> +"Well, we was here, and we jumped; and we know." +</p> +<p> +"We was here, of course; and of course we couldn't help knowing, +with all that slam-bang. Why, it almost upset Lake Ontario! We can +tell how it slammed, and how we thought the house was coming down. I +did." +</p> +<p> +"And how we were in the best parlor, and how we jumped," reiterated +Luclarion, slowly. "Marcus, it's a stump!" +</p> +<p> +They were out in the middle of Lake Ontario now, sitting right down +underneath the wrecks, upon the floor; that is, under water, without +ever thinking of it. The parlor door was shut, with all that +disaster and dismay behind it. +</p> +<p> +"Go ahead, then!" said Marcus, and he laid himself back desperately +on the floor. "There's Grashy!" +</p> +<p> +"Sakes and patience!" ejaculated Grashy, merrily, coming in. +"They're drownded,—dead, both of 'em; down to the bottom of Lake +Ontariah!" +</p> +<p> +"No we ain't," said Luclarion, quietly. "It isn't Lake Ontario now. +It's nothing but a clutter. But there's an awful thing in the best +parlor, and we don't know whether we did it or not. We were in +there, and we jumped." +</p> +<p> +Grashy went straight to the parlor door, and opened it. She looked +in, turned pale, and said "'Lection!" +</p> +<p> +That is a word the women have, up in the country, for solemn +surprise, or exceeding emergency, or dire confusion. I do not know +whether it is derived from religion or politics. It denotes a vital +crisis, either way, and your hands full. Perhaps it had the +theological association in Grashy's mind, for the next thing she +said was, "My soul!" +</p> +<p> +"Do you know what that's a sign of, you children?" +</p> +<p> +"Sign the old thing was rotten," said Marcus, rather sullenly. +</p> +<p> +"Wish that was all," said Grashy, her lips white yet. "Hope there +mayn't nothin' dreadful happen in this house before the year's out. +It's wuss'n thirteen at the table." +</p> +<p> +"Do you s'pose we did it?" asked Luke, anxiously. +</p> +<p> +"Where was you when it tumbled?" +</p> +<p> +"Right in front of it. But we were rolling away. <i>We</i> tumbled." +</p> +<p> +"'Twould er come down the fust jar, anyway, if a door had slammed. +The string's cut right through," said Grashy, looking at the two +ends sticking up stiff and straight from the top fragment of the +frame. "But the mercy is you war'n't smashed yourselves to bits and +flinders. Think o'that!" +</p> +<p> +"Do you s'pose ma'll think of that?" asked Luclarion. +</p> +<p> +"Well—yes; but it may make her kinder madder,—just at first, you +know. Between you and me and the lookin'-glass, you see,—well, yer +ma is a pretty strong-feelin' woman," said Grashy, reflectively. +"'Fi was you I wouldn't say nothin' about it. What's the use? <i>I</i> +shan't." +</p> +<p> +"It's a stump," repeated Luclarion, sadly, but in very resolute +earnest. +</p> +<p> +Grashy stared. +</p> +<p> +"Well, if you ain't the curiousest young one, Luke Grapp!" said she, +only half comprehending. +</p> +<p> +When Mrs. Grapp came home, Luclarion went into her bedroom after +her, and told her the whole story. Mrs. Grapp went into the parlor, +viewed the scene of calamity, took in the sense of loss and narrowly +escaped danger, laid the whole weight of them upon the disobedience +to be dealt with, and just as she had said, "You little fool!" out +of the very shock of her own distress when Luke had burned her baby +foot, she turned back now, took the two children up-stairs in +silence, gave them each a good old orthodox whipping, and tucked +them into their beds. +</p> +<p> +They slept one on each side of the great kitchen-chamber. +</p> +<p> +"Mark," whispered Luke, tenderly, after Mrs. Grapp's step had died +away down the stairs. "How do you feel?" +</p> +<p> +"Hot!" said Mark. "How do you?" +</p> +<p> +"You ain't mad with me, be you?" +</p> +<p> +"No." +</p> +<p> +"Then I feel real cleared up and comfortable. But it <i>was</i> a stump, +wasn't it?" +</p> +<hr> +<p> +From that time forward, Luclarion Grapp had got her light to go by. +She understood life. It was "stumps" all through. The Lord set them, +and let them; she found that out afterward, when she was older, and +"experienced religion." I think she was mistaken in the dates, +though; it was <i>recognition</i>, this later thing; the experience was +away back,—at Lake Ontario. +</p> +<p> +It was a stump when her father died, and her mother had to manage +the farm, and she to help her. The mortgage they had to work off was +a stump; but faith and Luclarion's dairy did it. It was a stump when +Marcus wanted to go to college, and they undertook that, after the +mortgage. It was a stump when Adam Burge wanted her to marry him, +and go and live in the long red cottage at Side Hill, and she could +not go till they had got through with helping Marcus. It was a +terrible stump when Adam Burge married Persis Cone instead, and she +had to live on and bear it. It was a stump when her mother died, and +the farm was sold. +</p> +<p> +Marcus married; he never knew; he had a belles-lettres professorship +in a new college up in D——. He would not take a cent of the farm +money; he had had his share long ago; the four thousand dollars +were invested for Luke. He did the best he could, and all he knew; +but human creatures can never pay each other back. Only God can do +that, either way. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion did not stay in ——. There were too few there now, and +too many. She came down to Boston. Her two hundred and eighty +dollars a year was very good, as far as it went, but it would not +keep her idle; neither did she wish to live idle. She learned +dress-making; she had taste and knack; she was doing well; she +enjoyed going about from house to house for her days' work, and then +coming back to her snug room at night, and her cup of tea and her +book. +</p> +<p> +Then it turned out that so much sewing was not good for her; her +health was threatened; she had been used to farm work and "all +out-doors." It was a "stump" again. That was all she called it; she +did not talk piously about a "cross." What difference did it make? +There is another word, also, for "cross" in Hebrew. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion came at last to live with Mrs. Edward Shiere. And in that +household, at eight and twenty, we have just found her. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0003"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + III. +</h2> +<h3> + BY STORY-RAIL: TWENTY-SIX YEARS AN HOUR. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Laura Shiere did not think much about the "stump," when, in her dark +gray merino travelling dress, and her black ribbons, nicely +appointed, as Mrs. Oferr's niece should be, down to her black kid +gloves and broad-hemmed pocket-handkerchief, and little black straw +travelling-basket (for morocco bags were not yet in those days), she +stepped into the train with her aunt at the Providence Station, on +her way to Stonington and New York. +</p> +<p> +The world seemed easily laid out before her. She was like a cousin +in a story-book, going to arrive presently at a new home, and begin +a new life, in which she would be very interesting to herself and to +those about her. She felt rather important, too, with her money +independence—there being really "property" of hers to be spoken of +as she had heard it of late. She had her mother's diamond ring on +her third finger, and was comfortably conscious of it when she drew +off her left-hand glove. Laura Shiere's nature had only been +stirred, as yet, a very little below the surface, and the surface +rippled pleasantly in the sunlight that was breaking forth from the +brief clouds. +</p> +<p> +Among the disreputable and vociferous crowd of New York hack +drivers, that swarmed upon the pier as the <i>Massachusetts</i> glided +into her dock, it was good to see that subduedly respectable and +consciously private and superior man in the drab overcoat and the +nice gloves and boots, who came forward and touched his hat to Mrs. +Oferr, took her shawl and basket, and led the way, among the +aggravated public menials, to a handsome private carriage waiting on +the street. +</p> +<p> +"All well at home, David?" asked Mrs. Oferr. +</p> +<p> +"All well, ma'am, thank you," replied David. +</p> +<p> +And another man sat upon the box, in another drab coat, and touched +<i>his</i> hat; and when they reached Waverley Place and alighted, Mrs. +Oferr had something to say to him of certain directions, and +addressed him as "Moses." +</p> +<p> +It was very grand and wonderful to order "David" and "Moses" about. +Laura felt as if her aunt were something only a little less than +"Michael with the sword." Laura had a susceptibility for dignities; +she appreciated, as we have seen out upon the wood-shed, "high +places, and all the people looking up." +</p> +<p> +David and Moses were brothers, she found out; she supposed that was +the reason they dressed alike, in drab coats; as she and Frank used +to wear their red merinos, and their blue ginghams. A little spasm +did come up in her throat for a minute, as she thought of the old +frocks and the old times already dropped so far behind; but Alice +and Geraldine Oferr met her the next instant on the broad staircase +at the back of the marble-paved hall, looking slight and delicate, +and princess-like, in the grand space built about them for their +lives to move in; and in the distance and magnificence of it all, +the faint little momentary image of Frank faded away. +</p> +<p> +She went up with them out of the great square hall, over the stately +staircase, past the open doors of drawing-rooms and library, +stretching back in a long suite, with the conservatory gleaming +green from the far end over the garden, up the second stairway to +the floor where their rooms were; bedrooms and nursery,—this last +called so still, though the great, airy front-room was the place +used now for their books and amusements as growing young +ladies,—all leading one into another around the skylighted upper +hall, into which the sunshine came streaked with amber and violet +from the richly colored glass. She had a little side apartment given +to her for her own, with a recessed window, in which were blossoming +plants just set there from the conservatory; opposite stood a white, +low bed in a curtained alcove, and beyond was a dressing-closet. +Laura thought she should not be able to sleep there at all for a +night or two, for the beauty of it and the good time she should be +having. +</p> +<p> +At that same moment Frank and her Aunt Oldways were getting down +from the stage that had brought them over from Ipsley, where they +slept after their day's journey from Boston,—at the doorstone of +the low, broad-roofed, wide-built, roomy old farm-house in +Homesworth. +</p> +<p> +Right in the edge of the town it stood, its fields stretching over +the south slope of green hills in sunny uplands, and down in meadowy +richness to the wild, hidden, sequestered river-side, where the +brown water ran through a narrow, rocky valley,—Swift River they +called it. There are a great many Swift Rivers in New England. It +was only a vehement little tributary of a larger stream, beside +which lay larger towns; it was doing no work for the world, +apparently, at present; there were no mills, except a little +grist-mill to which the farmers brought their corn, cuddled among +the rocks and wild birches and alders, at a turn where the road came +down, and half a dozen planks made a bit of a bridge. +</p> +<p> +"O, what beautiful places!" cried Frank, as they crossed the little +bridge, and glanced either way into a green, gray, silvery vista of +shrubs and rocks, and rushing water, with the white spires of +meadow-sweet and the pink hardback, and the first bright plumes of +the golden rod nodding and shining against the shade,—as they +passed the head of a narrow, grassy lane, trod by cows' feet, and +smelling of their milky breaths, and the sweetness of hay-barns,—as +they came up, at length, over the long slope of turf that carpeted +the way, as for a bride's feet, from the roadside to the very +threshold. She looked along the low, treble-piled garden wall, too, +and out to the open sheds, deep with pine chips; and upon the broad +brown house-roof, with its long, gradual decline, till its eaves +were within reach of a child's fingers from the ground; and her +quick eye took in facilities. +</p> +<p> +"O, if Laura could see this! After the old shed-top in Brier Street, +and the one tree!" +</p> +<p> +But Laura had got what the shed-top stood for with her; it was +Frank who had hearkened to whole forests in the stir of the one +brick-rooted fir. To that which each child had, it was already +given. +</p> +<p> +In a week or two Frank wrote Laura a letter. It was an old-fashioned +letter, you know; a big sheet, written close, four pages, +all but the middle of the last page, which was left for the +"superscription." Then it was folded, the first leaf turned down +twice, lengthwise; then the two ends laid over, toward each other; +then the last doubling, or rather trebling, across; and the open +edge slipped over the folds. A wafer sealed it, and a thimble +pressed it,—and there were twenty-five cents postage to pay. That +was a letter in the old times, when Laura and Frank Shiere were +little girls. And this was that letter:— +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + D<small>EAR</small> L<small>AURA</small>,—We got here safe, Aunt Oldways and I, a week ago + last Saturday, and it is <i>beautiful</i>. There is a green + lane,—almost everybody has a green lane,—and the cows go up + and down, and the swallows build in the barn-eaves. They fly + out at sundown, and fill all the sky up. It is like the specks + we used to watch in the sunshine when it came in across the + kitchen, and they danced up and down and through and away, and + seemed to be live things; only we couldn't tell, you know, what + they were, or if they really did know how good it was. But + these are big and real, and you can see their wings, and you + know what they mean by it. I guess it is all the same thing, + only some things are little and some are big. You can see the + stars here, too,—such a sky full. And that is all the same + again. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + There are beautiful roofs and walls here. I guess you would + think you were high up! Harett and I go up from under the + cheese-room windows right over the whole house, and we sit on + the peak by the chimney. Harett is Mrs. Dillon's girl. Not the + girl that lives with her,—her daughter. But the girls that + live with people are daughters here. Somebody's else, I mean. + They are all alike. I suppose her name is Harriet, but they all + call her Harett. I don't like to ask her for fear she should + think I thought they didn't know how to pronounce. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + I go to school with Harett; up to the West District. We carry + brown bread and butter, and doughnuts, and cheese, and + apple-pie in tin pails, for luncheon. Don't you remember the + brown cupboard in Aunt Oldways' kitchen, how sagey, and + doughnutty, and good it always smelt? It smells just so now, + and everything tastes just the same. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + There is a great rock under an oak tree half way up to school, + by the side of the road. We always stop there to rest, coming + home. Three of the girls come the same way as far as that, and + we always save some of our dinner to eat up there, and we tell + stories. I tell them about dancing-school, and the time we went + to the theatre to see "Cinderella," and going shopping with + mother, and our little tea-parties, and the Dutch dolls we made + up in the long front chamber. O, <i>don't</i> you remember, Laura? + What different pieces we have got into our remembrances + already! I feel as if I was making patchwork. Some-time, + may-be, I shall tell somebody about living <i>here</i>. Well, they + will be beautiful stories! Homesworth is an elegant place to + live in. You will see when you come next summer. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + There is an apple tree down in the south orchard that bends + just like a horse's back. Then the branches come up over your + head and shade you. We ride there, and we sit and eat summer + apples there. Little rosy apples with dark streaks in them all + warm with the sun. You can't think what a smell they have, just + like pinks and spice boxes. Why don't they keep a little way + off from each other in cities, and so have room for apple + trees? I don't see why they need to crowd so. I hate to think + of you all shut up tight when I am let right out into green + grass, and blue sky, and apple orchards. That puts me in mind + of something! Zebiah Jane, Aunt Oldways' girl, always washes + her face in the morning at the pump-basin out in the back + dooryard, just like the ducks. She says she can't spatter round + in a room; she wants all creation for a slop-bowl. I feel as if + we had all creation for everything up here. But I can't put all + creation in a letter if I try. <i>That</i> would spatter dreadfully. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + I expect a long letter from you every day now. But I don't see + what you will make it out of. I think I have got all the + <i>things</i> and you won't have anything left but the <i>words</i>. I am + sure you don't sit out on the wood-shed at Aunt Oferr's, and I + don't believe you pound stones and bricks, and make colors. Do + you know when we rubbed our new shoes with pounded stone and + made them gray? +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + I never told you about Luclarion. She came up as soon as the + things were all sent off, and she lives at the minister's. + Where she used to live is only two miles from here, but other + people live there now, and it is built on to and painted straw + color, with a green door. +</p> + + <p class="signed"> Your affectionate sister,<br> + + F<small>RANCES</small> S<small>HIERE</small>. +</p> +<p> +When Laura's letter came this was it:— +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + D<small>EAR</small> F<small>RANK</small>,—I received your kind letter a week ago, but we + have been very busy having a dressmaker and doing all our fall + shopping, and I have not had time to answer it before. We shall + begin to go to school next week, for the vacations are over, + and then I shall have ever so much studying to do. I am to take + lessons on the piano, too, and shall have to practice two hours + a day. In the winter we shall have dancing-school and + practicing parties. Aunt has had a new bonnet made for me. She + did not like the plain black silk one. This is of <i>gros + d'Afrique</i>, with little bands and cordings round the crown and + front; and I have a dress of <i>gros d'Afrique</i>, too, trimmed + with double folds piped on. For every-day I have a new black + <i>mousseline</i> with white clover leaves on it, and an all-black + French chally to wear to dinner. I don't wear my black and + white calico at all. Next summer aunt means to have me wear + white almost all the time, with lavender and violet ribbons. I + shall have a white muslin with three skirts and a black sash to + wear to parties and to Public Saturdays, next winter. They have + Public Saturdays at dancing-school every three weeks. But only + the parents and relations can come. Alice and Geraldine dance + the shawl-dance with Helena Pomeroy, with crimson and white + Canton crape scarfs. They have showed me some of it at home. + Aunt Oferr says I shall learn the <i>gavotte</i>. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + Aunt Oferr's house is splendid. The drawing-room is full of + sofas, and divans, and ottomans, and a <i>causeuse</i>, a little + S-shaped seat for two people. Everything is covered with blue + velvet, and there are blue silk curtains to the windows, and + great looking-glasses between, that you can see all down into + through rooms and rooms, as if there were a hundred of them. Do + you remember the story Luclarion used to tell us of when she + and her brother Mark were little children and used to play that + the looking-glass-things were real, and that two children lived + in them, in the other room, and how we used to make believe too + in the slanting chimney glass? You could make believe it here + with <i>forty</i> children. But I don't make believe much now. There + is such a lot that is real, and it is all so grown up. It would + seem so silly to have such plays, you know. I can't help + thinking the things that come into my head though, and it seems + sometimes just like a piece of a story, when I walk into the + drawing-room all alone, just before company comes, with my + <i>gros d'Afrique</i> on, and my puffed lace collar, and my hair + tied back with long new black ribbons. It all goes through my + head just how I look coming in, and how grand it is, and what + the words would be in a book about it, and I seem to act a + little bit, just to myself as if I were a girl in a story, and + it seems to say, "And Laura walked up the long drawing-room and + took a book bound in crimson morocco from the white marble pier + table and sat down upon the velvet ottoman in the balcony + window." But what happened then it never tells. I suppose it + will by and by. I am getting used to it all, though; it isn't + so <i>awfully</i> splendid as it was at first. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + I forgot to tell you that my new bonnet flares a great deal, + and that I have white lace quilling round the face with little + black dotty things in it on stems. They don't wear those close + cottage bonnets now. And aunt has had my dresses made longer + and my pantalettes shorter, so that they hardly show at all. + She says I shall soon wear long dresses, I am getting so tall. + Alice wears them now, and her feet look so pretty, and she has + such pretty slippers: little French purple ones, and sometimes + dark green, and sometimes beautiful light gray, to go with + different dresses. I don't care for anything but the slippers, + but I <i>should</i> like such ones as hers. Aunt says I can't, of + course, as long as I wear black, but I can have purple ones + next summer to wear with my white dresses. That will be when I + come to see you. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + I am afraid you will think this is a very <i>wearing</i> kind of a + letter, there are so many 'wears' in it. I have been reading it + over so far, but I can't put in any other word. +</p> +<p class="signed"> + Your affectionate sister,<br> + L<small>AURA</small> S<small>HIERE</small>. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + + P.S. Aunt Oferr says Laura Shiere is such a good sounding name. + It doesn't seem at all common. I am glad of it. I should hate + to be common. +</p> +<p> +I do not think I shall give you any more of it just here than these +two letters tell. We are not going through all Frank and Laura's +story. That with which we have especially to do lies on beyond. But +it takes its roots in this, as all stories take their roots far back +and underneath. +</p> +<p> +Two years after, Laura was in Homesworth for her second summer visit +at the farm. It was convenient, while the Oferrs were at Saratoga. +Mrs. Oferr was very much occupied now, of course, with introducing +her own daughters. A year or two later, she meant to give Laura a +season at the Springs. "All in turn, my dear, and good time," she +said. +</p> +<p> +The winter before, Frank had been a few weeks in New York. But it +tired her dreadfully, she said. She liked the theatres and the +concerts, and walking out and seeing the shops. But there was "no +place to get out of it into." It didn't seem as if she ever really +got home and took off her things. She told Laura it was like that +first old letter of hers; it was just "wearing," all the time. +</p> +<p> +Laura laughed. "But how can you live <i>without</i> wearing?" said she. +</p> +<p> +Frank stood by, wondering, while Laura unpacked her trunks that +morning after her second arrival at Aunt Oldways'. She had done now +even with the simplicity of white and violet, and her wardrobe +blossomed out like the flush of a summer garden. +</p> +<p> +She unfolded a rose-colored muslin, with little raised embroidered +spots, and threw it over the bed. +</p> +<p> +"Where <i>will</i> you wear that, up here?" asked Frank, in pure +bewilderment. +</p> +<p> +"Why, I wear it to church, with my white Swiss mantle," answered +Laura. "Or taking tea, or anything. I've a black silk <i>visite</i> for +cool days. That looks nice with it. And see here,—I've a pink +sunshade. They don't have them much yet, even in New York. Mr. +Pemberton Oferr brought these home from Paris, for Gerry and Alice, +and me. Gerry's is blue. See! it tips back." And Laura set the dashy +little thing with its head on one side, and held it up coquettishly. +</p> +<p> +"They used them in carriages in Paris, he said, and in St. +Petersburg, driving out on the Nevskoi Prospekt." +</p> +<p> +"But where are your common things?" +</p> +<p> +"Down at the bottom; I haven't come to them. They were put in first, +because they would bear squeezing. I've two French calicoes, with +pattern trimmings; and a lilac jaconet, with ruffles, open down the +front." +</p> +<p> +Laura wore long dresses now; and open wrappers were the height of +the style. +</p> +<p> +Laura astonished Homesworth the first Sunday of this visit, with her +rose-colored toilet. Bonnet of shirred pink silk with moss rosebuds +and a little pink lace veil; the pink muslin, full-skirted over two +starched petticoats; even her pink belt had gay little borders of +tiny buds and leaves, and her fan had a pink tassel. +</p> +<p> +"They're the things I wear; why shouldn't I?" she said to Frank's +remonstrance. +</p> +<p> +"But up here!" said Frank. "It would seem nicer to wear +something—stiller." +</p> +<p> +So it would; a few years afterward Laura herself would have seen +that it was more elegant; though Laura Shiere was always rather +given to doing the utmost—in apparel—that the occasion tolerated. +Fashions grew stiller in years after. But this June Sunday, +somewhere in the last thirties or the first forties, she went into +the village church like an Aurora, and the village long remembered +the resplendence. Frank had on a white cambric dress, with a real +rose in the bosom, cool and fresh, with large green leaves; and her +"cottage straw" was trimmed with white lutestring, crossed over the +crown. +</p> +<p> +"Do you feel any better?" asked Aunt Oldways of Laura, when they +came home to the country tea-dinner. +</p> +<p> +"Better—how?" asked Laura, in surprise. +</p> +<p> +"After all that 'wear' and <i>stare</i>," said Aunt Oldways, quietly. +</p> +<p> +Aunt Oldways might have been astonished, but she was by no means +awestruck, evidently; and Aunt Oldways generally spoke her mind. +</p> +<p> +Somehow, with Laura Shiere, pink was pinker, and ribbons were more +rustling than with most people. Upon some quiet unconscious folks, +silk makes no spread, and color little show; with Laura every gleam +told, every fibre asserted itself. It was the live Aurora, bristling +and tingling to its farthest electric point. She did not toss or +flaunt, either; she had learned better of Signor Pirotti how to +carry herself; but she was in conscious <i>rapport</i> with every thing +and stitch she had about her. Some persons only put clothes on to +their bodies; others really seem to contrive to put them on to their +souls. +</p> +<p> +Laura Shiere came up to Homesworth three years later, with something +more wonderful than a pink embossed muslin:—she had a lover. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Oferr and her daughters were on their way to the mountains; +Laura was to be left with the Oldways. Grant Ledwith accompanied +them all thus far on their way; then he had to go back to Boston. +</p> +<p> +"I can't think of anything but that pink sunshade she used to carry +round canted all to one side over her shoulder," said Aunt Oldways, +looking after them down the dusty road the morning that he went +away. Laura, in her white dress and her straw hat and her silly +little bronze-and-blue-silk slippers printing the roadside gravel, +leaning on Grant Ledwith's arm, seemed only to have gained a fresh, +graceful adjunct to set off her own pretty goings and comings with, +and to heighten the outside interest of that little point of +eternity that she called her life. Mr. Ledwith was not so much a man +who had won a woman, as Laura was a girl who had "got a beau." +</p> +<p> +She had sixteen tucked and trimmed white skirts, too, she told +Frank; she should have eight more before she was married; people +wore ever so many skirts now, at a time. She had been to a party a +little while ago where she wore <i>seven</i>. +</p> +<p> +There were deep French embroidery bands around some of these white +skirts; those were beautiful for morning dresses. Geraldine Oferr +was married last winter; Laura had been her bridesmaid; Gerry had a +white brocade from Paris, and a point-lace veil. She had three dozen +of everything, right through. They had gone to housekeeping up town, +in West Sixteenth Street. Frank would have to come to New York next +winter, or in the spring, to be <i>her</i> bridesmaid; then she would +see; then—who knew! +</p> +<p> +Frank was only sixteen, and she lived away up here in Homesworth +among the hills; she had not "seen," but she had her own little +secret, for all that; something she neither told nor thought, yet +which was there; and it came across her with a queer little thrill +from the hidden, unlooked-at place below thought, that "Who" +<i>didn't</i> know. +</p> +<p> +Laura waited a year for Grant Ledwith's salary to be raised to +marrying point; he was in a wholesale woolen house in Boston; he was +a handsome fellow, with gentlemanly and taking address,—capital, +this, for a young salesman; and they put his pay up to two thousand +dollars within that twelvemonth. Upon this, in the spring, they +married; took a house in Filbert Street, down by the river, and set +up their little gods. These were: a sprinkle of black walnut and +brocatelle in the drawing-room, a Sheffield-plate tea-service, and a +crimson-and-giltedged dinner set that Mrs. Oferr gave them; twilled +turkey-red curtains, that looked like thibet, in the best chamber; +and the twenty-four white skirts and the silk dresses, and whatever +corresponded to them on the bride-groom's part, in their wardrobes. +All that was left of Laura's money, and all that was given them by +Grant Ledwith's father, and Mr. Titus Oldways' astounding present of +three hundred dollars, without note or comment,—the first reminder +they had had of him since Edward Shiere's funeral, "and goodness +knew how he heard anything now," Aunt Oferr said,—had gone to this +outfit. But they were well set up and started in the world; so +everybody said, and so they, taking the world into their young, +confident hands for a plaything, not knowing it for the perilous +loaded shell it is, thought, merrily, themselves. +</p> +<p> +Up in Homesworth people did not have to wait for two thousand dollar +salaries. They would not get them if they did. +</p> +<p> +Oliver Ripwinkley, the minister's son, finished his medical studies +and city hospital practice that year, and came back, as he had +always said he should do, to settle down for a country doctor. Old +Doctor Parrish, the parson's friend of fifty years, with no child of +his own, kept the place for Oliver, and hung up his old-fashioned +saddle-bags in the garret the very day the young man came home. He +was there to be "called in," however, and with this backing, and the +perforce of there being nobody else, young Doctor Ripwinkley had ten +patients within the first week; thereby opportunity for shewing +himself in the eyes of ten families as a young man who "appeared to +know pretty well what he was about." +</p> +<p> +So that when he gave further proof of the same, by asking, within +the week that followed, the prettiest girl in Homesworth, Frances +Shiere, to come and begin the world with him at Mile Hill village, +nobody, not even Frank herself, was astonished. +</p> +<p> +She bought three new gowns, a shawl, a black silk mantle, and a +straw bonnet. She made six each of every pretty white garment that a +woman wears; and one bright mellow evening in September, they took +their first tea in the brown-carpeted, white-shaded little corner +room in the old "Rankin house;" a bigger place than they really +wanted yet, and not all to be used at first; but rented +"reasonable," central, sunshiny, and convenient; a place that they +hoped they should buy sometime; facing on the broad sidegreen of the +village street, and running back, with its field and meadow +belongings, away to the foot of great, gray, sheltering Mile Hill. +</p> +<p> +And the vast, solemn globe, heedless of what lit here or there upon +its breadth, or took up this or that life in its little freckling +cities, or between the imperceptible foldings of its hills,—only +carrying way-passengers for the centuries,—went plunging on its +track, around and around, and swept them all, a score of times, +through its summer and its winter solstices. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0004"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + IV. +</h2> +<h3> + AFTERWARDS IS A LONG TIME. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Old Mr. Marmaduke Wharne had come down from Outledge, in the +mountains, on his way home to New York. He had stopped in Boston to +attend to some affairs of his own,—if one can call them so, since +Marmaduke Wharne never had any "own" affairs that did not chiefly +concern, to their advantage, somebody else,—in which his friend Mr. +Titus Oldways was interested, not personally, but Wharne fashion. +Now, reader, you know something about Mr. Titus Oldways, which up to +this moment, only God, and Marmaduke Wharne, and Rachel Froke, who +kept Mr. Oldways' house, and wore a Friend's drab dress and white +cap, and said "Titus," and "Marmaduke" to the two old gentlemen, and +"thee" and "thou" to everybody,—have ever known. In a general way +and relation, I mean; separate persons knew particular things; but +each separate person thought the particular thing he knew to be a +whimsical exception. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Oldways did not belong to any church: but he had an English +Prayer-book under his Bible on his study table, and Baxter and +Fenelon and à Kempis and "Wesley's Hymns," and Swedenborg's "Heaven +and Hell" and "Arcana Celestia," and Lowell's "Sir Launfal," and +Dickens's "Christmas Carol," all on the same set of shelves,—that +held, he told Marmaduke, his religion; or as much of it as he could +get together. And he had this woman, who was a Friend, and who +walked by the Inner Light, and in outer charity, if ever a woman +did, to keep his house. "For," said he, "the blessed truth is, that +the Word of God is in the world. Alive in it. When you know that, +and wherever you can get hold of his souls, then and there you've +got your religion,—a piece at a time. To prove and sort your +pieces, and to straighten the tangle you might otherwise get into, +there's <i>this</i>," and he laid his hand down on the Four Gospels, +bound in white morocco, with a silver cross upon the cover,—a +volume that no earthly creature, again, knew of, save Titus and +Marmaduke and Rachel Froke, who laid it into a drawer when she swept +and dusted, and placed it between the crimson folds of its quilted +silken wrapper when she had finished, burnishing the silver cross +gently with a scrap of chamois leather cut from a clean piece every +time. There was nothing else delicate and exquisite in all the plain +and grim establishment; and the crimson wrapper was comfortably +worn, and nobody would notice it, lying on the table there, with an +almanac, a directory, the big, open Worcester's Dictionary, and the +scattered pamphlets and newspapers of the day. +</p> +<p> +Out in the world, Titus Oldways went about with visor down. +</p> +<p> +He gave to no fairs nor public charities; "let them get all they +could that way, it wasn't his way," he said to Rachel Froke. The +world thought he gave nothing, either of purse or life. +</p> +<p> +There was a plan they had together,—he and Marmaduke Wharne,—this +girls' story-book will not hold the details nor the idea of +it,—about a farm they owned, and people working it that could go +nowhere else to work anything; and a mill-privilege that might be +utilized and expanded, to make—not money so much as safe and honest +human life by way of making money; and they sat and talked this plan +over, and settled its arrangements, in the days that Marmaduke +Wharne was staying on in Boston, waiting for his other friend, Miss +Craydocke, who had taken the River Road down from Outledge, and so +come round by Z——, where she was staying a few days with the +Goldthwaites and the Inglesides. Miss Craydocke had a share or two +in the farm and in the mill. +</p> +<p> +And now, Titus Oldways wanted to know of Marmaduke Wharne what he +was to do for Afterwards. +</p> +<p> +It was a question that had puzzled and troubled him. Afterwards. +</p> +<p> +"While I live," he said, "I will do what I can, and <i>as</i> I can. I +will hand over my doing, and the wherewith, to no society or +corporation. I'll pay no salaries nor circumlocutions. Neither will +I—afterwards. And how is my money going to work on?" +</p> +<p> +"<i>Your</i> money?" +</p> +<p> +"Well,—God's money." +</p> +<p> +"How did it work when it came to you?" +</p> +<p> +Mr. Oldways was silent. +</p> +<p> +"He chose to send it to you. He made it in the order of things that +it should come to you. You began, yourself, to work for money. You +did not understand, then, that the money would be from God and was +for Him." +</p> +<p> +"He made me understand." +</p> +<p> +"Yes. He looked out for that part of it too. He can look out for it +again. His word shall not return unto him void." +</p> +<p> +"He has given me this, though, to pass on; and I will not put it +into a machine. I want to give some living soul a body for its +living. Dead charities are dead. It's of no use to will it to you, +Marmaduke; I'm as likely to stay on, perhaps, as you are." +</p> +<p> +"And the youngest life might drop, the day after your own. You can't +take it out of God's hand." +</p> +<p> +"I must either let it go by law, or will it—here and there. I know +enough whom it would help; but I want to invest, not spend it; to +invest it in a life—or lives—that will carry it on from where I +leave it. How shall I know?" +</p> +<p> +"He giveth it a body as it pleaseth Him," quoted Marmaduke Wharne, +thoughtfully. "I am English, you know, Oldways; I can't help +reverencing the claims of next of kin. Unless one is plainly shown +otherwise, it seems the appointment. How can we set aside his ways +until He clearly points us out his own exception?" +</p> +<p> +"My 'next' are two women whom I don't know, my niece's children. She +died thirty years ago." +</p> +<p> +"Perhaps you ought to know them." +</p> +<p> +"I know <i>about</i> them; I've kept the run; but I've held clear of +family. They didn't need me, and I had no right to put it into their +heads they did, unless I fully meant"— +</p> +<p> +He broke off. +</p> +<p> +"They're like everybody else, Wharne; neither better nor worse, I +dare say; but the world is full of just such women. How do I know +this money would be well in their hands—even for themselves?" +</p> +<p> +"Find out." +</p> +<p> +"One of 'em was brought up by an Oferr woman!" +</p> +<p> +The tone in which he <i>commonized</i> the name to a satiric general +term, is not to be written down, and needed not to be interpreted. +</p> +<p> +"The other is well enough," he went on, "and contented enough. +A doctor's widow, with a little property, a farm and two +children,—her older ones died very young,—up in New Hampshire. I +might spoil <i>her</i>; and the other,—well, you see as I said, I <i>don't +know</i>." +</p> +<p> +"Find out," said Marmaduke Wharne, again. +</p> +<p> +"People are not found out till they are tried." +</p> +<p> +"Try 'em!" +</p> +<p> +Mr. Oldways had been sitting with his head bent, thoughtfully, his +eyes looking down, his hands on the two stiff, old-fashioned arms of +his chair. At this last spondaic response from Marmaduke, he lifted +his eyes and eyebrows,—not his head,—and raised himself slightly +with his two hands pressing on the chair arms; the keen glance and +the half-movement were impulsively toward his friend. +</p> +<p> +"Eh?" said he. +</p> +<p> +"Try 'em," repeated Marmaduke Wharne. "Give God's way a chance." +</p> +<p> +Mr. Oldways, seated back in his chair again, looked at him intently; +made a little vibration, as it were, with his body, that moved his +head up and down almost imperceptibly, with a kind of gradual +assenting apprehension, and kept utterly silent. +</p> +<p> +So, their talk being palpably over for this time, Marmaduke Wharne +got up presently to go. They nodded at each other, friendlily, as he +looked back from the door. +</p> +<p> +Left alone, Mr. Titus Oldways turned in his swivel-chair, around to +his desk beside which he was sitting. +</p> +<p> +"Next of kin?" he repeated to himself. "God's way?—Well! Afterwards +is a long time. A man must give it up somewhere. Everything escheats +to the king at last." +</p> +<p> +And he took a pen in his hand and wrote a letter. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0005"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + V. +</h2> +<h3> + HOW THE NEWS CAME TO HOMESWORTH. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +"I wish I lived in the city, and had a best friend," said Hazel +Ripwinkley to Diana, as they sat together on the long, red, sloping +kitchen roof under the arches of the willow-tree, hemming towels for +their afternoon "stent." They did this because their mother sat on +the shed roof under the fir, when she was a child, and had told them +of it. Imagination is so much greater than fact, that these +children, who had now all that little Frank Shiere had dreamed of +with the tar smell and the gravel stones and the one tree,—who +might run free in the wide woods and up the breezy hillsides,—liked +best of all to get out on the kitchen roof and play "old times," and +go back into their mother's dream. +</p> +<p> +"I wish I lived in a block of houses, and could see across the +corner into my best friend's room when she got up in the morning!" +</p> +<p> +"And could have that party!" said Diana. +</p> +<p> +"Think of the clean, smooth streets, with red sidewalks, and people +living all along, door after door! I like things set in rows, and +people having places, like the desks at school. Why, you've got to +go way round Sand Hill to get to Elizabeth Ann Dorridon's. I should +like to go up steps, and ring bells!" +</p> +<p> +"I don't know," said Diana, slowly. "I think birds that build little +nests about anywhere in the cunning, separate places, in the woods, +or among the bushes, have the best time." +</p> +<p> +"Birds, Dine! It ain't birds, it's people! What has that to do with +it?" +</p> +<p> +"I mean I think nests are better than martin-boxes." +</p> +<p> +"Let's go in and get her to tell us that story. She's in the round +room." +</p> +<p> +The round room was a half ellipse, running in against the curve of +the staircase. It was a bit of a place, with the window at one end, +and the bow at the other. It had been Doctor Ripwinkley's office, +and Mrs. Ripwinkley sat there with her work on summer afternoons. +The door opened out, close at the front, upon a great flat stone in +an angle, where was also entrance into the hall by the house-door, +at the right hand. The door of the office stood open, and across the +stone one could look down, between a range of lilac bushes and the +parlor windows, through a green door-yard into the street. +</p> +<p> +"Now, Mother Frank, tell us about the party!" +</p> +<p> +They called her "Mother Frank" when they wished to be particularly +coaxing. They had taken up their father's name for her, with their +own prefix, when they were very little ones, before he went away and +left nobody to call her Frank, every day, any more. +</p> +<p> +"That same little old story? Won't you ever be tired of it,—you +great girls?" asked the mother; for she had told it to them ever +since they were six and eight years old. +</p> +<p> +"Yes! No, never!" said the children. +</p> +<p> +For how <i>should</i> they outgrow it? It was a sunny little bit out of +their mother's own child-life. We shall go back to smaller things, +one day, maybe, and find them yet more beautiful. It is the <i>going</i> +back, together. +</p> +<p> +"The same old way?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes; the very same old way." +</p> +<p> +"We had little open-work straw hats and muslin pelisses,—your Aunt +Laura and I,"—began Mrs. Ripwinkley, as she had begun all those +scores of times before. "Mother put them on for us,—she dressed us +just alike, always,—and told us to take each other's hands, and go +up Brier and down Hickory streets, and stop at all the houses that +she named, and that we knew; and we were to give her love and +compliments, and ask the mothers in each house,—Mrs. Dayton, and +Mrs. Holridge (she lived up the long steps), and Mrs. Waldow, and +the rest of them, to let Caroline and Grace and Fanny and Susan, and +the rest of <i>them</i>, come at four o'clock, to spend the afternoon and +take tea, if it was convenient." +</p> +<p> +"O, mother!" said Hazel, "you didn't say that when you <i>asked</i> +people, you know." +</p> +<p> +"O, no!" said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "That was when we went to stop a +little while ourselves, without being asked. Well, it was to please +to let them come. And all the ladies were at home, because it was +only ten o'clock; and they all sent their love and compliments, and +they were much obliged, and the little girls would be very happy. +</p> +<p> +"It was a warm June day; up Brier Street was a steep walk; down +Hickory we were glad to keep on the shady side, and thought it was +nice that Mrs. Bemys and Mrs. Waldow lived there. The strings of our +hats were very moist and clinging when we got home, and Laura had a +blue mark under her chin from the green ribbon. +</p> +<p> +"Mother was in her room, in her white dimity morning gown, with +little bows up the front, the ends trimmed with cambric edging. She +took off our hats and our pelisses,—the tight little sleeves came +off wrong side out,—sponged our faces with cool water, and brushed +out Laura's curls. That was the only difference between us. I +hadn't any curls, and my hair had to be kept cropped. Then she went +to her upper bureau drawer and took out two little paper boxes. +</p> +<p> +"'Something has come for Blanche and Clorinda, since you have been +gone,' she said, smiling. 'I suppose you have been shopping?' We +took the paper boxes, laughing back at her with a happy +understanding. We were used to these little plays of mother's, and +she couldn't really surprise us with her kindnesses. We went and sat +down in the window-seat, and opened them as deliberately and in as +grown-up a way as we could. Inside them were two little lace +pelerines lined with rose-colored silk. The boxes had a faint smell +of musk. The things were so much better for coming in boxes! Mother +knew that. +</p> +<p> +"Well, we dressed our dolls, and it was a great long sunshiny +forenoon. Mother and Luclarion had done something in the kitchen, +and there was a smell of sweet baking in the house. Every now and +then we sniffed, and looked at each other, and at mother, and +laughed. After dinner we had on our white French calicoes with blue +sprigs, and mother said she should take a little nap, and we might +go into the parlor and be ready for our company. She always let us +receive our own company ourselves at first. And exactly at four +o'clock the door-bell rang, and they began to come. +</p> +<p> +"Caroline and Fanny Dayton had on white cambric dresses, and green +kid slippers. That was being very much dressed, indeed. Lucy Waldow +wore a pink lawn, and Grace Holridge a buff French print. Susan +Bemys said her little sister couldn't come because they couldn't +find her best shoes. Her mother thought she had thrown them out of +the window. +</p> +<p> +"When they all got there we began to play 'Lady Fair;' and we had +just got all the 'lady fairs,' one after another, into our ring, and +were dancing and singing up and down and round and round, when the +door opened and mother walked in. +</p> +<p> +"We always thought our mother was the prettiest of any of the girls' +mothers. She had such bright shining hair, and she put it up with +shell combs into such little curly puffs. And she never seemed fussy +or old, but she came in among us with such a beautiful, smiling way, +as if she knew beforehand that it was all right, and there was no +danger of any mischief, or that we shouldn't behave well, but she +only wanted to see the good time. That day she had on a white muslin +dress with little purple flowers on it, and a bow of purple ribbon +right in the side of her hair. She had a little piece of fine work +in her hand, and after she had spoken to all the little girls and +asked them how their mothers were, she went and sat down in one of +the front windows, and made little scollops and eyelets. I remember +her long ivory stiletto, with a loop of green ribbon through the +head of it, and the sharp, tiny, big-bowed scissors that lay in her +lap, and the bright, tapering silver thimble on her finger. +</p> +<p> +"Pretty soon the door opened again, softly; a tray appeared, with +Hannah behind it. On the tray were little glass saucers with +confectionery in them; old-fashioned confectionery,—gibraltars, and +colored caraways, and cockles with mottoes. We were in the middle of +'So says the Grand Mufti,' and Grace Holridge was the Grand Mufti. +Hannah went up to her first, as she stood there alone, and Grace +took a saucer and held it up before the row of us, and said, '<i>Thus</i> +says the Grand Mufti!' and then she bit a red gibraltar, and +everybody laughed. She did it so quickly and so prettily, putting +it right into the play. It was good of her not to say, '<i>So</i> says +the Grand Mufti.' At least we thought so then, though Susan Bemys +said it would have been funnier. +</p> +<p> +"We had a great many plays in those days, and it took a long +afternoon to get through with them. We had not begun to wonder what +we should do next, when tea time came, and we went down into the +basement room. It wasn't tea, though; it was milk in little clear, +pink mugs, some that mother only had out for our parties, and cold +water in crimped-edge glasses, and little biscuits, and +sponge-cakes, and small round pound-cakes frosted. These were what +had smelt so good in the morning. +</p> +<p> +"We stood round the table; there was not room for all of us to sit, +and mother helped us, and Hannah passed things round. Susan Bemys +took cake three times, and Lucy Waldow opened her eyes wide, and +Fanny Dayton touched me softly under the table. +</p> +<p> +"After tea mother played and sung some little songs to us; and then +she played the 'Fisher's Hornpipe' and 'Money Musk,' and we danced a +little contra-dance. The girls did not all know cotillons, and some +of them had not begun to go to dancing-school. Father came home and +had his tea after we had done ours, and then he came up into the +parlor and watched us dancing. Mr. Dayton came in, too. At about +half past eight some of the other fathers called, and some of the +mothers sent their girls, and everybody was fetched away. It was +nine o'clock when Laura and I went to bed, and we couldn't go to +sleep until after the clock struck ten, for thinking and saying what +a beautiful time we had had, and anticipating how the girls would +talk it all over next day at school. That," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, +when she had finished, "was the kind of a party we used to have in +Boston when I was a little girl. I don't know what the little girls +have now." +</p> +<p> +"Boston!" said Luclarion, catching the last words as she came in, +with her pink cape bonnet on, from the Homesworth variety and +finding store, and post-office. "You'll talk them children off to +Boston, finally, Mrs. Ripwinkley! Nothing ever tugs so at one end, +but there's something tugging at the other; and there's never a hint +nor a hearing to anybody, that something more doesn't turn up +concerning it. Here's a letter, Mrs. Ripwinkley!" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley took it with some surprise. It was not her sister's +handwriting nor Mr. Ledwith's, on the cover; and she rarely had a +letter from them that was posted in Boston, now. They had been +living at a place out of town for several years. Mrs. Ledwith knew +better than to give her letters to her husband for posting. They got +lost in his big wallet, and stayed there till they grew old. +</p> +<p> +Who should write to Mrs. Ripwinkley, after all these years, from +Boston? +</p> +<p> +She looked up at Luclarion, and smiled. "It didn't take a Solomon," +said she, pointing to the postmark. +</p> +<p> +"No, nor yet a black smooch, with only four letters plain, on an +invelup. 'Taint that, it's the drift of things. Those girls have got +Boston in their minds as hard and fast as they've got heaven; and I +mistrust mightily they'll get there first somehow!" +</p> +<p> +The girls were out of hearing, as she said this; they had got their +story, and gone back to their red roof and their willow tree. +</p> +<p> +"Why, Luclarion!" exclaimed Mrs. Ripwinkley, as she drew out and +unfolded the letter sheet. "It's from Uncle Titus Oldways." +</p> +<p> +"Then he ain't dead," remarked Luclarion, and went away into the +kitchen. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + "M<small>Y</small> D<small>EAR</small> F<small>RANCES</small>,—I am seventy-eight years old. It is time I + got acquainted with some of my relations. I've had other work + to do in the world heretofore (at least I thought I had), and + so, I believe, have they. But I have a wish now to get you and + your sister to come and live nearer to me, that we may find out + whether we really are anything to each other or not. It seems + natural, I suppose, that we might be; but kinship doesn't all + run in the veins. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + "I do not ask you to do this with reference to any possible + intentions of mine that might concern you after my death; my + wish is to do what is right by you, in return for your + consenting to my pleasure in the matter, while I am alive. It + will cost you more to live in Boston than where you do now, and + I have no business to expect you to break up and come to a new + home unless I can make it an object to you in some way. You can + do some things for your children here that you could not do in + Homesworth. I will give you two thousand dollars a year to live + on, and secure the same to you if I die. I have a house here in + Aspen Street, not far from where I live myself, which I will + give to either of you that it may suit. That you can settle + between you when you come. It is rather a large house, and Mrs. + Ledwith's family is larger, I think, than yours. The estate is + worth ten thousand dollars, and I will give the same sum to the + one who prefers, to put into a house elsewhere. I wish you to + reckon this as all you are ever to expect from me, except the + regard I am willing to believe I may come to have for you. I + shall look to hear from you by the end of the week. +</p> + + <p class="signed"> "I remain, yours truly,<br><br> + "T<small>ITUS</small> O<small>LDWAYS</small>." +</p> +<p> +"Luclarion!" cried Mrs. Ripwinkley, with excitement, "come here and +help me think!" +</p> +<p> +"Only four days to make my mind up in," she said again, when +Luclarion had read the letter through. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion folded it and gave it back. +</p> +<p> +"It won't take God four days to think," she answered quietly; "and +you can ask <i>Him</i> in four minutes. You and I can talk afterwards." +And Luclarion got up and went away a second time into the kitchen. +</p> +<p> +That night, after Diana and Hazel were gone to bed, their mother and +Luclarion Grapp had some last words about it, sitting by the +white-scoured kitchen table, where Luclarion had just done mixing +bread and covered it away for rising. Mrs. Ripwinkley was apt to +come out and talk things over at this time of the kneading. She +could get more from Luclarion then than at any other opportunity. +Perhaps that was because Miss Grapp could not walk off from the +bread-trough; or it might be that there was some sympathy between +the mixing of her flour and yeast into a sweet and lively +perfection, and the bringing of her mental leaven wholesomely to +bear. +</p> +<p> +"It looks as if it were meant, Luclarion," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, at +last. "And just think what it will be for the children." +</p> +<p> +"I guess it's meant fast enough," replied Luclarion. "But as for +what it will be for the children,—why, that's according to what you +all make of it. And that's the stump." +</p> +<p> +Luclarion Grapp was fifty-four years old; but her views of life were +precisely the same that they had been at twenty-eight. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0006"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + VI. +</h2> +<h3> + AND. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +There is a piece of Z——, just over the river, that they call +"And." +</p> +<p> +It began among the school-girls; Barbara Holabird had christened it, +with the shrewdness and mischief of fourteen years old. She said the +"and-so-forths" lived there. +</p> +<p> +It was a little supplementary neighborhood; an after-growth, coming +up with the railroad improvements, when they got a freight station +established on that side for the East Z—— mills. "After Z——, +what should it be but 'And?'" Barbara Holabird wanted to know. The +people who lived there called it East Square; but what difference +did that make? +</p> +<p> +It was two miles Boston-ward from Z—— centre, where the down +trains stopped first; that was five minutes gained in the time +between it and the city. Land was cheap at first, and sure to come +up in value; so there were some streets laid out at right angles, +and a lot of houses put up after a pattern, as if they had all been +turned out of blanc-mange moulds, and there was "East Square." Then +people began by-and-by to build for themselves, and a little variety +and a good deal of ambition came in. They had got to French roofs +now; this was just before the day of the multitudinous little paper +collar-boxes with beveled covers, that are set down everywhere now, +and look as if they could be lifted up by the chimneys, any time, +and be carried off with a thumb and finger. Two and a half story +houses, Mansarded, looked grand; and the East Square people thought +nothing slight of themselves, though the "old places" and the real +Z—— families were all over on West Hill. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp boarded in And for the summer. +</p> +<p> +"Since Oswald had been in business she couldn't go far from the +cars, you know; and Oswald had a boat on the river, and he and +Glossy enjoyed that so much. Besides, she had friends in Z——, +which made it pleasant; and she was tired, for her part, of crowds +and fashion. All she wanted was a quiet country place. She knew the +Goldthwaites and the Haddens; she had met them one year at +Jefferson." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp had found out that she could get larger rooms in And +than she could have at the mountains or the sea-shore, and at half +the price; but this she did not mention. Yet there was nothing +shabby in it, except her carefully <i>not</i> mentioning it. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp was Mrs. Grant Ledwith's chief intimate and counselor. +She was a good deal the elder; that was why it was mutually +advantageous. Grant Ledwith was one of the out-in-the-world, +up-to-the-times men of the day; the day in which everything is +going, and everybody that is in active life has, somehow or other, +all that is going. Grant Ledwith got a good salary, an inflated +currency salary; and he spent it all. His daughters were growing up, +and they were stylish and pretty; Mrs. Megilp took a great interest +in Agatha and Florence Ledwith, and was always urging their mother +to "do them justice." "Agatha and Florence were girls who had a +right to every advantage." Mrs. Megilp was almost old enough to be +Laura Ledwith's mother; she had great experience, and knowledge of +the world; and she sat behind Laura's conscience and drove it tandem +with her inclination. +</p> +<p> +Per contra, it was nice for Mrs. Megilp, who was a widow, and whose +income did not stretch with the elasticity of the times, to have +friends who lived like the Ledwiths, and who always made her +welcome; it was a good thing for Glossy to be so fond of Agatha and +Florence, and to have them so fond of her. "She needed young +society," her mother said. One reason that Glossy Megilp needed +young society might be in the fact that she herself was twenty-six. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp had advised the Ledwiths to buy a house in Z——. "It +was just far enough not to be suburban, but to have a society of its +own; and there <i>was</i> excellent society in Z——, everybody knew. +Boston was hard work, nowadays; the distances were getting to be so +great." Up to the West and South Ends,—the material distances,—she +meant to be understood to say; but there was an inner sense to Mrs. +Megilp's utterances, also. +</p> +<p> +"One might as well be quite out of town; and then it was always +something, even in such city connection as one might care to keep +up, to hail from a well-recognized social independency; to belong to +Z—— was a standing, always. It wasn't like going to Forest Dell, +or Lakegrove, or Bellair; cheap little got-up places with fancy +names, that were strung out on the railroads like French gilt beads +on a chain." +</p> +<p> +But for all that, Mrs. Ledwith had only got into "And;" and Mrs. +Megilp knew it. +</p> +<p> +Laura did not realize it much; she had bowing and speaking +acquaintance with the Haddens and the Hendees, and even with the +Marchbankses, over on West Hill; and the Goldthwaites and the +Holabirds, down in the town, she knew very well. She did not care to +come much nearer; she did not want to be bound by any very +stringent and exclusive social limits; it was a bother to keep up +to all the demands of such a small, old-established set. Mrs. Hendee +would not notice, far less be impressed by the advent of her +new-style Brussels carpet with a border, or her full, fresh, +Nottingham lace curtains, or the new covering of her drawing-room +set with cuir-colored terry. Mrs. Tom Friske and Mrs. Philgry, down +here at East Square, would run in, and appreciate, and admire, and +talk it all over, and go away perhaps breaking the tenth commandment +amiably in their hearts. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith's nerves had extended since we saw her as a girl; they +did not then go beyond the floating ends of her blue or rose-colored +ribbons, or, at furthest, the tip of her jaunty laced sunshade; now +they ramified,—for life still grows in some direction,—to her +chairs, and her china, and her curtains, and her ruffled +pillow-shams. Also, savingly, to her children's "suits," and party +dresses, and pic-nic hats, and double button gloves. Savingly; for +there is a leaven of grace in mother-care, even though it be +expended upon these. Her friend, Mrs. Inchdeepe, in Helvellyn Park, +with whom she dined when she went shopping in Boston, had <i>nothing</i> +but her modern improvements and her furniture. "My house is my +life," she used to say, going round with a Canton crape duster, +touching tenderly carvings and inlayings and gildings. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp was spending the day with Laura Ledwith; Glossy was gone +to town, and thence down to the sea-shore, with some friends. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp spent a good many days with Laura. She had large, bright +rooms at her boarding-house, but then she had very gristly veal pies +and thin tapioca puddings for dinner; and Mrs. Megilp's constitution +required something more generous. She was apt to happen in at this +season, when Laura had potted pigeons. A little bird told her; a +dozen little birds, I mean, with their legs tied together in a +bunch; for she could see the market wagon from her window, when it +turned up Mr. Ledwith's avenue. +</p> +<p> +Laura had always the claret pitcher on her dinner table, too; and +claret and water, well-sugared, went deliciously with the savory +stew. +</p> +<p> +They were up-stairs now, in Laura's chamber; the bed and sofa were +covered with silk and millinery; Laura was looking over the girls' +"fall things;" there was a smell of sweet marjoram and thyme and +cloves, and general richness coming up from the kitchen; there was a +bland sense of the goodness of Providence in Mrs. Megilp's—no, not +heart, for her heart was not very hungry; but in her eyes and +nostrils. +</p> +<p> +She was advising Mrs. Ledwith to take Desire and Helena's two green +silks and make them over into one for Helena. +</p> +<p> +"You can get two whole back breadths then, by piecing it up under +the sash; and you <i>can't</i> have all those gores again; they are quite +done with. Everybody puts in whole breadths now. There's just as +much difference in the <i>way</i> of goring a skirt, as there is between +gores and straight selvages." +</p> +<p> +"They do hang well, though; they have such a nice slope." +</p> +<p> +"Yes,—but the stripes and the seams! Those tell the story six rods +off; and then there <i>must</i> be sashes, or postillions, or something; +they don't make anything without them; there isn't any finish to a +round waist unless you have something behind." +</p> +<p> +"They wore belts last year, and I bought those expensive gilt +buckles. I'm sure they used to look sweetly. But there! a fashion +doesn't last nowadays while you're putting a thing on and walking +out of the house!" +</p> +<p> +"And don't put in more than three plaits," pursued Mrs. Megilp, +intent on the fate of the green silks. "Everything is gathered; you +see that is what requires the sashes; round waists and gathers have +a queer look without." +</p> +<p> +"If you once begin to alter, you've got to make all over," said Mrs. +Ledwith, a little fractiously, putting the scissors in with +unwilling fingers. She knew there was a good four days' work before +her, and she was quick with her needle, too. +</p> +<p> +"Never mind; the making over doesn't cost anything; you turn off +work so easily; and then you've got a really stylish thing." +</p> +<p> +"But with all the ripping and remodelling, I don't get time to turn +round, myself, and <i>live</i>! It is all fall work, and spring work, and +summer work and winter work. One drive rushes pell-mell right over +another. There isn't time enough to make things and have them; the +good of them, I mean." +</p> +<p> +"The girls get it; we have to live in our children," said Mrs. +Megilp, self-renouncingly. "I can never rest until Glossy is +provided with everything; and you know, Laura, I <i>am</i> obliged to +contrive." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp and her daughter Glaucia spent about a thousand dollars +a year, between them, on their dress. In these days, this is a +limited allowance—for the Megilps. But Mrs. Megilp was a woman of +strict pecuniary principle; the other fifteen hundred must pay all +the rest; she submitted cheerfully to the Divine allotment, and +punctually made the two ends meet. She will have this to show, when +the Lord of these servants cometh and reckoneth with them, and that +man who has been also in narrow circumstances, brings his nicely +kept talent out of his napkin. +</p> +<p> +Desire Ledwith, a girl of sixteen, spoke suddenly from a corner +where she sat with a book,— +</p> +<p> +"I do wonder who '<i>they</i>' are, mamma!" +</p> +<p> +"Who?" said Mrs. Ledwith, half rising from her chair, and letting +some breadths of silk slide down upon the floor from her lap, as she +glanced anxiously from the window down the avenue. She did not want +any company this morning. +</p> +<p> +"Not that, mamma; I don't mean anybody coming. The 'theys' that +wear, and don't wear, things; the theys you have to be just like, +and keep ripping and piecing for." +</p> +<p> +"You absurd child!" exclaimed Mrs. Ledwith, pettishly. "To make me +spill a whole lapful of work for that! They? Why, everybody, of +course." +</p> +<p> +"Everybody complains of them, though. Jean Friske says her mother is +all discouraged and worn out. There isn't a thing they had last year +that won't have to be made over this, because they put in a breadth +more behind, and they only gore side seams. And they don't wear +black capes or cloth sacks any more with all kinds of dresses; you +must have suits, clear through. It seems to me 'they' is a nuisance. +And if it's everybody, we must be part of it. Why doesn't somebody +stop?" +</p> +<p> +"Desire, I wish you'd put away your book, and help, instead of +asking silly questions. You can't make the world over, with 'why +don'ts?'" +</p> +<p> +"I'll <i>rip</i>," said Desire, with a slight emphasis; putting her book +down, and coming over for a skirt and a pair of scissors. "But you +know I'm no good at putting together again. And about making the +world over, I don't know but that might be as easy as making over +all its clothes, I'd as lief try, of the two." +</p> +<p> +Desire was never cross or disagreeable; she was only +"impracticable," her mother said. "And besides that, she didn't know +what she really did want. She was born hungry and asking, with those +sharp little eyes, and her mouth always open while she was a baby. +'It was a sign,' the nurse said, when she was three weeks old. And +then the other sign,—that she should have to be called 'Desire!'" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp—for Mrs. Megilp had been in office as long ago as +that—had suggested ways of getting over or around the difficulty, +when Aunt Desire had stipulated to have the baby named for her, and +had made certain persuasive conditions. +</p> +<p> +"There's the pretty French turn you might give it,—'Desirée.' Only +one more 'e,' and an accent. That is so sweet, and graceful, and +distinguished!" +</p> +<p> +"But Aunt Desire won't have the name twisted. It is to be real, +plain Desire, or not at all." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp had shrugged her shoulders. +</p> +<p> +"Well, of course it can be that, to christen by, and marry by, and +be buried by. But between whiles,—people pick up names,—you'll +see!" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp began to call her "Daisy" when she was two years old. +Nobody could help what Mrs. Megilp took a fancy to call her by way +of endearment, of course; and Daisy she was growing to be in the +family, when one day, at seven years old, she heard Mrs. Megilp say +to her mother,— +</p> +<p> +"I don't see but that you've all got your <i>Desire</i>, after all. The +old lady is satisfied; and away up there in Hanover, what can it +signify to her? The child is 'Daisy,' practically, now, as long as +she lives." +</p> +<p> +The sharp, eager little gray eyes, so close together in the high, +delicate head, glanced up quickly at speaker and hearer. +</p> +<p> +"What old lady, mamma, away up in Hanover?" +</p> +<p> +"Your Aunt Desire, Daisy, whom you were named for. She lives in +Hanover. You are to go and see her there, this summer." +</p> +<p> +"Will she call me Daisy?" +</p> +<p> +The little difficulty suggested in this question had singularly +never occurred to Mrs. Ledwith before. Miss Desire Ledwith never +came down to Boston; there was no danger at home. +</p> +<p> +"No. She is old-fashioned, and doesn't like pet names. She will call +you Desire. That is your name, you know." +</p> +<p> +"Would it signify if she thought you called me Daisy?" asked the +child frowning half absently over her doll, whose arm she was +struggling to force into rather a tight sleeve of her own +manufacture. +</p> +<p> +"Well, perhaps she might not exactly understand. People always went +by their names when she was a child, and now hardly anybody does. +She was very particular about having you called for her, and you +<i>are</i>, you know. I always write 'Desire Ledwith' in all your books, +and—well, I always <i>shall</i> write it so, and so will you. But you +can be Daisy when we make much of you here at home, just as Florence +is Flossie." +</p> +<p> +"No, I can't," said the little girl, very decidedly, getting up and +dropping her doll. "Aunt Desire, away up in Hanover, is thinking all +the time that there is a little Desire Ledwith growing up down here. +I don't mean to have her cheated. I'm going to went by my name, as +she did. Don't call me Daisy any more, all of you; for I shan't +come!" +</p> +<p> +The gray eyes sparkled; the whole little face scintillated, as it +were. Desire Ledwith had a keen, charged little face; and when +something quick and strong shone through it, it was as if somewhere +behind it there had been struck fire. +</p> +<p> +She was true to that through all the years after; going to school +with Mabels and Ethels and Graces and Ediths,—not a girl she knew +but had a pretty modern name,—and they all wondering at that stiff +little "Desire" of hers that she would go by. When she was twelve +years old, the old lady up in Hanover had died, and left her a gold +watch, large and old-fashioned, which she could only keep on a stand +in her room,—a good solid silver tea-set, and all her spoons, and +twenty-five shares in the Hanover Bank. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp called her Daisy, with gentle inadvertence, one day +after that. Desire lifted her eyes slowly at her, with no other +reply in her face, or else. +</p> +<p> +"You might please your mother now, I think," said Mrs. Megilp. +"There is no old lady to be troubled by it." +</p> +<p> +"A promise isn't ever dead, Mrs. Megilp," said Desire, briefly. "I +shall keep our words." +</p> +<p> +"After all," Mrs. Megilp said privately to the mother, "there is +something quietly aristocratic in an old, plain, family name. I +don't know that it isn't good taste in the child. Everybody +understands that it was a condition, and an inheritance." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp had taken care of that. She was watchful for the small +impressions she could make in behalf of her particular friends. She +carried about with her a little social circumference in which all +was preëminently as it should be. +</p> +<p> +But,—as I would say if you could not see it for yourself—this is +a digression. We will go back again. +</p> +<p> +"If it were any use!" said Desire, shaking out the deep plaits as +she unfastened them from the band. "But you're only a piece of +everybody after all. You haven't anything really new or particular +to yourself, when you've done. And it takes up so much time. Last +year, this was so pretty! <i>Isn't</i> anything actually pretty in +itself, or can't they settle what it is? I should think they had +been at it long enough." +</p> +<p> +"Fashions never were so graceful as they are this minute," said Mrs. +Megilp. "Of course it is art, like everything else, and progress. +The world is getting educated to a higher refinement in it, every +day. Why, it's duty, child!" she continued, exaltedly. "Think what +the world would be if nobody cared. We ought to make life beautiful. +It's meant to be. There's not only no virtue in ugliness, but almost +no virtue <i>with</i> it, I think. People are more polite and +good-natured when they are well dressed and comfortable." +</p> +<p> +"<i>That's</i> dress, too, though," said Desire, sententiously. "You've +got to stay at home four days, and rip, and be tired, and cross, and +tried-on-to, and have no chance to do anything else, before you can +put it all on and go out and be good-natured and bland, and help put +the beautiful face on the world, <i>one</i> day. I don't believe it's +political economy." +</p> +<p> +"Everybody doesn't have to do it for themselves. Really, when I hear +people blamed for dress and elegance,—why, the very ones who have +the most of it are those who sacrifice the least time to it. They +just go and order what they want, and there's the end of it. When it +comes home, they put it on, and it might as well be a flounced silk +as a plain calico." +</p> +<p> +"But we <i>do</i> have to think, Mrs. Megilp. And work and worry. And +then we <i>can't</i> turn right round in the things we know every stitch +of and have bothered over from beginning to end, and just be lilies +of the field!" +</p> +<p> +"A great many people do have to wash their own dishes, and sweep, +and scour; but that is no reason it ought not to be done. I always +thought it was rather a pity that was said, <i>just so</i>," Mrs. Megilp +proceeded, with a mild deprecation of the Scripture. "There <i>is</i> +toiling and spinning; and will be to the end of time, for some of +us." +</p> +<p> +"There's cauliflower brought for dinner, Mrs. Ledwith," said +Christina, the parlor girl, coming in. "And Hannah says it won't go +with the pigeons. Will she put it on the ice for to-morrow?" +</p> +<p> +"I suppose so," said Mrs. Ledwith, absently, considering a breadth +that had a little hitch in it. "Though what we shall have to-morrow +I'm sure I don't know," she added, rousing up. "I wish Mr. Ledwith +wouldn't send home the first thing he sees, without any reference." +</p> +<p> +"And here's the milkman's bill, and a letter," continued Christina, +laying them down on a chair beside her mistress, and then departing. +</p> +<p> +Great things come into life so easily, when they do come, right +alongside of milk-bills and cabbages! And yet one may wait so long +sometimes for anything to happen <i>but</i> cabbages! +</p> +<p> +The letter was in a very broad, thick envelope, and sealed with wax. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith looked at it curiously before she opened it. She +did not receive many letters. She had very little time for +correspondence. It was addressed to "Mrs. Laura Ledwith." That +was odd and unusual, too. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp glanced at her over the tortoise-shell rims of her +eye-glasses, but sat very quiet, lest she should delay the opening. +She would like to know what could be in that very business-like +looking despatch, and Laura would be sure to tell her. It must be +something pretty positive, one way or another; it was no +common-place negative communication. Laura might have had property +left her. Mrs. Megilp always thought of possibilities like that. +</p> +<p> +When Laura Ledwith had unfolded the large commercial sheet, and +glanced down the open lines of square, upright characters, whose +purport could be taken in at sight, like print, she turned very red +with a sudden excitement. Then all the color dropped away, and there +was nothing in her face but blank, pale, intense surprise. +</p> +<p> +"It is a most <i>won</i>derful thing!" said she, at last, slowly; and her +breath came like a gasp with her words. "My great-uncle, Mr. +Oldways." +</p> +<p> +She spoke those four words as if from them Mrs. Megilp could +understand everything. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp thought she did. +</p> +<p> +"Ah! Gone?" she asked, pathetically. +</p> +<p> +"Gone! No, indeed!" said Mrs. Ledwith. "He wrote the letter. He +wants me to <i>come</i>; me, and all of us,—to Boston, to live; and to +get acquainted with him." +</p> +<p> +"My dear," said Mrs. Megilp, with the promptness and benignity of a +Christian apostle, "it's your duty to go." +</p> +<p> +"And he offers me a house, and two thousand dollars a year." +</p> +<p> +"My dear," said Mrs. Megilp, "it is <i>emphatically</i> your duty to go." +</p> +<p> +All at once something strange came over Laura Ledwith. She crumpled +the letter tight in her hands with a clutch of quick excitement, and +began to choke with a little sob, and to laugh at the same time. +</p> +<p> +"Don't give way!" cried Mrs. Megilp, coming to her and giving her a +little shake and a slap. "If you do once you will again, and you're +<i>not</i> hystericky!" +</p> +<p> +"He's sent for Frank, too. Frank and I will be together again in +dear old Boston! But—we can't be children and sit on the shed any +more; and—it <i>isn't</i> dear old Boston, either!" +</p> +<p> +And then Laura gave right up, and had a good cry for five minutes. +After that she felt better, and asked Mrs. Megilp how she thought a +house in Spiller Street would do. +</p> +<p> +But she couldn't rip any more of those breadths that morning. +</p> +<p> +Agatha and Florence came in from some calls at the Goldthwaites and +the Haddens, and the news was told, and they had their bonnets to +take off, and the dinner-bell rang, and the smell of the spicy +pigeon-stew came up the stairs, all together. And they went down, +talking fast; and one said "house," and another "carpets," and +another "music and German;" and Desire, trailing a breadth of green +silk in her hand that she had never let go since the letter was +read, cried out, "oratorios!" And nobody quite knew what they were +going down stairs for, or had presence of mind to realize the +pigeons, or help each other or themselves properly, when they got +there! Except Mrs. Megilp, who was polite and hospitable to them +all, and picked two birds in the most composed and elegant manner. +</p> +<p> +When the dessert was put upon the table, and Christina, confusedly +enlightened as to the family excitement, and excessively curious, +had gone away into the kitchen, Mrs. Ledwith said to Mrs. Megilp,— +</p> +<p> +"I'm not sure I should fancy Spiller Street, after all; it's a sort +of a corner. Westmoreland Street or Helvellyn Park might be nice. I +know people down that way,—Mrs. Inchdeepe." +</p> +<p> +"Mrs. Inchdeepe isn't exactly 'people,'" said Mrs. Megilp, in a +quiet way that implied more than grammar. "Don't get into 'And' in +Boston, Laura!—With such an addition to your income, and what your +uncle gives you toward a house, I don't see why you might not think +of Republic Avenue." +</p> +<p> +"We shall have plenty of thinking to do about everything," said +Laura. +</p> +<p> +"Mamma," said Agatha, insinuatingly, "I'm thinking, already; about +that rose-pink paper for my room. I'm glad now I didn't have it +here." +</p> +<p> +Agatha had been restless for white lace, and rose-pink, and a +Brussels carpet ever since her friend Zarah Thoole had come home +from Europe and furnished a morning-room. +</p> +<p> +All this time Mr. Grant Ledwith, quite unconscious of the impending +changes with which his family were so far advanced in imagination, +was busy among bales and samples in Devonshire Street. It got to be +an old story by the time the seven o'clock train was in, and he +reached home. It was almost as if it had all happened a year ago, +and they had been waiting for him to come home from Australia. +</p> +<p> +There was so much to explain to him that it was really hard to make +him understand, and to bring him up to the point from which they +could go on together. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0007"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + VII. +</h2> +<h3> + WAKING UP. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +The Ledwiths took apartments in Boston for a month. They packed away +the furniture they wanted to keep for upper rooms, in the attics of +their house at Z——. They had an auction of all the furniture of +their drawing-room, dining-room, library, and first floor of +sleeping-rooms. Then they were to let their house. Meanwhile, one +was to be fixed upon and fitted up in Boston. In all this Mrs. +Megilp advised, invaluably. +</p> +<p> +"It's of no use to move things," she said. "Three removes are as bad +as a fire; and nothing ever fits in to new places. Old wine and new +bottles, you know! Clear all off with a country auction. Everybody +comes, and they all fight for everything. Things bring more than +their original cost. Then you've nothing to do but order according +to your taste." +</p> +<p> +Mr. Oldways had invited both his nieces to his own house on their +arrival. But here again Mrs. Megilp advised,—so judiciously. +</p> +<p> +"There are too many of you; it would be a positive infliction. And +then you'll have all your running about and planning and calculating +to do, and the good old gentleman would think he had pulled half +Boston down about his ears. Your sister can go there; it would be +only generous and thoughtful to give way to her. There are only +three of them, and they are strange, you know, to every thing, and +wouldn't know which way to turn. I can put you in the way of rooms +at the Bellevue, exactly the thing, for a hundred and fifty a +month. No servants, you see; meals at the restaurant, and very good, +too. The Wedringtons are to give them up unexpectedly; going to +Europe; poor Mrs. Wedrington is so out of health. And about the +house; don't decide in a hurry; see what your uncle says, and your +sister. It's very likely she'll prefer the Aspen Street house; and +it <i>would</i> be out of the way for you. Still it is not to be +<i>refused</i>, you know; of course it is very desirable in many +respects; roomy, old-fashioned, and a garden. I think your sister +will like those things; they're what she has been used to. If she +does, why it's all comfortably settled, and nobody refuses. It is so +ungracious to appear to object; a gift horse, you know." +</p> +<p> +"Not to be refused; only by no means to be taken; masterly +inactivity till somebody else is hooked; and then somebody else is +to be grateful for the preference. I wish Mrs. Megilp wouldn't shine +things up so; and that mother wouldn't go to her to black all her +boots!" +</p> +<p> +Desire said this in secret, indignant discomfort, to Helena, the +fourth in the family, her chum-sister. Helena did very well to talk +to; she heard anything; then she pranced round the room and chaffed +the canary. +</p> +<p> +"Chee! chee! chee! chiddle, iddle, iddle, iddle, e-e-ee! Where do +you keep all your noise and your breath? You're great, aren't you? +You do that to spite people that have to work up one note at a time. +You don't take it in away down under your belt, do you? You're not +particular about that. You don't know much, after all. You don't +know <i>how</i> you do it. You aren't learning of Madame Caroletti. And +you haven't learned two quarters, any way. You were only just born +last spring. Set up! Tr-r-r-r-e-e-ee! I can do that myself. I don't +believe you've got an octave in you. Poh!" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley came down from the country with a bonnet on that +had a crown, and with not a particle of a chignon. When she was +married, twenty-five years before, she wore a French twist,—her +hair turned up in waves from her neck as prettily as it did away +from her forehead,—and two thick coiled loops were knotted and +fastened gracefully at the top. She had kept on twisting her hair +so, all these years; and the rippling folds turned naturally under +her fingers into their places. The color was bright still, and it +had not thinned. Over her brows it parted richly, with no fuzz or +crimp; but a sweet natural wreathing look that made her face young. +Mrs. Ledwith had done hers over slate-pencils till she had burned it +off; and now tied on a friz, that came low down, for fashion's sake, +and left visible only a little bunch of puckers between her eyebrows +and the crowsfeet at the corners. The back of her head was weighted +down by an immense excrescence in a bag. Behind her ears were bare +places. Mrs. Ledwith began to look old-young. And a woman cannot get +into a worse stage of looks than that. Still, she was a showy +woman—a good exponent of the reigning style; and she was +handsome—she and her millinery—of an evening, or in the street. +</p> +<p> +When I began that last paragraph I meant to tell you what else Mrs. +Ripwinkley brought with her, down out of the country and the old +times; but hair takes up a deal of room. She brought down all her +dear old furniture. That is, it came after her in boxes, when she +had made up her mind to take the Aspen Street house. +</p> +<p> +"Why, that's the sofa Oliver used to lie down on when he came home +tired from his patients, and that's the rocking-chair I nursed my +babies in; and this is the old oak table we've sat round three times +a day, the family of us growing and thinning, as the time went on, +all through these years. It's like a communion table, now, Laura. Of +course such things had to come." +</p> +<p> +This was what she answered, when Laura ejaculated her amazement at +her having brought "old Homesworth truck" to Boston. +</p> +<p> +"You see it isn't the walls that make the home; we can go away from +them and not break our hearts, so long as our own goes with us. The +little things that we have used, and that have grown around us with +our living,—they are all of living that we can handle and hold on +to; and if I went to Spitzbergen, I should take as many of them as I +could." +</p> +<p> +The Aspen Street house just suited Mrs. Ripwinkley, and Diana, and +Hazel. +</p> +<p> +In the first place, it was wooden; built side to the street, so that +you went up a little paved walk, in a shade of trees, to get to the +door; and then the yard, on the right hand side as you came in, was +laid out in narrow walks between borders of blossoming plants. There +were vines against the brick end of the next building,—creepers and +morning-glories, and white and scarlet runners; and a little +martin-box was set upon a pole in the still, farther corner. +</p> +<p> +The rooms of the house were low, but large; and some of the windows +had twelve-paned sashes,—twenty-four to a window. Mrs. Ripwinkley +was charmed with these also. They were like the windows at Mile +Hill. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith, although greatly relieved by her sister's prompt +decision for the house which she did <i>not</i> want, felt it in her +conscience to remonstrate a little. +</p> +<p> +"You have just come down from the mountains, Frank, after your +twenty-five years' sleep; you've seen nothing by and by you will +think differently. This house is fearfully old-fashioned, +<i>fearfully</i>; and it's away down here on the wrong side of the hill. +You can never get up over Summit Street from here." +</p> +<p> +"We are used to hills, and walking." +</p> +<p> +"But I mean—that isn't all. There are other things you won't be +able to get over. You'll never shake off Aspen Street dust,—you nor +the children." +</p> +<p> +"I don't think it is dusty. It is quiet, and sheltered, and clean. I +like it ever so much," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. +</p> +<p> +"O, dear, you don't understand in the least! It's wicked to let you +go on so! You poor, dear, simple little old soul!" +</p> +<p> +"Never mind," said Mrs. Megilp. "It's all well enough for the +present. It pleases the old gentleman, you know; and after all he's +done, he ought to be pleased. One of you should certainly be in his +neighborhood. <i>He</i> has been here from time immemorial; and any place +grows respectable by staying in it long enough—from <i>choice</i>. +Nobody will wonder at Mrs. Ripwinkley's coming here at his request. +And when she <i>does</i> move, you see, she will know exactly what she is +about." +</p> +<p> +"I almost doubt if she ever <i>will</i> know what she is about," said +Laura. +</p> +<p> +"In that case,—well,"—said Mrs. Megilp, and stopped, because it +really was not in the least needful to say more. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp felt it judicious, for many reasons, that Mrs. +Ripwinkley should he hidden away for awhile, to get that mountain +sleep out of her eyes, if it should prove possible; just as we rub +old metal with oil and put it by till the rust comes off. +</p> +<p> +The Ledwiths decided upon a house in Shubarton Place that would not +seem quite like taking old Uncle Titus's money and rushing away +with it as far as city limits would allow; and Laura really did wish +to have the comfort of her sister's society, in a cozy way, of +mornings, up in her room; that was her chief idea about it. There +were a good many times and things in which she scarcely expected +much companionship from Frank. She would not have said even to +herself, that Frank was rusty; and she would do her faithful and +good-natured best to rub her up; but there was an instinct with her +of the congruous and the incongruous; and she would not do her +Bath-brick polishing out on the public promenade. +</p> +<p> +They began by going together to the carpet stores and the paper +warehouses; but they ended in detailing themselves for separate +work; their ideas clashed ridiculously, and perpetually confused +each other. Frank remembered loyally her old brown sofa and chairs; +she would not have gay colors to put them out of countenance; for +even if she re-covered them, she said they should have the same old +homey complexion. So she chose a fair, soft buff, with a pattern of +brown leaves, for her parlor paper; Mrs. Ledwith, meanwhile, +plunging headlong into glories of crimson and garnet and gold. +Agatha had her blush pink, in panels, with heart-of-rose borders, +set on with delicate gilt beadings; you would have thought she was +going to put herself up, in a fancy-box, like a French <i>mouchoir</i> or +a <i>bonbon</i>. +</p> +<p> +"Why <i>don't</i> you put your old brown things all together in an +up-stairs room, and call it Mile Hill? You could keep it for old +times' sake, and sit there mornings; the house is big enough; and +then have furniture like other people's in the parlor?" +</p> +<p> +"You see it wouldn't be <i>me</i>." said Mrs. Ripwinkley, simply. +</p> +<p> +"They keep saying it 'looks,' and 'it looks,'" said Diana to her +mother, at home. "Why must everything <i>look</i> somehow?" +</p> +<p> +"And every<i>body</i>, too," said Hazel. "Why, when we meet any one in +the street that Agatha and Florence know, the minute they have gone +by they say, 'She didn't look well to-day,' or, 'How pretty she did +look in that new hat!' And after the great party they went to at +that Miss Hitchler's, they never told a word about it except how +girls 'looked.' I wonder what they <i>did</i>, or where the good time +was. Seems to me people ain't living,—they are only just looking; +or <i>is</i> this the same old Boston that you told about, and where are +the real folks, mother?" +</p> +<p> +"We shall find them," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, cheerily; "and the real +of these, too, when the outsides are settled. In the meantime, we'll +make our house say, and not look. Say something true, of course. +Things won't say anything else, you see; if you try to make them, +they don't speak out; they only stand in a dumb show and make +faces." +</p> +<p> +"That's looking!" said Hazel. "Now I know." +</p> +<p> +"How those children do grow!" said Mrs. Ripwinkley, as they went off +together. "Two months ago they were sitting out on the kitchen roof, +and coming to me to hear the old stories!" +</p> +<p> +"Transplantin'," said Luclarion. "That's done it." +</p> +<p> +At twelve and fourteen, Hazel and Diana could be simple as +birds,—simpler yet, as human children waiting for all things,—in +their country life and their little dreams of the world. Two months' +contact with people and things in a great city had started the life +that was in them, so that it showed what manner of growth it was to +be of. +</p> +<p> +And little Hazel Ripwinkley had got hold already of the small end of +a very large problem. +</p> +<p> +But she could not make it out that this was the same old Boston +that her mother had told about, or where the nice neighbors were +that would be likely to have little tea-parties for their children. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0008"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + VIII. +</h2> +<h3> + EAVESDROPPING IN ASPEN STREET. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Some of the old builders,—not the <i>very</i> old ones, for they built +nothing but rope-walks down behind the hill,—but some of those who +began to go northwest from the State House to live, made a pleasant +group of streets down there on the level stretching away to the +river, and called them by fresh, fragrant, country-suggesting +names. Names of trees and fields and gardens, fruits and blossoms; +and they built houses with gardens around them. In between the +blocks were deep, shady places; and the smell of flowers was tossed +back and forth by summer winds between the walls. Some nice old +people stayed on there, and a few of their descendants stay on there +still, though they are built in closely now, for the most part, and +coarse, common things have much intruded, and Summit Street +overshadows them with its palaces. +</p> +<p> +Here and there a wooden house, set back a little, like this of the +Ripwinkleys in Aspen Street, gives you a feeling of Boston in the +far back times, as you go by; and here and there, if you could get +into the life of the neighborhood, you might perhaps find a +household keeping itself almost untouched with change, though there +has been such a rush and surge for years up and over into the newer +and prouder places. +</p> +<p> +At any rate, Titus Oldways lived here in Greenley Street; and he +owned the Aspen Street house, and another over in Meadow Place, and +another in Field Court. He meant to stretch his control over them as +long as he could, and keep them for families; therefore he valued +them at such rates as they would bring for dwellings; he would not +sell or lease them for any kind of "improvements;" he would not have +their little door-yards choked up, or their larger garden spaces +destroyed, while he could help it. +</p> +<p> +Round in Orchard Street lived Miss Craydocke. She was away again, +now, staying a little while with the Josselyns in New York. Uncle +Titus told Mrs. Ripwinkley that when Miss Craydocke came back it +would be a neighborhood, and they could go round; now it was only +back and forth between them and him and Rachel Froke. There were +other people, too, but they would be longer finding them out. +"You'll know Miss Craydocke as soon as you see her; she is one of +those you always seem to have seen before." +</p> +<p> +Now Uncle Titus would not have said this to everybody; not even if +everybody had been his niece, and had come to live beside him. +</p> +<p> +Orchard Street is wide and sunny and pleasant; the river air comes +over it and makes it sweet; and Miss Craydocke's is a big, generous +house, of which she only uses a very little part herself, because +she lets the rest to nice people who want pleasant rooms and can't +afford to pay much rent; an old gentleman who has had a hard time in +the world, but has kept himself a gentleman through it all, and his +little cheery old lady-wife who puts her round glasses on and +stitches away at fine women's under-garments and flannel +embroideries, to keep things even, have the two very best rooms; and +a clergyman's widow, who copies for lawyers, and writes little +stories for children, has another; and two orphan sisters who keep +school have another; and Miss Craydocke calls her house the Beehive, +and buzzes up and down in it, and out and in, on little "seeing-to" +errands of care and kindness all day long, as never any queen-bee +did in any beehive before, but in a way that makes her more truly +queen than any sitting in the middle cell of state to be fed on +royal jelly. Behind the Beehive, is a garden, as there should be; +great patches of lily-of-the valley grow there that Miss Craydocke +ties up bunches from in the spring and gives away to little +children, and carries into all the sick rooms she knows of, and the +poor places. I always think of those lilies of the valley when I +think of Miss Craydocke. It seems somehow as if they were blooming +about her all the year through; and so they are, perhaps, invisibly. +The other flowers come in their season; the crocuses have been done +with first of all; the gay tulips and the snowballs have made the +children glad when they stopped at the gate and got them, going to +school. Miss Craydocke is always out in her garden at school-time. +By and by there are the tall white lilies, standing cool and serene +in the July heats; then Miss Craydocke is away at the mountains, +pressing ferns and drying grasses for winter parlors; but there is +somebody on duty at the garden dispensary always, and there are +flower-pensioners who know they may come in and take the gracious +toll. +</p> +<p> +Late in the autumn, the nasturtiums and verbenas and marigolds are +bright; and the asters quill themselves into the biggest globes they +can, of white and purple and rose, as if it were to make the last +glory the best, and to do the very utmost of the year. Then the +chrysanthemums go into the house and bloom there for Christmas-time. +</p> +<p> +There is nothing else like Miss Craydocke's house and garden, I do +believe, in all the city of the Three Hills. It is none too big for +her, left alone with it, the last of her family; the world is none +too big for her; she is glad to know it is all there. She has a use +for everything as fast as it comes, and a work to do for everybody, +as fast as she finds them out. And everybody,—almost,—catches it +as she goes along, and around her there is always springing up a +busy and a spreading crystallizing of shining and blessed elements. +The world is none too big for her, or for any such, of course, +because,—it has been told why better than I can tell it,—because +"ten times one is always ten." +</p> +<p> +It was a gray, gusty morning. It had not set in to rain +continuously; but the wind wrung handfuls of drops suddenly from the +clouds, and flung them against the panes and into the wayfarers' +faces. +</p> +<p> +Over in the house opposite the Ripwinkley's, at the second story +windows, sat two busy young persons. Hazel, sitting at her window, +in "mother's room," where each had a corner, could see across; and +had got into the way of innocent watching. Up in Homesworth, she had +used to watch the robins in the elm-trees; here, there was human +life, in little human nests, all about her. +</p> +<p> +"It's the same thing, mother," she would say, "isn't it, now? Don't +you remember in that book of the 'New England Housekeeper,' that you +used to have, what the woman said about the human nature of the +beans? It's in beans, and birds, and bird's nests; and folks, and +folks' nests. It don't make much difference. It's just snugness, and +getting along. And it's so nice to see!" +</p> +<p> +Hazel put her elbows up on the window-sill, and looked straight over +into that opposite room, undisguisedly. +</p> +<p> +The young man, in one window, said to his sister in the other, at +the same moment,— +</p> +<p> +"Our company's come! There's that bright little girl again!" +</p> +<p> +And the sister said, "Well, it's pretty much all the company we can +take in! She brings her own seat and her own window; and she doesn't +interrupt. It's just the kind for us, Kentie!" +</p> +<p> +"She's writing,—copying something,—music, it looks like; see it +there, set up against the shutter. She always goes out with a music +roll in her hand. I wonder whether she gives or takes?" said Diana, +stopping on her way to her own seat to look out over Hazel's +shoulder. +</p> +<p> +"Both, I guess," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "Most people do. Why don't +you put your flowers in the window, Hazel?" +</p> +<p> +"Why, so I will!" +</p> +<p> +They were a great bunch of snowy white and deep crimson asters, with +green ivy leaves, in a tall gray glass vase. Rachel Froke had just +brought them in from Miss Craydocke's garden. +</p> +<p> +"They're looking, mother! Only I do think it's half too bad! That +girl seems as if she would almost reach across after them. Perhaps +they came from the country, and haven't had any flowers." +</p> +<p> +"Thee might take them over some," said Mrs. Froke, simply. +</p> +<p> +"O, I shouldn't dare! There are other people in the house, and I +don't know their names, or anything. I wish I could, though." +</p> +<p> +"I can," said Rachel Froke. "Thee'll grow tall enough to step over +pebbles one of these days. Never mind; I'll fetch thee more +to-morrow; and thee'll let the vase go for a while? Likely they've +nothing better than a tumbler." +</p> +<p> +Rachel Froke went down the stairs, and out along the paved walk, +into the street. She stopped an instant on the curb-stone before she +crossed, and looked up at those second story windows. Hazel watched +her. She held up the vase slightly with one hand, nodding her little +gray bonnet kindly, and beckoned with the other. +</p> +<p> +The young girl started from her seat. +</p> +<p> +In another minute Hazel saw them together in the doorway. +</p> +<p> +There was a blush and a smile, and an eager brightness in the face, +and a quick speaking thanks, that one could read without hearing, +from the parted lips, on the one side, and the quiet, unflutterable +gray bonnet calmly horizontal on the other; and then the door was +shut, and Rachel Froke was crossing the damp pavement again. +</p> +<p> +"I'm so glad Aspen Street is narrow!" said Hazel. "I should hate to +be way off out of sight of people. What did you say to her, Mrs. +Froke?" she asked, as the Friend reentered. Hazel could by no means +take the awful liberty of "Rachel." +</p> +<p> +"I said the young girl, Hazel Ripwinkley, being from the country, +knew how good flowers were to strangers in the town, and that she +thought they might be strange, and might like some." +</p> +<p> +Hazel flushed all up. At that same instant, a gentle nod and smile +came across from window to window, and she flushed more, till the +tears sprung with the shy, glad excitement, as she returned it and +then shrunk away. +</p> +<p> +"And she said, 'Thank her, with Dorris Kincaid's love,'" proceeded +Rachel Froke. +</p> +<p> +"O, <i>mother</i>!" exclaimed Hazel. "And you did it all, right off so, +Mrs. Froke. I don't see how grown up people dare, and know how!" +</p> +<p> +Up the stairs ran quick feet in little clattering heeled boots. +Desire Ledwith, with a purple waterproof on, came in. +</p> +<p> +"I couldn't stay at home to-day," she said, "I wanted to be where +it was all-togetherish. It never is at our house. Now it's set up, +they don't do anything with it." +</p> +<p> +"That's because it '<i>looks</i>'—so elegant," said Hazel, catching +herself up in dismay. +</p> +<p> +"It's because it's the crust, I think," said Desire. "Puff paste, +like an oyster patty; and they haven't got anything cooked yet for +the middle. I wonder when they will. I had a call yesterday, all to +myself," she went on, with a sudden change of tone and topic. +"Agatha was hopping and I wouldn't tell her what I said, or how I +behaved. That new parlor girl of ours thinks we're all or any of us +'Miss Ledwith,' mamma included, and so she let him in. He had on +lavender pantaloons and a waxed moustache." +</p> +<p> +"The rain is just pouring down!" said Diana, at the garden window. +</p> +<p> +"Yes; I'm caught. That's what I meant," said Desire. "You've got to +keep me all day, now. How will you get home, Mrs. Froke? Or won't +you have to stay, too?" +</p> +<p> +"Thee may call me Rachel, Desire Ledwith, if thee pleases. I like it +better. I am no mistress. And for getting home, it is but just round +the corner. But there is no need yet. I came for an hour, to sit +here with friend Frances. And my hour is not yet up." +</p> +<p> +"I'm glad of that, for there is something I want you to tell me. I +haven't quite got at it myself, yet; so as to ask, I mean. Wait a +minute!" And she put her elbows up on her knees, and held her thumbs +against her ears, and her fingers across her forehead; sitting +squarely opposite the window to which she had drawn up her chair +beside Diane, and looking intently at the driving streams that +rushed and ran down against the glass. +</p> +<p> +"I was sitting in the bay-window at home, when it began this +morning; that made me think. All the world dripping wet, and I just +put there dry and safe in the middle of the storm, shut up behind +those great clear panes and tight sashes. How they did have to +contrive, and work, before there were such places made for people! +What if they had got into their first scratchy little houses, and +sat behind the logs as we do behind glass windows and thought, as I +was thinking, how nice it was just to be covered up from the rain? +Is it all finished now? Hasn't anybody got to contrive anything +more? And who's going to do it—and everything. And what are we good +for,—just <i>we</i>,—to come and expect it all, modern-improved! I +don't think much of our place among things, do you, Mrs. +Froke?—There, I believe that's it, as near as I can!'" +</p> +<p> +"Why does thee ask me, Desire?" +</p> +<p> +"I don't know. I don't know any whys or what fors. 'Behold we know +not anything,'—Tennyson and I! But you seem so—pacified—I suppose +I thought you must have settled most things in your mind." +</p> +<p> +"Every builder—every little joiner—did his piece,—thought his +thought out, I think likely. There's no little groove or moulding or +fitting or finish, but is a bit of somebody's living; and life +grows, going on. We've all got our piece to do," said Rachel. +</p> +<p> +"I asked Mrs. Mig," Desire pursued, "and she said some people's part +was to buy and employ and encourage; and that spending money helps +all the world; and then she put another cushion to her back, and +went on tatting." +</p> +<p> +"Perhaps it does—in spite of the world," said Rachel Froke, +quietly. +</p> +<p> +"But I guess nobody is to sit by and <i>only</i> encourage; God has +given out no such portion as that, I do believe. We can encourage +each other, and every one do his own piece too." +</p> +<p> +"I didn't really suppose Mrs. Mig knew," said Desire, demurely. "She +never began at the bottom of anything. She only finishes off. She +buys pattern worsted work, and fills it in. That's what she's doing +now, when she don't tat; a great bunch of white lilies, grounding it +with olive. It's lovely; but I'd rather have made the lilies. She'll +give it to mother, and then Glossy will come and spend the winter +with us. Mrs. Mig is going to Nassau with a sick friend; she's +awfully useful—for little overseeings and general touchings up, +after all the hard part is done. Mrs. Mig's sick friends always have +nurses and waiting maids—Mrs. F—— Rachel! Do you know, I haven't +got any piece!" +</p> +<p> +"No, I don't know; nor does thee either, yet," said Rachel Froke. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +"It's all such bosh!" said Kenneth Kincaid, flinging down a handful +of papers. "I've no right, I solemnly think, to help such stuff out +into the world! A man can't take hold anywhere, it seems, without +smutting his fingers!" +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid was correcting proof for a publisher. What he had to +work on this morning was the first chapters of a flimsy novel. +</p> +<p> +"It isn't even confectionery," said he. "It's terra alba and +cochineal. And when it comes to the sensation, it will be benzine +for whiskey. Real things are bad enough, for the most part, in this +world; but when it comes to sham fictions and adulterated poisons, +Dorris, I'd rather help bake bread, if it were an honest loaf, or +make strong shoes for laboring men!" +</p> +<p> +"You don't always get things like that," said Dorris. "And you know +you're not responsible. Why will you torment yourself so?" +</p> +<p> +"I was so determined not to do anything but genuine work; work that +the world wanted; and to have it come down to this!" +</p> +<p> +"Only for a time, while you are waiting." +</p> +<p> +"Yes; people must eat while they are waiting; that's the—devil of +it! I'm not swearing, Dorris, dear; it came truly into my head, that +minute, about the Temptation in the Wilderness." Kenneth's voice was +reverent, saying this; and there was an earnest thought in his face. +</p> +<p> +"You'll never like anything heartily but your Sunday work." +</p> +<p> +"That's what keeps me here. My week-day work might be wanted +somewhere else. And perhaps I ought to go. There's Sunday work +everywhere." +</p> +<p> +"If you've found one half, hold on to it;" said Dorris. "The other +can't be far off." +</p> +<p> +"I suppose there are a score or two of young architects in this +city, waiting for a name or a chance to make one, as I am. If it +isn't here for all of them, somebody has got to quit." +</p> +<p> +"And somebody has got to hold on," repeated Dorris. "You are morbid, +Kent, about this 'work of the world.'" +</p> +<p> +"It's overdone, everywhere. Fifth wheels trying to hitch on to every +coach. I'd rather be the one wheel of a barrow." +</p> +<p> +"The Lord is Wheelwright, and Builder," said Dorris, very simply. +"You <i>are</i> a wheel, and He has made you; He'll find an axle for you +and put you on; and you shall go about his business, so that you +shall wonder to remember that you were ever leaning up against a +wall. Do you know, Kentie, life seems to me like the game we used +to play at home in the twilight. When we shut our eyes and let each +other lead us, until we did not know where we were going, or in what +place we should come out. I should not care to walk up a broad path +with my eyes wide open, now. I'd rather feel the leading. To-morrow +always makes a turn. It's beautiful! People don't know, who <i>never</i> +shut their eyes!" +</p> +<p> +Kenneth had taken up a newspaper. +</p> +<p> +"The pretenses at doing! The dodges and go-betweens that make a sham +work between every two real ones! There's hardly a true business +carried on, and if there is, you don't know where or which. Look at +the advertisements. Why, they cheat with their very tops and faces! +See this man who puts in big capitals: 'Lost! $5,000! $1,000 +reward!' and then tells you, in small type, that five thousand +dollars are lost every year by breaking glass and china, that his +cement will mend! What business has he to cry 'Wolf!' to the +hindrance of the next man who may have a real wolf to catch? And +what business has the printer, whom the next man will pay to +advertise his loss, to help on a lie like this beforehand? I'm only +twenty-six years old, Dorris, and I'm getting ashamed of the world!" +</p> +<p> +"Don't grow hard, Kenneth. 'The Son of Man came not to condemn the +world, but to save it.' Let's each try to save our little piece!" +</p> +<p> +We are listening across the street, you see; between the windows in +the rain; it is strange what chords one catches that do not catch +each other, and were never planned to be played together,—by the +<i>players</i>. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid's father Robert had been a ship-builder. When +shipping went down in the whirlpool of 1857, Robert Kincaid's +building had gone; and afterward he had died leaving his children +little beside their education, which he thanked God was secured, and +a good repute that belonged to their name, but was easily forgotten +in the crowd of young and forward ones, and in the strife and +scramble of a new business growth. +</p> +<p> +Between college and technical studies Kenneth had been to the war. +After that he had a chance to make a fortune in Wall Street. His +father's brother, James, offered to take him in with him to buy and +sell stocks and gold, to watch the market, to touch little unseen +springs, to put the difference into his own pocket every time the +tide of value shifted, or could be made to seem to shift. He might +have been one of James R. Kincaid and Company. He would have none of +it. He told his uncle plainly that he wanted real work; that he had +not come back from fighting to—well, there he stopped, for he could +not fling the truth in his uncle's face; he said there were things +he meant to finish learning, and would try to do; and if nobody +wanted them of him he would learn something else that was needed. So +with what was left to his share from his father's little remnant of +property, he had two years at the Technological School, and here he +was in Boston waiting. You can see what he meant by real work, and +how deep his theories and distinctions lay. You can see that it +might be a hard thing for one young man, here or there, to take up +the world on these terms now, in this year of our Lord eighteen +hundred and sixty-nine. +</p> +<p> +Over the way Desire Ledwith was beginning again, after a pause in +which we have made our little chassée. +</p> +<p> +"I know a girl," she said, "who has got a studio. And she talks +about art, and she knows styles, and who has done what, and she runs +about to see pictures, and she copies things, and she has little +plaster legs and toes and things hanging round everywhere. She +thinks it is something great; but it's only Mig, after all. +Everything is. Florence Migs into music. And I won't Mig, if I never +do anything. I'm come here this morning to darn stockings." And she +pulled out of her big waterproof pocket a bundle of stockings and a +great white ball of darning cotton and a wooden egg. +</p> +<p> +"There is always one thing that is real," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, +gently, "and that shows the way surely to all the rest." +</p> +<p> +"I know what you mean," said Desire, "of course; but they've mixed +that all up too, like everything else, so that you don't know where +it is. Glossy Megilp has a velvet prayer-book, and she blacks her +eyelashes and goes to church. We've all been baptized, and we've +learned the Lord's Prayer, and we're all Christians. What is there +more about it? I wish, sometimes, they had let it all alone. I think +they vaccinated us with religion, Aunt Frank, for fear we should +take it the natural way." +</p> +<p> +"Thee is restless," said Rachel Froke, tying on her gray cloak. "And +to make us so is oftentimes the first thing the Lord does for us. It +was the first thing He did for the world. Then He said, 'Let there +be light!' In the meantime, thee is right; just darn thy stockings." +And Rachel went. +</p> +<p> +They had a nice morning, after that, "leaving frets alone," as Diana +said. Diana Ripwinkley was happy in things just as they were. If the +sun shone, she rejoiced in the glory; if the rain fell, it shut her +in sweetly to the heart of home, and the outside world grew fragrant +for her breathing. There was never anything in her day that she +could spare out of it, and there were no holes in the hours either. +"Whether she was most bird or bee, it was hard to tell," her mother +said of her; from the time she used to sweep and dust her garret +baby-house along the big beams in the old house at Homesworth, and +make little cheeses, and set them to press in wooden pill-boxes from +which she had punched the bottoms out, till now, that she began to +take upon herself the daily freshening of the new parlors in Aspen +Street, and had long lessons of geometry to learn, whose dry +demonstrations she set to odd little improvised recitatives of +music, and chanted over while she ran up and down putting away clean +linen for her mother, that Luclarion brought up from the wash. +</p> +<p> +As for Hazel, she was only another variation upon the same sweet +nature. There was more of outgo and enterprise with her. Diana made +the thing or the place pleasant that she was in or doing. Hazel +sought out new and blessed inventions. "There was always something +coming to the child that wouldn't ever have come to no one else," +Luclarion said. "And besides that, she was a real 'Witch Hazel;' she +could tell where the springs were, and what's more, where they +warn't." +</p> +<p> +Luclarion Grapp would never have pleaded guilty to "dropping into +poetry" in any light whatsoever; but what she meant by this was not +exactly according to the letter, as one may easily see. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0009"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + IX. +</h2> +<h3> + HAZEL'S INSPIRATION. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +What was the use of "looking," unless things were looked at? Mrs. +Ledwith found at the end of the winter that she ought to give a +party. Not a general one; Mrs. Ledwith always said "not a general +one," as if it were an exception, whereas she knew better than ever +to undertake a general party; her list would be <i>too</i> general, and +heterogeneous. It would simply be a physical, as well as a social, +impossibility. She knew quantities of people separately and very +cordially, in her easy have-a-good-time-when-you-can style, that she +could by no means mix, or even gather together. She picked up +acquaintances on summer journeys, she accepted civilities wherever +she might be, she asked everybody to her house who took a fancy to +her, or would admire her establishment, and if she had had a spring +cleaning or a new carpeting, or a furbishing up in any way, the next +thing was always to light up and play it off,—to try it on to +somebody. What were houses for? And there was always somebody who +ought to be paid attention to; somebody staying with a friend, or a +couple just engaged, or if nothing else, it was her turn to have the +sewing-society; and so her rooms got aired. Of course she had to air +them now! The drawing-room, with its apricot and coffee-brown +furnishings, was lovely in the evening, and the crimson and garnet +in the dining-room was rich and cozy, and set off brilliantly her +show of silver and cut-glass; and then, there was the new, real, +sea-green China. +</p> +<p> +So the party was had. There were some people in town from New York; +she invited them and about a hundred more. The house lit up +beautifully; the only pity was that Mrs. Ledwith could not wear her +favorite and most becoming colors, buff and chestnut, because she +had taken that family of tints for her furniture; but she found a +lovely shade of violet that would hold by gas-light, and she wore +black Fayal lace with it, and white roses upon her hair. Mrs. +Treweek was enchanted with the brown and apricot drawing-room, and +wondered where on earth they had got that particular shade, for "my +dear! she had ransacked Paris for hangings in just that perfect, +soft, ripe color that she had in her mind and never could hit upon." +Mrs. MacMichael had pushed the grapes back upon her plate to examine +the pattern of the bit of china, and had said how lovely the +coloring was, with the purple and pale green of the fruit. And these +things, and a few more like them, were the residuum of the whole, +and Laura Ledwith was satisfied. +</p> +<p> +Afterward, "while they were in the way of it," Florence had a little +<i>musicale</i>; and the first season in Shubarton Place was over. +</p> +<p> +It turned out, however, as it did in the old rhyme,—they shod the +horse, and shod the mare, and let the little colt go bare. Helena +was disgusted because she could not have a "German." +</p> +<p> +"We shall have to be careful, now that we have fairly settled down," +said Laura to her sister; "for every bit of Grant's salary will have +been taken up with this winter's expenses. But one wants to begin +right, and after that one can go on moderately. I'm good at +contriving, Frank; only give me something to contrive with." +</p> +<p> +"Isn't it a responsibility," Frank ventured, "to think what we shall +contrive <i>for</i>?" +</p> +<p> +"Of course," returned Mrs. Ledwith, glibly. "And my first duty is +to my children. I don't mean to encourage them to reckless +extravagance; as Mrs. Megilp says, there's always a limit; but it's +one's duty to make life beautiful, and one can't do too much for +home. I want my children to be satisfied with theirs, and I want to +cultivate their tastes and accustom them to society. I can't do +<i>everything</i> for them; they will dress on three hundred a year +apiece, Agatha and Florence; and I can assure you it needs +management to accomplish that, in these days!" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley laughed, gently. +</p> +<p> +"It would require management with us to get rid of that, upon +ourselves." +</p> +<p> +"O, my dear, don't I tell you continually, you haven't waked up yet? +Just rub your eyes a while longer,—or let the girls do it for +you,—and you'll see! Why, I know of girls,—girls whose mothers +have limited incomes, too,—who have been kept plain, actually +<i>plain</i>, all their school days, but who must have now six and eight +hundred a year to go into society with. And really I wouldn't +undertake it for less, myself, if I expected to keep up with +everything. But I must treat mine all alike, and we must be +contented with what we have. There's Helena, now, crazy for a young +party; but I couldn't think of it. Young parties are ten times worse +than old ones; there's really no <i>end</i> to the expense, with the +German, and everything. Helena will have to wait; and yet,—of +course, if I could, it is desirable, almost necessary; acquaintances +begin in the school-room,—society, indeed; and a great deal would +depend upon it. The truth is, you're no sooner born, now-a-days, +than you have to begin to keep up; or else—you're dropped out." +</p> +<p> +"O, Laura! do you remember the dear little parties our mother used +to make for us? From four till half-past eight, with games, and tea +at six, and the fathers looking in?" +</p> +<p> +"And cockles, and mottoes, and printed cambric dresses, and milk and +water! Where are the children, do you suppose, you dear old Frau Van +Winkle, that would come to such a party now?" +</p> +<p> +"Children must be born simple, as they were then. There's nothing my +girls would like better, even at their age, than to help at just +such a party. It is a dream of theirs. Why shouldn't somebody do it, +just to show how good it is?" +</p> +<p> +"You can lead a horse to water, you know, Frank, but you can't make +him drink. And the colts are forty times worse. I believe you might +get some of the mothers together for an ancient tea-drink, just in +the name of old association; but the <i>babies</i> would all turn up +their new-fashioned little noses." +</p> +<p> +"O, dear!" sighed Frau Van Winkle. "I wish I knew people!" +</p> +<p> +"By the time you do, you'll know the reason why, and be like all the +rest." +</p> +<p> +Hazel Ripwinkley went to Mrs. Hilman's school, with her cousin +Helena. That was because the school was a thoroughly good one; the +best her mother could learn of; not because it was kept in parlors +in Dorset Street, and there were girls there who came from palaces +west of the Common, in the grand avenues and the ABC streets; nor +did Hazel wear her best gray and black velvet suit for every day, +though the rich colored poplins with their over-skirts and sashes, +and the gay ribbons for hair and neck made the long green baize +covered tables look like gardenplots with beds of bloom, and quite +extinguished with their brilliancy the quiet, one skirted brown +merino that she brushed and folded every night, and put on with +fresh linen cuffs and collar every morning. +</p> +<p> +"It is an idiosyncrasy of Aunt Frances," Helena explained, with the +grandest phrase she could pick out of her "Synonymes," to cow down +those who "wondered." +</p> +<p> +Privately, Helena held long lamentations with Hazel, going to and +fro, about the party that she could not have. +</p> +<p> +"I'm actually ashamed to go to school. There isn't a girl there, who +can pretend to have anything, that hasn't had some kind of a company +this winter. I've been to them all, and I feel real mean,—sneaky. +What's 'next year?' Mamma puts me off with that. Poh? Next year +they'll all begin again. You can't skip birthdays." +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you what!" said Hazel, suddenly, inspired by much the +same idea that had occurred to Mrs. Ripwinkley; "I mean to ask my +mother to let <i>me</i> have a party!" +</p> +<p> +"You! Down in Aspen Street! Don't, for pity's sake, Hazel!" +</p> +<p> +"I don't believe but what it could be done over again!" said Hazel, +irrelevantly, intent upon her own thought. +</p> +<p> +"It couldn't be done <i>once</i>! For gracious grandmother's sake, don't +think of it!" cried the little world-woman of thirteen. +</p> +<p> +"It's gracious grandmother's sake that made me think of it," said +Hazel, laughing. "The way she used to do." +</p> +<p> +"Why don't you ask them to help you hunt up old Noah, and all get +back into the ark, pigeons and all?" +</p> +<p> +"Well, I guess they had pretty nice times there, any how; and if +another big rain comes, perhaps they'll have to!" +</p> +<p> +Hazel did not intend her full meaning; but there is many a faint, +small prophecy hid under a clover-leaf. +</p> +<p> +Hazel did not let go things; her little witch-wand, once pointed, +held its divining angle with the might of magic until somebody broke +ground. +</p> +<p> +"It's awful!" Helena declared to her mother and sisters, with tears +of consternation. "And she wants me to go round with her and carry +'compliments!' It'll never be got over,—never! I wish I could go +away to boarding-school!" +</p> +<p> +For Mrs. Ripwinkley had made up her unsophisticated mind to try this +thing; to put this grain of a pure, potent salt, right into the +seethe and glitter of little Boston, and find out what it would +decompose or precipitate. For was not she a mother, testing the +world's chalice for her children? What did she care for the hiss and +the bubble, if they came? +</p> +<p> +She was wider awake than Mrs. Ledwith knew; perhaps they who come +down from the mountain heights of long seclusion can measure the +world's paces and changes better than they who have been hurried in +the midst of them, on and on, or round and round. +</p> +<p> +Worst of all, old Uncle Titus took it up. +</p> +<p> +It was funny,—or it would have been funny, reader, if anybody but +you and I and Rachel Froke knew exactly how,—to watch Uncle Titus +as he kept his quiet eye on all these things,—the things that he +had set going,—and read their revelations; sheltered, disguised, +under a character that the world had chosen to put upon him, like +Haroun Alraschid in the merchant's cloak. +</p> +<p> +They took their tea with him,—the two families,—every Sunday +night. Agatha Ledwith "filled him in" a pair of slippers that very +first Christmas; he sat there in the corner with his old leather +ones on, when they came, and left them, for the most part, to their +own mutual entertainment, until the tea was ready. It was a sort of +family exchange; all the plans and topics came up, particularly on +the Ledwith side, for Mrs. Ripwinkley was a good listener, and Laura +a good talker; and the fun,—that you and I and Rachel Froke could +guess,—yes, and a good deal of unsuspected earnest, also,—was all +there behind the old gentleman's "Christian Age," as over brief +mentions of sermons, or words about books, or little brevities of +family inquiries and household news, broke small floods of +excitement like water over pebbles, as Laura and her daughters +discussed and argued volubly the matching and the flouncing of a +silk, or the new flowering and higher pitching of a bonnet,—since +"they are wearing everything all on the top, you know, and mine +looks terribly meek;" or else descanted diffusely on the +unaccountableness of the somebodies not having called, or the bother +and forwardness of the some-other-bodies who had, and the +eighty-three visits that were left on the list to be paid, and +"never being able to take a day to sit down for anything." +</p> +<p> +"What is it all for?" Mrs. Ripwinkley would ask, over again, the +same old burden of the world's weariness falling upon her from her +sister's life, and making her feel as if it were her business to +clear it away somehow. +</p> +<p> +"Why, to live!" Mrs. Ledwith would reply. "You've got it all to do, +you see." +</p> +<p> +"But I don't really see, Laura, where the living comes in." +</p> +<p> +Laura opens her eyes. +</p> +<p> +"<i>Slang</i>?" says she. "Where did you get hold of that?" +</p> +<p> +"Is it slang? I'm sure I don't know. I mean it." +</p> +<p> +"Well, you <i>are</i> the funniest! You don't <i>catch</i> anything. Even a +by-word must come first-hand from you, and mean something!" +</p> +<p> +"It seems to me such a hard-working, getting-ready-to-be, and then +not being. There's no place left for it,—because it's all place." +</p> +<p> +"Gracious me, Frank! If you are going to sift everything so, and get +back of everything! I can't live in metaphysics: I have to live in +the things themselves, amongst other people." +</p> +<p> +"But isn't it scene and costume, a good deal of it, without the +play? It may be that I don't understand, because I have not got into +the heart of your city life; but what comes of the parties, for +instance? The grand question, beforehand, is about wearing, and then +there's a retrospection of what was worn, and how people looked. It +seems to be all surface. I should think they might almost send in +their best gowns, or perhaps a photograph,—if photographs ever were +becoming,—as they do visiting cards." +</p> +<p> +"Aunt Frank," said Desire, "I don't believe the 'heart of city life' +is in the parties, or the parlors. I believe there's a great lot of +us knocking round amongst the dry goods and the furniture that never +get any further. People must be <i>living</i>, somewhere, <i>behind</i> the +fixings. But there are so many people, nowadays, that have never +quite got fixed!" +</p> +<p> +"You might live all your days here," said Mrs. Ledwith to her +sister, passing over Desire, "and never get into the heart of it, +for that matter, unless you were born into it. I don't care so much, +for my part. I know plenty of nice people, and I like to have things +nice about me, and to have a pleasant time, and to let my children +enjoy themselves. The 'heart,' if the truth was known, is a +dreadful still place. I'm satisfied." +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus's paper was folded across the middle; just then he +reversed the lower half; that brought the printing upside down; but +he went on reading all the same. +</p> +<p> +"<i>I</i>'m going to have a real party," said Hazel, "a real, +gracious-grandmother party; just such as you and mother had, Aunt +Laura, when you were little." +</p> +<p> +Her Aunt Laura laughed good-naturedly. +</p> +<p> +"I guess you'll have to go round and knock up the grandmothers to +come to it, then," said she. "You'd better make it a fancy dress +affair at once, and then it will be accounted for." +</p> +<p> +"No; I'm going round to invite; and they are to come at four, and +take tea at six; and they're just to wear their afternoon dresses; +and Miss Craydocke is coming at any rate; and she knows all the old +plays, and lots of new ones; and she is going to show how." +</p> +<p> +"I'm coming, too," said Uncle Titus, over his newspaper, with his +eyes over his glasses. +</p> +<p> +"That's good," said Hazel, simply, least surprised of any of the +conclave. +</p> +<p> +"And you'll have to play the muffin man. 'O, don't you know,'"—she +began to sing, and danced two little steps toward Mr. Oldways. "O, I +forgot it was Sunday!" she said, suddenly stopping. +</p> +<p> +"Not much wonder," said Uncle Titus. "And not much matter. <i>Your</i> +Sunday's good enough." +</p> +<p> +And then he turned his paper right side up; but, before he began +really to read again, he swung half round toward them in his +swivel-chair, and said,— +</p> +<p> +"Leave the sugar-plums to me, Hazel; I'll come early and bring 'em +in my pocket." +</p> +<p> +"It's the first thing he's taken the slightest notice of, or +interest in, that any one of us has been doing," said Agatha +Ledwith, with a spice of momentary indignation, as they walked along +Bridgeley Street to take the car. +</p> +<p> +For Uncle Titus had not come to the Ledwith party. "He never went +visiting, and he hadn't any best coat," he told Laura, in verbal +reply to the invitation that had come written on a square satin +sheet, once folded, in an envelope with a big monogram. +</p> +<p> +"It's of no consequence," said Mrs. Ledwith, "any way. Only a +child's play." +</p> +<p> +"But it will be, mother; you don't know," said Helena. "She's going +right in everywhere, with that ridiculous little invitation; to the +Ashburnes and the Geoffreys, and all! She hasn't the least idea of +any difference; and just think what the girls will say, and how they +will stare, and laugh! I wish she wasn't my cousin!" +</p> +<p> +"Helena!" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith spoke with real displeasure; for she was good-natured +and affectionate in her way; and her worldly ambitions were rather +wide than high, as we have seen. +</p> +<p> +"Well, I can't help it; you don't know, mother," Helena repeated. +"It's horrid to go to school with all those stiffies, that don't +care a snap for you, and only laugh." +</p> +<p> +"Laughing is vulgar," said Agatha. If any indirect question were +ever thrown upon the family position, Agatha immediately began +expounding the ethics of high breeding, as one who had attained. +</p> +<p> +"It is only half-way people who laugh," she said. "Ada Geoffrey and +Lilian Ashburne never laugh—<i>at</i> anybody—I am sure." +</p> +<p> +"No, they don't; not right out. They're awfully polite. But you can +feel it, underneath. They have a way of keeping so still, when you +know they would laugh if they did anything." +</p> +<p> +"Well, they'll neither laugh nor keep still, about this. You need +not be concerned. They'll just not go, and that will be the end of +it." +</p> +<p> +Agatha Ledwith was mistaken. She had been mistaken about two things +to-night. The other was when she had said that this was the first +time Uncle Oldways had noticed or been interested in anything they +did. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0010"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + X. +</h2> +<h3> + COCKLES AND CRAMBO. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Hazel Ripwinkley put on her nankeen sack and skirt, and her little +round, brown straw hat. For May had come, and almost gone, and it +was a day of early summer warmth. +</p> +<p> +Hazel's dress was not a "suit;" it had been made and worn two +summers before suits were thought of; yet it suited very well, as +people's things are apt to do, after all, who do not trouble +themselves about minutiæ of fashion, and so get no particular +antediluvian marks upon them that show when the flood subsides. +</p> +<p> +Her mother knew some things that Hazel did not. Mrs. Ripwinkley, if +she had been asleep for five and twenty years, had lost none of her +perceptive faculties in the trance. But she did not hamper her child +with any doubts; she let her go on her simple way, under the shield +of her simplicity, to test this world that she had come into, for +herself. +</p> +<p> +Hazel had written down her little list of the girls' names that she +would like to ask; and Mrs. Ripwinkley looked at it with a smile. +There was Ada Geoffrey, the banker's daughter, and Lilian Ashburne, +the professor's,—heiresses each, of double lines of birth and +wealth. She could remember how, in her childhood, the old names +sounded, with the respect that was in men's tones when they were +spoken; and underneath were Lois James and Katie Kilburnie, children +of a printer and a hatter. They had all been chosen for their purely +personal qualities. A child, let alone, chooses as an angel chooses. +</p> +<p> +It remained to be seen how they would come together. +</p> +<p> +At the very head, in large, fair letters, was,— +</p> +<p class="note"> + "MISS CRAYDOCKE." +</p> +<p> +Down at the bottom, she had just added,— +</p> +<p class="note"> + "MR. KINCAID AND DORRIS." +</p> +<p> +"For, if I have <i>some</i> grown folks, mother, perhaps I ought to have +<i>other</i> grown folks,—'to keep the balance true.' Besides, Mr. +Kincaid and Dorris always like the <i>little</i> nice times." +</p> +<p> +From the day when Dorris Kincaid had come over with the gray glass +vase and her repeated thanks, when the flowers had done their +ministry and faded, there had been little simple courtesies, each +way, between the opposite houses; and once Kenneth and his sister +had taken tea with the Ripwinkleys, and they had played "crambo" +and "consequences" in the evening. The real little game of +"consequences," of which this present friendliness was a link, was +going on all the time, though they did not stop to read the lines as +they folded them down, and "what the world said" was not one of the +items in their scheme of it at all. +</p> +<p> +It would have been something worth while to have followed Hazel as +she went her rounds, asking quietly at each house to see Mrs. This +or That, "as she had a message;" and being shown, like a little +representative of an almost extinct period, up into the parlor, or +the dressing-room of each lady, and giving her quaint errand. +</p> +<p> +"I am Hazel Ripwinkley," she would say, "and my mother sends her +compliments, and would like to have Lilian,"—or whoever +else,—"come at four o'clock to-day, and spend the afternoon and +take tea. I'm to have a little party such as she used to have, and +nobody is to be much dressed up, and we are only to play games." +</p> +<p> +"Why, that is charming!" cried Mrs. Ashburne; for the feeling of +her own sweet early days, and the old B—— Square house, came over +her as she heard the words. "It is Lilian's music afternoon; but +never mind; give my kind compliments to your mother, and she will be +very happy to come." +</p> +<p> +And Mrs. Ashburne stooped down and kissed Hazel, when she went away. +</p> +<p> +She stood in the deep carved stone entrance-way to Mrs. Geoffrey's +house, in the same fearless, Red Riding Hood fashion, just as she +would have waited in any little country porch up in Homesworth, +where she had need indeed to knock. +</p> +<p> +Not a whit dismayed was she either, when the tall manservant opened +to her, and admitted her into the square, high, marble-paved hall, +out of which great doors were set wide into rooms rich and quiet +with noble adorning and soft shading,—where pictures made such a +magic upon the walls, and books were piled from floor to ceiling; +and where her little figure was lost as she went in, and she +hesitated to take a seat anywhere, lest she should be quite hidden +in some great arm-chair or sofa corner, and Mrs. Geoffrey should not +see her when she came down. +</p> +<p> +So, as the lady entered, there she was, upright and waiting, on her +two feet, in her nankeen dress, just within the library doors, with +her face turned toward the staircase. +</p> +<p> +"I am Hazel Ripwinkley," she began; as if she had said, I am +Pease-blossom or Mustard-seed; "I go to school with Ada." And went +on, then, with her compliments and her party. And at the end she +said, very simply,— +</p> +<p> +"Miss Craydocke is coming, and she knows the games." +</p> +<p> +"Miss Craydocke, of Orchard Street? And where do you live?" +</p> +<p> +"In Aspen Street, close by, in Uncle Oldways' house. We haven't +lived there very long,—only this winter; before that we always +lived in Homesworth." +</p> +<p> +"And Homesworth is in the country? Don't you miss that?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes; but Aspen Street isn't very bad; we've got a garden. Besides, +we like streets and neighbors." +</p> +<p> +Then she added,—for her little witch-stick felt spiritually the +quality of what she spoke to,—"Wouldn't Mr. Geoffrey come for Ada +in the evening?" +</p> +<p> +"I haven't the least doubt he would!" said Mrs. Geoffrey, her face +all alive with exquisite and kindly amusement, and catching the +spirit of the thing from the inimitable simplicity before her, such +as never, she did believe, had walked into anybody's house before, +in this place and generation, and was no more to be snubbed than a +flower or a breeze or an angel. +</p> +<p> +It was a piece of Witch Hazel's witchery, or inspiration, that she +named Miss Craydocke; for Miss Craydocke was an old, dear friend of +Mrs. Geoffrey's, in that "heart of things" behind the fashions, +where the kingdom is growing up. But of course Hazel could not have +known that; something in the lady's face just made her think of the +same thing in Miss Craydocke's, and so she spoke, forgetting to +explain, nor wondering in the very least, when she was met with +knowledge. +</p> +<p> +It was all divining, though, from the beginning to the end. That was +what took her into these homes, rather than to a score of other +places up and down the self-same streets, where, if she had got in +at all, she would have met strange, lofty stares, and freezing +"thank you's," and "engagements." +</p> +<p> +"I've found the real folks, mother, and they're all coming!" she +cried, joyfully, running in where Mrs. Ripwinkley was setting little +vases and baskets about on shelf and table, between the white, +plain, muslin draperies of the long parlor windows. In vases and +baskets were sweet May flowers; bunches of deep-hued, rich-scented +violets, stars of blue and white periwinkle, and Miss Craydocke's +lilies of the valley in their tall, cool leaves; each kind gathered +by itself in clusters and handfuls. Inside the wide, open fireplace, +behind the high brass fender and the shining andirons, was a +"chimney flower pot," country fashion, of green lilac boughs,—not +blossoms,—and woodbine sprays, and crimson and white tulips. The +room was fair and fragrant, and the windows were wide open upon +vines and grass. +</p> +<p> +"It looks like you, mother, just as Mrs. Geoffrey's house looks like +her. Houses ought to look like people, I think." +</p> +<p> +"There's your surprise, children. We shouldn't be doing it right +without a surprise, you know." +</p> +<p> +And the surprise was not dolls' pelerines, but books. "Little Women" +was one, which sent Diana and Hazel off for a delicious two hours' +read up in their own room until dinner. +</p> +<p> +After dinner, Miss Craydocke came, in her purple and white striped +mohair and her white lace neckerchief; and at three o'clock Uncle +Titus walked in, with his coat pockets so bulgy and rustling and +odorous of peppermint and sassafras, that it was no use to pretend +to wait and be unconscious, but a pure mercy to unload him so that +he might be able to sit down. +</p> +<p> +Nobody knows to this day where he got them; he must have ordered +them somewhere, one would think, long enough before to have special +moulds and implements made; but there were large, beautiful +cockles,—not of the old flour-paste sort, but of clear, sparkling +sugar, rose-color, and amber, and white, with little slips of tinted +paper tucked within, and these printed delicately with pretty rhymes +and couplets, from real poets; things to be truly treasured, yet +simple, for children's apprehension, and fancy, and fun. And there +were "Salem gibraltars," such as we only get out of Essex County now +and then, for a big charitable Fair, when Salem and everywhere else +gets its spirit up to send its best and most especial; and there +were toys and devices in sugar—flowers and animals, hats, bonnets, +and boots, apples, and cucumbers,—such as Diana and Hazel, and even +Desire and Helena had never seen before. +</p> +<p> +"It isn't quite fair," said good Miss Craydocke. "We were to go back +to the old, simple fashions of things; and here you are beginning +over again already with sumptuous inventions. It's the very way it +came about before, till it was all spoilt." +</p> +<p> +"No," said Uncle Titus, stoutly. "It's only 'Old <i>and</i> New,'—the +very selfsame good old notions brought to a little modern +perfection. They're not French flummery, either; and there's not a +drop of gin, or a flavor of prussic acid, or any other abominable +chemical, in one of those contrivances. They're as innocent as they +look; good honest mint and spice and checkerberry and lemon and +rose. I know the man that made 'em!" +</p> +<p> +Helena Ledwith began to think that the first person, singular or +plural, might have a good time; but that awful third! Helena's +"they" was as potent and tremendous as her mother's. +</p> +<p> +"It's nice," she said to Hazel; "but they don't have inch things. I +never saw them at a party. And they don't play games; they always +dance. And it's broad, hot daylight; and—you haven't asked a single +boy!" +</p> +<p> +"Why, I don't know any! Only Jimmy Scarup; and I guess he'd rather +play ball, and break windows!" +</p> +<p> +"Jimmy Scarup!" And Helena turned away, hopeless of Hazel's +comprehending. +</p> +<p> +But "they" came; and "they" turned right into "we." +</p> +<p> +It was not a party; it was something altogether fresh and new; the +house was a new, beautiful place; it was like the country. And Aspen +Street, when you got down there, was so still and shady and sweet +smelling and pleasant. They experienced the delight of finding out +something. +</p> +<p> +Miss Craydocke and Hazel set them at it,—their good time; they had +planned it all out, and there was no stiff, shy waiting. They began, +right off, with the "Muffin Man." Hazel danced up to Desire:— +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "O, <i>do</i> you know the Muffin Man,<br> + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man?<br> + O, <i>do</i> you know the Muffin Man <br> + That lives in Drury Lane?" +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "O, yes, I know the Muffin Man,<br> + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man,<br> + O, yes, I know the Muffin Man <br> + That lives in Drury Lane." +</p> +<p> +And so they danced off together:— +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "Two of us know the Muffin Man,<br> + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man,<br> + Two of us know the Muffin Man <br> + That lives in Drury Lane." +</p> +<p> +And then they besieged Miss Craydocke; and then the three met Ada +Geoffrey, just as she had come in and spoken to Diana and Mrs. +Ripwinkley; and Ada had caught the refrain, and responded instantly; +and <i>four</i> of them knew the Muffin Man. +</p> +<p> +"I know they'll think it's common and queer, and they'll laugh +to-morrow," whispered Helena to Diana, as Hazel drew the lengthening +string to Dorris Kincaid's corner and caught her up; but the next +minute they were around Helena in her turn, and they were laughing +already, with pure glee; and five faces bent toward her, and five +voices sang,— +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "O, <i>don't</i> you know the Muffin Man?" +</p> +<p> +And Helena had to sing back that she did; and then the six made a +perfect snarl around Mrs. Ripwinkley herself, and drew her in; and +then they all swept off and came down across the room upon Mr. +Oldways, who muttered, under the singing, "seven women! Well, the +Bible says so, and I suppose it's come!" and then he held out both +hands, while his hard face unbent in every wrinkle, with a smile +that overflowed through all their furrowed channels, up to his very +eyes; like some sparkling water that must find its level; and there +were eight that knew the Muffin Man. +</p> +<p> +So nine, and ten, and up to fifteen; and then, as their line broke +away into fragments, still breathless with fun, Miss Craydocke +said,—her eyes brimming over with laughing tears, that always came +when she was gay,— +</p> +<p> +"There, now! we all know the 'Muffin Man;' therefore it follows, +mathematically, I believe, that we must all know each other. I think +we'll try a sitting-down game next. I'll give you all something. +Desire, you can tell them what to do with it, and Miss Ashburne +shall predict me consequences." +</p> +<p> +So they had the "Presentation Game;" and the gifts, and the +dispositions, and the consequences, when the whispers were over, and +they were all declared aloud, were such hits and jumbles of sense +and nonsense as were almost too queer to have been believed. +</p> +<p> +"Miss Craydocke gave me a butter firkin," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "I +was to put it in the parlor and plant vanilla beans in it; and the +consequence would be that Birnam Wood would come to Dunsinane." +</p> +<p> +"She gave me a wax doll," said Helena. "I was to buy it a pair of +high-heeled boots and a chignon; and the consequence would be that +she would have to stand on her head." +</p> +<p> +"She gave me," said Mr. Oldways, "an iron spoon. I was to deal out +sugar-plums with it; and the consequence would be that you would all +go home." +</p> +<p> +"She gave me," said Lois James, "Woman's Rights. I shouldn't know +what to do with them; and the consequence would be a terrible +mortification to all my friends." +</p> +<p> +"She gave me," said Hazel, "a real good time. I was to pass it +round; and the consequence would be an earthquake." +</p> +<p> +Then they had "Scandal;" a whisper, repeated rapidly from ear to +ear. It began with, "Luclarion is in the kitchen making +tea-biscuits;" and it ended with the horrible announcement that +there were "two hundred gallons of hot pitch ready, and that +everybody was to be tipped into it." +</p> +<p> +"Characters," and "Twenty Questions," and "How, When, and Where," +followed; and then they were ready for a run again, and they played +"Boston," in which Mr. Oldways, being "Sceattle," was continually +being left out, whereupon he declared at last, that he didn't +believe there was any place for him, or even that he was down +anywhere on the map, and it wasn't fair, and he was going to secede; +and that broke up the play; for the groat fun of all the games had +come to be Miss Craydocke and Uncle Titus, as it always is the great +fun to the young ones when the elders join in,—the older and the +soberer, the better sport; there is always something in the "fathers +looking on;" that is the way I think it is among them who always do +behold the Face of the Father in heaven,—smiling upon their smiles, +glowing upon their gladness. +</p> +<p> +In the tea-room, it was all even more delightful yet; it was further +out into the garden, shaded at the back by the deep leafiness of +grape-vines, and a trellis work with arches in it that ran up at the +side, and would be gay by and by with scarlet runners, and +morning-glories, and nasturtiums, that were shooting up strong and +swift already, from the neatly weeded beds. +</p> +<p> +Inside, was the tall old semicircular sideboard, with gingerbread +grooves carved all over it; and the real brass "dogs," with heads on +their fore-paws, were lying in the fire-place, under the lilac +boughs; and the square, plain table stood in the midst, with its +glossy white cloth that touched the floor at the corners, and on it +were the identical pink mugs, and a tall glass pitcher of milk, and +plates of the thinnest and sweetest bread and butter, and early +strawberries in a white basket lined with leaves, and the +traditional round frosted cakes upon a silver plate with a network +rim. +</p> +<p> +And Luclarion and Mrs. Ripwinkley waited upon them all, and it was +still no party, to be compared or thought of with any salad and +ice-pudding and Germania-band affair, such as they had had all +winter; but something utterly fresh and new and by itself,—place, +and entertainment, and people, and all. +</p> +<p> +After tea, they went out into the garden; and there, under the shady +horse-chestnuts, was a swing; and there were balls with which Hazel +showed them how to play "class;" tossing in turn against the high +brick wall, and taking their places up and down, according to the +number of their catches. It was only Miss Craydocke's "Thread the +Needle" that got them in again; and after that, she showed them +another simple old dancing game, the "Winding Circle," from which +they were all merrily and mysteriously untwisting themselves with +Miss Craydocke's bright little thin face and her fluttering cap +ribbons, and her spry little trot leading them successfully off, +when the door opened, and the grand Mr. Geoffrey walked in; the man +who could manage State Street, and who had stood at the right hand +of Governor and President, with his clear brain, and big purse, and +generous hand, through the years of the long, terrible war; the man +whom it was something for great people to get to their dinners, or +to have walk late into an evening drawing-room and dignify an +occasion for the last half hour. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley was just simply glad to see him; so she was to see +Kenneth Kincaid, who came a few minutes after, just as Luclarion +brought the tray of sweetmeats in, which Mrs. Ripwinkley had so far +innovated upon the gracious-grandmother plan as to have after tea, +instead of before. +</p> +<p> +The beautiful cockles and their rhymes got their heads all together +around the large table, for the eating and the reading. Mr. Geoffrey +and Uncle Titus sat talking European politics together, a little +aside. The sugar-plums lasted a good while, with the chatter over +them; and then, before they quite knew what it was all for, they had +got slips of paper and lead pencils before them, and there was to be +a round of "Crambo" to wind up. +</p> +<p> +"O, I don't know how!" and "I never can!" were the first words, as +they always are, when it was explained to the uninitiated; but Miss +Craydocke assured them that "everybody could;" and Hazel said that +"nobody expected real poetry; it needn't be more than two lines, and +those might be blank verse, if they were <i>very</i> hard, but jingles +were better;" and so the questions and the wards were written and +folded, and the papers were shuffled and opened amid outcries of, +"O, this is awful!" "<i>What</i> a word to get in!" "Why, they haven't +the least thing to do with each other!" +</p> +<p> +"That's the beauty of it," said Miss Craydocke, unrelentingly; "to +<i>make</i> them have; and it is funny how much things do have to do with +each other when they once happen to come across." +</p> +<p> +Then there were knit brows, and desperate scratchings, and such +silence that Mr. Geoffrey and Uncle Titus stopped short on the +Alabama question, and looked round to see what the matter was. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid had been modestly listening to the older gentlemen, +and now and then venturing to inquire or remark something, with an +intelligence that attracted Mr. Geoffrey; and presently it came out +that he had been south with the army; and then Mr. Geoffrey asked +questions of him, and they got upon Reconstruction business, and +comparing facts and exchanging conclusions, quite as if one was not +a mere youth with only his eyes and his brains and his conscience to +help him in his first grapple with the world in the tangle and +crisis at which he found it, and the other a grave, practiced, +keen-judging man, the counsellor of national leaders. +</p> +<p> +After all, they had no business to bring the great, troublesome, +heavy-weighted world into a child's party. I wish man never would; +though it did not happen badly, as it all turned out, that they did +a little of it in this instance. If they had thought of it, +"Crambo" was good for them too, for a change; and presently they did +think of it; for Dorris called out in distress, real or pretended, +from the table,— +</p> +<p> +"Kentie, here's something you must really take off my hands! I +haven't the least idea what to do with it." +</p> +<p> +And then came a cry from Hazel,— +</p> +<p> +"No fair! We're all just as badly off, and there isn't one of us +that has got a brother to turn to. Here's another for Mr. Kincaid." +</p> +<p> +"There are plenty more. Come, Mr. Oldways, Mr. Geoffrey, won't you +try 'Crambo?' There's a good deal in it, as there is in most +nonsense." +</p> +<p> +"We'll come and see what it is," said Mr. Geoffrey; and so the +chairs were drawn up, and the gray, grave heads looked on over the +young ones. +</p> +<p> +"Why, Hazel's got through!" said Lois, scratching violently at her +paper, and obliterating three obstinate lines. +</p> +<p> +"O, I didn't bother, you see! I just stuck the word right in, like a +pin into a pincushion, and let it go. There wasn't anything else to +do with it." +</p> +<p> +"I've got to make my pincushion," said Dorris. +</p> +<p> +"I should think you had! Look at her! She's writing her paper all +over! O, my gracious, she must have done it before!" +</p> +<p> +"Mother and Mr. Geoffrey are doing heaps, too! We shall have to +publish a book," said Diana, biting the end of her pencil, and +taking it easy. Diana hardly ever got the rhymes made in time; but +then she always admired everybody's else, which was a good thing for +somebody to be at leisure to do. +</p> +<p> +"Uncle Oldways and Lilian are folding up," said Hazel. +</p> +<p> +"Five minutes more," said Miss Craydocke, keeping the time with her +watch before her. "Hush!" +</p> +<p> +When the five minutes were rapped out, there were seven papers to be +read. People who had not finished this time might go on when the +others took fresh questions. +</p> +<p> +Hazel began reading, because she had been ready first. +</p> +<p> +"'What is the difference between sponge-cake and doughnuts?' +'Hallelujah.'" +</p> + +<p class="poem"> + + "Airiness, lightness, and insipidity;<br> + Twistiness, spiciness, and solidity.<br> + Hallelujah! I've got through!<br> + That is the best that I can do!'" +</p> +<p> +There was a shout at Hazel's pinsticking. +</p> +<p> +"Now, Uncle Titus! You finished next." +</p> +<p> +"My question is a very comprehensive one," said Uncle Titus, "with a +very concise and suggestive word. 'How wags the world?' 'Slambang.'" +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'The world wags on <br> + With lies and slang;<br> + With show and vanity,<br> + Pride and inanity,<br> + Greed and insanity,<br> + And a great slambang!'" +</p> +<p> +"That's only <i>one</i> verse," said Miss Craydocke. "There's another; +but he didn't write it down." +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus laughed, and tossed his Crambo on the table. "It's true, +so far, anyway," said he. +</p> +<p> +"<i>So far</i> is hardly ever quite true," said Miss Craydocke +</p> +<p> +Lilian Ashburne had to answer the question whether she had ever read +"Young's Night Thoughts;" and her word was "Comet." +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'Pray might I be allowed a pun,<br> + To help me through with just this one? <br> + I've tried to read Young's Thoughts of Night, <br> + But never yet could come it, quite.'" +</p> +<p> +"O, O, O! That's just like Lilian, with her soft little 'prays' and +'allow me's,' and her little pussy-cat ways of sliding through tight +places, just touching her whiskers!" +</p> +<p> +"It's quite fair," said Lilian, smiling, "to slide through if you +can." +</p> +<p> +"Now, Mr. Geoffrey." +</p> +<p> +And Mr. Geoffrey read,— +</p> +<p> +"'What is your favorite color?' 'One-hoss.'" +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'Do you mean, my friend, for a one-hoss shay, <br> + Or the horse himself,—black, roan, or bay? <br> + In truth, I think I can hardly say; <br> + I believe, for a nag, "I bet on the gray." +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'For a shay, I would rather not have yellow, <br> + Or any outright, staring color, <br> + That makes the crowd look after a fellow, <br> + And the little <i>gamins</i> hoot and bellow. +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'Do you mean for ribbons? or gowns? or eyes? <br> + Or flowers? or gems? or in sunset skies? <br> + For many questions, as many replies, <br> + Drops of a rainbow take rainbow dyes. +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'The world is full, and the world is bright; <br> + Each thing to its nature parts the light; <br> + And each for its own to the Perfect sight<br> + Wears that which is comely, and sweet, and right.'" +</p> +<p> +"O, Mr. Geoffrey! That's lovely!" cried the girl voices, all around +him. And Ada made a pair of great eyes at her father, and said,— +</p> +<p> +"What an awful humbug you have been, papa! To have kept the other +side up with care all your life! Who ever suspected <i>that</i> of you?" +</p> +<p> +Diana and Hazel were not taken so much by surprise, their mother +had improvised little nursery jingles for them all their baby days, +and had played Crambo with them since; so they were very confident +with their "Now, mother:" and looked calmly for something +creditable. +</p> +<p> +"'What is your favorite name?'" read Mrs. Ripwinkley. "And the word +is 'Stuff.'" +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'When I was a little child, <br> + Looking very meek and mild, <br> + I liked grand, heroic names,— <br> + Of warriors, or stately dames: <br> + Zenobia, and Cleopatra; <br> + (No rhyme for that this side Sumatra;) <br> + Wallace, and Helen Mar,—Clotilda, <br> + Berengaria, and Brunhilda; <br> + Maximilian; Alexandra; <br> + Hector, Juno, and Cassandra; <br> + Charlemagne and Britomarte, <br> + Washington and Bonaparte; <br> + Victoria and Guinevere, <br> + And Lady Clara Vere de Vere. <br> + —Shall I go on with all this stuff, <br> + Or do you think it is enough? <br> + I cannot tell you what dear name<br> + I love the best; I play a game; <br> + And tender earnest doth belong<br> + To quiet speech, not silly song.'" +</p> +<p> +"That's just like mother; I should have stopped as soon as I'd got +the 'stuff' in; but she always shapes off with a little morriowl," +said Hazel. "Now, Desire!" +</p> +<p> +Desire frantically scribbled a long line at the end of what she had +written; below, that is, a great black morass of scratches that +represented significantly the "Slough of Despond" she had got into +over the winding up, and then gave,— +</p> +<p> +"'Which way would you rather travel,—north or south?' +'Goosey-gander.'" +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'O, goosey-gander!<br> + If I might wander, <br> + It should be toward the sun; <br> + The blessed South<br> + Should fill my mouth<br> + With ripeness just begun. <br> + For bleak hills, bare, <br> + With stunted, spare, <br> + And scrubby, piney trees, <br> + Her gardens rare, <br> + And vineyards fair, <br> + And her rose-scented breeze. <br> + For fearful blast, <br> + Skies overcast, <br> + And sudden blare and scare<br> + Long, stormless moons, <br> + And placid noons, <br> + And—all sorts of comfortablenesses,—there!'" +</p> +<p> +"That makes me think of father's horse running away with him once," +said Helena, "when he had to head him right up against a brick wall, +and knock everything all to smash before he could stop!" +</p> +<p> +"Anybody else?" +</p> +<p> +"Miss Kincaid, I think," said Mr. Geoffrey. He had been watching +Dorris's face through the play, flashing and smiling with the +excitement of her rhyming, and the slender, nervous fingers twisting +tremulously the penciled slip while she had listened to the others. +</p> +<p> +"If it isn't all rubbed out," said Dorris, coloring and laughing to +find how badly she had been treating her own effusion. +</p> +<p> +"You see it <i>was</i> rather an awful question,—'What do you want +most?' And the word is, 'Thirteen.'" +</p> +<p> +She caught her breath a little quickly as she began:— +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'Between yourself, dear, myself, and the post,<br> + There are the thirteen things that I want the most. <br> + I want to be, sometimes, a little stronger; <br> + I want the days to be a little longer; <br> + I'd like to have a few less things to do; <br> + I'd better like to better do the few: <br> + I want—and this might almost lead my wishes,— <br> + A bigger place to keep my mops and dishes. <br> + I want a horse; I want a little buggy, <br> + To ride in when the days grow hot and muggy; <br> + I want a garden; and,—perhaps it's funny,— <br> + But now and then I want a little money. <br> + I want an easy way to do my hair; <br> + I want an extra dress or two to wear; <br> + I want more patience; and when all is given, <br> + I think I want to die and go to heaven!'" +</p> +<p> +"I never saw such bright people in all my life!" said Ada Geoffrey, +when the outcry of applause for Dorris had subsided, and they began +to rise to go. "But the <i>worst</i> of all is papa! I'll never get over +it of you, see if I do! Such a cheat! Why, it's like playing dumb +all your life, and then just speaking up suddenly in a quiet way, +some day, as if it was nothing particular, and nobody cared!" +</p> +<p> +With Hazel's little divining-rod, Mrs. Ripwinkley had reached out, +testing the world for her, to see what some of it might be really +made of. Mrs. Geoffrey, from her side, had reached out in turn, +also, into this fresh and simple opportunity, to see what might be +there worth while. +</p> +<p> +"How was it, Aleck?" she asked of her husband, as they sat together +in her dressing-room, while she brushed out her beautiful hair. +</p> +<p> +"Brightest people I have been among for a long time—and nicest," +said the banker, concisely. "A real, fresh little home, with a +mother in it. Good place for Ada to go, and good girls for her to +know; like the ones I fell in love with a hundred years ago." +</p> +<p> +"That rhymed oracle,—to say nothing of the <i>fraction</i> of a +compliment,—ought to settle it," said Mrs. Geoffrey, laughing. +</p> +<p> +"Rhymes have been the order of the evening. I expect to talk in +verse for a week at least." +</p> +<p> +And then he told her about the "Crambo." +</p> +<p> +A week after, Mrs. Ledwith was astonished to find, lying on the +mantel in her sister's room, a card that had been sent up the day +before,— +</p> +<p class="note2"> + "M<small>RS</small>. A<small>LEXANDER</small> H. G<small>EOFFREY</small>." +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0011"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XI. +</h2> +<h3> + MORE WITCH-WORK. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Hazel was asked to the Geoffreys' to dinner. +</p> +<p> +Before this, she and Diana had both been asked to take tea, and +spend an evening, but this was Hazel's little especial "invite," as +she called it, because she and Ada were writing a dialogue together +for a composition at school. +</p> +<p> +The Geoffreys dined at the good old-fashioned hour of half past two, +except when they had formal dinner company; and Hazel was to come +right home from school with Ada, and stay and spend the afternoon. +</p> +<p> +"What intimacy!" Florence Ledwith had exclaimed, when she heard of +it. +</p> +<p> +"But it isn't at all on the grand style side; people like the +Geoffreys do such things quite apart from their regular connection; +it is a sort of 'behind the scenes;'" said Glossy Megilp, who was +standing at Florence's dressing-glass, touching up the little heap +of "friz" across her forehead. +</p> +<p> +"Where's my poker?" she asked, suddenly, breaking off from the +Geoffrey subject, and rummaging in a dressing box, intent upon +tutoring some little obstinate loop of hair that would be <i>too</i> +frizzy. +</p> +<p> +"I should think a 'blower' might be a good thing to add to your +tools, Glossy," said Desire. "You have brush, poker, and tongs, now, +to say nothing of coal-hod," she added, glancing at the little open +japanned box that held some kind of black powder which had to do +with the shadow of Glossy's eyelashes upon occasion, and the +emphasis upon the delicate line of her brows. +</p> +<p> +"No secret," said Glossy, magnanimously. "There it is! It is no +greater sin than violet powder, or false tails, for that matter; and +the little gap in my left eyebrow was never deliberately designed. +It was a 'lapsus naturæ;' I only follow out the hint, and complete +the intention. Something <i>is</i> left to ourselves; as the child said +about the Lord curling her hair for her when she was a baby and +letting her do it herself after she grew big enough. What are our +artistic perceptions given to us for, unless we're to make the best +of ourselves in the first place?" +</p> +<p> +"But it isn't all eyebrows," said Desire, half aloud. +</p> +<p> +"Of course not," said Glossy Megilp. "Twice a day I have to do +myself up somehow, and why shouldn't it be as well as I can? Other +things come in their turn, and I do them." +</p> +<p> +"But, you see, the friz and the fix has to be, anyhow, whether or +no. Everything isn't done, whether or no. I guess it's the 'first +place,' that's the matter." +</p> +<p> +"I think you have a very theoretical mind, Des, and a slightly +obscure style. You can't be satisfied till everything is all mapped +out, and organized, and justified, and you get into horrible snarls +trying to do it. If I were you, I would take things a little more as +they come." +</p> +<p> +"I can't," said Desire. "They come hind side before and upside +down." +</p> +<p> +"Well, if everybody is upside down, there's a view of it that makes +it all right side up, isn't there? It seems to be an established +fact that we must dress and undress, and that the first duty of the +day is to get up and put on our clothes. We aren't ready for much +until we do. And one person's dressing may require one thing, and +another's another. Some people have a cork leg to put on, and some +people have false teeth; and they wouldn't any of them come hobbling +or mumbling out without them, unless there was a fire or an +earthquake, I suppose." +</p> +<p> +Glossy Megilp's arguments and analogies perplexed Desire, always. +They sometimes silenced her; but they did not always answer her. She +went back to what they had been discussing before. +</p> +<p> +"To 'lay down the shubbel and the hoe,'—here's your poker, under +the table-flounce, Glossy,—and to 'take up the fiddle and the bow,' +again,—I think it's real nice and beautiful for Hazel—" +</p> +<p> +"To 'go where the good darkies go'?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes. It's the <i>good</i> of her that's got her in. And I believe you +and Florence both would give your best boots to be there too, if it +<i>is</i> behind. Behind the fixings and the fashions is where people +<i>live</i>; 'dere's vat I za-ay!'" she ended, quoting herself and Rip +Van Winkle. +</p> +<p> +"Maybe," said Florence, carelessly; "but I'd as lief be <i>in</i> the +fashion, after all. And that's where Hazel Ripwinkley never will +get, with all her taking little novelties." +</p> +<p> +Meanwhile, Hazel Ripwinkley was deep in the delights of a great +portfolio of rare engravings; prints of glorious frescoes in old +churches, and designs of splendid architecture; and Mrs. Geoffrey, +seeing her real pleasure, was sitting beside her, turning over the +large sheets, and explaining them; telling her, as she gazed into +the wonderful faces of the Saints and the Evangelists in Correggio's +frescoes of the church of San Giovanni at Parma, how the whole dome +was one radiant vision of heavenly glory, with clouds and angel +faces, and adoring apostles, and Christ the Lord high over all; and +that these were but the filling in between the springing curves of +the magnificent arches; describing to her the Abbess's room in San +Paolo, with its strange, beautiful heathen picture over the mantel, +of Diana mounting her stag-drawn car, and its circular walls painted +with trellis-work and medallioned with windows, where the heads of +little laughing children, and graceful, gentle animals peeped in +from among vines and flowers. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Geoffrey did not wonder that Hazel lingered with delight over +these or over the groups by Raphael in the Sistine Chapel,—the +quiet pendentives, where the waiting of the world for its salvation +was typified in the dream-like, reclining forms upon the still, +desert sand; or the wonderful scenes from the "Creation,"—the +majestic "Let there be Light!" and the Breathing of the breath of +life into Man. She watched the surprise and awe with which the child +beheld for the first time the daring of inspiration in the +tremendous embodiment of the Almighty, and waited while she could +hardly take her eyes away. But when, afterward, they turned to a +portfolio of Architecture, and she found her eager to examine spires +and arches and capitals, rich reliefs and stately facades and +sculptured gates, and exclaiming with pleasure at the colored +drawings of Florentine ornamentation, she wondered, and questioned +her,— +</p> +<p> +"Have you ever seen such things before? Do you draw? I should hardly +think you would care so much, at your age." +</p> +<p> +"I like the prettiness," said Hazel, simply, "and the grandness; but +I don't suppose I should care so much if it wasn't for Dorris and +Mr. Kincaid. Mr. Kincaid draws buildings; he's an architect; only he +hasn't architected much yet, because the people that build things +don't know him. Dorris was so glad to give him a Christmas present +of 'Daguerreotypes de Paris,' with the churches and arches and +bridges and things; she got it at a sale; I wonder what they would +say to all these beauties!" +</p> +<p> +Then Mrs. Geoffrey found what still more greatly enchanted her, a +volume of engravings, of English Home Architecture; interiors of old +Halls, magnificent staircases, lofty libraries and galleries dim +with space; exteriors, gabled, turreted and towered; long, rambling +piles of manor houses, with mixed styles of many centuries. +</p> +<p> +"They look as if they were brimfull of stories!" Hazel cried. "O, if +I could only carry it home to show to the Kincaids!" +</p> +<p> +"You may," said Mrs. Geoffrey, as simply, in her turn, as if she +were lending a copy of "Robinson Crusoe;' never letting the child +guess by a breath of hesitation the value of what she had asked. +</p> +<p> +"And tell me more about these Kincaids. They are friends of yours?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes; we've known them all winter. They live right opposite, and sit +in the windows, drawing and writing. Dorris keeps house up there in +two rooms. The little one is her bedroom; and Mr. Kincaid sleeps on +the big sofa. Dorris makes crackle-cakes, and asks us over. She +cooks with a little gas-stove. I think it is beautiful to keep house +with not very much money. She goes out with a cunning white basket +and buys her things; and she does all her work up in a corner on a +white table, with a piece of oil-cloth on the floor; and then she +comes over into her parlor, she says, and sits by the window. It's a +kind of a play all the time." +</p> +<p> +"And Mr. Kincaid?" +</p> +<p> +"Dorris says he might have been rich by this time, if he had gone +into his Uncle James's office in New York. Mr. James Kincaid is a +broker, and buys gold. But Kenneth says gold stands for work, and if +he ever has any he'll buy it with work. He wants to do some real +thing. Don't you think that's nice of him?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes, I do," said Mrs. Geoffrey. "And Dorris is that bright girl +who wanted thirteen things, and rhymed them into 'Crambo?' Mr. +Geoffrey told me." +</p> +<p> +"Yes, ma'am; Dorris can do almost anything." +</p> +<p> +"I should like to see Dorris, sometime. Will you bring her here, +Hazel?" +</p> +<p> +Hazel's little witch-rod felt the almost impassible something in the +way. +</p> +<p> +"I don't know as she would be <i>brought</i>," she said. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Geoffrey laughed. +</p> +<p> +"You have an instinct for the fine proprieties, without a bit of +respect for any conventional fences," she said. "I'll <i>ask</i> Dorris." +</p> +<p> +"Then I'm sure she'll come," said Hazel, understanding quite well +and gladly the last three words, and passing over the first phrase +as if it had been a Greek motto, put there to be skipped. +</p> +<p> +"Ada has stopped practicing," said Mrs. Geoffrey, who had undertaken +the entertainment of her little guest during her daughter's half +hour of music. "She will be waiting for you now." +</p> +<p> +Hazel instantly jumped up. +</p> +<p> +But she paused after three steps toward the door, to say gently, +looking back over her shoulder with a shy glance out of her timidly +clear eyes,— +</p> +<p> +"Perhaps,—I hope I haven't,—stayed too long!" +</p> +<p> +"Come back, you little hazel-sprite!" cried Mrs. Geoffrey; and when +she got her within reach again, she put her hands one each side of +the little blushing, gleaming face, and kissed it, saying,— +</p> +<p> +"I don't <i>think</i>,—I'm slow, usually, in making up my mind about +people, big or little,—but I don't think you can stay too long,—or +come too often, dear!" +</p> +<p> +"I've found another for you, Aleck," she said, that night at the +hair-brushing, to her husband. +</p> +<p> +He always came to sit in her dressing-room, then; and it was at this +quiet time that they gave each other, out of the day they had lived +in their partly separate ways and duties, that which made it for +each like a day lived twice, so that the years of their life counted +up double. +</p> +<p> +"He is a young architect, who hasn't architected much, because he +doesn't know the people who build things; and he wouldn't be a gold +broker with his uncle in New York, because he believes in doing +money's worth in the world for the world's money. Isn't he one?" +</p> +<p> +"Sounds like it," said Mr. Geoffrey. "What is his name?" +</p> +<p> +"Kincaid." +</p> +<p> +"Nephew of James R. Kincaid?" said Mr. Geoffrey, with an +interrogation that was also an exclamation. "And wouldn't go in with +him! Why, it was just to have picked up dollars!" +</p> +<p> +"Exactly," replied his wife. "That was what he objected to." +</p> +<p> +"I should like to see the fellow." +</p> +<p> +"Don't you remember? You have seen him! The night you went for Ada +to the Aspen Street party, and got into 'Crambo.' He was there; and +it was his sister who wanted thirteen things. I guess they do!" +</p> +<p> +"Ask them here," said the banker. +</p> +<p> +"I mean to," Mrs. Geoffrey answered. "That is, after I've seen +Hapsie Craydocke. She knows everything. I'll go there to-morrow +morning." +</p> +<hr> +<p> +"'Behind' is a pretty good way to get in—to some places," said +Desire Ledwith, coming into the rose-pink room with news. +"Especially an omnibus. And the Ripwinkleys, and the Kincaids, and +old Miss Craydocke, and for all I know, Mrs. Scarup and Luclarion +Grapp are going to Summit Street to tea to-night. Boston is +topsy-turvey; Holmes was a prophet; and 'Brattle Street and Temple +Place are interchanging cards!' Mother, we ought to get intimate +with the family over the grocer's shop. Who knows what would come of +it? There are fairies about in disguise, I'm sure; or else it's the +millennium. Whichever it is, it's all right for Hazel, though; she's +ready. Don't you feel like foolish virgins, Flo and Nag? I do." +</p> +<p> +I am afraid it was when Desire felt a little inclination to "nag" +her elder sister, that she called her by that reprehensible name. +Agatha only looked lofty, and vouchsafed no reply; but Florence +said,— +</p> +<p> +"There's no need of any little triumphs or mortifications. Nobody +crows, and nobody cries. <i>I</i>'m glad. Diana's a dear, and Hazel's a +duck, besides being my cousins; why shouldn't I? Only there <i>is</i> a +large hole for the cats, and a little hole for the kittens; and I'd +as lief, myself, go in with the cats." +</p> +<p> +"The Marchbankses are staying there, and Professor Gregory. I don't +know about cats," said Desire, demurely. +</p> +<p> +"It's a reason-why party, for all that," said Agatha, carelessly, +recovering her good humor. +</p> +<p> +"Well, when any nice people ask me, I hope there <i>will</i> be a 'reason +why.' It's the persons of consequence that make the 'reason why.'" +</p> +<p> +And Desire had the last word. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +Hazel Ripwinkley was thinking neither of large holes nor little +ones,—cats nor kittens; she was saying to Luclarion, sitting in her +shady down-stairs room behind the kitchen, that looked out into the +green yard corner, "how nicely things came out, after all!" +</p> +<p> +"They seemed so hobblety at first, when I went up there and saw all +those beautiful books, and pictures, and people living amongst them +every day, and the poor Kincaids not getting the least bit of a +stretch out of their corner, ever. I'll tell you what I thought, +Luclarion;" and here she almost whispered, "I truly did. I thought +God was making a mistake." +</p> +<p> +Luclarion put out her lips into a round, deprecating pucker, at +that, and drew in her breath,— +</p> +<p> +"Oo—sh!" +</p> +<p> +"Well, I mean it seemed as if there was a mistake somewhere; and +that I'd no business, at any rate, with what they wanted so. I +couldn't get over it until I asked for those pictures; and mother +said it was such a bold thing to do!" +</p> +<p> +"It was bold," said Luclarion; "but it wasn't forrud. It was gi'n +you, and it hit right. That was looked out for." +</p> +<p> +"It's a stumpy world," said Luclarion Grapp to Mrs. Ripwinkley, +afterward; "but some folks step right over their stumps athout +scarcely knowin' when!" +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0012"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XII. +</h2> +<h3> + CRUMBS. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Desire Ledwith was, at this epoch, a perplexity and a worry,—even a +positive terror sometimes,—to her mother. +</p> +<p> +It was not a case of the hen hatching ducks, it was rather as if a +hen had got a hawk in her brood. +</p> +<p> +Desire's demurs and questions,—her dissatisfactions, sittings and +contempts,—threatened now and then to swoop down upon the family +life and comfort with destroying talons. +</p> +<p> +"She'll be an awful, strong-minded, radical, progressive, +overturning woman," Laura said, in despair, to her friend Mrs. +Megilp. "And Greenley Street, and Aspen Street, and that everlasting +Miss Craydocke, are making her worse. And what can I do? Because +there's Uncle." +</p> +<p> +Right before Desire,—not knowing the cloud of real bewilderment +that was upon her young spiritual perceptions, getting their first +glimpse of a tangled and conflicting and distorted world,—she drew +wondering comparisons between her elder children and this odd, +anxious, restless, sharp-spoken girl. +</p> +<p> +"I don't understand it," she would say. "It isn't a bit like a child +of mine. I always took things easy, and got the comfort of them +somehow; I think the world is a pretty pleasant place to live in, +and there's lots of satisfaction to be had; and Agatha and Florence +take after me; they are nice, good-natured, contented girls; +managing their allowances,—that I wish were more,—trimming their +own bonnets, and enjoying themselves with their friends, +girl-fashion." +</p> +<p> +Which was true. Agatha and Florence were neither fretful nor +dissatisfied; they were never disrespectful, perhaps because Mrs. +Ledwith demanded less of deferential observance than of a kind of +jolly companionship from her daughters; a go-and-come easiness in +and out of what they called their home, but which was rather the +trimming-up and outfitting place,—a sort of Holmes' Hole,—where +they put in spring and fall, for a thorough overhaul and rig; and at +other times, in intervals or emergencies, between their various and +continual social trips and cruises. They were hardly ever +all-togetherish, as Desire had said, if they ever were, it was over +house cleaning and millinery; when the ordering was complete,—when +the wardrobes were finished,—then the world was let in, or they let +themselves out, and—"looked." +</p> +<p> +"Desire is different," said Mrs. Ledwith. "She's like Grant's +father, and her Aunt Desire,—pudgicky and queer." +</p> +<p> +"Well, mamma," said the child, once, driven to desperate logic for +defense, "I don't see how it can be helped. If you <i>will</i> marry into +the Ledwith family, you can't expect to have your children all +Shieres!" +</p> +<p> +Which, again, was very true. Laura laughed at the clever sharpness +of it, and was more than half proud of her bold chick-of-prey, after +all. +</p> +<p> +Yet Desire remembered that her Aunt Frances was a Shiere, also; and +she thought there might easily be two sides to the same family; why +not, since there were two sides still further back, always? There +was Uncle Titus; who knew but it was the Oldways streak in him after +all? +</p> +<p> +Desire took refuge, more and more, with Miss Craydocke, and Rachel +Froke, and the Ripwinkleys; she even went to Luclarion with +questions, to get her quaint notions of things; and she had ventured +into Uncle Titus's study, and taken down volumes of Swedenborg to +pry into, while he looked at her with long keen regards over his +spectacles, and she did not know that she was watched. +</p> +<p> +"That young girl, Desire, is restless, Titus," Rachel Froke said to +him one day. "She is feeling after something; she wants something +real to do; and it appears likely to me that she will do it, if they +don't take care." +</p> +<p> +After that, Uncle Titus fixed his attention upon her yet more +closely; and at this time Desire stumbled upon things in a strange +way among his bookshelves, and thought that Rachel Froke was growing +less precise in her fashion of putting to rights. Books were tucked +in beside each other as if they had been picked up and bestowed +anyhow; between "Heaven and Hell" and the "Four Leading Doctrines," +she found, one day, "Macdonald's Unspoken Sermons," and there was a +leaf doubled lengthwise in the chapter about the White Stone and the +New Name. Another time, a little book of poems, by the same author, +was slid in, open, over the volumes of Darwin and Huxley, and the +pages upon whose outspread faces it lay were those that bore the +rhyme of the blind Bartimeus:— +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "O Jesus Christ! I am deaf and blind;<br> + Nothing comes through into my mind,<br> + I only am not dumb:<br> + Although I see Thee not, nor hear,<br> + I cry because Thou mayst be near <br> + O Son of Mary! come!" +</p> +<p> +Do you think a girl of seventeen may not be feeling out into the +spiritual dark,—may not be stretching helpless hands, vaguely, +toward the Hands that help? Desire Ledwith laid the book down again, +with a great swelling breath coming up slowly out of her bosom, and +with a warmth of tears in her earnest little eyes. And Uncle Titus +Oldways sat there among his papers, and never moved, or seemed to +look, but saw it all. +</p> +<p> +He never said a word to her himself; it was not Uncle Titus's way to +talk, and few suspected him of having anything to say in such +matters; but he went to Friend Froke and asked her,— +</p> +<p> +"Haven't you got any light that might shine a little for that child, +Rachel?" +</p> +<p> +And the next Sunday, in the forenoon, Desire came in; came in, +without knowing it, for her little light. +</p> +<p> +She had left home with the family on their way to church; she was +dressed in her buff silk pongee suit trimmed with golden brown bands +and quillings; she had on a lovely new brown hat with tea roses in +it; her gloves and boots were exquisite and many buttoned; Agatha +and Florence could not think what was the matter when she turned +back, up Dorset Street, saying suddenly, "I won't go, after all." +And then she had walked straight over the hill and down to Greenley +Street, and came in upon Rachel, sitting alone in a quiet gray +parlor that was her own, where there were ferns and ivies in the +window, and a little canary, dressed in brown and gold like Desire +herself, swung over them in a white wire cage. +</p> +<p> +When Desire saw how still it was, and how Rachel Froke sat there +with her open window and her open book, all by herself, she stopped +in the doorway with a sudden feeling of intrusion, which had not +occurred to her as she came. +</p> +<p> +"It's just what I want to come into; but if I do, it won't be +there. I've no right to spoil it. Don't mind, Rachel. I'll go away." +</p> +<p> +She said it softly and sadly, as if she could not help it, and was +turning back into the hall. +</p> +<p> +"But I do mind," said Rachel, speaking quickly. "Thee will come in, +and sit down. Whatever it is thee wants, is here for thee. Is it the +stillness? Then we will be still." +</p> +<p> +"That's so easy to say. But you can't do it for me. <i>You</i> will be +still, and I shall be all in a stir. I want so to be just hushed +up!" +</p> +<p> +"Fed, and hushed up, in somebody's arms, like a baby. I know," said +Rachel Froke. +</p> +<p> +"How does she know?" thought Desire; but she only looked at her with +surprised eyes, saying nothing. +</p> +<p> +"Hungry and restless; that's what we all are," said Rachel Froke, +"until"— +</p> +<p> +"Well,—until?" demanded the strange girl, impetuously, as Rachel +paused. "I've been hungry ever since I was born, mother says." +</p> +<p> +"Until He takes us up and feeds us." +</p> +<p> +"Why don't He?—Mrs. Froke, when does He give it out? Once a month, +in church, they have the bread and the wine? Does that do it?" +</p> +<p> +"Thee knows we do not hold by ordinances, we Friends," said Rachel. +"But He gives the bread of life. Not once a month, or in any place; +it is his word. Does thee get no word when thee goes to church? Does +nothing come to thee?" +</p> +<p> +"I don't know; it's mixed up; the church is full of bonnets; and +people settle their gowns when they come in, and shake out their +hitches and puffs when they go out, and there's professional music +at one end, and—I suppose it's because I'm bad, but I don't know; +half the time it seems to me it's only Mig at the other. Something +all fixed up, and patted down, and smoothed over, and salted and +buttered, like the potato hills they used to make on my plate for me +at dinner, when I was little. But it's soggy after all, and has an +underground taste. It isn't anything that has just grown, up in the +light, like the ears of corn they rubbed in their hands. Breakfast +is better than dinner. Bread, with yeast in it, risen up new. They +don't feed with bread very often." +</p> +<p> +"The yeast in the bread, and the sparkle in the wine they are the +life of it; they are what make the signs." +</p> +<p> +"If they only gave it out fresh, and a little of it! But they keep +it over, and it grows cold and tough and flat, and people sit round +and pretend, but they don't eat. They've eaten other things,—all +sorts of trash,—before they came. They've spoiled their appetites. +Mine was spoiled, to-day. I felt so new and fussy, in these brown +things. So I turned round, and came here." +</p> +<p> +Mr. Oldways' saying came back into Mrs. Froke's mind:— +</p> +<p> +"Haven't you got any light, Rachel, that might shine a little for +that child?" +</p> +<p> +Perhaps that was what the child had come for. +</p> +<p> +What had the word of the Spirit been to Rachel Froke this day? The +new, fresh word, with the leaven in it? "A little of it;" that was +what she wanted. +</p> +<p> +Rachel took up the small red Bible that lay on the lightstand beside +her. +</p> +<p> +"I'll will give thee my First-Day crumb, Desire," she said. "It may +taste sweet to thee." +</p> +<p> +She turned to Revelation, seventh chapter. +</p> +<p> +"Look over with me; thee will see then where the crumb is," she +said; and as Desire came near and looked over her upon the page, +she read from the last two verses:— +</p> +<p> +"They shall hunger no more, neither thirst any more. +</p> +<p> +"For the <i>Tenderness</i> that is in the midst of the <i>Almightiness</i> +shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of water; +and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes." +</p> +<p> +Her voice lingered over the words she put for the "Lamb" and the +"Throne," so that she said "Tenderness" with its own very yearning +inflection, and "Almightiness" with a strong fullness, glad in that +which can never fall short or be exhausted. Then she softly laid +over the cover, and sat perfectly still. It was the Quaker silence +that falls upon them in their assemblies, leaving each heart to +itself and that which the Spirit has given. +</p> +<p> +Desire was hushed all through; something living and real had +thrilled into her thought; her restlessness quieted suddenly under +it, as Mary stood quiet before the message of the angel. +</p> +<p> +When she did speak again, after a time, as Rachel Froke broke the +motionless pause by laying the book gently back again upon the +table, it was to say,— +</p> +<p> +"Why don't they preach like that, and leave the rest to preach +itself? A Sermon means a Word; why don't they just say the word, and +let it go?" +</p> +<p> +The Friend made no reply. +</p> +<p> +"I never could—quite—like that about the 'Lamb,' before," said +Desire, hesitatingly. "It seemed,—I don't know,—putting Him +<i>down</i>, somehow; making him tame; taking the grandness away that +made the gentleness any good. But,—'Tenderness;' that is beautiful! +Does it mean so in the other place? About taking away the sins,—do +you think?" +</p> +<p> +"'The Tenderness of God—the Compassion—that taketh away the sins +of the world?'" Mrs. Froke repeated, half inquiringly. "Jesus +Christ, God's Heart of Love toward man? I think it is so. I think, +child, thee has got thy crumb also, to-day." +</p> +<p> +But not all yet. +</p> +<p> +Pretty soon, they heard the front door open, and Uncle Titus come +in. Another step was behind his; and Kenneth Kincaid's voice was +speaking, about some book he had called to take. +</p> +<p> +Desire's face flushed, and her manner grew suddenly flurried. +</p> +<p> +"I must go," she said, starting up; yet when she got to the door, +she paused and delayed. +</p> +<p> +The voices were talking on, in the study; somehow, Desire had last +words also, to say to Mrs. Froke. +</p> +<p> +She was partly shy about going past that open door, and partly +afraid they might not notice her if she did. Back in her girlish +thought was a secret suggestion that she was pushing at all the time +with a certain self-scorn and denial, that it might happen that she +and Kenneth Kincaid would go out at the same moment; if so, he would +walk up the street with her, and Kenneth Kincaid was one of the few +persons whom Desire Ledwith thoroughly believed in and liked. "There +was no Mig about him," she said. It is hazardous when a girl of +seventeen makes one of her rare exceptions in her estimate of +character in favor of a man of six and twenty. +</p> +<p> +Yet Desire Ledwith hated "nonsense;" she wouldn't have anybody +sending her bouquets as they did to Agatha and Florence; she had an +utter contempt for lavender pantaloons and waxed moustaches; but for +Kenneth Kincaid, with his honest, clear look at life, and his high +strong purpose, to say friendly things,—tell her a little now and +then of how the world looked to him and what it demanded,—this +lifted her up; this made it seem worth while to speak and to hear. +</p> +<p> +So she was very glad when Uncle Titus saw her go down the hall, +after she had made up her mind that that way lay her straight path, +and that things contrived were not things worth happening,—and +spoke out her name, so that she had to stop, and turn to the open +doorway and reply; and Kenneth Kincaid came over and held out his +hand to her. He had two books in the other,—a volume of Bunsen and +a copy of "Guild Court,"—and he was just ready to go. +</p> +<p> +"Not been to church to-day?" said Uncle Titus to Desire. +</p> +<p> +"I've been—to Friend's Meeting," the girl answered. +</p> +<p> +"Get anything by that?" he asked, gruffly, letting the shag down +over his eyes that behind it beamed softly. +</p> +<p> +"Yes; a morsel," replied Desire. "All I wanted." +</p> +<p> +"All you wanted? Well, that's a Sunday-full!" +</p> +<p> +"Yes, sir, I think it is," said she. +</p> +<p> +When they got out upon the sidewalk, Kenneth Kincaid asked, "Was it +one of the morsels that may be shared, Miss Desire? Some crumbs +multiply by dividing, you know." +</p> +<p> +"It was only a verse out of the Bible, with a new word in it." +</p> +<p> +"A new word? Well, I think Bible verses often have that. I suppose +it was what they were made for." +</p> +<p> +Desire's glance at him had a question in it. +</p> +<p> +"Made to look different at different times, as everything does that +has life in it. Isn't that true? Clouds, trees, faces,—do they ever +look twice the same?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes," said Desire, thinking especially of the faces. "I think they +do, or ought to. But they may look <i>more</i>." +</p> +<p> +"I didn't say <i>contradictory</i>. To look more, there must be a +difference; a fresh aspect. And that is what the world is full of; +and the world is the word of God." +</p> +<p> +"The world?" said Desire, who had been taught in a dried up, +mechanical sort of way, that the Bible is the word of God; and +practically left to infer that, that point once settled, it might be +safely shut, up between its covers and not much meddled with, +certainly not over freely interpreted. +</p> +<p> +"Yes. What God had to say. In the beginning was the Word, and the +Word was God. Without him was not anything made that was made." +</p> +<p> +Desire's face brightened. She knew those words by heart. They were +the first Sunday-school lesson she ever committed to memory, out of +the New Testament; "down to 'grace and truth,'" as she recollected. +What a jumble of repetitions it had been to her, then! Sentences so +much alike that she could not remember them apart, or which way they +came. All at once the simple, beautiful meaning was given to her. +</p> +<p> +<i>What God had to say.</i> +</p> +<p> +And it took a world,—millions, of worlds,—to say it with. +</p> +<p> +"And the Bible, too?" she said, simply following out her own mental +perception, without giving the link. It was not needed. They were +upon one track. +</p> +<p> +"Yes; all things; and all <i>souls</i>. The world-word comes through +things; the Bible came through souls. And it is all the more alive, +and full, and deep, and changing; like a river." +</p> +<p> +"Living fountains of waters! that was part of the morsel to-day," +Desire repeated impulsively, and then shyly explained. +</p> +<p> +"And the new word?" +</p> +<p> +Desire shrunk into silence for a moment; she was not used to, or +fond of Bible quoting, or even Bible talk; yet sin was hungering all +the time for Bible truth. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Kincaid waited. +</p> +<p> +So she repeated it presently; for Desire never made a fuss; she was +too really sensitive for that. +</p> +<p> +"'The Tenderness in the midst of the Almightiness shall feed them, +and shall lead them to living fountains of water.'" +</p> +<p> +Mr. Kincaid recognized the "new word," and his face lit up. +</p> +<p> +"'The Lamb in the midst of the Throne,'" he said. "Out of the Heart +of God, the Christ. Who was there before; the intent by which all +things were made. The same yesterday, and to-day, and forever; who +ever liveth to make intercession for us. Christ <i>had to be</i>. The +Word, full of grace, must be made flesh. Why need people dispute +about Eternity and Divinity, if they can only see that?—Was that +Mrs. Froke's reading?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes; that was Rachel's sermon." +</p> +<p> +"It is an illumination." +</p> +<p> +They walked all up Orchard Street without another word. +</p> +<p> +Then Kenneth Kincaid said,—"Miss Desire, why won't you come and +teach in the Mission School?" +</p> +<p> +"I teach? Why, I've got everything to learn!" +</p> +<p> +"But as fast as you <i>do</i> learn; the morsels, you know. That is the +way they are given out. That is the wonder of the kingdom of heaven. +There is no need to go away and buy three hundred pennyworth before +we begin, that every one may take a little; the bread given as the +Master breaks it feeds them till they are filled; and there are +baskets full of fragments to gather up." +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid's heart was in his Sunday work, as his sister had +said. The more gladly now, that the outward daily bread was being +given. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Geoffrey,—one of those busy men, so busy that they do promptly +that which their hands find to do,—had put Kenneth in the way of +work. It only needed a word from him, and the surveying and laying +out of some new streets and avenues down there where Boston is +growing so big and grand and strange, were put into his charge. +Kenneth was busy now, cheerily busy, from Monday morning to Saturday +night; and restfully busy on the Sunday, straightening the paths and +laying out the ways for souls to walk in. He felt the harmony and +the illustration between his week and his Sunday, and the one +strengthening the other, as all true outward work does harmonize +with and show forth, and help the spiritual doing. It could not have +been so with that gold work, or any little feverish hitching on to +other men's business; producing nothing, advancing nothing, only +standing between to snatch what might fall, or to keep a premium for +passing from hand to hand. +</p> +<p> +Our great cities are so full,—our whole country is so +overrun,—with these officious middle-men whom the world does not +truly want; chiffonniers of trade, who only pick up a living out of +the great press and waste and overflow; and our boys are so eager to +slip in to some such easy, ready-made opportunity,—to get some +crossing to sweep. +</p> +<p> +What will come of it all, as the pretenses multiply? Will there be +always pennies for every little broom? Will two, and three, and six +sweeps be tolerated between side and side? By and by, I think, they +will have to turn to and lay pavements. Hard, honest work, and the +day's pay for it; that is what we have got to go back to; that and +the day's snug, patient living, which the pay achieves. +</p> +<p> +Then, as I say, the week shall illustrate the Sunday, and the Sunday +shall glorify the week; and what men do and build shall stand true +types, again, for the inner growth and the invisible building; so +that if this outer tabernacle were dissolved, there should be seen +glorious behind it, the house not made with hands,—eternal. +</p> +<p> +As Desire Ledwith met this young Kenneth Kincaid from day to day, +seeing him so often at her Aunt Ripwinkley's, where he and Dorris +went in and out now, almost like a son and daughter,—as she walked +beside him this morning, hearing him say these things, at which +the heart-longing in her burned anew toward the real and +satisfying,—what wonder was it that her restlessness grasped at +that in his life which was strong and full of rest; that she felt +glad and proud to have him tell his thought to her; that without any +silliness,—despising all silliness,—she should yet be conscious, +as girls of seventeen are conscious, of something that made her day +sufficient when she had so met him,—of a temptation to turn into +those streets in her walks that led his way? Or that she often, with +her blunt truth, toward herself as well as others, and her quick +contempt of sham and subterfuge, should snub herself mentally, and +turn herself round as by a grasp of her own shoulders, and make +herself walk off stoutly in a far and opposite direction, when, +without due need and excuse, she caught herself out in these things? +</p> +<p> +What wonder that this stood in her way, for very pleasantness, when +Kenneth asked her to come and teach in the school? That she was +ashamed to let herself do a thing—even a good thing, that her life +needed,—when there was this conscious charm in the asking; this +secret thought—that she should walk up home with him every Sunday! +</p> +<p> +She remembered Agatha and Florence, and she imagined, perhaps, more +than they would really have thought of it at home; and so as they +turned into Shubarton Place,—for he had kept on all the way along +Bridgeley and up Dorset Street with her,—she checked her steps +suddenly as they came near the door, and said brusquely,— +</p> +<p> +"No, Mr. Kincaid; I can't come to the Mission. I might learn A, and +teach them that; but how do I know I shall ever learn B, myself?" +</p> +<p> +He had left his question, as their talk went on, meaning to ask it +again before they separated. He thought it was prevailing with her, +and that the help that comes of helping others would reach her need; +it was for her sake he asked it; he was disappointed at the sudden, +almost trivial turn she gave it. +</p> +<p> +"You have taken up another analogy, Miss Desire," he said. "We were +talking about crumbs and feeding. The five loaves and the five +thousand. 'Why reason ye because ye have no bread? How is it that ye +do not understand?'" +</p> +<p> +Kenneth quoted these words naturally, pleasantly; as he might quote +anything that had been spoken to them both out of a love and +authority they both recognized, a little while ago. +</p> +<p> +But Desire was suddenly sharp and fractious. If it had not touched +some deep, live place in her, she would not have minded so much. It +was partly, too, the coming toward home. She had got away out of the +pure, clear spaces where such things seemed to be fit and +unstrained, into the edge of her earth atmosphere again, where, +falling, they took fire. Presently she would be in that ridiculous +pink room, and Glossy Megilp would be chattering about "those lovely +purple poppies with the black grass," that she had been lamenting +all the morning she had not bought for her chip hat, instead of the +pomegranate flowers. And Agatha would be on the bed, in her cashmere +sack, reading Miss Braddon. +</p> +<p> +"It would sound nice to tell them she was going down to the Mission +School to give out crumbs!" +</p> +<p> +Besides, I suppose that persons of a certain temperament never utter +a more ungracious "No," than when they are longing all the time to +say "Yes." +</p> +<p> +So she turned round on the lower step to Kenneth, when he had asked +that grave, sweet question of the Lord's, and said perversely,— +</p> +<p> +"I thought you did not believe in any brokering kind of business. +It's all there,—for everybody. Why should I set up to fetch and +carry?" +</p> +<p> +She did not look in his face as she said it; she was not audacious +enough to do that; she poked with the stick of her sunshade between +the uneven bricks of the sidewalk, keeping her eyes down, as if she +watched for some truth she expected to pry up. But she only wedged +the stick in so that she could not get it out; and Kenneth Kincaid +making her absolutely no answer at all, she had to stand there, +growing red and ashamed, held fast by her own silly trap. +</p> +<p> +"Take care; you will break it," said Kenneth, quietly, as she gave +it a twist and a wrench. And he put out his hand, and took it from +hers, and drew gently upward in the line in which she had thrust it +in. +</p> +<p> +"You were bearing off at an angle. It wanted a straight pull." +</p> +<p> +"I never pull straight at anything. I always get into a crook, +somehow. You didn't answer me, Mr. Kincaid. I didn't mean to be +rude—or wicked. I didn't mean—" +</p> +<p> +"What you said. I know that; and it's no use to answer what people +don't mean. That makes the crookedest crook of all." +</p> +<p> +"But I think I did mean it partly; only not contrarimindedly. I do +mean that I have no business—yet awhile. It would only be—Migging +at gospel!" +</p> +<p> +And with this remarkable application of her favorite illustrative +expression, she made a friendly but abrupt motion of leave-taking, +and went into the house. +</p> +<p> +Up into her own room, in the third story, where the old furniture +was, and no "fadging,"—and sat down, bonnet, gloves, sunshade, and +all, in her little cane rocking-chair by the window. +</p> +<p> +Helena was down in the pink room, listening with charmed ears to the +grown up young-ladyisms of her elder sisters and Glossy Megilp. +</p> +<p> +Desire sat still until the dinner-bell rang, forgetful of her dress, +forgetful of all but one thought that she spoke out as she rose at +last at the summons to take off her things in a hurry,— +</p> +<p> +"I wonder,—I <i>wonder</i>—if I shall ever live anything all straight +out!" +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0013"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XIII. +</h2> +<h3> + PIECES OF WORLDS. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Mr. Dickens never put a truer thought into any book, than he put at +the beginning of "Little Dorrit." +</p> +<p> +That, from over land and sea, from hundreds, thousands of miles +away, are coming the people with whom we are to have to do in our +lives; and that, "what is set to us to do to them, and what is set +for them to do to us, will all be done." +</p> +<p> +Not only from far places in this earth, over land and sea,—but from +out the eternities, before and after,—from which souls are born, +and into which they die,—all the lines of life are moving +continually which are to meet and join, and bend, and cross our own. +</p> +<p> +But it is only with a little piece of this world, as far as we can +see it in this short and simple story, that we have now to do. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond Holabird was coming down to Boston. +</p> +<p> +With all her pretty, fresh, delicate, high-lady ways, with her +beautiful looks, and her sweet readiness for true things and noble +living, she was coming, for a few days only,—the cooperative +housekeeping was going on at Westover, and she could not be spared +long,—right in among them here in Aspen Street, and Shubarton +Place, and Orchard Street, and Harrisburg Square, where Mrs. +Scherman lived whom she was going to stay with. But a few days may +be a great deal. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond Holabird was coming for far more than she knew. Among +other things she was coming to get a lesson; a lesson right on in a +course she was just now learning; a lesson of next things, and best +things, and real folks. +</p> +<p> +You see how it happened,—where the links were; Miss Craydocke, and +Sin Scherman, and Leslie Goldthwaite, were dear friends, made to +each other one summer among the mountains. Leslie had had Sin and +Miss Craydocke up at Z——, and Rosamond and Leslie were friends, +also. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Frank Scherman had a pretty house in Harrisburg Square. She had +not much time for paying fashionable calls, or party-going, or +party-giving. As to the last, she did not think Frank had money +enough yet to "circumfuse," she said, in that way. +</p> +<p> +But she had six lovely little harlequin cups on a side-shelf in her +china closet, and six different-patterned breakfast plates, with +colored borders to match the cups; rose, and brown, and gray, and +vermilion, and green, and blue. These were all the real china she +had, and were for Frank and herself and the friends whom she made +welcome,—and who might come four at once,—for day and night. She +delighted in "little stays;" in girls who would go into the nursery +with her, and see Sinsie in her bath; or into the kitchen, and help +her mix up "little delectabilities to surprise Frank with;" only the +trouble had got to be now, that the surprise occurred when the +delectabilities did not. Frank had got demoralized, and expected +them. She rejoiced to have Miss Craydocke drop in of a morning and +come right up stairs, with her little petticoats and things to work +on; and she and Frank returned these visits in a social, cosy way, +after Sinsie was in her crib for the night. Frank's boots never went +on with a struggle for a walk down to Orchard Street; but they were +terribly impossible for Continuation Avenue. +</p> +<p> +So it had come about long ago, though I have not had a corner to +mention it in, that they "knew the Muffin Man," in an Aspen Street +sense; and were no strangers to the charm of Mrs. Ripwinkley's +"evenings." There was always an "evening" in the "Mile Hill House," +as the little family and friendly coterie had come to call it. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond and Leslie had been down together for a week once, at the +Schermans; and this time Rosamond was coming alone. She had business +in Boston for a day or two, and had written to ask Asenath "if she +might." There were things to buy for Barbara, who was going to be +married in a "navy hurry," besides an especial matter that had +determined her just at this time to come. +</p> +<p> +And Asenath answered, "that the scarlet and gray, and green and blue +were pining and fading on the shelf; and four days would be the very +least to give them all a turn and treat them fairly; for such things +had their delicate susceptibilities, as Hans Andersen had taught us +to know, and might starve and suffer,—why not? being made of +protoplasm, same as anybody." +</p> +<p> +Rosamond's especial errand to the city was one that just a little +set her up, innocently, in her mind. She had not wholly got the +better,—when it interfered with no good-will or generous +dealing,—of a certain little instinctive reverence for imposing +outsides and grand ways of daily doing; and she was somewhat +complacent at the idea of having to go,—with kindly and needful +information,—to Madam Mucklegrand, in Spreadsplendid Park. +</p> +<p> +Madam Mucklegrand was a well-born Boston lady, who had gone to +Europe in her early youth, and married a Scottish gentleman with a +Sir before his name. Consequently, she was quite entitled to be +called "my lady;" and some people who liked the opportunity of +touching their republican tongues to the salt of European +dignitaries, addressed her so; but, for the most part, she assumed +and received simply the style of "Madam." A queen may be called +"Madam," you know. It covers an indefinite greatness. But when she +spoke of her late,—very long ago,—husband, she always named him as +"Sir Archibald." +</p> +<p> +Madam Mucklegrand's daughter wanted a wet-nurse for her little baby. +</p> +<p> +Up in Z——, there was a poor woman whose husband, a young brakeman +on the railroad, had been suddenly killed three months ago, before +her child was born. There was a sister here in Boston, who could +take care of it for her if she could go to be foster-mother to some +rich little baby, who was yet so poor as this—to need one. So +Rosamond Holabird, who was especially interested for Mrs. Jopson, +had written to Asenath, and had an advertisement put in the +"Transcript," referring to Mrs. Scherman for information. And the +Mucklegrand carriage had rolled up, the next day, to the house in +Harrisburg Square. +</p> +<p> +They wanted to see the woman, of course, and to hear all about +her,—more than Mrs. Scherman was quite able to tell; therefore when +she sent a little note up to Z——, by the evening mail, Rosamond +replied with her "Might she come?" +</p> +<p> +She brought Jane Jopson and the baby down with her, left them over +night at Mrs. Ginnever's, in Sheafe Street, and was to go for them +next morning and take them up to Spreadsplendid Park. She had sent a +graceful, polite little note to Madam Mucklegrand, dated "Westover, +Z——," and signed, "Rosamond Holabird," offering to do this, that +there might not be the danger of Jane's losing the chance in the +meanwhile. +</p> +<p> +It was certainly to accomplish the good deed that Rosamond cared +the most; but it was also certainly something to accomplish it in +that very high quarter. It lent a piquancy to the occasion. +</p> +<p> +She came down to breakfast very nicely and discriminatingly dressed, +with the elegant quietness of a lady who knew what was simply +appropriate to such an errand and the early hour, but who meant to +be recognized as the lady in every unmistakable touch; and there was +a carriage ordered for her at half past nine. +</p> +<p> +Sin Scherman was a cute little matron; she discerned the dash of +subdued importance in Rosamond's air; and she thought it very +likely, in the Boston nature of things, that it would get +wholesomely and civilly toned down. +</p> +<p> +Just at this moment, Rosamond, putting on her little straw bonnet +with real lace upon it, and her simple little narrow-bordered green +shawl, that was yet, as far as it went, veritable cashmere,—had a +consciousness, in a still, modest way, not only of her own personal +dignity as Rosamond Holabird, who was the same going to see Madam +Mucklegrand, or walking over to Madam Pennington's, and as much in +her place with one as the other; but of the dignity of Westover +itself, and Westover ladyhood, represented by her among the palaces +of Boston-Appendix to-day. +</p> +<p> +She was only twenty, this fair and pleasant Rosamond of ours, and +country simple, with all her native tact and grace; and she forgot, +or did not know how full of impressions a life like Madam +Mucklegrand's might be, and how very trifling and fleeting must be +any that she might chance to make. +</p> +<p> +She drove away down to the North End, and took Jane Jopson and her +baby in,—very clean and shiny, both of them,—and Jane +particularly nice in the little black crape bonnet that Rosamond +herself had made, and the plain black shawl that Mrs. Holabird had +given her. +</p> +<p> +She stood at the head of the high, broad steps, with her mind +very much made up in regard to her complete and well-bred +self-possession, and the manner of her quietly assured +self-introduction. She had her card all ready that should explain +for her; and to the servant's reply that Madam Mucklegrand was in, +she responded by moving forward with only enough of voluntary +hesitation to allow him to indicate to her the reception room, at +the door of which she gave him the little pasteboard, with,— +</p> +<p> +"Take that to her, if you please," and so sat down, very much as if +she had been in such places frequently before, which she never had. +One may be quite used to the fine, free essence of gentle living, +and never in all one's life have anything to do with such solid, +concrete expression of it as Rosamond saw here. +</p> +<p> +Very high, to begin with, the ceiled and paneled room was; reaching +up into space as if it had really been of no consequence to the +builders where they should put the cover on; and with no remotest +suggestion of any reserve for further superstructure upon the same +foundation. +</p> +<p> +Very dark, and polished, and deeply carved, and heavily ornamented +were its wainscotings, and frames, and cornices; out of the new look +of the streets, which it will take them yet a great while to +outgrow, she had stepped at once into a grand, and mellow, and +ancient stateliness. +</p> +<p> +There were dim old portraits on the walls, and paintings that hinted +at old mastership filled whole panels; and the tall, high-backed, +wonderfully wrought oaken chairs had heraldic devices in relief upon +their bars and corners; and there was a great, round mosaic table, +in soft, rich, dark colors, of most precious stones; these, in +turn, hidden with piles of rare engravings. +</p> +<p> +The floor was of dark woods, inlaid; and sumptuous rugs were put +about upon it for the feet, each one of which was wide enough to +call a carpet. +</p> +<p> +And nothing of it all was <i>new</i>; there was nothing in the room but +some plants in a jardiniere by the window, that seemed to have a bit +of yesterday's growth upon it. +</p> +<p> +A great, calm, marble face of Jove looked down from high up, out of +the shadows. +</p> +<p> +Underneath sat Rosamond Holabird, holding on to her identity and her +self-confidence. +</p> +<p> +Madam Mucklegrand came in plainly enough dressed,—in black; you +would not notice what she had on; but you would notice instantly the +consummate usedness to the world and the hardening into the mould +thereof that was set and furrowed upon eye and lip and brow. +</p> +<p> +She sailed down upon Rosamond like a frigate upon a graceful little +pinnace; and brought to within a pace or two of her, continuing to +stand an instant, as Rosamond rose, just long enough for the shadow +of a suggestion that it might not be altogether material that she +should be seated again at all. +</p> +<p> +But Rosamond made a movement backward to her chair, and laid her +hand upon its arm, and then Madam Mucklegrand decided to sit down. +</p> +<p> +"You called about the nurse, I conclude, Miss—Holabird?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes, ma'am; I thought you had some questions you wished to ask, and +that I had better come myself. I have her with me, in the carriage." +</p> +<p> +"Thank you," said Madam Mucklegrand, politely. +</p> +<p> +But it was rather a <i>de haut en bas</i> politeness; she exercised it +also toward her footman. +</p> +<p> +Then followed inquiries about age, and health, and character. +Rosamond told all she knew, clearly and sufficiently, with some +little sympathetic touches that she could not help, in giving her +story. +</p> +<p> +Madam Mucklegrand met her nowhere, however, on any common ground; +she passed over all personal interest; instead of two women +befriending a third in her need, who in turn was to give life to a +little child waiting helplessly for some such ministry, it might +have been the leasing of a house, or the dealing about some +merchandise, that was between them. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond proposed, at last, to send Jane Jopson in. +</p> +<p> +Jane and her baby were had in, and had up-stairs; the physician and +attending nurse pronounced upon her; she was brought down again, to +go home and dispose of her child, and return. Rosamond, meanwhile, +had been sitting under the marble Jove. +</p> +<p> +There was nothing really rude in it; she was there on business; what +more could she expect? But then she knew all the time, that she too +was a lady, and was taking trouble to do a kind thing. It was not so +that Madam Mucklegrand would have been treated at Westover. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond was feeling pretty proud by the time Madam Mucklegrand came +down stairs. +</p> +<p> +"We have engaged the young woman: the doctor quite approves; she +will return without delay, I hope?" +</p> +<p> +As if Rosamond were somehow responsible all through. +</p> +<p> +"I have no doubt she will; good morning, madam." +</p> +<p> +"Good morning. I am, really, very much obliged. You have been of +great service." +</p> +<p> +Rosamond turned quietly round upon the threshold. +</p> +<p> +"That was what I was very anxious to be," she said, in her perfectly +sweet and musical voice,—"to the poor woman." +</p> +<p> +Italics would indicate too coarsely the impalpable emphasis she put +upon the last two words. But Mrs. Mucklegrand caught it. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond went away quite as sure of her own self-respect as ever, +but very considerably cured of Spreadsplendidism. +</p> +<p> +This was but one phase of it, she knew; there are real folks, also, +in Spreadsplendid Park; they are a good deal covered up, there, to +be sure; but they can't help that. It is what always happens to +somebody when Pyramids are built. Madam Mucklegrand herself was, +perhaps, only a good deal covered up. +</p> +<p> +How lovely it was to go down into Orchard Street after that, and +take tea with Miss Craydocke! How human and true it seemed,—the +friendliness that shone and breathed there, among them all. How +kingdom-of-heaven-like the air was, and into what pleasantness of +speech it was born! +</p> +<p> +And then Hazel Ripwinkley came over, like a little spirit from +another blessed society, to tell that "the picture-book things were +all ready, and that it would take everybody to help." +</p> +<p> +That was Rosamond's first glimpse of Witch Hazel, who found her out +instantly,—the real, Holabirdy part of her,—and set her down at +once among her "folks." +</p> +<p> +It was bright and cheery in Mrs. Ripwinkley's parlor; you could +hardly tell whence the cheeriness radiated, either. +</p> +<p> +The bright German lamp was cheery, in the middle of the round table; +the table was cheery, covered with glossy linen cut into large, +square book-sheets laid in piles, and with gay pictures of all +kinds, brightly colored; and the scissors,—or scissorses,—there +were ever so many shining pairs of them,—and the little mucilage +bottles, and the very scrap-baskets,—all looked cozy and +comfortable, and as if people were going to have a real good time +among them, somehow. +</p> +<p> +And the somehow was in making great beautiful, everlasting +picture-books for the little orphans in Miss Craydocke's Home,—the +Home, that is, out of several blessed and similar ones that she was +especially interested in, and where Hazel and Diana had been with +her until they knew all the little waifs by sight and name and +heart, and had their especial chosen property among them, as they +used to have among the chickens and the little yellow ducks at +Homesworth Farm. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley was cheery; it might be a question whether all the +light did not come from her first, in some way, and perhaps it did; +but then Hazel was luminous, and she fluttered about with quick, +happy motions, till like a little glancing taper she had shone upon +and lit up everybody and everything; and Dorris was sunny with clear +content, and Kenneth was blithe, and Desire was scintillant, as she +always was either with snaps or smiles; and here came in beaming +Miss Craydocke, and gay Asenath and her handsome husband; and our +Rosa Mundi; there,—how can you tell? It was all round; and it was +more every minute. +</p> +<p> +There were cutters and pasters and stitchers and binders and every +part was beautiful work, and nobody could tell which was +pleasantest. Cutting out was nice, of course; who doesn't like +cutting out pictures? Some were done beforehand, but there were as +many left as there would be time for. And pasting, on the fine, +smooth linen, making it glow out with charming groups and tints of +flowers and birds and children in gay clothes,—that was +delightful; and the stitchers had the pleasure of combining and +arranging it all; and the binders,—Mrs. Ripwinkley and Miss +Craydocke,—finished all off with the pretty ribbons and the gray +covers, and theirs being the completing touch, thought <i>they</i> had +the best of it. +</p> +<p> +"But I don't think finishing is best, mother," said Hazel, who was +diligently snipping in and out around rose leaves or baby faces, as +it happened. "I think beginning is always beautiful. I never want to +end off,—anything nice, I mean." +</p> +<p> +"Well, we don't end off this," said Diana. "There's the giving, +next." +</p> +<p> +"And then their little laughs and Oo's," said Hazel. +</p> +<p> +"And their delight day after day; and the comfort of them in their +little sicknesses," said Miss Craydocke. +</p> +<p> +"And the stories that have got to be told about every picture," said +Dorris. +</p> +<p> +"No; nothing really nice does end; it goes on and on," said Mrs. +Ripwinkley. +</p> +<p> +"Of course!" said Hazel, triumphantly, turning on the Drummond light +of her child-faith. "We're forever and ever people, you know!" +</p> +<p> +"Please paste some more flowers, Mr. Kincaid," said Rosamond, who +sat next him, stitching. "I want to make an all-flower book of this. +No,—not roses; I've a whole page already; this great white lily, I +think. That's beautiful!" +</p> +<p> +"Wouldn't it do to put in this laurel bush next, with the bird's +nest in it?" +</p> +<p> +"O, those lovely pink and white laurels! Yes. Where did you get such +pictures, Miss Hazel?" +</p> +<p> +"O, everybody gave them to us, all summer, ever since we began. Mrs. +Geoffrey gave those flowers; and mother painted some. She did that +laurel. But don't call me Miss Hazel, please; it seems to send me +off into a corner." +</p> +<p> +Rosamond answered by a little irresistible caress; leaning her head +down to Hazel, on her other side, until her cheek touched the +child's bright curls, quickly and softly. There was magnetism +between those two. +</p> +<p> +Ah, the magnetism ran round! +</p> +<p> +"For a child's picture-book, Mrs. Ripwinkley?" said Mrs. Scherman, +reaching over for the laurel picture. "Aren't these almost +too exquisite? They would like a big scarlet poppy just as +well,—perhaps better. Or a clump of cat-o'-nine-tails," she added, +whimsically. +</p> +<p> +"There <i>is</i> a clump of cat-o'-nine-tails," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "I +remember how I used to delight in them as a child,—the real ones." +</p> +<p> +"Pictures are to <i>tell</i> things," said Desire, in her brief way. +</p> +<p> +"These little city refugees <i>must</i> see them, somehow," said +Rosamond, gently. "I understand. They will never get up on the +mountains, maybe, where the laurels grow, or into the shady swamps +among the flags and the cat-o'-nine-tails. You have <i>picked out</i> +pictures to give them, Mrs. Ripwinkley." +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid's scissors stopped a moment, as he looked at +Rosamond, pausing also over the placing of her leaves. +</p> +<p> +Desire saw that from the other side; she saw how beautiful and +gracious this girl was—this Rosamond Holabird; and there was a +strange little twinge in her heart, as she felt, suddenly, that let +there be ever so much that was true and kindly, or even tender, in +her, it could never come up in her eyes or play upon her lips like +that she could never say it out sweetly and in due place everything +was a spasm with her; and nobody would ever look at her just as +Kenneth Kincaid looked at Rosamond then. +</p> +<p> +She said to herself, with her harsh, unsparing honesty, that it must +be a "hitch inside;" a cramp or an awkwardness born in her, that set +her eyes, peering and sharp, so near together, and put that knot +into her brows instead of their widening placidly, like Rosamond's, +and made her jerky in her speech. It was no use; she couldn't look +and behave, because she couldn't <i>be</i>; she must just go boggling and +kinking on, and—losing everything, she supposed. +</p> +<p> +The smiles went down, under a swift, bitter little cloud, and the +hard twist came into her face with the inward pinching she was +giving herself; and all at once there crackled out one of her sharp, +strange questions; for it was true that she could not do otherwise; +everything was sudden and crepitant with her. +</p> +<p> +"Why need all the good be done up in batches, I wonder? Why can't it +be spread round, a little more even? There must have been a good +deal left out somewhere, to make it come in a heap, so, upon you, +Miss Craydocke!" +</p> +<p> +Hazel looked up. +</p> +<p> +"I know what Desire means," she said. "It seemed just so to me, +<i>one</i> way. Why oughtn't there to be <i>little</i> homes, done-by-hand +homes, for all these little children, instead of—well—machining +them all up together?" +</p> +<p> +And Hazel laughed at her own conceit. +</p> +<p> +"It's nice; but then—it isn't just the way. If we were all brought +up like that we shouldn't know, you see!" +</p> +<p> +"You wouldn't want to be brought up in a platoon, Hazel?" said +Kenneth Kincaid. "No; neither should I." +</p> +<p> +"I think it was better," said Hazel, "to have my turn of being a +little child, all to myself; <i>the</i> little child, I mean, with the +rest of the folks bigger. To make much of me, you know. I shouldn't +want to have missed that. I shouldn't like to be <i>loved</i> in a +platoon." +</p> +<p> +"Nobody is meant to be," said Miss Craydocke. +</p> +<p> +"Then why—" began Asenath Scherman, and stopped. +</p> +<p> +"Why what, dear?" +</p> +<p> +"Revelations," replied Sin, laconically. "There are loads of people +there, all dressed alike, you know; and—well—it's platoony, I +think, rather! And down here, such a world-full; and the sky—full +of worlds. There doesn't seem to be much notion of one at a time, in +the general plan of things." +</p> +<p> +"Ah, but we've got the key to all that," said Miss Craydocke. "'The +very hairs of your head are all numbered.' It may be impossible with +us, you know, but not with Him." +</p> +<p> +"Miss Hapsie! you always did put me down, just when I thought I was +smart," said Sin Scherman. +</p> +<p> +Asenath loved to say "Miss Hapsie," now and then, to her friend, +ever since she had found out what she called her "squee little +name." +</p> +<p> +"But the little children, Miss Craydocke," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "It +seems to me Desire has got a right thought about it." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley and Hazel always struck the same note. The same +delicate instinct moved them both. Hazel "knew what Desire meant;" +her mother did not let it be lost sight of that it was Desire who +had led the way in this thought of the children; so that the abrupt +beginning—the little flash out of the cloud—was quite forgotten +presently, in the tone of hearty understanding and genuine interest +with which the talk went on; and it was as if all that was generous +and mindfully suggestive in it had first and truly come from her. +They unfolded herself for her—these friendly ones—as she could not +do; out of her bluntness grew a graciousness that lay softly over +it; the cloud itself melted away and floated off; and Desire began +to sparkle again more lambently. For she was not one of the kind to +be meanly or enviously "put out." +</p> +<p> +"It seemed to me there must be a great many spare little corners +somewhere, for all these spare little children," she said, "and +that, lumped up together so, there was something they did not get." +</p> +<p> +"That is precisely the thing," said Miss Craydocke, emphatically. "I +wonder, sometimes," she went on, tenderly, "if whenever God makes a +little empty place in a home, it isn't really on purpose that it +might be filled with one of these,—if people only thought." +</p> +<p> +"Miss Craydocke," said Hazel, "how did you begin your beehive?" +</p> +<p> +"I!" said the good lady. "I didn't. It began itself." +</p> +<p> +"Well, then, how did you <i>let</i> it begin?" +</p> +<p> +"Ah!" +</p> +<p> +The tone was admissive, and as if she had said, "<i>That</i> is another +thing!" She could not contradict that she had let it be. +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you a queer story," she said, "of what they say they used +to do, in old Roman Catholic times and places, when they wanted to +<i>keep up</i> a beehive that was in any danger of dwindling or growing +unprofitable. I read it somewhere in a book of popular beliefs and +customs about bees and other interesting animals. An old woman once +went to her friend, and asked her what she did to make her hive so +gainful. And this was what the old wife said; it sounds rather +strange to us, but if there is anything irreverent in it, it is the +word and not the meaning; 'I go,' she said, 'to the priest, and get +a little round Godamighty, and put it in the hive, and then all goes +well; the bees thrive, and there is plenty of honey; they always +come, and stay, and work, when <i>that</i> is there." +</p> +<p> +"A little round—something awful! what <i>did</i> she mean?" asked Mrs. +Scherman. +</p> +<p> +"She meant a consecrated wafer,—the Sacrament. We don't need to put +the wafer in; but if we let <i>Him</i> in, you see,—just say to Him it +is his house, to do with as He likes,—He takes the responsibility, +and brings in all the rest." +</p> +<p> +Nobody saw, under the knitting of Desire Ledwith's brows, and the +close setting of her eyes, the tenderness with which they suddenly +moistened, and the earnestness with which they gleamed. Nobody knew +how she thought to herself inwardly, in the same spasmodic fashion +that she used for speech,— +</p> +<p> +"They Mig up their parlors with upholstery, and put rose-colored +paper on their walls, and call them <i>their</i> houses; and shut the +little round awfulness and goodness out! We've all been doing it! +And there's no place left for what might come in." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Scherman broke the hush that followed what Miss Hapsie said. +Not hastily, or impertinently; but when it seemed as if it might be +a little hard to come down into the picture-books and the pleasant +easiness again. +</p> +<p> +"Let's make a Noah's Ark picture-book,—you and I," she said to +Desire. "Give us all your animals,—there's a whole Natural History +full over there, all painted with splendid daubs of colors; the +children did that, I know, when they <i>were</i> children. Come; we'll +have everything in, from an elephant to a bumble-bee!" +</p> +<p> +"We did not mean to use those, Mrs. Scherman," said Desire. "We did +not think they were good enough. They are <i>so</i> daubed up." +</p> +<p> +"They're perfectly beautiful. Exactly what the young ones will like. +Just divide round, and help. We'll wind up with the most wonderful +book of all; the book they'll all cry for, and that will have to be +given always, directly after the Castor Oil." +</p> +<p> +It took them more than an hour to do that, all working hard; and a +wonderful thing it was truly, when it was done. Mrs. Scherman and +Desire Ledwith directed all the putting together, and the grouping +was something astonishing. +</p> +<p> +There were men and women,—the Knowers, Sin called them; she said +that was what she always thought the old gentleman's name was, in +the days when she first heard of him, because he knew so much; and +in the backgrounds of the same sheets were their country cousins, +the orangs, and the little apes. Then came the elephants, and the +camels, and the whales; "for why shouldn't the fishes be put in, +since they must all have been swimming round sociably, if they +weren't inside; and why shouldn't the big people be all kept +together properly?" +</p> +<p> +There were happy families of dogs and cats and lions and snakes and +little humming-birds; and in the last part were all manner of bugs, +down to the little lady-bugs in blazes of red and gold, and the gray +fleas and mosquitoes which Sin improvised with pen and ink, in a +swarm at the end. +</p> +<p> +"And after that, I don't believe they wanted any more," she said; +and handed over the parts to Miss Craydocke to be tied together. +For this volume had had to be made in many folds, and Mrs. +Ripwinkley's blue ribbon would by no means stretch over the back. +</p> +<p> +And by that time it was eleven o'clock, and they had worked four +hours. They all jumped up in a great hurry then, and began to say +good-by. +</p> +<p> +"This must not be the last we are to have of you, Miss Holabird," +said Mrs. Ripwinkley, laying Rosamond's shawl across her shoulders. +</p> +<p> +"Of course not," said Mrs Scherman, "when you are all coming to our +house to tea to-morrow night." +</p> +<p> +Rosamond bade the Ripwinkleys good-night with a most sweet +cordiality, and thanks for the pleasure she had had, and she told +Hazel and her mother that it was "neither beginning nor end, she +believed; for it seemed to her that she had only found a little new +piece of her world, and that Aspen Street led right out of Westover +in the invisible geography, she was sure." +</p> +<p> +"Come!" said Miss Craydocke, standing on the doorsteps. "It is all +invisible geography out here, pretty nearly; and we've all our +different ways to go, and only these two unhappy gentlemen to insist +on seeing everybody home." +</p> +<p> +So first the whole party went round with Miss Hapsie, and then +Kenneth and Dorris, who always went home with Desire, walked up +Hanley Street with the Schermans and Rosamond, and so across through +Dane Street to Shubarton Place. +</p> +<p> +But while they were on their way, Hazel Ripwinkley was saying to her +mother, up in her room, where they made sometimes such long +good-nights,— +</p> +<p> +"Mother! there were some little children taken away from you before +we came, you know? And now we've got this great big house, and +plenty of things, more than it takes for us." +</p> +<p> +"Well?" +</p> +<p> +"Don't you think it's expected that we should do something with the +corners? There's room for some real good little times for somebody. +I think we ought to begin a beehive." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley kissed Hazel very tenderly, and said, only,— +</p> +<p> +"We can wait, and see." +</p> +<p> +Those are just the words that mothers so often put children off +with! But Mrs. Ripwinkley, being one of the real folks, meant it; +the very heart of it. +</p> +<p> +In that little talk, they took the consecration in; they would wait +and see; when people do that, with an expectation, the beehive +begins. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +Up Hanley Street, the six fell into pairs. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Scherman and Desire, Dorris and Mr. Scherman, Rosamond and +Kenneth Kincaid. +</p> +<p> +It only took from Bridgeley Street up to Dane, to tell Kenneth +Kincaid so much about Westover, in answer to his questions, that he +too thought he had found a new little piece of his world. What +Rosamond thought, I do not know; but a girl never gives a young man +so much as she gave Kenneth in that little walk without having some +of the blessed consciousness that comes with giving. The sun knows +it shines, I dare say; or else there is a great waste of hydrogen +and other things. +</p> +<p> +There was not much left for poor little Desire after they parted +from the Schermans and turned the corner of Dane Street. Only a +little bit of a way, in which new talk could hardly begin, and just +time for a pause that showed how the talk that had come to an end +was missed or how, perhaps, it stayed in the mind, repeating itself, +and keeping it full. +</p> +<p> +Nobody said anything till they had crossed B—— Street; and then +Dorris said, "How beautiful,—<i>real</i> beautiful, Rosamond Holabird +is!" And Kenneth answered, "Did you hear what she said to Mrs. +Ripwinkley?" +</p> +<p> +They were full of Rosamond! Desire did not speak a word. +</p> +<p> +Dorris had heard and said it over. It seemed to please Kenneth to +hear it again. "A piece of her world!" +</p> +<p> +"How quickly a true person springs to what belongs to—their life!" +said Kenneth, using that wrong little pronoun that we shall never be +able to do without. +</p> +<p> +"People don't always get what belongs, though," blurted Desire at +last, just as they came to the long doorsteps. "Some people's lives +are like complementary colors, I think; they see blue, and live +red!" +</p> +<p> +"But the colors are only accidentally—I mean temporarily—divided; +they are together in the sun; and they join somewhere—beyond." +</p> +<p> +"I hate beyond!" said Desire, recklessly. "Good-night. Thank you." +And she ran up the steps. +</p> +<p> +Nobody knew what she meant. Perhaps she hardly knew herself. +</p> +<p> +They only thought that her home life was not suited to her, and that +she took it hard. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0014"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XIV. +</h2> +<h3> + "SESAME; AND LILIES." +</h3> +<br> +<p> +"I've got a discouragement at my stomach," said Luclarion Grapp. +</p> +<p> +"What's the matter?" asked Mrs. Ripwinkley, naturally. +</p> +<p> +"Mrs. Scarup. I've been there. There ain't any bottom to it." +</p> +<p> +"Well?" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley knew that Luclarion had more to say, and that she +waited for this monosyllable. +</p> +<p> +"She's sick again. And Scarup, he's gone out West, spending a +hundred dollars to see whether or no there's a chance anywhere for a +<i>smart</i> man,—and that ain't he, so it's a double waste,—to make +fifty. No girl; and the children all under foot, and Pinkie looking +miserable over the dishes." +</p> +<p> +"Pinkie isn't strong." +</p> +<p> +"No. She's powerful weak. I just wish you'd seen that dirty +settin'-room fire-place; looks as if it hadn't been touched since +Scarup smoked his pipe there, the night before he went off a +wild-gandering. And clo'es to be ironed, and the girl cleared out, +because 'she'd always been used to fust-class families.' There +wasn't anything to your hand, and you couldn't tell where to begin, +unless you began with a cataplasm!" +</p> +<p> +Luclarion had heard, by chance, of a cataclysm, and that was what +she meant. +</p> +<p> +"It wants—creation, over again! Mrs. Scarup hadn't any fit +breakfast; there was burnt toast, made out of tough bread, that +she'd been trying to eat; and a cup of tea, half drunk; something +the matter with that, I presume. I'd have made her some gruel, if +there'd been a fire; and if there'd been any kindlings, I'd have +made her a fire; but there 'twas; there wasn't any bottom to it!" +</p> +<p> +"You had better make the gruel here, Luclarion." +</p> +<p> +"That's what I come back for. But—Mrs. Ripwinkley!" +</p> +<p> +"Well?" +</p> +<p> +"Don't it appear to you it's a kind of a stump? I don't want to do +it just for the satisfaction; though it <i>would</i> be a satisfaction to +plough everything up thorough, and then rake it over smooth; what do +you think?" +</p> +<p> +"What have you thought, Luclarion? Something, of course." +</p> +<p> +"She wants a real smart girl—for two dollars a week. She can't get +her, because she ain't. And I kind of felt as though I should like +to put in. Seemed to me it was a—but there! I haven't any right to +stump <i>you</i>." +</p> +<p> +"Wouldn't it be rather an aggravation? I don't suppose you would +mean to stay altogether?" +</p> +<p> +"Not unless—but don't go putting it into my head, Mrs. Ripwinkley. +I shall feel as if I <i>was</i>. And I don't think it goes quite so far +as that, yet. We ain't never stumped to more than one thing at a +time. What she wants is to be straightened out. And when things once +looked <i>my</i> way, she might get a girl, you see. Anyhow, 'twould +encourage Pinkie, and kind of set her going. Pinkie likes things +nice; but it's such a Hoosac tunnel to undertake, that she just lets +it all go, and gets off up-stairs, and sticks a ribbon in her hair. +That's all she <i>can</i> do. I s'pose 'twould take a fortnight, maybe?" +</p> +<p> +"Take it, Luclarion," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, smiling. Luclarion +understood the smile. +</p> +<p> +"I s'pose you think it's as good as took. Well, perhaps it is—spoke +for. But it wasn't me, you know. Now what'll you do?" +</p> +<p> +"Go into the kitchen and make the pudding." +</p> +<p> +"But then?" +</p> +<p> +"We are not stumped for then, you know." +</p> +<p> +"There was a colored girl here yesterday, from up in Garden Street, +asking if there was any help wanted. I think she came in partially, +to look at the flowers; the 'sturtiums <i>are</i> splendid, and I gave +her some. She was awfully dressed up,—for colors, I mean; but she +looked clean and pleasant, and spoke bright. Maybe she'd come, +temporary. She seemed taken with things. I know where to find her, +and I could go there when I got through with the gruel. Mrs. Scarup +must have that right off." +</p> +<p> +And Luclarion hurried away. +</p> +<p> +It was not the first time Mrs. Ripwinkley had lent Luclarion; but +Miss Grapp had not found a kitchen mission in Boston heretofore. It +was something new to bring the fashion of simple, prompt, neighborly +help down intact from the hills, and apply it here to the tangle of +city living, that is made up of so many separate and unrecognized +struggles. +</p> +<p> +When Hazel came home from school, she went all the way up the garden +walk, and in at the kitchen door. "That was the way she took it +all," she said; "first the flowers, and then Luclarion and what they +had for dinner, and a drink of water; and then up-stairs, to +mother." +</p> +<p> +To-day she encountered in the kitchen a curious and startling +apparition of change. +</p> +<p> +A very dusky brown maiden, with a petticoat of flashing purple, and +a jacket of crimson, and extremely puzzling hair tied up with knots +of corn color, stood in possession over the stove, tending a +fricassee, of which Hazel recognized at once the preparation and +savor as her mother's; while beside her on a cricket, munching cold +biscuit and butter with round, large bites of very white little +teeth, sat a small girl of five of the same color, gleaming and +twinkling as nothing human ever does gleam and twinkle but a little +darkie child. +</p> +<p> +"Where is Luclarion?" asked Hazel, standing still in the middle of +the floor, in her astonishment. +</p> +<p> +"I don't know. I'm Damaris, and this one's little Vash. Don't go for +callin' me Dam, now; the boys did that in my last place, an' I left, +don' yer see? I ain't goin' to be swore to, anyhow!" +</p> +<p> +And Damaris glittered at Hazel, with her shining teeth and her quick +eyes, full of fun and good humor, and enjoyed her end of the joke +extremely. +</p> +<p> +"Have you come to <i>stay</i>?" asked Hazel. +</p> +<p> +"'Course. I don' mostly come for to go." +</p> +<p> +"What does it mean, mother?" Hazel asked, hurrying up into her +mother's room. +</p> +<p> +And then Mrs. Ripwinkley explained. +</p> +<p> +"But what <i>is</i> she? Black or white? She's got straight braids and +curls at the back of her head, like everybody's"— +</p> +<p> +"'Course," said a voice in the doorway. "An' wool on top,—place +where wool ought to grow,—same's everybody, too." +</p> +<p> +Damaris had come up, according to orders, to report a certain point +in the progress of the fricassee. +</p> +<p> +"They all pulls the wool over they eyes, now-days, an sticks the +straight on behind. Where's the difference?" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley made some haste to rise and move toward the +doorway, to go down stairs, turning Damaris from her position, and +checking further remark. Diana and Hazel stayed behind, and laughed. +"What fun!" they said. +</p> +<p> +It was the beginning of a funny fortnight; but it is not the fun I +have paused to tell you of; something more came of it in the +home-life of the Ripwinkleys; that which they were "waiting to see." +</p> +<p> +Damaris wanted a place where she could take her little sister; she +was tired of leaving her "shyin' round," she said. And Vash, with +her round, fuzzy head, her bright eyes, her little flashing teeth, +and her polished mahogany skin,—darting up and down the house "on +Aarons," or for mere play,—dressed in her gay little scarlet +flannel shirt-waist, and black and orange striped petticoat,—was +like some "splendid, queer little fire-bug," Hazel said, and made a +surprise and a picture wherever she came. She was "cute," too, as +Damaris had declared beforehand; she was a little wonder at noticing +and remembering, and for all sorts of handiness that a child of five +could possibly be put to. +</p> +<p> +Hazel dressed rag babies for her, and made her a soap-box baby-house +in the corner of the kitchen, and taught her her letters; and began +to think that she should hate to have her go when Luclarion came +back. +</p> +<p> +Damaris proved clever and teachable in the kitchen; and had, above +all, the rare and admirable disposition to keep things scrupulously +as she had found them; so that Luclarion, in her afternoon trips +home, was comforted greatly to find that while she was "clearing and +ploughing" at Mrs. Scarup's, her own garden of neatness was not +being turned into a howling wilderness; and she observed, as is +often done so astutely, that "when you <i>do</i> find a neat, capable, +colored help, it's as good help as you can have." Which you may +notice is just as true without the third adjective as with. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion herself was having a splendid time. +</p> +<p> +The first thing she did was to announce to Mrs. Scarup that she was +out of her place for two weeks, and would like to come to her at her +wages; which Mrs. Scarup received with some such awed and +unbelieving astonishment as she might have done the coming of a +legion of angels with Gabriel at their head. And when one strong, +generous human will, with powers of brain and body under it +sufficient to some good work, comes down upon it as Luclarion did +upon hers, there <i>is</i> what Gabriel and his angels stand for, and no +less sent of God. +</p> +<p> +The second thing Luclarion did was to clean that "settin'-room +fire-place," to restore the pleasant brown color of its freestone +hearth and jambs, to polish its rusty brasses till they shone like +golden images of gods, and to lay an ornamental fire of chips and +clean little sticks across the irons. Then she took a wet broom and +swept the carpet three times, and dusted everything with a damp +duster; and then she advised Mrs. Scarup, whom the gruel had already +cheered and strengthened, to be "helped down, and sit there in the +easy-chair, for a change, and let her take her room in hand." And no +doctor ever prescribed any change with better effect. There are a +good many changes that might be made for people, without sending +them beyond their own doors. But it isn't the doctors who always +know <i>what</i> change, or would dare to prescribe it if they did. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Scarup was "helped down," it seemed,—really up, rather,—into +a new world. Things had begun all over again. It was worth while to +get well, and take courage. Those brasses shone in her face like +morning suns. +</p> +<p> +"Well, I do declare to Man, Miss Grapp!" she exclaimed; and breath +and expression failed together, and that was all she could say. +</p> +<p> +Up-stairs, Luclarion swept and rummaged. She found the sheet and +towel drawers, and made everything white and clean. She laid fresh +napkins over the table and bureau tops, and set the little +things—boxes, books, what not,—daintily about on them. She put a +clean spread on the bed, and gathered up things for the wash she +meant to have, with a recklessness that Mrs. Scarup herself would +never have dared to use, in view of any "help" she ever expected to +do it. +</p> +<p> +And then, with Pinkie to lend feeble assistance, Luclarion turned to +in the kitchen. +</p> +<p> +It was a "clear treat," she told Mrs. Ripwinkley afterward. "Things +had got to that state of mussiness, that you just began at one end +and worked through to the other, and every inch looked new made over +after you as you went along." +</p> +<p> +She put the children out into the yard on the planks, and gave them +tin pans and clothes-pins to keep house with, and gingerbread for +their dinner. She and Pinkie had cups of tea, and Mrs. Scarup had +her gruel, and went up to bed again; and that was another new +experience, and a third stage in her treatment and recovery. +</p> +<p> +When it came to the cellar, Luclarion got the chore-man in; and when +all was done, she looked round on the renovated home, and said +within herself, "If Scarup, now, will only break his neck, or get +something to do, and stay away with his pipes and his boots and his +contraptions!" +</p> +<p> +And Scarup did. He found a chance in some freight-house, and wrote +that he had made up his mind to stay out there all winter; and Mrs. +Scarup made little excursions about the house with her returning +strength, and every journey was a pleasure-trip, and the only misery +was that at the end of the fortnight Miss Grapp was going away, and +then she should be "all back in the swamp again." +</p> +<p> +"No, you won't," said Luclarion; "Pinkie's waked up, and she's going +to take pride, and pick up after the children. She can do that, now; +but she couldn't shoulder everything. And you'll have somebody in +the kitchen. See if you don't. I've 'most a mind to say I'll stay +till you do." +</p> +<p> +Luclarion's faith was strong; she knew, she said, that "if she was +doing at her end, Providence wasn't leaving off at his. Things would +come round." +</p> +<p> +This was how they did come round. +</p> +<p> +It only wanted a little sorting about. The pieces of the puzzle were +all there. Hazel Ripwinkley settled the first little bit in the +right place. She asked her mother one night, if she didn't think +they might begin their beehive with a fire-fly? Why couldn't they +keep little Vash? +</p> +<p> +"And then," said Diana, in her quiet way, slipping one of the big +three-cornered pieces of the puzzle in, "Damaris might go to Mrs. +Scarup for her two dollars a week. She is willing to work for that, +if she can get Vash taken. And this would be all the same, and +better." +</p> +<p> +Desire was with them when Luclarion came in, and heard it settled. +</p> +<p> +"How is it that things always fall right together for you, so? How +<i>came</i> Damaris to come along?" +</p> +<p> +"You just take hold of something and try," said Luclarion. "You'll +find there's always a working alongside. Put up your sails, and the +wind will fill 'em." +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus wanted to know "what sort of use a thing like that +could be in a house?" +</p> +<p> +He asked it in his very surliest fashion. If they had had any +motives of fear or favor, they would have been disconcerted, and +begun to think they had made a mistake. +</p> +<p> +But Hazel spoke up cheerily,— +</p> +<p> +"Why, to wait on people, uncle. She's the nicest little +fetch-and-carrier you ever saw!" +</p> +<p> +"Humph! who wants to be waited on, here? You girls, with feet and +hands of your own? Your mother doesn't, I know." +</p> +<p> +"Well, to wait <i>on</i>, then," says Hazel, boldly. "I'm making her a +baby-house, and teaching her to read; and Diana is knitting scarlet +stockings for her, to wear this winter. We like it." +</p> +<p> +"O, if you like it! That's always a reason. I only want to have +people give the real one." +</p> +<p> +And Uncle Titus walked off, so that nobody could tell whether <i>he</i> +liked it or not. +</p> +<p> +Nobody told him anything about the Scarups. But do you suppose he +didn't know? Uncle Titus Oldways was as sharp as he was blunt. +</p> +<p> +"I guess I know, mother," said Hazel, a little while after this, one +day, "how people write stories." +</p> +<p> +"Well?" asked her mother, looking up, ready to be amused with +Hazel's deep discovery. +</p> +<p> +"If they can just begin with one thing, you see, that makes the next +one. It can't help it, hardly. Just as it does with us. What made me +think of it was, that it seemed to me there was another little piece +of our beehive story all ready to put on; and if we went and did +it,—I wonder if you wouldn't, mother? It fits exactly." +</p> +<p> +"Let me see." +</p> +<p> +"That little lame Sulie at Miss Craydocke's Home, that we like so +much. Nobody adopts her away, because she is lame; her legs are no +use at all, you know, and she just sits all curled up in that great +round chair that Mrs. Geoffrey gave her, and sews patchwork, and +makes paper dolls. And when she drops her scissors, or her thread, +somebody has to come and pick it up. She wants waiting on; she just +wants a little lightning-bug, like Vash, to run round for her all +the time. And we don't, you see; and we've got Vash! And Vash—likes +paper dolls." +</p> +<p> +Hazel completed the circle of her argument with great triumph. +</p> +<p> +"An extra piece of bread to finish your too much butter," said +Diana. +</p> +<p> +"Yes. Doesn't it just make out?" said Hazel, abating not a jot of +her triumph, and taking things literally, as nobody could do better +than she, upon occasion, for all her fancy and intuition. +</p> +<p> +"I wonder what Uncle Oldways would say to that," said Diana. +</p> +<p> +"He'd say 'Faugh, faugh!' But he doesn't mean faugh, faugh, half the +time. If he does, he doesn't stick to it. Mother," she asked rather +suddenly, "do you think Uncle Oldways feels as if we oughtn't to +do—other things—with his money?" +</p> +<p> +"What other things?" +</p> +<p> +"Why, <i>these</i> others. Vash, and Sulie, perhaps. Wouldn't he like it +if we turned his house into a Beehive?" +</p> +<p> +"It isn't his house," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, "He has given it to me." +</p> +<p> +"Well,—do you feel 'obligated,' as Luclarion says?' +</p> +<p> +"In a certain degree,—yes. I feel bound to consider his comfort +and wishes, as far as regards his enjoyment with us, and fulfilling +what he reasonably looked for when he brought us here." +</p> +<p> +"Would that interfere?" +</p> +<p> +"Suppose you ask him, Hazel?" +</p> +<p> +"Well, I could do that." +</p> +<p> +"Hazel wouldn't mind doing anything!" said Diana, who, to tell the +truth was a little afraid of Uncle Titus, and who dreaded of all +things, being snubbed. +</p> +<p> +"Only," said Hazel, to whom something else had just occurred, +"wouldn't he think—wouldn't it be—<i>your</i> business?" +</p> +<p> +"It is all your plan, Hazel. I think he would see that." +</p> +<p> +"And you are willing, if he doesn't care?" +</p> +<p> +"I did not quite say that. It would be a good deal to think of." +</p> +<p> +"Then I'll wait till you've thought," said clear-headed little +Hazel. +</p> +<p> +"But it fits right on. I can see that. And Miss Craydocke said +things would, after we had begun." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley took it into her thoughts, and carried it about with +her for days, and considered it; asking herself questions. +</p> +<p> +Was it going aside in search of an undertaking that did not belong +to her? +</p> +<p> +Was it bringing home a care, a responsibility, for which they were +not fitted,—which might interfere with the things they were meant, +and would be called, to do? +</p> +<p> +There was room and opportunity, doubtless, for them to do something; +Mrs. Ripwinkley had felt this; she had not waited for her child to +think of it for her; she had only waited, in her new, strange +sphere, for circumstances to guide the way, and for the Giver of +all circumstance to guide her thought. She chose, also, in the +things that would affect her children's life and settle duties for +them, to let them grow also to those duties, and the perception of +them, with her. To this she led them, by all her training and +influence; and now that in Hazel, her child of quick insight and +true instincts, this influence was bearing fruit and quickening to +action, she respected her first impulses; she believed in them; they +had weight with her, as argument in themselves. These impulses, in +young, true souls, freshly responding, are, she knew, as the +proof-impressions of God's Spirit. +</p> +<p> +Yet she would think; that was her duty; she would not do a thing +hastily, or unwisely. +</p> +<p> +Sulie Praile had been a good while, now, at the Home. +</p> +<p> +A terrible fall, years ago, had caused a long and painful illness, +and resulted in her present helplessness. But above those little +idle, powerless limbs, that lay curled under the long, soft skirt +she wore, like a baby's robe, were a beauty and a brightness, a +quickness of all possible motion, a dexterous use of hands, and a +face of gentle peace and sometimes glory, that were like a +benediction on the place that she was in; like the very Holy Ghost +in tender form like a dove, resting upon it, and abiding among them +who were there. +</p> +<p> +In one way, it would hardly be so much a giving as a taking, to +receive her in. Yet there was care to assume, the continuance of +care to promise or imply; the possibility of conflicting plans in +much that might be right and desirable that Mrs. Ripwinkley should +do for her own. Exactly what, if anything, it would be right to +undertake in this, was matter for careful and anxious reflection. +</p> +<p> +The resources of the Home were not very large; there were painful +cases pressing their claims continually, as fast as a little place +was vacated it could be filled; was wanted, ten times over; and +Sulie Praile had been there a good while. If somebody would only +take her, as people were very ready to take—away to happy, simple, +comfortable country homes, for mere childhood's sake—the round, +rosy, strong, and physically perfect ones! But Sulie must be lifted +and tended; she must keep somebody at home to look after her; no one +could be expected to adopt a child like that. +</p> +<p> +Yet Hazel Ripwinkley thought they could be; thought, in her +straightforward, uncounting simplicity, that it was just the +natural, obvious, beautiful thing to do, to take her home—into a +real home—into pleasant family life; where things would not crowd; +where she could be mothered and sistered, as girls ought to be, when +there are so many nice places in the world, and not so many people +in them as there might be. When there could be so much visiting, and +spare rooms kept always in everybody's house, why should not +somebody who needed to, just come in and stay? What were the spare +places made for? +</p> +<p> +"We might have Sulie for this winter," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, at +last. "They would let her come to us for that time; and it would be +a change for her, and leave a place for others. Then if anything +made it impossible for us to do more, we should not have raised an +expectation to be disappointed. And if we can and ought to do more, +it will be shown us by that time more certainly." +</p> +<p> +She asked Miss Craydocke about it, when she came home from Z—— +that fall. She had been away a good deal lately; she had been up to +Z—— to two weddings,—Leslie Goldthwaite's and Barbara Holabird's. +Now she was back again, and settled down. +</p> +<p> +Miss Craydocke thought it a good thing wisely limited. +</p> +<p> +"Sulie needs to be with older girls; there is no one in the Home to +be companion to her; the children are almost all little. A winter +here would be a blessing to her!" +</p> +<p> +"But the change again, if she should have to make it?" suggested +Mrs. Ripwinkley. +</p> +<p> +"Good things don't turn to bad ones because you can't have them any +more. A thing you're not fit for, and never ought to have had, may; +but a real good stays by; it overflows all the rest. Sulie Praile's +life could never be so poor again, after a winter here with you, as +it might be if she had never had it. If you'd like her, let her +come, and don't be a bit afraid. We're only working by inches, any +of us; like the camel's-hair embroiderers in China. But it gets put +together; and it is beautiful, and large, and whole, somewhere." +</p> +<p> +"Miss Craydocke always knows," said Hazel. +</p> +<p> +Nobody said anything again, about Uncle Titus. A winter's plan need +not be referred to him. But Hazel, in her own mind, had resolved to +find out what was Uncle Titus's, generally and theoretically; how +free they were to be, beyond winter plans and visits of weeks; how +much scope they might have with this money and this house, that +seemed so ample to their simple wants, and what they might do with +it and turn it into, if it came into their heads or hearts or +consciences. +</p> +<p> +So one day she went in and sat down by him in the study, after she +had accomplished some household errand with Rachel Froke. +</p> +<p> +Other people approached him with more or less of strategy, afraid of +the tiger in him; Desire Ledwith faced him courageously; only Hazel +came and nestled up beside him, in his very cage, as if he were no +wild beast, after all. +</p> +<p> +Yet he pretended to growl, even at her, sometimes; it was so funny +to see her look up and chirp on after it, like some little bird to +whom the language of beasts was no language at all, and passed by on +the air as a very big sound, but one that in no wise concerned it. +</p> +<p> +"We've got Sulie Praile to spend the winter, Uncle Titus," she said. +</p> +<p> +"Who's Sulie Praile?" +</p> +<p> +"The lame girl, from the Home. We wanted somebody for Vash to wait +on, you know. She sits in a round chair, that twists, like yours; +and she's—just like a lily in a vase!" Hazel finished her sentence +with a simile quite unexpected to herself. +</p> +<p> +There was something in Sulie's fair, pale, delicate face, and her +upper figure, rising with its own peculiar lithe, easily swayed +grace from among the gathered folds of the dress of her favorite +dark green color, that reminded—if one thought of it, and Hazel +turned the feeling of it into a thought at just this moment—of a +beautiful white flower, tenderly and commodiously planted. +</p> +<p> +"Well, I suppose it's worth while to have a lame girl to sit up in a +round chair, and look like a lily in a vase, is it?" +</p> +<p> +"Uncle Titus, I want to know what you think about some things." +</p> +<p> +"That is just what I want to know myself, sometimes. To find out +what one thinks about things, is pretty much the whole finding, +isn't it?" +</p> +<p> +"Don't be very metaphysical, please, Uncle Titus. Don't turn your +eyes round into the back of your head. That isn't what I mean." +</p> +<p> +"What do you mean?" +</p> +<p> +"Just plain looking." +</p> +<p> +"O!" +</p> +<p> +"Don't you think, when there are places, all nice and ready,—and +people that would like the places and haven't got 'em,—that the +people ought to be put into the places?" +</p> +<p> +"'The shirtless backs put into the shirts?'" +</p> +<p> +"Why, yes, of course. What are shirts made for?" +</p> +<p> +"For some people to have thirty-six, and some not to have any," said +Mr. Oldways. +</p> +<p> +"No," said Hazel. "Nobody wants thirty-six, all at once. But what I +mean is, rooms, and corners, and pleasant windows, and seats at the +table; places where people come in visiting, and that are kept saved +up. I can't bear an empty box; that is, only for just one pleasant +minute, while I'm thinking what I can put into it." +</p> +<p> +"Where's your empty box, now?" +</p> +<p> +"Our house <i>was</i> rather empty-boxy. Uncle Titus, do you mind how we +fill it up,—because you gave it to us, you know?" +</p> +<p> +"No. So long as you don't crowd yourselves out." +</p> +<p> +"Or you, Uncle Titus. We don't want to crowd you out. Does it crowd +you any to have Sulie and Vash there, and to have us 'took up' with +them, as Luclarion says?" +</p> +<p> +How straight Witch Hazel went to her point! +</p> +<p> +"Your catechism crowds me just a little, child," said Uncle Titus. +"I want to see you go your own way. That is what I gave you the +house for. Your mother knows that. Did she send you here to ask me?" +</p> +<p> +"No. I wanted to know. It was I that wanted to begin a kind of a +Beehive—like Miss Craydocke's. Would you care if it was turned +quite into a Beehive, finally?" +</p> +<p> +Hazel evidently meant to settle the furthest peradventure, now she +had begun. +</p> +<p> +"Ask your mother to show you the deed. 'To Frances Ripwinkley, her +heirs and assigns,'—that's you and Diana,—'for their use and +behoof, forever.' I've no more to do with it." +</p> +<p> +"'Use, and behoof,'" said Hazel, slowly. And then she turned the +leaves of the great Worcester that lay upon the study table, and +found "Behoof." +</p> +<p> +"'Profit,—gain,—benefit;' then that's what you meant; that we +should make as much more of it as we could. That's what I think, +Uncle Titus. I'm glad you put 'behoof in." +</p> +<p> +"They always put it in, child!" +</p> +<p> +"Do they? Well, then, they don't always work it out!" and Hazel +laughed. +</p> +<p> +At that, Mr. Oldways pulled off his spectacles, looked sharp at +Hazel with two sharp, brown eyes,—set near together, Hazel noticed +for the first time, like Desire's,—let the keenness turn gradually +into a twinkle, suffered the muscles that had held his lips so grim +to relax, and laughed too; his peculiar, up-and-down shake of a +laugh, in which head and shoulders made the motions, as if he were a +bottle, and there were a joke inside of him which was to be well +mixed up to be thoroughly enjoyed. +</p> +<p> +"Go home to your mother, jade-hopper!" he said, when he had done; +"and tell her I'm coming round to-night, to tea, amongst your +bumble-bees and your lilies!" +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0015"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XV. +</h2> +<h3> + WITH ALL ONE'S MIGHT. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Let the grapes be ever so sweet, and hang in plenty ever so low, +there is always a fair bunch out of reach. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith longed, now, to go to Europe. +</p> +<p> +At any rate, she was eager to have her daughters go. But, after just +one year, to take what her Uncle Oldways had given her, in return +for her settling herself near him, and <i>un</i>settle herself, and go +off to the other side of the world! Besides, what he had given her +would not do it. That was the rub, after all. What was two thousand +a year, now-a-days? Nothing is anything, now-a-days. And it takes +everything to do almost nothing. +</p> +<p> +The Ledwiths were just as much pinched now as they were before they +ever heard from Uncle Oldways. People with unlimited powers of +expansion always are pinched; it is good for them; one of the saving +laws of nature that keeps things decently together. +</p> +<p> +Yet, in the pink room of a morning, and in the mellow-tinted +drawing-room of an evening, it was getting to be the subject +oftenest discussed. It was that to which they directed the combined +magnetism of the family will; everything was brought to bear upon it; +Bridget's going away on Monday morning, leaving the clothes in the +tubs, the strike-price of coal, and the overcharge of the grocer; +Florence's music, Helena's hopeless distress over French and German; +even Desire's listlessness and fidgets; most of all Mrs. Megilp's +plans, which were ripening towards this long coveted end. She and +Glossy really thought they should go this winter. +</p> +<p> +"It is a matter of economy now; everybody's going. The Fargo's and +the Fayerwerses, and the Hitherinyons have broken all up, and are +going out to stay indefinitely. The Fayerwerses have been saving up +these four years to get away, there are so many of them, you know; +the passage money counts, and the first travelling; but after you +<i>are</i> over, and have found a place to settle down in,"—then +followed all the usual assertions as to cheap delights and +inestimable advantages, and emancipation from all American household +ills and miseries. +</p> +<p> +Uncle Oldways came up once in a while to the house in Shubarton +Place, and made an evening call. He seemed to take apricot-color for +granted, when he got there, as much as he did the plain, old, +unrelieved brown at Mrs. Ripwinkley's; he sat quite unconcernedly in +the grand easy chair that Laura wheeled out for him; indeed, it +seemed as if he really, after a manner, indorsed everything by his +acceptance without demur of what he found. But then one must sit +down on something; and if one is offered a cup of coffee, or +anything on a plate, one cannot easily protest against sea-green +china. We do, and we have, and we wear, and we say, a great +many things, and feel ourselves countenanced and confirmed, +somehow,—perhaps excused,—because nobody appears surprised or says +anything. But what should they say; and would it be at all proper +that they should be surprised? If we only thought of it, and once +tried it, we might perhaps find it quite as easy and encouraging, on +the same principle, <i>not</i> to have apricot rep and sea-green china. +</p> +<p> +One night Mr. Oldways was with them when the talk turned eastwardly +over the water. There were new names in the paper, of people who +had gone out in the <i>Aleppo</i>, and a list of Americans registered at +Bowles Brothers,' among whom were old acquaintance. +</p> +<p> +"I declare, how they all keep turning up there" said Mrs. Ledwith. +</p> +<p> +"The war doesn't seem to make much difference," said her husband. +</p> +<p> +"To think how lucky the Vonderbargens were, to be in Paris just at +the edge of the siege!" said Glossy Megilp. "They came back from +Como just in time; and poor Mr. Washburne had to fairly hustle them +off at last. They were buying silks, and ribbons, and gloves, up to +the last minute, for absolutely nothing. Mrs. Vonderbargen said it +seemed a sin to come away and leave anything. I'm sure I don't know +how they got them all home; but they did." +</p> +<p> +Glossy had been staying lately with the Vonderbargens in New York. +She stayed everywhere, and picked up everything. +</p> +<p> +"You have been abroad, Mrs. Scherman?" said Mrs. Ledwith, +inquiringly, to Asenath, who happened to be calling, also, with her +husband, and was looking at some photographs with Desire. +</p> +<p> +"No, ma'am," answered Mrs. Scherman, very promptly, not having +spoken at all before in the discussion. "I do not think I wish to +go. The syphon has been working too long." +</p> +<p> +"The Syphon?" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith spoke with a capital S in her mind; but was not quite +sure whether what Mrs. Scherman meant might be a line of Atlantic +steamers or the sea-serpent. +</p> +<p> +"Yes, ma'am. The emptying back and forth. There isn't much that is +foreign over there, now, nor very much that is native here. The +hemispheres have got miserably mixed up. I think when I go 'strange +countries for to see,' it will have to be Patagonia or Independent +Tartary." +</p> +<p> +Uncle Oldways turned round with his great chair, so as to face +Asenath, and laughed one of his thorough fun digesting laughs, his +keen eyes half shut with the enjoyment, and sparkling out through +their cracks at her. +</p> +<p> +But Asenath had resumed her photographs with the sweetest and +quietest unconsciousness. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith let her alone after that; and the talk rambled on to +the schools in Munich, and the Miracle Plays at Oberammergau. +</p> +<p> +"To think of <i>that</i> invasion!" said Asenath, in a low tone to +Desire, "and corrupting <i>that</i> into a show, with a run of regular +performances! I do believe they have pulled down the last unprofaned +thing now, and trampled over it." +</p> +<p> +"If we go," said Mrs. Megilp, "we shall join the Fayerwerses, and +settle down with them quietly in some nice place; and then make +excursions. We shall not try to do all Europe in three months; we +shall choose, and take time. It is the only way really to enjoy or +acquire; and the quiet times are so invaluable for the lessons and +languages." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp made up her little varnishes with the genuine gums of +truth and wisdom; she put a beautiful shine even on to her limited +opportunities and her enforced frugalities. +</p> +<p> +"Mrs. Ledwith, you <i>ought</i> to let Agatha and Florence go too. I +would take every care of them; and the expense would be so +divided—carriages, and couriers, and everything—that it would be +hardly anything." +</p> +<p> +"It is a great opportunity," Mrs. Ledwith said, and sighed. "But it +is different with us from what it is with you. We must still be a +family here, with nearly the same expenses. To be sure Desire has +done with school, and she doesn't care for gay society, and Helena +is a mere child yet; if it ever could"— +</p> +<p> +And so it went on between the ladies, while Mr. Oldways and Mr. +Ledwith and Frank Scherman got into war talk, and Bismarck policy, +and French poss—no, <i>im</i>-possibilities. +</p> +<p> +"I don't think Uncle Oldways minded much," said Mrs. Ledwith to +Agatha, and Mrs. Megilp, up-stairs, after everybody had gone who was +to go. +</p> +<p> +"He never minds anything," said Agatha. +</p> +<p> +"I don't know," said Mrs. Megilp, slowly. "He seemed mightily +pleased with what Asenath Scherman said." +</p> +<p> +"O, she's pretty, and funny; it makes no difference what she says; +people are always pleased." +</p> +<p> +"We might dismiss one girl this winter," said Mrs. Ledwith, "and +board in some cheap country place next summer. I dare say we could +save it in the year's round; the difference, I mean. When you +weren't actually travelling, it wouldn't cost more than to have you +here,—dress and all. +</p> +<p> +"They wouldn't need to have a new thing," said Glossy. +</p> +<p> +"Those people out at Z—— want to buy the house. I've a great mind +to coax Grant to sell, and take a slice right out, and send them," +said Mrs. Ledwith, eagerly. She was always eager to accomplish the +next new thing for her children; and, to say the truth, did not much +consider herself. And so far as they had ever been able, the +Ledwiths had always been rather easily given to "taking the slice +right out." +</p> +<p> +The Megilps had had a little legacy of two or three thousand +dollars, and were quite in earnest in their plans, this time, which +had been talk with them for many years. +</p> +<p> +"Those poor Fayerwerses!" said Asenath to her husband, walking home. +"Going out now, after the cheap European living of a dozen years +ago! The ghost always goes over on the last load. I wonder at Mrs. +Megilp. She generally knows better." +</p> +<p> +"She'll do," said Frank Scherman. "If the Fayerwerses stick +anywhere, as they probably will, she'll hitch on to the Fargo's, and +turn up at Jerusalem. And then there are to be the Ledwiths, and +their 'little slice.'" +</p> +<p> +"O, dear! what a mess people do make of living!" said Asenath. +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus trudged along down Dorset Street with his stick under +his arm. +</p> +<p> +"Try 'em! Find 'em out!" he repeated to himself. "That's what +Marmaduke said. Try 'em with this,—try 'em with that; a good deal, +or a little; having and losing, and wanting. That's what the Lord +does with us all; and I begin to see He has a job of it!" +</p> +<p> +The house was sold, and Agatha and Florence went. +</p> +<p> +It made home dull for poor Desire, little as she found of real +companionship with her elder sisters. But then she was always +looking for it, and that was something. Husbands and wives, parents +and children, live on upon that, through years of repeated +disappointments, and never give up the expectation of that which is +somewhere, and which these relations represent to them, through all +their frustrated lives. +</p> +<p> +That is just why. It <i>is</i> somewhere. +</p> +<p> +It turned out a hard winter, in many ways, for Desire Ledwith. She +hated gay company, and the quiet little circle that she had become +fond of at her Aunt Ripwinkley's was broken somewhat to them all, +and more to Desire than, among what had grown to be her chronic +discontents, she realized or understood, by the going away for a +time of Kenneth Kincaid. +</p> +<p> +What was curious in the happening, too, he had gone up to "And" to +build a church. That had come about through the Marchbankses' +knowledge of him, and this, you remember, through their being with +the Geoffreys when the Kincaids were first introduced in Summit +Street. +</p> +<p> +The Marchbankses and the Geoffreys were cousins. A good many Boston +families are. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Roger Marchbanks owned a good deal of property in And. The +neighborhood wanted a church; and he interested himself actively and +liberally in behalf of it, and gave the land,—three lots right out +of the middle of Marchbanks Street, that ran down to the river. +</p> +<p> +Dorris kept her little room, and was neighborly as heretofore; but +she was busy with her music, and had little time but her evenings; +and now there was nobody to walk home with Desire to Shubarton +Place, if she stayed in Aspen Street to tea. She came sometimes, and +stayed all night; but that was dreary for Helena, who never +remembered to shut the piano or cover up the canary, or give the +plants in the bay window their evening sprinkle, after the furnace +heat had been drying them all day. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid came down for his Sundays with Dorris, and his work +at the Mission; a few times he called in at Uncle Oldways' after +tea, when the family was all together; but they saw him very seldom; +he gave those Sunday evenings mostly to needed rest, and to quiet +talk with Dorris. +</p> +<p> +Desire might have gone to the Mission this winter, easily enough, +after all. Agatha and Florence and Glossy Megilp were not by to make +wondering eyes, or smile significant smiles; but there was something +in herself that prevented; she knew that it would be more than half +to <i>get</i>, and she still thought she had so little to give! Besides, +Kenneth Kincaid had never asked her again, and she could not go to +him and say she would come. +</p> +<p> +Desire Ledwith began to have serious question of what life was ever +going to be for her. She imagined, as in our early years and our +first gray days we are all apt to imagine, that she had found out a +good deal that it was <i>not</i> going to be. +</p> +<p> +She was not going to be beautiful, or accomplished, or even, she was +afraid, agreeable; she found that such hard work with most people. +She was not ever—and that conclusion rested closely upon these +foregoing—to be married, and have a nice husband and a pretty +house, and go down stairs and make snow-puddings and ginger-snaps of +a morning, and have girls staying with her, and pleasant people in +to tea; like Asenath Scherman. She couldn't write a book,—that, +perhaps, was one of her premature decisions, since nobody knows till +they try, and the books are lying all round, in leaves, waiting only +to be picked up and put together,—or paint a picture; she couldn't +bear parties, and clothes were a fuss, and she didn't care to go to +Europe. +</p> +<p> +She thought she should rather like to be an old maid, if she could +begin right off, and have a little cottage out of town somewhere, or +some cosy rooms in the city. At least, she supposed that was what +she had got to be, and if that were settled, she did not see why it +might not be begun young, as well as married life. She could not +endure waiting, when a thing was to be done. +</p> +<p> +"Aunt Frances," she said one day, "I wish I had a place of my own. +What is the reason I can't? A girl can go in for Art, and set up a +studio; or she can go to Rome, and sculp, and study; she can learn +elocution, and read, whether people want to be read to or not; and +all that is Progress and Woman's Rights; why can't she set up a +<i>home</i>?" +</p> +<p> +"Because, I suppose, a house is not a home; and the beginning of a +home is just what she waits for. Meanwhile, if she has a father and +a mother, she would not put a slight on <i>their</i> home, or fail of her +share of the duty in it." +</p> +<p> +"But nobody would think I failed in my duty if I were going to be +married. I'm sure mamma would think I was doing it beautifully. And +I never shall be married. Why can't I live something out for myself, +and have a place of my own? I have got money enough to pay my rent, +and I could do sewing in a genteel way, or keep a school for little +children. I'd rather—take in back stairs to wash," she exclaimed +vehemently, "than wait round for things, and be nothing! And I +should like to begin young, while there might be some sort of fun in +it. You'd like to come and take tea with me, wouldn't you, Aunt +Frank?" +</p> +<p> +"If it were all right that you should have separate teas of your +own." +</p> +<p> +"And if I had waffles. Well, I should. I think, just now, there's +nothing I should like so much as a little kitchen of my own, and a +pie-board, and a biscuit-cutter, and a beautiful baking oven, and a +Japan tea-pot." +</p> +<p> +"The pretty part. But brooms, and pails, and wash-tubs, and the back +stairs?" +</p> +<p> +"I specified back stairs in the first place, of my own accord. I +wouldn't shirk. Sometimes I think that real good old-fashioned hard +work is what I do want. I should like to find the right, honest +thing, and do it, Aunt Frank." +</p> +<p> +She said it earnestly, and there were tears in her eyes. +</p> +<p> +"I believe you would," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "But perhaps the right, +honest thing, just now, is to wait patiently, with all your might." +</p> +<p> +"Now, that's good," said Desire, "and cute of you, too, that last +piece of a sentence. If you had stopped at '<i>patiently</i>,' as people +generally do! That's what exasperates; when you want to do something +with all your might. It almost seems as if I could, when you put it +so." +</p> +<p> +"It is a 'stump,' Luclarion would say." +</p> +<p> +"Luclarion is a saint and a philosopher. I feel better," said +Desire. +</p> +<p> +She stayed feeling better all that afternoon; she helped Sulie +Praile cut out little panels from her thick sheet of gray +painting-board, and contrived her a small easel with her round +lightstand and a book-rest; for Sulie was advancing in the fine +arts, from painting dollies' paper faces in cheap water colors, to +copying bits of flowers and fern and moss, with oils, on gray board; +and she was doing it very well, and with exquisite delight. +</p> +<p> +To wait, meant something to wait for; something coming by and by; +that was what comforted Desire to-day, as she walked home alone in +the sharp, short, winter twilight; that, and the being patient with +all one's might. To be patient, is to be also strong; this she saw, +newly; and Desire coveted, most of all, to be strong. +</p> +<p> +Something to wait for. "He does not cheat," said Desire, low down in +her heart, to herself. For the child had faith, though she could not +talk about it. +</p> +<p> +Something; but very likely not the thing you have seen, or dreamed +of; something quite different, it may be, when it comes; and it may +come by the way of losing, first, all that you have been able yet, +with a vague, whispering hope, to imagine. +</p> +<p> +The things we do not know! The things that are happening,—the +things that are coming; rising up in the eastward of our lives below +the horizon that we can yet see; it may be a star, it may be a +cloud! +</p> +<p> +Desire Ledwith could not see that out at Westover, this cheery +winter night, it was one of dear Miss Pennington's "Next Thursdays;" +she could not see that the young architect, living away over there +in the hundred-year-old house on the side of East Hill, a boarder +with old Miss Arabel Waite, had been found, and appreciated, and +drawn into their circle by the Haddens and the Penningtons and the +Holabirds and the Inglesides; and that Rosamond was showing him the +pleasant things in their Westover life,—her "swan's nest among the +reeds," that she had told him of,—that early autumn evening, when +they had walked up Hanley Street together. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0016"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XVI. +</h2> +<h3> + SWARMING. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Spring came on early, with heavy rains and freshets in many parts of +the country. +</p> +<p> +It was a busy time at Z——. +</p> +<p> +Two things had happened there that were to give Kenneth Kincaid more +work, and would keep him where he was all summer. +</p> +<p> +Just before he went to Z——, there had been a great fire at West +Hill. All Mr. Roger Marchbanks's beautiful place was desolate. +House, conservatories, stables, lovely little vine-covered rustic +buildings, exquisitely tended shrubbery,—all swept over in one +night by the red flames, and left lying in blackness and ashes. +</p> +<p> +For the winter, Mr. Marchbanks had taken his family to Boston; now +he was planning eagerly to rebuild. Kenneth had made sketches; Mr. +Marchbanks liked his ideas; they had talked together from time to +time. Now, the work was actually in hand, and Kenneth was busy with +drawings and specifications. +</p> +<p> +Down at the river, during the spring floods, a piece of the bridge +had been carried away, and the dam was broken through. There were +new mill buildings, too, going up, and a block of factory houses. +All this business, through Mr. Marchbanks directly or indirectly, +fell also into Kenneth's hands. +</p> +<p> +He wrote blithe letters to Dorris; and Dorris, running in and out +from her little spring cleanings that Hazel was helping her with, +told all the letters over to the Ripwinkleys. +</p> +<p> +"He says I must come up there in my summer vacation and board with +his dear old Miss Waite. Think of Kentie's being able to give me +such a treat as that! A lane, with ferns and birches, and the +woods,—<i>pine</i> woods!—and a hill where raspberries grow, and the +river!" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith was thinking of her summer plans at this time, also. +She remembered the large four-windowed room looking out over the +meadow, that Mrs. Megilp and Glossy had at Mrs. Prendible's, for +twelve dollars a week, in And. She could do no better than that, at +country boarding, anywhere; and Mr. Ledwith could sleep at the house +in Shubarton Place, getting his meals down town during the week, and +come up and spend his Sundays with them. A bedroom, in addition, for +six dollars more, would be all they would want. +</p> +<p> +The Ripwinkleys were going up to Homesworth by and by for a little +while, and would take Sulie Praile with them. Sulie was ecstatically +happy. She had never been out of the city in all her life. She felt, +she said, "as if she was going to heaven without dying." Vash was to +be left at Mrs. Scarup's with her sister. +</p> +<p> +Miss Craydocke would be away at the mountains; all the little life +that had gathered together in the Aspen Street neighborhood, seemed +about to be broken up. +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus Oldways never went out of town, unless on business. +Rachel Froke stayed, and kept his house; she sat in the gray room, +and thought over the summers she had had. +</p> +<p> +"Thee never loses anything out of thy life that has been in," she +said. "Summer times are like grains of musk; they keep their smell +always, and flavor the shut-up places they are put away in." +</p> +<p> +For you and me, reader, we are to go to Z—— again. I hope you like +it. +</p> +<p> +But before that, I must tell you what Luclarion Grapp has done. +</p> +<p> +Partly from the principle of her life, and partly from the spirit of +things which she would have caught at any rate, from the Ripwinkley +home and the Craydocke "Beehive,"—for there is nothing truer than +that the kingdom of heaven is like leaven,—I suppose she had been +secretly thinking for a good while, that she was having too easy a +time here, in her first floor kitchen and her garden bedroom; that +this was not the life meant for her to live right on, without +scruple or question; and so began in her own mind to expect some +sort of "stump;" and even to look about for it. +</p> +<p> +"It isn't as it was when Mrs. Ripwinkley was a widow, and +poor,—that is, comparative; and it took all her and my contrivance +to look after the place and keep things going, and paying, up in +Homesworth; there was something to buckle to, then; but now, +everything is eased and flatted out, as it were; it makes me +res'less, like a child put to bed in the daytime." +</p> +<p> +Luclarion went down to the North End with Miss Craydocke, on errands +of mercy; she went in to the new Mission, and saw the heavenly +beauty of its intent, and kindled up in her soul at it; and she came +home, time after time, and had thoughts of her own about these +things, and the work in the world there was to do. +</p> +<p> +She had cleaned up and set things going at Mrs. Scarup's; she +learned something in doing that, beyond what she knew when she set +about it; her thoughts began to shape themselves to a theory; and +the theory took to itself a text and a confirmation and a command. +</p> +<p> +"Go down and be a neighbor to them that have fallen among thieves." +</p> +<p> +Luclarion came to a resolution in this time of May, when everybody +was making plans and the spring-cleaning was all done. +</p> +<p> +She came to Mrs. Ripwinkley one morning, when she was folding away +winter clothes, and pinning them up in newspapers, with camphor-gum; +and she said to her, without a bit of preface,—Luclarion hated +prefaces,— +</p> +<p> +"Mrs. Ripwinkley, I'm going to swarm!" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley looked up in utter surprise; what else could she do? +</p> +<p> +"Of course 'm, when you set up a Beehive, you must have expected it; +it's the natural way of things; they ain't good for much unless they +do. I've thought it all over; I'll stay and see you all off, first, +if you want me to, and then—I'll swarm." +</p> +<p> +"Well," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, assenting in full faith, beforehand; +for Mrs. Ripwinkley, if I need now to tell you of it, was not an +ordinary woman, and did not take things in an ordinary selfish way, +but grasped right hold of the inward right and truth of them, and +believed in it; sometimes before she could quite see it; and she +never had any doubt of Luclarion Grapp. "Well! And now tell me all +about it." +</p> +<p> +"You see," said Luclarion, sitting down in a chair by the window, as +Mrs. Ripwinkley suspended her occupation and took one by the +bedside, "there's places in this town that folks leave and give up. +As the Lord might have left and give up the world, because there was +dirt and wickedness in it; only He didn't. There's places where it +ain't genteel, nor yet respectable, to live; and so those places +grow more disrespectable and miserable every day. They're left to +themselves. What I think is, they hadn't ought to be. There's one +clean spot down there now, in the very middle of the worst dirt. +And it ain't bad to live in. <i>That's</i> started. Now, what I think is, +that somebody ought to start another, even if its only a little one. +Somebody ought to just go there and <i>live</i>, and show 'em how, just +as I took and showed Mrs. Scarup, and she's been living ever since, +instead of scratching along. If some of them folks had a clean, +decent neighbor to go to see,—to drink tea with, say,—and was to +catch an idea of her fixings and doings, why, I believe there'd be +more of 'em,—cleaned up, you know. They'd get some kind of an +ambition and a hope. Tain't enough for ladies—though I bless 'em in +my soul for what I've seen 'em do—to come down there of a Fridays, +and teach and talk awhile, and then go home to Summit Street and +Republic Avenue, and take up <i>their</i> life again where they left it +off, that is just as different as heaven is from 'tother place; +somebody's got to come right down <i>out</i> of heaven, and bring the +life in, and live it amongst them miserable folks, as the Lord Jesus +Christ came and did! And it's borne in upon me, strong and clear, +that that's what's got to be before all's righted. And so—for a +little piece of it, and a little individual stump—I'm going to +swarm, and settle, and see what'll come." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley was looking very intently at Luclarion. Her breath +went and came hurriedly, and her face turned pale with the grand +surprise of such a thought, such a plan and purpose, so simply and +suddenly declared. Her eyes were large and moist with feeling. +</p> +<p> +"Do you <i>know</i>, Luclarion," she exclaimed at last, "do you realize +what this is that you are thinking of; what a step it would be to +take,—what a work it would be to even hope to begin to do? Do you +know how strange it is,—how almost impracticable,—that it is not +even safe?" +</p> +<p> +"'Twasn't <i>safe</i> for Him—when He came into the world," Luclarion +answered. +</p> +<p> +"Not to say I think there's any comparison," she began again, +presently, "or that I believe there's anything to be really scared +of,—except dirt; and you <i>can</i> clean a place round you, as them +Mission people have done. Why, there ain't a house in Boston nicer, +or sweeter, or airier even, than that one down in Arctic Street, +with beautiful parlors and bedrooms, and great clean galleries +leading round, and skylighted,—<i>sky</i> lighted! for you see the blue +heaven is above all, and you <i>can</i> let the skylight in, without any +corruption coming in with it; and if twenty people can do that much, +or a hundred,—one can do something. 'Taint much, either, to +undertake; only to be willing to go there, and make a clean place +for yourself, and a home; and live there, instead of somewheres else +that's ready made; and let it spread. And you know I've always +looked forrud to some kind of a house-keep of my own, finally." +</p> +<p> +"But, Luclarion, I don't understand! All alone? And you couldn't use +a whole house, you know. Your neighbors would be <i>inmates</i>. Why, it +seems to me perfectly crazy!" +</p> +<p> +"Now, ma'am, did you ever know me to go off on a tangent, without +some sort of a string to hold on to? I ain't goin' to swarm all +alone! I never heard of such a thing. Though if I couldn't <i>swarm</i>, +and the thing was to be done, I say I'd try it. But Savira Golding +is going to be married to Sam Gallilee, next month; and he's a +stevedore, and his work is down round the wharves; he's class-leader +in our church, and a first-rate, right-minded man, or else Savira +wouldn't have him; for if Savira ain't a clear Christian, and a +doing woman, there ain't one this side of Paradise. Now, you see, +Sam Gallilee makes money; he runs a gang of three hundred men. He +can afford a good house, and a whole one, if he wants; but he's +going in for a big one, and neighbors. They mean to live nice,—he +and Savira; and she has pretty, tasty ways; there'll be white +curtains, and plants blooming in her windows, you may make sure; +she's always had 'em in that little up-stairs dress-making room of +hers; and boxes of mignonette and petunias on the ledges; and birds +singing in a great summer cage swung out against the wall. She's one +of the kind that reaches out, and can't be kept in; and she knows +her gifts, and is willing to go and let her light shine where it +will help others, and so glorify; and Sam, he's willing too, and +sees the beauty of it. And so,—well, that's the swarm." +</p> +<p> +"And the 'little round Godamighty in the middle of it,'" said Mrs. +Ripwinkley, her face all bright and her eyes full of tears. +</p> +<p> +"<i>Ma'am!</i>" +</p> +<p> +Then Mrs. Ripwinkley told her Miss Craydocke's story. +</p> +<p> +"Well," said Luclarion, "there's something dear and +right-to-the-spot about it; but it does sound singular; and it +certainly ain't a thing to say careless." +</p> +<hr> +<p> +Desire Ledwith grew bright and excited as the summer came on, and +the time drew near for going to Z——. She could not help being +glad; she did not stop to ask why; summer-time was reason enough, +and after the weariness of the winter, the thought of Z—— and the +woods and the river, and sweet evenings and mornings, and gardens +and orchards, and road-side grass, was lovely to her. +</p> +<p> +"It is so pleasant up there!" she would keep saying to Dorris; and +somehow she said it to Dorris oftener than to anybody else. +</p> +<p> +There was something fitful and impetuous in her little outbursts of +satisfaction; they noticed it in her; the elder ones among them +noticed it with a touch of anxiety for her. +</p> +<p> +Miss Craydocke, especially, read the signs, matching them with +something that she remembered far back in the life that had closed +so peacefully, with white hairs and years of a serene content and +patience, over all unrest and disappointment, for herself. She was +sorry for this young girl, for whom she thought she saw an +unfulfilled dream of living that should go by her like some bright +cloud, just near enough to turn into a baptism of tears. +</p> +<p> +She asked Desire, one day, if she would not like to go with her, +this summer, to the mountains. +</p> +<p> +Desire put by the suggestion hastily. +</p> +<p> +"O, no, thank you, Miss Craydocke, I must stay with mamma and +Helena. And besides," she added, with the strict, full truth she +always demanded of herself, "I <i>want</i> to go to Z——." +</p> +<p> +"Yes," said Miss Craydocke. +</p> +<p> +There was something tender, like a shade of pity, in her tone. +</p> +<p> +"But you would enjoy the mountains. They are full of strength and +rest. One hardly understands the good the hills do one. David did, +looking out into them from Jerusalem. 'I will look to the hills, +from whence cometh my strength.'" +</p> +<p> +"Some time," said Desire. "Some time I shall need the hills, and—be +ready for them. But this summer—I want a good, gay, young time. I +don't know why, except that I shall be just eighteen this year, and +it seems as if, after that, I was going to be old. And I want to be +with people I know. I <i>can</i> be gay in the country; there is +something to be gay about. But I can't dress and dance in the city. +That is all gas-light and get-up." +</p> +<p> +"I suppose," said Miss Craydocke, slowly, "that our faces are all +set in the way we are to go. Even if it is—" She stopped. She was +thinking of one whose face had been set to go to Jerusalem. Her own +words had led her to something she had not foreseen when she began. +</p> +<p> +Nothing of such suggestion came to Desire. She was in one of her +rare moods of good cheer. +</p> +<p> +"I suppose so," she said, heedlessly. And then, taking up a thought +of her own suddenly,—"Miss Craydocke! Don't you think people almost +always live out their names? There's Sin Scherman; there'll always +be a little bit of mischief and original naughtiness in her,—with +the harm taken out of it; and there's Rosamond Holabird,—they +couldn't have called her anything better, if they'd waited for her +to grow up; and Barb <i>was</i> sharp; and our little Hazel is witchy and +sweet and wild-woodsy; and Luclarion,—isn't that shiny and +trumpety, and doesn't she do it? And then—there's me. I shall +always be stiff and hard and unsatisfied, except in little bits of +summer times that won't come often. They might as well have +christened me Anxiety. I wonder why they didn't." +</p> +<p> +"That would have been very different. There is a nobleness in +Desire. You will overlive the restless part," said Miss Craydocke. +</p> +<p> +"Was there ever anything restless in your life, Miss Craydocke? And +how long did it take to overlive it? It doesn't seem as if you had +ever stubbed your foot against anything; and I'm <i>always</i> stubbing." +</p> +<p> +"My dear, I have stubbed along through fifty-six years; and the +years had all three hundred and sixty-five days in them. There were +chances,—don't you think so?" +</p> +<p> +"It looks easy to be old after it is done," said Desire. "Easy and +comfortable. But to be eighteen, and to think of having to go on to +be fifty-six; I beg your pardon,—but I wish it was over!" +</p> +<p> +And she drew a deep breath, heavy with the days that were to be. +</p> +<p> +"You are not to take it all at once, you know," said Miss Craydocke. +</p> +<p> +"But I do, every now and then. I can't help it. I am sure it is the +name. If they had called me 'Hapsie,' like you, I should have gone +along jolly, as you do, and not minded. You see you have to <i>hear</i> +it all the time; and it tunes you up to its own key. You can't feel +like a Dolly, or a Daisy, when everybody says—De-sire!" +</p> +<p> +"I don't know how I came to be called 'Hapsie,'" said Miss +Craydocke. "Somebody who liked me took it up, and it seemed to get +fitted on. But that wasn't when I was young." +</p> +<p> +"What was it, then?" asked Desire, with a movement of interest. +</p> +<p> +"Keren-happuch," said Miss Craydocke, meekly. "My father named me, +and he always called me so,—the whole of it. He was a severe, +Old-Testament man, and <i>his</i> name was Job." +</p> +<p> +Desire was more than half right, after all. There was a good deal of +Miss Craydocke's story hinted in those few words and those two +ancient names. +</p> +<p> +"But I turned into 'Miss Craydocke' pretty soon, and settled down. I +suppose it was very natural that I should," said the sweet old maid, +serenely. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0017"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XVII. +</h2> +<h3> + QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +The evening train came in through the little bend in the edge of the +woods, and across the bridge over the pretty rapids, and slid to its +stopping-place under the high arches of the other bridge that +connected the main street of Z—— with its continuation through +"And." +</p> +<p> +There were lights twinkling in the shops, where they were making +change, and weighing out tea and sugar, and measuring calico, +although outside it was not yet quite dark. +</p> +<p> +The train was half an hour late; there had been a stoppage at some +draw or crossing near the city. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Prendible was there, to see if his lodgers were come, and to get +his evening paper; the platform was full of people. Old Z—— +acquaintances, many of them, whom Desire and her mother were +pleased, and Helena excited to see. +</p> +<p> +"There's Kenneth Kincaid!" she exclaimed, quite loudly, pulling +Desire's sleeve. +</p> +<p> +"Hush!" said Desire, twitching away. "How can you, Helena?" +</p> +<p> +"He's coming,—he heard me!" cried Helena, utterly impenitent. +</p> +<p> +"I should think he might!" And Desire walked off a little, to look +among the trunks that were being tumbled from the baggage car. +</p> +<p> +She had seen him all the time; he had been speaking to Ruth +Holabird, and helping her up the steps with her parcels. Mr. +Holabird was there with the little Westover carryall that they kept +now; and Kenneth put her in, and then turned round in time to hear +Helena's exclamation and to come down again. +</p> +<p> +"Can I help you? I'm very glad you are come," he said, cordially. +</p> +<p> +Well; he might have said it to anybody. Again, well; it was enough +to say to anybody. Why should Desire feel cross? +</p> +<p> +He took Helena's bag; she had a budget beside; Mr. Prendible +relieved Mrs. Ledwith; Desire held on valiantly to her own things. +Kenneth walked over the bridge with them, and down the street to Mr. +Prendible's door; there he bade them good-by and left them. +</p> +<p> +It was nice to be in Z——; it was very sweet here under the +blossoming elms and locusts; it was nice to see Kenneth Kincaid +again, and to think that Dorris was coming by and by, and that the +lanes were green and full of ferns and vines, and that there was to +be a whole long summer; but there were so many people down there on +the platform,—there was such a muss always; Ruth Holabird was a +dear little thing, but there were always so many Ruths about! and +there was only one cross, stiff, odd, uncomfortable Desire! +</p> +<p> +But the very next night Kenneth came down and stayed an hour; there +was a new moon glistening through the delicate elm-tips, and they +sat out on the piazza and breathed in such an air as they had not +had in their nostrils for months and months. +</p> +<p> +The faint, tender light from the golden west in which the new moon +lay, showed the roof and tower of the little church, Kenneth's first +beautiful work; and Kenneth told them how pleasant it was up at Miss +Arabel's, and of the tame squirrels that he fed at his window, and +of the shady pasture-path that led away over the brook from the +very door, and up among pines and into little still nooks where dry +mossy turf and warm gray rocks were sheltered in by scraggy cedars +and lisping birches, so that they were like field-parlors opening in +and out from each other with all sorts of little winding and +climbing passages, between clumps of bayberry bushes and tall ferns; +and that the girls from Z—— and Westover made morning picnics +there, since Lucilla Waters had grown intimate with Delia Waite and +found it out; and that Delia Waite and even Miss Arabel carried +their dressmaking down there sometimes in a big white basket, and +stayed all day under the trees. They had never used to do this; they +had stayed in the old back sitting room with all the litter round, +and never thought of it till those girls had come and showed them +how. +</p> +<p> +"I think there is the best and sweetest neighborliness and most +beautiful living here in Z——, that I ever knew in any place," said +Kenneth Kincaid; "except that little piece of the same thing in +Aspen Street." +</p> +<p> +Kenneth had found out how Rosamond Holabird recognized Aspen Street +as a piece of her world. +</p> +<p> +Desire hated, as he spoke, her spitefulness last night; what she had +said to herself of "so many Ruths;" why could not she not be pleased +to come into this beautiful living and make a little part of it? +</p> +<p> +She was pleased; she would be; she found it very easy when Kenneth +said to her in that frank intimate way,—"I wish you and your mother +would come over and see what Dorris will want, and help me a little +about that room of hers. I told Miss Waite not to bother; just to +let the old things stand,—I knew Dorris would like them,—and +anything else I would get for her myself. I mean Dolly shall take a +long vacation this year; from June right through to September; and +its 'no end of jolly,' as those English fellows say, that you have +come too!" +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid was fresher and pleasanter and younger himself, than +Desire had ever seen him before; he seemed to have forgotten that +hard way of looking at the world; he had found something so +undeniably good in it. I am afraid Desire had rather liked him for +his carping, which was what he least of all deserved to be liked +for. It showed how high and pure his demands were; but his praise +and admissions were better; it is always better to discern good than +to fret at the evil. +</p> +<p> +"I shall see you every day," he said, when he shook hands at +parting; "and Helena, if you want a squirrel to keep in your pocket +next winter, I'll begin training one for you at once." +</p> +<p> +He had taken them right to himself, as if they belonged to him; he +spoke as if he were very glad that he should see them every day. +</p> +<p> +Desire whistled over her unpacking; she could not sing, but she +could whistle like a blackbird. When her father came up on Saturday +night, he said that her eyes were brighter and her cheeks were +rounder, for the country air; she would take to growing pretty +instead of strong-minded, if she didn't look out. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth came round on Monday, after tea, to ask them to go over to +Miss Waite's and make acquaintance. +</p> +<p> +"For you see," he said, "you will have to be very intimate there, +and it is time to begin. It will take one call to be introduced, and +another, at least, to get up-stairs and see that beautiful breezy +old room that can't be lived in in winter, but is to be a delicious +sort of camping-out for Dolly, all summer. It is all windows and +squirrel-holes and doors that won't shut. Everything comes in but +the rain; but the roof is tight on that corner. Even the woodbine +has got tossed in through a broken upper pane, and I wouldn't have +it mended on any account. There are swallows' nests in the chimneys, +and wrens under the gable, and humming-birds in the honeysuckle. +When Dolly gets there, it will be perfect. It just wants her to take +it all right into her heart and make one piece of it. <i>They</i> don't +know,—the birds and the squirrels,—it takes the human. There has +to be an Adam in every garden of Eden." +</p> +<p> +Kenneth really chattered, from pure content and delight. +</p> +<p> +It did not take two visits to get up-stairs. Miss Arabel met them +heartily. She had been a shy, timid old lady, from long neglect and +humble living; but lately she had "come out in society," Delia said. +Society had come after her, and convinced her that she could make +good times for it. +</p> +<p> +She brought out currant wine and gave them, the first thing; and +when Kenneth told her that they were his and Dorris's friends, and +were coming next week to see about getting ready for her, she took +them right round through all four of the ground rooms, to the queer +corner staircase, and up into the "long west chamber," to show them +what a rackety old place it was, and to see whether they supposed it +could be made fit. +</p> +<p> +"Why it's like the Romance of the Forest!" said Helena, delighted. +"I wish <i>we</i> had come here. Don't you have ghosts, or robbers, or +something, up and down those stairs, Miss Waite?" For she had spied +a door that led directly out of the room, from beside the chimney, +up into the rambling old garret, smelling of pine boards and +penny-royal. +</p> +<p> +"No; nothing but squirrels and bees, and sometimes a bat," answered +Miss Arabel. +</p> +<p> +"Well, it doesn't want fixing. If you fix it, you will spoil it. I +shall come here and sleep with Dorris,—see if I don't." +</p> +<p> +The floor was bare, painted a dark, marbled gray. In the middle was +a great braided rug, of blue and scarlet and black. The walls were +pale gray, with a queer, stencilled scroll-and-dash border of +vermilion and black paint. +</p> +<p> +There was an old, high bedstead, with carved frame and posts, bare +of drapery; an antiquated chest of drawers; and a half-circular +table with tall, plain, narrow legs, between two of the windows. +There was a corner cupboard, and a cupboard over the chimney. The +doors of these, and the high wainscot around the room, were stained +in old-fashioned "imitation mahogany," very streaky and red. The +wainscot was so heavily finished that the edge running around the +room might answer for a shelf. +</p> +<p> +"Just curtains, and toilet covers, and a little low rocking chair," +said Mrs. Ledwith. "That is all you want." +</p> +<p> +"But the windows are so high," suggested Desire. "A low chair would +bury her up, away from all the pleasantness. I'll tell you what I +would have, Mr. Kincaid. A kind of dais, right across that corner, +to take in two windows; with a carpet on it, and a chair, and a +little table." +</p> +<p> +"Just the thing!" said Kenneth. "That is what I wanted you for, Miss +Desire," he said in a pleased, gentle way, lowering his tone to her +especial hearing, as he stood beside her in the window. +</p> +<p> +And Desire was very happy to have thought of it. +</p> +<p> +Helena was spurred by emulation to suggest something. +</p> +<p> +"I'd have a—hammock—somewhere," she said. +</p> +<p> +"Good," said Kenneth. "That shall be out under the great butternut." +</p> +<p> +The great butternut walled in one of the windows with a wilderness +of green, and the squirrels ran chattering up and down the brown +branches, and peeping in all day. In the autumn, when the nuts were +ripe, they would be scrambling over the roof, and in under the +eaves, to hide their stores in the garret, Miss Arabel told them. +</p> +<p> +"Why doesn't everbody have an old house, and let the squirrels in?" +cried Helena, in a rapture. +</p> +<p> +In ten days more,—the first week of June,—Dorris came. +</p> +<p> +Well,—"That let in all the rest," Helena said, and Desire, may be, +thought. "We shan't have it to ourselves any more." +</p> +<p> +The girls could all come down and call on Dorris Kincaid, and they +did. +</p> +<p> +But Desire and Helena had the first of it; nobody else went right up +into her room; nobody else helped her unpack and settle. And she was +so delighted with all that they had done for her. +</p> +<p> +The dais was large enough for two or three to sit upon at once, and +it was covered with green carpet of a small, mossy pattern, and the +window was open into the butternut on one side, and into the +honeysuckle on the other, and it was really a bower. +</p> +<p> +"I shall live ten hours in one," said Dorris. +</p> +<p> +"And you'll let me come and sleep with you some night, and hear the +bats," said Helena. +</p> +<p> +The Ledwiths made a good link; they had known the Kincaids so well; +if it had been only Dorris, alone, with her brother there, the +Westover girls might have been shy of coming often. Since Kenneth +had been at Miss Waite's, they had already grown a little less free +of the beautiful woods that they had just found out and begun fairly +to enjoy last autumn. +</p> +<p> +But the Ledwiths made a strong party; and they lived close by; +there were plans continually. +</p> +<p> +Since Leslie Goldthwaite and Barbara Holabird were married and gone, +and the Roger Marchbankses were burned out, and had been living in +the city and travelling, the Hobarts and the Haddens and Ruth and +Rosamond and Pen Pennington had kept less to their immediate +Westover neighborhood than ever; and had come down to Lucilla's, and +to Maddy Freeman's, and the Inglesides, as often as they had induced +them to go up to the Hill. +</p> +<p> +Maud Marchbanks and the Hendees were civil and neighborly enough at +home, but they did not care to "ramify." So it came to pass that +they were left a good deal to themselves. Olivia and Adelaide, when +they came up to Westover, to their uncle's, wondered "that papa +cared to build again; there really wasn't anything to come for; West +Hill was entirely changed." +</p> +<p> +So it was; and a very good thing. +</p> +<p> +I came across the other day, reading over Mr. Kingsley's "Two Years +Ago," a true word as to social needs in England, that reminded me of +this that the Holabirds and the Penningtons and the Inglesides have +been doing, half unconsciously, led on from "next" to next, in +Z——. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Kingsley, after describing a Miss Heale, and others of her +class,—the middle class, with no high social opportunities, and +with time upon their hands, wasted often in false dreams of life and +unsatisfied expectations, "bewildering heart and brain with novels," +for want of a nobler companionship, says this: "Till in country +villages, the ladies who interest themselves about the poor will +recollect that the farmers' and tradesmens' daughters are just as +much in want of their influence as the charity children and will +yield a far richer return for their labor, so long will England be +full of Miss Heales." +</p> +<p> +If a kindly influence and fellowship are the duty of the +aristocratic girls of England toward their "next," below, how far +more false are American girls to the spirit of their country, and +the blessed opportunities of republican sympathies and equalities, +when they try to draw invisible lines between themselves and those +whose outer station differs by but so little, and whose hearts and +minds, under the like culture with their own, crave, just as they +do, the best that human intercourse can give. Social science has +something to do, before—or at least simultaneously with—reaching +down to the depths where all the wrongs and blunders and +mismanagements of life have precipitated their foul residuum. A +master of one of our public schools, speaking of the undue culture +of the brain and imagination, in proportion to the opportunities +offered socially for living out ideas thus crudely gathered, said +that his brightest girls were the ones who in after years, impatient +of the little life gave them to satisfy the capacities and demands +aroused and developed during the brief period of school life, and +fed afterwards by their own ill-judged and ill-regulated reading, +were found fallen into lives of vice. Have our women, old or young, +who make and circumscribe the opportunities of social intercourse +and enjoyment, nothing to search out here, and help, as well, or as +soon as, to get their names put on committee lists, and manage these +public schools themselves, which educate and stimulate up to the +point of possible fierce temptation, and then have nothing more that +they can do? +</p> +<p> +It was a good thing for Desire Ledwith to grow intimate, as she did, +with Rosamond Holabird. There were identical points of character +between the two. They were both so real. +</p> +<p> +"You don't want to <i>play</i> anything," Barbara Holabird had said to +Rosamond once, in some little discussion of social appearances and +pretensions. "And that's the beauty of you!" +</p> +<p> +It was the beauty of Desire Ledwith also; only, with Rosamond, her +ambitions had clothed themselves with a grace and delicateness that +would have their own perfect and thorough as far as it went; and +with Desire, the same demands of true living had chafed into an +impatience with shams and a blunt disregard of and resistance to all +conventionalisms. +</p> +<p> +"You are a good deal alike, you two," Kenneth Kincaid said to them +one day, in a talk they all three happened to have together. +</p> +<p> +And he had told Rosamond afterward that there was "something grand +in Desire Ledwith; only grand things almost always have to grow with +struggles." +</p> +<p> +Rosamond had told this again to Desire. +</p> +<p> +It was not much wonder that she began to be happier; to have a +hidden comfort of feeling that perhaps the "waiting with all her +might" was nearly over, and the "by and by" was blossoming for her, +though the green leaves of her own shy sternness with herself folded +close down about the sweetening place, and she never parted them +aside to see where the fragrance came from. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +They were going to have a grand, large, beautiful supper party in +the woods. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Holabird and Mrs. Hobart were the matrons, and gave out the +invitations. +</p> +<p> +"I don't think I could possibly spend a Tuesday afternoon with a +little 't,'" said Mrs. Lewis Marchbanks laughing, and tossing down +poor, dear, good Mrs. Hobart's note upon her table. "It is <i>rather</i> +more than is to be expected!" +</p> +<p> +"Doctor and Mrs. Hautayne are here, and Dakie Thayne is home from +West Point. It will be rather a nice party." +</p> +<p> +"The Holabirds seem to have got everything into their own hands," +said Mrs. Marchbanks, haughtily. "It is always a pity when people +take the lead who are not exactly qualified. Mrs. Holabird <i>will</i> +not discriminate!' +</p> +<p> +"I think the Holabirds are splendid," spoke up Lily, "and I don't +think there's any fun in sticking up by ourselves! I can't bear to +be judicious!" +</p> +<p> +Poor little Lily Marchbanks had been told a tiresome many times that +she must be "judicious" in her intimacies. +</p> +<p> +"You can be <i>pleasant</i> to everybody," said mother and elder sister, +with a salvo of Christian benignity. +</p> +<p> +But it is so hard for little children to be pleasant with fence and +limitation. +</p> +<p> +"Where must I stop?" Lily had asked in her simplicity. "When they +give me a piece of their luncheon, or when they walk home from +school, or when they say they will come in a little while?" +</p> +<p> +But there came a message back from Boston by the eleven o'clock +train on the morning of the Tuesday with a little "t," from Mr. +Marchbanks himself, to say that his brother and Mr. Geoffrey would +come up with him to dinner, and to desire that carriages might be +ready afterward for the drive over to Waite's grove. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Marchbanks marveled, but gave her orders. Arthur came out +early, and brought with him his friend Archie Mucklegrand, and these +two were bound also for the merry-making. +</p> +<p> +Now Archie Mucklegrand was the identical youth of the lavender +pantaloons and the waxed moustache, whom Desire, as "Miss Ledwith," +had received in state a year and a half ago. +</p> +<p> +So it was an imposing cavalcade, after all, from West Hill, that +honored the very indiscriminate pleasure party, and came riding and +driving in at about six o'clock. There were the barouche and the +coupé; for the ladies and elder gentlemen, and the two young men +accompanied them on horseback. +</p> +<p> +Archie Mucklegrand had been at West Hill often before. He and +Arthur had just graduated at Harvard, and the Holabirds had had +cards to their grand spread on Class Day. Archie Mucklegrand had +found out what a pretty girl—and a good deal more than merely +pretty—Rosamond Holabird was; and although he might any day go +over to his big, wild Highland estate, and take upon himself the +glory of "Sir Archibald" there among the hills and moors,—and +though any one of a good many pretty girls in Spreadsplendid Park +and Republic Avenue might be induced, perhaps, if he tried, to go +with him,—all this did not hinder him from perceiving that up +here in Z—— was just the most bewitching companionship he had +ever fallen in with, or might ever be able to choose for himself +for any going or abiding; that Rosamond Holabird was just the +brightest, and sweetest, and most to his mind of any girl that he +had ever seen, and most like "the woman" that a man might dream +of. I do not know that he quite said it all to himself in +precisely that way; I am pretty sure that he did not, as yet; but +whatever is off-hand and young-mannish and modern enough to +express to one's self without "sposhiness" an admiration and a +preference like that, he undoubtedly did say. At any rate after +his Christmas at Z—— with Arthur, and some charade parties they +had then at Westover, and after Class Day, when everybody had been +furious to get an introduction, and all the Spreadsplendid girls +and their mothers had been wondering who that Miss Holabird was +and where she came from, and Madam Mucklegrand herself—not having +the slightest recollection of her as the Miss Holabird of that +early-morning business call, whose name she had just glanced at +and dropped into an Indian china scrap-jar before she went +down-stairs—had asked him the same questions, and pronounced that +she was "an exceedingly graceful little person, certainly,"—after +all this, Archie had made up his—mind, shall I say? at least his +inclination, and his moustache—to pursue the acquaintance, and be +as irresistible as he could. +</p> +<p> +But Rosamond had learned—things do so play into our lives in a +benign order—just before that Christmas time and those charades, in +one of which Archie Mucklegrand had sung to her, so expressively, +the "Birks of Aberfeldy,"—that Spreadsplendid Park was not, at +least his corner of it,—a "piece of her world;" and she did not +believe that Aberfeldy would be, either, though Archie's voice was +beautiful, and— +</p> +<p class="note2"> + "Bonnie lassie, will ye go?" +</p> +<p class="noindent"> +sounded very enticing—in a charade. +</p> +<p> +So she was quite calm when the Marchbanks party came upon the +ground, and Archie Mucklegrand, with white trousers and a lavender +tie, and the trim, waxed moustache, looking very handsome in spite +of his dapperness, found her out in the first two minutes, and +attached himself to her forthwith in a most undetachable and +determined manner, which was his way of being irresistible. +</p> +<p> +They were in the midst of their tea and coffee when the West Hill +party came. Miss Arabel was busy at the coffee-table between the two +oaks, pouring out with all her might, and creaming the fragrant cups +with a rich lavishness that seemed to speak of milky mothers without +number or limit of supply; and Rosamond, as the most natural and +hospitable thing to do, conducted the young gentleman as soon as she +could to that lady, and commended him to her good offices. +</p> +<p> +These were not to be resisted; and as soon as he was occupied, +Rosamond turned to attend to others coming up; and the groups +shifting, she found herself presently a little way off, and +meanwhile Mrs. Marchbanks and her son had reached the table and +joined Archie. +</p> +<p> +"I say, Arthur! O, Mrs. Marchbanks! You never got such coffee as +this, I do believe! The open air has done something to it, or else +the cream comes from some supernal cows! Miss Holabird!" +</p> +<p> +Rosamond turned round. +</p> +<p> +"I don't see,—Mrs. Marchbanks ought to have some of this coffee, +but where is your good woman gone?" For Miss Arabel had stepped +round behind the oak-tree for a moment, to see about some +replenishing. +</p> +<p> +In her prim, plain dress, utterly innocent of style or <i>bias</i>, and +her zealous ministry, good Miss Arabel might easily be taken for +some comfortable, superior old servant; but partly from a sudden +sense of fun,—Mrs. Marchbanks standing there in all her elegant +dignity,—and partly from a jealous chivalry of friendship, Rosamond +would not let it pass so. +</p> +<p> +"Good woman? Hush! she is one of our hostesses, the owner of the +ground, and a dear friend of mine. Here she is. Miss Waite, let me +introduce Mr. Archibald Mucklegrand. Mrs. Marchbanks will like some +coffee, please." +</p> +<p> +Which Mrs. Marchbanks took with a certain look of amazement, that +showed itself subtilely in a slight straightening of the lips and an +expansion of the nostrils. She did not <i>sniff</i>; she was a great deal +too much a lady; she was Mrs. Marchbanks, but if she had been Mrs. +Higgin, and had felt just so, she would have sniffed. +</p> +<p> +Somebody came up close to Rosamond on the other side. +</p> +<p> +"That was good," said Kenneth Kincaid. "Thank you for that, Miss +Rosamond." +</p> +<p> +"Will you have some more?" asked Rosamond, cunningly, pretending to +misunderstand, and reaching her hand to take his empty cup. +</p> +<p> +"One mustn't ask for all one would like," said Kenneth, +relinquishing the cup, and looking straight in her eyes. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond's eyes fell; she had no rejoinder ready; it was very well +that she had the cup to take care of, and could turn away, for she +felt a very foolish color coming up in her face. +</p> +<p> +She made herself very busy among the guests. Archie Mucklegrand +stayed by, and spoke to her every time he found a chance. At last, +when people had nearly done eating and drinking, he asked her if she +would not show him the path down to the river. +</p> +<p> +"It must be beautiful down there under the slope," he said. +</p> +<p> +She called Dorris and Desire, then, and Oswald Megilp, who was with +them. He was spending a little time here at the Prendibles, with his +boat on the river, as he had used to do. When he could take an +absolute vacation, he was going away with a pedestrian party, among +the mountains. There was not much in poor Oswald Megilp, but Desire +and Rosamond were kind to him now that his mother was away. +</p> +<p> +As they all walked down the bank among the close evergreens, they +met Mr. Geoffrey and Mr. Marchbanks, with Kenneth Kincaid, coming +up. Kenneth came last, and the two parties passed each other single +file, in the narrow pathway. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth paused as he came close to Rosamond, holding back a bough +for her. +</p> +<p> +"I have something very nice to tell you," he whispered, "by and by. +But it is a secret, as yet. Please don't stay down there very long." +</p> +<p> +Nobody heard the whisper but Rosamond; if they could have done so, +he would not have whispered. Archie Mucklegrand was walking rather +sulkily along before; he had not cared for a party to be made up +when he asked Rosamond to go down to the river with him. Desire and +Dorris had found some strange blossom among the underbrush, and were +stopping for it; and Oswald Megilp was behind them. For a few +seconds, Kenneth had Rosamond quite to himself. +</p> +<p> +The slight delay had increased the separation between her and Archie +Mucklegrand, for he had kept steadily on in his little huff. +</p> +<p> +"I do not think we shall be long," said Rosamond, glancing after +him, and looking up, with her eyes bright. She was half merry with +mischief, and half glad with a quieter, deeper pleasure, at +Kenneth's words. +</p> +<p> +He would tell her something in confidence; something that he was +glad of; he wanted her to know it while it was yet a secret; she had +not the least guess what it could be; but it was very "nice" +already. Rosamond always did rather like to be told things first; to +have her friends confide in and consult with her, and rely upon her +sympathy; she did not stop to separate the old feeling which she was +quite aware of in herself, from something new that made it +especially beautiful that Kenneth Kincaid should so confide and +rely. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond was likely to have more told her to-night than she quite +dreamed of. +</p> +<p> +"Desire!" +</p> +<p> +They heard Mrs. Ledwith's voice far back among the trees. +</p> +<p> +Desire answered. +</p> +<p> +"I want you, dear!" +</p> +<p> +"Something about shawls and baskets, I suppose," said Desire, +turning round, perhaps a little the more readily that Kenneth was +beside her now, going back also. +</p> +<p> +Dorris and Oswald Megilp, finding there was a move to return, and +being behind Desire in the pathway, turned also, as people will who +have no especial motive for going one way rather than another; and +so it happened that after all Rosamond and Archie Mucklegrand walked +on down the bank to the river together, by themselves. +</p> +<p> +Archie's good humor returned quickly. +</p> +<p> +"I am glad they are gone; it was such a fuss having so many," he +said. +</p> +<p> +"We shall have to go back directly; they are beginning to break up," +said Rosamond. +</p> +<p> +And then, coming out to the opening by the water, she began to talk +rather fast about the prettiness of the view, and to point out the +bridge, and the mills, and the shadow of East Hill upon the water, +and the curve of the opposite shore, and the dip of the shrubs and +their arched reflections. She seemed quite determined to have all +the talk to herself. +</p> +<p> +Archie Mucklegrand played with his stick, and twisted the end of +his moustache. Men never ought to allow themselves to learn that +trick. It always comes back upon them when it makes them look most +foolish. +</p> +<p> +Archie said nothing, because there was so much he wanted to say, and +he did not know how to begin. +</p> +<p> +He knew his mother and sister would not like it,—as long as they +could help it, certainly,—therefore he had suddenly made up his +mind that there should be no such interval. He could do as he +pleased; was he not Sir Archibald? And there was his Boston +grandfather's property, too, of which a large share had been left +outright to him; and he had been twenty-one these six months. There +was nothing to hinder; and he meant to tell Rosamond Holabird that +he liked her better than any other girl in the world. Somebody else +would be telling her so, if he didn't; he could see how they all +came round her; perhaps it might be that tall, quiet, cheeky looking +fellow,—that Kincaid. He would be before him, at any rate. +</p> +<p> +So he stood and twisted his moustache, and said nothing,—nothing, I +mean, except mere little words of assent and echo to Rosamond's +chatter about the pretty view. +</p> +<p> +At last,—"You are fond of scenery, Miss Holabird?" +</p> +<p> +Rosamond laughed. +</p> +<p> +"O yes, I suppose I am; but we don't call this scenery. It is just +pleasantness,—beauty. I don't think I quite like the word +'scenery.' It seems artificial,—got up for outside effect. And the +most beautiful things do not speak from the outside, do they? I +never travelled, Mr. Mucklegrand. I have just lived here, until I +have lived <i>into</i> things, or they into me. I rather think it is +travelling, skimming about the world in a hurry, that makes people +talk about 'scenery.' Isn't it?" +</p> +<p> +"I dare say. I don't care for skimming, myself. But I like to go to +nice places, and stay long enough to get into them, as you say. I +mean to go to Scotland next year. I've a place there among the hills +and lochs, Miss Rosamond." +</p> +<p> +"Yes. I have heard so. I should think you would wish to go and see +it." +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you what I wish, Miss Holabird!" he said suddenly, +letting go his moustache, and turning round with sufficient +manfulness, and facing her. "I suppose there is a more gradual and +elegant way of saying it; but I believe straightforward is as good +as any. I wish you cared for me as I care for you, and then you +would go with me." +</p> +<p> +Rosamond was utterly confounded. She had not imagined that it could +be hurled at her, this fashion; she thought she could parry and put +aside, if she saw anything coming. She was bewildered and breathless +with the shock of it; she could only blindly, and in very foolish +words, hurl it back. +</p> +<p> +"O, dear, no!" she exclaimed, her face crimson. "I mean—I don't—I +couldn't! I beg your pardon, Mr. Mucklegrand; you are very good; I +am very sorry; but I wish you hadn't said so. We had better go +back." +</p> +<p> +"No," said Archie Mucklegrand, "not yet. I've said it now. I said it +like a moon calf, but I mean it like a man. Won't you—can't you—be +my wife, Rosamond? I must know that." +</p> +<p> +"No, Mr. Mucklegrand," answered Rosamond, quite steadily now and +gently. "I could not be. We were never meant for each other. You +will think so yourself next year,—by the time you go to Scotland." +</p> +<p> +"I shall never think so." +</p> +<p> +Of course he said that; young men always do; they mean it at the +moment, and nothing can persuade them otherwise. +</p> +<p> +"I told you I had lived right here, and grown into these things, and +they into me," said Rosamond, with a sweet slow earnestness, as if +she thought out while she explained it; and so she did; for the +thought and meaning of her life dawned upon her with a new +perception, as she stood at this point and crisis of it in the +responsibility of her young womanhood. "And these, and all the +things that have influenced me, have given my life its direction; +and I can see clearly that it was never meant to be your way. I do +not know what it will be; but I know yours is different. It would be +wrenching mine to turn it so." +</p> +<p> +"But I would turn mine for you," said Archie. +</p> +<p> +"You couldn't. Lives <i>grow</i> together. They join beforehand, if they +join at all. You like me, perhaps,—just what you see of me; but you +do not know me, nor I you. If it—this—were meant, we should." +</p> +<p> +"Should what?" +</p> +<p> +"Know. Be sure." +</p> +<p> +"I am sure of what I told you." +</p> +<p> +"And I thank you very much; but I do not—I never could—belong to +you." +</p> +<p> +What made Rosamond so wise about knowing and belonging? +</p> +<p> +She could not tell, herself; she had never thought it out before; +but she seemed to see it very clearly now. She did not belong to +Archie Mucklegrand, nor he to her; he was mistaken; their lives had +no join; to make them join would be a force, a wrenching. +</p> +<p> +Archie Mucklegrand did not care to have it put on such deep ground. +He liked Rosamond; he wanted her to like him; then they should be +married, of coarse, and go to Scotland, and have a good time; but +this quiet philosophy cooled him somewhat. As they walked up the +bank together, he wondered at himself a little that he did not feel +worse about it. If she had been coquettish, or perverse, she might +have been all the more bewitching to him. If he had thought she +liked somebody else better, he might have been furiously jealous; +but "her way of liking a fellow would be a slow kind of a way, after +all." That was the gist of his thought about it; and I believe that +to many very young men, at the age of waxed moustaches and German +dancing, that "slow kind of a way" in a girl is the best possible +insurance against any lasting damage that their own enthusiasm might +suffer. +</p> +<p> +He had not been contemptible in the offering of his love; his best +had come out at that moment; if it does not come out then, +somehow,—through face and tone, in some plain earnestness or simple +nobleness, if not in fashion of the spoken word as very well it may +not,—it must be small best that the man has in him. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond's simple saying of the truth, as it looked to her in that +moment of sure insight, was the best help she could have given him. +Truth is always the best help. He did not exactly understand the +wherefore, as she understood it; but the truth touched him +nevertheless, in the way that he could perceive. They did not +"belong" to each other. +</p> +<p> +And riding down in the late train that evening, Archie Mucklegrand +said to himself, drawing a long breath,—"It would have been an +awful tough little joke, after all, telling it to the old lady!" +</p> +<p> +"Are you too tired to walk home?" Kenneth Kincaid asked of Rosamond, +helping her put the baskets in the carriage. +</p> +<p> +Dakie Thayne had asked Ruth the same question five minutes before, +and they two had gone on already. Are girls ever too tired to walk +home after a picnic, when the best of the picnic is going to walk +home with them? Of course Rosamond was not too tired; and Mrs. +Holabird had the carryall quite to herself and her baskets. +</p> +<p> +They took the River Road, that was shady all the way, and sweet now +with the dropping scents of evening; it was a little longer, too, I +think, though that is one of the local questions that have never yet +been fully decided. +</p> +<p> +"How far does Miss Waite's ground run along the river?" asked +Kenneth, taking Rosamond's shawl over his arm. +</p> +<p> +"Not far; it only just touches; it runs back and broadens toward the +Old Turnpike. The best of it is in those woods and pastures." +</p> +<p> +"So I thought. And the pastures are pretty much run out." +</p> +<p> +"I suppose so. They are full of that lovely gray crackling moss." +</p> +<p> +"Lovely for picnics. Don't you think Miss Waite would like to sell?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes, indeed, if she could. That is her dream; what she has been +laying up for her old age: to turn the acres into dollars, and build +or buy a little cottage, and settle down safe. It is all she has in +the world, except her dressmaking." +</p> +<p> +"Mr. Geoffrey and Mr. Marchbanks want to buy. They will offer her +sixteen thousand dollars. That is the secret,—part of it." +</p> +<p> +"O, Mr. Kincaid! How glad,—how <i>sorry</i>, I can't help being, too! +Miss Waite to be so comfortable! And never to have her dear old +woods to picnic in any more! I suppose they want to make streets +and build it all up." +</p> +<p> +"Not all. I'll tell you. It is a beautiful plan. Mr. Geoffrey wants +to build a street of twenty houses,—ten on a side,—with just a +little garden plot for each, and leave the woods behind for a piece +of nature for the general good,—a real Union Park; a place for +children to play in, and grown folks to rest and walk and take tea +in, if they choose; but for nobody to change or meddle with any +further. And these twenty houses to be let to respectable persons of +small means, at rents that will give him seven per cent, for his +whole outlay. Don't you see? Young people, and people like Miss +Waite herself, who don't want <i>much</i> house-room, but who want it +nice and comfortable, and will keep it so, and who <i>do</i> want a +little of God's world-room to grow in, that they can't get in the +crowded town streets, where the land is selling by the foot to be +all built over with human packing-cases, and where they have to pay +as much for being shut up and smothered, as they will out here to +live and breathe. That Mr. Geoffrey is a glorious man, Rosamond! He +is doing just this same thing in the edges of three or four other +towns, buying up the land just before it gets too dear, to save for +people who could not save it for themselves. He is providing for a +class that nobody seems to have thought of,—the nice, narrow-pursed +people, and the young beginners, who get married and take the world +in the old-fashioned way." +</p> +<p> +He had no idea he had called her "Rosamond," till he saw the color +shining up so in her face verifying the name. Then it flashed out +upon him as he sent his thought back through the last few sentences +that he had spoken. +</p> +<p> +"I beg your pardon," he said, suddenly. "But I was so full of this +beautiful doing,—and I always think of you so! Is there a sin in +that?" +</p> +<p> +Rosamond colored deeper yet, and Kenneth grew more bold. He had +spoken it without plan; it had come of itself. +</p> +<p> +"I can't help it now. I shall say it again, unless you tell me not! +Rosamond! I shall have these houses to build. I am getting ever so +much to do. Could you begin the world with me, Rosamond?" +</p> +<p> +Rosamond did not say a word for a full minute. She only walked +slowly by his side, her beautiful head inclined gently, shyly; her +sweet face all one bloom, as faces never bloom but once. +</p> +<p> +Then she turned toward him and put out her hand. +</p> +<p> +"I will begin the world with you," she said. +</p> +<p> +And their world—that was begun for them before they were +born—lifted up its veil and showed itself to them, bright in the +eternal morning. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +Desire Ledwith walked home all alone. She left Dorris at Miss +Waite's, and Helena had teased to stay with her. Mrs. Ledwith had +gone home among the first, taking a seat offered her in Mrs. Tom +Friske's carriage to East Square; she had a headache, and was tired. +</p> +<p> +Desire felt the old, miserable questions coming up, tempting her. +</p> +<p> +Why? +</p> +<p> +Why was she left out,—forgotten? Why was there nothing, very much, +in any of this, for her? +</p> +<p> +Yet underneath the doubting and accusing, something lived—stayed +by—to rebuke it; rose up above it finally, and put it down, though +with a thrust that hurt the heart in which the doubt was trampled. +</p> +<p> +Wait. Wait—with all your might! +</p> +<p> +Desire could do nothing very meekly; but she could even <i>wait</i> with +all her might. She put her foot down with a will, at every step. +</p> +<p> +"I was put here to be Desire Ledwith," she said, relentlessly, to +herself; "not Rosamond Holabird, nor even Dolly. Well, I suppose I +can stay put, and <i>be</i>! If things would only <i>let</i> me be!" +</p> +<p> +But they will not. Things never do, Desire. +</p> +<p> +They are coming, now, upon you. Hard things,—and all at once. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0018"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XVIII. +</h2> +<h3> + ALL AT ONCE. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +There was a Monday morning train going down from Z——. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Ledwith and Kenneth Kincaid were in it, reading the morning +papers, seated side by side. +</p> +<p> +It was nearly a week since the picnic, but the engagement of +Rosamond and Kenneth had not transpired. Mr. Holabird had been away +in New York. Of course nothing was said beyond Mrs. Holabird and +Ruth and Dolly Kincaid, until his return. But Kenneth carried a +happy face about with him, in the streets and in the cars and about +his work; and his speech was quick and bright with the men he met +and had need to speak to. It almost told itself; people might have +guessed it, if they had happened, at least to see the <i>two</i> faces in +the same day, and if they were alive to sympathetic impressions of +other people's pain or joy. There are not many who stop to piece +expressions, from pure sympathy, however; they are, for the most +part, too busy putting this and that together for themselves. +</p> +<p> +Desire would have guessed it in a minute; but she saw little of +either in this week. Mrs. Ledwith was not well, and there was a +dress to be made for Helena. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid's elder men friends said of him, when they saw him +in these days, "That's a fine fellow; he is doing very well." They +could read that; he carried it in his eye and in his tone and in his +step, and it was true. +</p> +<p> +It was a hot morning; it would be a stifling day in the city. They +sat quiet while they could, in the cars, taking the fresh air of the +fields and the sea reaches, reading the French news, and saying +little. +</p> +<p> +They came almost in to the city terminus, when the train stopped. +Not at a station. There were people to alight at the last but one; +these grew impatient after a few minutes, and got out and walked. +</p> +<p> +The train still waited. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Ledwith finished a column he was reading, and then looked up, as +the conductor came along the passage. +</p> +<p> +"What is the delay?" he asked of him. +</p> +<p> +"Freight. Got such a lot of it. Takes a good while to handle." +</p> +<p> +Freight outward bound. A train making up. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Ledwith turned to his newspaper again. +</p> +<p> +Ten minutes went by. Kenneth Kincaid got up and went out, like many +others. They might be kept there half an hour. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Ledwith had read all his paper, and began to grow impatient. He +put his head out at the window, and looked and listened. Half the +passengers were outside. Brake-men were walking up and down. +</p> +<p> +"Has he got a flag out there?" says the conductor to one of these. +</p> +<p> +"Don't know. Can't see. Yes, he has; I heard him whistle brakes." +</p> +<p> +Just then, their own bell sounded, and men jumped on board. Kenneth +Kincaid came back to his seat. +</p> +<p> +Behind, there was a long New York train coming in. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Ledwith put his head out again, and looked back. All right; +there had been a flag; the train had slackened just beyond a curve. +</p> +<p> +But why will people do such things? What is the use of asking? Mr. +Ledwith still looked out; he could not have told you why. +</p> +<p> +A quicker motion; a darkening of the window; a freight car standing +upon a siding, close to the switch, as they passed by; a sudden, +dull blow, half unheard in the rumble of the train. Women, sitting +behind, sprang up,—screamed; one dropped, fainting: they had seen a +ghastly sight; warm drops of blood flew in upon them; the car was in +commotion. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid, with an exclamation of horror, clutched hold of a +lifeless body that fell—was thrust—backward beside him; the poor +head fractured, shattered, against the fatal window frame. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +The eleven o'clock train came out. +</p> +<p> +People came up the street,—a group of gentlemen, three or +four,—toward Mr. Prendible's house. +</p> +<p> +Desire sat in a back window behind the blinds, busy. Mrs. Ledwith +was lying on the bed. +</p> +<p> +Steps came in at the house door. +</p> +<p> +There was an exclamation; a hush. Mr. Prendible's voice, Kenneth +Kincaid's, Mr. Dimsey's, the minister's. +</p> +<p> +"O! How? "—Mrs. Prendible's voice, now. +</p> +<p> +"Take care!" +</p> +<p> +"Where are they?" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith heard. +</p> +<p> +"What is the matter?"—springing up, with a sudden instinct of +precognition. +</p> +<p> +Desire had not seen or heard till now. She dropped her work. +</p> +<p> +"What is it, mother?" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith was up, upon the floor; in the doorway out in the +passage; trembling; seized all over with a horrible dread and vague +knowledge. +</p> +<p> +"<i>Tell</i> me what it is!" she cried, to those down below. +</p> +<p> +They were all there upon the staircase; Mrs. Prendible furthest up. +</p> +<p> +"O, Mrs. Ledwith!" she cried. "<i>Don't</i> be frightened! <i>Don't</i> take +on! Take it easy,—do!" +</p> +<p> +Desire rushed down among them; past Mrs. Prendible, past the +minister, straight to Kenneth Kincaid. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth took her right in his arms, and carried her into a little +room below. +</p> +<p> +"There could have been no pain," he said, tenderly. "It was the +accident of a moment. Be strong,—be patient, dear!" +</p> +<p> +There had been tender words natural to his lips lately. It was not +strange that in his great pity he used them now. +</p> +<p> +"My father!" gasped Desire. +</p> +<p> +"Yes; your father. It was our Father's will." +</p> +<p> +"Help me to go to my mother!" +</p> +<p> +She took his hand, half blind, almost reeling. +</p> +<p> +And then they all, somehow, found themselves up-stairs. +</p> +<p> +There were moans of pain; there were words of prayer. We have no +right there. It is all told. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +"Be strong,—be patient, dear!" +</p> +<p> +It came back, in the midst of the darkness, the misery; it helped +her through those days; it made her strong for her mother. It +comforted her, she hardly knew how much; but O, how cruel it seemed +afterward! +</p> +<p> +They went directly down to Boston. Mr. Ledwith was buried from their +own house. It was all over; and now, what should they do? Uncle +Titus came to see them. Mrs. Ripwinkley came right back from +Homesworth. Dorris Kincaid left her summer-time all behind, and +came to stay with them a week in Shubarton Place. Mrs. Ledwith +craved companionship; her elder daughters were away; there were +these five weeks to go by until she could hear from them. She would +not read their letters that came now, full of chat and travel. +</p> +<p> +Poor Laura! her family scattered; her dependence gone; her life all +broken down in a moment! +</p> +<p> +Dorris Kincaid did not speak of Kenneth and Rosamond. How could she +bring news of others' gladness into that dim and sorrowful house? +</p> +<p> +Luclarion Grapp shut up her rooms, left her plants and her birds +with Mrs. Gallilee, and came up to Shubarton Place in the beginning. +There were no servants there; everything was adrift; the terrible +blows of life take people between the harness, most unprovided, +unawares. +</p> +<p> +It was only for a little while, until they could hear from the +girls, and make plans. Grant Ledwith's income died with him; there +was ten thousand dollars, life insurance; that would give them a +little more than a sixth part of what his salary had been; and there +were the two thousand a year of Uncle Titus; and the house, on which +there was a twelve thousand dollar mortgage. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith had spent her life in cutting and turning and planning; +after the first shock was over, even her grief was counterpoised and +abated, by the absorption of her thoughts into the old channels. +What they should do, how they should live, what they could have; how +it should be contrived and arranged. Her mind busied itself with all +this, and her trouble was veiled,—softened. She had a dozen +different visions and schemes, projected into their details of +residence, establishment, dress, ordering,—before the letters +came, bringing back the first terribleness in the first reception of +and response to it, of her elder children. +</p> +<p> +It was so awful to have them away,—on the other side of the world! +If they were only once all together again! Families ought not to +separate. But then, it had been for their good; how could she have +imagined? She supposed she should have done the same again, under +the same circumstances. +</p> +<p> +And then came Mrs. Megilp's letter, delayed a mail, as she would +have delayed entering the room, if they had been rejoined in their +grief, until the family had first been gathered together with their +tears and their embraces. +</p> +<p> +Then she wrote,—as she would have come in; and her letter, as +her visit would have been, was after a few words of tender +condolence,—and they were very sweet and tender, for Mrs. Megilp +knew how to lay phrases like illuminating gold-leaf upon her +meaning,—eminently practical and friendly, full of judicious, not +to say mitigating, suggestions. +</p> +<p> +It was well, she thought, that Agatha and Florence were with her. +They had been spared so much; and perhaps if all this had happened +first, they might never have come. As to their return, she thought +it would be a pity; "it could not make it really any better for +you," she said; "and while your plans are unsettled, the fewer you +are, the more easily you will manage. It seems hard to shadow their +young lives more than is inevitable; and new scenes and interests +are the very best things for them; their year of mourning would be +fairly blotted out at home, you know. For yourself, poor friend, of +course you cannot care; and Desire and Helena are not much come +forward, but it would be a dead blank and stop to them, so much +lost, right out; and I feel as if it were a kind Providence for the +dear girls that they should be just where they are. We are living +quietly, inexpensively; it will cost no more to come home at one +time than at another;" etc. +</p> +<p> +There are persons to whom the pastime of life is the whole business +of it; sickness and death and misfortune,—to say nothing of cares +and duties—are the interruptions, to be got rid of as they may. +</p> +<p> +The next week came more letters; they had got a new idea out there. +Why should not Mrs. Ledwith and the others come and join them? They +were in Munich, now; the schools were splendid; would be just the +thing for Helena; and "it was time for mamma to have a rest." +</p> +<p> +This thought, among the dozen others, had had its turn in Mrs. +Ledwith's head. To break away, and leave everything, that is the +impulse of natures like hers when things go hard and they cannot +shape them. Only to get off; if she could do that! +</p> +<p> +Meanwhile, it was far different with Desire. +</p> +<p> +She was suffering with a deeper pain; not with a sharper loss, for +she had seen so little of her father; but she looked in and back, +and thought of what she <i>ought</i> to miss, and what had never been. +</p> +<p> +She ought to have known her father better; his life ought to have +been more to her; was it her fault, or, harder yet, had it been his? +This is the sorest thrust of grief; when it is only shock, and pity, +and horror, and after these go by, not grief enough! +</p> +<p> +The child wrestled with herself, as she always did, questioning, +arraigning. If she could make it all right, in the past, and now; if +she could feel that all she had to do was to be tenderly sorry, and +to love on through the darkness, she would not mind the dark; it +would be only a phase of the life,—the love. But to have lived her +life so far, to have had the relations of it, and yet <i>not</i> to have +lived it, not to have been real child, real sister, not to be real +stricken daughter now, tasting the suffering just as God made it to +be tasted,—was she going through all things, even this, in a vain +shadow? <i>Would</i> not life touch her? +</p> +<p> +She went away back, strangely, and asked whether she had had any +business to be born? Whether it were a piece of God's truth at all, +that she and all of them should be, and call themselves a +household,—a home? The depth, the beauty of it were so unfulfilled! +What was wrong, and how far back? Living in the midst of +superficialities; in the noontide of a day of shams; putting her +hands forth and grasping, almost everywhere, nothing but thin, hard +surface,—she wondered how much of the world was real; how many came +into the world where, and as, God meant them to come. What it was to +"climb up some other way into the sheepfold," and to be a thief and +a robber, even of life! +</p> +<p> +These were strange thoughts. Desire Ledwith was a strange girl. +</p> +<p> +But into the midst there crept one comfort; there was one glimpse +out of the darkness into the daylight. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid came in often to see them,—to inquire; just now he +had frequent business in the city; he brought ferns and flowers, +that Dorris gathered and filled into baskets, fresh and damp with +moss. +</p> +<p> +Dorris was a dear friend; she dwelt in the life and the brightness; +she reached forth and gathered, and turned and ministered again. The +ferns and flowers were messages; leaves out of God's living Word, +that she read, found precious, and sent on; apparitions, they +seemed standing forth to sense, and making sweet, true signs from +the inner realm of everlasting love and glory. +</p> +<p> +And Kenneth,—Desire had never lost out of her heart those +words,—"Be strong,—be patient, dear!" +</p> +<p> +He did not speak to her of himself; he could not demand +congratulation from her grief; he let it be until she should somehow +learn, and of her own accord, speak to him. +</p> +<p> +So everybody let her alone, poor child, to her hurt. +</p> +<p> +The news of the engagement was no Boston news; it was something that +had occurred, quietly enough, among a few people away up in Z——. +Of the persons who came in,—the few remaining in town,—nobody +happened to know or care. The Ripwinkleys did, of course; but Mrs. +Ripwinkley remembered last winter, and things she had read in +Desire's unconscious, undisguising face, and aware of nothing that +could be deepening the mischief now, thinking only of the sufficient +burden the poor child had to bear, thought kindly, "better not." +</p> +<p> +Meanwhile Mrs. Ledwith was dwelling more and more upon the European +plan. She made up her mind, at last, to ask Uncle Titus. When all +was well, she would not seem to break a compact by going away +altogether, so soon, to leave him; but now,—he would see the +difference; perhaps advise it. She would like to know what he would +advise. After all that had happened,—everything so changed,—half +her family abroad,—what could she do? Would it not be more prudent +to join them, than to set up a home again without them, and keep +them out there? And all Helena's education to provide for, and +everything so cheap and easy there, and so dear and difficult here? +</p> +<p> +"Now, tell me, truly, uncle, should you object? Should you take it +at all hard? I never meant to have left you, after all you have +done; but you see I have to break up, now poor Grant is gone; we +cannot live as we did before, even with what you do; and—for a +little while—it is cheaper there; and by and by we can come back +and make some other plan. Besides, I feel sometimes as if I <i>must</i> +go off; as if there weren't anything left here for me." +</p> +<p> +Poor woman! poor <i>girl</i>, still,—whose life had never truly taken +root! +</p> +<p> +"I suppose," said Uncle Titus, soberly, "that God shines all round. +He's on this side as much as He is on that." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith looked up out of her handkerchief, with which at that +moment she had covered her eyes. +</p> +<p> +"I never knew Uncle Titus was pious!" she said to herself. And her +astonishment dried her tears. +</p> +<p> +He said nothing more that was pious, however; he simply assured her, +then and in conversations afterward, that he should take nothing +"hard;" he never expected to bind her, or put her on parole; he +chose to come to know his relatives, and he had done so; he had also +done what seemed to him right, in return for their meeting him half +way; they were welcome to it all, to take it and use it as they best +could, and as circumstances and their own judgment dictated. If they +went abroad, he should advise them to do it before the winter. +</p> +<p> +These words implied consent, approval. Mrs. Ledwith went up-stairs +after them with a heart so much lightened that she was very nearly +cheerful. There would be a good deal to do now, and something to +look forward to; the old pulses of activity were quickened. She +could live with those faculties that had been always vital in her, +as people breathe with one live lung; but trouble and change had +wrought in her no deeper or further capacity; had wakened nothing +that had never been awake before. +</p> +<p> +The house and furniture were to be sold; they would sail in +September. +</p> +<p> +When Desire perceived that it was settled, she gave way; she had +said little before; her mother had had many plans, and they amused +her; she would not worry her with opposition; and besides, she was +herself in a secret dream of a hope half understood. +</p> +<p> +It happened that she told it to Kenneth Kincaid herself; she saw +almost every one who came, instead of her mother; Mrs. Ledwith lived +in her own room chiefly. This was the way in which it had come +about, that nobody noticed or guessed how it was with Desire, and +what aspect Kenneth's friendship and kindness, in the simple history +of those few weeks, might dangerously grow to bear with her. +</p> +<p> +Except one person. Luclarion Grapp, at last, made up her mind. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth heard what Desire told him, as he heard all she ever had to +tell, with a gentle interest; comforted her when she said she could +not bear to go, with the suggestion that it might not be for very +long; and when she looked up in his face with a kind of strange, +pained wonder, and repeated,— +</p> +<p> +"But I cannot <i>bear</i>,—I tell you, I cannot <i>bear</i> to go!" he +answered,— +</p> +<p> +"One can bear all that is right; and out of it the good will come +that we do not know. All times go by. I am sorry—very sorry—that +you must go; but there will be the coming back. We must all wait for +that." +</p> +<p> +She did not know what she looked for; she did not know what she +expected him to mean; she expected nothing; the thought of his +preventing it in any way never entered into her head; she knew, if +she <i>had</i> thought, how he himself was waiting, working. She only +wanted him to <i>care</i>. Was this caring? Much? She could not tell. +</p> +<p> +"We never can come <i>back</i>," she said, impetuously. "There will be +all the time—everything—between." +</p> +<p> +He almost spoke to her of it, then; he almost told her that the +everything might be more, not less; that friendships gathered, +multiplied; that there would be one home, he hoped, in which, by and +by, she would often be; in which she would always be a dear and +welcome comer. +</p> +<p> +But she was so sad, so tried; his lips were held; in his pure, +honest kindness, he never dreamt of any harm that his silence might +do; it only seemed so selfish to tell her how bright it was with +him. +</p> +<p> +So he said, smiling,— +</p> +<p> +"And who knows what the 'everything' may be?" And he took both her +hands in his as he said good-by,—for his little stops were of +minutes on his way, always,—and held them fast, and looked warmly, +hopefully into her face. +</p> +<p> +It was all for her,—to give her hope and courage; but the light of +it was partly kindled by his own hope and gladness that lay behind; +and how could she know that, or read it right? It was at once too +much, and not enough, for her. +</p> +<p> +Five minutes after, Luclarion Grapp went by the parlor door with a +pile of freshly ironed linen in her arms, on her way up-stairs. +</p> +<p> +Desire lay upon the sofa, her face down upon the pillow; her arms +were thrown up, and her hands clasped upon the sofa-arm; her frame +shook with sobs. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion paused for the time of half a step; then she went on. She +said to herself in a whisper, as she went,— +</p> +<p> +"It is a stump; a proper hard one! But there's nobody else; and I +have got to tell her!" +</p> +<hr> +<p> +That evening, under some pretense of clean towels, Luclarion came up +into Desire's room. +</p> +<p> +She was sitting alone, by the window, in the dark. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion fussed round a little; wiped the marble slab and the +basin; set things straight; came over and asked Desire if she should +not put up the window-bars, and light the gas. +</p> +<p> +"No," said Desire. "I like this best." +</p> +<p> +So did Luclarion. She had only said it to make time. +</p> +<p> +"Desire," she said,—she never put the "Miss" on, she had been too +familiar all her life with those she was familiar with at all,—"the +fact is I've got something to say, and I came up to say it." +</p> +<p> +She drew near—came close,—and laid her great, honest, faithful +hand on the back of Desire Ledwith's chair, put the other behind her +own waist, and leaned over her. +</p> +<p> +"You see, I'm a woman, Desire, and I know. You needn't mind me, I'm +an old maid; that's the way I do know. Married folks, even mothers, +half the time forget. But old maids never forget. I've had my +stumps, and I can see that you've got yourn. But you'd ought to +understand; and there's nobody, from one mistake and another, that's +going to tell you. It's awful hard; it will be a trouble to you at +first,"—and Luclarion's strong voice trembled tenderly with the +sympathy that her old maid heart had in it, after, and because of, +all those years,—"but Kenneth Kincaid"— +</p> +<p> +"<i>What!</i>" cried Desire, starting to her feet, with a sudden +indignation. +</p> +<p> +"Is going to be married to Rosamond Holabird," said Luclarion, very +gently. "There! you ought to know, and I have told you." +</p> +<p> +"What makes you suppose that that would be a trouble to me?" blazed +Desire. "How do you dare"— +</p> +<p> +"I didn't dare; but I had to!" sobbed Luclarion, putting her arms +right round her. +</p> +<p> +And then Desire—as she would have done at any rate, for that blaze +was the mere flash of her own shame and pain—broke down with a +moan. +</p> +<p> +"All at once! All at once!" she said piteously, and hid her face in +Luclarion's bosom. +</p> +<p> +And Luclarion folded her close; hugged her, the good woman, in her +love that was sisterly and motherly and all, because it was the love +of an old maid, who had endured, for a young maid upon whom the +endurance was just laid,—and said, with the pity of heaven in the +words,— +</p> +<p> +"Yes. All at once. But the dear Lord stands by. Take hold of His +hand,—and bear with all your might!" +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0019"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XIX. +</h2> +<h3> + INSIDE. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +"Do you think, Luclarion," said Desire, feebly, as Luclarion came to +take away her bowl of chicken broth,—"that it is my <i>duty</i> to go +with mamma?" +</p> +<p> +"I don't know," said Luclarion, standing with the little waiter in +her right hand, her elbow poised upon her hip,—"I've thought of +that, and I <i>don't</i> know. There's most generally a stump, you see, +one way or another, and that settles it, but here there's one both +ways. I've kinder lost my road: come to two blazes, and can't tell +which. Only, it ain't my road, after all. It lays between the Lord +and you, and I suppose He means it shall. Don't you worry; there'll +be some sort of a sign, inside or out. That's His business, you've +just got to keep still, and get well." +</p> +<p> +Desire had asked her mother, before this, if she would care very +much,—no, she did not mean that,—if she would be disappointed, or +disapprove, that she should stay behind. +</p> +<p> +"Stay behind? Not go to Europe? Why, where <i>could</i> you stay? What +would you do?" +</p> +<p> +"There would be things to do, and places to stay," Desire had +answered, constrainedly. "I could do like Dorris." +</p> +<p> +"Teach music!" +</p> +<p> +"No. I don't know music. But I might teach something I do know. Or I +could—rip," she said, with an odd smile, remembering something she +had said one day so long ago; the day the news came up to Z—— +from Uncle Oldways. "And I might make out to put together for other +people, and for a real business. I never cared to do it just for +myself." +</p> +<p> +"It is perfectly absurd," said Mrs Ledwith. "You couldn't be left to +take care of yourself. And if you could, how it would look! No; of +course you must go with us." +</p> +<p> +"But do you <i>care</i>?" +</p> +<p> +"Why, if there were any proper way, and if you really hate so to +go,—but there isn't," said Mrs. Ledwith, not very grammatically or +connectedly. +</p> +<p> +"She <i>doesn't</i> care," said Desire to herself, after her mother had +left her, turning her face to the pillow, upon which two tears ran +slowly down. "And that is my fault, too, I suppose. I have never +been <i>anything</i>!" +</p> +<p> +Lying there, she made up her mind to one thing. She would get Uncle +Titus to come, and she would talk to him. +</p> +<p> +"He won't encourage me in any notions," she said to herself. "And I +mean now, if I can find it out, to do the thing God means; and then +I suppose,—I <i>believe</i>,—the snarl will begin to unwind." +</p> +<p> +Meanwhile, Luclarion, when she had set a nice little bowl of +tea-muffins to rise, and had brought up a fresh pitcher of ice-water +into Desire's room, put on her bonnet and went over to Aspen Street +for an hour. +</p> +<p> +Down in the kitchen, at Mrs. Ripwinkley's, they were having a nice +time. +</p> +<p> +Their girl had gone. Since Luclarion left, they had fallen into that +Gulf-stream which nowadays runs through everybody's kitchen. Girls +came, and saw, and conquered in their fashion; they muddled up, and +went away. +</p> +<p> +The nice times were in the intervals when they <i>had</i> gone away. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley did not complain; it was only her end of the +"stump;" why should she expect to have a Luclarion Grapp to serve +her all her life? +</p> +<p> +This last girl had gone as soon as she found out that Sulie Praile +was "no relation, and didn't anyways belong there, but had been took +in." She "didn't go for to come to work in an <i>Insecution</i>. She had +always been used to first-class private families." +</p> +<p> +Girls will not stand any added numbers, voluntarily assumed, or even +involuntarily befalling; they will assist in taking up no new +responsibilities; to allow things to remain as they are, and cannot +help being, is the depth of their condescension,—the extent of what +they will put up with. There must be a family of some sort, of +course, or there would not be a "place;" that is what the family is +made for; but it must be established, no more to fluctuate; that is, +you may go away, some of you, if you like, or you may die; but +nobody must come home that has been away, and nobody must be born. +As to anybody being "took in!" Why, the girl defined it; it was not +being a family, but an <i>Insecution</i>. +</p> +<p> +So the three—Diana, and Hazel, and Sulie—were down in the kitchen; +Mrs. Ripwinkley was busy in the dining-room close by; there was a +berry-cake to be mixed up for an early tea. Diana was picking over +the berries, Hazel was chopping the butter into the flour, and Sulie +on a low cushioned seat in a corner—there was one kept ready for +her in every room in the house, and Hazel and Diana carried her +about in an "arm-chair," made of their own clasped hands and wrists, +wherever they all wanted to go,—Sulie was beating eggs. +</p> +<p> +Sulie did that so patiently; you see she had no temptation to jump +up and run off to anything else. The eggs turned, under her +fingers, into thick, creamy, golden froth, fine to the last possible +divisibility of the little air-bubbles. +</p> +<p> +They could not do without Sulie now. They had had her for "all +winter;" but in that winter she had grown into their home. +</p> +<p> +"Why," said Hazel to her mother, when they had the few words about +it that ended in there being no more words at all,—"that's the way +children are <i>born</i> into houses, isn't it? They just come; and +they're new and strange at first, and seem so queer. And then after +a while you can't think how the places were, and they not in them. +Sulie belongs, mother!" +</p> +<p> +So Sulie beat eggs, and darned stockings, and painted her lovely +little flower-panels and racks and easels, and did everything that +could be done, sitting still in her round chair, or in the cushioned +corners made for her; and was always in the kitchen, above all, when +any pretty little cookery was going forward. +</p> +<p> +Vash ran in and out from the garden, and brought balsamine blossoms, +from which she pulled the little fairy slippers, and tried to match +them in pairs; and she picked off the "used-up and puckered-up" +morning glories, which she blew into at the tube-end, and "snapped" +on the back of her little brown hand. +</p> +<p> +Wasn't that being good for anything, while berry-cake was making? +The girls thought it was; as much as the balsamine blossoms were +good for anything, or the brown butterflies with golden spots on +their wings, that came and lived among them. The brown butterflies +were a "piece of the garden;" little brown Vash was a piece of the +house. Besides, she would eat some of the berry-cake when it was +made; wasn't that worth while? She would have a "little teenty one" +baked all for herself in a tin pepper-pot cover. Isn't that the +special pleasantness of making cakes where little children are? +</p> +<p> +Vash was always ready for an "Aaron," too; they could not do without +her, any more than without Sulie. Pretty soon, when Diana should +have left school, and Vash should be a little bigger, they meant to +"coöperate," as the Holabirds had done at Westover. +</p> +<p> +Of course, they knew a great deal about the Holabirds by this time. +Hazel had stayed a week with Dorris at Miss Waite's; and one of +Witch Hazel's weeks among "real folks" was like the days or hours in +fairy land, that were years on the other side. She found out so much +and grew so close to people. +</p> +<p> +Hazel and Ruth Holabird were warm friends. And Hazel was to be +Ruth's bridesmaid, by and by! +</p> +<p> +For Ruth Holabird was going to be married to Dakie Thayne. +</p> +<p> +"That seemed so funny," Hazel said. "Ruth didn't <i>look</i> any older +than she did; and Mr. Dakie Thayne was such a nice boy!" +</p> +<p> +He was no less a man, either; he had graduated among the first three +at West Point; he was looking earnestly for the next thing that he +should do in life with his powers and responsibilities; he did not +count his marrying a <i>separate</i> thing; that had grown up alongside +and with the rest; of course he could do nothing without Ruth; that +was just what he had told her; and she,—well Ruth was always a +sensible little thing, and it was just as plain to her as it was to +him. Of course she must help him think and plan; and when the plans +were made, it would take two to carry them out; why, yes, they must +be married. What other way would there be? +</p> +<p> +That wasn't what she <i>said</i>, but that was the quietly natural and +happy way in which it grew to be a recognized thing in her mind, +that pleasant summer after he came straight home to them with his +honors and his lieutenant's commission in the Engineers; and his +hearty, affectionate taking-for-granted; and it was no surprise or +question with her, only a sure and very beautiful "rightness," when +it came openly about. +</p> +<p> +Dakie Thayne was a man; the beginning of a very noble one; but it is +the noblest men that always keep a something of the boy. If you had +not seen anything more of Dakie Thayne until he should be forty +years old, you would then see something in him which would be +precisely the same that it was at Outledge, seven years ago, with +Leslie Goldthwaite, and among the Holabirds at Westover, in his +first furlough from West Point. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion came into the Ripwinkley kitchen just as the cakes—the +little pepper-pot one and all—were going triumphantly into the +oven, and Hazel was baring her little round arms to wash the dishes, +while Diana tended the pans. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley heard her old friend's voice, and came out. +</p> +<p> +"That girl ought to be here with you; or somewheres else than where +she is, or is likely to be took," said Luclarion, as she looked +round and sat down, and untied her bonnet-strings. +</p> +<p> +Miss Grapp hated bonnet-strings; she never endured them a minute +longer than she could help. +</p> +<p> +"Desire?" asked Mrs. Ripwinkley, easily comprehending. +</p> +<p> +"Yes; Desire. I tell you she has a hard row to hoe, and she wants +comforting. She wants to know if it is her duty to go to Yourup with +her mother. Now it may be her duty to be <i>willing</i> to go; but it +ain't anybody's else duty to let her. That's what came to me as I +was coming along. I couldn't tell <i>her</i> so, you see, because it +would interfere with her part; and that's all in the tune as much as +any; only we've got to chime in with our parts at the right stroke, +the Lord being Leader. Ain't that about it, Mrs. Ripwinkley?" +</p> +<p> +"If we are sure of the score, and can catch the sign," said Mrs. +Ripwinkley, thoughtfully. +</p> +<p> +"Well, I've sung mine; it's only one note; I may have to keep +hammering on it; that's according to how many repeats there are to +be. Mr. Oldways, he ought to know, for one. Amongst us, we have got +to lay our heads together, and work it out. She's a kind of an odd +chicken in that brood; and my belief is she's like the ugly duck +Hazel used to read about. But she ought to have a chance; if she's a +swan, she oughtn't to be trapesed off among the weeds and on the dry +ground. 'Tisn't even ducks she's hatched with; they don't take to +the same element." +</p> +<p> +"I'll speak to Uncle Titus, and I will think," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. +</p> +<p> +But before she did that, that same afternoon by the six o'clock +penny post, a little note went to Mr. Oldways:— +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + "D<small>EAR</small> U<small>NCLE</small> T<small>ITUS</small>,— +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + "I want to talk with you a little. If I were well, I should + come to see you in your study. Will you come up here, and see + me in my room? +</p> +<p class="signed"> + "Yours sincerely, D<small>ESIRE</small> L<small>EDWITH</small>." +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus liked that. It counted upon something in him which few +had the faith to count upon; which, truly he gave few people reason +to expect to find. +</p> +<p> +He put his hat directly on, took up his thick brown stick, and +trudged off, up Borden Street to Shubarton Place. +</p> +<p> +When Luclarion let him in, he told her with some careful emphasis, +that he had come to see Desire. +</p> +<p> +"Ask her if I shall come up," he said. "I'll wait down here." +</p> +<p> +Helena was practicing in the drawing-room. Mrs. Ledwith lay, half +asleep, upon a sofa. The doors into the hall were shut,—Luclarion +had looked to that, lest the playing should disturb Desire. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion was only gone three minutes. Then she came back, and led +Mr. Oldways up three flights of stairs. +</p> +<p> +"It's a long climb, clear from the door," she said. +</p> +<p> +"I can climb," said Mr. Oldways, curtly. +</p> +<p> +"I didn't expect it was going to stump <i>you</i>," said Luclarion, just +as short in her turn. "But I thought I'd be polite enough to mention +it." +</p> +<p> +There came a queer little chuckling wheeze from somewhere, like a +whispered imitation of the first few short pants of a steam-engine: +that was Uncle Titus, laughing to himself. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion looked down behind her, out of the corner of her eyes, as +she turned the landing. Uncle Titus's head was dropped between his +shoulders, and his shoulders were shaking up and down. But he kept +his big stick clutched by the middle, in one hand, and the other +just touched the rail as he went up. Uncle Titus was not out of +breath. Not he. He could laugh and climb. +</p> +<p> +Desire was sitting up for a little while, before going to bed again +for the night. There was a low gas-light burning by the +dressing-table, ready to turn up when the twilight should be gone; +and a street lamp, just lighted, shone across into the room. +Luclarion had been sitting with her, and her gray knitting-work lay +upon the chair that she offered when she had picked it up, to Mr. +Oldways. Then she went away and left them to their talk. +</p> +<p> +"Mrs. Ripwinkley has been spry about it," she said to herself, going +softly down the stairs. "But she always was spry." +</p> +<p> +"You're getting well, I hope," said Uncle Titus, seating himself, +after he had given Desire his hand. +</p> +<p> +"I suppose so," said Desire, quietly. "That was why I wanted to see +you. I want to know what I ought to do when I am well." +</p> +<p> +"How can I tell?" asked Uncle Titus, bluntly. +</p> +<p> +"Better than anybody I can ask. The rest are all too sympathizing. I +am afraid they would tell me as I wish they should." +</p> +<p> +"And I don't sympathize? Well, I don't think I do much. I haven't +been used to it." +</p> +<p> +"You have been used to think what was right; and I believe you would +tell me truly. I want to know whether I ought to go to Europe with +my mother." +</p> +<p> +"Why not? Doesn't she want you to go?"—and Uncle Titus was sharp +this time. +</p> +<p> +"I suppose so; that is, I suppose she expects I will. But I don't +know that I should be much except a hindrance to her. And I think I +could stay and do something here, in some way. Uncle Titus, I hate +the thought of going to Europe! Now, don't you suppose I ought to +go?" +</p> +<p> +"<i>Why</i> do you hate the thought of going to Europe?" asked Uncle +Titus, regarding her with keenness. +</p> +<p> +"Because I have never done anything real in all my life!" broke +forth Desire. "And this seems only plastering and patching what +can't be patched. I want to take hold of something. I don't want to +float round any more. What is there left of all we have ever tried +to do, all these years? Of all my poor father's work, what is there +to show for it now? It has all melted away as fast as it came, like +snow on pavements; and now his life has melted away; and I feel as +if we had never been anything real to each other! Uncle Titus, I +can't tell you <i>how</i> I feel!" +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus sat very still. His hat was in one hand, and both +together held his cane, planted on the floor between his feet. Over +hat and cane leaned his gray head, thoughtfully. If Desire could +have seen his eyes, she would have found in them an expression that +she had never supposed could be there at all. +</p> +<p> +She had not so much spoken <i>to</i> Uncle Titus, in these last words of +hers, as she had irresistibly spoken <i>out</i> that which was in her. +She wanted Uncle Titus's good common sense and sense of right to +help her decide; but the inward ache and doubt and want, out of +which grew her indecisions,—these showed themselves forth at that +moment simply because they must, with no expectation of a response +from him. It might have been a stone wall that she cried against; +she would have cried all the same. +</p> +<p> +Then it was over, and she was half ashamed, thinking it was of no +use, and he would not understand; perhaps that he would only set the +whole down to nerves and fidgets and contrariness, and give her no +common sense that she wanted, after all. +</p> +<p> +But Uncle Titus spoke, slowly; much as if he, too, were speaking out +involuntarily, without thought of his auditor. People do so speak, +when the deep things are stirred; they speak into the deep that +answereth unto itself,—the deep that reacheth through all souls, +and all living, whether souls feel into it and know of it or not. +</p> +<p> +"The real things are inside," he said. "The real world is the inside +world. <i>God</i> is not up, nor down, but in the <i>midst</i>." +</p> +<p> +Then he looked up at Desire. +</p> +<p> +"What is real of your life is living inside you now. That is +something. Look at it and see what it is." +</p> +<p> +"Discontent. Misery. Failure." +</p> +<p> +"<i>Sense</i> of failure. Well. Those are good things. The beginning of +better. Those are <i>live</i> things, at any rate." +</p> +<p> +Desire had never thought of that. +</p> +<p> +Now <i>she</i> sat still awhile. +</p> +<p> +Then she said,—"But we can't <i>be</i> much, without doing it. I suppose +we are put into a world of outsides for something." +</p> +<p> +"Yes. To find out what it means. That's the inside of it. And to +help make the outside agree with the in, so that it will be easier +for other people to find out. That is the 'kingdom come and will be +done, on earth as it is in heaven.' Heaven is the inside,—the truth +of things." +</p> +<p> +"Why, I never knew"—began Desire, astonished. She had almost +finished aloud, as her mother had done in her own mind. She never +knew that Uncle Oldways was "pious." +</p> +<p> +"Never knew that was what it meant? What else can it mean? What do +you suppose the resurrection was, or is?" +</p> +<p> +Desire answered with a yet larger look of wonder, only in the dim +light it could not be wholly seen. +</p> +<p> +"The raising up of the dead; Christ coming up out of the tomb." +</p> +<p> +"The coming out of the tomb was a small part of it; just what could +not help being, if the rest was. Jesus Christ rose out of dead +<i>things</i>, I take it, into these very real ones that we are talking +of, and so lived in them. The resurrection is a man's soul coming +alive to the soul of creation—God's soul. <i>That</i> is eternal life, +and what Jesus of Nazareth was born to show. Our coming to that is +our being 'raised with Him;' and it begins, or ought to, a long way +this side the tomb. If people would only read the New Testament, +expecting to get as much common sense and earnest there as they do +among the new lights and little 'progressive-thinkers' that are +trying to find it all out over again, they might spare these +gentlemen and themselves a great deal of their trouble." +</p> +<p> +The exclamation rose half-way to her lips again,—"I never knew you +thought like this. I never heard you talk of these things before!" +</p> +<p> +But she held it back, because she would not stop him by reminding +him that he <i>was</i> talking. It was just the truth that was saying +itself. She must let it say on, while it would. +</p> +<p> +"Un—" +</p> +<p> +She stopped there, at the first syllable. She would not even call +him "Uncle Titus" again, for fear of recalling him to himself, and +hushing him up. +</p> +<p> +"There is something—isn't there—about those who <i>attain</i> to that +resurrection; those who are <i>worthy</i>? I suppose there must be some +who are just born to this world, then, and never—'born again?'" +</p> +<p> +"It looks like it, sometimes; who can tell?" +</p> +<p> +"Uncle Oldways,"—it came out this time in her earnestness, and her +strong personal appeal,—"do you think there are some people—whole +families of people—who have no business in the reality of things +to be at all? Who are all a mistake in the world, and have nothing +to do with its meaning? I have got to feeling sometimes lately, as +if—<i>I</i>—had never had any business to be." +</p> +<p> +She spoke slowly—awe-fully. It was a strange speech for a girl in +her nineteenth year. But she was a girl in this nineteenth century, +also; and she had caught some of the thoughts and questions of it, +and mixed them up with her own doubts and unsatisfactions which they +could not answer. +</p> +<p> +"The world is full of mistakes; mistakes centuries long; but it is +full of salvation and setting to rights, also. 'The kingdom of +heaven is like leaven, which a woman hid in three measures of meal +till the whole was leavened.' You have been <i>allowed</i> to be, Desire +Ledwith. And so was the man that was born blind. And I think there +is a colon put into the sentence about him, where a comma was meant +to be." +</p> +<p> +Desire did not ask him, then, what he meant; but she turned to the +story after he had gone, and found this:— +</p> +<p> +"Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents, but that the works +of God should be manifest in him." +</p> +<p> +You can see, if you look also, where she took the colon out, and put +the comma in. +</p> +<p> +Were all the mistakes—the sins, even—for the very sake of the pure +blessedness and the more perfect knowledge of the setting right? +</p> +<p> +Desire began to think that Uncle Oldways' theology might help her. +</p> +<p> +What she said to him now was,— +</p> +<p> +"I want to do something. I should like to go and live with +Luclarion, I think, down there in Neighbor Street. I should like to +take hold of some other lives,—little children's, perhaps,"—and +here Desire's voice softened,—"that don't seem to have any business +to be, either, and see if I could help or straighten anything. Then +I feel is if I should know." +</p> +<p> +"Then—according to the Scripture—you <i>would</i> know. But—that's +undertaking a good deal. Luclarion Grapp has got there; but she has +been fifty-odd years upon the road. And she has been doing real +things all the time. That's what has brought her there. You can't +boss the world's hard jobs till you've been a journeyman at the easy +ones." +</p> +<p> +"And I've missed my apprenticeship!" said Desire, with changed voice +and face, falling back into her disheartenment again. +</p> +<p> +"No!" Uncle Oldways almost shouted. "Not if you come to the Master +who takes in the eleventh hour workers. And it isn't the eleventh +hour with you,—<i>child</i>!" +</p> +<p> +He dwelt on that word "child," reminding her of her short mistaking +and of the long retrieval. Her nineteen years and the forever and +ever contrasted themselves before her suddenly, in the light of +hope. +</p> +<p> +She turned sharply, though, to look at her duty. Her journeyman's +duty of easy things. +</p> +<p> +"Must I go to Europe with my mother?" she asked again, the +conversation coming round to just that with which it had begun. +</p> +<p> +"I'll talk with your mother," said Uncle Oldways, getting up and +looking into his hat, as a man always does when he thinks of putting +it on presently. "Good-night. I suppose you are tired enough now. +I'll come again and see you." +</p> +<p> +Desire stood up and gave him her hand. +</p> +<p> +"I thank you, Uncle Titus, with all my heart." +</p> +<p> +He did not answer her a word; but he knew she meant it. +</p> +<p> +He did not stop that night to see his niece. He went home, to think +it over. But as he walked down Borden Street, swinging his big +stick, he said to himself,— +</p> +<p> +"Next of kin! Old Marmaduke Wharne was right. But it takes more than +the Family Bible to tell you which it is!" +</p> +<p> +Two days after, he had a talk with Mrs. Ledwith which relieved both +their minds. +</p> +<p> +From the brown-and-apricot drawing-room,—from among the things +that stood for nothing now, and had never stood for home,—he went +straight up, without asking, and knocked at Desire's third-story +door. +</p> +<p> +"Come in!" she said, without a note of expectation in her voice. +</p> +<p> +She had had a dull morning. Helena had brought her a novel from +Loring's that she could not read. Novels, any more than life, cannot +be read with very much patience, unless they touch something besides +surface. Why do critics—some of them—make such short, smart +work,—such cheerful, confident despatch, nowadays, of a story with +religion in it, as if it were an abnormity,—a thing with sentence +of death in itself, like a calf born with two heads,—that needs not +their trouble, save to name it as it is? Why, that is, if religion +stand for the relation of things to spirit, which I suppose it +should? Somebody said that somebody had written a book made up of +"spiritual struggles and strawberry short-cake." That was bright and +funny; and it seemed to settle the matter; but, taking strawberry +short-cake representatively, what else is human experience on earth +made up of? And are novels to be pictures of human experience, or +not? +</p> +<p> +This has nothing to do with present matters, however, except that +Desire found nothing real in her novel, and so had flung it aside, +and was sitting rather listlessly with her crochet which she never +cared much for, when Uncle Oldways entered. +</p> +<p> +Her face brightened instantly as he came in. He sat down just where +he had sat the other night. Mr. Oldways had a fashion of finding the +same seat a second time when he had come in once; he was a man who +took up most things where he left them off, and this was an +unconscious sign of it. +</p> +<p> +"Your mother has decided to sell the house on the 23d, it seems," he +said. +</p> +<p> +"Yes; I have been out twice. I shall be able to go away by then; I +suppose that is all she has waited for." +</p> +<p> +"Do you think you could be contented to come and live with me?" +</p> +<p> +"Come and <i>live</i>?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes. And let your mother and Helena go to Europe." +</p> +<p> +"O, Uncle Oldways! I think I could <i>rest</i> there! But I don't want +only to rest, you know. I must do something. For myself, to begin +with. I have made up my mind not to depend upon my mother. Why +should I, any more than a boy? And I am sure I cannot depend on +anybody else." +</p> +<p> +These were Desire Ledwith's thanks; and Mr. Oldways liked them. She +did not say it to please him; she thought it seemed almost +ungrateful and unwilling; but she was so intent on taking up life +for herself. +</p> +<p> +"You must have a place to do in,—or from," said Mr. Oldways. "And +it is better you should be under some protection. You must consent +to that for your mother's sake. How much money have you got?" +</p> +<p> +"Two hundred and fifty dollars a year. Of my own." +</p> +<p> +This was coming to business and calculation and common sense. Desire +was encouraged. Uncle Oldways did not think her quite absurd. +</p> +<p> +"That will clothe you,—without much fuss and feathers?" +</p> +<p> +"I have done with fuss and feathers,"—Desire said with a grave +smile, glancing at her plain white wrapper and the black shawl that +was folded around her. +</p> +<p> +"Then come where is room for you and a welcome, and do as much more +as you please, and can, for yourself, or for anybody else. I won't +give you a cent; you shall have something to do for me, if you +choose. I am an old man now, and want help. Perhaps what I want as +much as anything is what I've been all my life till lately, pretty +obstinate in doing without." +</p> +<p> +Uncle Oldways spoke short, and drew his breath in and puffed it out +between his sentences, in his bluff way; but his eyes were kind, as +he sat looking at the young girl over his hat and cane. +</p> +<p> +She thought of the still, gray parlor; of Rachel Froke and her face +of peace; and the Quaker meeting and the crumbs last year; of Uncle +Oldways' study, and his shelves rich with books; of the new +understanding that had begun between herself and him, and the faith +she had found out, down beneath his hard reserves; of the beautiful +neighborhood, Miss Craydocke's Beehive, Aunt Franks' cheery home and +the ways of it, and Hazel's runnings in and out. It seemed as if the +real things had opened for her, and a place been made among them in +which she should have "business to be," and from which her life +might make a new setting forth. +</p> +<p> +"And mamma knows?" she said, inquiringly, after that long pause. +</p> +<p> +"Yes. I told you I would talk with her. That is what we came to. It +is only for you to say, now." +</p> +<p> +"I will come. I shall be glad to come!" And her face was full of +light as she looked up and said it. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +Desire never thought for a moment of what her mother could not help +thinking of; of what Mrs. Megilp thought and said, instantly, when +she learned it three weeks later. +</p> +<p> +It is wonderful how abiding influence is,—even influence to which +we are secretly superior,—if ever we have been subjected to, or +allowed ourselves to be swayed by it. The veriest tyranny of +discipline grows into one's conscience, until years after, when life +has got beyond the tyranny, conscience,—or something superinduced +upon it,—keeps up the echo of the old mandates, and one can take no +comfort in doing what one knows all the time one has a perfect +right, besides sound reason, to do. It was a great while before our +grandmothers' daughters could peaceably stitch and overcast a seam, +instead of over-sewing and felling it. I know women who feel to this +moment as if to sit down and read a book of a week-day, in the +daytime, were playing truant to the needle, though all the +sewing-machines on the one hand, and all the demand and supply of +mental culture on the other, of this present changed and bettered +time, protest together against the absurdity. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith had heard the Megilp precepts and the Megilp +forth-putting of things, until involuntarily everything showed +itself to her in a Megilp light. The Megilp "sense of duty," +therefore, came up as she unhesitatingly assented to Uncle Oldways' +proposal and request. He wanted Desire; of course she could not say +a word; she owed him something, which she was glad she could so make +up; and secretly there whispered in her mind the suggestion which +Mrs. Megilp, on the other side of the water, spoke right out. +</p> +<p> +"If he wants her, he must mean something by her. He is an old man; +he might not live to give her back into her mother's keeping; what +would she do there, in that old house of his, if he should die, +unless—he <i>does</i> mean something? He has taken a fancy to her; she +is odd, as he is; and he isn't so queer after all, but that his +crotchets have a good, straightforward sense of justice in them. +Uncle Titus knows what he is about; and what's more, just what he +ought to be about. It is a good thing to have Desire provided for; +she is uncomfortable and full of notions, and she isn't likely ever +to be married." +</p> +<p> +So Desire was given up, easily, she could not help feeling; but she +knew she had been a puzzle and a vexation to her mother, and that +Mrs. Ledwith had never had the least idea what to do with her; least +of all had she now, what she should do with her abroad. +</p> +<p> +"It was so much better for her that Uncle Titus had taken her home." +With these last words Mrs. Ledwith reassured herself and cheered her +child. +</p> +<p> +Perhaps it would have been the same—it came into Desire's head, +that would conceive strange things—if the angels had taken her. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith went to New York; she stayed a few days with Mrs. +Macmichael, who wanted her to buy lace for her in Brussels and +Bohemian glass in Prague; then a few days more with her cousin, +Geraldine Raxley; and then the <i>City of Antwerp</i> sailed. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0020"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XX. +</h2> +<h3> + NEIGHBORS AND NEXT OF KIN. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +"I'll tell you what to do with them, Luclarion," said Hazel briskly. +"Teach them to play." +</p> +<p> +"Music! Pianners!" exclaimed Luclarion, dismayed. +</p> +<p> +"No. Games. Teach them to have good times. That was the first thing +ever we learnt, wasn't it, Dine? And we never could have got along +without it." +</p> +<p> +"It takes <i>you</i>!" said Luclarion, looking at Hazel with delighted +admiration. +</p> +<p> +"Does it? Well I don't know but it does. May I go, mother? +Luclarion, haven't you got a great big empty room up at the top of +the house?" +</p> +<p> +Luclarion had. +</p> +<p> +"That's just what it's for, then. Couldn't Mr. Gallilee put up a +swing? And a 'flying circle' in the middle? You see they can't go +out on the roofs; so they must have something else that will seem +kind of flighty. And <i>I'll</i> tell you how they'll learn their +letters. Sulie and I will paint 'em; great big ones, all colors; and +hang 'em up with ribbons, and every child that learns one, so as to +know it everywhere, shall take it down and carry it home. Then we +will have marbles for numbers; and they shall play addition games, +and multiplication games, and get the sums for prizes; the ones that +get to the head, you know. Why, you don't understand <i>objects</i>, +Luclarion!" +</p> +<p> +Luclarion had been telling them of the wild little folk of Neighbor +Street, and worse, of Arctic Street. She wanted to do something with +them. She had tried to get them in with gingerbread and popcorn; +they came in fast enough for those; but they would not stay. They +were digging in the gutters and calling names; learning the foul +language of the places into which they were born; chasing and hiding +in alley-ways; filching, if they could, from shops; going off +begging with lies on their lips. It was terrible to see the springs +from which the life of the city depths was fed. +</p> +<p> +"If you could stop it <i>there</i>!" Luclarion said, and said with +reason. +</p> +<p> +"Will you let me go?" asked Hazel of her mother, in good earnest. +</p> +<p> +"'Twon't hurt her," put in Luclarion. "Nothing's catching that you +haven't got the seeds of in your own constitution. And so the +catching will be the other way." +</p> +<p> +The seeds of good,—to catch good; that was what Luclarion Grapp +believed in, in those dirty little souls,—no, those clean little +<i>souls</i>, overlaid with all outward mire and filth of body, clothing, +speech, and atmosphere, for a mile about; through which they could +no more grope and penetrate, to reach their own that was hidden from +them in the clearer life beyond, than we can grope and reach to +other stars. +</p> +<p> +"I will get Desire," quoth Hazel, inspired as she always was, both +ways. +</p> +<p> +Running in at the house in Greenley Street the next Thursday, she +ran against Uncle Titus coming out. +</p> +<p> +"What now?" he demanded. +</p> +<p> +"Desire," said Hazel. "I've come for her. We're wanted at +Luclarion's. We've got work to do." +</p> +<p> +"Humph! Work? What kind?" +</p> +<p> +"Play," said Hazel, laughing. She delighted to bother and mystify +Uncle Titus, and imagined that she did. +</p> +<p> +"I thought so. Tea parties?" +</p> +<p> +"Something like," said Hazel. "There are children down there that +don't know how to grow up. They haven't any comfortable sort of +fashion of growing up. Somebody has got to teach them. They don't +know how to play 'Grand Mufti,' and they never heard of 'King George +and his troops.' Luclarion tried to make them sit still and learn +letters; but of course they wouldn't a minute longer than the +gingerbread lasted, and they are eating her out of house and home. +It will take young folks, and week-days, you see; so Desire and I +are going." And Hazel ran up the great, flat-stepped staircase. +</p> +<p> +"Lives that have no business to be," said Uncle Titus to himself, +going down the brick walk. "The Lord has His own ways of bringing +lives together. And His own business gets worked out among them, +beyond their guessing. When a man grows old, he can stand still now +and then, and see a little." +</p> +<p> +It was a short cross street that Luclarion lived in, between two +great thoroughfares crowded with life and business, bustle, +drudgery, idleness, and vice. You will not find the name I give +it,—although you may find one that will remind you of it,—in any +directory or on any city map. But you can find the places without +the names; and if you go down there with the like errands in your +heart, you will find the work, as she found it, to do. +</p> +<p> +She heard the noise of street brawls at night, voices of men and +women quarreling in alley-ways, and up in wretched garrets; flinging +up at each other, in horrible words, all the evil they knew of in +each other's lives,—"away back," Luclarion said, "to when they were +little children." +</p> +<p> +"And what is it," she would say to Mrs. Ripwinkley telling her +about it, "that <i>flings</i> it up, and can call it a shame, after all +the shames of years and years? Except just <i>that</i> that the little +children <i>were</i>, underneath, when the Lord let them—He knows +why—be born so? I tell you, ma'am, it's a mystery; and the nigher +you come to it, the more it is; it's a piece of hell and a piece of +heaven; it's the wrastle of the angel and the dragon; and it's going +on at one end, while they're building up their palaces and living +soft and sweet and clean at the other, with everything hushed up +that can't at least <i>seem</i> right and nice and proper. I know there's +good folks there, in the palaces; <i>beautiful</i> folks; there, and all +the way down between; with God's love in them, and His hate, that is +holy, against sin; and His pity, that is <i>prayers</i> in them, for all +people and places that are dark; but if they would <i>come down</i> +there, and take hold! I think it's them that would, that might have +part in the first resurrection, and live and reign the thousand +years." +</p> +<p> +Luclarion never counted herself among them,—those who were to have +thrones and judgments; she forgot, even, that she had gone down and +taken hold; her words came burning-true, out of her soul; and in the +heat of truth they were eloquent. +</p> +<p> +But I meant to tell you of her living. +</p> +<p> +In the daytime it was quiet; the gross evils crept away and hid from +the sunshine; there was labor to take up the hours, for those who +did labor; and you might not know or guess, to go down those +avenues, that anything worse gathered there than the dust of the +world's traffic that the lumbering drays ground up continually with +their wheels, and the wind,—that came into the city from far away +country places of green sweetness, and over hills and ponds and +streams and woods,—flung into the little children's faces. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion had taken a house,—one of two, that fronted upon a +little planked court; aside, somewhat, from Neighbor Street, as that +was a slight remove from the absolute terrible contact of Arctic +Street. But it was in the heart of that miserable quarter; she could +reach out her hands and touch and gather in, if it would let her, +the wretchedness. She had chosen a place where it was possible for +her to make a nook of refuge, not for herself only, or so much, as +for those to whom she would fain be neighbor, and help to a better +living. +</p> +<p> +It had been once a dwelling of some well-to-do family of the days +gone by; of some merchant, whose ventures went out and came in at +those wharves below, whence the air swept up pure, then, with its +salt smell, into the streets. The rooms were fairly large; Luclarion +spent money out of her own little property, that had been growing by +care and saving till she could spare from it, in doing her share +toward having it all made as sweet and clean as mortar and whitewash +and new pine-boards and paint and paper could make it. All that was +left of the old, they scoured with carbolic soap; and she had the +windows opened, and in the chimneys that had been swept of their +soot she had clear fires made and kept burning for days. +</p> +<p> +Then she put her new, plain furnishings into her own two down-stairs +rooms; and the Gallilees brought in theirs above; and beside them, +she found two decent families,—a German paper-hanger's, and that of +a carpenter at one of the theatres, whose wife worked at +dressmaking,—to take the rest. Away up, at the very top, she had +the wide, large room that Hazel spoke of, and a smaller one to which +she climbed to sleep, for the sake of air as near heaven as it could +be got. +</p> +<p> +One of her lower-rooms was her living and housekeeping room; the +other she turned into a little shop, in which she sold tapes and +needles and cheap calicoes and a few ribbons; and kept a counter on +the opposite side for bread and yeast, gingerbread, candy, and the +like. She did this partly because she must do something to help out +the money for her living and her plans, and partly to draw the women +and children in. How else could she establish any relations between +herself and them, or get any permanent hold or access? She had +"turned it all over in her mind," she said; "and a tidy little shop +with fair, easy prices, was the very thing, and a part of just what +she came down there to do." +</p> +<p> +She made real, honest, hop-raised bread, of sweet flour that she +gave ten dollars a barrel for; it took a little more than a pint, +perhaps, to make a tea loaf; that cost her three cents; she sold her +loaf for four, and it was better than they could get anywhere else +for five. Then, three evenings in a week, she had hot muffins, or +crumpets, home-made; (it was the subtle home touch and flavor that +she counted on, to carry more than a good taste into their mouths, +even a dim notion of home sweetness and comfort into their hearts;) +these first,—a quart of flour at five cents, two eggs at a cent +apiece, and a bit of butter, say three cents more, with three cents +worth of milk, made an outlay of fifteen cents for a dozen and a +half; so she sold them for ten cents a dozen, and the like had never +been tasted or dreamed of in all that region round about; no, nor I +dare almost to say, in half the region round about Republic Avenue +either, where they cannot get Luclarion Grapps to cook. +</p> +<p> +The crumpets were cheaper; they were only bread-sponge, baked on a +griddle; they were large, and light and tender; a quart of flour +would make ten; she gave the ten for seven cents. +</p> +<p> +And do you see, putting two cents on every quart of her flour, for +her labor, she <i>earned</i>, not <i>made</i>,—that word is for speculators +and brokers,—with a barrel of one hundred and ninety six pounds or +quarts, three dollars and ninety-two cents? The beauty of it was, +you perceive, that she did a small business; there was an eager +market for all she could produce, and there was no waste to allow a +margin for. +</p> +<p> +I am not a bit of a political economist myself; but I have a shrewd +suspicion that Luclarion Grapp was, besides having hit upon the +initial, individual idea of a capital social and philanthropic +enterprise. +</p> +<p> +This was all she tried to do at first; she began with bread; the +Lord from heaven began with that; she fed as much of the multitude +as she could reach; they gathered about her for the loaves; and they +got, consciously or unconsciously, more than they came or asked for. +</p> +<p> +They saw her clean-swept floor; her netted windows that kept the +flies out, the clean, coarse white cotton shades,—tacked up, and +rolled and tied with cord, country-fashion, for Luclarion would not +set any fashions that her poor neighbors might not follow if they +would;—and her shelves kept always dusted down; they could see her +way of doing that, as they happened in at different times, when she +whisked about, lightly and nicely, behind and between her jars and +boxes and parcels with the little feather duster that she kept +hanging over her table where she made her change and sat at her +sewing. +</p> +<p> +They grew ashamed by degrees,—those coarse women,—to come in in +their frowsy rags, to buy her delicate muffins or her white loaves; +they would fling on the cleanest shawl they had or could borrow, to +"cut round to Old Maid Grapp's," after a cent's worth of yeast,—for +her yeast, also, was like none other that could be got, and would +<i>almost</i> make her own beautiful bread of itself. +</p> +<p> +Back of the shop was her house-room; the cheapest and cleanest +of carpet,—a square, bound round with bright-striped +carpet-binding,—laid in the middle of a clean dark yellow floor; a +plain pine table, scoured white, standing in the middle of that; on +it, at tea-time, common blue and white crockery cups and plates, and +a little black teapot; a napkin, coarse, but fresh from the fold, +laid down to save, and at the same time to set off, with a touch of +delicate neatness, the white table; a wooden settee, with a +home-made calico-covered cushion and pillows, set at right angles +with the large, black, speckless stove; a wooden rocking-chair, made +comfortable in like manner, on the other side; the sink in the +corner, clean, freshly rinsed, with the bright tin basin hung above +it on a nail. +</p> +<p> +There was nothing in the whole place that must not be, in some +shape, in almost the poorest; but all so beautifully ordered, so +stainlessly kept. Through that open door, those women read a daily +sermon. +</p> +<p> +And Luclarion herself,—in a dark cotton print gown, a plain strip +of white about the throat,—even that was cotton, not linen, and two +of them could be run together in ten minutes for a cent,—and a +black alpacca apron, never soiled or crumpled, but washed and ironed +when it needed, like anything else,—her hair smoothly gathered back +under a small white half-handkerchief cap, plain-hemmed,—was the +sermon alive; with the soul of it, the inner sweetness and purity, +looking out at them from clear pleasant eyes, and lips cheery with a +smile that lay behind them. +</p> +<p> +She had come down there just to do as God told her to be a neighbor, +and to let her light shine. He would see about the glorifying. +</p> +<p> +She did not try to make money out of her candy, or her ginger-nuts; +she kept those to entice the little children in; to tempt them to +come again when they had once done an errand, shyly, or saucily, or +hang-doggedly,—it made little difference which to her,—in her +shop. +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you what it's like," Hazel said, when she came in and +up-stairs the first Saturday afternoon with Desire, and showed and +explained to her proudly all Luclarion's ways and blessed +inventions. "It's like your mother and mine throwing crumbs to make +the pigeons come, when they were little girls, and lived in +Boston,—I mean <i>here</i>!" +</p> +<p> +Hazel waked up at the end of her sentence, suddenly, as we all do +sometimes, out of talking or thinking, to the consciousness that it +was <i>here</i> that she had mentally got round to. +</p> +<p> +Desire had never heard of the crumbs or the pigeons. Mrs. Ledwith +had always been in such a hurry, living on, that she never stopped +to tell her children the sweet old tales of how she <i>had</i> lived. Her +child-life had not ripened in her as it had done in Frank. +</p> +<p> +Desire and Hazel went up-stairs and looked at the empty room. It was +light and pleasant; dormer windows opened out on a great area of +roofs, above which was blue sky; upon which, poor clothes fluttered +in the wind, or cats walked and stretched themselves safely and +lazily in the sun. +</p> +<p> +"I always <i>do</i> like roofs!" said Hazel. "The nicest thing in 'Mutual +Friend' is Jenny Wren up on the Jew's roof, being dead. It seems +like getting up over the world, and leaving it all covered up and +put away." +</p> +<p> +"Except the old clothes," said Desire. +</p> +<p> +"They're <i>washed</i>" answered Hazel, promptly; and never stopped to +think of the meaning. +</p> +<p> +Then she jumped down from the window, along under which a great +beam made a bench to stand on, and looked about the chamber. +</p> +<p> +"A swing to begin with," she said. "Why what is that? Luclarion's +got one!" +</p> +<p> +Knotted up under two great staples that held it, was the long loop +of clean new rope; the notched board rested against the chimney +below. +</p> +<p> +"It's all ready! Let's go down and catch one! Luclarion, we've come +to tea," she announced, as they reached the sitting-room. "There's +the shop bell!" +</p> +<p> +In the shop was a woman with touzled hair and a gown with placket +split from gathers to hem, showing the ribs of a dirty skeleton +skirt. A child with one garment on,—some sort of woolen thing that +had never been a clean color, and was all gutter-color now,—the +woman holding the child by the hand here, in a safe place, in a way +these mothers have who turn their children out in the street dirt +and scramble without any hand to hold. No wonder, though, perhaps; +in the strangeness and unfitness of the safe, pure place, doubtless +they feel an uneasy instinct that the poor little vagabonds have got +astray, and need some holding. +</p> +<p> +"Give us a four-cent loaf!" said the woman, roughly, her eyes +lowering under crossly furrowed brows, as she flung two coins upon +the little counter. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion took down one, looked at it, saw that it had a pale side, +and exchanged it for another. +</p> +<p> +"Here is a nice crusty one," she said pleasantly, turning to wrap it +in a sheet of paper. +</p> +<p> +"None o' yer gammon! Give it here; there's your money; come along, +Crazybug!" And she grabbed the loaf without a wrapper, and twitched +the child. +</p> +<p> +Hazel sat still. She knew there was no use. But Desire with her +point-black determination, went right at the boy, took hold of his +hand, dirt and all; it was disagreeable, therefore she thought she +must do it. +</p> +<p> +"Don't you want to come and swing?" she said. +</p> +<p> +"—— yer swing! and yer imperdence! Clear out! He's got swings +enough to home! Go to ——, and be ——, you —— —— ——!" +</p> +<p> +Out of the mother's mouth poured a volley of horrible words, like a +hailstorm of hell. +</p> +<p> +Desire fell back, as from a blinding shock of she knew not what. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion came round the counter, quite calmly. +</p> +<p> +"Ma'am," she said, "those words won't hurt <i>her</i>. She don't know the +language. But you've got God's daily bread in your hand; how can you +talk devil's Dutch over it?" +</p> +<p> +The woman glared at her. But she saw nothing but strong, calm, +earnest asking in the face; the asking of God's own pity. +</p> +<p> +She rebelled against that, sullenly; but she spoke no more foul +words. I think she could as soon have spoken them in the face of +Christ; for it was the Christ in Luclarion Grapp that looked out at +her. +</p> +<p> +"You needn't preach. You can order me out of your shop, if you like. +I don't care." +</p> +<p> +"I don't order you out. I'd rather you would come again. I don't +think you will bring that street-muck with you, though." +</p> +<p> +There was both confidence and command in the word like the "Neither +do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more." It detached the street-muck +from the woman. It was not <i>she</i>; it was defilement she had picked +up, when perhaps she could not help it. She could scrape her shoes +at the door, and come in clean. +</p> +<p> +"You know a darned lot about it, I suppose!" were the last words of +defiance; softened down, however, you perceive, to that which can be +printed. +</p> +<p> +Desire was pale, with a dry sob in her throat, when the woman had +gone and Luclarion turned round. +</p> +<p> +"The angels in heaven know; why shouldn't you?" said Luclarion. +"That's what we've got to help." +</p> +<p> +A child came in afterwards, alone; with an actual clean spot in the +middle of her face, where a ginger-nut or an acid drop might go in. +This was a regular customer of a week past. The week had made that +clean spot; with a few pleasant and encouraging hints from +Luclarion, administered along with the gingerbread. +</p> +<p> +Now it was Hazel's turn. +</p> +<p> +The round mouth and eyes, with expectation in them, were like a spot +of green to Hazel, feeling with her witch-wand for a human spring. +But she spoke to Desire, looking cunningly at the child. +</p> +<p> +"Let us go back and swing," she said. +</p> +<p> +The girl's head pricked itself up quickly. +</p> +<p> +"We've got a swing up-stairs," said Hazel, passing close by, and +just pausing. "A new one. I guess it goes pretty high; and it looks +out of top windows. Wouldn't you like to come and see?" +</p> +<p> +The child lived down in a cellar. +</p> +<p> +"Take up some ginger-nuts, and eat them there," said Luclarion to +Hazel. +</p> +<p> +If it had not been for that, the girl would have hung back, afraid +of losing her shop treat. +</p> +<p> +Hazel knew better than to hold out her hand, at this first essay; +she would do that fast enough when the time came. She only walked +on, through the sitting-room, to the stairs. +</p> +<p> +The girl peeped, and followed. +</p> +<p> +Clean stairs. She had never trodden such before. Everything was +strange and clean here, as she had never seen anything before in all +her life, except the sky and the white clouds overhead. Heaven be +thanked that they are held over us, spotless, always! +</p> +<p> +Hazel heard the little feet, shuffling, in horrible, distorted +shoes, after her, over the steps; pausing, coming slowly but still +starting again, and coming on. +</p> +<p> +Up on the high landing, under the skylight, she opened the door wide +into the dormer-windowed room, and went in; she and Desire, neither +of them looking round. +</p> +<p> +Hazel got into the swing. Desire pushed; after three vibrations they +saw the ragged figure standing in the doorway, watching, turning its +head from side to side as the swing passed. +</p> +<p> +"Almost!" cried Hazel, with her feet up at the window. "There!" She +thrust them out at that next swing; they looked as if they touched +the blue. +</p> +<p> +"I can see over all the chimneys, and away off, down the water! Now +let the old cat die." +</p> +<p> +Out again, with a spring, as the swinging slackened, she still took +no notice of the child, who would have run, like a wild kitten, if +she had gone after her. She called Desire, and plunged into a closet +under the eaves. +</p> +<p> +"I wonder what's here!" she exclaimed. +</p> +<p> +"Rats!" +</p> +<p> +The girl in the doorway saw the dark, into which the low door +opened; she was used to rats in the dark. +</p> +<p> +"I don't believe it," says Hazel; "Luclarion has a cut, a great big +buff one with green eyes. She came in over the roofs, and she runs +up here nights. I shouldn't wonder if there might be kittens, +though,—one of these days, at any rate. Why! what a place to play +'Dare' in! It goes way round, I don't know where! Look here, +Desire!" +</p> +<p> +She sat on the threshold, that went up a step, over the beam, and so +leaned in. She had one eye toward the girl all the time, out of the +shadow. She beckoned and nodded, and Desire came. +</p> +<p> +At the same moment, the coast being clear, the girl gave a sudden +scud across, and into the swing. She began to scuff with her +slipshod, twisted shoes, pushing herself. +</p> +<p> +Hazel gave another nod behind her to Desire. Desire stood up, and as +the swing came back, pushed gently, touching the board only. +</p> +<p> +The girl laughed out with the sudden thrill of the motion. Desire +pushed again. +</p> +<p> +Higher and higher, till the feet reached up to the window. +</p> +<p> +"There!" she cried; and kicked an old shoe off, out over the roof. +"I've lost my shoe!" +</p> +<p> +"Never mind; it'll be down in the yard," said Hazel. +</p> +<p> +Thereupon the child, at the height of her sweep again, kicked out +the other one. +</p> +<p> +Desire and Hazel, together, pushed her for a quarter of an hour. +</p> +<p> +"Now let's have ginger-cakes," said Hazel, taking them out of her +pocket, and leaving the "cat" to die. +</p> +<p> +Little Barefoot came down at that, with a run; hanging to the rope +at one side, and dragging, till she tumbled in a sprawl upon the +floor. +</p> +<p> +"You ought to have waited," said Desire. +</p> +<p> +"Poh! I don't never wait!" cried the ragamuffin rubbing her elbows. +"I don't care." +</p> +<p> +"But it isn't nice to tumble round," suggested Hazel. +</p> +<p> +"I <i>ain't</i> nice," answered the child, and settled the subject. +</p> +<p> +"Well, these ginger-nuts are," said Hazel. "Here!" +</p> +<p> +"Have you had a good time?" she asked when the last one was eaten, +and she led the way to go down-stairs. +</p> +<p> +"Good time! That ain't nothin'! I've had a reg'lar bust! I'm comin' +agin'; it's bully. Now I must get my loaf and my shoes, and go along +back and take a lickin'." +</p> +<p> +That was the way Hazel caught her first child. +</p> +<p> +She made her tell her name,—Ann Fazackerley,—and promise to come +on Saturday afternoon, and bring two more girls with her. +</p> +<p> +"We'll have a party," said Hazel, "and play Puss in the Corner. But +you must get leave," she added. "Ask your mother. I don't want you +to be punished when you go home." +</p> +<p> +"Lor! you're green! I ain't got no mother. An' I always hooks jack. +I'm licked reg'lar when I gets back, anyway. There's half a dozen of +'em. When 'tain't one, it's another. That's Jane Goffey's bread; +she's been a swearin' after it this hour, you bet. But I'll +come,—see if I don't!" +</p> +<p> +Hazel drew a hard breath as she let the girl go. Back to her crowded +cellar, her Jane Goffeys, the swearings, and the lickings. What was +one hour at a time, once or twice a week, to do against all this? +</p> +<p> +But she remembered the clean little round in her face, out of which +eyes and mouth looked merrily, while she talked rough slang; the +same fun and daring,—nothing worse,—were in this child's face, +that might be in another's saying prettier words. How could she help +her words, hearing nothing but devil's Dutch around her all the +time? Children do not make the language they are born into. And the +face that could be simply merry, telling such a tale as that,—what +sort of bright little immortality must it be the outlook of? +</p> +<p> +Hazel meant to try her hour. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +This is one of my last chapters. I can only tell you now they +began,—these real folks,—the work their real living led them up +to. Perhaps some other time we may follow it on. If I were to tell +you now a finished story of it, I should tell a story ahead of the +world. +</p> +<p> +I can show you what six weeks brought it to. I can show you them +fairly launched in what may grow to a beautiful private charity,—an +"Insecution,"—a broad social scheme,—a millennium; at any rate, a +life work, change and branch as it may, for these girls who have +found out, in their girlhood, that there is genuine living, not mere +"playing pretend," to be done in the world. But you cannot, in +little books of three hundred pages, see things through. I never +expected or promised to do that. The threescore years and ten +themselves, do not do it. +</p> +<p> +It turned into regular Wednesday and Saturday afternoons. Three +girls at first, then six, then less again,—sometimes only one or +two; until they gradually came up to and settled at, an average of +nine or ten. +</p> +<p> +The first Saturday they took them as they were. The next time they +gave them a stick of candy each, the first thing, then Hazel's +fingers were sticky, and she proposed the wash-basin all round, +before they went up-stairs. The bright tin bowl was ready in the +sink, and a clean round towel hung beside; and with some red and +white soap-balls, they managed to fascinate their dirty little +visitors into three clean pairs of hands, and three clean faces as +well. +</p> +<p> +The candy and the washing grew to be a custom; and in three weeks' +time, watching for a hot day and having it luckily on a Saturday, +they ventured upon instituting a whole bath, in big round tubs, in +the back shed-room, where a faucet came in over a wash bench, and a +great boiler was set close by. +</p> +<p> +They began with a foot-paddle, playing pond, and sailing chips at +the same time; then Luclarion told them they might have tubs full, +and get in all over and duck, if they liked; and children who may +hate to be washed, nevertheless are always ready for a duck and a +paddle. So Luclarion superintended the bath-room; Diana helped her; +and Desire and Hazel tended the shop. Luclarion invented a +shower-bath with a dipper and a colander; then the wet, tangled hair +had to be combed,—a climax which she had secretly aimed at with a +great longing, from the beginning; and doing this, she contrived +with carbolic soap and a separate suds, and a bit of sponge, to give +the neglected little heads a most salutary dressing. +</p> +<p> +Saturday grew into bath-day; soap-suds suggested bubbles; and the +ducking and the bubbling were a frolic altogether. +</p> +<p> +Then Hazel wished they could be put into clean clothes each time; +wouldn't it do, somehow? +</p> +<p> +But that would cost. Luclarion had come to the limit of her purse; +Hazel had no purse, and Desire's was small. +</p> +<p> +"But you see they've <i>got</i> to have it," said Hazel; and so she went +to her mother, and from her straight to Uncle Oldways. +</p> +<p> +They counted up,—she and Desire, and Diana; two little common +suits, of stockings, underclothes, and calico gowns, apiece; +somebody to do a washing once a week, ready for the change; and +then—"those horrid shoes!" +</p> +<p> +"I don't see how you can do it," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "The things +will be taken away from them, and sold. You would have to keep +doing, over and over, to no purpose, I am afraid." +</p> +<p> +"I'll see to that," said Luclarion, facing her "stump." "We'll do +for them we can do for; if it ain't ones, it will be tothers. Those +that don't keep their things, can't have 'em; and if they're taken +away, I won't sell bread to the women they belong to, till they're +brought back. Besides, the <i>washing</i> kind of sorts 'em out, +beforehand. 'Taint the worst ones that are willing to come, or to +send, for that. You always have to work in at an edge, in anything, +and make your way as you go along. It'll regulate. I'm <i>living</i> +there right amongst 'em; I've got a clew, and a hold; I can follow +things up; I shall have a 'circle;' there's circles everywhere. And +in all the wheels there's a moving <i>spirit</i>; you ain't got to depend +just on yourself. Things work; the Lord sees to it; it's <i>His</i> +business as much as yours." +</p> +<p> +Hazel told Uncle Titus that there were shoes and stockings and gowns +wanted down in Neighbor Street; things for ten children; they must +have subscriptions. And so she had come to him. +</p> +<p> +The Ripwinkleys had never given Uncle Titus a Christmas or a +birthday present, for fear they should seem to establish a mutual +precedent. They had never talked of their plans which involved +calculation, before him; they were terribly afraid of just one thing +with him, and only that one,—of anything most distantly like what +Desire Ledwith called "a Megilp bespeak." But now Hazel went up to +him as bold as a lion. She took it for granted he was like other +people,—"real folks;" that he would do—what must be done. +</p> +<p> +"How much will it cost?" +</p> +<p> +"For clothes and shoes for each child, about eight dollars for three +months, we guess," said Hazel. "Mother's going to pay for the +washing!" +</p> +<p> +"<i>Guess</i>? Haven't you calculated?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes, sir. 'Guess' and 'calculate' mean the same thing in Yankee," +said Hazel, laughing. +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus laughed in and out, in his queer way, with his shoulders +going up and down. +</p> +<p> +Then he turned round, on his swivel chair, to his desk, and wrote a +check for one hundred dollars. +</p> +<p> +"There. See how far you can make that go." +</p> +<p> +"That's good," said Hazel, heartily, looking at it; "that's +splendid!" and never gave him a word of personal thanks. It was a +thing for mutual congratulations, rather, it would seem; the "good" +was just what they all wanted, and there it was. Why should anybody +in particular be thanked, as if anybody in particular had asked for +anything? She did not say this, or think it; she simply did not +think about it at all. +</p> +<p> +And Uncle Oldways—again—liked it. +</p> +<p> +There! I shall not try, now, to tell you any more; their +experiences, their difficulties, their encouragements, would make +large material for a much larger book. I want you to know of the +idea, and the attempt. If they fail, partly,—if drunken fathers +steal the shoes, and the innocent have to forfeit for the +guilty,—if the bad words still come to the lips often, though Hazel +tells them they are not "nice,"—and beginning at the outside, they +are in a fair way of learning the niceness of being nice,—if some +children come once or twice, and get dressed up, and then go off +and live in the gutters again until the clothes are gone,—are these +real failures? There is a bright, pure place down there in Neighbor +Street, and twice a week some little children have there a bright, +pure time. Will this be lost in the world? In the great Ledger of +God will it always stand unbalanced on the debit side? +</p> +<p> +If you are afraid it will fail,—will be swallowed up in the great +sink of vice and misery, like a single sweet, fresh drop, sweet only +while it is falling,—go and do likewise; rain down more; make the +work larger, stronger; pour the sweetness in faster, till the wide, +grand time of full refreshing shall have come from the presence of +the Lord! +</p> +<p> +Ada Geoffrey went down and helped. Miss Craydocke is going to knit +scarlet stockings all winter for them; Mr. Geoffrey has put a +regular bath-room in for Luclarion, with half partitions, and three +separate tubs; Mrs. Geoffrey has furnished a dormitory, where little +homeless ones can be kept to sleep. Luclarion has her hands full, +and has taken in a girl to help her, whose board and wages Rachel +Froke and Asenath Scherman pay. A thing like that spreads every way; +you have only to be among, and one of—Real Folks. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +Desire, besides her work in Neighbor Street, has gone into the +Normal School. She wants to make herself fit for any teaching; she +wants also to know and to become a companion of earnest, working +girls. +</p> +<p> +She told Uncle Titus this, after she had been with him a month, and +had thought it over; and Uncle Titus agreed, quite as if it were no +real concern of his, but a very proper and unobjectionable plan for +her, if she liked it. +</p> +<p> +One day, though, when Marmaduke Wharne—who had come this fall again +to stay his three days, and talk over their business,—sat with him +in his study, just where they had sat two years and a little more +ago, and Hazel and Desire ran up and down stairs together, in and +out upon their busy Wednesday errands,—Marmaduke said to Titus,— +</p> +<p> +"Afterwards is a long time, friend; but I mistrust you have found +the comfort, as well as the providence, of 'next of kin?'" +</p> +<p> +"Afterwards <i>is</i> a long time," said Titus Oldways, gravely; "but the +Lord's line of succession stretches all the way through." +</p> +<p> +And that same night he had his other old friend, Miss Craydocke, in; +and he brought two papers that he had ready, quietly out to be +signed, each with four names: "Titus Oldways," by itself, on the one +side; on the other,— +</p> +<p class="note3"> + "R<small>ACHEL</small> F<small>ROKE</small>,<br> + M<small>ARMADUKE</small> W<small>HARNE</small>,<br> + K<small>EREN-HAPPUCH</small> C<small>RAYDOCKE</small>." +</p> +<p> +And one of those two papers—which are no further part of the +present story, seeing that good old Uncle Titus is at this moment +alive and well, as he has a perfect right, and is heartily welcome +to be, whether the story ever comes to a regular winding up or +not—was laid safely away in a japanned box in a deep drawer of his +study table; and Marmaduke Wharne put the other in his pocket. +</p> +<p> +He and Titus knew. I myself guess, and perhaps you do; but neither +you nor I, nor Rachel, nor Keren-happuch, know for certain; and it +is no sort of matter whether we do or not. +</p> +<p> +The "next of kin" is a better and a deeper thing than any claim of +law or register of bequest can show. Titus Oldways had found that +out; and he had settled in his mind, to his restful and satisfied +belief, that God, to the last moment of His time, and the last +particle of His created substance, can surely care for and order and +direct His own. +</p> +<p> +Is that end and moral enough for a two years' watchful trial and a +two years' simple tale? +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0021"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XXI. +</h2> +<h3> + THE HORSESHOE. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +They laid out the Waite Place in this manner:— +</p> +<p> +Right into the pretty wooded pasture, starting from a point a little +way down the road from the old house, they projected a roadway which +swept round, horseshoe fashion, till it met itself again within a +space of some twenty yards or so; and this sweep made a +frontage—upon its inclosed bit of natural, moss-turfed green, +sprinkled with birch and pine and oak trees, and with gray +out-croppings of rock here and there—for the twenty houses, behind +which opened the rest of the unspoiled, irregular, open slope and +swell and dingle of the hill-foot tract that dipped down at one +reach, we know, to the river. +</p> +<p> +The trees, and shrubs, and vines, and ferns, and stones, were left +in their wild prettiness; only some roughness of nature's wear and +tear of dead branches and broken brushwood, and the like, were taken +away, and the little footpaths cleared for pleasant walking. +</p> +<p> +There were all the little shady, sweet-smelling nooks, just as they +had been; all the little field-parlors, opening with their winding +turns between bush and rock, one into another. The twenty households +might find twenty separate places, if they all wanted to take a +private out-door tea at once. +</p> +<p> +The cellars were dug; the frames were up; workmen were busy with +brick and mortar, hammer and plane; two or three buildings were +nearly finished, and two—the two standing at the head of the +Horseshoe, looking out at the back into the deepest and pleasantest +wood-aisle, where the leaves were reddening and mellowing in the +early October frost, and the ferns were turning into tender +transparent shades of palest straw-color—were completed, and had +dwellers in them; the cheeriest, and happiest, and coziest of +neighbors; and who do you think these were? +</p> +<p> +Miss Waite and Delia, of course, in one house; and with them, +dividing the easy rent and the space that was ample for four women, +were Lucilla Waters and her mother. In the other, were Kenneth and +Rosamond Kincaid and Dorris. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth and Rosamond had been married just three weeks. Rosamond had +told him she would begin the world with him, and they had begun. +Begun in the simple, true old-fashioned way, in which, if people +only would believe it, it is even yet not impossible for young men +and women to inaugurate their homes. +</p> +<p> +They could not have had a place at Westover, and a horse and buggy +for Kenneth to go back and forth with; nor even a house in one of +the best streets of Z——; and down at East Square everything was +very modern and pretentious, based upon the calculation of rising +values and a rush of population. +</p> +<p> +But here was this new neighborhood of—well, yes,—"model houses;" a +blessed Christian speculation for a class not easily or often +reached by any speculations save those that grind and consume their +little regular means, by forcing upon them the lawless and arbitrary +prices of the day, touching them at every point in their <i>living</i>, +but not governing correspondingly their income, as even the +hod-carrier's and railroad navvy's daily pay is reached and ruled to +meet the proportion of the time. +</p> +<p> +They would be plain, simple, little-cultured people that would live +there: the very "betwixt and betweens" that Rosamond had used to +think so hardly fated. Would she go and live among them, in one of +these little new, primitive homes, planted down in the pasture-land, +on the outskirts? Would she—the pretty, graceful, elegant +Rosamond—live semi-detached with old Miss Arabel Waite? +</p> +<p> +That was just exactly the very thing she would do; the thing she did +not even let Kenneth think of first, and ask her, but that, when +they had fully agreed that they would begin life somehow, in some +right way together, according to their means, she herself had +questioned him if they might not do. +</p> +<p> +And so the houses were hurried in the building; for old Miss Arabel +must have hers before the winter; (it seems strange how often the +change comes when one could not have waited any longer for it;) and +Kenneth had mill building, and surveying, and planning, in East +Square, and Mr. Roger Marchbanks' great gray-stone mansion going up +on West Hill, to keep him busy; work enough for any talented young +fellow, fresh from the School of Technology, who had got fair hold +of a beginning, to settle down among and grasp the "next things" +that were pretty sure to follow along after the first. +</p> +<p> +Dorris has all Ruth's music scholars, and more; for there has never +been anybody to replace Miss Robbyns, and there are many young girls +in Z——, and down here in East Square, who want good teaching and +cannot go away to get it. She has also the organ-playing in the new +church. +</p> +<p> +She keeps her morning hours and her Saturdays to help Rosamond; for +they are "coöperating" here, in the new home; what was the use, +else, of having coöperated in the old? Rosamond cannot bear to have +any coarse, profane fingers laid upon her little household +gods,—her wedding-tins and her feather dusters,—while the first +gloss and freshness are on, at any rate; and with her dainty handling, +the gloss is likely to last a long while. +</p> +<p> +Such neighbors, too, as the Waites and Waterses are! How they helped +in the fitting up, running in in odd half hours from their own +nailing and placing, which they said could wait awhile, since they +weren't brides; and such real old times visiting as they have +already between the houses; coming and taking right hold, with +wiping up dinner plates as likely as not, if that is the thing in +hand; picking up what is there, as easily as "the girls" used to +help work out some last new pattern of crochet, or try over music, +or sort worsteds for gorgeous affghans for the next great fair! +</p> +<p> +Miss Arabel is apt to come in after dinner, and have a dab at the +plates; she knows she interrupts nothing then; and she "has never +been used to sitting talking, with gloves on and a parasol in her +lap." And now she has given up trying to make impossible biases, she +has such a quantity of time! +</p> +<p> +It was the matter of receiving visits from her friends who <i>did</i> sit +with their parasols in their laps, or who only expected to see the +house, or look over wedding presents, that would be the greatest +hindrance, Rosamond realized at once; that is, if she would let it; +so she did just the funniest thing, perhaps, that ever a bride did +do: she set her door wide open from her pretty parlor, with its +books and flowers and pictures and window-draperies of hanging +vines, into the plain, cozy little kitchen, with its tin pans and +bright new buckets and its Shaker chairs; and when she was busy +there, asked her girl-friends right in, as she had used to take them +up into her bedroom, if she were doing anything pretty or had +something to show. +</p> +<p> +And they liked it, for the moment, at any rate; they could not help +it; they thought it was lovely; a kind of bewitching little play at +keeping house; though some of them went away and wondered, and said +that Rosamond Holabird had quite changed all her way of living and +her position; it was very splendid and strong-minded, they supposed; +but they never should have thought it of her, and of course she +could not keep it up. +</p> +<p> +"And the neighborhood!" was the cry. "The rabble she has got, and is +going to have, round her! All planks and sand, and tubs of mortar, +now; you have to half break your neck in getting up there; and when +it is settled it will be—such a frowze of common people! Why the +foreman of our factory has engaged a house, and Mrs. Haslam, who +actually used to do up laces for mamma, has got another!" +</p> +<p> +That is what is said—in some instances—over on West Hill, when the +elegant visitors came home from calling at the Horseshoe. Meanwhile, +what Rosamond does is something like this, which she happened to do +one bright afternoon a very little while ago. +</p> +<p> +She and Dorris had just made and baked a charming little tea-cake, +which was set on a fringed napkin in a round white china dish, and +put away in the fresh, oak-grained kitchen pantry, where not a crumb +or a slop had ever yet been allowed to rest long enough to defile or +give a flavor of staleness; out of which everything is tidily used +up while it is nice, and into which little delicate new-made bits +like this, for next meals, are always going. +</p> +<p> +The tea-table itself,—with its three plates, and its new silver, +and the pretty, thin, shallow cups and saucers, that an Irish girl +would break a half-dozen of every week,—was laid with exquisite +preciseness; the square white napkins at top and bottom over the +crimson cloth, spread to the exactness of a line, and every knife +and fork at fair right angles; the loaf was upon the white carved +trencher, and nothing to be done when Kenneth should come in, but to +draw the tea, and bring the brown cake forth. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond will not leave all these little doings to break up the +pleasant time of his return; she will have her leisure then, let her +be as busy as she may while he is away. +</p> +<p> +There was an hour or more after all was done; even after the +Panjandrums had made their state call, leaving their barouche at the +heel of the Horseshoe, and filling up all Rosamond's little +vestibule with their flounces, as they came in and went out. +</p> +<p> +The Panjandrums were new people at West Hill; very new and very +grand, as only new things and new people can be, turned out in the +latest style pushed to the last agony. Mrs. Panjandrum's dress was +all in two shades of brown, to the tips of her feathers, and the +toes of her boots, and the frill of her parasol; and her carriage +was all in two shades of brown, likewise; cushions, and tassels, +and panels; the horses themselves were cream-color, with dark +manes and tails. Next year, perhaps, everything will be in +pansy-colors,—black and violet and gold; and then she will probably +have black horses with gilded harness and royal purple tails. +</p> +<p> +It was very good of the Panjandrums, doubtless, to come down to the +Horseshoe at all; I am willing to give them all the credit of really +admiring Rosamond, and caring to see her in her little new home; but +there are two other things to be considered also: the novel kind of +home Rosamond had chosen to set up, and the human weakness of +curiosity concerning all experiments, and friends in all new lights; +also the fact of that other establishment shortly to branch out of +the Holabird connection. The family could not quite go under water, +even with people of the Panjandrum persuasion, while there was such +a pair of prospective corks to float them as Mr. and Mrs. Dakie +Thayne. +</p> +<p> +The Panjandrum carriage had scarcely bowled away, when a little +buggy and a sorrel pony came up the road, and somebody alighted with +a brisk spring, slipped the rein with a loose knot through the +fence-rail at the corner, and came up one side of the two-plank +foot-walk that ran around the Horseshoe; somebody who had come home +unexpectedly, to take his little wife to ride. Kenneth Kincaid had +business over at the new district of "Clarendon Park." +</p> +<p> +Drives, and livery-stable bills, were no part of the items allowed +for, in the programme of these young people's living; therefore +Rosamond put on her gray hat, with its soft little dove's breast, +and took her bright-striped shawl upon her arm, and let Kenneth lift +her into the buggy—for which there was no manner of need except +that they both liked it,—with very much the feeling as if she were +going off on a lovely bridal trip. They had had no bridal trip, you +see; they did not really want one; and this little impromptu drive +was such a treat! +</p> +<p> +Now the wonders of nature and the human mind show—if I must go so +far to find an argument for the statement I am making—that into a +single point of time or particle of matter may be gathered the +relations of a solar system or the experiences of a life; that a +universe may be compressed into an atom, or a molecule expanded into +a macrocosm; therefore I expect nobody to sneer at my Rosamond as +childishly nappy in her simple honeymoon, or at me for making +extravagant and unsupported assertions, when I say that this hour +and a half, and these four miles out to Clarendon Park and +back,—the lifting and the tucking in, and the setting off, the +sitting side by side in the ripe October air and the golden +twilight, the noting together every pretty turn, every flash of +autumn color in the woods, every change in the cloud-groupings +overhead, every glimpse of busy, bright-eyed squirrels up and down +the walls, every cozy, homely group of barnyard creatures at the +farmsteads, the change, the pleasure, the thought of home and +always-togetherness,—all this made the little treat of a country +ride as much to them, holding all that any wandering up and down the +whole world in their new companionship could hold,—as a going to +Europe, or a journey to mountains and falls and sea-sides and +cities, in a skimming of the States. You cannot have more than there +is; and you do not care, for more than just what stands for and +emphasizes the essential beauty, the living gladness, that no +<i>place</i> gives, but that hearts carry about into places and baptize +them with, so that ever afterward a tender charm hangs round them, +because "we saw it <i>then</i>." +</p> +<p> +And Kenneth and Rosamond Kincaid had all these bright associations, +these beautiful glamours, these glad reminders, laid up for years to +come, in a four miles space that they might ride or walk over, +re-living it all, in the returning Octobers of many other years. I +say they had a bridal tour that day, and that the four miles were as +good as four thousand. Such little bits of signs may stand for such +high, great, blessed things! +</p> +<p> +"How lovely stillness and separateness are!" said Rosamond as they +sat in the buggy, stopping to enjoy a glimpse of the river on one +side, and a flame of burning bushes on the other, against the dark +face of a piece of woods that held the curve of road in which they +stood, in sheltered quiet. "How pretty a house would be, up on that +knoll. Do you know things puzzle me a little, Kenneth? I have almost +come to a certain conclusion lately, that people are not meant to +live apart, but that it is really everybody's duty to live in a +town, or a village, or in some gathering of human beings together. +Life tends to that, and all the needs and uses of it; and yet,—it +is so sweet in a place like this,—and however kind and social you +may be, it seems once in a while such an escape! Do you believe in +beautiful country places, and in having a little piece of creation +all to yourself, if you can get it, or if not what do you suppose +all creation is made for?" +</p> +<p> +"Perhaps just that which you have said, Rose." Rosamond has now, +what her mother hinted once, somebody to call her "Rose," with a +happy and beautiful privilege. "Perhaps to escape into. Not for one, +here and there, selfishly, all the time; but for the whole, with +fair share and opportunity. Creation is made very big, you see, and +men and women are made without wings, and with very limited hands +and feet. Also with limited lives; that makes the time-question, and +the hurry. There is a suggestion,—at any rate, a necessity,—in +that. It brings them within certain spaces, always. In spite of all +the artificial lengthening of railroads and telegraphs, there must +still be centres for daily living, intercourse, and need. People +tend to towns; they cannot establish themselves in isolated +independence. Yet packing and stifling are a cruelty and a sin. I do +not believe there ought to be any human being so poor as to be +forced to such crowding. The very way we are going to live at the +Horseshoe, seems to me an individual solution of the problem. It +ought to come to pass that our towns should be built—and if built +already, wrongly, <i>thinned out</i>,—on this principle. People are +coming to learn a little of this, and are opening parks and squares +in the great cities, finding that there must be room for bodies and +souls to reach out and breathe. If they could only take hold of some +of their swarming-places, where disease and vice are festering, and +pull down every second house and turn it into a garden space, I +believe they would do more for reform and salvation than all their +separate institutions for dealing with misery after it is let grow, +can ever effect." +</p> +<p> +"O, why <i>can't</i> they?" cried Rose. "There is money enough, +somewhere. Why can't they do it, instead of letting the cities grow +horrid, and then running away from it themselves, and buying acres +and acres around their country places, for fear somebody should come +too near, and the country should begin to grow horrid too?" +</p> +<p> +"Because the growing and the crowding and the striving of the city +<i>make</i> so much of the money, little wife! Because to keep everybody +fairly comfortable as the world goes along, there could not be so +many separate piles laid up; it would have to be used more as it +comes, and it could not come so fast. If nobody cared to be very +rich, and all were willing to live simply and help one another, in +little 'horseshoe neighborhoods,' there wouldn't be so much that +looks like grand achievement in the world perhaps; but I think maybe +the very angels might show themselves out of the unseen, and bring +the glory of heaven into it!" +</p> +<p> +Kenneth's color came, and his eyes glowed, as he spoke these words +that burst into eloquence with the intensity of his meaning; and +Rosamond's face was holy-pale, and her look large, as she listened; +and they were silent for a minute or so, as the pony, of his own +accord, trotted deliberately on. +</p> +<p> +"But then, the beauty, and the leisure, and all that grows out of +them to separate minds, and what the world gets through the +refinement of it! You see the puzzle comes back. Must we never, in +this life, gather round us the utmost that the world is capable of +furnishing? Must we never, out of this big creation, have the piece +to ourselves, each one as he would choose?" +</p> +<p> +"I think the Lord would show us a way out of that," said Kenneth. "I +think He would make His world turn out right, and all come to good +and sufficient use, if we did not put it in a snarl. Perhaps we can +hardly guess what we might grow to all together,—'the whole body, +fitly joined by that which every joint supplieth, increasing and +building itself up in love.' And about the quietness, and the +separateness,—we don't want to <i>live</i> in that, Rose; we only want +it sometimes, to make us fitter to live. When the disciples began to +talk about building tabernacles on the mountain of the vision, +Christ led them straight down among the multitude, where there was a +devil to be cast out. It is the same thing in the old story of the +creation. God worked six days, and rested one." +</p> +<p> +"Well," said Rose, drawing a deep breath, "I am glad we have begun +at the Horseshoe! It was a great escape for me, Kenneth. I am such a +worldly girl in my heart. I should have liked so much to have +everything elegant and artistic about me." +</p> +<p> +"I think you do. I think you always will. Not because of the +worldliness in you, though; but the <i>other</i>-worldliness, the sense +of real beauty and truth. And I am glad that we have begun at all! +It was a greater escape for me. I was in danger of all sorts of +hardness and unbelief. I had begun to despise and hate things, +because they did not work rightly just around me. And then I fell +in, just in time, with some real, true people; and then you came, +with the 'little piece of your world,' and then I came here, and saw +what your world was, and how you were making it, Rose! How a little +community of sweet and generous fellowship was crystallizing here +among all sorts—outward sorts—of people; a little community of the +kingdom; and how you and yours had done it." +</p> +<p> +"O, Kenneth! I was the worst little atom in the whole crystal! I +only got into my place because everybody else did, and there was +nothing else left for me to do." +</p> +<p> +"You see I shall never believe that," said Kenneth, quietly. "There +is no flaw in the crystal. You were all polarized alike. And +besides, can't I see daily just how your nature draws and points?" +</p> +<p> +"Well, never mind," said Rose. "Only some particles are natural +magnets, I believe, and some get magnetized by contact. Now that we +have hit upon this metaphor, isn't it funny that our little social +experiment should have taken the shape of a horseshoe?" +</p> +<p> +"The most sociable, because the most magnetic, shape it could take. +You will see the power it will develop. There's a great deal in +merely taking form according to fundamental principles. Witness the +getting round a fireside. Isn't that a horseshoe? And could half as +much sympathy be evolved from a straight line?" +</p> +<p> +"I believe in firesides," said Rose. +</p> +<p> +"And in women who can organize and inform them," said Kenneth. +"First, firesides; then neighborhoods; that is the way the world's +life works out; and women have their hands at the heart of it. They +can do so much more there than by making the laws! When the life is +right, the laws will make themselves, or be no longer needed. They +are such mere outside patchwork,—makeshifts till a better time!" +</p> +<p> +"Wrong living must make wrong laws, whoever does the voting," said +Rosamond, sagely. +</p> +<p> +"False social standards make false commercial ones; inflated +pretensions demand inflated currency; selfish, untrue domestic +living eventuates in greedy speculations and business shams; and all +in the intriguing for corrupt legislation, to help out partial +interests. It isn't by multiplying the voting power, but by +purifying it, that the end is to be reached." +</p> +<p> +"That is so sententious, Kenneth, that I shall have to take it home +and ravel it out gradually in my mind in little shreds. In the mean +while, dear, suppose we stop in the village, and get some little +brown-ware cups for top-overs. You never ate any of my top-overs? +Well, when you do, you'll say that all the world ought to be brought +up on top-overs." +</p> +<p> +Rosamond was very particular about her little brown-ware cups. They +had to be real stone,—brown outside, and gray-blue in; and they +must be of a special size and depth. When they were found, and done +up in a long parcel, one within another, in stout paper, she carried +it herself to the chaise, and would scarcely let Kenneth hold it +while she got in; after which, she laid it carefully across her lap, +instead of putting it behind upon the cushion. +</p> +<p> +'You see they were rather dear; but they are the only kind worth +while. Those little yellow things would soak and crack, and never +look comfortable in the kitchen-closet. I give you very fair +warning, I shall always want the best of things but then I shall +take very fierce and jealous care of them,—like this.' +</p> +<p> +And she laid her little nicely-gloved hand across her homely +parcel, guardingly. +</p> +<p> +How nice it was to go buying little homely things together! Again, +it was as good and pleasant,—and meant ever so much more,—than if +it had been ordering china with a monogram in Dresden, or glass in +Prague, with a coat-of-arms engraved. +</p> +<p> +When they drove up to the Horseshoe, Dakie Thayne and Ruth met them. +They had been getting "spiritual ferns" and sumach leaves with +Dorris; "the dearest little tips," Ruth said, "of scarlet and +carbuncle, just like jets of fire." +</p> +<p> +And now they would go back to tea, and eat up the brown cake? +</p> +<p> +"Real Westover summum-bonum cake?" Dakie wanted to know. "Well, he +couldn't stand against that. Come, Ruthie!" And Ruthie came. +</p> +<p> +"What do you think Rosamond says?" said Kenneth, at the tea-table, +over the cake. "That everybody ought to live in a city or a village, +or, at least, a Horseshoe. She thinks nobody has a right to stick +his elbows out, in this world. She's in a great hurry to be packed +as closely as possible here." +</p> +<p> +"I wish the houses were all finished, and our neighbors in; that is +what I said," said Rosamond. "I should like to begin to know about +them, and feel settled; and to see flowers in their windows, and +lights at night." +</p> +<p> +"And you always hated so a 'little crowd!'" said Ruth. +</p> +<p> +"It isn't a crowd when they <i>don't</i> crowd," said Rosamond. "I can't +bear little miserable jostles." +</p> +<p> +"How good it will be to see Rosamond here, at the head of her court; +at the top of the Horseshoe," said Dakie Thayne. "She will be quite +the 'Queen of the County.'" +</p> +<p> +"Don't!" said Rosamond. "I've a very weak spot in my head. You can't +tell the mischief you might do. No, I won't be queen!" +</p> +<p> +"Any more than you can help," said Dakie. +</p> +<p> +"She'll be Rosa Mundi, wherever she is," said Ruth affectionately. +</p> +<p> +"I think that is just grand of Kenneth and Rosamond," said Dakie +Thayne, as he and Ruth were walking home up West Hill in the +moonlight, afterward. "What do you think you and I ought to do, one +of these days, Ruthie? It sets me to considering. There are more +Horseshoes to make, I suppose, if the world is to jog on." +</p> +<p> +"<i>You</i> have a great deal to consider about," said Ruth, +thoughtfully. "It was quite easy for Kenneth and Rosamond to +see what they ought to do. But you might make a great many +Horseshoes,—or something!" +</p> +<p> +"What do you mean by that second person plural, eh? Are you shirking +your responsibilities, or are you addressing your imaginary +Boffinses? Come, Ruthie, I can't have that! Say 'we,' and I'll face +the responsibilities and talk it all out; but I won't have anything +to do with 'you!'" +</p> +<p> +"Won't you?" said Ruth, with piteous demureness. "How can I say +'we,' then?" +</p> +<p> +"You little cat! How you can scratch!" +</p> +<p> +"There are such great things to be done in the world Dakie," Ruth +said seriously, when they had got over that with a laugh that lifted +her nicely by the "we" question. "I can't help thinking of it." +</p> +<p> +"O," said Dakie, with significant satisfaction. "We're getting on +better. Well?" +</p> +<p> +"Do you know what Hazel Ripwinkley is doing? And what Luclarion +Grapp has done? Do you know how they are going among poor people, in +dreadful places,—really living among them, Luclarion is,—and +finding out, and helping, and showing how? I thought of that +to-night, when they talked about living in cities and villages. +Luclarion has gone away down to the very bottom of it. And somehow, +one can't feel satisfied with only reaching half-way, when one +knows—and might!" +</p> +<p> +"Do you mean, Ruthie, that you and I might go and <i>live</i> in such +places? Do you think I could take you there?" +</p> +<p> +"I don't know, Dakie," Ruth answered, forgetting in her earnestness, +to blush or hesitate for what he said;—"but I feel as if we ought +to reach down, somehow,—<i>away</i> down! Because that, you see, is the +<i>most</i>. And to do only a little, in an easy way, when we are made so +strong to do; wouldn't it be a waste of power, and a missing of the +meaning? Isn't it the 'much' that is required of us, Dakie?" +</p> +<p> +They were under the tall hedge of the Holabird "parcel of ground," +on the Westover slope, and close to the home gates. Dakie Thayne put +his arm round Ruth as she said that, and drew her to him. +</p> +<p> +"We will go and be neighbors somewhere, Ruthie. And we will make as +big a Horseshoe as we can." +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0022"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XXII. +</h2> +<h3> + MORNING GLORIES. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +And Desire? +</p> +<p> +Do you think I have passed her over lightly in her troubles? Or do +you think I am making her out to have herself passed over them +lightly? +</p> +<p> +Do you think it is hardly to be believed that she should have turned +round from these shocks and pains that bore down so heavily and all +at once upon her, and taken kindly to the living with old Uncle +Titus and Rachel Froke in the Greenley Street house, and going down +to Luclarion Grapp's to help wash little children's faces, and teach +them how to have innocent good times? Do you think there is little +making up in all that for her, while Rosamond Kincaid is happy in +her new home, and Ruth and Dakie Thayne are looking out together +over the world,—which can be nowhere wholly sad to them, since they +are to go down into it together,—and planning how to make long arms +with their wealth, to reach the largest neighborhood they can? In +the first place, do you know how full the world is, all around you, +of things that are missed by those who say nothing, but go on living +somehow without them? Do you know how large a part of life, even +young life, is made of the days that have never been lived? Do you +guess how many girls, like Desire, come near something that they +think they might have had, and then see it drift by just beyond +their reach, to fall easily into some other hand that seems hardly +put out to grasp it? +</p> +<p> +And do you see, or feel, or guess how life goes on, incompleteness +and all, and things settle themselves one way, if not another, +simply because the world does not stop, but keeps turning, and +tossing off days and nights like time-bubbles just the same? +</p> +<p> +Do you ever imagine how different this winter's parties are from +last, or this summer's visit or journey from those of the summer +gone,—to many a maiden who has her wardrobe made up all the same, +and takes her German or her music lessons, and goes in and out, and +has her ticket to the Symphony Concerts, and is no different to look +at, unless perhaps with a little of the first color-freshness gone +out of her face,—while secretly it seems to her as if the sweet +early symphony of her life were all played out, and had ended in a +discord? +</p> +<p> +We begin, most of us, much as we are to go on. Real or mistaken, the +experiences of eighteen initiate the lesson that those of two and +three score after years are needed to unfold and complete. What is +left of us is continually turning round, perforce, to take up with +what is left of the world, and make the best of it. +</p> +<p> +Thus much for what does happen, for what we have to put up with, for +the mere philosophy of endurance, and the possibility of things +being endured. We do live out our years, and get and bear it all. +And the scars do not show much outside; nay, even we ourselves can +lay a finger on the place, after a little time, without a cringe. +</p> +<p> +Desire Ledwith did what she had to do; there was a way made for her, +and there was still life left. +</p> +<p> +But there is a better reading of the riddle. There is never a +"Might-have-been" that touches with a sting, but reveals also to us +an inner glimpse of the wide and beautiful "May Be." It is all +there; somebody else has it now while we wait; but the years of God +are full of satisfying, each soul shall have its turn; it is His +good <i>pleasure</i> to give us the kingdom. There is so much room, there +are such thronging possibilities, there is such endless hope! +</p> +<p> +To feel this, one must feel, however dimly, the inner realm, out of +which the shadows of this life come and pass, to interpret to us the +laid up reality. +</p> +<p> +"The real world is the inside world." +</p> +<p> +Desire Ledwith blessed Uncle Oldways in her heart for giving her +that word. +</p> +<p> +It comforted her for her father. If his life here had been hard, +toilsome, mistaken even; if it had never come to that it might have +come to; if she, his own child, had somehow missed the reality of +him here, and he of her,—was he not passed now into the within? +Might she not find him there; might they not silently and +spiritually, without sign, but needing no sign, begin to understand +each other now? Was not the real family just beginning to be born +into the real home? +</p> +<p> +Ah, that word <i>real</i>! How deep we have to go to find the root of it! +It is fast by the throne of God; in the midst. +</p> +<p> +Hazel Ripwinkley talked about "real folks." She sifted, and she +found out instinctively the true livers, the genuine <i>neahburs</i>, +nigh-dwellers; they who abide alongside in spirit, who shall find +each other in the everlasting neighborhood, when the veil falls. +</p> +<p> +But there, behind,—how little, in our petty outside vexations or +gladnesses, we stop to think of or perceive it!—is the actual, even +the present, inhabiting; there is the kingdom, the continuing city, +the real heaven and earth in which we already live and labor, and +build up our homes and lay up our treasure and the loving Christ, +and the living Father, and the innumerable company of angels, and +the unseen compassing about of friends gone in there, and they on +this earth who truly belong to us inwardly, however we and they may +be bodily separated,—are the Real Folks! +</p> +<p> +What matters a little pain, outside? Go <i>in</i>, and rest from it! +</p> +<p> +There is where the joy is, that we read outwardly, spelling by +parts imperfectly, in our own and others' mortal experience; there +is the content of homes, the beauty of love, the delight of +friendship,—not shut in to any one or two, but making the common +air that all souls breathe. No one heart can be happy, that all +hearts may not have a share of it. Rosamond and Kenneth, Dakie and +Ruth, cannot live out obviously any sweetness of living, cannot +sing any notes of the endless, beautiful score, that Desire +Ledwith, and Luclarion Grapp, and Rachel Froke, and Hapsie +Craydocke, and old Miss Arabel Waite, do not just as truly get the +blessed grace and understanding of; do not catch and feel the +perfect and abounding harmony of. Since why? No lip can sound more +than its own few syllables of music; no life show more than its +own few accidents and incidents and groupings; the vast melody, +the rich, eternal satisfying, are behind; and the signs are for us +all! +</p> +<p> +You may not think this, or see it so, in your first tussle and +set-to with the disappointing and eluding things that seem the real +and only,—missing which you miss all. This chapter may be less to +you—less <i>for</i> you, perhaps—than for your elders; the story may +have ended, as to that you care for, some pages back; but for all +that, this is certain; and Desire Ledwith has begun to find it, for +she is one of those true, grand spirits to whom personal loss or +frustration are most painful as they seem to betoken something +wrong or failed in the general scheme and justice. This terrible +"why should it be?" once answered,—once able to say to themselves +quietly, "It is all right; the beauty and the joy are there; the +song is sung, though we are of the listeners; the miracle-play is +played, though but a few take literal part, and many of us look on, +with the play, like the song, moving through our souls only, or our +souls moving in the vital sphere of it, where the stage is wide +enough for all;"—once come to this, they have entered already into +that which is behind, and nothing of all that goes forth thence into +the earth to make its sunshine can be shut off from them forever. +</p> +<p> +Desire is learning to be glad, thinking of Kenneth and Rosamond, +that this fair marriage should have been. It is so just and exactly +best; Rosamond's sweet graciousness is so precisely what Kenneth's +sterner way needed to have shine upon it; her finding and making of +all manner of pleasantness will be so good against his sharp +discernment of the wrong; they will so beautifully temper and +sustain each other! +</p> +<p> +Desire is so generous, so glad of the truth, that she can stand +aside, and let this better thing be, and say to herself that it <i>is</i> +better. +</p> +<p> +Is not this that she is growing to inwardly, more blessed than any +marriage or giving in marriage? Is it not a partaking of the +heavenly Marriage Supper? +</p> +<p> +"We two might have grumbled at the world until we grumbled at each +other." +</p> +<p> +She even said that, calmly and plainly, to herself. +</p> +<p> +And then that manna was fed to her afresh of which she had been +given first to eat so long a while ago; that thought of "the Lamb in +the midst of the Throne" came back to her. Of the Tenderness deep +within the Almightiness that holds all earth and heaven and time and +circumstance in its grasp. Her little, young, ignorant human heart +begins to rest in that great warmth and gentleness; begins to be +glad to wait there for what shall arise out of it, moving the +Almightiness for her,—even on purpose for her,—in the by-and-by; +she begins to be sure; of what, she knows not,—but of a great, +blessed, beautiful something, that just because she is at all, shall +be for her; that she shall have a part, somehow, even in the +<i>showing</i> of His good; that into the beautiful miracle-play she +shall be called, and a new song be given her, also, to sing in the +grand, long, perfect oratorio; she begins to pray quietly, that, +"loving the Lord, always above all things, she may obtain His +promises, which exceed all that she can desire." +</p> +<p> +And waiting, resting, believing, she begins also to work. This +beginning is even as an ending and forehaving, to any human soul. +</p> +<p> +I will tell you how she woke one morning; of a little poem that +wrote itself along her chamber wall. +</p> +<p> +It was a square, pleasant old room, with a window in an angle toward +the east. A great, old-fashioned mirror hung opposite, between the +windows that looked out north-westwardly; the morning and the +evening light came in upon her. Beside the solid, quaint old +furnishings of a long past time, there were also around her the +things she had been used to at home; her own little old +rocking-chair, her desk and table, and her toilet and mantel +ornaments and things of use. A pair of candle-branches with dropping +lustres,—that she had marveled at and delighted in as a child, and +had begged for herself when they fell into disuse in the +drawing-room,—stood upon the chimney along which the first +sun-rays glanced. Just in those days of the year, they struck in so +as to shine level through the clear prisms, and break into a hundred +little rainbows. +</p> +<p> +She opened her eyes, this fair October morning, and lay and looked +at the little scattered glories. +</p> +<p> +All around the room, on walls, curtains, ceiling,—falling like +bright soft jewels upon table and floor, touching everything with a +magic splendor,—were globes and shafts of colored light. Softly +blended from glowing red to tenderly fervid blue, they lay in +various forms and fragments, as the beam refracted or the objects +caught them. +</p> +<p> +Just on the edge of the deep, opposite window-frame, clung one +vivid, separate flash of perfect azure, all alone, and farthest off +of all. +</p> +<p> +Desire wondered, at first glance, how it should happen till she saw, +against a closet-door ajar, a gibbous sphere of red and golden +flame. Yards apart the points were, and a shadow lay between; but +the one sure sunbeam knew no distance, and there was no radiant line +of the spectrum lost. +</p> +<p> +Desire remembered her old comparison of complementary colors: "to +see blue, and to live red," she had said, complaining. +</p> +<p> +But now she thought,—"Foreshortening! In so many things, that is +all,—if we could only see as the Sun sees!" +</p> +<p> +One bit of our living, by itself, all one deep, burning, bleeding +color, maybe; but the globe is white,—the blue is somewhere. And, +lo! a soft, still motion; a little of the flame-tint has dropped +off; it has leaped to join itself to the blue; it gives itself over; +and they are beautiful together,—they fulfill each other; yet, in +the changing never a thread falls quite away into the dark. Why, it +is like love joining itself to love again! +</p> +<p> +As God's sun climbs the horizon, His steadfast, gracious purpose, +striking into earthly conditions, seems to break, and scatter, and +divide. Half our heart is here, half there; our need and ache are +severed from their help and answer; the tender blue waits far off +for the eager, asking red; yet just as surely as His light shines +on, and our life moves under it, so surely, across whatever gulf, +the beauty shall all be one again; so surely does it even now move +all together, perfect and close always under His eye, who never +sends a <i>half</i> ray anywhere. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +She read her little poem,—sent to her; she read it through. She +rose up glad and strong; her room was full of glorious sunshine now; +the broken bits of color were all taken up in one full pouring of +the day. +</p> +<p> +She went down with the light of it in her heart, and all about her. +</p> +<p> +Uncle Oldways met her at the foot of the wide staircase. "Good-day, +child!" he said to her in his quaint fashion. "Why it <i>is</i> good day! +Your face shines." +</p> +<p> +"You have given me a beautiful east window, uncle," said Desire, +"and the morning has come in!" +</p> +<p> +And from the second step, where she still stood, she bent forward a +little, put her hands softly upon his shoulders, and for the first +time, kissed his cheek. +</p> + + +<div style="height: 6em;"><br><br><br><br><br><br></div> +<div>*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 13997 ***</div> +</body> +</html> diff --git a/LICENSE.txt b/LICENSE.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6312041 --- /dev/null +++ b/LICENSE.txt @@ -0,0 +1,11 @@ +This eBook, including all associated images, markup, improvements, +metadata, and any other content or labor, has been confirmed to be +in the PUBLIC DOMAIN IN THE UNITED STATES. + +Procedures for determining public domain status are described in +the "Copyright How-To" at https://www.gutenberg.org. + +No investigation has been made concerning possible copyrights in +jurisdictions other than the United States. 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MORNING GLORIES + + + + + +I. + +THIS WAY, AND THAT. + + +The parlor blinds were shut, and all the windows of the third-story +rooms were shaded; but the pantry window, looking out on a long low +shed, such as city houses have to keep their wood in and to dry +their clothes upon, was open; and out at this window had come two +little girls, with quiet steps and hushed voices, and carried their +books and crickets to the very further end, establishing themselves +there, where the shade of a tall, round fir tree, planted at the +foot of the yard below, fell across the building of a morning. + +"It was prettier down on the bricks," Luclarion had told them. But +they thought otherwise. + +"Luclarion doesn't know," said Frank. "People _don't_ know things, I +think. I wonder why, when they've got old, and ought to? It's like +the sea-shore here, I guess, only the stones are all stuck down, and +you mustn't pick up the loose ones either." + +Frank touched lightly, as she spoke, the white and black and gray +bits of gravel that covered the flat roof. + +"And it smells--like the pine forests!" + +The sun was hot and bright upon the fir branches and along the +tar-cemented roof. + +"How do you know about sea-shores and pine forests?" asked Laura, +with crushing common sense. + +"I don't know; but I do," said Frank. + +"You don't know anything but stories and pictures and one tree, and +a little gravel, all stuck down tight." + +"I'm glad I've got one tree. And the rest of it,--why listen! It's +in the _word_, Laura. _Forest_. Doesn't that sound like thousands of +them, all fresh and rustling? And Ellen went to the sea-shore, in +that book; and picked up pebbles; and the sea came up to her feet, +just as the air comes up here, and you can't get any farther,"--said +Frank, walking to the very edge and putting one foot out over, while +the wind blew in her face up the long opening between rows of brick +houses of which theirs was in the midst upon one side. + +"A great sea!" exclaimed Laura, contemptuously. "With all those +other wood-sheds right out in it, all the way down!" + +"Well, there's another side to the sea; and capes, and islands," +answered Frank, turning back. "Besides, I don't pretend it _is_; I +only think it seems a little bit like it. I'm often put in mind of +things. I don't know why." + +"I'll tell you what it is like," said Laura. "It's like the gallery +at church, where the singers stand up in a row, and look down, and +all the people look up at them. I like high places. I like Cecilia, +in the 'Bracelets,' sitting at the top, behind, when her name was +called out for the prize; and 'they all made way, and she was on the +floor in an instant.' I should like to have been Cecilia!" + +"Leonora was a great deal the best." + +"I know it; but she don't _stand out_." + +"Laura! You're just like the Pharisees! You're always wishing for +long clothes and high seats!" + +"There ain't any Pharisees, nowadays," said Laura, securely. After +which, of course, there was nothing more to be insisted. + +Mrs. Lake, the housekeeper, came to the middle upper window, and +moved the blind a little. Frank and Laura were behind the fir. They +saw her through the branches. She, through the farther thickness of +the tree, did not notice them. + +"That was good," said Laura. "She would have beckoned us in. I hate +that forefinger of hers; it's always hushing or beckoning. It's only +two inches long. What makes us have to mind it so?" + +"She puts it all into those two inches," answered Frank. "All the +_must_ there is in the house. And then you've got to." + +"I wouldn't--if father wasn't sick." + +"Laura," said Frank, gravely, "I don't believe father is going to +get well. What do you suppose they're letting us stay at home from +school for?" + +"O, that," said Laura, "was because Mrs. Lake didn't have time to +sew the sleeves into your brown dress." + +"I could have worn my gingham, Laura. What if he should die pretty +soon? I heard her tell Luclarion that there must be a change before +long. They talk in little bits, Laura, and they say it solemn." + +The children were silent for a few minutes. Frank sat looking +through the fir-tree at the far-off flecks of blue. + +Mr. Shiere had been ill a long time. They could hardly think, now, +what it would seem again not to have a sick father; and they had had +no mother for several years,--many out of their short remembrance of +life. Mrs. Lake had kept the house, and mended their clothes, and +held up her forefinger at them. Even when Mr. Shiere was well, he +had been a reserved man, much absorbed in business since his wife's +death, he had been a very sad man. He loved his children, but he was +very little with them. Frank and Laura could not feel the shock and +loss that children feel when death comes and robs them suddenly of a +close companionship. + +"What do you suppose would happen then?" asked Laura, after awhile. +"We shouldn't be anybody's children." + +"Yes, we should," said Frank; "we should be God's.' + +"Everybody else is that,--_besides_," said Laura. + +"We shall have black silk pantalets again, I suppose,"--she began, +afresh, looking down at her white ones with double crimped +ruffles,--"and Mrs. Gibbs will come in and help, and we shall have +to pipe and overcast." + +"O, Laura, how nice it was ever so long ago!" cried Frank, suddenly, +never heeding the pantalets, "when mother sent us out to ask company +to tea,--that pleasant Saturday, you know,--and made lace pelerines +for our dolls while we were gone! It's horrid, when other girls have +mothers, only to have a _housekeeper_! And pretty soon we sha'n't +have anything, only a little corner, away back, that we can't hardly +recollect." + +"They'll do something with us; they always do," said Laura, +composedly. + +The children of this world, even _as_ children, are wisest in their +generation. Frank believed they would be God's children; she could +not see exactly what was to come of that, though, practically. Laura +knew that people always did something; something would be sure to +be done with them. She was not frightened; she was even a little +curious. + +A head came up at the corner of the shed behind them, a pair of +shoulders,--high, square, turned forward; a pair of arms, long +thence to the elbows, as they say women's are who might be good +nurses of children; the hands held on to the sides of the steep +steps that led up from the bricked yard. The young woman's face was +thin and strong; two great, clear, hazel eyes looked straight out, +like arrow shots; it was a clear, undeviating glance; it never +wandered, or searched, or wavered, any more than a sunbeam; it +struck full upon whatever was there; it struck _through_ many things +that were transparent to their quality. She had square, white, +strong teeth, that set together like the faces of a die; they showed +easily when she spoke, but the lips closed over them absolutely and +firmly. Yet they were pleasant lips, and had a smile in them that +never went quite out; it lay in all the muscles of the mouth and +chin; it lay behind, in the living spirit that had moulded to itself +the muscles. + +This was Luclarion. + +"Your Aunt Oldways and Mrs. Oferr have come. Hurry in!" + +Now Mrs. Oldways was only an uncle's wife; Mrs. Oferr was their +father's sister. But Mrs. Oferr was a rich woman who lived in New +York, and who came on grand and potent, with a scarf or a pair of +shoe-bows for each of the children in her big trunk, and a hundred +and one suggestions for their ordering and behavior at her tongue's +end, once a year. Mrs. Oldways lived up in the country, and was +"aunt" to half the neighborhood at home, and turned into an aunt +instantly, wherever she went and found children. If there were no +children, perhaps older folks did not call her by the name, but they +felt the special human kinship that is of no-blood or law, but is +next to motherhood in the spirit. + +Mrs. Oferr found the open pantry window, before the children had +got in. + +"Out there!" she exclaimed, "in the eyes of all the neighbors in the +circumstances of the family! Who does, or _don't_ look after you?" + +"Hearts'-sake!" came up the pleasant tones of Mrs. Oldways from +behind, "how can they help it? There isn't any other out-doors. If +they were down at Homesworth now, there'd be the lilac garden and +the old chestnuts, and the seat under the wall. Poor little souls!" +she added, pitifully, as she lifted them in, and kissed them. "It's +well they can take any comfort. Let 'em have all there is." + +Mrs. Oferr drew the blinds, and closed the window. + +Frank and Laura remembered the strangeness of that day all their +lives. How they sat, shy and silent, while Luclarion brought in cake +and wine; how Mrs. Oferr sat in the large morocco easy-chair and +took some; and Mrs. Oldways lifted Laura, great girl as she was, +into her lap first, and broke a slice for her; how Mrs. Oldways went +up-stairs to Mrs. Lake, and then down into the kitchen to do +something that was needed; and Mrs. Oferr, after she had visited her +brother, lay down in the spare chamber for a nap, tired with her +long journey from New York, though it had been by boat and cars, +while there was a long staging from Homesworth down to Nashua, on +Mrs. Oldways' route. Mrs. Oldways, however, was "used," she said, +"to stepping round." It was the sitting that had tired her. + +How they were told not to go out any more, or to run up and +down-stairs; and how they sat in the front windows, looking out +through the green slats at so much of the street world as they could +see in strips; how they obtained surreptitious bits of bread from +dinner, and opened a bit of the sash, and shoved out crumbs under +the blinds for the pigeons that flew down upon the sidewalk; how +they wondered what kind of a day it was in other houses, where there +were not circumstances in the family, where children played, and +fathers were not ill, but came and went to and from their stores; +and where two aunts had not come, both at once, from great ways off, +to wait for something strange and awful that was likely to befall. + +When they were taken in, at bedtime, to kiss their father and say +good-night, there was something portentous in the stillness there; +in the look of the sick man, raised high against the pillows, and +turning his eyes wistfully toward them, with no slightest movement +of the head; in the waiting aspect of all things,--the appearance as +of everybody being to sit up all night except themselves. + +Edward Shiere brought his children close to him with the magnetism +of that look; they bent down to receive his kiss and his good-night, +so long and solemn. He had not been in the way of talking to them +about religion in his life. He had only insisted on their truth and +obedience; that was the beginning of all religion. Now it was given +him in the hour of his death what he should speak; and because he +had never said many such words to them before, they fell like the +very touch of the Holy Ghost upon their young spirits now,-- + +"Love God, and keep His commandments. Good-by." + +In the morning, when they woke, Mrs. Lake was in their room, talking +in a low voice with Mrs. Oferr, who stood by an open bureau. They +heard Luclarion dusting down the stairs. + +Who was taking care of their father? + +They did not ask. In the night, he had been taken care of. It was +morning with him, now, also. + +Mrs. Lake and Mrs. Oferr were calculating,--about black pantalets, +and other things. + +This story is not with the details of their early orphan life. When +Edward Shiere was buried came family consultations. The two aunts +were the nearest friends. Nobody thought of Mr. Titus Oldways. He +never was counted. He was Mrs. Shiere's uncle,--Aunt Oldways' +uncle-in-law, therefore, and grand-uncle to these children. But +Titus Oldways never took up any family responsibilities; he had been +shy of them all his single, solitary life. He seemed to think he +could not drop them as he could other things, if he did not find +them satisfactory. Besides, what would he know about two young +girls? + +He saw the death in the paper, and came to the funeral; then he went +away again to his house in Greenley Street at the far West End, and +to his stiff old housekeeper, Mrs. Froke, who knew his stiff old +ways. And, turning his back on everybody, everybody forgot all about +him. Except as now and then, at intervals of years, there broke out +here or there, at some distant point in some family crisis, a sudden +recollection from which would spring a half suggestion, "Why, +there's Uncle Titus! If he was only,"--or, "if he would only,"--and +there it ended. Much as it might be with a housewife, who says of +some stored-away possession forty times, perhaps, before it ever +turns out available, "Why, there's that old gray taffety! If it were +only green, now!" or, "If there were three or four yards more of +it!" + +Uncle Titus was just Uncle Titus, neither more nor less; so Mrs. +Oferr and Aunt Oldways consulted about their own measures and +materials; and never reckoned the old taffety at all. There was +money enough to clothe and educate; little more. + +"I will take home _one_," said Mrs. Oferr, distinctly. + +So, they were to be separated? + +They did not realize what this was, however. They were told of +letters and visits; of sweet country-living, of city sights and +pleasures; of kittens and birds' nests, and the great barns; of +music and dancing lessons, and little parties,--"by-and-by, when it +was proper." + +"Let me go to Homesworth," whispered Frank to Aunt Oldways. + +Laura gravitated as surely to the streets and shops, and the great +school of young ladies. + +"One taken and the other left," quoted Luclarion, over the packing +of the two small trunks. + +"We're both going," says Laura, surprised. "_One_ taken? Where?" + +"Where the carcass is," answered Luclarion. + +"There's one thing you'll have to see to for yourselves. I can't +pack it. It won't go into the trunks." + +"What, Luclarion?" + +"What your father said to you that night." + +They were silent. Presently Frank answered, softly,--"I hope I +shan't forget that." + +Laura, the pause once broken, remarked, rather glibly, that she "was +afraid there wouldn't be much chance to recollect things at Aunt +Oferr's." + +"She isn't exactly what I call a heavenly-minded woman," said +Luclarion, quietly. + +"She is very much _occupied_," replied Laura, grandly taking up the +Oferr style. "She visits a great deal, and she goes out in the +carriage. You have to change your dress every day for dinner, and +I'm to take French lessons." + +The absurd little sinner was actually proud of her magnificent +temptations. She was only a child. Men and women never are, of +course. + +"I'm afraid it will be pretty hard to remember," repeated Laura, +with condescension. + +"_That's_ your stump!" + +Luclarion fixed the steadfast arrow of her look straight upon her, +and drew the bow with this twang. + + + + +II. + +LUCLARION. + + +How Mrs. Grapp ever came to, was the wonder. Her having the baby was +nothing. Her having the name for it was the astonishment. + +Her own name was Lucy; her husband's Luther: that, perhaps, +accounted for the first syllable; afterwards, whether her mind +lapsed off into combinations of such outshining appellatives as +"Clara" and "Marion," or whether Mr. Grapp having played the +clarionet, and wooed her sweetly with it in her youth, had anything +to do with it, cannot be told; but in those prescriptive days of +quiet which followed the domestic advent, the name did somehow grow +together in the fancy of Mrs. Luther; and in due time the life-atom +which had been born indistinguishable into the natural world, was +baptized into the Christian Church as "Luclarion" Grapp. +Thenceforth, and no wonder, it took to itself a very especial +individuality, and became what this story will partly tell. + +Marcus Grapp, who had the start of Luclarion in this "meander,"--as +their father called the vale of tears,--by just two years' time, and +was y-_clipped_, by everybody but his mother "Mark,"--in his turn, +as they grew old together, cut his sister down to "Luke." Then +Luther Grapp called them both "The Apostles." And not far wrong; +since if ever the kingdom of heaven does send forth its +Apostles--nay, its little Christs--into the work on earth, in these +days, it is as little children into loving homes. + +The Apostles got up early one autumn morning, when Mark was about +six years old, and Luke four. They crept out of their small +trundle-bed in their mother's room adjoining the great kitchen, and +made their way out softly to the warm wide hearth. + +There were new shoes, a pair apiece, brought home from the Mills the +night before, set under the little crickets in the corners. These +had got into their dreams, somehow, and into the red rooster's first +halloo from the end room roof, and into the streak of pale daylight +that just stirred and lifted the darkness, and showed doors and +windows, but not yet the blue meeting-houses on the yellow +wall-paper, by which they always knew when it was really morning; +and while Mrs. Grapp was taking that last beguiling nap in which one +is conscious that one means to get up presently, and rests so +sweetly on one's good intentions, letting the hazy mirage of the +day's work that is to be done play along the horizon of dim thoughts +with its unrisen activities,--two little flannel night-gowns were +cuddled in small heaps by the chimney-side, little bare feet were +trying themselves into the new shoes, and lifting themselves up, +crippled with two inches of stout string between the heels. + +Then the shoes were turned into spans of horses, and chirruped and +trotted softly into their cricket-stables; and then--what else was +there to do, until the strings were cut, and the flannel night-gowns +taken off? + +It was so still out here, in the big, busy, day-time room; it was +like getting back where the world had not begun; surely one must do +something wonderful with the materials all lying round, and such an +opportunity as that. + +It was old-time then, when kitchens had fire-places; or rather the +house was chiefly fire-place, in front of and about which was more +or less of kitchen-space. In the deep fire-place lay a huge mound of +gray ashes, a Vesuvius, under which red bowels of fire lay hidden. +In one corner of the chimney leaned an iron bar, used sometimes in +some forgotten, old fashioned way, across dogs or pothooks,--who +knows now? At any rate, there it always was. + +Mark, ambitious, put all his little strength to it this morning and +drew it down, carefully, without much clatter, on the hearth. Then +he thought how it would turn red under those ashes, where the big +coals were, and how it would shine and sparkle when he pulled it out +again, like the red-hot, hissing iron Jack-the-Giant-Killer struck +into the one-eyed monster's eye. So he shoved it in; and forgot it +there, while he told Luke--very much twisted and dislocated, and +misjoined--the leading incidents of the giant story; and then lapsed +off, by some queer association, into the Scripture narrative of +Joseph and his brethren, who "pulled his red coat off, and put him +in a _fit_, and left him there." + +"And then what?" says Luke. + +"Then,--O, my iron's done! See here, Luke!"--and taking it prudently +with the tongs, he pulled back the rod, till the glowing end, a foot +or more of live, palpitating, flamy red, lay out upon the broad open +bricks. + +"There, Luke! You daresn't put your foot on _that_!" + +Dear little Luke, who wouldn't, at even four years old, be dared! + +And dear little white, tender, pink-and-lily foot! + +The next instant, a shriek of pain shot through Mrs. Grapp's ears, +and sent her out of her dreams and out of her bed, and with one +single impulse into the kitchen, with her own bare feet, and in her +night-gown. + +The little foot had only touched; a dainty, timid, yet most +resolute touch; but the sweet flesh shriveled, and the fierce +anguish ran up every fibre of the baby body, to the very heart and +brain. + +"O! O, O!" came the long, pitiful, shivering cries, as the mother +gathered her in her arms. + +"What is it? What did you do? How came you to?" And all the while +she moved quickly here and there, to cupboard and press-drawer, +holding the child fast, and picking up as she could with one hand, +cotton wool, and sweet-oil flask, and old linen bits; and so she +bound it up, saying still, every now and again, as all she could +say,--"What _did_ you do? How came you to?" + +Till, in a little lull of the fearful smart, as the air was shut +away, and the oil felt momentarily cool upon the ache, Luke answered +her,-- + +"He hed I dare-hn't, and ho I did!" + +"You little fool!" + +The rough word was half reaction of relief, that the child could +speak at all, half horrible spasm of all her own motherly nerves +that thrilled through and through with every pang that touched the +little frame, hers also. Mothers never do part bonds with babies +they have borne. Until the day they die, each quiver of their life +goes back straight to the heart beside which it began. + +"You Marcus! What did you mean?" + +"I meant she darsn't; and she no business to 'a dars't," said Mark, +pale with remorse and fright, but standing up stiff and manful, with +bare common sense, when brought to bay. And then he marched away +into his mother's bedroom, plunged his head down into the clothes, +and cried,--harder than Luclarion. + +Nobody wore any new shoes that day; Mark for a punishment,--though +he flouted at the penalty as such, with an, "I guess you'd see me!" +And there were many days before poor little Luclarion could wear any +shoes at all. + +The foot got well, however, without hindrance. But Luke was the same +little fool as ever; that was not burnt out. She would never be +"dared" to anything. + +They called it "stumps" as they grew older. They played "stumps" all +through the barns and woods and meadows; over walls and rocks, and +rafters and house-roofs. But the burnt foot saved Luke's neck scores +of times, doubtless. Mark remembered it; he never "stumped" her to +any certain hurt, or where he could not lead the way himself. + +The mischief they got into and out of is no part of my story; but +one day something happened--things do happen as far back in lives as +that--which gave Luclarion her clew to the world. + +They had got into the best parlor,--that sacred place of the New +England farm-house, that is only entered by the high-priests +themselves on solemn festivals, weddings and burials, Thanksgivings +and quiltings; or devoutly, now and then to set the shrine in order, +shut the blinds again, and so depart, leaving it to gather the gloom +and grandeur that things and places and people do when they are good +for nothing else. + +The children had been left alone; for their mother had gone to a +sewing society, and Grashy, the girl, was up-stairs in her +kitchen-chamber-bedroom, with a nail over the door-latch to keep +them out while she "fixed over" her best gown. + +"Le's play Lake Ontario," says Marcus. + +Now Lake Ontario, however they had pitched upon it, stood with them +for all the waters that are upon the face of the earth, and all the +confusion and peril of them. To play it, they turned the room into +one vast shipwreck, of upset and piled up chairs, stools, boxes, +buckets, and what else they could lay hands on; and among and over +them they navigated their difficult and hilarious way. By no means +were they to touch the floor; that was the Lake,--that were to +drown. + +It was Columbus sometimes; sometimes it was Captain Cook; to-day, it +was no less than Jason sailing after the golden fleece. + +Out of odd volumes in the garret, and out of "best books" taken down +from the secretary in the "settin'-room," and put into their hands, +with charges, of a Sunday, to keep them still, they had got these +things, jumbled into strange far-off and near fantasies in their +childish minds. "Lake Ontario" included and connected all. + +"I'll tell you what it is," said Marcus, tumbling up against the +parlor door and an idea at once. "In here!" + +"What?" asked Luke, breathless, without looking up, and paddling +with the shovel, from an inverted rocking-chair. + +"The golden thing! Hush!" + +At this moment Grashy came into the kitchen, took a little tin +kettle from a nail over the dresser, and her sun-bonnet from another +behind the door, and made her way through the apartment as well as +she could for bristling chair-legs, with exemplary placidity. She +was used to "Lake Ontario." + +"Don't get into any mischief, you Apostles," was her injunction. +"I'm goin' down to Miss Ruddock's for some 'east." + +"Good,"; says Mark, the instant the door was shut "Now this is +Colchis, and I'm going in." + +He pronounced it much like "cold-cheese," and it never occurred to +him that he was naming any unusual or ancient locality. There was a +"Jason" in the Mills Village. He kept a grocer's shop. Colchis might +be close by for all he knew; out beyond the wall, perhaps, among the +old barrels. Children _place_ all they read or hear about, or even +all they imagine, within a very limited horizon. They cannot go +beyond their world. Why should they? Neither could those very +venerable ancients. + +"'Tain't," says Luclarion, with unbeguiled practicality. "It's just +ma's best parlor, and you mustn't." + +It was the "mustn't" that was the whole of it. If Mark had asserted +that the back kitchen, or the cellar-way closet was Colchis, she +would have indorsed it with enthusiasm, and followed on like a loyal +Argonaut, as she was. But her imagination here was prepossessed. +Nothing in old fable could be more environed with awe and mystery +than this best parlor. + +"And, besides," said Luclarion, "I don't care for the golden +fleece; I'm tired of it. Let's play something else." + +"I'll tell you what there is in here," persisted Mark. "There's two +enchanted children. I've seen 'em!" + +"Just as though," said Luke contemptuously. "Ma ain't a witch." + +"Tain't ma. She don't know. They ain't visible to her. _She_ thinks +it's nothing but the best parlor. But it opens out, right into the +witch country,--not for her. 'Twill if we go. See if it don't." + +He had got hold of her now; Luclarion could not resist that. +Anything might be true of that wonderful best room, after all. It +was the farthest Euxine, the witch-land, everything, to them. + +So Mark turned the latch and they crept in + +"We must open a shutter," Mark said, groping his way. + +"Grashy will be back," suggested Luke, fearfully. + +"Guess so!" said Mark. "She ain't got coaxed to take her sun-bonnet +off yet, an' it'll take her ninety-'leven hours to get it on again." + +He had let in the light now from the south window. + +The red carpet on the floor; the high sofa of figured hair-cloth, +with brass-headed nails, and brass rosettes in the ends of the hard, +cylinder pillows; the tall, carved cupboard press, its doors and +drawers glittering with hanging brass handles; right opposite the +door by which they had come in, the large, leaning mirror, +gilt--garnished with grooved and beaded rim and an eagle and +ball-chains over the top,--all this, opening right in from the +familiar every-day kitchen and their Lake Ontario,--it certainly +meant something that such a place should be. It meant a great deal +more than sixteen feet square could hold, and what it really was did +not stop short at the gray-and-crimson stenciled walls. + +The two were all alone in it; perhaps they had never been all alone +in it before. I think, notwithstanding their mischief and +enterprise, they never had. + +And deep in the mirror, face to face with them, coming down, it +seemed, the red slant of an inner and more brilliant floor, they saw +two other little figures. Their own they knew, really, but elsewhere +they never saw their own figures entire. There was not another +looking-glass in the house that was more than two feet long, and +they were all hung up so high! + +"There!" whispered Mark. "There they are, and they can't get out." + +"Of course they can't," said sensible Luclarion. + +"If we only knew the right thing to say, or do, they might," said +Mark. "It's that they're waiting for, you see. They always do. It's +like the sleeping beauty Grashy told us." + +"Then they've got to wait a hundred years," said Luke. + +"Who knows when they began?" + +"They do everything that we do," said Luclarion, her imagination +kindling, but as under protest. "If we could jump in perhaps they +would jump out." + +"We might jump _at_ 'em," said Marcus. "Jest get 'em going, and +may-be they'd jump over. Le's try." + +So they set up two chairs from Lake Ontario in the kitchen doorway, +to jump from; but they could only jump to the middle round of the +carpet, and who could expect that the shadow children should be +beguiled by that into a leap over bounds? They only came to the +middle round of _their_ carpet. + +"We must go nearer; we must set the chairs in the middle, and jump +close. Jest _shave_, you know," said Marcus. + +"O, I'm afraid," said Luclarion. + +"I'll tell you what! Le's _run_ and jump! Clear from the other side +of the kitchen, you know. Then they'll have to run too, and may-be +they can't stop." + +So they picked up chairs and made a path, and ran from across the +broad kitchen into the parlor doorway, quite on to the middle round +of the carpet, and then with great leaps came down bodily upon the +floor close in front of the large glass that, leaned over them, with +two little fallen figures in it, rolling aside quickly also, over +the slanting red carpet. + +But, O dear what did it? + +Had the time come, anyhow, for the old string to part its last +fibre, that held the mirror tilting from the wall,--or was it the +crash of a completed spell? + +There came a snap,--a strain,--as some nails or screws that held it +otherwise gave way before the forward pressing weight, and down, +flat-face upon the floor, between the children, covering them with +fragments of splintered glass and gilded wood,--eagle, ball-chains, +and all,--that whole magnificence and mystery lay prostrate. + +Behind, where it had been, was a blank, brown-stained cobwebbed +wall, thrown up harsh and sudden against them, making the room +small, and all the enchanted chamber, with its red slanting carpet, +and its far reflected corners, gone. + +The house hushed up again after that terrible noise, and stood just +the same as ever. When a thing like that happens, it tells its own +story, just once, and then it is over. _People_ are different. They +keep talking. + +There was Grashy to come home. She had not got there in time to hear +the house tell it. She must learn it from the children. Why? + +"Because they knew," Luclarion said. "Because, then, they could not +wait and let it be found out." + +"We never touched it," said Mark. + +"We jumped," said Luke. + +"We couldn't help it, if _that_ did it. S'posin' we'd jumped in the +kitchen, or--the--flat-irons had tumbled down,--or anything? That +old string was all wore out." + +"Well, we was here, and we jumped; and we know." + +"We was here, of course; and of course we couldn't help knowing, +with all that slam-bang. Why, it almost upset Lake Ontario! We can +tell how it slammed, and how we thought the house was coming down. I +did." + +"And how we were in the best parlor, and how we jumped," reiterated +Luclarion, slowly. "Marcus, it's a stump!" + +They were out in the middle of Lake Ontario now, sitting right down +underneath the wrecks, upon the floor; that is, under water, without +ever thinking of it. The parlor door was shut, with all that +disaster and dismay behind it. + +"Go ahead, then!" said Marcus, and he laid himself back desperately +on the floor. "There's Grashy!" + +"Sakes and patience!" ejaculated Grashy, merrily, coming in. +"They're drownded,--dead, both of 'em; down to the bottom of Lake +Ontariah!" + +"No we ain't," said Luclarion, quietly. "It isn't Lake Ontario now. +It's nothing but a clutter. But there's an awful thing in the best +parlor, and we don't know whether we did it or not. We were in +there, and we jumped." + +Grashy went straight to the parlor door, and opened it. She looked +in, turned pale, and said "'Lection!" + +That is a word the women have, up in the country, for solemn +surprise, or exceeding emergency, or dire confusion. I do not know +whether it is derived from religion or politics. It denotes a vital +crisis, either way, and your hands full. Perhaps it had the +theological association in Grashy's mind, for the next thing she +said was, "My soul!" + +"Do you know what that's a sign of, you children?" + +"Sign the old thing was rotten," said Marcus, rather sullenly. + +"Wish that was all," said Grashy, her lips white yet. "Hope there +mayn't nothin' dreadful happen in this house before the year's out. +It's wuss'n thirteen at the table." + +"Do you s'pose we did it?" asked Luke, anxiously. + +"Where was you when it tumbled?" + +"Right in front of it. But we were rolling away. _We_ tumbled." + +"'Twould er come down the fust jar, anyway, if a door had slammed. +The string's cut right through," said Grashy, looking at the two +ends sticking up stiff and straight from the top fragment of the +frame. "But the mercy is you war'n't smashed yourselves to bits and +flinders. Think o'that!" + +"Do you s'pose ma'll think of that?" asked Luclarion. + +"Well--yes; but it may make her kinder madder,--just at first, you +know. Between you and me and the lookin'-glass, you see,--well, yer +ma is a pretty strong-feelin' woman," said Grashy, reflectively. +"'Fi was you I wouldn't say nothin' about it. What's the use? _I_ +shan't." + +"It's a stump," repeated Luclarion, sadly, but in very resolute +earnest. + +Grashy stared. + +"Well, if you ain't the curiousest young one, Luke Grapp!" said she, +only half comprehending. + +When Mrs. Grapp came home, Luclarion went into her bedroom after +her, and told her the whole story. Mrs. Grapp went into the parlor, +viewed the scene of calamity, took in the sense of loss and narrowly +escaped danger, laid the whole weight of them upon the disobedience +to be dealt with, and just as she had said, "You little fool!" out +of the very shock of her own distress when Luke had burned her baby +foot, she turned back now, took the two children up-stairs in +silence, gave them each a good old orthodox whipping, and tucked +them into their beds. + +They slept one on each side of the great kitchen-chamber. + +"Mark," whispered Luke, tenderly, after Mrs. Grapp's step had died +away down the stairs. "How do you feel?" + +"Hot!" said Mark. "How do you?" + +"You ain't mad with me, be you?" + +"No." + +"Then I feel real cleared up and comfortable. But it _was_ a stump, +wasn't it?" + + * * * * * + +From that time forward, Luclarion Grapp had got her light to go by. +She understood life. It was "stumps" all through. The Lord set them, +and let them; she found that out afterward, when she was older, and +"experienced religion." I think she was mistaken in the dates, +though; it was _recognition_, this later thing; the experience was +away back,--at Lake Ontario. + +It was a stump when her father died, and her mother had to manage +the farm, and she to help her. The mortgage they had to work off was +a stump; but faith and Luclarion's dairy did it. It was a stump when +Marcus wanted to go to college, and they undertook that, after the +mortgage. It was a stump when Adam Burge wanted her to marry him, +and go and live in the long red cottage at Side Hill, and she could +not go till they had got through with helping Marcus. It was a +terrible stump when Adam Burge married Persis Cone instead, and she +had to live on and bear it. It was a stump when her mother died, and +the farm was sold. + +Marcus married; he never knew; he had a belles-lettres professorship +in a new college up in D----. He would not take a cent of the farm +money; he had had his share long ago; the four thousand dollars +were invested for Luke. He did the best he could, and all he knew; +but human creatures can never pay each other back. Only God can do +that, either way. + +Luclarion did not stay in ----. There were too few there now, and +too many. She came down to Boston. Her two hundred and eighty +dollars a year was very good, as far as it went, but it would not +keep her idle; neither did she wish to live idle. She learned +dress-making; she had taste and knack; she was doing well; she +enjoyed going about from house to house for her days' work, and then +coming back to her snug room at night, and her cup of tea and her +book. + +Then it turned out that so much sewing was not good for her; her +health was threatened; she had been used to farm work and "all +out-doors." It was a "stump" again. That was all she called it; she +did not talk piously about a "cross." What difference did it make? +There is another word, also, for "cross" in Hebrew. + +Luclarion came at last to live with Mrs. Edward Shiere. And in that +household, at eight and twenty, we have just found her. + + + + +III. + +BY STORY-RAIL: TWENTY-SIX YEARS AN HOUR. + + +Laura Shiere did not think much about the "stump," when, in her dark +gray merino travelling dress, and her black ribbons, nicely +appointed, as Mrs. Oferr's niece should be, down to her black kid +gloves and broad-hemmed pocket-handkerchief, and little black straw +travelling-basket (for morocco bags were not yet in those days), she +stepped into the train with her aunt at the Providence Station, on +her way to Stonington and New York. + +The world seemed easily laid out before her. She was like a cousin +in a story-book, going to arrive presently at a new home, and begin +a new life, in which she would be very interesting to herself and to +those about her. She felt rather important, too, with her money +independence--there being really "property" of hers to be spoken of +as she had heard it of late. She had her mother's diamond ring on +her third finger, and was comfortably conscious of it when she drew +off her left-hand glove. Laura Shiere's nature had only been +stirred, as yet, a very little below the surface, and the surface +rippled pleasantly in the sunlight that was breaking forth from the +brief clouds. + +Among the disreputable and vociferous crowd of New York hack +drivers, that swarmed upon the pier as the _Massachusetts_ glided +into her dock, it was good to see that subduedly respectable and +consciously private and superior man in the drab overcoat and the +nice gloves and boots, who came forward and touched his hat to Mrs. +Oferr, took her shawl and basket, and led the way, among the +aggravated public menials, to a handsome private carriage waiting on +the street. + +"All well at home, David?" asked Mrs. Oferr. + +"All well, ma'am, thank you," replied David. + +And another man sat upon the box, in another drab coat, and touched +_his_ hat; and when they reached Waverley Place and alighted, Mrs. +Oferr had something to say to him of certain directions, and +addressed him as "Moses." + +It was very grand and wonderful to order "David" and "Moses" about. +Laura felt as if her aunt were something only a little less than +"Michael with the sword." Laura had a susceptibility for dignities; +she appreciated, as we have seen out upon the wood-shed, "high +places, and all the people looking up." + +David and Moses were brothers, she found out; she supposed that was +the reason they dressed alike, in drab coats; as she and Frank used +to wear their red merinos, and their blue ginghams. A little spasm +did come up in her throat for a minute, as she thought of the old +frocks and the old times already dropped so far behind; but Alice +and Geraldine Oferr met her the next instant on the broad staircase +at the back of the marble-paved hall, looking slight and delicate, +and princess-like, in the grand space built about them for their +lives to move in; and in the distance and magnificence of it all, +the faint little momentary image of Frank faded away. + +She went up with them out of the great square hall, over the stately +staircase, past the open doors of drawing-rooms and library, +stretching back in a long suite, with the conservatory gleaming +green from the far end over the garden, up the second stairway to +the floor where their rooms were; bedrooms and nursery,--this last +called so still, though the great, airy front-room was the place +used now for their books and amusements as growing young +ladies,--all leading one into another around the skylighted upper +hall, into which the sunshine came streaked with amber and violet +from the richly colored glass. She had a little side apartment given +to her for her own, with a recessed window, in which were blossoming +plants just set there from the conservatory; opposite stood a white, +low bed in a curtained alcove, and beyond was a dressing-closet. +Laura thought she should not be able to sleep there at all for a +night or two, for the beauty of it and the good time she should be +having. + +At that same moment Frank and her Aunt Oldways were getting down +from the stage that had brought them over from Ipsley, where they +slept after their day's journey from Boston,--at the doorstone of +the low, broad-roofed, wide-built, roomy old farm-house in +Homesworth. + +Right in the edge of the town it stood, its fields stretching over +the south slope of green hills in sunny uplands, and down in meadowy +richness to the wild, hidden, sequestered river-side, where the +brown water ran through a narrow, rocky valley,--Swift River they +called it. There are a great many Swift Rivers in New England. It +was only a vehement little tributary of a larger stream, beside +which lay larger towns; it was doing no work for the world, +apparently, at present; there were no mills, except a little +grist-mill to which the farmers brought their corn, cuddled among +the rocks and wild birches and alders, at a turn where the road came +down, and half a dozen planks made a bit of a bridge. + +"O, what beautiful places!" cried Frank, as they crossed the little +bridge, and glanced either way into a green, gray, silvery vista of +shrubs and rocks, and rushing water, with the white spires of +meadow-sweet and the pink hardback, and the first bright plumes of +the golden rod nodding and shining against the shade,--as they +passed the head of a narrow, grassy lane, trod by cows' feet, and +smelling of their milky breaths, and the sweetness of hay-barns,--as +they came up, at length, over the long slope of turf that carpeted +the way, as for a bride's feet, from the roadside to the very +threshold. She looked along the low, treble-piled garden wall, too, +and out to the open sheds, deep with pine chips; and upon the broad +brown house-roof, with its long, gradual decline, till its eaves +were within reach of a child's fingers from the ground; and her +quick eye took in facilities. + +"O, if Laura could see this! After the old shed-top in Brier Street, +and the one tree!" + +But Laura had got what the shed-top stood for with her; it was +Frank who had hearkened to whole forests in the stir of the one +brick-rooted fir. To that which each child had, it was already +given. + +In a week or two Frank wrote Laura a letter. It was an old-fashioned +letter, you know; a big sheet, written close, four pages, +all but the middle of the last page, which was left for the +"superscription." Then it was folded, the first leaf turned down +twice, lengthwise; then the two ends laid over, toward each other; +then the last doubling, or rather trebling, across; and the open +edge slipped over the folds. A wafer sealed it, and a thimble +pressed it,--and there were twenty-five cents postage to pay. That +was a letter in the old times, when Laura and Frank Shiere were +little girls. And this was that letter:-- + + DEAR LAURA,--We got here safe, Aunt Oldways and I, a week ago + last Saturday, and it is _beautiful_. There is a green + lane,--almost everybody has a green lane,--and the cows go up + and down, and the swallows build in the barn-eaves. They fly + out at sundown, and fill all the sky up. It is like the specks + we used to watch in the sunshine when it came in across the + kitchen, and they danced up and down and through and away, and + seemed to be live things; only we couldn't tell, you know, what + they were, or if they really did know how good it was. But + these are big and real, and you can see their wings, and you + know what they mean by it. I guess it is all the same thing, + only some things are little and some are big. You can see the + stars here, too,--such a sky full. And that is all the same + again. + + There are beautiful roofs and walls here. I guess you would + think you were high up! Harett and I go up from under the + cheese-room windows right over the whole house, and we sit on + the peak by the chimney. Harett is Mrs. Dillon's girl. Not the + girl that lives with her,--her daughter. But the girls that + live with people are daughters here. Somebody's else, I mean. + They are all alike. I suppose her name is Harriet, but they all + call her Harett. I don't like to ask her for fear she should + think I thought they didn't know how to pronounce. + + I go to school with Harett; up to the West District. We carry + brown bread and butter, and doughnuts, and cheese, and + apple-pie in tin pails, for luncheon. Don't you remember the + brown cupboard in Aunt Oldways' kitchen, how sagey, and + doughnutty, and good it always smelt? It smells just so now, + and everything tastes just the same. + + There is a great rock under an oak tree half way up to school, + by the side of the road. We always stop there to rest, coming + home. Three of the girls come the same way as far as that, and + we always save some of our dinner to eat up there, and we tell + stories. I tell them about dancing-school, and the time we went + to the theatre to see "Cinderella," and going shopping with + mother, and our little tea-parties, and the Dutch dolls we made + up in the long front chamber. O, _don't_ you remember, Laura? + What different pieces we have got into our remembrances + already! I feel as if I was making patchwork. Some-time, + may-be, I shall tell somebody about living _here_. Well, they + will be beautiful stories! Homesworth is an elegant place to + live in. You will see when you come next summer. + + There is an apple tree down in the south orchard that bends + just like a horse's back. Then the branches come up over your + head and shade you. We ride there, and we sit and eat summer + apples there. Little rosy apples with dark streaks in them all + warm with the sun. You can't think what a smell they have, just + like pinks and spice boxes. Why don't they keep a little way + off from each other in cities, and so have room for apple + trees? I don't see why they need to crowd so. I hate to think + of you all shut up tight when I am let right out into green + grass, and blue sky, and apple orchards. That puts me in mind + of something! Zebiah Jane, Aunt Oldways' girl, always washes + her face in the morning at the pump-basin out in the back + dooryard, just like the ducks. She says she can't spatter round + in a room; she wants all creation for a slop-bowl. I feel as if + we had all creation for everything up here. But I can't put all + creation in a letter if I try. _That_ would spatter dreadfully. + + I expect a long letter from you every day now. But I don't see + what you will make it out of. I think I have got all the + _things_ and you won't have anything left but the _words_. I am + sure you don't sit out on the wood-shed at Aunt Oferr's, and I + don't believe you pound stones and bricks, and make colors. Do + you know when we rubbed our new shoes with pounded stone and + made them gray? + + I never told you about Luclarion. She came up as soon as the + things were all sent off, and she lives at the minister's. + Where she used to live is only two miles from here, but other + people live there now, and it is built on to and painted straw + color, with a green door. + + Your affectionate sister, + FRANCES SHIERE. + + +When Laura's letter came this was it:-- + + DEAR FRANK,--I received your kind letter a week ago, but we + have been very busy having a dressmaker and doing all our fall + shopping, and I have not had time to answer it before. We shall + begin to go to school next week, for the vacations are over, + and then I shall have ever so much studying to do. I am to take + lessons on the piano, too, and shall have to practice two hours + a day. In the winter we shall have dancing-school and + practicing parties. Aunt has had a new bonnet made for me. She + did not like the plain black silk one. This is of _gros + d'Afrique_, with little bands and cordings round the crown and + front; and I have a dress of _gros d'Afrique_, too, trimmed + with double folds piped on. For every-day I have a new black + _mousseline_ with white clover leaves on it, and an all-black + French chally to wear to dinner. I don't wear my black and + white calico at all. Next summer aunt means to have me wear + white almost all the time, with lavender and violet ribbons. I + shall have a white muslin with three skirts and a black sash to + wear to parties and to Public Saturdays, next winter. They have + Public Saturdays at dancing-school every three weeks. But only + the parents and relations can come. Alice and Geraldine dance + the shawl-dance with Helena Pomeroy, with crimson and white + Canton crape scarfs. They have showed me some of it at home. + Aunt Oferr says I shall learn the _gavotte_. + + Aunt Oferr's house is splendid. The drawing-room is full of + sofas, and divans, and ottomans, and a _causeuse_, a little + S-shaped seat for two people. Everything is covered with blue + velvet, and there are blue silk curtains to the windows, and + great looking-glasses between, that you can see all down into + through rooms and rooms, as if there were a hundred of them. Do + you remember the story Luclarion used to tell us of when she + and her brother Mark were little children and used to play that + the looking-glass-things were real, and that two children lived + in them, in the other room, and how we used to make believe too + in the slanting chimney glass? You could make believe it here + with _forty_ children. But I don't make believe much now. There + is such a lot that is real, and it is all so grown up. It would + seem so silly to have such plays, you know. I can't help + thinking the things that come into my head though, and it seems + sometimes just like a piece of a story, when I walk into the + drawing-room all alone, just before company comes, with my + _gros d'Afrique_ on, and my puffed lace collar, and my hair + tied back with long new black ribbons. It all goes through my + head just how I look coming in, and how grand it is, and what + the words would be in a book about it, and I seem to act a + little bit, just to myself as if I were a girl in a story, and + it seems to say, "And Laura walked up the long drawing-room and + took a book bound in crimson morocco from the white marble pier + table and sat down upon the velvet ottoman in the balcony + window." But what happened then it never tells. I suppose it + will by and by. I am getting used to it all, though; it isn't + so _awfully_ splendid as it was at first. + + I forgot to tell you that my new bonnet flares a great deal, + and that I have white lace quilling round the face with little + black dotty things in it on stems. They don't wear those close + cottage bonnets now. And aunt has had my dresses made longer + and my pantalettes shorter, so that they hardly show at all. + She says I shall soon wear long dresses, I am getting so tall. + Alice wears them now, and her feet look so pretty, and she has + such pretty slippers: little French purple ones, and sometimes + dark green, and sometimes beautiful light gray, to go with + different dresses. I don't care for anything but the slippers, + but I _should_ like such ones as hers. Aunt says I can't, of + course, as long as I wear black, but I can have purple ones + next summer to wear with my white dresses. That will be when I + come to see you. + + I am afraid you will think this is a very _wearing_ kind of a + letter, there are so many 'wears' in it. I have been reading it + over so far, but I can't put in any other word. + + Your affectionate sister, + LAURA SHIERE. + + P.S. Aunt Oferr says Laura Shiere is such a good sounding name. + It doesn't seem at all common. I am glad of it. I should hate + to be common. + +I do not think I shall give you any more of it just here than these +two letters tell. We are not going through all Frank and Laura's +story. That with which we have especially to do lies on beyond. But +it takes its roots in this, as all stories take their roots far back +and underneath. + +Two years after, Laura was in Homesworth for her second summer visit +at the farm. It was convenient, while the Oferrs were at Saratoga. +Mrs. Oferr was very much occupied now, of course, with introducing +her own daughters. A year or two later, she meant to give Laura a +season at the Springs. "All in turn, my dear, and good time," she +said. + +The winter before, Frank had been a few weeks in New York. But it +tired her dreadfully, she said. She liked the theatres and the +concerts, and walking out and seeing the shops. But there was "no +place to get out of it into." It didn't seem as if she ever really +got home and took off her things. She told Laura it was like that +first old letter of hers; it was just "wearing," all the time. + +Laura laughed. "But how can you live _without_ wearing?" said she. + +Frank stood by, wondering, while Laura unpacked her trunks that +morning after her second arrival at Aunt Oldways'. She had done now +even with the simplicity of white and violet, and her wardrobe +blossomed out like the flush of a summer garden. + +She unfolded a rose-colored muslin, with little raised embroidered +spots, and threw it over the bed. + +"Where _will_ you wear that, up here?" asked Frank, in pure +bewilderment. + +"Why, I wear it to church, with my white Swiss mantle," answered +Laura. "Or taking tea, or anything. I've a black silk _visite_ for +cool days. That looks nice with it. And see here,--I've a pink +sunshade. They don't have them much yet, even in New York. Mr. +Pemberton Oferr brought these home from Paris, for Gerry and Alice, +and me. Gerry's is blue. See! it tips back." And Laura set the dashy +little thing with its head on one side, and held it up coquettishly. + +"They used them in carriages in Paris, he said, and in St. +Petersburg, driving out on the Nevskoi Prospekt." + +"But where are your common things?" + +"Down at the bottom; I haven't come to them. They were put in first, +because they would bear squeezing. I've two French calicoes, with +pattern trimmings; and a lilac jaconet, with ruffles, open down the +front." + +Laura wore long dresses now; and open wrappers were the height of +the style. + +Laura astonished Homesworth the first Sunday of this visit, with her +rose-colored toilet. Bonnet of shirred pink silk with moss rosebuds +and a little pink lace veil; the pink muslin, full-skirted over two +starched petticoats; even her pink belt had gay little borders of +tiny buds and leaves, and her fan had a pink tassel. + +"They're the things I wear; why shouldn't I?" she said to Frank's +remonstrance. + +"But up here!" said Frank. "It would seem nicer to wear +something--stiller." + +So it would; a few years afterward Laura herself would have seen +that it was more elegant; though Laura Shiere was always rather +given to doing the utmost--in apparel--that the occasion tolerated. +Fashions grew stiller in years after. But this June Sunday, +somewhere in the last thirties or the first forties, she went into +the village church like an Aurora, and the village long remembered +the resplendence. Frank had on a white cambric dress, with a real +rose in the bosom, cool and fresh, with large green leaves; and her +"cottage straw" was trimmed with white lutestring, crossed over the +crown. + +"Do you feel any better?" asked Aunt Oldways of Laura, when they +came home to the country tea-dinner. + +"Better--how?" asked Laura, in surprise. + +"After all that 'wear' and _stare_," said Aunt Oldways, quietly. + +Aunt Oldways might have been astonished, but she was by no means +awestruck, evidently; and Aunt Oldways generally spoke her mind. + +Somehow, with Laura Shiere, pink was pinker, and ribbons were more +rustling than with most people. Upon some quiet unconscious folks, +silk makes no spread, and color little show; with Laura every gleam +told, every fibre asserted itself. It was the live Aurora, bristling +and tingling to its farthest electric point. She did not toss or +flaunt, either; she had learned better of Signor Pirotti how to +carry herself; but she was in conscious _rapport_ with every thing +and stitch she had about her. Some persons only put clothes on to +their bodies; others really seem to contrive to put them on to their +souls. + +Laura Shiere came up to Homesworth three years later, with something +more wonderful than a pink embossed muslin:--she had a lover. + +Mrs. Oferr and her daughters were on their way to the mountains; +Laura was to be left with the Oldways. Grant Ledwith accompanied +them all thus far on their way; then he had to go back to Boston. + +"I can't think of anything but that pink sunshade she used to carry +round canted all to one side over her shoulder," said Aunt Oldways, +looking after them down the dusty road the morning that he went +away. Laura, in her white dress and her straw hat and her silly +little bronze-and-blue-silk slippers printing the roadside gravel, +leaning on Grant Ledwith's arm, seemed only to have gained a fresh, +graceful adjunct to set off her own pretty goings and comings with, +and to heighten the outside interest of that little point of +eternity that she called her life. Mr. Ledwith was not so much a man +who had won a woman, as Laura was a girl who had "got a beau." + +She had sixteen tucked and trimmed white skirts, too, she told +Frank; she should have eight more before she was married; people +wore ever so many skirts now, at a time. She had been to a party a +little while ago where she wore _seven_. + +There were deep French embroidery bands around some of these white +skirts; those were beautiful for morning dresses. Geraldine Oferr +was married last winter; Laura had been her bridesmaid; Gerry had a +white brocade from Paris, and a point-lace veil. She had three dozen +of everything, right through. They had gone to housekeeping up town, +in West Sixteenth Street. Frank would have to come to New York next +winter, or in the spring, to be _her_ bridesmaid; then she would +see; then--who knew! + +Frank was only sixteen, and she lived away up here in Homesworth +among the hills; she had not "seen," but she had her own little +secret, for all that; something she neither told nor thought, yet +which was there; and it came across her with a queer little thrill +from the hidden, unlooked-at place below thought, that "Who" +_didn't_ know. + +Laura waited a year for Grant Ledwith's salary to be raised to +marrying point; he was in a wholesale woolen house in Boston; he was +a handsome fellow, with gentlemanly and taking address,--capital, +this, for a young salesman; and they put his pay up to two thousand +dollars within that twelvemonth. Upon this, in the spring, they +married; took a house in Filbert Street, down by the river, and set +up their little gods. These were: a sprinkle of black walnut and +brocatelle in the drawing-room, a Sheffield-plate tea-service, and a +crimson-and-giltedged dinner set that Mrs. Oferr gave them; twilled +turkey-red curtains, that looked like thibet, in the best chamber; +and the twenty-four white skirts and the silk dresses, and whatever +corresponded to them on the bride-groom's part, in their wardrobes. +All that was left of Laura's money, and all that was given them by +Grant Ledwith's father, and Mr. Titus Oldways' astounding present of +three hundred dollars, without note or comment,--the first reminder +they had had of him since Edward Shiere's funeral, "and goodness +knew how he heard anything now," Aunt Oferr said,--had gone to this +outfit. But they were well set up and started in the world; so +everybody said, and so they, taking the world into their young, +confident hands for a plaything, not knowing it for the perilous +loaded shell it is, thought, merrily, themselves. + +Up in Homesworth people did not have to wait for two thousand dollar +salaries. They would not get them if they did. + +Oliver Ripwinkley, the minister's son, finished his medical studies +and city hospital practice that year, and came back, as he had +always said he should do, to settle down for a country doctor. Old +Doctor Parrish, the parson's friend of fifty years, with no child of +his own, kept the place for Oliver, and hung up his old-fashioned +saddle-bags in the garret the very day the young man came home. He +was there to be "called in," however, and with this backing, and the +perforce of there being nobody else, young Doctor Ripwinkley had ten +patients within the first week; thereby opportunity for shewing +himself in the eyes of ten families as a young man who "appeared to +know pretty well what he was about." + +So that when he gave further proof of the same, by asking, within +the week that followed, the prettiest girl in Homesworth, Frances +Shiere, to come and begin the world with him at Mile Hill village, +nobody, not even Frank herself, was astonished. + +She bought three new gowns, a shawl, a black silk mantle, and a +straw bonnet. She made six each of every pretty white garment that a +woman wears; and one bright mellow evening in September, they took +their first tea in the brown-carpeted, white-shaded little corner +room in the old "Rankin house;" a bigger place than they really +wanted yet, and not all to be used at first; but rented +"reasonable," central, sunshiny, and convenient; a place that they +hoped they should buy sometime; facing on the broad sidegreen of the +village street, and running back, with its field and meadow +belongings, away to the foot of great, gray, sheltering Mile Hill. + +And the vast, solemn globe, heedless of what lit here or there upon +its breadth, or took up this or that life in its little freckling +cities, or between the imperceptible foldings of its hills,--only +carrying way-passengers for the centuries,--went plunging on its +track, around and around, and swept them all, a score of times, +through its summer and its winter solstices. + + + + +IV. + +AFTERWARDS IS A LONG TIME. + + +Old Mr. Marmaduke Wharne had come down from Outledge, in the +mountains, on his way home to New York. He had stopped in Boston to +attend to some affairs of his own,--if one can call them so, since +Marmaduke Wharne never had any "own" affairs that did not chiefly +concern, to their advantage, somebody else,--in which his friend Mr. +Titus Oldways was interested, not personally, but Wharne fashion. +Now, reader, you know something about Mr. Titus Oldways, which up to +this moment, only God, and Marmaduke Wharne, and Rachel Froke, who +kept Mr. Oldways' house, and wore a Friend's drab dress and white +cap, and said "Titus," and "Marmaduke" to the two old gentlemen, and +"thee" and "thou" to everybody,--have ever known. In a general way +and relation, I mean; separate persons knew particular things; but +each separate person thought the particular thing he knew to be a +whimsical exception. + +Mr. Oldways did not belong to any church: but he had an English +Prayer-book under his Bible on his study table, and Baxter and +Fenelon and à Kempis and "Wesley's Hymns," and Swedenborg's "Heaven +and Hell" and "Arcana Celestia," and Lowell's "Sir Launfal," and +Dickens's "Christmas Carol," all on the same set of shelves,--that +held, he told Marmaduke, his religion; or as much of it as he could +get together. And he had this woman, who was a Friend, and who +walked by the Inner Light, and in outer charity, if ever a woman +did, to keep his house. "For," said he, "the blessed truth is, that +the Word of God is in the world. Alive in it. When you know that, +and wherever you can get hold of his souls, then and there you've +got your religion,--a piece at a time. To prove and sort your +pieces, and to straighten the tangle you might otherwise get into, +there's _this_," and he laid his hand down on the Four Gospels, +bound in white morocco, with a silver cross upon the cover,--a +volume that no earthly creature, again, knew of, save Titus and +Marmaduke and Rachel Froke, who laid it into a drawer when she swept +and dusted, and placed it between the crimson folds of its quilted +silken wrapper when she had finished, burnishing the silver cross +gently with a scrap of chamois leather cut from a clean piece every +time. There was nothing else delicate and exquisite in all the plain +and grim establishment; and the crimson wrapper was comfortably +worn, and nobody would notice it, lying on the table there, with an +almanac, a directory, the big, open Worcester's Dictionary, and the +scattered pamphlets and newspapers of the day. + +Out in the world, Titus Oldways went about with visor down. + +He gave to no fairs nor public charities; "let them get all they +could that way, it wasn't his way," he said to Rachel Froke. The +world thought he gave nothing, either of purse or life. + +There was a plan they had together,--he and Marmaduke Wharne,--this +girls' story-book will not hold the details nor the idea of +it,--about a farm they owned, and people working it that could go +nowhere else to work anything; and a mill-privilege that might be +utilized and expanded, to make--not money so much as safe and honest +human life by way of making money; and they sat and talked this plan +over, and settled its arrangements, in the days that Marmaduke +Wharne was staying on in Boston, waiting for his other friend, Miss +Craydocke, who had taken the River Road down from Outledge, and so +come round by Z----, where she was staying a few days with the +Goldthwaites and the Inglesides. Miss Craydocke had a share or two +in the farm and in the mill. + +And now, Titus Oldways wanted to know of Marmaduke Wharne what he +was to do for Afterwards. + +It was a question that had puzzled and troubled him. Afterwards. + +"While I live," he said, "I will do what I can, and _as_ I can. I +will hand over my doing, and the wherewith, to no society or +corporation. I'll pay no salaries nor circumlocutions. Neither will +I--afterwards. And how is my money going to work on?" + +"_Your_ money?" + +"Well,--God's money." + +"How did it work when it came to you?" + +Mr. Oldways was silent. + +"He chose to send it to you. He made it in the order of things that +it should come to you. You began, yourself, to work for money. You +did not understand, then, that the money would be from God and was +for Him." + +"He made me understand." + +"Yes. He looked out for that part of it too. He can look out for it +again. His word shall not return unto him void." + +"He has given me this, though, to pass on; and I will not put it +into a machine. I want to give some living soul a body for its +living. Dead charities are dead. It's of no use to will it to you, +Marmaduke; I'm as likely to stay on, perhaps, as you are." + +"And the youngest life might drop, the day after your own. You can't +take it out of God's hand." + +"I must either let it go by law, or will it--here and there. I know +enough whom it would help; but I want to invest, not spend it; to +invest it in a life--or lives--that will carry it on from where I +leave it. How shall I know?" + +"He giveth it a body as it pleaseth Him," quoted Marmaduke Wharne, +thoughtfully. "I am English, you know, Oldways; I can't help +reverencing the claims of next of kin. Unless one is plainly shown +otherwise, it seems the appointment. How can we set aside his ways +until He clearly points us out his own exception?" + +"My 'next' are two women whom I don't know, my niece's children. She +died thirty years ago." + +"Perhaps you ought to know them." + +"I know _about_ them; I've kept the run; but I've held clear of +family. They didn't need me, and I had no right to put it into their +heads they did, unless I fully meant"-- + +He broke off. + +"They're like everybody else, Wharne; neither better nor worse, I +dare say; but the world is full of just such women. How do I know +this money would be well in their hands--even for themselves?" + +"Find out." + +"One of 'em was brought up by an Oferr woman!" + +The tone in which he _commonized_ the name to a satiric general +term, is not to be written down, and needed not to be interpreted. + +"The other is well enough," he went on, "and contented enough. +A doctor's widow, with a little property, a farm and two +children,--her older ones died very young,--up in New Hampshire. I +might spoil _her_; and the other,--well, you see as I said, I _don't +know_." + +"Find out," said Marmaduke Wharne, again. + +"People are not found out till they are tried." + +"Try 'em!" + +Mr. Oldways had been sitting with his head bent, thoughtfully, his +eyes looking down, his hands on the two stiff, old-fashioned arms of +his chair. At this last spondaic response from Marmaduke, he lifted +his eyes and eyebrows,--not his head,--and raised himself slightly +with his two hands pressing on the chair arms; the keen glance and +the half-movement were impulsively toward his friend. + +"Eh?" said he. + +"Try 'em," repeated Marmaduke Wharne. "Give God's way a chance." + +Mr. Oldways, seated back in his chair again, looked at him intently; +made a little vibration, as it were, with his body, that moved his +head up and down almost imperceptibly, with a kind of gradual +assenting apprehension, and kept utterly silent. + +So, their talk being palpably over for this time, Marmaduke Wharne +got up presently to go. They nodded at each other, friendlily, as he +looked back from the door. + +Left alone, Mr. Titus Oldways turned in his swivel-chair, around to +his desk beside which he was sitting. + +"Next of kin?" he repeated to himself. "God's way?--Well! Afterwards +is a long time. A man must give it up somewhere. Everything escheats +to the king at last." + +And he took a pen in his hand and wrote a letter. + + + + +V. + +HOW THE NEWS CAME TO HOMESWORTH. + + +"I wish I lived in the city, and had a best friend," said Hazel +Ripwinkley to Diana, as they sat together on the long, red, sloping +kitchen roof under the arches of the willow-tree, hemming towels for +their afternoon "stent." They did this because their mother sat on +the shed roof under the fir, when she was a child, and had told them +of it. Imagination is so much greater than fact, that these +children, who had now all that little Frank Shiere had dreamed of +with the tar smell and the gravel stones and the one tree,--who +might run free in the wide woods and up the breezy hillsides,--liked +best of all to get out on the kitchen roof and play "old times," and +go back into their mother's dream. + +"I wish I lived in a block of houses, and could see across the +corner into my best friend's room when she got up in the morning!" + +"And could have that party!" said Diana. + +"Think of the clean, smooth streets, with red sidewalks, and people +living all along, door after door! I like things set in rows, and +people having places, like the desks at school. Why, you've got to +go way round Sand Hill to get to Elizabeth Ann Dorridon's. I should +like to go up steps, and ring bells!" + +"I don't know," said Diana, slowly. "I think birds that build little +nests about anywhere in the cunning, separate places, in the woods, +or among the bushes, have the best time." + +"Birds, Dine! It ain't birds, it's people! What has that to do with +it?" + +"I mean I think nests are better than martin-boxes." + +"Let's go in and get her to tell us that story. She's in the round +room." + +The round room was a half ellipse, running in against the curve of +the staircase. It was a bit of a place, with the window at one end, +and the bow at the other. It had been Doctor Ripwinkley's office, +and Mrs. Ripwinkley sat there with her work on summer afternoons. +The door opened out, close at the front, upon a great flat stone in +an angle, where was also entrance into the hall by the house-door, +at the right hand. The door of the office stood open, and across the +stone one could look down, between a range of lilac bushes and the +parlor windows, through a green door-yard into the street. + +"Now, Mother Frank, tell us about the party!" + +They called her "Mother Frank" when they wished to be particularly +coaxing. They had taken up their father's name for her, with their +own prefix, when they were very little ones, before he went away and +left nobody to call her Frank, every day, any more. + +"That same little old story? Won't you ever be tired of it,--you +great girls?" asked the mother; for she had told it to them ever +since they were six and eight years old. + +"Yes! No, never!" said the children. + +For how _should_ they outgrow it? It was a sunny little bit out of +their mother's own child-life. We shall go back to smaller things, +one day, maybe, and find them yet more beautiful. It is the _going_ +back, together. + +"The same old way?" + +"Yes; the very same old way." + +"We had little open-work straw hats and muslin pelisses,--your Aunt +Laura and I,"--began Mrs. Ripwinkley, as she had begun all those +scores of times before. "Mother put them on for us,--she dressed us +just alike, always,--and told us to take each other's hands, and go +up Brier and down Hickory streets, and stop at all the houses that +she named, and that we knew; and we were to give her love and +compliments, and ask the mothers in each house,--Mrs. Dayton, and +Mrs. Holridge (she lived up the long steps), and Mrs. Waldow, and +the rest of them, to let Caroline and Grace and Fanny and Susan, and +the rest of _them_, come at four o'clock, to spend the afternoon and +take tea, if it was convenient." + +"O, mother!" said Hazel, "you didn't say that when you _asked_ +people, you know." + +"O, no!" said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "That was when we went to stop a +little while ourselves, without being asked. Well, it was to please +to let them come. And all the ladies were at home, because it was +only ten o'clock; and they all sent their love and compliments, and +they were much obliged, and the little girls would be very happy. + +"It was a warm June day; up Brier Street was a steep walk; down +Hickory we were glad to keep on the shady side, and thought it was +nice that Mrs. Bemys and Mrs. Waldow lived there. The strings of our +hats were very moist and clinging when we got home, and Laura had a +blue mark under her chin from the green ribbon. + +"Mother was in her room, in her white dimity morning gown, with +little bows up the front, the ends trimmed with cambric edging. She +took off our hats and our pelisses,--the tight little sleeves came +off wrong side out,--sponged our faces with cool water, and brushed +out Laura's curls. That was the only difference between us. I +hadn't any curls, and my hair had to be kept cropped. Then she went +to her upper bureau drawer and took out two little paper boxes. + +"'Something has come for Blanche and Clorinda, since you have been +gone,' she said, smiling. 'I suppose you have been shopping?' We +took the paper boxes, laughing back at her with a happy +understanding. We were used to these little plays of mother's, and +she couldn't really surprise us with her kindnesses. We went and sat +down in the window-seat, and opened them as deliberately and in as +grown-up a way as we could. Inside them were two little lace +pelerines lined with rose-colored silk. The boxes had a faint smell +of musk. The things were so much better for coming in boxes! Mother +knew that. + +"Well, we dressed our dolls, and it was a great long sunshiny +forenoon. Mother and Luclarion had done something in the kitchen, +and there was a smell of sweet baking in the house. Every now and +then we sniffed, and looked at each other, and at mother, and +laughed. After dinner we had on our white French calicoes with blue +sprigs, and mother said she should take a little nap, and we might +go into the parlor and be ready for our company. She always let us +receive our own company ourselves at first. And exactly at four +o'clock the door-bell rang, and they began to come. + +"Caroline and Fanny Dayton had on white cambric dresses, and green +kid slippers. That was being very much dressed, indeed. Lucy Waldow +wore a pink lawn, and Grace Holridge a buff French print. Susan +Bemys said her little sister couldn't come because they couldn't +find her best shoes. Her mother thought she had thrown them out of +the window. + +"When they all got there we began to play 'Lady Fair;' and we had +just got all the 'lady fairs,' one after another, into our ring, and +were dancing and singing up and down and round and round, when the +door opened and mother walked in. + +"We always thought our mother was the prettiest of any of the girls' +mothers. She had such bright shining hair, and she put it up with +shell combs into such little curly puffs. And she never seemed fussy +or old, but she came in among us with such a beautiful, smiling way, +as if she knew beforehand that it was all right, and there was no +danger of any mischief, or that we shouldn't behave well, but she +only wanted to see the good time. That day she had on a white muslin +dress with little purple flowers on it, and a bow of purple ribbon +right in the side of her hair. She had a little piece of fine work +in her hand, and after she had spoken to all the little girls and +asked them how their mothers were, she went and sat down in one of +the front windows, and made little scollops and eyelets. I remember +her long ivory stiletto, with a loop of green ribbon through the +head of it, and the sharp, tiny, big-bowed scissors that lay in her +lap, and the bright, tapering silver thimble on her finger. + +"Pretty soon the door opened again, softly; a tray appeared, with +Hannah behind it. On the tray were little glass saucers with +confectionery in them; old-fashioned confectionery,--gibraltars, and +colored caraways, and cockles with mottoes. We were in the middle of +'So says the Grand Mufti,' and Grace Holridge was the Grand Mufti. +Hannah went up to her first, as she stood there alone, and Grace +took a saucer and held it up before the row of us, and said, '_Thus_ +says the Grand Mufti!' and then she bit a red gibraltar, and +everybody laughed. She did it so quickly and so prettily, putting +it right into the play. It was good of her not to say, '_So_ says +the Grand Mufti.' At least we thought so then, though Susan Bemys +said it would have been funnier. + +"We had a great many plays in those days, and it took a long +afternoon to get through with them. We had not begun to wonder what +we should do next, when tea time came, and we went down into the +basement room. It wasn't tea, though; it was milk in little clear, +pink mugs, some that mother only had out for our parties, and cold +water in crimped-edge glasses, and little biscuits, and +sponge-cakes, and small round pound-cakes frosted. These were what +had smelt so good in the morning. + +"We stood round the table; there was not room for all of us to sit, +and mother helped us, and Hannah passed things round. Susan Bemys +took cake three times, and Lucy Waldow opened her eyes wide, and +Fanny Dayton touched me softly under the table. + +"After tea mother played and sung some little songs to us; and then +she played the 'Fisher's Hornpipe' and 'Money Musk,' and we danced a +little contra-dance. The girls did not all know cotillons, and some +of them had not begun to go to dancing-school. Father came home and +had his tea after we had done ours, and then he came up into the +parlor and watched us dancing. Mr. Dayton came in, too. At about +half past eight some of the other fathers called, and some of the +mothers sent their girls, and everybody was fetched away. It was +nine o'clock when Laura and I went to bed, and we couldn't go to +sleep until after the clock struck ten, for thinking and saying what +a beautiful time we had had, and anticipating how the girls would +talk it all over next day at school. That," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, +when she had finished, "was the kind of a party we used to have in +Boston when I was a little girl. I don't know what the little girls +have now." + +"Boston!" said Luclarion, catching the last words as she came in, +with her pink cape bonnet on, from the Homesworth variety and +finding store, and post-office. "You'll talk them children off to +Boston, finally, Mrs. Ripwinkley! Nothing ever tugs so at one end, +but there's something tugging at the other; and there's never a hint +nor a hearing to anybody, that something more doesn't turn up +concerning it. Here's a letter, Mrs. Ripwinkley!" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley took it with some surprise. It was not her sister's +handwriting nor Mr. Ledwith's, on the cover; and she rarely had a +letter from them that was posted in Boston, now. They had been +living at a place out of town for several years. Mrs. Ledwith knew +better than to give her letters to her husband for posting. They got +lost in his big wallet, and stayed there till they grew old. + +Who should write to Mrs. Ripwinkley, after all these years, from +Boston? + +She looked up at Luclarion, and smiled. "It didn't take a Solomon," +said she, pointing to the postmark. + +"No, nor yet a black smooch, with only four letters plain, on an +invelup. 'Taint that, it's the drift of things. Those girls have got +Boston in their minds as hard and fast as they've got heaven; and I +mistrust mightily they'll get there first somehow!" + +The girls were out of hearing, as she said this; they had got their +story, and gone back to their red roof and their willow tree. + +"Why, Luclarion!" exclaimed Mrs. Ripwinkley, as she drew out and +unfolded the letter sheet. "It's from Uncle Titus Oldways." + +"Then he ain't dead," remarked Luclarion, and went away into the +kitchen. + + "MY DEAR FRANCES,--I am seventy-eight years old. It is time I + got acquainted with some of my relations. I've had other work + to do in the world heretofore (at least I thought I had), and + so, I believe, have they. But I have a wish now to get you and + your sister to come and live nearer to me, that we may find out + whether we really are anything to each other or not. It seems + natural, I suppose, that we might be; but kinship doesn't all + run in the veins. + + "I do not ask you to do this with reference to any possible + intentions of mine that might concern you after my death; my + wish is to do what is right by you, in return for your + consenting to my pleasure in the matter, while I am alive. It + will cost you more to live in Boston than where you do now, and + I have no business to expect you to break up and come to a new + home unless I can make it an object to you in some way. You can + do some things for your children here that you could not do in + Homesworth. I will give you two thousand dollars a year to live + on, and secure the same to you if I die. I have a house here in + Aspen Street, not far from where I live myself, which I will + give to either of you that it may suit. That you can settle + between you when you come. It is rather a large house, and Mrs. + Ledwith's family is larger, I think, than yours. The estate is + worth ten thousand dollars, and I will give the same sum to the + one who prefers, to put into a house elsewhere. I wish you to + reckon this as all you are ever to expect from me, except the + regard I am willing to believe I may come to have for you. I + shall look to hear from you by the end of the week. + + "I remain, yours truly, + + "TITUS OLDWAYS." + +"Luclarion!" cried Mrs. Ripwinkley, with excitement, "come here and +help me think!" + +"Only four days to make my mind up in," she said again, when +Luclarion had read the letter through. + +Luclarion folded it and gave it back. + +"It won't take God four days to think," she answered quietly; "and +you can ask _Him_ in four minutes. You and I can talk afterwards." +And Luclarion got up and went away a second time into the kitchen. + +That night, after Diana and Hazel were gone to bed, their mother and +Luclarion Grapp had some last words about it, sitting by the +white-scoured kitchen table, where Luclarion had just done mixing +bread and covered it away for rising. Mrs. Ripwinkley was apt to +come out and talk things over at this time of the kneading. She +could get more from Luclarion then than at any other opportunity. +Perhaps that was because Miss Grapp could not walk off from the +bread-trough; or it might be that there was some sympathy between +the mixing of her flour and yeast into a sweet and lively +perfection, and the bringing of her mental leaven wholesomely to +bear. + +"It looks as if it were meant, Luclarion," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, at +last. "And just think what it will be for the children." + +"I guess it's meant fast enough," replied Luclarion. "But as for +what it will be for the children,--why, that's according to what you +all make of it. And that's the stump." + +Luclarion Grapp was fifty-four years old; but her views of life were +precisely the same that they had been at twenty-eight. + + + + +VI. + +AND. + + +There is a piece of Z----, just over the river, that they call +"And." + +It began among the school-girls; Barbara Holabird had christened it, +with the shrewdness and mischief of fourteen years old. She said the +"and-so-forths" lived there. + +It was a little supplementary neighborhood; an after-growth, coming +up with the railroad improvements, when they got a freight station +established on that side for the East Z---- mills. "After Z----, +what should it be but 'And?'" Barbara Holabird wanted to know. The +people who lived there called it East Square; but what difference +did that make? + +It was two miles Boston-ward from Z---- centre, where the down +trains stopped first; that was five minutes gained in the time +between it and the city. Land was cheap at first, and sure to come +up in value; so there were some streets laid out at right angles, +and a lot of houses put up after a pattern, as if they had all been +turned out of blanc-mange moulds, and there was "East Square." Then +people began by-and-by to build for themselves, and a little variety +and a good deal of ambition came in. They had got to French roofs +now; this was just before the day of the multitudinous little paper +collar-boxes with beveled covers, that are set down everywhere now, +and look as if they could be lifted up by the chimneys, any time, +and be carried off with a thumb and finger. Two and a half story +houses, Mansarded, looked grand; and the East Square people thought +nothing slight of themselves, though the "old places" and the real +Z---- families were all over on West Hill. + +Mrs. Megilp boarded in And for the summer. + +"Since Oswald had been in business she couldn't go far from the +cars, you know; and Oswald had a boat on the river, and he and +Glossy enjoyed that so much. Besides, she had friends in Z----, +which made it pleasant; and she was tired, for her part, of crowds +and fashion. All she wanted was a quiet country place. She knew the +Goldthwaites and the Haddens; she had met them one year at +Jefferson." + +Mrs. Megilp had found out that she could get larger rooms in And +than she could have at the mountains or the sea-shore, and at half +the price; but this she did not mention. Yet there was nothing +shabby in it, except her carefully _not_ mentioning it. + +Mrs. Megilp was Mrs. Grant Ledwith's chief intimate and counselor. +She was a good deal the elder; that was why it was mutually +advantageous. Grant Ledwith was one of the out-in-the-world, +up-to-the-times men of the day; the day in which everything is +going, and everybody that is in active life has, somehow or other, +all that is going. Grant Ledwith got a good salary, an inflated +currency salary; and he spent it all. His daughters were growing up, +and they were stylish and pretty; Mrs. Megilp took a great interest +in Agatha and Florence Ledwith, and was always urging their mother +to "do them justice." "Agatha and Florence were girls who had a +right to every advantage." Mrs. Megilp was almost old enough to be +Laura Ledwith's mother; she had great experience, and knowledge of +the world; and she sat behind Laura's conscience and drove it tandem +with her inclination. + +Per contra, it was nice for Mrs. Megilp, who was a widow, and whose +income did not stretch with the elasticity of the times, to have +friends who lived like the Ledwiths, and who always made her +welcome; it was a good thing for Glossy to be so fond of Agatha and +Florence, and to have them so fond of her. "She needed young +society," her mother said. One reason that Glossy Megilp needed +young society might be in the fact that she herself was twenty-six. + +Mrs. Megilp had advised the Ledwiths to buy a house in Z----. "It +was just far enough not to be suburban, but to have a society of its +own; and there _was_ excellent society in Z----, everybody knew. +Boston was hard work, nowadays; the distances were getting to be so +great." Up to the West and South Ends,--the material distances,--she +meant to be understood to say; but there was an inner sense to Mrs. +Megilp's utterances, also. + +"One might as well be quite out of town; and then it was always +something, even in such city connection as one might care to keep +up, to hail from a well-recognized social independency; to belong to +Z---- was a standing, always. It wasn't like going to Forest Dell, +or Lakegrove, or Bellair; cheap little got-up places with fancy +names, that were strung out on the railroads like French gilt beads +on a chain." + +But for all that, Mrs. Ledwith had only got into "And;" and Mrs. +Megilp knew it. + +Laura did not realize it much; she had bowing and speaking +acquaintance with the Haddens and the Hendees, and even with the +Marchbankses, over on West Hill; and the Goldthwaites and the +Holabirds, down in the town, she knew very well. She did not care to +come much nearer; she did not want to be bound by any very +stringent and exclusive social limits; it was a bother to keep up +to all the demands of such a small, old-established set. Mrs. Hendee +would not notice, far less be impressed by the advent of her +new-style Brussels carpet with a border, or her full, fresh, +Nottingham lace curtains, or the new covering of her drawing-room +set with cuir-colored terry. Mrs. Tom Friske and Mrs. Philgry, down +here at East Square, would run in, and appreciate, and admire, and +talk it all over, and go away perhaps breaking the tenth commandment +amiably in their hearts. + +Mrs. Ledwith's nerves had extended since we saw her as a girl; they +did not then go beyond the floating ends of her blue or rose-colored +ribbons, or, at furthest, the tip of her jaunty laced sunshade; now +they ramified,--for life still grows in some direction,--to her +chairs, and her china, and her curtains, and her ruffled +pillow-shams. Also, savingly, to her children's "suits," and party +dresses, and pic-nic hats, and double button gloves. Savingly; for +there is a leaven of grace in mother-care, even though it be +expended upon these. Her friend, Mrs. Inchdeepe, in Helvellyn Park, +with whom she dined when she went shopping in Boston, had _nothing_ +but her modern improvements and her furniture. "My house is my +life," she used to say, going round with a Canton crape duster, +touching tenderly carvings and inlayings and gildings. + +Mrs. Megilp was spending the day with Laura Ledwith; Glossy was gone +to town, and thence down to the sea-shore, with some friends. + +Mrs. Megilp spent a good many days with Laura. She had large, bright +rooms at her boarding-house, but then she had very gristly veal pies +and thin tapioca puddings for dinner; and Mrs. Megilp's constitution +required something more generous. She was apt to happen in at this +season, when Laura had potted pigeons. A little bird told her; a +dozen little birds, I mean, with their legs tied together in a +bunch; for she could see the market wagon from her window, when it +turned up Mr. Ledwith's avenue. + +Laura had always the claret pitcher on her dinner table, too; and +claret and water, well-sugared, went deliciously with the savory +stew. + +They were up-stairs now, in Laura's chamber; the bed and sofa were +covered with silk and millinery; Laura was looking over the girls' +"fall things;" there was a smell of sweet marjoram and thyme and +cloves, and general richness coming up from the kitchen; there was a +bland sense of the goodness of Providence in Mrs. Megilp's--no, not +heart, for her heart was not very hungry; but in her eyes and +nostrils. + +She was advising Mrs. Ledwith to take Desire and Helena's two green +silks and make them over into one for Helena. + +"You can get two whole back breadths then, by piecing it up under +the sash; and you _can't_ have all those gores again; they are quite +done with. Everybody puts in whole breadths now. There's just as +much difference in the _way_ of goring a skirt, as there is between +gores and straight selvages." + +"They do hang well, though; they have such a nice slope." + +"Yes,--but the stripes and the seams! Those tell the story six rods +off; and then there _must_ be sashes, or postillions, or something; +they don't make anything without them; there isn't any finish to a +round waist unless you have something behind." + +"They wore belts last year, and I bought those expensive gilt +buckles. I'm sure they used to look sweetly. But there! a fashion +doesn't last nowadays while you're putting a thing on and walking +out of the house!" + +"And don't put in more than three plaits," pursued Mrs. Megilp, +intent on the fate of the green silks. "Everything is gathered; you +see that is what requires the sashes; round waists and gathers have +a queer look without." + +"If you once begin to alter, you've got to make all over," said Mrs. +Ledwith, a little fractiously, putting the scissors in with +unwilling fingers. She knew there was a good four days' work before +her, and she was quick with her needle, too. + +"Never mind; the making over doesn't cost anything; you turn off +work so easily; and then you've got a really stylish thing." + +"But with all the ripping and remodelling, I don't get time to turn +round, myself, and _live_! It is all fall work, and spring work, and +summer work and winter work. One drive rushes pell-mell right over +another. There isn't time enough to make things and have them; the +good of them, I mean." + +"The girls get it; we have to live in our children," said Mrs. +Megilp, self-renouncingly. "I can never rest until Glossy is +provided with everything; and you know, Laura, I _am_ obliged to +contrive." + +Mrs. Megilp and her daughter Glaucia spent about a thousand dollars +a year, between them, on their dress. In these days, this is a +limited allowance--for the Megilps. But Mrs. Megilp was a woman of +strict pecuniary principle; the other fifteen hundred must pay all +the rest; she submitted cheerfully to the Divine allotment, and +punctually made the two ends meet. She will have this to show, when +the Lord of these servants cometh and reckoneth with them, and that +man who has been also in narrow circumstances, brings his nicely +kept talent out of his napkin. + +Desire Ledwith, a girl of sixteen, spoke suddenly from a corner +where she sat with a book,-- + +"I do wonder who '_they_' are, mamma!" + +"Who?" said Mrs. Ledwith, half rising from her chair, and letting +some breadths of silk slide down upon the floor from her lap, as she +glanced anxiously from the window down the avenue. She did not want +any company this morning. + +"Not that, mamma; I don't mean anybody coming. The 'theys' that +wear, and don't wear, things; the theys you have to be just like, +and keep ripping and piecing for." + +"You absurd child!" exclaimed Mrs. Ledwith, pettishly. "To make me +spill a whole lapful of work for that! They? Why, everybody, of +course." + +"Everybody complains of them, though. Jean Friske says her mother is +all discouraged and worn out. There isn't a thing they had last year +that won't have to be made over this, because they put in a breadth +more behind, and they only gore side seams. And they don't wear +black capes or cloth sacks any more with all kinds of dresses; you +must have suits, clear through. It seems to me 'they' is a nuisance. +And if it's everybody, we must be part of it. Why doesn't somebody +stop?" + +"Desire, I wish you'd put away your book, and help, instead of +asking silly questions. You can't make the world over, with 'why +don'ts?'" + +"I'll _rip_," said Desire, with a slight emphasis; putting her book +down, and coming over for a skirt and a pair of scissors. "But you +know I'm no good at putting together again. And about making the +world over, I don't know but that might be as easy as making over +all its clothes, I'd as lief try, of the two." + +Desire was never cross or disagreeable; she was only +"impracticable," her mother said. "And besides that, she didn't know +what she really did want. She was born hungry and asking, with those +sharp little eyes, and her mouth always open while she was a baby. +'It was a sign,' the nurse said, when she was three weeks old. And +then the other sign,--that she should have to be called 'Desire!'" + +Mrs. Megilp--for Mrs. Megilp had been in office as long ago as +that--had suggested ways of getting over or around the difficulty, +when Aunt Desire had stipulated to have the baby named for her, and +had made certain persuasive conditions. + +"There's the pretty French turn you might give it,--'Desirée.' Only +one more 'e,' and an accent. That is so sweet, and graceful, and +distinguished!" + +"But Aunt Desire won't have the name twisted. It is to be real, +plain Desire, or not at all." + +Mrs. Megilp had shrugged her shoulders. + +"Well, of course it can be that, to christen by, and marry by, and +be buried by. But between whiles,--people pick up names,--you'll +see!" + +Mrs. Megilp began to call her "Daisy" when she was two years old. +Nobody could help what Mrs. Megilp took a fancy to call her by way +of endearment, of course; and Daisy she was growing to be in the +family, when one day, at seven years old, she heard Mrs. Megilp say +to her mother,-- + +"I don't see but that you've all got your _Desire_, after all. The +old lady is satisfied; and away up there in Hanover, what can it +signify to her? The child is 'Daisy,' practically, now, as long as +she lives." + +The sharp, eager little gray eyes, so close together in the high, +delicate head, glanced up quickly at speaker and hearer. + +"What old lady, mamma, away up in Hanover?" + +"Your Aunt Desire, Daisy, whom you were named for. She lives in +Hanover. You are to go and see her there, this summer." + +"Will she call me Daisy?" + +The little difficulty suggested in this question had singularly +never occurred to Mrs. Ledwith before. Miss Desire Ledwith never +came down to Boston; there was no danger at home. + +"No. She is old-fashioned, and doesn't like pet names. She will call +you Desire. That is your name, you know." + +"Would it signify if she thought you called me Daisy?" asked the +child frowning half absently over her doll, whose arm she was +struggling to force into rather a tight sleeve of her own +manufacture. + +"Well, perhaps she might not exactly understand. People always went +by their names when she was a child, and now hardly anybody does. +She was very particular about having you called for her, and you +_are_, you know. I always write 'Desire Ledwith' in all your books, +and--well, I always _shall_ write it so, and so will you. But you +can be Daisy when we make much of you here at home, just as Florence +is Flossie." + +"No, I can't," said the little girl, very decidedly, getting up and +dropping her doll. "Aunt Desire, away up in Hanover, is thinking all +the time that there is a little Desire Ledwith growing up down here. +I don't mean to have her cheated. I'm going to went by my name, as +she did. Don't call me Daisy any more, all of you; for I shan't +come!" + +The gray eyes sparkled; the whole little face scintillated, as it +were. Desire Ledwith had a keen, charged little face; and when +something quick and strong shone through it, it was as if somewhere +behind it there had been struck fire. + +She was true to that through all the years after; going to school +with Mabels and Ethels and Graces and Ediths,--not a girl she knew +but had a pretty modern name,--and they all wondering at that stiff +little "Desire" of hers that she would go by. When she was twelve +years old, the old lady up in Hanover had died, and left her a gold +watch, large and old-fashioned, which she could only keep on a stand +in her room,--a good solid silver tea-set, and all her spoons, and +twenty-five shares in the Hanover Bank. + +Mrs. Megilp called her Daisy, with gentle inadvertence, one day +after that. Desire lifted her eyes slowly at her, with no other +reply in her face, or else. + +"You might please your mother now, I think," said Mrs. Megilp. +"There is no old lady to be troubled by it." + +"A promise isn't ever dead, Mrs. Megilp," said Desire, briefly. "I +shall keep our words." + +"After all," Mrs. Megilp said privately to the mother, "there is +something quietly aristocratic in an old, plain, family name. I +don't know that it isn't good taste in the child. Everybody +understands that it was a condition, and an inheritance." + +Mrs. Megilp had taken care of that. She was watchful for the small +impressions she could make in behalf of her particular friends. She +carried about with her a little social circumference in which all +was preëminently as it should be. + +But,--as I would say if you could not see it for yourself--this is +a digression. We will go back again. + +"If it were any use!" said Desire, shaking out the deep plaits as +she unfastened them from the band. "But you're only a piece of +everybody after all. You haven't anything really new or particular +to yourself, when you've done. And it takes up so much time. Last +year, this was so pretty! _Isn't_ anything actually pretty in +itself, or can't they settle what it is? I should think they had +been at it long enough." + +"Fashions never were so graceful as they are this minute," said Mrs. +Megilp. "Of course it is art, like everything else, and progress. +The world is getting educated to a higher refinement in it, every +day. Why, it's duty, child!" she continued, exaltedly. "Think what +the world would be if nobody cared. We ought to make life beautiful. +It's meant to be. There's not only no virtue in ugliness, but almost +no virtue _with_ it, I think. People are more polite and +good-natured when they are well dressed and comfortable." + +"_That's_ dress, too, though," said Desire, sententiously. "You've +got to stay at home four days, and rip, and be tired, and cross, and +tried-on-to, and have no chance to do anything else, before you can +put it all on and go out and be good-natured and bland, and help put +the beautiful face on the world, _one_ day. I don't believe it's +political economy." + +"Everybody doesn't have to do it for themselves. Really, when I hear +people blamed for dress and elegance,--why, the very ones who have +the most of it are those who sacrifice the least time to it. They +just go and order what they want, and there's the end of it. When it +comes home, they put it on, and it might as well be a flounced silk +as a plain calico." + +"But we _do_ have to think, Mrs. Megilp. And work and worry. And +then we _can't_ turn right round in the things we know every stitch +of and have bothered over from beginning to end, and just be lilies +of the field!" + +"A great many people do have to wash their own dishes, and sweep, +and scour; but that is no reason it ought not to be done. I always +thought it was rather a pity that was said, _just so_," Mrs. Megilp +proceeded, with a mild deprecation of the Scripture. "There _is_ +toiling and spinning; and will be to the end of time, for some of +us." + +"There's cauliflower brought for dinner, Mrs. Ledwith," said +Christina, the parlor girl, coming in. "And Hannah says it won't go +with the pigeons. Will she put it on the ice for to-morrow?" + +"I suppose so," said Mrs. Ledwith, absently, considering a breadth +that had a little hitch in it. "Though what we shall have to-morrow +I'm sure I don't know," she added, rousing up. "I wish Mr. Ledwith +wouldn't send home the first thing he sees, without any reference." + +"And here's the milkman's bill, and a letter," continued Christina, +laying them down on a chair beside her mistress, and then departing. + +Great things come into life so easily, when they do come, right +alongside of milk-bills and cabbages! And yet one may wait so long +sometimes for anything to happen _but_ cabbages! + +The letter was in a very broad, thick envelope, and sealed with wax. + +Mrs. Ledwith looked at it curiously before she opened it. She +did not receive many letters. She had very little time for +correspondence. It was addressed to "Mrs. Laura Ledwith." That +was odd and unusual, too. + +Mrs. Megilp glanced at her over the tortoise-shell rims of her +eye-glasses, but sat very quiet, lest she should delay the opening. +She would like to know what could be in that very business-like +looking despatch, and Laura would be sure to tell her. It must be +something pretty positive, one way or another; it was no +common-place negative communication. Laura might have had property +left her. Mrs. Megilp always thought of possibilities like that. + +When Laura Ledwith had unfolded the large commercial sheet, and +glanced down the open lines of square, upright characters, whose +purport could be taken in at sight, like print, she turned very red +with a sudden excitement. Then all the color dropped away, and there +was nothing in her face but blank, pale, intense surprise. + +"It is a most _won_derful thing!" said she, at last, slowly; and her +breath came like a gasp with her words. "My great-uncle, Mr. +Oldways." + +She spoke those four words as if from them Mrs. Megilp could +understand everything. + +Mrs. Megilp thought she did. + +"Ah! Gone?" she asked, pathetically. + +"Gone! No, indeed!" said Mrs. Ledwith. "He wrote the letter. He +wants me to _come_; me, and all of us,--to Boston, to live; and to +get acquainted with him." + +"My dear," said Mrs. Megilp, with the promptness and benignity of a +Christian apostle, "it's your duty to go." + +"And he offers me a house, and two thousand dollars a year." + +"My dear," said Mrs. Megilp, "it is _emphatically_ your duty to go." + +All at once something strange came over Laura Ledwith. She crumpled +the letter tight in her hands with a clutch of quick excitement, and +began to choke with a little sob, and to laugh at the same time. + +"Don't give way!" cried Mrs. Megilp, coming to her and giving her a +little shake and a slap. "If you do once you will again, and you're +_not_ hystericky!" + +"He's sent for Frank, too. Frank and I will be together again in +dear old Boston! But--we can't be children and sit on the shed any +more; and--it _isn't_ dear old Boston, either!" + +And then Laura gave right up, and had a good cry for five minutes. +After that she felt better, and asked Mrs. Megilp how she thought a +house in Spiller Street would do. + +But she couldn't rip any more of those breadths that morning. + +Agatha and Florence came in from some calls at the Goldthwaites and +the Haddens, and the news was told, and they had their bonnets to +take off, and the dinner-bell rang, and the smell of the spicy +pigeon-stew came up the stairs, all together. And they went down, +talking fast; and one said "house," and another "carpets," and +another "music and German;" and Desire, trailing a breadth of green +silk in her hand that she had never let go since the letter was +read, cried out, "oratorios!" And nobody quite knew what they were +going down stairs for, or had presence of mind to realize the +pigeons, or help each other or themselves properly, when they got +there! Except Mrs. Megilp, who was polite and hospitable to them +all, and picked two birds in the most composed and elegant manner. + +When the dessert was put upon the table, and Christina, confusedly +enlightened as to the family excitement, and excessively curious, +had gone away into the kitchen, Mrs. Ledwith said to Mrs. Megilp,-- + +"I'm not sure I should fancy Spiller Street, after all; it's a sort +of a corner. Westmoreland Street or Helvellyn Park might be nice. I +know people down that way,--Mrs. Inchdeepe." + +"Mrs. Inchdeepe isn't exactly 'people,'" said Mrs. Megilp, in a +quiet way that implied more than grammar. "Don't get into 'And' in +Boston, Laura!--With such an addition to your income, and what your +uncle gives you toward a house, I don't see why you might not think +of Republic Avenue." + +"We shall have plenty of thinking to do about everything," said +Laura. + +"Mamma," said Agatha, insinuatingly, "I'm thinking, already; about +that rose-pink paper for my room. I'm glad now I didn't have it +here." + +Agatha had been restless for white lace, and rose-pink, and a +Brussels carpet ever since her friend Zarah Thoole had come home +from Europe and furnished a morning-room. + +All this time Mr. Grant Ledwith, quite unconscious of the impending +changes with which his family were so far advanced in imagination, +was busy among bales and samples in Devonshire Street. It got to be +an old story by the time the seven o'clock train was in, and he +reached home. It was almost as if it had all happened a year ago, +and they had been waiting for him to come home from Australia. + +There was so much to explain to him that it was really hard to make +him understand, and to bring him up to the point from which they +could go on together. + + + + +VII. + +WAKING UP. + + +The Ledwiths took apartments in Boston for a month. They packed away +the furniture they wanted to keep for upper rooms, in the attics of +their house at Z----. They had an auction of all the furniture of +their drawing-room, dining-room, library, and first floor of +sleeping-rooms. Then they were to let their house. Meanwhile, one +was to be fixed upon and fitted up in Boston. In all this Mrs. +Megilp advised, invaluably. + +"It's of no use to move things," she said. "Three removes are as bad +as a fire; and nothing ever fits in to new places. Old wine and new +bottles, you know! Clear all off with a country auction. Everybody +comes, and they all fight for everything. Things bring more than +their original cost. Then you've nothing to do but order according +to your taste." + +Mr. Oldways had invited both his nieces to his own house on their +arrival. But here again Mrs. Megilp advised,--so judiciously. + +"There are too many of you; it would be a positive infliction. And +then you'll have all your running about and planning and calculating +to do, and the good old gentleman would think he had pulled half +Boston down about his ears. Your sister can go there; it would be +only generous and thoughtful to give way to her. There are only +three of them, and they are strange, you know, to every thing, and +wouldn't know which way to turn. I can put you in the way of rooms +at the Bellevue, exactly the thing, for a hundred and fifty a +month. No servants, you see; meals at the restaurant, and very good, +too. The Wedringtons are to give them up unexpectedly; going to +Europe; poor Mrs. Wedrington is so out of health. And about the +house; don't decide in a hurry; see what your uncle says, and your +sister. It's very likely she'll prefer the Aspen Street house; and +it _would_ be out of the way for you. Still it is not to be +_refused_, you know; of course it is very desirable in many +respects; roomy, old-fashioned, and a garden. I think your sister +will like those things; they're what she has been used to. If she +does, why it's all comfortably settled, and nobody refuses. It is so +ungracious to appear to object; a gift horse, you know." + +"Not to be refused; only by no means to be taken; masterly +inactivity till somebody else is hooked; and then somebody else is +to be grateful for the preference. I wish Mrs. Megilp wouldn't shine +things up so; and that mother wouldn't go to her to black all her +boots!" + +Desire said this in secret, indignant discomfort, to Helena, the +fourth in the family, her chum-sister. Helena did very well to talk +to; she heard anything; then she pranced round the room and chaffed +the canary. + +"Chee! chee! chee! chiddle, iddle, iddle, iddle, e-e-ee! Where do +you keep all your noise and your breath? You're great, aren't you? +You do that to spite people that have to work up one note at a time. +You don't take it in away down under your belt, do you? You're not +particular about that. You don't know much, after all. You don't +know _how_ you do it. You aren't learning of Madame Caroletti. And +you haven't learned two quarters, any way. You were only just born +last spring. Set up! Tr-r-r-r-e-e-ee! I can do that myself. I don't +believe you've got an octave in you. Poh!" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley came down from the country with a bonnet on that +had a crown, and with not a particle of a chignon. When she was +married, twenty-five years before, she wore a French twist,--her +hair turned up in waves from her neck as prettily as it did away +from her forehead,--and two thick coiled loops were knotted and +fastened gracefully at the top. She had kept on twisting her hair +so, all these years; and the rippling folds turned naturally under +her fingers into their places. The color was bright still, and it +had not thinned. Over her brows it parted richly, with no fuzz or +crimp; but a sweet natural wreathing look that made her face young. +Mrs. Ledwith had done hers over slate-pencils till she had burned it +off; and now tied on a friz, that came low down, for fashion's sake, +and left visible only a little bunch of puckers between her eyebrows +and the crowsfeet at the corners. The back of her head was weighted +down by an immense excrescence in a bag. Behind her ears were bare +places. Mrs. Ledwith began to look old-young. And a woman cannot get +into a worse stage of looks than that. Still, she was a showy +woman--a good exponent of the reigning style; and she was +handsome--she and her millinery--of an evening, or in the street. + +When I began that last paragraph I meant to tell you what else Mrs. +Ripwinkley brought with her, down out of the country and the old +times; but hair takes up a deal of room. She brought down all her +dear old furniture. That is, it came after her in boxes, when she +had made up her mind to take the Aspen Street house. + +"Why, that's the sofa Oliver used to lie down on when he came home +tired from his patients, and that's the rocking-chair I nursed my +babies in; and this is the old oak table we've sat round three times +a day, the family of us growing and thinning, as the time went on, +all through these years. It's like a communion table, now, Laura. Of +course such things had to come." + +This was what she answered, when Laura ejaculated her amazement at +her having brought "old Homesworth truck" to Boston. + +"You see it isn't the walls that make the home; we can go away from +them and not break our hearts, so long as our own goes with us. The +little things that we have used, and that have grown around us with +our living,--they are all of living that we can handle and hold on +to; and if I went to Spitzbergen, I should take as many of them as I +could." + +The Aspen Street house just suited Mrs. Ripwinkley, and Diana, and +Hazel. + +In the first place, it was wooden; built side to the street, so that +you went up a little paved walk, in a shade of trees, to get to the +door; and then the yard, on the right hand side as you came in, was +laid out in narrow walks between borders of blossoming plants. There +were vines against the brick end of the next building,--creepers and +morning-glories, and white and scarlet runners; and a little +martin-box was set upon a pole in the still, farther corner. + +The rooms of the house were low, but large; and some of the windows +had twelve-paned sashes,--twenty-four to a window. Mrs. Ripwinkley +was charmed with these also. They were like the windows at Mile +Hill. + +Mrs. Ledwith, although greatly relieved by her sister's prompt +decision for the house which she did _not_ want, felt it in her +conscience to remonstrate a little. + +"You have just come down from the mountains, Frank, after your +twenty-five years' sleep; you've seen nothing by and by you will +think differently. This house is fearfully old-fashioned, +_fearfully_; and it's away down here on the wrong side of the hill. +You can never get up over Summit Street from here." + +"We are used to hills, and walking." + +"But I mean--that isn't all. There are other things you won't be +able to get over. You'll never shake off Aspen Street dust,--you nor +the children." + +"I don't think it is dusty. It is quiet, and sheltered, and clean. I +like it ever so much," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. + +"O, dear, you don't understand in the least! It's wicked to let you +go on so! You poor, dear, simple little old soul!" + +"Never mind," said Mrs. Megilp. "It's all well enough for the +present. It pleases the old gentleman, you know; and after all he's +done, he ought to be pleased. One of you should certainly be in his +neighborhood. _He_ has been here from time immemorial; and any place +grows respectable by staying in it long enough--from _choice_. +Nobody will wonder at Mrs. Ripwinkley's coming here at his request. +And when she _does_ move, you see, she will know exactly what she is +about." + +"I almost doubt if she ever _will_ know what she is about," said +Laura. + +"In that case,--well,"--said Mrs. Megilp, and stopped, because it +really was not in the least needful to say more. + +Mrs. Megilp felt it judicious, for many reasons, that Mrs. +Ripwinkley should he hidden away for awhile, to get that mountain +sleep out of her eyes, if it should prove possible; just as we rub +old metal with oil and put it by till the rust comes off. + +The Ledwiths decided upon a house in Shubarton Place that would not +seem quite like taking old Uncle Titus's money and rushing away +with it as far as city limits would allow; and Laura really did wish +to have the comfort of her sister's society, in a cozy way, of +mornings, up in her room; that was her chief idea about it. There +were a good many times and things in which she scarcely expected +much companionship from Frank. She would not have said even to +herself, that Frank was rusty; and she would do her faithful and +good-natured best to rub her up; but there was an instinct with her +of the congruous and the incongruous; and she would not do her +Bath-brick polishing out on the public promenade. + +They began by going together to the carpet stores and the paper +warehouses; but they ended in detailing themselves for separate +work; their ideas clashed ridiculously, and perpetually confused +each other. Frank remembered loyally her old brown sofa and chairs; +she would not have gay colors to put them out of countenance; for +even if she re-covered them, she said they should have the same old +homey complexion. So she chose a fair, soft buff, with a pattern of +brown leaves, for her parlor paper; Mrs. Ledwith, meanwhile, +plunging headlong into glories of crimson and garnet and gold. +Agatha had her blush pink, in panels, with heart-of-rose borders, +set on with delicate gilt beadings; you would have thought she was +going to put herself up, in a fancy-box, like a French _mouchoir_ or +a _bonbon_. + +"Why _don't_ you put your old brown things all together in an +up-stairs room, and call it Mile Hill? You could keep it for old +times' sake, and sit there mornings; the house is big enough; and +then have furniture like other people's in the parlor?" + +"You see it wouldn't be _me_." said Mrs. Ripwinkley, simply. + +"They keep saying it 'looks,' and 'it looks,'" said Diana to her +mother, at home. "Why must everything _look_ somehow?" + +"And every_body_, too," said Hazel. "Why, when we meet any one in +the street that Agatha and Florence know, the minute they have gone +by they say, 'She didn't look well to-day,' or, 'How pretty she did +look in that new hat!' And after the great party they went to at +that Miss Hitchler's, they never told a word about it except how +girls 'looked.' I wonder what they _did_, or where the good time +was. Seems to me people ain't living,--they are only just looking; +or _is_ this the same old Boston that you told about, and where are +the real folks, mother?" + +"We shall find them," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, cheerily; "and the real +of these, too, when the outsides are settled. In the meantime, we'll +make our house say, and not look. Say something true, of course. +Things won't say anything else, you see; if you try to make them, +they don't speak out; they only stand in a dumb show and make +faces." + +"That's looking!" said Hazel. "Now I know." + +"How those children do grow!" said Mrs. Ripwinkley, as they went off +together. "Two months ago they were sitting out on the kitchen roof, +and coming to me to hear the old stories!" + +"Transplantin'," said Luclarion. "That's done it." + +At twelve and fourteen, Hazel and Diana could be simple as +birds,--simpler yet, as human children waiting for all things,--in +their country life and their little dreams of the world. Two months' +contact with people and things in a great city had started the life +that was in them, so that it showed what manner of growth it was to +be of. + +And little Hazel Ripwinkley had got hold already of the small end of +a very large problem. + +But she could not make it out that this was the same old Boston +that her mother had told about, or where the nice neighbors were +that would be likely to have little tea-parties for their children. + + + + +VIII. + +EAVESDROPPING IN ASPEN STREET. + + +Some of the old builders,--not the _very_ old ones, for they built +nothing but rope-walks down behind the hill,--but some of those who +began to go northwest from the State House to live, made a pleasant +group of streets down there on the level stretching away to the +river, and called them by fresh, fragrant, country-suggesting +names. Names of trees and fields and gardens, fruits and blossoms; +and they built houses with gardens around them. In between the +blocks were deep, shady places; and the smell of flowers was tossed +back and forth by summer winds between the walls. Some nice old +people stayed on there, and a few of their descendants stay on there +still, though they are built in closely now, for the most part, and +coarse, common things have much intruded, and Summit Street +overshadows them with its palaces. + +Here and there a wooden house, set back a little, like this of the +Ripwinkleys in Aspen Street, gives you a feeling of Boston in the +far back times, as you go by; and here and there, if you could get +into the life of the neighborhood, you might perhaps find a +household keeping itself almost untouched with change, though there +has been such a rush and surge for years up and over into the newer +and prouder places. + +At any rate, Titus Oldways lived here in Greenley Street; and he +owned the Aspen Street house, and another over in Meadow Place, and +another in Field Court. He meant to stretch his control over them as +long as he could, and keep them for families; therefore he valued +them at such rates as they would bring for dwellings; he would not +sell or lease them for any kind of "improvements;" he would not have +their little door-yards choked up, or their larger garden spaces +destroyed, while he could help it. + +Round in Orchard Street lived Miss Craydocke. She was away again, +now, staying a little while with the Josselyns in New York. Uncle +Titus told Mrs. Ripwinkley that when Miss Craydocke came back it +would be a neighborhood, and they could go round; now it was only +back and forth between them and him and Rachel Froke. There were +other people, too, but they would be longer finding them out. +"You'll know Miss Craydocke as soon as you see her; she is one of +those you always seem to have seen before." + +Now Uncle Titus would not have said this to everybody; not even if +everybody had been his niece, and had come to live beside him. + +Orchard Street is wide and sunny and pleasant; the river air comes +over it and makes it sweet; and Miss Craydocke's is a big, generous +house, of which she only uses a very little part herself, because +she lets the rest to nice people who want pleasant rooms and can't +afford to pay much rent; an old gentleman who has had a hard time in +the world, but has kept himself a gentleman through it all, and his +little cheery old lady-wife who puts her round glasses on and +stitches away at fine women's under-garments and flannel +embroideries, to keep things even, have the two very best rooms; and +a clergyman's widow, who copies for lawyers, and writes little +stories for children, has another; and two orphan sisters who keep +school have another; and Miss Craydocke calls her house the Beehive, +and buzzes up and down in it, and out and in, on little "seeing-to" +errands of care and kindness all day long, as never any queen-bee +did in any beehive before, but in a way that makes her more truly +queen than any sitting in the middle cell of state to be fed on +royal jelly. Behind the Beehive, is a garden, as there should be; +great patches of lily-of-the valley grow there that Miss Craydocke +ties up bunches from in the spring and gives away to little +children, and carries into all the sick rooms she knows of, and the +poor places. I always think of those lilies of the valley when I +think of Miss Craydocke. It seems somehow as if they were blooming +about her all the year through; and so they are, perhaps, invisibly. +The other flowers come in their season; the crocuses have been done +with first of all; the gay tulips and the snowballs have made the +children glad when they stopped at the gate and got them, going to +school. Miss Craydocke is always out in her garden at school-time. +By and by there are the tall white lilies, standing cool and serene +in the July heats; then Miss Craydocke is away at the mountains, +pressing ferns and drying grasses for winter parlors; but there is +somebody on duty at the garden dispensary always, and there are +flower-pensioners who know they may come in and take the gracious +toll. + +Late in the autumn, the nasturtiums and verbenas and marigolds are +bright; and the asters quill themselves into the biggest globes they +can, of white and purple and rose, as if it were to make the last +glory the best, and to do the very utmost of the year. Then the +chrysanthemums go into the house and bloom there for Christmas-time. + +There is nothing else like Miss Craydocke's house and garden, I do +believe, in all the city of the Three Hills. It is none too big for +her, left alone with it, the last of her family; the world is none +too big for her; she is glad to know it is all there. She has a use +for everything as fast as it comes, and a work to do for everybody, +as fast as she finds them out. And everybody,--almost,--catches it +as she goes along, and around her there is always springing up a +busy and a spreading crystallizing of shining and blessed elements. +The world is none too big for her, or for any such, of course, +because,--it has been told why better than I can tell it,--because +"ten times one is always ten." + +It was a gray, gusty morning. It had not set in to rain +continuously; but the wind wrung handfuls of drops suddenly from the +clouds, and flung them against the panes and into the wayfarers' +faces. + +Over in the house opposite the Ripwinkley's, at the second story +windows, sat two busy young persons. Hazel, sitting at her window, +in "mother's room," where each had a corner, could see across; and +had got into the way of innocent watching. Up in Homesworth, she had +used to watch the robins in the elm-trees; here, there was human +life, in little human nests, all about her. + +"It's the same thing, mother," she would say, "isn't it, now? Don't +you remember in that book of the 'New England Housekeeper,' that you +used to have, what the woman said about the human nature of the +beans? It's in beans, and birds, and bird's nests; and folks, and +folks' nests. It don't make much difference. It's just snugness, and +getting along. And it's so nice to see!" + +Hazel put her elbows up on the window-sill, and looked straight over +into that opposite room, undisguisedly. + +The young man, in one window, said to his sister in the other, at +the same moment,-- + +"Our company's come! There's that bright little girl again!" + +And the sister said, "Well, it's pretty much all the company we can +take in! She brings her own seat and her own window; and she doesn't +interrupt. It's just the kind for us, Kentie!" + +"She's writing,--copying something,--music, it looks like; see it +there, set up against the shutter. She always goes out with a music +roll in her hand. I wonder whether she gives or takes?" said Diana, +stopping on her way to her own seat to look out over Hazel's +shoulder. + +"Both, I guess," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "Most people do. Why don't +you put your flowers in the window, Hazel?" + +"Why, so I will!" + +They were a great bunch of snowy white and deep crimson asters, with +green ivy leaves, in a tall gray glass vase. Rachel Froke had just +brought them in from Miss Craydocke's garden. + +"They're looking, mother! Only I do think it's half too bad! That +girl seems as if she would almost reach across after them. Perhaps +they came from the country, and haven't had any flowers." + +"Thee might take them over some," said Mrs. Froke, simply. + +"O, I shouldn't dare! There are other people in the house, and I +don't know their names, or anything. I wish I could, though." + +"I can," said Rachel Froke. "Thee'll grow tall enough to step over +pebbles one of these days. Never mind; I'll fetch thee more +to-morrow; and thee'll let the vase go for a while? Likely they've +nothing better than a tumbler." + +Rachel Froke went down the stairs, and out along the paved walk, +into the street. She stopped an instant on the curb-stone before she +crossed, and looked up at those second story windows. Hazel watched +her. She held up the vase slightly with one hand, nodding her little +gray bonnet kindly, and beckoned with the other. + +The young girl started from her seat. + +In another minute Hazel saw them together in the doorway. + +There was a blush and a smile, and an eager brightness in the face, +and a quick speaking thanks, that one could read without hearing, +from the parted lips, on the one side, and the quiet, unflutterable +gray bonnet calmly horizontal on the other; and then the door was +shut, and Rachel Froke was crossing the damp pavement again. + +"I'm so glad Aspen Street is narrow!" said Hazel. "I should hate to +be way off out of sight of people. What did you say to her, Mrs. +Froke?" she asked, as the Friend reentered. Hazel could by no means +take the awful liberty of "Rachel." + +"I said the young girl, Hazel Ripwinkley, being from the country, +knew how good flowers were to strangers in the town, and that she +thought they might be strange, and might like some." + +Hazel flushed all up. At that same instant, a gentle nod and smile +came across from window to window, and she flushed more, till the +tears sprung with the shy, glad excitement, as she returned it and +then shrunk away. + +"And she said, 'Thank her, with Dorris Kincaid's love,'" proceeded +Rachel Froke. + +"O, _mother_!" exclaimed Hazel. "And you did it all, right off so, +Mrs. Froke. I don't see how grown up people dare, and know how!" + +Up the stairs ran quick feet in little clattering heeled boots. +Desire Ledwith, with a purple waterproof on, came in. + +"I couldn't stay at home to-day," she said, "I wanted to be where +it was all-togetherish. It never is at our house. Now it's set up, +they don't do anything with it." + +"That's because it '_looks_'--so elegant," said Hazel, catching +herself up in dismay. + +"It's because it's the crust, I think," said Desire. "Puff paste, +like an oyster patty; and they haven't got anything cooked yet for +the middle. I wonder when they will. I had a call yesterday, all to +myself," she went on, with a sudden change of tone and topic. +"Agatha was hopping and I wouldn't tell her what I said, or how I +behaved. That new parlor girl of ours thinks we're all or any of us +'Miss Ledwith,' mamma included, and so she let him in. He had on +lavender pantaloons and a waxed moustache." + +"The rain is just pouring down!" said Diana, at the garden window. + +"Yes; I'm caught. That's what I meant," said Desire. "You've got to +keep me all day, now. How will you get home, Mrs. Froke? Or won't +you have to stay, too?" + +"Thee may call me Rachel, Desire Ledwith, if thee pleases. I like it +better. I am no mistress. And for getting home, it is but just round +the corner. But there is no need yet. I came for an hour, to sit +here with friend Frances. And my hour is not yet up." + +"I'm glad of that, for there is something I want you to tell me. I +haven't quite got at it myself, yet; so as to ask, I mean. Wait a +minute!" And she put her elbows up on her knees, and held her thumbs +against her ears, and her fingers across her forehead; sitting +squarely opposite the window to which she had drawn up her chair +beside Diane, and looking intently at the driving streams that +rushed and ran down against the glass. + +"I was sitting in the bay-window at home, when it began this +morning; that made me think. All the world dripping wet, and I just +put there dry and safe in the middle of the storm, shut up behind +those great clear panes and tight sashes. How they did have to +contrive, and work, before there were such places made for people! +What if they had got into their first scratchy little houses, and +sat behind the logs as we do behind glass windows and thought, as I +was thinking, how nice it was just to be covered up from the rain? +Is it all finished now? Hasn't anybody got to contrive anything +more? And who's going to do it--and everything. And what are we good +for,--just _we_,--to come and expect it all, modern-improved! I +don't think much of our place among things, do you, Mrs. +Froke?--There, I believe that's it, as near as I can!'" + +"Why does thee ask me, Desire?" + +"I don't know. I don't know any whys or what fors. 'Behold we know +not anything,'--Tennyson and I! But you seem so--pacified--I suppose +I thought you must have settled most things in your mind." + +"Every builder--every little joiner--did his piece,--thought his +thought out, I think likely. There's no little groove or moulding or +fitting or finish, but is a bit of somebody's living; and life +grows, going on. We've all got our piece to do," said Rachel. + +"I asked Mrs. Mig," Desire pursued, "and she said some people's part +was to buy and employ and encourage; and that spending money helps +all the world; and then she put another cushion to her back, and +went on tatting." + +"Perhaps it does--in spite of the world," said Rachel Froke, +quietly. + +"But I guess nobody is to sit by and _only_ encourage; God has +given out no such portion as that, I do believe. We can encourage +each other, and every one do his own piece too." + +"I didn't really suppose Mrs. Mig knew," said Desire, demurely. "She +never began at the bottom of anything. She only finishes off. She +buys pattern worsted work, and fills it in. That's what she's doing +now, when she don't tat; a great bunch of white lilies, grounding it +with olive. It's lovely; but I'd rather have made the lilies. She'll +give it to mother, and then Glossy will come and spend the winter +with us. Mrs. Mig is going to Nassau with a sick friend; she's +awfully useful--for little overseeings and general touchings up, +after all the hard part is done. Mrs. Mig's sick friends always have +nurses and waiting maids--Mrs. F---- Rachel! Do you know, I haven't +got any piece!" + +"No, I don't know; nor does thee either, yet," said Rachel Froke. + + * * * * * + +"It's all such bosh!" said Kenneth Kincaid, flinging down a handful +of papers. "I've no right, I solemnly think, to help such stuff out +into the world! A man can't take hold anywhere, it seems, without +smutting his fingers!" + +Kenneth Kincaid was correcting proof for a publisher. What he had to +work on this morning was the first chapters of a flimsy novel. + +"It isn't even confectionery," said he. "It's terra alba and +cochineal. And when it comes to the sensation, it will be benzine +for whiskey. Real things are bad enough, for the most part, in this +world; but when it comes to sham fictions and adulterated poisons, +Dorris, I'd rather help bake bread, if it were an honest loaf, or +make strong shoes for laboring men!" + +"You don't always get things like that," said Dorris. "And you know +you're not responsible. Why will you torment yourself so?" + +"I was so determined not to do anything but genuine work; work that +the world wanted; and to have it come down to this!" + +"Only for a time, while you are waiting." + +"Yes; people must eat while they are waiting; that's the--devil of +it! I'm not swearing, Dorris, dear; it came truly into my head, that +minute, about the Temptation in the Wilderness." Kenneth's voice was +reverent, saying this; and there was an earnest thought in his face. + +"You'll never like anything heartily but your Sunday work." + +"That's what keeps me here. My week-day work might be wanted +somewhere else. And perhaps I ought to go. There's Sunday work +everywhere." + +"If you've found one half, hold on to it;" said Dorris. "The other +can't be far off." + +"I suppose there are a score or two of young architects in this +city, waiting for a name or a chance to make one, as I am. If it +isn't here for all of them, somebody has got to quit." + +"And somebody has got to hold on," repeated Dorris. "You are morbid, +Kent, about this 'work of the world.'" + +"It's overdone, everywhere. Fifth wheels trying to hitch on to every +coach. I'd rather be the one wheel of a barrow." + +"The Lord is Wheelwright, and Builder," said Dorris, very simply. +"You _are_ a wheel, and He has made you; He'll find an axle for you +and put you on; and you shall go about his business, so that you +shall wonder to remember that you were ever leaning up against a +wall. Do you know, Kentie, life seems to me like the game we used +to play at home in the twilight. When we shut our eyes and let each +other lead us, until we did not know where we were going, or in what +place we should come out. I should not care to walk up a broad path +with my eyes wide open, now. I'd rather feel the leading. To-morrow +always makes a turn. It's beautiful! People don't know, who _never_ +shut their eyes!" + +Kenneth had taken up a newspaper. + +"The pretenses at doing! The dodges and go-betweens that make a sham +work between every two real ones! There's hardly a true business +carried on, and if there is, you don't know where or which. Look at +the advertisements. Why, they cheat with their very tops and faces! +See this man who puts in big capitals: 'Lost! $5,000! $1,000 +reward!' and then tells you, in small type, that five thousand +dollars are lost every year by breaking glass and china, that his +cement will mend! What business has he to cry 'Wolf!' to the +hindrance of the next man who may have a real wolf to catch? And +what business has the printer, whom the next man will pay to +advertise his loss, to help on a lie like this beforehand? I'm only +twenty-six years old, Dorris, and I'm getting ashamed of the world!" + +"Don't grow hard, Kenneth. 'The Son of Man came not to condemn the +world, but to save it.' Let's each try to save our little piece!" + +We are listening across the street, you see; between the windows in +the rain; it is strange what chords one catches that do not catch +each other, and were never planned to be played together,--by the +_players_. + +Kenneth Kincaid's father Robert had been a ship-builder. When +shipping went down in the whirlpool of 1857, Robert Kincaid's +building had gone; and afterward he had died leaving his children +little beside their education, which he thanked God was secured, and +a good repute that belonged to their name, but was easily forgotten +in the crowd of young and forward ones, and in the strife and +scramble of a new business growth. + +Between college and technical studies Kenneth had been to the war. +After that he had a chance to make a fortune in Wall Street. His +father's brother, James, offered to take him in with him to buy and +sell stocks and gold, to watch the market, to touch little unseen +springs, to put the difference into his own pocket every time the +tide of value shifted, or could be made to seem to shift. He might +have been one of James R. Kincaid and Company. He would have none of +it. He told his uncle plainly that he wanted real work; that he had +not come back from fighting to--well, there he stopped, for he could +not fling the truth in his uncle's face; he said there were things +he meant to finish learning, and would try to do; and if nobody +wanted them of him he would learn something else that was needed. So +with what was left to his share from his father's little remnant of +property, he had two years at the Technological School, and here he +was in Boston waiting. You can see what he meant by real work, and +how deep his theories and distinctions lay. You can see that it +might be a hard thing for one young man, here or there, to take up +the world on these terms now, in this year of our Lord eighteen +hundred and sixty-nine. + +Over the way Desire Ledwith was beginning again, after a pause in +which we have made our little chassée. + +"I know a girl," she said, "who has got a studio. And she talks +about art, and she knows styles, and who has done what, and she runs +about to see pictures, and she copies things, and she has little +plaster legs and toes and things hanging round everywhere. She +thinks it is something great; but it's only Mig, after all. +Everything is. Florence Migs into music. And I won't Mig, if I never +do anything. I'm come here this morning to darn stockings." And she +pulled out of her big waterproof pocket a bundle of stockings and a +great white ball of darning cotton and a wooden egg. + +"There is always one thing that is real," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, +gently, "and that shows the way surely to all the rest." + +"I know what you mean," said Desire, "of course; but they've mixed +that all up too, like everything else, so that you don't know where +it is. Glossy Megilp has a velvet prayer-book, and she blacks her +eyelashes and goes to church. We've all been baptized, and we've +learned the Lord's Prayer, and we're all Christians. What is there +more about it? I wish, sometimes, they had let it all alone. I think +they vaccinated us with religion, Aunt Frank, for fear we should +take it the natural way." + +"Thee is restless," said Rachel Froke, tying on her gray cloak. "And +to make us so is oftentimes the first thing the Lord does for us. It +was the first thing He did for the world. Then He said, 'Let there +be light!' In the meantime, thee is right; just darn thy stockings." +And Rachel went. + +They had a nice morning, after that, "leaving frets alone," as Diana +said. Diana Ripwinkley was happy in things just as they were. If the +sun shone, she rejoiced in the glory; if the rain fell, it shut her +in sweetly to the heart of home, and the outside world grew fragrant +for her breathing. There was never anything in her day that she +could spare out of it, and there were no holes in the hours either. +"Whether she was most bird or bee, it was hard to tell," her mother +said of her; from the time she used to sweep and dust her garret +baby-house along the big beams in the old house at Homesworth, and +make little cheeses, and set them to press in wooden pill-boxes from +which she had punched the bottoms out, till now, that she began to +take upon herself the daily freshening of the new parlors in Aspen +Street, and had long lessons of geometry to learn, whose dry +demonstrations she set to odd little improvised recitatives of +music, and chanted over while she ran up and down putting away clean +linen for her mother, that Luclarion brought up from the wash. + +As for Hazel, she was only another variation upon the same sweet +nature. There was more of outgo and enterprise with her. Diana made +the thing or the place pleasant that she was in or doing. Hazel +sought out new and blessed inventions. "There was always something +coming to the child that wouldn't ever have come to no one else," +Luclarion said. "And besides that, she was a real 'Witch Hazel;' she +could tell where the springs were, and what's more, where they +warn't." + +Luclarion Grapp would never have pleaded guilty to "dropping into +poetry" in any light whatsoever; but what she meant by this was not +exactly according to the letter, as one may easily see. + + + + +IX. + +HAZEL'S INSPIRATION. + + +What was the use of "looking," unless things were looked at? Mrs. +Ledwith found at the end of the winter that she ought to give a +party. Not a general one; Mrs. Ledwith always said "not a general +one," as if it were an exception, whereas she knew better than ever +to undertake a general party; her list would be _too_ general, and +heterogeneous. It would simply be a physical, as well as a social, +impossibility. She knew quantities of people separately and very +cordially, in her easy have-a-good-time-when-you-can style, that she +could by no means mix, or even gather together. She picked up +acquaintances on summer journeys, she accepted civilities wherever +she might be, she asked everybody to her house who took a fancy to +her, or would admire her establishment, and if she had had a spring +cleaning or a new carpeting, or a furbishing up in any way, the next +thing was always to light up and play it off,--to try it on to +somebody. What were houses for? And there was always somebody who +ought to be paid attention to; somebody staying with a friend, or a +couple just engaged, or if nothing else, it was her turn to have the +sewing-society; and so her rooms got aired. Of course she had to air +them now! The drawing-room, with its apricot and coffee-brown +furnishings, was lovely in the evening, and the crimson and garnet +in the dining-room was rich and cozy, and set off brilliantly her +show of silver and cut-glass; and then, there was the new, real, +sea-green China. + +So the party was had. There were some people in town from New York; +she invited them and about a hundred more. The house lit up +beautifully; the only pity was that Mrs. Ledwith could not wear her +favorite and most becoming colors, buff and chestnut, because she +had taken that family of tints for her furniture; but she found a +lovely shade of violet that would hold by gas-light, and she wore +black Fayal lace with it, and white roses upon her hair. Mrs. +Treweek was enchanted with the brown and apricot drawing-room, and +wondered where on earth they had got that particular shade, for "my +dear! she had ransacked Paris for hangings in just that perfect, +soft, ripe color that she had in her mind and never could hit upon." +Mrs. MacMichael had pushed the grapes back upon her plate to examine +the pattern of the bit of china, and had said how lovely the +coloring was, with the purple and pale green of the fruit. And these +things, and a few more like them, were the residuum of the whole, +and Laura Ledwith was satisfied. + +Afterward, "while they were in the way of it," Florence had a little +_musicale_; and the first season in Shubarton Place was over. + +It turned out, however, as it did in the old rhyme,--they shod the +horse, and shod the mare, and let the little colt go bare. Helena +was disgusted because she could not have a "German." + +"We shall have to be careful, now that we have fairly settled down," +said Laura to her sister; "for every bit of Grant's salary will have +been taken up with this winter's expenses. But one wants to begin +right, and after that one can go on moderately. I'm good at +contriving, Frank; only give me something to contrive with." + +"Isn't it a responsibility," Frank ventured, "to think what we shall +contrive _for_?" + +"Of course," returned Mrs. Ledwith, glibly. "And my first duty is +to my children. I don't mean to encourage them to reckless +extravagance; as Mrs. Megilp says, there's always a limit; but it's +one's duty to make life beautiful, and one can't do too much for +home. I want my children to be satisfied with theirs, and I want to +cultivate their tastes and accustom them to society. I can't do +_everything_ for them; they will dress on three hundred a year +apiece, Agatha and Florence; and I can assure you it needs +management to accomplish that, in these days!" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley laughed, gently. + +"It would require management with us to get rid of that, upon +ourselves." + +"O, my dear, don't I tell you continually, you haven't waked up yet? +Just rub your eyes a while longer,--or let the girls do it for +you,--and you'll see! Why, I know of girls,--girls whose mothers +have limited incomes, too,--who have been kept plain, actually +_plain_, all their school days, but who must have now six and eight +hundred a year to go into society with. And really I wouldn't +undertake it for less, myself, if I expected to keep up with +everything. But I must treat mine all alike, and we must be +contented with what we have. There's Helena, now, crazy for a young +party; but I couldn't think of it. Young parties are ten times worse +than old ones; there's really no _end_ to the expense, with the +German, and everything. Helena will have to wait; and yet,--of +course, if I could, it is desirable, almost necessary; acquaintances +begin in the school-room,--society, indeed; and a great deal would +depend upon it. The truth is, you're no sooner born, now-a-days, +than you have to begin to keep up; or else--you're dropped out." + +"O, Laura! do you remember the dear little parties our mother used +to make for us? From four till half-past eight, with games, and tea +at six, and the fathers looking in?" + +"And cockles, and mottoes, and printed cambric dresses, and milk and +water! Where are the children, do you suppose, you dear old Frau Van +Winkle, that would come to such a party now?" + +"Children must be born simple, as they were then. There's nothing my +girls would like better, even at their age, than to help at just +such a party. It is a dream of theirs. Why shouldn't somebody do it, +just to show how good it is?" + +"You can lead a horse to water, you know, Frank, but you can't make +him drink. And the colts are forty times worse. I believe you might +get some of the mothers together for an ancient tea-drink, just in +the name of old association; but the _babies_ would all turn up +their new-fashioned little noses." + +"O, dear!" sighed Frau Van Winkle. "I wish I knew people!" + +"By the time you do, you'll know the reason why, and be like all the +rest." + +Hazel Ripwinkley went to Mrs. Hilman's school, with her cousin +Helena. That was because the school was a thoroughly good one; the +best her mother could learn of; not because it was kept in parlors +in Dorset Street, and there were girls there who came from palaces +west of the Common, in the grand avenues and the ABC streets; nor +did Hazel wear her best gray and black velvet suit for every day, +though the rich colored poplins with their over-skirts and sashes, +and the gay ribbons for hair and neck made the long green baize +covered tables look like gardenplots with beds of bloom, and quite +extinguished with their brilliancy the quiet, one skirted brown +merino that she brushed and folded every night, and put on with +fresh linen cuffs and collar every morning. + +"It is an idiosyncrasy of Aunt Frances," Helena explained, with the +grandest phrase she could pick out of her "Synonymes," to cow down +those who "wondered." + +Privately, Helena held long lamentations with Hazel, going to and +fro, about the party that she could not have. + +"I'm actually ashamed to go to school. There isn't a girl there, who +can pretend to have anything, that hasn't had some kind of a company +this winter. I've been to them all, and I feel real mean,--sneaky. +What's 'next year?' Mamma puts me off with that. Poh? Next year +they'll all begin again. You can't skip birthdays." + +"I'll tell you what!" said Hazel, suddenly, inspired by much the +same idea that had occurred to Mrs. Ripwinkley; "I mean to ask my +mother to let _me_ have a party!" + +"You! Down in Aspen Street! Don't, for pity's sake, Hazel!" + +"I don't believe but what it could be done over again!" said Hazel, +irrelevantly, intent upon her own thought. + +"It couldn't be done _once_! For gracious grandmother's sake, don't +think of it!" cried the little world-woman of thirteen. + +"It's gracious grandmother's sake that made me think of it," said +Hazel, laughing. "The way she used to do." + +"Why don't you ask them to help you hunt up old Noah, and all get +back into the ark, pigeons and all?" + +"Well, I guess they had pretty nice times there, any how; and if +another big rain comes, perhaps they'll have to!" + +Hazel did not intend her full meaning; but there is many a faint, +small prophecy hid under a clover-leaf. + +Hazel did not let go things; her little witch-wand, once pointed, +held its divining angle with the might of magic until somebody broke +ground. + +"It's awful!" Helena declared to her mother and sisters, with tears +of consternation. "And she wants me to go round with her and carry +'compliments!' It'll never be got over,--never! I wish I could go +away to boarding-school!" + +For Mrs. Ripwinkley had made up her unsophisticated mind to try this +thing; to put this grain of a pure, potent salt, right into the +seethe and glitter of little Boston, and find out what it would +decompose or precipitate. For was not she a mother, testing the +world's chalice for her children? What did she care for the hiss and +the bubble, if they came? + +She was wider awake than Mrs. Ledwith knew; perhaps they who come +down from the mountain heights of long seclusion can measure the +world's paces and changes better than they who have been hurried in +the midst of them, on and on, or round and round. + +Worst of all, old Uncle Titus took it up. + +It was funny,--or it would have been funny, reader, if anybody but +you and I and Rachel Froke knew exactly how,--to watch Uncle Titus +as he kept his quiet eye on all these things,--the things that he +had set going,--and read their revelations; sheltered, disguised, +under a character that the world had chosen to put upon him, like +Haroun Alraschid in the merchant's cloak. + +They took their tea with him,--the two families,--every Sunday +night. Agatha Ledwith "filled him in" a pair of slippers that very +first Christmas; he sat there in the corner with his old leather +ones on, when they came, and left them, for the most part, to their +own mutual entertainment, until the tea was ready. It was a sort of +family exchange; all the plans and topics came up, particularly on +the Ledwith side, for Mrs. Ripwinkley was a good listener, and Laura +a good talker; and the fun,--that you and I and Rachel Froke could +guess,--yes, and a good deal of unsuspected earnest, also,--was all +there behind the old gentleman's "Christian Age," as over brief +mentions of sermons, or words about books, or little brevities of +family inquiries and household news, broke small floods of +excitement like water over pebbles, as Laura and her daughters +discussed and argued volubly the matching and the flouncing of a +silk, or the new flowering and higher pitching of a bonnet,--since +"they are wearing everything all on the top, you know, and mine +looks terribly meek;" or else descanted diffusely on the +unaccountableness of the somebodies not having called, or the bother +and forwardness of the some-other-bodies who had, and the +eighty-three visits that were left on the list to be paid, and +"never being able to take a day to sit down for anything." + +"What is it all for?" Mrs. Ripwinkley would ask, over again, the +same old burden of the world's weariness falling upon her from her +sister's life, and making her feel as if it were her business to +clear it away somehow. + +"Why, to live!" Mrs. Ledwith would reply. "You've got it all to do, +you see." + +"But I don't really see, Laura, where the living comes in." + +Laura opens her eyes. + +"_Slang_?" says she. "Where did you get hold of that?" + +"Is it slang? I'm sure I don't know. I mean it." + +"Well, you _are_ the funniest! You don't _catch_ anything. Even a +by-word must come first-hand from you, and mean something!" + +"It seems to me such a hard-working, getting-ready-to-be, and then +not being. There's no place left for it,--because it's all place." + +"Gracious me, Frank! If you are going to sift everything so, and get +back of everything! I can't live in metaphysics: I have to live in +the things themselves, amongst other people." + +"But isn't it scene and costume, a good deal of it, without the +play? It may be that I don't understand, because I have not got into +the heart of your city life; but what comes of the parties, for +instance? The grand question, beforehand, is about wearing, and then +there's a retrospection of what was worn, and how people looked. It +seems to be all surface. I should think they might almost send in +their best gowns, or perhaps a photograph,--if photographs ever were +becoming,--as they do visiting cards." + +"Aunt Frank," said Desire, "I don't believe the 'heart of city life' +is in the parties, or the parlors. I believe there's a great lot of +us knocking round amongst the dry goods and the furniture that never +get any further. People must be _living_, somewhere, _behind_ the +fixings. But there are so many people, nowadays, that have never +quite got fixed!" + +"You might live all your days here," said Mrs. Ledwith to her +sister, passing over Desire, "and never get into the heart of it, +for that matter, unless you were born into it. I don't care so much, +for my part. I know plenty of nice people, and I like to have things +nice about me, and to have a pleasant time, and to let my children +enjoy themselves. The 'heart,' if the truth was known, is a +dreadful still place. I'm satisfied." + +Uncle Titus's paper was folded across the middle; just then he +reversed the lower half; that brought the printing upside down; but +he went on reading all the same. + +"_I_'m going to have a real party," said Hazel, "a real, +gracious-grandmother party; just such as you and mother had, Aunt +Laura, when you were little." + +Her Aunt Laura laughed good-naturedly. + +"I guess you'll have to go round and knock up the grandmothers to +come to it, then," said she. "You'd better make it a fancy dress +affair at once, and then it will be accounted for." + +"No; I'm going round to invite; and they are to come at four, and +take tea at six; and they're just to wear their afternoon dresses; +and Miss Craydocke is coming at any rate; and she knows all the old +plays, and lots of new ones; and she is going to show how." + +"I'm coming, too," said Uncle Titus, over his newspaper, with his +eyes over his glasses. + +"That's good," said Hazel, simply, least surprised of any of the +conclave. + +"And you'll have to play the muffin man. 'O, don't you know,'"--she +began to sing, and danced two little steps toward Mr. Oldways. "O, I +forgot it was Sunday!" she said, suddenly stopping. + +"Not much wonder," said Uncle Titus. "And not much matter. _Your_ +Sunday's good enough." + +And then he turned his paper right side up; but, before he began +really to read again, he swung half round toward them in his +swivel-chair, and said,-- + +"Leave the sugar-plums to me, Hazel; I'll come early and bring 'em +in my pocket." + +"It's the first thing he's taken the slightest notice of, or +interest in, that any one of us has been doing," said Agatha +Ledwith, with a spice of momentary indignation, as they walked along +Bridgeley Street to take the car. + +For Uncle Titus had not come to the Ledwith party. "He never went +visiting, and he hadn't any best coat," he told Laura, in verbal +reply to the invitation that had come written on a square satin +sheet, once folded, in an envelope with a big monogram. + +"It's of no consequence," said Mrs. Ledwith, "any way. Only a +child's play." + +"But it will be, mother; you don't know," said Helena. "She's going +right in everywhere, with that ridiculous little invitation; to the +Ashburnes and the Geoffreys, and all! She hasn't the least idea of +any difference; and just think what the girls will say, and how they +will stare, and laugh! I wish she wasn't my cousin!" + +"Helena!" + +Mrs. Ledwith spoke with real displeasure; for she was good-natured +and affectionate in her way; and her worldly ambitions were rather +wide than high, as we have seen. + +"Well, I can't help it; you don't know, mother," Helena repeated. +"It's horrid to go to school with all those stiffies, that don't +care a snap for you, and only laugh." + +"Laughing is vulgar," said Agatha. If any indirect question were +ever thrown upon the family position, Agatha immediately began +expounding the ethics of high breeding, as one who had attained. + +"It is only half-way people who laugh," she said. "Ada Geoffrey and +Lilian Ashburne never laugh--_at_ anybody--I am sure." + +"No, they don't; not right out. They're awfully polite. But you can +feel it, underneath. They have a way of keeping so still, when you +know they would laugh if they did anything." + +"Well, they'll neither laugh nor keep still, about this. You need +not be concerned. They'll just not go, and that will be the end of +it." + +Agatha Ledwith was mistaken. She had been mistaken about two things +to-night. The other was when she had said that this was the first +time Uncle Oldways had noticed or been interested in anything they +did. + + + + +X. + +COCKLES AND CRAMBO. + + +Hazel Ripwinkley put on her nankeen sack and skirt, and her little +round, brown straw hat. For May had come, and almost gone, and it +was a day of early summer warmth. + +Hazel's dress was not a "suit;" it had been made and worn two +summers before suits were thought of; yet it suited very well, as +people's things are apt to do, after all, who do not trouble +themselves about minutiæ of fashion, and so get no particular +antediluvian marks upon them that show when the flood subsides. + +Her mother knew some things that Hazel did not. Mrs. Ripwinkley, if +she had been asleep for five and twenty years, had lost none of her +perceptive faculties in the trance. But she did not hamper her child +with any doubts; she let her go on her simple way, under the shield +of her simplicity, to test this world that she had come into, for +herself. + +Hazel had written down her little list of the girls' names that she +would like to ask; and Mrs. Ripwinkley looked at it with a smile. +There was Ada Geoffrey, the banker's daughter, and Lilian Ashburne, +the professor's,--heiresses each, of double lines of birth and +wealth. She could remember how, in her childhood, the old names +sounded, with the respect that was in men's tones when they were +spoken; and underneath were Lois James and Katie Kilburnie, children +of a printer and a hatter. They had all been chosen for their purely +personal qualities. A child, let alone, chooses as an angel chooses. + +It remained to be seen how they would come together. + +At the very head, in large, fair letters, was,-- + + "MISS CRAYDOCKE." + +Down at the bottom, she had just added,-- + + "MR. KINCAID AND DORRIS." + +"For, if I have _some_ grown folks, mother, perhaps I ought to have +_other_ grown folks,--'to keep the balance true.' Besides, Mr. +Kincaid and Dorris always like the _little_ nice times." + +From the day when Dorris Kincaid had come over with the gray glass +vase and her repeated thanks, when the flowers had done their +ministry and faded, there had been little simple courtesies, each +way, between the opposite houses; and once Kenneth and his sister +had taken tea with the Ripwinkleys, and they had played "crambo" +and "consequences" in the evening. The real little game of +"consequences," of which this present friendliness was a link, was +going on all the time, though they did not stop to read the lines as +they folded them down, and "what the world said" was not one of the +items in their scheme of it at all. + +It would have been something worth while to have followed Hazel as +she went her rounds, asking quietly at each house to see Mrs. This +or That, "as she had a message;" and being shown, like a little +representative of an almost extinct period, up into the parlor, or +the dressing-room of each lady, and giving her quaint errand. + +"I am Hazel Ripwinkley," she would say, "and my mother sends her +compliments, and would like to have Lilian,"--or whoever +else,--"come at four o'clock to-day, and spend the afternoon and +take tea. I'm to have a little party such as she used to have, and +nobody is to be much dressed up, and we are only to play games." + +"Why, that is charming!" cried Mrs. Ashburne; for the feeling of +her own sweet early days, and the old B---- Square house, came over +her as she heard the words. "It is Lilian's music afternoon; but +never mind; give my kind compliments to your mother, and she will be +very happy to come." + +And Mrs. Ashburne stooped down and kissed Hazel, when she went away. + +She stood in the deep carved stone entrance-way to Mrs. Geoffrey's +house, in the same fearless, Red Riding Hood fashion, just as she +would have waited in any little country porch up in Homesworth, +where she had need indeed to knock. + +Not a whit dismayed was she either, when the tall manservant opened +to her, and admitted her into the square, high, marble-paved hall, +out of which great doors were set wide into rooms rich and quiet +with noble adorning and soft shading,--where pictures made such a +magic upon the walls, and books were piled from floor to ceiling; +and where her little figure was lost as she went in, and she +hesitated to take a seat anywhere, lest she should be quite hidden +in some great arm-chair or sofa corner, and Mrs. Geoffrey should not +see her when she came down. + +So, as the lady entered, there she was, upright and waiting, on her +two feet, in her nankeen dress, just within the library doors, with +her face turned toward the staircase. + +"I am Hazel Ripwinkley," she began; as if she had said, I am +Pease-blossom or Mustard-seed; "I go to school with Ada." And went +on, then, with her compliments and her party. And at the end she +said, very simply,-- + +"Miss Craydocke is coming, and she knows the games." + +"Miss Craydocke, of Orchard Street? And where do you live?" + +"In Aspen Street, close by, in Uncle Oldways' house. We haven't +lived there very long,--only this winter; before that we always +lived in Homesworth." + +"And Homesworth is in the country? Don't you miss that?" + +"Yes; but Aspen Street isn't very bad; we've got a garden. Besides, +we like streets and neighbors." + +Then she added,--for her little witch-stick felt spiritually the +quality of what she spoke to,--"Wouldn't Mr. Geoffrey come for Ada +in the evening?" + +"I haven't the least doubt he would!" said Mrs. Geoffrey, her face +all alive with exquisite and kindly amusement, and catching the +spirit of the thing from the inimitable simplicity before her, such +as never, she did believe, had walked into anybody's house before, +in this place and generation, and was no more to be snubbed than a +flower or a breeze or an angel. + +It was a piece of Witch Hazel's witchery, or inspiration, that she +named Miss Craydocke; for Miss Craydocke was an old, dear friend of +Mrs. Geoffrey's, in that "heart of things" behind the fashions, +where the kingdom is growing up. But of course Hazel could not have +known that; something in the lady's face just made her think of the +same thing in Miss Craydocke's, and so she spoke, forgetting to +explain, nor wondering in the very least, when she was met with +knowledge. + +It was all divining, though, from the beginning to the end. That was +what took her into these homes, rather than to a score of other +places up and down the self-same streets, where, if she had got in +at all, she would have met strange, lofty stares, and freezing +"thank you's," and "engagements." + +"I've found the real folks, mother, and they're all coming!" she +cried, joyfully, running in where Mrs. Ripwinkley was setting little +vases and baskets about on shelf and table, between the white, +plain, muslin draperies of the long parlor windows. In vases and +baskets were sweet May flowers; bunches of deep-hued, rich-scented +violets, stars of blue and white periwinkle, and Miss Craydocke's +lilies of the valley in their tall, cool leaves; each kind gathered +by itself in clusters and handfuls. Inside the wide, open fireplace, +behind the high brass fender and the shining andirons, was a +"chimney flower pot," country fashion, of green lilac boughs,--not +blossoms,--and woodbine sprays, and crimson and white tulips. The +room was fair and fragrant, and the windows were wide open upon +vines and grass. + +"It looks like you, mother, just as Mrs. Geoffrey's house looks like +her. Houses ought to look like people, I think." + +"There's your surprise, children. We shouldn't be doing it right +without a surprise, you know." + +And the surprise was not dolls' pelerines, but books. "Little Women" +was one, which sent Diana and Hazel off for a delicious two hours' +read up in their own room until dinner. + +After dinner, Miss Craydocke came, in her purple and white striped +mohair and her white lace neckerchief; and at three o'clock Uncle +Titus walked in, with his coat pockets so bulgy and rustling and +odorous of peppermint and sassafras, that it was no use to pretend +to wait and be unconscious, but a pure mercy to unload him so that +he might be able to sit down. + +Nobody knows to this day where he got them; he must have ordered +them somewhere, one would think, long enough before to have special +moulds and implements made; but there were large, beautiful +cockles,--not of the old flour-paste sort, but of clear, sparkling +sugar, rose-color, and amber, and white, with little slips of tinted +paper tucked within, and these printed delicately with pretty rhymes +and couplets, from real poets; things to be truly treasured, yet +simple, for children's apprehension, and fancy, and fun. And there +were "Salem gibraltars," such as we only get out of Essex County now +and then, for a big charitable Fair, when Salem and everywhere else +gets its spirit up to send its best and most especial; and there +were toys and devices in sugar--flowers and animals, hats, bonnets, +and boots, apples, and cucumbers,--such as Diana and Hazel, and even +Desire and Helena had never seen before. + +"It isn't quite fair," said good Miss Craydocke. "We were to go back +to the old, simple fashions of things; and here you are beginning +over again already with sumptuous inventions. It's the very way it +came about before, till it was all spoilt." + +"No," said Uncle Titus, stoutly. "It's only 'Old _and_ New,'--the +very selfsame good old notions brought to a little modern +perfection. They're not French flummery, either; and there's not a +drop of gin, or a flavor of prussic acid, or any other abominable +chemical, in one of those contrivances. They're as innocent as they +look; good honest mint and spice and checkerberry and lemon and +rose. I know the man that made 'em!" + +Helena Ledwith began to think that the first person, singular or +plural, might have a good time; but that awful third! Helena's +"they" was as potent and tremendous as her mother's. + +"It's nice," she said to Hazel; "but they don't have inch things. I +never saw them at a party. And they don't play games; they always +dance. And it's broad, hot daylight; and--you haven't asked a single +boy!" + +"Why, I don't know any! Only Jimmy Scarup; and I guess he'd rather +play ball, and break windows!" + +"Jimmy Scarup!" And Helena turned away, hopeless of Hazel's +comprehending. + +But "they" came; and "they" turned right into "we." + +It was not a party; it was something altogether fresh and new; the +house was a new, beautiful place; it was like the country. And Aspen +Street, when you got down there, was so still and shady and sweet +smelling and pleasant. They experienced the delight of finding out +something. + +Miss Craydocke and Hazel set them at it,--their good time; they had +planned it all out, and there was no stiff, shy waiting. They began, +right off, with the "Muffin Man." Hazel danced up to Desire:-- + + "O, _do_ you know the Muffin Man, + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man? + O, _do_ you know the Muffin Man + That lives in Drury Lane?" + + "O, yes, I know the Muffin Man, + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man, + O, yes, I know the Muffin Man + That lives in Drury Lane." + +And so they danced off together:-- + + "Two of us know the Muffin Man, + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man, + Two of us know the Muffin Man + That lives in Drury Lane." + +And then they besieged Miss Craydocke; and then the three met Ada +Geoffrey, just as she had come in and spoken to Diana and Mrs. +Ripwinkley; and Ada had caught the refrain, and responded instantly; +and _four_ of them knew the Muffin Man. + +"I know they'll think it's common and queer, and they'll laugh +to-morrow," whispered Helena to Diana, as Hazel drew the lengthening +string to Dorris Kincaid's corner and caught her up; but the next +minute they were around Helena in her turn, and they were laughing +already, with pure glee; and five faces bent toward her, and five +voices sang,-- + + "O, _don't_ you know the Muffin Man?" + +And Helena had to sing back that she did; and then the six made a +perfect snarl around Mrs. Ripwinkley herself, and drew her in; and +then they all swept off and came down across the room upon Mr. +Oldways, who muttered, under the singing, "seven women! Well, the +Bible says so, and I suppose it's come!" and then he held out both +hands, while his hard face unbent in every wrinkle, with a smile +that overflowed through all their furrowed channels, up to his very +eyes; like some sparkling water that must find its level; and there +were eight that knew the Muffin Man. + +So nine, and ten, and up to fifteen; and then, as their line broke +away into fragments, still breathless with fun, Miss Craydocke +said,--her eyes brimming over with laughing tears, that always came +when she was gay,-- + +"There, now! we all know the 'Muffin Man;' therefore it follows, +mathematically, I believe, that we must all know each other. I think +we'll try a sitting-down game next. I'll give you all something. +Desire, you can tell them what to do with it, and Miss Ashburne +shall predict me consequences." + +So they had the "Presentation Game;" and the gifts, and the +dispositions, and the consequences, when the whispers were over, and +they were all declared aloud, were such hits and jumbles of sense +and nonsense as were almost too queer to have been believed. + +"Miss Craydocke gave me a butter firkin," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "I +was to put it in the parlor and plant vanilla beans in it; and the +consequence would be that Birnam Wood would come to Dunsinane." + +"She gave me a wax doll," said Helena. "I was to buy it a pair of +high-heeled boots and a chignon; and the consequence would be that +she would have to stand on her head." + +"She gave me," said Mr. Oldways, "an iron spoon. I was to deal out +sugar-plums with it; and the consequence would be that you would all +go home." + +"She gave me," said Lois James, "Woman's Rights. I shouldn't know +what to do with them; and the consequence would be a terrible +mortification to all my friends." + +"She gave me," said Hazel, "a real good time. I was to pass it +round; and the consequence would be an earthquake." + +Then they had "Scandal;" a whisper, repeated rapidly from ear to +ear. It began with, "Luclarion is in the kitchen making +tea-biscuits;" and it ended with the horrible announcement that +there were "two hundred gallons of hot pitch ready, and that +everybody was to be tipped into it." + +"Characters," and "Twenty Questions," and "How, When, and Where," +followed; and then they were ready for a run again, and they played +"Boston," in which Mr. Oldways, being "Sceattle," was continually +being left out, whereupon he declared at last, that he didn't +believe there was any place for him, or even that he was down +anywhere on the map, and it wasn't fair, and he was going to secede; +and that broke up the play; for the groat fun of all the games had +come to be Miss Craydocke and Uncle Titus, as it always is the great +fun to the young ones when the elders join in,--the older and the +soberer, the better sport; there is always something in the "fathers +looking on;" that is the way I think it is among them who always do +behold the Face of the Father in heaven,--smiling upon their smiles, +glowing upon their gladness. + +In the tea-room, it was all even more delightful yet; it was further +out into the garden, shaded at the back by the deep leafiness of +grape-vines, and a trellis work with arches in it that ran up at the +side, and would be gay by and by with scarlet runners, and +morning-glories, and nasturtiums, that were shooting up strong and +swift already, from the neatly weeded beds. + +Inside, was the tall old semicircular sideboard, with gingerbread +grooves carved all over it; and the real brass "dogs," with heads on +their fore-paws, were lying in the fire-place, under the lilac +boughs; and the square, plain table stood in the midst, with its +glossy white cloth that touched the floor at the corners, and on it +were the identical pink mugs, and a tall glass pitcher of milk, and +plates of the thinnest and sweetest bread and butter, and early +strawberries in a white basket lined with leaves, and the +traditional round frosted cakes upon a silver plate with a network +rim. + +And Luclarion and Mrs. Ripwinkley waited upon them all, and it was +still no party, to be compared or thought of with any salad and +ice-pudding and Germania-band affair, such as they had had all +winter; but something utterly fresh and new and by itself,--place, +and entertainment, and people, and all. + +After tea, they went out into the garden; and there, under the shady +horse-chestnuts, was a swing; and there were balls with which Hazel +showed them how to play "class;" tossing in turn against the high +brick wall, and taking their places up and down, according to the +number of their catches. It was only Miss Craydocke's "Thread the +Needle" that got them in again; and after that, she showed them +another simple old dancing game, the "Winding Circle," from which +they were all merrily and mysteriously untwisting themselves with +Miss Craydocke's bright little thin face and her fluttering cap +ribbons, and her spry little trot leading them successfully off, +when the door opened, and the grand Mr. Geoffrey walked in; the man +who could manage State Street, and who had stood at the right hand +of Governor and President, with his clear brain, and big purse, and +generous hand, through the years of the long, terrible war; the man +whom it was something for great people to get to their dinners, or +to have walk late into an evening drawing-room and dignify an +occasion for the last half hour. + +Mrs. Ripwinkley was just simply glad to see him; so she was to see +Kenneth Kincaid, who came a few minutes after, just as Luclarion +brought the tray of sweetmeats in, which Mrs. Ripwinkley had so far +innovated upon the gracious-grandmother plan as to have after tea, +instead of before. + +The beautiful cockles and their rhymes got their heads all together +around the large table, for the eating and the reading. Mr. Geoffrey +and Uncle Titus sat talking European politics together, a little +aside. The sugar-plums lasted a good while, with the chatter over +them; and then, before they quite knew what it was all for, they had +got slips of paper and lead pencils before them, and there was to be +a round of "Crambo" to wind up. + +"O, I don't know how!" and "I never can!" were the first words, as +they always are, when it was explained to the uninitiated; but Miss +Craydocke assured them that "everybody could;" and Hazel said that +"nobody expected real poetry; it needn't be more than two lines, and +those might be blank verse, if they were _very_ hard, but jingles +were better;" and so the questions and the wards were written and +folded, and the papers were shuffled and opened amid outcries of, +"O, this is awful!" "_What_ a word to get in!" "Why, they haven't +the least thing to do with each other!" + +"That's the beauty of it," said Miss Craydocke, unrelentingly; "to +_make_ them have; and it is funny how much things do have to do with +each other when they once happen to come across." + +Then there were knit brows, and desperate scratchings, and such +silence that Mr. Geoffrey and Uncle Titus stopped short on the +Alabama question, and looked round to see what the matter was. + +Kenneth Kincaid had been modestly listening to the older gentlemen, +and now and then venturing to inquire or remark something, with an +intelligence that attracted Mr. Geoffrey; and presently it came out +that he had been south with the army; and then Mr. Geoffrey asked +questions of him, and they got upon Reconstruction business, and +comparing facts and exchanging conclusions, quite as if one was not +a mere youth with only his eyes and his brains and his conscience to +help him in his first grapple with the world in the tangle and +crisis at which he found it, and the other a grave, practiced, +keen-judging man, the counsellor of national leaders. + +After all, they had no business to bring the great, troublesome, +heavy-weighted world into a child's party. I wish man never would; +though it did not happen badly, as it all turned out, that they did +a little of it in this instance. If they had thought of it, +"Crambo" was good for them too, for a change; and presently they did +think of it; for Dorris called out in distress, real or pretended, +from the table,-- + +"Kentie, here's something you must really take off my hands! I +haven't the least idea what to do with it." + +And then came a cry from Hazel,-- + +"No fair! We're all just as badly off, and there isn't one of us +that has got a brother to turn to. Here's another for Mr. Kincaid." + +"There are plenty more. Come, Mr. Oldways, Mr. Geoffrey, won't you +try 'Crambo?' There's a good deal in it, as there is in most +nonsense." + +"We'll come and see what it is," said Mr. Geoffrey; and so the +chairs were drawn up, and the gray, grave heads looked on over the +young ones. + +"Why, Hazel's got through!" said Lois, scratching violently at her +paper, and obliterating three obstinate lines. + +"O, I didn't bother, you see! I just stuck the word right in, like a +pin into a pincushion, and let it go. There wasn't anything else to +do with it." + +"I've got to make my pincushion," said Dorris. + +"I should think you had! Look at her! She's writing her paper all +over! O, my gracious, she must have done it before!" + +"Mother and Mr. Geoffrey are doing heaps, too! We shall have to +publish a book," said Diana, biting the end of her pencil, and +taking it easy. Diana hardly ever got the rhymes made in time; but +then she always admired everybody's else, which was a good thing for +somebody to be at leisure to do. + +"Uncle Oldways and Lilian are folding up," said Hazel. + +"Five minutes more," said Miss Craydocke, keeping the time with her +watch before her. "Hush!" + +When the five minutes were rapped out, there were seven papers to be +read. People who had not finished this time might go on when the +others took fresh questions. + +Hazel began reading, because she had been ready first. + +"'What is the difference between sponge-cake and doughnuts?' +'Hallelujah.'" + + "Airiness, lightness, and insipidity; + Twistiness, spiciness, and solidity. + Hallelujah! I've got through! + That is the best that I can do!'" + +There was a shout at Hazel's pinsticking. + +"Now, Uncle Titus! You finished next." + +"My question is a very comprehensive one," said Uncle Titus, "with a +very concise and suggestive word. 'How wags the world?' 'Slambang.'" + + "'The world wags on + With lies and slang; + With show and vanity, + Pride and inanity, + Greed and insanity, + And a great slambang!'" + +"That's only _one_ verse," said Miss Craydocke. "There's another; +but he didn't write it down." + +Uncle Titus laughed, and tossed his Crambo on the table. "It's true, +so far, anyway," said he. + +"_So far_ is hardly ever quite true," said Miss Craydocke + +Lilian Ashburne had to answer the question whether she had ever read +"Young's Night Thoughts;" and her word was "Comet." + + "'Pray might I be allowed a pun, + To help me through with just this one? + I've tried to read Young's Thoughts of Night, + But never yet could come it, quite.'" + +"O, O, O! That's just like Lilian, with her soft little 'prays' and +'allow me's,' and her little pussy-cat ways of sliding through tight +places, just touching her whiskers!" + +"It's quite fair," said Lilian, smiling, "to slide through if you +can." + +"Now, Mr. Geoffrey." + +And Mr. Geoffrey read,-- + +"'What is your favorite color?' 'One-hoss.'" + + "'Do you mean, my friend, for a one-hoss shay, + Or the horse himself,--black, roan, or bay? + In truth, I think I can hardly say; + I believe, for a nag, "I bet on the gray." + + "'For a shay, I would rather not have yellow, + Or any outright, staring color, + That makes the crowd look after a fellow, + And the little _gamins_ hoot and bellow. + + "'Do you mean for ribbons? or gowns? or eyes? + Or flowers? or gems? or in sunset skies? + For many questions, as many replies, + Drops of a rainbow take rainbow dyes. + + "'The world is full, and the world is bright; + Each thing to its nature parts the light; + And each for its own to the Perfect sight + Wears that which is comely, and sweet, and right.'" + +"O, Mr. Geoffrey! That's lovely!" cried the girl voices, all around +him. And Ada made a pair of great eyes at her father, and said,-- + +"What an awful humbug you have been, papa! To have kept the other +side up with care all your life! Who ever suspected _that_ of you?" + +Diana and Hazel were not taken so much by surprise, their mother +had improvised little nursery jingles for them all their baby days, +and had played Crambo with them since; so they were very confident +with their "Now, mother:" and looked calmly for something +creditable. + +"'What is your favorite name?'" read Mrs. Ripwinkley. "And the word +is 'Stuff.'" + + "'When I was a little child, + Looking very meek and mild, + I liked grand, heroic names,-- + Of warriors, or stately dames: + Zenobia, and Cleopatra; + (No rhyme for that this side Sumatra;) + Wallace, and Helen Mar,--Clotilda, + Berengaria, and Brunhilda; + Maximilian; Alexandra; + Hector, Juno, and Cassandra; + Charlemagne and Britomarte, + Washington and Bonaparte; + Victoria and Guinevere, + And Lady Clara Vere de Vere. + --Shall I go on with all this stuff, + Or do you think it is enough? + I cannot tell you what dear name + I love the best; I play a game; + And tender earnest doth belong + To quiet speech, not silly song.'" + +"That's just like mother; I should have stopped as soon as I'd got +the 'stuff' in; but she always shapes off with a little morriowl," +said Hazel. "Now, Desire!" + +Desire frantically scribbled a long line at the end of what she had +written; below, that is, a great black morass of scratches that +represented significantly the "Slough of Despond" she had got into +over the winding up, and then gave,-- + +"'Which way would you rather travel,--north or south?' +'Goosey-gander.'" + + "'O, goosey-gander! + If I might wander, + It should be toward the sun; + The blessed South + Should fill my mouth + With ripeness just begun. + For bleak hills, bare, + With stunted, spare, + And scrubby, piney trees, + Her gardens rare, + And vineyards fair, + And her rose-scented breeze. + For fearful blast, + Skies overcast, + And sudden blare and scare + Long, stormless moons, + And placid noons, + And--all sorts of comfortablenesses,--there!'" + +"That makes me think of father's horse running away with him once," +said Helena, "when he had to head him right up against a brick wall, +and knock everything all to smash before he could stop!" + +"Anybody else?" + +"Miss Kincaid, I think," said Mr. Geoffrey. He had been watching +Dorris's face through the play, flashing and smiling with the +excitement of her rhyming, and the slender, nervous fingers twisting +tremulously the penciled slip while she had listened to the others. + +"If it isn't all rubbed out," said Dorris, coloring and laughing to +find how badly she had been treating her own effusion. + +"You see it _was_ rather an awful question,--'What do you want +most?' And the word is, 'Thirteen.'" + +She caught her breath a little quickly as she began:-- + + "'Between yourself, dear, myself, and the post, + There are the thirteen things that I want the most. + I want to be, sometimes, a little stronger; + I want the days to be a little longer; + I'd like to have a few less things to do; + I'd better like to better do the few: + I want--and this might almost lead my wishes,-- + A bigger place to keep my mops and dishes. + I want a horse; I want a little buggy, + To ride in when the days grow hot and muggy; + I want a garden; and,--perhaps it's funny,-- + But now and then I want a little money. + I want an easy way to do my hair; + I want an extra dress or two to wear; + I want more patience; and when all is given, + I think I want to die and go to heaven!'" + +"I never saw such bright people in all my life!" said Ada Geoffrey, +when the outcry of applause for Dorris had subsided, and they began +to rise to go. "But the _worst_ of all is papa! I'll never get over +it of you, see if I do! Such a cheat! Why, it's like playing dumb +all your life, and then just speaking up suddenly in a quiet way, +some day, as if it was nothing particular, and nobody cared!" + +With Hazel's little divining-rod, Mrs. Ripwinkley had reached out, +testing the world for her, to see what some of it might be really +made of. Mrs. Geoffrey, from her side, had reached out in turn, +also, into this fresh and simple opportunity, to see what might be +there worth while. + +"How was it, Aleck?" she asked of her husband, as they sat together +in her dressing-room, while she brushed out her beautiful hair. + +"Brightest people I have been among for a long time--and nicest," +said the banker, concisely. "A real, fresh little home, with a +mother in it. Good place for Ada to go, and good girls for her to +know; like the ones I fell in love with a hundred years ago." + +"That rhymed oracle,--to say nothing of the _fraction_ of a +compliment,--ought to settle it," said Mrs. Geoffrey, laughing. + +"Rhymes have been the order of the evening. I expect to talk in +verse for a week at least." + +And then he told her about the "Crambo." + +A week after, Mrs. Ledwith was astonished to find, lying on the +mantel in her sister's room, a card that had been sent up the day +before,-- + + "MRS. ALEXANDER H. GEOFFREY." + + + + +XI. + +MORE WITCH-WORK. + + +Hazel was asked to the Geoffreys' to dinner. + +Before this, she and Diana had both been asked to take tea, and +spend an evening, but this was Hazel's little especial "invite," as +she called it, because she and Ada were writing a dialogue together +for a composition at school. + +The Geoffreys dined at the good old-fashioned hour of half past two, +except when they had formal dinner company; and Hazel was to come +right home from school with Ada, and stay and spend the afternoon. + +"What intimacy!" Florence Ledwith had exclaimed, when she heard of +it. + +"But it isn't at all on the grand style side; people like the +Geoffreys do such things quite apart from their regular connection; +it is a sort of 'behind the scenes;'" said Glossy Megilp, who was +standing at Florence's dressing-glass, touching up the little heap +of "friz" across her forehead. + +"Where's my poker?" she asked, suddenly, breaking off from the +Geoffrey subject, and rummaging in a dressing box, intent upon +tutoring some little obstinate loop of hair that would be _too_ +frizzy. + +"I should think a 'blower' might be a good thing to add to your +tools, Glossy," said Desire. "You have brush, poker, and tongs, now, +to say nothing of coal-hod," she added, glancing at the little open +japanned box that held some kind of black powder which had to do +with the shadow of Glossy's eyelashes upon occasion, and the +emphasis upon the delicate line of her brows. + +"No secret," said Glossy, magnanimously. "There it is! It is no +greater sin than violet powder, or false tails, for that matter; and +the little gap in my left eyebrow was never deliberately designed. +It was a 'lapsus naturæ;' I only follow out the hint, and complete +the intention. Something _is_ left to ourselves; as the child said +about the Lord curling her hair for her when she was a baby and +letting her do it herself after she grew big enough. What are our +artistic perceptions given to us for, unless we're to make the best +of ourselves in the first place?" + +"But it isn't all eyebrows," said Desire, half aloud. + +"Of course not," said Glossy Megilp. "Twice a day I have to do +myself up somehow, and why shouldn't it be as well as I can? Other +things come in their turn, and I do them." + +"But, you see, the friz and the fix has to be, anyhow, whether or +no. Everything isn't done, whether or no. I guess it's the 'first +place,' that's the matter." + +"I think you have a very theoretical mind, Des, and a slightly +obscure style. You can't be satisfied till everything is all mapped +out, and organized, and justified, and you get into horrible snarls +trying to do it. If I were you, I would take things a little more as +they come." + +"I can't," said Desire. "They come hind side before and upside +down." + +"Well, if everybody is upside down, there's a view of it that makes +it all right side up, isn't there? It seems to be an established +fact that we must dress and undress, and that the first duty of the +day is to get up and put on our clothes. We aren't ready for much +until we do. And one person's dressing may require one thing, and +another's another. Some people have a cork leg to put on, and some +people have false teeth; and they wouldn't any of them come hobbling +or mumbling out without them, unless there was a fire or an +earthquake, I suppose." + +Glossy Megilp's arguments and analogies perplexed Desire, always. +They sometimes silenced her; but they did not always answer her. She +went back to what they had been discussing before. + +"To 'lay down the shubbel and the hoe,'--here's your poker, under +the table-flounce, Glossy,--and to 'take up the fiddle and the bow,' +again,--I think it's real nice and beautiful for Hazel--" + +"To 'go where the good darkies go'?" + +"Yes. It's the _good_ of her that's got her in. And I believe you +and Florence both would give your best boots to be there too, if it +_is_ behind. Behind the fixings and the fashions is where people +_live_; 'dere's vat I za-ay!'" she ended, quoting herself and Rip +Van Winkle. + +"Maybe," said Florence, carelessly; "but I'd as lief be _in_ the +fashion, after all. And that's where Hazel Ripwinkley never will +get, with all her taking little novelties." + +Meanwhile, Hazel Ripwinkley was deep in the delights of a great +portfolio of rare engravings; prints of glorious frescoes in old +churches, and designs of splendid architecture; and Mrs. Geoffrey, +seeing her real pleasure, was sitting beside her, turning over the +large sheets, and explaining them; telling her, as she gazed into +the wonderful faces of the Saints and the Evangelists in Correggio's +frescoes of the church of San Giovanni at Parma, how the whole dome +was one radiant vision of heavenly glory, with clouds and angel +faces, and adoring apostles, and Christ the Lord high over all; and +that these were but the filling in between the springing curves of +the magnificent arches; describing to her the Abbess's room in San +Paolo, with its strange, beautiful heathen picture over the mantel, +of Diana mounting her stag-drawn car, and its circular walls painted +with trellis-work and medallioned with windows, where the heads of +little laughing children, and graceful, gentle animals peeped in +from among vines and flowers. + +Mrs. Geoffrey did not wonder that Hazel lingered with delight over +these or over the groups by Raphael in the Sistine Chapel,--the +quiet pendentives, where the waiting of the world for its salvation +was typified in the dream-like, reclining forms upon the still, +desert sand; or the wonderful scenes from the "Creation,"--the +majestic "Let there be Light!" and the Breathing of the breath of +life into Man. She watched the surprise and awe with which the child +beheld for the first time the daring of inspiration in the +tremendous embodiment of the Almighty, and waited while she could +hardly take her eyes away. But when, afterward, they turned to a +portfolio of Architecture, and she found her eager to examine spires +and arches and capitals, rich reliefs and stately facades and +sculptured gates, and exclaiming with pleasure at the colored +drawings of Florentine ornamentation, she wondered, and questioned +her,-- + +"Have you ever seen such things before? Do you draw? I should hardly +think you would care so much, at your age." + +"I like the prettiness," said Hazel, simply, "and the grandness; but +I don't suppose I should care so much if it wasn't for Dorris and +Mr. Kincaid. Mr. Kincaid draws buildings; he's an architect; only he +hasn't architected much yet, because the people that build things +don't know him. Dorris was so glad to give him a Christmas present +of 'Daguerreotypes de Paris,' with the churches and arches and +bridges and things; she got it at a sale; I wonder what they would +say to all these beauties!" + +Then Mrs. Geoffrey found what still more greatly enchanted her, a +volume of engravings, of English Home Architecture; interiors of old +Halls, magnificent staircases, lofty libraries and galleries dim +with space; exteriors, gabled, turreted and towered; long, rambling +piles of manor houses, with mixed styles of many centuries. + +"They look as if they were brimfull of stories!" Hazel cried. "O, if +I could only carry it home to show to the Kincaids!" + +"You may," said Mrs. Geoffrey, as simply, in her turn, as if she +were lending a copy of "Robinson Crusoe;' never letting the child +guess by a breath of hesitation the value of what she had asked. + +"And tell me more about these Kincaids. They are friends of yours?" + +"Yes; we've known them all winter. They live right opposite, and sit +in the windows, drawing and writing. Dorris keeps house up there in +two rooms. The little one is her bedroom; and Mr. Kincaid sleeps on +the big sofa. Dorris makes crackle-cakes, and asks us over. She +cooks with a little gas-stove. I think it is beautiful to keep house +with not very much money. She goes out with a cunning white basket +and buys her things; and she does all her work up in a corner on a +white table, with a piece of oil-cloth on the floor; and then she +comes over into her parlor, she says, and sits by the window. It's a +kind of a play all the time." + +"And Mr. Kincaid?" + +"Dorris says he might have been rich by this time, if he had gone +into his Uncle James's office in New York. Mr. James Kincaid is a +broker, and buys gold. But Kenneth says gold stands for work, and if +he ever has any he'll buy it with work. He wants to do some real +thing. Don't you think that's nice of him?" + +"Yes, I do," said Mrs. Geoffrey. "And Dorris is that bright girl +who wanted thirteen things, and rhymed them into 'Crambo?' Mr. +Geoffrey told me." + +"Yes, ma'am; Dorris can do almost anything." + +"I should like to see Dorris, sometime. Will you bring her here, +Hazel?" + +Hazel's little witch-rod felt the almost impassible something in the +way. + +"I don't know as she would be _brought_," she said. + +Mrs. Geoffrey laughed. + +"You have an instinct for the fine proprieties, without a bit of +respect for any conventional fences," she said. "I'll _ask_ Dorris." + +"Then I'm sure she'll come," said Hazel, understanding quite well +and gladly the last three words, and passing over the first phrase +as if it had been a Greek motto, put there to be skipped. + +"Ada has stopped practicing," said Mrs. Geoffrey, who had undertaken +the entertainment of her little guest during her daughter's half +hour of music. "She will be waiting for you now." + +Hazel instantly jumped up. + +But she paused after three steps toward the door, to say gently, +looking back over her shoulder with a shy glance out of her timidly +clear eyes,-- + +"Perhaps,--I hope I haven't,--stayed too long!" + +"Come back, you little hazel-sprite!" cried Mrs. Geoffrey; and when +she got her within reach again, she put her hands one each side of +the little blushing, gleaming face, and kissed it, saying,-- + +"I don't _think_,--I'm slow, usually, in making up my mind about +people, big or little,--but I don't think you can stay too long,--or +come too often, dear!" + +"I've found another for you, Aleck," she said, that night at the +hair-brushing, to her husband. + +He always came to sit in her dressing-room, then; and it was at this +quiet time that they gave each other, out of the day they had lived +in their partly separate ways and duties, that which made it for +each like a day lived twice, so that the years of their life counted +up double. + +"He is a young architect, who hasn't architected much, because he +doesn't know the people who build things; and he wouldn't be a gold +broker with his uncle in New York, because he believes in doing +money's worth in the world for the world's money. Isn't he one?" + +"Sounds like it," said Mr. Geoffrey. "What is his name?" + +"Kincaid." + +"Nephew of James R. Kincaid?" said Mr. Geoffrey, with an +interrogation that was also an exclamation. "And wouldn't go in with +him! Why, it was just to have picked up dollars!" + +"Exactly," replied his wife. "That was what he objected to." + +"I should like to see the fellow." + +"Don't you remember? You have seen him! The night you went for Ada +to the Aspen Street party, and got into 'Crambo.' He was there; and +it was his sister who wanted thirteen things. I guess they do!" + +"Ask them here," said the banker. + +"I mean to," Mrs. Geoffrey answered. "That is, after I've seen +Hapsie Craydocke. She knows everything. I'll go there to-morrow +morning." + + * * * * * + +"'Behind' is a pretty good way to get in--to some places," said +Desire Ledwith, coming into the rose-pink room with news. +"Especially an omnibus. And the Ripwinkleys, and the Kincaids, and +old Miss Craydocke, and for all I know, Mrs. Scarup and Luclarion +Grapp are going to Summit Street to tea to-night. Boston is +topsy-turvey; Holmes was a prophet; and 'Brattle Street and Temple +Place are interchanging cards!' Mother, we ought to get intimate +with the family over the grocer's shop. Who knows what would come of +it? There are fairies about in disguise, I'm sure; or else it's the +millennium. Whichever it is, it's all right for Hazel, though; she's +ready. Don't you feel like foolish virgins, Flo and Nag? I do." + +I am afraid it was when Desire felt a little inclination to "nag" +her elder sister, that she called her by that reprehensible name. +Agatha only looked lofty, and vouchsafed no reply; but Florence +said,-- + +"There's no need of any little triumphs or mortifications. Nobody +crows, and nobody cries. _I_'m glad. Diana's a dear, and Hazel's a +duck, besides being my cousins; why shouldn't I? Only there _is_ a +large hole for the cats, and a little hole for the kittens; and I'd +as lief, myself, go in with the cats." + +"The Marchbankses are staying there, and Professor Gregory. I don't +know about cats," said Desire, demurely. + +"It's a reason-why party, for all that," said Agatha, carelessly, +recovering her good humor. + +"Well, when any nice people ask me, I hope there _will_ be a 'reason +why.' It's the persons of consequence that make the 'reason why.'" + +And Desire had the last word. + + * * * * * + +Hazel Ripwinkley was thinking neither of large holes nor little +ones,--cats nor kittens; she was saying to Luclarion, sitting in her +shady down-stairs room behind the kitchen, that looked out into the +green yard corner, "how nicely things came out, after all!" + +"They seemed so hobblety at first, when I went up there and saw all +those beautiful books, and pictures, and people living amongst them +every day, and the poor Kincaids not getting the least bit of a +stretch out of their corner, ever. I'll tell you what I thought, +Luclarion;" and here she almost whispered, "I truly did. I thought +God was making a mistake." + +Luclarion put out her lips into a round, deprecating pucker, at +that, and drew in her breath,-- + +"Oo--sh!" + +"Well, I mean it seemed as if there was a mistake somewhere; and +that I'd no business, at any rate, with what they wanted so. I +couldn't get over it until I asked for those pictures; and mother +said it was such a bold thing to do!" + +"It was bold," said Luclarion; "but it wasn't forrud. It was gi'n +you, and it hit right. That was looked out for." + +"It's a stumpy world," said Luclarion Grapp to Mrs. Ripwinkley, +afterward; "but some folks step right over their stumps athout +scarcely knowin' when!" + + + + +XII. + +CRUMBS. + + +Desire Ledwith was, at this epoch, a perplexity and a worry,--even a +positive terror sometimes,--to her mother. + +It was not a case of the hen hatching ducks, it was rather as if a +hen had got a hawk in her brood. + +Desire's demurs and questions,--her dissatisfactions, sittings and +contempts,--threatened now and then to swoop down upon the family +life and comfort with destroying talons. + +"She'll be an awful, strong-minded, radical, progressive, +overturning woman," Laura said, in despair, to her friend Mrs. +Megilp. "And Greenley Street, and Aspen Street, and that everlasting +Miss Craydocke, are making her worse. And what can I do? Because +there's Uncle." + +Right before Desire,--not knowing the cloud of real bewilderment +that was upon her young spiritual perceptions, getting their first +glimpse of a tangled and conflicting and distorted world,--she drew +wondering comparisons between her elder children and this odd, +anxious, restless, sharp-spoken girl. + +"I don't understand it," she would say. "It isn't a bit like a child +of mine. I always took things easy, and got the comfort of them +somehow; I think the world is a pretty pleasant place to live in, +and there's lots of satisfaction to be had; and Agatha and Florence +take after me; they are nice, good-natured, contented girls; +managing their allowances,--that I wish were more,--trimming their +own bonnets, and enjoying themselves with their friends, +girl-fashion." + +Which was true. Agatha and Florence were neither fretful nor +dissatisfied; they were never disrespectful, perhaps because Mrs. +Ledwith demanded less of deferential observance than of a kind of +jolly companionship from her daughters; a go-and-come easiness in +and out of what they called their home, but which was rather the +trimming-up and outfitting place,--a sort of Holmes' Hole,--where +they put in spring and fall, for a thorough overhaul and rig; and at +other times, in intervals or emergencies, between their various and +continual social trips and cruises. They were hardly ever +all-togetherish, as Desire had said, if they ever were, it was over +house cleaning and millinery; when the ordering was complete,--when +the wardrobes were finished,--then the world was let in, or they let +themselves out, and--"looked." + +"Desire is different," said Mrs. Ledwith. "She's like Grant's +father, and her Aunt Desire,--pudgicky and queer." + +"Well, mamma," said the child, once, driven to desperate logic for +defense, "I don't see how it can be helped. If you _will_ marry into +the Ledwith family, you can't expect to have your children all +Shieres!" + +Which, again, was very true. Laura laughed at the clever sharpness +of it, and was more than half proud of her bold chick-of-prey, after +all. + +Yet Desire remembered that her Aunt Frances was a Shiere, also; and +she thought there might easily be two sides to the same family; why +not, since there were two sides still further back, always? There +was Uncle Titus; who knew but it was the Oldways streak in him after +all? + +Desire took refuge, more and more, with Miss Craydocke, and Rachel +Froke, and the Ripwinkleys; she even went to Luclarion with +questions, to get her quaint notions of things; and she had ventured +into Uncle Titus's study, and taken down volumes of Swedenborg to +pry into, while he looked at her with long keen regards over his +spectacles, and she did not know that she was watched. + +"That young girl, Desire, is restless, Titus," Rachel Froke said to +him one day. "She is feeling after something; she wants something +real to do; and it appears likely to me that she will do it, if they +don't take care." + +After that, Uncle Titus fixed his attention upon her yet more +closely; and at this time Desire stumbled upon things in a strange +way among his bookshelves, and thought that Rachel Froke was growing +less precise in her fashion of putting to rights. Books were tucked +in beside each other as if they had been picked up and bestowed +anyhow; between "Heaven and Hell" and the "Four Leading Doctrines," +she found, one day, "Macdonald's Unspoken Sermons," and there was a +leaf doubled lengthwise in the chapter about the White Stone and the +New Name. Another time, a little book of poems, by the same author, +was slid in, open, over the volumes of Darwin and Huxley, and the +pages upon whose outspread faces it lay were those that bore the +rhyme of the blind Bartimeus:-- + + "O Jesus Christ! I am deaf and blind; + Nothing comes through into my mind, + I only am not dumb: + Although I see Thee not, nor hear, + I cry because Thou mayst be near + O Son of Mary! come!" + +Do you think a girl of seventeen may not be feeling out into the +spiritual dark,--may not be stretching helpless hands, vaguely, +toward the Hands that help? Desire Ledwith laid the book down again, +with a great swelling breath coming up slowly out of her bosom, and +with a warmth of tears in her earnest little eyes. And Uncle Titus +Oldways sat there among his papers, and never moved, or seemed to +look, but saw it all. + +He never said a word to her himself; it was not Uncle Titus's way to +talk, and few suspected him of having anything to say in such +matters; but he went to Friend Froke and asked her,-- + +"Haven't you got any light that might shine a little for that child, +Rachel?" + +And the next Sunday, in the forenoon, Desire came in; came in, +without knowing it, for her little light. + +She had left home with the family on their way to church; she was +dressed in her buff silk pongee suit trimmed with golden brown bands +and quillings; she had on a lovely new brown hat with tea roses in +it; her gloves and boots were exquisite and many buttoned; Agatha +and Florence could not think what was the matter when she turned +back, up Dorset Street, saying suddenly, "I won't go, after all." +And then she had walked straight over the hill and down to Greenley +Street, and came in upon Rachel, sitting alone in a quiet gray +parlor that was her own, where there were ferns and ivies in the +window, and a little canary, dressed in brown and gold like Desire +herself, swung over them in a white wire cage. + +When Desire saw how still it was, and how Rachel Froke sat there +with her open window and her open book, all by herself, she stopped +in the doorway with a sudden feeling of intrusion, which had not +occurred to her as she came. + +"It's just what I want to come into; but if I do, it won't be +there. I've no right to spoil it. Don't mind, Rachel. I'll go away." + +She said it softly and sadly, as if she could not help it, and was +turning back into the hall. + +"But I do mind," said Rachel, speaking quickly. "Thee will come in, +and sit down. Whatever it is thee wants, is here for thee. Is it the +stillness? Then we will be still." + +"That's so easy to say. But you can't do it for me. _You_ will be +still, and I shall be all in a stir. I want so to be just hushed +up!" + +"Fed, and hushed up, in somebody's arms, like a baby. I know," said +Rachel Froke. + +"How does she know?" thought Desire; but she only looked at her with +surprised eyes, saying nothing. + +"Hungry and restless; that's what we all are," said Rachel Froke, +"until"-- + +"Well,--until?" demanded the strange girl, impetuously, as Rachel +paused. "I've been hungry ever since I was born, mother says." + +"Until He takes us up and feeds us." + +"Why don't He?--Mrs. Froke, when does He give it out? Once a month, +in church, they have the bread and the wine? Does that do it?" + +"Thee knows we do not hold by ordinances, we Friends," said Rachel. +"But He gives the bread of life. Not once a month, or in any place; +it is his word. Does thee get no word when thee goes to church? Does +nothing come to thee?" + +"I don't know; it's mixed up; the church is full of bonnets; and +people settle their gowns when they come in, and shake out their +hitches and puffs when they go out, and there's professional music +at one end, and--I suppose it's because I'm bad, but I don't know; +half the time it seems to me it's only Mig at the other. Something +all fixed up, and patted down, and smoothed over, and salted and +buttered, like the potato hills they used to make on my plate for me +at dinner, when I was little. But it's soggy after all, and has an +underground taste. It isn't anything that has just grown, up in the +light, like the ears of corn they rubbed in their hands. Breakfast +is better than dinner. Bread, with yeast in it, risen up new. They +don't feed with bread very often." + +"The yeast in the bread, and the sparkle in the wine they are the +life of it; they are what make the signs." + +"If they only gave it out fresh, and a little of it! But they keep +it over, and it grows cold and tough and flat, and people sit round +and pretend, but they don't eat. They've eaten other things,--all +sorts of trash,--before they came. They've spoiled their appetites. +Mine was spoiled, to-day. I felt so new and fussy, in these brown +things. So I turned round, and came here." + +Mr. Oldways' saying came back into Mrs. Froke's mind:-- + +"Haven't you got any light, Rachel, that might shine a little for +that child?" + +Perhaps that was what the child had come for. + +What had the word of the Spirit been to Rachel Froke this day? The +new, fresh word, with the leaven in it? "A little of it;" that was +what she wanted. + +Rachel took up the small red Bible that lay on the lightstand beside +her. + +"I'll will give thee my First-Day crumb, Desire," she said. "It may +taste sweet to thee." + +She turned to Revelation, seventh chapter. + +"Look over with me; thee will see then where the crumb is," she +said; and as Desire came near and looked over her upon the page, +she read from the last two verses:-- + +"They shall hunger no more, neither thirst any more. + +"For the _Tenderness_ that is in the midst of the _Almightiness_ +shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of water; +and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes." + +Her voice lingered over the words she put for the "Lamb" and the +"Throne," so that she said "Tenderness" with its own very yearning +inflection, and "Almightiness" with a strong fullness, glad in that +which can never fall short or be exhausted. Then she softly laid +over the cover, and sat perfectly still. It was the Quaker silence +that falls upon them in their assemblies, leaving each heart to +itself and that which the Spirit has given. + +Desire was hushed all through; something living and real had +thrilled into her thought; her restlessness quieted suddenly under +it, as Mary stood quiet before the message of the angel. + +When she did speak again, after a time, as Rachel Froke broke the +motionless pause by laying the book gently back again upon the +table, it was to say,-- + +"Why don't they preach like that, and leave the rest to preach +itself? A Sermon means a Word; why don't they just say the word, and +let it go?" + +The Friend made no reply. + +"I never could--quite--like that about the 'Lamb,' before," said +Desire, hesitatingly. "It seemed,--I don't know,--putting Him +_down_, somehow; making him tame; taking the grandness away that +made the gentleness any good. But,--'Tenderness;' that is beautiful! +Does it mean so in the other place? About taking away the sins,--do +you think?" + +"'The Tenderness of God--the Compassion--that taketh away the sins +of the world?'" Mrs. Froke repeated, half inquiringly. "Jesus +Christ, God's Heart of Love toward man? I think it is so. I think, +child, thee has got thy crumb also, to-day." + +But not all yet. + +Pretty soon, they heard the front door open, and Uncle Titus come +in. Another step was behind his; and Kenneth Kincaid's voice was +speaking, about some book he had called to take. + +Desire's face flushed, and her manner grew suddenly flurried. + +"I must go," she said, starting up; yet when she got to the door, +she paused and delayed. + +The voices were talking on, in the study; somehow, Desire had last +words also, to say to Mrs. Froke. + +She was partly shy about going past that open door, and partly +afraid they might not notice her if she did. Back in her girlish +thought was a secret suggestion that she was pushing at all the time +with a certain self-scorn and denial, that it might happen that she +and Kenneth Kincaid would go out at the same moment; if so, he would +walk up the street with her, and Kenneth Kincaid was one of the few +persons whom Desire Ledwith thoroughly believed in and liked. "There +was no Mig about him," she said. It is hazardous when a girl of +seventeen makes one of her rare exceptions in her estimate of +character in favor of a man of six and twenty. + +Yet Desire Ledwith hated "nonsense;" she wouldn't have anybody +sending her bouquets as they did to Agatha and Florence; she had an +utter contempt for lavender pantaloons and waxed moustaches; but for +Kenneth Kincaid, with his honest, clear look at life, and his high +strong purpose, to say friendly things,--tell her a little now and +then of how the world looked to him and what it demanded,--this +lifted her up; this made it seem worth while to speak and to hear. + +So she was very glad when Uncle Titus saw her go down the hall, +after she had made up her mind that that way lay her straight path, +and that things contrived were not things worth happening,--and +spoke out her name, so that she had to stop, and turn to the open +doorway and reply; and Kenneth Kincaid came over and held out his +hand to her. He had two books in the other,--a volume of Bunsen and +a copy of "Guild Court,"--and he was just ready to go. + +"Not been to church to-day?" said Uncle Titus to Desire. + +"I've been--to Friend's Meeting," the girl answered. + +"Get anything by that?" he asked, gruffly, letting the shag down +over his eyes that behind it beamed softly. + +"Yes; a morsel," replied Desire. "All I wanted." + +"All you wanted? Well, that's a Sunday-full!" + +"Yes, sir, I think it is," said she. + +When they got out upon the sidewalk, Kenneth Kincaid asked, "Was it +one of the morsels that may be shared, Miss Desire? Some crumbs +multiply by dividing, you know." + +"It was only a verse out of the Bible, with a new word in it." + +"A new word? Well, I think Bible verses often have that. I suppose +it was what they were made for." + +Desire's glance at him had a question in it. + +"Made to look different at different times, as everything does that +has life in it. Isn't that true? Clouds, trees, faces,--do they ever +look twice the same?" + +"Yes," said Desire, thinking especially of the faces. "I think they +do, or ought to. But they may look _more_." + +"I didn't say _contradictory_. To look more, there must be a +difference; a fresh aspect. And that is what the world is full of; +and the world is the word of God." + +"The world?" said Desire, who had been taught in a dried up, +mechanical sort of way, that the Bible is the word of God; and +practically left to infer that, that point once settled, it might be +safely shut, up between its covers and not much meddled with, +certainly not over freely interpreted. + +"Yes. What God had to say. In the beginning was the Word, and the +Word was God. Without him was not anything made that was made." + +Desire's face brightened. She knew those words by heart. They were +the first Sunday-school lesson she ever committed to memory, out of +the New Testament; "down to 'grace and truth,'" as she recollected. +What a jumble of repetitions it had been to her, then! Sentences so +much alike that she could not remember them apart, or which way they +came. All at once the simple, beautiful meaning was given to her. + +_What God had to say._ + +And it took a world,--millions, of worlds,--to say it with. + +"And the Bible, too?" she said, simply following out her own mental +perception, without giving the link. It was not needed. They were +upon one track. + +"Yes; all things; and all _souls_. The world-word comes through +things; the Bible came through souls. And it is all the more alive, +and full, and deep, and changing; like a river." + +"Living fountains of waters! that was part of the morsel to-day," +Desire repeated impulsively, and then shyly explained. + +"And the new word?" + +Desire shrunk into silence for a moment; she was not used to, or +fond of Bible quoting, or even Bible talk; yet sin was hungering all +the time for Bible truth. + +Mr. Kincaid waited. + +So she repeated it presently; for Desire never made a fuss; she was +too really sensitive for that. + +"'The Tenderness in the midst of the Almightiness shall feed them, +and shall lead them to living fountains of water.'" + +Mr. Kincaid recognized the "new word," and his face lit up. + +"'The Lamb in the midst of the Throne,'" he said. "Out of the Heart +of God, the Christ. Who was there before; the intent by which all +things were made. The same yesterday, and to-day, and forever; who +ever liveth to make intercession for us. Christ _had to be_. The +Word, full of grace, must be made flesh. Why need people dispute +about Eternity and Divinity, if they can only see that?--Was that +Mrs. Froke's reading?" + +"Yes; that was Rachel's sermon." + +"It is an illumination." + +They walked all up Orchard Street without another word. + +Then Kenneth Kincaid said,--"Miss Desire, why won't you come and +teach in the Mission School?" + +"I teach? Why, I've got everything to learn!" + +"But as fast as you _do_ learn; the morsels, you know. That is the +way they are given out. That is the wonder of the kingdom of heaven. +There is no need to go away and buy three hundred pennyworth before +we begin, that every one may take a little; the bread given as the +Master breaks it feeds them till they are filled; and there are +baskets full of fragments to gather up." + +Kenneth Kincaid's heart was in his Sunday work, as his sister had +said. The more gladly now, that the outward daily bread was being +given. + +Mr. Geoffrey,--one of those busy men, so busy that they do promptly +that which their hands find to do,--had put Kenneth in the way of +work. It only needed a word from him, and the surveying and laying +out of some new streets and avenues down there where Boston is +growing so big and grand and strange, were put into his charge. +Kenneth was busy now, cheerily busy, from Monday morning to Saturday +night; and restfully busy on the Sunday, straightening the paths and +laying out the ways for souls to walk in. He felt the harmony and +the illustration between his week and his Sunday, and the one +strengthening the other, as all true outward work does harmonize +with and show forth, and help the spiritual doing. It could not have +been so with that gold work, or any little feverish hitching on to +other men's business; producing nothing, advancing nothing, only +standing between to snatch what might fall, or to keep a premium for +passing from hand to hand. + +Our great cities are so full,--our whole country is so +overrun,--with these officious middle-men whom the world does not +truly want; chiffonniers of trade, who only pick up a living out of +the great press and waste and overflow; and our boys are so eager to +slip in to some such easy, ready-made opportunity,--to get some +crossing to sweep. + +What will come of it all, as the pretenses multiply? Will there be +always pennies for every little broom? Will two, and three, and six +sweeps be tolerated between side and side? By and by, I think, they +will have to turn to and lay pavements. Hard, honest work, and the +day's pay for it; that is what we have got to go back to; that and +the day's snug, patient living, which the pay achieves. + +Then, as I say, the week shall illustrate the Sunday, and the Sunday +shall glorify the week; and what men do and build shall stand true +types, again, for the inner growth and the invisible building; so +that if this outer tabernacle were dissolved, there should be seen +glorious behind it, the house not made with hands,--eternal. + +As Desire Ledwith met this young Kenneth Kincaid from day to day, +seeing him so often at her Aunt Ripwinkley's, where he and Dorris +went in and out now, almost like a son and daughter,--as she walked +beside him this morning, hearing him say these things, at which +the heart-longing in her burned anew toward the real and +satisfying,--what wonder was it that her restlessness grasped at +that in his life which was strong and full of rest; that she felt +glad and proud to have him tell his thought to her; that without any +silliness,--despising all silliness,--she should yet be conscious, +as girls of seventeen are conscious, of something that made her day +sufficient when she had so met him,--of a temptation to turn into +those streets in her walks that led his way? Or that she often, with +her blunt truth, toward herself as well as others, and her quick +contempt of sham and subterfuge, should snub herself mentally, and +turn herself round as by a grasp of her own shoulders, and make +herself walk off stoutly in a far and opposite direction, when, +without due need and excuse, she caught herself out in these things? + +What wonder that this stood in her way, for very pleasantness, when +Kenneth asked her to come and teach in the school? That she was +ashamed to let herself do a thing--even a good thing, that her life +needed,--when there was this conscious charm in the asking; this +secret thought--that she should walk up home with him every Sunday! + +She remembered Agatha and Florence, and she imagined, perhaps, more +than they would really have thought of it at home; and so as they +turned into Shubarton Place,--for he had kept on all the way along +Bridgeley and up Dorset Street with her,--she checked her steps +suddenly as they came near the door, and said brusquely,-- + +"No, Mr. Kincaid; I can't come to the Mission. I might learn A, and +teach them that; but how do I know I shall ever learn B, myself?" + +He had left his question, as their talk went on, meaning to ask it +again before they separated. He thought it was prevailing with her, +and that the help that comes of helping others would reach her need; +it was for her sake he asked it; he was disappointed at the sudden, +almost trivial turn she gave it. + +"You have taken up another analogy, Miss Desire," he said. "We were +talking about crumbs and feeding. The five loaves and the five +thousand. 'Why reason ye because ye have no bread? How is it that ye +do not understand?'" + +Kenneth quoted these words naturally, pleasantly; as he might quote +anything that had been spoken to them both out of a love and +authority they both recognized, a little while ago. + +But Desire was suddenly sharp and fractious. If it had not touched +some deep, live place in her, she would not have minded so much. It +was partly, too, the coming toward home. She had got away out of the +pure, clear spaces where such things seemed to be fit and +unstrained, into the edge of her earth atmosphere again, where, +falling, they took fire. Presently she would be in that ridiculous +pink room, and Glossy Megilp would be chattering about "those lovely +purple poppies with the black grass," that she had been lamenting +all the morning she had not bought for her chip hat, instead of the +pomegranate flowers. And Agatha would be on the bed, in her cashmere +sack, reading Miss Braddon. + +"It would sound nice to tell them she was going down to the Mission +School to give out crumbs!" + +Besides, I suppose that persons of a certain temperament never utter +a more ungracious "No," than when they are longing all the time to +say "Yes." + +So she turned round on the lower step to Kenneth, when he had asked +that grave, sweet question of the Lord's, and said perversely,-- + +"I thought you did not believe in any brokering kind of business. +It's all there,--for everybody. Why should I set up to fetch and +carry?" + +She did not look in his face as she said it; she was not audacious +enough to do that; she poked with the stick of her sunshade between +the uneven bricks of the sidewalk, keeping her eyes down, as if she +watched for some truth she expected to pry up. But she only wedged +the stick in so that she could not get it out; and Kenneth Kincaid +making her absolutely no answer at all, she had to stand there, +growing red and ashamed, held fast by her own silly trap. + +"Take care; you will break it," said Kenneth, quietly, as she gave +it a twist and a wrench. And he put out his hand, and took it from +hers, and drew gently upward in the line in which she had thrust it +in. + +"You were bearing off at an angle. It wanted a straight pull." + +"I never pull straight at anything. I always get into a crook, +somehow. You didn't answer me, Mr. Kincaid. I didn't mean to be +rude--or wicked. I didn't mean--" + +"What you said. I know that; and it's no use to answer what people +don't mean. That makes the crookedest crook of all." + +"But I think I did mean it partly; only not contrarimindedly. I do +mean that I have no business--yet awhile. It would only be--Migging +at gospel!" + +And with this remarkable application of her favorite illustrative +expression, she made a friendly but abrupt motion of leave-taking, +and went into the house. + +Up into her own room, in the third story, where the old furniture +was, and no "fadging,"--and sat down, bonnet, gloves, sunshade, and +all, in her little cane rocking-chair by the window. + +Helena was down in the pink room, listening with charmed ears to the +grown up young-ladyisms of her elder sisters and Glossy Megilp. + +Desire sat still until the dinner-bell rang, forgetful of her dress, +forgetful of all but one thought that she spoke out as she rose at +last at the summons to take off her things in a hurry,-- + +"I wonder,--I _wonder_--if I shall ever live anything all straight +out!" + + + + +XIII. + +PIECES OF WORLDS. + + +Mr. Dickens never put a truer thought into any book, than he put at +the beginning of "Little Dorrit." + +That, from over land and sea, from hundreds, thousands of miles +away, are coming the people with whom we are to have to do in our +lives; and that, "what is set to us to do to them, and what is set +for them to do to us, will all be done." + +Not only from far places in this earth, over land and sea,--but from +out the eternities, before and after,--from which souls are born, +and into which they die,--all the lines of life are moving +continually which are to meet and join, and bend, and cross our own. + +But it is only with a little piece of this world, as far as we can +see it in this short and simple story, that we have now to do. + +Rosamond Holabird was coming down to Boston. + +With all her pretty, fresh, delicate, high-lady ways, with her +beautiful looks, and her sweet readiness for true things and noble +living, she was coming, for a few days only,--the cooperative +housekeeping was going on at Westover, and she could not be spared +long,--right in among them here in Aspen Street, and Shubarton +Place, and Orchard Street, and Harrisburg Square, where Mrs. +Scherman lived whom she was going to stay with. But a few days may +be a great deal. + +Rosamond Holabird was coming for far more than she knew. Among +other things she was coming to get a lesson; a lesson right on in a +course she was just now learning; a lesson of next things, and best +things, and real folks. + +You see how it happened,--where the links were; Miss Craydocke, and +Sin Scherman, and Leslie Goldthwaite, were dear friends, made to +each other one summer among the mountains. Leslie had had Sin and +Miss Craydocke up at Z----, and Rosamond and Leslie were friends, +also. + +Mrs. Frank Scherman had a pretty house in Harrisburg Square. She had +not much time for paying fashionable calls, or party-going, or +party-giving. As to the last, she did not think Frank had money +enough yet to "circumfuse," she said, in that way. + +But she had six lovely little harlequin cups on a side-shelf in her +china closet, and six different-patterned breakfast plates, with +colored borders to match the cups; rose, and brown, and gray, and +vermilion, and green, and blue. These were all the real china she +had, and were for Frank and herself and the friends whom she made +welcome,--and who might come four at once,--for day and night. She +delighted in "little stays;" in girls who would go into the nursery +with her, and see Sinsie in her bath; or into the kitchen, and help +her mix up "little delectabilities to surprise Frank with;" only the +trouble had got to be now, that the surprise occurred when the +delectabilities did not. Frank had got demoralized, and expected +them. She rejoiced to have Miss Craydocke drop in of a morning and +come right up stairs, with her little petticoats and things to work +on; and she and Frank returned these visits in a social, cosy way, +after Sinsie was in her crib for the night. Frank's boots never went +on with a struggle for a walk down to Orchard Street; but they were +terribly impossible for Continuation Avenue. + +So it had come about long ago, though I have not had a corner to +mention it in, that they "knew the Muffin Man," in an Aspen Street +sense; and were no strangers to the charm of Mrs. Ripwinkley's +"evenings." There was always an "evening" in the "Mile Hill House," +as the little family and friendly coterie had come to call it. + +Rosamond and Leslie had been down together for a week once, at the +Schermans; and this time Rosamond was coming alone. She had business +in Boston for a day or two, and had written to ask Asenath "if she +might." There were things to buy for Barbara, who was going to be +married in a "navy hurry," besides an especial matter that had +determined her just at this time to come. + +And Asenath answered, "that the scarlet and gray, and green and blue +were pining and fading on the shelf; and four days would be the very +least to give them all a turn and treat them fairly; for such things +had their delicate susceptibilities, as Hans Andersen had taught us +to know, and might starve and suffer,--why not? being made of +protoplasm, same as anybody." + +Rosamond's especial errand to the city was one that just a little +set her up, innocently, in her mind. She had not wholly got the +better,--when it interfered with no good-will or generous +dealing,--of a certain little instinctive reverence for imposing +outsides and grand ways of daily doing; and she was somewhat +complacent at the idea of having to go,--with kindly and needful +information,--to Madam Mucklegrand, in Spreadsplendid Park. + +Madam Mucklegrand was a well-born Boston lady, who had gone to +Europe in her early youth, and married a Scottish gentleman with a +Sir before his name. Consequently, she was quite entitled to be +called "my lady;" and some people who liked the opportunity of +touching their republican tongues to the salt of European +dignitaries, addressed her so; but, for the most part, she assumed +and received simply the style of "Madam." A queen may be called +"Madam," you know. It covers an indefinite greatness. But when she +spoke of her late,--very long ago,--husband, she always named him as +"Sir Archibald." + +Madam Mucklegrand's daughter wanted a wet-nurse for her little baby. + +Up in Z----, there was a poor woman whose husband, a young brakeman +on the railroad, had been suddenly killed three months ago, before +her child was born. There was a sister here in Boston, who could +take care of it for her if she could go to be foster-mother to some +rich little baby, who was yet so poor as this--to need one. So +Rosamond Holabird, who was especially interested for Mrs. Jopson, +had written to Asenath, and had an advertisement put in the +"Transcript," referring to Mrs. Scherman for information. And the +Mucklegrand carriage had rolled up, the next day, to the house in +Harrisburg Square. + +They wanted to see the woman, of course, and to hear all about +her,--more than Mrs. Scherman was quite able to tell; therefore when +she sent a little note up to Z----, by the evening mail, Rosamond +replied with her "Might she come?" + +She brought Jane Jopson and the baby down with her, left them over +night at Mrs. Ginnever's, in Sheafe Street, and was to go for them +next morning and take them up to Spreadsplendid Park. She had sent a +graceful, polite little note to Madam Mucklegrand, dated "Westover, +Z----," and signed, "Rosamond Holabird," offering to do this, that +there might not be the danger of Jane's losing the chance in the +meanwhile. + +It was certainly to accomplish the good deed that Rosamond cared +the most; but it was also certainly something to accomplish it in +that very high quarter. It lent a piquancy to the occasion. + +She came down to breakfast very nicely and discriminatingly dressed, +with the elegant quietness of a lady who knew what was simply +appropriate to such an errand and the early hour, but who meant to +be recognized as the lady in every unmistakable touch; and there was +a carriage ordered for her at half past nine. + +Sin Scherman was a cute little matron; she discerned the dash of +subdued importance in Rosamond's air; and she thought it very +likely, in the Boston nature of things, that it would get +wholesomely and civilly toned down. + +Just at this moment, Rosamond, putting on her little straw bonnet +with real lace upon it, and her simple little narrow-bordered green +shawl, that was yet, as far as it went, veritable cashmere,--had a +consciousness, in a still, modest way, not only of her own personal +dignity as Rosamond Holabird, who was the same going to see Madam +Mucklegrand, or walking over to Madam Pennington's, and as much in +her place with one as the other; but of the dignity of Westover +itself, and Westover ladyhood, represented by her among the palaces +of Boston-Appendix to-day. + +She was only twenty, this fair and pleasant Rosamond of ours, and +country simple, with all her native tact and grace; and she forgot, +or did not know how full of impressions a life like Madam +Mucklegrand's might be, and how very trifling and fleeting must be +any that she might chance to make. + +She drove away down to the North End, and took Jane Jopson and her +baby in,--very clean and shiny, both of them,--and Jane +particularly nice in the little black crape bonnet that Rosamond +herself had made, and the plain black shawl that Mrs. Holabird had +given her. + +She stood at the head of the high, broad steps, with her mind very +much made up in regard to her complete and well-bred self-possession, +and the manner of her quietly assured self-introduction. She had her +card all ready that should explain for her; and to the servant's +reply that Madam Mucklegrand was in, she responded by moving forward +with only enough of voluntary hesitation to allow him to indicate to +her the reception room, at the door of which she gave him the little +pasteboard, with,-- + +"Take that to her, if you please," and so sat down, very much as if +she had been in such places frequently before, which she never had. +One may be quite used to the fine, free essence of gentle living, +and never in all one's life have anything to do with such solid, +concrete expression of it as Rosamond saw here. + +Very high, to begin with, the ceiled and paneled room was; reaching +up into space as if it had really been of no consequence to the +builders where they should put the cover on; and with no remotest +suggestion of any reserve for further superstructure upon the same +foundation. + +Very dark, and polished, and deeply carved, and heavily ornamented +were its wainscotings, and frames, and cornices; out of the new look +of the streets, which it will take them yet a great while to +outgrow, she had stepped at once into a grand, and mellow, and +ancient stateliness. + +There were dim old portraits on the walls, and paintings that hinted +at old mastership filled whole panels; and the tall, high-backed, +wonderfully wrought oaken chairs had heraldic devices in relief upon +their bars and corners; and there was a great, round mosaic table, +in soft, rich, dark colors, of most precious stones; these, in +turn, hidden with piles of rare engravings. + +The floor was of dark woods, inlaid; and sumptuous rugs were put +about upon it for the feet, each one of which was wide enough to +call a carpet. + +And nothing of it all was _new_; there was nothing in the room but +some plants in a jardiniere by the window, that seemed to have a bit +of yesterday's growth upon it. + +A great, calm, marble face of Jove looked down from high up, out of +the shadows. + +Underneath sat Rosamond Holabird, holding on to her identity and her +self-confidence. + +Madam Mucklegrand came in plainly enough dressed,--in black; you +would not notice what she had on; but you would notice instantly the +consummate usedness to the world and the hardening into the mould +thereof that was set and furrowed upon eye and lip and brow. + +She sailed down upon Rosamond like a frigate upon a graceful little +pinnace; and brought to within a pace or two of her, continuing to +stand an instant, as Rosamond rose, just long enough for the shadow +of a suggestion that it might not be altogether material that she +should be seated again at all. + +But Rosamond made a movement backward to her chair, and laid her +hand upon its arm, and then Madam Mucklegrand decided to sit down. + +"You called about the nurse, I conclude, Miss--Holabird?" + +"Yes, ma'am; I thought you had some questions you wished to ask, and +that I had better come myself. I have her with me, in the carriage." + +"Thank you," said Madam Mucklegrand, politely. + +But it was rather a _de haut en bas_ politeness; she exercised it +also toward her footman. + +Then followed inquiries about age, and health, and character. +Rosamond told all she knew, clearly and sufficiently, with some +little sympathetic touches that she could not help, in giving her +story. + +Madam Mucklegrand met her nowhere, however, on any common ground; +she passed over all personal interest; instead of two women +befriending a third in her need, who in turn was to give life to a +little child waiting helplessly for some such ministry, it might +have been the leasing of a house, or the dealing about some +merchandise, that was between them. + +Rosamond proposed, at last, to send Jane Jopson in. + +Jane and her baby were had in, and had up-stairs; the physician and +attending nurse pronounced upon her; she was brought down again, to +go home and dispose of her child, and return. Rosamond, meanwhile, +had been sitting under the marble Jove. + +There was nothing really rude in it; she was there on business; what +more could she expect? But then she knew all the time, that she too +was a lady, and was taking trouble to do a kind thing. It was not so +that Madam Mucklegrand would have been treated at Westover. + +Rosamond was feeling pretty proud by the time Madam Mucklegrand came +down stairs. + +"We have engaged the young woman: the doctor quite approves; she +will return without delay, I hope?" + +As if Rosamond were somehow responsible all through. + +"I have no doubt she will; good morning, madam." + +"Good morning. I am, really, very much obliged. You have been of +great service." + +Rosamond turned quietly round upon the threshold. + +"That was what I was very anxious to be," she said, in her perfectly +sweet and musical voice,--"to the poor woman." + +Italics would indicate too coarsely the impalpable emphasis she put +upon the last two words. But Mrs. Mucklegrand caught it. + +Rosamond went away quite as sure of her own self-respect as ever, +but very considerably cured of Spreadsplendidism. + +This was but one phase of it, she knew; there are real folks, also, +in Spreadsplendid Park; they are a good deal covered up, there, to +be sure; but they can't help that. It is what always happens to +somebody when Pyramids are built. Madam Mucklegrand herself was, +perhaps, only a good deal covered up. + +How lovely it was to go down into Orchard Street after that, and +take tea with Miss Craydocke! How human and true it seemed,--the +friendliness that shone and breathed there, among them all. How +kingdom-of-heaven-like the air was, and into what pleasantness of +speech it was born! + +And then Hazel Ripwinkley came over, like a little spirit from +another blessed society, to tell that "the picture-book things were +all ready, and that it would take everybody to help." + +That was Rosamond's first glimpse of Witch Hazel, who found her out +instantly,--the real, Holabirdy part of her,--and set her down at +once among her "folks." + +It was bright and cheery in Mrs. Ripwinkley's parlor; you could +hardly tell whence the cheeriness radiated, either. + +The bright German lamp was cheery, in the middle of the round table; +the table was cheery, covered with glossy linen cut into large, +square book-sheets laid in piles, and with gay pictures of all +kinds, brightly colored; and the scissors,--or scissorses,--there +were ever so many shining pairs of them,--and the little mucilage +bottles, and the very scrap-baskets,--all looked cozy and +comfortable, and as if people were going to have a real good time +among them, somehow. + +And the somehow was in making great beautiful, everlasting +picture-books for the little orphans in Miss Craydocke's Home,--the +Home, that is, out of several blessed and similar ones that she was +especially interested in, and where Hazel and Diana had been with +her until they knew all the little waifs by sight and name and +heart, and had their especial chosen property among them, as they +used to have among the chickens and the little yellow ducks at +Homesworth Farm. + +Mrs. Ripwinkley was cheery; it might be a question whether all the +light did not come from her first, in some way, and perhaps it did; +but then Hazel was luminous, and she fluttered about with quick, +happy motions, till like a little glancing taper she had shone upon +and lit up everybody and everything; and Dorris was sunny with clear +content, and Kenneth was blithe, and Desire was scintillant, as she +always was either with snaps or smiles; and here came in beaming +Miss Craydocke, and gay Asenath and her handsome husband; and our +Rosa Mundi; there,--how can you tell? It was all round; and it was +more every minute. + +There were cutters and pasters and stitchers and binders and every +part was beautiful work, and nobody could tell which was +pleasantest. Cutting out was nice, of course; who doesn't like +cutting out pictures? Some were done beforehand, but there were as +many left as there would be time for. And pasting, on the fine, +smooth linen, making it glow out with charming groups and tints of +flowers and birds and children in gay clothes,--that was +delightful; and the stitchers had the pleasure of combining and +arranging it all; and the binders,--Mrs. Ripwinkley and Miss +Craydocke,--finished all off with the pretty ribbons and the gray +covers, and theirs being the completing touch, thought _they_ had +the best of it. + +"But I don't think finishing is best, mother," said Hazel, who was +diligently snipping in and out around rose leaves or baby faces, as +it happened. "I think beginning is always beautiful. I never want to +end off,--anything nice, I mean." + +"Well, we don't end off this," said Diana. "There's the giving, +next." + +"And then their little laughs and Oo's," said Hazel. + +"And their delight day after day; and the comfort of them in their +little sicknesses," said Miss Craydocke. + +"And the stories that have got to be told about every picture," said +Dorris. + +"No; nothing really nice does end; it goes on and on," said Mrs. +Ripwinkley. + +"Of course!" said Hazel, triumphantly, turning on the Drummond light +of her child-faith. "We're forever and ever people, you know!" + +"Please paste some more flowers, Mr. Kincaid," said Rosamond, who +sat next him, stitching. "I want to make an all-flower book of this. +No,--not roses; I've a whole page already; this great white lily, I +think. That's beautiful!" + +"Wouldn't it do to put in this laurel bush next, with the bird's +nest in it?" + +"O, those lovely pink and white laurels! Yes. Where did you get such +pictures, Miss Hazel?" + +"O, everybody gave them to us, all summer, ever since we began. Mrs. +Geoffrey gave those flowers; and mother painted some. She did that +laurel. But don't call me Miss Hazel, please; it seems to send me +off into a corner." + +Rosamond answered by a little irresistible caress; leaning her head +down to Hazel, on her other side, until her cheek touched the +child's bright curls, quickly and softly. There was magnetism +between those two. + +Ah, the magnetism ran round! + +"For a child's picture-book, Mrs. Ripwinkley?" said Mrs. Scherman, +reaching over for the laurel picture. "Aren't these almost +too exquisite? They would like a big scarlet poppy just as +well,--perhaps better. Or a clump of cat-o'-nine-tails," she added, +whimsically. + +"There _is_ a clump of cat-o'-nine-tails," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "I +remember how I used to delight in them as a child,--the real ones." + +"Pictures are to _tell_ things," said Desire, in her brief way. + +"These little city refugees _must_ see them, somehow," said +Rosamond, gently. "I understand. They will never get up on the +mountains, maybe, where the laurels grow, or into the shady swamps +among the flags and the cat-o'-nine-tails. You have _picked out_ +pictures to give them, Mrs. Ripwinkley." + +Kenneth Kincaid's scissors stopped a moment, as he looked at +Rosamond, pausing also over the placing of her leaves. + +Desire saw that from the other side; she saw how beautiful and +gracious this girl was--this Rosamond Holabird; and there was a +strange little twinge in her heart, as she felt, suddenly, that let +there be ever so much that was true and kindly, or even tender, in +her, it could never come up in her eyes or play upon her lips like +that she could never say it out sweetly and in due place everything +was a spasm with her; and nobody would ever look at her just as +Kenneth Kincaid looked at Rosamond then. + +She said to herself, with her harsh, unsparing honesty, that it must +be a "hitch inside;" a cramp or an awkwardness born in her, that set +her eyes, peering and sharp, so near together, and put that knot +into her brows instead of their widening placidly, like Rosamond's, +and made her jerky in her speech. It was no use; she couldn't look +and behave, because she couldn't _be_; she must just go boggling and +kinking on, and--losing everything, she supposed. + +The smiles went down, under a swift, bitter little cloud, and the +hard twist came into her face with the inward pinching she was +giving herself; and all at once there crackled out one of her sharp, +strange questions; for it was true that she could not do otherwise; +everything was sudden and crepitant with her. + +"Why need all the good be done up in batches, I wonder? Why can't it +be spread round, a little more even? There must have been a good +deal left out somewhere, to make it come in a heap, so, upon you, +Miss Craydocke!" + +Hazel looked up. + +"I know what Desire means," she said. "It seemed just so to me, +_one_ way. Why oughtn't there to be _little_ homes, done-by-hand +homes, for all these little children, instead of--well--machining +them all up together?" + +And Hazel laughed at her own conceit. + +"It's nice; but then--it isn't just the way. If we were all brought +up like that we shouldn't know, you see!" + +"You wouldn't want to be brought up in a platoon, Hazel?" said +Kenneth Kincaid. "No; neither should I." + +"I think it was better," said Hazel, "to have my turn of being a +little child, all to myself; _the_ little child, I mean, with the +rest of the folks bigger. To make much of me, you know. I shouldn't +want to have missed that. I shouldn't like to be _loved_ in a +platoon." + +"Nobody is meant to be," said Miss Craydocke. + +"Then why--" began Asenath Scherman, and stopped. + +"Why what, dear?" + +"Revelations," replied Sin, laconically. "There are loads of people +there, all dressed alike, you know; and--well--it's platoony, I +think, rather! And down here, such a world-full; and the sky--full +of worlds. There doesn't seem to be much notion of one at a time, in +the general plan of things." + +"Ah, but we've got the key to all that," said Miss Craydocke. "'The +very hairs of your head are all numbered.' It may be impossible with +us, you know, but not with Him." + +"Miss Hapsie! you always did put me down, just when I thought I was +smart," said Sin Scherman. + +Asenath loved to say "Miss Hapsie," now and then, to her friend, +ever since she had found out what she called her "squee little +name." + +"But the little children, Miss Craydocke," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "It +seems to me Desire has got a right thought about it." + +Mrs. Ripwinkley and Hazel always struck the same note. The same +delicate instinct moved them both. Hazel "knew what Desire meant;" +her mother did not let it be lost sight of that it was Desire who +had led the way in this thought of the children; so that the abrupt +beginning--the little flash out of the cloud--was quite forgotten +presently, in the tone of hearty understanding and genuine interest +with which the talk went on; and it was as if all that was generous +and mindfully suggestive in it had first and truly come from her. +They unfolded herself for her--these friendly ones--as she could not +do; out of her bluntness grew a graciousness that lay softly over +it; the cloud itself melted away and floated off; and Desire began +to sparkle again more lambently. For she was not one of the kind to +be meanly or enviously "put out." + +"It seemed to me there must be a great many spare little corners +somewhere, for all these spare little children," she said, "and +that, lumped up together so, there was something they did not get." + +"That is precisely the thing," said Miss Craydocke, emphatically. "I +wonder, sometimes," she went on, tenderly, "if whenever God makes a +little empty place in a home, it isn't really on purpose that it +might be filled with one of these,--if people only thought." + +"Miss Craydocke," said Hazel, "how did you begin your beehive?" + +"I!" said the good lady. "I didn't. It began itself." + +"Well, then, how did you _let_ it begin?" + +"Ah!" + +The tone was admissive, and as if she had said, "_That_ is another +thing!" She could not contradict that she had let it be. + +"I'll tell you a queer story," she said, "of what they say they used +to do, in old Roman Catholic times and places, when they wanted to +_keep up_ a beehive that was in any danger of dwindling or growing +unprofitable. I read it somewhere in a book of popular beliefs and +customs about bees and other interesting animals. An old woman once +went to her friend, and asked her what she did to make her hive so +gainful. And this was what the old wife said; it sounds rather +strange to us, but if there is anything irreverent in it, it is the +word and not the meaning; 'I go,' she said, 'to the priest, and get +a little round Godamighty, and put it in the hive, and then all goes +well; the bees thrive, and there is plenty of honey; they always +come, and stay, and work, when _that_ is there." + +"A little round--something awful! what _did_ she mean?" asked Mrs. +Scherman. + +"She meant a consecrated wafer,--the Sacrament. We don't need to put +the wafer in; but if we let _Him_ in, you see,--just say to Him it +is his house, to do with as He likes,--He takes the responsibility, +and brings in all the rest." + +Nobody saw, under the knitting of Desire Ledwith's brows, and the +close setting of her eyes, the tenderness with which they suddenly +moistened, and the earnestness with which they gleamed. Nobody knew +how she thought to herself inwardly, in the same spasmodic fashion +that she used for speech,-- + +"They Mig up their parlors with upholstery, and put rose-colored +paper on their walls, and call them _their_ houses; and shut the +little round awfulness and goodness out! We've all been doing it! +And there's no place left for what might come in." + +Mrs. Scherman broke the hush that followed what Miss Hapsie said. +Not hastily, or impertinently; but when it seemed as if it might be +a little hard to come down into the picture-books and the pleasant +easiness again. + +"Let's make a Noah's Ark picture-book,--you and I," she said to +Desire. "Give us all your animals,--there's a whole Natural History +full over there, all painted with splendid daubs of colors; the +children did that, I know, when they _were_ children. Come; we'll +have everything in, from an elephant to a bumble-bee!" + +"We did not mean to use those, Mrs. Scherman," said Desire. "We did +not think they were good enough. They are _so_ daubed up." + +"They're perfectly beautiful. Exactly what the young ones will like. +Just divide round, and help. We'll wind up with the most wonderful +book of all; the book they'll all cry for, and that will have to be +given always, directly after the Castor Oil." + +It took them more than an hour to do that, all working hard; and a +wonderful thing it was truly, when it was done. Mrs. Scherman and +Desire Ledwith directed all the putting together, and the grouping +was something astonishing. + +There were men and women,--the Knowers, Sin called them; she said +that was what she always thought the old gentleman's name was, in +the days when she first heard of him, because he knew so much; and +in the backgrounds of the same sheets were their country cousins, +the orangs, and the little apes. Then came the elephants, and the +camels, and the whales; "for why shouldn't the fishes be put in, +since they must all have been swimming round sociably, if they +weren't inside; and why shouldn't the big people be all kept +together properly?" + +There were happy families of dogs and cats and lions and snakes and +little humming-birds; and in the last part were all manner of bugs, +down to the little lady-bugs in blazes of red and gold, and the gray +fleas and mosquitoes which Sin improvised with pen and ink, in a +swarm at the end. + +"And after that, I don't believe they wanted any more," she said; +and handed over the parts to Miss Craydocke to be tied together. +For this volume had had to be made in many folds, and Mrs. +Ripwinkley's blue ribbon would by no means stretch over the back. + +And by that time it was eleven o'clock, and they had worked four +hours. They all jumped up in a great hurry then, and began to say +good-by. + +"This must not be the last we are to have of you, Miss Holabird," +said Mrs. Ripwinkley, laying Rosamond's shawl across her shoulders. + +"Of course not," said Mrs Scherman, "when you are all coming to our +house to tea to-morrow night." + +Rosamond bade the Ripwinkleys good-night with a most sweet +cordiality, and thanks for the pleasure she had had, and she told +Hazel and her mother that it was "neither beginning nor end, she +believed; for it seemed to her that she had only found a little new +piece of her world, and that Aspen Street led right out of Westover +in the invisible geography, she was sure." + +"Come!" said Miss Craydocke, standing on the doorsteps. "It is all +invisible geography out here, pretty nearly; and we've all our +different ways to go, and only these two unhappy gentlemen to insist +on seeing everybody home." + +So first the whole party went round with Miss Hapsie, and then +Kenneth and Dorris, who always went home with Desire, walked up +Hanley Street with the Schermans and Rosamond, and so across through +Dane Street to Shubarton Place. + +But while they were on their way, Hazel Ripwinkley was saying to her +mother, up in her room, where they made sometimes such long +good-nights,-- + +"Mother! there were some little children taken away from you before +we came, you know? And now we've got this great big house, and +plenty of things, more than it takes for us." + +"Well?" + +"Don't you think it's expected that we should do something with the +corners? There's room for some real good little times for somebody. +I think we ought to begin a beehive." + +Mrs. Ripwinkley kissed Hazel very tenderly, and said, only,-- + +"We can wait, and see." + +Those are just the words that mothers so often put children off +with! But Mrs. Ripwinkley, being one of the real folks, meant it; +the very heart of it. + +In that little talk, they took the consecration in; they would wait +and see; when people do that, with an expectation, the beehive +begins. + + * * * * * + +Up Hanley Street, the six fell into pairs. + +Mrs. Scherman and Desire, Dorris and Mr. Scherman, Rosamond and +Kenneth Kincaid. + +It only took from Bridgeley Street up to Dane, to tell Kenneth +Kincaid so much about Westover, in answer to his questions, that he +too thought he had found a new little piece of his world. What +Rosamond thought, I do not know; but a girl never gives a young man +so much as she gave Kenneth in that little walk without having some +of the blessed consciousness that comes with giving. The sun knows +it shines, I dare say; or else there is a great waste of hydrogen +and other things. + +There was not much left for poor little Desire after they parted +from the Schermans and turned the corner of Dane Street. Only a +little bit of a way, in which new talk could hardly begin, and just +time for a pause that showed how the talk that had come to an end +was missed or how, perhaps, it stayed in the mind, repeating itself, +and keeping it full. + +Nobody said anything till they had crossed B---- Street; and then +Dorris said, "How beautiful,--_real_ beautiful, Rosamond Holabird +is!" And Kenneth answered, "Did you hear what she said to Mrs. +Ripwinkley?" + +They were full of Rosamond! Desire did not speak a word. + +Dorris had heard and said it over. It seemed to please Kenneth to +hear it again. "A piece of her world!" + +"How quickly a true person springs to what belongs to--their life!" +said Kenneth, using that wrong little pronoun that we shall never be +able to do without. + +"People don't always get what belongs, though," blurted Desire at +last, just as they came to the long doorsteps. "Some people's lives +are like complementary colors, I think; they see blue, and live +red!" + +"But the colors are only accidentally--I mean temporarily--divided; +they are together in the sun; and they join somewhere--beyond." + +"I hate beyond!" said Desire, recklessly. "Good-night. Thank you." +And she ran up the steps. + +Nobody knew what she meant. Perhaps she hardly knew herself. + +They only thought that her home life was not suited to her, and that +she took it hard. + + + + +XIV. + +"SESAME; AND LILIES." + + +"I've got a discouragement at my stomach," said Luclarion Grapp. + +"What's the matter?" asked Mrs. Ripwinkley, naturally. + +"Mrs. Scarup. I've been there. There ain't any bottom to it." + +"Well?" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley knew that Luclarion had more to say, and that she +waited for this monosyllable. + +"She's sick again. And Scarup, he's gone out West, spending a +hundred dollars to see whether or no there's a chance anywhere for a +_smart_ man,--and that ain't he, so it's a double waste,--to make +fifty. No girl; and the children all under foot, and Pinkie looking +miserable over the dishes." + +"Pinkie isn't strong." + +"No. She's powerful weak. I just wish you'd seen that dirty +settin'-room fire-place; looks as if it hadn't been touched since +Scarup smoked his pipe there, the night before he went off a +wild-gandering. And clo'es to be ironed, and the girl cleared out, +because 'she'd always been used to fust-class families.' There +wasn't anything to your hand, and you couldn't tell where to begin, +unless you began with a cataplasm!" + +Luclarion had heard, by chance, of a cataclysm, and that was what +she meant. + +"It wants--creation, over again! Mrs. Scarup hadn't any fit +breakfast; there was burnt toast, made out of tough bread, that +she'd been trying to eat; and a cup of tea, half drunk; something +the matter with that, I presume. I'd have made her some gruel, if +there'd been a fire; and if there'd been any kindlings, I'd have +made her a fire; but there 'twas; there wasn't any bottom to it!" + +"You had better make the gruel here, Luclarion." + +"That's what I come back for. But--Mrs. Ripwinkley!" + +"Well?" + +"Don't it appear to you it's a kind of a stump? I don't want to do +it just for the satisfaction; though it _would_ be a satisfaction to +plough everything up thorough, and then rake it over smooth; what do +you think?" + +"What have you thought, Luclarion? Something, of course." + +"She wants a real smart girl--for two dollars a week. She can't get +her, because she ain't. And I kind of felt as though I should like +to put in. Seemed to me it was a--but there! I haven't any right to +stump _you_." + +"Wouldn't it be rather an aggravation? I don't suppose you would +mean to stay altogether?" + +"Not unless--but don't go putting it into my head, Mrs. Ripwinkley. +I shall feel as if I _was_. And I don't think it goes quite so far +as that, yet. We ain't never stumped to more than one thing at a +time. What she wants is to be straightened out. And when things once +looked _my_ way, she might get a girl, you see. Anyhow, 'twould +encourage Pinkie, and kind of set her going. Pinkie likes things +nice; but it's such a Hoosac tunnel to undertake, that she just lets +it all go, and gets off up-stairs, and sticks a ribbon in her hair. +That's all she _can_ do. I s'pose 'twould take a fortnight, maybe?" + +"Take it, Luclarion," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, smiling. Luclarion +understood the smile. + +"I s'pose you think it's as good as took. Well, perhaps it is--spoke +for. But it wasn't me, you know. Now what'll you do?" + +"Go into the kitchen and make the pudding." + +"But then?" + +"We are not stumped for then, you know." + +"There was a colored girl here yesterday, from up in Garden Street, +asking if there was any help wanted. I think she came in partially, +to look at the flowers; the 'sturtiums _are_ splendid, and I gave +her some. She was awfully dressed up,--for colors, I mean; but she +looked clean and pleasant, and spoke bright. Maybe she'd come, +temporary. She seemed taken with things. I know where to find her, +and I could go there when I got through with the gruel. Mrs. Scarup +must have that right off." + +And Luclarion hurried away. + +It was not the first time Mrs. Ripwinkley had lent Luclarion; but +Miss Grapp had not found a kitchen mission in Boston heretofore. It +was something new to bring the fashion of simple, prompt, neighborly +help down intact from the hills, and apply it here to the tangle of +city living, that is made up of so many separate and unrecognized +struggles. + +When Hazel came home from school, she went all the way up the garden +walk, and in at the kitchen door. "That was the way she took it +all," she said; "first the flowers, and then Luclarion and what they +had for dinner, and a drink of water; and then up-stairs, to +mother." + +To-day she encountered in the kitchen a curious and startling +apparition of change. + +A very dusky brown maiden, with a petticoat of flashing purple, and +a jacket of crimson, and extremely puzzling hair tied up with knots +of corn color, stood in possession over the stove, tending a +fricassee, of which Hazel recognized at once the preparation and +savor as her mother's; while beside her on a cricket, munching cold +biscuit and butter with round, large bites of very white little +teeth, sat a small girl of five of the same color, gleaming and +twinkling as nothing human ever does gleam and twinkle but a little +darkie child. + +"Where is Luclarion?" asked Hazel, standing still in the middle of +the floor, in her astonishment. + +"I don't know. I'm Damaris, and this one's little Vash. Don't go for +callin' me Dam, now; the boys did that in my last place, an' I left, +don' yer see? I ain't goin' to be swore to, anyhow!" + +And Damaris glittered at Hazel, with her shining teeth and her quick +eyes, full of fun and good humor, and enjoyed her end of the joke +extremely. + +"Have you come to _stay_?" asked Hazel. + +"'Course. I don' mostly come for to go." + +"What does it mean, mother?" Hazel asked, hurrying up into her +mother's room. + +And then Mrs. Ripwinkley explained. + +"But what _is_ she? Black or white? She's got straight braids and +curls at the back of her head, like everybody's"-- + +"'Course," said a voice in the doorway. "An' wool on top,--place +where wool ought to grow,--same's everybody, too." + +Damaris had come up, according to orders, to report a certain point +in the progress of the fricassee. + +"They all pulls the wool over they eyes, now-days, an sticks the +straight on behind. Where's the difference?" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley made some haste to rise and move toward the +doorway, to go down stairs, turning Damaris from her position, and +checking further remark. Diana and Hazel stayed behind, and laughed. +"What fun!" they said. + +It was the beginning of a funny fortnight; but it is not the fun I +have paused to tell you of; something more came of it in the +home-life of the Ripwinkleys; that which they were "waiting to see." + +Damaris wanted a place where she could take her little sister; she +was tired of leaving her "shyin' round," she said. And Vash, with +her round, fuzzy head, her bright eyes, her little flashing teeth, +and her polished mahogany skin,--darting up and down the house "on +Aarons," or for mere play,--dressed in her gay little scarlet +flannel shirt-waist, and black and orange striped petticoat,--was +like some "splendid, queer little fire-bug," Hazel said, and made a +surprise and a picture wherever she came. She was "cute," too, as +Damaris had declared beforehand; she was a little wonder at noticing +and remembering, and for all sorts of handiness that a child of five +could possibly be put to. + +Hazel dressed rag babies for her, and made her a soap-box baby-house +in the corner of the kitchen, and taught her her letters; and began +to think that she should hate to have her go when Luclarion came +back. + +Damaris proved clever and teachable in the kitchen; and had, above +all, the rare and admirable disposition to keep things scrupulously +as she had found them; so that Luclarion, in her afternoon trips +home, was comforted greatly to find that while she was "clearing and +ploughing" at Mrs. Scarup's, her own garden of neatness was not +being turned into a howling wilderness; and she observed, as is +often done so astutely, that "when you _do_ find a neat, capable, +colored help, it's as good help as you can have." Which you may +notice is just as true without the third adjective as with. + +Luclarion herself was having a splendid time. + +The first thing she did was to announce to Mrs. Scarup that she was +out of her place for two weeks, and would like to come to her at her +wages; which Mrs. Scarup received with some such awed and +unbelieving astonishment as she might have done the coming of a +legion of angels with Gabriel at their head. And when one strong, +generous human will, with powers of brain and body under it +sufficient to some good work, comes down upon it as Luclarion did +upon hers, there _is_ what Gabriel and his angels stand for, and no +less sent of God. + +The second thing Luclarion did was to clean that "settin'-room +fire-place," to restore the pleasant brown color of its freestone +hearth and jambs, to polish its rusty brasses till they shone like +golden images of gods, and to lay an ornamental fire of chips and +clean little sticks across the irons. Then she took a wet broom and +swept the carpet three times, and dusted everything with a damp +duster; and then she advised Mrs. Scarup, whom the gruel had already +cheered and strengthened, to be "helped down, and sit there in the +easy-chair, for a change, and let her take her room in hand." And no +doctor ever prescribed any change with better effect. There are a +good many changes that might be made for people, without sending +them beyond their own doors. But it isn't the doctors who always +know _what_ change, or would dare to prescribe it if they did. + +Mrs. Scarup was "helped down," it seemed,--really up, rather,--into +a new world. Things had begun all over again. It was worth while to +get well, and take courage. Those brasses shone in her face like +morning suns. + +"Well, I do declare to Man, Miss Grapp!" she exclaimed; and breath +and expression failed together, and that was all she could say. + +Up-stairs, Luclarion swept and rummaged. She found the sheet and +towel drawers, and made everything white and clean. She laid fresh +napkins over the table and bureau tops, and set the little +things--boxes, books, what not,--daintily about on them. She put a +clean spread on the bed, and gathered up things for the wash she +meant to have, with a recklessness that Mrs. Scarup herself would +never have dared to use, in view of any "help" she ever expected to +do it. + +And then, with Pinkie to lend feeble assistance, Luclarion turned to +in the kitchen. + +It was a "clear treat," she told Mrs. Ripwinkley afterward. "Things +had got to that state of mussiness, that you just began at one end +and worked through to the other, and every inch looked new made over +after you as you went along." + +She put the children out into the yard on the planks, and gave them +tin pans and clothes-pins to keep house with, and gingerbread for +their dinner. She and Pinkie had cups of tea, and Mrs. Scarup had +her gruel, and went up to bed again; and that was another new +experience, and a third stage in her treatment and recovery. + +When it came to the cellar, Luclarion got the chore-man in; and when +all was done, she looked round on the renovated home, and said +within herself, "If Scarup, now, will only break his neck, or get +something to do, and stay away with his pipes and his boots and his +contraptions!" + +And Scarup did. He found a chance in some freight-house, and wrote +that he had made up his mind to stay out there all winter; and Mrs. +Scarup made little excursions about the house with her returning +strength, and every journey was a pleasure-trip, and the only misery +was that at the end of the fortnight Miss Grapp was going away, and +then she should be "all back in the swamp again." + +"No, you won't," said Luclarion; "Pinkie's waked up, and she's going +to take pride, and pick up after the children. She can do that, now; +but she couldn't shoulder everything. And you'll have somebody in +the kitchen. See if you don't. I've 'most a mind to say I'll stay +till you do." + +Luclarion's faith was strong; she knew, she said, that "if she was +doing at her end, Providence wasn't leaving off at his. Things would +come round." + +This was how they did come round. + +It only wanted a little sorting about. The pieces of the puzzle were +all there. Hazel Ripwinkley settled the first little bit in the +right place. She asked her mother one night, if she didn't think +they might begin their beehive with a fire-fly? Why couldn't they +keep little Vash? + +"And then," said Diana, in her quiet way, slipping one of the big +three-cornered pieces of the puzzle in, "Damaris might go to Mrs. +Scarup for her two dollars a week. She is willing to work for that, +if she can get Vash taken. And this would be all the same, and +better." + +Desire was with them when Luclarion came in, and heard it settled. + +"How is it that things always fall right together for you, so? How +_came_ Damaris to come along?" + +"You just take hold of something and try," said Luclarion. "You'll +find there's always a working alongside. Put up your sails, and the +wind will fill 'em." + +Uncle Titus wanted to know "what sort of use a thing like that +could be in a house?" + +He asked it in his very surliest fashion. If they had had any +motives of fear or favor, they would have been disconcerted, and +begun to think they had made a mistake. + +But Hazel spoke up cheerily,-- + +"Why, to wait on people, uncle. She's the nicest little +fetch-and-carrier you ever saw!" + +"Humph! who wants to be waited on, here? You girls, with feet and +hands of your own? Your mother doesn't, I know." + +"Well, to wait _on_, then," says Hazel, boldly. "I'm making her a +baby-house, and teaching her to read; and Diana is knitting scarlet +stockings for her, to wear this winter. We like it." + +"O, if you like it! That's always a reason. I only want to have +people give the real one." + +And Uncle Titus walked off, so that nobody could tell whether _he_ +liked it or not. + +Nobody told him anything about the Scarups. But do you suppose he +didn't know? Uncle Titus Oldways was as sharp as he was blunt. + +"I guess I know, mother," said Hazel, a little while after this, one +day, "how people write stories." + +"Well?" asked her mother, looking up, ready to be amused with +Hazel's deep discovery. + +"If they can just begin with one thing, you see, that makes the next +one. It can't help it, hardly. Just as it does with us. What made me +think of it was, that it seemed to me there was another little piece +of our beehive story all ready to put on; and if we went and did +it,--I wonder if you wouldn't, mother? It fits exactly." + +"Let me see." + +"That little lame Sulie at Miss Craydocke's Home, that we like so +much. Nobody adopts her away, because she is lame; her legs are no +use at all, you know, and she just sits all curled up in that great +round chair that Mrs. Geoffrey gave her, and sews patchwork, and +makes paper dolls. And when she drops her scissors, or her thread, +somebody has to come and pick it up. She wants waiting on; she just +wants a little lightning-bug, like Vash, to run round for her all +the time. And we don't, you see; and we've got Vash! And Vash--likes +paper dolls." + +Hazel completed the circle of her argument with great triumph. + +"An extra piece of bread to finish your too much butter," said +Diana. + +"Yes. Doesn't it just make out?" said Hazel, abating not a jot of +her triumph, and taking things literally, as nobody could do better +than she, upon occasion, for all her fancy and intuition. + +"I wonder what Uncle Oldways would say to that," said Diana. + +"He'd say 'Faugh, faugh!' But he doesn't mean faugh, faugh, half the +time. If he does, he doesn't stick to it. Mother," she asked rather +suddenly, "do you think Uncle Oldways feels as if we oughtn't to +do--other things--with his money?" + +"What other things?" + +"Why, _these_ others. Vash, and Sulie, perhaps. Wouldn't he like it +if we turned his house into a Beehive?" + +"It isn't his house," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, "He has given it to me." + +"Well,--do you feel 'obligated,' as Luclarion says?' + +"In a certain degree,--yes. I feel bound to consider his comfort +and wishes, as far as regards his enjoyment with us, and fulfilling +what he reasonably looked for when he brought us here." + +"Would that interfere?" + +"Suppose you ask him, Hazel?" + +"Well, I could do that." + +"Hazel wouldn't mind doing anything!" said Diana, who, to tell the +truth was a little afraid of Uncle Titus, and who dreaded of all +things, being snubbed. + +"Only," said Hazel, to whom something else had just occurred, +"wouldn't he think--wouldn't it be--_your_ business?" + +"It is all your plan, Hazel. I think he would see that." + +"And you are willing, if he doesn't care?" + +"I did not quite say that. It would be a good deal to think of." + +"Then I'll wait till you've thought," said clear-headed little +Hazel. + +"But it fits right on. I can see that. And Miss Craydocke said +things would, after we had begun." + +Mrs. Ripwinkley took it into her thoughts, and carried it about with +her for days, and considered it; asking herself questions. + +Was it going aside in search of an undertaking that did not belong +to her? + +Was it bringing home a care, a responsibility, for which they were +not fitted,--which might interfere with the things they were meant, +and would be called, to do? + +There was room and opportunity, doubtless, for them to do something; +Mrs. Ripwinkley had felt this; she had not waited for her child to +think of it for her; she had only waited, in her new, strange +sphere, for circumstances to guide the way, and for the Giver of +all circumstance to guide her thought. She chose, also, in the +things that would affect her children's life and settle duties for +them, to let them grow also to those duties, and the perception of +them, with her. To this she led them, by all her training and +influence; and now that in Hazel, her child of quick insight and +true instincts, this influence was bearing fruit and quickening to +action, she respected her first impulses; she believed in them; they +had weight with her, as argument in themselves. These impulses, in +young, true souls, freshly responding, are, she knew, as the +proof-impressions of God's Spirit. + +Yet she would think; that was her duty; she would not do a thing +hastily, or unwisely. + +Sulie Praile had been a good while, now, at the Home. + +A terrible fall, years ago, had caused a long and painful illness, +and resulted in her present helplessness. But above those little +idle, powerless limbs, that lay curled under the long, soft skirt +she wore, like a baby's robe, were a beauty and a brightness, a +quickness of all possible motion, a dexterous use of hands, and a +face of gentle peace and sometimes glory, that were like a +benediction on the place that she was in; like the very Holy Ghost +in tender form like a dove, resting upon it, and abiding among them +who were there. + +In one way, it would hardly be so much a giving as a taking, to +receive her in. Yet there was care to assume, the continuance of +care to promise or imply; the possibility of conflicting plans in +much that might be right and desirable that Mrs. Ripwinkley should +do for her own. Exactly what, if anything, it would be right to +undertake in this, was matter for careful and anxious reflection. + +The resources of the Home were not very large; there were painful +cases pressing their claims continually, as fast as a little place +was vacated it could be filled; was wanted, ten times over; and +Sulie Praile had been there a good while. If somebody would only +take her, as people were very ready to take--away to happy, simple, +comfortable country homes, for mere childhood's sake--the round, +rosy, strong, and physically perfect ones! But Sulie must be lifted +and tended; she must keep somebody at home to look after her; no one +could be expected to adopt a child like that. + +Yet Hazel Ripwinkley thought they could be; thought, in her +straightforward, uncounting simplicity, that it was just the +natural, obvious, beautiful thing to do, to take her home--into a +real home--into pleasant family life; where things would not crowd; +where she could be mothered and sistered, as girls ought to be, when +there are so many nice places in the world, and not so many people +in them as there might be. When there could be so much visiting, and +spare rooms kept always in everybody's house, why should not +somebody who needed to, just come in and stay? What were the spare +places made for? + +"We might have Sulie for this winter," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, at +last. "They would let her come to us for that time; and it would be +a change for her, and leave a place for others. Then if anything +made it impossible for us to do more, we should not have raised an +expectation to be disappointed. And if we can and ought to do more, +it will be shown us by that time more certainly." + +She asked Miss Craydocke about it, when she came home from Z---- +that fall. She had been away a good deal lately; she had been up to +Z---- to two weddings,--Leslie Goldthwaite's and Barbara Holabird's. +Now she was back again, and settled down. + +Miss Craydocke thought it a good thing wisely limited. + +"Sulie needs to be with older girls; there is no one in the Home to +be companion to her; the children are almost all little. A winter +here would be a blessing to her!" + +"But the change again, if she should have to make it?" suggested +Mrs. Ripwinkley. + +"Good things don't turn to bad ones because you can't have them any +more. A thing you're not fit for, and never ought to have had, may; +but a real good stays by; it overflows all the rest. Sulie Praile's +life could never be so poor again, after a winter here with you, as +it might be if she had never had it. If you'd like her, let her +come, and don't be a bit afraid. We're only working by inches, any +of us; like the camel's-hair embroiderers in China. But it gets put +together; and it is beautiful, and large, and whole, somewhere." + +"Miss Craydocke always knows," said Hazel. + +Nobody said anything again, about Uncle Titus. A winter's plan need +not be referred to him. But Hazel, in her own mind, had resolved to +find out what was Uncle Titus's, generally and theoretically; how +free they were to be, beyond winter plans and visits of weeks; how +much scope they might have with this money and this house, that +seemed so ample to their simple wants, and what they might do with +it and turn it into, if it came into their heads or hearts or +consciences. + +So one day she went in and sat down by him in the study, after she +had accomplished some household errand with Rachel Froke. + +Other people approached him with more or less of strategy, afraid of +the tiger in him; Desire Ledwith faced him courageously; only Hazel +came and nestled up beside him, in his very cage, as if he were no +wild beast, after all. + +Yet he pretended to growl, even at her, sometimes; it was so funny +to see her look up and chirp on after it, like some little bird to +whom the language of beasts was no language at all, and passed by on +the air as a very big sound, but one that in no wise concerned it. + +"We've got Sulie Praile to spend the winter, Uncle Titus," she said. + +"Who's Sulie Praile?" + +"The lame girl, from the Home. We wanted somebody for Vash to wait +on, you know. She sits in a round chair, that twists, like yours; +and she's--just like a lily in a vase!" Hazel finished her sentence +with a simile quite unexpected to herself. + +There was something in Sulie's fair, pale, delicate face, and her +upper figure, rising with its own peculiar lithe, easily swayed +grace from among the gathered folds of the dress of her favorite +dark green color, that reminded--if one thought of it, and Hazel +turned the feeling of it into a thought at just this moment--of a +beautiful white flower, tenderly and commodiously planted. + +"Well, I suppose it's worth while to have a lame girl to sit up in a +round chair, and look like a lily in a vase, is it?" + +"Uncle Titus, I want to know what you think about some things." + +"That is just what I want to know myself, sometimes. To find out +what one thinks about things, is pretty much the whole finding, +isn't it?" + +"Don't be very metaphysical, please, Uncle Titus. Don't turn your +eyes round into the back of your head. That isn't what I mean." + +"What do you mean?" + +"Just plain looking." + +"O!" + +"Don't you think, when there are places, all nice and ready,--and +people that would like the places and haven't got 'em,--that the +people ought to be put into the places?" + +"'The shirtless backs put into the shirts?'" + +"Why, yes, of course. What are shirts made for?" + +"For some people to have thirty-six, and some not to have any," said +Mr. Oldways. + +"No," said Hazel. "Nobody wants thirty-six, all at once. But what I +mean is, rooms, and corners, and pleasant windows, and seats at the +table; places where people come in visiting, and that are kept saved +up. I can't bear an empty box; that is, only for just one pleasant +minute, while I'm thinking what I can put into it." + +"Where's your empty box, now?" + +"Our house _was_ rather empty-boxy. Uncle Titus, do you mind how we +fill it up,--because you gave it to us, you know?" + +"No. So long as you don't crowd yourselves out." + +"Or you, Uncle Titus. We don't want to crowd you out. Does it crowd +you any to have Sulie and Vash there, and to have us 'took up' with +them, as Luclarion says?" + +How straight Witch Hazel went to her point! + +"Your catechism crowds me just a little, child," said Uncle Titus. +"I want to see you go your own way. That is what I gave you the +house for. Your mother knows that. Did she send you here to ask me?" + +"No. I wanted to know. It was I that wanted to begin a kind of a +Beehive--like Miss Craydocke's. Would you care if it was turned +quite into a Beehive, finally?" + +Hazel evidently meant to settle the furthest peradventure, now she +had begun. + +"Ask your mother to show you the deed. 'To Frances Ripwinkley, her +heirs and assigns,'--that's you and Diana,--'for their use and +behoof, forever.' I've no more to do with it." + +"'Use, and behoof,'" said Hazel, slowly. And then she turned the +leaves of the great Worcester that lay upon the study table, and +found "Behoof." + +"'Profit,--gain,--benefit;' then that's what you meant; that we +should make as much more of it as we could. That's what I think, +Uncle Titus. I'm glad you put 'behoof in." + +"They always put it in, child!" + +"Do they? Well, then, they don't always work it out!" and Hazel +laughed. + +At that, Mr. Oldways pulled off his spectacles, looked sharp at +Hazel with two sharp, brown eyes,--set near together, Hazel noticed +for the first time, like Desire's,--let the keenness turn gradually +into a twinkle, suffered the muscles that had held his lips so grim +to relax, and laughed too; his peculiar, up-and-down shake of a +laugh, in which head and shoulders made the motions, as if he were a +bottle, and there were a joke inside of him which was to be well +mixed up to be thoroughly enjoyed. + +"Go home to your mother, jade-hopper!" he said, when he had done; +"and tell her I'm coming round to-night, to tea, amongst your +bumble-bees and your lilies!" + + + + +XV. + +WITH ALL ONE'S MIGHT. + + +Let the grapes be ever so sweet, and hang in plenty ever so low, +there is always a fair bunch out of reach. + +Mrs. Ledwith longed, now, to go to Europe. + +At any rate, she was eager to have her daughters go. But, after just +one year, to take what her Uncle Oldways had given her, in return +for her settling herself near him, and _un_settle herself, and go +off to the other side of the world! Besides, what he had given her +would not do it. That was the rub, after all. What was two thousand +a year, now-a-days? Nothing is anything, now-a-days. And it takes +everything to do almost nothing. + +The Ledwiths were just as much pinched now as they were before they +ever heard from Uncle Oldways. People with unlimited powers of +expansion always are pinched; it is good for them; one of the saving +laws of nature that keeps things decently together. + +Yet, in the pink room of a morning, and in the mellow-tinted +drawing-room of an evening, it was getting to be the subject +oftenest discussed. It was that to which they directed the combined +magnetism of the family will; everything was brought to bear upon it; +Bridget's going away on Monday morning, leaving the clothes in the +tubs, the strike-price of coal, and the overcharge of the grocer; +Florence's music, Helena's hopeless distress over French and German; +even Desire's listlessness and fidgets; most of all Mrs. Megilp's +plans, which were ripening towards this long coveted end. She and +Glossy really thought they should go this winter. + +"It is a matter of economy now; everybody's going. The Fargo's and +the Fayerwerses, and the Hitherinyons have broken all up, and are +going out to stay indefinitely. The Fayerwerses have been saving up +these four years to get away, there are so many of them, you know; +the passage money counts, and the first travelling; but after you +_are_ over, and have found a place to settle down in,"--then +followed all the usual assertions as to cheap delights and +inestimable advantages, and emancipation from all American household +ills and miseries. + +Uncle Oldways came up once in a while to the house in Shubarton +Place, and made an evening call. He seemed to take apricot-color for +granted, when he got there, as much as he did the plain, old, +unrelieved brown at Mrs. Ripwinkley's; he sat quite unconcernedly in +the grand easy chair that Laura wheeled out for him; indeed, it +seemed as if he really, after a manner, indorsed everything by his +acceptance without demur of what he found. But then one must sit +down on something; and if one is offered a cup of coffee, or +anything on a plate, one cannot easily protest against sea-green +china. We do, and we have, and we wear, and we say, a great +many things, and feel ourselves countenanced and confirmed, +somehow,--perhaps excused,--because nobody appears surprised or says +anything. But what should they say; and would it be at all proper +that they should be surprised? If we only thought of it, and once +tried it, we might perhaps find it quite as easy and encouraging, on +the same principle, _not_ to have apricot rep and sea-green china. + +One night Mr. Oldways was with them when the talk turned eastwardly +over the water. There were new names in the paper, of people who +had gone out in the _Aleppo_, and a list of Americans registered at +Bowles Brothers,' among whom were old acquaintance. + +"I declare, how they all keep turning up there" said Mrs. Ledwith. + +"The war doesn't seem to make much difference," said her husband. + +"To think how lucky the Vonderbargens were, to be in Paris just at +the edge of the siege!" said Glossy Megilp. "They came back from +Como just in time; and poor Mr. Washburne had to fairly hustle them +off at last. They were buying silks, and ribbons, and gloves, up to +the last minute, for absolutely nothing. Mrs. Vonderbargen said it +seemed a sin to come away and leave anything. I'm sure I don't know +how they got them all home; but they did." + +Glossy had been staying lately with the Vonderbargens in New York. +She stayed everywhere, and picked up everything. + +"You have been abroad, Mrs. Scherman?" said Mrs. Ledwith, +inquiringly, to Asenath, who happened to be calling, also, with her +husband, and was looking at some photographs with Desire. + +"No, ma'am," answered Mrs. Scherman, very promptly, not having +spoken at all before in the discussion. "I do not think I wish to +go. The syphon has been working too long." + +"The Syphon?" + +Mrs. Ledwith spoke with a capital S in her mind; but was not quite +sure whether what Mrs. Scherman meant might be a line of Atlantic +steamers or the sea-serpent. + +"Yes, ma'am. The emptying back and forth. There isn't much that is +foreign over there, now, nor very much that is native here. The +hemispheres have got miserably mixed up. I think when I go 'strange +countries for to see,' it will have to be Patagonia or Independent +Tartary." + +Uncle Oldways turned round with his great chair, so as to face +Asenath, and laughed one of his thorough fun digesting laughs, his +keen eyes half shut with the enjoyment, and sparkling out through +their cracks at her. + +But Asenath had resumed her photographs with the sweetest and +quietest unconsciousness. + +Mrs. Ledwith let her alone after that; and the talk rambled on to +the schools in Munich, and the Miracle Plays at Oberammergau. + +"To think of _that_ invasion!" said Asenath, in a low tone to +Desire, "and corrupting _that_ into a show, with a run of regular +performances! I do believe they have pulled down the last unprofaned +thing now, and trampled over it." + +"If we go," said Mrs. Megilp, "we shall join the Fayerwerses, and +settle down with them quietly in some nice place; and then make +excursions. We shall not try to do all Europe in three months; we +shall choose, and take time. It is the only way really to enjoy or +acquire; and the quiet times are so invaluable for the lessons and +languages." + +Mrs. Megilp made up her little varnishes with the genuine gums of +truth and wisdom; she put a beautiful shine even on to her limited +opportunities and her enforced frugalities. + +"Mrs. Ledwith, you _ought_ to let Agatha and Florence go too. I +would take every care of them; and the expense would be so +divided--carriages, and couriers, and everything--that it would be +hardly anything." + +"It is a great opportunity," Mrs. Ledwith said, and sighed. "But it +is different with us from what it is with you. We must still be a +family here, with nearly the same expenses. To be sure Desire has +done with school, and she doesn't care for gay society, and Helena +is a mere child yet; if it ever could"-- + +And so it went on between the ladies, while Mr. Oldways and Mr. +Ledwith and Frank Scherman got into war talk, and Bismarck policy, +and French poss--no, _im_-possibilities. + +"I don't think Uncle Oldways minded much," said Mrs. Ledwith to +Agatha, and Mrs. Megilp, up-stairs, after everybody had gone who was +to go. + +"He never minds anything," said Agatha. + +"I don't know," said Mrs. Megilp, slowly. "He seemed mightily +pleased with what Asenath Scherman said." + +"O, she's pretty, and funny; it makes no difference what she says; +people are always pleased." + +"We might dismiss one girl this winter," said Mrs. Ledwith, "and +board in some cheap country place next summer. I dare say we could +save it in the year's round; the difference, I mean. When you +weren't actually travelling, it wouldn't cost more than to have you +here,--dress and all. + +"They wouldn't need to have a new thing," said Glossy. + +"Those people out at Z---- want to buy the house. I've a great mind +to coax Grant to sell, and take a slice right out, and send them," +said Mrs. Ledwith, eagerly. She was always eager to accomplish the +next new thing for her children; and, to say the truth, did not much +consider herself. And so far as they had ever been able, the +Ledwiths had always been rather easily given to "taking the slice +right out." + +The Megilps had had a little legacy of two or three thousand +dollars, and were quite in earnest in their plans, this time, which +had been talk with them for many years. + +"Those poor Fayerwerses!" said Asenath to her husband, walking home. +"Going out now, after the cheap European living of a dozen years +ago! The ghost always goes over on the last load. I wonder at Mrs. +Megilp. She generally knows better." + +"She'll do," said Frank Scherman. "If the Fayerwerses stick +anywhere, as they probably will, she'll hitch on to the Fargo's, and +turn up at Jerusalem. And then there are to be the Ledwiths, and +their 'little slice.'" + +"O, dear! what a mess people do make of living!" said Asenath. + +Uncle Titus trudged along down Dorset Street with his stick under +his arm. + +"Try 'em! Find 'em out!" he repeated to himself. "That's what +Marmaduke said. Try 'em with this,--try 'em with that; a good deal, +or a little; having and losing, and wanting. That's what the Lord +does with us all; and I begin to see He has a job of it!" + +The house was sold, and Agatha and Florence went. + +It made home dull for poor Desire, little as she found of real +companionship with her elder sisters. But then she was always +looking for it, and that was something. Husbands and wives, parents +and children, live on upon that, through years of repeated +disappointments, and never give up the expectation of that which is +somewhere, and which these relations represent to them, through all +their frustrated lives. + +That is just why. It _is_ somewhere. + +It turned out a hard winter, in many ways, for Desire Ledwith. She +hated gay company, and the quiet little circle that she had become +fond of at her Aunt Ripwinkley's was broken somewhat to them all, +and more to Desire than, among what had grown to be her chronic +discontents, she realized or understood, by the going away for a +time of Kenneth Kincaid. + +What was curious in the happening, too, he had gone up to "And" to +build a church. That had come about through the Marchbankses' +knowledge of him, and this, you remember, through their being with +the Geoffreys when the Kincaids were first introduced in Summit +Street. + +The Marchbankses and the Geoffreys were cousins. A good many Boston +families are. + +Mr. Roger Marchbanks owned a good deal of property in And. The +neighborhood wanted a church; and he interested himself actively and +liberally in behalf of it, and gave the land,--three lots right out +of the middle of Marchbanks Street, that ran down to the river. + +Dorris kept her little room, and was neighborly as heretofore; but +she was busy with her music, and had little time but her evenings; +and now there was nobody to walk home with Desire to Shubarton +Place, if she stayed in Aspen Street to tea. She came sometimes, and +stayed all night; but that was dreary for Helena, who never +remembered to shut the piano or cover up the canary, or give the +plants in the bay window their evening sprinkle, after the furnace +heat had been drying them all day. + +Kenneth Kincaid came down for his Sundays with Dorris, and his work +at the Mission; a few times he called in at Uncle Oldways' after +tea, when the family was all together; but they saw him very seldom; +he gave those Sunday evenings mostly to needed rest, and to quiet +talk with Dorris. + +Desire might have gone to the Mission this winter, easily enough, +after all. Agatha and Florence and Glossy Megilp were not by to make +wondering eyes, or smile significant smiles; but there was something +in herself that prevented; she knew that it would be more than half +to _get_, and she still thought she had so little to give! Besides, +Kenneth Kincaid had never asked her again, and she could not go to +him and say she would come. + +Desire Ledwith began to have serious question of what life was ever +going to be for her. She imagined, as in our early years and our +first gray days we are all apt to imagine, that she had found out a +good deal that it was _not_ going to be. + +She was not going to be beautiful, or accomplished, or even, she was +afraid, agreeable; she found that such hard work with most people. +She was not ever--and that conclusion rested closely upon these +foregoing--to be married, and have a nice husband and a pretty +house, and go down stairs and make snow-puddings and ginger-snaps of +a morning, and have girls staying with her, and pleasant people in +to tea; like Asenath Scherman. She couldn't write a book,--that, +perhaps, was one of her premature decisions, since nobody knows till +they try, and the books are lying all round, in leaves, waiting only +to be picked up and put together,--or paint a picture; she couldn't +bear parties, and clothes were a fuss, and she didn't care to go to +Europe. + +She thought she should rather like to be an old maid, if she could +begin right off, and have a little cottage out of town somewhere, or +some cosy rooms in the city. At least, she supposed that was what +she had got to be, and if that were settled, she did not see why it +might not be begun young, as well as married life. She could not +endure waiting, when a thing was to be done. + +"Aunt Frances," she said one day, "I wish I had a place of my own. +What is the reason I can't? A girl can go in for Art, and set up a +studio; or she can go to Rome, and sculp, and study; she can learn +elocution, and read, whether people want to be read to or not; and +all that is Progress and Woman's Rights; why can't she set up a +_home_?" + +"Because, I suppose, a house is not a home; and the beginning of a +home is just what she waits for. Meanwhile, if she has a father and +a mother, she would not put a slight on _their_ home, or fail of her +share of the duty in it." + +"But nobody would think I failed in my duty if I were going to be +married. I'm sure mamma would think I was doing it beautifully. And +I never shall be married. Why can't I live something out for myself, +and have a place of my own? I have got money enough to pay my rent, +and I could do sewing in a genteel way, or keep a school for little +children. I'd rather--take in back stairs to wash," she exclaimed +vehemently, "than wait round for things, and be nothing! And I +should like to begin young, while there might be some sort of fun in +it. You'd like to come and take tea with me, wouldn't you, Aunt +Frank?" + +"If it were all right that you should have separate teas of your +own." + +"And if I had waffles. Well, I should. I think, just now, there's +nothing I should like so much as a little kitchen of my own, and a +pie-board, and a biscuit-cutter, and a beautiful baking oven, and a +Japan tea-pot." + +"The pretty part. But brooms, and pails, and wash-tubs, and the back +stairs?" + +"I specified back stairs in the first place, of my own accord. I +wouldn't shirk. Sometimes I think that real good old-fashioned hard +work is what I do want. I should like to find the right, honest +thing, and do it, Aunt Frank." + +She said it earnestly, and there were tears in her eyes. + +"I believe you would," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "But perhaps the right, +honest thing, just now, is to wait patiently, with all your might." + +"Now, that's good," said Desire, "and cute of you, too, that last +piece of a sentence. If you had stopped at '_patiently_,' as people +generally do! That's what exasperates; when you want to do something +with all your might. It almost seems as if I could, when you put it +so." + +"It is a 'stump,' Luclarion would say." + +"Luclarion is a saint and a philosopher. I feel better," said +Desire. + +She stayed feeling better all that afternoon; she helped Sulie +Praile cut out little panels from her thick sheet of gray +painting-board, and contrived her a small easel with her round +lightstand and a book-rest; for Sulie was advancing in the fine +arts, from painting dollies' paper faces in cheap water colors, to +copying bits of flowers and fern and moss, with oils, on gray board; +and she was doing it very well, and with exquisite delight. + +To wait, meant something to wait for; something coming by and by; +that was what comforted Desire to-day, as she walked home alone in +the sharp, short, winter twilight; that, and the being patient with +all one's might. To be patient, is to be also strong; this she saw, +newly; and Desire coveted, most of all, to be strong. + +Something to wait for. "He does not cheat," said Desire, low down in +her heart, to herself. For the child had faith, though she could not +talk about it. + +Something; but very likely not the thing you have seen, or dreamed +of; something quite different, it may be, when it comes; and it may +come by the way of losing, first, all that you have been able yet, +with a vague, whispering hope, to imagine. + +The things we do not know! The things that are happening,--the +things that are coming; rising up in the eastward of our lives below +the horizon that we can yet see; it may be a star, it may be a +cloud! + +Desire Ledwith could not see that out at Westover, this cheery +winter night, it was one of dear Miss Pennington's "Next Thursdays;" +she could not see that the young architect, living away over there +in the hundred-year-old house on the side of East Hill, a boarder +with old Miss Arabel Waite, had been found, and appreciated, and +drawn into their circle by the Haddens and the Penningtons and the +Holabirds and the Inglesides; and that Rosamond was showing him the +pleasant things in their Westover life,--her "swan's nest among the +reeds," that she had told him of,--that early autumn evening, when +they had walked up Hanley Street together. + + + + +XVI. + +SWARMING. + + +Spring came on early, with heavy rains and freshets in many parts of +the country. + +It was a busy time at Z----. + +Two things had happened there that were to give Kenneth Kincaid more +work, and would keep him where he was all summer. + +Just before he went to Z----, there had been a great fire at West +Hill. All Mr. Roger Marchbanks's beautiful place was desolate. +House, conservatories, stables, lovely little vine-covered rustic +buildings, exquisitely tended shrubbery,--all swept over in one +night by the red flames, and left lying in blackness and ashes. + +For the winter, Mr. Marchbanks had taken his family to Boston; now +he was planning eagerly to rebuild. Kenneth had made sketches; Mr. +Marchbanks liked his ideas; they had talked together from time to +time. Now, the work was actually in hand, and Kenneth was busy with +drawings and specifications. + +Down at the river, during the spring floods, a piece of the bridge +had been carried away, and the dam was broken through. There were +new mill buildings, too, going up, and a block of factory houses. +All this business, through Mr. Marchbanks directly or indirectly, +fell also into Kenneth's hands. + +He wrote blithe letters to Dorris; and Dorris, running in and out +from her little spring cleanings that Hazel was helping her with, +told all the letters over to the Ripwinkleys. + +"He says I must come up there in my summer vacation and board with +his dear old Miss Waite. Think of Kentie's being able to give me +such a treat as that! A lane, with ferns and birches, and the +woods,--_pine_ woods!--and a hill where raspberries grow, and the +river!" + +Mrs. Ledwith was thinking of her summer plans at this time, also. +She remembered the large four-windowed room looking out over the +meadow, that Mrs. Megilp and Glossy had at Mrs. Prendible's, for +twelve dollars a week, in And. She could do no better than that, at +country boarding, anywhere; and Mr. Ledwith could sleep at the house +in Shubarton Place, getting his meals down town during the week, and +come up and spend his Sundays with them. A bedroom, in addition, for +six dollars more, would be all they would want. + +The Ripwinkleys were going up to Homesworth by and by for a little +while, and would take Sulie Praile with them. Sulie was ecstatically +happy. She had never been out of the city in all her life. She felt, +she said, "as if she was going to heaven without dying." Vash was to +be left at Mrs. Scarup's with her sister. + +Miss Craydocke would be away at the mountains; all the little life +that had gathered together in the Aspen Street neighborhood, seemed +about to be broken up. + +Uncle Titus Oldways never went out of town, unless on business. +Rachel Froke stayed, and kept his house; she sat in the gray room, +and thought over the summers she had had. + +"Thee never loses anything out of thy life that has been in," she +said. "Summer times are like grains of musk; they keep their smell +always, and flavor the shut-up places they are put away in." + +For you and me, reader, we are to go to Z---- again. I hope you like +it. + +But before that, I must tell you what Luclarion Grapp has done. + +Partly from the principle of her life, and partly from the spirit of +things which she would have caught at any rate, from the Ripwinkley +home and the Craydocke "Beehive,"--for there is nothing truer than +that the kingdom of heaven is like leaven,--I suppose she had been +secretly thinking for a good while, that she was having too easy a +time here, in her first floor kitchen and her garden bedroom; that +this was not the life meant for her to live right on, without +scruple or question; and so began in her own mind to expect some +sort of "stump;" and even to look about for it. + +"It isn't as it was when Mrs. Ripwinkley was a widow, and +poor,--that is, comparative; and it took all her and my contrivance +to look after the place and keep things going, and paying, up in +Homesworth; there was something to buckle to, then; but now, +everything is eased and flatted out, as it were; it makes me +res'less, like a child put to bed in the daytime." + +Luclarion went down to the North End with Miss Craydocke, on errands +of mercy; she went in to the new Mission, and saw the heavenly +beauty of its intent, and kindled up in her soul at it; and she came +home, time after time, and had thoughts of her own about these +things, and the work in the world there was to do. + +She had cleaned up and set things going at Mrs. Scarup's; she +learned something in doing that, beyond what she knew when she set +about it; her thoughts began to shape themselves to a theory; and +the theory took to itself a text and a confirmation and a command. + +"Go down and be a neighbor to them that have fallen among thieves." + +Luclarion came to a resolution in this time of May, when everybody +was making plans and the spring-cleaning was all done. + +She came to Mrs. Ripwinkley one morning, when she was folding away +winter clothes, and pinning them up in newspapers, with camphor-gum; +and she said to her, without a bit of preface,--Luclarion hated +prefaces,-- + +"Mrs. Ripwinkley, I'm going to swarm!" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley looked up in utter surprise; what else could she do? + +"Of course 'm, when you set up a Beehive, you must have expected it; +it's the natural way of things; they ain't good for much unless they +do. I've thought it all over; I'll stay and see you all off, first, +if you want me to, and then--I'll swarm." + +"Well," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, assenting in full faith, beforehand; +for Mrs. Ripwinkley, if I need now to tell you of it, was not an +ordinary woman, and did not take things in an ordinary selfish way, +but grasped right hold of the inward right and truth of them, and +believed in it; sometimes before she could quite see it; and she +never had any doubt of Luclarion Grapp. "Well! And now tell me all +about it." + +"You see," said Luclarion, sitting down in a chair by the window, as +Mrs. Ripwinkley suspended her occupation and took one by the +bedside, "there's places in this town that folks leave and give up. +As the Lord might have left and give up the world, because there was +dirt and wickedness in it; only He didn't. There's places where it +ain't genteel, nor yet respectable, to live; and so those places +grow more disrespectable and miserable every day. They're left to +themselves. What I think is, they hadn't ought to be. There's one +clean spot down there now, in the very middle of the worst dirt. +And it ain't bad to live in. _That's_ started. Now, what I think is, +that somebody ought to start another, even if its only a little one. +Somebody ought to just go there and _live_, and show 'em how, just +as I took and showed Mrs. Scarup, and she's been living ever since, +instead of scratching along. If some of them folks had a clean, +decent neighbor to go to see,--to drink tea with, say,--and was to +catch an idea of her fixings and doings, why, I believe there'd be +more of 'em,--cleaned up, you know. They'd get some kind of an +ambition and a hope. Tain't enough for ladies--though I bless 'em in +my soul for what I've seen 'em do--to come down there of a Fridays, +and teach and talk awhile, and then go home to Summit Street and +Republic Avenue, and take up _their_ life again where they left it +off, that is just as different as heaven is from 'tother place; +somebody's got to come right down _out_ of heaven, and bring the +life in, and live it amongst them miserable folks, as the Lord Jesus +Christ came and did! And it's borne in upon me, strong and clear, +that that's what's got to be before all's righted. And so--for a +little piece of it, and a little individual stump--I'm going to +swarm, and settle, and see what'll come." + +Mrs. Ripwinkley was looking very intently at Luclarion. Her breath +went and came hurriedly, and her face turned pale with the grand +surprise of such a thought, such a plan and purpose, so simply and +suddenly declared. Her eyes were large and moist with feeling. + +"Do you _know_, Luclarion," she exclaimed at last, "do you realize +what this is that you are thinking of; what a step it would be to +take,--what a work it would be to even hope to begin to do? Do you +know how strange it is,--how almost impracticable,--that it is not +even safe?" + +"'Twasn't _safe_ for Him--when He came into the world," Luclarion +answered. + +"Not to say I think there's any comparison," she began again, +presently, "or that I believe there's anything to be really scared +of,--except dirt; and you _can_ clean a place round you, as them +Mission people have done. Why, there ain't a house in Boston nicer, +or sweeter, or airier even, than that one down in Arctic Street, +with beautiful parlors and bedrooms, and great clean galleries +leading round, and skylighted,--_sky_ lighted! for you see the blue +heaven is above all, and you _can_ let the skylight in, without any +corruption coming in with it; and if twenty people can do that much, +or a hundred,--one can do something. 'Taint much, either, to +undertake; only to be willing to go there, and make a clean place +for yourself, and a home; and live there, instead of somewheres else +that's ready made; and let it spread. And you know I've always +looked forrud to some kind of a house-keep of my own, finally." + +"But, Luclarion, I don't understand! All alone? And you couldn't use +a whole house, you know. Your neighbors would be _inmates_. Why, it +seems to me perfectly crazy!" + +"Now, ma'am, did you ever know me to go off on a tangent, without +some sort of a string to hold on to? I ain't goin' to swarm all +alone! I never heard of such a thing. Though if I couldn't _swarm_, +and the thing was to be done, I say I'd try it. But Savira Golding +is going to be married to Sam Gallilee, next month; and he's a +stevedore, and his work is down round the wharves; he's class-leader +in our church, and a first-rate, right-minded man, or else Savira +wouldn't have him; for if Savira ain't a clear Christian, and a +doing woman, there ain't one this side of Paradise. Now, you see, +Sam Gallilee makes money; he runs a gang of three hundred men. He +can afford a good house, and a whole one, if he wants; but he's +going in for a big one, and neighbors. They mean to live nice,--he +and Savira; and she has pretty, tasty ways; there'll be white +curtains, and plants blooming in her windows, you may make sure; +she's always had 'em in that little up-stairs dress-making room of +hers; and boxes of mignonette and petunias on the ledges; and birds +singing in a great summer cage swung out against the wall. She's one +of the kind that reaches out, and can't be kept in; and she knows +her gifts, and is willing to go and let her light shine where it +will help others, and so glorify; and Sam, he's willing too, and +sees the beauty of it. And so,--well, that's the swarm." + +"And the 'little round Godamighty in the middle of it,'" said Mrs. +Ripwinkley, her face all bright and her eyes full of tears. + +"_Ma'am_!" + +Then Mrs. Ripwinkley told her Miss Craydocke's story. + +"Well," said Luclarion, "there's something dear and +right-to-the-spot about it; but it does sound singular; and it +certainly ain't a thing to say careless." + + * * * * * + +Desire Ledwith grew bright and excited as the summer came on, and +the time drew near for going to Z----. She could not help being +glad; she did not stop to ask why; summer-time was reason enough, +and after the weariness of the winter, the thought of Z---- and the +woods and the river, and sweet evenings and mornings, and gardens +and orchards, and road-side grass, was lovely to her. + +"It is so pleasant up there!" she would keep saying to Dorris; and +somehow she said it to Dorris oftener than to anybody else. + +There was something fitful and impetuous in her little outbursts of +satisfaction; they noticed it in her; the elder ones among them +noticed it with a touch of anxiety for her. + +Miss Craydocke, especially, read the signs, matching them with +something that she remembered far back in the life that had closed +so peacefully, with white hairs and years of a serene content and +patience, over all unrest and disappointment, for herself. She was +sorry for this young girl, for whom she thought she saw an +unfulfilled dream of living that should go by her like some bright +cloud, just near enough to turn into a baptism of tears. + +She asked Desire, one day, if she would not like to go with her, +this summer, to the mountains. + +Desire put by the suggestion hastily. + +"O, no, thank you, Miss Craydocke, I must stay with mamma and +Helena. And besides," she added, with the strict, full truth she +always demanded of herself, "I _want_ to go to Z----." + +"Yes," said Miss Craydocke. + +There was something tender, like a shade of pity, in her tone. + +"But you would enjoy the mountains. They are full of strength and +rest. One hardly understands the good the hills do one. David did, +looking out into them from Jerusalem. 'I will look to the hills, +from whence cometh my strength.'" + +"Some time," said Desire. "Some time I shall need the hills, and--be +ready for them. But this summer--I want a good, gay, young time. I +don't know why, except that I shall be just eighteen this year, and +it seems as if, after that, I was going to be old. And I want to be +with people I know. I _can_ be gay in the country; there is +something to be gay about. But I can't dress and dance in the city. +That is all gas-light and get-up." + +"I suppose," said Miss Craydocke, slowly, "that our faces are all +set in the way we are to go. Even if it is--" She stopped. She was +thinking of one whose face had been set to go to Jerusalem. Her own +words had led her to something she had not foreseen when she began. + +Nothing of such suggestion came to Desire. She was in one of her +rare moods of good cheer. + +"I suppose so," she said, heedlessly. And then, taking up a thought +of her own suddenly,--"Miss Craydocke! Don't you think people almost +always live out their names? There's Sin Scherman; there'll always +be a little bit of mischief and original naughtiness in her,--with +the harm taken out of it; and there's Rosamond Holabird,--they +couldn't have called her anything better, if they'd waited for her +to grow up; and Barb _was_ sharp; and our little Hazel is witchy and +sweet and wild-woodsy; and Luclarion,--isn't that shiny and +trumpety, and doesn't she do it? And then--there's me. I shall +always be stiff and hard and unsatisfied, except in little bits of +summer times that won't come often. They might as well have +christened me Anxiety. I wonder why they didn't." + +"That would have been very different. There is a nobleness in +Desire. You will overlive the restless part," said Miss Craydocke. + +"Was there ever anything restless in your life, Miss Craydocke? And +how long did it take to overlive it? It doesn't seem as if you had +ever stubbed your foot against anything; and I'm _always_ stubbing." + +"My dear, I have stubbed along through fifty-six years; and the +years had all three hundred and sixty-five days in them. There were +chances,--don't you think so?" + +"It looks easy to be old after it is done," said Desire. "Easy and +comfortable. But to be eighteen, and to think of having to go on to +be fifty-six; I beg your pardon,--but I wish it was over!" + +And she drew a deep breath, heavy with the days that were to be. + +"You are not to take it all at once, you know," said Miss Craydocke. + +"But I do, every now and then. I can't help it. I am sure it is the +name. If they had called me 'Hapsie,' like you, I should have gone +along jolly, as you do, and not minded. You see you have to _hear_ +it all the time; and it tunes you up to its own key. You can't feel +like a Dolly, or a Daisy, when everybody says--De-sire!" + +"I don't know how I came to be called 'Hapsie,'" said Miss +Craydocke. "Somebody who liked me took it up, and it seemed to get +fitted on. But that wasn't when I was young." + +"What was it, then?" asked Desire, with a movement of interest. + +"Keren-happuch," said Miss Craydocke, meekly. "My father named me, +and he always called me so,--the whole of it. He was a severe, +Old-Testament man, and _his_ name was Job." + +Desire was more than half right, after all. There was a good deal of +Miss Craydocke's story hinted in those few words and those two +ancient names. + +"But I turned into 'Miss Craydocke' pretty soon, and settled down. I +suppose it was very natural that I should," said the sweet old maid, +serenely. + + + + +XVII. + +QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS. + + +The evening train came in through the little bend in the edge of the +woods, and across the bridge over the pretty rapids, and slid to its +stopping-place under the high arches of the other bridge that +connected the main street of Z---- with its continuation through +"And." + +There were lights twinkling in the shops, where they were making +change, and weighing out tea and sugar, and measuring calico, +although outside it was not yet quite dark. + +The train was half an hour late; there had been a stoppage at some +draw or crossing near the city. + +Mr. Prendible was there, to see if his lodgers were come, and to get +his evening paper; the platform was full of people. Old Z---- +acquaintances, many of them, whom Desire and her mother were +pleased, and Helena excited to see. + +"There's Kenneth Kincaid!" she exclaimed, quite loudly, pulling +Desire's sleeve. + +"Hush!" said Desire, twitching away. "How can you, Helena?" + +"He's coming,--he heard me!" cried Helena, utterly impenitent. + +"I should think he might!" And Desire walked off a little, to look +among the trunks that were being tumbled from the baggage car. + +She had seen him all the time; he had been speaking to Ruth +Holabird, and helping her up the steps with her parcels. Mr. +Holabird was there with the little Westover carryall that they kept +now; and Kenneth put her in, and then turned round in time to hear +Helena's exclamation and to come down again. + +"Can I help you? I'm very glad you are come," he said, cordially. + +Well; he might have said it to anybody. Again, well; it was enough +to say to anybody. Why should Desire feel cross? + +He took Helena's bag; she had a budget beside; Mr. Prendible +relieved Mrs. Ledwith; Desire held on valiantly to her own things. +Kenneth walked over the bridge with them, and down the street to Mr. +Prendible's door; there he bade them good-by and left them. + +It was nice to be in Z----; it was very sweet here under the +blossoming elms and locusts; it was nice to see Kenneth Kincaid +again, and to think that Dorris was coming by and by, and that the +lanes were green and full of ferns and vines, and that there was to +be a whole long summer; but there were so many people down there on +the platform,--there was such a muss always; Ruth Holabird was a +dear little thing, but there were always so many Ruths about! and +there was only one cross, stiff, odd, uncomfortable Desire! + +But the very next night Kenneth came down and stayed an hour; there +was a new moon glistening through the delicate elm-tips, and they +sat out on the piazza and breathed in such an air as they had not +had in their nostrils for months and months. + +The faint, tender light from the golden west in which the new moon +lay, showed the roof and tower of the little church, Kenneth's first +beautiful work; and Kenneth told them how pleasant it was up at Miss +Arabel's, and of the tame squirrels that he fed at his window, and +of the shady pasture-path that led away over the brook from the +very door, and up among pines and into little still nooks where dry +mossy turf and warm gray rocks were sheltered in by scraggy cedars +and lisping birches, so that they were like field-parlors opening in +and out from each other with all sorts of little winding and +climbing passages, between clumps of bayberry bushes and tall ferns; +and that the girls from Z---- and Westover made morning picnics +there, since Lucilla Waters had grown intimate with Delia Waite and +found it out; and that Delia Waite and even Miss Arabel carried +their dressmaking down there sometimes in a big white basket, and +stayed all day under the trees. They had never used to do this; they +had stayed in the old back sitting room with all the litter round, +and never thought of it till those girls had come and showed them +how. + +"I think there is the best and sweetest neighborliness and most +beautiful living here in Z----, that I ever knew in any place," said +Kenneth Kincaid; "except that little piece of the same thing in +Aspen Street." + +Kenneth had found out how Rosamond Holabird recognized Aspen Street +as a piece of her world. + +Desire hated, as he spoke, her spitefulness last night; what she had +said to herself of "so many Ruths;" why could not she not be pleased +to come into this beautiful living and make a little part of it? + +She was pleased; she would be; she found it very easy when Kenneth +said to her in that frank intimate way,--"I wish you and your mother +would come over and see what Dorris will want, and help me a little +about that room of hers. I told Miss Waite not to bother; just to +let the old things stand,--I knew Dorris would like them,--and +anything else I would get for her myself. I mean Dolly shall take a +long vacation this year; from June right through to September; and +its 'no end of jolly,' as those English fellows say, that you have +come too!" + +Kenneth Kincaid was fresher and pleasanter and younger himself, than +Desire had ever seen him before; he seemed to have forgotten that +hard way of looking at the world; he had found something so +undeniably good in it. I am afraid Desire had rather liked him for +his carping, which was what he least of all deserved to be liked +for. It showed how high and pure his demands were; but his praise +and admissions were better; it is always better to discern good than +to fret at the evil. + +"I shall see you every day," he said, when he shook hands at +parting; "and Helena, if you want a squirrel to keep in your pocket +next winter, I'll begin training one for you at once." + +He had taken them right to himself, as if they belonged to him; he +spoke as if he were very glad that he should see them every day. + +Desire whistled over her unpacking; she could not sing, but she +could whistle like a blackbird. When her father came up on Saturday +night, he said that her eyes were brighter and her cheeks were +rounder, for the country air; she would take to growing pretty +instead of strong-minded, if she didn't look out. + +Kenneth came round on Monday, after tea, to ask them to go over to +Miss Waite's and make acquaintance. + +"For you see," he said, "you will have to be very intimate there, +and it is time to begin. It will take one call to be introduced, and +another, at least, to get up-stairs and see that beautiful breezy +old room that can't be lived in in winter, but is to be a delicious +sort of camping-out for Dolly, all summer. It is all windows and +squirrel-holes and doors that won't shut. Everything comes in but +the rain; but the roof is tight on that corner. Even the woodbine +has got tossed in through a broken upper pane, and I wouldn't have +it mended on any account. There are swallows' nests in the chimneys, +and wrens under the gable, and humming-birds in the honeysuckle. +When Dolly gets there, it will be perfect. It just wants her to take +it all right into her heart and make one piece of it. _They_ don't +know,--the birds and the squirrels,--it takes the human. There has +to be an Adam in every garden of Eden." + +Kenneth really chattered, from pure content and delight. + +It did not take two visits to get up-stairs. Miss Arabel met them +heartily. She had been a shy, timid old lady, from long neglect and +humble living; but lately she had "come out in society," Delia said. +Society had come after her, and convinced her that she could make +good times for it. + +She brought out currant wine and gave them, the first thing; and +when Kenneth told her that they were his and Dorris's friends, and +were coming next week to see about getting ready for her, she took +them right round through all four of the ground rooms, to the queer +corner staircase, and up into the "long west chamber," to show them +what a rackety old place it was, and to see whether they supposed it +could be made fit. + +"Why it's like the Romance of the Forest!" said Helena, delighted. +"I wish _we_ had come here. Don't you have ghosts, or robbers, or +something, up and down those stairs, Miss Waite?" For she had spied +a door that led directly out of the room, from beside the chimney, +up into the rambling old garret, smelling of pine boards and +penny-royal. + +"No; nothing but squirrels and bees, and sometimes a bat," answered +Miss Arabel. + +"Well, it doesn't want fixing. If you fix it, you will spoil it. I +shall come here and sleep with Dorris,--see if I don't." + +The floor was bare, painted a dark, marbled gray. In the middle was +a great braided rug, of blue and scarlet and black. The walls were +pale gray, with a queer, stencilled scroll-and-dash border of +vermilion and black paint. + +There was an old, high bedstead, with carved frame and posts, bare +of drapery; an antiquated chest of drawers; and a half-circular +table with tall, plain, narrow legs, between two of the windows. +There was a corner cupboard, and a cupboard over the chimney. The +doors of these, and the high wainscot around the room, were stained +in old-fashioned "imitation mahogany," very streaky and red. The +wainscot was so heavily finished that the edge running around the +room might answer for a shelf. + +"Just curtains, and toilet covers, and a little low rocking chair," +said Mrs. Ledwith. "That is all you want." + +"But the windows are so high," suggested Desire. "A low chair would +bury her up, away from all the pleasantness. I'll tell you what I +would have, Mr. Kincaid. A kind of dais, right across that corner, +to take in two windows; with a carpet on it, and a chair, and a +little table." + +"Just the thing!" said Kenneth. "That is what I wanted you for, Miss +Desire," he said in a pleased, gentle way, lowering his tone to her +especial hearing, as he stood beside her in the window. + +And Desire was very happy to have thought of it. + +Helena was spurred by emulation to suggest something. + +"I'd have a--hammock--somewhere," she said. + +"Good," said Kenneth. "That shall be out under the great butternut." + +The great butternut walled in one of the windows with a wilderness +of green, and the squirrels ran chattering up and down the brown +branches, and peeping in all day. In the autumn, when the nuts were +ripe, they would be scrambling over the roof, and in under the +eaves, to hide their stores in the garret, Miss Arabel told them. + +"Why doesn't everbody have an old house, and let the squirrels in?" +cried Helena, in a rapture. + +In ten days more,--the first week of June,--Dorris came. + +Well,--"That let in all the rest," Helena said, and Desire, may be, +thought. "We shan't have it to ourselves any more." + +The girls could all come down and call on Dorris Kincaid, and they +did. + +But Desire and Helena had the first of it; nobody else went right up +into her room; nobody else helped her unpack and settle. And she was +so delighted with all that they had done for her. + +The dais was large enough for two or three to sit upon at once, and +it was covered with green carpet of a small, mossy pattern, and the +window was open into the butternut on one side, and into the +honeysuckle on the other, and it was really a bower. + +"I shall live ten hours in one," said Dorris. + +"And you'll let me come and sleep with you some night, and hear the +bats," said Helena. + +The Ledwiths made a good link; they had known the Kincaids so well; +if it had been only Dorris, alone, with her brother there, the +Westover girls might have been shy of coming often. Since Kenneth +had been at Miss Waite's, they had already grown a little less free +of the beautiful woods that they had just found out and begun fairly +to enjoy last autumn. + +But the Ledwiths made a strong party; and they lived close by; +there were plans continually. + +Since Leslie Goldthwaite and Barbara Holabird were married and gone, +and the Roger Marchbankses were burned out, and had been living in +the city and travelling, the Hobarts and the Haddens and Ruth and +Rosamond and Pen Pennington had kept less to their immediate +Westover neighborhood than ever; and had come down to Lucilla's, and +to Maddy Freeman's, and the Inglesides, as often as they had induced +them to go up to the Hill. + +Maud Marchbanks and the Hendees were civil and neighborly enough at +home, but they did not care to "ramify." So it came to pass that +they were left a good deal to themselves. Olivia and Adelaide, when +they came up to Westover, to their uncle's, wondered "that papa +cared to build again; there really wasn't anything to come for; West +Hill was entirely changed." + +So it was; and a very good thing. + +I came across the other day, reading over Mr. Kingsley's "Two Years +Ago," a true word as to social needs in England, that reminded me of +this that the Holabirds and the Penningtons and the Inglesides have +been doing, half unconsciously, led on from "next" to next, in +Z----. + +Mr. Kingsley, after describing a Miss Heale, and others of her +class,--the middle class, with no high social opportunities, and +with time upon their hands, wasted often in false dreams of life and +unsatisfied expectations, "bewildering heart and brain with novels," +for want of a nobler companionship, says this: "Till in country +villages, the ladies who interest themselves about the poor will +recollect that the farmers' and tradesmens' daughters are just as +much in want of their influence as the charity children and will +yield a far richer return for their labor, so long will England be +full of Miss Heales." + +If a kindly influence and fellowship are the duty of the +aristocratic girls of England toward their "next," below, how far +more false are American girls to the spirit of their country, and +the blessed opportunities of republican sympathies and equalities, +when they try to draw invisible lines between themselves and those +whose outer station differs by but so little, and whose hearts and +minds, under the like culture with their own, crave, just as they +do, the best that human intercourse can give. Social science has +something to do, before--or at least simultaneously with--reaching +down to the depths where all the wrongs and blunders and +mismanagements of life have precipitated their foul residuum. A +master of one of our public schools, speaking of the undue culture +of the brain and imagination, in proportion to the opportunities +offered socially for living out ideas thus crudely gathered, said +that his brightest girls were the ones who in after years, impatient +of the little life gave them to satisfy the capacities and demands +aroused and developed during the brief period of school life, and +fed afterwards by their own ill-judged and ill-regulated reading, +were found fallen into lives of vice. Have our women, old or young, +who make and circumscribe the opportunities of social intercourse +and enjoyment, nothing to search out here, and help, as well, or as +soon as, to get their names put on committee lists, and manage these +public schools themselves, which educate and stimulate up to the +point of possible fierce temptation, and then have nothing more that +they can do? + +It was a good thing for Desire Ledwith to grow intimate, as she did, +with Rosamond Holabird. There were identical points of character +between the two. They were both so real. + +"You don't want to _play_ anything," Barbara Holabird had said to +Rosamond once, in some little discussion of social appearances and +pretensions. "And that's the beauty of you!" + +It was the beauty of Desire Ledwith also; only, with Rosamond, her +ambitions had clothed themselves with a grace and delicateness that +would have their own perfect and thorough as far as it went; and +with Desire, the same demands of true living had chafed into an +impatience with shams and a blunt disregard of and resistance to all +conventionalisms. + +"You are a good deal alike, you two," Kenneth Kincaid said to them +one day, in a talk they all three happened to have together. + +And he had told Rosamond afterward that there was "something grand +in Desire Ledwith; only grand things almost always have to grow with +struggles." + +Rosamond had told this again to Desire. + +It was not much wonder that she began to be happier; to have a +hidden comfort of feeling that perhaps the "waiting with all her +might" was nearly over, and the "by and by" was blossoming for her, +though the green leaves of her own shy sternness with herself folded +close down about the sweetening place, and she never parted them +aside to see where the fragrance came from. + + * * * * * + +They were going to have a grand, large, beautiful supper party in +the woods. + +Mrs. Holabird and Mrs. Hobart were the matrons, and gave out the +invitations. + +"I don't think I could possibly spend a Tuesday afternoon with a +little 't,'" said Mrs. Lewis Marchbanks laughing, and tossing down +poor, dear, good Mrs. Hobart's note upon her table. "It is _rather_ +more than is to be expected!" + +"Doctor and Mrs. Hautayne are here, and Dakie Thayne is home from +West Point. It will be rather a nice party." + +"The Holabirds seem to have got everything into their own hands," +said Mrs. Marchbanks, haughtily. "It is always a pity when people +take the lead who are not exactly qualified. Mrs. Holabird _will_ +not discriminate!' + +"I think the Holabirds are splendid," spoke up Lily, "and I don't +think there's any fun in sticking up by ourselves! I can't bear to +be judicious!" + +Poor little Lily Marchbanks had been told a tiresome many times that +she must be "judicious" in her intimacies. + +"You can be _pleasant_ to everybody," said mother and elder sister, +with a salvo of Christian benignity. + +But it is so hard for little children to be pleasant with fence and +limitation. + +"Where must I stop?" Lily had asked in her simplicity. "When they +give me a piece of their luncheon, or when they walk home from +school, or when they say they will come in a little while?" + +But there came a message back from Boston by the eleven o'clock +train on the morning of the Tuesday with a little "t," from Mr. +Marchbanks himself, to say that his brother and Mr. Geoffrey would +come up with him to dinner, and to desire that carriages might be +ready afterward for the drive over to Waite's grove. + +Mrs. Marchbanks marveled, but gave her orders. Arthur came out +early, and brought with him his friend Archie Mucklegrand, and these +two were bound also for the merry-making. + +Now Archie Mucklegrand was the identical youth of the lavender +pantaloons and the waxed moustache, whom Desire, as "Miss Ledwith," +had received in state a year and a half ago. + +So it was an imposing cavalcade, after all, from West Hill, that +honored the very indiscriminate pleasure party, and came riding and +driving in at about six o'clock. There were the barouche and the +coupé; for the ladies and elder gentlemen, and the two young men +accompanied them on horseback. + +Archie Mucklegrand had been at West Hill often before. He and +Arthur had just graduated at Harvard, and the Holabirds had had +cards to their grand spread on Class Day. Archie Mucklegrand had +found out what a pretty girl--and a good deal more than merely +pretty--Rosamond Holabird was; and although he might any day go +over to his big, wild Highland estate, and take upon himself the +glory of "Sir Archibald" there among the hills and moors,--and +though any one of a good many pretty girls in Spreadsplendid Park +and Republic Avenue might be induced, perhaps, if he tried, to go +with him,--all this did not hinder him from perceiving that up +here in Z---- was just the most bewitching companionship he had +ever fallen in with, or might ever be able to choose for himself +for any going or abiding; that Rosamond Holabird was just the +brightest, and sweetest, and most to his mind of any girl that he +had ever seen, and most like "the woman" that a man might dream +of. I do not know that he quite said it all to himself in +precisely that way; I am pretty sure that he did not, as yet; but +whatever is off-hand and young-mannish and modern enough to +express to one's self without "sposhiness" an admiration and a +preference like that, he undoubtedly did say. At any rate after +his Christmas at Z---- with Arthur, and some charade parties they +had then at Westover, and after Class Day, when everybody had been +furious to get an introduction, and all the Spreadsplendid girls +and their mothers had been wondering who that Miss Holabird was +and where she came from, and Madam Mucklegrand herself--not having +the slightest recollection of her as the Miss Holabird of that +early-morning business call, whose name she had just glanced at +and dropped into an Indian china scrap-jar before she went +down-stairs--had asked him the same questions, and pronounced that +she was "an exceedingly graceful little person, certainly,"--after +all this, Archie had made up his--mind, shall I say? at least his +inclination, and his moustache--to pursue the acquaintance, and be +as irresistible as he could. + +But Rosamond had learned--things do so play into our lives in a +benign order--just before that Christmas time and those charades, in +one of which Archie Mucklegrand had sung to her, so expressively, +the "Birks of Aberfeldy,"--that Spreadsplendid Park was not, at +least his corner of it,--a "piece of her world;" and she did not +believe that Aberfeldy would be, either, though Archie's voice was +beautiful, and-- + + "Bonnie lassie, will ye go?" + +sounded very enticing--in a charade. + +So she was quite calm when the Marchbanks party came upon the +ground, and Archie Mucklegrand, with white trousers and a lavender +tie, and the trim, waxed moustache, looking very handsome in spite +of his dapperness, found her out in the first two minutes, and +attached himself to her forthwith in a most undetachable and +determined manner, which was his way of being irresistible. + +They were in the midst of their tea and coffee when the West Hill +party came. Miss Arabel was busy at the coffee-table between the two +oaks, pouring out with all her might, and creaming the fragrant cups +with a rich lavishness that seemed to speak of milky mothers without +number or limit of supply; and Rosamond, as the most natural and +hospitable thing to do, conducted the young gentleman as soon as she +could to that lady, and commended him to her good offices. + +These were not to be resisted; and as soon as he was occupied, +Rosamond turned to attend to others coming up; and the groups +shifting, she found herself presently a little way off, and +meanwhile Mrs. Marchbanks and her son had reached the table and +joined Archie. + +"I say, Arthur! O, Mrs. Marchbanks! You never got such coffee as +this, I do believe! The open air has done something to it, or else +the cream comes from some supernal cows! Miss Holabird!" + +Rosamond turned round. + +"I don't see,--Mrs. Marchbanks ought to have some of this coffee, +but where is your good woman gone?" For Miss Arabel had stepped +round behind the oak-tree for a moment, to see about some +replenishing. + +In her prim, plain dress, utterly innocent of style or _bias_, and +her zealous ministry, good Miss Arabel might easily be taken for +some comfortable, superior old servant; but partly from a sudden +sense of fun,--Mrs. Marchbanks standing there in all her elegant +dignity,--and partly from a jealous chivalry of friendship, Rosamond +would not let it pass so. + +"Good woman? Hush! she is one of our hostesses, the owner of the +ground, and a dear friend of mine. Here she is. Miss Waite, let me +introduce Mr. Archibald Mucklegrand. Mrs. Marchbanks will like some +coffee, please." + +Which Mrs. Marchbanks took with a certain look of amazement, that +showed itself subtilely in a slight straightening of the lips and an +expansion of the nostrils. She did not _sniff_; she was a great deal +too much a lady; she was Mrs. Marchbanks, but if she had been Mrs. +Higgin, and had felt just so, she would have sniffed. + +Somebody came up close to Rosamond on the other side. + +"That was good," said Kenneth Kincaid. "Thank you for that, Miss +Rosamond." + +"Will you have some more?" asked Rosamond, cunningly, pretending to +misunderstand, and reaching her hand to take his empty cup. + +"One mustn't ask for all one would like," said Kenneth, +relinquishing the cup, and looking straight in her eyes. + +Rosamond's eyes fell; she had no rejoinder ready; it was very well +that she had the cup to take care of, and could turn away, for she +felt a very foolish color coming up in her face. + +She made herself very busy among the guests. Archie Mucklegrand +stayed by, and spoke to her every time he found a chance. At last, +when people had nearly done eating and drinking, he asked her if she +would not show him the path down to the river. + +"It must be beautiful down there under the slope," he said. + +She called Dorris and Desire, then, and Oswald Megilp, who was with +them. He was spending a little time here at the Prendibles, with his +boat on the river, as he had used to do. When he could take an +absolute vacation, he was going away with a pedestrian party, among +the mountains. There was not much in poor Oswald Megilp, but Desire +and Rosamond were kind to him now that his mother was away. + +As they all walked down the bank among the close evergreens, they +met Mr. Geoffrey and Mr. Marchbanks, with Kenneth Kincaid, coming +up. Kenneth came last, and the two parties passed each other single +file, in the narrow pathway. + +Kenneth paused as he came close to Rosamond, holding back a bough +for her. + +"I have something very nice to tell you," he whispered, "by and by. +But it is a secret, as yet. Please don't stay down there very long." + +Nobody heard the whisper but Rosamond; if they could have done so, +he would not have whispered. Archie Mucklegrand was walking rather +sulkily along before; he had not cared for a party to be made up +when he asked Rosamond to go down to the river with him. Desire and +Dorris had found some strange blossom among the underbrush, and were +stopping for it; and Oswald Megilp was behind them. For a few +seconds, Kenneth had Rosamond quite to himself. + +The slight delay had increased the separation between her and Archie +Mucklegrand, for he had kept steadily on in his little huff. + +"I do not think we shall be long," said Rosamond, glancing after +him, and looking up, with her eyes bright. She was half merry with +mischief, and half glad with a quieter, deeper pleasure, at +Kenneth's words. + +He would tell her something in confidence; something that he was +glad of; he wanted her to know it while it was yet a secret; she had +not the least guess what it could be; but it was very "nice" +already. Rosamond always did rather like to be told things first; to +have her friends confide in and consult with her, and rely upon her +sympathy; she did not stop to separate the old feeling which she was +quite aware of in herself, from something new that made it +especially beautiful that Kenneth Kincaid should so confide and +rely. + +Rosamond was likely to have more told her to-night than she quite +dreamed of. + +"Desire!" + +They heard Mrs. Ledwith's voice far back among the trees. + +Desire answered. + +"I want you, dear!" + +"Something about shawls and baskets, I suppose," said Desire, +turning round, perhaps a little the more readily that Kenneth was +beside her now, going back also. + +Dorris and Oswald Megilp, finding there was a move to return, and +being behind Desire in the pathway, turned also, as people will who +have no especial motive for going one way rather than another; and +so it happened that after all Rosamond and Archie Mucklegrand walked +on down the bank to the river together, by themselves. + +Archie's good humor returned quickly. + +"I am glad they are gone; it was such a fuss having so many," he +said. + +"We shall have to go back directly; they are beginning to break up," +said Rosamond. + +And then, coming out to the opening by the water, she began to talk +rather fast about the prettiness of the view, and to point out the +bridge, and the mills, and the shadow of East Hill upon the water, +and the curve of the opposite shore, and the dip of the shrubs and +their arched reflections. She seemed quite determined to have all +the talk to herself. + +Archie Mucklegrand played with his stick, and twisted the end of +his moustache. Men never ought to allow themselves to learn that +trick. It always comes back upon them when it makes them look most +foolish. + +Archie said nothing, because there was so much he wanted to say, and +he did not know how to begin. + +He knew his mother and sister would not like it,--as long as they +could help it, certainly,--therefore he had suddenly made up his +mind that there should be no such interval. He could do as he +pleased; was he not Sir Archibald? And there was his Boston +grandfather's property, too, of which a large share had been left +outright to him; and he had been twenty-one these six months. There +was nothing to hinder; and he meant to tell Rosamond Holabird that +he liked her better than any other girl in the world. Somebody else +would be telling her so, if he didn't; he could see how they all +came round her; perhaps it might be that tall, quiet, cheeky looking +fellow,--that Kincaid. He would be before him, at any rate. + +So he stood and twisted his moustache, and said nothing,--nothing, I +mean, except mere little words of assent and echo to Rosamond's +chatter about the pretty view. + +At last,--"You are fond of scenery, Miss Holabird?" + +Rosamond laughed. + +"O yes, I suppose I am; but we don't call this scenery. It is just +pleasantness,--beauty. I don't think I quite like the word +'scenery.' It seems artificial,--got up for outside effect. And the +most beautiful things do not speak from the outside, do they? I +never travelled, Mr. Mucklegrand. I have just lived here, until I +have lived _into_ things, or they into me. I rather think it is +travelling, skimming about the world in a hurry, that makes people +talk about 'scenery.' Isn't it?" + +"I dare say. I don't care for skimming, myself. But I like to go to +nice places, and stay long enough to get into them, as you say. I +mean to go to Scotland next year. I've a place there among the hills +and lochs, Miss Rosamond." + +"Yes. I have heard so. I should think you would wish to go and see +it." + +"I'll tell you what I wish, Miss Holabird!" he said suddenly, +letting go his moustache, and turning round with sufficient +manfulness, and facing her. "I suppose there is a more gradual and +elegant way of saying it; but I believe straightforward is as good +as any. I wish you cared for me as I care for you, and then you +would go with me." + +Rosamond was utterly confounded. She had not imagined that it could +be hurled at her, this fashion; she thought she could parry and put +aside, if she saw anything coming. She was bewildered and breathless +with the shock of it; she could only blindly, and in very foolish +words, hurl it back. + +"O, dear, no!" she exclaimed, her face crimson. "I mean--I don't--I +couldn't! I beg your pardon, Mr. Mucklegrand; you are very good; I +am very sorry; but I wish you hadn't said so. We had better go +back." + +"No," said Archie Mucklegrand, "not yet. I've said it now. I said it +like a moon calf, but I mean it like a man. Won't you--can't you--be +my wife, Rosamond? I must know that." + +"No, Mr. Mucklegrand," answered Rosamond, quite steadily now and +gently. "I could not be. We were never meant for each other. You +will think so yourself next year,--by the time you go to Scotland." + +"I shall never think so." + +Of course he said that; young men always do; they mean it at the +moment, and nothing can persuade them otherwise. + +"I told you I had lived right here, and grown into these things, and +they into me," said Rosamond, with a sweet slow earnestness, as if +she thought out while she explained it; and so she did; for the +thought and meaning of her life dawned upon her with a new +perception, as she stood at this point and crisis of it in the +responsibility of her young womanhood. "And these, and all the +things that have influenced me, have given my life its direction; +and I can see clearly that it was never meant to be your way. I do +not know what it will be; but I know yours is different. It would be +wrenching mine to turn it so." + +"But I would turn mine for you," said Archie. + +"You couldn't. Lives _grow_ together. They join beforehand, if they +join at all. You like me, perhaps,--just what you see of me; but you +do not know me, nor I you. If it--this--were meant, we should." + +"Should what?" + +"Know. Be sure." + +"I am sure of what I told you." + +"And I thank you very much; but I do not--I never could--belong to +you." + +What made Rosamond so wise about knowing and belonging? + +She could not tell, herself; she had never thought it out before; +but she seemed to see it very clearly now. She did not belong to +Archie Mucklegrand, nor he to her; he was mistaken; their lives had +no join; to make them join would be a force, a wrenching. + +Archie Mucklegrand did not care to have it put on such deep ground. +He liked Rosamond; he wanted her to like him; then they should be +married, of coarse, and go to Scotland, and have a good time; but +this quiet philosophy cooled him somewhat. As they walked up the +bank together, he wondered at himself a little that he did not feel +worse about it. If she had been coquettish, or perverse, she might +have been all the more bewitching to him. If he had thought she +liked somebody else better, he might have been furiously jealous; +but "her way of liking a fellow would be a slow kind of a way, after +all." That was the gist of his thought about it; and I believe that +to many very young men, at the age of waxed moustaches and German +dancing, that "slow kind of a way" in a girl is the best possible +insurance against any lasting damage that their own enthusiasm might +suffer. + +He had not been contemptible in the offering of his love; his best +had come out at that moment; if it does not come out then, +somehow,--through face and tone, in some plain earnestness or simple +nobleness, if not in fashion of the spoken word as very well it may +not,--it must be small best that the man has in him. + +Rosamond's simple saying of the truth, as it looked to her in that +moment of sure insight, was the best help she could have given him. +Truth is always the best help. He did not exactly understand the +wherefore, as she understood it; but the truth touched him +nevertheless, in the way that he could perceive. They did not +"belong" to each other. + +And riding down in the late train that evening, Archie Mucklegrand +said to himself, drawing a long breath,--"It would have been an +awful tough little joke, after all, telling it to the old lady!" + +"Are you too tired to walk home?" Kenneth Kincaid asked of Rosamond, +helping her put the baskets in the carriage. + +Dakie Thayne had asked Ruth the same question five minutes before, +and they two had gone on already. Are girls ever too tired to walk +home after a picnic, when the best of the picnic is going to walk +home with them? Of course Rosamond was not too tired; and Mrs. +Holabird had the carryall quite to herself and her baskets. + +They took the River Road, that was shady all the way, and sweet now +with the dropping scents of evening; it was a little longer, too, I +think, though that is one of the local questions that have never yet +been fully decided. + +"How far does Miss Waite's ground run along the river?" asked +Kenneth, taking Rosamond's shawl over his arm. + +"Not far; it only just touches; it runs back and broadens toward the +Old Turnpike. The best of it is in those woods and pastures." + +"So I thought. And the pastures are pretty much run out." + +"I suppose so. They are full of that lovely gray crackling moss." + +"Lovely for picnics. Don't you think Miss Waite would like to sell?" + +"Yes, indeed, if she could. That is her dream; what she has been +laying up for her old age: to turn the acres into dollars, and build +or buy a little cottage, and settle down safe. It is all she has in +the world, except her dressmaking." + +"Mr. Geoffrey and Mr. Marchbanks want to buy. They will offer her +sixteen thousand dollars. That is the secret,--part of it." + +"O, Mr. Kincaid! How glad,--how _sorry_, I can't help being, too! +Miss Waite to be so comfortable! And never to have her dear old +woods to picnic in any more! I suppose they want to make streets +and build it all up." + +"Not all. I'll tell you. It is a beautiful plan. Mr. Geoffrey wants +to build a street of twenty houses,--ten on a side,--with just a +little garden plot for each, and leave the woods behind for a piece +of nature for the general good,--a real Union Park; a place for +children to play in, and grown folks to rest and walk and take tea +in, if they choose; but for nobody to change or meddle with any +further. And these twenty houses to be let to respectable persons of +small means, at rents that will give him seven per cent, for his +whole outlay. Don't you see? Young people, and people like Miss +Waite herself, who don't want _much_ house-room, but who want it +nice and comfortable, and will keep it so, and who _do_ want a +little of God's world-room to grow in, that they can't get in the +crowded town streets, where the land is selling by the foot to be +all built over with human packing-cases, and where they have to pay +as much for being shut up and smothered, as they will out here to +live and breathe. That Mr. Geoffrey is a glorious man, Rosamond! He +is doing just this same thing in the edges of three or four other +towns, buying up the land just before it gets too dear, to save for +people who could not save it for themselves. He is providing for a +class that nobody seems to have thought of,--the nice, narrow-pursed +people, and the young beginners, who get married and take the world +in the old-fashioned way." + +He had no idea he had called her "Rosamond," till he saw the color +shining up so in her face verifying the name. Then it flashed out +upon him as he sent his thought back through the last few sentences +that he had spoken. + +"I beg your pardon," he said, suddenly. "But I was so full of this +beautiful doing,--and I always think of you so! Is there a sin in +that?" + +Rosamond colored deeper yet, and Kenneth grew more bold. He had +spoken it without plan; it had come of itself. + +"I can't help it now. I shall say it again, unless you tell me not! +Rosamond! I shall have these houses to build. I am getting ever so +much to do. Could you begin the world with me, Rosamond?" + +Rosamond did not say a word for a full minute. She only walked +slowly by his side, her beautiful head inclined gently, shyly; her +sweet face all one bloom, as faces never bloom but once. + +Then she turned toward him and put out her hand. + +"I will begin the world with you," she said. + +And their world--that was begun for them before they were +born--lifted up its veil and showed itself to them, bright in the +eternal morning. + + * * * * * + +Desire Ledwith walked home all alone. She left Dorris at Miss +Waite's, and Helena had teased to stay with her. Mrs. Ledwith had +gone home among the first, taking a seat offered her in Mrs. Tom +Friske's carriage to East Square; she had a headache, and was tired. + +Desire felt the old, miserable questions coming up, tempting her. + +Why? + +Why was she left out,--forgotten? Why was there nothing, very much, +in any of this, for her? + +Yet underneath the doubting and accusing, something lived--stayed +by--to rebuke it; rose up above it finally, and put it down, though +with a thrust that hurt the heart in which the doubt was trampled. + +Wait. Wait--with all your might! + +Desire could do nothing very meekly; but she could even _wait_ with +all her might. She put her foot down with a will, at every step. + +"I was put here to be Desire Ledwith," she said, relentlessly, to +herself; "not Rosamond Holabird, nor even Dolly. Well, I suppose I +can stay put, and _be_! If things would only _let_ me be!" + +But they will not. Things never do, Desire. + +They are coming, now, upon you. Hard things,--and all at once. + + + + +XVIII. + +ALL AT ONCE. + + +There was a Monday morning train going down from Z----. + +Mr. Ledwith and Kenneth Kincaid were in it, reading the morning +papers, seated side by side. + +It was nearly a week since the picnic, but the engagement of +Rosamond and Kenneth had not transpired. Mr. Holabird had been away +in New York. Of course nothing was said beyond Mrs. Holabird and +Ruth and Dolly Kincaid, until his return. But Kenneth carried a +happy face about with him, in the streets and in the cars and about +his work; and his speech was quick and bright with the men he met +and had need to speak to. It almost told itself; people might have +guessed it, if they had happened, at least to see the _two_ faces in +the same day, and if they were alive to sympathetic impressions of +other people's pain or joy. There are not many who stop to piece +expressions, from pure sympathy, however; they are, for the most +part, too busy putting this and that together for themselves. + +Desire would have guessed it in a minute; but she saw little of +either in this week. Mrs. Ledwith was not well, and there was a +dress to be made for Helena. + +Kenneth Kincaid's elder men friends said of him, when they saw him +in these days, "That's a fine fellow; he is doing very well." They +could read that; he carried it in his eye and in his tone and in his +step, and it was true. + +It was a hot morning; it would be a stifling day in the city. They +sat quiet while they could, in the cars, taking the fresh air of the +fields and the sea reaches, reading the French news, and saying +little. + +They came almost in to the city terminus, when the train stopped. +Not at a station. There were people to alight at the last but one; +these grew impatient after a few minutes, and got out and walked. + +The train still waited. + +Mr. Ledwith finished a column he was reading, and then looked up, as +the conductor came along the passage. + +"What is the delay?" he asked of him. + +"Freight. Got such a lot of it. Takes a good while to handle." + +Freight outward bound. A train making up. + +Mr. Ledwith turned to his newspaper again. + +Ten minutes went by. Kenneth Kincaid got up and went out, like many +others. They might be kept there half an hour. + +Mr. Ledwith had read all his paper, and began to grow impatient. He +put his head out at the window, and looked and listened. Half the +passengers were outside. Brake-men were walking up and down. + +"Has he got a flag out there?" says the conductor to one of these. + +"Don't know. Can't see. Yes, he has; I heard him whistle brakes." + +Just then, their own bell sounded, and men jumped on board. Kenneth +Kincaid came back to his seat. + +Behind, there was a long New York train coming in. + +Mr. Ledwith put his head out again, and looked back. All right; +there had been a flag; the train had slackened just beyond a curve. + +But why will people do such things? What is the use of asking? Mr. +Ledwith still looked out; he could not have told you why. + +A quicker motion; a darkening of the window; a freight car standing +upon a siding, close to the switch, as they passed by; a sudden, +dull blow, half unheard in the rumble of the train. Women, sitting +behind, sprang up,--screamed; one dropped, fainting: they had seen a +ghastly sight; warm drops of blood flew in upon them; the car was in +commotion. + +Kenneth Kincaid, with an exclamation of horror, clutched hold of a +lifeless body that fell--was thrust--backward beside him; the poor +head fractured, shattered, against the fatal window frame. + + * * * * * + +The eleven o'clock train came out. + +People came up the street,--a group of gentlemen, three or +four,--toward Mr. Prendible's house. + +Desire sat in a back window behind the blinds, busy. Mrs. Ledwith +was lying on the bed. + +Steps came in at the house door. + +There was an exclamation; a hush. Mr. Prendible's voice, Kenneth +Kincaid's, Mr. Dimsey's, the minister's. + +"O! How? "--Mrs. Prendible's voice, now. + +"Take care!" + +"Where are they?" + +Mrs. Ledwith heard. + +"What is the matter?"--springing up, with a sudden instinct of +precognition. + +Desire had not seen or heard till now. She dropped her work. + +"What is it, mother?" + +Mrs. Ledwith was up, upon the floor; in the doorway out in the +passage; trembling; seized all over with a horrible dread and vague +knowledge. + +"_Tell_ me what it is!" she cried, to those down below. + +They were all there upon the staircase; Mrs. Prendible furthest up. + +"O, Mrs. Ledwith!" she cried. "_Don't_ be frightened! _Don't_ take +on! Take it easy,--do!" + +Desire rushed down among them; past Mrs. Prendible, past the +minister, straight to Kenneth Kincaid. + +Kenneth took her right in his arms, and carried her into a little +room below. + +"There could have been no pain," he said, tenderly. "It was the +accident of a moment. Be strong,--be patient, dear!" + +There had been tender words natural to his lips lately. It was not +strange that in his great pity he used them now. + +"My father!" gasped Desire. + +"Yes; your father. It was our Father's will." + +"Help me to go to my mother!" + +She took his hand, half blind, almost reeling. + +And then they all, somehow, found themselves up-stairs. + +There were moans of pain; there were words of prayer. We have no +right there. It is all told. + + * * * * * + +"Be strong,--be patient, dear!" + +It came back, in the midst of the darkness, the misery; it helped +her through those days; it made her strong for her mother. It +comforted her, she hardly knew how much; but O, how cruel it seemed +afterward! + +They went directly down to Boston. Mr. Ledwith was buried from their +own house. It was all over; and now, what should they do? Uncle +Titus came to see them. Mrs. Ripwinkley came right back from +Homesworth. Dorris Kincaid left her summer-time all behind, and +came to stay with them a week in Shubarton Place. Mrs. Ledwith +craved companionship; her elder daughters were away; there were +these five weeks to go by until she could hear from them. She would +not read their letters that came now, full of chat and travel. + +Poor Laura! her family scattered; her dependence gone; her life all +broken down in a moment! + +Dorris Kincaid did not speak of Kenneth and Rosamond. How could she +bring news of others' gladness into that dim and sorrowful house? + +Luclarion Grapp shut up her rooms, left her plants and her birds +with Mrs. Gallilee, and came up to Shubarton Place in the beginning. +There were no servants there; everything was adrift; the terrible +blows of life take people between the harness, most unprovided, +unawares. + +It was only for a little while, until they could hear from the +girls, and make plans. Grant Ledwith's income died with him; there +was ten thousand dollars, life insurance; that would give them a +little more than a sixth part of what his salary had been; and there +were the two thousand a year of Uncle Titus; and the house, on which +there was a twelve thousand dollar mortgage. + +Mrs. Ledwith had spent her life in cutting and turning and planning; +after the first shock was over, even her grief was counterpoised and +abated, by the absorption of her thoughts into the old channels. +What they should do, how they should live, what they could have; how +it should be contrived and arranged. Her mind busied itself with all +this, and her trouble was veiled,--softened. She had a dozen +different visions and schemes, projected into their details of +residence, establishment, dress, ordering,--before the letters +came, bringing back the first terribleness in the first reception of +and response to it, of her elder children. + +It was so awful to have them away,--on the other side of the world! +If they were only once all together again! Families ought not to +separate. But then, it had been for their good; how could she have +imagined? She supposed she should have done the same again, under +the same circumstances. + +And then came Mrs. Megilp's letter, delayed a mail, as she would +have delayed entering the room, if they had been rejoined in their +grief, until the family had first been gathered together with their +tears and their embraces. + +Then she wrote,--as she would have come in; and her letter, as +her visit would have been, was after a few words of tender +condolence,--and they were very sweet and tender, for Mrs. Megilp +knew how to lay phrases like illuminating gold-leaf upon her +meaning,--eminently practical and friendly, full of judicious, not +to say mitigating, suggestions. + +It was well, she thought, that Agatha and Florence were with her. +They had been spared so much; and perhaps if all this had happened +first, they might never have come. As to their return, she thought +it would be a pity; "it could not make it really any better for +you," she said; "and while your plans are unsettled, the fewer you +are, the more easily you will manage. It seems hard to shadow their +young lives more than is inevitable; and new scenes and interests +are the very best things for them; their year of mourning would be +fairly blotted out at home, you know. For yourself, poor friend, of +course you cannot care; and Desire and Helena are not much come +forward, but it would be a dead blank and stop to them, so much +lost, right out; and I feel as if it were a kind Providence for the +dear girls that they should be just where they are. We are living +quietly, inexpensively; it will cost no more to come home at one +time than at another;" etc. + +There are persons to whom the pastime of life is the whole business +of it; sickness and death and misfortune,--to say nothing of cares +and duties--are the interruptions, to be got rid of as they may. + +The next week came more letters; they had got a new idea out there. +Why should not Mrs. Ledwith and the others come and join them? They +were in Munich, now; the schools were splendid; would be just the +thing for Helena; and "it was time for mamma to have a rest." + +This thought, among the dozen others, had had its turn in Mrs. +Ledwith's head. To break away, and leave everything, that is the +impulse of natures like hers when things go hard and they cannot +shape them. Only to get off; if she could do that! + +Meanwhile, it was far different with Desire. + +She was suffering with a deeper pain; not with a sharper loss, for +she had seen so little of her father; but she looked in and back, +and thought of what she _ought_ to miss, and what had never been. + +She ought to have known her father better; his life ought to have +been more to her; was it her fault, or, harder yet, had it been his? +This is the sorest thrust of grief; when it is only shock, and pity, +and horror, and after these go by, not grief enough! + +The child wrestled with herself, as she always did, questioning, +arraigning. If she could make it all right, in the past, and now; if +she could feel that all she had to do was to be tenderly sorry, and +to love on through the darkness, she would not mind the dark; it +would be only a phase of the life,--the love. But to have lived her +life so far, to have had the relations of it, and yet _not_ to have +lived it, not to have been real child, real sister, not to be real +stricken daughter now, tasting the suffering just as God made it to +be tasted,--was she going through all things, even this, in a vain +shadow? _Would_ not life touch her? + +She went away back, strangely, and asked whether she had had any +business to be born? Whether it were a piece of God's truth at all, +that she and all of them should be, and call themselves a +household,--a home? The depth, the beauty of it were so unfulfilled! +What was wrong, and how far back? Living in the midst of +superficialities; in the noontide of a day of shams; putting her +hands forth and grasping, almost everywhere, nothing but thin, hard +surface,--she wondered how much of the world was real; how many came +into the world where, and as, God meant them to come. What it was to +"climb up some other way into the sheepfold," and to be a thief and +a robber, even of life! + +These were strange thoughts. Desire Ledwith was a strange girl. + +But into the midst there crept one comfort; there was one glimpse +out of the darkness into the daylight. + +Kenneth Kincaid came in often to see them,--to inquire; just now he +had frequent business in the city; he brought ferns and flowers, +that Dorris gathered and filled into baskets, fresh and damp with +moss. + +Dorris was a dear friend; she dwelt in the life and the brightness; +she reached forth and gathered, and turned and ministered again. The +ferns and flowers were messages; leaves out of God's living Word, +that she read, found precious, and sent on; apparitions, they +seemed standing forth to sense, and making sweet, true signs from +the inner realm of everlasting love and glory. + +And Kenneth,--Desire had never lost out of her heart those +words,--"Be strong,--be patient, dear!" + +He did not speak to her of himself; he could not demand +congratulation from her grief; he let it be until she should somehow +learn, and of her own accord, speak to him. + +So everybody let her alone, poor child, to her hurt. + +The news of the engagement was no Boston news; it was something that +had occurred, quietly enough, among a few people away up in Z----. +Of the persons who came in,--the few remaining in town,--nobody +happened to know or care. The Ripwinkleys did, of course; but Mrs. +Ripwinkley remembered last winter, and things she had read in +Desire's unconscious, undisguising face, and aware of nothing that +could be deepening the mischief now, thinking only of the sufficient +burden the poor child had to bear, thought kindly, "better not." + +Meanwhile Mrs. Ledwith was dwelling more and more upon the European +plan. She made up her mind, at last, to ask Uncle Titus. When all +was well, she would not seem to break a compact by going away +altogether, so soon, to leave him; but now,--he would see the +difference; perhaps advise it. She would like to know what he would +advise. After all that had happened,--everything so changed,--half +her family abroad,--what could she do? Would it not be more prudent +to join them, than to set up a home again without them, and keep +them out there? And all Helena's education to provide for, and +everything so cheap and easy there, and so dear and difficult here? + +"Now, tell me, truly, uncle, should you object? Should you take it +at all hard? I never meant to have left you, after all you have +done; but you see I have to break up, now poor Grant is gone; we +cannot live as we did before, even with what you do; and--for a +little while--it is cheaper there; and by and by we can come back +and make some other plan. Besides, I feel sometimes as if I _must_ +go off; as if there weren't anything left here for me." + +Poor woman! poor _girl_, still,--whose life had never truly taken +root! + +"I suppose," said Uncle Titus, soberly, "that God shines all round. +He's on this side as much as He is on that." + +Mrs. Ledwith looked up out of her handkerchief, with which at that +moment she had covered her eyes. + +"I never knew Uncle Titus was pious!" she said to herself. And her +astonishment dried her tears. + +He said nothing more that was pious, however; he simply assured her, +then and in conversations afterward, that he should take nothing +"hard;" he never expected to bind her, or put her on parole; he +chose to come to know his relatives, and he had done so; he had also +done what seemed to him right, in return for their meeting him half +way; they were welcome to it all, to take it and use it as they best +could, and as circumstances and their own judgment dictated. If they +went abroad, he should advise them to do it before the winter. + +These words implied consent, approval. Mrs. Ledwith went up-stairs +after them with a heart so much lightened that she was very nearly +cheerful. There would be a good deal to do now, and something to +look forward to; the old pulses of activity were quickened. She +could live with those faculties that had been always vital in her, +as people breathe with one live lung; but trouble and change had +wrought in her no deeper or further capacity; had wakened nothing +that had never been awake before. + +The house and furniture were to be sold; they would sail in +September. + +When Desire perceived that it was settled, she gave way; she had +said little before; her mother had had many plans, and they amused +her; she would not worry her with opposition; and besides, she was +herself in a secret dream of a hope half understood. + +It happened that she told it to Kenneth Kincaid herself; she saw +almost every one who came, instead of her mother; Mrs. Ledwith lived +in her own room chiefly. This was the way in which it had come +about, that nobody noticed or guessed how it was with Desire, and +what aspect Kenneth's friendship and kindness, in the simple history +of those few weeks, might dangerously grow to bear with her. + +Except one person. Luclarion Grapp, at last, made up her mind. + +Kenneth heard what Desire told him, as he heard all she ever had to +tell, with a gentle interest; comforted her when she said she could +not bear to go, with the suggestion that it might not be for very +long; and when she looked up in his face with a kind of strange, +pained wonder, and repeated,-- + +"But I cannot _bear_,--I tell you, I cannot _bear_ to go!" he +answered,-- + +"One can bear all that is right; and out of it the good will come +that we do not know. All times go by. I am sorry--very sorry--that +you must go; but there will be the coming back. We must all wait for +that." + +She did not know what she looked for; she did not know what she +expected him to mean; she expected nothing; the thought of his +preventing it in any way never entered into her head; she knew, if +she _had_ thought, how he himself was waiting, working. She only +wanted him to _care_. Was this caring? Much? She could not tell. + +"We never can come _back_," she said, impetuously. "There will be +all the time--everything--between." + +He almost spoke to her of it, then; he almost told her that the +everything might be more, not less; that friendships gathered, +multiplied; that there would be one home, he hoped, in which, by and +by, she would often be; in which she would always be a dear and +welcome comer. + +But she was so sad, so tried; his lips were held; in his pure, +honest kindness, he never dreamt of any harm that his silence might +do; it only seemed so selfish to tell her how bright it was with +him. + +So he said, smiling,-- + +"And who knows what the 'everything' may be?" And he took both her +hands in his as he said good-by,--for his little stops were of +minutes on his way, always,--and held them fast, and looked warmly, +hopefully into her face. + +It was all for her,--to give her hope and courage; but the light of +it was partly kindled by his own hope and gladness that lay behind; +and how could she know that, or read it right? It was at once too +much, and not enough, for her. + +Five minutes after, Luclarion Grapp went by the parlor door with a +pile of freshly ironed linen in her arms, on her way up-stairs. + +Desire lay upon the sofa, her face down upon the pillow; her arms +were thrown up, and her hands clasped upon the sofa-arm; her frame +shook with sobs. + +Luclarion paused for the time of half a step; then she went on. She +said to herself in a whisper, as she went,-- + +"It is a stump; a proper hard one! But there's nobody else; and I +have got to tell her!" + + * * * * * + +That evening, under some pretense of clean towels, Luclarion came up +into Desire's room. + +She was sitting alone, by the window, in the dark. + +Luclarion fussed round a little; wiped the marble slab and the +basin; set things straight; came over and asked Desire if she should +not put up the window-bars, and light the gas. + +"No," said Desire. "I like this best." + +So did Luclarion. She had only said it to make time. + +"Desire," she said,--she never put the "Miss" on, she had been too +familiar all her life with those she was familiar with at all,--"the +fact is I've got something to say, and I came up to say it." + +She drew near--came close,--and laid her great, honest, faithful +hand on the back of Desire Ledwith's chair, put the other behind her +own waist, and leaned over her. + +"You see, I'm a woman, Desire, and I know. You needn't mind me, I'm +an old maid; that's the way I do know. Married folks, even mothers, +half the time forget. But old maids never forget. I've had my +stumps, and I can see that you've got yourn. But you'd ought to +understand; and there's nobody, from one mistake and another, that's +going to tell you. It's awful hard; it will be a trouble to you at +first,"--and Luclarion's strong voice trembled tenderly with the +sympathy that her old maid heart had in it, after, and because of, +all those years,--"but Kenneth Kincaid"-- + +"_What_!" cried Desire, starting to her feet, with a sudden +indignation. + +"Is going to be married to Rosamond Holabird," said Luclarion, very +gently. "There! you ought to know, and I have told you." + +"What makes you suppose that that would be a trouble to me?" blazed +Desire. "How do you dare"-- + +"I didn't dare; but I had to!" sobbed Luclarion, putting her arms +right round her. + +And then Desire--as she would have done at any rate, for that blaze +was the mere flash of her own shame and pain--broke down with a +moan. + +"All at once! All at once!" she said piteously, and hid her face in +Luclarion's bosom. + +And Luclarion folded her close; hugged her, the good woman, in her +love that was sisterly and motherly and all, because it was the love +of an old maid, who had endured, for a young maid upon whom the +endurance was just laid,--and said, with the pity of heaven in the +words,-- + +"Yes. All at once. But the dear Lord stands by. Take hold of His +hand,--and bear with all your might!" + + + + +XIX. + +INSIDE. + + +"Do you think, Luclarion," said Desire, feebly, as Luclarion came to +take away her bowl of chicken broth,--"that it is my _duty_ to go +with mamma?" + +"I don't know," said Luclarion, standing with the little waiter in +her right hand, her elbow poised upon her hip,--"I've thought of +that, and I _don't_ know. There's most generally a stump, you see, +one way or another, and that settles it, but here there's one both +ways. I've kinder lost my road: come to two blazes, and can't tell +which. Only, it ain't my road, after all. It lays between the Lord +and you, and I suppose He means it shall. Don't you worry; there'll +be some sort of a sign, inside or out. That's His business, you've +just got to keep still, and get well." + +Desire had asked her mother, before this, if she would care very +much,--no, she did not mean that,--if she would be disappointed, or +disapprove, that she should stay behind. + +"Stay behind? Not go to Europe? Why, where _could_ you stay? What +would you do?" + +"There would be things to do, and places to stay," Desire had +answered, constrainedly. "I could do like Dorris." + +"Teach music!" + +"No. I don't know music. But I might teach something I do know. Or I +could--rip," she said, with an odd smile, remembering something she +had said one day so long ago; the day the news came up to Z---- +from Uncle Oldways. "And I might make out to put together for other +people, and for a real business. I never cared to do it just for +myself." + +"It is perfectly absurd," said Mrs Ledwith. "You couldn't be left to +take care of yourself. And if you could, how it would look! No; of +course you must go with us." + +"But do you _care_?" + +"Why, if there were any proper way, and if you really hate so to +go,--but there isn't," said Mrs. Ledwith, not very grammatically or +connectedly. + +"She _doesn't_ care," said Desire to herself, after her mother had +left her, turning her face to the pillow, upon which two tears ran +slowly down. "And that is my fault, too, I suppose. I have never +been _anything_!" + +Lying there, she made up her mind to one thing. She would get Uncle +Titus to come, and she would talk to him. + +"He won't encourage me in any notions," she said to herself. "And I +mean now, if I can find it out, to do the thing God means; and then +I suppose,--I _believe_,--the snarl will begin to unwind." + +Meanwhile, Luclarion, when she had set a nice little bowl of +tea-muffins to rise, and had brought up a fresh pitcher of ice-water +into Desire's room, put on her bonnet and went over to Aspen Street +for an hour. + +Down in the kitchen, at Mrs. Ripwinkley's, they were having a nice +time. + +Their girl had gone. Since Luclarion left, they had fallen into that +Gulf-stream which nowadays runs through everybody's kitchen. Girls +came, and saw, and conquered in their fashion; they muddled up, and +went away. + +The nice times were in the intervals when they _had_ gone away. + +Mrs. Ripwinkley did not complain; it was only her end of the +"stump;" why should she expect to have a Luclarion Grapp to serve +her all her life? + +This last girl had gone as soon as she found out that Sulie Praile +was "no relation, and didn't anyways belong there, but had been took +in." She "didn't go for to come to work in an _Insecution_. She had +always been used to first-class private families." + +Girls will not stand any added numbers, voluntarily assumed, or even +involuntarily befalling; they will assist in taking up no new +responsibilities; to allow things to remain as they are, and cannot +help being, is the depth of their condescension,--the extent of what +they will put up with. There must be a family of some sort, of +course, or there would not be a "place;" that is what the family is +made for; but it must be established, no more to fluctuate; that is, +you may go away, some of you, if you like, or you may die; but +nobody must come home that has been away, and nobody must be born. +As to anybody being "took in!" Why, the girl defined it; it was not +being a family, but an _Insecution_. + +So the three--Diana, and Hazel, and Sulie--were down in the kitchen; +Mrs. Ripwinkley was busy in the dining-room close by; there was a +berry-cake to be mixed up for an early tea. Diana was picking over +the berries, Hazel was chopping the butter into the flour, and Sulie +on a low cushioned seat in a corner--there was one kept ready for +her in every room in the house, and Hazel and Diana carried her +about in an "arm-chair," made of their own clasped hands and wrists, +wherever they all wanted to go,--Sulie was beating eggs. + +Sulie did that so patiently; you see she had no temptation to jump +up and run off to anything else. The eggs turned, under her +fingers, into thick, creamy, golden froth, fine to the last possible +divisibility of the little air-bubbles. + +They could not do without Sulie now. They had had her for "all +winter;" but in that winter she had grown into their home. + +"Why," said Hazel to her mother, when they had the few words about +it that ended in there being no more words at all,--"that's the way +children are _born_ into houses, isn't it? They just come; and +they're new and strange at first, and seem so queer. And then after +a while you can't think how the places were, and they not in them. +Sulie belongs, mother!" + +So Sulie beat eggs, and darned stockings, and painted her lovely +little flower-panels and racks and easels, and did everything that +could be done, sitting still in her round chair, or in the cushioned +corners made for her; and was always in the kitchen, above all, when +any pretty little cookery was going forward. + +Vash ran in and out from the garden, and brought balsamine blossoms, +from which she pulled the little fairy slippers, and tried to match +them in pairs; and she picked off the "used-up and puckered-up" +morning glories, which she blew into at the tube-end, and "snapped" +on the back of her little brown hand. + +Wasn't that being good for anything, while berry-cake was making? +The girls thought it was; as much as the balsamine blossoms were +good for anything, or the brown butterflies with golden spots on +their wings, that came and lived among them. The brown butterflies +were a "piece of the garden;" little brown Vash was a piece of the +house. Besides, she would eat some of the berry-cake when it was +made; wasn't that worth while? She would have a "little teenty one" +baked all for herself in a tin pepper-pot cover. Isn't that the +special pleasantness of making cakes where little children are? + +Vash was always ready for an "Aaron," too; they could not do without +her, any more than without Sulie. Pretty soon, when Diana should +have left school, and Vash should be a little bigger, they meant to +"coöperate," as the Holabirds had done at Westover. + +Of course, they knew a great deal about the Holabirds by this time. +Hazel had stayed a week with Dorris at Miss Waite's; and one of +Witch Hazel's weeks among "real folks" was like the days or hours in +fairy land, that were years on the other side. She found out so much +and grew so close to people. + +Hazel and Ruth Holabird were warm friends. And Hazel was to be +Ruth's bridesmaid, by and by! + +For Ruth Holabird was going to be married to Dakie Thayne. + +"That seemed so funny," Hazel said. "Ruth didn't _look_ any older +than she did; and Mr. Dakie Thayne was such a nice boy!" + +He was no less a man, either; he had graduated among the first three +at West Point; he was looking earnestly for the next thing that he +should do in life with his powers and responsibilities; he did not +count his marrying a _separate_ thing; that had grown up alongside +and with the rest; of course he could do nothing without Ruth; that +was just what he had told her; and she,--well Ruth was always a +sensible little thing, and it was just as plain to her as it was to +him. Of course she must help him think and plan; and when the plans +were made, it would take two to carry them out; why, yes, they must +be married. What other way would there be? + +That wasn't what she _said_, but that was the quietly natural and +happy way in which it grew to be a recognized thing in her mind, +that pleasant summer after he came straight home to them with his +honors and his lieutenant's commission in the Engineers; and his +hearty, affectionate taking-for-granted; and it was no surprise or +question with her, only a sure and very beautiful "rightness," when +it came openly about. + +Dakie Thayne was a man; the beginning of a very noble one; but it is +the noblest men that always keep a something of the boy. If you had +not seen anything more of Dakie Thayne until he should be forty +years old, you would then see something in him which would be +precisely the same that it was at Outledge, seven years ago, with +Leslie Goldthwaite, and among the Holabirds at Westover, in his +first furlough from West Point. + +Luclarion came into the Ripwinkley kitchen just as the cakes--the +little pepper-pot one and all--were going triumphantly into the +oven, and Hazel was baring her little round arms to wash the dishes, +while Diana tended the pans. + +Mrs. Ripwinkley heard her old friend's voice, and came out. + +"That girl ought to be here with you; or somewheres else than where +she is, or is likely to be took," said Luclarion, as she looked +round and sat down, and untied her bonnet-strings. + +Miss Grapp hated bonnet-strings; she never endured them a minute +longer than she could help. + +"Desire?" asked Mrs. Ripwinkley, easily comprehending. + +"Yes; Desire. I tell you she has a hard row to hoe, and she wants +comforting. She wants to know if it is her duty to go to Yourup with +her mother. Now it may be her duty to be _willing_ to go; but it +ain't anybody's else duty to let her. That's what came to me as I +was coming along. I couldn't tell _her_ so, you see, because it +would interfere with her part; and that's all in the tune as much as +any; only we've got to chime in with our parts at the right stroke, +the Lord being Leader. Ain't that about it, Mrs. Ripwinkley?" + +"If we are sure of the score, and can catch the sign," said Mrs. +Ripwinkley, thoughtfully. + +"Well, I've sung mine; it's only one note; I may have to keep +hammering on it; that's according to how many repeats there are to +be. Mr. Oldways, he ought to know, for one. Amongst us, we have got +to lay our heads together, and work it out. She's a kind of an odd +chicken in that brood; and my belief is she's like the ugly duck +Hazel used to read about. But she ought to have a chance; if she's a +swan, she oughtn't to be trapesed off among the weeds and on the dry +ground. 'Tisn't even ducks she's hatched with; they don't take to +the same element." + +"I'll speak to Uncle Titus, and I will think," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. + +But before she did that, that same afternoon by the six o'clock +penny post, a little note went to Mr. Oldways:-- + + "DEAR UNCLE TITUS,-- + + "I want to talk with you a little. If I were well, I should + come to see you in your study. Will you come up here, and see + me in my room? + + "Yours sincerely, DESIRE LEDWITH." + +Uncle Titus liked that. It counted upon something in him which few +had the faith to count upon; which, truly he gave few people reason +to expect to find. + +He put his hat directly on, took up his thick brown stick, and +trudged off, up Borden Street to Shubarton Place. + +When Luclarion let him in, he told her with some careful emphasis, +that he had come to see Desire. + +"Ask her if I shall come up," he said. "I'll wait down here." + +Helena was practicing in the drawing-room. Mrs. Ledwith lay, half +asleep, upon a sofa. The doors into the hall were shut,--Luclarion +had looked to that, lest the playing should disturb Desire. + +Luclarion was only gone three minutes. Then she came back, and led +Mr. Oldways up three flights of stairs. + +"It's a long climb, clear from the door," she said. + +"I can climb," said Mr. Oldways, curtly. + +"I didn't expect it was going to stump _you_," said Luclarion, just +as short in her turn. "But I thought I'd be polite enough to mention +it." + +There came a queer little chuckling wheeze from somewhere, like a +whispered imitation of the first few short pants of a steam-engine: +that was Uncle Titus, laughing to himself. + +Luclarion looked down behind her, out of the corner of her eyes, as +she turned the landing. Uncle Titus's head was dropped between his +shoulders, and his shoulders were shaking up and down. But he kept +his big stick clutched by the middle, in one hand, and the other +just touched the rail as he went up. Uncle Titus was not out of +breath. Not he. He could laugh and climb. + +Desire was sitting up for a little while, before going to bed again +for the night. There was a low gas-light burning by the +dressing-table, ready to turn up when the twilight should be gone; +and a street lamp, just lighted, shone across into the room. +Luclarion had been sitting with her, and her gray knitting-work lay +upon the chair that she offered when she had picked it up, to Mr. +Oldways. Then she went away and left them to their talk. + +"Mrs. Ripwinkley has been spry about it," she said to herself, going +softly down the stairs. "But she always was spry." + +"You're getting well, I hope," said Uncle Titus, seating himself, +after he had given Desire his hand. + +"I suppose so," said Desire, quietly. "That was why I wanted to see +you. I want to know what I ought to do when I am well." + +"How can I tell?" asked Uncle Titus, bluntly. + +"Better than anybody I can ask. The rest are all too sympathizing. I +am afraid they would tell me as I wish they should." + +"And I don't sympathize? Well, I don't think I do much. I haven't +been used to it." + +"You have been used to think what was right; and I believe you would +tell me truly. I want to know whether I ought to go to Europe with +my mother." + +"Why not? Doesn't she want you to go?"--and Uncle Titus was sharp +this time. + +"I suppose so; that is, I suppose she expects I will. But I don't +know that I should be much except a hindrance to her. And I think I +could stay and do something here, in some way. Uncle Titus, I hate +the thought of going to Europe! Now, don't you suppose I ought to +go?" + +"_Why_ do you hate the thought of going to Europe?" asked Uncle +Titus, regarding her with keenness. + +"Because I have never done anything real in all my life!" broke +forth Desire. "And this seems only plastering and patching what +can't be patched. I want to take hold of something. I don't want to +float round any more. What is there left of all we have ever tried +to do, all these years? Of all my poor father's work, what is there +to show for it now? It has all melted away as fast as it came, like +snow on pavements; and now his life has melted away; and I feel as +if we had never been anything real to each other! Uncle Titus, I +can't tell you _how_ I feel!" + +Uncle Titus sat very still. His hat was in one hand, and both +together held his cane, planted on the floor between his feet. Over +hat and cane leaned his gray head, thoughtfully. If Desire could +have seen his eyes, she would have found in them an expression that +she had never supposed could be there at all. + +She had not so much spoken _to_ Uncle Titus, in these last words of +hers, as she had irresistibly spoken _out_ that which was in her. +She wanted Uncle Titus's good common sense and sense of right to +help her decide; but the inward ache and doubt and want, out of +which grew her indecisions,--these showed themselves forth at that +moment simply because they must, with no expectation of a response +from him. It might have been a stone wall that she cried against; +she would have cried all the same. + +Then it was over, and she was half ashamed, thinking it was of no +use, and he would not understand; perhaps that he would only set the +whole down to nerves and fidgets and contrariness, and give her no +common sense that she wanted, after all. + +But Uncle Titus spoke, slowly; much as if he, too, were speaking out +involuntarily, without thought of his auditor. People do so speak, +when the deep things are stirred; they speak into the deep that +answereth unto itself,--the deep that reacheth through all souls, +and all living, whether souls feel into it and know of it or not. + +"The real things are inside," he said. "The real world is the inside +world. _God_ is not up, nor down, but in the _midst_." + +Then he looked up at Desire. + +"What is real of your life is living inside you now. That is +something. Look at it and see what it is." + +"Discontent. Misery. Failure." + +"_Sense_ of failure. Well. Those are good things. The beginning of +better. Those are _live_ things, at any rate." + +Desire had never thought of that. + +Now _she_ sat still awhile. + +Then she said,--"But we can't _be_ much, without doing it. I suppose +we are put into a world of outsides for something." + +"Yes. To find out what it means. That's the inside of it. And to +help make the outside agree with the in, so that it will be easier +for other people to find out. That is the 'kingdom come and will be +done, on earth as it is in heaven.' Heaven is the inside,--the truth +of things." + +"Why, I never knew"--began Desire, astonished. She had almost +finished aloud, as her mother had done in her own mind. She never +knew that Uncle Oldways was "pious." + +"Never knew that was what it meant? What else can it mean? What do +you suppose the resurrection was, or is?" + +Desire answered with a yet larger look of wonder, only in the dim +light it could not be wholly seen. + +"The raising up of the dead; Christ coming up out of the tomb." + +"The coming out of the tomb was a small part of it; just what could +not help being, if the rest was. Jesus Christ rose out of dead +_things_, I take it, into these very real ones that we are talking +of, and so lived in them. The resurrection is a man's soul coming +alive to the soul of creation--God's soul. _That_ is eternal life, +and what Jesus of Nazareth was born to show. Our coming to that is +our being 'raised with Him;' and it begins, or ought to, a long way +this side the tomb. If people would only read the New Testament, +expecting to get as much common sense and earnest there as they do +among the new lights and little 'progressive-thinkers' that are +trying to find it all out over again, they might spare these +gentlemen and themselves a great deal of their trouble." + +The exclamation rose half-way to her lips again,--"I never knew you +thought like this. I never heard you talk of these things before!" + +But she held it back, because she would not stop him by reminding +him that he _was_ talking. It was just the truth that was saying +itself. She must let it say on, while it would. + +"Un--" + +She stopped there, at the first syllable. She would not even call +him "Uncle Titus" again, for fear of recalling him to himself, and +hushing him up. + +"There is something--isn't there--about those who _attain_ to that +resurrection; those who are _worthy_? I suppose there must be some +who are just born to this world, then, and never--'born again?'" + +"It looks like it, sometimes; who can tell?" + +"Uncle Oldways,"--it came out this time in her earnestness, and her +strong personal appeal,--"do you think there are some people--whole +families of people--who have no business in the reality of things +to be at all? Who are all a mistake in the world, and have nothing +to do with its meaning? I have got to feeling sometimes lately, as +if--_I_--had never had any business to be." + +She spoke slowly--awe-fully. It was a strange speech for a girl in +her nineteenth year. But she was a girl in this nineteenth century, +also; and she had caught some of the thoughts and questions of it, +and mixed them up with her own doubts and unsatisfactions which they +could not answer. + +"The world is full of mistakes; mistakes centuries long; but it is +full of salvation and setting to rights, also. 'The kingdom of +heaven is like leaven, which a woman hid in three measures of meal +till the whole was leavened.' You have been _allowed_ to be, Desire +Ledwith. And so was the man that was born blind. And I think there +is a colon put into the sentence about him, where a comma was meant +to be." + +Desire did not ask him, then, what he meant; but she turned to the +story after he had gone, and found this:-- + +"Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents, but that the works +of God should be manifest in him." + +You can see, if you look also, where she took the colon out, and put +the comma in. + +Were all the mistakes--the sins, even--for the very sake of the pure +blessedness and the more perfect knowledge of the setting right? + +Desire began to think that Uncle Oldways' theology might help her. + +What she said to him now was,-- + +"I want to do something. I should like to go and live with +Luclarion, I think, down there in Neighbor Street. I should like to +take hold of some other lives,--little children's, perhaps,"--and +here Desire's voice softened,--"that don't seem to have any business +to be, either, and see if I could help or straighten anything. Then +I feel is if I should know." + +"Then--according to the Scripture--you _would_ know. But--that's +undertaking a good deal. Luclarion Grapp has got there; but she has +been fifty-odd years upon the road. And she has been doing real +things all the time. That's what has brought her there. You can't +boss the world's hard jobs till you've been a journeyman at the easy +ones." + +"And I've missed my apprenticeship!" said Desire, with changed voice +and face, falling back into her disheartenment again. + +"No!" Uncle Oldways almost shouted. "Not if you come to the Master +who takes in the eleventh hour workers. And it isn't the eleventh +hour with you,--_child_!" + +He dwelt on that word "child," reminding her of her short mistaking +and of the long retrieval. Her nineteen years and the forever and +ever contrasted themselves before her suddenly, in the light of +hope. + +She turned sharply, though, to look at her duty. Her journeyman's +duty of easy things. + +"Must I go to Europe with my mother?" she asked again, the +conversation coming round to just that with which it had begun. + +"I'll talk with your mother," said Uncle Oldways, getting up and +looking into his hat, as a man always does when he thinks of putting +it on presently. "Good-night. I suppose you are tired enough now. +I'll come again and see you." + +Desire stood up and gave him her hand. + +"I thank you, Uncle Titus, with all my heart." + +He did not answer her a word; but he knew she meant it. + +He did not stop that night to see his niece. He went home, to think +it over. But as he walked down Borden Street, swinging his big +stick, he said to himself,-- + +"Next of kin! Old Marmaduke Wharne was right. But it takes more than +the Family Bible to tell you which it is!" + +Two days after, he had a talk with Mrs. Ledwith which relieved both +their minds. + +From the brown-and-apricot drawing-room,--from among the things +that stood for nothing now, and had never stood for home,--he went +straight up, without asking, and knocked at Desire's third-story +door. + +"Come in!" she said, without a note of expectation in her voice. + +She had had a dull morning. Helena had brought her a novel from +Loring's that she could not read. Novels, any more than life, cannot +be read with very much patience, unless they touch something besides +surface. Why do critics--some of them--make such short, smart +work,--such cheerful, confident despatch, nowadays, of a story with +religion in it, as if it were an abnormity,--a thing with sentence +of death in itself, like a calf born with two heads,--that needs not +their trouble, save to name it as it is? Why, that is, if religion +stand for the relation of things to spirit, which I suppose it +should? Somebody said that somebody had written a book made up of +"spiritual struggles and strawberry short-cake." That was bright and +funny; and it seemed to settle the matter; but, taking strawberry +short-cake representatively, what else is human experience on earth +made up of? And are novels to be pictures of human experience, or +not? + +This has nothing to do with present matters, however, except that +Desire found nothing real in her novel, and so had flung it aside, +and was sitting rather listlessly with her crochet which she never +cared much for, when Uncle Oldways entered. + +Her face brightened instantly as he came in. He sat down just where +he had sat the other night. Mr. Oldways had a fashion of finding the +same seat a second time when he had come in once; he was a man who +took up most things where he left them off, and this was an +unconscious sign of it. + +"Your mother has decided to sell the house on the 23d, it seems," he +said. + +"Yes; I have been out twice. I shall be able to go away by then; I +suppose that is all she has waited for." + +"Do you think you could be contented to come and live with me?" + +"Come and _live_?" + +"Yes. And let your mother and Helena go to Europe." + +"O, Uncle Oldways! I think I could _rest_ there! But I don't want +only to rest, you know. I must do something. For myself, to begin +with. I have made up my mind not to depend upon my mother. Why +should I, any more than a boy? And I am sure I cannot depend on +anybody else." + +These were Desire Ledwith's thanks; and Mr. Oldways liked them. She +did not say it to please him; she thought it seemed almost +ungrateful and unwilling; but she was so intent on taking up life +for herself. + +"You must have a place to do in,--or from," said Mr. Oldways. "And +it is better you should be under some protection. You must consent +to that for your mother's sake. How much money have you got?" + +"Two hundred and fifty dollars a year. Of my own." + +This was coming to business and calculation and common sense. Desire +was encouraged. Uncle Oldways did not think her quite absurd. + +"That will clothe you,--without much fuss and feathers?" + +"I have done with fuss and feathers,"--Desire said with a grave +smile, glancing at her plain white wrapper and the black shawl that +was folded around her. + +"Then come where is room for you and a welcome, and do as much more +as you please, and can, for yourself, or for anybody else. I won't +give you a cent; you shall have something to do for me, if you +choose. I am an old man now, and want help. Perhaps what I want as +much as anything is what I've been all my life till lately, pretty +obstinate in doing without." + +Uncle Oldways spoke short, and drew his breath in and puffed it out +between his sentences, in his bluff way; but his eyes were kind, as +he sat looking at the young girl over his hat and cane. + +She thought of the still, gray parlor; of Rachel Froke and her face +of peace; and the Quaker meeting and the crumbs last year; of Uncle +Oldways' study, and his shelves rich with books; of the new +understanding that had begun between herself and him, and the faith +she had found out, down beneath his hard reserves; of the beautiful +neighborhood, Miss Craydocke's Beehive, Aunt Franks' cheery home and +the ways of it, and Hazel's runnings in and out. It seemed as if the +real things had opened for her, and a place been made among them in +which she should have "business to be," and from which her life +might make a new setting forth. + +"And mamma knows?" she said, inquiringly, after that long pause. + +"Yes. I told you I would talk with her. That is what we came to. It +is only for you to say, now." + +"I will come. I shall be glad to come!" And her face was full of +light as she looked up and said it. + + * * * * * + +Desire never thought for a moment of what her mother could not help +thinking of; of what Mrs. Megilp thought and said, instantly, when +she learned it three weeks later. + +It is wonderful how abiding influence is,--even influence to which +we are secretly superior,--if ever we have been subjected to, or +allowed ourselves to be swayed by it. The veriest tyranny of +discipline grows into one's conscience, until years after, when life +has got beyond the tyranny, conscience,--or something superinduced +upon it,--keeps up the echo of the old mandates, and one can take no +comfort in doing what one knows all the time one has a perfect +right, besides sound reason, to do. It was a great while before our +grandmothers' daughters could peaceably stitch and overcast a seam, +instead of over-sewing and felling it. I know women who feel to this +moment as if to sit down and read a book of a week-day, in the +daytime, were playing truant to the needle, though all the +sewing-machines on the one hand, and all the demand and supply of +mental culture on the other, of this present changed and bettered +time, protest together against the absurdity. + +Mrs. Ledwith had heard the Megilp precepts and the Megilp +forth-putting of things, until involuntarily everything showed +itself to her in a Megilp light. The Megilp "sense of duty," +therefore, came up as she unhesitatingly assented to Uncle Oldways' +proposal and request. He wanted Desire; of course she could not say +a word; she owed him something, which she was glad she could so make +up; and secretly there whispered in her mind the suggestion which +Mrs. Megilp, on the other side of the water, spoke right out. + +"If he wants her, he must mean something by her. He is an old man; +he might not live to give her back into her mother's keeping; what +would she do there, in that old house of his, if he should die, +unless--he _does_ mean something? He has taken a fancy to her; she +is odd, as he is; and he isn't so queer after all, but that his +crotchets have a good, straightforward sense of justice in them. +Uncle Titus knows what he is about; and what's more, just what he +ought to be about. It is a good thing to have Desire provided for; +she is uncomfortable and full of notions, and she isn't likely ever +to be married." + +So Desire was given up, easily, she could not help feeling; but she +knew she had been a puzzle and a vexation to her mother, and that +Mrs. Ledwith had never had the least idea what to do with her; least +of all had she now, what she should do with her abroad. + +"It was so much better for her that Uncle Titus had taken her home." +With these last words Mrs. Ledwith reassured herself and cheered her +child. + +Perhaps it would have been the same--it came into Desire's head, +that would conceive strange things--if the angels had taken her. + +Mrs. Ledwith went to New York; she stayed a few days with Mrs. +Macmichael, who wanted her to buy lace for her in Brussels and +Bohemian glass in Prague; then a few days more with her cousin, +Geraldine Raxley; and then the _City of Antwerp_ sailed. + + + + +XX. + +NEIGHBORS AND NEXT OF KIN. + + +"I'll tell you what to do with them, Luclarion," said Hazel briskly. +"Teach them to play." + +"Music! Pianners!" exclaimed Luclarion, dismayed. + +"No. Games. Teach them to have good times. That was the first thing +ever we learnt, wasn't it, Dine? And we never could have got along +without it." + +"It takes _you_!" said Luclarion, looking at Hazel with delighted +admiration. + +"Does it? Well I don't know but it does. May I go, mother? +Luclarion, haven't you got a great big empty room up at the top of +the house?" + +Luclarion had. + +"That's just what it's for, then. Couldn't Mr. Gallilee put up a +swing? And a 'flying circle' in the middle? You see they can't go +out on the roofs; so they must have something else that will seem +kind of flighty. And _I'll_ tell you how they'll learn their +letters. Sulie and I will paint 'em; great big ones, all colors; and +hang 'em up with ribbons, and every child that learns one, so as to +know it everywhere, shall take it down and carry it home. Then we +will have marbles for numbers; and they shall play addition games, +and multiplication games, and get the sums for prizes; the ones that +get to the head, you know. Why, you don't understand _objects_, +Luclarion!" + +Luclarion had been telling them of the wild little folk of Neighbor +Street, and worse, of Arctic Street. She wanted to do something with +them. She had tried to get them in with gingerbread and popcorn; +they came in fast enough for those; but they would not stay. They +were digging in the gutters and calling names; learning the foul +language of the places into which they were born; chasing and hiding +in alley-ways; filching, if they could, from shops; going off +begging with lies on their lips. It was terrible to see the springs +from which the life of the city depths was fed. + +"If you could stop it _there_!" Luclarion said, and said with +reason. + +"Will you let me go?" asked Hazel of her mother, in good earnest. + +"'Twon't hurt her," put in Luclarion. "Nothing's catching that you +haven't got the seeds of in your own constitution. And so the +catching will be the other way." + +The seeds of good,--to catch good; that was what Luclarion Grapp +believed in, in those dirty little souls,--no, those clean little +_souls_, overlaid with all outward mire and filth of body, clothing, +speech, and atmosphere, for a mile about; through which they could +no more grope and penetrate, to reach their own that was hidden from +them in the clearer life beyond, than we can grope and reach to +other stars. + +"I will get Desire," quoth Hazel, inspired as she always was, both +ways. + +Running in at the house in Greenley Street the next Thursday, she +ran against Uncle Titus coming out. + +"What now?" he demanded. + +"Desire," said Hazel. "I've come for her. We're wanted at +Luclarion's. We've got work to do." + +"Humph! Work? What kind?" + +"Play," said Hazel, laughing. She delighted to bother and mystify +Uncle Titus, and imagined that she did. + +"I thought so. Tea parties?" + +"Something like," said Hazel. "There are children down there that +don't know how to grow up. They haven't any comfortable sort of +fashion of growing up. Somebody has got to teach them. They don't +know how to play 'Grand Mufti,' and they never heard of 'King George +and his troops.' Luclarion tried to make them sit still and learn +letters; but of course they wouldn't a minute longer than the +gingerbread lasted, and they are eating her out of house and home. +It will take young folks, and week-days, you see; so Desire and I +are going." And Hazel ran up the great, flat-stepped staircase. + +"Lives that have no business to be," said Uncle Titus to himself, +going down the brick walk. "The Lord has His own ways of bringing +lives together. And His own business gets worked out among them, +beyond their guessing. When a man grows old, he can stand still now +and then, and see a little." + +It was a short cross street that Luclarion lived in, between two +great thoroughfares crowded with life and business, bustle, +drudgery, idleness, and vice. You will not find the name I give +it,--although you may find one that will remind you of it,--in any +directory or on any city map. But you can find the places without +the names; and if you go down there with the like errands in your +heart, you will find the work, as she found it, to do. + +She heard the noise of street brawls at night, voices of men and +women quarreling in alley-ways, and up in wretched garrets; flinging +up at each other, in horrible words, all the evil they knew of in +each other's lives,--"away back," Luclarion said, "to when they were +little children." + +"And what is it," she would say to Mrs. Ripwinkley telling her +about it, "that _flings_ it up, and can call it a shame, after all +the shames of years and years? Except just _that_ that the little +children _were_, underneath, when the Lord let them--He knows +why--be born so? I tell you, ma'am, it's a mystery; and the nigher +you come to it, the more it is; it's a piece of hell and a piece of +heaven; it's the wrastle of the angel and the dragon; and it's going +on at one end, while they're building up their palaces and living +soft and sweet and clean at the other, with everything hushed up +that can't at least _seem_ right and nice and proper. I know there's +good folks there, in the palaces; _beautiful_ folks; there, and all +the way down between; with God's love in them, and His hate, that is +holy, against sin; and His pity, that is _prayers_ in them, for all +people and places that are dark; but if they would _come down_ +there, and take hold! I think it's them that would, that might have +part in the first resurrection, and live and reign the thousand +years." + +Luclarion never counted herself among them,--those who were to have +thrones and judgments; she forgot, even, that she had gone down and +taken hold; her words came burning-true, out of her soul; and in the +heat of truth they were eloquent. + +But I meant to tell you of her living. + +In the daytime it was quiet; the gross evils crept away and hid from +the sunshine; there was labor to take up the hours, for those who +did labor; and you might not know or guess, to go down those +avenues, that anything worse gathered there than the dust of the +world's traffic that the lumbering drays ground up continually with +their wheels, and the wind,--that came into the city from far away +country places of green sweetness, and over hills and ponds and +streams and woods,--flung into the little children's faces. + +Luclarion had taken a house,--one of two, that fronted upon a +little planked court; aside, somewhat, from Neighbor Street, as that +was a slight remove from the absolute terrible contact of Arctic +Street. But it was in the heart of that miserable quarter; she could +reach out her hands and touch and gather in, if it would let her, +the wretchedness. She had chosen a place where it was possible for +her to make a nook of refuge, not for herself only, or so much, as +for those to whom she would fain be neighbor, and help to a better +living. + +It had been once a dwelling of some well-to-do family of the days +gone by; of some merchant, whose ventures went out and came in at +those wharves below, whence the air swept up pure, then, with its +salt smell, into the streets. The rooms were fairly large; Luclarion +spent money out of her own little property, that had been growing by +care and saving till she could spare from it, in doing her share +toward having it all made as sweet and clean as mortar and whitewash +and new pine-boards and paint and paper could make it. All that was +left of the old, they scoured with carbolic soap; and she had the +windows opened, and in the chimneys that had been swept of their +soot she had clear fires made and kept burning for days. + +Then she put her new, plain furnishings into her own two down-stairs +rooms; and the Gallilees brought in theirs above; and beside them, +she found two decent families,--a German paper-hanger's, and that of +a carpenter at one of the theatres, whose wife worked at +dressmaking,--to take the rest. Away up, at the very top, she had +the wide, large room that Hazel spoke of, and a smaller one to which +she climbed to sleep, for the sake of air as near heaven as it could +be got. + +One of her lower-rooms was her living and housekeeping room; the +other she turned into a little shop, in which she sold tapes and +needles and cheap calicoes and a few ribbons; and kept a counter on +the opposite side for bread and yeast, gingerbread, candy, and the +like. She did this partly because she must do something to help out +the money for her living and her plans, and partly to draw the women +and children in. How else could she establish any relations between +herself and them, or get any permanent hold or access? She had +"turned it all over in her mind," she said; "and a tidy little shop +with fair, easy prices, was the very thing, and a part of just what +she came down there to do." + +She made real, honest, hop-raised bread, of sweet flour that she +gave ten dollars a barrel for; it took a little more than a pint, +perhaps, to make a tea loaf; that cost her three cents; she sold her +loaf for four, and it was better than they could get anywhere else +for five. Then, three evenings in a week, she had hot muffins, or +crumpets, home-made; (it was the subtle home touch and flavor that +she counted on, to carry more than a good taste into their mouths, +even a dim notion of home sweetness and comfort into their hearts;) +these first,--a quart of flour at five cents, two eggs at a cent +apiece, and a bit of butter, say three cents more, with three cents +worth of milk, made an outlay of fifteen cents for a dozen and a +half; so she sold them for ten cents a dozen, and the like had never +been tasted or dreamed of in all that region round about; no, nor I +dare almost to say, in half the region round about Republic Avenue +either, where they cannot get Luclarion Grapps to cook. + +The crumpets were cheaper; they were only bread-sponge, baked on a +griddle; they were large, and light and tender; a quart of flour +would make ten; she gave the ten for seven cents. + +And do you see, putting two cents on every quart of her flour, for +her labor, she _earned_, not _made_,--that word is for speculators +and brokers,--with a barrel of one hundred and ninety six pounds or +quarts, three dollars and ninety-two cents? The beauty of it was, +you perceive, that she did a small business; there was an eager +market for all she could produce, and there was no waste to allow a +margin for. + +I am not a bit of a political economist myself; but I have a shrewd +suspicion that Luclarion Grapp was, besides having hit upon the +initial, individual idea of a capital social and philanthropic +enterprise. + +This was all she tried to do at first; she began with bread; the +Lord from heaven began with that; she fed as much of the multitude +as she could reach; they gathered about her for the loaves; and they +got, consciously or unconsciously, more than they came or asked for. + +They saw her clean-swept floor; her netted windows that kept the +flies out, the clean, coarse white cotton shades,--tacked up, and +rolled and tied with cord, country-fashion, for Luclarion would not +set any fashions that her poor neighbors might not follow if they +would;--and her shelves kept always dusted down; they could see her +way of doing that, as they happened in at different times, when she +whisked about, lightly and nicely, behind and between her jars and +boxes and parcels with the little feather duster that she kept +hanging over her table where she made her change and sat at her +sewing. + +They grew ashamed by degrees,--those coarse women,--to come in in +their frowsy rags, to buy her delicate muffins or her white loaves; +they would fling on the cleanest shawl they had or could borrow, to +"cut round to Old Maid Grapp's," after a cent's worth of yeast,--for +her yeast, also, was like none other that could be got, and would +_almost_ make her own beautiful bread of itself. + +Back of the shop was her house-room; the cheapest and cleanest of +carpet,--a square, bound round with bright-striped carpet-binding,--laid +in the middle of a clean dark yellow floor; a plain pine table, scoured +white, standing in the middle of that; on it, at tea-time, common blue +and white crockery cups and plates, and a little black teapot; a napkin, +coarse, but fresh from the fold, laid down to save, and at the same +time to set off, with a touch of delicate neatness, the white table; +a wooden settee, with a home-made calico-covered cushion and pillows, +set at right angles with the large, black, speckless stove; a wooden +rocking-chair, made comfortable in like manner, on the other side; the +sink in the corner, clean, freshly rinsed, with the bright tin basin +hung above it on a nail. + +There was nothing in the whole place that must not be, in some +shape, in almost the poorest; but all so beautifully ordered, so +stainlessly kept. Through that open door, those women read a daily +sermon. + +And Luclarion herself,--in a dark cotton print gown, a plain strip +of white about the throat,--even that was cotton, not linen, and two +of them could be run together in ten minutes for a cent,--and a +black alpacca apron, never soiled or crumpled, but washed and ironed +when it needed, like anything else,--her hair smoothly gathered back +under a small white half-handkerchief cap, plain-hemmed,--was the +sermon alive; with the soul of it, the inner sweetness and purity, +looking out at them from clear pleasant eyes, and lips cheery with a +smile that lay behind them. + +She had come down there just to do as God told her to be a neighbor, +and to let her light shine. He would see about the glorifying. + +She did not try to make money out of her candy, or her ginger-nuts; +she kept those to entice the little children in; to tempt them to +come again when they had once done an errand, shyly, or saucily, or +hang-doggedly,--it made little difference which to her,--in her +shop. + +"I'll tell you what it's like," Hazel said, when she came in and +up-stairs the first Saturday afternoon with Desire, and showed and +explained to her proudly all Luclarion's ways and blessed +inventions. "It's like your mother and mine throwing crumbs to make +the pigeons come, when they were little girls, and lived in +Boston,--I mean _here_!" + +Hazel waked up at the end of her sentence, suddenly, as we all do +sometimes, out of talking or thinking, to the consciousness that it +was _here_ that she had mentally got round to. + +Desire had never heard of the crumbs or the pigeons. Mrs. Ledwith +had always been in such a hurry, living on, that she never stopped +to tell her children the sweet old tales of how she _had_ lived. Her +child-life had not ripened in her as it had done in Frank. + +Desire and Hazel went up-stairs and looked at the empty room. It was +light and pleasant; dormer windows opened out on a great area of +roofs, above which was blue sky; upon which, poor clothes fluttered +in the wind, or cats walked and stretched themselves safely and +lazily in the sun. + +"I always _do_ like roofs!" said Hazel. "The nicest thing in 'Mutual +Friend' is Jenny Wren up on the Jew's roof, being dead. It seems +like getting up over the world, and leaving it all covered up and +put away." + +"Except the old clothes," said Desire. + +"They're _washed_" answered Hazel, promptly; and never stopped to +think of the meaning. + +Then she jumped down from the window, along under which a great +beam made a bench to stand on, and looked about the chamber. + +"A swing to begin with," she said. "Why what is that? Luclarion's +got one!" + +Knotted up under two great staples that held it, was the long loop +of clean new rope; the notched board rested against the chimney +below. + +"It's all ready! Let's go down and catch one! Luclarion, we've come +to tea," she announced, as they reached the sitting-room. "There's +the shop bell!" + +In the shop was a woman with touzled hair and a gown with placket +split from gathers to hem, showing the ribs of a dirty skeleton +skirt. A child with one garment on,--some sort of woolen thing that +had never been a clean color, and was all gutter-color now,--the +woman holding the child by the hand here, in a safe place, in a way +these mothers have who turn their children out in the street dirt +and scramble without any hand to hold. No wonder, though, perhaps; +in the strangeness and unfitness of the safe, pure place, doubtless +they feel an uneasy instinct that the poor little vagabonds have got +astray, and need some holding. + +"Give us a four-cent loaf!" said the woman, roughly, her eyes +lowering under crossly furrowed brows, as she flung two coins upon +the little counter. + +Luclarion took down one, looked at it, saw that it had a pale side, +and exchanged it for another. + +"Here is a nice crusty one," she said pleasantly, turning to wrap it +in a sheet of paper. + +"None o' yer gammon! Give it here; there's your money; come along, +Crazybug!" And she grabbed the loaf without a wrapper, and twitched +the child. + +Hazel sat still. She knew there was no use. But Desire with her +point-black determination, went right at the boy, took hold of his +hand, dirt and all; it was disagreeable, therefore she thought she +must do it. + +"Don't you want to come and swing?" she said. + +"---- yer swing! and yer imperdence! Clear out! He's got swings +enough to home! Go to ----, and be ----, you ---- ---- ----!" + +Out of the mother's mouth poured a volley of horrible words, like a +hailstorm of hell. + +Desire fell back, as from a blinding shock of she knew not what. + +Luclarion came round the counter, quite calmly. + +"Ma'am," she said, "those words won't hurt _her_. She don't know the +language. But you've got God's daily bread in your hand; how can you +talk devil's Dutch over it?" + +The woman glared at her. But she saw nothing but strong, calm, +earnest asking in the face; the asking of God's own pity. + +She rebelled against that, sullenly; but she spoke no more foul +words. I think she could as soon have spoken them in the face of +Christ; for it was the Christ in Luclarion Grapp that looked out at +her. + +"You needn't preach. You can order me out of your shop, if you like. +I don't care." + +"I don't order you out. I'd rather you would come again. I don't +think you will bring that street-muck with you, though." + +There was both confidence and command in the word like the "Neither +do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more." It detached the street-muck +from the woman. It was not _she_; it was defilement she had picked +up, when perhaps she could not help it. She could scrape her shoes +at the door, and come in clean. + +"You know a darned lot about it, I suppose!" were the last words of +defiance; softened down, however, you perceive, to that which can be +printed. + +Desire was pale, with a dry sob in her throat, when the woman had +gone and Luclarion turned round. + +"The angels in heaven know; why shouldn't you?" said Luclarion. +"That's what we've got to help." + +A child came in afterwards, alone; with an actual clean spot in the +middle of her face, where a ginger-nut or an acid drop might go in. +This was a regular customer of a week past. The week had made that +clean spot; with a few pleasant and encouraging hints from +Luclarion, administered along with the gingerbread. + +Now it was Hazel's turn. + +The round mouth and eyes, with expectation in them, were like a spot +of green to Hazel, feeling with her witch-wand for a human spring. +But she spoke to Desire, looking cunningly at the child. + +"Let us go back and swing," she said. + +The girl's head pricked itself up quickly. + +"We've got a swing up-stairs," said Hazel, passing close by, and +just pausing. "A new one. I guess it goes pretty high; and it looks +out of top windows. Wouldn't you like to come and see?" + +The child lived down in a cellar. + +"Take up some ginger-nuts, and eat them there," said Luclarion to +Hazel. + +If it had not been for that, the girl would have hung back, afraid +of losing her shop treat. + +Hazel knew better than to hold out her hand, at this first essay; +she would do that fast enough when the time came. She only walked +on, through the sitting-room, to the stairs. + +The girl peeped, and followed. + +Clean stairs. She had never trodden such before. Everything was +strange and clean here, as she had never seen anything before in all +her life, except the sky and the white clouds overhead. Heaven be +thanked that they are held over us, spotless, always! + +Hazel heard the little feet, shuffling, in horrible, distorted +shoes, after her, over the steps; pausing, coming slowly but still +starting again, and coming on. + +Up on the high landing, under the skylight, she opened the door wide +into the dormer-windowed room, and went in; she and Desire, neither +of them looking round. + +Hazel got into the swing. Desire pushed; after three vibrations they +saw the ragged figure standing in the doorway, watching, turning its +head from side to side as the swing passed. + +"Almost!" cried Hazel, with her feet up at the window. "There!" She +thrust them out at that next swing; they looked as if they touched +the blue. + +"I can see over all the chimneys, and away off, down the water! Now +let the old cat die." + +Out again, with a spring, as the swinging slackened, she still took +no notice of the child, who would have run, like a wild kitten, if +she had gone after her. She called Desire, and plunged into a closet +under the eaves. + +"I wonder what's here!" she exclaimed. + +"Rats!" + +The girl in the doorway saw the dark, into which the low door +opened; she was used to rats in the dark. + +"I don't believe it," says Hazel; "Luclarion has a cut, a great big +buff one with green eyes. She came in over the roofs, and she runs +up here nights. I shouldn't wonder if there might be kittens, +though,--one of these days, at any rate. Why! what a place to play +'Dare' in! It goes way round, I don't know where! Look here, +Desire!" + +She sat on the threshold, that went up a step, over the beam, and so +leaned in. She had one eye toward the girl all the time, out of the +shadow. She beckoned and nodded, and Desire came. + +At the same moment, the coast being clear, the girl gave a sudden +scud across, and into the swing. She began to scuff with her +slipshod, twisted shoes, pushing herself. + +Hazel gave another nod behind her to Desire. Desire stood up, and as +the swing came back, pushed gently, touching the board only. + +The girl laughed out with the sudden thrill of the motion. Desire +pushed again. + +Higher and higher, till the feet reached up to the window. + +"There!" she cried; and kicked an old shoe off, out over the roof. +"I've lost my shoe!" + +"Never mind; it'll be down in the yard," said Hazel. + +Thereupon the child, at the height of her sweep again, kicked out +the other one. + +Desire and Hazel, together, pushed her for a quarter of an hour. + +"Now let's have ginger-cakes," said Hazel, taking them out of her +pocket, and leaving the "cat" to die. + +Little Barefoot came down at that, with a run; hanging to the rope +at one side, and dragging, till she tumbled in a sprawl upon the +floor. + +"You ought to have waited," said Desire. + +"Poh! I don't never wait!" cried the ragamuffin rubbing her elbows. +"I don't care." + +"But it isn't nice to tumble round," suggested Hazel. + +"I _ain't_ nice," answered the child, and settled the subject. + +"Well, these ginger-nuts are," said Hazel. "Here!" + +"Have you had a good time?" she asked when the last one was eaten, +and she led the way to go down-stairs. + +"Good time! That ain't nothin'! I've had a reg'lar bust! I'm comin' +agin'; it's bully. Now I must get my loaf and my shoes, and go along +back and take a lickin'." + +That was the way Hazel caught her first child. + +She made her tell her name,--Ann Fazackerley,--and promise to come +on Saturday afternoon, and bring two more girls with her. + +"We'll have a party," said Hazel, "and play Puss in the Corner. But +you must get leave," she added. "Ask your mother. I don't want you +to be punished when you go home." + +"Lor! you're green! I ain't got no mother. An' I always hooks jack. +I'm licked reg'lar when I gets back, anyway. There's half a dozen of +'em. When 'tain't one, it's another. That's Jane Goffey's bread; +she's been a swearin' after it this hour, you bet. But I'll +come,--see if I don't!" + +Hazel drew a hard breath as she let the girl go. Back to her crowded +cellar, her Jane Goffeys, the swearings, and the lickings. What was +one hour at a time, once or twice a week, to do against all this? + +But she remembered the clean little round in her face, out of which +eyes and mouth looked merrily, while she talked rough slang; the +same fun and daring,--nothing worse,--were in this child's face, +that might be in another's saying prettier words. How could she help +her words, hearing nothing but devil's Dutch around her all the +time? Children do not make the language they are born into. And the +face that could be simply merry, telling such a tale as that,--what +sort of bright little immortality must it be the outlook of? + +Hazel meant to try her hour. + + * * * * * + +This is one of my last chapters. I can only tell you now they +began,--these real folks,--the work their real living led them up +to. Perhaps some other time we may follow it on. If I were to tell +you now a finished story of it, I should tell a story ahead of the +world. + +I can show you what six weeks brought it to. I can show you them +fairly launched in what may grow to a beautiful private charity,--an +"Insecution,"--a broad social scheme,--a millennium; at any rate, a +life work, change and branch as it may, for these girls who have +found out, in their girlhood, that there is genuine living, not mere +"playing pretend," to be done in the world. But you cannot, in +little books of three hundred pages, see things through. I never +expected or promised to do that. The threescore years and ten +themselves, do not do it. + +It turned into regular Wednesday and Saturday afternoons. Three +girls at first, then six, then less again,--sometimes only one or +two; until they gradually came up to and settled at, an average of +nine or ten. + +The first Saturday they took them as they were. The next time they +gave them a stick of candy each, the first thing, then Hazel's +fingers were sticky, and she proposed the wash-basin all round, +before they went up-stairs. The bright tin bowl was ready in the +sink, and a clean round towel hung beside; and with some red and +white soap-balls, they managed to fascinate their dirty little +visitors into three clean pairs of hands, and three clean faces as +well. + +The candy and the washing grew to be a custom; and in three weeks' +time, watching for a hot day and having it luckily on a Saturday, +they ventured upon instituting a whole bath, in big round tubs, in +the back shed-room, where a faucet came in over a wash bench, and a +great boiler was set close by. + +They began with a foot-paddle, playing pond, and sailing chips at +the same time; then Luclarion told them they might have tubs full, +and get in all over and duck, if they liked; and children who may +hate to be washed, nevertheless are always ready for a duck and a +paddle. So Luclarion superintended the bath-room; Diana helped her; +and Desire and Hazel tended the shop. Luclarion invented a +shower-bath with a dipper and a colander; then the wet, tangled hair +had to be combed,--a climax which she had secretly aimed at with a +great longing, from the beginning; and doing this, she contrived +with carbolic soap and a separate suds, and a bit of sponge, to give +the neglected little heads a most salutary dressing. + +Saturday grew into bath-day; soap-suds suggested bubbles; and the +ducking and the bubbling were a frolic altogether. + +Then Hazel wished they could be put into clean clothes each time; +wouldn't it do, somehow? + +But that would cost. Luclarion had come to the limit of her purse; +Hazel had no purse, and Desire's was small. + +"But you see they've _got_ to have it," said Hazel; and so she went +to her mother, and from her straight to Uncle Oldways. + +They counted up,--she and Desire, and Diana; two little common +suits, of stockings, underclothes, and calico gowns, apiece; +somebody to do a washing once a week, ready for the change; and +then--"those horrid shoes!" + +"I don't see how you can do it," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "The things +will be taken away from them, and sold. You would have to keep +doing, over and over, to no purpose, I am afraid." + +"I'll see to that," said Luclarion, facing her "stump." "We'll do +for them we can do for; if it ain't ones, it will be tothers. Those +that don't keep their things, can't have 'em; and if they're taken +away, I won't sell bread to the women they belong to, till they're +brought back. Besides, the _washing_ kind of sorts 'em out, +beforehand. 'Taint the worst ones that are willing to come, or to +send, for that. You always have to work in at an edge, in anything, +and make your way as you go along. It'll regulate. I'm _living_ +there right amongst 'em; I've got a clew, and a hold; I can follow +things up; I shall have a 'circle;' there's circles everywhere. And +in all the wheels there's a moving _spirit_; you ain't got to depend +just on yourself. Things work; the Lord sees to it; it's _His_ +business as much as yours." + +Hazel told Uncle Titus that there were shoes and stockings and gowns +wanted down in Neighbor Street; things for ten children; they must +have subscriptions. And so she had come to him. + +The Ripwinkleys had never given Uncle Titus a Christmas or a +birthday present, for fear they should seem to establish a mutual +precedent. They had never talked of their plans which involved +calculation, before him; they were terribly afraid of just one thing +with him, and only that one,--of anything most distantly like what +Desire Ledwith called "a Megilp bespeak." But now Hazel went up to +him as bold as a lion. She took it for granted he was like other +people,--"real folks;" that he would do--what must be done. + +"How much will it cost?" + +"For clothes and shoes for each child, about eight dollars for three +months, we guess," said Hazel. "Mother's going to pay for the +washing!" + +"_Guess_? Haven't you calculated?" + +"Yes, sir. 'Guess' and 'calculate' mean the same thing in Yankee," +said Hazel, laughing. + +Uncle Titus laughed in and out, in his queer way, with his shoulders +going up and down. + +Then he turned round, on his swivel chair, to his desk, and wrote a +check for one hundred dollars. + +"There. See how far you can make that go." + +"That's good," said Hazel, heartily, looking at it; "that's +splendid!" and never gave him a word of personal thanks. It was a +thing for mutual congratulations, rather, it would seem; the "good" +was just what they all wanted, and there it was. Why should anybody +in particular be thanked, as if anybody in particular had asked for +anything? She did not say this, or think it; she simply did not +think about it at all. + +And Uncle Oldways--again--liked it. + +There! I shall not try, now, to tell you any more; their +experiences, their difficulties, their encouragements, would make +large material for a much larger book. I want you to know of the +idea, and the attempt. If they fail, partly,--if drunken fathers +steal the shoes, and the innocent have to forfeit for the +guilty,--if the bad words still come to the lips often, though Hazel +tells them they are not "nice,"--and beginning at the outside, they +are in a fair way of learning the niceness of being nice,--if some +children come once or twice, and get dressed up, and then go off +and live in the gutters again until the clothes are gone,--are these +real failures? There is a bright, pure place down there in Neighbor +Street, and twice a week some little children have there a bright, +pure time. Will this be lost in the world? In the great Ledger of +God will it always stand unbalanced on the debit side? + +If you are afraid it will fail,--will be swallowed up in the great +sink of vice and misery, like a single sweet, fresh drop, sweet only +while it is falling,--go and do likewise; rain down more; make the +work larger, stronger; pour the sweetness in faster, till the wide, +grand time of full refreshing shall have come from the presence of +the Lord! + +Ada Geoffrey went down and helped. Miss Craydocke is going to knit +scarlet stockings all winter for them; Mr. Geoffrey has put a +regular bath-room in for Luclarion, with half partitions, and three +separate tubs; Mrs. Geoffrey has furnished a dormitory, where little +homeless ones can be kept to sleep. Luclarion has her hands full, +and has taken in a girl to help her, whose board and wages Rachel +Froke and Asenath Scherman pay. A thing like that spreads every way; +you have only to be among, and one of--Real Folks. + + * * * * * + +Desire, besides her work in Neighbor Street, has gone into the +Normal School. She wants to make herself fit for any teaching; she +wants also to know and to become a companion of earnest, working +girls. + +She told Uncle Titus this, after she had been with him a month, and +had thought it over; and Uncle Titus agreed, quite as if it were no +real concern of his, but a very proper and unobjectionable plan for +her, if she liked it. + +One day, though, when Marmaduke Wharne--who had come this fall again +to stay his three days, and talk over their business,--sat with him +in his study, just where they had sat two years and a little more +ago, and Hazel and Desire ran up and down stairs together, in and +out upon their busy Wednesday errands,--Marmaduke said to Titus,-- + +"Afterwards is a long time, friend; but I mistrust you have found +the comfort, as well as the providence, of 'next of kin?'" + +"Afterwards _is_ a long time," said Titus Oldways, gravely; "but the +Lord's line of succession stretches all the way through." + +And that same night he had his other old friend, Miss Craydocke, in; +and he brought two papers that he had ready, quietly out to be +signed, each with four names: "Titus Oldways," by itself, on the one +side; on the other,-- + + "RACHEL FROKE, + MARMADUKE WHARNE, + KEREN-HAPPUCH CRAYDOCKE." + +And one of those two papers--which are no further part of the +present story, seeing that good old Uncle Titus is at this moment +alive and well, as he has a perfect right, and is heartily welcome +to be, whether the story ever comes to a regular winding up or +not--was laid safely away in a japanned box in a deep drawer of his +study table; and Marmaduke Wharne put the other in his pocket. + +He and Titus knew. I myself guess, and perhaps you do; but neither +you nor I, nor Rachel, nor Keren-happuch, know for certain; and it +is no sort of matter whether we do or not. + +The "next of kin" is a better and a deeper thing than any claim of +law or register of bequest can show. Titus Oldways had found that +out; and he had settled in his mind, to his restful and satisfied +belief, that God, to the last moment of His time, and the last +particle of His created substance, can surely care for and order and +direct His own. + +Is that end and moral enough for a two years' watchful trial and a +two years' simple tale? + + + + +XXI. + +THE HORSESHOE. + + +They laid out the Waite Place in this manner:-- + +Right into the pretty wooded pasture, starting from a point a little +way down the road from the old house, they projected a roadway which +swept round, horseshoe fashion, till it met itself again within a +space of some twenty yards or so; and this sweep made a +frontage--upon its inclosed bit of natural, moss-turfed green, +sprinkled with birch and pine and oak trees, and with gray +out-croppings of rock here and there--for the twenty houses, behind +which opened the rest of the unspoiled, irregular, open slope and +swell and dingle of the hill-foot tract that dipped down at one +reach, we know, to the river. + +The trees, and shrubs, and vines, and ferns, and stones, were left +in their wild prettiness; only some roughness of nature's wear and +tear of dead branches and broken brushwood, and the like, were taken +away, and the little footpaths cleared for pleasant walking. + +There were all the little shady, sweet-smelling nooks, just as they +had been; all the little field-parlors, opening with their winding +turns between bush and rock, one into another. The twenty households +might find twenty separate places, if they all wanted to take a +private out-door tea at once. + +The cellars were dug; the frames were up; workmen were busy with +brick and mortar, hammer and plane; two or three buildings were +nearly finished, and two--the two standing at the head of the +Horseshoe, looking out at the back into the deepest and pleasantest +wood-aisle, where the leaves were reddening and mellowing in the +early October frost, and the ferns were turning into tender +transparent shades of palest straw-color--were completed, and had +dwellers in them; the cheeriest, and happiest, and coziest of +neighbors; and who do you think these were? + +Miss Waite and Delia, of course, in one house; and with them, +dividing the easy rent and the space that was ample for four women, +were Lucilla Waters and her mother. In the other, were Kenneth and +Rosamond Kincaid and Dorris. + +Kenneth and Rosamond had been married just three weeks. Rosamond had +told him she would begin the world with him, and they had begun. +Begun in the simple, true old-fashioned way, in which, if people +only would believe it, it is even yet not impossible for young men +and women to inaugurate their homes. + +They could not have had a place at Westover, and a horse and buggy +for Kenneth to go back and forth with; nor even a house in one of +the best streets of Z----; and down at East Square everything was +very modern and pretentious, based upon the calculation of rising +values and a rush of population. + +But here was this new neighborhood of--well, yes,--"model houses;" a +blessed Christian speculation for a class not easily or often +reached by any speculations save those that grind and consume their +little regular means, by forcing upon them the lawless and arbitrary +prices of the day, touching them at every point in their _living_, +but not governing correspondingly their income, as even the +hod-carrier's and railroad navvy's daily pay is reached and ruled to +meet the proportion of the time. + +They would be plain, simple, little-cultured people that would live +there: the very "betwixt and betweens" that Rosamond had used to +think so hardly fated. Would she go and live among them, in one of +these little new, primitive homes, planted down in the pasture-land, +on the outskirts? Would she--the pretty, graceful, elegant +Rosamond--live semi-detached with old Miss Arabel Waite? + +That was just exactly the very thing she would do; the thing she did +not even let Kenneth think of first, and ask her, but that, when +they had fully agreed that they would begin life somehow, in some +right way together, according to their means, she herself had +questioned him if they might not do. + +And so the houses were hurried in the building; for old Miss Arabel +must have hers before the winter; (it seems strange how often the +change comes when one could not have waited any longer for it;) and +Kenneth had mill building, and surveying, and planning, in East +Square, and Mr. Roger Marchbanks' great gray-stone mansion going up +on West Hill, to keep him busy; work enough for any talented young +fellow, fresh from the School of Technology, who had got fair hold +of a beginning, to settle down among and grasp the "next things" +that were pretty sure to follow along after the first. + +Dorris has all Ruth's music scholars, and more; for there has never +been anybody to replace Miss Robbyns, and there are many young girls +in Z----, and down here in East Square, who want good teaching and +cannot go away to get it. She has also the organ-playing in the new +church. + +She keeps her morning hours and her Saturdays to help Rosamond; for +they are "coöperating" here, in the new home; what was the use, +else, of having coöperated in the old? Rosamond cannot bear to have +any coarse, profane fingers laid upon her little household +gods,--her wedding-tins and her feather dusters,--while the first +gloss and freshness are on, at any rate; and with her dainty handling, +the gloss is likely to last a long while. + +Such neighbors, too, as the Waites and Waterses are! How they helped +in the fitting up, running in in odd half hours from their own +nailing and placing, which they said could wait awhile, since they +weren't brides; and such real old times visiting as they have +already between the houses; coming and taking right hold, with +wiping up dinner plates as likely as not, if that is the thing in +hand; picking up what is there, as easily as "the girls" used to +help work out some last new pattern of crochet, or try over music, +or sort worsteds for gorgeous affghans for the next great fair! + +Miss Arabel is apt to come in after dinner, and have a dab at the +plates; she knows she interrupts nothing then; and she "has never +been used to sitting talking, with gloves on and a parasol in her +lap." And now she has given up trying to make impossible biases, she +has such a quantity of time! + +It was the matter of receiving visits from her friends who _did_ sit +with their parasols in their laps, or who only expected to see the +house, or look over wedding presents, that would be the greatest +hindrance, Rosamond realized at once; that is, if she would let it; +so she did just the funniest thing, perhaps, that ever a bride did +do: she set her door wide open from her pretty parlor, with its +books and flowers and pictures and window-draperies of hanging +vines, into the plain, cozy little kitchen, with its tin pans and +bright new buckets and its Shaker chairs; and when she was busy +there, asked her girl-friends right in, as she had used to take them +up into her bedroom, if she were doing anything pretty or had +something to show. + +And they liked it, for the moment, at any rate; they could not help +it; they thought it was lovely; a kind of bewitching little play at +keeping house; though some of them went away and wondered, and said +that Rosamond Holabird had quite changed all her way of living and +her position; it was very splendid and strong-minded, they supposed; +but they never should have thought it of her, and of course she +could not keep it up. + +"And the neighborhood!" was the cry. "The rabble she has got, and is +going to have, round her! All planks and sand, and tubs of mortar, +now; you have to half break your neck in getting up there; and when +it is settled it will be--such a frowze of common people! Why the +foreman of our factory has engaged a house, and Mrs. Haslam, who +actually used to do up laces for mamma, has got another!" + +That is what is said--in some instances--over on West Hill, when the +elegant visitors came home from calling at the Horseshoe. Meanwhile, +what Rosamond does is something like this, which she happened to do +one bright afternoon a very little while ago. + +She and Dorris had just made and baked a charming little tea-cake, +which was set on a fringed napkin in a round white china dish, and +put away in the fresh, oak-grained kitchen pantry, where not a crumb +or a slop had ever yet been allowed to rest long enough to defile or +give a flavor of staleness; out of which everything is tidily used +up while it is nice, and into which little delicate new-made bits +like this, for next meals, are always going. + +The tea-table itself,--with its three plates, and its new silver, +and the pretty, thin, shallow cups and saucers, that an Irish girl +would break a half-dozen of every week,--was laid with exquisite +preciseness; the square white napkins at top and bottom over the +crimson cloth, spread to the exactness of a line, and every knife +and fork at fair right angles; the loaf was upon the white carved +trencher, and nothing to be done when Kenneth should come in, but to +draw the tea, and bring the brown cake forth. + +Rosamond will not leave all these little doings to break up the +pleasant time of his return; she will have her leisure then, let her +be as busy as she may while he is away. + +There was an hour or more after all was done; even after the +Panjandrums had made their state call, leaving their barouche at the +heel of the Horseshoe, and filling up all Rosamond's little +vestibule with their flounces, as they came in and went out. + +The Panjandrums were new people at West Hill; very new and very +grand, as only new things and new people can be, turned out in the +latest style pushed to the last agony. Mrs. Panjandrum's dress was +all in two shades of brown, to the tips of her feathers, and the +toes of her boots, and the frill of her parasol; and her carriage +was all in two shades of brown, likewise; cushions, and tassels, +and panels; the horses themselves were cream-color, with dark +manes and tails. Next year, perhaps, everything will be in +pansy-colors,--black and violet and gold; and then she will probably +have black horses with gilded harness and royal purple tails. + +It was very good of the Panjandrums, doubtless, to come down to the +Horseshoe at all; I am willing to give them all the credit of really +admiring Rosamond, and caring to see her in her little new home; but +there are two other things to be considered also: the novel kind of +home Rosamond had chosen to set up, and the human weakness of +curiosity concerning all experiments, and friends in all new lights; +also the fact of that other establishment shortly to branch out of +the Holabird connection. The family could not quite go under water, +even with people of the Panjandrum persuasion, while there was such +a pair of prospective corks to float them as Mr. and Mrs. Dakie +Thayne. + +The Panjandrum carriage had scarcely bowled away, when a little +buggy and a sorrel pony came up the road, and somebody alighted with +a brisk spring, slipped the rein with a loose knot through the +fence-rail at the corner, and came up one side of the two-plank +foot-walk that ran around the Horseshoe; somebody who had come home +unexpectedly, to take his little wife to ride. Kenneth Kincaid had +business over at the new district of "Clarendon Park." + +Drives, and livery-stable bills, were no part of the items allowed +for, in the programme of these young people's living; therefore +Rosamond put on her gray hat, with its soft little dove's breast, +and took her bright-striped shawl upon her arm, and let Kenneth lift +her into the buggy--for which there was no manner of need except +that they both liked it,--with very much the feeling as if she were +going off on a lovely bridal trip. They had had no bridal trip, you +see; they did not really want one; and this little impromptu drive +was such a treat! + +Now the wonders of nature and the human mind show--if I must go so +far to find an argument for the statement I am making--that into a +single point of time or particle of matter may be gathered the +relations of a solar system or the experiences of a life; that a +universe may be compressed into an atom, or a molecule expanded into +a macrocosm; therefore I expect nobody to sneer at my Rosamond as +childishly nappy in her simple honeymoon, or at me for making +extravagant and unsupported assertions, when I say that this hour +and a half, and these four miles out to Clarendon Park and +back,--the lifting and the tucking in, and the setting off, the +sitting side by side in the ripe October air and the golden +twilight, the noting together every pretty turn, every flash of +autumn color in the woods, every change in the cloud-groupings +overhead, every glimpse of busy, bright-eyed squirrels up and down +the walls, every cozy, homely group of barnyard creatures at the +farmsteads, the change, the pleasure, the thought of home and +always-togetherness,--all this made the little treat of a country +ride as much to them, holding all that any wandering up and down the +whole world in their new companionship could hold,--as a going to +Europe, or a journey to mountains and falls and sea-sides and +cities, in a skimming of the States. You cannot have more than there +is; and you do not care, for more than just what stands for and +emphasizes the essential beauty, the living gladness, that no +_place_ gives, but that hearts carry about into places and baptize +them with, so that ever afterward a tender charm hangs round them, +because "we saw it _then_." + +And Kenneth and Rosamond Kincaid had all these bright associations, +these beautiful glamours, these glad reminders, laid up for years to +come, in a four miles space that they might ride or walk over, +re-living it all, in the returning Octobers of many other years. I +say they had a bridal tour that day, and that the four miles were as +good as four thousand. Such little bits of signs may stand for such +high, great, blessed things! + +"How lovely stillness and separateness are!" said Rosamond as they +sat in the buggy, stopping to enjoy a glimpse of the river on one +side, and a flame of burning bushes on the other, against the dark +face of a piece of woods that held the curve of road in which they +stood, in sheltered quiet. "How pretty a house would be, up on that +knoll. Do you know things puzzle me a little, Kenneth? I have almost +come to a certain conclusion lately, that people are not meant to +live apart, but that it is really everybody's duty to live in a +town, or a village, or in some gathering of human beings together. +Life tends to that, and all the needs and uses of it; and yet,--it +is so sweet in a place like this,--and however kind and social you +may be, it seems once in a while such an escape! Do you believe in +beautiful country places, and in having a little piece of creation +all to yourself, if you can get it, or if not what do you suppose +all creation is made for?" + +"Perhaps just that which you have said, Rose." Rosamond has now, +what her mother hinted once, somebody to call her "Rose," with a +happy and beautiful privilege. "Perhaps to escape into. Not for one, +here and there, selfishly, all the time; but for the whole, with +fair share and opportunity. Creation is made very big, you see, and +men and women are made without wings, and with very limited hands +and feet. Also with limited lives; that makes the time-question, and +the hurry. There is a suggestion,--at any rate, a necessity,--in +that. It brings them within certain spaces, always. In spite of all +the artificial lengthening of railroads and telegraphs, there must +still be centres for daily living, intercourse, and need. People +tend to towns; they cannot establish themselves in isolated +independence. Yet packing and stifling are a cruelty and a sin. I do +not believe there ought to be any human being so poor as to be +forced to such crowding. The very way we are going to live at the +Horseshoe, seems to me an individual solution of the problem. It +ought to come to pass that our towns should be built--and if built +already, wrongly, _thinned out_,--on this principle. People are +coming to learn a little of this, and are opening parks and squares +in the great cities, finding that there must be room for bodies and +souls to reach out and breathe. If they could only take hold of some +of their swarming-places, where disease and vice are festering, and +pull down every second house and turn it into a garden space, I +believe they would do more for reform and salvation than all their +separate institutions for dealing with misery after it is let grow, +can ever effect." + +"O, why _can't_ they?" cried Rose. "There is money enough, +somewhere. Why can't they do it, instead of letting the cities grow +horrid, and then running away from it themselves, and buying acres +and acres around their country places, for fear somebody should come +too near, and the country should begin to grow horrid too?" + +"Because the growing and the crowding and the striving of the city +_make_ so much of the money, little wife! Because to keep everybody +fairly comfortable as the world goes along, there could not be so +many separate piles laid up; it would have to be used more as it +comes, and it could not come so fast. If nobody cared to be very +rich, and all were willing to live simply and help one another, in +little 'horseshoe neighborhoods,' there wouldn't be so much that +looks like grand achievement in the world perhaps; but I think maybe +the very angels might show themselves out of the unseen, and bring +the glory of heaven into it!" + +Kenneth's color came, and his eyes glowed, as he spoke these words +that burst into eloquence with the intensity of his meaning; and +Rosamond's face was holy-pale, and her look large, as she listened; +and they were silent for a minute or so, as the pony, of his own +accord, trotted deliberately on. + +"But then, the beauty, and the leisure, and all that grows out of +them to separate minds, and what the world gets through the +refinement of it! You see the puzzle comes back. Must we never, in +this life, gather round us the utmost that the world is capable of +furnishing? Must we never, out of this big creation, have the piece +to ourselves, each one as he would choose?" + +"I think the Lord would show us a way out of that," said Kenneth. "I +think He would make His world turn out right, and all come to good +and sufficient use, if we did not put it in a snarl. Perhaps we can +hardly guess what we might grow to all together,--'the whole body, +fitly joined by that which every joint supplieth, increasing and +building itself up in love.' And about the quietness, and the +separateness,--we don't want to _live_ in that, Rose; we only want +it sometimes, to make us fitter to live. When the disciples began to +talk about building tabernacles on the mountain of the vision, +Christ led them straight down among the multitude, where there was a +devil to be cast out. It is the same thing in the old story of the +creation. God worked six days, and rested one." + +"Well," said Rose, drawing a deep breath, "I am glad we have begun +at the Horseshoe! It was a great escape for me, Kenneth. I am such a +worldly girl in my heart. I should have liked so much to have +everything elegant and artistic about me." + +"I think you do. I think you always will. Not because of the +worldliness in you, though; but the _other_-worldliness, the sense +of real beauty and truth. And I am glad that we have begun at all! +It was a greater escape for me. I was in danger of all sorts of +hardness and unbelief. I had begun to despise and hate things, +because they did not work rightly just around me. And then I fell +in, just in time, with some real, true people; and then you came, +with the 'little piece of your world,' and then I came here, and saw +what your world was, and how you were making it, Rose! How a little +community of sweet and generous fellowship was crystallizing here +among all sorts--outward sorts--of people; a little community of the +kingdom; and how you and yours had done it." + +"O, Kenneth! I was the worst little atom in the whole crystal! I +only got into my place because everybody else did, and there was +nothing else left for me to do." + +"You see I shall never believe that," said Kenneth, quietly. "There +is no flaw in the crystal. You were all polarized alike. And +besides, can't I see daily just how your nature draws and points?" + +"Well, never mind," said Rose. "Only some particles are natural +magnets, I believe, and some get magnetized by contact. Now that we +have hit upon this metaphor, isn't it funny that our little social +experiment should have taken the shape of a horseshoe?" + +"The most sociable, because the most magnetic, shape it could take. +You will see the power it will develop. There's a great deal in +merely taking form according to fundamental principles. Witness the +getting round a fireside. Isn't that a horseshoe? And could half as +much sympathy be evolved from a straight line?" + +"I believe in firesides," said Rose. + +"And in women who can organize and inform them," said Kenneth. +"First, firesides; then neighborhoods; that is the way the world's +life works out; and women have their hands at the heart of it. They +can do so much more there than by making the laws! When the life is +right, the laws will make themselves, or be no longer needed. They +are such mere outside patchwork,--makeshifts till a better time!" + +"Wrong living must make wrong laws, whoever does the voting," said +Rosamond, sagely. + +"False social standards make false commercial ones; inflated +pretensions demand inflated currency; selfish, untrue domestic +living eventuates in greedy speculations and business shams; and all +in the intriguing for corrupt legislation, to help out partial +interests. It isn't by multiplying the voting power, but by +purifying it, that the end is to be reached." + +"That is so sententious, Kenneth, that I shall have to take it home +and ravel it out gradually in my mind in little shreds. In the mean +while, dear, suppose we stop in the village, and get some little +brown-ware cups for top-overs. You never ate any of my top-overs? +Well, when you do, you'll say that all the world ought to be brought +up on top-overs." + +Rosamond was very particular about her little brown-ware cups. They +had to be real stone,--brown outside, and gray-blue in; and they +must be of a special size and depth. When they were found, and done +up in a long parcel, one within another, in stout paper, she carried +it herself to the chaise, and would scarcely let Kenneth hold it +while she got in; after which, she laid it carefully across her lap, +instead of putting it behind upon the cushion. + +'You see they were rather dear; but they are the only kind worth +while. Those little yellow things would soak and crack, and never +look comfortable in the kitchen-closet. I give you very fair +warning, I shall always want the best of things but then I shall +take very fierce and jealous care of them,--like this.' + +And she laid her little nicely-gloved hand across her homely +parcel, guardingly. + +How nice it was to go buying little homely things together! Again, +it was as good and pleasant,--and meant ever so much more,--than if +it had been ordering china with a monogram in Dresden, or glass in +Prague, with a coat-of-arms engraved. + +When they drove up to the Horseshoe, Dakie Thayne and Ruth met them. +They had been getting "spiritual ferns" and sumach leaves with +Dorris; "the dearest little tips," Ruth said, "of scarlet and +carbuncle, just like jets of fire." + +And now they would go back to tea, and eat up the brown cake? + +"Real Westover summum-bonum cake?" Dakie wanted to know. "Well, he +couldn't stand against that. Come, Ruthie!" And Ruthie came. + +"What do you think Rosamond says?" said Kenneth, at the tea-table, +over the cake. "That everybody ought to live in a city or a village, +or, at least, a Horseshoe. She thinks nobody has a right to stick +his elbows out, in this world. She's in a great hurry to be packed +as closely as possible here." + +"I wish the houses were all finished, and our neighbors in; that is +what I said," said Rosamond. "I should like to begin to know about +them, and feel settled; and to see flowers in their windows, and +lights at night." + +"And you always hated so a 'little crowd!'" said Ruth. + +"It isn't a crowd when they _don't_ crowd," said Rosamond. "I can't +bear little miserable jostles." + +"How good it will be to see Rosamond here, at the head of her court; +at the top of the Horseshoe," said Dakie Thayne. "She will be quite +the 'Queen of the County.'" + +"Don't!" said Rosamond. "I've a very weak spot in my head. You can't +tell the mischief you might do. No, I won't be queen!" + +"Any more than you can help," said Dakie. + +"She'll be Rosa Mundi, wherever she is," said Ruth affectionately. + +"I think that is just grand of Kenneth and Rosamond," said Dakie +Thayne, as he and Ruth were walking home up West Hill in the +moonlight, afterward. "What do you think you and I ought to do, one +of these days, Ruthie? It sets me to considering. There are more +Horseshoes to make, I suppose, if the world is to jog on." + +"_You_ have a great deal to consider about," said Ruth, +thoughtfully. "It was quite easy for Kenneth and Rosamond to +see what they ought to do. But you might make a great many +Horseshoes,--or something!" + +"What do you mean by that second person plural, eh? Are you shirking +your responsibilities, or are you addressing your imaginary +Boffinses? Come, Ruthie, I can't have that! Say 'we,' and I'll face +the responsibilities and talk it all out; but I won't have anything +to do with 'you!'" + +"Won't you?" said Ruth, with piteous demureness. "How can I say +'we,' then?" + +"You little cat! How you can scratch!" + +"There are such great things to be done in the world Dakie," Ruth +said seriously, when they had got over that with a laugh that lifted +her nicely by the "we" question. "I can't help thinking of it." + +"O," said Dakie, with significant satisfaction. "We're getting on +better. Well?" + +"Do you know what Hazel Ripwinkley is doing? And what Luclarion +Grapp has done? Do you know how they are going among poor people, in +dreadful places,--really living among them, Luclarion is,--and +finding out, and helping, and showing how? I thought of that +to-night, when they talked about living in cities and villages. +Luclarion has gone away down to the very bottom of it. And somehow, +one can't feel satisfied with only reaching half-way, when one +knows--and might!" + +"Do you mean, Ruthie, that you and I might go and _live_ in such +places? Do you think I could take you there?" + +"I don't know, Dakie," Ruth answered, forgetting in her earnestness, +to blush or hesitate for what he said;--"but I feel as if we ought +to reach down, somehow,--_away_ down! Because that, you see, is the +_most_. And to do only a little, in an easy way, when we are made so +strong to do; wouldn't it be a waste of power, and a missing of the +meaning? Isn't it the 'much' that is required of us, Dakie?" + +They were under the tall hedge of the Holabird "parcel of ground," +on the Westover slope, and close to the home gates. Dakie Thayne put +his arm round Ruth as she said that, and drew her to him. + +"We will go and be neighbors somewhere, Ruthie. And we will make as +big a Horseshoe as we can." + + + + +XXII. + +MORNING GLORIES. + + +And Desire? + +Do you think I have passed her over lightly in her troubles? Or do +you think I am making her out to have herself passed over them +lightly? + +Do you think it is hardly to be believed that she should have turned +round from these shocks and pains that bore down so heavily and all +at once upon her, and taken kindly to the living with old Uncle +Titus and Rachel Froke in the Greenley Street house, and going down +to Luclarion Grapp's to help wash little children's faces, and teach +them how to have innocent good times? Do you think there is little +making up in all that for her, while Rosamond Kincaid is happy in +her new home, and Ruth and Dakie Thayne are looking out together +over the world,--which can be nowhere wholly sad to them, since they +are to go down into it together,--and planning how to make long arms +with their wealth, to reach the largest neighborhood they can? In +the first place, do you know how full the world is, all around you, +of things that are missed by those who say nothing, but go on living +somehow without them? Do you know how large a part of life, even +young life, is made of the days that have never been lived? Do you +guess how many girls, like Desire, come near something that they +think they might have had, and then see it drift by just beyond +their reach, to fall easily into some other hand that seems hardly +put out to grasp it? + +And do you see, or feel, or guess how life goes on, incompleteness +and all, and things settle themselves one way, if not another, +simply because the world does not stop, but keeps turning, and +tossing off days and nights like time-bubbles just the same? + +Do you ever imagine how different this winter's parties are from +last, or this summer's visit or journey from those of the summer +gone,--to many a maiden who has her wardrobe made up all the same, +and takes her German or her music lessons, and goes in and out, and +has her ticket to the Symphony Concerts, and is no different to look +at, unless perhaps with a little of the first color-freshness gone +out of her face,--while secretly it seems to her as if the sweet +early symphony of her life were all played out, and had ended in a +discord? + +We begin, most of us, much as we are to go on. Real or mistaken, the +experiences of eighteen initiate the lesson that those of two and +three score after years are needed to unfold and complete. What is +left of us is continually turning round, perforce, to take up with +what is left of the world, and make the best of it. + +Thus much for what does happen, for what we have to put up with, for +the mere philosophy of endurance, and the possibility of things +being endured. We do live out our years, and get and bear it all. +And the scars do not show much outside; nay, even we ourselves can +lay a finger on the place, after a little time, without a cringe. + +Desire Ledwith did what she had to do; there was a way made for her, +and there was still life left. + +But there is a better reading of the riddle. There is never a +"Might-have-been" that touches with a sting, but reveals also to us +an inner glimpse of the wide and beautiful "May Be." It is all +there; somebody else has it now while we wait; but the years of God +are full of satisfying, each soul shall have its turn; it is His +good _pleasure_ to give us the kingdom. There is so much room, there +are such thronging possibilities, there is such endless hope! + +To feel this, one must feel, however dimly, the inner realm, out of +which the shadows of this life come and pass, to interpret to us the +laid up reality. + +"The real world is the inside world." + +Desire Ledwith blessed Uncle Oldways in her heart for giving her +that word. + +It comforted her for her father. If his life here had been hard, +toilsome, mistaken even; if it had never come to that it might have +come to; if she, his own child, had somehow missed the reality of +him here, and he of her,--was he not passed now into the within? +Might she not find him there; might they not silently and +spiritually, without sign, but needing no sign, begin to understand +each other now? Was not the real family just beginning to be born +into the real home? + +Ah, that word _real_! How deep we have to go to find the root of it! +It is fast by the throne of God; in the midst. + +Hazel Ripwinkley talked about "real folks." She sifted, and she +found out instinctively the true livers, the genuine _neahburs_, +nigh-dwellers; they who abide alongside in spirit, who shall find +each other in the everlasting neighborhood, when the veil falls. + +But there, behind,--how little, in our petty outside vexations or +gladnesses, we stop to think of or perceive it!--is the actual, even +the present, inhabiting; there is the kingdom, the continuing city, +the real heaven and earth in which we already live and labor, and +build up our homes and lay up our treasure and the loving Christ, +and the living Father, and the innumerable company of angels, and +the unseen compassing about of friends gone in there, and they on +this earth who truly belong to us inwardly, however we and they may +be bodily separated,--are the Real Folks! + +What matters a little pain, outside? Go _in_, and rest from it! + +There is where the joy is, that we read outwardly, spelling by +parts imperfectly, in our own and others' mortal experience; there +is the content of homes, the beauty of love, the delight of +friendship,--not shut in to any one or two, but making the common +air that all souls breathe. No one heart can be happy, that all +hearts may not have a share of it. Rosamond and Kenneth, Dakie and +Ruth, cannot live out obviously any sweetness of living, cannot +sing any notes of the endless, beautiful score, that Desire +Ledwith, and Luclarion Grapp, and Rachel Froke, and Hapsie +Craydocke, and old Miss Arabel Waite, do not just as truly get the +blessed grace and understanding of; do not catch and feel the +perfect and abounding harmony of. Since why? No lip can sound more +than its own few syllables of music; no life show more than its +own few accidents and incidents and groupings; the vast melody, +the rich, eternal satisfying, are behind; and the signs are for us +all! + +You may not think this, or see it so, in your first tussle and +set-to with the disappointing and eluding things that seem the real +and only,--missing which you miss all. This chapter may be less to +you--less _for_ you, perhaps--than for your elders; the story may +have ended, as to that you care for, some pages back; but for all +that, this is certain; and Desire Ledwith has begun to find it, for +she is one of those true, grand spirits to whom personal loss or +frustration are most painful as they seem to betoken something +wrong or failed in the general scheme and justice. This terrible +"why should it be?" once answered,--once able to say to themselves +quietly, "It is all right; the beauty and the joy are there; the +song is sung, though we are of the listeners; the miracle-play is +played, though but a few take literal part, and many of us look on, +with the play, like the song, moving through our souls only, or our +souls moving in the vital sphere of it, where the stage is wide +enough for all;"--once come to this, they have entered already into +that which is behind, and nothing of all that goes forth thence into +the earth to make its sunshine can be shut off from them forever. + +Desire is learning to be glad, thinking of Kenneth and Rosamond, +that this fair marriage should have been. It is so just and exactly +best; Rosamond's sweet graciousness is so precisely what Kenneth's +sterner way needed to have shine upon it; her finding and making of +all manner of pleasantness will be so good against his sharp +discernment of the wrong; they will so beautifully temper and +sustain each other! + +Desire is so generous, so glad of the truth, that she can stand +aside, and let this better thing be, and say to herself that it _is_ +better. + +Is not this that she is growing to inwardly, more blessed than any +marriage or giving in marriage? Is it not a partaking of the +heavenly Marriage Supper? + +"We two might have grumbled at the world until we grumbled at each +other." + +She even said that, calmly and plainly, to herself. + +And then that manna was fed to her afresh of which she had been +given first to eat so long a while ago; that thought of "the Lamb in +the midst of the Throne" came back to her. Of the Tenderness deep +within the Almightiness that holds all earth and heaven and time and +circumstance in its grasp. Her little, young, ignorant human heart +begins to rest in that great warmth and gentleness; begins to be +glad to wait there for what shall arise out of it, moving the +Almightiness for her,--even on purpose for her,--in the by-and-by; +she begins to be sure; of what, she knows not,--but of a great, +blessed, beautiful something, that just because she is at all, shall +be for her; that she shall have a part, somehow, even in the +_showing_ of His good; that into the beautiful miracle-play she +shall be called, and a new song be given her, also, to sing in the +grand, long, perfect oratorio; she begins to pray quietly, that, +"loving the Lord, always above all things, she may obtain His +promises, which exceed all that she can desire." + +And waiting, resting, believing, she begins also to work. This +beginning is even as an ending and forehaving, to any human soul. + +I will tell you how she woke one morning; of a little poem that +wrote itself along her chamber wall. + +It was a square, pleasant old room, with a window in an angle toward +the east. A great, old-fashioned mirror hung opposite, between the +windows that looked out north-westwardly; the morning and the +evening light came in upon her. Beside the solid, quaint old +furnishings of a long past time, there were also around her the +things she had been used to at home; her own little old +rocking-chair, her desk and table, and her toilet and mantel +ornaments and things of use. A pair of candle-branches with dropping +lustres,--that she had marveled at and delighted in as a child, and +had begged for herself when they fell into disuse in the +drawing-room,--stood upon the chimney along which the first +sun-rays glanced. Just in those days of the year, they struck in so +as to shine level through the clear prisms, and break into a hundred +little rainbows. + +She opened her eyes, this fair October morning, and lay and looked +at the little scattered glories. + +All around the room, on walls, curtains, ceiling,--falling like +bright soft jewels upon table and floor, touching everything with a +magic splendor,--were globes and shafts of colored light. Softly +blended from glowing red to tenderly fervid blue, they lay in +various forms and fragments, as the beam refracted or the objects +caught them. + +Just on the edge of the deep, opposite window-frame, clung one +vivid, separate flash of perfect azure, all alone, and farthest off +of all. + +Desire wondered, at first glance, how it should happen till she saw, +against a closet-door ajar, a gibbous sphere of red and golden +flame. Yards apart the points were, and a shadow lay between; but +the one sure sunbeam knew no distance, and there was no radiant line +of the spectrum lost. + +Desire remembered her old comparison of complementary colors: "to +see blue, and to live red," she had said, complaining. + +But now she thought,--"Foreshortening! In so many things, that is +all,--if we could only see as the Sun sees!" + +One bit of our living, by itself, all one deep, burning, bleeding +color, maybe; but the globe is white,--the blue is somewhere. And, +lo! a soft, still motion; a little of the flame-tint has dropped +off; it has leaped to join itself to the blue; it gives itself over; +and they are beautiful together,--they fulfill each other; yet, in +the changing never a thread falls quite away into the dark. Why, it +is like love joining itself to love again! + +As God's sun climbs the horizon, His steadfast, gracious purpose, +striking into earthly conditions, seems to break, and scatter, and +divide. Half our heart is here, half there; our need and ache are +severed from their help and answer; the tender blue waits far off +for the eager, asking red; yet just as surely as His light shines +on, and our life moves under it, so surely, across whatever gulf, +the beauty shall all be one again; so surely does it even now move +all together, perfect and close always under His eye, who never +sends a _half_ ray anywhere. + + * * * * * + +She read her little poem,--sent to her; she read it through. She +rose up glad and strong; her room was full of glorious sunshine now; +the broken bits of color were all taken up in one full pouring of +the day. + +She went down with the light of it in her heart, and all about her. + +Uncle Oldways met her at the foot of the wide staircase. "Good-day, +child!" he said to her in his quaint fashion. "Why it _is_ good day! +Your face shines." + +"You have given me a beautiful east window, uncle," said Desire, +"and the morning has come in!" + +And from the second step, where she still stood, she bent forward a +little, put her hands softly upon his shoulders, and for the first +time, kissed his cheek. + + + +***END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK REAL FOLKS*** + + +******* This file should be named 13997-8.txt or 13997-8.zip ******* + + +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: +https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/1/3/9/9/13997 + + + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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D. T. Whitney</h1> +<pre> +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at <a href = "https://www.gutenberg.org">www.gutenberg.org</a></pre> +<p>Title: Real Folks</p> +<p>Author: Mrs. A. D. T. Whitney</p> +<p>Release Date: November 9, 2004 [eBook #13997]</p> +<p>Language: English</p> +<p>Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1</p> +<p>***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK REAL FOLKS***</p> +<br><br><h3>E-text prepared by Janet Kegg<br> + and the Project Gutenberg Online Distributed Proofreading Team</h3><br><br> +<hr class="full" noshade> +<br><br><br><br> + +<h1> + REAL FOLKS +</h1> +<br> +<h4> +BY +</h4> + +<h2> +M<small>RS</small>. A. D. T. WHITNEY +</h2> + +<br> +<h5>1893</h5> +<br> +<br> + +<hr class="long"> +<br> +<br> +<br> + <h3>CONTENTS</h3> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0001"> +I. THIS WAY, AND THAT</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0002"> +II. LUCLARION</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0003"> +III. BY STORY-RAIL: TWENTY-SIX YEARS AN HOUR</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0004"> +IV. AFTERWARDS IS A LONG TIME</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0005"> +V. HOW THE NEWS CAME TO HOMESWORTH</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0006"> +VI. AND</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0007"> +VII. WAKING UP</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0008"> +VIII. EAVESDROPPING IN ASPEN STREET</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0009"> +IX. HAZEL'S INSPIRATION</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0010"> +X. COCKLES AND CRAMBO</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0011"> +XI. MORE WITCH-WORK</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0012"> +XII. CRUMBS</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0013"> +XIII. PIECES OF WORLDS</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0014"> +XIV. "SESAME; AND LILIES"</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0015"> +XV. WITH ALL ONE'S MIGHT</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0016"> +XVI. SWARMING</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0017"> +XVII. QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0018"> +XVIII. ALL AT ONCE</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0019"> +XIX. INSIDE</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0020"> +XX. NEIGHBORS AND NEXT OF KIN</a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0021"> +XXI. THE HORSESHOE </a></p> +<p class="toc"><a href="#2H_4_0022"> +XXII. MORNING GLORIES</a></p> +<br> +<br> +<br> +<hr class="long"> +<br> +<br> +<a name="2H_4_0001"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + I. +</h2> + + +<h3>THIS WAY, AND THAT. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +The parlor blinds were shut, and all the windows of the third-story +rooms were shaded; but the pantry window, looking out on a long low +shed, such as city houses have to keep their wood in and to dry +their clothes upon, was open; and out at this window had come two +little girls, with quiet steps and hushed voices, and carried their +books and crickets to the very further end, establishing themselves +there, where the shade of a tall, round fir tree, planted at the +foot of the yard below, fell across the building of a morning. +</p> +<p> +"It was prettier down on the bricks," Luclarion had told them. But +they thought otherwise. +</p> +<p> +"Luclarion doesn't know," said Frank. "People <i>don't</i> know things, I +think. I wonder why, when they've got old, and ought to? It's like +the sea-shore here, I guess, only the stones are all stuck down, and +you mustn't pick up the loose ones either." +</p> +<p> +Frank touched lightly, as she spoke, the white and black and gray +bits of gravel that covered the flat roof. +</p> +<p> +"And it smells—like the pine forests!" +</p> +<p> +The sun was hot and bright upon the fir branches and along the +tar-cemented roof. +</p> +<p> +"How do you know about sea-shores and pine forests?" asked Laura, +with crushing common sense. +</p> +<p> +"I don't know; but I do," said Frank. +</p> +<p> +"You don't know anything but stories and pictures and one tree, and +a little gravel, all stuck down tight." +</p> +<p> +"I'm glad I've got one tree. And the rest of it,—why listen! It's +in the <i>word</i>, Laura. <i>Forest</i>. Doesn't that sound like thousands of +them, all fresh and rustling? And Ellen went to the sea-shore, in +that book; and picked up pebbles; and the sea came up to her feet, +just as the air comes up here, and you can't get any farther,"—said +Frank, walking to the very edge and putting one foot out over, while +the wind blew in her face up the long opening between rows of brick +houses of which theirs was in the midst upon one side. +</p> +<p> +"A great sea!" exclaimed Laura, contemptuously. "With all those +other wood-sheds right out in it, all the way down!" +</p> +<p> +"Well, there's another side to the sea; and capes, and islands," +answered Frank, turning back. "Besides, I don't pretend it <i>is</i>; I +only think it seems a little bit like it. I'm often put in mind of +things. I don't know why." +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you what it is like," said Laura. "It's like the gallery +at church, where the singers stand up in a row, and look down, and +all the people look up at them. I like high places. I like Cecilia, +in the 'Bracelets,' sitting at the top, behind, when her name was +called out for the prize; and 'they all made way, and she was on the +floor in an instant.' I should like to have been Cecilia!" +</p> +<p> +"Leonora was a great deal the best." +</p> +<p> +"I know it; but she don't <i>stand out</i>." +</p> +<p> +"Laura! You're just like the Pharisees! You're always wishing for +long clothes and high seats!" +</p> +<p> +"There ain't any Pharisees, nowadays," said Laura, securely. After +which, of course, there was nothing more to be insisted. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Lake, the housekeeper, came to the middle upper window, and +moved the blind a little. Frank and Laura were behind the fir. They +saw her through the branches. She, through the farther thickness of +the tree, did not notice them. +</p> +<p> +"That was good," said Laura. "She would have beckoned us in. I hate +that forefinger of hers; it's always hushing or beckoning. It's only +two inches long. What makes us have to mind it so?" +</p> +<p> +"She puts it all into those two inches," answered Frank. "All the +<i>must</i> there is in the house. And then you've got to." +</p> +<p> +"I wouldn't—if father wasn't sick." +</p> +<p> +"Laura," said Frank, gravely, "I don't believe father is going to +get well. What do you suppose they're letting us stay at home from +school for?" +</p> +<p> +"O, that," said Laura, "was because Mrs. Lake didn't have time to +sew the sleeves into your brown dress." +</p> +<p> +"I could have worn my gingham, Laura. What if he should die pretty +soon? I heard her tell Luclarion that there must be a change before +long. They talk in little bits, Laura, and they say it solemn." +</p> +<p> +The children were silent for a few minutes. Frank sat looking +through the fir-tree at the far-off flecks of blue. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Shiere had been ill a long time. They could hardly think, now, +what it would seem again not to have a sick father; and they had had +no mother for several years,—many out of their short remembrance of +life. Mrs. Lake had kept the house, and mended their clothes, and +held up her forefinger at them. Even when Mr. Shiere was well, he +had been a reserved man, much absorbed in business since his wife's +death, he had been a very sad man. He loved his children, but he was +very little with them. Frank and Laura could not feel the shock and +loss that children feel when death comes and robs them suddenly of a +close companionship. +</p> +<p> +"What do you suppose would happen then?" asked Laura, after awhile. +"We shouldn't be anybody's children." +</p> +<p> +"Yes, we should," said Frank; "we should be God's.' +</p> +<p> +"Everybody else is that,—<i>besides</i>," said Laura. +</p> +<p> +"We shall have black silk pantalets again, I suppose,"—she began, +afresh, looking down at her white ones with double crimped +ruffles,—"and Mrs. Gibbs will come in and help, and we shall have +to pipe and overcast." +</p> +<p> +"O, Laura, how nice it was ever so long ago!" cried Frank, suddenly, +never heeding the pantalets, "when mother sent us out to ask company +to tea,—that pleasant Saturday, you know,—and made lace pelerines +for our dolls while we were gone! It's horrid, when other girls have +mothers, only to have a <i>housekeeper</i>! And pretty soon we sha'n't +have anything, only a little corner, away back, that we can't hardly +recollect." +</p> +<p> +"They'll do something with us; they always do," said Laura, +composedly. +</p> +<p> +The children of this world, even <i>as</i> children, are wisest in their +generation. Frank believed they would be God's children; she could +not see exactly what was to come of that, though, practically. Laura +knew that people always did something; something would be sure to +be done with them. She was not frightened; she was even a little +curious. +</p> +<p> +A head came up at the corner of the shed behind them, a pair of +shoulders,—high, square, turned forward; a pair of arms, long +thence to the elbows, as they say women's are who might be good +nurses of children; the hands held on to the sides of the steep +steps that led up from the bricked yard. The young woman's face was +thin and strong; two great, clear, hazel eyes looked straight out, +like arrow shots; it was a clear, undeviating glance; it never +wandered, or searched, or wavered, any more than a sunbeam; it +struck full upon whatever was there; it struck <i>through</i> many things +that were transparent to their quality. She had square, white, +strong teeth, that set together like the faces of a die; they showed +easily when she spoke, but the lips closed over them absolutely and +firmly. Yet they were pleasant lips, and had a smile in them that +never went quite out; it lay in all the muscles of the mouth and +chin; it lay behind, in the living spirit that had moulded to itself +the muscles. +</p> +<p> +This was Luclarion. +</p> +<p> +"Your Aunt Oldways and Mrs. Oferr have come. Hurry in!" +</p> +<p> +Now Mrs. Oldways was only an uncle's wife; Mrs. Oferr was their +father's sister. But Mrs. Oferr was a rich woman who lived in New +York, and who came on grand and potent, with a scarf or a pair of +shoe-bows for each of the children in her big trunk, and a hundred +and one suggestions for their ordering and behavior at her tongue's +end, once a year. Mrs. Oldways lived up in the country, and was +"aunt" to half the neighborhood at home, and turned into an aunt +instantly, wherever she went and found children. If there were no +children, perhaps older folks did not call her by the name, but they +felt the special human kinship that is of no-blood or law, but is +next to motherhood in the spirit. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Oferr found the open pantry window, before the children had +got in. +</p> +<p> +"Out there!" she exclaimed, "in the eyes of all the neighbors in the +circumstances of the family! Who does, or <i>don't</i> look after you?" +</p> +<p> +"Hearts'-sake!" came up the pleasant tones of Mrs. Oldways from +behind, "how can they help it? There isn't any other out-doors. If +they were down at Homesworth now, there'd be the lilac garden and +the old chestnuts, and the seat under the wall. Poor little souls!" +she added, pitifully, as she lifted them in, and kissed them. "It's +well they can take any comfort. Let 'em have all there is." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Oferr drew the blinds, and closed the window. +</p> +<p> +Frank and Laura remembered the strangeness of that day all their +lives. How they sat, shy and silent, while Luclarion brought in cake +and wine; how Mrs. Oferr sat in the large morocco easy-chair and +took some; and Mrs. Oldways lifted Laura, great girl as she was, +into her lap first, and broke a slice for her; how Mrs. Oldways went +up-stairs to Mrs. Lake, and then down into the kitchen to do +something that was needed; and Mrs. Oferr, after she had visited her +brother, lay down in the spare chamber for a nap, tired with her +long journey from New York, though it had been by boat and cars, +while there was a long staging from Homesworth down to Nashua, on +Mrs. Oldways' route. Mrs. Oldways, however, was "used," she said, +"to stepping round." It was the sitting that had tired her. +</p> +<p> +How they were told not to go out any more, or to run up and +down-stairs; and how they sat in the front windows, looking out +through the green slats at so much of the street world as they could +see in strips; how they obtained surreptitious bits of bread from +dinner, and opened a bit of the sash, and shoved out crumbs under +the blinds for the pigeons that flew down upon the sidewalk; how +they wondered what kind of a day it was in other houses, where there +were not circumstances in the family, where children played, and +fathers were not ill, but came and went to and from their stores; +and where two aunts had not come, both at once, from great ways off, +to wait for something strange and awful that was likely to befall. +</p> +<p> +When they were taken in, at bedtime, to kiss their father and say +good-night, there was something portentous in the stillness there; +in the look of the sick man, raised high against the pillows, and +turning his eyes wistfully toward them, with no slightest movement +of the head; in the waiting aspect of all things,—the appearance as +of everybody being to sit up all night except themselves. +</p> +<p> +Edward Shiere brought his children close to him with the magnetism +of that look; they bent down to receive his kiss and his good-night, +so long and solemn. He had not been in the way of talking to them +about religion in his life. He had only insisted on their truth and +obedience; that was the beginning of all religion. Now it was given +him in the hour of his death what he should speak; and because he +had never said many such words to them before, they fell like the +very touch of the Holy Ghost upon their young spirits now,— +</p> +<p> +"Love God, and keep His commandments. Good-by." +</p> +<p> +In the morning, when they woke, Mrs. Lake was in their room, talking +in a low voice with Mrs. Oferr, who stood by an open bureau. They +heard Luclarion dusting down the stairs. +</p> +<p> +Who was taking care of their father? +</p> +<p> +They did not ask. In the night, he had been taken care of. It was +morning with him, now, also. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Lake and Mrs. Oferr were calculating,—about black pantalets, +and other things. +</p> +<p> +This story is not with the details of their early orphan life. When +Edward Shiere was buried came family consultations. The two aunts +were the nearest friends. Nobody thought of Mr. Titus Oldways. He +never was counted. He was Mrs. Shiere's uncle,—Aunt Oldways' +uncle-in-law, therefore, and grand-uncle to these children. But +Titus Oldways never took up any family responsibilities; he had been +shy of them all his single, solitary life. He seemed to think he +could not drop them as he could other things, if he did not find +them satisfactory. Besides, what would he know about two young +girls? +</p> +<p> +He saw the death in the paper, and came to the funeral; then he went +away again to his house in Greenley Street at the far West End, and +to his stiff old housekeeper, Mrs. Froke, who knew his stiff old +ways. And, turning his back on everybody, everybody forgot all about +him. Except as now and then, at intervals of years, there broke out +here or there, at some distant point in some family crisis, a sudden +recollection from which would spring a half suggestion, "Why, +there's Uncle Titus! If he was only,"—or, "if he would only,"—and +there it ended. Much as it might be with a housewife, who says of +some stored-away possession forty times, perhaps, before it ever +turns out available, "Why, there's that old gray taffety! If it were +only green, now!" or, "If there were three or four yards more of +it!" +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus was just Uncle Titus, neither more nor less; so Mrs. +Oferr and Aunt Oldways consulted about their own measures and +materials; and never reckoned the old taffety at all. There was +money enough to clothe and educate; little more. +</p> +<p> +"I will take home <i>one</i>," said Mrs. Oferr, distinctly. +</p> +<p> +So, they were to be separated? +</p> +<p> +They did not realize what this was, however. They were told of +letters and visits; of sweet country-living, of city sights and +pleasures; of kittens and birds' nests, and the great barns; of +music and dancing lessons, and little parties,—"by-and-by, when it +was proper." +</p> +<p> +"Let me go to Homesworth," whispered Frank to Aunt Oldways. +</p> +<p> +Laura gravitated as surely to the streets and shops, and the great +school of young ladies. +</p> +<p> +"One taken and the other left," quoted Luclarion, over the packing +of the two small trunks. +</p> +<p> +"We're both going," says Laura, surprised. "<i>One</i> taken? Where?" +</p> +<p> +"Where the carcass is," answered Luclarion. +</p> +<p> +"There's one thing you'll have to see to for yourselves. I can't +pack it. It won't go into the trunks." +</p> +<p> +"What, Luclarion?" +</p> +<p> +"What your father said to you that night." +</p> +<p> +They were silent. Presently Frank answered, softly,—"I hope I +shan't forget that." +</p> +<p> +Laura, the pause once broken, remarked, rather glibly, that she "was +afraid there wouldn't be much chance to recollect things at Aunt +Oferr's." +</p> +<p> +"She isn't exactly what I call a heavenly-minded woman," said +Luclarion, quietly. +</p> +<p> +"She is very much <i>occupied</i>," replied Laura, grandly taking up the +Oferr style. "She visits a great deal, and she goes out in the +carriage. You have to change your dress every day for dinner, and +I'm to take French lessons." +</p> +<p> +The absurd little sinner was actually proud of her magnificent +temptations. She was only a child. Men and women never are, of +course. +</p> +<p> +"I'm afraid it will be pretty hard to remember," repeated Laura, +with condescension. +</p> +<p> +"<i>That's</i> your stump!" +</p> +<p> +Luclarion fixed the steadfast arrow of her look straight upon her, +and drew the bow with this twang. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0002"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + II. +</h2> +<h3> + LUCLARION. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +How Mrs. Grapp ever came to, was the wonder. Her having the baby was +nothing. Her having the name for it was the astonishment. +</p> +<p> +Her own name was Lucy; her husband's Luther: that, perhaps, +accounted for the first syllable; afterwards, whether her mind +lapsed off into combinations of such outshining appellatives as +"Clara" and "Marion," or whether Mr. Grapp having played the +clarionet, and wooed her sweetly with it in her youth, had anything +to do with it, cannot be told; but in those prescriptive days of +quiet which followed the domestic advent, the name did somehow grow +together in the fancy of Mrs. Luther; and in due time the life-atom +which had been born indistinguishable into the natural world, was +baptized into the Christian Church as "Luclarion" Grapp. +Thenceforth, and no wonder, it took to itself a very especial +individuality, and became what this story will partly tell. +</p> +<p> +Marcus Grapp, who had the start of Luclarion in this "meander,"—as +their father called the vale of tears,—by just two years' time, and +was y-<i>clipped</i>, by everybody but his mother "Mark,"—in his turn, +as they grew old together, cut his sister down to "Luke." Then +Luther Grapp called them both "The Apostles." And not far wrong; +since if ever the kingdom of heaven does send forth its +Apostles—nay, its little Christs—into the work on earth, in these +days, it is as little children into loving homes. +</p> +<p> +The Apostles got up early one autumn morning, when Mark was about +six years old, and Luke four. They crept out of their small +trundle-bed in their mother's room adjoining the great kitchen, and +made their way out softly to the warm wide hearth. +</p> +<p> +There were new shoes, a pair apiece, brought home from the Mills the +night before, set under the little crickets in the corners. These +had got into their dreams, somehow, and into the red rooster's first +halloo from the end room roof, and into the streak of pale daylight +that just stirred and lifted the darkness, and showed doors and +windows, but not yet the blue meeting-houses on the yellow +wall-paper, by which they always knew when it was really morning; +and while Mrs. Grapp was taking that last beguiling nap in which one +is conscious that one means to get up presently, and rests so +sweetly on one's good intentions, letting the hazy mirage of the +day's work that is to be done play along the horizon of dim thoughts +with its unrisen activities,—two little flannel night-gowns were +cuddled in small heaps by the chimney-side, little bare feet were +trying themselves into the new shoes, and lifting themselves up, +crippled with two inches of stout string between the heels. +</p> +<p> +Then the shoes were turned into spans of horses, and chirruped and +trotted softly into their cricket-stables; and then—what else was +there to do, until the strings were cut, and the flannel night-gowns +taken off? +</p> +<p> +It was so still out here, in the big, busy, day-time room; it was +like getting back where the world had not begun; surely one must do +something wonderful with the materials all lying round, and such an +opportunity as that. +</p> +<p> +It was old-time then, when kitchens had fire-places; or rather the +house was chiefly fire-place, in front of and about which was more +or less of kitchen-space. In the deep fire-place lay a huge mound of +gray ashes, a Vesuvius, under which red bowels of fire lay hidden. +In one corner of the chimney leaned an iron bar, used sometimes in +some forgotten, old fashioned way, across dogs or pothooks,—who +knows now? At any rate, there it always was. +</p> +<p> +Mark, ambitious, put all his little strength to it this morning and +drew it down, carefully, without much clatter, on the hearth. Then +he thought how it would turn red under those ashes, where the big +coals were, and how it would shine and sparkle when he pulled it out +again, like the red-hot, hissing iron Jack-the-Giant-Killer struck +into the one-eyed monster's eye. So he shoved it in; and forgot it +there, while he told Luke—very much twisted and dislocated, and +misjoined—the leading incidents of the giant story; and then lapsed +off, by some queer association, into the Scripture narrative of +Joseph and his brethren, who "pulled his red coat off, and put him +in a <i>fit</i>, and left him there." +</p> +<p> +"And then what?" says Luke. +</p> +<p> +"Then,—O, my iron's done! See here, Luke!"—and taking it prudently +with the tongs, he pulled back the rod, till the glowing end, a foot +or more of live, palpitating, flamy red, lay out upon the broad open +bricks. +</p> +<p> +"There, Luke! You daresn't put your foot on <i>that</i>!" +</p> +<p> +Dear little Luke, who wouldn't, at even four years old, be dared! +</p> +<p> +And dear little white, tender, pink-and-lily foot! +</p> +<p> +The next instant, a shriek of pain shot through Mrs. Grapp's ears, +and sent her out of her dreams and out of her bed, and with one +single impulse into the kitchen, with her own bare feet, and in her +night-gown. +</p> +<p> +The little foot had only touched; a dainty, timid, yet most +resolute touch; but the sweet flesh shriveled, and the fierce +anguish ran up every fibre of the baby body, to the very heart and +brain. +</p> +<p> +"O! O, O!" came the long, pitiful, shivering cries, as the mother +gathered her in her arms. +</p> +<p> +"What is it? What did you do? How came you to?" And all the while +she moved quickly here and there, to cupboard and press-drawer, +holding the child fast, and picking up as she could with one hand, +cotton wool, and sweet-oil flask, and old linen bits; and so she +bound it up, saying still, every now and again, as all she could +say,—"What <i>did</i> you do? How came you to?" +</p> +<p> +Till, in a little lull of the fearful smart, as the air was shut +away, and the oil felt momentarily cool upon the ache, Luke answered +her,— +</p> +<p> +"He hed I dare-hn't, and ho I did!" +</p> +<p> +"You little fool!" +</p> +<p> +The rough word was half reaction of relief, that the child could +speak at all, half horrible spasm of all her own motherly nerves +that thrilled through and through with every pang that touched the +little frame, hers also. Mothers never do part bonds with babies +they have borne. Until the day they die, each quiver of their life +goes back straight to the heart beside which it began. +</p> +<p> +"You Marcus! What did you mean?" +</p> +<p> +"I meant she darsn't; and she no business to 'a dars't," said Mark, +pale with remorse and fright, but standing up stiff and manful, with +bare common sense, when brought to bay. And then he marched away +into his mother's bedroom, plunged his head down into the clothes, +and cried,—harder than Luclarion. +</p> +<p> +Nobody wore any new shoes that day; Mark for a punishment,—though +he flouted at the penalty as such, with an, "I guess you'd see me!" +And there were many days before poor little Luclarion could wear any +shoes at all. +</p> +<p> +The foot got well, however, without hindrance. But Luke was the same +little fool as ever; that was not burnt out. She would never be +"dared" to anything. +</p> +<p> +They called it "stumps" as they grew older. They played "stumps" all +through the barns and woods and meadows; over walls and rocks, and +rafters and house-roofs. But the burnt foot saved Luke's neck scores +of times, doubtless. Mark remembered it; he never "stumped" her to +any certain hurt, or where he could not lead the way himself. +</p> +<p> +The mischief they got into and out of is no part of my story; but +one day something happened—things do happen as far back in lives as +that—which gave Luclarion her clew to the world. +</p> +<p> +They had got into the best parlor,—that sacred place of the New +England farm-house, that is only entered by the high-priests +themselves on solemn festivals, weddings and burials, Thanksgivings +and quiltings; or devoutly, now and then to set the shrine in order, +shut the blinds again, and so depart, leaving it to gather the gloom +and grandeur that things and places and people do when they are good +for nothing else. +</p> +<p> +The children had been left alone; for their mother had gone to a +sewing society, and Grashy, the girl, was up-stairs in her +kitchen-chamber-bedroom, with a nail over the door-latch to keep +them out while she "fixed over" her best gown. +</p> +<p> +"Le's play Lake Ontario," says Marcus. +</p> +<p> +Now Lake Ontario, however they had pitched upon it, stood with them +for all the waters that are upon the face of the earth, and all the +confusion and peril of them. To play it, they turned the room into +one vast shipwreck, of upset and piled up chairs, stools, boxes, +buckets, and what else they could lay hands on; and among and over +them they navigated their difficult and hilarious way. By no means +were they to touch the floor; that was the Lake,—that were to +drown. +</p> +<p> +It was Columbus sometimes; sometimes it was Captain Cook; to-day, it +was no less than Jason sailing after the golden fleece. +</p> +<p> +Out of odd volumes in the garret, and out of "best books" taken down +from the secretary in the "settin'-room," and put into their hands, +with charges, of a Sunday, to keep them still, they had got these +things, jumbled into strange far-off and near fantasies in their +childish minds. "Lake Ontario" included and connected all. +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you what it is," said Marcus, tumbling up against the +parlor door and an idea at once. "In here!" +</p> +<p> +"What?" asked Luke, breathless, without looking up, and paddling +with the shovel, from an inverted rocking-chair. +</p> +<p> +"The golden thing! Hush!" +</p> +<p> +At this moment Grashy came into the kitchen, took a little tin +kettle from a nail over the dresser, and her sun-bonnet from another +behind the door, and made her way through the apartment as well as +she could for bristling chair-legs, with exemplary placidity. She +was used to "Lake Ontario." +</p> +<p> +"Don't get into any mischief, you Apostles," was her injunction. +"I'm goin' down to Miss Ruddock's for some 'east." +</p> +<p> +"Good,"; says Mark, the instant the door was shut "Now this is +Colchis, and I'm going in." +</p> +<p> +He pronounced it much like "cold-cheese," and it never occurred to +him that he was naming any unusual or ancient locality. There was a +"Jason" in the Mills Village. He kept a grocer's shop. Colchis might +be close by for all he knew; out beyond the wall, perhaps, among the +old barrels. Children <i>place</i> all they read or hear about, or even +all they imagine, within a very limited horizon. They cannot go +beyond their world. Why should they? Neither could those very +venerable ancients. +</p> +<p> +"'Tain't," says Luclarion, with unbeguiled practicality. "It's just +ma's best parlor, and you mustn't." +</p> +<p> +It was the "mustn't" that was the whole of it. If Mark had asserted +that the back kitchen, or the cellar-way closet was Colchis, she +would have indorsed it with enthusiasm, and followed on like a loyal +Argonaut, as she was. But her imagination here was prepossessed. +Nothing in old fable could be more environed with awe and mystery +than this best parlor. +</p> +<p> +"And, besides," said Luclarion, "I don't care for the golden +fleece; I'm tired of it. Let's play something else." +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you what there is in here," persisted Mark. "There's two +enchanted children. I've seen 'em!" +</p> +<p> +"Just as though," said Luke contemptuously. "Ma ain't a witch." +</p> +<p> +"Tain't ma. She don't know. They ain't visible to her. <i>She</i> thinks +it's nothing but the best parlor. But it opens out, right into the +witch country,—not for her. 'Twill if we go. See if it don't." +</p> +<p> +He had got hold of her now; Luclarion could not resist that. +Anything might be true of that wonderful best room, after all. It +was the farthest Euxine, the witch-land, everything, to them. +</p> +<p> +So Mark turned the latch and they crept in +</p> +<p> +"We must open a shutter," Mark said, groping his way. +</p> +<p> +"Grashy will be back," suggested Luke, fearfully. +</p> +<p> +"Guess so!" said Mark. "She ain't got coaxed to take her sun-bonnet +off yet, an' it'll take her ninety-'leven hours to get it on again." +</p> +<p> +He had let in the light now from the south window. +</p> +<p> +The red carpet on the floor; the high sofa of figured hair-cloth, +with brass-headed nails, and brass rosettes in the ends of the hard, +cylinder pillows; the tall, carved cupboard press, its doors and +drawers glittering with hanging brass handles; right opposite the +door by which they had come in, the large, leaning mirror, +gilt—garnished with grooved and beaded rim and an eagle and +ball-chains over the top,—all this, opening right in from the +familiar every-day kitchen and their Lake Ontario,—it certainly +meant something that such a place should be. It meant a great deal +more than sixteen feet square could hold, and what it really was did +not stop short at the gray-and-crimson stenciled walls. +</p> +<p> +The two were all alone in it; perhaps they had never been all alone +in it before. I think, notwithstanding their mischief and +enterprise, they never had. +</p> +<p> +And deep in the mirror, face to face with them, coming down, it +seemed, the red slant of an inner and more brilliant floor, they saw +two other little figures. Their own they knew, really, but elsewhere +they never saw their own figures entire. There was not another +looking-glass in the house that was more than two feet long, and +they were all hung up so high! +</p> +<p> +"There!" whispered Mark. "There they are, and they can't get out." +</p> +<p> +"Of course they can't," said sensible Luclarion. +</p> +<p> +"If we only knew the right thing to say, or do, they might," said +Mark. "It's that they're waiting for, you see. They always do. It's +like the sleeping beauty Grashy told us." +</p> +<p> +"Then they've got to wait a hundred years," said Luke. +</p> +<p> +"Who knows when they began?" +</p> +<p> +"They do everything that we do," said Luclarion, her imagination +kindling, but as under protest. "If we could jump in perhaps they +would jump out." +</p> +<p> +"We might jump <i>at</i> 'em," said Marcus. "Jest get 'em going, and +may-be they'd jump over. Le's try." +</p> +<p> +So they set up two chairs from Lake Ontario in the kitchen doorway, +to jump from; but they could only jump to the middle round of the +carpet, and who could expect that the shadow children should be +beguiled by that into a leap over bounds? They only came to the +middle round of <i>their</i> carpet. +</p> +<p> +"We must go nearer; we must set the chairs in the middle, and jump +close. Jest <i>shave</i>, you know," said Marcus. +</p> +<p> +"O, I'm afraid," said Luclarion. +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you what! Le's <i>run</i> and jump! Clear from the other side +of the kitchen, you know. Then they'll have to run too, and may-be +they can't stop." +</p> +<p> +So they picked up chairs and made a path, and ran from across the +broad kitchen into the parlor doorway, quite on to the middle round +of the carpet, and then with great leaps came down bodily upon the +floor close in front of the large glass that, leaned over them, with +two little fallen figures in it, rolling aside quickly also, over +the slanting red carpet. +</p> +<p> +But, O dear what did it? +</p> +<p> +Had the time come, anyhow, for the old string to part its last +fibre, that held the mirror tilting from the wall,—or was it the +crash of a completed spell? +</p> +<p> +There came a snap,—a strain,—as some nails or screws that held it +otherwise gave way before the forward pressing weight, and down, +flat-face upon the floor, between the children, covering them with +fragments of splintered glass and gilded wood,—eagle, ball-chains, +and all,—that whole magnificence and mystery lay prostrate. +</p> +<p> +Behind, where it had been, was a blank, brown-stained cobwebbed +wall, thrown up harsh and sudden against them, making the room +small, and all the enchanted chamber, with its red slanting carpet, +and its far reflected corners, gone. +</p> +<p> +The house hushed up again after that terrible noise, and stood just +the same as ever. When a thing like that happens, it tells its own +story, just once, and then it is over. <i>People</i> are different. They +keep talking. +</p> +<p> +There was Grashy to come home. She had not got there in time to hear +the house tell it. She must learn it from the children. Why? +</p> +<p> +"Because they knew," Luclarion said. "Because, then, they could not +wait and let it be found out." +</p> +<p> +"We never touched it," said Mark. +</p> +<p> +"We jumped," said Luke. +</p> +<p> +"We couldn't help it, if <i>that</i> did it. S'posin' we'd jumped in the +kitchen, or—the—flat-irons had tumbled down,—or anything? That +old string was all wore out." +</p> +<p> +"Well, we was here, and we jumped; and we know." +</p> +<p> +"We was here, of course; and of course we couldn't help knowing, +with all that slam-bang. Why, it almost upset Lake Ontario! We can +tell how it slammed, and how we thought the house was coming down. I +did." +</p> +<p> +"And how we were in the best parlor, and how we jumped," reiterated +Luclarion, slowly. "Marcus, it's a stump!" +</p> +<p> +They were out in the middle of Lake Ontario now, sitting right down +underneath the wrecks, upon the floor; that is, under water, without +ever thinking of it. The parlor door was shut, with all that +disaster and dismay behind it. +</p> +<p> +"Go ahead, then!" said Marcus, and he laid himself back desperately +on the floor. "There's Grashy!" +</p> +<p> +"Sakes and patience!" ejaculated Grashy, merrily, coming in. +"They're drownded,—dead, both of 'em; down to the bottom of Lake +Ontariah!" +</p> +<p> +"No we ain't," said Luclarion, quietly. "It isn't Lake Ontario now. +It's nothing but a clutter. But there's an awful thing in the best +parlor, and we don't know whether we did it or not. We were in +there, and we jumped." +</p> +<p> +Grashy went straight to the parlor door, and opened it. She looked +in, turned pale, and said "'Lection!" +</p> +<p> +That is a word the women have, up in the country, for solemn +surprise, or exceeding emergency, or dire confusion. I do not know +whether it is derived from religion or politics. It denotes a vital +crisis, either way, and your hands full. Perhaps it had the +theological association in Grashy's mind, for the next thing she +said was, "My soul!" +</p> +<p> +"Do you know what that's a sign of, you children?" +</p> +<p> +"Sign the old thing was rotten," said Marcus, rather sullenly. +</p> +<p> +"Wish that was all," said Grashy, her lips white yet. "Hope there +mayn't nothin' dreadful happen in this house before the year's out. +It's wuss'n thirteen at the table." +</p> +<p> +"Do you s'pose we did it?" asked Luke, anxiously. +</p> +<p> +"Where was you when it tumbled?" +</p> +<p> +"Right in front of it. But we were rolling away. <i>We</i> tumbled." +</p> +<p> +"'Twould er come down the fust jar, anyway, if a door had slammed. +The string's cut right through," said Grashy, looking at the two +ends sticking up stiff and straight from the top fragment of the +frame. "But the mercy is you war'n't smashed yourselves to bits and +flinders. Think o'that!" +</p> +<p> +"Do you s'pose ma'll think of that?" asked Luclarion. +</p> +<p> +"Well—yes; but it may make her kinder madder,—just at first, you +know. Between you and me and the lookin'-glass, you see,—well, yer +ma is a pretty strong-feelin' woman," said Grashy, reflectively. +"'Fi was you I wouldn't say nothin' about it. What's the use? <i>I</i> +shan't." +</p> +<p> +"It's a stump," repeated Luclarion, sadly, but in very resolute +earnest. +</p> +<p> +Grashy stared. +</p> +<p> +"Well, if you ain't the curiousest young one, Luke Grapp!" said she, +only half comprehending. +</p> +<p> +When Mrs. Grapp came home, Luclarion went into her bedroom after +her, and told her the whole story. Mrs. Grapp went into the parlor, +viewed the scene of calamity, took in the sense of loss and narrowly +escaped danger, laid the whole weight of them upon the disobedience +to be dealt with, and just as she had said, "You little fool!" out +of the very shock of her own distress when Luke had burned her baby +foot, she turned back now, took the two children up-stairs in +silence, gave them each a good old orthodox whipping, and tucked +them into their beds. +</p> +<p> +They slept one on each side of the great kitchen-chamber. +</p> +<p> +"Mark," whispered Luke, tenderly, after Mrs. Grapp's step had died +away down the stairs. "How do you feel?" +</p> +<p> +"Hot!" said Mark. "How do you?" +</p> +<p> +"You ain't mad with me, be you?" +</p> +<p> +"No." +</p> +<p> +"Then I feel real cleared up and comfortable. But it <i>was</i> a stump, +wasn't it?" +</p> +<hr> +<p> +From that time forward, Luclarion Grapp had got her light to go by. +She understood life. It was "stumps" all through. The Lord set them, +and let them; she found that out afterward, when she was older, and +"experienced religion." I think she was mistaken in the dates, +though; it was <i>recognition</i>, this later thing; the experience was +away back,—at Lake Ontario. +</p> +<p> +It was a stump when her father died, and her mother had to manage +the farm, and she to help her. The mortgage they had to work off was +a stump; but faith and Luclarion's dairy did it. It was a stump when +Marcus wanted to go to college, and they undertook that, after the +mortgage. It was a stump when Adam Burge wanted her to marry him, +and go and live in the long red cottage at Side Hill, and she could +not go till they had got through with helping Marcus. It was a +terrible stump when Adam Burge married Persis Cone instead, and she +had to live on and bear it. It was a stump when her mother died, and +the farm was sold. +</p> +<p> +Marcus married; he never knew; he had a belles-lettres professorship +in a new college up in D——. He would not take a cent of the farm +money; he had had his share long ago; the four thousand dollars +were invested for Luke. He did the best he could, and all he knew; +but human creatures can never pay each other back. Only God can do +that, either way. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion did not stay in ——. There were too few there now, and +too many. She came down to Boston. Her two hundred and eighty +dollars a year was very good, as far as it went, but it would not +keep her idle; neither did she wish to live idle. She learned +dress-making; she had taste and knack; she was doing well; she +enjoyed going about from house to house for her days' work, and then +coming back to her snug room at night, and her cup of tea and her +book. +</p> +<p> +Then it turned out that so much sewing was not good for her; her +health was threatened; she had been used to farm work and "all +out-doors." It was a "stump" again. That was all she called it; she +did not talk piously about a "cross." What difference did it make? +There is another word, also, for "cross" in Hebrew. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion came at last to live with Mrs. Edward Shiere. And in that +household, at eight and twenty, we have just found her. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0003"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + III. +</h2> +<h3> + BY STORY-RAIL: TWENTY-SIX YEARS AN HOUR. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Laura Shiere did not think much about the "stump," when, in her dark +gray merino travelling dress, and her black ribbons, nicely +appointed, as Mrs. Oferr's niece should be, down to her black kid +gloves and broad-hemmed pocket-handkerchief, and little black straw +travelling-basket (for morocco bags were not yet in those days), she +stepped into the train with her aunt at the Providence Station, on +her way to Stonington and New York. +</p> +<p> +The world seemed easily laid out before her. She was like a cousin +in a story-book, going to arrive presently at a new home, and begin +a new life, in which she would be very interesting to herself and to +those about her. She felt rather important, too, with her money +independence—there being really "property" of hers to be spoken of +as she had heard it of late. She had her mother's diamond ring on +her third finger, and was comfortably conscious of it when she drew +off her left-hand glove. Laura Shiere's nature had only been +stirred, as yet, a very little below the surface, and the surface +rippled pleasantly in the sunlight that was breaking forth from the +brief clouds. +</p> +<p> +Among the disreputable and vociferous crowd of New York hack +drivers, that swarmed upon the pier as the <i>Massachusetts</i> glided +into her dock, it was good to see that subduedly respectable and +consciously private and superior man in the drab overcoat and the +nice gloves and boots, who came forward and touched his hat to Mrs. +Oferr, took her shawl and basket, and led the way, among the +aggravated public menials, to a handsome private carriage waiting on +the street. +</p> +<p> +"All well at home, David?" asked Mrs. Oferr. +</p> +<p> +"All well, ma'am, thank you," replied David. +</p> +<p> +And another man sat upon the box, in another drab coat, and touched +<i>his</i> hat; and when they reached Waverley Place and alighted, Mrs. +Oferr had something to say to him of certain directions, and +addressed him as "Moses." +</p> +<p> +It was very grand and wonderful to order "David" and "Moses" about. +Laura felt as if her aunt were something only a little less than +"Michael with the sword." Laura had a susceptibility for dignities; +she appreciated, as we have seen out upon the wood-shed, "high +places, and all the people looking up." +</p> +<p> +David and Moses were brothers, she found out; she supposed that was +the reason they dressed alike, in drab coats; as she and Frank used +to wear their red merinos, and their blue ginghams. A little spasm +did come up in her throat for a minute, as she thought of the old +frocks and the old times already dropped so far behind; but Alice +and Geraldine Oferr met her the next instant on the broad staircase +at the back of the marble-paved hall, looking slight and delicate, +and princess-like, in the grand space built about them for their +lives to move in; and in the distance and magnificence of it all, +the faint little momentary image of Frank faded away. +</p> +<p> +She went up with them out of the great square hall, over the stately +staircase, past the open doors of drawing-rooms and library, +stretching back in a long suite, with the conservatory gleaming +green from the far end over the garden, up the second stairway to +the floor where their rooms were; bedrooms and nursery,—this last +called so still, though the great, airy front-room was the place +used now for their books and amusements as growing young +ladies,—all leading one into another around the skylighted upper +hall, into which the sunshine came streaked with amber and violet +from the richly colored glass. She had a little side apartment given +to her for her own, with a recessed window, in which were blossoming +plants just set there from the conservatory; opposite stood a white, +low bed in a curtained alcove, and beyond was a dressing-closet. +Laura thought she should not be able to sleep there at all for a +night or two, for the beauty of it and the good time she should be +having. +</p> +<p> +At that same moment Frank and her Aunt Oldways were getting down +from the stage that had brought them over from Ipsley, where they +slept after their day's journey from Boston,—at the doorstone of +the low, broad-roofed, wide-built, roomy old farm-house in +Homesworth. +</p> +<p> +Right in the edge of the town it stood, its fields stretching over +the south slope of green hills in sunny uplands, and down in meadowy +richness to the wild, hidden, sequestered river-side, where the +brown water ran through a narrow, rocky valley,—Swift River they +called it. There are a great many Swift Rivers in New England. It +was only a vehement little tributary of a larger stream, beside +which lay larger towns; it was doing no work for the world, +apparently, at present; there were no mills, except a little +grist-mill to which the farmers brought their corn, cuddled among +the rocks and wild birches and alders, at a turn where the road came +down, and half a dozen planks made a bit of a bridge. +</p> +<p> +"O, what beautiful places!" cried Frank, as they crossed the little +bridge, and glanced either way into a green, gray, silvery vista of +shrubs and rocks, and rushing water, with the white spires of +meadow-sweet and the pink hardback, and the first bright plumes of +the golden rod nodding and shining against the shade,—as they +passed the head of a narrow, grassy lane, trod by cows' feet, and +smelling of their milky breaths, and the sweetness of hay-barns,—as +they came up, at length, over the long slope of turf that carpeted +the way, as for a bride's feet, from the roadside to the very +threshold. She looked along the low, treble-piled garden wall, too, +and out to the open sheds, deep with pine chips; and upon the broad +brown house-roof, with its long, gradual decline, till its eaves +were within reach of a child's fingers from the ground; and her +quick eye took in facilities. +</p> +<p> +"O, if Laura could see this! After the old shed-top in Brier Street, +and the one tree!" +</p> +<p> +But Laura had got what the shed-top stood for with her; it was +Frank who had hearkened to whole forests in the stir of the one +brick-rooted fir. To that which each child had, it was already +given. +</p> +<p> +In a week or two Frank wrote Laura a letter. It was an old-fashioned +letter, you know; a big sheet, written close, four pages, +all but the middle of the last page, which was left for the +"superscription." Then it was folded, the first leaf turned down +twice, lengthwise; then the two ends laid over, toward each other; +then the last doubling, or rather trebling, across; and the open +edge slipped over the folds. A wafer sealed it, and a thimble +pressed it,—and there were twenty-five cents postage to pay. That +was a letter in the old times, when Laura and Frank Shiere were +little girls. And this was that letter:— +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + D<small>EAR</small> L<small>AURA</small>,—We got here safe, Aunt Oldways and I, a week ago + last Saturday, and it is <i>beautiful</i>. There is a green + lane,—almost everybody has a green lane,—and the cows go up + and down, and the swallows build in the barn-eaves. They fly + out at sundown, and fill all the sky up. It is like the specks + we used to watch in the sunshine when it came in across the + kitchen, and they danced up and down and through and away, and + seemed to be live things; only we couldn't tell, you know, what + they were, or if they really did know how good it was. But + these are big and real, and you can see their wings, and you + know what they mean by it. I guess it is all the same thing, + only some things are little and some are big. You can see the + stars here, too,—such a sky full. And that is all the same + again. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + There are beautiful roofs and walls here. I guess you would + think you were high up! Harett and I go up from under the + cheese-room windows right over the whole house, and we sit on + the peak by the chimney. Harett is Mrs. Dillon's girl. Not the + girl that lives with her,—her daughter. But the girls that + live with people are daughters here. Somebody's else, I mean. + They are all alike. I suppose her name is Harriet, but they all + call her Harett. I don't like to ask her for fear she should + think I thought they didn't know how to pronounce. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + I go to school with Harett; up to the West District. We carry + brown bread and butter, and doughnuts, and cheese, and + apple-pie in tin pails, for luncheon. Don't you remember the + brown cupboard in Aunt Oldways' kitchen, how sagey, and + doughnutty, and good it always smelt? It smells just so now, + and everything tastes just the same. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + There is a great rock under an oak tree half way up to school, + by the side of the road. We always stop there to rest, coming + home. Three of the girls come the same way as far as that, and + we always save some of our dinner to eat up there, and we tell + stories. I tell them about dancing-school, and the time we went + to the theatre to see "Cinderella," and going shopping with + mother, and our little tea-parties, and the Dutch dolls we made + up in the long front chamber. O, <i>don't</i> you remember, Laura? + What different pieces we have got into our remembrances + already! I feel as if I was making patchwork. Some-time, + may-be, I shall tell somebody about living <i>here</i>. Well, they + will be beautiful stories! Homesworth is an elegant place to + live in. You will see when you come next summer. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + There is an apple tree down in the south orchard that bends + just like a horse's back. Then the branches come up over your + head and shade you. We ride there, and we sit and eat summer + apples there. Little rosy apples with dark streaks in them all + warm with the sun. You can't think what a smell they have, just + like pinks and spice boxes. Why don't they keep a little way + off from each other in cities, and so have room for apple + trees? I don't see why they need to crowd so. I hate to think + of you all shut up tight when I am let right out into green + grass, and blue sky, and apple orchards. That puts me in mind + of something! Zebiah Jane, Aunt Oldways' girl, always washes + her face in the morning at the pump-basin out in the back + dooryard, just like the ducks. She says she can't spatter round + in a room; she wants all creation for a slop-bowl. I feel as if + we had all creation for everything up here. But I can't put all + creation in a letter if I try. <i>That</i> would spatter dreadfully. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + I expect a long letter from you every day now. But I don't see + what you will make it out of. I think I have got all the + <i>things</i> and you won't have anything left but the <i>words</i>. I am + sure you don't sit out on the wood-shed at Aunt Oferr's, and I + don't believe you pound stones and bricks, and make colors. Do + you know when we rubbed our new shoes with pounded stone and + made them gray? +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + I never told you about Luclarion. She came up as soon as the + things were all sent off, and she lives at the minister's. + Where she used to live is only two miles from here, but other + people live there now, and it is built on to and painted straw + color, with a green door. +</p> + + <p class="signed"> Your affectionate sister,<br> + + F<small>RANCES</small> S<small>HIERE</small>. +</p> +<p> +When Laura's letter came this was it:— +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + D<small>EAR</small> F<small>RANK</small>,—I received your kind letter a week ago, but we + have been very busy having a dressmaker and doing all our fall + shopping, and I have not had time to answer it before. We shall + begin to go to school next week, for the vacations are over, + and then I shall have ever so much studying to do. I am to take + lessons on the piano, too, and shall have to practice two hours + a day. In the winter we shall have dancing-school and + practicing parties. Aunt has had a new bonnet made for me. She + did not like the plain black silk one. This is of <i>gros + d'Afrique</i>, with little bands and cordings round the crown and + front; and I have a dress of <i>gros d'Afrique</i>, too, trimmed + with double folds piped on. For every-day I have a new black + <i>mousseline</i> with white clover leaves on it, and an all-black + French chally to wear to dinner. I don't wear my black and + white calico at all. Next summer aunt means to have me wear + white almost all the time, with lavender and violet ribbons. I + shall have a white muslin with three skirts and a black sash to + wear to parties and to Public Saturdays, next winter. They have + Public Saturdays at dancing-school every three weeks. But only + the parents and relations can come. Alice and Geraldine dance + the shawl-dance with Helena Pomeroy, with crimson and white + Canton crape scarfs. They have showed me some of it at home. + Aunt Oferr says I shall learn the <i>gavotte</i>. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + Aunt Oferr's house is splendid. The drawing-room is full of + sofas, and divans, and ottomans, and a <i>causeuse</i>, a little + S-shaped seat for two people. Everything is covered with blue + velvet, and there are blue silk curtains to the windows, and + great looking-glasses between, that you can see all down into + through rooms and rooms, as if there were a hundred of them. Do + you remember the story Luclarion used to tell us of when she + and her brother Mark were little children and used to play that + the looking-glass-things were real, and that two children lived + in them, in the other room, and how we used to make believe too + in the slanting chimney glass? You could make believe it here + with <i>forty</i> children. But I don't make believe much now. There + is such a lot that is real, and it is all so grown up. It would + seem so silly to have such plays, you know. I can't help + thinking the things that come into my head though, and it seems + sometimes just like a piece of a story, when I walk into the + drawing-room all alone, just before company comes, with my + <i>gros d'Afrique</i> on, and my puffed lace collar, and my hair + tied back with long new black ribbons. It all goes through my + head just how I look coming in, and how grand it is, and what + the words would be in a book about it, and I seem to act a + little bit, just to myself as if I were a girl in a story, and + it seems to say, "And Laura walked up the long drawing-room and + took a book bound in crimson morocco from the white marble pier + table and sat down upon the velvet ottoman in the balcony + window." But what happened then it never tells. I suppose it + will by and by. I am getting used to it all, though; it isn't + so <i>awfully</i> splendid as it was at first. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + I forgot to tell you that my new bonnet flares a great deal, + and that I have white lace quilling round the face with little + black dotty things in it on stems. They don't wear those close + cottage bonnets now. And aunt has had my dresses made longer + and my pantalettes shorter, so that they hardly show at all. + She says I shall soon wear long dresses, I am getting so tall. + Alice wears them now, and her feet look so pretty, and she has + such pretty slippers: little French purple ones, and sometimes + dark green, and sometimes beautiful light gray, to go with + different dresses. I don't care for anything but the slippers, + but I <i>should</i> like such ones as hers. Aunt says I can't, of + course, as long as I wear black, but I can have purple ones + next summer to wear with my white dresses. That will be when I + come to see you. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + I am afraid you will think this is a very <i>wearing</i> kind of a + letter, there are so many 'wears' in it. I have been reading it + over so far, but I can't put in any other word. +</p> +<p class="signed"> + Your affectionate sister,<br> + L<small>AURA</small> S<small>HIERE</small>. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + + P.S. Aunt Oferr says Laura Shiere is such a good sounding name. + It doesn't seem at all common. I am glad of it. I should hate + to be common. +</p> +<p> +I do not think I shall give you any more of it just here than these +two letters tell. We are not going through all Frank and Laura's +story. That with which we have especially to do lies on beyond. But +it takes its roots in this, as all stories take their roots far back +and underneath. +</p> +<p> +Two years after, Laura was in Homesworth for her second summer visit +at the farm. It was convenient, while the Oferrs were at Saratoga. +Mrs. Oferr was very much occupied now, of course, with introducing +her own daughters. A year or two later, she meant to give Laura a +season at the Springs. "All in turn, my dear, and good time," she +said. +</p> +<p> +The winter before, Frank had been a few weeks in New York. But it +tired her dreadfully, she said. She liked the theatres and the +concerts, and walking out and seeing the shops. But there was "no +place to get out of it into." It didn't seem as if she ever really +got home and took off her things. She told Laura it was like that +first old letter of hers; it was just "wearing," all the time. +</p> +<p> +Laura laughed. "But how can you live <i>without</i> wearing?" said she. +</p> +<p> +Frank stood by, wondering, while Laura unpacked her trunks that +morning after her second arrival at Aunt Oldways'. She had done now +even with the simplicity of white and violet, and her wardrobe +blossomed out like the flush of a summer garden. +</p> +<p> +She unfolded a rose-colored muslin, with little raised embroidered +spots, and threw it over the bed. +</p> +<p> +"Where <i>will</i> you wear that, up here?" asked Frank, in pure +bewilderment. +</p> +<p> +"Why, I wear it to church, with my white Swiss mantle," answered +Laura. "Or taking tea, or anything. I've a black silk <i>visite</i> for +cool days. That looks nice with it. And see here,—I've a pink +sunshade. They don't have them much yet, even in New York. Mr. +Pemberton Oferr brought these home from Paris, for Gerry and Alice, +and me. Gerry's is blue. See! it tips back." And Laura set the dashy +little thing with its head on one side, and held it up coquettishly. +</p> +<p> +"They used them in carriages in Paris, he said, and in St. +Petersburg, driving out on the Nevskoi Prospekt." +</p> +<p> +"But where are your common things?" +</p> +<p> +"Down at the bottom; I haven't come to them. They were put in first, +because they would bear squeezing. I've two French calicoes, with +pattern trimmings; and a lilac jaconet, with ruffles, open down the +front." +</p> +<p> +Laura wore long dresses now; and open wrappers were the height of +the style. +</p> +<p> +Laura astonished Homesworth the first Sunday of this visit, with her +rose-colored toilet. Bonnet of shirred pink silk with moss rosebuds +and a little pink lace veil; the pink muslin, full-skirted over two +starched petticoats; even her pink belt had gay little borders of +tiny buds and leaves, and her fan had a pink tassel. +</p> +<p> +"They're the things I wear; why shouldn't I?" she said to Frank's +remonstrance. +</p> +<p> +"But up here!" said Frank. "It would seem nicer to wear +something—stiller." +</p> +<p> +So it would; a few years afterward Laura herself would have seen +that it was more elegant; though Laura Shiere was always rather +given to doing the utmost—in apparel—that the occasion tolerated. +Fashions grew stiller in years after. But this June Sunday, +somewhere in the last thirties or the first forties, she went into +the village church like an Aurora, and the village long remembered +the resplendence. Frank had on a white cambric dress, with a real +rose in the bosom, cool and fresh, with large green leaves; and her +"cottage straw" was trimmed with white lutestring, crossed over the +crown. +</p> +<p> +"Do you feel any better?" asked Aunt Oldways of Laura, when they +came home to the country tea-dinner. +</p> +<p> +"Better—how?" asked Laura, in surprise. +</p> +<p> +"After all that 'wear' and <i>stare</i>," said Aunt Oldways, quietly. +</p> +<p> +Aunt Oldways might have been astonished, but she was by no means +awestruck, evidently; and Aunt Oldways generally spoke her mind. +</p> +<p> +Somehow, with Laura Shiere, pink was pinker, and ribbons were more +rustling than with most people. Upon some quiet unconscious folks, +silk makes no spread, and color little show; with Laura every gleam +told, every fibre asserted itself. It was the live Aurora, bristling +and tingling to its farthest electric point. She did not toss or +flaunt, either; she had learned better of Signor Pirotti how to +carry herself; but she was in conscious <i>rapport</i> with every thing +and stitch she had about her. Some persons only put clothes on to +their bodies; others really seem to contrive to put them on to their +souls. +</p> +<p> +Laura Shiere came up to Homesworth three years later, with something +more wonderful than a pink embossed muslin:—she had a lover. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Oferr and her daughters were on their way to the mountains; +Laura was to be left with the Oldways. Grant Ledwith accompanied +them all thus far on their way; then he had to go back to Boston. +</p> +<p> +"I can't think of anything but that pink sunshade she used to carry +round canted all to one side over her shoulder," said Aunt Oldways, +looking after them down the dusty road the morning that he went +away. Laura, in her white dress and her straw hat and her silly +little bronze-and-blue-silk slippers printing the roadside gravel, +leaning on Grant Ledwith's arm, seemed only to have gained a fresh, +graceful adjunct to set off her own pretty goings and comings with, +and to heighten the outside interest of that little point of +eternity that she called her life. Mr. Ledwith was not so much a man +who had won a woman, as Laura was a girl who had "got a beau." +</p> +<p> +She had sixteen tucked and trimmed white skirts, too, she told +Frank; she should have eight more before she was married; people +wore ever so many skirts now, at a time. She had been to a party a +little while ago where she wore <i>seven</i>. +</p> +<p> +There were deep French embroidery bands around some of these white +skirts; those were beautiful for morning dresses. Geraldine Oferr +was married last winter; Laura had been her bridesmaid; Gerry had a +white brocade from Paris, and a point-lace veil. She had three dozen +of everything, right through. They had gone to housekeeping up town, +in West Sixteenth Street. Frank would have to come to New York next +winter, or in the spring, to be <i>her</i> bridesmaid; then she would +see; then—who knew! +</p> +<p> +Frank was only sixteen, and she lived away up here in Homesworth +among the hills; she had not "seen," but she had her own little +secret, for all that; something she neither told nor thought, yet +which was there; and it came across her with a queer little thrill +from the hidden, unlooked-at place below thought, that "Who" +<i>didn't</i> know. +</p> +<p> +Laura waited a year for Grant Ledwith's salary to be raised to +marrying point; he was in a wholesale woolen house in Boston; he was +a handsome fellow, with gentlemanly and taking address,—capital, +this, for a young salesman; and they put his pay up to two thousand +dollars within that twelvemonth. Upon this, in the spring, they +married; took a house in Filbert Street, down by the river, and set +up their little gods. These were: a sprinkle of black walnut and +brocatelle in the drawing-room, a Sheffield-plate tea-service, and a +crimson-and-giltedged dinner set that Mrs. Oferr gave them; twilled +turkey-red curtains, that looked like thibet, in the best chamber; +and the twenty-four white skirts and the silk dresses, and whatever +corresponded to them on the bride-groom's part, in their wardrobes. +All that was left of Laura's money, and all that was given them by +Grant Ledwith's father, and Mr. Titus Oldways' astounding present of +three hundred dollars, without note or comment,—the first reminder +they had had of him since Edward Shiere's funeral, "and goodness +knew how he heard anything now," Aunt Oferr said,—had gone to this +outfit. But they were well set up and started in the world; so +everybody said, and so they, taking the world into their young, +confident hands for a plaything, not knowing it for the perilous +loaded shell it is, thought, merrily, themselves. +</p> +<p> +Up in Homesworth people did not have to wait for two thousand dollar +salaries. They would not get them if they did. +</p> +<p> +Oliver Ripwinkley, the minister's son, finished his medical studies +and city hospital practice that year, and came back, as he had +always said he should do, to settle down for a country doctor. Old +Doctor Parrish, the parson's friend of fifty years, with no child of +his own, kept the place for Oliver, and hung up his old-fashioned +saddle-bags in the garret the very day the young man came home. He +was there to be "called in," however, and with this backing, and the +perforce of there being nobody else, young Doctor Ripwinkley had ten +patients within the first week; thereby opportunity for shewing +himself in the eyes of ten families as a young man who "appeared to +know pretty well what he was about." +</p> +<p> +So that when he gave further proof of the same, by asking, within +the week that followed, the prettiest girl in Homesworth, Frances +Shiere, to come and begin the world with him at Mile Hill village, +nobody, not even Frank herself, was astonished. +</p> +<p> +She bought three new gowns, a shawl, a black silk mantle, and a +straw bonnet. She made six each of every pretty white garment that a +woman wears; and one bright mellow evening in September, they took +their first tea in the brown-carpeted, white-shaded little corner +room in the old "Rankin house;" a bigger place than they really +wanted yet, and not all to be used at first; but rented +"reasonable," central, sunshiny, and convenient; a place that they +hoped they should buy sometime; facing on the broad sidegreen of the +village street, and running back, with its field and meadow +belongings, away to the foot of great, gray, sheltering Mile Hill. +</p> +<p> +And the vast, solemn globe, heedless of what lit here or there upon +its breadth, or took up this or that life in its little freckling +cities, or between the imperceptible foldings of its hills,—only +carrying way-passengers for the centuries,—went plunging on its +track, around and around, and swept them all, a score of times, +through its summer and its winter solstices. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0004"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + IV. +</h2> +<h3> + AFTERWARDS IS A LONG TIME. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Old Mr. Marmaduke Wharne had come down from Outledge, in the +mountains, on his way home to New York. He had stopped in Boston to +attend to some affairs of his own,—if one can call them so, since +Marmaduke Wharne never had any "own" affairs that did not chiefly +concern, to their advantage, somebody else,—in which his friend Mr. +Titus Oldways was interested, not personally, but Wharne fashion. +Now, reader, you know something about Mr. Titus Oldways, which up to +this moment, only God, and Marmaduke Wharne, and Rachel Froke, who +kept Mr. Oldways' house, and wore a Friend's drab dress and white +cap, and said "Titus," and "Marmaduke" to the two old gentlemen, and +"thee" and "thou" to everybody,—have ever known. In a general way +and relation, I mean; separate persons knew particular things; but +each separate person thought the particular thing he knew to be a +whimsical exception. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Oldways did not belong to any church: but he had an English +Prayer-book under his Bible on his study table, and Baxter and +Fenelon and à Kempis and "Wesley's Hymns," and Swedenborg's "Heaven +and Hell" and "Arcana Celestia," and Lowell's "Sir Launfal," and +Dickens's "Christmas Carol," all on the same set of shelves,—that +held, he told Marmaduke, his religion; or as much of it as he could +get together. And he had this woman, who was a Friend, and who +walked by the Inner Light, and in outer charity, if ever a woman +did, to keep his house. "For," said he, "the blessed truth is, that +the Word of God is in the world. Alive in it. When you know that, +and wherever you can get hold of his souls, then and there you've +got your religion,—a piece at a time. To prove and sort your +pieces, and to straighten the tangle you might otherwise get into, +there's <i>this</i>," and he laid his hand down on the Four Gospels, +bound in white morocco, with a silver cross upon the cover,—a +volume that no earthly creature, again, knew of, save Titus and +Marmaduke and Rachel Froke, who laid it into a drawer when she swept +and dusted, and placed it between the crimson folds of its quilted +silken wrapper when she had finished, burnishing the silver cross +gently with a scrap of chamois leather cut from a clean piece every +time. There was nothing else delicate and exquisite in all the plain +and grim establishment; and the crimson wrapper was comfortably +worn, and nobody would notice it, lying on the table there, with an +almanac, a directory, the big, open Worcester's Dictionary, and the +scattered pamphlets and newspapers of the day. +</p> +<p> +Out in the world, Titus Oldways went about with visor down. +</p> +<p> +He gave to no fairs nor public charities; "let them get all they +could that way, it wasn't his way," he said to Rachel Froke. The +world thought he gave nothing, either of purse or life. +</p> +<p> +There was a plan they had together,—he and Marmaduke Wharne,—this +girls' story-book will not hold the details nor the idea of +it,—about a farm they owned, and people working it that could go +nowhere else to work anything; and a mill-privilege that might be +utilized and expanded, to make—not money so much as safe and honest +human life by way of making money; and they sat and talked this plan +over, and settled its arrangements, in the days that Marmaduke +Wharne was staying on in Boston, waiting for his other friend, Miss +Craydocke, who had taken the River Road down from Outledge, and so +come round by Z——, where she was staying a few days with the +Goldthwaites and the Inglesides. Miss Craydocke had a share or two +in the farm and in the mill. +</p> +<p> +And now, Titus Oldways wanted to know of Marmaduke Wharne what he +was to do for Afterwards. +</p> +<p> +It was a question that had puzzled and troubled him. Afterwards. +</p> +<p> +"While I live," he said, "I will do what I can, and <i>as</i> I can. I +will hand over my doing, and the wherewith, to no society or +corporation. I'll pay no salaries nor circumlocutions. Neither will +I—afterwards. And how is my money going to work on?" +</p> +<p> +"<i>Your</i> money?" +</p> +<p> +"Well,—God's money." +</p> +<p> +"How did it work when it came to you?" +</p> +<p> +Mr. Oldways was silent. +</p> +<p> +"He chose to send it to you. He made it in the order of things that +it should come to you. You began, yourself, to work for money. You +did not understand, then, that the money would be from God and was +for Him." +</p> +<p> +"He made me understand." +</p> +<p> +"Yes. He looked out for that part of it too. He can look out for it +again. His word shall not return unto him void." +</p> +<p> +"He has given me this, though, to pass on; and I will not put it +into a machine. I want to give some living soul a body for its +living. Dead charities are dead. It's of no use to will it to you, +Marmaduke; I'm as likely to stay on, perhaps, as you are." +</p> +<p> +"And the youngest life might drop, the day after your own. You can't +take it out of God's hand." +</p> +<p> +"I must either let it go by law, or will it—here and there. I know +enough whom it would help; but I want to invest, not spend it; to +invest it in a life—or lives—that will carry it on from where I +leave it. How shall I know?" +</p> +<p> +"He giveth it a body as it pleaseth Him," quoted Marmaduke Wharne, +thoughtfully. "I am English, you know, Oldways; I can't help +reverencing the claims of next of kin. Unless one is plainly shown +otherwise, it seems the appointment. How can we set aside his ways +until He clearly points us out his own exception?" +</p> +<p> +"My 'next' are two women whom I don't know, my niece's children. She +died thirty years ago." +</p> +<p> +"Perhaps you ought to know them." +</p> +<p> +"I know <i>about</i> them; I've kept the run; but I've held clear of +family. They didn't need me, and I had no right to put it into their +heads they did, unless I fully meant"— +</p> +<p> +He broke off. +</p> +<p> +"They're like everybody else, Wharne; neither better nor worse, I +dare say; but the world is full of just such women. How do I know +this money would be well in their hands—even for themselves?" +</p> +<p> +"Find out." +</p> +<p> +"One of 'em was brought up by an Oferr woman!" +</p> +<p> +The tone in which he <i>commonized</i> the name to a satiric general +term, is not to be written down, and needed not to be interpreted. +</p> +<p> +"The other is well enough," he went on, "and contented enough. +A doctor's widow, with a little property, a farm and two +children,—her older ones died very young,—up in New Hampshire. I +might spoil <i>her</i>; and the other,—well, you see as I said, I <i>don't +know</i>." +</p> +<p> +"Find out," said Marmaduke Wharne, again. +</p> +<p> +"People are not found out till they are tried." +</p> +<p> +"Try 'em!" +</p> +<p> +Mr. Oldways had been sitting with his head bent, thoughtfully, his +eyes looking down, his hands on the two stiff, old-fashioned arms of +his chair. At this last spondaic response from Marmaduke, he lifted +his eyes and eyebrows,—not his head,—and raised himself slightly +with his two hands pressing on the chair arms; the keen glance and +the half-movement were impulsively toward his friend. +</p> +<p> +"Eh?" said he. +</p> +<p> +"Try 'em," repeated Marmaduke Wharne. "Give God's way a chance." +</p> +<p> +Mr. Oldways, seated back in his chair again, looked at him intently; +made a little vibration, as it were, with his body, that moved his +head up and down almost imperceptibly, with a kind of gradual +assenting apprehension, and kept utterly silent. +</p> +<p> +So, their talk being palpably over for this time, Marmaduke Wharne +got up presently to go. They nodded at each other, friendlily, as he +looked back from the door. +</p> +<p> +Left alone, Mr. Titus Oldways turned in his swivel-chair, around to +his desk beside which he was sitting. +</p> +<p> +"Next of kin?" he repeated to himself. "God's way?—Well! Afterwards +is a long time. A man must give it up somewhere. Everything escheats +to the king at last." +</p> +<p> +And he took a pen in his hand and wrote a letter. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0005"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + V. +</h2> +<h3> + HOW THE NEWS CAME TO HOMESWORTH. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +"I wish I lived in the city, and had a best friend," said Hazel +Ripwinkley to Diana, as they sat together on the long, red, sloping +kitchen roof under the arches of the willow-tree, hemming towels for +their afternoon "stent." They did this because their mother sat on +the shed roof under the fir, when she was a child, and had told them +of it. Imagination is so much greater than fact, that these +children, who had now all that little Frank Shiere had dreamed of +with the tar smell and the gravel stones and the one tree,—who +might run free in the wide woods and up the breezy hillsides,—liked +best of all to get out on the kitchen roof and play "old times," and +go back into their mother's dream. +</p> +<p> +"I wish I lived in a block of houses, and could see across the +corner into my best friend's room when she got up in the morning!" +</p> +<p> +"And could have that party!" said Diana. +</p> +<p> +"Think of the clean, smooth streets, with red sidewalks, and people +living all along, door after door! I like things set in rows, and +people having places, like the desks at school. Why, you've got to +go way round Sand Hill to get to Elizabeth Ann Dorridon's. I should +like to go up steps, and ring bells!" +</p> +<p> +"I don't know," said Diana, slowly. "I think birds that build little +nests about anywhere in the cunning, separate places, in the woods, +or among the bushes, have the best time." +</p> +<p> +"Birds, Dine! It ain't birds, it's people! What has that to do with +it?" +</p> +<p> +"I mean I think nests are better than martin-boxes." +</p> +<p> +"Let's go in and get her to tell us that story. She's in the round +room." +</p> +<p> +The round room was a half ellipse, running in against the curve of +the staircase. It was a bit of a place, with the window at one end, +and the bow at the other. It had been Doctor Ripwinkley's office, +and Mrs. Ripwinkley sat there with her work on summer afternoons. +The door opened out, close at the front, upon a great flat stone in +an angle, where was also entrance into the hall by the house-door, +at the right hand. The door of the office stood open, and across the +stone one could look down, between a range of lilac bushes and the +parlor windows, through a green door-yard into the street. +</p> +<p> +"Now, Mother Frank, tell us about the party!" +</p> +<p> +They called her "Mother Frank" when they wished to be particularly +coaxing. They had taken up their father's name for her, with their +own prefix, when they were very little ones, before he went away and +left nobody to call her Frank, every day, any more. +</p> +<p> +"That same little old story? Won't you ever be tired of it,—you +great girls?" asked the mother; for she had told it to them ever +since they were six and eight years old. +</p> +<p> +"Yes! No, never!" said the children. +</p> +<p> +For how <i>should</i> they outgrow it? It was a sunny little bit out of +their mother's own child-life. We shall go back to smaller things, +one day, maybe, and find them yet more beautiful. It is the <i>going</i> +back, together. +</p> +<p> +"The same old way?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes; the very same old way." +</p> +<p> +"We had little open-work straw hats and muslin pelisses,—your Aunt +Laura and I,"—began Mrs. Ripwinkley, as she had begun all those +scores of times before. "Mother put them on for us,—she dressed us +just alike, always,—and told us to take each other's hands, and go +up Brier and down Hickory streets, and stop at all the houses that +she named, and that we knew; and we were to give her love and +compliments, and ask the mothers in each house,—Mrs. Dayton, and +Mrs. Holridge (she lived up the long steps), and Mrs. Waldow, and +the rest of them, to let Caroline and Grace and Fanny and Susan, and +the rest of <i>them</i>, come at four o'clock, to spend the afternoon and +take tea, if it was convenient." +</p> +<p> +"O, mother!" said Hazel, "you didn't say that when you <i>asked</i> +people, you know." +</p> +<p> +"O, no!" said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "That was when we went to stop a +little while ourselves, without being asked. Well, it was to please +to let them come. And all the ladies were at home, because it was +only ten o'clock; and they all sent their love and compliments, and +they were much obliged, and the little girls would be very happy. +</p> +<p> +"It was a warm June day; up Brier Street was a steep walk; down +Hickory we were glad to keep on the shady side, and thought it was +nice that Mrs. Bemys and Mrs. Waldow lived there. The strings of our +hats were very moist and clinging when we got home, and Laura had a +blue mark under her chin from the green ribbon. +</p> +<p> +"Mother was in her room, in her white dimity morning gown, with +little bows up the front, the ends trimmed with cambric edging. She +took off our hats and our pelisses,—the tight little sleeves came +off wrong side out,—sponged our faces with cool water, and brushed +out Laura's curls. That was the only difference between us. I +hadn't any curls, and my hair had to be kept cropped. Then she went +to her upper bureau drawer and took out two little paper boxes. +</p> +<p> +"'Something has come for Blanche and Clorinda, since you have been +gone,' she said, smiling. 'I suppose you have been shopping?' We +took the paper boxes, laughing back at her with a happy +understanding. We were used to these little plays of mother's, and +she couldn't really surprise us with her kindnesses. We went and sat +down in the window-seat, and opened them as deliberately and in as +grown-up a way as we could. Inside them were two little lace +pelerines lined with rose-colored silk. The boxes had a faint smell +of musk. The things were so much better for coming in boxes! Mother +knew that. +</p> +<p> +"Well, we dressed our dolls, and it was a great long sunshiny +forenoon. Mother and Luclarion had done something in the kitchen, +and there was a smell of sweet baking in the house. Every now and +then we sniffed, and looked at each other, and at mother, and +laughed. After dinner we had on our white French calicoes with blue +sprigs, and mother said she should take a little nap, and we might +go into the parlor and be ready for our company. She always let us +receive our own company ourselves at first. And exactly at four +o'clock the door-bell rang, and they began to come. +</p> +<p> +"Caroline and Fanny Dayton had on white cambric dresses, and green +kid slippers. That was being very much dressed, indeed. Lucy Waldow +wore a pink lawn, and Grace Holridge a buff French print. Susan +Bemys said her little sister couldn't come because they couldn't +find her best shoes. Her mother thought she had thrown them out of +the window. +</p> +<p> +"When they all got there we began to play 'Lady Fair;' and we had +just got all the 'lady fairs,' one after another, into our ring, and +were dancing and singing up and down and round and round, when the +door opened and mother walked in. +</p> +<p> +"We always thought our mother was the prettiest of any of the girls' +mothers. She had such bright shining hair, and she put it up with +shell combs into such little curly puffs. And she never seemed fussy +or old, but she came in among us with such a beautiful, smiling way, +as if she knew beforehand that it was all right, and there was no +danger of any mischief, or that we shouldn't behave well, but she +only wanted to see the good time. That day she had on a white muslin +dress with little purple flowers on it, and a bow of purple ribbon +right in the side of her hair. She had a little piece of fine work +in her hand, and after she had spoken to all the little girls and +asked them how their mothers were, she went and sat down in one of +the front windows, and made little scollops and eyelets. I remember +her long ivory stiletto, with a loop of green ribbon through the +head of it, and the sharp, tiny, big-bowed scissors that lay in her +lap, and the bright, tapering silver thimble on her finger. +</p> +<p> +"Pretty soon the door opened again, softly; a tray appeared, with +Hannah behind it. On the tray were little glass saucers with +confectionery in them; old-fashioned confectionery,—gibraltars, and +colored caraways, and cockles with mottoes. We were in the middle of +'So says the Grand Mufti,' and Grace Holridge was the Grand Mufti. +Hannah went up to her first, as she stood there alone, and Grace +took a saucer and held it up before the row of us, and said, '<i>Thus</i> +says the Grand Mufti!' and then she bit a red gibraltar, and +everybody laughed. She did it so quickly and so prettily, putting +it right into the play. It was good of her not to say, '<i>So</i> says +the Grand Mufti.' At least we thought so then, though Susan Bemys +said it would have been funnier. +</p> +<p> +"We had a great many plays in those days, and it took a long +afternoon to get through with them. We had not begun to wonder what +we should do next, when tea time came, and we went down into the +basement room. It wasn't tea, though; it was milk in little clear, +pink mugs, some that mother only had out for our parties, and cold +water in crimped-edge glasses, and little biscuits, and +sponge-cakes, and small round pound-cakes frosted. These were what +had smelt so good in the morning. +</p> +<p> +"We stood round the table; there was not room for all of us to sit, +and mother helped us, and Hannah passed things round. Susan Bemys +took cake three times, and Lucy Waldow opened her eyes wide, and +Fanny Dayton touched me softly under the table. +</p> +<p> +"After tea mother played and sung some little songs to us; and then +she played the 'Fisher's Hornpipe' and 'Money Musk,' and we danced a +little contra-dance. The girls did not all know cotillons, and some +of them had not begun to go to dancing-school. Father came home and +had his tea after we had done ours, and then he came up into the +parlor and watched us dancing. Mr. Dayton came in, too. At about +half past eight some of the other fathers called, and some of the +mothers sent their girls, and everybody was fetched away. It was +nine o'clock when Laura and I went to bed, and we couldn't go to +sleep until after the clock struck ten, for thinking and saying what +a beautiful time we had had, and anticipating how the girls would +talk it all over next day at school. That," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, +when she had finished, "was the kind of a party we used to have in +Boston when I was a little girl. I don't know what the little girls +have now." +</p> +<p> +"Boston!" said Luclarion, catching the last words as she came in, +with her pink cape bonnet on, from the Homesworth variety and +finding store, and post-office. "You'll talk them children off to +Boston, finally, Mrs. Ripwinkley! Nothing ever tugs so at one end, +but there's something tugging at the other; and there's never a hint +nor a hearing to anybody, that something more doesn't turn up +concerning it. Here's a letter, Mrs. Ripwinkley!" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley took it with some surprise. It was not her sister's +handwriting nor Mr. Ledwith's, on the cover; and she rarely had a +letter from them that was posted in Boston, now. They had been +living at a place out of town for several years. Mrs. Ledwith knew +better than to give her letters to her husband for posting. They got +lost in his big wallet, and stayed there till they grew old. +</p> +<p> +Who should write to Mrs. Ripwinkley, after all these years, from +Boston? +</p> +<p> +She looked up at Luclarion, and smiled. "It didn't take a Solomon," +said she, pointing to the postmark. +</p> +<p> +"No, nor yet a black smooch, with only four letters plain, on an +invelup. 'Taint that, it's the drift of things. Those girls have got +Boston in their minds as hard and fast as they've got heaven; and I +mistrust mightily they'll get there first somehow!" +</p> +<p> +The girls were out of hearing, as she said this; they had got their +story, and gone back to their red roof and their willow tree. +</p> +<p> +"Why, Luclarion!" exclaimed Mrs. Ripwinkley, as she drew out and +unfolded the letter sheet. "It's from Uncle Titus Oldways." +</p> +<p> +"Then he ain't dead," remarked Luclarion, and went away into the +kitchen. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + "M<small>Y</small> D<small>EAR</small> F<small>RANCES</small>,—I am seventy-eight years old. It is time I + got acquainted with some of my relations. I've had other work + to do in the world heretofore (at least I thought I had), and + so, I believe, have they. But I have a wish now to get you and + your sister to come and live nearer to me, that we may find out + whether we really are anything to each other or not. It seems + natural, I suppose, that we might be; but kinship doesn't all + run in the veins. +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + "I do not ask you to do this with reference to any possible + intentions of mine that might concern you after my death; my + wish is to do what is right by you, in return for your + consenting to my pleasure in the matter, while I am alive. It + will cost you more to live in Boston than where you do now, and + I have no business to expect you to break up and come to a new + home unless I can make it an object to you in some way. You can + do some things for your children here that you could not do in + Homesworth. I will give you two thousand dollars a year to live + on, and secure the same to you if I die. I have a house here in + Aspen Street, not far from where I live myself, which I will + give to either of you that it may suit. That you can settle + between you when you come. It is rather a large house, and Mrs. + Ledwith's family is larger, I think, than yours. The estate is + worth ten thousand dollars, and I will give the same sum to the + one who prefers, to put into a house elsewhere. I wish you to + reckon this as all you are ever to expect from me, except the + regard I am willing to believe I may come to have for you. I + shall look to hear from you by the end of the week. +</p> + + <p class="signed"> "I remain, yours truly,<br><br> + "T<small>ITUS</small> O<small>LDWAYS</small>." +</p> +<p> +"Luclarion!" cried Mrs. Ripwinkley, with excitement, "come here and +help me think!" +</p> +<p> +"Only four days to make my mind up in," she said again, when +Luclarion had read the letter through. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion folded it and gave it back. +</p> +<p> +"It won't take God four days to think," she answered quietly; "and +you can ask <i>Him</i> in four minutes. You and I can talk afterwards." +And Luclarion got up and went away a second time into the kitchen. +</p> +<p> +That night, after Diana and Hazel were gone to bed, their mother and +Luclarion Grapp had some last words about it, sitting by the +white-scoured kitchen table, where Luclarion had just done mixing +bread and covered it away for rising. Mrs. Ripwinkley was apt to +come out and talk things over at this time of the kneading. She +could get more from Luclarion then than at any other opportunity. +Perhaps that was because Miss Grapp could not walk off from the +bread-trough; or it might be that there was some sympathy between +the mixing of her flour and yeast into a sweet and lively +perfection, and the bringing of her mental leaven wholesomely to +bear. +</p> +<p> +"It looks as if it were meant, Luclarion," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, at +last. "And just think what it will be for the children." +</p> +<p> +"I guess it's meant fast enough," replied Luclarion. "But as for +what it will be for the children,—why, that's according to what you +all make of it. And that's the stump." +</p> +<p> +Luclarion Grapp was fifty-four years old; but her views of life were +precisely the same that they had been at twenty-eight. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0006"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + VI. +</h2> +<h3> + AND. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +There is a piece of Z——, just over the river, that they call +"And." +</p> +<p> +It began among the school-girls; Barbara Holabird had christened it, +with the shrewdness and mischief of fourteen years old. She said the +"and-so-forths" lived there. +</p> +<p> +It was a little supplementary neighborhood; an after-growth, coming +up with the railroad improvements, when they got a freight station +established on that side for the East Z—— mills. "After Z——, +what should it be but 'And?'" Barbara Holabird wanted to know. The +people who lived there called it East Square; but what difference +did that make? +</p> +<p> +It was two miles Boston-ward from Z—— centre, where the down +trains stopped first; that was five minutes gained in the time +between it and the city. Land was cheap at first, and sure to come +up in value; so there were some streets laid out at right angles, +and a lot of houses put up after a pattern, as if they had all been +turned out of blanc-mange moulds, and there was "East Square." Then +people began by-and-by to build for themselves, and a little variety +and a good deal of ambition came in. They had got to French roofs +now; this was just before the day of the multitudinous little paper +collar-boxes with beveled covers, that are set down everywhere now, +and look as if they could be lifted up by the chimneys, any time, +and be carried off with a thumb and finger. Two and a half story +houses, Mansarded, looked grand; and the East Square people thought +nothing slight of themselves, though the "old places" and the real +Z—— families were all over on West Hill. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp boarded in And for the summer. +</p> +<p> +"Since Oswald had been in business she couldn't go far from the +cars, you know; and Oswald had a boat on the river, and he and +Glossy enjoyed that so much. Besides, she had friends in Z——, +which made it pleasant; and she was tired, for her part, of crowds +and fashion. All she wanted was a quiet country place. She knew the +Goldthwaites and the Haddens; she had met them one year at +Jefferson." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp had found out that she could get larger rooms in And +than she could have at the mountains or the sea-shore, and at half +the price; but this she did not mention. Yet there was nothing +shabby in it, except her carefully <i>not</i> mentioning it. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp was Mrs. Grant Ledwith's chief intimate and counselor. +She was a good deal the elder; that was why it was mutually +advantageous. Grant Ledwith was one of the out-in-the-world, +up-to-the-times men of the day; the day in which everything is +going, and everybody that is in active life has, somehow or other, +all that is going. Grant Ledwith got a good salary, an inflated +currency salary; and he spent it all. His daughters were growing up, +and they were stylish and pretty; Mrs. Megilp took a great interest +in Agatha and Florence Ledwith, and was always urging their mother +to "do them justice." "Agatha and Florence were girls who had a +right to every advantage." Mrs. Megilp was almost old enough to be +Laura Ledwith's mother; she had great experience, and knowledge of +the world; and she sat behind Laura's conscience and drove it tandem +with her inclination. +</p> +<p> +Per contra, it was nice for Mrs. Megilp, who was a widow, and whose +income did not stretch with the elasticity of the times, to have +friends who lived like the Ledwiths, and who always made her +welcome; it was a good thing for Glossy to be so fond of Agatha and +Florence, and to have them so fond of her. "She needed young +society," her mother said. One reason that Glossy Megilp needed +young society might be in the fact that she herself was twenty-six. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp had advised the Ledwiths to buy a house in Z——. "It +was just far enough not to be suburban, but to have a society of its +own; and there <i>was</i> excellent society in Z——, everybody knew. +Boston was hard work, nowadays; the distances were getting to be so +great." Up to the West and South Ends,—the material distances,—she +meant to be understood to say; but there was an inner sense to Mrs. +Megilp's utterances, also. +</p> +<p> +"One might as well be quite out of town; and then it was always +something, even in such city connection as one might care to keep +up, to hail from a well-recognized social independency; to belong to +Z—— was a standing, always. It wasn't like going to Forest Dell, +or Lakegrove, or Bellair; cheap little got-up places with fancy +names, that were strung out on the railroads like French gilt beads +on a chain." +</p> +<p> +But for all that, Mrs. Ledwith had only got into "And;" and Mrs. +Megilp knew it. +</p> +<p> +Laura did not realize it much; she had bowing and speaking +acquaintance with the Haddens and the Hendees, and even with the +Marchbankses, over on West Hill; and the Goldthwaites and the +Holabirds, down in the town, she knew very well. She did not care to +come much nearer; she did not want to be bound by any very +stringent and exclusive social limits; it was a bother to keep up +to all the demands of such a small, old-established set. Mrs. Hendee +would not notice, far less be impressed by the advent of her +new-style Brussels carpet with a border, or her full, fresh, +Nottingham lace curtains, or the new covering of her drawing-room +set with cuir-colored terry. Mrs. Tom Friske and Mrs. Philgry, down +here at East Square, would run in, and appreciate, and admire, and +talk it all over, and go away perhaps breaking the tenth commandment +amiably in their hearts. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith's nerves had extended since we saw her as a girl; they +did not then go beyond the floating ends of her blue or rose-colored +ribbons, or, at furthest, the tip of her jaunty laced sunshade; now +they ramified,—for life still grows in some direction,—to her +chairs, and her china, and her curtains, and her ruffled +pillow-shams. Also, savingly, to her children's "suits," and party +dresses, and pic-nic hats, and double button gloves. Savingly; for +there is a leaven of grace in mother-care, even though it be +expended upon these. Her friend, Mrs. Inchdeepe, in Helvellyn Park, +with whom she dined when she went shopping in Boston, had <i>nothing</i> +but her modern improvements and her furniture. "My house is my +life," she used to say, going round with a Canton crape duster, +touching tenderly carvings and inlayings and gildings. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp was spending the day with Laura Ledwith; Glossy was gone +to town, and thence down to the sea-shore, with some friends. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp spent a good many days with Laura. She had large, bright +rooms at her boarding-house, but then she had very gristly veal pies +and thin tapioca puddings for dinner; and Mrs. Megilp's constitution +required something more generous. She was apt to happen in at this +season, when Laura had potted pigeons. A little bird told her; a +dozen little birds, I mean, with their legs tied together in a +bunch; for she could see the market wagon from her window, when it +turned up Mr. Ledwith's avenue. +</p> +<p> +Laura had always the claret pitcher on her dinner table, too; and +claret and water, well-sugared, went deliciously with the savory +stew. +</p> +<p> +They were up-stairs now, in Laura's chamber; the bed and sofa were +covered with silk and millinery; Laura was looking over the girls' +"fall things;" there was a smell of sweet marjoram and thyme and +cloves, and general richness coming up from the kitchen; there was a +bland sense of the goodness of Providence in Mrs. Megilp's—no, not +heart, for her heart was not very hungry; but in her eyes and +nostrils. +</p> +<p> +She was advising Mrs. Ledwith to take Desire and Helena's two green +silks and make them over into one for Helena. +</p> +<p> +"You can get two whole back breadths then, by piecing it up under +the sash; and you <i>can't</i> have all those gores again; they are quite +done with. Everybody puts in whole breadths now. There's just as +much difference in the <i>way</i> of goring a skirt, as there is between +gores and straight selvages." +</p> +<p> +"They do hang well, though; they have such a nice slope." +</p> +<p> +"Yes,—but the stripes and the seams! Those tell the story six rods +off; and then there <i>must</i> be sashes, or postillions, or something; +they don't make anything without them; there isn't any finish to a +round waist unless you have something behind." +</p> +<p> +"They wore belts last year, and I bought those expensive gilt +buckles. I'm sure they used to look sweetly. But there! a fashion +doesn't last nowadays while you're putting a thing on and walking +out of the house!" +</p> +<p> +"And don't put in more than three plaits," pursued Mrs. Megilp, +intent on the fate of the green silks. "Everything is gathered; you +see that is what requires the sashes; round waists and gathers have +a queer look without." +</p> +<p> +"If you once begin to alter, you've got to make all over," said Mrs. +Ledwith, a little fractiously, putting the scissors in with +unwilling fingers. She knew there was a good four days' work before +her, and she was quick with her needle, too. +</p> +<p> +"Never mind; the making over doesn't cost anything; you turn off +work so easily; and then you've got a really stylish thing." +</p> +<p> +"But with all the ripping and remodelling, I don't get time to turn +round, myself, and <i>live</i>! It is all fall work, and spring work, and +summer work and winter work. One drive rushes pell-mell right over +another. There isn't time enough to make things and have them; the +good of them, I mean." +</p> +<p> +"The girls get it; we have to live in our children," said Mrs. +Megilp, self-renouncingly. "I can never rest until Glossy is +provided with everything; and you know, Laura, I <i>am</i> obliged to +contrive." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp and her daughter Glaucia spent about a thousand dollars +a year, between them, on their dress. In these days, this is a +limited allowance—for the Megilps. But Mrs. Megilp was a woman of +strict pecuniary principle; the other fifteen hundred must pay all +the rest; she submitted cheerfully to the Divine allotment, and +punctually made the two ends meet. She will have this to show, when +the Lord of these servants cometh and reckoneth with them, and that +man who has been also in narrow circumstances, brings his nicely +kept talent out of his napkin. +</p> +<p> +Desire Ledwith, a girl of sixteen, spoke suddenly from a corner +where she sat with a book,— +</p> +<p> +"I do wonder who '<i>they</i>' are, mamma!" +</p> +<p> +"Who?" said Mrs. Ledwith, half rising from her chair, and letting +some breadths of silk slide down upon the floor from her lap, as she +glanced anxiously from the window down the avenue. She did not want +any company this morning. +</p> +<p> +"Not that, mamma; I don't mean anybody coming. The 'theys' that +wear, and don't wear, things; the theys you have to be just like, +and keep ripping and piecing for." +</p> +<p> +"You absurd child!" exclaimed Mrs. Ledwith, pettishly. "To make me +spill a whole lapful of work for that! They? Why, everybody, of +course." +</p> +<p> +"Everybody complains of them, though. Jean Friske says her mother is +all discouraged and worn out. There isn't a thing they had last year +that won't have to be made over this, because they put in a breadth +more behind, and they only gore side seams. And they don't wear +black capes or cloth sacks any more with all kinds of dresses; you +must have suits, clear through. It seems to me 'they' is a nuisance. +And if it's everybody, we must be part of it. Why doesn't somebody +stop?" +</p> +<p> +"Desire, I wish you'd put away your book, and help, instead of +asking silly questions. You can't make the world over, with 'why +don'ts?'" +</p> +<p> +"I'll <i>rip</i>," said Desire, with a slight emphasis; putting her book +down, and coming over for a skirt and a pair of scissors. "But you +know I'm no good at putting together again. And about making the +world over, I don't know but that might be as easy as making over +all its clothes, I'd as lief try, of the two." +</p> +<p> +Desire was never cross or disagreeable; she was only +"impracticable," her mother said. "And besides that, she didn't know +what she really did want. She was born hungry and asking, with those +sharp little eyes, and her mouth always open while she was a baby. +'It was a sign,' the nurse said, when she was three weeks old. And +then the other sign,—that she should have to be called 'Desire!'" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp—for Mrs. Megilp had been in office as long ago as +that—had suggested ways of getting over or around the difficulty, +when Aunt Desire had stipulated to have the baby named for her, and +had made certain persuasive conditions. +</p> +<p> +"There's the pretty French turn you might give it,—'Desirée.' Only +one more 'e,' and an accent. That is so sweet, and graceful, and +distinguished!" +</p> +<p> +"But Aunt Desire won't have the name twisted. It is to be real, +plain Desire, or not at all." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp had shrugged her shoulders. +</p> +<p> +"Well, of course it can be that, to christen by, and marry by, and +be buried by. But between whiles,—people pick up names,—you'll +see!" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp began to call her "Daisy" when she was two years old. +Nobody could help what Mrs. Megilp took a fancy to call her by way +of endearment, of course; and Daisy she was growing to be in the +family, when one day, at seven years old, she heard Mrs. Megilp say +to her mother,— +</p> +<p> +"I don't see but that you've all got your <i>Desire</i>, after all. The +old lady is satisfied; and away up there in Hanover, what can it +signify to her? The child is 'Daisy,' practically, now, as long as +she lives." +</p> +<p> +The sharp, eager little gray eyes, so close together in the high, +delicate head, glanced up quickly at speaker and hearer. +</p> +<p> +"What old lady, mamma, away up in Hanover?" +</p> +<p> +"Your Aunt Desire, Daisy, whom you were named for. She lives in +Hanover. You are to go and see her there, this summer." +</p> +<p> +"Will she call me Daisy?" +</p> +<p> +The little difficulty suggested in this question had singularly +never occurred to Mrs. Ledwith before. Miss Desire Ledwith never +came down to Boston; there was no danger at home. +</p> +<p> +"No. She is old-fashioned, and doesn't like pet names. She will call +you Desire. That is your name, you know." +</p> +<p> +"Would it signify if she thought you called me Daisy?" asked the +child frowning half absently over her doll, whose arm she was +struggling to force into rather a tight sleeve of her own +manufacture. +</p> +<p> +"Well, perhaps she might not exactly understand. People always went +by their names when she was a child, and now hardly anybody does. +She was very particular about having you called for her, and you +<i>are</i>, you know. I always write 'Desire Ledwith' in all your books, +and—well, I always <i>shall</i> write it so, and so will you. But you +can be Daisy when we make much of you here at home, just as Florence +is Flossie." +</p> +<p> +"No, I can't," said the little girl, very decidedly, getting up and +dropping her doll. "Aunt Desire, away up in Hanover, is thinking all +the time that there is a little Desire Ledwith growing up down here. +I don't mean to have her cheated. I'm going to went by my name, as +she did. Don't call me Daisy any more, all of you; for I shan't +come!" +</p> +<p> +The gray eyes sparkled; the whole little face scintillated, as it +were. Desire Ledwith had a keen, charged little face; and when +something quick and strong shone through it, it was as if somewhere +behind it there had been struck fire. +</p> +<p> +She was true to that through all the years after; going to school +with Mabels and Ethels and Graces and Ediths,—not a girl she knew +but had a pretty modern name,—and they all wondering at that stiff +little "Desire" of hers that she would go by. When she was twelve +years old, the old lady up in Hanover had died, and left her a gold +watch, large and old-fashioned, which she could only keep on a stand +in her room,—a good solid silver tea-set, and all her spoons, and +twenty-five shares in the Hanover Bank. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp called her Daisy, with gentle inadvertence, one day +after that. Desire lifted her eyes slowly at her, with no other +reply in her face, or else. +</p> +<p> +"You might please your mother now, I think," said Mrs. Megilp. +"There is no old lady to be troubled by it." +</p> +<p> +"A promise isn't ever dead, Mrs. Megilp," said Desire, briefly. "I +shall keep our words." +</p> +<p> +"After all," Mrs. Megilp said privately to the mother, "there is +something quietly aristocratic in an old, plain, family name. I +don't know that it isn't good taste in the child. Everybody +understands that it was a condition, and an inheritance." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp had taken care of that. She was watchful for the small +impressions she could make in behalf of her particular friends. She +carried about with her a little social circumference in which all +was preëminently as it should be. +</p> +<p> +But,—as I would say if you could not see it for yourself—this is +a digression. We will go back again. +</p> +<p> +"If it were any use!" said Desire, shaking out the deep plaits as +she unfastened them from the band. "But you're only a piece of +everybody after all. You haven't anything really new or particular +to yourself, when you've done. And it takes up so much time. Last +year, this was so pretty! <i>Isn't</i> anything actually pretty in +itself, or can't they settle what it is? I should think they had +been at it long enough." +</p> +<p> +"Fashions never were so graceful as they are this minute," said Mrs. +Megilp. "Of course it is art, like everything else, and progress. +The world is getting educated to a higher refinement in it, every +day. Why, it's duty, child!" she continued, exaltedly. "Think what +the world would be if nobody cared. We ought to make life beautiful. +It's meant to be. There's not only no virtue in ugliness, but almost +no virtue <i>with</i> it, I think. People are more polite and +good-natured when they are well dressed and comfortable." +</p> +<p> +"<i>That's</i> dress, too, though," said Desire, sententiously. "You've +got to stay at home four days, and rip, and be tired, and cross, and +tried-on-to, and have no chance to do anything else, before you can +put it all on and go out and be good-natured and bland, and help put +the beautiful face on the world, <i>one</i> day. I don't believe it's +political economy." +</p> +<p> +"Everybody doesn't have to do it for themselves. Really, when I hear +people blamed for dress and elegance,—why, the very ones who have +the most of it are those who sacrifice the least time to it. They +just go and order what they want, and there's the end of it. When it +comes home, they put it on, and it might as well be a flounced silk +as a plain calico." +</p> +<p> +"But we <i>do</i> have to think, Mrs. Megilp. And work and worry. And +then we <i>can't</i> turn right round in the things we know every stitch +of and have bothered over from beginning to end, and just be lilies +of the field!" +</p> +<p> +"A great many people do have to wash their own dishes, and sweep, +and scour; but that is no reason it ought not to be done. I always +thought it was rather a pity that was said, <i>just so</i>," Mrs. Megilp +proceeded, with a mild deprecation of the Scripture. "There <i>is</i> +toiling and spinning; and will be to the end of time, for some of +us." +</p> +<p> +"There's cauliflower brought for dinner, Mrs. Ledwith," said +Christina, the parlor girl, coming in. "And Hannah says it won't go +with the pigeons. Will she put it on the ice for to-morrow?" +</p> +<p> +"I suppose so," said Mrs. Ledwith, absently, considering a breadth +that had a little hitch in it. "Though what we shall have to-morrow +I'm sure I don't know," she added, rousing up. "I wish Mr. Ledwith +wouldn't send home the first thing he sees, without any reference." +</p> +<p> +"And here's the milkman's bill, and a letter," continued Christina, +laying them down on a chair beside her mistress, and then departing. +</p> +<p> +Great things come into life so easily, when they do come, right +alongside of milk-bills and cabbages! And yet one may wait so long +sometimes for anything to happen <i>but</i> cabbages! +</p> +<p> +The letter was in a very broad, thick envelope, and sealed with wax. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith looked at it curiously before she opened it. She +did not receive many letters. She had very little time for +correspondence. It was addressed to "Mrs. Laura Ledwith." That +was odd and unusual, too. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp glanced at her over the tortoise-shell rims of her +eye-glasses, but sat very quiet, lest she should delay the opening. +She would like to know what could be in that very business-like +looking despatch, and Laura would be sure to tell her. It must be +something pretty positive, one way or another; it was no +common-place negative communication. Laura might have had property +left her. Mrs. Megilp always thought of possibilities like that. +</p> +<p> +When Laura Ledwith had unfolded the large commercial sheet, and +glanced down the open lines of square, upright characters, whose +purport could be taken in at sight, like print, she turned very red +with a sudden excitement. Then all the color dropped away, and there +was nothing in her face but blank, pale, intense surprise. +</p> +<p> +"It is a most <i>won</i>derful thing!" said she, at last, slowly; and her +breath came like a gasp with her words. "My great-uncle, Mr. +Oldways." +</p> +<p> +She spoke those four words as if from them Mrs. Megilp could +understand everything. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp thought she did. +</p> +<p> +"Ah! Gone?" she asked, pathetically. +</p> +<p> +"Gone! No, indeed!" said Mrs. Ledwith. "He wrote the letter. He +wants me to <i>come</i>; me, and all of us,—to Boston, to live; and to +get acquainted with him." +</p> +<p> +"My dear," said Mrs. Megilp, with the promptness and benignity of a +Christian apostle, "it's your duty to go." +</p> +<p> +"And he offers me a house, and two thousand dollars a year." +</p> +<p> +"My dear," said Mrs. Megilp, "it is <i>emphatically</i> your duty to go." +</p> +<p> +All at once something strange came over Laura Ledwith. She crumpled +the letter tight in her hands with a clutch of quick excitement, and +began to choke with a little sob, and to laugh at the same time. +</p> +<p> +"Don't give way!" cried Mrs. Megilp, coming to her and giving her a +little shake and a slap. "If you do once you will again, and you're +<i>not</i> hystericky!" +</p> +<p> +"He's sent for Frank, too. Frank and I will be together again in +dear old Boston! But—we can't be children and sit on the shed any +more; and—it <i>isn't</i> dear old Boston, either!" +</p> +<p> +And then Laura gave right up, and had a good cry for five minutes. +After that she felt better, and asked Mrs. Megilp how she thought a +house in Spiller Street would do. +</p> +<p> +But she couldn't rip any more of those breadths that morning. +</p> +<p> +Agatha and Florence came in from some calls at the Goldthwaites and +the Haddens, and the news was told, and they had their bonnets to +take off, and the dinner-bell rang, and the smell of the spicy +pigeon-stew came up the stairs, all together. And they went down, +talking fast; and one said "house," and another "carpets," and +another "music and German;" and Desire, trailing a breadth of green +silk in her hand that she had never let go since the letter was +read, cried out, "oratorios!" And nobody quite knew what they were +going down stairs for, or had presence of mind to realize the +pigeons, or help each other or themselves properly, when they got +there! Except Mrs. Megilp, who was polite and hospitable to them +all, and picked two birds in the most composed and elegant manner. +</p> +<p> +When the dessert was put upon the table, and Christina, confusedly +enlightened as to the family excitement, and excessively curious, +had gone away into the kitchen, Mrs. Ledwith said to Mrs. Megilp,— +</p> +<p> +"I'm not sure I should fancy Spiller Street, after all; it's a sort +of a corner. Westmoreland Street or Helvellyn Park might be nice. I +know people down that way,—Mrs. Inchdeepe." +</p> +<p> +"Mrs. Inchdeepe isn't exactly 'people,'" said Mrs. Megilp, in a +quiet way that implied more than grammar. "Don't get into 'And' in +Boston, Laura!—With such an addition to your income, and what your +uncle gives you toward a house, I don't see why you might not think +of Republic Avenue." +</p> +<p> +"We shall have plenty of thinking to do about everything," said +Laura. +</p> +<p> +"Mamma," said Agatha, insinuatingly, "I'm thinking, already; about +that rose-pink paper for my room. I'm glad now I didn't have it +here." +</p> +<p> +Agatha had been restless for white lace, and rose-pink, and a +Brussels carpet ever since her friend Zarah Thoole had come home +from Europe and furnished a morning-room. +</p> +<p> +All this time Mr. Grant Ledwith, quite unconscious of the impending +changes with which his family were so far advanced in imagination, +was busy among bales and samples in Devonshire Street. It got to be +an old story by the time the seven o'clock train was in, and he +reached home. It was almost as if it had all happened a year ago, +and they had been waiting for him to come home from Australia. +</p> +<p> +There was so much to explain to him that it was really hard to make +him understand, and to bring him up to the point from which they +could go on together. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0007"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + VII. +</h2> +<h3> + WAKING UP. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +The Ledwiths took apartments in Boston for a month. They packed away +the furniture they wanted to keep for upper rooms, in the attics of +their house at Z——. They had an auction of all the furniture of +their drawing-room, dining-room, library, and first floor of +sleeping-rooms. Then they were to let their house. Meanwhile, one +was to be fixed upon and fitted up in Boston. In all this Mrs. +Megilp advised, invaluably. +</p> +<p> +"It's of no use to move things," she said. "Three removes are as bad +as a fire; and nothing ever fits in to new places. Old wine and new +bottles, you know! Clear all off with a country auction. Everybody +comes, and they all fight for everything. Things bring more than +their original cost. Then you've nothing to do but order according +to your taste." +</p> +<p> +Mr. Oldways had invited both his nieces to his own house on their +arrival. But here again Mrs. Megilp advised,—so judiciously. +</p> +<p> +"There are too many of you; it would be a positive infliction. And +then you'll have all your running about and planning and calculating +to do, and the good old gentleman would think he had pulled half +Boston down about his ears. Your sister can go there; it would be +only generous and thoughtful to give way to her. There are only +three of them, and they are strange, you know, to every thing, and +wouldn't know which way to turn. I can put you in the way of rooms +at the Bellevue, exactly the thing, for a hundred and fifty a +month. No servants, you see; meals at the restaurant, and very good, +too. The Wedringtons are to give them up unexpectedly; going to +Europe; poor Mrs. Wedrington is so out of health. And about the +house; don't decide in a hurry; see what your uncle says, and your +sister. It's very likely she'll prefer the Aspen Street house; and +it <i>would</i> be out of the way for you. Still it is not to be +<i>refused</i>, you know; of course it is very desirable in many +respects; roomy, old-fashioned, and a garden. I think your sister +will like those things; they're what she has been used to. If she +does, why it's all comfortably settled, and nobody refuses. It is so +ungracious to appear to object; a gift horse, you know." +</p> +<p> +"Not to be refused; only by no means to be taken; masterly +inactivity till somebody else is hooked; and then somebody else is +to be grateful for the preference. I wish Mrs. Megilp wouldn't shine +things up so; and that mother wouldn't go to her to black all her +boots!" +</p> +<p> +Desire said this in secret, indignant discomfort, to Helena, the +fourth in the family, her chum-sister. Helena did very well to talk +to; she heard anything; then she pranced round the room and chaffed +the canary. +</p> +<p> +"Chee! chee! chee! chiddle, iddle, iddle, iddle, e-e-ee! Where do +you keep all your noise and your breath? You're great, aren't you? +You do that to spite people that have to work up one note at a time. +You don't take it in away down under your belt, do you? You're not +particular about that. You don't know much, after all. You don't +know <i>how</i> you do it. You aren't learning of Madame Caroletti. And +you haven't learned two quarters, any way. You were only just born +last spring. Set up! Tr-r-r-r-e-e-ee! I can do that myself. I don't +believe you've got an octave in you. Poh!" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley came down from the country with a bonnet on that +had a crown, and with not a particle of a chignon. When she was +married, twenty-five years before, she wore a French twist,—her +hair turned up in waves from her neck as prettily as it did away +from her forehead,—and two thick coiled loops were knotted and +fastened gracefully at the top. She had kept on twisting her hair +so, all these years; and the rippling folds turned naturally under +her fingers into their places. The color was bright still, and it +had not thinned. Over her brows it parted richly, with no fuzz or +crimp; but a sweet natural wreathing look that made her face young. +Mrs. Ledwith had done hers over slate-pencils till she had burned it +off; and now tied on a friz, that came low down, for fashion's sake, +and left visible only a little bunch of puckers between her eyebrows +and the crowsfeet at the corners. The back of her head was weighted +down by an immense excrescence in a bag. Behind her ears were bare +places. Mrs. Ledwith began to look old-young. And a woman cannot get +into a worse stage of looks than that. Still, she was a showy +woman—a good exponent of the reigning style; and she was +handsome—she and her millinery—of an evening, or in the street. +</p> +<p> +When I began that last paragraph I meant to tell you what else Mrs. +Ripwinkley brought with her, down out of the country and the old +times; but hair takes up a deal of room. She brought down all her +dear old furniture. That is, it came after her in boxes, when she +had made up her mind to take the Aspen Street house. +</p> +<p> +"Why, that's the sofa Oliver used to lie down on when he came home +tired from his patients, and that's the rocking-chair I nursed my +babies in; and this is the old oak table we've sat round three times +a day, the family of us growing and thinning, as the time went on, +all through these years. It's like a communion table, now, Laura. Of +course such things had to come." +</p> +<p> +This was what she answered, when Laura ejaculated her amazement at +her having brought "old Homesworth truck" to Boston. +</p> +<p> +"You see it isn't the walls that make the home; we can go away from +them and not break our hearts, so long as our own goes with us. The +little things that we have used, and that have grown around us with +our living,—they are all of living that we can handle and hold on +to; and if I went to Spitzbergen, I should take as many of them as I +could." +</p> +<p> +The Aspen Street house just suited Mrs. Ripwinkley, and Diana, and +Hazel. +</p> +<p> +In the first place, it was wooden; built side to the street, so that +you went up a little paved walk, in a shade of trees, to get to the +door; and then the yard, on the right hand side as you came in, was +laid out in narrow walks between borders of blossoming plants. There +were vines against the brick end of the next building,—creepers and +morning-glories, and white and scarlet runners; and a little +martin-box was set upon a pole in the still, farther corner. +</p> +<p> +The rooms of the house were low, but large; and some of the windows +had twelve-paned sashes,—twenty-four to a window. Mrs. Ripwinkley +was charmed with these also. They were like the windows at Mile +Hill. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith, although greatly relieved by her sister's prompt +decision for the house which she did <i>not</i> want, felt it in her +conscience to remonstrate a little. +</p> +<p> +"You have just come down from the mountains, Frank, after your +twenty-five years' sleep; you've seen nothing by and by you will +think differently. This house is fearfully old-fashioned, +<i>fearfully</i>; and it's away down here on the wrong side of the hill. +You can never get up over Summit Street from here." +</p> +<p> +"We are used to hills, and walking." +</p> +<p> +"But I mean—that isn't all. There are other things you won't be +able to get over. You'll never shake off Aspen Street dust,—you nor +the children." +</p> +<p> +"I don't think it is dusty. It is quiet, and sheltered, and clean. I +like it ever so much," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. +</p> +<p> +"O, dear, you don't understand in the least! It's wicked to let you +go on so! You poor, dear, simple little old soul!" +</p> +<p> +"Never mind," said Mrs. Megilp. "It's all well enough for the +present. It pleases the old gentleman, you know; and after all he's +done, he ought to be pleased. One of you should certainly be in his +neighborhood. <i>He</i> has been here from time immemorial; and any place +grows respectable by staying in it long enough—from <i>choice</i>. +Nobody will wonder at Mrs. Ripwinkley's coming here at his request. +And when she <i>does</i> move, you see, she will know exactly what she is +about." +</p> +<p> +"I almost doubt if she ever <i>will</i> know what she is about," said +Laura. +</p> +<p> +"In that case,—well,"—said Mrs. Megilp, and stopped, because it +really was not in the least needful to say more. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp felt it judicious, for many reasons, that Mrs. +Ripwinkley should he hidden away for awhile, to get that mountain +sleep out of her eyes, if it should prove possible; just as we rub +old metal with oil and put it by till the rust comes off. +</p> +<p> +The Ledwiths decided upon a house in Shubarton Place that would not +seem quite like taking old Uncle Titus's money and rushing away +with it as far as city limits would allow; and Laura really did wish +to have the comfort of her sister's society, in a cozy way, of +mornings, up in her room; that was her chief idea about it. There +were a good many times and things in which she scarcely expected +much companionship from Frank. She would not have said even to +herself, that Frank was rusty; and she would do her faithful and +good-natured best to rub her up; but there was an instinct with her +of the congruous and the incongruous; and she would not do her +Bath-brick polishing out on the public promenade. +</p> +<p> +They began by going together to the carpet stores and the paper +warehouses; but they ended in detailing themselves for separate +work; their ideas clashed ridiculously, and perpetually confused +each other. Frank remembered loyally her old brown sofa and chairs; +she would not have gay colors to put them out of countenance; for +even if she re-covered them, she said they should have the same old +homey complexion. So she chose a fair, soft buff, with a pattern of +brown leaves, for her parlor paper; Mrs. Ledwith, meanwhile, +plunging headlong into glories of crimson and garnet and gold. +Agatha had her blush pink, in panels, with heart-of-rose borders, +set on with delicate gilt beadings; you would have thought she was +going to put herself up, in a fancy-box, like a French <i>mouchoir</i> or +a <i>bonbon</i>. +</p> +<p> +"Why <i>don't</i> you put your old brown things all together in an +up-stairs room, and call it Mile Hill? You could keep it for old +times' sake, and sit there mornings; the house is big enough; and +then have furniture like other people's in the parlor?" +</p> +<p> +"You see it wouldn't be <i>me</i>." said Mrs. Ripwinkley, simply. +</p> +<p> +"They keep saying it 'looks,' and 'it looks,'" said Diana to her +mother, at home. "Why must everything <i>look</i> somehow?" +</p> +<p> +"And every<i>body</i>, too," said Hazel. "Why, when we meet any one in +the street that Agatha and Florence know, the minute they have gone +by they say, 'She didn't look well to-day,' or, 'How pretty she did +look in that new hat!' And after the great party they went to at +that Miss Hitchler's, they never told a word about it except how +girls 'looked.' I wonder what they <i>did</i>, or where the good time +was. Seems to me people ain't living,—they are only just looking; +or <i>is</i> this the same old Boston that you told about, and where are +the real folks, mother?" +</p> +<p> +"We shall find them," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, cheerily; "and the real +of these, too, when the outsides are settled. In the meantime, we'll +make our house say, and not look. Say something true, of course. +Things won't say anything else, you see; if you try to make them, +they don't speak out; they only stand in a dumb show and make +faces." +</p> +<p> +"That's looking!" said Hazel. "Now I know." +</p> +<p> +"How those children do grow!" said Mrs. Ripwinkley, as they went off +together. "Two months ago they were sitting out on the kitchen roof, +and coming to me to hear the old stories!" +</p> +<p> +"Transplantin'," said Luclarion. "That's done it." +</p> +<p> +At twelve and fourteen, Hazel and Diana could be simple as +birds,—simpler yet, as human children waiting for all things,—in +their country life and their little dreams of the world. Two months' +contact with people and things in a great city had started the life +that was in them, so that it showed what manner of growth it was to +be of. +</p> +<p> +And little Hazel Ripwinkley had got hold already of the small end of +a very large problem. +</p> +<p> +But she could not make it out that this was the same old Boston +that her mother had told about, or where the nice neighbors were +that would be likely to have little tea-parties for their children. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0008"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + VIII. +</h2> +<h3> + EAVESDROPPING IN ASPEN STREET. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Some of the old builders,—not the <i>very</i> old ones, for they built +nothing but rope-walks down behind the hill,—but some of those who +began to go northwest from the State House to live, made a pleasant +group of streets down there on the level stretching away to the +river, and called them by fresh, fragrant, country-suggesting +names. Names of trees and fields and gardens, fruits and blossoms; +and they built houses with gardens around them. In between the +blocks were deep, shady places; and the smell of flowers was tossed +back and forth by summer winds between the walls. Some nice old +people stayed on there, and a few of their descendants stay on there +still, though they are built in closely now, for the most part, and +coarse, common things have much intruded, and Summit Street +overshadows them with its palaces. +</p> +<p> +Here and there a wooden house, set back a little, like this of the +Ripwinkleys in Aspen Street, gives you a feeling of Boston in the +far back times, as you go by; and here and there, if you could get +into the life of the neighborhood, you might perhaps find a +household keeping itself almost untouched with change, though there +has been such a rush and surge for years up and over into the newer +and prouder places. +</p> +<p> +At any rate, Titus Oldways lived here in Greenley Street; and he +owned the Aspen Street house, and another over in Meadow Place, and +another in Field Court. He meant to stretch his control over them as +long as he could, and keep them for families; therefore he valued +them at such rates as they would bring for dwellings; he would not +sell or lease them for any kind of "improvements;" he would not have +their little door-yards choked up, or their larger garden spaces +destroyed, while he could help it. +</p> +<p> +Round in Orchard Street lived Miss Craydocke. She was away again, +now, staying a little while with the Josselyns in New York. Uncle +Titus told Mrs. Ripwinkley that when Miss Craydocke came back it +would be a neighborhood, and they could go round; now it was only +back and forth between them and him and Rachel Froke. There were +other people, too, but they would be longer finding them out. +"You'll know Miss Craydocke as soon as you see her; she is one of +those you always seem to have seen before." +</p> +<p> +Now Uncle Titus would not have said this to everybody; not even if +everybody had been his niece, and had come to live beside him. +</p> +<p> +Orchard Street is wide and sunny and pleasant; the river air comes +over it and makes it sweet; and Miss Craydocke's is a big, generous +house, of which she only uses a very little part herself, because +she lets the rest to nice people who want pleasant rooms and can't +afford to pay much rent; an old gentleman who has had a hard time in +the world, but has kept himself a gentleman through it all, and his +little cheery old lady-wife who puts her round glasses on and +stitches away at fine women's under-garments and flannel +embroideries, to keep things even, have the two very best rooms; and +a clergyman's widow, who copies for lawyers, and writes little +stories for children, has another; and two orphan sisters who keep +school have another; and Miss Craydocke calls her house the Beehive, +and buzzes up and down in it, and out and in, on little "seeing-to" +errands of care and kindness all day long, as never any queen-bee +did in any beehive before, but in a way that makes her more truly +queen than any sitting in the middle cell of state to be fed on +royal jelly. Behind the Beehive, is a garden, as there should be; +great patches of lily-of-the valley grow there that Miss Craydocke +ties up bunches from in the spring and gives away to little +children, and carries into all the sick rooms she knows of, and the +poor places. I always think of those lilies of the valley when I +think of Miss Craydocke. It seems somehow as if they were blooming +about her all the year through; and so they are, perhaps, invisibly. +The other flowers come in their season; the crocuses have been done +with first of all; the gay tulips and the snowballs have made the +children glad when they stopped at the gate and got them, going to +school. Miss Craydocke is always out in her garden at school-time. +By and by there are the tall white lilies, standing cool and serene +in the July heats; then Miss Craydocke is away at the mountains, +pressing ferns and drying grasses for winter parlors; but there is +somebody on duty at the garden dispensary always, and there are +flower-pensioners who know they may come in and take the gracious +toll. +</p> +<p> +Late in the autumn, the nasturtiums and verbenas and marigolds are +bright; and the asters quill themselves into the biggest globes they +can, of white and purple and rose, as if it were to make the last +glory the best, and to do the very utmost of the year. Then the +chrysanthemums go into the house and bloom there for Christmas-time. +</p> +<p> +There is nothing else like Miss Craydocke's house and garden, I do +believe, in all the city of the Three Hills. It is none too big for +her, left alone with it, the last of her family; the world is none +too big for her; she is glad to know it is all there. She has a use +for everything as fast as it comes, and a work to do for everybody, +as fast as she finds them out. And everybody,—almost,—catches it +as she goes along, and around her there is always springing up a +busy and a spreading crystallizing of shining and blessed elements. +The world is none too big for her, or for any such, of course, +because,—it has been told why better than I can tell it,—because +"ten times one is always ten." +</p> +<p> +It was a gray, gusty morning. It had not set in to rain +continuously; but the wind wrung handfuls of drops suddenly from the +clouds, and flung them against the panes and into the wayfarers' +faces. +</p> +<p> +Over in the house opposite the Ripwinkley's, at the second story +windows, sat two busy young persons. Hazel, sitting at her window, +in "mother's room," where each had a corner, could see across; and +had got into the way of innocent watching. Up in Homesworth, she had +used to watch the robins in the elm-trees; here, there was human +life, in little human nests, all about her. +</p> +<p> +"It's the same thing, mother," she would say, "isn't it, now? Don't +you remember in that book of the 'New England Housekeeper,' that you +used to have, what the woman said about the human nature of the +beans? It's in beans, and birds, and bird's nests; and folks, and +folks' nests. It don't make much difference. It's just snugness, and +getting along. And it's so nice to see!" +</p> +<p> +Hazel put her elbows up on the window-sill, and looked straight over +into that opposite room, undisguisedly. +</p> +<p> +The young man, in one window, said to his sister in the other, at +the same moment,— +</p> +<p> +"Our company's come! There's that bright little girl again!" +</p> +<p> +And the sister said, "Well, it's pretty much all the company we can +take in! She brings her own seat and her own window; and she doesn't +interrupt. It's just the kind for us, Kentie!" +</p> +<p> +"She's writing,—copying something,—music, it looks like; see it +there, set up against the shutter. She always goes out with a music +roll in her hand. I wonder whether she gives or takes?" said Diana, +stopping on her way to her own seat to look out over Hazel's +shoulder. +</p> +<p> +"Both, I guess," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "Most people do. Why don't +you put your flowers in the window, Hazel?" +</p> +<p> +"Why, so I will!" +</p> +<p> +They were a great bunch of snowy white and deep crimson asters, with +green ivy leaves, in a tall gray glass vase. Rachel Froke had just +brought them in from Miss Craydocke's garden. +</p> +<p> +"They're looking, mother! Only I do think it's half too bad! That +girl seems as if she would almost reach across after them. Perhaps +they came from the country, and haven't had any flowers." +</p> +<p> +"Thee might take them over some," said Mrs. Froke, simply. +</p> +<p> +"O, I shouldn't dare! There are other people in the house, and I +don't know their names, or anything. I wish I could, though." +</p> +<p> +"I can," said Rachel Froke. "Thee'll grow tall enough to step over +pebbles one of these days. Never mind; I'll fetch thee more +to-morrow; and thee'll let the vase go for a while? Likely they've +nothing better than a tumbler." +</p> +<p> +Rachel Froke went down the stairs, and out along the paved walk, +into the street. She stopped an instant on the curb-stone before she +crossed, and looked up at those second story windows. Hazel watched +her. She held up the vase slightly with one hand, nodding her little +gray bonnet kindly, and beckoned with the other. +</p> +<p> +The young girl started from her seat. +</p> +<p> +In another minute Hazel saw them together in the doorway. +</p> +<p> +There was a blush and a smile, and an eager brightness in the face, +and a quick speaking thanks, that one could read without hearing, +from the parted lips, on the one side, and the quiet, unflutterable +gray bonnet calmly horizontal on the other; and then the door was +shut, and Rachel Froke was crossing the damp pavement again. +</p> +<p> +"I'm so glad Aspen Street is narrow!" said Hazel. "I should hate to +be way off out of sight of people. What did you say to her, Mrs. +Froke?" she asked, as the Friend reentered. Hazel could by no means +take the awful liberty of "Rachel." +</p> +<p> +"I said the young girl, Hazel Ripwinkley, being from the country, +knew how good flowers were to strangers in the town, and that she +thought they might be strange, and might like some." +</p> +<p> +Hazel flushed all up. At that same instant, a gentle nod and smile +came across from window to window, and she flushed more, till the +tears sprung with the shy, glad excitement, as she returned it and +then shrunk away. +</p> +<p> +"And she said, 'Thank her, with Dorris Kincaid's love,'" proceeded +Rachel Froke. +</p> +<p> +"O, <i>mother</i>!" exclaimed Hazel. "And you did it all, right off so, +Mrs. Froke. I don't see how grown up people dare, and know how!" +</p> +<p> +Up the stairs ran quick feet in little clattering heeled boots. +Desire Ledwith, with a purple waterproof on, came in. +</p> +<p> +"I couldn't stay at home to-day," she said, "I wanted to be where +it was all-togetherish. It never is at our house. Now it's set up, +they don't do anything with it." +</p> +<p> +"That's because it '<i>looks</i>'—so elegant," said Hazel, catching +herself up in dismay. +</p> +<p> +"It's because it's the crust, I think," said Desire. "Puff paste, +like an oyster patty; and they haven't got anything cooked yet for +the middle. I wonder when they will. I had a call yesterday, all to +myself," she went on, with a sudden change of tone and topic. +"Agatha was hopping and I wouldn't tell her what I said, or how I +behaved. That new parlor girl of ours thinks we're all or any of us +'Miss Ledwith,' mamma included, and so she let him in. He had on +lavender pantaloons and a waxed moustache." +</p> +<p> +"The rain is just pouring down!" said Diana, at the garden window. +</p> +<p> +"Yes; I'm caught. That's what I meant," said Desire. "You've got to +keep me all day, now. How will you get home, Mrs. Froke? Or won't +you have to stay, too?" +</p> +<p> +"Thee may call me Rachel, Desire Ledwith, if thee pleases. I like it +better. I am no mistress. And for getting home, it is but just round +the corner. But there is no need yet. I came for an hour, to sit +here with friend Frances. And my hour is not yet up." +</p> +<p> +"I'm glad of that, for there is something I want you to tell me. I +haven't quite got at it myself, yet; so as to ask, I mean. Wait a +minute!" And she put her elbows up on her knees, and held her thumbs +against her ears, and her fingers across her forehead; sitting +squarely opposite the window to which she had drawn up her chair +beside Diane, and looking intently at the driving streams that +rushed and ran down against the glass. +</p> +<p> +"I was sitting in the bay-window at home, when it began this +morning; that made me think. All the world dripping wet, and I just +put there dry and safe in the middle of the storm, shut up behind +those great clear panes and tight sashes. How they did have to +contrive, and work, before there were such places made for people! +What if they had got into their first scratchy little houses, and +sat behind the logs as we do behind glass windows and thought, as I +was thinking, how nice it was just to be covered up from the rain? +Is it all finished now? Hasn't anybody got to contrive anything +more? And who's going to do it—and everything. And what are we good +for,—just <i>we</i>,—to come and expect it all, modern-improved! I +don't think much of our place among things, do you, Mrs. +Froke?—There, I believe that's it, as near as I can!'" +</p> +<p> +"Why does thee ask me, Desire?" +</p> +<p> +"I don't know. I don't know any whys or what fors. 'Behold we know +not anything,'—Tennyson and I! But you seem so—pacified—I suppose +I thought you must have settled most things in your mind." +</p> +<p> +"Every builder—every little joiner—did his piece,—thought his +thought out, I think likely. There's no little groove or moulding or +fitting or finish, but is a bit of somebody's living; and life +grows, going on. We've all got our piece to do," said Rachel. +</p> +<p> +"I asked Mrs. Mig," Desire pursued, "and she said some people's part +was to buy and employ and encourage; and that spending money helps +all the world; and then she put another cushion to her back, and +went on tatting." +</p> +<p> +"Perhaps it does—in spite of the world," said Rachel Froke, +quietly. +</p> +<p> +"But I guess nobody is to sit by and <i>only</i> encourage; God has +given out no such portion as that, I do believe. We can encourage +each other, and every one do his own piece too." +</p> +<p> +"I didn't really suppose Mrs. Mig knew," said Desire, demurely. "She +never began at the bottom of anything. She only finishes off. She +buys pattern worsted work, and fills it in. That's what she's doing +now, when she don't tat; a great bunch of white lilies, grounding it +with olive. It's lovely; but I'd rather have made the lilies. She'll +give it to mother, and then Glossy will come and spend the winter +with us. Mrs. Mig is going to Nassau with a sick friend; she's +awfully useful—for little overseeings and general touchings up, +after all the hard part is done. Mrs. Mig's sick friends always have +nurses and waiting maids—Mrs. F—— Rachel! Do you know, I haven't +got any piece!" +</p> +<p> +"No, I don't know; nor does thee either, yet," said Rachel Froke. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +"It's all such bosh!" said Kenneth Kincaid, flinging down a handful +of papers. "I've no right, I solemnly think, to help such stuff out +into the world! A man can't take hold anywhere, it seems, without +smutting his fingers!" +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid was correcting proof for a publisher. What he had to +work on this morning was the first chapters of a flimsy novel. +</p> +<p> +"It isn't even confectionery," said he. "It's terra alba and +cochineal. And when it comes to the sensation, it will be benzine +for whiskey. Real things are bad enough, for the most part, in this +world; but when it comes to sham fictions and adulterated poisons, +Dorris, I'd rather help bake bread, if it were an honest loaf, or +make strong shoes for laboring men!" +</p> +<p> +"You don't always get things like that," said Dorris. "And you know +you're not responsible. Why will you torment yourself so?" +</p> +<p> +"I was so determined not to do anything but genuine work; work that +the world wanted; and to have it come down to this!" +</p> +<p> +"Only for a time, while you are waiting." +</p> +<p> +"Yes; people must eat while they are waiting; that's the—devil of +it! I'm not swearing, Dorris, dear; it came truly into my head, that +minute, about the Temptation in the Wilderness." Kenneth's voice was +reverent, saying this; and there was an earnest thought in his face. +</p> +<p> +"You'll never like anything heartily but your Sunday work." +</p> +<p> +"That's what keeps me here. My week-day work might be wanted +somewhere else. And perhaps I ought to go. There's Sunday work +everywhere." +</p> +<p> +"If you've found one half, hold on to it;" said Dorris. "The other +can't be far off." +</p> +<p> +"I suppose there are a score or two of young architects in this +city, waiting for a name or a chance to make one, as I am. If it +isn't here for all of them, somebody has got to quit." +</p> +<p> +"And somebody has got to hold on," repeated Dorris. "You are morbid, +Kent, about this 'work of the world.'" +</p> +<p> +"It's overdone, everywhere. Fifth wheels trying to hitch on to every +coach. I'd rather be the one wheel of a barrow." +</p> +<p> +"The Lord is Wheelwright, and Builder," said Dorris, very simply. +"You <i>are</i> a wheel, and He has made you; He'll find an axle for you +and put you on; and you shall go about his business, so that you +shall wonder to remember that you were ever leaning up against a +wall. Do you know, Kentie, life seems to me like the game we used +to play at home in the twilight. When we shut our eyes and let each +other lead us, until we did not know where we were going, or in what +place we should come out. I should not care to walk up a broad path +with my eyes wide open, now. I'd rather feel the leading. To-morrow +always makes a turn. It's beautiful! People don't know, who <i>never</i> +shut their eyes!" +</p> +<p> +Kenneth had taken up a newspaper. +</p> +<p> +"The pretenses at doing! The dodges and go-betweens that make a sham +work between every two real ones! There's hardly a true business +carried on, and if there is, you don't know where or which. Look at +the advertisements. Why, they cheat with their very tops and faces! +See this man who puts in big capitals: 'Lost! $5,000! $1,000 +reward!' and then tells you, in small type, that five thousand +dollars are lost every year by breaking glass and china, that his +cement will mend! What business has he to cry 'Wolf!' to the +hindrance of the next man who may have a real wolf to catch? And +what business has the printer, whom the next man will pay to +advertise his loss, to help on a lie like this beforehand? I'm only +twenty-six years old, Dorris, and I'm getting ashamed of the world!" +</p> +<p> +"Don't grow hard, Kenneth. 'The Son of Man came not to condemn the +world, but to save it.' Let's each try to save our little piece!" +</p> +<p> +We are listening across the street, you see; between the windows in +the rain; it is strange what chords one catches that do not catch +each other, and were never planned to be played together,—by the +<i>players</i>. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid's father Robert had been a ship-builder. When +shipping went down in the whirlpool of 1857, Robert Kincaid's +building had gone; and afterward he had died leaving his children +little beside their education, which he thanked God was secured, and +a good repute that belonged to their name, but was easily forgotten +in the crowd of young and forward ones, and in the strife and +scramble of a new business growth. +</p> +<p> +Between college and technical studies Kenneth had been to the war. +After that he had a chance to make a fortune in Wall Street. His +father's brother, James, offered to take him in with him to buy and +sell stocks and gold, to watch the market, to touch little unseen +springs, to put the difference into his own pocket every time the +tide of value shifted, or could be made to seem to shift. He might +have been one of James R. Kincaid and Company. He would have none of +it. He told his uncle plainly that he wanted real work; that he had +not come back from fighting to—well, there he stopped, for he could +not fling the truth in his uncle's face; he said there were things +he meant to finish learning, and would try to do; and if nobody +wanted them of him he would learn something else that was needed. So +with what was left to his share from his father's little remnant of +property, he had two years at the Technological School, and here he +was in Boston waiting. You can see what he meant by real work, and +how deep his theories and distinctions lay. You can see that it +might be a hard thing for one young man, here or there, to take up +the world on these terms now, in this year of our Lord eighteen +hundred and sixty-nine. +</p> +<p> +Over the way Desire Ledwith was beginning again, after a pause in +which we have made our little chassée. +</p> +<p> +"I know a girl," she said, "who has got a studio. And she talks +about art, and she knows styles, and who has done what, and she runs +about to see pictures, and she copies things, and she has little +plaster legs and toes and things hanging round everywhere. She +thinks it is something great; but it's only Mig, after all. +Everything is. Florence Migs into music. And I won't Mig, if I never +do anything. I'm come here this morning to darn stockings." And she +pulled out of her big waterproof pocket a bundle of stockings and a +great white ball of darning cotton and a wooden egg. +</p> +<p> +"There is always one thing that is real," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, +gently, "and that shows the way surely to all the rest." +</p> +<p> +"I know what you mean," said Desire, "of course; but they've mixed +that all up too, like everything else, so that you don't know where +it is. Glossy Megilp has a velvet prayer-book, and she blacks her +eyelashes and goes to church. We've all been baptized, and we've +learned the Lord's Prayer, and we're all Christians. What is there +more about it? I wish, sometimes, they had let it all alone. I think +they vaccinated us with religion, Aunt Frank, for fear we should +take it the natural way." +</p> +<p> +"Thee is restless," said Rachel Froke, tying on her gray cloak. "And +to make us so is oftentimes the first thing the Lord does for us. It +was the first thing He did for the world. Then He said, 'Let there +be light!' In the meantime, thee is right; just darn thy stockings." +And Rachel went. +</p> +<p> +They had a nice morning, after that, "leaving frets alone," as Diana +said. Diana Ripwinkley was happy in things just as they were. If the +sun shone, she rejoiced in the glory; if the rain fell, it shut her +in sweetly to the heart of home, and the outside world grew fragrant +for her breathing. There was never anything in her day that she +could spare out of it, and there were no holes in the hours either. +"Whether she was most bird or bee, it was hard to tell," her mother +said of her; from the time she used to sweep and dust her garret +baby-house along the big beams in the old house at Homesworth, and +make little cheeses, and set them to press in wooden pill-boxes from +which she had punched the bottoms out, till now, that she began to +take upon herself the daily freshening of the new parlors in Aspen +Street, and had long lessons of geometry to learn, whose dry +demonstrations she set to odd little improvised recitatives of +music, and chanted over while she ran up and down putting away clean +linen for her mother, that Luclarion brought up from the wash. +</p> +<p> +As for Hazel, she was only another variation upon the same sweet +nature. There was more of outgo and enterprise with her. Diana made +the thing or the place pleasant that she was in or doing. Hazel +sought out new and blessed inventions. "There was always something +coming to the child that wouldn't ever have come to no one else," +Luclarion said. "And besides that, she was a real 'Witch Hazel;' she +could tell where the springs were, and what's more, where they +warn't." +</p> +<p> +Luclarion Grapp would never have pleaded guilty to "dropping into +poetry" in any light whatsoever; but what she meant by this was not +exactly according to the letter, as one may easily see. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0009"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + IX. +</h2> +<h3> + HAZEL'S INSPIRATION. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +What was the use of "looking," unless things were looked at? Mrs. +Ledwith found at the end of the winter that she ought to give a +party. Not a general one; Mrs. Ledwith always said "not a general +one," as if it were an exception, whereas she knew better than ever +to undertake a general party; her list would be <i>too</i> general, and +heterogeneous. It would simply be a physical, as well as a social, +impossibility. She knew quantities of people separately and very +cordially, in her easy have-a-good-time-when-you-can style, that she +could by no means mix, or even gather together. She picked up +acquaintances on summer journeys, she accepted civilities wherever +she might be, she asked everybody to her house who took a fancy to +her, or would admire her establishment, and if she had had a spring +cleaning or a new carpeting, or a furbishing up in any way, the next +thing was always to light up and play it off,—to try it on to +somebody. What were houses for? And there was always somebody who +ought to be paid attention to; somebody staying with a friend, or a +couple just engaged, or if nothing else, it was her turn to have the +sewing-society; and so her rooms got aired. Of course she had to air +them now! The drawing-room, with its apricot and coffee-brown +furnishings, was lovely in the evening, and the crimson and garnet +in the dining-room was rich and cozy, and set off brilliantly her +show of silver and cut-glass; and then, there was the new, real, +sea-green China. +</p> +<p> +So the party was had. There were some people in town from New York; +she invited them and about a hundred more. The house lit up +beautifully; the only pity was that Mrs. Ledwith could not wear her +favorite and most becoming colors, buff and chestnut, because she +had taken that family of tints for her furniture; but she found a +lovely shade of violet that would hold by gas-light, and she wore +black Fayal lace with it, and white roses upon her hair. Mrs. +Treweek was enchanted with the brown and apricot drawing-room, and +wondered where on earth they had got that particular shade, for "my +dear! she had ransacked Paris for hangings in just that perfect, +soft, ripe color that she had in her mind and never could hit upon." +Mrs. MacMichael had pushed the grapes back upon her plate to examine +the pattern of the bit of china, and had said how lovely the +coloring was, with the purple and pale green of the fruit. And these +things, and a few more like them, were the residuum of the whole, +and Laura Ledwith was satisfied. +</p> +<p> +Afterward, "while they were in the way of it," Florence had a little +<i>musicale</i>; and the first season in Shubarton Place was over. +</p> +<p> +It turned out, however, as it did in the old rhyme,—they shod the +horse, and shod the mare, and let the little colt go bare. Helena +was disgusted because she could not have a "German." +</p> +<p> +"We shall have to be careful, now that we have fairly settled down," +said Laura to her sister; "for every bit of Grant's salary will have +been taken up with this winter's expenses. But one wants to begin +right, and after that one can go on moderately. I'm good at +contriving, Frank; only give me something to contrive with." +</p> +<p> +"Isn't it a responsibility," Frank ventured, "to think what we shall +contrive <i>for</i>?" +</p> +<p> +"Of course," returned Mrs. Ledwith, glibly. "And my first duty is +to my children. I don't mean to encourage them to reckless +extravagance; as Mrs. Megilp says, there's always a limit; but it's +one's duty to make life beautiful, and one can't do too much for +home. I want my children to be satisfied with theirs, and I want to +cultivate their tastes and accustom them to society. I can't do +<i>everything</i> for them; they will dress on three hundred a year +apiece, Agatha and Florence; and I can assure you it needs +management to accomplish that, in these days!" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley laughed, gently. +</p> +<p> +"It would require management with us to get rid of that, upon +ourselves." +</p> +<p> +"O, my dear, don't I tell you continually, you haven't waked up yet? +Just rub your eyes a while longer,—or let the girls do it for +you,—and you'll see! Why, I know of girls,—girls whose mothers +have limited incomes, too,—who have been kept plain, actually +<i>plain</i>, all their school days, but who must have now six and eight +hundred a year to go into society with. And really I wouldn't +undertake it for less, myself, if I expected to keep up with +everything. But I must treat mine all alike, and we must be +contented with what we have. There's Helena, now, crazy for a young +party; but I couldn't think of it. Young parties are ten times worse +than old ones; there's really no <i>end</i> to the expense, with the +German, and everything. Helena will have to wait; and yet,—of +course, if I could, it is desirable, almost necessary; acquaintances +begin in the school-room,—society, indeed; and a great deal would +depend upon it. The truth is, you're no sooner born, now-a-days, +than you have to begin to keep up; or else—you're dropped out." +</p> +<p> +"O, Laura! do you remember the dear little parties our mother used +to make for us? From four till half-past eight, with games, and tea +at six, and the fathers looking in?" +</p> +<p> +"And cockles, and mottoes, and printed cambric dresses, and milk and +water! Where are the children, do you suppose, you dear old Frau Van +Winkle, that would come to such a party now?" +</p> +<p> +"Children must be born simple, as they were then. There's nothing my +girls would like better, even at their age, than to help at just +such a party. It is a dream of theirs. Why shouldn't somebody do it, +just to show how good it is?" +</p> +<p> +"You can lead a horse to water, you know, Frank, but you can't make +him drink. And the colts are forty times worse. I believe you might +get some of the mothers together for an ancient tea-drink, just in +the name of old association; but the <i>babies</i> would all turn up +their new-fashioned little noses." +</p> +<p> +"O, dear!" sighed Frau Van Winkle. "I wish I knew people!" +</p> +<p> +"By the time you do, you'll know the reason why, and be like all the +rest." +</p> +<p> +Hazel Ripwinkley went to Mrs. Hilman's school, with her cousin +Helena. That was because the school was a thoroughly good one; the +best her mother could learn of; not because it was kept in parlors +in Dorset Street, and there were girls there who came from palaces +west of the Common, in the grand avenues and the ABC streets; nor +did Hazel wear her best gray and black velvet suit for every day, +though the rich colored poplins with their over-skirts and sashes, +and the gay ribbons for hair and neck made the long green baize +covered tables look like gardenplots with beds of bloom, and quite +extinguished with their brilliancy the quiet, one skirted brown +merino that she brushed and folded every night, and put on with +fresh linen cuffs and collar every morning. +</p> +<p> +"It is an idiosyncrasy of Aunt Frances," Helena explained, with the +grandest phrase she could pick out of her "Synonymes," to cow down +those who "wondered." +</p> +<p> +Privately, Helena held long lamentations with Hazel, going to and +fro, about the party that she could not have. +</p> +<p> +"I'm actually ashamed to go to school. There isn't a girl there, who +can pretend to have anything, that hasn't had some kind of a company +this winter. I've been to them all, and I feel real mean,—sneaky. +What's 'next year?' Mamma puts me off with that. Poh? Next year +they'll all begin again. You can't skip birthdays." +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you what!" said Hazel, suddenly, inspired by much the +same idea that had occurred to Mrs. Ripwinkley; "I mean to ask my +mother to let <i>me</i> have a party!" +</p> +<p> +"You! Down in Aspen Street! Don't, for pity's sake, Hazel!" +</p> +<p> +"I don't believe but what it could be done over again!" said Hazel, +irrelevantly, intent upon her own thought. +</p> +<p> +"It couldn't be done <i>once</i>! For gracious grandmother's sake, don't +think of it!" cried the little world-woman of thirteen. +</p> +<p> +"It's gracious grandmother's sake that made me think of it," said +Hazel, laughing. "The way she used to do." +</p> +<p> +"Why don't you ask them to help you hunt up old Noah, and all get +back into the ark, pigeons and all?" +</p> +<p> +"Well, I guess they had pretty nice times there, any how; and if +another big rain comes, perhaps they'll have to!" +</p> +<p> +Hazel did not intend her full meaning; but there is many a faint, +small prophecy hid under a clover-leaf. +</p> +<p> +Hazel did not let go things; her little witch-wand, once pointed, +held its divining angle with the might of magic until somebody broke +ground. +</p> +<p> +"It's awful!" Helena declared to her mother and sisters, with tears +of consternation. "And she wants me to go round with her and carry +'compliments!' It'll never be got over,—never! I wish I could go +away to boarding-school!" +</p> +<p> +For Mrs. Ripwinkley had made up her unsophisticated mind to try this +thing; to put this grain of a pure, potent salt, right into the +seethe and glitter of little Boston, and find out what it would +decompose or precipitate. For was not she a mother, testing the +world's chalice for her children? What did she care for the hiss and +the bubble, if they came? +</p> +<p> +She was wider awake than Mrs. Ledwith knew; perhaps they who come +down from the mountain heights of long seclusion can measure the +world's paces and changes better than they who have been hurried in +the midst of them, on and on, or round and round. +</p> +<p> +Worst of all, old Uncle Titus took it up. +</p> +<p> +It was funny,—or it would have been funny, reader, if anybody but +you and I and Rachel Froke knew exactly how,—to watch Uncle Titus +as he kept his quiet eye on all these things,—the things that he +had set going,—and read their revelations; sheltered, disguised, +under a character that the world had chosen to put upon him, like +Haroun Alraschid in the merchant's cloak. +</p> +<p> +They took their tea with him,—the two families,—every Sunday +night. Agatha Ledwith "filled him in" a pair of slippers that very +first Christmas; he sat there in the corner with his old leather +ones on, when they came, and left them, for the most part, to their +own mutual entertainment, until the tea was ready. It was a sort of +family exchange; all the plans and topics came up, particularly on +the Ledwith side, for Mrs. Ripwinkley was a good listener, and Laura +a good talker; and the fun,—that you and I and Rachel Froke could +guess,—yes, and a good deal of unsuspected earnest, also,—was all +there behind the old gentleman's "Christian Age," as over brief +mentions of sermons, or words about books, or little brevities of +family inquiries and household news, broke small floods of +excitement like water over pebbles, as Laura and her daughters +discussed and argued volubly the matching and the flouncing of a +silk, or the new flowering and higher pitching of a bonnet,—since +"they are wearing everything all on the top, you know, and mine +looks terribly meek;" or else descanted diffusely on the +unaccountableness of the somebodies not having called, or the bother +and forwardness of the some-other-bodies who had, and the +eighty-three visits that were left on the list to be paid, and +"never being able to take a day to sit down for anything." +</p> +<p> +"What is it all for?" Mrs. Ripwinkley would ask, over again, the +same old burden of the world's weariness falling upon her from her +sister's life, and making her feel as if it were her business to +clear it away somehow. +</p> +<p> +"Why, to live!" Mrs. Ledwith would reply. "You've got it all to do, +you see." +</p> +<p> +"But I don't really see, Laura, where the living comes in." +</p> +<p> +Laura opens her eyes. +</p> +<p> +"<i>Slang</i>?" says she. "Where did you get hold of that?" +</p> +<p> +"Is it slang? I'm sure I don't know. I mean it." +</p> +<p> +"Well, you <i>are</i> the funniest! You don't <i>catch</i> anything. Even a +by-word must come first-hand from you, and mean something!" +</p> +<p> +"It seems to me such a hard-working, getting-ready-to-be, and then +not being. There's no place left for it,—because it's all place." +</p> +<p> +"Gracious me, Frank! If you are going to sift everything so, and get +back of everything! I can't live in metaphysics: I have to live in +the things themselves, amongst other people." +</p> +<p> +"But isn't it scene and costume, a good deal of it, without the +play? It may be that I don't understand, because I have not got into +the heart of your city life; but what comes of the parties, for +instance? The grand question, beforehand, is about wearing, and then +there's a retrospection of what was worn, and how people looked. It +seems to be all surface. I should think they might almost send in +their best gowns, or perhaps a photograph,—if photographs ever were +becoming,—as they do visiting cards." +</p> +<p> +"Aunt Frank," said Desire, "I don't believe the 'heart of city life' +is in the parties, or the parlors. I believe there's a great lot of +us knocking round amongst the dry goods and the furniture that never +get any further. People must be <i>living</i>, somewhere, <i>behind</i> the +fixings. But there are so many people, nowadays, that have never +quite got fixed!" +</p> +<p> +"You might live all your days here," said Mrs. Ledwith to her +sister, passing over Desire, "and never get into the heart of it, +for that matter, unless you were born into it. I don't care so much, +for my part. I know plenty of nice people, and I like to have things +nice about me, and to have a pleasant time, and to let my children +enjoy themselves. The 'heart,' if the truth was known, is a +dreadful still place. I'm satisfied." +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus's paper was folded across the middle; just then he +reversed the lower half; that brought the printing upside down; but +he went on reading all the same. +</p> +<p> +"<i>I</i>'m going to have a real party," said Hazel, "a real, +gracious-grandmother party; just such as you and mother had, Aunt +Laura, when you were little." +</p> +<p> +Her Aunt Laura laughed good-naturedly. +</p> +<p> +"I guess you'll have to go round and knock up the grandmothers to +come to it, then," said she. "You'd better make it a fancy dress +affair at once, and then it will be accounted for." +</p> +<p> +"No; I'm going round to invite; and they are to come at four, and +take tea at six; and they're just to wear their afternoon dresses; +and Miss Craydocke is coming at any rate; and she knows all the old +plays, and lots of new ones; and she is going to show how." +</p> +<p> +"I'm coming, too," said Uncle Titus, over his newspaper, with his +eyes over his glasses. +</p> +<p> +"That's good," said Hazel, simply, least surprised of any of the +conclave. +</p> +<p> +"And you'll have to play the muffin man. 'O, don't you know,'"—she +began to sing, and danced two little steps toward Mr. Oldways. "O, I +forgot it was Sunday!" she said, suddenly stopping. +</p> +<p> +"Not much wonder," said Uncle Titus. "And not much matter. <i>Your</i> +Sunday's good enough." +</p> +<p> +And then he turned his paper right side up; but, before he began +really to read again, he swung half round toward them in his +swivel-chair, and said,— +</p> +<p> +"Leave the sugar-plums to me, Hazel; I'll come early and bring 'em +in my pocket." +</p> +<p> +"It's the first thing he's taken the slightest notice of, or +interest in, that any one of us has been doing," said Agatha +Ledwith, with a spice of momentary indignation, as they walked along +Bridgeley Street to take the car. +</p> +<p> +For Uncle Titus had not come to the Ledwith party. "He never went +visiting, and he hadn't any best coat," he told Laura, in verbal +reply to the invitation that had come written on a square satin +sheet, once folded, in an envelope with a big monogram. +</p> +<p> +"It's of no consequence," said Mrs. Ledwith, "any way. Only a +child's play." +</p> +<p> +"But it will be, mother; you don't know," said Helena. "She's going +right in everywhere, with that ridiculous little invitation; to the +Ashburnes and the Geoffreys, and all! She hasn't the least idea of +any difference; and just think what the girls will say, and how they +will stare, and laugh! I wish she wasn't my cousin!" +</p> +<p> +"Helena!" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith spoke with real displeasure; for she was good-natured +and affectionate in her way; and her worldly ambitions were rather +wide than high, as we have seen. +</p> +<p> +"Well, I can't help it; you don't know, mother," Helena repeated. +"It's horrid to go to school with all those stiffies, that don't +care a snap for you, and only laugh." +</p> +<p> +"Laughing is vulgar," said Agatha. If any indirect question were +ever thrown upon the family position, Agatha immediately began +expounding the ethics of high breeding, as one who had attained. +</p> +<p> +"It is only half-way people who laugh," she said. "Ada Geoffrey and +Lilian Ashburne never laugh—<i>at</i> anybody—I am sure." +</p> +<p> +"No, they don't; not right out. They're awfully polite. But you can +feel it, underneath. They have a way of keeping so still, when you +know they would laugh if they did anything." +</p> +<p> +"Well, they'll neither laugh nor keep still, about this. You need +not be concerned. They'll just not go, and that will be the end of +it." +</p> +<p> +Agatha Ledwith was mistaken. She had been mistaken about two things +to-night. The other was when she had said that this was the first +time Uncle Oldways had noticed or been interested in anything they +did. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0010"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + X. +</h2> +<h3> + COCKLES AND CRAMBO. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Hazel Ripwinkley put on her nankeen sack and skirt, and her little +round, brown straw hat. For May had come, and almost gone, and it +was a day of early summer warmth. +</p> +<p> +Hazel's dress was not a "suit;" it had been made and worn two +summers before suits were thought of; yet it suited very well, as +people's things are apt to do, after all, who do not trouble +themselves about minutiæ of fashion, and so get no particular +antediluvian marks upon them that show when the flood subsides. +</p> +<p> +Her mother knew some things that Hazel did not. Mrs. Ripwinkley, if +she had been asleep for five and twenty years, had lost none of her +perceptive faculties in the trance. But she did not hamper her child +with any doubts; she let her go on her simple way, under the shield +of her simplicity, to test this world that she had come into, for +herself. +</p> +<p> +Hazel had written down her little list of the girls' names that she +would like to ask; and Mrs. Ripwinkley looked at it with a smile. +There was Ada Geoffrey, the banker's daughter, and Lilian Ashburne, +the professor's,—heiresses each, of double lines of birth and +wealth. She could remember how, in her childhood, the old names +sounded, with the respect that was in men's tones when they were +spoken; and underneath were Lois James and Katie Kilburnie, children +of a printer and a hatter. They had all been chosen for their purely +personal qualities. A child, let alone, chooses as an angel chooses. +</p> +<p> +It remained to be seen how they would come together. +</p> +<p> +At the very head, in large, fair letters, was,— +</p> +<p class="note"> + "MISS CRAYDOCKE." +</p> +<p> +Down at the bottom, she had just added,— +</p> +<p class="note"> + "MR. KINCAID AND DORRIS." +</p> +<p> +"For, if I have <i>some</i> grown folks, mother, perhaps I ought to have +<i>other</i> grown folks,—'to keep the balance true.' Besides, Mr. +Kincaid and Dorris always like the <i>little</i> nice times." +</p> +<p> +From the day when Dorris Kincaid had come over with the gray glass +vase and her repeated thanks, when the flowers had done their +ministry and faded, there had been little simple courtesies, each +way, between the opposite houses; and once Kenneth and his sister +had taken tea with the Ripwinkleys, and they had played "crambo" +and "consequences" in the evening. The real little game of +"consequences," of which this present friendliness was a link, was +going on all the time, though they did not stop to read the lines as +they folded them down, and "what the world said" was not one of the +items in their scheme of it at all. +</p> +<p> +It would have been something worth while to have followed Hazel as +she went her rounds, asking quietly at each house to see Mrs. This +or That, "as she had a message;" and being shown, like a little +representative of an almost extinct period, up into the parlor, or +the dressing-room of each lady, and giving her quaint errand. +</p> +<p> +"I am Hazel Ripwinkley," she would say, "and my mother sends her +compliments, and would like to have Lilian,"—or whoever +else,—"come at four o'clock to-day, and spend the afternoon and +take tea. I'm to have a little party such as she used to have, and +nobody is to be much dressed up, and we are only to play games." +</p> +<p> +"Why, that is charming!" cried Mrs. Ashburne; for the feeling of +her own sweet early days, and the old B—— Square house, came over +her as she heard the words. "It is Lilian's music afternoon; but +never mind; give my kind compliments to your mother, and she will be +very happy to come." +</p> +<p> +And Mrs. Ashburne stooped down and kissed Hazel, when she went away. +</p> +<p> +She stood in the deep carved stone entrance-way to Mrs. Geoffrey's +house, in the same fearless, Red Riding Hood fashion, just as she +would have waited in any little country porch up in Homesworth, +where she had need indeed to knock. +</p> +<p> +Not a whit dismayed was she either, when the tall manservant opened +to her, and admitted her into the square, high, marble-paved hall, +out of which great doors were set wide into rooms rich and quiet +with noble adorning and soft shading,—where pictures made such a +magic upon the walls, and books were piled from floor to ceiling; +and where her little figure was lost as she went in, and she +hesitated to take a seat anywhere, lest she should be quite hidden +in some great arm-chair or sofa corner, and Mrs. Geoffrey should not +see her when she came down. +</p> +<p> +So, as the lady entered, there she was, upright and waiting, on her +two feet, in her nankeen dress, just within the library doors, with +her face turned toward the staircase. +</p> +<p> +"I am Hazel Ripwinkley," she began; as if she had said, I am +Pease-blossom or Mustard-seed; "I go to school with Ada." And went +on, then, with her compliments and her party. And at the end she +said, very simply,— +</p> +<p> +"Miss Craydocke is coming, and she knows the games." +</p> +<p> +"Miss Craydocke, of Orchard Street? And where do you live?" +</p> +<p> +"In Aspen Street, close by, in Uncle Oldways' house. We haven't +lived there very long,—only this winter; before that we always +lived in Homesworth." +</p> +<p> +"And Homesworth is in the country? Don't you miss that?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes; but Aspen Street isn't very bad; we've got a garden. Besides, +we like streets and neighbors." +</p> +<p> +Then she added,—for her little witch-stick felt spiritually the +quality of what she spoke to,—"Wouldn't Mr. Geoffrey come for Ada +in the evening?" +</p> +<p> +"I haven't the least doubt he would!" said Mrs. Geoffrey, her face +all alive with exquisite and kindly amusement, and catching the +spirit of the thing from the inimitable simplicity before her, such +as never, she did believe, had walked into anybody's house before, +in this place and generation, and was no more to be snubbed than a +flower or a breeze or an angel. +</p> +<p> +It was a piece of Witch Hazel's witchery, or inspiration, that she +named Miss Craydocke; for Miss Craydocke was an old, dear friend of +Mrs. Geoffrey's, in that "heart of things" behind the fashions, +where the kingdom is growing up. But of course Hazel could not have +known that; something in the lady's face just made her think of the +same thing in Miss Craydocke's, and so she spoke, forgetting to +explain, nor wondering in the very least, when she was met with +knowledge. +</p> +<p> +It was all divining, though, from the beginning to the end. That was +what took her into these homes, rather than to a score of other +places up and down the self-same streets, where, if she had got in +at all, she would have met strange, lofty stares, and freezing +"thank you's," and "engagements." +</p> +<p> +"I've found the real folks, mother, and they're all coming!" she +cried, joyfully, running in where Mrs. Ripwinkley was setting little +vases and baskets about on shelf and table, between the white, +plain, muslin draperies of the long parlor windows. In vases and +baskets were sweet May flowers; bunches of deep-hued, rich-scented +violets, stars of blue and white periwinkle, and Miss Craydocke's +lilies of the valley in their tall, cool leaves; each kind gathered +by itself in clusters and handfuls. Inside the wide, open fireplace, +behind the high brass fender and the shining andirons, was a +"chimney flower pot," country fashion, of green lilac boughs,—not +blossoms,—and woodbine sprays, and crimson and white tulips. The +room was fair and fragrant, and the windows were wide open upon +vines and grass. +</p> +<p> +"It looks like you, mother, just as Mrs. Geoffrey's house looks like +her. Houses ought to look like people, I think." +</p> +<p> +"There's your surprise, children. We shouldn't be doing it right +without a surprise, you know." +</p> +<p> +And the surprise was not dolls' pelerines, but books. "Little Women" +was one, which sent Diana and Hazel off for a delicious two hours' +read up in their own room until dinner. +</p> +<p> +After dinner, Miss Craydocke came, in her purple and white striped +mohair and her white lace neckerchief; and at three o'clock Uncle +Titus walked in, with his coat pockets so bulgy and rustling and +odorous of peppermint and sassafras, that it was no use to pretend +to wait and be unconscious, but a pure mercy to unload him so that +he might be able to sit down. +</p> +<p> +Nobody knows to this day where he got them; he must have ordered +them somewhere, one would think, long enough before to have special +moulds and implements made; but there were large, beautiful +cockles,—not of the old flour-paste sort, but of clear, sparkling +sugar, rose-color, and amber, and white, with little slips of tinted +paper tucked within, and these printed delicately with pretty rhymes +and couplets, from real poets; things to be truly treasured, yet +simple, for children's apprehension, and fancy, and fun. And there +were "Salem gibraltars," such as we only get out of Essex County now +and then, for a big charitable Fair, when Salem and everywhere else +gets its spirit up to send its best and most especial; and there +were toys and devices in sugar—flowers and animals, hats, bonnets, +and boots, apples, and cucumbers,—such as Diana and Hazel, and even +Desire and Helena had never seen before. +</p> +<p> +"It isn't quite fair," said good Miss Craydocke. "We were to go back +to the old, simple fashions of things; and here you are beginning +over again already with sumptuous inventions. It's the very way it +came about before, till it was all spoilt." +</p> +<p> +"No," said Uncle Titus, stoutly. "It's only 'Old <i>and</i> New,'—the +very selfsame good old notions brought to a little modern +perfection. They're not French flummery, either; and there's not a +drop of gin, or a flavor of prussic acid, or any other abominable +chemical, in one of those contrivances. They're as innocent as they +look; good honest mint and spice and checkerberry and lemon and +rose. I know the man that made 'em!" +</p> +<p> +Helena Ledwith began to think that the first person, singular or +plural, might have a good time; but that awful third! Helena's +"they" was as potent and tremendous as her mother's. +</p> +<p> +"It's nice," she said to Hazel; "but they don't have inch things. I +never saw them at a party. And they don't play games; they always +dance. And it's broad, hot daylight; and—you haven't asked a single +boy!" +</p> +<p> +"Why, I don't know any! Only Jimmy Scarup; and I guess he'd rather +play ball, and break windows!" +</p> +<p> +"Jimmy Scarup!" And Helena turned away, hopeless of Hazel's +comprehending. +</p> +<p> +But "they" came; and "they" turned right into "we." +</p> +<p> +It was not a party; it was something altogether fresh and new; the +house was a new, beautiful place; it was like the country. And Aspen +Street, when you got down there, was so still and shady and sweet +smelling and pleasant. They experienced the delight of finding out +something. +</p> +<p> +Miss Craydocke and Hazel set them at it,—their good time; they had +planned it all out, and there was no stiff, shy waiting. They began, +right off, with the "Muffin Man." Hazel danced up to Desire:— +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "O, <i>do</i> you know the Muffin Man,<br> + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man?<br> + O, <i>do</i> you know the Muffin Man <br> + That lives in Drury Lane?" +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "O, yes, I know the Muffin Man,<br> + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man,<br> + O, yes, I know the Muffin Man <br> + That lives in Drury Lane." +</p> +<p> +And so they danced off together:— +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "Two of us know the Muffin Man,<br> + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man,<br> + Two of us know the Muffin Man <br> + That lives in Drury Lane." +</p> +<p> +And then they besieged Miss Craydocke; and then the three met Ada +Geoffrey, just as she had come in and spoken to Diana and Mrs. +Ripwinkley; and Ada had caught the refrain, and responded instantly; +and <i>four</i> of them knew the Muffin Man. +</p> +<p> +"I know they'll think it's common and queer, and they'll laugh +to-morrow," whispered Helena to Diana, as Hazel drew the lengthening +string to Dorris Kincaid's corner and caught her up; but the next +minute they were around Helena in her turn, and they were laughing +already, with pure glee; and five faces bent toward her, and five +voices sang,— +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "O, <i>don't</i> you know the Muffin Man?" +</p> +<p> +And Helena had to sing back that she did; and then the six made a +perfect snarl around Mrs. Ripwinkley herself, and drew her in; and +then they all swept off and came down across the room upon Mr. +Oldways, who muttered, under the singing, "seven women! Well, the +Bible says so, and I suppose it's come!" and then he held out both +hands, while his hard face unbent in every wrinkle, with a smile +that overflowed through all their furrowed channels, up to his very +eyes; like some sparkling water that must find its level; and there +were eight that knew the Muffin Man. +</p> +<p> +So nine, and ten, and up to fifteen; and then, as their line broke +away into fragments, still breathless with fun, Miss Craydocke +said,—her eyes brimming over with laughing tears, that always came +when she was gay,— +</p> +<p> +"There, now! we all know the 'Muffin Man;' therefore it follows, +mathematically, I believe, that we must all know each other. I think +we'll try a sitting-down game next. I'll give you all something. +Desire, you can tell them what to do with it, and Miss Ashburne +shall predict me consequences." +</p> +<p> +So they had the "Presentation Game;" and the gifts, and the +dispositions, and the consequences, when the whispers were over, and +they were all declared aloud, were such hits and jumbles of sense +and nonsense as were almost too queer to have been believed. +</p> +<p> +"Miss Craydocke gave me a butter firkin," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "I +was to put it in the parlor and plant vanilla beans in it; and the +consequence would be that Birnam Wood would come to Dunsinane." +</p> +<p> +"She gave me a wax doll," said Helena. "I was to buy it a pair of +high-heeled boots and a chignon; and the consequence would be that +she would have to stand on her head." +</p> +<p> +"She gave me," said Mr. Oldways, "an iron spoon. I was to deal out +sugar-plums with it; and the consequence would be that you would all +go home." +</p> +<p> +"She gave me," said Lois James, "Woman's Rights. I shouldn't know +what to do with them; and the consequence would be a terrible +mortification to all my friends." +</p> +<p> +"She gave me," said Hazel, "a real good time. I was to pass it +round; and the consequence would be an earthquake." +</p> +<p> +Then they had "Scandal;" a whisper, repeated rapidly from ear to +ear. It began with, "Luclarion is in the kitchen making +tea-biscuits;" and it ended with the horrible announcement that +there were "two hundred gallons of hot pitch ready, and that +everybody was to be tipped into it." +</p> +<p> +"Characters," and "Twenty Questions," and "How, When, and Where," +followed; and then they were ready for a run again, and they played +"Boston," in which Mr. Oldways, being "Sceattle," was continually +being left out, whereupon he declared at last, that he didn't +believe there was any place for him, or even that he was down +anywhere on the map, and it wasn't fair, and he was going to secede; +and that broke up the play; for the groat fun of all the games had +come to be Miss Craydocke and Uncle Titus, as it always is the great +fun to the young ones when the elders join in,—the older and the +soberer, the better sport; there is always something in the "fathers +looking on;" that is the way I think it is among them who always do +behold the Face of the Father in heaven,—smiling upon their smiles, +glowing upon their gladness. +</p> +<p> +In the tea-room, it was all even more delightful yet; it was further +out into the garden, shaded at the back by the deep leafiness of +grape-vines, and a trellis work with arches in it that ran up at the +side, and would be gay by and by with scarlet runners, and +morning-glories, and nasturtiums, that were shooting up strong and +swift already, from the neatly weeded beds. +</p> +<p> +Inside, was the tall old semicircular sideboard, with gingerbread +grooves carved all over it; and the real brass "dogs," with heads on +their fore-paws, were lying in the fire-place, under the lilac +boughs; and the square, plain table stood in the midst, with its +glossy white cloth that touched the floor at the corners, and on it +were the identical pink mugs, and a tall glass pitcher of milk, and +plates of the thinnest and sweetest bread and butter, and early +strawberries in a white basket lined with leaves, and the +traditional round frosted cakes upon a silver plate with a network +rim. +</p> +<p> +And Luclarion and Mrs. Ripwinkley waited upon them all, and it was +still no party, to be compared or thought of with any salad and +ice-pudding and Germania-band affair, such as they had had all +winter; but something utterly fresh and new and by itself,—place, +and entertainment, and people, and all. +</p> +<p> +After tea, they went out into the garden; and there, under the shady +horse-chestnuts, was a swing; and there were balls with which Hazel +showed them how to play "class;" tossing in turn against the high +brick wall, and taking their places up and down, according to the +number of their catches. It was only Miss Craydocke's "Thread the +Needle" that got them in again; and after that, she showed them +another simple old dancing game, the "Winding Circle," from which +they were all merrily and mysteriously untwisting themselves with +Miss Craydocke's bright little thin face and her fluttering cap +ribbons, and her spry little trot leading them successfully off, +when the door opened, and the grand Mr. Geoffrey walked in; the man +who could manage State Street, and who had stood at the right hand +of Governor and President, with his clear brain, and big purse, and +generous hand, through the years of the long, terrible war; the man +whom it was something for great people to get to their dinners, or +to have walk late into an evening drawing-room and dignify an +occasion for the last half hour. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley was just simply glad to see him; so she was to see +Kenneth Kincaid, who came a few minutes after, just as Luclarion +brought the tray of sweetmeats in, which Mrs. Ripwinkley had so far +innovated upon the gracious-grandmother plan as to have after tea, +instead of before. +</p> +<p> +The beautiful cockles and their rhymes got their heads all together +around the large table, for the eating and the reading. Mr. Geoffrey +and Uncle Titus sat talking European politics together, a little +aside. The sugar-plums lasted a good while, with the chatter over +them; and then, before they quite knew what it was all for, they had +got slips of paper and lead pencils before them, and there was to be +a round of "Crambo" to wind up. +</p> +<p> +"O, I don't know how!" and "I never can!" were the first words, as +they always are, when it was explained to the uninitiated; but Miss +Craydocke assured them that "everybody could;" and Hazel said that +"nobody expected real poetry; it needn't be more than two lines, and +those might be blank verse, if they were <i>very</i> hard, but jingles +were better;" and so the questions and the wards were written and +folded, and the papers were shuffled and opened amid outcries of, +"O, this is awful!" "<i>What</i> a word to get in!" "Why, they haven't +the least thing to do with each other!" +</p> +<p> +"That's the beauty of it," said Miss Craydocke, unrelentingly; "to +<i>make</i> them have; and it is funny how much things do have to do with +each other when they once happen to come across." +</p> +<p> +Then there were knit brows, and desperate scratchings, and such +silence that Mr. Geoffrey and Uncle Titus stopped short on the +Alabama question, and looked round to see what the matter was. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid had been modestly listening to the older gentlemen, +and now and then venturing to inquire or remark something, with an +intelligence that attracted Mr. Geoffrey; and presently it came out +that he had been south with the army; and then Mr. Geoffrey asked +questions of him, and they got upon Reconstruction business, and +comparing facts and exchanging conclusions, quite as if one was not +a mere youth with only his eyes and his brains and his conscience to +help him in his first grapple with the world in the tangle and +crisis at which he found it, and the other a grave, practiced, +keen-judging man, the counsellor of national leaders. +</p> +<p> +After all, they had no business to bring the great, troublesome, +heavy-weighted world into a child's party. I wish man never would; +though it did not happen badly, as it all turned out, that they did +a little of it in this instance. If they had thought of it, +"Crambo" was good for them too, for a change; and presently they did +think of it; for Dorris called out in distress, real or pretended, +from the table,— +</p> +<p> +"Kentie, here's something you must really take off my hands! I +haven't the least idea what to do with it." +</p> +<p> +And then came a cry from Hazel,— +</p> +<p> +"No fair! We're all just as badly off, and there isn't one of us +that has got a brother to turn to. Here's another for Mr. Kincaid." +</p> +<p> +"There are plenty more. Come, Mr. Oldways, Mr. Geoffrey, won't you +try 'Crambo?' There's a good deal in it, as there is in most +nonsense." +</p> +<p> +"We'll come and see what it is," said Mr. Geoffrey; and so the +chairs were drawn up, and the gray, grave heads looked on over the +young ones. +</p> +<p> +"Why, Hazel's got through!" said Lois, scratching violently at her +paper, and obliterating three obstinate lines. +</p> +<p> +"O, I didn't bother, you see! I just stuck the word right in, like a +pin into a pincushion, and let it go. There wasn't anything else to +do with it." +</p> +<p> +"I've got to make my pincushion," said Dorris. +</p> +<p> +"I should think you had! Look at her! She's writing her paper all +over! O, my gracious, she must have done it before!" +</p> +<p> +"Mother and Mr. Geoffrey are doing heaps, too! We shall have to +publish a book," said Diana, biting the end of her pencil, and +taking it easy. Diana hardly ever got the rhymes made in time; but +then she always admired everybody's else, which was a good thing for +somebody to be at leisure to do. +</p> +<p> +"Uncle Oldways and Lilian are folding up," said Hazel. +</p> +<p> +"Five minutes more," said Miss Craydocke, keeping the time with her +watch before her. "Hush!" +</p> +<p> +When the five minutes were rapped out, there were seven papers to be +read. People who had not finished this time might go on when the +others took fresh questions. +</p> +<p> +Hazel began reading, because she had been ready first. +</p> +<p> +"'What is the difference between sponge-cake and doughnuts?' +'Hallelujah.'" +</p> + +<p class="poem"> + + "Airiness, lightness, and insipidity;<br> + Twistiness, spiciness, and solidity.<br> + Hallelujah! I've got through!<br> + That is the best that I can do!'" +</p> +<p> +There was a shout at Hazel's pinsticking. +</p> +<p> +"Now, Uncle Titus! You finished next." +</p> +<p> +"My question is a very comprehensive one," said Uncle Titus, "with a +very concise and suggestive word. 'How wags the world?' 'Slambang.'" +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'The world wags on <br> + With lies and slang;<br> + With show and vanity,<br> + Pride and inanity,<br> + Greed and insanity,<br> + And a great slambang!'" +</p> +<p> +"That's only <i>one</i> verse," said Miss Craydocke. "There's another; +but he didn't write it down." +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus laughed, and tossed his Crambo on the table. "It's true, +so far, anyway," said he. +</p> +<p> +"<i>So far</i> is hardly ever quite true," said Miss Craydocke +</p> +<p> +Lilian Ashburne had to answer the question whether she had ever read +"Young's Night Thoughts;" and her word was "Comet." +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'Pray might I be allowed a pun,<br> + To help me through with just this one? <br> + I've tried to read Young's Thoughts of Night, <br> + But never yet could come it, quite.'" +</p> +<p> +"O, O, O! That's just like Lilian, with her soft little 'prays' and +'allow me's,' and her little pussy-cat ways of sliding through tight +places, just touching her whiskers!" +</p> +<p> +"It's quite fair," said Lilian, smiling, "to slide through if you +can." +</p> +<p> +"Now, Mr. Geoffrey." +</p> +<p> +And Mr. Geoffrey read,— +</p> +<p> +"'What is your favorite color?' 'One-hoss.'" +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'Do you mean, my friend, for a one-hoss shay, <br> + Or the horse himself,—black, roan, or bay? <br> + In truth, I think I can hardly say; <br> + I believe, for a nag, "I bet on the gray." +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'For a shay, I would rather not have yellow, <br> + Or any outright, staring color, <br> + That makes the crowd look after a fellow, <br> + And the little <i>gamins</i> hoot and bellow. +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'Do you mean for ribbons? or gowns? or eyes? <br> + Or flowers? or gems? or in sunset skies? <br> + For many questions, as many replies, <br> + Drops of a rainbow take rainbow dyes. +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'The world is full, and the world is bright; <br> + Each thing to its nature parts the light; <br> + And each for its own to the Perfect sight<br> + Wears that which is comely, and sweet, and right.'" +</p> +<p> +"O, Mr. Geoffrey! That's lovely!" cried the girl voices, all around +him. And Ada made a pair of great eyes at her father, and said,— +</p> +<p> +"What an awful humbug you have been, papa! To have kept the other +side up with care all your life! Who ever suspected <i>that</i> of you?" +</p> +<p> +Diana and Hazel were not taken so much by surprise, their mother +had improvised little nursery jingles for them all their baby days, +and had played Crambo with them since; so they were very confident +with their "Now, mother:" and looked calmly for something +creditable. +</p> +<p> +"'What is your favorite name?'" read Mrs. Ripwinkley. "And the word +is 'Stuff.'" +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'When I was a little child, <br> + Looking very meek and mild, <br> + I liked grand, heroic names,— <br> + Of warriors, or stately dames: <br> + Zenobia, and Cleopatra; <br> + (No rhyme for that this side Sumatra;) <br> + Wallace, and Helen Mar,—Clotilda, <br> + Berengaria, and Brunhilda; <br> + Maximilian; Alexandra; <br> + Hector, Juno, and Cassandra; <br> + Charlemagne and Britomarte, <br> + Washington and Bonaparte; <br> + Victoria and Guinevere, <br> + And Lady Clara Vere de Vere. <br> + —Shall I go on with all this stuff, <br> + Or do you think it is enough? <br> + I cannot tell you what dear name<br> + I love the best; I play a game; <br> + And tender earnest doth belong<br> + To quiet speech, not silly song.'" +</p> +<p> +"That's just like mother; I should have stopped as soon as I'd got +the 'stuff' in; but she always shapes off with a little morriowl," +said Hazel. "Now, Desire!" +</p> +<p> +Desire frantically scribbled a long line at the end of what she had +written; below, that is, a great black morass of scratches that +represented significantly the "Slough of Despond" she had got into +over the winding up, and then gave,— +</p> +<p> +"'Which way would you rather travel,—north or south?' +'Goosey-gander.'" +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'O, goosey-gander!<br> + If I might wander, <br> + It should be toward the sun; <br> + The blessed South<br> + Should fill my mouth<br> + With ripeness just begun. <br> + For bleak hills, bare, <br> + With stunted, spare, <br> + And scrubby, piney trees, <br> + Her gardens rare, <br> + And vineyards fair, <br> + And her rose-scented breeze. <br> + For fearful blast, <br> + Skies overcast, <br> + And sudden blare and scare<br> + Long, stormless moons, <br> + And placid noons, <br> + And—all sorts of comfortablenesses,—there!'" +</p> +<p> +"That makes me think of father's horse running away with him once," +said Helena, "when he had to head him right up against a brick wall, +and knock everything all to smash before he could stop!" +</p> +<p> +"Anybody else?" +</p> +<p> +"Miss Kincaid, I think," said Mr. Geoffrey. He had been watching +Dorris's face through the play, flashing and smiling with the +excitement of her rhyming, and the slender, nervous fingers twisting +tremulously the penciled slip while she had listened to the others. +</p> +<p> +"If it isn't all rubbed out," said Dorris, coloring and laughing to +find how badly she had been treating her own effusion. +</p> +<p> +"You see it <i>was</i> rather an awful question,—'What do you want +most?' And the word is, 'Thirteen.'" +</p> +<p> +She caught her breath a little quickly as she began:— +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "'Between yourself, dear, myself, and the post,<br> + There are the thirteen things that I want the most. <br> + I want to be, sometimes, a little stronger; <br> + I want the days to be a little longer; <br> + I'd like to have a few less things to do; <br> + I'd better like to better do the few: <br> + I want—and this might almost lead my wishes,— <br> + A bigger place to keep my mops and dishes. <br> + I want a horse; I want a little buggy, <br> + To ride in when the days grow hot and muggy; <br> + I want a garden; and,—perhaps it's funny,— <br> + But now and then I want a little money. <br> + I want an easy way to do my hair; <br> + I want an extra dress or two to wear; <br> + I want more patience; and when all is given, <br> + I think I want to die and go to heaven!'" +</p> +<p> +"I never saw such bright people in all my life!" said Ada Geoffrey, +when the outcry of applause for Dorris had subsided, and they began +to rise to go. "But the <i>worst</i> of all is papa! I'll never get over +it of you, see if I do! Such a cheat! Why, it's like playing dumb +all your life, and then just speaking up suddenly in a quiet way, +some day, as if it was nothing particular, and nobody cared!" +</p> +<p> +With Hazel's little divining-rod, Mrs. Ripwinkley had reached out, +testing the world for her, to see what some of it might be really +made of. Mrs. Geoffrey, from her side, had reached out in turn, +also, into this fresh and simple opportunity, to see what might be +there worth while. +</p> +<p> +"How was it, Aleck?" she asked of her husband, as they sat together +in her dressing-room, while she brushed out her beautiful hair. +</p> +<p> +"Brightest people I have been among for a long time—and nicest," +said the banker, concisely. "A real, fresh little home, with a +mother in it. Good place for Ada to go, and good girls for her to +know; like the ones I fell in love with a hundred years ago." +</p> +<p> +"That rhymed oracle,—to say nothing of the <i>fraction</i> of a +compliment,—ought to settle it," said Mrs. Geoffrey, laughing. +</p> +<p> +"Rhymes have been the order of the evening. I expect to talk in +verse for a week at least." +</p> +<p> +And then he told her about the "Crambo." +</p> +<p> +A week after, Mrs. Ledwith was astonished to find, lying on the +mantel in her sister's room, a card that had been sent up the day +before,— +</p> +<p class="note2"> + "M<small>RS</small>. A<small>LEXANDER</small> H. G<small>EOFFREY</small>." +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0011"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XI. +</h2> +<h3> + MORE WITCH-WORK. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Hazel was asked to the Geoffreys' to dinner. +</p> +<p> +Before this, she and Diana had both been asked to take tea, and +spend an evening, but this was Hazel's little especial "invite," as +she called it, because she and Ada were writing a dialogue together +for a composition at school. +</p> +<p> +The Geoffreys dined at the good old-fashioned hour of half past two, +except when they had formal dinner company; and Hazel was to come +right home from school with Ada, and stay and spend the afternoon. +</p> +<p> +"What intimacy!" Florence Ledwith had exclaimed, when she heard of +it. +</p> +<p> +"But it isn't at all on the grand style side; people like the +Geoffreys do such things quite apart from their regular connection; +it is a sort of 'behind the scenes;'" said Glossy Megilp, who was +standing at Florence's dressing-glass, touching up the little heap +of "friz" across her forehead. +</p> +<p> +"Where's my poker?" she asked, suddenly, breaking off from the +Geoffrey subject, and rummaging in a dressing box, intent upon +tutoring some little obstinate loop of hair that would be <i>too</i> +frizzy. +</p> +<p> +"I should think a 'blower' might be a good thing to add to your +tools, Glossy," said Desire. "You have brush, poker, and tongs, now, +to say nothing of coal-hod," she added, glancing at the little open +japanned box that held some kind of black powder which had to do +with the shadow of Glossy's eyelashes upon occasion, and the +emphasis upon the delicate line of her brows. +</p> +<p> +"No secret," said Glossy, magnanimously. "There it is! It is no +greater sin than violet powder, or false tails, for that matter; and +the little gap in my left eyebrow was never deliberately designed. +It was a 'lapsus naturæ;' I only follow out the hint, and complete +the intention. Something <i>is</i> left to ourselves; as the child said +about the Lord curling her hair for her when she was a baby and +letting her do it herself after she grew big enough. What are our +artistic perceptions given to us for, unless we're to make the best +of ourselves in the first place?" +</p> +<p> +"But it isn't all eyebrows," said Desire, half aloud. +</p> +<p> +"Of course not," said Glossy Megilp. "Twice a day I have to do +myself up somehow, and why shouldn't it be as well as I can? Other +things come in their turn, and I do them." +</p> +<p> +"But, you see, the friz and the fix has to be, anyhow, whether or +no. Everything isn't done, whether or no. I guess it's the 'first +place,' that's the matter." +</p> +<p> +"I think you have a very theoretical mind, Des, and a slightly +obscure style. You can't be satisfied till everything is all mapped +out, and organized, and justified, and you get into horrible snarls +trying to do it. If I were you, I would take things a little more as +they come." +</p> +<p> +"I can't," said Desire. "They come hind side before and upside +down." +</p> +<p> +"Well, if everybody is upside down, there's a view of it that makes +it all right side up, isn't there? It seems to be an established +fact that we must dress and undress, and that the first duty of the +day is to get up and put on our clothes. We aren't ready for much +until we do. And one person's dressing may require one thing, and +another's another. Some people have a cork leg to put on, and some +people have false teeth; and they wouldn't any of them come hobbling +or mumbling out without them, unless there was a fire or an +earthquake, I suppose." +</p> +<p> +Glossy Megilp's arguments and analogies perplexed Desire, always. +They sometimes silenced her; but they did not always answer her. She +went back to what they had been discussing before. +</p> +<p> +"To 'lay down the shubbel and the hoe,'—here's your poker, under +the table-flounce, Glossy,—and to 'take up the fiddle and the bow,' +again,—I think it's real nice and beautiful for Hazel—" +</p> +<p> +"To 'go where the good darkies go'?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes. It's the <i>good</i> of her that's got her in. And I believe you +and Florence both would give your best boots to be there too, if it +<i>is</i> behind. Behind the fixings and the fashions is where people +<i>live</i>; 'dere's vat I za-ay!'" she ended, quoting herself and Rip +Van Winkle. +</p> +<p> +"Maybe," said Florence, carelessly; "but I'd as lief be <i>in</i> the +fashion, after all. And that's where Hazel Ripwinkley never will +get, with all her taking little novelties." +</p> +<p> +Meanwhile, Hazel Ripwinkley was deep in the delights of a great +portfolio of rare engravings; prints of glorious frescoes in old +churches, and designs of splendid architecture; and Mrs. Geoffrey, +seeing her real pleasure, was sitting beside her, turning over the +large sheets, and explaining them; telling her, as she gazed into +the wonderful faces of the Saints and the Evangelists in Correggio's +frescoes of the church of San Giovanni at Parma, how the whole dome +was one radiant vision of heavenly glory, with clouds and angel +faces, and adoring apostles, and Christ the Lord high over all; and +that these were but the filling in between the springing curves of +the magnificent arches; describing to her the Abbess's room in San +Paolo, with its strange, beautiful heathen picture over the mantel, +of Diana mounting her stag-drawn car, and its circular walls painted +with trellis-work and medallioned with windows, where the heads of +little laughing children, and graceful, gentle animals peeped in +from among vines and flowers. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Geoffrey did not wonder that Hazel lingered with delight over +these or over the groups by Raphael in the Sistine Chapel,—the +quiet pendentives, where the waiting of the world for its salvation +was typified in the dream-like, reclining forms upon the still, +desert sand; or the wonderful scenes from the "Creation,"—the +majestic "Let there be Light!" and the Breathing of the breath of +life into Man. She watched the surprise and awe with which the child +beheld for the first time the daring of inspiration in the +tremendous embodiment of the Almighty, and waited while she could +hardly take her eyes away. But when, afterward, they turned to a +portfolio of Architecture, and she found her eager to examine spires +and arches and capitals, rich reliefs and stately facades and +sculptured gates, and exclaiming with pleasure at the colored +drawings of Florentine ornamentation, she wondered, and questioned +her,— +</p> +<p> +"Have you ever seen such things before? Do you draw? I should hardly +think you would care so much, at your age." +</p> +<p> +"I like the prettiness," said Hazel, simply, "and the grandness; but +I don't suppose I should care so much if it wasn't for Dorris and +Mr. Kincaid. Mr. Kincaid draws buildings; he's an architect; only he +hasn't architected much yet, because the people that build things +don't know him. Dorris was so glad to give him a Christmas present +of 'Daguerreotypes de Paris,' with the churches and arches and +bridges and things; she got it at a sale; I wonder what they would +say to all these beauties!" +</p> +<p> +Then Mrs. Geoffrey found what still more greatly enchanted her, a +volume of engravings, of English Home Architecture; interiors of old +Halls, magnificent staircases, lofty libraries and galleries dim +with space; exteriors, gabled, turreted and towered; long, rambling +piles of manor houses, with mixed styles of many centuries. +</p> +<p> +"They look as if they were brimfull of stories!" Hazel cried. "O, if +I could only carry it home to show to the Kincaids!" +</p> +<p> +"You may," said Mrs. Geoffrey, as simply, in her turn, as if she +were lending a copy of "Robinson Crusoe;' never letting the child +guess by a breath of hesitation the value of what she had asked. +</p> +<p> +"And tell me more about these Kincaids. They are friends of yours?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes; we've known them all winter. They live right opposite, and sit +in the windows, drawing and writing. Dorris keeps house up there in +two rooms. The little one is her bedroom; and Mr. Kincaid sleeps on +the big sofa. Dorris makes crackle-cakes, and asks us over. She +cooks with a little gas-stove. I think it is beautiful to keep house +with not very much money. She goes out with a cunning white basket +and buys her things; and she does all her work up in a corner on a +white table, with a piece of oil-cloth on the floor; and then she +comes over into her parlor, she says, and sits by the window. It's a +kind of a play all the time." +</p> +<p> +"And Mr. Kincaid?" +</p> +<p> +"Dorris says he might have been rich by this time, if he had gone +into his Uncle James's office in New York. Mr. James Kincaid is a +broker, and buys gold. But Kenneth says gold stands for work, and if +he ever has any he'll buy it with work. He wants to do some real +thing. Don't you think that's nice of him?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes, I do," said Mrs. Geoffrey. "And Dorris is that bright girl +who wanted thirteen things, and rhymed them into 'Crambo?' Mr. +Geoffrey told me." +</p> +<p> +"Yes, ma'am; Dorris can do almost anything." +</p> +<p> +"I should like to see Dorris, sometime. Will you bring her here, +Hazel?" +</p> +<p> +Hazel's little witch-rod felt the almost impassible something in the +way. +</p> +<p> +"I don't know as she would be <i>brought</i>," she said. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Geoffrey laughed. +</p> +<p> +"You have an instinct for the fine proprieties, without a bit of +respect for any conventional fences," she said. "I'll <i>ask</i> Dorris." +</p> +<p> +"Then I'm sure she'll come," said Hazel, understanding quite well +and gladly the last three words, and passing over the first phrase +as if it had been a Greek motto, put there to be skipped. +</p> +<p> +"Ada has stopped practicing," said Mrs. Geoffrey, who had undertaken +the entertainment of her little guest during her daughter's half +hour of music. "She will be waiting for you now." +</p> +<p> +Hazel instantly jumped up. +</p> +<p> +But she paused after three steps toward the door, to say gently, +looking back over her shoulder with a shy glance out of her timidly +clear eyes,— +</p> +<p> +"Perhaps,—I hope I haven't,—stayed too long!" +</p> +<p> +"Come back, you little hazel-sprite!" cried Mrs. Geoffrey; and when +she got her within reach again, she put her hands one each side of +the little blushing, gleaming face, and kissed it, saying,— +</p> +<p> +"I don't <i>think</i>,—I'm slow, usually, in making up my mind about +people, big or little,—but I don't think you can stay too long,—or +come too often, dear!" +</p> +<p> +"I've found another for you, Aleck," she said, that night at the +hair-brushing, to her husband. +</p> +<p> +He always came to sit in her dressing-room, then; and it was at this +quiet time that they gave each other, out of the day they had lived +in their partly separate ways and duties, that which made it for +each like a day lived twice, so that the years of their life counted +up double. +</p> +<p> +"He is a young architect, who hasn't architected much, because he +doesn't know the people who build things; and he wouldn't be a gold +broker with his uncle in New York, because he believes in doing +money's worth in the world for the world's money. Isn't he one?" +</p> +<p> +"Sounds like it," said Mr. Geoffrey. "What is his name?" +</p> +<p> +"Kincaid." +</p> +<p> +"Nephew of James R. Kincaid?" said Mr. Geoffrey, with an +interrogation that was also an exclamation. "And wouldn't go in with +him! Why, it was just to have picked up dollars!" +</p> +<p> +"Exactly," replied his wife. "That was what he objected to." +</p> +<p> +"I should like to see the fellow." +</p> +<p> +"Don't you remember? You have seen him! The night you went for Ada +to the Aspen Street party, and got into 'Crambo.' He was there; and +it was his sister who wanted thirteen things. I guess they do!" +</p> +<p> +"Ask them here," said the banker. +</p> +<p> +"I mean to," Mrs. Geoffrey answered. "That is, after I've seen +Hapsie Craydocke. She knows everything. I'll go there to-morrow +morning." +</p> +<hr> +<p> +"'Behind' is a pretty good way to get in—to some places," said +Desire Ledwith, coming into the rose-pink room with news. +"Especially an omnibus. And the Ripwinkleys, and the Kincaids, and +old Miss Craydocke, and for all I know, Mrs. Scarup and Luclarion +Grapp are going to Summit Street to tea to-night. Boston is +topsy-turvey; Holmes was a prophet; and 'Brattle Street and Temple +Place are interchanging cards!' Mother, we ought to get intimate +with the family over the grocer's shop. Who knows what would come of +it? There are fairies about in disguise, I'm sure; or else it's the +millennium. Whichever it is, it's all right for Hazel, though; she's +ready. Don't you feel like foolish virgins, Flo and Nag? I do." +</p> +<p> +I am afraid it was when Desire felt a little inclination to "nag" +her elder sister, that she called her by that reprehensible name. +Agatha only looked lofty, and vouchsafed no reply; but Florence +said,— +</p> +<p> +"There's no need of any little triumphs or mortifications. Nobody +crows, and nobody cries. <i>I</i>'m glad. Diana's a dear, and Hazel's a +duck, besides being my cousins; why shouldn't I? Only there <i>is</i> a +large hole for the cats, and a little hole for the kittens; and I'd +as lief, myself, go in with the cats." +</p> +<p> +"The Marchbankses are staying there, and Professor Gregory. I don't +know about cats," said Desire, demurely. +</p> +<p> +"It's a reason-why party, for all that," said Agatha, carelessly, +recovering her good humor. +</p> +<p> +"Well, when any nice people ask me, I hope there <i>will</i> be a 'reason +why.' It's the persons of consequence that make the 'reason why.'" +</p> +<p> +And Desire had the last word. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +Hazel Ripwinkley was thinking neither of large holes nor little +ones,—cats nor kittens; she was saying to Luclarion, sitting in her +shady down-stairs room behind the kitchen, that looked out into the +green yard corner, "how nicely things came out, after all!" +</p> +<p> +"They seemed so hobblety at first, when I went up there and saw all +those beautiful books, and pictures, and people living amongst them +every day, and the poor Kincaids not getting the least bit of a +stretch out of their corner, ever. I'll tell you what I thought, +Luclarion;" and here she almost whispered, "I truly did. I thought +God was making a mistake." +</p> +<p> +Luclarion put out her lips into a round, deprecating pucker, at +that, and drew in her breath,— +</p> +<p> +"Oo—sh!" +</p> +<p> +"Well, I mean it seemed as if there was a mistake somewhere; and +that I'd no business, at any rate, with what they wanted so. I +couldn't get over it until I asked for those pictures; and mother +said it was such a bold thing to do!" +</p> +<p> +"It was bold," said Luclarion; "but it wasn't forrud. It was gi'n +you, and it hit right. That was looked out for." +</p> +<p> +"It's a stumpy world," said Luclarion Grapp to Mrs. Ripwinkley, +afterward; "but some folks step right over their stumps athout +scarcely knowin' when!" +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0012"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XII. +</h2> +<h3> + CRUMBS. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Desire Ledwith was, at this epoch, a perplexity and a worry,—even a +positive terror sometimes,—to her mother. +</p> +<p> +It was not a case of the hen hatching ducks, it was rather as if a +hen had got a hawk in her brood. +</p> +<p> +Desire's demurs and questions,—her dissatisfactions, sittings and +contempts,—threatened now and then to swoop down upon the family +life and comfort with destroying talons. +</p> +<p> +"She'll be an awful, strong-minded, radical, progressive, +overturning woman," Laura said, in despair, to her friend Mrs. +Megilp. "And Greenley Street, and Aspen Street, and that everlasting +Miss Craydocke, are making her worse. And what can I do? Because +there's Uncle." +</p> +<p> +Right before Desire,—not knowing the cloud of real bewilderment +that was upon her young spiritual perceptions, getting their first +glimpse of a tangled and conflicting and distorted world,—she drew +wondering comparisons between her elder children and this odd, +anxious, restless, sharp-spoken girl. +</p> +<p> +"I don't understand it," she would say. "It isn't a bit like a child +of mine. I always took things easy, and got the comfort of them +somehow; I think the world is a pretty pleasant place to live in, +and there's lots of satisfaction to be had; and Agatha and Florence +take after me; they are nice, good-natured, contented girls; +managing their allowances,—that I wish were more,—trimming their +own bonnets, and enjoying themselves with their friends, +girl-fashion." +</p> +<p> +Which was true. Agatha and Florence were neither fretful nor +dissatisfied; they were never disrespectful, perhaps because Mrs. +Ledwith demanded less of deferential observance than of a kind of +jolly companionship from her daughters; a go-and-come easiness in +and out of what they called their home, but which was rather the +trimming-up and outfitting place,—a sort of Holmes' Hole,—where +they put in spring and fall, for a thorough overhaul and rig; and at +other times, in intervals or emergencies, between their various and +continual social trips and cruises. They were hardly ever +all-togetherish, as Desire had said, if they ever were, it was over +house cleaning and millinery; when the ordering was complete,—when +the wardrobes were finished,—then the world was let in, or they let +themselves out, and—"looked." +</p> +<p> +"Desire is different," said Mrs. Ledwith. "She's like Grant's +father, and her Aunt Desire,—pudgicky and queer." +</p> +<p> +"Well, mamma," said the child, once, driven to desperate logic for +defense, "I don't see how it can be helped. If you <i>will</i> marry into +the Ledwith family, you can't expect to have your children all +Shieres!" +</p> +<p> +Which, again, was very true. Laura laughed at the clever sharpness +of it, and was more than half proud of her bold chick-of-prey, after +all. +</p> +<p> +Yet Desire remembered that her Aunt Frances was a Shiere, also; and +she thought there might easily be two sides to the same family; why +not, since there were two sides still further back, always? There +was Uncle Titus; who knew but it was the Oldways streak in him after +all? +</p> +<p> +Desire took refuge, more and more, with Miss Craydocke, and Rachel +Froke, and the Ripwinkleys; she even went to Luclarion with +questions, to get her quaint notions of things; and she had ventured +into Uncle Titus's study, and taken down volumes of Swedenborg to +pry into, while he looked at her with long keen regards over his +spectacles, and she did not know that she was watched. +</p> +<p> +"That young girl, Desire, is restless, Titus," Rachel Froke said to +him one day. "She is feeling after something; she wants something +real to do; and it appears likely to me that she will do it, if they +don't take care." +</p> +<p> +After that, Uncle Titus fixed his attention upon her yet more +closely; and at this time Desire stumbled upon things in a strange +way among his bookshelves, and thought that Rachel Froke was growing +less precise in her fashion of putting to rights. Books were tucked +in beside each other as if they had been picked up and bestowed +anyhow; between "Heaven and Hell" and the "Four Leading Doctrines," +she found, one day, "Macdonald's Unspoken Sermons," and there was a +leaf doubled lengthwise in the chapter about the White Stone and the +New Name. Another time, a little book of poems, by the same author, +was slid in, open, over the volumes of Darwin and Huxley, and the +pages upon whose outspread faces it lay were those that bore the +rhyme of the blind Bartimeus:— +</p> +<p class="poem"> + "O Jesus Christ! I am deaf and blind;<br> + Nothing comes through into my mind,<br> + I only am not dumb:<br> + Although I see Thee not, nor hear,<br> + I cry because Thou mayst be near <br> + O Son of Mary! come!" +</p> +<p> +Do you think a girl of seventeen may not be feeling out into the +spiritual dark,—may not be stretching helpless hands, vaguely, +toward the Hands that help? Desire Ledwith laid the book down again, +with a great swelling breath coming up slowly out of her bosom, and +with a warmth of tears in her earnest little eyes. And Uncle Titus +Oldways sat there among his papers, and never moved, or seemed to +look, but saw it all. +</p> +<p> +He never said a word to her himself; it was not Uncle Titus's way to +talk, and few suspected him of having anything to say in such +matters; but he went to Friend Froke and asked her,— +</p> +<p> +"Haven't you got any light that might shine a little for that child, +Rachel?" +</p> +<p> +And the next Sunday, in the forenoon, Desire came in; came in, +without knowing it, for her little light. +</p> +<p> +She had left home with the family on their way to church; she was +dressed in her buff silk pongee suit trimmed with golden brown bands +and quillings; she had on a lovely new brown hat with tea roses in +it; her gloves and boots were exquisite and many buttoned; Agatha +and Florence could not think what was the matter when she turned +back, up Dorset Street, saying suddenly, "I won't go, after all." +And then she had walked straight over the hill and down to Greenley +Street, and came in upon Rachel, sitting alone in a quiet gray +parlor that was her own, where there were ferns and ivies in the +window, and a little canary, dressed in brown and gold like Desire +herself, swung over them in a white wire cage. +</p> +<p> +When Desire saw how still it was, and how Rachel Froke sat there +with her open window and her open book, all by herself, she stopped +in the doorway with a sudden feeling of intrusion, which had not +occurred to her as she came. +</p> +<p> +"It's just what I want to come into; but if I do, it won't be +there. I've no right to spoil it. Don't mind, Rachel. I'll go away." +</p> +<p> +She said it softly and sadly, as if she could not help it, and was +turning back into the hall. +</p> +<p> +"But I do mind," said Rachel, speaking quickly. "Thee will come in, +and sit down. Whatever it is thee wants, is here for thee. Is it the +stillness? Then we will be still." +</p> +<p> +"That's so easy to say. But you can't do it for me. <i>You</i> will be +still, and I shall be all in a stir. I want so to be just hushed +up!" +</p> +<p> +"Fed, and hushed up, in somebody's arms, like a baby. I know," said +Rachel Froke. +</p> +<p> +"How does she know?" thought Desire; but she only looked at her with +surprised eyes, saying nothing. +</p> +<p> +"Hungry and restless; that's what we all are," said Rachel Froke, +"until"— +</p> +<p> +"Well,—until?" demanded the strange girl, impetuously, as Rachel +paused. "I've been hungry ever since I was born, mother says." +</p> +<p> +"Until He takes us up and feeds us." +</p> +<p> +"Why don't He?—Mrs. Froke, when does He give it out? Once a month, +in church, they have the bread and the wine? Does that do it?" +</p> +<p> +"Thee knows we do not hold by ordinances, we Friends," said Rachel. +"But He gives the bread of life. Not once a month, or in any place; +it is his word. Does thee get no word when thee goes to church? Does +nothing come to thee?" +</p> +<p> +"I don't know; it's mixed up; the church is full of bonnets; and +people settle their gowns when they come in, and shake out their +hitches and puffs when they go out, and there's professional music +at one end, and—I suppose it's because I'm bad, but I don't know; +half the time it seems to me it's only Mig at the other. Something +all fixed up, and patted down, and smoothed over, and salted and +buttered, like the potato hills they used to make on my plate for me +at dinner, when I was little. But it's soggy after all, and has an +underground taste. It isn't anything that has just grown, up in the +light, like the ears of corn they rubbed in their hands. Breakfast +is better than dinner. Bread, with yeast in it, risen up new. They +don't feed with bread very often." +</p> +<p> +"The yeast in the bread, and the sparkle in the wine they are the +life of it; they are what make the signs." +</p> +<p> +"If they only gave it out fresh, and a little of it! But they keep +it over, and it grows cold and tough and flat, and people sit round +and pretend, but they don't eat. They've eaten other things,—all +sorts of trash,—before they came. They've spoiled their appetites. +Mine was spoiled, to-day. I felt so new and fussy, in these brown +things. So I turned round, and came here." +</p> +<p> +Mr. Oldways' saying came back into Mrs. Froke's mind:— +</p> +<p> +"Haven't you got any light, Rachel, that might shine a little for +that child?" +</p> +<p> +Perhaps that was what the child had come for. +</p> +<p> +What had the word of the Spirit been to Rachel Froke this day? The +new, fresh word, with the leaven in it? "A little of it;" that was +what she wanted. +</p> +<p> +Rachel took up the small red Bible that lay on the lightstand beside +her. +</p> +<p> +"I'll will give thee my First-Day crumb, Desire," she said. "It may +taste sweet to thee." +</p> +<p> +She turned to Revelation, seventh chapter. +</p> +<p> +"Look over with me; thee will see then where the crumb is," she +said; and as Desire came near and looked over her upon the page, +she read from the last two verses:— +</p> +<p> +"They shall hunger no more, neither thirst any more. +</p> +<p> +"For the <i>Tenderness</i> that is in the midst of the <i>Almightiness</i> +shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of water; +and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes." +</p> +<p> +Her voice lingered over the words she put for the "Lamb" and the +"Throne," so that she said "Tenderness" with its own very yearning +inflection, and "Almightiness" with a strong fullness, glad in that +which can never fall short or be exhausted. Then she softly laid +over the cover, and sat perfectly still. It was the Quaker silence +that falls upon them in their assemblies, leaving each heart to +itself and that which the Spirit has given. +</p> +<p> +Desire was hushed all through; something living and real had +thrilled into her thought; her restlessness quieted suddenly under +it, as Mary stood quiet before the message of the angel. +</p> +<p> +When she did speak again, after a time, as Rachel Froke broke the +motionless pause by laying the book gently back again upon the +table, it was to say,— +</p> +<p> +"Why don't they preach like that, and leave the rest to preach +itself? A Sermon means a Word; why don't they just say the word, and +let it go?" +</p> +<p> +The Friend made no reply. +</p> +<p> +"I never could—quite—like that about the 'Lamb,' before," said +Desire, hesitatingly. "It seemed,—I don't know,—putting Him +<i>down</i>, somehow; making him tame; taking the grandness away that +made the gentleness any good. But,—'Tenderness;' that is beautiful! +Does it mean so in the other place? About taking away the sins,—do +you think?" +</p> +<p> +"'The Tenderness of God—the Compassion—that taketh away the sins +of the world?'" Mrs. Froke repeated, half inquiringly. "Jesus +Christ, God's Heart of Love toward man? I think it is so. I think, +child, thee has got thy crumb also, to-day." +</p> +<p> +But not all yet. +</p> +<p> +Pretty soon, they heard the front door open, and Uncle Titus come +in. Another step was behind his; and Kenneth Kincaid's voice was +speaking, about some book he had called to take. +</p> +<p> +Desire's face flushed, and her manner grew suddenly flurried. +</p> +<p> +"I must go," she said, starting up; yet when she got to the door, +she paused and delayed. +</p> +<p> +The voices were talking on, in the study; somehow, Desire had last +words also, to say to Mrs. Froke. +</p> +<p> +She was partly shy about going past that open door, and partly +afraid they might not notice her if she did. Back in her girlish +thought was a secret suggestion that she was pushing at all the time +with a certain self-scorn and denial, that it might happen that she +and Kenneth Kincaid would go out at the same moment; if so, he would +walk up the street with her, and Kenneth Kincaid was one of the few +persons whom Desire Ledwith thoroughly believed in and liked. "There +was no Mig about him," she said. It is hazardous when a girl of +seventeen makes one of her rare exceptions in her estimate of +character in favor of a man of six and twenty. +</p> +<p> +Yet Desire Ledwith hated "nonsense;" she wouldn't have anybody +sending her bouquets as they did to Agatha and Florence; she had an +utter contempt for lavender pantaloons and waxed moustaches; but for +Kenneth Kincaid, with his honest, clear look at life, and his high +strong purpose, to say friendly things,—tell her a little now and +then of how the world looked to him and what it demanded,—this +lifted her up; this made it seem worth while to speak and to hear. +</p> +<p> +So she was very glad when Uncle Titus saw her go down the hall, +after she had made up her mind that that way lay her straight path, +and that things contrived were not things worth happening,—and +spoke out her name, so that she had to stop, and turn to the open +doorway and reply; and Kenneth Kincaid came over and held out his +hand to her. He had two books in the other,—a volume of Bunsen and +a copy of "Guild Court,"—and he was just ready to go. +</p> +<p> +"Not been to church to-day?" said Uncle Titus to Desire. +</p> +<p> +"I've been—to Friend's Meeting," the girl answered. +</p> +<p> +"Get anything by that?" he asked, gruffly, letting the shag down +over his eyes that behind it beamed softly. +</p> +<p> +"Yes; a morsel," replied Desire. "All I wanted." +</p> +<p> +"All you wanted? Well, that's a Sunday-full!" +</p> +<p> +"Yes, sir, I think it is," said she. +</p> +<p> +When they got out upon the sidewalk, Kenneth Kincaid asked, "Was it +one of the morsels that may be shared, Miss Desire? Some crumbs +multiply by dividing, you know." +</p> +<p> +"It was only a verse out of the Bible, with a new word in it." +</p> +<p> +"A new word? Well, I think Bible verses often have that. I suppose +it was what they were made for." +</p> +<p> +Desire's glance at him had a question in it. +</p> +<p> +"Made to look different at different times, as everything does that +has life in it. Isn't that true? Clouds, trees, faces,—do they ever +look twice the same?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes," said Desire, thinking especially of the faces. "I think they +do, or ought to. But they may look <i>more</i>." +</p> +<p> +"I didn't say <i>contradictory</i>. To look more, there must be a +difference; a fresh aspect. And that is what the world is full of; +and the world is the word of God." +</p> +<p> +"The world?" said Desire, who had been taught in a dried up, +mechanical sort of way, that the Bible is the word of God; and +practically left to infer that, that point once settled, it might be +safely shut, up between its covers and not much meddled with, +certainly not over freely interpreted. +</p> +<p> +"Yes. What God had to say. In the beginning was the Word, and the +Word was God. Without him was not anything made that was made." +</p> +<p> +Desire's face brightened. She knew those words by heart. They were +the first Sunday-school lesson she ever committed to memory, out of +the New Testament; "down to 'grace and truth,'" as she recollected. +What a jumble of repetitions it had been to her, then! Sentences so +much alike that she could not remember them apart, or which way they +came. All at once the simple, beautiful meaning was given to her. +</p> +<p> +<i>What God had to say.</i> +</p> +<p> +And it took a world,—millions, of worlds,—to say it with. +</p> +<p> +"And the Bible, too?" she said, simply following out her own mental +perception, without giving the link. It was not needed. They were +upon one track. +</p> +<p> +"Yes; all things; and all <i>souls</i>. The world-word comes through +things; the Bible came through souls. And it is all the more alive, +and full, and deep, and changing; like a river." +</p> +<p> +"Living fountains of waters! that was part of the morsel to-day," +Desire repeated impulsively, and then shyly explained. +</p> +<p> +"And the new word?" +</p> +<p> +Desire shrunk into silence for a moment; she was not used to, or +fond of Bible quoting, or even Bible talk; yet sin was hungering all +the time for Bible truth. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Kincaid waited. +</p> +<p> +So she repeated it presently; for Desire never made a fuss; she was +too really sensitive for that. +</p> +<p> +"'The Tenderness in the midst of the Almightiness shall feed them, +and shall lead them to living fountains of water.'" +</p> +<p> +Mr. Kincaid recognized the "new word," and his face lit up. +</p> +<p> +"'The Lamb in the midst of the Throne,'" he said. "Out of the Heart +of God, the Christ. Who was there before; the intent by which all +things were made. The same yesterday, and to-day, and forever; who +ever liveth to make intercession for us. Christ <i>had to be</i>. The +Word, full of grace, must be made flesh. Why need people dispute +about Eternity and Divinity, if they can only see that?—Was that +Mrs. Froke's reading?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes; that was Rachel's sermon." +</p> +<p> +"It is an illumination." +</p> +<p> +They walked all up Orchard Street without another word. +</p> +<p> +Then Kenneth Kincaid said,—"Miss Desire, why won't you come and +teach in the Mission School?" +</p> +<p> +"I teach? Why, I've got everything to learn!" +</p> +<p> +"But as fast as you <i>do</i> learn; the morsels, you know. That is the +way they are given out. That is the wonder of the kingdom of heaven. +There is no need to go away and buy three hundred pennyworth before +we begin, that every one may take a little; the bread given as the +Master breaks it feeds them till they are filled; and there are +baskets full of fragments to gather up." +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid's heart was in his Sunday work, as his sister had +said. The more gladly now, that the outward daily bread was being +given. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Geoffrey,—one of those busy men, so busy that they do promptly +that which their hands find to do,—had put Kenneth in the way of +work. It only needed a word from him, and the surveying and laying +out of some new streets and avenues down there where Boston is +growing so big and grand and strange, were put into his charge. +Kenneth was busy now, cheerily busy, from Monday morning to Saturday +night; and restfully busy on the Sunday, straightening the paths and +laying out the ways for souls to walk in. He felt the harmony and +the illustration between his week and his Sunday, and the one +strengthening the other, as all true outward work does harmonize +with and show forth, and help the spiritual doing. It could not have +been so with that gold work, or any little feverish hitching on to +other men's business; producing nothing, advancing nothing, only +standing between to snatch what might fall, or to keep a premium for +passing from hand to hand. +</p> +<p> +Our great cities are so full,—our whole country is so +overrun,—with these officious middle-men whom the world does not +truly want; chiffonniers of trade, who only pick up a living out of +the great press and waste and overflow; and our boys are so eager to +slip in to some such easy, ready-made opportunity,—to get some +crossing to sweep. +</p> +<p> +What will come of it all, as the pretenses multiply? Will there be +always pennies for every little broom? Will two, and three, and six +sweeps be tolerated between side and side? By and by, I think, they +will have to turn to and lay pavements. Hard, honest work, and the +day's pay for it; that is what we have got to go back to; that and +the day's snug, patient living, which the pay achieves. +</p> +<p> +Then, as I say, the week shall illustrate the Sunday, and the Sunday +shall glorify the week; and what men do and build shall stand true +types, again, for the inner growth and the invisible building; so +that if this outer tabernacle were dissolved, there should be seen +glorious behind it, the house not made with hands,—eternal. +</p> +<p> +As Desire Ledwith met this young Kenneth Kincaid from day to day, +seeing him so often at her Aunt Ripwinkley's, where he and Dorris +went in and out now, almost like a son and daughter,—as she walked +beside him this morning, hearing him say these things, at which +the heart-longing in her burned anew toward the real and +satisfying,—what wonder was it that her restlessness grasped at +that in his life which was strong and full of rest; that she felt +glad and proud to have him tell his thought to her; that without any +silliness,—despising all silliness,—she should yet be conscious, +as girls of seventeen are conscious, of something that made her day +sufficient when she had so met him,—of a temptation to turn into +those streets in her walks that led his way? Or that she often, with +her blunt truth, toward herself as well as others, and her quick +contempt of sham and subterfuge, should snub herself mentally, and +turn herself round as by a grasp of her own shoulders, and make +herself walk off stoutly in a far and opposite direction, when, +without due need and excuse, she caught herself out in these things? +</p> +<p> +What wonder that this stood in her way, for very pleasantness, when +Kenneth asked her to come and teach in the school? That she was +ashamed to let herself do a thing—even a good thing, that her life +needed,—when there was this conscious charm in the asking; this +secret thought—that she should walk up home with him every Sunday! +</p> +<p> +She remembered Agatha and Florence, and she imagined, perhaps, more +than they would really have thought of it at home; and so as they +turned into Shubarton Place,—for he had kept on all the way along +Bridgeley and up Dorset Street with her,—she checked her steps +suddenly as they came near the door, and said brusquely,— +</p> +<p> +"No, Mr. Kincaid; I can't come to the Mission. I might learn A, and +teach them that; but how do I know I shall ever learn B, myself?" +</p> +<p> +He had left his question, as their talk went on, meaning to ask it +again before they separated. He thought it was prevailing with her, +and that the help that comes of helping others would reach her need; +it was for her sake he asked it; he was disappointed at the sudden, +almost trivial turn she gave it. +</p> +<p> +"You have taken up another analogy, Miss Desire," he said. "We were +talking about crumbs and feeding. The five loaves and the five +thousand. 'Why reason ye because ye have no bread? How is it that ye +do not understand?'" +</p> +<p> +Kenneth quoted these words naturally, pleasantly; as he might quote +anything that had been spoken to them both out of a love and +authority they both recognized, a little while ago. +</p> +<p> +But Desire was suddenly sharp and fractious. If it had not touched +some deep, live place in her, she would not have minded so much. It +was partly, too, the coming toward home. She had got away out of the +pure, clear spaces where such things seemed to be fit and +unstrained, into the edge of her earth atmosphere again, where, +falling, they took fire. Presently she would be in that ridiculous +pink room, and Glossy Megilp would be chattering about "those lovely +purple poppies with the black grass," that she had been lamenting +all the morning she had not bought for her chip hat, instead of the +pomegranate flowers. And Agatha would be on the bed, in her cashmere +sack, reading Miss Braddon. +</p> +<p> +"It would sound nice to tell them she was going down to the Mission +School to give out crumbs!" +</p> +<p> +Besides, I suppose that persons of a certain temperament never utter +a more ungracious "No," than when they are longing all the time to +say "Yes." +</p> +<p> +So she turned round on the lower step to Kenneth, when he had asked +that grave, sweet question of the Lord's, and said perversely,— +</p> +<p> +"I thought you did not believe in any brokering kind of business. +It's all there,—for everybody. Why should I set up to fetch and +carry?" +</p> +<p> +She did not look in his face as she said it; she was not audacious +enough to do that; she poked with the stick of her sunshade between +the uneven bricks of the sidewalk, keeping her eyes down, as if she +watched for some truth she expected to pry up. But she only wedged +the stick in so that she could not get it out; and Kenneth Kincaid +making her absolutely no answer at all, she had to stand there, +growing red and ashamed, held fast by her own silly trap. +</p> +<p> +"Take care; you will break it," said Kenneth, quietly, as she gave +it a twist and a wrench. And he put out his hand, and took it from +hers, and drew gently upward in the line in which she had thrust it +in. +</p> +<p> +"You were bearing off at an angle. It wanted a straight pull." +</p> +<p> +"I never pull straight at anything. I always get into a crook, +somehow. You didn't answer me, Mr. Kincaid. I didn't mean to be +rude—or wicked. I didn't mean—" +</p> +<p> +"What you said. I know that; and it's no use to answer what people +don't mean. That makes the crookedest crook of all." +</p> +<p> +"But I think I did mean it partly; only not contrarimindedly. I do +mean that I have no business—yet awhile. It would only be—Migging +at gospel!" +</p> +<p> +And with this remarkable application of her favorite illustrative +expression, she made a friendly but abrupt motion of leave-taking, +and went into the house. +</p> +<p> +Up into her own room, in the third story, where the old furniture +was, and no "fadging,"—and sat down, bonnet, gloves, sunshade, and +all, in her little cane rocking-chair by the window. +</p> +<p> +Helena was down in the pink room, listening with charmed ears to the +grown up young-ladyisms of her elder sisters and Glossy Megilp. +</p> +<p> +Desire sat still until the dinner-bell rang, forgetful of her dress, +forgetful of all but one thought that she spoke out as she rose at +last at the summons to take off her things in a hurry,— +</p> +<p> +"I wonder,—I <i>wonder</i>—if I shall ever live anything all straight +out!" +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0013"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XIII. +</h2> +<h3> + PIECES OF WORLDS. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Mr. Dickens never put a truer thought into any book, than he put at +the beginning of "Little Dorrit." +</p> +<p> +That, from over land and sea, from hundreds, thousands of miles +away, are coming the people with whom we are to have to do in our +lives; and that, "what is set to us to do to them, and what is set +for them to do to us, will all be done." +</p> +<p> +Not only from far places in this earth, over land and sea,—but from +out the eternities, before and after,—from which souls are born, +and into which they die,—all the lines of life are moving +continually which are to meet and join, and bend, and cross our own. +</p> +<p> +But it is only with a little piece of this world, as far as we can +see it in this short and simple story, that we have now to do. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond Holabird was coming down to Boston. +</p> +<p> +With all her pretty, fresh, delicate, high-lady ways, with her +beautiful looks, and her sweet readiness for true things and noble +living, she was coming, for a few days only,—the cooperative +housekeeping was going on at Westover, and she could not be spared +long,—right in among them here in Aspen Street, and Shubarton +Place, and Orchard Street, and Harrisburg Square, where Mrs. +Scherman lived whom she was going to stay with. But a few days may +be a great deal. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond Holabird was coming for far more than she knew. Among +other things she was coming to get a lesson; a lesson right on in a +course she was just now learning; a lesson of next things, and best +things, and real folks. +</p> +<p> +You see how it happened,—where the links were; Miss Craydocke, and +Sin Scherman, and Leslie Goldthwaite, were dear friends, made to +each other one summer among the mountains. Leslie had had Sin and +Miss Craydocke up at Z——, and Rosamond and Leslie were friends, +also. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Frank Scherman had a pretty house in Harrisburg Square. She had +not much time for paying fashionable calls, or party-going, or +party-giving. As to the last, she did not think Frank had money +enough yet to "circumfuse," she said, in that way. +</p> +<p> +But she had six lovely little harlequin cups on a side-shelf in her +china closet, and six different-patterned breakfast plates, with +colored borders to match the cups; rose, and brown, and gray, and +vermilion, and green, and blue. These were all the real china she +had, and were for Frank and herself and the friends whom she made +welcome,—and who might come four at once,—for day and night. She +delighted in "little stays;" in girls who would go into the nursery +with her, and see Sinsie in her bath; or into the kitchen, and help +her mix up "little delectabilities to surprise Frank with;" only the +trouble had got to be now, that the surprise occurred when the +delectabilities did not. Frank had got demoralized, and expected +them. She rejoiced to have Miss Craydocke drop in of a morning and +come right up stairs, with her little petticoats and things to work +on; and she and Frank returned these visits in a social, cosy way, +after Sinsie was in her crib for the night. Frank's boots never went +on with a struggle for a walk down to Orchard Street; but they were +terribly impossible for Continuation Avenue. +</p> +<p> +So it had come about long ago, though I have not had a corner to +mention it in, that they "knew the Muffin Man," in an Aspen Street +sense; and were no strangers to the charm of Mrs. Ripwinkley's +"evenings." There was always an "evening" in the "Mile Hill House," +as the little family and friendly coterie had come to call it. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond and Leslie had been down together for a week once, at the +Schermans; and this time Rosamond was coming alone. She had business +in Boston for a day or two, and had written to ask Asenath "if she +might." There were things to buy for Barbara, who was going to be +married in a "navy hurry," besides an especial matter that had +determined her just at this time to come. +</p> +<p> +And Asenath answered, "that the scarlet and gray, and green and blue +were pining and fading on the shelf; and four days would be the very +least to give them all a turn and treat them fairly; for such things +had their delicate susceptibilities, as Hans Andersen had taught us +to know, and might starve and suffer,—why not? being made of +protoplasm, same as anybody." +</p> +<p> +Rosamond's especial errand to the city was one that just a little +set her up, innocently, in her mind. She had not wholly got the +better,—when it interfered with no good-will or generous +dealing,—of a certain little instinctive reverence for imposing +outsides and grand ways of daily doing; and she was somewhat +complacent at the idea of having to go,—with kindly and needful +information,—to Madam Mucklegrand, in Spreadsplendid Park. +</p> +<p> +Madam Mucklegrand was a well-born Boston lady, who had gone to +Europe in her early youth, and married a Scottish gentleman with a +Sir before his name. Consequently, she was quite entitled to be +called "my lady;" and some people who liked the opportunity of +touching their republican tongues to the salt of European +dignitaries, addressed her so; but, for the most part, she assumed +and received simply the style of "Madam." A queen may be called +"Madam," you know. It covers an indefinite greatness. But when she +spoke of her late,—very long ago,—husband, she always named him as +"Sir Archibald." +</p> +<p> +Madam Mucklegrand's daughter wanted a wet-nurse for her little baby. +</p> +<p> +Up in Z——, there was a poor woman whose husband, a young brakeman +on the railroad, had been suddenly killed three months ago, before +her child was born. There was a sister here in Boston, who could +take care of it for her if she could go to be foster-mother to some +rich little baby, who was yet so poor as this—to need one. So +Rosamond Holabird, who was especially interested for Mrs. Jopson, +had written to Asenath, and had an advertisement put in the +"Transcript," referring to Mrs. Scherman for information. And the +Mucklegrand carriage had rolled up, the next day, to the house in +Harrisburg Square. +</p> +<p> +They wanted to see the woman, of course, and to hear all about +her,—more than Mrs. Scherman was quite able to tell; therefore when +she sent a little note up to Z——, by the evening mail, Rosamond +replied with her "Might she come?" +</p> +<p> +She brought Jane Jopson and the baby down with her, left them over +night at Mrs. Ginnever's, in Sheafe Street, and was to go for them +next morning and take them up to Spreadsplendid Park. She had sent a +graceful, polite little note to Madam Mucklegrand, dated "Westover, +Z——," and signed, "Rosamond Holabird," offering to do this, that +there might not be the danger of Jane's losing the chance in the +meanwhile. +</p> +<p> +It was certainly to accomplish the good deed that Rosamond cared +the most; but it was also certainly something to accomplish it in +that very high quarter. It lent a piquancy to the occasion. +</p> +<p> +She came down to breakfast very nicely and discriminatingly dressed, +with the elegant quietness of a lady who knew what was simply +appropriate to such an errand and the early hour, but who meant to +be recognized as the lady in every unmistakable touch; and there was +a carriage ordered for her at half past nine. +</p> +<p> +Sin Scherman was a cute little matron; she discerned the dash of +subdued importance in Rosamond's air; and she thought it very +likely, in the Boston nature of things, that it would get +wholesomely and civilly toned down. +</p> +<p> +Just at this moment, Rosamond, putting on her little straw bonnet +with real lace upon it, and her simple little narrow-bordered green +shawl, that was yet, as far as it went, veritable cashmere,—had a +consciousness, in a still, modest way, not only of her own personal +dignity as Rosamond Holabird, who was the same going to see Madam +Mucklegrand, or walking over to Madam Pennington's, and as much in +her place with one as the other; but of the dignity of Westover +itself, and Westover ladyhood, represented by her among the palaces +of Boston-Appendix to-day. +</p> +<p> +She was only twenty, this fair and pleasant Rosamond of ours, and +country simple, with all her native tact and grace; and she forgot, +or did not know how full of impressions a life like Madam +Mucklegrand's might be, and how very trifling and fleeting must be +any that she might chance to make. +</p> +<p> +She drove away down to the North End, and took Jane Jopson and her +baby in,—very clean and shiny, both of them,—and Jane +particularly nice in the little black crape bonnet that Rosamond +herself had made, and the plain black shawl that Mrs. Holabird had +given her. +</p> +<p> +She stood at the head of the high, broad steps, with her mind +very much made up in regard to her complete and well-bred +self-possession, and the manner of her quietly assured +self-introduction. She had her card all ready that should explain +for her; and to the servant's reply that Madam Mucklegrand was in, +she responded by moving forward with only enough of voluntary +hesitation to allow him to indicate to her the reception room, at +the door of which she gave him the little pasteboard, with,— +</p> +<p> +"Take that to her, if you please," and so sat down, very much as if +she had been in such places frequently before, which she never had. +One may be quite used to the fine, free essence of gentle living, +and never in all one's life have anything to do with such solid, +concrete expression of it as Rosamond saw here. +</p> +<p> +Very high, to begin with, the ceiled and paneled room was; reaching +up into space as if it had really been of no consequence to the +builders where they should put the cover on; and with no remotest +suggestion of any reserve for further superstructure upon the same +foundation. +</p> +<p> +Very dark, and polished, and deeply carved, and heavily ornamented +were its wainscotings, and frames, and cornices; out of the new look +of the streets, which it will take them yet a great while to +outgrow, she had stepped at once into a grand, and mellow, and +ancient stateliness. +</p> +<p> +There were dim old portraits on the walls, and paintings that hinted +at old mastership filled whole panels; and the tall, high-backed, +wonderfully wrought oaken chairs had heraldic devices in relief upon +their bars and corners; and there was a great, round mosaic table, +in soft, rich, dark colors, of most precious stones; these, in +turn, hidden with piles of rare engravings. +</p> +<p> +The floor was of dark woods, inlaid; and sumptuous rugs were put +about upon it for the feet, each one of which was wide enough to +call a carpet. +</p> +<p> +And nothing of it all was <i>new</i>; there was nothing in the room but +some plants in a jardiniere by the window, that seemed to have a bit +of yesterday's growth upon it. +</p> +<p> +A great, calm, marble face of Jove looked down from high up, out of +the shadows. +</p> +<p> +Underneath sat Rosamond Holabird, holding on to her identity and her +self-confidence. +</p> +<p> +Madam Mucklegrand came in plainly enough dressed,—in black; you +would not notice what she had on; but you would notice instantly the +consummate usedness to the world and the hardening into the mould +thereof that was set and furrowed upon eye and lip and brow. +</p> +<p> +She sailed down upon Rosamond like a frigate upon a graceful little +pinnace; and brought to within a pace or two of her, continuing to +stand an instant, as Rosamond rose, just long enough for the shadow +of a suggestion that it might not be altogether material that she +should be seated again at all. +</p> +<p> +But Rosamond made a movement backward to her chair, and laid her +hand upon its arm, and then Madam Mucklegrand decided to sit down. +</p> +<p> +"You called about the nurse, I conclude, Miss—Holabird?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes, ma'am; I thought you had some questions you wished to ask, and +that I had better come myself. I have her with me, in the carriage." +</p> +<p> +"Thank you," said Madam Mucklegrand, politely. +</p> +<p> +But it was rather a <i>de haut en bas</i> politeness; she exercised it +also toward her footman. +</p> +<p> +Then followed inquiries about age, and health, and character. +Rosamond told all she knew, clearly and sufficiently, with some +little sympathetic touches that she could not help, in giving her +story. +</p> +<p> +Madam Mucklegrand met her nowhere, however, on any common ground; +she passed over all personal interest; instead of two women +befriending a third in her need, who in turn was to give life to a +little child waiting helplessly for some such ministry, it might +have been the leasing of a house, or the dealing about some +merchandise, that was between them. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond proposed, at last, to send Jane Jopson in. +</p> +<p> +Jane and her baby were had in, and had up-stairs; the physician and +attending nurse pronounced upon her; she was brought down again, to +go home and dispose of her child, and return. Rosamond, meanwhile, +had been sitting under the marble Jove. +</p> +<p> +There was nothing really rude in it; she was there on business; what +more could she expect? But then she knew all the time, that she too +was a lady, and was taking trouble to do a kind thing. It was not so +that Madam Mucklegrand would have been treated at Westover. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond was feeling pretty proud by the time Madam Mucklegrand came +down stairs. +</p> +<p> +"We have engaged the young woman: the doctor quite approves; she +will return without delay, I hope?" +</p> +<p> +As if Rosamond were somehow responsible all through. +</p> +<p> +"I have no doubt she will; good morning, madam." +</p> +<p> +"Good morning. I am, really, very much obliged. You have been of +great service." +</p> +<p> +Rosamond turned quietly round upon the threshold. +</p> +<p> +"That was what I was very anxious to be," she said, in her perfectly +sweet and musical voice,—"to the poor woman." +</p> +<p> +Italics would indicate too coarsely the impalpable emphasis she put +upon the last two words. But Mrs. Mucklegrand caught it. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond went away quite as sure of her own self-respect as ever, +but very considerably cured of Spreadsplendidism. +</p> +<p> +This was but one phase of it, she knew; there are real folks, also, +in Spreadsplendid Park; they are a good deal covered up, there, to +be sure; but they can't help that. It is what always happens to +somebody when Pyramids are built. Madam Mucklegrand herself was, +perhaps, only a good deal covered up. +</p> +<p> +How lovely it was to go down into Orchard Street after that, and +take tea with Miss Craydocke! How human and true it seemed,—the +friendliness that shone and breathed there, among them all. How +kingdom-of-heaven-like the air was, and into what pleasantness of +speech it was born! +</p> +<p> +And then Hazel Ripwinkley came over, like a little spirit from +another blessed society, to tell that "the picture-book things were +all ready, and that it would take everybody to help." +</p> +<p> +That was Rosamond's first glimpse of Witch Hazel, who found her out +instantly,—the real, Holabirdy part of her,—and set her down at +once among her "folks." +</p> +<p> +It was bright and cheery in Mrs. Ripwinkley's parlor; you could +hardly tell whence the cheeriness radiated, either. +</p> +<p> +The bright German lamp was cheery, in the middle of the round table; +the table was cheery, covered with glossy linen cut into large, +square book-sheets laid in piles, and with gay pictures of all +kinds, brightly colored; and the scissors,—or scissorses,—there +were ever so many shining pairs of them,—and the little mucilage +bottles, and the very scrap-baskets,—all looked cozy and +comfortable, and as if people were going to have a real good time +among them, somehow. +</p> +<p> +And the somehow was in making great beautiful, everlasting +picture-books for the little orphans in Miss Craydocke's Home,—the +Home, that is, out of several blessed and similar ones that she was +especially interested in, and where Hazel and Diana had been with +her until they knew all the little waifs by sight and name and +heart, and had their especial chosen property among them, as they +used to have among the chickens and the little yellow ducks at +Homesworth Farm. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley was cheery; it might be a question whether all the +light did not come from her first, in some way, and perhaps it did; +but then Hazel was luminous, and she fluttered about with quick, +happy motions, till like a little glancing taper she had shone upon +and lit up everybody and everything; and Dorris was sunny with clear +content, and Kenneth was blithe, and Desire was scintillant, as she +always was either with snaps or smiles; and here came in beaming +Miss Craydocke, and gay Asenath and her handsome husband; and our +Rosa Mundi; there,—how can you tell? It was all round; and it was +more every minute. +</p> +<p> +There were cutters and pasters and stitchers and binders and every +part was beautiful work, and nobody could tell which was +pleasantest. Cutting out was nice, of course; who doesn't like +cutting out pictures? Some were done beforehand, but there were as +many left as there would be time for. And pasting, on the fine, +smooth linen, making it glow out with charming groups and tints of +flowers and birds and children in gay clothes,—that was +delightful; and the stitchers had the pleasure of combining and +arranging it all; and the binders,—Mrs. Ripwinkley and Miss +Craydocke,—finished all off with the pretty ribbons and the gray +covers, and theirs being the completing touch, thought <i>they</i> had +the best of it. +</p> +<p> +"But I don't think finishing is best, mother," said Hazel, who was +diligently snipping in and out around rose leaves or baby faces, as +it happened. "I think beginning is always beautiful. I never want to +end off,—anything nice, I mean." +</p> +<p> +"Well, we don't end off this," said Diana. "There's the giving, +next." +</p> +<p> +"And then their little laughs and Oo's," said Hazel. +</p> +<p> +"And their delight day after day; and the comfort of them in their +little sicknesses," said Miss Craydocke. +</p> +<p> +"And the stories that have got to be told about every picture," said +Dorris. +</p> +<p> +"No; nothing really nice does end; it goes on and on," said Mrs. +Ripwinkley. +</p> +<p> +"Of course!" said Hazel, triumphantly, turning on the Drummond light +of her child-faith. "We're forever and ever people, you know!" +</p> +<p> +"Please paste some more flowers, Mr. Kincaid," said Rosamond, who +sat next him, stitching. "I want to make an all-flower book of this. +No,—not roses; I've a whole page already; this great white lily, I +think. That's beautiful!" +</p> +<p> +"Wouldn't it do to put in this laurel bush next, with the bird's +nest in it?" +</p> +<p> +"O, those lovely pink and white laurels! Yes. Where did you get such +pictures, Miss Hazel?" +</p> +<p> +"O, everybody gave them to us, all summer, ever since we began. Mrs. +Geoffrey gave those flowers; and mother painted some. She did that +laurel. But don't call me Miss Hazel, please; it seems to send me +off into a corner." +</p> +<p> +Rosamond answered by a little irresistible caress; leaning her head +down to Hazel, on her other side, until her cheek touched the +child's bright curls, quickly and softly. There was magnetism +between those two. +</p> +<p> +Ah, the magnetism ran round! +</p> +<p> +"For a child's picture-book, Mrs. Ripwinkley?" said Mrs. Scherman, +reaching over for the laurel picture. "Aren't these almost +too exquisite? They would like a big scarlet poppy just as +well,—perhaps better. Or a clump of cat-o'-nine-tails," she added, +whimsically. +</p> +<p> +"There <i>is</i> a clump of cat-o'-nine-tails," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "I +remember how I used to delight in them as a child,—the real ones." +</p> +<p> +"Pictures are to <i>tell</i> things," said Desire, in her brief way. +</p> +<p> +"These little city refugees <i>must</i> see them, somehow," said +Rosamond, gently. "I understand. They will never get up on the +mountains, maybe, where the laurels grow, or into the shady swamps +among the flags and the cat-o'-nine-tails. You have <i>picked out</i> +pictures to give them, Mrs. Ripwinkley." +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid's scissors stopped a moment, as he looked at +Rosamond, pausing also over the placing of her leaves. +</p> +<p> +Desire saw that from the other side; she saw how beautiful and +gracious this girl was—this Rosamond Holabird; and there was a +strange little twinge in her heart, as she felt, suddenly, that let +there be ever so much that was true and kindly, or even tender, in +her, it could never come up in her eyes or play upon her lips like +that she could never say it out sweetly and in due place everything +was a spasm with her; and nobody would ever look at her just as +Kenneth Kincaid looked at Rosamond then. +</p> +<p> +She said to herself, with her harsh, unsparing honesty, that it must +be a "hitch inside;" a cramp or an awkwardness born in her, that set +her eyes, peering and sharp, so near together, and put that knot +into her brows instead of their widening placidly, like Rosamond's, +and made her jerky in her speech. It was no use; she couldn't look +and behave, because she couldn't <i>be</i>; she must just go boggling and +kinking on, and—losing everything, she supposed. +</p> +<p> +The smiles went down, under a swift, bitter little cloud, and the +hard twist came into her face with the inward pinching she was +giving herself; and all at once there crackled out one of her sharp, +strange questions; for it was true that she could not do otherwise; +everything was sudden and crepitant with her. +</p> +<p> +"Why need all the good be done up in batches, I wonder? Why can't it +be spread round, a little more even? There must have been a good +deal left out somewhere, to make it come in a heap, so, upon you, +Miss Craydocke!" +</p> +<p> +Hazel looked up. +</p> +<p> +"I know what Desire means," she said. "It seemed just so to me, +<i>one</i> way. Why oughtn't there to be <i>little</i> homes, done-by-hand +homes, for all these little children, instead of—well—machining +them all up together?" +</p> +<p> +And Hazel laughed at her own conceit. +</p> +<p> +"It's nice; but then—it isn't just the way. If we were all brought +up like that we shouldn't know, you see!" +</p> +<p> +"You wouldn't want to be brought up in a platoon, Hazel?" said +Kenneth Kincaid. "No; neither should I." +</p> +<p> +"I think it was better," said Hazel, "to have my turn of being a +little child, all to myself; <i>the</i> little child, I mean, with the +rest of the folks bigger. To make much of me, you know. I shouldn't +want to have missed that. I shouldn't like to be <i>loved</i> in a +platoon." +</p> +<p> +"Nobody is meant to be," said Miss Craydocke. +</p> +<p> +"Then why—" began Asenath Scherman, and stopped. +</p> +<p> +"Why what, dear?" +</p> +<p> +"Revelations," replied Sin, laconically. "There are loads of people +there, all dressed alike, you know; and—well—it's platoony, I +think, rather! And down here, such a world-full; and the sky—full +of worlds. There doesn't seem to be much notion of one at a time, in +the general plan of things." +</p> +<p> +"Ah, but we've got the key to all that," said Miss Craydocke. "'The +very hairs of your head are all numbered.' It may be impossible with +us, you know, but not with Him." +</p> +<p> +"Miss Hapsie! you always did put me down, just when I thought I was +smart," said Sin Scherman. +</p> +<p> +Asenath loved to say "Miss Hapsie," now and then, to her friend, +ever since she had found out what she called her "squee little +name." +</p> +<p> +"But the little children, Miss Craydocke," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "It +seems to me Desire has got a right thought about it." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley and Hazel always struck the same note. The same +delicate instinct moved them both. Hazel "knew what Desire meant;" +her mother did not let it be lost sight of that it was Desire who +had led the way in this thought of the children; so that the abrupt +beginning—the little flash out of the cloud—was quite forgotten +presently, in the tone of hearty understanding and genuine interest +with which the talk went on; and it was as if all that was generous +and mindfully suggestive in it had first and truly come from her. +They unfolded herself for her—these friendly ones—as she could not +do; out of her bluntness grew a graciousness that lay softly over +it; the cloud itself melted away and floated off; and Desire began +to sparkle again more lambently. For she was not one of the kind to +be meanly or enviously "put out." +</p> +<p> +"It seemed to me there must be a great many spare little corners +somewhere, for all these spare little children," she said, "and +that, lumped up together so, there was something they did not get." +</p> +<p> +"That is precisely the thing," said Miss Craydocke, emphatically. "I +wonder, sometimes," she went on, tenderly, "if whenever God makes a +little empty place in a home, it isn't really on purpose that it +might be filled with one of these,—if people only thought." +</p> +<p> +"Miss Craydocke," said Hazel, "how did you begin your beehive?" +</p> +<p> +"I!" said the good lady. "I didn't. It began itself." +</p> +<p> +"Well, then, how did you <i>let</i> it begin?" +</p> +<p> +"Ah!" +</p> +<p> +The tone was admissive, and as if she had said, "<i>That</i> is another +thing!" She could not contradict that she had let it be. +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you a queer story," she said, "of what they say they used +to do, in old Roman Catholic times and places, when they wanted to +<i>keep up</i> a beehive that was in any danger of dwindling or growing +unprofitable. I read it somewhere in a book of popular beliefs and +customs about bees and other interesting animals. An old woman once +went to her friend, and asked her what she did to make her hive so +gainful. And this was what the old wife said; it sounds rather +strange to us, but if there is anything irreverent in it, it is the +word and not the meaning; 'I go,' she said, 'to the priest, and get +a little round Godamighty, and put it in the hive, and then all goes +well; the bees thrive, and there is plenty of honey; they always +come, and stay, and work, when <i>that</i> is there." +</p> +<p> +"A little round—something awful! what <i>did</i> she mean?" asked Mrs. +Scherman. +</p> +<p> +"She meant a consecrated wafer,—the Sacrament. We don't need to put +the wafer in; but if we let <i>Him</i> in, you see,—just say to Him it +is his house, to do with as He likes,—He takes the responsibility, +and brings in all the rest." +</p> +<p> +Nobody saw, under the knitting of Desire Ledwith's brows, and the +close setting of her eyes, the tenderness with which they suddenly +moistened, and the earnestness with which they gleamed. Nobody knew +how she thought to herself inwardly, in the same spasmodic fashion +that she used for speech,— +</p> +<p> +"They Mig up their parlors with upholstery, and put rose-colored +paper on their walls, and call them <i>their</i> houses; and shut the +little round awfulness and goodness out! We've all been doing it! +And there's no place left for what might come in." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Scherman broke the hush that followed what Miss Hapsie said. +Not hastily, or impertinently; but when it seemed as if it might be +a little hard to come down into the picture-books and the pleasant +easiness again. +</p> +<p> +"Let's make a Noah's Ark picture-book,—you and I," she said to +Desire. "Give us all your animals,—there's a whole Natural History +full over there, all painted with splendid daubs of colors; the +children did that, I know, when they <i>were</i> children. Come; we'll +have everything in, from an elephant to a bumble-bee!" +</p> +<p> +"We did not mean to use those, Mrs. Scherman," said Desire. "We did +not think they were good enough. They are <i>so</i> daubed up." +</p> +<p> +"They're perfectly beautiful. Exactly what the young ones will like. +Just divide round, and help. We'll wind up with the most wonderful +book of all; the book they'll all cry for, and that will have to be +given always, directly after the Castor Oil." +</p> +<p> +It took them more than an hour to do that, all working hard; and a +wonderful thing it was truly, when it was done. Mrs. Scherman and +Desire Ledwith directed all the putting together, and the grouping +was something astonishing. +</p> +<p> +There were men and women,—the Knowers, Sin called them; she said +that was what she always thought the old gentleman's name was, in +the days when she first heard of him, because he knew so much; and +in the backgrounds of the same sheets were their country cousins, +the orangs, and the little apes. Then came the elephants, and the +camels, and the whales; "for why shouldn't the fishes be put in, +since they must all have been swimming round sociably, if they +weren't inside; and why shouldn't the big people be all kept +together properly?" +</p> +<p> +There were happy families of dogs and cats and lions and snakes and +little humming-birds; and in the last part were all manner of bugs, +down to the little lady-bugs in blazes of red and gold, and the gray +fleas and mosquitoes which Sin improvised with pen and ink, in a +swarm at the end. +</p> +<p> +"And after that, I don't believe they wanted any more," she said; +and handed over the parts to Miss Craydocke to be tied together. +For this volume had had to be made in many folds, and Mrs. +Ripwinkley's blue ribbon would by no means stretch over the back. +</p> +<p> +And by that time it was eleven o'clock, and they had worked four +hours. They all jumped up in a great hurry then, and began to say +good-by. +</p> +<p> +"This must not be the last we are to have of you, Miss Holabird," +said Mrs. Ripwinkley, laying Rosamond's shawl across her shoulders. +</p> +<p> +"Of course not," said Mrs Scherman, "when you are all coming to our +house to tea to-morrow night." +</p> +<p> +Rosamond bade the Ripwinkleys good-night with a most sweet +cordiality, and thanks for the pleasure she had had, and she told +Hazel and her mother that it was "neither beginning nor end, she +believed; for it seemed to her that she had only found a little new +piece of her world, and that Aspen Street led right out of Westover +in the invisible geography, she was sure." +</p> +<p> +"Come!" said Miss Craydocke, standing on the doorsteps. "It is all +invisible geography out here, pretty nearly; and we've all our +different ways to go, and only these two unhappy gentlemen to insist +on seeing everybody home." +</p> +<p> +So first the whole party went round with Miss Hapsie, and then +Kenneth and Dorris, who always went home with Desire, walked up +Hanley Street with the Schermans and Rosamond, and so across through +Dane Street to Shubarton Place. +</p> +<p> +But while they were on their way, Hazel Ripwinkley was saying to her +mother, up in her room, where they made sometimes such long +good-nights,— +</p> +<p> +"Mother! there were some little children taken away from you before +we came, you know? And now we've got this great big house, and +plenty of things, more than it takes for us." +</p> +<p> +"Well?" +</p> +<p> +"Don't you think it's expected that we should do something with the +corners? There's room for some real good little times for somebody. +I think we ought to begin a beehive." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley kissed Hazel very tenderly, and said, only,— +</p> +<p> +"We can wait, and see." +</p> +<p> +Those are just the words that mothers so often put children off +with! But Mrs. Ripwinkley, being one of the real folks, meant it; +the very heart of it. +</p> +<p> +In that little talk, they took the consecration in; they would wait +and see; when people do that, with an expectation, the beehive +begins. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +Up Hanley Street, the six fell into pairs. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Scherman and Desire, Dorris and Mr. Scherman, Rosamond and +Kenneth Kincaid. +</p> +<p> +It only took from Bridgeley Street up to Dane, to tell Kenneth +Kincaid so much about Westover, in answer to his questions, that he +too thought he had found a new little piece of his world. What +Rosamond thought, I do not know; but a girl never gives a young man +so much as she gave Kenneth in that little walk without having some +of the blessed consciousness that comes with giving. The sun knows +it shines, I dare say; or else there is a great waste of hydrogen +and other things. +</p> +<p> +There was not much left for poor little Desire after they parted +from the Schermans and turned the corner of Dane Street. Only a +little bit of a way, in which new talk could hardly begin, and just +time for a pause that showed how the talk that had come to an end +was missed or how, perhaps, it stayed in the mind, repeating itself, +and keeping it full. +</p> +<p> +Nobody said anything till they had crossed B—— Street; and then +Dorris said, "How beautiful,—<i>real</i> beautiful, Rosamond Holabird +is!" And Kenneth answered, "Did you hear what she said to Mrs. +Ripwinkley?" +</p> +<p> +They were full of Rosamond! Desire did not speak a word. +</p> +<p> +Dorris had heard and said it over. It seemed to please Kenneth to +hear it again. "A piece of her world!" +</p> +<p> +"How quickly a true person springs to what belongs to—their life!" +said Kenneth, using that wrong little pronoun that we shall never be +able to do without. +</p> +<p> +"People don't always get what belongs, though," blurted Desire at +last, just as they came to the long doorsteps. "Some people's lives +are like complementary colors, I think; they see blue, and live +red!" +</p> +<p> +"But the colors are only accidentally—I mean temporarily—divided; +they are together in the sun; and they join somewhere—beyond." +</p> +<p> +"I hate beyond!" said Desire, recklessly. "Good-night. Thank you." +And she ran up the steps. +</p> +<p> +Nobody knew what she meant. Perhaps she hardly knew herself. +</p> +<p> +They only thought that her home life was not suited to her, and that +she took it hard. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0014"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XIV. +</h2> +<h3> + "SESAME; AND LILIES." +</h3> +<br> +<p> +"I've got a discouragement at my stomach," said Luclarion Grapp. +</p> +<p> +"What's the matter?" asked Mrs. Ripwinkley, naturally. +</p> +<p> +"Mrs. Scarup. I've been there. There ain't any bottom to it." +</p> +<p> +"Well?" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley knew that Luclarion had more to say, and that she +waited for this monosyllable. +</p> +<p> +"She's sick again. And Scarup, he's gone out West, spending a +hundred dollars to see whether or no there's a chance anywhere for a +<i>smart</i> man,—and that ain't he, so it's a double waste,—to make +fifty. No girl; and the children all under foot, and Pinkie looking +miserable over the dishes." +</p> +<p> +"Pinkie isn't strong." +</p> +<p> +"No. She's powerful weak. I just wish you'd seen that dirty +settin'-room fire-place; looks as if it hadn't been touched since +Scarup smoked his pipe there, the night before he went off a +wild-gandering. And clo'es to be ironed, and the girl cleared out, +because 'she'd always been used to fust-class families.' There +wasn't anything to your hand, and you couldn't tell where to begin, +unless you began with a cataplasm!" +</p> +<p> +Luclarion had heard, by chance, of a cataclysm, and that was what +she meant. +</p> +<p> +"It wants—creation, over again! Mrs. Scarup hadn't any fit +breakfast; there was burnt toast, made out of tough bread, that +she'd been trying to eat; and a cup of tea, half drunk; something +the matter with that, I presume. I'd have made her some gruel, if +there'd been a fire; and if there'd been any kindlings, I'd have +made her a fire; but there 'twas; there wasn't any bottom to it!" +</p> +<p> +"You had better make the gruel here, Luclarion." +</p> +<p> +"That's what I come back for. But—Mrs. Ripwinkley!" +</p> +<p> +"Well?" +</p> +<p> +"Don't it appear to you it's a kind of a stump? I don't want to do +it just for the satisfaction; though it <i>would</i> be a satisfaction to +plough everything up thorough, and then rake it over smooth; what do +you think?" +</p> +<p> +"What have you thought, Luclarion? Something, of course." +</p> +<p> +"She wants a real smart girl—for two dollars a week. She can't get +her, because she ain't. And I kind of felt as though I should like +to put in. Seemed to me it was a—but there! I haven't any right to +stump <i>you</i>." +</p> +<p> +"Wouldn't it be rather an aggravation? I don't suppose you would +mean to stay altogether?" +</p> +<p> +"Not unless—but don't go putting it into my head, Mrs. Ripwinkley. +I shall feel as if I <i>was</i>. And I don't think it goes quite so far +as that, yet. We ain't never stumped to more than one thing at a +time. What she wants is to be straightened out. And when things once +looked <i>my</i> way, she might get a girl, you see. Anyhow, 'twould +encourage Pinkie, and kind of set her going. Pinkie likes things +nice; but it's such a Hoosac tunnel to undertake, that she just lets +it all go, and gets off up-stairs, and sticks a ribbon in her hair. +That's all she <i>can</i> do. I s'pose 'twould take a fortnight, maybe?" +</p> +<p> +"Take it, Luclarion," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, smiling. Luclarion +understood the smile. +</p> +<p> +"I s'pose you think it's as good as took. Well, perhaps it is—spoke +for. But it wasn't me, you know. Now what'll you do?" +</p> +<p> +"Go into the kitchen and make the pudding." +</p> +<p> +"But then?" +</p> +<p> +"We are not stumped for then, you know." +</p> +<p> +"There was a colored girl here yesterday, from up in Garden Street, +asking if there was any help wanted. I think she came in partially, +to look at the flowers; the 'sturtiums <i>are</i> splendid, and I gave +her some. She was awfully dressed up,—for colors, I mean; but she +looked clean and pleasant, and spoke bright. Maybe she'd come, +temporary. She seemed taken with things. I know where to find her, +and I could go there when I got through with the gruel. Mrs. Scarup +must have that right off." +</p> +<p> +And Luclarion hurried away. +</p> +<p> +It was not the first time Mrs. Ripwinkley had lent Luclarion; but +Miss Grapp had not found a kitchen mission in Boston heretofore. It +was something new to bring the fashion of simple, prompt, neighborly +help down intact from the hills, and apply it here to the tangle of +city living, that is made up of so many separate and unrecognized +struggles. +</p> +<p> +When Hazel came home from school, she went all the way up the garden +walk, and in at the kitchen door. "That was the way she took it +all," she said; "first the flowers, and then Luclarion and what they +had for dinner, and a drink of water; and then up-stairs, to +mother." +</p> +<p> +To-day she encountered in the kitchen a curious and startling +apparition of change. +</p> +<p> +A very dusky brown maiden, with a petticoat of flashing purple, and +a jacket of crimson, and extremely puzzling hair tied up with knots +of corn color, stood in possession over the stove, tending a +fricassee, of which Hazel recognized at once the preparation and +savor as her mother's; while beside her on a cricket, munching cold +biscuit and butter with round, large bites of very white little +teeth, sat a small girl of five of the same color, gleaming and +twinkling as nothing human ever does gleam and twinkle but a little +darkie child. +</p> +<p> +"Where is Luclarion?" asked Hazel, standing still in the middle of +the floor, in her astonishment. +</p> +<p> +"I don't know. I'm Damaris, and this one's little Vash. Don't go for +callin' me Dam, now; the boys did that in my last place, an' I left, +don' yer see? I ain't goin' to be swore to, anyhow!" +</p> +<p> +And Damaris glittered at Hazel, with her shining teeth and her quick +eyes, full of fun and good humor, and enjoyed her end of the joke +extremely. +</p> +<p> +"Have you come to <i>stay</i>?" asked Hazel. +</p> +<p> +"'Course. I don' mostly come for to go." +</p> +<p> +"What does it mean, mother?" Hazel asked, hurrying up into her +mother's room. +</p> +<p> +And then Mrs. Ripwinkley explained. +</p> +<p> +"But what <i>is</i> she? Black or white? She's got straight braids and +curls at the back of her head, like everybody's"— +</p> +<p> +"'Course," said a voice in the doorway. "An' wool on top,—place +where wool ought to grow,—same's everybody, too." +</p> +<p> +Damaris had come up, according to orders, to report a certain point +in the progress of the fricassee. +</p> +<p> +"They all pulls the wool over they eyes, now-days, an sticks the +straight on behind. Where's the difference?" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley made some haste to rise and move toward the +doorway, to go down stairs, turning Damaris from her position, and +checking further remark. Diana and Hazel stayed behind, and laughed. +"What fun!" they said. +</p> +<p> +It was the beginning of a funny fortnight; but it is not the fun I +have paused to tell you of; something more came of it in the +home-life of the Ripwinkleys; that which they were "waiting to see." +</p> +<p> +Damaris wanted a place where she could take her little sister; she +was tired of leaving her "shyin' round," she said. And Vash, with +her round, fuzzy head, her bright eyes, her little flashing teeth, +and her polished mahogany skin,—darting up and down the house "on +Aarons," or for mere play,—dressed in her gay little scarlet +flannel shirt-waist, and black and orange striped petticoat,—was +like some "splendid, queer little fire-bug," Hazel said, and made a +surprise and a picture wherever she came. She was "cute," too, as +Damaris had declared beforehand; she was a little wonder at noticing +and remembering, and for all sorts of handiness that a child of five +could possibly be put to. +</p> +<p> +Hazel dressed rag babies for her, and made her a soap-box baby-house +in the corner of the kitchen, and taught her her letters; and began +to think that she should hate to have her go when Luclarion came +back. +</p> +<p> +Damaris proved clever and teachable in the kitchen; and had, above +all, the rare and admirable disposition to keep things scrupulously +as she had found them; so that Luclarion, in her afternoon trips +home, was comforted greatly to find that while she was "clearing and +ploughing" at Mrs. Scarup's, her own garden of neatness was not +being turned into a howling wilderness; and she observed, as is +often done so astutely, that "when you <i>do</i> find a neat, capable, +colored help, it's as good help as you can have." Which you may +notice is just as true without the third adjective as with. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion herself was having a splendid time. +</p> +<p> +The first thing she did was to announce to Mrs. Scarup that she was +out of her place for two weeks, and would like to come to her at her +wages; which Mrs. Scarup received with some such awed and +unbelieving astonishment as she might have done the coming of a +legion of angels with Gabriel at their head. And when one strong, +generous human will, with powers of brain and body under it +sufficient to some good work, comes down upon it as Luclarion did +upon hers, there <i>is</i> what Gabriel and his angels stand for, and no +less sent of God. +</p> +<p> +The second thing Luclarion did was to clean that "settin'-room +fire-place," to restore the pleasant brown color of its freestone +hearth and jambs, to polish its rusty brasses till they shone like +golden images of gods, and to lay an ornamental fire of chips and +clean little sticks across the irons. Then she took a wet broom and +swept the carpet three times, and dusted everything with a damp +duster; and then she advised Mrs. Scarup, whom the gruel had already +cheered and strengthened, to be "helped down, and sit there in the +easy-chair, for a change, and let her take her room in hand." And no +doctor ever prescribed any change with better effect. There are a +good many changes that might be made for people, without sending +them beyond their own doors. But it isn't the doctors who always +know <i>what</i> change, or would dare to prescribe it if they did. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Scarup was "helped down," it seemed,—really up, rather,—into +a new world. Things had begun all over again. It was worth while to +get well, and take courage. Those brasses shone in her face like +morning suns. +</p> +<p> +"Well, I do declare to Man, Miss Grapp!" she exclaimed; and breath +and expression failed together, and that was all she could say. +</p> +<p> +Up-stairs, Luclarion swept and rummaged. She found the sheet and +towel drawers, and made everything white and clean. She laid fresh +napkins over the table and bureau tops, and set the little +things—boxes, books, what not,—daintily about on them. She put a +clean spread on the bed, and gathered up things for the wash she +meant to have, with a recklessness that Mrs. Scarup herself would +never have dared to use, in view of any "help" she ever expected to +do it. +</p> +<p> +And then, with Pinkie to lend feeble assistance, Luclarion turned to +in the kitchen. +</p> +<p> +It was a "clear treat," she told Mrs. Ripwinkley afterward. "Things +had got to that state of mussiness, that you just began at one end +and worked through to the other, and every inch looked new made over +after you as you went along." +</p> +<p> +She put the children out into the yard on the planks, and gave them +tin pans and clothes-pins to keep house with, and gingerbread for +their dinner. She and Pinkie had cups of tea, and Mrs. Scarup had +her gruel, and went up to bed again; and that was another new +experience, and a third stage in her treatment and recovery. +</p> +<p> +When it came to the cellar, Luclarion got the chore-man in; and when +all was done, she looked round on the renovated home, and said +within herself, "If Scarup, now, will only break his neck, or get +something to do, and stay away with his pipes and his boots and his +contraptions!" +</p> +<p> +And Scarup did. He found a chance in some freight-house, and wrote +that he had made up his mind to stay out there all winter; and Mrs. +Scarup made little excursions about the house with her returning +strength, and every journey was a pleasure-trip, and the only misery +was that at the end of the fortnight Miss Grapp was going away, and +then she should be "all back in the swamp again." +</p> +<p> +"No, you won't," said Luclarion; "Pinkie's waked up, and she's going +to take pride, and pick up after the children. She can do that, now; +but she couldn't shoulder everything. And you'll have somebody in +the kitchen. See if you don't. I've 'most a mind to say I'll stay +till you do." +</p> +<p> +Luclarion's faith was strong; she knew, she said, that "if she was +doing at her end, Providence wasn't leaving off at his. Things would +come round." +</p> +<p> +This was how they did come round. +</p> +<p> +It only wanted a little sorting about. The pieces of the puzzle were +all there. Hazel Ripwinkley settled the first little bit in the +right place. She asked her mother one night, if she didn't think +they might begin their beehive with a fire-fly? Why couldn't they +keep little Vash? +</p> +<p> +"And then," said Diana, in her quiet way, slipping one of the big +three-cornered pieces of the puzzle in, "Damaris might go to Mrs. +Scarup for her two dollars a week. She is willing to work for that, +if she can get Vash taken. And this would be all the same, and +better." +</p> +<p> +Desire was with them when Luclarion came in, and heard it settled. +</p> +<p> +"How is it that things always fall right together for you, so? How +<i>came</i> Damaris to come along?" +</p> +<p> +"You just take hold of something and try," said Luclarion. "You'll +find there's always a working alongside. Put up your sails, and the +wind will fill 'em." +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus wanted to know "what sort of use a thing like that +could be in a house?" +</p> +<p> +He asked it in his very surliest fashion. If they had had any +motives of fear or favor, they would have been disconcerted, and +begun to think they had made a mistake. +</p> +<p> +But Hazel spoke up cheerily,— +</p> +<p> +"Why, to wait on people, uncle. She's the nicest little +fetch-and-carrier you ever saw!" +</p> +<p> +"Humph! who wants to be waited on, here? You girls, with feet and +hands of your own? Your mother doesn't, I know." +</p> +<p> +"Well, to wait <i>on</i>, then," says Hazel, boldly. "I'm making her a +baby-house, and teaching her to read; and Diana is knitting scarlet +stockings for her, to wear this winter. We like it." +</p> +<p> +"O, if you like it! That's always a reason. I only want to have +people give the real one." +</p> +<p> +And Uncle Titus walked off, so that nobody could tell whether <i>he</i> +liked it or not. +</p> +<p> +Nobody told him anything about the Scarups. But do you suppose he +didn't know? Uncle Titus Oldways was as sharp as he was blunt. +</p> +<p> +"I guess I know, mother," said Hazel, a little while after this, one +day, "how people write stories." +</p> +<p> +"Well?" asked her mother, looking up, ready to be amused with +Hazel's deep discovery. +</p> +<p> +"If they can just begin with one thing, you see, that makes the next +one. It can't help it, hardly. Just as it does with us. What made me +think of it was, that it seemed to me there was another little piece +of our beehive story all ready to put on; and if we went and did +it,—I wonder if you wouldn't, mother? It fits exactly." +</p> +<p> +"Let me see." +</p> +<p> +"That little lame Sulie at Miss Craydocke's Home, that we like so +much. Nobody adopts her away, because she is lame; her legs are no +use at all, you know, and she just sits all curled up in that great +round chair that Mrs. Geoffrey gave her, and sews patchwork, and +makes paper dolls. And when she drops her scissors, or her thread, +somebody has to come and pick it up. She wants waiting on; she just +wants a little lightning-bug, like Vash, to run round for her all +the time. And we don't, you see; and we've got Vash! And Vash—likes +paper dolls." +</p> +<p> +Hazel completed the circle of her argument with great triumph. +</p> +<p> +"An extra piece of bread to finish your too much butter," said +Diana. +</p> +<p> +"Yes. Doesn't it just make out?" said Hazel, abating not a jot of +her triumph, and taking things literally, as nobody could do better +than she, upon occasion, for all her fancy and intuition. +</p> +<p> +"I wonder what Uncle Oldways would say to that," said Diana. +</p> +<p> +"He'd say 'Faugh, faugh!' But he doesn't mean faugh, faugh, half the +time. If he does, he doesn't stick to it. Mother," she asked rather +suddenly, "do you think Uncle Oldways feels as if we oughtn't to +do—other things—with his money?" +</p> +<p> +"What other things?" +</p> +<p> +"Why, <i>these</i> others. Vash, and Sulie, perhaps. Wouldn't he like it +if we turned his house into a Beehive?" +</p> +<p> +"It isn't his house," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, "He has given it to me." +</p> +<p> +"Well,—do you feel 'obligated,' as Luclarion says?' +</p> +<p> +"In a certain degree,—yes. I feel bound to consider his comfort +and wishes, as far as regards his enjoyment with us, and fulfilling +what he reasonably looked for when he brought us here." +</p> +<p> +"Would that interfere?" +</p> +<p> +"Suppose you ask him, Hazel?" +</p> +<p> +"Well, I could do that." +</p> +<p> +"Hazel wouldn't mind doing anything!" said Diana, who, to tell the +truth was a little afraid of Uncle Titus, and who dreaded of all +things, being snubbed. +</p> +<p> +"Only," said Hazel, to whom something else had just occurred, +"wouldn't he think—wouldn't it be—<i>your</i> business?" +</p> +<p> +"It is all your plan, Hazel. I think he would see that." +</p> +<p> +"And you are willing, if he doesn't care?" +</p> +<p> +"I did not quite say that. It would be a good deal to think of." +</p> +<p> +"Then I'll wait till you've thought," said clear-headed little +Hazel. +</p> +<p> +"But it fits right on. I can see that. And Miss Craydocke said +things would, after we had begun." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley took it into her thoughts, and carried it about with +her for days, and considered it; asking herself questions. +</p> +<p> +Was it going aside in search of an undertaking that did not belong +to her? +</p> +<p> +Was it bringing home a care, a responsibility, for which they were +not fitted,—which might interfere with the things they were meant, +and would be called, to do? +</p> +<p> +There was room and opportunity, doubtless, for them to do something; +Mrs. Ripwinkley had felt this; she had not waited for her child to +think of it for her; she had only waited, in her new, strange +sphere, for circumstances to guide the way, and for the Giver of +all circumstance to guide her thought. She chose, also, in the +things that would affect her children's life and settle duties for +them, to let them grow also to those duties, and the perception of +them, with her. To this she led them, by all her training and +influence; and now that in Hazel, her child of quick insight and +true instincts, this influence was bearing fruit and quickening to +action, she respected her first impulses; she believed in them; they +had weight with her, as argument in themselves. These impulses, in +young, true souls, freshly responding, are, she knew, as the +proof-impressions of God's Spirit. +</p> +<p> +Yet she would think; that was her duty; she would not do a thing +hastily, or unwisely. +</p> +<p> +Sulie Praile had been a good while, now, at the Home. +</p> +<p> +A terrible fall, years ago, had caused a long and painful illness, +and resulted in her present helplessness. But above those little +idle, powerless limbs, that lay curled under the long, soft skirt +she wore, like a baby's robe, were a beauty and a brightness, a +quickness of all possible motion, a dexterous use of hands, and a +face of gentle peace and sometimes glory, that were like a +benediction on the place that she was in; like the very Holy Ghost +in tender form like a dove, resting upon it, and abiding among them +who were there. +</p> +<p> +In one way, it would hardly be so much a giving as a taking, to +receive her in. Yet there was care to assume, the continuance of +care to promise or imply; the possibility of conflicting plans in +much that might be right and desirable that Mrs. Ripwinkley should +do for her own. Exactly what, if anything, it would be right to +undertake in this, was matter for careful and anxious reflection. +</p> +<p> +The resources of the Home were not very large; there were painful +cases pressing their claims continually, as fast as a little place +was vacated it could be filled; was wanted, ten times over; and +Sulie Praile had been there a good while. If somebody would only +take her, as people were very ready to take—away to happy, simple, +comfortable country homes, for mere childhood's sake—the round, +rosy, strong, and physically perfect ones! But Sulie must be lifted +and tended; she must keep somebody at home to look after her; no one +could be expected to adopt a child like that. +</p> +<p> +Yet Hazel Ripwinkley thought they could be; thought, in her +straightforward, uncounting simplicity, that it was just the +natural, obvious, beautiful thing to do, to take her home—into a +real home—into pleasant family life; where things would not crowd; +where she could be mothered and sistered, as girls ought to be, when +there are so many nice places in the world, and not so many people +in them as there might be. When there could be so much visiting, and +spare rooms kept always in everybody's house, why should not +somebody who needed to, just come in and stay? What were the spare +places made for? +</p> +<p> +"We might have Sulie for this winter," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, at +last. "They would let her come to us for that time; and it would be +a change for her, and leave a place for others. Then if anything +made it impossible for us to do more, we should not have raised an +expectation to be disappointed. And if we can and ought to do more, +it will be shown us by that time more certainly." +</p> +<p> +She asked Miss Craydocke about it, when she came home from Z—— +that fall. She had been away a good deal lately; she had been up to +Z—— to two weddings,—Leslie Goldthwaite's and Barbara Holabird's. +Now she was back again, and settled down. +</p> +<p> +Miss Craydocke thought it a good thing wisely limited. +</p> +<p> +"Sulie needs to be with older girls; there is no one in the Home to +be companion to her; the children are almost all little. A winter +here would be a blessing to her!" +</p> +<p> +"But the change again, if she should have to make it?" suggested +Mrs. Ripwinkley. +</p> +<p> +"Good things don't turn to bad ones because you can't have them any +more. A thing you're not fit for, and never ought to have had, may; +but a real good stays by; it overflows all the rest. Sulie Praile's +life could never be so poor again, after a winter here with you, as +it might be if she had never had it. If you'd like her, let her +come, and don't be a bit afraid. We're only working by inches, any +of us; like the camel's-hair embroiderers in China. But it gets put +together; and it is beautiful, and large, and whole, somewhere." +</p> +<p> +"Miss Craydocke always knows," said Hazel. +</p> +<p> +Nobody said anything again, about Uncle Titus. A winter's plan need +not be referred to him. But Hazel, in her own mind, had resolved to +find out what was Uncle Titus's, generally and theoretically; how +free they were to be, beyond winter plans and visits of weeks; how +much scope they might have with this money and this house, that +seemed so ample to their simple wants, and what they might do with +it and turn it into, if it came into their heads or hearts or +consciences. +</p> +<p> +So one day she went in and sat down by him in the study, after she +had accomplished some household errand with Rachel Froke. +</p> +<p> +Other people approached him with more or less of strategy, afraid of +the tiger in him; Desire Ledwith faced him courageously; only Hazel +came and nestled up beside him, in his very cage, as if he were no +wild beast, after all. +</p> +<p> +Yet he pretended to growl, even at her, sometimes; it was so funny +to see her look up and chirp on after it, like some little bird to +whom the language of beasts was no language at all, and passed by on +the air as a very big sound, but one that in no wise concerned it. +</p> +<p> +"We've got Sulie Praile to spend the winter, Uncle Titus," she said. +</p> +<p> +"Who's Sulie Praile?" +</p> +<p> +"The lame girl, from the Home. We wanted somebody for Vash to wait +on, you know. She sits in a round chair, that twists, like yours; +and she's—just like a lily in a vase!" Hazel finished her sentence +with a simile quite unexpected to herself. +</p> +<p> +There was something in Sulie's fair, pale, delicate face, and her +upper figure, rising with its own peculiar lithe, easily swayed +grace from among the gathered folds of the dress of her favorite +dark green color, that reminded—if one thought of it, and Hazel +turned the feeling of it into a thought at just this moment—of a +beautiful white flower, tenderly and commodiously planted. +</p> +<p> +"Well, I suppose it's worth while to have a lame girl to sit up in a +round chair, and look like a lily in a vase, is it?" +</p> +<p> +"Uncle Titus, I want to know what you think about some things." +</p> +<p> +"That is just what I want to know myself, sometimes. To find out +what one thinks about things, is pretty much the whole finding, +isn't it?" +</p> +<p> +"Don't be very metaphysical, please, Uncle Titus. Don't turn your +eyes round into the back of your head. That isn't what I mean." +</p> +<p> +"What do you mean?" +</p> +<p> +"Just plain looking." +</p> +<p> +"O!" +</p> +<p> +"Don't you think, when there are places, all nice and ready,—and +people that would like the places and haven't got 'em,—that the +people ought to be put into the places?" +</p> +<p> +"'The shirtless backs put into the shirts?'" +</p> +<p> +"Why, yes, of course. What are shirts made for?" +</p> +<p> +"For some people to have thirty-six, and some not to have any," said +Mr. Oldways. +</p> +<p> +"No," said Hazel. "Nobody wants thirty-six, all at once. But what I +mean is, rooms, and corners, and pleasant windows, and seats at the +table; places where people come in visiting, and that are kept saved +up. I can't bear an empty box; that is, only for just one pleasant +minute, while I'm thinking what I can put into it." +</p> +<p> +"Where's your empty box, now?" +</p> +<p> +"Our house <i>was</i> rather empty-boxy. Uncle Titus, do you mind how we +fill it up,—because you gave it to us, you know?" +</p> +<p> +"No. So long as you don't crowd yourselves out." +</p> +<p> +"Or you, Uncle Titus. We don't want to crowd you out. Does it crowd +you any to have Sulie and Vash there, and to have us 'took up' with +them, as Luclarion says?" +</p> +<p> +How straight Witch Hazel went to her point! +</p> +<p> +"Your catechism crowds me just a little, child," said Uncle Titus. +"I want to see you go your own way. That is what I gave you the +house for. Your mother knows that. Did she send you here to ask me?" +</p> +<p> +"No. I wanted to know. It was I that wanted to begin a kind of a +Beehive—like Miss Craydocke's. Would you care if it was turned +quite into a Beehive, finally?" +</p> +<p> +Hazel evidently meant to settle the furthest peradventure, now she +had begun. +</p> +<p> +"Ask your mother to show you the deed. 'To Frances Ripwinkley, her +heirs and assigns,'—that's you and Diana,—'for their use and +behoof, forever.' I've no more to do with it." +</p> +<p> +"'Use, and behoof,'" said Hazel, slowly. And then she turned the +leaves of the great Worcester that lay upon the study table, and +found "Behoof." +</p> +<p> +"'Profit,—gain,—benefit;' then that's what you meant; that we +should make as much more of it as we could. That's what I think, +Uncle Titus. I'm glad you put 'behoof in." +</p> +<p> +"They always put it in, child!" +</p> +<p> +"Do they? Well, then, they don't always work it out!" and Hazel +laughed. +</p> +<p> +At that, Mr. Oldways pulled off his spectacles, looked sharp at +Hazel with two sharp, brown eyes,—set near together, Hazel noticed +for the first time, like Desire's,—let the keenness turn gradually +into a twinkle, suffered the muscles that had held his lips so grim +to relax, and laughed too; his peculiar, up-and-down shake of a +laugh, in which head and shoulders made the motions, as if he were a +bottle, and there were a joke inside of him which was to be well +mixed up to be thoroughly enjoyed. +</p> +<p> +"Go home to your mother, jade-hopper!" he said, when he had done; +"and tell her I'm coming round to-night, to tea, amongst your +bumble-bees and your lilies!" +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0015"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XV. +</h2> +<h3> + WITH ALL ONE'S MIGHT. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Let the grapes be ever so sweet, and hang in plenty ever so low, +there is always a fair bunch out of reach. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith longed, now, to go to Europe. +</p> +<p> +At any rate, she was eager to have her daughters go. But, after just +one year, to take what her Uncle Oldways had given her, in return +for her settling herself near him, and <i>un</i>settle herself, and go +off to the other side of the world! Besides, what he had given her +would not do it. That was the rub, after all. What was two thousand +a year, now-a-days? Nothing is anything, now-a-days. And it takes +everything to do almost nothing. +</p> +<p> +The Ledwiths were just as much pinched now as they were before they +ever heard from Uncle Oldways. People with unlimited powers of +expansion always are pinched; it is good for them; one of the saving +laws of nature that keeps things decently together. +</p> +<p> +Yet, in the pink room of a morning, and in the mellow-tinted +drawing-room of an evening, it was getting to be the subject +oftenest discussed. It was that to which they directed the combined +magnetism of the family will; everything was brought to bear upon it; +Bridget's going away on Monday morning, leaving the clothes in the +tubs, the strike-price of coal, and the overcharge of the grocer; +Florence's music, Helena's hopeless distress over French and German; +even Desire's listlessness and fidgets; most of all Mrs. Megilp's +plans, which were ripening towards this long coveted end. She and +Glossy really thought they should go this winter. +</p> +<p> +"It is a matter of economy now; everybody's going. The Fargo's and +the Fayerwerses, and the Hitherinyons have broken all up, and are +going out to stay indefinitely. The Fayerwerses have been saving up +these four years to get away, there are so many of them, you know; +the passage money counts, and the first travelling; but after you +<i>are</i> over, and have found a place to settle down in,"—then +followed all the usual assertions as to cheap delights and +inestimable advantages, and emancipation from all American household +ills and miseries. +</p> +<p> +Uncle Oldways came up once in a while to the house in Shubarton +Place, and made an evening call. He seemed to take apricot-color for +granted, when he got there, as much as he did the plain, old, +unrelieved brown at Mrs. Ripwinkley's; he sat quite unconcernedly in +the grand easy chair that Laura wheeled out for him; indeed, it +seemed as if he really, after a manner, indorsed everything by his +acceptance without demur of what he found. But then one must sit +down on something; and if one is offered a cup of coffee, or +anything on a plate, one cannot easily protest against sea-green +china. We do, and we have, and we wear, and we say, a great +many things, and feel ourselves countenanced and confirmed, +somehow,—perhaps excused,—because nobody appears surprised or says +anything. But what should they say; and would it be at all proper +that they should be surprised? If we only thought of it, and once +tried it, we might perhaps find it quite as easy and encouraging, on +the same principle, <i>not</i> to have apricot rep and sea-green china. +</p> +<p> +One night Mr. Oldways was with them when the talk turned eastwardly +over the water. There were new names in the paper, of people who +had gone out in the <i>Aleppo</i>, and a list of Americans registered at +Bowles Brothers,' among whom were old acquaintance. +</p> +<p> +"I declare, how they all keep turning up there" said Mrs. Ledwith. +</p> +<p> +"The war doesn't seem to make much difference," said her husband. +</p> +<p> +"To think how lucky the Vonderbargens were, to be in Paris just at +the edge of the siege!" said Glossy Megilp. "They came back from +Como just in time; and poor Mr. Washburne had to fairly hustle them +off at last. They were buying silks, and ribbons, and gloves, up to +the last minute, for absolutely nothing. Mrs. Vonderbargen said it +seemed a sin to come away and leave anything. I'm sure I don't know +how they got them all home; but they did." +</p> +<p> +Glossy had been staying lately with the Vonderbargens in New York. +She stayed everywhere, and picked up everything. +</p> +<p> +"You have been abroad, Mrs. Scherman?" said Mrs. Ledwith, +inquiringly, to Asenath, who happened to be calling, also, with her +husband, and was looking at some photographs with Desire. +</p> +<p> +"No, ma'am," answered Mrs. Scherman, very promptly, not having +spoken at all before in the discussion. "I do not think I wish to +go. The syphon has been working too long." +</p> +<p> +"The Syphon?" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith spoke with a capital S in her mind; but was not quite +sure whether what Mrs. Scherman meant might be a line of Atlantic +steamers or the sea-serpent. +</p> +<p> +"Yes, ma'am. The emptying back and forth. There isn't much that is +foreign over there, now, nor very much that is native here. The +hemispheres have got miserably mixed up. I think when I go 'strange +countries for to see,' it will have to be Patagonia or Independent +Tartary." +</p> +<p> +Uncle Oldways turned round with his great chair, so as to face +Asenath, and laughed one of his thorough fun digesting laughs, his +keen eyes half shut with the enjoyment, and sparkling out through +their cracks at her. +</p> +<p> +But Asenath had resumed her photographs with the sweetest and +quietest unconsciousness. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith let her alone after that; and the talk rambled on to +the schools in Munich, and the Miracle Plays at Oberammergau. +</p> +<p> +"To think of <i>that</i> invasion!" said Asenath, in a low tone to +Desire, "and corrupting <i>that</i> into a show, with a run of regular +performances! I do believe they have pulled down the last unprofaned +thing now, and trampled over it." +</p> +<p> +"If we go," said Mrs. Megilp, "we shall join the Fayerwerses, and +settle down with them quietly in some nice place; and then make +excursions. We shall not try to do all Europe in three months; we +shall choose, and take time. It is the only way really to enjoy or +acquire; and the quiet times are so invaluable for the lessons and +languages." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Megilp made up her little varnishes with the genuine gums of +truth and wisdom; she put a beautiful shine even on to her limited +opportunities and her enforced frugalities. +</p> +<p> +"Mrs. Ledwith, you <i>ought</i> to let Agatha and Florence go too. I +would take every care of them; and the expense would be so +divided—carriages, and couriers, and everything—that it would be +hardly anything." +</p> +<p> +"It is a great opportunity," Mrs. Ledwith said, and sighed. "But it +is different with us from what it is with you. We must still be a +family here, with nearly the same expenses. To be sure Desire has +done with school, and she doesn't care for gay society, and Helena +is a mere child yet; if it ever could"— +</p> +<p> +And so it went on between the ladies, while Mr. Oldways and Mr. +Ledwith and Frank Scherman got into war talk, and Bismarck policy, +and French poss—no, <i>im</i>-possibilities. +</p> +<p> +"I don't think Uncle Oldways minded much," said Mrs. Ledwith to +Agatha, and Mrs. Megilp, up-stairs, after everybody had gone who was +to go. +</p> +<p> +"He never minds anything," said Agatha. +</p> +<p> +"I don't know," said Mrs. Megilp, slowly. "He seemed mightily +pleased with what Asenath Scherman said." +</p> +<p> +"O, she's pretty, and funny; it makes no difference what she says; +people are always pleased." +</p> +<p> +"We might dismiss one girl this winter," said Mrs. Ledwith, "and +board in some cheap country place next summer. I dare say we could +save it in the year's round; the difference, I mean. When you +weren't actually travelling, it wouldn't cost more than to have you +here,—dress and all. +</p> +<p> +"They wouldn't need to have a new thing," said Glossy. +</p> +<p> +"Those people out at Z—— want to buy the house. I've a great mind +to coax Grant to sell, and take a slice right out, and send them," +said Mrs. Ledwith, eagerly. She was always eager to accomplish the +next new thing for her children; and, to say the truth, did not much +consider herself. And so far as they had ever been able, the +Ledwiths had always been rather easily given to "taking the slice +right out." +</p> +<p> +The Megilps had had a little legacy of two or three thousand +dollars, and were quite in earnest in their plans, this time, which +had been talk with them for many years. +</p> +<p> +"Those poor Fayerwerses!" said Asenath to her husband, walking home. +"Going out now, after the cheap European living of a dozen years +ago! The ghost always goes over on the last load. I wonder at Mrs. +Megilp. She generally knows better." +</p> +<p> +"She'll do," said Frank Scherman. "If the Fayerwerses stick +anywhere, as they probably will, she'll hitch on to the Fargo's, and +turn up at Jerusalem. And then there are to be the Ledwiths, and +their 'little slice.'" +</p> +<p> +"O, dear! what a mess people do make of living!" said Asenath. +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus trudged along down Dorset Street with his stick under +his arm. +</p> +<p> +"Try 'em! Find 'em out!" he repeated to himself. "That's what +Marmaduke said. Try 'em with this,—try 'em with that; a good deal, +or a little; having and losing, and wanting. That's what the Lord +does with us all; and I begin to see He has a job of it!" +</p> +<p> +The house was sold, and Agatha and Florence went. +</p> +<p> +It made home dull for poor Desire, little as she found of real +companionship with her elder sisters. But then she was always +looking for it, and that was something. Husbands and wives, parents +and children, live on upon that, through years of repeated +disappointments, and never give up the expectation of that which is +somewhere, and which these relations represent to them, through all +their frustrated lives. +</p> +<p> +That is just why. It <i>is</i> somewhere. +</p> +<p> +It turned out a hard winter, in many ways, for Desire Ledwith. She +hated gay company, and the quiet little circle that she had become +fond of at her Aunt Ripwinkley's was broken somewhat to them all, +and more to Desire than, among what had grown to be her chronic +discontents, she realized or understood, by the going away for a +time of Kenneth Kincaid. +</p> +<p> +What was curious in the happening, too, he had gone up to "And" to +build a church. That had come about through the Marchbankses' +knowledge of him, and this, you remember, through their being with +the Geoffreys when the Kincaids were first introduced in Summit +Street. +</p> +<p> +The Marchbankses and the Geoffreys were cousins. A good many Boston +families are. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Roger Marchbanks owned a good deal of property in And. The +neighborhood wanted a church; and he interested himself actively and +liberally in behalf of it, and gave the land,—three lots right out +of the middle of Marchbanks Street, that ran down to the river. +</p> +<p> +Dorris kept her little room, and was neighborly as heretofore; but +she was busy with her music, and had little time but her evenings; +and now there was nobody to walk home with Desire to Shubarton +Place, if she stayed in Aspen Street to tea. She came sometimes, and +stayed all night; but that was dreary for Helena, who never +remembered to shut the piano or cover up the canary, or give the +plants in the bay window their evening sprinkle, after the furnace +heat had been drying them all day. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid came down for his Sundays with Dorris, and his work +at the Mission; a few times he called in at Uncle Oldways' after +tea, when the family was all together; but they saw him very seldom; +he gave those Sunday evenings mostly to needed rest, and to quiet +talk with Dorris. +</p> +<p> +Desire might have gone to the Mission this winter, easily enough, +after all. Agatha and Florence and Glossy Megilp were not by to make +wondering eyes, or smile significant smiles; but there was something +in herself that prevented; she knew that it would be more than half +to <i>get</i>, and she still thought she had so little to give! Besides, +Kenneth Kincaid had never asked her again, and she could not go to +him and say she would come. +</p> +<p> +Desire Ledwith began to have serious question of what life was ever +going to be for her. She imagined, as in our early years and our +first gray days we are all apt to imagine, that she had found out a +good deal that it was <i>not</i> going to be. +</p> +<p> +She was not going to be beautiful, or accomplished, or even, she was +afraid, agreeable; she found that such hard work with most people. +She was not ever—and that conclusion rested closely upon these +foregoing—to be married, and have a nice husband and a pretty +house, and go down stairs and make snow-puddings and ginger-snaps of +a morning, and have girls staying with her, and pleasant people in +to tea; like Asenath Scherman. She couldn't write a book,—that, +perhaps, was one of her premature decisions, since nobody knows till +they try, and the books are lying all round, in leaves, waiting only +to be picked up and put together,—or paint a picture; she couldn't +bear parties, and clothes were a fuss, and she didn't care to go to +Europe. +</p> +<p> +She thought she should rather like to be an old maid, if she could +begin right off, and have a little cottage out of town somewhere, or +some cosy rooms in the city. At least, she supposed that was what +she had got to be, and if that were settled, she did not see why it +might not be begun young, as well as married life. She could not +endure waiting, when a thing was to be done. +</p> +<p> +"Aunt Frances," she said one day, "I wish I had a place of my own. +What is the reason I can't? A girl can go in for Art, and set up a +studio; or she can go to Rome, and sculp, and study; she can learn +elocution, and read, whether people want to be read to or not; and +all that is Progress and Woman's Rights; why can't she set up a +<i>home</i>?" +</p> +<p> +"Because, I suppose, a house is not a home; and the beginning of a +home is just what she waits for. Meanwhile, if she has a father and +a mother, she would not put a slight on <i>their</i> home, or fail of her +share of the duty in it." +</p> +<p> +"But nobody would think I failed in my duty if I were going to be +married. I'm sure mamma would think I was doing it beautifully. And +I never shall be married. Why can't I live something out for myself, +and have a place of my own? I have got money enough to pay my rent, +and I could do sewing in a genteel way, or keep a school for little +children. I'd rather—take in back stairs to wash," she exclaimed +vehemently, "than wait round for things, and be nothing! And I +should like to begin young, while there might be some sort of fun in +it. You'd like to come and take tea with me, wouldn't you, Aunt +Frank?" +</p> +<p> +"If it were all right that you should have separate teas of your +own." +</p> +<p> +"And if I had waffles. Well, I should. I think, just now, there's +nothing I should like so much as a little kitchen of my own, and a +pie-board, and a biscuit-cutter, and a beautiful baking oven, and a +Japan tea-pot." +</p> +<p> +"The pretty part. But brooms, and pails, and wash-tubs, and the back +stairs?" +</p> +<p> +"I specified back stairs in the first place, of my own accord. I +wouldn't shirk. Sometimes I think that real good old-fashioned hard +work is what I do want. I should like to find the right, honest +thing, and do it, Aunt Frank." +</p> +<p> +She said it earnestly, and there were tears in her eyes. +</p> +<p> +"I believe you would," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "But perhaps the right, +honest thing, just now, is to wait patiently, with all your might." +</p> +<p> +"Now, that's good," said Desire, "and cute of you, too, that last +piece of a sentence. If you had stopped at '<i>patiently</i>,' as people +generally do! That's what exasperates; when you want to do something +with all your might. It almost seems as if I could, when you put it +so." +</p> +<p> +"It is a 'stump,' Luclarion would say." +</p> +<p> +"Luclarion is a saint and a philosopher. I feel better," said +Desire. +</p> +<p> +She stayed feeling better all that afternoon; she helped Sulie +Praile cut out little panels from her thick sheet of gray +painting-board, and contrived her a small easel with her round +lightstand and a book-rest; for Sulie was advancing in the fine +arts, from painting dollies' paper faces in cheap water colors, to +copying bits of flowers and fern and moss, with oils, on gray board; +and she was doing it very well, and with exquisite delight. +</p> +<p> +To wait, meant something to wait for; something coming by and by; +that was what comforted Desire to-day, as she walked home alone in +the sharp, short, winter twilight; that, and the being patient with +all one's might. To be patient, is to be also strong; this she saw, +newly; and Desire coveted, most of all, to be strong. +</p> +<p> +Something to wait for. "He does not cheat," said Desire, low down in +her heart, to herself. For the child had faith, though she could not +talk about it. +</p> +<p> +Something; but very likely not the thing you have seen, or dreamed +of; something quite different, it may be, when it comes; and it may +come by the way of losing, first, all that you have been able yet, +with a vague, whispering hope, to imagine. +</p> +<p> +The things we do not know! The things that are happening,—the +things that are coming; rising up in the eastward of our lives below +the horizon that we can yet see; it may be a star, it may be a +cloud! +</p> +<p> +Desire Ledwith could not see that out at Westover, this cheery +winter night, it was one of dear Miss Pennington's "Next Thursdays;" +she could not see that the young architect, living away over there +in the hundred-year-old house on the side of East Hill, a boarder +with old Miss Arabel Waite, had been found, and appreciated, and +drawn into their circle by the Haddens and the Penningtons and the +Holabirds and the Inglesides; and that Rosamond was showing him the +pleasant things in their Westover life,—her "swan's nest among the +reeds," that she had told him of,—that early autumn evening, when +they had walked up Hanley Street together. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0016"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XVI. +</h2> +<h3> + SWARMING. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +Spring came on early, with heavy rains and freshets in many parts of +the country. +</p> +<p> +It was a busy time at Z——. +</p> +<p> +Two things had happened there that were to give Kenneth Kincaid more +work, and would keep him where he was all summer. +</p> +<p> +Just before he went to Z——, there had been a great fire at West +Hill. All Mr. Roger Marchbanks's beautiful place was desolate. +House, conservatories, stables, lovely little vine-covered rustic +buildings, exquisitely tended shrubbery,—all swept over in one +night by the red flames, and left lying in blackness and ashes. +</p> +<p> +For the winter, Mr. Marchbanks had taken his family to Boston; now +he was planning eagerly to rebuild. Kenneth had made sketches; Mr. +Marchbanks liked his ideas; they had talked together from time to +time. Now, the work was actually in hand, and Kenneth was busy with +drawings and specifications. +</p> +<p> +Down at the river, during the spring floods, a piece of the bridge +had been carried away, and the dam was broken through. There were +new mill buildings, too, going up, and a block of factory houses. +All this business, through Mr. Marchbanks directly or indirectly, +fell also into Kenneth's hands. +</p> +<p> +He wrote blithe letters to Dorris; and Dorris, running in and out +from her little spring cleanings that Hazel was helping her with, +told all the letters over to the Ripwinkleys. +</p> +<p> +"He says I must come up there in my summer vacation and board with +his dear old Miss Waite. Think of Kentie's being able to give me +such a treat as that! A lane, with ferns and birches, and the +woods,—<i>pine</i> woods!—and a hill where raspberries grow, and the +river!" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith was thinking of her summer plans at this time, also. +She remembered the large four-windowed room looking out over the +meadow, that Mrs. Megilp and Glossy had at Mrs. Prendible's, for +twelve dollars a week, in And. She could do no better than that, at +country boarding, anywhere; and Mr. Ledwith could sleep at the house +in Shubarton Place, getting his meals down town during the week, and +come up and spend his Sundays with them. A bedroom, in addition, for +six dollars more, would be all they would want. +</p> +<p> +The Ripwinkleys were going up to Homesworth by and by for a little +while, and would take Sulie Praile with them. Sulie was ecstatically +happy. She had never been out of the city in all her life. She felt, +she said, "as if she was going to heaven without dying." Vash was to +be left at Mrs. Scarup's with her sister. +</p> +<p> +Miss Craydocke would be away at the mountains; all the little life +that had gathered together in the Aspen Street neighborhood, seemed +about to be broken up. +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus Oldways never went out of town, unless on business. +Rachel Froke stayed, and kept his house; she sat in the gray room, +and thought over the summers she had had. +</p> +<p> +"Thee never loses anything out of thy life that has been in," she +said. "Summer times are like grains of musk; they keep their smell +always, and flavor the shut-up places they are put away in." +</p> +<p> +For you and me, reader, we are to go to Z—— again. I hope you like +it. +</p> +<p> +But before that, I must tell you what Luclarion Grapp has done. +</p> +<p> +Partly from the principle of her life, and partly from the spirit of +things which she would have caught at any rate, from the Ripwinkley +home and the Craydocke "Beehive,"—for there is nothing truer than +that the kingdom of heaven is like leaven,—I suppose she had been +secretly thinking for a good while, that she was having too easy a +time here, in her first floor kitchen and her garden bedroom; that +this was not the life meant for her to live right on, without +scruple or question; and so began in her own mind to expect some +sort of "stump;" and even to look about for it. +</p> +<p> +"It isn't as it was when Mrs. Ripwinkley was a widow, and +poor,—that is, comparative; and it took all her and my contrivance +to look after the place and keep things going, and paying, up in +Homesworth; there was something to buckle to, then; but now, +everything is eased and flatted out, as it were; it makes me +res'less, like a child put to bed in the daytime." +</p> +<p> +Luclarion went down to the North End with Miss Craydocke, on errands +of mercy; she went in to the new Mission, and saw the heavenly +beauty of its intent, and kindled up in her soul at it; and she came +home, time after time, and had thoughts of her own about these +things, and the work in the world there was to do. +</p> +<p> +She had cleaned up and set things going at Mrs. Scarup's; she +learned something in doing that, beyond what she knew when she set +about it; her thoughts began to shape themselves to a theory; and +the theory took to itself a text and a confirmation and a command. +</p> +<p> +"Go down and be a neighbor to them that have fallen among thieves." +</p> +<p> +Luclarion came to a resolution in this time of May, when everybody +was making plans and the spring-cleaning was all done. +</p> +<p> +She came to Mrs. Ripwinkley one morning, when she was folding away +winter clothes, and pinning them up in newspapers, with camphor-gum; +and she said to her, without a bit of preface,—Luclarion hated +prefaces,— +</p> +<p> +"Mrs. Ripwinkley, I'm going to swarm!" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley looked up in utter surprise; what else could she do? +</p> +<p> +"Of course 'm, when you set up a Beehive, you must have expected it; +it's the natural way of things; they ain't good for much unless they +do. I've thought it all over; I'll stay and see you all off, first, +if you want me to, and then—I'll swarm." +</p> +<p> +"Well," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, assenting in full faith, beforehand; +for Mrs. Ripwinkley, if I need now to tell you of it, was not an +ordinary woman, and did not take things in an ordinary selfish way, +but grasped right hold of the inward right and truth of them, and +believed in it; sometimes before she could quite see it; and she +never had any doubt of Luclarion Grapp. "Well! And now tell me all +about it." +</p> +<p> +"You see," said Luclarion, sitting down in a chair by the window, as +Mrs. Ripwinkley suspended her occupation and took one by the +bedside, "there's places in this town that folks leave and give up. +As the Lord might have left and give up the world, because there was +dirt and wickedness in it; only He didn't. There's places where it +ain't genteel, nor yet respectable, to live; and so those places +grow more disrespectable and miserable every day. They're left to +themselves. What I think is, they hadn't ought to be. There's one +clean spot down there now, in the very middle of the worst dirt. +And it ain't bad to live in. <i>That's</i> started. Now, what I think is, +that somebody ought to start another, even if its only a little one. +Somebody ought to just go there and <i>live</i>, and show 'em how, just +as I took and showed Mrs. Scarup, and she's been living ever since, +instead of scratching along. If some of them folks had a clean, +decent neighbor to go to see,—to drink tea with, say,—and was to +catch an idea of her fixings and doings, why, I believe there'd be +more of 'em,—cleaned up, you know. They'd get some kind of an +ambition and a hope. Tain't enough for ladies—though I bless 'em in +my soul for what I've seen 'em do—to come down there of a Fridays, +and teach and talk awhile, and then go home to Summit Street and +Republic Avenue, and take up <i>their</i> life again where they left it +off, that is just as different as heaven is from 'tother place; +somebody's got to come right down <i>out</i> of heaven, and bring the +life in, and live it amongst them miserable folks, as the Lord Jesus +Christ came and did! And it's borne in upon me, strong and clear, +that that's what's got to be before all's righted. And so—for a +little piece of it, and a little individual stump—I'm going to +swarm, and settle, and see what'll come." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley was looking very intently at Luclarion. Her breath +went and came hurriedly, and her face turned pale with the grand +surprise of such a thought, such a plan and purpose, so simply and +suddenly declared. Her eyes were large and moist with feeling. +</p> +<p> +"Do you <i>know</i>, Luclarion," she exclaimed at last, "do you realize +what this is that you are thinking of; what a step it would be to +take,—what a work it would be to even hope to begin to do? Do you +know how strange it is,—how almost impracticable,—that it is not +even safe?" +</p> +<p> +"'Twasn't <i>safe</i> for Him—when He came into the world," Luclarion +answered. +</p> +<p> +"Not to say I think there's any comparison," she began again, +presently, "or that I believe there's anything to be really scared +of,—except dirt; and you <i>can</i> clean a place round you, as them +Mission people have done. Why, there ain't a house in Boston nicer, +or sweeter, or airier even, than that one down in Arctic Street, +with beautiful parlors and bedrooms, and great clean galleries +leading round, and skylighted,—<i>sky</i> lighted! for you see the blue +heaven is above all, and you <i>can</i> let the skylight in, without any +corruption coming in with it; and if twenty people can do that much, +or a hundred,—one can do something. 'Taint much, either, to +undertake; only to be willing to go there, and make a clean place +for yourself, and a home; and live there, instead of somewheres else +that's ready made; and let it spread. And you know I've always +looked forrud to some kind of a house-keep of my own, finally." +</p> +<p> +"But, Luclarion, I don't understand! All alone? And you couldn't use +a whole house, you know. Your neighbors would be <i>inmates</i>. Why, it +seems to me perfectly crazy!" +</p> +<p> +"Now, ma'am, did you ever know me to go off on a tangent, without +some sort of a string to hold on to? I ain't goin' to swarm all +alone! I never heard of such a thing. Though if I couldn't <i>swarm</i>, +and the thing was to be done, I say I'd try it. But Savira Golding +is going to be married to Sam Gallilee, next month; and he's a +stevedore, and his work is down round the wharves; he's class-leader +in our church, and a first-rate, right-minded man, or else Savira +wouldn't have him; for if Savira ain't a clear Christian, and a +doing woman, there ain't one this side of Paradise. Now, you see, +Sam Gallilee makes money; he runs a gang of three hundred men. He +can afford a good house, and a whole one, if he wants; but he's +going in for a big one, and neighbors. They mean to live nice,—he +and Savira; and she has pretty, tasty ways; there'll be white +curtains, and plants blooming in her windows, you may make sure; +she's always had 'em in that little up-stairs dress-making room of +hers; and boxes of mignonette and petunias on the ledges; and birds +singing in a great summer cage swung out against the wall. She's one +of the kind that reaches out, and can't be kept in; and she knows +her gifts, and is willing to go and let her light shine where it +will help others, and so glorify; and Sam, he's willing too, and +sees the beauty of it. And so,—well, that's the swarm." +</p> +<p> +"And the 'little round Godamighty in the middle of it,'" said Mrs. +Ripwinkley, her face all bright and her eyes full of tears. +</p> +<p> +"<i>Ma'am!</i>" +</p> +<p> +Then Mrs. Ripwinkley told her Miss Craydocke's story. +</p> +<p> +"Well," said Luclarion, "there's something dear and +right-to-the-spot about it; but it does sound singular; and it +certainly ain't a thing to say careless." +</p> +<hr> +<p> +Desire Ledwith grew bright and excited as the summer came on, and +the time drew near for going to Z——. She could not help being +glad; she did not stop to ask why; summer-time was reason enough, +and after the weariness of the winter, the thought of Z—— and the +woods and the river, and sweet evenings and mornings, and gardens +and orchards, and road-side grass, was lovely to her. +</p> +<p> +"It is so pleasant up there!" she would keep saying to Dorris; and +somehow she said it to Dorris oftener than to anybody else. +</p> +<p> +There was something fitful and impetuous in her little outbursts of +satisfaction; they noticed it in her; the elder ones among them +noticed it with a touch of anxiety for her. +</p> +<p> +Miss Craydocke, especially, read the signs, matching them with +something that she remembered far back in the life that had closed +so peacefully, with white hairs and years of a serene content and +patience, over all unrest and disappointment, for herself. She was +sorry for this young girl, for whom she thought she saw an +unfulfilled dream of living that should go by her like some bright +cloud, just near enough to turn into a baptism of tears. +</p> +<p> +She asked Desire, one day, if she would not like to go with her, +this summer, to the mountains. +</p> +<p> +Desire put by the suggestion hastily. +</p> +<p> +"O, no, thank you, Miss Craydocke, I must stay with mamma and +Helena. And besides," she added, with the strict, full truth she +always demanded of herself, "I <i>want</i> to go to Z——." +</p> +<p> +"Yes," said Miss Craydocke. +</p> +<p> +There was something tender, like a shade of pity, in her tone. +</p> +<p> +"But you would enjoy the mountains. They are full of strength and +rest. One hardly understands the good the hills do one. David did, +looking out into them from Jerusalem. 'I will look to the hills, +from whence cometh my strength.'" +</p> +<p> +"Some time," said Desire. "Some time I shall need the hills, and—be +ready for them. But this summer—I want a good, gay, young time. I +don't know why, except that I shall be just eighteen this year, and +it seems as if, after that, I was going to be old. And I want to be +with people I know. I <i>can</i> be gay in the country; there is +something to be gay about. But I can't dress and dance in the city. +That is all gas-light and get-up." +</p> +<p> +"I suppose," said Miss Craydocke, slowly, "that our faces are all +set in the way we are to go. Even if it is—" She stopped. She was +thinking of one whose face had been set to go to Jerusalem. Her own +words had led her to something she had not foreseen when she began. +</p> +<p> +Nothing of such suggestion came to Desire. She was in one of her +rare moods of good cheer. +</p> +<p> +"I suppose so," she said, heedlessly. And then, taking up a thought +of her own suddenly,—"Miss Craydocke! Don't you think people almost +always live out their names? There's Sin Scherman; there'll always +be a little bit of mischief and original naughtiness in her,—with +the harm taken out of it; and there's Rosamond Holabird,—they +couldn't have called her anything better, if they'd waited for her +to grow up; and Barb <i>was</i> sharp; and our little Hazel is witchy and +sweet and wild-woodsy; and Luclarion,—isn't that shiny and +trumpety, and doesn't she do it? And then—there's me. I shall +always be stiff and hard and unsatisfied, except in little bits of +summer times that won't come often. They might as well have +christened me Anxiety. I wonder why they didn't." +</p> +<p> +"That would have been very different. There is a nobleness in +Desire. You will overlive the restless part," said Miss Craydocke. +</p> +<p> +"Was there ever anything restless in your life, Miss Craydocke? And +how long did it take to overlive it? It doesn't seem as if you had +ever stubbed your foot against anything; and I'm <i>always</i> stubbing." +</p> +<p> +"My dear, I have stubbed along through fifty-six years; and the +years had all three hundred and sixty-five days in them. There were +chances,—don't you think so?" +</p> +<p> +"It looks easy to be old after it is done," said Desire. "Easy and +comfortable. But to be eighteen, and to think of having to go on to +be fifty-six; I beg your pardon,—but I wish it was over!" +</p> +<p> +And she drew a deep breath, heavy with the days that were to be. +</p> +<p> +"You are not to take it all at once, you know," said Miss Craydocke. +</p> +<p> +"But I do, every now and then. I can't help it. I am sure it is the +name. If they had called me 'Hapsie,' like you, I should have gone +along jolly, as you do, and not minded. You see you have to <i>hear</i> +it all the time; and it tunes you up to its own key. You can't feel +like a Dolly, or a Daisy, when everybody says—De-sire!" +</p> +<p> +"I don't know how I came to be called 'Hapsie,'" said Miss +Craydocke. "Somebody who liked me took it up, and it seemed to get +fitted on. But that wasn't when I was young." +</p> +<p> +"What was it, then?" asked Desire, with a movement of interest. +</p> +<p> +"Keren-happuch," said Miss Craydocke, meekly. "My father named me, +and he always called me so,—the whole of it. He was a severe, +Old-Testament man, and <i>his</i> name was Job." +</p> +<p> +Desire was more than half right, after all. There was a good deal of +Miss Craydocke's story hinted in those few words and those two +ancient names. +</p> +<p> +"But I turned into 'Miss Craydocke' pretty soon, and settled down. I +suppose it was very natural that I should," said the sweet old maid, +serenely. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0017"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XVII. +</h2> +<h3> + QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +The evening train came in through the little bend in the edge of the +woods, and across the bridge over the pretty rapids, and slid to its +stopping-place under the high arches of the other bridge that +connected the main street of Z—— with its continuation through +"And." +</p> +<p> +There were lights twinkling in the shops, where they were making +change, and weighing out tea and sugar, and measuring calico, +although outside it was not yet quite dark. +</p> +<p> +The train was half an hour late; there had been a stoppage at some +draw or crossing near the city. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Prendible was there, to see if his lodgers were come, and to get +his evening paper; the platform was full of people. Old Z—— +acquaintances, many of them, whom Desire and her mother were +pleased, and Helena excited to see. +</p> +<p> +"There's Kenneth Kincaid!" she exclaimed, quite loudly, pulling +Desire's sleeve. +</p> +<p> +"Hush!" said Desire, twitching away. "How can you, Helena?" +</p> +<p> +"He's coming,—he heard me!" cried Helena, utterly impenitent. +</p> +<p> +"I should think he might!" And Desire walked off a little, to look +among the trunks that were being tumbled from the baggage car. +</p> +<p> +She had seen him all the time; he had been speaking to Ruth +Holabird, and helping her up the steps with her parcels. Mr. +Holabird was there with the little Westover carryall that they kept +now; and Kenneth put her in, and then turned round in time to hear +Helena's exclamation and to come down again. +</p> +<p> +"Can I help you? I'm very glad you are come," he said, cordially. +</p> +<p> +Well; he might have said it to anybody. Again, well; it was enough +to say to anybody. Why should Desire feel cross? +</p> +<p> +He took Helena's bag; she had a budget beside; Mr. Prendible +relieved Mrs. Ledwith; Desire held on valiantly to her own things. +Kenneth walked over the bridge with them, and down the street to Mr. +Prendible's door; there he bade them good-by and left them. +</p> +<p> +It was nice to be in Z——; it was very sweet here under the +blossoming elms and locusts; it was nice to see Kenneth Kincaid +again, and to think that Dorris was coming by and by, and that the +lanes were green and full of ferns and vines, and that there was to +be a whole long summer; but there were so many people down there on +the platform,—there was such a muss always; Ruth Holabird was a +dear little thing, but there were always so many Ruths about! and +there was only one cross, stiff, odd, uncomfortable Desire! +</p> +<p> +But the very next night Kenneth came down and stayed an hour; there +was a new moon glistening through the delicate elm-tips, and they +sat out on the piazza and breathed in such an air as they had not +had in their nostrils for months and months. +</p> +<p> +The faint, tender light from the golden west in which the new moon +lay, showed the roof and tower of the little church, Kenneth's first +beautiful work; and Kenneth told them how pleasant it was up at Miss +Arabel's, and of the tame squirrels that he fed at his window, and +of the shady pasture-path that led away over the brook from the +very door, and up among pines and into little still nooks where dry +mossy turf and warm gray rocks were sheltered in by scraggy cedars +and lisping birches, so that they were like field-parlors opening in +and out from each other with all sorts of little winding and +climbing passages, between clumps of bayberry bushes and tall ferns; +and that the girls from Z—— and Westover made morning picnics +there, since Lucilla Waters had grown intimate with Delia Waite and +found it out; and that Delia Waite and even Miss Arabel carried +their dressmaking down there sometimes in a big white basket, and +stayed all day under the trees. They had never used to do this; they +had stayed in the old back sitting room with all the litter round, +and never thought of it till those girls had come and showed them +how. +</p> +<p> +"I think there is the best and sweetest neighborliness and most +beautiful living here in Z——, that I ever knew in any place," said +Kenneth Kincaid; "except that little piece of the same thing in +Aspen Street." +</p> +<p> +Kenneth had found out how Rosamond Holabird recognized Aspen Street +as a piece of her world. +</p> +<p> +Desire hated, as he spoke, her spitefulness last night; what she had +said to herself of "so many Ruths;" why could not she not be pleased +to come into this beautiful living and make a little part of it? +</p> +<p> +She was pleased; she would be; she found it very easy when Kenneth +said to her in that frank intimate way,—"I wish you and your mother +would come over and see what Dorris will want, and help me a little +about that room of hers. I told Miss Waite not to bother; just to +let the old things stand,—I knew Dorris would like them,—and +anything else I would get for her myself. I mean Dolly shall take a +long vacation this year; from June right through to September; and +its 'no end of jolly,' as those English fellows say, that you have +come too!" +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid was fresher and pleasanter and younger himself, than +Desire had ever seen him before; he seemed to have forgotten that +hard way of looking at the world; he had found something so +undeniably good in it. I am afraid Desire had rather liked him for +his carping, which was what he least of all deserved to be liked +for. It showed how high and pure his demands were; but his praise +and admissions were better; it is always better to discern good than +to fret at the evil. +</p> +<p> +"I shall see you every day," he said, when he shook hands at +parting; "and Helena, if you want a squirrel to keep in your pocket +next winter, I'll begin training one for you at once." +</p> +<p> +He had taken them right to himself, as if they belonged to him; he +spoke as if he were very glad that he should see them every day. +</p> +<p> +Desire whistled over her unpacking; she could not sing, but she +could whistle like a blackbird. When her father came up on Saturday +night, he said that her eyes were brighter and her cheeks were +rounder, for the country air; she would take to growing pretty +instead of strong-minded, if she didn't look out. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth came round on Monday, after tea, to ask them to go over to +Miss Waite's and make acquaintance. +</p> +<p> +"For you see," he said, "you will have to be very intimate there, +and it is time to begin. It will take one call to be introduced, and +another, at least, to get up-stairs and see that beautiful breezy +old room that can't be lived in in winter, but is to be a delicious +sort of camping-out for Dolly, all summer. It is all windows and +squirrel-holes and doors that won't shut. Everything comes in but +the rain; but the roof is tight on that corner. Even the woodbine +has got tossed in through a broken upper pane, and I wouldn't have +it mended on any account. There are swallows' nests in the chimneys, +and wrens under the gable, and humming-birds in the honeysuckle. +When Dolly gets there, it will be perfect. It just wants her to take +it all right into her heart and make one piece of it. <i>They</i> don't +know,—the birds and the squirrels,—it takes the human. There has +to be an Adam in every garden of Eden." +</p> +<p> +Kenneth really chattered, from pure content and delight. +</p> +<p> +It did not take two visits to get up-stairs. Miss Arabel met them +heartily. She had been a shy, timid old lady, from long neglect and +humble living; but lately she had "come out in society," Delia said. +Society had come after her, and convinced her that she could make +good times for it. +</p> +<p> +She brought out currant wine and gave them, the first thing; and +when Kenneth told her that they were his and Dorris's friends, and +were coming next week to see about getting ready for her, she took +them right round through all four of the ground rooms, to the queer +corner staircase, and up into the "long west chamber," to show them +what a rackety old place it was, and to see whether they supposed it +could be made fit. +</p> +<p> +"Why it's like the Romance of the Forest!" said Helena, delighted. +"I wish <i>we</i> had come here. Don't you have ghosts, or robbers, or +something, up and down those stairs, Miss Waite?" For she had spied +a door that led directly out of the room, from beside the chimney, +up into the rambling old garret, smelling of pine boards and +penny-royal. +</p> +<p> +"No; nothing but squirrels and bees, and sometimes a bat," answered +Miss Arabel. +</p> +<p> +"Well, it doesn't want fixing. If you fix it, you will spoil it. I +shall come here and sleep with Dorris,—see if I don't." +</p> +<p> +The floor was bare, painted a dark, marbled gray. In the middle was +a great braided rug, of blue and scarlet and black. The walls were +pale gray, with a queer, stencilled scroll-and-dash border of +vermilion and black paint. +</p> +<p> +There was an old, high bedstead, with carved frame and posts, bare +of drapery; an antiquated chest of drawers; and a half-circular +table with tall, plain, narrow legs, between two of the windows. +There was a corner cupboard, and a cupboard over the chimney. The +doors of these, and the high wainscot around the room, were stained +in old-fashioned "imitation mahogany," very streaky and red. The +wainscot was so heavily finished that the edge running around the +room might answer for a shelf. +</p> +<p> +"Just curtains, and toilet covers, and a little low rocking chair," +said Mrs. Ledwith. "That is all you want." +</p> +<p> +"But the windows are so high," suggested Desire. "A low chair would +bury her up, away from all the pleasantness. I'll tell you what I +would have, Mr. Kincaid. A kind of dais, right across that corner, +to take in two windows; with a carpet on it, and a chair, and a +little table." +</p> +<p> +"Just the thing!" said Kenneth. "That is what I wanted you for, Miss +Desire," he said in a pleased, gentle way, lowering his tone to her +especial hearing, as he stood beside her in the window. +</p> +<p> +And Desire was very happy to have thought of it. +</p> +<p> +Helena was spurred by emulation to suggest something. +</p> +<p> +"I'd have a—hammock—somewhere," she said. +</p> +<p> +"Good," said Kenneth. "That shall be out under the great butternut." +</p> +<p> +The great butternut walled in one of the windows with a wilderness +of green, and the squirrels ran chattering up and down the brown +branches, and peeping in all day. In the autumn, when the nuts were +ripe, they would be scrambling over the roof, and in under the +eaves, to hide their stores in the garret, Miss Arabel told them. +</p> +<p> +"Why doesn't everbody have an old house, and let the squirrels in?" +cried Helena, in a rapture. +</p> +<p> +In ten days more,—the first week of June,—Dorris came. +</p> +<p> +Well,—"That let in all the rest," Helena said, and Desire, may be, +thought. "We shan't have it to ourselves any more." +</p> +<p> +The girls could all come down and call on Dorris Kincaid, and they +did. +</p> +<p> +But Desire and Helena had the first of it; nobody else went right up +into her room; nobody else helped her unpack and settle. And she was +so delighted with all that they had done for her. +</p> +<p> +The dais was large enough for two or three to sit upon at once, and +it was covered with green carpet of a small, mossy pattern, and the +window was open into the butternut on one side, and into the +honeysuckle on the other, and it was really a bower. +</p> +<p> +"I shall live ten hours in one," said Dorris. +</p> +<p> +"And you'll let me come and sleep with you some night, and hear the +bats," said Helena. +</p> +<p> +The Ledwiths made a good link; they had known the Kincaids so well; +if it had been only Dorris, alone, with her brother there, the +Westover girls might have been shy of coming often. Since Kenneth +had been at Miss Waite's, they had already grown a little less free +of the beautiful woods that they had just found out and begun fairly +to enjoy last autumn. +</p> +<p> +But the Ledwiths made a strong party; and they lived close by; +there were plans continually. +</p> +<p> +Since Leslie Goldthwaite and Barbara Holabird were married and gone, +and the Roger Marchbankses were burned out, and had been living in +the city and travelling, the Hobarts and the Haddens and Ruth and +Rosamond and Pen Pennington had kept less to their immediate +Westover neighborhood than ever; and had come down to Lucilla's, and +to Maddy Freeman's, and the Inglesides, as often as they had induced +them to go up to the Hill. +</p> +<p> +Maud Marchbanks and the Hendees were civil and neighborly enough at +home, but they did not care to "ramify." So it came to pass that +they were left a good deal to themselves. Olivia and Adelaide, when +they came up to Westover, to their uncle's, wondered "that papa +cared to build again; there really wasn't anything to come for; West +Hill was entirely changed." +</p> +<p> +So it was; and a very good thing. +</p> +<p> +I came across the other day, reading over Mr. Kingsley's "Two Years +Ago," a true word as to social needs in England, that reminded me of +this that the Holabirds and the Penningtons and the Inglesides have +been doing, half unconsciously, led on from "next" to next, in +Z——. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Kingsley, after describing a Miss Heale, and others of her +class,—the middle class, with no high social opportunities, and +with time upon their hands, wasted often in false dreams of life and +unsatisfied expectations, "bewildering heart and brain with novels," +for want of a nobler companionship, says this: "Till in country +villages, the ladies who interest themselves about the poor will +recollect that the farmers' and tradesmens' daughters are just as +much in want of their influence as the charity children and will +yield a far richer return for their labor, so long will England be +full of Miss Heales." +</p> +<p> +If a kindly influence and fellowship are the duty of the +aristocratic girls of England toward their "next," below, how far +more false are American girls to the spirit of their country, and +the blessed opportunities of republican sympathies and equalities, +when they try to draw invisible lines between themselves and those +whose outer station differs by but so little, and whose hearts and +minds, under the like culture with their own, crave, just as they +do, the best that human intercourse can give. Social science has +something to do, before—or at least simultaneously with—reaching +down to the depths where all the wrongs and blunders and +mismanagements of life have precipitated their foul residuum. A +master of one of our public schools, speaking of the undue culture +of the brain and imagination, in proportion to the opportunities +offered socially for living out ideas thus crudely gathered, said +that his brightest girls were the ones who in after years, impatient +of the little life gave them to satisfy the capacities and demands +aroused and developed during the brief period of school life, and +fed afterwards by their own ill-judged and ill-regulated reading, +were found fallen into lives of vice. Have our women, old or young, +who make and circumscribe the opportunities of social intercourse +and enjoyment, nothing to search out here, and help, as well, or as +soon as, to get their names put on committee lists, and manage these +public schools themselves, which educate and stimulate up to the +point of possible fierce temptation, and then have nothing more that +they can do? +</p> +<p> +It was a good thing for Desire Ledwith to grow intimate, as she did, +with Rosamond Holabird. There were identical points of character +between the two. They were both so real. +</p> +<p> +"You don't want to <i>play</i> anything," Barbara Holabird had said to +Rosamond once, in some little discussion of social appearances and +pretensions. "And that's the beauty of you!" +</p> +<p> +It was the beauty of Desire Ledwith also; only, with Rosamond, her +ambitions had clothed themselves with a grace and delicateness that +would have their own perfect and thorough as far as it went; and +with Desire, the same demands of true living had chafed into an +impatience with shams and a blunt disregard of and resistance to all +conventionalisms. +</p> +<p> +"You are a good deal alike, you two," Kenneth Kincaid said to them +one day, in a talk they all three happened to have together. +</p> +<p> +And he had told Rosamond afterward that there was "something grand +in Desire Ledwith; only grand things almost always have to grow with +struggles." +</p> +<p> +Rosamond had told this again to Desire. +</p> +<p> +It was not much wonder that she began to be happier; to have a +hidden comfort of feeling that perhaps the "waiting with all her +might" was nearly over, and the "by and by" was blossoming for her, +though the green leaves of her own shy sternness with herself folded +close down about the sweetening place, and she never parted them +aside to see where the fragrance came from. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +They were going to have a grand, large, beautiful supper party in +the woods. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Holabird and Mrs. Hobart were the matrons, and gave out the +invitations. +</p> +<p> +"I don't think I could possibly spend a Tuesday afternoon with a +little 't,'" said Mrs. Lewis Marchbanks laughing, and tossing down +poor, dear, good Mrs. Hobart's note upon her table. "It is <i>rather</i> +more than is to be expected!" +</p> +<p> +"Doctor and Mrs. Hautayne are here, and Dakie Thayne is home from +West Point. It will be rather a nice party." +</p> +<p> +"The Holabirds seem to have got everything into their own hands," +said Mrs. Marchbanks, haughtily. "It is always a pity when people +take the lead who are not exactly qualified. Mrs. Holabird <i>will</i> +not discriminate!' +</p> +<p> +"I think the Holabirds are splendid," spoke up Lily, "and I don't +think there's any fun in sticking up by ourselves! I can't bear to +be judicious!" +</p> +<p> +Poor little Lily Marchbanks had been told a tiresome many times that +she must be "judicious" in her intimacies. +</p> +<p> +"You can be <i>pleasant</i> to everybody," said mother and elder sister, +with a salvo of Christian benignity. +</p> +<p> +But it is so hard for little children to be pleasant with fence and +limitation. +</p> +<p> +"Where must I stop?" Lily had asked in her simplicity. "When they +give me a piece of their luncheon, or when they walk home from +school, or when they say they will come in a little while?" +</p> +<p> +But there came a message back from Boston by the eleven o'clock +train on the morning of the Tuesday with a little "t," from Mr. +Marchbanks himself, to say that his brother and Mr. Geoffrey would +come up with him to dinner, and to desire that carriages might be +ready afterward for the drive over to Waite's grove. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Marchbanks marveled, but gave her orders. Arthur came out +early, and brought with him his friend Archie Mucklegrand, and these +two were bound also for the merry-making. +</p> +<p> +Now Archie Mucklegrand was the identical youth of the lavender +pantaloons and the waxed moustache, whom Desire, as "Miss Ledwith," +had received in state a year and a half ago. +</p> +<p> +So it was an imposing cavalcade, after all, from West Hill, that +honored the very indiscriminate pleasure party, and came riding and +driving in at about six o'clock. There were the barouche and the +coupé; for the ladies and elder gentlemen, and the two young men +accompanied them on horseback. +</p> +<p> +Archie Mucklegrand had been at West Hill often before. He and +Arthur had just graduated at Harvard, and the Holabirds had had +cards to their grand spread on Class Day. Archie Mucklegrand had +found out what a pretty girl—and a good deal more than merely +pretty—Rosamond Holabird was; and although he might any day go +over to his big, wild Highland estate, and take upon himself the +glory of "Sir Archibald" there among the hills and moors,—and +though any one of a good many pretty girls in Spreadsplendid Park +and Republic Avenue might be induced, perhaps, if he tried, to go +with him,—all this did not hinder him from perceiving that up +here in Z—— was just the most bewitching companionship he had +ever fallen in with, or might ever be able to choose for himself +for any going or abiding; that Rosamond Holabird was just the +brightest, and sweetest, and most to his mind of any girl that he +had ever seen, and most like "the woman" that a man might dream +of. I do not know that he quite said it all to himself in +precisely that way; I am pretty sure that he did not, as yet; but +whatever is off-hand and young-mannish and modern enough to +express to one's self without "sposhiness" an admiration and a +preference like that, he undoubtedly did say. At any rate after +his Christmas at Z—— with Arthur, and some charade parties they +had then at Westover, and after Class Day, when everybody had been +furious to get an introduction, and all the Spreadsplendid girls +and their mothers had been wondering who that Miss Holabird was +and where she came from, and Madam Mucklegrand herself—not having +the slightest recollection of her as the Miss Holabird of that +early-morning business call, whose name she had just glanced at +and dropped into an Indian china scrap-jar before she went +down-stairs—had asked him the same questions, and pronounced that +she was "an exceedingly graceful little person, certainly,"—after +all this, Archie had made up his—mind, shall I say? at least his +inclination, and his moustache—to pursue the acquaintance, and be +as irresistible as he could. +</p> +<p> +But Rosamond had learned—things do so play into our lives in a +benign order—just before that Christmas time and those charades, in +one of which Archie Mucklegrand had sung to her, so expressively, +the "Birks of Aberfeldy,"—that Spreadsplendid Park was not, at +least his corner of it,—a "piece of her world;" and she did not +believe that Aberfeldy would be, either, though Archie's voice was +beautiful, and— +</p> +<p class="note2"> + "Bonnie lassie, will ye go?" +</p> +<p class="noindent"> +sounded very enticing—in a charade. +</p> +<p> +So she was quite calm when the Marchbanks party came upon the +ground, and Archie Mucklegrand, with white trousers and a lavender +tie, and the trim, waxed moustache, looking very handsome in spite +of his dapperness, found her out in the first two minutes, and +attached himself to her forthwith in a most undetachable and +determined manner, which was his way of being irresistible. +</p> +<p> +They were in the midst of their tea and coffee when the West Hill +party came. Miss Arabel was busy at the coffee-table between the two +oaks, pouring out with all her might, and creaming the fragrant cups +with a rich lavishness that seemed to speak of milky mothers without +number or limit of supply; and Rosamond, as the most natural and +hospitable thing to do, conducted the young gentleman as soon as she +could to that lady, and commended him to her good offices. +</p> +<p> +These were not to be resisted; and as soon as he was occupied, +Rosamond turned to attend to others coming up; and the groups +shifting, she found herself presently a little way off, and +meanwhile Mrs. Marchbanks and her son had reached the table and +joined Archie. +</p> +<p> +"I say, Arthur! O, Mrs. Marchbanks! You never got such coffee as +this, I do believe! The open air has done something to it, or else +the cream comes from some supernal cows! Miss Holabird!" +</p> +<p> +Rosamond turned round. +</p> +<p> +"I don't see,—Mrs. Marchbanks ought to have some of this coffee, +but where is your good woman gone?" For Miss Arabel had stepped +round behind the oak-tree for a moment, to see about some +replenishing. +</p> +<p> +In her prim, plain dress, utterly innocent of style or <i>bias</i>, and +her zealous ministry, good Miss Arabel might easily be taken for +some comfortable, superior old servant; but partly from a sudden +sense of fun,—Mrs. Marchbanks standing there in all her elegant +dignity,—and partly from a jealous chivalry of friendship, Rosamond +would not let it pass so. +</p> +<p> +"Good woman? Hush! she is one of our hostesses, the owner of the +ground, and a dear friend of mine. Here she is. Miss Waite, let me +introduce Mr. Archibald Mucklegrand. Mrs. Marchbanks will like some +coffee, please." +</p> +<p> +Which Mrs. Marchbanks took with a certain look of amazement, that +showed itself subtilely in a slight straightening of the lips and an +expansion of the nostrils. She did not <i>sniff</i>; she was a great deal +too much a lady; she was Mrs. Marchbanks, but if she had been Mrs. +Higgin, and had felt just so, she would have sniffed. +</p> +<p> +Somebody came up close to Rosamond on the other side. +</p> +<p> +"That was good," said Kenneth Kincaid. "Thank you for that, Miss +Rosamond." +</p> +<p> +"Will you have some more?" asked Rosamond, cunningly, pretending to +misunderstand, and reaching her hand to take his empty cup. +</p> +<p> +"One mustn't ask for all one would like," said Kenneth, +relinquishing the cup, and looking straight in her eyes. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond's eyes fell; she had no rejoinder ready; it was very well +that she had the cup to take care of, and could turn away, for she +felt a very foolish color coming up in her face. +</p> +<p> +She made herself very busy among the guests. Archie Mucklegrand +stayed by, and spoke to her every time he found a chance. At last, +when people had nearly done eating and drinking, he asked her if she +would not show him the path down to the river. +</p> +<p> +"It must be beautiful down there under the slope," he said. +</p> +<p> +She called Dorris and Desire, then, and Oswald Megilp, who was with +them. He was spending a little time here at the Prendibles, with his +boat on the river, as he had used to do. When he could take an +absolute vacation, he was going away with a pedestrian party, among +the mountains. There was not much in poor Oswald Megilp, but Desire +and Rosamond were kind to him now that his mother was away. +</p> +<p> +As they all walked down the bank among the close evergreens, they +met Mr. Geoffrey and Mr. Marchbanks, with Kenneth Kincaid, coming +up. Kenneth came last, and the two parties passed each other single +file, in the narrow pathway. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth paused as he came close to Rosamond, holding back a bough +for her. +</p> +<p> +"I have something very nice to tell you," he whispered, "by and by. +But it is a secret, as yet. Please don't stay down there very long." +</p> +<p> +Nobody heard the whisper but Rosamond; if they could have done so, +he would not have whispered. Archie Mucklegrand was walking rather +sulkily along before; he had not cared for a party to be made up +when he asked Rosamond to go down to the river with him. Desire and +Dorris had found some strange blossom among the underbrush, and were +stopping for it; and Oswald Megilp was behind them. For a few +seconds, Kenneth had Rosamond quite to himself. +</p> +<p> +The slight delay had increased the separation between her and Archie +Mucklegrand, for he had kept steadily on in his little huff. +</p> +<p> +"I do not think we shall be long," said Rosamond, glancing after +him, and looking up, with her eyes bright. She was half merry with +mischief, and half glad with a quieter, deeper pleasure, at +Kenneth's words. +</p> +<p> +He would tell her something in confidence; something that he was +glad of; he wanted her to know it while it was yet a secret; she had +not the least guess what it could be; but it was very "nice" +already. Rosamond always did rather like to be told things first; to +have her friends confide in and consult with her, and rely upon her +sympathy; she did not stop to separate the old feeling which she was +quite aware of in herself, from something new that made it +especially beautiful that Kenneth Kincaid should so confide and +rely. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond was likely to have more told her to-night than she quite +dreamed of. +</p> +<p> +"Desire!" +</p> +<p> +They heard Mrs. Ledwith's voice far back among the trees. +</p> +<p> +Desire answered. +</p> +<p> +"I want you, dear!" +</p> +<p> +"Something about shawls and baskets, I suppose," said Desire, +turning round, perhaps a little the more readily that Kenneth was +beside her now, going back also. +</p> +<p> +Dorris and Oswald Megilp, finding there was a move to return, and +being behind Desire in the pathway, turned also, as people will who +have no especial motive for going one way rather than another; and +so it happened that after all Rosamond and Archie Mucklegrand walked +on down the bank to the river together, by themselves. +</p> +<p> +Archie's good humor returned quickly. +</p> +<p> +"I am glad they are gone; it was such a fuss having so many," he +said. +</p> +<p> +"We shall have to go back directly; they are beginning to break up," +said Rosamond. +</p> +<p> +And then, coming out to the opening by the water, she began to talk +rather fast about the prettiness of the view, and to point out the +bridge, and the mills, and the shadow of East Hill upon the water, +and the curve of the opposite shore, and the dip of the shrubs and +their arched reflections. She seemed quite determined to have all +the talk to herself. +</p> +<p> +Archie Mucklegrand played with his stick, and twisted the end of +his moustache. Men never ought to allow themselves to learn that +trick. It always comes back upon them when it makes them look most +foolish. +</p> +<p> +Archie said nothing, because there was so much he wanted to say, and +he did not know how to begin. +</p> +<p> +He knew his mother and sister would not like it,—as long as they +could help it, certainly,—therefore he had suddenly made up his +mind that there should be no such interval. He could do as he +pleased; was he not Sir Archibald? And there was his Boston +grandfather's property, too, of which a large share had been left +outright to him; and he had been twenty-one these six months. There +was nothing to hinder; and he meant to tell Rosamond Holabird that +he liked her better than any other girl in the world. Somebody else +would be telling her so, if he didn't; he could see how they all +came round her; perhaps it might be that tall, quiet, cheeky looking +fellow,—that Kincaid. He would be before him, at any rate. +</p> +<p> +So he stood and twisted his moustache, and said nothing,—nothing, I +mean, except mere little words of assent and echo to Rosamond's +chatter about the pretty view. +</p> +<p> +At last,—"You are fond of scenery, Miss Holabird?" +</p> +<p> +Rosamond laughed. +</p> +<p> +"O yes, I suppose I am; but we don't call this scenery. It is just +pleasantness,—beauty. I don't think I quite like the word +'scenery.' It seems artificial,—got up for outside effect. And the +most beautiful things do not speak from the outside, do they? I +never travelled, Mr. Mucklegrand. I have just lived here, until I +have lived <i>into</i> things, or they into me. I rather think it is +travelling, skimming about the world in a hurry, that makes people +talk about 'scenery.' Isn't it?" +</p> +<p> +"I dare say. I don't care for skimming, myself. But I like to go to +nice places, and stay long enough to get into them, as you say. I +mean to go to Scotland next year. I've a place there among the hills +and lochs, Miss Rosamond." +</p> +<p> +"Yes. I have heard so. I should think you would wish to go and see +it." +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you what I wish, Miss Holabird!" he said suddenly, +letting go his moustache, and turning round with sufficient +manfulness, and facing her. "I suppose there is a more gradual and +elegant way of saying it; but I believe straightforward is as good +as any. I wish you cared for me as I care for you, and then you +would go with me." +</p> +<p> +Rosamond was utterly confounded. She had not imagined that it could +be hurled at her, this fashion; she thought she could parry and put +aside, if she saw anything coming. She was bewildered and breathless +with the shock of it; she could only blindly, and in very foolish +words, hurl it back. +</p> +<p> +"O, dear, no!" she exclaimed, her face crimson. "I mean—I don't—I +couldn't! I beg your pardon, Mr. Mucklegrand; you are very good; I +am very sorry; but I wish you hadn't said so. We had better go +back." +</p> +<p> +"No," said Archie Mucklegrand, "not yet. I've said it now. I said it +like a moon calf, but I mean it like a man. Won't you—can't you—be +my wife, Rosamond? I must know that." +</p> +<p> +"No, Mr. Mucklegrand," answered Rosamond, quite steadily now and +gently. "I could not be. We were never meant for each other. You +will think so yourself next year,—by the time you go to Scotland." +</p> +<p> +"I shall never think so." +</p> +<p> +Of course he said that; young men always do; they mean it at the +moment, and nothing can persuade them otherwise. +</p> +<p> +"I told you I had lived right here, and grown into these things, and +they into me," said Rosamond, with a sweet slow earnestness, as if +she thought out while she explained it; and so she did; for the +thought and meaning of her life dawned upon her with a new +perception, as she stood at this point and crisis of it in the +responsibility of her young womanhood. "And these, and all the +things that have influenced me, have given my life its direction; +and I can see clearly that it was never meant to be your way. I do +not know what it will be; but I know yours is different. It would be +wrenching mine to turn it so." +</p> +<p> +"But I would turn mine for you," said Archie. +</p> +<p> +"You couldn't. Lives <i>grow</i> together. They join beforehand, if they +join at all. You like me, perhaps,—just what you see of me; but you +do not know me, nor I you. If it—this—were meant, we should." +</p> +<p> +"Should what?" +</p> +<p> +"Know. Be sure." +</p> +<p> +"I am sure of what I told you." +</p> +<p> +"And I thank you very much; but I do not—I never could—belong to +you." +</p> +<p> +What made Rosamond so wise about knowing and belonging? +</p> +<p> +She could not tell, herself; she had never thought it out before; +but she seemed to see it very clearly now. She did not belong to +Archie Mucklegrand, nor he to her; he was mistaken; their lives had +no join; to make them join would be a force, a wrenching. +</p> +<p> +Archie Mucklegrand did not care to have it put on such deep ground. +He liked Rosamond; he wanted her to like him; then they should be +married, of coarse, and go to Scotland, and have a good time; but +this quiet philosophy cooled him somewhat. As they walked up the +bank together, he wondered at himself a little that he did not feel +worse about it. If she had been coquettish, or perverse, she might +have been all the more bewitching to him. If he had thought she +liked somebody else better, he might have been furiously jealous; +but "her way of liking a fellow would be a slow kind of a way, after +all." That was the gist of his thought about it; and I believe that +to many very young men, at the age of waxed moustaches and German +dancing, that "slow kind of a way" in a girl is the best possible +insurance against any lasting damage that their own enthusiasm might +suffer. +</p> +<p> +He had not been contemptible in the offering of his love; his best +had come out at that moment; if it does not come out then, +somehow,—through face and tone, in some plain earnestness or simple +nobleness, if not in fashion of the spoken word as very well it may +not,—it must be small best that the man has in him. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond's simple saying of the truth, as it looked to her in that +moment of sure insight, was the best help she could have given him. +Truth is always the best help. He did not exactly understand the +wherefore, as she understood it; but the truth touched him +nevertheless, in the way that he could perceive. They did not +"belong" to each other. +</p> +<p> +And riding down in the late train that evening, Archie Mucklegrand +said to himself, drawing a long breath,—"It would have been an +awful tough little joke, after all, telling it to the old lady!" +</p> +<p> +"Are you too tired to walk home?" Kenneth Kincaid asked of Rosamond, +helping her put the baskets in the carriage. +</p> +<p> +Dakie Thayne had asked Ruth the same question five minutes before, +and they two had gone on already. Are girls ever too tired to walk +home after a picnic, when the best of the picnic is going to walk +home with them? Of course Rosamond was not too tired; and Mrs. +Holabird had the carryall quite to herself and her baskets. +</p> +<p> +They took the River Road, that was shady all the way, and sweet now +with the dropping scents of evening; it was a little longer, too, I +think, though that is one of the local questions that have never yet +been fully decided. +</p> +<p> +"How far does Miss Waite's ground run along the river?" asked +Kenneth, taking Rosamond's shawl over his arm. +</p> +<p> +"Not far; it only just touches; it runs back and broadens toward the +Old Turnpike. The best of it is in those woods and pastures." +</p> +<p> +"So I thought. And the pastures are pretty much run out." +</p> +<p> +"I suppose so. They are full of that lovely gray crackling moss." +</p> +<p> +"Lovely for picnics. Don't you think Miss Waite would like to sell?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes, indeed, if she could. That is her dream; what she has been +laying up for her old age: to turn the acres into dollars, and build +or buy a little cottage, and settle down safe. It is all she has in +the world, except her dressmaking." +</p> +<p> +"Mr. Geoffrey and Mr. Marchbanks want to buy. They will offer her +sixteen thousand dollars. That is the secret,—part of it." +</p> +<p> +"O, Mr. Kincaid! How glad,—how <i>sorry</i>, I can't help being, too! +Miss Waite to be so comfortable! And never to have her dear old +woods to picnic in any more! I suppose they want to make streets +and build it all up." +</p> +<p> +"Not all. I'll tell you. It is a beautiful plan. Mr. Geoffrey wants +to build a street of twenty houses,—ten on a side,—with just a +little garden plot for each, and leave the woods behind for a piece +of nature for the general good,—a real Union Park; a place for +children to play in, and grown folks to rest and walk and take tea +in, if they choose; but for nobody to change or meddle with any +further. And these twenty houses to be let to respectable persons of +small means, at rents that will give him seven per cent, for his +whole outlay. Don't you see? Young people, and people like Miss +Waite herself, who don't want <i>much</i> house-room, but who want it +nice and comfortable, and will keep it so, and who <i>do</i> want a +little of God's world-room to grow in, that they can't get in the +crowded town streets, where the land is selling by the foot to be +all built over with human packing-cases, and where they have to pay +as much for being shut up and smothered, as they will out here to +live and breathe. That Mr. Geoffrey is a glorious man, Rosamond! He +is doing just this same thing in the edges of three or four other +towns, buying up the land just before it gets too dear, to save for +people who could not save it for themselves. He is providing for a +class that nobody seems to have thought of,—the nice, narrow-pursed +people, and the young beginners, who get married and take the world +in the old-fashioned way." +</p> +<p> +He had no idea he had called her "Rosamond," till he saw the color +shining up so in her face verifying the name. Then it flashed out +upon him as he sent his thought back through the last few sentences +that he had spoken. +</p> +<p> +"I beg your pardon," he said, suddenly. "But I was so full of this +beautiful doing,—and I always think of you so! Is there a sin in +that?" +</p> +<p> +Rosamond colored deeper yet, and Kenneth grew more bold. He had +spoken it without plan; it had come of itself. +</p> +<p> +"I can't help it now. I shall say it again, unless you tell me not! +Rosamond! I shall have these houses to build. I am getting ever so +much to do. Could you begin the world with me, Rosamond?" +</p> +<p> +Rosamond did not say a word for a full minute. She only walked +slowly by his side, her beautiful head inclined gently, shyly; her +sweet face all one bloom, as faces never bloom but once. +</p> +<p> +Then she turned toward him and put out her hand. +</p> +<p> +"I will begin the world with you," she said. +</p> +<p> +And their world—that was begun for them before they were +born—lifted up its veil and showed itself to them, bright in the +eternal morning. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +Desire Ledwith walked home all alone. She left Dorris at Miss +Waite's, and Helena had teased to stay with her. Mrs. Ledwith had +gone home among the first, taking a seat offered her in Mrs. Tom +Friske's carriage to East Square; she had a headache, and was tired. +</p> +<p> +Desire felt the old, miserable questions coming up, tempting her. +</p> +<p> +Why? +</p> +<p> +Why was she left out,—forgotten? Why was there nothing, very much, +in any of this, for her? +</p> +<p> +Yet underneath the doubting and accusing, something lived—stayed +by—to rebuke it; rose up above it finally, and put it down, though +with a thrust that hurt the heart in which the doubt was trampled. +</p> +<p> +Wait. Wait—with all your might! +</p> +<p> +Desire could do nothing very meekly; but she could even <i>wait</i> with +all her might. She put her foot down with a will, at every step. +</p> +<p> +"I was put here to be Desire Ledwith," she said, relentlessly, to +herself; "not Rosamond Holabird, nor even Dolly. Well, I suppose I +can stay put, and <i>be</i>! If things would only <i>let</i> me be!" +</p> +<p> +But they will not. Things never do, Desire. +</p> +<p> +They are coming, now, upon you. Hard things,—and all at once. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0018"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XVIII. +</h2> +<h3> + ALL AT ONCE. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +There was a Monday morning train going down from Z——. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Ledwith and Kenneth Kincaid were in it, reading the morning +papers, seated side by side. +</p> +<p> +It was nearly a week since the picnic, but the engagement of +Rosamond and Kenneth had not transpired. Mr. Holabird had been away +in New York. Of course nothing was said beyond Mrs. Holabird and +Ruth and Dolly Kincaid, until his return. But Kenneth carried a +happy face about with him, in the streets and in the cars and about +his work; and his speech was quick and bright with the men he met +and had need to speak to. It almost told itself; people might have +guessed it, if they had happened, at least to see the <i>two</i> faces in +the same day, and if they were alive to sympathetic impressions of +other people's pain or joy. There are not many who stop to piece +expressions, from pure sympathy, however; they are, for the most +part, too busy putting this and that together for themselves. +</p> +<p> +Desire would have guessed it in a minute; but she saw little of +either in this week. Mrs. Ledwith was not well, and there was a +dress to be made for Helena. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid's elder men friends said of him, when they saw him +in these days, "That's a fine fellow; he is doing very well." They +could read that; he carried it in his eye and in his tone and in his +step, and it was true. +</p> +<p> +It was a hot morning; it would be a stifling day in the city. They +sat quiet while they could, in the cars, taking the fresh air of the +fields and the sea reaches, reading the French news, and saying +little. +</p> +<p> +They came almost in to the city terminus, when the train stopped. +Not at a station. There were people to alight at the last but one; +these grew impatient after a few minutes, and got out and walked. +</p> +<p> +The train still waited. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Ledwith finished a column he was reading, and then looked up, as +the conductor came along the passage. +</p> +<p> +"What is the delay?" he asked of him. +</p> +<p> +"Freight. Got such a lot of it. Takes a good while to handle." +</p> +<p> +Freight outward bound. A train making up. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Ledwith turned to his newspaper again. +</p> +<p> +Ten minutes went by. Kenneth Kincaid got up and went out, like many +others. They might be kept there half an hour. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Ledwith had read all his paper, and began to grow impatient. He +put his head out at the window, and looked and listened. Half the +passengers were outside. Brake-men were walking up and down. +</p> +<p> +"Has he got a flag out there?" says the conductor to one of these. +</p> +<p> +"Don't know. Can't see. Yes, he has; I heard him whistle brakes." +</p> +<p> +Just then, their own bell sounded, and men jumped on board. Kenneth +Kincaid came back to his seat. +</p> +<p> +Behind, there was a long New York train coming in. +</p> +<p> +Mr. Ledwith put his head out again, and looked back. All right; +there had been a flag; the train had slackened just beyond a curve. +</p> +<p> +But why will people do such things? What is the use of asking? Mr. +Ledwith still looked out; he could not have told you why. +</p> +<p> +A quicker motion; a darkening of the window; a freight car standing +upon a siding, close to the switch, as they passed by; a sudden, +dull blow, half unheard in the rumble of the train. Women, sitting +behind, sprang up,—screamed; one dropped, fainting: they had seen a +ghastly sight; warm drops of blood flew in upon them; the car was in +commotion. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid, with an exclamation of horror, clutched hold of a +lifeless body that fell—was thrust—backward beside him; the poor +head fractured, shattered, against the fatal window frame. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +The eleven o'clock train came out. +</p> +<p> +People came up the street,—a group of gentlemen, three or +four,—toward Mr. Prendible's house. +</p> +<p> +Desire sat in a back window behind the blinds, busy. Mrs. Ledwith +was lying on the bed. +</p> +<p> +Steps came in at the house door. +</p> +<p> +There was an exclamation; a hush. Mr. Prendible's voice, Kenneth +Kincaid's, Mr. Dimsey's, the minister's. +</p> +<p> +"O! How? "—Mrs. Prendible's voice, now. +</p> +<p> +"Take care!" +</p> +<p> +"Where are they?" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith heard. +</p> +<p> +"What is the matter?"—springing up, with a sudden instinct of +precognition. +</p> +<p> +Desire had not seen or heard till now. She dropped her work. +</p> +<p> +"What is it, mother?" +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith was up, upon the floor; in the doorway out in the +passage; trembling; seized all over with a horrible dread and vague +knowledge. +</p> +<p> +"<i>Tell</i> me what it is!" she cried, to those down below. +</p> +<p> +They were all there upon the staircase; Mrs. Prendible furthest up. +</p> +<p> +"O, Mrs. Ledwith!" she cried. "<i>Don't</i> be frightened! <i>Don't</i> take +on! Take it easy,—do!" +</p> +<p> +Desire rushed down among them; past Mrs. Prendible, past the +minister, straight to Kenneth Kincaid. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth took her right in his arms, and carried her into a little +room below. +</p> +<p> +"There could have been no pain," he said, tenderly. "It was the +accident of a moment. Be strong,—be patient, dear!" +</p> +<p> +There had been tender words natural to his lips lately. It was not +strange that in his great pity he used them now. +</p> +<p> +"My father!" gasped Desire. +</p> +<p> +"Yes; your father. It was our Father's will." +</p> +<p> +"Help me to go to my mother!" +</p> +<p> +She took his hand, half blind, almost reeling. +</p> +<p> +And then they all, somehow, found themselves up-stairs. +</p> +<p> +There were moans of pain; there were words of prayer. We have no +right there. It is all told. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +"Be strong,—be patient, dear!" +</p> +<p> +It came back, in the midst of the darkness, the misery; it helped +her through those days; it made her strong for her mother. It +comforted her, she hardly knew how much; but O, how cruel it seemed +afterward! +</p> +<p> +They went directly down to Boston. Mr. Ledwith was buried from their +own house. It was all over; and now, what should they do? Uncle +Titus came to see them. Mrs. Ripwinkley came right back from +Homesworth. Dorris Kincaid left her summer-time all behind, and +came to stay with them a week in Shubarton Place. Mrs. Ledwith +craved companionship; her elder daughters were away; there were +these five weeks to go by until she could hear from them. She would +not read their letters that came now, full of chat and travel. +</p> +<p> +Poor Laura! her family scattered; her dependence gone; her life all +broken down in a moment! +</p> +<p> +Dorris Kincaid did not speak of Kenneth and Rosamond. How could she +bring news of others' gladness into that dim and sorrowful house? +</p> +<p> +Luclarion Grapp shut up her rooms, left her plants and her birds +with Mrs. Gallilee, and came up to Shubarton Place in the beginning. +There were no servants there; everything was adrift; the terrible +blows of life take people between the harness, most unprovided, +unawares. +</p> +<p> +It was only for a little while, until they could hear from the +girls, and make plans. Grant Ledwith's income died with him; there +was ten thousand dollars, life insurance; that would give them a +little more than a sixth part of what his salary had been; and there +were the two thousand a year of Uncle Titus; and the house, on which +there was a twelve thousand dollar mortgage. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith had spent her life in cutting and turning and planning; +after the first shock was over, even her grief was counterpoised and +abated, by the absorption of her thoughts into the old channels. +What they should do, how they should live, what they could have; how +it should be contrived and arranged. Her mind busied itself with all +this, and her trouble was veiled,—softened. She had a dozen +different visions and schemes, projected into their details of +residence, establishment, dress, ordering,—before the letters +came, bringing back the first terribleness in the first reception of +and response to it, of her elder children. +</p> +<p> +It was so awful to have them away,—on the other side of the world! +If they were only once all together again! Families ought not to +separate. But then, it had been for their good; how could she have +imagined? She supposed she should have done the same again, under +the same circumstances. +</p> +<p> +And then came Mrs. Megilp's letter, delayed a mail, as she would +have delayed entering the room, if they had been rejoined in their +grief, until the family had first been gathered together with their +tears and their embraces. +</p> +<p> +Then she wrote,—as she would have come in; and her letter, as +her visit would have been, was after a few words of tender +condolence,—and they were very sweet and tender, for Mrs. Megilp +knew how to lay phrases like illuminating gold-leaf upon her +meaning,—eminently practical and friendly, full of judicious, not +to say mitigating, suggestions. +</p> +<p> +It was well, she thought, that Agatha and Florence were with her. +They had been spared so much; and perhaps if all this had happened +first, they might never have come. As to their return, she thought +it would be a pity; "it could not make it really any better for +you," she said; "and while your plans are unsettled, the fewer you +are, the more easily you will manage. It seems hard to shadow their +young lives more than is inevitable; and new scenes and interests +are the very best things for them; their year of mourning would be +fairly blotted out at home, you know. For yourself, poor friend, of +course you cannot care; and Desire and Helena are not much come +forward, but it would be a dead blank and stop to them, so much +lost, right out; and I feel as if it were a kind Providence for the +dear girls that they should be just where they are. We are living +quietly, inexpensively; it will cost no more to come home at one +time than at another;" etc. +</p> +<p> +There are persons to whom the pastime of life is the whole business +of it; sickness and death and misfortune,—to say nothing of cares +and duties—are the interruptions, to be got rid of as they may. +</p> +<p> +The next week came more letters; they had got a new idea out there. +Why should not Mrs. Ledwith and the others come and join them? They +were in Munich, now; the schools were splendid; would be just the +thing for Helena; and "it was time for mamma to have a rest." +</p> +<p> +This thought, among the dozen others, had had its turn in Mrs. +Ledwith's head. To break away, and leave everything, that is the +impulse of natures like hers when things go hard and they cannot +shape them. Only to get off; if she could do that! +</p> +<p> +Meanwhile, it was far different with Desire. +</p> +<p> +She was suffering with a deeper pain; not with a sharper loss, for +she had seen so little of her father; but she looked in and back, +and thought of what she <i>ought</i> to miss, and what had never been. +</p> +<p> +She ought to have known her father better; his life ought to have +been more to her; was it her fault, or, harder yet, had it been his? +This is the sorest thrust of grief; when it is only shock, and pity, +and horror, and after these go by, not grief enough! +</p> +<p> +The child wrestled with herself, as she always did, questioning, +arraigning. If she could make it all right, in the past, and now; if +she could feel that all she had to do was to be tenderly sorry, and +to love on through the darkness, she would not mind the dark; it +would be only a phase of the life,—the love. But to have lived her +life so far, to have had the relations of it, and yet <i>not</i> to have +lived it, not to have been real child, real sister, not to be real +stricken daughter now, tasting the suffering just as God made it to +be tasted,—was she going through all things, even this, in a vain +shadow? <i>Would</i> not life touch her? +</p> +<p> +She went away back, strangely, and asked whether she had had any +business to be born? Whether it were a piece of God's truth at all, +that she and all of them should be, and call themselves a +household,—a home? The depth, the beauty of it were so unfulfilled! +What was wrong, and how far back? Living in the midst of +superficialities; in the noontide of a day of shams; putting her +hands forth and grasping, almost everywhere, nothing but thin, hard +surface,—she wondered how much of the world was real; how many came +into the world where, and as, God meant them to come. What it was to +"climb up some other way into the sheepfold," and to be a thief and +a robber, even of life! +</p> +<p> +These were strange thoughts. Desire Ledwith was a strange girl. +</p> +<p> +But into the midst there crept one comfort; there was one glimpse +out of the darkness into the daylight. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth Kincaid came in often to see them,—to inquire; just now he +had frequent business in the city; he brought ferns and flowers, +that Dorris gathered and filled into baskets, fresh and damp with +moss. +</p> +<p> +Dorris was a dear friend; she dwelt in the life and the brightness; +she reached forth and gathered, and turned and ministered again. The +ferns and flowers were messages; leaves out of God's living Word, +that she read, found precious, and sent on; apparitions, they +seemed standing forth to sense, and making sweet, true signs from +the inner realm of everlasting love and glory. +</p> +<p> +And Kenneth,—Desire had never lost out of her heart those +words,—"Be strong,—be patient, dear!" +</p> +<p> +He did not speak to her of himself; he could not demand +congratulation from her grief; he let it be until she should somehow +learn, and of her own accord, speak to him. +</p> +<p> +So everybody let her alone, poor child, to her hurt. +</p> +<p> +The news of the engagement was no Boston news; it was something that +had occurred, quietly enough, among a few people away up in Z——. +Of the persons who came in,—the few remaining in town,—nobody +happened to know or care. The Ripwinkleys did, of course; but Mrs. +Ripwinkley remembered last winter, and things she had read in +Desire's unconscious, undisguising face, and aware of nothing that +could be deepening the mischief now, thinking only of the sufficient +burden the poor child had to bear, thought kindly, "better not." +</p> +<p> +Meanwhile Mrs. Ledwith was dwelling more and more upon the European +plan. She made up her mind, at last, to ask Uncle Titus. When all +was well, she would not seem to break a compact by going away +altogether, so soon, to leave him; but now,—he would see the +difference; perhaps advise it. She would like to know what he would +advise. After all that had happened,—everything so changed,—half +her family abroad,—what could she do? Would it not be more prudent +to join them, than to set up a home again without them, and keep +them out there? And all Helena's education to provide for, and +everything so cheap and easy there, and so dear and difficult here? +</p> +<p> +"Now, tell me, truly, uncle, should you object? Should you take it +at all hard? I never meant to have left you, after all you have +done; but you see I have to break up, now poor Grant is gone; we +cannot live as we did before, even with what you do; and—for a +little while—it is cheaper there; and by and by we can come back +and make some other plan. Besides, I feel sometimes as if I <i>must</i> +go off; as if there weren't anything left here for me." +</p> +<p> +Poor woman! poor <i>girl</i>, still,—whose life had never truly taken +root! +</p> +<p> +"I suppose," said Uncle Titus, soberly, "that God shines all round. +He's on this side as much as He is on that." +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith looked up out of her handkerchief, with which at that +moment she had covered her eyes. +</p> +<p> +"I never knew Uncle Titus was pious!" she said to herself. And her +astonishment dried her tears. +</p> +<p> +He said nothing more that was pious, however; he simply assured her, +then and in conversations afterward, that he should take nothing +"hard;" he never expected to bind her, or put her on parole; he +chose to come to know his relatives, and he had done so; he had also +done what seemed to him right, in return for their meeting him half +way; they were welcome to it all, to take it and use it as they best +could, and as circumstances and their own judgment dictated. If they +went abroad, he should advise them to do it before the winter. +</p> +<p> +These words implied consent, approval. Mrs. Ledwith went up-stairs +after them with a heart so much lightened that she was very nearly +cheerful. There would be a good deal to do now, and something to +look forward to; the old pulses of activity were quickened. She +could live with those faculties that had been always vital in her, +as people breathe with one live lung; but trouble and change had +wrought in her no deeper or further capacity; had wakened nothing +that had never been awake before. +</p> +<p> +The house and furniture were to be sold; they would sail in +September. +</p> +<p> +When Desire perceived that it was settled, she gave way; she had +said little before; her mother had had many plans, and they amused +her; she would not worry her with opposition; and besides, she was +herself in a secret dream of a hope half understood. +</p> +<p> +It happened that she told it to Kenneth Kincaid herself; she saw +almost every one who came, instead of her mother; Mrs. Ledwith lived +in her own room chiefly. This was the way in which it had come +about, that nobody noticed or guessed how it was with Desire, and +what aspect Kenneth's friendship and kindness, in the simple history +of those few weeks, might dangerously grow to bear with her. +</p> +<p> +Except one person. Luclarion Grapp, at last, made up her mind. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth heard what Desire told him, as he heard all she ever had to +tell, with a gentle interest; comforted her when she said she could +not bear to go, with the suggestion that it might not be for very +long; and when she looked up in his face with a kind of strange, +pained wonder, and repeated,— +</p> +<p> +"But I cannot <i>bear</i>,—I tell you, I cannot <i>bear</i> to go!" he +answered,— +</p> +<p> +"One can bear all that is right; and out of it the good will come +that we do not know. All times go by. I am sorry—very sorry—that +you must go; but there will be the coming back. We must all wait for +that." +</p> +<p> +She did not know what she looked for; she did not know what she +expected him to mean; she expected nothing; the thought of his +preventing it in any way never entered into her head; she knew, if +she <i>had</i> thought, how he himself was waiting, working. She only +wanted him to <i>care</i>. Was this caring? Much? She could not tell. +</p> +<p> +"We never can come <i>back</i>," she said, impetuously. "There will be +all the time—everything—between." +</p> +<p> +He almost spoke to her of it, then; he almost told her that the +everything might be more, not less; that friendships gathered, +multiplied; that there would be one home, he hoped, in which, by and +by, she would often be; in which she would always be a dear and +welcome comer. +</p> +<p> +But she was so sad, so tried; his lips were held; in his pure, +honest kindness, he never dreamt of any harm that his silence might +do; it only seemed so selfish to tell her how bright it was with +him. +</p> +<p> +So he said, smiling,— +</p> +<p> +"And who knows what the 'everything' may be?" And he took both her +hands in his as he said good-by,—for his little stops were of +minutes on his way, always,—and held them fast, and looked warmly, +hopefully into her face. +</p> +<p> +It was all for her,—to give her hope and courage; but the light of +it was partly kindled by his own hope and gladness that lay behind; +and how could she know that, or read it right? It was at once too +much, and not enough, for her. +</p> +<p> +Five minutes after, Luclarion Grapp went by the parlor door with a +pile of freshly ironed linen in her arms, on her way up-stairs. +</p> +<p> +Desire lay upon the sofa, her face down upon the pillow; her arms +were thrown up, and her hands clasped upon the sofa-arm; her frame +shook with sobs. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion paused for the time of half a step; then she went on. She +said to herself in a whisper, as she went,— +</p> +<p> +"It is a stump; a proper hard one! But there's nobody else; and I +have got to tell her!" +</p> +<hr> +<p> +That evening, under some pretense of clean towels, Luclarion came up +into Desire's room. +</p> +<p> +She was sitting alone, by the window, in the dark. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion fussed round a little; wiped the marble slab and the +basin; set things straight; came over and asked Desire if she should +not put up the window-bars, and light the gas. +</p> +<p> +"No," said Desire. "I like this best." +</p> +<p> +So did Luclarion. She had only said it to make time. +</p> +<p> +"Desire," she said,—she never put the "Miss" on, she had been too +familiar all her life with those she was familiar with at all,—"the +fact is I've got something to say, and I came up to say it." +</p> +<p> +She drew near—came close,—and laid her great, honest, faithful +hand on the back of Desire Ledwith's chair, put the other behind her +own waist, and leaned over her. +</p> +<p> +"You see, I'm a woman, Desire, and I know. You needn't mind me, I'm +an old maid; that's the way I do know. Married folks, even mothers, +half the time forget. But old maids never forget. I've had my +stumps, and I can see that you've got yourn. But you'd ought to +understand; and there's nobody, from one mistake and another, that's +going to tell you. It's awful hard; it will be a trouble to you at +first,"—and Luclarion's strong voice trembled tenderly with the +sympathy that her old maid heart had in it, after, and because of, +all those years,—"but Kenneth Kincaid"— +</p> +<p> +"<i>What!</i>" cried Desire, starting to her feet, with a sudden +indignation. +</p> +<p> +"Is going to be married to Rosamond Holabird," said Luclarion, very +gently. "There! you ought to know, and I have told you." +</p> +<p> +"What makes you suppose that that would be a trouble to me?" blazed +Desire. "How do you dare"— +</p> +<p> +"I didn't dare; but I had to!" sobbed Luclarion, putting her arms +right round her. +</p> +<p> +And then Desire—as she would have done at any rate, for that blaze +was the mere flash of her own shame and pain—broke down with a +moan. +</p> +<p> +"All at once! All at once!" she said piteously, and hid her face in +Luclarion's bosom. +</p> +<p> +And Luclarion folded her close; hugged her, the good woman, in her +love that was sisterly and motherly and all, because it was the love +of an old maid, who had endured, for a young maid upon whom the +endurance was just laid,—and said, with the pity of heaven in the +words,— +</p> +<p> +"Yes. All at once. But the dear Lord stands by. Take hold of His +hand,—and bear with all your might!" +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0019"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XIX. +</h2> +<h3> + INSIDE. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +"Do you think, Luclarion," said Desire, feebly, as Luclarion came to +take away her bowl of chicken broth,—"that it is my <i>duty</i> to go +with mamma?" +</p> +<p> +"I don't know," said Luclarion, standing with the little waiter in +her right hand, her elbow poised upon her hip,—"I've thought of +that, and I <i>don't</i> know. There's most generally a stump, you see, +one way or another, and that settles it, but here there's one both +ways. I've kinder lost my road: come to two blazes, and can't tell +which. Only, it ain't my road, after all. It lays between the Lord +and you, and I suppose He means it shall. Don't you worry; there'll +be some sort of a sign, inside or out. That's His business, you've +just got to keep still, and get well." +</p> +<p> +Desire had asked her mother, before this, if she would care very +much,—no, she did not mean that,—if she would be disappointed, or +disapprove, that she should stay behind. +</p> +<p> +"Stay behind? Not go to Europe? Why, where <i>could</i> you stay? What +would you do?" +</p> +<p> +"There would be things to do, and places to stay," Desire had +answered, constrainedly. "I could do like Dorris." +</p> +<p> +"Teach music!" +</p> +<p> +"No. I don't know music. But I might teach something I do know. Or I +could—rip," she said, with an odd smile, remembering something she +had said one day so long ago; the day the news came up to Z—— +from Uncle Oldways. "And I might make out to put together for other +people, and for a real business. I never cared to do it just for +myself." +</p> +<p> +"It is perfectly absurd," said Mrs Ledwith. "You couldn't be left to +take care of yourself. And if you could, how it would look! No; of +course you must go with us." +</p> +<p> +"But do you <i>care</i>?" +</p> +<p> +"Why, if there were any proper way, and if you really hate so to +go,—but there isn't," said Mrs. Ledwith, not very grammatically or +connectedly. +</p> +<p> +"She <i>doesn't</i> care," said Desire to herself, after her mother had +left her, turning her face to the pillow, upon which two tears ran +slowly down. "And that is my fault, too, I suppose. I have never +been <i>anything</i>!" +</p> +<p> +Lying there, she made up her mind to one thing. She would get Uncle +Titus to come, and she would talk to him. +</p> +<p> +"He won't encourage me in any notions," she said to herself. "And I +mean now, if I can find it out, to do the thing God means; and then +I suppose,—I <i>believe</i>,—the snarl will begin to unwind." +</p> +<p> +Meanwhile, Luclarion, when she had set a nice little bowl of +tea-muffins to rise, and had brought up a fresh pitcher of ice-water +into Desire's room, put on her bonnet and went over to Aspen Street +for an hour. +</p> +<p> +Down in the kitchen, at Mrs. Ripwinkley's, they were having a nice +time. +</p> +<p> +Their girl had gone. Since Luclarion left, they had fallen into that +Gulf-stream which nowadays runs through everybody's kitchen. Girls +came, and saw, and conquered in their fashion; they muddled up, and +went away. +</p> +<p> +The nice times were in the intervals when they <i>had</i> gone away. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley did not complain; it was only her end of the +"stump;" why should she expect to have a Luclarion Grapp to serve +her all her life? +</p> +<p> +This last girl had gone as soon as she found out that Sulie Praile +was "no relation, and didn't anyways belong there, but had been took +in." She "didn't go for to come to work in an <i>Insecution</i>. She had +always been used to first-class private families." +</p> +<p> +Girls will not stand any added numbers, voluntarily assumed, or even +involuntarily befalling; they will assist in taking up no new +responsibilities; to allow things to remain as they are, and cannot +help being, is the depth of their condescension,—the extent of what +they will put up with. There must be a family of some sort, of +course, or there would not be a "place;" that is what the family is +made for; but it must be established, no more to fluctuate; that is, +you may go away, some of you, if you like, or you may die; but +nobody must come home that has been away, and nobody must be born. +As to anybody being "took in!" Why, the girl defined it; it was not +being a family, but an <i>Insecution</i>. +</p> +<p> +So the three—Diana, and Hazel, and Sulie—were down in the kitchen; +Mrs. Ripwinkley was busy in the dining-room close by; there was a +berry-cake to be mixed up for an early tea. Diana was picking over +the berries, Hazel was chopping the butter into the flour, and Sulie +on a low cushioned seat in a corner—there was one kept ready for +her in every room in the house, and Hazel and Diana carried her +about in an "arm-chair," made of their own clasped hands and wrists, +wherever they all wanted to go,—Sulie was beating eggs. +</p> +<p> +Sulie did that so patiently; you see she had no temptation to jump +up and run off to anything else. The eggs turned, under her +fingers, into thick, creamy, golden froth, fine to the last possible +divisibility of the little air-bubbles. +</p> +<p> +They could not do without Sulie now. They had had her for "all +winter;" but in that winter she had grown into their home. +</p> +<p> +"Why," said Hazel to her mother, when they had the few words about +it that ended in there being no more words at all,—"that's the way +children are <i>born</i> into houses, isn't it? They just come; and +they're new and strange at first, and seem so queer. And then after +a while you can't think how the places were, and they not in them. +Sulie belongs, mother!" +</p> +<p> +So Sulie beat eggs, and darned stockings, and painted her lovely +little flower-panels and racks and easels, and did everything that +could be done, sitting still in her round chair, or in the cushioned +corners made for her; and was always in the kitchen, above all, when +any pretty little cookery was going forward. +</p> +<p> +Vash ran in and out from the garden, and brought balsamine blossoms, +from which she pulled the little fairy slippers, and tried to match +them in pairs; and she picked off the "used-up and puckered-up" +morning glories, which she blew into at the tube-end, and "snapped" +on the back of her little brown hand. +</p> +<p> +Wasn't that being good for anything, while berry-cake was making? +The girls thought it was; as much as the balsamine blossoms were +good for anything, or the brown butterflies with golden spots on +their wings, that came and lived among them. The brown butterflies +were a "piece of the garden;" little brown Vash was a piece of the +house. Besides, she would eat some of the berry-cake when it was +made; wasn't that worth while? She would have a "little teenty one" +baked all for herself in a tin pepper-pot cover. Isn't that the +special pleasantness of making cakes where little children are? +</p> +<p> +Vash was always ready for an "Aaron," too; they could not do without +her, any more than without Sulie. Pretty soon, when Diana should +have left school, and Vash should be a little bigger, they meant to +"coöperate," as the Holabirds had done at Westover. +</p> +<p> +Of course, they knew a great deal about the Holabirds by this time. +Hazel had stayed a week with Dorris at Miss Waite's; and one of +Witch Hazel's weeks among "real folks" was like the days or hours in +fairy land, that were years on the other side. She found out so much +and grew so close to people. +</p> +<p> +Hazel and Ruth Holabird were warm friends. And Hazel was to be +Ruth's bridesmaid, by and by! +</p> +<p> +For Ruth Holabird was going to be married to Dakie Thayne. +</p> +<p> +"That seemed so funny," Hazel said. "Ruth didn't <i>look</i> any older +than she did; and Mr. Dakie Thayne was such a nice boy!" +</p> +<p> +He was no less a man, either; he had graduated among the first three +at West Point; he was looking earnestly for the next thing that he +should do in life with his powers and responsibilities; he did not +count his marrying a <i>separate</i> thing; that had grown up alongside +and with the rest; of course he could do nothing without Ruth; that +was just what he had told her; and she,—well Ruth was always a +sensible little thing, and it was just as plain to her as it was to +him. Of course she must help him think and plan; and when the plans +were made, it would take two to carry them out; why, yes, they must +be married. What other way would there be? +</p> +<p> +That wasn't what she <i>said</i>, but that was the quietly natural and +happy way in which it grew to be a recognized thing in her mind, +that pleasant summer after he came straight home to them with his +honors and his lieutenant's commission in the Engineers; and his +hearty, affectionate taking-for-granted; and it was no surprise or +question with her, only a sure and very beautiful "rightness," when +it came openly about. +</p> +<p> +Dakie Thayne was a man; the beginning of a very noble one; but it is +the noblest men that always keep a something of the boy. If you had +not seen anything more of Dakie Thayne until he should be forty +years old, you would then see something in him which would be +precisely the same that it was at Outledge, seven years ago, with +Leslie Goldthwaite, and among the Holabirds at Westover, in his +first furlough from West Point. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion came into the Ripwinkley kitchen just as the cakes—the +little pepper-pot one and all—were going triumphantly into the +oven, and Hazel was baring her little round arms to wash the dishes, +while Diana tended the pans. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ripwinkley heard her old friend's voice, and came out. +</p> +<p> +"That girl ought to be here with you; or somewheres else than where +she is, or is likely to be took," said Luclarion, as she looked +round and sat down, and untied her bonnet-strings. +</p> +<p> +Miss Grapp hated bonnet-strings; she never endured them a minute +longer than she could help. +</p> +<p> +"Desire?" asked Mrs. Ripwinkley, easily comprehending. +</p> +<p> +"Yes; Desire. I tell you she has a hard row to hoe, and she wants +comforting. She wants to know if it is her duty to go to Yourup with +her mother. Now it may be her duty to be <i>willing</i> to go; but it +ain't anybody's else duty to let her. That's what came to me as I +was coming along. I couldn't tell <i>her</i> so, you see, because it +would interfere with her part; and that's all in the tune as much as +any; only we've got to chime in with our parts at the right stroke, +the Lord being Leader. Ain't that about it, Mrs. Ripwinkley?" +</p> +<p> +"If we are sure of the score, and can catch the sign," said Mrs. +Ripwinkley, thoughtfully. +</p> +<p> +"Well, I've sung mine; it's only one note; I may have to keep +hammering on it; that's according to how many repeats there are to +be. Mr. Oldways, he ought to know, for one. Amongst us, we have got +to lay our heads together, and work it out. She's a kind of an odd +chicken in that brood; and my belief is she's like the ugly duck +Hazel used to read about. But she ought to have a chance; if she's a +swan, she oughtn't to be trapesed off among the weeds and on the dry +ground. 'Tisn't even ducks she's hatched with; they don't take to +the same element." +</p> +<p> +"I'll speak to Uncle Titus, and I will think," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. +</p> +<p> +But before she did that, that same afternoon by the six o'clock +penny post, a little note went to Mr. Oldways:— +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + "D<small>EAR</small> U<small>NCLE</small> T<small>ITUS</small>,— +</p> +<p class="ltr"> + "I want to talk with you a little. If I were well, I should + come to see you in your study. Will you come up here, and see + me in my room? +</p> +<p class="signed"> + "Yours sincerely, D<small>ESIRE</small> L<small>EDWITH</small>." +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus liked that. It counted upon something in him which few +had the faith to count upon; which, truly he gave few people reason +to expect to find. +</p> +<p> +He put his hat directly on, took up his thick brown stick, and +trudged off, up Borden Street to Shubarton Place. +</p> +<p> +When Luclarion let him in, he told her with some careful emphasis, +that he had come to see Desire. +</p> +<p> +"Ask her if I shall come up," he said. "I'll wait down here." +</p> +<p> +Helena was practicing in the drawing-room. Mrs. Ledwith lay, half +asleep, upon a sofa. The doors into the hall were shut,—Luclarion +had looked to that, lest the playing should disturb Desire. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion was only gone three minutes. Then she came back, and led +Mr. Oldways up three flights of stairs. +</p> +<p> +"It's a long climb, clear from the door," she said. +</p> +<p> +"I can climb," said Mr. Oldways, curtly. +</p> +<p> +"I didn't expect it was going to stump <i>you</i>," said Luclarion, just +as short in her turn. "But I thought I'd be polite enough to mention +it." +</p> +<p> +There came a queer little chuckling wheeze from somewhere, like a +whispered imitation of the first few short pants of a steam-engine: +that was Uncle Titus, laughing to himself. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion looked down behind her, out of the corner of her eyes, as +she turned the landing. Uncle Titus's head was dropped between his +shoulders, and his shoulders were shaking up and down. But he kept +his big stick clutched by the middle, in one hand, and the other +just touched the rail as he went up. Uncle Titus was not out of +breath. Not he. He could laugh and climb. +</p> +<p> +Desire was sitting up for a little while, before going to bed again +for the night. There was a low gas-light burning by the +dressing-table, ready to turn up when the twilight should be gone; +and a street lamp, just lighted, shone across into the room. +Luclarion had been sitting with her, and her gray knitting-work lay +upon the chair that she offered when she had picked it up, to Mr. +Oldways. Then she went away and left them to their talk. +</p> +<p> +"Mrs. Ripwinkley has been spry about it," she said to herself, going +softly down the stairs. "But she always was spry." +</p> +<p> +"You're getting well, I hope," said Uncle Titus, seating himself, +after he had given Desire his hand. +</p> +<p> +"I suppose so," said Desire, quietly. "That was why I wanted to see +you. I want to know what I ought to do when I am well." +</p> +<p> +"How can I tell?" asked Uncle Titus, bluntly. +</p> +<p> +"Better than anybody I can ask. The rest are all too sympathizing. I +am afraid they would tell me as I wish they should." +</p> +<p> +"And I don't sympathize? Well, I don't think I do much. I haven't +been used to it." +</p> +<p> +"You have been used to think what was right; and I believe you would +tell me truly. I want to know whether I ought to go to Europe with +my mother." +</p> +<p> +"Why not? Doesn't she want you to go?"—and Uncle Titus was sharp +this time. +</p> +<p> +"I suppose so; that is, I suppose she expects I will. But I don't +know that I should be much except a hindrance to her. And I think I +could stay and do something here, in some way. Uncle Titus, I hate +the thought of going to Europe! Now, don't you suppose I ought to +go?" +</p> +<p> +"<i>Why</i> do you hate the thought of going to Europe?" asked Uncle +Titus, regarding her with keenness. +</p> +<p> +"Because I have never done anything real in all my life!" broke +forth Desire. "And this seems only plastering and patching what +can't be patched. I want to take hold of something. I don't want to +float round any more. What is there left of all we have ever tried +to do, all these years? Of all my poor father's work, what is there +to show for it now? It has all melted away as fast as it came, like +snow on pavements; and now his life has melted away; and I feel as +if we had never been anything real to each other! Uncle Titus, I +can't tell you <i>how</i> I feel!" +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus sat very still. His hat was in one hand, and both +together held his cane, planted on the floor between his feet. Over +hat and cane leaned his gray head, thoughtfully. If Desire could +have seen his eyes, she would have found in them an expression that +she had never supposed could be there at all. +</p> +<p> +She had not so much spoken <i>to</i> Uncle Titus, in these last words of +hers, as she had irresistibly spoken <i>out</i> that which was in her. +She wanted Uncle Titus's good common sense and sense of right to +help her decide; but the inward ache and doubt and want, out of +which grew her indecisions,—these showed themselves forth at that +moment simply because they must, with no expectation of a response +from him. It might have been a stone wall that she cried against; +she would have cried all the same. +</p> +<p> +Then it was over, and she was half ashamed, thinking it was of no +use, and he would not understand; perhaps that he would only set the +whole down to nerves and fidgets and contrariness, and give her no +common sense that she wanted, after all. +</p> +<p> +But Uncle Titus spoke, slowly; much as if he, too, were speaking out +involuntarily, without thought of his auditor. People do so speak, +when the deep things are stirred; they speak into the deep that +answereth unto itself,—the deep that reacheth through all souls, +and all living, whether souls feel into it and know of it or not. +</p> +<p> +"The real things are inside," he said. "The real world is the inside +world. <i>God</i> is not up, nor down, but in the <i>midst</i>." +</p> +<p> +Then he looked up at Desire. +</p> +<p> +"What is real of your life is living inside you now. That is +something. Look at it and see what it is." +</p> +<p> +"Discontent. Misery. Failure." +</p> +<p> +"<i>Sense</i> of failure. Well. Those are good things. The beginning of +better. Those are <i>live</i> things, at any rate." +</p> +<p> +Desire had never thought of that. +</p> +<p> +Now <i>she</i> sat still awhile. +</p> +<p> +Then she said,—"But we can't <i>be</i> much, without doing it. I suppose +we are put into a world of outsides for something." +</p> +<p> +"Yes. To find out what it means. That's the inside of it. And to +help make the outside agree with the in, so that it will be easier +for other people to find out. That is the 'kingdom come and will be +done, on earth as it is in heaven.' Heaven is the inside,—the truth +of things." +</p> +<p> +"Why, I never knew"—began Desire, astonished. She had almost +finished aloud, as her mother had done in her own mind. She never +knew that Uncle Oldways was "pious." +</p> +<p> +"Never knew that was what it meant? What else can it mean? What do +you suppose the resurrection was, or is?" +</p> +<p> +Desire answered with a yet larger look of wonder, only in the dim +light it could not be wholly seen. +</p> +<p> +"The raising up of the dead; Christ coming up out of the tomb." +</p> +<p> +"The coming out of the tomb was a small part of it; just what could +not help being, if the rest was. Jesus Christ rose out of dead +<i>things</i>, I take it, into these very real ones that we are talking +of, and so lived in them. The resurrection is a man's soul coming +alive to the soul of creation—God's soul. <i>That</i> is eternal life, +and what Jesus of Nazareth was born to show. Our coming to that is +our being 'raised with Him;' and it begins, or ought to, a long way +this side the tomb. If people would only read the New Testament, +expecting to get as much common sense and earnest there as they do +among the new lights and little 'progressive-thinkers' that are +trying to find it all out over again, they might spare these +gentlemen and themselves a great deal of their trouble." +</p> +<p> +The exclamation rose half-way to her lips again,—"I never knew you +thought like this. I never heard you talk of these things before!" +</p> +<p> +But she held it back, because she would not stop him by reminding +him that he <i>was</i> talking. It was just the truth that was saying +itself. She must let it say on, while it would. +</p> +<p> +"Un—" +</p> +<p> +She stopped there, at the first syllable. She would not even call +him "Uncle Titus" again, for fear of recalling him to himself, and +hushing him up. +</p> +<p> +"There is something—isn't there—about those who <i>attain</i> to that +resurrection; those who are <i>worthy</i>? I suppose there must be some +who are just born to this world, then, and never—'born again?'" +</p> +<p> +"It looks like it, sometimes; who can tell?" +</p> +<p> +"Uncle Oldways,"—it came out this time in her earnestness, and her +strong personal appeal,—"do you think there are some people—whole +families of people—who have no business in the reality of things +to be at all? Who are all a mistake in the world, and have nothing +to do with its meaning? I have got to feeling sometimes lately, as +if—<i>I</i>—had never had any business to be." +</p> +<p> +She spoke slowly—awe-fully. It was a strange speech for a girl in +her nineteenth year. But she was a girl in this nineteenth century, +also; and she had caught some of the thoughts and questions of it, +and mixed them up with her own doubts and unsatisfactions which they +could not answer. +</p> +<p> +"The world is full of mistakes; mistakes centuries long; but it is +full of salvation and setting to rights, also. 'The kingdom of +heaven is like leaven, which a woman hid in three measures of meal +till the whole was leavened.' You have been <i>allowed</i> to be, Desire +Ledwith. And so was the man that was born blind. And I think there +is a colon put into the sentence about him, where a comma was meant +to be." +</p> +<p> +Desire did not ask him, then, what he meant; but she turned to the +story after he had gone, and found this:— +</p> +<p> +"Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents, but that the works +of God should be manifest in him." +</p> +<p> +You can see, if you look also, where she took the colon out, and put +the comma in. +</p> +<p> +Were all the mistakes—the sins, even—for the very sake of the pure +blessedness and the more perfect knowledge of the setting right? +</p> +<p> +Desire began to think that Uncle Oldways' theology might help her. +</p> +<p> +What she said to him now was,— +</p> +<p> +"I want to do something. I should like to go and live with +Luclarion, I think, down there in Neighbor Street. I should like to +take hold of some other lives,—little children's, perhaps,"—and +here Desire's voice softened,—"that don't seem to have any business +to be, either, and see if I could help or straighten anything. Then +I feel is if I should know." +</p> +<p> +"Then—according to the Scripture—you <i>would</i> know. But—that's +undertaking a good deal. Luclarion Grapp has got there; but she has +been fifty-odd years upon the road. And she has been doing real +things all the time. That's what has brought her there. You can't +boss the world's hard jobs till you've been a journeyman at the easy +ones." +</p> +<p> +"And I've missed my apprenticeship!" said Desire, with changed voice +and face, falling back into her disheartenment again. +</p> +<p> +"No!" Uncle Oldways almost shouted. "Not if you come to the Master +who takes in the eleventh hour workers. And it isn't the eleventh +hour with you,—<i>child</i>!" +</p> +<p> +He dwelt on that word "child," reminding her of her short mistaking +and of the long retrieval. Her nineteen years and the forever and +ever contrasted themselves before her suddenly, in the light of +hope. +</p> +<p> +She turned sharply, though, to look at her duty. Her journeyman's +duty of easy things. +</p> +<p> +"Must I go to Europe with my mother?" she asked again, the +conversation coming round to just that with which it had begun. +</p> +<p> +"I'll talk with your mother," said Uncle Oldways, getting up and +looking into his hat, as a man always does when he thinks of putting +it on presently. "Good-night. I suppose you are tired enough now. +I'll come again and see you." +</p> +<p> +Desire stood up and gave him her hand. +</p> +<p> +"I thank you, Uncle Titus, with all my heart." +</p> +<p> +He did not answer her a word; but he knew she meant it. +</p> +<p> +He did not stop that night to see his niece. He went home, to think +it over. But as he walked down Borden Street, swinging his big +stick, he said to himself,— +</p> +<p> +"Next of kin! Old Marmaduke Wharne was right. But it takes more than +the Family Bible to tell you which it is!" +</p> +<p> +Two days after, he had a talk with Mrs. Ledwith which relieved both +their minds. +</p> +<p> +From the brown-and-apricot drawing-room,—from among the things +that stood for nothing now, and had never stood for home,—he went +straight up, without asking, and knocked at Desire's third-story +door. +</p> +<p> +"Come in!" she said, without a note of expectation in her voice. +</p> +<p> +She had had a dull morning. Helena had brought her a novel from +Loring's that she could not read. Novels, any more than life, cannot +be read with very much patience, unless they touch something besides +surface. Why do critics—some of them—make such short, smart +work,—such cheerful, confident despatch, nowadays, of a story with +religion in it, as if it were an abnormity,—a thing with sentence +of death in itself, like a calf born with two heads,—that needs not +their trouble, save to name it as it is? Why, that is, if religion +stand for the relation of things to spirit, which I suppose it +should? Somebody said that somebody had written a book made up of +"spiritual struggles and strawberry short-cake." That was bright and +funny; and it seemed to settle the matter; but, taking strawberry +short-cake representatively, what else is human experience on earth +made up of? And are novels to be pictures of human experience, or +not? +</p> +<p> +This has nothing to do with present matters, however, except that +Desire found nothing real in her novel, and so had flung it aside, +and was sitting rather listlessly with her crochet which she never +cared much for, when Uncle Oldways entered. +</p> +<p> +Her face brightened instantly as he came in. He sat down just where +he had sat the other night. Mr. Oldways had a fashion of finding the +same seat a second time when he had come in once; he was a man who +took up most things where he left them off, and this was an +unconscious sign of it. +</p> +<p> +"Your mother has decided to sell the house on the 23d, it seems," he +said. +</p> +<p> +"Yes; I have been out twice. I shall be able to go away by then; I +suppose that is all she has waited for." +</p> +<p> +"Do you think you could be contented to come and live with me?" +</p> +<p> +"Come and <i>live</i>?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes. And let your mother and Helena go to Europe." +</p> +<p> +"O, Uncle Oldways! I think I could <i>rest</i> there! But I don't want +only to rest, you know. I must do something. For myself, to begin +with. I have made up my mind not to depend upon my mother. Why +should I, any more than a boy? And I am sure I cannot depend on +anybody else." +</p> +<p> +These were Desire Ledwith's thanks; and Mr. Oldways liked them. She +did not say it to please him; she thought it seemed almost +ungrateful and unwilling; but she was so intent on taking up life +for herself. +</p> +<p> +"You must have a place to do in,—or from," said Mr. Oldways. "And +it is better you should be under some protection. You must consent +to that for your mother's sake. How much money have you got?" +</p> +<p> +"Two hundred and fifty dollars a year. Of my own." +</p> +<p> +This was coming to business and calculation and common sense. Desire +was encouraged. Uncle Oldways did not think her quite absurd. +</p> +<p> +"That will clothe you,—without much fuss and feathers?" +</p> +<p> +"I have done with fuss and feathers,"—Desire said with a grave +smile, glancing at her plain white wrapper and the black shawl that +was folded around her. +</p> +<p> +"Then come where is room for you and a welcome, and do as much more +as you please, and can, for yourself, or for anybody else. I won't +give you a cent; you shall have something to do for me, if you +choose. I am an old man now, and want help. Perhaps what I want as +much as anything is what I've been all my life till lately, pretty +obstinate in doing without." +</p> +<p> +Uncle Oldways spoke short, and drew his breath in and puffed it out +between his sentences, in his bluff way; but his eyes were kind, as +he sat looking at the young girl over his hat and cane. +</p> +<p> +She thought of the still, gray parlor; of Rachel Froke and her face +of peace; and the Quaker meeting and the crumbs last year; of Uncle +Oldways' study, and his shelves rich with books; of the new +understanding that had begun between herself and him, and the faith +she had found out, down beneath his hard reserves; of the beautiful +neighborhood, Miss Craydocke's Beehive, Aunt Franks' cheery home and +the ways of it, and Hazel's runnings in and out. It seemed as if the +real things had opened for her, and a place been made among them in +which she should have "business to be," and from which her life +might make a new setting forth. +</p> +<p> +"And mamma knows?" she said, inquiringly, after that long pause. +</p> +<p> +"Yes. I told you I would talk with her. That is what we came to. It +is only for you to say, now." +</p> +<p> +"I will come. I shall be glad to come!" And her face was full of +light as she looked up and said it. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +Desire never thought for a moment of what her mother could not help +thinking of; of what Mrs. Megilp thought and said, instantly, when +she learned it three weeks later. +</p> +<p> +It is wonderful how abiding influence is,—even influence to which +we are secretly superior,—if ever we have been subjected to, or +allowed ourselves to be swayed by it. The veriest tyranny of +discipline grows into one's conscience, until years after, when life +has got beyond the tyranny, conscience,—or something superinduced +upon it,—keeps up the echo of the old mandates, and one can take no +comfort in doing what one knows all the time one has a perfect +right, besides sound reason, to do. It was a great while before our +grandmothers' daughters could peaceably stitch and overcast a seam, +instead of over-sewing and felling it. I know women who feel to this +moment as if to sit down and read a book of a week-day, in the +daytime, were playing truant to the needle, though all the +sewing-machines on the one hand, and all the demand and supply of +mental culture on the other, of this present changed and bettered +time, protest together against the absurdity. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith had heard the Megilp precepts and the Megilp +forth-putting of things, until involuntarily everything showed +itself to her in a Megilp light. The Megilp "sense of duty," +therefore, came up as she unhesitatingly assented to Uncle Oldways' +proposal and request. He wanted Desire; of course she could not say +a word; she owed him something, which she was glad she could so make +up; and secretly there whispered in her mind the suggestion which +Mrs. Megilp, on the other side of the water, spoke right out. +</p> +<p> +"If he wants her, he must mean something by her. He is an old man; +he might not live to give her back into her mother's keeping; what +would she do there, in that old house of his, if he should die, +unless—he <i>does</i> mean something? He has taken a fancy to her; she +is odd, as he is; and he isn't so queer after all, but that his +crotchets have a good, straightforward sense of justice in them. +Uncle Titus knows what he is about; and what's more, just what he +ought to be about. It is a good thing to have Desire provided for; +she is uncomfortable and full of notions, and she isn't likely ever +to be married." +</p> +<p> +So Desire was given up, easily, she could not help feeling; but she +knew she had been a puzzle and a vexation to her mother, and that +Mrs. Ledwith had never had the least idea what to do with her; least +of all had she now, what she should do with her abroad. +</p> +<p> +"It was so much better for her that Uncle Titus had taken her home." +With these last words Mrs. Ledwith reassured herself and cheered her +child. +</p> +<p> +Perhaps it would have been the same—it came into Desire's head, +that would conceive strange things—if the angels had taken her. +</p> +<p> +Mrs. Ledwith went to New York; she stayed a few days with Mrs. +Macmichael, who wanted her to buy lace for her in Brussels and +Bohemian glass in Prague; then a few days more with her cousin, +Geraldine Raxley; and then the <i>City of Antwerp</i> sailed. +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0020"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XX. +</h2> +<h3> + NEIGHBORS AND NEXT OF KIN. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +"I'll tell you what to do with them, Luclarion," said Hazel briskly. +"Teach them to play." +</p> +<p> +"Music! Pianners!" exclaimed Luclarion, dismayed. +</p> +<p> +"No. Games. Teach them to have good times. That was the first thing +ever we learnt, wasn't it, Dine? And we never could have got along +without it." +</p> +<p> +"It takes <i>you</i>!" said Luclarion, looking at Hazel with delighted +admiration. +</p> +<p> +"Does it? Well I don't know but it does. May I go, mother? +Luclarion, haven't you got a great big empty room up at the top of +the house?" +</p> +<p> +Luclarion had. +</p> +<p> +"That's just what it's for, then. Couldn't Mr. Gallilee put up a +swing? And a 'flying circle' in the middle? You see they can't go +out on the roofs; so they must have something else that will seem +kind of flighty. And <i>I'll</i> tell you how they'll learn their +letters. Sulie and I will paint 'em; great big ones, all colors; and +hang 'em up with ribbons, and every child that learns one, so as to +know it everywhere, shall take it down and carry it home. Then we +will have marbles for numbers; and they shall play addition games, +and multiplication games, and get the sums for prizes; the ones that +get to the head, you know. Why, you don't understand <i>objects</i>, +Luclarion!" +</p> +<p> +Luclarion had been telling them of the wild little folk of Neighbor +Street, and worse, of Arctic Street. She wanted to do something with +them. She had tried to get them in with gingerbread and popcorn; +they came in fast enough for those; but they would not stay. They +were digging in the gutters and calling names; learning the foul +language of the places into which they were born; chasing and hiding +in alley-ways; filching, if they could, from shops; going off +begging with lies on their lips. It was terrible to see the springs +from which the life of the city depths was fed. +</p> +<p> +"If you could stop it <i>there</i>!" Luclarion said, and said with +reason. +</p> +<p> +"Will you let me go?" asked Hazel of her mother, in good earnest. +</p> +<p> +"'Twon't hurt her," put in Luclarion. "Nothing's catching that you +haven't got the seeds of in your own constitution. And so the +catching will be the other way." +</p> +<p> +The seeds of good,—to catch good; that was what Luclarion Grapp +believed in, in those dirty little souls,—no, those clean little +<i>souls</i>, overlaid with all outward mire and filth of body, clothing, +speech, and atmosphere, for a mile about; through which they could +no more grope and penetrate, to reach their own that was hidden from +them in the clearer life beyond, than we can grope and reach to +other stars. +</p> +<p> +"I will get Desire," quoth Hazel, inspired as she always was, both +ways. +</p> +<p> +Running in at the house in Greenley Street the next Thursday, she +ran against Uncle Titus coming out. +</p> +<p> +"What now?" he demanded. +</p> +<p> +"Desire," said Hazel. "I've come for her. We're wanted at +Luclarion's. We've got work to do." +</p> +<p> +"Humph! Work? What kind?" +</p> +<p> +"Play," said Hazel, laughing. She delighted to bother and mystify +Uncle Titus, and imagined that she did. +</p> +<p> +"I thought so. Tea parties?" +</p> +<p> +"Something like," said Hazel. "There are children down there that +don't know how to grow up. They haven't any comfortable sort of +fashion of growing up. Somebody has got to teach them. They don't +know how to play 'Grand Mufti,' and they never heard of 'King George +and his troops.' Luclarion tried to make them sit still and learn +letters; but of course they wouldn't a minute longer than the +gingerbread lasted, and they are eating her out of house and home. +It will take young folks, and week-days, you see; so Desire and I +are going." And Hazel ran up the great, flat-stepped staircase. +</p> +<p> +"Lives that have no business to be," said Uncle Titus to himself, +going down the brick walk. "The Lord has His own ways of bringing +lives together. And His own business gets worked out among them, +beyond their guessing. When a man grows old, he can stand still now +and then, and see a little." +</p> +<p> +It was a short cross street that Luclarion lived in, between two +great thoroughfares crowded with life and business, bustle, +drudgery, idleness, and vice. You will not find the name I give +it,—although you may find one that will remind you of it,—in any +directory or on any city map. But you can find the places without +the names; and if you go down there with the like errands in your +heart, you will find the work, as she found it, to do. +</p> +<p> +She heard the noise of street brawls at night, voices of men and +women quarreling in alley-ways, and up in wretched garrets; flinging +up at each other, in horrible words, all the evil they knew of in +each other's lives,—"away back," Luclarion said, "to when they were +little children." +</p> +<p> +"And what is it," she would say to Mrs. Ripwinkley telling her +about it, "that <i>flings</i> it up, and can call it a shame, after all +the shames of years and years? Except just <i>that</i> that the little +children <i>were</i>, underneath, when the Lord let them—He knows +why—be born so? I tell you, ma'am, it's a mystery; and the nigher +you come to it, the more it is; it's a piece of hell and a piece of +heaven; it's the wrastle of the angel and the dragon; and it's going +on at one end, while they're building up their palaces and living +soft and sweet and clean at the other, with everything hushed up +that can't at least <i>seem</i> right and nice and proper. I know there's +good folks there, in the palaces; <i>beautiful</i> folks; there, and all +the way down between; with God's love in them, and His hate, that is +holy, against sin; and His pity, that is <i>prayers</i> in them, for all +people and places that are dark; but if they would <i>come down</i> +there, and take hold! I think it's them that would, that might have +part in the first resurrection, and live and reign the thousand +years." +</p> +<p> +Luclarion never counted herself among them,—those who were to have +thrones and judgments; she forgot, even, that she had gone down and +taken hold; her words came burning-true, out of her soul; and in the +heat of truth they were eloquent. +</p> +<p> +But I meant to tell you of her living. +</p> +<p> +In the daytime it was quiet; the gross evils crept away and hid from +the sunshine; there was labor to take up the hours, for those who +did labor; and you might not know or guess, to go down those +avenues, that anything worse gathered there than the dust of the +world's traffic that the lumbering drays ground up continually with +their wheels, and the wind,—that came into the city from far away +country places of green sweetness, and over hills and ponds and +streams and woods,—flung into the little children's faces. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion had taken a house,—one of two, that fronted upon a +little planked court; aside, somewhat, from Neighbor Street, as that +was a slight remove from the absolute terrible contact of Arctic +Street. But it was in the heart of that miserable quarter; she could +reach out her hands and touch and gather in, if it would let her, +the wretchedness. She had chosen a place where it was possible for +her to make a nook of refuge, not for herself only, or so much, as +for those to whom she would fain be neighbor, and help to a better +living. +</p> +<p> +It had been once a dwelling of some well-to-do family of the days +gone by; of some merchant, whose ventures went out and came in at +those wharves below, whence the air swept up pure, then, with its +salt smell, into the streets. The rooms were fairly large; Luclarion +spent money out of her own little property, that had been growing by +care and saving till she could spare from it, in doing her share +toward having it all made as sweet and clean as mortar and whitewash +and new pine-boards and paint and paper could make it. All that was +left of the old, they scoured with carbolic soap; and she had the +windows opened, and in the chimneys that had been swept of their +soot she had clear fires made and kept burning for days. +</p> +<p> +Then she put her new, plain furnishings into her own two down-stairs +rooms; and the Gallilees brought in theirs above; and beside them, +she found two decent families,—a German paper-hanger's, and that of +a carpenter at one of the theatres, whose wife worked at +dressmaking,—to take the rest. Away up, at the very top, she had +the wide, large room that Hazel spoke of, and a smaller one to which +she climbed to sleep, for the sake of air as near heaven as it could +be got. +</p> +<p> +One of her lower-rooms was her living and housekeeping room; the +other she turned into a little shop, in which she sold tapes and +needles and cheap calicoes and a few ribbons; and kept a counter on +the opposite side for bread and yeast, gingerbread, candy, and the +like. She did this partly because she must do something to help out +the money for her living and her plans, and partly to draw the women +and children in. How else could she establish any relations between +herself and them, or get any permanent hold or access? She had +"turned it all over in her mind," she said; "and a tidy little shop +with fair, easy prices, was the very thing, and a part of just what +she came down there to do." +</p> +<p> +She made real, honest, hop-raised bread, of sweet flour that she +gave ten dollars a barrel for; it took a little more than a pint, +perhaps, to make a tea loaf; that cost her three cents; she sold her +loaf for four, and it was better than they could get anywhere else +for five. Then, three evenings in a week, she had hot muffins, or +crumpets, home-made; (it was the subtle home touch and flavor that +she counted on, to carry more than a good taste into their mouths, +even a dim notion of home sweetness and comfort into their hearts;) +these first,—a quart of flour at five cents, two eggs at a cent +apiece, and a bit of butter, say three cents more, with three cents +worth of milk, made an outlay of fifteen cents for a dozen and a +half; so she sold them for ten cents a dozen, and the like had never +been tasted or dreamed of in all that region round about; no, nor I +dare almost to say, in half the region round about Republic Avenue +either, where they cannot get Luclarion Grapps to cook. +</p> +<p> +The crumpets were cheaper; they were only bread-sponge, baked on a +griddle; they were large, and light and tender; a quart of flour +would make ten; she gave the ten for seven cents. +</p> +<p> +And do you see, putting two cents on every quart of her flour, for +her labor, she <i>earned</i>, not <i>made</i>,—that word is for speculators +and brokers,—with a barrel of one hundred and ninety six pounds or +quarts, three dollars and ninety-two cents? The beauty of it was, +you perceive, that she did a small business; there was an eager +market for all she could produce, and there was no waste to allow a +margin for. +</p> +<p> +I am not a bit of a political economist myself; but I have a shrewd +suspicion that Luclarion Grapp was, besides having hit upon the +initial, individual idea of a capital social and philanthropic +enterprise. +</p> +<p> +This was all she tried to do at first; she began with bread; the +Lord from heaven began with that; she fed as much of the multitude +as she could reach; they gathered about her for the loaves; and they +got, consciously or unconsciously, more than they came or asked for. +</p> +<p> +They saw her clean-swept floor; her netted windows that kept the +flies out, the clean, coarse white cotton shades,—tacked up, and +rolled and tied with cord, country-fashion, for Luclarion would not +set any fashions that her poor neighbors might not follow if they +would;—and her shelves kept always dusted down; they could see her +way of doing that, as they happened in at different times, when she +whisked about, lightly and nicely, behind and between her jars and +boxes and parcels with the little feather duster that she kept +hanging over her table where she made her change and sat at her +sewing. +</p> +<p> +They grew ashamed by degrees,—those coarse women,—to come in in +their frowsy rags, to buy her delicate muffins or her white loaves; +they would fling on the cleanest shawl they had or could borrow, to +"cut round to Old Maid Grapp's," after a cent's worth of yeast,—for +her yeast, also, was like none other that could be got, and would +<i>almost</i> make her own beautiful bread of itself. +</p> +<p> +Back of the shop was her house-room; the cheapest and cleanest +of carpet,—a square, bound round with bright-striped +carpet-binding,—laid in the middle of a clean dark yellow floor; a +plain pine table, scoured white, standing in the middle of that; on +it, at tea-time, common blue and white crockery cups and plates, and +a little black teapot; a napkin, coarse, but fresh from the fold, +laid down to save, and at the same time to set off, with a touch of +delicate neatness, the white table; a wooden settee, with a +home-made calico-covered cushion and pillows, set at right angles +with the large, black, speckless stove; a wooden rocking-chair, made +comfortable in like manner, on the other side; the sink in the +corner, clean, freshly rinsed, with the bright tin basin hung above +it on a nail. +</p> +<p> +There was nothing in the whole place that must not be, in some +shape, in almost the poorest; but all so beautifully ordered, so +stainlessly kept. Through that open door, those women read a daily +sermon. +</p> +<p> +And Luclarion herself,—in a dark cotton print gown, a plain strip +of white about the throat,—even that was cotton, not linen, and two +of them could be run together in ten minutes for a cent,—and a +black alpacca apron, never soiled or crumpled, but washed and ironed +when it needed, like anything else,—her hair smoothly gathered back +under a small white half-handkerchief cap, plain-hemmed,—was the +sermon alive; with the soul of it, the inner sweetness and purity, +looking out at them from clear pleasant eyes, and lips cheery with a +smile that lay behind them. +</p> +<p> +She had come down there just to do as God told her to be a neighbor, +and to let her light shine. He would see about the glorifying. +</p> +<p> +She did not try to make money out of her candy, or her ginger-nuts; +she kept those to entice the little children in; to tempt them to +come again when they had once done an errand, shyly, or saucily, or +hang-doggedly,—it made little difference which to her,—in her +shop. +</p> +<p> +"I'll tell you what it's like," Hazel said, when she came in and +up-stairs the first Saturday afternoon with Desire, and showed and +explained to her proudly all Luclarion's ways and blessed +inventions. "It's like your mother and mine throwing crumbs to make +the pigeons come, when they were little girls, and lived in +Boston,—I mean <i>here</i>!" +</p> +<p> +Hazel waked up at the end of her sentence, suddenly, as we all do +sometimes, out of talking or thinking, to the consciousness that it +was <i>here</i> that she had mentally got round to. +</p> +<p> +Desire had never heard of the crumbs or the pigeons. Mrs. Ledwith +had always been in such a hurry, living on, that she never stopped +to tell her children the sweet old tales of how she <i>had</i> lived. Her +child-life had not ripened in her as it had done in Frank. +</p> +<p> +Desire and Hazel went up-stairs and looked at the empty room. It was +light and pleasant; dormer windows opened out on a great area of +roofs, above which was blue sky; upon which, poor clothes fluttered +in the wind, or cats walked and stretched themselves safely and +lazily in the sun. +</p> +<p> +"I always <i>do</i> like roofs!" said Hazel. "The nicest thing in 'Mutual +Friend' is Jenny Wren up on the Jew's roof, being dead. It seems +like getting up over the world, and leaving it all covered up and +put away." +</p> +<p> +"Except the old clothes," said Desire. +</p> +<p> +"They're <i>washed</i>" answered Hazel, promptly; and never stopped to +think of the meaning. +</p> +<p> +Then she jumped down from the window, along under which a great +beam made a bench to stand on, and looked about the chamber. +</p> +<p> +"A swing to begin with," she said. "Why what is that? Luclarion's +got one!" +</p> +<p> +Knotted up under two great staples that held it, was the long loop +of clean new rope; the notched board rested against the chimney +below. +</p> +<p> +"It's all ready! Let's go down and catch one! Luclarion, we've come +to tea," she announced, as they reached the sitting-room. "There's +the shop bell!" +</p> +<p> +In the shop was a woman with touzled hair and a gown with placket +split from gathers to hem, showing the ribs of a dirty skeleton +skirt. A child with one garment on,—some sort of woolen thing that +had never been a clean color, and was all gutter-color now,—the +woman holding the child by the hand here, in a safe place, in a way +these mothers have who turn their children out in the street dirt +and scramble without any hand to hold. No wonder, though, perhaps; +in the strangeness and unfitness of the safe, pure place, doubtless +they feel an uneasy instinct that the poor little vagabonds have got +astray, and need some holding. +</p> +<p> +"Give us a four-cent loaf!" said the woman, roughly, her eyes +lowering under crossly furrowed brows, as she flung two coins upon +the little counter. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion took down one, looked at it, saw that it had a pale side, +and exchanged it for another. +</p> +<p> +"Here is a nice crusty one," she said pleasantly, turning to wrap it +in a sheet of paper. +</p> +<p> +"None o' yer gammon! Give it here; there's your money; come along, +Crazybug!" And she grabbed the loaf without a wrapper, and twitched +the child. +</p> +<p> +Hazel sat still. She knew there was no use. But Desire with her +point-black determination, went right at the boy, took hold of his +hand, dirt and all; it was disagreeable, therefore she thought she +must do it. +</p> +<p> +"Don't you want to come and swing?" she said. +</p> +<p> +"—— yer swing! and yer imperdence! Clear out! He's got swings +enough to home! Go to ——, and be ——, you —— —— ——!" +</p> +<p> +Out of the mother's mouth poured a volley of horrible words, like a +hailstorm of hell. +</p> +<p> +Desire fell back, as from a blinding shock of she knew not what. +</p> +<p> +Luclarion came round the counter, quite calmly. +</p> +<p> +"Ma'am," she said, "those words won't hurt <i>her</i>. She don't know the +language. But you've got God's daily bread in your hand; how can you +talk devil's Dutch over it?" +</p> +<p> +The woman glared at her. But she saw nothing but strong, calm, +earnest asking in the face; the asking of God's own pity. +</p> +<p> +She rebelled against that, sullenly; but she spoke no more foul +words. I think she could as soon have spoken them in the face of +Christ; for it was the Christ in Luclarion Grapp that looked out at +her. +</p> +<p> +"You needn't preach. You can order me out of your shop, if you like. +I don't care." +</p> +<p> +"I don't order you out. I'd rather you would come again. I don't +think you will bring that street-muck with you, though." +</p> +<p> +There was both confidence and command in the word like the "Neither +do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more." It detached the street-muck +from the woman. It was not <i>she</i>; it was defilement she had picked +up, when perhaps she could not help it. She could scrape her shoes +at the door, and come in clean. +</p> +<p> +"You know a darned lot about it, I suppose!" were the last words of +defiance; softened down, however, you perceive, to that which can be +printed. +</p> +<p> +Desire was pale, with a dry sob in her throat, when the woman had +gone and Luclarion turned round. +</p> +<p> +"The angels in heaven know; why shouldn't you?" said Luclarion. +"That's what we've got to help." +</p> +<p> +A child came in afterwards, alone; with an actual clean spot in the +middle of her face, where a ginger-nut or an acid drop might go in. +This was a regular customer of a week past. The week had made that +clean spot; with a few pleasant and encouraging hints from +Luclarion, administered along with the gingerbread. +</p> +<p> +Now it was Hazel's turn. +</p> +<p> +The round mouth and eyes, with expectation in them, were like a spot +of green to Hazel, feeling with her witch-wand for a human spring. +But she spoke to Desire, looking cunningly at the child. +</p> +<p> +"Let us go back and swing," she said. +</p> +<p> +The girl's head pricked itself up quickly. +</p> +<p> +"We've got a swing up-stairs," said Hazel, passing close by, and +just pausing. "A new one. I guess it goes pretty high; and it looks +out of top windows. Wouldn't you like to come and see?" +</p> +<p> +The child lived down in a cellar. +</p> +<p> +"Take up some ginger-nuts, and eat them there," said Luclarion to +Hazel. +</p> +<p> +If it had not been for that, the girl would have hung back, afraid +of losing her shop treat. +</p> +<p> +Hazel knew better than to hold out her hand, at this first essay; +she would do that fast enough when the time came. She only walked +on, through the sitting-room, to the stairs. +</p> +<p> +The girl peeped, and followed. +</p> +<p> +Clean stairs. She had never trodden such before. Everything was +strange and clean here, as she had never seen anything before in all +her life, except the sky and the white clouds overhead. Heaven be +thanked that they are held over us, spotless, always! +</p> +<p> +Hazel heard the little feet, shuffling, in horrible, distorted +shoes, after her, over the steps; pausing, coming slowly but still +starting again, and coming on. +</p> +<p> +Up on the high landing, under the skylight, she opened the door wide +into the dormer-windowed room, and went in; she and Desire, neither +of them looking round. +</p> +<p> +Hazel got into the swing. Desire pushed; after three vibrations they +saw the ragged figure standing in the doorway, watching, turning its +head from side to side as the swing passed. +</p> +<p> +"Almost!" cried Hazel, with her feet up at the window. "There!" She +thrust them out at that next swing; they looked as if they touched +the blue. +</p> +<p> +"I can see over all the chimneys, and away off, down the water! Now +let the old cat die." +</p> +<p> +Out again, with a spring, as the swinging slackened, she still took +no notice of the child, who would have run, like a wild kitten, if +she had gone after her. She called Desire, and plunged into a closet +under the eaves. +</p> +<p> +"I wonder what's here!" she exclaimed. +</p> +<p> +"Rats!" +</p> +<p> +The girl in the doorway saw the dark, into which the low door +opened; she was used to rats in the dark. +</p> +<p> +"I don't believe it," says Hazel; "Luclarion has a cut, a great big +buff one with green eyes. She came in over the roofs, and she runs +up here nights. I shouldn't wonder if there might be kittens, +though,—one of these days, at any rate. Why! what a place to play +'Dare' in! It goes way round, I don't know where! Look here, +Desire!" +</p> +<p> +She sat on the threshold, that went up a step, over the beam, and so +leaned in. She had one eye toward the girl all the time, out of the +shadow. She beckoned and nodded, and Desire came. +</p> +<p> +At the same moment, the coast being clear, the girl gave a sudden +scud across, and into the swing. She began to scuff with her +slipshod, twisted shoes, pushing herself. +</p> +<p> +Hazel gave another nod behind her to Desire. Desire stood up, and as +the swing came back, pushed gently, touching the board only. +</p> +<p> +The girl laughed out with the sudden thrill of the motion. Desire +pushed again. +</p> +<p> +Higher and higher, till the feet reached up to the window. +</p> +<p> +"There!" she cried; and kicked an old shoe off, out over the roof. +"I've lost my shoe!" +</p> +<p> +"Never mind; it'll be down in the yard," said Hazel. +</p> +<p> +Thereupon the child, at the height of her sweep again, kicked out +the other one. +</p> +<p> +Desire and Hazel, together, pushed her for a quarter of an hour. +</p> +<p> +"Now let's have ginger-cakes," said Hazel, taking them out of her +pocket, and leaving the "cat" to die. +</p> +<p> +Little Barefoot came down at that, with a run; hanging to the rope +at one side, and dragging, till she tumbled in a sprawl upon the +floor. +</p> +<p> +"You ought to have waited," said Desire. +</p> +<p> +"Poh! I don't never wait!" cried the ragamuffin rubbing her elbows. +"I don't care." +</p> +<p> +"But it isn't nice to tumble round," suggested Hazel. +</p> +<p> +"I <i>ain't</i> nice," answered the child, and settled the subject. +</p> +<p> +"Well, these ginger-nuts are," said Hazel. "Here!" +</p> +<p> +"Have you had a good time?" she asked when the last one was eaten, +and she led the way to go down-stairs. +</p> +<p> +"Good time! That ain't nothin'! I've had a reg'lar bust! I'm comin' +agin'; it's bully. Now I must get my loaf and my shoes, and go along +back and take a lickin'." +</p> +<p> +That was the way Hazel caught her first child. +</p> +<p> +She made her tell her name,—Ann Fazackerley,—and promise to come +on Saturday afternoon, and bring two more girls with her. +</p> +<p> +"We'll have a party," said Hazel, "and play Puss in the Corner. But +you must get leave," she added. "Ask your mother. I don't want you +to be punished when you go home." +</p> +<p> +"Lor! you're green! I ain't got no mother. An' I always hooks jack. +I'm licked reg'lar when I gets back, anyway. There's half a dozen of +'em. When 'tain't one, it's another. That's Jane Goffey's bread; +she's been a swearin' after it this hour, you bet. But I'll +come,—see if I don't!" +</p> +<p> +Hazel drew a hard breath as she let the girl go. Back to her crowded +cellar, her Jane Goffeys, the swearings, and the lickings. What was +one hour at a time, once or twice a week, to do against all this? +</p> +<p> +But she remembered the clean little round in her face, out of which +eyes and mouth looked merrily, while she talked rough slang; the +same fun and daring,—nothing worse,—were in this child's face, +that might be in another's saying prettier words. How could she help +her words, hearing nothing but devil's Dutch around her all the +time? Children do not make the language they are born into. And the +face that could be simply merry, telling such a tale as that,—what +sort of bright little immortality must it be the outlook of? +</p> +<p> +Hazel meant to try her hour. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +This is one of my last chapters. I can only tell you now they +began,—these real folks,—the work their real living led them up +to. Perhaps some other time we may follow it on. If I were to tell +you now a finished story of it, I should tell a story ahead of the +world. +</p> +<p> +I can show you what six weeks brought it to. I can show you them +fairly launched in what may grow to a beautiful private charity,—an +"Insecution,"—a broad social scheme,—a millennium; at any rate, a +life work, change and branch as it may, for these girls who have +found out, in their girlhood, that there is genuine living, not mere +"playing pretend," to be done in the world. But you cannot, in +little books of three hundred pages, see things through. I never +expected or promised to do that. The threescore years and ten +themselves, do not do it. +</p> +<p> +It turned into regular Wednesday and Saturday afternoons. Three +girls at first, then six, then less again,—sometimes only one or +two; until they gradually came up to and settled at, an average of +nine or ten. +</p> +<p> +The first Saturday they took them as they were. The next time they +gave them a stick of candy each, the first thing, then Hazel's +fingers were sticky, and she proposed the wash-basin all round, +before they went up-stairs. The bright tin bowl was ready in the +sink, and a clean round towel hung beside; and with some red and +white soap-balls, they managed to fascinate their dirty little +visitors into three clean pairs of hands, and three clean faces as +well. +</p> +<p> +The candy and the washing grew to be a custom; and in three weeks' +time, watching for a hot day and having it luckily on a Saturday, +they ventured upon instituting a whole bath, in big round tubs, in +the back shed-room, where a faucet came in over a wash bench, and a +great boiler was set close by. +</p> +<p> +They began with a foot-paddle, playing pond, and sailing chips at +the same time; then Luclarion told them they might have tubs full, +and get in all over and duck, if they liked; and children who may +hate to be washed, nevertheless are always ready for a duck and a +paddle. So Luclarion superintended the bath-room; Diana helped her; +and Desire and Hazel tended the shop. Luclarion invented a +shower-bath with a dipper and a colander; then the wet, tangled hair +had to be combed,—a climax which she had secretly aimed at with a +great longing, from the beginning; and doing this, she contrived +with carbolic soap and a separate suds, and a bit of sponge, to give +the neglected little heads a most salutary dressing. +</p> +<p> +Saturday grew into bath-day; soap-suds suggested bubbles; and the +ducking and the bubbling were a frolic altogether. +</p> +<p> +Then Hazel wished they could be put into clean clothes each time; +wouldn't it do, somehow? +</p> +<p> +But that would cost. Luclarion had come to the limit of her purse; +Hazel had no purse, and Desire's was small. +</p> +<p> +"But you see they've <i>got</i> to have it," said Hazel; and so she went +to her mother, and from her straight to Uncle Oldways. +</p> +<p> +They counted up,—she and Desire, and Diana; two little common +suits, of stockings, underclothes, and calico gowns, apiece; +somebody to do a washing once a week, ready for the change; and +then—"those horrid shoes!" +</p> +<p> +"I don't see how you can do it," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "The things +will be taken away from them, and sold. You would have to keep +doing, over and over, to no purpose, I am afraid." +</p> +<p> +"I'll see to that," said Luclarion, facing her "stump." "We'll do +for them we can do for; if it ain't ones, it will be tothers. Those +that don't keep their things, can't have 'em; and if they're taken +away, I won't sell bread to the women they belong to, till they're +brought back. Besides, the <i>washing</i> kind of sorts 'em out, +beforehand. 'Taint the worst ones that are willing to come, or to +send, for that. You always have to work in at an edge, in anything, +and make your way as you go along. It'll regulate. I'm <i>living</i> +there right amongst 'em; I've got a clew, and a hold; I can follow +things up; I shall have a 'circle;' there's circles everywhere. And +in all the wheels there's a moving <i>spirit</i>; you ain't got to depend +just on yourself. Things work; the Lord sees to it; it's <i>His</i> +business as much as yours." +</p> +<p> +Hazel told Uncle Titus that there were shoes and stockings and gowns +wanted down in Neighbor Street; things for ten children; they must +have subscriptions. And so she had come to him. +</p> +<p> +The Ripwinkleys had never given Uncle Titus a Christmas or a +birthday present, for fear they should seem to establish a mutual +precedent. They had never talked of their plans which involved +calculation, before him; they were terribly afraid of just one thing +with him, and only that one,—of anything most distantly like what +Desire Ledwith called "a Megilp bespeak." But now Hazel went up to +him as bold as a lion. She took it for granted he was like other +people,—"real folks;" that he would do—what must be done. +</p> +<p> +"How much will it cost?" +</p> +<p> +"For clothes and shoes for each child, about eight dollars for three +months, we guess," said Hazel. "Mother's going to pay for the +washing!" +</p> +<p> +"<i>Guess</i>? Haven't you calculated?" +</p> +<p> +"Yes, sir. 'Guess' and 'calculate' mean the same thing in Yankee," +said Hazel, laughing. +</p> +<p> +Uncle Titus laughed in and out, in his queer way, with his shoulders +going up and down. +</p> +<p> +Then he turned round, on his swivel chair, to his desk, and wrote a +check for one hundred dollars. +</p> +<p> +"There. See how far you can make that go." +</p> +<p> +"That's good," said Hazel, heartily, looking at it; "that's +splendid!" and never gave him a word of personal thanks. It was a +thing for mutual congratulations, rather, it would seem; the "good" +was just what they all wanted, and there it was. Why should anybody +in particular be thanked, as if anybody in particular had asked for +anything? She did not say this, or think it; she simply did not +think about it at all. +</p> +<p> +And Uncle Oldways—again—liked it. +</p> +<p> +There! I shall not try, now, to tell you any more; their +experiences, their difficulties, their encouragements, would make +large material for a much larger book. I want you to know of the +idea, and the attempt. If they fail, partly,—if drunken fathers +steal the shoes, and the innocent have to forfeit for the +guilty,—if the bad words still come to the lips often, though Hazel +tells them they are not "nice,"—and beginning at the outside, they +are in a fair way of learning the niceness of being nice,—if some +children come once or twice, and get dressed up, and then go off +and live in the gutters again until the clothes are gone,—are these +real failures? There is a bright, pure place down there in Neighbor +Street, and twice a week some little children have there a bright, +pure time. Will this be lost in the world? In the great Ledger of +God will it always stand unbalanced on the debit side? +</p> +<p> +If you are afraid it will fail,—will be swallowed up in the great +sink of vice and misery, like a single sweet, fresh drop, sweet only +while it is falling,—go and do likewise; rain down more; make the +work larger, stronger; pour the sweetness in faster, till the wide, +grand time of full refreshing shall have come from the presence of +the Lord! +</p> +<p> +Ada Geoffrey went down and helped. Miss Craydocke is going to knit +scarlet stockings all winter for them; Mr. Geoffrey has put a +regular bath-room in for Luclarion, with half partitions, and three +separate tubs; Mrs. Geoffrey has furnished a dormitory, where little +homeless ones can be kept to sleep. Luclarion has her hands full, +and has taken in a girl to help her, whose board and wages Rachel +Froke and Asenath Scherman pay. A thing like that spreads every way; +you have only to be among, and one of—Real Folks. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +Desire, besides her work in Neighbor Street, has gone into the +Normal School. She wants to make herself fit for any teaching; she +wants also to know and to become a companion of earnest, working +girls. +</p> +<p> +She told Uncle Titus this, after she had been with him a month, and +had thought it over; and Uncle Titus agreed, quite as if it were no +real concern of his, but a very proper and unobjectionable plan for +her, if she liked it. +</p> +<p> +One day, though, when Marmaduke Wharne—who had come this fall again +to stay his three days, and talk over their business,—sat with him +in his study, just where they had sat two years and a little more +ago, and Hazel and Desire ran up and down stairs together, in and +out upon their busy Wednesday errands,—Marmaduke said to Titus,— +</p> +<p> +"Afterwards is a long time, friend; but I mistrust you have found +the comfort, as well as the providence, of 'next of kin?'" +</p> +<p> +"Afterwards <i>is</i> a long time," said Titus Oldways, gravely; "but the +Lord's line of succession stretches all the way through." +</p> +<p> +And that same night he had his other old friend, Miss Craydocke, in; +and he brought two papers that he had ready, quietly out to be +signed, each with four names: "Titus Oldways," by itself, on the one +side; on the other,— +</p> +<p class="note3"> + "R<small>ACHEL</small> F<small>ROKE</small>,<br> + M<small>ARMADUKE</small> W<small>HARNE</small>,<br> + K<small>EREN-HAPPUCH</small> C<small>RAYDOCKE</small>." +</p> +<p> +And one of those two papers—which are no further part of the +present story, seeing that good old Uncle Titus is at this moment +alive and well, as he has a perfect right, and is heartily welcome +to be, whether the story ever comes to a regular winding up or +not—was laid safely away in a japanned box in a deep drawer of his +study table; and Marmaduke Wharne put the other in his pocket. +</p> +<p> +He and Titus knew. I myself guess, and perhaps you do; but neither +you nor I, nor Rachel, nor Keren-happuch, know for certain; and it +is no sort of matter whether we do or not. +</p> +<p> +The "next of kin" is a better and a deeper thing than any claim of +law or register of bequest can show. Titus Oldways had found that +out; and he had settled in his mind, to his restful and satisfied +belief, that God, to the last moment of His time, and the last +particle of His created substance, can surely care for and order and +direct His own. +</p> +<p> +Is that end and moral enough for a two years' watchful trial and a +two years' simple tale? +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0021"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XXI. +</h2> +<h3> + THE HORSESHOE. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +They laid out the Waite Place in this manner:— +</p> +<p> +Right into the pretty wooded pasture, starting from a point a little +way down the road from the old house, they projected a roadway which +swept round, horseshoe fashion, till it met itself again within a +space of some twenty yards or so; and this sweep made a +frontage—upon its inclosed bit of natural, moss-turfed green, +sprinkled with birch and pine and oak trees, and with gray +out-croppings of rock here and there—for the twenty houses, behind +which opened the rest of the unspoiled, irregular, open slope and +swell and dingle of the hill-foot tract that dipped down at one +reach, we know, to the river. +</p> +<p> +The trees, and shrubs, and vines, and ferns, and stones, were left +in their wild prettiness; only some roughness of nature's wear and +tear of dead branches and broken brushwood, and the like, were taken +away, and the little footpaths cleared for pleasant walking. +</p> +<p> +There were all the little shady, sweet-smelling nooks, just as they +had been; all the little field-parlors, opening with their winding +turns between bush and rock, one into another. The twenty households +might find twenty separate places, if they all wanted to take a +private out-door tea at once. +</p> +<p> +The cellars were dug; the frames were up; workmen were busy with +brick and mortar, hammer and plane; two or three buildings were +nearly finished, and two—the two standing at the head of the +Horseshoe, looking out at the back into the deepest and pleasantest +wood-aisle, where the leaves were reddening and mellowing in the +early October frost, and the ferns were turning into tender +transparent shades of palest straw-color—were completed, and had +dwellers in them; the cheeriest, and happiest, and coziest of +neighbors; and who do you think these were? +</p> +<p> +Miss Waite and Delia, of course, in one house; and with them, +dividing the easy rent and the space that was ample for four women, +were Lucilla Waters and her mother. In the other, were Kenneth and +Rosamond Kincaid and Dorris. +</p> +<p> +Kenneth and Rosamond had been married just three weeks. Rosamond had +told him she would begin the world with him, and they had begun. +Begun in the simple, true old-fashioned way, in which, if people +only would believe it, it is even yet not impossible for young men +and women to inaugurate their homes. +</p> +<p> +They could not have had a place at Westover, and a horse and buggy +for Kenneth to go back and forth with; nor even a house in one of +the best streets of Z——; and down at East Square everything was +very modern and pretentious, based upon the calculation of rising +values and a rush of population. +</p> +<p> +But here was this new neighborhood of—well, yes,—"model houses;" a +blessed Christian speculation for a class not easily or often +reached by any speculations save those that grind and consume their +little regular means, by forcing upon them the lawless and arbitrary +prices of the day, touching them at every point in their <i>living</i>, +but not governing correspondingly their income, as even the +hod-carrier's and railroad navvy's daily pay is reached and ruled to +meet the proportion of the time. +</p> +<p> +They would be plain, simple, little-cultured people that would live +there: the very "betwixt and betweens" that Rosamond had used to +think so hardly fated. Would she go and live among them, in one of +these little new, primitive homes, planted down in the pasture-land, +on the outskirts? Would she—the pretty, graceful, elegant +Rosamond—live semi-detached with old Miss Arabel Waite? +</p> +<p> +That was just exactly the very thing she would do; the thing she did +not even let Kenneth think of first, and ask her, but that, when +they had fully agreed that they would begin life somehow, in some +right way together, according to their means, she herself had +questioned him if they might not do. +</p> +<p> +And so the houses were hurried in the building; for old Miss Arabel +must have hers before the winter; (it seems strange how often the +change comes when one could not have waited any longer for it;) and +Kenneth had mill building, and surveying, and planning, in East +Square, and Mr. Roger Marchbanks' great gray-stone mansion going up +on West Hill, to keep him busy; work enough for any talented young +fellow, fresh from the School of Technology, who had got fair hold +of a beginning, to settle down among and grasp the "next things" +that were pretty sure to follow along after the first. +</p> +<p> +Dorris has all Ruth's music scholars, and more; for there has never +been anybody to replace Miss Robbyns, and there are many young girls +in Z——, and down here in East Square, who want good teaching and +cannot go away to get it. She has also the organ-playing in the new +church. +</p> +<p> +She keeps her morning hours and her Saturdays to help Rosamond; for +they are "coöperating" here, in the new home; what was the use, +else, of having coöperated in the old? Rosamond cannot bear to have +any coarse, profane fingers laid upon her little household +gods,—her wedding-tins and her feather dusters,—while the first +gloss and freshness are on, at any rate; and with her dainty handling, +the gloss is likely to last a long while. +</p> +<p> +Such neighbors, too, as the Waites and Waterses are! How they helped +in the fitting up, running in in odd half hours from their own +nailing and placing, which they said could wait awhile, since they +weren't brides; and such real old times visiting as they have +already between the houses; coming and taking right hold, with +wiping up dinner plates as likely as not, if that is the thing in +hand; picking up what is there, as easily as "the girls" used to +help work out some last new pattern of crochet, or try over music, +or sort worsteds for gorgeous affghans for the next great fair! +</p> +<p> +Miss Arabel is apt to come in after dinner, and have a dab at the +plates; she knows she interrupts nothing then; and she "has never +been used to sitting talking, with gloves on and a parasol in her +lap." And now she has given up trying to make impossible biases, she +has such a quantity of time! +</p> +<p> +It was the matter of receiving visits from her friends who <i>did</i> sit +with their parasols in their laps, or who only expected to see the +house, or look over wedding presents, that would be the greatest +hindrance, Rosamond realized at once; that is, if she would let it; +so she did just the funniest thing, perhaps, that ever a bride did +do: she set her door wide open from her pretty parlor, with its +books and flowers and pictures and window-draperies of hanging +vines, into the plain, cozy little kitchen, with its tin pans and +bright new buckets and its Shaker chairs; and when she was busy +there, asked her girl-friends right in, as she had used to take them +up into her bedroom, if she were doing anything pretty or had +something to show. +</p> +<p> +And they liked it, for the moment, at any rate; they could not help +it; they thought it was lovely; a kind of bewitching little play at +keeping house; though some of them went away and wondered, and said +that Rosamond Holabird had quite changed all her way of living and +her position; it was very splendid and strong-minded, they supposed; +but they never should have thought it of her, and of course she +could not keep it up. +</p> +<p> +"And the neighborhood!" was the cry. "The rabble she has got, and is +going to have, round her! All planks and sand, and tubs of mortar, +now; you have to half break your neck in getting up there; and when +it is settled it will be—such a frowze of common people! Why the +foreman of our factory has engaged a house, and Mrs. Haslam, who +actually used to do up laces for mamma, has got another!" +</p> +<p> +That is what is said—in some instances—over on West Hill, when the +elegant visitors came home from calling at the Horseshoe. Meanwhile, +what Rosamond does is something like this, which she happened to do +one bright afternoon a very little while ago. +</p> +<p> +She and Dorris had just made and baked a charming little tea-cake, +which was set on a fringed napkin in a round white china dish, and +put away in the fresh, oak-grained kitchen pantry, where not a crumb +or a slop had ever yet been allowed to rest long enough to defile or +give a flavor of staleness; out of which everything is tidily used +up while it is nice, and into which little delicate new-made bits +like this, for next meals, are always going. +</p> +<p> +The tea-table itself,—with its three plates, and its new silver, +and the pretty, thin, shallow cups and saucers, that an Irish girl +would break a half-dozen of every week,—was laid with exquisite +preciseness; the square white napkins at top and bottom over the +crimson cloth, spread to the exactness of a line, and every knife +and fork at fair right angles; the loaf was upon the white carved +trencher, and nothing to be done when Kenneth should come in, but to +draw the tea, and bring the brown cake forth. +</p> +<p> +Rosamond will not leave all these little doings to break up the +pleasant time of his return; she will have her leisure then, let her +be as busy as she may while he is away. +</p> +<p> +There was an hour or more after all was done; even after the +Panjandrums had made their state call, leaving their barouche at the +heel of the Horseshoe, and filling up all Rosamond's little +vestibule with their flounces, as they came in and went out. +</p> +<p> +The Panjandrums were new people at West Hill; very new and very +grand, as only new things and new people can be, turned out in the +latest style pushed to the last agony. Mrs. Panjandrum's dress was +all in two shades of brown, to the tips of her feathers, and the +toes of her boots, and the frill of her parasol; and her carriage +was all in two shades of brown, likewise; cushions, and tassels, +and panels; the horses themselves were cream-color, with dark +manes and tails. Next year, perhaps, everything will be in +pansy-colors,—black and violet and gold; and then she will probably +have black horses with gilded harness and royal purple tails. +</p> +<p> +It was very good of the Panjandrums, doubtless, to come down to the +Horseshoe at all; I am willing to give them all the credit of really +admiring Rosamond, and caring to see her in her little new home; but +there are two other things to be considered also: the novel kind of +home Rosamond had chosen to set up, and the human weakness of +curiosity concerning all experiments, and friends in all new lights; +also the fact of that other establishment shortly to branch out of +the Holabird connection. The family could not quite go under water, +even with people of the Panjandrum persuasion, while there was such +a pair of prospective corks to float them as Mr. and Mrs. Dakie +Thayne. +</p> +<p> +The Panjandrum carriage had scarcely bowled away, when a little +buggy and a sorrel pony came up the road, and somebody alighted with +a brisk spring, slipped the rein with a loose knot through the +fence-rail at the corner, and came up one side of the two-plank +foot-walk that ran around the Horseshoe; somebody who had come home +unexpectedly, to take his little wife to ride. Kenneth Kincaid had +business over at the new district of "Clarendon Park." +</p> +<p> +Drives, and livery-stable bills, were no part of the items allowed +for, in the programme of these young people's living; therefore +Rosamond put on her gray hat, with its soft little dove's breast, +and took her bright-striped shawl upon her arm, and let Kenneth lift +her into the buggy—for which there was no manner of need except +that they both liked it,—with very much the feeling as if she were +going off on a lovely bridal trip. They had had no bridal trip, you +see; they did not really want one; and this little impromptu drive +was such a treat! +</p> +<p> +Now the wonders of nature and the human mind show—if I must go so +far to find an argument for the statement I am making—that into a +single point of time or particle of matter may be gathered the +relations of a solar system or the experiences of a life; that a +universe may be compressed into an atom, or a molecule expanded into +a macrocosm; therefore I expect nobody to sneer at my Rosamond as +childishly nappy in her simple honeymoon, or at me for making +extravagant and unsupported assertions, when I say that this hour +and a half, and these four miles out to Clarendon Park and +back,—the lifting and the tucking in, and the setting off, the +sitting side by side in the ripe October air and the golden +twilight, the noting together every pretty turn, every flash of +autumn color in the woods, every change in the cloud-groupings +overhead, every glimpse of busy, bright-eyed squirrels up and down +the walls, every cozy, homely group of barnyard creatures at the +farmsteads, the change, the pleasure, the thought of home and +always-togetherness,—all this made the little treat of a country +ride as much to them, holding all that any wandering up and down the +whole world in their new companionship could hold,—as a going to +Europe, or a journey to mountains and falls and sea-sides and +cities, in a skimming of the States. You cannot have more than there +is; and you do not care, for more than just what stands for and +emphasizes the essential beauty, the living gladness, that no +<i>place</i> gives, but that hearts carry about into places and baptize +them with, so that ever afterward a tender charm hangs round them, +because "we saw it <i>then</i>." +</p> +<p> +And Kenneth and Rosamond Kincaid had all these bright associations, +these beautiful glamours, these glad reminders, laid up for years to +come, in a four miles space that they might ride or walk over, +re-living it all, in the returning Octobers of many other years. I +say they had a bridal tour that day, and that the four miles were as +good as four thousand. Such little bits of signs may stand for such +high, great, blessed things! +</p> +<p> +"How lovely stillness and separateness are!" said Rosamond as they +sat in the buggy, stopping to enjoy a glimpse of the river on one +side, and a flame of burning bushes on the other, against the dark +face of a piece of woods that held the curve of road in which they +stood, in sheltered quiet. "How pretty a house would be, up on that +knoll. Do you know things puzzle me a little, Kenneth? I have almost +come to a certain conclusion lately, that people are not meant to +live apart, but that it is really everybody's duty to live in a +town, or a village, or in some gathering of human beings together. +Life tends to that, and all the needs and uses of it; and yet,—it +is so sweet in a place like this,—and however kind and social you +may be, it seems once in a while such an escape! Do you believe in +beautiful country places, and in having a little piece of creation +all to yourself, if you can get it, or if not what do you suppose +all creation is made for?" +</p> +<p> +"Perhaps just that which you have said, Rose." Rosamond has now, +what her mother hinted once, somebody to call her "Rose," with a +happy and beautiful privilege. "Perhaps to escape into. Not for one, +here and there, selfishly, all the time; but for the whole, with +fair share and opportunity. Creation is made very big, you see, and +men and women are made without wings, and with very limited hands +and feet. Also with limited lives; that makes the time-question, and +the hurry. There is a suggestion,—at any rate, a necessity,—in +that. It brings them within certain spaces, always. In spite of all +the artificial lengthening of railroads and telegraphs, there must +still be centres for daily living, intercourse, and need. People +tend to towns; they cannot establish themselves in isolated +independence. Yet packing and stifling are a cruelty and a sin. I do +not believe there ought to be any human being so poor as to be +forced to such crowding. The very way we are going to live at the +Horseshoe, seems to me an individual solution of the problem. It +ought to come to pass that our towns should be built—and if built +already, wrongly, <i>thinned out</i>,—on this principle. People are +coming to learn a little of this, and are opening parks and squares +in the great cities, finding that there must be room for bodies and +souls to reach out and breathe. If they could only take hold of some +of their swarming-places, where disease and vice are festering, and +pull down every second house and turn it into a garden space, I +believe they would do more for reform and salvation than all their +separate institutions for dealing with misery after it is let grow, +can ever effect." +</p> +<p> +"O, why <i>can't</i> they?" cried Rose. "There is money enough, +somewhere. Why can't they do it, instead of letting the cities grow +horrid, and then running away from it themselves, and buying acres +and acres around their country places, for fear somebody should come +too near, and the country should begin to grow horrid too?" +</p> +<p> +"Because the growing and the crowding and the striving of the city +<i>make</i> so much of the money, little wife! Because to keep everybody +fairly comfortable as the world goes along, there could not be so +many separate piles laid up; it would have to be used more as it +comes, and it could not come so fast. If nobody cared to be very +rich, and all were willing to live simply and help one another, in +little 'horseshoe neighborhoods,' there wouldn't be so much that +looks like grand achievement in the world perhaps; but I think maybe +the very angels might show themselves out of the unseen, and bring +the glory of heaven into it!" +</p> +<p> +Kenneth's color came, and his eyes glowed, as he spoke these words +that burst into eloquence with the intensity of his meaning; and +Rosamond's face was holy-pale, and her look large, as she listened; +and they were silent for a minute or so, as the pony, of his own +accord, trotted deliberately on. +</p> +<p> +"But then, the beauty, and the leisure, and all that grows out of +them to separate minds, and what the world gets through the +refinement of it! You see the puzzle comes back. Must we never, in +this life, gather round us the utmost that the world is capable of +furnishing? Must we never, out of this big creation, have the piece +to ourselves, each one as he would choose?" +</p> +<p> +"I think the Lord would show us a way out of that," said Kenneth. "I +think He would make His world turn out right, and all come to good +and sufficient use, if we did not put it in a snarl. Perhaps we can +hardly guess what we might grow to all together,—'the whole body, +fitly joined by that which every joint supplieth, increasing and +building itself up in love.' And about the quietness, and the +separateness,—we don't want to <i>live</i> in that, Rose; we only want +it sometimes, to make us fitter to live. When the disciples began to +talk about building tabernacles on the mountain of the vision, +Christ led them straight down among the multitude, where there was a +devil to be cast out. It is the same thing in the old story of the +creation. God worked six days, and rested one." +</p> +<p> +"Well," said Rose, drawing a deep breath, "I am glad we have begun +at the Horseshoe! It was a great escape for me, Kenneth. I am such a +worldly girl in my heart. I should have liked so much to have +everything elegant and artistic about me." +</p> +<p> +"I think you do. I think you always will. Not because of the +worldliness in you, though; but the <i>other</i>-worldliness, the sense +of real beauty and truth. And I am glad that we have begun at all! +It was a greater escape for me. I was in danger of all sorts of +hardness and unbelief. I had begun to despise and hate things, +because they did not work rightly just around me. And then I fell +in, just in time, with some real, true people; and then you came, +with the 'little piece of your world,' and then I came here, and saw +what your world was, and how you were making it, Rose! How a little +community of sweet and generous fellowship was crystallizing here +among all sorts—outward sorts—of people; a little community of the +kingdom; and how you and yours had done it." +</p> +<p> +"O, Kenneth! I was the worst little atom in the whole crystal! I +only got into my place because everybody else did, and there was +nothing else left for me to do." +</p> +<p> +"You see I shall never believe that," said Kenneth, quietly. "There +is no flaw in the crystal. You were all polarized alike. And +besides, can't I see daily just how your nature draws and points?" +</p> +<p> +"Well, never mind," said Rose. "Only some particles are natural +magnets, I believe, and some get magnetized by contact. Now that we +have hit upon this metaphor, isn't it funny that our little social +experiment should have taken the shape of a horseshoe?" +</p> +<p> +"The most sociable, because the most magnetic, shape it could take. +You will see the power it will develop. There's a great deal in +merely taking form according to fundamental principles. Witness the +getting round a fireside. Isn't that a horseshoe? And could half as +much sympathy be evolved from a straight line?" +</p> +<p> +"I believe in firesides," said Rose. +</p> +<p> +"And in women who can organize and inform them," said Kenneth. +"First, firesides; then neighborhoods; that is the way the world's +life works out; and women have their hands at the heart of it. They +can do so much more there than by making the laws! When the life is +right, the laws will make themselves, or be no longer needed. They +are such mere outside patchwork,—makeshifts till a better time!" +</p> +<p> +"Wrong living must make wrong laws, whoever does the voting," said +Rosamond, sagely. +</p> +<p> +"False social standards make false commercial ones; inflated +pretensions demand inflated currency; selfish, untrue domestic +living eventuates in greedy speculations and business shams; and all +in the intriguing for corrupt legislation, to help out partial +interests. It isn't by multiplying the voting power, but by +purifying it, that the end is to be reached." +</p> +<p> +"That is so sententious, Kenneth, that I shall have to take it home +and ravel it out gradually in my mind in little shreds. In the mean +while, dear, suppose we stop in the village, and get some little +brown-ware cups for top-overs. You never ate any of my top-overs? +Well, when you do, you'll say that all the world ought to be brought +up on top-overs." +</p> +<p> +Rosamond was very particular about her little brown-ware cups. They +had to be real stone,—brown outside, and gray-blue in; and they +must be of a special size and depth. When they were found, and done +up in a long parcel, one within another, in stout paper, she carried +it herself to the chaise, and would scarcely let Kenneth hold it +while she got in; after which, she laid it carefully across her lap, +instead of putting it behind upon the cushion. +</p> +<p> +'You see they were rather dear; but they are the only kind worth +while. Those little yellow things would soak and crack, and never +look comfortable in the kitchen-closet. I give you very fair +warning, I shall always want the best of things but then I shall +take very fierce and jealous care of them,—like this.' +</p> +<p> +And she laid her little nicely-gloved hand across her homely +parcel, guardingly. +</p> +<p> +How nice it was to go buying little homely things together! Again, +it was as good and pleasant,—and meant ever so much more,—than if +it had been ordering china with a monogram in Dresden, or glass in +Prague, with a coat-of-arms engraved. +</p> +<p> +When they drove up to the Horseshoe, Dakie Thayne and Ruth met them. +They had been getting "spiritual ferns" and sumach leaves with +Dorris; "the dearest little tips," Ruth said, "of scarlet and +carbuncle, just like jets of fire." +</p> +<p> +And now they would go back to tea, and eat up the brown cake? +</p> +<p> +"Real Westover summum-bonum cake?" Dakie wanted to know. "Well, he +couldn't stand against that. Come, Ruthie!" And Ruthie came. +</p> +<p> +"What do you think Rosamond says?" said Kenneth, at the tea-table, +over the cake. "That everybody ought to live in a city or a village, +or, at least, a Horseshoe. She thinks nobody has a right to stick +his elbows out, in this world. She's in a great hurry to be packed +as closely as possible here." +</p> +<p> +"I wish the houses were all finished, and our neighbors in; that is +what I said," said Rosamond. "I should like to begin to know about +them, and feel settled; and to see flowers in their windows, and +lights at night." +</p> +<p> +"And you always hated so a 'little crowd!'" said Ruth. +</p> +<p> +"It isn't a crowd when they <i>don't</i> crowd," said Rosamond. "I can't +bear little miserable jostles." +</p> +<p> +"How good it will be to see Rosamond here, at the head of her court; +at the top of the Horseshoe," said Dakie Thayne. "She will be quite +the 'Queen of the County.'" +</p> +<p> +"Don't!" said Rosamond. "I've a very weak spot in my head. You can't +tell the mischief you might do. No, I won't be queen!" +</p> +<p> +"Any more than you can help," said Dakie. +</p> +<p> +"She'll be Rosa Mundi, wherever she is," said Ruth affectionately. +</p> +<p> +"I think that is just grand of Kenneth and Rosamond," said Dakie +Thayne, as he and Ruth were walking home up West Hill in the +moonlight, afterward. "What do you think you and I ought to do, one +of these days, Ruthie? It sets me to considering. There are more +Horseshoes to make, I suppose, if the world is to jog on." +</p> +<p> +"<i>You</i> have a great deal to consider about," said Ruth, +thoughtfully. "It was quite easy for Kenneth and Rosamond to +see what they ought to do. But you might make a great many +Horseshoes,—or something!" +</p> +<p> +"What do you mean by that second person plural, eh? Are you shirking +your responsibilities, or are you addressing your imaginary +Boffinses? Come, Ruthie, I can't have that! Say 'we,' and I'll face +the responsibilities and talk it all out; but I won't have anything +to do with 'you!'" +</p> +<p> +"Won't you?" said Ruth, with piteous demureness. "How can I say +'we,' then?" +</p> +<p> +"You little cat! How you can scratch!" +</p> +<p> +"There are such great things to be done in the world Dakie," Ruth +said seriously, when they had got over that with a laugh that lifted +her nicely by the "we" question. "I can't help thinking of it." +</p> +<p> +"O," said Dakie, with significant satisfaction. "We're getting on +better. Well?" +</p> +<p> +"Do you know what Hazel Ripwinkley is doing? And what Luclarion +Grapp has done? Do you know how they are going among poor people, in +dreadful places,—really living among them, Luclarion is,—and +finding out, and helping, and showing how? I thought of that +to-night, when they talked about living in cities and villages. +Luclarion has gone away down to the very bottom of it. And somehow, +one can't feel satisfied with only reaching half-way, when one +knows—and might!" +</p> +<p> +"Do you mean, Ruthie, that you and I might go and <i>live</i> in such +places? Do you think I could take you there?" +</p> +<p> +"I don't know, Dakie," Ruth answered, forgetting in her earnestness, +to blush or hesitate for what he said;—"but I feel as if we ought +to reach down, somehow,—<i>away</i> down! Because that, you see, is the +<i>most</i>. And to do only a little, in an easy way, when we are made so +strong to do; wouldn't it be a waste of power, and a missing of the +meaning? Isn't it the 'much' that is required of us, Dakie?" +</p> +<p> +They were under the tall hedge of the Holabird "parcel of ground," +on the Westover slope, and close to the home gates. Dakie Thayne put +his arm round Ruth as she said that, and drew her to him. +</p> +<p> +"We will go and be neighbors somewhere, Ruthie. And we will make as +big a Horseshoe as we can." +</p> +<a name="2H_4_0022"><!-- H2 anchor --></a> + +<div style="height: 4em;"><br><br><br><br></div> + +<h2> + XXII. +</h2> +<h3> + MORNING GLORIES. +</h3> +<br> +<p> +And Desire? +</p> +<p> +Do you think I have passed her over lightly in her troubles? Or do +you think I am making her out to have herself passed over them +lightly? +</p> +<p> +Do you think it is hardly to be believed that she should have turned +round from these shocks and pains that bore down so heavily and all +at once upon her, and taken kindly to the living with old Uncle +Titus and Rachel Froke in the Greenley Street house, and going down +to Luclarion Grapp's to help wash little children's faces, and teach +them how to have innocent good times? Do you think there is little +making up in all that for her, while Rosamond Kincaid is happy in +her new home, and Ruth and Dakie Thayne are looking out together +over the world,—which can be nowhere wholly sad to them, since they +are to go down into it together,—and planning how to make long arms +with their wealth, to reach the largest neighborhood they can? In +the first place, do you know how full the world is, all around you, +of things that are missed by those who say nothing, but go on living +somehow without them? Do you know how large a part of life, even +young life, is made of the days that have never been lived? Do you +guess how many girls, like Desire, come near something that they +think they might have had, and then see it drift by just beyond +their reach, to fall easily into some other hand that seems hardly +put out to grasp it? +</p> +<p> +And do you see, or feel, or guess how life goes on, incompleteness +and all, and things settle themselves one way, if not another, +simply because the world does not stop, but keeps turning, and +tossing off days and nights like time-bubbles just the same? +</p> +<p> +Do you ever imagine how different this winter's parties are from +last, or this summer's visit or journey from those of the summer +gone,—to many a maiden who has her wardrobe made up all the same, +and takes her German or her music lessons, and goes in and out, and +has her ticket to the Symphony Concerts, and is no different to look +at, unless perhaps with a little of the first color-freshness gone +out of her face,—while secretly it seems to her as if the sweet +early symphony of her life were all played out, and had ended in a +discord? +</p> +<p> +We begin, most of us, much as we are to go on. Real or mistaken, the +experiences of eighteen initiate the lesson that those of two and +three score after years are needed to unfold and complete. What is +left of us is continually turning round, perforce, to take up with +what is left of the world, and make the best of it. +</p> +<p> +Thus much for what does happen, for what we have to put up with, for +the mere philosophy of endurance, and the possibility of things +being endured. We do live out our years, and get and bear it all. +And the scars do not show much outside; nay, even we ourselves can +lay a finger on the place, after a little time, without a cringe. +</p> +<p> +Desire Ledwith did what she had to do; there was a way made for her, +and there was still life left. +</p> +<p> +But there is a better reading of the riddle. There is never a +"Might-have-been" that touches with a sting, but reveals also to us +an inner glimpse of the wide and beautiful "May Be." It is all +there; somebody else has it now while we wait; but the years of God +are full of satisfying, each soul shall have its turn; it is His +good <i>pleasure</i> to give us the kingdom. There is so much room, there +are such thronging possibilities, there is such endless hope! +</p> +<p> +To feel this, one must feel, however dimly, the inner realm, out of +which the shadows of this life come and pass, to interpret to us the +laid up reality. +</p> +<p> +"The real world is the inside world." +</p> +<p> +Desire Ledwith blessed Uncle Oldways in her heart for giving her +that word. +</p> +<p> +It comforted her for her father. If his life here had been hard, +toilsome, mistaken even; if it had never come to that it might have +come to; if she, his own child, had somehow missed the reality of +him here, and he of her,—was he not passed now into the within? +Might she not find him there; might they not silently and +spiritually, without sign, but needing no sign, begin to understand +each other now? Was not the real family just beginning to be born +into the real home? +</p> +<p> +Ah, that word <i>real</i>! How deep we have to go to find the root of it! +It is fast by the throne of God; in the midst. +</p> +<p> +Hazel Ripwinkley talked about "real folks." She sifted, and she +found out instinctively the true livers, the genuine <i>neahburs</i>, +nigh-dwellers; they who abide alongside in spirit, who shall find +each other in the everlasting neighborhood, when the veil falls. +</p> +<p> +But there, behind,—how little, in our petty outside vexations or +gladnesses, we stop to think of or perceive it!—is the actual, even +the present, inhabiting; there is the kingdom, the continuing city, +the real heaven and earth in which we already live and labor, and +build up our homes and lay up our treasure and the loving Christ, +and the living Father, and the innumerable company of angels, and +the unseen compassing about of friends gone in there, and they on +this earth who truly belong to us inwardly, however we and they may +be bodily separated,—are the Real Folks! +</p> +<p> +What matters a little pain, outside? Go <i>in</i>, and rest from it! +</p> +<p> +There is where the joy is, that we read outwardly, spelling by +parts imperfectly, in our own and others' mortal experience; there +is the content of homes, the beauty of love, the delight of +friendship,—not shut in to any one or two, but making the common +air that all souls breathe. No one heart can be happy, that all +hearts may not have a share of it. Rosamond and Kenneth, Dakie and +Ruth, cannot live out obviously any sweetness of living, cannot +sing any notes of the endless, beautiful score, that Desire +Ledwith, and Luclarion Grapp, and Rachel Froke, and Hapsie +Craydocke, and old Miss Arabel Waite, do not just as truly get the +blessed grace and understanding of; do not catch and feel the +perfect and abounding harmony of. Since why? No lip can sound more +than its own few syllables of music; no life show more than its +own few accidents and incidents and groupings; the vast melody, +the rich, eternal satisfying, are behind; and the signs are for us +all! +</p> +<p> +You may not think this, or see it so, in your first tussle and +set-to with the disappointing and eluding things that seem the real +and only,—missing which you miss all. This chapter may be less to +you—less <i>for</i> you, perhaps—than for your elders; the story may +have ended, as to that you care for, some pages back; but for all +that, this is certain; and Desire Ledwith has begun to find it, for +she is one of those true, grand spirits to whom personal loss or +frustration are most painful as they seem to betoken something +wrong or failed in the general scheme and justice. This terrible +"why should it be?" once answered,—once able to say to themselves +quietly, "It is all right; the beauty and the joy are there; the +song is sung, though we are of the listeners; the miracle-play is +played, though but a few take literal part, and many of us look on, +with the play, like the song, moving through our souls only, or our +souls moving in the vital sphere of it, where the stage is wide +enough for all;"—once come to this, they have entered already into +that which is behind, and nothing of all that goes forth thence into +the earth to make its sunshine can be shut off from them forever. +</p> +<p> +Desire is learning to be glad, thinking of Kenneth and Rosamond, +that this fair marriage should have been. It is so just and exactly +best; Rosamond's sweet graciousness is so precisely what Kenneth's +sterner way needed to have shine upon it; her finding and making of +all manner of pleasantness will be so good against his sharp +discernment of the wrong; they will so beautifully temper and +sustain each other! +</p> +<p> +Desire is so generous, so glad of the truth, that she can stand +aside, and let this better thing be, and say to herself that it <i>is</i> +better. +</p> +<p> +Is not this that she is growing to inwardly, more blessed than any +marriage or giving in marriage? Is it not a partaking of the +heavenly Marriage Supper? +</p> +<p> +"We two might have grumbled at the world until we grumbled at each +other." +</p> +<p> +She even said that, calmly and plainly, to herself. +</p> +<p> +And then that manna was fed to her afresh of which she had been +given first to eat so long a while ago; that thought of "the Lamb in +the midst of the Throne" came back to her. Of the Tenderness deep +within the Almightiness that holds all earth and heaven and time and +circumstance in its grasp. Her little, young, ignorant human heart +begins to rest in that great warmth and gentleness; begins to be +glad to wait there for what shall arise out of it, moving the +Almightiness for her,—even on purpose for her,—in the by-and-by; +she begins to be sure; of what, she knows not,—but of a great, +blessed, beautiful something, that just because she is at all, shall +be for her; that she shall have a part, somehow, even in the +<i>showing</i> of His good; that into the beautiful miracle-play she +shall be called, and a new song be given her, also, to sing in the +grand, long, perfect oratorio; she begins to pray quietly, that, +"loving the Lord, always above all things, she may obtain His +promises, which exceed all that she can desire." +</p> +<p> +And waiting, resting, believing, she begins also to work. This +beginning is even as an ending and forehaving, to any human soul. +</p> +<p> +I will tell you how she woke one morning; of a little poem that +wrote itself along her chamber wall. +</p> +<p> +It was a square, pleasant old room, with a window in an angle toward +the east. A great, old-fashioned mirror hung opposite, between the +windows that looked out north-westwardly; the morning and the +evening light came in upon her. Beside the solid, quaint old +furnishings of a long past time, there were also around her the +things she had been used to at home; her own little old +rocking-chair, her desk and table, and her toilet and mantel +ornaments and things of use. A pair of candle-branches with dropping +lustres,—that she had marveled at and delighted in as a child, and +had begged for herself when they fell into disuse in the +drawing-room,—stood upon the chimney along which the first +sun-rays glanced. Just in those days of the year, they struck in so +as to shine level through the clear prisms, and break into a hundred +little rainbows. +</p> +<p> +She opened her eyes, this fair October morning, and lay and looked +at the little scattered glories. +</p> +<p> +All around the room, on walls, curtains, ceiling,—falling like +bright soft jewels upon table and floor, touching everything with a +magic splendor,—were globes and shafts of colored light. Softly +blended from glowing red to tenderly fervid blue, they lay in +various forms and fragments, as the beam refracted or the objects +caught them. +</p> +<p> +Just on the edge of the deep, opposite window-frame, clung one +vivid, separate flash of perfect azure, all alone, and farthest off +of all. +</p> +<p> +Desire wondered, at first glance, how it should happen till she saw, +against a closet-door ajar, a gibbous sphere of red and golden +flame. Yards apart the points were, and a shadow lay between; but +the one sure sunbeam knew no distance, and there was no radiant line +of the spectrum lost. +</p> +<p> +Desire remembered her old comparison of complementary colors: "to +see blue, and to live red," she had said, complaining. +</p> +<p> +But now she thought,—"Foreshortening! In so many things, that is +all,—if we could only see as the Sun sees!" +</p> +<p> +One bit of our living, by itself, all one deep, burning, bleeding +color, maybe; but the globe is white,—the blue is somewhere. And, +lo! a soft, still motion; a little of the flame-tint has dropped +off; it has leaped to join itself to the blue; it gives itself over; +and they are beautiful together,—they fulfill each other; yet, in +the changing never a thread falls quite away into the dark. Why, it +is like love joining itself to love again! +</p> +<p> +As God's sun climbs the horizon, His steadfast, gracious purpose, +striking into earthly conditions, seems to break, and scatter, and +divide. Half our heart is here, half there; our need and ache are +severed from their help and answer; the tender blue waits far off +for the eager, asking red; yet just as surely as His light shines +on, and our life moves under it, so surely, across whatever gulf, +the beauty shall all be one again; so surely does it even now move +all together, perfect and close always under His eye, who never +sends a <i>half</i> ray anywhere. +</p> +<hr> +<p> +She read her little poem,—sent to her; she read it through. She +rose up glad and strong; her room was full of glorious sunshine now; +the broken bits of color were all taken up in one full pouring of +the day. +</p> +<p> +She went down with the light of it in her heart, and all about her. +</p> +<p> +Uncle Oldways met her at the foot of the wide staircase. "Good-day, +child!" he said to her in his quaint fashion. "Why it <i>is</i> good day! +Your face shines." +</p> +<p> +"You have given me a beautiful east window, uncle," said Desire, +"and the morning has come in!" +</p> +<p> +And from the second step, where she still stood, she bent forward a +little, put her hands softly upon his shoulders, and for the first +time, kissed his cheek. +</p> + + +<div style="height: 6em;"><br><br><br><br><br><br></div> +<hr class="full" noshade> +<p>***END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK REAL FOLKS***</p> +<p>******* This file should be named 13997-h.txt or 13997-h.zip *******</p> +<p>This and all associated files of various formats will be found in:<br /> +<a href="https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/1/3/9/9/13997">https://www.gutenberg.org/1/3/9/9/13997</a></p> +<p>Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed.</p> + +<p>Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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Whitney + +Release Date: November 9, 2004 [eBook #13997] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-646-US (US-ASCII) + + +***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK REAL FOLKS*** + + +E-text prepared by Janet Kegg and the Project Gutenberg Online Distributed +Proofreading Team + + + +REAL FOLKS + +by + +MRS. A. D. T. WHITNEY + +1893 + + + + + + + +CONTENTS + + + I. THIS WAY, AND THAT + II. LUCLARION + III. BY STORY-RAIL: TWENTY-SIX YEARS AN HOUR + IV. AFTERWARDS IS A LONG TIME + V. HOW THE NEWS CAME TO HOMESWORTH + VI. AND + VII. WAKING UP + VIII. EAVESDROPPING IN ASPEN STREET + IX. HAZEL'S INSPIRATION + X. COCKLES AND CRAMBO + XI. MORE WITCH-WORK + XII. CRUMBS + XIII. PIECES OF WORLDS + XIV. "SESAME; AND LILIES" + XV. WITH ALL ONE'S MIGHT + XVI. SWARMING + XVII. QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS + XVIII. ALL AT ONCE + XIX. INSIDE + XX. NEIGHBORS AND NEXT OF KIN + XXI. THE HORSESHOE + XXII. MORNING GLORIES + + + + + +I. + +THIS WAY, AND THAT. + + +The parlor blinds were shut, and all the windows of the third-story +rooms were shaded; but the pantry window, looking out on a long low +shed, such as city houses have to keep their wood in and to dry +their clothes upon, was open; and out at this window had come two +little girls, with quiet steps and hushed voices, and carried their +books and crickets to the very further end, establishing themselves +there, where the shade of a tall, round fir tree, planted at the +foot of the yard below, fell across the building of a morning. + +"It was prettier down on the bricks," Luclarion had told them. But +they thought otherwise. + +"Luclarion doesn't know," said Frank. "People _don't_ know things, I +think. I wonder why, when they've got old, and ought to? It's like +the sea-shore here, I guess, only the stones are all stuck down, and +you mustn't pick up the loose ones either." + +Frank touched lightly, as she spoke, the white and black and gray +bits of gravel that covered the flat roof. + +"And it smells--like the pine forests!" + +The sun was hot and bright upon the fir branches and along the +tar-cemented roof. + +"How do you know about sea-shores and pine forests?" asked Laura, +with crushing common sense. + +"I don't know; but I do," said Frank. + +"You don't know anything but stories and pictures and one tree, and +a little gravel, all stuck down tight." + +"I'm glad I've got one tree. And the rest of it,--why listen! It's +in the _word_, Laura. _Forest_. Doesn't that sound like thousands of +them, all fresh and rustling? And Ellen went to the sea-shore, in +that book; and picked up pebbles; and the sea came up to her feet, +just as the air comes up here, and you can't get any farther,"--said +Frank, walking to the very edge and putting one foot out over, while +the wind blew in her face up the long opening between rows of brick +houses of which theirs was in the midst upon one side. + +"A great sea!" exclaimed Laura, contemptuously. "With all those +other wood-sheds right out in it, all the way down!" + +"Well, there's another side to the sea; and capes, and islands," +answered Frank, turning back. "Besides, I don't pretend it _is_; I +only think it seems a little bit like it. I'm often put in mind of +things. I don't know why." + +"I'll tell you what it is like," said Laura. "It's like the gallery +at church, where the singers stand up in a row, and look down, and +all the people look up at them. I like high places. I like Cecilia, +in the 'Bracelets,' sitting at the top, behind, when her name was +called out for the prize; and 'they all made way, and she was on the +floor in an instant.' I should like to have been Cecilia!" + +"Leonora was a great deal the best." + +"I know it; but she don't _stand out_." + +"Laura! You're just like the Pharisees! You're always wishing for +long clothes and high seats!" + +"There ain't any Pharisees, nowadays," said Laura, securely. After +which, of course, there was nothing more to be insisted. + +Mrs. Lake, the housekeeper, came to the middle upper window, and +moved the blind a little. Frank and Laura were behind the fir. They +saw her through the branches. She, through the farther thickness of +the tree, did not notice them. + +"That was good," said Laura. "She would have beckoned us in. I hate +that forefinger of hers; it's always hushing or beckoning. It's only +two inches long. What makes us have to mind it so?" + +"She puts it all into those two inches," answered Frank. "All the +_must_ there is in the house. And then you've got to." + +"I wouldn't--if father wasn't sick." + +"Laura," said Frank, gravely, "I don't believe father is going to +get well. What do you suppose they're letting us stay at home from +school for?" + +"O, that," said Laura, "was because Mrs. Lake didn't have time to +sew the sleeves into your brown dress." + +"I could have worn my gingham, Laura. What if he should die pretty +soon? I heard her tell Luclarion that there must be a change before +long. They talk in little bits, Laura, and they say it solemn." + +The children were silent for a few minutes. Frank sat looking +through the fir-tree at the far-off flecks of blue. + +Mr. Shiere had been ill a long time. They could hardly think, now, +what it would seem again not to have a sick father; and they had had +no mother for several years,--many out of their short remembrance of +life. Mrs. Lake had kept the house, and mended their clothes, and +held up her forefinger at them. Even when Mr. Shiere was well, he +had been a reserved man, much absorbed in business since his wife's +death, he had been a very sad man. He loved his children, but he was +very little with them. Frank and Laura could not feel the shock and +loss that children feel when death comes and robs them suddenly of a +close companionship. + +"What do you suppose would happen then?" asked Laura, after awhile. +"We shouldn't be anybody's children." + +"Yes, we should," said Frank; "we should be God's.' + +"Everybody else is that,--_besides_," said Laura. + +"We shall have black silk pantalets again, I suppose,"--she began, +afresh, looking down at her white ones with double crimped +ruffles,--"and Mrs. Gibbs will come in and help, and we shall have +to pipe and overcast." + +"O, Laura, how nice it was ever so long ago!" cried Frank, suddenly, +never heeding the pantalets, "when mother sent us out to ask company +to tea,--that pleasant Saturday, you know,--and made lace pelerines +for our dolls while we were gone! It's horrid, when other girls have +mothers, only to have a _housekeeper_! And pretty soon we sha'n't +have anything, only a little corner, away back, that we can't hardly +recollect." + +"They'll do something with us; they always do," said Laura, +composedly. + +The children of this world, even _as_ children, are wisest in their +generation. Frank believed they would be God's children; she could +not see exactly what was to come of that, though, practically. Laura +knew that people always did something; something would be sure to +be done with them. She was not frightened; she was even a little +curious. + +A head came up at the corner of the shed behind them, a pair of +shoulders,--high, square, turned forward; a pair of arms, long +thence to the elbows, as they say women's are who might be good +nurses of children; the hands held on to the sides of the steep +steps that led up from the bricked yard. The young woman's face was +thin and strong; two great, clear, hazel eyes looked straight out, +like arrow shots; it was a clear, undeviating glance; it never +wandered, or searched, or wavered, any more than a sunbeam; it +struck full upon whatever was there; it struck _through_ many things +that were transparent to their quality. She had square, white, +strong teeth, that set together like the faces of a die; they showed +easily when she spoke, but the lips closed over them absolutely and +firmly. Yet they were pleasant lips, and had a smile in them that +never went quite out; it lay in all the muscles of the mouth and +chin; it lay behind, in the living spirit that had moulded to itself +the muscles. + +This was Luclarion. + +"Your Aunt Oldways and Mrs. Oferr have come. Hurry in!" + +Now Mrs. Oldways was only an uncle's wife; Mrs. Oferr was their +father's sister. But Mrs. Oferr was a rich woman who lived in New +York, and who came on grand and potent, with a scarf or a pair of +shoe-bows for each of the children in her big trunk, and a hundred +and one suggestions for their ordering and behavior at her tongue's +end, once a year. Mrs. Oldways lived up in the country, and was +"aunt" to half the neighborhood at home, and turned into an aunt +instantly, wherever she went and found children. If there were no +children, perhaps older folks did not call her by the name, but they +felt the special human kinship that is of no-blood or law, but is +next to motherhood in the spirit. + +Mrs. Oferr found the open pantry window, before the children had +got in. + +"Out there!" she exclaimed, "in the eyes of all the neighbors in the +circumstances of the family! Who does, or _don't_ look after you?" + +"Hearts'-sake!" came up the pleasant tones of Mrs. Oldways from +behind, "how can they help it? There isn't any other out-doors. If +they were down at Homesworth now, there'd be the lilac garden and +the old chestnuts, and the seat under the wall. Poor little souls!" +she added, pitifully, as she lifted them in, and kissed them. "It's +well they can take any comfort. Let 'em have all there is." + +Mrs. Oferr drew the blinds, and closed the window. + +Frank and Laura remembered the strangeness of that day all their +lives. How they sat, shy and silent, while Luclarion brought in cake +and wine; how Mrs. Oferr sat in the large morocco easy-chair and +took some; and Mrs. Oldways lifted Laura, great girl as she was, +into her lap first, and broke a slice for her; how Mrs. Oldways went +up-stairs to Mrs. Lake, and then down into the kitchen to do +something that was needed; and Mrs. Oferr, after she had visited her +brother, lay down in the spare chamber for a nap, tired with her +long journey from New York, though it had been by boat and cars, +while there was a long staging from Homesworth down to Nashua, on +Mrs. Oldways' route. Mrs. Oldways, however, was "used," she said, +"to stepping round." It was the sitting that had tired her. + +How they were told not to go out any more, or to run up and +down-stairs; and how they sat in the front windows, looking out +through the green slats at so much of the street world as they could +see in strips; how they obtained surreptitious bits of bread from +dinner, and opened a bit of the sash, and shoved out crumbs under +the blinds for the pigeons that flew down upon the sidewalk; how +they wondered what kind of a day it was in other houses, where there +were not circumstances in the family, where children played, and +fathers were not ill, but came and went to and from their stores; +and where two aunts had not come, both at once, from great ways off, +to wait for something strange and awful that was likely to befall. + +When they were taken in, at bedtime, to kiss their father and say +good-night, there was something portentous in the stillness there; +in the look of the sick man, raised high against the pillows, and +turning his eyes wistfully toward them, with no slightest movement +of the head; in the waiting aspect of all things,--the appearance as +of everybody being to sit up all night except themselves. + +Edward Shiere brought his children close to him with the magnetism +of that look; they bent down to receive his kiss and his good-night, +so long and solemn. He had not been in the way of talking to them +about religion in his life. He had only insisted on their truth and +obedience; that was the beginning of all religion. Now it was given +him in the hour of his death what he should speak; and because he +had never said many such words to them before, they fell like the +very touch of the Holy Ghost upon their young spirits now,-- + +"Love God, and keep His commandments. Good-by." + +In the morning, when they woke, Mrs. Lake was in their room, talking +in a low voice with Mrs. Oferr, who stood by an open bureau. They +heard Luclarion dusting down the stairs. + +Who was taking care of their father? + +They did not ask. In the night, he had been taken care of. It was +morning with him, now, also. + +Mrs. Lake and Mrs. Oferr were calculating,--about black pantalets, +and other things. + +This story is not with the details of their early orphan life. When +Edward Shiere was buried came family consultations. The two aunts +were the nearest friends. Nobody thought of Mr. Titus Oldways. He +never was counted. He was Mrs. Shiere's uncle,--Aunt Oldways' +uncle-in-law, therefore, and grand-uncle to these children. But +Titus Oldways never took up any family responsibilities; he had been +shy of them all his single, solitary life. He seemed to think he +could not drop them as he could other things, if he did not find +them satisfactory. Besides, what would he know about two young +girls? + +He saw the death in the paper, and came to the funeral; then he went +away again to his house in Greenley Street at the far West End, and +to his stiff old housekeeper, Mrs. Froke, who knew his stiff old +ways. And, turning his back on everybody, everybody forgot all about +him. Except as now and then, at intervals of years, there broke out +here or there, at some distant point in some family crisis, a sudden +recollection from which would spring a half suggestion, "Why, +there's Uncle Titus! If he was only,"--or, "if he would only,"--and +there it ended. Much as it might be with a housewife, who says of +some stored-away possession forty times, perhaps, before it ever +turns out available, "Why, there's that old gray taffety! If it were +only green, now!" or, "If there were three or four yards more of +it!" + +Uncle Titus was just Uncle Titus, neither more nor less; so Mrs. +Oferr and Aunt Oldways consulted about their own measures and +materials; and never reckoned the old taffety at all. There was +money enough to clothe and educate; little more. + +"I will take home _one_," said Mrs. Oferr, distinctly. + +So, they were to be separated? + +They did not realize what this was, however. They were told of +letters and visits; of sweet country-living, of city sights and +pleasures; of kittens and birds' nests, and the great barns; of +music and dancing lessons, and little parties,--"by-and-by, when it +was proper." + +"Let me go to Homesworth," whispered Frank to Aunt Oldways. + +Laura gravitated as surely to the streets and shops, and the great +school of young ladies. + +"One taken and the other left," quoted Luclarion, over the packing +of the two small trunks. + +"We're both going," says Laura, surprised. "_One_ taken? Where?" + +"Where the carcass is," answered Luclarion. + +"There's one thing you'll have to see to for yourselves. I can't +pack it. It won't go into the trunks." + +"What, Luclarion?" + +"What your father said to you that night." + +They were silent. Presently Frank answered, softly,--"I hope I +shan't forget that." + +Laura, the pause once broken, remarked, rather glibly, that she "was +afraid there wouldn't be much chance to recollect things at Aunt +Oferr's." + +"She isn't exactly what I call a heavenly-minded woman," said +Luclarion, quietly. + +"She is very much _occupied_," replied Laura, grandly taking up the +Oferr style. "She visits a great deal, and she goes out in the +carriage. You have to change your dress every day for dinner, and +I'm to take French lessons." + +The absurd little sinner was actually proud of her magnificent +temptations. She was only a child. Men and women never are, of +course. + +"I'm afraid it will be pretty hard to remember," repeated Laura, +with condescension. + +"_That's_ your stump!" + +Luclarion fixed the steadfast arrow of her look straight upon her, +and drew the bow with this twang. + + + + +II. + +LUCLARION. + + +How Mrs. Grapp ever came to, was the wonder. Her having the baby was +nothing. Her having the name for it was the astonishment. + +Her own name was Lucy; her husband's Luther: that, perhaps, +accounted for the first syllable; afterwards, whether her mind +lapsed off into combinations of such outshining appellatives as +"Clara" and "Marion," or whether Mr. Grapp having played the +clarionet, and wooed her sweetly with it in her youth, had anything +to do with it, cannot be told; but in those prescriptive days of +quiet which followed the domestic advent, the name did somehow grow +together in the fancy of Mrs. Luther; and in due time the life-atom +which had been born indistinguishable into the natural world, was +baptized into the Christian Church as "Luclarion" Grapp. +Thenceforth, and no wonder, it took to itself a very especial +individuality, and became what this story will partly tell. + +Marcus Grapp, who had the start of Luclarion in this "meander,"--as +their father called the vale of tears,--by just two years' time, and +was y-_clipped_, by everybody but his mother "Mark,"--in his turn, +as they grew old together, cut his sister down to "Luke." Then +Luther Grapp called them both "The Apostles." And not far wrong; +since if ever the kingdom of heaven does send forth its +Apostles--nay, its little Christs--into the work on earth, in these +days, it is as little children into loving homes. + +The Apostles got up early one autumn morning, when Mark was about +six years old, and Luke four. They crept out of their small +trundle-bed in their mother's room adjoining the great kitchen, and +made their way out softly to the warm wide hearth. + +There were new shoes, a pair apiece, brought home from the Mills the +night before, set under the little crickets in the corners. These +had got into their dreams, somehow, and into the red rooster's first +halloo from the end room roof, and into the streak of pale daylight +that just stirred and lifted the darkness, and showed doors and +windows, but not yet the blue meeting-houses on the yellow +wall-paper, by which they always knew when it was really morning; +and while Mrs. Grapp was taking that last beguiling nap in which one +is conscious that one means to get up presently, and rests so +sweetly on one's good intentions, letting the hazy mirage of the +day's work that is to be done play along the horizon of dim thoughts +with its unrisen activities,--two little flannel night-gowns were +cuddled in small heaps by the chimney-side, little bare feet were +trying themselves into the new shoes, and lifting themselves up, +crippled with two inches of stout string between the heels. + +Then the shoes were turned into spans of horses, and chirruped and +trotted softly into their cricket-stables; and then--what else was +there to do, until the strings were cut, and the flannel night-gowns +taken off? + +It was so still out here, in the big, busy, day-time room; it was +like getting back where the world had not begun; surely one must do +something wonderful with the materials all lying round, and such an +opportunity as that. + +It was old-time then, when kitchens had fire-places; or rather the +house was chiefly fire-place, in front of and about which was more +or less of kitchen-space. In the deep fire-place lay a huge mound of +gray ashes, a Vesuvius, under which red bowels of fire lay hidden. +In one corner of the chimney leaned an iron bar, used sometimes in +some forgotten, old fashioned way, across dogs or pothooks,--who +knows now? At any rate, there it always was. + +Mark, ambitious, put all his little strength to it this morning and +drew it down, carefully, without much clatter, on the hearth. Then +he thought how it would turn red under those ashes, where the big +coals were, and how it would shine and sparkle when he pulled it out +again, like the red-hot, hissing iron Jack-the-Giant-Killer struck +into the one-eyed monster's eye. So he shoved it in; and forgot it +there, while he told Luke--very much twisted and dislocated, and +misjoined--the leading incidents of the giant story; and then lapsed +off, by some queer association, into the Scripture narrative of +Joseph and his brethren, who "pulled his red coat off, and put him +in a _fit_, and left him there." + +"And then what?" says Luke. + +"Then,--O, my iron's done! See here, Luke!"--and taking it prudently +with the tongs, he pulled back the rod, till the glowing end, a foot +or more of live, palpitating, flamy red, lay out upon the broad open +bricks. + +"There, Luke! You daresn't put your foot on _that_!" + +Dear little Luke, who wouldn't, at even four years old, be dared! + +And dear little white, tender, pink-and-lily foot! + +The next instant, a shriek of pain shot through Mrs. Grapp's ears, +and sent her out of her dreams and out of her bed, and with one +single impulse into the kitchen, with her own bare feet, and in her +night-gown. + +The little foot had only touched; a dainty, timid, yet most +resolute touch; but the sweet flesh shriveled, and the fierce +anguish ran up every fibre of the baby body, to the very heart and +brain. + +"O! O, O!" came the long, pitiful, shivering cries, as the mother +gathered her in her arms. + +"What is it? What did you do? How came you to?" And all the while +she moved quickly here and there, to cupboard and press-drawer, +holding the child fast, and picking up as she could with one hand, +cotton wool, and sweet-oil flask, and old linen bits; and so she +bound it up, saying still, every now and again, as all she could +say,--"What _did_ you do? How came you to?" + +Till, in a little lull of the fearful smart, as the air was shut +away, and the oil felt momentarily cool upon the ache, Luke answered +her,-- + +"He hed I dare-hn't, and ho I did!" + +"You little fool!" + +The rough word was half reaction of relief, that the child could +speak at all, half horrible spasm of all her own motherly nerves +that thrilled through and through with every pang that touched the +little frame, hers also. Mothers never do part bonds with babies +they have borne. Until the day they die, each quiver of their life +goes back straight to the heart beside which it began. + +"You Marcus! What did you mean?" + +"I meant she darsn't; and she no business to 'a dars't," said Mark, +pale with remorse and fright, but standing up stiff and manful, with +bare common sense, when brought to bay. And then he marched away +into his mother's bedroom, plunged his head down into the clothes, +and cried,--harder than Luclarion. + +Nobody wore any new shoes that day; Mark for a punishment,--though +he flouted at the penalty as such, with an, "I guess you'd see me!" +And there were many days before poor little Luclarion could wear any +shoes at all. + +The foot got well, however, without hindrance. But Luke was the same +little fool as ever; that was not burnt out. She would never be +"dared" to anything. + +They called it "stumps" as they grew older. They played "stumps" all +through the barns and woods and meadows; over walls and rocks, and +rafters and house-roofs. But the burnt foot saved Luke's neck scores +of times, doubtless. Mark remembered it; he never "stumped" her to +any certain hurt, or where he could not lead the way himself. + +The mischief they got into and out of is no part of my story; but +one day something happened--things do happen as far back in lives as +that--which gave Luclarion her clew to the world. + +They had got into the best parlor,--that sacred place of the New +England farm-house, that is only entered by the high-priests +themselves on solemn festivals, weddings and burials, Thanksgivings +and quiltings; or devoutly, now and then to set the shrine in order, +shut the blinds again, and so depart, leaving it to gather the gloom +and grandeur that things and places and people do when they are good +for nothing else. + +The children had been left alone; for their mother had gone to a +sewing society, and Grashy, the girl, was up-stairs in her +kitchen-chamber-bedroom, with a nail over the door-latch to keep +them out while she "fixed over" her best gown. + +"Le's play Lake Ontario," says Marcus. + +Now Lake Ontario, however they had pitched upon it, stood with them +for all the waters that are upon the face of the earth, and all the +confusion and peril of them. To play it, they turned the room into +one vast shipwreck, of upset and piled up chairs, stools, boxes, +buckets, and what else they could lay hands on; and among and over +them they navigated their difficult and hilarious way. By no means +were they to touch the floor; that was the Lake,--that were to +drown. + +It was Columbus sometimes; sometimes it was Captain Cook; to-day, it +was no less than Jason sailing after the golden fleece. + +Out of odd volumes in the garret, and out of "best books" taken down +from the secretary in the "settin'-room," and put into their hands, +with charges, of a Sunday, to keep them still, they had got these +things, jumbled into strange far-off and near fantasies in their +childish minds. "Lake Ontario" included and connected all. + +"I'll tell you what it is," said Marcus, tumbling up against the +parlor door and an idea at once. "In here!" + +"What?" asked Luke, breathless, without looking up, and paddling +with the shovel, from an inverted rocking-chair. + +"The golden thing! Hush!" + +At this moment Grashy came into the kitchen, took a little tin +kettle from a nail over the dresser, and her sun-bonnet from another +behind the door, and made her way through the apartment as well as +she could for bristling chair-legs, with exemplary placidity. She +was used to "Lake Ontario." + +"Don't get into any mischief, you Apostles," was her injunction. +"I'm goin' down to Miss Ruddock's for some 'east." + +"Good,"; says Mark, the instant the door was shut "Now this is +Colchis, and I'm going in." + +He pronounced it much like "cold-cheese," and it never occurred to +him that he was naming any unusual or ancient locality. There was a +"Jason" in the Mills Village. He kept a grocer's shop. Colchis might +be close by for all he knew; out beyond the wall, perhaps, among the +old barrels. Children _place_ all they read or hear about, or even +all they imagine, within a very limited horizon. They cannot go +beyond their world. Why should they? Neither could those very +venerable ancients. + +"'Tain't," says Luclarion, with unbeguiled practicality. "It's just +ma's best parlor, and you mustn't." + +It was the "mustn't" that was the whole of it. If Mark had asserted +that the back kitchen, or the cellar-way closet was Colchis, she +would have indorsed it with enthusiasm, and followed on like a loyal +Argonaut, as she was. But her imagination here was prepossessed. +Nothing in old fable could be more environed with awe and mystery +than this best parlor. + +"And, besides," said Luclarion, "I don't care for the golden +fleece; I'm tired of it. Let's play something else." + +"I'll tell you what there is in here," persisted Mark. "There's two +enchanted children. I've seen 'em!" + +"Just as though," said Luke contemptuously. "Ma ain't a witch." + +"Tain't ma. She don't know. They ain't visible to her. _She_ thinks +it's nothing but the best parlor. But it opens out, right into the +witch country,--not for her. 'Twill if we go. See if it don't." + +He had got hold of her now; Luclarion could not resist that. +Anything might be true of that wonderful best room, after all. It +was the farthest Euxine, the witch-land, everything, to them. + +So Mark turned the latch and they crept in + +"We must open a shutter," Mark said, groping his way. + +"Grashy will be back," suggested Luke, fearfully. + +"Guess so!" said Mark. "She ain't got coaxed to take her sun-bonnet +off yet, an' it'll take her ninety-'leven hours to get it on again." + +He had let in the light now from the south window. + +The red carpet on the floor; the high sofa of figured hair-cloth, +with brass-headed nails, and brass rosettes in the ends of the hard, +cylinder pillows; the tall, carved cupboard press, its doors and +drawers glittering with hanging brass handles; right opposite the +door by which they had come in, the large, leaning mirror, +gilt--garnished with grooved and beaded rim and an eagle and +ball-chains over the top,--all this, opening right in from the +familiar every-day kitchen and their Lake Ontario,--it certainly +meant something that such a place should be. It meant a great deal +more than sixteen feet square could hold, and what it really was did +not stop short at the gray-and-crimson stenciled walls. + +The two were all alone in it; perhaps they had never been all alone +in it before. I think, notwithstanding their mischief and +enterprise, they never had. + +And deep in the mirror, face to face with them, coming down, it +seemed, the red slant of an inner and more brilliant floor, they saw +two other little figures. Their own they knew, really, but elsewhere +they never saw their own figures entire. There was not another +looking-glass in the house that was more than two feet long, and +they were all hung up so high! + +"There!" whispered Mark. "There they are, and they can't get out." + +"Of course they can't," said sensible Luclarion. + +"If we only knew the right thing to say, or do, they might," said +Mark. "It's that they're waiting for, you see. They always do. It's +like the sleeping beauty Grashy told us." + +"Then they've got to wait a hundred years," said Luke. + +"Who knows when they began?" + +"They do everything that we do," said Luclarion, her imagination +kindling, but as under protest. "If we could jump in perhaps they +would jump out." + +"We might jump _at_ 'em," said Marcus. "Jest get 'em going, and +may-be they'd jump over. Le's try." + +So they set up two chairs from Lake Ontario in the kitchen doorway, +to jump from; but they could only jump to the middle round of the +carpet, and who could expect that the shadow children should be +beguiled by that into a leap over bounds? They only came to the +middle round of _their_ carpet. + +"We must go nearer; we must set the chairs in the middle, and jump +close. Jest _shave_, you know," said Marcus. + +"O, I'm afraid," said Luclarion. + +"I'll tell you what! Le's _run_ and jump! Clear from the other side +of the kitchen, you know. Then they'll have to run too, and may-be +they can't stop." + +So they picked up chairs and made a path, and ran from across the +broad kitchen into the parlor doorway, quite on to the middle round +of the carpet, and then with great leaps came down bodily upon the +floor close in front of the large glass that, leaned over them, with +two little fallen figures in it, rolling aside quickly also, over +the slanting red carpet. + +But, O dear what did it? + +Had the time come, anyhow, for the old string to part its last +fibre, that held the mirror tilting from the wall,--or was it the +crash of a completed spell? + +There came a snap,--a strain,--as some nails or screws that held it +otherwise gave way before the forward pressing weight, and down, +flat-face upon the floor, between the children, covering them with +fragments of splintered glass and gilded wood,--eagle, ball-chains, +and all,--that whole magnificence and mystery lay prostrate. + +Behind, where it had been, was a blank, brown-stained cobwebbed +wall, thrown up harsh and sudden against them, making the room +small, and all the enchanted chamber, with its red slanting carpet, +and its far reflected corners, gone. + +The house hushed up again after that terrible noise, and stood just +the same as ever. When a thing like that happens, it tells its own +story, just once, and then it is over. _People_ are different. They +keep talking. + +There was Grashy to come home. She had not got there in time to hear +the house tell it. She must learn it from the children. Why? + +"Because they knew," Luclarion said. "Because, then, they could not +wait and let it be found out." + +"We never touched it," said Mark. + +"We jumped," said Luke. + +"We couldn't help it, if _that_ did it. S'posin' we'd jumped in the +kitchen, or--the--flat-irons had tumbled down,--or anything? That +old string was all wore out." + +"Well, we was here, and we jumped; and we know." + +"We was here, of course; and of course we couldn't help knowing, +with all that slam-bang. Why, it almost upset Lake Ontario! We can +tell how it slammed, and how we thought the house was coming down. I +did." + +"And how we were in the best parlor, and how we jumped," reiterated +Luclarion, slowly. "Marcus, it's a stump!" + +They were out in the middle of Lake Ontario now, sitting right down +underneath the wrecks, upon the floor; that is, under water, without +ever thinking of it. The parlor door was shut, with all that +disaster and dismay behind it. + +"Go ahead, then!" said Marcus, and he laid himself back desperately +on the floor. "There's Grashy!" + +"Sakes and patience!" ejaculated Grashy, merrily, coming in. +"They're drownded,--dead, both of 'em; down to the bottom of Lake +Ontariah!" + +"No we ain't," said Luclarion, quietly. "It isn't Lake Ontario now. +It's nothing but a clutter. But there's an awful thing in the best +parlor, and we don't know whether we did it or not. We were in +there, and we jumped." + +Grashy went straight to the parlor door, and opened it. She looked +in, turned pale, and said "'Lection!" + +That is a word the women have, up in the country, for solemn +surprise, or exceeding emergency, or dire confusion. I do not know +whether it is derived from religion or politics. It denotes a vital +crisis, either way, and your hands full. Perhaps it had the +theological association in Grashy's mind, for the next thing she +said was, "My soul!" + +"Do you know what that's a sign of, you children?" + +"Sign the old thing was rotten," said Marcus, rather sullenly. + +"Wish that was all," said Grashy, her lips white yet. "Hope there +mayn't nothin' dreadful happen in this house before the year's out. +It's wuss'n thirteen at the table." + +"Do you s'pose we did it?" asked Luke, anxiously. + +"Where was you when it tumbled?" + +"Right in front of it. But we were rolling away. _We_ tumbled." + +"'Twould er come down the fust jar, anyway, if a door had slammed. +The string's cut right through," said Grashy, looking at the two +ends sticking up stiff and straight from the top fragment of the +frame. "But the mercy is you war'n't smashed yourselves to bits and +flinders. Think o'that!" + +"Do you s'pose ma'll think of that?" asked Luclarion. + +"Well--yes; but it may make her kinder madder,--just at first, you +know. Between you and me and the lookin'-glass, you see,--well, yer +ma is a pretty strong-feelin' woman," said Grashy, reflectively. +"'Fi was you I wouldn't say nothin' about it. What's the use? _I_ +shan't." + +"It's a stump," repeated Luclarion, sadly, but in very resolute +earnest. + +Grashy stared. + +"Well, if you ain't the curiousest young one, Luke Grapp!" said she, +only half comprehending. + +When Mrs. Grapp came home, Luclarion went into her bedroom after +her, and told her the whole story. Mrs. Grapp went into the parlor, +viewed the scene of calamity, took in the sense of loss and narrowly +escaped danger, laid the whole weight of them upon the disobedience +to be dealt with, and just as she had said, "You little fool!" out +of the very shock of her own distress when Luke had burned her baby +foot, she turned back now, took the two children up-stairs in +silence, gave them each a good old orthodox whipping, and tucked +them into their beds. + +They slept one on each side of the great kitchen-chamber. + +"Mark," whispered Luke, tenderly, after Mrs. Grapp's step had died +away down the stairs. "How do you feel?" + +"Hot!" said Mark. "How do you?" + +"You ain't mad with me, be you?" + +"No." + +"Then I feel real cleared up and comfortable. But it _was_ a stump, +wasn't it?" + + * * * * * + +From that time forward, Luclarion Grapp had got her light to go by. +She understood life. It was "stumps" all through. The Lord set them, +and let them; she found that out afterward, when she was older, and +"experienced religion." I think she was mistaken in the dates, +though; it was _recognition_, this later thing; the experience was +away back,--at Lake Ontario. + +It was a stump when her father died, and her mother had to manage +the farm, and she to help her. The mortgage they had to work off was +a stump; but faith and Luclarion's dairy did it. It was a stump when +Marcus wanted to go to college, and they undertook that, after the +mortgage. It was a stump when Adam Burge wanted her to marry him, +and go and live in the long red cottage at Side Hill, and she could +not go till they had got through with helping Marcus. It was a +terrible stump when Adam Burge married Persis Cone instead, and she +had to live on and bear it. It was a stump when her mother died, and +the farm was sold. + +Marcus married; he never knew; he had a belles-lettres professorship +in a new college up in D----. He would not take a cent of the farm +money; he had had his share long ago; the four thousand dollars +were invested for Luke. He did the best he could, and all he knew; +but human creatures can never pay each other back. Only God can do +that, either way. + +Luclarion did not stay in ----. There were too few there now, and +too many. She came down to Boston. Her two hundred and eighty +dollars a year was very good, as far as it went, but it would not +keep her idle; neither did she wish to live idle. She learned +dress-making; she had taste and knack; she was doing well; she +enjoyed going about from house to house for her days' work, and then +coming back to her snug room at night, and her cup of tea and her +book. + +Then it turned out that so much sewing was not good for her; her +health was threatened; she had been used to farm work and "all +out-doors." It was a "stump" again. That was all she called it; she +did not talk piously about a "cross." What difference did it make? +There is another word, also, for "cross" in Hebrew. + +Luclarion came at last to live with Mrs. Edward Shiere. And in that +household, at eight and twenty, we have just found her. + + + + +III. + +BY STORY-RAIL: TWENTY-SIX YEARS AN HOUR. + + +Laura Shiere did not think much about the "stump," when, in her dark +gray merino travelling dress, and her black ribbons, nicely +appointed, as Mrs. Oferr's niece should be, down to her black kid +gloves and broad-hemmed pocket-handkerchief, and little black straw +travelling-basket (for morocco bags were not yet in those days), she +stepped into the train with her aunt at the Providence Station, on +her way to Stonington and New York. + +The world seemed easily laid out before her. She was like a cousin +in a story-book, going to arrive presently at a new home, and begin +a new life, in which she would be very interesting to herself and to +those about her. She felt rather important, too, with her money +independence--there being really "property" of hers to be spoken of +as she had heard it of late. She had her mother's diamond ring on +her third finger, and was comfortably conscious of it when she drew +off her left-hand glove. Laura Shiere's nature had only been +stirred, as yet, a very little below the surface, and the surface +rippled pleasantly in the sunlight that was breaking forth from the +brief clouds. + +Among the disreputable and vociferous crowd of New York hack +drivers, that swarmed upon the pier as the _Massachusetts_ glided +into her dock, it was good to see that subduedly respectable and +consciously private and superior man in the drab overcoat and the +nice gloves and boots, who came forward and touched his hat to Mrs. +Oferr, took her shawl and basket, and led the way, among the +aggravated public menials, to a handsome private carriage waiting on +the street. + +"All well at home, David?" asked Mrs. Oferr. + +"All well, ma'am, thank you," replied David. + +And another man sat upon the box, in another drab coat, and touched +_his_ hat; and when they reached Waverley Place and alighted, Mrs. +Oferr had something to say to him of certain directions, and +addressed him as "Moses." + +It was very grand and wonderful to order "David" and "Moses" about. +Laura felt as if her aunt were something only a little less than +"Michael with the sword." Laura had a susceptibility for dignities; +she appreciated, as we have seen out upon the wood-shed, "high +places, and all the people looking up." + +David and Moses were brothers, she found out; she supposed that was +the reason they dressed alike, in drab coats; as she and Frank used +to wear their red merinos, and their blue ginghams. A little spasm +did come up in her throat for a minute, as she thought of the old +frocks and the old times already dropped so far behind; but Alice +and Geraldine Oferr met her the next instant on the broad staircase +at the back of the marble-paved hall, looking slight and delicate, +and princess-like, in the grand space built about them for their +lives to move in; and in the distance and magnificence of it all, +the faint little momentary image of Frank faded away. + +She went up with them out of the great square hall, over the stately +staircase, past the open doors of drawing-rooms and library, +stretching back in a long suite, with the conservatory gleaming +green from the far end over the garden, up the second stairway to +the floor where their rooms were; bedrooms and nursery,--this last +called so still, though the great, airy front-room was the place +used now for their books and amusements as growing young +ladies,--all leading one into another around the skylighted upper +hall, into which the sunshine came streaked with amber and violet +from the richly colored glass. She had a little side apartment given +to her for her own, with a recessed window, in which were blossoming +plants just set there from the conservatory; opposite stood a white, +low bed in a curtained alcove, and beyond was a dressing-closet. +Laura thought she should not be able to sleep there at all for a +night or two, for the beauty of it and the good time she should be +having. + +At that same moment Frank and her Aunt Oldways were getting down +from the stage that had brought them over from Ipsley, where they +slept after their day's journey from Boston,--at the doorstone of +the low, broad-roofed, wide-built, roomy old farm-house in +Homesworth. + +Right in the edge of the town it stood, its fields stretching over +the south slope of green hills in sunny uplands, and down in meadowy +richness to the wild, hidden, sequestered river-side, where the +brown water ran through a narrow, rocky valley,--Swift River they +called it. There are a great many Swift Rivers in New England. It +was only a vehement little tributary of a larger stream, beside +which lay larger towns; it was doing no work for the world, +apparently, at present; there were no mills, except a little +grist-mill to which the farmers brought their corn, cuddled among +the rocks and wild birches and alders, at a turn where the road came +down, and half a dozen planks made a bit of a bridge. + +"O, what beautiful places!" cried Frank, as they crossed the little +bridge, and glanced either way into a green, gray, silvery vista of +shrubs and rocks, and rushing water, with the white spires of +meadow-sweet and the pink hardback, and the first bright plumes of +the golden rod nodding and shining against the shade,--as they +passed the head of a narrow, grassy lane, trod by cows' feet, and +smelling of their milky breaths, and the sweetness of hay-barns,--as +they came up, at length, over the long slope of turf that carpeted +the way, as for a bride's feet, from the roadside to the very +threshold. She looked along the low, treble-piled garden wall, too, +and out to the open sheds, deep with pine chips; and upon the broad +brown house-roof, with its long, gradual decline, till its eaves +were within reach of a child's fingers from the ground; and her +quick eye took in facilities. + +"O, if Laura could see this! After the old shed-top in Brier Street, +and the one tree!" + +But Laura had got what the shed-top stood for with her; it was +Frank who had hearkened to whole forests in the stir of the one +brick-rooted fir. To that which each child had, it was already +given. + +In a week or two Frank wrote Laura a letter. It was an old-fashioned +letter, you know; a big sheet, written close, four pages, +all but the middle of the last page, which was left for the +"superscription." Then it was folded, the first leaf turned down +twice, lengthwise; then the two ends laid over, toward each other; +then the last doubling, or rather trebling, across; and the open +edge slipped over the folds. A wafer sealed it, and a thimble +pressed it,--and there were twenty-five cents postage to pay. That +was a letter in the old times, when Laura and Frank Shiere were +little girls. And this was that letter:-- + + DEAR LAURA,--We got here safe, Aunt Oldways and I, a week ago + last Saturday, and it is _beautiful_. There is a green + lane,--almost everybody has a green lane,--and the cows go up + and down, and the swallows build in the barn-eaves. They fly + out at sundown, and fill all the sky up. It is like the specks + we used to watch in the sunshine when it came in across the + kitchen, and they danced up and down and through and away, and + seemed to be live things; only we couldn't tell, you know, what + they were, or if they really did know how good it was. But + these are big and real, and you can see their wings, and you + know what they mean by it. I guess it is all the same thing, + only some things are little and some are big. You can see the + stars here, too,--such a sky full. And that is all the same + again. + + There are beautiful roofs and walls here. I guess you would + think you were high up! Harett and I go up from under the + cheese-room windows right over the whole house, and we sit on + the peak by the chimney. Harett is Mrs. Dillon's girl. Not the + girl that lives with her,--her daughter. But the girls that + live with people are daughters here. Somebody's else, I mean. + They are all alike. I suppose her name is Harriet, but they all + call her Harett. I don't like to ask her for fear she should + think I thought they didn't know how to pronounce. + + I go to school with Harett; up to the West District. We carry + brown bread and butter, and doughnuts, and cheese, and + apple-pie in tin pails, for luncheon. Don't you remember the + brown cupboard in Aunt Oldways' kitchen, how sagey, and + doughnutty, and good it always smelt? It smells just so now, + and everything tastes just the same. + + There is a great rock under an oak tree half way up to school, + by the side of the road. We always stop there to rest, coming + home. Three of the girls come the same way as far as that, and + we always save some of our dinner to eat up there, and we tell + stories. I tell them about dancing-school, and the time we went + to the theatre to see "Cinderella," and going shopping with + mother, and our little tea-parties, and the Dutch dolls we made + up in the long front chamber. O, _don't_ you remember, Laura? + What different pieces we have got into our remembrances + already! I feel as if I was making patchwork. Some-time, + may-be, I shall tell somebody about living _here_. Well, they + will be beautiful stories! Homesworth is an elegant place to + live in. You will see when you come next summer. + + There is an apple tree down in the south orchard that bends + just like a horse's back. Then the branches come up over your + head and shade you. We ride there, and we sit and eat summer + apples there. Little rosy apples with dark streaks in them all + warm with the sun. You can't think what a smell they have, just + like pinks and spice boxes. Why don't they keep a little way + off from each other in cities, and so have room for apple + trees? I don't see why they need to crowd so. I hate to think + of you all shut up tight when I am let right out into green + grass, and blue sky, and apple orchards. That puts me in mind + of something! Zebiah Jane, Aunt Oldways' girl, always washes + her face in the morning at the pump-basin out in the back + dooryard, just like the ducks. She says she can't spatter round + in a room; she wants all creation for a slop-bowl. I feel as if + we had all creation for everything up here. But I can't put all + creation in a letter if I try. _That_ would spatter dreadfully. + + I expect a long letter from you every day now. But I don't see + what you will make it out of. I think I have got all the + _things_ and you won't have anything left but the _words_. I am + sure you don't sit out on the wood-shed at Aunt Oferr's, and I + don't believe you pound stones and bricks, and make colors. Do + you know when we rubbed our new shoes with pounded stone and + made them gray? + + I never told you about Luclarion. She came up as soon as the + things were all sent off, and she lives at the minister's. + Where she used to live is only two miles from here, but other + people live there now, and it is built on to and painted straw + color, with a green door. + + Your affectionate sister, + FRANCES SHIERE. + + +When Laura's letter came this was it:-- + + DEAR FRANK,--I received your kind letter a week ago, but we + have been very busy having a dressmaker and doing all our fall + shopping, and I have not had time to answer it before. We shall + begin to go to school next week, for the vacations are over, + and then I shall have ever so much studying to do. I am to take + lessons on the piano, too, and shall have to practice two hours + a day. In the winter we shall have dancing-school and + practicing parties. Aunt has had a new bonnet made for me. She + did not like the plain black silk one. This is of _gros + d'Afrique_, with little bands and cordings round the crown and + front; and I have a dress of _gros d'Afrique_, too, trimmed + with double folds piped on. For every-day I have a new black + _mousseline_ with white clover leaves on it, and an all-black + French chally to wear to dinner. I don't wear my black and + white calico at all. Next summer aunt means to have me wear + white almost all the time, with lavender and violet ribbons. I + shall have a white muslin with three skirts and a black sash to + wear to parties and to Public Saturdays, next winter. They have + Public Saturdays at dancing-school every three weeks. But only + the parents and relations can come. Alice and Geraldine dance + the shawl-dance with Helena Pomeroy, with crimson and white + Canton crape scarfs. They have showed me some of it at home. + Aunt Oferr says I shall learn the _gavotte_. + + Aunt Oferr's house is splendid. The drawing-room is full of + sofas, and divans, and ottomans, and a _causeuse_, a little + S-shaped seat for two people. Everything is covered with blue + velvet, and there are blue silk curtains to the windows, and + great looking-glasses between, that you can see all down into + through rooms and rooms, as if there were a hundred of them. Do + you remember the story Luclarion used to tell us of when she + and her brother Mark were little children and used to play that + the looking-glass-things were real, and that two children lived + in them, in the other room, and how we used to make believe too + in the slanting chimney glass? You could make believe it here + with _forty_ children. But I don't make believe much now. There + is such a lot that is real, and it is all so grown up. It would + seem so silly to have such plays, you know. I can't help + thinking the things that come into my head though, and it seems + sometimes just like a piece of a story, when I walk into the + drawing-room all alone, just before company comes, with my + _gros d'Afrique_ on, and my puffed lace collar, and my hair + tied back with long new black ribbons. It all goes through my + head just how I look coming in, and how grand it is, and what + the words would be in a book about it, and I seem to act a + little bit, just to myself as if I were a girl in a story, and + it seems to say, "And Laura walked up the long drawing-room and + took a book bound in crimson morocco from the white marble pier + table and sat down upon the velvet ottoman in the balcony + window." But what happened then it never tells. I suppose it + will by and by. I am getting used to it all, though; it isn't + so _awfully_ splendid as it was at first. + + I forgot to tell you that my new bonnet flares a great deal, + and that I have white lace quilling round the face with little + black dotty things in it on stems. They don't wear those close + cottage bonnets now. And aunt has had my dresses made longer + and my pantalettes shorter, so that they hardly show at all. + She says I shall soon wear long dresses, I am getting so tall. + Alice wears them now, and her feet look so pretty, and she has + such pretty slippers: little French purple ones, and sometimes + dark green, and sometimes beautiful light gray, to go with + different dresses. I don't care for anything but the slippers, + but I _should_ like such ones as hers. Aunt says I can't, of + course, as long as I wear black, but I can have purple ones + next summer to wear with my white dresses. That will be when I + come to see you. + + I am afraid you will think this is a very _wearing_ kind of a + letter, there are so many 'wears' in it. I have been reading it + over so far, but I can't put in any other word. + + Your affectionate sister, + LAURA SHIERE. + + P.S. Aunt Oferr says Laura Shiere is such a good sounding name. + It doesn't seem at all common. I am glad of it. I should hate + to be common. + +I do not think I shall give you any more of it just here than these +two letters tell. We are not going through all Frank and Laura's +story. That with which we have especially to do lies on beyond. But +it takes its roots in this, as all stories take their roots far back +and underneath. + +Two years after, Laura was in Homesworth for her second summer visit +at the farm. It was convenient, while the Oferrs were at Saratoga. +Mrs. Oferr was very much occupied now, of course, with introducing +her own daughters. A year or two later, she meant to give Laura a +season at the Springs. "All in turn, my dear, and good time," she +said. + +The winter before, Frank had been a few weeks in New York. But it +tired her dreadfully, she said. She liked the theatres and the +concerts, and walking out and seeing the shops. But there was "no +place to get out of it into." It didn't seem as if she ever really +got home and took off her things. She told Laura it was like that +first old letter of hers; it was just "wearing," all the time. + +Laura laughed. "But how can you live _without_ wearing?" said she. + +Frank stood by, wondering, while Laura unpacked her trunks that +morning after her second arrival at Aunt Oldways'. She had done now +even with the simplicity of white and violet, and her wardrobe +blossomed out like the flush of a summer garden. + +She unfolded a rose-colored muslin, with little raised embroidered +spots, and threw it over the bed. + +"Where _will_ you wear that, up here?" asked Frank, in pure +bewilderment. + +"Why, I wear it to church, with my white Swiss mantle," answered +Laura. "Or taking tea, or anything. I've a black silk _visite_ for +cool days. That looks nice with it. And see here,--I've a pink +sunshade. They don't have them much yet, even in New York. Mr. +Pemberton Oferr brought these home from Paris, for Gerry and Alice, +and me. Gerry's is blue. See! it tips back." And Laura set the dashy +little thing with its head on one side, and held it up coquettishly. + +"They used them in carriages in Paris, he said, and in St. +Petersburg, driving out on the Nevskoi Prospekt." + +"But where are your common things?" + +"Down at the bottom; I haven't come to them. They were put in first, +because they would bear squeezing. I've two French calicoes, with +pattern trimmings; and a lilac jaconet, with ruffles, open down the +front." + +Laura wore long dresses now; and open wrappers were the height of +the style. + +Laura astonished Homesworth the first Sunday of this visit, with her +rose-colored toilet. Bonnet of shirred pink silk with moss rosebuds +and a little pink lace veil; the pink muslin, full-skirted over two +starched petticoats; even her pink belt had gay little borders of +tiny buds and leaves, and her fan had a pink tassel. + +"They're the things I wear; why shouldn't I?" she said to Frank's +remonstrance. + +"But up here!" said Frank. "It would seem nicer to wear +something--stiller." + +So it would; a few years afterward Laura herself would have seen +that it was more elegant; though Laura Shiere was always rather +given to doing the utmost--in apparel--that the occasion tolerated. +Fashions grew stiller in years after. But this June Sunday, +somewhere in the last thirties or the first forties, she went into +the village church like an Aurora, and the village long remembered +the resplendence. Frank had on a white cambric dress, with a real +rose in the bosom, cool and fresh, with large green leaves; and her +"cottage straw" was trimmed with white lutestring, crossed over the +crown. + +"Do you feel any better?" asked Aunt Oldways of Laura, when they +came home to the country tea-dinner. + +"Better--how?" asked Laura, in surprise. + +"After all that 'wear' and _stare_," said Aunt Oldways, quietly. + +Aunt Oldways might have been astonished, but she was by no means +awestruck, evidently; and Aunt Oldways generally spoke her mind. + +Somehow, with Laura Shiere, pink was pinker, and ribbons were more +rustling than with most people. Upon some quiet unconscious folks, +silk makes no spread, and color little show; with Laura every gleam +told, every fibre asserted itself. It was the live Aurora, bristling +and tingling to its farthest electric point. She did not toss or +flaunt, either; she had learned better of Signor Pirotti how to +carry herself; but she was in conscious _rapport_ with every thing +and stitch she had about her. Some persons only put clothes on to +their bodies; others really seem to contrive to put them on to their +souls. + +Laura Shiere came up to Homesworth three years later, with something +more wonderful than a pink embossed muslin:--she had a lover. + +Mrs. Oferr and her daughters were on their way to the mountains; +Laura was to be left with the Oldways. Grant Ledwith accompanied +them all thus far on their way; then he had to go back to Boston. + +"I can't think of anything but that pink sunshade she used to carry +round canted all to one side over her shoulder," said Aunt Oldways, +looking after them down the dusty road the morning that he went +away. Laura, in her white dress and her straw hat and her silly +little bronze-and-blue-silk slippers printing the roadside gravel, +leaning on Grant Ledwith's arm, seemed only to have gained a fresh, +graceful adjunct to set off her own pretty goings and comings with, +and to heighten the outside interest of that little point of +eternity that she called her life. Mr. Ledwith was not so much a man +who had won a woman, as Laura was a girl who had "got a beau." + +She had sixteen tucked and trimmed white skirts, too, she told +Frank; she should have eight more before she was married; people +wore ever so many skirts now, at a time. She had been to a party a +little while ago where she wore _seven_. + +There were deep French embroidery bands around some of these white +skirts; those were beautiful for morning dresses. Geraldine Oferr +was married last winter; Laura had been her bridesmaid; Gerry had a +white brocade from Paris, and a point-lace veil. She had three dozen +of everything, right through. They had gone to housekeeping up town, +in West Sixteenth Street. Frank would have to come to New York next +winter, or in the spring, to be _her_ bridesmaid; then she would +see; then--who knew! + +Frank was only sixteen, and she lived away up here in Homesworth +among the hills; she had not "seen," but she had her own little +secret, for all that; something she neither told nor thought, yet +which was there; and it came across her with a queer little thrill +from the hidden, unlooked-at place below thought, that "Who" +_didn't_ know. + +Laura waited a year for Grant Ledwith's salary to be raised to +marrying point; he was in a wholesale woolen house in Boston; he was +a handsome fellow, with gentlemanly and taking address,--capital, +this, for a young salesman; and they put his pay up to two thousand +dollars within that twelvemonth. Upon this, in the spring, they +married; took a house in Filbert Street, down by the river, and set +up their little gods. These were: a sprinkle of black walnut and +brocatelle in the drawing-room, a Sheffield-plate tea-service, and a +crimson-and-giltedged dinner set that Mrs. Oferr gave them; twilled +turkey-red curtains, that looked like thibet, in the best chamber; +and the twenty-four white skirts and the silk dresses, and whatever +corresponded to them on the bride-groom's part, in their wardrobes. +All that was left of Laura's money, and all that was given them by +Grant Ledwith's father, and Mr. Titus Oldways' astounding present of +three hundred dollars, without note or comment,--the first reminder +they had had of him since Edward Shiere's funeral, "and goodness +knew how he heard anything now," Aunt Oferr said,--had gone to this +outfit. But they were well set up and started in the world; so +everybody said, and so they, taking the world into their young, +confident hands for a plaything, not knowing it for the perilous +loaded shell it is, thought, merrily, themselves. + +Up in Homesworth people did not have to wait for two thousand dollar +salaries. They would not get them if they did. + +Oliver Ripwinkley, the minister's son, finished his medical studies +and city hospital practice that year, and came back, as he had +always said he should do, to settle down for a country doctor. Old +Doctor Parrish, the parson's friend of fifty years, with no child of +his own, kept the place for Oliver, and hung up his old-fashioned +saddle-bags in the garret the very day the young man came home. He +was there to be "called in," however, and with this backing, and the +perforce of there being nobody else, young Doctor Ripwinkley had ten +patients within the first week; thereby opportunity for shewing +himself in the eyes of ten families as a young man who "appeared to +know pretty well what he was about." + +So that when he gave further proof of the same, by asking, within +the week that followed, the prettiest girl in Homesworth, Frances +Shiere, to come and begin the world with him at Mile Hill village, +nobody, not even Frank herself, was astonished. + +She bought three new gowns, a shawl, a black silk mantle, and a +straw bonnet. She made six each of every pretty white garment that a +woman wears; and one bright mellow evening in September, they took +their first tea in the brown-carpeted, white-shaded little corner +room in the old "Rankin house;" a bigger place than they really +wanted yet, and not all to be used at first; but rented +"reasonable," central, sunshiny, and convenient; a place that they +hoped they should buy sometime; facing on the broad sidegreen of the +village street, and running back, with its field and meadow +belongings, away to the foot of great, gray, sheltering Mile Hill. + +And the vast, solemn globe, heedless of what lit here or there upon +its breadth, or took up this or that life in its little freckling +cities, or between the imperceptible foldings of its hills,--only +carrying way-passengers for the centuries,--went plunging on its +track, around and around, and swept them all, a score of times, +through its summer and its winter solstices. + + + + +IV. + +AFTERWARDS IS A LONG TIME. + + +Old Mr. Marmaduke Wharne had come down from Outledge, in the +mountains, on his way home to New York. He had stopped in Boston to +attend to some affairs of his own,--if one can call them so, since +Marmaduke Wharne never had any "own" affairs that did not chiefly +concern, to their advantage, somebody else,--in which his friend Mr. +Titus Oldways was interested, not personally, but Wharne fashion. +Now, reader, you know something about Mr. Titus Oldways, which up to +this moment, only God, and Marmaduke Wharne, and Rachel Froke, who +kept Mr. Oldways' house, and wore a Friend's drab dress and white +cap, and said "Titus," and "Marmaduke" to the two old gentlemen, and +"thee" and "thou" to everybody,--have ever known. In a general way +and relation, I mean; separate persons knew particular things; but +each separate person thought the particular thing he knew to be a +whimsical exception. + +Mr. Oldways did not belong to any church: but he had an English +Prayer-book under his Bible on his study table, and Baxter and +Fenelon and a Kempis and "Wesley's Hymns," and Swedenborg's "Heaven +and Hell" and "Arcana Celestia," and Lowell's "Sir Launfal," and +Dickens's "Christmas Carol," all on the same set of shelves,--that +held, he told Marmaduke, his religion; or as much of it as he could +get together. And he had this woman, who was a Friend, and who +walked by the Inner Light, and in outer charity, if ever a woman +did, to keep his house. "For," said he, "the blessed truth is, that +the Word of God is in the world. Alive in it. When you know that, +and wherever you can get hold of his souls, then and there you've +got your religion,--a piece at a time. To prove and sort your +pieces, and to straighten the tangle you might otherwise get into, +there's _this_," and he laid his hand down on the Four Gospels, +bound in white morocco, with a silver cross upon the cover,--a +volume that no earthly creature, again, knew of, save Titus and +Marmaduke and Rachel Froke, who laid it into a drawer when she swept +and dusted, and placed it between the crimson folds of its quilted +silken wrapper when she had finished, burnishing the silver cross +gently with a scrap of chamois leather cut from a clean piece every +time. There was nothing else delicate and exquisite in all the plain +and grim establishment; and the crimson wrapper was comfortably +worn, and nobody would notice it, lying on the table there, with an +almanac, a directory, the big, open Worcester's Dictionary, and the +scattered pamphlets and newspapers of the day. + +Out in the world, Titus Oldways went about with visor down. + +He gave to no fairs nor public charities; "let them get all they +could that way, it wasn't his way," he said to Rachel Froke. The +world thought he gave nothing, either of purse or life. + +There was a plan they had together,--he and Marmaduke Wharne,--this +girls' story-book will not hold the details nor the idea of +it,--about a farm they owned, and people working it that could go +nowhere else to work anything; and a mill-privilege that might be +utilized and expanded, to make--not money so much as safe and honest +human life by way of making money; and they sat and talked this plan +over, and settled its arrangements, in the days that Marmaduke +Wharne was staying on in Boston, waiting for his other friend, Miss +Craydocke, who had taken the River Road down from Outledge, and so +come round by Z----, where she was staying a few days with the +Goldthwaites and the Inglesides. Miss Craydocke had a share or two +in the farm and in the mill. + +And now, Titus Oldways wanted to know of Marmaduke Wharne what he +was to do for Afterwards. + +It was a question that had puzzled and troubled him. Afterwards. + +"While I live," he said, "I will do what I can, and _as_ I can. I +will hand over my doing, and the wherewith, to no society or +corporation. I'll pay no salaries nor circumlocutions. Neither will +I--afterwards. And how is my money going to work on?" + +"_Your_ money?" + +"Well,--God's money." + +"How did it work when it came to you?" + +Mr. Oldways was silent. + +"He chose to send it to you. He made it in the order of things that +it should come to you. You began, yourself, to work for money. You +did not understand, then, that the money would be from God and was +for Him." + +"He made me understand." + +"Yes. He looked out for that part of it too. He can look out for it +again. His word shall not return unto him void." + +"He has given me this, though, to pass on; and I will not put it +into a machine. I want to give some living soul a body for its +living. Dead charities are dead. It's of no use to will it to you, +Marmaduke; I'm as likely to stay on, perhaps, as you are." + +"And the youngest life might drop, the day after your own. You can't +take it out of God's hand." + +"I must either let it go by law, or will it--here and there. I know +enough whom it would help; but I want to invest, not spend it; to +invest it in a life--or lives--that will carry it on from where I +leave it. How shall I know?" + +"He giveth it a body as it pleaseth Him," quoted Marmaduke Wharne, +thoughtfully. "I am English, you know, Oldways; I can't help +reverencing the claims of next of kin. Unless one is plainly shown +otherwise, it seems the appointment. How can we set aside his ways +until He clearly points us out his own exception?" + +"My 'next' are two women whom I don't know, my niece's children. She +died thirty years ago." + +"Perhaps you ought to know them." + +"I know _about_ them; I've kept the run; but I've held clear of +family. They didn't need me, and I had no right to put it into their +heads they did, unless I fully meant"-- + +He broke off. + +"They're like everybody else, Wharne; neither better nor worse, I +dare say; but the world is full of just such women. How do I know +this money would be well in their hands--even for themselves?" + +"Find out." + +"One of 'em was brought up by an Oferr woman!" + +The tone in which he _commonized_ the name to a satiric general +term, is not to be written down, and needed not to be interpreted. + +"The other is well enough," he went on, "and contented enough. +A doctor's widow, with a little property, a farm and two +children,--her older ones died very young,--up in New Hampshire. I +might spoil _her_; and the other,--well, you see as I said, I _don't +know_." + +"Find out," said Marmaduke Wharne, again. + +"People are not found out till they are tried." + +"Try 'em!" + +Mr. Oldways had been sitting with his head bent, thoughtfully, his +eyes looking down, his hands on the two stiff, old-fashioned arms of +his chair. At this last spondaic response from Marmaduke, he lifted +his eyes and eyebrows,--not his head,--and raised himself slightly +with his two hands pressing on the chair arms; the keen glance and +the half-movement were impulsively toward his friend. + +"Eh?" said he. + +"Try 'em," repeated Marmaduke Wharne. "Give God's way a chance." + +Mr. Oldways, seated back in his chair again, looked at him intently; +made a little vibration, as it were, with his body, that moved his +head up and down almost imperceptibly, with a kind of gradual +assenting apprehension, and kept utterly silent. + +So, their talk being palpably over for this time, Marmaduke Wharne +got up presently to go. They nodded at each other, friendlily, as he +looked back from the door. + +Left alone, Mr. Titus Oldways turned in his swivel-chair, around to +his desk beside which he was sitting. + +"Next of kin?" he repeated to himself. "God's way?--Well! Afterwards +is a long time. A man must give it up somewhere. Everything escheats +to the king at last." + +And he took a pen in his hand and wrote a letter. + + + + +V. + +HOW THE NEWS CAME TO HOMESWORTH. + + +"I wish I lived in the city, and had a best friend," said Hazel +Ripwinkley to Diana, as they sat together on the long, red, sloping +kitchen roof under the arches of the willow-tree, hemming towels for +their afternoon "stent." They did this because their mother sat on +the shed roof under the fir, when she was a child, and had told them +of it. Imagination is so much greater than fact, that these +children, who had now all that little Frank Shiere had dreamed of +with the tar smell and the gravel stones and the one tree,--who +might run free in the wide woods and up the breezy hillsides,--liked +best of all to get out on the kitchen roof and play "old times," and +go back into their mother's dream. + +"I wish I lived in a block of houses, and could see across the +corner into my best friend's room when she got up in the morning!" + +"And could have that party!" said Diana. + +"Think of the clean, smooth streets, with red sidewalks, and people +living all along, door after door! I like things set in rows, and +people having places, like the desks at school. Why, you've got to +go way round Sand Hill to get to Elizabeth Ann Dorridon's. I should +like to go up steps, and ring bells!" + +"I don't know," said Diana, slowly. "I think birds that build little +nests about anywhere in the cunning, separate places, in the woods, +or among the bushes, have the best time." + +"Birds, Dine! It ain't birds, it's people! What has that to do with +it?" + +"I mean I think nests are better than martin-boxes." + +"Let's go in and get her to tell us that story. She's in the round +room." + +The round room was a half ellipse, running in against the curve of +the staircase. It was a bit of a place, with the window at one end, +and the bow at the other. It had been Doctor Ripwinkley's office, +and Mrs. Ripwinkley sat there with her work on summer afternoons. +The door opened out, close at the front, upon a great flat stone in +an angle, where was also entrance into the hall by the house-door, +at the right hand. The door of the office stood open, and across the +stone one could look down, between a range of lilac bushes and the +parlor windows, through a green door-yard into the street. + +"Now, Mother Frank, tell us about the party!" + +They called her "Mother Frank" when they wished to be particularly +coaxing. They had taken up their father's name for her, with their +own prefix, when they were very little ones, before he went away and +left nobody to call her Frank, every day, any more. + +"That same little old story? Won't you ever be tired of it,--you +great girls?" asked the mother; for she had told it to them ever +since they were six and eight years old. + +"Yes! No, never!" said the children. + +For how _should_ they outgrow it? It was a sunny little bit out of +their mother's own child-life. We shall go back to smaller things, +one day, maybe, and find them yet more beautiful. It is the _going_ +back, together. + +"The same old way?" + +"Yes; the very same old way." + +"We had little open-work straw hats and muslin pelisses,--your Aunt +Laura and I,"--began Mrs. Ripwinkley, as she had begun all those +scores of times before. "Mother put them on for us,--she dressed us +just alike, always,--and told us to take each other's hands, and go +up Brier and down Hickory streets, and stop at all the houses that +she named, and that we knew; and we were to give her love and +compliments, and ask the mothers in each house,--Mrs. Dayton, and +Mrs. Holridge (she lived up the long steps), and Mrs. Waldow, and +the rest of them, to let Caroline and Grace and Fanny and Susan, and +the rest of _them_, come at four o'clock, to spend the afternoon and +take tea, if it was convenient." + +"O, mother!" said Hazel, "you didn't say that when you _asked_ +people, you know." + +"O, no!" said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "That was when we went to stop a +little while ourselves, without being asked. Well, it was to please +to let them come. And all the ladies were at home, because it was +only ten o'clock; and they all sent their love and compliments, and +they were much obliged, and the little girls would be very happy. + +"It was a warm June day; up Brier Street was a steep walk; down +Hickory we were glad to keep on the shady side, and thought it was +nice that Mrs. Bemys and Mrs. Waldow lived there. The strings of our +hats were very moist and clinging when we got home, and Laura had a +blue mark under her chin from the green ribbon. + +"Mother was in her room, in her white dimity morning gown, with +little bows up the front, the ends trimmed with cambric edging. She +took off our hats and our pelisses,--the tight little sleeves came +off wrong side out,--sponged our faces with cool water, and brushed +out Laura's curls. That was the only difference between us. I +hadn't any curls, and my hair had to be kept cropped. Then she went +to her upper bureau drawer and took out two little paper boxes. + +"'Something has come for Blanche and Clorinda, since you have been +gone,' she said, smiling. 'I suppose you have been shopping?' We +took the paper boxes, laughing back at her with a happy +understanding. We were used to these little plays of mother's, and +she couldn't really surprise us with her kindnesses. We went and sat +down in the window-seat, and opened them as deliberately and in as +grown-up a way as we could. Inside them were two little lace +pelerines lined with rose-colored silk. The boxes had a faint smell +of musk. The things were so much better for coming in boxes! Mother +knew that. + +"Well, we dressed our dolls, and it was a great long sunshiny +forenoon. Mother and Luclarion had done something in the kitchen, +and there was a smell of sweet baking in the house. Every now and +then we sniffed, and looked at each other, and at mother, and +laughed. After dinner we had on our white French calicoes with blue +sprigs, and mother said she should take a little nap, and we might +go into the parlor and be ready for our company. She always let us +receive our own company ourselves at first. And exactly at four +o'clock the door-bell rang, and they began to come. + +"Caroline and Fanny Dayton had on white cambric dresses, and green +kid slippers. That was being very much dressed, indeed. Lucy Waldow +wore a pink lawn, and Grace Holridge a buff French print. Susan +Bemys said her little sister couldn't come because they couldn't +find her best shoes. Her mother thought she had thrown them out of +the window. + +"When they all got there we began to play 'Lady Fair;' and we had +just got all the 'lady fairs,' one after another, into our ring, and +were dancing and singing up and down and round and round, when the +door opened and mother walked in. + +"We always thought our mother was the prettiest of any of the girls' +mothers. She had such bright shining hair, and she put it up with +shell combs into such little curly puffs. And she never seemed fussy +or old, but she came in among us with such a beautiful, smiling way, +as if she knew beforehand that it was all right, and there was no +danger of any mischief, or that we shouldn't behave well, but she +only wanted to see the good time. That day she had on a white muslin +dress with little purple flowers on it, and a bow of purple ribbon +right in the side of her hair. She had a little piece of fine work +in her hand, and after she had spoken to all the little girls and +asked them how their mothers were, she went and sat down in one of +the front windows, and made little scollops and eyelets. I remember +her long ivory stiletto, with a loop of green ribbon through the +head of it, and the sharp, tiny, big-bowed scissors that lay in her +lap, and the bright, tapering silver thimble on her finger. + +"Pretty soon the door opened again, softly; a tray appeared, with +Hannah behind it. On the tray were little glass saucers with +confectionery in them; old-fashioned confectionery,--gibraltars, and +colored caraways, and cockles with mottoes. We were in the middle of +'So says the Grand Mufti,' and Grace Holridge was the Grand Mufti. +Hannah went up to her first, as she stood there alone, and Grace +took a saucer and held it up before the row of us, and said, '_Thus_ +says the Grand Mufti!' and then she bit a red gibraltar, and +everybody laughed. She did it so quickly and so prettily, putting +it right into the play. It was good of her not to say, '_So_ says +the Grand Mufti.' At least we thought so then, though Susan Bemys +said it would have been funnier. + +"We had a great many plays in those days, and it took a long +afternoon to get through with them. We had not begun to wonder what +we should do next, when tea time came, and we went down into the +basement room. It wasn't tea, though; it was milk in little clear, +pink mugs, some that mother only had out for our parties, and cold +water in crimped-edge glasses, and little biscuits, and +sponge-cakes, and small round pound-cakes frosted. These were what +had smelt so good in the morning. + +"We stood round the table; there was not room for all of us to sit, +and mother helped us, and Hannah passed things round. Susan Bemys +took cake three times, and Lucy Waldow opened her eyes wide, and +Fanny Dayton touched me softly under the table. + +"After tea mother played and sung some little songs to us; and then +she played the 'Fisher's Hornpipe' and 'Money Musk,' and we danced a +little contra-dance. The girls did not all know cotillons, and some +of them had not begun to go to dancing-school. Father came home and +had his tea after we had done ours, and then he came up into the +parlor and watched us dancing. Mr. Dayton came in, too. At about +half past eight some of the other fathers called, and some of the +mothers sent their girls, and everybody was fetched away. It was +nine o'clock when Laura and I went to bed, and we couldn't go to +sleep until after the clock struck ten, for thinking and saying what +a beautiful time we had had, and anticipating how the girls would +talk it all over next day at school. That," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, +when she had finished, "was the kind of a party we used to have in +Boston when I was a little girl. I don't know what the little girls +have now." + +"Boston!" said Luclarion, catching the last words as she came in, +with her pink cape bonnet on, from the Homesworth variety and +finding store, and post-office. "You'll talk them children off to +Boston, finally, Mrs. Ripwinkley! Nothing ever tugs so at one end, +but there's something tugging at the other; and there's never a hint +nor a hearing to anybody, that something more doesn't turn up +concerning it. Here's a letter, Mrs. Ripwinkley!" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley took it with some surprise. It was not her sister's +handwriting nor Mr. Ledwith's, on the cover; and she rarely had a +letter from them that was posted in Boston, now. They had been +living at a place out of town for several years. Mrs. Ledwith knew +better than to give her letters to her husband for posting. They got +lost in his big wallet, and stayed there till they grew old. + +Who should write to Mrs. Ripwinkley, after all these years, from +Boston? + +She looked up at Luclarion, and smiled. "It didn't take a Solomon," +said she, pointing to the postmark. + +"No, nor yet a black smooch, with only four letters plain, on an +invelup. 'Taint that, it's the drift of things. Those girls have got +Boston in their minds as hard and fast as they've got heaven; and I +mistrust mightily they'll get there first somehow!" + +The girls were out of hearing, as she said this; they had got their +story, and gone back to their red roof and their willow tree. + +"Why, Luclarion!" exclaimed Mrs. Ripwinkley, as she drew out and +unfolded the letter sheet. "It's from Uncle Titus Oldways." + +"Then he ain't dead," remarked Luclarion, and went away into the +kitchen. + + "MY DEAR FRANCES,--I am seventy-eight years old. It is time I + got acquainted with some of my relations. I've had other work + to do in the world heretofore (at least I thought I had), and + so, I believe, have they. But I have a wish now to get you and + your sister to come and live nearer to me, that we may find out + whether we really are anything to each other or not. It seems + natural, I suppose, that we might be; but kinship doesn't all + run in the veins. + + "I do not ask you to do this with reference to any possible + intentions of mine that might concern you after my death; my + wish is to do what is right by you, in return for your + consenting to my pleasure in the matter, while I am alive. It + will cost you more to live in Boston than where you do now, and + I have no business to expect you to break up and come to a new + home unless I can make it an object to you in some way. You can + do some things for your children here that you could not do in + Homesworth. I will give you two thousand dollars a year to live + on, and secure the same to you if I die. I have a house here in + Aspen Street, not far from where I live myself, which I will + give to either of you that it may suit. That you can settle + between you when you come. It is rather a large house, and Mrs. + Ledwith's family is larger, I think, than yours. The estate is + worth ten thousand dollars, and I will give the same sum to the + one who prefers, to put into a house elsewhere. I wish you to + reckon this as all you are ever to expect from me, except the + regard I am willing to believe I may come to have for you. I + shall look to hear from you by the end of the week. + + "I remain, yours truly, + + "TITUS OLDWAYS." + +"Luclarion!" cried Mrs. Ripwinkley, with excitement, "come here and +help me think!" + +"Only four days to make my mind up in," she said again, when +Luclarion had read the letter through. + +Luclarion folded it and gave it back. + +"It won't take God four days to think," she answered quietly; "and +you can ask _Him_ in four minutes. You and I can talk afterwards." +And Luclarion got up and went away a second time into the kitchen. + +That night, after Diana and Hazel were gone to bed, their mother and +Luclarion Grapp had some last words about it, sitting by the +white-scoured kitchen table, where Luclarion had just done mixing +bread and covered it away for rising. Mrs. Ripwinkley was apt to +come out and talk things over at this time of the kneading. She +could get more from Luclarion then than at any other opportunity. +Perhaps that was because Miss Grapp could not walk off from the +bread-trough; or it might be that there was some sympathy between +the mixing of her flour and yeast into a sweet and lively +perfection, and the bringing of her mental leaven wholesomely to +bear. + +"It looks as if it were meant, Luclarion," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, at +last. "And just think what it will be for the children." + +"I guess it's meant fast enough," replied Luclarion. "But as for +what it will be for the children,--why, that's according to what you +all make of it. And that's the stump." + +Luclarion Grapp was fifty-four years old; but her views of life were +precisely the same that they had been at twenty-eight. + + + + +VI. + +AND. + + +There is a piece of Z----, just over the river, that they call +"And." + +It began among the school-girls; Barbara Holabird had christened it, +with the shrewdness and mischief of fourteen years old. She said the +"and-so-forths" lived there. + +It was a little supplementary neighborhood; an after-growth, coming +up with the railroad improvements, when they got a freight station +established on that side for the East Z---- mills. "After Z----, +what should it be but 'And?'" Barbara Holabird wanted to know. The +people who lived there called it East Square; but what difference +did that make? + +It was two miles Boston-ward from Z---- centre, where the down +trains stopped first; that was five minutes gained in the time +between it and the city. Land was cheap at first, and sure to come +up in value; so there were some streets laid out at right angles, +and a lot of houses put up after a pattern, as if they had all been +turned out of blanc-mange moulds, and there was "East Square." Then +people began by-and-by to build for themselves, and a little variety +and a good deal of ambition came in. They had got to French roofs +now; this was just before the day of the multitudinous little paper +collar-boxes with beveled covers, that are set down everywhere now, +and look as if they could be lifted up by the chimneys, any time, +and be carried off with a thumb and finger. Two and a half story +houses, Mansarded, looked grand; and the East Square people thought +nothing slight of themselves, though the "old places" and the real +Z---- families were all over on West Hill. + +Mrs. Megilp boarded in And for the summer. + +"Since Oswald had been in business she couldn't go far from the +cars, you know; and Oswald had a boat on the river, and he and +Glossy enjoyed that so much. Besides, she had friends in Z----, +which made it pleasant; and she was tired, for her part, of crowds +and fashion. All she wanted was a quiet country place. She knew the +Goldthwaites and the Haddens; she had met them one year at +Jefferson." + +Mrs. Megilp had found out that she could get larger rooms in And +than she could have at the mountains or the sea-shore, and at half +the price; but this she did not mention. Yet there was nothing +shabby in it, except her carefully _not_ mentioning it. + +Mrs. Megilp was Mrs. Grant Ledwith's chief intimate and counselor. +She was a good deal the elder; that was why it was mutually +advantageous. Grant Ledwith was one of the out-in-the-world, +up-to-the-times men of the day; the day in which everything is +going, and everybody that is in active life has, somehow or other, +all that is going. Grant Ledwith got a good salary, an inflated +currency salary; and he spent it all. His daughters were growing up, +and they were stylish and pretty; Mrs. Megilp took a great interest +in Agatha and Florence Ledwith, and was always urging their mother +to "do them justice." "Agatha and Florence were girls who had a +right to every advantage." Mrs. Megilp was almost old enough to be +Laura Ledwith's mother; she had great experience, and knowledge of +the world; and she sat behind Laura's conscience and drove it tandem +with her inclination. + +Per contra, it was nice for Mrs. Megilp, who was a widow, and whose +income did not stretch with the elasticity of the times, to have +friends who lived like the Ledwiths, and who always made her +welcome; it was a good thing for Glossy to be so fond of Agatha and +Florence, and to have them so fond of her. "She needed young +society," her mother said. One reason that Glossy Megilp needed +young society might be in the fact that she herself was twenty-six. + +Mrs. Megilp had advised the Ledwiths to buy a house in Z----. "It +was just far enough not to be suburban, but to have a society of its +own; and there _was_ excellent society in Z----, everybody knew. +Boston was hard work, nowadays; the distances were getting to be so +great." Up to the West and South Ends,--the material distances,--she +meant to be understood to say; but there was an inner sense to Mrs. +Megilp's utterances, also. + +"One might as well be quite out of town; and then it was always +something, even in such city connection as one might care to keep +up, to hail from a well-recognized social independency; to belong to +Z---- was a standing, always. It wasn't like going to Forest Dell, +or Lakegrove, or Bellair; cheap little got-up places with fancy +names, that were strung out on the railroads like French gilt beads +on a chain." + +But for all that, Mrs. Ledwith had only got into "And;" and Mrs. +Megilp knew it. + +Laura did not realize it much; she had bowing and speaking +acquaintance with the Haddens and the Hendees, and even with the +Marchbankses, over on West Hill; and the Goldthwaites and the +Holabirds, down in the town, she knew very well. She did not care to +come much nearer; she did not want to be bound by any very +stringent and exclusive social limits; it was a bother to keep up +to all the demands of such a small, old-established set. Mrs. Hendee +would not notice, far less be impressed by the advent of her +new-style Brussels carpet with a border, or her full, fresh, +Nottingham lace curtains, or the new covering of her drawing-room +set with cuir-colored terry. Mrs. Tom Friske and Mrs. Philgry, down +here at East Square, would run in, and appreciate, and admire, and +talk it all over, and go away perhaps breaking the tenth commandment +amiably in their hearts. + +Mrs. Ledwith's nerves had extended since we saw her as a girl; they +did not then go beyond the floating ends of her blue or rose-colored +ribbons, or, at furthest, the tip of her jaunty laced sunshade; now +they ramified,--for life still grows in some direction,--to her +chairs, and her china, and her curtains, and her ruffled +pillow-shams. Also, savingly, to her children's "suits," and party +dresses, and pic-nic hats, and double button gloves. Savingly; for +there is a leaven of grace in mother-care, even though it be +expended upon these. Her friend, Mrs. Inchdeepe, in Helvellyn Park, +with whom she dined when she went shopping in Boston, had _nothing_ +but her modern improvements and her furniture. "My house is my +life," she used to say, going round with a Canton crape duster, +touching tenderly carvings and inlayings and gildings. + +Mrs. Megilp was spending the day with Laura Ledwith; Glossy was gone +to town, and thence down to the sea-shore, with some friends. + +Mrs. Megilp spent a good many days with Laura. She had large, bright +rooms at her boarding-house, but then she had very gristly veal pies +and thin tapioca puddings for dinner; and Mrs. Megilp's constitution +required something more generous. She was apt to happen in at this +season, when Laura had potted pigeons. A little bird told her; a +dozen little birds, I mean, with their legs tied together in a +bunch; for she could see the market wagon from her window, when it +turned up Mr. Ledwith's avenue. + +Laura had always the claret pitcher on her dinner table, too; and +claret and water, well-sugared, went deliciously with the savory +stew. + +They were up-stairs now, in Laura's chamber; the bed and sofa were +covered with silk and millinery; Laura was looking over the girls' +"fall things;" there was a smell of sweet marjoram and thyme and +cloves, and general richness coming up from the kitchen; there was a +bland sense of the goodness of Providence in Mrs. Megilp's--no, not +heart, for her heart was not very hungry; but in her eyes and +nostrils. + +She was advising Mrs. Ledwith to take Desire and Helena's two green +silks and make them over into one for Helena. + +"You can get two whole back breadths then, by piecing it up under +the sash; and you _can't_ have all those gores again; they are quite +done with. Everybody puts in whole breadths now. There's just as +much difference in the _way_ of goring a skirt, as there is between +gores and straight selvages." + +"They do hang well, though; they have such a nice slope." + +"Yes,--but the stripes and the seams! Those tell the story six rods +off; and then there _must_ be sashes, or postillions, or something; +they don't make anything without them; there isn't any finish to a +round waist unless you have something behind." + +"They wore belts last year, and I bought those expensive gilt +buckles. I'm sure they used to look sweetly. But there! a fashion +doesn't last nowadays while you're putting a thing on and walking +out of the house!" + +"And don't put in more than three plaits," pursued Mrs. Megilp, +intent on the fate of the green silks. "Everything is gathered; you +see that is what requires the sashes; round waists and gathers have +a queer look without." + +"If you once begin to alter, you've got to make all over," said Mrs. +Ledwith, a little fractiously, putting the scissors in with +unwilling fingers. She knew there was a good four days' work before +her, and she was quick with her needle, too. + +"Never mind; the making over doesn't cost anything; you turn off +work so easily; and then you've got a really stylish thing." + +"But with all the ripping and remodelling, I don't get time to turn +round, myself, and _live_! It is all fall work, and spring work, and +summer work and winter work. One drive rushes pell-mell right over +another. There isn't time enough to make things and have them; the +good of them, I mean." + +"The girls get it; we have to live in our children," said Mrs. +Megilp, self-renouncingly. "I can never rest until Glossy is +provided with everything; and you know, Laura, I _am_ obliged to +contrive." + +Mrs. Megilp and her daughter Glaucia spent about a thousand dollars +a year, between them, on their dress. In these days, this is a +limited allowance--for the Megilps. But Mrs. Megilp was a woman of +strict pecuniary principle; the other fifteen hundred must pay all +the rest; she submitted cheerfully to the Divine allotment, and +punctually made the two ends meet. She will have this to show, when +the Lord of these servants cometh and reckoneth with them, and that +man who has been also in narrow circumstances, brings his nicely +kept talent out of his napkin. + +Desire Ledwith, a girl of sixteen, spoke suddenly from a corner +where she sat with a book,-- + +"I do wonder who '_they_' are, mamma!" + +"Who?" said Mrs. Ledwith, half rising from her chair, and letting +some breadths of silk slide down upon the floor from her lap, as she +glanced anxiously from the window down the avenue. She did not want +any company this morning. + +"Not that, mamma; I don't mean anybody coming. The 'theys' that +wear, and don't wear, things; the theys you have to be just like, +and keep ripping and piecing for." + +"You absurd child!" exclaimed Mrs. Ledwith, pettishly. "To make me +spill a whole lapful of work for that! They? Why, everybody, of +course." + +"Everybody complains of them, though. Jean Friske says her mother is +all discouraged and worn out. There isn't a thing they had last year +that won't have to be made over this, because they put in a breadth +more behind, and they only gore side seams. And they don't wear +black capes or cloth sacks any more with all kinds of dresses; you +must have suits, clear through. It seems to me 'they' is a nuisance. +And if it's everybody, we must be part of it. Why doesn't somebody +stop?" + +"Desire, I wish you'd put away your book, and help, instead of +asking silly questions. You can't make the world over, with 'why +don'ts?'" + +"I'll _rip_," said Desire, with a slight emphasis; putting her book +down, and coming over for a skirt and a pair of scissors. "But you +know I'm no good at putting together again. And about making the +world over, I don't know but that might be as easy as making over +all its clothes, I'd as lief try, of the two." + +Desire was never cross or disagreeable; she was only +"impracticable," her mother said. "And besides that, she didn't know +what she really did want. She was born hungry and asking, with those +sharp little eyes, and her mouth always open while she was a baby. +'It was a sign,' the nurse said, when she was three weeks old. And +then the other sign,--that she should have to be called 'Desire!'" + +Mrs. Megilp--for Mrs. Megilp had been in office as long ago as +that--had suggested ways of getting over or around the difficulty, +when Aunt Desire had stipulated to have the baby named for her, and +had made certain persuasive conditions. + +"There's the pretty French turn you might give it,--'Desiree.' Only +one more 'e,' and an accent. That is so sweet, and graceful, and +distinguished!" + +"But Aunt Desire won't have the name twisted. It is to be real, +plain Desire, or not at all." + +Mrs. Megilp had shrugged her shoulders. + +"Well, of course it can be that, to christen by, and marry by, and +be buried by. But between whiles,--people pick up names,--you'll +see!" + +Mrs. Megilp began to call her "Daisy" when she was two years old. +Nobody could help what Mrs. Megilp took a fancy to call her by way +of endearment, of course; and Daisy she was growing to be in the +family, when one day, at seven years old, she heard Mrs. Megilp say +to her mother,-- + +"I don't see but that you've all got your _Desire_, after all. The +old lady is satisfied; and away up there in Hanover, what can it +signify to her? The child is 'Daisy,' practically, now, as long as +she lives." + +The sharp, eager little gray eyes, so close together in the high, +delicate head, glanced up quickly at speaker and hearer. + +"What old lady, mamma, away up in Hanover?" + +"Your Aunt Desire, Daisy, whom you were named for. She lives in +Hanover. You are to go and see her there, this summer." + +"Will she call me Daisy?" + +The little difficulty suggested in this question had singularly +never occurred to Mrs. Ledwith before. Miss Desire Ledwith never +came down to Boston; there was no danger at home. + +"No. She is old-fashioned, and doesn't like pet names. She will call +you Desire. That is your name, you know." + +"Would it signify if she thought you called me Daisy?" asked the +child frowning half absently over her doll, whose arm she was +struggling to force into rather a tight sleeve of her own +manufacture. + +"Well, perhaps she might not exactly understand. People always went +by their names when she was a child, and now hardly anybody does. +She was very particular about having you called for her, and you +_are_, you know. I always write 'Desire Ledwith' in all your books, +and--well, I always _shall_ write it so, and so will you. But you +can be Daisy when we make much of you here at home, just as Florence +is Flossie." + +"No, I can't," said the little girl, very decidedly, getting up and +dropping her doll. "Aunt Desire, away up in Hanover, is thinking all +the time that there is a little Desire Ledwith growing up down here. +I don't mean to have her cheated. I'm going to went by my name, as +she did. Don't call me Daisy any more, all of you; for I shan't +come!" + +The gray eyes sparkled; the whole little face scintillated, as it +were. Desire Ledwith had a keen, charged little face; and when +something quick and strong shone through it, it was as if somewhere +behind it there had been struck fire. + +She was true to that through all the years after; going to school +with Mabels and Ethels and Graces and Ediths,--not a girl she knew +but had a pretty modern name,--and they all wondering at that stiff +little "Desire" of hers that she would go by. When she was twelve +years old, the old lady up in Hanover had died, and left her a gold +watch, large and old-fashioned, which she could only keep on a stand +in her room,--a good solid silver tea-set, and all her spoons, and +twenty-five shares in the Hanover Bank. + +Mrs. Megilp called her Daisy, with gentle inadvertence, one day +after that. Desire lifted her eyes slowly at her, with no other +reply in her face, or else. + +"You might please your mother now, I think," said Mrs. Megilp. +"There is no old lady to be troubled by it." + +"A promise isn't ever dead, Mrs. Megilp," said Desire, briefly. "I +shall keep our words." + +"After all," Mrs. Megilp said privately to the mother, "there is +something quietly aristocratic in an old, plain, family name. I +don't know that it isn't good taste in the child. Everybody +understands that it was a condition, and an inheritance." + +Mrs. Megilp had taken care of that. She was watchful for the small +impressions she could make in behalf of her particular friends. She +carried about with her a little social circumference in which all +was preeminently as it should be. + +But,--as I would say if you could not see it for yourself--this is +a digression. We will go back again. + +"If it were any use!" said Desire, shaking out the deep plaits as +she unfastened them from the band. "But you're only a piece of +everybody after all. You haven't anything really new or particular +to yourself, when you've done. And it takes up so much time. Last +year, this was so pretty! _Isn't_ anything actually pretty in +itself, or can't they settle what it is? I should think they had +been at it long enough." + +"Fashions never were so graceful as they are this minute," said Mrs. +Megilp. "Of course it is art, like everything else, and progress. +The world is getting educated to a higher refinement in it, every +day. Why, it's duty, child!" she continued, exaltedly. "Think what +the world would be if nobody cared. We ought to make life beautiful. +It's meant to be. There's not only no virtue in ugliness, but almost +no virtue _with_ it, I think. People are more polite and +good-natured when they are well dressed and comfortable." + +"_That's_ dress, too, though," said Desire, sententiously. "You've +got to stay at home four days, and rip, and be tired, and cross, and +tried-on-to, and have no chance to do anything else, before you can +put it all on and go out and be good-natured and bland, and help put +the beautiful face on the world, _one_ day. I don't believe it's +political economy." + +"Everybody doesn't have to do it for themselves. Really, when I hear +people blamed for dress and elegance,--why, the very ones who have +the most of it are those who sacrifice the least time to it. They +just go and order what they want, and there's the end of it. When it +comes home, they put it on, and it might as well be a flounced silk +as a plain calico." + +"But we _do_ have to think, Mrs. Megilp. And work and worry. And +then we _can't_ turn right round in the things we know every stitch +of and have bothered over from beginning to end, and just be lilies +of the field!" + +"A great many people do have to wash their own dishes, and sweep, +and scour; but that is no reason it ought not to be done. I always +thought it was rather a pity that was said, _just so_," Mrs. Megilp +proceeded, with a mild deprecation of the Scripture. "There _is_ +toiling and spinning; and will be to the end of time, for some of +us." + +"There's cauliflower brought for dinner, Mrs. Ledwith," said +Christina, the parlor girl, coming in. "And Hannah says it won't go +with the pigeons. Will she put it on the ice for to-morrow?" + +"I suppose so," said Mrs. Ledwith, absently, considering a breadth +that had a little hitch in it. "Though what we shall have to-morrow +I'm sure I don't know," she added, rousing up. "I wish Mr. Ledwith +wouldn't send home the first thing he sees, without any reference." + +"And here's the milkman's bill, and a letter," continued Christina, +laying them down on a chair beside her mistress, and then departing. + +Great things come into life so easily, when they do come, right +alongside of milk-bills and cabbages! And yet one may wait so long +sometimes for anything to happen _but_ cabbages! + +The letter was in a very broad, thick envelope, and sealed with wax. + +Mrs. Ledwith looked at it curiously before she opened it. She +did not receive many letters. She had very little time for +correspondence. It was addressed to "Mrs. Laura Ledwith." That +was odd and unusual, too. + +Mrs. Megilp glanced at her over the tortoise-shell rims of her +eye-glasses, but sat very quiet, lest she should delay the opening. +She would like to know what could be in that very business-like +looking despatch, and Laura would be sure to tell her. It must be +something pretty positive, one way or another; it was no +common-place negative communication. Laura might have had property +left her. Mrs. Megilp always thought of possibilities like that. + +When Laura Ledwith had unfolded the large commercial sheet, and +glanced down the open lines of square, upright characters, whose +purport could be taken in at sight, like print, she turned very red +with a sudden excitement. Then all the color dropped away, and there +was nothing in her face but blank, pale, intense surprise. + +"It is a most _won_derful thing!" said she, at last, slowly; and her +breath came like a gasp with her words. "My great-uncle, Mr. +Oldways." + +She spoke those four words as if from them Mrs. Megilp could +understand everything. + +Mrs. Megilp thought she did. + +"Ah! Gone?" she asked, pathetically. + +"Gone! No, indeed!" said Mrs. Ledwith. "He wrote the letter. He +wants me to _come_; me, and all of us,--to Boston, to live; and to +get acquainted with him." + +"My dear," said Mrs. Megilp, with the promptness and benignity of a +Christian apostle, "it's your duty to go." + +"And he offers me a house, and two thousand dollars a year." + +"My dear," said Mrs. Megilp, "it is _emphatically_ your duty to go." + +All at once something strange came over Laura Ledwith. She crumpled +the letter tight in her hands with a clutch of quick excitement, and +began to choke with a little sob, and to laugh at the same time. + +"Don't give way!" cried Mrs. Megilp, coming to her and giving her a +little shake and a slap. "If you do once you will again, and you're +_not_ hystericky!" + +"He's sent for Frank, too. Frank and I will be together again in +dear old Boston! But--we can't be children and sit on the shed any +more; and--it _isn't_ dear old Boston, either!" + +And then Laura gave right up, and had a good cry for five minutes. +After that she felt better, and asked Mrs. Megilp how she thought a +house in Spiller Street would do. + +But she couldn't rip any more of those breadths that morning. + +Agatha and Florence came in from some calls at the Goldthwaites and +the Haddens, and the news was told, and they had their bonnets to +take off, and the dinner-bell rang, and the smell of the spicy +pigeon-stew came up the stairs, all together. And they went down, +talking fast; and one said "house," and another "carpets," and +another "music and German;" and Desire, trailing a breadth of green +silk in her hand that she had never let go since the letter was +read, cried out, "oratorios!" And nobody quite knew what they were +going down stairs for, or had presence of mind to realize the +pigeons, or help each other or themselves properly, when they got +there! Except Mrs. Megilp, who was polite and hospitable to them +all, and picked two birds in the most composed and elegant manner. + +When the dessert was put upon the table, and Christina, confusedly +enlightened as to the family excitement, and excessively curious, +had gone away into the kitchen, Mrs. Ledwith said to Mrs. Megilp,-- + +"I'm not sure I should fancy Spiller Street, after all; it's a sort +of a corner. Westmoreland Street or Helvellyn Park might be nice. I +know people down that way,--Mrs. Inchdeepe." + +"Mrs. Inchdeepe isn't exactly 'people,'" said Mrs. Megilp, in a +quiet way that implied more than grammar. "Don't get into 'And' in +Boston, Laura!--With such an addition to your income, and what your +uncle gives you toward a house, I don't see why you might not think +of Republic Avenue." + +"We shall have plenty of thinking to do about everything," said +Laura. + +"Mamma," said Agatha, insinuatingly, "I'm thinking, already; about +that rose-pink paper for my room. I'm glad now I didn't have it +here." + +Agatha had been restless for white lace, and rose-pink, and a +Brussels carpet ever since her friend Zarah Thoole had come home +from Europe and furnished a morning-room. + +All this time Mr. Grant Ledwith, quite unconscious of the impending +changes with which his family were so far advanced in imagination, +was busy among bales and samples in Devonshire Street. It got to be +an old story by the time the seven o'clock train was in, and he +reached home. It was almost as if it had all happened a year ago, +and they had been waiting for him to come home from Australia. + +There was so much to explain to him that it was really hard to make +him understand, and to bring him up to the point from which they +could go on together. + + + + +VII. + +WAKING UP. + + +The Ledwiths took apartments in Boston for a month. They packed away +the furniture they wanted to keep for upper rooms, in the attics of +their house at Z----. They had an auction of all the furniture of +their drawing-room, dining-room, library, and first floor of +sleeping-rooms. Then they were to let their house. Meanwhile, one +was to be fixed upon and fitted up in Boston. In all this Mrs. +Megilp advised, invaluably. + +"It's of no use to move things," she said. "Three removes are as bad +as a fire; and nothing ever fits in to new places. Old wine and new +bottles, you know! Clear all off with a country auction. Everybody +comes, and they all fight for everything. Things bring more than +their original cost. Then you've nothing to do but order according +to your taste." + +Mr. Oldways had invited both his nieces to his own house on their +arrival. But here again Mrs. Megilp advised,--so judiciously. + +"There are too many of you; it would be a positive infliction. And +then you'll have all your running about and planning and calculating +to do, and the good old gentleman would think he had pulled half +Boston down about his ears. Your sister can go there; it would be +only generous and thoughtful to give way to her. There are only +three of them, and they are strange, you know, to every thing, and +wouldn't know which way to turn. I can put you in the way of rooms +at the Bellevue, exactly the thing, for a hundred and fifty a +month. No servants, you see; meals at the restaurant, and very good, +too. The Wedringtons are to give them up unexpectedly; going to +Europe; poor Mrs. Wedrington is so out of health. And about the +house; don't decide in a hurry; see what your uncle says, and your +sister. It's very likely she'll prefer the Aspen Street house; and +it _would_ be out of the way for you. Still it is not to be +_refused_, you know; of course it is very desirable in many +respects; roomy, old-fashioned, and a garden. I think your sister +will like those things; they're what she has been used to. If she +does, why it's all comfortably settled, and nobody refuses. It is so +ungracious to appear to object; a gift horse, you know." + +"Not to be refused; only by no means to be taken; masterly +inactivity till somebody else is hooked; and then somebody else is +to be grateful for the preference. I wish Mrs. Megilp wouldn't shine +things up so; and that mother wouldn't go to her to black all her +boots!" + +Desire said this in secret, indignant discomfort, to Helena, the +fourth in the family, her chum-sister. Helena did very well to talk +to; she heard anything; then she pranced round the room and chaffed +the canary. + +"Chee! chee! chee! chiddle, iddle, iddle, iddle, e-e-ee! Where do +you keep all your noise and your breath? You're great, aren't you? +You do that to spite people that have to work up one note at a time. +You don't take it in away down under your belt, do you? You're not +particular about that. You don't know much, after all. You don't +know _how_ you do it. You aren't learning of Madame Caroletti. And +you haven't learned two quarters, any way. You were only just born +last spring. Set up! Tr-r-r-r-e-e-ee! I can do that myself. I don't +believe you've got an octave in you. Poh!" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley came down from the country with a bonnet on that +had a crown, and with not a particle of a chignon. When she was +married, twenty-five years before, she wore a French twist,--her +hair turned up in waves from her neck as prettily as it did away +from her forehead,--and two thick coiled loops were knotted and +fastened gracefully at the top. She had kept on twisting her hair +so, all these years; and the rippling folds turned naturally under +her fingers into their places. The color was bright still, and it +had not thinned. Over her brows it parted richly, with no fuzz or +crimp; but a sweet natural wreathing look that made her face young. +Mrs. Ledwith had done hers over slate-pencils till she had burned it +off; and now tied on a friz, that came low down, for fashion's sake, +and left visible only a little bunch of puckers between her eyebrows +and the crowsfeet at the corners. The back of her head was weighted +down by an immense excrescence in a bag. Behind her ears were bare +places. Mrs. Ledwith began to look old-young. And a woman cannot get +into a worse stage of looks than that. Still, she was a showy +woman--a good exponent of the reigning style; and she was +handsome--she and her millinery--of an evening, or in the street. + +When I began that last paragraph I meant to tell you what else Mrs. +Ripwinkley brought with her, down out of the country and the old +times; but hair takes up a deal of room. She brought down all her +dear old furniture. That is, it came after her in boxes, when she +had made up her mind to take the Aspen Street house. + +"Why, that's the sofa Oliver used to lie down on when he came home +tired from his patients, and that's the rocking-chair I nursed my +babies in; and this is the old oak table we've sat round three times +a day, the family of us growing and thinning, as the time went on, +all through these years. It's like a communion table, now, Laura. Of +course such things had to come." + +This was what she answered, when Laura ejaculated her amazement at +her having brought "old Homesworth truck" to Boston. + +"You see it isn't the walls that make the home; we can go away from +them and not break our hearts, so long as our own goes with us. The +little things that we have used, and that have grown around us with +our living,--they are all of living that we can handle and hold on +to; and if I went to Spitzbergen, I should take as many of them as I +could." + +The Aspen Street house just suited Mrs. Ripwinkley, and Diana, and +Hazel. + +In the first place, it was wooden; built side to the street, so that +you went up a little paved walk, in a shade of trees, to get to the +door; and then the yard, on the right hand side as you came in, was +laid out in narrow walks between borders of blossoming plants. There +were vines against the brick end of the next building,--creepers and +morning-glories, and white and scarlet runners; and a little +martin-box was set upon a pole in the still, farther corner. + +The rooms of the house were low, but large; and some of the windows +had twelve-paned sashes,--twenty-four to a window. Mrs. Ripwinkley +was charmed with these also. They were like the windows at Mile +Hill. + +Mrs. Ledwith, although greatly relieved by her sister's prompt +decision for the house which she did _not_ want, felt it in her +conscience to remonstrate a little. + +"You have just come down from the mountains, Frank, after your +twenty-five years' sleep; you've seen nothing by and by you will +think differently. This house is fearfully old-fashioned, +_fearfully_; and it's away down here on the wrong side of the hill. +You can never get up over Summit Street from here." + +"We are used to hills, and walking." + +"But I mean--that isn't all. There are other things you won't be +able to get over. You'll never shake off Aspen Street dust,--you nor +the children." + +"I don't think it is dusty. It is quiet, and sheltered, and clean. I +like it ever so much," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. + +"O, dear, you don't understand in the least! It's wicked to let you +go on so! You poor, dear, simple little old soul!" + +"Never mind," said Mrs. Megilp. "It's all well enough for the +present. It pleases the old gentleman, you know; and after all he's +done, he ought to be pleased. One of you should certainly be in his +neighborhood. _He_ has been here from time immemorial; and any place +grows respectable by staying in it long enough--from _choice_. +Nobody will wonder at Mrs. Ripwinkley's coming here at his request. +And when she _does_ move, you see, she will know exactly what she is +about." + +"I almost doubt if she ever _will_ know what she is about," said +Laura. + +"In that case,--well,"--said Mrs. Megilp, and stopped, because it +really was not in the least needful to say more. + +Mrs. Megilp felt it judicious, for many reasons, that Mrs. +Ripwinkley should he hidden away for awhile, to get that mountain +sleep out of her eyes, if it should prove possible; just as we rub +old metal with oil and put it by till the rust comes off. + +The Ledwiths decided upon a house in Shubarton Place that would not +seem quite like taking old Uncle Titus's money and rushing away +with it as far as city limits would allow; and Laura really did wish +to have the comfort of her sister's society, in a cozy way, of +mornings, up in her room; that was her chief idea about it. There +were a good many times and things in which she scarcely expected +much companionship from Frank. She would not have said even to +herself, that Frank was rusty; and she would do her faithful and +good-natured best to rub her up; but there was an instinct with her +of the congruous and the incongruous; and she would not do her +Bath-brick polishing out on the public promenade. + +They began by going together to the carpet stores and the paper +warehouses; but they ended in detailing themselves for separate +work; their ideas clashed ridiculously, and perpetually confused +each other. Frank remembered loyally her old brown sofa and chairs; +she would not have gay colors to put them out of countenance; for +even if she re-covered them, she said they should have the same old +homey complexion. So she chose a fair, soft buff, with a pattern of +brown leaves, for her parlor paper; Mrs. Ledwith, meanwhile, +plunging headlong into glories of crimson and garnet and gold. +Agatha had her blush pink, in panels, with heart-of-rose borders, +set on with delicate gilt beadings; you would have thought she was +going to put herself up, in a fancy-box, like a French _mouchoir_ or +a _bonbon_. + +"Why _don't_ you put your old brown things all together in an +up-stairs room, and call it Mile Hill? You could keep it for old +times' sake, and sit there mornings; the house is big enough; and +then have furniture like other people's in the parlor?" + +"You see it wouldn't be _me_." said Mrs. Ripwinkley, simply. + +"They keep saying it 'looks,' and 'it looks,'" said Diana to her +mother, at home. "Why must everything _look_ somehow?" + +"And every_body_, too," said Hazel. "Why, when we meet any one in +the street that Agatha and Florence know, the minute they have gone +by they say, 'She didn't look well to-day,' or, 'How pretty she did +look in that new hat!' And after the great party they went to at +that Miss Hitchler's, they never told a word about it except how +girls 'looked.' I wonder what they _did_, or where the good time +was. Seems to me people ain't living,--they are only just looking; +or _is_ this the same old Boston that you told about, and where are +the real folks, mother?" + +"We shall find them," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, cheerily; "and the real +of these, too, when the outsides are settled. In the meantime, we'll +make our house say, and not look. Say something true, of course. +Things won't say anything else, you see; if you try to make them, +they don't speak out; they only stand in a dumb show and make +faces." + +"That's looking!" said Hazel. "Now I know." + +"How those children do grow!" said Mrs. Ripwinkley, as they went off +together. "Two months ago they were sitting out on the kitchen roof, +and coming to me to hear the old stories!" + +"Transplantin'," said Luclarion. "That's done it." + +At twelve and fourteen, Hazel and Diana could be simple as +birds,--simpler yet, as human children waiting for all things,--in +their country life and their little dreams of the world. Two months' +contact with people and things in a great city had started the life +that was in them, so that it showed what manner of growth it was to +be of. + +And little Hazel Ripwinkley had got hold already of the small end of +a very large problem. + +But she could not make it out that this was the same old Boston +that her mother had told about, or where the nice neighbors were +that would be likely to have little tea-parties for their children. + + + + +VIII. + +EAVESDROPPING IN ASPEN STREET. + + +Some of the old builders,--not the _very_ old ones, for they built +nothing but rope-walks down behind the hill,--but some of those who +began to go northwest from the State House to live, made a pleasant +group of streets down there on the level stretching away to the +river, and called them by fresh, fragrant, country-suggesting +names. Names of trees and fields and gardens, fruits and blossoms; +and they built houses with gardens around them. In between the +blocks were deep, shady places; and the smell of flowers was tossed +back and forth by summer winds between the walls. Some nice old +people stayed on there, and a few of their descendants stay on there +still, though they are built in closely now, for the most part, and +coarse, common things have much intruded, and Summit Street +overshadows them with its palaces. + +Here and there a wooden house, set back a little, like this of the +Ripwinkleys in Aspen Street, gives you a feeling of Boston in the +far back times, as you go by; and here and there, if you could get +into the life of the neighborhood, you might perhaps find a +household keeping itself almost untouched with change, though there +has been such a rush and surge for years up and over into the newer +and prouder places. + +At any rate, Titus Oldways lived here in Greenley Street; and he +owned the Aspen Street house, and another over in Meadow Place, and +another in Field Court. He meant to stretch his control over them as +long as he could, and keep them for families; therefore he valued +them at such rates as they would bring for dwellings; he would not +sell or lease them for any kind of "improvements;" he would not have +their little door-yards choked up, or their larger garden spaces +destroyed, while he could help it. + +Round in Orchard Street lived Miss Craydocke. She was away again, +now, staying a little while with the Josselyns in New York. Uncle +Titus told Mrs. Ripwinkley that when Miss Craydocke came back it +would be a neighborhood, and they could go round; now it was only +back and forth between them and him and Rachel Froke. There were +other people, too, but they would be longer finding them out. +"You'll know Miss Craydocke as soon as you see her; she is one of +those you always seem to have seen before." + +Now Uncle Titus would not have said this to everybody; not even if +everybody had been his niece, and had come to live beside him. + +Orchard Street is wide and sunny and pleasant; the river air comes +over it and makes it sweet; and Miss Craydocke's is a big, generous +house, of which she only uses a very little part herself, because +she lets the rest to nice people who want pleasant rooms and can't +afford to pay much rent; an old gentleman who has had a hard time in +the world, but has kept himself a gentleman through it all, and his +little cheery old lady-wife who puts her round glasses on and +stitches away at fine women's under-garments and flannel +embroideries, to keep things even, have the two very best rooms; and +a clergyman's widow, who copies for lawyers, and writes little +stories for children, has another; and two orphan sisters who keep +school have another; and Miss Craydocke calls her house the Beehive, +and buzzes up and down in it, and out and in, on little "seeing-to" +errands of care and kindness all day long, as never any queen-bee +did in any beehive before, but in a way that makes her more truly +queen than any sitting in the middle cell of state to be fed on +royal jelly. Behind the Beehive, is a garden, as there should be; +great patches of lily-of-the valley grow there that Miss Craydocke +ties up bunches from in the spring and gives away to little +children, and carries into all the sick rooms she knows of, and the +poor places. I always think of those lilies of the valley when I +think of Miss Craydocke. It seems somehow as if they were blooming +about her all the year through; and so they are, perhaps, invisibly. +The other flowers come in their season; the crocuses have been done +with first of all; the gay tulips and the snowballs have made the +children glad when they stopped at the gate and got them, going to +school. Miss Craydocke is always out in her garden at school-time. +By and by there are the tall white lilies, standing cool and serene +in the July heats; then Miss Craydocke is away at the mountains, +pressing ferns and drying grasses for winter parlors; but there is +somebody on duty at the garden dispensary always, and there are +flower-pensioners who know they may come in and take the gracious +toll. + +Late in the autumn, the nasturtiums and verbenas and marigolds are +bright; and the asters quill themselves into the biggest globes they +can, of white and purple and rose, as if it were to make the last +glory the best, and to do the very utmost of the year. Then the +chrysanthemums go into the house and bloom there for Christmas-time. + +There is nothing else like Miss Craydocke's house and garden, I do +believe, in all the city of the Three Hills. It is none too big for +her, left alone with it, the last of her family; the world is none +too big for her; she is glad to know it is all there. She has a use +for everything as fast as it comes, and a work to do for everybody, +as fast as she finds them out. And everybody,--almost,--catches it +as she goes along, and around her there is always springing up a +busy and a spreading crystallizing of shining and blessed elements. +The world is none too big for her, or for any such, of course, +because,--it has been told why better than I can tell it,--because +"ten times one is always ten." + +It was a gray, gusty morning. It had not set in to rain +continuously; but the wind wrung handfuls of drops suddenly from the +clouds, and flung them against the panes and into the wayfarers' +faces. + +Over in the house opposite the Ripwinkley's, at the second story +windows, sat two busy young persons. Hazel, sitting at her window, +in "mother's room," where each had a corner, could see across; and +had got into the way of innocent watching. Up in Homesworth, she had +used to watch the robins in the elm-trees; here, there was human +life, in little human nests, all about her. + +"It's the same thing, mother," she would say, "isn't it, now? Don't +you remember in that book of the 'New England Housekeeper,' that you +used to have, what the woman said about the human nature of the +beans? It's in beans, and birds, and bird's nests; and folks, and +folks' nests. It don't make much difference. It's just snugness, and +getting along. And it's so nice to see!" + +Hazel put her elbows up on the window-sill, and looked straight over +into that opposite room, undisguisedly. + +The young man, in one window, said to his sister in the other, at +the same moment,-- + +"Our company's come! There's that bright little girl again!" + +And the sister said, "Well, it's pretty much all the company we can +take in! She brings her own seat and her own window; and she doesn't +interrupt. It's just the kind for us, Kentie!" + +"She's writing,--copying something,--music, it looks like; see it +there, set up against the shutter. She always goes out with a music +roll in her hand. I wonder whether she gives or takes?" said Diana, +stopping on her way to her own seat to look out over Hazel's +shoulder. + +"Both, I guess," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "Most people do. Why don't +you put your flowers in the window, Hazel?" + +"Why, so I will!" + +They were a great bunch of snowy white and deep crimson asters, with +green ivy leaves, in a tall gray glass vase. Rachel Froke had just +brought them in from Miss Craydocke's garden. + +"They're looking, mother! Only I do think it's half too bad! That +girl seems as if she would almost reach across after them. Perhaps +they came from the country, and haven't had any flowers." + +"Thee might take them over some," said Mrs. Froke, simply. + +"O, I shouldn't dare! There are other people in the house, and I +don't know their names, or anything. I wish I could, though." + +"I can," said Rachel Froke. "Thee'll grow tall enough to step over +pebbles one of these days. Never mind; I'll fetch thee more +to-morrow; and thee'll let the vase go for a while? Likely they've +nothing better than a tumbler." + +Rachel Froke went down the stairs, and out along the paved walk, +into the street. She stopped an instant on the curb-stone before she +crossed, and looked up at those second story windows. Hazel watched +her. She held up the vase slightly with one hand, nodding her little +gray bonnet kindly, and beckoned with the other. + +The young girl started from her seat. + +In another minute Hazel saw them together in the doorway. + +There was a blush and a smile, and an eager brightness in the face, +and a quick speaking thanks, that one could read without hearing, +from the parted lips, on the one side, and the quiet, unflutterable +gray bonnet calmly horizontal on the other; and then the door was +shut, and Rachel Froke was crossing the damp pavement again. + +"I'm so glad Aspen Street is narrow!" said Hazel. "I should hate to +be way off out of sight of people. What did you say to her, Mrs. +Froke?" she asked, as the Friend reentered. Hazel could by no means +take the awful liberty of "Rachel." + +"I said the young girl, Hazel Ripwinkley, being from the country, +knew how good flowers were to strangers in the town, and that she +thought they might be strange, and might like some." + +Hazel flushed all up. At that same instant, a gentle nod and smile +came across from window to window, and she flushed more, till the +tears sprung with the shy, glad excitement, as she returned it and +then shrunk away. + +"And she said, 'Thank her, with Dorris Kincaid's love,'" proceeded +Rachel Froke. + +"O, _mother_!" exclaimed Hazel. "And you did it all, right off so, +Mrs. Froke. I don't see how grown up people dare, and know how!" + +Up the stairs ran quick feet in little clattering heeled boots. +Desire Ledwith, with a purple waterproof on, came in. + +"I couldn't stay at home to-day," she said, "I wanted to be where +it was all-togetherish. It never is at our house. Now it's set up, +they don't do anything with it." + +"That's because it '_looks_'--so elegant," said Hazel, catching +herself up in dismay. + +"It's because it's the crust, I think," said Desire. "Puff paste, +like an oyster patty; and they haven't got anything cooked yet for +the middle. I wonder when they will. I had a call yesterday, all to +myself," she went on, with a sudden change of tone and topic. +"Agatha was hopping and I wouldn't tell her what I said, or how I +behaved. That new parlor girl of ours thinks we're all or any of us +'Miss Ledwith,' mamma included, and so she let him in. He had on +lavender pantaloons and a waxed moustache." + +"The rain is just pouring down!" said Diana, at the garden window. + +"Yes; I'm caught. That's what I meant," said Desire. "You've got to +keep me all day, now. How will you get home, Mrs. Froke? Or won't +you have to stay, too?" + +"Thee may call me Rachel, Desire Ledwith, if thee pleases. I like it +better. I am no mistress. And for getting home, it is but just round +the corner. But there is no need yet. I came for an hour, to sit +here with friend Frances. And my hour is not yet up." + +"I'm glad of that, for there is something I want you to tell me. I +haven't quite got at it myself, yet; so as to ask, I mean. Wait a +minute!" And she put her elbows up on her knees, and held her thumbs +against her ears, and her fingers across her forehead; sitting +squarely opposite the window to which she had drawn up her chair +beside Diane, and looking intently at the driving streams that +rushed and ran down against the glass. + +"I was sitting in the bay-window at home, when it began this +morning; that made me think. All the world dripping wet, and I just +put there dry and safe in the middle of the storm, shut up behind +those great clear panes and tight sashes. How they did have to +contrive, and work, before there were such places made for people! +What if they had got into their first scratchy little houses, and +sat behind the logs as we do behind glass windows and thought, as I +was thinking, how nice it was just to be covered up from the rain? +Is it all finished now? Hasn't anybody got to contrive anything +more? And who's going to do it--and everything. And what are we good +for,--just _we_,--to come and expect it all, modern-improved! I +don't think much of our place among things, do you, Mrs. +Froke?--There, I believe that's it, as near as I can!'" + +"Why does thee ask me, Desire?" + +"I don't know. I don't know any whys or what fors. 'Behold we know +not anything,'--Tennyson and I! But you seem so--pacified--I suppose +I thought you must have settled most things in your mind." + +"Every builder--every little joiner--did his piece,--thought his +thought out, I think likely. There's no little groove or moulding or +fitting or finish, but is a bit of somebody's living; and life +grows, going on. We've all got our piece to do," said Rachel. + +"I asked Mrs. Mig," Desire pursued, "and she said some people's part +was to buy and employ and encourage; and that spending money helps +all the world; and then she put another cushion to her back, and +went on tatting." + +"Perhaps it does--in spite of the world," said Rachel Froke, +quietly. + +"But I guess nobody is to sit by and _only_ encourage; God has +given out no such portion as that, I do believe. We can encourage +each other, and every one do his own piece too." + +"I didn't really suppose Mrs. Mig knew," said Desire, demurely. "She +never began at the bottom of anything. She only finishes off. She +buys pattern worsted work, and fills it in. That's what she's doing +now, when she don't tat; a great bunch of white lilies, grounding it +with olive. It's lovely; but I'd rather have made the lilies. She'll +give it to mother, and then Glossy will come and spend the winter +with us. Mrs. Mig is going to Nassau with a sick friend; she's +awfully useful--for little overseeings and general touchings up, +after all the hard part is done. Mrs. Mig's sick friends always have +nurses and waiting maids--Mrs. F---- Rachel! Do you know, I haven't +got any piece!" + +"No, I don't know; nor does thee either, yet," said Rachel Froke. + + * * * * * + +"It's all such bosh!" said Kenneth Kincaid, flinging down a handful +of papers. "I've no right, I solemnly think, to help such stuff out +into the world! A man can't take hold anywhere, it seems, without +smutting his fingers!" + +Kenneth Kincaid was correcting proof for a publisher. What he had to +work on this morning was the first chapters of a flimsy novel. + +"It isn't even confectionery," said he. "It's terra alba and +cochineal. And when it comes to the sensation, it will be benzine +for whiskey. Real things are bad enough, for the most part, in this +world; but when it comes to sham fictions and adulterated poisons, +Dorris, I'd rather help bake bread, if it were an honest loaf, or +make strong shoes for laboring men!" + +"You don't always get things like that," said Dorris. "And you know +you're not responsible. Why will you torment yourself so?" + +"I was so determined not to do anything but genuine work; work that +the world wanted; and to have it come down to this!" + +"Only for a time, while you are waiting." + +"Yes; people must eat while they are waiting; that's the--devil of +it! I'm not swearing, Dorris, dear; it came truly into my head, that +minute, about the Temptation in the Wilderness." Kenneth's voice was +reverent, saying this; and there was an earnest thought in his face. + +"You'll never like anything heartily but your Sunday work." + +"That's what keeps me here. My week-day work might be wanted +somewhere else. And perhaps I ought to go. There's Sunday work +everywhere." + +"If you've found one half, hold on to it;" said Dorris. "The other +can't be far off." + +"I suppose there are a score or two of young architects in this +city, waiting for a name or a chance to make one, as I am. If it +isn't here for all of them, somebody has got to quit." + +"And somebody has got to hold on," repeated Dorris. "You are morbid, +Kent, about this 'work of the world.'" + +"It's overdone, everywhere. Fifth wheels trying to hitch on to every +coach. I'd rather be the one wheel of a barrow." + +"The Lord is Wheelwright, and Builder," said Dorris, very simply. +"You _are_ a wheel, and He has made you; He'll find an axle for you +and put you on; and you shall go about his business, so that you +shall wonder to remember that you were ever leaning up against a +wall. Do you know, Kentie, life seems to me like the game we used +to play at home in the twilight. When we shut our eyes and let each +other lead us, until we did not know where we were going, or in what +place we should come out. I should not care to walk up a broad path +with my eyes wide open, now. I'd rather feel the leading. To-morrow +always makes a turn. It's beautiful! People don't know, who _never_ +shut their eyes!" + +Kenneth had taken up a newspaper. + +"The pretenses at doing! The dodges and go-betweens that make a sham +work between every two real ones! There's hardly a true business +carried on, and if there is, you don't know where or which. Look at +the advertisements. Why, they cheat with their very tops and faces! +See this man who puts in big capitals: 'Lost! $5,000! $1,000 +reward!' and then tells you, in small type, that five thousand +dollars are lost every year by breaking glass and china, that his +cement will mend! What business has he to cry 'Wolf!' to the +hindrance of the next man who may have a real wolf to catch? And +what business has the printer, whom the next man will pay to +advertise his loss, to help on a lie like this beforehand? I'm only +twenty-six years old, Dorris, and I'm getting ashamed of the world!" + +"Don't grow hard, Kenneth. 'The Son of Man came not to condemn the +world, but to save it.' Let's each try to save our little piece!" + +We are listening across the street, you see; between the windows in +the rain; it is strange what chords one catches that do not catch +each other, and were never planned to be played together,--by the +_players_. + +Kenneth Kincaid's father Robert had been a ship-builder. When +shipping went down in the whirlpool of 1857, Robert Kincaid's +building had gone; and afterward he had died leaving his children +little beside their education, which he thanked God was secured, and +a good repute that belonged to their name, but was easily forgotten +in the crowd of young and forward ones, and in the strife and +scramble of a new business growth. + +Between college and technical studies Kenneth had been to the war. +After that he had a chance to make a fortune in Wall Street. His +father's brother, James, offered to take him in with him to buy and +sell stocks and gold, to watch the market, to touch little unseen +springs, to put the difference into his own pocket every time the +tide of value shifted, or could be made to seem to shift. He might +have been one of James R. Kincaid and Company. He would have none of +it. He told his uncle plainly that he wanted real work; that he had +not come back from fighting to--well, there he stopped, for he could +not fling the truth in his uncle's face; he said there were things +he meant to finish learning, and would try to do; and if nobody +wanted them of him he would learn something else that was needed. So +with what was left to his share from his father's little remnant of +property, he had two years at the Technological School, and here he +was in Boston waiting. You can see what he meant by real work, and +how deep his theories and distinctions lay. You can see that it +might be a hard thing for one young man, here or there, to take up +the world on these terms now, in this year of our Lord eighteen +hundred and sixty-nine. + +Over the way Desire Ledwith was beginning again, after a pause in +which we have made our little chassee. + +"I know a girl," she said, "who has got a studio. And she talks +about art, and she knows styles, and who has done what, and she runs +about to see pictures, and she copies things, and she has little +plaster legs and toes and things hanging round everywhere. She +thinks it is something great; but it's only Mig, after all. +Everything is. Florence Migs into music. And I won't Mig, if I never +do anything. I'm come here this morning to darn stockings." And she +pulled out of her big waterproof pocket a bundle of stockings and a +great white ball of darning cotton and a wooden egg. + +"There is always one thing that is real," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, +gently, "and that shows the way surely to all the rest." + +"I know what you mean," said Desire, "of course; but they've mixed +that all up too, like everything else, so that you don't know where +it is. Glossy Megilp has a velvet prayer-book, and she blacks her +eyelashes and goes to church. We've all been baptized, and we've +learned the Lord's Prayer, and we're all Christians. What is there +more about it? I wish, sometimes, they had let it all alone. I think +they vaccinated us with religion, Aunt Frank, for fear we should +take it the natural way." + +"Thee is restless," said Rachel Froke, tying on her gray cloak. "And +to make us so is oftentimes the first thing the Lord does for us. It +was the first thing He did for the world. Then He said, 'Let there +be light!' In the meantime, thee is right; just darn thy stockings." +And Rachel went. + +They had a nice morning, after that, "leaving frets alone," as Diana +said. Diana Ripwinkley was happy in things just as they were. If the +sun shone, she rejoiced in the glory; if the rain fell, it shut her +in sweetly to the heart of home, and the outside world grew fragrant +for her breathing. There was never anything in her day that she +could spare out of it, and there were no holes in the hours either. +"Whether she was most bird or bee, it was hard to tell," her mother +said of her; from the time she used to sweep and dust her garret +baby-house along the big beams in the old house at Homesworth, and +make little cheeses, and set them to press in wooden pill-boxes from +which she had punched the bottoms out, till now, that she began to +take upon herself the daily freshening of the new parlors in Aspen +Street, and had long lessons of geometry to learn, whose dry +demonstrations she set to odd little improvised recitatives of +music, and chanted over while she ran up and down putting away clean +linen for her mother, that Luclarion brought up from the wash. + +As for Hazel, she was only another variation upon the same sweet +nature. There was more of outgo and enterprise with her. Diana made +the thing or the place pleasant that she was in or doing. Hazel +sought out new and blessed inventions. "There was always something +coming to the child that wouldn't ever have come to no one else," +Luclarion said. "And besides that, she was a real 'Witch Hazel;' she +could tell where the springs were, and what's more, where they +warn't." + +Luclarion Grapp would never have pleaded guilty to "dropping into +poetry" in any light whatsoever; but what she meant by this was not +exactly according to the letter, as one may easily see. + + + + +IX. + +HAZEL'S INSPIRATION. + + +What was the use of "looking," unless things were looked at? Mrs. +Ledwith found at the end of the winter that she ought to give a +party. Not a general one; Mrs. Ledwith always said "not a general +one," as if it were an exception, whereas she knew better than ever +to undertake a general party; her list would be _too_ general, and +heterogeneous. It would simply be a physical, as well as a social, +impossibility. She knew quantities of people separately and very +cordially, in her easy have-a-good-time-when-you-can style, that she +could by no means mix, or even gather together. She picked up +acquaintances on summer journeys, she accepted civilities wherever +she might be, she asked everybody to her house who took a fancy to +her, or would admire her establishment, and if she had had a spring +cleaning or a new carpeting, or a furbishing up in any way, the next +thing was always to light up and play it off,--to try it on to +somebody. What were houses for? And there was always somebody who +ought to be paid attention to; somebody staying with a friend, or a +couple just engaged, or if nothing else, it was her turn to have the +sewing-society; and so her rooms got aired. Of course she had to air +them now! The drawing-room, with its apricot and coffee-brown +furnishings, was lovely in the evening, and the crimson and garnet +in the dining-room was rich and cozy, and set off brilliantly her +show of silver and cut-glass; and then, there was the new, real, +sea-green China. + +So the party was had. There were some people in town from New York; +she invited them and about a hundred more. The house lit up +beautifully; the only pity was that Mrs. Ledwith could not wear her +favorite and most becoming colors, buff and chestnut, because she +had taken that family of tints for her furniture; but she found a +lovely shade of violet that would hold by gas-light, and she wore +black Fayal lace with it, and white roses upon her hair. Mrs. +Treweek was enchanted with the brown and apricot drawing-room, and +wondered where on earth they had got that particular shade, for "my +dear! she had ransacked Paris for hangings in just that perfect, +soft, ripe color that she had in her mind and never could hit upon." +Mrs. MacMichael had pushed the grapes back upon her plate to examine +the pattern of the bit of china, and had said how lovely the +coloring was, with the purple and pale green of the fruit. And these +things, and a few more like them, were the residuum of the whole, +and Laura Ledwith was satisfied. + +Afterward, "while they were in the way of it," Florence had a little +_musicale_; and the first season in Shubarton Place was over. + +It turned out, however, as it did in the old rhyme,--they shod the +horse, and shod the mare, and let the little colt go bare. Helena +was disgusted because she could not have a "German." + +"We shall have to be careful, now that we have fairly settled down," +said Laura to her sister; "for every bit of Grant's salary will have +been taken up with this winter's expenses. But one wants to begin +right, and after that one can go on moderately. I'm good at +contriving, Frank; only give me something to contrive with." + +"Isn't it a responsibility," Frank ventured, "to think what we shall +contrive _for_?" + +"Of course," returned Mrs. Ledwith, glibly. "And my first duty is +to my children. I don't mean to encourage them to reckless +extravagance; as Mrs. Megilp says, there's always a limit; but it's +one's duty to make life beautiful, and one can't do too much for +home. I want my children to be satisfied with theirs, and I want to +cultivate their tastes and accustom them to society. I can't do +_everything_ for them; they will dress on three hundred a year +apiece, Agatha and Florence; and I can assure you it needs +management to accomplish that, in these days!" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley laughed, gently. + +"It would require management with us to get rid of that, upon +ourselves." + +"O, my dear, don't I tell you continually, you haven't waked up yet? +Just rub your eyes a while longer,--or let the girls do it for +you,--and you'll see! Why, I know of girls,--girls whose mothers +have limited incomes, too,--who have been kept plain, actually +_plain_, all their school days, but who must have now six and eight +hundred a year to go into society with. And really I wouldn't +undertake it for less, myself, if I expected to keep up with +everything. But I must treat mine all alike, and we must be +contented with what we have. There's Helena, now, crazy for a young +party; but I couldn't think of it. Young parties are ten times worse +than old ones; there's really no _end_ to the expense, with the +German, and everything. Helena will have to wait; and yet,--of +course, if I could, it is desirable, almost necessary; acquaintances +begin in the school-room,--society, indeed; and a great deal would +depend upon it. The truth is, you're no sooner born, now-a-days, +than you have to begin to keep up; or else--you're dropped out." + +"O, Laura! do you remember the dear little parties our mother used +to make for us? From four till half-past eight, with games, and tea +at six, and the fathers looking in?" + +"And cockles, and mottoes, and printed cambric dresses, and milk and +water! Where are the children, do you suppose, you dear old Frau Van +Winkle, that would come to such a party now?" + +"Children must be born simple, as they were then. There's nothing my +girls would like better, even at their age, than to help at just +such a party. It is a dream of theirs. Why shouldn't somebody do it, +just to show how good it is?" + +"You can lead a horse to water, you know, Frank, but you can't make +him drink. And the colts are forty times worse. I believe you might +get some of the mothers together for an ancient tea-drink, just in +the name of old association; but the _babies_ would all turn up +their new-fashioned little noses." + +"O, dear!" sighed Frau Van Winkle. "I wish I knew people!" + +"By the time you do, you'll know the reason why, and be like all the +rest." + +Hazel Ripwinkley went to Mrs. Hilman's school, with her cousin +Helena. That was because the school was a thoroughly good one; the +best her mother could learn of; not because it was kept in parlors +in Dorset Street, and there were girls there who came from palaces +west of the Common, in the grand avenues and the ABC streets; nor +did Hazel wear her best gray and black velvet suit for every day, +though the rich colored poplins with their over-skirts and sashes, +and the gay ribbons for hair and neck made the long green baize +covered tables look like gardenplots with beds of bloom, and quite +extinguished with their brilliancy the quiet, one skirted brown +merino that she brushed and folded every night, and put on with +fresh linen cuffs and collar every morning. + +"It is an idiosyncrasy of Aunt Frances," Helena explained, with the +grandest phrase she could pick out of her "Synonymes," to cow down +those who "wondered." + +Privately, Helena held long lamentations with Hazel, going to and +fro, about the party that she could not have. + +"I'm actually ashamed to go to school. There isn't a girl there, who +can pretend to have anything, that hasn't had some kind of a company +this winter. I've been to them all, and I feel real mean,--sneaky. +What's 'next year?' Mamma puts me off with that. Poh? Next year +they'll all begin again. You can't skip birthdays." + +"I'll tell you what!" said Hazel, suddenly, inspired by much the +same idea that had occurred to Mrs. Ripwinkley; "I mean to ask my +mother to let _me_ have a party!" + +"You! Down in Aspen Street! Don't, for pity's sake, Hazel!" + +"I don't believe but what it could be done over again!" said Hazel, +irrelevantly, intent upon her own thought. + +"It couldn't be done _once_! For gracious grandmother's sake, don't +think of it!" cried the little world-woman of thirteen. + +"It's gracious grandmother's sake that made me think of it," said +Hazel, laughing. "The way she used to do." + +"Why don't you ask them to help you hunt up old Noah, and all get +back into the ark, pigeons and all?" + +"Well, I guess they had pretty nice times there, any how; and if +another big rain comes, perhaps they'll have to!" + +Hazel did not intend her full meaning; but there is many a faint, +small prophecy hid under a clover-leaf. + +Hazel did not let go things; her little witch-wand, once pointed, +held its divining angle with the might of magic until somebody broke +ground. + +"It's awful!" Helena declared to her mother and sisters, with tears +of consternation. "And she wants me to go round with her and carry +'compliments!' It'll never be got over,--never! I wish I could go +away to boarding-school!" + +For Mrs. Ripwinkley had made up her unsophisticated mind to try this +thing; to put this grain of a pure, potent salt, right into the +seethe and glitter of little Boston, and find out what it would +decompose or precipitate. For was not she a mother, testing the +world's chalice for her children? What did she care for the hiss and +the bubble, if they came? + +She was wider awake than Mrs. Ledwith knew; perhaps they who come +down from the mountain heights of long seclusion can measure the +world's paces and changes better than they who have been hurried in +the midst of them, on and on, or round and round. + +Worst of all, old Uncle Titus took it up. + +It was funny,--or it would have been funny, reader, if anybody but +you and I and Rachel Froke knew exactly how,--to watch Uncle Titus +as he kept his quiet eye on all these things,--the things that he +had set going,--and read their revelations; sheltered, disguised, +under a character that the world had chosen to put upon him, like +Haroun Alraschid in the merchant's cloak. + +They took their tea with him,--the two families,--every Sunday +night. Agatha Ledwith "filled him in" a pair of slippers that very +first Christmas; he sat there in the corner with his old leather +ones on, when they came, and left them, for the most part, to their +own mutual entertainment, until the tea was ready. It was a sort of +family exchange; all the plans and topics came up, particularly on +the Ledwith side, for Mrs. Ripwinkley was a good listener, and Laura +a good talker; and the fun,--that you and I and Rachel Froke could +guess,--yes, and a good deal of unsuspected earnest, also,--was all +there behind the old gentleman's "Christian Age," as over brief +mentions of sermons, or words about books, or little brevities of +family inquiries and household news, broke small floods of +excitement like water over pebbles, as Laura and her daughters +discussed and argued volubly the matching and the flouncing of a +silk, or the new flowering and higher pitching of a bonnet,--since +"they are wearing everything all on the top, you know, and mine +looks terribly meek;" or else descanted diffusely on the +unaccountableness of the somebodies not having called, or the bother +and forwardness of the some-other-bodies who had, and the +eighty-three visits that were left on the list to be paid, and +"never being able to take a day to sit down for anything." + +"What is it all for?" Mrs. Ripwinkley would ask, over again, the +same old burden of the world's weariness falling upon her from her +sister's life, and making her feel as if it were her business to +clear it away somehow. + +"Why, to live!" Mrs. Ledwith would reply. "You've got it all to do, +you see." + +"But I don't really see, Laura, where the living comes in." + +Laura opens her eyes. + +"_Slang_?" says she. "Where did you get hold of that?" + +"Is it slang? I'm sure I don't know. I mean it." + +"Well, you _are_ the funniest! You don't _catch_ anything. Even a +by-word must come first-hand from you, and mean something!" + +"It seems to me such a hard-working, getting-ready-to-be, and then +not being. There's no place left for it,--because it's all place." + +"Gracious me, Frank! If you are going to sift everything so, and get +back of everything! I can't live in metaphysics: I have to live in +the things themselves, amongst other people." + +"But isn't it scene and costume, a good deal of it, without the +play? It may be that I don't understand, because I have not got into +the heart of your city life; but what comes of the parties, for +instance? The grand question, beforehand, is about wearing, and then +there's a retrospection of what was worn, and how people looked. It +seems to be all surface. I should think they might almost send in +their best gowns, or perhaps a photograph,--if photographs ever were +becoming,--as they do visiting cards." + +"Aunt Frank," said Desire, "I don't believe the 'heart of city life' +is in the parties, or the parlors. I believe there's a great lot of +us knocking round amongst the dry goods and the furniture that never +get any further. People must be _living_, somewhere, _behind_ the +fixings. But there are so many people, nowadays, that have never +quite got fixed!" + +"You might live all your days here," said Mrs. Ledwith to her +sister, passing over Desire, "and never get into the heart of it, +for that matter, unless you were born into it. I don't care so much, +for my part. I know plenty of nice people, and I like to have things +nice about me, and to have a pleasant time, and to let my children +enjoy themselves. The 'heart,' if the truth was known, is a +dreadful still place. I'm satisfied." + +Uncle Titus's paper was folded across the middle; just then he +reversed the lower half; that brought the printing upside down; but +he went on reading all the same. + +"_I_'m going to have a real party," said Hazel, "a real, +gracious-grandmother party; just such as you and mother had, Aunt +Laura, when you were little." + +Her Aunt Laura laughed good-naturedly. + +"I guess you'll have to go round and knock up the grandmothers to +come to it, then," said she. "You'd better make it a fancy dress +affair at once, and then it will be accounted for." + +"No; I'm going round to invite; and they are to come at four, and +take tea at six; and they're just to wear their afternoon dresses; +and Miss Craydocke is coming at any rate; and she knows all the old +plays, and lots of new ones; and she is going to show how." + +"I'm coming, too," said Uncle Titus, over his newspaper, with his +eyes over his glasses. + +"That's good," said Hazel, simply, least surprised of any of the +conclave. + +"And you'll have to play the muffin man. 'O, don't you know,'"--she +began to sing, and danced two little steps toward Mr. Oldways. "O, I +forgot it was Sunday!" she said, suddenly stopping. + +"Not much wonder," said Uncle Titus. "And not much matter. _Your_ +Sunday's good enough." + +And then he turned his paper right side up; but, before he began +really to read again, he swung half round toward them in his +swivel-chair, and said,-- + +"Leave the sugar-plums to me, Hazel; I'll come early and bring 'em +in my pocket." + +"It's the first thing he's taken the slightest notice of, or +interest in, that any one of us has been doing," said Agatha +Ledwith, with a spice of momentary indignation, as they walked along +Bridgeley Street to take the car. + +For Uncle Titus had not come to the Ledwith party. "He never went +visiting, and he hadn't any best coat," he told Laura, in verbal +reply to the invitation that had come written on a square satin +sheet, once folded, in an envelope with a big monogram. + +"It's of no consequence," said Mrs. Ledwith, "any way. Only a +child's play." + +"But it will be, mother; you don't know," said Helena. "She's going +right in everywhere, with that ridiculous little invitation; to the +Ashburnes and the Geoffreys, and all! She hasn't the least idea of +any difference; and just think what the girls will say, and how they +will stare, and laugh! I wish she wasn't my cousin!" + +"Helena!" + +Mrs. Ledwith spoke with real displeasure; for she was good-natured +and affectionate in her way; and her worldly ambitions were rather +wide than high, as we have seen. + +"Well, I can't help it; you don't know, mother," Helena repeated. +"It's horrid to go to school with all those stiffies, that don't +care a snap for you, and only laugh." + +"Laughing is vulgar," said Agatha. If any indirect question were +ever thrown upon the family position, Agatha immediately began +expounding the ethics of high breeding, as one who had attained. + +"It is only half-way people who laugh," she said. "Ada Geoffrey and +Lilian Ashburne never laugh--_at_ anybody--I am sure." + +"No, they don't; not right out. They're awfully polite. But you can +feel it, underneath. They have a way of keeping so still, when you +know they would laugh if they did anything." + +"Well, they'll neither laugh nor keep still, about this. You need +not be concerned. They'll just not go, and that will be the end of +it." + +Agatha Ledwith was mistaken. She had been mistaken about two things +to-night. The other was when she had said that this was the first +time Uncle Oldways had noticed or been interested in anything they +did. + + + + +X. + +COCKLES AND CRAMBO. + + +Hazel Ripwinkley put on her nankeen sack and skirt, and her little +round, brown straw hat. For May had come, and almost gone, and it +was a day of early summer warmth. + +Hazel's dress was not a "suit;" it had been made and worn two +summers before suits were thought of; yet it suited very well, as +people's things are apt to do, after all, who do not trouble +themselves about minutiae of fashion, and so get no particular +antediluvian marks upon them that show when the flood subsides. + +Her mother knew some things that Hazel did not. Mrs. Ripwinkley, if +she had been asleep for five and twenty years, had lost none of her +perceptive faculties in the trance. But she did not hamper her child +with any doubts; she let her go on her simple way, under the shield +of her simplicity, to test this world that she had come into, for +herself. + +Hazel had written down her little list of the girls' names that she +would like to ask; and Mrs. Ripwinkley looked at it with a smile. +There was Ada Geoffrey, the banker's daughter, and Lilian Ashburne, +the professor's,--heiresses each, of double lines of birth and +wealth. She could remember how, in her childhood, the old names +sounded, with the respect that was in men's tones when they were +spoken; and underneath were Lois James and Katie Kilburnie, children +of a printer and a hatter. They had all been chosen for their purely +personal qualities. A child, let alone, chooses as an angel chooses. + +It remained to be seen how they would come together. + +At the very head, in large, fair letters, was,-- + + "MISS CRAYDOCKE." + +Down at the bottom, she had just added,-- + + "MR. KINCAID AND DORRIS." + +"For, if I have _some_ grown folks, mother, perhaps I ought to have +_other_ grown folks,--'to keep the balance true.' Besides, Mr. +Kincaid and Dorris always like the _little_ nice times." + +From the day when Dorris Kincaid had come over with the gray glass +vase and her repeated thanks, when the flowers had done their +ministry and faded, there had been little simple courtesies, each +way, between the opposite houses; and once Kenneth and his sister +had taken tea with the Ripwinkleys, and they had played "crambo" +and "consequences" in the evening. The real little game of +"consequences," of which this present friendliness was a link, was +going on all the time, though they did not stop to read the lines as +they folded them down, and "what the world said" was not one of the +items in their scheme of it at all. + +It would have been something worth while to have followed Hazel as +she went her rounds, asking quietly at each house to see Mrs. This +or That, "as she had a message;" and being shown, like a little +representative of an almost extinct period, up into the parlor, or +the dressing-room of each lady, and giving her quaint errand. + +"I am Hazel Ripwinkley," she would say, "and my mother sends her +compliments, and would like to have Lilian,"--or whoever +else,--"come at four o'clock to-day, and spend the afternoon and +take tea. I'm to have a little party such as she used to have, and +nobody is to be much dressed up, and we are only to play games." + +"Why, that is charming!" cried Mrs. Ashburne; for the feeling of +her own sweet early days, and the old B---- Square house, came over +her as she heard the words. "It is Lilian's music afternoon; but +never mind; give my kind compliments to your mother, and she will be +very happy to come." + +And Mrs. Ashburne stooped down and kissed Hazel, when she went away. + +She stood in the deep carved stone entrance-way to Mrs. Geoffrey's +house, in the same fearless, Red Riding Hood fashion, just as she +would have waited in any little country porch up in Homesworth, +where she had need indeed to knock. + +Not a whit dismayed was she either, when the tall manservant opened +to her, and admitted her into the square, high, marble-paved hall, +out of which great doors were set wide into rooms rich and quiet +with noble adorning and soft shading,--where pictures made such a +magic upon the walls, and books were piled from floor to ceiling; +and where her little figure was lost as she went in, and she +hesitated to take a seat anywhere, lest she should be quite hidden +in some great arm-chair or sofa corner, and Mrs. Geoffrey should not +see her when she came down. + +So, as the lady entered, there she was, upright and waiting, on her +two feet, in her nankeen dress, just within the library doors, with +her face turned toward the staircase. + +"I am Hazel Ripwinkley," she began; as if she had said, I am +Pease-blossom or Mustard-seed; "I go to school with Ada." And went +on, then, with her compliments and her party. And at the end she +said, very simply,-- + +"Miss Craydocke is coming, and she knows the games." + +"Miss Craydocke, of Orchard Street? And where do you live?" + +"In Aspen Street, close by, in Uncle Oldways' house. We haven't +lived there very long,--only this winter; before that we always +lived in Homesworth." + +"And Homesworth is in the country? Don't you miss that?" + +"Yes; but Aspen Street isn't very bad; we've got a garden. Besides, +we like streets and neighbors." + +Then she added,--for her little witch-stick felt spiritually the +quality of what she spoke to,--"Wouldn't Mr. Geoffrey come for Ada +in the evening?" + +"I haven't the least doubt he would!" said Mrs. Geoffrey, her face +all alive with exquisite and kindly amusement, and catching the +spirit of the thing from the inimitable simplicity before her, such +as never, she did believe, had walked into anybody's house before, +in this place and generation, and was no more to be snubbed than a +flower or a breeze or an angel. + +It was a piece of Witch Hazel's witchery, or inspiration, that she +named Miss Craydocke; for Miss Craydocke was an old, dear friend of +Mrs. Geoffrey's, in that "heart of things" behind the fashions, +where the kingdom is growing up. But of course Hazel could not have +known that; something in the lady's face just made her think of the +same thing in Miss Craydocke's, and so she spoke, forgetting to +explain, nor wondering in the very least, when she was met with +knowledge. + +It was all divining, though, from the beginning to the end. That was +what took her into these homes, rather than to a score of other +places up and down the self-same streets, where, if she had got in +at all, she would have met strange, lofty stares, and freezing +"thank you's," and "engagements." + +"I've found the real folks, mother, and they're all coming!" she +cried, joyfully, running in where Mrs. Ripwinkley was setting little +vases and baskets about on shelf and table, between the white, +plain, muslin draperies of the long parlor windows. In vases and +baskets were sweet May flowers; bunches of deep-hued, rich-scented +violets, stars of blue and white periwinkle, and Miss Craydocke's +lilies of the valley in their tall, cool leaves; each kind gathered +by itself in clusters and handfuls. Inside the wide, open fireplace, +behind the high brass fender and the shining andirons, was a +"chimney flower pot," country fashion, of green lilac boughs,--not +blossoms,--and woodbine sprays, and crimson and white tulips. The +room was fair and fragrant, and the windows were wide open upon +vines and grass. + +"It looks like you, mother, just as Mrs. Geoffrey's house looks like +her. Houses ought to look like people, I think." + +"There's your surprise, children. We shouldn't be doing it right +without a surprise, you know." + +And the surprise was not dolls' pelerines, but books. "Little Women" +was one, which sent Diana and Hazel off for a delicious two hours' +read up in their own room until dinner. + +After dinner, Miss Craydocke came, in her purple and white striped +mohair and her white lace neckerchief; and at three o'clock Uncle +Titus walked in, with his coat pockets so bulgy and rustling and +odorous of peppermint and sassafras, that it was no use to pretend +to wait and be unconscious, but a pure mercy to unload him so that +he might be able to sit down. + +Nobody knows to this day where he got them; he must have ordered +them somewhere, one would think, long enough before to have special +moulds and implements made; but there were large, beautiful +cockles,--not of the old flour-paste sort, but of clear, sparkling +sugar, rose-color, and amber, and white, with little slips of tinted +paper tucked within, and these printed delicately with pretty rhymes +and couplets, from real poets; things to be truly treasured, yet +simple, for children's apprehension, and fancy, and fun. And there +were "Salem gibraltars," such as we only get out of Essex County now +and then, for a big charitable Fair, when Salem and everywhere else +gets its spirit up to send its best and most especial; and there +were toys and devices in sugar--flowers and animals, hats, bonnets, +and boots, apples, and cucumbers,--such as Diana and Hazel, and even +Desire and Helena had never seen before. + +"It isn't quite fair," said good Miss Craydocke. "We were to go back +to the old, simple fashions of things; and here you are beginning +over again already with sumptuous inventions. It's the very way it +came about before, till it was all spoilt." + +"No," said Uncle Titus, stoutly. "It's only 'Old _and_ New,'--the +very selfsame good old notions brought to a little modern +perfection. They're not French flummery, either; and there's not a +drop of gin, or a flavor of prussic acid, or any other abominable +chemical, in one of those contrivances. They're as innocent as they +look; good honest mint and spice and checkerberry and lemon and +rose. I know the man that made 'em!" + +Helena Ledwith began to think that the first person, singular or +plural, might have a good time; but that awful third! Helena's +"they" was as potent and tremendous as her mother's. + +"It's nice," she said to Hazel; "but they don't have inch things. I +never saw them at a party. And they don't play games; they always +dance. And it's broad, hot daylight; and--you haven't asked a single +boy!" + +"Why, I don't know any! Only Jimmy Scarup; and I guess he'd rather +play ball, and break windows!" + +"Jimmy Scarup!" And Helena turned away, hopeless of Hazel's +comprehending. + +But "they" came; and "they" turned right into "we." + +It was not a party; it was something altogether fresh and new; the +house was a new, beautiful place; it was like the country. And Aspen +Street, when you got down there, was so still and shady and sweet +smelling and pleasant. They experienced the delight of finding out +something. + +Miss Craydocke and Hazel set them at it,--their good time; they had +planned it all out, and there was no stiff, shy waiting. They began, +right off, with the "Muffin Man." Hazel danced up to Desire:-- + + "O, _do_ you know the Muffin Man, + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man? + O, _do_ you know the Muffin Man + That lives in Drury Lane?" + + "O, yes, I know the Muffin Man, + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man, + O, yes, I know the Muffin Man + That lives in Drury Lane." + +And so they danced off together:-- + + "Two of us know the Muffin Man, + The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man, + Two of us know the Muffin Man + That lives in Drury Lane." + +And then they besieged Miss Craydocke; and then the three met Ada +Geoffrey, just as she had come in and spoken to Diana and Mrs. +Ripwinkley; and Ada had caught the refrain, and responded instantly; +and _four_ of them knew the Muffin Man. + +"I know they'll think it's common and queer, and they'll laugh +to-morrow," whispered Helena to Diana, as Hazel drew the lengthening +string to Dorris Kincaid's corner and caught her up; but the next +minute they were around Helena in her turn, and they were laughing +already, with pure glee; and five faces bent toward her, and five +voices sang,-- + + "O, _don't_ you know the Muffin Man?" + +And Helena had to sing back that she did; and then the six made a +perfect snarl around Mrs. Ripwinkley herself, and drew her in; and +then they all swept off and came down across the room upon Mr. +Oldways, who muttered, under the singing, "seven women! Well, the +Bible says so, and I suppose it's come!" and then he held out both +hands, while his hard face unbent in every wrinkle, with a smile +that overflowed through all their furrowed channels, up to his very +eyes; like some sparkling water that must find its level; and there +were eight that knew the Muffin Man. + +So nine, and ten, and up to fifteen; and then, as their line broke +away into fragments, still breathless with fun, Miss Craydocke +said,--her eyes brimming over with laughing tears, that always came +when she was gay,-- + +"There, now! we all know the 'Muffin Man;' therefore it follows, +mathematically, I believe, that we must all know each other. I think +we'll try a sitting-down game next. I'll give you all something. +Desire, you can tell them what to do with it, and Miss Ashburne +shall predict me consequences." + +So they had the "Presentation Game;" and the gifts, and the +dispositions, and the consequences, when the whispers were over, and +they were all declared aloud, were such hits and jumbles of sense +and nonsense as were almost too queer to have been believed. + +"Miss Craydocke gave me a butter firkin," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "I +was to put it in the parlor and plant vanilla beans in it; and the +consequence would be that Birnam Wood would come to Dunsinane." + +"She gave me a wax doll," said Helena. "I was to buy it a pair of +high-heeled boots and a chignon; and the consequence would be that +she would have to stand on her head." + +"She gave me," said Mr. Oldways, "an iron spoon. I was to deal out +sugar-plums with it; and the consequence would be that you would all +go home." + +"She gave me," said Lois James, "Woman's Rights. I shouldn't know +what to do with them; and the consequence would be a terrible +mortification to all my friends." + +"She gave me," said Hazel, "a real good time. I was to pass it +round; and the consequence would be an earthquake." + +Then they had "Scandal;" a whisper, repeated rapidly from ear to +ear. It began with, "Luclarion is in the kitchen making +tea-biscuits;" and it ended with the horrible announcement that +there were "two hundred gallons of hot pitch ready, and that +everybody was to be tipped into it." + +"Characters," and "Twenty Questions," and "How, When, and Where," +followed; and then they were ready for a run again, and they played +"Boston," in which Mr. Oldways, being "Sceattle," was continually +being left out, whereupon he declared at last, that he didn't +believe there was any place for him, or even that he was down +anywhere on the map, and it wasn't fair, and he was going to secede; +and that broke up the play; for the groat fun of all the games had +come to be Miss Craydocke and Uncle Titus, as it always is the great +fun to the young ones when the elders join in,--the older and the +soberer, the better sport; there is always something in the "fathers +looking on;" that is the way I think it is among them who always do +behold the Face of the Father in heaven,--smiling upon their smiles, +glowing upon their gladness. + +In the tea-room, it was all even more delightful yet; it was further +out into the garden, shaded at the back by the deep leafiness of +grape-vines, and a trellis work with arches in it that ran up at the +side, and would be gay by and by with scarlet runners, and +morning-glories, and nasturtiums, that were shooting up strong and +swift already, from the neatly weeded beds. + +Inside, was the tall old semicircular sideboard, with gingerbread +grooves carved all over it; and the real brass "dogs," with heads on +their fore-paws, were lying in the fire-place, under the lilac +boughs; and the square, plain table stood in the midst, with its +glossy white cloth that touched the floor at the corners, and on it +were the identical pink mugs, and a tall glass pitcher of milk, and +plates of the thinnest and sweetest bread and butter, and early +strawberries in a white basket lined with leaves, and the +traditional round frosted cakes upon a silver plate with a network +rim. + +And Luclarion and Mrs. Ripwinkley waited upon them all, and it was +still no party, to be compared or thought of with any salad and +ice-pudding and Germania-band affair, such as they had had all +winter; but something utterly fresh and new and by itself,--place, +and entertainment, and people, and all. + +After tea, they went out into the garden; and there, under the shady +horse-chestnuts, was a swing; and there were balls with which Hazel +showed them how to play "class;" tossing in turn against the high +brick wall, and taking their places up and down, according to the +number of their catches. It was only Miss Craydocke's "Thread the +Needle" that got them in again; and after that, she showed them +another simple old dancing game, the "Winding Circle," from which +they were all merrily and mysteriously untwisting themselves with +Miss Craydocke's bright little thin face and her fluttering cap +ribbons, and her spry little trot leading them successfully off, +when the door opened, and the grand Mr. Geoffrey walked in; the man +who could manage State Street, and who had stood at the right hand +of Governor and President, with his clear brain, and big purse, and +generous hand, through the years of the long, terrible war; the man +whom it was something for great people to get to their dinners, or +to have walk late into an evening drawing-room and dignify an +occasion for the last half hour. + +Mrs. Ripwinkley was just simply glad to see him; so she was to see +Kenneth Kincaid, who came a few minutes after, just as Luclarion +brought the tray of sweetmeats in, which Mrs. Ripwinkley had so far +innovated upon the gracious-grandmother plan as to have after tea, +instead of before. + +The beautiful cockles and their rhymes got their heads all together +around the large table, for the eating and the reading. Mr. Geoffrey +and Uncle Titus sat talking European politics together, a little +aside. The sugar-plums lasted a good while, with the chatter over +them; and then, before they quite knew what it was all for, they had +got slips of paper and lead pencils before them, and there was to be +a round of "Crambo" to wind up. + +"O, I don't know how!" and "I never can!" were the first words, as +they always are, when it was explained to the uninitiated; but Miss +Craydocke assured them that "everybody could;" and Hazel said that +"nobody expected real poetry; it needn't be more than two lines, and +those might be blank verse, if they were _very_ hard, but jingles +were better;" and so the questions and the wards were written and +folded, and the papers were shuffled and opened amid outcries of, +"O, this is awful!" "_What_ a word to get in!" "Why, they haven't +the least thing to do with each other!" + +"That's the beauty of it," said Miss Craydocke, unrelentingly; "to +_make_ them have; and it is funny how much things do have to do with +each other when they once happen to come across." + +Then there were knit brows, and desperate scratchings, and such +silence that Mr. Geoffrey and Uncle Titus stopped short on the +Alabama question, and looked round to see what the matter was. + +Kenneth Kincaid had been modestly listening to the older gentlemen, +and now and then venturing to inquire or remark something, with an +intelligence that attracted Mr. Geoffrey; and presently it came out +that he had been south with the army; and then Mr. Geoffrey asked +questions of him, and they got upon Reconstruction business, and +comparing facts and exchanging conclusions, quite as if one was not +a mere youth with only his eyes and his brains and his conscience to +help him in his first grapple with the world in the tangle and +crisis at which he found it, and the other a grave, practiced, +keen-judging man, the counsellor of national leaders. + +After all, they had no business to bring the great, troublesome, +heavy-weighted world into a child's party. I wish man never would; +though it did not happen badly, as it all turned out, that they did +a little of it in this instance. If they had thought of it, +"Crambo" was good for them too, for a change; and presently they did +think of it; for Dorris called out in distress, real or pretended, +from the table,-- + +"Kentie, here's something you must really take off my hands! I +haven't the least idea what to do with it." + +And then came a cry from Hazel,-- + +"No fair! We're all just as badly off, and there isn't one of us +that has got a brother to turn to. Here's another for Mr. Kincaid." + +"There are plenty more. Come, Mr. Oldways, Mr. Geoffrey, won't you +try 'Crambo?' There's a good deal in it, as there is in most +nonsense." + +"We'll come and see what it is," said Mr. Geoffrey; and so the +chairs were drawn up, and the gray, grave heads looked on over the +young ones. + +"Why, Hazel's got through!" said Lois, scratching violently at her +paper, and obliterating three obstinate lines. + +"O, I didn't bother, you see! I just stuck the word right in, like a +pin into a pincushion, and let it go. There wasn't anything else to +do with it." + +"I've got to make my pincushion," said Dorris. + +"I should think you had! Look at her! She's writing her paper all +over! O, my gracious, she must have done it before!" + +"Mother and Mr. Geoffrey are doing heaps, too! We shall have to +publish a book," said Diana, biting the end of her pencil, and +taking it easy. Diana hardly ever got the rhymes made in time; but +then she always admired everybody's else, which was a good thing for +somebody to be at leisure to do. + +"Uncle Oldways and Lilian are folding up," said Hazel. + +"Five minutes more," said Miss Craydocke, keeping the time with her +watch before her. "Hush!" + +When the five minutes were rapped out, there were seven papers to be +read. People who had not finished this time might go on when the +others took fresh questions. + +Hazel began reading, because she had been ready first. + +"'What is the difference between sponge-cake and doughnuts?' +'Hallelujah.'" + + "Airiness, lightness, and insipidity; + Twistiness, spiciness, and solidity. + Hallelujah! I've got through! + That is the best that I can do!'" + +There was a shout at Hazel's pinsticking. + +"Now, Uncle Titus! You finished next." + +"My question is a very comprehensive one," said Uncle Titus, "with a +very concise and suggestive word. 'How wags the world?' 'Slambang.'" + + "'The world wags on + With lies and slang; + With show and vanity, + Pride and inanity, + Greed and insanity, + And a great slambang!'" + +"That's only _one_ verse," said Miss Craydocke. "There's another; +but he didn't write it down." + +Uncle Titus laughed, and tossed his Crambo on the table. "It's true, +so far, anyway," said he. + +"_So far_ is hardly ever quite true," said Miss Craydocke + +Lilian Ashburne had to answer the question whether she had ever read +"Young's Night Thoughts;" and her word was "Comet." + + "'Pray might I be allowed a pun, + To help me through with just this one? + I've tried to read Young's Thoughts of Night, + But never yet could come it, quite.'" + +"O, O, O! That's just like Lilian, with her soft little 'prays' and +'allow me's,' and her little pussy-cat ways of sliding through tight +places, just touching her whiskers!" + +"It's quite fair," said Lilian, smiling, "to slide through if you +can." + +"Now, Mr. Geoffrey." + +And Mr. Geoffrey read,-- + +"'What is your favorite color?' 'One-hoss.'" + + "'Do you mean, my friend, for a one-hoss shay, + Or the horse himself,--black, roan, or bay? + In truth, I think I can hardly say; + I believe, for a nag, "I bet on the gray." + + "'For a shay, I would rather not have yellow, + Or any outright, staring color, + That makes the crowd look after a fellow, + And the little _gamins_ hoot and bellow. + + "'Do you mean for ribbons? or gowns? or eyes? + Or flowers? or gems? or in sunset skies? + For many questions, as many replies, + Drops of a rainbow take rainbow dyes. + + "'The world is full, and the world is bright; + Each thing to its nature parts the light; + And each for its own to the Perfect sight + Wears that which is comely, and sweet, and right.'" + +"O, Mr. Geoffrey! That's lovely!" cried the girl voices, all around +him. And Ada made a pair of great eyes at her father, and said,-- + +"What an awful humbug you have been, papa! To have kept the other +side up with care all your life! Who ever suspected _that_ of you?" + +Diana and Hazel were not taken so much by surprise, their mother +had improvised little nursery jingles for them all their baby days, +and had played Crambo with them since; so they were very confident +with their "Now, mother:" and looked calmly for something +creditable. + +"'What is your favorite name?'" read Mrs. Ripwinkley. "And the word +is 'Stuff.'" + + "'When I was a little child, + Looking very meek and mild, + I liked grand, heroic names,-- + Of warriors, or stately dames: + Zenobia, and Cleopatra; + (No rhyme for that this side Sumatra;) + Wallace, and Helen Mar,--Clotilda, + Berengaria, and Brunhilda; + Maximilian; Alexandra; + Hector, Juno, and Cassandra; + Charlemagne and Britomarte, + Washington and Bonaparte; + Victoria and Guinevere, + And Lady Clara Vere de Vere. + --Shall I go on with all this stuff, + Or do you think it is enough? + I cannot tell you what dear name + I love the best; I play a game; + And tender earnest doth belong + To quiet speech, not silly song.'" + +"That's just like mother; I should have stopped as soon as I'd got +the 'stuff' in; but she always shapes off with a little morriowl," +said Hazel. "Now, Desire!" + +Desire frantically scribbled a long line at the end of what she had +written; below, that is, a great black morass of scratches that +represented significantly the "Slough of Despond" she had got into +over the winding up, and then gave,-- + +"'Which way would you rather travel,--north or south?' +'Goosey-gander.'" + + "'O, goosey-gander! + If I might wander, + It should be toward the sun; + The blessed South + Should fill my mouth + With ripeness just begun. + For bleak hills, bare, + With stunted, spare, + And scrubby, piney trees, + Her gardens rare, + And vineyards fair, + And her rose-scented breeze. + For fearful blast, + Skies overcast, + And sudden blare and scare + Long, stormless moons, + And placid noons, + And--all sorts of comfortablenesses,--there!'" + +"That makes me think of father's horse running away with him once," +said Helena, "when he had to head him right up against a brick wall, +and knock everything all to smash before he could stop!" + +"Anybody else?" + +"Miss Kincaid, I think," said Mr. Geoffrey. He had been watching +Dorris's face through the play, flashing and smiling with the +excitement of her rhyming, and the slender, nervous fingers twisting +tremulously the penciled slip while she had listened to the others. + +"If it isn't all rubbed out," said Dorris, coloring and laughing to +find how badly she had been treating her own effusion. + +"You see it _was_ rather an awful question,--'What do you want +most?' And the word is, 'Thirteen.'" + +She caught her breath a little quickly as she began:-- + + "'Between yourself, dear, myself, and the post, + There are the thirteen things that I want the most. + I want to be, sometimes, a little stronger; + I want the days to be a little longer; + I'd like to have a few less things to do; + I'd better like to better do the few: + I want--and this might almost lead my wishes,-- + A bigger place to keep my mops and dishes. + I want a horse; I want a little buggy, + To ride in when the days grow hot and muggy; + I want a garden; and,--perhaps it's funny,-- + But now and then I want a little money. + I want an easy way to do my hair; + I want an extra dress or two to wear; + I want more patience; and when all is given, + I think I want to die and go to heaven!'" + +"I never saw such bright people in all my life!" said Ada Geoffrey, +when the outcry of applause for Dorris had subsided, and they began +to rise to go. "But the _worst_ of all is papa! I'll never get over +it of you, see if I do! Such a cheat! Why, it's like playing dumb +all your life, and then just speaking up suddenly in a quiet way, +some day, as if it was nothing particular, and nobody cared!" + +With Hazel's little divining-rod, Mrs. Ripwinkley had reached out, +testing the world for her, to see what some of it might be really +made of. Mrs. Geoffrey, from her side, had reached out in turn, +also, into this fresh and simple opportunity, to see what might be +there worth while. + +"How was it, Aleck?" she asked of her husband, as they sat together +in her dressing-room, while she brushed out her beautiful hair. + +"Brightest people I have been among for a long time--and nicest," +said the banker, concisely. "A real, fresh little home, with a +mother in it. Good place for Ada to go, and good girls for her to +know; like the ones I fell in love with a hundred years ago." + +"That rhymed oracle,--to say nothing of the _fraction_ of a +compliment,--ought to settle it," said Mrs. Geoffrey, laughing. + +"Rhymes have been the order of the evening. I expect to talk in +verse for a week at least." + +And then he told her about the "Crambo." + +A week after, Mrs. Ledwith was astonished to find, lying on the +mantel in her sister's room, a card that had been sent up the day +before,-- + + "MRS. ALEXANDER H. GEOFFREY." + + + + +XI. + +MORE WITCH-WORK. + + +Hazel was asked to the Geoffreys' to dinner. + +Before this, she and Diana had both been asked to take tea, and +spend an evening, but this was Hazel's little especial "invite," as +she called it, because she and Ada were writing a dialogue together +for a composition at school. + +The Geoffreys dined at the good old-fashioned hour of half past two, +except when they had formal dinner company; and Hazel was to come +right home from school with Ada, and stay and spend the afternoon. + +"What intimacy!" Florence Ledwith had exclaimed, when she heard of +it. + +"But it isn't at all on the grand style side; people like the +Geoffreys do such things quite apart from their regular connection; +it is a sort of 'behind the scenes;'" said Glossy Megilp, who was +standing at Florence's dressing-glass, touching up the little heap +of "friz" across her forehead. + +"Where's my poker?" she asked, suddenly, breaking off from the +Geoffrey subject, and rummaging in a dressing box, intent upon +tutoring some little obstinate loop of hair that would be _too_ +frizzy. + +"I should think a 'blower' might be a good thing to add to your +tools, Glossy," said Desire. "You have brush, poker, and tongs, now, +to say nothing of coal-hod," she added, glancing at the little open +japanned box that held some kind of black powder which had to do +with the shadow of Glossy's eyelashes upon occasion, and the +emphasis upon the delicate line of her brows. + +"No secret," said Glossy, magnanimously. "There it is! It is no +greater sin than violet powder, or false tails, for that matter; and +the little gap in my left eyebrow was never deliberately designed. +It was a 'lapsus naturae;' I only follow out the hint, and complete +the intention. Something _is_ left to ourselves; as the child said +about the Lord curling her hair for her when she was a baby and +letting her do it herself after she grew big enough. What are our +artistic perceptions given to us for, unless we're to make the best +of ourselves in the first place?" + +"But it isn't all eyebrows," said Desire, half aloud. + +"Of course not," said Glossy Megilp. "Twice a day I have to do +myself up somehow, and why shouldn't it be as well as I can? Other +things come in their turn, and I do them." + +"But, you see, the friz and the fix has to be, anyhow, whether or +no. Everything isn't done, whether or no. I guess it's the 'first +place,' that's the matter." + +"I think you have a very theoretical mind, Des, and a slightly +obscure style. You can't be satisfied till everything is all mapped +out, and organized, and justified, and you get into horrible snarls +trying to do it. If I were you, I would take things a little more as +they come." + +"I can't," said Desire. "They come hind side before and upside +down." + +"Well, if everybody is upside down, there's a view of it that makes +it all right side up, isn't there? It seems to be an established +fact that we must dress and undress, and that the first duty of the +day is to get up and put on our clothes. We aren't ready for much +until we do. And one person's dressing may require one thing, and +another's another. Some people have a cork leg to put on, and some +people have false teeth; and they wouldn't any of them come hobbling +or mumbling out without them, unless there was a fire or an +earthquake, I suppose." + +Glossy Megilp's arguments and analogies perplexed Desire, always. +They sometimes silenced her; but they did not always answer her. She +went back to what they had been discussing before. + +"To 'lay down the shubbel and the hoe,'--here's your poker, under +the table-flounce, Glossy,--and to 'take up the fiddle and the bow,' +again,--I think it's real nice and beautiful for Hazel--" + +"To 'go where the good darkies go'?" + +"Yes. It's the _good_ of her that's got her in. And I believe you +and Florence both would give your best boots to be there too, if it +_is_ behind. Behind the fixings and the fashions is where people +_live_; 'dere's vat I za-ay!'" she ended, quoting herself and Rip +Van Winkle. + +"Maybe," said Florence, carelessly; "but I'd as lief be _in_ the +fashion, after all. And that's where Hazel Ripwinkley never will +get, with all her taking little novelties." + +Meanwhile, Hazel Ripwinkley was deep in the delights of a great +portfolio of rare engravings; prints of glorious frescoes in old +churches, and designs of splendid architecture; and Mrs. Geoffrey, +seeing her real pleasure, was sitting beside her, turning over the +large sheets, and explaining them; telling her, as she gazed into +the wonderful faces of the Saints and the Evangelists in Correggio's +frescoes of the church of San Giovanni at Parma, how the whole dome +was one radiant vision of heavenly glory, with clouds and angel +faces, and adoring apostles, and Christ the Lord high over all; and +that these were but the filling in between the springing curves of +the magnificent arches; describing to her the Abbess's room in San +Paolo, with its strange, beautiful heathen picture over the mantel, +of Diana mounting her stag-drawn car, and its circular walls painted +with trellis-work and medallioned with windows, where the heads of +little laughing children, and graceful, gentle animals peeped in +from among vines and flowers. + +Mrs. Geoffrey did not wonder that Hazel lingered with delight over +these or over the groups by Raphael in the Sistine Chapel,--the +quiet pendentives, where the waiting of the world for its salvation +was typified in the dream-like, reclining forms upon the still, +desert sand; or the wonderful scenes from the "Creation,"--the +majestic "Let there be Light!" and the Breathing of the breath of +life into Man. She watched the surprise and awe with which the child +beheld for the first time the daring of inspiration in the +tremendous embodiment of the Almighty, and waited while she could +hardly take her eyes away. But when, afterward, they turned to a +portfolio of Architecture, and she found her eager to examine spires +and arches and capitals, rich reliefs and stately facades and +sculptured gates, and exclaiming with pleasure at the colored +drawings of Florentine ornamentation, she wondered, and questioned +her,-- + +"Have you ever seen such things before? Do you draw? I should hardly +think you would care so much, at your age." + +"I like the prettiness," said Hazel, simply, "and the grandness; but +I don't suppose I should care so much if it wasn't for Dorris and +Mr. Kincaid. Mr. Kincaid draws buildings; he's an architect; only he +hasn't architected much yet, because the people that build things +don't know him. Dorris was so glad to give him a Christmas present +of 'Daguerreotypes de Paris,' with the churches and arches and +bridges and things; she got it at a sale; I wonder what they would +say to all these beauties!" + +Then Mrs. Geoffrey found what still more greatly enchanted her, a +volume of engravings, of English Home Architecture; interiors of old +Halls, magnificent staircases, lofty libraries and galleries dim +with space; exteriors, gabled, turreted and towered; long, rambling +piles of manor houses, with mixed styles of many centuries. + +"They look as if they were brimfull of stories!" Hazel cried. "O, if +I could only carry it home to show to the Kincaids!" + +"You may," said Mrs. Geoffrey, as simply, in her turn, as if she +were lending a copy of "Robinson Crusoe;' never letting the child +guess by a breath of hesitation the value of what she had asked. + +"And tell me more about these Kincaids. They are friends of yours?" + +"Yes; we've known them all winter. They live right opposite, and sit +in the windows, drawing and writing. Dorris keeps house up there in +two rooms. The little one is her bedroom; and Mr. Kincaid sleeps on +the big sofa. Dorris makes crackle-cakes, and asks us over. She +cooks with a little gas-stove. I think it is beautiful to keep house +with not very much money. She goes out with a cunning white basket +and buys her things; and she does all her work up in a corner on a +white table, with a piece of oil-cloth on the floor; and then she +comes over into her parlor, she says, and sits by the window. It's a +kind of a play all the time." + +"And Mr. Kincaid?" + +"Dorris says he might have been rich by this time, if he had gone +into his Uncle James's office in New York. Mr. James Kincaid is a +broker, and buys gold. But Kenneth says gold stands for work, and if +he ever has any he'll buy it with work. He wants to do some real +thing. Don't you think that's nice of him?" + +"Yes, I do," said Mrs. Geoffrey. "And Dorris is that bright girl +who wanted thirteen things, and rhymed them into 'Crambo?' Mr. +Geoffrey told me." + +"Yes, ma'am; Dorris can do almost anything." + +"I should like to see Dorris, sometime. Will you bring her here, +Hazel?" + +Hazel's little witch-rod felt the almost impassible something in the +way. + +"I don't know as she would be _brought_," she said. + +Mrs. Geoffrey laughed. + +"You have an instinct for the fine proprieties, without a bit of +respect for any conventional fences," she said. "I'll _ask_ Dorris." + +"Then I'm sure she'll come," said Hazel, understanding quite well +and gladly the last three words, and passing over the first phrase +as if it had been a Greek motto, put there to be skipped. + +"Ada has stopped practicing," said Mrs. Geoffrey, who had undertaken +the entertainment of her little guest during her daughter's half +hour of music. "She will be waiting for you now." + +Hazel instantly jumped up. + +But she paused after three steps toward the door, to say gently, +looking back over her shoulder with a shy glance out of her timidly +clear eyes,-- + +"Perhaps,--I hope I haven't,--stayed too long!" + +"Come back, you little hazel-sprite!" cried Mrs. Geoffrey; and when +she got her within reach again, she put her hands one each side of +the little blushing, gleaming face, and kissed it, saying,-- + +"I don't _think_,--I'm slow, usually, in making up my mind about +people, big or little,--but I don't think you can stay too long,--or +come too often, dear!" + +"I've found another for you, Aleck," she said, that night at the +hair-brushing, to her husband. + +He always came to sit in her dressing-room, then; and it was at this +quiet time that they gave each other, out of the day they had lived +in their partly separate ways and duties, that which made it for +each like a day lived twice, so that the years of their life counted +up double. + +"He is a young architect, who hasn't architected much, because he +doesn't know the people who build things; and he wouldn't be a gold +broker with his uncle in New York, because he believes in doing +money's worth in the world for the world's money. Isn't he one?" + +"Sounds like it," said Mr. Geoffrey. "What is his name?" + +"Kincaid." + +"Nephew of James R. Kincaid?" said Mr. Geoffrey, with an +interrogation that was also an exclamation. "And wouldn't go in with +him! Why, it was just to have picked up dollars!" + +"Exactly," replied his wife. "That was what he objected to." + +"I should like to see the fellow." + +"Don't you remember? You have seen him! The night you went for Ada +to the Aspen Street party, and got into 'Crambo.' He was there; and +it was his sister who wanted thirteen things. I guess they do!" + +"Ask them here," said the banker. + +"I mean to," Mrs. Geoffrey answered. "That is, after I've seen +Hapsie Craydocke. She knows everything. I'll go there to-morrow +morning." + + * * * * * + +"'Behind' is a pretty good way to get in--to some places," said +Desire Ledwith, coming into the rose-pink room with news. +"Especially an omnibus. And the Ripwinkleys, and the Kincaids, and +old Miss Craydocke, and for all I know, Mrs. Scarup and Luclarion +Grapp are going to Summit Street to tea to-night. Boston is +topsy-turvey; Holmes was a prophet; and 'Brattle Street and Temple +Place are interchanging cards!' Mother, we ought to get intimate +with the family over the grocer's shop. Who knows what would come of +it? There are fairies about in disguise, I'm sure; or else it's the +millennium. Whichever it is, it's all right for Hazel, though; she's +ready. Don't you feel like foolish virgins, Flo and Nag? I do." + +I am afraid it was when Desire felt a little inclination to "nag" +her elder sister, that she called her by that reprehensible name. +Agatha only looked lofty, and vouchsafed no reply; but Florence +said,-- + +"There's no need of any little triumphs or mortifications. Nobody +crows, and nobody cries. _I_'m glad. Diana's a dear, and Hazel's a +duck, besides being my cousins; why shouldn't I? Only there _is_ a +large hole for the cats, and a little hole for the kittens; and I'd +as lief, myself, go in with the cats." + +"The Marchbankses are staying there, and Professor Gregory. I don't +know about cats," said Desire, demurely. + +"It's a reason-why party, for all that," said Agatha, carelessly, +recovering her good humor. + +"Well, when any nice people ask me, I hope there _will_ be a 'reason +why.' It's the persons of consequence that make the 'reason why.'" + +And Desire had the last word. + + * * * * * + +Hazel Ripwinkley was thinking neither of large holes nor little +ones,--cats nor kittens; she was saying to Luclarion, sitting in her +shady down-stairs room behind the kitchen, that looked out into the +green yard corner, "how nicely things came out, after all!" + +"They seemed so hobblety at first, when I went up there and saw all +those beautiful books, and pictures, and people living amongst them +every day, and the poor Kincaids not getting the least bit of a +stretch out of their corner, ever. I'll tell you what I thought, +Luclarion;" and here she almost whispered, "I truly did. I thought +God was making a mistake." + +Luclarion put out her lips into a round, deprecating pucker, at +that, and drew in her breath,-- + +"Oo--sh!" + +"Well, I mean it seemed as if there was a mistake somewhere; and +that I'd no business, at any rate, with what they wanted so. I +couldn't get over it until I asked for those pictures; and mother +said it was such a bold thing to do!" + +"It was bold," said Luclarion; "but it wasn't forrud. It was gi'n +you, and it hit right. That was looked out for." + +"It's a stumpy world," said Luclarion Grapp to Mrs. Ripwinkley, +afterward; "but some folks step right over their stumps athout +scarcely knowin' when!" + + + + +XII. + +CRUMBS. + + +Desire Ledwith was, at this epoch, a perplexity and a worry,--even a +positive terror sometimes,--to her mother. + +It was not a case of the hen hatching ducks, it was rather as if a +hen had got a hawk in her brood. + +Desire's demurs and questions,--her dissatisfactions, sittings and +contempts,--threatened now and then to swoop down upon the family +life and comfort with destroying talons. + +"She'll be an awful, strong-minded, radical, progressive, +overturning woman," Laura said, in despair, to her friend Mrs. +Megilp. "And Greenley Street, and Aspen Street, and that everlasting +Miss Craydocke, are making her worse. And what can I do? Because +there's Uncle." + +Right before Desire,--not knowing the cloud of real bewilderment +that was upon her young spiritual perceptions, getting their first +glimpse of a tangled and conflicting and distorted world,--she drew +wondering comparisons between her elder children and this odd, +anxious, restless, sharp-spoken girl. + +"I don't understand it," she would say. "It isn't a bit like a child +of mine. I always took things easy, and got the comfort of them +somehow; I think the world is a pretty pleasant place to live in, +and there's lots of satisfaction to be had; and Agatha and Florence +take after me; they are nice, good-natured, contented girls; +managing their allowances,--that I wish were more,--trimming their +own bonnets, and enjoying themselves with their friends, +girl-fashion." + +Which was true. Agatha and Florence were neither fretful nor +dissatisfied; they were never disrespectful, perhaps because Mrs. +Ledwith demanded less of deferential observance than of a kind of +jolly companionship from her daughters; a go-and-come easiness in +and out of what they called their home, but which was rather the +trimming-up and outfitting place,--a sort of Holmes' Hole,--where +they put in spring and fall, for a thorough overhaul and rig; and at +other times, in intervals or emergencies, between their various and +continual social trips and cruises. They were hardly ever +all-togetherish, as Desire had said, if they ever were, it was over +house cleaning and millinery; when the ordering was complete,--when +the wardrobes were finished,--then the world was let in, or they let +themselves out, and--"looked." + +"Desire is different," said Mrs. Ledwith. "She's like Grant's +father, and her Aunt Desire,--pudgicky and queer." + +"Well, mamma," said the child, once, driven to desperate logic for +defense, "I don't see how it can be helped. If you _will_ marry into +the Ledwith family, you can't expect to have your children all +Shieres!" + +Which, again, was very true. Laura laughed at the clever sharpness +of it, and was more than half proud of her bold chick-of-prey, after +all. + +Yet Desire remembered that her Aunt Frances was a Shiere, also; and +she thought there might easily be two sides to the same family; why +not, since there were two sides still further back, always? There +was Uncle Titus; who knew but it was the Oldways streak in him after +all? + +Desire took refuge, more and more, with Miss Craydocke, and Rachel +Froke, and the Ripwinkleys; she even went to Luclarion with +questions, to get her quaint notions of things; and she had ventured +into Uncle Titus's study, and taken down volumes of Swedenborg to +pry into, while he looked at her with long keen regards over his +spectacles, and she did not know that she was watched. + +"That young girl, Desire, is restless, Titus," Rachel Froke said to +him one day. "She is feeling after something; she wants something +real to do; and it appears likely to me that she will do it, if they +don't take care." + +After that, Uncle Titus fixed his attention upon her yet more +closely; and at this time Desire stumbled upon things in a strange +way among his bookshelves, and thought that Rachel Froke was growing +less precise in her fashion of putting to rights. Books were tucked +in beside each other as if they had been picked up and bestowed +anyhow; between "Heaven and Hell" and the "Four Leading Doctrines," +she found, one day, "Macdonald's Unspoken Sermons," and there was a +leaf doubled lengthwise in the chapter about the White Stone and the +New Name. Another time, a little book of poems, by the same author, +was slid in, open, over the volumes of Darwin and Huxley, and the +pages upon whose outspread faces it lay were those that bore the +rhyme of the blind Bartimeus:-- + + "O Jesus Christ! I am deaf and blind; + Nothing comes through into my mind, + I only am not dumb: + Although I see Thee not, nor hear, + I cry because Thou mayst be near + O Son of Mary! come!" + +Do you think a girl of seventeen may not be feeling out into the +spiritual dark,--may not be stretching helpless hands, vaguely, +toward the Hands that help? Desire Ledwith laid the book down again, +with a great swelling breath coming up slowly out of her bosom, and +with a warmth of tears in her earnest little eyes. And Uncle Titus +Oldways sat there among his papers, and never moved, or seemed to +look, but saw it all. + +He never said a word to her himself; it was not Uncle Titus's way to +talk, and few suspected him of having anything to say in such +matters; but he went to Friend Froke and asked her,-- + +"Haven't you got any light that might shine a little for that child, +Rachel?" + +And the next Sunday, in the forenoon, Desire came in; came in, +without knowing it, for her little light. + +She had left home with the family on their way to church; she was +dressed in her buff silk pongee suit trimmed with golden brown bands +and quillings; she had on a lovely new brown hat with tea roses in +it; her gloves and boots were exquisite and many buttoned; Agatha +and Florence could not think what was the matter when she turned +back, up Dorset Street, saying suddenly, "I won't go, after all." +And then she had walked straight over the hill and down to Greenley +Street, and came in upon Rachel, sitting alone in a quiet gray +parlor that was her own, where there were ferns and ivies in the +window, and a little canary, dressed in brown and gold like Desire +herself, swung over them in a white wire cage. + +When Desire saw how still it was, and how Rachel Froke sat there +with her open window and her open book, all by herself, she stopped +in the doorway with a sudden feeling of intrusion, which had not +occurred to her as she came. + +"It's just what I want to come into; but if I do, it won't be +there. I've no right to spoil it. Don't mind, Rachel. I'll go away." + +She said it softly and sadly, as if she could not help it, and was +turning back into the hall. + +"But I do mind," said Rachel, speaking quickly. "Thee will come in, +and sit down. Whatever it is thee wants, is here for thee. Is it the +stillness? Then we will be still." + +"That's so easy to say. But you can't do it for me. _You_ will be +still, and I shall be all in a stir. I want so to be just hushed +up!" + +"Fed, and hushed up, in somebody's arms, like a baby. I know," said +Rachel Froke. + +"How does she know?" thought Desire; but she only looked at her with +surprised eyes, saying nothing. + +"Hungry and restless; that's what we all are," said Rachel Froke, +"until"-- + +"Well,--until?" demanded the strange girl, impetuously, as Rachel +paused. "I've been hungry ever since I was born, mother says." + +"Until He takes us up and feeds us." + +"Why don't He?--Mrs. Froke, when does He give it out? Once a month, +in church, they have the bread and the wine? Does that do it?" + +"Thee knows we do not hold by ordinances, we Friends," said Rachel. +"But He gives the bread of life. Not once a month, or in any place; +it is his word. Does thee get no word when thee goes to church? Does +nothing come to thee?" + +"I don't know; it's mixed up; the church is full of bonnets; and +people settle their gowns when they come in, and shake out their +hitches and puffs when they go out, and there's professional music +at one end, and--I suppose it's because I'm bad, but I don't know; +half the time it seems to me it's only Mig at the other. Something +all fixed up, and patted down, and smoothed over, and salted and +buttered, like the potato hills they used to make on my plate for me +at dinner, when I was little. But it's soggy after all, and has an +underground taste. It isn't anything that has just grown, up in the +light, like the ears of corn they rubbed in their hands. Breakfast +is better than dinner. Bread, with yeast in it, risen up new. They +don't feed with bread very often." + +"The yeast in the bread, and the sparkle in the wine they are the +life of it; they are what make the signs." + +"If they only gave it out fresh, and a little of it! But they keep +it over, and it grows cold and tough and flat, and people sit round +and pretend, but they don't eat. They've eaten other things,--all +sorts of trash,--before they came. They've spoiled their appetites. +Mine was spoiled, to-day. I felt so new and fussy, in these brown +things. So I turned round, and came here." + +Mr. Oldways' saying came back into Mrs. Froke's mind:-- + +"Haven't you got any light, Rachel, that might shine a little for +that child?" + +Perhaps that was what the child had come for. + +What had the word of the Spirit been to Rachel Froke this day? The +new, fresh word, with the leaven in it? "A little of it;" that was +what she wanted. + +Rachel took up the small red Bible that lay on the lightstand beside +her. + +"I'll will give thee my First-Day crumb, Desire," she said. "It may +taste sweet to thee." + +She turned to Revelation, seventh chapter. + +"Look over with me; thee will see then where the crumb is," she +said; and as Desire came near and looked over her upon the page, +she read from the last two verses:-- + +"They shall hunger no more, neither thirst any more. + +"For the _Tenderness_ that is in the midst of the _Almightiness_ +shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of water; +and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes." + +Her voice lingered over the words she put for the "Lamb" and the +"Throne," so that she said "Tenderness" with its own very yearning +inflection, and "Almightiness" with a strong fullness, glad in that +which can never fall short or be exhausted. Then she softly laid +over the cover, and sat perfectly still. It was the Quaker silence +that falls upon them in their assemblies, leaving each heart to +itself and that which the Spirit has given. + +Desire was hushed all through; something living and real had +thrilled into her thought; her restlessness quieted suddenly under +it, as Mary stood quiet before the message of the angel. + +When she did speak again, after a time, as Rachel Froke broke the +motionless pause by laying the book gently back again upon the +table, it was to say,-- + +"Why don't they preach like that, and leave the rest to preach +itself? A Sermon means a Word; why don't they just say the word, and +let it go?" + +The Friend made no reply. + +"I never could--quite--like that about the 'Lamb,' before," said +Desire, hesitatingly. "It seemed,--I don't know,--putting Him +_down_, somehow; making him tame; taking the grandness away that +made the gentleness any good. But,--'Tenderness;' that is beautiful! +Does it mean so in the other place? About taking away the sins,--do +you think?" + +"'The Tenderness of God--the Compassion--that taketh away the sins +of the world?'" Mrs. Froke repeated, half inquiringly. "Jesus +Christ, God's Heart of Love toward man? I think it is so. I think, +child, thee has got thy crumb also, to-day." + +But not all yet. + +Pretty soon, they heard the front door open, and Uncle Titus come +in. Another step was behind his; and Kenneth Kincaid's voice was +speaking, about some book he had called to take. + +Desire's face flushed, and her manner grew suddenly flurried. + +"I must go," she said, starting up; yet when she got to the door, +she paused and delayed. + +The voices were talking on, in the study; somehow, Desire had last +words also, to say to Mrs. Froke. + +She was partly shy about going past that open door, and partly +afraid they might not notice her if she did. Back in her girlish +thought was a secret suggestion that she was pushing at all the time +with a certain self-scorn and denial, that it might happen that she +and Kenneth Kincaid would go out at the same moment; if so, he would +walk up the street with her, and Kenneth Kincaid was one of the few +persons whom Desire Ledwith thoroughly believed in and liked. "There +was no Mig about him," she said. It is hazardous when a girl of +seventeen makes one of her rare exceptions in her estimate of +character in favor of a man of six and twenty. + +Yet Desire Ledwith hated "nonsense;" she wouldn't have anybody +sending her bouquets as they did to Agatha and Florence; she had an +utter contempt for lavender pantaloons and waxed moustaches; but for +Kenneth Kincaid, with his honest, clear look at life, and his high +strong purpose, to say friendly things,--tell her a little now and +then of how the world looked to him and what it demanded,--this +lifted her up; this made it seem worth while to speak and to hear. + +So she was very glad when Uncle Titus saw her go down the hall, +after she had made up her mind that that way lay her straight path, +and that things contrived were not things worth happening,--and +spoke out her name, so that she had to stop, and turn to the open +doorway and reply; and Kenneth Kincaid came over and held out his +hand to her. He had two books in the other,--a volume of Bunsen and +a copy of "Guild Court,"--and he was just ready to go. + +"Not been to church to-day?" said Uncle Titus to Desire. + +"I've been--to Friend's Meeting," the girl answered. + +"Get anything by that?" he asked, gruffly, letting the shag down +over his eyes that behind it beamed softly. + +"Yes; a morsel," replied Desire. "All I wanted." + +"All you wanted? Well, that's a Sunday-full!" + +"Yes, sir, I think it is," said she. + +When they got out upon the sidewalk, Kenneth Kincaid asked, "Was it +one of the morsels that may be shared, Miss Desire? Some crumbs +multiply by dividing, you know." + +"It was only a verse out of the Bible, with a new word in it." + +"A new word? Well, I think Bible verses often have that. I suppose +it was what they were made for." + +Desire's glance at him had a question in it. + +"Made to look different at different times, as everything does that +has life in it. Isn't that true? Clouds, trees, faces,--do they ever +look twice the same?" + +"Yes," said Desire, thinking especially of the faces. "I think they +do, or ought to. But they may look _more_." + +"I didn't say _contradictory_. To look more, there must be a +difference; a fresh aspect. And that is what the world is full of; +and the world is the word of God." + +"The world?" said Desire, who had been taught in a dried up, +mechanical sort of way, that the Bible is the word of God; and +practically left to infer that, that point once settled, it might be +safely shut, up between its covers and not much meddled with, +certainly not over freely interpreted. + +"Yes. What God had to say. In the beginning was the Word, and the +Word was God. Without him was not anything made that was made." + +Desire's face brightened. She knew those words by heart. They were +the first Sunday-school lesson she ever committed to memory, out of +the New Testament; "down to 'grace and truth,'" as she recollected. +What a jumble of repetitions it had been to her, then! Sentences so +much alike that she could not remember them apart, or which way they +came. All at once the simple, beautiful meaning was given to her. + +_What God had to say._ + +And it took a world,--millions, of worlds,--to say it with. + +"And the Bible, too?" she said, simply following out her own mental +perception, without giving the link. It was not needed. They were +upon one track. + +"Yes; all things; and all _souls_. The world-word comes through +things; the Bible came through souls. And it is all the more alive, +and full, and deep, and changing; like a river." + +"Living fountains of waters! that was part of the morsel to-day," +Desire repeated impulsively, and then shyly explained. + +"And the new word?" + +Desire shrunk into silence for a moment; she was not used to, or +fond of Bible quoting, or even Bible talk; yet sin was hungering all +the time for Bible truth. + +Mr. Kincaid waited. + +So she repeated it presently; for Desire never made a fuss; she was +too really sensitive for that. + +"'The Tenderness in the midst of the Almightiness shall feed them, +and shall lead them to living fountains of water.'" + +Mr. Kincaid recognized the "new word," and his face lit up. + +"'The Lamb in the midst of the Throne,'" he said. "Out of the Heart +of God, the Christ. Who was there before; the intent by which all +things were made. The same yesterday, and to-day, and forever; who +ever liveth to make intercession for us. Christ _had to be_. The +Word, full of grace, must be made flesh. Why need people dispute +about Eternity and Divinity, if they can only see that?--Was that +Mrs. Froke's reading?" + +"Yes; that was Rachel's sermon." + +"It is an illumination." + +They walked all up Orchard Street without another word. + +Then Kenneth Kincaid said,--"Miss Desire, why won't you come and +teach in the Mission School?" + +"I teach? Why, I've got everything to learn!" + +"But as fast as you _do_ learn; the morsels, you know. That is the +way they are given out. That is the wonder of the kingdom of heaven. +There is no need to go away and buy three hundred pennyworth before +we begin, that every one may take a little; the bread given as the +Master breaks it feeds them till they are filled; and there are +baskets full of fragments to gather up." + +Kenneth Kincaid's heart was in his Sunday work, as his sister had +said. The more gladly now, that the outward daily bread was being +given. + +Mr. Geoffrey,--one of those busy men, so busy that they do promptly +that which their hands find to do,--had put Kenneth in the way of +work. It only needed a word from him, and the surveying and laying +out of some new streets and avenues down there where Boston is +growing so big and grand and strange, were put into his charge. +Kenneth was busy now, cheerily busy, from Monday morning to Saturday +night; and restfully busy on the Sunday, straightening the paths and +laying out the ways for souls to walk in. He felt the harmony and +the illustration between his week and his Sunday, and the one +strengthening the other, as all true outward work does harmonize +with and show forth, and help the spiritual doing. It could not have +been so with that gold work, or any little feverish hitching on to +other men's business; producing nothing, advancing nothing, only +standing between to snatch what might fall, or to keep a premium for +passing from hand to hand. + +Our great cities are so full,--our whole country is so +overrun,--with these officious middle-men whom the world does not +truly want; chiffonniers of trade, who only pick up a living out of +the great press and waste and overflow; and our boys are so eager to +slip in to some such easy, ready-made opportunity,--to get some +crossing to sweep. + +What will come of it all, as the pretenses multiply? Will there be +always pennies for every little broom? Will two, and three, and six +sweeps be tolerated between side and side? By and by, I think, they +will have to turn to and lay pavements. Hard, honest work, and the +day's pay for it; that is what we have got to go back to; that and +the day's snug, patient living, which the pay achieves. + +Then, as I say, the week shall illustrate the Sunday, and the Sunday +shall glorify the week; and what men do and build shall stand true +types, again, for the inner growth and the invisible building; so +that if this outer tabernacle were dissolved, there should be seen +glorious behind it, the house not made with hands,--eternal. + +As Desire Ledwith met this young Kenneth Kincaid from day to day, +seeing him so often at her Aunt Ripwinkley's, where he and Dorris +went in and out now, almost like a son and daughter,--as she walked +beside him this morning, hearing him say these things, at which +the heart-longing in her burned anew toward the real and +satisfying,--what wonder was it that her restlessness grasped at +that in his life which was strong and full of rest; that she felt +glad and proud to have him tell his thought to her; that without any +silliness,--despising all silliness,--she should yet be conscious, +as girls of seventeen are conscious, of something that made her day +sufficient when she had so met him,--of a temptation to turn into +those streets in her walks that led his way? Or that she often, with +her blunt truth, toward herself as well as others, and her quick +contempt of sham and subterfuge, should snub herself mentally, and +turn herself round as by a grasp of her own shoulders, and make +herself walk off stoutly in a far and opposite direction, when, +without due need and excuse, she caught herself out in these things? + +What wonder that this stood in her way, for very pleasantness, when +Kenneth asked her to come and teach in the school? That she was +ashamed to let herself do a thing--even a good thing, that her life +needed,--when there was this conscious charm in the asking; this +secret thought--that she should walk up home with him every Sunday! + +She remembered Agatha and Florence, and she imagined, perhaps, more +than they would really have thought of it at home; and so as they +turned into Shubarton Place,--for he had kept on all the way along +Bridgeley and up Dorset Street with her,--she checked her steps +suddenly as they came near the door, and said brusquely,-- + +"No, Mr. Kincaid; I can't come to the Mission. I might learn A, and +teach them that; but how do I know I shall ever learn B, myself?" + +He had left his question, as their talk went on, meaning to ask it +again before they separated. He thought it was prevailing with her, +and that the help that comes of helping others would reach her need; +it was for her sake he asked it; he was disappointed at the sudden, +almost trivial turn she gave it. + +"You have taken up another analogy, Miss Desire," he said. "We were +talking about crumbs and feeding. The five loaves and the five +thousand. 'Why reason ye because ye have no bread? How is it that ye +do not understand?'" + +Kenneth quoted these words naturally, pleasantly; as he might quote +anything that had been spoken to them both out of a love and +authority they both recognized, a little while ago. + +But Desire was suddenly sharp and fractious. If it had not touched +some deep, live place in her, she would not have minded so much. It +was partly, too, the coming toward home. She had got away out of the +pure, clear spaces where such things seemed to be fit and +unstrained, into the edge of her earth atmosphere again, where, +falling, they took fire. Presently she would be in that ridiculous +pink room, and Glossy Megilp would be chattering about "those lovely +purple poppies with the black grass," that she had been lamenting +all the morning she had not bought for her chip hat, instead of the +pomegranate flowers. And Agatha would be on the bed, in her cashmere +sack, reading Miss Braddon. + +"It would sound nice to tell them she was going down to the Mission +School to give out crumbs!" + +Besides, I suppose that persons of a certain temperament never utter +a more ungracious "No," than when they are longing all the time to +say "Yes." + +So she turned round on the lower step to Kenneth, when he had asked +that grave, sweet question of the Lord's, and said perversely,-- + +"I thought you did not believe in any brokering kind of business. +It's all there,--for everybody. Why should I set up to fetch and +carry?" + +She did not look in his face as she said it; she was not audacious +enough to do that; she poked with the stick of her sunshade between +the uneven bricks of the sidewalk, keeping her eyes down, as if she +watched for some truth she expected to pry up. But she only wedged +the stick in so that she could not get it out; and Kenneth Kincaid +making her absolutely no answer at all, she had to stand there, +growing red and ashamed, held fast by her own silly trap. + +"Take care; you will break it," said Kenneth, quietly, as she gave +it a twist and a wrench. And he put out his hand, and took it from +hers, and drew gently upward in the line in which she had thrust it +in. + +"You were bearing off at an angle. It wanted a straight pull." + +"I never pull straight at anything. I always get into a crook, +somehow. You didn't answer me, Mr. Kincaid. I didn't mean to be +rude--or wicked. I didn't mean--" + +"What you said. I know that; and it's no use to answer what people +don't mean. That makes the crookedest crook of all." + +"But I think I did mean it partly; only not contrarimindedly. I do +mean that I have no business--yet awhile. It would only be--Migging +at gospel!" + +And with this remarkable application of her favorite illustrative +expression, she made a friendly but abrupt motion of leave-taking, +and went into the house. + +Up into her own room, in the third story, where the old furniture +was, and no "fadging,"--and sat down, bonnet, gloves, sunshade, and +all, in her little cane rocking-chair by the window. + +Helena was down in the pink room, listening with charmed ears to the +grown up young-ladyisms of her elder sisters and Glossy Megilp. + +Desire sat still until the dinner-bell rang, forgetful of her dress, +forgetful of all but one thought that she spoke out as she rose at +last at the summons to take off her things in a hurry,-- + +"I wonder,--I _wonder_--if I shall ever live anything all straight +out!" + + + + +XIII. + +PIECES OF WORLDS. + + +Mr. Dickens never put a truer thought into any book, than he put at +the beginning of "Little Dorrit." + +That, from over land and sea, from hundreds, thousands of miles +away, are coming the people with whom we are to have to do in our +lives; and that, "what is set to us to do to them, and what is set +for them to do to us, will all be done." + +Not only from far places in this earth, over land and sea,--but from +out the eternities, before and after,--from which souls are born, +and into which they die,--all the lines of life are moving +continually which are to meet and join, and bend, and cross our own. + +But it is only with a little piece of this world, as far as we can +see it in this short and simple story, that we have now to do. + +Rosamond Holabird was coming down to Boston. + +With all her pretty, fresh, delicate, high-lady ways, with her +beautiful looks, and her sweet readiness for true things and noble +living, she was coming, for a few days only,--the cooperative +housekeeping was going on at Westover, and she could not be spared +long,--right in among them here in Aspen Street, and Shubarton +Place, and Orchard Street, and Harrisburg Square, where Mrs. +Scherman lived whom she was going to stay with. But a few days may +be a great deal. + +Rosamond Holabird was coming for far more than she knew. Among +other things she was coming to get a lesson; a lesson right on in a +course she was just now learning; a lesson of next things, and best +things, and real folks. + +You see how it happened,--where the links were; Miss Craydocke, and +Sin Scherman, and Leslie Goldthwaite, were dear friends, made to +each other one summer among the mountains. Leslie had had Sin and +Miss Craydocke up at Z----, and Rosamond and Leslie were friends, +also. + +Mrs. Frank Scherman had a pretty house in Harrisburg Square. She had +not much time for paying fashionable calls, or party-going, or +party-giving. As to the last, she did not think Frank had money +enough yet to "circumfuse," she said, in that way. + +But she had six lovely little harlequin cups on a side-shelf in her +china closet, and six different-patterned breakfast plates, with +colored borders to match the cups; rose, and brown, and gray, and +vermilion, and green, and blue. These were all the real china she +had, and were for Frank and herself and the friends whom she made +welcome,--and who might come four at once,--for day and night. She +delighted in "little stays;" in girls who would go into the nursery +with her, and see Sinsie in her bath; or into the kitchen, and help +her mix up "little delectabilities to surprise Frank with;" only the +trouble had got to be now, that the surprise occurred when the +delectabilities did not. Frank had got demoralized, and expected +them. She rejoiced to have Miss Craydocke drop in of a morning and +come right up stairs, with her little petticoats and things to work +on; and she and Frank returned these visits in a social, cosy way, +after Sinsie was in her crib for the night. Frank's boots never went +on with a struggle for a walk down to Orchard Street; but they were +terribly impossible for Continuation Avenue. + +So it had come about long ago, though I have not had a corner to +mention it in, that they "knew the Muffin Man," in an Aspen Street +sense; and were no strangers to the charm of Mrs. Ripwinkley's +"evenings." There was always an "evening" in the "Mile Hill House," +as the little family and friendly coterie had come to call it. + +Rosamond and Leslie had been down together for a week once, at the +Schermans; and this time Rosamond was coming alone. She had business +in Boston for a day or two, and had written to ask Asenath "if she +might." There were things to buy for Barbara, who was going to be +married in a "navy hurry," besides an especial matter that had +determined her just at this time to come. + +And Asenath answered, "that the scarlet and gray, and green and blue +were pining and fading on the shelf; and four days would be the very +least to give them all a turn and treat them fairly; for such things +had their delicate susceptibilities, as Hans Andersen had taught us +to know, and might starve and suffer,--why not? being made of +protoplasm, same as anybody." + +Rosamond's especial errand to the city was one that just a little +set her up, innocently, in her mind. She had not wholly got the +better,--when it interfered with no good-will or generous +dealing,--of a certain little instinctive reverence for imposing +outsides and grand ways of daily doing; and she was somewhat +complacent at the idea of having to go,--with kindly and needful +information,--to Madam Mucklegrand, in Spreadsplendid Park. + +Madam Mucklegrand was a well-born Boston lady, who had gone to +Europe in her early youth, and married a Scottish gentleman with a +Sir before his name. Consequently, she was quite entitled to be +called "my lady;" and some people who liked the opportunity of +touching their republican tongues to the salt of European +dignitaries, addressed her so; but, for the most part, she assumed +and received simply the style of "Madam." A queen may be called +"Madam," you know. It covers an indefinite greatness. But when she +spoke of her late,--very long ago,--husband, she always named him as +"Sir Archibald." + +Madam Mucklegrand's daughter wanted a wet-nurse for her little baby. + +Up in Z----, there was a poor woman whose husband, a young brakeman +on the railroad, had been suddenly killed three months ago, before +her child was born. There was a sister here in Boston, who could +take care of it for her if she could go to be foster-mother to some +rich little baby, who was yet so poor as this--to need one. So +Rosamond Holabird, who was especially interested for Mrs. Jopson, +had written to Asenath, and had an advertisement put in the +"Transcript," referring to Mrs. Scherman for information. And the +Mucklegrand carriage had rolled up, the next day, to the house in +Harrisburg Square. + +They wanted to see the woman, of course, and to hear all about +her,--more than Mrs. Scherman was quite able to tell; therefore when +she sent a little note up to Z----, by the evening mail, Rosamond +replied with her "Might she come?" + +She brought Jane Jopson and the baby down with her, left them over +night at Mrs. Ginnever's, in Sheafe Street, and was to go for them +next morning and take them up to Spreadsplendid Park. She had sent a +graceful, polite little note to Madam Mucklegrand, dated "Westover, +Z----," and signed, "Rosamond Holabird," offering to do this, that +there might not be the danger of Jane's losing the chance in the +meanwhile. + +It was certainly to accomplish the good deed that Rosamond cared +the most; but it was also certainly something to accomplish it in +that very high quarter. It lent a piquancy to the occasion. + +She came down to breakfast very nicely and discriminatingly dressed, +with the elegant quietness of a lady who knew what was simply +appropriate to such an errand and the early hour, but who meant to +be recognized as the lady in every unmistakable touch; and there was +a carriage ordered for her at half past nine. + +Sin Scherman was a cute little matron; she discerned the dash of +subdued importance in Rosamond's air; and she thought it very +likely, in the Boston nature of things, that it would get +wholesomely and civilly toned down. + +Just at this moment, Rosamond, putting on her little straw bonnet +with real lace upon it, and her simple little narrow-bordered green +shawl, that was yet, as far as it went, veritable cashmere,--had a +consciousness, in a still, modest way, not only of her own personal +dignity as Rosamond Holabird, who was the same going to see Madam +Mucklegrand, or walking over to Madam Pennington's, and as much in +her place with one as the other; but of the dignity of Westover +itself, and Westover ladyhood, represented by her among the palaces +of Boston-Appendix to-day. + +She was only twenty, this fair and pleasant Rosamond of ours, and +country simple, with all her native tact and grace; and she forgot, +or did not know how full of impressions a life like Madam +Mucklegrand's might be, and how very trifling and fleeting must be +any that she might chance to make. + +She drove away down to the North End, and took Jane Jopson and her +baby in,--very clean and shiny, both of them,--and Jane +particularly nice in the little black crape bonnet that Rosamond +herself had made, and the plain black shawl that Mrs. Holabird had +given her. + +She stood at the head of the high, broad steps, with her mind very +much made up in regard to her complete and well-bred self-possession, +and the manner of her quietly assured self-introduction. She had her +card all ready that should explain for her; and to the servant's +reply that Madam Mucklegrand was in, she responded by moving forward +with only enough of voluntary hesitation to allow him to indicate to +her the reception room, at the door of which she gave him the little +pasteboard, with,-- + +"Take that to her, if you please," and so sat down, very much as if +she had been in such places frequently before, which she never had. +One may be quite used to the fine, free essence of gentle living, +and never in all one's life have anything to do with such solid, +concrete expression of it as Rosamond saw here. + +Very high, to begin with, the ceiled and paneled room was; reaching +up into space as if it had really been of no consequence to the +builders where they should put the cover on; and with no remotest +suggestion of any reserve for further superstructure upon the same +foundation. + +Very dark, and polished, and deeply carved, and heavily ornamented +were its wainscotings, and frames, and cornices; out of the new look +of the streets, which it will take them yet a great while to +outgrow, she had stepped at once into a grand, and mellow, and +ancient stateliness. + +There were dim old portraits on the walls, and paintings that hinted +at old mastership filled whole panels; and the tall, high-backed, +wonderfully wrought oaken chairs had heraldic devices in relief upon +their bars and corners; and there was a great, round mosaic table, +in soft, rich, dark colors, of most precious stones; these, in +turn, hidden with piles of rare engravings. + +The floor was of dark woods, inlaid; and sumptuous rugs were put +about upon it for the feet, each one of which was wide enough to +call a carpet. + +And nothing of it all was _new_; there was nothing in the room but +some plants in a jardiniere by the window, that seemed to have a bit +of yesterday's growth upon it. + +A great, calm, marble face of Jove looked down from high up, out of +the shadows. + +Underneath sat Rosamond Holabird, holding on to her identity and her +self-confidence. + +Madam Mucklegrand came in plainly enough dressed,--in black; you +would not notice what she had on; but you would notice instantly the +consummate usedness to the world and the hardening into the mould +thereof that was set and furrowed upon eye and lip and brow. + +She sailed down upon Rosamond like a frigate upon a graceful little +pinnace; and brought to within a pace or two of her, continuing to +stand an instant, as Rosamond rose, just long enough for the shadow +of a suggestion that it might not be altogether material that she +should be seated again at all. + +But Rosamond made a movement backward to her chair, and laid her +hand upon its arm, and then Madam Mucklegrand decided to sit down. + +"You called about the nurse, I conclude, Miss--Holabird?" + +"Yes, ma'am; I thought you had some questions you wished to ask, and +that I had better come myself. I have her with me, in the carriage." + +"Thank you," said Madam Mucklegrand, politely. + +But it was rather a _de haut en bas_ politeness; she exercised it +also toward her footman. + +Then followed inquiries about age, and health, and character. +Rosamond told all she knew, clearly and sufficiently, with some +little sympathetic touches that she could not help, in giving her +story. + +Madam Mucklegrand met her nowhere, however, on any common ground; +she passed over all personal interest; instead of two women +befriending a third in her need, who in turn was to give life to a +little child waiting helplessly for some such ministry, it might +have been the leasing of a house, or the dealing about some +merchandise, that was between them. + +Rosamond proposed, at last, to send Jane Jopson in. + +Jane and her baby were had in, and had up-stairs; the physician and +attending nurse pronounced upon her; she was brought down again, to +go home and dispose of her child, and return. Rosamond, meanwhile, +had been sitting under the marble Jove. + +There was nothing really rude in it; she was there on business; what +more could she expect? But then she knew all the time, that she too +was a lady, and was taking trouble to do a kind thing. It was not so +that Madam Mucklegrand would have been treated at Westover. + +Rosamond was feeling pretty proud by the time Madam Mucklegrand came +down stairs. + +"We have engaged the young woman: the doctor quite approves; she +will return without delay, I hope?" + +As if Rosamond were somehow responsible all through. + +"I have no doubt she will; good morning, madam." + +"Good morning. I am, really, very much obliged. You have been of +great service." + +Rosamond turned quietly round upon the threshold. + +"That was what I was very anxious to be," she said, in her perfectly +sweet and musical voice,--"to the poor woman." + +Italics would indicate too coarsely the impalpable emphasis she put +upon the last two words. But Mrs. Mucklegrand caught it. + +Rosamond went away quite as sure of her own self-respect as ever, +but very considerably cured of Spreadsplendidism. + +This was but one phase of it, she knew; there are real folks, also, +in Spreadsplendid Park; they are a good deal covered up, there, to +be sure; but they can't help that. It is what always happens to +somebody when Pyramids are built. Madam Mucklegrand herself was, +perhaps, only a good deal covered up. + +How lovely it was to go down into Orchard Street after that, and +take tea with Miss Craydocke! How human and true it seemed,--the +friendliness that shone and breathed there, among them all. How +kingdom-of-heaven-like the air was, and into what pleasantness of +speech it was born! + +And then Hazel Ripwinkley came over, like a little spirit from +another blessed society, to tell that "the picture-book things were +all ready, and that it would take everybody to help." + +That was Rosamond's first glimpse of Witch Hazel, who found her out +instantly,--the real, Holabirdy part of her,--and set her down at +once among her "folks." + +It was bright and cheery in Mrs. Ripwinkley's parlor; you could +hardly tell whence the cheeriness radiated, either. + +The bright German lamp was cheery, in the middle of the round table; +the table was cheery, covered with glossy linen cut into large, +square book-sheets laid in piles, and with gay pictures of all +kinds, brightly colored; and the scissors,--or scissorses,--there +were ever so many shining pairs of them,--and the little mucilage +bottles, and the very scrap-baskets,--all looked cozy and +comfortable, and as if people were going to have a real good time +among them, somehow. + +And the somehow was in making great beautiful, everlasting +picture-books for the little orphans in Miss Craydocke's Home,--the +Home, that is, out of several blessed and similar ones that she was +especially interested in, and where Hazel and Diana had been with +her until they knew all the little waifs by sight and name and +heart, and had their especial chosen property among them, as they +used to have among the chickens and the little yellow ducks at +Homesworth Farm. + +Mrs. Ripwinkley was cheery; it might be a question whether all the +light did not come from her first, in some way, and perhaps it did; +but then Hazel was luminous, and she fluttered about with quick, +happy motions, till like a little glancing taper she had shone upon +and lit up everybody and everything; and Dorris was sunny with clear +content, and Kenneth was blithe, and Desire was scintillant, as she +always was either with snaps or smiles; and here came in beaming +Miss Craydocke, and gay Asenath and her handsome husband; and our +Rosa Mundi; there,--how can you tell? It was all round; and it was +more every minute. + +There were cutters and pasters and stitchers and binders and every +part was beautiful work, and nobody could tell which was +pleasantest. Cutting out was nice, of course; who doesn't like +cutting out pictures? Some were done beforehand, but there were as +many left as there would be time for. And pasting, on the fine, +smooth linen, making it glow out with charming groups and tints of +flowers and birds and children in gay clothes,--that was +delightful; and the stitchers had the pleasure of combining and +arranging it all; and the binders,--Mrs. Ripwinkley and Miss +Craydocke,--finished all off with the pretty ribbons and the gray +covers, and theirs being the completing touch, thought _they_ had +the best of it. + +"But I don't think finishing is best, mother," said Hazel, who was +diligently snipping in and out around rose leaves or baby faces, as +it happened. "I think beginning is always beautiful. I never want to +end off,--anything nice, I mean." + +"Well, we don't end off this," said Diana. "There's the giving, +next." + +"And then their little laughs and Oo's," said Hazel. + +"And their delight day after day; and the comfort of them in their +little sicknesses," said Miss Craydocke. + +"And the stories that have got to be told about every picture," said +Dorris. + +"No; nothing really nice does end; it goes on and on," said Mrs. +Ripwinkley. + +"Of course!" said Hazel, triumphantly, turning on the Drummond light +of her child-faith. "We're forever and ever people, you know!" + +"Please paste some more flowers, Mr. Kincaid," said Rosamond, who +sat next him, stitching. "I want to make an all-flower book of this. +No,--not roses; I've a whole page already; this great white lily, I +think. That's beautiful!" + +"Wouldn't it do to put in this laurel bush next, with the bird's +nest in it?" + +"O, those lovely pink and white laurels! Yes. Where did you get such +pictures, Miss Hazel?" + +"O, everybody gave them to us, all summer, ever since we began. Mrs. +Geoffrey gave those flowers; and mother painted some. She did that +laurel. But don't call me Miss Hazel, please; it seems to send me +off into a corner." + +Rosamond answered by a little irresistible caress; leaning her head +down to Hazel, on her other side, until her cheek touched the +child's bright curls, quickly and softly. There was magnetism +between those two. + +Ah, the magnetism ran round! + +"For a child's picture-book, Mrs. Ripwinkley?" said Mrs. Scherman, +reaching over for the laurel picture. "Aren't these almost +too exquisite? They would like a big scarlet poppy just as +well,--perhaps better. Or a clump of cat-o'-nine-tails," she added, +whimsically. + +"There _is_ a clump of cat-o'-nine-tails," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "I +remember how I used to delight in them as a child,--the real ones." + +"Pictures are to _tell_ things," said Desire, in her brief way. + +"These little city refugees _must_ see them, somehow," said +Rosamond, gently. "I understand. They will never get up on the +mountains, maybe, where the laurels grow, or into the shady swamps +among the flags and the cat-o'-nine-tails. You have _picked out_ +pictures to give them, Mrs. Ripwinkley." + +Kenneth Kincaid's scissors stopped a moment, as he looked at +Rosamond, pausing also over the placing of her leaves. + +Desire saw that from the other side; she saw how beautiful and +gracious this girl was--this Rosamond Holabird; and there was a +strange little twinge in her heart, as she felt, suddenly, that let +there be ever so much that was true and kindly, or even tender, in +her, it could never come up in her eyes or play upon her lips like +that she could never say it out sweetly and in due place everything +was a spasm with her; and nobody would ever look at her just as +Kenneth Kincaid looked at Rosamond then. + +She said to herself, with her harsh, unsparing honesty, that it must +be a "hitch inside;" a cramp or an awkwardness born in her, that set +her eyes, peering and sharp, so near together, and put that knot +into her brows instead of their widening placidly, like Rosamond's, +and made her jerky in her speech. It was no use; she couldn't look +and behave, because she couldn't _be_; she must just go boggling and +kinking on, and--losing everything, she supposed. + +The smiles went down, under a swift, bitter little cloud, and the +hard twist came into her face with the inward pinching she was +giving herself; and all at once there crackled out one of her sharp, +strange questions; for it was true that she could not do otherwise; +everything was sudden and crepitant with her. + +"Why need all the good be done up in batches, I wonder? Why can't it +be spread round, a little more even? There must have been a good +deal left out somewhere, to make it come in a heap, so, upon you, +Miss Craydocke!" + +Hazel looked up. + +"I know what Desire means," she said. "It seemed just so to me, +_one_ way. Why oughtn't there to be _little_ homes, done-by-hand +homes, for all these little children, instead of--well--machining +them all up together?" + +And Hazel laughed at her own conceit. + +"It's nice; but then--it isn't just the way. If we were all brought +up like that we shouldn't know, you see!" + +"You wouldn't want to be brought up in a platoon, Hazel?" said +Kenneth Kincaid. "No; neither should I." + +"I think it was better," said Hazel, "to have my turn of being a +little child, all to myself; _the_ little child, I mean, with the +rest of the folks bigger. To make much of me, you know. I shouldn't +want to have missed that. I shouldn't like to be _loved_ in a +platoon." + +"Nobody is meant to be," said Miss Craydocke. + +"Then why--" began Asenath Scherman, and stopped. + +"Why what, dear?" + +"Revelations," replied Sin, laconically. "There are loads of people +there, all dressed alike, you know; and--well--it's platoony, I +think, rather! And down here, such a world-full; and the sky--full +of worlds. There doesn't seem to be much notion of one at a time, in +the general plan of things." + +"Ah, but we've got the key to all that," said Miss Craydocke. "'The +very hairs of your head are all numbered.' It may be impossible with +us, you know, but not with Him." + +"Miss Hapsie! you always did put me down, just when I thought I was +smart," said Sin Scherman. + +Asenath loved to say "Miss Hapsie," now and then, to her friend, +ever since she had found out what she called her "squee little +name." + +"But the little children, Miss Craydocke," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "It +seems to me Desire has got a right thought about it." + +Mrs. Ripwinkley and Hazel always struck the same note. The same +delicate instinct moved them both. Hazel "knew what Desire meant;" +her mother did not let it be lost sight of that it was Desire who +had led the way in this thought of the children; so that the abrupt +beginning--the little flash out of the cloud--was quite forgotten +presently, in the tone of hearty understanding and genuine interest +with which the talk went on; and it was as if all that was generous +and mindfully suggestive in it had first and truly come from her. +They unfolded herself for her--these friendly ones--as she could not +do; out of her bluntness grew a graciousness that lay softly over +it; the cloud itself melted away and floated off; and Desire began +to sparkle again more lambently. For she was not one of the kind to +be meanly or enviously "put out." + +"It seemed to me there must be a great many spare little corners +somewhere, for all these spare little children," she said, "and +that, lumped up together so, there was something they did not get." + +"That is precisely the thing," said Miss Craydocke, emphatically. "I +wonder, sometimes," she went on, tenderly, "if whenever God makes a +little empty place in a home, it isn't really on purpose that it +might be filled with one of these,--if people only thought." + +"Miss Craydocke," said Hazel, "how did you begin your beehive?" + +"I!" said the good lady. "I didn't. It began itself." + +"Well, then, how did you _let_ it begin?" + +"Ah!" + +The tone was admissive, and as if she had said, "_That_ is another +thing!" She could not contradict that she had let it be. + +"I'll tell you a queer story," she said, "of what they say they used +to do, in old Roman Catholic times and places, when they wanted to +_keep up_ a beehive that was in any danger of dwindling or growing +unprofitable. I read it somewhere in a book of popular beliefs and +customs about bees and other interesting animals. An old woman once +went to her friend, and asked her what she did to make her hive so +gainful. And this was what the old wife said; it sounds rather +strange to us, but if there is anything irreverent in it, it is the +word and not the meaning; 'I go,' she said, 'to the priest, and get +a little round Godamighty, and put it in the hive, and then all goes +well; the bees thrive, and there is plenty of honey; they always +come, and stay, and work, when _that_ is there." + +"A little round--something awful! what _did_ she mean?" asked Mrs. +Scherman. + +"She meant a consecrated wafer,--the Sacrament. We don't need to put +the wafer in; but if we let _Him_ in, you see,--just say to Him it +is his house, to do with as He likes,--He takes the responsibility, +and brings in all the rest." + +Nobody saw, under the knitting of Desire Ledwith's brows, and the +close setting of her eyes, the tenderness with which they suddenly +moistened, and the earnestness with which they gleamed. Nobody knew +how she thought to herself inwardly, in the same spasmodic fashion +that she used for speech,-- + +"They Mig up their parlors with upholstery, and put rose-colored +paper on their walls, and call them _their_ houses; and shut the +little round awfulness and goodness out! We've all been doing it! +And there's no place left for what might come in." + +Mrs. Scherman broke the hush that followed what Miss Hapsie said. +Not hastily, or impertinently; but when it seemed as if it might be +a little hard to come down into the picture-books and the pleasant +easiness again. + +"Let's make a Noah's Ark picture-book,--you and I," she said to +Desire. "Give us all your animals,--there's a whole Natural History +full over there, all painted with splendid daubs of colors; the +children did that, I know, when they _were_ children. Come; we'll +have everything in, from an elephant to a bumble-bee!" + +"We did not mean to use those, Mrs. Scherman," said Desire. "We did +not think they were good enough. They are _so_ daubed up." + +"They're perfectly beautiful. Exactly what the young ones will like. +Just divide round, and help. We'll wind up with the most wonderful +book of all; the book they'll all cry for, and that will have to be +given always, directly after the Castor Oil." + +It took them more than an hour to do that, all working hard; and a +wonderful thing it was truly, when it was done. Mrs. Scherman and +Desire Ledwith directed all the putting together, and the grouping +was something astonishing. + +There were men and women,--the Knowers, Sin called them; she said +that was what she always thought the old gentleman's name was, in +the days when she first heard of him, because he knew so much; and +in the backgrounds of the same sheets were their country cousins, +the orangs, and the little apes. Then came the elephants, and the +camels, and the whales; "for why shouldn't the fishes be put in, +since they must all have been swimming round sociably, if they +weren't inside; and why shouldn't the big people be all kept +together properly?" + +There were happy families of dogs and cats and lions and snakes and +little humming-birds; and in the last part were all manner of bugs, +down to the little lady-bugs in blazes of red and gold, and the gray +fleas and mosquitoes which Sin improvised with pen and ink, in a +swarm at the end. + +"And after that, I don't believe they wanted any more," she said; +and handed over the parts to Miss Craydocke to be tied together. +For this volume had had to be made in many folds, and Mrs. +Ripwinkley's blue ribbon would by no means stretch over the back. + +And by that time it was eleven o'clock, and they had worked four +hours. They all jumped up in a great hurry then, and began to say +good-by. + +"This must not be the last we are to have of you, Miss Holabird," +said Mrs. Ripwinkley, laying Rosamond's shawl across her shoulders. + +"Of course not," said Mrs Scherman, "when you are all coming to our +house to tea to-morrow night." + +Rosamond bade the Ripwinkleys good-night with a most sweet +cordiality, and thanks for the pleasure she had had, and she told +Hazel and her mother that it was "neither beginning nor end, she +believed; for it seemed to her that she had only found a little new +piece of her world, and that Aspen Street led right out of Westover +in the invisible geography, she was sure." + +"Come!" said Miss Craydocke, standing on the doorsteps. "It is all +invisible geography out here, pretty nearly; and we've all our +different ways to go, and only these two unhappy gentlemen to insist +on seeing everybody home." + +So first the whole party went round with Miss Hapsie, and then +Kenneth and Dorris, who always went home with Desire, walked up +Hanley Street with the Schermans and Rosamond, and so across through +Dane Street to Shubarton Place. + +But while they were on their way, Hazel Ripwinkley was saying to her +mother, up in her room, where they made sometimes such long +good-nights,-- + +"Mother! there were some little children taken away from you before +we came, you know? And now we've got this great big house, and +plenty of things, more than it takes for us." + +"Well?" + +"Don't you think it's expected that we should do something with the +corners? There's room for some real good little times for somebody. +I think we ought to begin a beehive." + +Mrs. Ripwinkley kissed Hazel very tenderly, and said, only,-- + +"We can wait, and see." + +Those are just the words that mothers so often put children off +with! But Mrs. Ripwinkley, being one of the real folks, meant it; +the very heart of it. + +In that little talk, they took the consecration in; they would wait +and see; when people do that, with an expectation, the beehive +begins. + + * * * * * + +Up Hanley Street, the six fell into pairs. + +Mrs. Scherman and Desire, Dorris and Mr. Scherman, Rosamond and +Kenneth Kincaid. + +It only took from Bridgeley Street up to Dane, to tell Kenneth +Kincaid so much about Westover, in answer to his questions, that he +too thought he had found a new little piece of his world. What +Rosamond thought, I do not know; but a girl never gives a young man +so much as she gave Kenneth in that little walk without having some +of the blessed consciousness that comes with giving. The sun knows +it shines, I dare say; or else there is a great waste of hydrogen +and other things. + +There was not much left for poor little Desire after they parted +from the Schermans and turned the corner of Dane Street. Only a +little bit of a way, in which new talk could hardly begin, and just +time for a pause that showed how the talk that had come to an end +was missed or how, perhaps, it stayed in the mind, repeating itself, +and keeping it full. + +Nobody said anything till they had crossed B---- Street; and then +Dorris said, "How beautiful,--_real_ beautiful, Rosamond Holabird +is!" And Kenneth answered, "Did you hear what she said to Mrs. +Ripwinkley?" + +They were full of Rosamond! Desire did not speak a word. + +Dorris had heard and said it over. It seemed to please Kenneth to +hear it again. "A piece of her world!" + +"How quickly a true person springs to what belongs to--their life!" +said Kenneth, using that wrong little pronoun that we shall never be +able to do without. + +"People don't always get what belongs, though," blurted Desire at +last, just as they came to the long doorsteps. "Some people's lives +are like complementary colors, I think; they see blue, and live +red!" + +"But the colors are only accidentally--I mean temporarily--divided; +they are together in the sun; and they join somewhere--beyond." + +"I hate beyond!" said Desire, recklessly. "Good-night. Thank you." +And she ran up the steps. + +Nobody knew what she meant. Perhaps she hardly knew herself. + +They only thought that her home life was not suited to her, and that +she took it hard. + + + + +XIV. + +"SESAME; AND LILIES." + + +"I've got a discouragement at my stomach," said Luclarion Grapp. + +"What's the matter?" asked Mrs. Ripwinkley, naturally. + +"Mrs. Scarup. I've been there. There ain't any bottom to it." + +"Well?" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley knew that Luclarion had more to say, and that she +waited for this monosyllable. + +"She's sick again. And Scarup, he's gone out West, spending a +hundred dollars to see whether or no there's a chance anywhere for a +_smart_ man,--and that ain't he, so it's a double waste,--to make +fifty. No girl; and the children all under foot, and Pinkie looking +miserable over the dishes." + +"Pinkie isn't strong." + +"No. She's powerful weak. I just wish you'd seen that dirty +settin'-room fire-place; looks as if it hadn't been touched since +Scarup smoked his pipe there, the night before he went off a +wild-gandering. And clo'es to be ironed, and the girl cleared out, +because 'she'd always been used to fust-class families.' There +wasn't anything to your hand, and you couldn't tell where to begin, +unless you began with a cataplasm!" + +Luclarion had heard, by chance, of a cataclysm, and that was what +she meant. + +"It wants--creation, over again! Mrs. Scarup hadn't any fit +breakfast; there was burnt toast, made out of tough bread, that +she'd been trying to eat; and a cup of tea, half drunk; something +the matter with that, I presume. I'd have made her some gruel, if +there'd been a fire; and if there'd been any kindlings, I'd have +made her a fire; but there 'twas; there wasn't any bottom to it!" + +"You had better make the gruel here, Luclarion." + +"That's what I come back for. But--Mrs. Ripwinkley!" + +"Well?" + +"Don't it appear to you it's a kind of a stump? I don't want to do +it just for the satisfaction; though it _would_ be a satisfaction to +plough everything up thorough, and then rake it over smooth; what do +you think?" + +"What have you thought, Luclarion? Something, of course." + +"She wants a real smart girl--for two dollars a week. She can't get +her, because she ain't. And I kind of felt as though I should like +to put in. Seemed to me it was a--but there! I haven't any right to +stump _you_." + +"Wouldn't it be rather an aggravation? I don't suppose you would +mean to stay altogether?" + +"Not unless--but don't go putting it into my head, Mrs. Ripwinkley. +I shall feel as if I _was_. And I don't think it goes quite so far +as that, yet. We ain't never stumped to more than one thing at a +time. What she wants is to be straightened out. And when things once +looked _my_ way, she might get a girl, you see. Anyhow, 'twould +encourage Pinkie, and kind of set her going. Pinkie likes things +nice; but it's such a Hoosac tunnel to undertake, that she just lets +it all go, and gets off up-stairs, and sticks a ribbon in her hair. +That's all she _can_ do. I s'pose 'twould take a fortnight, maybe?" + +"Take it, Luclarion," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, smiling. Luclarion +understood the smile. + +"I s'pose you think it's as good as took. Well, perhaps it is--spoke +for. But it wasn't me, you know. Now what'll you do?" + +"Go into the kitchen and make the pudding." + +"But then?" + +"We are not stumped for then, you know." + +"There was a colored girl here yesterday, from up in Garden Street, +asking if there was any help wanted. I think she came in partially, +to look at the flowers; the 'sturtiums _are_ splendid, and I gave +her some. She was awfully dressed up,--for colors, I mean; but she +looked clean and pleasant, and spoke bright. Maybe she'd come, +temporary. She seemed taken with things. I know where to find her, +and I could go there when I got through with the gruel. Mrs. Scarup +must have that right off." + +And Luclarion hurried away. + +It was not the first time Mrs. Ripwinkley had lent Luclarion; but +Miss Grapp had not found a kitchen mission in Boston heretofore. It +was something new to bring the fashion of simple, prompt, neighborly +help down intact from the hills, and apply it here to the tangle of +city living, that is made up of so many separate and unrecognized +struggles. + +When Hazel came home from school, she went all the way up the garden +walk, and in at the kitchen door. "That was the way she took it +all," she said; "first the flowers, and then Luclarion and what they +had for dinner, and a drink of water; and then up-stairs, to +mother." + +To-day she encountered in the kitchen a curious and startling +apparition of change. + +A very dusky brown maiden, with a petticoat of flashing purple, and +a jacket of crimson, and extremely puzzling hair tied up with knots +of corn color, stood in possession over the stove, tending a +fricassee, of which Hazel recognized at once the preparation and +savor as her mother's; while beside her on a cricket, munching cold +biscuit and butter with round, large bites of very white little +teeth, sat a small girl of five of the same color, gleaming and +twinkling as nothing human ever does gleam and twinkle but a little +darkie child. + +"Where is Luclarion?" asked Hazel, standing still in the middle of +the floor, in her astonishment. + +"I don't know. I'm Damaris, and this one's little Vash. Don't go for +callin' me Dam, now; the boys did that in my last place, an' I left, +don' yer see? I ain't goin' to be swore to, anyhow!" + +And Damaris glittered at Hazel, with her shining teeth and her quick +eyes, full of fun and good humor, and enjoyed her end of the joke +extremely. + +"Have you come to _stay_?" asked Hazel. + +"'Course. I don' mostly come for to go." + +"What does it mean, mother?" Hazel asked, hurrying up into her +mother's room. + +And then Mrs. Ripwinkley explained. + +"But what _is_ she? Black or white? She's got straight braids and +curls at the back of her head, like everybody's"-- + +"'Course," said a voice in the doorway. "An' wool on top,--place +where wool ought to grow,--same's everybody, too." + +Damaris had come up, according to orders, to report a certain point +in the progress of the fricassee. + +"They all pulls the wool over they eyes, now-days, an sticks the +straight on behind. Where's the difference?" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley made some haste to rise and move toward the +doorway, to go down stairs, turning Damaris from her position, and +checking further remark. Diana and Hazel stayed behind, and laughed. +"What fun!" they said. + +It was the beginning of a funny fortnight; but it is not the fun I +have paused to tell you of; something more came of it in the +home-life of the Ripwinkleys; that which they were "waiting to see." + +Damaris wanted a place where she could take her little sister; she +was tired of leaving her "shyin' round," she said. And Vash, with +her round, fuzzy head, her bright eyes, her little flashing teeth, +and her polished mahogany skin,--darting up and down the house "on +Aarons," or for mere play,--dressed in her gay little scarlet +flannel shirt-waist, and black and orange striped petticoat,--was +like some "splendid, queer little fire-bug," Hazel said, and made a +surprise and a picture wherever she came. She was "cute," too, as +Damaris had declared beforehand; she was a little wonder at noticing +and remembering, and for all sorts of handiness that a child of five +could possibly be put to. + +Hazel dressed rag babies for her, and made her a soap-box baby-house +in the corner of the kitchen, and taught her her letters; and began +to think that she should hate to have her go when Luclarion came +back. + +Damaris proved clever and teachable in the kitchen; and had, above +all, the rare and admirable disposition to keep things scrupulously +as she had found them; so that Luclarion, in her afternoon trips +home, was comforted greatly to find that while she was "clearing and +ploughing" at Mrs. Scarup's, her own garden of neatness was not +being turned into a howling wilderness; and she observed, as is +often done so astutely, that "when you _do_ find a neat, capable, +colored help, it's as good help as you can have." Which you may +notice is just as true without the third adjective as with. + +Luclarion herself was having a splendid time. + +The first thing she did was to announce to Mrs. Scarup that she was +out of her place for two weeks, and would like to come to her at her +wages; which Mrs. Scarup received with some such awed and +unbelieving astonishment as she might have done the coming of a +legion of angels with Gabriel at their head. And when one strong, +generous human will, with powers of brain and body under it +sufficient to some good work, comes down upon it as Luclarion did +upon hers, there _is_ what Gabriel and his angels stand for, and no +less sent of God. + +The second thing Luclarion did was to clean that "settin'-room +fire-place," to restore the pleasant brown color of its freestone +hearth and jambs, to polish its rusty brasses till they shone like +golden images of gods, and to lay an ornamental fire of chips and +clean little sticks across the irons. Then she took a wet broom and +swept the carpet three times, and dusted everything with a damp +duster; and then she advised Mrs. Scarup, whom the gruel had already +cheered and strengthened, to be "helped down, and sit there in the +easy-chair, for a change, and let her take her room in hand." And no +doctor ever prescribed any change with better effect. There are a +good many changes that might be made for people, without sending +them beyond their own doors. But it isn't the doctors who always +know _what_ change, or would dare to prescribe it if they did. + +Mrs. Scarup was "helped down," it seemed,--really up, rather,--into +a new world. Things had begun all over again. It was worth while to +get well, and take courage. Those brasses shone in her face like +morning suns. + +"Well, I do declare to Man, Miss Grapp!" she exclaimed; and breath +and expression failed together, and that was all she could say. + +Up-stairs, Luclarion swept and rummaged. She found the sheet and +towel drawers, and made everything white and clean. She laid fresh +napkins over the table and bureau tops, and set the little +things--boxes, books, what not,--daintily about on them. She put a +clean spread on the bed, and gathered up things for the wash she +meant to have, with a recklessness that Mrs. Scarup herself would +never have dared to use, in view of any "help" she ever expected to +do it. + +And then, with Pinkie to lend feeble assistance, Luclarion turned to +in the kitchen. + +It was a "clear treat," she told Mrs. Ripwinkley afterward. "Things +had got to that state of mussiness, that you just began at one end +and worked through to the other, and every inch looked new made over +after you as you went along." + +She put the children out into the yard on the planks, and gave them +tin pans and clothes-pins to keep house with, and gingerbread for +their dinner. She and Pinkie had cups of tea, and Mrs. Scarup had +her gruel, and went up to bed again; and that was another new +experience, and a third stage in her treatment and recovery. + +When it came to the cellar, Luclarion got the chore-man in; and when +all was done, she looked round on the renovated home, and said +within herself, "If Scarup, now, will only break his neck, or get +something to do, and stay away with his pipes and his boots and his +contraptions!" + +And Scarup did. He found a chance in some freight-house, and wrote +that he had made up his mind to stay out there all winter; and Mrs. +Scarup made little excursions about the house with her returning +strength, and every journey was a pleasure-trip, and the only misery +was that at the end of the fortnight Miss Grapp was going away, and +then she should be "all back in the swamp again." + +"No, you won't," said Luclarion; "Pinkie's waked up, and she's going +to take pride, and pick up after the children. She can do that, now; +but she couldn't shoulder everything. And you'll have somebody in +the kitchen. See if you don't. I've 'most a mind to say I'll stay +till you do." + +Luclarion's faith was strong; she knew, she said, that "if she was +doing at her end, Providence wasn't leaving off at his. Things would +come round." + +This was how they did come round. + +It only wanted a little sorting about. The pieces of the puzzle were +all there. Hazel Ripwinkley settled the first little bit in the +right place. She asked her mother one night, if she didn't think +they might begin their beehive with a fire-fly? Why couldn't they +keep little Vash? + +"And then," said Diana, in her quiet way, slipping one of the big +three-cornered pieces of the puzzle in, "Damaris might go to Mrs. +Scarup for her two dollars a week. She is willing to work for that, +if she can get Vash taken. And this would be all the same, and +better." + +Desire was with them when Luclarion came in, and heard it settled. + +"How is it that things always fall right together for you, so? How +_came_ Damaris to come along?" + +"You just take hold of something and try," said Luclarion. "You'll +find there's always a working alongside. Put up your sails, and the +wind will fill 'em." + +Uncle Titus wanted to know "what sort of use a thing like that +could be in a house?" + +He asked it in his very surliest fashion. If they had had any +motives of fear or favor, they would have been disconcerted, and +begun to think they had made a mistake. + +But Hazel spoke up cheerily,-- + +"Why, to wait on people, uncle. She's the nicest little +fetch-and-carrier you ever saw!" + +"Humph! who wants to be waited on, here? You girls, with feet and +hands of your own? Your mother doesn't, I know." + +"Well, to wait _on_, then," says Hazel, boldly. "I'm making her a +baby-house, and teaching her to read; and Diana is knitting scarlet +stockings for her, to wear this winter. We like it." + +"O, if you like it! That's always a reason. I only want to have +people give the real one." + +And Uncle Titus walked off, so that nobody could tell whether _he_ +liked it or not. + +Nobody told him anything about the Scarups. But do you suppose he +didn't know? Uncle Titus Oldways was as sharp as he was blunt. + +"I guess I know, mother," said Hazel, a little while after this, one +day, "how people write stories." + +"Well?" asked her mother, looking up, ready to be amused with +Hazel's deep discovery. + +"If they can just begin with one thing, you see, that makes the next +one. It can't help it, hardly. Just as it does with us. What made me +think of it was, that it seemed to me there was another little piece +of our beehive story all ready to put on; and if we went and did +it,--I wonder if you wouldn't, mother? It fits exactly." + +"Let me see." + +"That little lame Sulie at Miss Craydocke's Home, that we like so +much. Nobody adopts her away, because she is lame; her legs are no +use at all, you know, and she just sits all curled up in that great +round chair that Mrs. Geoffrey gave her, and sews patchwork, and +makes paper dolls. And when she drops her scissors, or her thread, +somebody has to come and pick it up. She wants waiting on; she just +wants a little lightning-bug, like Vash, to run round for her all +the time. And we don't, you see; and we've got Vash! And Vash--likes +paper dolls." + +Hazel completed the circle of her argument with great triumph. + +"An extra piece of bread to finish your too much butter," said +Diana. + +"Yes. Doesn't it just make out?" said Hazel, abating not a jot of +her triumph, and taking things literally, as nobody could do better +than she, upon occasion, for all her fancy and intuition. + +"I wonder what Uncle Oldways would say to that," said Diana. + +"He'd say 'Faugh, faugh!' But he doesn't mean faugh, faugh, half the +time. If he does, he doesn't stick to it. Mother," she asked rather +suddenly, "do you think Uncle Oldways feels as if we oughtn't to +do--other things--with his money?" + +"What other things?" + +"Why, _these_ others. Vash, and Sulie, perhaps. Wouldn't he like it +if we turned his house into a Beehive?" + +"It isn't his house," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, "He has given it to me." + +"Well,--do you feel 'obligated,' as Luclarion says?' + +"In a certain degree,--yes. I feel bound to consider his comfort +and wishes, as far as regards his enjoyment with us, and fulfilling +what he reasonably looked for when he brought us here." + +"Would that interfere?" + +"Suppose you ask him, Hazel?" + +"Well, I could do that." + +"Hazel wouldn't mind doing anything!" said Diana, who, to tell the +truth was a little afraid of Uncle Titus, and who dreaded of all +things, being snubbed. + +"Only," said Hazel, to whom something else had just occurred, +"wouldn't he think--wouldn't it be--_your_ business?" + +"It is all your plan, Hazel. I think he would see that." + +"And you are willing, if he doesn't care?" + +"I did not quite say that. It would be a good deal to think of." + +"Then I'll wait till you've thought," said clear-headed little +Hazel. + +"But it fits right on. I can see that. And Miss Craydocke said +things would, after we had begun." + +Mrs. Ripwinkley took it into her thoughts, and carried it about with +her for days, and considered it; asking herself questions. + +Was it going aside in search of an undertaking that did not belong +to her? + +Was it bringing home a care, a responsibility, for which they were +not fitted,--which might interfere with the things they were meant, +and would be called, to do? + +There was room and opportunity, doubtless, for them to do something; +Mrs. Ripwinkley had felt this; she had not waited for her child to +think of it for her; she had only waited, in her new, strange +sphere, for circumstances to guide the way, and for the Giver of +all circumstance to guide her thought. She chose, also, in the +things that would affect her children's life and settle duties for +them, to let them grow also to those duties, and the perception of +them, with her. To this she led them, by all her training and +influence; and now that in Hazel, her child of quick insight and +true instincts, this influence was bearing fruit and quickening to +action, she respected her first impulses; she believed in them; they +had weight with her, as argument in themselves. These impulses, in +young, true souls, freshly responding, are, she knew, as the +proof-impressions of God's Spirit. + +Yet she would think; that was her duty; she would not do a thing +hastily, or unwisely. + +Sulie Praile had been a good while, now, at the Home. + +A terrible fall, years ago, had caused a long and painful illness, +and resulted in her present helplessness. But above those little +idle, powerless limbs, that lay curled under the long, soft skirt +she wore, like a baby's robe, were a beauty and a brightness, a +quickness of all possible motion, a dexterous use of hands, and a +face of gentle peace and sometimes glory, that were like a +benediction on the place that she was in; like the very Holy Ghost +in tender form like a dove, resting upon it, and abiding among them +who were there. + +In one way, it would hardly be so much a giving as a taking, to +receive her in. Yet there was care to assume, the continuance of +care to promise or imply; the possibility of conflicting plans in +much that might be right and desirable that Mrs. Ripwinkley should +do for her own. Exactly what, if anything, it would be right to +undertake in this, was matter for careful and anxious reflection. + +The resources of the Home were not very large; there were painful +cases pressing their claims continually, as fast as a little place +was vacated it could be filled; was wanted, ten times over; and +Sulie Praile had been there a good while. If somebody would only +take her, as people were very ready to take--away to happy, simple, +comfortable country homes, for mere childhood's sake--the round, +rosy, strong, and physically perfect ones! But Sulie must be lifted +and tended; she must keep somebody at home to look after her; no one +could be expected to adopt a child like that. + +Yet Hazel Ripwinkley thought they could be; thought, in her +straightforward, uncounting simplicity, that it was just the +natural, obvious, beautiful thing to do, to take her home--into a +real home--into pleasant family life; where things would not crowd; +where she could be mothered and sistered, as girls ought to be, when +there are so many nice places in the world, and not so many people +in them as there might be. When there could be so much visiting, and +spare rooms kept always in everybody's house, why should not +somebody who needed to, just come in and stay? What were the spare +places made for? + +"We might have Sulie for this winter," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, at +last. "They would let her come to us for that time; and it would be +a change for her, and leave a place for others. Then if anything +made it impossible for us to do more, we should not have raised an +expectation to be disappointed. And if we can and ought to do more, +it will be shown us by that time more certainly." + +She asked Miss Craydocke about it, when she came home from Z---- +that fall. She had been away a good deal lately; she had been up to +Z---- to two weddings,--Leslie Goldthwaite's and Barbara Holabird's. +Now she was back again, and settled down. + +Miss Craydocke thought it a good thing wisely limited. + +"Sulie needs to be with older girls; there is no one in the Home to +be companion to her; the children are almost all little. A winter +here would be a blessing to her!" + +"But the change again, if she should have to make it?" suggested +Mrs. Ripwinkley. + +"Good things don't turn to bad ones because you can't have them any +more. A thing you're not fit for, and never ought to have had, may; +but a real good stays by; it overflows all the rest. Sulie Praile's +life could never be so poor again, after a winter here with you, as +it might be if she had never had it. If you'd like her, let her +come, and don't be a bit afraid. We're only working by inches, any +of us; like the camel's-hair embroiderers in China. But it gets put +together; and it is beautiful, and large, and whole, somewhere." + +"Miss Craydocke always knows," said Hazel. + +Nobody said anything again, about Uncle Titus. A winter's plan need +not be referred to him. But Hazel, in her own mind, had resolved to +find out what was Uncle Titus's, generally and theoretically; how +free they were to be, beyond winter plans and visits of weeks; how +much scope they might have with this money and this house, that +seemed so ample to their simple wants, and what they might do with +it and turn it into, if it came into their heads or hearts or +consciences. + +So one day she went in and sat down by him in the study, after she +had accomplished some household errand with Rachel Froke. + +Other people approached him with more or less of strategy, afraid of +the tiger in him; Desire Ledwith faced him courageously; only Hazel +came and nestled up beside him, in his very cage, as if he were no +wild beast, after all. + +Yet he pretended to growl, even at her, sometimes; it was so funny +to see her look up and chirp on after it, like some little bird to +whom the language of beasts was no language at all, and passed by on +the air as a very big sound, but one that in no wise concerned it. + +"We've got Sulie Praile to spend the winter, Uncle Titus," she said. + +"Who's Sulie Praile?" + +"The lame girl, from the Home. We wanted somebody for Vash to wait +on, you know. She sits in a round chair, that twists, like yours; +and she's--just like a lily in a vase!" Hazel finished her sentence +with a simile quite unexpected to herself. + +There was something in Sulie's fair, pale, delicate face, and her +upper figure, rising with its own peculiar lithe, easily swayed +grace from among the gathered folds of the dress of her favorite +dark green color, that reminded--if one thought of it, and Hazel +turned the feeling of it into a thought at just this moment--of a +beautiful white flower, tenderly and commodiously planted. + +"Well, I suppose it's worth while to have a lame girl to sit up in a +round chair, and look like a lily in a vase, is it?" + +"Uncle Titus, I want to know what you think about some things." + +"That is just what I want to know myself, sometimes. To find out +what one thinks about things, is pretty much the whole finding, +isn't it?" + +"Don't be very metaphysical, please, Uncle Titus. Don't turn your +eyes round into the back of your head. That isn't what I mean." + +"What do you mean?" + +"Just plain looking." + +"O!" + +"Don't you think, when there are places, all nice and ready,--and +people that would like the places and haven't got 'em,--that the +people ought to be put into the places?" + +"'The shirtless backs put into the shirts?'" + +"Why, yes, of course. What are shirts made for?" + +"For some people to have thirty-six, and some not to have any," said +Mr. Oldways. + +"No," said Hazel. "Nobody wants thirty-six, all at once. But what I +mean is, rooms, and corners, and pleasant windows, and seats at the +table; places where people come in visiting, and that are kept saved +up. I can't bear an empty box; that is, only for just one pleasant +minute, while I'm thinking what I can put into it." + +"Where's your empty box, now?" + +"Our house _was_ rather empty-boxy. Uncle Titus, do you mind how we +fill it up,--because you gave it to us, you know?" + +"No. So long as you don't crowd yourselves out." + +"Or you, Uncle Titus. We don't want to crowd you out. Does it crowd +you any to have Sulie and Vash there, and to have us 'took up' with +them, as Luclarion says?" + +How straight Witch Hazel went to her point! + +"Your catechism crowds me just a little, child," said Uncle Titus. +"I want to see you go your own way. That is what I gave you the +house for. Your mother knows that. Did she send you here to ask me?" + +"No. I wanted to know. It was I that wanted to begin a kind of a +Beehive--like Miss Craydocke's. Would you care if it was turned +quite into a Beehive, finally?" + +Hazel evidently meant to settle the furthest peradventure, now she +had begun. + +"Ask your mother to show you the deed. 'To Frances Ripwinkley, her +heirs and assigns,'--that's you and Diana,--'for their use and +behoof, forever.' I've no more to do with it." + +"'Use, and behoof,'" said Hazel, slowly. And then she turned the +leaves of the great Worcester that lay upon the study table, and +found "Behoof." + +"'Profit,--gain,--benefit;' then that's what you meant; that we +should make as much more of it as we could. That's what I think, +Uncle Titus. I'm glad you put 'behoof in." + +"They always put it in, child!" + +"Do they? Well, then, they don't always work it out!" and Hazel +laughed. + +At that, Mr. Oldways pulled off his spectacles, looked sharp at +Hazel with two sharp, brown eyes,--set near together, Hazel noticed +for the first time, like Desire's,--let the keenness turn gradually +into a twinkle, suffered the muscles that had held his lips so grim +to relax, and laughed too; his peculiar, up-and-down shake of a +laugh, in which head and shoulders made the motions, as if he were a +bottle, and there were a joke inside of him which was to be well +mixed up to be thoroughly enjoyed. + +"Go home to your mother, jade-hopper!" he said, when he had done; +"and tell her I'm coming round to-night, to tea, amongst your +bumble-bees and your lilies!" + + + + +XV. + +WITH ALL ONE'S MIGHT. + + +Let the grapes be ever so sweet, and hang in plenty ever so low, +there is always a fair bunch out of reach. + +Mrs. Ledwith longed, now, to go to Europe. + +At any rate, she was eager to have her daughters go. But, after just +one year, to take what her Uncle Oldways had given her, in return +for her settling herself near him, and _un_settle herself, and go +off to the other side of the world! Besides, what he had given her +would not do it. That was the rub, after all. What was two thousand +a year, now-a-days? Nothing is anything, now-a-days. And it takes +everything to do almost nothing. + +The Ledwiths were just as much pinched now as they were before they +ever heard from Uncle Oldways. People with unlimited powers of +expansion always are pinched; it is good for them; one of the saving +laws of nature that keeps things decently together. + +Yet, in the pink room of a morning, and in the mellow-tinted +drawing-room of an evening, it was getting to be the subject +oftenest discussed. It was that to which they directed the combined +magnetism of the family will; everything was brought to bear upon it; +Bridget's going away on Monday morning, leaving the clothes in the +tubs, the strike-price of coal, and the overcharge of the grocer; +Florence's music, Helena's hopeless distress over French and German; +even Desire's listlessness and fidgets; most of all Mrs. Megilp's +plans, which were ripening towards this long coveted end. She and +Glossy really thought they should go this winter. + +"It is a matter of economy now; everybody's going. The Fargo's and +the Fayerwerses, and the Hitherinyons have broken all up, and are +going out to stay indefinitely. The Fayerwerses have been saving up +these four years to get away, there are so many of them, you know; +the passage money counts, and the first travelling; but after you +_are_ over, and have found a place to settle down in,"--then +followed all the usual assertions as to cheap delights and +inestimable advantages, and emancipation from all American household +ills and miseries. + +Uncle Oldways came up once in a while to the house in Shubarton +Place, and made an evening call. He seemed to take apricot-color for +granted, when he got there, as much as he did the plain, old, +unrelieved brown at Mrs. Ripwinkley's; he sat quite unconcernedly in +the grand easy chair that Laura wheeled out for him; indeed, it +seemed as if he really, after a manner, indorsed everything by his +acceptance without demur of what he found. But then one must sit +down on something; and if one is offered a cup of coffee, or +anything on a plate, one cannot easily protest against sea-green +china. We do, and we have, and we wear, and we say, a great +many things, and feel ourselves countenanced and confirmed, +somehow,--perhaps excused,--because nobody appears surprised or says +anything. But what should they say; and would it be at all proper +that they should be surprised? If we only thought of it, and once +tried it, we might perhaps find it quite as easy and encouraging, on +the same principle, _not_ to have apricot rep and sea-green china. + +One night Mr. Oldways was with them when the talk turned eastwardly +over the water. There were new names in the paper, of people who +had gone out in the _Aleppo_, and a list of Americans registered at +Bowles Brothers,' among whom were old acquaintance. + +"I declare, how they all keep turning up there" said Mrs. Ledwith. + +"The war doesn't seem to make much difference," said her husband. + +"To think how lucky the Vonderbargens were, to be in Paris just at +the edge of the siege!" said Glossy Megilp. "They came back from +Como just in time; and poor Mr. Washburne had to fairly hustle them +off at last. They were buying silks, and ribbons, and gloves, up to +the last minute, for absolutely nothing. Mrs. Vonderbargen said it +seemed a sin to come away and leave anything. I'm sure I don't know +how they got them all home; but they did." + +Glossy had been staying lately with the Vonderbargens in New York. +She stayed everywhere, and picked up everything. + +"You have been abroad, Mrs. Scherman?" said Mrs. Ledwith, +inquiringly, to Asenath, who happened to be calling, also, with her +husband, and was looking at some photographs with Desire. + +"No, ma'am," answered Mrs. Scherman, very promptly, not having +spoken at all before in the discussion. "I do not think I wish to +go. The syphon has been working too long." + +"The Syphon?" + +Mrs. Ledwith spoke with a capital S in her mind; but was not quite +sure whether what Mrs. Scherman meant might be a line of Atlantic +steamers or the sea-serpent. + +"Yes, ma'am. The emptying back and forth. There isn't much that is +foreign over there, now, nor very much that is native here. The +hemispheres have got miserably mixed up. I think when I go 'strange +countries for to see,' it will have to be Patagonia or Independent +Tartary." + +Uncle Oldways turned round with his great chair, so as to face +Asenath, and laughed one of his thorough fun digesting laughs, his +keen eyes half shut with the enjoyment, and sparkling out through +their cracks at her. + +But Asenath had resumed her photographs with the sweetest and +quietest unconsciousness. + +Mrs. Ledwith let her alone after that; and the talk rambled on to +the schools in Munich, and the Miracle Plays at Oberammergau. + +"To think of _that_ invasion!" said Asenath, in a low tone to +Desire, "and corrupting _that_ into a show, with a run of regular +performances! I do believe they have pulled down the last unprofaned +thing now, and trampled over it." + +"If we go," said Mrs. Megilp, "we shall join the Fayerwerses, and +settle down with them quietly in some nice place; and then make +excursions. We shall not try to do all Europe in three months; we +shall choose, and take time. It is the only way really to enjoy or +acquire; and the quiet times are so invaluable for the lessons and +languages." + +Mrs. Megilp made up her little varnishes with the genuine gums of +truth and wisdom; she put a beautiful shine even on to her limited +opportunities and her enforced frugalities. + +"Mrs. Ledwith, you _ought_ to let Agatha and Florence go too. I +would take every care of them; and the expense would be so +divided--carriages, and couriers, and everything--that it would be +hardly anything." + +"It is a great opportunity," Mrs. Ledwith said, and sighed. "But it +is different with us from what it is with you. We must still be a +family here, with nearly the same expenses. To be sure Desire has +done with school, and she doesn't care for gay society, and Helena +is a mere child yet; if it ever could"-- + +And so it went on between the ladies, while Mr. Oldways and Mr. +Ledwith and Frank Scherman got into war talk, and Bismarck policy, +and French poss--no, _im_-possibilities. + +"I don't think Uncle Oldways minded much," said Mrs. Ledwith to +Agatha, and Mrs. Megilp, up-stairs, after everybody had gone who was +to go. + +"He never minds anything," said Agatha. + +"I don't know," said Mrs. Megilp, slowly. "He seemed mightily +pleased with what Asenath Scherman said." + +"O, she's pretty, and funny; it makes no difference what she says; +people are always pleased." + +"We might dismiss one girl this winter," said Mrs. Ledwith, "and +board in some cheap country place next summer. I dare say we could +save it in the year's round; the difference, I mean. When you +weren't actually travelling, it wouldn't cost more than to have you +here,--dress and all. + +"They wouldn't need to have a new thing," said Glossy. + +"Those people out at Z---- want to buy the house. I've a great mind +to coax Grant to sell, and take a slice right out, and send them," +said Mrs. Ledwith, eagerly. She was always eager to accomplish the +next new thing for her children; and, to say the truth, did not much +consider herself. And so far as they had ever been able, the +Ledwiths had always been rather easily given to "taking the slice +right out." + +The Megilps had had a little legacy of two or three thousand +dollars, and were quite in earnest in their plans, this time, which +had been talk with them for many years. + +"Those poor Fayerwerses!" said Asenath to her husband, walking home. +"Going out now, after the cheap European living of a dozen years +ago! The ghost always goes over on the last load. I wonder at Mrs. +Megilp. She generally knows better." + +"She'll do," said Frank Scherman. "If the Fayerwerses stick +anywhere, as they probably will, she'll hitch on to the Fargo's, and +turn up at Jerusalem. And then there are to be the Ledwiths, and +their 'little slice.'" + +"O, dear! what a mess people do make of living!" said Asenath. + +Uncle Titus trudged along down Dorset Street with his stick under +his arm. + +"Try 'em! Find 'em out!" he repeated to himself. "That's what +Marmaduke said. Try 'em with this,--try 'em with that; a good deal, +or a little; having and losing, and wanting. That's what the Lord +does with us all; and I begin to see He has a job of it!" + +The house was sold, and Agatha and Florence went. + +It made home dull for poor Desire, little as she found of real +companionship with her elder sisters. But then she was always +looking for it, and that was something. Husbands and wives, parents +and children, live on upon that, through years of repeated +disappointments, and never give up the expectation of that which is +somewhere, and which these relations represent to them, through all +their frustrated lives. + +That is just why. It _is_ somewhere. + +It turned out a hard winter, in many ways, for Desire Ledwith. She +hated gay company, and the quiet little circle that she had become +fond of at her Aunt Ripwinkley's was broken somewhat to them all, +and more to Desire than, among what had grown to be her chronic +discontents, she realized or understood, by the going away for a +time of Kenneth Kincaid. + +What was curious in the happening, too, he had gone up to "And" to +build a church. That had come about through the Marchbankses' +knowledge of him, and this, you remember, through their being with +the Geoffreys when the Kincaids were first introduced in Summit +Street. + +The Marchbankses and the Geoffreys were cousins. A good many Boston +families are. + +Mr. Roger Marchbanks owned a good deal of property in And. The +neighborhood wanted a church; and he interested himself actively and +liberally in behalf of it, and gave the land,--three lots right out +of the middle of Marchbanks Street, that ran down to the river. + +Dorris kept her little room, and was neighborly as heretofore; but +she was busy with her music, and had little time but her evenings; +and now there was nobody to walk home with Desire to Shubarton +Place, if she stayed in Aspen Street to tea. She came sometimes, and +stayed all night; but that was dreary for Helena, who never +remembered to shut the piano or cover up the canary, or give the +plants in the bay window their evening sprinkle, after the furnace +heat had been drying them all day. + +Kenneth Kincaid came down for his Sundays with Dorris, and his work +at the Mission; a few times he called in at Uncle Oldways' after +tea, when the family was all together; but they saw him very seldom; +he gave those Sunday evenings mostly to needed rest, and to quiet +talk with Dorris. + +Desire might have gone to the Mission this winter, easily enough, +after all. Agatha and Florence and Glossy Megilp were not by to make +wondering eyes, or smile significant smiles; but there was something +in herself that prevented; she knew that it would be more than half +to _get_, and she still thought she had so little to give! Besides, +Kenneth Kincaid had never asked her again, and she could not go to +him and say she would come. + +Desire Ledwith began to have serious question of what life was ever +going to be for her. She imagined, as in our early years and our +first gray days we are all apt to imagine, that she had found out a +good deal that it was _not_ going to be. + +She was not going to be beautiful, or accomplished, or even, she was +afraid, agreeable; she found that such hard work with most people. +She was not ever--and that conclusion rested closely upon these +foregoing--to be married, and have a nice husband and a pretty +house, and go down stairs and make snow-puddings and ginger-snaps of +a morning, and have girls staying with her, and pleasant people in +to tea; like Asenath Scherman. She couldn't write a book,--that, +perhaps, was one of her premature decisions, since nobody knows till +they try, and the books are lying all round, in leaves, waiting only +to be picked up and put together,--or paint a picture; she couldn't +bear parties, and clothes were a fuss, and she didn't care to go to +Europe. + +She thought she should rather like to be an old maid, if she could +begin right off, and have a little cottage out of town somewhere, or +some cosy rooms in the city. At least, she supposed that was what +she had got to be, and if that were settled, she did not see why it +might not be begun young, as well as married life. She could not +endure waiting, when a thing was to be done. + +"Aunt Frances," she said one day, "I wish I had a place of my own. +What is the reason I can't? A girl can go in for Art, and set up a +studio; or she can go to Rome, and sculp, and study; she can learn +elocution, and read, whether people want to be read to or not; and +all that is Progress and Woman's Rights; why can't she set up a +_home_?" + +"Because, I suppose, a house is not a home; and the beginning of a +home is just what she waits for. Meanwhile, if she has a father and +a mother, she would not put a slight on _their_ home, or fail of her +share of the duty in it." + +"But nobody would think I failed in my duty if I were going to be +married. I'm sure mamma would think I was doing it beautifully. And +I never shall be married. Why can't I live something out for myself, +and have a place of my own? I have got money enough to pay my rent, +and I could do sewing in a genteel way, or keep a school for little +children. I'd rather--take in back stairs to wash," she exclaimed +vehemently, "than wait round for things, and be nothing! And I +should like to begin young, while there might be some sort of fun in +it. You'd like to come and take tea with me, wouldn't you, Aunt +Frank?" + +"If it were all right that you should have separate teas of your +own." + +"And if I had waffles. Well, I should. I think, just now, there's +nothing I should like so much as a little kitchen of my own, and a +pie-board, and a biscuit-cutter, and a beautiful baking oven, and a +Japan tea-pot." + +"The pretty part. But brooms, and pails, and wash-tubs, and the back +stairs?" + +"I specified back stairs in the first place, of my own accord. I +wouldn't shirk. Sometimes I think that real good old-fashioned hard +work is what I do want. I should like to find the right, honest +thing, and do it, Aunt Frank." + +She said it earnestly, and there were tears in her eyes. + +"I believe you would," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "But perhaps the right, +honest thing, just now, is to wait patiently, with all your might." + +"Now, that's good," said Desire, "and cute of you, too, that last +piece of a sentence. If you had stopped at '_patiently_,' as people +generally do! That's what exasperates; when you want to do something +with all your might. It almost seems as if I could, when you put it +so." + +"It is a 'stump,' Luclarion would say." + +"Luclarion is a saint and a philosopher. I feel better," said +Desire. + +She stayed feeling better all that afternoon; she helped Sulie +Praile cut out little panels from her thick sheet of gray +painting-board, and contrived her a small easel with her round +lightstand and a book-rest; for Sulie was advancing in the fine +arts, from painting dollies' paper faces in cheap water colors, to +copying bits of flowers and fern and moss, with oils, on gray board; +and she was doing it very well, and with exquisite delight. + +To wait, meant something to wait for; something coming by and by; +that was what comforted Desire to-day, as she walked home alone in +the sharp, short, winter twilight; that, and the being patient with +all one's might. To be patient, is to be also strong; this she saw, +newly; and Desire coveted, most of all, to be strong. + +Something to wait for. "He does not cheat," said Desire, low down in +her heart, to herself. For the child had faith, though she could not +talk about it. + +Something; but very likely not the thing you have seen, or dreamed +of; something quite different, it may be, when it comes; and it may +come by the way of losing, first, all that you have been able yet, +with a vague, whispering hope, to imagine. + +The things we do not know! The things that are happening,--the +things that are coming; rising up in the eastward of our lives below +the horizon that we can yet see; it may be a star, it may be a +cloud! + +Desire Ledwith could not see that out at Westover, this cheery +winter night, it was one of dear Miss Pennington's "Next Thursdays;" +she could not see that the young architect, living away over there +in the hundred-year-old house on the side of East Hill, a boarder +with old Miss Arabel Waite, had been found, and appreciated, and +drawn into their circle by the Haddens and the Penningtons and the +Holabirds and the Inglesides; and that Rosamond was showing him the +pleasant things in their Westover life,--her "swan's nest among the +reeds," that she had told him of,--that early autumn evening, when +they had walked up Hanley Street together. + + + + +XVI. + +SWARMING. + + +Spring came on early, with heavy rains and freshets in many parts of +the country. + +It was a busy time at Z----. + +Two things had happened there that were to give Kenneth Kincaid more +work, and would keep him where he was all summer. + +Just before he went to Z----, there had been a great fire at West +Hill. All Mr. Roger Marchbanks's beautiful place was desolate. +House, conservatories, stables, lovely little vine-covered rustic +buildings, exquisitely tended shrubbery,--all swept over in one +night by the red flames, and left lying in blackness and ashes. + +For the winter, Mr. Marchbanks had taken his family to Boston; now +he was planning eagerly to rebuild. Kenneth had made sketches; Mr. +Marchbanks liked his ideas; they had talked together from time to +time. Now, the work was actually in hand, and Kenneth was busy with +drawings and specifications. + +Down at the river, during the spring floods, a piece of the bridge +had been carried away, and the dam was broken through. There were +new mill buildings, too, going up, and a block of factory houses. +All this business, through Mr. Marchbanks directly or indirectly, +fell also into Kenneth's hands. + +He wrote blithe letters to Dorris; and Dorris, running in and out +from her little spring cleanings that Hazel was helping her with, +told all the letters over to the Ripwinkleys. + +"He says I must come up there in my summer vacation and board with +his dear old Miss Waite. Think of Kentie's being able to give me +such a treat as that! A lane, with ferns and birches, and the +woods,--_pine_ woods!--and a hill where raspberries grow, and the +river!" + +Mrs. Ledwith was thinking of her summer plans at this time, also. +She remembered the large four-windowed room looking out over the +meadow, that Mrs. Megilp and Glossy had at Mrs. Prendible's, for +twelve dollars a week, in And. She could do no better than that, at +country boarding, anywhere; and Mr. Ledwith could sleep at the house +in Shubarton Place, getting his meals down town during the week, and +come up and spend his Sundays with them. A bedroom, in addition, for +six dollars more, would be all they would want. + +The Ripwinkleys were going up to Homesworth by and by for a little +while, and would take Sulie Praile with them. Sulie was ecstatically +happy. She had never been out of the city in all her life. She felt, +she said, "as if she was going to heaven without dying." Vash was to +be left at Mrs. Scarup's with her sister. + +Miss Craydocke would be away at the mountains; all the little life +that had gathered together in the Aspen Street neighborhood, seemed +about to be broken up. + +Uncle Titus Oldways never went out of town, unless on business. +Rachel Froke stayed, and kept his house; she sat in the gray room, +and thought over the summers she had had. + +"Thee never loses anything out of thy life that has been in," she +said. "Summer times are like grains of musk; they keep their smell +always, and flavor the shut-up places they are put away in." + +For you and me, reader, we are to go to Z---- again. I hope you like +it. + +But before that, I must tell you what Luclarion Grapp has done. + +Partly from the principle of her life, and partly from the spirit of +things which she would have caught at any rate, from the Ripwinkley +home and the Craydocke "Beehive,"--for there is nothing truer than +that the kingdom of heaven is like leaven,--I suppose she had been +secretly thinking for a good while, that she was having too easy a +time here, in her first floor kitchen and her garden bedroom; that +this was not the life meant for her to live right on, without +scruple or question; and so began in her own mind to expect some +sort of "stump;" and even to look about for it. + +"It isn't as it was when Mrs. Ripwinkley was a widow, and +poor,--that is, comparative; and it took all her and my contrivance +to look after the place and keep things going, and paying, up in +Homesworth; there was something to buckle to, then; but now, +everything is eased and flatted out, as it were; it makes me +res'less, like a child put to bed in the daytime." + +Luclarion went down to the North End with Miss Craydocke, on errands +of mercy; she went in to the new Mission, and saw the heavenly +beauty of its intent, and kindled up in her soul at it; and she came +home, time after time, and had thoughts of her own about these +things, and the work in the world there was to do. + +She had cleaned up and set things going at Mrs. Scarup's; she +learned something in doing that, beyond what she knew when she set +about it; her thoughts began to shape themselves to a theory; and +the theory took to itself a text and a confirmation and a command. + +"Go down and be a neighbor to them that have fallen among thieves." + +Luclarion came to a resolution in this time of May, when everybody +was making plans and the spring-cleaning was all done. + +She came to Mrs. Ripwinkley one morning, when she was folding away +winter clothes, and pinning them up in newspapers, with camphor-gum; +and she said to her, without a bit of preface,--Luclarion hated +prefaces,-- + +"Mrs. Ripwinkley, I'm going to swarm!" + +Mrs. Ripwinkley looked up in utter surprise; what else could she do? + +"Of course 'm, when you set up a Beehive, you must have expected it; +it's the natural way of things; they ain't good for much unless they +do. I've thought it all over; I'll stay and see you all off, first, +if you want me to, and then--I'll swarm." + +"Well," said Mrs. Ripwinkley, assenting in full faith, beforehand; +for Mrs. Ripwinkley, if I need now to tell you of it, was not an +ordinary woman, and did not take things in an ordinary selfish way, +but grasped right hold of the inward right and truth of them, and +believed in it; sometimes before she could quite see it; and she +never had any doubt of Luclarion Grapp. "Well! And now tell me all +about it." + +"You see," said Luclarion, sitting down in a chair by the window, as +Mrs. Ripwinkley suspended her occupation and took one by the +bedside, "there's places in this town that folks leave and give up. +As the Lord might have left and give up the world, because there was +dirt and wickedness in it; only He didn't. There's places where it +ain't genteel, nor yet respectable, to live; and so those places +grow more disrespectable and miserable every day. They're left to +themselves. What I think is, they hadn't ought to be. There's one +clean spot down there now, in the very middle of the worst dirt. +And it ain't bad to live in. _That's_ started. Now, what I think is, +that somebody ought to start another, even if its only a little one. +Somebody ought to just go there and _live_, and show 'em how, just +as I took and showed Mrs. Scarup, and she's been living ever since, +instead of scratching along. If some of them folks had a clean, +decent neighbor to go to see,--to drink tea with, say,--and was to +catch an idea of her fixings and doings, why, I believe there'd be +more of 'em,--cleaned up, you know. They'd get some kind of an +ambition and a hope. Tain't enough for ladies--though I bless 'em in +my soul for what I've seen 'em do--to come down there of a Fridays, +and teach and talk awhile, and then go home to Summit Street and +Republic Avenue, and take up _their_ life again where they left it +off, that is just as different as heaven is from 'tother place; +somebody's got to come right down _out_ of heaven, and bring the +life in, and live it amongst them miserable folks, as the Lord Jesus +Christ came and did! And it's borne in upon me, strong and clear, +that that's what's got to be before all's righted. And so--for a +little piece of it, and a little individual stump--I'm going to +swarm, and settle, and see what'll come." + +Mrs. Ripwinkley was looking very intently at Luclarion. Her breath +went and came hurriedly, and her face turned pale with the grand +surprise of such a thought, such a plan and purpose, so simply and +suddenly declared. Her eyes were large and moist with feeling. + +"Do you _know_, Luclarion," she exclaimed at last, "do you realize +what this is that you are thinking of; what a step it would be to +take,--what a work it would be to even hope to begin to do? Do you +know how strange it is,--how almost impracticable,--that it is not +even safe?" + +"'Twasn't _safe_ for Him--when He came into the world," Luclarion +answered. + +"Not to say I think there's any comparison," she began again, +presently, "or that I believe there's anything to be really scared +of,--except dirt; and you _can_ clean a place round you, as them +Mission people have done. Why, there ain't a house in Boston nicer, +or sweeter, or airier even, than that one down in Arctic Street, +with beautiful parlors and bedrooms, and great clean galleries +leading round, and skylighted,--_sky_ lighted! for you see the blue +heaven is above all, and you _can_ let the skylight in, without any +corruption coming in with it; and if twenty people can do that much, +or a hundred,--one can do something. 'Taint much, either, to +undertake; only to be willing to go there, and make a clean place +for yourself, and a home; and live there, instead of somewheres else +that's ready made; and let it spread. And you know I've always +looked forrud to some kind of a house-keep of my own, finally." + +"But, Luclarion, I don't understand! All alone? And you couldn't use +a whole house, you know. Your neighbors would be _inmates_. Why, it +seems to me perfectly crazy!" + +"Now, ma'am, did you ever know me to go off on a tangent, without +some sort of a string to hold on to? I ain't goin' to swarm all +alone! I never heard of such a thing. Though if I couldn't _swarm_, +and the thing was to be done, I say I'd try it. But Savira Golding +is going to be married to Sam Gallilee, next month; and he's a +stevedore, and his work is down round the wharves; he's class-leader +in our church, and a first-rate, right-minded man, or else Savira +wouldn't have him; for if Savira ain't a clear Christian, and a +doing woman, there ain't one this side of Paradise. Now, you see, +Sam Gallilee makes money; he runs a gang of three hundred men. He +can afford a good house, and a whole one, if he wants; but he's +going in for a big one, and neighbors. They mean to live nice,--he +and Savira; and she has pretty, tasty ways; there'll be white +curtains, and plants blooming in her windows, you may make sure; +she's always had 'em in that little up-stairs dress-making room of +hers; and boxes of mignonette and petunias on the ledges; and birds +singing in a great summer cage swung out against the wall. She's one +of the kind that reaches out, and can't be kept in; and she knows +her gifts, and is willing to go and let her light shine where it +will help others, and so glorify; and Sam, he's willing too, and +sees the beauty of it. And so,--well, that's the swarm." + +"And the 'little round Godamighty in the middle of it,'" said Mrs. +Ripwinkley, her face all bright and her eyes full of tears. + +"_Ma'am_!" + +Then Mrs. Ripwinkley told her Miss Craydocke's story. + +"Well," said Luclarion, "there's something dear and +right-to-the-spot about it; but it does sound singular; and it +certainly ain't a thing to say careless." + + * * * * * + +Desire Ledwith grew bright and excited as the summer came on, and +the time drew near for going to Z----. She could not help being +glad; she did not stop to ask why; summer-time was reason enough, +and after the weariness of the winter, the thought of Z---- and the +woods and the river, and sweet evenings and mornings, and gardens +and orchards, and road-side grass, was lovely to her. + +"It is so pleasant up there!" she would keep saying to Dorris; and +somehow she said it to Dorris oftener than to anybody else. + +There was something fitful and impetuous in her little outbursts of +satisfaction; they noticed it in her; the elder ones among them +noticed it with a touch of anxiety for her. + +Miss Craydocke, especially, read the signs, matching them with +something that she remembered far back in the life that had closed +so peacefully, with white hairs and years of a serene content and +patience, over all unrest and disappointment, for herself. She was +sorry for this young girl, for whom she thought she saw an +unfulfilled dream of living that should go by her like some bright +cloud, just near enough to turn into a baptism of tears. + +She asked Desire, one day, if she would not like to go with her, +this summer, to the mountains. + +Desire put by the suggestion hastily. + +"O, no, thank you, Miss Craydocke, I must stay with mamma and +Helena. And besides," she added, with the strict, full truth she +always demanded of herself, "I _want_ to go to Z----." + +"Yes," said Miss Craydocke. + +There was something tender, like a shade of pity, in her tone. + +"But you would enjoy the mountains. They are full of strength and +rest. One hardly understands the good the hills do one. David did, +looking out into them from Jerusalem. 'I will look to the hills, +from whence cometh my strength.'" + +"Some time," said Desire. "Some time I shall need the hills, and--be +ready for them. But this summer--I want a good, gay, young time. I +don't know why, except that I shall be just eighteen this year, and +it seems as if, after that, I was going to be old. And I want to be +with people I know. I _can_ be gay in the country; there is +something to be gay about. But I can't dress and dance in the city. +That is all gas-light and get-up." + +"I suppose," said Miss Craydocke, slowly, "that our faces are all +set in the way we are to go. Even if it is--" She stopped. She was +thinking of one whose face had been set to go to Jerusalem. Her own +words had led her to something she had not foreseen when she began. + +Nothing of such suggestion came to Desire. She was in one of her +rare moods of good cheer. + +"I suppose so," she said, heedlessly. And then, taking up a thought +of her own suddenly,--"Miss Craydocke! Don't you think people almost +always live out their names? There's Sin Scherman; there'll always +be a little bit of mischief and original naughtiness in her,--with +the harm taken out of it; and there's Rosamond Holabird,--they +couldn't have called her anything better, if they'd waited for her +to grow up; and Barb _was_ sharp; and our little Hazel is witchy and +sweet and wild-woodsy; and Luclarion,--isn't that shiny and +trumpety, and doesn't she do it? And then--there's me. I shall +always be stiff and hard and unsatisfied, except in little bits of +summer times that won't come often. They might as well have +christened me Anxiety. I wonder why they didn't." + +"That would have been very different. There is a nobleness in +Desire. You will overlive the restless part," said Miss Craydocke. + +"Was there ever anything restless in your life, Miss Craydocke? And +how long did it take to overlive it? It doesn't seem as if you had +ever stubbed your foot against anything; and I'm _always_ stubbing." + +"My dear, I have stubbed along through fifty-six years; and the +years had all three hundred and sixty-five days in them. There were +chances,--don't you think so?" + +"It looks easy to be old after it is done," said Desire. "Easy and +comfortable. But to be eighteen, and to think of having to go on to +be fifty-six; I beg your pardon,--but I wish it was over!" + +And she drew a deep breath, heavy with the days that were to be. + +"You are not to take it all at once, you know," said Miss Craydocke. + +"But I do, every now and then. I can't help it. I am sure it is the +name. If they had called me 'Hapsie,' like you, I should have gone +along jolly, as you do, and not minded. You see you have to _hear_ +it all the time; and it tunes you up to its own key. You can't feel +like a Dolly, or a Daisy, when everybody says--De-sire!" + +"I don't know how I came to be called 'Hapsie,'" said Miss +Craydocke. "Somebody who liked me took it up, and it seemed to get +fitted on. But that wasn't when I was young." + +"What was it, then?" asked Desire, with a movement of interest. + +"Keren-happuch," said Miss Craydocke, meekly. "My father named me, +and he always called me so,--the whole of it. He was a severe, +Old-Testament man, and _his_ name was Job." + +Desire was more than half right, after all. There was a good deal of +Miss Craydocke's story hinted in those few words and those two +ancient names. + +"But I turned into 'Miss Craydocke' pretty soon, and settled down. I +suppose it was very natural that I should," said the sweet old maid, +serenely. + + + + +XVII. + +QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS. + + +The evening train came in through the little bend in the edge of the +woods, and across the bridge over the pretty rapids, and slid to its +stopping-place under the high arches of the other bridge that +connected the main street of Z---- with its continuation through +"And." + +There were lights twinkling in the shops, where they were making +change, and weighing out tea and sugar, and measuring calico, +although outside it was not yet quite dark. + +The train was half an hour late; there had been a stoppage at some +draw or crossing near the city. + +Mr. Prendible was there, to see if his lodgers were come, and to get +his evening paper; the platform was full of people. Old Z---- +acquaintances, many of them, whom Desire and her mother were +pleased, and Helena excited to see. + +"There's Kenneth Kincaid!" she exclaimed, quite loudly, pulling +Desire's sleeve. + +"Hush!" said Desire, twitching away. "How can you, Helena?" + +"He's coming,--he heard me!" cried Helena, utterly impenitent. + +"I should think he might!" And Desire walked off a little, to look +among the trunks that were being tumbled from the baggage car. + +She had seen him all the time; he had been speaking to Ruth +Holabird, and helping her up the steps with her parcels. Mr. +Holabird was there with the little Westover carryall that they kept +now; and Kenneth put her in, and then turned round in time to hear +Helena's exclamation and to come down again. + +"Can I help you? I'm very glad you are come," he said, cordially. + +Well; he might have said it to anybody. Again, well; it was enough +to say to anybody. Why should Desire feel cross? + +He took Helena's bag; she had a budget beside; Mr. Prendible +relieved Mrs. Ledwith; Desire held on valiantly to her own things. +Kenneth walked over the bridge with them, and down the street to Mr. +Prendible's door; there he bade them good-by and left them. + +It was nice to be in Z----; it was very sweet here under the +blossoming elms and locusts; it was nice to see Kenneth Kincaid +again, and to think that Dorris was coming by and by, and that the +lanes were green and full of ferns and vines, and that there was to +be a whole long summer; but there were so many people down there on +the platform,--there was such a muss always; Ruth Holabird was a +dear little thing, but there were always so many Ruths about! and +there was only one cross, stiff, odd, uncomfortable Desire! + +But the very next night Kenneth came down and stayed an hour; there +was a new moon glistening through the delicate elm-tips, and they +sat out on the piazza and breathed in such an air as they had not +had in their nostrils for months and months. + +The faint, tender light from the golden west in which the new moon +lay, showed the roof and tower of the little church, Kenneth's first +beautiful work; and Kenneth told them how pleasant it was up at Miss +Arabel's, and of the tame squirrels that he fed at his window, and +of the shady pasture-path that led away over the brook from the +very door, and up among pines and into little still nooks where dry +mossy turf and warm gray rocks were sheltered in by scraggy cedars +and lisping birches, so that they were like field-parlors opening in +and out from each other with all sorts of little winding and +climbing passages, between clumps of bayberry bushes and tall ferns; +and that the girls from Z---- and Westover made morning picnics +there, since Lucilla Waters had grown intimate with Delia Waite and +found it out; and that Delia Waite and even Miss Arabel carried +their dressmaking down there sometimes in a big white basket, and +stayed all day under the trees. They had never used to do this; they +had stayed in the old back sitting room with all the litter round, +and never thought of it till those girls had come and showed them +how. + +"I think there is the best and sweetest neighborliness and most +beautiful living here in Z----, that I ever knew in any place," said +Kenneth Kincaid; "except that little piece of the same thing in +Aspen Street." + +Kenneth had found out how Rosamond Holabird recognized Aspen Street +as a piece of her world. + +Desire hated, as he spoke, her spitefulness last night; what she had +said to herself of "so many Ruths;" why could not she not be pleased +to come into this beautiful living and make a little part of it? + +She was pleased; she would be; she found it very easy when Kenneth +said to her in that frank intimate way,--"I wish you and your mother +would come over and see what Dorris will want, and help me a little +about that room of hers. I told Miss Waite not to bother; just to +let the old things stand,--I knew Dorris would like them,--and +anything else I would get for her myself. I mean Dolly shall take a +long vacation this year; from June right through to September; and +its 'no end of jolly,' as those English fellows say, that you have +come too!" + +Kenneth Kincaid was fresher and pleasanter and younger himself, than +Desire had ever seen him before; he seemed to have forgotten that +hard way of looking at the world; he had found something so +undeniably good in it. I am afraid Desire had rather liked him for +his carping, which was what he least of all deserved to be liked +for. It showed how high and pure his demands were; but his praise +and admissions were better; it is always better to discern good than +to fret at the evil. + +"I shall see you every day," he said, when he shook hands at +parting; "and Helena, if you want a squirrel to keep in your pocket +next winter, I'll begin training one for you at once." + +He had taken them right to himself, as if they belonged to him; he +spoke as if he were very glad that he should see them every day. + +Desire whistled over her unpacking; she could not sing, but she +could whistle like a blackbird. When her father came up on Saturday +night, he said that her eyes were brighter and her cheeks were +rounder, for the country air; she would take to growing pretty +instead of strong-minded, if she didn't look out. + +Kenneth came round on Monday, after tea, to ask them to go over to +Miss Waite's and make acquaintance. + +"For you see," he said, "you will have to be very intimate there, +and it is time to begin. It will take one call to be introduced, and +another, at least, to get up-stairs and see that beautiful breezy +old room that can't be lived in in winter, but is to be a delicious +sort of camping-out for Dolly, all summer. It is all windows and +squirrel-holes and doors that won't shut. Everything comes in but +the rain; but the roof is tight on that corner. Even the woodbine +has got tossed in through a broken upper pane, and I wouldn't have +it mended on any account. There are swallows' nests in the chimneys, +and wrens under the gable, and humming-birds in the honeysuckle. +When Dolly gets there, it will be perfect. It just wants her to take +it all right into her heart and make one piece of it. _They_ don't +know,--the birds and the squirrels,--it takes the human. There has +to be an Adam in every garden of Eden." + +Kenneth really chattered, from pure content and delight. + +It did not take two visits to get up-stairs. Miss Arabel met them +heartily. She had been a shy, timid old lady, from long neglect and +humble living; but lately she had "come out in society," Delia said. +Society had come after her, and convinced her that she could make +good times for it. + +She brought out currant wine and gave them, the first thing; and +when Kenneth told her that they were his and Dorris's friends, and +were coming next week to see about getting ready for her, she took +them right round through all four of the ground rooms, to the queer +corner staircase, and up into the "long west chamber," to show them +what a rackety old place it was, and to see whether they supposed it +could be made fit. + +"Why it's like the Romance of the Forest!" said Helena, delighted. +"I wish _we_ had come here. Don't you have ghosts, or robbers, or +something, up and down those stairs, Miss Waite?" For she had spied +a door that led directly out of the room, from beside the chimney, +up into the rambling old garret, smelling of pine boards and +penny-royal. + +"No; nothing but squirrels and bees, and sometimes a bat," answered +Miss Arabel. + +"Well, it doesn't want fixing. If you fix it, you will spoil it. I +shall come here and sleep with Dorris,--see if I don't." + +The floor was bare, painted a dark, marbled gray. In the middle was +a great braided rug, of blue and scarlet and black. The walls were +pale gray, with a queer, stencilled scroll-and-dash border of +vermilion and black paint. + +There was an old, high bedstead, with carved frame and posts, bare +of drapery; an antiquated chest of drawers; and a half-circular +table with tall, plain, narrow legs, between two of the windows. +There was a corner cupboard, and a cupboard over the chimney. The +doors of these, and the high wainscot around the room, were stained +in old-fashioned "imitation mahogany," very streaky and red. The +wainscot was so heavily finished that the edge running around the +room might answer for a shelf. + +"Just curtains, and toilet covers, and a little low rocking chair," +said Mrs. Ledwith. "That is all you want." + +"But the windows are so high," suggested Desire. "A low chair would +bury her up, away from all the pleasantness. I'll tell you what I +would have, Mr. Kincaid. A kind of dais, right across that corner, +to take in two windows; with a carpet on it, and a chair, and a +little table." + +"Just the thing!" said Kenneth. "That is what I wanted you for, Miss +Desire," he said in a pleased, gentle way, lowering his tone to her +especial hearing, as he stood beside her in the window. + +And Desire was very happy to have thought of it. + +Helena was spurred by emulation to suggest something. + +"I'd have a--hammock--somewhere," she said. + +"Good," said Kenneth. "That shall be out under the great butternut." + +The great butternut walled in one of the windows with a wilderness +of green, and the squirrels ran chattering up and down the brown +branches, and peeping in all day. In the autumn, when the nuts were +ripe, they would be scrambling over the roof, and in under the +eaves, to hide their stores in the garret, Miss Arabel told them. + +"Why doesn't everbody have an old house, and let the squirrels in?" +cried Helena, in a rapture. + +In ten days more,--the first week of June,--Dorris came. + +Well,--"That let in all the rest," Helena said, and Desire, may be, +thought. "We shan't have it to ourselves any more." + +The girls could all come down and call on Dorris Kincaid, and they +did. + +But Desire and Helena had the first of it; nobody else went right up +into her room; nobody else helped her unpack and settle. And she was +so delighted with all that they had done for her. + +The dais was large enough for two or three to sit upon at once, and +it was covered with green carpet of a small, mossy pattern, and the +window was open into the butternut on one side, and into the +honeysuckle on the other, and it was really a bower. + +"I shall live ten hours in one," said Dorris. + +"And you'll let me come and sleep with you some night, and hear the +bats," said Helena. + +The Ledwiths made a good link; they had known the Kincaids so well; +if it had been only Dorris, alone, with her brother there, the +Westover girls might have been shy of coming often. Since Kenneth +had been at Miss Waite's, they had already grown a little less free +of the beautiful woods that they had just found out and begun fairly +to enjoy last autumn. + +But the Ledwiths made a strong party; and they lived close by; +there were plans continually. + +Since Leslie Goldthwaite and Barbara Holabird were married and gone, +and the Roger Marchbankses were burned out, and had been living in +the city and travelling, the Hobarts and the Haddens and Ruth and +Rosamond and Pen Pennington had kept less to their immediate +Westover neighborhood than ever; and had come down to Lucilla's, and +to Maddy Freeman's, and the Inglesides, as often as they had induced +them to go up to the Hill. + +Maud Marchbanks and the Hendees were civil and neighborly enough at +home, but they did not care to "ramify." So it came to pass that +they were left a good deal to themselves. Olivia and Adelaide, when +they came up to Westover, to their uncle's, wondered "that papa +cared to build again; there really wasn't anything to come for; West +Hill was entirely changed." + +So it was; and a very good thing. + +I came across the other day, reading over Mr. Kingsley's "Two Years +Ago," a true word as to social needs in England, that reminded me of +this that the Holabirds and the Penningtons and the Inglesides have +been doing, half unconsciously, led on from "next" to next, in +Z----. + +Mr. Kingsley, after describing a Miss Heale, and others of her +class,--the middle class, with no high social opportunities, and +with time upon their hands, wasted often in false dreams of life and +unsatisfied expectations, "bewildering heart and brain with novels," +for want of a nobler companionship, says this: "Till in country +villages, the ladies who interest themselves about the poor will +recollect that the farmers' and tradesmens' daughters are just as +much in want of their influence as the charity children and will +yield a far richer return for their labor, so long will England be +full of Miss Heales." + +If a kindly influence and fellowship are the duty of the +aristocratic girls of England toward their "next," below, how far +more false are American girls to the spirit of their country, and +the blessed opportunities of republican sympathies and equalities, +when they try to draw invisible lines between themselves and those +whose outer station differs by but so little, and whose hearts and +minds, under the like culture with their own, crave, just as they +do, the best that human intercourse can give. Social science has +something to do, before--or at least simultaneously with--reaching +down to the depths where all the wrongs and blunders and +mismanagements of life have precipitated their foul residuum. A +master of one of our public schools, speaking of the undue culture +of the brain and imagination, in proportion to the opportunities +offered socially for living out ideas thus crudely gathered, said +that his brightest girls were the ones who in after years, impatient +of the little life gave them to satisfy the capacities and demands +aroused and developed during the brief period of school life, and +fed afterwards by their own ill-judged and ill-regulated reading, +were found fallen into lives of vice. Have our women, old or young, +who make and circumscribe the opportunities of social intercourse +and enjoyment, nothing to search out here, and help, as well, or as +soon as, to get their names put on committee lists, and manage these +public schools themselves, which educate and stimulate up to the +point of possible fierce temptation, and then have nothing more that +they can do? + +It was a good thing for Desire Ledwith to grow intimate, as she did, +with Rosamond Holabird. There were identical points of character +between the two. They were both so real. + +"You don't want to _play_ anything," Barbara Holabird had said to +Rosamond once, in some little discussion of social appearances and +pretensions. "And that's the beauty of you!" + +It was the beauty of Desire Ledwith also; only, with Rosamond, her +ambitions had clothed themselves with a grace and delicateness that +would have their own perfect and thorough as far as it went; and +with Desire, the same demands of true living had chafed into an +impatience with shams and a blunt disregard of and resistance to all +conventionalisms. + +"You are a good deal alike, you two," Kenneth Kincaid said to them +one day, in a talk they all three happened to have together. + +And he had told Rosamond afterward that there was "something grand +in Desire Ledwith; only grand things almost always have to grow with +struggles." + +Rosamond had told this again to Desire. + +It was not much wonder that she began to be happier; to have a +hidden comfort of feeling that perhaps the "waiting with all her +might" was nearly over, and the "by and by" was blossoming for her, +though the green leaves of her own shy sternness with herself folded +close down about the sweetening place, and she never parted them +aside to see where the fragrance came from. + + * * * * * + +They were going to have a grand, large, beautiful supper party in +the woods. + +Mrs. Holabird and Mrs. Hobart were the matrons, and gave out the +invitations. + +"I don't think I could possibly spend a Tuesday afternoon with a +little 't,'" said Mrs. Lewis Marchbanks laughing, and tossing down +poor, dear, good Mrs. Hobart's note upon her table. "It is _rather_ +more than is to be expected!" + +"Doctor and Mrs. Hautayne are here, and Dakie Thayne is home from +West Point. It will be rather a nice party." + +"The Holabirds seem to have got everything into their own hands," +said Mrs. Marchbanks, haughtily. "It is always a pity when people +take the lead who are not exactly qualified. Mrs. Holabird _will_ +not discriminate!' + +"I think the Holabirds are splendid," spoke up Lily, "and I don't +think there's any fun in sticking up by ourselves! I can't bear to +be judicious!" + +Poor little Lily Marchbanks had been told a tiresome many times that +she must be "judicious" in her intimacies. + +"You can be _pleasant_ to everybody," said mother and elder sister, +with a salvo of Christian benignity. + +But it is so hard for little children to be pleasant with fence and +limitation. + +"Where must I stop?" Lily had asked in her simplicity. "When they +give me a piece of their luncheon, or when they walk home from +school, or when they say they will come in a little while?" + +But there came a message back from Boston by the eleven o'clock +train on the morning of the Tuesday with a little "t," from Mr. +Marchbanks himself, to say that his brother and Mr. Geoffrey would +come up with him to dinner, and to desire that carriages might be +ready afterward for the drive over to Waite's grove. + +Mrs. Marchbanks marveled, but gave her orders. Arthur came out +early, and brought with him his friend Archie Mucklegrand, and these +two were bound also for the merry-making. + +Now Archie Mucklegrand was the identical youth of the lavender +pantaloons and the waxed moustache, whom Desire, as "Miss Ledwith," +had received in state a year and a half ago. + +So it was an imposing cavalcade, after all, from West Hill, that +honored the very indiscriminate pleasure party, and came riding and +driving in at about six o'clock. There were the barouche and the +coupe; for the ladies and elder gentlemen, and the two young men +accompanied them on horseback. + +Archie Mucklegrand had been at West Hill often before. He and +Arthur had just graduated at Harvard, and the Holabirds had had +cards to their grand spread on Class Day. Archie Mucklegrand had +found out what a pretty girl--and a good deal more than merely +pretty--Rosamond Holabird was; and although he might any day go +over to his big, wild Highland estate, and take upon himself the +glory of "Sir Archibald" there among the hills and moors,--and +though any one of a good many pretty girls in Spreadsplendid Park +and Republic Avenue might be induced, perhaps, if he tried, to go +with him,--all this did not hinder him from perceiving that up +here in Z---- was just the most bewitching companionship he had +ever fallen in with, or might ever be able to choose for himself +for any going or abiding; that Rosamond Holabird was just the +brightest, and sweetest, and most to his mind of any girl that he +had ever seen, and most like "the woman" that a man might dream +of. I do not know that he quite said it all to himself in +precisely that way; I am pretty sure that he did not, as yet; but +whatever is off-hand and young-mannish and modern enough to +express to one's self without "sposhiness" an admiration and a +preference like that, he undoubtedly did say. At any rate after +his Christmas at Z---- with Arthur, and some charade parties they +had then at Westover, and after Class Day, when everybody had been +furious to get an introduction, and all the Spreadsplendid girls +and their mothers had been wondering who that Miss Holabird was +and where she came from, and Madam Mucklegrand herself--not having +the slightest recollection of her as the Miss Holabird of that +early-morning business call, whose name she had just glanced at +and dropped into an Indian china scrap-jar before she went +down-stairs--had asked him the same questions, and pronounced that +she was "an exceedingly graceful little person, certainly,"--after +all this, Archie had made up his--mind, shall I say? at least his +inclination, and his moustache--to pursue the acquaintance, and be +as irresistible as he could. + +But Rosamond had learned--things do so play into our lives in a +benign order--just before that Christmas time and those charades, in +one of which Archie Mucklegrand had sung to her, so expressively, +the "Birks of Aberfeldy,"--that Spreadsplendid Park was not, at +least his corner of it,--a "piece of her world;" and she did not +believe that Aberfeldy would be, either, though Archie's voice was +beautiful, and-- + + "Bonnie lassie, will ye go?" + +sounded very enticing--in a charade. + +So she was quite calm when the Marchbanks party came upon the +ground, and Archie Mucklegrand, with white trousers and a lavender +tie, and the trim, waxed moustache, looking very handsome in spite +of his dapperness, found her out in the first two minutes, and +attached himself to her forthwith in a most undetachable and +determined manner, which was his way of being irresistible. + +They were in the midst of their tea and coffee when the West Hill +party came. Miss Arabel was busy at the coffee-table between the two +oaks, pouring out with all her might, and creaming the fragrant cups +with a rich lavishness that seemed to speak of milky mothers without +number or limit of supply; and Rosamond, as the most natural and +hospitable thing to do, conducted the young gentleman as soon as she +could to that lady, and commended him to her good offices. + +These were not to be resisted; and as soon as he was occupied, +Rosamond turned to attend to others coming up; and the groups +shifting, she found herself presently a little way off, and +meanwhile Mrs. Marchbanks and her son had reached the table and +joined Archie. + +"I say, Arthur! O, Mrs. Marchbanks! You never got such coffee as +this, I do believe! The open air has done something to it, or else +the cream comes from some supernal cows! Miss Holabird!" + +Rosamond turned round. + +"I don't see,--Mrs. Marchbanks ought to have some of this coffee, +but where is your good woman gone?" For Miss Arabel had stepped +round behind the oak-tree for a moment, to see about some +replenishing. + +In her prim, plain dress, utterly innocent of style or _bias_, and +her zealous ministry, good Miss Arabel might easily be taken for +some comfortable, superior old servant; but partly from a sudden +sense of fun,--Mrs. Marchbanks standing there in all her elegant +dignity,--and partly from a jealous chivalry of friendship, Rosamond +would not let it pass so. + +"Good woman? Hush! she is one of our hostesses, the owner of the +ground, and a dear friend of mine. Here she is. Miss Waite, let me +introduce Mr. Archibald Mucklegrand. Mrs. Marchbanks will like some +coffee, please." + +Which Mrs. Marchbanks took with a certain look of amazement, that +showed itself subtilely in a slight straightening of the lips and an +expansion of the nostrils. She did not _sniff_; she was a great deal +too much a lady; she was Mrs. Marchbanks, but if she had been Mrs. +Higgin, and had felt just so, she would have sniffed. + +Somebody came up close to Rosamond on the other side. + +"That was good," said Kenneth Kincaid. "Thank you for that, Miss +Rosamond." + +"Will you have some more?" asked Rosamond, cunningly, pretending to +misunderstand, and reaching her hand to take his empty cup. + +"One mustn't ask for all one would like," said Kenneth, +relinquishing the cup, and looking straight in her eyes. + +Rosamond's eyes fell; she had no rejoinder ready; it was very well +that she had the cup to take care of, and could turn away, for she +felt a very foolish color coming up in her face. + +She made herself very busy among the guests. Archie Mucklegrand +stayed by, and spoke to her every time he found a chance. At last, +when people had nearly done eating and drinking, he asked her if she +would not show him the path down to the river. + +"It must be beautiful down there under the slope," he said. + +She called Dorris and Desire, then, and Oswald Megilp, who was with +them. He was spending a little time here at the Prendibles, with his +boat on the river, as he had used to do. When he could take an +absolute vacation, he was going away with a pedestrian party, among +the mountains. There was not much in poor Oswald Megilp, but Desire +and Rosamond were kind to him now that his mother was away. + +As they all walked down the bank among the close evergreens, they +met Mr. Geoffrey and Mr. Marchbanks, with Kenneth Kincaid, coming +up. Kenneth came last, and the two parties passed each other single +file, in the narrow pathway. + +Kenneth paused as he came close to Rosamond, holding back a bough +for her. + +"I have something very nice to tell you," he whispered, "by and by. +But it is a secret, as yet. Please don't stay down there very long." + +Nobody heard the whisper but Rosamond; if they could have done so, +he would not have whispered. Archie Mucklegrand was walking rather +sulkily along before; he had not cared for a party to be made up +when he asked Rosamond to go down to the river with him. Desire and +Dorris had found some strange blossom among the underbrush, and were +stopping for it; and Oswald Megilp was behind them. For a few +seconds, Kenneth had Rosamond quite to himself. + +The slight delay had increased the separation between her and Archie +Mucklegrand, for he had kept steadily on in his little huff. + +"I do not think we shall be long," said Rosamond, glancing after +him, and looking up, with her eyes bright. She was half merry with +mischief, and half glad with a quieter, deeper pleasure, at +Kenneth's words. + +He would tell her something in confidence; something that he was +glad of; he wanted her to know it while it was yet a secret; she had +not the least guess what it could be; but it was very "nice" +already. Rosamond always did rather like to be told things first; to +have her friends confide in and consult with her, and rely upon her +sympathy; she did not stop to separate the old feeling which she was +quite aware of in herself, from something new that made it +especially beautiful that Kenneth Kincaid should so confide and +rely. + +Rosamond was likely to have more told her to-night than she quite +dreamed of. + +"Desire!" + +They heard Mrs. Ledwith's voice far back among the trees. + +Desire answered. + +"I want you, dear!" + +"Something about shawls and baskets, I suppose," said Desire, +turning round, perhaps a little the more readily that Kenneth was +beside her now, going back also. + +Dorris and Oswald Megilp, finding there was a move to return, and +being behind Desire in the pathway, turned also, as people will who +have no especial motive for going one way rather than another; and +so it happened that after all Rosamond and Archie Mucklegrand walked +on down the bank to the river together, by themselves. + +Archie's good humor returned quickly. + +"I am glad they are gone; it was such a fuss having so many," he +said. + +"We shall have to go back directly; they are beginning to break up," +said Rosamond. + +And then, coming out to the opening by the water, she began to talk +rather fast about the prettiness of the view, and to point out the +bridge, and the mills, and the shadow of East Hill upon the water, +and the curve of the opposite shore, and the dip of the shrubs and +their arched reflections. She seemed quite determined to have all +the talk to herself. + +Archie Mucklegrand played with his stick, and twisted the end of +his moustache. Men never ought to allow themselves to learn that +trick. It always comes back upon them when it makes them look most +foolish. + +Archie said nothing, because there was so much he wanted to say, and +he did not know how to begin. + +He knew his mother and sister would not like it,--as long as they +could help it, certainly,--therefore he had suddenly made up his +mind that there should be no such interval. He could do as he +pleased; was he not Sir Archibald? And there was his Boston +grandfather's property, too, of which a large share had been left +outright to him; and he had been twenty-one these six months. There +was nothing to hinder; and he meant to tell Rosamond Holabird that +he liked her better than any other girl in the world. Somebody else +would be telling her so, if he didn't; he could see how they all +came round her; perhaps it might be that tall, quiet, cheeky looking +fellow,--that Kincaid. He would be before him, at any rate. + +So he stood and twisted his moustache, and said nothing,--nothing, I +mean, except mere little words of assent and echo to Rosamond's +chatter about the pretty view. + +At last,--"You are fond of scenery, Miss Holabird?" + +Rosamond laughed. + +"O yes, I suppose I am; but we don't call this scenery. It is just +pleasantness,--beauty. I don't think I quite like the word +'scenery.' It seems artificial,--got up for outside effect. And the +most beautiful things do not speak from the outside, do they? I +never travelled, Mr. Mucklegrand. I have just lived here, until I +have lived _into_ things, or they into me. I rather think it is +travelling, skimming about the world in a hurry, that makes people +talk about 'scenery.' Isn't it?" + +"I dare say. I don't care for skimming, myself. But I like to go to +nice places, and stay long enough to get into them, as you say. I +mean to go to Scotland next year. I've a place there among the hills +and lochs, Miss Rosamond." + +"Yes. I have heard so. I should think you would wish to go and see +it." + +"I'll tell you what I wish, Miss Holabird!" he said suddenly, +letting go his moustache, and turning round with sufficient +manfulness, and facing her. "I suppose there is a more gradual and +elegant way of saying it; but I believe straightforward is as good +as any. I wish you cared for me as I care for you, and then you +would go with me." + +Rosamond was utterly confounded. She had not imagined that it could +be hurled at her, this fashion; she thought she could parry and put +aside, if she saw anything coming. She was bewildered and breathless +with the shock of it; she could only blindly, and in very foolish +words, hurl it back. + +"O, dear, no!" she exclaimed, her face crimson. "I mean--I don't--I +couldn't! I beg your pardon, Mr. Mucklegrand; you are very good; I +am very sorry; but I wish you hadn't said so. We had better go +back." + +"No," said Archie Mucklegrand, "not yet. I've said it now. I said it +like a moon calf, but I mean it like a man. Won't you--can't you--be +my wife, Rosamond? I must know that." + +"No, Mr. Mucklegrand," answered Rosamond, quite steadily now and +gently. "I could not be. We were never meant for each other. You +will think so yourself next year,--by the time you go to Scotland." + +"I shall never think so." + +Of course he said that; young men always do; they mean it at the +moment, and nothing can persuade them otherwise. + +"I told you I had lived right here, and grown into these things, and +they into me," said Rosamond, with a sweet slow earnestness, as if +she thought out while she explained it; and so she did; for the +thought and meaning of her life dawned upon her with a new +perception, as she stood at this point and crisis of it in the +responsibility of her young womanhood. "And these, and all the +things that have influenced me, have given my life its direction; +and I can see clearly that it was never meant to be your way. I do +not know what it will be; but I know yours is different. It would be +wrenching mine to turn it so." + +"But I would turn mine for you," said Archie. + +"You couldn't. Lives _grow_ together. They join beforehand, if they +join at all. You like me, perhaps,--just what you see of me; but you +do not know me, nor I you. If it--this--were meant, we should." + +"Should what?" + +"Know. Be sure." + +"I am sure of what I told you." + +"And I thank you very much; but I do not--I never could--belong to +you." + +What made Rosamond so wise about knowing and belonging? + +She could not tell, herself; she had never thought it out before; +but she seemed to see it very clearly now. She did not belong to +Archie Mucklegrand, nor he to her; he was mistaken; their lives had +no join; to make them join would be a force, a wrenching. + +Archie Mucklegrand did not care to have it put on such deep ground. +He liked Rosamond; he wanted her to like him; then they should be +married, of coarse, and go to Scotland, and have a good time; but +this quiet philosophy cooled him somewhat. As they walked up the +bank together, he wondered at himself a little that he did not feel +worse about it. If she had been coquettish, or perverse, she might +have been all the more bewitching to him. If he had thought she +liked somebody else better, he might have been furiously jealous; +but "her way of liking a fellow would be a slow kind of a way, after +all." That was the gist of his thought about it; and I believe that +to many very young men, at the age of waxed moustaches and German +dancing, that "slow kind of a way" in a girl is the best possible +insurance against any lasting damage that their own enthusiasm might +suffer. + +He had not been contemptible in the offering of his love; his best +had come out at that moment; if it does not come out then, +somehow,--through face and tone, in some plain earnestness or simple +nobleness, if not in fashion of the spoken word as very well it may +not,--it must be small best that the man has in him. + +Rosamond's simple saying of the truth, as it looked to her in that +moment of sure insight, was the best help she could have given him. +Truth is always the best help. He did not exactly understand the +wherefore, as she understood it; but the truth touched him +nevertheless, in the way that he could perceive. They did not +"belong" to each other. + +And riding down in the late train that evening, Archie Mucklegrand +said to himself, drawing a long breath,--"It would have been an +awful tough little joke, after all, telling it to the old lady!" + +"Are you too tired to walk home?" Kenneth Kincaid asked of Rosamond, +helping her put the baskets in the carriage. + +Dakie Thayne had asked Ruth the same question five minutes before, +and they two had gone on already. Are girls ever too tired to walk +home after a picnic, when the best of the picnic is going to walk +home with them? Of course Rosamond was not too tired; and Mrs. +Holabird had the carryall quite to herself and her baskets. + +They took the River Road, that was shady all the way, and sweet now +with the dropping scents of evening; it was a little longer, too, I +think, though that is one of the local questions that have never yet +been fully decided. + +"How far does Miss Waite's ground run along the river?" asked +Kenneth, taking Rosamond's shawl over his arm. + +"Not far; it only just touches; it runs back and broadens toward the +Old Turnpike. The best of it is in those woods and pastures." + +"So I thought. And the pastures are pretty much run out." + +"I suppose so. They are full of that lovely gray crackling moss." + +"Lovely for picnics. Don't you think Miss Waite would like to sell?" + +"Yes, indeed, if she could. That is her dream; what she has been +laying up for her old age: to turn the acres into dollars, and build +or buy a little cottage, and settle down safe. It is all she has in +the world, except her dressmaking." + +"Mr. Geoffrey and Mr. Marchbanks want to buy. They will offer her +sixteen thousand dollars. That is the secret,--part of it." + +"O, Mr. Kincaid! How glad,--how _sorry_, I can't help being, too! +Miss Waite to be so comfortable! And never to have her dear old +woods to picnic in any more! I suppose they want to make streets +and build it all up." + +"Not all. I'll tell you. It is a beautiful plan. Mr. Geoffrey wants +to build a street of twenty houses,--ten on a side,--with just a +little garden plot for each, and leave the woods behind for a piece +of nature for the general good,--a real Union Park; a place for +children to play in, and grown folks to rest and walk and take tea +in, if they choose; but for nobody to change or meddle with any +further. And these twenty houses to be let to respectable persons of +small means, at rents that will give him seven per cent, for his +whole outlay. Don't you see? Young people, and people like Miss +Waite herself, who don't want _much_ house-room, but who want it +nice and comfortable, and will keep it so, and who _do_ want a +little of God's world-room to grow in, that they can't get in the +crowded town streets, where the land is selling by the foot to be +all built over with human packing-cases, and where they have to pay +as much for being shut up and smothered, as they will out here to +live and breathe. That Mr. Geoffrey is a glorious man, Rosamond! He +is doing just this same thing in the edges of three or four other +towns, buying up the land just before it gets too dear, to save for +people who could not save it for themselves. He is providing for a +class that nobody seems to have thought of,--the nice, narrow-pursed +people, and the young beginners, who get married and take the world +in the old-fashioned way." + +He had no idea he had called her "Rosamond," till he saw the color +shining up so in her face verifying the name. Then it flashed out +upon him as he sent his thought back through the last few sentences +that he had spoken. + +"I beg your pardon," he said, suddenly. "But I was so full of this +beautiful doing,--and I always think of you so! Is there a sin in +that?" + +Rosamond colored deeper yet, and Kenneth grew more bold. He had +spoken it without plan; it had come of itself. + +"I can't help it now. I shall say it again, unless you tell me not! +Rosamond! I shall have these houses to build. I am getting ever so +much to do. Could you begin the world with me, Rosamond?" + +Rosamond did not say a word for a full minute. She only walked +slowly by his side, her beautiful head inclined gently, shyly; her +sweet face all one bloom, as faces never bloom but once. + +Then she turned toward him and put out her hand. + +"I will begin the world with you," she said. + +And their world--that was begun for them before they were +born--lifted up its veil and showed itself to them, bright in the +eternal morning. + + * * * * * + +Desire Ledwith walked home all alone. She left Dorris at Miss +Waite's, and Helena had teased to stay with her. Mrs. Ledwith had +gone home among the first, taking a seat offered her in Mrs. Tom +Friske's carriage to East Square; she had a headache, and was tired. + +Desire felt the old, miserable questions coming up, tempting her. + +Why? + +Why was she left out,--forgotten? Why was there nothing, very much, +in any of this, for her? + +Yet underneath the doubting and accusing, something lived--stayed +by--to rebuke it; rose up above it finally, and put it down, though +with a thrust that hurt the heart in which the doubt was trampled. + +Wait. Wait--with all your might! + +Desire could do nothing very meekly; but she could even _wait_ with +all her might. She put her foot down with a will, at every step. + +"I was put here to be Desire Ledwith," she said, relentlessly, to +herself; "not Rosamond Holabird, nor even Dolly. Well, I suppose I +can stay put, and _be_! If things would only _let_ me be!" + +But they will not. Things never do, Desire. + +They are coming, now, upon you. Hard things,--and all at once. + + + + +XVIII. + +ALL AT ONCE. + + +There was a Monday morning train going down from Z----. + +Mr. Ledwith and Kenneth Kincaid were in it, reading the morning +papers, seated side by side. + +It was nearly a week since the picnic, but the engagement of +Rosamond and Kenneth had not transpired. Mr. Holabird had been away +in New York. Of course nothing was said beyond Mrs. Holabird and +Ruth and Dolly Kincaid, until his return. But Kenneth carried a +happy face about with him, in the streets and in the cars and about +his work; and his speech was quick and bright with the men he met +and had need to speak to. It almost told itself; people might have +guessed it, if they had happened, at least to see the _two_ faces in +the same day, and if they were alive to sympathetic impressions of +other people's pain or joy. There are not many who stop to piece +expressions, from pure sympathy, however; they are, for the most +part, too busy putting this and that together for themselves. + +Desire would have guessed it in a minute; but she saw little of +either in this week. Mrs. Ledwith was not well, and there was a +dress to be made for Helena. + +Kenneth Kincaid's elder men friends said of him, when they saw him +in these days, "That's a fine fellow; he is doing very well." They +could read that; he carried it in his eye and in his tone and in his +step, and it was true. + +It was a hot morning; it would be a stifling day in the city. They +sat quiet while they could, in the cars, taking the fresh air of the +fields and the sea reaches, reading the French news, and saying +little. + +They came almost in to the city terminus, when the train stopped. +Not at a station. There were people to alight at the last but one; +these grew impatient after a few minutes, and got out and walked. + +The train still waited. + +Mr. Ledwith finished a column he was reading, and then looked up, as +the conductor came along the passage. + +"What is the delay?" he asked of him. + +"Freight. Got such a lot of it. Takes a good while to handle." + +Freight outward bound. A train making up. + +Mr. Ledwith turned to his newspaper again. + +Ten minutes went by. Kenneth Kincaid got up and went out, like many +others. They might be kept there half an hour. + +Mr. Ledwith had read all his paper, and began to grow impatient. He +put his head out at the window, and looked and listened. Half the +passengers were outside. Brake-men were walking up and down. + +"Has he got a flag out there?" says the conductor to one of these. + +"Don't know. Can't see. Yes, he has; I heard him whistle brakes." + +Just then, their own bell sounded, and men jumped on board. Kenneth +Kincaid came back to his seat. + +Behind, there was a long New York train coming in. + +Mr. Ledwith put his head out again, and looked back. All right; +there had been a flag; the train had slackened just beyond a curve. + +But why will people do such things? What is the use of asking? Mr. +Ledwith still looked out; he could not have told you why. + +A quicker motion; a darkening of the window; a freight car standing +upon a siding, close to the switch, as they passed by; a sudden, +dull blow, half unheard in the rumble of the train. Women, sitting +behind, sprang up,--screamed; one dropped, fainting: they had seen a +ghastly sight; warm drops of blood flew in upon them; the car was in +commotion. + +Kenneth Kincaid, with an exclamation of horror, clutched hold of a +lifeless body that fell--was thrust--backward beside him; the poor +head fractured, shattered, against the fatal window frame. + + * * * * * + +The eleven o'clock train came out. + +People came up the street,--a group of gentlemen, three or +four,--toward Mr. Prendible's house. + +Desire sat in a back window behind the blinds, busy. Mrs. Ledwith +was lying on the bed. + +Steps came in at the house door. + +There was an exclamation; a hush. Mr. Prendible's voice, Kenneth +Kincaid's, Mr. Dimsey's, the minister's. + +"O! How? "--Mrs. Prendible's voice, now. + +"Take care!" + +"Where are they?" + +Mrs. Ledwith heard. + +"What is the matter?"--springing up, with a sudden instinct of +precognition. + +Desire had not seen or heard till now. She dropped her work. + +"What is it, mother?" + +Mrs. Ledwith was up, upon the floor; in the doorway out in the +passage; trembling; seized all over with a horrible dread and vague +knowledge. + +"_Tell_ me what it is!" she cried, to those down below. + +They were all there upon the staircase; Mrs. Prendible furthest up. + +"O, Mrs. Ledwith!" she cried. "_Don't_ be frightened! _Don't_ take +on! Take it easy,--do!" + +Desire rushed down among them; past Mrs. Prendible, past the +minister, straight to Kenneth Kincaid. + +Kenneth took her right in his arms, and carried her into a little +room below. + +"There could have been no pain," he said, tenderly. "It was the +accident of a moment. Be strong,--be patient, dear!" + +There had been tender words natural to his lips lately. It was not +strange that in his great pity he used them now. + +"My father!" gasped Desire. + +"Yes; your father. It was our Father's will." + +"Help me to go to my mother!" + +She took his hand, half blind, almost reeling. + +And then they all, somehow, found themselves up-stairs. + +There were moans of pain; there were words of prayer. We have no +right there. It is all told. + + * * * * * + +"Be strong,--be patient, dear!" + +It came back, in the midst of the darkness, the misery; it helped +her through those days; it made her strong for her mother. It +comforted her, she hardly knew how much; but O, how cruel it seemed +afterward! + +They went directly down to Boston. Mr. Ledwith was buried from their +own house. It was all over; and now, what should they do? Uncle +Titus came to see them. Mrs. Ripwinkley came right back from +Homesworth. Dorris Kincaid left her summer-time all behind, and +came to stay with them a week in Shubarton Place. Mrs. Ledwith +craved companionship; her elder daughters were away; there were +these five weeks to go by until she could hear from them. She would +not read their letters that came now, full of chat and travel. + +Poor Laura! her family scattered; her dependence gone; her life all +broken down in a moment! + +Dorris Kincaid did not speak of Kenneth and Rosamond. How could she +bring news of others' gladness into that dim and sorrowful house? + +Luclarion Grapp shut up her rooms, left her plants and her birds +with Mrs. Gallilee, and came up to Shubarton Place in the beginning. +There were no servants there; everything was adrift; the terrible +blows of life take people between the harness, most unprovided, +unawares. + +It was only for a little while, until they could hear from the +girls, and make plans. Grant Ledwith's income died with him; there +was ten thousand dollars, life insurance; that would give them a +little more than a sixth part of what his salary had been; and there +were the two thousand a year of Uncle Titus; and the house, on which +there was a twelve thousand dollar mortgage. + +Mrs. Ledwith had spent her life in cutting and turning and planning; +after the first shock was over, even her grief was counterpoised and +abated, by the absorption of her thoughts into the old channels. +What they should do, how they should live, what they could have; how +it should be contrived and arranged. Her mind busied itself with all +this, and her trouble was veiled,--softened. She had a dozen +different visions and schemes, projected into their details of +residence, establishment, dress, ordering,--before the letters +came, bringing back the first terribleness in the first reception of +and response to it, of her elder children. + +It was so awful to have them away,--on the other side of the world! +If they were only once all together again! Families ought not to +separate. But then, it had been for their good; how could she have +imagined? She supposed she should have done the same again, under +the same circumstances. + +And then came Mrs. Megilp's letter, delayed a mail, as she would +have delayed entering the room, if they had been rejoined in their +grief, until the family had first been gathered together with their +tears and their embraces. + +Then she wrote,--as she would have come in; and her letter, as +her visit would have been, was after a few words of tender +condolence,--and they were very sweet and tender, for Mrs. Megilp +knew how to lay phrases like illuminating gold-leaf upon her +meaning,--eminently practical and friendly, full of judicious, not +to say mitigating, suggestions. + +It was well, she thought, that Agatha and Florence were with her. +They had been spared so much; and perhaps if all this had happened +first, they might never have come. As to their return, she thought +it would be a pity; "it could not make it really any better for +you," she said; "and while your plans are unsettled, the fewer you +are, the more easily you will manage. It seems hard to shadow their +young lives more than is inevitable; and new scenes and interests +are the very best things for them; their year of mourning would be +fairly blotted out at home, you know. For yourself, poor friend, of +course you cannot care; and Desire and Helena are not much come +forward, but it would be a dead blank and stop to them, so much +lost, right out; and I feel as if it were a kind Providence for the +dear girls that they should be just where they are. We are living +quietly, inexpensively; it will cost no more to come home at one +time than at another;" etc. + +There are persons to whom the pastime of life is the whole business +of it; sickness and death and misfortune,--to say nothing of cares +and duties--are the interruptions, to be got rid of as they may. + +The next week came more letters; they had got a new idea out there. +Why should not Mrs. Ledwith and the others come and join them? They +were in Munich, now; the schools were splendid; would be just the +thing for Helena; and "it was time for mamma to have a rest." + +This thought, among the dozen others, had had its turn in Mrs. +Ledwith's head. To break away, and leave everything, that is the +impulse of natures like hers when things go hard and they cannot +shape them. Only to get off; if she could do that! + +Meanwhile, it was far different with Desire. + +She was suffering with a deeper pain; not with a sharper loss, for +she had seen so little of her father; but she looked in and back, +and thought of what she _ought_ to miss, and what had never been. + +She ought to have known her father better; his life ought to have +been more to her; was it her fault, or, harder yet, had it been his? +This is the sorest thrust of grief; when it is only shock, and pity, +and horror, and after these go by, not grief enough! + +The child wrestled with herself, as she always did, questioning, +arraigning. If she could make it all right, in the past, and now; if +she could feel that all she had to do was to be tenderly sorry, and +to love on through the darkness, she would not mind the dark; it +would be only a phase of the life,--the love. But to have lived her +life so far, to have had the relations of it, and yet _not_ to have +lived it, not to have been real child, real sister, not to be real +stricken daughter now, tasting the suffering just as God made it to +be tasted,--was she going through all things, even this, in a vain +shadow? _Would_ not life touch her? + +She went away back, strangely, and asked whether she had had any +business to be born? Whether it were a piece of God's truth at all, +that she and all of them should be, and call themselves a +household,--a home? The depth, the beauty of it were so unfulfilled! +What was wrong, and how far back? Living in the midst of +superficialities; in the noontide of a day of shams; putting her +hands forth and grasping, almost everywhere, nothing but thin, hard +surface,--she wondered how much of the world was real; how many came +into the world where, and as, God meant them to come. What it was to +"climb up some other way into the sheepfold," and to be a thief and +a robber, even of life! + +These were strange thoughts. Desire Ledwith was a strange girl. + +But into the midst there crept one comfort; there was one glimpse +out of the darkness into the daylight. + +Kenneth Kincaid came in often to see them,--to inquire; just now he +had frequent business in the city; he brought ferns and flowers, +that Dorris gathered and filled into baskets, fresh and damp with +moss. + +Dorris was a dear friend; she dwelt in the life and the brightness; +she reached forth and gathered, and turned and ministered again. The +ferns and flowers were messages; leaves out of God's living Word, +that she read, found precious, and sent on; apparitions, they +seemed standing forth to sense, and making sweet, true signs from +the inner realm of everlasting love and glory. + +And Kenneth,--Desire had never lost out of her heart those +words,--"Be strong,--be patient, dear!" + +He did not speak to her of himself; he could not demand +congratulation from her grief; he let it be until she should somehow +learn, and of her own accord, speak to him. + +So everybody let her alone, poor child, to her hurt. + +The news of the engagement was no Boston news; it was something that +had occurred, quietly enough, among a few people away up in Z----. +Of the persons who came in,--the few remaining in town,--nobody +happened to know or care. The Ripwinkleys did, of course; but Mrs. +Ripwinkley remembered last winter, and things she had read in +Desire's unconscious, undisguising face, and aware of nothing that +could be deepening the mischief now, thinking only of the sufficient +burden the poor child had to bear, thought kindly, "better not." + +Meanwhile Mrs. Ledwith was dwelling more and more upon the European +plan. She made up her mind, at last, to ask Uncle Titus. When all +was well, she would not seem to break a compact by going away +altogether, so soon, to leave him; but now,--he would see the +difference; perhaps advise it. She would like to know what he would +advise. After all that had happened,--everything so changed,--half +her family abroad,--what could she do? Would it not be more prudent +to join them, than to set up a home again without them, and keep +them out there? And all Helena's education to provide for, and +everything so cheap and easy there, and so dear and difficult here? + +"Now, tell me, truly, uncle, should you object? Should you take it +at all hard? I never meant to have left you, after all you have +done; but you see I have to break up, now poor Grant is gone; we +cannot live as we did before, even with what you do; and--for a +little while--it is cheaper there; and by and by we can come back +and make some other plan. Besides, I feel sometimes as if I _must_ +go off; as if there weren't anything left here for me." + +Poor woman! poor _girl_, still,--whose life had never truly taken +root! + +"I suppose," said Uncle Titus, soberly, "that God shines all round. +He's on this side as much as He is on that." + +Mrs. Ledwith looked up out of her handkerchief, with which at that +moment she had covered her eyes. + +"I never knew Uncle Titus was pious!" she said to herself. And her +astonishment dried her tears. + +He said nothing more that was pious, however; he simply assured her, +then and in conversations afterward, that he should take nothing +"hard;" he never expected to bind her, or put her on parole; he +chose to come to know his relatives, and he had done so; he had also +done what seemed to him right, in return for their meeting him half +way; they were welcome to it all, to take it and use it as they best +could, and as circumstances and their own judgment dictated. If they +went abroad, he should advise them to do it before the winter. + +These words implied consent, approval. Mrs. Ledwith went up-stairs +after them with a heart so much lightened that she was very nearly +cheerful. There would be a good deal to do now, and something to +look forward to; the old pulses of activity were quickened. She +could live with those faculties that had been always vital in her, +as people breathe with one live lung; but trouble and change had +wrought in her no deeper or further capacity; had wakened nothing +that had never been awake before. + +The house and furniture were to be sold; they would sail in +September. + +When Desire perceived that it was settled, she gave way; she had +said little before; her mother had had many plans, and they amused +her; she would not worry her with opposition; and besides, she was +herself in a secret dream of a hope half understood. + +It happened that she told it to Kenneth Kincaid herself; she saw +almost every one who came, instead of her mother; Mrs. Ledwith lived +in her own room chiefly. This was the way in which it had come +about, that nobody noticed or guessed how it was with Desire, and +what aspect Kenneth's friendship and kindness, in the simple history +of those few weeks, might dangerously grow to bear with her. + +Except one person. Luclarion Grapp, at last, made up her mind. + +Kenneth heard what Desire told him, as he heard all she ever had to +tell, with a gentle interest; comforted her when she said she could +not bear to go, with the suggestion that it might not be for very +long; and when she looked up in his face with a kind of strange, +pained wonder, and repeated,-- + +"But I cannot _bear_,--I tell you, I cannot _bear_ to go!" he +answered,-- + +"One can bear all that is right; and out of it the good will come +that we do not know. All times go by. I am sorry--very sorry--that +you must go; but there will be the coming back. We must all wait for +that." + +She did not know what she looked for; she did not know what she +expected him to mean; she expected nothing; the thought of his +preventing it in any way never entered into her head; she knew, if +she _had_ thought, how he himself was waiting, working. She only +wanted him to _care_. Was this caring? Much? She could not tell. + +"We never can come _back_," she said, impetuously. "There will be +all the time--everything--between." + +He almost spoke to her of it, then; he almost told her that the +everything might be more, not less; that friendships gathered, +multiplied; that there would be one home, he hoped, in which, by and +by, she would often be; in which she would always be a dear and +welcome comer. + +But she was so sad, so tried; his lips were held; in his pure, +honest kindness, he never dreamt of any harm that his silence might +do; it only seemed so selfish to tell her how bright it was with +him. + +So he said, smiling,-- + +"And who knows what the 'everything' may be?" And he took both her +hands in his as he said good-by,--for his little stops were of +minutes on his way, always,--and held them fast, and looked warmly, +hopefully into her face. + +It was all for her,--to give her hope and courage; but the light of +it was partly kindled by his own hope and gladness that lay behind; +and how could she know that, or read it right? It was at once too +much, and not enough, for her. + +Five minutes after, Luclarion Grapp went by the parlor door with a +pile of freshly ironed linen in her arms, on her way up-stairs. + +Desire lay upon the sofa, her face down upon the pillow; her arms +were thrown up, and her hands clasped upon the sofa-arm; her frame +shook with sobs. + +Luclarion paused for the time of half a step; then she went on. She +said to herself in a whisper, as she went,-- + +"It is a stump; a proper hard one! But there's nobody else; and I +have got to tell her!" + + * * * * * + +That evening, under some pretense of clean towels, Luclarion came up +into Desire's room. + +She was sitting alone, by the window, in the dark. + +Luclarion fussed round a little; wiped the marble slab and the +basin; set things straight; came over and asked Desire if she should +not put up the window-bars, and light the gas. + +"No," said Desire. "I like this best." + +So did Luclarion. She had only said it to make time. + +"Desire," she said,--she never put the "Miss" on, she had been too +familiar all her life with those she was familiar with at all,--"the +fact is I've got something to say, and I came up to say it." + +She drew near--came close,--and laid her great, honest, faithful +hand on the back of Desire Ledwith's chair, put the other behind her +own waist, and leaned over her. + +"You see, I'm a woman, Desire, and I know. You needn't mind me, I'm +an old maid; that's the way I do know. Married folks, even mothers, +half the time forget. But old maids never forget. I've had my +stumps, and I can see that you've got yourn. But you'd ought to +understand; and there's nobody, from one mistake and another, that's +going to tell you. It's awful hard; it will be a trouble to you at +first,"--and Luclarion's strong voice trembled tenderly with the +sympathy that her old maid heart had in it, after, and because of, +all those years,--"but Kenneth Kincaid"-- + +"_What_!" cried Desire, starting to her feet, with a sudden +indignation. + +"Is going to be married to Rosamond Holabird," said Luclarion, very +gently. "There! you ought to know, and I have told you." + +"What makes you suppose that that would be a trouble to me?" blazed +Desire. "How do you dare"-- + +"I didn't dare; but I had to!" sobbed Luclarion, putting her arms +right round her. + +And then Desire--as she would have done at any rate, for that blaze +was the mere flash of her own shame and pain--broke down with a +moan. + +"All at once! All at once!" she said piteously, and hid her face in +Luclarion's bosom. + +And Luclarion folded her close; hugged her, the good woman, in her +love that was sisterly and motherly and all, because it was the love +of an old maid, who had endured, for a young maid upon whom the +endurance was just laid,--and said, with the pity of heaven in the +words,-- + +"Yes. All at once. But the dear Lord stands by. Take hold of His +hand,--and bear with all your might!" + + + + +XIX. + +INSIDE. + + +"Do you think, Luclarion," said Desire, feebly, as Luclarion came to +take away her bowl of chicken broth,--"that it is my _duty_ to go +with mamma?" + +"I don't know," said Luclarion, standing with the little waiter in +her right hand, her elbow poised upon her hip,--"I've thought of +that, and I _don't_ know. There's most generally a stump, you see, +one way or another, and that settles it, but here there's one both +ways. I've kinder lost my road: come to two blazes, and can't tell +which. Only, it ain't my road, after all. It lays between the Lord +and you, and I suppose He means it shall. Don't you worry; there'll +be some sort of a sign, inside or out. That's His business, you've +just got to keep still, and get well." + +Desire had asked her mother, before this, if she would care very +much,--no, she did not mean that,--if she would be disappointed, or +disapprove, that she should stay behind. + +"Stay behind? Not go to Europe? Why, where _could_ you stay? What +would you do?" + +"There would be things to do, and places to stay," Desire had +answered, constrainedly. "I could do like Dorris." + +"Teach music!" + +"No. I don't know music. But I might teach something I do know. Or I +could--rip," she said, with an odd smile, remembering something she +had said one day so long ago; the day the news came up to Z---- +from Uncle Oldways. "And I might make out to put together for other +people, and for a real business. I never cared to do it just for +myself." + +"It is perfectly absurd," said Mrs Ledwith. "You couldn't be left to +take care of yourself. And if you could, how it would look! No; of +course you must go with us." + +"But do you _care_?" + +"Why, if there were any proper way, and if you really hate so to +go,--but there isn't," said Mrs. Ledwith, not very grammatically or +connectedly. + +"She _doesn't_ care," said Desire to herself, after her mother had +left her, turning her face to the pillow, upon which two tears ran +slowly down. "And that is my fault, too, I suppose. I have never +been _anything_!" + +Lying there, she made up her mind to one thing. She would get Uncle +Titus to come, and she would talk to him. + +"He won't encourage me in any notions," she said to herself. "And I +mean now, if I can find it out, to do the thing God means; and then +I suppose,--I _believe_,--the snarl will begin to unwind." + +Meanwhile, Luclarion, when she had set a nice little bowl of +tea-muffins to rise, and had brought up a fresh pitcher of ice-water +into Desire's room, put on her bonnet and went over to Aspen Street +for an hour. + +Down in the kitchen, at Mrs. Ripwinkley's, they were having a nice +time. + +Their girl had gone. Since Luclarion left, they had fallen into that +Gulf-stream which nowadays runs through everybody's kitchen. Girls +came, and saw, and conquered in their fashion; they muddled up, and +went away. + +The nice times were in the intervals when they _had_ gone away. + +Mrs. Ripwinkley did not complain; it was only her end of the +"stump;" why should she expect to have a Luclarion Grapp to serve +her all her life? + +This last girl had gone as soon as she found out that Sulie Praile +was "no relation, and didn't anyways belong there, but had been took +in." She "didn't go for to come to work in an _Insecution_. She had +always been used to first-class private families." + +Girls will not stand any added numbers, voluntarily assumed, or even +involuntarily befalling; they will assist in taking up no new +responsibilities; to allow things to remain as they are, and cannot +help being, is the depth of their condescension,--the extent of what +they will put up with. There must be a family of some sort, of +course, or there would not be a "place;" that is what the family is +made for; but it must be established, no more to fluctuate; that is, +you may go away, some of you, if you like, or you may die; but +nobody must come home that has been away, and nobody must be born. +As to anybody being "took in!" Why, the girl defined it; it was not +being a family, but an _Insecution_. + +So the three--Diana, and Hazel, and Sulie--were down in the kitchen; +Mrs. Ripwinkley was busy in the dining-room close by; there was a +berry-cake to be mixed up for an early tea. Diana was picking over +the berries, Hazel was chopping the butter into the flour, and Sulie +on a low cushioned seat in a corner--there was one kept ready for +her in every room in the house, and Hazel and Diana carried her +about in an "arm-chair," made of their own clasped hands and wrists, +wherever they all wanted to go,--Sulie was beating eggs. + +Sulie did that so patiently; you see she had no temptation to jump +up and run off to anything else. The eggs turned, under her +fingers, into thick, creamy, golden froth, fine to the last possible +divisibility of the little air-bubbles. + +They could not do without Sulie now. They had had her for "all +winter;" but in that winter she had grown into their home. + +"Why," said Hazel to her mother, when they had the few words about +it that ended in there being no more words at all,--"that's the way +children are _born_ into houses, isn't it? They just come; and +they're new and strange at first, and seem so queer. And then after +a while you can't think how the places were, and they not in them. +Sulie belongs, mother!" + +So Sulie beat eggs, and darned stockings, and painted her lovely +little flower-panels and racks and easels, and did everything that +could be done, sitting still in her round chair, or in the cushioned +corners made for her; and was always in the kitchen, above all, when +any pretty little cookery was going forward. + +Vash ran in and out from the garden, and brought balsamine blossoms, +from which she pulled the little fairy slippers, and tried to match +them in pairs; and she picked off the "used-up and puckered-up" +morning glories, which she blew into at the tube-end, and "snapped" +on the back of her little brown hand. + +Wasn't that being good for anything, while berry-cake was making? +The girls thought it was; as much as the balsamine blossoms were +good for anything, or the brown butterflies with golden spots on +their wings, that came and lived among them. The brown butterflies +were a "piece of the garden;" little brown Vash was a piece of the +house. Besides, she would eat some of the berry-cake when it was +made; wasn't that worth while? She would have a "little teenty one" +baked all for herself in a tin pepper-pot cover. Isn't that the +special pleasantness of making cakes where little children are? + +Vash was always ready for an "Aaron," too; they could not do without +her, any more than without Sulie. Pretty soon, when Diana should +have left school, and Vash should be a little bigger, they meant to +"cooeperate," as the Holabirds had done at Westover. + +Of course, they knew a great deal about the Holabirds by this time. +Hazel had stayed a week with Dorris at Miss Waite's; and one of +Witch Hazel's weeks among "real folks" was like the days or hours in +fairy land, that were years on the other side. She found out so much +and grew so close to people. + +Hazel and Ruth Holabird were warm friends. And Hazel was to be +Ruth's bridesmaid, by and by! + +For Ruth Holabird was going to be married to Dakie Thayne. + +"That seemed so funny," Hazel said. "Ruth didn't _look_ any older +than she did; and Mr. Dakie Thayne was such a nice boy!" + +He was no less a man, either; he had graduated among the first three +at West Point; he was looking earnestly for the next thing that he +should do in life with his powers and responsibilities; he did not +count his marrying a _separate_ thing; that had grown up alongside +and with the rest; of course he could do nothing without Ruth; that +was just what he had told her; and she,--well Ruth was always a +sensible little thing, and it was just as plain to her as it was to +him. Of course she must help him think and plan; and when the plans +were made, it would take two to carry them out; why, yes, they must +be married. What other way would there be? + +That wasn't what she _said_, but that was the quietly natural and +happy way in which it grew to be a recognized thing in her mind, +that pleasant summer after he came straight home to them with his +honors and his lieutenant's commission in the Engineers; and his +hearty, affectionate taking-for-granted; and it was no surprise or +question with her, only a sure and very beautiful "rightness," when +it came openly about. + +Dakie Thayne was a man; the beginning of a very noble one; but it is +the noblest men that always keep a something of the boy. If you had +not seen anything more of Dakie Thayne until he should be forty +years old, you would then see something in him which would be +precisely the same that it was at Outledge, seven years ago, with +Leslie Goldthwaite, and among the Holabirds at Westover, in his +first furlough from West Point. + +Luclarion came into the Ripwinkley kitchen just as the cakes--the +little pepper-pot one and all--were going triumphantly into the +oven, and Hazel was baring her little round arms to wash the dishes, +while Diana tended the pans. + +Mrs. Ripwinkley heard her old friend's voice, and came out. + +"That girl ought to be here with you; or somewheres else than where +she is, or is likely to be took," said Luclarion, as she looked +round and sat down, and untied her bonnet-strings. + +Miss Grapp hated bonnet-strings; she never endured them a minute +longer than she could help. + +"Desire?" asked Mrs. Ripwinkley, easily comprehending. + +"Yes; Desire. I tell you she has a hard row to hoe, and she wants +comforting. She wants to know if it is her duty to go to Yourup with +her mother. Now it may be her duty to be _willing_ to go; but it +ain't anybody's else duty to let her. That's what came to me as I +was coming along. I couldn't tell _her_ so, you see, because it +would interfere with her part; and that's all in the tune as much as +any; only we've got to chime in with our parts at the right stroke, +the Lord being Leader. Ain't that about it, Mrs. Ripwinkley?" + +"If we are sure of the score, and can catch the sign," said Mrs. +Ripwinkley, thoughtfully. + +"Well, I've sung mine; it's only one note; I may have to keep +hammering on it; that's according to how many repeats there are to +be. Mr. Oldways, he ought to know, for one. Amongst us, we have got +to lay our heads together, and work it out. She's a kind of an odd +chicken in that brood; and my belief is she's like the ugly duck +Hazel used to read about. But she ought to have a chance; if she's a +swan, she oughtn't to be trapesed off among the weeds and on the dry +ground. 'Tisn't even ducks she's hatched with; they don't take to +the same element." + +"I'll speak to Uncle Titus, and I will think," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. + +But before she did that, that same afternoon by the six o'clock +penny post, a little note went to Mr. Oldways:-- + + "DEAR UNCLE TITUS,-- + + "I want to talk with you a little. If I were well, I should + come to see you in your study. Will you come up here, and see + me in my room? + + "Yours sincerely, DESIRE LEDWITH." + +Uncle Titus liked that. It counted upon something in him which few +had the faith to count upon; which, truly he gave few people reason +to expect to find. + +He put his hat directly on, took up his thick brown stick, and +trudged off, up Borden Street to Shubarton Place. + +When Luclarion let him in, he told her with some careful emphasis, +that he had come to see Desire. + +"Ask her if I shall come up," he said. "I'll wait down here." + +Helena was practicing in the drawing-room. Mrs. Ledwith lay, half +asleep, upon a sofa. The doors into the hall were shut,--Luclarion +had looked to that, lest the playing should disturb Desire. + +Luclarion was only gone three minutes. Then she came back, and led +Mr. Oldways up three flights of stairs. + +"It's a long climb, clear from the door," she said. + +"I can climb," said Mr. Oldways, curtly. + +"I didn't expect it was going to stump _you_," said Luclarion, just +as short in her turn. "But I thought I'd be polite enough to mention +it." + +There came a queer little chuckling wheeze from somewhere, like a +whispered imitation of the first few short pants of a steam-engine: +that was Uncle Titus, laughing to himself. + +Luclarion looked down behind her, out of the corner of her eyes, as +she turned the landing. Uncle Titus's head was dropped between his +shoulders, and his shoulders were shaking up and down. But he kept +his big stick clutched by the middle, in one hand, and the other +just touched the rail as he went up. Uncle Titus was not out of +breath. Not he. He could laugh and climb. + +Desire was sitting up for a little while, before going to bed again +for the night. There was a low gas-light burning by the +dressing-table, ready to turn up when the twilight should be gone; +and a street lamp, just lighted, shone across into the room. +Luclarion had been sitting with her, and her gray knitting-work lay +upon the chair that she offered when she had picked it up, to Mr. +Oldways. Then she went away and left them to their talk. + +"Mrs. Ripwinkley has been spry about it," she said to herself, going +softly down the stairs. "But she always was spry." + +"You're getting well, I hope," said Uncle Titus, seating himself, +after he had given Desire his hand. + +"I suppose so," said Desire, quietly. "That was why I wanted to see +you. I want to know what I ought to do when I am well." + +"How can I tell?" asked Uncle Titus, bluntly. + +"Better than anybody I can ask. The rest are all too sympathizing. I +am afraid they would tell me as I wish they should." + +"And I don't sympathize? Well, I don't think I do much. I haven't +been used to it." + +"You have been used to think what was right; and I believe you would +tell me truly. I want to know whether I ought to go to Europe with +my mother." + +"Why not? Doesn't she want you to go?"--and Uncle Titus was sharp +this time. + +"I suppose so; that is, I suppose she expects I will. But I don't +know that I should be much except a hindrance to her. And I think I +could stay and do something here, in some way. Uncle Titus, I hate +the thought of going to Europe! Now, don't you suppose I ought to +go?" + +"_Why_ do you hate the thought of going to Europe?" asked Uncle +Titus, regarding her with keenness. + +"Because I have never done anything real in all my life!" broke +forth Desire. "And this seems only plastering and patching what +can't be patched. I want to take hold of something. I don't want to +float round any more. What is there left of all we have ever tried +to do, all these years? Of all my poor father's work, what is there +to show for it now? It has all melted away as fast as it came, like +snow on pavements; and now his life has melted away; and I feel as +if we had never been anything real to each other! Uncle Titus, I +can't tell you _how_ I feel!" + +Uncle Titus sat very still. His hat was in one hand, and both +together held his cane, planted on the floor between his feet. Over +hat and cane leaned his gray head, thoughtfully. If Desire could +have seen his eyes, she would have found in them an expression that +she had never supposed could be there at all. + +She had not so much spoken _to_ Uncle Titus, in these last words of +hers, as she had irresistibly spoken _out_ that which was in her. +She wanted Uncle Titus's good common sense and sense of right to +help her decide; but the inward ache and doubt and want, out of +which grew her indecisions,--these showed themselves forth at that +moment simply because they must, with no expectation of a response +from him. It might have been a stone wall that she cried against; +she would have cried all the same. + +Then it was over, and she was half ashamed, thinking it was of no +use, and he would not understand; perhaps that he would only set the +whole down to nerves and fidgets and contrariness, and give her no +common sense that she wanted, after all. + +But Uncle Titus spoke, slowly; much as if he, too, were speaking out +involuntarily, without thought of his auditor. People do so speak, +when the deep things are stirred; they speak into the deep that +answereth unto itself,--the deep that reacheth through all souls, +and all living, whether souls feel into it and know of it or not. + +"The real things are inside," he said. "The real world is the inside +world. _God_ is not up, nor down, but in the _midst_." + +Then he looked up at Desire. + +"What is real of your life is living inside you now. That is +something. Look at it and see what it is." + +"Discontent. Misery. Failure." + +"_Sense_ of failure. Well. Those are good things. The beginning of +better. Those are _live_ things, at any rate." + +Desire had never thought of that. + +Now _she_ sat still awhile. + +Then she said,--"But we can't _be_ much, without doing it. I suppose +we are put into a world of outsides for something." + +"Yes. To find out what it means. That's the inside of it. And to +help make the outside agree with the in, so that it will be easier +for other people to find out. That is the 'kingdom come and will be +done, on earth as it is in heaven.' Heaven is the inside,--the truth +of things." + +"Why, I never knew"--began Desire, astonished. She had almost +finished aloud, as her mother had done in her own mind. She never +knew that Uncle Oldways was "pious." + +"Never knew that was what it meant? What else can it mean? What do +you suppose the resurrection was, or is?" + +Desire answered with a yet larger look of wonder, only in the dim +light it could not be wholly seen. + +"The raising up of the dead; Christ coming up out of the tomb." + +"The coming out of the tomb was a small part of it; just what could +not help being, if the rest was. Jesus Christ rose out of dead +_things_, I take it, into these very real ones that we are talking +of, and so lived in them. The resurrection is a man's soul coming +alive to the soul of creation--God's soul. _That_ is eternal life, +and what Jesus of Nazareth was born to show. Our coming to that is +our being 'raised with Him;' and it begins, or ought to, a long way +this side the tomb. If people would only read the New Testament, +expecting to get as much common sense and earnest there as they do +among the new lights and little 'progressive-thinkers' that are +trying to find it all out over again, they might spare these +gentlemen and themselves a great deal of their trouble." + +The exclamation rose half-way to her lips again,--"I never knew you +thought like this. I never heard you talk of these things before!" + +But she held it back, because she would not stop him by reminding +him that he _was_ talking. It was just the truth that was saying +itself. She must let it say on, while it would. + +"Un--" + +She stopped there, at the first syllable. She would not even call +him "Uncle Titus" again, for fear of recalling him to himself, and +hushing him up. + +"There is something--isn't there--about those who _attain_ to that +resurrection; those who are _worthy_? I suppose there must be some +who are just born to this world, then, and never--'born again?'" + +"It looks like it, sometimes; who can tell?" + +"Uncle Oldways,"--it came out this time in her earnestness, and her +strong personal appeal,--"do you think there are some people--whole +families of people--who have no business in the reality of things +to be at all? Who are all a mistake in the world, and have nothing +to do with its meaning? I have got to feeling sometimes lately, as +if--_I_--had never had any business to be." + +She spoke slowly--awe-fully. It was a strange speech for a girl in +her nineteenth year. But she was a girl in this nineteenth century, +also; and she had caught some of the thoughts and questions of it, +and mixed them up with her own doubts and unsatisfactions which they +could not answer. + +"The world is full of mistakes; mistakes centuries long; but it is +full of salvation and setting to rights, also. 'The kingdom of +heaven is like leaven, which a woman hid in three measures of meal +till the whole was leavened.' You have been _allowed_ to be, Desire +Ledwith. And so was the man that was born blind. And I think there +is a colon put into the sentence about him, where a comma was meant +to be." + +Desire did not ask him, then, what he meant; but she turned to the +story after he had gone, and found this:-- + +"Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents, but that the works +of God should be manifest in him." + +You can see, if you look also, where she took the colon out, and put +the comma in. + +Were all the mistakes--the sins, even--for the very sake of the pure +blessedness and the more perfect knowledge of the setting right? + +Desire began to think that Uncle Oldways' theology might help her. + +What she said to him now was,-- + +"I want to do something. I should like to go and live with +Luclarion, I think, down there in Neighbor Street. I should like to +take hold of some other lives,--little children's, perhaps,"--and +here Desire's voice softened,--"that don't seem to have any business +to be, either, and see if I could help or straighten anything. Then +I feel is if I should know." + +"Then--according to the Scripture--you _would_ know. But--that's +undertaking a good deal. Luclarion Grapp has got there; but she has +been fifty-odd years upon the road. And she has been doing real +things all the time. That's what has brought her there. You can't +boss the world's hard jobs till you've been a journeyman at the easy +ones." + +"And I've missed my apprenticeship!" said Desire, with changed voice +and face, falling back into her disheartenment again. + +"No!" Uncle Oldways almost shouted. "Not if you come to the Master +who takes in the eleventh hour workers. And it isn't the eleventh +hour with you,--_child_!" + +He dwelt on that word "child," reminding her of her short mistaking +and of the long retrieval. Her nineteen years and the forever and +ever contrasted themselves before her suddenly, in the light of +hope. + +She turned sharply, though, to look at her duty. Her journeyman's +duty of easy things. + +"Must I go to Europe with my mother?" she asked again, the +conversation coming round to just that with which it had begun. + +"I'll talk with your mother," said Uncle Oldways, getting up and +looking into his hat, as a man always does when he thinks of putting +it on presently. "Good-night. I suppose you are tired enough now. +I'll come again and see you." + +Desire stood up and gave him her hand. + +"I thank you, Uncle Titus, with all my heart." + +He did not answer her a word; but he knew she meant it. + +He did not stop that night to see his niece. He went home, to think +it over. But as he walked down Borden Street, swinging his big +stick, he said to himself,-- + +"Next of kin! Old Marmaduke Wharne was right. But it takes more than +the Family Bible to tell you which it is!" + +Two days after, he had a talk with Mrs. Ledwith which relieved both +their minds. + +From the brown-and-apricot drawing-room,--from among the things +that stood for nothing now, and had never stood for home,--he went +straight up, without asking, and knocked at Desire's third-story +door. + +"Come in!" she said, without a note of expectation in her voice. + +She had had a dull morning. Helena had brought her a novel from +Loring's that she could not read. Novels, any more than life, cannot +be read with very much patience, unless they touch something besides +surface. Why do critics--some of them--make such short, smart +work,--such cheerful, confident despatch, nowadays, of a story with +religion in it, as if it were an abnormity,--a thing with sentence +of death in itself, like a calf born with two heads,--that needs not +their trouble, save to name it as it is? Why, that is, if religion +stand for the relation of things to spirit, which I suppose it +should? Somebody said that somebody had written a book made up of +"spiritual struggles and strawberry short-cake." That was bright and +funny; and it seemed to settle the matter; but, taking strawberry +short-cake representatively, what else is human experience on earth +made up of? And are novels to be pictures of human experience, or +not? + +This has nothing to do with present matters, however, except that +Desire found nothing real in her novel, and so had flung it aside, +and was sitting rather listlessly with her crochet which she never +cared much for, when Uncle Oldways entered. + +Her face brightened instantly as he came in. He sat down just where +he had sat the other night. Mr. Oldways had a fashion of finding the +same seat a second time when he had come in once; he was a man who +took up most things where he left them off, and this was an +unconscious sign of it. + +"Your mother has decided to sell the house on the 23d, it seems," he +said. + +"Yes; I have been out twice. I shall be able to go away by then; I +suppose that is all she has waited for." + +"Do you think you could be contented to come and live with me?" + +"Come and _live_?" + +"Yes. And let your mother and Helena go to Europe." + +"O, Uncle Oldways! I think I could _rest_ there! But I don't want +only to rest, you know. I must do something. For myself, to begin +with. I have made up my mind not to depend upon my mother. Why +should I, any more than a boy? And I am sure I cannot depend on +anybody else." + +These were Desire Ledwith's thanks; and Mr. Oldways liked them. She +did not say it to please him; she thought it seemed almost +ungrateful and unwilling; but she was so intent on taking up life +for herself. + +"You must have a place to do in,--or from," said Mr. Oldways. "And +it is better you should be under some protection. You must consent +to that for your mother's sake. How much money have you got?" + +"Two hundred and fifty dollars a year. Of my own." + +This was coming to business and calculation and common sense. Desire +was encouraged. Uncle Oldways did not think her quite absurd. + +"That will clothe you,--without much fuss and feathers?" + +"I have done with fuss and feathers,"--Desire said with a grave +smile, glancing at her plain white wrapper and the black shawl that +was folded around her. + +"Then come where is room for you and a welcome, and do as much more +as you please, and can, for yourself, or for anybody else. I won't +give you a cent; you shall have something to do for me, if you +choose. I am an old man now, and want help. Perhaps what I want as +much as anything is what I've been all my life till lately, pretty +obstinate in doing without." + +Uncle Oldways spoke short, and drew his breath in and puffed it out +between his sentences, in his bluff way; but his eyes were kind, as +he sat looking at the young girl over his hat and cane. + +She thought of the still, gray parlor; of Rachel Froke and her face +of peace; and the Quaker meeting and the crumbs last year; of Uncle +Oldways' study, and his shelves rich with books; of the new +understanding that had begun between herself and him, and the faith +she had found out, down beneath his hard reserves; of the beautiful +neighborhood, Miss Craydocke's Beehive, Aunt Franks' cheery home and +the ways of it, and Hazel's runnings in and out. It seemed as if the +real things had opened for her, and a place been made among them in +which she should have "business to be," and from which her life +might make a new setting forth. + +"And mamma knows?" she said, inquiringly, after that long pause. + +"Yes. I told you I would talk with her. That is what we came to. It +is only for you to say, now." + +"I will come. I shall be glad to come!" And her face was full of +light as she looked up and said it. + + * * * * * + +Desire never thought for a moment of what her mother could not help +thinking of; of what Mrs. Megilp thought and said, instantly, when +she learned it three weeks later. + +It is wonderful how abiding influence is,--even influence to which +we are secretly superior,--if ever we have been subjected to, or +allowed ourselves to be swayed by it. The veriest tyranny of +discipline grows into one's conscience, until years after, when life +has got beyond the tyranny, conscience,--or something superinduced +upon it,--keeps up the echo of the old mandates, and one can take no +comfort in doing what one knows all the time one has a perfect +right, besides sound reason, to do. It was a great while before our +grandmothers' daughters could peaceably stitch and overcast a seam, +instead of over-sewing and felling it. I know women who feel to this +moment as if to sit down and read a book of a week-day, in the +daytime, were playing truant to the needle, though all the +sewing-machines on the one hand, and all the demand and supply of +mental culture on the other, of this present changed and bettered +time, protest together against the absurdity. + +Mrs. Ledwith had heard the Megilp precepts and the Megilp +forth-putting of things, until involuntarily everything showed +itself to her in a Megilp light. The Megilp "sense of duty," +therefore, came up as she unhesitatingly assented to Uncle Oldways' +proposal and request. He wanted Desire; of course she could not say +a word; she owed him something, which she was glad she could so make +up; and secretly there whispered in her mind the suggestion which +Mrs. Megilp, on the other side of the water, spoke right out. + +"If he wants her, he must mean something by her. He is an old man; +he might not live to give her back into her mother's keeping; what +would she do there, in that old house of his, if he should die, +unless--he _does_ mean something? He has taken a fancy to her; she +is odd, as he is; and he isn't so queer after all, but that his +crotchets have a good, straightforward sense of justice in them. +Uncle Titus knows what he is about; and what's more, just what he +ought to be about. It is a good thing to have Desire provided for; +she is uncomfortable and full of notions, and she isn't likely ever +to be married." + +So Desire was given up, easily, she could not help feeling; but she +knew she had been a puzzle and a vexation to her mother, and that +Mrs. Ledwith had never had the least idea what to do with her; least +of all had she now, what she should do with her abroad. + +"It was so much better for her that Uncle Titus had taken her home." +With these last words Mrs. Ledwith reassured herself and cheered her +child. + +Perhaps it would have been the same--it came into Desire's head, +that would conceive strange things--if the angels had taken her. + +Mrs. Ledwith went to New York; she stayed a few days with Mrs. +Macmichael, who wanted her to buy lace for her in Brussels and +Bohemian glass in Prague; then a few days more with her cousin, +Geraldine Raxley; and then the _City of Antwerp_ sailed. + + + + +XX. + +NEIGHBORS AND NEXT OF KIN. + + +"I'll tell you what to do with them, Luclarion," said Hazel briskly. +"Teach them to play." + +"Music! Pianners!" exclaimed Luclarion, dismayed. + +"No. Games. Teach them to have good times. That was the first thing +ever we learnt, wasn't it, Dine? And we never could have got along +without it." + +"It takes _you_!" said Luclarion, looking at Hazel with delighted +admiration. + +"Does it? Well I don't know but it does. May I go, mother? +Luclarion, haven't you got a great big empty room up at the top of +the house?" + +Luclarion had. + +"That's just what it's for, then. Couldn't Mr. Gallilee put up a +swing? And a 'flying circle' in the middle? You see they can't go +out on the roofs; so they must have something else that will seem +kind of flighty. And _I'll_ tell you how they'll learn their +letters. Sulie and I will paint 'em; great big ones, all colors; and +hang 'em up with ribbons, and every child that learns one, so as to +know it everywhere, shall take it down and carry it home. Then we +will have marbles for numbers; and they shall play addition games, +and multiplication games, and get the sums for prizes; the ones that +get to the head, you know. Why, you don't understand _objects_, +Luclarion!" + +Luclarion had been telling them of the wild little folk of Neighbor +Street, and worse, of Arctic Street. She wanted to do something with +them. She had tried to get them in with gingerbread and popcorn; +they came in fast enough for those; but they would not stay. They +were digging in the gutters and calling names; learning the foul +language of the places into which they were born; chasing and hiding +in alley-ways; filching, if they could, from shops; going off +begging with lies on their lips. It was terrible to see the springs +from which the life of the city depths was fed. + +"If you could stop it _there_!" Luclarion said, and said with +reason. + +"Will you let me go?" asked Hazel of her mother, in good earnest. + +"'Twon't hurt her," put in Luclarion. "Nothing's catching that you +haven't got the seeds of in your own constitution. And so the +catching will be the other way." + +The seeds of good,--to catch good; that was what Luclarion Grapp +believed in, in those dirty little souls,--no, those clean little +_souls_, overlaid with all outward mire and filth of body, clothing, +speech, and atmosphere, for a mile about; through which they could +no more grope and penetrate, to reach their own that was hidden from +them in the clearer life beyond, than we can grope and reach to +other stars. + +"I will get Desire," quoth Hazel, inspired as she always was, both +ways. + +Running in at the house in Greenley Street the next Thursday, she +ran against Uncle Titus coming out. + +"What now?" he demanded. + +"Desire," said Hazel. "I've come for her. We're wanted at +Luclarion's. We've got work to do." + +"Humph! Work? What kind?" + +"Play," said Hazel, laughing. She delighted to bother and mystify +Uncle Titus, and imagined that she did. + +"I thought so. Tea parties?" + +"Something like," said Hazel. "There are children down there that +don't know how to grow up. They haven't any comfortable sort of +fashion of growing up. Somebody has got to teach them. They don't +know how to play 'Grand Mufti,' and they never heard of 'King George +and his troops.' Luclarion tried to make them sit still and learn +letters; but of course they wouldn't a minute longer than the +gingerbread lasted, and they are eating her out of house and home. +It will take young folks, and week-days, you see; so Desire and I +are going." And Hazel ran up the great, flat-stepped staircase. + +"Lives that have no business to be," said Uncle Titus to himself, +going down the brick walk. "The Lord has His own ways of bringing +lives together. And His own business gets worked out among them, +beyond their guessing. When a man grows old, he can stand still now +and then, and see a little." + +It was a short cross street that Luclarion lived in, between two +great thoroughfares crowded with life and business, bustle, +drudgery, idleness, and vice. You will not find the name I give +it,--although you may find one that will remind you of it,--in any +directory or on any city map. But you can find the places without +the names; and if you go down there with the like errands in your +heart, you will find the work, as she found it, to do. + +She heard the noise of street brawls at night, voices of men and +women quarreling in alley-ways, and up in wretched garrets; flinging +up at each other, in horrible words, all the evil they knew of in +each other's lives,--"away back," Luclarion said, "to when they were +little children." + +"And what is it," she would say to Mrs. Ripwinkley telling her +about it, "that _flings_ it up, and can call it a shame, after all +the shames of years and years? Except just _that_ that the little +children _were_, underneath, when the Lord let them--He knows +why--be born so? I tell you, ma'am, it's a mystery; and the nigher +you come to it, the more it is; it's a piece of hell and a piece of +heaven; it's the wrastle of the angel and the dragon; and it's going +on at one end, while they're building up their palaces and living +soft and sweet and clean at the other, with everything hushed up +that can't at least _seem_ right and nice and proper. I know there's +good folks there, in the palaces; _beautiful_ folks; there, and all +the way down between; with God's love in them, and His hate, that is +holy, against sin; and His pity, that is _prayers_ in them, for all +people and places that are dark; but if they would _come down_ +there, and take hold! I think it's them that would, that might have +part in the first resurrection, and live and reign the thousand +years." + +Luclarion never counted herself among them,--those who were to have +thrones and judgments; she forgot, even, that she had gone down and +taken hold; her words came burning-true, out of her soul; and in the +heat of truth they were eloquent. + +But I meant to tell you of her living. + +In the daytime it was quiet; the gross evils crept away and hid from +the sunshine; there was labor to take up the hours, for those who +did labor; and you might not know or guess, to go down those +avenues, that anything worse gathered there than the dust of the +world's traffic that the lumbering drays ground up continually with +their wheels, and the wind,--that came into the city from far away +country places of green sweetness, and over hills and ponds and +streams and woods,--flung into the little children's faces. + +Luclarion had taken a house,--one of two, that fronted upon a +little planked court; aside, somewhat, from Neighbor Street, as that +was a slight remove from the absolute terrible contact of Arctic +Street. But it was in the heart of that miserable quarter; she could +reach out her hands and touch and gather in, if it would let her, +the wretchedness. She had chosen a place where it was possible for +her to make a nook of refuge, not for herself only, or so much, as +for those to whom she would fain be neighbor, and help to a better +living. + +It had been once a dwelling of some well-to-do family of the days +gone by; of some merchant, whose ventures went out and came in at +those wharves below, whence the air swept up pure, then, with its +salt smell, into the streets. The rooms were fairly large; Luclarion +spent money out of her own little property, that had been growing by +care and saving till she could spare from it, in doing her share +toward having it all made as sweet and clean as mortar and whitewash +and new pine-boards and paint and paper could make it. All that was +left of the old, they scoured with carbolic soap; and she had the +windows opened, and in the chimneys that had been swept of their +soot she had clear fires made and kept burning for days. + +Then she put her new, plain furnishings into her own two down-stairs +rooms; and the Gallilees brought in theirs above; and beside them, +she found two decent families,--a German paper-hanger's, and that of +a carpenter at one of the theatres, whose wife worked at +dressmaking,--to take the rest. Away up, at the very top, she had +the wide, large room that Hazel spoke of, and a smaller one to which +she climbed to sleep, for the sake of air as near heaven as it could +be got. + +One of her lower-rooms was her living and housekeeping room; the +other she turned into a little shop, in which she sold tapes and +needles and cheap calicoes and a few ribbons; and kept a counter on +the opposite side for bread and yeast, gingerbread, candy, and the +like. She did this partly because she must do something to help out +the money for her living and her plans, and partly to draw the women +and children in. How else could she establish any relations between +herself and them, or get any permanent hold or access? She had +"turned it all over in her mind," she said; "and a tidy little shop +with fair, easy prices, was the very thing, and a part of just what +she came down there to do." + +She made real, honest, hop-raised bread, of sweet flour that she +gave ten dollars a barrel for; it took a little more than a pint, +perhaps, to make a tea loaf; that cost her three cents; she sold her +loaf for four, and it was better than they could get anywhere else +for five. Then, three evenings in a week, she had hot muffins, or +crumpets, home-made; (it was the subtle home touch and flavor that +she counted on, to carry more than a good taste into their mouths, +even a dim notion of home sweetness and comfort into their hearts;) +these first,--a quart of flour at five cents, two eggs at a cent +apiece, and a bit of butter, say three cents more, with three cents +worth of milk, made an outlay of fifteen cents for a dozen and a +half; so she sold them for ten cents a dozen, and the like had never +been tasted or dreamed of in all that region round about; no, nor I +dare almost to say, in half the region round about Republic Avenue +either, where they cannot get Luclarion Grapps to cook. + +The crumpets were cheaper; they were only bread-sponge, baked on a +griddle; they were large, and light and tender; a quart of flour +would make ten; she gave the ten for seven cents. + +And do you see, putting two cents on every quart of her flour, for +her labor, she _earned_, not _made_,--that word is for speculators +and brokers,--with a barrel of one hundred and ninety six pounds or +quarts, three dollars and ninety-two cents? The beauty of it was, +you perceive, that she did a small business; there was an eager +market for all she could produce, and there was no waste to allow a +margin for. + +I am not a bit of a political economist myself; but I have a shrewd +suspicion that Luclarion Grapp was, besides having hit upon the +initial, individual idea of a capital social and philanthropic +enterprise. + +This was all she tried to do at first; she began with bread; the +Lord from heaven began with that; she fed as much of the multitude +as she could reach; they gathered about her for the loaves; and they +got, consciously or unconsciously, more than they came or asked for. + +They saw her clean-swept floor; her netted windows that kept the +flies out, the clean, coarse white cotton shades,--tacked up, and +rolled and tied with cord, country-fashion, for Luclarion would not +set any fashions that her poor neighbors might not follow if they +would;--and her shelves kept always dusted down; they could see her +way of doing that, as they happened in at different times, when she +whisked about, lightly and nicely, behind and between her jars and +boxes and parcels with the little feather duster that she kept +hanging over her table where she made her change and sat at her +sewing. + +They grew ashamed by degrees,--those coarse women,--to come in in +their frowsy rags, to buy her delicate muffins or her white loaves; +they would fling on the cleanest shawl they had or could borrow, to +"cut round to Old Maid Grapp's," after a cent's worth of yeast,--for +her yeast, also, was like none other that could be got, and would +_almost_ make her own beautiful bread of itself. + +Back of the shop was her house-room; the cheapest and cleanest of +carpet,--a square, bound round with bright-striped carpet-binding,--laid +in the middle of a clean dark yellow floor; a plain pine table, scoured +white, standing in the middle of that; on it, at tea-time, common blue +and white crockery cups and plates, and a little black teapot; a napkin, +coarse, but fresh from the fold, laid down to save, and at the same +time to set off, with a touch of delicate neatness, the white table; +a wooden settee, with a home-made calico-covered cushion and pillows, +set at right angles with the large, black, speckless stove; a wooden +rocking-chair, made comfortable in like manner, on the other side; the +sink in the corner, clean, freshly rinsed, with the bright tin basin +hung above it on a nail. + +There was nothing in the whole place that must not be, in some +shape, in almost the poorest; but all so beautifully ordered, so +stainlessly kept. Through that open door, those women read a daily +sermon. + +And Luclarion herself,--in a dark cotton print gown, a plain strip +of white about the throat,--even that was cotton, not linen, and two +of them could be run together in ten minutes for a cent,--and a +black alpacca apron, never soiled or crumpled, but washed and ironed +when it needed, like anything else,--her hair smoothly gathered back +under a small white half-handkerchief cap, plain-hemmed,--was the +sermon alive; with the soul of it, the inner sweetness and purity, +looking out at them from clear pleasant eyes, and lips cheery with a +smile that lay behind them. + +She had come down there just to do as God told her to be a neighbor, +and to let her light shine. He would see about the glorifying. + +She did not try to make money out of her candy, or her ginger-nuts; +she kept those to entice the little children in; to tempt them to +come again when they had once done an errand, shyly, or saucily, or +hang-doggedly,--it made little difference which to her,--in her +shop. + +"I'll tell you what it's like," Hazel said, when she came in and +up-stairs the first Saturday afternoon with Desire, and showed and +explained to her proudly all Luclarion's ways and blessed +inventions. "It's like your mother and mine throwing crumbs to make +the pigeons come, when they were little girls, and lived in +Boston,--I mean _here_!" + +Hazel waked up at the end of her sentence, suddenly, as we all do +sometimes, out of talking or thinking, to the consciousness that it +was _here_ that she had mentally got round to. + +Desire had never heard of the crumbs or the pigeons. Mrs. Ledwith +had always been in such a hurry, living on, that she never stopped +to tell her children the sweet old tales of how she _had_ lived. Her +child-life had not ripened in her as it had done in Frank. + +Desire and Hazel went up-stairs and looked at the empty room. It was +light and pleasant; dormer windows opened out on a great area of +roofs, above which was blue sky; upon which, poor clothes fluttered +in the wind, or cats walked and stretched themselves safely and +lazily in the sun. + +"I always _do_ like roofs!" said Hazel. "The nicest thing in 'Mutual +Friend' is Jenny Wren up on the Jew's roof, being dead. It seems +like getting up over the world, and leaving it all covered up and +put away." + +"Except the old clothes," said Desire. + +"They're _washed_" answered Hazel, promptly; and never stopped to +think of the meaning. + +Then she jumped down from the window, along under which a great +beam made a bench to stand on, and looked about the chamber. + +"A swing to begin with," she said. "Why what is that? Luclarion's +got one!" + +Knotted up under two great staples that held it, was the long loop +of clean new rope; the notched board rested against the chimney +below. + +"It's all ready! Let's go down and catch one! Luclarion, we've come +to tea," she announced, as they reached the sitting-room. "There's +the shop bell!" + +In the shop was a woman with touzled hair and a gown with placket +split from gathers to hem, showing the ribs of a dirty skeleton +skirt. A child with one garment on,--some sort of woolen thing that +had never been a clean color, and was all gutter-color now,--the +woman holding the child by the hand here, in a safe place, in a way +these mothers have who turn their children out in the street dirt +and scramble without any hand to hold. No wonder, though, perhaps; +in the strangeness and unfitness of the safe, pure place, doubtless +they feel an uneasy instinct that the poor little vagabonds have got +astray, and need some holding. + +"Give us a four-cent loaf!" said the woman, roughly, her eyes +lowering under crossly furrowed brows, as she flung two coins upon +the little counter. + +Luclarion took down one, looked at it, saw that it had a pale side, +and exchanged it for another. + +"Here is a nice crusty one," she said pleasantly, turning to wrap it +in a sheet of paper. + +"None o' yer gammon! Give it here; there's your money; come along, +Crazybug!" And she grabbed the loaf without a wrapper, and twitched +the child. + +Hazel sat still. She knew there was no use. But Desire with her +point-black determination, went right at the boy, took hold of his +hand, dirt and all; it was disagreeable, therefore she thought she +must do it. + +"Don't you want to come and swing?" she said. + +"---- yer swing! and yer imperdence! Clear out! He's got swings +enough to home! Go to ----, and be ----, you ---- ---- ----!" + +Out of the mother's mouth poured a volley of horrible words, like a +hailstorm of hell. + +Desire fell back, as from a blinding shock of she knew not what. + +Luclarion came round the counter, quite calmly. + +"Ma'am," she said, "those words won't hurt _her_. She don't know the +language. But you've got God's daily bread in your hand; how can you +talk devil's Dutch over it?" + +The woman glared at her. But she saw nothing but strong, calm, +earnest asking in the face; the asking of God's own pity. + +She rebelled against that, sullenly; but she spoke no more foul +words. I think she could as soon have spoken them in the face of +Christ; for it was the Christ in Luclarion Grapp that looked out at +her. + +"You needn't preach. You can order me out of your shop, if you like. +I don't care." + +"I don't order you out. I'd rather you would come again. I don't +think you will bring that street-muck with you, though." + +There was both confidence and command in the word like the "Neither +do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more." It detached the street-muck +from the woman. It was not _she_; it was defilement she had picked +up, when perhaps she could not help it. She could scrape her shoes +at the door, and come in clean. + +"You know a darned lot about it, I suppose!" were the last words of +defiance; softened down, however, you perceive, to that which can be +printed. + +Desire was pale, with a dry sob in her throat, when the woman had +gone and Luclarion turned round. + +"The angels in heaven know; why shouldn't you?" said Luclarion. +"That's what we've got to help." + +A child came in afterwards, alone; with an actual clean spot in the +middle of her face, where a ginger-nut or an acid drop might go in. +This was a regular customer of a week past. The week had made that +clean spot; with a few pleasant and encouraging hints from +Luclarion, administered along with the gingerbread. + +Now it was Hazel's turn. + +The round mouth and eyes, with expectation in them, were like a spot +of green to Hazel, feeling with her witch-wand for a human spring. +But she spoke to Desire, looking cunningly at the child. + +"Let us go back and swing," she said. + +The girl's head pricked itself up quickly. + +"We've got a swing up-stairs," said Hazel, passing close by, and +just pausing. "A new one. I guess it goes pretty high; and it looks +out of top windows. Wouldn't you like to come and see?" + +The child lived down in a cellar. + +"Take up some ginger-nuts, and eat them there," said Luclarion to +Hazel. + +If it had not been for that, the girl would have hung back, afraid +of losing her shop treat. + +Hazel knew better than to hold out her hand, at this first essay; +she would do that fast enough when the time came. She only walked +on, through the sitting-room, to the stairs. + +The girl peeped, and followed. + +Clean stairs. She had never trodden such before. Everything was +strange and clean here, as she had never seen anything before in all +her life, except the sky and the white clouds overhead. Heaven be +thanked that they are held over us, spotless, always! + +Hazel heard the little feet, shuffling, in horrible, distorted +shoes, after her, over the steps; pausing, coming slowly but still +starting again, and coming on. + +Up on the high landing, under the skylight, she opened the door wide +into the dormer-windowed room, and went in; she and Desire, neither +of them looking round. + +Hazel got into the swing. Desire pushed; after three vibrations they +saw the ragged figure standing in the doorway, watching, turning its +head from side to side as the swing passed. + +"Almost!" cried Hazel, with her feet up at the window. "There!" She +thrust them out at that next swing; they looked as if they touched +the blue. + +"I can see over all the chimneys, and away off, down the water! Now +let the old cat die." + +Out again, with a spring, as the swinging slackened, she still took +no notice of the child, who would have run, like a wild kitten, if +she had gone after her. She called Desire, and plunged into a closet +under the eaves. + +"I wonder what's here!" she exclaimed. + +"Rats!" + +The girl in the doorway saw the dark, into which the low door +opened; she was used to rats in the dark. + +"I don't believe it," says Hazel; "Luclarion has a cut, a great big +buff one with green eyes. She came in over the roofs, and she runs +up here nights. I shouldn't wonder if there might be kittens, +though,--one of these days, at any rate. Why! what a place to play +'Dare' in! It goes way round, I don't know where! Look here, +Desire!" + +She sat on the threshold, that went up a step, over the beam, and so +leaned in. She had one eye toward the girl all the time, out of the +shadow. She beckoned and nodded, and Desire came. + +At the same moment, the coast being clear, the girl gave a sudden +scud across, and into the swing. She began to scuff with her +slipshod, twisted shoes, pushing herself. + +Hazel gave another nod behind her to Desire. Desire stood up, and as +the swing came back, pushed gently, touching the board only. + +The girl laughed out with the sudden thrill of the motion. Desire +pushed again. + +Higher and higher, till the feet reached up to the window. + +"There!" she cried; and kicked an old shoe off, out over the roof. +"I've lost my shoe!" + +"Never mind; it'll be down in the yard," said Hazel. + +Thereupon the child, at the height of her sweep again, kicked out +the other one. + +Desire and Hazel, together, pushed her for a quarter of an hour. + +"Now let's have ginger-cakes," said Hazel, taking them out of her +pocket, and leaving the "cat" to die. + +Little Barefoot came down at that, with a run; hanging to the rope +at one side, and dragging, till she tumbled in a sprawl upon the +floor. + +"You ought to have waited," said Desire. + +"Poh! I don't never wait!" cried the ragamuffin rubbing her elbows. +"I don't care." + +"But it isn't nice to tumble round," suggested Hazel. + +"I _ain't_ nice," answered the child, and settled the subject. + +"Well, these ginger-nuts are," said Hazel. "Here!" + +"Have you had a good time?" she asked when the last one was eaten, +and she led the way to go down-stairs. + +"Good time! That ain't nothin'! I've had a reg'lar bust! I'm comin' +agin'; it's bully. Now I must get my loaf and my shoes, and go along +back and take a lickin'." + +That was the way Hazel caught her first child. + +She made her tell her name,--Ann Fazackerley,--and promise to come +on Saturday afternoon, and bring two more girls with her. + +"We'll have a party," said Hazel, "and play Puss in the Corner. But +you must get leave," she added. "Ask your mother. I don't want you +to be punished when you go home." + +"Lor! you're green! I ain't got no mother. An' I always hooks jack. +I'm licked reg'lar when I gets back, anyway. There's half a dozen of +'em. When 'tain't one, it's another. That's Jane Goffey's bread; +she's been a swearin' after it this hour, you bet. But I'll +come,--see if I don't!" + +Hazel drew a hard breath as she let the girl go. Back to her crowded +cellar, her Jane Goffeys, the swearings, and the lickings. What was +one hour at a time, once or twice a week, to do against all this? + +But she remembered the clean little round in her face, out of which +eyes and mouth looked merrily, while she talked rough slang; the +same fun and daring,--nothing worse,--were in this child's face, +that might be in another's saying prettier words. How could she help +her words, hearing nothing but devil's Dutch around her all the +time? Children do not make the language they are born into. And the +face that could be simply merry, telling such a tale as that,--what +sort of bright little immortality must it be the outlook of? + +Hazel meant to try her hour. + + * * * * * + +This is one of my last chapters. I can only tell you now they +began,--these real folks,--the work their real living led them up +to. Perhaps some other time we may follow it on. If I were to tell +you now a finished story of it, I should tell a story ahead of the +world. + +I can show you what six weeks brought it to. I can show you them +fairly launched in what may grow to a beautiful private charity,--an +"Insecution,"--a broad social scheme,--a millennium; at any rate, a +life work, change and branch as it may, for these girls who have +found out, in their girlhood, that there is genuine living, not mere +"playing pretend," to be done in the world. But you cannot, in +little books of three hundred pages, see things through. I never +expected or promised to do that. The threescore years and ten +themselves, do not do it. + +It turned into regular Wednesday and Saturday afternoons. Three +girls at first, then six, then less again,--sometimes only one or +two; until they gradually came up to and settled at, an average of +nine or ten. + +The first Saturday they took them as they were. The next time they +gave them a stick of candy each, the first thing, then Hazel's +fingers were sticky, and she proposed the wash-basin all round, +before they went up-stairs. The bright tin bowl was ready in the +sink, and a clean round towel hung beside; and with some red and +white soap-balls, they managed to fascinate their dirty little +visitors into three clean pairs of hands, and three clean faces as +well. + +The candy and the washing grew to be a custom; and in three weeks' +time, watching for a hot day and having it luckily on a Saturday, +they ventured upon instituting a whole bath, in big round tubs, in +the back shed-room, where a faucet came in over a wash bench, and a +great boiler was set close by. + +They began with a foot-paddle, playing pond, and sailing chips at +the same time; then Luclarion told them they might have tubs full, +and get in all over and duck, if they liked; and children who may +hate to be washed, nevertheless are always ready for a duck and a +paddle. So Luclarion superintended the bath-room; Diana helped her; +and Desire and Hazel tended the shop. Luclarion invented a +shower-bath with a dipper and a colander; then the wet, tangled hair +had to be combed,--a climax which she had secretly aimed at with a +great longing, from the beginning; and doing this, she contrived +with carbolic soap and a separate suds, and a bit of sponge, to give +the neglected little heads a most salutary dressing. + +Saturday grew into bath-day; soap-suds suggested bubbles; and the +ducking and the bubbling were a frolic altogether. + +Then Hazel wished they could be put into clean clothes each time; +wouldn't it do, somehow? + +But that would cost. Luclarion had come to the limit of her purse; +Hazel had no purse, and Desire's was small. + +"But you see they've _got_ to have it," said Hazel; and so she went +to her mother, and from her straight to Uncle Oldways. + +They counted up,--she and Desire, and Diana; two little common +suits, of stockings, underclothes, and calico gowns, apiece; +somebody to do a washing once a week, ready for the change; and +then--"those horrid shoes!" + +"I don't see how you can do it," said Mrs. Ripwinkley. "The things +will be taken away from them, and sold. You would have to keep +doing, over and over, to no purpose, I am afraid." + +"I'll see to that," said Luclarion, facing her "stump." "We'll do +for them we can do for; if it ain't ones, it will be tothers. Those +that don't keep their things, can't have 'em; and if they're taken +away, I won't sell bread to the women they belong to, till they're +brought back. Besides, the _washing_ kind of sorts 'em out, +beforehand. 'Taint the worst ones that are willing to come, or to +send, for that. You always have to work in at an edge, in anything, +and make your way as you go along. It'll regulate. I'm _living_ +there right amongst 'em; I've got a clew, and a hold; I can follow +things up; I shall have a 'circle;' there's circles everywhere. And +in all the wheels there's a moving _spirit_; you ain't got to depend +just on yourself. Things work; the Lord sees to it; it's _His_ +business as much as yours." + +Hazel told Uncle Titus that there were shoes and stockings and gowns +wanted down in Neighbor Street; things for ten children; they must +have subscriptions. And so she had come to him. + +The Ripwinkleys had never given Uncle Titus a Christmas or a +birthday present, for fear they should seem to establish a mutual +precedent. They had never talked of their plans which involved +calculation, before him; they were terribly afraid of just one thing +with him, and only that one,--of anything most distantly like what +Desire Ledwith called "a Megilp bespeak." But now Hazel went up to +him as bold as a lion. She took it for granted he was like other +people,--"real folks;" that he would do--what must be done. + +"How much will it cost?" + +"For clothes and shoes for each child, about eight dollars for three +months, we guess," said Hazel. "Mother's going to pay for the +washing!" + +"_Guess_? Haven't you calculated?" + +"Yes, sir. 'Guess' and 'calculate' mean the same thing in Yankee," +said Hazel, laughing. + +Uncle Titus laughed in and out, in his queer way, with his shoulders +going up and down. + +Then he turned round, on his swivel chair, to his desk, and wrote a +check for one hundred dollars. + +"There. See how far you can make that go." + +"That's good," said Hazel, heartily, looking at it; "that's +splendid!" and never gave him a word of personal thanks. It was a +thing for mutual congratulations, rather, it would seem; the "good" +was just what they all wanted, and there it was. Why should anybody +in particular be thanked, as if anybody in particular had asked for +anything? She did not say this, or think it; she simply did not +think about it at all. + +And Uncle Oldways--again--liked it. + +There! I shall not try, now, to tell you any more; their +experiences, their difficulties, their encouragements, would make +large material for a much larger book. I want you to know of the +idea, and the attempt. If they fail, partly,--if drunken fathers +steal the shoes, and the innocent have to forfeit for the +guilty,--if the bad words still come to the lips often, though Hazel +tells them they are not "nice,"--and beginning at the outside, they +are in a fair way of learning the niceness of being nice,--if some +children come once or twice, and get dressed up, and then go off +and live in the gutters again until the clothes are gone,--are these +real failures? There is a bright, pure place down there in Neighbor +Street, and twice a week some little children have there a bright, +pure time. Will this be lost in the world? In the great Ledger of +God will it always stand unbalanced on the debit side? + +If you are afraid it will fail,--will be swallowed up in the great +sink of vice and misery, like a single sweet, fresh drop, sweet only +while it is falling,--go and do likewise; rain down more; make the +work larger, stronger; pour the sweetness in faster, till the wide, +grand time of full refreshing shall have come from the presence of +the Lord! + +Ada Geoffrey went down and helped. Miss Craydocke is going to knit +scarlet stockings all winter for them; Mr. Geoffrey has put a +regular bath-room in for Luclarion, with half partitions, and three +separate tubs; Mrs. Geoffrey has furnished a dormitory, where little +homeless ones can be kept to sleep. Luclarion has her hands full, +and has taken in a girl to help her, whose board and wages Rachel +Froke and Asenath Scherman pay. A thing like that spreads every way; +you have only to be among, and one of--Real Folks. + + * * * * * + +Desire, besides her work in Neighbor Street, has gone into the +Normal School. She wants to make herself fit for any teaching; she +wants also to know and to become a companion of earnest, working +girls. + +She told Uncle Titus this, after she had been with him a month, and +had thought it over; and Uncle Titus agreed, quite as if it were no +real concern of his, but a very proper and unobjectionable plan for +her, if she liked it. + +One day, though, when Marmaduke Wharne--who had come this fall again +to stay his three days, and talk over their business,--sat with him +in his study, just where they had sat two years and a little more +ago, and Hazel and Desire ran up and down stairs together, in and +out upon their busy Wednesday errands,--Marmaduke said to Titus,-- + +"Afterwards is a long time, friend; but I mistrust you have found +the comfort, as well as the providence, of 'next of kin?'" + +"Afterwards _is_ a long time," said Titus Oldways, gravely; "but the +Lord's line of succession stretches all the way through." + +And that same night he had his other old friend, Miss Craydocke, in; +and he brought two papers that he had ready, quietly out to be +signed, each with four names: "Titus Oldways," by itself, on the one +side; on the other,-- + + "RACHEL FROKE, + MARMADUKE WHARNE, + KEREN-HAPPUCH CRAYDOCKE." + +And one of those two papers--which are no further part of the +present story, seeing that good old Uncle Titus is at this moment +alive and well, as he has a perfect right, and is heartily welcome +to be, whether the story ever comes to a regular winding up or +not--was laid safely away in a japanned box in a deep drawer of his +study table; and Marmaduke Wharne put the other in his pocket. + +He and Titus knew. I myself guess, and perhaps you do; but neither +you nor I, nor Rachel, nor Keren-happuch, know for certain; and it +is no sort of matter whether we do or not. + +The "next of kin" is a better and a deeper thing than any claim of +law or register of bequest can show. Titus Oldways had found that +out; and he had settled in his mind, to his restful and satisfied +belief, that God, to the last moment of His time, and the last +particle of His created substance, can surely care for and order and +direct His own. + +Is that end and moral enough for a two years' watchful trial and a +two years' simple tale? + + + + +XXI. + +THE HORSESHOE. + + +They laid out the Waite Place in this manner:-- + +Right into the pretty wooded pasture, starting from a point a little +way down the road from the old house, they projected a roadway which +swept round, horseshoe fashion, till it met itself again within a +space of some twenty yards or so; and this sweep made a +frontage--upon its inclosed bit of natural, moss-turfed green, +sprinkled with birch and pine and oak trees, and with gray +out-croppings of rock here and there--for the twenty houses, behind +which opened the rest of the unspoiled, irregular, open slope and +swell and dingle of the hill-foot tract that dipped down at one +reach, we know, to the river. + +The trees, and shrubs, and vines, and ferns, and stones, were left +in their wild prettiness; only some roughness of nature's wear and +tear of dead branches and broken brushwood, and the like, were taken +away, and the little footpaths cleared for pleasant walking. + +There were all the little shady, sweet-smelling nooks, just as they +had been; all the little field-parlors, opening with their winding +turns between bush and rock, one into another. The twenty households +might find twenty separate places, if they all wanted to take a +private out-door tea at once. + +The cellars were dug; the frames were up; workmen were busy with +brick and mortar, hammer and plane; two or three buildings were +nearly finished, and two--the two standing at the head of the +Horseshoe, looking out at the back into the deepest and pleasantest +wood-aisle, where the leaves were reddening and mellowing in the +early October frost, and the ferns were turning into tender +transparent shades of palest straw-color--were completed, and had +dwellers in them; the cheeriest, and happiest, and coziest of +neighbors; and who do you think these were? + +Miss Waite and Delia, of course, in one house; and with them, +dividing the easy rent and the space that was ample for four women, +were Lucilla Waters and her mother. In the other, were Kenneth and +Rosamond Kincaid and Dorris. + +Kenneth and Rosamond had been married just three weeks. Rosamond had +told him she would begin the world with him, and they had begun. +Begun in the simple, true old-fashioned way, in which, if people +only would believe it, it is even yet not impossible for young men +and women to inaugurate their homes. + +They could not have had a place at Westover, and a horse and buggy +for Kenneth to go back and forth with; nor even a house in one of +the best streets of Z----; and down at East Square everything was +very modern and pretentious, based upon the calculation of rising +values and a rush of population. + +But here was this new neighborhood of--well, yes,--"model houses;" a +blessed Christian speculation for a class not easily or often +reached by any speculations save those that grind and consume their +little regular means, by forcing upon them the lawless and arbitrary +prices of the day, touching them at every point in their _living_, +but not governing correspondingly their income, as even the +hod-carrier's and railroad navvy's daily pay is reached and ruled to +meet the proportion of the time. + +They would be plain, simple, little-cultured people that would live +there: the very "betwixt and betweens" that Rosamond had used to +think so hardly fated. Would she go and live among them, in one of +these little new, primitive homes, planted down in the pasture-land, +on the outskirts? Would she--the pretty, graceful, elegant +Rosamond--live semi-detached with old Miss Arabel Waite? + +That was just exactly the very thing she would do; the thing she did +not even let Kenneth think of first, and ask her, but that, when +they had fully agreed that they would begin life somehow, in some +right way together, according to their means, she herself had +questioned him if they might not do. + +And so the houses were hurried in the building; for old Miss Arabel +must have hers before the winter; (it seems strange how often the +change comes when one could not have waited any longer for it;) and +Kenneth had mill building, and surveying, and planning, in East +Square, and Mr. Roger Marchbanks' great gray-stone mansion going up +on West Hill, to keep him busy; work enough for any talented young +fellow, fresh from the School of Technology, who had got fair hold +of a beginning, to settle down among and grasp the "next things" +that were pretty sure to follow along after the first. + +Dorris has all Ruth's music scholars, and more; for there has never +been anybody to replace Miss Robbyns, and there are many young girls +in Z----, and down here in East Square, who want good teaching and +cannot go away to get it. She has also the organ-playing in the new +church. + +She keeps her morning hours and her Saturdays to help Rosamond; for +they are "cooeperating" here, in the new home; what was the use, +else, of having cooeperated in the old? Rosamond cannot bear to have +any coarse, profane fingers laid upon her little household +gods,--her wedding-tins and her feather dusters,--while the first +gloss and freshness are on, at any rate; and with her dainty handling, +the gloss is likely to last a long while. + +Such neighbors, too, as the Waites and Waterses are! How they helped +in the fitting up, running in in odd half hours from their own +nailing and placing, which they said could wait awhile, since they +weren't brides; and such real old times visiting as they have +already between the houses; coming and taking right hold, with +wiping up dinner plates as likely as not, if that is the thing in +hand; picking up what is there, as easily as "the girls" used to +help work out some last new pattern of crochet, or try over music, +or sort worsteds for gorgeous affghans for the next great fair! + +Miss Arabel is apt to come in after dinner, and have a dab at the +plates; she knows she interrupts nothing then; and she "has never +been used to sitting talking, with gloves on and a parasol in her +lap." And now she has given up trying to make impossible biases, she +has such a quantity of time! + +It was the matter of receiving visits from her friends who _did_ sit +with their parasols in their laps, or who only expected to see the +house, or look over wedding presents, that would be the greatest +hindrance, Rosamond realized at once; that is, if she would let it; +so she did just the funniest thing, perhaps, that ever a bride did +do: she set her door wide open from her pretty parlor, with its +books and flowers and pictures and window-draperies of hanging +vines, into the plain, cozy little kitchen, with its tin pans and +bright new buckets and its Shaker chairs; and when she was busy +there, asked her girl-friends right in, as she had used to take them +up into her bedroom, if she were doing anything pretty or had +something to show. + +And they liked it, for the moment, at any rate; they could not help +it; they thought it was lovely; a kind of bewitching little play at +keeping house; though some of them went away and wondered, and said +that Rosamond Holabird had quite changed all her way of living and +her position; it was very splendid and strong-minded, they supposed; +but they never should have thought it of her, and of course she +could not keep it up. + +"And the neighborhood!" was the cry. "The rabble she has got, and is +going to have, round her! All planks and sand, and tubs of mortar, +now; you have to half break your neck in getting up there; and when +it is settled it will be--such a frowze of common people! Why the +foreman of our factory has engaged a house, and Mrs. Haslam, who +actually used to do up laces for mamma, has got another!" + +That is what is said--in some instances--over on West Hill, when the +elegant visitors came home from calling at the Horseshoe. Meanwhile, +what Rosamond does is something like this, which she happened to do +one bright afternoon a very little while ago. + +She and Dorris had just made and baked a charming little tea-cake, +which was set on a fringed napkin in a round white china dish, and +put away in the fresh, oak-grained kitchen pantry, where not a crumb +or a slop had ever yet been allowed to rest long enough to defile or +give a flavor of staleness; out of which everything is tidily used +up while it is nice, and into which little delicate new-made bits +like this, for next meals, are always going. + +The tea-table itself,--with its three plates, and its new silver, +and the pretty, thin, shallow cups and saucers, that an Irish girl +would break a half-dozen of every week,--was laid with exquisite +preciseness; the square white napkins at top and bottom over the +crimson cloth, spread to the exactness of a line, and every knife +and fork at fair right angles; the loaf was upon the white carved +trencher, and nothing to be done when Kenneth should come in, but to +draw the tea, and bring the brown cake forth. + +Rosamond will not leave all these little doings to break up the +pleasant time of his return; she will have her leisure then, let her +be as busy as she may while he is away. + +There was an hour or more after all was done; even after the +Panjandrums had made their state call, leaving their barouche at the +heel of the Horseshoe, and filling up all Rosamond's little +vestibule with their flounces, as they came in and went out. + +The Panjandrums were new people at West Hill; very new and very +grand, as only new things and new people can be, turned out in the +latest style pushed to the last agony. Mrs. Panjandrum's dress was +all in two shades of brown, to the tips of her feathers, and the +toes of her boots, and the frill of her parasol; and her carriage +was all in two shades of brown, likewise; cushions, and tassels, +and panels; the horses themselves were cream-color, with dark +manes and tails. Next year, perhaps, everything will be in +pansy-colors,--black and violet and gold; and then she will probably +have black horses with gilded harness and royal purple tails. + +It was very good of the Panjandrums, doubtless, to come down to the +Horseshoe at all; I am willing to give them all the credit of really +admiring Rosamond, and caring to see her in her little new home; but +there are two other things to be considered also: the novel kind of +home Rosamond had chosen to set up, and the human weakness of +curiosity concerning all experiments, and friends in all new lights; +also the fact of that other establishment shortly to branch out of +the Holabird connection. The family could not quite go under water, +even with people of the Panjandrum persuasion, while there was such +a pair of prospective corks to float them as Mr. and Mrs. Dakie +Thayne. + +The Panjandrum carriage had scarcely bowled away, when a little +buggy and a sorrel pony came up the road, and somebody alighted with +a brisk spring, slipped the rein with a loose knot through the +fence-rail at the corner, and came up one side of the two-plank +foot-walk that ran around the Horseshoe; somebody who had come home +unexpectedly, to take his little wife to ride. Kenneth Kincaid had +business over at the new district of "Clarendon Park." + +Drives, and livery-stable bills, were no part of the items allowed +for, in the programme of these young people's living; therefore +Rosamond put on her gray hat, with its soft little dove's breast, +and took her bright-striped shawl upon her arm, and let Kenneth lift +her into the buggy--for which there was no manner of need except +that they both liked it,--with very much the feeling as if she were +going off on a lovely bridal trip. They had had no bridal trip, you +see; they did not really want one; and this little impromptu drive +was such a treat! + +Now the wonders of nature and the human mind show--if I must go so +far to find an argument for the statement I am making--that into a +single point of time or particle of matter may be gathered the +relations of a solar system or the experiences of a life; that a +universe may be compressed into an atom, or a molecule expanded into +a macrocosm; therefore I expect nobody to sneer at my Rosamond as +childishly nappy in her simple honeymoon, or at me for making +extravagant and unsupported assertions, when I say that this hour +and a half, and these four miles out to Clarendon Park and +back,--the lifting and the tucking in, and the setting off, the +sitting side by side in the ripe October air and the golden +twilight, the noting together every pretty turn, every flash of +autumn color in the woods, every change in the cloud-groupings +overhead, every glimpse of busy, bright-eyed squirrels up and down +the walls, every cozy, homely group of barnyard creatures at the +farmsteads, the change, the pleasure, the thought of home and +always-togetherness,--all this made the little treat of a country +ride as much to them, holding all that any wandering up and down the +whole world in their new companionship could hold,--as a going to +Europe, or a journey to mountains and falls and sea-sides and +cities, in a skimming of the States. You cannot have more than there +is; and you do not care, for more than just what stands for and +emphasizes the essential beauty, the living gladness, that no +_place_ gives, but that hearts carry about into places and baptize +them with, so that ever afterward a tender charm hangs round them, +because "we saw it _then_." + +And Kenneth and Rosamond Kincaid had all these bright associations, +these beautiful glamours, these glad reminders, laid up for years to +come, in a four miles space that they might ride or walk over, +re-living it all, in the returning Octobers of many other years. I +say they had a bridal tour that day, and that the four miles were as +good as four thousand. Such little bits of signs may stand for such +high, great, blessed things! + +"How lovely stillness and separateness are!" said Rosamond as they +sat in the buggy, stopping to enjoy a glimpse of the river on one +side, and a flame of burning bushes on the other, against the dark +face of a piece of woods that held the curve of road in which they +stood, in sheltered quiet. "How pretty a house would be, up on that +knoll. Do you know things puzzle me a little, Kenneth? I have almost +come to a certain conclusion lately, that people are not meant to +live apart, but that it is really everybody's duty to live in a +town, or a village, or in some gathering of human beings together. +Life tends to that, and all the needs and uses of it; and yet,--it +is so sweet in a place like this,--and however kind and social you +may be, it seems once in a while such an escape! Do you believe in +beautiful country places, and in having a little piece of creation +all to yourself, if you can get it, or if not what do you suppose +all creation is made for?" + +"Perhaps just that which you have said, Rose." Rosamond has now, +what her mother hinted once, somebody to call her "Rose," with a +happy and beautiful privilege. "Perhaps to escape into. Not for one, +here and there, selfishly, all the time; but for the whole, with +fair share and opportunity. Creation is made very big, you see, and +men and women are made without wings, and with very limited hands +and feet. Also with limited lives; that makes the time-question, and +the hurry. There is a suggestion,--at any rate, a necessity,--in +that. It brings them within certain spaces, always. In spite of all +the artificial lengthening of railroads and telegraphs, there must +still be centres for daily living, intercourse, and need. People +tend to towns; they cannot establish themselves in isolated +independence. Yet packing and stifling are a cruelty and a sin. I do +not believe there ought to be any human being so poor as to be +forced to such crowding. The very way we are going to live at the +Horseshoe, seems to me an individual solution of the problem. It +ought to come to pass that our towns should be built--and if built +already, wrongly, _thinned out_,--on this principle. People are +coming to learn a little of this, and are opening parks and squares +in the great cities, finding that there must be room for bodies and +souls to reach out and breathe. If they could only take hold of some +of their swarming-places, where disease and vice are festering, and +pull down every second house and turn it into a garden space, I +believe they would do more for reform and salvation than all their +separate institutions for dealing with misery after it is let grow, +can ever effect." + +"O, why _can't_ they?" cried Rose. "There is money enough, +somewhere. Why can't they do it, instead of letting the cities grow +horrid, and then running away from it themselves, and buying acres +and acres around their country places, for fear somebody should come +too near, and the country should begin to grow horrid too?" + +"Because the growing and the crowding and the striving of the city +_make_ so much of the money, little wife! Because to keep everybody +fairly comfortable as the world goes along, there could not be so +many separate piles laid up; it would have to be used more as it +comes, and it could not come so fast. If nobody cared to be very +rich, and all were willing to live simply and help one another, in +little 'horseshoe neighborhoods,' there wouldn't be so much that +looks like grand achievement in the world perhaps; but I think maybe +the very angels might show themselves out of the unseen, and bring +the glory of heaven into it!" + +Kenneth's color came, and his eyes glowed, as he spoke these words +that burst into eloquence with the intensity of his meaning; and +Rosamond's face was holy-pale, and her look large, as she listened; +and they were silent for a minute or so, as the pony, of his own +accord, trotted deliberately on. + +"But then, the beauty, and the leisure, and all that grows out of +them to separate minds, and what the world gets through the +refinement of it! You see the puzzle comes back. Must we never, in +this life, gather round us the utmost that the world is capable of +furnishing? Must we never, out of this big creation, have the piece +to ourselves, each one as he would choose?" + +"I think the Lord would show us a way out of that," said Kenneth. "I +think He would make His world turn out right, and all come to good +and sufficient use, if we did not put it in a snarl. Perhaps we can +hardly guess what we might grow to all together,--'the whole body, +fitly joined by that which every joint supplieth, increasing and +building itself up in love.' And about the quietness, and the +separateness,--we don't want to _live_ in that, Rose; we only want +it sometimes, to make us fitter to live. When the disciples began to +talk about building tabernacles on the mountain of the vision, +Christ led them straight down among the multitude, where there was a +devil to be cast out. It is the same thing in the old story of the +creation. God worked six days, and rested one." + +"Well," said Rose, drawing a deep breath, "I am glad we have begun +at the Horseshoe! It was a great escape for me, Kenneth. I am such a +worldly girl in my heart. I should have liked so much to have +everything elegant and artistic about me." + +"I think you do. I think you always will. Not because of the +worldliness in you, though; but the _other_-worldliness, the sense +of real beauty and truth. And I am glad that we have begun at all! +It was a greater escape for me. I was in danger of all sorts of +hardness and unbelief. I had begun to despise and hate things, +because they did not work rightly just around me. And then I fell +in, just in time, with some real, true people; and then you came, +with the 'little piece of your world,' and then I came here, and saw +what your world was, and how you were making it, Rose! How a little +community of sweet and generous fellowship was crystallizing here +among all sorts--outward sorts--of people; a little community of the +kingdom; and how you and yours had done it." + +"O, Kenneth! I was the worst little atom in the whole crystal! I +only got into my place because everybody else did, and there was +nothing else left for me to do." + +"You see I shall never believe that," said Kenneth, quietly. "There +is no flaw in the crystal. You were all polarized alike. And +besides, can't I see daily just how your nature draws and points?" + +"Well, never mind," said Rose. "Only some particles are natural +magnets, I believe, and some get magnetized by contact. Now that we +have hit upon this metaphor, isn't it funny that our little social +experiment should have taken the shape of a horseshoe?" + +"The most sociable, because the most magnetic, shape it could take. +You will see the power it will develop. There's a great deal in +merely taking form according to fundamental principles. Witness the +getting round a fireside. Isn't that a horseshoe? And could half as +much sympathy be evolved from a straight line?" + +"I believe in firesides," said Rose. + +"And in women who can organize and inform them," said Kenneth. +"First, firesides; then neighborhoods; that is the way the world's +life works out; and women have their hands at the heart of it. They +can do so much more there than by making the laws! When the life is +right, the laws will make themselves, or be no longer needed. They +are such mere outside patchwork,--makeshifts till a better time!" + +"Wrong living must make wrong laws, whoever does the voting," said +Rosamond, sagely. + +"False social standards make false commercial ones; inflated +pretensions demand inflated currency; selfish, untrue domestic +living eventuates in greedy speculations and business shams; and all +in the intriguing for corrupt legislation, to help out partial +interests. It isn't by multiplying the voting power, but by +purifying it, that the end is to be reached." + +"That is so sententious, Kenneth, that I shall have to take it home +and ravel it out gradually in my mind in little shreds. In the mean +while, dear, suppose we stop in the village, and get some little +brown-ware cups for top-overs. You never ate any of my top-overs? +Well, when you do, you'll say that all the world ought to be brought +up on top-overs." + +Rosamond was very particular about her little brown-ware cups. They +had to be real stone,--brown outside, and gray-blue in; and they +must be of a special size and depth. When they were found, and done +up in a long parcel, one within another, in stout paper, she carried +it herself to the chaise, and would scarcely let Kenneth hold it +while she got in; after which, she laid it carefully across her lap, +instead of putting it behind upon the cushion. + +'You see they were rather dear; but they are the only kind worth +while. Those little yellow things would soak and crack, and never +look comfortable in the kitchen-closet. I give you very fair +warning, I shall always want the best of things but then I shall +take very fierce and jealous care of them,--like this.' + +And she laid her little nicely-gloved hand across her homely +parcel, guardingly. + +How nice it was to go buying little homely things together! Again, +it was as good and pleasant,--and meant ever so much more,--than if +it had been ordering china with a monogram in Dresden, or glass in +Prague, with a coat-of-arms engraved. + +When they drove up to the Horseshoe, Dakie Thayne and Ruth met them. +They had been getting "spiritual ferns" and sumach leaves with +Dorris; "the dearest little tips," Ruth said, "of scarlet and +carbuncle, just like jets of fire." + +And now they would go back to tea, and eat up the brown cake? + +"Real Westover summum-bonum cake?" Dakie wanted to know. "Well, he +couldn't stand against that. Come, Ruthie!" And Ruthie came. + +"What do you think Rosamond says?" said Kenneth, at the tea-table, +over the cake. "That everybody ought to live in a city or a village, +or, at least, a Horseshoe. She thinks nobody has a right to stick +his elbows out, in this world. She's in a great hurry to be packed +as closely as possible here." + +"I wish the houses were all finished, and our neighbors in; that is +what I said," said Rosamond. "I should like to begin to know about +them, and feel settled; and to see flowers in their windows, and +lights at night." + +"And you always hated so a 'little crowd!'" said Ruth. + +"It isn't a crowd when they _don't_ crowd," said Rosamond. "I can't +bear little miserable jostles." + +"How good it will be to see Rosamond here, at the head of her court; +at the top of the Horseshoe," said Dakie Thayne. "She will be quite +the 'Queen of the County.'" + +"Don't!" said Rosamond. "I've a very weak spot in my head. You can't +tell the mischief you might do. No, I won't be queen!" + +"Any more than you can help," said Dakie. + +"She'll be Rosa Mundi, wherever she is," said Ruth affectionately. + +"I think that is just grand of Kenneth and Rosamond," said Dakie +Thayne, as he and Ruth were walking home up West Hill in the +moonlight, afterward. "What do you think you and I ought to do, one +of these days, Ruthie? It sets me to considering. There are more +Horseshoes to make, I suppose, if the world is to jog on." + +"_You_ have a great deal to consider about," said Ruth, +thoughtfully. "It was quite easy for Kenneth and Rosamond to +see what they ought to do. But you might make a great many +Horseshoes,--or something!" + +"What do you mean by that second person plural, eh? Are you shirking +your responsibilities, or are you addressing your imaginary +Boffinses? Come, Ruthie, I can't have that! Say 'we,' and I'll face +the responsibilities and talk it all out; but I won't have anything +to do with 'you!'" + +"Won't you?" said Ruth, with piteous demureness. "How can I say +'we,' then?" + +"You little cat! How you can scratch!" + +"There are such great things to be done in the world Dakie," Ruth +said seriously, when they had got over that with a laugh that lifted +her nicely by the "we" question. "I can't help thinking of it." + +"O," said Dakie, with significant satisfaction. "We're getting on +better. Well?" + +"Do you know what Hazel Ripwinkley is doing? And what Luclarion +Grapp has done? Do you know how they are going among poor people, in +dreadful places,--really living among them, Luclarion is,--and +finding out, and helping, and showing how? I thought of that +to-night, when they talked about living in cities and villages. +Luclarion has gone away down to the very bottom of it. And somehow, +one can't feel satisfied with only reaching half-way, when one +knows--and might!" + +"Do you mean, Ruthie, that you and I might go and _live_ in such +places? Do you think I could take you there?" + +"I don't know, Dakie," Ruth answered, forgetting in her earnestness, +to blush or hesitate for what he said;--"but I feel as if we ought +to reach down, somehow,--_away_ down! Because that, you see, is the +_most_. And to do only a little, in an easy way, when we are made so +strong to do; wouldn't it be a waste of power, and a missing of the +meaning? Isn't it the 'much' that is required of us, Dakie?" + +They were under the tall hedge of the Holabird "parcel of ground," +on the Westover slope, and close to the home gates. Dakie Thayne put +his arm round Ruth as she said that, and drew her to him. + +"We will go and be neighbors somewhere, Ruthie. And we will make as +big a Horseshoe as we can." + + + + +XXII. + +MORNING GLORIES. + + +And Desire? + +Do you think I have passed her over lightly in her troubles? Or do +you think I am making her out to have herself passed over them +lightly? + +Do you think it is hardly to be believed that she should have turned +round from these shocks and pains that bore down so heavily and all +at once upon her, and taken kindly to the living with old Uncle +Titus and Rachel Froke in the Greenley Street house, and going down +to Luclarion Grapp's to help wash little children's faces, and teach +them how to have innocent good times? Do you think there is little +making up in all that for her, while Rosamond Kincaid is happy in +her new home, and Ruth and Dakie Thayne are looking out together +over the world,--which can be nowhere wholly sad to them, since they +are to go down into it together,--and planning how to make long arms +with their wealth, to reach the largest neighborhood they can? In +the first place, do you know how full the world is, all around you, +of things that are missed by those who say nothing, but go on living +somehow without them? Do you know how large a part of life, even +young life, is made of the days that have never been lived? Do you +guess how many girls, like Desire, come near something that they +think they might have had, and then see it drift by just beyond +their reach, to fall easily into some other hand that seems hardly +put out to grasp it? + +And do you see, or feel, or guess how life goes on, incompleteness +and all, and things settle themselves one way, if not another, +simply because the world does not stop, but keeps turning, and +tossing off days and nights like time-bubbles just the same? + +Do you ever imagine how different this winter's parties are from +last, or this summer's visit or journey from those of the summer +gone,--to many a maiden who has her wardrobe made up all the same, +and takes her German or her music lessons, and goes in and out, and +has her ticket to the Symphony Concerts, and is no different to look +at, unless perhaps with a little of the first color-freshness gone +out of her face,--while secretly it seems to her as if the sweet +early symphony of her life were all played out, and had ended in a +discord? + +We begin, most of us, much as we are to go on. Real or mistaken, the +experiences of eighteen initiate the lesson that those of two and +three score after years are needed to unfold and complete. What is +left of us is continually turning round, perforce, to take up with +what is left of the world, and make the best of it. + +Thus much for what does happen, for what we have to put up with, for +the mere philosophy of endurance, and the possibility of things +being endured. We do live out our years, and get and bear it all. +And the scars do not show much outside; nay, even we ourselves can +lay a finger on the place, after a little time, without a cringe. + +Desire Ledwith did what she had to do; there was a way made for her, +and there was still life left. + +But there is a better reading of the riddle. There is never a +"Might-have-been" that touches with a sting, but reveals also to us +an inner glimpse of the wide and beautiful "May Be." It is all +there; somebody else has it now while we wait; but the years of God +are full of satisfying, each soul shall have its turn; it is His +good _pleasure_ to give us the kingdom. There is so much room, there +are such thronging possibilities, there is such endless hope! + +To feel this, one must feel, however dimly, the inner realm, out of +which the shadows of this life come and pass, to interpret to us the +laid up reality. + +"The real world is the inside world." + +Desire Ledwith blessed Uncle Oldways in her heart for giving her +that word. + +It comforted her for her father. If his life here had been hard, +toilsome, mistaken even; if it had never come to that it might have +come to; if she, his own child, had somehow missed the reality of +him here, and he of her,--was he not passed now into the within? +Might she not find him there; might they not silently and +spiritually, without sign, but needing no sign, begin to understand +each other now? Was not the real family just beginning to be born +into the real home? + +Ah, that word _real_! How deep we have to go to find the root of it! +It is fast by the throne of God; in the midst. + +Hazel Ripwinkley talked about "real folks." She sifted, and she +found out instinctively the true livers, the genuine _neahburs_, +nigh-dwellers; they who abide alongside in spirit, who shall find +each other in the everlasting neighborhood, when the veil falls. + +But there, behind,--how little, in our petty outside vexations or +gladnesses, we stop to think of or perceive it!--is the actual, even +the present, inhabiting; there is the kingdom, the continuing city, +the real heaven and earth in which we already live and labor, and +build up our homes and lay up our treasure and the loving Christ, +and the living Father, and the innumerable company of angels, and +the unseen compassing about of friends gone in there, and they on +this earth who truly belong to us inwardly, however we and they may +be bodily separated,--are the Real Folks! + +What matters a little pain, outside? Go _in_, and rest from it! + +There is where the joy is, that we read outwardly, spelling by +parts imperfectly, in our own and others' mortal experience; there +is the content of homes, the beauty of love, the delight of +friendship,--not shut in to any one or two, but making the common +air that all souls breathe. No one heart can be happy, that all +hearts may not have a share of it. Rosamond and Kenneth, Dakie and +Ruth, cannot live out obviously any sweetness of living, cannot +sing any notes of the endless, beautiful score, that Desire +Ledwith, and Luclarion Grapp, and Rachel Froke, and Hapsie +Craydocke, and old Miss Arabel Waite, do not just as truly get the +blessed grace and understanding of; do not catch and feel the +perfect and abounding harmony of. Since why? No lip can sound more +than its own few syllables of music; no life show more than its +own few accidents and incidents and groupings; the vast melody, +the rich, eternal satisfying, are behind; and the signs are for us +all! + +You may not think this, or see it so, in your first tussle and +set-to with the disappointing and eluding things that seem the real +and only,--missing which you miss all. This chapter may be less to +you--less _for_ you, perhaps--than for your elders; the story may +have ended, as to that you care for, some pages back; but for all +that, this is certain; and Desire Ledwith has begun to find it, for +she is one of those true, grand spirits to whom personal loss or +frustration are most painful as they seem to betoken something +wrong or failed in the general scheme and justice. This terrible +"why should it be?" once answered,--once able to say to themselves +quietly, "It is all right; the beauty and the joy are there; the +song is sung, though we are of the listeners; the miracle-play is +played, though but a few take literal part, and many of us look on, +with the play, like the song, moving through our souls only, or our +souls moving in the vital sphere of it, where the stage is wide +enough for all;"--once come to this, they have entered already into +that which is behind, and nothing of all that goes forth thence into +the earth to make its sunshine can be shut off from them forever. + +Desire is learning to be glad, thinking of Kenneth and Rosamond, +that this fair marriage should have been. It is so just and exactly +best; Rosamond's sweet graciousness is so precisely what Kenneth's +sterner way needed to have shine upon it; her finding and making of +all manner of pleasantness will be so good against his sharp +discernment of the wrong; they will so beautifully temper and +sustain each other! + +Desire is so generous, so glad of the truth, that she can stand +aside, and let this better thing be, and say to herself that it _is_ +better. + +Is not this that she is growing to inwardly, more blessed than any +marriage or giving in marriage? Is it not a partaking of the +heavenly Marriage Supper? + +"We two might have grumbled at the world until we grumbled at each +other." + +She even said that, calmly and plainly, to herself. + +And then that manna was fed to her afresh of which she had been +given first to eat so long a while ago; that thought of "the Lamb in +the midst of the Throne" came back to her. Of the Tenderness deep +within the Almightiness that holds all earth and heaven and time and +circumstance in its grasp. Her little, young, ignorant human heart +begins to rest in that great warmth and gentleness; begins to be +glad to wait there for what shall arise out of it, moving the +Almightiness for her,--even on purpose for her,--in the by-and-by; +she begins to be sure; of what, she knows not,--but of a great, +blessed, beautiful something, that just because she is at all, shall +be for her; that she shall have a part, somehow, even in the +_showing_ of His good; that into the beautiful miracle-play she +shall be called, and a new song be given her, also, to sing in the +grand, long, perfect oratorio; she begins to pray quietly, that, +"loving the Lord, always above all things, she may obtain His +promises, which exceed all that she can desire." + +And waiting, resting, believing, she begins also to work. This +beginning is even as an ending and forehaving, to any human soul. + +I will tell you how she woke one morning; of a little poem that +wrote itself along her chamber wall. + +It was a square, pleasant old room, with a window in an angle toward +the east. A great, old-fashioned mirror hung opposite, between the +windows that looked out north-westwardly; the morning and the +evening light came in upon her. Beside the solid, quaint old +furnishings of a long past time, there were also around her the +things she had been used to at home; her own little old +rocking-chair, her desk and table, and her toilet and mantel +ornaments and things of use. A pair of candle-branches with dropping +lustres,--that she had marveled at and delighted in as a child, and +had begged for herself when they fell into disuse in the +drawing-room,--stood upon the chimney along which the first +sun-rays glanced. Just in those days of the year, they struck in so +as to shine level through the clear prisms, and break into a hundred +little rainbows. + +She opened her eyes, this fair October morning, and lay and looked +at the little scattered glories. + +All around the room, on walls, curtains, ceiling,--falling like +bright soft jewels upon table and floor, touching everything with a +magic splendor,--were globes and shafts of colored light. Softly +blended from glowing red to tenderly fervid blue, they lay in +various forms and fragments, as the beam refracted or the objects +caught them. + +Just on the edge of the deep, opposite window-frame, clung one +vivid, separate flash of perfect azure, all alone, and farthest off +of all. + +Desire wondered, at first glance, how it should happen till she saw, +against a closet-door ajar, a gibbous sphere of red and golden +flame. Yards apart the points were, and a shadow lay between; but +the one sure sunbeam knew no distance, and there was no radiant line +of the spectrum lost. + +Desire remembered her old comparison of complementary colors: "to +see blue, and to live red," she had said, complaining. + +But now she thought,--"Foreshortening! In so many things, that is +all,--if we could only see as the Sun sees!" + +One bit of our living, by itself, all one deep, burning, bleeding +color, maybe; but the globe is white,--the blue is somewhere. And, +lo! a soft, still motion; a little of the flame-tint has dropped +off; it has leaped to join itself to the blue; it gives itself over; +and they are beautiful together,--they fulfill each other; yet, in +the changing never a thread falls quite away into the dark. Why, it +is like love joining itself to love again! + +As God's sun climbs the horizon, His steadfast, gracious purpose, +striking into earthly conditions, seems to break, and scatter, and +divide. Half our heart is here, half there; our need and ache are +severed from their help and answer; the tender blue waits far off +for the eager, asking red; yet just as surely as His light shines +on, and our life moves under it, so surely, across whatever gulf, +the beauty shall all be one again; so surely does it even now move +all together, perfect and close always under His eye, who never +sends a _half_ ray anywhere. + + * * * * * + +She read her little poem,--sent to her; she read it through. She +rose up glad and strong; her room was full of glorious sunshine now; +the broken bits of color were all taken up in one full pouring of +the day. + +She went down with the light of it in her heart, and all about her. + +Uncle Oldways met her at the foot of the wide staircase. "Good-day, +child!" he said to her in his quaint fashion. "Why it _is_ good day! +Your face shines." + +"You have given me a beautiful east window, uncle," said Desire, +"and the morning has come in!" + +And from the second step, where she still stood, she bent forward a +little, put her hands softly upon his shoulders, and for the first +time, kissed his cheek. + + + +***END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK REAL FOLKS*** + + +******* This file should be named 13997.txt or 13997.zip ******* + + +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: +https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/1/3/9/9/13997 + + + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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