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Registered<br /> +copy Number 153 of 500.<br /> +</td></tr> +</table> + +<p class="center"> +<a name="image-0001"></a> +<img alt="Comedie D'amour Series" src="images/frontispiece.jpg" height="1095" width="725" /> +</p> + +<p class="center"> +<img alt="titlepage (63K)" src="images/titlepage.jpg" height="996" width="610" /> +</p> + +<hr /> + +<h2>CONTENTS</h2> + +<table summary="" style=""> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0001">CHAPTER I.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0002">CHAPTER II.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0003">CHAPTER III.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0004">CHAPTER IV.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0005">CHAPTER V.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0006">CHAPTER VI.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0007">CHAPTER VII.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0008">CHAPTER VIII.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0009">CHAPTER IX.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0010">CHAPTER X.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0011">CHAPTER XI.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0012">CHAPTER XII.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0013">CHAPTER XIII.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0014">CHAPTER XIV.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0015">CHAPTER XV.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0016">CHAPTER XVI.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0017">CHAPTER XVII.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0018">CHAPTER XVIII.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0019">CHAPTER XIX.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0020">CHAPTER XX.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0021">CHAPTER XXI.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0022">CHAPTER XXII.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0023">CHAPTER XXIII.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0024">CHAPTER XXIV.</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#2HCH0025">CHAPTER XXV.</a></td> +</tr> + +</table> + +<hr /> + +<h2>List of Illustrations</h2> + +<table summary="" style=""> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#image-0001">Comedie D'amour Series</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#image-0002">Émile Zola</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#image-0003">Jeanne's Illness</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#image-0004">Malignon Appoints a Rendezvous With Juliette</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#image-0005">The Meeting of Hélène and Henri</a></td> +</tr> + +</table> + +<hr /> + +<p class="center"> +<a name="image-0002"><!--IMG--></a> +<img src="images/portrait.jpg" height="704" width="514" +alt="Émile Zola" /> +</p> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2>ZOLA AND HIS WRITINGS</h2> + +<p> +Émile Zola was born in Paris, April 2, 1840. His father was Francois Zola, an +Italian engineer, who constructed the Canal Zola in Provence. Zola passed his +early youth in the south of France, continuing his studies at the Lycée St. +Louis, in Paris, and at Marseilles. His sole patrimony was a lawsuit against +the town of Aix. He became a clerk in the publishing house of Hachette, +receiving at first the modest honorarium of twenty-five francs a week. His +journalistic career, though marked by immense toil, was neither striking nor +remunerative. His essays in criticism, of which he collected and published +several volumes, were not particularly successful. This was evidently not his +field. His first stories, <i>Les Mystères de Marseilles</i> and <i>Le Voeu +d’Une Morte</i> fell flat, disclosing no indication of remarkable talent. +But in 1864 appeared <i>Les Contes à Ninon</i>, which attracted wide attention, +the public finding them charming. <i>Les Confessions de Claude</i> was +published in 1865. In this work Zola had evidently struck his gait, and when +<i>Thérèse Raquin</i> followed, in 1867, Zola was fully launched on his great +career as a writer of the school which he called “Naturalist.” +<i>Thérèse Raquin</i> was a powerful study of the effects of remorse preying +upon the mind. In this work the naturalism was generally characterized as +“brutal,” yet many critics admitted that it was absolutely true to +nature. It had, in fact, all the gruesome accuracy of a clinical lecture. In +1868 came <i>Madeleine Ferat</i>, an exemplification of the doctrine of +heredity, as inexorable as the “Destiny” of the Greek tragedies of +old. +</p> + +<p> +And now dawned in Zola’s teeming brain the vast conception of a +“Naturalistic Comedy of Life.” It was to be Balzac +“naturalized,” so to speak. The great cycle should run through the +whole gamut of human passions, foibles, motives and interests. It should +consist of human documents, of painstaking minuteness of detail and +incontrovertible truth. +</p> + +<p> +The idea of destiny or heredity permeates all the works of this portentously +ambitious series. Details may be repellant. One should not “smell” +a picture, as the artists say. If one does, he gets an impression merely of a +small blotch of paint. The vast canvas should be studied as a whole. Frailties +are certainly not the whole of human nature. But they cannot be excluded from a +comprehensive view of it. The “<i>Rougon-Macquart</i> series” did +not carry Zola into the Academy. But the reputation of Moliere has managed to +survive a similar exclusion, and so will the fame of Zola, who will be +bracketed with Balzac in future classifications of artistic excellence. For +twenty-two years, from <i>La Fortune des Rougon</i>, in 1871, to <i>Docteur +Pascal</i> in 1893, the series continued to focus the attention of the world, +and Zola was the most talked about man in the literature of the epoch. <i>La +Fortune des Rougon</i> was introductory. <i>La Curée</i> discussed society +under the second Empire. <i>Le Ventre de Paris</i> described the great market +of Paris. <i>La Conquete de Plassans</i> spoke of life in the south of France. +<i>La Faute de l’Abbé Mouret</i> treated of the results of celibacy. +<i>Son Excellence Eugene Rougon</i> dealt with official life. +<i>L’Assommoir</i> was a tract against the vice of drunkenness. Some +think this the strongest of the naturalist series. Its success was prodigious. +In this the marvellous talent of Zola for minute description is evinced. <i>Une +Page d’Amour</i> (A Love Episode) appeared in 1878. Of <i>Nana</i>, 1880, +three hundred thousand copies were quickly sold. <i>Pot-Bouille</i> portrayed +the lower <i>bourgeoisie</i> and their servants. <i>Au Bonheur des Dames</i> +treated of the great retail shops. <i>La Joie de Vivre</i> came in 1884. +<i>Germinal</i> told of mining and the misery of the proletariat. +<i>L’Oeuvre</i> pictured the life of artists and authors. <i>La Terre</i> +portrayed, with startling realism, the lowest peasant life. <i>Le Reve</i>, +which followed, was a reaction. It was a graceful idyl. <i>Le Reve</i> was +termed “a symphony in white,” and was considered as a concession to +the views of the majority of the French Academy. <i>La Bete Humaine</i> +exhausted the details of railway life. <i>L’Argent</i> treats of +financial scandals and panics. <i>La Debacle</i>, 1892, is a realistic picture +of the desperate struggles of the Franco-Prussian war. <i>Le Docteur +Pascal</i>, 1893, a story of the emotions, wound up the series. Through it all +runs the thread of heredity and environment in their influence on human +character. +</p> + +<p> +But Zola’s work was not finished. A series of three romances on cities +showed a continuance of power. They are <i>Lourdes</i>, <i>Rome</i>, and +<i>Paris</i>. After the books on the three cities Zola planned a sort of +tetralogy, intended to sum up his social philosophy, which he called the +“Four Gospels.” <i>Feconditie</i> is a tract against race suicide. +The others of this series are entitled <i>Travail</i>, <i>Verite</i> and +<i>Justice</i>, the latter projected but not begun. +</p> + +<p> +The attitude which Zola took in reference to the wretched Dreyfus scandal will +add greatly to his fame as a man of courage and a lover of truth. From this +filthy mess of perjury and forgery Zola’s intrepidity and devotion to +justice arise clear and white as a lily from a cesspool. +</p> + +<p> +Several of Zola’s books have been dramatized. +</p> + +<p> +Zola died suddenly at his home in Paris, in September, 1902. He received a +public funeral, Anatole France delivering an oration at the grave. There is +every indication that Zola’s great reputation as an artist and +philosopher will increase with the passing of the years. +</p> + +<p class="center"> + +C. C. STARKWEATHER. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2>A LOVE EPISODE</h2> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0001"></a> CHAPTER I.</h2> + +<p> +The night-lamp with a bluish shade was burning on the chimney-piece, behind a +book, whose shadows plunged more than half the chamber in darkness. There was a +quiet gleam of light cutting across the round table and the couch, streaming +over the heavy folds of the velvet curtains, and imparting an azure hue to the +mirror of the rosewood wardrobe placed between the two windows. The quiet +simplicity of the room, the blue tints on the hangings, furniture, and carpet, +served at this hour of night to invest everything with the delightful vagueness +of cloudland. Facing the windows, and within sweep of the shadow, loomed the +velvet-curtained bed, a black mass, relieved only by the white of the sheets. +With hands crossed on her bosom, and breathing lightly, lay Hélène, +asleep—mother and widow alike personified by the quiet unrestraint of her +attitude. +</p> + +<p> +In the midst of the silence one o’clock chimed from the timepiece. The +noises of the neighborhood had died away; the dull, distant roar of the city +was the only sign of life that disturbed those Trocadero heights. +Hélène’s breathing, so light and gentle, did not ruffle the chaste repose +of her bosom. She was in a beauteous sleep, peaceful yet sound, her profile +perfect, her nut-brown hair twisted into a knot, and her head leaning forward +somewhat, as though she had fallen asleep while eagerly listening. At the +farther end of the room the open door of an adjoining closet seemed but a black +square in the wall. +</p> + +<p> +Still there was not a sound. The half-hour struck. The pendulum gave but a +feeble tick-tack amid the general drowsiness that brooded over the whole +chamber. Everything was sleeping, night-lamp and furniture alike; on the table, +near an extinguished lamp, some woman’s handiwork was disposed also in +slumber. Hélène in her sleep retained her air of gravity and kindliness. +</p> + +<p> +Two o’clock struck, and the stillness was broken. A deep sigh issued from +the darkness of the closet. There was a rustling of linen sheets, and then +silence reigned again. Anon labored breathing broke through the gloom. Hélène +had not moved. Suddenly, however, she started up, for the moanings and cries of +a child in pain had roused her. Dazed with sleep, she pressed her hands against +her temples, but hearing a stifled sob, she leaped from her couch on to the +carpet. +</p> + +<p> +“Jeanne! my Jeanne! what ails you? tell me, love,” she asked; and +as the child remained silent, she murmured, while running towards the +night-light, “Gracious Heaven! why did I go to bed when she was so +ill?” +</p> + +<p> +Quickly she entered the closet, where deep silence had again fallen. The feeble +gleam of the lamp threw but a circular patch of light on the ceiling. Bending +over the iron cot, she could at first make out nothing, but amidst the +bed-clothes, tossed about in disorder, the dim light soon revealed Jeanne, with +limbs quite stiff, her head flung back, the muscles of her neck swollen and +rigid. Her sweet face was distorted, her eyes were open and fixed on the +curtain-rod above. +</p> + +<p> +“My child!” cried Hélène. “My God! my God! she is +dying.” +</p> + +<p> +Setting down the lamp, Hélène touched her daughter with trembling hands. The +throbbing of the pulse and the heart’s action seemed to have died away. +The child’s puny arms and legs were stretched out convulsively, and the +mother grew frantic at the sight. +</p> + +<p> +“My child is dying! Help, help!” she stammered. “My child! my +child!” +</p> + +<p> +She wandered back to her room, brushing against the furniture, and unconscious +of her movements; then, distracted, she again returned to the little bed, +throwing herself on her knees, and ever appealing for help. She took Jeanne in +her arms, rained kisses on her hair, and stroked her little body, begging her +to answer, and seeking one word—only one word—from her silent lips. +Where was the pain? Would she have some of the cooling drink she had liked the +other day? Perhaps the fresh air would revive her? So she rattled on, bent on +making the child speak. +</p> + +<p> +“Speak to me, Jeanne! speak to me, I entreat you!” +</p> + +<p> +Oh, God! and not to know what to do in this sudden terror born of the night! +There was no light even. Then her ideas grew confused, though her supplications +to the child continued—at one moment she was beseeching, at another +answering in her own person. Thus, the pain gripped her in the stomach; no, no, +it must be in the breast. It was nothing at all; she need merely keep quiet. +Then Hélène tried to collect her scattered senses; but as she felt her daughter +stark and stiff in her embrace, her heart sickened unto death. She tried to +reason with herself, and to resist the yearning to scream. But all at once, +despite herself, her cry rang out +</p> + +<p> +“Rosalie, Rosalie! my child is dying. Quick, hurry for the doctor.” +</p> + +<p> +Screaming out these words, she ran through dining-room and kitchen to a room in +the rear, where the maid started up from sleep, giving vent to her surprise. +Hélène speeded back again. Clad only in her night-dress she moved about, +seemingly not feeling the icy cold of the February night. Pah! this maid would +loiter, and her child would die! Back again she hurried through the kitchen to +the bedroom before a minute had elapsed. Violently, and in the dark, she +slipped on a petticoat, and threw a shawl over her shoulders. The furniture in +her way was overturned; the room so still and silent was filled with the echoes +of her despair. Then leaving the doors open, she rushed down three flights of +stairs in her slippers, consumed with the thought that she alone could bring +back a doctor. +</p> + +<p> +After the house-porter had opened the door Hélène found herself upon the +pavement, with a ringing in her ears and her mind distracted. However, she +quickly ran down the Rue Vineuse and pulled the door-bell of Doctor Bodin, who +had already tended Jeanne; but a servant—after an interval which seemed +an eternity—informed her that the doctor was attending a woman in +childbed. Hélène remained stupefied on the footway; she knew no other doctor in +Passy. For a few moments she rushed about the streets, gazing at the houses. A +slight but keen wind was blowing, and she was walking in slippers through the +light snow that had fallen during the evening. Ever before her was her +daughter, with the agonizing thought that she was killing her by not finding a +doctor at once. Then, as she retraced her steps along the Rue Vineuse, she rang +the bell of another house. She would inquire, at all events; some one would +perhaps direct her. She gave a second tug at the bell; but no one seemed to +come. The wind meanwhile played with her petticoat, making it cling to her +legs, and tossed her dishevelled hair. +</p> + +<p> +At last a servant answered her summons. “Doctor Deberle was in bed +asleep.” It was a doctor’s house at which she had rung, so Heaven +had not abandoned her! Straightway, intent upon entering, she pushed the +servant aside, still repeating her prayer: +</p> + +<p> +“My child, my child is dying! Oh, tell him he must come!” +</p> + +<p> +The house was small and seemed full of hangings. She reached the first floor, +despite the servant’s opposition, always answering his protest with the +words, “My child is dying!” In the apartment she entered she would +have been content to wait; but the moment she heard the doctor stirring in the +next room she drew near and appealed to him through the doorway: +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, sir, come at once, I beseech you. My child is dying!” +</p> + +<p> +When the doctor at last appeared in a short coat and without a neckcloth, she +dragged him away without allowing him to finish dressing. He at once recognized +her as a resident in the next-door house, and one of his own tenants; so when +he induced her to cross a garden—to shorten the way by using a side-door +between the two houses—memory suddenly awoke within her. +</p> + +<p> +“True, you are a doctor!” she murmured, “and I knew it. But I +was distracted. Oh, let us hurry!” +</p> + +<p> +On the staircase she wished him to go first. She could not have admitted the +Divinity to her home in a more reverent manner. Upstairs Rosalie had remained +near the child, and had lit the large lamp on the table. After the doctor had +entered the room he took up this lamp and cast its light upon the body of the +child, which retained its painful rigidity; the head, however, had slipped +forward, and nervous twitchings were ceaselessly drawing the face. For a minute +he looked on in silence, his lips compressed. Hélène anxiously watched him, and +on noticing the mother’s imploring glance, he muttered: “It will be +nothing. But she must not lie here. She must have air.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène grasped her child in a strong embrace, and carried her away on her +shoulder. She could have kissed the doctor’s hand for his good tidings, +and a wave of happiness rippled through her. Scarcely, however, had Jeanne been +placed in the larger bed than her poor little frame was again seized with +violent convulsions. The doctor had removed the shade from the lamp, and a +white light was streaming through the room. Then, opening a window, he ordered +Rosalie to drag the bed away from the curtains. Hélène’s heart was again +filled with anguish. “Oh, sir, she is dying,” she stammered. +“Look! look! Ah! I scarcely recognize her.” +</p> + +<p> +The doctor did not reply, but watched the paroxysm attentively. +</p> + +<p> +“Step into the alcove,” he at last exclaimed. “Hold her hands +to prevent her from tearing herself. There now, gently, quietly! Don’t +make yourself uneasy. The fit must be allowed to run its course.” +</p> + +<p> +They both bent over the bed, supporting and holding Jeanne, whose limbs shot +out with sudden jerks. The doctor had buttoned up his coat to hide his bare +neck, and Hélène’s shoulders had till now been enveloped in her shawl; +but Jeanne in her struggles dragged a corner of the shawl away, and unbuttoned +the top of the coat. Still they did not notice it; they never even looked at +one another. +</p> + +<p class="center"> +<a name="image-0003"></a> +<img src="images/vi.jpg" height="766" width="507" +alt="Jeanne’s Illness" /> +</p> + +<p> +At last the convulsion ceased, and the little one then appeared to sink into +deep prostration. Doctor Deberle was evidently ill at ease, though he had +assured the mother that there was no danger. He kept his gaze fixed on the +sufferer, and put some brief questions to Hélène as she stood by the bedside. +</p> + +<p> +“How old is the child?” +</p> + +<p> +“Eleven years and six months, sir,” was the reply. +</p> + +<p> +Silence again fell between them. He shook his head, and stooped to raise one of +Jeanne’s lowered eyelids and examine the mucus. Then he resumed his +questions, but without raising his eyes to Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +“Did she have convulsions when she was a baby?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, sir; but they left her after she reached her sixth birthday. Ah! +she is very delicate. For some days past she had seemed ill at ease. She was at +times taken with cramp, and plunged in a stupor.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you know of any members of your family that have suffered from +nervous affections?” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know. My mother was carried off by consumption.” +</p> + +<p> +Here shame made her pause. She could not confess that she had a grandmother who +was an inmate of a lunatic asylum.[*] There was something tragic connected with +all her ancestry. +</p> + +<p> +[*] This is Adelaide Fouque, otherwise Aunt Dide, the ancestress of the +Rougon-Macquart family, whose early career is related in the “Fortune of +the Rougons,” whilst her death is graphically described in the pages of +“Dr. Pascal.” +</p> + +<p> +“Take care! the convulsions are coming on again!” now hastily +exclaimed the doctor. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne had just opened her eyes, and for a moment she gazed around her with a +vacant look, never speaking a word. Her glance then grew fixed, her body was +violently thrown backwards, and her limbs became distended and rigid. Her skin, +fiery-red, all at once turned livid. Her pallor was the pallor of death; the +convulsions began once more. +</p> + +<p> +“Do not loose your hold of her,” said the doctor. “Take her +other hand!” +</p> + +<p> +He ran to the table, where, on entering, he had placed a small medicine-case. +He came back with a bottle, the contents of which he made Jeanne inhale; but +the effect was like that of a terrible lash; the child gave such a violent jerk +that she slipped from her mother’s hands. +</p> + +<p> +“No, no, don’t give her ether,” exclaimed Hélène, warned by +the odor. “It drives her mad.” +</p> + +<p> +The two had now scarcely strength enough to keep the child under control. Her +frame was racked and distorted, raised by the heels and the nape of the neck, +as if bent in two. But she fell back again and began tossing from one side of +the bed to the other. Her fists were clenched, her thumbs bent against the +palms of her hands. At times she would open the latter, and, with fingers wide +apart, grasp at phantom bodies in the air, as though to twist them. She touched +her mother’s shawl and fiercely clung to it. But Hélène’s greatest +grief was that she no longer recognized her daughter. The suffering angel, +whose face was usually so sweet, was transformed in every feature, while her +eyes swam, showing balls of a nacreous blue. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, do something, I implore you!” she murmured. “My strength +is exhausted, sir.” +</p> + +<p> +She had just remembered how the child of a neighbor at Marseilles had died of +suffocation in a similar fit. Perhaps from feelings of pity the doctor was +deceiving her. Every moment she believed she felt Jeanne’s last breath +against her face; for the child’s halting respiration seemed suddenly to +cease. Heartbroken and overwhelmed with terror, Hélène then burst into tears, +which fell on the body of her child, who had thrown off the bedclothes. +</p> + +<p> +The doctor meantime was gently kneading the base of the neck with his long +supple fingers. Gradually the fit subsided, and Jeanne, after a few slight +twitches, lay there motionless. She had fallen back in the middle of the bed, +with limbs outstretched, while her head, supported by the pillow, inclined +towards her bosom. One might have thought her an infant Jesus. Hélène stooped +and pressed a long kiss on her brow. +</p> + +<p> +“Is it over?” she asked in a whisper. “Do you think +she’ll have another fit?” +</p> + +<p> +The doctor made an evasive gesture, and then replied: +</p> + +<p> +“In any case the others will be less violent.” +</p> + +<p> +He had asked Rosalie for a glass and water-bottle. Half-filling the glass with +water, he took up two fresh medicine phials, and counted out a number of drops. +Hélène assisted in raising the child’s head, and the doctor succeeded in +pouring a spoonful of the liquid between the clenched teeth. The white flame of +the lamp was leaping up high and clear, revealing the disorder of the +chamber’s furnishings. Hélène’s garments, thrown on the back of an +arm-chair before she slipped into bed, had now fallen, and were littering the +carpet. The doctor had trodden on her stays, and had picked them up lest he +might again find them in his way. An odor of vervain stole through the room. +The doctor himself went for the basin, and soaked a linen cloth in it, which he +then pressed to Jeanne’s temples. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, madame, you’ll take cold!” expostulated Rosalie as she +stood there shivering. “Perhaps the window might be shut? The air is too +raw.” +</p> + +<p> +“No, no!” cried Hélène; “leave the window open. Should it not +be so?” she appealed to the doctor. +</p> + +<p> +The wind entered in slight puffs, rustling the curtains to and fro; but she was +quite unconscious of it. Yet the shawl had slipped off her shoulders, and her +hair had become unwound, some wanton tresses sweeping down to her hips. She had +left her arms free and uncovered, that she might be the more ready; she had +forgotten all, absorbed entirely in her love for her child. And on his side, +the doctor, busy with his work, no longer thought of his unbuttoned coat, or of +the shirt-collar that Jeanne’s clutch had torn away. +</p> + +<p> +“Raise her up a little,” said he to Hélène. “No, no, not in +that way! Give me your hand.” +</p> + +<p> +He took her hand and placed it under the child’s head. He wished to give +Jeanne another spoonful of the medicine. Then he called Hélène close to him, +made use of her as his assistant; and she obeyed him reverently on seeing that +her daughter was already more calm. +</p> + +<p> +“Now, come,” he said. “You must let her head lean against +your shoulder, while I listen.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène did as he bade her, and he bent over her to place his ear against +Jeanne’s bosom. He touched her bare shoulder with his cheek, and as the +pulsation of the child’s heart struck his ear he could also have heard +the throbbing of the mother’s breast. As he rose up his breath mingled +with Hélène’s. +</p> + +<p> +“There is nothing wrong there,” was the quiet remark that filled +her with delight. “Lay her down again. We must not worry her more.” +</p> + +<p> +However, another, though much less violent, paroxysm followed. From +Jeanne’s lips burst some broken words. At short intervals two fresh +attacks seemed about to convulse her, and then a great prostration, which again +appeared to alarm the doctor, fell on the child. He had placed her so that her +head lay high, with the clothes carefully tucked under her chin; and for nearly +an hour he remained there watching her, as though awaiting the return of a +healthy respiration. On the other side of the bed Hélène also waited, never +moving a limb. +</p> + +<p> +Little by little a great calm settled on Jeanne’s face. The lamp cast a +sunny light upon it, and it regained its exquisite though somewhat lengthy +oval. Jeanne’s fine eyes, now closed, had large, bluish, transparent +lids, which veiled—one could divine it—a sombre, flashing glance. A +light breathing came from her slender nose, while round her somewhat large +mouth played a vague smile. She slept thus, amidst her outspread tresses, which +were inky black. +</p> + +<p> +“It has all passed away now,” said the doctor in a whisper; and he +turned to arrange his medicine bottles prior to leaving. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, sir!” exclaimed Hélène, approaching him, “don’t +leave me yet; wait a few minutes. Another fit might come on, and you, you +alone, have saved her!” +</p> + +<p> +He signed to her that there was nothing to fear; yet he tarried, with the idea +of tranquillizing her. She had already sent Rosalie to bed; and now the dawn +soon broke, still and grey, over the snow which whitened the housetops. The +doctor proceeded to close the window, and in the deep quiet the two exchanged a +few whispers. +</p> + +<p> +“There is nothing seriously wrong with her, I assure you,” said he; +“only with one so young great care must be taken. You must see that her +days are spent quietly and happily, and without shocks of any kind.” +</p> + +<p> +“She is so delicate and nervous,” replied Hélène after a +moment’s pause. “I cannot always control her. For the most trifling +reasons she is so overcome by joy or sorrow that I grow alarmed. She loves me +with a passion, a jealousy, which makes her burst into tears when I caress +another child.” +</p> + +<p> +“So, so—delicate, nervous, and jealous,” repeated the doctor +as he shook his head. “Doctor Bodin has attended her, has he not? +I’ll have a talk with him about her. We shall have to adopt energetic +treatment. She has reached an age that is critical in one of her sex.” +</p> + +<p> +Recognizing the interest he displayed, Hélène gave vent to her gratitude. +“How I must thank you, sir, for the great trouble you have taken!” +</p> + +<p> +The loudness of her tones frightened her, however; she might have woke Jeanne, +and she bent down over the bed. But no; the child was sound asleep, with rosy +cheeks, and a vague smile playing round her lips. The air of the quiet chamber +was charged with languor. The whilom drowsiness, as if born again of relief, +once more seized upon the curtains, furniture, and littered garments. +Everything was steeped restfully in the early morning light as it entered +through the two windows. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène again stood up close to the bed; on the other side was the doctor, and +between them lay Jeanne, lightly sleeping. +</p> + +<p> +“Her father was frequently ill,” remarked Hélène softly, continuing +her answer to his previous question. “I myself enjoy the best of +health.” +</p> + +<p> +The doctor, who had not yet looked at her, raised his eyes, and could scarcely +refrain from smiling, so hale and hearty was she in every way. She greeted his +gaze with her own sweet and quiet smile. Her happiness lay in her good health. +</p> + +<p> +However, his looks were still bent on her. Never had he seen such classical +beauty. Tall and commanding, she was a nut-brown Juno, of a nut-brown sunny +with gleams of gold. When she slowly turned her head, its profile showed the +severe purity of a statue. Her grey eyes and pearly teeth lit up her whole +face. Her chin, rounded and somewhat pronounced, proved her to be possessed of +commonsense and firmness. But what astonished the doctor was the superbness of +her whole figure. She stood there, a model of queenliness, chastity, and +modesty. +</p> + +<p> +On her side also she scanned him for a moment. Doctor Deberle’s years +were thirty-five; his face was clean-shaven and a little long; he had keen eyes +and thin lips. As she gazed on him she noticed for the first time that his neck +was bare. Thus they remained face to face, with Jeanne asleep between them. The +distance which but a short time before had appeared immense, now seemed to be +dwindling away. Then Hélène slowly wrapped the shawl about her shoulders again, +while the doctor hastened to button his coat at the neck. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma! mamma!” Jeanne stammered in her sleep. She was waking, and +on opening her eyes she saw the doctor and became uneasy. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma, who’s that?” was her instant question; but her mother +kissed her, and replied: “Go to sleep, darling, you haven’t been +well. It’s only a friend.” +</p> + +<p> +The child seemed surprised; she did not remember anything. Drowsiness was +coming over her once more, and she fell asleep again, murmuring tenderly: +“I’m going to by-by. Good-night, mamma, dear. If he is your friend +he will be mine.” +</p> + +<p> +The doctor had removed his medicine-case, and, with a silent bow, he left the +room. Hélène listened for a while to the child’s breathing, and then, +seated on the edge of the bed, she became oblivious to everything around her; +her looks and thoughts wandering far away. The lamp, still burning, was paling +in the growing sunlight. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0002"></a> CHAPTER II.</h2> + +<p> +Next day Hélène thought it right and proper to pay a visit of thanks to Doctor +Deberle. The abrupt fashion in which she had compelled him to follow her, and +the remembrance of the whole night which he had spent with Jeanne, made her +uneasy, for she realized that he had done more than is usually compassed within +a doctor’s visit. Still, for two days she hesitated to make her call, +feeling a strange repugnance towards such a step. For this she could give +herself no reasons. It was the doctor himself who inspired her with this +hesitancy; one morning she met him, and shrunk from his notice as though she +were a child. At this excess of timidity she was much annoyed. Her quiet, +upright nature protested against the uneasiness which was taking possession of +her. She decided, therefore, to go and thank the doctor that very day. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne’s attack had taken place during the small hours of Wednesday +morning; it was now Saturday, and the child was quite well again. Doctor Bodin, +whose fears concerning her had prompted him to make an early call, spoke of +Doctor Deberle with the respect that an old doctor with a meagre income pays to +another in the same district, who is young, rich, and already possessed of a +reputation. He did not forget to add, however, with an artful smile, that the +fortune had been bequeathed by the elder Deberle, a man whom all Passy held in +veneration. The son had only been put to the trouble of inheriting fifteen +hundred thousand francs, together with a splendid practice. “He is, +though, a very smart fellow,” Doctor Bodin hastened to add, “and I +shall be honored by having a consultation with him about the precious health of +my little friend Jeanne!” +</p> + +<p> +About three o’clock Hélène made her way downstairs with her daughter, and +had to take but a few steps along the Rue Vineuse before ringing at the +next-door house. Both mother and daughter still wore deep mourning. A servant, +in dress-coat and white tie, opened the door. Hélène easily recognized the +large entrance-hall, with its Oriental hangings; on each side of it, however, +there were now flower-stands, brilliant with a profusion of blossoms. The +servant having admitted them to a small drawing-room, the hangings and +furniture of which were of a mignonette hue, stood awaiting their pleasure, and +Hélène gave her name—Madame Grandjean. +</p> + +<p> +Thereupon the footman pushed open the door of a drawing-room, furnished in +yellow and black, of dazzling effect, and, moving aside, announced: +</p> + +<p> +“Madame Grandjean!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, standing on the threshold, started back. She had just noticed at the +other end of the room a young woman seated near the fireplace on a narrow couch +which was completely covered by her ample skirts. Facing her sat an elderly +person, who had retained her bonnet and shawl, and was evidently paying a +visit. +</p> + +<p> +“I beg pardon,” exclaimed Hélène. “I wished to see Doctor +Deberle.” +</p> + +<p> +She had made the child enter the room before her, and now took her by the hand +again. She was both astonished and embarrassed in meeting this young lady. Why +had she not asked for the doctor? She well knew he was married. +</p> + +<p> +Madame Deberle was just finishing some story, in a quick and rather shrill +voice. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! it’s marvellous, marvellous! She dies with wonderful realism. +She clutches at her bosom like this, throws back her head, and her face turns +green. I declare you ought to see her, Mademoiselle Aurelie!” +</p> + +<p> +Then, rising up, she sailed towards the doorway, rustling her skirts terribly. +</p> + +<p> +“Be so kind as to walk in, madame,” she said with charming +graciousness. “My husband is not at home, but I shall be delighted to +receive you, I assure you. This must be the pretty little girl who was so ill a +few nights ago. Sit down for a moment, I beg of you.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène was forced to accept the invitation, while Jeanne timidly perched +herself on the edge of another chair. Madame Deberle again sank down on her +little sofa, exclaiming with a pretty laugh, +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, this is my day. I receive every Saturday, you see, and Pierre then +announces all comers. A week or two ago he ushered in a colonel suffering from +the gout.” +</p> + +<p> +“How silly you are, my dear Juliette!” expostulated Mademoiselle +Aurelie, the elderly lady, an old friend in straitened circumstances, who had +seen her come into the world. +</p> + +<p> +There was a short silence, and Hélène gazed round at the luxury of the +apartment, with its curtains and chairs in black and gold, glittering like +constellations. Flowers decorated mantel-shelf, piano, and tables alike, and +the clear light streamed through the windows from the garden, in which could be +seen the leafless trees and bare soil. The room had almost a hot-house +temperature; in the fireplace one large log was glowing with intense heat. +After another glance Hélène recognized that the gaudy colors had a happy +effect. Madame Deberle’s hair was inky-black, and her skin of a milky +whiteness. She was short, plump, slow in her movements, and withal graceful. +Amidst all the golden decorations, her white face assumed a vermeil tint under +her heavy, sombre tresses. Hélène really admired her. +</p> + +<p> +“Convulsions are so terrible,” broke in Madame Deberle. “My +Lucien had them when a mere baby. How uneasy you must have been, madame! +However, the dear little thing appears to be quite well now.” +</p> + +<p> +As she drawled out these words she kept her eyes on Hélène, whose superb beauty +amazed and delighted her. Never had she seen a woman with so queenly an air in +the black garments which draped the widow’s commanding figure. Her +admiration found vent in an involuntary smile, while she exchanged glances with +Mademoiselle Aurelie. Their admiration was so ingenuously and charmingly +expressed, that a faint smile also rippled over Hélène’s face. +</p> + +<p> +Then Madame Deberle stretched herself on the sofa. “You were not at the +first night at the Vaudeville yesterday, madame?” she asked, as she +played with the fan that hung from her waist. +</p> + +<p> +“I never go to the theatre,” was Hélène’s reply. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! little Noëmi was simply marvellous! Her death scene is so realistic! +She clutches her bosom like this, throws back her head, and her face turns +green. Oh! the effect is prodigious.” +</p> + +<p> +Thereupon she entered into a minute criticism of the actress’s playing, +which she upheld against the world; and then she passed to the other topics of +the day—a fine art exhibition, at which she had seen some most remarkable +paintings; a stupid novel about which too much fuss was being made; a society +intrigue which she spoke of to Mademoiselle Aurelie in veiled language. And so +she went on from one subject to another, without wearying, her tongue ever +ready, as though this social atmosphere were peculiarly her own. Hélène, a +stranger to such society, was content to listen, merely interjecting a remark +or brief reply every now and then. +</p> + +<p> +At last the door was again thrown open and the footman announced: “Madame +de Chermette! Madame Tissot!” +</p> + +<p> +Two ladies entered, magnificently dressed. Madame Deberle rose eagerly to meet +them, and the train of her black silk gown, heavily decked with trimmings, +trailed so far behind her that she had to kick it out of her way whenever she +happened to turn round. A confused babel of greetings in shrill voices arose. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! how kind of you! I declare I never see you!” +</p> + +<p> +“You know we come about that lottery.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes: I know, I know.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! we cannot sit down. We have to call at twenty houses yet.” +</p> + +<p> +“Come now, you are not going to run away at once!” +</p> + +<p> +And then the visitors finished by sitting down on the edge of a couch; the +chatter beginning again, shriller than ever. +</p> + +<p> +“Well! what do you think of yesterday at the Vaudeville?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! it was splendid!” +</p> + +<p> +“You know she unfastens her dress and lets down her hair. All the effect +springs from that.” +</p> + +<p> +“People say that she swallows something to make her green.” +</p> + +<p> +“No, no, every action is premeditated; but she had to invent and study +them all, in the first place.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s wonderful.” +</p> + +<p> +The two ladies rose and made their exit, and the room regained its tranquil +peacefulness. From some hyacinths on the mantel-shelf was wafted an +all-pervading perfume. For a time one could hear the noisy twittering of some +sparrows quarrelling on the lawn. Before resuming her seat, Madame Deberle +proceeded to draw down the embroidered tulle blind of a window facing her, and +then returned to her sofa in the mellowed, golden light of the room. +</p> + +<p> +“I beg pardon,” she now said. “We have had quite an +invasion.” +</p> + +<p> +Then, in an affectionate way, she entered into conversation with Hélène. She +seemed to know some details of her history, doubtless from the gossip of her +servants. With a boldness that was yet full of tact, and appeared instinct with +much friendliness, she spoke to Hélène of her husband, and of his sad death at +the Hotel du Var, in the Rue de Richelieu. +</p> + +<p> +“And you had just arrived, hadn’t you? You had never been in Paris +before. It must be awful to be plunged into mourning, in a strange room, the +day after a long journey, and when one doesn’t know a single place to go +to.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène assented with a slow nod. Yes, she had spent some very bitter hours. The +disease which carried off her husband had abruptly declared itself on the day +after their arrival, just as they were going out together. She knew none of the +streets, and was wholly unaware what district she was in. For eight days she +had remained at the bedside of the dying man, hearing the rumble of Paris +beneath her window, feeling she was alone, deserted, lost, as though plunged in +the depths of an abyss. When she stepped out on the pavement for the first +time, she was a widow. The mere recalling of that bare room, with its rows of +medicine bottles, and with the travelling trunks standing about unpacked, still +made her shudder. +</p> + +<p> +“Was your husband, as I’ve been told, nearly twice your age?” +asked Madame Deberle with an appearance of profound interest, while +Mademoiselle Aurelie cocked her ears so as not to lose a syllable of the +conversation. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, no!” replied Hélène. “He was scarcely six years +older.” +</p> + +<p> +Then she ventured to enter into the story of her marriage, telling in a few +brief sentences how her husband had fallen deeply in love with her while she +was living with her father, Monsieur Mouret, a hatter in the Rue des +Petites-Maries, at Marseilles; how the Grandjean family, who were rich +sugar-refiners, were bitterly opposed to the match, on account of her poverty. +She spoke, too, of the ill-omened and secret wedding after the usual legal +formalities, and of their hand-to-mouth existence, till the day an uncle on +dying left them some ten thousand francs a year. It was then that Grandjean, +within whom an intense hatred of Marseilles was growing, had decided on coming +to Paris, to live there for good. +</p> + +<p> +“And how old were you when you were married?” was Madame +Deberle’s next question. +</p> + +<p> +“Seventeen.” +</p> + +<p> +“You must have been very beautiful.” +</p> + +<p> +The conversation suddenly ceased, for Hélène had not seemed to hear the remark. +</p> + +<p> +“Madame Manguelin!” announced the footman. +</p> + +<p> +A young, retiring woman, evidently ill at ease, was ushered in. Madame Deberle +scarcely rose. It was one of her dependents, who had called to thank her for +some service performed. The visitor only remained for a few minutes, and left +the room with a courtesy. +</p> + +<p> +Madame Deberle then resumed the conversation, and spoke of Abbé Jouve, with +whom both were acquainted. The Abbé was a meek officiating priest at +Notre-Dame-de-Grace, the parish church of Passy; however, his charity was such +that he was more beloved and more respectfully hearkened to than any other +priest in the district. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, he has such pious eloquence!” exclaimed Madame Deberle, with a +sanctimonious look. +</p> + +<p> +“He has been very kind to us,” said Hélène. “My husband had +formerly known him at Marseilles. The moment he heard of my misfortune he took +charge of everything. To him we owe our settling in Passy.” +</p> + +<p> +“He has a brother, hasn’t he?” questioned Juliette. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, a step-brother, for his mother married again. Monsieur Rambaud was +also acquainted with my husband. He has started a large business in the Rue de +Rambuteau, where he sells oils and other Southern produce. I believe he makes a +large amount of money by it.” And she added, with a laugh: “The +Abbé and his brother make up my court.” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne, sitting on the edge of her chair, and wearied to death, now cast an +impatient look at her mother. Her long, delicate, lamb-like face wore a pained +expression, as if she disliked all this conversation; and she appeared at times +to sniff the heavy, oppressive odors floating in the room, while casting +suspicious side-glances at the furniture, as though her own exquisite +sensibility warned her of some undefined dangers. Finally, however, she turned +a look of tyrannical worship on her mother. +</p> + +<p> +Madame Deberle noticed the child’s uneasiness. +</p> + +<p> +“Here’s a little girl,” she said, “who feels tired at +being serious, like a grown-up person. There are some picture-books on the +table, dear; they will amuse you.” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne took up an album, but her eyes strayed from it to glance imploringly at +her mother. Hélène, charmed by her hostess’s excessive kindness, did not +move; there was nothing of the fidget in her, and she would of her own accord +remain seated for hours. However, as the servant announced three ladies in +succession—Madame Berthier, Madame de Guiraud, and Madame +Levasseur—she thought she ought to rise. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! pray stop,” exclaimed Madame Deberle; “I must show you +my son.” +</p> + +<p> +The semi-circle round the fireplace was increasing in size. The ladies were all +gossiping at the same time. One of them declared that she was completely broken +down, as for five days she had not gone to bed till four o’clock in the +morning. Another indulged in a diatribe against wet nurses; she could no longer +find one who was honest. Next the conversation fell on dressmakers. Madame +Deberle affirmed no woman tailor could fit you properly; a man was requisite. +Two of the ladies, however, were mumbling something under their breath, and, a +silence intervening, two or three words became audible. Every one then broke +into a laugh, while languidly waving their fans. +</p> + +<p> +“Monsieur Malignon!” announced the servant. +</p> + +<p> +A tall young man, dressed in good style, was ushered in. Some exclamations +greeted him. Madame Deberle, not taking the trouble to rise, stretched out her +hand and inquired: “Well! what of yesterday at the Vaudeville?” +</p> + +<p> +“Vile!” was his reply. +</p> + +<p> +“What! vile! She’s marvellous when she clutches her bosom and +throws back her head—” +</p> + +<p> +“Stop! stop! The whole thing is loathsome in its realism.” +</p> + +<p> +And then quite a dispute commenced. It was easy to talk of realism, but the +young man would have no realism at all. +</p> + +<p> +“I would not have it in anything, you hear!” said he, raising his +voice. “No, not in anything! it degrades art.” +</p> + +<p> +People would soon be seeing some fine things on the stage, indeed! Why +didn’t Noëmi follow out her actions to their logical conclusion? And he +illustrated his remark with a gesture which quite scandalized the ladies. Oh, +how horrible! However, when Madame Deberle had declared that the actress +produced a great effect, and Madame Levasseur had related how a lady had +fainted in the balcony, everybody agreed that the affair was a great success; +and with this the discussion stopped short. +</p> + +<p> +The young man sat in an arm-chair, with his legs stretched out among the +ladies’ flowing skirts. He seemed to be quite at home in the +doctor’s house. He had mechanically plucked a flower from a vase, and was +tearing it to pieces with his teeth. Madame Deberle interrupted him: +</p> + +<p> +“Have you read that novel which—” +</p> + +<p> +He did not allow her to finish, but replied, with a superior air, that he only +read two novels in the year. +</p> + +<p> +As for the exhibition of paintings at the Art Club, it was not worth troubling +about; and then, every topic being exhausted, he rose and leaned over +Juliette’s little sofa, conversing with her in a low voice, while the +other ladies continued chatting together in an animated manner. +</p> + +<p> +At length: “Dear me! he’s gone,” exclaimed Madame Berthier +turning round. “I met him only an hour ago in Madame Robinot’s +drawing-room.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, and he is now going to visit Madame Lecomte,” said Madame +Deberle. “He goes about more than any other man in Paris.” She +turned to Hélène, who had been following the scene, and added: “A very +distinguished young fellow he is, and we like him very much. He has some +interest in a stockbroking business; he’s very rich besides, and well +posted in everything.” +</p> + +<p> +The other ladies, however, were now going off. +</p> + +<p> +“Good-bye, dear madame. I rely upon you for Wednesday.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, to be sure; Wednesday.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, by the way, will you be at that evening party? One doesn’t +know whom one may meet. If you go, I’ll go.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah, well! I’ll go, I promise you. Give my best regards to Monsieur +de Guiraud.” +</p> + +<p> +When Madame Deberle returned she found Hélène standing in the middle of the +drawing-room. Jeanne had drawn close to her mother, whose hands she firmly +grasped; and thus clinging to her caressingly and almost convulsively, she was +drawing her little by little towards the doorway. +</p> + +<p> +“Ah, I was forgetting!” exclaimed the lady of the house; and +ringing the bell for the servant, she said to him: “Pierre, tell Miss +Smithson to bring Lucien here.” +</p> + +<p> +During the short interval of waiting that ensued the door was again opened, but +this time in a familiar fashion and without any formal announcement. A +good-looking girl of some sixteen years of age entered in company with an old +man, short of stature but with a rubicund, chubby face. +</p> + +<p> +“Good-day, sister,” was the girl’s greeting, as she kissed +Madame Deberle. +</p> + +<p> +“Good-day, Pauline! good-day, father!” replied the doctor’s +wife. +</p> + +<p> +Mademoiselle Aurelie, who had not stirred from her seat beside the fire, rose +to exchange greetings with Monsieur Letellier. He owned an extensive silk +warehouse on the Boulevard des Capucines. Since his wife’s death he had +been taking his younger daughter about everywhere, in search of a rich husband +for her. +</p> + +<p> +“Were you at the Vaudeville last night?” asked Pauline. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, it was simply marvellous!” repeated Juliette in +parrot-fashion, as, standing before a mirror, she rearranged a rebellious curl. +</p> + +<p> +“It is annoying to be so young; one can’t go to anything!” +said Pauline, pouting like a spoiled child. “I went with papa to the +theatre-door at midnight, to find out how the piece had taken.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, and we tumbled upon Malignon,” said the father. +</p> + +<p> +“He was extremely pleased with it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Really!” exclaimed Juliette. “He was here a minute ago, and +declared it vile. One never knows how to take him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Have you had many visitors to-day?” asked Pauline, rushing off to +another subject. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, several ladies; quite a crowd! The room was never once empty. +I’m dead-beat—” +</p> + +<p> +Here she abruptly broke off, remembering she had a formal introduction to make +</p> + +<p> +“My father, my sister—Madame Grandjean.” +</p> + +<p> +The conversation was turning on children and the ailments which give mothers so +much worry when Miss Smithson, an English governess, appeared with a little boy +clinging to her hand. Madame Deberle scolded her in English for having kept +them waiting. +</p> + +<p> +“Ah! here’s my little Lucien!” exclaimed Pauline as she +dropped on her knees before the child, with a great rustling of skirts. +</p> + +<p> +“Now, now, leave him alone!” said Juliette. “Come here, +Lucien; come and say good-day to this little lady.” +</p> + +<p> +The boy came forward very sheepishly. He was no more than seven years old, fat +and dumpy, and dressed as coquettishly as a doll. As he saw that they were all +looking at him with smiles, he stopped short, and surveyed Jeanne, his blue +eyes wide open with astonishment. +</p> + +<p> +“Go on!” urged his mother. +</p> + +<p> +He turned his eyes questioningly on her and advanced a step, evincing all the +sullenness peculiar to lads of his age, his head lowered, his thick lips +pouting, and his eyebrows bent into a growing frown. Jeanne must have +frightened him with the serious look she wore standing there in her black +dress. She had not ceased holding her mother’s hand, and was nervously +pressing her fingers on the bare part of the arm between the sleeve and glove. +With head lowered she awaited Lucien’s approach uneasily, like a young +and timid savage, ready to fly from his caress. But a gentle push from her +mother prompted her to step forward. +</p> + +<p> +“Little lady, you will have to kiss him first,” Madame Deberle said +laughingly. “Ladies always have to begin with him. Oh! the little +stupid.” +</p> + +<p> +“Kiss him, Jeanne,” urged Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +The child looked up at her mother; and then, as if conquered by the bashful +looks of the little noodle, seized with sudden pity as she gazed on his +good-natured face, so dreadfully confused—she smiled divinely. A sudden +wave of hidden tenderness rose within her and brightened her features, and she +whispered: “Willingly, mamma!” +</p> + +<p> +Then, taking Lucien under the armpits, almost lifting him from the ground, she +gave him a hearty kiss on each cheek. He had no further hesitation in embracing +her. +</p> + +<p> +“Bravo! capital!” exclaimed the onlookers. +</p> + +<p> +With a bow Hélène turned to leave, accompanied to the door by Madame Deberle. +</p> + +<p> +“I beg you, madame,” said she, “to present my heartiest +thanks to the doctor. He relieved me of such dreadful anxiety the other +night.” +</p> + +<p> +“Is Henri not at home?” broke in Monsieur Letellier. +</p> + +<p> +“No, he will be away some time yet,” was Juliette’s reply. +“But you’re not going away; you’ll dine with us,” she +continued, addressing Mademoiselle Aurelie, who had risen as if to leave with +Madame Grandjean. +</p> + +<p> +The old maid with each Saturday expected a similar invitation, then decided to +relieve herself of shawl and bonnet. The heat in the drawing-room was intense, +and Monsieur Letellier hastened to open a window, at which he remained +standing, struck by the sight of a lilac bush which was already budding. +Pauline, meantime, had begun playfully running after Lucien behind the chairs +and couches, left in confusion by the visitors. +</p> + +<p> +On the threshold Madame Deberle held out her hand to Hélène with a frank and +friendly movement. +</p> + +<p> +“You will allow me,” said she. “My husband spoke to me about +you, and I felt drawn to you. Your bereavement, your lonely life—in +short, I am very glad to have seen you, and you must not be long in coming +back.” +</p> + +<p> +“I give you my promise, and I am obliged to you,” said Hélène, +moved by these tokens of affection from a woman whom she had imagined rather +flighty. They clasped hands, and each looked into the other’s face with a +happy smile. Juliette’s avowal of her sudden friendship was given with a +caressing air. “You are too lovely not to be loved!” she said. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène broke into a merry laugh, for her beauty never engaged her thoughts, and +she called Jeanne, whose eyes were busy watching the pranks of Lucien and +Pauline. But Madame Deberle detained the girl for a moment longer. +</p> + +<p> +“You are good friends henceforth,” she said; “you must just +say <i>au revoir</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +Thereupon the two children blew one another a kiss with their finger-tips. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0003"></a> CHAPTER III.</h2> + +<p> +Every Tuesday Hélène had Monsieur Rambaud and Abbé Jouve to dine with her. It +was they who, during the early days of her bereavement, had broken in on her +solitude, and drawn up their chairs to her table with friendly freedom; their +object being to extricate her, at least once a week, from the solitude in which +she lived. The Tuesday dinners became established institutions, and the +partakers in these little feasts appeared punctually at seven o’clock, +serenely happy in discharging what they deemed a duty. +</p> + +<p> +That Tuesday Hélène was seated at the window, profiting by the last gleams of +the twilight to finish some needle work, pending the arrival of her guests. She +here spent her days in pleasant peacefulness. The noises of the street died +away before reaching such a height. She loved this large, quiet chamber, with +its substantial luxury, its rosewood furniture and blue velvet curtains. When +her friends had attended to her installation, she not having to trouble about +anything, she had at first somewhat suffered from all this sombre luxury, in +preparing which Monsieur Rambaud had realized his ideal of comfort, much to the +admiration of his brother, who had declined the task. She was not long, +however, in feeling happy in a home in which, as in her heart, all was sound +and simple. Her only enjoyment during her long hours of work was to gaze before +her at the vast horizon, the huge pile of Paris, stretching its roofs, like +billows, as far as the eye could reach. Her solitary corner overlooked all that +immensity. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma, I can no longer see,” said Jeanne, seated near her on a low +chair. And then, dropping her work, the child gazed at Paris, which was +darkening over with the shadows of night. She rarely romped about, and her +mother even had to exert authority to induce her to go out. In accordance with +Doctor Bodin’s strict injunction, Hélène made her stroll with her two +hours each day in the Bois de Boulogne, and this was their only promenade; in +eighteen months they had not gone three times into Paris.[*] Nowhere was Jeanne +so evidently happy as in their large blue room. Her mother had been obliged to +renounce her intention of having her taught music, for the sound of an organ in +the silent streets made her tremble and drew tears from her eyes. Her favorite +occupation was to assist her mother in sewing linen for the children of the +Abbé’s poor. +</p> + +<p> +[*] Passy and the Trocadero are now well inside Paris, but at the time fixed +for this story they were beyond the <i>barrieres</i>. +</p> + +<p> +Night had quite fallen when the lamp was brought in by Rosalie, who, fresh from +the glare of her range, looked altogether upset. Tuesday’s dinner was the +one event of the week, which put things topsy-turvy. +</p> + +<p> +“Aren’t the gentlemen coming here to-night, madame?” she +inquired. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène looked at the timepiece: “It’s a quarter to seven; they will +be here soon,” she replied. +</p> + +<p> +Rosalie was a gift from Abbé Jouve, who had met her at the station on the day +she arrived from Orleans, so that she did not know a single street in Paris. A +village priest, an old schoolmate of Abbé Jouve’s, had sent her to him. +She was dumpy and plump, with a round face under her narrow cap, thick black +hair, a flat nose, and deep red lips; and she was expert in preparing savory +dishes, having been brought up at the parsonage by her godmother, servant to +the village priest. +</p> + +<p> +“Here is Monsieur Rambaud at last!” she exclaimed, rushing to open +the door before there was even a ring. +</p> + +<p> +Full and broad-shouldered, Monsieur Rambaud entered, displaying an expansive +countenance like that of a country notary. His forty-five years had already +silvered his hair, but his large blue eyes retained a wondering, artless, +gentle expression, akin to a child’s. +</p> + +<p> +“And here’s his reverence; everybody has come now!” resumed +Rosalie, as she opened the door once more. +</p> + +<p> +Whilst Monsieur Rambaud pressed Hélène’s hand and sat down without +speaking, smiling like one who felt quite at home, Jeanne threw her arms round +the Abbé’s neck. +</p> + +<p> +“Good-evening, dear friend,” said she. “I’ve been so +ill!” +</p> + +<p> +“So ill, my darling?” +</p> + +<p> +The two men at once showed their anxiety, the Abbé especially. He was a short, +spare man, with a large head and awkward manners, and dressed in the most +careless way; but his eyes, usually half-closed, now opened to their full +extent, all aglow with exquisite tenderness. Jeanne relinquished one of her +hands to him, while she gave the other to Monsieur Rambaud. Both held her and +gazed at her with troubled looks. Hélène was obliged to relate the story of her +illness, and the Abbé was on the point of quarrelling with her for not having +warned him of it. And then they each questioned her. “The attack was +quite over now? She had not had another, had she?” The mother smiled as +she listened. +</p> + +<p> +“You are even fonder of her than I am, and I think you’ll frighten +me in the end,” she replied. “No, she hasn’t been troubled +again, except that she has felt some pains in her limbs and had some headaches. +But we shall get rid of these very soon.” +</p> + +<p> +The maid then entered to announce that dinner was ready. +</p> + +<p> +The table, sideboard, and eight chairs furnishing the dining-room were of +mahogany. The curtains of red reps had been drawn close by Rosalie, and a +hanging lamp of white porcelain within a plain brass ring lighted up the +tablecloth, the carefully-arranged plates, and the tureen of steaming soup. +Each Tuesday’s dinner brought round the same remarks, but on this +particular day Dr. Deberle served naturally as a subject of conversation. Abbé +Jouve lauded him to the skies, though he knew that he was no church-goer. He +spoke of him, however, as a man of upright character, charitable to a fault, a +good father, and a good husband—in fact, one who gave the best of +examples to others. As for Madame Deberle she was most estimable, in spite of +her somewhat flighty ways, which were doubtless due to her Parisian education. +In a word, he dubbed the couple charming. Hélène seemed happy to hear this; it +confirmed her own opinions; and the Abbé’s remarks determined her to +continue the acquaintance, which had at first rather frightened her. +</p> + +<p> +“You shut yourself up too much!” declared the priest. +</p> + +<p> +“No doubt,” echoed his brother. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène beamed on them with her quiet smile, as though to say that they +themselves sufficed for all her wants, and that she dreaded new acquaintances. +However, ten o’clock struck at last, and the Abbé and his brother took up +their hats. Jeanne had just fallen asleep in an easy-chair in the bedroom, and +they bent over her, raising their heads with satisfied looks as they observed +how tranquilly she slumbered. They stole from the room on tiptoe, and in the +lobby whispered their good-byes: +</p> + +<p> +“Till next Tuesday!” +</p> + +<p> +“O, by the way,” said the Abbé, returning a step or two, “I +was forgetting: Mother Fétu is ill. You should go to see her.” +</p> + +<p> +“I will go to-morrow,” answered Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +The Abbé had a habit of commissioning her to visit his poor. They engaged in +all sorts of whispered talk together on this subject, private business which a +word or two enabled them to settle together, and which they never referred to +in the presence of other persons. +</p> + +<p> +On the morrow Hélène went out alone. She decided to leave Jeanne in the house, +as the child had been troubled with fits of shivering since paying a visit of +charity to an old man who had become paralyzed. Once out of doors, she followed +the Rue Vineuse, turned down the Rue Raynouard, and soon found herself in the +Passage des Eaux, a strange, steep lane, like a staircase, pent between garden +walls, and conducting from the heights of Passy to the quay. At the bottom of +this descent was a dilapidated house, where Mother Fétu lived in an attic +lighted by a round window, and furnished with a wretched bed, a rickety table, +and a seatless chair. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! my good lady, my good lady!” she moaned out, directly she saw +Hélène enter. +</p> + +<p> +The old woman was in bed. In spite of her wretchedness, her body was plump, +swollen out, as it were, while her face was puffy, and her hands seemed numbed +as she drew the tattered sheet over her. She had small, keen eyes and a +whimpering voice, and displayed a noisy humility in a rush of words. +</p> + +<p> +“Ah! my good lady, how I thank you! Ah, ah! oh, how I suffer! It’s +just as if dogs were tearing at my side. I’m sure I have a beast inside +me—see, just there! The skin isn’t broken; the complaint is +internal. But, oh! oh! the pain hasn’t ceased for two days past. Good +Lord, how is it possible to suffer so much? Ah, my good lady, thank you! You +don’t forget the poor. It will be taken into account up above; yes, yes, +it will be taken into account!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène had sat down. Noticing on the table a jug of warm <i>tisane</i>, she +filled a cup which was near at hand, and gave it to the sufferer. Near the jug +were placed a packet of sugar, two oranges, and some other comfits. +</p> + +<p> +“Has any one been to see you?” Hélène asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, yes,—a little lady. But she doesn’t know. That +isn’t the sort of stuff I need. Oh, if I could get a little meat! My +next-door neighbor would cook it for me. Oh! oh! this pain is something +dreadful! A dog is tearing at me—oh, if only I had some broth!” +</p> + +<p> +In spite of the pains which were racking her limbs, she kept her sharp eyes +fixed on Hélène, who was now busy fumbling in her pocket, and on seeing her +visitor place a ten-franc piece on the table, she whimpered all the more, and +tried to rise to a sitting posture. Whilst struggling, she extended her arm, +and the money vanished, as she repeated: +</p> + +<p> +“Gracious Heaven! this is another frightful attack. Oh! oh! I cannot +stand such agony any longer! God will requite you, my good lady; I will pray to +Him to requite you. Bless my soul, how these pains shoot through my whole body! +His reverence Abbé Jouve promised me you would come. It’s only you who +know what I want. I am going to buy some meat. But now the pain’s going +down into my legs. Help me; I have no strength left—none left at +all!” +</p> + +<p> +The old woman wished to turn over, and Hélène, drawing off her gloves, gently +took hold of her and placed her as she desired. As she was still bending over +her the door opened, and a flush of surprise mounted to her cheeks as she saw +Dr. Deberle entering. Did he also make visits to which he never referred? +</p> + +<p> +“It’s the doctor!” blurted out the old woman. “Oh! +Heaven must bless you both for being so good!” +</p> + +<p> +The doctor bowed respectfully to Hélène. Mother Fétu had ceased whining on his +entrance, but kept up a sibilant wheeze, like that of a child in pain. She had +understood at once that the doctor and her benefactress were known to one +another; and her eyes never left them, but travelled from one to the other, +while her wrinkled face showed that her mind was covertly working. The doctor +put some questions to her, and sounded her right side; then, turning to Hélène, +who had just sat down, he said: +</p> + +<p> +“She is suffering from hepatic colic. She will be on her feet again in a +few days.” +</p> + +<p> +And, tearing from his memorandum book a leaf on which he had written some +lines, he added, addressing Mother Fétu: +</p> + +<p> +“Listen to me. You must send this to the chemist in the Rue de Passy, and +every two hours you must drink a spoonful of the draught he will give +you.” +</p> + +<p> +The old woman burst out anew into blessings. Hélène remained seated. The doctor +lingered gazing at her; but when their eyes had met, he bowed and discreetly +took his leave. He had not gone down a flight ere Mother Fétu’s +lamentations were renewed. +</p> + +<p> +“Ah! he’s such a clever doctor! Ah! if his medicine could do me +some good! Dandelions and tallow make a good simple for removing water from the +body. Yes, yes, you can say you know a clever doctor. Have you known him long? +Gracious goodness, how thirsty I am! I feel burning hot. He has a wife, +hasn’t he? He deserves to have a good wife and beautiful children. +Indeed, it’s a pleasure to see kind-hearted people good +acquaintances.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène had risen to give her a drink. +</p> + +<p> +“I must go now, Mother Fétu,” she said. “Good-bye till +to-morrow.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah! how good you are! If I only had some linen! Look at my +chemise—it’s torn in half; and this bed is so dirty. But that +doesn’t matter. God will requite you, my good lady!” +</p> + +<p> +Next day, on Hélène’s entering Mother Fétu’s room, she found Dr. +Deberle already there. Seated on the chair, he was writing out a prescription, +while the old woman rattled on with whimpering volubility. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, sir, it now feels like lead in my side—yes, just like lead! +It’s as heavy as a hundred-pound weight, and prevents me from turning +round.” +</p> + +<p> +Then, having caught sight of Hélène, she went on without a pause: “Ah! +here’s the good lady! I told the kind doctor you would come. Though the +heavens might fall, said I, you would come all the same. You’re a very +saint, an angel from paradise, and, oh! so beautiful that people might fall on +their knees in the streets to gaze on you as you pass! Dear lady, I am no +better; just now I have a heavy feeling here. Oh, I have told the doctor what +you did for me! The emperor could have done no more. Yes, indeed, it would be a +sin not to love you—a great sin.” +</p> + +<p> +These broken sentences fell from her lips as, with eyes half closed, she rolled +her head on the bolster, the doctor meantime smiling at Hélène, who felt very +ill at ease. +</p> + +<p> +“Mother Fétu,” she said softly, “I have brought you a little +linen.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, thank you, thank you; God will requite you! You’re just like +this kind, good gentleman, who does more good to poor folks than a host of +those who declare it their special work. You don’t know what great care +he has taken of me for four months past, supplying me with medicine and broth +and wine. One rarely finds a rich person so kind to a poor soul! Oh, he’s +another of God’s angels! Dear, dear, I seem to have quite a house in my +stomach!” +</p> + +<p> +In his turn the doctor now seemed to be embarrassed. He rose and offered his +chair to Hélène; but although she had come with the intention of remaining a +quarter of an hour, she declined to sit down, on the plea that she was in a +great hurry. +</p> + +<p> +Meanwhile, Mother Fétu, still rolling her head to and fro, had stretched out +her hand, and the parcel of linen had vanished in the bed. Then she resumed: +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, what a couple of good souls you are! I don’t wish to offend +you; I only say it because it’s true. When you have seen one, you have +seen the other. Oh, dear Lord! give me a hand and help me to turn round. +Kind-hearted people understand one another. Yes, yes, they understand one +another.” +</p> + +<p> +“Good-bye, Mother Fétu,” said Hélène, leaving the doctor in sole +possession. “I don’t think I shall call to-morrow.” +</p> + +<p> +The next day, however, found her in the attic again. The old woman was sound +asleep, but scarcely had she opened her eyes and recognized Hélène in her black +dress sitting on the chair than she exclaimed: +</p> + +<p> +“He has been here—oh, I really don’t know what he gave me to +take, but I am as stiff as a stick. We were talking about you. He asked me all +kinds of questions; whether you were generally sad, and whether your look was +always the same. Oh, he’s such a good man!” +</p> + +<p> +Her words came more slowly, and she seemed to be waiting to see by the +expression of Hélène’s face what effect her remarks might have on her, +with that wheedling, anxious air of the poor who are desirous of pleasing +people. No doubt she fancied she could detect a flush of displeasure mounting +to her benefactress’s brow, for her huge, puffed-up face, all eagerness +and excitement, suddenly clouded over; and she resumed, in stammering accents: +</p> + +<p> +“I am always asleep. Perhaps I have been poisoned. A woman in the Rue de +l’Annonciation was killed by a drug which the chemist gave her in mistake +for another.” +</p> + +<p> +That day Hélène lingered for nearly half an hour in Mother Fétu’s room, +hearing her talk of Normandy, where she had been born, and where the milk was +so good. During a silence she asked the old woman carelessly: “Have you +known the doctor a long time?” +</p> + +<p> +Mother Fétu, lying on her back, half-opened her eyes and again closed them. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, yes!” she answered, almost in a whisper. “For instance, +his father attended to me before ’48, and he accompanied him then.” +</p> + +<p> +“I have been told the father was a very good man.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, but a little cracked. The son is much his superior. When he touches +you you would think his hands were of velvet.” +</p> + +<p> +Silence again fell. +</p> + +<p> +“I advise you to do everything he tells you,” at last said Hélène. +“He is very clever; he saved my daughter.” +</p> + +<p> +“To be sure!” exclaimed Mother Fétu, again all excitement. +“People ought to have confidence in him. Why, he brought a boy to life +again when he was going to be buried! Oh, there aren’t two persons like +him; you won’t stop me from saying that! I am very lucky; I fall in with +the pick of good-hearted people. I thank the gracious Lord for it every night. +I don’t forget either of you. You are mingled together in my prayers. May +God in His goodness shield you and grant your every wish! May He load you with +His gifts! May He keep you a place in Paradise!” +</p> + +<p> +She was now sitting up in bed with hands clasped, seemingly entreating Heaven +with devout fervor. Hélène allowed her to go on thus for a considerable time, +and even smiled. The old woman’s chatter, in fact, ended by lulling her +into a pleasant drowsiness, and when she went off she promised to give her a +bonnet and gown, as soon as she should be able to get about again. +</p> + +<p> +Throughout that week Hélène busied herself with Mother Fétu. Her afternoon +visit became an item in her daily life. She felt a strange fondness for the +Passage des Eaux. She liked that steep lane for its coolness and quietness and +its ever-clean pavement, washed on rainy days by the water rushing down from +the heights. A strange sensation thrilled her as she stood at the top and +looked at the narrow alley with its steep declivity, usually deserted, and only +known to the few inhabitants of the neighboring streets. Then she would venture +through an archway dividing a house fronting the Rue Raynouard, and trip down +the seven flights of broad steps, in which lay the bed of a pebbly stream +occupying half of the narrow way. The walls of the gardens on each side bulged +out, coated with a grey, leprous growth; umbrageous trees drooped over, foliage +rained down, here and there an ivy plant thickly mantled the stonework, and the +chequered verdure, which only left glimpses of the blue sky above, made the +light very soft and greeny. Halfway down Hélène would stop to take breath, +gazing at the street-lamp which hung there, and listening to the merry laughter +in the gardens, whose doors she had never seen open. At times an old woman +panted up with the aid of the black, shiny, iron handrail fixed in the wall to +the right; a lady would come, leaning on her parasol as on a walking-stick; or +a band of urchins would run down, with a great stamping of feet. But almost +always Hélène found herself alone, and this steep, secluded, shady descent was +to her a veritable delight—like a path in the depths of a forest. At the +bottom she would raise her eyes, and the sight of the narrow, precipitous alley +she had just descended made her feel somewhat frightened. +</p> + +<p> +She glided into the old woman’s room with the quiet and coolness of the +Passage des Eaux clinging to her garments. This woefully wretched den no longer +affected her painfully. She moved about there as if in her own rooms, opening +the round attic window to admit the fresh air, and pushing the table into a +corner if it came in her way. The garret’s bareness, its whitewashed +walls and rickety furniture, realized to her mind an existence whose simplicity +she had sometimes dreamt of in her girlhood. But what especially charmed her +was the kindly emotion she experienced there. Playing the part of sick nurse, +hearing the constant bewailing of the old woman, all she saw and felt within +the four walls left her quivering with deep pity. In the end she awaited with +evident impatience Doctor Deberle’s customary visit. She questioned him +as to Mother Fétu’s condition; but from this they glided to other +subjects, as they stood near each other, face to face. A closer acquaintance +was springing up between them, and they were surprised to find they possessed +similar tastes. They understood one another without speaking a word, each heart +engulfed in the same overflowing charity. Nothing to Hélène seemed sweeter than +this mutual feeling, which arose in such an unusual way, and to which she +yielded without resistance, filled as she was with divine pity. At first she +had felt somewhat afraid of the doctor; in her own drawing-room she would have +been cold and distrustful, in harmony with her nature. Here, however, in this +garret they were far from the world, sharing the one chair, and almost happy in +the midst of the wretchedness and poverty which filled their souls with +emotion. A week passed, and they knew one another as though they had been +intimate for years. Mother Fétu’s miserable abode was filled with +sunshine, streaming from this fellowship of kindliness. +</p> + +<p> +The old woman grew better very slowly. The doctor was surprised, and charged +her with coddling herself when she related that she now felt a dreadful weight +in her legs. She always kept up her monotonous moaning, lying on her back and +rolling her head to and fro; but she closed her eyes, as though to give her +visitors an opportunity for unrestrained talk. One day she was to all +appearance sound asleep, but beneath their lids her little black eyes continued +watching. At last, however, she had to rise from her bed; and next day Hélène +presented her with the promised bonnet and gown. When the doctor made his +appearance that afternoon the old woman’s laggard memory seemed suddenly +stirred. “Gracious goodness!” said she, “I’ve forgotten +my neighbor’s soup-pot; I promised to attend to it!” +</p> + +<p> +Then she disappeared, closing the door behind her and leaving the couple alone. +They did not notice that they were shut in, but continued their conversation. +The doctor urged Hélène to spend the afternoon occasionally in his garden in +the Rue Vineuse. +</p> + +<p> +“My wife,” said he, “must return your visit, and she will in +person repeat my invitation. It would do your daughter good.” +</p> + +<p> +“But I don’t refuse,” she replied, laughing. “I do not +require to be fetched with ceremony. Only—only—I am afraid of being +indiscreet. At any rate, we will see.” +</p> + +<p> +Their talk continued, but at last the doctor exclaimed in a tone of surprise: +“Where on earth can Mother Fétu have gone? It must be a quarter of an +hour since she went to see after her neighbor’s soup-pot.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène then saw that the door was shut, but it did not shock her at the moment. +She continued to talk of Madame Deberle, of whom she spoke highly to her +husband; but noticing that the doctor constantly glanced towards the door, she +at last began to feel uncomfortable. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s very strange that she does not come back!” she remarked +in her turn. +</p> + +<p> +Their conversation then dropped. Hélène, not knowing what to do, opened the +window; and when she turned round they avoided looking at one another. The +laughter of children came in through the circular window, which, with its bit +of blue sky, seemed like a full round moon. They could not have been more +alone—concealed from all inquisitive looks, with merely this bit of +heaven gazing in on them. The voices of the children died away in the distance; +and a quivering silence fell. No one would dream of finding them in that attic, +out of the world. Their confusion grew apace, and in the end Hélène, displeased +with herself, gave the doctor a steady glance. +</p> + +<p> +“I have a great many visits to pay yet,” he at once exclaimed. +“As she doesn’t return, I must leave.” +</p> + +<p> +He quitted the room, and Hélène then sat down. Immediately afterwards Mother +Fétu returned with many protestations: +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! oh! I can scarcely crawl; such a faintness came over me! Has the +dear good doctor gone? Well, to be sure, there’s not much comfort here! +Oh, you are both angels from heaven, coming to spend your time with one so +unfortunate as myself! But God in His goodness will requite you. The pain has +gone down into my feet to-day, and I had to sit down on a step. Oh, I should +like to have some chairs! If I only had an easy-chair! My mattress is so vile +too that I am quite ashamed when you come. The whole place is at your disposal, +and I would throw myself into the fire if you required it. Yes. Heaven knows +it; I always repeat it in my prayers! Oh, kind Lord, grant their utmost desires +to these good friends of mine—in the name of the Father, the Son, and the +Holy Ghost!” +</p> + +<p> +As Hélène listened she experienced a singular feeling of discomfort. Mother +Fétu’s bloated face filled her with disgust. Never before in this +stifling attic had she been affected in a like way; its sordid misery seemed to +stare her in the face; the lack of fresh air, the surrounding wretchedness, +quite sickened her. So she made all haste to leave, feeling hurt by the +blessings which Mother Fétu poured after her. +</p> + +<p> +In the Passage des Eaux an additional sorrow came upon her. Halfway up, on the +right-hand side of the path, the wall was hollowed out, and here there was an +excavation, some disused well, enclosed by a railing. During the last two days +when passing she had heard the wailings of a cat rising from this well, and +now, as she slowly climbed the path, these wailings were renewed, but so +pitifully that they seemed instinct with the agony of death. The thought that +the poor brute, thrown into the disused well, was slowly dying there of hunger, +quite rent Hélène’s heart. She hastened her steps, resolving that she +would not venture down this lane again for a long time, lest the cat’s +death-call should reach her ears. +</p> + +<p> +The day was a Tuesday. In the evening, on the stroke of seven, as Hélène was +finishing a tiny bodice, the two wonted rings at the bell were heard, and +Rosalie opened the door. +</p> + +<p> +“His reverence is first to-night!” she exclaimed. “Oh, here +comes Monsieur Rambaud too!” +</p> + +<p> +They were very merry at dinner. Jeanne was nearly well again now, and the two +brothers, who spoiled her, were successful in procuring her permission to eat +some salad, of which she was excessively fond, notwithstanding Doctor +Bodin’s formal prohibition. When she was going to bed, the child in high +spirits hung round her mother’s neck and pleaded: +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! mamma, darling! let me go with you to-morrow to see the old woman +you nurse!” +</p> + +<p> +But the Abbé and Monsieur Rambaud were the first to scold her for thinking of +such a thing. They would not hear of her going amongst the poor, as the sight +affected her too grieviously. The last time she had been on such an expedition +she had twice swooned, and for three days her eyes had been swollen with tears, +that had flowed even in her sleep. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! I will be good!” she pleaded. “I won’t cry, I +promise.” +</p> + +<p> +“It is quite useless, my darling,” said her mother, caressing her. +“The old woman is well now. I shall not go out any more; I’ll stay +all day with you!” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0004"></a> CHAPTER IV.</h2> + +<p> +During the following week Madame Deberle paid a return visit to Madame +Grandjean, and displayed an affability that bordered on affection. +</p> + +<p> +“You know what you promised me,” she said, on the threshold, as she +was going off. “The first fine day we have, you must come down to the +garden, and bring Jeanne with you. It is the doctor’s strict +injunction.” +</p> + +<p> +“Very well,” Hélène answered, with a smile, “it is +understood; we will avail ourselves of your kindness.” +</p> + +<p> +Three days later, on a bright February afternoon, she accompanied her daughter +down to the garden. The porter opened the door connecting the two houses. At +the near end of the garden, in a kind of greenhouse built somewhat in the style +of a Japanese pavilion, they found Madame Deberle and her sister Pauline, both +idling away their time, for some embroidery, thrown on the little table, lay +there neglected. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, how good of you to come!” cried Juliette. “You must sit +down here. Pauline, move that table away! It is still rather cool you know to +sit out of doors, but from this pavilion we can keep a watch on the children. +Now, little ones, run away and play; but take care not to fall!” +</p> + +<p> +The large door of the pavilion stood open, and on each side were portable +mirrors, whose covers had been removed so that they allowed one to view the +garden’s expanse as from the threshold of a tent. The garden, with a +green sward in the centre, flanked by beds of flowers, was separated from the +Rue Vineuse by a plain iron railing, but against this grew a thick green hedge, +which prevented the curious from gazing in. Ivy, clematis, and woodbine clung +and wound around the railings, and behind this first curtain of foliage came a +second one of lilacs and laburnums. Even in the winter the ivy leaves and the +close network of branches sufficed to shut off the view. But the great charm of +the garden lay in its having at the far end a few lofty trees, some magnificent +elms, which concealed the grimy wall of a five-story house. Amidst all the +neighboring houses these trees gave the spot the aspect of a nook in some park, +and seemed to increase the dimensions of this little Parisian garden, which was +swept like a drawing-room. Between two of the elms hung a swing, the seat of +which was green with damp. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène leaned forward the better to view the scene. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, it is a hole!” exclaimed Madame Deberle carelessly. +“Still, trees are so rare in Paris that one is happy in having half a +dozen of one’s own.” +</p> + +<p> +“No, no, you have a very pleasant place,” murmured Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +The sun filled the pale atmosphere that day with a golden dust, its rays +streaming slowly through the leafless branches of the trees. These assumed a +ruddier tint, and you could see the delicate purple gems softening the cold +grey of the bark. On the lawn and along the walks the grass and gravel +glittered amidst the haze that seemed to ooze from the ground. No flower was in +blossom; only the happy flush which the sunshine cast upon the soil revealed +the approach of spring. +</p> + +<p> +“At this time of year it is rather dull,” resumed Madame Deberle. +“In June it is as cozy as a nest; the trees prevent any one from looking +in, and we enjoy perfect privacy.” At this point she paused to call: +“Lucien, you must come away from that watertap!” +</p> + +<p> +The lad, who was doing the honors of the garden, had led Jeanne towards a tap +under the steps. Here he had turned on the water, which he allowed to splash on +the tips of his boots. It was a game that he delighted in. Jeanne, with grave +face, looked on while he wetted his feet. +</p> + +<p> +“Wait a moment!” said Pauline, rising. “I’ll go and +stop his nonsense!” +</p> + +<p> +But Juliette held her back. +</p> + +<p> +“You’ll do no such thing; you are even more of a madcap than he is. +The other day both of you looked as if you had taken a bath. How is it that a +big girl like you cannot remain two minutes seated? Lucien!” she +continued directing her eyes on her son, “turn off the water at +once!” +</p> + +<p> +The child, in his fright, made an effort to obey her. But instead of turning +the tap off, he turned it on all the more, and the water gushed forth with a +force and a noise that made him lose his head. He recoiled, splashed up to the +shoulders. +</p> + +<p> +“Turn off the water at once!” again ordered his mother, whose +cheeks were flushing with anger. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne, hitherto silent, then slowly, and with the greatest caution, ventured +near the tap; while Lucien burst into loud sobbing at sight of this cold +stream, which terrified him, and which he was powerless to stop. Carefully +drawing her skirt between her legs, Jeanne stretched out her bare hands so as +not to wet her sleeves, and closed the tap without receiving a sprinkle. The +flow instantly ceased. Lucien, astonished and inspired with respect, dried his +tears and gazed with swollen eyes at the girl. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, that child puts me beside myself!” exclaimed Madame Deberle, +her complexion regaining its usual pallor, while she stretched herself out, as +though wearied to death. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène deemed it right to intervene. “Jeanne,” she called, +“take his hand, and amuse yourselves by walking up and down.” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne took hold of Lucien’s hand, and both gravely paced the paths with +little steps. She was much taller than her companion, who had to stretch his +arm up towards her; but this solemn amusement, which consisted in a ceremonious +circuit of the lawn, appeared to absorb them and invest them with a sense of +great importance. Jeanne, like a genuine lady, gazed about, preoccupied with +her own thoughts; Lucien every now and then would venture a glance at her; but +not a word was said by either. +</p> + +<p> +“How droll they are!” said Madame Deberle, smiling, and again at +her ease. “I must say that your Jeanne is a dear, good child. She is so +obedient, so well behaved—” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, when she is in the company of others,” broke in Hélène. +“She is a great trouble at times. Still, she loves me, and does her best +to be good so as not to vex me.” +</p> + +<p> +Then they spoke of children; how girls were more precocious than boys; though +it would be wrong to deduce too much from Lucien’s unintelligent face. In +another year he would doubtless lose all his gawkiness and become quite a +gallant. Finally, Madame Deberle resumed her embroidery, making perhaps two +stitches in a minute. Hélène, who was only happy when busy, begged permission +to bring her work the next time she came. She found her companions somewhat +dull, and whiled away the time in examining the Japanese pavilion. The walls +and ceiling were hidden by tapestry worked in gold, with designs showing bright +cranes in full flight, butterflies, and flowers and views in which blue ships +were tossing upon yellow rivers. Chairs, and ironwood flower-stands were +scattered about; on the floor some fine mats were spread; while the lacquered +furnishings were littered with trinkets, small bronzes and vases, and strange +toys painted in all the hues of the rainbow. At the far end stood a grotesque +idol in Dresden china, with bent legs and bare, protruding stomach, which at +the least movement shook its head with a terrible and amusing look. +</p> + +<p> +“Isn’t it horribly ugly?” asked Pauline, who had been +watching Hélène as she glanced round. “I say, sister, you know that all +these purchases of yours are so much rubbish! Malignon calls your Japanese +museum ‘the sixpenny bazaar.’ Oh, by the way, talking of him, I met +him. He was with a lady, and such a lady—Florence, of the Varietes +Theatre.” +</p> + +<p> +“Where was it?” asked Juliette immediately. “How I shall +tease him!” +</p> + +<p> +“On the boulevards. He’s coming here to-day, is he not?” +</p> + +<p> +She was not vouchsafed any reply. The ladies had all at once become uneasy +owing to the disappearance of the children, and called to them. However, two +shrill voices immediately answered: +</p> + +<p> +“We are here!” +</p> + +<p> +Half hidden by a spindle tree, they were sitting on the grass in the middle of +the lawn. +</p> + +<p> +“What are you about?” +</p> + +<p> +“We have put up at an inn,” answered Lucien. “We are resting +in our room.” +</p> + +<p> +Greatly diverted, the women watched them for a time. Jeanne seemed quite +contented with the game. She was cutting the grass around her, doubtless with +the intention of preparing breakfast. A piece of wood, picked up among the +shrubs, represented a trunk. And now they were talking. Jeanne, with great +conviction in her tone, was declaring that they were in Switzerland, and that +they would set out to see the glaciers, which rather astonished Lucien. +</p> + +<p> +“Ha, here he is!” suddenly exclaimed Pauline. +</p> + +<p> +Madame Deberle turned, and caught sight of Malignon descending the steps. He +had scarcely time to make his bow and sit down before she attacked him. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” she said, “it is nice of you to go about everywhere +saying that I have nothing but rubbishy ornaments about me!” +</p> + +<p> +“You mean this little saloon of yours? Oh yes,” said he, quite at +his ease. “You haven’t anything worth looking at here!” +</p> + +<p> +“What! not my china figure?” she asked, quite hurt. +</p> + +<p> +“No, no, everything is quite <i>bourgeois</i>. It is necessary for a +person to have some taste. You wouldn’t allow me to select the +things—” +</p> + +<p> +“Your taste, forsooth! just talk about your taste!” she retorted, +flushing crimson and feeling quite angry. “You have been seen with a +lady—” +</p> + +<p> +“What lady?” he asked, surprised by the violence of the attack. +</p> + +<p> +“A fine choice, indeed! I compliment you on it. A girl whom the whole of +Paris knows—” +</p> + +<p> +She suddenly paused, remembering Pauline’s presence. +</p> + +<p> +“Pauline,” she said, “go into the garden for a minute.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh no,” retorted the girl indignantly. “It’s so +tiresome; I’m always being sent out of the way.” +</p> + +<p> +“Go into the garden,” repeated Juliette, with increased severity in +her tone. +</p> + +<p> +The girl stalked off with a sullen look, but stopped all at once, to exclaim: +“Well, then, be quick over your talk!” +</p> + +<p> +As soon as she was gone, Madame Deberle returned to the charge. “How can +you, a gentleman, show yourself in public with that actress Florence? She is at +least forty. She is ugly enough to frighten one, and all the gentlemen in the +stalls thee and thou her on first nights.” +</p> + +<p> +“Have you finished?” called out Pauline, who was strolling sulkily +under the trees. “I’m not amusing myself here, you know.” +</p> + +<p> +Malignon, however, defended himself. He had no knowledge of this girl Florence; +he had never in his life spoken a word to her. They had possibly seen him with +a lady: he was sometimes in the company of the wife of a friend of his. +Besides, who had seen him? He wanted proofs, witnesses. +</p> + +<p> +“Pauline,” hastily asked Madame Deberle, raising her voice, +“did you not meet him with Florence?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, certainly,” replied her sister. “I met them on the +boulevards opposite Bignon’s.” +</p> + +<p> +Thereupon, glorying in her victory over Malignon, whose face wore an +embarrassed smile, Madame Deberle called out: “You can come back, +Pauline; I have finished.” +</p> + +<p> +Malignon, who had a box at the Folies-Dramatiques for the following night, now +gallantly placed it at Madame Deberle’s service, apparently not feeling +the slightest ill-will towards her; moreover, they were always quarreling. +Pauline wished to know if she might go to see the play that was running, and as +Malignon laughed and shook his head, she declared it was very silly; authors +ought to write plays fit for girls to see. She was only allowed such +entertainments as <i>La Dame Blanche</i> and the classic drama could offer. +</p> + +<p> +Meantime, the ladies had ceased watching the children, and all at once Lucien +began to raise terrible shrieks. +</p> + +<p> +“What have you done to him, Jeanne?” asked Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +“I have done nothing, mamma,” answered the little girl. “He +has thrown himself on the ground.” +</p> + +<p> +The truth was, the children had just set out for the famous glaciers. As Jeanne +pretended that they were reaching the mountains, they had lifted their feet +very high, as though to step over the rocks. Lucien, however, quite out of +breath with his exertions, at last made a false step, and fell sprawling in the +middle of an imaginary ice-field. Disgusted, and furious with child-like rage, +he no sooner found himself on the ground than he burst into tears. +</p> + +<p> +“Lift him up,” called Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +“He won’t let me, mamma. He is rolling about.” +</p> + +<p> +And so saying, Jeanne drew back, as though exasperated and annoyed by such a +display of bad breeding. He did not know how to play; he would certainly cover +her with dirt. Her mouth curled, as though she were a duchess compromising +herself by such companionship. Thereupon Madame Deberle, irritated by +Lucien’s continued wailing, requested her sister to pick him up and coax +him into silence. Nothing loth, Pauline ran, cast herself down beside the +child, and for a moment rolled on the ground with him. He struggled with her, +unwilling to be lifted, but she at last took him up by the arms, and to appease +him, said, “Stop crying, you noisy fellow; we’ll have a +swing!” +</p> + +<p> +Lucien at once closed his lips, while Jeanne’s solemn looks vanished, and +a gleam of ardent delight illumined her face. All three ran towards the swing, +but it was Pauline who took possession of the seat. +</p> + +<p> +“Push, push!” she urged the children; and they pushed with all the +force of their tiny hands; but she was heavy, and they could scarcely stir the +swing. +</p> + +<p> +“Push!” she urged again. “Oh, the big sillies, they +can’t!” +</p> + +<p> +In the pavilion, Madame Deberle had just felt a slight chill. Despite the +bright sunshine she thought it rather cold, and she requested Malignon to hand +her a white cashmere burnous that was hanging from the handle of a window +fastening. Malignon rose to wrap the burnous round her shoulders, and they +began chatting familiarly on matters which had little interest for Hélène. +Feeling fidgety, fearing that Pauline might unwittingly knock the children +down, she therefore stepped into the garden, leaving Juliette and the young man +to wrangle over some new fashion in bonnets which apparently deeply interested +them. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne no sooner saw her mother than she ran towards her with a wheedling +smile, and entreaty in every gesture. “Oh, mamma, mamma!” she +implored. “Oh, mamma!” +</p> + +<p> +“No, no, you mustn’t!” replied Hélène, who understood her +meaning very well. “You know you have been forbidden.” +</p> + +<p> +Swinging was Jeanne’s greatest delight. She would say that she believed +herself a bird; the breeze blowing in her face, the lively rush through the +air, the continued swaying to and fro in a motion as rythmic as the beating of +a bird’s wings, thrilled her with an exquisite pleasure; in her ascent +towards cloudland she imagined herself on her way to heaven. But it always +ended in some mishap. On one occasion she had been found clinging to the ropes +of the swing in a swoon, her large eyes wide open, fixed in a vacant stare; at +another time she had fallen to the ground, stiff, like a swallow struck by a +shot. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, mamma!” she implored again. “Only a little, a very, very +little!” +</p> + +<p> +In the end her mother, in order to win peace, placed her on the seat. The +child’s face lit up with an angelic smile, and her bare wrists quivered +with joyous expectancy. Hélène swayed her very gently. +</p> + +<p> +“Higher, mamma, higher!” she murmured. +</p> + +<p> +But Hélène paid no heed to her prayer, and retained firm hold of the rope. She +herself was glowing all over, her cheeks flushed, and she thrilled with +excitement at every push she gave to the swing. Her wonted sedateness vanished +as she thus became her daughter’s playmate. +</p> + +<p> +“That will do,” she declared after a time, taking Jeanne in her +arms. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, mamma, you must swing now!” the child whispered, as she clung +to her neck. +</p> + +<p> +She took a keen delight in seeing her mother flying through the air; as she +said, her pleasure was still more intense in gazing at her than in having a +swing herself. Hélène, however, asked her laughingly who would push her; when +she went in for swinging, it was a serious matter; why, she went higher than +the treetops! While she was speaking it happened that Monsieur Rambaud made his +appearance under the guidance of the doorkeeper. He had met Madame Deberle in +Hélène’s rooms, and thought he would not be deemed presuming in +presenting himself here when unable to find her. Madame Deberle proved very +gracious, pleased as she was with the good-natured air of the worthy man; +however, she soon returned to a lively discussion with Malignon. +</p> + +<p> +“<i>Bon ami</i>[*] will push you, mamma! <i>Bon ami</i> will push +you!” Jeanne called out, as she danced round her mother. +</p> + +<p> +[*] Literally “good friend;” but there is no proper equivalent for +the expression in English. +</p> + +<p> +“Be quiet! We are not at home!” said her mother with mock gravity. +</p> + +<p> +“Bless me! if it will please you, I am at your disposal,” exclaimed +Monsieur Rambaud. “When people are in the country—” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène let herself be persuaded. When a girl she had been accustomed to swing +for hours, and the memory of those vanished pleasures created a secret craving +to taste them once more. Moreover, Pauline, who had sat down with Lucien at the +edge of the lawn, intervened with the boldness of a girl freed from the +trammels of childhood. +</p> + +<p> +“Of course he will push you, and he will swing me after you. Won’t +you, sir?” +</p> + +<p> +This determined Hélène. The youth which dwelt within her, in spite of the cold +demureness of her great beauty, displayed itself in a charming, ingenuous +fashion. She became a thorough school-girl, unaffected and gay. There was no +prudishness about her. She laughingly declared that she must not expose her +legs, and asked for some cord to tie her skirts securely round her ankles. That +done, she stood upright on the swing, her arms extended and clinging to the +ropes. +</p> + +<p> +“Now, push, Monsieur Rambaud,” she exclaimed delightedly. +“But gently at first!” +</p> + +<p> +Monsieur Rambaud had hung his hat on the branch of a tree. His broad, kindly +face beamed with a fatherly smile. First he tested the strength of the ropes, +and, giving a look at the trees, determined to give a slight push. That day +Hélène had for the first time abandoned her widow’s weeds; she was +wearing a grey dress set off with mauve bows. Standing upright, she began to +swing, almost touching the ground, and as if rocking herself to sleep. +</p> + +<p> +“Quicker! quicker!” she exclaimed. +</p> + +<p> +Monsieur Rambaud, with his hands ready, caught the seat as it came back to him, +and gave it a more vigorous push. Hélène went higher, each ascent taking her +farther. However, despite the motion, she did not lose her sedateness; she +retained almost an austre demeanor; her eyes shone very brightly in her +beautiful, impassive face; her nostrils only were inflated, as though to drink +in the air. +</p> + +<p> +Not a fold of her skirts was out of place, but a plait of her hair slipped +down. +</p> + +<p> +“Quicker! quicker!” she called. +</p> + +<p> +An energetic push gave her increased impetus. Up in the sunshine she flew, even +higher and higher. A breeze sprung up with her motion, and blew through the +garden; her flight was so swift that they could scarcely distinguish her figure +aright. Her face was now all smiles, and flushed with a rosy red, while her +eyes sparkled here, then there, like shooting stars. The loosened plait of hair +rustled against her neck. Despite the cords which bound them, her skirts now +waved about, and you could divine that she was at her ease, her bosom heaving +in its free enjoyment as though the air were indeed her natural place. +</p> + +<p> +“Quicker! quicker!” +</p> + +<p> +Monsieur Rambaud, his face red and bedewed with perspiration, exerted all his +strength. A cry rang out. Hélène went still higher. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, mamma! Oh, mamma!” repeated Jeanne in her ecstasy. +</p> + +<p> +She was sitting on the lawn gazing at her mother, her little hands clasped on +her bosom, looking as though she herself had drunk in all the air that was +stirring. Her breath failed her; with a rythmical movement of the shoulders she +kept time with the long strokes of the swing. And she cried, “Quicker! +quicker!” while her mother still went higher, her feet grazing the lofty +branches of the trees. +</p> + +<p> +“Higher, mamma! oh, higher, mamma!” +</p> + +<p> +But Hélène was already in the very heavens. The trees bent and cracked as +beneath a gale. Her skirts, which were all they could see, flapped with a +tempestuous sound. When she came back with arms stretched out and bosom +distended she lowered her head slightly and for a moment hovered; but then she +rose again and sank backwards, her head tilted, her eyes closed, as though she +had swooned. These ascensions and descents which made her giddy were +delightful. In her flight she entered into the sunshine—the pale yellow +February sunshine that rained down like golden dust. Her chestnut hair gleamed +with amber tints; and a flame seemed to have leaped up around her, as the mauve +bows on her whitening dress flashed like burning flowers. Around her the +springtide was maturing into birth, and the purple-tinted gems of the trees +showed like delicate lacquer against the blue sky. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne clasped her hands. Her mother seemed to her a saint with a golden glory +round her head, winging her way to paradise, and she again stammered: +“Oh, mamma! oh! mamma!” +</p> + +<p> +Madame Deberle and Malignon had now grown interested, and had stepped under the +trees. Malignon declared the lady to be very bold. +</p> + +<p> +“I should faint, I’m sure,” said Madame Deberle, with a +frightened air. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène heard them, for she dropped these words from among the branches: +“Oh, my heart is all right! Give a stronger push, Monsieur +Rambaud!” +</p> + +<p> +And indeed her voice betrayed no emotion. She seemed to take no heed of the two +men who were onlookers. They were doubtless nothing to her. Her tress of hair +had become entangled, and the cord that confined her skirts must have given +way, for the drapery flapped in the wind like a flag. She was going still +higher. +</p> + +<p> +All at once, however, the exclamation rang out: +</p> + +<p> +“Enough, Monsieur Rambaud, enough!” +</p> + +<p> +Doctor Deberle had just appeared on the house steps. He came forward, embraced +his wife tenderly, took up Lucien and kissed his brow. Then he gazed at Hélène +with a smile. +</p> + +<p> +“Enough, enough!” she still continued exclaiming. +</p> + +<p> +“Why?” asked he. “Do I disturb you?” +</p> + +<p> +She made no answer; a look of gravity had suddenly come over her face. The +swing, still continuing its rapid flights, owing to the impetus given to it, +would not stop, but swayed to and fro with a regular motion which still bore +Hélène to a great height. The doctor, surprised and charmed, beheld her with +admiration; she looked so superb, so tall and strong, with the pure figure of +an antique statue whilst swinging thus gently amid the spring sunshine. But she +seemed annoyed, and all at once leaped down. +</p> + +<p> +“Stop! stop!” they all cried out. +</p> + +<p> +From Hélène’s lips came a dull moan; she had fallen upon the gravel of a +pathway, and her efforts to rise were fruitless. +</p> + +<p> +“Good heavens!” exclaimed the doctor, his face turning very pale. +“How imprudent!” +</p> + +<p> +They all crowded round her. Jeanne began weeping so bitterly that Monsieur +Rambaud, with his heart in his mouth, was compelled to take her in his arms. +The doctor, meanwhile, eagerly questioned Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +“Is it the right leg you fell on? Cannot you stand upright?” And as +she remained dazed, without answering, he asked: “Do you suffer?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, here at the knee; a dull pain,” she answered, with +difficulty. +</p> + +<p> +He at once sent his wife for his medicine case and some bandages, and repeated: +</p> + +<p> +“I must see, I must see. No doubt it is a mere nothing.” +</p> + +<p> +He knelt down on the gravel and Hélène let him do so; but all at once she +struggled to her feet and said: “No, no!” +</p> + +<p> +“But I must examine the place,” he said. +</p> + +<p> +A slight quiver stole over her, and she answered in a yet lower tone: +</p> + +<p> +“It is not necessary. It is nothing at all.” +</p> + +<p> +He looked at her, at first astounded. Her neck was flushing red; for a moment +their eyes met, and seemed to read each other’s soul; he was +disconcerted, and slowly rose, remaining near her, but without pressing her +further. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène had signed to Monsieur Rambaud. “Fetch Doctor Bodin,” she +whispered in his ear, “and tell him what has happened to me.” +</p> + +<p> +Ten minutes later, when Doctor Bodin made his appearance, she, with superhuman +courage, regained her feet, and leaning on him and Monsieur Rambaud, contrived +to return home. Jeanne followed, quivering with sobs. +</p> + +<p> +“I shall wait,” said Doctor Deberle to his brother physician. +“Come down and remove our fears.” +</p> + +<p> +In the garden a lively colloquy ensued. Malignon was of opinion that women had +queer ideas. Why on earth had that lady been so foolish as to jump down? +Pauline, excessively provoked at this accident, which deprived her of a +pleasure, declared it was silly to swing so high. On his side Doctor Deberle +did not say a word, but seemed anxious. +</p> + +<p> +“It is nothing serious,” said Doctor Bodin, as he came down +again—“only a sprain. Still, she will have to keep to an easy-chair +for at least a fortnight.” +</p> + +<p> +Thereupon Monsieur Deberle gave a friendly slap on Malignon’s shoulder. +He wished his wife to go in, as it was really becoming too cold. For his own +part, taking Lucien in his arms, he carried him into the house, covering him +with kisses the while. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0005"></a> CHAPTER V.</h2> + +<p> +Both windows of the bedroom were wide open, and in the depths below the house, +which was perched on the very summit of the hill, lay Paris, rolling away in a +mighty flat expanse. Ten o’clock struck; the lovely February morning had +all the sweetness and perfume of spring. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène reclined in an invalid chair, reading in front of one of the windows, +her knee still in bandages. She suffered no pain; but she had been confined to +her room for a week past, unable even to take up her customary needlework. Not +knowing what to do, she had opened a book which she had found on the +table—she, who indulged in little or no reading at any time. This book +was the one she used every night as a shade for the night-lamp, the only volume +which she had taken within eighteen months from the small but irreproachable +library selected by Monsieur Rambaud. Novels usually seemed to her false to +life and puerile; and this one, Sir Walter Scott’s “Ivanhoe,” +had at first wearied her to death. However, a strange curiosity had grown upon +her, and she was finishing it, at times affected to tears, and at times rather +bored, when she would let it slip from her hand for long minutes and gaze +fixedly at the far-stretching horizon. +</p> + +<p> +That morning Paris awoke from sleep with a smiling indolence. A mass of vapor, +following the valley of the Seine, shrouded the two banks from view. This mist +was light and milky, and the sun, gathering strength, was slowly tinging it +with radiance. Nothing of the city was distinguishable through this floating +muslin. In the hollows the haze thickened and assumed a bluish tint; while over +certain broad expanses delicate transparencies appeared, a golden dust, beneath +which you could divine the depths of the streets; and up above domes and +steeples rent the mist, rearing grey outlines to which clung shreds of the haze +which they had pierced. At times cloudlets of yellow smoke would, like giant +birds, heavy of wing, slowly soar on high, and then mingle with the atmosphere +which seemed to absorb them. And above all this immensity, this mass of cloud, +hanging in slumber over Paris, a sky of extreme purity, of a faint and +whitening blue, spread out its mighty vault. The sun was climbing the heavens, +scattering a spray of soft rays; a pale golden light, akin in hue to the flaxen +tresses of a child, was streaming down like rain, filling the atmosphere with +the warm quiver of its sparkle. It was like a festival of the infinite, +instinct with sovereign peacefulness and gentle gaiety, whilst the city, +chequered with golden beams, still remained lazy and sleepy, unwilling to +reveal itself by casting off its coverlet of lace. +</p> + +<p> +For eight days it had been Hélène’s diversion to gaze on that mighty +expanse of Paris, and she never wearied of doing so. It was as unfathomable and +varying as the ocean—fair in the morning, ruddy with fire at night, +borrowing all the joys and sorrows of the heavens reflected in its depths. A +flash of sunshine came, and it would roll in waves of gold; a cloud would +darken it and raise a tempest. Its aspect was ever changing. A complete calm +would fall, and all would assume an orange hue; gusts of wind would sweep by +from time to time, and turn everything livid; in keen, bright weather there +would be a shimmer of light on every housetop; whilst when showers fell, +blurring both heaven and earth, all would be plunged in chaotic confusion. At +her window Hélène experienced all the hopes and sorrows that pertain to the +open sea. As the keen wind blew in her face she imagined it wafted a saline +fragrance; even the ceaseless noise of the city seemed to her like that of a +surging tide beating against a rocky cliff. +</p> + +<p> +The book fell from her hands. She was dreaming, with a far-away look in her +eyes. When she stopped reading thus it was from a desire to linger and +understand what she had already perused. She took a delight in denying her +curiosity immediate satisfaction. The tale filled her soul with a tempest of +emotion. Paris that morning was displaying the same vague joy and sorrow as +that which disturbed her heart. In this lay a great charm—to be ignorant, +to guess things dimly, to yield to slow initiation, with the vague thought that +her youth was beginning again. +</p> + +<p> +How full of lies were novels! She was assuredly right in not reading them. They +were mere fables, good for empty heads with no proper conception of life. Yet +she remained entranced, dreaming unceasingly of the knight Ivanhoe, loved so +passionately by two women—Rebecca, the beautiful Jewess, and the noble +Lady Rowena. She herself thought she could have loved with the intensity and +patient serenity of the latter maiden. To love! to love! She did not utter the +words, but they thrilled her through and through in the very thought, +astonishing her, and irradiating her face with a smile. In the distance some +fleecy cloudlets, driven by the breeze, now floated over Paris like a flock of +swans. Huge gaps were being cleft in the fog; a momentary glimpse was given of +the left bank, indistinct and clouded, like a city of fairydom seen in a dream; +but suddenly a thick curtain of mist swept down, and the fairy city was +engulfed, as though by an inundation. And then the vapors, spreading equally +over every district, formed, as it were, a beautiful lake, with milky, placid +waters. There was but one denser streak, indicating the grey, curved course of +the Seine. And slowly over those milky, placid waters shadows passed, like +vessels with pink sails, which the young woman followed with a dreamy gaze. To +love! to love! She smiled as her dream sailed on. +</p> + +<p> +However, she again took up her book. She had reached the chapter describing the +attack on the castle, wherein Rebecca nurses the wounded Ivanhoe, and recounts +to him the incidents of the fight, which she gazes at from a window. Hélène +felt that she was in the midst of a beautiful falsehood, but roamed through it +as through some mythical garden, whose trees are laden with golden fruit, and +where she imbibed all sorts of fancies. Then, at the conclusion of the scene, +when Rebecca, wrapped in her veil, exhales her love beside the sleeping knight, +Hélène again allowed the book to slip from her hand; her heart was so brimful +of emotion that she could read no further. +</p> + +<p> +Heavens! could all those things be true? she asked, as she lay back in her +easy-chair, numbed by her enforced quiescence, and gazing on Paris, shrouded +and mysterious, beneath the golden sun. The events of her life now arose before +her, conjured up by the perusal of the novel. She saw herself a young girl in +the house of her father, Mouret, a hatter at Marseilles. The Rue des +Petites-Maries was black and dismal, and the house, with its vat of steaming +water ready to the hand of the hatter, exhaled a rank odor of dampness, even in +fine weather. She also saw her mother, who was ever an invalid, and who kissed +her with pale lips, without speaking. No gleam of the sun penetrated into her +little room. Hard work went on around her; only by dint of toil did her father +gain a workingman’s competency. That summed up her early life, and till +her marriage nothing intervened to break the monotony of days ever the same. +One morning, returning from market with her mother, a basketful of vegetables +on her arm, she jostled against young Grandjean. Charles turned round and +followed them. The love-romance of her life was in this incident. For three +months she was always meeting him, while he, bashful and awkward, could not +pluck up courage to speak to her. She was sixteen years of age, and a little +proud of her lover, who, she knew, belonged to a wealthy family. But she deemed +him bad-looking, and often laughed at him, and no thought of him disturbed her +sleep in the large, gloomy, damp house. In the end they were married, and this +marriage yet filled her with surprise. Charles worshipped her, and would fling +himself on the floor to kiss her bare feet. She beamed on him, her smile full +of kindness, as she rebuked him for such childishness. Then another dull life +began. During twelve years no event of sufficient interest had occurred for her +to bear in mind. She was very quiet and very happy, tormented by no fever +either of body or heart; her whole attention being given to the daily cares of +a poor household. Charles was still wont to kiss her fair white feet, while she +showed herself indulgent and motherly towards him. But other feeling she had +none. Then there abruptly came before her the room in the Hotel du Var, her +husband in his coffin, and her widow’s robe hanging over a chair. She had +wept that day as on the winter’s night when her mother died. Then once +more the days glided on; for two months with her daughter she had again enjoyed +peace and happiness. Heaven! did that sum up everything? What, then, did that +book mean when it spoke of transcendent loves which illumine one’s +existence? +</p> + +<p> +While she thus reflected prolonged quivers were darting over the sleeping lake +of mist on the horizon. Suddenly it seemed to burst, gaps appeared, a rending +sped from end to end, betokening a complete break-up. The sun, ascending higher +and higher, scattering its rays in glorious triumph, was victoriously attacking +the mist. Little by little the great lake seemed to dry up, as though some +invisible sluice were draining the plain. The fog, so dense but a moment +before, was losing its consistency and becoming transparent, showing all the +bright hues of the rainbow. On the left bank of the Seine all was of a heavenly +blue, deepening into violet over towards the Jardin des Plantes. Upon the right +bank a pale pink, flesh-like tint suffused the Tuileries district; while away +towards Montmartre there was a fiery glow, carmine flaming amid gold. Then, +farther off, the working-men’s quarters deepened to a dusty brick-color, +changing more and more till all became a slatey, bluish grey. The eye could not +yet distinguish the city, which quivered and receded like those subaqueous +depths divined through the crystalline waves, depths with awful forests of huge +plants, swarming with horrible things and monsters faintly espied. However, the +watery mist was quickly falling. It became at last no more than a fine muslin +drapery; and bit by bit this muslin vanished, and Paris took shape and emerged +from dreamland. +</p> + +<p> +To love! to love! Why did these words ring in Hélène’s ears with such +sweetness as the darkness of the fog gave way to light? Had she not loved her +husband, whom she had tended like a child? But a bitter memory stirred within +her—the memory of her dead father, who had hung himself three weeks after +his wife’s decease in a closet where her gowns still dangled from their +hooks. There he had gasped out his last agony, his body rigid, and his face +buried in a skirt, wrapped round by the clothes which breathed of her whom he +had ever worshipped. Then Hélène’s reverie took a sudden leap. She began +thinking of her own home-life, of the month’s bills which she had checked +with Rosalie that very morning; and she felt proud of the orderly way in which +she regulated her household. During more than thirty years she had lived with +self-respect and strength of mind. Uprightness alone impassioned her. When she +questioned her past, not one hour revealed a sin; in her mind’s eye she +saw herself ever treading a straight and level path. Truly, the days might slip +by; she would walk on peacefully as before, with no impediment in her way. The +very thought of this made her stern, and her spirit rose in angry contempt +against those lying lives whose apparent heroism disturbs the heart. The only +true life was her own, following its course amidst such peacefulness. But over +Paris there now only hung a thin smoke, a fine, quivering gauze, on the point +of floating away; and emotion suddenly took possession of her. To love! to +love! everything brought her back to that caressing phrase—even the pride +born of her virtue. Her dreaming became so light, she no longer thought, but +lay there, steeped in springtide, with moist eyes. +</p> + +<p> +At last, as she was about to resume her reading, Paris slowly came into view. +Not a breath of wind had stirred; it was as if a magician had waved his wand. +The last gauzy film detached itself, soared and vanished in the air; and the +city spread out without a shadow, under the conquering sun. Hélène, with her +chin resting on her hand, gazed on this mighty awakening. +</p> + +<p> +A far-stretching valley appeared, with a myriad of buildings huddled together. +Over the distant range of hills were scattered close-set roofs, and you could +divine that the sea of houses rolled afar off behind the undulating ground, +into the fields hidden from sight. It was as the ocean, with all the infinity +and mystery of its waves. Paris spread out as vast as the heavens on high. +Burnished with the sunshine that lovely morning, the city looked like a field +of yellow corn; and the huge picture was all simplicity, compounded of two +colors only, the pale blue of the sky, and the golden reflections of the +housetops. The stream of light from the spring sun invested everything with the +beauty of a new birth. So pure was the light that the minutest objects became +visible. Paris, with its chaotic maze of stonework, shone as though under +glass. From time to time, however, a breath of wind passed athwart this bright, +quiescent serenity; and then the outlines of some districts grew faint, and +quivered as if they were being viewed through an invisible flame. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène took interest at first in gazing on the large expanse spread under her +windows, the slope of the Trocadero, and the far-stretching quays. She had to +lean out to distinguish the deserted square of the Champ-de-Mars, barred at the +farther end by the sombre Military School. Down below, on thoroughfare and +pavement on each side of the Seine, she could see the passers-by—a busy +cluster of black dots, moving like a swarm of ants. A yellow omnibus shone out +like a spark of fire; drays and cabs crossed the bridge, mere child’s +toys in the distance, with miniature horses like pieces of mechanism; and +amongst others traversing the grassy slopes was a servant girl, with a white +apron which set a bright spot in all the greenery. Then Hélène raised her eyes; +but the crowd scattered and passed out of sight, and even the vehicles looked +like mere grains of sand; there remained naught but the gigantic carcass of the +city, seemingly untenanted and abandoned, its life limited to the dull +trepidation by which it was agitated. There, in the foreground to the left, +some red roofs were shining, and the tall chimneys of the Army Bakehouse slowly +poured out their smoke; while, on the other side of the river, between the +Esplanade and the Champ-de-Mars, a grove of lofty elms clustered, like some +patch of a park, with bare branches, rounded tops, and young buds already +bursting forth, quite clear to the eye. In the centre of the picture, the Seine +spread out and reigned between its grey banks, to which rows of casks, steam +cranes, and carts drawn up in line, gave a seaport kind of aspect. +Hélène’s eyes were always turning towards this shining river, on which +boats passed to and fro like birds with inky plumage. Her looks involuntarily +followed the water’s stately course, which, like a silver band, cut Paris +atwain. That morning the stream rolled liquid sunlight; no greater resplendency +could be seen on the horizon. And the young woman’s glance encountered +first the Pont des Invalides, next the Pont de la Concorde, and then the Pont +Royal. Bridge followed bridge, they appeared to get closer, to rise one above +the other like viaducts forming a flight of steps, and pierced with all kinds +of arches; while the river, wending its way beneath these airy structures, +showed here and there small patches of its blue robe, patches which became +narrower and narrower, more and more indistinct. And again did Hélène raise her +eyes, and over yonder the stream forked amidst a jumble of houses; the bridges +on either side of the island of La Cité were like mere films stretching from +one bank to the other; while the golden towers of Notre-Dame sprang up like +boundary-marks of the horizon, beyond which river, buildings, and clumps of +trees became naught but sparkling sunshine. Then Hélène, dazzled, withdrew her +gaze from this the triumphant heart of Paris, where the whole glory of the city +appeared to blaze. +</p> + +<p> +On the right bank, amongst the clustering trees of the Champs-Elysees she saw +the crystal buildings of the Palace of Industry glittering with a snowy sheen; +farther away, behind the roof of the Madeleine, which looked like a tombstone, +towered the vast mass of the Opera House; then there were other edifices, +cupolas and towers, the Vendome Column, the church of Saint-Vincent de Paul, +the tower of Saint-Jacques; and nearer in, the massive cube-like pavilions of +the new Louvre and the Tuileries, half-hidden by a wood of chestnut trees. On +the left bank the dome of the Invalides shone with gilding; beyond it the two +irregular towers of Saint-Sulpice paled in the bright light; and yet farther in +the rear, to the right of the new spires of Sainte-Clotilde, the bluish +Panthéon, erect on a height, its fine colonnade showing against the sky, +overlooked the city, poised in the air, as it were, motionless, with the silken +hues of a captive balloon. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène’s gaze wandered all over Paris. There were hollows, as could be +divined by the lines of roofs; the Butte des Moulins surged upward, with waves +of old slates, while the line of the principal boulevards dipped downward like +a gutter, ending in a jumble of houses whose tiles even could no longer be +seen. At this early hour the oblique sun did not light up the house-fronts +looking towards the Trocadero; not a window-pane of these threw back its rays. +The skylights on some roofs alone sparkled with the glittering reflex of mica +amidst the red of the adjacent chimney-pots. The houses were mostly of a sombre +grey, warmed by reflected beams; still rays of light were transpiercing certain +districts, and long streets, stretching in front of Hélène, set streaks of +sunshine amidst the shade. It was only on the left that the far-spreading +horizon, almost perfect in its circular sweep, was broken by the heights of +Montmartre and Père-Lachaise. The details so clearly defined in the foreground, +the innumerable denticles of the chimneys, the little black specks of the +thousands of windows, grew less and less distinct as you gazed farther and +farther away, till everything became mingled in confusion—the pell-mell +of an endless city, whose faubourgs, afar off, looked like shingly beaches, +steeped in a violet haze under the bright, streaming, vibrating light that fell +from the heavens. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène was watching the scene with grave interest when Jeanne burst gleefully +into the room. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, mamma! look here!” +</p> + +<p> +The child had a big bunch of wall-flowers in her hand. She told, with some +laughter, how she had waylaid Rosalie on her return from market to peep into +her basket of provisions. To rummage in this basket was a great delight to her. +</p> + +<p> +“Look at it, mamma! It lay at the very bottom. Just smell it; what a +lovely perfume!” +</p> + +<p> +From the tawny flowers, speckled with purple, there came a penetrating odor +which scented the whole room. Then Hélène, with a passionate movement, drew +Jeanne to her breast, while the nosegay fell on her lap. To love! to love! +Truly, she loved her child. Was not that intense love which had pervaded her +life till now sufficient for her wants? It ought to satisfy her; it was so +gentle, so tranquil; no lassitude could put an end to its continuance. Again +she pressed her daughter to her, as though to conjure away thoughts which +threatened to separate them. In the meantime Jeanne surrendered herself to the +shower of kisses. Her eyes moist with tears, she turned her delicate neck +upwards with a coaxing gesture, and pressed her face against her mother’s +shoulder. Then she slipped an arm round her waist and thus remained, very +demure, her cheek resting on Hélène’s bosom. The perfume of the +wall-flowers ascended between them. +</p> + +<p> +For a long time they did not speak; but at length, without moving, Jeanne asked +in a whisper: +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma, you see that rosy-colored dome down there, close to the river; +what is it?” +</p> + +<p> +It was the dome of the Institute, and Hélène looked towards it for a moment as +though trying to recall the name. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know, my love,” she answered gently. +</p> + +<p> +The child appeared content with this reply, and silence again fell. But soon +she asked a second question. +</p> + +<p> +“And there, quite near, what beautiful trees are those?” she said, +pointing with her finger towards a corner of the Tuileries garden. +</p> + +<p> +“Those beautiful trees!” said her mother. “On the left, do +you mean? I don’t know, my love.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah!” exclaimed Jeanne; and after musing for a little while she +added with a pout: “We know nothing!” +</p> + +<p> +Indeed they knew nothing of Paris. During eighteen months it had lain beneath +their gaze every hour of the day, yet they knew not a stone of it. Three times +only had they gone down into the city; but on returning home, suffering from +terrible headaches born of all the agitation they had witnessed, they could +find in their minds no distinct memory of anything in all that huge maze of +streets. +</p> + +<p> +However, Jeanne at times proved obstinate. “Ah! you can tell me +this!” said she: “What is that glass building which glitters there? +It is so big you must know it.” +</p> + +<p> +She was referring to the Palais de l’Industrie. Hélène, however, +hesitated. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s a railway station,” said she. “No, I’m +wrong, I think it is a theatre.” +</p> + +<p> +Then she smiled and kissed Jeanne’s hair, at last confessing as before: +“I do not know what it is, my love.” +</p> + +<p> +So they continued to gaze on Paris, troubling no further to identify any part +of it. It was very delightful to have it there before them, and yet to know +nothing of it; it remained the vast and the unknown. It was as though they had +halted on the threshold of a world which ever unrolled its panorama before +them, but into which they were unwilling to descend. Paris often made them +anxious when it wafted them a hot, disturbing atmosphere; but that morning it +seemed gay and innocent, like a child, and from its mysterious depths only a +breath of tenderness rose gently to their faces. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène took up her book again while Jeanne, clinging to her, still gazed upon +the scene. In the dazzling, tranquil sky no breeze was stirring. The smoke from +the Army Bakehouse ascended perpendicularly in light cloudlets which vanished +far aloft. On a level with the houses passed vibrating waves of life, waves of +all the life pent up there. The loud voices of the streets softened amidst the +sunshine into a languid murmur. But all at once a flutter attracted +Jeanne’s notice. A flock of white pigeons, freed from some adjacent +dovecot, sped through the air in front of the window; with spreading wings like +falling snow, the birds barred the line of view, hiding the immensity of Paris. +</p> + +<p> +With eyes again dreamily gazing upward, Hélène remained plunged in reverie. She +was the Lady Rowena; she loved with the serenity and intensity of a noble mind. +That spring morning, that great, gentle city, those early wall-flowers shedding +their perfume on her lap, had little by little filled her heart with +tenderness. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0006"></a> CHAPTER VI.</h2> + +<p> +One morning Hélène was arranging her little library, the various books of which +had got out of order during the past few days, when Jeanne skipped into the +room, clapping her hands. +</p> + +<p> +“A soldier, mamma! a soldier!” she cried. +</p> + +<p> +“What? a soldier?” exclaimed her mother. “What do you want, +you and your soldier?” +</p> + +<p> +But the child was in one of her paroxysms of extravagant delight; she only +jumped about the more, repeating: “A soldier! a soldier!” without +deigning to give any further explanation. She had left the door wide open +behind her, and so, as Hélène rose, she was astonished to see a soldier—a +very little soldier too—in the ante-room. Rosalie had gone out, and +Jeanne must have been playing on the landing, though strictly forbidden to do +so by her mother. +</p> + +<p> +“What do you want, my lad?” asked Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +The little soldier was very much confused on seeing this lady, so lovely and +fair, in her dressing-gown trimmed with lace; he shuffled one foot to and fro +over the floor, bowed, and at last precipitately stammered: “I beg +pardon—excuse—” +</p> + +<p> +But he could get no further, and retreated to the wall, still shuffling his +feet. His retreat was thus cut off, and seeing the lady awaited his reply with +an involuntary smile, he dived into his right-hand pocket, from which he +dragged a blue handkerchief, a knife, and a hunk of bread. He gazed on each in +turn, and thrust them all back again. Then he turned his attention to the +left-hand pocket, from which were produced a twist of cord, two rusty nails, +and some pictures wrapped in part of a newspaper. All these he pushed back to +their resting-place, and began tapping his thighs with an anxious air. And +again he stammered in bewilderment: +</p> + +<p> +“I beg pardon—excuse—” +</p> + +<p> +But all at once he raised his finger to his nose, and exclaimed with a loud +laugh: “What a fool I am! I remember now!” +</p> + +<p> +He then undid two buttons of his greatcoat, and rummaged in his breast, into +which he plunged his arm up to the elbow. After a time he drew forth a letter, +which he rustled violently before handing to Hélène, as though to shake some +dust from it. +</p> + +<p> +“A letter for me! Are you sure?” said she. +</p> + +<p> +On the envelope were certainly inscribed her name and address in a heavy rustic +scrawl, with pothooks and hangers tumbling over one another. When at last she +made it all out, after being repeatedly baffled by the extraordinary style and +spelling, she could not but smile again. It was a letter from Rosalie’s +aunt, introducing Zephyrin Lacour, who had fallen a victim to the conscription, +“in spite of two masses having been said by his reverence.” +However, as Zephyrin was Rosalie’s “intended” the aunt begged +that madame would be so good as to allow the young folks to see each other on +Sundays. In the three pages which the letter comprised this question was +continually cropping up in the same words, the confusion of the epistle +increasing through the writer’s vain efforts to say something she had not +said before. Just above the signature, however, she seemed to have hit the nail +on the head, for she had written: “His reverence gives his +permission”; and had then broken her pen in the paper, making a shower of +blots. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène slowly folded the letter. Two or three times, while deciphering its +contents, she had raised her head to glance at the soldier. He still remained +close to the wall, and his lips stirred, as though to emphasize each sentence +in the letter by a slight movement of the chin. No doubt he knew its contents +by heart. +</p> + +<p> +“Then you are Zephyrin Lacour, are you not?” asked Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +He began to laugh and wagged his head. +</p> + +<p> +“Come in, my lad; don’t stay out there.” +</p> + +<p> +He made up his mind to follow her, but he continued standing close to the door, +while Hélène sat down. She had scarcely seen him in the darkness of the +ante-room. He must have been just as tall as Rosalie; a third of an inch less, +and he would have been exempted from service. With red hair, cut very short, he +had a round, freckled, beardless face, with two little eyes like gimlet holes. +His new greatcoat, much too large for him, made him appear still more dumpy, +and with his red-trousered legs wide apart, and his large peaked cap swinging +before him, he presented both a comical and pathetic sight—his plump, +stupid little person plainly betraying the rustic, although he wore a uniform. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène desired to obtain some information from him. +</p> + +<p> +“You left Beauce a week ago?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, madame!” +</p> + +<p> +“And here you are in Paris. I suppose you are not sorry?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, madame.” +</p> + +<p> +He was losing his bashfulness, and now gazed all over the room, evidently much +impressed by its blue velvet hangings. +</p> + +<p> +“Rosalie is out,” Hélène began again, “but she will be here +very soon. Her aunt tells me you are her sweetheart.” +</p> + +<p> +To this the little soldier vouchsafed no reply, but hung his head, laughing +awkwardly, and scraping the carpet with the tip of his boot. +</p> + +<p> +“Then you will have to marry her when you leave the army?” Hélène +continued questioning. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, to be sure!” exclaimed he, his face turning very red. +“Yes, of course; we are engaged!” And, won over by the kindly +manners of the lady, he made up his mind to speak out, his fingers still +playing with his cap. “You know it’s an old story. When we were +quite children, we used to go thieving together. We used to get switched; oh +yes, that’s true! I must tell you that the Lacours and the Pichons lived +in the same lane, and were next-door neighbors. And so Rosalie and myself were +almost brought up together. Then her people died, and her aunt Marguerite took +her in. But she, the minx, was already as strong as a demon.” +</p> + +<p> +He paused, realizing that he was warming up, and asked hesitatingly: +</p> + +<p> +“But perhaps she has told you all this?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, yes; but go on all the same,” said Hélène, who was greatly +amused. +</p> + +<p> +“In short,” continued he, “she was awfully strong, though she +was no bigger than a tomtit. It was a treat to see her at her work! How she did +get through it! One day she gave a slap to a friend of mine—by Jove! such +a slap! I had the mark of it on my arm for a week! Yes, that was the way it all +came about. All the gossips declared we must marry one another. Besides, we +weren’t ten years old before we had agreed on that! And, we have stuck to +it, madame, we have stuck to it!” +</p> + +<p> +He placed one hand upon his heart, with fingers wide apart. Hélène, however, +had now become very grave. The idea of allowing a soldier in her kitchen +somewhat worried her. His reverence, no doubt, had given his sanction, but she +thought it rather venturesome. There is too much license in the country, where +lovers indulge in all sorts of pleasantries. So she gave expression to her +apprehensions. When Zephyrin at last gathered her meaning, his first +inclination was to laugh, but his awe for Hélène restrained him. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, madame, madame!” said he, “you don’t know her, I +can see! I have received slaps enough from her! Of course young men like to +laugh! isn’t that so? Sometimes I pinched her, and she would turn round +and hit me right on the nose. Her aunt’s advice always was, ‘Look +here, my girl, don’t put up with any nonsense!’ His reverence, too, +interfered in it, and maybe that had a lot to do with our keeping up +sweethearting. We were to have been married after I had drawn for a soldier. +But it was all my eye! Things turned out badly. Rosalie declared she would go +to service in Paris, to earn a dowry while she was waiting for me. And so, and +so—” +</p> + +<p> +He swung himself about, dangling his cap, now from one hand now from the other. +But still Hélène never said a word, and he at last fancied that she distrusted +him. This pained him dreadfully. +</p> + +<p> +“You think, perhaps, that I shall deceive her?” he burst out +angrily. “Even, too, when I tell you we are betrothed? I shall marry her, +as surely as the heaven shines on us. I’m quite ready to pledge my word +in writing. Yes, if you like, I’ll write it down for you.” +</p> + +<p> +Deep emotion was stirring him. He walked about the room gazing around in the +hope of finding pen and ink. Hélène quickly tried to appease him, but he still +went on: +</p> + +<p> +“I would rather sign a paper for you. What harm would it do you? Your +mind would be all the easier with it.” +</p> + +<p> +However, just at that moment Jeanne, who had again run away, returned, jumping +and clapping her hands. +</p> + +<p> +“Rosalie! Rosalie! Rosalie!” she chanted in a dancing tune of her +own composition. +</p> + +<p> +Through the open doorway one could hear the panting of the maid as she climbed +up the stairs laden with her basket. Zephyrin started back into a corner of the +room, his mouth wide agape from ear to ear in silent laughter, and the gimlet +holes of his eyes gleaming with rustic roguery. Rosalie came straight into the +room, as was her usual practice, to show her mistress her morning’s +purchase of provisions. +</p> + +<p> +“Madame,” said she, “I’ve brought some cauliflowers. +Look at them! Only eighteen sous for two; it isn’t dear, is it?” +</p> + +<p> +She held out the basket half open, but on lifting her head noticed +Zephyrin’s grinning face. Surprise nailed her to the carpet. Two or three +seconds slipped away; she had doubtless at first failed to recognize him in his +uniform. But then her round eyes dilated, her fat little face blanched, and her +coarse black hair waved in agitation. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh!” she simply said. +</p> + +<p> +But her astonishment was such that she dropped her basket. The provisions, +cauliflowers, onions, apples, rolled on to the carpet. Jeanne gave a cry of +delight, and falling on her knees, began hunting for the apples, even under the +chairs and the wardrobe. Meanwhile Rosalie, as though paralyzed, never moved, +though she repeated: +</p> + +<p> +“What! it’s you! What are you doing here? what are you doing here? +Say!” +</p> + +<p> +Then she turned to Hélène with the question: “Was it you who let him come +in?” +</p> + +<p> +Zephyrin never uttered a word, but contented himself with winking slily. Then +Rosalie gave vent to her emotion in tears; and, to show her delight at seeing +him again, could hit on nothing better than to quiz him. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! go away!” she began, marching up to him. “You look neat +and pretty I must say in that guise of yours! I might have passed you in the +street, and not even have said: ‘God bless you.’ Oh! you’ve +got a nice rig-out. You just look as if you had your sentry-box on your back; +and they’ve cut your hair so short that folks might take you for the +sexton’s poodle. Good heavens! what a fright you are; what a +fright!” +</p> + +<p> +Zephyrin, very indignant, now made up his mind to speak. “It’s not +my fault, that’s sure! Oh! if you joined a regiment we should see a few +things.” +</p> + +<p> +They had quite forgotten where they were; everything had vanished—the +room, Hélène and Jeanne, who was still gathering the apples together. With +hands folded over her apron, the maid stood upright in front of the little +soldier. +</p> + +<p> +“Is everything all right down there?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, yes, excepting Guignard’s cow is ill. The veterinary surgeon +came and said she’d got the dropsy.” +</p> + +<p> +“If she’s got the dropsy, she’s done for. Excepting that, is +everything all right?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, yes! The village constable has broken his arm. Old Canivet’s +dead. And, by the way, his reverence lost his purse with thirty sous in it as +he was a-coming back from Grandval. But otherwise, things are all right.” +</p> + +<p> +Then silence fell on them, and they looked at one another with sparkling eyes, +their compressed lips slowly making an amorous grimace. This, indeed, must have +been the manner in which they expressed their love, for they had not even +stretched out their hands in greeting. Rosalie, however, all at once ceased her +contemplation, and began to lament at sight of the vegetables on the floor. +Such a nice mess! and it was he who had caused it all! Madame ought to have +made him wait on the stairs! Scolding away as fast as she could, she dropped on +her knees and began putting the apples, onions, and cauliflowers into the +basket again, much to the disgust of Jeanne, who would fain have done it all +herself. And as she turned, with the object of betaking herself into her +kitchen, never deigning another look in Zephyrin’s direction, Hélène, +conciliated by the healthy tranquillity of the lovers, stopped her to say: +</p> + +<p> +“Listen a moment, my girl. Your aunt has asked me to allow this young man +to come and see you on Sundays. He will come in the afternoon, and you will try +not to let your work fall behind too much.” +</p> + +<p> +Rosalie paused, merely turning her head. Though she was well pleased, she +preserved her doleful air. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, madame, he will be such a bother,” she declared. But at the +same time she glanced over her shoulder at Zephyrin, and again made an +affectionate grimace at him. The little soldier remained for a minute +stock-still, his mouth agape from ear to ear with its silent laugh. Then he +retired backwards, with his cap against his heart as he thanked Hélène +profusely. The door had been shut upon him, when on the landing he still +continued bowing. +</p> + +<p> +“Is that Rosalie’s brother, mamma?” asked Jeanne. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène was quite embarrassed by the question. She regretted the permission +which she had just given in a sudden impulse of kindliness which now surprised +her. She remained thinking for some seconds, and then replied, “No, he is +her cousin.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah!” said the child gravely. +</p> + +<p> +Rosalie’s kitchen looked out on the sunny expanse of Doctor +Deberle’s garden. In the summer the branches of the elms swayed in +through the broad window. It was the cheeriest room of the suite, always +flooded with light, which was sometimes so blinding that Rosalie had put up a +curtain of blue cotton stuff, which she drew of an afternoon. The only +complaint she made about the kitchen was its smallness; and indeed it was a +narrow strip of a place, with a cooking-range on the right-hand side, while on +the left were the table and dresser. The various utensils and furnishings, +however, had all been so well arranged that she had contrived to keep a clear +corner beside the window, where she worked in the evening. She took a pride in +keeping everything, stewpans, kettles, and dishes, wonderfully clean; and so, +when the sun veered round to the window, the walls became resplendent, the +copper vessels sparkled like gold, the tin pots showed bright discs like silver +moons, while the white-and-blue tiles above the stove gleamed pale in the fiery +glow. +</p> + +<p> +On the evening of the ensuing Saturday Hélène heard so great a commotion in the +kitchen that she determined to go and see what was the matter. +</p> + +<p> +“What is it?” asked she: “are you fighting with the +furniture?” +</p> + +<p> +“I am scouring, madame,” replied Rosalie, who, sweating and +dishevelled, was squatting on the tiled floor and scrubbing it with all the +strength of her arms. +</p> + +<p> +This over, she sponged it with clear water. Never had the kitchen displayed +such perfection of cleanliness. A bride might have slept in it; all was white +as for a wedding. So energetically had she exerted her hands that it seemed as +if table and dresser had been freshly planed. And the good order of everything +was a sight to see; stewpans and pots taking rank by their size, each on its +own hook, even the frying-pan and gridiron shining brightly without one grimy +stain. Hélène looked on for a moment in silence, and then with a smile +disappeared. +</p> + +<p> +Every Saturday afterwards there was a similar furbishing, a tornado of dust and +water lasting for four hours. It was Rosalie’s wish to display her +neatness to Zephyrin on the Sunday. That was her reception day. A single cobweb +would have filled her with shame; but when everything shone resplendent around +her she became amiable, and burst into song. At three o’clock she would +again wash her hands and don a cap gay with ribbons. Then the curtain being +drawn halfway, so that only the subdued light of a boudoir came in, she awaited +Zephyrin’s arrival amidst all this primness, through which a pleasant +scent of thyme and laurel was borne. +</p> + +<p> +At half-past three exactly Zephyrin made his appearance; he would walk about +the street until the clocks of the neighborhood had struck the half-hour. +Rosalie listened to the beat of his heavy shoes on the stairs, and opened the +door the moment he halted on the landing. She had forbidden him to ring the +bell. At each visit the same greeting passed between them. +</p> + +<p> +“Is it you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, it’s me!” +</p> + +<p> +And they stood face to face, their eyes sparkling and their lips compressed. +Then Zephyrin followed Rosalie; but there was no admission vouchsafed to him +till she had relieved him of shako and sabre. She would have none of these in +her kitchen; and so the sabre and shako were hidden away in a cupboard. Next +she would make him sit down in the corner she had contrived near the window, +and thenceforth he was not allowed to budge. +</p> + +<p> +“Sit still there! You can look on, if you like, while I get +madame’s dinner ready.” +</p> + +<p> +But he rarely appeared with empty hands. He would usually spend the morning in +strolling with some comrades through the woods of Meudon, lounging lazily +about, inhaling the fresh air, which inspired him with regretful memories of +his country home. To give his fingers something to do he would cut switches, +which he tapered and notched with marvelous figurings, and his steps gradually +slackening he would come to a stop beside some ditch, his shako on the back of +his head, while his eyes remained fixed on the knife with which he was carving +the stick. Then, as he could never make up his mind to discard his switches, he +carried them in the afternoon to Rosalie, who would throw up her hands, and +exclaim that they would litter her kitchen. But the truth was, she carefully +preserved them; and under her bed was gathered a bundle of these switches, of +all sorts and sizes. +</p> + +<p> +One day he made his appearance with a nest full of eggs, which he had secreted +in his shako under the folds of a handkerchief. Omelets made from the eggs of +wild birds, so he declared, were very nice—a statement which Rosalie +received with horror; the nest, however, was preserved and laid away in company +with the switches. But Zephyrin’s pockets were always full to +overflowing. He would pull curiosities from them, transparent pebbles found on +the banks of the Seine, pieces of old iron, dried berries, and all sorts of +strange rubbish, which not even a rag-picker would have cared for. His chief +love, however, was for pictures; as he sauntered along he would seize on all +the stray papers that had served as wrappers for chocolate or cakes of soap, +and on which were black men, palm-trees, dancing-girls, or clusters of roses. +The tops of old broken boxes, decorated with figures of languid, blonde ladies, +the glazed prints and silver paper which had once contained sugar-sticks and +had been thrown away at the neighboring fairs, were great windfalls that filled +his bosom with pride. All such booty was speedily transferred to his pockets, +the choicer articles being enveloped in a fragment of an old newspaper. And on +Sunday, if Rosalie had a moment’s leisure between the preparation of a +sauce and the tending of the joint, he would exhibit his pictures to her. They +were hers if she cared for them; only as the paper around them was not always +clean he would cut them out, a pastime which greatly amused him. Rosalie got +angry, as the shreds of paper blew about even into her plates; and it was a +sight to see with what rustic cunning he would at last gain possession of her +scissors. At times, however, in order to get rid of him, she would give them up +without any asking. +</p> + +<p> +Meanwhile some brown sauce would be simmering on the fire. Rosalie watched it, +wooden spoon in hand; while Zephyrin, his head bent and his breadth of shoulder +increased by his epaulets, continued cutting out the pictures. His head was so +closely shaven that the skin of his skull could be seen; and the yellow collar +of his tunic yawned widely behind, displaying his sunburnt neck. For a quarter +of an hour at a time neither would utter a syllable. When Zephyrin raised his +head, he watched Rosalie while she took some flour, minced some parsley, or +salted and peppered some dish, his eyes betraying the while intense interest. +Then, at long intervals, a few words would escape him: +</p> + +<p> +“By Jove! that does smell nice!” +</p> + +<p> +The cook, busily engaged, would not vouchsafe an immediate reply; but after a +lengthy silence she perhaps exclaimed: “You see, it must simmer +properly.” +</p> + +<p> +Their talk never went beyond that. They no longer spoke of their native place +even. When a reminiscence came to them a word sufficed, and they chuckled +inwardly the whole afternoon. This was pleasure enough, and by the time Rosalie +turned Zephyrin out of doors both of them had enjoyed ample amusement. +</p> + +<p> +“Come, you will have to go! I must wait on madame,” said she; and +restoring him his shako and sabre, she drove him out before her, afterwards +waiting on madame with cheeks flushed with happiness; while he walked back to +barracks, dangling his arms, and almost intoxicated by the goodly odors of +thyme and laurel which still clung to him. +</p> + +<p> +During his earlier visits Hélène judged it right to look after them. She popped +in sometimes quite suddenly to give an order, and there was Zephyrin always in +his corner, between the table and the window, close to the stone filter, which +forced him to draw in his legs. The moment madame made her appearance he rose +and stood upright, as though shouldering arms, and if she spoke to him his +reply never went beyond a salute and a respectful grunt. Little by little +Hélène grew somewhat easier; she saw that her entrance did not disturb them, +and that their faces only expressed the quiet content of patient lovers. +</p> + +<p> +At this time, too, Rosalie seemed even more wide awake than Zephyrin. She had +already been some months in Paris, and under its influence was fast losing her +country rust, though as yet she only knew three streets—the Rue de Passy, +the Rue Franklin, and the Rue Vineuse. Zephyrin, soldier though he was, +remained quite a lubber. As Rosalie confided to her mistress, he became more of +a blockhead every day. In the country he had been much sharper. But, added she, +it was the uniform’s fault; all the lads who donned the uniform became +sad dolts. The fact is, his change of life had quite muddled Zephyrin, who, +with his staring round eyes and solemn swagger, looked like a goose. Despite +his epaulets he retained his rustic awkwardness and heaviness; the barracks had +taught him nothing as yet of the fine words and victorious attitudes of the +ideal Parisian fire-eater. “Yes, madame,” Rosalie would wind up by +saying, “you don’t need to disturb yourself; it is not in him to +play any tricks!” +</p> + +<p> +Thus the girl began to treat him in quite a motherly way. While dressing her +meat on the spit she would preach him a sermon, full of good counsel as to the +pitfalls he should shun; and he in all obedience vigorously nodded approval of +each injunction. Every Sunday he had to swear to her that he had attended mass, +and that he had solemnly repeated his prayers morning and evening. She strongly +inculcated the necessity of tidiness, gave him a brush down whenever he left +her, stitched on a loose button of his tunic, and surveyed him from head to +foot to see if aught were amiss in his appearance. She also worried herself +about his health, and gave him cures for all sorts of ailments. In return for +her kindly care Zephyrin professed himself anxious to fill her filter for her; +but this proposal was long-rejected, through the fear that he might spill the +water. One day, however, he brought up two buckets without letting a drop of +their contents fall on the stairs, and from that time he replenished the filter +every Sunday. He would also make himself useful in other ways, doing all the +heavy work and was extremely handy in running to the greengrocer’s for +butter, had she forgotten to purchase any. At last, even, he began to share in +the duties of kitchen-maid. First he was permitted to peel the vegetables; +later on the mincing was assigned to him. At the end of six weeks, though still +forbidden to touch the sauces, he watched over them with wooden spoon in hand. +Rosalie had fairly made him her helpmate, and would sometimes burst out +laughing as she saw him, with his red trousers and yellow collar, working +busily before the fire with a dishcloth over his arm, like some +scullery-servant. +</p> + +<p> +One Sunday Hélène betook herself to the kitchen. Her slippers deadened the +sound of her footsteps, and she reached the threshold unheard by either maid or +soldier. Zephyrin was seated in his corner over a basin of steaming broth. +Rosalie, with her back turned to the door, was occupied in cutting some long +sippets of bread for him. +</p> + +<p> +“There, eat away, my dear!” she said. “You walk too much; it +is that which makes you feel so empty! There! have you enough? Do you want any +more?” +</p> + +<p> +Thus speaking, she watched him with a tender and anxious look. He, with his +round, dumpy figure, leaned over the basin, devouring a sippet with each +mouthful of broth. His face, usually yellow with freckles, was becoming quite +red with the warmth of the steam which circled round him. +</p> + +<p> +“Heavens!” he muttered, “what grand juice! What do you put in +it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Wait a minute,” she said; “if you like leeks—” +</p> + +<p> +However, as she turned round she suddenly caught sight of her mistress. She +raised an exclamation, and then, like Zephyrin, seemed turned to stone. But a +moment afterwards she poured forth a torrent of excuses. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s my share, madame—oh, it’s my share! I would not +have taken any more soup, I swear it! I told him, ‘If you would like to +have my bowl of soup, you can have it.’ Come, speak up, Zephyrin; you +know that was how it came about!” +</p> + +<p> +The mistress remained silent, and the servant grew uneasy, thinking she was +annoyed. Then in quavering tones she continued: +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, he was dying of hunger, madame; he stole a raw carrot for me! They +feed him so badly! And then, you know, he had walked goodness knows where all +along the river-side. I’m sure, madame, you would have told me yourself +to give him some broth!” +</p> + +<p> +Gazing at the little soldier, who sat with his mouth full, not daring to +swallow, Hélène felt she could no longer remain stern. So she quietly said: +</p> + +<p> +“Well, well, my girl, whenever the lad is hungry you must keep him to +dinner—that’s all. I give you permission” +</p> + +<p> +Face to face with them, she had again felt within her that tender feeling which +once already had banished all thoughts of rigor from her mind. They were so +happy in that kitchen! The cotton curtain, drawn half-way, gave free entry to +the sunset beams. The burnished copper pans set the end wall all aglow, lending +a rosy tint to the twilight lingering in the room. And there, in the golden +shade, the lovers’ little round faces shone out, peaceful and radiant, +like moons. Their love was instinct with such calm certainty that no neglect +was even shown in keeping the kitchen utensils in their wonted good order. It +blossomed amidst the savory odors of the cooking-stove, which heightened their +appetites and nourished their hearts. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma,” asked Jeanne, one evening after considerable meditation, +“why is it Rosalie’s cousin never kisses her?” +</p> + +<p> +“And why should they kiss one another?” asked Hélène in her turn. +“They will kiss on their birthdays.” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0007"></a> CHAPTER VII.</h2> + +<p> +The soup had just been served on the following Tuesday evening, when Hélène, +after listening attentively, exclaimed: +</p> + +<p> +“What a downpour! Don’t you hear? My poor friends, you will get +drenched to-night!” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, it’s only a few drops,” said the Abbé quietly, though +his old cassock was already wet about the shoulders. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve got a good distance to go,” said Monsieur Rambaud. +“But I shall return home on foot all the same; I like it. Besides, I have +my umbrella.” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne was reflecting as she gazed gravely on her last spoonful of vermicelli; +and at last her thoughts took shape in words: “Rosalie said you +wouldn’t come because of the wretched weather; but mamma said you would +come. You are very kind; you always come.” +</p> + +<p> +A smile lit up all their faces. Hélène addressed a nod of affectionate approval +to the two brothers. Out of doors the rain was falling with a dull roar, and +violent gusts of wind beat angrily against the window-shutters. Winter seemed +to have returned. Rosalie had carefully drawn the red repp curtains; and the +small, cosy dining-room, illumined by the steady light of the white +hanging-lamp, looked, amidst the buffeting of the storm, a picture of pleasant, +affectionate intimacy. On the mahogany sideboard some china reflected the quiet +light; and amidst all this indoor peacefulness the four diners leisurely +conversed, awaiting the good pleasure of the servant-maid, as they sat round +the table, where all, if simple, was exquisitely clean. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! you are waiting; so much the worse!” said Rosalie familiarly, +as she entered with a dish. “These are fillets of sole <i>au gratin</i> +for Monsieur Rambaud; they require to be lifted just at the last moment.” +</p> + +<p> +Monsieur Rambaud pretended to be a gourmand, in order to amuse Jeanne, and give +pleasure to Rosalie, who was very proud of her accomplishments as a cook. He +turned towards her with the question: “By the way, what have you got for +us to-day? You are always bringing in some surprise or other when I am no +longer hungry.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” said she in reply, “there are three dishes as usual, +and no more. After the sole you will have a leg of mutton and then some +Brussels sprouts. Yes, that’s the truth; there will be nothing +else.” +</p> + +<p> +From the corner of his eye Monsieur Rambaud glanced towards Jeanne. The child +was boiling over with glee, her hands over her mouth to restrain her laughter, +while she shook her head, as though to insinuate that the maid was deceiving +them. Monsieur Rambaud thereupon clacked his tongue as though in doubt, and +Rosalie pretended great indignation. +</p> + +<p> +“You don’t believe me because Mademoiselle Jeanne laughs so,” +said she. “Ah, very well! believe what you like. Stint yourself, and see +if you won’t have a craving for food when you get home.” +</p> + +<p> +When the maid had left the room, Jeanne, laughing yet more loudly, was seized +with a longing to speak out. +</p> + +<p> +“You are really too greedy!” she began. “I myself went into +the kitchen—” However, she left her sentence unfinished: “No, +no, I won’t tell; it isn’t right, is it, mamma? There’s +nothing more—nothing at all! I only laughed to cheat you.” +</p> + +<p> +This interlude was re-enacted every Tuesday with the same unvarying success. +Hélène was touched by the kindliness with which Monsieur Rambaud lent himself +to the fun; she was well aware that, with Provencal frugality, he had long +limited his daily fare to an anchovy and half-a-dozen olives. As for Abbé +Jouve, he never knew what he was eating, and his blunders and forgetfulness +supplied an inexhaustible fund of amusement. Jeanne, meditating some prank in +this respect, was even now stealthily watching him with her glittering eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“How nice this whiting is!” she said to him, after they had all +been served. +</p> + +<p> +“Very nice, my dear,” he answered. “Bless me, you are +right—it is whiting; I thought it was turbot.” +</p> + +<p> +And then, as every one laughed, he guilelessly asked why. Rosalie, who had just +come into the room again, seemed very much hurt, and burst out: +</p> + +<p> +“A fine thing indeed! The priest in my native place knew much better what +he was eating. He could tell the age of the fowl he was carving to a week or +so, and didn’t require to go into the kitchen to find out what there was +for dinner. No, the smell was quite sufficient. Goodness gracious! had I been +in the service of a priest like your reverence, I should not know yet even how +to turn an omelet.” +</p> + +<p> +The Abbé hastened to excuse himself with an embarrassed air, as though his +inability to appreciate the delights of the table was a failing he despaired of +curing. But, as he said, he had too many other things to think about. +</p> + +<p> +“There! that is a leg of mutton!” exclaimed Rosalie, as she placed +on the table the joint referred to. +</p> + +<p> +Everybody once more indulged in a peal of laughter, the Abbé Jouve being the +first to do so. He bent forward to look, his little eyes twinkling with glee. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, certainly,” said he; “it is a leg of mutton. I think I +should have known it.” +</p> + +<p> +Despite this remark, there was something about the Abbé that day which +betokened unusual absent-mindedness. He ate quickly, with the haste of a man +who is bored by a long stay at table, and lunches standing when at home. And, +having finished, himself, he would wait the convenience of the others, plunged +in deep thought, and simply smiling in reply to the questions put to him. At +every moment he cast on his brother a look in which encouragement and +uneasiness were mingled. Nor did Monsieur Rambaud seen possessed of his wonted +tranquillity that evening; but his agitation manifested itself in a craving to +talk and fidget on his chair, which seemed rather inconsistent with his quiet +disposition. When the Brussels sprouts had disappeared, there was a delay in +the appearance of the dessert, and a spell of silence ensued. Out of doors the +rain was beating down with still greater force, rattling noisily against the +house. The dining-room was rather close, and it suddenly dawned on Hélène that +there was something strange in the air—that the two brothers had some +worry of which they did not care to speak. She looked at them anxiously, and at +last spoke: +</p> + +<p> +“Dear, dear! What dreadful rain! isn’t it? It seems to be +influencing both of you, for you look out of sorts.” +</p> + +<p> +They protested, however, that such was not the case, doing their utmost to +clear her mind of the notion. And as Rosalie now made her appearance with an +immense dish, Monsieur Rambaud exclaimed, as though to veil his emotion: +“What did I say! Still another surprise!” +</p> + +<p> +The surprise of the day was some vanilla cream, one of the cook’s +triumphs. And thus it was a sight to see her broad, silent grin, as she +deposited her burden on the table. Jeanne shouted and clapped her hands. +</p> + +<p> +“I knew it, I knew it! I saw the eggs in the kitchen!” +</p> + +<p> +“But I have no more appetite,” declared Monsieur Rambaud, with a +look of despair. “I could not eat any of it!” +</p> + +<p> +Thereupon Rosalie became grave, full of suppressed wrath. With a dignified air, +she remarked: “Oh, indeed! A cream which I made specially for you! Well, +well! just try not to eat any of it—yes, try!” +</p> + +<p> +He had to give in and accept a large helping of the cream. Meanwhile the Abbé +remained thoughtful. He rolled up his napkin and rose before the dessert had +come to an end, as was frequently his custom. For a little while he walked +about, with his head hanging down; and when Hélène in her turn quitted the +table, he cast at Monsieur Rambaud a look of intelligence, and led the young +woman into the bedroom.[*] The door being left open behind them, they could +almost immediately afterwards be heard conversing together, though the words +which they slowly exchanged were indistinguishable. +</p> + +<p> +[*] Hélène’s frequent use of her bedroom may seem strange to the English +reader who has never been in France. But in the <i>petite bourgeoisie</i> the +bedchamber is often the cosiest of the whole suite of rooms, and whilst +indoors, when not superintending her servant, it is in the bedroom that madame +will spend most of her time. Here, too, she will receive friends of either sex, +and, the French being far less prudish than ourselves, nobody considers that +there is anything wrong or indelicate in the practice. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, do make haste!” said Jeanne to Monsieur Rambaud, who seemed +incapable of finishing a biscuit. “I want to show you my work.” +</p> + +<p> +However, he evinced no haste, though when Rosalie began to clear the table it +became necessary for him to leave his chair. +</p> + +<p> +“Wait a little! wait a little!” he murmured, as the child strove to +drag him towards the bedroom, And, overcome with embarrassment and timidity, he +retreated from the doorway. Then, as the Abbé raised his voice, such sudden +weakness came over him that he had to sit down again at the table. From his +pocket he drew a newspaper. +</p> + +<p> +“Now,” said he, “I’m going to make you a little +coach.” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne at once abandoned her intention of entering the adjoining room. Monsieur +Rambaud always amazed her by his skill in turning a sheet of paper into all +sorts of playthings. Chickens, boats, bishops’ mitres, carts, and cages, +were all evolved under his fingers. That day, however, so tremulous were his +hands that he was unable to perfect anything. He lowered his head whenever the +faintest sound came from the adjacent room. Nevertheless, Jeanne took interest +in watching him, and leaned on the table at his side. +</p> + +<p> +“Now,” said she, “you must make a chicken to harness to the +carriage.” +</p> + +<p> +Meantime, within the bedroom, Abbé Jouve remained standing in the shadow thrown +by the lamp-shade upon the floor. Hélène had sat down in her usual place in +front of the round table; and, as on Tuesdays she refrained from ceremony with +her friends, she had taken up her needlework, and, in the circular glare of +light, only her white hands could be seen sewing a child’s cap. +</p> + +<p> +“Jeanne gives you no further worry, does she?” asked the Abbé. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène shook her head before making a reply. +</p> + +<p> +“Doctor Deberle seems quite satisfied,” said she. “But the +poor darling is still very nervous. Yesterday I found her in her chair in a +fainting fit.” +</p> + +<p> +“She needs exercise,” resumed the priest. “You stay indoors +far too much; you should follow the example of other folks and go about more +than you do.” +</p> + +<p> +He ceased speaking, and silence followed. He now, without doubt, had what he +had been seeking,—a suitable inlet for his discourse; but the moment for +speaking came, and he was still communing with himself. Taking a chair, he sat +down at Hélène’s side. +</p> + +<p> +“Hearken to me, my dear child,” he began. “For some time past +I have wished to talk with you seriously. The life you are leading here can +entail no good results. A convent existence such as yours is not consistent +with your years; and this abandonment of worldly pleasures is as injurious to +your child as it is to yourself. You are risking many dangers—dangers to +health, ay, and other dangers, too.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène raised her head with an expression of astonishment. “What do you +mean, my friend?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Dear me! I know the world but little,” continued the priest, with +some slight embarrassment, “yet I know very well that a woman incurs +great risk when she remains without a protecting arm. To speak frankly, you +keep to your own company too much, and this seclusion in which you hide +yourself is not healthful, believe me. A day must come when you will suffer +from it.” +</p> + +<p> +“But I make no complaint; I am very happy as I am,” she exclaimed +with spirit. +</p> + +<p> +The old priest gently shook his large head. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, yes, that is all very well. You feel completely happy. I know all +that. Only, on the downhill path of a lonely, dreamy life, you never know where +you are going. Oh! I understand you perfectly; you are incapable of doing any +wrong. But sooner or later you might lose your peace of mind. Some morning, +when it is too late, you will find that blank which you now leave in your life +filled by some painful feeling not to be confessed.” +</p> + +<p> +As she sat there in the shadow, a blush crimsoned Hélène’s face. Had the +Abbé, then, read her heart? Was he aware of this restlessness which was fast +possessing her—this heart-trouble which thrilled her every-day life, and +the existence of which she had till now been unwilling to admit? Her needlework +fell on her lap. A sensation of weakness pervaded her, and she awaited from the +priest something like a pious complicity which would allow her to confess and +particularize the vague feelings which she buried in her innermost being. As +all was known to him, it was for him to question her, and she would strive to +answer. +</p> + +<p> +“I leave myself in your hands, my friend,” she murmured. “You +are well aware that I have always listened to you.” +</p> + +<p> +The priest remained for a moment silent, and then slowly and solemnly said: +</p> + +<p> +“My child, you must marry again.” +</p> + +<p> +She remained speechless, with arms dangling, in a stupor this counsel brought +upon her. She awaited other words, failing, as it were, to understand him. And +the Abbé continued putting before her the arguments which should incline her +towards marriage. +</p> + +<p> +“Remember, you are still young. You must not remain longer in this +out-of-the-way corner of Paris, scarcely daring to go out, and wholly ignorant +of the world. You must return to the every-day life of humanity, lest in the +future you should bitterly regret your loneliness. You yourself have no idea +how the effects of your isolation are beginning to tell on you, but your +friends remark your pallor, and feel uneasy.” +</p> + +<p> +With each sentence he paused, in the hope that she might break in and discuss +his proposition. But no; she sat there as if lifeless, seemingly benumbed with +astonishment. +</p> + +<p> +“No doubt you have a child,” he resumed. “That is always a +delicate matter to surmount. Still, you must admit that even in Jeanne’s +interest a husband’s arm would be of great advantage. Of course, we must +find some one good and honorable, who would be a true father—” +</p> + +<p> +However, she did not let him finish. With violent revolt and repulsion she +suddenly spoke out: “No, no; I will not! Oh, my friend, how can you +advise me thus? Never, do you hear, never!” +</p> + +<p> +Her whole heart was rising; she herself was frightened by the violence of her +refusal. The priest’s proposal had stirred up that dim nook in her being +whose secret she avoided reading, and, by the pain she experienced, she at last +understood all the gravity of her ailment. With the open, smiling glance of the +priest still bent on her, she plunged into contention. +</p> + +<p> +“No, no; I do not wish it! I love nobody!” +</p> + +<p> +And, as he still gazed at her, she imagined he could read her lie on her face. +She blushed and stammered: +</p> + +<p> +“Remember, too, I only left off my mourning a fortnight ago. No, it could +not be!” +</p> + +<p> +“My child!” quietly said the priest, “I thought over this a +great deal before speaking. I am sure your happiness is wrapped up in it. Calm +yourself; you need never act against your own wishes.” +</p> + +<p> +The conversation came to a sudden stop. Hélène strove to keep pent within her +bosom the angry protests that were rushing to her lips. She resumed her work, +and, with head lowered, contrived to put in a few stitches. And amid the +silence, Jeanne’s shrill voice could be heard in the dining-room. +</p> + +<p> +“People don’t put a chicken to a carriage; it ought to be a horse! +You don’t know how to make a horse, do you?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, my dear; horses are too difficult,” said Monsieur Rambaud. +“But if you like I’ll show you how to make carriages.” +</p> + +<p> +This was always the fashion in which their game came to an end. Jeanne, all +ears and eyes, watched her kindly playfellow folding the paper into a multitude +of little squares, and afterwards she followed his example; but she would make +mistakes and then stamp her feet in vexation. However, she already knew how to +manufacture boats and bishops’ mitres. +</p> + +<p> +“You see,” resumed Monsieur Rambaud patiently, “you make four +corners like that; then you turn them back—” +</p> + +<p> +With his ears on the alert, he must during the last moment have heard some of +the words spoken in the next room; for his poor hands were now trembling more +and more, while his tongue faltered, so that he could only half articulate his +sentences. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, who was unable to quiet herself, now began the conversation anew. +“Marry again! And whom, pray?” she suddenly asked the priest, as +she laid her work down on the table. “You have some one in view, have you +not?” +</p> + +<p> +Abbé Jouve rose from his chair and stalked slowly up and down. Without halting, +he nodded assent. +</p> + +<p> +“Well! tell me who he is,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +For a moment he lingered before her erect, then, shrugging his shoulders, said: +“What’s the good, since you decline?” +</p> + +<p> +“No matter, I want to know,” she replied. “How can I make up +my mind when I don’t know?” +</p> + +<p> +He did not answer her immediately, but remained standing there, gazing into her +face. A somewhat sad smile wreathed his lips. At last he exclaimed, almost in a +whisper: “What! have you not guessed?” +</p> + +<p> +No, she could not guess. She tried to do so, with increasing wonder, whereupon +he made a simple sign—nodding his head in the direction of the +dining-room. +</p> + +<p> +“He!” she exclaimed, in a muffled tone, and a great seriousness +fell upon her. She no longer indulged in violent protestations; only sorrow and +surprise remained visible on her face. She sat for a long time plunged in +thought, her gaze turned to the floor. Truly, she had never dreamed of such a +thing; and yet, she found nothing in it to object to. Monsieur Rambaud was the +only man in whose hand she could put her own honestly and without fear. She +knew his innate goodness; she did not smile at his <i>bourgeois</i> heaviness. +But despite all her regard for him, the idea that he loved her chilled her to +the soul. +</p> + +<p> +Meanwhile the Abbé had again begun walking from one to the other end of the +room, and on passing the dining-room door he gently called Hélène. “Come +here and look!” +</p> + +<p> +She rose and did as he wished. +</p> + +<p> +Monsieur Rambaud had ended by seating Jeanne in his own chair; and he, who had +at first been leaning against the table, had now slipped down at the +child’s feet. He was on his knees before her, encircling her with one of +his arms. On the table was the carriage drawn by the chicken, with some boats, +boxes, and bishops’ mitres. +</p> + +<p> +“Now, do you love me well?” he asked her. “Tell me that you +love me well!” +</p> + +<p> +“Of course, I love you well; you know it.” +</p> + +<p> +He stammered and trembled, as though he were making some declaration of love. +</p> + +<p> +“And what would you say if I asked you to let me stay here with you +always?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, I should be quite pleased. We would play together, wouldn’t +we? That would be good fun.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah, but you know I should always be here.” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne had taken up a boat which she was twisting into a gendarme’s hat. +“You would need to get mamma’s leave,” she murmured. +</p> + +<p> +By this reply all his fears were again stirred into life. His fate was being +decided. +</p> + +<p> +“Of course,” said he. “But if mamma gave me leave, would you +say yes, too?” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne, busy finishing her gendarme’s hat, sang out in a rapturous +strain: “I would say yes! yes! yes! I would say yes! yes! yes! Come, look +how pretty my hat is!” +</p> + +<p> +Monsieur Rambaud, with tears in his eyes, rose to his knees and kissed her, +while she threw her arms round his neck. He had entrusted the asking of +Hélène’s consent to his brother, whilst he himself sought to secure that +of Jeanne. +</p> + +<p> +“You see,” said the priest, with a smile, “the child is quite +content.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène still retained her grave air, and made no further inquiry. The Abbé, +however, again eloquently took up his plea, and emphasized his brother’s +good qualities. Was he not a treasure-trove of a father for Jeanne? She was +well acquainted with him; in trusting him she gave no hostages to fortune. +Then, as she still remained silent, the Abbé with great feeling and dignity +declared that in the step he had taken he had not thought of his brother, but +of her and her happiness. +</p> + +<p> +“I believe you; I know how you love me,” Hélène promptly answered. +“Wait; I want to give your brother his answer in your presence.” +</p> + +<p> +The clock struck ten. Monsieur Rambaud made his entry into the bedroom. With +outstretched hands she went to meet him. +</p> + +<p> +“I thank you for your proposal, my friend,” said she. “I am +very grateful; and you have done well in speaking—” +</p> + +<p> +She was gazing calmly into his face, holding his big hand in her grasp. +Trembling all over, he dared not lift his eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“Yet I must have time to consider,” she resumed. “You will +perhaps have to give me a long time.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! as long as you like—six months, a year, longer if you +please,” exclaimed he with a light heart, well pleased that she had not +forthwith sent him about his business. +</p> + +<p> +His excitement brought a faint smile to her face. “But I intend that we +shall still continue friends,” said she. “You will come here as +usual, and simply give me your promise to remain content till I speak to you +about the matter. Is that understood?” +</p> + +<p> +He had withdrawn his hand, and was now feverishly hunting for his hat, +signifying his acquiescence by a continuous bobbing of the head. Then, at the +moment of leaving, he found his voice once more. +</p> + +<p> +“Listen to me,” said he. “You now know that I am +there—don’t you? Well, whatever happens I shall always be there. +That’s all the Abbé should have told you. In ten years, if you like; you +will only have to make a sign. I shall obey you!” +</p> + +<p> +And it was he who a last time took Hélène’s hand and gripped it as though +he would crush it. On the stairs the two brothers turned round with the usual +good-bye: +</p> + +<p> +“Till next Tuesday!” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, Tuesday,” answered Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +On returning to her room a fresh downfall of rain beating against the shutters +filled her with grave concern. Good heavens! what an obstinate downpour, and +how wet her poor friends would get! She opened the window and looked down into +the street. Sudden gusts of wind were making the gaslights flicker, and amid +the shiny puddles and shimmering rain she could see the round figure of +Monsieur Rambaud, as he went off with dancing gait, exultant in the darkness, +seemingly caring nothing for the drenching torrent. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne, however, was very grave, for she had overheard some of her +playfellow’s last words. She had just taken off her little boots, and was +sitting on the edge of the bed in her nightgown, in deep cogitation. On +entering the room to kiss her, her mother discovered her thus. +</p> + +<p> +“Good-night, Jeanne; kiss me.” +</p> + +<p> +Then, as the child did not seem to hear her, Hélène sank down in front of her, +and clasped her round the waist, asking her in a whisper: “So you would +be glad if he came to live with us?” +</p> + +<p> +The question seemed to bring no surprise to Jeanne. She was doubtless pondering +over this very matter. She slowly nodded her head. +</p> + +<p> +“But you know,” said her mother, “he would be always beside +us—night and day, at table—everywhere!” +</p> + +<p> +A great trouble dawned in the clear depths of the child’s eyes. She +nestled her cheek against her mother’s shoulder, kissed her neck, and +finally, with a quiver, whispered in her ear: “Mamma, would he kiss +you?” +</p> + +<p> +A crimson flush rose to Hélène’s brow. In her first surprise she was at a +loss to answer, but at last she murmured: “He would be the same as your +father, my darling!” +</p> + +<p> +Then Jeanne’s little arms tightened their hold, and she burst into loud +and grievous sobbing. “Oh! no, no!” she cried chokingly. “I +don’t want it then! Oh! mamma, do please tell him I don’t. Go and +tell him I won’t have it!” +</p> + +<p> +She gasped, and threw herself on her mother’s bosom, covering her with +tears and kisses. Hélène did her utmost to appease her, assuring her she would +make it all right; but Jeanne was bent on having a definite answer at once. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! say no! say no, darling mother! You know it would kill me. Never! +Oh, never! Eh?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I’ll promise it will never be. Now, be good and lie +down.” +</p> + +<p> +For some minutes longer the child, speechless with emotion, clasped her mother +in her arms, as though powerless to tear herself away, and intent on guarding +her against all who might seek to take her from her. After some time Hélène was +able to put her to bed; but for a part of the night she had to watch beside +her. Jeanne would start violently in her sleep, and every half-hour her eyes +would open to make sure of her mother’s presence, and then she would doze +off again, with her lips pressed to Hélène’s hand. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0008"></a> CHAPTER VIII.</h2> + +<p> +It was a month of exquisite mildness. The April sun had draped the garden in +tender green, light and delicate as lace. Twining around the railing were the +slender shoots of the lush clematis, while the budding honeysuckle filled the +air with its sweet, almost sugary perfume. On both sides of the trim and +close-shaven lawn red geraniums and white stocks gave the flower beds a glow of +color; and at the end of the garden the clustering elms, hiding the adjacent +houses, reared the green drapery of their branches, whose little leaves +trembled with the least breath of air. +</p> + +<p> +For more than three weeks the sky had remained blue and cloudless. It was like +a miraculous spring celebrating the new youth and blossoming that had burst +into life in Hélène’s heart. Every afternoon she went down into the +garden with Jeanne. A place was assigned her against the first elm on the +right. A chair was ready for her; and on the morrow she would still find on the +gravel walk the scattered clippings of thread that had fallen from her work on +the previous afternoon. +</p> + +<p> +“You are quite at home,” Madame Deberle repeated every evening, +displaying for Hélène one of those affections of hers, which usually lasted +some six months. “You will come to-morrow, of course; and try to come +earlier, won’t you?” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, in truth, felt thoroughly at her ease there. By degrees she became +accustomed to this nook of greenery, and looked forward to her afternoon visit +with the longing of a child. What charmed her most in this garden was the +exquisite trimness of the lawn and flower beds. Not a single weed interfered +with the symmetry of the plants. Hélène spent her time there, calmly and +restfully. The neatly laid out flower beds, and the network of ivy, the +withered leaves of which were carefully removed by the gardener, could exercise +no disturbing influence on her spirit. Seated beneath the deep shadow of the +elm-trees, in this quiet spot which Madame Deberle’s presence perfumed +with a faint odor of musk, she could have imagined herself in a drawing-room; +and only the sight of the blue sky, when she raised her head, reminded her that +she was out-of-doors, and prompted her to breathe freely. +</p> + +<p> +Often, without seeing a soul, the two women would thus pass the afternoon. +Jeanne and Lucien played at their feet. There would be long intervals of +silence, and then Madame Deberle, who disliked reverie, would chatter for +hours, quite satisfied with the silent acquiescence of Hélène, and rattling off +again if the other even so much as nodded. She would tell endless stories +concerning the ladies of her acquaintance, get up schemes for parties during +the coming winter, vent magpie opinions on the day’s news and the society +trifling which filled her narrow brain, the whole intermingled with +affectionate outbursts over the children, and sentimental remarks on the +delights of friendship. Hélène allowed her to squeeze her hands. She did not +always lend an attentive ear; but, in this atmosphere of unceasing tenderness, +she showed herself greatly touched by Juliette’s caresses, and pronounced +her to be a perfect angel of kindness. +</p> + +<p> +Sometimes, to Madame Deberle’s intense delight, a visitor would drop in. +Since Easter she had ceased receiving on Saturdays, as was usual at this time +of the year. But she dreaded solitude, and a casual unceremonious visit paid +her in her garden gave her the greatest pleasure. She was now busily engaged in +settling on the watering-place where she would spend her holiday in August. To +every visitor she retailed the same talk; discoursed on the fact that her +husband would not accompany her to the seaside; and then poured forth a flood +of questions, as she could not make up her mind where to go. She did not ask +for herself, however; no, it was all on Lucien’s account. When the +foppish youth Malignon came he seated himself astride a rustic chair. He, +indeed, loathed the country; one must be mad, he would declare, to exile +oneself from Paris with the idea of catching influenza beside the sea. However, +he took part in the discussions on the merits of the various watering-places, +all of which were horrid, said he; apart from Trouville there was not a place +worthy of any consideration whatever. Day after day Hélène listened to the same +talk, yet without feeling wearied; indeed, she even derived pleasure from this +monotony, which lulled her into dreaming of one thing only. The last day of the +month came, and still Madame Deberle had not decided where to go. +</p> + +<p> +As Hélène was leaving one evening, her friend said to her: “I must go out +to-morrow; but that needn’t prevent you from coming down here. Wait for +me; I shan’t be back late.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène consented; and, alone in the garden, there spent a delicious afternoon. +Nothing stirred, save the sparrows fluttering in the trees overhead. This +little sunny nook entranced her, and, from that day, her happiest afternoons +were those on which her friend left her alone. +</p> + +<p> +A closer intimacy was springing up between the Deberles and herself. She dined +with them like a friend who is pressed to stay when the family sits down to +table; when she lingered under the elm-trees and Pierre came down to announce +dinner, Juliette would implore her to remain, and she sometimes yielded. They +were family dinners, enlivened by the noisy pranks of the children. Doctor +Deberle and Hélène seemed good friends, whose sensible and somewhat reserved +natures sympathized well. Thus it was that Juliette frequently declared: +“Oh, you two would get on capitally! Your composure exasperates +me!” +</p> + +<p> +The doctor returned from his round of visits at about six o’clock every +evening. He found the ladies in the garden, and sat down beside them. On the +earlier occasions, Hélène started up with the idea of leaving her friends to +themselves, but her sudden departure displeased Juliette greatly, and she now +perforce had to remain. She became almost a member of this family, which +appeared to be so closely united. On the doctor’s arrival his wife held +up her cheek to him, always with the same loving gesture, and he kissed her; +then, as Lucien began clambering up his legs, he kept him on his knees while +chatting away. The child would clap his tiny hands on his father’s mouth, +pull his hair, and play so many pranks that in the upshot he had to be put +down, and told to go and play with Jeanne. The fun would bring a smile to +Hélène’s face, and she neglected her work for the moment, to gaze at +father, mother, and child. The kiss of the husband and wife gave her no pain, +and Lucien’s tricks filled her with soft emotion. It might have been said +that she had found a haven of refuge amidst this family’s quiet content. +</p> + +<p> +Meanwhile the sun would sink into the west, gilding the tree tops with its +rays. Serene peacefulness fell from the grey heavens. Juliette, whose curiosity +was insatiable, even in company with strangers, plagued her husband with +ceaseless questions, and often lacked the patience to wait his replies. +“Where have you been? What have you been about?” +</p> + +<p> +Thereupon he would describe his round of visits to them, repeat any news of +what was going on, or speak of some cloth or piece of furniture he had caught a +glimpse of in a shop window. While he was speaking, his eyes often met those of +Hélène, but neither turned away the head. They gazed into each other’s +face for a moment with grave looks, as though heart were being revealed to +heart; but after a little they smiled and their eyes dropped. Juliette, fidgety +and sprightly, though she would often assume a studied languor, allowed them no +opportunity for lengthy conversation, but burst with her interruptions into any +talk whatever. Still they exchanged a few words, quite commonplace, slowly +articulated sentences which seemed to assume a deep meaning, and to linger in +the air after having been spoken. They approvingly punctuated each word the +other uttered, as though they had thoughts in common. It was an intimate +sympathy that was growing up between them, springing from the depths of their +beings, and becoming closer even when they were silent. Sometimes Juliette, +rather ashamed of monopolizing all the talk, would cease her magpie chatter. +</p> + +<p> +“Dear me!” she would exclaim, “you are getting bored, +aren’t you? We are talking of matters which can have no possible interest +for you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, never mind me,” Hélène answered blithely. “I never tire. +It is a pleasure to me to listen and say nothing.” +</p> + +<p> +She was uttering no untruth. It was during the lengthy periods of silence that +she experienced most delight in being there. With her head bent over her work, +only lifting her eyes at long intervals to exchange with the doctor those +interminable looks that riveted their hearts the closer, she willingly +surrendered herself to the egotism of her emotion. Between herself and him, she +now confessed it, there existed a secret sentiment, a something very +sweet—all the sweeter because no one in the world shared it with them. +But she kept her secret with a tranquil mind, her sense of honor quite +unruffled, for no thought of evil ever disturbed her. How good he was to his +wife and child! She loved him the more when he made Lucien jump or kissed +Juliette on the cheek. Since she had seen him in his own home their friendship +had greatly increased. She was now as one of the family; she never dreamt that +the intimacy could be broken. And within her own breast she called him +Henri—naturally, too, from hearing Juliette address him so. When her lips +said “Sir,” through all her being “Henri” was +re-echoed. +</p> + +<p> +One day the doctor found Hélène alone under the elms. Juliette now went out +nearly every afternoon. +</p> + +<p> +“Hello! is my wife not with you?” he exclaimed. +</p> + +<p> +“No, she has left me to myself,” she answered laughingly. “It +is true you have come home earlier than usual.” +</p> + +<p> +The children were playing at the other end of the garden. He sat down beside +her. Their <i>tete-a-tete</i> produced no agitation in either of them. For +nearly an hour they spoke of all sorts of matters, without for a moment feeling +any desire to allude to the tenderness which filled their hearts. What was the +good of referring to that? Did they not well know what might have been said? +They had no confession to make. Theirs was the joy of being together, of +talking of many things, of surrendering themselves to the pleasure of their +isolation without a shadow of regret, in the very spot where every evening he +embraced his wife in her presence. +</p> + +<p> +That day he indulged in some jokes respecting her devotion to work. “Do +you know,” said he, “I do not even know the color of your eyes? +They are always bent on your needle.” +</p> + +<p> +She raised her head and looked straight into his face, as was her custom. +“Do you wish to tease me?” she asked gently. +</p> + +<p> +But he went on. “Ah! they are grey—grey, tinged with blue, are they +not?” +</p> + +<p> +This was the utmost limit to which they dared go; but these words, the first +that had sprung to his lips, were fraught with infinite tenderness. From that +day onwards he frequently found her alone in the twilight. Despite themselves, +and without their having any knowledge of it, their intimacy grew apace. They +spoke in an altered voice, with caressing inflections, which were not apparent +when others were present. And yet, when Juliette came in, full of gossip about +her day in town, they could keep up the talk they had already begun without +even troubling themselves to draw their chairs apart. It seemed as though this +lovely springtide and this garden, with its blossoming lilac, were prolonging +within their hearts the first rapture of love. +</p> + +<p> +Towards the end of the month, Madame Deberle grew excited over a grand idea. +The thought of giving a children’s ball had suddenly struck her. The +season was already far advanced, but the scheme took such hold on her foolish +brain that she hurried on the preparations with reckless haste. She desired +that the affair should be quite perfect; it was to be a fancy-dress ball. And, +in her own home, and in other people’s houses, everywhere, in short, she +now spoke of nothing but her ball. The conversations on the subject which took +place in the garden were endless. The foppish Malignon thought the project +rather stupid, still he condescended to take some interest in it, and promised +to bring a comic singer with whom he was acquainted. +</p> + +<p> +One afternoon, while they were all sitting under the trees, Juliette introduced +the grave question of the costumes which Lucien and Jeanne should wear. +</p> + +<p> +“It is so difficult to make up one’s mind,” said she. +“I have been thinking of a clown’s dress in white satin.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, that’s too common!” declared Malignon. “There will +be a round dozen of clowns at your ball. Wait, you must have something +novel.” Thereupon he began gravely pondering, sucking the head of his +cane all the while. +</p> + +<p> +Pauline came up at the moment, and proclaimed her desire to appear as a +soubrette. +</p> + +<p> +“You!” screamed Madame Deberle, in astonishment. “You +won’t appear in costume at all! Do you think yourself a child, you great +stupid? You will oblige me by coming in a white dress.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, but it would have pleased me so!” exclaimed Pauline, who, +despite her eighteen years and plump girlish figure, liked nothing better than +to romp with a band of little ones. +</p> + +<p> +Meanwhile Hélène sat at the foot of her tree working away, and raising her head +at times to smile at the doctor and Monsieur Rambaud, who stood in front of her +conversing. Monsieur Rambaud had now become quite intimate with the Deberle +family. +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said the doctor, “and how are you going to dress, +Jeanne?” +</p> + +<p> +He got no further, for Malignon burst out: “I’ve got it! I’ve +got it! Lucien must be a marquis of the time of Louis XV.” +</p> + +<p> +He waved his cane with a triumphant air; but, as no one of the company hailed +his idea with enthusiasm, he appeared astonished. “What, don’t you +see it? Won’t it be for Lucien to receive his little guests? So you place +him, dressed as a marquis, at the drawing-room door, with a large bouquet of +roses on his coat, and he bows to the ladies.” +</p> + +<p> +“But there will be dozens of marquises at the ball!” objected +Juliette. +</p> + +<p> +“What does that matter?” replied Malignon coolly. “The more +marquises the greater the fun. I tell you it is the best thing you can hit +upon. The master of the house must be dressed as a marquis, or the ball will be +a complete failure.” +</p> + +<p> +Such was his conviction of his scheme’s success that at last it was +adopted by Juliette with enthusiasm. As a matter of fact, a dress in the +Pompadour style, white satin embroidered with posies, would be altogether +charming. +</p> + +<p> +“And what about Jeanne?” again asked the doctor. +</p> + +<p> +The little girl had just buried her head against her mother’s shoulder in +the caressing manner so characteristic of her; and as an answer was about to +cross Hélène’s lips, she murmured: +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! mamma, you know what you promised me, don’t you?” +</p> + +<p> +“What was it?” asked those around her. +</p> + +<p> +Then, as her daughter gave her an imploring look, Hélène laughingly replied: +“Jeanne does not wish her dress to be known.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, that’s so,” said the child; “you don’t +create any effect when you tell your dress beforehand.” +</p> + +<p> +Every one was tickled with this display of coquetry, and Monsieur Rambaud +thought he might tease the child about it. For some time past Jeanne had been +ill-tempered with him, and the poor man, at his wits’ end to hit upon a +mode of again gaining her favor, thought teasing her the best method of +conciliation. Keeping his eyes on her face, he several times repeated: “I +know; I shall tell, I shall tell!” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne, however, became quite livid. Her gentle, sickly face assumed an +expression of ferocious anger; her brow was furrowed by two deep wrinkles, and +her chin drooped with nervous agitation. +</p> + +<p> +“You!” she screamed excitedly; “you will say nothing!” +And, as he still feigned a resolve to speak, she rushed at him madly, and +shouted out: “Hold your tongue! I will have you hold your tongue! I will! +I will!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène had been unable to prevent this fit of blind anger, such as sometimes +took possession of the child, and with some harshness exclaimed: “Jeanne, +take care; I shall whip you!” +</p> + +<p> +But Jeanne paid no heed, never once heard her. Trembling from head to foot, +stamping on the ground, and choking with rage, she again and again repeated, +“I will! I will!” in a voice that grew more and more hoarse and +broken; and her hands convulsively gripped hold of Monsieur Rambaud’s +arm, which she twisted with extraordinary strength. In vain did Hélène threaten +her. At last, perceiving her inability to quell her by severity, and grieved to +the heart by such a display before so many people, she contented herself by +saying gently: “Jeanne, you are grieving me very much.” +</p> + +<p> +The child immediately quitted her hold and turned her head. And when she caught +sight of her mother, with disconsolate face and eyes swimming with repressed +tears, she on her side burst into loud sobs, and threw herself on +Hélène’s neck, exclaiming in her grief: “No, mamma! no, +mamma!” +</p> + +<p> +She passed her hands over her mother’s face, as though to prevent her +weeping. Hélène, however, slowly put her from her, and then the little one, +broken-hearted and distracted, threw herself on a seat a short distance off, +where her sobs broke out louder than ever. Lucien, to whom she was always held +up as an example to follow, gazed at her surprised and somewhat pleased. And +then, as Hélène folded up her work, apologizing for so regrettable an incident, +Juliette remarked to her: +</p> + +<p> +“Dear me! we have to pardon children everything. Besides, the little one +has the best of hearts, and is grieved so much, poor darling, that she has been +already punished too severely.” +</p> + +<p> +So saying she called Jeanne to come and kiss her; but the child remained on her +seat, rejecting the offer of forgiveness, and still choking with tears. +</p> + +<p> +Monsieur Rambaud and the doctor, however, walked to her side, and the former, +bending over her, asked, in tones husky with emotion: “Tell me, my pet, +what has vexed you? What have I done to you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh!” she replied, drawing away her hands and displaying a face +full of anguish, “you wanted to take my mamma from me!” +</p> + +<p> +The doctor, who was listening, burst into laughter. Monsieur Rambaud at first +failed to grasp her meaning. +</p> + +<p> +“What is this you’re talking of?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, indeed, the other Tuesday! Oh! you know very well; you were on your +knees, and asked me what I should say if you were to stay with us!” +</p> + +<p> +The smile vanished from the doctor’s face; his lips became ashy pale, and +quivered. A flush, on the other hand, mounted to Monsieur Rambaud’s +cheek, and he whispered to Jeanne: “But you said yourself that we should +always play together?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, no; I did not know at the time,” the child resumed excitedly. +“I tell you I don’t want it. Don’t ever speak to me of it +again, and then we shall be friends.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène was on her feet now, with her needlework in its basket, and the last +words fell on her ear. “Come, let us go up, Jeanne,” she said; +“your tears are not pleasant company.” +</p> + +<p> +She bowed, and pushed the child before her. The doctor, with livid face, gazed +at her fixedly. Monsieur Rambaud was in dismay. As for Madame Deberle and +Pauline, they had taken hold of Lucien, and were making him turn between them, +while excitedly discussing the question of his Pompadour dress. +</p> + +<p> +On the morrow Hélène was left alone under the elms. Madame Deberle was running +about in the interests of her ball, and had taken Lucien and Jeanne with her. +On the doctor’s return home, at an earlier hour than usual, he hurried +down the garden steps. However, he did not seat himself, but wandered aimlessly +round the young woman, at times tearing strips of bark from the trees with his +finger-nails. She lifted her eyes for a moment, feeling anxious at sight of his +agitation; and then again began plying her needle with a somewhat trembling +hand. +</p> + +<p> +“The weather is going to break up,” said she, feeling uncomfortable +as the silence continued. “The afternoon seems quite cold.” +</p> + +<p> +“We are only in April, remember,” he replied, with a brave effort +to control his voice. +</p> + +<p> +Then he appeared to be on the point of leaving her, but turned round, and +suddenly asked: “So you are going to get married?” +</p> + +<p> +This abrupt question took her wholly by surprise, and her work fell from her +hands. Her face blanched, but by a supreme effort of will remained +unimpassioned, as though she were a marble statue, fixing dilated eyes upon +him. She made no reply, and he continued in imploring tones: +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! I pray you, answer me. One word, one only. Are you going to get +married?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, perhaps. What concern is it of yours?” she retorted, in a +tone of icy indifference. +</p> + +<p> +He made a passionate gesture, and exclaimed: +</p> + +<p> +“It is impossible!” +</p> + +<p> +“Why should it be?” she asked, still keeping her eyes fixed on his +face. +</p> + +<p> +Her glance stayed the words upon his lips, and he was forced to silence. For a +moment longer he remained near her, pressing his hands to his brow, and then +fled away, with a feeling of suffocation in his throat, dreading lest he might +give expression to his despair; while she, with assumed tranquillity, once more +turned to her work. +</p> + +<p> +But the spell of those delicious afternoons was gone. Next day shone fair and +sunny, and Hélène seemed ill at ease from the moment she found herself alone +with him. The pleasant intimacy, the happy trustfulness, which sanctioned their +sitting side by side in blissful security, and revelling in the unalloyed joy +of being together, no longer existed. Despite his intense carefulness to give +her no cause for alarm, he would sometimes gaze at her and tremble with sudden +excitement, while his face crimsoned with a rush of blood. From her own heart +had fled its wonted happy calm; quivers ran through her frame; she felt +languid; her hands grew weary, and forsook their work. +</p> + +<p> +She now no longer allowed Jeanne to wander from her side. Between himself and +her the doctor found this constant onlooker, watching him with large, clear +eyes. But what pained Hélène most was that she now felt ill at ease in Madame +Deberle’s company. When the latter returned of an afternoon, with her +hair swept about by the wind, and called her “my dear” while +relating the incidents of some shopping expedition, she no longer listened with +her former quiet smile. A storm arose from the depths of her soul, stirring up +feelings to which she dared not give a name. Shame and spite seemed mingled in +them. However, her honorable nature gained the mastery, and she gave her hand +to Juliette, but without being able to repress the shudder which ran through +her as she pressed her friend’s warm fingers. +</p> + +<p> +The weather had now broken up. Frequent rain forced the ladies to take refuge +in the Japanese pavilion. The garden, with its whilom exquisite order, became +transformed into a lake, and no one dared venture on the walks, on account of +the mud. However, whenever the sun peeped out from behind the clouds, the +dripping greenery soon dried; pearls hung from each little blossom of the lilac +trees; and under the elms big drops fell splashing on the ground. +</p> + +<p> +“At last I’ve arranged it; it will be on Saturday,” said +Madame Deberle one day. “My dear, I’m quite tired out with the +whole affair. Now, you’ll be here at two o’clock, won’t you? +Jeanne will open the ball with Lucien.” +</p> + +<p> +And thereupon, surrendering to a flow of tenderness, in ecstasy over the +preparations for her ball, she embraced both children, and, laughingly catching +hold of Hélène, pressed two resounding kisses on her cheeks. +</p> + +<p> +“That’s my reward!” she exclaimed merrily. “You know I +deserve it; I have run about enough. You’ll see what a success it will +be!” +</p> + +<p> +But Hélène remained chilled to the heart, while the doctor, with Lucien +clinging to his neck, gazed at them over the child’s fair head. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0009"></a> CHAPTER IX.</h2> + +<p> +In the hall of the doctor’s house stood Pierre, in dress coat and white +cravat, throwing open the door as each carriage rolled up. Puffs of dank air +rushed in; the afternoon was rainy, and a yellow light illumined the narrow +hall, with its curtained doorways and array of green plants. It was only two +o’clock, but the evening seemed as near at hand as on a dismal +winter’s day. +</p> + +<p> +However, as soon as the servant opened the door of the first drawing-room, a +stream of light dazzled the guests. The shutters had been closed, and the +curtains carefully drawn, and no gleam from the dull sky could gain admittance. +The lamps standing here and there on the furniture, and the lighted candles of +the chandelier and the crystal wall-brackets, gave the apartment somewhat the +appearance of a brilliantly illuminated chapel. Beyond the smaller +drawing-room, whose green hangings rather softened the glare of the light, was +the large black-and-gold one, decorated as magnificently as for the ball which +Madame Deberle gave every year in the month of January. +</p> + +<p> +The children were beginning to arrive, while Pauline gave her attention to the +ranging of a number of chairs in front of the dining-room doorway, where the +door had been removed from its hinges and replaced by a red curtain. +</p> + +<p> +“Papa,” she cried, “just lend me a hand! We shall never be +ready.” +</p> + +<p> +Monsieur Letellier, who, with his arms behind his back, was gazing at the +chandelier, hastened to give the required assistance. Pauline carried the +chairs about herself. She had paid due deference to her sister’s request, +and was robed in white; only her dress opened squarely at the neck and +displayed her bosom. +</p> + +<p> +“At last we are ready,” she exclaimed: “they can come when +they like. But what is Juliette dreaming about? She has been ever so long +dressing Lucien!” +</p> + +<p> +Just at that moment Madame Deberle entered, leading the little marquis, and +everybody present began raising admiring remarks. “Oh! what a love! What +a darling he is!” His coat was of white satin embroidered with flowers, +his long waistcoat was embroidered with gold, and his knee-breeches were of +cherry-colored silk. Lace clustered round his chin, and delicate wrists. A +sword, a mere toy with a great rose-red knot, rattled against his hip. +</p> + +<p> +“Now you must do the honors,” his mother said to him, as she led +him into the outer room. +</p> + +<p> +For eight days past he had been repeating his lesson, and struck a cavalier +attitude with his little legs, his powdered head thrown slightly back, and his +cocked hat tucked under his left arm. As each of his lady-guests was ushered +into the room, he bowed low, offered his arm, exchanged courteous greetings, +and returned to the threshold. Those near him laughed over his intense +seriousness in which there was a dash of effrontery. This was the style in +which he received Marguerite Tissot, a little lady five years old, dressed in a +charming milkmaid costume, with a milk-can hanging at her side; so too did he +greet the Berthier children, Blanche and Sophie, the one masquerading as Folly, +the other dressed in soubrette style; and he had even the hardihood to tackle +Valentine de Chermette, a tall young lady of some fourteen years, whom her +mother always dressed in Spanish costume, and at her side his figure appeared +so slight that she seemed to be carrying him along. However, he was profoundly +embarrassed in the presence of the Levasseur family, which numbered five girls, +who made their appearance in a row of increasing height, the youngest being +scarcely two years old, while the eldest was ten. All five were arrayed in Red +Riding-Hood costumes, their head-dresses and gowns being in poppy-colored satin +with black velvet bands, with which their lace aprons strikingly contrasted. At +last Lucien, making up his mind, bravely flung away his three-cornered hat, and +led the two elder girls, one hanging on each arm, into the drawing-room, +closely followed by the three others. There was a good deal of laughter at it, +but the little man never lost his self-possession for a moment. +</p> + +<p> +In the meantime Madame Deberle was taking her sister to task in a corner. +</p> + +<p> +“Good gracious! is it possible! what a fearfully low-necked dress you are +wearing!” +</p> + +<p> +“Dear, dear! what have I done now? Papa hasn’t said a word,” +answered Pauline coolly. “If you’re anxious, I’ll put some +flowers at my breast.” +</p> + +<p> +She plucked a handful of blossoms from a flower-stand where they were growing +and allowed them to nestle in her bosom; while Madame Deberle was surrounded by +several mammas in stylish visiting-dresses, who were already profuse in their +compliments about her ball. As Lucien was passing them, his mother arranged a +loose curl of his powdered hair, while he stood on tip-toe to whisper in her +ear: +</p> + +<p> +“Where’s Jeanne?” +</p> + +<p> +“She will be here immediately, my darling. Take good care not to fall. +Run away, there comes little Mademoiselle Guiraud. Ah! she is wearing an +Alsatian costume.” +</p> + +<p> +The drawing-room was now filling rapidly; the rows of chairs fronting the red +curtain were almost all occupied, and a hubbub of children’s voices was +rising. The boys were flocking into the room in groups. There were already +three Harlequins, four Punches, a Figaro, some Tyrolese peasants, and a few +Highlanders. Young Master Berthier was dressed as a page. Little Guiraud, a +mere bantling of two-and-a-half summers, wore his clown’s costume in so +comical a style that every one as he passed lifted him up and kissed him. +</p> + +<p> +“Here comes Jeanne,” exclaimed Madame Deberle, all at once. +“Oh, she is lovely!” +</p> + +<p> +A murmur ran round the room; heads were bent forward, and every one gave vent +to exclamations of admiration. Jeanne was standing on the threshold of the +outer room, awaiting her mother, who was taking off her cloak in the hall. The +child was robed in a Japanese dress of unusual splendor. The gown, embroidered +with flowers and strange-looking birds, swept to her feet, which were hidden +from view; while beneath her broad waist-ribbon the flaps, drawn aside, gave a +glimpse of a green petticoat, watered with yellow. Nothing could be more +strangely bewitching than her delicate features seen under the shadow of her +hair, coiled above her head with long pins thrust through it, while her chin +and oblique eyes, small and sparkling, pictured to the life a young lady of +Yeddo, strolling amidst the perfume of tea and benzoin. And she lingered there +hesitatingly, with all the sickly languor of a tropical flower pining for the +land of its birth. +</p> + +<p> +Behind her, however, appeared Hélène. Both, in thus suddenly passing from the +dull daylight of the street into the brilliant glare of the wax candles, +blinked their eyes as though blinded, while their faces were irradiated with +smiles. The rush of warm air and the perfumes, the scent of violets rising +above all else, almost stifled them, and brought a flush of red to their +cheeks. Each guest, on passing the doorway, wore a similar air of surprise and +hesitancy. +</p> + +<p> +“Why, Lucien! where are you?” exclaimed Madame Deberle. +</p> + +<p> +The boy had not caught sight of Jeanne. But now he rushed forward and seized +her arm, forgetting to make his bow. And they were so dainty, so loving, the +little marquis in his flowered coat, and the Japanese maiden in her purple +embroidered gown, that they might have been taken for two statuettes of Dresden +china, daintily gilded and painted, into which life had been suddenly infused. +</p> + +<p> +“You know, I was waiting for you,” whispered Lucien. “Oh, it +is so nasty to give everybody my arm! Of course, we’ll keep beside each +other, eh?” +</p> + +<p> +And he sat himself down with her in the first row of chairs, wholly oblivious +of his duties as host. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, I was so uneasy!” purred Juliette into Hélène’s ear. +“I was beginning to fear that Jeanne had been taken ill.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène proffered apology; dressing children, said she, meant endless labor. She +was still standing in a corner of the drawing-room, one of a cluster of ladies, +when her heart told her that the doctor was approaching behind her. He was +making his way from behind the red curtain, beneath which he had dived to give +some final instructions. But suddenly he came to a standstill. He, too, had +divined her presence, though she had not yet turned her head. Attired in a +dress of black grenadine, she had never appeared more queenly in her beauty; +and a thrill passed through him as he breathed the cool air which she had +brought with her from outside, and wafted from her shoulders and arms, gleaming +white under their transparent covering. +</p> + +<p> +“Henri has no eyes for anybody,” exclaimed Pauline, with a laugh. +“Ah, good-day, Henri!” +</p> + +<p> +Thereupon he advanced towards the group of ladies, with a courteous greeting. +Mademoiselle Aurelie, who was amongst them, engaged his attention for the +moment to point out to him a nephew whom she had brought with her. He was all +complaisance. Hélène, without speaking, gave him her hand, encased in its black +glove, but he dared not clasp it with marked force. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! here you are!” said Madame Deberle, as she appeared beside +them. “I have been looking for you everywhere. It is nearly three +o’clock; they had better begin.” +</p> + +<p> +“Certainly; at once,” was his reply. +</p> + +<p> +The drawing-room was now crowded. All round it, in the brilliant glare thrown +from the chandelier, sat the fathers and mothers, their walking costumes +serving to fringe the circle with less vivid colors. Some ladies, drawing their +chairs together, formed groups; men standing motionless along the walls filled +up the gaps; while in the doorway leading to the next room a cluster of +frock-coated guests could be seen crowding together and peering over each +other’s shoulders. The light fell wholly on the little folks, noisy in +their glee, as they rustled about in their seats in the centre of the large +room. There were almost a hundred children packed together; in an endless +variety of gay costumes, bright with blue and red. It was like a sea of fair +heads, varying from pale yellow to ruddy gold, with here and there bows and +flowers gleaming vividly—or like a field of ripe grain, spangled with +poppies and cornflowers, and waving to and fro as though stirred by a breeze. +At times, amidst this confusion of ribbons and lace, of silk and velvet, a face +was turned round—a pink nose, a pair of blue eyes, a smiling or pouting +little mouth. There were some, no higher than one’s boots, who were +buried out of sight between big lads of ten years of age, and whom their +mothers sought from a distance, but in vain. A few of the boys looked bored and +foolish by the side of girls who were busy spreading out their skirts. Some, +however, were already very venturesome, jogging the elbows of their fair +neighbors with whom they were unacquainted, and laughing in their faces. But +the royalty of the gathering remained with the girls, some of whom, clustering +in groups, stirred about in such a way as to threaten destruction to their +chairs, and chattered so loudly that the grown-up folks could no longer hear +one another speaking. And all eyes were intently gazing at the red curtain. +</p> + +<p> +Slowly was it drawn aside, and in the recess of the doorway appeared a +puppet-show. There was a hushed silence. Then all at once Punch sprang in, with +so ferocious a yell that baby Guiraud could not restrain a responsive cry of +terror and delight. It was one of those bloodthirsty dramas in which Punch, +having administered a sound beating to the magistrate, murders the policeman, +and tramples with ferocious glee on every law, human and divine. At every +cudgelling bestowed on the wooden heads the pitiless audience went into shrieks +of laughter; and the sharp thrusts delivered by the puppets at each +other’s breasts, the duels in which they beat a tattoo on one +another’s skulls as though they were empty pumpkins, the awful havoc of +legs and arms, reducing the characters to a jelly, served to increase the roars +of laughter which rang out from all sides. But the climax of enjoyment was +reached when Punch sawed off the policeman’s head on the edge of the +stage; an operation provocative of such hysterical mirth that the rows of +juveniles were plunged into confusion, swaying to and fro with glee till they +all but fell on one another. One tiny girl, but four years old, all pink and +white, considered the spectacle so entrancing that she pressed her little hands +devoutly to her heart. Others burst into applause, while the boys laughed, with +mouths agape, their deeper voices mingling with the shrill peals from the +girls. +</p> + +<p> +“How amused they are!” whispered the doctor. He had returned to his +place near Hélène. She was in high spirits like the children. Behind her, he +sat inhaling the intoxicating perfume which came from her hair. And as one +puppet on the stage dealt another an exceptionally hard knock she turned to him +and exclaimed: “Do you know, it is awfully funny!” +</p> + +<p> +The youngsters, crazy with excitement, were now interfering with the action of +the drama. They were giving answers to the various characters. One young lady, +who must have been well up in the plot, was busy explaining what would next +happen. +</p> + +<p> +“He’ll beat his wife to death in a minute! Now they are going to +hang him!” +</p> + +<p> +The youngest of the Levasseur girls, who was two years old, shrieked out all at +once: +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma, mamma, will they put him on bread and water?” +</p> + +<p> +All sorts of exclamations and reflections followed. Meanwhile Hélène, gazing +into the crowd of children, remarked: “I cannot see Jeanne. Is she +enjoying herself?” +</p> + +<p> +Then the doctor bent forward, with head perilously near her own, and whispered: +“There she is, between that harlequin and the Norman peasant maiden! You +can see the pins gleaming in her hair. She is laughing very heartily.” +</p> + +<p> +He still leaned towards her, her cool breath playing on his cheek. Till now no +confession had escaped them; preserving silence, their intimacy had only been +marred for a few days past by a vague sensation of discomfort. But amidst these +bursts of happy laughter, gazing upon the little folks before her, Hélène +became once more, in sooth, a very child, surrendering herself to her feelings, +while Henri’s breath beat warm upon her neck. The whacks from the cudgel, +now louder than ever, filled her with a quiver which inflated her bosom, and +she turned towards him with sparkling eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“Good heavens! what nonsense it all is!” she said each time. +“See how they hit one another!” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! their heads are hard enough!” he replied, trembling. +</p> + +<p> +This was all his heart could find to say. Their minds were fast lapsing into +childhood once more. Punch’s unedifying life was fostering languor within +their breasts. When the drama drew to its close with the appearance of the +devil, and the final fight and general massacre ensued, Hélène in leaning back +pressed against Henri’s hand, which was resting on the back of her +arm-chair; while the juvenile audience, shouting and clapping their hands, made +the very chairs creak with their enthusiasm. +</p> + +<p> +The red curtain dropped again, and the uproar was at its height when +Malignon’s presence was announced by Pauline, in her customary style: +“Ah! here’s the handsome Malignon!” +</p> + +<p> +He made his way into the room, shoving the chairs aside, quite out of breath. +</p> + +<p> +“Dear me! what a funny idea to close the shutters!” he exclaimed, +surprised and hesitating. “People might imagine that somebody in the +house was dead.” Then, turning towards Madame Deberle, who was +approaching him, he continued: “Well, you can boast of having made me run +about! Ever since the morning I have been hunting for Perdiguet; you know whom +I mean, my singer fellow. But I haven’t been able to lay my hands on him, +and I have brought you the great Morizot instead.” +</p> + +<p> +The great Morizot was an amateur who entertained drawing-rooms by conjuring +with juggler-balls. A gipsy table was assigned to him, and on this he +accomplished his most wonderful tricks; but it all passed off without the +spectators evincing the slightest interest. The poor little darlings were +pulling serious faces; some of the tinier mites fell fast asleep, sucking their +thumbs. The older children turned their heads and smiled towards their parents, +who were themselves yawning behind their hands. There was thus a general +feeling of relief when the great Morizot decided to take his table away. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! he’s awfully clever,” whispered Malignon into Madame +Deberle’s neck. +</p> + +<p> +But the red curtain was drawn aside once again, and an entrancing spectacle +brought all the little folks to their feet. +</p> + +<p> +Along the whole extent of the dining-room stretched the table, laid and +bedecked as for a grand dinner, and illumined by the bright radiance of the +central lamp and a pair of large candelabra. There were fifty covers laid; in +the middle and at either end were shallow baskets, full of flowers; between +these towered tall <i>epergnes</i>, filled to overflowing with crackers in +gilded and colored paper. Then there were mountains of decorated cakes, +pyramids of iced fruits, piles of sandwiches, and, less prominent, a whole host +of symmetrically disposed plates, bearing sweetmeats and pastry: buns, cream +puffs, and <i>brioches</i> alternating with dry biscuits, cracknals, and fancy +almond cakes. Jellies were quivering in their glass dishes. Whipped creams +waited in porcelain bowls. And round the table sparkled the silver helmets of +champagne bottles, no higher than one’s hand, made specially to suit the +little guests. It all looked like one of those gigantic feasts which children +conjure up in dreamland—a feast served with the solemnity that attends a +repast of grown-up folks—a fairy transformation of the table to which +their own parents sat down, and on which the horns of plenty of innumerable +pastry-cooks and toy dealers had been emptied. +</p> + +<p> +“Come, come, give the ladies your arms!” said Madame Deberle, her +face covered with smiles as she watched the delight of the children. +</p> + +<p> +But the filing off in couples proved a lure. Lucien, who had triumphantly taken +Jeanne’s arm, went first. But the others following behind fell somewhat +into confusion, and the mothers were forced to come and assign them places, +remaining close at hand, especially behind the babies, whom they watched lest +any mischance should befall them. Truth to tell, the guests at first seemed +rather uncomfortable; they looked at one another, felt afraid to lay hands on +the good things, and were vaguely disquieted by this new social organization in +which everything appeared to be topsy-turvy, the children seated at table while +their parents remained standing. At length the older ones gained confidence and +commenced the attack. And when the mothers entered into the fray, and cut up +the large cakes, helping those in their vicinity, the feast speedily became +very animated and noisy. The exquisite symmetry of the table was destroyed as +though by a tempest. The two Berthier girls, Blanche and Sophie, laughed at the +sight of their plates, which had been filled with something of +everything—jam, custard, cake, and fruit. The five young ladies of the +Levasseur family took sole possession of a corner laden with dainties, while +Valentine, proud of her fourteen years, acted the lady’s part, and looked +after the comfort of her little neighbors. Lucien, however, impatient to +display his politeness, uncorked a bottle of champagne, but in so clumsy a way +that the whole contents spurted over his cherry silk breeches. There was quite +a to-do about it. +</p> + +<p> +“Kindly leave the bottles alone! I am to uncork the champagne,” +shouted Pauline. +</p> + +<p> +She bustled about in an extraordinary fashion, purely for her own amusement. On +the entry of a servant with the chocolate pot, she seized it and filled the +cups with the greatest glee, as active in the performance as any restaurant +waiter. Next she took round some ices and glasses of syrup and water, set them +down for a moment to stuff a little baby-girl who had been overlooked, and then +went off again, asking every one questions. +</p> + +<p> +“What is it you wish, my pet? Eh? A cake? Yes, my darling, wait a moment; +I am going to pass you the oranges. Now eat away, you little stupids, you shall +play afterwards.” +</p> + +<p> +Madame Deberle, calm and dignified, declared that they ought to be left alone, +and would acquit themselves very well. +</p> + +<p> +At one end of the room sat Hélène and some other ladies laughing at the scene +which the table presented; all the rosy mouths were eating with the full +strength of their beautiful white teeth. And nothing could eclipse in drollery +the occasional lapses from the polished behavior of well-bred children to the +outrageous freaks of young savages. With both hands gripping their glasses, +they drank to the very dregs, smeared their faces, and stained their dresses. +The clamor grew worse. The last of the dishes were plundered. Jeanne herself +began dancing on her chair as she heard the strains of a quadrille coming from +the drawing-room; and on her mother approaching to upbraid her with having +eaten too much, she replied: “Oh! mamma, I feel so happy to-day!” +</p> + +<p> +But now the other children were rising as they heard the music. Slowly the +table thinned, until there only remained a fat, chubby infant right in the +middle. He seemingly cared little for the attractions of the piano; with a +napkin round his neck, and his chin resting on the tablecloth—for he was +a mere chit—he opened his big eyes, and protruded his lips each time that +his mamma offered him a spoonful of chocolate. The contents of the cup +vanished, and he licked his lips as the last mouthful went down his throat, +with eyes more agape than ever. +</p> + +<p> +“By Jove! my lad, you eat heartily!” exclaimed Malignon, who was +watching him with a thoughtful air. +</p> + +<p> +Now came the division of the “surprise” packets. Each child, on +leaving the table, bore away one of the large gilt paper twists, the coverings +of which were hastily torn off and from them poured forth a host of toys, +grotesque hats made of tissue paper, birds and butterflies. But the joy of joys +was the possession of a cracker. Every “surprise” packet had its +cracker; and these the lads pulled at gallantly, delighted with the noise, +while the girls shut their eyes, making many tries before the explosion took +place. For a time the sharp crackling of all this musketry alone could be +heard; and the uproar was still lasting when the children returned to the +drawing-room, where lively quadrille music resounded from the piano. +</p> + +<p> +“I could enjoy a cake,” murmured Mademoiselle Aurelie, as she sat +down. +</p> + +<p> +At the table, which was now deserted, but covered with all the litter of the +huge feast, a few ladies—some dozen or so, who had preferred to wait till +the children had retired—now sat down. As no servant could be found, +Malignon bustled hither and thither in attendance. He poured out all that +remained in the chocolate pot, shook up the dregs of the bottles, and was even +successful in discovering some ices. But amidst all these gallant doings of +his, he could not quit one idea, and that was—why had they decided on +closing the shutters? +</p> + +<p> +“You know,” he asserted, “the place looks like a +cellar.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène had remained standing, engaged in conversation with Madame Deberle. As +the latter directed her steps towards the drawing-room, her companion prepared +to follow, when she felt a gentle touch. Behind her was the doctor, smiling; he +was ever near her. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you not going to take anything?” he asked. And the trivial +question cloaked so earnest an entreaty that her heart was filled with profound +emotion. She knew well enough that each of his words was eloquent of another +thing. The excitement springing from the gaiety which pulsed around her was +slowly gaining on her. Some of the fever of all these little folks, now dancing +and shouting, coursed in her own veins. With flushed cheeks and sparkling eyes, +she at first declined. +</p> + +<p> +“No, thank you, nothing at all.” +</p> + +<p> +But he pressed her, and in the end, ill at ease and anxious to get rid of him, +she yielded. “Well, then, a cup of tea.” +</p> + +<p> +He hurried off and returned with the cup, his hands trembling as he handed it +to her. While she was sipping the tea he drew nearer to her, his lips quivering +nervously with the confession springing from his heart. She in her turn drew +back from him, and, returning him the empty cup, made her escape while he was +placing it on a sideboard, thus leaving him alone in the dining-room with +Mademoiselle Aurelie, who was slowly masticating, and subjecting each dish in +succession to a close scrutiny. +</p> + +<p> +Within the drawing-room the piano was sending forth its loudest strains, and +from end to end of the floor swept the ball with its charming drolleries. A +circle of onlookers had gathered round the quadrille party with which Lucien +and Jeanne were dancing. The little marquis became rather mixed over the +figures; he only got on well when he had occasion to take hold of Jeanne; and +then he gripped her by the waist and whirled around. Jeanne preserved her +equilibrium, somewhat vexed by his rumpling her dress; but the delights of the +dance taking full possession of her, she caught hold of him in her turn and +lifted him off his feet. The white satin coat embroidered with nosegays mingled +with the folds of the gown woven with flowers and strange birds, and the two +little figures of old Dresden ware assumed all the grace and novelty of some +whatnot ornaments. The quadrille over, Hélène summoned Jeanne to her side, in +order to rearrange her dress. +</p> + +<p> +“It is his fault, mamma,” was the little one’s excuse. +“He rubs against me—he’s a dreadful nuisance.” +</p> + +<p> +Around the drawing-room the faces of the parents were wreathed with smiles. As +soon as the music began again all the little ones were once more in motion. +Seeing, however, that they were observed they felt distrustful, remained grave, +and checked their leaps in order to keep up appearances. Some of them knew how +to dance; but the majority were ignorant of the steps, and their limbs were +evidently a source of embarrassment to them. But Pauline interposed: “I +must see to them! Oh, you little stupids!” +</p> + +<p> +She threw herself into the midst of the quadrille, caught hold of two of them, +one grasping her right hand the other her left, and managed to infuse such life +into the dance that the wooden flooring creaked beneath them. The only sounds +now audible rose from the hurrying hither and thither of tiny feet beating +wholly out of time, the piano alone keeping to the dance measure. Some more of +the older people joined in the fun. Hélène and Madame Deberle, noticing some +little maids who were too bashful to venture forth, dragged them into the +thickest of the throng. It was they who led the figures, pushed the lads +forward, and arranged the dancing in rings; and the mothers passed them the +youngest of the babies, so that they might make them skip about for a moment, +holding them the while by both hands. The ball was now at its height. The +dancers enjoyed themselves to their hearts’ content, laughing and pushing +each other about like some boarding school mad with glee over the absence of +the teacher. Nothing, truly, could surpass in unalloyed gaiety this carnival of +youngsters, this assemblage of miniature men and women—akin to a +veritable microcosm, wherein the fashions of every people mingled with the +fantastic creations of romance and drama. The ruddy lips and blue eyes, the +faces breathing love, invested the dresses with the fresh purity of childhood. +The scene realized to the mind the merrymaking of a fairy-tale to which trooped +Cupids in disguise to honor the betrothal of some Prince Charming. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m stifling!” exclaimed Malignon. “I’m off to +inhale some fresh air.” +</p> + +<p> +As he left the drawing-room he threw the door wide open. The daylight from the +street then entered in a lurid stream, bedimming the glare of lamps and +candles. In this fashion every quarter of an hour Malignon opened the door to +let in some fresh air. +</p> + +<p> +Still there was no cessation of the piano-playing. Little Guiraud, in her +Alsatian costume, with a butterfly of black ribbon in her golden hair, swung +round in the dance with a harlequin twice her height. A Highlander whirled +Marguerite Tissot round so madly that she lost her milk-pail. The two Berthier +girls, Blanche and Sophie, who were inseparables, were dancing together; the +soubrette in the arms of Folly, whose bells were jingling merrily. A glance +could not be thrown over the assemblage without one of the Levasseur girls +coming into view; the Red Riding-Hoods seemed to increase in number; caps and +gowns of gleaming red satin slashed with black velvet everywhere leaped into +sight. Meanwhile some of the older boys and girls had found refuge in the +adjacent saloon, where they could dance more at their ease. Valentine de +Chermette, cloaked in the mantilla of a Spanish senorita, was executing some +marvellous steps in front of a young gentleman who had donned evening dress. +Suddenly there was a burst of laughter which drew every one to the sight; +behind a door in a corner, baby Guiraud, the two-year-old clown, and a mite of +a girl of his own age, in peasant costume, were holding one another in a tight +embrace for fear of tumbling, and gyrating round and round like a pair of +slyboots, with cheek pressed to cheek. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m quite done up,” remarked Hélène, as she leaned against +the dining-room door. +</p> + +<p> +She fanned her face, flushed with her exertions in the dance. Her bosom rose +and fell beneath the transparent grenadine of her bodice. And she was still +conscious of Henri’s breath beating on her shoulders; he was still close +to her—ever behind her. Now it flashed on her that he would speak, yet +she had no strength to flee from his avowal. He came nearer and whispered, +breathing on her hair: “I love you! oh, how I love you!” +</p> + +<p> +She tingled from head to foot, as though a gust of flame had beaten on her. O +God! he had spoken; she could no longer feign the pleasurable quietude of +ignorance. She hid behind her fan, her face purple with blushes. The children, +whirling madly in the last of the quadrilles, were making the floor ring with +the beating of their feet. There were silvery peals of laughter, and bird-like +voices gave vent to exclamations of pleasure. A freshness arose from all that +band of innocents galloping round and round like little demons. +</p> + +<p> +“I love you! oh, how I love you!” +</p> + +<p> +She shuddered again; she would listen no further. With dizzy brain she fled +into the dining-room, but it was deserted, save that Monsieur Letellier sat on +a chair, peacefully sleeping. Henri had followed her, and had the hardihood to +seize her wrists even at the risk of a scandal, his face convulsed with such +passion that she trembled before him. And he still repeated the words: +</p> + +<p> +“I love you! I love you!” +</p> + +<p> +“Leave me,” she murmured faintly. “You are mad—” +</p> + +<p> +And, close by, the dancing still went on, with the trampling of tiny feet. +Blanche Berthier’s bells could be heard ringing in unison with the softer +notes of the piano; Madame Deberle and Pauline were clapping their hands, by +way of beating time. It was a polka, and Hélène caught a glimpse of Jeanne and +Lucien, as they passed by smiling, with arms clasped round each other. +</p> + +<p> +But with a sudden jerk she freed herself and fled to an adjacent room—a +pantry into which streamed the daylight. That sudden brightness blinded her. +She was terror-stricken—she dared not return to the drawing-room with the +tale of passion written so legibly on her face. So, hastily crossing the +garden, she climbed to her own home, the noises of the ball-room still ringing +in her ears. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0010"></a> CHAPTER X.</h2> + +<p> +Upstairs, in her own room, in the peaceful, convent-like atmosphere she found +there, Hélène experienced a feeling of suffocation. Her room astonished her, so +calm, so secluded, so drowsy did it seem with its blue velvet hangings, while +she came to it hotly panting with the emotion which thrilled her. Was this +indeed her room, this dreary, lifeless nook, devoid of air? Hastily she threw +open a window, and leaned out to gaze on Paris. +</p> + +<p> +The rain had ceased, and the clouds were trooping off like some herd of +monsters hurrying in disorderly array into the gloom of the horizon. A blue +gap, that grew larger by degrees, had opened up above the city. But Hélène, her +elbows trembling on the window-rail, still breathless from her hasty ascent, +saw nothing, and merely heard her heart beating against her swelling breast. +She drew a long breath, but it seemed to her that the spreading valley with its +river, its two millions of people, its immense city, its distant hills, could +not hold air enough to enable her to breathe peacefully and regularly again. +</p> + +<p> +For some minutes she remained there distracted by the fever of passion which +possessed her. It seemed as though a torrent of sensations and confused ideas +were pouring down on her, their roar preventing her from hearing her own voice +or understanding aught. There was a buzzing in her ears, and large spots of +light swam slowly before her eyes. Then she suddenly found herself examining +her gloved hands, and remembering that she had omitted to sew on a button that +had come off the left-hand glove. And afterwards she spoke aloud, repeating +several times, in tones that grew fainter and fainter: “I love you! I +love you! oh, how I love you!” +</p> + +<p> +Instinctively she buried her face in her hands, and pressed her fingers to her +eyelids as though to intensify the darkness in which she sought to plunge. It +was a wish to annihilate herself, to see no more, to be utterly alone, girt in +by the gloom of night. Her breathing grew calmer. Paris blew its mighty breath +upon her face; she knew it lay before her, and though she had no wish to look +on it, she felt full of terror at the thought of leaving the window, and of no +longer having beneath her that city whose vastness lulled her to rest. +</p> + +<p> +Ere long she grew unmindful of all around her. The love-scene and confession, +despite her efforts, again woke to life in her mind. In the inky darkness Henri +appeared to her, every feature so distinct and vivid that she could perceive +the nervous twitching of his lips. He came nearer and hung over her. And then +she wildly darted back. But, nevertheless, she felt a burning breath on her +shoulders and a voice exclaimed: “I love you! I love you!” With a +mighty effort she put the phantom to flight, but it again took shape in the +distance, and slowly swelled to its whilom proportions; it was Henri once more +following her into the dining-room, and still murmuring: “I love you! I +love you!” These words rang within her breast with the sonorous clang of +a bell; she no longer heard anything but them, pealing their loudest throughout +her frame. Nevertheless, she desired to reflect, and again strove to escape +from the apparition. He had spoken; never would she dare to look on his face +again. The brutal passion of the man had tainted the tenderness of their love. +She conjured up past hours, in which he had loved her without being so cruel as +to say it; hours spent in the garden amidst the tranquillity of the budding +springtime God! he had spoken—the thought clung to her so stubbornly, +lowered on her in such immensity and with such weight, that the instant +destruction of Paris by a thunderbolt before her eyes would have seemed a +trivial matter. Her heart was rent by feelings of indignant protest and haughty +anger, commingling with a secret and unconquerable pleasure, which ascended +from her inner being and bereft her of her senses. He had spoken, and was +speaking still, he sprang up unceasingly before her, uttering those passionate +words: “I love you! I love you!”—words that swept into +oblivion all her past life as wife and mother. +</p> + +<p> +In spite of her brooding over this vision, she retained some consciousness of +the vast expanse which stretched beneath her, beyond the darkness that +curtained her sight. A loud rumbling arose, and waves of life seemed to surge +up and circle around her. Echoes, odors, and even light streamed against her +face, though her hands were still nervously pressed to it. At times sudden +gleams appeared to pierce her closed eyelids, and amidst the radiance she +imagined she saw monuments, steeples, and domes standing out in the diffuse +light of dreamland. Then she lowered her hands and, opening her eyes, was +dazzled. The vault of heaven expanded before her, and Henri had vanished. +</p> + +<p> +A line of clouds, a seeming mass of crumbling chalk-hills, now barred the +horizon far away. Across the pure, deep blue heavens overhead, merely a few +light, fleecy cloudlets were slowly drifting, like a flotilla of vessels with +full-blown sails. On the north, above Montmartre, hung a network of extreme +delicacy, fashioned as it were of pale-hued silk, and spread over a patch of +sky as though for fishing in those tranquil waters. Westward, however, in the +direction of the slopes of Meudon, which Hélène could not see, the last drops +of the downpour must still have been obscuring the sun, for, though the sky +above was clear, Paris remained gloomy, dismal beneath the vapor of the drying +house-roofs. It was a city of uniform hue—the bluey-grey of slate, +studded with black patches of trees—but withal very distinct, with the +sharp outlines and innumberable windows of its houses. The Seine gleamed with +the subdued brightness of old silver. The edifices on either bank looked as +though they had been smeared with soot. The Tower of St. Jacques rose up like +some rust-eaten museum curio, whilst the Panthéon assumed the aspect of a +gigantic catafalque above the darkened district which it overlooked. Gleams of +light peeped only from the gilding of the dome of the Invalides, like lamps +burning in the daytime, sad and vague amidst the crepuscular veil of mourning +in which the city was draped. All the usual effects of distance had vanished; +Paris resembled a huge yet minutely executed charcoal drawing, showing very +vigorously through its cloudy veil, under the limpid heavens. +</p> + +<p> +Gazing upon this dismal city, Hélène reflected that she really knew nothing of +Henri. She felt strong and brave now that his image no longer pursued her. A +rebellious impulse stirred her soul to reject the mastery which this man had +gained over her within a few weeks. No, she did not know him. She knew nothing +of him, of his actions or his thoughts; she could not even have determined +whether he possessed talent. Perhaps he was even more lacking in qualities of +the heart than of the mind. And thus she gave way to every imagining, her heart +full of bitterness, ever finding herself confronted by her ignorance, that +barrier which separated her from Henri, and checked her in her efforts to know +him. She knew nothing, she would never know anything. She pictured him, hissing +out those burning words, and creating within her the one trouble which had, +till now, broken in on the quiet happiness of her life. Whence had he sprung to +lay her life desolate in this fashion? She suddenly thought that but six weeks +before she had had no existence for him, and this thought was insufferable. +Angels in heaven! to live no more for one another, to pass each other without +recognition, perhaps never to meet again! In her despair she clasped her hands, +and her eyes filled with tears. +</p> + +<p> +Then Hélène gazed fixedly on the towers of Notre-Dame in the far distance. A +ray of light from between two clouds tinged them with gold. Her brain was +heavy, as though surcharged with all the tumultuous thoughts hurtling within +it. It made her suffer; she would fain have concerned herself with the sight of +Paris, and have sought to regain her life-peace by turning on that sea of roofs +the tranquil glances of past days. To think that at other times, at the same +hour, the infinitude of the city—in the stillness of a lovely +twilight—had lulled her into tender musing! +</p> + +<p> +At present Paris was brightening in the sunshine. After the first ray had +fallen on Notre-Dame, others had followed, streaming across the city. The +luminary, dipping in the west, rent the clouds asunder, and the various +districts spread out, motly with ever-changing lights and shadows. For a time +the whole of the left bank was of a leaden hue, while the right was speckled +with spots of light which made the verge of the river resemble the skin of some +huge beast of prey. Then these resemblances varied and vanished at the mercy of +the wind, which drove the clouds before it. Above the burnished gold of the +housetops dark patches floated, all in the same direction and with the same +gentle and silent motion. Some of them were very large, sailing along with all +the majestic grace of an admiral’s ship, and surrounded by smaller ones, +preserving the regular order of a squadron in line of battle. Then one vast +shadow, with a gap yawning like a serpent’s mouth, trailed along, and for +a while hid Paris, which it seemed ready to devour. And when it had reached the +far-off horizon, looking no larger than a worm, a gush of light streamed from a +rift in a cloud, and fell into the void which it had left. The golden cascade +could be seen descending first like a thread of fine sand, then swelling into a +huge cone, and raining in a continuous shower on the Champs-Elysees district, +which it inundated with a splashing, dancing radiance. For a long time did this +shower of sparks descend, spraying continuously like a fusee. +</p> + +<p> +Ah, well! this love was her fate, and Hélène ceased to resist. She could battle +no longer against her feelings. And in ceasing to struggle she tasted +immeasurable delight. Why should she grudge herself happiness any longer? The +memory of her past life inspired her with disgust and aversion. How had she +been able to drag on that cold, dreary existence, of which she was formerly so +proud? A vision rose before her of herself as a young girl living in the Rue +des Petites-Maries, at Marseilles, where she had ever shivered; she saw herself +a wife, her heart’s blood frozen in the companionship of a big child of a +husband, with little to take any interest in, apart from the cares of her +household; she saw herself through every hour of her life following the same +path with the same even tread, without a trouble to mar her peace; and now this +monotony in which she had lived, her heart fast asleep, enraged her beyond +expression. To think that she had fancied herself happy in thus following her +path for thirty years, her passions silent, with naught but the pride of virtue +to fill the blank in her existence. How she had cheated herself with her +integrity and nice honor, which had girt her round with the empty joys of +piety! No, no; she had had enough of it; she wished to live! And an awful +spirit of ridicule woke within her as she thought of the behests of reason. Her +reason, forsooth! she felt a contemptuous pity for it; during all the years she +had lived it had brought her no joy to be compared with that she had tasted +during the past hour. She had denied the possibility of stumbling, she had been +vain and idiotic enough to think that she would go on to the end without her +foot once tripping against a stone. Ah, well! to-day she almost longed to fall. +Oh that she might disappear, after tasting for one moment the happiness which +she had never enjoyed! +</p> + +<p> +Within her soul, however, a great sorrow lingered, a heart-burning and a +consciousness of a gloomy blank. Then argument rose to her lips. Was she not +free? In her love for Henri she deceived nobody; she could deal as she pleased +with her love. Then, did not everything exculpate her? What had been her life +for nearly two years? Her widowhood, her unrestricted liberty, her +loneliness—everything, she realized, had softened and prepared her for +love. Love must have been smouldering within her during the long evenings spent +between her two old friends, the Abbé and his brother, those simple hearts +whose serenity had lulled it to rest; it had been growing whilst she remained +shut up within those narrow walls, far away from the world, and gazed on Paris +rumbling noisily on the horizon; it had been growing even when she leaned from +that window in the dreamy mood which she had scarce been conscious of, but +which little by little had rendered her so weak. And a recollection came to her +of that radiant spring morning when Paris had shone out fair and clear, as +though in a glass mirror, when it had worn the pure, sunny hue of childhood, as +she lazily surveyed it, stretched in her easy-chair with a book upon her knees. +That morning love had first awoke—a scarcely perceptible feeling that she +had been unable to define, and against which she had believed herself strongly +armed. To-day she was in the same place, but devoured by overpowering passion, +while before her eyes the dying sun illumined the city with flame. It seemed to +her that one day had sufficed for all, that this was the ruddy evening +following upon that limpid morning; and she imagined she could feel those fiery +beams scorching her heart. +</p> + +<p> +But a change had come over the sky. The sun, in its descent towards the slopes +of Meudon, had just burst through the last clouds in all its splendor. The +azure vault was illuminated with glory; deep on the horizon the crumbling ridge +of chalk clouds, blotting out the distant suburbs of Charenton and +Choisy-le-Roi, now reared rocks of a tender pink, outlined with brilliant +crimson; the flotilla of cloudlets drifting slowly through the blue above +Paris, was decked with purple sails; while the delicate network, seemingly +fashioned of white silk thread, above Montmartre, was suddenly transformed into +golden cord, whose meshes would snare the stars as soon as they should rise. +</p> + +<p> +Beneath the flaming vault of heaven lay Paris, a mass of yellow, striped with +huge shadows. On the vast square below Hélène, in an orange-tinted haze, cabs +and omnibuses crossed in all directions, amidst a crowd of pedestrians, whose +swarming blackness was softened and irradiated by splashes of light. The +students of a seminary were hurrying in serried ranks along the Quai de Billy, +and the trail of cassocks acquired an ochraceous hue in the diffuse light. +Farther away, vehicles and foot-passengers faded from view; it was only by +their gleaming lamps that you were made aware of the vehicles which, one behind +the other, were crossing some distant bridge. On the left the straight, lofty, +pink chimneys of the Army Bakehouse were belching forth whirling clouds of +flesh-tinted smoke; whilst, across the river, the beautiful elms of the Quai +d’Orsay rose up in a dark mass transpierced by shafts of light. +</p> + +<p> +The Seine, whose banks the oblique rays were enfilading, was rolling dancing +wavelets, streaked with scattered splashes of blue, green, and yellow; but +farther up the river, in lieu of this blotchy coloring, suggestive of an +Eastern sea, the waters assumed a uniform golden hue, which became more and +more dazzling. You might have thought that some ingot were pouring forth from +an invisible crucible on the horizon, broadening out with a coruscation of +bright colors as it gradually grew colder. And at intervals over this brilliant +stream, the bridges, with curves growing ever more slender and delicate, threw, +as it were, grey bars, till there came at last a fiery jumble of houses, above +which rose the towers of Notre-Dame, flaring red like torches. Right and left +alike the edifices were all aflame. The glass roof of the Palais de +l’Industrie appeared like a bed of glowing embers amidst the +Champs-Elysees groves. Farther on, behind the roof of the Madeline, the huge +pile of the Opera House shone out like a mass of burnished copper; and the +summits of other buildings, cupolas, and towers, the Vendome column, the church +of Saint-Vincent de Paul, the tower of Saint-Jacques, and, nearer in, the +pavilions of the new Louvre and the Tuileries, were crowned by a blaze, which +lent them the aspect of sacrificial pyres. The dome of the Invalides was +flaring with such brilliancy that you instinctively feared lest it should +suddenly topple down and scatter burning flakes over the neighborhood. Beyond +the irregular towers of Saint-Sulpice, the Panthéon stood out against the sky +in dull splendor, like some royal palace of conflagration reduced to embers. +Then, as the sun declined, the pyre-like edifices gradually set the whole of +Paris on fire. Flashes sped over the housetops, while black smoke lingered in +the valleys. Every frontage turned towards the Trocadero seemed to be red-hot, +the glass of the windows glittering and emitting a shower of sparks, which +darted upwards as though some invisible bellows were ever urging the huge +conflagration into greater activity. Sheaves of flame were also ever rising +afresh from the adjacent districts, where the streets opened, now dark and now +all ablaze. Even far over the plain, from a ruddy ember-like glow suffusing the +destroyed faubourgs, occasional flashes of flame shot up as from some fire +struggling again into life. Ere long a furnace seemed raging, all Paris burned, +the heavens became yet more empurpled, and the clouds hung like so much blood +over the vast city, colored red and gold. +</p> + +<p> +With the ruddy tints falling upon her, yielding to the passion which was +devouring her, Hélène was still gazing upon Paris all ablaze, when a little +hand was placed on her shoulder, and she gave a start. It was Jeanne, calling +her. “Mamma! mamma!” +</p> + +<p> +She turned her head, and the child went on: “At last! Didn’t you +hear me before? I have called you at least a dozen times.” +</p> + +<p> +The little girl, still in her Japanese costume, had sparkling eyes, and cheeks +flushed with pleasure. She gave her mother no time for answer. +</p> + +<p> +“You ran away from me nicely! Do you know, they were hunting for you +everywhere? Had it not been for Pauline, who came with me to the bottom of the +staircase, I shouldn’t have dared to cross the road.” +</p> + +<p> +With a pretty gesture, she brought her face close to her mother’s lips, +and, without pausing, whispered the question: “Do you love me?” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène kissed her somewhat absently. She was amazed and impatient at her early +return. Had an hour really gone by since she had fled from the ball-room? +However, to satisfy the child, who seemed uneasy, she told her that she had +felt rather unwell. The fresh air was doing her good; she only needed a little +quietness. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! don’t fear; I’m too tired,” murmured Jeanne. +“I am going to stop here, and be very, very good. But, mamma dear, I may +talk, mayn’t I?” +</p> + +<p> +She nestled close to Hélène, full of joy at the prospect of not being undressed +at once. She was in ecstasies over her embroidered purple gown and green silk +petticoat; and she shook her head to rattle the pendants hanging from the long +pins thrust through her hair. At last there burst from her lips a rush of hasty +words. Despite her seeming demureness, she had seen everything, heard +everything, and remembered everything; and she now made ample amends for her +former assumed dignity, silence, and indifference. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you know, mamma, it was an old fellow with a grey beard who made +Punch move his arms and legs? I saw him well enough when the curtain was drawn +aside. Yes, and the little boy Guiraud began to cry. How stupid of him, +wasn’t it? They told him the policeman would come and put some water in +his soup; and at last they had to carry him off, for he wouldn’t stop +crying. And at lunch, too, Marguerite stained her milkmaid’s dress all +over with jam. Her mamma wiped it off and said to her: ‘Oh, you dirty +girl!’ She even had a lot of it in her hair. I never opened my mouth, but +it did amuse me to see them all rush at the cakes! Were they not bad-mannered, +mamma dear?” +</p> + +<p> +She paused for a few seconds, absorbed in some reminiscence, and then asked, +with a thoughtful air: “I say, mamma, did you eat any of those yellow +cakes with white cream inside? Oh! they were nice! they were nice! I kept the +dish beside me the whole time.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène was not listening to this childish chatter. But Jeanne talked to relieve +her excited brain. She launched out again, giving the minutest details about +the ball, and investing each little incident with the greatest importance. +</p> + +<p> +“You did not see that my waistband came undone just as we began dancing. +A lady, whose name I don’t know, pinned it up for me. So I said to her: +‘Madame, I thank you very much.’ But while I was dancing with +Lucien the pin ran into him, and he asked me: ‘What have you got in front +of you that pricks me so?’ Of course I knew nothing about it, and told +him I had nothing there to prick him. However, Pauline came and put the pin in +its proper place. Ah! but you’ve no idea how they pushed each other +about; and one great stupid of a boy gave Sophie a blow on the back which made +her fall. The Levasseur girls jumped about with their feet close together. I am +pretty certain that isn’t the way to dance. But the best of it all came +at the end. You weren’t there; so you can’t know. We all took one +another by the arms, and then whirled round; it was comical enough to make one +die laughing. Besides, some of the big gentlemen were whirling around as well. +It’s true; I am not telling fibs. Why, don’t you believe me, mamma +dear?” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène’s continued silence was beginning to vex Jeanne. She nestled +closer, and gave her mother’s hand a shake. But, perceiving that she drew +only a few words from her, she herself, by degrees, lapsed into silence, into +thought of the incidents of that ball of which her heart was full. Both mother +and daughter now sat mutely gazing on Paris all aflame. It seemed to them yet +more mysterious than ever, as it lay there illumined by blood-red clouds, like +some city of an old-world tale expiating its lusts under a rain of fire. +</p> + +<p> +“Did you have any round dances?” all at once asked Hélène, as if +wakening with a start. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, yes!” murmured Jeanne, engrossed in her turn. +</p> + +<p> +“And the doctor—did he dance!” +</p> + +<p> +“I should think so; he had a turn with me. He lift me up and asked me: +‘Where is your mamma? where is your mamma?’ and then he kissed +me.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène unconsciously smiled. What need had she of knowing Henri well? It +appeared sweeter to her not to know him—ay, never to know him +well—and to greet him simply as the one whose coming she had awaited so +long. Why should she feel astonished or disquieted? At the fated hour he had +met her on her life-journey. Her frank nature accepted whatever might be in +store; and quietude, born of the knowledge that she loved and was beloved, fell +on her mind. She told her heart that she would prove strong enough to prevent +her happiness from being marred. +</p> + +<p> +But night was coming on and a chilly breeze arose. Jeanne, still plunged in +reverie, began to shiver. She reclined her head on her mother’s bosom, +and, as though the question were inseparably connected with her deep +meditation, she murmured a second time: “Do you love me?” +</p> + +<p> +Then Hélène, her face still glad with smiles, took her head within her hands +and for a moment examined her face closely. Next she pressed a long kiss near +her mouth, over a ruddy spot on her skin. It was there, she could divine it, +that Henri had kissed the child! +</p> + +<p> +The gloomy ridge of the Meudon hills was already partially concealing the disc +of the sun. Over Paris the slanting beams of light had yet lengthened. The +shadow cast by the dome of the Invalides—increased to stupendous +proportions—covered the whole of the Saint-Germain district; while the +Opera-House, the Saint-Jacques tower, the columns and the steeples, threw +streaks of darkness over the right bank dwellings. The lines of house-fronts, +the yawning streets, the islands of roofs, were burning with a more sullen +glow. The flashes of fire died away in the darkening windows, as though the +houses were reduced to embers. Distant bells rang out; a rumbling noise fell on +the ears, and then subsided. With the approach of night the expanse of sky grew +more vast, spreading a vault of violet, streaked with gold and purple, above +the ruddy city. But all at once the conflagration flared afresh with formidable +intensity, a last great flame shot up from Paris, illumining its entire +expanse, and even its hitherto hidden suburbs. Then it seemed as if a grey, +ashy dust were falling; and though the clustering districts remained erect, +they wore the gloomy, unsubstantial aspect of coals which had ceased to burn. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0011"></a> CHAPTER XI.</h2> + +<p> +One morning in May, Rosalie ran in from the kitchen, dish-cloth in hand, +screaming out in the familiar fashion of a favorite servant: “Oh, madame, +come quick! His reverence the Abbé is digging the ground down in the +doctor’s garden.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène made no responsive movement, but Jeanne had already rushed to have a +look. On her return, she exclaimed: +</p> + +<p> +“How stupid Rosalie is! he is not digging at all. He is with the +gardener, who is putting some plants into a barrow. Madame Deberle is plucking +all her roses.” +</p> + +<p> +“They must be for the church,” quietly said Hélène, who was busy +with some tapestry-work. +</p> + +<p> +A few minutes later the bell rang, and Abbé Jouve made his appearance. He came +to say that his presence must not be expected on the following Tuesday. His +evenings would be wholly taken up with the ceremonies incident to the month of +Mary. The parish priest had assigned him the task of decorating the church. It +would be a great success. All the ladies were giving him flowers. He was +expecting two palm-trees about fourteen feet high, and meant to place them to +the right and left of the altar. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! mamma, mamma!” murmured Jeanne, listening, wonderstruck. +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Hélène, with a smile, “since you cannot come to +us, my old friend, we will go to see you. Why, you’ve quite turned +Jeanne’s head with your talk about flowers.” +</p> + +<p> +She had few religious tendencies; she never even went to mass, on the plea that +her daughter’s health suffered from the shivering fits which seized her +when she came out of a church. In her presence the old priest avoided all +reference to religion. It was his wont to say, with good-natured indulgence, +that good hearts carve out their own salvation by deeds of loving kindness and +charity. God would know when and how to touch her. +</p> + +<p> +Till the evening of the following day Jeanne thought of nothing but the month +of Mary. She plagued her mother with questions; she dreamt of the church +adorned with a profusion of white roses, filled with thousands of wax tapers, +with the sound of angels’ voices, and sweet perfumes. And she was very +anxious to go near the altar, that she might have a good look at the Blessed +Virgin’s lace gown, a gown worth a fortune, according to the Abbé. But +Hélène bridled her excitement with a threat not to take her should she make +herself ill beforehand. +</p> + +<p> +However, the evening came at last, and they set out. The nights were still +cold, and when they reached the Rue de l’Annonciation, where the church +of Notre-Dame-de-Grace stands, the child was shivering all over. +</p> + +<p> +“The church is heated,” said her mother. “We must secure a +place near a hot-air pipe.” +</p> + +<p> +She pushed open the padded door, and as it gently swung back to its place they +found themselves in a warm atmosphere, with brilliant lights streaming on them, +and chanting resounding in their ears. The ceremony had commenced, and Hélène, +perceiving that the nave was crowded, signified her intention of going down one +of the aisles. But there seemed insuperable obstacles in her way; she could not +get near the altar. Holding Jeanne by the hand, she for a time patiently +pressed forward, but at last, despairing of advancing any farther, took the +first unoccupied chairs she could find. A pillar hid half of the choir from +view. +</p> + +<p> +“I can see nothing,” said the child, grievously discontented. +“This is a very nasty place.” +</p> + +<p> +However, Hélène signed to her to keep silent, and she lapsed into a fit of +sulks. In front of her she could only perceive the broad back of a fat old +lady. When her mother next turned towards her she was standing upright on her +chair. +</p> + +<p> +“Will you come down!” said Hélène in a low voice. “You are a +nuisance.” +</p> + +<p> +But Jeanne was stubborn. +</p> + +<p> +“Hist! mamma,” she said, “there’s Madame Deberle. Look! +she is down there in the centre, beckoning to us.” +</p> + +<p> +The young woman’s annoyance on hearing this made her very impatient, and +she shook her daughter, who still refused to sit down. During the three days +that had intervened since the ball, Hélène had avoided any visit to the +doctor’s house on the plea of having a great deal to do. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma,” resumed Jeanne with a child’s wonted stubbornness, +“she is looking at you; she is nodding good-day to you.” +</p> + +<p> +At this intimation Hélène was forced to turn round and exchange greetings; each +bowed to the other. Madame Deberle, in a striped silk gown trimmed with white +lace, sat in the centre of the nave but a short distance from the choir, +looking very fresh and conspicuous. She had brought her sister Pauline, who was +now busy waving her hand. The chanting still continued, the elder members of +the congregation pouring forth a volume of sound of falling scale, while now +and then the shrill voice of the children punctuated the slow, monotonous +rhythm of the canticle. +</p> + +<p> +“They want us to go over to them, you see,” exclaimed Jeanne, with +some triumph in her remark. +</p> + +<p> +“It is useless; we shall be all right here.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, mamma, do let us go over to them! There are two chairs empty.” +</p> + +<p> +“No, no; come and sit down.” +</p> + +<p> +However, the ladies smilingly persisted in making signs, heedless to the last +degree of the slight scandal they were causing; nay, delighted at being the +observed of all observers. Hélène thus had to yield. She pushed the gratified +Jeanne before her, and strove to make her way through the congregation, her +hands all the while trembling with repressed anger. It was no easy business. +Devout female worshippers, unwilling to disturb themselves, glared at her with +furious looks, whilst all agape they kept on singing. She pressed on in this +style for five long minutes, the tempest of voices ringing around her with +ever-increasing violence. Whenever she came to a standstill, Jeanne, squeezing +close beside her, gazed at those cavernous, gaping mouths. However, at last +they reached the vacant space in front of the choir, and then had but a few +steps to make. +</p> + +<p> +“Come, be quick,” whispered Madame Deberle. “The Abbé told me +you would be coming, and I kept two chairs for you.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène thanked her, and, to cut the conversation short, at once began turning +over the leaves of her missal. But Juliette was as worldly here as elsewhere; +as much at her ease, as agreeable and talkative, as in her drawing-room. She +bent her head towards Hélène and resumed: +</p> + +<p> +“You have become quite invisible. I intended to pay you a visit +to-morrow. Surely you haven’t been ill, have you?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, thank you. I’ve been very busy.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, listen to me. You must come and dine with us to-morrow. Quite a +family dinner, you know.” +</p> + +<p> +“You are very kind. We will see.” +</p> + +<p> +She seemed to retire within herself, intent on following the service, and on +saying nothing more. Pauline had taken Jeanne beside her that she might be +nearer the hot-air flue over which she toasted herself luxuriously, as happy as +any chilly mortal could be. Steeped in the warm air, the two girls raised +themselves inquisitively and gazed around on everything, the low ceiling with +its woodwork panels, the squat pillars, connected by arches from which hung +chandeliers, and the pulpit of carved oak; and over the ocean of heads which +waved with the rise and fall of the canticle, their eyes wandered towards the +dark corners of the aisles, towards the chapels whose gilding faintly gleamed, +and the baptistery enclosed by a railing near the chief entrance. However, +their gaze always returned to the resplendent choir, decorated with brilliant +colors and dazzling gilding. A crystal chandelier, flaming with light, hung +from the vaulted ceiling; immense candelabra, filled with rows of wax tapers, +that glittered amidst the gloom of the church like a profusion of stars in +orderly array, brought out prominently the high altar, which seemed one huge +bouquet of foliage and flowers. Over all, standing amidst a profusion of roses, +a Virgin, dressed in satin and lace, and crowned with pearls, was holding a +Jesus in long clothes on her arm. +</p> + +<p> +“I say, are you warm?” asked Pauline. “It’s nice, +eh?” +</p> + +<p> +But Jeanne, in ecstasy, was gazing on the Virgin amongst the flowers. The scene +thrilled her. A fear crept over her that she might do something wrong, and she +lowered her eyes in the endeavor to restrain her tears by fixing her attention +on the black-and-white pavement. The vibrations of the choir-boys’ shrill +voices seemed to stir her tresses like puffs of air. +</p> + +<p> +Meanwhile Hélène, with face bent over her prayer-book, drew herself away +whenever Juliette’s lace rustled against her. She was in no wise prepared +for this meeting. Despite the vow she had sworn within herself, to be ever pure +in her love for Henri, and never yield to him, she felt great discomfort at the +thought that she was a traitoress to the confiding, happy woman who sat by her +side. She was possessed by one idea—she would not go to that dinner. She +sought for reasons which would enable her to break off these relations so +hateful to her honor. But the swelling voices of the choristers, so near to +her, drove all reflection from her mind; she could decide on no precise course, +and surrendered herself to the soothing influences of the chant, tasting a +pious joy such as she had never before found inside a church. +</p> + +<p> +“Have you been told about Madame de Chermette?” asked Juliette, +unable any longer to restrain her craving for a gossip. +</p> + +<p> +“No, I know nothing.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, well; just imagine. You have seen her daughter, so womanish and +tall, though she is only fifteen, haven’t you? There is some talk about +her getting married next year to that dark young fellow who is always hanging +to her mother’s skirts. People are talking about it with a +vengeance.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah!” muttered Hélène, who was not paying the least attention. +</p> + +<p> +Madame Deberle went into particulars, but of a sudden the chant ceased, and the +organ-music died away in a moan. Astounded at the loudness of her own voice +breaking upon the stillness which ensued, she lapsed into silence. A priest +made his appearance at this moment in the pulpit. There was a rustling, and +then he spoke. No, certainly not, Hélène would not join that dinner-party. With +her eyes fixed on the priest she pictured to herself the next meeting with +Henri, that meeting which for three days she had contemplated with terror; she +saw him white with anger, reproaching her for hiding herself, and she dreaded +lest she might not display sufficient indifference. Amidst her dream the priest +had disappeared, his thrilling tones merely reaching her in casual sentences: +“No hour could be more ineffable than that when the Virgin, with bent +head, answered: ‘I am the handmaiden of the Lord!’” +</p> + +<p> +Yes, she would be brave; all her reason had returned to her. She would taste +the joy of being loved, but would never avow her love, for her heart told her +that such an avowal would cost her peace. And how intensely would she love, +without confessing it, gratified by a word, a look from Henri, exchanged at +lengthy intervals on the occasion of a chance meeting! It was a dream that +brought her some sense of the infinite. The church around her became a friend +and comforter. The priest was now exclaiming: +</p> + +<p> +“The angel vanished and Mary plunged into contemplation of the divine +mystery working within her, her heart bathed in sunshine and love.” +</p> + +<p> +“He speaks very well,” whispered Madame Deberle, leaning towards +her. “And he’s quite young, too, scarcely thirty, don’t you +think?” +</p> + +<p> +Madame Deberle was affected. Religion pleased her because the emotions it +prompted were in good taste. To present flowers for the decoration of churches, +to have petty dealings with the priests, who were so polite and discreet, to +come to church attired in her best and assume an air of worldly patronage +towards the God of the poor—all this had for her special delights; the +more so as her husband did not interest himself in religion, and her devotions +thus had all the sweetness of forbidden fruit. Hélène looked at her and +answered with a nod; her face was ashy white with faintness, while the +other’s was lit up by smiles. There was a stirring of chairs and a +rustling of handkerchiefs, as the priest quitted the pulpit with the final +adjuration +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! give wings unto your love, souls imbued with Christian piety. God +has made a sacrifice of Himself for your sakes, your hearts are full of His +presence, your souls overflow with His grace!” +</p> + +<p> +Of a sudden the organ sounded again, and the litanies of the Virgin began with +their appeals of passionate tenderness. Faint and distant the chanting rolled +forth from the side-aisles and the dark recesses of the chapels, as though the +earth were giving answer to the angel voices of the chorister-boys. A rush of +air swept over the throng, making the flames of the tapers leap, while amongst +the flowers, fading as they exhaled their last perfume, the Divine Mother +seemed to incline her head to smile on her infant Jesus. +</p> + +<p> +All at once, seized with an instinctive dread, Hélène turned. +“You’re not ill, Jeanne, are you?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +The child, with face ashy white and eyes glistening, her spirit borne aloft by +the fervent strains of the litanies, was gazing at the altar, where in +imagination she could see the roses multiplying and falling in cascades. +</p> + +<p> +“No, no, mamma,” she whispered; “I am pleased, I am very well +pleased.” And then she asked: “But where is our dear old +friend?” +</p> + +<p> +She spoke of the Abbé. Pauline caught sight of him; he was seated in the choir, +but Jeanne had to be lifted up in order that she might perceive him. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! He is looking at us,” said she; “he is blinking.” +According to Jeanne, the Abbé blinked when he laughed inwardly. Hélène hastened +to exchange a friendly nod with him. And then the tranquillity within her +seemed to increase, her future serenity appeared to be assured, thus endearing +the church to her and lulling her into a blissful condition of patient +endurance. Censers swung before the altar and threads of smoke ascended; the +benediction followed, and the holy monstrance was slowly raised and waved above +the heads lowered to the earth. Hélène was still on her knees in happy +meditation when she heard Madame Deberle exclaiming: “It’s over +now; let us go.” +</p> + +<p> +There ensued a clatter of chairs and a stamping of feet which reverberated +along the arched aisles. Pauline had taken Jeanne’s hand, and, walking +away in front with the child, began to question her: +</p> + +<p> +“Have you ever been to the theatre?” +</p> + +<p> +“No. Is it finer than this?” +</p> + +<p> +As she spoke, the little one, giving vent to great gasps of wonder, tossed her +head as though ready to express the belief that nothing could be finer. To her +question, however, Pauline deigned no reply, for she had just come to a +standstill in front of a priest who was passing in his surplice. And when he +was a few steps away she exclaimed aloud, with such conviction in her tones +that two devout ladies of the congregation turned around: +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! what a fine head!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, meanwhile, had risen from her knees. She stepped along by the side of +Juliette among the crowd which was making its way out with difficulty. Her +heart was full of tenderness, she felt languid and enervated, and her soul no +longer rebelled at the other being so near. At one moment their bare hands came +in contact and they smiled. They were almost stifling in the throng, and Hélène +would fain have had Juliette go first. All their old friendship seemed to +blossom forth once more. +</p> + +<p> +“Is it understood that we can rely on you for to-morrow evening?” +asked Madame Deberle. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène no longer had the will to decline. She would see whether it were +possible when she reached the street. It finished by their being the last to +leave. Pauline and Jeanne already stood on the opposite pavement awaiting them. +But a tearful voice brought them to a halt. +</p> + +<p> +“Ah, my good lady, what a time it is since I had the happiness of seeing +you!” +</p> + +<p> +It was Mother Fétu, who was soliciting alms at the church door. Barring +Hélène’s way, as though she had lain in wait for her, she went on: +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, I have been so very ill always here, in the stomach, you know. Just +now I feel as if a hammer were pounding away inside me; and I have nothing at +all, my good lady. I didn’t dare to send you word about it—May the +gracious God repay you!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène had slipped a piece of money into her hand, and promised to think about +her. +</p> + +<p> +“Hello!” exclaimed Madame Deberle, who had remained standing within +the porch, “there’s some one talking with Pauline and Jeanne. Why, +it is Henri.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, yes” Mother Fétu hastened to add as she turned her +ferret-like eyes on the ladies, “it is the good doctor. I have seen him +there all through the service; he has never budged from the pavement; he has +been waiting for you, no doubt. Ah! he’s a saint of a man! I swear that +to be the truth in the face of God who hears us. Yes, I know you, madame; he is +a husband who deserves to be happy. May Heaven hearken to your prayers, may +every blessing fall on you! In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy +Ghost!” +</p> + +<p> +Amidst the myriad furrows of her face, which was wrinkled like a withered +apple, her little eyes kept gleaming in malicious unrest, darting a glance now +on Juliette, now on Hélène, so that it was impossible to say with any certainty +whom she was addressing while speaking of “the good doctor.” She +followed them, muttering on without a stop, mingling whimpering entreaty with +devout outbursts. +</p> + +<p> +Henri’s reserve alike astonished and moved Hélène. He scarcely had the +courage to raise his eyes towards her. On his wife quizzing him about the +opinions which restrained him from entering a church, he merely explained that +to smoke a cigar was his object in coming to meet them; but Hélène understood +that he had wished to see her again, to prove to her how wrong she was in +fearing some fresh outrage. Doubtless, like herself, he had sworn to keep +within the limits of reason. She never questioned whether his sincerity could +be real. She simply experienced a feeling of unhappiness at seeing him unhappy. +Thus it came about, that on leaving them it the Rue Vineuse, she said +cheerfully: +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it is settled then; to-morrow at seven.” +</p> + +<p> +In this way the old friendship grew closer than ever, and a charming life began +afresh. To Hélène it seemed as if Henri had never yielded to that moment of +folly; it was but a dream of hers; each loved the other, but they would never +breathe a word of their love, they were content with knowing its existence. +They spent delicious hours, in which, without their tongues giving evidence of +their passion, they displayed it constantly; a gesture, an inflexion of the +voice sufficed, ay, even a silence. Everything insensibly tended towards their +love, plunged them more and more deeply into a passion which they bore away +with them whenever they parted, which was ever with them, which formed, as it +were, the only atmosphere they could breathe. And their excuse was their +honesty; with eyes wide open they played this comedy of affection; not even a +hand-clasp did they allow each other and their restraint infused unalloyed +delight into the simple greetings with which they met. +</p> + +<p> +Every evening the ladies went to church. Madame Deberle was enchanted with the +novel pleasure she was enjoying. It was so different from evening dances, +concerts, and first nights; she adored fresh sensations, and nuns and priests +were now constantly in her company. The store of religion which she had +acquired in her school-days now found new life in her giddy brain, taking shape +in all sorts of trivial observances, as though she were reviving the games of +her childhood. Hélène, who on her side had grown up without any religious +training, surrendered herself to the bliss of these services of the month of +Mary, happy also in the delight with which they appeared to inspire Jeanne. +They now dined earlier; they gave Rosalie no peace lest she should cause them +to be late, and prevent their securing good seats. Then they called for +Juliette on the way. One day Lucien was taken, but he behaved so badly that he +was afterward left at home. On entering the warm church, with its glare of wax +candles, a feeling of tenderness and calm, which by degrees grew necessary to +Hélène, came over her. When doubts sprang up within her during the day, and the +thought of Henri filled her with indefinable anxiety, with the evening the +church once more brought her peace. The chants arose overflowing with divine +passion; the flowers, newly culled, made the close atmosphere of the building +still heavier. It was here that she breathed all the first rapture of +springtide, amidst that adoration of woman raised to the status of a cult; and +her senses swam as she contemplated the mystery of love and purity—Mary, +virgin and mother, beaming beneath her wreath of white roses. Each day she +remained longer on her knees. She found herself at times with hands joined in +entreaty. When the ceremony came to an end, there followed the happiness of the +return home. Henri awaited their appearance at the door; the evenings grew +warmer, and they wended their way through the dark, still streets of Passy, +while scarce a word passed between them. +</p> + +<p> +“How devout you are getting, my dear!” said Madame Deberle one +night, with a laugh. +</p> + +<p> +Yes, it was true; Hélène was widely opening the portals of her heart to pious +thoughts. Never could she have fancied that such happiness would attend her +love. She returned to the church as to a spot where her heart would melt, for +under its roof she could give free vent to her tears, remain thoughtless, +plunged in speechless worship. For an hour each evening she put no restraint on +herself. The bursting love within her, prisoned throughout the day, at length +escaped from her bosom on the wings of prayer, amidst the pious quiver of the +throng. The muttered supplications, the bendings of the knee, the +reverences—words and gestures seemingly interminable—all lulled her +to rest; to her they ever expressed the same thing; it was always the same +passion speaking in the same phrase, or the same gesture. She felt a need of +faith, and basked enraptured by the Divine goodness. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène was not the only person whom Juliette twitted; she feigned a belief that +Henri himself was becoming religious. What, had he not now entered the church +to wait for them?—he, atheist and scoffer, who had been wont to assert +that he had sought for the soul with his scalpel, and had not yet discovered +its existence! As soon as she perceived him standing behind a pillar in the +shadow of the pulpit, she would instantly jog Hélène’s arm. +</p> + +<p> +“Look, look, he is there already! Do you know, he wouldn’t confess +when we got married! See how funny he looks; he gazes at us with so comical an +expression; quick, look!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène did not at the moment raise her head. The service was coming to an end, +clouds of incense were rising, and the organ-music pealed forth joyfully. But +her neighbor was not a woman to leave her alone, and she was forced to speak in +answer. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, yes, I see him,” she whispered, albeit she never turned her +eyes. +</p> + +<p> +She had on her own side divined his presence amidst the song of praise that +mounted from the worshipping throng. It seemed to her that Henri’s breath +was wafted on the wings of the music and beat against her neck, and she +imagined she could see behind her his glances shedding their light along the +nave and haloing her, as she knelt, with a golden glory. And then she felt +impelled to pray with such fervor that words failed her. The expression on his +face was sober, as unruffled as any husband might wear when looking for ladies +in a church, the same, indeed, as if he had been waiting for them in the lobby +of a theatre. But when they came together, in the midst of the slowly-moving +crowd of worshippers, they felt that the bonds of their love had been drawn +closer by the flowers and the chanting; and they shunned all conversation, for +their hearts were on their lips. +</p> + +<p> +A fortnight slipped away, and Madame Deberle grew wearied. She ever jumped from +one thing to the other, consumed with the thirst of doing what every one else +was doing. For the moment charity bazaars had become her craze; she would toil +up sixty flights of stairs of an afternoon to beg paintings of well-known +artists, while her evenings were spent in presiding over meetings of lady +patronesses, with a bell handy to call noisy members to order. Thus it happened +that one Thursday evening Hélène and her daughter went to church without their +companions. On the conclusion of the sermon, while the choristers were +commencing the <i>Magnificat</i>, the young woman, forewarned by some impulse +of her heart, turned her head. Henri was there, in his usual place. Thereupon +she remained with looks riveted to the ground till the service came to an end, +waiting the while for the return home. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, how kind of you to come!” said Jeanne, with all a +child’s frankness, as they left the church. “I should have been +afraid to go alone through these dark streets.” +</p> + +<p> +Henri, however, feigned astonishment, asserting that he had expected to meet +his wife. Hélène allowed the child to answer him, and followed them without +uttering a word. As the trio passed under the porch a pitiful voice sang out: +“Charity, charity! May God repay you!” +</p> + +<p> +Every night Jeanne dropped a ten-sou piece into Mother Fétu’s hand. When +the latter saw the doctor alone with Hélène, she nodded her head knowingly, +instead of breaking out into a storm of thanks, as was her custom. The church +was now empty, and she began to follow them, mumbling inaudible sentences. +Sometimes, instead of returning by the Rue de Passy, the ladies, when the night +was fine, went homewards by the Rue Raynouard, the way being thus lengthened by +five or six minutes’ walk. That night also Hélène turned into the Rue +Raynouard, craving for gloom and stillness, and entranced by the loneliness of +the long thoroughfare, which was lighted by only a few gas-lamps, without the +shadow of a single passer-by falling across its pavement. +</p> + +<p> +At this hour Passy seemed out of the world; sleep had already fallen over it; +it had all the quietude of a provincial town. On each side of the street loomed +mansions, girls’ schools, black and silent, and dining places, from the +kitchens of which lights still streamed. There was not, however, a single shop +to throw the glare of its frontage across the dimness. To Henri and Hélène the +loneliness was pregnant with intense charm. He had not ventured to offer her +his arm. Jeanne walked between them in the middle of the road, which was +gravelled like a walk in some park. At last the houses came to an end, and then +on each side were walls, over which spread mantling clematis and clusters of +lilac blossoms. Immense gardens parted the mansions, and here and there through +the railings of an iron gate they could catch glimpses of a gloomy background +of verdure, against which the tree-dotted turf assumed a more delicate hue. The +air was filled with the perfume of irises growing in vases which they could +scarce distinguish. All three paced on slowly through the warm spring night, +which was steeping them in its odors, and Jeanne, with childish artlessness, +raised her face to the heavens, and exclaimed: +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, mamma, see what a number of stars!” +</p> + +<p> +But behind them, like an echo of their own, came the footfall of Mother Fétu. +Nearer and nearer she approached, till they could hear her muttering the +opening words of the Angelic Salutation “<i>Ave Marie, gratia +plena</i>,” repeating them over and over again with the same confused +persistency. She was telling her beads on her homeward way. +</p> + +<p> +“I have still something left—may I give it to her?” Jeanne +asked her mother. +</p> + +<p> +And thereupon, without waiting for a reply, she left them, running towards the +old woman, who was on the point of entering the Passage des Eaux. Mother Fétu +clutched at the coin, calling upon all the angels of Heaven to bless her. As +she spoke, however, she grasped the child’s hand and detained her by her +side, then asking in changed tones: +</p> + +<p> +“The other lady is ill, is she not?” +</p> + +<p> +“No,” answered Jeanne, surprised. +</p> + +<p> +“May Heaven shield her! May it shower its favors on her and her husband! +Don’t run away yet, my dear little lady. Let me say an <i>Ave Maria</i> +for your mother’s sake, and you will join in the ‘Amen’ with +me. Oh! your mother will allow you; you can catch her up.” +</p> + +<p> +Meanwhile Henri and Hélène trembled as they found themselves suddenly left +alone in the shadow cast by a line of huge chestnut trees that bordered the +road. They quietly took a few steps. The chestnut trees had strewn the ground +with their bloom, and they were walking upon this rosy-tinted carpet. On a +sudden, however, they came to a stop, their hearts filled with such emotion +that they could go no farther. +</p> + +<p> +“Forgive me,” said Henri simply. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, yes,” ejaculated Hélène. “But oh! be silent, I pray +you.” +</p> + +<p> +She had felt his hand touch her own, and had started back. Fortunately Jeanne +ran towards them at the moment. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma, mamma!” she cried; “she made me say an <i>Ave</i>; +she says it will bring you good luck.” +</p> + +<p> +The three then turned into the Rue Vineuse, while Mother Fétu crept down the +steps of the Passage des Eaux, busy completing her rosary. +</p> + +<p> +The month slipped away. Two or three more services were attended by Madame +Deberle. One Sunday, the last one, Henri once more ventured to wait for Hélène +and Jeanne. The walk home thrilled them with joy. The month had been one long +spell of wondrous bliss. The little church seemed to have entered into their +lives to soothe their love and render its way pleasant. At first a great peace +had settled on Hélène’s soul; she had found happiness in this sanctuary +where she imagined she could without shame dwell on her love; however, the +undermining had continued, and when her holy rapture passed away she was again +in the grip of her passion, held by bonds that would have plucked at her +heartstrings had she sought to break them asunder. Henri still preserved his +respectful demeanor, but she could not do otherwise than see the passion +burning in his face. She dreaded some outburst, and even grew afraid of +herself. +</p> + +<p> +One afternoon, going homewards after a walk with Jeanne, she passed along the +Rue de l’Annonciation and entered the church. The child was complaining +of feeling very tired. Until the last day she had been unwilling to admit that +the evening services exhausted her, so intense was the pleasure she derived +from them; but her cheeks had grown waxy-pale, and the doctor advised that she +should take long walks. +</p> + +<p> +“Sit down here,” said her mother. “It will rest you; +we’ll only stay ten minutes.” +</p> + +<p> +She herself walked towards some chairs a short way off, and knelt down. She had +placed Jeanne close to a pillar. Workmen were busy at the other end of the +nave, taking down the hangings and removing the flowers, the ceremonials +attending the month of Mary having come to an end the evening before. With her +face buried in her hands Hélène saw nothing and heard nothing; she was eagerly +catechising her heart, asking whether she ought not to confess to Abbé Jouve +what an awful life had come upon her. He would advise her, perhaps restore her +lost peace. Still, within her there arose, out of her very anguish, a fierce +flood of joy. She hugged her sorrow, dreading lest the priest might succeed in +finding a cure for it. Ten minutes slipped away, then an hour. She was +overwhelmed by the strife raging within her heart. +</p> + +<p> +At last she raised her head, her eyes glistening with tears, and saw Abbé Jouve +gazing at her sorrowfully. It was he who was directing the workmen. Having +recognized Jeanne, he had just come forward. +</p> + +<p> +“Why, what is the matter, my child?” he asked of Hélène, who +hastened to rise to her feet and wipe away her tears. +</p> + +<p> +She was at a loss what answer to give; she was afraid lest she should once more +fall on her knees and burst into sobs. He approached still nearer, and gently +resumed: +</p> + +<p> +“I do not wish to cross-question you, but why do you not confide in me? +Confide in the priest and forget the friend.” +</p> + +<p> +“Some other day,” she said brokenly, “some other day, I +promise you.” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne meantime had at first been very good and patient, finding amusement in +looking at the stained-glass windows, the statues over the great doorway, and +the scenes of the journey to the Cross depicted in miniature bas-reliefs along +the aisles. By degrees, however, the cold air of the church had enveloped her +as with a shroud; and she remained plunged in a weariness that even banished +thought, a feeling of discomfort waking within her with the holy quiet and +far-reaching echoes, which the least sound stirred in this sanctuary where she +imagined she was going to die. But a grievous sorrow rankled in her +heart—the flowers were being borne away. The great clusters of roses were +vanishing, and the altar seemed to become more and more bare and chill. The +marble looked icy-cold now that no wax-candle shone on it and there was no +smoking incense. The lace-robed Virgin moreover was being moved, and after +suddenly tottering fell backward into the arms of two workmen. At the sight +Jeanne uttered a faint cry, stretched out her arms, and fell back rigid; the +illness that had been threatening her for some days had at last fallen upon +her. +</p> + +<p> +And when Hélène, in distraction, carried her child, with the assistance of the +sorrowing Abbé, into a cab, she turned towards the porch with outstretched, +trembling hands. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s all this church! it’s all this church!” she +exclaimed, with a vehemence instinct with regret and self-reproach as she +thought of the month of devout delight which she herself had tasted there. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0012"></a> CHAPTER XII.</h2> + +<p> +When evening came Jeanne was somewhat better. She was able to get up, and, in +order to remove her mother’s fears, persisted in dragging herself into +the dining-room, where she took her seat before her empty plate. +</p> + +<p> +“I shall be all right,” she said, trying to smile. “You know +very well that the least thing upsets me. Get on with your dinner, mamma; I +want you to eat.” +</p> + +<p> +And in the end she pretended an appetite she did not feel, for she observed +that her mother sat watching her paling and trembling, without being able to +swallow a morsel. She promised to take some jam, and Hélène then hurried +through her dinner, while the child, with a never-fading smile and her head +nodding tremblingly, watched her with worshipping looks. On the appearance of +the dessert she made an effort to carry out her promise, but tears welled into +her eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“You see I can’t get it down my throat,” she murmured. +“You mustn’t be angry with me.” +</p> + +<p> +The weariness that overwhelmed her was terrible. Her legs seemed lifeless, her +shoulders pained her as though gripped by a hand of iron. But she was very +brave through it all, and choked at their source the moans which the shooting +pains in her neck awakened. At one moment, however, she forgot herself, her +head felt too heavy, and she was bent double by pain. Her mother, as she gazed +on her, so faint and feeble, was wholly unable to finish the pear which she was +trying to force down her throat. Her sobs choked her, and throwing down her +napkin, she clasped Jeanne in her arms. +</p> + +<p> +“My child! my child!” she wailed, her heart bursting with sorrow, +as her eyes ranged round the dining-room where her darling, when in good +health, had so often enlivened her by her fondness for tid-bits. +</p> + +<p> +At last Jeanne woke to life again, and strove to smile as of old. +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t worry, mamma,” said she; “I shall be all right +soon. Now that you have done you must put me to bed. I only wanted to see you +have your dinner. Oh! I know you; you wouldn’t have eaten as much as a +morsel of bread.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène bore her away in her arms. She had brought the little crib close to her +own bed in the blue room. When Jeanne had stretched out her limbs, and the +bedclothes were tucked up under her chin, she declared she felt much better. +There were no more complaints about dull pains at the back of her head; but she +melted into tenderness, and her passionate love seemed to grow more pronounced. +Hélène was forced to caress her, to avow intense affection for her, and to +promise that she would again kiss her when she came to bed. +</p> + +<p> +“Never mind if I’m sleeping,” said Jeanne. “I shall +know you’re there all the same.” +</p> + +<p> +She closed her eyes and fell into a doze. Hélène remained near her, watching +over her slumber. When Rosalie entered on tip-toe to ask permission to go to +bed, she answered “Yes” with a nod. At last eleven o’clock +struck, and Hélène was still watching there, when she imagined she heard a +gentle tapping at the outer door. Bewildered with astonishment, she took up the +lamp and left the room to make sure. +</p> + +<p> +“Who is there?” +</p> + +<p> +“’Tis I; open the door,” replied a voice in stifled tones. +</p> + +<p> +It was Henri’s voice. She quickly opened the door, thinking his coming +only natural. No doubt he had but now been informed of Jeanne’s illness, +and had hastened to her, although she had not summoned him to her assistance, +feeling a certain shame at the thought of allowing him to share in attending on +her daughter. +</p> + +<p> +However, he gave her no opportunity to speak. He followed her into the +dining-room, trembling, with inflamed visage. +</p> + +<p> +“I beseech you, pardon me,” he faltered, as he caught hold of her +hand. “I haven’t seen you for three days past, and I cannot resist +the craving to see you.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène withdrew her hand. He stepped back, but, with his gaze still fixed on +her, continued: “Don’t be afraid; I love you. I would have waited +at the door had you not opened it. Oh! I know very well it is simple madness, +but I love you, I love you all the same!” +</p> + +<p> +Her face was grave as she listened, eloquent with a dumb reproach which +tortured him, and impelled him to pour forth his passionate love. +</p> + +<p> +But Hélène still remained standing, wholly unmoved. At last she spoke. +“You know nothing, then?” asked she. +</p> + +<p> +He had taken her hand, and was raising it to his lips, when she started back +with a gesture of impatience. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! leave me!” she exclaimed. “You see that I am not even +listening to you. I have something far different to think about!” +</p> + +<p> +Then becoming more composed, she put her question to him a second time. +“You know nothing? Well, my daughter is ill. I am pleased to see you; you +will dispel my fears.” +</p> + +<p> +She took up the lamp and walked on before him, but as they were passing through +the doorway, she turned, and looking at him, said firmly: +</p> + +<p> +“I forbid you beginning again here. Oh! you must not!” +</p> + +<p> +He entered behind her, scarcely understanding what had been enjoined on him. +His temples throbbed convulsively, as he leaned over the child’s little +crib. +</p> + +<p> +“She is asleep; look at her,” said Hélène in a whisper. +</p> + +<p> +He did not hear her; his passion would not be silenced. She was hanging over +the bed in front of him, and he could see her rosy neck, with its wavy hair. He +shut his eyes that he might escape the temptation of kissing her, as she said +to him: +</p> + +<p> +“Doctor, look at her, she is so feverish. Oh, tell me whether it is +serious!” +</p> + +<p> +Then, yielding to professional habit, despite the tempest raging in his brain, +he mechanically felt Jeanne’s pulse. Nevertheless, so fierce was the +struggle that he remained for a time motionless, seemingly unaware that he held +this wasted little hand in his own. +</p> + +<p> +“Is it a violent fever?” asked Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +“A violent fever! Do you think so?” he repeated. +</p> + +<p> +The little hand was scorching his own. There came another silence; the +physician was awakening within him, and passion was dying from his eyes. His +face slowly grew paler; he bent down uneasily, and examined Jeanne. +</p> + +<p> +“You are right; this is a very severe attack,” he exclaimed. +“My God! the poor child!” +</p> + +<p> +His passion was now dead; he was solely consumed by a desire to be of service +to her. His coolness at once returned; he sat down, and was questioning the +mother respecting the child’s condition previous to this attack of +illness, when Jeanne awoke, moaning loudly. She again complained of a terrible +pain in the head. The pangs which were darting through her neck and shoulders +had attained such intensity that her every movement wrung a sob from her. +Hélène knelt on the other side of the bed, encouraging her, and smiling on her, +though her heart almost broke at the sight of such agony. +</p> + +<p> +“There’s some one there, isn’t there, mamma?” Jeanne +asked, as she turned round and caught sight of the doctor. +</p> + +<p> +“It is a friend, whom you know.” +</p> + +<p> +The child looked at him for a time with thoughtful eyes, as if in doubt; but +soon a wave of affection passed over her face. “Yes, yes, I know him; I +love him very much.” And with her coaxing air she added: “You will +have to cure me, won’t you, sir, to make mamma happy? Oh, I’ll be +good; I’ll drink everything you give me.” +</p> + +<p> +The doctor again felt her pulse, while Hélène grasped her other hand; and, as +she lay there between them, her eyes travelled attentively from one to the +other, as though no such advantageous opportunity of seeing and comparing them +had ever occurred before. Then her head shook with a nervous trembling; she +grew agitated; and her tiny hands caught hold of her mother and the doctor with +a convulsive grip. +</p> + +<p> +“Do not go away; I’m so afraid. Take care of me; don’t let +all the others come near me. I only want you, only you two, near me. Come +closer up to me, together!” she stammered. +</p> + +<p> +Drawing them nearer, with a violent effort she brought them close to her, still +uttering the same entreaty: “Come close, together, together!” +</p> + +<p> +Several times did she behave in the same delirious fashion. Then came intervals +of quiet, when a heavy sleep fell on her, but it left her breathless and almost +dead. When she started out of these short dozes she heard nothing, saw +nothing—a white vapor shrouded her eyes. The doctor remained watching +over her for a part of the night, which proved a very bad one. He only absented +himself for a moment to procure some medicine. Towards morning, when he was +about to leave, Hélène, with terrible anxiety in her face accompanied him into +the ante-room. +</p> + +<p> +“Well?” asked she. +</p> + +<p> +“Her condition is very serious,” he answered; “but you must +not fear; rely on me; I will give you every assistance. I shall come back at +ten o’clock.” +</p> + +<p> +When Hélène returned to the bedroom she found Jeanne sitting up in bed, gazing +round her with bewildered looks. +</p> + +<p> +“You left me! you left me!” she wailed. “Oh! I’m +afraid; I don’t want to be left all alone.” +</p> + +<p> +To console her, her mother kissed her, but she still gazed round the room: +</p> + +<p> +“Where is he?” she faltered. “Oh! tell him not to go away; I +want him to be here, I want him—” +</p> + +<p> +“He will come back, my darling!” interrupted Hélène, whose tears +were mingling with Jeanne’s own. “He will not leave us, I promise +you. He loves us too well. Now, be good and lie down. I’ll stay here till +he comes back.” +</p> + +<p> +“Really? really?” murmured the child, as she slowly fell back into +deep slumber. +</p> + +<p> +Terrible days now began, three weeks full of awful agony. The fever did not +quit its victim for an hour. Jeanne only seemed tranquil when the doctor was +present; she put one of her little hands in his, while her mother held the +other. She seemed to find safety in their presence; she gave each of them an +equal share of her tyrannical worship, as though she well knew beneath what +passionate kindness she was sheltering herself. Her nervous temperament, so +exquisite in its sensibility, the keener since her illness, inspired her, no +doubt, with the thought that only a miraculous effort of their love could save +her. As the hours slipped away she would gaze on them with grave and searching +looks as they sat on each side of her crib. Her glances remained instinct with +human passion, and though she spoke not she told them all she desired by the +warm pressure of her hands, with which she besought them not to leave her, +giving them to understand what peace was hers when they were present. Whenever +the doctor entered after having been away her joy became supreme, and her eyes, +which never quitted the door, flashed with light; and then she would fall +quietly asleep, all her fears fleeing as she heard her mother and him moving +around her and speaking in whispers. +</p> + +<p> +On the day after the attack Doctor Bodin called. But Jeanne suddenly turned +away her head and refused to allow him to examine her. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t want him, mamma,” she murmured, “I don’t +want him! I beg of you.” +</p> + +<p> +As he made his appearance on the following day, Hélène was forced to inform him +of the child’s dislike, and thus it came about that the venerable doctor +made no further effort to enter the sick-room. Still, he climbed the stairs +every other day to inquire how Jeanne was getting on, and sometimes chatted +with his brother professional, Doctor Deberle, who paid him all the deference +due to an elder. +</p> + +<p> +Moreover, it was useless to try to deceive Jeanne. Her senses had become +wondrously acute. The Abbé and Monsieur Rambaud paid a visit every night; they +sat down and spent an hour in sad silence. One evening, as the doctor was going +away, Hélène signed to Monsieur Rambaud to take his place and clasp the little +one’s hand, so that she might not notice the departure of her beloved +friend. But two or three minutes had scarcely passed ere Jeanne opened her eyes +and quickly drew her hand away. With tears flowing she declared that they were +behaving ill to her. +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t you love me any longer? won’t you have me beside +you?” asked poor Monsieur Rambaud, with tears in his eyes. +</p> + +<p> +She looked at him, deigning no reply; it seemed as if her heart was set on +knowing him no more. The worthy man, grievously pained, returned to his corner. +He always ended by thus gliding into a window-recess, where, half hidden behind +a curtain, he would remain during the evening, in a stupor of grief, his eyes +the while never quitting the sufferer. The Abbé was there as well, with his +large head and pallid face showing above his scraggy shoulders. He concealed +his tears by blowing his nose loudly from time to time. The danger in which he +saw his little friend lying wrought such havoc within him that his poor were +for the time wholly forgotten. +</p> + +<p> +But it was useless for the two brothers to retire to the other end of the room; +Jeanne was still conscious of their presence. They were a source of vexation to +her, and she would turn round with a harassed look, even though drowsy with +fever. Her mother bent over her to catch the words trembling on her lips. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! mamma, I feel so ill. All this is choking me; send everybody +away—quick, quick!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène with the utmost gentleness then explained to the two brothers the +child’s wish to fall asleep; they understood her meaning, and quitted the +room with drooping heads. And no sooner had they gone than Jeanne breathed with +greater freedom, cast a glance round the chamber, and once more fixed a look of +infinite tenderness on her mother and the doctor. +</p> + +<p> +“Good-night,” she whispered; “I feel well again; stay beside +me.” +</p> + +<p> +For three weeks she thus kept them by her side. Henri had at first paid two +visits each day, but soon he spent the whole night with them, giving every hour +he could spare to the child. At the outset he had feared it was a case of +typhoid fever; but so contradictory were the symptoms that he soon felt himself +involved in perplexity. There was no doubt he was confronted by a disease of +the chlorosis type, presenting the greatest difficulty in treatment, with the +possibility of very dangerous complications, as the child was almost on the +threshold of womanhood. He dreaded first a lesion of the heart and then the +setting in of consumption. Jeanne’s nervous excitement, wholly beyond his +control, was a special source of uneasiness; to such heights of delirium did +the fever rise, that the strongest medicines were of no avail. He brought all +his fortitude and knowledge to bear on the case, inspired with the one thought +that his own happiness and life were at stake. On his mind there had now fallen +a great stillness; not once during those three anxious weeks did his passion +break its bonds. Hélène’s breath no longer woke tremors within him, and +when their eyes met they were only eloquent of the sympathetic sadness of two +souls threatened by a common misfortune. +</p> + +<p> +Nevertheless every moment brought their hearts nearer. They now lived only with +the one idea. No sooner had he entered the bed-chamber than by a glance he +gathered how Jeanne had spent the night; and there was no need for him to speak +for Hélène to learn what he thought of the child’s condition. Besides, +with all the innate bravery of a mother, she had forced from him a declaration +that he would not deceive her, but allow her to know his fears. Always on her +feet, not having had three hours’ uninterrupted sleep for three weeks +past, she displayed superhuman endurance and composure, and quelled her despair +without a tear in order that she might concentrate her whole soul upon the +struggle with the dread enemy. Within and without her heart there was nothing +but emptiness; the world around her, the usual thoughts of each hour, the +consciousness of life itself, had all faded into darkness. Existence held +nothing for her. Nothing now bound her to life but her suffering darling and +this man who promised her a miracle. It was he, and he only, to whom she +looked, to whom she listened, whose most trivial words were to her of the first +importance, and into whose breast she would fain have transfused her own soul +in order to increase his energy. Insensibly, and without break, this idea +wrought out its own accomplishment. Almost every evening, when the fever was +raging at its worst and Jeanne lay in imminent peril, they were there beside +her in silence; and as though eager to remind themselves that they stood +shoulder to shoulder struggling against death, their hands met on the edge of +the bed in a caressing clasp, while they trembled with solicitude and pity till +a faint smile breaking over the child’s face, and the sound of quiet and +regular breathing, told them that the danger was past. Then each encouraged the +other by an inclination of the head. Once again had their love triumphed; and +every time the mute caress grew more demonstrative their hearts drew closer +together. +</p> + +<p> +One night Hélène divined that Henri was concealing something from her. For ten +minutes, without a word crossing his lips, he had been examining Jeanne. The +little one complained of intolerable thirst; she seemed choking, and there was +an incessant wheezing in her parched throat. Then a purple flush came over her +face, and she lapsed into a stupor which prevented her even from raising her +eyelids. She lay motionless; it might have been imagined she was dead but for +the sound coming from her throat. +</p> + +<p> +“You consider her very ill, do you not?” gasped Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +He answered in the negative; there was no change. But his face was ashy-white, +and he remained seated, overwhelmed by his powerlessness. Thereupon she also, +despite the tension of her whole being, sank upon a chair on the other side of +the bed. +</p> + +<p> +“Tell me everything. You promised to tell me all. Is she beyond +hope?” +</p> + +<p> +He still sat silent, and she spoke again more vehemently: +</p> + +<p> +“You know how brave I am. Have I wept? have I despaired? Speak: I want to +know the truth.” +</p> + +<p> +Henri fixed his eyes on her. The words came slowly from his lips. +“Well,” said he, “if in an hour hence she hasn’t +awakened from this stupor, it will be all over.” +</p> + +<p> +Not a sob broke from Hélène; but icy horror possessed her and raised her hair +on end. Her eyes turned on Jeanne; she fell on her knees and clasped her in her +arms with a superb gesture eloquent of ownership, as though she could preserve +her from ill, nestling thus against her shoulder. For more than a minute she +kept her face close to the child’s, gazing at her intently, eager to give +her breath from her own nostrils, ay, and her very life too. The labored +breathing of the little sufferer grew shorter and shorter. +</p> + +<p> +“Can nothing be done?” she exclaimed, as she lifted her head. +“Why do you remain there? Do something!” But he made a disheartened +gesture. “Do something!” she repeated. “There must be +something to be done. You are not going to let her die oh, surely not!” +</p> + +<p> +“I will do everything possible,” the doctor simply said. +</p> + +<p> +He rose up, and then a supreme struggle began. All the coolness and nerve of +the practitioner had returned to him. Till now he had not ventured to try any +violent remedies, for he dreaded to enfeeble the little frame already almost +destitute of life. But he no longer remained undecided, and straightway +dispatched Rosalie for a dozen leeches. And he did not attempt to conceal from +the mother that this was a desperate remedy which might save or kill her child. +When the leeches were brought in, her heart failed her for a moment. +</p> + +<p> +“Gracious God! gracious God!” she murmured. “Oh, if you +should kill her!” +</p> + +<p> +He was forced to wring consent from her. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, put them on,” said she; “but may Heaven guide your +hand!” +</p> + +<p> +She had not ceased holding Jeanne, and refused to alter her position, as she +still desired to keep the child’s little head nestling against her +shoulder. With calm features he meantime busied himself with the last resource, +not allowing a word to fall from his lips. The first application of the leeches +proved unsuccessful. The minutes slipped away. The only sound breaking the +stillness of the shadowy chamber was the merciless, incessant tick-tack of the +timepiece. Hope departed with every second. In the bright disc of light cast by +the lamp, Jeanne lay stretched among the disordered bedclothes, with limbs of +waxen pallor. Hélène, with tearless eyes, but choking with emotion, gazed on +the little body already in the clutches of death, and to see a drop of her +daughter’s blood appear, would willingly have yielded up all her own. And +at last a ruddy drop trickled down—the leeches had made fast their hold; +one by one they commenced sucking. The child’s life was in the balance. +These were terrible moments, pregnant with anguish. Was that sigh the +exhalation of Jeanne’s last breath, or did it mark her return to life? +For a time Hélène’s heart was frozen within her; she believed that the +little one was dead; and there came to her a violent impulse to pluck away the +creatures which were sucking so greedily; but some supernatural power +restrained her, and she remained there with open mouth and her blood chilled +within her. The pendulum still swung to and fro; the room itself seemed to wait +the issue in anxious expectation. +</p> + +<p> +At last the child stirred. Her heavy eyelids rose, but dropped again, as though +wonder and weariness had overcome her. A slight quiver passed over her face; it +seemed as if she were breathing. Finally there was a trembling of the lips; and +Hélène, in an agony of suspense, bent over her, fiercely awaiting the result. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma! mamma!” murmured Jeanne. +</p> + +<p> +Henri heard, and walking to the head of the bed, whispered in the +mother’s ear: “She is saved.” +</p> + +<p> +“She is saved! she is saved!” echoed Hélène in stammering tones, +her bosom filled with such joy that she fell on the floor close to the bed, +gazing now at her daughter and now at the doctor with distracted looks. But she +rose and giving way to a mighty impulse, threw herself on Henri’s neck. +</p> + +<p> +“I love you!” she exclaimed. +</p> + +<p> +This was her avowal—the avowal imprisoned so long, but at last poured +forth in the crisis of emotion which had come upon her. Mother and lover were +merged in one; she proffered him her love in a fiery rush of gratitude. +</p> + +<p> +Through her sobs she spoke to him in endearing words. Her tears, dried at their +source for three weeks, were now rolling down her cheeks. But at last she fell +upon her knees, and took Jeanne in her arms to lull her to deeper slumber +against her shoulder; and at intervals whilst her child thus rested she raised +to Henri’s eyes glistening with passionate tears. +</p> + +<p> +Stretched in her cot, the bedclothes tucked under her chin, and her head, with +its dark brown tresses, resting in the centre of the pillow, Jeanne lay, +relieved, but prostrate. Her eyelids were closed, but she did not sleep. The +lamp, placed on the table, which had been rolled close to the fireplace, lit +but one end of the room, and the shade encompassed Hélène and Henri, seated in +their customary places on each side of the bed. But the child did not part +them; on the contrary, she served as a closer bond between them, and her +innocence was intermingled with their love on this first night of its avowal. +At times Hélène rose on tiptoe to fetch the medicine, to turn up the lamp, or +give some order to Rosalie; while the doctor, whose eyes never quitted her, +would sign to her to walk gently. And when she had sat down again they smiled +at one another. Not a word was spoken; all their interest was concentrated on +Jeanne, who was to them as their love itself. Sometimes when the coverlet was +being pulled up, or the child’s head was being raised, their hands met +and rested together in sweet forgetfulness. This undesigned, stealthy caress +was the only one in which they indulged. +</p> + +<p> +“I am not sleeping,” murmured Jeanne. “I know very well you +are there.” +</p> + +<p> +On hearing her speak they were overjoyed. Their hands parted; beyond this they +had no desires. The improvement in the child’s condition was to them +satisfaction and peace. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you feeling better, my darling?” asked Hélène, when she saw +her stirring. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne made no immediate reply, and when she spoke it was dreamingly. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, yes! I don’t feel anything now. But I can hear you, and that +pleases me.” +</p> + +<p> +After the lapse of a moment, she opened her eyes with an effort and looked at +them. Then an angelic smile crossed her face, and her eyelids dropped once +more. +</p> + +<p> +On the morrow, when the Abbé and Monsieur Rambaud made their appearance, Hélène +gave way to a shrug of impatience. They were now a disturbing element in her +happy nest. As they went on questioning her, shaking with fear lest they might +receive bad tidings, she had the cruelty to reply that Jeanne was no better. +She spoke without consideration, driven to this strait by the selfish desire of +treasuring for herself and Henri the bliss of having rescued Jeanne from death, +and of alone knowing this to be so. What was their reason for seeking a share +in her happiness? It belonged to Henri and herself, and had it been known to +another would have seemed to her impaired in value. To her imagination it would +have been as though a stranger were participating in her love. +</p> + +<p> +The priest, however, approached the bed. +</p> + +<p> +“Jeanne, ’tis we, your old friends. Don’t you know us?” +</p> + +<p> +She nodded gravely to them in recognition, but she was unwilling to speak to +them; she was in a thoughtful mood, and she cast a look full of meaning on her +mother. The two poor men went away more heartbroken than on any previous +evening. +</p> + +<p> +Three days later Henri allowed his patient her first boiled egg. It was a +matter of the highest importance. Jeanne’s mind was made up to eat it +with none present but her mother and the doctor, and the door must be closed. +As it happened, Monsieur Rambaud was present at the moment; and when Hélène +began to spread a napkin, by way of tablecloth, on the bed, the child whispered +in her ear: “Wait a moment—when he has gone.” +</p> + +<p> +And as soon as he had left them she burst out: “Now, quick! quick! +It’s far nicer when there’s nobody but ourselves.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène lifted her to a sitting posture, while Henri placed two pillows behind +her to prop her up; and then, with the napkin spread before her and a plate on +her knees, Jeanne waited, smiling. +</p> + +<p> +“Shall I break the shell for you?” asked her mother. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, do, mamma.” +</p> + +<p> +“And I will cut you three little bits of bread,” added the doctor. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! four; you’ll see if I don’t eat four.” +</p> + +<p> +It was now the doctor’s turn to be addressed endearingly. When he gave +her the first slice, she gripped his hand, and as she still clasped her +mother’s, she rained kisses on both with the same passionate tenderness. +</p> + +<p> +“Come, come; you will have to be good,” entreated Hélène, who +observed that she was ready to burst into tears; “you must please us by +eating your egg.” +</p> + +<p> +At this Jeanne ventured to begin; but her frame was so enfeebled that with the +second sippet of bread she declared herself wearied. As she swallowed each +mouthful, she would say, with a smile, that her teeth were tender. Henri +encouraged her, while Hélène’s eyes were brimful of tears. Heaven! she +saw her child eating! She watched the bread disappear, and the gradual +consumption of this first egg thrilled her to the heart. To picture Jeanne +stretched dead beneath the sheets was a vision of mortal terror; but now she +was eating, and eating so prettily, with all an invalid’s characteristic +dawdling and hesitancy! +</p> + +<p> +“You won’t be angry, mamma? I’m doing my best. Why, I’m +at my third bit of bread! Are you pleased?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, my darling, quite pleased. Oh! you don’t know all the joy the +sight gives me!” +</p> + +<p> +And then, in the happiness with which she overflowed, Hélène forgetfully leaned +against Henri’s shoulder. Both laughed gleefully at the child, but over +her face there suddenly crept a sullen flush; she gazed at them stealthily, and +drooped her head, and refused to eat any more, her features glooming the while +with distrust and anger. At last they had to lay her back in bed again. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0013"></a> CHAPTER XIII.</h2> + +<p> +Months slipped away, and Jeanne was still convalescent. August came, and she +had not quitted her bed. When evening fell she would rise for an hour or two; +but even the crossing of the room to the window—where she reclined on an +invalid-chair and gazed out on Paris, flaming with the ruddy light of the dying +sun—seemed too great a strain for her wearied frame. Her attenuated limbs +could scarce bear their burden, and she would declare with a wan smile that the +blood in her veins would not suffice for a little bird, and that she must have +plenty of soup. Morsels of raw meat were dipped in her broth. She had grown to +like this mixture, as she longed to be able to go down to play in the garden. +</p> + +<p> +The weeks and the months which slipped by were ever instinct with the same +delightful monotony, and Hélène forgot to count the days. She never left the +house; at Jeanne’s side she forgot the whole world. No news from without +reached her ears. Her retreat, though it looked down on Paris, which with its +smoke and noise stretched across the horizon, was as secret and secluded as any +cave of holy hermit amongst the hills. Her child was saved, and the knowledge +of it satisfied all her desires. She spent her days in watching over her return +to health, rejoicing in a shade of bright color returning to her cheeks, in a +lively look, or in a gesture of gladness. Every hour made her daughter more +like what she had been of old, with lovely eyes and wavy hair. The slower +Jeanne’s recovery, the greater joy was yielded to Hélène, who recalled +the olden days when she had suckled her, and, as she gazed on her gathering +strength, felt even a keener emotion than when in the past she had measured her +two little feet in her hand to see if she would soon be able to walk. +</p> + +<p> +At the same time some anxiety remained to Hélène. On several occasions she had +seen a shadow come over Jeanne’s face—a shadow of sudden distrust +and sourness. Why was her laughter thus abruptly turned to sulkiness? Was she +suffering? was she hiding some quickening of the old pain? +</p> + +<p> +“Tell me, darling, what is the matter? You were laughing just a moment +ago, and now you are nearly crying! Speak to me: do you feel a pain +anywhere?” +</p> + +<p> +But Jeanne abruptly turned away her head and buried her face in the pillow. +</p> + +<p> +“There’s nothing wrong with me,” she answered curtly. +“I want to be left alone.” +</p> + +<p> +And she would lie brooding the whole afternoon, with her eyes fixed on the +wall, showing no sign of affectionate repentance, but plunged in a sadness +which baffled her forlorn mother. The doctor knew not what to say; these fits +of gloom would always break out when he was there, and he attributed them to +the sufferer’s nervousness. He impressed on Hélène the necessity of +crossing her in nothing. +</p> + +<p> +One afternoon Jeanne had fallen asleep. Henri, who was pleased with her +progress, had lingered in the room, and was carrying on a whispered +conversation with Hélène, who was once more busy with her everlasting +needlework at her seat beside the window. Since the terrible night when she had +confessed she loved him both had lived on peacefully in the consciousness of +their mutual passions, careless of the morrow, and without a thought of the +world. Around Jeanne’s bed, in this room that still reverberated with her +agony, there was an atmosphere of purity which shielded them from any outburst. +The child’s innocent breath fell on them with a quieting influence. But +as the little invalid slowly grew well again, their love in very sympathy took +new strength, and they would sit side by side with beating hearts, speaking +little, and then only in whispers, lest the little one might be awakened. Their +words were without significance, but struck re-echoing chords within the breast +of each. That afternoon their love revealed itself in a thousand ways. +</p> + +<p> +“I assure you she is much better,” said the doctor. “In a +fortnight she will be able to go down to the garden.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène went on stitching quickly. +</p> + +<p> +“Yesterday she was again very sad,” she murmured, “but this +morning she was laughing and happy. She has given me her promise to be +good.” +</p> + +<p> +A long silence followed. The child was still plunged in sleep, and their souls +were enveloped in a profound peace. When she slumbered thus, their relief was +intense; they seemed to share each other’s hearts the more. +</p> + +<p> +“Have you not seen the garden yet?” asked Henri. “Just now +it’s full of flowers.” +</p> + +<p> +“The asters are out, aren’t they?” she questioned. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes; the flower-bed looks magnificent. The clematises have wound their +way up into the elms. It is quite a nest of foliage.” +</p> + +<p> +There was another silence. Hélène ceased sewing, and gave him a smile. To their +fancy it seemed as though they were strolling together along high-banked paths, +dim with shadows, amidst which fell a shower of roses. As he hung over her he +drank in the faint perfume of vervain that arose from her dressing-gown. +However, all at once a rustling of the sheets disturbed them. +</p> + +<p> +“She is wakening!” exclaimed Hélène, as she started up. +</p> + +<p> +Henri drew himself away, and simultaneously threw a glance towards the bed. +Jeanne had but a moment before gripped the pillow with her arms, and, with her +chin buried in it, had turned her face towards them. But her eyelids were still +shut, and judging by her slow and regular breathing, she had again fallen +asleep. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you always sewing like this?” asked Henri, as he came nearer +to Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +“I cannot remain with idle hands,” she answered. “It is +mechanical enough, but it regulates my thoughts. For hours I can think of the +same thing without wearying.” +</p> + +<p> +He said no more, but his eye dwelt on the needle as the stitching went on +almost in a melodious cadence; and it seemed to him as if the thread were +carrying off and binding something of their lives together. For hours she could +have sewn on, and for hours he could have sat there, listening to the music of +the needle, in which, like a lulling refrain, re-echoed one word that never +wearied them. It was their wish to live their days like this in that quiet +nook, to sit side by side while the child was asleep, never stirring from their +places lest they might awaken her. How sweet was that quiescent silence, in +which they could listen to the pulsing of hearts, and bask in the delight of a +dream of everlasting love! +</p> + +<p> +“How good you are!” were the words which came several times from +his lips, the joy her presence gave him only finding expression in that one +phrase. +</p> + +<p> +Again she raised her head, never for a moment deeming it strange that she +should be so passionately worshipped. Henri’s face was near her own, and +for a second they gazed at one another. +</p> + +<p> +“Let me get on with my work,” she said in a whisper. “I shall +never have it finished.” +</p> + +<p> +But just then an instinctive dread prompted her to turn round, and indeed there +lay Jeanne, lowering upon them with deadly pale face and great inky-black eyes. +The child had not made the least movement; her chin was still buried in the +downy pillow, which she clasped with her little arms. She had only opened her +eyes a moment before and was contemplating them. +</p> + +<p> +“Jeanne, what’s the matter?” asked Hélène. “Are you +ill? do you want anything?” +</p> + +<p> +The little one made no reply, never stirred, did not even lower the lids of her +great flashing eyes. A sullen gloom was on her brow, and in her pallid cheeks +were deep hollows. She seemed about to throw back her hands as though a +convulsion was imminent. Hélène started up, begging her to speak; but she +remained obstinately stiff, darting such black looks on her mother that the +latter’s face became purple with blushes, and she murmured: +</p> + +<p> +“Doctor, see; what is the matter with her?” +</p> + +<p> +Henri had drawn his chair away from Hélène’s. He ventured near the bed, +and was desirous of taking hold of one of the little hands which so fiercely +gripped the pillow. But as he touched Jeanne she trembled in every limb, turned +with a start towards the wall, and exclaimed: +</p> + +<p> +“Leave me alone; you, I mean! You are hurting me!” +</p> + +<p> +She pulled the coverlet over her face, and for a quarter of an hour they +attempted, without success, to soothe her with gentle words. At last, as they +still persevered, she sat up with her hands clasped in supplication: “Oh, +please leave me alone; you are tormenting me! Leave me alone!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, in her bewilderment, once more sat down at the window, but Henri did +not resume his place beside her. They now understood: Jeanne was devoured by +jealousy. They were unable to speak another word. For a minute or two the +doctor paced up and down in silence, and then slowly quitted the room, well +understanding the meaning of the anxious glances which the mother was darting +towards the bed. As soon as he had gone, she ran to her daughter’s side +and pressed her passionately to her breast, with a wild outburst of words. +</p> + +<p> +“Hear me, my pet, I am alone now; look at me, speak to me. Are you in +pain? Have I vexed you then? Tell me everything! Is it I whom you are angry +with? What are you troubled about?” +</p> + +<p> +But it was useless to pray for an answer, useless to plead with all sorts of +questions; Jeanne declared that she was quite well. Then she started up with a +frenzied cry: “You don’t love me any more, mamma! you don’t +love me any more!” +</p> + +<p> +She burst into grievous sobbing, and wound her arms convulsively round her +mother’s neck, raining greedy kisses on her face. Hélène’s heart +was rent within her, she felt overwhelmed with unspeakable sadness, and +strained her child to her bosom, mingling her tears with her own, and vowing to +her that she would never love anybody save herself. +</p> + +<p> +From that day onward a mere word or glance would suffice to awaken +Jeanne’s jealousy. While she was in the perilous grip of death some +instinct had led her to put her trust in the loving tenderness with which they +had shielded and saved her. But now strength was returning to her, and she +would allow none to participate in her mother’s love. She conceived a +kind of spite against the doctor, a spite which stealthily grew into hate as +her health improved. It was hidden deep within her self-willed brain, in the +innermost recesses of her suspicious and silent nature. She would never consent +to explain things; she herself knew not what was the matter with her; but she +felt ill whenever the doctor drew too near to her mother; and would press her +hands violently to her bosom. Her torment seemed to sear her very heart, and +furious passion choked her and made her cheeks turn pale. Nor could she place +any restraint on herself; she imagined every one unjust, grew stiff and +haughty, and deigned no reply when she was charged with being very +ill-tempered. Hélène, trembling with dismay, dared not press her to explain the +source of her trouble; indeed, her eyes turned away whenever this +eleven-year-old child darted at her a glance in which was concentrated the +premature passion of a woman. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, Jeanne, you are making me very wretched!” she would sometimes +say to her, the tears standing in her eyes as she observed her stifling in her +efforts to restrain a sudden bubbling up of mad anger. +</p> + +<p> +But these words, once so potent for good, which had so often drawn the child +weeping to Hélène’s arms, were now wholly without influence. There was a +change taking place in her character. Her humors varied ten times a day. +Generally she spoke abruptly and imperiously, addressing her mother as though +she were Rosalie, and constantly plaguing her with the pettiest demands, ever +impatient and loud in complaint. +</p> + +<p> +“Give me a drink. What a time you take! I am left here dying of +thirst!” And when Hélène handed the glass to her she would exclaim: +“There’s no sugar in it; I won’t have it!” +</p> + +<p> +Then she would throw herself back on her pillow, and a second time push away +the glass, with the complaint that the drink was too sweet. They no longer +cared to attend to her, she would say; they were doing it purposely. Hélène, +dreading lest she might infuriate her to a yet greater extent, made no reply, +but gazed on her with tears trembling on her cheeks. +</p> + +<p> +However, Jeanne’s anger was particularly visible when the doctor made his +appearance. The moment he entered the sick-room she would lay herself flat in +bed, or sullenly hang her head in the manner of savage brutes who will not +suffer a stranger to come near. Sometimes she refused to say a word, allowing +him to feel her pulse or examine her while she remained motionless with her +eyes fixed on the ceiling. On other days she would not even look at him, but +clasp her hands over her eyes with such a gust of passion that to remove them +would have necessitated the violent twisting of her arms. One night, as her +mother was about to give her a spoonful of medicine, she burst out with the +cruel remark: “I won’t have it; it will poison me.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène’s heart, pierced to the quick, sank within her, and she dreaded to +elicit what the remark might mean. +</p> + +<p> +“What are you saying, my child?” she asked. “Do you +understand what you are talking about? Medicine is never nice to take. You must +drink this.” +</p> + +<p> +But Jeanne lay there in obstinate silence, and averted her head in order to get +rid of the draught. From that day onward she was full of caprices, swallowing +or rejecting her medicines according to the humor of the moment. She would +sniff at the phials and examine them suspiciously as they stood on the +night-table. Should she have refused to drink the contents of one of them she +never forgot its identity, and would have died rather than allow a drop from it +to pass her lips. Honest Monsieur Rambaud alone could persuade her at times. It +was he whom she now overwhelmed with the most lavish caresses, especially if +the doctor were looking on; and her gleaming eyes were turned towards her +mother to note if she were vexed by this display of affection towards another. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, it’s you, old friend!” she exclaimed the moment he +entered. “Come and sit down near me. Have you brought me any +oranges?” +</p> + +<p> +She sat up and laughingly fumbled in his pockets, where goodies were always +secreted. Then she embraced him, playing quite a love comedy, while her revenge +found satisfaction in the anguish which she imagined she could read on her +mother’s pallid face. Monsieur Rambaud beamed with joy over his +restoration to his little sweetheart’s good graces. But Hélène, on +meeting him in the ante-room, was usually able to acquaint him with the state +of affairs, and all at once he would look at the draught standing on the table +and exclaim: “What! are you having syrup?” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne’s face clouded over, and, in a low voice, she replied: “No, +no, it’s nasty, it’s nauseous; I can’t take it.” +</p> + +<p> +“What! you can’t drink this?” questioned Monsieur Rambaud +gaily. “I can wager it’s very good. May I take a little of +it?” +</p> + +<p> +Then without awaiting her permission he poured out a large spoonful, and +swallowed it with a grimace that seemed to betoken immeasurable satisfaction. +</p> + +<p> +“How delicious!” he murmured. “You are quite wrong; see, just +take a little to try.” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne, amused, then made no further resistance. She would drink whatever +Monsieur Rambaud happened to taste. She watched his every motion greedily, and +appeared to study his features with a view to observing the effects of the +medicine. The good man for a month gorged himself in this way with drugs, and, +on Hélène gratefully thanking him, merely shrugged his shoulders. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! it’s very good stuff!” he declared, with perfect +conviction, making it his pleasure to share the little one’s medicines. +</p> + +<p> +He passed his evenings at her bedside. The Abbé, on the other hand, came +regularly every second day. Jeanne retained them with her as long as possible, +and displayed vexation when she saw them take up their hats. Her immediate +dread lay in being left alone with her mother and the doctor, and she would +fain have always had company in the room to keep these two apart. Frequently, +without reason, she called Rosalie to her. When they were alone with her, her +eyes never quitted them, but pursued them into every corner of the bedroom. +Whenever their hands came together, her face grew ashy white. If a whispered +word was exchanged between them, she started up in anger, demanding to know +what had been said. It was a grievance to her that her mother’s gown +should sweep against the doctor’s foot. They could not approach or look +at one another without the child falling immediately into violent trembling. +The extreme sensitiveness of her innocent little being induced in her an +exasperation which would suddenly prompt her to turn round, should she guess +that they were smiling at one another behind her. She could divine the times +when their love was at its height by the atmosphere wafted around her. It was +then that her gloom became deeper, and her agonies were those of nervous women +at the approach of a terrible storm. +</p> + +<p> +Every one about Hélène now looked on Jeanne as saved, and she herself had +slowly come to recognize this as a certainty. Thus it happened that +Jeanne’s fits were at last regarded by her as the bad humors of a spoilt +child, and as of little or no consequence. A craving to live sprang up within +her after the six weeks of anguish which she had just spent. Her daughter was +now well able to dispense with her care for hours; and for her, who had so long +become unconscious of life, these hours opened up a vista of delight, of peace, +and pleasure. She rummaged in her drawers, and made joyous discoveries of +forgotten things; she plunged into all sorts of petty tasks, in the endeavor to +resume the happy course of her daily existence. And in this upwelling of life +her love expanded, and the society of Henri was the reward she allowed herself +for the intensity of her past sufferings. In the shelter of that room they +deemed themselves beyond the world’s ken, and every hindrance in their +path was forgotten. The child, to whom their love had proved a terror, alone +remained a bar between them. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne became, indeed, a veritable scourge to their affections. An ever-present +barrier, with her eyes constantly upon them, she compelled them to maintain a +continued restraint, an affectation of indifference, with the result that their +hearts were stirred with even greater motion than before. For days they could +not exchange a word; they knew intuitively that she was listening even when she +was seemingly wrapped in slumber. One evening, when Hélène had quitted the room +with Henri, to escort him to the front door, Jeanne burst out with the cry, +“Mamma! mamma!” in a voice shrill with rage. Hélène was forced to +return, for she heard the child leap from her bed; and she met her running +towards her, shivering with cold and passion. Jeanne would no longer let her +remain away from her. From that day forward they could merely exchange a clasp +of the hand on meeting and parting. Madame Deberle was now spending a month at +the seaside, and the doctor, though he had all his time at his own command, +dared not pass more than ten minutes in Hélène’s company. Their long +chats at the window had come to an end. +</p> + +<p> +What particularly tortured their hearts was the fickleness of Jeanne’s +humor. One night, as the doctor hung over her, she gave way to tears. For a +whole day her hate changed to feverish tenderness, and Hélène felt happy once +more; but on the morrow, when the doctor entered the room, the child received +him with such a display of sourness that the mother besought him with a look to +leave them. Jeanne had fretted the whole night in angry regret over her own +good-humor. Not a day passed but what a like scene was enacted. And after the +blissful hours the child brought them in her moods of impassioned tenderness +these hours of misery fell on them with the torture of the lash. +</p> + +<p> +A feeling of revulsion at last awoke within Hélène. To all seeming her daughter +would be her death. Why, when her illness had been put to flight, did the +ill-natured child work her utmost to torment her? If one of those intoxicating +dreams took possession of her imagination—a mystic dream in which she +found herself traversing a country alike unknown and entrancing with Henri by +her side Jeanne’s face, harsh and sullen, would suddenly start up before +her and thus her heart was ever being rent in twain. The struggle between her +maternal affection and her passion became fraught with the greatest suffering. +</p> + +<p> +One evening, despite Hélène’s formal edict of banishment, the doctor +called. For eight days they had been unable to exchange a word together. She +would fain that he had not entered; but he did so on learning that Jeanne was +in a deep sleep. They sat down as of old, near the window, far from the glare +of the lamp, with the peaceful shadows around them. For two hours their +conversation went on in such low whispers that scarcely a sound disturbed the +silence of the large room. At times they turned their heads and glanced at the +delicate profile of Jeanne, whose little hands, clasped together, were reposing +on the coverlet. But in the end they grew forgetful of their surroundings, and +their talk incautiously became louder. Then, all at once, Jeanne’s voice +rang out. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma! mamma!” she cried, seized with sudden agitation, as though +suffering from nightmare. +</p> + +<p> +She writhed about in her bed, her eyelids still heavy with sleep, and then +struggled to reach a sitting posture. +</p> + +<p> +“Hide, I beseech you!” whispered Hélène to the doctor in a tone of +anguish. “You will be her death if you stay here.” +</p> + +<p> +In an instant Henri vanished into the window-recess, concealed by the blue +velvet curtain; but it was in vain, the child still kept up her pitiful cry: +“Oh, mamma! mamma! I suffer so much.” +</p> + +<p> +“I am here beside you, my darling; where do you feel the pain?” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know. Oh, see, it is here! Oh, it is scorching me!” +With eyes wide open and features distorted, she pressed her little hands to her +bosom. “It came on me in a moment. I was asleep, wasn’t I? But I +felt something like a burning coal.” +</p> + +<p> +“But it’s all gone now. You’re not pained any longer, are +you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, yes, I feel it still.” +</p> + +<p> +She glanced uneasily round the room. She was now wholly awake; the sullen gloom +crept over her face once more, and her cheeks became livid. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you by yourself, mamma?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Of course I am, my darling!” +</p> + +<p> +Nevertheless Jeanne shook her head and gazed about, sniffing the air, while her +agitation visibly increased. “No, you’re not; I know you’re +not. There’s some one—Oh, mamma! I’m afraid, I’m +afraid! You are telling me a story; you are not by yourself.” +</p> + +<p> +She fell back in bed in an hysterical fit, sobbing loudly and huddling herself +beneath the coverlet, as though to ward off some danger. Hélène, crazy with +alarm, dismissed Henri without delay, despite his wish to remain and look after +the child. But she drove him out forcibly, and on her return clasped Jeanne in +her arms, while the little one gave vent to the one pitiful cry, with every +utterance of which her sobbing was renewed louder than ever: “You +don’t love me any more! You don’t love me any more!” +</p> + +<p> +“Hush, hush, my angel! don’t say that,” exclaimed the mother +in agony. “You are all the world to me. You’ll see yet whether I +love you or not.” +</p> + +<p> +She nursed her until the morning broke, intent on yielding up to her all her +heart’s affections, though she was appalled at realizing how completely +the love of herself possessed this darling child. Next day she deemed a +consultation necessary. Doctor Bodin, dropping in as though by chance, +subjected the patient with many jokes to a careful examination; and a lengthy +discussion ensued between him and Doctor Deberle, who had remained in the +adjacent room. Both readily agreed that there were no serious symptoms apparent +at the moment, but they were afraid of complex developments, and +cross-questioned Hélène for some time. They realized that they were dealing +with one of those nervous affections which have a family history, and set +medical skill at defiance. She told them, what they already partly knew, that +her grandmother[*] was confined in the lunatic asylum of Les Tulettes at a +short distance from Plassans, and that her mother had died from galloping +consumption, after many years of brain affection and hysterical fits. She +herself took more after her father; she had his features and the same gravity +of temperament. Jeanne, on the other hand, was the facsimile of her +grandmother; but she never would have her strength, commanding figure, or +sturdy, bony frame. The two doctors enjoined on her once more that the greatest +care was requisite. Too many precautions could not be taken in dealing with +chloro-anaemical affections, which tend to develop a multitude of dangerous +diseases. +</p> + +<p> +[*] Adelaide Fouque, already mentioned, who figures so prominently in +“The Fortune of the Rougons,” and dies under such horrible +circumstances in “Doctor Pascal.” +</p> + +<p> +Henri had listened to old Doctor Bodin with a deference which he had never +before displayed for a colleague. He besought his advice on Jeanne’s case +with the air of a pupil who is full of doubt. Truth to tell, this child +inspired him with dread; he felt that her case was beyond his science, and he +feared lest she might die under his hands and her mother be lost to him for +ever. A week passed away. He was no longer admitted by Hélène into the little +one’s presence; and in the end, sad and sick at heart, he broke off his +visits of his own accord. +</p> + +<p> +As the month of August verged on its close, Jeanne recovered sufficient +strength to rise and walk across the room. The lightness of her heart spoke in +her laughter. A fortnight had elapsed since the recurrence of any nervous +attack. The thought that her mother was again all her own and would ever cling +to her had proved remedy enough. At first distrust had rankled in her mind; +while letting Hélène kiss her she had remained uneasy at her least movement, +and had imperiously besought her hand before she fell asleep, anxious to retain +it in her own during her slumber. But at last, with the knowledge that nobody +came near, she had regained confidence, enraptured by the prospect of a +reopening of the old happy life when they had sat side by side, working at the +window. Every day brought new roses to her cheeks; and Rosalie declared that +she was blossoming brighter and brighter every hour. +</p> + +<p> +There were times, however, as night fell, when Hélène broke down. Since her +daughter’s illness her face had remained grave and somewhat pale, and a +deep wrinkle, never before visible, furrowed her brow. When Jeanne caught sight +of her in these hours of weariness, despair, and voidness, she herself would +feel very wretched, her heart heavy with vague remorse. Gently and silently she +would then twine her arms around her neck. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you happy, mother darling?” came the whisper. +</p> + +<p> +A thrill ran through Hélène’s frame, and she hastened to answer: +“Yes, of course, my pet.” +</p> + +<p> +Still the child pressed her question: +</p> + +<p> +“Are you, oh! are you happy? Quite sure?” +</p> + +<p> +“Quite sure. Why should I feel unhappy?” +</p> + +<p> +With this Jeanne would clasp her closer in her little arms, as though to +requite her. She would love her so well, she would say—so well, indeed, +that nowhere in all Paris could a happier mother be found. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0014"></a> CHAPTER XIV.</h2> + +<p> +During August Doctor Deberle’s garden was like a well of foliage. The +railings were hidden both by the twining branches of the lilac and laburnum +trees and by the climbing plants, ivy, honeysuckle, and clematis, which +sprouted everywhere in luxuriance, and glided and intermingled in inextricable +confusion, drooping down in leafy canopies, and running along the walls till +they reached the elms at the far end, where the verdure was so profuse that you +might have thought a tent were stretched between the trees, the elms serving as +its giant props. The garden was so small that the least shadow seemed to cover +it. At noon the sun threw a disc of yellow light on the centre, illumining the +lawn and its two flower-beds. Against the garden steps was a huge rose-bush, +laden with hundreds of large tea-roses. In the evening when the heat subsided +their perfume became more penetrating, and the air under the elms grew heavy +with their warm breath. Nothing could exceed the charm of this hidden, balmy +nook, into which no neighborly inquisition could peep, and which brought one a +dream of the forest primeval, albeit barrel-organs were playing polkas in the +Rue Vineuse, near by. +</p> + +<p> +“Why, madame, doesn’t mademoiselle go down to the garden?” +Rosalie daily asked. “I’m sure it would do her good to romp about +under the trees.” +</p> + +<p> +One of the elms had invaded Rosalie’s kitchen with its branches. She +would pull some of the leaves off as she gazed with delight on the clustering +foliage, through which she could see nothing. +</p> + +<p> +“She isn’t strong enough yet,” was Hélène’s reply. +“The cold, shady garden might be harmful to her.” +</p> + +<p> +Rosalie was in no wise convinced. A happy thought with her was not easily +abandoned. Madame must surely be mistaken in imagining that it would be cold or +harmful. Perhaps madame’s objection sprang rather from the fear that she +would be in somebody’s way; but that was nonsense. Mademoiselle would of +a truth be in nobody’s way; not a living soul made any appearance there. +The doctor shunned the spot, and as for madame, his wife, she would remain at +the seaside till the middle of September. This was so certain that the +doorkeeper had asked Zephyrin to give the garden a rake over, and Zephyrin and +she herself had spent two Sunday afternoons there already. Oh! it was lovely, +lovelier than one could imagine. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, however, still declined to act on the suggestion. Jeanne seemed to have +a great longing to enjoy a walk in the garden, which had been the ceaseless +topic of her discourse during her illness; but a vague feeling of embarrassment +made her eyes droop and closed her mouth on the subject in her mother’s +presence. At last when Sunday came round again the maid hurried into the room +exclaiming breathlessly: +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! madame, there’s nobody there, I give you my word! Only myself +and Zephyrin, who is raking! Do let her come. You can’t imagine how fine +it is outside. Come for a little, only a little while, just to see!” +</p> + +<p> +Her conviction was such that Hélène gave way. She cloaked Jeanne in a shawl, +and told Rosalie to take a heavy wrap with her. The child was in an ecstasy, +which spoke silently from the depths of her large sparkling eyes; she even +wished to descend the staircase without help in order that her strength might +be made plain. However, her mother’s arms were stretched out behind her, +ready to lend support. When they had reached the foot of the stairs and entered +the garden, they both gave vent to an exclamation. So little did this +umbrageous, thicket-girt spot resemble the trim nook they had seen in the +springtime that they failed to recognize it. +</p> + +<p> +“Ah! you wouldn’t believe me!” declared Rosalie, in +triumphant tones. +</p> + +<p> +The clumps of shrubbery had grown to great proportions, making the paths much +narrower, and, in walking, their skirts caught in some of the interwoven +branches. To the fancy it seemed some far-away recess in a wood, arched over +with foliage, from which fell a greeny light of delightful charm and mystery. +Hélène directed her steps towards the elm beneath which she had sat in April. +</p> + +<p> +“But I don’t wish her to stay here,” said she. “It is +shady and coldish.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, well, you will see in a minute,” answered the maid. +</p> + +<p> +Three steps farther on they emerged from the seeming forest, and, in the midst +of the leafy profusion they found the sun’s golden rays streaming on the +lawn, warm and still as in a woodland clearing. As they looked up they saw the +branches standing out against the blue of the sky with the delicacy of guipure. +The tea-roses on the huge bush, faint in the heat, dropped slumberously from +their stems. The flower-beds were full of red and white asters, looking with +their old-world air like blossoms woven in some ancient tapestry. +</p> + +<p> +“Now you’ll see,” said Rosalie. “I’m going to put +her all right myself.” +</p> + +<p> +She had folded and placed the wrap on the edge of a walk, where the shadow came +to an end. Here she made Jeanne sit down, covering her shoulders with a shawl, +and bidding her stretch out her little legs. In this fashion the shade fell on +the child’s head, while her feet lay in the sunshine. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you all right, my darling?” Hélène asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, yes,” was her answer. “I don’t feel cold a bit, +you know. I almost think I am sweltering before a big fire. Ah! how well one +can breathe! How pleasant it is!” +</p> + +<p> +Thereupon Hélène, whose eyes had turned uneasily towards the closed +window-shutters of the house, expressed her intention of returning upstairs for +a little while, and loaded Rosalie with a variety of injunctions. She would +have to watch the sun; she was not to leave Jeanne there for more than half an +hour; and she must not lose sight of her for a moment. +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t be alarmed, mamma,” exclaimed the child, with a laugh. +“There are no carriages to pass along here.” +</p> + +<p> +Left to amuse herself, she gathered a handful of gravel from the path at her +side, and took pleasure in letting it fall from her clasped hands like a shower +of rain. Zephyrin meantime was raking. On catching sight of madame and her +daughter he had slipped on his great-coat, which he had previously hung from +the branch of a tree; and in token of respect had stood stock-still, with his +rake idle in his hand. Throughout Jeanne’s illness he had come every +Sunday as usual; but so great had been the caution with which he had slipped +into the kitchen, that Hélène would scarcely have dreamt of his presence had +not Rosalie on each occasion been deputed as his messenger to inquire about the +invalid’s progress, and convey his condolences. Yes, so ran her comments, +he was now laying claim to good manners; Paris was giving him some polish! And +at present here he was, leaning on his rake, and mutely addressing Jeanne with +a sympathetic nod. As soon as she saw him, her face broke into smiles. +</p> + +<p> +“I have been very ill,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, I know, mademoiselle,” he replied as he placed his hand on +his heart. And inspired with the wish to say something pretty or comical, which +might serve to enliven the meeting, he added: “You see, your health has +been taking a rest. Now it will indulge in a snore.” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne had again gathered up a handful of gravel, while he, perfectly +satisfied, and opening his mouth wide from ear to ear in a burst of silent +laughter, renewed his raking with all the strength of his arms. As the rake +travelled over the gravel a regular, strident sound arose. When a few minutes +had elapsed Rosalie, seeing her little charge absorbed in her amusement, +seemingly happy and at ease, drew gradually farther away from her, as though +lured by the grating of this rake. Zephyrin was now working away in the full +glare of the sun, on the other side of the lawn. +</p> + +<p> +“You are sweating like an ox,” she whispered to him. “Take +off your great-coat. Be quick; mademoiselle won’t be offended.” +</p> + +<p> +He relieved himself of the garment, and once more suspended it from a branch. +His red trousers, supported by a belt round the waist, reached almost to his +chest, while his shirt of stout, unbleached linen, held at the neck by a narrow +horsehair band, was so stiff that it stuck out and made him look even rounder +than he was. He tucked up his sleeves with a certain amount of affectation, as +though to show Rosalie a couple of flaming hearts, which, with the inscription +“For Ever,” had been tattooed on them at the barracks. +</p> + +<p> +“Did you go to mass this morning?” asked Rosalie, who usually +tackled him with this question every Sunday. +</p> + +<p> +“To mass! to mass!” he repeated, with a chuckle. +</p> + +<p> +His red ears seemed to stand out from his head, shorn to the very skin, and the +whole of his diminutive barrel-like body expressed a spirit of banter. +</p> + +<p> +At last the confession came. “Of course I went to mass.” +</p> + +<p> +“You are lying,” Rosalie burst out violently. “I know you are +lying; your nose is twitching. Oh, Zephyrin, you are going to the +dogs—you have left off going to church! Beware!” +</p> + +<p> +His answer, lover-like, was an attempt to put his arm round her waist, but to +all appearance she was shocked, for she exclaimed: +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll make you put on your coat again if you don’t behave +yourself. Aren’t you ashamed? Why, there’s mademoiselle looking at +you!” +</p> + +<p> +Thereupon Zephyrin turned to his raking once more. In truth, Jeanne had raised +her eyes towards them. Her amusement was palling on her somewhat; the gravel +thrown aside, she had been gathering leaves and plucking grass; but a feeling +of indolence crept over her, and now she preferred to do nothing but gaze at +the sunshine as it fell on her more and more. A few moments previously only her +legs, as far as the knees, had been bathed in this warm cascade of sunshine, +but now it reached her waist, the heat increasing like an entrancing caress. +What particularly amused her were the round patches of light, of a beautiful +golden yellow, which danced over her shawl, for all the world like living +creatures. She tossed back her head to see if they were perchance creeping +towards her face, and meanwhile clasped her little hands together in the glare +of the sunshine. How thin and transparent her hands seemed! The sun’s +rays passed through them, but all the same they appeared to her very pretty, +pinky like shells, delicate and attenuated like the tiny hands of an infant +Christ. Then too the fresh air, the gigantic trees around her, and the warmth, +had lulled her somewhat into a trance. Sleep, she imagined, had come upon her, +and yet she could still see and hear. It all seemed to her very nice and +pleasant. +</p> + +<p> +“Mademoiselle, please draw back a bit,” said Rosalie, who had +approached her. “The sun’s heat is too warm for you.” +</p> + +<p> +But with a wave of her hand Jeanne declined to stir. For the time her attention +was riveted on the maid and the little soldier. She pretended to direct her +glances towards the ground, with the intention of making them believe that she +did not see them; but in reality, despite her apparent drowsiness, she kept +watching them from beneath her long eyelashes. +</p> + +<p> +Rosalie stood near her for a minute or two longer, but was powerless against +the charms of the grating rake. Once more she slowly dragged herself towards +Zephyrin, as if in spite of her will. She resented the change in manner which +he was now displaying, and yet her heart was bursting with mute admiration. The +little soldier had used to good purpose his long strolls with his comrades in +the Jardin des Plantes and round the Place du Chateau-d’Eau, where his +barracks stood, and the result was the acquisition of the swaying, expansive +graces of the Parisian fire-eater. He had learnt the flowery talk, gallant +readiness, and involved style of language so dear to the hearts of the ladies. +At times she was thrilled with intense pleasure as she listened to the phrases +which he repeated to her with a swagger of the shoulders, phrases full of +incomprehensible words that inflamed her cheeks with a flush of pride. His +uniform no longer sat awkwardly on him; he swung his arms to and fro with a +knowing air, and had an especially noticeable style of wearing his shako on the +back of his head, with the result that his round face with its tip of a nose +became extremely prominent, while his headgear swayed gently with the rolling +of his body. Besides, he was growing quite free and easy, quaffed his dram, and +ogled the fair sex. With his sneering ways and affectation of reticence, he now +doubtless knew a great deal more than she did. Paris was fast taking all the +remaining rust off him; and Rosalie stood before him, delighted yet angry, +undecided whether to scratch his face or let him give utterance to foolish +prattle. +</p> + +<p> +Zephyrin, meanwhile, raking away, had turned the corner of the path. He was now +hidden by a big spindle-tree, and was darting side-glances at Rosalie, luring +her on against her will with the strokes of his rake. When she had got near +him, he pinched her roughly. +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t cry out; that’s only to show you how I love +you!” he said in a husky whisper. “And take that over and +above.” +</p> + +<p> +So saying he kissed her where he could, his lips lighting somewhere on her ear. +Then, as Rosalie gave him a fierce nip in reply, he retaliated by another kiss, +this time on her nose. Though she was well pleased, her face turned fiery-red; +she was furious that Jeanne’s presence should prevent her from giving him +a box on the ear. +</p> + +<p> +“I have pricked my finger,” she declared to Jeanne as she returned +to her, by way of explaining the exclamation that escaped her lips. +</p> + +<p> +However, betwixt the spare branches of the spindle-tree the child had seen the +incident. Amid the surrounding greenery the soldier’s red trousers and +greyish shirt were clearly discernible. She slowly raised her eyes to Rosalie, +and looked at her for a moment, while the maid blushed the more. Then +Jeanne’s gaze fell to the ground again, and she gathered another handful +of pebbles, but lacked the will or strength to play with them, and remained in +a dreamy state, with her hands resting on the warm ground, amidst the +vibrations of the sunrays. Within her a wave of health was swelling and +stifling her. The trees seemed to take Titanic shape, and the air was redolent +of the perfume of roses. In wonder and delight, she dreamt of all sorts of +vague things. +</p> + +<p> +“What are you thinking of, mademoiselle?” asked Rosalie uneasily. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know—of nothing,” was Jeanne’s reply. +“Yes, I do know. You see, I should like to live to be very old.” +</p> + +<p> +However, she could not explain these words. It was an idea, she said, that had +come into her head. But in the evening, after dinner, as her dreamy fit fell on +her again, and her mother inquired the cause, she suddenly put the question: +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma, do cousins ever marry?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, of course,” said Hélène. “Why do you ask me +that?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, nothing; only I wanted to know.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène had become accustomed to these extraordinary questions. The hour spent +in the garden had so beneficial an effect on the child that every sunny day +found her there. Hélène’s reluctance was gradually dispelled; the house +was still shut up. Henri never ventured to show himself, and ere long she sat +down on the edge of the rug beside Jeanne. However, on the following Sunday +morning she found the windows thrown open, and felt troubled at heart. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! but of course the rooms must be aired,” exclaimed Rosalie, as +an inducement for them to go down. “I declare to you nobody’s +there!” +</p> + +<p> +That day the weather was still warmer. Through the leafy screen the sun’s +rays darted like golden arrows. Jeanne, who was growing strong, strolled about +for ten minutes, leaning on her mother’s arm. Then, somewhat tired, she +turned towards her rug, a corner of which she assigned to Hélène. They smiled +at one another, amused at thus finding themselves side by side on the ground. +Zephyrin had given up his raking, and was helping Rosalie to gather some +parsley, clumps of which were growing along the end wall. +</p> + +<p> +All at once there was an uproar in the house, and Hélène was thinking of +flight, when Madame Deberle made her appearance on the garden-steps. She had +just arrived, and was still in her travelling dress, speaking very loudly, and +seemingly very busy. But immediately she caught sight of Madame Grandjean and +her daughter, sitting on the ground in the front of the lawn, she ran down, +overwhelmed them with embraces, and poured a deafening flood of words into +their ears. +</p> + +<p> +“What, is it you? How glad I am to see you! Kiss me, my little Jeanne! +Poor puss, you’ve been very ill, have you not? But you’re getting +better; the roses are coming back to your cheeks! And you, my dear, how often +I’ve thought of you! I wrote to you: did my letters reach you? You must +have spent a terrible time: but it’s all over now! Will you let me kiss +you?” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène was now on her feet, and was forced to submit to a kiss on each cheek +and return them. This display of affection, however, chilled her to the heart. +</p> + +<p> +“You’ll excuse us for having invaded your garden,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“You’re joking,” retorted Juliette impetuously. “Are +you not at home here?” +</p> + +<p> +But she ran off for a moment, hastened up the stairs, and called across the +open rooms: “Pierre, don’t forget anything; there are seventeen +packages!” +</p> + +<p> +Then, at once coming back, she commenced chattering about her holiday +adventures. “Oh! such a splendid season! We went to Trouville, you know. +The beach was always thronged with people. It was quite a crush. and people of +the highest spheres, you know. I had visitors too. Papa came for a fortnight +with Pauline. All the same, I’m glad to get home again. But I +haven’t given you all my news. Oh! I’ll tell you later on!” +</p> + +<p> +She stooped down and kissed Jeanne again; then suddenly becoming serious, she +asked: +</p> + +<p> +“Am I browned by the sun?” +</p> + +<p> +“No; I don’t see any signs of it,” replied Hélène as she +gazed at her. +</p> + +<p> +Juliette’s eyes were clear and expressionless, her hands were plump, her +pretty face was full of amiability; age did not tell on her; the sea air itself +was powerless to affect her expression of serene indifference. So far as +appearances went, she might have just returned from a shopping expedition in +Paris. However, she was bubbling over with affection, and the more loving her +outbursts, the more weary, constrained, and ill became Hélène. Jeanne meantime +never stirred from the rug, but merely raised her delicate, sickly face, while +clasping her hands with a chilly air in the sunshine. +</p> + +<p> +“Wait, you haven’t seen Lucien yet,” exclaimed Juliette. +“You must see him; he has got so fat.” +</p> + +<p> +When the lad was brought on the scene, after the dust of the journey had been +washed from his face by a servant girl, she pushed and turned him about to +exhibit him. Fat and chubby-cheeked, his skin tanned by playing on the beach in +the salt breeze, Lucien displayed exuberant health, but he had a somewhat sulky +look because he had just been washed. He had not been properly dried, and one +check was still wet and fiery-red with the rubbing of the towel. When he caught +sight of Jeanne he stood stock-still with astonishment. She looked at him out +of her poor, sickly face, as colorless as linen against the background of her +streaming black hair, whose tresses fell in clusters to her shoulders. Her +beautiful, sad, dilated eyes seemed to fill up her whole countenance; and, +despite the excessive heat, she shivered somewhat, and stretched out her hands +as though chilled and seeking warmth from a blazing fire. +</p> + +<p> +“Well! aren’t you going to kiss her?” asked Juliette. +</p> + +<p> +But Lucien looked rather afraid. At length he made up his mind, and very +cautiously protruded his lips so that he might not come too near the invalid. +This done, he started back expeditiously. Hélène’s eyes were brimming +over with tears. What health that child enjoyed! whereas her Jeanne was +breathless after a walk round the lawn! Some mothers were very fortunate! +Juliette all at once understood how cruel Lucien’s conduct was, and she +rated him soundly. +</p> + +<p> +“Good gracious! what a fool you are! Is that the way to kiss young +ladies? You’ve no idea, my dear, what a nuisance he was at +Trouville.” +</p> + +<p> +She was getting somewhat mixed. But fortunately for her the doctor now made his +appearance, and she extricated herself from her difficulty by exclaiming: +“Oh, here’s Henri.” +</p> + +<p> +He had not been expecting their return until the evening, but she had travelled +by an earlier train. She plunged into a discursive explanation, without in the +least making her reasons clear. The doctor listened with a smiling face. +“At all events, here you are,” he said. “That’s all +that’s necessary.” +</p> + +<p> +A minute previously he had bowed to Hélène without speaking. His glance for a +moment fell on Jeanne, but feeling embarrassed he turned away his head. Jeanne +bore his look with a serious face, and unclasping her hands instinctively +grasped her mother’s gown and drew closer to her side. +</p> + +<p> +“Ah! the rascal,” said the doctor, as he raised Lucien and kissed +him on each cheek. “Why, he’s growing like magic.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes; and am I to be forgotten?” asked Juliette, as she held up her +head. Then, without putting Lucien down, holding him, indeed, on one arm, the +doctor leaned over to kiss his wife. Their three faces were lit up with smiles. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène grew pale, and declared she must now go up. Jeanne, however, was +unwilling; she wished to see what might happen, and her glances lingered for a +while on the Deberles and then travelled back to her mother. When Juliette had +bent her face upwards to receive her husband’s kiss, a bright gleam had +come into the child’s eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“He’s too heavy,” resumed the doctor as he set Lucien down +again. “Well, was the season a good one? I saw Malignon yesterday, and he +was telling me about his stay there. So you let him leave before you, +eh?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! he’s quite a nuisance!” exclaimed Juliette, over whose +face a serious, embarrassed expression had now crept. “He tormented us to +death the whole time.” +</p> + +<p> +“Your father was hoping for Pauline’s sake—He hasn’t +declared his intentions then?” +</p> + +<p> +“What! Malignon!” said she, as though astonished and offended. And +then with a gesture of annoyance she added, “Oh! leave him alone; +he’s cracked! How happy I am to be home again!” +</p> + +<p> +Without any apparent transition, she thereupon broke into an amazing outburst +of tenderness, characteristic of her bird-like nature. She threw herself on her +husband’s breast and raised her face towards him. To all seeming they had +forgotten that they were not alone. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne’s eyes, however, never quitted them. Her lips were livid and +trembled with anger; her face was that of a jealous and revengeful woman. The +pain she suffered was so great that she was forced to turn away her head, and +in doing so she caught sight of Rosalie and Zephyrin at the bottom of the +garden, still gathering parsley. Doubtless with the intent of being in no +one’s way, they had crept in among the thickest of the bushes, where both +were squatting on the ground. Zephyrin, with a sly movement, had caught hold of +one of Rosalie’s feet, while she, without uttering a syllable, was +heartily slapping him. Between two branches Jeanne could see the little +soldier’s face, chubby and round as a moon and deeply flushed, while his +mouth gaped with an amorous grin. Meantime the sun’s rays were beating +down vertically, and the trees were peacefully sleeping, not a leaf stirring +among them all. From beneath the elms came the heavy odor of soil untouched by +the spade. And elsewhere floated the perfume of the last tea-roses, which were +casting their petals one by one on the garden steps. Then Jeanne, with swelling +heart, turned her gaze on her mother, and seeing her motionless and dumb in +presence of the Deberles, gave her a look of intense anguish—a +child’s look of infinite meaning, such as you dare not question. +</p> + +<p> +But Madame Deberle stepped closer to them, and said: “I hope we shall see +each other frequently now. As Jeanne is feeling better, she must come down +every afternoon.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène was already casting about for an excuse, pleading that she did not wish +to weary her too much. But Jeanne abruptly broke in: “No, no; the sun +does me a great deal of good. We will come down, madame. You will keep my place +for me, won’t you?” +</p> + +<p> +And as the doctor still remained in the background, she smiled towards him. +</p> + +<p> +“Doctor, please tell mamma that the fresh air won’t do me any +harm.” +</p> + +<p> +He came forward, and this man, inured to human suffering, felt on his cheeks a +slight flush at being thus gently addressed by the child. +</p> + +<p> +“Certainly not,” he exclaimed; “the fresh air will only bring +you nearer to good health.” +</p> + +<p> +“So you see, mother darling, we must come down,” said Jeanne, with +a look of ineffable tenderness, whilst a sob died away in her throat. +</p> + +<p> +But Pierre had reappeared on the steps and announced the safe arrival of +madame’s seventeen packages. Then, followed by her husband and Lucien, +Juliette retired, declaring that she was frightfully dirty, and intended to +take a bath. When they were alone, Hélène knelt down on the rug, as though +about to tie the shawl round Jeanne’s neck, and whispered in the +child’s ear: +</p> + +<p> +“You’re not angry any longer with the doctor, then?” +</p> + +<p> +With a prolonged shake of the head the child replied “No, mamma.” +</p> + +<p> +There was a silence. Hélène’s hands were seized with an awkward +trembling, and she was seemingly unable to tie the shawl. Then Jeanne murmured: +“But why does he love other people so? I won’t have him love them +like that.” +</p> + +<p> +And as she spoke, her black eyes became harsh and gloomy, while her little +hands fondled her mother’s shoulders. Hélène would have replied, but the +words springing to her lips frightened her. The sun was now low, and mother and +daughter took their departure. Zephyrin meanwhile had reappeared to view, with +a bunch of parsley in his hand, the stalks of which he continued pulling off +while darting murderous glances at Rosalie. The maid followed at some distance, +inspired with distrust now that there was no one present. Just as she stooped +to roll up the rug he tried to pinch her, but she retaliated with a blow from +her fist which made his back re-echo like an empty cask. Still it seemed to +delight him, and he was yet laughing silently when he re-entered the kitchen +busily arranging his parsley. +</p> + +<p> +Thenceforth Jeanne was stubbornly bent on going down to the garden as soon as +ever she heard Madame Deberle’s voice there. All Rosalie’s +tittle-tattle regarding the next-door house she drank in greedily, ever +restless and inquisitive concerning its inmates and their doings; and she would +even slip out of the bedroom to keep watch from the kitchen window. In the +garden, ensconced in a small arm-chair which was brought for her use from the +drawing-room by Juliette’s direction, her eyes never quitted the family. +Lucien she now treated with great reserve, annoyed it seemed by his questions +and antics, especially when the doctor was present. On those occasions she +would stretch herself out as if wearied, gazing before her with her eyes wide +open. For Hélène the afternoons were pregnant with anguish. She always +returned, however, returned in spite of the feeling of revolt which wrung her +whole being. Every day when, on his arrival home, Henri printed a kiss on +Juliette’s hair, her heart leaped in its agony. And at those moments, if +to hide the agitation of her face she pretended to busy herself with Jeanne, +she would notice that the child was even paler than herself, with her black +eyes glaring and her chin twitching with repressed fury. Jeanne shared in her +suffering. When the mother turned away her head, heartbroken, the child became +so sad and so exhausted that she had to be carried upstairs and put to bed. She +could no longer see the doctor approach his wife without changing countenance; +she would tremble, and turn on him a glance full of all the jealous fire of a +deserted mistress. +</p> + +<p> +“I cough in the morning,” she said to him one day. “You must +come and see for yourself.” +</p> + +<p> +Rainy weather ensued, and Jeanne became quite anxious that the doctor should +commence his visits once more. Yet her health had much improved. To humor her, +Hélène had been constrained to accept two or three invitations to dine with the +Deberles. +</p> + +<p> +At last the child’s heart, so long torn by hidden sorrow, seemingly +regained quietude with the complete re-establishment of her health. She would +again ask Hélène the old question—“Are you happy, mother +darling?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, very happy, my pet,” was the reply. +</p> + +<p> +And this made her radiant. She must be pardoned her bad temper in the past, she +said. She referred to it as a fit which no effort of her own will could +prevent, the result of a headache that came on her suddenly. Something would +spring up within her—she wholly failed to understand what it was. She was +tempest-tossed by a multitude of vague imaginings—nightmares that she +could not even have recalled to memory. However, it was past now; she was well +again, and those worries would nevermore return. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0015"></a> CHAPTER XV.</h2> + +<p> +The night was falling. From the grey heaven, where the first of the stars were +gleaming, a fine ashy dust seemed to be raining down on the great city, raining +down without cessation and slowly burying it. The hollows were already hidden +deep in gloom, and a line of cloud, like a stream of ink, rose upon the +horizon, engulfing the last streaks of daylight, the wavering gleams which were +retreating towards the west. Below Passy but a few stretches of roofs remained +visible; and as the wave rolled on, darkness soon covered all. +</p> + +<p> +“What a warm evening!” ejaculated Hélène, as she sat at the window, +overcome by the heated breeze which was wafted upwards from Paris. +</p> + +<p> +“A grateful night for the poor,” exclaimed the Abbé, who stood +behind her. “The autumn will be mild.” +</p> + +<p> +That Tuesday Jeanne had fallen into a doze at dessert, and her mother, +perceiving that she was rather tired, had put her to bed. She was already fast +asleep in her cot, while Monsieur Rambaud sat at the table gravely mending a +toy—a mechanical doll, a present from himself, which both spoke and +walked, and which Jeanne had broken. He excelled in such work as this. Hélène +on her side feeling the want of fresh air—for the lingering heats of +September were oppressive—had thrown the window wide open, and gazed with +relief on the vast gloomy ocean of darkness that rolled before her. She had +pushed an easy-chair to the window in order to be alone, but was suddenly +surprised to hear the Abbé speaking to her. “Is the little one warmly +covered?” he gently asked. “On these heights the air is always +keen.” +</p> + +<p> +She made no reply, however; her heart was craving for silence. She was tasting +the delights of the twilight hour, the vanishing of all surrounding objects, +the hushing of every sound. Gleams, like those of night-lights, tipped the +steeples and towers; that on Saint-Augustin died out first, the Panthéon for a +moment retained a bluish light, and then the glittering dome of the Invalides +faded away, similar to a moon setting in a rising sea of clouds. The night was +like the ocean, its extent seemingly increased by the gloom, a dark abyss +wherein you divined that a world lay hid. From the unseen city blew a mighty +yet gentle wind. There was still a hum; sounds ascended faint yet clear to +Hélène’s ears—the sharp rattle of an omnibus rolling along the +quay, the whistle of a train crossing the bridge of the Point-du-Jour; and the +Seine, swollen by the recent storms, and pulsing with the life of a breathing +soul, wound with increased breadth through the shadows far below. A warm odor +steamed upwards from the scorched roofs, while the river, amidst this +exhalation of the daytime heat, seemed to give forth a cooling breeze. Paris +had vanished, sunk in the dreamy repose of a colossus whose limbs the night has +enveloped, and who lies motionless for a time, but with eyes wide open. +</p> + +<p> +Nothing affected Hélène more than this momentary pause in the great +city’s life. For the three months during which she had been a close +prisoner, riveted to Jeanne’s bedside, she had had no other companion in +her vigil than the huge mass of Paris spreading out towards the horizon. During +the summer heats of July and August the windows had almost always been left +open; she could not cross the room, could not stir or turn her head, without +catching a glimpse of the ever-present panorama. It was there, whatever the +weather, always sharing in her griefs and hopes, like some friend who would +never leave her side. She was still quite ignorant respecting it; never had it +seemed farther away, never had she given less thought to its streets and its +citizens, and yet it peopled her solitude. The sick-room, whose door was kept +shut to the outside world, looked out through its two windows upon this city. +Often, with her eyes fixed on its expanse, Hélène had wept, leaning on the +window-rail in order to hide her tears from her ailing child. One day, +too—the very day when she had imagined her daughter to be at the point of +death—she had remained for a long time, overcome and choked with grief, +watching the smoke which curled up from the Army Bakehouse. Frequently, +moreover, in hours of hopefulness she had here confided the gladsome feelings +of her heart to the dim and distant suburbs. There was not a single monument +which did not recall to her some sensation of joy or sorrow. Paris shared in +her own existence; and never did she love it better than when the twilight +came, and its day’s work over, it surrendered itself to an hour’s +quietude, forgetfulness, and reverie, whilst waiting for the lighting of its +gas. +</p> + +<p> +“What a multitude of stars!” murmured Abbé Jouve. “There are +thousands of them gleaming.” +</p> + +<p> +He had just taken a chair and sat down at her side. On hearing him, she gazed +upwards into the summer night. The heaven was studded with golden lights. On +the very verge of the horizon a constellation was sparkling like a carbuncle, +while a dust of almost invisible stars sprinkled the vault above as though with +glittering sand. Charles’s-Wain was slowly turning its shaft in the +night. +</p> + +<p> +“Look!” said Hélène in her turn, “look at that tiny bluish +star! See—far away up there. I recognize it night after night. But it +dies and fades as the night rolls on.” +</p> + +<p> +The Abbé’s presence no longer annoyed her. With him by her side, she +imagined the quiet was deepening around. A few words passed between them after +long intervals of silence. Twice she questioned him on the names of the +stars—the sight of the heavens had always interested her—but he was +doubtful and pleaded ignorance. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you see,” she asked, “that lovely star yonder whose +lustre is so exquisitely clear?” +</p> + +<p> +“On the left, eh?” he replied, “near another smaller, +greenish one? Ah! there are so many of them that my memory fails me.” +</p> + +<p> +They again lapsed into silence, their eyes still turned upwards, dazzled, +quivering slightly at the sight of that stupendous swarming of luminaries. In +the vast depths of the heavens, behind thousands of stars, thousands of others +twinkled in ever-increasing multitudes, with the clear brilliancy of gems. The +Milky Way was already whitening, displaying its solar specks, so innumerable +and so distant that in the vault of the firmament they form but a trailing +scarf of light. +</p> + +<p> +“It fills me with fear,” said Hélène in a whisper; and that she +might see it all no more she bent her head and glanced down on the gaping abyss +in which Paris seemed to be engulfed. In its depths not a light could yet be +seen; night had rolled over it and plunged it into impenetrable darkness. Its +mighty, continuous rumble seemed to have sunk into a softer key. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you weeping?” asked the Abbé, who had heard a sound of +sobbing. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” simply answered Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +They could not see each other. For a long time she continued weeping, her whole +being exhaling a plaintive murmur. Behind them, meantime, Jeanne lay at rest in +innocent sleep, and Monsieur Rambaud, his whole attention engrossed, bent his +grizzled head over the doll which he had dismembered. At times he could not +prevent the loosened springs from giving out a creaking noise, a childlike +squeaking which his big fingers, though plied with the utmost gentleness, drew +from the disordered mechanism. If the doll vented too loud a sound, however, he +at once stopped working, distressed and vexed with himself, and turning towards +Jeanne to see if he had roused her. Then once more he would resume his +repairing, with great precautions, his only tools being a pair of scissors and +a bodkin. +</p> + +<p> +“Why do you weep, my daughter?” again asked the Abbé. “Can I +not afford you some relief?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah! let me be,” said Hélène; “these tears do me good. +By-and-by, by-and-by—” +</p> + +<p> +A stifling sensation checked any further words. Once before, in this very +place, she had been convulsed by a storm of tears; but then she had been alone, +free to sob in the darkness till the emotion that wrung her was dried up at its +source. However, she knew of no cause of sorrow; her daughter was well once +more, and she had resumed the old monotonous delightful life. But it was as +though a keen sense of awful grief had abruptly come upon her; it seemed as if +she were rolling into a bottomless abyss which she could not fathom, sinking +with all who were dear to her in a limitless sea of despair. She knew not what +misfortune hung over her head; but she was without hope, and could only weep. +</p> + +<p> +Similar waves of feeling had swept over her during the month of the Virgin in +the church laden with the perfume of flowers. And, as twilight fell, the +vastness of Paris filled her with a deep religious impression. The stretch of +plain seemed to expand, and a sadness rose up from the two millions of living +beings who were being engulfed in darkness. And when it was night, and the city +with its subdued rumbling had vanished from view, her oppressed heart poured +forth its sorrow, and her tears overflowed, in presence of that sovereign +peace. She could have clasped her hands and prayed. She was filled with an +intense craving for faith, love, and a lapse into heavenly forgetfulness; and +the first glinting of the stars overwhelmed her with sacred terror and +enjoyment. +</p> + +<p> +A lengthy interval of silence ensued, and then the Abbé spoke once more, this +time more pressingly. +</p> + +<p> +“My daughter, you must confide in me. Why do you hesitate?” +</p> + +<p> +She was still weeping, but more gently, like a wearied and powerless child. +</p> + +<p> +“The Church frightens you,” he continued. “For a time I +thought you had yielded your heart to God. But it has been willed otherwise. +Heaven has its own purposes. Well, since you mistrust the priest, why should +you refuse to confide in the friend?” +</p> + +<p> +“You are right,” she faltered. “Yes, I am sad at heart, and +need your consolation. I must tell you of it all. When I was a child I seldom, +if ever, entered a church; now I cannot be present at a service without feeling +touched to the very depths of my being. Yes; and what drew tears from me just +now was that voice of Paris, sounding like a mighty organ, that immeasurable +night, and those beauteous heavens. Oh! I would fain believe. Help me; teach +me.” +</p> + +<p> +Abbé Jouve calmed her somewhat by lightly placing his hand on her own. +</p> + +<p> +“Tell me everything,” he merely said. +</p> + +<p> +She struggled for a time, her heart wrung with anguish. +</p> + +<p> +“There’s nothing to tell, I assure you. I’m hiding nothing +from you. I weep without cause, because I feel stifled, because my tears gush +out of their own accord. You know what my life has been. No sorrow, no sin, no +remorse could I find in it to this hour. I do not know—I do not +know—” +</p> + +<p> +Her voice died away, and from the priest’s lips slowly came the words, +“You love, my daughter!” +</p> + +<p> +She started; she dared not protest. Silence fell on them once more. In the sea +of shadows that slumbered before them a light had glimmered forth. It seemed at +their feet, somewhere in the abyss, but at what precise spot they would have +been unable to specify. And then, one by one, other lights broke through the +darkness, shooting into instant life, and remaining stationary, scintillating +like stars. It seemed as though thousands of fresh planets were rising on the +surface of a gloomy lake. Soon they stretched out in double file, starting from +the Trocadero, and nimbly leaping towards Paris. Then these files were +intersected by others, curves were described, and a huge, strange, magnificent +constellation spread out. Hélène never breathed a word, but gazed on these +gleams of light, which made the heavens seemingly descend below the line of the +horizon, as though indeed the earth had vanished and the vault of heaven were +on every side. And Hélène’s heart was again flooded with emotion, as a +few minutes before when Charles’s-Wain had slowly begun to revolve round +the Polar axis, its shaft in the air. Paris, studded with lights, stretched +out, deep and sad, prompting fearful thoughts of a firmament swarming with +unknown worlds. +</p> + +<p> +Meanwhile the priest, in the monotonous, gentle voice which he had acquired by +years of duty in the confessional, continued whispering in her ear. One evening +in the past he had warned her; solitude, he had said, would be harmful to her +welfare. No one could with impunity live outside the pale of life. She had +imprisoned herself too closely, and the door had opened to perilous thoughts. +</p> + +<p> +“I am very old now, my daughter,” he murmured, “and I have +frequently seen women come to us weeping and praying, with a craving to find +faith and religion. Thus it is that I cannot be deceiving myself to-day. These +women, who seem to seek God in so zealous a manner, are but souls rendered +miserable by passion. It is a man whom they worship in our churches.” +</p> + +<p> +She was not listening; a strife was raging in her bosom, amidst her efforts to +read her innermost thoughts aright. And at last confession came from her in a +broken whisper: +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! yes, I love, and that is all! Beyond that I know +nothing—nothing!” +</p> + +<p> +He now forbore to interrupt her; she spoke in short feverish sentences, taking +a mournful pleasure in thus confessing her love, in sharing with that venerable +priest the secret which had so long burdened her. +</p> + +<p> +“I swear I cannot read my thoughts. This has come to me without my +knowing its presence. Perhaps it came in a moment. Only in time did I realize +its sweetness. Besides, why should I deem myself stronger than I am? I have +made no effort to flee from it; I was only too happy, and to-day I have yet +less power of resistance. My daughter was ill; I almost lost her. Well! my love +has been as intense as my sorrow; it came back with sovereign power after those +days of terror—and it possesses me, I feel transported—” +</p> + +<p> +She shivered and drew a breath. +</p> + +<p> +“In short, my strength fails me. You were right, my friend, in thinking +it would be a relief to confide in you. But, I beseech you, tell me what is +happening in the depths of my heart. My life was once so peaceful; I was so +happy. A thunderbolt has fallen on me. Why on me? Why not on another? I had +done nothing to bring it on; I imagined myself well protected. Ah, if you only +knew—I know myself no longer! Help me, save me!” +</p> + +<p> +Then as she became silent, the priest, with the wonted freedom of the +confessor, mechanically asked the question: +</p> + +<p> +“The name? tell me his name?” +</p> + +<p> +She was hesitating, when a peculiar noise prompted her to turn her head. It +came from the doll which, in Monsieur Rambaud’s hands, was by degrees +renewing its mechanical life, and had just taken three steps on the table, with +a creaking of wheels and springs which showed that there was still something +faulty in its works. Then it had fallen on its back, and but for the worthy man +would have rebounded onto the ground. He followed all its movements with +outstretched hands, ready to support it, and full of paternal anxiety. The +moment he perceived Hélène turn, he smiled confidently towards her, as if to +give her an assurance that the doll would recover its walking powers. And then +he once more dived with scissors and bodkin into the toy. Jeanne still slept +on. +</p> + +<p> +Thereupon Hélène, her nerves relaxing under the influence of the universal +quiet, whispered a name in the priest’s ear. He never stirred; in the +darkness his face could not be seen. A silence ensued, and he responded: +</p> + +<p> +“I knew it, but I wanted to hear it from your own lips. My daughter, +yours must be terrible suffering.” +</p> + +<p> +He gave utterance to no truisms on the subject of duty. Hélène, overcome, +saddened to the heart by this unemotional pity, gazed once more on the lights +which spangled the gloomy veil enshrouding Paris. They were flashing everywhere +in myriads, like the sparks that dart over the blackened refuse of burnt paper. +At first these twinkling dots had started from the Trocadero towards the heart +of the city. Soon another coruscation had appeared on the left in the direction +of Montmartre; then another had burst into view on the right behind the +Invalides, and still another, more distant near the Panthéon. From all these +centres flights of flames were simultaneously descending. +</p> + +<p> +“You remember our conversation,” slowly resumed the Abbé. “My +opinion has not changed. My daughter, you must marry.” +</p> + +<p> +“I!” she exclaimed, overwhelmed with amazement. “But I have +just confessed to you—Oh, you know well I cannot—” +</p> + +<p> +“You must marry,” he repeated with greater decision. “You +will wed an honest man.” +</p> + +<p> +Within the folds of his old cassock he seemed to have grown more commanding. +His large comical-looking head, which, with eyes half-closed, was usually +inclined towards one shoulder, was now raised erect, and his eyes beamed with +such intensity that she saw them sparkling in the darkness. +</p> + +<p> +“You will marry an honest man, who will be a father to Jeanne, and will +lead you back to the path of goodness.” +</p> + +<p> +“But I do not love him. Gracious Heaven! I do not love him!” +</p> + +<p> +“You will love him, my daughter. He loves you, and he is good in +heart.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène struggled, and her voice sank to a whisper as she heard the slight noise +that Monsieur Rambaud made behind them. He was so patient and so strong in his +hope, that for six months he had not once intruded his love on her. Disposed by +nature to the most heroic self-sacrifice, he waited in serene confidence. The +Abbé stirred, as though about to turn round. +</p> + +<p> +“Would you like me to tell him everything? He would stretch out his hand +and save you. And you would fill him with joy beyond compare.” +</p> + +<p> +She checked him, utterly distracted. Her heart revolted. Both of these +peaceful, affectionate men, whose judgment retained perfect equilibrium in +presence of her feverish passion, were sources of terror to her. What world +could they abide in to be able to set at naught that which caused her so much +agony? The priest, however, waved his hand with an all-comprehensive gesture. +</p> + +<p> +“My daughter,” said he, “look on this lovely night, so +supremely still in presence of your troubled spirit. Why do you refuse +happiness?” +</p> + +<p> +All Paris was now illumined. The tiny dancing flames had speckled the sea of +shadows from one end of the horizon to the other, and now, as in a summer +night, millions of fixed stars seemed to be serenely gleaming there. Not a puff +of air, not a quiver of the atmosphere stirred these lights, to all appearance +suspended in space. Paris, now invisible, had fallen into the depths of an +abyss as vast as a firmament. At times, at the base of the Trocadero, a +light—the lamp of a passing cab or omnibus—would dart across the +gloom, sparkling like a shooting star; and here amidst the radiance of the +gas-jets, from which streamed a yellow haze, a confused jumble of house-fronts +and clustering trees—green like the trees in stage scenery—could be +vaguely discerned. To and fro, across the Pont des Invalides, gleaming lights +flashed without ceasing; far below, across a band of denser gloom, appeared a +marvellous train of comet-like coruscations, from whose lustrous tails fell a +rain of gold. These were the reflections in the Seine’s black waters of +the lamps on the bridge. From this point, however, the unknown began. The long +curve of the river was merely described by a double line of lights, which ever +and anon were coupled to other transverse lines, so that the whole looked like +some glittering ladder, thrown across Paris, with its ends on the verge of the +heavens among the stars. +</p> + +<p> +To the left there was another trench excavated athwart the gloom; an unbroken +chain of stars shone forth down the Champs-Elysees from the Arc-de-Triomphe to +the Place de la Concorde, where a new cluster of Pleiades was flashing; next +came the gloomy stretches of the Tuileries and the Louvre, the blocks of houses +on the brink of the water, and the Hotel-de-Ville away at the extreme +end—all these masses of darkness being parted here and there by bursts of +light from some large square or other; and farther and farther away, amidst the +endless confusion of roofs, appeared scattered gleams, affording faint glimpses +of the hollow of a street below, the corner of some boulevard, or the +brilliantly illuminated meeting-place of several thoroughfares. On the opposite +bank, on the right, the Esplanade alone could be discerned with any +distinctness, its rectangle marked out in flame, like an Orion of a +winter’s night bereft of his baldrick. The long streets of the +Saint-Germain district seemed gloomy with their fringe of infrequent lamps; but +the thickly populated quarters beyond were speckled with a multitude of tiny +flames, clustering like nebulae. Away towards the outskirts, girdling the whole +of the horizon, swarmed street-lamps and lighted windows, filling these distant +parts with a dust, as it were, of those myriads of suns, those planetary atoms +which the naked eye cannot discover. The public edifices had vanished into the +depths of the darkness; not a lamp marked out their spires and towers. At times +you might have imagined you were gazing on some gigantic festival, some +illuminated cyclopean monument, with staircases, balusters, windows, pediments, +and terraces—a veritable cosmos of stone, whose wondrous architecture was +outlined by the gleaming lights of a myriad lamps. But there was always a +speedy return of the feeling that new constellations were springing into being, +and that the heavens were spreading both above and below. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, in compliance with the all-embracing sweep of the priest’s hand, +cast a lingering look over illumined Paris. Here too she knew not the names of +those seeming stars. She would have liked to ask what the blaze far below on +the left betokened, for she saw it night after night. There were others also +which roused her curiosity, and some of them she loved, whilst some inspired +her with uneasiness or vexation. +</p> + +<p> +“Father,” said she, for the first time employing that appellation +of affection and respect, “let me live as I am. The loveliness of the +night has agitated me. You are wrong; you would not know how to console me, for +you cannot understand my feelings.” +</p> + +<p> +The priest stretched out his arms, then slowly dropped them to his side +resignedly. And after a pause he said in a whisper: +</p> + +<p> +“Doubtless that was bound to be the case. You call for succor and reject +salvation. How many despairing confessions I have received! What tears I have +been unable to prevent! Listen, my daughter, promise me one thing only; if ever +life should become too heavy a burden for you, think that one honest man loves +you and is waiting for you. To regain content you will only have to place your +hand in his.” +</p> + +<p> +“I promise you,” answered Hélène gravely. +</p> + +<p> +As she made the avowal a ripple of laughter burst through the room. Jeanne had +just awoke, and her eyes were riveted on her doll pacing up and down the table. +Monsieur Rambaud, enthusiastic over the success of his tinkering, still kept +his hands stretched out for fear lest any accident should happen. But the doll +retained its stability, strutted about on its tiny feet, and turned its head, +whilst at every step repeating the same words after the fashion of a parrot. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! it’s some trick or other!” murmured Jeanne, who was +still half asleep. “What have you done to it—tell me? It was all +smashed, and now it’s walking. Give it me a moment; let me see. Oh, you +<i>are</i> a darling!” +</p> + +<p> +Meanwhile over the gleaming expanse of Paris a rosy cloud was ascending higher +and higher. It might have been thought the fiery breath of a furnace. At first +it was shadowy-pale in the darkness—a reflected glow scarcely seen. Then +slowly, as the evening progressed, it assumed a ruddier hue; and, hanging in +the air, motionless above the city, deriving its being from all the lights and +noisy life which breathed from below, it seemed like one of those clouds, +charged with flame and lightning, which crown the craters of volcanoes. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0016"></a> CHAPTER XVI.</h2> + +<p> +The finger-glasses had been handed round the table, and the ladies were +daintily wiping their hands. A momentary silence reigned, while Madame Deberle +gazed on either side to see if every one had finished; then, without speaking, +she rose, and amidst a noisy pushing back of chairs, her guests followed her +example. An old gentleman who had been seated at her right hand hastened to +offer her his arm. +</p> + +<p> +“No, no,” she murmured, as she led him towards a doorway. “We +will now have coffee in the little drawing-room.” +</p> + +<p> +The guests, in couples, followed her. Two ladies and two gentlemen, however, +lagged behind the others, continuing their conversation, without thought of +joining the procession. The drawing-room reached, all constraint vanished, and +the joviality which had marked the dessert made its reappearance. The coffee +was already served on a large lacquer tray on a table. Madame Deberle walked +round like a hostess who is anxious to satisfy the various tastes of her +guests. But it was Pauline who ran about the most, and more particularly waited +on the gentlemen. There were a dozen persons present, about the regulation +number of people invited to the house every Wednesday, from December onwards. +Later in the evening, at ten o’clock, a great many others would make +their appearance. +</p> + +<p> +“Monsieur de Guiraud, a cup of coffee,” exclaimed Pauline, as she +halted in front of a diminutive, bald-headed man. “Ah! no, I remember, +you don’t take any. Well, then, a glass of Chartreuse?” +</p> + +<p> +But she became confused in discharging her duties, and brought him a glass of +cognac. Beaming with smiles, she made the round of the guests, perfectly +self-possessed, and looking people straight in the face, while her long train +dragged with easy grace behind her. She wore a magnificent gown of white Indian +cashmere trimmed with swan’s-down, and cut square at the bosom. When the +gentlemen were all standing up, sipping their coffee, each with cup in hand and +chin high in the air, she began to tackle a tall young fellow named Tissot, +whom she considered rather handsome. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène had not taken any coffee. She had seated herself apart, with a somewhat +wearied expression on her face. Her black velvet gown, unrelieved by any +trimming, gave her an air of austerity. In this small drawing-room smoking was +allowed, and several boxes of cigars were placed beside her on the pier-table. +The doctor drew near; as he selected a cigar he asked her: “Is Jeanne +well?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, indeed,” she replied. “We walked to the Bois to-day, +and she romped like a madcap. Oh, she must be sound asleep by now.” +</p> + +<p> +They were both chatting in friendly tones, with the smiling intimacy of people +who see each other day after day, when Madame Deberle’s voice rose high +and shrill: +</p> + +<p> +“Stop! stop! Madame Grandjean can tell you all about it. Didn’t I +come back from Trouville on the 10th of September? It was raining, and the +beach had become quite unbearable!” +</p> + +<p> +Three or four of the ladies were gathered round her while she rattled on about +her holdiday at the seaside. Hélène found it necessary to rise and join the +group. +</p> + +<p> +“We spent a month at Dinard,” said Madame de Chermette. “Such +a delightful place, and such charming society!” +</p> + +<p> +“Behind our chalet was a garden, and we had a terrace overlooking the +sea,” went on Madame Deberle. “As you know, I decided on taking my +landau and coachman with me. It was very much handier when I wanted a drive. +Then Madame Levasseur came to see us—” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, one Sunday,” interrupted that lady. “We were at +Cabourg. Your establishment was perfect, but a little too dear, I think.” +</p> + +<p> +“By the way,” broke in Madame Berthier, addressing Juliette, +“didn’t Monsieur Malignon give you lessons in swimming?” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène noticed a shadow of vexation, of sudden annoyance, pass over Madame +Deberle’s face. Several times already she had fancied that, on +Malignon’s name being brought unexpectedly into the conversation, Madame +Deberle suddenly seemed perturbed. However, the young woman immediately +regained her equanimity. +</p> + +<p> +“A fine swimmer, indeed!” she exclaimed. “The idea of him +ever giving lessons to any one! For my part, I have a mortal fear of cold +water—the very sight of people bathing curdles my blood.” +</p> + +<p> +She gave an eloquent shiver, with a shrug of her plump shoulders, as though she +were a duck shaking water from her back. +</p> + +<p> +“Then it’s a fable?” questioned Madame de Guiraud. +</p> + +<p> +“Of course; and one, I presume, of his own invention. He detests me since +he spent a month with us down there.” +</p> + +<p> +People were now beginning to pour in. The ladies, with clusters of flowers in +their hair, and round, plump arms, entered smiling and nodding; while the men, +each in evening dress and hat in hand, bowed and ventured on some commonplace +remark. Madame Deberle, never ceasing her chatter for a moment, extended the +tips of her fingers to the friends of the house, many of whom said nothing, but +passed on with a bow. However, Mademoiselle Aurelie had just appeared on the +scene, and at once went into raptures over Juliette’s dress, which was of +dark-blue velvet, trimmed with faille silk. At this all the ladies standing +round seemed to catch their first glimpse of the dress, and declared it was +exquisite, truly exquisite. It came, they learned, from Worth’s, and they +discussed it for five minutes. The guests who had drunk their coffee had placed +their empty cups here and there on the tray and on the pier-tables; only one +old gentleman had not yet finished, as between every mouthful he paused to +converse with a lady. A warm perfume, the aroma of the coffee and the +ladies’ dresses intermingled, permeated the apartment. +</p> + +<p> +“You know I have had nothing,” remonstrated young Monsieur Tissot +with Pauline, who had been chatting with him about an artist to whose studio +her father had escorted her with a view to examining the pictures. +</p> + +<p> +“What! have you had nothing? Surely I brought you a cup of coffee?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, mademoiselle, I assure you.” +</p> + +<p> +“But I insist on your having something. See, here is some +Chartreuse.” +</p> + +<p> +Madame Deberle had just directed a meaning nod towards her husband. The doctor, +understanding her, thereupon opened the door of a large drawing-room, into +which they all filed, while a servant removed the coffee-tray. There was almost +a chill atmosphere in this spacious apartment, through which streamed the white +light of six lamps and a chandelier with ten wax candles. There were already +some ladies there, sitting in a semi-circle round the fireplace, but only two +or three men were present, standing amidst the sea of outspread skirts. And +through the open doorway of the smaller drawing-room rang the shrill voice of +Pauline, who had lingered behind in company with young Tissot. +</p> + +<p> +“Now that I have poured it out, I’m determined you shall drink it. +What would you have me do with it? Pierre has carried off the tray.” +</p> + +<p> +Then she entered the larger room, a vision in white, with her dress trimmed +with swan’s-down. Her ruddy lips parted, displaying her teeth, as she +smilingly announced: “Here comes Malignon, the exquisite!” +</p> + +<p> +Hand-shaking and bowing were now the order of the day. Monsieur Deberle had +placed himself near the door. His wife, seated with some other ladies on an +extremely low couch, rose every other second. When Malignon made his +appearance, she affected to turn away her head. He was dressed to perfection; +his hair had been curled, and was parted behind, down to his very neck. On the +threshold he had stuck an eye-glass in his right eye with a slight grimace, +which, according to Pauline, was just the thing; and now he cast a glance +around the room. Having nonchalantly and silently shaken hands with the doctor, +he made his way towards Madame Deberle, in front of whom he respectfully bent +his tall figure. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, it’s you!” she exclaimed, in a voice loud enough to be +heard by everybody. “It seems you go in for swimming now.” +</p> + +<p> +He did not guess her meaning, but nevertheless replied, by way of a joke: +</p> + +<p> +“Certainly; I once saved a Newfoundland dog from drowning.” +</p> + +<p> +The ladies thought this extremely funny, and even Madame Deberle seemed +disarmed. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I’ll allow you to save Newfoundlands,” she answered, +“but you know very well I did not bathe once at Trouville.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! you’re speaking of the lesson I gave you!” he exclaimed. +“Didn’t I tell you one night in your dining-room how to move your +feet and hands about?” +</p> + +<p> +All the ladies were convulsed with mirth—he was delightful! Juliette +shrugged her shoulders; it was impossible to engage him in a serious talk. Then +she rose to meet a lady whose first visit this was to her house, and who was a +superb pianist. Hélène, seated near the fire, her lovely face unruffled by any +emotion, looked on and listened. Malignon, especially, seemed to interest her. +She saw him execute a strategical movement which brought him to Madame +Deberle’s side, and she could hear the conversation that ensued behind +her chair. Of a sudden there was a change in the tones, and she leaned back to +gather the drift of what was being said. +</p> + +<p> +“Why didn’t you come yesterday?” asked Malignon. “I +waited for you till six o’clock.” +</p> + +<p> +“Nonsense; you are mad,” murmured Juliette. +</p> + +<p> +Thereupon Malignon loudly lisped: “Oh! you don’t believe the story +about my Newfoundland! Yet I received a medal for it, and I’ll show it to +you.” +</p> + +<p> +Then he added, in a whisper: “You gave me your +promise—remember.” +</p> + +<p> +A family group now entered the drawing-room, and Juliette broke into +complimentary greetings, while Malignon reappeared amongst the ladies, glass in +eye. Hélène had become quite pale since overhearing those hastily spoken words. +It was as though a thunderbolt, or something equally unforeseen and horrible, +had fallen on her. How could thoughts of treachery enter into the mind of that +woman whose life was so happy, whose face betrayed no signs of sorrow, whose +cheeks had the freshness of the rose? She had always known her to be devoid of +brains, displaying an amiable egotism which seemed a guarantee that she would +never commit a foolish action. And over such a fellow as Malignon, too! The +scenes in the garden of an afternoon flashed back on her memory—she +recalled Juliette smiling lovingly as the doctor kissed her hair. Their love +for one another had seemed real enough. An inexplicable feeling of indignation +with Juliette now pervaded Hélène, as though some wrong had been done herself. +She felt humiliated for Henri’s sake; she was consumed with jealous rage; +and her perturbed feelings were so plainly mirrored in her face that +Mademoiselle Aurelie asked her: “What is the matter with you? Do you feel +ill?” +</p> + +<p> +The old lady had sunk into a seat beside her immediately she had observed her +to be alone. She had conceived a lively friendship for Hélène, and was charmed +with the kindly manner in which so sedate and lovely a woman would listen for +hours to her tittle-tattle. +</p> + +<p> +But Hélène made no reply. A wild desire sprang up within her to gaze on Henri, +to know what he was doing, and what was the expression of his face. She sat up, +and glancing round the drawing-room, at last perceived him. He stood talking +with a stout, pale man, and looked completely at his ease, his face wearing its +customary refined smile. She scanned him for a moment, full of a pity which +belittled him somewhat, though all the while she loved him the more with an +affection into which entered some vague idea of watching over him. Her +feelings, still in a whirl of confusion, inspired her with the thought that she +ought to bring him back the happiness he had lost. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, well!” muttered Mademoiselle Aurelie; “it will be +pleasant if Madame de Guiraud’s sister favors us with a song. It will be +the tenth time I have heard her sing the ‘Turtle-Doves.’ That is +her stock song this winter. You know that she is separated from her husband. Do +you see that dark gentleman down there, near the door? They are most intimate +together, I believe. Juliette is compelled to have him here, for otherwise she +wouldn’t come!” +</p> + +<p> +“Indeed!” exclaimed Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +Madame Deberle was bustling about from one group to another, requesting silence +for a song from Madame de Guiraud’s sister. The drawing-room was now +crowded, some thirty ladies being seated in the centre whispering and laughing +together; two, however, had remained standing, and were talking loudly and +shrugging their shoulders in a pretty way, while five or six men sat quite at +home amongst the fair ones, almost buried beneath the folds of their skirts and +trains. A low “Hush!” ran round the room, the voices died away, and +a stolid look of annoyance crept into every face. Only the fans could be heard +rustling through the heated atmosphere. +</p> + +<p> +Madame de Guiraud’s sister sang, but Hélène never listened. Her eyes were +now riveted on Malignon, who feigned an intense love of music, and appeared to +be enraptured with the “Turtle Doves.” Was it possible? Could +Juliette have turned a willing ear to the amorous chatter of the young fop? It +was at Trouville, no doubt, that some dangerous game had been played. Malignon +now sat in front of Juliette, marking the time of the music by swaying to and +fro with the air of one who is enraptured. Madame Deberle’s face beamed +in admiring complacency, while the doctor, good-natured and patient, silently +awaited the last notes of the song in order to renew his talk with the stout, +pale man. +</p> + +<p> +There was a murmur of applause as the singer’s voice died away, and two +or three exclaimed in tones of transport: “Delightful! +magnificent!” +</p> + +<p> +Malignon, however, stretching his arms over the ladies’ head-dresses, +noiselessly clapped his gloved hands, and repeated “Brava! brava!” +in a voice that rose high above the others. +</p> + +<p> +The enthusiasm promptly came to an end, every face relaxed and smiled, and a +few of the ladies rose, while, with the feeling of general relief, the buzz of +conversation began again. The atmosphere was growing much warmer, and the +waving fans wafted an odor of musk from the ladies’ dresses. At times, +amidst the universal chatter, a peal of pearly laughter would ring out, or some +word spoken in a loud tone would cause many to turn round. Thrice already had +Juliette swept into the smaller drawing-room to request some gentleman who had +escaped thither not to desert the ladies in so rude a fashion. They returned at +her request, but ten minutes afterwards had again vanished. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s intolerable,” she muttered, with an air of vexation; +“not one of them will stay here.” +</p> + +<p> +In the meantime Mademoiselle Aurelie was running over the ladies’ names +for Hélène’s benefit, as this was only the latter’s second evening +visit to the doctor’s house. The most substantial people of Passy, some +of them rolling in riches, were present. And the old maid leaned towards Hélène +and whispered in her ear: “Yes, it seems it’s all arranged. Madame +de Chermette is going to marry her daughter to that tall fair fellow with whom +she has flirted for the last eighteen months. Well, never mind, that will be +one mother-in-law who’ll be fond of her son-in-law.” +</p> + +<p> +She stopped short, and then burst out in a tone of intense surprise: +“Good gracious! there’s Madame Levasseur’s husband speaking +to that man. I thought Juliette had sworn never to have them here +together.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène’s glances slowly travelled round the room. Even amongst such +seemingly estimable and honest people as these could there be women of +irregular conduct? With her provincial austerity she was astounded at the +manner in which wrongdoing was winked at in Paris. She railed at herself for +her own painful repugnance when Juliette had shaken hands with her. Madame +Deberle had now seemingly become reconciled with Malignon; she had curled up +her little plump figure in an easy-chair, where she sat listening gleefully to +his jests. Monsieur Deberle happened to pass them. +</p> + +<p> +“You’re surely not quarrelling to-night?” asked he. +</p> + +<p> +“No,” replied Juliette, with a burst of merriment. +“He’s talking too much silly nonsense. If you had heard all the +nonsense he’s been saying!” +</p> + +<p> +There now came some more singing, but silence was obtained with greater +difficulty. The aria selected was a duet from <i>La Favorita</i>, sung by young +Monsieur Tissot and a lady of ripened charms, whose hair was dressed in +childish style. Pauline, standing at one of the doors, amidst a crowd of black +coats, gazed at the male singer with a look of undisguised admiration, as +though she were examining a work of art. +</p> + +<p> +“What a handsome fellow!” escaped from her lips, just as the +accompaniment subsided into a softer key, and so loud was her voice that the +whole drawing-room heard the remark. +</p> + +<p> +As the evening progressed the guests’ faces began to show signs of +weariness. Ladies who had occupied the same seat for hours looked bored, though +they knew it not,—they were even delighted at being able to get bored +here. In the intervals between the songs, which were only half listened to, the +murmur of conversation again resounded, and it seemed as though the deep notes +of the piano were still echoing. Monsieur Letellier related how he had gone to +Lyons for the purpose of inspecting some silk he had ordered, and how he had +been greatly impressed by the fact that the Saone did not mingle its waters +with those of the Rhone. Monsieur de Guiraud, who was a magistrate, gave vent +to some sententious observations on the need of stemming the vice of Paris. +There was a circle round a gentleman who was acquainted with a Chinaman, and +was giving some particulars of his friend. In a corner two ladies were +exchanging confidences about the failings of their servants; whilst literature +was being discussed by those among whom Malignon sat enthroned. Madame Tissot +declared Balzac to be unreadable, and Malignon did not deny it, but remarked +that here and there, at intervals far and few, some very fine passages occurred +in Balzac. +</p> + +<p> +“A little silence, please!” all at once exclaimed Pauline; +“she’s just going to play.” +</p> + +<p> +The lady whose talent as a musician had been so much spoken of had just sat +down to the piano. In accordance with the rules of politeness, every head was +turned towards her. But in the general stillness which ensued the deep voices +of the men conversing in the small drawing-room could be heard. Madame Deberle +was in despair. +</p> + +<p> +“They are a nuisance!” she muttered. “Let them stay there, if +they don’t want to come in; but at least they ought to hold their +tongues!” +</p> + +<p> +She gave the requisite orders to Pauline, who, intensely delighted, ran into +the adjacent apartment to carry out her instructions. +</p> + +<p> +“You must know, gentlemen, that a lady is going to play,” she said, +with the quiet boldness of a maiden in queenly garb. “You are requested +to keep silence.” +</p> + +<p> +She spoke in a very loud key, her voice being naturally shrill. And, as she +lingered with the men, laughing and quizzing, the noise grew more pronounced +than ever. There was a discussion going on among these males, and she supplied +additional matter for argument. In the larger drawing-room Madame Deberle was +in agony. The guests, moreover, had been sated with music, and no enthusiasm +was displayed; so the pianist resumed her seat, biting her lips, +notwithstanding the laudatory compliments which the lady of the house deemed it +her duty to lavish on her. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène was pained. Henri scarcely seemed to see her; he had made no attempt to +approach her, and only at intervals smiled to her from afar. At the earlier +part of the evening she had felt relieved by his prudent reserve; but since she +had learnt the secret of the two others she wished for something—she knew +not what—some display of affection, or at least interest, on his part. +Her breast was stirred with confused yearnings, and every imaginable evil +thought. Did he no longer care for her, that he remained so indifferent to her +presence? Oh! if she could have told him everything! If she could apprise him +of the unworthiness of the woman who bore his name! Then, while some short, +merry catches resounded from the piano, she sank into a dreamy state. She +imagined that Henri had driven Juliette from his home, and she was living with +him as his wife in some far-away foreign land, the language of which they knew +not. +</p> + +<p> +All at once a voice startled her. +</p> + +<p> +“Won’t you take anything?” asked Pauline. +</p> + +<p> +The drawing-room had emptied, and the guests were passing into the dining-room +to drink some tea. Hélène rose with difficulty. She was dazed; she thought she +had dreamt it all—the words she had heard, Juliette’s secret +intrigue, and its consequences. If it had all been true, Henri would surely +have been at her side and ere this both would have quitted the house. +</p> + +<p> +“Will you take a cup of tea?” +</p> + +<p> +She smiled and thanked Madame Deberle, who had kept a place for her at the +table. Plates loaded with pastry and sweetmeats covered the cloth, while on +glass stands arose two lofty cakes, flanking a large <i>brioche</i>. The space +was limited, and the cups of tea were crowded together, narrow grey napkins +with long fringes lying between each two. The ladies only were seated. They +held biscuits and preserved fruits with the tips of their ungloved fingers, and +passed each other the cream-jugs and poured out the cream with dainty gestures. +Three or four, however, had sacrificed themselves to attend on the men, who +were standing against the walls, and, while drinking, taking all conceivable +precautions to ward off any push which might be unwittingly dealt them. A few +others lingered in the two drawing-rooms, waiting for the cakes to come to +them. This was the hour of Pauline’s supreme delight. There was a shrill +clamor of noisy tongues, peals of laughter mingled with the ringing clatter of +silver plate, and the perfume of musk grew more powerful as it blended with the +all-pervading fragrance of the tea. +</p> + +<p> +“Kindly pass me some cake,” said Mademoiselle Aurelie to Hélène, +close to whom she happened to find herself. “These sweetmeats are +frauds!” +</p> + +<p> +She had, however, already emptied two plates of them. And she continued, with +her mouth full: +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! some of the people are beginning to go now. We shall be a little +more comfortable.” +</p> + +<p> +In truth, several ladies were now leaving, after shaking hands with Madame +Deberle. Many of the gentlemen had already wisely vanished, and the room was +becoming less crowded. Now came the opportunity for the remaining gentlemen to +sit down at table in their turn. Mademoiselle Aurelie, however, did not quit +her place, though she would much have liked to secure a glass of punch. +</p> + +<p> +“I will get you one,” said Hélène, starting to her feet. +</p> + +<p> +“No, no, thank you. You must not inconvenience yourself so much.” +</p> + +<p> +For a short time Hélène had been watching Malignon. He had just shaken hands +with the doctor, and was now bidding farewell to Juliette at the doorway. She +had a lustrous face and sparkling eyes, and by her complacent smile it might +have been imagined that she was receiving some commonplace compliments on the +evening’s success. While Pierre was pouring out the punch at a sideboard +near the door, Hélène stepped forward in such wise as to be hidden from view by +the curtain, which had been drawn back. She listened. +</p> + +<p class="center"> +<a name="image-0004"></a> +<img src="images/232.jpg" height="761" width="511" +alt="Malignon Appoints a Rendezvous With Juliette" /> +</p> + +<p> +“I beseech you,” Malignon was saying, “come the day after +to-morrow. I shall wait for you till three o’clock.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why cannot you talk seriously,” replied Madame Deberle, with a +laugh. “What foolish things you say!” +</p> + +<p> +But with greater determination he repeated: “I shall wait for +you—the day after to-morrow.” +</p> + +<p> +Then she hurriedly gave a whispered reply: +</p> + +<p> +“Very well—the day after to-morrow.” +</p> + +<p> +Malignon bowed and made his exit. Madame de Chermette followed in company with +Madame Tissot. Juliette, in the best of spirits, walked with them into the +hall, and said to the former of these ladies with her most amiable look: +</p> + +<p> +“I shall call on you the day after to-morrow. I have a lot of calls to +make that day.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène stood riveted to the floor, her face quite white. Pierre, in the +meanwhile, had poured out the punch, and now handed the glass to her. She +grasped it mechanically and carried it to Mademoiselle Aurelie, who was making +an inroad on the preserved fruits. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, you are far too kind!” exclaimed the old maid. “I should +have made a sign to Pierre. I’m sure it’s a shame not offering the +punch to ladies. Why, when people are my age—” +</p> + +<p> +She got no further, however, for she observed the ghastliness of Hélène’s +face. “You surely are in pain! You must take a drop of punch!” +</p> + +<p> +“Thank you, it’s nothing. The heat is so oppressive—” +</p> + +<p> +She staggered, and turned aside into the deserted drawing-room, where she +dropped into an easy-chair. The lamps were shedding a reddish glare; and the +wax candles in the chandelier, burnt to their sockets, threatened imminent +destruction to the crystal sconces. From the dining-room were wafted the +farewells of the departing guests. Hélène herself had lost all thoughts of +going; she longed to linger where she was, plunged in thought. So it was no +dream after all; Juliette would visit that man the day after +to-morrow—she knew the day. Then the thought struck her that she ought to +speak to Juliette and warn her against sin. But this kindly thought chilled her +to the heart, and she drove it from her mind as though it were out of place, +and deep in meditation gazed at the grate, where a smouldering log was +crackling. The air was still heavy and oppressive with the perfumes from the +ladies’ hair. +</p> + +<p> +“What! you are here!” exclaimed Juliette as she entered. +“Well, you are kind not to run away all at once. At last we can +breathe!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène was surprised, and made a movement as though about to rise; but Juliette +went on: “Wait, wait, you are in no hurry. Henri, get me my +smelling-salts.” +</p> + +<p> +Three or four persons, intimate friends, had lingered behind the others. They +sat before the dying fire and chatted with delightful freedom, while the vast +room wearily sank into a doze. The doors were open, and they saw the smaller +drawing-room empty, the dining-room deserted, the whole suite of rooms still +lit up and plunged in unbroken silence. Henri displayed a tender gallantry +towards his wife; he had run up to their bedroom for her smelling-salts, which +she inhaled with closed eyes, whilst he asked her if she had not fatigued +herself too much. Yes, she felt somewhat tired; but she was +delighted—everything had gone off so well. Next she told them that on her +reception nights she could not sleep, but tossed about till six o’clock +in the morning. Henri’s face broke into a smile, and some quizzing +followed. Hélène looked at them, and quivered amidst the benumbing drowsiness +which little by little seemed to fall upon the whole house. +</p> + +<p> +However, only two guests now remained. Pierre had gone in search of a cab. +Hélène remained the last. One o’clock struck. Henri, no longer standing +on ceremony, rose on tiptoe and blew out two candles in the chandelier which +were dangerously heating their crystal sconces. As the lights died out one by +one, it seemed like a bedroom scene, the gloom of an alcove spreading over all. +</p> + +<p> +“I am keeping you up!” exclaimed Hélène, as she suddenly rose to +her feet. “You must turn me out.” +</p> + +<p> +A flush of red dyed her face; her blood, racing through her veins, seemed to +stifle her. They walked with her into the hall, but the air there was chilly, +and the doctor was somewhat alarmed for his wife in her low dress. +</p> + +<p> +“Go back; you will do yourself harm. You are too warm.” +</p> + +<p> +“Very well; good-bye,” said Juliette, embracing Hélène, as was her +wont in her most endearing moments. “Come and see me oftener.” +</p> + +<p> +Henri had taken Hélène’s fur coat in his hand, and held it outstretched +to assist her in putting it on. When she had slipped her arms into the sleeves, +he turned up the collar with a smile, while they stood in front of an immense +mirror which covered one side of the hall. They were alone, and saw one another +in the mirror’s depths. For three months, on meeting and parting they had +simply shaken hands in friendly greeting; they would fain that their love had +died. But now Hélène was overcome, and sank back into his arms. The smile +vanished from his face, which became impassioned, and, still clasping her, he +kissed her on the neck. And she, raising her head, returned his kiss. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0017"></a> CHAPTER XVII.</h2> + +<p> +That night Hélène was unable to sleep. She turned from side to side in feverish +unrest, and whenever a drowsy stupor fell on her senses, the old sorrows would +start into new life within her breast. As she dozed and the nightmare +increased, one fixed thought tortured her—she was eager to know where +Juliette and Malignon would meet. This knowledge, she imagined, would be a +source of relief to her. Where, where could it be? Despite herself, her brain +throbbed with the thought, and she forgot everything save her craving to +unravel this mystery, which thrilled her with secret longings. +</p> + +<p> +When day dawned and she began to dress, she caught herself saying loudly: +“It will be to-morrow!” +</p> + +<p> +With one stocking on, and hands falling helpless to her side, she lapsed for a +while into a fresh dreamy fit. “Where, where was it that they had agreed +to meet?” +</p> + +<p> +“Good-day, mother, darling!” just then exclaimed Jeanne who had +awakened in her turn. +</p> + +<p> +As her strength was now returning to her, she had gone back to sleep in her cot +in the closet. With bare feet and in her nightdress she came to throw herself +on Hélène’s neck, as was her every-day custom; then back again she +rushed, to curl herself up in her warm bed for a little while longer. This +jumping in and out amused her, and a ripple of laughter stole from under the +clothes. Once more she bounded into the bedroom, saying: “Good-morning, +mammy dear!” +</p> + +<p> +And again she ran off, screaming with laughter. Then she threw the sheet over +her head, and her cry came, hoarse and muffled, from beneath it: +“I’m not there! I’m not there!” +</p> + +<p> +But Hélène was in no mood for play, as on other mornings; and Jeanne, +dispirited, fell asleep again. The day was still young. About eight +o’clock Rosalie made her appearance to recount the morning’s +chapter of accidents. Oh! the streets were awful outside; in going for the milk +her shoes had almost come off in the muddy slush. All the ice was thawing; and +it was quite mild too, almost oppressive. Oh! by the way, she had almost +forgotten! an old woman had come to see madame the night before. +</p> + +<p> +“Why!” she said, as there came a pull at the bell, “I expect +that’s she!” +</p> + +<p> +It was Mother Fétu, but Mother Fétu transformed, magnificent in a clean white +cap, a new gown, and tartan shawl wrapped round her shoulders. Her voice, +however, still retained its plaintive tone of entreaty. +</p> + +<p> +“Dear lady, it’s only I, who have taken the liberty of calling to +ask you about something!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène gazed at her, somewhat surprised by her display of finery. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you better, Mother Fétu?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes, yes; I feel better, if I may venture to say so. You see I always +have something queer in my inside; it knocks me about dreadfully, but still +I’m better. Another thing, too; I’ve had a stroke of luck; it was a +surprise, you see, because luck hasn’t often come in my way. But a +gentleman has made me his housekeeper—and oh! it’s such a +story!” +</p> + +<p> +Her words came slowly, and her small keen eyes glittered in her face, furrowed +by a thousand wrinkles. She seemed to be waiting for Hélène to question her; +but the young woman sat close to the fire which Rosalie had just lit, and paid +scant attention to her, engrossed as she was in her own thoughts, with a look +of pain on her features. +</p> + +<p> +“What do you want to ask me?” she at last said to Mother Fétu. +</p> + +<p> +The old lady made no immediate reply. She was scrutinizing the room, with its +rosewood furniture and blue velvet hangings. Then, with the humble and fawning +air of a pauper, she muttered: “Pardon me, madame, but everything is so +beautiful here. My gentleman has a room like this, but it’s all in pink. +Oh! it’s such a story! Just picture to yourself a young man of good +position who has taken rooms in our house. Of course, it isn’t much of a +place, but still our first and second floors are very nice. Then, it’s so +quiet, too! There’s no traffic; you could imagine yourself in the +country. The workmen have been in the house for a whole fortnight; they have +made such a jewel of his room!” +</p> + +<p> +She here paused, observing that Hélène’s attention was being aroused. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s for his work,” she continued in a drawling voice; +“he says it’s for his work. We have no doorkeeper, you know, and +that pleases him. Oh! my gentleman doesn’t like doorkeepers, and he is +quite right, too!” +</p> + +<p> +Once more she came to a halt, as though an idea had suddenly occurred to her. +</p> + +<p> +“Why, wait a minute; you must know him—of course you must. He +visits one of your lady friends!” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah!” exclaimed Hélène, with colorless face. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, to be sure; the lady who lives close by—the one who used to +go with you to church. She came the other day.” +</p> + +<p> +Mother Fétu’s eyes contracted, and from under the lids she took note of +her benefactress’s emotion. But Hélène strove to question her in a tone +that would not betray her agitation. +</p> + +<p> +“Did she go up?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, she altered her mind; perhaps she had forgotten something. But I was +at the door. She asked for Monsieur Vincent, and then got back into her cab +again, calling to the driver to return home, as it was too late. Oh! +she’s such a nice, lively, and respectable lady. The gracious God +doesn’t send many such into the world. Why, with the exception of +yourself, she’s the best—well, well, may Heaven bless you +all!” +</p> + +<p> +In this way Mother Fétu rambled on with the pious glibness of a devotee who is +perpetually telling her beads. But the twitching of the myriad wrinkles of her +face showed that her mind was still working, and soon she beamed with intense +satisfaction. +</p> + +<p> +“Ah!” she all at once resumed in inconsequent fashion, “how I +should like to have a pair of good shoes! My gentleman has been so very kind, I +can’t ask him for anything more. You see I’m dressed; still I must +get a pair of good shoes. Look at those I have; they are all holes; and when +the weather’s muddy, as it is to-day, one’s apt to get very ill. +Yes, I was down with colic yesterday; I was writhing all the afternoon, but if +I had a pair of good shoes—” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll bring you a pair, Mother Fétu,” said Hélène, waving her +towards the door. +</p> + +<p> +Then, as the old woman retired backwards, with profuse curtseying and thanks, +she asked her: “At what hour are you alone?” +</p> + +<p> +“My gentleman is never there after six o’clock,” she +answered. “But don’t give yourself the trouble; I’ll come +myself, and get them from your doorkeeper. But you can do as you please. You +are an angel from heaven. God on high will requite you for all your +kindness!” +</p> + +<p> +When she had reached the landing she could still be heard giving vent to her +feelings. Hélène sat a long time plunged in the stupor which the information, +supplied by this woman with such fortuitous seasonableness, had brought upon +her. She now knew the place of assignation. It was a room, with pink +decorations, in that old tumbledown house! She once more pictured to herself +the staircase oozing with damp, the yellow doors on each landing, grimy with +the touch of greasy hands, and all the wretchedness which had stirred her heart +to pity when she had gone during the previous winter to visit Mother Fétu; and +she also strove to conjure up a vision of that pink chamber in the midst of +such repulsive, poverty-stricken surroundings. However, whilst she was still +absorbed in her reverie, two tiny warm hands were placed over her eyes, which +lack of sleep had reddened, and a laughing voice inquired: “Who is it? +who is it?” +</p> + +<p> +It was Jeanne, who had slipped into her clothes without assistance. Mother +Fétu’s voice had awakened her; and perceiving that the closet door had +been shut, she had made her toilet with the utmost speed in order to give her +mother a surprise. +</p> + +<p> +“Who is it? who is it?” she again inquired, convulsed more and more +with laughter. +</p> + +<p> +She turned to Rosalie, who entered at the moment with the breakfast. +</p> + +<p> +“You know; don’t you speak. Nobody is asking you any +question.” +</p> + +<p> +“Be quiet, you little madcap!” exclaimed Hélène. “I suppose +it’s you!” +</p> + +<p> +The child slipped on to her mother’s lap, and there, leaning back and +swinging to and fro, delighted with the amusement she had devised, she resumed: +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it might have been another little girl! Eh? Perhaps some little +girl who had brought you a letter of invitation to dine with her mamma. And she +might have covered your eyes, too!” +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t be silly,” exclaimed Hélène, as she set her on the +floor. “What are you talking about? Rosalie, let us have +breakfast.” +</p> + +<p> +The maid’s eyes, however, were riveted on the child, and she commented +upon her little mistress being so oddly dressed. To tell the truth, so great +had been Jeanne’s haste that she had not put on her shoes. She had drawn +on a short flannel petticoat which allowed a glimpse of her chemise, and had +left her morning jacket open, so that you could see her delicate, undeveloped +bosom. With her hair streaming behind her, stamping about in her stockings, +which were all awry, she looked charming, all in white like some child of +fairyland. +</p> + +<p> +She cast down her eyes to see herself, and immediately burst into laughter. +</p> + +<p> +“Look, mamma, I look nice, don’t I? Won’t you let me be as I +am? It is nice!” +</p> + +<p> +Repressing a gesture of impatience, Hélène, as was her wont every morning, +inquired: “Are you washed?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, mamma!” pleaded the child, her joy suddenly dashed. “Oh, +mamma! it’s raining; it’s too nasty!” +</p> + +<p> +“Then, you’ll have no breakfast. Wash her, Rosalie.” +</p> + +<p> +She usually took this office upon herself, but that morning she felt altogether +out of sorts, and drew nearer to the fire, shivering, although the weather was +so balmy. Having spread a napkin and placed two white china bowls on a small +round table, Rosalie had brought the latter close to the fireplace. The coffee +and milk steamed before the fire in a silver pot, which had been a present from +Monsieur Rambaud. At this early hour the disorderly, drowsy room seemed +delightfully homelike. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma, mamma!” screamed Jeanne from the depths of the closet, +“she’s rubbing me too hard. It’s taking my skin off. Oh dear! +how awfully cold!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, with eyes fixed on the coffee-pot, remained engrossed in thought. She +desired to know everything, so she would go. The thought of that mysterious +place of assignation in so squalid a nook of Paris was an ever-present pain and +vexation. She judged such taste hateful, but in it she identified +Malignon’s leaning towards romance. +</p> + +<p> +“Mademoiselle,” declared Rosalie, “if you don’t let me +finish with you, I shall call madame.” +</p> + +<p> +“Stop, stop: you are poking the soap into my eyes,” answered +Jeanne, whose voice was hoarse with sobs. “Leave me alone; I’ve had +enough of it. The ears can wait till to-morrow.” +</p> + +<p> +But the splashing of water went on, and the squeezing of the sponge into the +basin could be heard. There was a clamor and a struggle, the child was sobbing; +but almost immediately afterward she made her appearance, shouting gaily: +“It’s over now; it’s over now!” +</p> + +<p> +Her hair was still glistening with wet, and she shook herself, her face glowing +with the rubbing it had received and exhaling a fresh and pleasant odor. In her +struggle to get free her jacket had slipped from her shoulders, her petticoat +had become loosened, and her stockings had tumbled down, displaying her bare +legs. According to Rosalie, she looked like an infant Jesus. Jeanne, however, +felt very proud that she was clean; she had no wish to be dressed again. +</p> + +<p> +“Look at me, mamma; look at my hands, and my neck, and my ears. Oh! you +must let me warm myself; I am so comfortable. You don’t say anything; +surely I’ve deserved my breakfast to-day.” +</p> + +<p> +She had curled herself up before the fire in her own little easy-chair. Then +Rosalie poured out the coffee and milk. Jeanne took her bowl on her lap, and +gravely soaked her toast in its contents with all the airs of a grown-up +person. Hélène had always forbidden her to eat in this way, but that morning +she remained plunged in thought. She did not touch her own bread, and was +satisfied with drinking her coffee. Then Jeanne, after swallowing her last +morsel, was stung with remorse. Her heart filled, she put aside her bowl, and +gazing on her mother’s pale face, threw herself on her neck: +“Mamma, are you ill now? I haven’t vexed you, have +I?—say.” +</p> + +<p> +“No, no, my darling, quite the contrary; you’re very good,” +murmured Hélène as she embraced her. “I’m only a little wearied; I +haven’t slept well. Go on playing: don’t be uneasy.” +</p> + +<p> +The thought occurred to her that the day would prove a terribly long one. What +could she do whilst waiting for the night? For some time past she had abandoned +her needlework; sewing had become a terrible weariness. For hours she lingered +in her seat with idle hands, almost suffocating in her room, and craving to go +out into the open air for breath, yet never stirring. It was this room which +made her ill; she hated it, in angry exasperation over the two years which she +had spent within its walls; its blue velvet and the vast panorama of the mighty +city disgusted her, and her thoughts dwelt on a lodging in some busy street, +the uproar of which would have deafened her. Good heavens! how long were the +hours! She took up a book, but the fixed idea that engrossed her mind +continually conjured up the same visions between her eyes and the page of +print. +</p> + +<p> +In the meantime Rosalie had been busy setting the room in order; Jeanne’s +hair also had been brushed, and she was dressed. While her mother sat at the +window, striving to read, the child, who was in one of her moods of +obstreperous gaiety, began playing a grand game. She was all alone; but this +gave her no discomfort; she herself represented three or four persons in turn +with comical earnestness and gravity. At first she played the lady going on a +visit. She vanished into the dining-room, and returned bowing and smiling, her +head nodding this way and that in the most coquettish style. +</p> + +<p> +“Good-day, madame! How are you, madame? How long it is since I’ve +seen you! A marvellously long time, to be sure! Dear me, I’ve been so +ill, madame! Yes; I’ve had the cholera; it’s very disagreeable. Oh! +it doesn’t show; no, no, it makes you look younger, on my word of honor. +And your children, madame? Oh! I’ve had three since last summer!” +</p> + +<p> +So she rattled on, never ceasing her curtseying to the round table, which +doubtless represented the lady she was visiting. Next she ventured to bring the +chairs closer together, and for an hour carried on a general conversation, her +talk abounding in extraordinary phrases. +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t be silly,” said her mother at intervals, when the +chatter put her out of patience. +</p> + +<p> +“But, mamma, I’m paying my friend a visit. She’s speaking to +me, and I must answer her. At tea nobody ought to put the cakes in their +pockets, ought they?” +</p> + +<p> +Then she turned and began again: +</p> + +<p> +“Good-bye, madame; your tea was delicious. Remember me most kindly to +your husband.” +</p> + +<p> +The next moment came something else. She was going out shopping in her +carriage, and got astride of a chair like a boy. +</p> + +<p> +“Jean, not so quick; I’m afraid. Stop! stop! here is the +milliner’s! Mademoiselle, how much is this bonnet? Three hundred francs; +that isn’t dear. But it isn’t pretty. I should like it with a bird +on it—a bird big like that! Come, Jean, drive me to the grocer’s. +Have you some honey? Yes, madame, here is some. Oh, how nice it is! But I +don’t want any of it; give me two sous’ worth of sugar. Oh! Jean, +look, take care! There! we have had a spill! Mr. Policeman, it was the cart +which drove against us. You’re not hurt, madame, are you? No, sir, not in +the least. Jean, Jean! home now. Gee-up! gee-up. Wait a minute; I must order +some chemises. Three dozen chemises for madame. I want some boots too and some +stays. Gee-up! gee-up! Good gracious, we shall never get back again.” +</p> + +<p> +Then she fanned herself, enacting the part of the lady who has returned home +and is finding fault with her servants. She never remained quiet for a moment; +she was in a feverish ecstasy, full of all sorts of whimsical ideas; all the +life she knew surged up in her little brain and escaped from it in fragments. +Morning and afternoon she thus moved about, dancing and chattering; and when +she grew tired, a footstool or parasol discovered in a corner, or some shred of +stuff lying on the floor, would suffice to launch her into a new game in which +her effervescing imagination found fresh outlet. Persons, places, and incidents +were all of her own creation, and she amused herself as much as though twelve +children of her own age had been beside her. +</p> + +<p> +But evening came at last. Six o’clock was about to strike. And Hélène, +rousing herself from the troubled stupor in which she had spent the afternoon, +hurriedly threw a shawl over her shoulders. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you going out, mamma?” asked Jeanne in her surprise. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, my darling, just for a walk close by. I won’t be long; be +good.” +</p> + +<p> +Outside it was still thawing. The footways were covered with mud. In the Rue de +Passy, Hélène entered a boot shop, to which she had taken Mother Fétu on a +previous occasion. Then she returned along the Rue Raynouard. The sky was grey, +and from the pavement a mist was rising. The street stretched dimly before her, +deserted and fear-inspiring, though the hour was yet early. In the damp haze +the infrequent gas-lamps glimmered like yellow spots. She quickened her steps, +keeping close to the houses, and shrinking from sight as though she were on the +way to some assignation. However, as she hastily turned into the Passage des +Eaux, she halted beneath the archway, her heart giving way to genuine terror. +The passage opened beneath her like some black gulf. The bottom of it was +invisible; the only thing she could see in this black tunnel was the quivering +gleam of the one lamp which lighted it. Eventually she made up her mind, and +grasped the iron railing to prevent herself from slipping. Feeling her way with +the tip of her boots she landed successively on the broad steps. The walls, +right and left, grew closer, seemingly prolonged by the darkness, while the +bare branches of the trees above cast vague shadows, like those of gigantic +arms with closed or outstretched hands. She trembled as she thought that one of +the garden doors might open and a man spring out upon her. There were no +passers-by, however, and she stepped down as quickly as possible. Suddenly from +out of the darkness loomed a shadow which coughed, and she was frozen with +fear; but it was only an old woman creeping with difficulty up the path. Then +she felt less uneasy, and carefully raised her dress, which had been trailing +in the mud. So thick was the latter that her boots were constantly sticking to +the steps. At the bottom she turned aside instinctively. From the branches the +raindrops dripped fast into the passage, and the lamp glimmered like that of +some miner, hanging to the side of a pit which infiltrations have rendered +dangerous. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène climbed straight to the attic she had so often visited at the top of the +large house abutting on the Passage. But nothing stirred, although she rapped +loudly. In considerable perplexity she descended the stairs again. Mother Fétu +was doubtless in the rooms on the first floor, where, however, Hélène dared not +show herself. She remained five minutes in the entry, which was lighted by a +petroleum lamp. Then again she ascended the stairs hesitatingly, gazing at each +door, and was on the point of going away, when the old woman leaned over the +balusters. +</p> + +<p> +“What! it’s you on the stairs, my good lady!” she exclaimed. +“Come in, and don’t catch cold out there. Oh! it is a vile +place—enough to kill one.” +</p> + +<p> +“No, thank you,” said Hélène; “I’ve brought you your +pair of shoes, Mother Fétu.” +</p> + +<p> +She looked at the door which Mother Fétu had left open behind her, and caught a +glimpse of a stove within. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m all alone, I assure you,” declared the old woman. +“Come in. This is the kitchen here. Oh! you’re not proud with us +poor folks; we can talk to you!” +</p> + +<p> +Despite the repugnance which shame at the purpose of her coming created within +her, Hélène followed her. +</p> + +<p> +“God in Heaven! how can I thank you! Oh, what lovely shoes! Wait, and +I’ll put them on. There’s my whole foot in; it fits me like a +glove. Bless the day! I can walk with these without being afraid of the rain. +Oh! my good lady, you are my preserver; you’ve given me ten more years of +life. No, no, it’s no flattery; it’s what I think, as true as +there’s a lamp shining on us. No, no, I don’t flatter!” +</p> + +<p> +She melted into tears as she spoke, and grasping Hélène’s hands kissed +them. In a stewpan on the stove some wine was being heated, and on the table, +near the lamp, stood a half-empty bottle of Bordeaux with its tapering neck. +The only other things placed there were four dishes, a glass, two saucepans, +and an earthenware pot. It could be seen that Mother Fétu camped in this +bachelor’s kitchen, and that the fires were lit for herself only. Seeing +Hélène’s glance turn towards the stewpan, she coughed, and once more put +on her dolorous expression. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s gripping me again,” she groaned. “Oh! it’s +useless for the doctor to talk; I must have some creature in my inside. And +then, a drop of wine relieves me so. I’m greatly afflicted, my good lady. +I wouldn’t have a soul suffer from my trouble; it’s too dreadful. +Well, I’m nursing myself a bit now; and when a person has passed through +so much, isn’t it fair she should do so? I have been so lucky in falling +in with a nice gentleman. May Heaven bless him!” +</p> + +<p> +With this outburst she dropped two large lumps of sugar into her wine. She was +now getting more corpulent than ever, and her little eyes had almost vanished +from her fat face. She moved slowly with a beatifical expression of felicity. +Her life’s ambition was now evidently satisfied. For this she had been +born. When she put her sugar away again Hélène caught a glimpse of some +tid-bits secreted at the bottom of a cupboard—a jar of preserves, a bag +of biscuits, and even some cigars, all doubtless pilfered from the gentleman +lodger. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, good-bye, Mother Fétu, I’m going away,” she exclaimed. +</p> + +<p> +The old lady, however, pushed the saucepan to one side of the stove and +murmured: “Wait a minute; this is far too hot, I’ll drink it +by-and-by. No, no; don’t go out that way. I must beg pardon for having +received you in the kitchen. Let us go round the rooms.” +</p> + +<p> +She caught up the lamp, and turned into a narrow passage. Hélène, with beating +heart, followed close behind. The passage, dilapidated and smoky, was reeking +with damp. Then a door was thrown open, and she found herself treading a thick +carpet. Mother Fétu had already advanced into a room which was plunged in +darkness and silence. +</p> + +<p> +“Well?” she asked, as she lifted up the lamp; “it’s +very nice, isn’t it?” +</p> + +<p> +There were two rooms, each of them square, communicating with one another by +folding-doors, which had been removed, and replaced by curtains. Both were hung +with pink cretonne of a Louis Quinze pattern, picturing chubby-checked cupids +disporting themselves amongst garlands of flowers. In the first apartment there +was a round table, two lounges, and some easy-chairs; and in the second, which +was somewhat smaller, most of the space was occupied by the bed. Mother Fétu +drew attention to a crystal lamp with gilt chains, which hung from the ceiling. +To her this lamp was the veritable acme of luxury. +</p> + +<p> +Then she began explaining things: “You can’t imagine what a funny +fellow he is! He lights it up in mid-day, and stays here, smoking a cigar and +gazing into vacancy. But it amuses him, it seems. Well, it doesn’t +matter; I’ve an idea he must have spent a lot of money in his +time.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène went through the rooms in silence. They seemed to her in bad taste. +There was too much pink everywhere; the furniture also looked far too new. +</p> + +<p> +“He calls himself Monsieur Vincent,” continued the old woman, +rambling on. “Of course, it’s all the same to me. As long as he +pays, my gentleman—” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, good-bye, Mother Fétu,” said Hélène, in whose throat a +feeling of suffocation was gathering. +</p> + +<p> +She was burning to get away, but on opening a door she found herself threading +three small rooms, the bareness and dirt of which were repulsive. The paper +hung in tatters from the walls, the ceilings were grimy, and old plaster +littered the broken floors. The whole place was pervaded by a smell of long +prevalent squalor. +</p> + +<p> +“Not that way! not that way!” screamed Mother Fétu. “That +door is generally shut. These are the other rooms which they haven’t +attempted to clean. My word! it’s cost him quite enough already! Yes, +indeed, these aren’t nearly so nice! Come this way, my good +lady—come this way!” +</p> + +<p> +On Hélène’s return to the pink boudoir, she stopped to kiss her hand once +more. +</p> + +<p> +“You see, I’m not ungrateful! I shall never forget the shoes. How +well they fit me! and how warm they are! Why, I could walk half-a-dozen miles +with them. What can I beg Heaven to grant you? O Lord, hearken to me, and grant +that she may be the happiest of women—in the name of the Father, the Son, +and the Holy Ghost!” A devout enthusiasm had suddenly come upon Mother +Fétu; she repeated the sign of the cross again and again, and bowed the knee in +the direction of the crystal lamp. This done, she opened the door conducting to +the landing, and whispered in a changed voice into Hélène’s ear: +</p> + +<p> +“Whenever you like to call, just knock at the kitchen door; I’m +always there!” +</p> + +<p> +Dazed, and glancing behind her as though she were leaving a place of dubious +repute, Hélène hurried down the staircase, reascended the Passage des Eaux, and +regained the Rue Vineuse, without consciousness of the ground she was covering. +The old woman’s last words still rang in her ears. In truth, no; never +again would she set foot in that house, never again would she bear her charity +thither. Why should she ever rap at the kitchen door again? At present she was +satisfied; she had seen what was to be seen. And she was full of scorn for +herself—for everybody. How disgraceful to have gone there! The +recollection of the place with its tawdry finery and squalid surroundings +filled her with mingled anger and disgust. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, madame,” exclaimed Rosalie, who was awaiting her return on +the staircase, “the dinner will be nice. Dear, oh dear! it’s been +burning for half an hour!” +</p> + +<p> +At table Jeanne plagued her mother with questions. Where had she been? what had +she been about? However, as the answers she received proved somewhat curt, she +began to amuse herself by giving a little dinner. Her doll was perched near her +on a chair, and in a sisterly fashion she placed half of her dessert before it. +</p> + +<p> +“Now, mademoiselle, you must eat like a lady. See, wipe your mouth. Oh, +the dirty little thing! She doesn’t even know how to wear her napkin! +There, you’re nice now. See, here is a biscuit. What do you say? You want +some preserve on it. Well, I should think it better as it is! Let me pare you a +quarter of this apple!” +</p> + +<p> +She placed the doll’s share on the chair. But when she had emptied her +own plate she took the dainties back again one after the other and devoured +them, speaking all the time as though she were the doll. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! it’s delicious! I’ve never eaten such nice jam! Where +did you get this jam, madame? I shall tell my husband to buy a pot of it. Do +those beautiful apples come from your garden, madame?” +</p> + +<p> +She fell asleep while thus playing, and stumbled into the bedroom with the doll +in her arms. She had given herself no rest since morning. Her little legs could +no longer sustain her—she was helpless and wearied to death. However, a +ripple of laughter passed over her face even in sleep; in her dreams she must +have been still continuing her play. +</p> + +<p> +At last Hélène was alone in her room. With closed doors she spent a miserable +evening beside the dead fire. Her will was failing her; thoughts that found no +utterance were stirring within the innermost recesses of her heart. At midnight +she wearily sought her bed, but there her torture passed endurance. She dozed, +she tossed from side to side as though a fire were beneath her. She was haunted +by visions which sleeplessness enlarged to a gigantic size. Then an idea took +root in her brain. In vain did she strive to banish it; it clung to her, surged +and clutched her at the throat till it entirely swayed her. About two +o’clock she rose, rigid, pallid, and resolute as a somnambulist, and +having again lighted the lamp she wrote a letter in a disguised hand; it was a +vague denunciation, a note of three lines, requesting Doctor Deberle to repair +that day to such a place at such an hour; there was no explanation, no +signature. She sealed the envelope and dropped the letter into the pocket of +her dress which was hanging over an arm-chair. Then returning to bed, she +immediately closed her eyes, and in a few minutes was lying there breathless, +overpowered by leaden slumber. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0018"></a> CHAPTER XVIII.</h2> + +<p> +It was nearly nine o’clock the next morning before Rosalie was able to +serve the coffee. Hélène had risen late. She was weary and pale with the +nightmare that had broken her rest. She rummaged in the pocket of her dress, +felt the letter there, pressed it to the very bottom, and sat down at the table +without opening her lips. Jeanne too was suffering from headache, and had a +pale, troubled face. She quitted her bed regretfully that morning, without any +heart to indulge in play. There was a sooty color in the sky, and a dim light +saddened the room, while from time to time sudden downpours of rain beat +against the windows. +</p> + +<p> +“Mademoiselle is in the blues,” said Rosalie, who monopolized all +the talk. “She can’t keep cheerful for two days running. +That’s what comes of dancing about too much yesterday.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you feel ill, Jeanne?” asked Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +“No, mamma,” answered the child. “It’s only the nasty +weather.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène lapsed once more into silence. She finished her coffee, and sat in her +chair, plunged in thought, with her eyes riveted on the flames. While rising +she had reflected that it was her duty to speak to Juliette and bid her +renounce the afternoon assignation. But how? She could not say. Still, the +necessity of the step was impressed on her, and now her one urgent, +all-absorbing thought was to attempt it. Ten o’clock struck, and she +began to dress. Jeanne gazed at her, and, on seeing her take up her bonnet, +clasped her little hands as though stricken with cold, while over her face +crept a pained look. It was her wont to take umbrage whenever her mother went +out; she was unwilling to quit her side, and craved to go with her everywhere. +</p> + +<p> +“Rosalie,” said Hélène, “make haste and finish the room. +Don’t go out. I’ll be back in a moment.” +</p> + +<p> +She stooped and gave Jeanne a hasty kiss, not noticing her vexation. But the +moment she had gone a sob broke from the child, who had hitherto summoned all +her dignity to her aid to restrain her emotion. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, mademoiselle, how naughty!” exclaimed the maid by way of +consolation. “Gracious powers! no one will rob you of your mamma. You +must allow her to see after her affairs. You can’t always be hanging to +her skirts!” +</p> + +<p> +Meanwhile Hélène had turned the corner of the Rue Vineuse, keeping close to the +wall for protection against the rain. It was Pierre who opened the door; but at +sight of her he seemed somewhat embarrassed. +</p> + +<p> +“Is Madame Deberle at home?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, madame; but I don’t know whether—” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, in the character of a family friend, was pushing past him towards the +drawing-room; but he took the liberty of stopping her. +</p> + +<p> +“Wait, madame; I’ll go and see.” +</p> + +<p> +He slipped into the room, opening the door as little as he could; and +immediately afterwards Juliette could be heard speaking in a tone of +irritation. “What! you’ve allowed some one to come in? Why, I +forbade it peremptorily. It’s incredible!! I can’t be left quiet +for an instant!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, however, pushed open the door, strong in her resolve to do that which +she imagined to be her duty. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, it’s you!” said Juliette, as she perceived her. “I +didn’t catch who it was!” +</p> + +<p> +The look of annoyance did not fade from her face, however, and it was evident +that the visit was ill-timed. +</p> + +<p> +“Do I disturb you?” asked Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +“Not at all, not at all,” answered the other. “You’ll +understand in a moment. We have been getting up a surprise. We are rehearsing +<i>Caprice</i>[*] to play it on one of my Wednesdays. We had selected this +morning for rehearsal, thinking nobody would know of it. But you’ll stay +now? You will have to keep silence about it, that’s all.” +</p> + +<p> +[*] One of Alfred de Musset’s plays. +</p> + +<p> +Then, clapping her hands and addressing herself to Madame Berthier, who was +standing in the middle of the drawing-room, she began once more, without paying +any further attention to Hélène: “Come, come; we must get on. You +don’t give sufficient point to the sentence ‘To make a purse +unknown to one’s husband would in the eyes of most people seem rather +more than romantic.’ Say that again.” +</p> + +<p> +Intensely surprised at finding her engaged in this way, Hélène had sat down. +The chairs and tables had been pushed against the wall, the carpet thus being +left clear. Madame Berthier, a delicate blonde, repeated her soliloquy, with +her eyes fixed on the ceiling in her effort to recall the words; while plump +Madame de Guiraud, a beautiful brunette, who had assumed the character of +Madame de Lery, reclined in an arm-chair awaiting her cue. The ladies, in their +unpretentious morning gowns, had doffed neither bonnets nor gloves. Seated in +front of them, her hair in disorder and a volume of Musset in her hand, was +Juliette, in a dressing-gown of white cashmere. Her face wore the serious +expression of a stage-manager tutoring his actors as to the tones they should +speak in and the by-play they should introduce. The day being dull, the small +curtains of embroidered tulle had been pulled aside and swung across the knobs +of the window-fastenings, so that the garden could be seen, dark and damp. +</p> + +<p> +“You don’t display sufficient emotion,” declared Juliette. +“Put a little more meaning into it. Every word ought to tell. Begin +again: ‘I’m going to finish your toilette, my dear little +purse.’” +</p> + +<p> +“I shall be an awful failure,” said Madame Berthier languidly. +“Why don’t you play the part instead of me? You would make a +delicious Mathilda.” +</p> + +<p> +“I! Oh, no! In the first place, one needs to be fair. Besides, I’m +a very good teacher, but a bad pupil. But let us get on—let us get +on!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène sat still in her corner. Madame Berthier, engrossed in her part, had not +even turned round. Madame de Guiraud had merely honored her with a slight nod. +She realized that she was in the way, and that she ought to have declined to +stay. If she still remained, it was no longer through the sense of a duty to be +fulfilled, but rather by reason of a strange feeling stirring vaguely in her +heart’s depth’s—a feeling which had previously thrilled her +in this selfsame spot. The unkindly greeting which Juliette had bestowed on her +pained her. However, the young woman’s friendships were usually +capricious; she worshipped people for three months, threw herself on their +necks, and seemed to live for them alone; then one morning, without affording +any explanation, she appeared to lose all consciousness of being acquainted +with them. Without doubt, in this, as in everything else, she was simply +yielding to a fashionable craze, an inclination to love the people who were +loved by her own circle. These sudden veerings of affection, however, deeply +wounded Hélène, for her generous and undemonstrative heart had its ideal in +eternity. She often left the Deberles plunged in sadness, full of despair when +she thought how fragile and unstable was the basis of human love. And on this +occasion, in this crisis in her life, the thought brought her still keener +pain. +</p> + +<p> +“We’ll skip the scene with Chavigny,” said Juliette. +“He won’t be here this morning. Let us see Madame de Lery’s +entrance. Now, Madame de Guiraud, here’s your cue.” Then she read +from her book: “‘Just imagine my showing him this +purse.’” +</p> + +<p> +“‘Oh! it’s exceedingly pretty. Let me look at +it,’” began Madame de Guiraud in a falsetto voice, as she rose with +a silly expression on her face. +</p> + +<p> +When the servant had opened the door to her, Hélène had pictured a scene +entirely different from this. She had imagined that she would find Juliette +displaying excessive nervousness, with pallid cheeks, hesitating and yet +allured, shivering at the very thought of assignation. She had pictured herself +imploring her to reflect, till the young woman, choked with sobs, threw herself +into her arms. Then they would have mingled their tears together, and Hélène +would have quitted her with the thought that Henri was henceforward lost to +her, but that she had secured his happiness. However, there had been nothing of +all this; she had merely fallen on this rehearsal, which was wholly +unintelligible to her; and she saw Juliette before her with unruffled features, +like one who has had a good night’s rest, and with her mind sufficiently +at ease to discuss Madame Berthier’s by-play, without troubling herself +in the least degree about what she would do in the afternoon. This indifference +and frivolity chilled Hélène, who had come to the house with passion consuming +her. +</p> + +<p> +A longing to speak fell on her. At a venture she inquired: “Who will play +the part of Chavigny?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why, Malignon, of course,” answered Juliette, turning round with +an air of astonishment. “He played Chavigny all last winter. It’s a +nuisance he can’t come to the rehearsals. Listen, ladies; I’m going +to read Chavigny’s part. Unless that’s done, we shall never get +on.” +</p> + +<p> +Thereupon she herself began acting the man’s part, her voice deepening +unconsciously, whilst she assumed a cavalier air in harmony with the situation. +Madame Berthier renewed her warbling tones, and Madame de Guiraud took infinite +pains to be lively and witty. When Pierre came in to put some more wood on the +fire he slyly glanced at the ladies, who amused him immensely. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, still fixed in her resolve, despite some heart-shrinking, attempted +however to take Juliette aside. +</p> + +<p> +“Only a minute. I’ve something to say to you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, impossible, my dear! You see how much I am engaged. To-morrow, if +you have the time.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène said no more. The young woman’s unconcern displeased her. She felt +anger growing within her as she observed how calm and collected Juliette was, +when she herself had endured such intense agony since the night before. At one +moment she was on the point of rising and letting things take their course. It +was exceedingly foolish of her to wish to save this woman; her nightmare began +once more; her hands slipped into her pocket, and finding the letter there, +clasped it in a feverish grasp. Why should she have any care for the happiness +of others, when they had no care for her and did not suffer as she did? +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! capital, capital,” exclaimed Juliette of a sudden. +</p> + +<p> +Madame Berthier’s head was now reclining on Madame de Guiraud’s +shoulder, and she was declaring through her sobs: “‘I am sure that +he loves her; I am sure of it!’” +</p> + +<p> +“Your success will be immense,” said Juliette. “Say that once +more: ‘I am sure that he loves her; I am sure of it.’ Leave your +head as it is. You’re divine. Now, Madame de Guiraud, your turn.” +</p> + +<p> +“‘No, no, my child, it cannot be; it is a caprice, a +fancy,’” replied the stout lady. +</p> + +<p> +“Perfect! but oh, the scene is a long one, isn’t it? Let us rest a +little while. We must have that incident in proper working order.” +</p> + +<p> +Then they all three plunged into a discussion regarding the arrangement of the +drawing-room. The dining-room door, to the left, would serve for entrances and +exits; an easy-chair could be placed on the right, a couch at the farther end, +and the table could be pushed close to the fireplace. Hélène, who had risen, +followed them about, as though she felt an interest in these scenic +arrangements. She had now abandoned her idea of eliciting an explanation, and +merely wished to make a last effort to prevent Juliette from going to the place +of meeting. +</p> + +<p> +“I intended asking you,” she said to her, “if it isn’t +to-day that you mean to pay Madame de Chermette a visit?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, this afternoon.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then, if you’ll allow me, I’ll go with you; it’s such +a long time since I promised to go to see her.” +</p> + +<p> +For a moment Juliette betrayed signs of embarrassment, but speedily regained +her self-possession. +</p> + +<p> +“Of course, I should be very happy. Only I have so many things to look +after; I must do some shopping first, and I have no idea at what time I shall +be able to get to Madame de Chermette’s.” +</p> + +<p> +“That doesn’t matter,” said Hélène; “it will enable me +to have a walk.” +</p> + +<p> +“Listen; I will speak to you candidly. Well, you must not press me. You +would be in my way. Let it be some other Monday.” +</p> + +<p> +This was said without a trace of emotion, so flatly and with so quiet a smile +that Hélène was dumbfounded and uttered not another syllable. She was obliged +to lend some assistance to Juliette, who suddenly decided to bring the table +close to the fireplace. Then she drew back, and the rehearsal began once more. +In a soliloquy which followed the scene, Madame de Guiraud with considerable +power spoke these two sentences: “‘But what a treacherous gulf is +the heart of man! In truth, we are worth more than they!’” +</p> + +<p> +And Hélène, what ought she to do now? Within her breast the question raised a +storm that stirred her to vague thoughts of violence. She experienced an +irresistible desire to be revenged on Juliette’s tranquillity, as if that +self-possession were an insult directed against her own fevered heart. She +dreamed of facilitating her fall, that she might see whether she would always +retain this unruffled demeanor. And she thought of herself scornfully as she +recalled her delicacy and scruples. Twenty times already she ought to have said +to Henri: “I love you; let us go away together.” Could she have +done so, however, without the most intense emotion? Could she have displayed +the callous composure of this woman, who, three hours before her first +assignation, was rehearsing a comedy in her own home? Even at this moment she +trembled more than Juliette; what maddened her was the consciousness of her own +passion amidst the quiet cheerfulness of this drawing-room; she was terrified +lest she should burst out into some angry speech. Was she a coward, then? +</p> + +<p> +But all at once a door opened, and Henri’s voice reached her ear: +“Do not disturb yourselves. I’m only passing.” +</p> + +<p> +The rehearsal was drawing to a close. Juliette, who was still reading +Chavigny’s part, had just caught hold of Madame de Guiraud’s hand. +“Ernestine, I adore you!” she exclaimed with an outburst of +passionate earnestness. +</p> + +<p> +“Then Madame de Blainville is no longer beloved by you?” inquired +Madame de Guiraud. +</p> + +<p> +However, so long as her husband was present Juliette declined to proceed. There +was no need of the men knowing anything about it. The doctor showed himself +most polite to the ladies; he complimented them and predicted an immense +success. With black gloves on his hands and his face clean-shaven he was about +to begin his round of visits. On his entry he had merely greeted Hélène with a +slight bow. At the Comedie Francais he had seen some very great actress in the +character of Madame de Lery, and he acquainted Madame de Guiraud with some of +the usual by-play of the scene. +</p> + +<p> +“At the moment when Chavigny is going to throw himself at your feet, you +fling the purse into the fire. Dispassionately, you know, without any anger, +like a woman who plays with love.” +</p> + +<p> +“All right; leave us alone,” said Juliette. “We know all +about it.” +</p> + +<p> +At last, when they had heard him close his study door, she began once more: +“Ernestine, I adore you!” +</p> + +<p> +Prior to his departure Henri had saluted Hélène with the same slight bow. She +sat dumb, as though awaiting some catastrophe. The sudden appearance of the +husband had seemed to her ominous; but when he had gone, his courtesy and +evident blindness made him seem to her ridiculous. So he also gave attention to +this idiotic comedy! And there was no loving fire in his eye as he looked at +her sitting there! The whole house had become hateful and cold to her. Here was +a downfall; there was nothing to restrain her any longer, for she abhorred +Henri as much as Juliette. Within her pocket she held the letter in her +convulsive grasp. At last, murmuring “Good-bye for the present,” +she quitted the room, her head swimming and the furniture seeming to dance +around her. And in her ears rang these words, uttered by Madame de Guiraud: +</p> + +<p> +“Adieu. You will perhaps think badly of me to-day, but you will have some +kindly feeling for me to-morrow, and, believe me, that is much better than a +caprice.” +</p> + +<p> +When Hélène had shut the house door and reached the pavement, she drew the +letter with a violent, almost mechanical gesture from her pocket, and dropped +it into the letter-box. Then she stood motionless for a few seconds, still +dazed, her eyes glaring at the narrow brass plate which had fallen back again +in its place. +</p> + +<p> +“It is done,” she exclaimed in a whisper. +</p> + +<p> +Once more she pictured the rooms hung with pink cretonne. Malignon and Juliette +were there together; but all of a sudden the wall was riven open, and the +husband entered. She was conscious of no more, and a great calm fell on her. +Instinctively she looked around to see if any one had observed her dropping the +letter in the box. But the street was deserted. Then she turned the corner and +went back home. +</p> + +<p> +“Have you been good, my darling?” she asked as she kissed Jeanne. +</p> + +<p> +The child, still seated on the same chair, raised a gloomy face towards her, +and without answering threw both arms around her neck, and kissed her with a +great gasp. Her grief indeed had been intense. +</p> + +<p> +At lunch-time Rosalie seemed greatly surprised. “Madame surely went for a +long walk!” said she. +</p> + +<p> +“Why do you think so?” asked Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +“Because madame is eating with such an appetite. It is long since madame +ate so heartily.” +</p> + +<p> +It was true; she was very hungry; with her sudden relief she had felt her +stomach empty. She experienced a feeling of intense peace and content. After +the shocks of these last two days a stillness fell upon her spirit, her limbs +relaxed and became as supple as though she had just left a bath. The only +sensation that remained to her was one of heaviness somewhere, an indefinable +load that weighed upon her. +</p> + +<p> +When she returned to her bedroom her eyes were at once directed towards the +clock, the hands of which pointed to twenty-five minutes past twelve. +Juliette’s assignation was for three o’clock. Two hours and a half +must still elapse. She made the reckoning mechanically. Moreover, she was in no +hurry; the hands of the clock were moving on, and no one in the world could +stop them. She left things to their own accomplishment. A child’s cap, +long since begun, was lying unfinished on the table. She took it up and began +to sew at the window. The room was plunged in unbroken silence. Jeanne had +seated herself in her usual place, but her arms hung idly beside her. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma,” she said, “I cannot work; it’s no fun at +all.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, my darling, don’t do anything. Oh! wait a minute, you can +thread my needles!” +</p> + +<p> +In a languid way the child silently attended to the duty assigned her. Having +carefully cut some equal lengths of cotton, she spent a long time in finding +the eyes of the needles, and was only just ready with one of them threaded when +her mother had finished with the last. +</p> + +<p> +“You see,” said the latter gently, “this will save time. The +last of my six little caps will be finished to-night.” +</p> + +<p> +She turned round to glance at the clock—ten minutes past one. Still +nearly two hours. Juliette must now be beginning to dress. Henri had received +the letter. Oh! he would certainly go. The instructions were precise; he would +find the place without delay. But it all seemed so far off still, and she felt +no emotional fever, but went on sewing with regular stitches as industriously +as a work-girl. The minutes slipped by one by one. At last two o’clock +struck. +</p> + +<p> +A ring at the bell came as a surprise. +</p> + +<p> +“Who can it be, mother darling?” asked Jeanne, who had jumped on +her chair. “Oh! it’s you!” she continued, as Monsieur Rambaud +entered the room. “Why did you ring so loudly? You gave me quite a +fright.” +</p> + +<p> +The worthy man was in consternation—to tell the truth, his tug at the +bell had been a little too violent. +</p> + +<p> +“I am not myself to-day, I’m ill,” the child resumed. +“You must not frighten me.” +</p> + +<p> +Monsieur Rambaud displayed the greatest solicitude. What was the matter with +his poor darling? He only sat down, relieved, when Hélène had signed to him +that the child was in her dismals, as Rosalie was wont to say. A call from him +in the daytime was a rare occurrence, and so he at once set about explaining +the object of his visit. It concerned some fellow-townsman of his, an old +workman who could find no employment owing to his advanced years, and who lived +with his paralytic wife in a tiny little room. Their wretchedness could not be +pictured. He himself had gone up that morning to make a personal investigation. +Their lodging was a mere hole under the tiles, with a swing window, through +whose broken panes the wind beat in. Inside, stretched on a mattress, he had +found a woman wrapped in an old curtain, while the man squatted on the floor in +a state of stupefaction, no longer finding sufficient courage even to sweep the +place. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! poor things, poor things!” exclaimed Hélène, moved to tears. +</p> + +<p> +It was not the old workman who gave Monsieur Rambaud any uneasiness. He would +remove him to his own house and find him something to do. But there was the +wife with palsied frame, whom the husband dared not leave for a moment alone, +and who had to be rolled up like a bundle; where could she be put? what was to +be done with her? +</p> + +<p> +“I thought of you,” he went on. “You must obtain her instant +admission to an asylum. I should have gone straight to Monsieur Deberle, but I +imagined you knew him better and would have greater influence with him. If he +would be kind enough to interest himself in the matter, it could all be +arranged to-morrow.” +</p> + +<p> +Trembling with pity, her cheeks white, Jeanne listened to the tale. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, mamma!” she murmured with clasped hands, “be +kind—get the admission for the poor woman!” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, yes, of course!” said Hélène, whose emotion was increasing. +“I will speak to the doctor as soon as I can; he will himself take every +requisite step. Give me their names and the address, Monsieur Rambaud.” +</p> + +<p> +He scribbled a line on the table, and said as he rose: “It is thirty-five +minutes past two. You would perhaps find the doctor at home now.” +</p> + +<p> +She had risen at the same time, and as she looked at the clock a fierce thrill +swept through her frame. In truth it was already thirty-five minutes past two, +and the hands were still creeping on. She stammered out that the doctor must +have started on his round of visits. Her eyes were riveted on the dial. +Meantime, Monsieur Rambaud remained standing hat in hand, and beginning his +story once more. These poor people had sold everything, even their stove, and +since the setting in of winter had spent their days and nights alike without a +fire. At the close of December they had been four days without food. Hélène +gave vent to a cry of compassion. The hands of the clock now marked twenty +minutes to three. Monsieur Rambaud devoted another two minutes to his farewell: +“Well, I depend on you,” he said. And stooping to kiss Jeanne, he +added: “Good-bye, my darling.” +</p> + +<p> +“Good-bye; don’t worry; mamma won’t forget. I’ll make +her remember.” +</p> + +<p> +When Hélène came back from the ante-room, whither she had gone in company with +Monsieur Rambaud, the hands of the clock pointed to a quarter to three. Another +quarter of an hour and all would be over. As she stood motionless before the +fireplace, the scene which was about to be enacted flashed before her eyes: +Juliette was already there; Henri entered and surprised her. She knew the room; +she could see the scene in its minutest details with terrible vividness. And +still affected by Monsieur Rambaud’s awful story she felt a mighty +shudder rise from her limbs to her face. A voice cried out within her that what +she had done—the writing of that letter, that cowardly +denunciation—was a crime. The truth came to her with dazzling clearness. +Yes, it was a crime she had committed! She recalled to memory the gesture with +which she had flung the letter into the box; she recalled it with a sense of +stupor such as might come over one on seeing another commit an evil action, +without thought of intervening. She was as if awaking from a dream. What was it +that had happened? Why was she here, with eyes ever fixed on the hands of that +dial? Two more minutes had slipped away. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma,” said Jeanne, “if you like, we’ll go to see the +doctor together to-night. It will be a walk for me. I feel stifling +to-day.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, however, did not hear; thirteen minutes must yet elapse. But she could +not allow so horrible a thing to take place! In this stormy awakening of her +rectitude she felt naught but a furious craving to prevent it. She must prevent +it; otherwise she would be unable to live. In a state of frenzy she ran about +her bedroom. +</p> + +<p> +“Ah, you’re going to take me!” exclaimed Jeanne joyously. +“We’re going to see the doctor at once, aren’t we, mother +darling?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, no,” Hélène answered, while she hunted for her boots, stooping +to look under the bed. +</p> + +<p> +They were not to be found; but she shrugged her shoulders with supreme +indifference when it occurred to her that she could very well run out in the +flimsy house-slippers she had on her feet. She was now turning the wardrobe +topsy-turvy in her search for her shawl. Jeanne crept up to her with a coaxing +air: “Then you’re not going to the doctor’s, mother +darling?” +</p> + +<p> +“No.” +</p> + +<p> +“Say that you’ll take me all the same. Oh! do take me; it will be +such a pleasure!” +</p> + +<p> +But Hélène had at last found her shawl, and she threw it over her shoulders. +Good heavens! only twelve minutes left—just time to run. She would +go—she would do something, no matter what. She would decide on the way. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma dear, do please take me with you,” said Jeanne in tones that +grew lower and more imploring. +</p> + +<p> +“I cannot take you,” said Hélène; “I’m going to a place +where children don’t go. Give me my bonnet.” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne’s face blanched. Her eyes grew dim, her words came with a gasp. +“Where are you going?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +The mother made no reply—she was tying the strings of her bonnet. +</p> + +<p> +Then the child continued: “You always go out without me now. You went out +yesterday, you went out to-day, and you are going out again. Oh, I’m +dreadfully grieved, I’m afraid to be here all alone. I shall die if you +leave me here. Do you hear, mother darling? I shall die.” +</p> + +<p> +Then bursting into loud sobs, overwhelmed by a fit of grief and rage, she clung +fast to Hélène’s skirts. +</p> + +<p> +“Come, come, leave me; be good, I’m coming back,” her mother +repeated. +</p> + +<p> +“No, no! I won’t have it!” the child exclaimed through her +sobs. “Oh! you don’t love me any longer, or you would take me with +you. Yes, yes, I am sure you love other people better. Take me with you, take +me with you, or I’ll stay here on the floor; you’ll come back and +find me on the floor.” +</p> + +<p> +She wound her little arms round her mother’s legs; she wept with face +buried in the folds of her dress; she clung to her and weighed upon her to +prevent her making a step forward. And still the hands of the clock moved +steadily on; it was ten minutes to three. Then Hélène thought that she would +never reach the house in time, and, nearly distracted, she wrenched Jeanne from +her grasp, exclaiming: “What an unbearable child! This is veritable +tyranny! If you sob any more, I’ll have something to say to you!” +</p> + +<p> +She left the room and slammed the door behind her. Jeanne had staggered back to +the window, her sobs suddenly arrested by this brutal treatment, her limbs +stiffened, her face quite white. She stretched her hands towards the door, and +twice wailed out the words: “Mamma! mamma!” And then she remained +where she had fallen on a chair, with eyes staring and features distorted by +the jealous thought that her mother was deceiving her. +</p> + +<p> +On reaching the street, Hélène hastened her steps. The rain had ceased, but +great drops fell from the housetops on to her shoulders. She had resolved that +she would reflect outside and fix on some plan. But now she was only inflamed +with a desire to reach the house. When she reached the Passage des Eaux, she +hesitated for just one moment. The descent had become a torrent; the water of +the gutters of the Rue Raynouard was rushing down it. And as the stream bounded +over the steps, between the close-set walls, it broke here and there into foam, +whilst the edges of the stones, washed clear by the downpour, shone out like +glass. A gleam of pale light, falling from the grey sky, made the Passage look +whiter between the dusky branches of the trees. Hélène went down it, scarcely +raising her skirts. The water came up to her ankles. She almost lost her flimsy +slippers in the puddles; around her, down the whole way, she heard a gurgling +sound, like the murmuring of brooklets coursing through the grass in the depths +of the woods. +</p> + +<p> +All at once she found herself on the stairs in front of the door. She stood +there, panting in a state of torture. Then her memory came back, and she +decided to knock at the kitchen. +</p> + +<p> +“What! is it you?” exclaimed Mother Fétu. +</p> + +<p> +There was none of the old whimper in her voice. Her little eyes were sparkling, +and a complacent grin had spread over the myriad wrinkles of her face. All the +old deference vanished, and she patted Hélène’s hands as she listened to +her broken words. The young woman gave her twenty francs. +</p> + +<p> +“May God requite you!” prayed Mother Fétu in her wonted style. +“Whatever you please, my dear!” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0019"></a> CHAPTER XIX.</h2> + +<p> +Leaning back in an easy-chair, with his legs stretched out before the huge, +blazing fire, Malignon sat waiting. He had considered it a good idea to draw +the window-curtains and light the wax candles. The outer room, in which he had +seated himself, was brilliantly illuminated by a small chandelier and a pair of +candelabra; whilst the other apartment was plunged in shadow, the swinging +crystal lamp alone casting on the floor a twilight gleam. Malignon drew out his +watch. +</p> + +<p> +“The deuce!” he muttered. “Is she going to keep me waiting +again?” +</p> + +<p> +He gave vent to a slight yawn. He had been waiting for an hour already, and it +was small amusement to him. However, he rose and cast a glance over his +preparations. +</p> + +<p> +The arrangement of the chairs did not please him, and he rolled a couch in +front of the fireplace. The cretonne hangings had a ruddy glow, as they +reflected the light of the candles; the room was warm, silent, and cozy, while +outside the wind came and went in sudden gusts. All at once the young man heard +three hurried knocks at the door. It was the signal. +</p> + +<p> +“At last!” he exclaimed aloud, his face beaming jubilantly. +</p> + +<p> +He ran to open the door, and Juliette entered, her face veiled, her figure +wrapped in a fur mantle. While Malignon was gently closing the door, she stood +still for a moment, with the emotion that checked the words on her lips +undetected. +</p> + +<p> +However, before the young man had had time to take her hand, she raised her +veil, and displayed a smiling face, rather pale, but quite unruffled. +</p> + +<p> +“What! you have lighted up the place!” she exclaimed. “Why? I +thought you hated candles in broad daylight!” +</p> + +<p> +Malignon, who had been making ready to clasp her with a passionate gesture that +he had been rehearsing, was put somewhat out of countenance by this remark, and +hastened to explain that the day was too wretched, and that the windows looked +on to waste patches of ground. Besides, night was his special delight. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, one never knows how to take you,” she retorted jestingly. +“Last spring, at my children’s ball, you made such a fuss, +declaring that the place was like some cavern, some dead-house. However, let us +say that your taste has changed.” +</p> + +<p> +She seemed to be paying a mere visit, and affected a courage which slightly +deepened her voice. This was the only indication of her uneasiness. At times +her chin twitched somewhat, as though she felt some uneasiness in her throat. +But her eyes were sparkling, and she tasted to the full the keen pleasure born +of her imprudence. She thought of Madame de Chermette, of whom such scandalous +stories were related. Good heavens! it seemed strange all the same. +</p> + +<p> +“Let us have a look round,” she began. +</p> + +<p> +And thereupon she began inspecting the apartment. He followed in her footsteps, +while she gazed at the furniture, examined the walls, looked upwards, and +started back, chattering all the time. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t like your cretonne; it is so frightfully common!” +said she. “Where did you buy that abominable pink stuff? There’s a +chair that would be nice if the wood weren’t covered with gilding. Not a +picture, not a nick-nack—only your chandelier and your candelabra, which +are by no means in good style! Ah well, my dear fellow; I advise you to +continue laughing at my Japanese pavilion!” +</p> + +<p> +She burst into a laugh, thus revenging herself on him for the old affronts +which still rankled in her breast. +</p> + +<p> +“Your taste is a pretty one, and no mistake! You don’t know that my +idol is worth more than the whole lot of your things! A draper’s shopman +wouldn’t have selected that pink stuff. Was it your idea to fascinate +your washerwoman?” +</p> + +<p> +Malignon felt very much hurt, and did not answer. He made an attempt to lead +her into the inner room; but she remained on the threshold, declaring that she +never entered such gloomy places. Besides, she could see quite enough; the one +room was worthy of the other. The whole of it had come from the Saint-Antoine +quarter. +</p> + +<p> +But the hanging lamp was her special aversion. She attacked it with merciless +raillery—what a trashy thing it was, such as some little work-girl with +no furniture of her own might have dreamt of! Why, lamps in the same style +could be bought at all the bazaars at seven francs fifty centimes apiece. +</p> + +<p> +“I paid ninety francs for it,” at last ejaculated Malignon in his +impatience. +</p> + +<p> +Thereupon she seemed delighted at having angered him. +</p> + +<p> +On his self-possession returning, he inquired: “Won’t you take off +your cloak?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, yes, I will,” she answered; “it is dreadfully warm +here.” +</p> + +<p> +She took off her bonnet as well, and this with her fur cloak he hastened to +deposit in the next room. When he returned, he found her seated in front of the +fire, still gazing round her. She had regained her gravity, and was disposed to +display a more conciliatory demeanor. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s all very ugly,” she said; “still, you are not +amiss here. The two rooms might have been made very pretty.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! they’re good enough for my purpose!” he thoughtlessly +replied, with a careless shrug of the shoulders. +</p> + +<p> +The next moment, however, he bitterly regretted these silly words. He could not +possibly have been more impertinent or clumsy. Juliette hung her head, and a +sharp pang darted through her bosom. Then he sought to turn to advantage the +embarrassment into which he had plunged her. +</p> + +<p> +“Juliette!” he said pleadingly, as he leaned towards her. +</p> + +<p> +But with a gesture she forced him to resume his seat. It was at the seaside, at +Trouville, that Malignon, bored to death by the constant sight of the sea, had +hit upon the happy idea of falling in love. One evening he had taken hold of +Juliette’s hand. She had not seemed offended; in fact, she had at first +bantered him over it. Soon, though her head was empty and her heart free, she +imagined that she loved him. She had, so far, done nearly everything that her +friends did around her; a lover only was lacking, and curiosity and a craving +to be like the others had impelled her to secure one. However, Malignon was +vain enough to imagine that he might win her by force of wit, and allowed her +time to accustom herself to playing the part of a coquette. So, on the first +outburst, which took place one night when they stood side by side gazing at the +sea like a pair of lovers in a comic opera, she had repelled him, in her +astonishment and vexation that he should spoil the romance which served as an +amusement to her. +</p> + +<p> +On his return to Paris Malignon had vowed that he would be more skilful in his +attack. He had just reacquired influence over her, during a fit of boredom +which had come on with the close of a wearying winter, when the usual +dissipations, dinners, balls, and first-night performances were beginning to +pall on her with their dreary monotony. And at last, her curiosity aroused, +allured by the seeming mystery and piquancy of an intrigue, she had responded +to his entreaties by consenting to meet him. However, so wholly unruffled were +her feelings, that she was as little disturbed, seated here by the side of +Malignon, as when she paid visits to artists’ studios to solicit pictures +for her charity bazaars. +</p> + +<p> +“Juliette! Juliette!” murmured the young man, striving to speak in +caressing tones. +</p> + +<p> +“Come, be sensible,” she merely replied; and taking a Chinese fan +from the chimney-piece, she resumed—as much at her ease as though she had +been sitting in her own drawing-room: “You know we had a rehearsal this +morning. I’m afraid I have not made a very happy choice in Madame +Berthier. Her ‘Mathilda’ is a snivelling, insufferable affair. You +remember that delightful soliloquy when she addresses the +purse—‘Poor little thing, I kissed you a moment ago’? Well! +she declaims it like a school-girl who has learnt a complimentary greeting. +It’s so vexatious!” +</p> + +<p> +“And what about Madame de Guiraud?” he asked, as he drew his chair +closer and took her hand. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! she is perfection. I’ve discovered in her a ‘Madame de +Lery,’ with some sarcasm and animation.” +</p> + +<p> +While speaking she surrendered her hand to the young man, and he kissed it +between her sentences without her seeming to notice it. +</p> + +<p> +“But the worst of it all, you know,” she resumed, “is your +absence. In the first place, you might say something to Madame Berthier; and +besides, we shall not be able to get a good <i>ensemble</i> if you never +come.” +</p> + +<p> +He had now succeeded in passing his arm round her waist. +</p> + +<p> +“But as I know my part,” he murmured. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, that’s all very well; but there’s the arrangement of +the scenes to look after. It is anything but obliging on your part to refuse to +give us three or four mornings.” +</p> + +<p> +She was unable to continue, for he was raining a shower of kisses on her neck. +At this she could feign ignorance no longer, but pushed him away, tapping him +the while with the Chinese fan which she still retained in her hand. Doubtless, +she had registered a vow that she would not allow any further familiarity. Her +face was now flushed by the heat reflected from the fire, and her lips pouted +with the very expression of an inquisitive person whom her feelings astonish. +Moreover, she was really getting frightened. +</p> + +<p> +“Leave me alone,” she stammered, with a constrained smile. “I +shall get angry.” +</p> + +<p> +But he imagined that he had moved her, and once more took hold of her hands. To +her, however, a voice seemed to be crying out, “No!” It was she +herself protesting before she had even answered her own heart. +</p> + +<p> +“No, no!” she said again. “Let me go; you are hurting +me!” And thereupon, as he refused to release her, she twisted herself +violently from his grasp. She was acting in obedience to some strange emotion; +she felt angry with herself and with him. In her agitation some disjointed +phrases escaped her lips. Yes, indeed, he rewarded her badly for her trust. +What a brute he was! She even called him a coward. Never in her life would she +see him again. But he allowed her to talk on, and ran after her with a wicked +and brutal laugh. And at last she could do no more than gasp in the momentary +refuge which she had sought behind a chair. They were there, gazing at one +another, her face transformed by shame and his by passion, when a noise broke +through the stillness. At first they did not grasp its significance. A door had +opened, some steps crossed the room, and a voice called to them: +</p> + +<p> +“Fly! fly! You will be caught!” +</p> + +<p> +It was Hélène. Astounded, they both gazed at her. So great was their +stupefaction that they lost consciousness of their embarrassing situation. +Juliette indeed displayed no sign of confusion. +</p> + +<p> +“Fly! fly!” said Hélène again. “Your husband will be here in +two minutes.” +</p> + +<p> +“My husband!” stammered the young woman; “my +husband!—why—for what reason?” +</p> + +<p> +She was losing her wits. Her brain was in a turmoil. It seemed to her +prodigious that Hélène should be standing there speaking to her of her husband. +</p> + +<p> +But Hélène made an angry gesture. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! if you think I’ve time to explain,” said +she,—“he is on the way here. I give you warning. Disappear at once, +both of you.” +</p> + +<p> +Then Juliette’s agitation became extraordinary. She ran about the rooms +like a maniac, screaming out disconnected sentences. +</p> + +<p> +“My God! my God!—I thank you.—Where is my cloak?—How +horrid it is, this room being so dark!—Give me my cloak.—Bring me a +candle, to help me to find my cloak.—My dear, you mustn’t mind if I +don’t stop to thank you.—I can’t get my arms into the +sleeves—no, I can’t get them in—no, I can’t!” +</p> + +<p> +She was paralyzed with fear, and Hélène was obliged to assist her with her +cloak. She put her bonnet on awry, and did not even tie the ribbons. The worst +of it, however, was that they lost quite a minute in hunting for her veil, +which had fallen on the floor. Her words came with a gasp; her trembling hands +moved about in bewilderment, fumbling over her person to ascertain whether she +might be leaving anything behind which might compromise her. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, what a lesson! what a lesson! Thank goodness, it is well +over!” +</p> + +<p> +Malignon was very pale, and made a sorry appearance. His feet beat a tattoo on +the ground, as he realized that he was both scorned and ridiculous. His lips +could only give utterance to the wretched question: +</p> + +<p> +“Then you think I ought to go away as well?” +</p> + +<p> +Then, as no answer was vouchsafed him, he took up his cane, and went on talking +by way of affecting perfect composure. They had plenty of time, said he. It +happened that there was another staircase, a small servants’ staircase, +now never used, but which would yet allow of their descent. Madame +Deberle’s cab had remained at the door; it would convey both of them away +along the quays. And again he repeated: “Now calm yourself. It will be +all right. See, this way.” +</p> + +<p> +He threw open a door, and the three dingy, dilapidated, little rooms, which had +not been repaired and were full of dirt, appeared to view. A puff of damp air +entered the boudoir. Juliette, ere she stepped through all that squalor, gave +final expression to her disgust. +</p> + +<p> +“How could I have come here?” she exclaimed in a loud voice. +“What a hole! I shall never forgive myself.” +</p> + +<p> +“Be quick, be quick!” urged Hélène, whose anxiety was as great as +her own. +</p> + +<p> +She pushed Juliette forward, but the young woman threw herself sobbing on her +neck. She was in the throes of a nervous reaction. She was overwhelmed with +shame, and would fain have defended herself, fain have given a reason for being +found in that man’s company. Then instinctively she gathered up her +skirts, as though she were about to cross a gutter. With the tip of his boot +Malignon, who had gone on first, was clearing away the plaster which littered +the back staircase. The doors were shut once more. +</p> + +<p> +Meantime, Hélène had remained standing in the middle of the sitting-room. +Silence reigned there, a warm, close silence, only disturbed by the crackling +of the burnt logs. There was a singing in her ears, and she heard nothing. But +after an interval, which seemed to her interminable, the rattle of a cab +suddenly resounded. It was Juliette’s cab rolling away. +</p> + +<p> +Then Hélène sighed, and she made a gesture of mute gratitude. The thought that +she would not be tortured by everlasting remorse for having acted despicably +filled her with pleasant and thankful feelings. She felt relieved, deeply +moved, and yet so weak, now that this awful crisis was over, that she lacked +the strength to depart in her turn. In her heart she thought that Henri was +coming, and that he must meet some one in this place. There was a knock at the +door, and she opened it at once. +</p> + +<p> +The first sensation on either side was one of bewilderment. Henri entered, his +mind busy with thoughts of the letter which he had received, and his face pale +and uneasy. But when he caught sight of her a cry escaped his lips. +</p> + +<p> +“You! My God! It was you!” +</p> + +<p> +The cry betokened more astonishment than pleasure. But soon there came a +furious awakening of his love. +</p> + +<p> +“You love me, you love me!” he stammered. “Ah! it was you, +and I did not understand.” +</p> + +<p> +He stretched out his arm as he spoke; but Hélène, who had greeted his entrance +with a smile, now started back with wan cheeks. Truly she had waited for him; +she had promised herself that they would be together for a moment, and that she +would invent some fiction. Now, however, full consciousness of the situation +flashed upon her; Henri believed it to be an assignation. Yet she had never for +one moment desired such a thing, and her heart rebelled. +</p> + +<p> +“Henri, I pray you, release me,” said she. +</p> + +<p> +He had grasped her by the wrists, and was drawing her slowly towards him, as +though to kiss her. The love that had been surging within him for months, but +which had grown less violent owing to the break in their intimacy, now burst +forth more fiercely than ever. +</p> + +<p> +“Release me,” she resumed. “You are frightening me. I assure +you, you are mistaken.” +</p> + +<p> +His surprise found voice once more. +</p> + +<p> +“Was it not you then who wrote to me?” he asked. +</p> + +<p> +She hesitated for a second. What could she say in answer? +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” she whispered at last. +</p> + +<p> +She could not betray Juliette after having saved her. An abyss lay before her +into which she herself was slipping. Henri was now glancing round the two rooms +in wonderment at finding them illumined and furnished in such gaudy style. He +ventured to question her. +</p> + +<p> +“Are these rooms yours?” he asked. +</p> + +<p> +But she remained silent. +</p> + +<p> +“Your letter upset me so,” he continued. “Hélène, you are +hiding something from me. For mercy’s sake, relieve my anxiety!” +</p> + +<p> +She was not listening to him; she was reflecting that he was indeed right in +considering this to be an assignation. Otherwise, what could she have been +doing there? Why should she have waited for him? She could devise no plausible +explanation. She was no longer certain whether she had not given him this +rendezvous. A network of chance and circumstance was enveloping her yet more +tightly; there was no escape from it. Each second found her less able to +resist. +</p> + +<p> +“You were waiting for me, you were waiting for me!” he repeated +passionately, as he bent his head to kiss her. And then as his lips met hers +she felt it beyond her power to struggle further; but, as though in mute +acquiescence, fell, half swooning and oblivious of the world, upon his neck. +</p> + +<p class="center"> +<a name="image-0005"></a> +<img src="images/x.jpg" height="765" width="510" +alt="The Meeting of Hélène and Henri" /> +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0020"></a> CHAPTER XX.</h2> + +<p> +Jeanne, with her eyes fixed on the door, remained plunged in grief over her +mother’s sudden departure. She gazed around her; the room was empty and +silent; but she could still hear the waning sounds of hurrying footsteps and +rustling skirts, and last the slamming of the outer door. Then nothing stirred, +and she was alone. +</p> + +<p> +All alone, all alone. Over the bed hung her mother’s dressing-gown, flung +there at random, the skirt bulging out and a sleeve lying across the bolster, +so that the garment looked like some person who had fallen down overwhelmed +with grief, and sobbing in misery. There was some linen scattered about, and a +black neckerchief lay on the floor like a blot of mourning. The chairs were in +disorder, the table had been pushed in front of the wardrobe, and amidst it all +she was quite alone. She felt her tears choking her as she looked at the +dressing-gown which no longer garmented her mother, but was stretched there +with the ghastly semblance of death. She clasped her hands, and for the last +time wailed, “Mamma! mamma!” The blue velvet hangings, however, +deadened the sound. It was all over, and she was alone. +</p> + +<p> +Then the time slipped away. The clock struck three. A dismal, dingy light came +in through the windows. Dark clouds were sailing over the sky, which made it +still gloomier. Through the panes of glass, which were covered with moisture, +Paris could only be dimly seen; the watery vapor blurred it; its far-away +outskirts seemed hidden by thick smoke. Thus the city even was no longer there +to keep the child company, as on bright afternoons, when, on leaning out a +little, it seemed to her as though she could touch each district with her hand. +</p> + +<p> +What was she to do? Her little arms tightened in despair against her bosom. +This desertion seemed to her mournful, passing all bounds, characterized by an +injustice and wickedness that enraged her. She had never known anything so +hateful; it struck her that everything was going to vanish; nothing of the old +life would ever come back again. Then she caught sight of her doll seated near +her on a chair, with its back against a cushion, and its legs stretched out, +its eyes staring at her as though it were a human being. It was not her +mechanical doll, but a large one with a pasteboard head, curly hair, and eyes +of enamel, whose fixed look sometimes frightened her. What with two +years’ constant dressing and undressing, the paint had got rubbed off the +chin and cheeks, and the limbs, of pink leather stuffed with sawdust, had +become limp and wrinkled like old linen. The doll was just now in its night +attire, arrayed only in a bed-gown, with its arms twisted, one in the air and +the other hanging downwards. When Jeanne realized that there was still some one +with her, she felt for an instant less unhappy. She took the doll in her arms +and embraced it ardently, while its head swung back, for its neck was broken. +Then she chattered away to it, telling it that it was Jeanne’s +best-behaved friend, that it had a good heart, for it never went out and left +Jeanne alone. It was, said she, her treasure, her kitten, her dear little pet. +Trembling with agitation, striving to prevent herself from weeping again, she +covered it all over with kisses. +</p> + +<p> +This fit of tenderness gave her some revengeful consolation, and the doll fell +over her arm like a bundle of rags. She rose and looked out, with her forehead +against a window-pane. The rain had ceased falling, and the clouds of the last +downpour, driven before the wind, were nearing the horizon towards the heights +of Père-Lachaise, which were wrapped in gloom; and against this stormy +background Paris, illumined by a uniform clearness, assumed a lonely, +melancholy grandeur. It seemed to be uninhabited, like one of those cities seen +in a nightmare—the reflex of a world of death. To Jeanne it certainly +appeared anything but pretty. She was now idly dreaming of those she had loved +since her birth. Her oldest sweetheart, the one of her early days at +Marseilles, had been a huge cat, which was very heavy; she would clasp it with +her little arms, and carry it from one chair to another without provoking its +anger in the least; but it had disappeared, and that was the first misfortune +she remembered. She had next had a sparrow, but it died; she had picked it up +one morning from the bottom of its cage. That made two. She never reckoned the +toys which got broken just to grieve her, all kinds of wrongs which had caused +her much suffering because she was so sensitive. One doll in particular, no +higher than one’s hand, had driven her to despair by getting its head +smashed; she had cherished it to a such a degree that she had buried it by +stealth in a corner of the yard; and some time afterwards, overcome by a +craving to look on it once more, she had disinterred it, and made herself sick +with terror whilst gazing on its blackened and repulsive features. +</p> + +<p> +However, it was always the others who were the first to fail in their love. +They got broken; they disappeared. The separation, at all events, was +invariably their fault. Why was it? She herself never changed. When she loved +any one, her love lasted all her life. Her mind could not grasp the idea of +neglect and desertion; such things seemed to her monstrously wicked, and never +occurred to her little heart without giving it a deadly pang. She shivered as a +host of vague ideas slowly awoke within her. So people parted one day; each +went his own way, never to meet or love each other again. With her eyes fixed +on the limitless and dreary expanse of Paris, she sat chilled by all that her +childish passion could divine of life’s hard blows. +</p> + +<p> +Meantime her breath was fast dimming the glass. With her hands she rubbed away +the vapor that prevented her from looking out. Several monuments in the +distance, wet with the rain, glittered like browny ice. There were lines of +houses, regular and distinct, which, with their fronts standing out pale amidst +the surrounding roofs, looked like outstretched linen—some tremendous +washing spread to dry on fields of ruddy grass. The sky was clearing, and +athwart the tail of the cloud which still cloaked the city in gloom the milky +rays of the sun were beginning to stream. A brightness seemed to be hesitating +over some of the districts; in certain places the sky would soon begin to +smile. Jeanne gazed below, over the quay and the slopes of the Trocadero; the +street traffic was about to begin afresh after that violent downpour. The cabs +again passed by at a jolting crawl, while the omnibuses rattled along the still +lonely streets with a louder noise than usual. Umbrellas were being shut up, +and wayfarers, who had taken shelter beneath the trees, ventured from one foot +pavement to another through muddy streams which were rushing into the gutters. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne noticed with special interest a lady and a little girl, both of them +fashionably dressed, who were standing beneath the awning of a toy-shop near +the bridge. Doubtless they had been caught in the shower, and had taken refuge +there. The child would fain have carried away the whole shop, and had pestered +her mother to buy her a hoop. Both were now leaving, however, and the child was +running along full of glee, driving the hoop before her. At this Jeanne’s +melancholy returned with intensified force; her doll became hideous. She longed +to have a hoop and to be down yonder and run along, while her mother slowly +walked behind her and cautioned her not to go too far. Then, however, +everything became dim again. At each minute she had to rub the glass clear. She +had been enjoined never to open the window; but she was full of rebellious +thoughts; she surely might gaze out of the window, if she were not to be taken +for a walk. So she opened it, and leaned out like a grown-up person—in +imitation of her mother when she ensconced herself there and lapsed into +silence. +</p> + +<p> +The air was mild, and moist in its mildness, which seemed to her delightful. A +darkness slowly rising over the horizon induced her to lift her head. To her +imagination it seemed as if some gigantic bird with outstretched wings were +hovering on high. At first she saw nothing; the sky was clear; but at last, at +the angle of the roof, a gloomy cloud made its appearance, sailing on and +speedily enveloping the whole heaven. Another squall was rising before a +roaring west wind. The daylight was quickly dying away, and the city grew dark, +amidst a livid shimmer, which imparted to the house-fronts a rusty tinge. +</p> + +<p> +Almost immediately afterwards the rain fell. The streets were swept by it; the +umbrellas were again opened; and the passers-by, fleeing in every direction, +vanished like chaff. One old lady gripped her skirts with both hands, while the +torrent beat down on her bonnet as though it were falling from a spout. And the +rain travelled on; the cloud kept pace with the water ragefully falling upon +Paris; the big drops enfiladed the avenues of the quays, with a gallop like +that of a runaway horse, raising a white dust which rolled along the ground at +a prodigious speed. They also descended the Champs-Elysees, plunged into the +long narrow streets of the Saint-Germain district, and at a bound filled up all +the open spaces and deserted squares. In a few seconds, behind this veil which +grew thicker and thicker, the city paled and seemed to melt away. It was as +though a curtain were being drawn obliquely from heaven to earth. Masses of +vapor arose too; and the vast, splashing pit-a-pat was as deafening as any +rattle of old iron. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne, giddy with the noise, started back. A leaden wall seemed to have been +built up before her. But she was fond of rain; so she returned, leaned out +again, and stretched out her arms to feel the big, cold rain-drops splashing on +her hands. This gave her some amusement, and she got wet to the sleeves. Her +doll must, of course, like herself, have a headache, and she therefore hastened +to put it astride the window-rail, with its back against the side wall. She +thought, as she saw the drops pelting down upon it, that they were doing it +some good. Stiffly erect, its little teeth displayed in a never-fading smile, +the doll sat there, with one shoulder streaming with water, while every gust of +wind lifted up its night-dress. Its poor body, which had lost some of its +sawdust stuffing, seemed to be shivering. +</p> + +<p> +What was the reason that had prevented her mother from taking her with her? +wondered Jeanne. The rain that beat down on her hands seemed a fresh inducement +to be out. It must be very nice, she argued, in the street. Once more there +flashed on her mind’s eye the little girl driving her hoop along the +pavement. Nobody could deny that she had gone out with her mamma. Both of them +had even seemed to be exceedingly well pleased. This was sufficient proof that +little girls were taken out when it rained. +</p> + +<p> +But, then, willingness on her mother’s part was requisite. Why had she +been unwilling? Then Jeanne again thought of her big cat which had gone away +over the houses opposite with its tail in the air, and of the poor little +sparrow which she had tempted with food when it was dead, and which had +pretended that it did not understand. That kind of thing always happened to +her; nobody’s love for her was enduring enough. Oh! she would have been +ready in a couple of minutes; when she chose she dressed quickly enough; it was +only a question of her boots, which Rosalie buttoned, her jacket, her hat, and +it was done. Her mother might easily have waited two minutes for her. When she +left home to see her friends, she did not turn her things all topsy-turvy as +she had done that afternoon; when she went to the Bois de Boulogne, she led her +gently by the hand, and stopped with her outside every shop in the Rue de +Passy. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne could not get to the bottom of it; her black eyebrows frowned, and her +delicate features put on a stern, jealous expression which made her resemble +some wicked old maid. She felt in a vague way that her mother had gone to some +place where children never go. She had not been taken out because something was +to be hidden from her. This thought filled her with unutterable sadness, and +her heart throbbed with pain. +</p> + +<p> +The rain was becoming finer, and through the curtain which veiled Paris +glimpses of buildings were occasionally afforded. The dome of the Invalides, +airy and quivering, was the first to reappear through the glittering vibration +of the downpour. Next, some of the districts emerged into sight as the torrent +slackened; the city seemed to rise from a deluge that had overwhelmed it, its +roofs all streaming, and every street filled with a river of water from which +vapor still ascended. But suddenly there was a burst of light; a ray of +sunshine fell athwart the shower. For a moment it was like a smile breaking +through tears. +</p> + +<p> +The rain had now ceased to fall over the Champs-Elysees district; but it was +sabring the left bank, the Cité, and the far-away suburbs; in the sunshine the +drops could be seen flashing down like innumerable slender shafts of steel. On +the right a rainbow gleamed forth. As the gush of light streamed across the +sky, touches of pink and blue appeared on the horizon, a medley of color, +suggestive of a childish attempt at water-color painting. Then there was a +sudden blaze—a fall of golden snow, as it were, over a city of crystal. +But the light died away, a cloud rolled up, and the smile faded amidst tears; +Paris dripped and dripped, with a prolonged sobbing noise, beneath the +leaden-hued sky. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne, with her sleeves soaked, was seized with a fit of coughing. But she was +unconscious of the chill that was penetrating her; she was now absorbed in the +thought that her mother had gone into Paris. She had come at last to know three +buildings—the Invalides, the Panthéon, and the Tower of St.-Jacques. She +now slowly went over their names, and pointed them out with her finger without +attempting to think what they might be like were she nearer to them. Without +doubt, however, her mother was down there; and she settled in her mind that she +was in the Panthéon, because it astonished her the most, huge as it was, +towering up through the air, like the city’s head-piece. Then she began +to question herself. Paris was still to her the place where children never go; +she was never taken there. She would have liked to know it, however, that she +might have quietly said to herself: “Mamma is there; she is doing such +and such a thing.” But it all seemed to her too immense; it was +impossible to find any one there. Then her glance travelled towards the other +end of the plain. Might her mother not rather be in one of that cluster of +houses on the hill to the left? or nearer in, beneath those huge trees, whose +bare branches seemed as dead as firewood? Oh! if she could only have lifted up +the roofs! What could that gloomy edifice be? What was that street along which +something of enormous bulk seemed to be running? And what could that district +be at sight of which she always felt frightened, convinced as she was that +people fought one another there? She could not see it distinctly, but, to tell +the truth, its aspects stirred one; it was very ugly, and must not be looked at +by little girls. +</p> + +<p> +A host of indefinable ideas and suppositions, which brought her to the verge of +weeping, awoke trouble in Jeanne’s ignorant, childish mind. From the +unknown world of Paris, with its smoke, its endless noises, its powerful, +surging life, an odor of wretchedness, filth, and crime seemed to be wafted to +her through the mild, humid atmosphere, and she was forced to avert her head, +as though she had been leaning over one of those pestilential pits which +breathe forth suffocation from their unseen horrors. The Invalides, the +Panthéon, the Tower of Saint-Jacques—these she named and counted; but she +knew nothing of anything else, and she sat there, terrified and ashamed, with +the all-absorbing thought that her mother was among those wicked places, at +some spot which she was unable to identify in the depths yonder. +</p> + +<p> +Suddenly Jeanne turned round. She could have sworn that somebody had walked +into the bedroom, that a light hand had even touched her shoulder. But the room +was empty, still in the same disorder as when Hélène had left. The +dressing-gown, flung across the pillow, still lay in the same mournful, weeping +attitude. Then Jeanne, with pallid cheeks, cast a glance around, and her heart +nearly burst within her. She was alone! she was alone! And, O Heaven, her +mother, in forsaking her, had pushed her with such force that she might have +fallen to the floor. The thought came back to her with anguish; she again +seemed to feel the pain of that outrage on her wrists and shoulders. Why had +she been struck? She had been good, and had nothing to reproach herself with. +She was usually spoken to with such gentleness that the punishment she had +received awoke feelings of indignation within her. She was thrilled by a +sensation of childish fear, as in the old times when she was threatened with +the approach of the wolf, and looked for it and saw it not: it was lingering in +some shady corner, with many other things that were going to overwhelm her. +However, she was full of suspicion; her face paled and swelled with jealous +fury. Of a sudden, the thought that her mother must love those whom she had +gone to see far more than she loved her came upon her with such crushing force +that her little hands clutched her bosom. She knew it now; yes, her mother was +false to her. +</p> + +<p> +Over Paris a great sorrow seemed to be brooding, pending the arrival of a fresh +squall. A murmur travelled through the darkened air, and heavy clouds were +hovering overhead. Jeanne, still at the window, was convulsed by another fit of +coughing; but in the chill she experienced she felt herself revenged; she would +willingly have had her illness return. With her hands pressed against her +bosom, she grew conscious of some pain growing more intense within her. It was +an agony to which her body abandoned itself. She trembled with fear, and did +not again venture to turn round; she felt quite cold at the idea of glancing +into the room any more. To be little means to be without strength. What could +this new complaint be which filled her with mingled shame and bitter pleasure? +With stiffened body, she sat there as if waiting—every one of her pure +and innocent limbs in an agony of revulsion. From the innermost recesses of her +being all her woman’s feelings were aroused, and there darted through her +a pang, as though she had received a blow from a distance. Then with failing +heart she cried out chokingly: “Mamma! mamma!” No one could have +known whether she called to her mother for aid, or whether she accused her of +having inflicted on her the pain which seemed to be killing her. +</p> + +<p> +At that moment the tempest burst. Through the deep and ominous stillness the +wind howled over the city, which was shrouded in darkness; and afterwards there +came a long-continued crashing—window-shutters beating to and fro, slates +flying, chimney-tops and gutter-pipes rattling on to the pavements. For a few +seconds a calm ensued; then there blew another gust, which swept along with +such mighty strength that the ocean of roofs seemed convulsed, tossing about in +waves, and then disappearing in a whirlpool. For a moment chaos reigned. Some +enormous clouds, like huge blots of ink, swept through a host of smaller ones, +which were scattered and floated like shreds of rag which the wind tore to +pieces and carried off thread by thread. A second later two clouds rushed upon +one another, and rent one another with crashing reports, which seemed to +sprinkle the coppery expanse with wreckage; and every time the hurricane thus +veered, blowing from every point of the compass, the thunder of opposing navies +resounded in the atmosphere, and an awful rending and sinking followed, the +hanging fragments of the clouds, jagged like huge bits of broken walls, +threatening Paris with imminent destruction. The rain was not yet falling. But +suddenly a cloud burst above the central quarters, and a water-spout ascended +the Seine. The river’s green ribbon, riddled and stirred to its depths by +the splashing drops, became transformed into a stream of mud; and one by one, +behind the downpour, the bridges appeared to view again, slender and delicately +outlined in the mist; while, right and left, the trees edging the grey +pavements of the deserted quays were shaken furiously by the wind. Away in the +background, over Notre-Dame, the cloud divided and poured down such a torrent +of water that the island of La Cité seemed submerged. Far above the drenched +houses the cathedral towers alone rose up against a patch of clear sky, like +floating waifs. +</p> + +<p> +On every side the water now rushed down from the heavens. Three times in +succession did the right bank appear to be engulfed. The first fall inundated +the distant suburbs, gradually extending its area, and beating on the turrets +of Saint-Vincent-de-Paul and Saint-Jacques, which glistened in the rain. Then +two other downpours, following in hot haste one upon the other, streamed over +Montmartre and the Champs-Elysees. At times a glimpse could be obtained of the +glass roof of the Palace of Industry, steaming, as it were, under the splashing +water; of Saint-Augustin, whose cupola swam in a kind of fog like a clouded +moon; of the Madeleine, which spread out its flat roof, looking like some +ancient court whose flagstones had been freshly scoured; while, in the rear, +the huge mass of the Opera House made one think of a dismasted vessel, which +with its hull caught between two rocks, was resisting the assaults of the +tempest. +</p> + +<p> +On the left bank of the Seine, also hidden by a watery veil, you perceived the +dome of the Invalides, the spires of Sainte-Clotilde, and the towers of +Saint-Sulpice, apparently melting away in the moist atmosphere. Another cloud +spread out, and from the colonnade of the Panthéon sheets of water streamed +down, threatening to inundate what lay below. And from that moment the rain +fell upon the city in all directions; one might have imagined that the heavens +were precipitating themselves on the earth; streets vanished, sank into the +depths, and men reappeared, drifting on the surface, amidst shocks whose +violence seemed to foretell the end of the city. A prolonged roar +ascended—the roar of all the water rushing along the gutters and falling +into the drains. And at last, above muddy-looking Paris, which had assumed with +the showers a dingy-yellow hue, the livid clouds spread themselves out in +uniform fashion, without stain or rift. The rain was becoming finer, and was +falling sharply and vertically; but whenever the wind again rose, the grey +hatching was curved into mighty waves, and the raindrops, driven almost +horizontally, could be heard lashing the walls with a hissing sound, till, with +the fall of the wind, they again fell vertically, peppering the soil with a +quiet obstinacy, from the heights of Passy away to the level plain of +Charenton. Then the vast city, as though overwhelmed and lifeless after some +awful convulsion, seemed but an expanse of stony ruins under the invisible +heavens. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne, who had sunk down by the window, had wailed out once more, +“Mamma! mamma!” A terrible weariness deprived her limbs of their +strength as she lingered there, face to face with the engulfing of Paris. +Amidst her exhaustion, whilst the breeze played with her tresses, and her face +remained wet with rain, she preserved some taste of the bitter pleasure which +had made her shiver, while within her heart there was a consciousness of some +irretrievable woe. Everything seemed to her to have come to an end; she +realized that she was getting very old. The hours might pass away, but now she +did not even cast a glance into the room. It was all the same to her to be +forgotten and alone. Such despair possessed the child’s heart that all +around her seemed black. If she were scolded, as of old, when she was ill, it +would surely be very wrong. She was burning with fever; something like a sick +headache was weighing on her. Surely too, but a moment ago, something had +snapped within her. She could not prevent it; she must inevitably submit to +whatever might be her fate. Besides, weariness was prostrating her. She had +joined her hands over the window-bar, on which she rested her head, and, though +at times she opened her eyes to gaze at the rain, drowsiness was stealing over +her. +</p> + +<p> +And still and ever the rain kept beating down; the livid sky seemed dissolving +in water. A final blast of wind had passed by; a monotonous roar could be +heard. Amidst a solemn quiescence the sovereign rain poured unceasingly upon +the silent, deserted city it had conquered; and behind this sheet of streaked +crystal Paris showed like some phantom place, with quivering outlines, which +seemed to be melting away. To Jeanne the scene now brought nothing beyond +sleepiness and horrid dreams, as though all the mystery and unknown evil were +rising up in vapor to pierce her through and make her cough. Every time she +opened her eyes she was seized with a fit of coughing, and would remain for a +few seconds looking at the scene; which as her head fell back once more, clung +to her mind, and seemed to spread over her and crush her. +</p> + +<p> +The rain was still falling. What hour might it be now? Jeanne could not have +told. Perhaps the clock had ceased going. It seemed to her too great a fatigue +to turn round. It was surely at least a week since her mother had quitted her. +She had abandoned all expectation of her return; she was resigned to the +prospect of never seeing her again. Then she became oblivious of +everything—the wrongs which had been done her, the pain which she had +just experienced, even the loneliness in which she was suffered to remain. A +weight, chilly like stone, fell upon her. This only was certain: she was very +unhappy—ah! as unhappy as the poor little waifs to whom she gave alms as +they huddled together in gateways. Ah! Heaven! how coughing racked one, and how +penetrating was the cold when there was no nobody to love one! She closed her +heavy eyelids, succumbing to a feverish stupor; and the last of her thoughts +was a vague memory of childhood, of a visit to a mill, full of yellow wheat, +and of tiny grains slipping under millstones as huge as houses. +</p> + +<p> +Hours and hours passed away; each minute was a century. The rain beat down +without ceasing, with ever the same tranquil flow, as though all time and +eternity were allowed it to deluge the plain. Jeanne had fallen asleep. Close +by, her doll still sat astride the iron window-bar; and, with its legs in the +room and its head outside, its nightdress clinging to its rosy skin, its eyes +glaring, and its hair streaming with water, it looked not unlike a drowned +child; and so emaciated did it appear in its comical yet distressing posture of +death, that it almost brought tears of pity to the eyes. Jeanne coughed in her +sleep; but now she never once opened her eyes. Her head swayed to and fro on +her crossed arms, and the cough spent itself in a wheeze without awakening her. +Nothing more existed for her. She slept in the darkness. She did not even +withdraw her hand, from whose cold, red fingers bright raindrops were trickling +one by one into the vast expanse which lay beneath the window. This went on for +hours and hours. Paris was slowly waning on the horizon, like some phantom +city; heaven and earth mingled together in an indistinguishable jumble; and +still and ever with unflagging persistency did the grey rain fall. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0021"></a> CHAPTER XXI.</h2> + +<p> +Night had long gathered in when Hélène returned. From her umbrella the water +dripped on step after step, whilst clinging to the balusters she ascended the +staircase. She stood for a few seconds outside her door to regain her breath; +the deafening rush of the rain still sounded in her ears; she still seemed to +feel the jostling of hurrying foot-passengers, and to see the reflections from +the street-lamps dancing in the puddles. She was walking in a dream, filled +with the surprise of the kisses that had been showered upon her; and as she +fumbled for her key she believed that her bosom felt neither remorse nor joy. +Circumstances had compassed it all; she could have done naught to prevent it. +But the key was not to be found; it was doubtless inside, in the pocket of her +other gown. At this discovery her vexation was intense; it seemed as though she +were denied admission to her own home. It became necessary that she should ring +the bell. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! it’s madame!” exclaimed Rosalie as she opened the door. +“I was beginning to feel uneasy.” +</p> + +<p> +She took the umbrella, intending to place it in the kitchen sink, and then +rattled on: +</p> + +<p> +“Good gracious! what torrents! Zephyrin, who has just come, was drenched +to the skin. I took the liberty, madame, of keeping him to dinner. He has leave +till ten o’clock.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène followed her mechanically. She felt a desire to look once more on +everything in her home before removing her bonnet. +</p> + +<p> +“You have done quite right, my girl,” she answered. +</p> + +<p> +For a moment she lingered on the kitchen threshold, gazing at the bright fire. +Then she instinctively opened the door of a cupboard, and promptly shut it +again. Everything was in its place, chairs and tables alike; she found them all +again, and their presence gave her pleasure. Zephyrin had, in the meantime, +struggled respectfully to his feet. She nodded to him, smiling. +</p> + +<p> +“I didn’t know whether to put the roast on,” began the maid. +</p> + +<p> +“Why, what time is it?” asked Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, it’s close on seven o’clock, madame.” +</p> + +<p> +“What! seven o’clock!” +</p> + +<p> +Astonishment riveted her to the floor; she had lost all consciousness of time, +and seemed to awaken from a dream. +</p> + +<p> +“And where’s Jeanne?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! she has been very good, madame. I even think she must have fallen +asleep, for I haven’t heard her for some time.” +</p> + +<p> +“Haven’t you given her a light?” +</p> + +<p> +Embarrassment closed Rosalie’s lips; she was unwilling to relate that +Zephyrin had brought her some pictures which had engrossed her attention. +Mademoiselle had never made the least stir, so she could scarcely have wanted +anything. Hélène, however, paid no further heed to her, but ran into the room, +where a dreadful chill fell upon her. +</p> + +<p> +“Jeanne! Jeanne!” she called. +</p> + +<p> +No answer broke the stillness. She stumbled against an arm-chair. From the +dining-room, the door of which she had left ajar, some light streamed across a +corner of the carpet. She felt a shiver come over her, and she could have +declared that the rain was falling in the room, with its moist breath and +continuous streaming. Then, on turning her head, she at once saw the pale +square formed by the open window and the gloomy grey of the sky. +</p> + +<p> +“Who can have opened this window?” she cried. “Jeanne! +Jeanne!” +</p> + +<p> +Still no answering word. A mortal terror fell on Hélène’s heart. She must +look out of this window; but as she felt her way towards it, her hands lighted +on a head of hair—it was Jeanne’s. And then, as Rosalie entered +with a lamp, the child appeared with blanched face, sleeping with her cheek +upon her crossed arms, while the big raindrops from the roof splashed upon her. +Her breathing was scarcely perceptible, so overcome she was with despair and +fatigue. Among the lashes of her large, bluey eyelids there were still two +heavy tears. +</p> + +<p> +“The unhappy child!” stammered Hélène. “Oh, heavens! +she’s icy cold! To fall asleep there, at such a time, when she had been +expressly forbidden to touch the window! Jeanne, Jeanne, speak to me; wake up, +Jeanne!” +</p> + +<p> +Rosalie had prudently vanished. The child, on being raised in her +mother’s embrace, let her head drop as though she were unable to shake +off the leaden slumber that had seized upon her. At last, however, she raised +her eyelids; but the glare of the lamp dazzled her, and she remained benumbed +and stupid. +</p> + +<p> +“Jeanne, it’s I! What’s wrong with you? See, I’ve just +come back,” said Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +But the child seemingly failed to understand her; in her stupefaction she could +only murmur: “Oh! Ah!” +</p> + +<p> +She gazed inquiringly at her mother, as though she failed to recognize her. And +suddenly she shivered, growing conscious of the cold air of the room. Her +memory was awakening, and the tears rolled from her eyelids to her cheeks. Then +she commenced to struggle, in the evident desire to be left alone. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s you, it’s you! Oh, leave me; you hold me too tight! I +was so comfortable.” +</p> + +<p> +She slipped from her mother’s arms with affright in her face. Her uneasy +looks wandered from Hélène’s hands to her shoulders; one of those hands +was ungloved, and she started back from the touch of the moist palm and warm +fingers with a fierce resentment, as though fleeing from some stranger’s +caress. The old perfume of vervain had died away; Hélène’s fingers had +surely become greatly attenuated, and her hand was unusually soft. This skin +was no longer hers, and its touch exasperated Jeanne. +</p> + +<p> +“Come, I’m not angry with you,” pleaded Hélène. “But, +indeed, have you behaved well? Come and kiss me.” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne, however, still recoiled from her. She had no remembrance of having seen +her mother dressed in that gown or cloak. Besides, she looked so wet and muddy. +Where had she come from dressed in that dowdy style. +</p> + +<p> +“Kiss me, Jeanne,” repeated Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +But her voice also seemed strange; in Jeanne’s ears it sounded louder. +Her old heartache came upon her once more, as when an injury had been done her; +and unnerved by the presence of what was unknown and horrible to her, divining, +however, that she was breathing an atmosphere of falsehood, she burst into +sobs. +</p> + +<p> +“No, no, I entreat you! You left me all alone; and oh! I’ve been so +miserable!” +</p> + +<p> +“But I’m back again, my darling. Don’t weep any more; +I’ve come home!” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh no, no! it’s all over now! I don’t wish for you any more! +Oh, I waited and waited, and have been so wretched!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène took hold of the child again, and gently sought to draw her to her +bosom; but she resisted stubbornly, plaintively exclaiming: +</p> + +<p> +“No, no; it will never be the same! You are not the same!” +</p> + +<p> +“What! What are you talking of, child?” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know; you are not the same.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean to say that I don’t love you any more?” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know; you are no longer the same! Don’t say no. You +don’t feel the same! It’s all over, over, over. I wish to +die!” +</p> + +<p> +With blanching face Hélène again clasped her in her arms. Did her looks, then, +reveal her secret? She kissed her, but a shudder ran through the child’s +frame, and an expression of such misery crept into her face that Hélène forbore +to print a second kiss upon her brow. She still kept hold of her, but neither +of them uttered a word. Jeanne’s sobbing fell to a whisper, a nervous +revolt stiffening her limbs the while. Hélène’s first thought was that +much notice ought not to be paid to a child’s whims; but to her heart +there stole a feeling of secret shame, and the weight of her daughter’s +body on her shoulder brought a blush to her cheeks. She hastened to put Jeanne +down, and each felt relieved. +</p> + +<p> +“Now, be good, and wipe your eyes,” said Hélène. “We’ll +make everything all right.” +</p> + +<p> +The child acquiesced in all gentleness, but seemed somewhat afraid and glanced +covertly at her mother. All at once her frame was shaken by a fit of coughing. +</p> + +<p> +“Good heavens! why, you’ve made yourself ill now! I cannot stay +away from you a moment. Did you feel cold? +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, mamma; in the back.” +</p> + +<p> +“See here; put on this shawl. The dining-room stove is lighted, and +you’ll soon feel warm. Are you hungry?” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne hesitated. It was on the tip of her tongue to speak the truth and say +no; but she darted a side glance at her mother, and, recoiling, answered in a +whisper: “Yes, mamma.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah, well, it will be all right,” exclaimed Hélène, desirous of +tranquillizing herself. “Only, I entreat you, you naughty child, +don’t frighten me like this again.” +</p> + +<p> +On Rosalie re-entering the room to announce that dinner was ready, Hélène +severely scolded her. The little maid’s head drooped; she stammered out +that it was all very true, for she ought to have looked better after +mademoiselle. Then, hoping to mollify her mistress, she busied herself in +helping her to change her clothes. “Good gracious! madame was in a fine +state!” she remarked, as she assisted in removing each mud-stained +garment, at which Jeanne glared suspiciously, still racked by torturing +thoughts. +</p> + +<p> +“Madame ought to feel comfortable now,” exclaimed Rosalie when it +was all over. “It’s awfully nice to get into dry clothes after a +drenching.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, on finding herself once more in her blue dressing-gown, gave vent to a +slight sigh, as though a new happiness had welled up within her. She again +regained her old cheerfulness; she had rid herself of a burden in throwing off +those bedraggled garments. She washed her face and hands; and while she stood +there, still glistening with moisture, her dressing-gown buttoned up to her +chin, she was slowly approached by Jeanne, who took one of her hands and kissed +it. +</p> + +<p> +At table, however, not a word passed between mother and daughter. The fire +flared with a merry roar, and there was a look of happiness about the little +dining-room, with its bright mahogany and gleaming china. But the old stupor +which drove away all thought seemed to have again fallen on Hélène; she ate +mechanically, though with an appearance of appetite. Jeanne sat facing her, and +quietly watched her over her glass, noting each of her movements. But all at +once the child again coughed, and her mother, who had become unconscious of her +presence, immediately displayed lively concern. +</p> + +<p> +“Why, you’re coughing again! Aren’t you getting warm?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, yes, mamma; I’m very warm.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène leaned towards her to feel her hand and ascertain whether she was +speaking the truth. Only then did she perceive that her plate was still full. +</p> + +<p> +“Why, you said you were hungry. Don’t you like what you have +there?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, yes, mamma; I’m eating away.” +</p> + +<p> +With an effort Jeanne swallowed a mouthful. Hélène looked at her for a time, +but soon again began dreaming of the fatal room which she had come from. It did +not escape the child that her mother took little interest in her now. As the +dinner came to an end, her poor wearied frame sank down on the chair, and she +sat there like some bent, aged woman, with the dim eyes of one of those old +maids for whom love is past and gone. +</p> + +<p> +“Won’t mademoiselle have any jam?” asked Rosalie. “If +not, can I remove the cloth?” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène still sat there with far-away looks. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma, I’m sleepy,” exclaimed Jeanne in a changed voice. +“Will you let me go to bed? I shall feel better in bed.” +</p> + +<p> +Once more her mother seemed to awake with a start to consciousness of her +surroundings. +</p> + +<p> +“You are suffering, my darling! where do you feel the pain? Tell +me.” +</p> + +<p> +“No, no; I told you I’m all right! I’m sleepy, and it’s +already time for me to go to bed.” +</p> + +<p> +She left her chair and stood up, as though to prove that there was no illness +threatening her: but her benumbed feet tottered over the floor on her way to +the bedroom. She leaned against the furniture, and her hardihood was such that +not a tear came from her, despite the feverish fire darting through her frame. +Her mother followed to assist her to bed; but the child had displayed such +haste in undressing herself that she only arrived in time to tie up her hair +for the night. Without need of any helping hand Jeanne slipped between the +sheets, and quickly closed her eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you comfortable?” asked Hélène, as she drew up the bedclothes +and carefully tucked her in. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, quite comfortable. Leave me alone, and don’t disturb me. Take +away the lamp.” +</p> + +<p> +Her only yearning was to be alone in the darkness, that she might reopen her +eyes and chew the cud of her sorrows, with no one near to watch her. When the +light had been carried away, her eyes opened quite wide. +</p> + +<p> +Nearby, in the meantime, Hélène was pacing up and down her room. She was seized +with a wondrous longing to be up and moving about; the idea of going to bed +seemed to her insufferable. She glanced at the clock—twenty minutes to +nine; what was she to do? she rummaged about in a drawer, but forgot what she +was seeking for. Then she wandered to her bookshelves, glancing aimlessly over +the books; but the very reading of the titles wearied her. A buzzing sprang up +in her ears with the room’s stillness; the loneliness, the heavy +atmosphere, were as an agony to her. She would fain have had some bustle going +on around her, have had some one there to speak to—something, in short, +to draw her from herself. She twice listened at the door of Jeanne’s +little room, from which, however, not even a sound of breathing came. +Everything was quiet; so she turned back once more, and amused herself by +taking up and replacing whatever came to her hand. Then suddenly the thought +flashed across her mind that Zephyrin must still be with Rosalie. It was a +relief to her; she was delighted at the idea of not being alone, and stepped in +her slippers towards the kitchen. +</p> + +<p> +She was already in the ante-room, and was opening the glass door of the inner +passage, when she detected the re-echoing clap of a swinging box on the ears, +and the next moment Rosalie could be heard exclaiming: +</p> + +<p> +“Ha, ha! you think you’ll nip me again, do you? Take your paws +off!” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! that’s nothing, my charmer!” exclaimed Zephyrin in his +husky, guttural voice. “That’s to show how I love you—in this +style, you know—” +</p> + +<p> +But at that moment the door creaked, and Hélène, entering, discovered the +diminutive soldier and the servant maid seated very quietly at table, with +their noses bent over their plates. They had assumed an air of complete +indifference; their innocence was certain. Yet their faces were red with +blushes, and their eyes aflame, and they wriggled restlessly on their +straw-bottomed chairs. Rosalie started up and hurried forward. +</p> + +<p> +“Madame wants something?” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène had no pretext ready to her tongue. She had come to see them, to chat +with them, and have their company. However, she felt a sudden shame, and dared +not say that she required nothing. +</p> + +<p> +“Have you any hot water?” she asked, after a silence. +</p> + +<p> +“No, madame; and my fire is nearly out. Oh, but it doesn’t matter; +I’ll give you some in five minutes. It boils in no time.” +</p> + +<p> +She threw on some charcoal, and then set the kettle in place; but seeing that +her mistress still lingered in the doorway, she said: +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll bring the water to you in five minutes, madame.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène responded with a wave of the hand. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m not in a hurry for it; I’ll wait. Don’t disturb +yourself, my girl; eat away, eat away. There’s a lad who’ll have to +go back to barracks.” +</p> + +<p> +Rosalie thereupon sat down again. Zephyrin, who had also been standing, made a +military salute, and returned to the cutting of his meat, with his elbows +projecting as though to show that he knew how to conduct himself at table. Thus +eating together, after madame had finished dinner, they did not even draw the +table into the middle of the kitchen, but contented themselves with sitting +side by side, with their noses turned towards the wall. A glorious prospect of +stewpans was before them. A bunch of laurel and thyme hung near, and a +spice-box exhaled a piquant perfume. Around them—the kitchen was not yet +tidied—was all the litter of the things cleared away from the +dining-room; however, the spot seemed a charming one to these hungry +sweethearts, and especially to Zephyrin, who here feasted on such things as +were never seen within the walls of his barracks. The predominant odor was one +of roast meat, seasoned with a dash of vinegar—the vinegar of the salad. +In the copper pans and iron pots the reflected light from the gas was dancing; +and as the heat of the fire was beyond endurance, they had set the window ajar, +and a cool breeze blew in from the garden, stirring the blue cotton curtain. +</p> + +<p> +“Must you be in by ten o’clock exactly?” asked Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +“I must, madame, with all deference to you,” answered Zephyrin. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it’s along way off. Do you take the +‘’bus’?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, yes, madame, sometimes. But you see a good swinging walk is much the +best.” +</p> + +<p> +She had taken a step into the kitchen, and leaning against the dresser, her +arms dangling and her hands clasped over her dressing-gown, she began gossiping +away about the wretched weather they had had that day, about the food which was +rationed out in barracks, and the high price of eggs. As soon, however, as she +had asked a question and their answer had been given the conversation abruptly +fell. They experienced some discomfort with her standing thus behind their +backs. They did not turn round, but spoke into their plates, their shoulders +bent beneath her gaze, while, to conform to propriety, each mouthful they +swallowed was as small as possible. On the other hand, Hélène had now regained +her tranquillity, and felt quite happy there. +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t fret, madame,” said Rosalie; “the kettle is +singing already. I wish the fire would only burn up a little better!” +</p> + +<p> +She wanted to see to it, but Hélène would not allow her to disturb herself. It +would be all right by-and-by. An intense weariness now pervaded the young +woman’s limbs. Almost mechanically she crossed the kitchen and approached +the window, where she observed the third chair, which was very high, and when +turned over became a stepladder. However, she did not sit down on it at once, +for she had caught sight of a number of pictures heaped up on a corner of the +table. +</p> + +<p> +“Dear me!” she exclaimed, as she took them in her hand, inspired +with the wish of gratifying Zephyrin. +</p> + +<p> +The little soldier gaped with a silent chuckle. His face beamed with smiles, +and his eyes followed each picture, his head wagging whenever something +especially lovely was being examined by madame. +</p> + +<p> +“That one there,” he suddenly remarked, “I found in the Rue +du Temple. She’s a beautiful woman, with flowers in her basket.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène sat down and inspected the beautiful woman who decorated the gilt and +varnished lid of a box of lozenges, every stain on which had been carefully +wiped off by Zephyrin. On the chair a dish-cloth was hanging, and she could not +well lean back. She flung it aside, however, and once more lapsed into her +dreaming. Then the two sweethearts remarked madame’s good nature, and +their restraint vanished—in the end, indeed, her very presence was +forgotten by them. One by one the pictures had dropped from her hands on to her +knees, and, with a vague smile playing on her face, she examined the +sweethearts and listened to their talk. +</p> + +<p> +“I say, my dear,” whispered the girl, “won’t you have +some more mutton?” +</p> + +<p> +He answered neither yes nor no, but swung backwards and forwards on his chair +as though he had been tickled, then contentedly stretched himself, while she +placed a thick slice on his plate. His red epaulets moved up and down, and his +bullet-shaped head, with its huge projecting ears, swayed to and fro over his +yellow collar as though it were the head of some Chinese idol. His laughter ran +all over him, and he was almost bursting inside his tunic, which he did not +unbutton, however, out of respect for madame. +</p> + +<p> +“This is far better than old Rouvet’s radishes!” he exclaimed +at last, with his mouth full. +</p> + +<p> +This was a reminiscence of their country home; and at thought of it they both +burst into immoderate laughter. Rosalie even had to hold on to the table to +prevent herself from falling. One day, before their first communion, it seemed, +Zephyrin had filched three black radishes from old Rouvet. They were very tough +radishes indeed—tough enough to break one’s teeth; but Rosalie all +the same had crunched her share of the spoil at the back of the schoolhouse. +Hence it was that every time they chanced to be taking a meal together Zephyrin +never omitted to ejaculate: “Yes; this is better than old Rouvet’s +radishes!” +</p> + +<p> +And then Rosalie’s laughter would become so violent that nine times out +of ten her petticoat-string would give way with an audible crack. +</p> + +<p> +“Hello! has it parted?” asked the little soldier, with triumph in +his tone. +</p> + +<p> +But Rosalie responded with a good slap. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s disgusting to make me break the string like this!” said +she. “I put a fresh one on every week.” +</p> + +<p> +However, he came nearer to her, intent on some joke or other, by way of +revenging the blow; but with a furious glance she reminded him that her +mistress was looking on. This seemed to trouble him but little, for he replied +with a rakish wink, as much as to say that no woman, not even a lady, disliked +a little fun. To be sure, when folks are sweethearting, other people always +like to be looking on. +</p> + +<p> +“You have still five years to serve, haven’t you?” asked +Hélène, leaning back on the high wooden-seated chair, and yielding to a feeling +of tenderness. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, madame; perhaps only four if they don’t need me any +longer.” +</p> + +<p> +It occurred to Rosalie that her mistress was thinking of her marriage, and with +assumed anger, she broke in: +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! madame, he can stick in the army for another ten years if he likes! +I sha’n’t trouble myself to ask the Government for him. He is +becoming too much of a rake; yes, I believe he’s going to the dogs. Oh! +it’s useless for you to laugh—that won’t take with me. When +we go before the mayor to get married, we’ll see on whose side the laugh +is!” +</p> + +<p> +At this he chuckled all the more, in order that he might show himself a +lady-killer before madame, and the maid’s annoyance then became real. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh!” said she, “we know all about that! You know, madame, +he’s still a booby at heart. You’ve no idea how stupid that uniform +makes them all! That’s the way he goes on with his comrades; but if I +turned him out, you would hear him sobbing on the stairs. Oh, I don’t +care a fig for you, my lad! Why, whenever I please, won’t you always be +there to do as I tell you?” +</p> + +<p> +She bent forward to observe him closely; but, on seeing that his good-natured, +freckled face was beginning to cloud over, she was suddenly moved, and prattled +on, without any seeming transition: +</p> + +<p> +“Ah! I didn’t tell you that I’ve received a letter from +auntie. The Guignard lot want to sell their house—aye, and almost for +nothing too. We might perhaps be able to take it later on.” +</p> + +<p> +“By Jove!” exclaimed Zephyrin, brightening, “we should be +quite at home there. There’s room enough for two cows.” +</p> + +<p> +With this idea they lapsed into silence. They were now having some dessert. The +little soldier licked the jam on his bread with a child’s greedy +satisfaction, while the servant girl carefully pared an apple with a maternal +air. +</p> + +<p> +“Madame!” all at once exclaimed Rosalie, “there’s the +water boiling now.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, however, never stirred. She felt herself enveloped by an atmosphere of +happiness. She gave a continuance to their dreams, and pictured them living in +the country in the Guignards’ house and possessed of two cows. A smile +came to her face as she saw Zephyrin sitting there to all appearance so +serious, though in reality he was patting Rosalie’s knee under the table, +whilst she remained very stiff, affecting an innocent demeanor. Then everything +became blurred. Hélène lost all definite sense of her surroundings, of the +place where she was, and of what had brought her there. The copper pans were +flashing on the walls; feelings of tenderness riveted her to the spot; her eyes +had a far-away look. She was not affected in any way by the disorderly state of +the kitchen; she had no consciousness of having demeaned herself by coming +there; all she felt was a deep pleasure, as when a longing has been satisfied. +Meantime the heat from the fire was bedewing her pale brow with beads of +perspiration, and behind her the wind, coming in through the half-open window, +quivered delightfully on her neck. +</p> + +<p> +“Madame, your water is boiling,” again said Rosalie. “There +will be soon none left in the kettle.” +</p> + +<p> +She held the kettle before her, and Hélène, for the moment astonished, was +forced to rise. “Oh, yes! thank you!” +</p> + +<p> +She no longer had an excuse to remain, and went away slowly and regretfully. +When she reached her room she was at a loss what to do with the kettle. Then +suddenly within her there came a burst of passionate love. The torpor which had +held her in a state of semi-unconsciousness gave way to a wave of glowing +feeling, the rush of which thrilled her as with fire. She quivered, and +memories returned to her—memories of her passion and of Henri. +</p> + +<p> +While she was taking off her dressing-gown and gazing at her bare arms, a noise +broke on her anxious ear. She thought she had heard Jeanne coughing. Taking up +the lamp she went into the closet, but found the child with eyelids closed, +seemingly fast asleep. However, the moment the mother, satisfied with her +examination, had turned her back, Jeanne’s eyes again opened widely to +watch her as she returned to her room. There was indeed no sleep for Jeanne, +nor had she any desire to sleep. A second fit of coughing racked her bosom, but +she buried her head beneath the coverlet and stifled every sound. She might go +away for ever now; her mother would never miss her. Her eyes were still wide +open in the darkness; she knew everything as though knowledge had come with +thought, and she was dying of it all, but dying without a murmur. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0022"></a> CHAPTER XXII.</h2> + +<p> +Next day all sorts of practical ideas took possession of Hélène’s mind. +She awoke impressed by the necessity of keeping watch over her happiness, and +shuddering with fear lest by some imprudent step she might lose Henri. At this +chilly morning hour, when the room still seemed asleep, she felt that she +idolized him, loved him with a transport which pervaded her whole being. Never +had she experienced such an anxiety to be diplomatic. Her first thought was +that she must go to see Juliette that very morning, and thus obviate the need +of any tedious explanations or inquiries which might result in ruining +everything. +</p> + +<p> +On calling upon Madame Deberle at about nine o’clock she found her +already up, with pallid cheeks and red eyes like the heroine of a tragedy. As +soon as the poor woman caught sight of her, she threw herself sobbing upon her +neck exclaiming that she was her good angel. She didn’t love Malignon, +not in the least, she swore it! Gracious heavens! what a foolish affair! It +would have killed her—there was no doubt of that! She did not now feel +herself to be in the least degree qualified for ruses, lies, and agonies, and +the tyranny of a sentiment that never varied. Oh, how delightful did it seem to +her to find herself free again! She laughed contentedly; but immediately +afterwards there was another outburst of tears as she besought her friend not +to despise her. Beneath her feverish unrest a fear lingered; she imagined that +her husband knew everything. He had come home the night before trembling with +agitation. She overwhelmed Hélène with questions; and Hélène, with a hardihood +and facility at which she herself was amazed, poured into her ears a story, +every detail of which she invented offhand. She vowed to Juliette that her +husband doubted her in nothing. It was she, Hélène, who had become acquainted +with everything, and, wishing to save her, had devised that plan of breaking in +upon their meeting. Juliette listened to her, put instant credit in the +fiction, and, beaming through her tears, grew sunny with joy. She threw herself +once more on Hélène’s neck. Her caresses brought no embarrassment to the +latter; she now experienced none of the honorable scruples that had at one time +affected her. When she left her lover’s wife after extracting a promise +from her that she would try to be calm, she laughed in her sleeve at her own +cunning; she was in a transport of delight. +</p> + +<p> +Some days slipped away. Hélène’s whole existence had undergone a change; +and in the thoughts of every hour she no longer lived in her own home, but with +Henri. The only thing that existed for her was that next-door house in which +her heart beat. Whenever she could find an excuse to do so she ran thither, and +forgot everything in the content of breathing the same air as her lover. In her +first rapture the sight of Juliette even flooded her with tenderness; for was +not Juliette one of Henri’s belongings? He had not, however, again been +able to meet her alone. She appeared loth to give him a second assignation. One +evening, when he was leading her into the hall, she even made him swear that he +would never again visit the house in the Passage des Eaux, as such an act might +compromise her. +</p> + +<p> +Meantime, Jeanne was shaken by a short, dry cough, that never ceased, but +became severer towards evening every day. She would then be slightly feverish, +and she grew weak with the perspiration that bathed her in her sleep. When her +mother cross-questioned her, she answered that she wasn’t ill, that she +felt no pain. Doubtless her cold was coming to an end. Hélène, tranquillized by +the explanation, and having no adequate idea of what was going on around her, +retained, however, in her bosom, amidst the rapture that made up her life, a +vague feeling of sorrow, of some weight that made her heart bleed despite +herself. At times, when she was plunged in one of those causeless transports +which made her melt with tenderness, an anxious thought would come to +her—she imagined that some misfortune was hovering behind her. She turned +round, however, and then smiled. People are ever in a tremble when they are too +happy. There was nothing there. Jeanne had coughed a moment before, but she had +some <i>tisane</i> to drink; there would be no ill effects. +</p> + +<p> +However, one afternoon old Doctor Bodin, who visited them in the character of a +family friend, prolonged his stay, and stealthily, but carefully, examined +Jeanne with his little blue eyes. He questioned her as though he were having +some fun with her, and on this occasion uttered no warning word. Two days +later, however, he made his appearance again; and this time, not troubling to +examine Jeanne, he talked away merrily in the fashion of a man who has seen +many years and many things, and turned the conversation on travelling. He had +once served as a military surgeon; he knew every corner of Italy. It was a +magnificent country, said he, which to be admired ought to be seen in spring. +Why didn’t Madame Grandjean take her daughter there? From this he +proceeded by easy transitions to advising a trip to the land of the sun, as he +styled it. Hélène’s eyes were bent on him fixedly. “No, no,” +he exclaimed, “neither of you is ill! Oh, no, certainly not! Still, a +change of air would mean new strength!” Her face had blanched, a mortal +chill had come over her at the thought of leaving Paris. Gracious heavens! to +go away so far, so far! to lose Henri in a moment, their love to droop without +a morrow! Such was the agony which the thought gave her that she bent her head +towards Jeanne to hide her emotion. Did Jeanne wish to go away? The child, with +a chilly gesture, had intertwined her little fingers. Oh! yes, she would so +like to go! She would so like to go away into the sunny land, quite alone, she +and her mother, quite alone! And over her poor attenuated face with its cheeks +burning with fever, there swept the bright hope of a new life. But Hélène would +listen to no more; indignation and distrust led her to imagine that all of +them—the Abbé, Doctor Bodin, Jeanne herself—were plotting to +separate her from Henri. When the old doctor noticed the pallor of her cheeks, +he imagined that he had not spoken so cautiously as he might have done, and +hastened to declare that there was no hurry, albeit he silently resolved to +return to the subject at another time. +</p> + +<p> +It happened that Madame Deberle intended to stop at home that day. As soon as +the doctor had gone Hélène hastened to put on her bonnet. Jeanne, however, +refused to quit the house; she felt better beside the fire; she would be very +good, and would not open the window. For some time past she had not teased her +mother to be allowed to go with her; still she gazed after her as she went out +with a longing look. Then, when she found herself alone, she shrunk into her +chair and sat for hours motionless. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamma, is Italy far away?” she asked as Hélène glided towards her +to kiss her. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! very far away, my pet!” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne clung round her neck, and not letting her rise again at the moment, +whispered: “Well, Rosalie could take care of everything here. We should +have no need of her. A small travelling-trunk would do for us, you know! Oh! it +would be delightful, mother dear! Nobody but us two! I should come back quite +plump—like this!” +</p> + +<p> +She puffed out her cheeks and pictured how stout her arms would be. +Hélène’s answer was that she would see; and then she ran off with a final +injunction to Rosalie to take good care of mademoiselle. +</p> + +<p> +The child coiled herself up in the chimney-corner, gazing at the ruddy fire and +deep in reverie. From time to time she moved her hands forward mechanically to +warm them. The glinting of the flames dazzled her large eyes. So absorbed was +she in her dreaming that she did not hear Monsieur Rambaud enter the room. His +visits had now become very frequent; he came, he would say, in the interests of +the poor paralytic woman for whom Doctor Deberle had not yet been able to +secure admission into the Hospital for Incurables. Finding Jeanne alone, he +took a seat on the other side of the fireplace, and chatted with her as though +she were a grown-up person. It was most regrettable; the poor woman had been +waiting a week; however, he would go down presently to see the doctor, who +might perhaps give him an answer. Meanwhile he did not stir. +</p> + +<p> +“Why hasn’t your mother taken you with her?” he asked. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne shrugged her shoulders with a gesture of weariness. It disturbed her to +go about visiting other people. Nothing gave her any pleasure now. +</p> + +<p> +“I am getting old,” she added, “and I can’t be always +amusing myself. Mamma finds entertainment out of doors, and I within; so we are +not together.” +</p> + +<p> +Silence ensued. The child shivered, and held her hands out towards the fire +which burnt steadily with a pinky glare; and, indeed, muffled as she was in a +huge shawl, with a silk handkerchief round her neck and another encircling her +head, she did look like some old dame. Shrouded in all these wraps, it struck +one that she was no larger than an ailing bird, panting amidst its ruffled +plumage. Monsieur Rambaud, with hands clasped over his knees, was gazing at the +fire. Then, turning towards Jeanne, he inquired if her mother had gone out the +evening before. She answered with a nod, yes. And did she go out the evening +before that and the previous day? The answer was always yes, given with a nod +of the head; her mother quitted her every day. +</p> + +<p> +At this the child and Monsieur Rambaud gazed at one another for a long time, +their faces pale and serious, as though they shared some great sorrow. They +made no reference to it—a chit like her and an old man could not talk of +such a thing together; but they were well aware why they were so sad, and why +it was a pleasure to them to sit like this on either side of the fireplace when +they were alone in the house. It was a comfort beyond telling. They loved to be +near one another that their forlornness might pain them less. A wave of +tenderness poured into their hearts; they would fain have embraced and wept +together. +</p> + +<p> +“You are cold, my dear old friend, I’m certain of it,” said +Jeanne; “come nearer the fire.” +</p> + +<p> +“No, no, my darling; I’m not cold.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! you’re telling a fib; your hands are like ice! Come nearer, or +I shall get vexed.” +</p> + +<p> +It was now his turn to display his anxious care. +</p> + +<p> +“I could lay a wager they haven’t left you any drink. I’ll +run and make some for you; would you like it? Oh! I’m a good hand at +making it. You would see, if I were your nurse, you wouldn’t be without +anything you wanted.” +</p> + +<p> +He did not allow himself any more explicit hint. Jeanne somewhat sharply +declared she was disgusted with <i>tisane</i>; she was compelled to drink too +much of it. However, now and then she would allow Monsieur Rambaud to flutter +round her like a mother; he would slip a pillow under her shoulders, give her +the medicine that she had almost forgotten, or carry her into the bedroom in +his arms. These little acts of devotion thrilled both with tenderness. As +Jeanne eloquently declared with her sombre eyes, whose flashes disturbed the +old man so sorely, they were playing the parts of the father and the little +girl while her mother was absent. Then, however, sadness would all at once fall +upon them; their talk died away, and they glanced at one another stealthily +with pitying looks. +</p> + +<p> +That afternoon, after a lengthy silence, the child asked the question which she +had already put to her mother: “Is Italy far away?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! I should think so,” replied Monsieur Rambaud. +“It’s away over yonder, on the other side of Marseilles, a deuce of +a distance! Why do you ask me such a question?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! because—” she began gravely. But she burst into loud +complaints at her ignorance. She was always ill, and she had never been sent to +school. Then they both became silent again, lulled into forgetfulness by the +intense heat of the fire. +</p> + +<p> +In the meantime Hélène had found Madame Deberle and her sister Pauline in the +Japanese pavilion where they so frequently whiled away the afternoon. Inside it +was very warm, a heating apparatus filled it with a stifling atmosphere. +</p> + +<p> +The large windows were shut, and a full view could be had of the little garden, +which, in its winter guise, looked like some large sepia drawing, finished with +exquisite delicacy, the little black branches of the trees showing clear +against the brown earth. The two sisters were carrying on a sharp controversy. +</p> + +<p> +“Now, be quiet, do!” exclaimed Juliette; “it is evidently our +interest to support Turkey.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! I’ve had a talk about it with a Russian,” replied +Pauline, who was equally excited. “We are much liked at St. Petersburg, +and it is only there that we can find our proper allies.” +</p> + +<p> +Juliette’s face assumed a serious look, and, crossing her arms, she +exclaimed: “Well, and what will you do with the balance of power in +Europe?” +</p> + +<p> +The Eastern crisis was the absorbing topic in Paris at that moment;[*] it was +the stock subject of conversation, and no woman who pretended to any position +could speak with propriety of anything else. Thus, for two days past, Madame +Deberle had with passionate fervor devoted herself to foreign politics. Her +ideas were very pronounced on the various eventualities which might arise; and +Pauline greatly annoyed her by her eccentricity in advocating Russia’s +cause in opposition to the clear interests of France. Juliette’s first +desire was to convince her of her folly, but she soon lost her temper. +</p> + +<p> +[*] The reader may be reminded that the period of the story is that of the +Crimean war. +</p> + +<p> +“Pooh! hold your tongue; you are talking foolishly! Now, if you had only +studied the matter carefully with me—” +</p> + +<p> +But she broke off to greet Hélène, who entered at this moment. +</p> + +<p> +“Good-day, my dear! It is very kind of you to call. I don’t suppose +you have any news. This morning’s paper talked of an ultimatum. There has +been a very exciting debate in the English House of Commons!” +</p> + +<p> +“No, I don’t know anything,” answered Hélène, who was +astounded by the question. “I go out so little!” +</p> + +<p> +However, Juliette had not waited for her reply, but was busy explaining to +Pauline why it was necessary to neutralize the Black Sea; and her talk bristled +with references to English and Russian generals, whose names she mentioned in a +familiar way and with faultless pronunciation. However, Henri now made his +appearance with several newspapers in his hand. Hélène at once realized that he +had come there for her sake; for their eyes had sought one another and +exchanged a long, meaning glance. And when their hands met it was in a +prolonged and silent clasp that told how the personality of each was lost in +the other. +</p> + +<p> +“Is there anything in the papers?” asked Juliette feverishly. +</p> + +<p> +“In the papers, my dear?” repeated the doctor; “no +there’s never anything.” +</p> + +<p> +For a time the Eastern Question dropped into the background. There were +frequent allusions to some one whom they were expecting, but who did not make +his appearance. Pauline remarked that it would soon be three o’clock. Oh +he would come, declared Madame Deberle; he had given such a definite promise; +but she never hinted at any name. Hélène listened without understanding; things +which had no connection with Henri did not in the least interest her. She no +longer brought her work when she now came down into the garden; and though her +visits would last a couple of hours, she would take no part in the +conversation, for her mind was ever filled with the same childish dream wherein +all others miraculously vanished, and she was left alone with him. However, she +managed to reply to Juliette’s questions, while Henri’s eyes, +riveted on her own, thrilled her with a delicious languor. At last he stepped +behind her with the intention of pulling up one of the blinds, and she fully +divined that he had come to ask another meeting, for she noticed the tremor +that seized him when he brushed against her hair. +</p> + +<p> +“There’s a ring at the bell; that must be he!” suddenly +exclaimed Pauline. +</p> + +<p> +Then the faces of the two sisters assumed an air of indifference. It was +Malignon who made his appearance, dressed with greater care than ever, and +having a somewhat serious look. He shook hands; but eschewed his customary +jocularity, thus returning, in a ceremonious manner, to this house where for +some time he had not shown his face. +</p> + +<p> +While the doctor and Pauline were expostulating with him on the rarity of his +visits, Juliette bent down and whispered to Hélène, who, despite her supreme +indifference, was overcome with astonishment: +</p> + +<p> +“Ah! you are surprised? Dear me! I am not angry with him at all! +he’s such a good fellow at heart that nobody could long be angry with +him! Just fancy! he has unearthed a husband for Pauline. It’s splendid, +isn’t it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! no doubt,” answered Hélène complaisantly. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, one of his friends, immensely rich, who did not think of getting +married, but whom he has sworn to bring here! We were waiting for him to-day to +have some definite reply. So, as you will understand, I had to pass over a lot +of things. Oh! there’s no danger now; we know one another +thoroughly.” +</p> + +<p> +Her face beamed with a pretty smile, and she blushed slightly at the memories +she conjured up; but she soon turned round and took possession of Malignon. +Hélène likewise smiled. These accommodating circumstances in life seemed to her +sufficient excuse for her own delinquencies. It was absurd to think of tragic +melodramas; no, everything wound up with universal happiness. However, while +she had thus been indulging in the cowardly, but pleasing, thought that nothing +was absolutely indefensible, Juliette and Pauline had opened the door of the +pavilion, and were now dragging Malignon in their train into the garden. And, +all at once, Hélène heard Henri speaking to her in a low and passionate voice: +</p> + +<p> +“I beseech you, Hélène! Oh! I beseech you—” +</p> + +<p> +She started to her feet, and gazed around her with sudden anxiety. They were +quite alone; she could see the three others walking slowly along one of the +walks. Henri was bold enough to lay his hand on her shoulder, and she trembled +as she felt its pressure. +</p> + +<p> +“As you wish,” she stammered, knowing full well what question it +was that he desired to ask. +</p> + +<p> +Then, hurriedly, they exchanged a few words. +</p> + +<p> +“At the house in the Passage des Eaux,” said he. +</p> + +<p> +“No, it is impossible—I have explained to you, and you swore to +me—” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, wherever you like, so that I may see you! In your own +house—this evening. Shall I call?” +</p> + +<p> +The idea was repellant to her. But she could only refuse with a sign, for fear +again came upon her as she observed the two ladies and Malignon returning. +Madame Deberle had taken the young man away under pretext of showing him some +clumps of violets which were in full blossom notwithstanding the cold weather. +Hastening her steps, she entered the pavilion before the others, her face +illumined by a smile. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s all arranged,” she exclaimed. +</p> + +<p> +“What’s all arranged?” asked Hélène, who was still trembling +with excitement and had forgotten everything. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, that marriage! What a riddance! Pauline was getting a bit of a +nuisance. However, the young man has seen her and thinks her charming! +To-morrow we’re all going to dine with papa. I could have embraced +Malignon for his good news!” +</p> + +<p> +With the utmost self-possession Henri had contrived to put some distance +between Hélène and himself. He also expressed his sense of Malignon’s +favor, and seemed to share his wife’s delight at the prospect of seeing +their little sister settled at last. Then he turned to Hélène, and informed her +that she was dropping one of her gloves. She thanked him. They could hear +Pauline laughing and joking in the garden. She was leaning towards Malignon, +murmuring broken sentences in his ear, and bursting into loud laughter as he +gave her whispered answers. No doubt he was chatting to her confidentially +about her future husband. Standing near the open door of the pavilion, Hélène +meanwhile inhaled the cold air with delight. +</p> + +<p> +It was at this moment that in the bedroom up above a silence fell on Jeanne and +Monsieur Rambaud, whom the intense heat of the fire filled with languor. The +child woke up from the long-continued pause with a sudden suggestion which +seemed to be the outcome of her dreamy fit: +</p> + +<p> +“Would you like to go into the kitchen? We’ll see if we can get a +glimpse of mamma!” +</p> + +<p> +“Very well; let us go,” replied Monsieur Rambaud. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne felt stronger that day, and reaching the kitchen without any assistance +pressed her face against a windowpane. Monsieur Rambaud also gazed into the +garden. The trees were bare of foliage, and through the large transparent +windows of the Japanese pavilion they could make out every detail inside. +Rosalie, who was busy attending to the soup, reproached mademoiselle with being +inquisitive. But the child had caught sight of her mother’s dress; and +pointed her out, whilst flattening her face against the glass to obtain a +better view. Pauline meanwhile looked up, and nodded vigorously. Then Hélène +also made her appearance, and signed to the child to come down. +</p> + +<p> +“They have seen you, mademoiselle,” said the servant girl. +“They want you to go down.” +</p> + +<p> +Monsieur Rambaud opened the window, and every one called to him to carry Jeanne +downstairs. Jeanne, however, vanished into her room, and vehemently refused to +go, accusing her worthy friend of having purposely tapped on the window. It was +a great pleasure to her to look at her mother, but she stubbornly declared she +would not go near that house; and to all Monsieur Rambaud’s questions and +entreaties she would only return a stern “Because!” which was meant +to explain everything. +</p> + +<p> +“It is not you who ought to force me,” she said at last, with a +gloomy look. +</p> + +<p> +But he told her that she would grieve her mother very much, and that it was not +right to insult other people. He would muffle her up well, she would not catch +cold; and, so saying, he wound the shawl round her body, and taking the silk +handkerchief from her head, set a knitted hood in its place. Even when she was +ready, however, she still protested her unwillingness; and when in the end she +allowed him to carry her down, it was with the express proviso that he would +take her up again the moment she might feel poorly. The porter opened the door +by which the two houses communicated, and when they entered the garden they +were hailed with exclamations of joy. Madame Deberle, in particular, displayed +a vast amount of affection for Jeanne; she ensconced her in a chair near the +stove, and desired that the windows might be closed, for the air she declared +was rather sharp for the dear child. Malignon had now left. As Hélène began +smoothing the child’s dishevelled hair, somewhat ashamed to see her in +company muffled up in a shawl and a hood, Juliette burst out in protest: +</p> + +<p> +“Leave her alone! Aren’t we all at home here? Poor Jeanne! we are +glad to have her!” +</p> + +<p> +She rang the bell, and asked if Miss Smithson and Lucien had returned from +their daily walk. No, they had not yet returned. It was just as well, she +declared; Lucien was getting beyond control, and only the night before had made +the five Levasseur girls sob with grief. +</p> + +<p> +“Would you like to play at <i>pigeon vole</i>?” asked Pauline, who +seemed to have lost her head with the thought of her impending marriage. +“That wouldn’t tire you.” +</p> + +<p> +But Jeanne shook her head in refusal. Beneath their drooping lids her eyes +wandered over the persons who surrounded her. The doctor had just informed +Monsieur Rambaud that admission to the Hospital for Incurables had been secured +for his <i>protégée</i>, and in a burst of emotion the worthy man clasped his +hands as though some great personal favor had been conferred on him. They were +all lounging on their chairs, and the conversation became delightfully +friendly. Less effort was shown in following up remarks, and there were at +times intervals of silence. While Madame Deberle and her sister were busily +engaged in discussion, Hélène said to the two men: +</p> + +<p> +“Doctor Bodin has advised us to go to Italy.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah! that is why Jeanne was questioning me!” exclaimed Monsieur +Rambaud. “Would it give you any pleasure to go away there?” +</p> + +<p> +Without vouchsafing any answer, the child clasped her little hands upon her +bosom, while her pale face flushed with joy. Then, stealthily, and with some +fear, she looked towards the doctor; it was he, she understood it, whom her +mother was consulting. He started slightly, but retained all his composure. +Suddenly, however, Juliette joined in the conversation, wishing, as usual, to +have her finger in every pie. +</p> + +<p> +“What’s that? Are you talking about Italy? Didn’t you say you +had an idea of going to Italy? Well, it’s a droll coincidence! Why, this +very morning, I was teasing Henri to take me to Naples! Just fancy, for ten +years now I have been dreaming of seeing Naples! Every spring he promises to +take me there, but he never keeps his word!” +</p> + +<p> +“I didn’t tell you that I would not go,” murmured the doctor. +</p> + +<p> +“What! you didn’t tell me? Why, you refused flatly, with the excuse +that you could not leave your patients!” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne was listening eagerly. A deep wrinkle now furrowed her pale brow, and +she began twisting her fingers mechanically one after the other. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! I could entrust my patients for a few weeks to the care of a +brother-physician,” explained the doctor. “That’s to say, if +I thought it would give you so much pleasure—” +</p> + +<p> +“Doctor,” interrupted Hélène, “are you also of opinion that +such a journey would benefit Jeanne?” +</p> + +<p> +“It would be the very thing; it would thoroughly restore her to health. +Children are always the better for a change.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! then,” exclaimed Juliette, “we can take Lucien, and we +can all go together. That will be pleasant, won’t it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, indeed; I’ll do whatever you wish,” he answered, +smiling. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne lowered her face, wiped two big tears of passionate anger and grief from +her eyes, and fell back in her chair as though she would fain hear and see no +more; while Madame Deberle, filled with ecstasy by the idea of such unexpected +pleasure, began chattering noisily. Oh! how kind her husband was! She kissed +him for his self-sacrifice. Then, without the loss of a moment, she busied +herself with sketching the necessary preparations. They would start the very +next week. Goodness gracious! she would never have time to get everything +ready! Next she wanted to draw out a plan of their tour; they would need to +visit this and that town certainly; they could stay a week at Rome; they must +stop at a little country place that Madame de Guiraud had mentioned to her; and +she wound up by engaging in a lively discussion with Pauline, who was eager +that they should postpone their departure till such time as she could accompany +them with her husband. +</p> + +<p> +“Not a bit of it!” exclaimed Juliette; “the wedding can take +place when we come back.” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne’s presence had been wholly forgotten. Her eyes were riveted on her +mother and the doctor. The proposed journey, indeed, now offered inducements to +Hélène, as it must necessarily keep Henri near her. In fact, a keen delight +filled her heart at the thought of journeying together through the land of the +sun, living side by side, and profiting by the hours of freedom. Round her lips +wreathed a smile of happy relief; she had so greatly feared that she might lose +him; and deemed herself fortunate in the thought that she would carry her love +along with her. While Juliette was discoursing of the scenes they would travel +through, both Hélène and Henri, indeed, indulged in the dream that they were +already strolling through a fairy land of perennial spring, and each told the +other with a look that their passion would reign there, aye, wheresoever they +might breathe the same air. +</p> + +<p> +In the meantime, Monsieur Rambaud, who with unconscious sadness had slowly +lapsed into silence, observed Jeanne’s evident discomfort. +</p> + +<p> +“Aren’t you well, my darling?” he asked in a whisper. +</p> + +<p> +“No! I’m quite ill! Carry me up again, I implore you.” +</p> + +<p> +“But we must tell your mamma.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, no, no! mamma is busy; she hasn’t any time to give to us. +Carry me up, oh! carry me up again.” +</p> + +<p> +He took her in his arms, and told Hélène that the child felt tired. In answer +she requested him to wait for her in her rooms; she would hasten after them. +The little one, though light as a feather, seemed to slip from his grasp, and +he was forced to come to a standstill on the second landing. She had leaned her +head against his shoulder, and each gazed into the other’s face with a +look of grievous pain. Not a sound broke upon the chill silence of the +staircase. Then in a low whisper he asked her: +</p> + +<p> +“You’re pleased, aren’t you, to go to Italy?” +</p> + +<p> +But she thereupon burst into sobs, declaring in broken words that she no longer +had any craving to go, and would rather die in her own room. Oh! she would not +go, she would fall ill, she knew it well. She would go nowhere—nowhere. +They could give her little shoes to the poor. Then amidst tears she whispered +to him: +</p> + +<p> +“Do you remember what you asked me one night?” +</p> + +<p> +“What was it, my pet?” +</p> + +<p> +“To stay with mamma always—always—always! Well, if you wish +so still, I wish so too!” +</p> + +<p> +The tears welled into Monsieur Rambaud’s eyes. He kissed her lovingly, +while she added in a still lower tone: +</p> + +<p> +“You are perhaps vexed by my getting so angry over it. I didn’t +understand, you know. But it’s you whom I want! Oh! say that it will be +soon. Won’t you say that it will be soon? I love you more than the other +one.” +</p> + +<p> +Below in the pavilion, Hélène had begun to dream once more. The proposed +journey was still the topic of conversation; and she now experienced an +unconquerable yearning to relieve her overflowing heart, and acquaint Henri +with all the happiness which was stifling her. So, while Juliette and Pauline +were wrangling over the number of dresses that ought to be taken, she leaned +towards him and gave him the assignation which she had refused but an hour +before. +</p> + +<p> +“Come to-night; I shall expect you.” +</p> + +<p> +But as she at last ascended to her own rooms, she met Rosalie flying +terror-stricken down the stairs. The moment she saw her mistress, the girl +shrieked out: +</p> + +<p> +“Madame! madame! Oh! make haste, do! Mademoiselle is very ill! +She’s spitting blood!” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0023"></a> CHAPTER XXIII.</h2> + +<p> +On rising from the dinner-table the doctor spoke to his wife of a confinement +case, in close attendance on which he would doubtless have to pass the night. +He quitted the house at nine o’clock, walked down to the riverside, and +paced along the deserted quays in the dense nocturnal darkness. A slight moist +wind was blowing, and the swollen Seine rolled on in inky waves. As soon as +eleven o’clock chimed, he walked up the slopes of the Trocadero, and +began to prowl round the house, the huge square pile of which seemed but a +deepening of the gloom. Lights could still be seen streaming through the +dining-room windows of Hélène’s lodging. Walking round, he noted that the +kitchen was also brilliantly lighted up. And at this sight he stopped short in +astonishment, which slowly developed into uneasiness. Shadows traversed the +blinds; there seemed to be considerable bustle and stir up there. Perhaps +Monsieur Rambaud had stayed to dine? But the worthy man never left later than +ten o’clock. He, Henri, dared not go up; for what would he say should +Rosalie open the door? At last, as it was nearing midnight, mad with impatience +and throwing prudence to the winds, he rang the bell, and walked swiftly past +the porter’s room without giving his name. At the top of the stairs +Rosalie received him. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s you, sir! Come in. I will go and announce you. Madame must be +expecting you.” +</p> + +<p> +She gave no sign of surprise on seeing him at this hour. As he entered the +dining-room without uttering a word, she resumed distractedly: “Oh! +mademoiselle is very ill, sir. What a night! My legs are sinking under +me!” Thereupon she left the room, and the doctor mechanically took a +seat. He was oblivious of the fact that he was a medical man. Pacing along the +quay he had conjured up a vision of a very different reception. And now he was +there, as though he were paying a visit, waiting with his hat on his knees. A +grievous coughing in the next room alone broke upon the intense silence. +</p> + +<p> +At last Rosalie made her appearance once more, and hurrying across the +dining-room with a basin in her hand, merely remarked: “Madame says you +are not to go in.” +</p> + +<p> +He sat on, powerless to depart. Was their meeting to be postponed till another +day, then? He was dazed, as though such a thing had seemed to him impossible. +Then the thought came to him that poor Jeanne had very bad health; children +only brought on sorrow and vexation. The door, however, opened once more, and +Doctor Bodin entered, with a thousand apologies falling from his lips. For some +time he chattered away: he had been sent for, but he would always be +exceedingly pleased to enter into consultation with his renowned +fellow-practitioner. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! no doubt, no doubt,” stammered Doctor Deberle, whose ears were +buzzing. +</p> + +<p> +The elder man, his mind set at rest with regard to all questions of +professional etiquette, then began to affect a puzzled manner, and expressed +his doubts of the meaning of the symptoms. He spoke in a whisper, and described +them in technical phraseology, frequently pausing and winking significantly. +There was coughing without expectoration, very pronounced weakness, and intense +fever. Perhaps it might prove a case of typhoid fever. But in the meantime he +gave no decided opinion, as the anaemic nervous affection, for which the +patient had been treated so long, made him fear unforeseen complications. +</p> + +<p> +“What do you think?” he asked, after delivering himself of each +remark. +</p> + +<p> +Doctor Deberle answered with evasive questions. While the other was speaking, +he felt ashamed at finding himself in that room. Why had he come up? +</p> + +<p> +“I have applied two blisters,” continued the old doctor. +“I’m waiting the result. But, of course, you’ll see her. You +will then give me your opinion.” +</p> + +<p> +So saying he led him into the bedroom. Henri entered it with a shudder creeping +through his frame. It was but faintly lighted by a lamp. There thronged into +his mind the memories of other nights, when there had been the same warm +perfume, the same close, calm atmosphere, the same deepening shadows shrouding +the furniture and hangings. But there was no one now to come to him with +outstretched hands as in those olden days. Monsieur Rambaud lay back in an +arm-chair exhausted, seemingly asleep. Hélène was standing in front of the bed, +robed in a white dressing-gown, but did not turn her head; and her figure, in +its death-like pallor, appeared to him extremely tall. Then for a +moment’s space he gazed on Jeanne. Her weakness was so great that she +could not open her eyes without fatigue. Bathed in sweat, she lay in a stupor, +her face ghastly, save that a burning flush colored each cheek. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s galloping consumption,” he exclaimed at last, speaking +aloud in spite of himself, and giving no sign of astonishment, as though he had +long foreseen what would happen. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène heard him and looked at him. She seemed to be of ice, her eyes were dry, +and she was terribly calm. +</p> + +<p> +“You think so, do you?” rejoined Doctor Bodin, giving an approving +nod in the style of a man who had not cared to be the first to express this +opinion. +</p> + +<p> +He sounded the child once more. Jeanne, her limbs quite lifeless, yielded to +the examination without seemingly knowing why she was being disturbed. A few +rapid sentences were exchanged between the two physicians. The old doctor +murmured some words about amphoric breathing, and a sound such as a cracked jar +might give out. Nevertheless, he still affected some hesitation, and spoke, +suggestively, of capillary bronchitis. Doctor Deberle hastened to explain that +an accidental cause had brought on the illness; doubtless it was due to a cold; +however, he had already noticed several times that an anaemical tendency would +produce chest diseases. Hélène stood waiting behind him. +</p> + +<p> +“Listen to her breathing yourself,” said Doctor Bodin, giving way +to Henri. +</p> + +<p> +He leaned over the child, and seemed about to take hold of her. She had not +raised her eyelids; but lay there in self-abandonment, consumed by fever. Her +open nightdress displayed her childish breast, where as yet there were but +slight signs of coming womanhood; and nothing could be more chaste or yet more +harrowing than the sight of this dawning maturity on which the Angel of Death +had already laid his hand. She had displayed no aversion when the old doctor +had touched her. But the moment Henri’s fingers glanced against her body +she started as if she had received a shock. In a transport of shame she awoke +from the coma in which she had been plunged, and, like a maiden in alarm, +clasped her poor puny little arms over her bosom, exclaiming the while in +quavering tones: “Mamma! mamma!” +</p> + +<p> +Then she opened her eyes, and on recognizing the man who was bending over her, +she was seized with terror. Sobbing with shame, she drew the bed-cover over her +bosom. It seemed as though she had grown older by ten years during her short +agony, and on the brink of death had attained sufficient womanhood to +understand that this man, above all others, must not lay hands on her. She +wailed out again in piteous entreaty: “Mamma! mamma! I beseech +you!” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, who had hitherto not opened her lips, came close to Henri. Her eyes +were bent on him fixedly; her face was of marble. She touched him, and merely +said in a husky voice: “Go away!” +</p> + +<p> +Doctor Bodin strove to appease Jeanne, who now shook with a fresh fit of +coughing. He assured her that nobody would annoy her again, that every one +would go away, to prevent her being disturbed. +</p> + +<p> +“Go away,” repeated Hélène, in a deep whisper in her lover’s +ear. “You see very well that we have killed her!” +</p> + +<p> +Then, unable to find a word in reply, Henri withdrew. He lingered for a moment +longer in the dining-room, awaiting he knew not what, something that might +possibly take place. But seeing that Doctor Bodin did not come out, he groped +his way down the stairs without even Rosalie to light him. He thought of the +awful speed with which galloping consumption—a disease to which he had +devoted earnest study—carried off its victims; the miliary tubercles +would rapidly multiply, the stifling sensation would become more and more +pronounced; Jeanne would certainly not last another three weeks. +</p> + +<p> +The first of these passed by. In the mighty expanse of heaven before the +window, the sun rose and set above Paris, without Hélène being more than +vaguely conscious of the pitiless, steady advance of time. She grasped the fact +that her daughter was doomed; she lived plunged in a stupor, alive only to the +terrible anguish that filled her heart. It was but waiting on in hopelessness, +in certainty that death would prove merciless. She could not weep, but paced +gently to and fro, tending the sufferer with slow, regulated movements. At +times, yielding to fatigue, she would fall upon a chair, whence she gazed at +her for hours. Jeanne grew weaker and weaker; painful vomiting was followed by +exhaustion; the fever never quitted her. When Doctor Bodin called, he examined +her for a little while and left some prescription; but his drooping shoulders, +as he left the room, were eloquent of such powerlessness that the mother +forbore to accompany him to ask even a question. +</p> + +<p> +On the morning after the illness had declared itself, Abbé Jouve had made all +haste to call. He and his brother now again came every evening, exchanging a +mute clasp of the hand with Hélène, and never venturing to ask any news. They +had offered to watch by the bedside in succession, but she sent them away when +ten o’clock struck; she would have no one in the bedroom during the +night. One evening the Abbé, who had seemed absorbed by some idea since the +previous day, took her aside. +</p> + +<p> +“There is one thing I’ve thought of,” he whispered. +“Her health has put obstacles in the darling child’s way; but her +first communion might take place here.” +</p> + +<p> +His meaning at first did not seem to dawn on Hélène. The thought that, despite +all his indulgence, he should now allow his priestly character the ascendant +and evince no concern but in spiritual matters, came on her with surprise, and +even wounded her somewhat. With a careless gesture she exclaimed: “No, +no; I would rather she wasn’t worried. If there be a heaven, she will +have no difficulty in entering its gates.” +</p> + +<p> +That evening, however, Jeanne experienced one of those deceptive improvements +in health which fill the dying with illusions as to their condition. Her +hearing, rendered more acute by illness, had enabled her to catch the +Abbé’s words. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s you, dear old friend!” said she. “You spoke about +the first communion. It will be soon, won’t it?” +</p> + +<p> +“No doubt, my darling,” he answered. +</p> + +<p> +Then she wanted him to come near to speak to her. Her mother had propped her up +with the pillow, and she reclined there, looking very little, with a smile on +her fever-burnt lips, and the shadow of death already passing over her +brilliant eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! I’m getting on very well,” she began. “I could get +up if I wanted. But tell me: should I have a white gown and flowers? Will the +church be as beautiful as it was in the Month of Mary?” +</p> + +<p> +“More beautiful, my pet.” +</p> + +<p> +“Really? Will there be as many flowers, and will there be such sweet +chants? It will be soon, soon—you promise me, won’t you?” +</p> + +<p> +She was wrapt in joy. She gazed on the curtains of the bed, and murmured in her +transport that she was very fond of the good God, and had seen Him while she +was listening to the canticles. Even now she could hear organs pealing, see +lights that circled round, and flowers in great vases hovering like butterflies +before her eyes. Then another fit of coughing threw her back on the pillow. +However, her face was still flushed with a smile; she seemed to be unconscious +of her cough, but continued: +</p> + +<p> +“I shall get up to-morrow. I shall learn my catechism without a mistake, +and we’ll be all very happy.” +</p> + +<p> +A sob came from Hélène as she stood at the foot of the bed. She had been +powerless to weep, but a storm of tears rushed up from her bosom as +Jeanne’s laughter fell on her ear. Then, almost stifling, she fled into +the dining-room, that she might hide her despair. The Abbé followed her. +Monsieur Rambaud had at once started up to engage the child’s attention. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh dear! mamma cried out! Has she hurt herself?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Your mamma?” he answered. “No, she didn’t cry out; she +was laughing because you are feeling so well.” +</p> + +<p> +In the dining-room, her head bowed dejectedly on the table, Hélène strove to +stifle her sobs with her clasped hands. The Abbé hung over her, and prayed her +to restrain her emotion. But she raised her face, streaming with tears, and +bitterly accused herself. She declared to him that she herself had killed her +daughter, and a full confession escaped from her lips in a torrent of broken +words. She would never have succumbed to that man had Jeanne remained beside +her. It had been fated that she should meet him in that chamber of mystery. God +in Heaven! she ought to die with her child; she could live no longer. The +priest, terrified, sought to calm her with the promise of absolution. +</p> + +<p> +But there was a ring at the bell, and a sound of voices came from the lobby. +Hélène dried her tears as Rosalie made her appearance. +</p> + +<p> +“Madame, it’s Dr. Deberle, who—” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t wish him to come in.” +</p> + +<p> +“He is asking after mademoiselle.” +</p> + +<p> +“Tell him she is dying.” +</p> + +<p> +The door had been left open, and Henri had heard everything. Without awaiting +the return of the servant girl, he walked down the stairs. He came up every +day, received the same answer, and then went away. +</p> + +<p> +The visits which Hélène received quite unnerved her. The few ladies whose +acquaintance she had made at the Deberles’ house deemed it their duty to +tender her their sympathy. Madame de Chermette, Madame Levasseur, Madame de +Guiraud, and others also presented themselves. They made no request to enter, +but catechised Rosalie in such loud voices that they could be heard through the +thin partitions. Giving way to impatience, Hélène would then receive them in +the dining-room, where, without sitting down, she spoke with them very briefly. +She went about all day in her dressing-gown, careless of her attire, with her +lovely hair merely gathered up and twisted into a knot. Her eyes often closed +with weariness; her face was flushed; she had a bitter taste in her mouth; her +lips were clammy, and she could scarcely articulate. When Juliette called, she +could not exclude her from the bedroom, but allowed her to stay for a little +while beside the bed. +</p> + +<p> +“My dear,” Madame Deberle said to her one day in friendly tones, +“you give way too much. Keep up your spirits.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène was about to reply, when Juliette, wishing to turn her thoughts from her +grief, began to chat about the things which were occupying the gossips of +Paris: “We are certainly going to have a war. I am in a nice state about +it, as I have two cousins who will have to serve.” +</p> + +<p> +In this style she would drop in upon them on returning from her rambles through +Paris, her brain bursting with all the tittle-tattle collected in the course of +the afternoon, and her long skirts whirling and rustling as she sailed through +the stillness of the sick-room. It was altogether futile for her to lower her +voice and assume a pitiful air; her indifference peeped through all disguise; +it could be seen that she was happy, quite joyous indeed, in the possession of +perfect health. Hélène was very downcast in her company, her heart rent by +jealous anguish. +</p> + +<p> +“Madame,” said Jeanne one evening, “why doesn’t Lucien +come to play with me?” +</p> + +<p> +Juliette was embarrassed for a moment, and merely answered with a smile. +</p> + +<p> +“Is he ill too?” continued the child. +</p> + +<p> +“No, my darling, he isn’t ill; he has gone to school.” +</p> + +<p> +Then, as Hélène accompanied her into the ante-room, she wished to apologize for +her prevarication. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! I would gladly bring him; I know that there’s no infection. +But children get frightened with the least thing, and Lucien is such a stupid. +He would just burst out sobbing when he saw your poor angel—” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, indeed; you are quite right,” interrupted Hélène, her heart +ready to break with the thought of this woman’s gaiety, and her happiness +in possessing a child who enjoyed robust health. +</p> + +<p> +A second week had passed away. The disease was following its usual course, +robbing Jeanne every hour of some of her vitality. Fearfully rapid though it +was, however, it evinced no haste, but, in accomplishing the destruction of +that delicate, lovable flesh, passed in turn through each foreseen phase, +without skipping a single one of them. Thus the spitting of blood had ceased, +and at intervals the cough disappeared. But such was the oppressive feeling +which stifled the child that you could detect the ravages of the disease by the +difficulty she experienced in breathing. Such weakness could not withstand so +violent an attack; and the eyes of the Abbé and Monsieur Rambaud constantly +moistened with tears as they heard her. Day and night under the shelter of the +curtains the sound of oppressed breathing arose; the poor darling, whom the +slightest shock seemed likely to kill, was yet unable to die, but lived on and +on through the agony which bathed her in sweat. Her mother, whose strength was +exhausted, and who could no longer bear to hear that rattle, went into the +adjoining room and leaned her head against the wall. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne was slowly becoming oblivious to her surroundings. She no longer saw +people, and her face bore an unconscious and forlorn expression, as though she +had already lived all alone in some unknown sphere. When they who hovered round +her wished to attract her attention, they named themselves that she might +recognize them; but she would gaze at them fixedly, without a smile, then turn +herself round towards the wall with a weary look. A gloominess was settling +over her; she was passing away amidst the same vexation and sulkiness as she +had displayed in past days of jealous outbursts. Still, at times the whims +characteristic of sickness would awaken her to some consciousness. One morning +she asked her mother: +</p> + +<p> +“To-day is Sunday, isn’t it?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, my child,” answered Hélène; “this is only Friday. Why do +you wish to know?” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne seemed to have already forgotten the question she had asked. But two +days later, while Rosalie was in the room, she said to her in a whisper: +“This is Sunday. Zephyrin is here; ask him to come and see me.” +</p> + +<p> +The maid hesitated, but Hélène, who had heard, nodded to her in token of +consent. The child spoke again: +</p> + +<p> +“Bring him; come both of you; I shall be so pleased.” +</p> + +<p> +When Rosalie entered the sick-room with Zephyrin, she raised herself on her +pillow. The little soldier, with bare head and hands spread out, swayed about +to hide his intense emotion. He had a great love for mademoiselle, and it +grieved him unutterably to see her “shouldering arms on the left,” +as he expressed it in the kitchen. So, in spite of the previous injunctions of +Rosalie, who had instructed him to put on a bright expression, he stood +speechless, with downcast face, on seeing her so pale and wasted to a skeleton. +He was still as tender-hearted as ever, despite his conquering airs. He could +not even think of one of those fine phrases which nowadays he usually concocted +so easily. The maid behind him gave him a pinch to make him laugh. But he could +only stammer out: +</p> + +<p> +“I beg pardon—mademoiselle and every one here—” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne was still raising herself with the help of her tiny arms. She widely +opened her large, vacant eyes; she seemed to be looking for something; her head +shook with a nervous trembling. Doubtless the stream of light was blinding her +as the shadows of death gathered around. +</p> + +<p> +“Come closer, my friend,” said Hélène to the soldier. “It was +mademoiselle who asked to see you.” +</p> + +<p> +The sunshine entered through the window in a slanting ray of golden light, in +which the dust rising from the carpet could be seen circling. March had come, +and the springtide was already budding out of doors. Zephyrin took one step +forward, and appeared in the sunshine; his little round, freckled face had a +golden hue, as of ripe corn, while the buttons on his tunic glittered, and his +red trousers looked as sanguineous as a field of poppies. At last Jeanne became +aware of his presence there; but her eye again betrayed uneasiness, and she +glanced restlessly from one corner to another. +</p> + +<p> +“What do you want, my child?” asked her mother. “We are all +here.” She understood, however, in a moment. “Rosalie, come nearer. +Mademoiselle wishes to see you.” +</p> + +<p> +Then Rosalie, in her turn, stepped into the sunlight. She wore a cap, whose +strings, carelessly tossed over her shoulders, flapped round her head like the +wings of a butterfly. A golden powder seemed to fall on her bristly black hair +and her kindly face with its flat nose and thick lips. And for Jeanne there +were only these two in the room—the little soldier and the servant girl, +standing elbow to elbow under the ray of sunshine. She gazed at them. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, my darling,” began Hélène again, “you do not say +anything to them! Here they are together.” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne’s eyes were still fixed on them, and her head shook with the +tremor of a very aged woman. They stood there like man and wife, ready to take +each other’s arm and return to their country-side. The spring sun threw +its warmth on them, and eager to brighten mademoiselle they ended by smiling +into each other’s face with a look of mingled embarrassment and +tenderness. The very odor of health was exhaled from their plump round figures. +Had they been alone, Zephyrin without doubt would have caught hold of Rosalie, +and would have received for his pains a hearty slap. Their eyes showed it. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, my darling, have you nothing to say to them?” +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne gazed at them, her breathing growing yet more oppressed. And still she +said not a word, but suddenly burst into tears. Zephyrin and Rosalie had at +once to quit the room. +</p> + +<p> +“I beg pardon—mademoiselle and every one—” stammered +the little soldier, as he went away in bewilderment. +</p> + +<p> +This was one of Jeanne’s last whims. She lapsed into a dull stupor, from +which nothing could rouse her. She lay there in utter loneliness, unconscious +even of her mother’s presence. When Hélène hung over the bed seeking her +eyes, the child preserved a stolid expression, as though only the shadow of the +curtain had passed before her. Her lips were dumb; she showed the gloomy +resignation of the outcast who knows that she is dying. Sometimes she would +long remain with her eyelids half closed, and nobody could divine what stubborn +thought was thus absorbing her. Nothing now had any existence for her save her +big doll, which lay beside her. They had given it to her one night to divert +her during her insufferable anguish, and she refused to give it back, defending +it with fierce gestures the moment they attempted to take it from her. With its +pasteboard head resting on the bolster, the doll was stretched out like an +invalid, covered up to the shoulders by the counterpane. There was little doubt +the child was nursing it, for her burning hands would, from time to time, feel +its disjointed limbs of flesh-tinted leather, whence all the sawdust had +exuded. For hours her eyes would never stray from those enamel ones which were +always fixed, or from those white teeth wreathed in an everlasting smile. She +would suddenly grow affectionate, clasp the doll’s hands against her +bosom and press her cheek against its little head of hair, the caressing +contact of which seemed to give her some relief. Thus she sought comfort in her +affection for her big doll, always assuring herself of its presence when she +awoke from a doze, seeing nothing else, chatting with it, and at times +summoning to her face the shadow of a smile, as though she had heard it +whispering something in her ear. +</p> + +<p> +The third week was dragging to an end. One morning the old doctor came and +remained. Hélène understood him: her child would not live through the day. +Since the previous evening she had been in a stupor that deprived her of the +consciousness even of her own actions. There was no longer any struggle with +death; it was but a question of hours. As the dying child was consumed by an +awful thirst, the doctor had merely recommended that she should be given some +opiate beverage, which would render her passing less painful; and the +relinquishing of all attempts at cure reduced Hélène to a state of imbecility. +So long as the medicines had littered the night-table she still had entertained +hopes of a miraculous recovery. But now bottles and boxes had vanished, and her +last trust was gone. One instinct only inspired her now—to be near +Jeanne, never leave her, gaze at her unceasingly. The doctor, wishing to +distract her attention from the terrible sight, strove, by assigning some +little duties to her, to keep her at a distance. But she ever and ever +returned, drawn to the bedside by the physical craving to see. She waited, +standing erect, her arms hanging beside her, and her face swollen by despair. +</p> + +<p> +About one o’clock Abbé Jouve and Monsieur Rambaud arrived. The doctor +went to meet them, and muttered a few words. Both grew pale, and stood +stock-still in consternation, while their hands began to tremble. Hélène had +not turned round. +</p> + +<p> +The weather was lovely that day; it was one of those sunny afternoons typical +of early April. Jeanne was tossing in her bed. Her lips moved painfully at +times with the intolerable thirst which consumed her. She had brought her poor +transparent hands from under the coverlet, and waved them gently to and fro. +The hidden working of the disease was accomplished, she coughed no more, and +her dying voice came like a faint breath. For a moment she turned her head, and +her eyes sought the light. Doctor Bodin threw the window wide open, and then +Jeanne at once became tranquil, with her cheek resting on the pillow and her +looks roving over Paris, while her heavy breathing grew fainter and slower. +</p> + +<p> +During the three weeks of her illness she had thus many times turned towards +the city that stretched away to the horizon. Her face grew grave, she was +musing. At this last hour Paris was smiling under the glittering April +sunshine. Warm breezes entered from without, with bursts of urchin’s +laughter and the chirping of sparrows. On the brink of the grave the child +exerted her last strength to gaze again on the scene, and follow the flying +smoke which soared from the distant suburbs. She recognized her three friends, +the Invalides, the Panthéon, and the Tower of Saint-Jacques; then the unknown +began, and her weary eyelids half closed at sight of the vast ocean of roofs. +Perhaps she was dreaming that she was growing much lighter and lighter, and was +fleeting away like a bird. Now, at last, she would soon know all; she would +perch herself on the domes and steeples; seven or eight flaps of her wings +would suffice, and she would be able to gaze on the forbidden mysteries that +were hidden from children. But a fresh uneasiness fell upon her, and her hands +groped about; she only grew calm again when she held her large doll in her +little arms against her bosom. It was evidently her wish to take it with her. +Her glances wandered far away amongst the chimneys glinting with the +sun’s ruddy light. +</p> + +<p> +Four o’clock struck, and the bluish shadows of evening were already +gathering. The end was at hand; there was a stifling, a slow and passive agony. +The dear angel no longer had strength to offer resistance. Monsieur Rambaud, +overcome, threw himself on his knees, convulsed with silent sobbing, and +dragged himself behind a curtain to hide his grief. The Abbé was kneeling at +the bedside, with clasped hands, repeating the prayers for the dying. +</p> + +<p> +“Jeanne! Jeanne!” murmured Hélène, chilled to the heart with a +horror which sent an icy thrill through her very hair. +</p> + +<p> +She had repulsed the doctor and thrown herself on the ground, leaning against +the bed to gaze into her daughter’s face. Jeanne opened her eyes, but did +not look at her mother. She drew her doll—her last love—still +closer. Her bosom heaved with a big sigh, followed by two fainter ones. Then +her eyes paled, and her face for a moment gave signs of a fearful anguish. But +speedily there came relief; her mouth remained open, she breathed no more. +</p> + +<p> +“It is over,” said the doctor, as he took her hand. +</p> + +<p> +Jeanne’s big, vacant eyes were fixed on Paris. The long, thin, lamb-like +face was still further elongated, there was a sternness on its features, a grey +shadow falling from its contracted brows. Thus even in death she retained the +livid expression of a jealous woman. The doll, with its head flung back, and +its hair dishevelled, seemed to lie dead beside her. +</p> + +<p> +“It is over,” again said the doctor, as he allowed the little cold +hand to drop. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, with a strained expression on her face, pressed her hands to her brow +as if she felt her head splitting open. No tears came to her eyes; she gazed +wildly in front of her. Then a rattling noise mounted in her throat; she had +just espied at the foot of the bed a pair of shoes that lay forgotten there. It +was all over. Jeanne would never put them on again; the little shoes could be +given to the poor. And at the sight Hélène’s tears gushed forth; she +still knelt on the floor, her face pressed against the dead child’s hand, +which had slipped down. Monsieur Rambaud was sobbing. The Abbé had raised his +voice, and Rosalie, standing at the door of the dining-room, was biting her +handkerchief to check the noise of her grief. +</p> + +<p> +At this very moment Doctor Deberle rang the bell. He was unable to refrain from +making inquiries. +</p> + +<p> +“How is she now?” he asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, sir!” wailed Rosalie, “she is dead.” +</p> + +<p> +He stood motionless, stupefied by the announcement of the end which he had been +expecting daily. At last he muttered: “O God! the poor child! what a +calamity!” +</p> + +<p> +He could only give utterance to those commonplace but heartrending words. The +door shut once more, and he went down the stairs. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0024"></a> CHAPTER XXIV.</h2> + +<p> +When Madame Deberle was apprised of Jeanne’s death she wept, and gave way +to one of those outbursts of emotion that kept her in a flutter for +eight-and-forty hours. Hers was a noisy and immoderate grief. She came and +threw herself into Hélène’s arms. Then a phrase dropped in her hearing +inspired her with the idea of imparting some affecting surroundings to the +child’s funeral, and soon wholly absorbed her. She offered her services, +and declared her willingness to undertake every detail. The mother, worn out +with weeping, sat overwhelmed in her chair; Monsieur Rambaud, who was acting in +her name, was losing his head. So he accepted the offer with profuse +expressions of gratitude. Hélène merely roused herself for a moment to express +the wish that there should be some flowers—an abundance of flowers. +</p> + +<p> +Without losing a minute, Madame Deberle set about her task. She spent the whole +of the next day in running from one lady friend to another, bearing the woeful +tidings. It was her idea to have a following of little girls all dressed in +white. She needed at least thirty, and did not return till she had secured the +full number. She had gone in person to the Funeral Administration, discussed +the various styles, and chosen the necessary drapery. She would have the garden +railings hung with white, and the body might be laid out under the lilac trees, +whose twigs were already tipped with green. It would be charming. +</p> + +<p> +“If only it’s a fine day to-morrow!” she giddily remarked in +the evening when her scurrying to and fro had come to an end. +</p> + +<p> +The morning proved lovely; there was a blue sky and a flood of sunshine, the +air was pure and invigorating as only the air of spring can be. The funeral was +to take place at ten o’clock. By nine the drapery had been hung up. +Juliette ran down to give the workmen her ideas of what should be done. She did +not wish the trees to be altogether covered. The white cloth, fringed with +silver, formed a kind of porch at the garden gate, which was thrown back +against the lilac trees. However, Juliette soon returned to her drawing-room to +receive her lady guests. They were to assemble there to prevent Madame +Grandjean’s two rooms from being filled to overflowing. Still she was +greatly annoyed at her husband having had to go that morning to +Versailles—for some consultation or other, he explained, which he could +not well neglect. Thus she was left alone, and felt she would never be able to +get through with it all. Madame Berthier was the first arrival, bringing her +two daughters with her. +</p> + +<p> +“What do you think!” exclaimed Madame Deberle; “Henri has +deserted me! Well, Lucien, why don’t you say good-day?” +</p> + +<p> +Lucien was already dressed for the funeral, with his hands in black gloves. He +seemed astonished to see Sophie and Blanche dressed as though they were about +to take part in some church procession. A silk sash encircled the muslin gown +of each, and their veils, which swept down to the floor, hid their little caps +of transparent tulle. While the two mothers were busy chatting, the three +children gazed at one another, bearing themselves somewhat stiffly in their new +attire. At last Lucien broke the silence by saying: “Jeanne is +dead.” +</p> + +<p> +His heart was full, and yet his face wore a smile—a smile born of +amazement. He had been very quiet since the evening before, dwelling on the +thought that Jeanne was dead. As his mother was up to her ears in business, and +took no notice of him, he had plied the servants with questions. Was it a fact, +he wanted to know, that it was impossible to move when one was dead?” +</p> + +<p> +“She is dead, she is dead!” echoed the two sisters, who looked like +rosebuds under their white veils. “Are we going to see her?” +</p> + +<p> +Lucien pondered for a time, and then, with dreamy eyes and opened mouth, +seemingly striving to divine the nature of this problem which lay beyond his +ken, he answered in a low tone: +</p> + +<p> +“We shall never see her again.” +</p> + +<p> +However, several other little girls now entered the room. On a sign from his +mother Lucien advanced to meet them. Marguerite Tissot, her muslin dress +enveloping her like a cloud, seemed a child-Virgin; her fair hair, escaping +from underneath her little cap, looked, through the snowy veil, like a tippet +figured with gold. A quiet smile crept into every face when the five Levasseurs +made their appearance; they were all dressed alike, and trooped along in +boarding-school fashion, the eldest first, the youngest last; and their skirts +stood out to such an extent that they quite filled one corner of the room. But +on little Mademoiselle Guiraud’s entry the whispering voices rose to a +higher key; the others laughed and crowded round to see her and kiss her. She +was like some white turtle-dove with its downy feathers ruffled. Wrapped in +rustling gauze, she looked as round as a barrel, but still no heavier than a +bird. Her mother even could not find her hands. By degrees the drawing-room +seemed to be filling with a cloud of snowballs. Several boys, in their black +coats, were like dark spots amidst the universal white. Lucien, now that his +little wife was dead, desired to choose another. However, he displayed the +greatest hesitation. He would have preferred a wife like Jeanne, taller than +himself; but at last he settled on Marguerite, whose hair fascinated him, and +to whom he attached himself for the day. +</p> + +<p> +“The corpse hasn’t been brought down yet,” Pauline muttered +at this moment in Juliette’s ear. +</p> + +<p> +Pauline was as flurried as though the preliminaries of a ball were in hand. It +was with the greatest difficulty that her sister had prevented her from donning +a white dress for the ceremony. +</p> + +<p> +“Good gracious!” exclaimed Juliette; “what are they dreaming +about? I must run up. Stay with these ladies.” +</p> + +<p> +She hastily left the room, where the mothers in their mourning attire sat +chatting in whispers, while the children dared not make the least movement lest +they should rumple their dresses. When she had reached the top of the staircase +and entered the chamber where the body lay, Juliette’s blood was chilled +by the intense cold. Jeanne still lay on the bed, with clasped hands; and, like +Marguerite and the Levasseur girls, she was arrayed in a white dress, white +cap, and white shoes. A wreath of white roses crowned the cap, as though she +were a little queen about to be honored by the crowd of guests who were waiting +below. In front of the window, on two chairs, was the oak coffin lined with +satin, looking like some huge jewel casket. The furniture was all in order; a +wax taper was burning; the room seemed close and gloomy, with the damp smell +and stillness of a vault which has been walled up for many years. Thus +Juliette, fresh from the sunshine and smiling life of the outer world, came to +a sudden halt, stricken dumb, without the courage to explain that they must +needs hurry. +</p> + +<p> +“A great many people have come,” she stammered at last. And then, +as no answer was forthcoming, she added, just for the sake of saying something: +“Henri has been forced to attend a consultation at Versailles; you will +excuse him.” +</p> + +<p> +Hélène, who sat in front of the bed, gazed at her with vacant eyes. They were +wholly unable to drag her from that room. For six-and-thirty hours she had +lingered there, despite the prayers of Monsieur Rambaud and the Abbé Jouve, who +kept watch with her. During the last two nights she had been weighed to the +earth by immeasurable agony. Besides, she had accomplished the grievous task of +dressing her daughter for the last time, of putting on those white silk shoes, +for she would allow no other to touch the feet of the little angel who lay +dead. And now she sat motionless, as though her strength were spent, and the +intensity of her grief had lulled her into forgetfulness. +</p> + +<p> +“Have you got some flowers?” she exclaimed after an effort, her +eyes still fixed on Madame Deberle. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, yes, my dear,” answered the latter. “Don’t +trouble yourself about that.” +</p> + +<p> +Since her daughter had breathed her last, Hélène had been consumed with one +idea—there must be flowers, flowers, an overwhelming profusion of +flowers. Each time she saw anybody, she grew uneasy, seemingly afraid that +sufficient flowers would never be obtained. +</p> + +<p> +“Are there any roses?” she began again after a pause. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes. I assure you that you will be well pleased.” +</p> + +<p> +She shook her head, and once more fell back into her stupor. In the meantime +the undertaker’s men were waiting on the landing. It must be got over now +without delay. Monsieur Rambaud, who was himself affected to such a degree that +he staggered like a drunken man, signed to Juliette to assist him in leading +the poor woman from the room. Each slipped an arm gently beneath hers, and they +raised her up and led her towards the dining-room. But the moment she divined +their intention, she shook them from her in a last despairing outburst. The +scene was heartrending. She threw herself on her knees at the bedside and clung +passionately to the sheets, while the room re-echoed with her piteous shrieks. +But still Jeanne lay there with her face of stone, stiff and icy-cold, wrapped +round by the silence of eternity. She seemed to be frowning; there was a sour +pursing of the lips, eloquent of a revengeful nature; and it was this gloomy, +pitiless look, springing from jealousy and transforming her face, which drove +Hélène so frantic. During the preceding thirty-six hours she had not failed to +notice how the old spiteful expression had grown more and more intense upon her +daughter’s face, how more and more sullen she looked the nearer she +approached the grave. Oh, what a comfort it would have been if Jeanne could +only have smiled on her for the last time! +</p> + +<p> +“No, no!” she shrieked. “I pray you, leave her for a moment. +You cannot take her from me. I want to embrace her. Oh, only a moment, only a +moment!” +</p> + +<p> +With trembling arms she clasped her child to her bosom, eager to dispute +possession with the men who stood in the ante-room, with their backs turned +towards her and impatient frowns on their faces. But her lips were powerless to +breathe any warmth on the cold countenance; she became conscious that +Jeanne’s obstinacy was not to be overcome, that she refused forgiveness. +And then she allowed herself to be dragged away, and fell upon a chair in the +dining-room, with the one mournful cry, again and again repeated: “My +God! My God!” +</p> + +<p> +Monsieur Rambaud and Madame Deberle were overcome by emotion. There was an +interval of silence, but when the latter opened the door halfway it was all +over. There had been no noise—scarcely a stir. The screws, oiled +beforehand, now closed the lid for ever. The chamber was left empty, and a +white sheet was thrown over the coffin. +</p> + +<p> +The bedroom door remained open, and no further restraint was put upon Hélène. +On re-entering the room she cast a dazed look on the furniture and round the +walls. The men had borne away the corpse. Rosalie had drawn the coverlet over +the bed to efface the slight hollow made by the form of the little one whom +they had lost. Then opening her arms with a distracted gesture and stretching +out her hands, Hélène rushed towards the staircase. She wanted to go down, but +Monsieur Rambaud held her back, while Madame Deberle explained to her that it +was not the thing to do. But she vowed she would behave rationally, that she +would not follow the funeral procession. Surely they could allow her to look +on; she would remain quiet in the garden pavilion. Both wept as they heard her +pleading. However, she had to be dressed. Juliette threw a black shawl round +her to conceal her morning wrap. There was no bonnet to be found; but at last +they came across one from which they tore a bunch of red vervain flowers. +Monsieur Rambaud, who was chief mourner, took hold of Hélène’s arm. +</p> + +<p> +“Do not leave her,” whispered Madame Deberle as they reached the +garden. “I have so many things to look after!” +</p> + +<p> +And thereupon she hastened away. Hélène meanwhile walked with difficulty, her +eyes ever seeking something. As soon as she had found herself out of doors she +had drawn a long sigh. Ah! what a lovely morning! Then she looked towards the +iron gate, and caught sight of the little coffin under the white drapery. +Monsieur Rambaud allowed her to take but two or three steps forward. +</p> + +<p> +“Now, be brave,” he said to her, while a shudder ran through his +own frame. +</p> + +<p> +They gazed on the scene. The narrow coffin was bathed in sunshine. At the foot +of it, on a lace cushion, was a silver crucifix. To the left the holy-water +sprinkler lay in its font. The tall wax tapers were burning with almost +invisible flames. Beneath the hangings, the branches of the trees with their +purple shoots formed a kind of bower. It was a nook full of the beauty of +spring, and over it streamed the golden sunshine irradiating the blossoms with +which the coffin was covered. It seemed as if flowers had been raining down; +there were clusters of white roses, white camellias, white lilac, white +carnations, heaped in a snowy mass of petals; the coffin was hidden from sight, +and from the pall some of the white blossoms were falling, the ground being +strewn with periwinkles and hyacinths. The few persons passing along the Rue +Vineuse paused with a smile of tender emotion before this sunny garden where +the little body lay at peace amongst the flowers. There seemed to be a music +stealing up from the snowy surroundings; in the glare of light the purity of +the blossoms grew dazzling, and the sun flushed hangings, nosegays, and wreaths +of flowers, with a very semblance of life. Over the roses a bee flew humming. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, the flowers! the flowers!” murmured Hélène, powerless to say +another word. +</p> + +<p> +She pressed her handkerchief to her lips, and her eyes filled with tears. +Jeanne must be warm, she thought, and with this idea a wave of emotion rose in +her bosom; she felt very grateful to those who had enveloped her child in +flowers. She wished to go forward, and Monsieur Rambaud made no effort to hold +her back. How sweet was the scene beneath the cloud of drapery! Perfumes were +wafted upwards; the air was warm and still. Hélène stooped down and chose one +rose only, that she might place it in her bosom. But suddenly she commenced to +tremble, and Monsieur Rambaud became uneasy. +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t stay here,” he said, as he drew her away. “You +promised not to make yourself unwell.” +</p> + +<p> +He was attempting to lead her into the pavilion when the door of the +drawing-room was thrown open. Pauline was the first to appear. She had +undertaken the duty of arranging the funeral procession. One by one, the little +girls stepped into the garden. Their coming seemed like some sudden outburst of +bloom, a miraculous flowering of May. In the open air the white skirts +expanded, streaked moire-like by the sunshine with shades of the utmost +delicacy. An apple-tree above was raining down its blossoms; gossamer-threads +were floating to and fro; the dresses were instinct with all the purity of +spring. And their number still increased; they already surrounded the lawn; +they yet lightly descended the steps, sailing on like downy balls suddenly +expanding beneath the open sky. +</p> + +<p> +The garden was now a snowy mass, and as Hélène gazed on the crowd of little +girls, a memory awoke within her. She remembered another joyous season, with +its ball and the gay twinkling of tiny feet. She once more saw Marguerite in +her milk-girl costume, with her can hanging from her waist; and Sophie, dressed +as a waiting-maid, and revolving on the arm of her sister Blanche, whose +trappings as Folly gave out a merry tinkle of bells. She thought, too, of the +five Levasseur girls, and of the Red Riding-Hoods, whose number had seemed +endless, with their ever-recurring cloaks of poppy-colored satin edged with +black velvet; while little Mademoiselle Guiraud, with her Alsatian butterfly +bow in her hair, danced as if demented opposite a Harlequin twice as tall as +herself. To-day they were all arrayed in white. Jeanne, too, was in white, her +head laid amongst white flowers on the white satin pillow. The delicate-faced +Japanese maiden, with hair transfixed by long pins, and purple tunic +embroidered with birds, was leaving them for ever in a gown of snowy white. +</p> + +<p> +“How tall they have all grown!” exclaimed Hélène, as she burst into +tears. +</p> + +<p> +They were all there but her daughter; she alone was missing. Monsieur Rambaud +led her to the pavilion; but she remained on the threshold, anxious to see the +funeral procession start. Several of the ladies bowed to her quietly. The +children looked at her, with some astonishment in their blue eyes. Meanwhile +Pauline was hovering round, giving orders. She lowered her voice for the +occasion, but at times forgot herself. +</p> + +<p> +“Now, be good children! Look, you little stupid, you are dirty already! +I’ll come for you in a minute; don’t stir.” +</p> + +<p> +The hearse drove up; it was time to start, but Madame Deberle appeared, +exclaiming: “The bouquets have been forgotten! Quick, Pauline, the +bouquets!” +</p> + +<p> +Some little confusion ensued. A bouquet of white roses had been prepared for +each little girl; and these bouquets now had to be distributed. The children, +in an ecstasy of delight, held the great clusters of flowers in front of them +as though they had been wax tapers; Lucien, still at Marguerite’s side, +daintily inhaled the perfume of her blossoms as she held them to his face. All +these little maidens, their hands filled with flowers, looked radiant with +happiness in the golden light; but suddenly their faces grew grave as they +perceived the men placing the coffin on the hearse. +</p> + +<p> +“Is she inside that thing?” asked Sophie in a whisper. +</p> + +<p> +Her sister Blanche nodded assent. Then, in her turn, she said: “For men +it’s as big as this!” +</p> + +<p> +She was referring to the coffin, and stretched out her arms to their widest +extent. However, little Marguerite, whose nose was buried amongst her roses, +was seized with a fit of laughter; it was the flowers, said she, which tickled +her. Then the others in turn buried their noses in their bouquets to find out +if it were so; but they were remonstrated with, and they all became grave once +more. +</p> + +<p> +The funeral procession was now filing into the street. At the corner of the Rue +Vineuse a woman without a cap, and with tattered shoes on her feet, wept and +wiped her cheeks with the corner of her apron. People stood at many windows, +and exclamations of pity ascended through the stillness of the street. Hung +with white silver-fringed drapery the hearse rolled on without a sound; nothing +fell on the ear save the measured tread of the two white horses, deadened by +the solid earthen roadway. The bouquets and wreaths, borne on the funeral car, +formed a very harvest of flowers; the coffin was hidden by them; every jolt +tossed the heaped-up mass, and the hearse slowly sprinkled the street with +lilac blossom. From each of the four corners streamed a long ribbon of white +watered silk, held by four little girls—Sophie and Marguerite, one of the +Levasseur family, and little Mademoiselle Guiraud, who was so small and so +uncertain on her legs that her mother walked beside her. The others, in a close +body, surrounded the hearse, each bearing her bouquet of roses. They walked +slowly, their veils waved, and the wheels rolled on amidst all this muslin, as +though borne along on a cloud, from which smiled the tender faces of cherubs. +Then behind, following Monsieur Rambaud, who bowed his pale face, came several +ladies and little boys, Rosalie, Zephyrin, and the servants of Madame Deberle. +To these succeeded five empty mourning carriages. And as the hearse passed +along the sunny street like a car symbolical of springtide, a number of white +pigeons wheeled over the mourners’ heads. +</p> + +<p> +“Good heavens! how annoying!” exclaimed Madame Deberle when she saw +the procession start off. “If only Henri had postponed that consultation! +I told him how it would be!” +</p> + +<p> +She did not know what to do with Hélène, who remained prostrate on a seat in +the pavilion. Henri might have stayed with her and afforded her some +consolation. His absence was a horrible nuisance. Luckily, Mademoiselle Aurelie +was glad to offer her services; she had no liking for such solemn scenes, and +while watching over Hélène would be able to attend to the luncheon which had to +be prepared ere the children’s return. So Juliette hastened after the +funeral, which was proceeding towards the church by way of the Rue de Passy. +</p> + +<p> +The garden was now deserted; a few workmen only were folding up the hangings. +All that remained on the gravelled path over which Jeanne had been carried were +the scattered petals of a camellia. And Hélène, suddenly lapsing into +loneliness and stillness, was thrilled once more with the anguish of this +eternal separation. Once again—only once again!—to be at her +darling’s side! The never-fading thought that Jeanne was leaving her in +anger, with a face that spoke solely of gloomy hatred, seared her heart like a +red-hot iron. She well divined that Mademoiselle Aurelie was there to watch +her, and cast about for some opportunity to escape and hasten to the cemetery. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, it’s a dreadful loss,” began the old maid, comfortably +seated in an easy-chair. “I myself should have worshipped children, and +little girls in particular. Ah, well! when I think of it I am pleased that I +never married. It saves a lot of grief!” +</p> + +<p> +It was thus she thought to divert the mother. She chatted away about one of her +friends who had had six children; they were now all dead. Another lady had been +left a widow with a big lad who struck her; he might die, and there would be no +difficulty in comforting her. Hélène appeared to be listening to all this; she +did not stir, but her whole frame quivered with impatience. +</p> + +<p> +“You are calmer now,” said Mademoiselle Aurelie, after a time. +“Well, in the end we always have to get the better of our +feelings.” +</p> + +<p> +The dining-room communicated with the Japanese pavilion, and, rising up, the +old maid opened the door and peered into the room. The table, she saw, was +covered with pastry and cakes. Meantime, in an instant Hélène sped through the +garden; the gate was still open, the workmen were just carrying away their +ladder. +</p> + +<p> +On the left the Rue Vineuse turns into the Rue des Reservoirs, from which the +cemetery of Passy can be entered. On the Boulevard de la Muette a huge +retaining wall has been reared, and the cemetery stretches like an immense +terrace commanding the heights, the Trocadero, the avenues, and the whole +expanse of Paris. In twenty steps Hélène had reached the yawning gateway, and +saw before her the lonely expanse of white gravestones and black crosses. She +entered. At the corners of the first walk two large lilac trees were budding. +There were but few burials here; weeds grew thickly, and a few cypress trees +threw solemn shadows across the green. Hélène hurried straight on; a troop of +frightened sparrows flew off, and a grave-digger raised his head towards her +after flinging aside a shovelful of earth. The procession had probably not yet +arrived from the church; the cemetery seemed empty to her. She turned to the +right, and advanced almost to the edge of the terrace parapet; but, on looking +round, she saw behind a cluster of acacias the little girls in white upon their +knees before the temporary vault into which Jeanne’s remains had a moment +before been lowered. Abbé Jouve, with outstretched hand, was giving the +farewell benediction. She heard nothing but the dull thud with which the stone +slab of the vault fell back into its place. All was over. +</p> + +<p> +Meanwhile, however, Pauline had observed her and pointed her out to Madame +Deberle, who almost gave way to anger. “What!” she exclaimed; +“she has come. But it isn’t at all proper; it’s very bad +taste!”[*] +</p> + +<p> +[*] In France, among the aristocracy and the upper <i>bourgeoisie</i>—to +which Madame Deberle belonged—mothers seldom, if ever, attend the +funerals of their children, or widows those of the husbands they have lost. +They are supposed to be so prostrated by grief as to be unable to appear in +public. This explanation was necessary, as otherwise the reader might not +understand the force of Madame Deberle’s remarks. +</p> + +<p> +So saying she stepped forward, showing Hélène by the expression of her face +that she disapproved of her presence. Some other ladies also followed with +inquisitive looks. Monsieur Rambaud, however, had already rejoined the bereaved +mother, and stood silent by her side. She was leaning against one of the +acacias, feeling faint, and weary with the sight of all those mourners. She +nodded her head in recognition of their sympathetic words, but all the while +she was stifling with the thought that she had come too late; for she had heard +the noise of the stone falling back into its place. Her eyes ever turned +towards the vault, the step of which a cemetery keeper was sweeping. +</p> + +<p> +“Pauline, see to the children,” said Madame Deberle. +</p> + +<p> +The little girls rose from their knees looking like a flock of white sparrows. +A few of the tinier ones, lost among their petticoats, had seated themselves on +the ground, and had to be picked up. While Jeanne was being lowered down, the +older girls had leaned forward to see the bottom of the cavity. It was so dark +they had shuddered and turned pale. Sophie assured her companions in a whisper +that one remained there for years and years. “At nighttime too?” +asked one of the little Levasseur girls. “Of course—at night +too—always!” Oh, the night! Blanche was nearly dead with the idea. +And they all looked at one another with dilated eyes, as if they had just heard +some story about robbers. However, when they had regained their feet, and stood +grouped around the vault, released from their mourning duties, their cheeks +became pink again; it must all be untrue, those stories could only have been +told for fun. The spot seemed pleasant, so pretty with its long grass; what +capital games they might have had at hide-and-seek behind all the tombstones! +Their little feet were already itching to dance away, and their white dresses +fluttered like wings. Amidst the graveyard stillness the warm sunshine lazily +streamed down, flushing their faces. Lucien had thrust his hand beneath +Marguerite’s veil, and was feeling her hair and asking if she put +anything on it, to make it so yellow. The little one drew herself up, and he +told her that they would marry each other some day. To this Marguerite had no +objection, but she was afraid that he might pull her hair. His hands were still +wandering over it; it seemed to him as soft as highly-glazed letter-paper. +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t go so far away,” called Pauline. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, we’ll leave now,” said Madame Deberle. +“There’s nothing more to be done, and the children must be +hungry.” +</p> + +<p> +The little girls, who had scattered like some boarding-school at play, had to +be marshalled together once more. They were counted, and baby Guiraud was +missing; but she was at last seen in the distance, gravely toddling along a +path with her mother’s parasol. The ladies then turned towards the +gateway, driving the stream of white dresses before them. Madame Berthier +congratulated Pauline on her marriage, which was to take place during the +following month. Madame Deberle informed them that she was setting out in three +days’ time for Naples, with her husband and Lucien. The crowd now quickly +disappeared; Zephyrin and Rosalie were the last to remain. Then in their turn +they went off, linked together, arm-in-arm, delighted with their outing, +although their hearts were heavy with grief. Their pace was slow, and for a +moment longer they could be seen at the end of the path, with the sunshine +dancing over them. +</p> + +<p> +“Come,” murmured Monsieur Rambaud to Hélène. +</p> + +<p> +With a gesture she entreated him to wait. She was alone, and to her it seemed +as though a page had been torn from the book of her life. As soon as the last +of the mourners had disappeared, she knelt before the tomb with a painful +effort. Abbé Jouve, robed in his surplice, had not yet risen to his feet. Both +prayed for a long time. Then, without speaking, but with a glowing glance of +loving-kindness and pardon, the priest assisted her to rise. +</p> + +<p> +“Give her your arm,” he said to Monsieur Rambaud. +</p> + +<p> +Towards the horizon stretched Paris, all golden in the radiance of that spring +morning. In the cemetery a chaffinch was singing. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="2HCH0025"></a> CHAPTER XXV.</h2> + +<p> +Two years were past and gone. One morning in December the little cemetery lay +slumbering in the intense cold. Since the evening before snow had been falling, +a fine snow, which a north wind blew before it. From the paling sky the flakes +now fell at rarer intervals, light and buoyant, like feathers. The snow was +already hardening, and a thick trimming of seeming swan’s-down edged the +parapet of the terrace. Beyond this white line lay Paris, against the gloomy +grey on the horizon. +</p> + +<p> +Madame Rambaud was still praying on her knees in the snow before the grave of +Jeanne. Her husband had but a moment before risen silently to his feet. Hélène +and her old lover had been married in November at Marseilles. Monsieur Rambaud +had disposed of his business near the Central Markets, and had come to Paris +for three days, in order to conclude the transaction. The carriage now awaiting +them in the Rue des Reservoirs was to take them back to their hotel, and thence +with their travelling-trunks to the railway station. Hélène had made the +journey with the one thought of kneeling here. She remained motionless, with +drooping head, as if dreaming, and unconscious of the cold ground that chilled +her knees. +</p> + +<p> +Meanwhile the wind was falling. Monsieur Rambaud had stepped to the terrace, +leaving her to the mute anguish which memory evoked. A haze was stealing over +the outlying districts of Paris, whose immensity faded away in this pale, vague +mist. Round the Trocadero the city was of a leaden hue and lifeless, while the +last snowflakes slowly fluttered down in pale specks against the gloomy +background. Beyond the chimneys of the Army Bakehouse, the brick towers of +which had a coppery tint, these white dots descended more thickly; a gauze +seemed to be floating in the air, falling to earth thread by thread. Not a +breath stirred as the dream-like shower sleepily and rhythmically descended +from the atmosphere. As they neared the roofs the flakes seemed to falter in +their flight; in myriads they ceaselessly pillowed themselves on one another, +in such intense silence that even blossoms shedding their petals make more +noise; and from this moving mass, whose descent through space was inaudible, +there sprang a sense of such intense peacefulness that earth and life were +forgotten. A milky whiteness spread more and more over the whole heavens though +they were still darkened here and there by wreaths of smoke. Little by little, +bright clusters of houses became plainly visible; a bird’s-eye view was +obtained of the whole city, intersected by streets and squares, which with +their shadowy depths described the framework of the several districts. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène had slowly risen. On the snow remained the imprint of her knees. Wrapped +in a large, dark mantle trimmed with fur, she seemed amidst the surrounding +white very tall and broad-shouldered. The border of her bonnet, a twisted band +of black velvet, looked like a diadem throwing a shadow on her forehead. She +had regained her beautiful, placid face with grey eyes and pearly teeth. Her +chin was full and rounded, as in the olden days, giving her an air of sturdy +sense and determination. As she turned her head, her profile once more assumed +statuesque severity and purity. Beneath the untroubled paleness of her cheeks +her blood coursed calmly; everything showed that honor was again ruling her +life. Two tears had rolled from under her eyelids; her present tranquillity +came from her past sorrow. And she stood before the grave on which was reared a +simple pillar inscribed with Jeanne’s name and two dates, within which +the dead child’s brief existence was compassed. +</p> + +<p> +Around Hélène stretched the cemetery, enveloped in its snowy pall, through +which rose rusty monuments and iron crosses, like arms thrown up in agony. +There was only one path visible in this lonely corner, and that had been made +by the footmarks of Hélène and Monsieur Rambaud. It was a spotless solitude +where the dead lay sleeping. The walks were outlined by the shadowy, +phantom-like trees. Ever and anon some snow fell noiselessly from a branch that +had been too heavily burdened. But nothing else stirred. At the far end, some +little while ago, a black tramping had passed by; some one was being buried +beneath this snowy winding-sheet. And now another funeral train appeared on the +left. Hearses and mourners went their way in silence, like shadows thrown upon +a spotless linen cloth. +</p> + +<p> +Hélène was awaking from her dream when she observed a beggar-woman crawling +along near her. It was Mother Fétu, the snow deadening the sound of her huge +man’s boots, which were burst and bound round with bits of string. Never +had Hélène seen her weighed down by such intense misery, or covered with +filthier rags, though she was fatter than ever, and wore a stupid look. In the +foulest weather, despite hard frosts or drenching rain, the old woman now +followed funerals in order to speculate on the pity of the charitable. She well +knew that amongst the gravestones the fear of death makes people generous; and +so she prowled from tomb to tomb, approaching the kneeling mourners at the +moment they burst into tears, for she understood that they were then powerless +to refuse her. She had entered with the last funeral train, and a moment +previously had espied Hélène. But she had not recognized her benefactress, and +with gasps and sobs began to relate how she had two children at home who were +dying of hunger. Hélène listened to her, struck dumb by this apparition. The +children were without fire to warm them; the elder was going off in a decline. +But all at once Mother Fétu’s words came to an end. Her brain was +evidently working beneath the myriad wrinkles of her face, and her little eyes +began to blink. Good gracious! it was her benefactress! Heaven, then, had +hearkened to her prayers! And without seeking to explain the story about the +children, she plunged into a whining tale, with a ceaseless rush of words. +Several of her teeth were missing, and she could be understood with difficulty. +The gracious God had sent every affliction on her head, she declared. The +gentleman lodger had gone away, and she had only just been enabled to rise +after lying for three months in bed; yes, the old pain still remained, it now +gripped her everywhere; a neighbor had told her that a spider must have got in +through her mouth while she was asleep. If she had only had a little fire, she +could have warmed her stomach; that was the only thing that could relieve her +now. But nothing could be had for nothing—not even a match. Perhaps she +was right in thinking that madame had been travelling? That was her own +concern, of course. At all events, she looked very well, and fresh, and +beautiful. God would requite her for all her kindness. Then, as Hélène began to +draw out her purse, Mother Fétu drew breath, leaning against the railing that +encircled Jeanne’s grave. +</p> + +<p> +The funeral processions had vanished from sight. Somewhere in a grave close at +hand a digger, whom they could not see, was wielding his pickaxe with regular +strokes. +</p> + +<p> +Meanwhile the old woman had regained her breath, and her eyes were riveted on +the purse. Then, anxious to extort as large a sum as possible, she displayed +considerable cunning, and spoke of the other lady. Nobody could say that she +was not a charitable lady; still, she did not know what to do with her +money—it never did one much good. Warily did she glance at Hélène as she +spoke. And next she ventured to mention the doctor’s name. Oh! he was +good. Last summer he had again gone on a journey with his wife. Their boy was +thriving; he was a fine child. But just then Hélène’s fingers, as she +opened the purse, began to tremble, and Mother Fétu immediately changed her +tone. In her stupidity and bewilderment she had only now realized that the good +lady was standing beside her daughter’s grave. She stammered, gasped, and +tried to bring tears to her eyes. Jeanne, said she, had been so dainty a +darling, with such loves of little hands; she could still see her giving her +silver in charity. What long hair she had! and how her large eyes filled with +tears when she gazed on the poor! Ah! there was no replacing such an angel; +there were no more to be found like her, were they even to search the whole of +Passy. And when the fine days came, said Mother Fétu, she would gather some +daisies in the moat of the fortifications and place them on her tomb. Then, +however, she lapsed into silence frightened by the gesture with which Hélène +cut her short. Was it possible, she thought, that she could no longer find the +right thing to say? Her good lady did not weep, and only gave her a twenty-sou +piece. +</p> + +<p> +Monsieur Rambaud, meanwhile, had walked towards them from the parapet of the +terrace. Hélène hastened to rejoin him. At the sight of the gentleman Mother +Fétu’s eyes began to sparkle. He was unknown to her; he must be a +new-comer. Dragging her feet along, she followed Hélène, invoking every +blessing of Heaven on her head; and when she had crept close to Monsieur +Rambaud, she again spoke of the doctor. Ah! his would be a magnificent funeral +when he died, were the poor people whom he had attended for nothing to follow +his corpse! He was rather fickle in his loves—nobody could deny that. +There were ladies in Passy who knew him well. But all that didn’t prevent +him from worshipping his wife—such a pretty lady, who, had she wished, +might have easily gone wrong, but had given up such ideas long ago. Their home +was quite a turtle-doves’ nest now. Had madame paid them a visit yet? +They were certain to be at home; she had but a few moments previously observed +that the shutters were open in the Rue Vineuse. They had formerly had such +regard for madame that surely they would be delighted to receive her with open +arms! +</p> + +<p> +The old hag leered at Monsieur Rambaud as she thus mumbled away. He listened to +her with the composure of a brave man. The memories that were being called up +before him brought no shadow to his unruffled face. Only it occurred to him +that the pertinacity of the old beggar was annoying Hélène, and so he hastened +to fumble in his pocket, in his turn giving her some alms, and at the same time +waving her away. The moment her eyes rested on another silver coin Mother Fétu +burst into loud thanks. She would buy some wood at once; she would be able to +warm her afflicted body—that was the only thing now to give her stomach +any relief. Yes, the doctor’s home was quite a nest of turtle-doves, and +the proof was that the lady had only last winter given birth to a second +child—a beautiful little daughter, rosy-cheeked and fat, who must now be +nearly fourteen months old. On the day of the baptism the doctor had put a +hundred sous into her hand at the door of the church. Ah! good hearts came +together. Madame had brought her good luck. Pray God that madame might never +have a sorrow, but every good fortune! yes, might that come to pass in the name +of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost! +</p> + +<p> +Hélène stood upright gazing on Paris, while Mother Fétu vanished among the +tombs, muttering three <i>Paters</i> and three <i>Aves</i>. The snow had ceased +falling; the last of the flakes had fluttered slowly and wearily on to the +roofs; and through the dissolving mist the golden sun could be seen tinging the +pearly-grey expanse of heaven with a pink glow. Over Montmartre a belt of blue +fringed the horizon; but it was so faint and delicate that it seemed but a +shadow such as white satin might throw. Paris was gradually detaching itself +from amidst the smoke, spreading out more broadly with its snowy expanses the +frigid cloak which held it in death-like quiescence. There were now no longer +any fleeting specks of white making the city shudder, and quivering in pale +waves over the dull-brown house-fronts. Amidst the masses of snow that girt +them round the dwellings stood out black and gloomy, as though mouldy with +centuries of damp. Entire streets appeared to be in ruins, as if undermined by +some gunpowder explosion, with roofs ready to give way and windows already +driven in. But gradually, as the belt of blue broadened in the direction of +Montmartre, there came a stream of light, pure and cool as the waters of a +spring; and Paris once more shone out as under a glass, which lent even to the +outlying districts the distinctness of a Japanese picture. +</p> + +<p> +Wrapped in her fur mantle, with her hands clinging idly to the cuffs of the +sleeves, Hélène was musing. With the persistency of an echo one thought +unceasingly pursued her—a child, a fat, rosy daughter, had been born to +them. In her imagination she could picture her at the love-compelling age when +Jeanne had commenced to prattle. Baby girls are such darlings when fourteen +months old! She counted the months—fourteen: that made two years when she +took the remaining period into consideration—exactly the time within a +fortnight. Then her brain conjured up a sunny picture of Italy, a realm of +dreamland, with golden fruits where lovers wandered through the perfumed +nights, with arms round one another’s waists. Henri and Juliette were +pacing before her eyes beneath the light of the moon. They loved as husband and +wife do when passion is once more awakened within them. To think of it—a +tiny girl, rosy and fat, its bare body flushed by the warm sunshine, while it +strives to stammer words which its mother arrests with kisses! And Hélène +thought of all this without any anger; her heart was mute, yet seemingly +derived yet greater quietude from the sadness of her spirit. The land of the +sun had vanished from her vision; her eyes wandered slowly over Paris, on whose +huge frame winter had laid his freezing hand. Above the Panthéon another patch +of blue was now spreading in the heavens. +</p> + +<p> +Meanwhile memory was recalling the past to life. At Marseilles she had spent +her days in a state of coma. One morning as she went along the Rue des +Petites-Maries, she had burst out sobbing in front of the home of her +childhood. That was the last occasion on which she had wept. Monsieur Rambaud +was her frequent visitor; she felt his presence near her to be a protection. +Towards autumn she had one evening seen him enter, with red eyes and in the +agony of a great sorrow; his brother, Abbé Jouve, was dead. In her turn she +comforted him. What followed she could not recall with any exactitude of +detail. The Abbé ever seemed to stand behind them, and influenced by thought of +him she succumbed resignedly. When M. Rambaud once more hinted at his wish, she +had nothing to say in refusal. It seemed to her that what he asked was but +sensible. Of her own accord, as her period of mourning was drawing to an end, +she calmly arranged all the details with him. His hands trembled in a transport +of tenderness. It should be as she pleased; he had waited for months; a sign +sufficed him. They were married in mourning garb. On the wedding night he, like +her first husband, kissed her bare feet—feet fair as though fashioned out +of marble. And thus life began once more. +</p> + +<p> +While the belt of blue was broadening on the horizon, this awakening of memory +came with an astounding effect on Hélène. Had she lived through a year of +madness, then? To-day, as she pictured the woman who had lived for nearly three +years in that room in the Rue Vineuse, she imagined that she was passing +judgment on some stranger, whose conduct revolted and surprised her. How +fearfully foolish had been her act! how abominably wicked! Yet she had not +sought it. She had been living peacefully, hidden in her nook, absorbed in the +love of her daughter. Untroubled by any curious thoughts, by any desire, she +had seen the road of life lying before her. But a breath had swept by, and she +had fallen. Even at this moment she was unable to explain it; she had evidently +ceased to be herself; another mind and heart had controlled her actions. Was it +possible? She had done those things? Then an icy chill ran through her; she saw +Jeanne borne away beneath roses. But in the torpor begotten of her grief she +grew very calm again, once more without a longing or curiosity, once more +proceeding along the path of duty that lay so straight before her. Life had +again begun for her, fraught with austere peacefulness and pride of honesty. +</p> + +<p> +Monsieur Rambaud now moved near her to lead her from this place of sadness. But +Hélène silently signed to him her wish to linger a little longer. Approaching +the parapet she gazed below into the Avenue de la Muette, where a long line of +old cabs in the last stage of decay stretched beside the footpath. The hoods +and wheels looked blanched, the rusty horses seemed to have been rotting there +since the dark ages. Some cabmen sat motionless, freezing within their frozen +cloaks. Over the snow other vehicles were crawling along, one after the other, +with the utmost difficulty. The animals were losing their foothold, and +stretching out their necks, while their drivers with many oaths descended from +their seats and held them by the bridle; and through the windows you could see +the faces of the patient “fares,” reclining against the cushions, +and resigning themselves to the stern necessity of taking three-quarters of an +hour to cover a distance which in other weather would have been accomplished in +ten minutes. The rumbling of the wheels was deadened by the snow; only the +voices vibrated upward, sounding shrill and distinct amidst the silence of the +streets; there were loud calls, the laughing exclamations of people slipping on +the icy paths, the angry whip-cracking of carters, and the snorting of +terrified horses. In the distance, to the right, the lofty trees on the quay +seemed to be spun of glass, like huge Venetian chandeliers, whose flower-decked +arms the designer had whimsically twisted. The icy north wind had transformed +the trunks into columns, over which waved downy boughs and feathery tufts, an +exquisite tracery of black twigs edged with white trimmings. It was freezing, +and not a breath stirred in the pure air. +</p> + +<p> +Then Hélène told her heart that she had known nothing of Henri. For a year she +had seen him almost every day; he had lingered for hours and hours near her, to +speak to her and gaze into her eyes. Yet she knew nothing of him. Whence had he +come? how had he crept into her intimacy? what manner of man was he that she +had yielded to him—she who would rather have perished than yield to +another? She knew nothing of him; it had all sprung from some sudden tottering +of her reason. He had been a stranger to her on the last as on the first day. +In vain did she patch together little scattered things and +circumstances—his words, his acts, everything that her memory recalled +concerning him. He loved his wife and his child; he smiled with delicate grace; +he outwardly appeared a well-bred man. Then she saw him again with inflamed +visage, and trembling with passion. But weeks passed, and he vanished from her +sight. At this moment she could not have said where she had spoken to him for +the last time. He had passed away, and his shadow had gone with him. Their +story had no other ending. She knew him not. +</p> + +<p> +Over the city the sky had now become blue, and every cloud had vanished. +Wearied with her memories, and rejoicing in the purity before her, Hélène +raised her head. The blue of the heavens was exquisitely clear, but still very +pale in the light of the sun, which hung low on the horizon, and glittered like +a silver lamp. In that icy temperature its rays shed no heat on the glittering +snow. Below stretched the expanses of roofs—the tiles of the Army +Bakehouse, and the slates of the houses on the quay—like sheets of white +cloth fringed with black. On the other bank of the river, the square stretch of +the Champ-de-Mars seemed a steppe, the black dots of the straggling vehicles +making one think of sledges skimming along with tinkling bells; while the elms +on the Quai d’Orsay, dwarfed by the distance, looked like crystal flowers +bristling with sharp points. Through all the snow-white sea the Seine rolled +its muddy waters edged by the ermine of its banks; since the evening before ice +had been floating down, and you could clearly see the masses crushing against +the piers of the Pont des Invalides, and vanishing swiftly beneath the arches. +The bridges, growing more and more delicate with the distance, seemed like the +steps of a ladder of white lace reaching as far as the sparkling walls of the +Cité, above which the towers of Notre-Dame reared their snow-white crests. On +the left the level plain was broken up by other peaks. The Church of +Saint-Augustin, the Opera House, the Tower of Saint-Jacques, looked like +mountains clad with eternal snow. Nearer at hand the pavilions of the Tuileries +and the Louvre, joined together by newly erected buildings, resembled a ridge +of hills with spotless summits. On the right, too, were the white tops of the +Invalides, of Saint-Sulpice, and the Panthéon, the last in the dim distance, +outlining against the sky a palace of fairyland with dressings of bluish +marble. Not a sound broke the stillness. Grey-looking hollows revealed the +presence of the streets; the public squares were like yawning crevasses. Whole +lines of houses had vanished. The fronts of the neighboring dwellings alone +showed distinctly with the thousand streaks of light reflected from their +windows. Beyond, the expanse of snow intermingled and merged into a seeming +lake, whose blue shadows blended with the blue of the sky. Huge and clear in +the bright, frosty atmosphere, Paris glittered in the light of the silver sun. +</p> + +<p> +Then Hélène for the last time let her glance sweep over the unpitying city +which also remained unknown to her. She saw it once more, tranquil and with +immortal beauty amidst the snow, the same as when she had left it, the same as +it had been every day for three long years. Paris to her was full of her past +life. In its presence she had loved, in its presence Jeanne had died. But this +companion of her every-day existence retained on its mighty face a wondrous +serenity, unruffled by any emotion, as though it were but a mute witness of the +laughter and the tears which the Seine seemed to roll in its flood. She had, +according to her mood, endowed it with monstrous cruelty or almighty goodness. +To-day she felt that she would be ever ignorant of it, in its indifference and +immensity. It spread before her; it was life. +</p> + +<p> +However, Monsieur Rambaud now laid a light hand on her arm to lead her away. +His kindly face was troubled, and he whispered: +</p> + +<p> +“Do not give yourself pain.” +</p> + +<p> +He divined her every thought, and this was all he could say. Madame Rambaud +looked at him, and her sorrow became appeased. Her cheeks were flushed by the +cold; her eyes sparkled. Her memories were already far away. Life was beginning +again. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m not quite certain whether I shut the big trunk +properly,” she exclaimed. +</p> + +<p> +Monsieur Rambaud promised that he would make sure. Their train started at noon, +and they had plenty of time. Some gravel was being scattered on the streets; +their cab would not take an hour. But, all at once, he raised his voice: +</p> + +<p> +“I believe you’ve forgotten the fishing-rods!” said he. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, yes; quite!” she answered, surprised and vexed at her +forgetfulness. “We ought to have bought them yesterday!” +</p> + +<p> +The rods in question were very handy ones, the like of which could not be +purchased at Marseilles. They there owned near the sea a small country house, +where they purposed spending the summer. Monsieur Rambaud looked at his watch. +On their way to the railway station they would still be able to buy the rods, +and could tie them up with the umbrellas. Then he led her from the place, +tramping along, and taking short cuts between the graves. The cemetery was +empty; only the imprint of their feet now remained on the snow. Jeanne, dead, +lay alone, facing Paris, for ever and for ever. +</p> + +<p class="center"> + +AFTERWARD +</p> + +<p> +There can be no doubt in the mind of the judicial critic that in the pages of +“A Love Episode” the reader finds more of the poetical, more of the +delicately artistic, more of the subtle emanation of creative and analytical +genius, than in any other of Zola’s works, with perhaps one exception. +The masterly series of which this book is a part furnishes a well-stocked +gallery of pictures by which posterity will receive vivid and adequate +impressions of life in France during a certain period. There was a strain of +Greek blood in Zola’s veins. It would almost seem that down through the +ages with this blood there had come to him a touch of that old Greek fatalism, +or belief in destiny or necessity. The Greek tragedies are pervaded and +permeated, steeped and dyed with this idea of relentless fate. It is called +heredity, in these modern days. Heredity plus environment,—in these we +find the keynote of the great productions of the leader of the +“naturalistic” school of fiction. +</p> + +<p> +It has been said that art, in itself, should have no moral. It has been further +charged that the tendencies of some of Zola’s works are hurtful. But, in +the books of this master, the aberrations of vice are nowhere made attractive, +or insidiously alluring. The shadow of expiation, remorse, punishment, +retribution is ever present, like a death’s-head at a feast. The day of +reckoning comes, and bitterly do the culprits realize that the tortuous game of +vice is not worth the candle. Casuistical theologians may attempt to explain +away the notions of punishment in the life to come, of retribution beyond the +grave. But the shallowest thinker will not deny the realities of remorse. To +how many confessions, to how many suicides has it led? Of how many reformed +lives has it been the mainspring? The great lecturer, John B. Gough, used to +tell a story of a railway employee whose mind was overthrown by his disastrous +error in misplacing a switch, and who spent his days in the mad-house repeating +the phrase: “If I only had, if I only had.” His was not an +intentional or wilful dereliction. But in the hearts of how many repentant +sinners does there not echo through life a similar mournful refrain. This +lesson has been taught by Zola in more than one of his romances. +</p> + +<p> +In “A Love Episode” how poignant is this expiation! In all +literature there is nothing like the portrayal of the punishment of Hélène +Grandjean. Hélène and little Jeanne are reversions of type. The old +“neurosis,” seen in earlier branches of the family, reappears in +these characters. Readers of the series will know where it began. Poor little +Jeanne, most pathetic of creations, is a study in abnormal jealousy, a jealousy +which seems to be clairvoyant, full of supernatural intuitions, turning +everything to suspicion, a jealousy which blights and kills. Could the memory +of those weeks of anguish fade from Hélène’s soul? This dying of a broken +heart is not merely the figment of a poet’s fancy. It has happened in +real life. The coming of death, save in the case of the very aged, seems, +nearly always, brutally cruel, at least to those friends who survive. Parents +know what it is to sit with bated breath and despairing heart beside the bed of +a sinking child. Seconds seem hours, and hours weeks. The impotency to succour, +the powerlessness to save, the dumb despair, the overwhelming grief, all these +are sorrowful realities. How vividly are they pictured by Zola. And, added to +this keenness of grief in the case of Hélène Grandjean, was the sense that her +fault had contributed to the illness of her daughter. Each sigh of pain was a +reproach. The pallid and ever-paling cheek was a whip of scorpions, lashing the +mother’s naked soul. Will ethical teachers say that there is no salutary +moral lesson in this vivid picture? To many it seems better than a cart-load of +dull tracts or somnolent homilies. Poor, pathetic little Jeanne, lying there in +the cemetery of Passy—where later was erected the real tomb of Marie +Bashkirtseff, though dead she yet spoke a lesson of contrition to her mother. +And though the second marriage of Hélène has been styled an anti-climax, yet it +is true enough to life. It does not remove the logical and artistic inference +that the memory of Jeanne’s sufferings lingered with ever recurring +poignancy in the mother’s heart. +</p> + +<p> +In a few bold lines Zola sketches a living character. Take the picture of old +Mere Fétu. One really feels her disagreeable presence, and is annoyed with her +whining, leering, fawning, sycophancy. One almost resents her introduction into +the pages of the book. There is something palpably odious about her +personality. A pleasing contrast is formed by the pendant portraits of the +awkward little soldier and his kitchen-sweetheart. This homely and wholesome +couple one may meet any afternoon in Paris, on leave-of-absence days. Their +portraits, and the delicious description of the children’s party, are +evidently studies from life. With such vivid verisimilitude is the latter +presented that one imagines, the day after reading the book, that he has been +present at the pleasant function, and has admired the fluffy darlings, in their +dainty costumes, with their chubby cavaliers. +</p> + +<p> +It is barely fair to an author to give him the credit of knowing something +about the proper relative proportions of his characters. And so, although Dr. +Deberle is somewhat shadowy, he certainly serves the author’s purpose, +and—well, Dr. Deberle is not the hero of “An Episode of +Love.” Rambaud and the good Abbé Jouve are certainly strong enough. There +seems to be a touch of Dickens about them. +</p> + +<p> +Cities sometimes seem to be great organisms. Each has an individuality, a +specific identity, so marked, and peculiarities so especially characteristic of +itself, that one might almost allow it a soul. Down through the centuries has +fair Lutetia come, growing in the artistic graces, until now she stands the +playground of princes and the capital of the world, even as mighty Rome among +the ancients. And shall we object, because a few pages of “A Love +Episode” are devoted to descriptions of Paris? Rather let us be thankful +for them. These descriptions of the wonderful old city form a glorious +pentatych. They are invaluable to two classes of readers, those who have +visited Paris and those who have not. To the former they recall the days in +which the spirit of the French metropolis seemed to possess their being and to +take them under its wondrous spell. To the latter they supply hints of the +majesty and attractiveness of Paris, and give some inkling of its power to +please. And Zola loved his Paris as a sailor loves the sea. +</p> + +<p> +C. C. 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