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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + + + + +Title: The Blood Red Dawn + +Author: Charles Caldwell Dobie + +Release Date: April 3, 2004 [eBook #11875] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: iso-8859-1 + + +***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE BLOOD RED DAWN*** + + +E-text prepared by Hélène Poirier and Project Gutenberg Distributed +Proofreaders + + + +THE BLOOD RED DAWN + +by + +CHARLES CALDWELL DOBIE + +1920 + + + + + + + +To My Mother + + + + + +Book I + + + +CHAPTER I + + +The pastor's announcement had been swallowed up in a hum of truant +inattention, and as the heralded speaker made his appearance upon the +platform Claire Robson, leaning forward, said to her mother: + +"What?... Did you catch his name?" + +"A foreigner of some sort!" replied Mrs. Robson, with smug sufficiency. + +For a moment the elder woman's sneer dulled the edge of Claire's +anticipations, but presently the man began to speak, and at once she +felt a sense of power back of his halting words, a sudden bursting fort +of bloom amid the frozen assembly that sat ice-bound, refusing to be +melted by the fires of an alien enthusiasm. She could not help wondering +whether he felt how hopeless it would be to force a sympathetic response +from his audience. In ordinary times the Second Presbyterian Church of +San Francisco could not possibly have had any interest in Serbia except +as a field for foreign missionaries. Now, with America in the war and +speeding up the draft, these worthy people were too much concerned with +problems nearer their own hearthstones to be swept off their feet by a +specific and almost inarticulate appeal for an obscure country, made +only a shade less remote by the accident of being accounted an ally. + +Claire, straining at attention, found it hard to follow him. He talked +rapidly and with unfamiliar emphasis, and he waved his hands. Frankly, +people were bored. They had come to hear a concert and incidentally +swell the Red Cross fund, but they had not reckoned on quite this type +of harangue. Besides, an appetizing smell of coffee from the church +kitchen had begun to beguile their senses. And yet, the man talked on +and on, until quite suddenly Claire Robson began to have a strange +feeling of disquiet, an embarrassment for him, such as one feels when an +intimate friend or kinsman unconsciously makes a spectacle of himself. +She wished that he would stop. She longed to rise from her seat and +scream, to create an outlandish scene, to do anything, in short, that +would silence him. At this point he turned his eyes in her direction, +and she felt the scorch of an intense inner fire. Instinctively she +lowered her glance.... When she looked up again his gaze was still fixed +upon her. She felt her color rise. From that moment on she had a sense +that she was his sole audience. He was talking to her. The others did +not matter. She still did not have any very distinct idea what it was +all about, but the manner of it held her captive. But gradually the +mists cleared, he became more coherent, and slowly, imperceptibly, bit +by bit, he won the others. Yet never for an instant did he take his +eyes from _her_. When he finished, a momentary silence blocked the final +burst of applause. But Claire Robson's hands were locked tightly +together, and it was not until he had disappeared that she realized that +she had not paid him the tribute of even a parting glance. + +The pastor came back upon the platform and announced that refreshments +would be served at the conclusion of the next number. A heavy odor of +coffee continued to float from the church kitchen. A red-haired woman +stepped forward and began to sing. + +Already Claire Robson dreaded the ordeal of supper. The fact that tables +were being laid further disturbed her. This meant that she and her +mother would have to push their way into some group which, at best, +would remain indifferent to their presence. When coffee was served +informally things were not so awkward. To be sure, one had to balance +coffee-cup and cake-plate with an amazing and painful skill, but, on the +other hand, table-less groups did not emphasize one's isolation. Claire +had got to the point where she would have welcomed active hostility on +the part of her fellow church members, but their utter indifference was +soul-killing. She would have liked to remember one occasion when any one +had betrayed the slightest interest in either her arrival or departure, +or rather in the arrival and departure of her mother and herself. + +The solo came to an end, and the inevitable applause followed, but +before the singer could respond to the implied encore most of the +listeners began frank and determined advances upon the tables. The +concert was over. + +Mrs. Robson rose and faced Claire with a look of bewilderment. As usual, +mother and daughter stood irresolutely, caught like two trembling leaves +in the backwater of a swirling eddy. At last Claire made a movement +toward the nearest table. Mrs. Robson followed. They sat down. + +The scattered company speedily began to form into congenial groups. +There was a great deal of suddenly loosened chatter. Claire Robson sat +silently, rather surprised and dismayed to find that she and her mother +had chosen a table which seemed to be the objective of all the prominent +church members. The company facing her was elegant, if not precisely +smart, and there were enough laces and diamonds displayed to have done +excellent service if the proper background had been provided. Claire was +further annoyed to discover that her mother was regarding the situation +with a certain ruffling self-satisfaction which she took no pains to +conceal. Mrs. Robson bowed and smirked, and even called gaily to every +one within easy range. There was something distasteful in her mother's +sudden and almost aggressive self-assurance. + +Gradually the company adjusted itself; the tables were filled. The only +moving figures were those of young women carrying huge white pitchers of +steaming coffee. Claire Robson settled into her seat with a resignation +born of subtle inner misery. Across her brain flashed the insistent and +pertinent questions that such a situation always evoked. Why was she not +one of these young women engaged in distributing refreshments? Did the +circles close automatically so as to exclude her, or did her own +aloofness shut her out? What was the secret of these people about her +that gave them such an assured manner? No one spoke to her with cordial +enthusiasm.... It was not a matter of wealth, or brains, or prominent +church activity. It was not even a matter of obscurity. Like all large +organizations, the Second Presbyterian Church was made up of every +clique in the social calendar; the obscure circle was as clannish and +distinctive in its way as any other group. But Claire Robson was forced +to admit that she did not belong even to the obscure circle. She +belonged nowhere--that was the galling and oppressive truth that was +forced upon her. + +At this point she became aware that one of the most prominent church +members, Mrs. Towne, was making an unmistakably cordial advance in her +direction. Claire had a misgiving.... Mrs. Towne was never excessively +friendly except for a definite aim. + +"My dear Miss Robson," Mrs. Towne began, sweetly, drooping +confidentially to a whispering posture, "I am so sorry, but I shall have +to disturb you and your mother!... It just happens that this table has +been reserved for the elders and their wives.... I hope you'll +understand!" + +For a moment Claire merely stared at the messenger of evil news. Then, +recovering herself, she managed to reply: + +"Oh yes, Mrs. Towne! I understand perfectly.... I am sure we were very +stupid.... Come, mother!" + +Mrs. Robson responded at once to her daughter's command. The two women +rose. By this time the task of securing another place was quite +hopeless. Claire felt that every eye in the room was turned upon them. +Picking their way between a labyrinth of tables and chairs, they +literally were stumbling in the direction of an exit when Claire felt a +hand upon her arm. She turned. + +"Pardon me," the man opposite her was saying, "but may I offer you a +place at our table?" + +Claire said nothing; she followed blindly. Her mother was close upon her +heels. + +The table was a small one, and only two people were occupying it--the +man who had halted Claire, and a woman. The man, standing with one hand +on the chair which he had drawn up for Mrs. Robson, said, simply: + +"My name is Stillman, and of course you know Mrs. Condor--the lady who +has just sung for us." + +Claire gave a swift, inclusive glance. Yes, it was the same woman who +had attempted to beguile a weary audience from its impending repletion; +at close range one could not escape the intense redness of her hair or +the almost immoral whiteness of the shoulders and arms which she was at +such little pains to conceal. + +"Stillman?" Mrs. Robson was fluttering importantly. "Not the old Rincon +Hill family?" + +"Yes, the old Rincon Hill family," the man replied. + +Mrs. Robson sat down with preening self-satisfaction. Wearily the +daughter dropped into the seat which Mrs. Condor proffered. The name of +Ned Stillman was not unfamiliar to any San Franciscan who scanned the +social news with even a casual glance, and Claire had a vague +remembrance that Mrs. Condor also figured socially, but in a rather more +inclusive way than her companion. At all events, it was plain that her +mother, with unerring feminine insight, had placed the pair to her +satisfaction. Already the elder woman was contriving to let Stillman +know something of _her_ antecedents. _She_ was Emily Carrol, also of +Rincon Hill, and of course he knew her two sisters--Mrs. Thomas Wynne +and Mrs. Edward Finch-Brown! As Stillman returned a smiling assurance to +Mrs. Robson's attempts to be impressive, a young woman in white arrived +with ice-cream and messy layer-cake. Unconsciously Claire Robson began +to smile. She could not have said why, but somehow the presence of Ned +Stillman and Mrs. Condor at a table spread with such vacuous delights +seemed little short of ridiculous. They did not fit the picture any more +than her beetle-browed, red-lipped Serbian who.... She turned +deliberately and swept the room with her glance. Of course he had gone. +It was not to be expected that _he_ would descend to the level of such +puerile feasting. A sudden contempt for everything that only an hour ago +seemed so desirable rose within her, and, in answer to the young woman's +query as to whether she preferred coffee to ice-cream, she answered with +lip-curling aloofness: + +"Neither, thank you.... I am not hungry." + +Stillman looked at her searchingly. She returned his gaze without +flinching. + +Claire Robson did not sleep that night. She lay for hours, quite +motionless, staring into the gloom of her narrow bedroom, her mind +ruthlessly shaping formless, vague intuitions into definite convictions. +She could not put her finger upon the precise reason for her inquietude. +Was it chargeable to so trivial a circumstance as a stranger's formal +courtesy or had something more subtle moved her? If the depths of her +isolation had been thrown into too high relief by the almost shameful +sense of obligation she felt toward Stillman for his courtesy, what was +to be said of the uniqueness of the solitary position which the Serbian +awarded her by singling her out for a sympathetic response? Could it be +that a vague pity had stirred him, too? Had things reached a point where +her loneliness showed through the threadbare indifference of her glance? +In short, had both men been won to gallantry by her distress? In one +case, at least, she decided that there was a reasonable chance to doubt. +And that doubt quickened her pulse like May wine. + +But the humiliation of her last encounter with chivalry stuck with +profound irritation. She recalled the scene again and again. She +remembered her contemptuous silence before Stillman's obvious suavities, +the high, assured laugh which his companion, Mrs. Condor, threw out to +meet his quiet sallies, the ruffling satisfaction of her mother, +chattering on irrelevantly, but with the undisguised purpose of creating +a proper impression. How easily Stillman must have seen through Claire's +muteness and the elder woman's eager craving for an audience! And all +the time Mrs. Condor had been laughing, not ill-naturedly, but with the +irony of an experienced woman possessing a sense of humor. + +And at the end, when the four had left the church together, to be +whirled home in Stillman's car, the sudden nods and smiles and farewells +that had blossomed along the path of her mother's exit! Claire could +have laughed it all away if her mother had not betrayed such eagerness +to drink this snobbish flattery to the lees.... + +Claire's father had never entered very largely into her calculations, +but to-night her readjusted vision included him. Stubborn, kind, a bit +weak, and inclined to copying poetry in a red-covered album, he had been +no match for the disillusionments of married life. Her mother's people +had felt a sullen resentment at his downfall--he had taken to drink and +died ingloriously when Claire was still in her seventh year. Claire, +influenced by the family traditions, had shared this resentment. But now +she found herself wondering whether there was not a word or two to be +said in his behalf. Her father had been a cheap clerk in a wholesale +house when he had married. The uncertain Carrol fortunes were waning +swiftly at the time, and Emily Carrol had been thrown at him with all +the panic that then possessed a public schooled in the fallacy that +marriage was a woman's only career. The result was to have been +expected. Extravagance, debts, too much family, drink, death--the +sequence was complete. He had been captured, withered, cast aside, by a +tribe that had not even had the decency to grant his memory the +kindness of an excuse. + +Wide-eyed and restless, Claire Robson felt a sudden pity for her father. +Tears sprang to her eyes; it overwhelmed her to discover this new father +so full of human failings and yet so full of human provocation. In her +twenty-four years of life she had never shed a tear for him, or felt the +slightest pang for his failure. If she had ever doubted the Carrol +viewpoint, she had never given her lack of faith any scope. She had +taken their cast-off prejudices and threadbare convictions as docilely +as she had once received their stale garments. She had shrunk from +spiritual independence with all the obsequious arrogance of a poor +relation at a feast. Her diffidence, her self-consciousness, her +timidity, were the outward forms of an inbred snobbery. It was curious +how suddenly all this was made clear to her.... + +At length she fell into a troubled sleep.... When she awoke the room's +outlines were reviving before the advances of early morning. For the +first time in her life she caught the poetry of the new day at first +hand. For years she had reveled vicariously in the delights of morning. +But it had always been to her a thing apart, a matter which the writers +of romantic verse beheld and translated for the benefit of late +sleepers. It never occurred to her that the day crawling into the +light-well of her Clay Street flat was lit with precisely the same flame +that colored the far-flung peaks of the poet's song. And instantly a +phrase of the Serbian's harangue came to her--blood-red dawn! He had +repeated these words over and over again, and somehow under the heat of +his ardor and longing for his native land this hackneyed phrase took on +its real and dreadful value. In the sudden sweep of this vital +remembrance, Claire Robson rose for a moment above the fretful drip of +circumstance.... _Blood-red Dawn_!... She threw herself back upon her +bed and shuddered.... + +She rose at seven o'clock, but already the morning had grown pallid and +flecked with gray clouds. + +An apologetic tap came at the door, and the voice of Mrs. Robson +repeating a formula that she never varied: + +"Better hurry, Claire. If you don't you'll be late for the office!" + + + +CHAPTER II + + +As Claire stepped out into the cold sunlight of early November, she +smiled bitterly at the exaggeration of last night's mood. After the +first hectic flush of dawn there is nothing so sane and sweet and +commonplace as morning. The spectacle of Mrs. Finnegan, who lodged in +the flat below, slopping warm suds over the thin marble steps, added a +final note of homeliness, which divorced Claire completely from heroics. + +"Well, Miss Robson, so you really got home, last night," broke from the +industrious neighbor as she straightened up and tucked her lifted skirts +in more securely. "I thought you never would come!... A package came +from New York for you. The man nearly banged your door down. I had +Finnegan put it on your back stoop.... It's from that cousin of yours, I +guess. I was so excited about it I kept wishing you'd get home early so +that I could get a peep at all the pretty things. But I'll run up just +as soon as I get through with the breakfast dishes." + +Claire smiled wanly. "It was very good of you to take all that trouble, +I'm sure, Mrs. Finnegan!" + +"Oh, bother my trouble!" Mrs. Finnegan responded. "I just knew how crazy +I'd be about a box. I guess we women are all alike, Miss Robson. +Anyway, your mother and I are!" + +Mrs. Finnegan bent over her task again with a quick exasperated +movement, and Claire passed on. Her neighbor's abrupt rebuke gave Claire +a renewed sense of exclusion. She had meant to be warmly appreciative, +but she knew now that she had been only coldly polite. But, as a matter +of fact, the prospect of delving through a box of Gertrude Sinclair's +discarded finery moved her this morning to a dull fury. She felt +suddenly tired of cast-offs, of compromise, of all the other shabby +adjustments of genteel poverty. And by the time she reached the office +of the Falcon Insurance Company her soul was seething with a curious and +unreasonable revolt. The feminine office force seemed seething also, but +with an impersonal, quivering excitement. Nellie Whitehead had been +dismissed! + +This Nellie Whitehead, the stenographer-in-chief, was big, vigorous, +blond--vulgar, energetic, vivid; and Miss Munch, her assistant, a thin, +hollow-chested spinster, who loafed upon her job so that she might save +her sight for the manufacture of incredible yards of tatting, never +missed an opportunity to lift her eyes significantly behind her +superior's back. + +"And what do you suppose?" Miss Munch was querying as Claire stepped +into the dressing-room. "She told Mr. Flint to go to hell!... Yes, +positively, she used those very words. And I must say he was a gentleman +throughout it all. He told her gently but firmly that her example in the +office wasn't what it should be and that in justice to the other +girls...." + +Claire turned impatiently away. The fiction of Mr. Flint's belated +interest in the morals of his feminine office force was unconvincing +enough to be irritating. For a man who never missed an opportunity to +force his attentions, he was showing an amazingly ethical viewpoint. On +second thought, Claire remembered that Miss Munch was never the +recipient of Mr. Flint's attentions, which to the casual eye might have +seemed innocent enough--on rainy days gallantly bending his ample girth +in a rather too prolonged attempt to slip on the girls' rubbers, +insisting on the quite unnecessary task of incasing them in their +jackets and smoothing the sleeves of their shirt-waists in the process, +flicking imaginary threads where the feminine curves were most opulent. +Not that Mr. Flint was a wolf in sheep's clothing; he played the part of +sheep, but he needed no disguise for his performance; he merely lived up +to a sort of flock-mind consciousness where women were concerned. + +The group clustered about Miss Munch broke up at the approach of Mr. +Flint, who gave a significant glance in the direction of Claire Robson, +intent upon her morning work. But the excitement persisted in spite of +the scattered auditors, and the fact was mysteriously communicated that +Miss Munch's interest in the event was chargeable to her hopes. It +seemed impossible to Miss Munch that any one but herself could succeed +to the vacant post of stenographer-in-chief. + +At precisely eleven o'clock the buzzer on Claire Robson's desk hummed +three times. This announced that she was wanted by Mr. Flint. She +gathered her note-book and pencils and answered the call. + +Mr. Flint was busy at the telephone when Claire entered the private +office. She seated herself at the flat oak table in the center of the +room. + +Mr. Flint's office bore all the conventional signs of +business--commissions of authority from insurance companies, state +licenses in oak frames, an oil-painting of Thomas Sawyer Flint, the +founder of the firm, over a fireplace that maintained its useless +dignity in spite of the steam-radiator near the window. On his desk was +the inevitable picture of his wife framed in silver, a hand-illumined +platitude of Stevenson, an elaborate set of desk paraphernalia in beaten +brass that bore little evidence of service. In two green-glazed bowls of +Japanese origin, roses from Mr. Flint's garden at Yolanda scattered +faint pink petals on the Smyrna rug. These flowers were the only +concession to esthetics that Mr. Flint indulged. In spite of a masculine +distaste for carrying flowers, hardly a day went by when he did not +appear at the office with a huge harvest of blossoms from his country +home. + +Claire was bending over, intent on picking up the crumpled rose-petals, +when Mr. Flint finally spoke. She straightened herself slowly. Her +unhurried movements had a certain grace that did not escape the man +opposite her. She tossed the bruised leaves into a waste-basket and +reached for her pencil. Her heart was pounding, but she faced Mr. Flint +with a clear, direct gaze. + +"Miss Robson, of course you've heard all about the rumpus," Mr. Flint +was saying. "I had to fire Miss Whitehead.... I think you can fill the +bill." + +Claire rose without replying. Mr. Flint left his seat and crossed over +to her. + +"I hope," he said, flicking a thread from her shoulder, "that you're +game.... Some girls, of course, don't care a damn about getting on ... +especially if there's a Johnny somewhere in sight with enough cash in +his pocket for a marriage license." + +"I am very much taken by surprise," Claire faltered. "You see, the +change means a great deal to me." + +Mr. Flint moved closer. His manner was intimate and distasteful. +"Sometimes I think we business men ought to get more of a slant on our +employees.... You know what I mean, not exactly bothering about how many +lumps of sugar they take in their coffee, or their taste in after-dinner +cheese ... but, well, just how often they have to resole their boots and +turn the ribbons on their spring bonnets.... Now, in Miss Whitehead's +case.... But of course you're not interested in Miss Whitehead." + +"Why, I wouldn't say that," stammered Claire. Then, as she reached for +her shorthand book she said, more confidently: "To be quite frank, Mr. +Flint, I liked Miss Whitehead tremendously. She was so alive ... and +vivid." + +Flint beamed. "Do you know why I picked you instead of that Munch +dame?... It's because you had all the frills of a woman and none of the +nastiness. For instance, you wouldn't be bothered in the least if I took +a notion to overload the office with another pretty girl.... I've +watched you for some time. It has taken me six months to make up my mind +to fire Miss Whitehead and boost you into her job." + +He stood with an air of condescending arrogance, his thumbs bearing down +heavily on his trousers pockets, his broad fingers beating a +self-satisfied tattoo upon his thighs. Claire shrank nearer the table. +"You mean, Mr. Flint, that you dismissed Miss Whitehead merely to give +me her position?" + +Flint smiled. "Well, now you're coming down to brass-headed tacks. I'm +not keen on spelling out the whys and wherefores of anything I do.... +But one thing is certain enough--if Miss Munch had been the only +available candidate I _could_ have stood Miss Whitehead.... There ain't +much question about that." + +"Oh, Mr. Flint! I'm sorry!" + +He gave a wide guffaw. "That only makes you all the more of a corker!" +he answered, rubbing his hands together in narrow-eyed satisfaction. + +She escaped into the outer office, flushed, but with her head thrown +back in an attitude of instinctive defense, and the next instant she +literally ran into the arm of a man. + +"Why, Miss Robson, but this _is_ pleasant! I'm just dropping in to see +Mr. Flint." + +She drew back. Mr. Stillman stood smiling before her. + +Greetings and questions flowed with all the genial ease of one who is +never quite taken unawares. Claire, outwardly calm, felt overcome with +inner confusion. She passed rapidly to her desk and sat down. + +Miss Munch was upon her almost instantly. + +"Do _you_ know Ned Stillman?" Miss Munch asked, veiling her real +purpose. + +"Yes," replied Claire, with uncomfortable brevity. + +"I have a cousin who was housekeeper for his wife's father.... You know +about his wife, of course." + +Claire lifted her clear eyes in a startled glance that was almost as +instantly converted into a look of challenge. + +"Yes," she lied. + +Miss Munch hesitated, then plunged at once into the issue uppermost in +her mind. "It's too bad you've had to be bothered with Flint's +dictation, Miss Robson. It just happens I'm writing up a long +home-office report, otherwise I'm sure he wouldn't have annoyed you." + +Claire Robson fixed Miss Munch with a coldly polite stare. "You've made +a mistake, Miss Munch. Mr. Flint has given me no dictation." The speech +in itself was nothing, but Claire's tone gave it unmistakable point. +Miss Munch grew white and then flushed. She turned away without a word, +but Claire Robson knew that in a twinkling of an eye she had gained not +only an enemy, but an uncommon one. + + * * * * * + +That night Claire took an unusually long way round on her walk home. Her +path from the Falcon Insurance Company's office on California Street to +the Clay Street flat was never a direct one, first, because there were +hills to be avoided, and, second, because Claire found the streets at +twilight too full of charm for a rapid homeward flight. The year was on +the wane and the November days were coming to an early blackness. Claire +reveled in the light-flooded dusk of these late autumn evenings. To her, +the city became a vast theater, darkened suddenly for the purpose of +throwing the performers into sharper relief. Most clerks made their way +up Montgomery Street toward Market, but Claire climbed past the German +Bank to Kearny Street. She liked this old thoroughfare, struggling +vainly to pull itself up to its former glory. The Kearny Street crowd +was a varying quantity, frankly shabby or flashily prosperous, as far +south as Sutter Street, suddenly dignified and reserved for the two +blocks beyond. To-night Claire missed the direct appeal of the streets +lined with bright shops. They formed the proper background for her +broodings, but they scarcely entered into her mood. She could not have +said just what flight her mood was taking, or upon just which branch her +thought would alight. She was confused and puzzled and vaguely uneasy. +She had a sense that somehow, somewhere, a door had been opened and that +a strong, devastating wind was clearing the air and bringing dead things +to ground in a disorderly shower. She was stirred by twilights of +uneasiness. It was almost as if the monotonous truce of noonday had been +darkened by a huge, composite, masculine shadow, made up in some +mysterious way of the ridiculous Serbian and his blood-red dawn, and +this man Stillman, who had a wife, and Flint, with hands so ready to +flick threads from her sloping shoulders. Yesterday her outlook had been +peaceful and unhappy; to-day she felt stimulation of an impending +struggle. She was afraid, and yet she would not have turned back for one +swift moment. And suddenly the words of Mrs. Finnegan recurred, "I guess +we women are all alike." Were they? + +At which point she came upon a pastry-shop window and she went in and +bought a half-dozen French pastries. The thought of her mother's +pleasure at this unusual treat brought her in due time smiling to her +threshold. + +Mrs. Robson was not in her accustomed place at the head of the stairs; +about half-way up the long flight her voice sounded triumphantly: + +"Oh, Claire, do hurry and see what Gertrude has sent! Everything is +perfectly lovely." + +Claire quickened her pace and gained the cramped living-room. Thrown +about in a sort of joyous disorder, Gertrude Sinclair's finery quite lit +up the shabbiness. Hats, plumes, scraps of vivid silks, gilded slippers, +a spangled fan--their unrelated vividness struck Claire as fantastic as +a futurist painting. Her mother seemed suddenly young again. Claire +wondered whether, after the toll of sixty-odd years, she could be moved +to momentary youth by the mere sight of the prettiness that was +quickening her mother's pulse. + +Mrs. Robson held up a filmy evening gown of black net embroidered with a +rich design of dull gold. "Isn't this heavenly?" she demanded. "And it +will just fit you, Claire. I think Gertrude has spread herself this +time." + +"Yes, on finery, mother. But didn't she send anything sensible? What +possessed her to load us up with a lot of things we can never possibly +get a chance to wear?" + +Claire had not meant to be disagreeable, but there was rancor in her +voice. Mrs. Robson cast aside the dress with the carelessness of a +spoiled favorite; she always adapted her manner to the tone of her +background. + +"Claire Robson!" she cried, good-naturedly. "You're a regular old woman! +I'm sure _I_ haven't much to be cheerful about, but I just won't let +anything down me!... If I wanted to, I could give up right now. Where +would we have been, I'd like to know, if I hadn't held my head up? +Goodness knows, _my_ folks didn't help me. If they had had their way, +I'd been out manicuring people's nails and washing heads for a living. +And _you_ in an orphan-asylum! That's what my people did for me! As it +is, they shoved you out to work. What chance have you of meeting nice +people? No, Claire, I don't care how they have treated me, but they +might have given you a chance. I'll never forgive them for that!... I +thought last night when I was talking to Mrs. Condor and watching you +and Mr. Stillman how nice it would have been if.... Oh, that reminds me! +Who do you think has been here to-day?... Mrs. Towne! She came to +apologize about asking us to move our seats the other night. _She_ knows +the Stillmans well. The old people were pillars of the Second Church in +the 'sixties. I fancy he is dancing about that Mrs. Condor's heels a +bit. Of course, as Mrs. Towne said, _she_ wouldn't be likely to make +herself a permanent feature of Second Church entertainments. But now in +war-times _anything_ is possible. Mrs. Towne was telling me all about +Stillman and his wife. I _should_ have remembered, but somehow I forgot. +Get your things off and I'll tell you all about it." + +Claire handed her mother the package of pastries. "I heard about it +to-day," she said, coldly. + +"But Mrs. Towne knows the whole thing from A to Z," insisted Mrs. +Robson, genially. + +"I'm not interested in the details," Claire returned, doggedly. + +Mrs. Robson's face wore a puzzled, almost a harried, expression. Claire +moved away. Her mother gave a shrug and renewed her efforts to drag +further finery from the mysterious depths of the treasure-box. Her +daughter cast a last incurious glance back. The glow on Mrs. Robson's +face, which Claire had mistaken for youth, seemed now a thing hectic and +unpleasant, and gave an uncanny sense of a skeleton sitting among gauds +and baubles. + +A feeling of isolation swept Claire, such as she had never experienced. +The person who should have been closest suddenly had become a +stranger.... She went into her room and closed the door. + + + +CHAPTER III + + +The following week Claire was surprised to find a letter on her desk at +the office. The few written favors that came her way usually were +addressed to the Clay Street flat, so that she was puzzled by this +innovation and the unfamiliar handwriting. Glancing swiftly at the +signature, she was surprised to see the name "Lily Condor," scrawled +loosely at the foot of the note. It seemed that Mrs. Condor was giving a +little musicale in Ned Stillman's apartments on the following Friday +night, and, if one could believe such a thing, the lady implied that the +evening would scarcely be complete without the presence of Claire +Robson--or, to put it more properly, Claire Robson and her _mother_. + +As Claire had scarcely said a half-dozen words to Mrs. Condor on the +night of the Red Cross concert, this invitation seemed little short of +extraordinary. But, as Claire thought it over, she recalled that there +had been some general conversation about music, in which she had +admitted a discreet passion for this form of entertainment, even going +so far as to confess that she played the piano herself upon occasion. +Her first impulse, clinched by the familiar feminine excuse that she had +nothing suitable to wear, was to send her regrets. At once she thought +of the scorned finery that Gertrude Sinclair had included in her last +box, and the more she thought about it the more convinced she became +that she had no real reason for refusing. But a swift, strange regret +that her mother had been included in the invitation took the edge off +her anticipations. She tried to dismiss this feeling, but it grew more +definite as the morning progressed. + +For days Claire had been striking at the shackles of habit with a rancor +bred of disillusionment. She had been on tiptoe for new and vital +experiences, and yet, for any outward sign, her life bid fair to escape +the surge of any torrential circumstance. Particularly, at the office, +things had gone on smoothly. The other clerks had accepted Claire's +advancement without either protest or enthusiasm. Even Miss Munch had +veiled her resentment behind the saving trivialities of daily +intercourse. She had gone so far as to introduce Claire to her cousin, a +Mrs. Richards, who had come in at the noon hour for a new tatting +design. This cousin was a large, red-faced woman, with an aggressively +capable manner. She had the quick, ferret-like eyes of Miss Munch and +the loose mouth of a perpetual gossip. + +"She's the one I told you about the other day," Miss Munch had explained +later--"the housekeeper for _your friend_ Stillman's father-in-law." She +gave nasty emphasis to this trivial speech. + +Flint had been direct and business-like almost to the point of +bruskness. But Claire knew that such moods were not unusual, so she took +little stock in the ultimate significance of his restrained manner. + +Perhaps the most indefinable change had come over Claire's home life. +Her mother's unfailing string of trivial gossip, formerly not without a +certain interest, now scarcely held her to even polite attention. +Indeed, her self-absorbed silence, while Mrs. Robson poured out the +latest news about Mrs. Finnegan's second sister's husband's mother--who +was suddenly stricken with some incurable disease, made all the more +mysterious by the fact that its nature was not divulged--was so apparent +that her mother, goaded on to a mild exasperation, would ask, +significantly: + +"What's the matter, Claire? Have you a headache?" + +Mrs. Robson was never so happy as in the discovery of some one with a +mysterious disease, particularly if the victim's relatives were loath to +discuss the issue. + +"They think they fool me!" she would say, triumphantly, to Claire, "but +I guess I know what ails her.... Didn't her mother, and her uncle, and +her sister's oldest child die of consumption? I tell you it's in the +family. The last time I saw her she nearly coughed her head off." + +Not that Mrs. Robson was unsympathetic; brought face to face with +suffering, she blossomed with every impulsive tenderness, but her +experiences had confirmed her in pessimism, and every fresh tragedy +testified to the soundness of her faith. Her pride at diagnosing +people's ills and pronouncing their death-sentences was almost +professional. And she had an irritating way of making comments such as +this: + +"Well, Claire, I see that old Mrs. Talbot is dead at last!... I knew she +wouldn't live another winter. They'll feel terribly, no doubt; but, of +course, it is a great relief." + +Or: + +"Why, here is the death notice of Isaac Rice! I thought he died _years_ +ago. My, but he was a trial! What a blessing!" + +This was the type of conversation that Claire was finding either empty +of meaning or illuminating to the point of annoyance. What amazed her +was the fact that she had remained blind so long to the slightest of the +conversational food upon which she had been fed. + +Claire did not tell her mother about the invitation to Mrs. Condor's +musical evening. + +"I'll wait," she said to herself. "Thursday will be time enough." +Although why delay would prove advantageous was not particularly +apparent. + +On Wednesday night at the dinner-table, Mrs. Robson, as if still puzzled +at her daughter's altered mood, said, rather cautiously: + +"There's to be a reception at the church on Friday night." + +"For whom?" inquired Claire, with pallid interest. + +"I didn't quite catch the name.... Some woman back from France. She's +been nursing in one of the British hospitals. She's to get Red Cross +work started at the church. It seems San Francisco is a bit slow over +taking up the work, but, then, you know, we're poked off here in a +corner and I suppose we don't quite realize yet.... Anyway, Mrs. Towne +wants us to help with the coffee. She says you should have been in the +church-work long ago. You look so self-contained and efficient.... I +told her we would be there at half past seven and get the dishes into +shape." + +Claire's heart beat violently. "Friday night? I'm sorry, mother; I have +another engagement." + +"Another engagement? Why, Claire, how funny! You never said anything +about it. I don't know what to say to Mrs. Towne." + +Claire felt calm again. "Just tell her the truth." + +"But she'll think so strange that I didn't know ... that I...." + +"You shouldn't have spoken for me until you found out whether I was +willing." + +"Willing! _Willing!_ I didn't suppose you'd be anything else. I've been +trying to get you in with the right people at the church for the last +fifteen years. I've tried so hard...." + +"Yes, mother, I know," said Claire, patiently. "But don't you see? +That's just it. You've tried too hard." + +Mrs. Robson began to whimper discreetly. "How you do talk, Claire! I +declare I don't know what to make of it. I suppose you're bitter about +Mrs. Towne the other night. I felt so at first, but I can see now we +were at the wrong table. And, after all, everything came out +beautifully. We sat with Mr. Stillman, and that had a very good effect, +I can tell you. Especially when everybody saw us leave with him. Why, it +brought Mrs. Towne to her feet." + +"Yes, and that's the humiliating part of it." + +"Well, Claire, when you've lived as long as I have you won't be so +uppish about making compromises," flung back Mrs. Robson. "Of course, if +you've got another engagement, you've got another engagement, but +if...." + +"I wouldn't have gone, anyway. I'm through with that sort of thing." + +"Why, Claire, how can you! It's your duty, _now_!--with your country at +war--and ... and ... Even that dreadful Serbian the other night made +_that_ plain." + +"I'll go with you to church on Sundays, of course, but--" + +"What am _I_ to do?" wailed Mrs. Robson. "At least you might think of +me! I've not had much pleasure in my life, goodness knows, and now just +as I...." + +Mrs. Robson broke off abruptly on a flood of tears. Two weeks ago these +tears would have overwhelmed Claire. As it was, she sat calmly stirring +her tea, surprised and a little ashamed of her coldness. The truth was +that Claire Robson was feeling all the fanatical cruelty that comes with +sudden conviction. The forms of her new faith had hardened too quickly +and left outlines sharp and uncompromising. + +For years Claire had found shelter from the glare of middle-class +snobbery beating about her head, by shrinking into her mother's +inadequate shadow as a desert bird shrinks into the thin shadow of a dry +reed by some burned-out watercourse. Now a full noon of disillusionment +had annihilated this shadow and given her the courage of necessity. And +there was something more than courage--there was an eagerness to stand +alone in the commonplace words with which she sought to temper her +refusal to assist at the coming church reception: + +"I can't see any good reason, mother, why you shouldn't go and help Mrs. +Towne.... What have my plans to do with it?" + +To which her mother answered: + +"I do so hate to be seen at such places alone, Claire." + +Claire made no reply. She did not want to give her mother's indecision a +chance to crystallize into a definite stand. She knew by long experience +that if this happened it would be fatal. But in a swift flash of +decision Claire made up her mind for one thing--she would either go to +Mrs. Condor's evening alone or she would send her regrets. + + + +CHAPTER IV + + +By a series of neutral subterfuges and tactful evasions Claire Robson +won her point--she went to the Condor musicale at Ned Stillman's +apartments alone, and on that same night her mother wended a rather +grudging way to the Second Presbyterian Church reception. + +Acting under her mother's advice, Claire timed her arrival for nine +o'clock, an hour which seemed incredibly late to one schooled in the +temperate hour of church socials. Mrs. Condor herself opened the door in +answer to Claire's ring. + +"Oh, my dear, but I _am_ glad to see you!" burst from the elder woman as +she waved her in. But she did not so much as mention the absence of Mrs. +Robson, and Claire was divided between a feeling of wounded family +pride, and gratification at the intuition which had warned her to leave +her mother to her own devices. More people arrived on Claire's heels, +and in the lively bustle she was left to shed her wraps in one of the +bedrooms. Her heart was pounding with reaction at her outwardly +self-contained entrance. She let her rather shabby cloak slip to the +floor, revealing a strange, new Claire resplendent in the +gold-embroidered gown that had once so stirred her rancor. For a brief +instant she had an impulse to gather the discarded wrap securely about +her and make a quick exit. A swooning fear at the thought of meeting a +roomful of people assailed her. But there succeeded a courage born of +the realization that they all would be strangers. With a sense of +bravado she stepped out into the entrance hall again. + +Ned Stillman came forward. She halted and waited for him. His face had +lit with a sudden pleasure, which told Claire that for once in her life +her presence roused positive interest. He inquired after her health, why +her mother had not come, whether the abominable fog was clearing. His +easy formality put her, as usual, completely at ease. + +It was only when he asked her, with the most inconsequential tone in the +world, "whether she could read music at sight" that a sinking fear came +over her. And yet she found courage enough to be truthful and say yes. + +"That's fine!" he returned. "Our accompanist hasn't come yet and we want +to start off with a song or two." + +From this moment on the evening impressed itself on Claire in a series +of blurred hectic pictures.... She knew that Stillman was leading her +toward the piano, but the living-room and its toned lights gave her a +curious sense of unreality. She seated herself before the white keyboard +and folded her hands with desperate resignation while she waited for +Stillman to dictate the next move. + +"My dear Mrs. Condor," Stillman explained, as that lady came up to them, +"we sha'n't have to wait for Flora Menzies. Miss Robson will accompany +you." + +Claire sat unmoved. She was beyond so trivial a sensation as anxiety. +Stillman drifted away; Mrs. Condor began to run through the sheet music +lying on the piano. + +"Of course you know Schumann, Miss Robson. Shall we start at once? How +is the light? If you moved your stool a little--so. There, that's +better." + +Claire did not reply. She looked at the music before her. She was +conscious that it was a piece she knew, although its name registered no +other impression. She began to play. The opening bars almost startled +her. She felt a hush fall over the noisy room. Her fingers stumbled--she +caught the melody again with staggering desperation. Mrs. Condor was +singing.... The room faded; even the sound of Mrs. Condor's voice became +remote. Claire had a desire to laugh. + +All manner of strange, disconnected thoughts ran through her head. She +remembered a doll she had broken years ago and buried with great pomp +and circumstance, a pink parasol that had been given her as a child, the +gigantic and respectable wig which had incased the head of her old +German music-teacher, Frau Pfaff. And as she played on and on the music +further evoked the memory of this worthy lady who had given her services +in exchange for lodgings in an incredibly small hall bedroom, with +certain privileges at the kitchen stove. And pictures of this irritating +woman rose before her, stewing dried fruit, or preparing sour beef, or +borrowing the clothes boiler for a perennial wash. What compromises her +mother had made to give her child the gentle accomplishments that Mrs. +Robson associated with breeding! It came to Claire that it was almost +cruel to have denied this mother a share in the triumphs of that +evening. And with that, she realized that Mrs. Condor had ceased +singing. A hum broke loose, followed by applause. Claire grew faint. Her +head began to swirl. She clutched the piano stool and by sheer terror at +the thought of creating a scene she managed to keep her consciousness as +she felt Mrs. Condor's hand upon her shoulder and heard a voice that +just missed being patronizing: + +"My dear, you did it beautifully." + +Claire longed to burst into tears.... + +The concert was over shortly after eleven o'clock. Besides Mrs. Condor, +there had been a 'cellist, very masculine in his looks but rather +forceless in his playing, and a young, frail girl who brought great +breadth and vigor to her interpretations at the piano. But Claire was +really too excited for calm enjoyment. Supper followed--creamed minced +chicken and extraordinarily thin sandwiches, and a dry, pale wine that +Claire found at first rather distasteful. Claire sat with a little group +composed of Mrs. Condor, Ned Stillman, a fashionable young man, Phil +Edington, who frankly confessed boredom at all things musical except +one-steps and fox-trots, and two or three artistic-looking souls who +pretended to be quite shocked by young Edington's frankness. + +Conversation veered naturally to the subject of the war. Edington had +tried for a commission in an officers' training-camp and failed. He was +extraordinarily frank about it all, and good-natured at the chaffing +that Mrs. Condor and Stillman threw at him. + +"I'm going to wait now and be drafted," he announced. "As long as I +failed to make a high grade I want to begin at the bottom and see the +whole picture." + +Claire rather waited for a word from Stillman as to his convictions on +the subject. Of course one could see that he was over the draft age, +still.... For the most part she was silent, but happy and content. By +contributing her share to the evening's entertainment she had justified +her presence. Wine as a factor in midnight suppers was a new but not a +revolutionary experience to Claire Robson, but she gasped a bit when the +maid passed cigarettes to the ladies. And yet she felt a delicious sense +of being a party to something quite daring and _outré_, although she did +not have either courage or skill to enjoy one of the slender, +gold-tipped delights. + +The time for departure finally came. Claire rose reluctantly. Mrs. +Condor, slipping one arm in Phil Edington's and the other in Claire's, +sauntered with them toward the entrance hall. + +"I say," ventured Edington as Stillman caught up to the group. "What's +the matter with just us four dropping down to the Palace for a whirl or +two?" + +Claire stared. She had not grown used to the novelty of being included, +but any instinctive objections to the plan were promptly silenced by +Mrs. Condor's enthusiastic approval. + +They arrived at the Palace Hotel shortly before midnight. The Rose Room +was crowded. All the tables seemed filled, and Claire had a moment of +disappointment caused by the fear that their party would be unable to +gain admittance. But young Edington's presence soon set any uneasiness +on that score at rest, and a place was evolved with deftness and +despatch. The novelty of the situation to Claire was nothing compared +with her matter-of-fact acceptance of it. She was neither self-conscious +nor timid. Her three companions had a way of tacitly including her in +even their trivial chatter that was unmistakable, though hard to define. +She felt that she was one of them, and she blossomed in this strange new +warmth like a chilled blossom at the final approach of a belated spring. +All evening her starved sense of self-importance had been feeding +greedily upon the compliments that had come her way. There had been her +mother's rather apologetic words of approval at her appearance, to begin +with, then Mrs. Condor's appreciation at the piano, and finally a word +dropped by one of the women who had shared a mirror with her at the hour +of departure. + +"How do you manage your hair, Miss Robson?" the other had said, digging +viciously at her shifting locks with a hairpin. "I do declare you're the +only woman in the room that looks presentable." + +But it was Edington's words to Stillman while they stood waiting for the +hotel attendants to prepare the table that brought a quickened beat to +her heart. The conversation was low and not meant for her ears, but her +senses were too sharpened to miss Edington's furtive words as he +whispered to Stillman: + +"Where did ... amazing.... Miss Robson?" + +Claire did not catch the reply which must have also been something of a +query, but she heard Edington continue. + +"Well ... a little too silent, I must admit.... No, I don't dislike 'em +that way ... but I'm afraid of them." + +Stillman answered with a low laugh. + +They sat down. Edington ordered wine. The crowd at the tables was rather +a mixed one. There was plenty of elaborate gowning among the groups of +formal diners who had prolonged their feasting into the supper hour, but +many casuals, drifting in for a few drinks and a dance or two, robbed +the scene of its earlier brilliance. + +The orchestra struck up a one-step. Claire denied Stillman the dance, +explaining that she knew none of the new steps, and he whirled away with +Mrs. Condor. Edington, robbed of his chance, pouted unashamed. + +"I say, Miss Robson, can't you do a one-step--really? There isn't +anything to it! Come on--try; I'll pull you through." + +Claire's knowledge of dancing was instinctive, but not a matter of much +practice, yet his distress was so comic that she relented. She wondered +if he could feel her trembling as they swung into the dance. She +stumbled once or twice from timidity, but Edington guided unerringly. +Half-way round she suddenly struck the proper swing. + +"There--that's it," cried Edington, enthusiastically. "Now you've got +it! Fine!" + +His praise mounted to her brain like a heady wine, and suddenly, in the +twinkling of an eye, all the repressed youth within her awoke with a +sweet and terrible joy.... They danced madly, perfectly, the rhythm +entering into them like something at once fluid and flaming. Her ecstasy +awoke a vague response in her partner, who bent forward as he kept +repeating, monotonously: + +"And you said you couldn't, Miss Robson! Fancy, you said you couldn't!" + +The music stopped abruptly with a crash. Some of the dancers made their +way leisurely back among the tables, but the most of them wandered about +the polished' floor, clapping insistent hands for an encore. In this +brief interlude, groups arrived and departed. The musicians lifted their +instruments to chin and lip, struck an opening chord; couples began to +whirl and glide. Claire Robson, palpitant and eager, followed Edington's +lead, but almost at the first moment of their rhythmic flight they came +crashing into the overcoated bulk of a man cutting across the corner of +the ballroom in an attempt at a swift exit. A smothered protest escaped +Edington, and Claire detached herself from her partner long enough to +see the offender bow very low and hear his apology in a voice and manner +that seemed curiously familiar: + +"I beg your pardon. Pray forgive me! I should have known better." + +In the twinkling of an eye the interrupted dancers were sweeping on +again, and the apologetic stranger, hat in hand, turning for a farewell +look at the pair. Claire Robson felt an up-leap of the heart; a fresh +ecstasy quickened her. It was the Serbian! + +They finished the dance almost opposite their table and were met by a +patter of applause from Mrs. Condor and Stillman, who were already +seated. + +Claire was flaming with embarrassment as she faced Stillman. + +"I hope you'll understand, Mr. Stillman," she faltered. "But Mr. +Edington seemed willing to risk my ignorance." + +Mrs. Condor turned Claire's plaintive apology into a covert attack upon +Stillman's courage, but Stillman rescued Claire from further confusion +by laughing back: + +"Well, I'll have my revenge on Edington. I'll grant him all the +one-steps, but he can't have any of the waltzes, Miss Robson." + +The waiter began to pour out the champagne. Claire settled back in her +seat with a feeling of delightful languor. The dance had released all +the pent-up emotions that a night of vivid sensations had called into +her life. She had come into the Rose Room of the Palace Hotel quivering +in the leash of a restrained enjoyment; it had taken the quick lash of +opportunity to send her spirits hurtling forward in wild and headlong +abandon. She lifted her wine-glass in answer to the upraised glasses of +her companions, and the thought flashed over her that it would be +impossible for her to have quite her old vision again. In every life +there are culminating moments of joy or sorrow which either clear or +dim the horizon, and Claire felt that such moment was now hers. + +Stillman rose promptly in his seat at the first strains of the waltz, +which proved to be the next number. Claire stepped out upon the floor +with confidence. + +She did not need any word of reassurance this time to tell her that her +dancing was more than acceptable, and, true to her brief experience with +Stillman, he refrained from voicing the obvious. They had begun the +dance promptly and for the first whirl about they had the floor almost +to themselves. Claire's discreet sidelong glances detected many +approving nods in their direction; people were noticing them and making +favorable comment.... The floor filled, but even in the crowd Claire had +a sense that she and her partner were standing out distinctly. + +The very nature of the waltz contrasted sharply with the one-step. There +was less abandon and more art. The first dance had expressed a primitive +emotion; the present slow and measured whirl a discriminating sensation. +And slowly, under the spell of Stillman's calm and yet strangely glowing +manner, Claire recovered her poise. All night she had been inhaling +every fresh delight rapturously with the closed eyes and open senses +that one brings to the enjoyment of blossoms heavy with perfume. It took +Stillman's influence to rob the hours of their swooning delight by +recapturing her self-consciousness. Things became at once orderly and +reasonable. And as he led her back to their table she felt the flame +within cease its flarings and become steady, with a pleasurable glow. +For a moment she felt uneasy, as if she were being trapped by something +sweetfully insidious. Slowly, almost cautiously, she withdrew her arm +from his. He made no comment; it was doubtful if he really noticed her +recoil. + + * * * * * + +Long past its appointed time the hall light in the Robson flat continued +to burn dimly. Mrs. Robson, sleepless and a bit anxious, waited alertly +for the sound of Claire's key in the door. The welcome click came +finally, succeeded by the unmistakable slam of an automobile door and +the sharp, quick note of a machine speeding up. + +"She's come home in Stillman's car," flashed through Mrs. Robson's mind, +as she sat up in bed. At that moment Mrs. Finnegan's cuckoo clock, +sounding distinctly through the thin flooring, warbled twice with a +voice of friendly betrayal. "Mercy! it's two o'clock!" she muttered. "I +wonder if Mrs. Finnegan is awake?... I do hope she heard the +automobile!..." + +Seated at the foot of her mother's bed, Claire tried her best to give a +satisfactory report of the evening, but she found that she had +overlooked most of the details that her mother found interesting. Who +was there? What did Mrs. Condor wear? Did they have an elaborate +spread?--the questions rippled on in an endless flow. + +Under the acceleration of Claire's recital, Mrs. Robson found her +experiences at the church reception left far behind. Even with scant +details, Claire had managed to evolve a fascinating picture of a life +robbed sufficiently of puritanism to be properly piquant. There was a +tang of the swift, immoral, fascinating 'seventies in Claire's still +cautious reference to champagne and cigarettes. It was impossible for +any San Franciscan who had lived through those splendid madcap bonanza +days to deny the lure of gay wickedness. At least it was hard to keep +one's eyes on a prayer-book while the car of pleasure rattled by. And a +coffee-and-cake social was, after all, a rather tame experience in the +face of beverages more sparkling and eatables distinctly enticing.... Of +course, if Claire had been introduced to any of these questionable +delights by anybody short of a survivor of the Stillman clan, Mrs. +Robson might have had a misgiving. As it was, she was not above a +certain forewarning sense that made her say with an air of inconsequence +as Claire finished her recital: + +"Mrs. Towne tells me that there is a chance that Mr. Stillman's wife may +get well. She's in a private sanitarium, at Livermore, you know." She +stopped to draw up the bedclothes higher. "I do hope it's so!... But I'm +always skeptical about _crazy_ people ever amounting to anything again. +Seems to me they're better off dead." + + + +CHAPTER V + + +For Claire Robson, there followed after the memorable Condor-Stillman +musicale a period of slack-water. It seemed as if a deadly stagnation +was to poison her existence, so sharp and emphasized was her boredom. On +the other hand, Mrs. Robson seemed to have contrived, from years of +living among arid pleasures, the ability to conserve every happiness +that she chanced upon to its last drop. Claire's invitation to be one of +a distinguished group fed her vanity long after her daughter had outworn +the delights of retrospection. The memory of this incident filled Mrs. +Robson's thoughts, her dreams, her conversation. Gradually, as the days +dragged by, bit by bit, she gleaned detached details of what had +transpired, weaving them into a vivid whole, for the entertainment of +herself and the amazement of her neighbor, Mrs. Finnegan. + +Formerly Mrs. Finnegan's information regarding what went on in exclusive +circles was confined to society dramas on the screen and the Sunday +supplement. The personal note which Mrs. Robson brought to her recitals +was a new and pleasing experience. After listening to the authentic +gossip of Mrs. Robson, Mrs. Finnegan would return to her threshold with +a sense of having shared state secrets. On such occasions Mrs. Robson's +frankness had almost a challenge in it; she exaggerated many details and +concealed none. + +"Yes," she would repeat, emphatically, "they served cigarettes along +with the wine. They _always_ do." + +"Well, Mrs. Robson," Mrs. Finnegan inevitably returned, "far be it from +me to criticize what your daughter's friends do. But I don't approve of +women smoking." + +As a matter of fact, neither did Mrs. Robson, but she felt in duty bound +to resent Mrs. Finnegan's narrow attacks upon society. + +"Well, Mrs. Finnegan, that's only because you're not accustomed to it. +Now, if you had ever...." + +"Did Claire smoke?" + +"Why, of course _not_! How can you ask such a thing? I hope I've brought +my daughter up decently, Mrs. Finnegan." + +And with that, Mrs. Robson would deftly switch to a less exciting detail +of the Condor-Stillman musicale, before her neighbor had a chance to +pick flaws in her logic. But sooner or later the topic would again verge +on the controversial. Usually at the point where the scene shifted from +Ned Stillman's apartments to the Palace Hotel, Mrs. Finnegan's pug nose +was lifted with tentative disapproval, as she inquired: + +"How many did you say went down to the Palace?" + +"Only four--Mr. Stillman, Claire, Mrs. Condor, and a young fellow named +Edington." + +"I suppose _that_ Mrs. Condor was the chaperon. Finnegan knows her well! +She used to hire hacks when Finnegan was in the livery business years +ago. She's a gay one, I can tell you. When only the steam-dummy ran out +to the Cliff House...." + +"That's nothing. Everybody who was anybody had dinners at the Cliff +House in those days. I remember how my father...." + +"Yes, Mrs. Robson, maybe you do! But I'll bet _you_ never went to such a +place without your husband ... and ... with a _strange_ man." + +Mrs. Robson never had, and she would tell Mrs. Finnegan so decidedly. +This always had the effect of switching the subject again and Mrs. +Robson found her desire to know the real details of Mrs. Condor's +questionable gaieties offered up on the altar of class loyalty. For it +never occurred to Mrs. Robson to doubt that her social exile had nothing +to do with the inherent rights of her position. + +When everything else in the way of an irritating program failed to rouse +Mrs. Robson's dignified ire, her neighbor fell back upon the fact that +Stillman was a married man. Mrs. Finnegan really worshiped Mrs. Robson +to distraction, but she had a natural combative tendency that was at +odds with even her loyalty. + +"Mr. Stillman is a married man," Mrs. Finnegan would insist, doggedly. +"And I don't approve of married men taking an interest in young girls. +Who knows?--he may spoil your daughter's chances." + +This statement always had the effect of dividing Mrs. Robson against +herself. She resented Mrs. Finnegan's insinuations concerning Stillman, +because it was not in her nature to be anything but partizan, and at the +same time she was mollified by her neighbor's recognition of the fact +that Claire had such things as chances. She always managed cleverly at +this point by saying, patronizingly: + +"Why, how you talk, Mrs. Finnegan! Mr. Stillman is just like an old +friend. Not that we've known _him_ so long ... but the family, you know +... they're old-timers. Everybody knows the Stillmans! Really one +couldn't want a better friend." + +Thus did Mrs. Robson take meager and colorless realities and expand them +into things of blossoming promise. She was almost creative in the +artistry she brought to these transmutations. In the end she convinced +_herself_ of their existence and she was quite sure that Mrs. Finnegan +shared equally in the delights of her fancy. + +Meanwhile November passed, and the first weeks of December crowded the +old year to its death. November had been shrouded in clammy fogs, but no +rain had fallen, and everybody began to have the restless feeling +engendered by the usual summer drought in California prolonged beyond +its appointed season. The country and the people needed rain. Claire, +always responsive to the moods of wind and weather, longed for the +cleansing flood to descend and wash the dust-drab town colorful again. +She awoke one morning to the delicious thrill of the moisture-laden +southeast wind blowing into her room and the warning voice of her mother +at her bedroom door calling to her: + +"You'd better put on your thick shoes, Claire! We're in for a storm." + +She leaped out of bed joyously and hurried with her dressing. + +As she walked down to work the warm yet curiously refreshing wind flung +itself in a fine frenzy over the gray city. Dark-gray clouds were +closing in from the south, and in the east an ominous silver band of +light marked the sullen flight of the sun. People were scampering about +buoyantly, running for street-cars, chasing liberated hats, battling +with billowing skirts. It seemed as if the promise of rain had revived +laughter and motion to an extraordinary degree. At the office this +ecstasy of spirit persisted; even Miss Munch came in hair awry and +blowsy, her beady eyes almost laughing. + +Mr. Flint had not been to the office for two days. A sniffling cold had +kept him at home. Claire had rather looked for him to-day, and had +prepared herself for a flood of accumulated dictation. But the threat of +dampness evidently dissuaded him, for the noon hour came and went and +Mr. Flint did not put in an appearance. At about three o'clock in the +afternoon a long-distance call came on the telephone for Miss Robson. +Claire answered. Flint was on the other end of the wire. He wanted to +know if she could come at once over to Yolanda and take several pages of +dictation. His cold was uncertain and he might not get out for the rest +of the week. He realized that it was something of an imposition on her +good nature, but she would be doing him a great favor if.... She +interrupted him with her quick assent and he finished: + +"I'll have the car at the station, and of course you'll stay for +dinner." + +Claire hung up the receiver and looked at her watch. It was just half +after three. The next ferryboat connecting at Sausalito with the +electric train for Yolanda left at three-forty-five. She had no time to +lose; it was a good ten minutes' walk from the office to the ferry and +little to be gained by taking a street-car. She managed her preparations +for departure successfully, but in the end she had to ask Miss Munch to +telephone her mother. Miss Munch assented with an alarmingly sweet +smile. + +Claire walked briskly down California Street toward the ferry-building. +No rain had fallen, but the air was full of ominous promise. The wind +was even brisker than it had been in the morning, and its breath almost +tropically moist. + +"At sundown it will simply pour," thought Claire, as she exchanged fifty +cents for a ticket to Yolanda. + +She presented her ticket at the entrance to the waiting-room and passed +in. The passageway to the boat was already open; she went at once and +found a sheltered corner outside on the upper deck. A strong sea was +running and already the ferryboat was plunging and straining like a +restless bloodhound in leash. The air was full of screaming gulls and +the clipped whistling of restless bay craft. Claire was so intent on all +this elemental agitation that she took no notice of the people about +her, but as the boat slid lumberingly out of the slip she was recalled +by a voice close at hand saying: + +"Why, Miss Robson, who would think of seeing you here at this hour!" + +Claire turned and discovered Miss Munch's cousin sitting beside her, +intent on the inevitable tatting. + +"Oh, Mrs. Richards, how stupid of me! Have you been here long?" + +"About ten minutes. But I get so interested in my work I never have eyes +for anything else. How do you put in the time? A trip like this is so +tiresome!" + +Claire delved into her bag and brought out knitting-needles and an +unfinished sock. + +"I'm trying a hand at this," she admitted, holding her handiwork up +ruefully. "But I'm afraid I'm not very skilful." + +Mrs. Richards inspected the sock with critical disapproval. + +"Oh, well," she encouraged, "you'll learn ... practice makes perfect. +I've just finished a half-dozen pairs. I suppose I'm laying myself out +for a roast doing tatting in public _these_ war days! But it's restful +and I'm not one to pretend. As long as my conscience is clear I can +afford to be perfectly independent.... You don't make this trip every +night, do you?" + +"Oh my, no! I'm going over to Mr. Flint's to take some dictation. He's +home sick." + +"I saw Mrs. Flint and the children coming _off_ the boat just as I got +on." Mrs. Richards's voice took on a tone of casual directness. + +"You know Mrs. Flint?" + +"My dear girl, a trained nurse knows everybody--and everything about +them, too. You never get a real line on people until you live with +them. I've never nursed any of the Flint family, but I wouldn't have to +to get their reputation--or perhaps I should say, old Flint's." + +"_Old_ Flint's?" echoed Claire. + +"Well, of course he isn't so awfully old, but men like him always give +that impression. They're so awfully wise--about _some_ things. I _was_ +so relieved when Gertie didn't get that dreadful Miss Whitehead's +place. Being in the general office is bad enough, but in his _private_ +office...." Mrs. Richards lifted and dropped her tatting-filled hands +significantly. + +Claire felt the blood rush to her face. "I'm in the private office, Mrs. +Richards.... No doubt you forgot it." + +"Well now, you know I _had_ ... for the moment. But with a girl like you +it's different. Some women can handle men, but Gertie would be so +helpless!" + +The humor of Mrs. Richards's remark saved the situation for Claire. She +changed the subject deliberately. But somehow, with the conversation +forced from the particular to the general, Miss Munch's cousin lost +interest, and by the time the boat had passed Alcatraz Island Claire was +deep in her thoughts again and the other woman following the measured +flight of the tatting-shuttle with strained attention. + +The boat was romping through the stiff sea like a playful porpoise, +dipping and plunging. A half-score of adventuresome gulls were still +following in the foam-churned wake. In the face of all the pitching +about, Mrs. Richards had quite a battle to direct her shuttle to any +efficient purpose, and Claire was almost amused at the grim +determination she brought to the performance. + +Presently a warning whistle from the ferryboat betrayed the fact that +they were nearing Sausalito. Mrs. Richards began to gather up her +numerous bundles, and Claire and she made their way down the narrow +stairs to the lower deck. Their progress was slow and uncertain. The +southeaster was tearing across the open spaces and bending everything +before it; the lumbering boat dipped sideward in a stolid encounter with +its adversary. + +"Mercy! What a night!" gasped Mrs. Richards, clutching at Claire's arm. + +A gust of wind struck them with its force just as they reached the lower +deck. Mrs. Richards staggered and wrestled vainly with tatting-bag and +bundles and a refractory skirt. For the moment both women were stalled +in a desperate effort to retain their equilibrium. + +"Come!" gasped Claire. "Let's get over there in the shelter of that +automobile." + +They made the leeward side of the automobile in question, and while Mrs. +Richards began to recover her roughly handled dignity Claire turned her +attention to the car. It was a huge dark-red affair, evidently fresh +from the shop. Claire knew none of the fine points of automobiles, but +this one had unmistakable evidences of distinction. She was peering in +at its opulent depths when who should surprise her but Ned Stillman. + +"My dear Miss Robson!" he cried, in a tone of delight, as he faced her +from the opposite side of the car. "What do you think of it?" + +"Yours?" she queried. + +"Just out of the shop to-day. I couldn't wait until it cleared. I just +had to get out with it. And this kind of weather always puts me up on my +toes. Where are you going--to Ross? If you are, don't bother with the +train. Come along with me." + +He circled about the machine and came up to her with a frank, +outstretched hand. "Oh, I beg your pardon!" he murmured as Mrs. Richards +came into view. + +Claire began an introduction, but Mrs. Richards cut in with her odd, +challenging way. + +"Oh, _I_ know Mr. Stillman! But I guess he's forgotten _me_. It's been +some years, of course. At Mr. Faville's--your _wife's_ father's house." + +Stillman paled for the briefest of moments, but he recovered himself +cleverly. "Mrs. Richards--of course! How do you do? It _has_ been some +years." + +"I'm going to Mr. Flint's--at Yolanda," said Claire, "to take some +dictation. He's been ill, you know." + +"Ill? No, I hadn't heard it. Nothing serious, I hope." + +"Not serious enough to keep Mrs. Flint at home, anyway," volunteered +Mrs. Richards, in her characteristically disagreeable way. + +"Mrs. Richards saw Mrs. Flint and the children coming off the boat...." + +"As I got on," interrupted the lady again. + +"Oh, indeed, is that so?" Claire fancied that Stillman's tone held +something more than polite acceptance of what he had just heard. "I can +take you ladies to Yolanda if you'd like a spin in the open better than +a stuffy ride in the train." + +"Thank you," Mrs. Richards returned, "but I get off at Sausalito. I've +no doubt Miss Robson will be delighted." + +"I think I'd better not," said Claire. "Mr. Flint is sending his car to +the train for me. I shouldn't want to change my program and cause +confusion. But I'd like nothing better! The air is so bracing!" + +"You can excuse _me_!" put in Mrs. Richards, moving toward the forward +deck. "It's going to pour in less than ten minutes. I'm not one of those +amphibious creatures who like to get wringing wet just for the fun of +it!" + +Stillman lifted his hat. Claire stood for a moment undecided whether to +follow Mrs. Richards or remain for a chat with Stillman. + +"I'm an awful fool, I suppose," Stillman smiled at Claire, "bringing the +car out on a night like this. But the truth is Edington promised to +catch this boat and I wanted him to try out the new plaything. I might +have known he wouldn't make it. We're running over for dinner with +Edington's sister." + +At this moment the boat crashed clumsily against the Sausalito +ferry-slip, and in the sudden confusion of landing Claire was swept +along without further ado. + +She looked back. Stillman waved a genial good-by to her. She felt glad +that he was behind her, in a vague, impersonal, thoroughly inexplainable +way. + + + +CHAPTER VI + + +Claire was disappointed that Mrs. Flint was not to be at home. She had +caught glimpses of her now and then coming into the office and she was +interested in the hope of seeing her at closer range. Mrs. Flint was a +rather frumpish individual, who always gave the impression of pieced-out +dressmaking. + +"She must subscribe to the _Ladies' Home Journal_," Nellie Whitehead had +commented one day. "You know that 'go-up-into-the-garret-and-get-five- +yards-of-grandmother's-wedding-gown' column. Well, she's a walking ad +for it. She's no raving beauty, but if she would throw out her chest and +chuck those flat-heeled clogs of hers, and put a marcel wave in her +hair, maybe the old man would sit up and take notice." + +To which Miss Munch had replied: + +"Well, she's a mighty sweet woman, anyway!" in a tone calculated to +freeze the irrepressible Nellie Whitehead into silence. + +"Who says she isn't? And at that, a good tailor-made suit and a +decent-looking hat won't spoil her disposition any...." + +The children, too, were what Nellie Whitehead had termed "perfect guys." +On warm days Mrs. Flint would drag these two daughters of hers into the +office, dressed in plaid suits and velveteen hats; and when a cold north +wind blew it seemed inevitable that they would appear in gay and airy +costumes up to their knees, with impossible straw bonnets trimmed with +daisies and faded cornflowers, reminiscent of the white-leghorn-hat era. + +"Men don't marry women for their clothes," Miss Munch used to say, +challengingly, to Nellie. + +"Oh, don't they, indeed! Well, I've lived longer than sixteen and a half +years and I've noticed that it's the up-to-the-minute dame that gets +away with it and holds onto it every time, just the same. And any woman +silly enough to work the rag-bag game when her husband can afford seven +yards of taffeta and a Butterick pattern is a fool!" + +Claire knew women who looked dowdy on dress-parade and yet managed to be +quite charming in their own houses. She was wondering whether this might +not be Mrs. Flint's case; anyway, she had hoped for a chance to decide +this point, and now Mrs. Flint was not at home. + +As she settled into her matting-covered seat in the train she began to +wonder just who _would_ be home at the Flint establishment. And she +thought suddenly of the disagreeable emphasis that Mrs. Richards had +seen fit to give the fact that Mrs. Flint was bound cityward. At this +stage she became lost in discovering so many points of contact between +Mrs. Richards and her cousin, Miss Munch. Then the train started with a +quick lurch, and a view of the rapidly darkening landscape claimed her +utterly. + +Claire always took a childish delight in watching the panorama of the +countryside unroll swiftly before the space-conquering flight of a +train. And to-night the quick close of the December day warned her to +make the most of her opportunity. The wind was whipping the upper +reaches of the bay into a shallow fury, and the water in turn was +beating against the slimy mud and swallowing it up in gray, futile +anger. This part of the ride just out of Sausalito was always more or +less depressing unless a combination of full tide and vivid sunshine +gave its muddy stretches the enlivening grace of sky-blue reflections. +Worm-eaten and tottering piles, abandoned hulks, half-swamped skiffs, +all the water-logged dissolution of stagnant shore lines the world over, +flashed by, to be succeeded by the fresher green of channel-cut marshes. +The hills were wind-swept, huddling their scant oak covering into the +protecting folds of shallow canons. At intervals, clumps of +eucalyptus-trees banded together or drew out in long, thin, soldier-like +lines. + +Presently it began to rain. There was no preliminary patter, but the +storm broke suddenly, hurling great gray drops of moisture against the +windows. Claire withdrew from any further attempt to watch the whirling +landscape. It was now quite dark, the short December day dying even more +suddenly under a black pall of lowering clouds. + +She began to have distinctly uncomfortable thoughts about her visit to +the Flints'. But the more uncomfortable her thoughts became, the more +reason she brought to bear for conquering them. Surely one was not to be +persuaded into a panic by any such person as Mrs. Richards! And by the +time the brakeman announced the train's approach to Yolanda, Claire had +recovered her common sense. What of it if Mrs. Flint had gone to town? +There must be other women in the household--at least a maid. It was +absurd! The train stopped and Claire got off. + +Flint's car was waiting, and Jerry Donovan, the chauffeur, stood with a +dripping umbrella almost at Claire's elbow as she hopped upon the +platform. + +As they swished through the inky blackness, Claire said to Jerry, with +as inconsequential an air as she could muster: + +"I thought I saw Mrs. Flint get off the boat in town. But I guess I was +mistaken. She wouldn't be leaving Mr. Flint alone ... when he's ill." + +"Ill?" Jerry chuckled. "Well, he ain't dead by a long shot. Just a case +of sniffles, and a good excuse for hitting the booze. He's in prime +condition, I can tell you." + +Claire had never seen Flint in "prime condition," but she had it from +Nellie Whitehead that there were moments when the gentleman in question +could "go some," to use her predecessor's precise terms. + +"About twice a year," Nellie had once confided to Claire, "the old boy +starts in to cure a cold. I helped him cure one ... but _never_ again!" + +Jerry's observations aroused fresh anxiety, but they did not settle the +issue for Claire. She felt that she could not turn back at the eleventh +hour. There was nothing else for her to do but go through with the game. +Yet she still hoped for the best. + +"_Did_ Mrs. Flint go to town to-day?" she finally asked, point-blank. + +"Sure thing," said Jerry, swinging the car past the Flint gateway. + +Claire refused to be totally lacking in faith. + +"There must be a maid," flashed through her mind, as Jerry stopped the +car and swung down to help her out. + +A Japanese boy threw open the door as they scrambled up the rain-soaked +steps. But the fine, orderly, Colonial interior reassured Claire. The +few country homes she had seen had been of the rambling, unrelated +bungalow type, with paneled redwood walls either stained to a dismal +brown or quite frankly left to their rather characterless pink. This +home was different. Even the pungent oak logs crackling in the fireplace +did so with indefinable distinction. The general tone of the +surroundings was as little in keeping with the patchwork personality of +its mistress as one could imagine. It was as if the singular +completeness of Mrs. Flint's home left no time nor energy for a finished +individuality. Claire got all this in the briefest of flashes, just a +swift, inclusive glance about the entrance hall and through the doorways +leading into the rooms beyond. Particularly did she sense the severe +opulence of the dining-room, twinkling at a remoter distance than the +living-room--its perfectly polished silver, its spotless linen, its +wonderfully blue china, not to mention the disconcerting fact that the +table in the center was laid for but two. + +And then Flint himself came forward with a very red face and an absurdly +cordial greeting. + +"Well, I began to wonder whether you'd risk it. This will be a storm and +no mistake.... Here, let me have your coat. Come, you're quite wet.... +Shall you warm up on a hot toddy or something cooler--a cocktail?" + +She felt his hand sliding down her arm as she released the coat to his +too-eager fingers. "Oh no, Mr. Flint! Thank you, nothing. It's only a +bit of rain on the surface. I'm quite dry." + +"Quite dry!" He echoed her words with a guffaw. "Well, then, we'll have +to moisten you up. I always say everything's a good excuse for a drink. +If you're cold you take a drink to warm up; if you're warm you take one +to cool off. You dry out on one, and you wet up on one. I don't know of +any habit with so many good reasons back of it. I'm dry, too.... We'll +have a Bronx! That's a nice, ladylike drink." + +Claire weighed her reply. She did not want to strike the wrong note; she +wanted to let him have a feeling that she was accepting everything in a +normal, matter-of-fact way, as if she saw nothing extraordinary in the +situation. + +"You're very kind, but really you know ... if I'm to get my dictation +straight...." + +"Well, perhaps there won't be any dictation. We're not slaves, you and +I. Maybe it will be much pleasanter to sit before the fire and listen to +the storm. What do you say to that?" + +She turned from him deliberately, under the fiction of fluffing up her +hair before a gilt mirror near the door. She was thinking quickly and +with a tremendous, if concealed, agitation. "Why," she laughed back, +finally, "that _would_ be pleasant. But I came to take dictation, Mr. +Flint. And women ... women, you know, are so funny! If they make up +their minds to one thing, they can't switch suddenly to another idea." + +He was paying no attention to her remark, a remark which she felt would +have fallen flat in any event, since it was so palpably studied. + +"The living-room is in there," he said, pointing. "Make yourself at +home." + +She went in and sat before the fire. Flint disappeared. She tried hard +to analyze the situation. It was unthinkable that Mr. Flint had +deliberately planned this piece of foolishness. He must have had some +idea of work when he had telephoned her; perhaps he still had. It was +his way of being facetious, she argued, this fine pretense that it was +all to be a pleasant lark, or it may have been his idea of hospitality. +Of course he had been drinking, but she took comfort in the thought that +there must be instinctive standards in a man like Flint that even whisky +could not swamp. At least he must respect his wife--surely it was not +possible for Flint, drunk or sober, to offer such an affront to _her_, +however little he respected the women in his employ. She dismissed Mrs. +Richards's exaggerated insinuations with their well-deserved contempt, +but she could not thrust aside quite so readily the eye-lifting tone +with which Stillman had met the announcement of Mrs. Flint's absence +from home. + +This was the first time that Claire had seen Stillman since the +musicale. She had thought a great deal about him and particularly about +his problem. She felt a great desire to know everything--all the details +of the unfortunate circumstance that had driven his wife into a +madhouse, and yet whenever her mother broached the subject Claire +changed the topic with curious panic. She seemed to dread the hard, +almost triumphant manner that her mother assumed in tracking misfortune +to its lair and gloating over it. She began to wonder whether Stillman +would be swinging back to the city on a late boat ... or would the storm +keep him at Edington's sister's home all night? + +She was in the midst of this speculation when Flint came into the room. + +"We'll eat early and have that off our minds," he announced. His manner +was brusk and business-like again. Claire felt reassured. + +But she was disturbed to find a cocktail at her place at the table. + +"Well, here's glad to see you!" Flint raised his glass and tilted it +ever so slightly in her direction. Claire lifted the cocktail to her +lips and set it down untasted. "What's the matter? Getting unsociable +again?" + +"No, Mr. Flint. I don't care for cocktails." + +"Oh, all right! We'll send down-cellar and get some wine." + +"Thank you, not for me." + +"I suppose you don't care for wine, either?" His voice had a bantering +quality, with a shade of menace in it. "Or maybe the right party isn't +here. I've noticed that makes a difference. Females are damned moral +with the wrong fellow." + +His attack was so direct and insolent that Claire missed the trepidation +that might have come with a more covert move. She was no longer +uncertain. There was a sharp relief in realizing that all the cards were +on the table. She felt also that there was no immediate danger. Flint +was far from sober, but he was in his own home. She had the conviction +that he was merely skirmishing, testing the strength or weakness of the +line he hoped to penetrate. Her reply was rather more of a challenge +than she could have imagined herself giving under such a circumstance. + +"And if I were to tell you that I don't care for wine, Mr. Flint?" + +He threw open his napkin with a flourish. "You'd be telling me a damned +lie! You drink wine at the Palace with Stillman and Edington." + +She had felt that he was going to say some such thing and for a moment +it amused her. It was so ridiculous to find this rather wan and wistful +indiscretion assuming damaging proportions. But a nasty fear succeeded +her faint amusement. Could it be possible that Stillman had gossiped? + +"Who told you?" she demanded. + +"Oh, don't be afraid; it wasn't Stillman! You're like all women, you +moon about sentimentalizing over Ned until it makes a man like me sick! +I like Ned; I always have. But even when we went to college together it +was the same way. Everybody ... yes, even the men ... always gave him +credit for a high moral tone. Not that he ever took it.... I'll say that +for him.... Ned Stillman didn't tell me, for the simple reason that he +didn't have to. Nobody told me. I go to the Palace myself under +pressure, and I've got two eyes. As a matter of fact, there isn't any +reason why Edington or Stillman or the waiter who drew the corks +shouldn't have mentioned it. A glass of wine is no crime. But the thing +that makes me hot is to see any one pretending. If you drink with +Stillman, you haven't any license to refuse a glass with me." + +There was something more than wine-heated rancor back of his harangue. +Claire guessed instinctively that he both loved and hated Stillman with +a curious confusion of impulses. It was a feeling of affection torn by +the irritating superiority of its object. One gets the same thing in +families ... among children. It was at once subtle and extremely +primitive. + +"My dear Mr. Flint, this isn't quite the same thing. I've work to do for +one thing and, and...." + +"And ... and.... Why don't you say it? You're alone with me and all that +sort of rubbish! Want a chaperon, I suppose. Mrs. Condor, for +instance.... Good Lord!" + +Claire dipped her spoon into the steaming bouillon-cup in front of her. +She was growing quite calm under the directness of Flint's attack. + +"It isn't the same," she reiterated, stubbornly. "I've work to do, Mr. +Flint." + +"I tell you that you haven't!" Flint brought his fist down upon the +table. + +"Well, then, why did you send for me?" + +"I had something to say to you.... Gad! one can't talk in that ramping +office of mine. We've never even settled the matter of an increase in +salary for you. By the way, how much money do you get?" + +Claire had never seen any man look so crafty and disagreeable. He gave +her the impression of a petty tyrant about to bestow largess upon an +obsequious and fawning slave. + +"Sixty-five dollars a month." + +"Well, I don't exactly know.... I've been trying to figure out just how +valuable you are to me, Miss Robson. Or, rather, how valuable you're +likely to be." He thrust aside his soup and leaned heavily upon the +table. "That's why I invited you over to-night. I wanted to see you at a +little closer range. You live with your mother, don't you?" + +"Yes, Mr. Flint." + +"You ... you support your mother, I believe?" + +"Yes, Mr. Flint." + +"Well, sixty-five dollars don't leave much margin for hair ribbons and +the like, does it, now?" + +"No, Mr. Flint." + +"No, Mr. Flint.... Yes, Mr. Flint...." he mocked. "Good Lord! can't you +cut that school-girl-to-her-dignified-guardian attitude. I'm human. +Dammit all, I'm as human as your friend Ned Stillman. I'll bet you don't +yes-sir and no-sir him.... You know, that night I saw you at the Palace +you quite bowled me over. I'd been thinking of you as a shy, +unsophisticated young thing. But you were hitting the high places like a +veteran. Even old lady Condor didn't have anything on you. Except, of +course, that she looks the part. By the way, where did you meet +Stillman?" + +"At ... at a church social," Claire stammered. + +"At a church social! Say, I wasn't born yesterday. Ned Stillman doesn't +go to church. Tell me something easy." + +"It was really a Red Cross concert. He went with Mrs. Condor," Claire +found herself explaining in spite of her anger. "We sat at the same +table when the ice-cream was served." + +Flint was roaring with exaggerated laughter. Even Claire could not +restrain a smile. What made the statement so ridiculous, she found +herself wondering. Was she unconsciously reflecting Flint's attitude or +had she herself changed so tremendously in the last few weeks? + +"Stillman at a church social! But that _is_ good! And eating +ice-cream.... How long ago did all this happen, pray?" + +"Sometime in November." + +He stopped his senseless guffawing and looked at her keenly. "Where did +you get the church-social habit?" + +"I ... why, I guess I formed it early, Mr. Flint. As you say, sixty-five +dollars a month doesn't leave much for hair ribbons or anything else. +Going to church socials is about the cheapest form of recreation I can +think of." + +The bitterness of her tone seemed to pull Flint up with a round turn. +"Well, we're going to get you out of this silly church-social habit. +Dammit all, Stillman isn't the only possibility in sight. That's just +what I wanted to get at--your viewpoint. I take an interest in you, Miss +Robson--a tremendous interest. Good Lord! I can dance one-steps and +fox-trots and hesitations as well as anybody! I danced every bit as +well as Ned Stillman when we went to dancing-school together. But he +always got most of the applause. He _has_ an air, I don't deny that, but +he's working it overtime.... And he's not in any better position for +being friendly to you than I am--_he's_ married." + +The talk was sobering him a little. Claire was amazed to find that she +did not feel indignant. His tone was offensive, but at least it was +forthright. Besides, she had known instinctively that some day he would +force the issue, and she was rather glad to get it settled. And she +began to hope that she could persuade him skilfully against his warped +convictions. She was trembling inwardly, too, at the thought that she +might make a false step and find herself out of a position. Positions +were not easy to land these days. She knew a half-score of girls who had +tramped the town over in a desperate effort to find a vacancy. Two or +three months without salary meant debts piling up, clothes in ribbons, +and no end of hectic worries. + +"I think you've got a decidedly wrong impression of my friendship for +Mr. Stillman," she said, after some deliberation. "I really know him +only slightly. He was good enough, or rather I should say Mrs. Condor +was good enough, to include me in a little musical evening. That was on +the night you saw me at the Palace. We dropped down for a dance or two +after the music was over. I'd never been to such a place before, and I +dare say I'll never go again. It was just one of those experiences that +come to a person out of a clear sky. It's over as quickly as a shower." + +"Oh, don't you worry! There'll be other showers. I'm going to see to +that. You know, the more I talk to you the more amazing you are.... +Fancy your graduating from dinky church things into Stillman musicales, +and Palace dansants, and young Edington, and old lady Condor, all of a +sudden ... and getting away with it as if you were an old hand at the +game. Say, if you're that apt I'll give you a post-graduate course in +high life that'll make your hair curl forty-seven ways. I don't mean +anything vulgar or common ... _you_ understand. I'm a gentleman, Miss +Robson, at that." + +He stopped for a moment to ring the bell for the Japanese boy. Claire +maintained a discreet silence. She had a feeling that it would be just +as well to let him take his full rein. The servant came in and cleared +away the empty bouillon-cups. Fish was served. + +Flint took one taste of the fish and shoved it away impatiently. "You +know, a fellow like me gets awfully bored at all this sort of thing." He +swept the room with an inclusive gesture. "Not that my wife isn't the +best little woman in the world, but _you_ know. She's got standards and +convictions and all that sort of rot. I can't bundle _her_ off for +dinner and a little lark at the Red Paint or Bonini's or some other +Bohemian joint like them.... You know what I mean, no rough stuff ... +but a good feed, and two kinds of wine, and a cigarette with the small +black. Just gay and frivolous.... Of course I can get any number of +girls to run around and help eat up all the nourishment I care to +provide. But, good Lord! that isn't it! I'm looking for somebody with +human intelligence. Not that I want to discuss free verse and the Little +Theater movement. But I like to feel that if I took such a crazy notion +the person sitting opposite me could qualify for a good comeback.... I +like my home and everything, but.... Oh, well, what's the use in +pretending? I'm just as human as your friend Ned Stillman and I've got +just as keen an eye for class." + +He sat back in his seat with an air of satisfaction, waiting for +Claire's reply. She had been calm enough while he talked, but under the +tenseness of his silent expectancy she felt her heart bound. + +"Dammit all! Why don't you say something?" he blurted out. "I know, you +need a little wine. I'm going down-stairs and pick out the best in the +cellar ... _myself_." + +She did not attempt to dissuade him; as a matter of fact, she felt +relieved to be left alone for a moment. She must leave as soon as dinner +was over. She began to wonder about the trains. The storm was raging +outside. She could hear the frenzied trees flinging their branches about +and a noisy flood of rain against the windows. She spoke to the Japanese +boy as he was carrying away Flint's unfinished fish course. + +"Do you know what time the next train leaves?" + +He laid the tray on the serving-table. "Please.... I telephone. Please!" +He bobbed at her absurdly and went out into the hall. She listened. He +was ringing up the station-master. He came back promptly. + +"Please," he began, sucking in his breath, "please ... no train +to-night." + +"No train to-night? Why, what do you mean?" + +"Please ... very much water. Train track washed out. No train to-night. +To-morrow morning, maybe." + +"Oh, but I must go home to-night! I really must! I...." + +She broke off suddenly, realizing the futility of her protest. + +"To-morrow morning," replied the Japanese, blandly. "All right to-morrow +morning. You stay here.... I fix a place. You see.... I fix a very nice +place for young lady." + +He went out with the tray and Claire rose and walked to the window. +Flint broke into the room noisily. She turned--he had two dusty bottles +in his hand, and an air of triumph. + +"Mr. Flint, it seems that there has been a washout. I understand that no +trains are running. What can I do? I must get back; really I...." + +"Who says so?" Flint laid the bottles down with an irritating calmness. + +"The station-master. Your ... your servant just telephoned for me." + +"Oh, well, _we_ should worry! Sit down." + +"Mr. Flint, really, I must.... You know I can't.... I...." + +"Sit _down_!" + +His tone was a dash of cold water thrown in the face of her rising +hysteria. She sat down. Flint ignored the bottles on the table and, +crossing over to the Sheraton sideboard, poured himself a stiff drink +of whisky. His hair-towsled condition stood out sharply against the +precise background. + +He made no further comment, but he began to open the bottles of wine +deliberately. Then he rummaged in the china-closet for the wine-glasses +and set four, two at his place and two at Claire's, upon the table. + +"White wine with the entree and red wine with the roast," he muttered. +And he poured out the white wine without further ado. + +The servant came in with creamed sweetbreads. Claire forced herself to +make a pretense of eating, although her appetite had long since deserted +her. She was thinking, and thinking hard. + +She should never have come, in the first place--at least she should have +turned back upon the strength of Jerry's announcement. But she saw now, +with a clearness that surprised her, that the situation had really +challenged her imagination. She had been too calm, too collected, too +well-poised, full of smug over-confidence. She had read in the current +novels of the day how hysterically unsophisticated heroines conducted +themselves in tight corners and she had followed their writhings with +ill-concealed impatience. She never had really put herself in their +place, but she had had a vague notion that they carried on absurdly. Her +fear all evening had been not what Mr. Flint would do or say or even +suggest--she had been anxious merely to have the impending storm over, +the air cleared, and her position in the office assured upon a purely +business-like basis. She had really welcomed the forced issue; for weeks +her mind had been entertaining and dismissing the idea that Mr. Flint +had any questionable motives in yielding Nellie Whitehead's place to +her. With this fleeting trepidation had come the realization of her +dependence, the importance her sixty-five dollars a month in the scheme +of things, the compromises that she might be forced into accepting in +order to insure its continuance; not definite and soul-searing +compromises, it was true, but petty, irritating trucklings which wear +down self-esteem. + +It had been the primitive violence of Flint's commanding, "Sit down!" to +thrust the issue from the economic to the elemental. For the first time +in her life Claire was face to face with unstripped masculine brutality. +She had wondered why women of a lower order took men's blows without +striking back, without at least escaping from further torment. But she +was beginning to see, as her spirits tried to rise reeling from Flint's +verbal assault, the fawning submission, half admiration, half fear, that +could follow a frank, hard-fisted blow. And she had a terror, sitting +there trying to thrust food between her trembling lips, that the sheer +physical force of the male opposite her might shatter in one blow a will +that could have withstood any amount of spiritual or material attrition. +She had never seen Flint so clearly as at this moment; in fact, she had +never seen him _at all_. Formerly, he had been a conventionalized +masculine biped in a blue-serge covering who paid her salary and struck +attitudes that were symbols of predatory instincts rather than an +indication that such instincts existed. Life had, after all, been +peopled by the precisely labeled puppets of a morality play; they came +on, and declaimed, and made gestures--but they remained abstractions, +things apart from life, mere representations of the vices and virtues +they impersonated. She had entertained this idea particularly with +regard to Flint. She had felt that the day would come when he and she +would occupy the stage together. He would speak his part with a great +flourish of the hands and much high-sounding emphasis, and when he had +finished she would reply with a carefully worded retort, setting forth +the claims and rewards of virtue. Thus it would continue, argument +succeeding argument, a declamatory give and take, dignified, +passionless, theatrical. + +They were occupying the stage now, it was true, but there was something +warm and human and ragged about the performance. Flint was not a mere +spiritless allegory in red-satin doublet and hose to give flame to his +conventionality. Instead, she saw sitting opposite her a ponderous, +quick-breathing, drunken male, handsome in a coarse, rough-hewn way, +speaking in the quick, clipped speech of passion and striking her to the +ground with the energy of his stage business. She was afraid, almost for +the first time in her life, with a primitive, abandoned fear. And +suddenly her vista of womanhood narrowed to include the ugly foreground +of life that youth had looked over in its eager, far-flung scanning of +the horizon beyond. Suddenly she felt all the oppression and sorrow of +the sex bear down upon her and mark her with its relentless finger. +Because she was a woman she would pay for every joy with a corresponding +sorrow; receive a blow for every caress; know courage and fear with +equal intimacy.... She stopped eating and she began to realize with a +vivid terror that Flint was looking at her fixedly and beginning to +speak. + +"What's the matter with the sweetbreads? Don't you like 'em?... And the +wine?... Say, I'm going to get peeved in a minute. You don't suppose we +serve this French-restaurant style of meal every day do you? I should +say _not_! That's another one of the _frau's_ convictions. Plain living +at home so as to set the right example to the _girls_!" Flint threw his +head from side to side, mincing out his last statement. "Gad! I'm tired +of setting a good example!... And even Sing gets tired. Chinks, you +know, like to cook a bang-up meal once in a while. They like a chance to +show their speed and put in all the fancy trimmings." + +His mood, during this speech, had changed with drunken facility from +irritability to good humor. Claire, still attempting to marshal her +wits, picked up her fork again and murmured: + +"Oh, you have a Chinese cook, then? I had no idea.... The Japanese boy, +you know. They say that the two never get along." + +"That's a fairy-tale. Besides, it's next to impossible, these days, to +get a Chinese second-boy. And the missus _won't_ hire a girl." He winked +broadly. "Can't get one ugly enough, I guess. Sing's a wonder. I copped +him from the Tom Forsythes. _You_ know--young Edington's in-laws. +They've never quite forgiven me. Though they _will_ come back and tuck +away one of his dinners occasionally." + +Claire's mind closed nimbly over Flint's statement. "The--the Tom +Forsythes of Ross?" she asked. + +He nodded and tossed a glass of wine off in one gulp. The Tom Forsythes +of Ross ... Edington's sister ... Ned Stillman! The sequence of ideas +flashed through Claire's mind with flashing detachment. She leaned back +in her seat and raised the wine-glass in obvious pretense to her lips. +Flint was watching her keenly: an ugly gleam was in his eyes. + +"Well, Miss Robson, you might just as well make up your mind to finish +that glass of wine first as last. We're not going to have the next +course until you do." + +She measured him deliberately. She knew now that it was to be a fight to +a finish. She was honestly afraid and full of the courage of +realization. + +"I've had enough as it is, Mr. Flint. Besides, we must either be getting +to work or figuring how I am to make the boat at Sausalito. I suppose +you could send me in the car ... with Jerry." + +"Oh, with Jerry? So that's it!... No, not on your life! He's too +good-looking a boy for a job like that. No, Miss Robson, you are going +to stay _right_ here.... Now, understand me, I'm not a damn fool! You +seem to have an idea that because I've had a glass or two that I've lost +my reason. You're an attractive girl and all that, Miss Robson, and I am +interested in you! But please don't flatter yourself that I'm staking +everything on a throw like this. As a matter of fact, I'll see that you +are properly chaperoned. We've plenty of neighbors. You've got the best +excuse in the world for staying here and...." + +"But, my dear Mr. Flint, can't you see, I...." + +"No, I can't. I want you to stay _here_. My reasons are as good as +yours. Now let's get that off our mind and enjoy the meal." + +His manner struck her protests to the ground again. She was no longer +fearing the immediate outcome, in fact, she never had, but she knew that +if he broke her to his will now, all the safeguards, all the chaperons, +all the conventions in the world wouldn't save her from ultimate +consequences. This was the try-out that was to establish her pace in the +final contest; she would stand or fall upon the record she made at this +moment. For she was trying out something more than Flint's temper, +something greater than a mechanical adjustment of human +relationships--she was trying out _herself_. She sat for some moments, +thinking hard, one hand fingering the slender base of the wine-filled +glass in front of her, the other dropped in pensive limpness at her +side. Flint had cleared the space in front of him of everything but his +two wine-glasses. He had slipped down in his seat and his two bloodshot +eyes were fixing her with a level stare. + +She stirred finally and rose. + +He was on his feet in an instant. + +"I'm going to telephone," she said, calmly. + +"Telephone ... where?... What's the idea?" + +"Mr. Flint," she answered, a bit wearily, "at least I'm a guest in your +house, am I not?" + +He settled back in his seat with a grunt of acquiescence. She stood +dazed for a moment, surprised at the chance that had put such telling +words into her mouth. She had been fingering timidly for the key to his +chivalry; quite by accident she had hit upon it in the shape of this +appeal to her expectations of him in the rôle of host. She could have +lied, of course, and told him that she wished to telephone her mother, +but she had not yet been cornered sufficiently to resort to so +distasteful a weapon.... As she left the room she found herself +wondering whether Stillman had by any chance left the Tom Forsythes. She +looked at the clock. It was not quite eight o'clock. She felt reassured, +yet she was tremendously frightened.... Especially as she realized that +the telephone was in the entrance hall within earshot of the +dining-room.... + +She was decidedly more frightened when she got back from her +telephoning, and looked at Flint. He was clutching at the table with +both hands, his body tilted slightly forward, his lips ominously thin. + +"You telephoned to the Tom Forsythes, didn't you?" + +"Yes." + +"And you asked for Stillman.... Did you get him?" + +"Yes." + +"What did you want with him?" + +"If you heard that much, I guess you heard the rest, Mr. Flint." + +Claire stood at her place at the table. She decided not to sit. Flint +bore down on both hands until things began to creak. + +"Yes, I heard everything, but, dammit all, I couldn't believe my own +ears. You're like every woman I ever knew ... you don't play fair. You +appeal to my instinct as host and then you go and outrage every +privilege you've got me to concede. You're a pretty guest, you are! And +I sit here and let you 'play me for a fool.' Let you ring up Ned +Stillman and ask him to fetch you away from _my_ house in _his_ car!" He +stopped and took a deep breath; his words were no longer passionate; +instead, they were precise and cool and venomous. "Understand me, young +lady, I'm through with you. I wouldn't care, if I thought you were +really virtuous. But you're too clever for a virtuous woman.... Oh, I +dare say you subscribe to the letter of the law, all right. For +instance, you take care not to run around with married men whose +incumbrances are in plain view of the audience.... Oh, I've seen lots of +clever women in my time, but in the end they always took too much rope. +Remember, you'll have your bluff called some day." + +He pushed back his chair noisily and rose. The Japanese servant came +bobbing along. + +"Clear away the things!" Flint bellowed. "We're through!... Good night, +Miss Robson, and a pleasant journey to you--you and your _immaculate_ +friend Stillman." + +He left the room with a melodramatic flourish.... Presently Claire heard +him mounting the stairs. + +"He's drunk!" flashed through her mind, as if the idea had just struck +her. "Of course, he must be drunk, otherwise he wouldn't have dared +to...." + +She went out into the entrance hall and put on her hat. + + + +CHAPTER VII + + +Midway between Yolanda and Sausalito Stillman's machine died with +disconcerting suddenness The rain was coming down in sheets. Stillman +got out. + +"It's no use," he announced, lifting himself back into his seat. "I +can't do anything in this deluge." + +This was the first word that had been said since he and Claire had left +Flint's. + +"The worst will be over in a few moments," replied Claire, easily. But +she was far from reassured. + +The deluge was _not_ over in a few moments. It kept up with an +ever-increasing violence, until it seemed that even the stalled car +would be compelled to yield to its force. Claire had never seen it rain +harder; the storm had a vindictive fury that reminded her of the +dreadful tempest in "King Lear." + +Stillman maintained his usual well-bred calm and smoked cigarettes while +he chattered. He touched on every conceivable subject but the one +uppermost in Claire's mind, until she began to wonder whether delicacy +or contempt veiled his conversation. A half-hour passed ... an hour ... +two. Still the rain swept from the sullen sky. Twice Stillman made a +futile attempt to remedy the trouble with his engine, and twice he +retired defeated to the shelter of the car. Claire was relieved that +she was in the company of a man who did not emphasize the monotonous +hours by indiscriminate raillery against the tricks of chance. At first +he dismissed the situation with the most casual of shrugs; later he +acknowledged his annoyance by an expression of regret at his companion's +discomfort, but he stopped there. + +As the hours went on, with no abatement of the storm's devastating +energy, Claire grew less and less pleased at the prospect. She began to +wonder whether the shelter of Flint's roof had not been, after all, the +discreet thing. Was not her headlong flight in company with Stillman +more open to criticism than the frank acceptance of her employer's +hospitality? But these vagrant questions were the spawn of a colorless +spirit of social expediency which fastens itself on weak natures, and in +Claire's case they died still-born. She had been too well schooled in +loneliness to lean heavily on the crooked stick of public opinion. +Accustomed to standing alone, she had something of the spiritual +arrogance that goes with independence. People could think what they +liked. And it was more a realization of her mother's anxiety than any +thought of self which made her suggest to Stillman that they might get +out and walk into Sausalito. + +"I think the last boat leaves there at twelve-thirty," she finished. +"Surely we could make it if we keep going." + +Stillman thrust his arm out into the drenching rain, and withdrew it +instantly. "I'm afraid that's out of the question, so long as the rain +keeps up, Miss Robson," he said, in a tone of implied objection. +"Perhaps if it should stop...." + +Claire settled back in her seat. Stillman was right. The storm was too +furious to be lightly braved. + +It was eleven o'clock before a quick veering of the wind brought a +downpour so violent that what had gone before seemed little better than +a rather weak rehearsal. + +"It will clear presently," Stillman assured Claire. "Southeaster always +break up in a flurry like this from the west." + +In ten minutes the stars were peeping brilliantly through rents in the +torn clouds. Pungent odors floated up from the rain-trampled stubble of +the hillsides, the air was cleared of its stifling oppressiveness, the +first storm of the season was over. + +Both Claire and Stillman clambered out at the first signs of the storm's +exhaustion. Stillman switched on his pocket-light and began to +investigate the trouble with the engine. His decision was swift and +conclusive. + +"It's hopeless," he announced, turning to Claire with a slight grimace. +"We're stalled absolutely and no mistake. I guess we'd better strike out +and walk. No doubt we'll get a lift into Sausalito before we've gone +very far, but I dare say it's well to be on the safe side." + +They rolled the machine to one side of the roadway and struck out +hopefully. The rain had made a thin chocolate ooze of the highway, and +before they had gone a hundred yards their shoes were slimy with mud. It +appeared that Stillman had been something of an aimless wanderer for +many years, and as he talked on and on, giving detached glimpses of the +remote places he had visited, Claire had a curious sense of futility. + +She read between his clipped and vivid sentences the tragedy of a +personality worsted by the soft hands of circumstances. This man might +have done things. As it was he was an idler. He gave her the impression +of a man waiting vaguely for opportunity--like some traveler pacing +restlessly up and down a railway station platform in expectation of the +momentary arrival of a delayed train. She tried to imagine him as she +felt sure he must once have been--youthful, eager, ardent, a man of +charming enthusiasms that just missed being extravagances, who could +bring zest to his virtues as well as to his follies. + +"Surely," she thought, "something more than inclination must have pushed +him into this deadly stagnation." + +And at once Miss Munch's insinuating question leaped up to answer: + +"You know about his wife, of course!" + +Were men put out of countenance by such impersonal tricks of fortune? +Impersonal?... this domestic tragedy?... Yes, Claire felt that it must +be, otherwise the man tramping at her side would have wrestled so +passionately against fate as to have come away at least spattered with +the mud of defeat. No, Stillman was not defeated, he was merely +arrested, restrained, held for orders. + +He had been in London when the war broke out. He had stayed long enough +to watch the stolid, easy-going British public awake to the seriousness +of the encounter, coming home after the first air raids. + +"I didn't mind being killed," he laughed, in explanation of his sudden +flight. "But I didn't like being so frightfully messed up in the +process. I want a chance to strike back when I'm cornered. The Zeppelin +game was too much like a rabbit-drive to suit me." + +As he spoke of these experiences, Claire listened with a quickening of +the spirit. The prospect of finding Stillman vibrant was too stirring to +be denied. But he was still sober on this colossal subject of war ... a +bit judicial, always well poised. He had his sympathies, but they did +not appear vitalized by extravagances of feeling. Yet here and there +Claire was conscious of truant warmths, like brief flashes of sunlight +through a somber forest. + +"And the draft--what do you think of that?" The question rose to her +lips as if his answer might unlock the door to something deeper in the +way of convictions. + +He began with a shrug that chilled her; then his reply broke with sudden +refreshment: + +"It helps ... some of us. There are many who can't decide for +themselves. The obvious duty isn't always the correct one. In my +case...." + +He did not stop speaking suddenly, but his voice trailed off into a dim +region of musing. They both fell silent. But Claire knew. There was that +haunting hope, almost like a fear, that his wife might some day get +better. That was what he was waiting for! It might come to-morrow ... +next week ... in a year ... never! But when it did come he felt that he +must be there, ready. She wondered whether he loved his wife very much, +and she found herself hoping that he did.... It would help, somehow ... +yes, if that were so his sacrifice gained point. On the other hand.... +She put the thought away with a quick thrust, feeling that she had no +right to such a speculation, and presently she was aware that they were +swinging into Sausalito. + +Stillman looked at his watch. Twelve-thirty-five ... just five minutes +late for the boat! She could see that he was disturbed. + +"I thought sure we'd get a lift," he railed, tossing aside a mangled +cigar. "This _is_ luck!... I guess we'll have to rout out the Sherwins. +It's something of a pull up the hill, but any safe port in a storm, you +know." + +"The Sherwins?" + +"Another one of the Edington girls. They have a bungalow at the very +dizziest point in Sausalito." + +But Claire objected and held firm. "I couldn't think of it, Mr. +Stillman. No, really!... Please don't insist." + +They agreed on a lodging for Claire in a freshly painted but otherwise +rather decrepit lodging-house, just north of the ferry-slip. Its chief +advantage was that it seemed quite too stagnant to be anything but +respectable, and the suppressed grumbling of the old shrew whom they +routed out confirmed their estimate. She didn't approve of couples who +dragged God-fearing old women out of bed at unholy hours in the +morning, and it was only the generous tip from Stillman and the +assurance that he intended looking elsewhere for quarters for himself +that reconciled her to her loss of sleep and the compromise with her +convictions. + +For a good half-hour Claire sat with folded hands peering out from her +room upon the damp hillside to the west. From across the street came the +bawdy thumping of a mechanical piano and the swish of a sluggish tide. +Her encounter with Sawyer Flint had forced the door of her virginal +seclusion and thrust her at once into the primitive and elemental open. +She felt like one who was coming out of voluntary exile to the pathos of +a deferred heritage. Before her stretched the eagle's horizon, but she +had only the fledgling's strength of wing. She longed for the faith and +courage and daring to take life at its word, longed with all the +dangerous fierceness of one who had fed too long upon the husks of +existence. And, longing, she fell asleep, sitting in a chair before the +open window, without thought or preparation.... + + * * * * * + +The morning broke cloudless. All traces of the night's fury were +obliterated as completely as sorrow from the face of a smiling child. +The sun touched the open spaces with a tender, caressing warmth, but the +shadows held a keen-edged chill. + +Claire decided upon an early boat to town. + +"I'll be less likely to meet any of the California Street crowd," she +said to herself, as she picked her brief way toward the ferry. + +The boat was crowded, especially the lower cabin. It was the artisans' +boat and the air was heavy with the smoke of pipe-tobacco. Claire passed +rapidly to the dining-room. Perched upon the high revolving chairs +surrounding a horseshoe counter, a score or more of soft-shirted men sat +devouring huge greasy doughnuts and gulping coffee. The steward, taking +note of Claire's hesitation, came forward and led her to a seat at one +of the side tables. She was about to take advantage of the chair which +he had drawn out for her when she heard her name called. She turned. +Miss Munch's cousin, Mrs. Richards, was sitting alone at the table just +behind. Claire's first feeling was one of relief--she was glad to +discover an acquaintance. She thanked the steward for his trouble and +abandoned the proffered seat for the one opposite Mrs. Richards. Almost +at once she regretted her impulsive decision. + +"I didn't know you intended staying at Flint's all night," Mrs. Richards +began, fixing Claire with a challenging gaze. + +"I didn't intend to," returned Claire, her voice sharpened slightly. + +Mrs. Richards took the lid off the sugar-bowl and powdered her +grapefruit sparingly. "Have they a nice home?" she questioned. + +"Yes, very nice." + +"They gave you an early start, didn't they?... It's almost impossible to +get servants these days to consider such a thing as serving breakfast +much before eight o'clock." + +Claire glanced at the bill of fare. Mrs. Richards's tone was a trifle +too eager. "I suppose it is," Claire assented, placing the menu-card +back in its place between the vinegar and oil cruets. + +Mrs. Richards remained unabashed at her vis-à-vis's palpable +indirectness. "I guess I'm old-fashioned, but, servants or no servants, +I don't believe I could let a guest of mine leave the house without +breakfast. It seems to me that if I'd been Mrs. Flint I'd have gotten up +and made you a cup of coffee myself." + +Claire's growing annoyance was swallowed up in a feeling of faint +amusement. "Perhaps Mrs. Flint wasn't home," she said, beckoning the +waiter. + +"Oh!" Mrs. Richards exclaimed with shocked brevity. + +It was not until the arrival of Claire's order of toast and coffee that +Mrs. Richards found her voice again. + +"This business of wives staying from home all night gets me," Mrs. +Richards hazarded, boldly. "Why, I never remember the time when my +mother remained away overnight ... not under _any_ circumstances. My +father expected her to be there, and she always _was_." + +Claire distributed bits of butter over the surface of her toast. She +felt that in justice to the Flint family it was not right for her to +give Mrs. Richards's dangerous tongue any further scope, however +tempting was the prospect of leaving such venomous inquisitiveness +ungratified. + +"I think you misunderstood me, Mrs. Richards. I didn't say that Mrs. +Flint remained away from home last night. As a matter of fact I didn't +stay at Yolanda, so I don't know anything about it." + +"Oh!" faintly escaped Mrs. Richards for the second time that morning, +but Claire was conscious that there was more incredulity than surprise +registered in the lady's tone. + +"As a matter of fact," Claire continued, stung to incautious +exasperation, "I spent the night in Sausalito." + +Mrs. Richards met this information with a disarmingly bland smile. "I +didn't know you had friends in Sausalito," she said, letting a spoonful +of coffee trickle back into her cup. + +"I haven't. I spent the night in a lodging-house ... on the +water-front...." + +"My dear Miss Robson, really I.... Why, I hope you don't think I was +inquisitive!" + +It was the simplicity of the challenge that made it impossible to be +ignored. Claire knew that she was trapped, but she was angry enough to +decide on some reservation. + +"The storm put the track between Yolanda and Sausalito out of +commission," Claire found herself snapping back too eagerly at her +tormentor. "We tried to make the last boat by auto, but we got stalled +and missed it. We had to walk a good half of the way." + +"I shouldn't think that would have done Mr. Flint's cold any good," Mrs. +Richards said, drawlingly. + +"Mr. Flint's cold?... I don't quite see what that has to do with it." + +"Oh, you said 'we' I somehow got the impression...." + +"No, Mrs. Richards, you've misunderstood me again." Claire threw a +cool, even glance at her antagonist. "I made the trip from Yolanda to +Sausalito in Mr. Stillman's car." + +"Oh!" said Mrs. Richards for a third time, and in this instance her +voice was warm with gratification. + +Claire directed her attention to her plate of buttered toast and her cup +of coffee. She was chagrined to think that she had fallen so easily into +Mrs. Richards's very obvious traps. Not that it mattered. She was quite +sure that the truth could not harm Stillman, and she was equally sure +that her position in life was too obscure to stand out conspicuously +against the darts of Mrs. Richards's vindictive tongue. But she had the +pride of her reticences and she did not like to surrender these +privileges at the point of insolent curiosity. The two continued to eat +in silence. + +It was Mrs. Richards who finished first, and she dipped her fingers +hurriedly into the battered metal finger-bowl which the Japanese bus-boy +thrust before her. + +"Do you mind if I go along?" she inquired of Claire, with an air of +polite triumph. "I think I'll go forward where I can get a quick start +... before the crowd gets too thick. I've got a million errands to do +before nine o'clock. And I _do_ want to run into the office before +Gertie settles down to work. I haven't seen her for a week and I've got +_more_ things to tell her!" + + + +CHAPTER VIII + + +"Why, Miss Claire, how could you! Where have you been? And your mother +in such a bad way!" Mrs. Finnegan broke into sudden tears. + +Claire, fumbling in her bag for the front-door key, looked up. Mrs. +Finnegan had swung open the door to the Robson flat and she stood like a +vision of disaster upon the threshold. + +"What has happened?" Claire's voice rose with a note of swift +apprehension. + +"Your mother ... she's paralyzed! She was taken last night. The doctor +says it would have happened, anyway. But I say it was worry, that's what +it was. With you away all night and never a word!" + +Claire climbed the stairs in silence, aware that Mrs. Finnegan was +following at a discreet distance. Already the house seemed permeated +with an atmosphere of tragedy and gloom in spite of the morning light +pouring in unscreened at every window. Mrs. Robson's room was the only +exception to this unusual excess of cold radiance--unusual, because it +was one of Mrs. Robson's prides to keep her window-shades lowered to a +uniform and genteel distance. + +Until Claire came face to face with her mother she almost had fancied +that her neighbor was indulging in a crude and terrible joke, but one +look sufficed. Mrs. Robson lay staring vacantly at the ceiling; she +could not move, she could not speak, and her spirit showed through the +veiled light in her eyes like a mysterious spot of sunshine in a shaded +well. Above a swooning sense of calamity Claire felt the strength of a +tender pretense struggling to communicate its vague hope to the stricken +form. She raised the window-shade slightly and sat down upon the bed. + +"Why, mother, what's all this?" she began, in a tone of gentle banter, +as she stroked the helpless hands. "Were you worried? I'm so sorry! I +asked Miss Munch to let you know. Didn't she?... I went over to Mr. +Flint's to take dictation. The storm washed out the track. I tried to +make the boat in Mr. Stillman's car, but we broke down and missed it.... +I had to stay all night in Sausalito." + +Mrs. Robson, stirring faintly, attempted to speak. Claire turned +helplessly to Mrs. Finnegan. "I can't make out what she is trying to +say." + +Mrs. Finnegan bent an attentive ear. "It's about Stillman," she +explained. "Your mother don't understand why...." + +The speaker stopped with significant discretion. It was plain to Claire +that _nobody_ understood, and she felt a dreary futility as she answered +both her mother and Mrs. Finnegan with: + +"It's a long story. Some other time, when ... when you're feeling +better." + +A look of gray disappointment crossed Mrs. Robson's face. Mrs. +Finnegan's upper lip seemed shaped suddenly with a suspicion that died +almost as quickly as it began. There was a ring at the bell. "That's the +doctor," said Mrs. Finnegan, and she left to open the door. + +The doctor chilled Claire with his steely nonchalance as she stood apart +while he went through the usual forms of a professional visit that was +obviously futile. She followed him to the front door. He answered her +eager inquiries with the cold triumph of authority. + +"How long will she last?... Well, Miss Robson, that is hard to say. She +might go off to-night. Then, again, she might live twenty years. She'll +scarcely get any better, though. No, a nurse isn't essential, unless you +can afford one. But you ought to have another woman about. If you have +any relatives you'd better send for them and let them help out." + +Claire did not find the doctor's announcement that her mother might die +at once nearly so brutal as his assurance that she had an equal chance +for existing twenty years. _Twenty years!_ Claire closed the door and +sank upon the steps overwhelmed. + +But there was scant leisure on this first dreadful day of Mrs. Robson's +illness for theatrical exuberances. Claire, unaccustomed to the routine +of household duties, took a thousand unnecessary steps. She tried to +work calmly, to bring an acquired philosophy to her tasks, but she went +through her paces with a feverish, though stolid, anxiety. The long +night which followed was inconceivably a thing of horror. Her wakeful +moments were dry-eyed with despair, and when she slept it was only to +come back to a shivering consciousness. + +Mrs. Finnegan found her next morning fresh from an attempt to rouse her +mother into accepting a few swallows of milk, which had ended in +pathetic and miserable failure. She had thrown herself in an abandon of +grief across the narrow kitchen table, and the coffee from an overturned +cup was trickling in a warm, thick stream to the floor. But the paroxysm +did her good. She rose to the kindly caresses of her neighbor like a +flower beaten to earth but refreshed by a relentless torrent. After +this, custom and habit began to reassert themselves in spite of the +crushing weight of circumstance. She 'phoned to the office. Mr. Flint +had returned, they told her. She explained her trouble to the cashier. +"I'll try to be back the first of the week," she finished, in a burst of +illogical hope. + +Later in the day Mrs. Robson's two sisters arrived in answer to Claire's +summons. Claire's impulse to send for them had been purely +instinctive--an atrophied survival of clan-spirit that persisted beyond +any real faith in its significance. Perhaps she had a feeling that her +mother wished it; certainly she had no illusions as to the manner in +which the unwelcome news of Mrs. Robson's illness would be received by +these two self-centered females. + +It was Mrs. Thomas Wynne who came in first, bundled mysteriously in her +furs and holding a glass of wine jelly as a conventional symbol of the +rôle of Lady Bountiful which she had for the moment assumed. Claire +could almost fancy how conspicuously she had contrived to carry this +overworked badge of the humanities, and the languid drawl of her voice +as she explained to her friends _en route_: + +"So sorry I can't stop and chat. But, as you see, I'm running along to a +sick-room.... Oh no, nothing serious, I hope! Just my sister.... Mrs. +Ffinch-Brown? Oh, dear no! A younger sister. I don't think you know her. +She's had a great deal of trouble and hasn't been about much for a +number of years." + +Mrs. Thomas Wynne had the trick of intrenching a stubborn family pride +by throwing back her head and daring all comers to uncover any of the +Carrol clan's shortcomings. But her selfishness had at least the virtue +of a live-and-let-live attitude that contrasted with the futile +aggressiveness of Mrs. Edward Ffinch-Brown. She asked Claire no +questions concerning her life or her prospects; she did not even pry +very deeply into the chances that her sister had for an ultimate +recovery. Her philosophy seemed to be founded on the knowledge that +uncovered cesspools were bound to be unpleasant, and, since she had no +desire to assist in their purification, she was quite content to keep +them properly screened. She came and deposited her wine jelly and patted +her sister's hand and went away again without leaving even a ripple in +her wake. As she departed she gave further proof of her insolent +insincerity by calling back at Claire: + +"Remember, Claire, if there is anything I can do, just let me know." + +Mrs. Ffinch-Brown's visit was scarcely more comforting, but decidedly +more exciting. She had not the suavity of her indifferences. Mrs. +Robson's untimely tilt with fate irritated her, and she took no pains to +conceal this fact. + +"I suppose your mother is just as she's always been--a creature of +nerves," she said, as she dropped into a seat for a preliminary session +with Claire before venturing upon the unwelcome sight of her stricken +sister. "I don't know why it is, but she seems to be one of those people +who always has had something the matter with her. Poor Emily! Well, I +suppose we are all made differently." + +When she entered the sick-room she found fault with the arrangement of +the bed, the manner in which the covers slipped off, the uncovered glass +of medicine on the bureau. + +"You should braid your mother's hair, too. And why don't you pull the +window down from the top?" + +Claire stood in sullen silence while her aunt vented a personal +annoyance on the nearest objects. But when Mrs. Ffinch-Brown's +ill-natured ministrations brought a dumb but protesting misery to the +sufferer's face, Claire found the courage to say, as gently as she +could: + +"Why bother, Aunt Julia? Mother is really too sick now to care much +about appearances?" + +This was just what Claire's aunt had hoped for. It gave her a chance for +escape without any strain upon her conscience. She did not remain long +after what she was pleased to consider a rebuff. + +"Well, Claire, I see I can't be of much help," she announced as she +powdered her nose before the shabby hat-rack mirror and drew on her +gloves.... After she was gone Claire found a five-dollar bill on the +living-room table. She opened the gilt-edged copy of Tennyson that, +together with a calf edition of Ouida's _Moths_, had stood for years as +guard over the literary pretensions of the household, and thrust the +money midway between its covers. Doubtless a time was coming when she +would find it necessary to use this money, but the present moment was +too charged with the giver's resentful benevolence to make such a +compromise possible. + +For three consecutive days Mrs. Ffinch-Brown swooped down upon the +Robson household and gave vent to her pique. She had been divorced so +long from these melancholy relations of hers that she had really +forgotten their existence, and she displayed all the rancor of a woman +who discovers suddenly a moth hole in the long undisturbed folds of a +treasured cashmere shawl. Her precisely timed visits had not the +slightest suspicion of attentiveness back of them, and Claire guessed +almost at once that they were more in the nature of assaults carried on +in the hope that she would meet enough opposition to insure an honorable +retreat. Unlike Mrs. Thomas Wynne, Aunt Julia inquired minutely into +family matters, insisted on knowing Claire's plans, and was aggressively +free with advice. + +"You ought to be making plans, Claire," she said, at the conclusion of +her second visit. "You can't go on like this. I'd like to be able to do +more, but of course I can't spare much time. And next week you'll have +to be getting into harness again. You'd better think it over." + +And on the next day, finding that Claire obviously had _not_ thought it +over, she threw out a hint that was little save a thinly veiled threat. +She came in with a more genial manner than she was accustomed to waste +upon the desert air of penury, and Claire, well schooled in reading the +significance of proverbial calms, had a misgiving. + +"I've been talking to Miss Morton ... about your mother," Mrs. +Ffinch-Brown began, without bothering to lead up to the subject. "You +know Alice Morton.... Well, your mother does, anyway. I bumped into her +yesterday, quite by accident ... at a Red Cross meeting. It seems she's +one of the directors of The King's Daughters' Home for Incurables!" +Claire was sitting opposite her aunt, nervously fingering a +paper-cutter. Mrs. Ffinch-Brown eyed her niece sharply, and with an +obvious determination to drive her thrusts home before her victim +recovered from the first vicious stabs she continued: "It seems they +haven't a great deal of room out there, but she thinks she could arrange +things. They'll raise the price to two thousand dollars after the +fifteenth of the month, so I thought that--" + +"Oh, not quite yet, Aunt Julia!... Mother has a chance. Surely...." + +"Now, Claire, don't get hysterical. You're a business woman and _you_ +ought to be practical if any of us are. The price to-day is one thousand +dollars. Think of it! Care for life in a ward with only _three_ others! +Now I can't ask your uncle for any more than is necessary in a case +like this. If we make up our mind promptly we can save just one thousand +dollars." + +For the moment Claire felt the harried desperation of a cornered animal. +She had never seen anything more disagreeable than her aunt's sidelong +glance. She felt herself rise from her seat with cold dignity. + +"I'm afraid, Aunt Julia, I can't make up my mind as quickly as you wish. +It isn't so simple as it seems. I'm not above a plan like this if I'm +convinced it's necessary. But somehow.... Oh, I know what you're +thinking--you're thinking that beggars shouldn't be choosers. Well, I'm +not quite a beggar yet. But when I am, I won't choose.... I'll promise +you that." + +Mrs. Ffinch-Brown rose also. She was in a position to triumph in any +case, and she was washing her hands of the situation with eager +satisfaction. "Oh, indeed! I'm glad you can say that _now_. But you +weren't always so independent. I suppose it never occurs to you to thank +me for what I did when you were younger." + +Claire felt quite calm. The events of the past twenty-four hours had +wrung her emotions dry. "Yes, Aunt Julia," she said, with an air of cool +defiance, "it occurred to me many times.... Perhaps if I'd had any +choice...." + +Mrs. Ffinch-Brown grew pale. "It's plain that I'm wasting my time here!" +she sneered. + +Claire went with her aunt to the door.... + +Mrs. Ffinch-Brown did not cross the threshold of the Robson home again, +and when on the following day Claire saw the figure of Mrs. Thomas +Wynne outlined against the lace-screened front door she let the bell +ring unanswered. + + * * * * * + +The dismissal of the last of the Carrol clan from any participation in +the Robson destinies gave Claire a feeling at once independent and +solitary. There had been a vague hope that this crisis might germinate +some stray seeds of kinship, shriveled by the drought of uneventful +years. But the poisonous nettles of memory were the only harvest that +had sprung from the presence of Mrs. Robson's sisters, and Claire was +glad to uproot the arid product of their shallowness. + +The week came to a close with a rush of visitors. Suddenly it seemed as +if everybody knew of Mrs. Robson's illness. Fellow church members, old +school friends, casual acquaintances began to ring the front-door bell +insistently. Knowing her mother's instinctive craving for recognition, +it struck Claire that it was the height of irony to see this belated +crowd come swarming in on the heels of calamity at the moment when Mrs. +Robson was unable to so much as see them. Mrs. Robson would have so +liked to sit in even a threadbare pomp and receive the homage of her +visitors, but fate had been scurvy enough to withhold this scant +triumph. + +Nellie Whitehead breezed in on Saturday afternoon just as Mrs. +Finnegan's cuckoo clock cooed the stroke of three; immediately the air +began to move out of adversity's tragic current. It was impossible to be +wholly without hope under the impetus of Nellie Whitehead's flaming +good humor. + +"I'm all out of breath," she began, as she flopped into the first chair +that came handy. "I keep forgetting I ain't sweet sixteen any more and +never been kissed. I hate to walk slow, though. Don't you? Say, but you +_are_ up against it, ain't you! I saw that Munch dame on the street and +she nearly broke her old neck trying to catch up with me. I wondered +what was the matter, because she ain't usually so keen about flagging +_me_. But, _you_ know, she never misses a trick at spilling out the +calamity stuff, especially if it isn't on her.... 'Oh, Miss Whitehead,' +she called out before I had a chance to beat it, 'have you heard about +Miss Robson's mother?' ...When she got through I fixed her with that +trusty old eye of mine and I said, 'I suppose you see her quite often.' +And what do you think the old stiff said? 'Oh, I'd like to, Miss +Whitehead, but I really haven't had time. You know I'm doing all Mr. +Flint's dictation now.' And she had the nerve to try and slip me a hint +that she was going to keep on doing it. But I just said to myself: 'You +should kid yourself that way, old girl! When Flint picks a bloomer like +you to ornament the back office it will be because his eyesight's failed +him.' ...By the way, how do you manage to stand him off--with religious +tracts or a hat-pin?" + +She hardly waited for Claire's reply, but plunged at once into another +monologue. + +"Do you know what I'm up to? I got my eye on the swellest fur-lined coat +you ever saw ... at Magnin's. But you can bet I'm going to keep my eye +on it until after the holidays. They want a hundred and a quarter for it +now, but they'll be glad to take sixty-five when the gay festivities are +over, or I miss my guess. I go in every other day to have a look at it, +and when the girl's back is turned I hang it back in the case +myself--'way back where everybody else will overlook it. Oh, I know the +game all right. I did the same thing with a three piece suit last +summer. But I say, All is fair in war and the high cost of living. Maybe +you think I haven't had a time scraping the wherewithal for that coat +together. But I brought the total up to seventy the other day by getting +Billy Holmes to slip me a ten in advance for Christmas. I never trust a +man to invest in anything for me if I can help it. They usually run to +manicure sets in satin-lined cases or cut-glass cologne-bottles. Billy +Holmes?... Oh, you know him! He ran the reinsurance desk at the Royal +for years. They put him on the road last week. He's _some_ live wire. +And what's better, he has no incumbrances. I'll tell you what it is, +Robson, I'm getting kind of tired of the goings. I'm just about ready to +settle down by the old steam-radiator. And as long as I've got eyesight +enough to look the field over, I've decided on a traveling-man or a +sea-captain. They'll be sticking around home just about often enough to +suit me.... Not that I'm a man-hater, but I've never had 'em for a +steady diet and I'm not going to begin to get the habit this late day." + +Nellie Whitehead stayed about an hour, and, as Claire opened the front +door upon her friend's departure the letter-man thrust an envelope into +her hands. She opened it hastily and turned suddenly white. + +"Well, Robson, what's wrong now?" inquired Nellie. + +"Flint ... he's let me out ... Miss Munch was right!" + + + +CHAPTER IX + + +On the selfsame Saturday of Claire's dismissal from the office ranks of +the Falcon Insurance Company Ned Stillman was the recipient of an early +telephone message from Lily Condor. It appeared that Flora Menzies, the +young woman who usually accompanied her in her vocal flights, had been +laid low with pneumonia and she wanted Stillman to persuade Claire +Robson to succeed to the honorary position. + +"She did so famously on that night of our musicale," Lily Condor had +explained, "and Flora won't be in shape again for a good three months. +Of course, there isn't anything in it but glory. I'm just one of those +'sweet charity' artists. But I think she is a dear, and I know that +_you_ have influence." + +Stillman pretended to be annoyed at Mrs. Condor's assumption that his +word would carry any weight in the matter, but as a matter of fact he +felt pleased in secret masculine fashion. Chancing to pass Flint's +office at the noon hour, he dropped in. It happened that Miss Munch was +standing near the counter, and she answered his inquiries with suave +eagerness. + +"Oh, Miss Robson isn't with us any more. She hasn't been here for over +a week--not since her mother was taken sick. Oh, I thought you knew. +You're Mr. Stillman, aren't you? I've heard my cousin, Mrs. Richards, +speak of you. Miss Robson went over to Mr. Flint's on that night of the +storm and she missed the boat or something--_you_ know! And when she got +home next morning she found that her mother had worried herself into a +stroke. They say she is quite helpless.... I'm sure I don't know what +she intends doing. We mailed her check yesterday. It's always hard to +land another position when one is dismissed." + +Stillman escaped quickly. Miss Munch's venom was a thing too crude and +unconcealed to face with indifference. Her emphatic "_you_ know" was +pregnant with innuendo and malice. Still, it did not occur to Stillman +that he had any part in Claire Robson's misfortune. But he did know from +Miss Munch's tone that the unfortunate situation, growing out of the +automobile ride from Yolanda to Sausalito, had received due recognition +at the hands of those who made a business of blowing out bubbles of +scandal from the suds of chance. It was useless for him to deny that +Claire Robson from the first had been of more or less interest. She +seemed to rise in such a detached fashion from her environment. + +He had to admit, as later he sat in the cloistered silences of his club +library and blew contemplative smoke-rings into the air, that a certain +idle curiosity had been the mainspring of his concern for her. He had +been like a boy who captured a strange butterfly and clapped it under a +glass tumbler where he could watch how easily it would adapt itself to +its new surroundings. But, having caught the butterfly and held it a +brief captive, the dust from its wings still lingered upon the hands +that imprisoned it. He had made the mistake of imagining that one is +always master of casual incidents. To meet a young woman by the most +trivial chance, to extend a brief courtesy to her, these were matters +which hold scarcely the germs of a menacing situation, not menacing to +him, of course--they never could be menacing to him; he was still +thinking of things from the viewpoint of Claire Robson. + +To tell the truth, he was annoyed at having been mixed up in Claire's +flight from the Flint household. Had Flint been a complete stranger he +would not have minded so much. He was still divided by the appeal to his +chivalry and the sense of loyalty that a man feels to the masculine +friends of his youth. In her telephone message Claire had put the matter +very casually--the track was washed out and she was wondering whether he +contemplated returning to town that evening. But he guessed at once what +lay back of her matter-of-fact boldness. He had guessed so completely +that he had decided not only to return to town, but to start at once. + +He wondered now whether he had answered the appeal because a woman was +in a desperate situation or because that woman was Claire Robson. All +through the dinner hour at the Tom Forsythes he had thought about her, +had speculated vaguely what mischance or effrontery had been responsible +for her ill-timed visit to Flint's. He remembered trying to decide +whether the young woman was extraordinarily deep or extraordinarily +simple and frank. He did not like to concede that he could be influenced +by anything so transparently malicious as Mrs. Richards's statements +regarding the absence of Mrs. Flint, but he was bound to admit that they +did nothing to render the situation less innocent; what had particularly +annoyed him was the fact that he should have given the matter a second +thought. To begin with, it was none of his business and he was not a man +who presumed to judge or even speculate on other people's indiscretions. +Claire Robson was no sheltered schoolgirl. She was a full-grown woman, +in the thick of business life. Such women were not taken unawares. He +had just dismissed the whole affair from his mind on this basis when +Claire's telephone message came to him. Even now he marveled at the +sense of satisfaction that her appeal had given. But he had found no +savor in a situation that compelled him to interfere in Flint's program. +Such a move on his part was contrary to his standards, to his training +in comradeship, to all his acquired philosophy. He had the well-bred +man's distaste for getting into a mess. He abhorred scenes and +conspicuous complications. + +He had come through the incident with steadily waning enthusiasm and a +decision to wash his hands in the future of all such unprofitable +trifling. But the sudden knowledge that the young woman was in desperate +trouble revived his interest. He had no idea how serious Mrs. Robson's +illness was or whether Claire had any hopes for a new position. But +Miss Munch's words had been significant. Claire had been _dismissed_, +and Stillman knew enough about present business stagnation to conclude +that for the time, at least, Claire Robson faced a bleak outlook. He +realized the indelicacy of any definite move on his part, but it +occurred to him that it might be well to talk the situation over with +some one--preferably a woman. As he tossed his cigar butt aside, Lily +Condor appealed to him as just the person for the emergency. Therefore +he looked her up without further ado. + +He found her at home, curled up among the cushions of a davenport that +did service as a bed when the scenes were shifted. She was living in a +tiny apartment consisting of one room and a kitchenette that gave +Stillman the impression of a juggler's cabinet. Nothing in this room was +ever by any chance what it seemed. Things that looked like doors led +nowhere; bits of stationary furniture usually yielded to the slightest +pressure and revealed strange secrets. He had seen Mrs. Condor deftly +construct a card-table out of an easy-chair, and he had no doubt that +the oak table in the center of the room could have been converted into a +chiffonier or a chassis-lounge at a given signal. + +In repose, it struck Stillman that Mrs. Condor seemed very much like a +purring cat. He had never seen her quite so frankly behind the scenes, +robbed of both her physical and mental make-up. She was one of those +women in middle age who adapt themselves to the tone of their background +and while she contrived to strike a fairly vivid note, she took care not +to be discordant. She was clever enough to realize that her talents +were not sensational and that she could only hope for an indifferent +success as a professional. But in the rôle of a gracious amateur she +disarmed criticism and forced her way into circles that might otherwise +have been at some pains to exclude her. For, if the truth were known, +there had been certain phases of Mrs. Condor's earlier life which were +rather vaguely, and at the same time aptly, covered by Mrs. Finnegan's +term of "gay." A perfectly discreet woman, for instance, would have made +an effort to live down her flaming hair and almost immorally dazzling +complexion, but Mrs. Condor had been much more ready to live _up_ to +these conspicuous charms. In fact, she had lived up to them pretty +furiously, until time began to take a ruthless toll of her contrasting +points. From the concert-platform she still seemed to discount, almost +to flout, the years, but in secret she yielded unmistakably to their +pressure. + +It was this yielding, pliant attitude that struck Stillman as he came +upon her almost unawares on that early December afternoon, a yielding, +pliant attitude which gave a curious sense of tenacity under the +surface. And he thought, as he dropped into the chair she indicated, +that she was a woman who gained strength in these moments of relaxation. + +"Fancy your catching me like this!" she said, "I thought when the bell +rang that you were my dressmaker.... If you want a highball you'll have +to wait on yourself. Phil Edington brought an awfully good bottle of +Scotch last night. I declare I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have +a youngster or two on my staff. Old men are such bores, anyway, and, as +a matter of fact, they never waste time on any woman over thirty. Well, +I don't blame them. We're a sorry, patched-up mess at best.... Tell me, +did you get hold of Miss Robson?" + +"I dropped in, but she wasn't at the office," Stillman replied, tossing +his hat on the center-table. + +Mrs. Condor withdrew to the relaxation of her innumerable sofa pillows +again. "Wasn't at the office? How thrilling! Is she one of the Sultan's +favorites?... I've heard Sawyer Flint was an easy mark if you know how +to work him. Miss Robson didn't strike me that way, though. But I ought +to have known that silent women are always cleverer than they appear." + +Stillman caught the barest suggestion of a sneer in Mrs. Condor's +tone--the sneer of a woman relinquishing a stubborn hold upon the +gaieties. + +"Well, I guess Miss Robson didn't know how to work him, as a matter of +fact," Stillman said, quietly. "She lost her job to-day. I'm a little +bit worried about her.... I came here on purpose to talk the situation +over with you." + +His directness brought Lily Condor out of her languidness with a sharp +turn. She wriggled up and sat erectly on the edge of the davenport, one +slippered foot dangling just above the other. "Why, Ned Stillman, what +an old fraud you are! I didn't fancy you were interested in _anybody_. I +didn't think that you.... Oh, well, throw me a cigarette and let me hear +the worst in comfort!" + +He opened his cigarette-case and leaned over toward her. She made her +choice. He struck a match and she put her hand tightly on his wrist as +she bent over the flame and slowly drew in her breath. Even after she +had released her grasp his flesh still bore the imprint of the rings on +her fingers. For a moment he had an impulse to bow himself out of her +presence without further explanation, but already she seemed to have a +proprietary interest in him. Her smile was full of friendly malice. + +He ended by telling her everything, in spite of the conviction that he +had approached the wrong person. + +"Of course," she hazarded, boldly, when he had finished, "you mean to +help her out." + +Her presumption annoyed but rather refreshed him. "I'd like to do +something, but, hang it all, what can be done?" + +"What can be done? If that isn't like a man! Or I should say, a +_gentleman_!... Why don't you plunge in boldly and damn the +consequences?... It's just your sort that sends women into the arms of +men like Flint. You're so busy keeping an eye on the proprieties that +you miss all the danger signals." + +Her tone was extraordinarily familiar, and, to a man who rather prided +himself upon his ability to keep people at arm's-length, it was not +precisely agreeable. Yet he knew that it would be folly to give any hint +of his irritation. + +"Well," he contrived to laugh back at her, "so far as I can see, Miss +Robson's problems are quite too simple. After all, it's largely a +question of money.... I can't go and throw gold in her lap as if she +were some beggar on a street corner." + +"You mean, I suppose, that you are afraid to risk the outraged dignity +of this ward of yours. I think that's a lovely name for her. Don't +you?... You're acquiring such a benevolent old attitude. The only thing +to be done, I fancy, is to adopt some transparent ruse--some +sort of Daddy-Long-Leggish deception." She closed her eyes +thoughtfully--"_Hiring_ her as my accompanist, for instance." She rose +to dispense Scotch and soda. Stillman sat in thoughtful silence, while +Mrs. Condor talked to very trivial purpose. She seemed suddenly to have +grown tired of the subject of Claire Robson. The arrival of the expected +dressmaker broke in upon the rather one-sided tête-à-tête. + +"You'll have to go," Lily Condor announced with an intimate air of +dismissal to Stillman. "It would never do to let a mere man in on the +secrets of the sewing-room." + +At the door he hesitated awkwardly over his good-by. "I was wondering," +he said, "whether you were serious about ... about hiring Miss Robson as +your accompanist. You know I think the plan has possibilities." + +She threw back her head and smiled with hard satisfaction. "I've been +trying to figure if you had killed your imagination. Think it over." + +She gave him the tips of her fingers. He returned their languid pressure +and departed. + +As he drifted down the hall he heard her calling, half gaily, half +derisively, after him: + +"Don't decide on anything rash now.... Sleep over it!..." + + * * * * * + +He thought it over for three days and when he called on Lily Condor +again he found her divorced from her languishing mood. She was dressed +for dinner down-town, and he had to confess she had made the most of +what remained of her flaming hair and dazzling complexion. + +He felt that she guessed the reason for his visit, although she took +care to let him force the issue. + +"About Miss Robson," he said, finally, "I've concluded to take you at +your word." + +Lily Condor smoothed out her gloves and laid them aside. "Take me at +_my_ word? You're welcome to the suggestion, if that is what you mean. +As a matter of fact I wasn't serious." + +He was annoyed to feel that he was flushing. He could not fathom her, +but he had a conviction that she _had_ been serious and that this +attitude was a mere pose. "Nevertheless, I think it can be managed," he +insisted. "And I want you to help me." + +She listened to his plan. "What you will call a Daddy-Long-Leggish +pretense," he explained to her with an attempt at facetiousness. "You to +do the hiring and ... and yours truly to provide the wherewithal. Until +things look up a bit. Of course then ... why, naturally, when things +look up a bit for her...." + +But Lily remained lukewarm. She wasn't quite sure that it would be ... +oh, well, he knew what she meant! It seemed too absurd to think that he +had given an ear to anything so extravagant. She would like to be of +service to Miss Robson, of course, but, after all, she felt that it was +taking an unfair advantage of the girl. + +"If she's everything you say she is, she'd resent it all tremendously," +she put forth as a final objection. + +"But she isn't to know! That's the point of the whole thing," he +explained, with absurd simplicity. + +"Oh, my dear man, she isn't to know, but she _will_, ultimately. You +don't suppose the secret of a woman's meal-ticket is hidden very long, +do you? And, besides, you couldn't offer her enough to live on. That +would be absurd on the very face of it." + +"Oh, well, I could offer her enough to help out a bit, anyway, and half +a loaf you know...." + +He broke off, amazed at the determination her opposition had +crystallized. She looked at him sharply and rose. + +"I must be running along," she commented as she drew on her gloves. "I +tell you, I'll go call on Miss Robson--some day this week. A woman can +always get a better side-light on a situation like this. There are so +many angles to be considered. She must have relatives. You wouldn't want +to make a false move, would you, now?" + +He was too grateful to be suspicious at this sudden compromise with her +convictions. + +"You're tremendously good," he stammered. "It _will_ be a favor. And any +time that I can...." + +"You can be of service to me right now," she interrupted, gaily. "Order +me a taxi ... that's a good boy! I always do so like to pull up at a +place in style." + +Stillman paid Lily Condor a third visit that week--this time in answer +to the lady's telephone message. She had been to see Claire Robson and +her report was anything but rosy. + +"Her mother's perfectly helpless and will be for the rest of her life," +Lily volunteered almost cheerfully. "And, frankly, I don't see what is +going to become of them. It seems that Mrs. Robson is a sister of Mrs. +Tom Wynne and that dreadful Ffinch-Brown woman. They both have about as +much heart as a cast-iron stove. Miss Robson didn't say so in words, but +I gathered that she had called both of them off the relief job. I almost +cheered when I realized that fact. I threw out a hint about there being +a possibility of my needing an accompanist. I said Miss Menzies was ill +and perhaps ... and I intimated that there was something more than glory +in it." + +"And what did Miss Robson say to that?" + +"Oh, she was more self-contained than one would imagine under the +circumstances. She said she would like to think it over. She put it that +way on the score of leaving her mother alone nights. But, believe me, +that young lady is more calculating than she seems. Of course I didn't +mention terms or anything like that. I left a good loophole in case you +had changed your mind." + +For the moment Stillman was almost persuaded to tell Lily Condor that he +_had_ changed his mind. Not that he had lost interest in Claire, but +already he had another plan and there was something disagreeably +presumptuous in Mrs. Condor's tone. He never remembered having taken +anybody into his confidence regarding a personal matter. The trouble +was that he had begun the whole affair under the misapprehension that it +was a most _impersonal_ thing. He still tried to look at it from that +angle, but Lily Condor's manner seemed bent on forcing home the rather +disturbing conviction that he had a vital interest in the issue. She had +cut in upon his reserve and he would never quite be able to recover the +lost ground. He felt that she sensed his revulsion, for almost at once +she adroitly changed the subject and it did not come to life again +during the remainder of his call. + +But when he was leaving she thrust an idle finger into the lapel of his +coat and said: + +"I think it's awfully good of you, Ned, to be human enough to want to do +something for others. I watched you as a young man, and when you +married...." His startled look must have halted her, for she released +her hold upon him and finished with a shrug. + +He said good-by hastily and escaped. But he wondered, as he found his +way out into the street, how long it would be before Mrs. Condor would +acquire sufficient boldness to discuss with him what and whom she chose. + + + +CHAPTER X + + +Christmas Day came and went with a host of bitter-sweet memories for +Claire Robson. Not that she could look back on any holiday season with +unalloyed happiness, but time had drawn the sting from the misfortune of +the old days. Through the mist of the years outlines softened, and she +was more prone to measure the results by the slight harvest that their +efforts had brought. For instance, they had never been too poor to deny +themselves the luxury of a tree. And a tree to Mrs. Robson meant none of +the scant, indifferent affairs that most of the neighbors found +acceptable strung with a few strands of dingy popcorn and pasteboard +ornaments. No, the Robson tree was always an opulent work of art, +freighted with bursting cornucopias and heavy glass balls and yards of +quivering tinsel. The money for all this dazzling beauty usually came a +fortnight or so before the eventful day in the shape of a ten-dollar +bill tucked away in the folds of Gertrude Sinclair's annual letter to +Mrs. Robson. As Claire had grown older she had grown also impatient of +the memory of her mother squandering what should have gone for thick +shoes and warm plaid dresses upon the ephemeral joys of a Christmas +tree. But now she suddenly understood, and she felt glad for a mother +courageous enough to lay hold upon the beautiful symbols of life at the +expense of all that was hideously practical. Shoes wore out and plaid +dresses finally found their way to the rag-bag, but the glories of the +spirit burned forever in the splendor of all this truant magnificence, +and the years stretched back in a glittering procession of light-ladened +fir-trees. + +Then some time between Christmas and New-Year came the Christmas +pantomime at the Tivoli, with its bewildering array of scantily clad +fairies and dashing Amazons and languishing princes in pale-blue tights; +to say nothing of the Queen Charlottes consumed between acts through +faintly yellow straws. How Claire would mark off each day on the +calendar which brought her nearer to this triumph! And what a hurry and +bustle always ensued to get dinner over and be fully dressed and down to +the box-office before even the doors were opened, so that they could get +first choice of the unreserved seats which sold at twenty-five cents. +Then there would ensue the long, tedious wait in the dimly lighted +cavern of the playhouse, smelling with a curious fascination of stale +cigars and staler beer, and the thrill that the appearance of the +orchestra produced, followed by the arrival of all the important +personages fortunate enough to afford fifty-cent seats, which gave them +the security to put off their appearance until the curtain was almost +ready to rise. And when the curtain really did rise upon the inevitable +spectacle of villagers dancing upon the village green! And Mrs. Robson +carefully picked out in the chorus the stout sister of a former servant +who had worked for her mother! And the wicked old witch swept from the +wings on the traditional broomstick! From that moment until the final +transformation scene, when scintillating sea-shells yielded up one by +one their dazzling burdens of female loveliness and a rather Hebraic +Cupid descended from an invisible wire to wish everybody a happy +New-Year in words appropriately rhymed, there was no halt to the wonders +disclosed. With what sharp and exquisite reluctance did Claire remain +glued to her seat, refusing to believe that it was all over! Even at +this late date Claire had only to close her eyes to revive the delights +of these rather covert excursions into the realm of fancy--covert, +because a Tivoli pantomime had not precisely the sanction of such a +respectable organization as the Second Presbyterian Church. Mrs. Robson, +while not definitely encouraging Claire to wilful dishonesty, always +managed to warn her daughter by saying: + +"I wouldn't tell any one about going to the Tivoli, Claire, if I were +you ... unless, of course, they should ask about it." + +Claire, in mortal terror lest any indiscretion on her part would put a +stop to this annual lapse into such delightful immoralities, held her +peace in spite of her desire to spread abroad the beauties which she had +beheld. She had a feeling that all the participants in the pantomime +must of necessity be rather wicked and abandoned creatures, and half the +pleasure she had felt in viewing them arose from a secret admiration at +the courage which permitted human beings to be so perfectly and +desperately sinful. Although she was almost persuaded that perhaps it +did not take quite such bravado to be wicked in blue-spangled gauze and +satin slippers as it did to lapse from the straight and narrow path in a +gingham dress and resoled boots. + +The only thrill that the present Christmas Day produced came in the +shape of a pot of flaming poinsettias bearing the card of Ned Stillman. +These were the first flowers that Claire ever remembered having +received. It pleased her also to realize that Stillman had been delicate +to the point of this thoroughly unpractical gift, especially as he had +every reason to assume that something more substantial would have been +acceptable. She was confident that by this time he had heard through +Mrs. Condor of her mother's illness and her loss of position. Claire was +still puzzled at Mrs. Condor's visit. For all that lady's skill at +subterfuge, there were implied evasions in her manner which Claire +sensed instinctively. And then Claire was not yet inured to the novelty +of being in demand. To have been forced by circumstance upon Mrs. Condor +as an accompanist was one thing; to be desired by her in a moment of +cold calculation was quite another; and there had been more uncertainty +than caution in Claire's plea for time in which to consider the offer. +But as the days flew by it became more and more apparent to Claire that +she was in no position to indulge in idle speculation. She had long +since given up the hope of fulfilling the demands of a regular office +position, even if one had been open to her. Mrs. Finnegan's enthusiasm +to be neighborly and helpful was more a matter of theory than practice, +and it did not take Claire many days to decide that she had no right to +impose upon a good nature which was made up largely of ignorance of a +sick-room's demands. Claire's final check from Flint was dwindling with +alarming rapidity; indeed, she was facing the first of the year with the +realization that there would be barely enough to pay the next month's +rent, let alone to settle the current bills. She had no idea what Mrs. +Condor intended paying, but she fancied that it must be little enough. +Surely Mrs. Condor did not receive any great sum for her singing and +there must be any number of gratuitous performances. She decided quite +suddenly, the day after Christmas, to take Mrs. Condor at her word, and +she was a bit disturbed at both the lady's reply and the manner of it. + +"Oh," Mrs. Condor had drawled rather disagreeably, "I thought you'd +given up the idea. I spoke to somebody else only this morning. But, of +course, I'm not certain about how it will turn out. I'll keep you in +mind and if the other falls through.... By the way, how is your mother? +I keep asking Ned Stillman every day what the news is, but he never +knows anything. All men are alike ... unless they've got some special +interest. Sometimes I marvel that he looks me up so regularly, but then +I've known him ever since.... But there, I'll be telling more than I +should! Do come and see me. I'm always in in the morning.... Yes, I can +imagine you do have a lot to do. I'm so sorry you didn't call up +sooner. But one never can tell. Good-by.... I hope you'll have a happy +New Year." + +Claire hung up the receiver. Well, she had lost an opportunity to turn +an easy dollar or two and she had no one to thank but herself. Why had +she delayed in accepting Mrs. Condor's offer? + +Fortunately the unexpected arrival of Nellie Whitehead cut short any +further repinings. Claire was frankly glad to see her and at once she +thought, "She has come to show me her new coat." + +But Nellie Whitehead was incased in a wrap that showed every evidence of +a good six months' wear. + +"My new coat?" the lady echoed, in answer to Claire's question. "There +ain't no such animal. Somebody else copped it. I didn't shove it back +far enough the last time I took a look at it, I guess. Oh, well, I +should worry! I can get along very well without it...." + +When Nellie Whitehead rose to leave, dusk had fallen and Claire was +fumbling for matches to light the hall gas, when she felt her friend's +hand close over hers. There followed the cold pressure of several coins +against Claire's palm and the voice of her visitor sounding a bit +tremulous in the dusk. + +"You'll need some extra money, Robson, or I miss my guess." + +Claire fell back with a gesture of protest. "Why, Nellie Whitehead, how +could you? It's your coat money, too! Well, _I_ never!" + +And with that they both burst into tears.... When Claire recovered +herself she found that Nellie Whitehead had escaped. She lit the gas +and opened her palm. Four twenty-dollar gold pieces glistened in the +light. + + * * * * * + +Next morning Claire received a telephone message from Mrs. Condor. The +position of accompanist was hers at forty dollars a month if she desired +it. + +"It won't be hard," Mrs. Condor had finished, reassuringly. "Some weeks +I've something on nearly every night. And then again there won't be +anything doing for days.... How can I afford to pay so much? Well, my +dear, that is a secret. But don't worry, you'll earn it...." + +And toward the close of the week there came another surprise for Claire +in the shape of a letter from Stillman, which ran: + + + MY DEAR MISS ROBSON.--I am going to take a little flier at the bean + market. + + That was my father's business and I know a few things about it--at + least to the extent of recognizing the commodity when the sack is + opened. Do you fancy you could arrange to give me a few hours a week + at the typewriter? If so, we can get together and arrange terms. + + Cordially, + + EDWARD STILLMAN. + + +"At last," flashed through Claire's mind, "he's going in for something +worth while." + +This time she decided promptly. Over the telephone she made an +appointment with Stillman, in his apartments, for beginning work on the +second Wednesday in January. + + + +CHAPTER XI + + +Shortly after the first of the year Claire received her initial summons +from Lily Condor--they were to appear at a concert in the Colonial +Ballroom of the St. Francis for the Belgian relief. Mrs. Condor had +intimated that the affair was to be smart, and so it proved. It was set +at a very late and very fashionable hour, and all through the program +groups of torpid, though rather audible, diners kept drifting in. Claire +was not slow to discover that Lily Condor was first on the bill, and she +remembered reading somewhere in a newspaper that among professionals the +first and last place were always loathsome positions. Judging from the +noise and confusion that accompanied their efforts, Claire could well +understand why this was so, and she expected to find Lily Condor +resentful. But to her surprise Mrs. Condor merely shrugged her shoulders +and said: + +"What difference does it make? They don't come to listen, anyway. +Besides, I always open the bill. I like to get it over quickly." + +But Claire had reason to suspect, as she followed the remainder of a +very excellent program, that the choice of position did not rest with +Mrs. Condor. Claire began to wonder how much money Mrs. Condor received +for an effort like this. And she became more puzzled as she gathered +from the conversation of the other artists about her that the talent had +been furnished gratuitously. + +"I understand," she heard a woman in front of her whisper to her +companion, "that Devincenzi, the 'cellist, is the only one in the crowd +who is getting a red cent. But he has a rule, you know--or is it a +contract? I'm sure I don't know. At any rate, they say that the +Ffinch-Browns donated his fee.... The Ffinch-Browns? Don't you know +them?... See, there they are ... over there by the Tom Forsythes. She +has on turquoise pendant earrings.... Oh, they're ever so charitable! +But they do say that she is something of a...." + +Claire lost the remainder of this stage whisper in a rather tremulous +anxiety to catch a glimpse of her aunt before she moved. Claire had to +acknowledge that at a distance her aunt gave a wonderful illusion of +arrested youth as she stood with one hand grasping the collar of her +gorgeous mandarin coat. But Claire was more interested in the turquoise +pendants than in her aunt. She had never seen the jewels before, but she +had heard about them almost from the time she was able to lisp. + +"They're mine," Mrs. Robson had repeated to Claire again and again. "My +father bought them for me when I was sixteen years old. I remember the +day distinctly, and how my mother said: 'Don't you think, John, that +Emily is a little young for anything like this? I'll keep them for her +until she is twenty.' I nearly cried myself sick, but of course mother +was right, _then_.... But like everything else, I never got my hands on +them again. And what is more, Julia Carrol Ffinch-Brown knows that they +are mine as well as anybody, because she stood right alongside of me +when I handed them over to mother. Not that I care.... It's the +principle of the thing!" + +Claire felt disappointed in the pendants. They seemed so +insignificant--to fall very far short of her mother's passionate +description of them, and she began to wonder which was the more +pathetic, Mrs. Robson's exaggerated notion of their worth or the +pettiness that gave Aunt Julia the tenacity to hold fast to such trivial +baubles. + +Ned Stillman was in the audience, also. Claire saw him sitting off at +the side. Indeed, she spotted him on the very moment of her entrance +upon the stage. She had been nervous until his friendly smile warmed her +into easy confidence; and though, while she played, her back had been +toward him, she felt the glow of his sympathy. As Lily Condor and she +swept back upon the stage for their rather perfunctory applause, and +still more perfunctory bouquets provided by the committee, Claire could +see him gently tapping his hands in her direction, and she was surprised +when the usher handed her a bouquet of dazzling orchids. + +"They must be for you," Claire said, innocently enough, to Mrs. Condor. +"I don't find any name on them." + +"That shows that you've got a discreet admirer, at any rate," Lily +Condor returned with that bantering sneer which Claire was just +beginning to notice. And the thought struck her at once that Stillman +had sent the flowers. She was pleased, but also a little annoyed to +think he had so deliberately ignored Mrs. Condor. + +The Flints were there, too; Flint looked uncomfortable and warm in his +scant full-dress suit and his wife frankly ridiculous in a low-cut gown +that exhibited every angle of a hopelessly scrawny neck. Claire did not +see them until she was leaving the stage, and she smiled as she saw +Flint lean over and pick up the opera-glasses from his wife's lap. But +this was not all. In a far corner sat Miss Munch and her cousin, Mrs. +Richards, their ferret eyes darting busily about and their tongues +clicking even more rapidly. Doubtless Flint had invested in a number of +tickets at the office for business reasons and passed them around for +any of the office force who felt a desire to see society at close range. + +Claire had not meant to stay beyond one or two numbers following her own +appearance, but she kept yielding to Mrs. Condor's insistent suggestions +that she "stay for just one more," until she discovered, to her dismay, +that it was past midnight. The last artists were taking their places +upon the stage. Claire resigned herself to the inevitable and sat out +the remainder of the performance. She was making a quick exit into the +dressing-room when she came face to face with her aunt. Mrs. +Ffinch-Brown betrayed her confusion by the merest lift of the eyebrows, +and she stepped back as if to get a clearer view of her niece, as she +said with an air of polite surprise: + +"You--_here_?" + +Claire carried her head confidently. "I was on the program," she +returned, consciously eying the turquoise pendants. + +Mrs. Ffinch-Brown rested a closed fan against her left ear as if to +screen at least one of the earrings from Claire's frank stare. "Oh, how +interesting! I must have missed you--I came in late. It's rather odd. I +thought I knew everybody on the program.... I helped arrange it." + +"Well," Claire smiled, "I wasn't what you would call one of the +head-liners. I played Mrs. Condor's accompaniments." + +"That accounts for it ... my not knowing, I mean. I dare say your mother +is better, otherwise you wouldn't be here." + +Claire met her aunt's thrust calmly. "No, mother is worse, if anything. +As a matter of fact, I'm here...." + +She broke off abruptly, realizing suddenly that she had left her orchids +behind. She turned to discover Stillman making his leisurely way toward +her. He had the orchids in his hand. + +"My dear Miss Robson," he said, gently, "Mrs. Condor came very near +appropriating your flowers." + +She could feel the color rising to her forehead. "I see you came to my +rescue again," she said, simply, taking them from him. "I think you know +Mr. Stillman, Aunt Julia." + +Mrs. Ffinch-Brown forced a too-sweet smile as she gave Stillman a nod of +recognition. "Fancy any girl forgetting so much gorgeousness!" she +exclaimed with an attempt at lightness, but Claire caught the covert +rancor in her voice, and as her aunt made a movement of escape she put +out a restraining hand and said: + +"I wanted you to know, Aunt Julia, that I'm here merely as a matter of +business. Mrs. Condor has hired me to play her accompaniments." + +Mrs. Ffinch-Brown shook off Claire impatiently. "_Hired_ you!" she +sneered. "How extraordinary!" + +And with that she swept past, giving Stillman a glance of farewell. + +Claire turned to Stillman. "What must you think of me? Leaving my +flowers behind. Confess--it was you who sent them.... I was in such a +rush to get away, though. I shouldn't have stayed so long. My mother is +alone.... Of course there are neighbors just below and they will look in +on her, but just the same...." + +His smile reassured her. "Are you forgetting about to-morrow?" he asked. +"Remember we are to begin business promptly at two o'clock. I hired a +typewriting-machine yesterday. I'm really thrilled at the idea of--of +going into business." + +She looked at him steadily as she gave him her hand: "My dear Mr. +Stillman," she said, quite frankly, "you are very kind." + +He answered by pressing her hand warmly and she covered her face with +the purple orchids. They were interrupted by Lily Condor sweeping rather +arrogantly toward them. + +"Haven't you gone yet?" she asked Claire. "I thought you were in a +hurry! I hope you've persuaded Ned to get us a taxi. I hate street-cars +at this hour." And in answer to Claire's embarrassed protest that she +had never given such a thing a thought, Mrs. Condor finished: "Well, +I've given it a thought, and don't you forget it. Come, Ned, is it a +go?" + +Claire fancied that a flicker of annoyance passed over Stillman's face +as he answered, with a dry laugh: + +"You might at least have given me time to prove my gallantry." + +"I'm not taking any chances," was the prompt reply. + +Claire turned away. What had contrived to give Mrs. Condor this +disagreeable air of assurance toward Ned Stillman, she found herself +wondering. It had not been apparent at the Condor-Stillman musicale.... + +She arrived home dismayed to find the front room illuminated, but the +rattle of the departing taxi brought Mrs. Finnegan to the top of the +stairs with a laughing apology. + +"I just looked in to see how your mother was, Miss Claire, and I found a +book on the front-room table"--Mrs. Finnegan held up Ouida's +_Moths_--"and I got so interested in it that I just naturally forgot to +go home. Finnegan's out, anyway. I was telling him about your good +fortune. And all he said was: 'Well, it beats me how an old crow like +Mrs. Condor gets paid for singing. I remember five years ago, when she +wasn't so uppish, we had her for a benefit performance of the Native +Sons, and she didn't get paid then. Her singing may be over my head. +Anyway, it didn't get to my ears.' But Finnegan is always like that. He +just likes to contradict. I got back at him. I said, 'Well, if she can +afford to pay Miss Claire forty a month for playing the piano, she must +get a good piece of money every time she opens her mouth.' ...Mercy, +look at the orchids! Well, you must have had a swell time. I'll bet you +wouldn't like to tell who sent them.... There wasn't any card? That's +not saying you don't know, Miss Claire.... I hope you won't think I'm a +meddler, but I'm an older woman and.... Well, just you keep a sharp eye +on the feller that sends you orchids, Miss Claire." + +She went down-stairs without further ado. Claire put the orchids in +water and set them on a sill near an open window. She did not feel in +the least resentful of Mrs. Finnegan's warnings. She was too confident +to be anything but faintly amused at her neighbor's middle-class +anxiety. But Finnegan's skepticism concerning Mrs. Condor annoyed her +and she remembered the disagreeable words of her aunt: + +"_Hired_ you? How extraordinary!" + + * * * * * + +"Two o'clock _sharp_!" The memory of Stillman's air of delicate banter +as he emphasized the hour for beginning his business venture struck +Claire ironically the more she pondered his words. She had a feeling +that there was something farcical in the prospect, and yet there seemed +nothing to do but to go through with the preliminaries. She presented +herself, therefore, at the appointed time at the Stanford Court +apartments. + +She found Stillman quite alone, his hands blue-black with the smudge +from a refractory typewriter ribbon which he was vainly endeavoring to +adjust. It took some time for him to get his hands clean again, and +Claire sharpened her pencils while she waited. But there really proved +to be nothing to do. + +"I'm all up in the air over this bean business," Stillman confessed, +nonchalantly. "The government, you know ... they're taking over all that +sort of thing ... regulating food and prices. Of course, in that +case...." + +Claire felt an enormous and illogical relief. "Then you really won't +need me," she ventured. + +"Oh, quite the contrary.... I have a certain amount of business, of a +sort. And I'm tired of dropping checks along the trail of public +stenographers.... Suppose we talk terms. We haven't fixed on any salary, +yet." + +Claire felt a rising impatience. His subterfuge seemed too childish and +obvious. "That will depend on how much of my time you expect, Mr. +Stillman." + +"Well, three times a week, anyway ... to start with. Say Mondays, +Wednesdays, and Fridays from two to five.... I was thinking that +something in the neighborhood of fifteen dollars a week would be fair." + +He turned a very frank gaze in her direction and she quizzically +returned his glance. + +"That's rather ridiculous, don't you think?" she said, trying to +disguise her furtive annoyance. "You can hire a substitute through any +typewriting agency on the basis of three dollars a day." + +"Yes, and I can buy two cigars for a nickel, but I shouldn't want to +smoke them." + +She clicked the keys of her machine idly. "That is hardly a fair +comparison. You can get any number of competent girls for three +dollars." + +He rested his chin on his upturned palm. "But, my dear Miss Robson, I +happen to want _you_." + +She thought of any number of cheap, obvious retorts that might have been +flung back at his straightforward admission, but instead she said, with +equal frankness: + +"That's just what I don't understand." + +He threw her a puzzled look and the usual placid light in his eyes +quickened to resentful impatience. + +"Is that a necessary part of the contract, Miss Robson?" + +She caught her breath. His tone of annoyance was sharp and unexpected. +There was a suggestion of Flint's masculine arrogance in his voice. She +felt how absurd was her cross-examination of him, of how absurd, under +the circumstances, would have been her cross-examination of anybody +ready and willing to give her work to do and an ample wage in the +bargain, and yet, for all the force of his reply, she knew it to be a +well-bred if not a deliberate evasion. + +"You mean it is none of my business, don't you?" she contrived to laugh +back at him. + +His reply was a further surprise. "Yes, precisely," he said, with an +ominous thinning of the lips. + +She rose instinctively to meet this thrust and she was conscious that +even Flint had never managed so to disturb her. She glanced about +hastily as if measuring the room in a swift impulse toward escape. +Stillman had chosen the dining-room for a temporary office, and upon the +polished surface of the antique walnut table the typewriter struck an +incongruous note; indeed, it was all incongruous, particularly Stillman +and his assumed business airs. Yes, it was absurd for her to either +cross-examine or protest, but it was equally absurd for him to pay her +such an outlandish sum for nine hours a week. + +"He's doing it for me," she thought, not without a sense of triumph. +Then, turning to him, she said, a bit awkwardly: + +"I guess there isn't any use to dissuade you, Mr. Stillman. If you say +fifteen dollars a week, I sha'n't argue with you." + +He smiled back at her, all his former suavity regained. She slid into +her seat again. Her mind was recalling vividly the one other time in her +life when she had grappled vigorously with the masculine spirit of +domination, and come away victorious. This time she had been defeated +and she had impulses toward relief and fear. She looked up suddenly and +trapped a solicitous glance from Stillman that rather annoyed her. And +it struck her, as she mentally compared Stillman with most of the men of +her acquaintance, how far he could have loomed above them if he had had +the will for such a performance. As it was he fell somewhat beneath them +in a curious, indefinable way. Had he been too finely tempered by +circumstances or had the flame of life lacked the proper heat for fusing +his virtues effectively? For the moment she found Flint's forthright +insolence more tolerable than Stillman's sterile deference. Suddenly she +began to think of home, not with any sense of security, but as something +unpleasant, dark, disquieting.... + + + +CHAPTER XII + + +Toward six o'clock one afternoon in late February Ned Stillman, making +his way from the business district at California and Montgomery Streets +toward his club, suddenly remembered a forgotten luncheon engagement for +that day with Lily Condor. + +"Well," he muttered at once, "I'm in for it now! I guess I might as well +swing out and see her and get the thing over with." + +It was curious of late how often he was given to muttering. Previously, +petty annoyances had not moved him to these half-audible and solitary +comments which he had always found contemptuously amusing in others. He +wondered whether this new trick was the result of his business ventures, +his sly charities, or his approach toward the suggestive age of forty. +Associating the name of Lily Condor with his covert charities, he was +almost persuaded that they lay back of this preposterous habit. And the +more he thought about it the more he muttered and became convinced that +Lily Condor was usually the topic of these vocal self-communings. + +Ned Stillman had always prided himself upon his sense of personal +freedom concerning the trivial circumstances of life. Of course, like +any man of sensibility, he was bound by the chains that deeper impulses +forge, but he had never been hampered by any restraints directed at his +ordinary uprisings and downsittings. In short, he had answered the beck +and nod of no man, much less a woman, and he was not finding Lily +Condor's growing presumptions along this line altogether agreeable. + +He would not have minded so much if there was any personal gratification +in yielding to the lady's whip-hand commands. There are certain delights +in self-surrender which give a zest to slavery, but there is no joy in +being held a hostage. Looking back, Stillman marveled at the +indiscretion he had committed when he handed over not only his reserve, +but Claire Robson's reputation into the safekeeping of Lily Condor. Had +he ever had the simplicity to imagine that a woman of Mrs. Condor's +stamp would constitute herself a safe-deposit vault for hoarding secrets +without exacting a price? Well, perhaps he had expected to pay, but a +little less publicly. He had not looked to have the lady in question +ring every coin audibly in full view and hearing of the entire +market-place, and yet, if his experience had stood him in good stead, he +must have known that this was precisely what she would do. Stillman's +hidden gratitude, his private beneficences, did not serve her purpose, +but the spectacle of him in the rôle of her debtor was a sight that went +a long way to establishing a social credit impoverished by no end of +false ventures. + +Her command for him to take her to luncheon--and it had been a command, +however suavely she had managed to veil it--bore also the stamp of +urgency. Usually she was content to lay all her positive requests to the +charge of mere caprice, but on this occasion she took the trouble to +intimate that there was a particular reason for wanting to see him. It +did not take him long to conclude that this particular reason had to do +with Claire Robson. That was why he yielded with a better grace than he +had been giving to his troublesome friend's disagreeable pressure. + +Stillman knew that while Lily Condor was not precisely jealous of the +younger woman, she was distinctly envious--with the impersonal but acrid +envy of middle age for youth. The episode of the orchids still rankled. +He had to admit that in this instance his course had been tactless, but +he had ignored Mrs. Condor as a challenge to the presumption which he +had already begun to sense. She, while seeming definitely to evade the +real issue, had answered the challenge and he had paid for his temerity +a hundredfold. She had reminded him again and again in deft but none the +less positive terms that she was keeping a finger on the mainspring of +any advantage that came her way. Sometimes Stillman wondered whether she +would really be cattish enough to betray his confidence and bring Claire +Robson crashing down under the weight of the questionable position into +which his indiscretion had forced her. Would she really have the face to +publish abroad the pregnant fact that Ned Stillman was providing what +she had been pleased to designate as a meal-ticket for a young woman in +difficulty? For himself he cared little, except that he always shrank +instinctively from appearing ridiculous. + +He had been thinking a great deal of late as to the best course to +pursue in ridding himself and Claire of this menacing incubus. He had a +feeling that Claire, having exhausted the novelties of her position as +accompanist to Lily Condor, was beginning to find the affair irksome. + +The business venture had progressed in quite another direction from his +original intention. Suddenly, without knowing how it had all come about, +he found his plans clearly defined. The government needed him. Somehow, +it had never occurred to him that he could be of service at a point so +far from the center of war activities. He had been a good deal of an +idler, it was true, but the seeds of achievement were merely lying in +fallow soil. + +At first, he had been stung into action more by Claire's accusing +attitude than anything else. She used to come every other afternoon at +the appointed time and almost challenge him by her reproachful silence +to do something, if only to provide her with an illusion. It was as if +she said: + +"See, I have given in to you. I know that you are doing this for me, and +I am deeply grateful. But won't you please make the situation a little +less transparent? Won't you at least justify me in the eyes of those who +are watching our little performance?..." + +It had all ended by his offering his services to the Food +Administration. He knew something of his father's business. He felt that +he had a fair knowledge of beans, and he could learn more. He merely +asked a trial, and it surprised him to find what a sense of humility +suddenly possessed him. He was really overjoyed when a place was assured +him. But he had to admit that his acceptance was not accorded any great +enthusiasm. The newspapers mentioned it in a scant paragraph that was +not even given a prominent place. He had received greater recognition +for a brilliant play upon the golf-links! Well, in such stirring times +he was nobody. He did not complain, even to himself, but the knowledge +subconsciously rankled. + +He hired an office down-town, joined the Commercial Club, religiously +attended every meeting that had to do with food conservation, hunted +out, absorbed, appropriated all the economic secrets that served his +purpose.... Suddenly he found himself engrossed, enthusiastic, _busy_! +Finally Claire said to him one day: + +"Don't you think I ought to come to you every afternoon?" + +"If you can arrange it," he almost snapped back at her. + +She did arrange it, how he took no pains to inquire, and a little later +she said again: + +"You ought to have some one here all day. I guess you will have to look +for another stenographer." + +He remembered how menacingly he had darted at her. She was dressed for +the street, on her way home, and she had halted at the door. + +"Do you want to desert the work that you've inspired?" he demanded. + +"Inspired?... By _me_?" Her voice took on a note of triumph. + +"You didn't fancy that _I_ inspired it, did you?" he sneered at her. + +His vehemence confused her. "I hadn't thought.... Really, you know.... +Well, as you say.... But, of course, it is absurd when you can get any +number of girls to...." + +"But suppose I want _you_?" he demanded of her for a second time. + +She left without further reply. + +When she was gone he found himself in a nasty panic. It was as if the +lady who had called him to her lists had suddenly decided upon a new +defender. + +"Is she tired of it all ... or is there some one else? Can it be +possible that Flint...." + +He had stopped short, amazed to find his mind descending to such a +vulgar level. What had come over him? And he began to fancy things as +they once had been--empty, purposeless days, and nights that found him +too bored to even sleep. It seemed incredible that he could go back to +them again. What lay at the bottom of his sudden deep-breathed +satisfaction with life? For an instant, the truth which he had kept at +bay with his old trick of evasion swept toward him. + +"No ... no," he muttered. "Oh no!... That would be too absurd!" + +But when he had gone to the mirror to brush his hair before venturing on +the street he found thick beads of perspiration on his forehead and his +hand shook as he lifted the comb. + +The next day he told Claire that in the future her salary would be +twenty dollars a week. He stood expecting her to rail against the +increase, to try to put him to rout by explaining that she had received +less for a full day's work at Flint's. But to his surprise she thanked +him and went on with her work. + +It was shortly after this that he began to haunt the various +performances in which Lily Condor and Claire appeared. He always +contrived to slip in during the first number, which as a rule happened +to be Mrs. Condor's offering, and he sat in a far corner where nobody +but that lady could have chanced upon him. But he never knew her to fail +in locating him, or to miss the opportunity to sit out the remainder of +the program at his side, or to suggest crab-legs Louis at Tait's, +particularly if Claire were determined upon an early leave-taking. The +effect of all this was not lost upon the general public, and it was not +long before men of Stillman's acquaintance used to remark facetiously to +him over the lunch-table: + +"What's new in beans to-day?... Are _reds_ still a favorite?" + +Stillman would throw back an equally cryptic answer, thinking as he did +so: + +"What a wigging I must be getting over the teacups! I guess I'll cut it +all out in the future." + +But he usually went no farther than his impulsive resolves. + +Sometimes he wondered what Claire thought of his faithful appearance. +Did she fancy that he came to bask in the smiling impertinences of Lily +Condor? + +As he made his way to a street-car on this vivid February afternoon, he +called to mind that of late Claire had been bringing a fagged look to +her daily tasks. He hoped again that Mrs. Condor's desire to see him had +to do with Claire--more particularly with her dismissal as accompanist. +Miss Menzies had quite recovered and there was really no reason for +Claire to continue in her service. It struck him as he pondered all +these matters how strange it was to find him concerned about these +feminine adjustments--he who had always stared down upon trivial +circumstances with cold scorn. + +He arrived at Lily Condor's apartments almost upon the lady's heels. Her +hat was still ornamenting the center-table and her wrap lay upon a +wicker rocker, where, with a quick movement of irritation, it had been +cast aside. + +Her greeting was not reassuring. "Oh...." she began coldly. "Isn't this +rather late for lunch?" + +"I'm really very sorry," Stillman returned as he took a chair, "but to +be frank, I quite forgot about you." + +"Well," she tried to laugh back at him, "there isn't any virtue as +disagreeable as the truth. I expected you would at least attempt to be +polite enough to lie." + +"I hope you were not too greatly inconvenienced," he said, in a +deliberate attempt to ignore her irritation. + +"I waited two hours, if that is what you mean. But then, _my_ time isn't +particularly valuable." + +He rose suddenly. "I've told you that I was sorry," he began coldly, +reaching for his hat. "But evidently you are determined to be +disagreeable. I fancied you wanted to see me about something urgent, so +I came almost as soon as I remembered." + +She snatched the discarded wrap from its place on the wicker rocker as +she glared at him. "You're in something of a hurry, it seems.... Well, I +sha'n't detain you. The truth is there's a pretty kettle of fish stewed +up over this young woman, Claire Robson.... I want you to tell her that +she can't play at the Café Chantant next Friday night." + +"Want _me_ to tell her? I don't see where I come in.... Why don't you +tell her yourself?" + +"Because I don't choose to.... Besides, I think you might do it a little +more delicately. I can't tell her brutally that she isn't wanted." + +"Isn't wanted? Why, what do you mean?" + +"The committee informs me that she isn't the sort of person they are +accustomed to have featured in their entertainments. It seems that Mrs. +Flint...." + +"Mrs. Sawyer Flint?" + +"Precisely." + +"What is her objection?" + +"Do you really want me to tell you?" + +"Why not?" + +"It appears that some time last fall Miss Robson tried to get her +husband into a compromising position. She came over to the house one +night when Mrs. Flint was away. Flint promptly ordered her out. It seems +she went ... to be quite frank ... with _you_. And what is more, +she...." + +"It isn't necessary for you to go any farther. Tell me, do you mean to +say that you believe this thing? Didn't you lift a hand to defend her?" + +Lily Condor narrowed her eyes. "Oh, come now, Ned Stillman, don't be a +fool! You know as well as I do that I'm hanging on to my own reputation +by my finger-nails. I'm not taking any chances. As to whether it is so +... well, if I were to tell the committee everything I know it wouldn't +help her cause any. I could wreck her reputation like that," she snapped +her fingers, "with one solitary fact. If she hasn't wrecked it already +with her senseless chatter.... Only last week her aunt, Mrs. +Ffinch-Brown, said to me: 'So you're hiring my niece! I must say that is +handsome of you!' You were sitting talking to Claire and she looked +deliberately at you when she said it. Remember how I warned you, last +December. I told you then that the secret of a woman's meal-ticket was +never hidden very long." + +During this speech Mrs. Condor's voice had dropped from its original +tone of petty rancor to one of petulant self-justification. Stillman +knew at once that her ill-temper had caught her off-guard and she was +already trying to crawl slowly back into his favor. She had meant, no +doubt, to soften her news over a glass or two of chilled white wine +which she had counted on sipping during the noon hour. She might even +then have gone farther and decided to cast her fortunes with Stillman +and Claire if she had seen that her advantage lay in that direction. He +was not sure but that she still had some such notion in her mind. But he +felt suddenly sick of her past all hope of compromise, and he was +determined to be rid of her once and for all. + +"No doubt," he said, frigidly, "you will be glad to be relieved of Miss +Robson's presence permanently. I take it that you don't consider her +association exactly ... well ... shall we say discreet?" + +Her eyes took on a yellow tinge as she faced him. She must have sensed +the finality of his tone, the well-bred insolence that his query +suggested. + +"Discreet?" she echoed. "Well, I wouldn't say that that was quite what I +meant. Desirable--that would be better. I don't find her association +desirable.... I don't _want_ her, in other words." + +He had never been so angry in his life. Had she been a man he would have +struck her. He felt himself choking. "My dear Mrs. Condor," he warned, +"will you be good enough to take a little more respectful tone when you +speak of Miss Robson?" + +"Oh, indeed! And just what are your rights in the matter? You're not her +brother ... you're surely not her husband. And I didn't know that it was +the fashion for a...." His look stopped her. She trembled a moment, +tossed back her head, and finished, defiantly, "Yes, that is what I want +to know, what _are_ your rights?" + +He took a step toward her. Instinctively she retreated. + +"A woman like you wouldn't understand even if I were to tell you," he +flung at her. + +She covered her face with both hands. + +He left the room. + +He himself was trembling as he reached the street--trembling for the +first time in years. As a child he had been given to these fits of +emotional tremors, but he had long since lost the faculty for recording +physically his intense moments. Or had he lost the faculty for the +intense moments themselves, he found himself wondering, as he walked +rapidly toward his home. The evening was warm with the perfume of a bit +of truant summer that had somehow escaped before its time to hearten a +winter-weary world against the bitter assaults of March. Birds of +passage sang among the hedges, the sun still cast a faint greenish glow +in the extreme west. + +His first thought was of the cowering woman he had just left. He had +meant to lash her keenly with his verbal whipcords, but he had not +expected to find her quite so sensitive to his cutting scorn. He +remembered the gesture with which she had lifted her hand as if to +screen herself from his insults. There was a whole life of futile +compromise in just the manner of that gesture, a growing helplessness to +give straightforward thrusts, a pitiful admission of defeat. But he knew +that this surrender was temporary--a quick lifting of the mask under a +relentless pressure. To-morrow, in an hour, in ten minutes, Lily Condor +would be her dangerous self again, lashed into the fury of a woman +scorned. For a moment he did not know whether to be relieved or dismayed +at the prospect of Mrs. Condor for an enemy. How much would she really +dare? + +He thought with a lowering anger of Flint. He had been ready to concede +everything but this former friend in the rôle of a cheap and nasty +gossip. No--gossip was a pale, sickly term. Flint was a malignant toad, +a nauseous mud-slinger, a deliberate liar. He had heard of men who had +justified themselves with vile tales to their insipid, disgustingly +virtuous wives, but he had not counted such among his acquaintances. By +the side of Flint, Lily Condor loomed a very paragon of the social +amenities. + +Stillman was conscious that his mental process was keyed to the highest +pitch of melodrama. It was not usual for him to indulge in mental abuse. +He had never quite understood the dark and moving processes of red-eyed +anger. There had been something absurd in the theatrical hauteur of his +manner in this last scene with Mrs. Condor--that is, if it were measured +by his own standards. His growing detachments from life had claimed him +almost to the point of complete indifference. But now, suddenly, as if +Fate had dealt him an insulting blow upon the face with her bare palm, +he felt not only rage, but a sense of its futility, its impotence. + +"Flint!" he thought again. And immediately he spewed forth the memory of +this man in a flood of indiscriminate epithets. + + * * * * * + +Later, in the refuge of his own four walls and under the brooding solace +of an after-dinner cigar, he lost some of the intensiveness of his +former humor. But the force of the vehemence which had shaken him filled +him with much wonder and some apprehension. He was too much a man of +experience to deny questions when they were put to him squarely by +circumstances. + +"You're not her brother ... you're surely not her husband. And I didn't +know it was the fashion for a...." + +Lily Condor's clipped question struck him squarely now. Just what were +his expectations concerning Claire Robson? The thought turned him cold. +Essentially he was of Puritan mold, but he had always had a theory that +love of illicit pleasures must have been uncommonly strong in a people +who found it necessary to fight the flesh so uncompromisingly. Battling +with the elements upon the bleak shores of New England contributed, no +doubt, to the gray and chastened spirits that these grim folks had won +for themselves; spirits that colored and sometimes seeded swiftly under +the softer skies of California. San Francisco was full of these forced +blooms consumed and withered by the sudden heat of a free and +traditionless life. He knew scores of old-timers--his father's +friends--who had been gloriously wrecked by the passion with which they +met freedom's kiss. They had pursued pleasure with an energy overtrained +in wrestling with the devil and had paid the penalty of all ardent souls +lacking the prudence of weakness. There was at once something fine and +unlawful about the spirit of adventure: it implied courage, impatience +of restraint, wilfulness--in short, all the virtues and vices of +strength. He had felt at times the heritage of this strength, shorn of +its power by the softness of a wilderness that had been wooed instead +of conquered. His forefathers had found California a waiting, gracious +bride, but there had been almost a suggestion of the courtezan in the +lavishness of this land's response to the caresses of the invaders. + +There was something fantastic in the memory of his father, fresh from +the austere dawns of the little fishing village of Gloucester, +transplanted suddenly to the wine-red sunsets of the Golden Gate. He +felt that his father must have had the courage for substance-wasting +without the temptation. Most men in those early days had plunged unyoked +into the race--Ezra Stillman brought his bride, and therefore his +household goods, with him, and unconsciously custom drew its restraining +rein tight. Ezra Stillman came from a long line of salt-seasoned +tempters of the sea; their virtues had been rugged and their vices +equally robust; sin with them had been gaunt, sinewy, unlovely; there +was nothing insinuating and soft about the lure of pleasure in that +silver-nooned environment. Ezra had been the first of this long line to +turn his back upon the sea, and the land had rewarded him lavishly as if +determined to make his capture complete. Yet, he was not landsman enough +to wrest a living direct from the soil; instead, he set up his booth in +the market-place of the town and tr + + + +***END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE BLOOD RED DAWN*** + + +******* This file should be named 11875-8.txt or 11875-8.zip ******* + + +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: +https://www.gutenberg.org/1/1/8/7/11875 + + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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