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diff --git a/old/113-0.txt b/old/113-0.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..764ecb6 --- /dev/null +++ b/old/113-0.txt @@ -0,0 +1,9854 @@ +The Project Gutenberg eBook of The Secret Garden, Frances Hodgson Burnett + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere in the United States and +most other parts of the world at no cost and with almost no restrictions +whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or re-use it under the terms +of the Project Gutenberg License included with this eBook or online at +www.gutenberg.org. If you are not located in the United States, you +will have to check the laws of the country where you are located before +using this eBook. + +Title: The Secret Garden + +Author: Frances Hodgson Burnett + +Release Date: March 13, 1994 [eBook #113] +[Most recently updated: March 15, 2021] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: UTF-8 + + +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE SECRET GARDEN *** + + + + +THE SECRET GARDEN + +by Frances Hodgson Burnett + +_Author of + +“The Shuttle,” “The Making of a Marchioness,” “The Methods of Lady +Walderhurst,” “The Lass o’ Lowries,” “Through One Administration,” +“Little Lord Fauntleroy,” “A Lady of Quality,” etc._ + + +Contents + + I. THERE IS NO ONE LEFT + II. MISTRESS MARY QUITE CONTRARY + III. ACROSS THE MOOR + IV. MARTHA + V. THE CRY IN THE CORRIDOR + VI. “THERE WAS SOMEONE CRYING—THERE WAS!” + VII. THE KEY TO THE GARDEN + VIII. THE ROBIN WHO SHOWED THE WAY + IX. THE STRANGEST HOUSE ANYONE EVER LIVED IN + X. DICKON + XI. THE NEST OF THE MISSEL THRUSH + XII. “MIGHT I HAVE A BIT OF EARTH?” + XIII. “I AM COLIN” + XIV. A YOUNG RAJAH + XV. NEST BUILDING + XVI. “I WON’T!” SAID MARY + XVII. A TANTRUM + XVIII. “THA’ MUNNOT WASTE NO TIME” + XIX. “IT HAS COME!” + XX. “I SHALL LIVE FOREVER—AND EVER—AND EVER!” + XXI. BEN WEATHERSTAFF + XXII. WHEN THE SUN WENT DOWN + XXIII. MAGIC + XXIV. “LET THEM LAUGH” + XXV. THE CURTAIN + XXVI. “IT’S MOTHER!” + XXVII. IN THE GARDEN + + + + +CHAPTER I. +THERE IS NO ONE LEFT + + +When Mary Lennox was sent to Misselthwaite Manor to live with her uncle +everybody said she was the most disagreeable-looking child ever seen. +It was true, too. She had a little thin face and a little thin body, +thin light hair and a sour expression. Her hair was yellow, and her +face was yellow because she had been born in India and had always been +ill in one way or another. Her father had held a position under the +English Government and had always been busy and ill himself, and her +mother had been a great beauty who cared only to go to parties and +amuse herself with gay people. She had not wanted a little girl at all, +and when Mary was born she handed her over to the care of an Ayah, who +was made to understand that if she wished to please the Mem Sahib she +must keep the child out of sight as much as possible. So when she was a +sickly, fretful, ugly little baby she was kept out of the way, and when +she became a sickly, fretful, toddling thing she was kept out of the +way also. She never remembered seeing familiarly anything but the dark +faces of her Ayah and the other native servants, and as they always +obeyed her and gave her her own way in everything, because the Mem +Sahib would be angry if she was disturbed by her crying, by the time +she was six years old she was as tyrannical and selfish a little pig as +ever lived. The young English governess who came to teach her to read +and write disliked her so much that she gave up her place in three +months, and when other governesses came to try to fill it they always +went away in a shorter time than the first one. So if Mary had not +chosen to really want to know how to read books she would never have +learned her letters at all. + +One frightfully hot morning, when she was about nine years old, she +awakened feeling very cross, and she became crosser still when she saw +that the servant who stood by her bedside was not her Ayah. + +“Why did you come?” she said to the strange woman. “I will not let you +stay. Send my Ayah to me.” + +The woman looked frightened, but she only stammered that the Ayah could +not come and when Mary threw herself into a passion and beat and kicked +her, she looked only more frightened and repeated that it was not +possible for the Ayah to come to Missie Sahib. + +There was something mysterious in the air that morning. Nothing was +done in its regular order and several of the native servants seemed +missing, while those whom Mary saw slunk or hurried about with ashy and +scared faces. But no one would tell her anything and her Ayah did not +come. She was actually left alone as the morning went on, and at last +she wandered out into the garden and began to play by herself under a +tree near the veranda. She pretended that she was making a flower-bed, +and she stuck big scarlet hibiscus blossoms into little heaps of earth, +all the time growing more and more angry and muttering to herself the +things she would say and the names she would call Saidie when she +returned. + +“Pig! Pig! Daughter of Pigs!” she said, because to call a native a pig +is the worst insult of all. + +She was grinding her teeth and saying this over and over again when she +heard her mother come out on the veranda with someone. She was with a +fair young man and they stood talking together in low strange voices. +Mary knew the fair young man who looked like a boy. She had heard that +he was a very young officer who had just come from England. The child +stared at him, but she stared most at her mother. She always did this +when she had a chance to see her, because the Mem Sahib—Mary used to +call her that oftener than anything else—was such a tall, slim, pretty +person and wore such lovely clothes. Her hair was like curly silk and +she had a delicate little nose which seemed to be disdaining things, +and she had large laughing eyes. All her clothes were thin and +floating, and Mary said they were “full of lace.” They looked fuller of +lace than ever this morning, but her eyes were not laughing at all. +They were large and scared and lifted imploringly to the fair boy +officer’s face. + +“Is it so very bad? Oh, is it?” Mary heard her say. + +“Awfully,” the young man answered in a trembling voice. “Awfully, Mrs. +Lennox. You ought to have gone to the hills two weeks ago.” + +The Mem Sahib wrung her hands. + +“Oh, I know I ought!” she cried. “I only stayed to go to that silly +dinner party. What a fool I was!” + +At that very moment such a loud sound of wailing broke out from the +servants’ quarters that she clutched the young man’s arm, and Mary +stood shivering from head to foot. The wailing grew wilder and wilder. +“What is it? What is it?” Mrs. Lennox gasped. + +“Someone has died,” answered the boy officer. “You did not say it had +broken out among your servants.” + +“I did not know!” the Mem Sahib cried. “Come with me! Come with me!” +and she turned and ran into the house. + +After that appalling things happened, and the mysteriousness of the +morning was explained to Mary. The cholera had broken out in its most +fatal form and people were dying like flies. The Ayah had been taken +ill in the night, and it was because she had just died that the +servants had wailed in the huts. Before the next day three other +servants were dead and others had run away in terror. There was panic +on every side, and dying people in all the bungalows. + +During the confusion and bewilderment of the second day Mary hid +herself in the nursery and was forgotten by everyone. Nobody thought of +her, nobody wanted her, and strange things happened of which she knew +nothing. Mary alternately cried and slept through the hours. She only +knew that people were ill and that she heard mysterious and frightening +sounds. Once she crept into the dining-room and found it empty, though +a partly finished meal was on the table and chairs and plates looked as +if they had been hastily pushed back when the diners rose suddenly for +some reason. The child ate some fruit and biscuits, and being thirsty +she drank a glass of wine which stood nearly filled. It was sweet, and +she did not know how strong it was. Very soon it made her intensely +drowsy, and she went back to her nursery and shut herself in again, +frightened by cries she heard in the huts and by the hurrying sound of +feet. The wine made her so sleepy that she could scarcely keep her eyes +open and she lay down on her bed and knew nothing more for a long time. + +Many things happened during the hours in which she slept so heavily, +but she was not disturbed by the wails and the sound of things being +carried in and out of the bungalow. + +When she awakened she lay and stared at the wall. The house was +perfectly still. She had never known it to be so silent before. She +heard neither voices nor footsteps, and wondered if everybody had got +well of the cholera and all the trouble was over. She wondered also who +would take care of her now her Ayah was dead. There would be a new +Ayah, and perhaps she would know some new stories. Mary had been rather +tired of the old ones. She did not cry because her nurse had died. She +was not an affectionate child and had never cared much for anyone. The +noise and hurrying about and wailing over the cholera had frightened +her, and she had been angry because no one seemed to remember that she +was alive. Everyone was too panic-stricken to think of a little girl no +one was fond of. When people had the cholera it seemed that they +remembered nothing but themselves. But if everyone had got well again, +surely someone would remember and come to look for her. + +But no one came, and as she lay waiting the house seemed to grow more +and more silent. She heard something rustling on the matting and when +she looked down she saw a little snake gliding along and watching her +with eyes like jewels. She was not frightened, because he was a +harmless little thing who would not hurt her and he seemed in a hurry +to get out of the room. He slipped under the door as she watched him. + +“How queer and quiet it is,” she said. “It sounds as if there were no +one in the bungalow but me and the snake.” + +Almost the next minute she heard footsteps in the compound, and then on +the veranda. They were men’s footsteps, and the men entered the +bungalow and talked in low voices. No one went to meet or speak to them +and they seemed to open doors and look into rooms. + +“What desolation!” she heard one voice say. “That pretty, pretty woman! +I suppose the child, too. I heard there was a child, though no one ever +saw her.” + +Mary was standing in the middle of the nursery when they opened the +door a few minutes later. She looked an ugly, cross little thing and +was frowning because she was beginning to be hungry and feel +disgracefully neglected. The first man who came in was a large officer +she had once seen talking to her father. He looked tired and troubled, +but when he saw her he was so startled that he almost jumped back. + +“Barney!” he cried out. “There is a child here! A child alone! In a +place like this! Mercy on us, who is she!” + +“I am Mary Lennox,” the little girl said, drawing herself up stiffly. +She thought the man was very rude to call her father’s bungalow “A +place like this!” “I fell asleep when everyone had the cholera and I +have only just wakened up. Why does nobody come?” + +“It is the child no one ever saw!” exclaimed the man, turning to his +companions. “She has actually been forgotten!” + +“Why was I forgotten?” Mary said, stamping her foot. “Why does nobody +come?” + +The young man whose name was Barney looked at her very sadly. Mary even +thought she saw him wink his eyes as if to wink tears away. + +“Poor little kid!” he said. “There is nobody left to come.” + +It was in that strange and sudden way that Mary found out that she had +neither father nor mother left; that they had died and been carried +away in the night, and that the few native servants who had not died +also had left the house as quickly as they could get out of it, none of +them even remembering that there was a Missie Sahib. That was why the +place was so quiet. It was true that there was no one in the bungalow +but herself and the little rustling snake. + + + + +CHAPTER II. +MISTRESS MARY QUITE CONTRARY + + +Mary had liked to look at her mother from a distance and she had +thought her very pretty, but as she knew very little of her she could +scarcely have been expected to love her or to miss her very much when +she was gone. She did not miss her at all, in fact, and as she was a +self-absorbed child she gave her entire thought to herself, as she had +always done. If she had been older she would no doubt have been very +anxious at being left alone in the world, but she was very young, and +as she had always been taken care of, she supposed she always would be. +What she thought was that she would like to know if she was going to +nice people, who would be polite to her and give her her own way as her +Ayah and the other native servants had done. + +She knew that she was not going to stay at the English clergyman’s +house where she was taken at first. She did not want to stay. The +English clergyman was poor and he had five children nearly all the same +age and they wore shabby clothes and were always quarreling and +snatching toys from each other. Mary hated their untidy bungalow and +was so disagreeable to them that after the first day or two nobody +would play with her. By the second day they had given her a nickname +which made her furious. + +It was Basil who thought of it first. Basil was a little boy with +impudent blue eyes and a turned-up nose, and Mary hated him. She was +playing by herself under a tree, just as she had been playing the day +the cholera broke out. She was making heaps of earth and paths for a +garden and Basil came and stood near to watch her. Presently he got +rather interested and suddenly made a suggestion. + +“Why don’t you put a heap of stones there and pretend it is a rockery?” +he said. “There in the middle,” and he leaned over her to point. + +“Go away!” cried Mary. “I don’t want boys. Go away!” + +For a moment Basil looked angry, and then he began to tease. He was +always teasing his sisters. He danced round and round her and made +faces and sang and laughed. + +“Mistress Mary, quite contrary, + How does your garden grow? +With silver bells, and cockle shells, + And marigolds all in a row.” + +He sang it until the other children heard and laughed, too; and the +crosser Mary got, the more they sang “Mistress Mary, quite contrary”; +and after that as long as she stayed with them they called her +“Mistress Mary Quite Contrary” when they spoke of her to each other, +and often when they spoke to her. + +“You are going to be sent home,” Basil said to her, “at the end of the +week. And we’re glad of it.” + +“I am glad of it, too,” answered Mary. “Where is home?” + +“She doesn’t know where home is!” said Basil, with seven-year-old +scorn. “It’s England, of course. Our grandmama lives there and our +sister Mabel was sent to her last year. You are not going to your +grandmama. You have none. You are going to your uncle. His name is Mr. +Archibald Craven.” + +“I don’t know anything about him,” snapped Mary. + +“I know you don’t,” Basil answered. “You don’t know anything. Girls +never do. I heard father and mother talking about him. He lives in a +great, big, desolate old house in the country and no one goes near him. +He’s so cross he won’t let them, and they wouldn’t come if he would let +them. He’s a hunchback, and he’s horrid.” + +“I don’t believe you,” said Mary; and she turned her back and stuck her +fingers in her ears, because she would not listen any more. + +But she thought over it a great deal afterward; and when Mrs. Crawford +told her that night that she was going to sail away to England in a few +days and go to her uncle, Mr. Archibald Craven, who lived at +Misselthwaite Manor, she looked so stony and stubbornly uninterested +that they did not know what to think about her. They tried to be kind +to her, but she only turned her face away when Mrs. Crawford attempted +to kiss her, and held herself stiffly when Mr. Crawford patted her +shoulder. + +“She is such a plain child,” Mrs. Crawford said pityingly, afterward. +“And her mother was such a pretty creature. She had a very pretty +manner, too, and Mary has the most unattractive ways I ever saw in a +child. The children call her ‘Mistress Mary Quite Contrary,’ and though +it’s naughty of them, one can’t help understanding it.” + +“Perhaps if her mother had carried her pretty face and her pretty +manners oftener into the nursery Mary might have learned some pretty +ways too. It is very sad, now the poor beautiful thing is gone, to +remember that many people never even knew that she had a child at all.” + +“I believe she scarcely ever looked at her,” sighed Mrs. Crawford. +“When her Ayah was dead there was no one to give a thought to the +little thing. Think of the servants running away and leaving her all +alone in that deserted bungalow. Colonel McGrew said he nearly jumped +out of his skin when he opened the door and found her standing by +herself in the middle of the room.” + +Mary made the long voyage to England under the care of an officer’s +wife, who was taking her children to leave them in a boarding-school. +She was very much absorbed in her own little boy and girl, and was +rather glad to hand the child over to the woman Mr. Archibald Craven +sent to meet her, in London. The woman was his housekeeper at +Misselthwaite Manor, and her name was Mrs. Medlock. She was a stout +woman, with very red cheeks and sharp black eyes. She wore a very +purple dress, a black silk mantle with jet fringe on it and a black +bonnet with purple velvet flowers which stuck up and trembled when she +moved her head. Mary did not like her at all, but as she very seldom +liked people there was nothing remarkable in that; besides which it was +very evident Mrs. Medlock did not think much of her. + +“My word! she’s a plain little piece of goods!” she said. “And we’d +heard that her mother was a beauty. She hasn’t handed much of it down, +has she, ma’am?” + +“Perhaps she will improve as she grows older,” the officer’s wife said +good-naturedly. “If she were not so sallow and had a nicer expression, +her features are rather good. Children alter so much.” + +“She’ll have to alter a good deal,” answered Mrs. Medlock. “And, +there’s nothing likely to improve children at Misselthwaite—if you ask +me!” + +They thought Mary was not listening because she was standing a little +apart from them at the window of the private hotel they had gone to. +She was watching the passing buses and cabs and people, but she heard +quite well and was made very curious about her uncle and the place he +lived in. What sort of a place was it, and what would he be like? What +was a hunchback? She had never seen one. Perhaps there were none in +India. + +Since she had been living in other people’s houses and had had no Ayah, +she had begun to feel lonely and to think queer thoughts which were new +to her. She had begun to wonder why she had never seemed to belong to +anyone even when her father and mother had been alive. Other children +seemed to belong to their fathers and mothers, but she had never seemed +to really be anyone’s little girl. She had had servants, and food and +clothes, but no one had taken any notice of her. She did not know that +this was because she was a disagreeable child; but then, of course, she +did not know she was disagreeable. She often thought that other people +were, but she did not know that she was so herself. + +She thought Mrs. Medlock the most disagreeable person she had ever +seen, with her common, highly colored face and her common fine bonnet. +When the next day they set out on their journey to Yorkshire, she +walked through the station to the railway carriage with her head up and +trying to keep as far away from her as she could, because she did not +want to seem to belong to her. It would have made her angry to think +people imagined she was her little girl. + +But Mrs. Medlock was not in the least disturbed by her and her +thoughts. She was the kind of woman who would “stand no nonsense from +young ones.” At least, that is what she would have said if she had been +asked. She had not wanted to go to London just when her sister Maria’s +daughter was going to be married, but she had a comfortable, well paid +place as housekeeper at Misselthwaite Manor and the only way in which +she could keep it was to do at once what Mr. Archibald Craven told her +to do. She never dared even to ask a question. + +“Captain Lennox and his wife died of the cholera,” Mr. Craven had said +in his short, cold way. “Captain Lennox was my wife’s brother and I am +their daughter’s guardian. The child is to be brought here. You must go +to London and bring her yourself.” + +So she packed her small trunk and made the journey. + +Mary sat in her corner of the railway carriage and looked plain and +fretful. She had nothing to read or to look at, and she had folded her +thin little black-gloved hands in her lap. Her black dress made her +look yellower than ever, and her limp light hair straggled from under +her black crêpe hat. + +“A more marred-looking young one I never saw in my life,” Mrs. Medlock +thought. (Marred is a Yorkshire word and means spoiled and pettish.) +She had never seen a child who sat so still without doing anything; and +at last she got tired of watching her and began to talk in a brisk, +hard voice. + +“I suppose I may as well tell you something about where you are going +to,” she said. “Do you know anything about your uncle?” + +“No,” said Mary. + +“Never heard your father and mother talk about him?” + +“No,” said Mary frowning. She frowned because she remembered that her +father and mother had never talked to her about anything in particular. +Certainly they had never told her things. + +“Humph,” muttered Mrs. Medlock, staring at her queer, unresponsive +little face. She did not say any more for a few moments and then she +began again. + +“I suppose you might as well be told something—to prepare you. You are +going to a queer place.” + +Mary said nothing at all, and Mrs. Medlock looked rather discomfited by +her apparent indifference, but, after taking a breath, she went on. + +“Not but that it’s a grand big place in a gloomy way, and Mr. Craven’s +proud of it in his way—and that’s gloomy enough, too. The house is six +hundred years old and it’s on the edge of the moor, and there’s near a +hundred rooms in it, though most of them’s shut up and locked. And +there’s pictures and fine old furniture and things that’s been there +for ages, and there’s a big park round it and gardens and trees with +branches trailing to the ground—some of them.” She paused and took +another breath. “But there’s nothing else,” she ended suddenly. + +Mary had begun to listen in spite of herself. It all sounded so unlike +India, and anything new rather attracted her. But she did not intend to +look as if she were interested. That was one of her unhappy, +disagreeable ways. So she sat still. + +“Well,” said Mrs. Medlock. “What do you think of it?” + +“Nothing,” she answered. “I know nothing about such places.” + +That made Mrs. Medlock laugh a short sort of laugh. + +“Eh!” she said, “but you are like an old woman. Don’t you care?” + +“It doesn’t matter” said Mary, “whether I care or not.” + +“You are right enough there,” said Mrs. Medlock. “It doesn’t. What +you’re to be kept at Misselthwaite Manor for I don’t know, unless +because it’s the easiest way. _He’s_ not going to trouble himself about +you, that’s sure and certain. He never troubles himself about no one.” + +She stopped herself as if she had just remembered something in time. + +“He’s got a crooked back,” she said. “That set him wrong. He was a sour +young man and got no good of all his money and big place till he was +married.” + +Mary’s eyes turned toward her in spite of her intention not to seem to +care. She had never thought of the hunchback’s being married and she +was a trifle surprised. Mrs. Medlock saw this, and as she was a +talkative woman she continued with more interest. This was one way of +passing some of the time, at any rate. + +“She was a sweet, pretty thing and he’d have walked the world over to +get her a blade o’ grass she wanted. Nobody thought she’d marry him, +but she did, and people said she married him for his money. But she +didn’t—she didn’t,” positively. “When she died—” + +Mary gave a little involuntary jump. + +“Oh! did she die!” she exclaimed, quite without meaning to. She had +just remembered a French fairy story she had once read called “Riquet à +la Houppe.” It had been about a poor hunchback and a beautiful princess +and it had made her suddenly sorry for Mr. Archibald Craven. + +“Yes, she died,” Mrs. Medlock answered. “And it made him queerer than +ever. He cares about nobody. He won’t see people. Most of the time he +goes away, and when he is at Misselthwaite he shuts himself up in the +West Wing and won’t let anyone but Pitcher see him. Pitcher’s an old +fellow, but he took care of him when he was a child and he knows his +ways.” + +It sounded like something in a book and it did not make Mary feel +cheerful. A house with a hundred rooms, nearly all shut up and with +their doors locked—a house on the edge of a moor—whatsoever a moor +was—sounded dreary. A man with a crooked back who shut himself up also! +She stared out of the window with her lips pinched together, and it +seemed quite natural that the rain should have begun to pour down in +gray slanting lines and splash and stream down the window-panes. If the +pretty wife had been alive she might have made things cheerful by being +something like her own mother and by running in and out and going to +parties as she had done in frocks “full of lace.” But she was not there +any more. + +“You needn’t expect to see him, because ten to one you won’t,” said +Mrs. Medlock. “And you mustn’t expect that there will be people to talk +to you. You’ll have to play about and look after yourself. You’ll be +told what rooms you can go into and what rooms you’re to keep out of. +There’s gardens enough. But when you’re in the house don’t go wandering +and poking about. Mr. Craven won’t have it.” + +“I shall not want to go poking about,” said sour little Mary and just +as suddenly as she had begun to be rather sorry for Mr. Archibald +Craven she began to cease to be sorry and to think he was unpleasant +enough to deserve all that had happened to him. + +And she turned her face toward the streaming panes of the window of the +railway carriage and gazed out at the gray rain-storm which looked as +if it would go on forever and ever. She watched it so long and steadily +that the grayness grew heavier and heavier before her eyes and she fell +asleep. + + + + +CHAPTER III. +ACROSS THE MOOR + + +She slept a long time, and when she awakened Mrs. Medlock had bought a +lunchbasket at one of the stations and they had some chicken and cold +beef and bread and butter and some hot tea. The rain seemed to be +streaming down more heavily than ever and everybody in the station wore +wet and glistening waterproofs. The guard lighted the lamps in the +carriage, and Mrs. Medlock cheered up very much over her tea and +chicken and beef. She ate a great deal and afterward fell asleep +herself, and Mary sat and stared at her and watched her fine bonnet +slip on one side until she herself fell asleep once more in the corner +of the carriage, lulled by the splashing of the rain against the +windows. It was quite dark when she awakened again. The train had +stopped at a station and Mrs. Medlock was shaking her. + +“You have had a sleep!” she said. “It’s time to open your eyes! We’re +at Thwaite Station and we’ve got a long drive before us.” + +Mary stood up and tried to keep her eyes open while Mrs. Medlock +collected her parcels. The little girl did not offer to help her, +because in India native servants always picked up or carried things and +it seemed quite proper that other people should wait on one. + +The station was a small one and nobody but themselves seemed to be +getting out of the train. The station-master spoke to Mrs. Medlock in a +rough, good-natured way, pronouncing his words in a queer broad fashion +which Mary found out afterward was Yorkshire. + +“I see tha’s got back,” he said. “An’ tha’s browt th’ young ’un with +thee.” + +“Aye, that’s her,” answered Mrs. Medlock, speaking with a Yorkshire +accent herself and jerking her head over her shoulder toward Mary. +“How’s thy Missus?” + +“Well enow. Th’ carriage is waitin’ outside for thee.” + +A brougham stood on the road before the little outside platform. Mary +saw that it was a smart carriage and that it was a smart footman who +helped her in. His long waterproof coat and the waterproof covering of +his hat were shining and dripping with rain as everything was, the +burly station-master included. + +When he shut the door, mounted the box with the coachman, and they +drove off, the little girl found herself seated in a comfortably +cushioned corner, but she was not inclined to go to sleep again. She +sat and looked out of the window, curious to see something of the road +over which she was being driven to the queer place Mrs. Medlock had +spoken of. She was not at all a timid child and she was not exactly +frightened, but she felt that there was no knowing what might happen in +a house with a hundred rooms nearly all shut up—a house standing on the +edge of a moor. + +“What is a moor?” she said suddenly to Mrs. Medlock. + +“Look out of the window in about ten minutes and you’ll see,” the woman +answered. “We’ve got to drive five miles across Missel Moor before we +get to the Manor. You won’t see much because it’s a dark night, but you +can see something.” + +Mary asked no more questions but waited in the darkness of her corner, +keeping her eyes on the window. The carriage lamps cast rays of light a +little distance ahead of them and she caught glimpses of the things +they passed. After they had left the station they had driven through a +tiny village and she had seen whitewashed cottages and the lights of a +public house. Then they had passed a church and a vicarage and a little +shop-window or so in a cottage with toys and sweets and odd things set +out for sale. Then they were on the highroad and she saw hedges and +trees. After that there seemed nothing different for a long time—or at +least it seemed a long time to her. + +At last the horses began to go more slowly, as if they were climbing +up-hill, and presently there seemed to be no more hedges and no more +trees. She could see nothing, in fact, but a dense darkness on either +side. She leaned forward and pressed her face against the window just +as the carriage gave a big jolt. + +“Eh! We’re on the moor now sure enough,” said Mrs. Medlock. + +The carriage lamps shed a yellow light on a rough-looking road which +seemed to be cut through bushes and low-growing things which ended in +the great expanse of dark apparently spread out before and around them. +A wind was rising and making a singular, wild, low, rushing sound. + +“It’s—it’s not the sea, is it?” said Mary, looking round at her +companion. + +“No, not it,” answered Mrs. Medlock. “Nor it isn’t fields nor +mountains, it’s just miles and miles and miles of wild land that +nothing grows on but heather and gorse and broom, and nothing lives on +but wild ponies and sheep.” + +“I feel as if it might be the sea, if there were water on it,” said +Mary. “It sounds like the sea just now.” + +“That’s the wind blowing through the bushes,” Mrs. Medlock said. “It’s +a wild, dreary enough place to my mind, though there’s plenty that +likes it—particularly when the heather’s in bloom.” + +On and on they drove through the darkness, and though the rain stopped, +the wind rushed by and whistled and made strange sounds. The road went +up and down, and several times the carriage passed over a little bridge +beneath which water rushed very fast with a great deal of noise. Mary +felt as if the drive would never come to an end and that the wide, +bleak moor was a wide expanse of black ocean through which she was +passing on a strip of dry land. + +“I don’t like it,” she said to herself. “I don’t like it,” and she +pinched her thin lips more tightly together. + +The horses were climbing up a hilly piece of road when she first caught +sight of a light. Mrs. Medlock saw it as soon as she did and drew a +long sigh of relief. + +“Eh, I am glad to see that bit o’ light twinkling,” she exclaimed. +“It’s the light in the lodge window. We shall get a good cup of tea +after a bit, at all events.” + +It was “after a bit,” as she said, for when the carriage passed through +the park gates there was still two miles of avenue to drive through and +the trees (which nearly met overhead) made it seem as if they were +driving through a long dark vault. + +They drove out of the vault into a clear space and stopped before an +immensely long but low-built house which seemed to ramble round a stone +court. At first Mary thought that there were no lights at all in the +windows, but as she got out of the carriage she saw that one room in a +corner upstairs showed a dull glow. + +The entrance door was a huge one made of massive, curiously shaped +panels of oak studded with big iron nails and bound with great iron +bars. It opened into an enormous hall, which was so dimly lighted that +the faces in the portraits on the walls and the figures in the suits of +armor made Mary feel that she did not want to look at them. As she +stood on the stone floor she looked a very small, odd little black +figure, and she felt as small and lost and odd as she looked. + +A neat, thin old man stood near the manservant who opened the door for +them. + +“You are to take her to her room,” he said in a husky voice. “He +doesn’t want to see her. He’s going to London in the morning.” + +“Very well, Mr. Pitcher,” Mrs. Medlock answered. “So long as I know +what’s expected of me, I can manage.” + +“What’s expected of you, Mrs. Medlock,” Mr. Pitcher said, “is that you +make sure that he’s not disturbed and that he doesn’t see what he +doesn’t want to see.” + +And then Mary Lennox was led up a broad staircase and down a long +corridor and up a short flight of steps and through another corridor +and another, until a door opened in a wall and she found herself in a +room with a fire in it and a supper on a table. + +Mrs. Medlock said unceremoniously: + +“Well, here you are! This room and the next are where you’ll live—and +you must keep to them. Don’t you forget that!” + +It was in this way Mistress Mary arrived at Misselthwaite Manor and she +had perhaps never felt quite so contrary in all her life. + + + + +CHAPTER IV. +MARTHA + + +When she opened her eyes in the morning it was because a young +housemaid had come into her room to light the fire and was kneeling on +the hearth-rug raking out the cinders noisily. Mary lay and watched her +for a few moments and then began to look about the room. She had never +seen a room at all like it and thought it curious and gloomy. The walls +were covered with tapestry with a forest scene embroidered on it. There +were fantastically dressed people under the trees and in the distance +there was a glimpse of the turrets of a castle. There were hunters and +horses and dogs and ladies. Mary felt as if she were in the forest with +them. Out of a deep window she could see a great climbing stretch of +land which seemed to have no trees on it, and to look rather like an +endless, dull, purplish sea. + +“What is that?” she said, pointing out of the window. + +Martha, the young housemaid, who had just risen to her feet, looked and +pointed also. + +“That there?” she said. + +“Yes.” + +“That’s th’ moor,” with a good-natured grin. “Does tha’ like it?” + +“No,” answered Mary. “I hate it.” + +“That’s because tha’rt not used to it,” Martha said, going back to her +hearth. “Tha’ thinks it’s too big an’ bare now. But tha’ will like it.” + +“Do you?” inquired Mary. + +“Aye, that I do,” answered Martha, cheerfully polishing away at the +grate. “I just love it. It’s none bare. It’s covered wi’ growin’ things +as smells sweet. It’s fair lovely in spring an’ summer when th’ gorse +an’ broom an’ heather’s in flower. It smells o’ honey an’ there’s such +a lot o’ fresh air—an’ th’ sky looks so high an’ th’ bees an’ skylarks +makes such a nice noise hummin’ an’ singin’. Eh! I wouldn’t live away +from th’ moor for anythin’.” + +Mary listened to her with a grave, puzzled expression. The native +servants she had been used to in India were not in the least like this. +They were obsequious and servile and did not presume to talk to their +masters as if they were their equals. They made salaams and called them +“protector of the poor” and names of that sort. Indian servants were +commanded to do things, not asked. It was not the custom to say +“please” and “thank you” and Mary had always slapped her Ayah in the +face when she was angry. She wondered a little what this girl would do +if one slapped her in the face. She was a round, rosy, good-natured +looking creature, but she had a sturdy way which made Mistress Mary +wonder if she might not even slap back—if the person who slapped her +was only a little girl. + +“You are a strange servant,” she said from her pillows, rather +haughtily. + +Martha sat up on her heels, with her blacking-brush in her hand, and +laughed, without seeming the least out of temper. + +“Eh! I know that,” she said. “If there was a grand Missus at +Misselthwaite I should never have been even one of th’ under +housemaids. I might have been let to be scullerymaid but I’d never have +been let upstairs. I’m too common an’ I talk too much Yorkshire. But +this is a funny house for all it’s so grand. Seems like there’s neither +Master nor Mistress except Mr. Pitcher an’ Mrs. Medlock. Mr. Craven, he +won’t be troubled about anythin’ when he’s here, an’ he’s nearly always +away. Mrs. Medlock gave me th’ place out o’ kindness. She told me she +could never have done it if Misselthwaite had been like other big +houses.” + +“Are you going to be my servant?” Mary asked, still in her imperious +little Indian way. + +Martha began to rub her grate again. + +“I’m Mrs. Medlock’s servant,” she said stoutly. “An’ she’s Mr. +Craven’s—but I’m to do the housemaid’s work up here an’ wait on you a +bit. But you won’t need much waitin’ on.” + +“Who is going to dress me?” demanded Mary. + +Martha sat up on her heels again and stared. She spoke in broad +Yorkshire in her amazement. + +“Canna’ tha’ dress thysen!” she said. + +“What do you mean? I don’t understand your language,” said Mary. + +“Eh! I forgot,” Martha said. “Mrs. Medlock told me I’d have to be +careful or you wouldn’t know what I was sayin’. I mean can’t you put on +your own clothes?” + +“No,” answered Mary, quite indignantly. “I never did in my life. My +Ayah dressed me, of course.” + +“Well,” said Martha, evidently not in the least aware that she was +impudent, “it’s time tha’ should learn. Tha’ cannot begin younger. +It’ll do thee good to wait on thysen a bit. My mother always said she +couldn’t see why grand people’s children didn’t turn out fair +fools—what with nurses an’ bein’ washed an’ dressed an’ took out to +walk as if they was puppies!” + +“It is different in India,” said Mistress Mary disdainfully. She could +scarcely stand this. + +But Martha was not at all crushed. + +“Eh! I can see it’s different,” she answered almost sympathetically. “I +dare say it’s because there’s such a lot o’ blacks there instead o’ +respectable white people. When I heard you was comin’ from India I +thought you was a black too.” + +Mary sat up in bed furious. + +“What!” she said. “What! You thought I was a native. You—you daughter +of a pig!” + +Martha stared and looked hot. + +“Who are you callin’ names?” she said. “You needn’t be so vexed. That’s +not th’ way for a young lady to talk. I’ve nothin’ against th’ blacks. +When you read about ’em in tracts they’re always very religious. You +always read as a black’s a man an’ a brother. I’ve never seen a black +an’ I was fair pleased to think I was goin’ to see one close. When I +come in to light your fire this mornin’ I crep’ up to your bed an’ +pulled th’ cover back careful to look at you. An’ there you was,” +disappointedly, “no more black than me—for all you’re so yeller.” + +Mary did not even try to control her rage and humiliation. + +“You thought I was a native! You dared! You don’t know anything about +natives! They are not people—they’re servants who must salaam to you. +You know nothing about India. You know nothing about anything!” + +She was in such a rage and felt so helpless before the girl’s simple +stare, and somehow she suddenly felt so horribly lonely and far away +from everything she understood and which understood her, that she threw +herself face downward on the pillows and burst into passionate sobbing. +She sobbed so unrestrainedly that good-natured Yorkshire Martha was a +little frightened and quite sorry for her. She went to the bed and bent +over her. + +“Eh! you mustn’t cry like that there!” she begged. “You mustn’t for +sure. I didn’t know you’d be vexed. I don’t know anythin’ about +anythin’—just like you said. I beg your pardon, Miss. Do stop cryin’.” + +There was something comforting and really friendly in her queer +Yorkshire speech and sturdy way which had a good effect on Mary. She +gradually ceased crying and became quiet. Martha looked relieved. + +“It’s time for thee to get up now,” she said. “Mrs. Medlock said I was +to carry tha’ breakfast an’ tea an’ dinner into th’ room next to this. +It’s been made into a nursery for thee. I’ll help thee on with thy +clothes if tha’ll get out o’ bed. If th’ buttons are at th’ back tha’ +cannot button them up tha’self.” + +When Mary at last decided to get up, the clothes Martha took from the +wardrobe were not the ones she had worn when she arrived the night +before with Mrs. Medlock. + +“Those are not mine,” she said. “Mine are black.” + +She looked the thick white wool coat and dress over, and added with +cool approval: + +“Those are nicer than mine.” + +“These are th’ ones tha’ must put on,” Martha answered. “Mr. Craven +ordered Mrs. Medlock to get ’em in London. He said ‘I won’t have a +child dressed in black wanderin’ about like a lost soul,’ he said. +‘It’d make the place sadder than it is. Put color on her.’ Mother she +said she knew what he meant. Mother always knows what a body means. She +doesn’t hold with black hersel’.” + +“I hate black things,” said Mary. + +The dressing process was one which taught them both something. Martha +had “buttoned up” her little sisters and brothers but she had never +seen a child who stood still and waited for another person to do things +for her as if she had neither hands nor feet of her own. + +“Why doesn’t tha’ put on tha’ own shoes?” she said when Mary quietly +held out her foot. + +“My Ayah did it,” answered Mary, staring. “It was the custom.” + +She said that very often—“It was the custom.” The native servants were +always saying it. If one told them to do a thing their ancestors had +not done for a thousand years they gazed at one mildly and said, “It is +not the custom” and one knew that was the end of the matter. + +It had not been the custom that Mistress Mary should do anything but +stand and allow herself to be dressed like a doll, but before she was +ready for breakfast she began to suspect that her life at Misselthwaite +Manor would end by teaching her a number of things quite new to +her—things such as putting on her own shoes and stockings, and picking +up things she let fall. If Martha had been a well-trained fine young +lady’s maid she would have been more subservient and respectful and +would have known that it was her business to brush hair, and button +boots, and pick things up and lay them away. She was, however, only an +untrained Yorkshire rustic who had been brought up in a moorland +cottage with a swarm of little brothers and sisters who had never +dreamed of doing anything but waiting on themselves and on the younger +ones who were either babies in arms or just learning to totter about +and tumble over things. + +If Mary Lennox had been a child who was ready to be amused she would +perhaps have laughed at Martha’s readiness to talk, but Mary only +listened to her coldly and wondered at her freedom of manner. At first +she was not at all interested, but gradually, as the girl rattled on in +her good-tempered, homely way, Mary began to notice what she was +saying. + +“Eh! you should see ’em all,” she said. “There’s twelve of us an’ my +father only gets sixteen shilling a week. I can tell you my mother’s +put to it to get porridge for ’em all. They tumble about on th’ moor +an’ play there all day an’ mother says th’ air of th’ moor fattens ’em. +She says she believes they eat th’ grass same as th’ wild ponies do. +Our Dickon, he’s twelve years old and he’s got a young pony he calls +his own.” + +“Where did he get it?” asked Mary. + +“He found it on th’ moor with its mother when it was a little one an’ +he began to make friends with it an’ give it bits o’ bread an’ pluck +young grass for it. And it got to like him so it follows him about an’ +it lets him get on its back. Dickon’s a kind lad an’ animals likes +him.” + +Mary had never possessed an animal pet of her own and had always +thought she should like one. So she began to feel a slight interest in +Dickon, and as she had never before been interested in anyone but +herself, it was the dawning of a healthy sentiment. When she went into +the room which had been made into a nursery for her, she found that it +was rather like the one she had slept in. It was not a child’s room, +but a grown-up person’s room, with gloomy old pictures on the walls and +heavy old oak chairs. A table in the center was set with a good +substantial breakfast. But she had always had a very small appetite, +and she looked with something more than indifference at the first plate +Martha set before her. + +“I don’t want it,” she said. + +“Tha’ doesn’t want thy porridge!” Martha exclaimed incredulously. + +“No.” + +“Tha’ doesn’t know how good it is. Put a bit o’ treacle on it or a bit +o’ sugar.” + +“I don’t want it,” repeated Mary. + +“Eh!” said Martha. “I can’t abide to see good victuals go to waste. If +our children was at this table they’d clean it bare in five minutes.” + +“Why?” said Mary coldly. + +“Why!” echoed Martha. “Because they scarce ever had their stomachs full +in their lives. They’re as hungry as young hawks an’ foxes.” + +“I don’t know what it is to be hungry,” said Mary, with the +indifference of ignorance. + +Martha looked indignant. + +“Well, it would do thee good to try it. I can see that plain enough,” +she said outspokenly. “I’ve no patience with folk as sits an’ just +stares at good bread an’ meat. My word! don’t I wish Dickon and Phil +an’ Jane an’ th’ rest of ’em had what’s here under their pinafores.” + +“Why don’t you take it to them?” suggested Mary. + +“It’s not mine,” answered Martha stoutly. “An’ this isn’t my day out. I +get my day out once a month same as th’ rest. Then I go home an’ clean +up for mother an’ give her a day’s rest.” + +Mary drank some tea and ate a little toast and some marmalade. + +“You wrap up warm an’ run out an’ play you,” said Martha. “It’ll do you +good and give you some stomach for your meat.” + +Mary went to the window. There were gardens and paths and big trees, +but everything looked dull and wintry. + +“Out? Why should I go out on a day like this?” + +“Well, if tha’ doesn’t go out tha’lt have to stay in, an’ what has tha’ +got to do?” + +Mary glanced about her. There was nothing to do. When Mrs. Medlock had +prepared the nursery she had not thought of amusement. Perhaps it would +be better to go and see what the gardens were like. + +“Who will go with me?” she inquired. + +Martha stared. + +“You’ll go by yourself,” she answered. “You’ll have to learn to play +like other children does when they haven’t got sisters and brothers. +Our Dickon goes off on th’ moor by himself an’ plays for hours. That’s +how he made friends with th’ pony. He’s got sheep on th’ moor that +knows him, an’ birds as comes an’ eats out of his hand. However little +there is to eat, he always saves a bit o’ his bread to coax his pets.” + +It was really this mention of Dickon which made Mary decide to go out, +though she was not aware of it. There would be, birds outside though +there would not be ponies or sheep. They would be different from the +birds in India and it might amuse her to look at them. + +Martha found her coat and hat for her and a pair of stout little boots +and she showed her her way downstairs. + +“If tha’ goes round that way tha’ll come to th’ gardens,” she said, +pointing to a gate in a wall of shrubbery. “There’s lots o’ flowers in +summer-time, but there’s nothin’ bloomin’ now.” She seemed to hesitate +a second before she added, “One of th’ gardens is locked up. No one has +been in it for ten years.” + +“Why?” asked Mary in spite of herself. Here was another locked door +added to the hundred in the strange house. + +“Mr. Craven had it shut when his wife died so sudden. He won’t let no +one go inside. It was her garden. He locked th’ door an’ dug a hole and +buried th’ key. There’s Mrs. Medlock’s bell ringing—I must run.” + +After she was gone Mary turned down the walk which led to the door in +the shrubbery. She could not help thinking about the garden which no +one had been into for ten years. She wondered what it would look like +and whether there were any flowers still alive in it. When she had +passed through the shrubbery gate she found herself in great gardens, +with wide lawns and winding walks with clipped borders. There were +trees, and flower-beds, and evergreens clipped into strange shapes, and +a large pool with an old gray fountain in its midst. But the +flower-beds were bare and wintry and the fountain was not playing. This +was not the garden which was shut up. How could a garden be shut up? +You could always walk into a garden. + +She was just thinking this when she saw that, at the end of the path +she was following, there seemed to be a long wall, with ivy growing +over it. She was not familiar enough with England to know that she was +coming upon the kitchen-gardens where the vegetables and fruit were +growing. She went toward the wall and found that there was a green door +in the ivy, and that it stood open. This was not the closed garden, +evidently, and she could go into it. + +She went through the door and found that it was a garden with walls all +round it and that it was only one of several walled gardens which +seemed to open into one another. She saw another open green door, +revealing bushes and pathways between beds containing winter +vegetables. Fruit-trees were trained flat against the wall, and over +some of the beds there were glass frames. The place was bare and ugly +enough, Mary thought, as she stood and stared about her. It might be +nicer in summer when things were green, but there was nothing pretty +about it now. + +Presently an old man with a spade over his shoulder walked through the +door leading from the second garden. He looked startled when he saw +Mary, and then touched his cap. He had a surly old face, and did not +seem at all pleased to see her—but then she was displeased with his +garden and wore her “quite contrary” expression, and certainly did not +seem at all pleased to see him. + +“What is this place?” she asked. + +“One o’ th’ kitchen-gardens,” he answered. + +“What is that?” said Mary, pointing through the other green door. + +“Another of ’em,” shortly. “There’s another on t’other side o’ th’ wall +an’ there’s th’ orchard t’other side o’ that.” + +“Can I go in them?” asked Mary. + +“If tha’ likes. But there’s nowt to see.” + +Mary made no response. She went down the path and through the second +green door. There, she found more walls and winter vegetables and glass +frames, but in the second wall there was another green door and it was +not open. Perhaps it led into the garden which no one had seen for ten +years. As she was not at all a timid child and always did what she +wanted to do, Mary went to the green door and turned the handle. She +hoped the door would not open because she wanted to be sure she had +found the mysterious garden—but it did open quite easily and she walked +through it and found herself in an orchard. There were walls all round +it also and trees trained against them, and there were bare fruit-trees +growing in the winter-browned grass—but there was no green door to be +seen anywhere. Mary looked for it, and yet when she had entered the +upper end of the garden she had noticed that the wall did not seem to +end with the orchard but to extend beyond it as if it enclosed a place +at the other side. She could see the tops of trees above the wall, and +when she stood still she saw a bird with a bright red breast sitting on +the topmost branch of one of them, and suddenly he burst into his +winter song—almost as if he had caught sight of her and was calling to +her. + +She stopped and listened to him and somehow his cheerful, friendly +little whistle gave her a pleased feeling—even a disagreeable little +girl may be lonely, and the big closed house and big bare moor and big +bare gardens had made this one feel as if there was no one left in the +world but herself. If she had been an affectionate child, who had been +used to being loved, she would have broken her heart, but even though +she was “Mistress Mary Quite Contrary” she was desolate, and the +bright-breasted little bird brought a look into her sour little face +which was almost a smile. She listened to him until he flew away. He +was not like an Indian bird and she liked him and wondered if she +should ever see him again. Perhaps he lived in the mysterious garden +and knew all about it. + +Perhaps it was because she had nothing whatever to do that she thought +so much of the deserted garden. She was curious about it and wanted to +see what it was like. Why had Mr. Archibald Craven buried the key? If +he had liked his wife so much why did he hate her garden? She wondered +if she should ever see him, but she knew that if she did she should not +like him, and he would not like her, and that she should only stand and +stare at him and say nothing, though she should be wanting dreadfully +to ask him why he had done such a queer thing. + +“People never like me and I never like people,” she thought. “And I +never can talk as the Crawford children could. They were always talking +and laughing and making noises.” + +She thought of the robin and of the way he seemed to sing his song at +her, and as she remembered the tree-top he perched on she stopped +rather suddenly on the path. + +“I believe that tree was in the secret garden—I feel sure it was,” she +said. “There was a wall round the place and there was no door.” + +She walked back into the first kitchen-garden she had entered and found +the old man digging there. She went and stood beside him and watched +him a few moments in her cold little way. He took no notice of her and +so at last she spoke to him. + +“I have been into the other gardens,” she said. + +“There was nothin’ to prevent thee,” he answered crustily. + +“I went into the orchard.” + +“There was no dog at th’ door to bite thee,” he answered. + +“There was no door there into the other garden,” said Mary. + +“What garden?” he said in a rough voice, stopping his digging for a +moment. + +“The one on the other side of the wall,” answered Mistress Mary. “There +are trees there—I saw the tops of them. A bird with a red breast was +sitting on one of them and he sang.” + +To her surprise the surly old weather-beaten face actually changed its +expression. A slow smile spread over it and the gardener looked quite +different. It made her think that it was curious how much nicer a +person looked when he smiled. She had not thought of it before. + +He turned about to the orchard side of his garden and began to +whistle—a low soft whistle. She could not understand how such a surly +man could make such a coaxing sound. + +Almost the next moment a wonderful thing happened. She heard a soft +little rushing flight through the air—and it was the bird with the red +breast flying to them, and he actually alighted on the big clod of +earth quite near to the gardener’s foot. + +“Here he is,” chuckled the old man, and then he spoke to the bird as if +he were speaking to a child. + +“Where has tha’ been, tha’ cheeky little beggar?” he said. “I’ve not +seen thee before today. Has tha begun tha’ courtin’ this early in th’ +season? Tha’rt too forrad.” + +The bird put his tiny head on one side and looked up at him with his +soft bright eye which was like a black dewdrop. He seemed quite +familiar and not the least afraid. He hopped about and pecked the earth +briskly, looking for seeds and insects. It actually gave Mary a queer +feeling in her heart, because he was so pretty and cheerful and seemed +so like a person. He had a tiny plump body and a delicate beak, and +slender delicate legs. + +“Will he always come when you call him?” she asked almost in a whisper. + +“Aye, that he will. I’ve knowed him ever since he was a fledgling. He +come out of th’ nest in th’ other garden an’ when first he flew over +th’ wall he was too weak to fly back for a few days an’ we got +friendly. When he went over th’ wall again th’ rest of th’ brood was +gone an’ he was lonely an’ he come back to me.” + +“What kind of a bird is he?” Mary asked. + +“Doesn’t tha’ know? He’s a robin redbreast an’ they’re th’ friendliest, +curiousest birds alive. They’re almost as friendly as dogs—if you know +how to get on with ’em. Watch him peckin’ about there an’ lookin’ round +at us now an’ again. He knows we’re talkin’ about him.” + +It was the queerest thing in the world to see the old fellow. He looked +at the plump little scarlet-waistcoated bird as if he were both proud +and fond of him. + +“He’s a conceited one,” he chuckled. “He likes to hear folk talk about +him. An’ curious—bless me, there never was his like for curiosity an’ +meddlin’. He’s always comin’ to see what I’m plantin’. He knows all th’ +things Mester Craven never troubles hissel’ to find out. He’s th’ head +gardener, he is.” + +The robin hopped about busily pecking the soil and now and then stopped +and looked at them a little. Mary thought his black dewdrop eyes gazed +at her with great curiosity. It really seemed as if he were finding out +all about her. The queer feeling in her heart increased. + +“Where did the rest of the brood fly to?” she asked. + +“There’s no knowin’. The old ones turn ’em out o’ their nest an’ make +’em fly an’ they’re scattered before you know it. This one was a +knowin’ one an’ he knew he was lonely.” + +Mistress Mary went a step nearer to the robin and looked at him very +hard. + +“I’m lonely,” she said. + +She had not known before that this was one of the things which made her +feel sour and cross. She seemed to find it out when the robin looked at +her and she looked at the robin. + +The old gardener pushed his cap back on his bald head and stared at her +a minute. + +“Art tha’ th’ little wench from India?” he asked. + +Mary nodded. + +“Then no wonder tha’rt lonely. Tha’lt be lonlier before tha’s done,” he +said. + +He began to dig again, driving his spade deep into the rich black +garden soil while the robin hopped about very busily employed. + +“What is your name?” Mary inquired. + +He stood up to answer her. + +“Ben Weatherstaff,” he answered, and then he added with a surly +chuckle, “I’m lonely mysel’ except when he’s with me,” and he jerked +his thumb toward the robin. “He’s th’ only friend I’ve got.” + +“I have no friends at all,” said Mary. “I never had. My Ayah didn’t +like me and I never played with anyone.” + +It is a Yorkshire habit to say what you think with blunt frankness, and +old Ben Weatherstaff was a Yorkshire moor man. + +“Tha’ an’ me are a good bit alike,” he said. “We was wove out of th’ +same cloth. We’re neither of us good lookin’ an’ we’re both of us as +sour as we look. We’ve got the same nasty tempers, both of us, I’ll +warrant.” + +This was plain speaking, and Mary Lennox had never heard the truth +about herself in her life. Native servants always salaamed and +submitted to you, whatever you did. She had never thought much about +her looks, but she wondered if she was as unattractive as Ben +Weatherstaff and she also wondered if she looked as sour as he had +looked before the robin came. She actually began to wonder also if she +was “nasty tempered.” She felt uncomfortable. + +Suddenly a clear rippling little sound broke out near her and she +turned round. She was standing a few feet from a young apple-tree and +the robin had flown on to one of its branches and had burst out into a +scrap of a song. Ben Weatherstaff laughed outright. + +“What did he do that for?” asked Mary. + +“He’s made up his mind to make friends with thee,” replied Ben. “Dang +me if he hasn’t took a fancy to thee.” + +“To me?” said Mary, and she moved toward the little tree softly and +looked up. + +“Would you make friends with me?” she said to the robin just as if she +was speaking to a person. “Would you?” And she did not say it either in +her hard little voice or in her imperious Indian voice, but in a tone +so soft and eager and coaxing that Ben Weatherstaff was as surprised as +she had been when she heard him whistle. + +“Why,” he cried out, “tha’ said that as nice an’ human as if tha’ was a +real child instead of a sharp old woman. Tha’ said it almost like +Dickon talks to his wild things on th’ moor.” + +“Do you know Dickon?” Mary asked, turning round rather in a hurry. + +“Everybody knows him. Dickon’s wanderin’ about everywhere. Th’ very +blackberries an’ heather-bells knows him. I warrant th’ foxes shows him +where their cubs lies an’ th’ skylarks doesn’t hide their nests from +him.” + +Mary would have liked to ask some more questions. She was almost as +curious about Dickon as she was about the deserted garden. But just +that moment the robin, who had ended his song, gave a little shake of +his wings, spread them and flew away. He had made his visit and had +other things to do. + +“He has flown over the wall!” Mary cried out, watching him. “He has +flown into the orchard—he has flown across the other wall—into the +garden where there is no door!” + +“He lives there,” said old Ben. “He came out o’ th’ egg there. If he’s +courtin’, he’s makin’ up to some young madam of a robin that lives +among th’ old rose-trees there.” + +“Rose-trees,” said Mary. “Are there rose-trees?” + +Ben Weatherstaff took up his spade again and began to dig. + +“There was ten year’ ago,” he mumbled. + +“I should like to see them,” said Mary. “Where is the green door? There +must be a door somewhere.” + +Ben drove his spade deep and looked as uncompanionable as he had looked +when she first saw him. + +“There was ten year’ ago, but there isn’t now,” he said. + +“No door!” cried Mary. “There must be.” + +“None as anyone can find, an’ none as is anyone’s business. Don’t you +be a meddlesome wench an’ poke your nose where it’s no cause to go. +Here, I must go on with my work. Get you gone an’ play you. I’ve no +more time.” + +And he actually stopped digging, threw his spade over his shoulder and +walked off, without even glancing at her or saying good-by. + + + + +CHAPTER V +THE CRY IN THE CORRIDOR + + +At first each day which passed by for Mary Lennox was exactly like the +others. Every morning she awoke in her tapestried room and found Martha +kneeling upon the hearth building her fire; every morning she ate her +breakfast in the nursery which had nothing amusing in it; and after +each breakfast she gazed out of the window across to the huge moor +which seemed to spread out on all sides and climb up to the sky, and +after she had stared for a while she realized that if she did not go +out she would have to stay in and do nothing—and so she went out. She +did not know that this was the best thing she could have done, and she +did not know that, when she began to walk quickly or even run along the +paths and down the avenue, she was stirring her slow blood and making +herself stronger by fighting with the wind which swept down from the +moor. She ran only to make herself warm, and she hated the wind which +rushed at her face and roared and held her back as if it were some +giant she could not see. But the big breaths of rough fresh air blown +over the heather filled her lungs with something which was good for her +whole thin body and whipped some red color into her cheeks and +brightened her dull eyes when she did not know anything about it. + +But after a few days spent almost entirely out of doors she wakened one +morning knowing what it was to be hungry, and when she sat down to her +breakfast she did not glance disdainfully at her porridge and push it +away, but took up her spoon and began to eat it and went on eating it +until her bowl was empty. + +“Tha’ got on well enough with that this mornin’, didn’t tha’?” said +Martha. + +“It tastes nice today,” said Mary, feeling a little surprised herself. + +“It’s th’ air of th’ moor that’s givin’ thee stomach for tha’ +victuals,” answered Martha. “It’s lucky for thee that tha’s got +victuals as well as appetite. There’s been twelve in our cottage as had +th’ stomach an’ nothin’ to put in it. You go on playin’ you out o’ +doors every day an’ you’ll get some flesh on your bones an’ you won’t +be so yeller.” + +“I don’t play,” said Mary. “I have nothing to play with.” + +“Nothin’ to play with!” exclaimed Martha. “Our children plays with +sticks and stones. They just runs about an’ shouts an’ looks at +things.” Mary did not shout, but she looked at things. There was +nothing else to do. She walked round and round the gardens and wandered +about the paths in the park. Sometimes she looked for Ben Weatherstaff, +but though several times she saw him at work he was too busy to look at +her or was too surly. Once when she was walking toward him he picked up +his spade and turned away as if he did it on purpose. + +One place she went to oftener than to any other. It was the long walk +outside the gardens with the walls round them. There were bare +flower-beds on either side of it and against the walls ivy grew +thickly. There was one part of the wall where the creeping dark green +leaves were more bushy than elsewhere. It seemed as if for a long time +that part had been neglected. The rest of it had been clipped and made +to look neat, but at this lower end of the walk it had not been trimmed +at all. + +A few days after she had talked to Ben Weatherstaff, Mary stopped to +notice this and wondered why it was so. She had just paused and was +looking up at a long spray of ivy swinging in the wind when she saw a +gleam of scarlet and heard a brilliant chirp, and there, on the top of +the wall, perched Ben Weatherstaff’s robin redbreast, tilting forward +to look at her with his small head on one side. + +“Oh!” she cried out, “is it you—is it you?” And it did not seem at all +queer to her that she spoke to him as if she were sure that he would +understand and answer her. + +He did answer. He twittered and chirped and hopped along the wall as if +he were telling her all sorts of things. It seemed to Mistress Mary as +if she understood him, too, though he was not speaking in words. It was +as if he said: + +“Good morning! Isn’t the wind nice? Isn’t the sun nice? Isn’t +everything nice? Let us both chirp and hop and twitter. Come on! Come +on!” + +Mary began to laugh, and as he hopped and took little flights along the +wall she ran after him. Poor little thin, sallow, ugly Mary—she +actually looked almost pretty for a moment. + +“I like you! I like you!” she cried out, pattering down the walk; and +she chirped and tried to whistle, which last she did not know how to do +in the least. But the robin seemed to be quite satisfied and chirped +and whistled back at her. At last he spread his wings and made a +darting flight to the top of a tree, where he perched and sang loudly. + +That reminded Mary of the first time she had seen him. He had been +swinging on a tree-top then and she had been standing in the orchard. +Now she was on the other side of the orchard and standing in the path +outside a wall—much lower down—and there was the same tree inside. + +“It’s in the garden no one can go into,” she said to herself. “It’s the +garden without a door. He lives in there. How I wish I could see what +it is like!” + +She ran up the walk to the green door she had entered the first +morning. Then she ran down the path through the other door and then +into the orchard, and when she stood and looked up there was the tree +on the other side of the wall, and there was the robin just finishing +his song and beginning to preen his feathers with his beak. + +“It is the garden,” she said. “I am sure it is.” + +She walked round and looked closely at that side of the orchard wall, +but she only found what she had found before—that there was no door in +it. Then she ran through the kitchen-gardens again and out into the +walk outside the long ivy-covered wall, and she walked to the end of it +and looked at it, but there was no door; and then she walked to the +other end, looking again, but there was no door. + +“It’s very queer,” she said. “Ben Weatherstaff said there was no door +and there is no door. But there must have been one ten years ago, +because Mr. Craven buried the key.” + +This gave her so much to think of that she began to be quite interested +and feel that she was not sorry that she had come to Misselthwaite +Manor. In India she had always felt hot and too languid to care much +about anything. The fact was that the fresh wind from the moor had +begun to blow the cobwebs out of her young brain and to waken her up a +little. + +She stayed out of doors nearly all day, and when she sat down to her +supper at night she felt hungry and drowsy and comfortable. She did not +feel cross when Martha chattered away. She felt as if she rather liked +to hear her, and at last she thought she would ask her a question. She +asked it after she had finished her supper and had sat down on the +hearth-rug before the fire. + +“Why did Mr. Craven hate the garden?” she said. + +She had made Martha stay with her and Martha had not objected at all. +She was very young, and used to a crowded cottage full of brothers and +sisters, and she found it dull in the great servants’ hall downstairs +where the footman and upper-housemaids made fun of her Yorkshire speech +and looked upon her as a common little thing, and sat and whispered +among themselves. Martha liked to talk, and the strange child who had +lived in India, and been waited upon by “blacks,” was novelty enough to +attract her. + +She sat down on the hearth herself without waiting to be asked. + +“Art tha’ thinkin’ about that garden yet?” she said. “I knew tha’ +would. That was just the way with me when I first heard about it.” + +“Why did he hate it?” Mary persisted. + +Martha tucked her feet under her and made herself quite comfortable. + +“Listen to th’ wind wutherin’ round the house,” she said. “You could +bare stand up on the moor if you was out on it tonight.” + +Mary did not know what “wutherin’” meant until she listened, and then +she understood. It must mean that hollow shuddering sort of roar which +rushed round and round the house as if the giant no one could see were +buffeting it and beating at the walls and windows to try to break in. +But one knew he could not get in, and somehow it made one feel very +safe and warm inside a room with a red coal fire. + +“But why did he hate it so?” she asked, after she had listened. She +intended to know if Martha did. + +Then Martha gave up her store of knowledge. + +“Mind,” she said, “Mrs. Medlock said it’s not to be talked about. +There’s lots o’ things in this place that’s not to be talked over. +That’s Mr. Craven’s orders. His troubles are none servants’ business, +he says. But for th’ garden he wouldn’t be like he is. It was Mrs. +Craven’s garden that she had made when first they were married an’ she +just loved it, an’ they used to ’tend the flowers themselves. An’ none +o’ th’ gardeners was ever let to go in. Him an’ her used to go in an’ +shut th’ door an’ stay there hours an’ hours, readin’ and talkin’. An’ +she was just a bit of a girl an’ there was an old tree with a branch +bent like a seat on it. An’ she made roses grow over it an’ she used to +sit there. But one day when she was sittin’ there th’ branch broke an’ +she fell on th’ ground an’ was hurt so bad that next day she died. Th’ +doctors thought he’d go out o’ his mind an’ die, too. That’s why he +hates it. No one’s never gone in since, an’ he won’t let anyone talk +about it.” + +Mary did not ask any more questions. She looked at the red fire and +listened to the wind “wutherin’.” It seemed to be “wutherin’” louder +than ever. + +At that moment a very good thing was happening to her. Four good things +had happened to her, in fact, since she came to Misselthwaite Manor. +She had felt as if she had understood a robin and that he had +understood her; she had run in the wind until her blood had grown warm; +she had been healthily hungry for the first time in her life; and she +had found out what it was to be sorry for someone. + +But as she was listening to the wind she began to listen to something +else. She did not know what it was, because at first she could scarcely +distinguish it from the wind itself. It was a curious sound—it seemed +almost as if a child were crying somewhere. Sometimes the wind sounded +rather like a child crying, but presently Mistress Mary felt quite sure +this sound was inside the house, not outside it. It was far away, but +it was inside. She turned round and looked at Martha. + +“Do you hear anyone crying?” she said. + +Martha suddenly looked confused. + +“No,” she answered. “It’s th’ wind. Sometimes it sounds like as if +someone was lost on th’ moor an’ wailin’. It’s got all sorts o’ +sounds.” + +“But listen,” said Mary. “It’s in the house—down one of those long +corridors.” + +And at that very moment a door must have been opened somewhere +downstairs; for a great rushing draft blew along the passage and the +door of the room they sat in was blown open with a crash, and as they +both jumped to their feet the light was blown out and the crying sound +was swept down the far corridor so that it was to be heard more plainly +than ever. + +“There!” said Mary. “I told you so! It is someone crying—and it isn’t a +grown-up person.” + +Martha ran and shut the door and turned the key, but before she did it +they both heard the sound of a door in some far passage shutting with a +bang, and then everything was quiet, for even the wind ceased +“wutherin’” for a few moments. + +“It was th’ wind,” said Martha stubbornly. “An’ if it wasn’t, it was +little Betty Butterworth, th’ scullery-maid. She’s had th’ toothache +all day.” + +But something troubled and awkward in her manner made Mistress Mary +stare very hard at her. She did not believe she was speaking the truth. + + + + +CHAPTER VI. +“THERE WAS SOMEONE CRYING—THERE WAS!” + + +The next day the rain poured down in torrents again, and when Mary +looked out of her window the moor was almost hidden by gray mist and +cloud. There could be no going out today. + +“What do you do in your cottage when it rains like this?” she asked +Martha. + +“Try to keep from under each other’s feet mostly,” Martha answered. +“Eh! there does seem a lot of us then. Mother’s a good-tempered woman +but she gets fair moithered. The biggest ones goes out in th’ cow-shed +and plays there. Dickon he doesn’t mind th’ wet. He goes out just th’ +same as if th’ sun was shinin’. He says he sees things on rainy days as +doesn’t show when it’s fair weather. He once found a little fox cub +half drowned in its hole and he brought it home in th’ bosom of his +shirt to keep it warm. Its mother had been killed nearby an’ th’ hole +was swum out an’ th’ rest o’ th’ litter was dead. He’s got it at home +now. He found a half-drowned young crow another time an’ he brought it +home, too, an’ tamed it. It’s named Soot because it’s so black, an’ it +hops an’ flies about with him everywhere.” + +The time had come when Mary had forgotten to resent Martha’s familiar +talk. She had even begun to find it interesting and to be sorry when +she stopped or went away. The stories she had been told by her Ayah +when she lived in India had been quite unlike those Martha had to tell +about the moorland cottage which held fourteen people who lived in four +little rooms and never had quite enough to eat. The children seemed to +tumble about and amuse themselves like a litter of rough, good-natured +collie puppies. Mary was most attracted by the mother and Dickon. When +Martha told stories of what “mother” said or did they always sounded +comfortable. + +“If I had a raven or a fox cub I could play with it,” said Mary. “But I +have nothing.” + +Martha looked perplexed. + +“Can tha’ knit?” she asked. + +“No,” answered Mary. + +“Can tha’ sew?” + +“No.” + +“Can tha’ read?” + +“Yes.” + +“Then why doesn’t tha read somethin’, or learn a bit o’ spellin’? +Tha’st old enough to be learnin’ thy book a good bit now.” + +“I haven’t any books,” said Mary. “Those I had were left in India.” + +“That’s a pity,” said Martha. “If Mrs. Medlock’d let thee go into th’ +library, there’s thousands o’ books there.” + +Mary did not ask where the library was, because she was suddenly +inspired by a new idea. She made up her mind to go and find it herself. +She was not troubled about Mrs. Medlock. Mrs. Medlock seemed always to +be in her comfortable housekeeper’s sitting-room downstairs. In this +queer place one scarcely ever saw anyone at all. In fact, there was no +one to see but the servants, and when their master was away they lived +a luxurious life below stairs, where there was a huge kitchen hung +about with shining brass and pewter, and a large servants’ hall where +there were four or five abundant meals eaten every day, and where a +great deal of lively romping went on when Mrs. Medlock was out of the +way. + +Mary’s meals were served regularly, and Martha waited on her, but no +one troubled themselves about her in the least. Mrs. Medlock came and +looked at her every day or two, but no one inquired what she did or +told her what to do. She supposed that perhaps this was the English way +of treating children. In India she had always been attended by her +Ayah, who had followed her about and waited on her, hand and foot. She +had often been tired of her company. Now she was followed by nobody and +was learning to dress herself because Martha looked as though she +thought she was silly and stupid when she wanted to have things handed +to her and put on. + +“Hasn’t tha’ got good sense?” she said once, when Mary had stood +waiting for her to put on her gloves for her. “Our Susan Ann is twice +as sharp as thee an’ she’s only four year’ old. Sometimes tha’ looks +fair soft in th’ head.” + +Mary had worn her contrary scowl for an hour after that, but it made +her think several entirely new things. + +She stood at the window for about ten minutes this morning after Martha +had swept up the hearth for the last time and gone downstairs. She was +thinking over the new idea which had come to her when she heard of the +library. She did not care very much about the library itself, because +she had read very few books; but to hear of it brought back to her mind +the hundred rooms with closed doors. She wondered if they were all +really locked and what she would find if she could get into any of +them. Were there a hundred really? Why shouldn’t she go and see how +many doors she could count? It would be something to do on this morning +when she could not go out. She had never been taught to ask permission +to do things, and she knew nothing at all about authority, so she would +not have thought it necessary to ask Mrs. Medlock if she might walk +about the house, even if she had seen her. + +She opened the door of the room and went into the corridor, and then +she began her wanderings. It was a long corridor and it branched into +other corridors and it led her up short flights of steps which mounted +to others again. There were doors and doors, and there were pictures on +the walls. Sometimes they were pictures of dark, curious landscapes, +but oftenest they were portraits of men and women in queer, grand +costumes made of satin and velvet. She found herself in one long +gallery whose walls were covered with these portraits. She had never +thought there could be so many in any house. She walked slowly down +this place and stared at the faces which also seemed to stare at her. +She felt as if they were wondering what a little girl from India was +doing in their house. Some were pictures of children—little girls in +thick satin frocks which reached to their feet and stood out about +them, and boys with puffed sleeves and lace collars and long hair, or +with big ruffs around their necks. She always stopped to look at the +children, and wonder what their names were, and where they had gone, +and why they wore such odd clothes. There was a stiff, plain little +girl rather like herself. She wore a green brocade dress and held a +green parrot on her finger. Her eyes had a sharp, curious look. + +“Where do you live now?” said Mary aloud to her. “I wish you were +here.” + +Surely no other little girl ever spent such a queer morning. It seemed +as if there was no one in all the huge rambling house but her own small +self, wandering about upstairs and down, through narrow passages and +wide ones, where it seemed to her that no one but herself had ever +walked. Since so many rooms had been built, people must have lived in +them, but it all seemed so empty that she could not quite believe it +true. + +It was not until she climbed to the second floor that she thought of +turning the handle of a door. All the doors were shut, as Mrs. Medlock +had said they were, but at last she put her hand on the handle of one +of them and turned it. She was almost frightened for a moment when she +felt that it turned without difficulty and that when she pushed upon +the door itself it slowly and heavily opened. It was a massive door and +opened into a big bedroom. There were embroidered hangings on the wall, +and inlaid furniture such as she had seen in India stood about the +room. A broad window with leaded panes looked out upon the moor; and +over the mantel was another portrait of the stiff, plain little girl +who seemed to stare at her more curiously than ever. + +“Perhaps she slept here once,” said Mary. “She stares at me so that she +makes me feel queer.” + +After that she opened more doors and more. She saw so many rooms that +she became quite tired and began to think that there must be a hundred, +though she had not counted them. In all of them there were old pictures +or old tapestries with strange scenes worked on them. There were +curious pieces of furniture and curious ornaments in nearly all of +them. + +In one room, which looked like a lady’s sitting-room, the hangings were +all embroidered velvet, and in a cabinet were about a hundred little +elephants made of ivory. They were of different sizes, and some had +their mahouts or palanquins on their backs. Some were much bigger than +the others and some were so tiny that they seemed only babies. Mary had +seen carved ivory in India and she knew all about elephants. She opened +the door of the cabinet and stood on a footstool and played with these +for quite a long time. When she got tired she set the elephants in +order and shut the door of the cabinet. + +In all her wanderings through the long corridors and the empty rooms, +she had seen nothing alive; but in this room she saw something. Just +after she had closed the cabinet door she heard a tiny rustling sound. +It made her jump and look around at the sofa by the fireplace, from +which it seemed to come. In the corner of the sofa there was a cushion, +and in the velvet which covered it there was a hole, and out of the +hole peeped a tiny head with a pair of frightened eyes in it. + +Mary crept softly across the room to look. The bright eyes belonged to +a little gray mouse, and the mouse had eaten a hole into the cushion +and made a comfortable nest there. Six baby mice were cuddled up asleep +near her. If there was no one else alive in the hundred rooms there +were seven mice who did not look lonely at all. + +“If they wouldn’t be so frightened I would take them back with me,” +said Mary. + +She had wandered about long enough to feel too tired to wander any +farther, and she turned back. Two or three times she lost her way by +turning down the wrong corridor and was obliged to ramble up and down +until she found the right one; but at last she reached her own floor +again, though she was some distance from her own room and did not know +exactly where she was. + +“I believe I have taken a wrong turning again,” she said, standing +still at what seemed the end of a short passage with tapestry on the +wall. “I don’t know which way to go. How still everything is!” + +It was while she was standing here and just after she had said this +that the stillness was broken by a sound. It was another cry, but not +quite like the one she had heard last night; it was only a short one, a +fretful childish whine muffled by passing through walls. + +“It’s nearer than it was,” said Mary, her heart beating rather faster. +“And it _is_ crying.” + +She put her hand accidentally upon the tapestry near her, and then +sprang back, feeling quite startled. The tapestry was the covering of a +door which fell open and showed her that there was another part of the +corridor behind it, and Mrs. Medlock was coming up it with her bunch of +keys in her hand and a very cross look on her face. + +“What are you doing here?” she said, and she took Mary by the arm and +pulled her away. “What did I tell you?” + +“I turned round the wrong corner,” explained Mary. “I didn’t know which +way to go and I heard someone crying.” She quite hated Mrs. Medlock at +the moment, but she hated her more the next. + +“You didn’t hear anything of the sort,” said the housekeeper. “You come +along back to your own nursery or I’ll box your ears.” + +And she took her by the arm and half pushed, half pulled her up one +passage and down another until she pushed her in at the door of her own +room. + +“Now,” she said, “you stay where you’re told to stay or you’ll find +yourself locked up. The master had better get you a governess, same as +he said he would. You’re one that needs someone to look sharp after +you. I’ve got enough to do.” + +She went out of the room and slammed the door after her, and Mary went +and sat on the hearth-rug, pale with rage. She did not cry, but ground +her teeth. + +“There _was_ someone crying—there _was_—there _was!_” she said to +herself. + +She had heard it twice now, and sometime she would find out. She had +found out a great deal this morning. She felt as if she had been on a +long journey, and at any rate she had had something to amuse her all +the time, and she had played with the ivory elephants and had seen the +gray mouse and its babies in their nest in the velvet cushion. + + + + +CHAPTER VII. +THE KEY TO THE GARDEN + + +Two days after this, when Mary opened her eyes she sat upright in bed +immediately, and called to Martha. + +“Look at the moor! Look at the moor!” + +The rainstorm had ended and the gray mist and clouds had been swept +away in the night by the wind. The wind itself had ceased and a +brilliant, deep blue sky arched high over the moorland. Never, never +had Mary dreamed of a sky so blue. In India skies were hot and blazing; +this was of a deep cool blue which almost seemed to sparkle like the +waters of some lovely bottomless lake, and here and there, high, high +in the arched blueness floated small clouds of snow-white fleece. The +far-reaching world of the moor itself looked softly blue instead of +gloomy purple-black or awful dreary gray. + +“Aye,” said Martha with a cheerful grin. “Th’ storm’s over for a bit. +It does like this at this time o’ th’ year. It goes off in a night like +it was pretendin’ it had never been here an’ never meant to come again. +That’s because th’ springtime’s on its way. It’s a long way off yet, +but it’s comin’.” + +“I thought perhaps it always rained or looked dark in England,” Mary +said. + +“Eh! no!” said Martha, sitting up on her heels among her black lead +brushes. “Nowt o’ th’ soart!” + +“What does that mean?” asked Mary seriously. In India the natives spoke +different dialects which only a few people understood, so she was not +surprised when Martha used words she did not know. + +Martha laughed as she had done the first morning. + +“There now,” she said. “I’ve talked broad Yorkshire again like Mrs. +Medlock said I mustn’t. ‘Nowt o’ th’ soart’ means +‘nothin’-of-the-sort,’” slowly and carefully, “but it takes so long to +say it. Yorkshire’s th’ sunniest place on earth when it is sunny. I +told thee tha’d like th’ moor after a bit. Just you wait till you see +th’ gold-colored gorse blossoms an’ th’ blossoms o’ th’ broom, an’ th’ +heather flowerin’, all purple bells, an’ hundreds o’ butterflies +flutterin’ an’ bees hummin’ an’ skylarks soarin’ up an’ singin’. You’ll +want to get out on it at sunrise an’ live out on it all day like Dickon +does.” + +“Could I ever get there?” asked Mary wistfully, looking through her +window at the far-off blue. It was so new and big and wonderful and +such a heavenly color. + +“I don’t know,” answered Martha. “Tha’s never used tha’ legs since tha’ +was born, it seems to me. Tha’ couldn’t walk five mile. It’s five mile +to our cottage.” + +“I should like to see your cottage.” + +Martha stared at her a moment curiously before she took up her +polishing brush and began to rub the grate again. She was thinking that +the small plain face did not look quite as sour at this moment as it +had done the first morning she saw it. It looked just a trifle like +little Susan Ann’s when she wanted something very much. + +“I’ll ask my mother about it,” she said. “She’s one o’ them that nearly +always sees a way to do things. It’s my day out today an’ I’m goin’ +home. Eh! I am glad. Mrs. Medlock thinks a lot o’ mother. Perhaps she +could talk to her.” + +“I like your mother,” said Mary. + +“I should think tha’ did,” agreed Martha, polishing away. + +“I’ve never seen her,” said Mary. + +“No, tha’ hasn’t,” replied Martha. + +She sat up on her heels again and rubbed the end of her nose with the +back of her hand as if puzzled for a moment, but she ended quite +positively. + +“Well, she’s that sensible an’ hard workin’ an’ good-natured an’ clean +that no one could help likin’ her whether they’d seen her or not. When +I’m goin’ home to her on my day out I just jump for joy when I’m +crossin’ the moor.” + +“I like Dickon,” added Mary. “And I’ve never seen him.” + +“Well,” said Martha stoutly, “I’ve told thee that th’ very birds likes +him an’ th’ rabbits an’ wild sheep an’ ponies, an’ th’ foxes +themselves. I wonder,” staring at her reflectively, “what Dickon would +think of thee?” + +“He wouldn’t like me,” said Mary in her stiff, cold little way. “No one +does.” + +Martha looked reflective again. + +“How does tha’ like thysel’?” she inquired, really quite as if she were +curious to know. + +Mary hesitated a moment and thought it over. + +“Not at all—really,” she answered. “But I never thought of that +before.” + +Martha grinned a little as if at some homely recollection. + +“Mother said that to me once,” she said. “She was at her wash-tub an’ I +was in a bad temper an’ talkin’ ill of folk, an’ she turns round on me +an’ says: ‘Tha’ young vixen, tha’! There tha’ stands sayin’ tha’ +doesn’t like this one an’ tha’ doesn’t like that one. How does tha’ +like thysel’?’ It made me laugh an’ it brought me to my senses in a +minute.” + +She went away in high spirits as soon as she had given Mary her +breakfast. She was going to walk five miles across the moor to the +cottage, and she was going to help her mother with the washing and do +the week’s baking and enjoy herself thoroughly. + +Mary felt lonelier than ever when she knew she was no longer in the +house. She went out into the garden as quickly as possible, and the +first thing she did was to run round and round the fountain flower +garden ten times. She counted the times carefully and when she had +finished she felt in better spirits. The sunshine made the whole place +look different. The high, deep, blue sky arched over Misselthwaite as +well as over the moor, and she kept lifting her face and looking up +into it, trying to imagine what it would be like to lie down on one of +the little snow-white clouds and float about. She went into the first +kitchen-garden and found Ben Weatherstaff working there with two other +gardeners. The change in the weather seemed to have done him good. He +spoke to her of his own accord. + +“Springtime’s comin,’” he said. “Cannot tha’ smell it?” + +Mary sniffed and thought she could. + +“I smell something nice and fresh and damp,” she said. + +“That’s th’ good rich earth,” he answered, digging away. “It’s in a +good humor makin’ ready to grow things. It’s glad when plantin’ time +comes. It’s dull in th’ winter when it’s got nowt to do. In th’ flower +gardens out there things will be stirrin’ down below in th’ dark. Th’ +sun’s warmin’ ’em. You’ll see bits o’ green spikes stickin’ out o’ th’ +black earth after a bit.” + +“What will they be?” asked Mary. + +“Crocuses an’ snowdrops an’ daffydowndillys. Has tha’ never seen them?” + +“No. Everything is hot, and wet, and green after the rains in India,” +said Mary. “And I think things grow up in a night.” + +“These won’t grow up in a night,” said Weatherstaff. “Tha’ll have to +wait for ’em. They’ll poke up a bit higher here, an’ push out a spike +more there, an’ uncurl a leaf this day an’ another that. You watch +’em.” + +“I am going to,” answered Mary. + +Very soon she heard the soft rustling flight of wings again and she +knew at once that the robin had come again. He was very pert and +lively, and hopped about so close to her feet, and put his head on one +side and looked at her so slyly that she asked Ben Weatherstaff a +question. + +“Do you think he remembers me?” she said. + +“Remembers thee!” said Weatherstaff indignantly. “He knows every +cabbage stump in th’ gardens, let alone th’ people. He’s never seen a +little wench here before, an’ he’s bent on findin’ out all about thee. +Tha’s no need to try to hide anything from _him_.” + +“Are things stirring down below in the dark in that garden where he +lives?” Mary inquired. + +“What garden?” grunted Weatherstaff, becoming surly again. + +“The one where the old rose-trees are.” She could not help asking, +because she wanted so much to know. “Are all the flowers dead, or do +some of them come again in the summer? Are there ever any roses?” + +“Ask him,” said Ben Weatherstaff, hunching his shoulders toward the +robin. “He’s the only one as knows. No one else has seen inside it for +ten year’.” + +Ten years was a long time, Mary thought. She had been born ten years +ago. + +She walked away, slowly thinking. She had begun to like the garden just +as she had begun to like the robin and Dickon and Martha’s mother. She +was beginning to like Martha, too. That seemed a good many people to +like—when you were not used to liking. She thought of the robin as one +of the people. She went to her walk outside the long, ivy-covered wall +over which she could see the tree-tops; and the second time she walked +up and down the most interesting and exciting thing happened to her, +and it was all through Ben Weatherstaff’s robin. + +She heard a chirp and a twitter, and when she looked at the bare +flower-bed at her left side there he was hopping about and pretending +to peck things out of the earth to persuade her that he had not +followed her. But she knew he had followed her and the surprise so +filled her with delight that she almost trembled a little. + +“You do remember me!” she cried out. “You do! You are prettier than +anything else in the world!” + +She chirped, and talked, and coaxed and he hopped, and flirted his tail +and twittered. It was as if he were talking. His red waistcoat was like +satin and he puffed his tiny breast out and was so fine and so grand +and so pretty that it was really as if he were showing her how +important and like a human person a robin could be. Mistress Mary +forgot that she had ever been contrary in her life when he allowed her +to draw closer and closer to him, and bend down and talk and try to +make something like robin sounds. + +Oh! to think that he should actually let her come as near to him as +that! He knew nothing in the world would make her put out her hand +toward him or startle him in the least tiniest way. He knew it because +he was a real person—only nicer than any other person in the world. She +was so happy that she scarcely dared to breathe. + +The flower-bed was not quite bare. It was bare of flowers because the +perennial plants had been cut down for their winter rest, but there +were tall shrubs and low ones which grew together at the back of the +bed, and as the robin hopped about under them she saw him hop over a +small pile of freshly turned up earth. He stopped on it to look for a +worm. The earth had been turned up because a dog had been trying to dig +up a mole and he had scratched quite a deep hole. + +Mary looked at it, not really knowing why the hole was there, and as +she looked she saw something almost buried in the newly-turned soil. It +was something like a ring of rusty iron or brass and when the robin +flew up into a tree nearby she put out her hand and picked the ring up. +It was more than a ring, however; it was an old key which looked as if +it had been buried a long time. + +Mistress Mary stood up and looked at it with an almost frightened face +as it hung from her finger. + +“Perhaps it has been buried for ten years,” she said in a whisper. +“Perhaps it is the key to the garden!” + + + + +CHAPTER VIII. +THE ROBIN WHO SHOWED THE WAY + + +She looked at the key quite a long time. She turned it over and over, +and thought about it. As I have said before, she was not a child who +had been trained to ask permission or consult her elders about things. +All she thought about the key was that if it was the key to the closed +garden, and she could find out where the door was, she could perhaps +open it and see what was inside the walls, and what had happened to the +old rose-trees. It was because it had been shut up so long that she +wanted to see it. It seemed as if it must be different from other +places and that something strange must have happened to it during ten +years. Besides that, if she liked it she could go into it every day and +shut the door behind her, and she could make up some play of her own +and play it quite alone, because nobody would ever know where she was, +but would think the door was still locked and the key buried in the +earth. The thought of that pleased her very much. + +Living as it were, all by herself in a house with a hundred +mysteriously closed rooms and having nothing whatever to do to amuse +herself, had set her inactive brain to working and was actually +awakening her imagination. There is no doubt that the fresh, strong, +pure air from the moor had a great deal to do with it. Just as it had +given her an appetite, and fighting with the wind had stirred her +blood, so the same things had stirred her mind. In India she had always +been too hot and languid and weak to care much about anything, but in +this place she was beginning to care and to want to do new things. +Already she felt less “contrary,” though she did not know why. + +She put the key in her pocket and walked up and down her walk. No one +but herself ever seemed to come there, so she could walk slowly and +look at the wall, or, rather, at the ivy growing on it. The ivy was the +baffling thing. Howsoever carefully she looked she could see nothing +but thickly growing, glossy, dark green leaves. She was very much +disappointed. Something of her contrariness came back to her as she +paced the walk and looked over it at the tree-tops inside. It seemed so +silly, she said to herself, to be near it and not be able to get in. +She took the key in her pocket when she went back to the house, and she +made up her mind that she would always carry it with her when she went +out, so that if she ever should find the hidden door she would be +ready. + +Mrs. Medlock had allowed Martha to sleep all night at the cottage, but +she was back at her work in the morning with cheeks redder than ever +and in the best of spirits. + +“I got up at four o’clock,” she said. “Eh! it was pretty on th’ moor +with th’ birds gettin’ up an’ th’ rabbits scamperin’ about an’ th’ sun +risin’. I didn’t walk all th’ way. A man gave me a ride in his cart an’ +I did enjoy myself.” + +She was full of stories of the delights of her day out. Her mother had +been glad to see her and they had got the baking and washing all out of +the way. She had even made each of the children a doughcake with a bit +of brown sugar in it. + +“I had ’em all pipin’ hot when they came in from playin’ on th’ moor. +An’ th’ cottage all smelt o’ nice, clean hot bakin’ an’ there was a +good fire, an’ they just shouted for joy. Our Dickon he said our +cottage was good enough for a king to live in.” + +In the evening they had all sat round the fire, and Martha and her +mother had sewed patches on torn clothes and mended stockings and +Martha had told them about the little girl who had come from India and +who had been waited on all her life by what Martha called “blacks” +until she didn’t know how to put on her own stockings. + +“Eh! they did like to hear about you,” said Martha. “They wanted to +know all about th’ blacks an’ about th’ ship you came in. I couldn’t +tell ’em enough.” + +Mary reflected a little. + +“I’ll tell you a great deal more before your next day out,” she said, +“so that you will have more to talk about. I dare say they would like +to hear about riding on elephants and camels, and about the officers +going to hunt tigers.” + +“My word!” cried delighted Martha. “It would set ’em clean off their +heads. Would tha’ really do that, Miss? It would be same as a wild +beast show like we heard they had in York once.” + +“India is quite different from Yorkshire,” Mary said slowly, as she +thought the matter over. “I never thought of that. Did Dickon and your +mother like to hear you talk about me?” + +“Why, our Dickon’s eyes nearly started out o’ his head, they got that +round,” answered Martha. “But mother, she was put out about your +seemin’ to be all by yourself like. She said, ‘Hasn’t Mr. Craven got no +governess for her, nor no nurse?’ and I said, ‘No, he hasn’t, though +Mrs. Medlock says he will when he thinks of it, but she says he mayn’t +think of it for two or three years.’” + +“I don’t want a governess,” said Mary sharply. + +“But mother says you ought to be learnin’ your book by this time an’ +you ought to have a woman to look after you, an’ she says: ‘Now, +Martha, you just think how you’d feel yourself, in a big place like +that, wanderin’ about all alone, an’ no mother. You do your best to +cheer her up,’ she says, an’ I said I would.” + +Mary gave her a long, steady look. + +“You do cheer me up,” she said. “I like to hear you talk.” + +Presently Martha went out of the room and came back with something held +in her hands under her apron. + +“What does tha’ think,” she said, with a cheerful grin. “I’ve brought +thee a present.” + +“A present!” exclaimed Mistress Mary. How could a cottage full of +fourteen hungry people give anyone a present! + +“A man was drivin’ across the moor peddlin’,” Martha explained. “An’ he +stopped his cart at our door. He had pots an’ pans an’ odds an’ ends, +but mother had no money to buy anythin’. Just as he was goin’ away our +’Lizabeth Ellen called out, ‘Mother, he’s got skippin’-ropes with red +an’ blue handles.’ An’ mother she calls out quite sudden, ‘Here, stop, +mister! How much are they?’ An’ he says ‘Tuppence’, an’ mother she +began fumblin’ in her pocket an’ she says to me, ‘Martha, tha’s brought +me thy wages like a good lass, an’ I’ve got four places to put every +penny, but I’m just goin’ to take tuppence out of it to buy that child +a skippin’-rope,’ an’ she bought one an’ here it is.” + +She brought it out from under her apron and exhibited it quite proudly. +It was a strong, slender rope with a striped red and blue handle at +each end, but Mary Lennox had never seen a skipping-rope before. She +gazed at it with a mystified expression. + +“What is it for?” she asked curiously. + +“For!” cried out Martha. “Does tha’ mean that they’ve not got +skippin’-ropes in India, for all they’ve got elephants and tigers and +camels! No wonder most of ’em’s black. This is what it’s for; just +watch me.” + +And she ran into the middle of the room and, taking a handle in each +hand, began to skip, and skip, and skip, while Mary turned in her chair +to stare at her, and the queer faces in the old portraits seemed to +stare at her, too, and wonder what on earth this common little cottager +had the impudence to be doing under their very noses. But Martha did +not even see them. The interest and curiosity in Mistress Mary’s face +delighted her, and she went on skipping and counted as she skipped +until she had reached a hundred. + +“I could skip longer than that,” she said when she stopped. “I’ve +skipped as much as five hundred when I was twelve, but I wasn’t as fat +then as I am now, an’ I was in practice.” + +Mary got up from her chair beginning to feel excited herself. + +“It looks nice,” she said. “Your mother is a kind woman. Do you think I +could ever skip like that?” + +“You just try it,” urged Martha, handing her the skipping-rope. “You +can’t skip a hundred at first, but if you practice you’ll mount up. +That’s what mother said. She says, ‘Nothin’ will do her more good than +skippin’ rope. It’s th’ sensiblest toy a child can have. Let her play +out in th’ fresh air skippin’ an’ it’ll stretch her legs an’ arms an’ +give her some strength in ’em.’” + +It was plain that there was not a great deal of strength in Mistress +Mary’s arms and legs when she first began to skip. She was not very +clever at it, but she liked it so much that she did not want to stop. + +“Put on tha’ things and run an’ skip out o’ doors,” said Martha. +“Mother said I must tell you to keep out o’ doors as much as you could, +even when it rains a bit, so as tha’ wrap up warm.” + +Mary put on her coat and hat and took her skipping-rope over her arm. +She opened the door to go out, and then suddenly thought of something +and turned back rather slowly. + +“Martha,” she said, “they were your wages. It was your two-pence +really. Thank you.” She said it stiffly because she was not used to +thanking people or noticing that they did things for her. “Thank you,” +she said, and held out her hand because she did not know what else to +do. + +Martha gave her hand a clumsy little shake, as if she was not +accustomed to this sort of thing either. Then she laughed. + +“Eh! th’ art a queer, old-womanish thing,” she said. “If tha’d been our +’Lizabeth Ellen tha’d have given me a kiss.” + +Mary looked stiffer than ever. + +“Do you want me to kiss you?” + +Martha laughed again. + +“Nay, not me,” she answered. “If tha’ was different, p’raps tha’d want +to thysel’. But tha’ isn’t. Run off outside an’ play with thy rope.” + +Mistress Mary felt a little awkward as she went out of the room. +Yorkshire people seemed strange, and Martha was always rather a puzzle +to her. At first she had disliked her very much, but now she did not. +The skipping-rope was a wonderful thing. She counted and skipped, and +skipped and counted, until her cheeks were quite red, and she was more +interested than she had ever been since she was born. The sun was +shining and a little wind was blowing—not a rough wind, but one which +came in delightful little gusts and brought a fresh scent of newly +turned earth with it. She skipped round the fountain garden, and up one +walk and down another. She skipped at last into the kitchen-garden and +saw Ben Weatherstaff digging and talking to his robin, which was +hopping about him. She skipped down the walk toward him and he lifted +his head and looked at her with a curious expression. She had wondered +if he would notice her. She wanted him to see her skip. + +“Well!” he exclaimed. “Upon my word. P’raps tha’ art a young ’un, after +all, an’ p’raps tha’s got child’s blood in thy veins instead of sour +buttermilk. Tha’s skipped red into thy cheeks as sure as my name’s Ben +Weatherstaff. I wouldn’t have believed tha’ could do it.” + +“I never skipped before,” Mary said. “I’m just beginning. I can only go +up to twenty.” + +“Tha’ keep on,” said Ben. “Tha’ shapes well enough at it for a young +’un that’s lived with heathen. Just see how he’s watchin’ thee,” +jerking his head toward the robin. “He followed after thee yesterday. +He’ll be at it again today. He’ll be bound to find out what th’ +skippin’-rope is. He’s never seen one. Eh!” shaking his head at the +bird, “tha’ curiosity will be th’ death of thee sometime if tha’ +doesn’t look sharp.” + +Mary skipped round all the gardens and round the orchard, resting every +few minutes. At length she went to her own special walk and made up her +mind to try if she could skip the whole length of it. It was a good +long skip and she began slowly, but before she had gone half-way down +the path she was so hot and breathless that she was obliged to stop. +She did not mind much, because she had already counted up to thirty. +She stopped with a little laugh of pleasure, and there, lo and behold, +was the robin swaying on a long branch of ivy. He had followed her and +he greeted her with a chirp. As Mary had skipped toward him she felt +something heavy in her pocket strike against her at each jump, and when +she saw the robin she laughed again. + +“You showed me where the key was yesterday,” she said. “You ought to +show me the door today; but I don’t believe you know!” + +The robin flew from his swinging spray of ivy on to the top of the wall +and he opened his beak and sang a loud, lovely trill, merely to show +off. Nothing in the world is quite as adorably lovely as a robin when +he shows off—and they are nearly always doing it. + +Mary Lennox had heard a great deal about Magic in her Ayah’s stories, +and she always said that what happened almost at that moment was Magic. + +One of the nice little gusts of wind rushed down the walk, and it was a +stronger one than the rest. It was strong enough to wave the branches +of the trees, and it was more than strong enough to sway the trailing +sprays of untrimmed ivy hanging from the wall. Mary had stepped close +to the robin, and suddenly the gust of wind swung aside some loose ivy +trails, and more suddenly still she jumped toward it and caught it in +her hand. This she did because she had seen something under it—a round +knob which had been covered by the leaves hanging over it. It was the +knob of a door. + +She put her hands under the leaves and began to pull and push them +aside. Thick as the ivy hung, it nearly all was a loose and swinging +curtain, though some had crept over wood and iron. Mary’s heart began +to thump and her hands to shake a little in her delight and excitement. +The robin kept singing and twittering away and tilting his head on one +side, as if he were as excited as she was. What was this under her +hands which was square and made of iron and which her fingers found a +hole in? + +It was the lock of the door which had been closed ten years and she put +her hand in her pocket, drew out the key and found it fitted the +keyhole. She put the key in and turned it. It took two hands to do it, +but it did turn. + +And then she took a long breath and looked behind her up the long walk +to see if anyone was coming. No one was coming. No one ever did come, +it seemed, and she took another long breath, because she could not help +it, and she held back the swinging curtain of ivy and pushed back the +door which opened slowly—slowly. + +Then she slipped through it, and shut it behind her, and stood with her +back against it, looking about her and breathing quite fast with +excitement, and wonder, and delight. + +She was standing _inside_ the secret garden. + + + + +CHAPTER IX. +THE STRANGEST HOUSE ANYONE EVER LIVED IN + + +It was the sweetest, most mysterious-looking place anyone could +imagine. The high walls which shut it in were covered with the leafless +stems of climbing roses which were so thick that they were matted +together. Mary Lennox knew they were roses because she had seen a great +many roses in India. All the ground was covered with grass of a wintry +brown and out of it grew clumps of bushes which were surely rosebushes +if they were alive. There were numbers of standard roses which had so +spread their branches that they were like little trees. There were +other trees in the garden, and one of the things which made the place +look strangest and loveliest was that climbing roses had run all over +them and swung down long tendrils which made light swaying curtains, +and here and there they had caught at each other or at a far-reaching +branch and had crept from one tree to another and made lovely bridges +of themselves. There were neither leaves nor roses on them now and Mary +did not know whether they were dead or alive, but their thin gray or +brown branches and sprays looked like a sort of hazy mantle spreading +over everything, walls, and trees, and even brown grass, where they had +fallen from their fastenings and run along the ground. It was this hazy +tangle from tree to tree which made it all look so mysterious. Mary had +thought it must be different from other gardens which had not been left +all by themselves so long; and indeed it was different from any other +place she had ever seen in her life. + +“How still it is!” she whispered. “How still!” + +Then she waited a moment and listened at the stillness. The robin, who +had flown to his treetop, was still as all the rest. He did not even +flutter his wings; he sat without stirring, and looked at Mary. + +“No wonder it is still,” she whispered again. “I am the first person +who has spoken in here for ten years.” + +She moved away from the door, stepping as softly as if she were afraid +of awakening someone. She was glad that there was grass under her feet +and that her steps made no sounds. She walked under one of the +fairy-like gray arches between the trees and looked up at the sprays +and tendrils which formed them. + +“I wonder if they are all quite dead,” she said. “Is it all a quite +dead garden? I wish it wasn’t.” + +If she had been Ben Weatherstaff she could have told whether the wood +was alive by looking at it, but she could only see that there were only +gray or brown sprays and branches and none showed any signs of even a +tiny leaf-bud anywhere. + +But she was _inside_ the wonderful garden and she could come through +the door under the ivy any time and she felt as if she had found a +world all her own. + +The sun was shining inside the four walls and the high arch of blue sky +over this particular piece of Misselthwaite seemed even more brilliant +and soft than it was over the moor. The robin flew down from his +tree-top and hopped about or flew after her from one bush to another. +He chirped a good deal and had a very busy air, as if he were showing +her things. Everything was strange and silent and she seemed to be +hundreds of miles away from anyone, but somehow she did not feel lonely +at all. All that troubled her was her wish that she knew whether all +the roses were dead, or if perhaps some of them had lived and might put +out leaves and buds as the weather got warmer. She did not want it to +be a quite dead garden. If it were a quite alive garden, how wonderful +it would be, and what thousands of roses would grow on every side! + +Her skipping-rope had hung over her arm when she came in and after she +had walked about for a while she thought she would skip round the whole +garden, stopping when she wanted to look at things. There seemed to +have been grass paths here and there, and in one or two corners there +were alcoves of evergreen with stone seats or tall moss-covered flower +urns in them. + +As she came near the second of these alcoves she stopped skipping. +There had once been a flowerbed in it, and she thought she saw +something sticking out of the black earth—some sharp little pale green +points. She remembered what Ben Weatherstaff had said and she knelt +down to look at them. + +“Yes, they are tiny growing things and they _might_ be crocuses or +snowdrops or daffodils,” she whispered. + +She bent very close to them and sniffed the fresh scent of the damp +earth. She liked it very much. + +“Perhaps there are some other ones coming up in other places,” she +said. “I will go all over the garden and look.” + +She did not skip, but walked. She went slowly and kept her eyes on the +ground. She looked in the old border beds and among the grass, and +after she had gone round, trying to miss nothing, she had found ever so +many more sharp, pale green points, and she had become quite excited +again. + +“It isn’t a quite dead garden,” she cried out softly to herself. “Even +if the roses are dead, there are other things alive.” + +She did not know anything about gardening, but the grass seemed so +thick in some of the places where the green points were pushing their +way through that she thought they did not seem to have room enough to +grow. She searched about until she found a rather sharp piece of wood +and knelt down and dug and weeded out the weeds and grass until she +made nice little clear places around them. + +“Now they look as if they could breathe,” she said, after she had +finished with the first ones. “I am going to do ever so many more. I’ll +do all I can see. If I haven’t time today I can come tomorrow.” + +She went from place to place, and dug and weeded, and enjoyed herself +so immensely that she was led on from bed to bed and into the grass +under the trees. The exercise made her so warm that she first threw her +coat off, and then her hat, and without knowing it she was smiling down +on to the grass and the pale green points all the time. + +The robin was tremendously busy. He was very much pleased to see +gardening begun on his own estate. He had often wondered at Ben +Weatherstaff. Where gardening is done all sorts of delightful things to +eat are turned up with the soil. Now here was this new kind of creature +who was not half Ben’s size and yet had had the sense to come into his +garden and begin at once. + +Mistress Mary worked in her garden until it was time to go to her +midday dinner. In fact, she was rather late in remembering, and when +she put on her coat and hat, and picked up her skipping-rope, she could +not believe that she had been working two or three hours. She had been +actually happy all the time; and dozens and dozens of the tiny, pale +green points were to be seen in cleared places, looking twice as +cheerful as they had looked before when the grass and weeds had been +smothering them. + +“I shall come back this afternoon,” she said, looking all round at her +new kingdom, and speaking to the trees and the rose-bushes as if they +heard her. + +Then she ran lightly across the grass, pushed open the slow old door +and slipped through it under the ivy. She had such red cheeks and such +bright eyes and ate such a dinner that Martha was delighted. + +“Two pieces o’ meat an’ two helps o’ rice puddin’!” she said. “Eh! +mother will be pleased when I tell her what th’ skippin’-rope’s done +for thee.” + +In the course of her digging with her pointed stick Mistress Mary had +found herself digging up a sort of white root rather like an onion. She +had put it back in its place and patted the earth carefully down on it +and just now she wondered if Martha could tell her what it was. + +“Martha,” she said, “what are those white roots that look like onions?” + +“They’re bulbs,” answered Martha. “Lots o’ spring flowers grow from +’em. Th’ very little ones are snowdrops an’ crocuses an’ th’ big ones +are narcissuses an’ jonquils and daffydowndillys. Th’ biggest of all is +lilies an’ purple flags. Eh! they are nice. Dickon’s got a whole lot of +’em planted in our bit o’ garden.” + +“Does Dickon know all about them?” asked Mary, a new idea taking +possession of her. + +“Our Dickon can make a flower grow out of a brick walk. Mother says he +just whispers things out o’ th’ ground.” + +“Do bulbs live a long time? Would they live years and years if no one +helped them?” inquired Mary anxiously. + +“They’re things as helps themselves,” said Martha. “That’s why poor +folk can afford to have ’em. If you don’t trouble ’em, most of ’em’ll +work away underground for a lifetime an’ spread out an’ have little +’uns. There’s a place in th’ park woods here where there’s snowdrops by +thousands. They’re the prettiest sight in Yorkshire when th’ spring +comes. No one knows when they was first planted.” + +“I wish the spring was here now,” said Mary. “I want to see all the +things that grow in England.” + +She had finished her dinner and gone to her favorite seat on the +hearth-rug. + +“I wish—I wish I had a little spade,” she said. + +“Whatever does tha’ want a spade for?” asked Martha, laughing. “Art +tha’ goin’ to take to diggin’? I must tell mother that, too.” + +Mary looked at the fire and pondered a little. She must be careful if +she meant to keep her secret kingdom. She wasn’t doing any harm, but if +Mr. Craven found out about the open door he would be fearfully angry +and get a new key and lock it up forevermore. She really could not bear +that. + +“This is such a big lonely place,” she said slowly, as if she were +turning matters over in her mind. “The house is lonely, and the park is +lonely, and the gardens are lonely. So many places seem shut up. I +never did many things in India, but there were more people to look +at—natives and soldiers marching by—and sometimes bands playing, and my +Ayah told me stories. There is no one to talk to here except you and +Ben Weatherstaff. And you have to do your work and Ben Weatherstaff +won’t speak to me often. I thought if I had a little spade I could dig +somewhere as he does, and I might make a little garden if he would give +me some seeds.” + +Martha’s face quite lighted up. + +“There now!” she exclaimed, “if that wasn’t one of th’ things mother +said. She says, ‘There’s such a lot o’ room in that big place, why +don’t they give her a bit for herself, even if she doesn’t plant +nothin’ but parsley an’ radishes? She’d dig an’ rake away an’ be right +down happy over it.’ Them was the very words she said.” + +“Were they?” said Mary. “How many things she knows, doesn’t she?” + +“Eh!” said Martha. “It’s like she says: ‘A woman as brings up twelve +children learns something besides her A B C. Children’s as good as +’rithmetic to set you findin’ out things.’” + +“How much would a spade cost—a little one?” Mary asked. + +“Well,” was Martha’s reflective answer, “at Thwaite village there’s a +shop or so an’ I saw little garden sets with a spade an’ a rake an’ a +fork all tied together for two shillings. An’ they was stout enough to +work with, too.” + +“I’ve got more than that in my purse,” said Mary. “Mrs. Morrison gave +me five shillings and Mrs. Medlock gave me some money from Mr. Craven.” + +“Did he remember thee that much?” exclaimed Martha. + +“Mrs. Medlock said I was to have a shilling a week to spend. She gives +me one every Saturday. I didn’t know what to spend it on.” + +“My word! that’s riches,” said Martha. “Tha’ can buy anything in th’ +world tha’ wants. Th’ rent of our cottage is only one an’ threepence +an’ it’s like pullin’ eye-teeth to get it. Now I’ve just thought of +somethin’,” putting her hands on her hips. + +“What?” said Mary eagerly. + +“In the shop at Thwaite they sell packages o’ flower-seeds for a penny +each, and our Dickon he knows which is th’ prettiest ones an’ how to +make ’em grow. He walks over to Thwaite many a day just for th’ fun of +it. Does tha’ know how to print letters?” suddenly. + +“I know how to write,” Mary answered. + +Martha shook her head. + +“Our Dickon can only read printin’. If tha’ could print we could write +a letter to him an’ ask him to go an’ buy th’ garden tools an’ th’ +seeds at th’ same time.” + +“Oh! you’re a good girl!” Mary cried. “You are, really! I didn’t know +you were so nice. I know I can print letters if I try. Let’s ask Mrs. +Medlock for a pen and ink and some paper.” + +“I’ve got some of my own,” said Martha. “I bought ’em so I could print +a bit of a letter to mother of a Sunday. I’ll go and get it.” + +She ran out of the room, and Mary stood by the fire and twisted her +thin little hands together with sheer pleasure. + +“If I have a spade,” she whispered, “I can make the earth nice and soft +and dig up weeds. If I have seeds and can make flowers grow the garden +won’t be dead at all—it will come alive.” + +She did not go out again that afternoon because when Martha returned +with her pen and ink and paper she was obliged to clear the table and +carry the plates and dishes downstairs and when she got into the +kitchen Mrs. Medlock was there and told her to do something, so Mary +waited for what seemed to her a long time before she came back. Then it +was a serious piece of work to write to Dickon. Mary had been taught +very little because her governesses had disliked her too much to stay +with her. She could not spell particularly well but she found that she +could print letters when she tried. This was the letter Martha dictated +to her: + + +“_My Dear Dickon:_ + +This comes hoping to find you well as it leaves me at present. Miss +Mary has plenty of money and will you go to Thwaite and buy her some +flower seeds and a set of garden tools to make a flower-bed. Pick the +prettiest ones and easy to grow because she has never done it before +and lived in India which is different. Give my love to mother and +everyone of you. Miss Mary is going to tell me a lot more so that on my +next day out you can hear about elephants and camels and gentlemen +going hunting lions and tigers. + + “Your loving sister, + + “Martha Phœbe Sowerby.” + +“We’ll put the money in th’ envelope an’ I’ll get th’ butcher boy to +take it in his cart. He’s a great friend o’ Dickon’s,” said Martha. + +“How shall I get the things when Dickon buys them?” + +“He’ll bring ’em to you himself. He’ll like to walk over this way.” + +“Oh!” exclaimed Mary, “then I shall see him! I never thought I should +see Dickon.” + +“Does tha’ want to see him?” asked Martha suddenly, for Mary had looked +so pleased. + +“Yes, I do. I never saw a boy foxes and crows loved. I want to see him +very much.” + +Martha gave a little start, as if she remembered something. + +“Now to think,” she broke out, “to think o’ me forgettin’ that there; +an’ I thought I was goin’ to tell you first thing this mornin’. I asked +mother—and she said she’d ask Mrs. Medlock her own self.” + +“Do you mean—” Mary began. + +“What I said Tuesday. Ask her if you might be driven over to our +cottage some day and have a bit o’ mother’s hot oat cake, an’ butter, +an’ a glass o’ milk.” + +It seemed as if all the interesting things were happening in one day. +To think of going over the moor in the daylight and when the sky was +blue! To think of going into the cottage which held twelve children! + +“Does she think Mrs. Medlock would let me go?” she asked, quite +anxiously. + +“Aye, she thinks she would. She knows what a tidy woman mother is and +how clean she keeps the cottage.” + +“If I went I should see your mother as well as Dickon,” said Mary, +thinking it over and liking the idea very much. “She doesn’t seem to be +like the mothers in India.” + +Her work in the garden and the excitement of the afternoon ended by +making her feel quiet and thoughtful. Martha stayed with her until +tea-time, but they sat in comfortable quiet and talked very little. But +just before Martha went downstairs for the tea-tray, Mary asked a +question. + +“Martha,” she said, “has the scullery-maid had the toothache again +today?” + +Martha certainly started slightly. + +“What makes thee ask that?” she said. + +“Because when I waited so long for you to come back I opened the door +and walked down the corridor to see if you were coming. And I heard +that far-off crying again, just as we heard it the other night. There +isn’t a wind today, so you see it couldn’t have been the wind.” + +“Eh!” said Martha restlessly. “Tha’ mustn’t go walkin’ about in +corridors an’ listenin’. Mr. Craven would be that there angry there’s +no knowin’ what he’d do.” + +“I wasn’t listening,” said Mary. “I was just waiting for you—and I +heard it. That’s three times.” + +“My word! There’s Mrs. Medlock’s bell,” said Martha, and she almost ran +out of the room. + +“It’s the strangest house anyone ever lived in,” said Mary drowsily, as +she dropped her head on the cushioned seat of the armchair near her. +Fresh air, and digging, and skipping-rope had made her feel so +comfortably tired that she fell asleep. + + + + +CHAPTER X. +DICKON + + +The sun shone down for nearly a week on the secret garden. The Secret +Garden was what Mary called it when she was thinking of it. She liked +the name, and she liked still more the feeling that when its beautiful +old walls shut her in no one knew where she was. It seemed almost like +being shut out of the world in some fairy place. The few books she had +read and liked had been fairy-story books, and she had read of secret +gardens in some of the stories. Sometimes people went to sleep in them +for a hundred years, which she had thought must be rather stupid. She +had no intention of going to sleep, and, in fact, she was becoming +wider awake every day which passed at Misselthwaite. She was beginning +to like to be out of doors; she no longer hated the wind, but enjoyed +it. She could run faster, and longer, and she could skip up to a +hundred. The bulbs in the secret garden must have been much astonished. +Such nice clear places were made round them that they had all the +breathing space they wanted, and really, if Mistress Mary had known it, +they began to cheer up under the dark earth and work tremendously. The +sun could get at them and warm them, and when the rain came down it +could reach them at once, so they began to feel very much alive. + +Mary was an odd, determined little person, and now she had something +interesting to be determined about, she was very much absorbed, indeed. +She worked and dug and pulled up weeds steadily, only becoming more +pleased with her work every hour instead of tiring of it. It seemed to +her like a fascinating sort of play. She found many more of the +sprouting pale green points than she had ever hoped to find. They +seemed to be starting up everywhere and each day she was sure she found +tiny new ones, some so tiny that they barely peeped above the earth. +There were so many that she remembered what Martha had said about the +“snowdrops by the thousands,” and about bulbs spreading and making new +ones. These had been left to themselves for ten years and perhaps they +had spread, like the snowdrops, into thousands. She wondered how long +it would be before they showed that they were flowers. Sometimes she +stopped digging to look at the garden and try to imagine what it would +be like when it was covered with thousands of lovely things in bloom. + +During that week of sunshine, she became more intimate with Ben +Weatherstaff. She surprised him several times by seeming to start up +beside him as if she sprang out of the earth. The truth was that she +was afraid that he would pick up his tools and go away if he saw her +coming, so she always walked toward him as silently as possible. But, +in fact, he did not object to her as strongly as he had at first. +Perhaps he was secretly rather flattered by her evident desire for his +elderly company. Then, also, she was more civil than she had been. He +did not know that when she first saw him she spoke to him as she would +have spoken to a native, and had not known that a cross, sturdy old +Yorkshire man was not accustomed to salaam to his masters, and be +merely commanded by them to do things. + +“Tha’rt like th’ robin,” he said to her one morning when he lifted his +head and saw her standing by him. “I never knows when I shall see thee +or which side tha’ll come from.” + +“He’s friends with me now,” said Mary. + +“That’s like him,” snapped Ben Weatherstaff. “Makin’ up to th’ women +folk just for vanity an’ flightiness. There’s nothin’ he wouldn’t do +for th’ sake o’ showin’ off an’ flirtin’ his tail-feathers. He’s as +full o’ pride as an egg’s full o’ meat.” + +He very seldom talked much and sometimes did not even answer Mary’s +questions except by a grunt, but this morning he said more than usual. +He stood up and rested one hobnailed boot on the top of his spade while +he looked her over. + +“How long has tha’ been here?” he jerked out. + +“I think it’s about a month,” she answered. + +“Tha’s beginnin’ to do Misselthwaite credit,” he said. “Tha’s a bit +fatter than tha’ was an’ tha’s not quite so yeller. Tha’ looked like a +young plucked crow when tha’ first came into this garden. Thinks I to +myself I never set eyes on an uglier, sourer faced young ’un.” + +Mary was not vain and as she had never thought much of her looks she +was not greatly disturbed. + +“I know I’m fatter,” she said. “My stockings are getting tighter. They +used to make wrinkles. There’s the robin, Ben Weatherstaff.” + +There, indeed, was the robin, and she thought he looked nicer than +ever. His red waistcoat was as glossy as satin and he flirted his wings +and tail and tilted his head and hopped about with all sorts of lively +graces. He seemed determined to make Ben Weatherstaff admire him. But +Ben was sarcastic. + +“Aye, there tha’ art!” he said. “Tha’ can put up with me for a bit +sometimes when tha’s got no one better. Tha’s been reddenin’ up thy +waistcoat an’ polishin’ thy feathers this two weeks. I know what tha’s +up to. Tha’s courtin’ some bold young madam somewhere tellin’ thy lies +to her about bein’ th’ finest cock robin on Missel Moor an’ ready to +fight all th’ rest of ’em.” + +“Oh! look at him!” exclaimed Mary. + +The robin was evidently in a fascinating, bold mood. He hopped closer +and closer and looked at Ben Weatherstaff more and more engagingly. He +flew on to the nearest currant bush and tilted his head and sang a +little song right at him. + +“Tha’ thinks tha’ll get over me by doin’ that,” said Ben, wrinkling his +face up in such a way that Mary felt sure he was trying not to look +pleased. “Tha’ thinks no one can stand out against thee—that’s what +tha’ thinks.” + +The robin spread his wings—Mary could scarcely believe her eyes. He +flew right up to the handle of Ben Weatherstaff’s spade and alighted on +the top of it. Then the old man’s face wrinkled itself slowly into a +new expression. He stood still as if he were afraid to breathe—as if he +would not have stirred for the world, lest his robin should start away. +He spoke quite in a whisper. + +“Well, I’m danged!” he said as softly as if he were saying something +quite different. “Tha’ does know how to get at a chap—tha’ does! Tha’s +fair unearthly, tha’s so knowin’.” + +And he stood without stirring—almost without drawing his breath—until +the robin gave another flirt to his wings and flew away. Then he stood +looking at the handle of the spade as if there might be Magic in it, +and then he began to dig again and said nothing for several minutes. + +But because he kept breaking into a slow grin now and then, Mary was +not afraid to talk to him. + +“Have you a garden of your own?” she asked. + +“No. I’m bachelder an’ lodge with Martin at th’ gate.” + +“If you had one,” said Mary, “what would you plant?” + +“Cabbages an’ ’taters an’ onions.” + +“But if you wanted to make a flower garden,” persisted Mary, “what +would you plant?” + +“Bulbs an’ sweet-smellin’ things—but mostly roses.” + +Mary’s face lighted up. + +“Do you like roses?” she said. + +Ben Weatherstaff rooted up a weed and threw it aside before he +answered. + +“Well, yes, I do. I was learned that by a young lady I was gardener to. +She had a lot in a place she was fond of, an’ she loved ’em like they +was children—or robins. I’ve seen her bend over an’ kiss ’em.” He +dragged out another weed and scowled at it. “That were as much as ten +year’ ago.” + +“Where is she now?” asked Mary, much interested. + +“Heaven,” he answered, and drove his spade deep into the soil, +“’cording to what parson says.” + +“What happened to the roses?” Mary asked again, more interested than +ever. + +“They was left to themselves.” + +Mary was becoming quite excited. + +“Did they quite die? Do roses quite die when they are left to +themselves?” she ventured. + +“Well, I’d got to like ’em—an’ I liked her—an’ she liked ’em,” Ben +Weatherstaff admitted reluctantly. “Once or twice a year I’d go an’ +work at ’em a bit—prune ’em an’ dig about th’ roots. They run wild, but +they was in rich soil, so some of ’em lived.” + +“When they have no leaves and look gray and brown and dry, how can you +tell whether they are dead or alive?” inquired Mary. + +“Wait till th’ spring gets at ’em—wait till th’ sun shines on th’ rain +and th’ rain falls on th’ sunshine an’ then tha’ll find out.” + +“How—how?” cried Mary, forgetting to be careful. + +“Look along th’ twigs an’ branches an’ if tha’ see a bit of a brown +lump swelling here an’ there, watch it after th’ warm rain an’ see what +happens.” He stopped suddenly and looked curiously at her eager face. +“Why does tha’ care so much about roses an’ such, all of a sudden?” he +demanded. + +Mistress Mary felt her face grow red. She was almost afraid to answer. + +“I—I want to play that—that I have a garden of my own,” she stammered. +“I—there is nothing for me to do. I have nothing—and no one.” + +“Well,” said Ben Weatherstaff slowly, as he watched her, “that’s true. +Tha’ hasn’t.” + +He said it in such an odd way that Mary wondered if he was actually a +little sorry for her. She had never felt sorry for herself; she had +only felt tired and cross, because she disliked people and things so +much. But now the world seemed to be changing and getting nicer. If no +one found out about the secret garden, she should enjoy herself always. + +She stayed with him for ten or fifteen minutes longer and asked him as +many questions as she dared. He answered everyone of them in his queer +grunting way and he did not seem really cross and did not pick up his +spade and leave her. He said something about roses just as she was +going away and it reminded her of the ones he had said he had been fond +of. + +“Do you go and see those other roses now?” she asked. + +“Not been this year. My rheumatics has made me too stiff in th’ +joints.” + +He said it in his grumbling voice, and then quite suddenly he seemed to +get angry with her, though she did not see why he should. + +“Now look here!” he said sharply. “Don’t tha’ ask so many questions. +Tha’rt th’ worst wench for askin’ questions I’ve ever come across. Get +thee gone an’ play thee. I’ve done talkin’ for today.” + +And he said it so crossly that she knew there was not the least use in +staying another minute. She went skipping slowly down the outside walk, +thinking him over and saying to herself that, queer as it was, here was +another person whom she liked in spite of his crossness. She liked old +Ben Weatherstaff. Yes, she did like him. She always wanted to try to +make him talk to her. Also she began to believe that he knew everything +in the world about flowers. + +There was a laurel-hedged walk which curved round the secret garden and +ended at a gate which opened into a wood, in the park. She thought she +would slip round this walk and look into the wood and see if there were +any rabbits hopping about. She enjoyed the skipping very much and when +she reached the little gate she opened it and went through because she +heard a low, peculiar whistling sound and wanted to find out what it +was. + +It was a very strange thing indeed. She quite caught her breath as she +stopped to look at it. A boy was sitting under a tree, with his back +against it, playing on a rough wooden pipe. He was a funny looking boy +about twelve. He looked very clean and his nose turned up and his +cheeks were as red as poppies and never had Mistress Mary seen such +round and such blue eyes in any boy’s face. And on the trunk of the +tree he leaned against, a brown squirrel was clinging and watching him, +and from behind a bush nearby a cock pheasant was delicately stretching +his neck to peep out, and quite near him were two rabbits sitting up +and sniffing with tremulous noses—and actually it appeared as if they +were all drawing near to watch him and listen to the strange low little +call his pipe seemed to make. + +When he saw Mary he held up his hand and spoke to her in a voice almost +as low as and rather like his piping. + +“Don’t tha’ move,” he said. “It’d flight ’em.” + +Mary remained motionless. He stopped playing his pipe and began to rise +from the ground. He moved so slowly that it scarcely seemed as though +he were moving at all, but at last he stood on his feet and then the +squirrel scampered back up into the branches of his tree, the pheasant +withdrew his head and the rabbits dropped on all fours and began to hop +away, though not at all as if they were frightened. + +“I’m Dickon,” the boy said. “I know tha’rt Miss Mary.” + +Then Mary realized that somehow she had known at first that he was +Dickon. Who else could have been charming rabbits and pheasants as the +natives charm snakes in India? He had a wide, red, curving mouth and +his smile spread all over his face. + +“I got up slow,” he explained, “because if tha’ makes a quick move it +startles ’em. A body ’as to move gentle an’ speak low when wild things +is about.” + +He did not speak to her as if they had never seen each other before but +as if he knew her quite well. Mary knew nothing about boys and she +spoke to him a little stiffly because she felt rather shy. + +“Did you get Martha’s letter?” she asked. + +He nodded his curly, rust-colored head. + +“That’s why I come.” + +He stooped to pick up something which had been lying on the ground +beside him when he piped. + +“I’ve got th’ garden tools. There’s a little spade an’ rake an’ a fork +an’ hoe. Eh! they are good ’uns. There’s a trowel, too. An’ th’ woman +in th’ shop threw in a packet o’ white poppy an’ one o’ blue larkspur +when I bought th’ other seeds.” + +“Will you show the seeds to me?” Mary said. + +She wished she could talk as he did. His speech was so quick and easy. +It sounded as if he liked her and was not the least afraid she would +not like him, though he was only a common moor boy, in patched clothes +and with a funny face and a rough, rusty-red head. As she came closer +to him she noticed that there was a clean fresh scent of heather and +grass and leaves about him, almost as if he were made of them. She +liked it very much and when she looked into his funny face with the red +cheeks and round blue eyes she forgot that she had felt shy. + +“Let us sit down on this log and look at them,” she said. + +They sat down and he took a clumsy little brown paper package out of +his coat pocket. He untied the string and inside there were ever so +many neater and smaller packages with a picture of a flower on each +one. + +“There’s a lot o’ mignonette an’ poppies,” he said. “Mignonette’s th’ +sweetest smellin’ thing as grows, an’ it’ll grow wherever you cast it, +same as poppies will. Them as’ll come up an’ bloom if you just whistle +to ’em, them’s th’ nicest of all.” + +He stopped and turned his head quickly, his poppy-cheeked face lighting +up. + +“Where’s that robin as is callin’ us?” he said. + +The chirp came from a thick holly bush, bright with scarlet berries, +and Mary thought she knew whose it was. + +“Is it really calling us?” she asked. + +“Aye,” said Dickon, as if it was the most natural thing in the world, +“he’s callin’ someone he’s friends with. That’s same as sayin’ ‘Here I +am. Look at me. I wants a bit of a chat.’ There he is in the bush. +Whose is he?” + +“He’s Ben Weatherstaff’s, but I think he knows me a little,” answered +Mary. + +“Aye, he knows thee,” said Dickon in his low voice again. “An’ he likes +thee. He’s took thee on. He’ll tell me all about thee in a minute.” + +He moved quite close to the bush with the slow movement Mary had +noticed before, and then he made a sound almost like the robin’s own +twitter. The robin listened a few seconds, intently, and then answered +quite as if he were replying to a question. + +“Aye, he’s a friend o’ yours,” chuckled Dickon. + +“Do you think he is?” cried Mary eagerly. She did so want to know. “Do +you think he really likes me?” + +“He wouldn’t come near thee if he didn’t,” answered Dickon. “Birds is +rare choosers an’ a robin can flout a body worse than a man. See, he’s +making up to thee now. ‘Cannot tha’ see a chap?’ he’s sayin’.” + +And it really seemed as if it must be true. He so sidled and twittered +and tilted as he hopped on his bush. + +“Do you understand everything birds say?” said Mary. + +Dickon’s grin spread until he seemed all wide, red, curving mouth, and +he rubbed his rough head. + +“I think I do, and they think I do,” he said. “I’ve lived on th’ moor +with ’em so long. I’ve watched ’em break shell an’ come out an’ fledge +an’ learn to fly an’ begin to sing, till I think I’m one of ’em. +Sometimes I think p’raps I’m a bird, or a fox, or a rabbit, or a +squirrel, or even a beetle, an’ I don’t know it.” + +He laughed and came back to the log and began to talk about the flower +seeds again. He told her what they looked like when they were flowers; +he told her how to plant them, and watch them, and feed and water them. + +“See here,” he said suddenly, turning round to look at her. “I’ll plant +them for thee myself. Where is tha’ garden?” + +Mary’s thin hands clutched each other as they lay on her lap. She did +not know what to say, so for a whole minute she said nothing. She had +never thought of this. She felt miserable. And she felt as if she went +red and then pale. + +“Tha’s got a bit o’ garden, hasn’t tha’?” Dickon said. + +It was true that she had turned red and then pale. Dickon saw her do +it, and as she still said nothing, he began to be puzzled. + +“Wouldn’t they give thee a bit?” he asked. “Hasn’t tha’ got any yet?” + +She held her hands tighter and turned her eyes toward him. + +“I don’t know anything about boys,” she said slowly. “Could you keep a +secret, if I told you one? It’s a great secret. I don’t know what I +should do if anyone found it out. I believe I should die!” She said the +last sentence quite fiercely. + +Dickon looked more puzzled than ever and even rubbed his hand over his +rough head again, but he answered quite good-humoredly. + +“I’m keepin’ secrets all th’ time,” he said. “If I couldn’t keep +secrets from th’ other lads, secrets about foxes’ cubs, an’ birds’ +nests, an’ wild things’ holes, there’d be naught safe on th’ moor. Aye, +I can keep secrets.” + +Mistress Mary did not mean to put out her hand and clutch his sleeve +but she did it. + +“I’ve stolen a garden,” she said very fast. “It isn’t mine. It isn’t +anybody’s. Nobody wants it, nobody cares for it, nobody ever goes into +it. Perhaps everything is dead in it already. I don’t know.” + +She began to feel hot and as contrary as she had ever felt in her life. + +“I don’t care, I don’t care! Nobody has any right to take it from me +when I care about it and they don’t. They’re letting it die, all shut +in by itself,” she ended passionately, and she threw her arms over her +face and burst out crying—poor little Mistress Mary. + +Dickon’s curious blue eyes grew rounder and rounder. + +“Eh-h-h!” he said, drawing his exclamation out slowly, and the way he +did it meant both wonder and sympathy. + +“I’ve nothing to do,” said Mary. “Nothing belongs to me. I found it +myself and I got into it myself. I was only just like the robin, and +they wouldn’t take it from the robin.” + +“Where is it?” asked Dickon in a dropped voice. + +Mistress Mary got up from the log at once. She knew she felt contrary +again, and obstinate, and she did not care at all. She was imperious +and Indian, and at the same time hot and sorrowful. + +“Come with me and I’ll show you,” she said. + +She led him round the laurel path and to the walk where the ivy grew so +thickly. Dickon followed her with a queer, almost pitying, look on his +face. He felt as if he were being led to look at some strange bird’s +nest and must move softly. When she stepped to the wall and lifted the +hanging ivy he started. There was a door and Mary pushed it slowly open +and they passed in together, and then Mary stood and waved her hand +round defiantly. + +“It’s this,” she said. “It’s a secret garden, and I’m the only one in +the world who wants it to be alive.” + +Dickon looked round and round about it, and round and round again. + +“Eh!” he almost whispered, “it is a queer, pretty place! It’s like as +if a body was in a dream.” + + + + +CHAPTER XI. +THE NEST OF THE MISSEL THRUSH + + +For two or three minutes he stood looking round him, while Mary watched +him, and then he began to walk about softly, even more lightly than +Mary had walked the first time she had found herself inside the four +walls. His eyes seemed to be taking in everything—the gray trees with +the gray creepers climbing over them and hanging from their branches, +the tangle on the walls and among the grass, the evergreen alcoves with +the stone seats and tall flower urns standing in them. + +“I never thought I’d see this place,” he said at last, in a whisper. + +“Did you know about it?” asked Mary. + +She had spoken aloud and he made a sign to her. + +“We must talk low,” he said, “or someone’ll hear us an’ wonder what’s +to do in here.” + +“Oh! I forgot!” said Mary, feeling frightened and putting her hand +quickly against her mouth. “Did you know about the garden?” she asked +again when she had recovered herself. + +Dickon nodded. + +“Martha told me there was one as no one ever went inside,” he answered. +“Us used to wonder what it was like.” + +He stopped and looked round at the lovely gray tangle about him, and +his round eyes looked queerly happy. + +“Eh! the nests as’ll be here come springtime,” he said. “It’d be th’ +safest nestin’ place in England. No one never comin’ near an’ tangles +o’ trees an’ roses to build in. I wonder all th’ birds on th’ moor +don’t build here.” + +Mistress Mary put her hand on his arm again without knowing it. + +“Will there be roses?” she whispered. “Can you tell? I thought perhaps +they were all dead.” + +“Eh! No! Not them—not all of ’em!” he answered. “Look here!” + +He stepped over to the nearest tree—an old, old one with gray lichen +all over its bark, but upholding a curtain of tangled sprays and +branches. He took a thick knife out of his pocket and opened one of its +blades. + +“There’s lots o’ dead wood as ought to be cut out,” he said. “An’ +there’s a lot o’ old wood, but it made some new last year. This here’s +a new bit,” and he touched a shoot which looked brownish green instead +of hard, dry gray. + +Mary touched it herself in an eager, reverent way. + +“That one?” she said. “Is that one quite alive quite?” + +Dickon curved his wide smiling mouth. + +“It’s as wick as you or me,” he said; and Mary remembered that Martha +had told her that “wick” meant “alive” or “lively.” + +“I’m glad it’s wick!” she cried out in her whisper. “I want them all to +be wick. Let us go round the garden and count how many wick ones there +are.” + +She quite panted with eagerness, and Dickon was as eager as she was. +They went from tree to tree and from bush to bush. Dickon carried his +knife in his hand and showed her things which she thought wonderful. + +“They’ve run wild,” he said, “but th’ strongest ones has fair thrived +on it. The delicatest ones has died out, but th’ others has growed an’ +growed, an’ spread an’ spread, till they’s a wonder. See here!” and he +pulled down a thick gray, dry-looking branch. “A body might think this +was dead wood, but I don’t believe it is—down to th’ root. I’ll cut it +low down an’ see.” + +He knelt and with his knife cut the lifeless-looking branch through, +not far above the earth. + +“There!” he said exultantly. “I told thee so. There’s green in that +wood yet. Look at it.” + +Mary was down on her knees before he spoke, gazing with all her might. + +“When it looks a bit greenish an’ juicy like that, it’s wick,” he +explained. “When th’ inside is dry an’ breaks easy, like this here +piece I’ve cut off, it’s done for. There’s a big root here as all this +live wood sprung out of, an’ if th’ old wood’s cut off an’ it’s dug +round, and took care of there’ll be—” he stopped and lifted his face to +look up at the climbing and hanging sprays above him—“there’ll be a +fountain o’ roses here this summer.” + +They went from bush to bush and from tree to tree. He was very strong +and clever with his knife and knew how to cut the dry and dead wood +away, and could tell when an unpromising bough or twig had still green +life in it. In the course of half an hour Mary thought she could tell +too, and when he cut through a lifeless-looking branch she would cry +out joyfully under her breath when she caught sight of the least shade +of moist green. The spade, and hoe, and fork were very useful. He +showed her how to use the fork while he dug about roots with the spade +and stirred the earth and let the air in. + +They were working industriously round one of the biggest standard roses +when he caught sight of something which made him utter an exclamation +of surprise. + +“Why!” he cried, pointing to the grass a few feet away. “Who did that +there?” + +It was one of Mary’s own little clearings round the pale green points. + +“I did it,” said Mary. + +“Why, I thought tha’ didn’t know nothin’ about gardenin’,” he +exclaimed. + +“I don’t,” she answered, “but they were so little, and the grass was so +thick and strong, and they looked as if they had no room to breathe. So +I made a place for them. I don’t even know what they are.” + +Dickon went and knelt down by them, smiling his wide smile. + +“Tha’ was right,” he said. “A gardener couldn’t have told thee better. +They’ll grow now like Jack’s bean-stalk. They’re crocuses an’ +snowdrops, an’ these here is narcissuses,” turning to another patch, +“an here’s daffydowndillys. Eh! they will be a sight.” + +He ran from one clearing to another. + +“Tha’ has done a lot o’ work for such a little wench,” he said, looking +her over. + +“I’m growing fatter,” said Mary, “and I’m growing stronger. I used +always to be tired. When I dig I’m not tired at all. I like to smell +the earth when it’s turned up.” + +“It’s rare good for thee,” he said, nodding his head wisely. “There’s +naught as nice as th’ smell o’ good clean earth, except th’ smell o’ +fresh growin’ things when th’ rain falls on ’em. I get out on th’ moor +many a day when it’s rainin’ an’ I lie under a bush an’ listen to th’ +soft swish o’ drops on th’ heather an’ I just sniff an’ sniff. My nose +end fair quivers like a rabbit’s, mother says.” + +“Do you never catch cold?” inquired Mary, gazing at him wonderingly. +She had never seen such a funny boy, or such a nice one. + +“Not me,” he said, grinning. “I never ketched cold since I was born. I +wasn’t brought up nesh enough. I’ve chased about th’ moor in all +weathers same as th’ rabbits does. Mother says I’ve sniffed up too much +fresh air for twelve year’ to ever get to sniffin’ with cold. I’m as +tough as a white-thorn knobstick.” + +He was working all the time he was talking and Mary was following him +and helping him with her fork or the trowel. + +“There’s a lot of work to do here!” he said once, looking about quite +exultantly. + +“Will you come again and help me to do it?” Mary begged. “I’m sure I +can help, too. I can dig and pull up weeds, and do whatever you tell +me. Oh! do come, Dickon!” + +“I’ll come every day if tha’ wants me, rain or shine,” he answered +stoutly. “It’s the best fun I ever had in my life—shut in here an’ +wakenin’ up a garden.” + +“If you will come,” said Mary, “if you will help me to make it alive +I’ll—I don’t know what I’ll do,” she ended helplessly. What could you +do for a boy like that? + +“I’ll tell thee what tha’ll do,” said Dickon, with his happy grin. +“Tha’ll get fat an’ tha’ll get as hungry as a young fox an’ tha’ll +learn how to talk to th’ robin same as I do. Eh! we’ll have a lot o’ +fun.” + +He began to walk about, looking up in the trees and at the walls and +bushes with a thoughtful expression. + +“I wouldn’t want to make it look like a gardener’s garden, all clipped +an’ spick an’ span, would you?” he said. “It’s nicer like this with +things runnin’ wild, an’ swingin’ an’ catchin’ hold of each other.” + +“Don’t let us make it tidy,” said Mary anxiously. “It wouldn’t seem +like a secret garden if it was tidy.” + +Dickon stood rubbing his rusty-red head with a rather puzzled look. + +“It’s a secret garden sure enough,” he said, “but seems like someone +besides th’ robin must have been in it since it was shut up ten year’ +ago.” + +“But the door was locked and the key was buried,” said Mary. “No one +could get in.” + +“That’s true,” he answered. “It’s a queer place. Seems to me as if +there’d been a bit o’ prunin’ done here an’ there, later than ten year’ +ago.” + +“But how could it have been done?” said Mary. + +He was examining a branch of a standard rose and he shook his head. + +“Aye! how could it!” he murmured. “With th’ door locked an’ th’ key +buried.” + +Mistress Mary always felt that however many years she lived she should +never forget that first morning when her garden began to grow. Of +course, it did seem to begin to grow for her that morning. When Dickon +began to clear places to plant seeds, she remembered what Basil had +sung at her when he wanted to tease her. + +“Are there any flowers that look like bells?” she inquired. + +“Lilies o’ th’ valley does,” he answered, digging away with the trowel, +“an’ there’s Canterbury bells, an’ campanulas.” + +“Let’s plant some,” said Mary. + +“There’s lilies o’ th, valley here already; I saw ’em. They’ll have +growed too close an’ we’ll have to separate ’em, but there’s plenty. +Th’ other ones takes two years to bloom from seed, but I can bring you +some bits o’ plants from our cottage garden. Why does tha’ want ’em?” + +Then Mary told him about Basil and his brothers and sisters in India +and of how she had hated them and of their calling her “Mistress Mary +Quite Contrary.” + +“They used to dance round and sing at me. They sang— + +‘Mistress Mary, quite contrary, + How does your garden grow? +With silver bells, and cockle shells, + And marigolds all in a row.’ + +I just remembered it and it made me wonder if there were really flowers +like silver bells.” + +She frowned a little and gave her trowel a rather spiteful dig into the +earth. + +“I wasn’t as contrary as they were.” + +But Dickon laughed. + +“Eh!” he said, and as he crumbled the rich black soil she saw he was +sniffing up the scent of it. “There doesn’t seem to be no need for no +one to be contrary when there’s flowers an’ such like, an’ such lots o’ +friendly wild things runnin’ about makin’ homes for themselves, or +buildin’ nests an’ singin’ an’ whistlin’, does there?” + +Mary, kneeling by him holding the seeds, looked at him and stopped +frowning. + +“Dickon,” she said, “you are as nice as Martha said you were. I like +you, and you make the fifth person. I never thought I should like five +people.” + +Dickon sat up on his heels as Martha did when she was polishing the +grate. He did look funny and delightful, Mary thought, with his round +blue eyes and red cheeks and happy looking turned-up nose. + +“Only five folk as tha’ likes?” he said. “Who is th’ other four?” + +“Your mother and Martha,” Mary checked them off on her fingers, “and +the robin and Ben Weatherstaff.” + +Dickon laughed so that he was obliged to stifle the sound by putting +his arm over his mouth. + +“I know tha’ thinks I’m a queer lad,” he said, “but I think tha’ art +th’ queerest little lass I ever saw.” + +Then Mary did a strange thing. She leaned forward and asked him a +question she had never dreamed of asking anyone before. And she tried +to ask it in Yorkshire because that was his language, and in India a +native was always pleased if you knew his speech. + +“Does tha’ like me?” she said. + +“Eh!” he answered heartily, “that I does. I likes thee wonderful, an’ +so does th’ robin, I do believe!” + +“That’s two, then,” said Mary. “That’s two for me.” + +And then they began to work harder than ever and more joyfully. Mary +was startled and sorry when she heard the big clock in the courtyard +strike the hour of her midday dinner. + +“I shall have to go,” she said mournfully. “And you will have to go +too, won’t you?” + +Dickon grinned. + +“My dinner’s easy to carry about with me,” he said. “Mother always lets +me put a bit o’ somethin’ in my pocket.” + +He picked up his coat from the grass and brought out of a pocket a +lumpy little bundle tied up in a quite clean, coarse, blue and white +handkerchief. It held two thick pieces of bread with a slice of +something laid between them. + +“It’s oftenest naught but bread,” he said, “but I’ve got a fine slice +o’ fat bacon with it today.” + +Mary thought it looked a queer dinner, but he seemed ready to enjoy it. + +“Run on an’ get thy victuals,” he said. “I’ll be done with mine first. +I’ll get some more work done before I start back home.” + +He sat down with his back against a tree. + +“I’ll call th’ robin up,” he said, “and give him th’ rind o’ th’ bacon +to peck at. They likes a bit o’ fat wonderful.” + +Mary could scarcely bear to leave him. Suddenly it seemed as if he +might be a sort of wood fairy who might be gone when she came into the +garden again. He seemed too good to be true. She went slowly half-way +to the door in the wall and then she stopped and went back. + +“Whatever happens, you—you never would tell?” she said. + +His poppy-colored cheeks were distended with his first big bite of +bread and bacon, but he managed to smile encouragingly. + +“If tha’ was a missel thrush an’ showed me where thy nest was, does +tha’ think I’d tell anyone? Not me,” he said. “Tha’ art as safe as a +missel thrush.” + +And she was quite sure she was. + + + + +CHAPTER XII. +“MIGHT I HAVE A BIT OF EARTH?” + + +Mary ran so fast that she was rather out of breath when she reached her +room. Her hair was ruffled on her forehead and her cheeks were bright +pink. Her dinner was waiting on the table, and Martha was waiting near +it. + +“Tha’s a bit late,” she said. “Where has tha’ been?” + +“I’ve seen Dickon!” said Mary. “I’ve seen Dickon!” + +“I knew he’d come,” said Martha exultantly. “How does tha’ like him?” + +“I think—I think he’s beautiful!” said Mary in a determined voice. + +Martha looked rather taken aback but she looked pleased, too. + +“Well,” she said, “he’s th’ best lad as ever was born, but us never +thought he was handsome. His nose turns up too much.” + +“I like it to turn up,” said Mary. + +“An’ his eyes is so round,” said Martha, a trifle doubtful. “Though +they’re a nice color.” + +“I like them round,” said Mary. “And they are exactly the color of the +sky over the moor.” + +Martha beamed with satisfaction. + +“Mother says he made ’em that color with always lookin’ up at th’ birds +an’ th’ clouds. But he has got a big mouth, hasn’t he, now?” + +“I love his big mouth,” said Mary obstinately. “I wish mine were just +like it.” + +Martha chuckled delightedly. + +“It’d look rare an’ funny in thy bit of a face,” she said. “But I +knowed it would be that way when tha’ saw him. How did tha’ like th’ +seeds an’ th’ garden tools?” + +“How did you know he brought them?” asked Mary. + +“Eh! I never thought of him not bringin’ ’em. He’d be sure to bring ’em +if they was in Yorkshire. He’s such a trusty lad.” + +Mary was afraid that she might begin to ask difficult questions, but +she did not. She was very much interested in the seeds and gardening +tools, and there was only one moment when Mary was frightened. This was +when she began to ask where the flowers were to be planted. + +“Who did tha’ ask about it?” she inquired. + +“I haven’t asked anybody yet,” said Mary, hesitating. + +“Well, I wouldn’t ask th’ head gardener. He’s too grand, Mr. Roach is.” + +“I’ve never seen him,” said Mary. “I’ve only seen undergardeners and +Ben Weatherstaff.” + +“If I was you, I’d ask Ben Weatherstaff,” advised Martha. “He’s not +half as bad as he looks, for all he’s so crabbed. Mr. Craven lets him +do what he likes because he was here when Mrs. Craven was alive, an’ he +used to make her laugh. She liked him. Perhaps he’d find you a corner +somewhere out o’ the way.” + +“If it was out of the way and no one wanted it, no one _could_ mind my +having it, could they?” Mary said anxiously. + +“There wouldn’t be no reason,” answered Martha. “You wouldn’t do no +harm.” + +Mary ate her dinner as quickly as she could and when she rose from the +table she was going to run to her room to put on her hat again, but +Martha stopped her. + +“I’ve got somethin’ to tell you,” she said. “I thought I’d let you eat +your dinner first. Mr. Craven came back this mornin’ and I think he +wants to see you.” + +Mary turned quite pale. + +“Oh!” she said. “Why! Why! He didn’t want to see me when I came. I +heard Pitcher say he didn’t.” + +“Well,” explained Martha, “Mrs. Medlock says it’s because o’ mother. +She was walkin’ to Thwaite village an’ she met him. She’d never spoke +to him before, but Mrs. Craven had been to our cottage two or three +times. He’d forgot, but mother hadn’t an’ she made bold to stop him. I +don’t know what she said to him about you but she said somethin’ as put +him in th’ mind to see you before he goes away again, tomorrow.” + +“Oh!” cried Mary, “is he going away tomorrow? I am so glad!” + +“He’s goin’ for a long time. He mayn’t come back till autumn or winter. +He’s goin’ to travel in foreign places. He’s always doin’ it.” + +“Oh! I’m so glad—so glad!” said Mary thankfully. + +If he did not come back until winter, or even autumn, there would be +time to watch the secret garden come alive. Even if he found out then +and took it away from her she would have had that much at least. + +“When do you think he will want to see—” + +She did not finish the sentence, because the door opened, and Mrs. +Medlock walked in. She had on her best black dress and cap, and her +collar was fastened with a large brooch with a picture of a man’s face +on it. It was a colored photograph of Mr. Medlock who had died years +ago, and she always wore it when she was dressed up. She looked nervous +and excited. + +“Your hair’s rough,” she said quickly. “Go and brush it. Martha, help +her to slip on her best dress. Mr. Craven sent me to bring her to him +in his study.” + +All the pink left Mary’s cheeks. Her heart began to thump and she felt +herself changing into a stiff, plain, silent child again. She did not +even answer Mrs. Medlock, but turned and walked into her bedroom, +followed by Martha. She said nothing while her dress was changed, and +her hair brushed, and after she was quite tidy she followed Mrs. +Medlock down the corridors, in silence. What was there for her to say? +She was obliged to go and see Mr. Craven and he would not like her, and +she would not like him. She knew what he would think of her. + +She was taken to a part of the house she had not been into before. At +last Mrs. Medlock knocked at a door, and when someone said, “Come in,” +they entered the room together. A man was sitting in an armchair before +the fire, and Mrs. Medlock spoke to him. + +“This is Miss Mary, sir,” she said. + +“You can go and leave her here. I will ring for you when I want you to +take her away,” said Mr. Craven. + +When she went out and closed the door, Mary could only stand waiting, a +plain little thing, twisting her thin hands together. She could see +that the man in the chair was not so much a hunchback as a man with +high, rather crooked shoulders, and he had black hair streaked with +white. He turned his head over his high shoulders and spoke to her. + +“Come here!” he said. + +Mary went to him. + +He was not ugly. His face would have been handsome if it had not been +so miserable. He looked as if the sight of her worried and fretted him +and as if he did not know what in the world to do with her. + +“Are you well?” he asked. + +“Yes,” answered Mary. + +“Do they take good care of you?” + +“Yes.” + +He rubbed his forehead fretfully as he looked her over. + +“You are very thin,” he said. + +“I am getting fatter,” Mary answered in what she knew was her stiffest +way. + +What an unhappy face he had! His black eyes seemed as if they scarcely +saw her, as if they were seeing something else, and he could hardly +keep his thoughts upon her. + +“I forgot you,” he said. “How could I remember you? I intended to send +you a governess or a nurse, or someone of that sort, but I forgot.” + +“Please,” began Mary. “Please—” and then the lump in her throat choked +her. + +“What do you want to say?” he inquired. + +“I am—I am too big for a nurse,” said Mary. “And please—please don’t +make me have a governess yet.” + +He rubbed his forehead again and stared at her. + +“That was what the Sowerby woman said,” he muttered absent-mindedly. + +Then Mary gathered a scrap of courage. + +“Is she—is she Martha’s mother?” she stammered. + +“Yes, I think so,” he replied. + +“She knows about children,” said Mary. “She has twelve. She knows.” + +He seemed to rouse himself. + +“What do you want to do?” + +“I want to play out of doors,” Mary answered, hoping that her voice did +not tremble. “I never liked it in India. It makes me hungry here, and I +am getting fatter.” + +He was watching her. + +“Mrs. Sowerby said it would do you good. Perhaps it will,” he said. +“She thought you had better get stronger before you had a governess.” + +“It makes me feel strong when I play and the wind comes over the moor,” +argued Mary. + +“Where do you play?” he asked next. + +“Everywhere,” gasped Mary. “Martha’s mother sent me a skipping-rope. I +skip and run—and I look about to see if things are beginning to stick +up out of the earth. I don’t do any harm.” + +“Don’t look so frightened,” he said in a worried voice. “You could not +do any harm, a child like you! You may do what you like.” + +Mary put her hand up to her throat because she was afraid he might see +the excited lump which she felt jump into it. She came a step nearer to +him. + +“May I?” she said tremulously. + +Her anxious little face seemed to worry him more than ever. + +“Don’t look so frightened,” he exclaimed. “Of course you may. I am your +guardian, though I am a poor one for any child. I cannot give you time +or attention. I am too ill, and wretched and distracted; but I wish you +to be happy and comfortable. I don’t know anything about children, but +Mrs. Medlock is to see that you have all you need. I sent for you today +because Mrs. Sowerby said I ought to see you. Her daughter had talked +about you. She thought you needed fresh air and freedom and running +about.” + +“She knows all about children,” Mary said again in spite of herself. + +“She ought to,” said Mr. Craven. “I thought her rather bold to stop me +on the moor, but she said—Mrs. Craven had been kind to her.” It seemed +hard for him to speak his dead wife’s name. “She is a respectable +woman. Now I have seen you I think she said sensible things. Play out +of doors as much as you like. It’s a big place and you may go where you +like and amuse yourself as you like. Is there anything you want?” as if +a sudden thought had struck him. “Do you want toys, books, dolls?” + +“Might I,” quavered Mary, “might I have a bit of earth?” + +In her eagerness she did not realize how queer the words would sound +and that they were not the ones she had meant to say. Mr. Craven looked +quite startled. + +“Earth!” he repeated. “What do you mean?” + +“To plant seeds in—to make things grow—to see them come alive,” Mary +faltered. + +He gazed at her a moment and then passed his hand quickly over his +eyes. + +“Do you—care about gardens so much,” he said slowly. + +“I didn’t know about them in India,” said Mary. “I was always ill and +tired and it was too hot. I sometimes made little beds in the sand and +stuck flowers in them. But here it is different.” + +Mr. Craven got up and began to walk slowly across the room. + +“A bit of earth,” he said to himself, and Mary thought that somehow she +must have reminded him of something. When he stopped and spoke to her +his dark eyes looked almost soft and kind. + +“You can have as much earth as you want,” he said. “You remind me of +someone else who loved the earth and things that grow. When you see a +bit of earth you want,” with something like a smile, “take it, child, +and make it come alive.” + +“May I take it from anywhere—if it’s not wanted?” + +“Anywhere,” he answered. “There! You must go now, I am tired.” He +touched the bell to call Mrs. Medlock. “Good-by. I shall be away all +summer.” + +Mrs. Medlock came so quickly that Mary thought she must have been +waiting in the corridor. + +“Mrs. Medlock,” Mr. Craven said to her, “now I have seen the child I +understand what Mrs. Sowerby meant. She must be less delicate before +she begins lessons. Give her simple, healthy food. Let her run wild in +the garden. Don’t look after her too much. She needs liberty and fresh +air and romping about. Mrs. Sowerby is to come and see her now and then +and she may sometimes go to the cottage.” + +Mrs. Medlock looked pleased. She was relieved to hear that she need not +“look after” Mary too much. She had felt her a tiresome charge and had +indeed seen as little of her as she dared. In addition to this she was +fond of Martha’s mother. + +“Thank you, sir,” she said. “Susan Sowerby and me went to school +together and she’s as sensible and good-hearted a woman as you’d find +in a day’s walk. I never had any children myself and she’s had twelve, +and there never was healthier or better ones. Miss Mary can get no harm +from them. I’d always take Susan Sowerby’s advice about children +myself. She’s what you might call healthy-minded—if you understand me.” + +“I understand,” Mr. Craven answered. “Take Miss Mary away now and send +Pitcher to me.” + +When Mrs. Medlock left her at the end of her own corridor Mary flew +back to her room. She found Martha waiting there. Martha had, in fact, +hurried back after she had removed the dinner service. + +“I can have my garden!” cried Mary. “I may have it where I like! I am +not going to have a governess for a long time! Your mother is coming to +see me and I may go to your cottage! He says a little girl like me +could not do any harm and I may do what I like—anywhere!” + +“Eh!” said Martha delightedly, “that was nice of him wasn’t it?” + +“Martha,” said Mary solemnly, “he is really a nice man, only his face +is so miserable and his forehead is all drawn together.” + +She ran as quickly as she could to the garden. She had been away so +much longer than she had thought she should and she knew Dickon would +have to set out early on his five-mile walk. When she slipped through +the door under the ivy, she saw he was not working where she had left +him. The gardening tools were laid together under a tree. She ran to +them, looking all round the place, but there was no Dickon to be seen. +He had gone away and the secret garden was empty—except for the robin +who had just flown across the wall and sat on a standard rose-bush +watching her. + +“He’s gone,” she said woefully. “Oh! was he—was he—was he only a wood +fairy?” + +Something white fastened to the standard rose-bush caught her eye. It +was a piece of paper, in fact, it was a piece of the letter she had +printed for Martha to send to Dickon. It was fastened on the bush with +a long thorn, and in a minute she knew Dickon had left it there. There +were some roughly printed letters on it and a sort of picture. At first +she could not tell what it was. Then she saw it was meant for a nest +with a bird sitting on it. Underneath were the printed letters and they +said: + +“I will cum bak.” + + + + +CHAPTER XIII. +“I AM COLIN” + + +Mary took the picture back to the house when she went to her supper and +she showed it to Martha. + +“Eh!” said Martha with great pride. “I never knew our Dickon was as +clever as that. That there’s a picture of a missel thrush on her nest, +as large as life an’ twice as natural.” + +Then Mary knew Dickon had meant the picture to be a message. He had +meant that she might be sure he would keep her secret. Her garden was +her nest and she was like a missel thrush. Oh, how she did like that +queer, common boy! + +She hoped he would come back the very next day and she fell asleep +looking forward to the morning. + +But you never know what the weather will do in Yorkshire, particularly +in the springtime. She was awakened in the night by the sound of rain +beating with heavy drops against her window. It was pouring down in +torrents and the wind was “wuthering” round the corners and in the +chimneys of the huge old house. Mary sat up in bed and felt miserable +and angry. + +“The rain is as contrary as I ever was,” she said. “It came because it +knew I did not want it.” + +She threw herself back on her pillow and buried her face. She did not +cry, but she lay and hated the sound of the heavily beating rain, she +hated the wind and its “wuthering.” She could not go to sleep again. +The mournful sound kept her awake because she felt mournful herself. If +she had felt happy it would probably have lulled her to sleep. How it +“wuthered” and how the big raindrops poured down and beat against the +pane! + +“It sounds just like a person lost on the moor and wandering on and on +crying,” she said. + +She had been lying awake turning from side to side for about an hour, +when suddenly something made her sit up in bed and turn her head toward +the door listening. She listened and she listened. + +“It isn’t the wind now,” she said in a loud whisper. “That isn’t the +wind. It is different. It is that crying I heard before.” + +The door of her room was ajar and the sound came down the corridor, a +far-off faint sound of fretful crying. She listened for a few minutes +and each minute she became more and more sure. She felt as if she must +find out what it was. It seemed even stranger than the secret garden +and the buried key. Perhaps the fact that she was in a rebellious mood +made her bold. She put her foot out of bed and stood on the floor. + +“I am going to find out what it is,” she said. “Everybody is in bed and +I don’t care about Mrs. Medlock—I don’t care!” + +There was a candle by her bedside and she took it up and went softly +out of the room. The corridor looked very long and dark, but she was +too excited to mind that. She thought she remembered the corners she +must turn to find the short corridor with the door covered with +tapestry—the one Mrs. Medlock had come through the day she lost +herself. The sound had come up that passage. So she went on with her +dim light, almost feeling her way, her heart beating so loud that she +fancied she could hear it. The far-off faint crying went on and led +her. Sometimes it stopped for a moment or so and then began again. Was +this the right corner to turn? She stopped and thought. Yes it was. +Down this passage and then to the left, and then up two broad steps, +and then to the right again. Yes, there was the tapestry door. + +She pushed it open very gently and closed it behind her, and she stood +in the corridor and could hear the crying quite plainly, though it was +not loud. It was on the other side of the wall at her left and a few +yards farther on there was a door. She could see a glimmer of light +coming from beneath it. The Someone was crying in that room, and it was +quite a young Someone. + +So she walked to the door and pushed it open, and there she was +standing in the room! + +It was a big room with ancient, handsome furniture in it. There was a +low fire glowing faintly on the hearth and a night light burning by the +side of a carved four-posted bed hung with brocade, and on the bed was +lying a boy, crying fretfully. + +Mary wondered if she was in a real place or if she had fallen asleep +again and was dreaming without knowing it. + +The boy had a sharp, delicate face the color of ivory and he seemed to +have eyes too big for it. He had also a lot of hair which tumbled over +his forehead in heavy locks and made his thin face seem smaller. He +looked like a boy who had been ill, but he was crying more as if he +were tired and cross than as if he were in pain. + +Mary stood near the door with her candle in her hand, holding her +breath. Then she crept across the room, and, as she drew nearer, the +light attracted the boy’s attention and he turned his head on his +pillow and stared at her, his gray eyes opening so wide that they +seemed immense. + +“Who are you?” he said at last in a half-frightened whisper. “Are you a +ghost?” + +“No, I am not,” Mary answered, her own whisper sounding half +frightened. “Are you one?” + +He stared and stared and stared. Mary could not help noticing what +strange eyes he had. They were agate gray and they looked too big for +his face because they had black lashes all round them. + +“No,” he replied after waiting a moment or so. “I am Colin.” + +“Who is Colin?” she faltered. + +“I am Colin Craven. Who are you?” + +“I am Mary Lennox. Mr. Craven is my uncle.” + +“He is my father,” said the boy. + +“Your father!” gasped Mary. “No one ever told me he had a boy! Why +didn’t they?” + +“Come here,” he said, still keeping his strange eyes fixed on her with +an anxious expression. + +She came close to the bed and he put out his hand and touched her. + +“You are real, aren’t you?” he said. “I have such real dreams very +often. You might be one of them.” + +Mary had slipped on a woolen wrapper before she left her room and she +put a piece of it between his fingers. + +“Rub that and see how thick and warm it is,” she said. “I will pinch +you a little if you like, to show you how real I am. For a minute I +thought you might be a dream too.” + +“Where did you come from?” he asked. + +“From my own room. The wind wuthered so I couldn’t go to sleep and I +heard someone crying and wanted to find out who it was. What were you +crying for?” + +“Because I couldn’t go to sleep either and my head ached. Tell me your +name again.” + +“Mary Lennox. Did no one ever tell you I had come to live here?” + +He was still fingering the fold of her wrapper, but he began to look a +little more as if he believed in her reality. + +“No,” he answered. “They daren’t.” + +“Why?” asked Mary. + +“Because I should have been afraid you would see me. I won’t let people +see me and talk me over.” + +“Why?” Mary asked again, feeling more mystified every moment. + +“Because I am like this always, ill and having to lie down. My father +won’t let people talk me over either. The servants are not allowed to +speak about me. If I live I may be a hunchback, but I shan’t live. My +father hates to think I may be like him.” + +“Oh, what a queer house this is!” Mary said. “What a queer house! +Everything is a kind of secret. Rooms are locked up and gardens are +locked up—and you! Have you been locked up?” + +“No. I stay in this room because I don’t want to be moved out of it. It +tires me too much.” + +“Does your father come and see you?” Mary ventured. + +“Sometimes. Generally when I am asleep. He doesn’t want to see me.” + +“Why?” Mary could not help asking again. + +A sort of angry shadow passed over the boy’s face. + +“My mother died when I was born and it makes him wretched to look at +me. He thinks I don’t know, but I’ve heard people talking. He almost +hates me.” + +“He hates the garden, because she died,” said Mary half speaking to +herself. + +“What garden?” the boy asked. + +“Oh! just—just a garden she used to like,” Mary stammered. “Have you +been here always?” + +“Nearly always. Sometimes I have been taken to places at the seaside, +but I won’t stay because people stare at me. I used to wear an iron +thing to keep my back straight, but a grand doctor came from London to +see me and said it was stupid. He told them to take it off and keep me +out in the fresh air. I hate fresh air and I don’t want to go out.” + +“I didn’t when first I came here,” said Mary. “Why do you keep looking +at me like that?” + +“Because of the dreams that are so real,” he answered rather fretfully. +“Sometimes when I open my eyes I don’t believe I’m awake.” + +“We’re both awake,” said Mary. She glanced round the room with its high +ceiling and shadowy corners and dim fire-light. “It looks quite like a +dream, and it’s the middle of the night, and everybody in the house is +asleep—everybody but us. We are wide awake.” + +“I don’t want it to be a dream,” the boy said restlessly. + +Mary thought of something all at once. + +“If you don’t like people to see you,” she began, “do you want me to go +away?” + +He still held the fold of her wrapper and he gave it a little pull. + +“No,” he said. “I should be sure you were a dream if you went. If you +are real, sit down on that big footstool and talk. I want to hear about +you.” + +Mary put down her candle on the table near the bed and sat down on the +cushioned stool. She did not want to go away at all. She wanted to stay +in the mysterious hidden-away room and talk to the mysterious boy. + +“What do you want me to tell you?” she said. + +He wanted to know how long she had been at Misselthwaite; he wanted to +know which corridor her room was on; he wanted to know what she had +been doing; if she disliked the moor as he disliked it; where she had +lived before she came to Yorkshire. She answered all these questions +and many more and he lay back on his pillow and listened. He made her +tell him a great deal about India and about her voyage across the +ocean. She found out that because he had been an invalid he had not +learned things as other children had. One of his nurses had taught him +to read when he was quite little and he was always reading and looking +at pictures in splendid books. + +Though his father rarely saw him when he was awake, he was given all +sorts of wonderful things to amuse himself with. He never seemed to +have been amused, however. He could have anything he asked for and was +never made to do anything he did not like to do. + +“Everyone is obliged to do what pleases me,” he said indifferently. “It +makes me ill to be angry. No one believes I shall live to grow up.” + +He said it as if he was so accustomed to the idea that it had ceased to +matter to him at all. He seemed to like the sound of Mary’s voice. As +she went on talking he listened in a drowsy, interested way. Once or +twice she wondered if he were not gradually falling into a doze. But at +last he asked a question which opened up a new subject. + +“How old are you?” he asked. + +“I am ten,” answered Mary, forgetting herself for the moment, “and so +are you.” + +“How do you know that?” he demanded in a surprised voice. + +“Because when you were born the garden door was locked and the key was +buried. And it has been locked for ten years.” + +Colin half sat up, turning toward her, leaning on his elbows. + +“What garden door was locked? Who did it? Where was the key buried?” he +exclaimed as if he were suddenly very much interested. + +“It—it was the garden Mr. Craven hates,” said Mary nervously. “He +locked the door. No one—no one knew where he buried the key.” + +“What sort of a garden is it?” Colin persisted eagerly. + +“No one has been allowed to go into it for ten years,” was Mary’s +careful answer. + +But it was too late to be careful. He was too much like herself. He too +had had nothing to think about and the idea of a hidden garden +attracted him as it had attracted her. He asked question after +question. Where was it? Had she never looked for the door? Had she +never asked the gardeners? + +“They won’t talk about it,” said Mary. “I think they have been told not +to answer questions.” + +“I would make them,” said Colin. + +“Could you?” Mary faltered, beginning to feel frightened. If he could +make people answer questions, who knew what might happen! + +“Everyone is obliged to please me. I told you that,” he said. “If I +were to live, this place would sometime belong to me. They all know +that. I would make them tell me.” + +Mary had not known that she herself had been spoiled, but she could see +quite plainly that this mysterious boy had been. He thought that the +whole world belonged to him. How peculiar he was and how coolly he +spoke of not living. + +“Do you think you won’t live?” she asked, partly because she was +curious and partly in hope of making him forget the garden. + +“I don’t suppose I shall,” he answered as indifferently as he had +spoken before. “Ever since I remember anything I have heard people say +I shan’t. At first they thought I was too little to understand and now +they think I don’t hear. But I do. My doctor is my father’s cousin. He +is quite poor and if I die he will have all Misselthwaite when my +father is dead. I should think he wouldn’t want me to live.” + +“Do you want to live?” inquired Mary. + +“No,” he answered, in a cross, tired fashion. “But I don’t want to die. +When I feel ill I lie here and think about it until I cry and cry.” + +“I have heard you crying three times,” Mary said, “but I did not know +who it was. Were you crying about that?” She did so want him to forget +the garden. + +“I dare say,” he answered. “Let us talk about something else. Talk +about that garden. Don’t you want to see it?” + +“Yes,” answered Mary, in quite a low voice. + +“I do,” he went on persistently. “I don’t think I ever really wanted to +see anything before, but I want to see that garden. I want the key dug +up. I want the door unlocked. I would let them take me there in my +chair. That would be getting fresh air. I am going to make them open +the door.” + +He had become quite excited and his strange eyes began to shine like +stars and looked more immense than ever. + +“They have to please me,” he said. “I will make them take me there and +I will let you go, too.” + +Mary’s hands clutched each other. Everything would be +spoiled—everything! Dickon would never come back. She would never again +feel like a missel thrush with a safe-hidden nest. + +“Oh, don’t—don’t—don’t—don’t do that!” she cried out. + +He stared as if he thought she had gone crazy! + +“Why?” he exclaimed. “You said you wanted to see it.” + +“I do,” she answered almost with a sob in her throat, “but if you make +them open the door and take you in like that it will never be a secret +again.” + +He leaned still farther forward. + +“A secret,” he said. “What do you mean? Tell me.” + +Mary’s words almost tumbled over one another. + +“You see—you see,” she panted, “if no one knows but ourselves—if there +was a door, hidden somewhere under the ivy—if there was—and we could +find it; and if we could slip through it together and shut it behind +us, and no one knew anyone was inside and we called it our garden and +pretended that—that we were missel thrushes and it was our nest, and if +we played there almost every day and dug and planted seeds and made it +all come alive—” + +“Is it dead?” he interrupted her. + +“It soon will be if no one cares for it,” she went on. “The bulbs will +live but the roses—” + +He stopped her again as excited as she was herself. + +“What are bulbs?” he put in quickly. + +“They are daffodils and lilies and snowdrops. They are working in the +earth now—pushing up pale green points because the spring is coming.” + +“Is the spring coming?” he said. “What is it like? You don’t see it in +rooms if you are ill.” + +“It is the sun shining on the rain and the rain falling on the +sunshine, and things pushing up and working under the earth,” said +Mary. “If the garden was a secret and we could get into it we could +watch the things grow bigger every day, and see how many roses are +alive. Don’t you see? Oh, don’t you see how much nicer it would be if +it was a secret?” + +He dropped back on his pillow and lay there with an odd expression on +his face. + +“I never had a secret,” he said, “except that one about not living to +grow up. They don’t know I know that, so it is a sort of secret. But I +like this kind better.” + +“If you won’t make them take you to the garden,” pleaded Mary, +“perhaps—I feel almost sure I can find out how to get in sometime. And +then—if the doctor wants you to go out in your chair, and if you can +always do what you want to do, perhaps—perhaps we might find some boy +who would push you, and we could go alone and it would always be a +secret garden.” + +“I should—like—that,” he said very slowly, his eyes looking dreamy. “I +should like that. I should not mind fresh air in a secret garden.” + +Mary began to recover her breath and feel safer because the idea of +keeping the secret seemed to please him. She felt almost sure that if +she kept on talking and could make him see the garden in his mind as +she had seen it he would like it so much that he could not bear to +think that everybody might tramp in to it when they chose. + +“I’ll tell you what I _think_ it would be like, if we could go into +it,” she said. “It has been shut up so long things have grown into a +tangle perhaps.” + +He lay quite still and listened while she went on talking about the +roses which _might_ have clambered from tree to tree and hung +down—about the many birds which _might_ have built their nests there +because it was so safe. And then she told him about the robin and Ben +Weatherstaff, and there was so much to tell about the robin and it was +so easy and safe to talk about it that she ceased to be afraid. The +robin pleased him so much that he smiled until he looked almost +beautiful, and at first Mary had thought that he was even plainer than +herself, with his big eyes and heavy locks of hair. + +“I did not know birds could be like that,” he said. “But if you stay in +a room you never see things. What a lot of things you know. I feel as +if you had been inside that garden.” + +She did not know what to say, so she did not say anything. He evidently +did not expect an answer and the next moment he gave her a surprise. + +“I am going to let you look at something,” he said. “Do you see that +rose-colored silk curtain hanging on the wall over the mantel-piece?” + +Mary had not noticed it before, but she looked up and saw it. It was a +curtain of soft silk hanging over what seemed to be some picture. + +“Yes,” she answered. + +“There is a cord hanging from it,” said Colin. “Go and pull it.” + +Mary got up, much mystified, and found the cord. When she pulled it the +silk curtain ran back on rings and when it ran back it uncovered a +picture. It was the picture of a girl with a laughing face. She had +bright hair tied up with a blue ribbon and her gay, lovely eyes were +exactly like Colin’s unhappy ones, agate gray and looking twice as big +as they really were because of the black lashes all round them. + +“She is my mother,” said Colin complainingly. “I don’t see why she +died. Sometimes I hate her for doing it.” + +“How queer!” said Mary. + +“If she had lived I believe I should not have been ill always,” he +grumbled. “I dare say I should have lived, too. And my father would not +have hated to look at me. I dare say I should have had a strong back. +Draw the curtain again.” + +Mary did as she was told and returned to her footstool. + +“She is much prettier than you,” she said, “but her eyes are just like +yours—at least they are the same shape and color. Why is the curtain +drawn over her?” + +He moved uncomfortably. + +“I made them do it,” he said. “Sometimes I don’t like to see her +looking at me. She smiles too much when I am ill and miserable. +Besides, she is mine and I don’t want everyone to see her.” + +There were a few moments of silence and then Mary spoke. + +“What would Mrs. Medlock do if she found out that I had been here?” she +inquired. + +“She would do as I told her to do,” he answered. “And I should tell her +that I wanted you to come here and talk to me every day. I am glad you +came.” + +“So am I,” said Mary. “I will come as often as I can, but”—she +hesitated—“I shall have to look every day for the garden door.” + +“Yes, you must,” said Colin, “and you can tell me about it afterward.” + +He lay thinking a few minutes, as he had done before, and then he spoke +again. + +“I think you shall be a secret, too,” he said. “I will not tell them +until they find out. I can always send the nurse out of the room and +say that I want to be by myself. Do you know Martha?” + +“Yes, I know her very well,” said Mary. “She waits on me.” + +He nodded his head toward the outer corridor. + +“She is the one who is asleep in the other room. The nurse went away +yesterday to stay all night with her sister and she always makes Martha +attend to me when she wants to go out. Martha shall tell you when to +come here.” + +Then Mary understood Martha’s troubled look when she had asked +questions about the crying. + +“Martha knew about you all the time?” she said. + +“Yes; she often attends to me. The nurse likes to get away from me and +then Martha comes.” + +“I have been here a long time,” said Mary. “Shall I go away now? Your +eyes look sleepy.” + +“I wish I could go to sleep before you leave me,” he said rather shyly. + +“Shut your eyes,” said Mary, drawing her footstool closer, “and I will +do what my Ayah used to do in India. I will pat your hand and stroke it +and sing something quite low.” + +“I should like that perhaps,” he said drowsily. + +Somehow she was sorry for him and did not want him to lie awake, so she +leaned against the bed and began to stroke and pat his hand and sing a +very low little chanting song in Hindustani. + +“That is nice,” he said more drowsily still, and she went on chanting +and stroking, but when she looked at him again his black lashes were +lying close against his cheeks, for his eyes were shut and he was fast +asleep. So she got up softly, took her candle and crept away without +making a sound. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV. +A YOUNG RAJAH + + +The moor was hidden in mist when the morning came, and the rain had not +stopped pouring down. There could be no going out of doors. Martha was +so busy that Mary had no opportunity of talking to her, but in the +afternoon she asked her to come and sit with her in the nursery. She +came bringing the stocking she was always knitting when she was doing +nothing else. + +“What’s the matter with thee?” she asked as soon as they sat down. +“Tha’ looks as if tha’d somethin’ to say.” + +“I have. I have found out what the crying was,” said Mary. + +Martha let her knitting drop on her knee and gazed at her with startled +eyes. + +“Tha’ hasn’t!” she exclaimed. “Never!” + +“I heard it in the night,” Mary went on. “And I got up and went to see +where it came from. It was Colin. I found him.” + +Martha’s face became red with fright. + +“Eh! Miss Mary!” she said half crying. “Tha’ shouldn’t have done +it—tha’ shouldn’t! Tha’ll get me in trouble. I never told thee nothin’ +about him—but tha’ll get me in trouble. I shall lose my place and +what’ll mother do!” + +“You won’t lose your place,” said Mary. “He was glad I came. We talked +and talked and he said he was glad I came.” + +“Was he?” cried Martha. “Art tha’ sure? Tha’ doesn’t know what he’s +like when anything vexes him. He’s a big lad to cry like a baby, but +when he’s in a passion he’ll fair scream just to frighten us. He knows +us daren’t call our souls our own.” + +“He wasn’t vexed,” said Mary. “I asked him if I should go away and he +made me stay. He asked me questions and I sat on a big footstool and +talked to him about India and about the robin and gardens. He wouldn’t +let me go. He let me see his mother’s picture. Before I left him I sang +him to sleep.” + +Martha fairly gasped with amazement. + +“I can scarcely believe thee!” she protested. “It’s as if tha’d walked +straight into a lion’s den. If he’d been like he is most times he’d +have throwed himself into one of his tantrums and roused th’ house. He +won’t let strangers look at him.” + +“He let me look at him. I looked at him all the time and he looked at +me. We stared!” said Mary. + +“I don’t know what to do!” cried agitated Martha. “If Mrs. Medlock +finds out, she’ll think I broke orders and told thee and I shall be +packed back to mother.” + +“He is not going to tell Mrs. Medlock anything about it yet. It’s to be +a sort of secret just at first,” said Mary firmly. “And he says +everybody is obliged to do as he pleases.” + +“Aye, that’s true enough—th’ bad lad!” sighed Martha, wiping her +forehead with her apron. + +“He says Mrs. Medlock must. And he wants me to come and talk to him +every day. And you are to tell me when he wants me.” + +“Me!” said Martha; “I shall lose my place—I shall for sure!” + +“You can’t if you are doing what he wants you to do and everybody is +ordered to obey him,” Mary argued. + +“Does tha’ mean to say,” cried Martha with wide open eyes, “that he was +nice to thee!” + +“I think he almost liked me,” Mary answered. + +“Then tha’ must have bewitched him!” decided Martha, drawing a long +breath. + +“Do you mean Magic?” inquired Mary. “I’ve heard about Magic in India, +but I can’t make it. I just went into his room and I was so surprised +to see him I stood and stared. And then he turned round and stared at +me. And he thought I was a ghost or a dream and I thought perhaps he +was. And it was so queer being there alone together in the middle of +the night and not knowing about each other. And we began to ask each +other questions. And when I asked him if I must go away he said I must +not.” + +“Th’ world’s comin’ to a end!” gasped Martha. + +“What is the matter with him?” asked Mary. + +“Nobody knows for sure and certain,” said Martha. “Mr. Craven went off +his head like when he was born. Th’ doctors thought he’d have to be put +in a ’sylum. It was because Mrs. Craven died like I told you. He +wouldn’t set eyes on th’ baby. He just raved and said it’d be another +hunchback like him and it’d better die.” + +“Is Colin a hunchback?” Mary asked. “He didn’t look like one.” + +“He isn’t yet,” said Martha. “But he began all wrong. Mother said that +there was enough trouble and raging in th’ house to set any child +wrong. They was afraid his back was weak an’ they’ve always been takin’ +care of it—keepin’ him lyin’ down and not lettin’ him walk. Once they +made him wear a brace but he fretted so he was downright ill. Then a +big doctor came to see him an’ made them take it off. He talked to th’ +other doctor quite rough—in a polite way. He said there’d been too much +medicine and too much lettin’ him have his own way.” + +“I think he’s a very spoiled boy,” said Mary. + +“He’s th’ worst young nowt as ever was!” said Martha. “I won’t say as +he hasn’t been ill a good bit. He’s had coughs an’ colds that’s nearly +killed him two or three times. Once he had rheumatic fever an’ once he +had typhoid. Eh! Mrs. Medlock did get a fright then. He’d been out of +his head an’ she was talkin’ to th’ nurse, thinkin’ he didn’t know +nothin’, an’ she said, ‘He’ll die this time sure enough, an’ best thing +for him an’ for everybody.’ An’ she looked at him an’ there he was with +his big eyes open, starin’ at her as sensible as she was herself. She +didn’t know wha’d happen but he just stared at her an’ says, ‘You give +me some water an’ stop talkin’.’” + +“Do you think he will die?” asked Mary. + +“Mother says there’s no reason why any child should live that gets no +fresh air an’ doesn’t do nothin’ but lie on his back an’ read +picture-books an’ take medicine. He’s weak and hates th’ trouble o’ +bein’ taken out o’ doors, an’ he gets cold so easy he says it makes him +ill.” + +Mary sat and looked at the fire. + +“I wonder,” she said slowly, “if it would not do him good to go out +into a garden and watch things growing. It did me good.” + +“One of th’ worst fits he ever had,” said Martha, “was one time they +took him out where the roses is by the fountain. He’d been readin’ in a +paper about people gettin’ somethin’ he called ‘rose cold’ an’ he began +to sneeze an’ said he’d got it an’ then a new gardener as didn’t know +th’ rules passed by an’ looked at him curious. He threw himself into a +passion an’ he said he’d looked at him because he was going to be a +hunchback. He cried himself into a fever an’ was ill all night.” + +“If he ever gets angry at me, I’ll never go and see him again,” said +Mary. + +“He’ll have thee if he wants thee,” said Martha. “Tha’ may as well know +that at th’ start.” + +Very soon afterward a bell rang and she rolled up her knitting. + +“I dare say th’ nurse wants me to stay with him a bit,” she said. “I +hope he’s in a good temper.” + +She was out of the room about ten minutes and then she came back with a +puzzled expression. + +“Well, tha’ has bewitched him,” she said. “He’s up on his sofa with his +picture-books. He’s told the nurse to stay away until six o’clock. I’m +to wait in the next room. Th’ minute she was gone he called me to him +an’ says, ‘I want Mary Lennox to come and talk to me, and remember +you’re not to tell anyone.’ You’d better go as quick as you can.” + +Mary was quite willing to go quickly. She did not want to see Colin as +much as she wanted to see Dickon; but she wanted to see him very much. + +There was a bright fire on the hearth when she entered his room, and in +the daylight she saw it was a very beautiful room indeed. There were +rich colors in the rugs and hangings and pictures and books on the +walls which made it look glowing and comfortable even in spite of the +gray sky and falling rain. Colin looked rather like a picture himself. +He was wrapped in a velvet dressing-gown and sat against a big brocaded +cushion. He had a red spot on each cheek. + +“Come in,” he said. “I’ve been thinking about you all morning.” + +“I’ve been thinking about you, too,” answered Mary. “You don’t know how +frightened Martha is. She says Mrs. Medlock will think she told me +about you and then she will be sent away.” + +He frowned. + +“Go and tell her to come here,” he said. “She is in the next room.” + +Mary went and brought her back. Poor Martha was shaking in her shoes. +Colin was still frowning. + +“Have you to do what I please or have you not?” he demanded. + +“I have to do what you please, sir,” Martha faltered, turning quite +red. + +“Has Medlock to do what I please?” + +“Everybody has, sir,” said Martha. + +“Well, then, if I order you to bring Miss Mary to me, how can Medlock +send you away if she finds it out?” + +“Please don’t let her, sir,” pleaded Martha. + +“I’ll send _her_ away if she dares to say a word about such a thing,” +said Master Craven grandly. “She wouldn’t like that, I can tell you.” + +“Thank you, sir,” bobbing a curtsy, “I want to do my duty, sir.” + +“What I want is your duty” said Colin more grandly still. “I’ll take +care of you. Now go away.” + +When the door closed behind Martha, Colin found Mistress Mary gazing at +him as if he had set her wondering. + +“Why do you look at me like that?” he asked her. “What are you thinking +about?” + +“I am thinking about two things.” + +“What are they? Sit down and tell me.” + +“This is the first one,” said Mary, seating herself on the big stool. +“Once in India I saw a boy who was a Rajah. He had rubies and emeralds +and diamonds stuck all over him. He spoke to his people just as you +spoke to Martha. Everybody had to do everything he told them—in a +minute. I think they would have been killed if they hadn’t.” + +“I shall make you tell me about Rajahs presently,” he said, “but first +tell me what the second thing was.” + +“I was thinking,” said Mary, “how different you are from Dickon.” + +“Who is Dickon?” he said. “What a queer name!” + +She might as well tell him, she thought she could talk about Dickon +without mentioning the secret garden. She had liked to hear Martha talk +about him. Besides, she longed to talk about him. It would seem to +bring him nearer. + +“He is Martha’s brother. He is twelve years old,” she explained. “He is +not like anyone else in the world. He can charm foxes and squirrels and +birds just as the natives in India charm snakes. He plays a very soft +tune on a pipe and they come and listen.” + +There were some big books on a table at his side and he dragged one +suddenly toward him. + +“There is a picture of a snake-charmer in this,” he exclaimed. “Come +and look at it.” + +The book was a beautiful one with superb colored illustrations and he +turned to one of them. + +“Can he do that?” he asked eagerly. + +“He played on his pipe and they listened,” Mary explained. “But he +doesn’t call it Magic. He says it’s because he lives on the moor so +much and he knows their ways. He says he feels sometimes as if he was a +bird or a rabbit himself, he likes them so. I think he asked the robin +questions. It seemed as if they talked to each other in soft chirps.” + +Colin lay back on his cushion and his eyes grew larger and larger and +the spots on his cheeks burned. + +“Tell me some more about him,” he said. + +“He knows all about eggs and nests,” Mary went on. “And he knows where +foxes and badgers and otters live. He keeps them secret so that other +boys won’t find their holes and frighten them. He knows about +everything that grows or lives on the moor.” + +“Does he like the moor?” said Colin. “How can he when it’s such a +great, bare, dreary place?” + +“It’s the most beautiful place,” protested Mary. “Thousands of lovely +things grow on it and there are thousands of little creatures all busy +building nests and making holes and burrows and chippering or singing +or squeaking to each other. They are so busy and having such fun under +the earth or in the trees or heather. It’s their world.” + +“How do you know all that?” said Colin, turning on his elbow to look at +her. + +“I have never been there once, really,” said Mary suddenly remembering. +“I only drove over it in the dark. I thought it was hideous. Martha +told me about it first and then Dickon. When Dickon talks about it you +feel as if you saw things and heard them and as if you were standing in +the heather with the sun shining and the gorse smelling like honey—and +all full of bees and butterflies.” + +“You never see anything if you are ill,” said Colin restlessly. He +looked like a person listening to a new sound in the distance and +wondering what it was. + +“You can’t if you stay in a room,” said Mary. + +“I couldn’t go on the moor,” he said in a resentful tone. + +Mary was silent for a minute and then she said something bold. + +“You might—sometime.” + +He moved as if he were startled. + +“Go on the moor! How could I? I am going to die.” + +“How do you know?” said Mary unsympathetically. She didn’t like the way +he had of talking about dying. She did not feel very sympathetic. She +felt rather as if he almost boasted about it. + +“Oh, I’ve heard it ever since I remember,” he answered crossly. “They +are always whispering about it and thinking I don’t notice. They wish I +would, too.” + +Mistress Mary felt quite contrary. She pinched her lips together. + +“If they wished I would,” she said, “I wouldn’t. Who wishes you would?” + +“The servants—and of course Dr. Craven because he would get +Misselthwaite and be rich instead of poor. He daren’t say so, but he +always looks cheerful when I am worse. When I had typhoid fever his +face got quite fat. I think my father wishes it, too.” + +“I don’t believe he does,” said Mary quite obstinately. + +That made Colin turn and look at her again. + +“Don’t you?” he said. + +And then he lay back on his cushion and was still, as if he were +thinking. And there was quite a long silence. Perhaps they were both of +them thinking strange things children do not usually think of. + +“I like the grand doctor from London, because he made them take the +iron thing off,” said Mary at last “Did he say you were going to die?” + +“No.” + +“What did he say?” + +“He didn’t whisper,” Colin answered. “Perhaps he knew I hated +whispering. I heard him say one thing quite aloud. He said, ‘The lad +might live if he would make up his mind to it. Put him in the humor.’ +It sounded as if he was in a temper.” + +“I’ll tell you who would put you in the humor, perhaps,” said Mary +reflecting. She felt as if she would like this thing to be settled one +way or the other. “I believe Dickon would. He’s always talking about +live things. He never talks about dead things or things that are ill. +He’s always looking up in the sky to watch birds flying—or looking down +at the earth to see something growing. He has such round blue eyes and +they are so wide open with looking about. And he laughs such a big +laugh with his wide mouth—and his cheeks are as red—as red as +cherries.” + +She pulled her stool nearer to the sofa and her expression quite +changed at the remembrance of the wide curving mouth and wide open +eyes. + +“See here,” she said. “Don’t let us talk about dying; I don’t like it. +Let us talk about living. Let us talk and talk about Dickon. And then +we will look at your pictures.” + +It was the best thing she could have said. To talk about Dickon meant +to talk about the moor and about the cottage and the fourteen people +who lived in it on sixteen shillings a week—and the children who got +fat on the moor grass like the wild ponies. And about Dickon’s +mother—and the skipping-rope—and the moor with the sun on it—and about +pale green points sticking up out of the black sod. And it was all so +alive that Mary talked more than she had ever talked before—and Colin +both talked and listened as he had never done either before. And they +both began to laugh over nothings as children will when they are happy +together. And they laughed so that in the end they were making as much +noise as if they had been two ordinary healthy natural ten-year-old +creatures—instead of a hard, little, unloving girl and a sickly boy who +believed that he was going to die. + +They enjoyed themselves so much that they forgot the pictures and they +forgot about the time. They had been laughing quite loudly over Ben +Weatherstaff and his robin, and Colin was actually sitting up as if he +had forgotten about his weak back, when he suddenly remembered +something. + +“Do you know there is one thing we have never once thought of,” he +said. “We are cousins.” + +It seemed so queer that they had talked so much and never remembered +this simple thing that they laughed more than ever, because they had +got into the humor to laugh at anything. And in the midst of the fun +the door opened and in walked Dr. Craven and Mrs. Medlock. + +Dr. Craven started in actual alarm and Mrs. Medlock almost fell back +because he had accidentally bumped against her. + +“Good Lord!” exclaimed poor Mrs. Medlock with her eyes almost starting +out of her head. “Good Lord!” + +“What is this?” said Dr. Craven, coming forward. “What does it mean?” + +Then Mary was reminded of the boy Rajah again. Colin answered as if +neither the doctor’s alarm nor Mrs. Medlock’s terror were of the +slightest consequence. He was as little disturbed or frightened as if +an elderly cat and dog had walked into the room. + +“This is my cousin, Mary Lennox,” he said. “I asked her to come and +talk to me. I like her. She must come and talk to me whenever I send +for her.” + +Dr. Craven turned reproachfully to Mrs. Medlock. + +“Oh, sir” she panted. “I don’t know how it’s happened. There’s not a +servant on the place tha’d dare to talk—they all have their orders.” + +“Nobody told her anything,” said Colin. “She heard me crying and found +me herself. I am glad she came. Don’t be silly, Medlock.” + +Mary saw that Dr. Craven did not look pleased, but it was quite plain +that he dare not oppose his patient. He sat down by Colin and felt his +pulse. + +“I am afraid there has been too much excitement. Excitement is not good +for you, my boy,” he said. + +“I should be excited if she kept away,” answered Colin, his eyes +beginning to look dangerously sparkling. “I am better. She makes me +better. The nurse must bring up her tea with mine. We will have tea +together.” + +Mrs. Medlock and Dr. Craven looked at each other in a troubled way, but +there was evidently nothing to be done. + +“He does look rather better, sir,” ventured Mrs. Medlock. +“But”—thinking the matter over—“he looked better this morning before +she came into the room.” + +“She came into the room last night. She stayed with me a long time. She +sang a Hindustani song to me and it made me go to sleep,” said Colin. +“I was better when I wakened up. I wanted my breakfast. I want my tea +now. Tell nurse, Medlock.” + +Dr. Craven did not stay very long. He talked to the nurse for a few +minutes when she came into the room and said a few words of warning to +Colin. He must not talk too much; he must not forget that he was ill; +he must not forget that he was very easily tired. Mary thought that +there seemed to be a number of uncomfortable things he was not to +forget. + +Colin looked fretful and kept his strange black-lashed eyes fixed on +Dr. Craven’s face. + +“I _want_ to forget it,” he said at last. “She makes me forget it. That +is why I want her.” + +Dr. Craven did not look happy when he left the room. He gave a puzzled +glance at the little girl sitting on the large stool. She had become a +stiff, silent child again as soon as he entered and he could not see +what the attraction was. The boy actually did look brighter, +however—and he sighed rather heavily as he went down the corridor. + +“They are always wanting me to eat things when I don’t want to,” said +Colin, as the nurse brought in the tea and put it on the table by the +sofa. “Now, if you’ll eat I will. Those muffins look so nice and hot. +Tell me about Rajahs.” + + + + +CHAPTER XV. +NEST BUILDING + + +After another week of rain the high arch of blue sky appeared again and +the sun which poured down was quite hot. Though there had been no +chance to see either the secret garden or Dickon, Mistress Mary had +enjoyed herself very much. The week had not seemed long. She had spent +hours of every day with Colin in his room, talking about Rajahs or +gardens or Dickon and the cottage on the moor. They had looked at the +splendid books and pictures and sometimes Mary had read things to +Colin, and sometimes he had read a little to her. When he was amused +and interested she thought he scarcely looked like an invalid at all, +except that his face was so colorless and he was always on the sofa. + +“You are a sly young one to listen and get out of your bed to go +following things up like you did that night,” Mrs. Medlock said once. +“But there’s no saying it’s not been a sort of blessing to the lot of +us. He’s not had a tantrum or a whining fit since you made friends. The +nurse was just going to give up the case because she was so sick of +him, but she says she doesn’t mind staying now you’ve gone on duty with +her,” laughing a little. + +In her talks with Colin, Mary had tried to be very cautious about the +secret garden. There were certain things she wanted to find out from +him, but she felt that she must find them out without asking him direct +questions. In the first place, as she began to like to be with him, she +wanted to discover whether he was the kind of boy you could tell a +secret to. He was not in the least like Dickon, but he was evidently so +pleased with the idea of a garden no one knew anything about that she +thought perhaps he could be trusted. But she had not known him long +enough to be sure. The second thing she wanted to find out was this: If +he could be trusted—if he really could—wouldn’t it be possible to take +him to the garden without having anyone find it out? The grand doctor +had said that he must have fresh air and Colin had said that he would +not mind fresh air in a secret garden. Perhaps if he had a great deal +of fresh air and knew Dickon and the robin and saw things growing he +might not think so much about dying. Mary had seen herself in the glass +sometimes lately when she had realized that she looked quite a +different creature from the child she had seen when she arrived from +India. This child looked nicer. Even Martha had seen a change in her. + +“Th’ air from th’ moor has done thee good already,” she had said. +“Tha’rt not nigh so yeller and tha’rt not nigh so scrawny. Even tha’ +hair doesn’t slamp down on tha’ head so flat. It’s got some life in it +so as it sticks out a bit.” + +“It’s like me,” said Mary. “It’s growing stronger and fatter. I’m sure +there’s more of it.” + +“It looks it, for sure,” said Martha, ruffling it up a little round her +face. “Tha’rt not half so ugly when it’s that way an’ there’s a bit o’ +red in tha’ cheeks.” + +If gardens and fresh air had been good for her perhaps they would be +good for Colin. But then, if he hated people to look at him, perhaps he +would not like to see Dickon. + +“Why does it make you angry when you are looked at?” she inquired one +day. + +“I always hated it,” he answered, “even when I was very little. Then +when they took me to the seaside and I used to lie in my carriage +everybody used to stare and ladies would stop and talk to my nurse and +then they would begin to whisper and I knew then they were saying I +shouldn’t live to grow up. Then sometimes the ladies would pat my +cheeks and say ‘Poor child!’ Once when a lady did that I screamed out +loud and bit her hand. She was so frightened she ran away.” + +“She thought you had gone mad like a dog,” said Mary, not at all +admiringly. + +“I don’t care what she thought,” said Colin, frowning. + +“I wonder why you didn’t scream and bite me when I came into your +room?” said Mary. Then she began to smile slowly. + +“I thought you were a ghost or a dream,” he said. “You can’t bite a +ghost or a dream, and if you scream they don’t care.” + +“Would you hate it if—if a boy looked at you?” Mary asked uncertainly. + +He lay back on his cushion and paused thoughtfully. + +“There’s one boy,” he said quite slowly, as if he were thinking over +every word, “there’s one boy I believe I shouldn’t mind. It’s that boy +who knows where the foxes live—Dickon.” + +“I’m sure you wouldn’t mind him,” said Mary. + +“The birds don’t and other animals,” he said, still thinking it over, +“perhaps that’s why I shouldn’t. He’s a sort of animal charmer and I am +a boy animal.” + +Then he laughed and she laughed too; in fact it ended in their both +laughing a great deal and finding the idea of a boy animal hiding in +his hole very funny indeed. + +What Mary felt afterward was that she need not fear about Dickon. + +On that first morning when the sky was blue again Mary wakened very +early. The sun was pouring in slanting rays through the blinds and +there was something so joyous in the sight of it that she jumped out of +bed and ran to the window. She drew up the blinds and opened the window +itself and a great waft of fresh, scented air blew in upon her. The +moor was blue and the whole world looked as if something Magic had +happened to it. There were tender little fluting sounds here and there +and everywhere, as if scores of birds were beginning to tune up for a +concert. Mary put her hand out of the window and held it in the sun. + +“It’s warm—warm!” she said. “It will make the green points push up and +up and up, and it will make the bulbs and roots work and struggle with +all their might under the earth.” + +She kneeled down and leaned out of the window as far as she could, +breathing big breaths and sniffing the air until she laughed because +she remembered what Dickon’s mother had said about the end of his nose +quivering like a rabbit’s. + +“It must be very early,” she said. “The little clouds are all pink and +I’ve never seen the sky look like this. No one is up. I don’t even hear +the stable boys.” + +A sudden thought made her scramble to her feet. + +“I can’t wait! I am going to see the garden!” + +She had learned to dress herself by this time and she put on her +clothes in five minutes. She knew a small side door which she could +unbolt herself and she flew downstairs in her stocking feet and put on +her shoes in the hall. She unchained and unbolted and unlocked and when +the door was open she sprang across the step with one bound, and there +she was standing on the grass, which seemed to have turned green, and +with the sun pouring down on her and warm sweet wafts about her and the +fluting and twittering and singing coming from every bush and tree. She +clasped her hands for pure joy and looked up in the sky and it was so +blue and pink and pearly and white and flooded with springtime light +that she felt as if she must flute and sing aloud herself and knew that +thrushes and robins and skylarks could not possibly help it. She ran +around the shrubs and paths towards the secret garden. + +“It is all different already,” she said. “The grass is greener and +things are sticking up everywhere and things are uncurling and green +buds of leaves are showing. This afternoon I am sure Dickon will come.” + +The long warm rain had done strange things to the herbaceous beds which +bordered the walk by the lower wall. There were things sprouting and +pushing out from the roots of clumps of plants and there were actually +here and there glimpses of royal purple and yellow unfurling among the +stems of crocuses. Six months before Mistress Mary would not have seen +how the world was waking up, but now she missed nothing. + +When she had reached the place where the door hid itself under the ivy, +she was startled by a curious loud sound. It was the caw—caw of a crow +and it came from the top of the wall, and when she looked up, there sat +a big glossy-plumaged blue-black bird, looking down at her very wisely +indeed. She had never seen a crow so close before and he made her a +little nervous, but the next moment he spread his wings and flapped +away across the garden. She hoped he was not going to stay inside and +she pushed the door open wondering if he would. When she got fairly +into the garden she saw that he probably did intend to stay because he +had alighted on a dwarf apple-tree and under the apple-tree was lying a +little reddish animal with a Bushy tail, and both of them were watching +the stooping body and rust-red head of Dickon, who was kneeling on the +grass working hard. + +Mary flew across the grass to him. + +“Oh, Dickon! Dickon!” she cried out. “How could you get here so early! +How could you! The sun has only just got up!” + +He got up himself, laughing and glowing, and tousled; his eyes like a +bit of the sky. + +“Eh!” he said. “I was up long before him. How could I have stayed abed! +Th’ world’s all fair begun again this mornin’, it has. An’ it’s workin’ +an’ hummin’ an’ scratchin’ an’ pipin’ an’ nest-buildin’ an’ breathin’ +out scents, till you’ve got to be out on it ’stead o’ lyin’ on your +back. When th’ sun did jump up, th’ moor went mad for joy, an’ I was in +the midst of th’ heather, an’ I run like mad myself, shoutin’ an’ +singin’. An’ I come straight here. I couldn’t have stayed away. Why, +th’ garden was lyin’ here waitin’!” + +Mary put her hands on her chest, panting, as if she had been running +herself. + +“Oh, Dickon! Dickon!” she said. “I’m so happy I can scarcely breathe!” + +Seeing him talking to a stranger, the little bushy-tailed animal rose +from its place under the tree and came to him, and the rook, cawing +once, flew down from its branch and settled quietly on his shoulder. + +“This is th’ little fox cub,” he said, rubbing the little reddish +animal’s head. “It’s named Captain. An’ this here’s Soot. Soot he flew +across th’ moor with me an’ Captain he run same as if th’ hounds had +been after him. They both felt same as I did.” + +Neither of the creatures looked as if he were the least afraid of Mary. +When Dickon began to walk about, Soot stayed on his shoulder and +Captain trotted quietly close to his side. + +“See here!” said Dickon. “See how these has pushed up, an’ these an’ +these! An’ Eh! Look at these here!” + +He threw himself upon his knees and Mary went down beside him. They had +come upon a whole clump of crocuses burst into purple and orange and +gold. Mary bent her face down and kissed and kissed them. + +“You never kiss a person in that way,” she said when she lifted her +head. “Flowers are so different.” + +He looked puzzled but smiled. + +“Eh!” he said, “I’ve kissed mother many a time that way when I come in +from th’ moor after a day’s roamin’ an’ she stood there at th’ door in +th’ sun, lookin’ so glad an’ comfortable.” + +They ran from one part of the garden to another and found so many +wonders that they were obliged to remind themselves that they must +whisper or speak low. He showed her swelling leafbuds on rose branches +which had seemed dead. He showed her ten thousand new green points +pushing through the mould. They put their eager young noses close to +the earth and sniffed its warmed springtime breathing; they dug and +pulled and laughed low with rapture until Mistress Mary’s hair was as +tumbled as Dickon’s and her cheeks were almost as poppy red as his. + +There was every joy on earth in the secret garden that morning, and in +the midst of them came a delight more delightful than all, because it +was more wonderful. Swiftly something flew across the wall and darted +through the trees to a close grown corner, a little flare of +red-breasted bird with something hanging from its beak. Dickon stood +quite still and put his hand on Mary almost as if they had suddenly +found themselves laughing in a church. + +“We munnot stir,” he whispered in broad Yorkshire. “We munnot scarce +breathe. I knowed he was mate-huntin’ when I seed him last. It’s Ben +Weatherstaff’s robin. He’s buildin’ his nest. He’ll stay here if us +don’t flight him.” + +They settled down softly upon the grass and sat there without moving. + +“Us mustn’t seem as if us was watchin’ him too close,” said Dickon. +“He’d be out with us for good if he got th’ notion us was interferin’ +now. He’ll be a good bit different till all this is over. He’s settin’ +up housekeepin’. He’ll be shyer an’ readier to take things ill. He’s +got no time for visitin’ an’ gossipin’. Us must keep still a bit an’ +try to look as if us was grass an’ trees an’ bushes. Then when he’s got +used to seein’ us I’ll chirp a bit an’ he’ll know us’ll not be in his +way.” + +Mistress Mary was not at all sure that she knew, as Dickon seemed to, +how to try to look like grass and trees and bushes. But he had said the +queer thing as if it were the simplest and most natural thing in the +world, and she felt it must be quite easy to him, and indeed she +watched him for a few minutes carefully, wondering if it was possible +for him to quietly turn green and put out branches and leaves. But he +only sat wonderfully still, and when he spoke dropped his voice to such +a softness that it was curious that she could hear him, but she could. + +“It’s part o’ th’ springtime, this nest-buildin’ is,” he said. “I +warrant it’s been goin’ on in th’ same way every year since th’ world +was begun. They’ve got their way o’ thinkin’ and doin’ things an’ a +body had better not meddle. You can lose a friend in springtime easier +than any other season if you’re too curious.” + +“If we talk about him I can’t help looking at him,” Mary said as softly +as possible. “We must talk of something else. There is something I want +to tell you.” + +“He’ll like it better if us talks o’ somethin’ else,” said Dickon. +“What is it tha’s got to tell me?” + +“Well—do you know about Colin?” she whispered. + +He turned his head to look at her. + +“What does tha’ know about him?” he asked. + +“I’ve seen him. I have been to talk to him every day this week. He +wants me to come. He says I’m making him forget about being ill and +dying,” answered Mary. + +Dickon looked actually relieved as soon as the surprise died away from +his round face. + +“I am glad o’ that,” he exclaimed. “I’m right down glad. It makes me +easier. I knowed I must say nothin’ about him an’ I don’t like havin’ +to hide things.” + +“Don’t you like hiding the garden?” said Mary. + +“I’ll never tell about it,” he answered. “But I says to mother, +‘Mother,’ I says, ‘I got a secret to keep. It’s not a bad ’un, tha’ +knows that. It’s no worse than hidin’ where a bird’s nest is. Tha’ +doesn’t mind it, does tha’?’” + +Mary always wanted to hear about mother. + +“What did she say?” she asked, not at all afraid to hear. + +Dickon grinned sweet-temperedly. + +“It was just like her, what she said,” he answered. “She give my head a +bit of a rub an’ laughed an’ she says, ‘Eh, lad, tha’ can have all th’ +secrets tha’ likes. I’ve knowed thee twelve year’.’” + +“How did you know about Colin?” asked Mary. + +“Everybody as knowed about Mester Craven knowed there was a little lad +as was like to be a cripple, an’ they knowed Mester Craven didn’t like +him to be talked about. Folks is sorry for Mester Craven because Mrs. +Craven was such a pretty young lady an’ they was so fond of each other. +Mrs. Medlock stops in our cottage whenever she goes to Thwaite an’ she +doesn’t mind talkin’ to mother before us children, because she knows us +has been brought up to be trusty. How did tha’ find out about him? +Martha was in fine trouble th’ last time she came home. She said tha’d +heard him frettin’ an’ tha’ was askin’ questions an’ she didn’t know +what to say.” + +Mary told him her story about the midnight wuthering of the wind which +had wakened her and about the faint far-off sounds of the complaining +voice which had led her down the dark corridors with her candle and had +ended with her opening of the door of the dimly lighted room with the +carven four-posted bed in the corner. When she described the small +ivory-white face and the strange black-rimmed eyes Dickon shook his +head. + +“Them’s just like his mother’s eyes, only hers was always laughin’, +they say,” he said. “They say as Mr. Craven can’t bear to see him when +he’s awake an’ it’s because his eyes is so like his mother’s an’ yet +looks so different in his miserable bit of a face.” + +“Do you think he wants to die?” whispered Mary. + +“No, but he wishes he’d never been born. Mother she says that’s th’ +worst thing on earth for a child. Them as is not wanted scarce ever +thrives. Mester Craven he’d buy anythin’ as money could buy for th’ +poor lad but he’d like to forget as he’s on earth. For one thing, he’s +afraid he’ll look at him some day and find he’s growed hunchback.” + +“Colin’s so afraid of it himself that he won’t sit up,” said Mary. “He +says he’s always thinking that if he should feel a lump coming he +should go crazy and scream himself to death.” + +“Eh! he oughtn’t to lie there thinkin’ things like that,” said Dickon. +“No lad could get well as thought them sort o’ things.” + +The fox was lying on the grass close by him, looking up to ask for a +pat now and then, and Dickon bent down and rubbed his neck softly and +thought a few minutes in silence. Presently he lifted his head and +looked round the garden. + +“When first we got in here,” he said, “it seemed like everything was +gray. Look round now and tell me if tha’ doesn’t see a difference.” + +Mary looked and caught her breath a little. + +“Why!” she cried, “the gray wall is changing. It is as if a green mist +were creeping over it. It’s almost like a green gauze veil.” + +“Aye,” said Dickon. “An’ it’ll be greener and greener till th’ gray’s +all gone. Can tha’ guess what I was thinkin’?” + +“I know it was something nice,” said Mary eagerly. “I believe it was +something about Colin.” + +“I was thinkin’ that if he was out here he wouldn’t be watchin’ for +lumps to grow on his back; he’d be watchin’ for buds to break on th’ +rose-bushes, an’ he’d likely be healthier,” explained Dickon. “I was +wonderin’ if us could ever get him in th’ humor to come out here an’ +lie under th’ trees in his carriage.” + +“I’ve been wondering that myself. I’ve thought of it almost every time +I’ve talked to him,” said Mary. “I’ve wondered if he could keep a +secret and I’ve wondered if we could bring him here without anyone +seeing us. I thought perhaps you could push his carriage. The doctor +said he must have fresh air and if he wants us to take him out no one +dare disobey him. He won’t go out for other people and perhaps they +will be glad if he will go out with us. He could order the gardeners to +keep away so they wouldn’t find out.” + +Dickon was thinking very hard as he scratched Captain’s back. + +“It’d be good for him, I’ll warrant,” he said. “Us’d not be thinkin’ +he’d better never been born. Us’d be just two children watchin’ a +garden grow, an’ he’d be another. Two lads an’ a little lass just +lookin’ on at th’ springtime. I warrant it’d be better than doctor’s +stuff.” + +“He’s been lying in his room so long and he’s always been so afraid of +his back that it has made him queer,” said Mary. “He knows a good many +things out of books but he doesn’t know anything else. He says he has +been too ill to notice things and he hates going out of doors and hates +gardens and gardeners. But he likes to hear about this garden because +it is a secret. I daren’t tell him much but he said he wanted to see +it.” + +“Us’ll have him out here sometime for sure,” said Dickon. “I could push +his carriage well enough. Has tha’ noticed how th’ robin an’ his mate +has been workin’ while we’ve been sittin’ here? Look at him perched on +that branch wonderin’ where it’d be best to put that twig he’s got in +his beak.” + +He made one of his low whistling calls and the robin turned his head +and looked at him inquiringly, still holding his twig. Dickon spoke to +him as Ben Weatherstaff did, but Dickon’s tone was one of friendly +advice. + +“Wheres’ever tha’ puts it,” he said, “it’ll be all right. Tha’ knew how +to build tha’ nest before tha’ came out o’ th’ egg. Get on with thee, +lad. Tha’st got no time to lose.” + +“Oh, I do like to hear you talk to him!” Mary said, laughing +delightedly. “Ben Weatherstaff scolds him and makes fun of him, and he +hops about and looks as if he understood every word, and I know he +likes it. Ben Weatherstaff says he is so conceited he would rather have +stones thrown at him than not be noticed.” + +Dickon laughed too and went on talking. + +“Tha’ knows us won’t trouble thee,” he said to the robin. “Us is near +bein’ wild things ourselves. Us is nest-buildin’ too, bless thee. Look +out tha’ doesn’t tell on us.” + +And though the robin did not answer, because his beak was occupied, +Mary knew that when he flew away with his twig to his own corner of the +garden the darkness of his dew-bright eye meant that he would not tell +their secret for the world. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI. +“I WON’T!” SAID MARY + + +They found a great deal to do that morning and Mary was late in +returning to the house and was also in such a hurry to get back to her +work that she quite forgot Colin until the last moment. + +“Tell Colin that I can’t come and see him yet,” she said to Martha. +“I’m very busy in the garden.” + +Martha looked rather frightened. + +“Eh! Miss Mary,” she said, “it may put him all out of humor when I tell +him that.” + +But Mary was not as afraid of him as other people were and she was not +a self-sacrificing person. + +“I can’t stay,” she answered. “Dickon’s waiting for me;” and she ran +away. + +The afternoon was even lovelier and busier than the morning had been. +Already nearly all the weeds were cleared out of the garden and most of +the roses and trees had been pruned or dug about. Dickon had brought a +spade of his own and he had taught Mary to use all her tools, so that +by this time it was plain that though the lovely wild place was not +likely to become a “gardener’s garden” it would be a wilderness of +growing things before the springtime was over. + +“There’ll be apple blossoms an’ cherry blossoms overhead,” Dickon said, +working away with all his might. “An’ there’ll be peach an’ plum trees +in bloom against th’ walls, an’ th’ grass’ll be a carpet o’ flowers.” + +The little fox and the rook were as happy and busy as they were, and +the robin and his mate flew backward and forward like tiny streaks of +lightning. Sometimes the rook flapped his black wings and soared away +over the tree-tops in the park. Each time he came back and perched near +Dickon and cawed several times as if he were relating his adventures, +and Dickon talked to him just as he had talked to the robin. Once when +Dickon was so busy that he did not answer him at first, Soot flew on to +his shoulders and gently tweaked his ear with his large beak. When Mary +wanted to rest a little Dickon sat down with her under a tree and once +he took his pipe out of his pocket and played the soft strange little +notes and two squirrels appeared on the wall and looked and listened. + +“Tha’s a good bit stronger than tha’ was,” Dickon said, looking at her +as she was digging. “Tha’s beginning to look different, for sure.” + +Mary was glowing with exercise and good spirits. + +“I’m getting fatter and fatter every day,” she said quite exultantly. +“Mrs. Medlock will have to get me some bigger dresses. Martha says my +hair is growing thicker. It isn’t so flat and stringy.” + +The sun was beginning to set and sending deep gold-colored rays +slanting under the trees when they parted. + +“It’ll be fine tomorrow,” said Dickon. “I’ll be at work by sunrise.” + +“So will I,” said Mary. + +She ran back to the house as quickly as her feet would carry her. She +wanted to tell Colin about Dickon’s fox cub and the rook and about what +the springtime had been doing. She felt sure he would like to hear. So +it was not very pleasant when she opened the door of her room, to see +Martha standing waiting for her with a doleful face. + +“What is the matter?” she asked. “What did Colin say when you told him +I couldn’t come?” + +“Eh!” said Martha, “I wish tha’d gone. He was nigh goin’ into one o’ +his tantrums. There’s been a nice to do all afternoon to keep him +quiet. He would watch the clock all th’ time.” + +Mary’s lips pinched themselves together. She was no more used to +considering other people than Colin was and she saw no reason why an +ill-tempered boy should interfere with the thing she liked best. She +knew nothing about the pitifulness of people who had been ill and +nervous and who did not know that they could control their tempers and +need not make other people ill and nervous, too. When she had had a +headache in India she had done her best to see that everybody else also +had a headache or something quite as bad. And she felt she was quite +right; but of course now she felt that Colin was quite wrong. + +He was not on his sofa when she went into his room. He was lying flat +on his back in bed and he did not turn his head toward her as she came +in. This was a bad beginning and Mary marched up to him with her stiff +manner. + +“Why didn’t you get up?” she said. + +“I did get up this morning when I thought you were coming,” he +answered, without looking at her. “I made them put me back in bed this +afternoon. My back ached and my head ached and I was tired. Why didn’t +you come?” + +“I was working in the garden with Dickon,” said Mary. + +Colin frowned and condescended to look at her. + +“I won’t let that boy come here if you go and stay with him instead of +coming to talk to me,” he said. + +Mary flew into a fine passion. She could fly into a passion without +making a noise. She just grew sour and obstinate and did not care what +happened. + +“If you send Dickon away, I’ll never come into this room again!” she +retorted. + +“You’ll have to if I want you,” said Colin. + +“I won’t!” said Mary. + +“I’ll make you,” said Colin. “They shall drag you in.” + +“Shall they, Mr. Rajah!” said Mary fiercely. “They may drag me in but +they can’t make me talk when they get me here. I’ll sit and clench my +teeth and never tell you one thing. I won’t even look at you. I’ll +stare at the floor!” + +They were a nice agreeable pair as they glared at each other. If they +had been two little street boys they would have sprung at each other +and had a rough-and-tumble fight. As it was, they did the next thing to +it. + +“You are a selfish thing!” cried Colin. + +“What are you?” said Mary. “Selfish people always say that. Anyone is +selfish who doesn’t do what they want. You’re more selfish than I am. +You’re the most selfish boy I ever saw.” + +“I’m not!” snapped Colin. “I’m not as selfish as your fine Dickon is! +He keeps you playing in the dirt when he knows I am all by myself. He’s +selfish, if you like!” + +Mary’s eyes flashed fire. + +“He’s nicer than any other boy that ever lived!” she said. “He’s—he’s +like an angel!” It might sound rather silly to say that but she did not +care. + +“A nice angel!” Colin sneered ferociously. “He’s a common cottage boy +off the moor!” + +“He’s better than a common Rajah!” retorted Mary. “He’s a thousand +times better!” + +Because she was the stronger of the two she was beginning to get the +better of him. The truth was that he had never had a fight with anyone +like himself in his life and, upon the whole, it was rather good for +him, though neither he nor Mary knew anything about that. He turned his +head on his pillow and shut his eyes and a big tear was squeezed out +and ran down his cheek. He was beginning to feel pathetic and sorry for +himself—not for anyone else. + +“I’m not as selfish as you, because I’m always ill, and I’m sure there +is a lump coming on my back,” he said. “And I am going to die besides.” + +“You’re not!” contradicted Mary unsympathetically. + +He opened his eyes quite wide with indignation. He had never heard such +a thing said before. He was at once furious and slightly pleased, if a +person could be both at one time. + +“I’m not?” he cried. “I am! You know I am! Everybody says so.” + +“I don’t believe it!” said Mary sourly. “You just say that to make +people sorry. I believe you’re proud of it. I don’t believe it! If you +were a nice boy it might be true—but you’re too nasty!” + +In spite of his invalid back Colin sat up in bed in quite a healthy +rage. + +“Get out of the room!” he shouted and he caught hold of his pillow and +threw it at her. He was not strong enough to throw it far and it only +fell at her feet, but Mary’s face looked as pinched as a nutcracker. + +“I’m going,” she said. “And I won’t come back!” + +She walked to the door and when she reached it she turned round and +spoke again. + +“I was going to tell you all sorts of nice things,” she said. “Dickon +brought his fox and his rook and I was going to tell you all about +them. Now I won’t tell you a single thing!” + +She marched out of the door and closed it behind her, and there to her +great astonishment she found the trained nurse standing as if she had +been listening and, more amazing still—she was laughing. She was a big +handsome young woman who ought not to have been a trained nurse at all, +as she could not bear invalids and she was always making excuses to +leave Colin to Martha or anyone else who would take her place. Mary had +never liked her, and she simply stood and gazed up at her as she stood +giggling into her handkerchief.. + +“What are you laughing at?” she asked her. + +“At you two young ones,” said the nurse. “It’s the best thing that +could happen to the sickly pampered thing to have someone to stand up +to him that’s as spoiled as himself;” and she laughed into her +handkerchief again. “If he’d had a young vixen of a sister to fight +with it would have been the saving of him.” + +“Is he going to die?” + +“I don’t know and I don’t care,” said the nurse. “Hysterics and temper +are half what ails him.” + +“What are hysterics?” asked Mary. + +“You’ll find out if you work him into a tantrum after this—but at any +rate you’ve given him something to have hysterics about, and I’m glad +of it.” + +Mary went back to her room not feeling at all as she had felt when she +had come in from the garden. She was cross and disappointed but not at +all sorry for Colin. She had looked forward to telling him a great many +things and she had meant to try to make up her mind whether it would be +safe to trust him with the great secret. She had been beginning to +think it would be, but now she had changed her mind entirely. She would +never tell him and he could stay in his room and never get any fresh +air and die if he liked! It would serve him right! She felt so sour and +unrelenting that for a few minutes she almost forgot about Dickon and +the green veil creeping over the world and the soft wind blowing down +from the moor. + +Martha was waiting for her and the trouble in her face had been +temporarily replaced by interest and curiosity. There was a wooden box +on the table and its cover had been removed and revealed that it was +full of neat packages. + +“Mr. Craven sent it to you,” said Martha. “It looks as if it had +picture-books in it.” + +Mary remembered what he had asked her the day she had gone to his room. +“Do you want anything—dolls—toys—books?” She opened the package +wondering if he had sent a doll, and also wondering what she should do +with it if he had. But he had not sent one. There were several +beautiful books such as Colin had, and two of them were about gardens +and were full of pictures. There were two or three games and there was +a beautiful little writing-case with a gold monogram on it and a gold +pen and inkstand. + +Everything was so nice that her pleasure began to crowd her anger out +of her mind. She had not expected him to remember her at all and her +hard little heart grew quite warm. + +“I can write better than I can print,” she said, “and the first thing I +shall write with that pen will be a letter to tell him I am much +obliged.” + +If she had been friends with Colin she would have run to show him her +presents at once, and they would have looked at the pictures and read +some of the gardening books and perhaps tried playing the games, and he +would have enjoyed himself so much he would never once have thought he +was going to die or have put his hand on his spine to see if there was +a lump coming. He had a way of doing that which she could not bear. It +gave her an uncomfortable frightened feeling because he always looked +so frightened himself. He said that if he felt even quite a little lump +some day he should know his hunch had begun to grow. Something he had +heard Mrs. Medlock whispering to the nurse had given him the idea and +he had thought over it in secret until it was quite firmly fixed in his +mind. Mrs. Medlock had said his father’s back had begun to show its +crookedness in that way when he was a child. He had never told anyone +but Mary that most of his “tantrums” as they called them grew out of +his hysterical hidden fear. Mary had been sorry for him when he had +told her. + +“He always began to think about it when he was cross or tired,” she +said to herself. “And he has been cross today. Perhaps—perhaps he has +been thinking about it all afternoon.” + +She stood still, looking down at the carpet and thinking. + +“I said I would never go back again—” she hesitated, knitting her +brows—“but perhaps, just perhaps, I will go and see—if he wants me—in +the morning. Perhaps he’ll try to throw his pillow at me again, but—I +think—I’ll go.” + + + + +CHAPTER XVII. +A TANTRUM + + +She had got up very early in the morning and had worked hard in the +garden and she was tired and sleepy, so as soon as Martha had brought +her supper and she had eaten it, she was glad to go to bed. As she laid +her head on the pillow she murmured to herself: + +“I’ll go out before breakfast and work with Dickon and then afterward—I +believe—I’ll go to see him.” + +She thought it was the middle of the night when she was awakened by +such dreadful sounds that she jumped out of bed in an instant. What was +it—what was it? The next minute she felt quite sure she knew. Doors +were opened and shut and there were hurrying feet in the corridors and +someone was crying and screaming at the same time, screaming and crying +in a horrible way. + +“It’s Colin,” she said. “He’s having one of those tantrums the nurse +called hysterics. How awful it sounds.” + +As she listened to the sobbing screams she did not wonder that people +were so frightened that they gave him his own way in everything rather +than hear them. She put her hands over her ears and felt sick and +shivering. + +“I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to do,” she kept saying. “I +can’t bear it.” + +Once she wondered if he would stop if she dared go to him and then she +remembered how he had driven her out of the room and thought that +perhaps the sight of her might make him worse. Even when she pressed +her hands more tightly over her ears she could not keep the awful +sounds out. She hated them so and was so terrified by them that +suddenly they began to make her angry and she felt as if she should +like to fly into a tantrum herself and frighten him as he was +frightening her. She was not used to anyone’s tempers but her own. She +took her hands from her ears and sprang up and stamped her foot. + +“He ought to be stopped! Somebody ought to make him stop! Somebody +ought to beat him!” she cried out. + +Just then she heard feet almost running down the corridor and her door +opened and the nurse came in. She was not laughing now by any means. +She even looked rather pale. + +“He’s worked himself into hysterics,” she said in a great hurry. “He’ll +do himself harm. No one can do anything with him. You come and try, +like a good child. He likes you.” + +“He turned me out of the room this morning,” said Mary, stamping her +foot with excitement. + +The stamp rather pleased the nurse. The truth was that she had been +afraid she might find Mary crying and hiding her head under the +bed-clothes. + +“That’s right,” she said. “You’re in the right humor. You go and scold +him. Give him something new to think of. Do go, child, as quick as ever +you can.” + +It was not until afterward that Mary realized that the thing had been +funny as well as dreadful—that it was funny that all the grown-up +people were so frightened that they came to a little girl just because +they guessed she was almost as bad as Colin himself. + +She flew along the corridor and the nearer she got to the screams the +higher her temper mounted. She felt quite wicked by the time she +reached the door. She slapped it open with her hand and ran across the +room to the four-posted bed. + +“You stop!” she almost shouted. “You stop! I hate you! Everybody hates +you! I wish everybody would run out of the house and let you scream +yourself to death! You _will_ scream yourself to death in a minute, and +I wish you would!” + +A nice sympathetic child could neither have thought nor said such +things, but it just happened that the shock of hearing them was the +best possible thing for this hysterical boy whom no one had ever dared +to restrain or contradict. + +He had been lying on his face beating his pillow with his hands and he +actually almost jumped around, he turned so quickly at the sound of the +furious little voice. His face looked dreadful, white and red and +swollen, and he was gasping and choking; but savage little Mary did not +care an atom. + +“If you scream another scream,” she said, “I’ll scream too—and I can +scream louder than you can and I’ll frighten you, I’ll frighten you!” + +He actually had stopped screaming because she had startled him so. The +scream which had been coming almost choked him. The tears were +streaming down his face and he shook all over. + +“I can’t stop!” he gasped and sobbed. “I can’t—I can’t!” + +“You can!” shouted Mary. “Half that ails you is hysterics and +temper—just hysterics—hysterics—hysterics!” and she stamped each time +she said it. + +“I felt the lump—I felt it,” choked out Colin. “I knew I should. I +shall have a hunch on my back and then I shall die,” and he began to +writhe again and turned on his face and sobbed and wailed but he didn’t +scream. + +“You didn’t feel a lump!” contradicted Mary fiercely. “If you did it +was only a hysterical lump. Hysterics makes lumps. There’s nothing the +matter with your horrid back—nothing but hysterics! Turn over and let +me look at it!” + +She liked the word “hysterics” and felt somehow as if it had an effect +on him. He was probably like herself and had never heard it before. + +“Nurse,” she commanded, “come here and show me his back this minute!” + +The nurse, Mrs. Medlock and Martha had been standing huddled together +near the door staring at her, their mouths half open. All three had +gasped with fright more than once. The nurse came forward as if she +were half afraid. Colin was heaving with great breathless sobs. + +“Perhaps he—he won’t let me,” she hesitated in a low voice. + +Colin heard her, however, and he gasped out between two sobs: + +“Sh-show her! She-she’ll see then!” + +It was a poor thin back to look at when it was bared. Every rib could +be counted and every joint of the spine, though Mistress Mary did not +count them as she bent over and examined them with a solemn savage +little face. She looked so sour and old-fashioned that the nurse turned +her head aside to hide the twitching of her mouth. There was just a +minute’s silence, for even Colin tried to hold his breath while Mary +looked up and down his spine, and down and up, as intently as if she +had been the great doctor from London. + +“There’s not a single lump there!” she said at last. “There’s not a +lump as big as a pin—except backbone lumps, and you can only feel them +because you’re thin. I’ve got backbone lumps myself, and they used to +stick out as much as yours do, until I began to get fatter, and I am +not fat enough yet to hide them. There’s not a lump as big as a pin! If +you ever say there is again, I shall laugh!” + +No one but Colin himself knew what effect those crossly spoken childish +words had on him. If he had ever had anyone to talk to about his secret +terrors—if he had ever dared to let himself ask questions—if he had had +childish companions and had not lain on his back in the huge closed +house, breathing an atmosphere heavy with the fears of people who were +most of them ignorant and tired of him, he would have found out that +most of his fright and illness was created by himself. But he had lain +and thought of himself and his aches and weariness for hours and days +and months and years. And now that an angry unsympathetic little girl +insisted obstinately that he was not as ill as he thought he was he +actually felt as if she might be speaking the truth. + +“I didn’t know,” ventured the nurse, “that he thought he had a lump on +his spine. His back is weak because he won’t try to sit up. I could +have told him there was no lump there.” Colin gulped and turned his +face a little to look at her. + +“C-could you?” he said pathetically. + +“Yes, sir.” + +“There!” said Mary, and she gulped too. + +Colin turned on his face again and but for his long-drawn broken +breaths, which were the dying down of his storm of sobbing, he lay +still for a minute, though great tears streamed down his face and wet +the pillow. Actually the tears meant that a curious great relief had +come to him. Presently he turned and looked at the nurse again and +strangely enough he was not like a Rajah at all as he spoke to her. + +“Do you think—I could—live to grow up?” he said. + +The nurse was neither clever nor soft-hearted but she could repeat some +of the London doctor’s words. + +“You probably will if you will do what you are told to do and not give +way to your temper, and stay out a great deal in the fresh air.” + +Colin’s tantrum had passed and he was weak and worn out with crying and +this perhaps made him feel gentle. He put out his hand a little toward +Mary, and I am glad to say that, her own tantum having passed, she was +softened too and met him half-way with her hand, so that it was a sort +of making up. + +“I’ll—I’ll go out with you, Mary,” he said. “I shan’t hate fresh air if +we can find—” He remembered just in time to stop himself from saying +“if we can find the secret garden” and he ended, “I shall like to go +out with you if Dickon will come and push my chair. I do so want to see +Dickon and the fox and the crow.” + +The nurse remade the tumbled bed and shook and straightened the +pillows. Then she made Colin a cup of beef tea and gave a cup to Mary, +who really was very glad to get it after her excitement. Mrs. Medlock +and Martha gladly slipped away, and after everything was neat and calm +and in order the nurse looked as if she would very gladly slip away +also. She was a healthy young woman who resented being robbed of her +sleep and she yawned quite openly as she looked at Mary, who had pushed +her big footstool close to the four-posted bed and was holding Colin’s +hand. + +“You must go back and get your sleep out,” she said. “He’ll drop off +after a while—if he’s not too upset. Then I’ll lie down myself in the +next room.” + +“Would you like me to sing you that song I learned from my Ayah?” Mary +whispered to Colin. + +His hand pulled hers gently and he turned his tired eyes on her +appealingly. + +“Oh, yes!” he answered. “It’s such a soft song. I shall go to sleep in +a minute.” + +“I will put him to sleep,” Mary said to the yawning nurse. “You can go +if you like.” + +“Well,” said the nurse, with an attempt at reluctance. “If he doesn’t +go to sleep in half an hour you must call me.” + +“Very well,” answered Mary. + +The nurse was out of the room in a minute and as soon as she was gone +Colin pulled Mary’s hand again. + +“I almost told,” he said; “but I stopped myself in time. I won’t talk +and I’ll go to sleep, but you said you had a whole lot of nice things +to tell me. Have you—do you think you have found out anything at all +about the way into the secret garden?” + +Mary looked at his poor little tired face and swollen eyes and her +heart relented. + +“Ye-es,” she answered, “I think I have. And if you will go to sleep I +will tell you tomorrow.” His hand quite trembled. + +“Oh, Mary!” he said. “Oh, Mary! If I could get into it I think I should +live to grow up! Do you suppose that instead of singing the Ayah +song—you could just tell me softly as you did that first day what you +imagine it looks like inside? I am sure it will make me go to sleep.” + +“Yes,” answered Mary. “Shut your eyes.” + +He closed his eyes and lay quite still and she held his hand and began +to speak very slowly and in a very low voice. + +“I think it has been left alone so long—that it has grown all into a +lovely tangle. I think the roses have climbed and climbed and climbed +until they hang from the branches and walls and creep over the +ground—almost like a strange gray mist. Some of them have died but +many—are alive and when the summer comes there will be curtains and +fountains of roses. I think the ground is full of daffodils and +snowdrops and lilies and iris working their way out of the dark. Now +the spring has begun—perhaps—perhaps—” + +The soft drone of her voice was making him stiller and stiller and she +saw it and went on. + +“Perhaps they are coming up through the grass—perhaps there are +clusters of purple crocuses and gold ones—even now. Perhaps the leaves +are beginning to break out and uncurl—and perhaps—the gray is changing +and a green gauze veil is creeping—and creeping over—everything. And +the birds are coming to look at it—because it is—so safe and still. And +perhaps—perhaps—perhaps—” very softly and slowly indeed, “the robin has +found a mate—and is building a nest.” + +And Colin was asleep. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII. +“THA’ MUNNOT WASTE NO TIME” + + +Of course Mary did not waken early the next morning. She slept late +because she was tired, and when Martha brought her breakfast she told +her that though Colin was quite quiet he was ill and feverish as he +always was after he had worn himself out with a fit of crying. Mary ate +her breakfast slowly as she listened. + +“He says he wishes tha’ would please go and see him as soon as tha’ +can,” Martha said. “It’s queer what a fancy he’s took to thee. Tha’ did +give it him last night for sure—didn’t tha? Nobody else would have +dared to do it. Eh! poor lad! He’s been spoiled till salt won’t save +him. Mother says as th’ two worst things as can happen to a child is +never to have his own way—or always to have it. She doesn’t know which +is th’ worst. Tha’ was in a fine temper tha’self, too. But he says to +me when I went into his room, ‘Please ask Miss Mary if she’ll please +come an’ talk to me?’ Think o’ him saying please! Will you go, Miss?” + +“I’ll run and see Dickon first,” said Mary. “No, I’ll go and see Colin +first and tell him—I know what I’ll tell him,” with a sudden +inspiration. + +She had her hat on when she appeared in Colin’s room and for a second +he looked disappointed. He was in bed. His face was pitifully white and +there were dark circles round his eyes. + +“I’m glad you came,” he said. “My head aches and I ache all over +because I’m so tired. Are you going somewhere?” + +Mary went and leaned against his bed. + +“I won’t be long,” she said. “I’m going to Dickon, but I’ll come back. +Colin, it’s—it’s something about the garden.” + +His whole face brightened and a little color came into it. + +“Oh! is it?” he cried out. “I dreamed about it all night. I heard you +say something about gray changing into green, and I dreamed I was +standing in a place all filled with trembling little green leaves—and +there were birds on nests everywhere and they looked so soft and still. +I’ll lie and think about it until you come back.” + +In five minutes Mary was with Dickon in their garden. The fox and the +crow were with him again and this time he had brought two tame +squirrels. + +“I came over on the pony this mornin’,” he said. “Eh! he is a good +little chap—Jump is! I brought these two in my pockets. This here one +he’s called Nut an’ this here other one’s called Shell.” + +When he said “Nut” one squirrel leaped on to his right shoulder and +when he said “Shell” the other one leaped on to his left shoulder. + +When they sat down on the grass with Captain curled at their feet, Soot +solemnly listening on a tree and Nut and Shell nosing about close to +them, it seemed to Mary that it would be scarcely bearable to leave +such delightfulness, but when she began to tell her story somehow the +look in Dickon’s funny face gradually changed her mind. She could see +he felt sorrier for Colin than she did. He looked up at the sky and all +about him. + +“Just listen to them birds—th’ world seems full of ’em—all whistlin’ +an’ pipin’,” he said. “Look at ’em dartin’ about, an’ hearken at ’em +callin’ to each other. Come springtime seems like as if all th’ world’s +callin’. The leaves is uncurlin’ so you can see ’em—an’, my word, th’ +nice smells there is about!” sniffing with his happy turned-up nose. +“An’ that poor lad lyin’ shut up an’ seein’ so little that he gets to +thinkin’ o’ things as sets him screamin’. Eh! my! we mun get him out +here—we mun get him watchin’ an listenin’ an’ sniffin’ up th’ air an’ +get him just soaked through wi’ sunshine. An’ we munnot lose no time +about it.” + +When he was very much interested he often spoke quite broad Yorkshire +though at other times he tried to modify his dialect so that Mary could +better understand. But she loved his broad Yorkshire and had in fact +been trying to learn to speak it herself. So she spoke a little now. + +“Aye, that we mun,” she said (which meant “Yes, indeed, we must”). +“I’ll tell thee what us’ll do first,” she proceeded, and Dickon +grinned, because when the little wench tried to twist her tongue into +speaking Yorkshire it amused him very much. “He’s took a graidely fancy +to thee. He wants to see thee and he wants to see Soot an’ Captain. +When I go back to the house to talk to him I’ll ax him if tha’ canna’ +come an’ see him tomorrow mornin’—an’ bring tha’ creatures wi’ thee—an’ +then—in a bit, when there’s more leaves out, an’ happen a bud or two, +we’ll get him to come out an’ tha’ shall push him in his chair an’ +we’ll bring him here an’ show him everything.” + +When she stopped she was quite proud of herself. She had never made a +long speech in Yorkshire before and she had remembered very well. + +“Tha’ mun talk a bit o’ Yorkshire like that to Mester Colin,” Dickon +chuckled. “Tha’ll make him laugh an’ there’s nowt as good for ill folk +as laughin’ is. Mother says she believes as half a hour’s good laugh +every mornin’ ’ud cure a chap as was makin’ ready for typhus fever.” + +“I’m going to talk Yorkshire to him this very day,” said Mary, +chuckling herself. + +The garden had reached the time when every day and every night it +seemed as if Magicians were passing through it drawing loveliness out +of the earth and the boughs with wands. It was hard to go away and +leave it all, particularly as Nut had actually crept on to her dress +and Shell had scrambled down the trunk of the apple-tree they sat under +and stayed there looking at her with inquiring eyes. But she went back +to the house and when she sat down close to Colin’s bed he began to +sniff as Dickon did though not in such an experienced way. + +“You smell like flowers and—and fresh things,” he cried out quite +joyously. “What is it you smell of? It’s cool and warm and sweet all at +the same time.” + +“It’s th’ wind from th’ moor,” said Mary. “It comes o’ sittin’ on th’ +grass under a tree wi’ Dickon an’ wi’ Captain an’ Soot an’ Nut an’ +Shell. It’s th’ springtime an’ out o’ doors an’ sunshine as smells so +graidely.” + +She said it as broadly as she could, and you do not know how broadly +Yorkshire sounds until you have heard someone speak it. Colin began to +laugh. + +“What are you doing?” he said. “I never heard you talk like that +before. How funny it sounds.” + +“I’m givin’ thee a bit o’ Yorkshire,” answered Mary triumphantly. “I +canna’ talk as graidely as Dickon an’ Martha can but tha’ sees I can +shape a bit. Doesn’t tha’ understand a bit o’ Yorkshire when tha’ hears +it? An’ tha’ a Yorkshire lad thysel’ bred an’ born! Eh! I wonder tha’rt +not ashamed o’ thy face.” + +And then she began to laugh too and they both laughed until they could +not stop themselves and they laughed until the room echoed and Mrs. +Medlock opening the door to come in drew back into the corridor and +stood listening amazed. + +“Well, upon my word!” she said, speaking rather broad Yorkshire herself +because there was no one to hear her and she was so astonished. +“Whoever heard th’ like! Whoever on earth would ha’ thought it!” + +There was so much to talk about. It seemed as if Colin could never hear +enough of Dickon and Captain and Soot and Nut and Shell and the pony +whose name was Jump. Mary had run round into the wood with Dickon to +see Jump. He was a tiny little shaggy moor pony with thick locks +hanging over his eyes and with a pretty face and a nuzzling velvet +nose. He was rather thin with living on moor grass but he was as tough +and wiry as if the muscle in his little legs had been made of steel +springs. He had lifted his head and whinnied softly the moment he saw +Dickon and he had trotted up to him and put his head across his +shoulder and then Dickon had talked into his ear and Jump had talked +back in odd little whinnies and puffs and snorts. Dickon had made him +give Mary his small front hoof and kiss her on her cheek with his +velvet muzzle. + +“Does he really understand everything Dickon says?” Colin asked. + +“It seems as if he does,” answered Mary. “Dickon says anything will +understand if you’re friends with it for sure, but you have to be +friends for sure.” + +Colin lay quiet a little while and his strange gray eyes seemed to be +staring at the wall, but Mary saw he was thinking. + +“I wish I was friends with things,” he said at last, “but I’m not. I +never had anything to be friends with, and I can’t bear people.” + +“Can’t you bear me?” asked Mary. + +“Yes, I can,” he answered. “It’s funny but I even like you.” + +“Ben Weatherstaff said I was like him,” said Mary. “He said he’d +warrant we’d both got the same nasty tempers. I think you are like him +too. We are all three alike—you and I and Ben Weatherstaff. He said we +were neither of us much to look at and we were as sour as we looked. +But I don’t feel as sour as I used to before I knew the robin and +Dickon.” + +“Did you feel as if you hated people?” + +“Yes,” answered Mary without any affectation. “I should have detested +you if I had seen you before I saw the robin and Dickon.” + +Colin put out his thin hand and touched her. + +“Mary,” he said, “I wish I hadn’t said what I did about sending Dickon +away. I hated you when you said he was like an angel and I laughed at +you but—but perhaps he is.” + +“Well, it was rather funny to say it,” she admitted frankly, “because +his nose does turn up and he has a big mouth and his clothes have +patches all over them and he talks broad Yorkshire, but—but if an angel +did come to Yorkshire and live on the moor—if there was a Yorkshire +angel—I believe he’d understand the green things and know how to make +them grow and he would know how to talk to the wild creatures as Dickon +does and they’d know he was friends for sure.” + +“I shouldn’t mind Dickon looking at me,” said Colin; “I want to see +him.” + +“I’m glad you said that,” answered Mary, “because—because—” + +Quite suddenly it came into her mind that this was the minute to tell +him. Colin knew something new was coming. + +“Because what?” he cried eagerly. + +Mary was so anxious that she got up from her stool and came to him and +caught hold of both his hands. + +“Can I trust you? I trusted Dickon because birds trusted him. Can I +trust you—for sure—_for sure?_” she implored. + +Her face was so solemn that he almost whispered his answer. + +“Yes—yes!” + +“Well, Dickon will come to see you tomorrow morning, and he’ll bring +his creatures with him.” + +“Oh! Oh!” Colin cried out in delight. + +“But that’s not all,” Mary went on, almost pale with solemn excitement. +“The rest is better. There is a door into the garden. I found it. It is +under the ivy on the wall.” + +If he had been a strong healthy boy Colin would probably have shouted +“Hooray! Hooray! Hooray!” but he was weak and rather hysterical; his +eyes grew bigger and bigger and he gasped for breath. + +“Oh! Mary!” he cried out with a half sob. “Shall I see it? Shall I get +into it? Shall I _live_ to get into it?” and he clutched her hands and +dragged her toward him. + +“Of course you’ll see it!” snapped Mary indignantly. “Of course you’ll +live to get into it! Don’t be silly!” + +And she was so un-hysterical and natural and childish that she brought +him to his senses and he began to laugh at himself and a few minutes +afterward she was sitting on her stool again telling him not what she +imagined the secret garden to be like but what it really was, and +Colin’s aches and tiredness were forgotten and he was listening +enraptured. + +“It is just what you thought it would be,” he said at last. “It sounds +just as if you had really seen it. You know I said that when you told +me first.” + +Mary hesitated about two minutes and then boldly spoke the truth. + +“I had seen it—and I had been in,” she said. “I found the key and got +in weeks ago. But I daren’t tell you—I daren’t because I was so afraid +I couldn’t trust you—_for sure!_” + + + + +CHAPTER XIX. +“IT HAS COME!” + + +Of course Dr. Craven had been sent for the morning after Colin had had +his tantrum. He was always sent for at once when such a thing occurred +and he always found, when he arrived, a white shaken boy lying on his +bed, sulky and still so hysterical that he was ready to break into +fresh sobbing at the least word. In fact, Dr. Craven dreaded and +detested the difficulties of these visits. On this occasion he was away +from Misselthwaite Manor until afternoon. + +“How is he?” he asked Mrs. Medlock rather irritably when he arrived. +“He will break a blood-vessel in one of those fits some day. The boy is +half insane with hysteria and self-indulgence.” + +“Well, sir,” answered Mrs. Medlock, “you’ll scarcely believe your eyes +when you see him. That plain sour-faced child that’s almost as bad as +himself has just bewitched him. How she’s done it there’s no telling. +The Lord knows she’s nothing to look at and you scarcely ever hear her +speak, but she did what none of us dare do. She just flew at him like a +little cat last night, and stamped her feet and ordered him to stop +screaming, and somehow she startled him so that he actually did stop, +and this afternoon—well just come up and see, sir. It’s past +crediting.” + +The scene which Dr. Craven beheld when he entered his patient’s room +was indeed rather astonishing to him. As Mrs. Medlock opened the door +he heard laughing and chattering. Colin was on his sofa in his +dressing-gown and he was sitting up quite straight looking at a picture +in one of the garden books and talking to the plain child who at that +moment could scarcely be called plain at all because her face was so +glowing with enjoyment. + +“Those long spires of blue ones—we’ll have a lot of those,” Colin was +announcing. “They’re called Del-phin-iums.” + +“Dickon says they’re larkspurs made big and grand,” cried Mistress +Mary. “There are clumps there already.” + +Then they saw Dr. Craven and stopped. Mary became quite still and Colin +looked fretful. + +“I am sorry to hear you were ill last night, my boy,” Dr. Craven said a +trifle nervously. He was rather a nervous man. + +“I’m better now—much better,” Colin answered, rather like a Rajah. “I’m +going out in my chair in a day or two if it is fine. I want some fresh +air.” + +Dr. Craven sat down by him and felt his pulse and looked at him +curiously. + +“It must be a very fine day,” he said, “and you must be very careful +not to tire yourself.” + +“Fresh air won’t tire me,” said the young Rajah. + +As there had been occasions when this same young gentleman had shrieked +aloud with rage and had insisted that fresh air would give him cold and +kill him, it is not to be wondered at that his doctor felt somewhat +startled. + +“I thought you did not like fresh air,” he said. + +“I don’t when I am by myself,” replied the Rajah; “but my cousin is +going out with me.” + +“And the nurse, of course?” suggested Dr. Craven. + +“No, I will not have the nurse,” so magnificently that Mary could not +help remembering how the young native Prince had looked with his +diamonds and emeralds and pearls stuck all over him and the great +rubies on the small dark hand he had waved to command his servants to +approach with salaams and receive his orders. + +“My cousin knows how to take care of me. I am always better when she is +with me. She made me better last night. A very strong boy I know will +push my carriage.” + +Dr. Craven felt rather alarmed. If this tiresome hysterical boy should +chance to get well he himself would lose all chance of inheriting +Misselthwaite; but he was not an unscrupulous man, though he was a weak +one, and he did not intend to let him run into actual danger. + +“He must be a strong boy and a steady boy,” he said. “And I must know +something about him. Who is he? What is his name?” + +“It’s Dickon,” Mary spoke up suddenly. She felt somehow that everybody +who knew the moor must know Dickon. And she was right, too. She saw +that in a moment Dr. Craven’s serious face relaxed into a relieved +smile. + +“Oh, Dickon,” he said. “If it is Dickon you will be safe enough. He’s +as strong as a moor pony, is Dickon.” + +“And he’s trusty,” said Mary. “He’s th’ trustiest lad i’ Yorkshire.” +She had been talking Yorkshire to Colin and she forgot herself. + +“Did Dickon teach you that?” asked Dr. Craven, laughing outright. + +“I’m learning it as if it was French,” said Mary rather coldly. “It’s +like a native dialect in India. Very clever people try to learn them. I +like it and so does Colin.” + +“Well, well,” he said. “If it amuses you perhaps it won’t do you any +harm. Did you take your bromide last night, Colin?” + +“No,” Colin answered. “I wouldn’t take it at first and after Mary made +me quiet she talked me to sleep—in a low voice—about the spring +creeping into a garden.” + +“That sounds soothing,” said Dr. Craven, more perplexed than ever and +glancing sideways at Mistress Mary sitting on her stool and looking +down silently at the carpet. “You are evidently better, but you must +remember—” + +“I don’t want to remember,” interrupted the Rajah, appearing again. +“When I lie by myself and remember I begin to have pains everywhere and +I think of things that make me begin to scream because I hate them so. +If there was a doctor anywhere who could make you forget you were ill +instead of remembering it I would have him brought here.” And he waved +a thin hand which ought really to have been covered with royal signet +rings made of rubies. “It is because my cousin makes me forget that she +makes me better.” + +Dr. Craven had never made such a short stay after a “tantrum”; usually +he was obliged to remain a very long time and do a great many things. +This afternoon he did not give any medicine or leave any new orders and +he was spared any disagreeable scenes. When he went downstairs he +looked very thoughtful and when he talked to Mrs. Medlock in the +library she felt that he was a much puzzled man. + +“Well, sir,” she ventured, “could you have believed it?” + +“It is certainly a new state of affairs,” said the doctor. “And there’s +no denying it is better than the old one.” + +“I believe Susan Sowerby’s right—I do that,” said Mrs. Medlock. “I +stopped in her cottage on my way to Thwaite yesterday and had a bit of +talk with her. And she says to me, ‘Well, Sarah Ann, she mayn’t be a +good child, an’ she mayn’t be a pretty one, but she’s a child, an’ +children needs children.’ We went to school together, Susan Sowerby and +me.” + +“She’s the best sick nurse I know,” said Dr. Craven. “When I find her +in a cottage I know the chances are that I shall save my patient.” + +Mrs. Medlock smiled. She was fond of Susan Sowerby. + +“She’s got a way with her, has Susan,” she went on quite volubly. “I’ve +been thinking all morning of one thing she said yesterday. She says, +‘Once when I was givin’ th’ children a bit of a preach after they’d +been fightin’ I ses to ’em all, “When I was at school my jography told +as th’ world was shaped like a orange an’ I found out before I was ten +that th’ whole orange doesn’t belong to nobody. No one owns more than +his bit of a quarter an’ there’s times it seems like there’s not enow +quarters to go round. But don’t you—none o’ you—think as you own th’ +whole orange or you’ll find out you’re mistaken, an’ you won’t find it +out without hard knocks.” ‘What children learns from children,’ she +says, ‘is that there’s no sense in grabbin’ at th’ whole orange—peel +an’ all. If you do you’ll likely not get even th’ pips, an’ them’s too +bitter to eat.’” + +“She’s a shrewd woman,” said Dr. Craven, putting on his coat. + +“Well, she’s got a way of saying things,” ended Mrs. Medlock, much +pleased. “Sometimes I’ve said to her, ‘Eh! Susan, if you was a +different woman an’ didn’t talk such broad Yorkshire I’ve seen the +times when I should have said you was clever.’” + + +That night Colin slept without once awakening and when he opened his +eyes in the morning he lay still and smiled without knowing it—smiled +because he felt so curiously comfortable. It was actually nice to be +awake, and he turned over and stretched his limbs luxuriously. He felt +as if tight strings which had held him had loosened themselves and let +him go. He did not know that Dr. Craven would have said that his nerves +had relaxed and rested themselves. Instead of lying and staring at the +wall and wishing he had not awakened, his mind was full of the plans he +and Mary had made yesterday, of pictures of the garden and of Dickon +and his wild creatures. It was so nice to have things to think about. +And he had not been awake more than ten minutes when he heard feet +running along the corridor and Mary was at the door. The next minute +she was in the room and had run across to his bed, bringing with her a +waft of fresh air full of the scent of the morning. + +“You’ve been out! You’ve been out! There’s that nice smell of leaves!” +he cried. + +She had been running and her hair was loose and blown and she was +bright with the air and pink-cheeked, though he could not see it. + +“It’s so beautiful!” she said, a little breathless with her speed. “You +never saw anything so beautiful! It has _come!_ I thought it had come +that other morning, but it was only coming. It is here now! It has +come, the Spring! Dickon says so!” + +“Has it?” cried Colin, and though he really knew nothing about it he +felt his heart beat. He actually sat up in bed. + +“Open the window!” he added, laughing half with joyful excitement and +half at his own fancy. “Perhaps we may hear golden trumpets!” + +And though he laughed, Mary was at the window in a moment and in a +moment more it was opened wide and freshness and softness and scents +and birds’ songs were pouring through. + +“That’s fresh air,” she said. “Lie on your back and draw in long +breaths of it. That’s what Dickon does when he’s lying on the moor. He +says he feels it in his veins and it makes him strong and he feels as +if he could live forever and ever. Breathe it and breathe it.” + +She was only repeating what Dickon had told her, but she caught Colin’s +fancy. + +“’Forever and ever’! Does it make him feel like that?” he said, and he +did as she told him, drawing in long deep breaths over and over again +until he felt that something quite new and delightful was happening to +him. + +Mary was at his bedside again. + +“Things are crowding up out of the earth,” she ran on in a hurry. “And +there are flowers uncurling and buds on everything and the green veil +has covered nearly all the gray and the birds are in such a hurry about +their nests for fear they may be too late that some of them are even +fighting for places in the secret garden. And the rose-bushes look as +wick as wick can be, and there are primroses in the lanes and woods, +and the seeds we planted are up, and Dickon has brought the fox and the +crow and the squirrels and a new-born lamb.” + +And then she paused for breath. The new-born lamb Dickon had found +three days before lying by its dead mother among the gorse bushes on +the moor. It was not the first motherless lamb he had found and he knew +what to do with it. He had taken it to the cottage wrapped in his +jacket and he had let it lie near the fire and had fed it with warm +milk. It was a soft thing with a darling silly baby face and legs +rather long for its body. Dickon had carried it over the moor in his +arms and its feeding bottle was in his pocket with a squirrel, and when +Mary had sat under a tree with its limp warmness huddled on her lap she +had felt as if she were too full of strange joy to speak. A lamb—a +lamb! A living lamb who lay on your lap like a baby! + +She was describing it with great joy and Colin was listening and +drawing in long breaths of air when the nurse entered. She started a +little at the sight of the open window. She had sat stifling in the +room many a warm day because her patient was sure that open windows +gave people cold. + +“Are you sure you are not chilly, Master Colin?” she inquired. + +“No,” was the answer. “I am breathing long breaths of fresh air. It +makes you strong. I am going to get up to the sofa for breakfast. My +cousin will have breakfast with me.” + +The nurse went away, concealing a smile, to give the order for two +breakfasts. She found the servants’ hall a more amusing place than the +invalid’s chamber and just now everybody wanted to hear the news from +upstairs. There was a great deal of joking about the unpopular young +recluse who, as the cook said, “had found his master, and good for +him.” The servants’ hall had been very tired of the tantrums, and the +butler, who was a man with a family, had more than once expressed his +opinion that the invalid would be all the better “for a good hiding.” + +When Colin was on his sofa and the breakfast for two was put upon the +table he made an announcement to the nurse in his most Rajah-like +manner. + +“A boy, and a fox, and a crow, and two squirrels, and a new-born lamb, +are coming to see me this morning. I want them brought upstairs as soon +as they come,” he said. “You are not to begin playing with the animals +in the servants’ hall and keep them there. I want them here.” + +The nurse gave a slight gasp and tried to conceal it with a cough. + +“Yes, sir,” she answered. + +“I’ll tell you what you can do,” added Colin, waving his hand. “You can +tell Martha to bring them here. The boy is Martha’s brother. His name +is Dickon and he is an animal charmer.” + +“I hope the animals won’t bite, Master Colin,” said the nurse. + +“I told you he was a charmer,” said Colin austerely. “Charmers’ animals +never bite.” + +“There are snake-charmers in India,” said Mary. “And they can put their +snakes’ heads in their mouths.” + +“Goodness!” shuddered the nurse. + +They ate their breakfast with the morning air pouring in upon them. +Colin’s breakfast was a very good one and Mary watched him with serious +interest. + +“You will begin to get fatter just as I did,” she said. “I never wanted +my breakfast when I was in India and now I always want it.” + +“I wanted mine this morning,” said Colin. “Perhaps it was the fresh +air. When do you think Dickon will come?” + +He was not long in coming. In about ten minutes Mary held up her hand. + +“Listen!” she said. “Did you hear a caw?” + +Colin listened and heard it, the oddest sound in the world to hear +inside a house, a hoarse “caw-caw.” + +“Yes,” he answered. + +“That’s Soot,” said Mary. “Listen again. Do you hear a bleat—a tiny +one?” + +“Oh, yes!” cried Colin, quite flushing. + +“That’s the new-born lamb,” said Mary. “He’s coming.” + +Dickon’s moorland boots were thick and clumsy and though he tried to +walk quietly they made a clumping sound as he walked through the long +corridors. Mary and Colin heard him marching—marching, until he passed +through the tapestry door on to the soft carpet of Colin’s own passage. + +“If you please, sir,” announced Martha, opening the door, “if you +please, sir, here’s Dickon an’ his creatures.” + +Dickon came in smiling his nicest wide smile. The new-born lamb was in +his arms and the little red fox trotted by his side. Nut sat on his +left shoulder and Soot on his right and Shell’s head and paws peeped +out of his coat pocket. + +Colin slowly sat up and stared and stared—as he had stared when he +first saw Mary; but this was a stare of wonder and delight. The truth +was that in spite of all he had heard he had not in the least +understood what this boy would be like and that his fox and his crow +and his squirrels and his lamb were so near to him and his friendliness +that they seemed almost to be part of himself. Colin had never talked +to a boy in his life and he was so overwhelmed by his own pleasure and +curiosity that he did not even think of speaking. + +But Dickon did not feel the least shy or awkward. He had not felt +embarrassed because the crow had not known his language and had only +stared and had not spoken to him the first time they met. Creatures +were always like that until they found out about you. He walked over to +Colin’s sofa and put the new-born lamb quietly on his lap, and +immediately the little creature turned to the warm velvet dressing-gown +and began to nuzzle and nuzzle into its folds and butt its tight-curled +head with soft impatience against his side. Of course no boy could have +helped speaking then. + +“What is it doing?” cried Colin. “What does it want?” + +“It wants its mother,” said Dickon, smiling more and more. “I brought +it to thee a bit hungry because I knowed tha’d like to see it feed.” + +He knelt down by the sofa and took a feeding-bottle from his pocket. + +“Come on, little ’un,” he said, turning the small woolly white head +with a gentle brown hand. “This is what tha’s after. Tha’ll get more +out o’ this than tha’ will out o’ silk velvet coats. There now,” and he +pushed the rubber tip of the bottle into the nuzzling mouth and the +lamb began to suck it with ravenous ecstasy. + +After that there was no wondering what to say. By the time the lamb +fell asleep questions poured forth and Dickon answered them all. He +told them how he had found the lamb just as the sun was rising three +mornings ago. He had been standing on the moor listening to a skylark +and watching him swing higher and higher into the sky until he was only +a speck in the heights of blue. + +“I’d almost lost him but for his song an’ I was wonderin’ how a chap +could hear it when it seemed as if he’d get out o’ th’ world in a +minute—an’ just then I heard somethin’ else far off among th’ gorse +bushes. It was a weak bleatin’ an’ I knowed it was a new lamb as was +hungry an’ I knowed it wouldn’t be hungry if it hadn’t lost its mother +somehow, so I set off searchin’. Eh! I did have a look for it. I went +in an’ out among th’ gorse bushes an’ round an’ round an’ I always +seemed to take th’ wrong turnin’. But at last I seed a bit o’ white by +a rock on top o’ th’ moor an’ I climbed up an’ found th’ little ’un +half dead wi’ cold an’ clemmin’.” + +While he talked, Soot flew solemnly in and out of the open window and +cawed remarks about the scenery while Nut and Shell made excursions +into the big trees outside and ran up and down trunks and explored +branches. Captain curled up near Dickon, who sat on the hearth-rug from +preference. + +They looked at the pictures in the gardening books and Dickon knew all +the flowers by their country names and knew exactly which ones were +already growing in the secret garden. + +“I couldna’ say that there name,” he said, pointing to one under which +was written “Aquilegia,” “but us calls that a columbine, an’ that there +one it’s a snapdragon and they both grow wild in hedges, but these is +garden ones an’ they’re bigger an’ grander. There’s some big clumps o’ +columbine in th’ garden. They’ll look like a bed o’ blue an’ white +butterflies flutterin’ when they’re out.” + +“I’m going to see them,” cried Colin. “I am going to see them!” + +“Aye, that tha’ mun,” said Mary quite seriously. “An’ tha’ munnot lose +no time about it.” + + + + +CHAPTER XX. +“I SHALL LIVE FOREVER—AND EVER—AND EVER!” + + +But they were obliged to wait more than a week because first there came +some very windy days and then Colin was threatened with a cold, which +two things happening one after the other would no doubt have thrown him +into a rage but that there was so much careful and mysterious planning +to do and almost every day Dickon came in, if only for a few minutes, +to talk about what was happening on the moor and in the lanes and +hedges and on the borders of streams. The things he had to tell about +otters’ and badgers’ and water-rats’ houses, not to mention birds’ +nests and field-mice and their burrows, were enough to make you almost +tremble with excitement when you heard all the intimate details from an +animal charmer and realized with what thrilling eagerness and anxiety +the whole busy underworld was working. + +“They’re same as us,” said Dickon, “only they have to build their homes +every year. An’ it keeps ’em so busy they fair scuffle to get ’em +done.” + +The most absorbing thing, however, was the preparations to be made +before Colin could be transported with sufficient secrecy to the +garden. No one must see the chair-carriage and Dickon and Mary after +they turned a certain corner of the shrubbery and entered upon the walk +outside the ivied walls. As each day passed, Colin had become more and +more fixed in his feeling that the mystery surrounding the garden was +one of its greatest charms. Nothing must spoil that. No one must ever +suspect that they had a secret. People must think that he was simply +going out with Mary and Dickon because he liked them and did not object +to their looking at him. They had long and quite delightful talks about +their route. They would go up this path and down that one and cross the +other and go round among the fountain flower-beds as if they were +looking at the “bedding-out plants” the head gardener, Mr. Roach, had +been having arranged. That would seem such a rational thing to do that +no one would think it at all mysterious. They would turn into the +shrubbery walks and lose themselves until they came to the long walls. +It was almost as serious and elaborately thought out as the plans of +march made by great generals in time of war. + +Rumors of the new and curious things which were occurring in the +invalid’s apartments had of course filtered through the servants’ hall +into the stable yards and out among the gardeners, but notwithstanding +this, Mr. Roach was startled one day when he received orders from +Master Colin’s room to the effect that he must report himself in the +apartment no outsider had ever seen, as the invalid himself desired to +speak to him. + +“Well, well,” he said to himself as he hurriedly changed his coat, +“what’s to do now? His Royal Highness that wasn’t to be looked at +calling up a man he’s never set eyes on.” + +Mr. Roach was not without curiosity. He had never caught even a glimpse +of the boy and had heard a dozen exaggerated stories about his uncanny +looks and ways and his insane tempers. The thing he had heard oftenest +was that he might die at any moment and there had been numerous +fanciful descriptions of a humped back and helpless limbs, given by +people who had never seen him. + +“Things are changing in this house, Mr. Roach,” said Mrs. Medlock, as +she led him up the back staircase to the corridor on to which opened +the hitherto mysterious chamber. + +“Let’s hope they’re changing for the better, Mrs. Medlock,” he +answered. + +“They couldn’t well change for the worse,” she continued; “and queer as +it all is there’s them as finds their duties made a lot easier to stand +up under. Don’t you be surprised, Mr. Roach, if you find yourself in +the middle of a menagerie and Martha Sowerby’s Dickon more at home than +you or me could ever be.” + +There really was a sort of Magic about Dickon, as Mary always privately +believed. When Mr. Roach heard his name he smiled quite leniently. + +“He’d be at home in Buckingham Palace or at the bottom of a coal mine,” +he said. “And yet it’s not impudence, either. He’s just fine, is that +lad.” + +It was perhaps well he had been prepared or he might have been +startled. When the bedroom door was opened a large crow, which seemed +quite at home perched on the high back of a carven chair, announced the +entrance of a visitor by saying “Caw—Caw” quite loudly. In spite of +Mrs. Medlock’s warning, Mr. Roach only just escaped being sufficiently +undignified to jump backward. + +The young Rajah was neither in bed nor on his sofa. He was sitting in +an armchair and a young lamb was standing by him shaking its tail in +feeding-lamb fashion as Dickon knelt giving it milk from its bottle. A +squirrel was perched on Dickon’s bent back attentively nibbling a nut. +The little girl from India was sitting on a big footstool looking on. + +“Here is Mr. Roach, Master Colin,” said Mrs. Medlock. + +The young Rajah turned and looked his servitor over—at least that was +what the head gardener felt happened. + +“Oh, you are Roach, are you?” he said. “I sent for you to give you some +very important orders.” + +“Very good, sir,” answered Roach, wondering if he was to receive +instructions to fell all the oaks in the park or to transform the +orchards into water-gardens. + +“I am going out in my chair this afternoon,” said Colin. “If the fresh +air agrees with me I may go out every day. When I go, none of the +gardeners are to be anywhere near the Long Walk by the garden walls. No +one is to be there. I shall go out about two o’clock and everyone must +keep away until I send word that they may go back to their work.” + +“Very good, sir,” replied Mr. Roach, much relieved to hear that the +oaks might remain and that the orchards were safe. + +“Mary,” said Colin, turning to her, “what is that thing you say in +India when you have finished talking and want people to go?” + +“You say, ‘You have my permission to go,’” answered Mary. + +The Rajah waved his hand. + +“You have my permission to go, Roach,” he said. “But, remember, this is +very important.” + +“Caw—Caw!” remarked the crow hoarsely but not impolitely. + +“Very good, sir. Thank you, sir,” said Mr. Roach, and Mrs. Medlock took +him out of the room. + +Outside in the corridor, being a rather good-natured man, he smiled +until he almost laughed. + +“My word!” he said, “he’s got a fine lordly way with him, hasn’t he? +You’d think he was a whole Royal Family rolled into one—Prince Consort +and all.” + +“Eh!” protested Mrs. Medlock, “we’ve had to let him trample all over +everyone of us ever since he had feet and he thinks that’s what folks +was born for.” + +“Perhaps he’ll grow out of it, if he lives,” suggested Mr. Roach. + +“Well, there’s one thing pretty sure,” said Mrs. Medlock. “If he does +live and that Indian child stays here I’ll warrant she teaches him that +the whole orange does not belong to him, as Susan Sowerby says. And +he’ll be likely to find out the size of his own quarter.” + +Inside the room Colin was leaning back on his cushions. + +“It’s all safe now,” he said. “And this afternoon I shall see it—this +afternoon I shall be in it!” + +Dickon went back to the garden with his creatures and Mary stayed with +Colin. She did not think he looked tired but he was very quiet before +their lunch came and he was quiet while they were eating it. She +wondered why and asked him about it. + +“What big eyes you’ve got, Colin,” she said. “When you are thinking +they get as big as saucers. What are you thinking about now?” + +“I can’t help thinking about what it will look like,” he answered. + +“The garden?” asked Mary. + +“The springtime,” he said. “I was thinking that I’ve really never seen +it before. I scarcely ever went out and when I did go I never looked at +it. I didn’t even think about it.” + +“I never saw it in India because there wasn’t any,” said Mary. + +Shut in and morbid as his life had been, Colin had more imagination +than she had and at least he had spent a good deal of time looking at +wonderful books and pictures. + +“That morning when you ran in and said ‘It’s come! It’s come!’, you +made me feel quite queer. It sounded as if things were coming with a +great procession and big bursts and wafts of music. I’ve a picture like +it in one of my books—crowds of lovely people and children with +garlands and branches with blossoms on them, everyone laughing and +dancing and crowding and playing on pipes. That was why I said, +‘Perhaps we shall hear golden trumpets’ and told you to throw open the +window.” + +“How funny!” said Mary. “That’s really just what it feels like. And if +all the flowers and leaves and green things and birds and wild +creatures danced past at once, what a crowd it would be! I’m sure +they’d dance and sing and flute and that would be the wafts of music.” + +They both laughed but it was not because the idea was laughable but +because they both so liked it. + +A little later the nurse made Colin ready. She noticed that instead of +lying like a log while his clothes were put on he sat up and made some +efforts to help himself, and he talked and laughed with Mary all the +time. + +“This is one of his good days, sir,” she said to Dr. Craven, who +dropped in to inspect him. “He’s in such good spirits that it makes him +stronger.” + +“I’ll call in again later in the afternoon, after he has come in,” said +Dr. Craven. “I must see how the going out agrees with him. I wish,” in +a very low voice, “that he would let you go with him.” + +“I’d rather give up the case this moment, sir, than even stay here +while it’s suggested,” answered the nurse. With sudden firmness. + +“I hadn’t really decided to suggest it,” said the doctor, with his +slight nervousness. “We’ll try the experiment. Dickon’s a lad I’d trust +with a new-born child.” + +The strongest footman in the house carried Colin downstairs and put him +in his wheeled chair near which Dickon waited outside. After the +manservant had arranged his rugs and cushions the Rajah waved his hand +to him and to the nurse. + +“You have my permission to go,” he said, and they both disappeared +quickly and it must be confessed giggled when they were safely inside +the house. + +Dickon began to push the wheeled chair slowly and steadily. Mistress +Mary walked beside it and Colin leaned back and lifted his face to the +sky. The arch of it looked very high and the small snowy clouds seemed +like white birds floating on outspread wings below its crystal +blueness. The wind swept in soft big breaths down from the moor and was +strange with a wild clear scented sweetness. Colin kept lifting his +thin chest to draw it in, and his big eyes looked as if it were they +which were listening—listening, instead of his ears. + +“There are so many sounds of singing and humming and calling out,” he +said. “What is that scent the puffs of wind bring?” + +“It’s gorse on th’ moor that’s openin’ out,” answered Dickon. “Eh! th’ +bees are at it wonderful today.” + +Not a human creature was to be caught sight of in the paths they took. +In fact every gardener or gardener’s lad had been witched away. But +they wound in and out among the shrubbery and out and round the +fountain beds, following their carefully planned route for the mere +mysterious pleasure of it. But when at last they turned into the Long +Walk by the ivied walls the excited sense of an approaching thrill made +them, for some curious reason they could not have explained, begin to +speak in whispers. + +“This is it,” breathed Mary. “This is where I used to walk up and down +and wonder and wonder.” + +“Is it?” cried Colin, and his eyes began to search the ivy with eager +curiousness. “But I can see nothing,” he whispered. “There is no door.” + +“That’s what I thought,” said Mary. + +Then there was a lovely breathless silence and the chair wheeled on. + +“That is the garden where Ben Weatherstaff works,” said Mary. + +“Is it?” said Colin. + +A few yards more and Mary whispered again. + +“This is where the robin flew over the wall,” she said. + +“Is it?” cried Colin. “Oh! I wish he’d come again!” + +“And that,” said Mary with solemn delight, pointing under a big lilac +bush, “is where he perched on the little heap of earth and showed me +the key.” + +Then Colin sat up. + +“Where? Where? There?” he cried, and his eyes were as big as the wolf’s +in Red Riding-Hood, when Red Riding-Hood felt called upon to remark on +them. Dickon stood still and the wheeled chair stopped. + +“And this,” said Mary, stepping on to the bed close to the ivy, “is +where I went to talk to him when he chirped at me from the top of the +wall. And this is the ivy the wind blew back,” and she took hold of the +hanging green curtain. + +“Oh! is it—is it!” gasped Colin. + +“And here is the handle, and here is the door. Dickon push him in—push +him in quickly!” + +And Dickon did it with one strong, steady, splendid push. + +But Colin had actually dropped back against his cushions, even though +he gasped with delight, and he had covered his eyes with his hands and +held them there shutting out everything until they were inside and the +chair stopped as if by magic and the door was closed. Not till then did +he take them away and look round and round and round as Dickon and Mary +had done. And over walls and earth and trees and swinging sprays and +tendrils the fair green veil of tender little leaves had crept, and in +the grass under the trees and the gray urns in the alcoves and here and +there everywhere were touches or splashes of gold and purple and white +and the trees were showing pink and snow above his head and there were +fluttering of wings and faint sweet pipes and humming and scents and +scents. And the sun fell warm upon his face like a hand with a lovely +touch. And in wonder Mary and Dickon stood and stared at him. He looked +so strange and different because a pink glow of color had actually +crept all over him—ivory face and neck and hands and all. + +“I shall get well! I shall get well!” he cried out. “Mary! Dickon! I +shall get well! And I shall live forever and ever and ever!” + + + + +CHAPTER XXI. +BEN WEATHERSTAFF + + +One of the strange things about living in the world is that it is only +now and then one is quite sure one is going to live forever and ever +and ever. One knows it sometimes when one gets up at the tender solemn +dawn-time and goes out and stands alone and throws one’s head far back +and looks up and up and watches the pale sky slowly changing and +flushing and marvelous unknown things happening until the East almost +makes one cry out and one’s heart stands still at the strange +unchanging majesty of the rising of the sun—which has been happening +every morning for thousands and thousands and thousands of years. One +knows it then for a moment or so. And one knows it sometimes when one +stands by oneself in a wood at sunset and the mysterious deep gold +stillness slanting through and under the branches seems to be saying +slowly again and again something one cannot quite hear, however much +one tries. Then sometimes the immense quiet of the dark blue at night +with millions of stars waiting and watching makes one sure; and +sometimes a sound of far-off music makes it true; and sometimes a look +in someone’s eyes. + +And it was like that with Colin when he first saw and heard and felt +the Springtime inside the four high walls of a hidden garden. That +afternoon the whole world seemed to devote itself to being perfect and +radiantly beautiful and kind to one boy. Perhaps out of pure heavenly +goodness the spring came and crowded everything it possibly could into +that one place. More than once Dickon paused in what he was doing and +stood still with a sort of growing wonder in his eyes, shaking his head +softly. + +“Eh! it is graidely,” he said. “I’m twelve goin’ on thirteen an’ +there’s a lot o’ afternoons in thirteen years, but seems to me like I +never seed one as graidely as this ’ere.” + +“Aye, it is a graidely one,” said Mary, and she sighed for mere joy. +“I’ll warrant it’s the graidelest one as ever was in this world.” + +“Does tha’ think,” said Colin with dreamy carefulness, “as happen it +was made loike this ’ere all o’ purpose for me?” + +“My word!” cried Mary admiringly, “that there is a bit o’ good +Yorkshire. Tha’rt shapin’ first-rate—that tha’ art.” + +And delight reigned. + +They drew the chair under the plum-tree, which was snow-white with +blossoms and musical with bees. It was like a king’s canopy, a fairy +king’s. There were flowering cherry-trees near and apple-trees whose +buds were pink and white, and here and there one had burst open wide. +Between the blossoming branches of the canopy bits of blue sky looked +down like wonderful eyes. + +Mary and Dickon worked a little here and there and Colin watched them. +They brought him things to look at—buds which were opening, buds which +were tight closed, bits of twig whose leaves were just showing green, +the feather of a woodpecker which had dropped on the grass, the empty +shell of some bird early hatched. Dickon pushed the chair slowly round +and round the garden, stopping every other moment to let him look at +wonders springing out of the earth or trailing down from trees. It was +like being taken in state round the country of a magic king and queen +and shown all the mysterious riches it contained. + +“I wonder if we shall see the robin?” said Colin. + +“Tha’ll see him often enow after a bit,” answered Dickon. “When th’ +eggs hatches out th’ little chap he’ll be kep’ so busy it’ll make his +head swim. Tha’ll see him flyin’ backward an’ for’ard carryin’ worms +nigh as big as himsel’ an’ that much noise goin’ on in th’ nest when he +gets there as fair flusters him so as he scarce knows which big mouth +to drop th’ first piece in. An’ gapin’ beaks an’ squawks on every side. +Mother says as when she sees th’ work a robin has to keep them gapin’ +beaks filled, she feels like she was a lady with nothin’ to do. She +says she’s seen th’ little chaps when it seemed like th’ sweat must be +droppin’ off ’em, though folk can’t see it.” + +This made them giggle so delightedly that they were obliged to cover +their mouths with their hands, remembering that they must not be heard. +Colin had been instructed as to the law of whispers and low voices +several days before. He liked the mysteriousness of it and did his +best, but in the midst of excited enjoyment it is rather difficult +never to laugh above a whisper. + +Every moment of the afternoon was full of new things and every hour the +sunshine grew more golden. The wheeled chair had been drawn back under +the canopy and Dickon had sat down on the grass and had just drawn out +his pipe when Colin saw something he had not had time to notice before. + +“That’s a very old tree over there, isn’t it?” he said. + +Dickon looked across the grass at the tree and Mary looked and there +was a brief moment of stillness. + +“Yes,” answered Dickon, after it, and his low voice had a very gentle +sound. + +Mary gazed at the tree and thought. + +“The branches are quite gray and there’s not a single leaf anywhere,” +Colin went on. “It’s quite dead, isn’t it?” + +“Aye,” admitted Dickon. “But them roses as has climbed all over it will +near hide every bit o’ th’ dead wood when they’re full o’ leaves an’ +flowers. It won’t look dead then. It’ll be th’ prettiest of all.” + +Mary still gazed at the tree and thought. + +“It looks as if a big branch had been broken off,” said Colin. “I +wonder how it was done.” + +“It’s been done many a year,” answered Dickon. “Eh!” with a sudden +relieved start and laying his hand on Colin. “Look at that robin! There +he is! He’s been foragin’ for his mate.” + +Colin was almost too late but he just caught sight of him, the flash of +red-breasted bird with something in his beak. He darted through the +greenness and into the close-grown corner and was out of sight. Colin +leaned back on his cushion again, laughing a little. + +“He’s taking her tea to her. Perhaps it’s five o’clock. I think I’d +like some tea myself.” + +And so they were safe. + +“It was Magic which sent the robin,” said Mary secretly to Dickon +afterward. “I know it was Magic.” For both she and Dickon had been +afraid Colin might ask something about the tree whose branch had broken +off ten years ago and they had talked it over together and Dickon had +stood and rubbed his head in a troubled way. + +“We mun look as if it wasn’t no different from th’ other trees,” he had +said. “We couldn’t never tell him how it broke, poor lad. If he says +anything about it we mun—we mun try to look cheerful.” + +“Aye, that we mun,” had answered Mary. + +But she had not felt as if she looked cheerful when she gazed at the +tree. She wondered and wondered in those few moments if there was any +reality in that other thing Dickon had said. He had gone on rubbing his +rust-red hair in a puzzled way, but a nice comforted look had begun to +grow in his blue eyes. + +“Mrs. Craven was a very lovely young lady,” he had gone on rather +hesitatingly. “An’ mother she thinks maybe she’s about Misselthwaite +many a time lookin’ after Mester Colin, same as all mothers do when +they’re took out o’ th’ world. They have to come back, tha’ sees. +Happen she’s been in the garden an’ happen it was her set us to work, +an’ told us to bring him here.” + +Mary had thought he meant something about Magic. She was a great +believer in Magic. Secretly she quite believed that Dickon worked +Magic, of course good Magic, on everything near him and that was why +people liked him so much and wild creatures knew he was their friend. +She wondered, indeed, if it were not possible that his gift had brought +the robin just at the right moment when Colin asked that dangerous +question. She felt that his Magic was working all the afternoon and +making Colin look like an entirely different boy. It did not seem +possible that he could be the crazy creature who had screamed and +beaten and bitten his pillow. Even his ivory whiteness seemed to +change. The faint glow of color which had shown on his face and neck +and hands when he first got inside the garden really never quite died +away. He looked as if he were made of flesh instead of ivory or wax. + +They saw the robin carry food to his mate two or three times, and it +was so suggestive of afternoon tea that Colin felt they must have some. + +“Go and make one of the men servants bring some in a basket to the +rhododendron walk,” he said. “And then you and Dickon can bring it +here.” + +It was an agreeable idea, easily carried out, and when the white cloth +was spread upon the grass, with hot tea and buttered toast and +crumpets, a delightfully hungry meal was eaten, and several birds on +domestic errands paused to inquire what was going on and were led into +investigating crumbs with great activity. Nut and Shell whisked up +trees with pieces of cake and Soot took the entire half of a buttered +crumpet into a corner and pecked at and examined and turned it over and +made hoarse remarks about it until he decided to swallow it all +joyfully in one gulp. + +The afternoon was dragging towards its mellow hour. The sun was +deepening the gold of its lances, the bees were going home and the +birds were flying past less often. Dickon and Mary were sitting on the +grass, the tea-basket was repacked ready to be taken back to the house, +and Colin was lying against his cushions with his heavy locks pushed +back from his forehead and his face looking quite a natural color. + +“I don’t want this afternoon to go,” he said; “but I shall come back +tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after, and the day after.” + +“You’ll get plenty of fresh air, won’t you?” said Mary. + +“I’m going to get nothing else,” he answered. “I’ve seen the spring now +and I’m going to see the summer. I’m going to see everything grow here. +I’m going to grow here myself.” + +“That tha’ will,” said Dickon. “Us’ll have thee walkin’ about here an’ +diggin’ same as other folk afore long.” + +Colin flushed tremendously. + +“Walk!” he said. “Dig! Shall I?” + +Dickon’s glance at him was delicately cautious. Neither he nor Mary had +ever asked if anything was the matter with his legs. + +“For sure tha’ will,” he said stoutly. “Tha—tha’s got legs o’ thine +own, same as other folks!” + +Mary was rather frightened until she heard Colin’s answer. + +“Nothing really ails them,” he said, “but they are so thin and weak. +They shake so that I’m afraid to try to stand on them.” + +Both Mary and Dickon drew a relieved breath. + +“When tha’ stops bein’ afraid tha’lt stand on ’em,” Dickon said with +renewed cheer. “An’ tha’lt stop bein’ afraid in a bit.” + +“I shall?” said Colin, and he lay still as if he were wondering about +things. + +They were really very quiet for a little while. The sun was dropping +lower. It was that hour when everything stills itself, and they really +had had a busy and exciting afternoon. Colin looked as if he were +resting luxuriously. Even the creatures had ceased moving about and had +drawn together and were resting near them. Soot had perched on a low +branch and drawn up one leg and dropped the gray film drowsily over his +eyes. Mary privately thought he looked as if he might snore in a +minute. + +In the midst of this stillness it was rather startling when Colin half +lifted his head and exclaimed in a loud suddenly alarmed whisper: + +“Who is that man?” + +Dickon and Mary scrambled to their feet. + +“Man!” they both cried in low quick voices. + +Colin pointed to the high wall. + +“Look!” he whispered excitedly. “Just look!” + +Mary and Dickon wheeled about and looked. There was Ben Weatherstaff’s +indignant face glaring at them over the wall from the top of a ladder! +He actually shook his fist at Mary. + +“If I wasn’t a bachelder, an’ tha’ was a wench o’ mine,” he cried, “I’d +give thee a hidin’!” + +He mounted another step threateningly as if it were his energetic +intention to jump down and deal with her; but as she came toward him he +evidently thought better of it and stood on the top step of his ladder +shaking his fist down at her. + +“I never thowt much o’ thee!” he harangued. “I couldna’ abide thee th’ +first time I set eyes on thee. A scrawny buttermilk-faced young besom, +allus askin’ questions an’ pokin’ tha’ nose where it wasna, wanted. I +never knowed how tha’ got so thick wi’ me. If it hadna’ been for th’ +robin— Drat him—” + +“Ben Weatherstaff,” called out Mary, finding her breath. She stood +below him and called up to him with a sort of gasp. “Ben Weatherstaff, +it was the robin who showed me the way!” + +Then it did seem as if Ben really would scramble down on her side of +the wall, he was so outraged. + +“Tha’ young bad ’un!” he called down at her. “Layin’ tha’ badness on a +robin—not but what he’s impidint enow for anythin’. Him showin’ thee +th’ way! Him! Eh! tha’ young nowt”—she could see his next words burst +out because he was overpowered by curiosity—“however i’ this world did +tha’ get in?” + +“It was the robin who showed me the way,” she protested obstinately. +“He didn’t know he was doing it but he did. And I can’t tell you from +here while you’re shaking your fist at me.” + +He stopped shaking his fist very suddenly at that very moment and his +jaw actually dropped as he stared over her head at something he saw +coming over the grass toward him. + +At the first sound of his torrent of words Colin had been so surprised +that he had only sat up and listened as if he were spellbound. But in +the midst of it he had recovered himself and beckoned imperiously to +Dickon. + +“Wheel me over there!” he commanded. “Wheel me quite close and stop +right in front of him!” + +And this, if you please, this is what Ben Weatherstaff beheld and which +made his jaw drop. A wheeled chair with luxurious cushions and robes +which came toward him looking rather like some sort of State Coach +because a young Rajah leaned back in it with royal command in his great +black-rimmed eyes and a thin white hand extended haughtily toward him. +And it stopped right under Ben Weatherstaff’s nose. It was really no +wonder his mouth dropped open. + +“Do you know who I am?” demanded the Rajah. + +How Ben Weatherstaff stared! His red old eyes fixed themselves on what +was before him as if he were seeing a ghost. He gazed and gazed and +gulped a lump down his throat and did not say a word. + +“Do you know who I am?” demanded Colin still more imperiously. +“Answer!” + +Ben Weatherstaff put his gnarled hand up and passed it over his eyes +and over his forehead and then he did answer in a queer shaky voice. + +“Who tha’ art?” he said. “Aye, that I do—wi’ tha’ mother’s eyes starin’ +at me out o’ tha’ face. Lord knows how tha’ come here. But tha’rt th’ +poor cripple.” + +Colin forgot that he had ever had a back. His face flushed scarlet and +he sat bolt upright. + +“I’m not a cripple!” he cried out furiously. “I’m not!” + +“He’s not!” cried Mary, almost shouting up the wall in her fierce +indignation. “He’s not got a lump as big as a pin! I looked and there +was none there—not one!” + +Ben Weatherstaff passed his hand over his forehead again and gazed as +if he could never gaze enough. His hand shook and his mouth shook and +his voice shook. He was an ignorant old man and a tactless old man and +he could only remember the things he had heard. + +“Tha’—tha’ hasn’t got a crooked back?” he said hoarsely. + +“No!” shouted Colin. + +“Tha’—tha’ hasn’t got crooked legs?” quavered Ben more hoarsely yet. + +It was too much. The strength which Colin usually threw into his +tantrums rushed through him now in a new way. Never yet had he been +accused of crooked legs—even in whispers—and the perfectly simple +belief in their existence which was revealed by Ben Weatherstaff’s +voice was more than Rajah flesh and blood could endure. His anger and +insulted pride made him forget everything but this one moment and +filled him with a power he had never known before, an almost unnatural +strength. + +“Come here!” he shouted to Dickon, and he actually began to tear the +coverings off his lower limbs and disentangle himself. “Come here! Come +here! This minute!” + +Dickon was by his side in a second. Mary caught her breath in a short +gasp and felt herself turn pale. + +“He can do it! He can do it! He can do it! He can!” she gabbled over to +herself under her breath as fast as ever she could. + +There was a brief fierce scramble, the rugs were tossed on the ground, +Dickon held Colin’s arm, the thin legs were out, the thin feet were on +the grass. Colin was standing upright—upright—as straight as an arrow +and looking strangely tall—his head thrown back and his strange eyes +flashing lightning. + +“Look at me!” he flung up at Ben Weatherstaff. “Just look at me—you! +Just look at me!” + +“He’s as straight as I am!” cried Dickon. “He’s as straight as any lad +i’ Yorkshire!” + +What Ben Weatherstaff did Mary thought queer beyond measure. He choked +and gulped and suddenly tears ran down his weather-wrinkled cheeks as +he struck his old hands together. + +“Eh!” he burst forth, “th’ lies folk tells! Tha’rt as thin as a lath +an’ as white as a wraith, but there’s not a knob on thee. Tha’lt make a +mon yet. God bless thee!” + +Dickon held Colin’s arm strongly but the boy had not begun to falter. +He stood straighter and straighter and looked Ben Weatherstaff in the +face. + +“I’m your master,” he said, “when my father is away. And you are to +obey me. This is my garden. Don’t dare to say a word about it! You get +down from that ladder and go out to the Long Walk and Miss Mary will +meet you and bring you here. I want to talk to you. We did not want +you, but now you will have to be in the secret. Be quick!” + +Ben Weatherstaff’s crabbed old face was still wet with that one queer +rush of tears. It seemed as if he could not take his eyes from thin +straight Colin standing on his feet with his head thrown back. + +“Eh! lad,” he almost whispered. “Eh! my lad!” And then remembering +himself he suddenly touched his hat gardener fashion and said, “Yes, +sir! Yes, sir!” and obediently disappeared as he descended the ladder. + + + + +CHAPTER XXII. +WHEN THE SUN WENT DOWN + + +When his head was out of sight Colin turned to Mary. + +“Go and meet him,” he said; and Mary flew across the grass to the door +under the ivy. + +Dickon was watching him with sharp eyes. There were scarlet spots on +his cheeks and he looked amazing, but he showed no signs of falling. + +“I can stand,” he said, and his head was still held up and he said it +quite grandly. + +“I told thee tha’ could as soon as tha’ stopped bein’ afraid,” answered +Dickon. “An’ tha’s stopped.” + +“Yes, I’ve stopped,” said Colin. + +Then suddenly he remembered something Mary had said. + +“Are you making Magic?” he asked sharply. + +Dickon’s curly mouth spread in a cheerful grin. + +“Tha’s doin’ Magic thysel’,” he said. “It’s same Magic as made these +’ere work out o’ th’ earth,” and he touched with his thick boot a clump +of crocuses in the grass. + +Colin looked down at them. + +“Aye,” he said slowly, “there couldna’ be bigger Magic than that +there—there couldna’ be.” + +He drew himself up straighter than ever. + +“I’m going to walk to that tree,” he said, pointing to one a few feet +away from him. “I’m going to be standing when Weatherstaff comes here. +I can rest against the tree if I like. When I want to sit down I will +sit down, but not before. Bring a rug from the chair.” + +He walked to the tree and though Dickon held his arm he was wonderfully +steady. When he stood against the tree trunk it was not too plain that +he supported himself against it, and he still held himself so straight +that he looked tall. + +When Ben Weatherstaff came through the door in the wall he saw him +standing there and he heard Mary muttering something under her breath. + +“What art sayin’?” he asked rather testily because he did not want his +attention distracted from the long thin straight boy figure and proud +face. + +But she did not tell him. What she was saying was this: + +“You can do it! You can do it! I told you you could! You can do it! You +can do it! You _can!_” + +She was saying it to Colin because she wanted to make Magic and keep +him on his feet looking like that. She could not bear that he should +give in before Ben Weatherstaff. He did not give in. She was uplifted +by a sudden feeling that he looked quite beautiful in spite of his +thinness. He fixed his eyes on Ben Weatherstaff in his funny imperious +way. + +“Look at me!” he commanded. “Look at me all over! Am I a hunchback? +Have I got crooked legs?” + +Ben Weatherstaff had not quite got over his emotion, but he had +recovered a little and answered almost in his usual way. + +“Not tha’,” he said. “Nowt o’ th’ sort. What’s tha’ been doin’ with +thysel’—hidin’ out o’ sight an’ lettin’ folk think tha’ was cripple an’ +half-witted?” + +“Half-witted!” said Colin angrily. “Who thought that?” + +“Lots o’ fools,” said Ben. “Th’ world’s full o’ jackasses brayin’ an’ +they never bray nowt but lies. What did tha’ shut thysel’ up for?” + +“Everyone thought I was going to die,” said Colin shortly. “I’m not!” + +And he said it with such decision Ben Weatherstaff looked him over, up +and down, down and up. + +“Tha’ die!” he said with dry exultation. “Nowt o’ th’ sort! Tha’s got +too much pluck in thee. When I seed thee put tha’ legs on th’ ground in +such a hurry I knowed tha’ was all right. Sit thee down on th’ rug a +bit young Mester an’ give me thy orders.” + +There was a queer mixture of crabbed tenderness and shrewd +understanding in his manner. Mary had poured out speech as rapidly as +she could as they had come down the Long Walk. The chief thing to be +remembered, she had told him, was that Colin was getting well—getting +well. The garden was doing it. No one must let him remember about +having humps and dying. + +The Rajah condescended to seat himself on a rug under the tree. + +“What work do you do in the gardens, Weatherstaff?” he inquired. + +“Anythin’ I’m told to do,” answered old Ben. “I’m kep’ on by +favor—because she liked me.” + +“She?” said Colin. + +“Tha’ mother,” answered Ben Weatherstaff. + +“My mother?” said Colin, and he looked about him quietly. “This was her +garden, wasn’t it?” + +“Aye, it was that!” and Ben Weatherstaff looked about him too. “She +were main fond of it.” + +“It is my garden now. I am fond of it. I shall come here every day,” +announced Colin. “But it is to be a secret. My orders are that no one +is to know that we come here. Dickon and my cousin have worked and made +it come alive. I shall send for you sometimes to help—but you must come +when no one can see you.” + +Ben Weatherstaff’s face twisted itself in a dry old smile. + +“I’ve come here before when no one saw me,” he said. + +“What!” exclaimed Colin. “When?” + +“Th’ last time I was here,” rubbing his chin and looking round, “was +about two year’ ago.” + +“But no one has been in it for ten years!” cried Colin. + +“There was no door!” + +“I’m no one,” said old Ben dryly. “An’ I didn’t come through th’ door. +I come over th’ wall. Th’ rheumatics held me back th’ last two year’.” + +“Tha’ come an’ did a bit o’ prunin’!” cried Dickon. “I couldn’t make +out how it had been done.” + +“She was so fond of it—she was!” said Ben Weatherstaff slowly. “An’ she +was such a pretty young thing. She says to me once, ‘Ben,’ says she +laughin’, ‘if ever I’m ill or if I go away you must take care of my +roses.’ When she did go away th’ orders was no one was ever to come +nigh. But I come,” with grumpy obstinacy. “Over th’ wall I come—until +th’ rheumatics stopped me—an’ I did a bit o’ work once a year. She’d +gave her order first.” + +“It wouldn’t have been as wick as it is if tha’ hadn’t done it,” said +Dickon. “I did wonder.” + +“I’m glad you did it, Weatherstaff,” said Colin. “You’ll know how to +keep the secret.” + +“Aye, I’ll know, sir,” answered Ben. “An’ it’ll be easier for a man wi’ +rheumatics to come in at th’ door.” + +On the grass near the tree Mary had dropped her trowel. Colin stretched +out his hand and took it up. An odd expression came into his face and +he began to scratch at the earth. His thin hand was weak enough but +presently as they watched him—Mary with quite breathless interest—he +drove the end of the trowel into the soil and turned some over. + +“You can do it! You can do it!” said Mary to herself. “I tell you, you +can!” + +Dickon’s round eyes were full of eager curiousness but he said not a +word. Ben Weatherstaff looked on with interested face. + +Colin persevered. After he had turned a few trowelfuls of soil he spoke +exultantly to Dickon in his best Yorkshire. + +“Tha’ said as tha’d have me walkin’ about here same as other folk—an’ +tha’ said tha’d have me diggin’. I thowt tha’ was just leein’ to please +me. This is only th’ first day an’ I’ve walked—an’ here I am diggin’.” + +Ben Weatherstaff’s mouth fell open again when he heard him, but he +ended by chuckling. + +“Eh!” he said, “that sounds as if tha’d got wits enow. Tha’rt a +Yorkshire lad for sure. An’ tha’rt diggin’, too. How’d tha’ like to +plant a bit o’ somethin’? I can get thee a rose in a pot.” + +“Go and get it!” said Colin, digging excitedly. “Quick! Quick!” + +It was done quickly enough indeed. Ben Weatherstaff went his way +forgetting rheumatics. Dickon took his spade and dug the hole deeper +and wider than a new digger with thin white hands could make it. Mary +slipped out to run and bring back a watering-can. When Dickon had +deepened the hole Colin went on turning the soft earth over and over. +He looked up at the sky, flushed and glowing with the strangely new +exercise, slight as it was. + +“I want to do it before the sun goes quite—quite down,” he said. + +Mary thought that perhaps the sun held back a few minutes just on +purpose. Ben Weatherstaff brought the rose in its pot from the +greenhouse. He hobbled over the grass as fast as he could. He had begun +to be excited, too. He knelt down by the hole and broke the pot from +the mould. + +“Here, lad,” he said, handing the plant to Colin. “Set it in the earth +thysel’ same as th’ king does when he goes to a new place.” + +The thin white hands shook a little and Colin’s flush grew deeper as he +set the rose in the mould and held it while old Ben made firm the +earth. It was filled in and pressed down and made steady. Mary was +leaning forward on her hands and knees. Soot had flown down and marched +forward to see what was being done. Nut and Shell chattered about it +from a cherry-tree. + +“It’s planted!” said Colin at last. “And the sun is only slipping over +the edge. Help me up, Dickon. I want to be standing when it goes. +That’s part of the Magic.” + +And Dickon helped him, and the Magic—or whatever it was—so gave him +strength that when the sun did slip over the edge and end the strange +lovely afternoon for them there he actually stood on his two +feet—laughing. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII. +MAGIC + + +Dr. Craven had been waiting some time at the house when they returned +to it. He had indeed begun to wonder if it might not be wise to send +someone out to explore the garden paths. When Colin was brought back to +his room the poor man looked him over seriously. + +“You should not have stayed so long,” he said. “You must not overexert +yourself.” + +“I am not tired at all,” said Colin. “It has made me well. Tomorrow I +am going out in the morning as well as in the afternoon.” + +“I am not sure that I can allow it,” answered Dr. Craven. “I am afraid +it would not be wise.” + +“It would not be wise to try to stop me,” said Colin quite seriously. +“I am going.” + +Even Mary had found out that one of Colin’s chief peculiarities was +that he did not know in the least what a rude little brute he was with +his way of ordering people about. He had lived on a sort of desert +island all his life and as he had been the king of it he had made his +own manners and had had no one to compare himself with. Mary had indeed +been rather like him herself and since she had been at Misselthwaite +had gradually discovered that her own manners had not been of the kind +which is usual or popular. Having made this discovery she naturally +thought it of enough interest to communicate to Colin. So she sat and +looked at him curiously for a few minutes after Dr. Craven had gone. +She wanted to make him ask her why she was doing it and of course she +did. + +“What are you looking at me for?” he said. + +“I’m thinking that I am rather sorry for Dr. Craven.” + +“So am I,” said Colin calmly, but not without an air of some +satisfaction. “He won’t get Misselthwaite at all now I’m not going to +die.” + +“I’m sorry for him because of that, of course,” said Mary, “but I was +thinking just then that it must have been very horrid to have had to be +polite for ten years to a boy who was always rude. I would never have +done it.” + +“Am I rude?” Colin inquired undisturbedly. + +“If you had been his own boy and he had been a slapping sort of man,” +said Mary, “he would have slapped you.” + +“But he daren’t,” said Colin. + +“No, he daren’t,” answered Mistress Mary, thinking the thing out quite +without prejudice. “Nobody ever dared to do anything you didn’t +like—because you were going to die and things like that. You were such +a poor thing.” + +“But,” announced Colin stubbornly, “I am not going to be a poor thing. +I won’t let people think I’m one. I stood on my feet this afternoon.” + +“It is always having your own way that has made you so queer,” Mary +went on, thinking aloud. + +Colin turned his head, frowning. + +“Am I queer?” he demanded. + +“Yes,” answered Mary, “very. But you needn’t be cross,” she added +impartially, “because so am I queer—and so is Ben Weatherstaff. But I +am not as queer as I was before I began to like people and before I +found the garden.” + +“I don’t want to be queer,” said Colin. “I am not going to be,” and he +frowned again with determination. + +He was a very proud boy. He lay thinking for a while and then Mary saw +his beautiful smile begin and gradually change his whole face. + +“I shall stop being queer,” he said, “if I go every day to the garden. +There is Magic in there—good Magic, you know, Mary. I am sure there +is.” + +“So am I,” said Mary. + +“Even if it isn’t real Magic,” Colin said, “we can pretend it is. +_Something_ is there—_something!_” + +“It’s Magic,” said Mary, “but not black. It’s as white as snow.” + +They always called it Magic and indeed it seemed like it in the months +that followed—the wonderful months—the radiant months—the amazing ones. +Oh! the things which happened in that garden! If you have never had a +garden you cannot understand, and if you have had a garden you will +know that it would take a whole book to describe all that came to pass +there. At first it seemed that green things would never cease pushing +their way through the earth, in the grass, in the beds, even in the +crevices of the walls. Then the green things began to show buds and the +buds began to unfurl and show color, every shade of blue, every shade +of purple, every tint and hue of crimson. In its happy days flowers had +been tucked away into every inch and hole and corner. Ben Weatherstaff +had seen it done and had himself scraped out mortar from between the +bricks of the wall and made pockets of earth for lovely clinging things +to grow on. Iris and white lilies rose out of the grass in sheaves, and +the green alcoves filled themselves with amazing armies of the blue and +white flower lances of tall delphiniums or columbines or campanulas. + +“She was main fond o’ them—she was,” Ben Weatherstaff said. “She liked +them things as was allus pointin’ up to th’ blue sky, she used to tell. +Not as she was one o’ them as looked down on th’ earth—not her. She +just loved it but she said as th’ blue sky allus looked so joyful.” + +The seeds Dickon and Mary had planted grew as if fairies had tended +them. Satiny poppies of all tints danced in the breeze by the score, +gaily defying flowers which had lived in the garden for years and which +it might be confessed seemed rather to wonder how such new people had +got there. And the roses—the roses! Rising out of the grass, tangled +round the sun-dial, wreathing the tree trunks and hanging from their +branches, climbing up the walls and spreading over them with long +garlands falling in cascades—they came alive day by day, hour by hour. +Fair fresh leaves, and buds—and buds—tiny at first but swelling and +working Magic until they burst and uncurled into cups of scent +delicately spilling themselves over their brims and filling the garden +air. + +Colin saw it all, watching each change as it took place. Every morning +he was brought out and every hour of each day when it didn’t rain he +spent in the garden. Even gray days pleased him. He would lie on the +grass “watching things growing,” he said. If you watched long enough, +he declared, you could see buds unsheath themselves. Also you could +make the acquaintance of strange busy insect things running about on +various unknown but evidently serious errands, sometimes carrying tiny +scraps of straw or feather or food, or climbing blades of grass as if +they were trees from whose tops one could look out to explore the +country. A mole throwing up its mound at the end of its burrow and +making its way out at last with the long-nailed paws which looked so +like elfish hands, had absorbed him one whole morning. Ants’ ways, +beetles’ ways, bees’ ways, frogs’ ways, birds’ ways, plants’ ways, gave +him a new world to explore and when Dickon revealed them all and added +foxes’ ways, otters’ ways, ferrets’ ways, squirrels’ ways, and trout’ +and water-rats’ and badgers’ ways, there was no end to the things to +talk about and think over. + +And this was not the half of the Magic. The fact that he had really +once stood on his feet had set Colin thinking tremendously and when +Mary told him of the spell she had worked he was excited and approved +of it greatly. He talked of it constantly. + +“Of course there must be lots of Magic in the world,” he said wisely +one day, “but people don’t know what it is like or how to make it. +Perhaps the beginning is just to say nice things are going to happen +until you make them happen. I am going to try and experiment.” + +The next morning when they went to the secret garden he sent at once +for Ben Weatherstaff. Ben came as quickly as he could and found the +Rajah standing on his feet under a tree and looking very grand but also +very beautifully smiling. + +“Good morning, Ben Weatherstaff,” he said. “I want you and Dickon and +Miss Mary to stand in a row and listen to me because I am going to tell +you something very important.” + +“Aye, aye, sir!” answered Ben Weatherstaff, touching his forehead. (One +of the long concealed charms of Ben Weatherstaff was that in his +boyhood he had once run away to sea and had made voyages. So he could +reply like a sailor.) + +“I am going to try a scientific experiment,” explained the Rajah. “When +I grow up I am going to make great scientific discoveries and I am +going to begin now with this experiment.” + +“Aye, aye, sir!” said Ben Weatherstaff promptly, though this was the +first time he had heard of great scientific discoveries. + +It was the first time Mary had heard of them, either, but even at this +stage she had begun to realize that, queer as he was, Colin had read +about a great many singular things and was somehow a very convincing +sort of boy. When he held up his head and fixed his strange eyes on you +it seemed as if you believed him almost in spite of yourself though he +was only ten years old—going on eleven. At this moment he was +especially convincing because he suddenly felt the fascination of +actually making a sort of speech like a grown-up person. + +“The great scientific discoveries I am going to make,” he went on, +“will be about Magic. Magic is a great thing and scarcely anyone knows +anything about it except a few people in old books—and Mary a little, +because she was born in India where there are fakirs. I believe Dickon +knows some Magic, but perhaps he doesn’t know he knows it. He charms +animals and people. I would never have let him come to see me if he had +not been an animal charmer—which is a boy charmer, too, because a boy +is an animal. I am sure there is Magic in everything, only we have not +sense enough to get hold of it and make it do things for us—like +electricity and horses and steam.” + +This sounded so imposing that Ben Weatherstaff became quite excited and +really could not keep still. + +“Aye, aye, sir,” he said and he began to stand up quite straight. + +“When Mary found this garden it looked quite dead,” the orator +proceeded. “Then something began pushing things up out of the soil and +making things out of nothing. One day things weren’t there and another +they were. I had never watched things before and it made me feel very +curious. Scientific people are always curious and I am going to be +scientific. I keep saying to myself, ‘What is it? What is it?’ It’s +something. It can’t be nothing! I don’t know its name so I call it +Magic. I have never seen the sun rise but Mary and Dickon have and from +what they tell me I am sure that is Magic too. Something pushes it up +and draws it. Sometimes since I’ve been in the garden I’ve looked up +through the trees at the sky and I have had a strange feeling of being +happy as if something were pushing and drawing in my chest and making +me breathe fast. Magic is always pushing and drawing and making things +out of nothing. Everything is made out of Magic, leaves and trees, +flowers and birds, badgers and foxes and squirrels and people. So it +must be all around us. In this garden—in all the places. The Magic in +this garden has made me stand up and know I am going to live to be a +man. I am going to make the scientific experiment of trying to get some +and put it in myself and make it push and draw me and make me strong. I +don’t know how to do it but I think that if you keep thinking about it +and calling it perhaps it will come. Perhaps that is the first baby way +to get it. When I was going to try to stand that first time Mary kept +saying to herself as fast as she could, ‘You can do it! You can do it!’ +and I did. I had to try myself at the same time, of course, but her +Magic helped me—and so did Dickon’s. Every morning and evening and as +often in the daytime as I can remember I am going to say, ‘Magic is in +me! Magic is making me well! I am going to be as strong as Dickon, as +strong as Dickon!’ And you must all do it, too. That is my experiment +Will you help, Ben Weatherstaff?” + +“Aye, aye, sir!” said Ben Weatherstaff. “Aye, aye!” + +“If you keep doing it every day as regularly as soldiers go through +drill we shall see what will happen and find out if the experiment +succeeds. You learn things by saying them over and over and thinking +about them until they stay in your mind forever and I think it will be +the same with Magic. If you keep calling it to come to you and help you +it will get to be part of you and it will stay and do things.” + +“I once heard an officer in India tell my mother that there were fakirs +who said words over and over thousands of times,” said Mary. + +“I’ve heard Jem Fettleworth’s wife say th’ same thing over thousands o’ +times—callin’ Jem a drunken brute,” said Ben Weatherstaff dryly. +“Summat allus come o’ that, sure enough. He gave her a good hidin’ an’ +went to th’ Blue Lion an’ got as drunk as a lord.” + +Colin drew his brows together and thought a few minutes. Then he +cheered up. + +“Well,” he said, “you see something did come of it. She used the wrong +Magic until she made him beat her. If she’d used the right Magic and +had said something nice perhaps he wouldn’t have got as drunk as a lord +and perhaps—perhaps he might have bought her a new bonnet.” + +Ben Weatherstaff chuckled and there was shrewd admiration in his little +old eyes. + +“Tha’rt a clever lad as well as a straight-legged one, Mester Colin,” +he said. “Next time I see Bess Fettleworth I’ll give her a bit of a +hint o’ what Magic will do for her. She’d be rare an’ pleased if th’ +sinetifik ’speriment worked—an’ so ’ud Jem.” + +Dickon had stood listening to the lecture, his round eyes shining with +curious delight. Nut and Shell were on his shoulders and he held a +long-eared white rabbit in his arm and stroked and stroked it softly +while it laid its ears along its back and enjoyed itself. + +“Do you think the experiment will work?” Colin asked him, wondering +what he was thinking. He so often wondered what Dickon was thinking +when he saw him looking at him or at one of his “creatures” with his +happy wide smile. + +He smiled now and his smile was wider than usual. + +“Aye,” he answered, “that I do. It’ll work same as th’ seeds do when +th’ sun shines on ’em. It’ll work for sure. Shall us begin it now?” + +Colin was delighted and so was Mary. Fired by recollections of fakirs +and devotees in illustrations Colin suggested that they should all sit +cross-legged under the tree which made a canopy. + +“It will be like sitting in a sort of temple,” said Colin. “I’m rather +tired and I want to sit down.” + +“Eh!” said Dickon, “tha’ mustn’t begin by sayin’ tha’rt tired. Tha’ +might spoil th’ Magic.” + +Colin turned and looked at him—into his innocent round eyes. + +“That’s true,” he said slowly. “I must only think of the Magic.” + +It all seemed most majestic and mysterious when they sat down in their +circle. Ben Weatherstaff felt as if he had somehow been led into +appearing at a prayer-meeting. Ordinarily he was very fixed in being +what he called “agen’ prayer-meetin’s” but this being the Rajah’s +affair he did not resent it and was indeed inclined to be gratified at +being called upon to assist. Mistress Mary felt solemnly enraptured. +Dickon held his rabbit in his arm, and perhaps he made some charmer’s +signal no one heard, for when he sat down, cross-legged like the rest, +the crow, the fox, the squirrels and the lamb slowly drew near and made +part of the circle, settling each into a place of rest as if of their +own desire. + +“The ‘creatures’ have come,” said Colin gravely. “They want to help +us.” + +Colin really looked quite beautiful, Mary thought. He held his head +high as if he felt like a sort of priest and his strange eyes had a +wonderful look in them. The light shone on him through the tree canopy. + +“Now we will begin,” he said. “Shall we sway backward and forward, +Mary, as if we were dervishes?” + +“I canna’ do no swayin’ back’ard and for’ard,” said Ben Weatherstaff. +“I’ve got th’ rheumatics.” + +“The Magic will take them away,” said Colin in a High Priest tone, “but +we won’t sway until it has done it. We will only chant.” + +“I canna’ do no chantin’” said Ben Weatherstaff a trifle testily. “They +turned me out o’ th’ church choir th’ only time I ever tried it.” + +No one smiled. They were all too much in earnest. Colin’s face was not +even crossed by a shadow. He was thinking only of the Magic. + +“Then I will chant,” he said. And he began, looking like a strange boy +spirit. “The sun is shining—the sun is shining. That is the Magic. The +flowers are growing—the roots are stirring. That is the Magic. Being +alive is the Magic—being strong is the Magic. The Magic is in me—the +Magic is in me. It is in me—it is in me. It’s in everyone of us. It’s +in Ben Weatherstaff’s back. Magic! Magic! Come and help!” + +He said it a great many times—not a thousand times but quite a goodly +number. Mary listened entranced. She felt as if it were at once queer +and beautiful and she wanted him to go on and on. Ben Weatherstaff +began to feel soothed into a sort of dream which was quite agreeable. +The humming of the bees in the blossoms mingled with the chanting voice +and drowsily melted into a doze. Dickon sat cross-legged with his +rabbit asleep on his arm and a hand resting on the lamb’s back. Soot +had pushed away a squirrel and huddled close to him on his shoulder, +the gray film dropped over his eyes. At last Colin stopped. + +“Now I am going to walk round the garden,” he announced. + +Ben Weatherstaff’s head had just dropped forward and he lifted it with +a jerk. + +“You have been asleep,” said Colin. + +“Nowt o’ th’ sort,” mumbled Ben. “Th’ sermon was good enow—but I’m +bound to get out afore th’ collection.” + +He was not quite awake yet. + +“You’re not in church,” said Colin. + +“Not me,” said Ben, straightening himself. “Who said I were? I heard +every bit of it. You said th’ Magic was in my back. Th’ doctor calls it +rheumatics.” + +The Rajah waved his hand. + +“That was the wrong Magic,” he said. “You will get better. You have my +permission to go to your work. But come back tomorrow.” + +“I’d like to see thee walk round the garden,” grunted Ben. + +It was not an unfriendly grunt, but it was a grunt. In fact, being a +stubborn old party and not having entire faith in Magic he had made up +his mind that if he were sent away he would climb his ladder and look +over the wall so that he might be ready to hobble back if there were +any stumbling. + +The Rajah did not object to his staying and so the procession was +formed. It really did look like a procession. Colin was at its head +with Dickon on one side and Mary on the other. Ben Weatherstaff walked +behind, and the “creatures” trailed after them, the lamb and the fox +cub keeping close to Dickon, the white rabbit hopping along or stopping +to nibble and Soot following with the solemnity of a person who felt +himself in charge. + +It was a procession which moved slowly but with dignity. Every few +yards it stopped to rest. Colin leaned on Dickon’s arm and privately +Ben Weatherstaff kept a sharp lookout, but now and then Colin took his +hand from its support and walked a few steps alone. His head was held +up all the time and he looked very grand. + +“The Magic is in me!” he kept saying. “The Magic is making me strong! I +can feel it! I can feel it!” + +It seemed very certain that something was upholding and uplifting him. +He sat on the seats in the alcoves, and once or twice he sat down on +the grass and several times he paused in the path and leaned on Dickon, +but he would not give up until he had gone all round the garden. When +he returned to the canopy tree his cheeks were flushed and he looked +triumphant. + +“I did it! The Magic worked!” he cried. “That is my first scientific +discovery.” + +“What will Dr. Craven say?” broke out Mary. + +“He won’t say anything,” Colin answered, “because he will not be told. +This is to be the biggest secret of all. No one is to know anything +about it until I have grown so strong that I can walk and run like any +other boy. I shall come here every day in my chair and I shall be taken +back in it. I won’t have people whispering and asking questions and I +won’t let my father hear about it until the experiment has quite +succeeded. Then sometime when he comes back to Misselthwaite I shall +just walk into his study and say ‘Here I am; I am like any other boy. I +am quite well and I shall live to be a man. It has been done by a +scientific experiment.’” + +“He will think he is in a dream,” cried Mary. “He won’t believe his +eyes.” + +Colin flushed triumphantly. He had made himself believe that he was +going to get well, which was really more than half the battle, if he +had been aware of it. And the thought which stimulated him more than +any other was this imagining what his father would look like when he +saw that he had a son who was as straight and strong as other fathers’ +sons. One of his darkest miseries in the unhealthy morbid past days had +been his hatred of being a sickly weak-backed boy whose father was +afraid to look at him. + +“He’ll be obliged to believe them,” he said. + +“One of the things I am going to do, after the Magic works and before I +begin to make scientific discoveries, is to be an athlete.” + +“We shall have thee takin’ to boxin’ in a week or so,” said Ben +Weatherstaff. “Tha’lt end wi’ winnin’ th’ Belt an’ bein’ champion +prize-fighter of all England.” + +Colin fixed his eyes on him sternly. + +“Weatherstaff,” he said, “that is disrespectful. You must not take +liberties because you are in the secret. However much the Magic works I +shall not be a prize-fighter. I shall be a Scientific Discoverer.” + +“Ax pardon—ax pardon, sir” answered Ben, touching his forehead in +salute. “I ought to have seed it wasn’t a jokin’ matter,” but his eyes +twinkled and secretly he was immensely pleased. He really did not mind +being snubbed since the snubbing meant that the lad was gaining +strength and spirit. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV. +“LET THEM LAUGH” + + +The secret garden was not the only one Dickon worked in. Round the +cottage on the moor there was a piece of ground enclosed by a low wall +of rough stones. Early in the morning and late in the fading twilight +and on all the days Colin and Mary did not see him, Dickon worked there +planting or tending potatoes and cabbages, turnips and carrots and +herbs for his mother. In the company of his “creatures” he did wonders +there and was never tired of doing them, it seemed. While he dug or +weeded he whistled or sang bits of Yorkshire moor songs or talked to +Soot or Captain or the brothers and sisters he had taught to help him. + +“We’d never get on as comfortable as we do,” Mrs. Sowerby said, “if it +wasn’t for Dickon’s garden. Anything’ll grow for him. His ’taters and +cabbages is twice th’ size of anyone else’s an’ they’ve got a flavor +with ’em as nobody’s has.” + +When she found a moment to spare she liked to go out and talk to him. +After supper there was still a long clear twilight to work in and that +was her quiet time. She could sit upon the low rough wall and look on +and hear stories of the day. She loved this time. There were not only +vegetables in this garden. Dickon had bought penny packages of flower +seeds now and then and sown bright sweet-scented things among +gooseberry bushes and even cabbages and he grew borders of mignonette +and pinks and pansies and things whose seeds he could save year after +year or whose roots would bloom each spring and spread in time into +fine clumps. The low wall was one of the prettiest things in Yorkshire +because he had tucked moorland foxglove and ferns and rock-cress and +hedgerow flowers into every crevice until only here and there glimpses +of the stones were to be seen. + +“All a chap’s got to do to make ’em thrive, mother,” he would say, “is +to be friends with ’em for sure. They’re just like th’ ‘creatures.’ If +they’re thirsty give ’em drink and if they’re hungry give ’em a bit o’ +food. They want to live same as we do. If they died I should feel as if +I’d been a bad lad and somehow treated them heartless.” + +It was in these twilight hours that Mrs. Sowerby heard of all that +happened at Misselthwaite Manor. At first she was only told that +“Mester Colin” had taken a fancy to going out into the grounds with +Miss Mary and that it was doing him good. But it was not long before it +was agreed between the two children that Dickon’s mother might “come +into the secret.” Somehow it was not doubted that she was “safe for +sure.” + +So one beautiful still evening Dickon told the whole story, with all +the thrilling details of the buried key and the robin and the gray haze +which had seemed like deadness and the secret Mistress Mary had planned +never to reveal. The coming of Dickon and how it had been told to him, +the doubt of Mester Colin and the final drama of his introduction to +the hidden domain, combined with the incident of Ben Weatherstaff’s +angry face peering over the wall and Mester Colin’s sudden indignant +strength, made Mrs. Sowerby’s nice-looking face quite change color +several times. + +“My word!” she said. “It was a good thing that little lass came to th’ +Manor. It’s been th’ makin’ o’ her an’ th’ savin, o’ him. Standin’ on +his feet! An’ us all thinkin’ he was a poor half-witted lad with not a +straight bone in him.” + +She asked a great many questions and her blue eyes were full of deep +thinking. + +“What do they make of it at th’ Manor—him being so well an’ cheerful +an’ never complainin’?” she inquired. + +“They don’t know what to make of it,” answered Dickon. “Every day as +comes round his face looks different. It’s fillin’ out and doesn’t look +so sharp an’ th’ waxy color is goin’. But he has to do his bit o’ +complainin’,” with a highly entertained grin. + +“What for, i’ Mercy’s name?” asked Mrs. Sowerby. + +Dickon chuckled. + +“He does it to keep them from guessin’ what’s happened. If the doctor +knew he’d found out he could stand on his feet he’d likely write and +tell Mester Craven. Mester Colin’s savin’ th’ secret to tell himself. +He’s goin’ to practise his Magic on his legs every day till his father +comes back an’ then he’s goin’ to march into his room an’ show him he’s +as straight as other lads. But him an’ Miss Mary thinks it’s best plan +to do a bit o’ groanin’ an’ frettin’ now an’ then to throw folk off th’ +scent.” + +Mrs. Sowerby was laughing a low comfortable laugh long before he had +finished his last sentence. + +“Eh!” she said, “that pair’s enjoyin’ theirselves I’ll warrant. They’ll +get a good bit o’ actin’ out of it an’ there’s nothin’ children likes +as much as play actin’. Let’s hear what they do, Dickon lad.” + +Dickon stopped weeding and sat up on his heels to tell her. His eyes +were twinkling with fun. + +“Mester Colin is carried down to his chair every time he goes out,” he +explained. “An’ he flies out at John, th’ footman, for not carryin’ him +careful enough. He makes himself as helpless lookin’ as he can an’ +never lifts his head until we’re out o’ sight o’ th’ house. An’ he +grunts an’ frets a good bit when he’s bein’ settled into his chair. Him +an’ Miss Mary’s both got to enjoyin’ it an’ when he groans an’ +complains she’ll say, ‘Poor Colin! Does it hurt you so much? Are you so +weak as that, poor Colin?’—but th’ trouble is that sometimes they can +scarce keep from burstin’ out laughin’. When we get safe into the +garden they laugh till they’ve no breath left to laugh with. An’ they +have to stuff their faces into Mester Colin’s cushions to keep the +gardeners from hearin’, if any of, ’em’s about.” + +“Th’ more they laugh th’ better for ’em!” said Mrs. Sowerby, still +laughing herself. “Good healthy child laughin’s better than pills any +day o’ th’ year. That pair’ll plump up for sure.” + +“They are plumpin’ up,” said Dickon. “They’re that hungry they don’t +know how to get enough to eat without makin’ talk. Mester Colin says if +he keeps sendin’ for more food they won’t believe he’s an invalid at +all. Miss Mary says she’ll let him eat her share, but he says that if +she goes hungry she’ll get thin an’ they mun both get fat at once.” + +Mrs. Sowerby laughed so heartily at the revelation of this difficulty +that she quite rocked backward and forward in her blue cloak, and +Dickon laughed with her. + +“I’ll tell thee what, lad,” Mrs. Sowerby said when she could speak. +“I’ve thought of a way to help ’em. When tha’ goes to ’em in th’ +mornin’s tha’ shall take a pail o’ good new milk an’ I’ll bake ’em a +crusty cottage loaf or some buns wi’ currants in ’em, same as you +children like. Nothin’s so good as fresh milk an’ bread. Then they +could take off th’ edge o’ their hunger while they were in their garden +an’ th, fine food they get indoors ’ud polish off th’ corners.” + +“Eh! mother!” said Dickon admiringly, “what a wonder tha’ art! Tha’ +always sees a way out o’ things. They was quite in a pother yesterday. +They didn’t see how they was to manage without orderin’ up more +food—they felt that empty inside.” + +“They’re two young ’uns growin’ fast, an’ health’s comin’ back to both +of ’em. Children like that feels like young wolves an’ food’s flesh an’ +blood to ’em,” said Mrs. Sowerby. Then she smiled Dickon’s own curving +smile. “Eh! but they’re enjoyin’ theirselves for sure,” she said. + +She was quite right, the comfortable wonderful mother creature—and she +had never been more so than when she said their “play actin’” would be +their joy. Colin and Mary found it one of their most thrilling sources +of entertainment. The idea of protecting themselves from suspicion had +been unconsciously suggested to them first by the puzzled nurse and +then by Dr. Craven himself. + +“Your appetite. Is improving very much, Master Colin,” the nurse had +said one day. “You used to eat nothing, and so many things disagreed +with you.” + +“Nothing disagrees with me now” replied Colin, and then seeing the +nurse looking at him curiously he suddenly remembered that perhaps he +ought not to appear too well just yet. “At least things don’t so often +disagree with me. It’s the fresh air.” + +“Perhaps it is,” said the nurse, still looking at him with a mystified +expression. “But I must talk to Dr. Craven about it.” + +“How she stared at you!” said Mary when she went away. “As if she +thought there must be something to find out.” + +“I won’t have her finding out things,” said Colin. “No one must begin +to find out yet.” + +When Dr. Craven came that morning he seemed puzzled, also. He asked a +number of questions, to Colin’s great annoyance. + +“You stay out in the garden a great deal,” he suggested. “Where do you +go?” + +Colin put on his favorite air of dignified indifference to opinion. + +“I will not let anyone know where I go,” he answered. “I go to a place +I like. Everyone has orders to keep out of the way. I won’t be watched +and stared at. You know that!” + +“You seem to be out all day but I do not think it has done you harm—I +do not think so. The nurse says that you eat much more than you have +ever done before.” + +“Perhaps,” said Colin, prompted by a sudden inspiration, “perhaps it is +an unnatural appetite.” + +“I do not think so, as your food seems to agree with you,” said Dr. +Craven. “You are gaining flesh rapidly and your color is better.” + +“Perhaps—perhaps I am bloated and feverish,” said Colin, assuming a +discouraging air of gloom. “People who are not going to live are +often—different.” + +Dr. Craven shook his head. He was holding Colin’s wrist and he pushed +up his sleeve and felt his arm. + +“You are not feverish,” he said thoughtfully, “and such flesh as you +have gained is healthy. If you can keep this up, my boy, we need not +talk of dying. Your father will be happy to hear of this remarkable +improvement.” + +“I won’t have him told!” Colin broke forth fiercely. “It will only +disappoint him if I get worse again—and I may get worse this very +night. I might have a raging fever. I feel as if I might be beginning +to have one now. I won’t have letters written to my father—I won’t—I +won’t! You are making me angry and you know that is bad for me. I feel +hot already. I hate being written about and being talked over as much +as I hate being stared at!” + +“Hush-h! my boy,” Dr. Craven soothed him. “Nothing shall be written +without your permission. You are too sensitive about things. You must +not undo the good which has been done.” + +He said no more about writing to Mr. Craven and when he saw the nurse +he privately warned her that such a possibility must not be mentioned +to the patient. + +“The boy is extraordinarily better,” he said. “His advance seems almost +abnormal. But of course he is doing now of his own free will what we +could not make him do before. Still, he excites himself very easily and +nothing must be said to irritate him.” + +Mary and Colin were much alarmed and talked together anxiously. From +this time dated their plan of “play actin’.” + +“I may be obliged to have a tantrum,” said Colin regretfully. “I don’t +want to have one and I’m not miserable enough now to work myself into a +big one. Perhaps I couldn’t have one at all. That lump doesn’t come in +my throat now and I keep thinking of nice things instead of horrible +ones. But if they talk about writing to my father I shall have to do +something.” + +He made up his mind to eat less, but unfortunately it was not possible +to carry out this brilliant idea when he wakened each morning with an +amazing appetite and the table near his sofa was set with a breakfast +of home-made bread and fresh butter, snow-white eggs, raspberry jam and +clotted cream. Mary always breakfasted with him and when they found +themselves at the table—particularly if there were delicate slices of +sizzling ham sending forth tempting odors from under a hot silver +cover—they would look into each other’s eyes in desperation. + +“I think we shall have to eat it all this morning, Mary,” Colin always +ended by saying. “We can send away some of the lunch and a great deal +of the dinner.” + +But they never found they could send away anything and the highly +polished condition of the empty plates returned to the pantry awakened +much comment. + +“I do wish,” Colin would say also, “I do wish the slices of ham were +thicker, and one muffin each is not enough for anyone.” + +“It’s enough for a person who is going to die,” answered Mary when +first she heard this, “but it’s not enough for a person who is going to +live. I sometimes feel as if I could eat three when those nice fresh +heather and gorse smells from the moor come pouring in at the open +window.” + +The morning that Dickon—after they had been enjoying themselves in the +garden for about two hours—went behind a big rosebush and brought forth +two tin pails and revealed that one was full of rich new milk with +cream on the top of it, and that the other held cottage-made currant +buns folded in a clean blue and white napkin, buns so carefully tucked +in that they were still hot, there was a riot of surprised joyfulness. +What a wonderful thing for Mrs. Sowerby to think of! What a kind, +clever woman she must be! How good the buns were! And what delicious +fresh milk! + +“Magic is in her just as it is in Dickon,” said Colin. “It makes her +think of ways to do things—nice things. She is a Magic person. Tell her +we are grateful, Dickon—extremely grateful.” + +He was given to using rather grown-up phrases at times. He enjoyed +them. He liked this so much that he improved upon it. + +“Tell her she has been most bounteous and our gratitude is extreme.” + +And then forgetting his grandeur he fell to and stuffed himself with +buns and drank milk out of the pail in copious draughts in the manner +of any hungry little boy who had been taking unusual exercise and +breathing in moorland air and whose breakfast was more than two hours +behind him. + +This was the beginning of many agreeable incidents of the same kind. +They actually awoke to the fact that as Mrs. Sowerby had fourteen +people to provide food for she might not have enough to satisfy two +extra appetites every day. So they asked her to let them send some of +their shillings to buy things. + +Dickon made the stimulating discovery that in the wood in the park +outside the garden where Mary had first found him piping to the wild +creatures there was a deep little hollow where you could build a sort +of tiny oven with stones and roast potatoes and eggs in it. Roasted +eggs were a previously unknown luxury and very hot potatoes with salt +and fresh butter in them were fit for a woodland king—besides being +deliciously satisfying. You could buy both potatoes and eggs and eat as +many as you liked without feeling as if you were taking food out of the +mouths of fourteen people. + +Every beautiful morning the Magic was worked by the mystic circle under +the plum-tree which provided a canopy of thickening green leaves after +its brief blossom-time was ended. After the ceremony Colin always took +his walking exercise and throughout the day he exercised his newly +found power at intervals. Each day he grew stronger and could walk more +steadily and cover more ground. And each day his belief in the Magic +grew stronger—as well it might. He tried one experiment after another +as he felt himself gaining strength and it was Dickon who showed him +the best things of all. + +“Yesterday,” he said one morning after an absence, “I went to Thwaite +for mother an’ near th’ Blue Cow Inn I seed Bob Haworth. He’s the +strongest chap on th’ moor. He’s the champion wrestler an’ he can jump +higher than any other chap an’ throw th’ hammer farther. He’s gone all +th’ way to Scotland for th’ sports some years. He’s knowed me ever +since I was a little ’un an’ he’s a friendly sort an’ I axed him some +questions. Th’ gentry calls him a athlete and I thought o’ thee, Mester +Colin, and I says, ‘How did tha’ make tha’ muscles stick out that way, +Bob? Did tha’ do anythin’ extra to make thysel’ so strong?’ An’ he says +‘Well, yes, lad, I did. A strong man in a show that came to Thwaite +once showed me how to exercise my arms an’ legs an’ every muscle in my +body. An’ I says, ‘Could a delicate chap make himself stronger with +’em, Bob?’ an’ he laughed an’ says, ‘Art tha’ th’ delicate chap?’ an’ I +says, ‘No, but I knows a young gentleman that’s gettin’ well of a long +illness an’ I wish I knowed some o’ them tricks to tell him about.’ I +didn’t say no names an’ he didn’t ask none. He’s friendly same as I +said an’ he stood up an’ showed me good-natured like, an’ I imitated +what he did till I knowed it by heart.” + +Colin had been listening excitedly. + +“Can you show me?” he cried. “Will you?” + +“Aye, to be sure,” Dickon answered, getting up. “But he says tha’ mun +do ’em gentle at first an’ be careful not to tire thysel’. Rest in +between times an’ take deep breaths an’ don’t overdo.” + +“I’ll be careful,” said Colin. “Show me! Show me! Dickon, you are the +most Magic boy in the world!” + +Dickon stood up on the grass and slowly went through a carefully +practical but simple series of muscle exercises. Colin watched them +with widening eyes. He could do a few while he was sitting down. +Presently he did a few gently while he stood upon his already steadied +feet. Mary began to do them also. Soot, who was watching the +performance, became much disturbed and left his branch and hopped about +restlessly because he could not do them too. + +From that time the exercises were part of the day’s duties as much as +the Magic was. It became possible for both Colin and Mary to do more of +them each time they tried, and such appetites were the results that but +for the basket Dickon put down behind the bush each morning when he +arrived they would have been lost. But the little oven in the hollow +and Mrs. Sowerby’s bounties were so satisfying that Mrs. Medlock and +the nurse and Dr. Craven became mystified again. You can trifle with +your breakfast and seem to disdain your dinner if you are full to the +brim with roasted eggs and potatoes and richly frothed new milk and +oatcakes and buns and heather honey and clotted cream. + +“They are eating next to nothing,” said the nurse. “They’ll die of +starvation if they can’t be persuaded to take some nourishment. And yet +see how they look.” + +“Look!” exclaimed Mrs. Medlock indignantly. “Eh! I’m moithered to death +with them. They’re a pair of young Satans. Bursting their jackets one +day and the next turning up their noses at the best meals Cook can +tempt them with. Not a mouthful of that lovely young fowl and bread +sauce did they set a fork into yesterday—and the poor woman fair +_invented_ a pudding for them—and back it’s sent. She almost cried. +She’s afraid she’ll be blamed if they starve themselves into their +graves.” + +Dr. Craven came and looked at Colin long and carefully, He wore an +extremely worried expression when the nurse talked with him and showed +him the almost untouched tray of breakfast she had saved for him to +look at—but it was even more worried when he sat down by Colin’s sofa +and examined him. He had been called to London on business and had not +seen the boy for nearly two weeks. When young things begin to gain +health they gain it rapidly. The waxen tinge had left, Colins skin and +a warm rose showed through it; his beautiful eyes were clear and the +hollows under them and in his cheeks and temples had filled out. His +once dark, heavy locks had begun to look as if they sprang healthily +from his forehead and were soft and warm with life. His lips were +fuller and of a normal color. In fact as an imitation of a boy who was +a confirmed invalid he was a disgraceful sight. Dr. Craven held his +chin in his hand and thought him over. + +“I am sorry to hear that you do not eat anything,” he said. “That will +not do. You will lose all you have gained—and you have gained +amazingly. You ate so well a short time ago.” + +“I told you it was an unnatural appetite,” answered Colin. + +Mary was sitting on her stool nearby and she suddenly made a very queer +sound which she tried so violently to repress that she ended by almost +choking. + +“What is the matter?” said Dr. Craven, turning to look at her. + +Mary became quite severe in her manner. + +“It was something between a sneeze and a cough,” she replied with +reproachful dignity, “and it got into my throat.” + +“But,” she said afterward to Colin, “I couldn’t stop myself. It just +burst out because all at once I couldn’t help remembering that last big +potato you ate and the way your mouth stretched when you bit through +that thick lovely crust with jam and clotted cream on it.” + +“Is there any way in which those children can get food secretly?” Dr. +Craven inquired of Mrs. Medlock. + +“There’s no way unless they dig it out of the earth or pick it off the +trees,” Mrs. Medlock answered. “They stay out in the grounds all day +and see no one but each other. And if they want anything different to +eat from what’s sent up to them they need only ask for it.” + +“Well,” said Dr. Craven, “so long as going without food agrees with +them we need not disturb ourselves. The boy is a new creature.” + +“So is the girl,” said Mrs. Medlock. “She’s begun to be downright +pretty since she’s filled out and lost her ugly little sour look. Her +hair’s grown thick and healthy looking and she’s got a bright color. +The glummest, ill-natured little thing she used to be and now her and +Master Colin laugh together like a pair of crazy young ones. Perhaps +they’re growing fat on that.” + +“Perhaps they are,” said Dr. Craven. “Let them laugh.” + + + + +CHAPTER XXV. +THE CURTAIN + + +And the secret garden bloomed and bloomed and every morning revealed +new miracles. In the robin’s nest there were Eggs and the robin’s mate +sat upon them keeping them warm with her feathery little breast and +careful wings. At first she was very nervous and the robin himself was +indignantly watchful. Even Dickon did not go near the close-grown +corner in those days, but waited until by the quiet working of some +mysterious spell he seemed to have conveyed to the soul of the little +pair that in the garden there was nothing which was not quite like +themselves—nothing which did not understand the wonderfulness of what +was happening to them—the immense, tender, terrible, heart-breaking +beauty and solemnity of Eggs. If there had been one person in that +garden who had not known through all his or her innermost being that if +an Egg were taken away or hurt the whole world would whirl round and +crash through space and come to an end—if there had been even one who +did not feel it and act accordingly there could have been no happiness +even in that golden springtime air. But they all knew it and felt it +and the robin and his mate knew they knew it. + +At first the robin watched Mary and Colin with sharp anxiety. For some +mysterious reason he knew he need not watch Dickon. The first moment he +set his dew-bright black eye on Dickon he knew he was not a stranger +but a sort of robin without beak or feathers. He could speak robin +(which is a quite distinct language not to be mistaken for any other). +To speak robin to a robin is like speaking French to a Frenchman. +Dickon always spoke it to the robin himself, so the queer gibberish he +used when he spoke to humans did not matter in the least. The robin +thought he spoke this gibberish to them because they were not +intelligent enough to understand feathered speech. His movements also +were robin. They never startled one by being sudden enough to seem +dangerous or threatening. Any robin could understand Dickon, so his +presence was not even disturbing. + +But at the outset it seemed necessary to be on guard against the other +two. In the first place the boy creature did not come into the garden +on his legs. He was pushed in on a thing with wheels and the skins of +wild animals were thrown over him. That in itself was doubtful. Then +when he began to stand up and move about he did it in a queer +unaccustomed way and the others seemed to have to help him. The robin +used to secrete himself in a bush and watch this anxiously, his head +tilted first on one side and then on the other. He thought that the +slow movements might mean that he was preparing to pounce, as cats do. +When cats are preparing to pounce they creep over the ground very +slowly. The robin talked this over with his mate a great deal for a few +days but after that he decided not to speak of the subject because her +terror was so great that he was afraid it might be injurious to the +Eggs. + +When the boy began to walk by himself and even to move more quickly it +was an immense relief. But for a long time—or it seemed a long time to +the robin—he was a source of some anxiety. He did not act as the other +humans did. He seemed very fond of walking but he had a way of sitting +or lying down for a while and then getting up in a disconcerting manner +to begin again. + +One day the robin remembered that when he himself had been made to +learn to fly by his parents he had done much the same sort of thing. He +had taken short flights of a few yards and then had been obliged to +rest. So it occurred to him that this boy was learning to fly—or rather +to walk. He mentioned this to his mate and when he told her that the +Eggs would probably conduct themselves in the same way after they were +fledged she was quite comforted and even became eagerly interested and +derived great pleasure from watching the boy over the edge of her +nest—though she always thought that the Eggs would be much cleverer and +learn more quickly. But then she said indulgently that humans were +always more clumsy and slow than Eggs and most of them never seemed +really to learn to fly at all. You never met them in the air or on +tree-tops. + +After a while the boy began to move about as the others did, but all +three of the children at times did unusual things. They would stand +under the trees and move their arms and legs and heads about in a way +which was neither walking nor running nor sitting down. They went +through these movements at intervals every day and the robin was never +able to explain to his mate what they were doing or tying to do. He +could only say that he was sure that the Eggs would never flap about in +such a manner; but as the boy who could speak robin so fluently was +doing the thing with them, birds could be quite sure that the actions +were not of a dangerous nature. Of course neither the robin nor his +mate had ever heard of the champion wrestler, Bob Haworth, and his +exercises for making the muscles stand out like lumps. Robins are not +like human beings; their muscles are always exercised from the first +and so they develop themselves in a natural manner. If you have to fly +about to find every meal you eat, your muscles do not become atrophied +(atrophied means wasted away through want of use). + +When the boy was walking and running about and digging and weeding like +the others, the nest in the corner was brooded over by a great peace +and content. Fears for the Eggs became things of the past. Knowing that +your Eggs were as safe as if they were locked in a bank vault and the +fact that you could watch so many curious things going on made setting +a most entertaining occupation. On wet days the Eggs’ mother sometimes +felt even a little dull because the children did not come into the +garden. + +But even on wet days it could not be said that Mary and Colin were +dull. One morning when the rain streamed down unceasingly and Colin was +beginning to feel a little restive, as he was obliged to remain on his +sofa because it was not safe to get up and walk about, Mary had an +inspiration. + +“Now that I am a real boy,” Colin had said, “my legs and arms and all +my body are so full of Magic that I can’t keep them still. They want to +be doing things all the time. Do you know that when I waken in the +morning, Mary, when it’s quite early and the birds are just shouting +outside and everything seems just shouting for joy—even the trees and +things we can’t really hear—I feel as if I must jump out of bed and +shout myself. If I did it, just think what would happen!” + +Mary giggled inordinately. + +“The nurse would come running and Mrs. Medlock would come running and +they would be sure you had gone crazy and they’d send for the doctor,” +she said. + +Colin giggled himself. He could see how they would all look—how +horrified by his outbreak and how amazed to see him standing upright. + +“I wish my father would come home,” he said. “I want to tell him +myself. I’m always thinking about it—but we couldn’t go on like this +much longer. I can’t stand lying still and pretending, and besides I +look too different. I wish it wasn’t raining today.” + +It was then Mistress Mary had her inspiration. + +“Colin,” she began mysteriously, “do you know how many rooms there are +in this house?” + +“About a thousand, I suppose,” he answered. + +“There’s about a hundred no one ever goes into,” said Mary. “And one +rainy day I went and looked into ever so many of them. No one ever +knew, though Mrs. Medlock nearly found me out. I lost my way when I was +coming back and I stopped at the end of your corridor. That was the +second time I heard you crying.” + +Colin started up on his sofa. + +“A hundred rooms no one goes into,” he said. “It sounds almost like a +secret garden. Suppose we go and look at them. Wheel me in my chair and +nobody would know we went.” + +“That’s what I was thinking,” said Mary. “No one would dare to follow +us. There are galleries where you could run. We could do our exercises. +There is a little Indian room where there is a cabinet full of ivory +elephants. There are all sorts of rooms.” + +“Ring the bell,” said Colin. + +When the nurse came in he gave his orders. + +“I want my chair,” he said. “Miss Mary and I are going to look at the +part of the house which is not used. John can push me as far as the +picture-gallery because there are some stairs. Then he must go away and +leave us alone until I send for him again.” + +Rainy days lost their terrors that morning. When the footman had +wheeled the chair into the picture-gallery and left the two together in +obedience to orders, Colin and Mary looked at each other delighted. As +soon as Mary had made sure that John was really on his way back to his +own quarters below stairs, Colin got out of his chair. + +“I am going to run from one end of the gallery to the other,” he said, +“and then I am going to jump and then we will do Bob Haworth’s +exercises.” + +And they did all these things and many others. They looked at the +portraits and found the plain little girl dressed in green brocade and +holding the parrot on her finger. + +“All these,” said Colin, “must be my relations. They lived a long time +ago. That parrot one, I believe, is one of my great, great, great, +great aunts. She looks rather like you, Mary—not as you look now but as +you looked when you came here. Now you are a great deal fatter and +better looking.” + +“So are you,” said Mary, and they both laughed. + +They went to the Indian room and amused themselves with the ivory +elephants. They found the rose-colored brocade boudoir and the hole in +the cushion the mouse had left, but the mice had grown up and run away +and the hole was empty. They saw more rooms and made more discoveries +than Mary had made on her first pilgrimage. They found new corridors +and corners and flights of steps and new old pictures they liked and +weird old things they did not know the use of. It was a curiously +entertaining morning and the feeling of wandering about in the same +house with other people but at the same time feeling as if one were +miles away from them was a fascinating thing. + +“I’m glad we came,” Colin said. “I never knew I lived in such a big +queer old place. I like it. We will ramble about every rainy day. We +shall always be finding new queer corners and things.” + +That morning they had found among other things such good appetites that +when they returned to Colin’s room it was not possible to send the +luncheon away untouched. + +When the nurse carried the tray downstairs she slapped it down on the +kitchen dresser so that Mrs. Loomis, the cook, could see the highly +polished dishes and plates. + +“Look at that!” she said. “This is a house of mystery, and those two +children are the greatest mysteries in it.” + +“If they keep that up every day,” said the strong young footman John, +“there’d be small wonder that he weighs twice as much today as he did a +month ago. I should have to give up my place in time, for fear of doing +my muscles an injury.” + +That afternoon Mary noticed that something new had happened in Colin’s +room. She had noticed it the day before but had said nothing because +she thought the change might have been made by chance. She said nothing +today but she sat and looked fixedly at the picture over the mantel. +She could look at it because the curtain had been drawn aside. That was +the change she noticed. + +“I know what you want me to tell you,” said Colin, after she had stared +a few minutes. “I always know when you want me to tell you something. +You are wondering why the curtain is drawn back. I am going to keep it +like that.” + +“Why?” asked Mary. + +“Because it doesn’t make me angry any more to see her laughing. I +wakened when it was bright moonlight two nights ago and felt as if the +Magic was filling the room and making everything so splendid that I +couldn’t lie still. I got up and looked out of the window. The room was +quite light and there was a patch of moonlight on the curtain and +somehow that made me go and pull the cord. She looked right down at me +as if she were laughing because she was glad I was standing there. It +made me like to look at her. I want to see her laughing like that all +the time. I think she must have been a sort of Magic person perhaps.” + +“You are so like her now,” said Mary, “that sometimes I think perhaps +you are her ghost made into a boy.” + +That idea seemed to impress Colin. He thought it over and then answered +her slowly. + +“If I were her ghost—my father would be fond of me,” he said. + +“Do you want him to be fond of you?” inquired Mary. + +“I used to hate it because he was not fond of me. If he grew fond of me +I think I should tell him about the Magic. It might make him more +cheerful.” + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI. +“IT’S MOTHER!” + + +Their belief in the Magic was an abiding thing. After the morning’s +incantations Colin sometimes gave them Magic lectures. + +“I like to do it,” he explained, “because when I grow up and make great +scientific discoveries I shall be obliged to lecture about them and so +this is practise. I can only give short lectures now because I am very +young, and besides Ben Weatherstaff would feel as if he were in church +and he would go to sleep.” + +“Th’ best thing about lecturin’,” said Ben, “is that a chap can get up +an’ say aught he pleases an’ no other chap can answer him back. I +wouldn’t be agen’ lecturin’ a bit mysel’ sometimes.” + +But when Colin held forth under his tree old Ben fixed devouring eyes +on him and kept them there. He looked him over with critical affection. +It was not so much the lecture which interested him as the legs which +looked straighter and stronger each day, the boyish head which held +itself up so well, the once sharp chin and hollow cheeks which had +filled and rounded out and the eyes which had begun to hold the light +he remembered in another pair. Sometimes when Colin felt Ben’s earnest +gaze meant that he was much impressed he wondered what he was +reflecting on and once when he had seemed quite entranced he questioned +him. + +“What are you thinking about, Ben Weatherstaff?” he asked. + +“I was thinkin’” answered Ben, “as I’d warrant tha’s gone up three or +four pound this week. I was lookin’ at tha’ calves an’ tha’ shoulders. +I’d like to get thee on a pair o’ scales.” + +“It’s the Magic and—and Mrs. Sowerby’s buns and milk and things,” said +Colin. “You see the scientific experiment has succeeded.” + +That morning Dickon was too late to hear the lecture. When he came he +was ruddy with running and his funny face looked more twinkling than +usual. As they had a good deal of weeding to do after the rains they +fell to work. They always had plenty to do after a warm deep sinking +rain. The moisture which was good for the flowers was also good for the +weeds which thrust up tiny blades of grass and points of leaves which +must be pulled up before their roots took too firm hold. Colin was as +good at weeding as anyone in these days and he could lecture while he +was doing it. + +“The Magic works best when you work, yourself,” he said this morning. +“You can feel it in your bones and muscles. I am going to read books +about bones and muscles, but I am going to write a book about Magic. I +am making it up now. I keep finding out things.” + +It was not very long after he had said this that he laid down his +trowel and stood up on his feet. He had been silent for several minutes +and they had seen that he was thinking out lectures, as he often did. +When he dropped his trowel and stood upright it seemed to Mary and +Dickon as if a sudden strong thought had made him do it. He stretched +himself out to his tallest height and he threw out his arms exultantly. +Color glowed in his face and his strange eyes widened with joyfulness. +All at once he had realized something to the full. + +“Mary! Dickon!” he cried. “Just look at me!” + +They stopped their weeding and looked at him. + +“Do you remember that first morning you brought me in here?” he +demanded. + +Dickon was looking at him very hard. Being an animal charmer he could +see more things than most people could and many of them were things he +never talked about. He saw some of them now in this boy. + +“Aye, that we do,” he answered. + +Mary looked hard too, but she said nothing. + +“Just this minute,” said Colin, “all at once I remembered it +myself—when I looked at my hand digging with the trowel—and I had to +stand up on my feet to see if it was real. And it is real! I’m +_well_—I’m _well!_” + +“Aye, that th’ art!” said Dickon. + +“I’m well! I’m well!” said Colin again, and his face went quite red all +over. + +He had known it before in a way, he had hoped it and felt it and +thought about it, but just at that minute something had rushed all +through him—a sort of rapturous belief and realization and it had been +so strong that he could not help calling out. + +“I shall live forever and ever and ever!” he cried grandly. “I shall +find out thousands and thousands of things. I shall find out about +people and creatures and everything that grows—like Dickon—and I shall +never stop making Magic. I’m well! I’m well! I feel—I feel as if I want +to shout out something—something thankful, joyful!” + +Ben Weatherstaff, who had been working near a rose-bush, glanced round +at him. + +“Tha’ might sing th’ Doxology,” he suggested in his dryest grunt. He +had no opinion of the Doxology and he did not make the suggestion with +any particular reverence. + +But Colin was of an exploring mind and he knew nothing about the +Doxology. + +“What is that?” he inquired. + +“Dickon can sing it for thee, I’ll warrant,” replied Ben Weatherstaff. + +Dickon answered with his all-perceiving animal charmer’s smile. + +“They sing it i’ church,” he said. “Mother says she believes th’ +skylarks sings it when they gets up i’ th’ mornin’.” + +“If she says that, it must be a nice song,” Colin answered. “I’ve never +been in a church myself. I was always too ill. Sing it, Dickon. I want +to hear it.” + +Dickon was quite simple and unaffected about it. He understood what +Colin felt better than Colin did himself. He understood by a sort of +instinct so natural that he did not know it was understanding. He +pulled off his cap and looked round still smiling. + +“Tha’ must take off tha’ cap,” he said to Colin, “an’ so mun tha’, +Ben—an’ tha’ mun stand up, tha’ knows.” + +Colin took off his cap and the sun shone on and warmed his thick hair +as he watched Dickon intently. Ben Weatherstaff scrambled up from his +knees and bared his head too with a sort of puzzled half-resentful look +on his old face as if he didn’t know exactly why he was doing this +remarkable thing. + +Dickon stood out among the trees and rose-bushes and began to sing in +quite a simple matter-of-fact way and in a nice strong boy voice: + +“Praise God from whom all blessings flow, +Praise Him all creatures here below, +Praise Him above ye Heavenly Host, +Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. + Amen.” + +When he had finished, Ben Weatherstaff was standing quite still with +his jaws set obstinately but with a disturbed look in his eyes fixed on +Colin. Colin’s face was thoughtful and appreciative. + +“It is a very nice song,” he said. “I like it. Perhaps it means just +what I mean when I want to shout out that I am thankful to the Magic.” +He stopped and thought in a puzzled way. “Perhaps they are both the +same thing. How can we know the exact names of everything? Sing it +again, Dickon. Let us try, Mary. I want to sing it, too. It’s my song. +How does it begin? ‘Praise God from whom all blessings flow’?” + +And they sang it again, and Mary and Colin lifted their voices as +musically as they could and Dickon’s swelled quite loud and +beautiful—and at the second line Ben Weatherstaff raspingly cleared his +throat and at the third line he joined in with such vigor that it +seemed almost savage and when the “Amen” came to an end Mary observed +that the very same thing had happened to him which had happened when he +found out that Colin was not a cripple—his chin was twitching and he +was staring and winking and his leathery old cheeks were wet. + +“I never seed no sense in th’ Doxology afore,” he said hoarsely, “but I +may change my mind i’ time. I should say tha’d gone up five pound this +week Mester Colin—five on ’em!” + +Colin was looking across the garden at something attracting his +attention and his expression had become a startled one. + +“Who is coming in here?” he said quickly. “Who is it?” + +The door in the ivied wall had been pushed gently open and a woman had +entered. She had come in with the last line of their song and she had +stood still listening and looking at them. With the ivy behind her, the +sunlight drifting through the trees and dappling her long blue cloak, +and her nice fresh face smiling across the greenery she was rather like +a softly colored illustration in one of Colin’s books. She had +wonderful affectionate eyes which seemed to take everything in—all of +them, even Ben Weatherstaff and the “creatures” and every flower that +was in bloom. Unexpectedly as she had appeared, not one of them felt +that she was an intruder at all. Dickon’s eyes lighted like lamps. + +“It’s mother—that’s who it is!” he cried and went across the grass at a +run. + +Colin began to move toward her, too, and Mary went with him. They both +felt their pulses beat faster. + +“It’s mother!” Dickon said again when they met halfway. “I knowed tha’ +wanted to see her an’ I told her where th’ door was hid.” + +Colin held out his hand with a sort of flushed royal shyness but his +eyes quite devoured her face. + +“Even when I was ill I wanted to see you,” he said, “you and Dickon and +the secret garden. I’d never wanted to see anyone or anything before.” + +The sight of his uplifted face brought about a sudden change in her +own. She flushed and the corners of her mouth shook and a mist seemed +to sweep over her eyes. + +“Eh! dear lad!” she broke out tremulously. “Eh! dear lad!” as if she +had not known she were going to say it. She did not say, “Mester +Colin,” but just “dear lad” quite suddenly. She might have said it to +Dickon in the same way if she had seen something in his face which +touched her. Colin liked it. + +“Are you surprised because I am so well?” he asked. + +She put her hand on his shoulder and smiled the mist out of her eyes. + +“Aye, that I am!” she said; “but tha’rt so like thy mother tha’ made my +heart jump.” + +“Do you think,” said Colin a little awkwardly, “that will make my +father like me?” + +“Aye, for sure, dear lad,” she answered and she gave his shoulder a +soft quick pat. “He mun come home—he mun come home.” + +“Susan Sowerby,” said Ben Weatherstaff, getting close to her. “Look at +th’ lad’s legs, wilt tha’? They was like drumsticks i’ stockin’ two +month’ ago—an’ I heard folk tell as they was bandy an’ knock-kneed both +at th’ same time. Look at ’em now!” + +Susan Sowerby laughed a comfortable laugh. + +“They’re goin’ to be fine strong lad’s legs in a bit,” she said. “Let +him go on playin’ an’ workin’ in the garden an’ eatin’ hearty an’ +drinkin’ plenty o’ good sweet milk an’ there’ll not be a finer pair i’ +Yorkshire, thank God for it.” + +She put both hands on Mistress Mary’s shoulders and looked her little +face over in a motherly fashion. + +“An’ thee, too!” she said. “Tha’rt grown near as hearty as our +’Lisabeth Ellen. I’ll warrant tha’rt like thy mother too. Our Martha +told me as Mrs. Medlock heard she was a pretty woman. Tha’lt be like a +blush rose when tha’ grows up, my little lass, bless thee.” + +She did not mention that when Martha came home on her “day out” and +described the plain sallow child she had said that she had no +confidence whatever in what Mrs. Medlock had heard. “It doesn’t stand +to reason that a pretty woman could be th’ mother o’ such a fou’ little +lass,” she had added obstinately. + +Mary had not had time to pay much attention to her changing face. She +had only known that she looked “different” and seemed to have a great +deal more hair and that it was growing very fast. But remembering her +pleasure in looking at the Mem Sahib in the past she was glad to hear +that she might some day look like her. + +Susan Sowerby went round their garden with them and was told the whole +story of it and shown every bush and tree which had come alive. Colin +walked on one side of her and Mary on the other. Each of them kept +looking up at her comfortable rosy face, secretly curious about the +delightful feeling she gave them—a sort of warm, supported feeling. It +seemed as if she understood them as Dickon understood his “creatures.” +She stooped over the flowers and talked about them as if they were +children. Soot followed her and once or twice cawed at her and flew +upon her shoulder as if it were Dickon’s. When they told her about the +robin and the first flight of the young ones she laughed a motherly +little mellow laugh in her throat. + +“I suppose learnin’ ’em to fly is like learnin’ children to walk, but +I’m feared I should be all in a worrit if mine had wings instead o’ +legs,” she said. + +It was because she seemed such a wonderful woman in her nice moorland +cottage way that at last she was told about the Magic. + +“Do you believe in Magic?” asked Colin after he had explained about +Indian fakirs. “I do hope you do.” + +“That I do, lad,” she answered. “I never knowed it by that name but +what does th’ name matter? I warrant they call it a different name i’ +France an’ a different one i’ Germany. Th’ same thing as set th’ seeds +swellin’ an’ th’ sun shinin’ made thee a well lad an’ it’s th’ Good +Thing. It isn’t like us poor fools as think it matters if us is called +out of our names. Th’ Big Good Thing doesn’t stop to worrit, bless +thee. It goes on makin’ worlds by th’ million—worlds like us. Never +thee stop believin’ in th’ Big Good Thing an’ knowin’ th’ world’s full +of it—an’ call it what tha’ likes. Tha’ wert singin’ to it when I come +into th’ garden.” + +“I felt so joyful,” said Colin, opening his beautiful strange eyes at +her. “Suddenly I felt how different I was—how strong my arms and legs +were, you know—and how I could dig and stand—and I jumped up and wanted +to shout out something to anything that would listen.” + +“Th’ Magic listened when tha’ sung th’ Doxology. It would ha’ listened +to anything tha’d sung. It was th’ joy that mattered. Eh! lad, +lad—what’s names to th’ Joy Maker,” and she gave his shoulders a quick +soft pat again. + +She had packed a basket which held a regular feast this morning, and +when the hungry hour came and Dickon brought it out from its hiding +place, she sat down with them under their tree and watched them devour +their food, laughing and quite gloating over their appetites. She was +full of fun and made them laugh at all sorts of odd things. She told +them stories in broad Yorkshire and taught them new words. She laughed +as if she could not help it when they told her of the increasing +difficulty there was in pretending that Colin was still a fretful +invalid. + +“You see we can’t help laughing nearly all the time when we are +together,” explained Colin. “And it doesn’t sound ill at all. We try to +choke it back but it will burst out and that sounds worse than ever.” + +“There’s one thing that comes into my mind so often,” said Mary, “and I +can scarcely ever hold in when I think of it suddenly. I keep thinking +suppose Colin’s face should get to look like a full moon. It isn’t like +one yet but he gets a tiny bit fatter every day—and suppose some +morning it should look like one—what should we do!” + +“Bless us all, I can see tha’ has a good bit o’ play actin’ to do,” +said Susan Sowerby. “But tha’ won’t have to keep it up much longer. +Mester Craven’ll come home.” + +“Do you think he will?” asked Colin. “Why?” + +Susan Sowerby chuckled softly. + +“I suppose it ’ud nigh break thy heart if he found out before tha’ told +him in tha’ own way,” she said. “Tha’s laid awake nights plannin’ it.” + +“I couldn’t bear anyone else to tell him,” said Colin. “I think about +different ways every day, I think now I just want to run into his +room.” + +“That’d be a fine start for him,” said Susan Sowerby. “I’d like to see +his face, lad. I would that! He mun come back—that he mun.” + +One of the things they talked of was the visit they were to make to her +cottage. They planned it all. They were to drive over the moor and +lunch out of doors among the heather. They would see all the twelve +children and Dickon’s garden and would not come back until they were +tired. + +Susan Sowerby got up at last to return to the house and Mrs. Medlock. +It was time for Colin to be wheeled back also. But before he got into +his chair he stood quite close to Susan and fixed his eyes on her with +a kind of bewildered adoration and he suddenly caught hold of the fold +of her blue cloak and held it fast. + +“You are just what I—what I wanted,” he said. “I wish you were my +mother—as well as Dickon’s!” + +All at once Susan Sowerby bent down and drew him with her warm arms +close against the bosom under the blue cloak—as if he had been Dickon’s +brother. The quick mist swept over her eyes. + +“Eh! dear lad!” she said. “Thy own mother’s in this ’ere very garden, I +do believe. She couldna’ keep out of it. Thy father mun come back to +thee—he mun!” + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII. +IN THE GARDEN + + +In each century since the beginning of the world wonderful things have +been discovered. In the last century more amazing things were found out +than in any century before. In this new century hundreds of things +still more astounding will be brought to light. At first people refuse +to believe that a strange new thing can be done, then they begin to +hope it can be done, then they see it can be done—then it is done and +all the world wonders why it was not done centuries ago. One of the new +things people began to find out in the last century was that +thoughts—just mere thoughts—are as powerful as electric batteries—as +good for one as sunlight is, or as bad for one as poison. To let a sad +thought or a bad one get into your mind is as dangerous as letting a +scarlet fever germ get into your body. If you let it stay there after +it has got in you may never get over it as long as you live. + +So long as Mistress Mary’s mind was full of disagreeable thoughts about +her dislikes and sour opinions of people and her determination not to +be pleased by or interested in anything, she was a yellow-faced, +sickly, bored and wretched child. Circumstances, however, were very +kind to her, though she was not at all aware of it. They began to push +her about for her own good. When her mind gradually filled itself with +robins, and moorland cottages crowded with children, with queer crabbed +old gardeners and common little Yorkshire housemaids, with springtime +and with secret gardens coming alive day by day, and also with a moor +boy and his “creatures,” there was no room left for the disagreeable +thoughts which affected her liver and her digestion and made her yellow +and tired. + +So long as Colin shut himself up in his room and thought only of his +fears and weakness and his detestation of people who looked at him and +reflected hourly on humps and early death, he was a hysterical +half-crazy little hypochondriac who knew nothing of the sunshine and +the spring and also did not know that he could get well and could stand +upon his feet if he tried to do it. When new beautiful thoughts began +to push out the old hideous ones, life began to come back to him, his +blood ran healthily through his veins and strength poured into him like +a flood. His scientific experiment was quite practical and simple and +there was nothing weird about it at all. Much more surprising things +can happen to anyone who, when a disagreeable or discouraged thought +comes into his mind, just has the sense to remember in time and push it +out by putting in an agreeable determinedly courageous one. Two things +cannot be in one place. + +“Where you tend a rose, my lad, +A thistle cannot grow.” + +While the secret garden was coming alive and two children were coming +alive with it, there was a man wandering about certain far-away +beautiful places in the Norwegian fiords and the valleys and mountains +of Switzerland and he was a man who for ten years had kept his mind +filled with dark and heart-broken thinking. He had not been courageous; +he had never tried to put any other thoughts in the place of the dark +ones. He had wandered by blue lakes and thought them; he had lain on +mountain-sides with sheets of deep blue gentians blooming all about him +and flower breaths filling all the air and he had thought them. A +terrible sorrow had fallen upon him when he had been happy and he had +let his soul fill itself with blackness and had refused obstinately to +allow any rift of light to pierce through. He had forgotten and +deserted his home and his duties. When he traveled about, darkness so +brooded over him that the sight of him was a wrong done to other people +because it was as if he poisoned the air about him with gloom. Most +strangers thought he must be either half mad or a man with some hidden +crime on his soul. He, was a tall man with a drawn face and crooked +shoulders and the name he always entered on hotel registers was, +“Archibald Craven, Misselthwaite Manor, Yorkshire, England.” + +He had traveled far and wide since the day he saw Mistress Mary in his +study and told her she might have her “bit of earth.” He had been in +the most beautiful places in Europe, though he had remained nowhere +more than a few days. He had chosen the quietest and remotest spots. He +had been on the tops of mountains whose heads were in the clouds and +had looked down on other mountains when the sun rose and touched them +with such light as made it seem as if the world were just being born. + +But the light had never seemed to touch himself until one day when he +realized that for the first time in ten years a strange thing had +happened. He was in a wonderful valley in the Austrian Tyrol and he had +been walking alone through such beauty as might have lifted, any man’s +soul out of shadow. He had walked a long way and it had not lifted his. +But at last he had felt tired and had thrown himself down to rest on a +carpet of moss by a stream. It was a clear little stream which ran +quite merrily along on its narrow way through the luscious damp +greenness. Sometimes it made a sound rather like very low laughter as +it bubbled over and round stones. He saw birds come and dip their heads +to drink in it and then flick their wings and fly away. It seemed like +a thing alive and yet its tiny voice made the stillness seem deeper. +The valley was very, very still. + +As he sat gazing into the clear running of the water, Archibald Craven +gradually felt his mind and body both grow quiet, as quiet as the +valley itself. He wondered if he were going to sleep, but he was not. +He sat and gazed at the sunlit water and his eyes began to see things +growing at its edge. There was one lovely mass of blue forget-me-nots +growing so close to the stream that its leaves were wet and at these he +found himself looking as he remembered he had looked at such things +years ago. He was actually thinking tenderly how lovely it was and what +wonders of blue its hundreds of little blossoms were. He did not know +that just that simple thought was slowly filling his mind—filling and +filling it until other things were softly pushed aside. It was as if a +sweet clear spring had begun to rise in a stagnant pool and had risen +and risen until at last it swept the dark water away. But of course he +did not think of this himself. He only knew that the valley seemed to +grow quieter and quieter as he sat and stared at the bright delicate +blueness. He did not know how long he sat there or what was happening +to him, but at last he moved as if he were awakening and he got up +slowly and stood on the moss carpet, drawing a long, deep, soft breath +and wondering at himself. Something seemed to have been unbound and +released in him, very quietly. + +“What is it?” he said, almost in a whisper, and he passed his hand over +his forehead. “I almost feel as if—I were alive!” + +I do not know enough about the wonderfulness of undiscovered things to +be able to explain how this had happened to him. Neither does anyone +else yet. He did not understand at all himself—but he remembered this +strange hour months afterward when he was at Misselthwaite again and he +found out quite by accident that on this very day Colin had cried out +as he went into the secret garden: + +“I am going to live forever and ever and ever!” + +The singular calmness remained with him the rest of the evening and he +slept a new reposeful sleep; but it was not with him very long. He did +not know that it could be kept. By the next night he had opened the +doors wide to his dark thoughts and they had come trooping and rushing +back. He left the valley and went on his wandering way again. But, +strange as it seemed to him, there were minutes—sometimes +half-hours—when, without his knowing why, the black burden seemed to +lift itself again and he knew he was a living man and not a dead one. +Slowly—slowly—for no reason that he knew of—he was “coming alive” with +the garden. + +As the golden summer changed into the deep golden autumn he went to the +Lake of Como. There he found the loveliness of a dream. He spent his +days upon the crystal blueness of the lake or he walked back into the +soft thick verdure of the hills and tramped until he was tired so that +he might sleep. But by this time he had begun to sleep better, he knew, +and his dreams had ceased to be a terror to him. + +“Perhaps,” he thought, “my body is growing stronger.” + +It was growing stronger but—because of the rare peaceful hours when his +thoughts were changed—his soul was slowly growing stronger, too. He +began to think of Misselthwaite and wonder if he should not go home. +Now and then he wondered vaguely about his boy and asked himself what +he should feel when he went and stood by the carved four-posted bed +again and looked down at the sharply chiseled ivory-white face while it +slept and, the black lashes rimmed so startlingly the close-shut eyes. +He shrank from it. + +One marvel of a day he had walked so far that when he returned the moon +was high and full and all the world was purple shadow and silver. The +stillness of lake and shore and wood was so wonderful that he did not +go into the villa he lived in. He walked down to a little bowered +terrace at the water’s edge and sat upon a seat and breathed in all the +heavenly scents of the night. He felt the strange calmness stealing +over him and it grew deeper and deeper until he fell asleep. + +He did not know when he fell asleep and when he began to dream; his +dream was so real that he did not feel as if he were dreaming. He +remembered afterward how intensely wide awake and alert he had thought +he was. He thought that as he sat and breathed in the scent of the late +roses and listened to the lapping of the water at his feet he heard a +voice calling. It was sweet and clear and happy and far away. It seemed +very far, but he heard it as distinctly as if it had been at his very +side. + +“Archie! Archie! Archie!” it said, and then again, sweeter and clearer +than before, “Archie! Archie!” + +He thought he sprang to his feet not even startled. It was such a real +voice and it seemed so natural that he should hear it. + +“Lilias! Lilias!” he answered. “Lilias! where are you?” + +“In the garden,” it came back like a sound from a golden flute. “In the +garden!” + +And then the dream ended. But he did not awaken. He slept soundly and +sweetly all through the lovely night. When he did awake at last it was +brilliant morning and a servant was standing staring at him. He was an +Italian servant and was accustomed, as all the servants of the villa +were, to accepting without question any strange thing his foreign +master might do. No one ever knew when he would go out or come in or +where he would choose to sleep or if he would roam about the garden or +lie in the boat on the lake all night. The man held a salver with some +letters on it and he waited quietly until Mr. Craven took them. When he +had gone away Mr. Craven sat a few moments holding them in his hand and +looking at the lake. His strange calm was still upon him and something +more—a lightness as if the cruel thing which had been done had not +happened as he thought—as if something had changed. He was remembering +the dream—the real—real dream. + +“In the garden!” he said, wondering at himself. “In the garden! But the +door is locked and the key is buried deep.” + +When he glanced at the letters a few minutes later he saw that the one +lying at the top of the rest was an English letter and came from +Yorkshire. It was directed in a plain woman’s hand but it was not a +hand he knew. He opened it, scarcely thinking of the writer, but the +first words attracted his attention at once. + + +“_Dear Sir:_ + +I am Susan Sowerby that made bold to speak to you once on the moor. It +was about Miss Mary I spoke. I will make bold to speak again. Please, +sir, I would come home if I was you. I think you would be glad to come +and—if you will excuse me, sir—I think your lady would ask you to come +if she was here. + + Your obedient servant, + + Susan Sowerby.” + +Mr. Craven read the letter twice before he put it back in its envelope. +He kept thinking about the dream. + +“I will go back to Misselthwaite,” he said. “Yes, I’ll go at once.” + +And he went through the garden to the villa and ordered Pitcher to +prepare for his return to England. + +In a few days he was in Yorkshire again, and on his long railroad +journey he found himself thinking of his boy as he had never thought in +all the ten years past. During those years he had only wished to forget +him. Now, though he did not intend to think about him, memories of him +constantly drifted into his mind. He remembered the black days when he +had raved like a madman because the child was alive and the mother was +dead. He had refused to see it, and when he had gone to look at it at +last it had been, such a weak wretched thing that everyone had been +sure it would die in a few days. But to the surprise of those who took +care of it the days passed and it lived and then everyone believed it +would be a deformed and crippled creature. + +He had not meant to be a bad father, but he had not felt like a father +at all. He had supplied doctors and nurses and luxuries, but he had +shrunk from the mere thought of the boy and had buried himself in his +own misery. The first time after a year’s absence he returned to +Misselthwaite and the small miserable looking thing languidly and +indifferently lifted to his face the great gray eyes with black lashes +round them, so like and yet so horribly unlike the happy eyes he had +adored, he could not bear the sight of them and turned away pale as +death. After that he scarcely ever saw him except when he was asleep, +and all he knew of him was that he was a confirmed invalid, with a +vicious, hysterical, half-insane temper. He could only be kept from +furies dangerous to himself by being given his own way in every detail. + +All this was not an uplifting thing to recall, but as the train whirled +him through mountain passes and golden plains the man who was “coming +alive” began to think in a new way and he thought long and steadily and +deeply. + +“Perhaps I have been all wrong for ten years,” he said to himself. “Ten +years is a long time. It may be too late to do anything—quite too late. +What have I been thinking of!” + +Of course this was the wrong Magic—to begin by saying “too late.” Even +Colin could have told him that. But he knew nothing of Magic—either +black or white. This he had yet to learn. He wondered if Susan Sowerby +had taken courage and written to him only because the motherly creature +had realized that the boy was much worse—was fatally ill. If he had not +been under the spell of the curious calmness which had taken possession +of him he would have been more wretched than ever. But the calm had +brought a sort of courage and hope with it. Instead of giving way to +thoughts of the worst he actually found he was trying to believe in +better things. + +“Could it be possible that she sees that I may be able to do him good +and control him?” he thought. “I will go and see her on my way to +Misselthwaite.” + +But when on his way across the moor he stopped the carriage at the +cottage, seven or eight children who were playing about gathered in a +group and bobbing seven or eight friendly and polite curtsies told him +that their mother had gone to the other side of the moor early in the +morning to help a woman who had a new baby. “Our Dickon,” they +volunteered, was over at the Manor working in one of the gardens where +he went several days each week. + +Mr. Craven looked over the collection of sturdy little bodies and round +red-cheeked faces, each one grinning in its own particular way, and he +awoke to the fact that they were a healthy likable lot. He smiled at +their friendly grins and took a golden sovereign from his pocket and +gave it to “our ’Lizabeth Ellen” who was the oldest. + +“If you divide that into eight parts there will be half a crown for +each of, you,” he said. + +Then amid grins and chuckles and bobbing of curtsies he drove away, +leaving ecstasy and nudging elbows and little jumps of joy behind. + +The drive across the wonderfulness of the moor was a soothing thing. +Why did it seem to give him a sense of homecoming which he had been +sure he could never feel again—that sense of the beauty of land and sky +and purple bloom of distance and a warming of the heart at drawing, +nearer to the great old house which had held those of his blood for six +hundred years? How he had driven away from it the last time, shuddering +to think of its closed rooms and the boy lying in the four-posted bed +with the brocaded hangings. Was it possible that perhaps he might find +him changed a little for the better and that he might overcome his +shrinking from him? How real that dream had been—how wonderful and +clear the voice which called back to him, “In the garden—In the +garden!” + +“I will try to find the key,” he said. “I will try to open the door. I +must—though I don’t know why.” + +When he arrived at the Manor the servants who received him with the +usual ceremony noticed that he looked better and that he did not go to +the remote rooms where he usually lived attended by Pitcher. He went +into the library and sent for Mrs. Medlock. She came to him somewhat +excited and curious and flustered. + +“How is Master Colin, Medlock?” he inquired. + +“Well, sir,” Mrs. Medlock answered, “he’s—he’s different, in a manner +of speaking.” + +“Worse?” he suggested. + +Mrs. Medlock really was flushed. + +“Well, you see, sir,” she tried to explain, “neither Dr. Craven, nor +the nurse, nor me can exactly make him out.” + +“Why is that?” + +“To tell the truth, sir, Master Colin might be better and he might be +changing for the worse. His appetite, sir, is past understanding—and +his ways—” + +“Has he become more—more peculiar?” her master, asked, knitting his +brows anxiously. + +“That’s it, sir. He’s growing very peculiar—when you compare him with +what he used to be. He used to eat nothing and then suddenly he began +to eat something enormous—and then he stopped again all at once and the +meals were sent back just as they used to be. You never knew, sir, +perhaps, that out of doors he never would let himself be taken. The +things we’ve gone through to get him to go out in his chair would leave +a body trembling like a leaf. He’d throw himself into such a state that +Dr. Craven said he couldn’t be responsible for forcing him. Well, sir, +just without warning—not long after one of his worst tantrums he +suddenly insisted on being taken out every day by Miss Mary and Susan +Sowerby’s boy Dickon that could push his chair. He took a fancy to both +Miss Mary and Dickon, and Dickon brought his tame animals, and, if +you’ll credit it, sir, out of doors he will stay from morning until +night.” + +“How does he look?” was the next question. + +“If he took his food natural, sir, you’d think he was putting on +flesh—but we’re afraid it may be a sort of bloat. He laughs sometimes +in a queer way when he’s alone with Miss Mary. He never used to laugh +at all. Dr. Craven is coming to see you at once, if you’ll allow him. +He never was as puzzled in his life.” + +“Where is Master Colin now?” Mr. Craven asked. + +“In the garden, sir. He’s always in the garden—though not a human +creature is allowed to go near for fear they’ll look at him.” + +Mr. Craven scarcely heard her last words. + +“In the garden,” he said, and after he had sent Mrs. Medlock away he +stood and repeated it again and again. “In the garden!” + +He had to make an effort to bring himself back to the place he was +standing in and when he felt he was on earth again he turned and went +out of the room. He took his way, as Mary had done, through the door in +the shrubbery and among the laurels and the fountain beds. The fountain +was playing now and was encircled by beds of brilliant autumn flowers. +He crossed the lawn and turned into the Long Walk by the ivied walls. +He did not walk quickly, but slowly, and his eyes were on the path. He +felt as if he were being drawn back to the place he had so long +forsaken, and he did not know why. As he drew near to it his step +became still more slow. He knew where the door was even though the ivy +hung thick over it—but he did not know exactly where it lay—that buried +key. + +So he stopped and stood still, looking about him, and almost the moment +after he had paused he started and listened—asking himself if he were +walking in a dream. + +The ivy hung thick over the door, the key was buried under the shrubs, +no human being had passed that portal for ten lonely years—and yet +inside the garden there were sounds. They were the sounds of running +scuffling feet seeming to chase round and round under the trees, they +were strange sounds of lowered suppressed voices—exclamations and +smothered joyous cries. It seemed actually like the laughter of young +things, the uncontrollable laughter of children who were trying not to +be heard but who in a moment or so—as their excitement mounted—would +burst forth. What in heaven’s name was he dreaming of—what in heaven’s +name did he hear? Was he losing his reason and thinking he heard things +which were not for human ears? Was it that the far clear voice had +meant? + +And then the moment came, the uncontrollable moment when the sounds +forgot to hush themselves. The feet ran faster and faster—they were +nearing the garden door—there was quick strong young breathing and a +wild outbreak of laughing shouts which could not be contained—and the +door in the wall was flung wide open, the sheet of ivy swinging back, +and a boy burst through it at full speed and, without seeing the +outsider, dashed almost into his arms. + +Mr. Craven had extended them just in time to save him from falling as a +result of his unseeing dash against him, and when he held him away to +look at him in amazement at his being there he truly gasped for breath. + +He was a tall boy and a handsome one. He was glowing with life and his +running had sent splendid color leaping to his face. He threw the thick +hair back from his forehead and lifted a pair of strange gray eyes—eyes +full of boyish laughter and rimmed with black lashes like a fringe. It +was the eyes which made Mr. Craven gasp for breath. + +“Who—What? Who!” he stammered. + +This was not what Colin had expected—this was not what he had planned. +He had never thought of such a meeting. And yet to come dashing +out—winning a race—perhaps it was even better. He drew himself up to +his very tallest. Mary, who had been running with him and had dashed +through the door too, believed that he managed to make himself look +taller than he had ever looked before—inches taller. + +“Father,” he said, “I’m Colin. You can’t believe it. I scarcely can +myself. I’m Colin.” + +Like Mrs. Medlock, he did not understand what his father meant when he +said hurriedly: + +“In the garden! In the garden!” + +“Yes,” hurried on Colin. “It was the garden that did it—and Mary and +Dickon and the creatures—and the Magic. No one knows. We kept it to +tell you when you came. I’m well, I can beat Mary in a race. I’m going +to be an athlete.” + +He said it all so like a healthy boy—his face flushed, his words +tumbling over each other in his eagerness—that Mr. Craven’s soul shook +with unbelieving joy. + +Colin put out his hand and laid it on his father’s arm. + +“Aren’t you glad, Father?” he ended. “Aren’t you glad? I’m going to +live forever and ever and ever!” + +Mr. Craven put his hands on both the boy’s shoulders and held him +still. He knew he dared not even try to speak for a moment. + +“Take me into the garden, my boy,” he said at last. “And tell me all +about it.” + +And so they led him in. + +The place was a wilderness of autumn gold and purple and violet blue +and flaming scarlet and on every side were sheaves of late lilies +standing together—lilies which were white or white and ruby. He +remembered well when the first of them had been planted that just at +this season of the year their late glories should reveal themselves. +Late roses climbed and hung and clustered and the sunshine deepening +the hue of the yellowing trees made one feel that one, stood in an +embowered temple of gold. The newcomer stood silent just as the +children had done when they came into its grayness. He looked round and +round. + +“I thought it would be dead,” he said. + +“Mary thought so at first,” said Colin. “But it came alive.” + +Then they sat down under their tree—all but Colin, who wanted to stand +while he told the story. + +It was the strangest thing he had ever heard, Archibald Craven thought, +as it was poured forth in headlong boy fashion. Mystery and Magic and +wild creatures, the weird midnight meeting—the coming of the spring—the +passion of insulted pride which had dragged the young Rajah to his feet +to defy old Ben Weatherstaff to his face. The odd companionship, the +play acting, the great secret so carefully kept. The listener laughed +until tears came into his eyes and sometimes tears came into his eyes +when he was not laughing. The Athlete, the Lecturer, the Scientific +Discoverer was a laughable, lovable, healthy young human thing. + +“Now,” he said at the end of the story, “it need not be a secret any +more. I dare say it will frighten them nearly into fits when they see +me—but I am never going to get into the chair again. I shall walk back +with you, Father—to the house.” + +Ben Weatherstaff’s duties rarely took him away from the gardens, but on +this occasion he made an excuse to carry some vegetables to the kitchen +and being invited into the servants’ hall by Mrs. Medlock to drink a +glass of beer he was on the spot—as he had hoped to be—when the most +dramatic event Misselthwaite Manor had seen during the present +generation actually took place. + +One of the windows looking upon the courtyard gave also a glimpse of +the lawn. Mrs. Medlock, knowing Ben had come from the gardens, hoped +that he might have caught sight of his master and even by chance of his +meeting with Master Colin. + +“Did you see either of them, Weatherstaff?” she asked. + +Ben took his beer-mug from his mouth and wiped his lips with the back +of his hand. + +“Aye, that I did,” he answered with a shrewdly significant air. + +“Both of them?” suggested Mrs. Medlock. + +“Both of ’em,” returned Ben Weatherstaff. “Thank ye kindly, ma’am, I +could sup up another mug of it.” + +“Together?” said Mrs. Medlock, hastily overfilling his beer-mug in her +excitement. + +“Together, ma’am,” and Ben gulped down half of his new mug at one gulp. + +“Where was Master Colin? How did he look? What did they say to each +other?” + +“I didna’ hear that,” said Ben, “along o’ only bein’ on th’ stepladder +lookin over th’ wall. But I’ll tell thee this. There’s been things +goin’ on outside as you house people knows nowt about. An’ what tha’ll +find out tha’ll find out soon.” + +And it was not two minutes before he swallowed the last of his beer and +waved his mug solemnly toward the window which took in through the +shrubbery a piece of the lawn. + +“Look there,” he said, “if tha’s curious. Look what’s comin’ across th’ +grass.” + +When Mrs. Medlock looked she threw up her hands and gave a little +shriek and every man and woman servant within hearing bolted across the +servants’ hall and stood looking through the window with their eyes +almost starting out of their heads. + +Across the lawn came the Master of Misselthwaite and he looked as many +of them had never seen him. And by his side with his head up in the air +and his eyes full of laughter walked as strongly and steadily as any +boy in Yorkshire—Master Colin! + +THE END + + + + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE SECRET GARDEN *** + +***** This file should be named 113-0.txt or 113-0.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + https://www.gutenberg.org/1/1/113/ + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions will +be renamed. + +Creating the works from print editions not protected by U.S. copyright +law means that no one owns a United States copyright in these works, +so the Foundation (and you!) can copy and distribute it in the +United States without permission and without paying copyright +royalties. Special rules, set forth in the General Terms of Use part +of this license, apply to copying and distributing Project +Gutenberg-tm electronic works to protect the PROJECT GUTENBERG-tm +concept and trademark. 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If you +are not located in the United States, you will have to check the laws of the +country where you are located before using this eBook. +</div> +<div style='display:block; margin-top:1em; margin-bottom:1em; margin-left:2em; text-indent:-2em'>Title: The Secret Garden</div> +<div style='display:block; margin-top:1em; margin-bottom:1em; margin-left:2em; text-indent:-2em'>Author: Frances Hodgson Burnett</div> +<div style='display:block;margin:1em 0'>Release Date: March 13, 1994 [eBook #113]<br /> +[Most recently updated: March 15, 2021]</div> +<div style='display:block;margin:1em 0'>Language: English</div> +<div style='display:block;margin:1em 0'>Character set encoding: UTF-8</div> +<div style='margin-top:2em;margin-bottom:4em'>*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE SECRET GARDEN ***</div> + +<table summary="" style="margin-right: auto; margin-left: auto" cellpadding="4" border="3"> +<tr> +<td> +THERE IS AN ILLUSTRATED EDITION OF THIS TITLE WHICH MAY VIEWED AT EBOOK <big><b><a href="https://www.gutenberg.org/ebooks/17396"> +[ #17396 ]</a></b></big> +</td> +</tr> +</table> + +<h1> +THE SECRET GARDEN +</h1> + +<h2 class="no-break"> +by Frances Hodgson Burnett +</h2> + +<p class="center"> +<i>Author of +<br /><br /> +“The Shuttle,” “The Making of a Marchioness,” +“The Methods of Lady Walderhurst,” “The Lass o’ +Lowries,” “Through One Administration,” “Little Lord +Fauntleroy,” “A Lady of Quality,” etc.</i> +</p> + +<hr /> + +<h2> +Contents +</h2> + +<table summary="" style="margin-right: auto; margin-left: auto"> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap01">I. THERE IS NO ONE LEFT</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap02">II. MISTRESS MARY QUITE CONTRARY</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap03">III. ACROSS THE MOOR</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap04">IV. MARTHA</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap05">V. THE CRY IN THE CORRIDOR</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap06">VI. “THERE WAS SOMEONE CRYING—THERE WAS!”</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap07">VII. THE KEY TO THE GARDEN</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap08">VIII. THE ROBIN WHO SHOWED THE WAY</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap09">IX. THE STRANGEST HOUSE ANYONE EVER LIVED IN</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap10">X. DICKON</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap11">XI. THE NEST OF THE MISSEL THRUSH</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap12">XII. “MIGHT I HAVE A BIT OF EARTH?”</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap13">XIII. “I AM COLIN”</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap14">XIV. A YOUNG RAJAH</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap15">XV. NEST BUILDING</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap16">XVI. “I WON’T!” SAID MARY</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap17">XVII. A TANTRUM</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap18">XVIII. “THA’ MUNNOT WASTE NO TIME”</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap19">XIX. “IT HAS COME!”</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap20">XX. “I SHALL LIVE FOREVER—AND EVER—AND EVER!”</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap21">XXI. BEN WEATHERSTAFF</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap22">XXII. WHEN THE SUN WENT DOWN</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap23">XXIII. MAGIC</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap24">XXIV. “LET THEM LAUGH”</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap25">XXV. THE CURTAIN</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap26">XXVI. “IT’S MOTHER!”</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap27">XXVII. IN THE GARDEN</a></td> +</tr> + +</table> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap01"></a>CHAPTER I.<br /> +THERE IS NO ONE LEFT</h2> + +<p> +When Mary Lennox was sent to Misselthwaite Manor to live with her uncle +everybody said she was the most disagreeable-looking child ever seen. It was +true, too. She had a little thin face and a little thin body, thin light hair +and a sour expression. Her hair was yellow, and her face was yellow because she +had been born in India and had always been ill in one way or another. Her +father had held a position under the English Government and had always been +busy and ill himself, and her mother had been a great beauty who cared only to +go to parties and amuse herself with gay people. She had not wanted a little +girl at all, and when Mary was born she handed her over to the care of an Ayah, +who was made to understand that if she wished to please the Mem Sahib she must +keep the child out of sight as much as possible. So when she was a sickly, +fretful, ugly little baby she was kept out of the way, and when she became a +sickly, fretful, toddling thing she was kept out of the way also. She never +remembered seeing familiarly anything but the dark faces of her Ayah and the +other native servants, and as they always obeyed her and gave her her own way +in everything, because the Mem Sahib would be angry if she was disturbed by her +crying, by the time she was six years old she was as tyrannical and selfish a +little pig as ever lived. The young English governess who came to teach her to +read and write disliked her so much that she gave up her place in three months, +and when other governesses came to try to fill it they always went away in a +shorter time than the first one. So if Mary had not chosen to really want to +know how to read books she would never have learned her letters at all. +</p> + +<p> +One frightfully hot morning, when she was about nine years old, she awakened +feeling very cross, and she became crosser still when she saw that the servant +who stood by her bedside was not her Ayah. +</p> + +<p> +“Why did you come?” she said to the strange woman. “I will +not let you stay. Send my Ayah to me.” +</p> + +<p> +The woman looked frightened, but she only stammered that the Ayah could not +come and when Mary threw herself into a passion and beat and kicked her, she +looked only more frightened and repeated that it was not possible for the Ayah +to come to Missie Sahib. +</p> + +<p> +There was something mysterious in the air that morning. Nothing was done in its +regular order and several of the native servants seemed missing, while those +whom Mary saw slunk or hurried about with ashy and scared faces. But no one +would tell her anything and her Ayah did not come. She was actually left alone +as the morning went on, and at last she wandered out into the garden and began +to play by herself under a tree near the veranda. She pretended that she was +making a flower-bed, and she stuck big scarlet hibiscus blossoms into little +heaps of earth, all the time growing more and more angry and muttering to +herself the things she would say and the names she would call Saidie when she +returned. +</p> + +<p> +“Pig! Pig! Daughter of Pigs!” she said, because to call a native a +pig is the worst insult of all. +</p> + +<p> +She was grinding her teeth and saying this over and over again when she heard +her mother come out on the veranda with someone. She was with a fair young man +and they stood talking together in low strange voices. Mary knew the fair young +man who looked like a boy. She had heard that he was a very young officer who +had just come from England. The child stared at him, but she stared most at her +mother. She always did this when she had a chance to see her, because the Mem +Sahib—Mary used to call her that oftener than anything else—was +such a tall, slim, pretty person and wore such lovely clothes. Her hair was +like curly silk and she had a delicate little nose which seemed to be +disdaining things, and she had large laughing eyes. All her clothes were thin +and floating, and Mary said they were “full of lace.” They looked +fuller of lace than ever this morning, but her eyes were not laughing at all. +They were large and scared and lifted imploringly to the fair boy +officer’s face. +</p> + +<p> +“Is it so very bad? Oh, is it?” Mary heard her say. +</p> + +<p> +“Awfully,” the young man answered in a trembling voice. +“Awfully, Mrs. Lennox. You ought to have gone to the hills two weeks +ago.” +</p> + +<p> +The Mem Sahib wrung her hands. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, I know I ought!” she cried. “I only stayed to go to that +silly dinner party. What a fool I was!” +</p> + +<p> +At that very moment such a loud sound of wailing broke out from the +servants’ quarters that she clutched the young man’s arm, and Mary +stood shivering from head to foot. The wailing grew wilder and wilder. +“What is it? What is it?” Mrs. Lennox gasped. +</p> + +<p> +“Someone has died,” answered the boy officer. “You did not +say it had broken out among your servants.” +</p> + +<p> +“I did not know!” the Mem Sahib cried. “Come with me! Come +with me!” and she turned and ran into the house. +</p> + +<p> +After that appalling things happened, and the mysteriousness of the morning +was explained to Mary. The cholera had broken out in its most fatal form and +people were dying like flies. The Ayah had been taken ill in the night, and it +was because she had just died that the servants had wailed in the huts. Before +the next day three other servants were dead and others had run away in terror. +There was panic on every side, and dying people in all the bungalows. +</p> + +<p> +During the confusion and bewilderment of the second day Mary hid herself in the +nursery and was forgotten by everyone. Nobody thought of her, nobody wanted +her, and strange things happened of which she knew nothing. Mary alternately +cried and slept through the hours. She only knew that people were ill and that +she heard mysterious and frightening sounds. Once she crept into the +dining-room and found it empty, though a partly finished meal was on the table +and chairs and plates looked as if they had been hastily pushed back when the +diners rose suddenly for some reason. The child ate some fruit and biscuits, +and being thirsty she drank a glass of wine which stood nearly filled. It was +sweet, and she did not know how strong it was. Very soon it made her intensely +drowsy, and she went back to her nursery and shut herself in again, frightened +by cries she heard in the huts and by the hurrying sound of feet. The wine made +her so sleepy that she could scarcely keep her eyes open and she lay down on +her bed and knew nothing more for a long time. +</p> + +<p> +Many things happened during the hours in which she slept so heavily, but she +was not disturbed by the wails and the sound of things being carried in and out +of the bungalow. +</p> + +<p> +When she awakened she lay and stared at the wall. The house was perfectly +still. She had never known it to be so silent before. She heard neither voices +nor footsteps, and wondered if everybody had got well of the cholera and all +the trouble was over. She wondered also who would take care of her now her Ayah +was dead. There would be a new Ayah, and perhaps she would know some new +stories. Mary had been rather tired of the old ones. She did not cry because +her nurse had died. She was not an affectionate child and had never cared much +for anyone. The noise and hurrying about and wailing over the cholera had +frightened her, and she had been angry because no one seemed to remember that +she was alive. Everyone was too panic-stricken to think of a little girl no one +was fond of. When people had the cholera it seemed that they remembered nothing +but themselves. But if everyone had got well again, surely someone would +remember and come to look for her. +</p> + +<p> +But no one came, and as she lay waiting the house seemed to grow more and more +silent. She heard something rustling on the matting and when she looked down +she saw a little snake gliding along and watching her with eyes like jewels. +She was not frightened, because he was a harmless little thing who would not +hurt her and he seemed in a hurry to get out of the room. He slipped under the +door as she watched him. +</p> + +<p> +“How queer and quiet it is,” she said. “It sounds as if there +were no one in the bungalow but me and the snake.” +</p> + +<p> +Almost the next minute she heard footsteps in the compound, and then on the +veranda. They were men’s footsteps, and the men entered the bungalow and +talked in low voices. No one went to meet or speak to them and they seemed to +open doors and look into rooms. +</p> + +<p> +“What desolation!” she heard one voice say. “That pretty, +pretty woman! I suppose the child, too. I heard there was a child, though no +one ever saw her.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary was standing in the middle of the nursery when they opened the door a few +minutes later. She looked an ugly, cross little thing and was frowning because +she was beginning to be hungry and feel disgracefully neglected. The first man +who came in was a large officer she had once seen talking to her father. He +looked tired and troubled, but when he saw her he was so startled that he +almost jumped back. +</p> + +<p> +“Barney!” he cried out. “There is a child here! A child +alone! In a place like this! Mercy on us, who is she!” +</p> + +<p> +“I am Mary Lennox,” the little girl said, drawing herself up +stiffly. She thought the man was very rude to call her father’s bungalow +“A place like this!” “I fell asleep when everyone had the +cholera and I have only just wakened up. Why does nobody come?” +</p> + +<p> +“It is the child no one ever saw!” exclaimed the man, turning to +his companions. “She has actually been forgotten!” +</p> + +<p> +“Why was I forgotten?” Mary said, stamping her foot. “Why +does nobody come?” +</p> + +<p> +The young man whose name was Barney looked at her very sadly. Mary even thought +she saw him wink his eyes as if to wink tears away. +</p> + +<p> +“Poor little kid!” he said. “There is nobody left to +come.” +</p> + +<p> +It was in that strange and sudden way that Mary found out that she had neither +father nor mother left; that they had died and been carried away in the night, +and that the few native servants who had not died also had left the house as +quickly as they could get out of it, none of them even remembering that there +was a Missie Sahib. That was why the place was so quiet. It was true that there +was no one in the bungalow but herself and the little rustling snake. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap02"></a>CHAPTER II.<br /> +MISTRESS MARY QUITE CONTRARY</h2> + +<p> +Mary had liked to look at her mother from a distance and she had thought her +very pretty, but as she knew very little of her she could scarcely have been +expected to love her or to miss her very much when she was gone. She did not +miss her at all, in fact, and as she was a self-absorbed child she gave her +entire thought to herself, as she had always done. If she had been older she +would no doubt have been very anxious at being left alone in the world, but she +was very young, and as she had always been taken care of, she supposed she +always would be. What she thought was that she would like to know if she was +going to nice people, who would be polite to her and give her her own way as +her Ayah and the other native servants had done. +</p> + +<p> +She knew that she was not going to stay at the English clergyman’s house +where she was taken at first. She did not want to stay. The English clergyman +was poor and he had five children nearly all the same age and they wore shabby +clothes and were always quarreling and snatching toys from each other. Mary +hated their untidy bungalow and was so disagreeable to them that after the +first day or two nobody would play with her. By the second day they had given +her a nickname which made her furious. +</p> + +<p> +It was Basil who thought of it first. Basil was a little boy with impudent blue +eyes and a turned-up nose, and Mary hated him. She was playing by herself under +a tree, just as she had been playing the day the cholera broke out. She was +making heaps of earth and paths for a garden and Basil came and stood near to +watch her. Presently he got rather interested and suddenly made a suggestion. +</p> + +<p> +“Why don’t you put a heap of stones there and pretend it is a +rockery?” he said. “There in the middle,” and he leaned over +her to point. +</p> + +<p> +“Go away!” cried Mary. “I don’t want boys. Go +away!” +</p> + +<p> +For a moment Basil looked angry, and then he began to tease. He was always +teasing his sisters. He danced round and round her and made faces and sang and +laughed. +</p> + +<p class="poem"> +“Mistress Mary, quite contrary,<br /> + How does your garden grow?<br /> +With silver bells, and cockle shells,<br /> + And marigolds all in a row.”<br /> +</p> + +<p> +He sang it until the other children heard and laughed, too; and the crosser +Mary got, the more they sang “Mistress Mary, quite contrary”; and +after that as long as she stayed with them they called her “Mistress Mary +Quite Contrary” when they spoke of her to each other, and often when they +spoke to her. +</p> + +<p> +“You are going to be sent home,” Basil said to her, “at the +end of the week. And we’re glad of it.” +</p> + +<p> +“I am glad of it, too,” answered Mary. “Where is home?” +</p> + +<p> +“She doesn’t know where home is!” said Basil, with +seven-year-old scorn. “It’s England, of course. Our grandmama lives +there and our sister Mabel was sent to her last year. You are not going to your +grandmama. You have none. You are going to your uncle. His name is Mr. +Archibald Craven.” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know anything about him,” snapped Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“I know you don’t,” Basil answered. “You don’t +know anything. Girls never do. I heard father and mother talking about him. He +lives in a great, big, desolate old house in the country and no one goes near +him. He’s so cross he won’t let them, and they wouldn’t come +if he would let them. He’s a hunchback, and he’s horrid.” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t believe you,” said Mary; and she turned her back and +stuck her fingers in her ears, because she would not listen any more. +</p> + +<p> +But she thought over it a great deal afterward; and when Mrs. Crawford told her +that night that she was going to sail away to England in a few days and go to +her uncle, Mr. Archibald Craven, who lived at Misselthwaite Manor, she looked +so stony and stubbornly uninterested that they did not know what to think about +her. They tried to be kind to her, but she only turned her face away when Mrs. +Crawford attempted to kiss her, and held herself stiffly when Mr. Crawford +patted her shoulder. +</p> + +<p> +“She is such a plain child,” Mrs. Crawford said pityingly, +afterward. “And her mother was such a pretty creature. She had a very +pretty manner, too, and Mary has the most unattractive ways I ever saw in a +child. The children call her ‘Mistress Mary Quite Contrary,’ and +though it’s naughty of them, one can’t help understanding +it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps if her mother had carried her pretty face and her pretty manners +oftener into the nursery Mary might have learned some pretty ways too. It is +very sad, now the poor beautiful thing is gone, to remember that many people +never even knew that she had a child at all.” +</p> + +<p> +“I believe she scarcely ever looked at her,” sighed Mrs. Crawford. +“When her Ayah was dead there was no one to give a thought to the little +thing. Think of the servants running away and leaving her all alone in that +deserted bungalow. Colonel McGrew said he nearly jumped out of his skin when he +opened the door and found her standing by herself in the middle of the +room.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary made the long voyage to England under the care of an officer’s wife, +who was taking her children to leave them in a boarding-school. She was very +much absorbed in her own little boy and girl, and was rather glad to hand the +child over to the woman Mr. Archibald Craven sent to meet her, in London. The +woman was his housekeeper at Misselthwaite Manor, and her name was Mrs. +Medlock. She was a stout woman, with very red cheeks and sharp black eyes. She +wore a very purple dress, a black silk mantle with jet fringe on it and a black +bonnet with purple velvet flowers which stuck up and trembled when she moved +her head. Mary did not like her at all, but as she very seldom liked people +there was nothing remarkable in that; besides which it was very evident Mrs. +Medlock did not think much of her. +</p> + +<p> +“My word! she’s a plain little piece of goods!” she said. +“And we’d heard that her mother was a beauty. She hasn’t +handed much of it down, has she, ma’am?” +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps she will improve as she grows older,” the officer’s +wife said good-naturedly. “If she were not so sallow and had a nicer +expression, her features are rather good. Children alter so much.” +</p> + +<p> +“She’ll have to alter a good deal,” answered Mrs. Medlock. +“And, there’s nothing likely to improve children at +Misselthwaite—if you ask me!” +</p> + +<p> +They thought Mary was not listening because she was standing a little apart +from them at the window of the private hotel they had gone to. She was watching +the passing buses and cabs and people, but she heard quite well and was made +very curious about her uncle and the place he lived in. What sort of a place +was it, and what would he be like? What was a hunchback? She had never seen +one. Perhaps there were none in India. +</p> + +<p> +Since she had been living in other people’s houses and had had no Ayah, +she had begun to feel lonely and to think queer thoughts which were new to her. +She had begun to wonder why she had never seemed to belong to anyone even when +her father and mother had been alive. Other children seemed to belong to their +fathers and mothers, but she had never seemed to really be anyone’s +little girl. She had had servants, and food and clothes, but no one had taken +any notice of her. She did not know that this was because she was a +disagreeable child; but then, of course, she did not know she was disagreeable. +She often thought that other people were, but she did not know that she was so +herself. +</p> + +<p> +She thought Mrs. Medlock the most disagreeable person she had ever seen, with +her common, highly colored face and her common fine bonnet. When the next day +they set out on their journey to Yorkshire, she walked through the station to +the railway carriage with her head up and trying to keep as far away from her +as she could, because she did not want to seem to belong to her. It would have +made her angry to think people imagined she was her little girl. +</p> + +<p> +But Mrs. Medlock was not in the least disturbed by her and her thoughts. She +was the kind of woman who would “stand no nonsense from young +ones.” At least, that is what she would have said if she had been asked. +She had not wanted to go to London just when her sister Maria’s daughter +was going to be married, but she had a comfortable, well paid place as +housekeeper at Misselthwaite Manor and the only way in which she could keep it +was to do at once what Mr. Archibald Craven told her to do. She never dared +even to ask a question. +</p> + +<p> +“Captain Lennox and his wife died of the cholera,” Mr. Craven had +said in his short, cold way. “Captain Lennox was my wife’s brother +and I am their daughter’s guardian. The child is to be brought here. You +must go to London and bring her yourself.” +</p> + +<p> +So she packed her small trunk and made the journey. +</p> + +<p> +Mary sat in her corner of the railway carriage and looked plain and fretful. +She had nothing to read or to look at, and she had folded her thin little +black-gloved hands in her lap. Her black dress made her look yellower than +ever, and her limp light hair straggled from under her black crêpe hat. +</p> + +<p> +“A more marred-looking young one I never saw in my life,” Mrs. +Medlock thought. (Marred is a Yorkshire word and means spoiled and pettish.) +She had never seen a child who sat so still without doing anything; and at last +she got tired of watching her and began to talk in a brisk, hard voice. +</p> + +<p> +“I suppose I may as well tell you something about where you are going +to,” she said. “Do you know anything about your uncle?” +</p> + +<p> +“No,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Never heard your father and mother talk about him?” +</p> + +<p> +“No,” said Mary frowning. She frowned because she remembered that +her father and mother had never talked to her about anything in particular. +Certainly they had never told her things. +</p> + +<p> +“Humph,” muttered Mrs. Medlock, staring at her queer, unresponsive +little face. She did not say any more for a few moments and then she began +again. +</p> + +<p> +“I suppose you might as well be told something—to prepare you. You +are going to a queer place.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary said nothing at all, and Mrs. Medlock looked rather discomfited by her +apparent indifference, but, after taking a breath, she went on. +</p> + +<p> +“Not but that it’s a grand big place in a gloomy way, and Mr. +Craven’s proud of it in his way—and that’s gloomy enough, +too. The house is six hundred years old and it’s on the edge of the moor, +and there’s near a hundred rooms in it, though most of them’s shut +up and locked. And there’s pictures and fine old furniture and things +that’s been there for ages, and there’s a big park round it and +gardens and trees with branches trailing to the ground—some of +them.” She paused and took another breath. “But there’s +nothing else,” she ended suddenly. +</p> + +<p> +Mary had begun to listen in spite of herself. It all sounded so unlike India, +and anything new rather attracted her. But she did not intend to look as if she +were interested. That was one of her unhappy, disagreeable ways. So she sat +still. +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Mrs. Medlock. “What do you think of it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Nothing,” she answered. “I know nothing about such +places.” +</p> + +<p> +That made Mrs. Medlock laugh a short sort of laugh. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” she said, “but you are like an old woman. Don’t +you care?” +</p> + +<p> +“It doesn’t matter” said Mary, “whether I care or +not.” +</p> + +<p> +“You are right enough there,” said Mrs. Medlock. “It +doesn’t. What you’re to be kept at Misselthwaite Manor for I +don’t know, unless because it’s the easiest way. <i>He’s</i> +not going to trouble himself about you, that’s sure and certain. He never +troubles himself about no one.” +</p> + +<p> +She stopped herself as if she had just remembered something in time. +</p> + +<p> +“He’s got a crooked back,” she said. “That set him +wrong. He was a sour young man and got no good of all his money and big place +till he was married.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary’s eyes turned toward her in spite of her intention not to seem to +care. She had never thought of the hunchback’s being married and she was +a trifle surprised. Mrs. Medlock saw this, and as she was a talkative woman she +continued with more interest. This was one way of passing some of the time, at +any rate. +</p> + +<p> +“She was a sweet, pretty thing and he’d have walked the world over +to get her a blade o’ grass she wanted. Nobody thought she’d marry +him, but she did, and people said she married him for his money. But she +didn’t—she didn’t,” positively. “When she +died—” +</p> + +<p> +Mary gave a little involuntary jump. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! did she die!” she exclaimed, quite without meaning to. She had +just remembered a French fairy story she had once read called “Riquet à +la Houppe.” It had been about a poor hunchback and a beautiful princess +and it had made her suddenly sorry for Mr. Archibald Craven. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, she died,” Mrs. Medlock answered. “And it made him +queerer than ever. He cares about nobody. He won’t see people. Most of +the time he goes away, and when he is at Misselthwaite he shuts himself up in +the West Wing and won’t let anyone but Pitcher see him. Pitcher’s +an old fellow, but he took care of him when he was a child and he knows his +ways.” +</p> + +<p> +It sounded like something in a book and it did not make Mary feel cheerful. A +house with a hundred rooms, nearly all shut up and with their doors +locked—a house on the edge of a moor—whatsoever a moor +was—sounded dreary. A man with a crooked back who shut himself up also! +She stared out of the window with her lips pinched together, and it seemed +quite natural that the rain should have begun to pour down in gray slanting +lines and splash and stream down the window-panes. If the pretty wife had been +alive she might have made things cheerful by being something like her own +mother and by running in and out and going to parties as she had done in frocks +“full of lace.” But she was not there any more. +</p> + +<p> +“You needn’t expect to see him, because ten to one you +won’t,” said Mrs. Medlock. “And you mustn’t expect that +there will be people to talk to you. You’ll have to play about and look +after yourself. You’ll be told what rooms you can go into and what rooms +you’re to keep out of. There’s gardens enough. But when +you’re in the house don’t go wandering and poking about. Mr. Craven +won’t have it.” +</p> + +<p> +“I shall not want to go poking about,” said sour little Mary and +just as suddenly as she had begun to be rather sorry for Mr. Archibald Craven +she began to cease to be sorry and to think he was unpleasant enough to deserve +all that had happened to him. +</p> + +<p> +And she turned her face toward the streaming panes of the window of the railway +carriage and gazed out at the gray rain-storm which looked as if it would go on +forever and ever. She watched it so long and steadily that the grayness grew +heavier and heavier before her eyes and she fell asleep. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap03"></a>CHAPTER III.<br /> +ACROSS THE MOOR</h2> + +<p> +She slept a long time, and when she awakened Mrs. Medlock had bought a +lunchbasket at one of the stations and they had some chicken and cold beef and +bread and butter and some hot tea. The rain seemed to be streaming down more +heavily than ever and everybody in the station wore wet and glistening +waterproofs. The guard lighted the lamps in the carriage, and Mrs. Medlock +cheered up very much over her tea and chicken and beef. She ate a great deal +and afterward fell asleep herself, and Mary sat and stared at her and watched +her fine bonnet slip on one side until she herself fell asleep once more in the +corner of the carriage, lulled by the splashing of the rain against the +windows. It was quite dark when she awakened again. The train had stopped at a +station and Mrs. Medlock was shaking her. +</p> + +<p> +“You have had a sleep!” she said. “It’s time to open +your eyes! We’re at Thwaite Station and we’ve got a long drive +before us.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary stood up and tried to keep her eyes open while Mrs. Medlock collected her +parcels. The little girl did not offer to help her, because in India native +servants always picked up or carried things and it seemed quite proper that +other people should wait on one. +</p> + +<p> +The station was a small one and nobody but themselves seemed to be getting out +of the train. The station-master spoke to Mrs. Medlock in a rough, good-natured +way, pronouncing his words in a queer broad fashion which Mary found out +afterward was Yorkshire. +</p> + +<p> +“I see tha’s got back,” he said. “An’ tha’s +browt th’ young ’un with thee.” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, that’s her,” answered Mrs. Medlock, speaking with a +Yorkshire accent herself and jerking her head over her shoulder toward Mary. +“How’s thy Missus?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well enow. Th’ carriage is waitin’ outside for thee.” +</p> + +<p> +A brougham stood on the road before the little outside platform. Mary saw that +it was a smart carriage and that it was a smart footman who helped her in. His +long waterproof coat and the waterproof covering of his hat were shining and +dripping with rain as everything was, the burly station-master included. +</p> + +<p> +When he shut the door, mounted the box with the coachman, and they drove off, +the little girl found herself seated in a comfortably cushioned corner, but she +was not inclined to go to sleep again. She sat and looked out of the window, +curious to see something of the road over which she was being driven to the +queer place Mrs. Medlock had spoken of. She was not at all a timid child and +she was not exactly frightened, but she felt that there was no knowing what +might happen in a house with a hundred rooms nearly all shut up—a house +standing on the edge of a moor. +</p> + +<p> +“What is a moor?” she said suddenly to Mrs. Medlock. +</p> + +<p> +“Look out of the window in about ten minutes and you’ll see,” +the woman answered. “We’ve got to drive five miles across Missel +Moor before we get to the Manor. You won’t see much because it’s a +dark night, but you can see something.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary asked no more questions but waited in the darkness of her corner, keeping +her eyes on the window. The carriage lamps cast rays of light a little distance +ahead of them and she caught glimpses of the things they passed. After they had +left the station they had driven through a tiny village and she had seen +whitewashed cottages and the lights of a public house. Then they had passed a +church and a vicarage and a little shop-window or so in a cottage with toys and +sweets and odd things set out for sale. Then they were on the highroad and she +saw hedges and trees. After that there seemed nothing different for a long +time—or at least it seemed a long time to her. +</p> + +<p> +At last the horses began to go more slowly, as if they were climbing up-hill, +and presently there seemed to be no more hedges and no more trees. She could +see nothing, in fact, but a dense darkness on either side. She leaned forward +and pressed her face against the window just as the carriage gave a big jolt. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! We’re on the moor now sure enough,” said Mrs. Medlock. +</p> + +<p> +The carriage lamps shed a yellow light on a rough-looking road which seemed to +be cut through bushes and low-growing things which ended in the great expanse +of dark apparently spread out before and around them. A wind was rising and +making a singular, wild, low, rushing sound. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s—it’s not the sea, is it?” said Mary, +looking round at her companion. +</p> + +<p> +“No, not it,” answered Mrs. Medlock. “Nor it isn’t +fields nor mountains, it’s just miles and miles and miles of wild land +that nothing grows on but heather and gorse and broom, and nothing lives on but +wild ponies and sheep.” +</p> + +<p> +“I feel as if it might be the sea, if there were water on it,” said +Mary. “It sounds like the sea just now.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s the wind blowing through the bushes,” Mrs. Medlock +said. “It’s a wild, dreary enough place to my mind, though +there’s plenty that likes it—particularly when the heather’s +in bloom.” +</p> + +<p> +On and on they drove through the darkness, and though the rain stopped, the +wind rushed by and whistled and made strange sounds. The road went up and down, +and several times the carriage passed over a little bridge beneath which water +rushed very fast with a great deal of noise. Mary felt as if the drive would +never come to an end and that the wide, bleak moor was a wide expanse of black +ocean through which she was passing on a strip of dry land. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t like it,” she said to herself. “I don’t +like it,” and she pinched her thin lips more tightly together. +</p> + +<p> +The horses were climbing up a hilly piece of road when she first caught sight +of a light. Mrs. Medlock saw it as soon as she did and drew a long sigh of +relief. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh, I am glad to see that bit o’ light twinkling,” she +exclaimed. “It’s the light in the lodge window. We shall get a good +cup of tea after a bit, at all events.” +</p> + +<p> +It was “after a bit,” as she said, for when the carriage passed +through the park gates there was still two miles of avenue to drive through and +the trees (which nearly met overhead) made it seem as if they were driving +through a long dark vault. +</p> + +<p> +They drove out of the vault into a clear space and stopped before an immensely +long but low-built house which seemed to ramble round a stone court. At first +Mary thought that there were no lights at all in the windows, but as she got +out of the carriage she saw that one room in a corner upstairs showed a dull +glow. +</p> + +<p> +The entrance door was a huge one made of massive, curiously shaped panels of +oak studded with big iron nails and bound with great iron bars. It opened into +an enormous hall, which was so dimly lighted that the faces in the portraits on +the walls and the figures in the suits of armor made Mary feel that she did not +want to look at them. As she stood on the stone floor she looked a very small, +odd little black figure, and she felt as small and lost and odd as she looked. +</p> + +<p> +A neat, thin old man stood near the manservant who opened the door for them. +</p> + +<p> +“You are to take her to her room,” he said in a husky voice. +“He doesn’t want to see her. He’s going to London in the +morning.” +</p> + +<p> +“Very well, Mr. Pitcher,” Mrs. Medlock answered. “So long as +I know what’s expected of me, I can manage.” +</p> + +<p> +“What’s expected of you, Mrs. Medlock,” Mr. Pitcher said, +“is that you make sure that he’s not disturbed and that he +doesn’t see what he doesn’t want to see.” +</p> + +<p> +And then Mary Lennox was led up a broad staircase and down a long corridor and +up a short flight of steps and through another corridor and another, until a +door opened in a wall and she found herself in a room with a fire in it and a +supper on a table. +</p> + +<p> +Mrs. Medlock said unceremoniously: +</p> + +<p> +“Well, here you are! This room and the next are where you’ll +live—and you must keep to them. Don’t you forget that!” +</p> + +<p> +It was in this way Mistress Mary arrived at Misselthwaite Manor and she had +perhaps never felt quite so contrary in all her life. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap04"></a>CHAPTER IV.<br /> +MARTHA</h2> + +<p> +When she opened her eyes in the morning it was because a young housemaid had +come into her room to light the fire and was kneeling on the hearth-rug raking +out the cinders noisily. Mary lay and watched her for a few moments and then +began to look about the room. She had never seen a room at all like it and +thought it curious and gloomy. The walls were covered with tapestry with a +forest scene embroidered on it. There were fantastically dressed people under +the trees and in the distance there was a glimpse of the turrets of a castle. +There were hunters and horses and dogs and ladies. Mary felt as if she were in +the forest with them. Out of a deep window she could see a great climbing +stretch of land which seemed to have no trees on it, and to look rather like an +endless, dull, purplish sea. +</p> + +<p> +“What is that?” she said, pointing out of the window. +</p> + +<p> +Martha, the young housemaid, who had just risen to her feet, looked and pointed +also. +</p> + +<p> +“That there?” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s th’ moor,” with a good-natured grin. +“Does tha’ like it?” +</p> + +<p> +“No,” answered Mary. “I hate it.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s because tha’rt not used to it,” Martha said, +going back to her hearth. “Tha’ thinks it’s too big an’ +bare now. But tha’ will like it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you?” inquired Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, that I do,” answered Martha, cheerfully polishing away at the +grate. “I just love it. It’s none bare. It’s covered +wi’ growin’ things as smells sweet. It’s fair lovely in +spring an’ summer when th’ gorse an’ broom an’ +heather’s in flower. It smells o’ honey an’ there’s +such a lot o’ fresh air—an’ th’ sky looks so high +an’ th’ bees an’ skylarks makes such a nice noise +hummin’ an’ singin’. Eh! I wouldn’t live away from +th’ moor for anythin’.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary listened to her with a grave, puzzled expression. The native servants she +had been used to in India were not in the least like this. They were obsequious +and servile and did not presume to talk to their masters as if they were their +equals. They made salaams and called them “protector of the poor” +and names of that sort. Indian servants were commanded to do things, not asked. +It was not the custom to say “please” and “thank you” +and Mary had always slapped her Ayah in the face when she was angry. She +wondered a little what this girl would do if one slapped her in the face. She +was a round, rosy, good-natured looking creature, but she had a sturdy way +which made Mistress Mary wonder if she might not even slap back—if the +person who slapped her was only a little girl. +</p> + +<p> +“You are a strange servant,” she said from her pillows, rather +haughtily. +</p> + +<p> +Martha sat up on her heels, with her blacking-brush in her hand, and laughed, +without seeming the least out of temper. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! I know that,” she said. “If there was a grand Missus at +Misselthwaite I should never have been even one of th’ under housemaids. +I might have been let to be scullerymaid but I’d never have been let +upstairs. I’m too common an’ I talk too much Yorkshire. But this is +a funny house for all it’s so grand. Seems like there’s neither +Master nor Mistress except Mr. Pitcher an’ Mrs. Medlock. Mr. Craven, he +won’t be troubled about anythin’ when he’s here, an’ +he’s nearly always away. Mrs. Medlock gave me th’ place out +o’ kindness. She told me she could never have done it if Misselthwaite +had been like other big houses.” +</p> + +<p> +“Are you going to be my servant?” Mary asked, still in her +imperious little Indian way. +</p> + +<p> +Martha began to rub her grate again. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m Mrs. Medlock’s servant,” she said stoutly. +“An’ she’s Mr. Craven’s—but I’m to do the +housemaid’s work up here an’ wait on you a bit. But you won’t +need much waitin’ on.” +</p> + +<p> +“Who is going to dress me?” demanded Mary. +</p> + +<p> +Martha sat up on her heels again and stared. She spoke in broad Yorkshire in +her amazement. +</p> + +<p> +“Canna’ tha’ dress thysen!” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“What do you mean? I don’t understand your language,” said +Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! I forgot,” Martha said. “Mrs. Medlock told me I’d +have to be careful or you wouldn’t know what I was sayin’. I mean +can’t you put on your own clothes?” +</p> + +<p> +“No,” answered Mary, quite indignantly. “I never did in my +life. My Ayah dressed me, of course.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Martha, evidently not in the least aware that she was +impudent, “it’s time tha’ should learn. Tha’ cannot +begin younger. It’ll do thee good to wait on thysen a bit. My mother +always said she couldn’t see why grand people’s children +didn’t turn out fair fools—what with nurses an’ bein’ +washed an’ dressed an’ took out to walk as if they was +puppies!” +</p> + +<p> +“It is different in India,” said Mistress Mary disdainfully. She +could scarcely stand this. +</p> + +<p> +But Martha was not at all crushed. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! I can see it’s different,” she answered almost +sympathetically. “I dare say it’s because there’s such a lot +o’ blacks there instead o’ respectable white people. When I heard +you was comin’ from India I thought you was a black too.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary sat up in bed furious. +</p> + +<p> +“What!” she said. “What! You thought I was a native. +You—you daughter of a pig!” +</p> + +<p> +Martha stared and looked hot. +</p> + +<p> +“Who are you callin’ names?” she said. “You +needn’t be so vexed. That’s not th’ way for a young lady to +talk. I’ve nothin’ against th’ blacks. When you read about +’em in tracts they’re always very religious. You always read as a +black’s a man an’ a brother. I’ve never seen a black +an’ I was fair pleased to think I was goin’ to see one close. When +I come in to light your fire this mornin’ I crep’ up to your bed +an’ pulled th’ cover back careful to look at you. An’ there +you was,” disappointedly, “no more black than me—for all +you’re so yeller.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary did not even try to control her rage and humiliation. +</p> + +<p> +“You thought I was a native! You dared! You don’t know anything +about natives! They are not people—they’re servants who must salaam +to you. You know nothing about India. You know nothing about anything!” +</p> + +<p> +She was in such a rage and felt so helpless before the girl’s simple +stare, and somehow she suddenly felt so horribly lonely and far away from +everything she understood and which understood her, that she threw herself face +downward on the pillows and burst into passionate sobbing. She sobbed so +unrestrainedly that good-natured Yorkshire Martha was a little frightened and +quite sorry for her. She went to the bed and bent over her. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! you mustn’t cry like that there!” she begged. “You +mustn’t for sure. I didn’t know you’d be vexed. I don’t +know anythin’ about anythin’—just like you said. I beg your +pardon, Miss. Do stop cryin’.” +</p> + +<p> +There was something comforting and really friendly in her queer Yorkshire +speech and sturdy way which had a good effect on Mary. She gradually ceased +crying and became quiet. Martha looked relieved. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s time for thee to get up now,” she said. “Mrs. +Medlock said I was to carry tha’ breakfast an’ tea an’ dinner +into th’ room next to this. It’s been made into a nursery for thee. +I’ll help thee on with thy clothes if tha’ll get out o’ bed. +If th’ buttons are at th’ back tha’ cannot button them up +tha’self.” +</p> + +<p> +When Mary at last decided to get up, the clothes Martha took from the wardrobe +were not the ones she had worn when she arrived the night before with Mrs. +Medlock. +</p> + +<p> +“Those are not mine,” she said. “Mine are black.” +</p> + +<p> +She looked the thick white wool coat and dress over, and added with cool +approval: +</p> + +<p> +“Those are nicer than mine.” +</p> + +<p> +“These are th’ ones tha’ must put on,” Martha answered. +“Mr. Craven ordered Mrs. Medlock to get ’em in London. He said +‘I won’t have a child dressed in black wanderin’ about like a +lost soul,’ he said. ‘It’d make the place sadder than it is. +Put color on her.’ Mother she said she knew what he meant. Mother always +knows what a body means. She doesn’t hold with black +hersel’.” +</p> + +<p> +“I hate black things,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +The dressing process was one which taught them both something. Martha had +“buttoned up” her little sisters and brothers but she had never +seen a child who stood still and waited for another person to do things for her +as if she had neither hands nor feet of her own. +</p> + +<p> +“Why doesn’t tha’ put on tha’ own shoes?” she +said when Mary quietly held out her foot. +</p> + +<p> +“My Ayah did it,” answered Mary, staring. “It was the +custom.” +</p> + +<p> +She said that very often—“It was the custom.” The native +servants were always saying it. If one told them to do a thing their ancestors +had not done for a thousand years they gazed at one mildly and said, “It +is not the custom” and one knew that was the end of the matter. +</p> + +<p> +It had not been the custom that Mistress Mary should do anything but stand and +allow herself to be dressed like a doll, but before she was ready for breakfast +she began to suspect that her life at Misselthwaite Manor would end by teaching +her a number of things quite new to her—things such as putting on her own +shoes and stockings, and picking up things she let fall. If Martha had been a +well-trained fine young lady’s maid she would have been more subservient +and respectful and would have known that it was her business to brush hair, and +button boots, and pick things up and lay them away. She was, however, only an +untrained Yorkshire rustic who had been brought up in a moorland cottage with a +swarm of little brothers and sisters who had never dreamed of doing anything +but waiting on themselves and on the younger ones who were either babies in +arms or just learning to totter about and tumble over things. +</p> + +<p> +If Mary Lennox had been a child who was ready to be amused she would perhaps +have laughed at Martha’s readiness to talk, but Mary only listened to her +coldly and wondered at her freedom of manner. At first she was not at all +interested, but gradually, as the girl rattled on in her good-tempered, homely +way, Mary began to notice what she was saying. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! you should see ’em all,” she said. “There’s +twelve of us an’ my father only gets sixteen shilling a week. I can tell +you my mother’s put to it to get porridge for ’em all. They tumble +about on th’ moor an’ play there all day an’ mother says +th’ air of th’ moor fattens ’em. She says she believes they +eat th’ grass same as th’ wild ponies do. Our Dickon, he’s +twelve years old and he’s got a young pony he calls his own.” +</p> + +<p> +“Where did he get it?” asked Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“He found it on th’ moor with its mother when it was a little one +an’ he began to make friends with it an’ give it bits o’ +bread an’ pluck young grass for it. And it got to like him so it follows +him about an’ it lets him get on its back. Dickon’s a kind lad +an’ animals likes him.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary had never possessed an animal pet of her own and had always thought she +should like one. So she began to feel a slight interest in Dickon, and as she +had never before been interested in anyone but herself, it was the dawning of +a healthy sentiment. When she went into the room which had been made into a +nursery for her, she found that it was rather like the one she had slept in. It +was not a child’s room, but a grown-up person’s room, with gloomy +old pictures on the walls and heavy old oak chairs. A table in the center was +set with a good substantial breakfast. But she had always had a very small +appetite, and she looked with something more than indifference at the first +plate Martha set before her. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t want it,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ doesn’t want thy porridge!” Martha exclaimed +incredulously. +</p> + +<p> +“No.” +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ doesn’t know how good it is. Put a bit o’ treacle +on it or a bit o’ sugar.” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t want it,” repeated Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” said Martha. “I can’t abide to see good victuals +go to waste. If our children was at this table they’d clean it bare in +five minutes.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why?” said Mary coldly. +</p> + +<p> +“Why!” echoed Martha. “Because they scarce ever had their +stomachs full in their lives. They’re as hungry as young hawks an’ +foxes.” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know what it is to be hungry,” said Mary, with the +indifference of ignorance. +</p> + +<p> +Martha looked indignant. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it would do thee good to try it. I can see that plain +enough,” she said outspokenly. “I’ve no patience with folk as +sits an’ just stares at good bread an’ meat. My word! don’t I +wish Dickon and Phil an’ Jane an’ th’ rest of ’em had +what’s here under their pinafores.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why don’t you take it to them?” suggested Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s not mine,” answered Martha stoutly. “An’ +this isn’t my day out. I get my day out once a month same as th’ +rest. Then I go home an’ clean up for mother an’ give her a +day’s rest.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary drank some tea and ate a little toast and some marmalade. +</p> + +<p> +“You wrap up warm an’ run out an’ play you,” said +Martha. “It’ll do you good and give you some stomach for your +meat.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary went to the window. There were gardens and paths and big trees, but +everything looked dull and wintry. +</p> + +<p> +“Out? Why should I go out on a day like this?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, if tha’ doesn’t go out tha’lt have to stay in, +an’ what has tha’ got to do?” +</p> + +<p> +Mary glanced about her. There was nothing to do. When Mrs. Medlock had prepared +the nursery she had not thought of amusement. Perhaps it would be better to go +and see what the gardens were like. +</p> + +<p> +“Who will go with me?” she inquired. +</p> + +<p> +Martha stared. +</p> + +<p> +“You’ll go by yourself,” she answered. “You’ll +have to learn to play like other children does when they haven’t got +sisters and brothers. Our Dickon goes off on th’ moor by himself +an’ plays for hours. That’s how he made friends with th’ +pony. He’s got sheep on th’ moor that knows him, an’ birds as +comes an’ eats out of his hand. However little there is to eat, he always +saves a bit o’ his bread to coax his pets.” +</p> + +<p> +It was really this mention of Dickon which made Mary decide to go out, though +she was not aware of it. There would be, birds outside though there would not +be ponies or sheep. They would be different from the birds in India and it +might amuse her to look at them. +</p> + +<p> +Martha found her coat and hat for her and a pair of stout little boots and she +showed her her way downstairs. +</p> + +<p> +“If tha’ goes round that way tha’ll come to th’ +gardens,” she said, pointing to a gate in a wall of shrubbery. +“There’s lots o’ flowers in summer-time, but there’s +nothin’ bloomin’ now.” She seemed to hesitate a second before +she added, “One of th’ gardens is locked up. No one has been in it +for ten years.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why?” asked Mary in spite of herself. Here was another locked door +added to the hundred in the strange house. +</p> + +<p> +“Mr. Craven had it shut when his wife died so sudden. He won’t let +no one go inside. It was her garden. He locked th’ door an’ dug a +hole and buried th’ key. There’s Mrs. Medlock’s bell +ringing—I must run.” +</p> + +<p> +After she was gone Mary turned down the walk which led to the door in the +shrubbery. She could not help thinking about the garden which no one had been +into for ten years. She wondered what it would look like and whether there were +any flowers still alive in it. When she had passed through the shrubbery gate +she found herself in great gardens, with wide lawns and winding walks with +clipped borders. There were trees, and flower-beds, and evergreens clipped into +strange shapes, and a large pool with an old gray fountain in its midst. But +the flower-beds were bare and wintry and the fountain was not playing. This was +not the garden which was shut up. How could a garden be shut up? You could +always walk into a garden. +</p> + +<p> +She was just thinking this when she saw that, at the end of the path she was +following, there seemed to be a long wall, with ivy growing over it. She was +not familiar enough with England to know that she was coming upon the +kitchen-gardens where the vegetables and fruit were growing. She went toward +the wall and found that there was a green door in the ivy, and that it stood +open. This was not the closed garden, evidently, and she could go into it. +</p> + +<p> +She went through the door and found that it was a garden with walls all round +it and that it was only one of several walled gardens which seemed to open into +one another. She saw another open green door, revealing bushes and pathways +between beds containing winter vegetables. Fruit-trees were trained flat +against the wall, and over some of the beds there were glass frames. The place +was bare and ugly enough, Mary thought, as she stood and stared about her. It +might be nicer in summer when things were green, but there was nothing pretty +about it now. +</p> + +<p> +Presently an old man with a spade over his shoulder walked through the door +leading from the second garden. He looked startled when he saw Mary, and then +touched his cap. He had a surly old face, and did not seem at all pleased to +see her—but then she was displeased with his garden and wore her +“quite contrary” expression, and certainly did not seem at all +pleased to see him. +</p> + +<p> +“What is this place?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +“One o’ th’ kitchen-gardens,” he answered. +</p> + +<p> +“What is that?” said Mary, pointing through the other green door. +</p> + +<p> +“Another of ’em,” shortly. “There’s another on +t’other side o’ th’ wall an’ there’s th’ +orchard t’other side o’ that.” +</p> + +<p> +“Can I go in them?” asked Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“If tha’ likes. But there’s nowt to see.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary made no response. She went down the path and through the second green +door. There, she found more walls and winter vegetables and glass frames, but +in the second wall there was another green door and it was not open. Perhaps it +led into the garden which no one had seen for ten years. As she was not at all +a timid child and always did what she wanted to do, Mary went to the green door +and turned the handle. She hoped the door would not open because she wanted to +be sure she had found the mysterious garden—but it did open quite easily +and she walked through it and found herself in an orchard. There were walls all +round it also and trees trained against them, and there were bare fruit-trees +growing in the winter-browned grass—but there was no green door to be +seen anywhere. Mary looked for it, and yet when she had entered the upper end +of the garden she had noticed that the wall did not seem to end with the +orchard but to extend beyond it as if it enclosed a place at the other side. +She could see the tops of trees above the wall, and when she stood still she +saw a bird with a bright red breast sitting on the topmost branch of one of +them, and suddenly he burst into his winter song—almost as if he had +caught sight of her and was calling to her. +</p> + +<p> +She stopped and listened to him and somehow his cheerful, friendly little +whistle gave her a pleased feeling—even a disagreeable little girl may be +lonely, and the big closed house and big bare moor and big bare gardens had +made this one feel as if there was no one left in the world but herself. If she +had been an affectionate child, who had been used to being loved, she would +have broken her heart, but even though she was “Mistress Mary Quite +Contrary” she was desolate, and the bright-breasted little bird brought a +look into her sour little face which was almost a smile. She listened to him +until he flew away. He was not like an Indian bird and she liked him and +wondered if she should ever see him again. Perhaps he lived in the mysterious +garden and knew all about it. +</p> + +<p> +Perhaps it was because she had nothing whatever to do that she thought so much +of the deserted garden. She was curious about it and wanted to see what it was +like. Why had Mr. Archibald Craven buried the key? If he had liked his wife so +much why did he hate her garden? She wondered if she should ever see him, but +she knew that if she did she should not like him, and he would not like her, +and that she should only stand and stare at him and say nothing, though she +should be wanting dreadfully to ask him why he had done such a queer thing. +</p> + +<p> +“People never like me and I never like people,” she thought. +“And I never can talk as the Crawford children could. They were always +talking and laughing and making noises.” +</p> + +<p> +She thought of the robin and of the way he seemed to sing his song at her, and +as she remembered the tree-top he perched on she stopped rather suddenly on the +path. +</p> + +<p> +“I believe that tree was in the secret garden—I feel sure it +was,” she said. “There was a wall round the place and there was no +door.” +</p> + +<p> +She walked back into the first kitchen-garden she had entered and found the old +man digging there. She went and stood beside him and watched him a few moments +in her cold little way. He took no notice of her and so at last she spoke to +him. +</p> + +<p> +“I have been into the other gardens,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“There was nothin’ to prevent thee,” he answered crustily. +</p> + +<p> +“I went into the orchard.” +</p> + +<p> +“There was no dog at th’ door to bite thee,” he answered. +</p> + +<p> +“There was no door there into the other garden,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“What garden?” he said in a rough voice, stopping his digging for a +moment. +</p> + +<p> +“The one on the other side of the wall,” answered Mistress Mary. +“There are trees there—I saw the tops of them. A bird with a red +breast was sitting on one of them and he sang.” +</p> + +<p> +To her surprise the surly old weather-beaten face actually changed its +expression. A slow smile spread over it and the gardener looked quite +different. It made her think that it was curious how much nicer a person looked +when he smiled. She had not thought of it before. +</p> + +<p> +He turned about to the orchard side of his garden and began to whistle—a +low soft whistle. She could not understand how such a surly man could make such +a coaxing sound. +</p> + +<p> +Almost the next moment a wonderful thing happened. She heard a soft little +rushing flight through the air—and it was the bird with the red breast +flying to them, and he actually alighted on the big clod of earth quite near to +the gardener’s foot. +</p> + +<p> +“Here he is,” chuckled the old man, and then he spoke to the bird +as if he were speaking to a child. +</p> + +<p> +“Where has tha’ been, tha’ cheeky little beggar?” he +said. “I’ve not seen thee before today. Has tha begun tha’ +courtin’ this early in th’ season? Tha’rt too forrad.” +</p> + +<p> +The bird put his tiny head on one side and looked up at him with his soft +bright eye which was like a black dewdrop. He seemed quite familiar and not the +least afraid. He hopped about and pecked the earth briskly, looking for seeds +and insects. It actually gave Mary a queer feeling in her heart, because he was +so pretty and cheerful and seemed so like a person. He had a tiny plump body +and a delicate beak, and slender delicate legs. +</p> + +<p> +“Will he always come when you call him?” she asked almost in a +whisper. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, that he will. I’ve knowed him ever since he was a fledgling. +He come out of th’ nest in th’ other garden an’ when first he +flew over th’ wall he was too weak to fly back for a few days an’ +we got friendly. When he went over th’ wall again th’ rest of +th’ brood was gone an’ he was lonely an’ he come back to +me.” +</p> + +<p> +“What kind of a bird is he?” Mary asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Doesn’t tha’ know? He’s a robin redbreast an’ +they’re th’ friendliest, curiousest birds alive. They’re +almost as friendly as dogs—if you know how to get on with ’em. +Watch him peckin’ about there an’ lookin’ round at us now +an’ again. He knows we’re talkin’ about him.” +</p> + +<p> +It was the queerest thing in the world to see the old fellow. He looked at the +plump little scarlet-waistcoated bird as if he were both proud and fond of him. +</p> + +<p> +“He’s a conceited one,” he chuckled. “He likes to hear +folk talk about him. An’ curious—bless me, there never was his like +for curiosity an’ meddlin’. He’s always comin’ to see +what I’m plantin’. He knows all th’ things Mester Craven +never troubles hissel’ to find out. He’s th’ head gardener, +he is.” +</p> + +<p> +The robin hopped about busily pecking the soil and now and then stopped and +looked at them a little. Mary thought his black dewdrop eyes gazed at her with +great curiosity. It really seemed as if he were finding out all about her. The +queer feeling in her heart increased. +</p> + +<p> +“Where did the rest of the brood fly to?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +“There’s no knowin’. The old ones turn ’em out o’ +their nest an’ make ’em fly an’ they’re scattered +before you know it. This one was a knowin’ one an’ he knew he was +lonely.” +</p> + +<p> +Mistress Mary went a step nearer to the robin and looked at him very hard. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m lonely,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +She had not known before that this was one of the things which made her feel +sour and cross. She seemed to find it out when the robin looked at her and she +looked at the robin. +</p> + +<p> +The old gardener pushed his cap back on his bald head and stared at her a +minute. +</p> + +<p> +“Art tha’ th’ little wench from India?” he asked. +</p> + +<p> +Mary nodded. +</p> + +<p> +“Then no wonder tha’rt lonely. Tha’lt be lonlier before +tha’s done,” he said. +</p> + +<p> +He began to dig again, driving his spade deep into the rich black garden soil +while the robin hopped about very busily employed. +</p> + +<p> +“What is your name?” Mary inquired. +</p> + +<p> +He stood up to answer her. +</p> + +<p> +“Ben Weatherstaff,” he answered, and then he added with a surly +chuckle, “I’m lonely mysel’ except when he’s with +me,” and he jerked his thumb toward the robin. “He’s +th’ only friend I’ve got.” +</p> + +<p> +“I have no friends at all,” said Mary. “I never had. My Ayah +didn’t like me and I never played with anyone.” +</p> + +<p> +It is a Yorkshire habit to say what you think with blunt frankness, and old Ben +Weatherstaff was a Yorkshire moor man. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ an’ me are a good bit alike,” he said. “We +was wove out of th’ same cloth. We’re neither of us good +lookin’ an’ we’re both of us as sour as we look. We’ve +got the same nasty tempers, both of us, I’ll warrant.” +</p> + +<p> +This was plain speaking, and Mary Lennox had never heard the truth about +herself in her life. Native servants always salaamed and submitted to you, +whatever you did. She had never thought much about her looks, but she wondered +if she was as unattractive as Ben Weatherstaff and she also wondered if she +looked as sour as he had looked before the robin came. She actually began to +wonder also if she was “nasty tempered.” She felt uncomfortable. +</p> + +<p> +Suddenly a clear rippling little sound broke out near her and she turned round. +She was standing a few feet from a young apple-tree and the robin had flown on +to one of its branches and had burst out into a scrap of a song. Ben +Weatherstaff laughed outright. +</p> + +<p> +“What did he do that for?” asked Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“He’s made up his mind to make friends with thee,” replied +Ben. “Dang me if he hasn’t took a fancy to thee.” +</p> + +<p> +“To me?” said Mary, and she moved toward the little tree softly and +looked up. +</p> + +<p> +“Would you make friends with me?” she said to the robin just as if +she was speaking to a person. “Would you?” And she did not say it +either in her hard little voice or in her imperious Indian voice, but in a tone +so soft and eager and coaxing that Ben Weatherstaff was as surprised as she had +been when she heard him whistle. +</p> + +<p> +“Why,” he cried out, “tha’ said that as nice an’ +human as if tha’ was a real child instead of a sharp old woman. +Tha’ said it almost like Dickon talks to his wild things on th’ +moor.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you know Dickon?” Mary asked, turning round rather in a hurry. +</p> + +<p> +“Everybody knows him. Dickon’s wanderin’ about everywhere. +Th’ very blackberries an’ heather-bells knows him. I warrant +th’ foxes shows him where their cubs lies an’ th’ skylarks +doesn’t hide their nests from him.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary would have liked to ask some more questions. She was almost as curious +about Dickon as she was about the deserted garden. But just that moment the +robin, who had ended his song, gave a little shake of his wings, spread them +and flew away. He had made his visit and had other things to do. +</p> + +<p> +“He has flown over the wall!” Mary cried out, watching him. +“He has flown into the orchard—he has flown across the other +wall—into the garden where there is no door!” +</p> + +<p> +“He lives there,” said old Ben. “He came out o’ +th’ egg there. If he’s courtin’, he’s makin’ up +to some young madam of a robin that lives among th’ old rose-trees +there.” +</p> + +<p> +“Rose-trees,” said Mary. “Are there rose-trees?” +</p> + +<p> +Ben Weatherstaff took up his spade again and began to dig. +</p> + +<p> +“There was ten year’ ago,” he mumbled. +</p> + +<p> +“I should like to see them,” said Mary. “Where is the green +door? There must be a door somewhere.” +</p> + +<p> +Ben drove his spade deep and looked as uncompanionable as he had looked when +she first saw him. +</p> + +<p> +“There was ten year’ ago, but there isn’t now,” he +said. +</p> + +<p> +“No door!” cried Mary. “There must be.” +</p> + +<p> +“None as anyone can find, an’ none as is anyone’s business. +Don’t you be a meddlesome wench an’ poke your nose where it’s +no cause to go. Here, I must go on with my work. Get you gone an’ play +you. I’ve no more time.” +</p> + +<p> +And he actually stopped digging, threw his spade over his shoulder and walked +off, without even glancing at her or saying good-by. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap05"></a>CHAPTER V.<br /> +THE CRY IN THE CORRIDOR</h2> + +<p> +At first each day which passed by for Mary Lennox was exactly like the others. +Every morning she awoke in her tapestried room and found Martha kneeling upon +the hearth building her fire; every morning she ate her breakfast in the +nursery which had nothing amusing in it; and after each breakfast she gazed out +of the window across to the huge moor which seemed to spread out on all sides +and climb up to the sky, and after she had stared for a while she realized that +if she did not go out she would have to stay in and do nothing—and so she +went out. She did not know that this was the best thing she could have done, +and she did not know that, when she began to walk quickly or even run along the +paths and down the avenue, she was stirring her slow blood and making herself +stronger by fighting with the wind which swept down from the moor. She ran only +to make herself warm, and she hated the wind which rushed at her face and +roared and held her back as if it were some giant she could not see. But the +big breaths of rough fresh air blown over the heather filled her lungs with +something which was good for her whole thin body and whipped some red color +into her cheeks and brightened her dull eyes when she did not know anything +about it. +</p> + +<p> +But after a few days spent almost entirely out of doors she wakened one morning +knowing what it was to be hungry, and when she sat down to her breakfast she +did not glance disdainfully at her porridge and push it away, but took up her +spoon and began to eat it and went on eating it until her bowl was empty. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ got on well enough with that this mornin’, didn’t +tha’?” said Martha. +</p> + +<p> +“It tastes nice today,” said Mary, feeling a little surprised +herself. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s th’ air of th’ moor that’s givin’ +thee stomach for tha’ victuals,” answered Martha. “It’s +lucky for thee that tha’s got victuals as well as appetite. There’s +been twelve in our cottage as had th’ stomach an’ nothin’ to +put in it. You go on playin’ you out o’ doors every day an’ +you’ll get some flesh on your bones an’ you won’t be so +yeller.” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t play,” said Mary. “I have nothing to play +with.” +</p> + +<p> +“Nothin’ to play with!” exclaimed Martha. “Our children +plays with sticks and stones. They just runs about an’ shouts an’ +looks at things.” Mary did not shout, but she looked at things. There was +nothing else to do. She walked round and round the gardens and wandered about +the paths in the park. Sometimes she looked for Ben Weatherstaff, but though +several times she saw him at work he was too busy to look at her or was too +surly. Once when she was walking toward him he picked up his spade and turned +away as if he did it on purpose. +</p> + +<p> +One place she went to oftener than to any other. It was the long walk outside +the gardens with the walls round them. There were bare flower-beds on either +side of it and against the walls ivy grew thickly. There was one part of the +wall where the creeping dark green leaves were more bushy than elsewhere. It +seemed as if for a long time that part had been neglected. The rest of it had +been clipped and made to look neat, but at this lower end of the walk it had +not been trimmed at all. +</p> + +<p> +A few days after she had talked to Ben Weatherstaff, Mary stopped to notice +this and wondered why it was so. She had just paused and was looking up at a +long spray of ivy swinging in the wind when she saw a gleam of scarlet and +heard a brilliant chirp, and there, on the top of the wall, perched Ben +Weatherstaff’s robin redbreast, tilting forward to look at her with his +small head on one side. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh!” she cried out, “is it you—is it you?” And +it did not seem at all queer to her that she spoke to him as if she were sure +that he would understand and answer her. +</p> + +<p> +He did answer. He twittered and chirped and hopped along the wall as if he were +telling her all sorts of things. It seemed to Mistress Mary as if she +understood him, too, though he was not speaking in words. It was as if he said: +</p> + +<p> +“Good morning! Isn’t the wind nice? Isn’t the sun nice? +Isn’t everything nice? Let us both chirp and hop and twitter. Come on! +Come on!” +</p> + +<p> +Mary began to laugh, and as he hopped and took little flights along the wall +she ran after him. Poor little thin, sallow, ugly Mary—she actually +looked almost pretty for a moment. +</p> + +<p> +“I like you! I like you!” she cried out, pattering down the walk; +and she chirped and tried to whistle, which last she did not know how to do in +the least. But the robin seemed to be quite satisfied and chirped and whistled +back at her. At last he spread his wings and made a darting flight to the top +of a tree, where he perched and sang loudly. +</p> + +<p> +That reminded Mary of the first time she had seen him. He had been swinging on +a tree-top then and she had been standing in the orchard. Now she was on the +other side of the orchard and standing in the path outside a wall—much +lower down—and there was the same tree inside. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s in the garden no one can go into,” she said to herself. +“It’s the garden without a door. He lives in there. How I wish I +could see what it is like!” +</p> + +<p> +She ran up the walk to the green door she had entered the first morning. Then +she ran down the path through the other door and then into the orchard, and +when she stood and looked up there was the tree on the other side of the wall, +and there was the robin just finishing his song and beginning to preen his +feathers with his beak. +</p> + +<p> +“It is the garden,” she said. “I am sure it is.” +</p> + +<p> +She walked round and looked closely at that side of the orchard wall, but she +only found what she had found before—that there was no door in it. Then +she ran through the kitchen-gardens again and out into the walk outside the +long ivy-covered wall, and she walked to the end of it and looked at it, but +there was no door; and then she walked to the other end, looking again, but +there was no door. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s very queer,” she said. “Ben Weatherstaff said +there was no door and there is no door. But there must have been one ten years +ago, because Mr. Craven buried the key.” +</p> + +<p> +This gave her so much to think of that she began to be quite interested and +feel that she was not sorry that she had come to Misselthwaite Manor. In India +she had always felt hot and too languid to care much about anything. The fact +was that the fresh wind from the moor had begun to blow the cobwebs out of her +young brain and to waken her up a little. +</p> + +<p> +She stayed out of doors nearly all day, and when she sat down to her supper at +night she felt hungry and drowsy and comfortable. She did not feel cross when +Martha chattered away. She felt as if she rather liked to hear her, and at last +she thought she would ask her a question. She asked it after she had finished +her supper and had sat down on the hearth-rug before the fire. +</p> + +<p> +“Why did Mr. Craven hate the garden?” she said. +</p> + +<p> +She had made Martha stay with her and Martha had not objected at all. She was +very young, and used to a crowded cottage full of brothers and sisters, and she +found it dull in the great servants’ hall downstairs where the footman +and upper-housemaids made fun of her Yorkshire speech and looked upon her as a +common little thing, and sat and whispered among themselves. Martha liked to +talk, and the strange child who had lived in India, and been waited upon by +“blacks,” was novelty enough to attract her. +</p> + +<p> +She sat down on the hearth herself without waiting to be asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Art tha’ thinkin’ about that garden yet?” she said. +“I knew tha’ would. That was just the way with me when I first +heard about it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why did he hate it?” Mary persisted. +</p> + +<p> +Martha tucked her feet under her and made herself quite comfortable. +</p> + +<p> +“Listen to th’ wind wutherin’ round the house,” she +said. “You could bare stand up on the moor if you was out on it +tonight.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary did not know what “wutherin’” meant until she listened, +and then she understood. It must mean that hollow shuddering sort of roar which +rushed round and round the house as if the giant no one could see were +buffeting it and beating at the walls and windows to try to break in. But one +knew he could not get in, and somehow it made one feel very safe and warm +inside a room with a red coal fire. +</p> + +<p> +“But why did he hate it so?” she asked, after she had listened. She +intended to know if Martha did. +</p> + +<p> +Then Martha gave up her store of knowledge. +</p> + +<p> +“Mind,” she said, “Mrs. Medlock said it’s not to be +talked about. There’s lots o’ things in this place that’s not +to be talked over. That’s Mr. Craven’s orders. His troubles are +none servants’ business, he says. But for th’ garden he +wouldn’t be like he is. It was Mrs. Craven’s garden that she had +made when first they were married an’ she just loved it, an’ they +used to ’tend the flowers themselves. An’ none o’ th’ +gardeners was ever let to go in. Him an’ her used to go in an’ shut +th’ door an’ stay there hours an’ hours, readin’ and +talkin’. An’ she was just a bit of a girl an’ there was an +old tree with a branch bent like a seat on it. An’ she made roses grow +over it an’ she used to sit there. But one day when she was sittin’ +there th’ branch broke an’ she fell on th’ ground an’ +was hurt so bad that next day she died. Th’ doctors thought he’d go +out o’ his mind an’ die, too. That’s why he hates it. No +one’s never gone in since, an’ he won’t let anyone talk +about it.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary did not ask any more questions. She looked at the red fire and listened to +the wind “wutherin’.” It seemed to be +“wutherin’” louder than ever. +</p> + +<p> +At that moment a very good thing was happening to her. Four good things had +happened to her, in fact, since she came to Misselthwaite Manor. She had felt +as if she had understood a robin and that he had understood her; she had run in +the wind until her blood had grown warm; she had been healthily hungry for the +first time in her life; and she had found out what it was to be sorry for +someone. +</p> + +<p> +But as she was listening to the wind she began to listen to something else. She +did not know what it was, because at first she could scarcely distinguish it +from the wind itself. It was a curious sound—it seemed almost as if a +child were crying somewhere. Sometimes the wind sounded rather like a child +crying, but presently Mistress Mary felt quite sure this sound was inside the +house, not outside it. It was far away, but it was inside. She turned round and +looked at Martha. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you hear anyone crying?” she said. +</p> + +<p> +Martha suddenly looked confused. +</p> + +<p> +“No,” she answered. “It’s th’ wind. Sometimes it +sounds like as if someone was lost on th’ moor an’ wailin’. +It’s got all sorts o’ sounds.” +</p> + +<p> +“But listen,” said Mary. “It’s in the house—down +one of those long corridors.” +</p> + +<p> +And at that very moment a door must have been opened somewhere downstairs; for +a great rushing draft blew along the passage and the door of the room they sat +in was blown open with a crash, and as they both jumped to their feet the light +was blown out and the crying sound was swept down the far corridor so that it +was to be heard more plainly than ever. +</p> + +<p> +“There!” said Mary. “I told you so! It is someone +crying—and it isn’t a grown-up person.” +</p> + +<p> +Martha ran and shut the door and turned the key, but before she did it they +both heard the sound of a door in some far passage shutting with a bang, and +then everything was quiet, for even the wind ceased +“wutherin’” for a few moments. +</p> + +<p> +“It was th’ wind,” said Martha stubbornly. “An’ +if it wasn’t, it was little Betty Butterworth, th’ scullery-maid. +She’s had th’ toothache all day.” +</p> + +<p> +But something troubled and awkward in her manner made Mistress Mary stare very +hard at her. She did not believe she was speaking the truth. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap06"></a>CHAPTER VI.<br /> +“THERE WAS SOMEONE CRYING—THERE WAS!”</h2> + +<p> +The next day the rain poured down in torrents again, and when Mary looked out +of her window the moor was almost hidden by gray mist and cloud. There could be +no going out today. +</p> + +<p> +“What do you do in your cottage when it rains like this?” she asked +Martha. +</p> + +<p> +“Try to keep from under each other’s feet mostly,” Martha +answered. “Eh! there does seem a lot of us then. Mother’s a +good-tempered woman but she gets fair moithered. The biggest ones goes out in +th’ cow-shed and plays there. Dickon he doesn’t mind th’ wet. +He goes out just th’ same as if th’ sun was shinin’. He says +he sees things on rainy days as doesn’t show when it’s fair +weather. He once found a little fox cub half drowned in its hole and he brought +it home in th’ bosom of his shirt to keep it warm. Its mother had been +killed nearby an’ th’ hole was swum out an’ th’ rest +o’ th’ litter was dead. He’s got it at home now. He found a +half-drowned young crow another time an’ he brought it home, too, +an’ tamed it. It’s named Soot because it’s so black, +an’ it hops an’ flies about with him everywhere.” +</p> + +<p> +The time had come when Mary had forgotten to resent Martha’s familiar +talk. She had even begun to find it interesting and to be sorry when she +stopped or went away. The stories she had been told by her Ayah when she lived +in India had been quite unlike those Martha had to tell about the moorland +cottage which held fourteen people who lived in four little rooms and never had +quite enough to eat. The children seemed to tumble about and amuse themselves +like a litter of rough, good-natured collie puppies. Mary was most attracted by +the mother and Dickon. When Martha told stories of what “mother” +said or did they always sounded comfortable. +</p> + +<p> +“If I had a raven or a fox cub I could play with it,” said Mary. +“But I have nothing.” +</p> + +<p> +Martha looked perplexed. +</p> + +<p> +“Can tha’ knit?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +“No,” answered Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Can tha’ sew?” +</p> + +<p> +“No.” +</p> + +<p> +“Can tha’ read?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then why doesn’t tha read somethin’, or learn a bit o’ +spellin’? Tha’st old enough to be learnin’ thy book a good +bit now.” +</p> + +<p> +“I haven’t any books,” said Mary. “Those I had were +left in India.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s a pity,” said Martha. “If Mrs. Medlock’d +let thee go into th’ library, there’s thousands o’ books +there.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary did not ask where the library was, because she was suddenly inspired by a +new idea. She made up her mind to go and find it herself. She was not troubled +about Mrs. Medlock. Mrs. Medlock seemed always to be in her comfortable +housekeeper’s sitting-room downstairs. In this queer place one scarcely +ever saw anyone at all. In fact, there was no one to see but the servants, and +when their master was away they lived a luxurious life below stairs, where +there was a huge kitchen hung about with shining brass and pewter, and a large +servants’ hall where there were four or five abundant meals eaten every +day, and where a great deal of lively romping went on when Mrs. Medlock was out +of the way. +</p> + +<p> +Mary’s meals were served regularly, and Martha waited on her, but no one +troubled themselves about her in the least. Mrs. Medlock came and looked at her +every day or two, but no one inquired what she did or told her what to do. She +supposed that perhaps this was the English way of treating children. In India +she had always been attended by her Ayah, who had followed her about and waited +on her, hand and foot. She had often been tired of her company. Now she was +followed by nobody and was learning to dress herself because Martha looked as +though she thought she was silly and stupid when she wanted to have things +handed to her and put on. +</p> + +<p> +“Hasn’t tha’ got good sense?” she said once, when Mary +had stood waiting for her to put on her gloves for her. “Our Susan Ann is +twice as sharp as thee an’ she’s only four year’ old. +Sometimes tha’ looks fair soft in th’ head.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary had worn her contrary scowl for an hour after that, but it made her think +several entirely new things. +</p> + +<p> +She stood at the window for about ten minutes this morning after Martha had +swept up the hearth for the last time and gone downstairs. She was thinking +over the new idea which had come to her when she heard of the library. She did +not care very much about the library itself, because she had read very few +books; but to hear of it brought back to her mind the hundred rooms with closed +doors. She wondered if they were all really locked and what she would find if +she could get into any of them. Were there a hundred really? Why +shouldn’t she go and see how many doors she could count? It would be +something to do on this morning when she could not go out. She had never been +taught to ask permission to do things, and she knew nothing at all about +authority, so she would not have thought it necessary to ask Mrs. Medlock if +she might walk about the house, even if she had seen her. +</p> + +<p> +She opened the door of the room and went into the corridor, and then she began +her wanderings. It was a long corridor and it branched into other corridors and +it led her up short flights of steps which mounted to others again. There were +doors and doors, and there were pictures on the walls. Sometimes they were +pictures of dark, curious landscapes, but oftenest they were portraits of men +and women in queer, grand costumes made of satin and velvet. She found herself +in one long gallery whose walls were covered with these portraits. She had +never thought there could be so many in any house. She walked slowly down this +place and stared at the faces which also seemed to stare at her. She felt as if +they were wondering what a little girl from India was doing in their house. +Some were pictures of children—little girls in thick satin frocks which +reached to their feet and stood out about them, and boys with puffed sleeves +and lace collars and long hair, or with big ruffs around their necks. She +always stopped to look at the children, and wonder what their names were, and +where they had gone, and why they wore such odd clothes. There was a stiff, +plain little girl rather like herself. She wore a green brocade dress and held +a green parrot on her finger. Her eyes had a sharp, curious look. +</p> + +<p> +“Where do you live now?” said Mary aloud to her. “I wish you +were here.” +</p> + +<p> +Surely no other little girl ever spent such a queer morning. It seemed as if +there was no one in all the huge rambling house but her own small self, +wandering about upstairs and down, through narrow passages and wide ones, where +it seemed to her that no one but herself had ever walked. Since so many rooms +had been built, people must have lived in them, but it all seemed so empty that +she could not quite believe it true. +</p> + +<p> +It was not until she climbed to the second floor that she thought of turning +the handle of a door. All the doors were shut, as Mrs. Medlock had said they +were, but at last she put her hand on the handle of one of them and turned it. +She was almost frightened for a moment when she felt that it turned without +difficulty and that when she pushed upon the door itself it slowly and heavily +opened. It was a massive door and opened into a big bedroom. There were +embroidered hangings on the wall, and inlaid furniture such as she had seen in +India stood about the room. A broad window with leaded panes looked out upon +the moor; and over the mantel was another portrait of the stiff, plain little +girl who seemed to stare at her more curiously than ever. +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps she slept here once,” said Mary. “She stares at me +so that she makes me feel queer.” +</p> + +<p> +After that she opened more doors and more. She saw so many rooms that she +became quite tired and began to think that there must be a hundred, though she +had not counted them. In all of them there were old pictures or old tapestries +with strange scenes worked on them. There were curious pieces of furniture and +curious ornaments in nearly all of them. +</p> + +<p> +In one room, which looked like a lady’s sitting-room, the hangings were +all embroidered velvet, and in a cabinet were about a hundred little elephants +made of ivory. They were of different sizes, and some had their mahouts or +palanquins on their backs. Some were much bigger than the others and some were +so tiny that they seemed only babies. Mary had seen carved ivory in India and +she knew all about elephants. She opened the door of the cabinet and stood on a +footstool and played with these for quite a long time. When she got tired she +set the elephants in order and shut the door of the cabinet. +</p> + +<p> +In all her wanderings through the long corridors and the empty rooms, she had +seen nothing alive; but in this room she saw something. Just after she had +closed the cabinet door she heard a tiny rustling sound. It made her jump and +look around at the sofa by the fireplace, from which it seemed to come. In the +corner of the sofa there was a cushion, and in the velvet which covered it +there was a hole, and out of the hole peeped a tiny head with a pair of +frightened eyes in it. +</p> + +<p> +Mary crept softly across the room to look. The bright eyes belonged to a little +gray mouse, and the mouse had eaten a hole into the cushion and made a +comfortable nest there. Six baby mice were cuddled up asleep near her. If there +was no one else alive in the hundred rooms there were seven mice who did not +look lonely at all. +</p> + +<p> +“If they wouldn’t be so frightened I would take them back with +me,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +She had wandered about long enough to feel too tired to wander any farther, and +she turned back. Two or three times she lost her way by turning down the wrong +corridor and was obliged to ramble up and down until she found the right one; +but at last she reached her own floor again, though she was some distance from +her own room and did not know exactly where she was. +</p> + +<p> +“I believe I have taken a wrong turning again,” she said, standing +still at what seemed the end of a short passage with tapestry on the wall. +“I don’t know which way to go. How still everything is!” +</p> + +<p> +It was while she was standing here and just after she had said this that the +stillness was broken by a sound. It was another cry, but not quite like the one +she had heard last night; it was only a short one, a fretful childish whine +muffled by passing through walls. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s nearer than it was,” said Mary, her heart beating +rather faster. “And it <i>is</i> crying.” +</p> + +<p> +She put her hand accidentally upon the tapestry near her, and then sprang back, +feeling quite startled. The tapestry was the covering of a door which fell open +and showed her that there was another part of the corridor behind it, and Mrs. +Medlock was coming up it with her bunch of keys in her hand and a very cross +look on her face. +</p> + +<p> +“What are you doing here?” she said, and she took Mary by the arm +and pulled her away. “What did I tell you?” +</p> + +<p> +“I turned round the wrong corner,” explained Mary. “I +didn’t know which way to go and I heard someone crying.” She quite +hated Mrs. Medlock at the moment, but she hated her more the next. +</p> + +<p> +“You didn’t hear anything of the sort,” said the housekeeper. +“You come along back to your own nursery or I’ll box your +ears.” +</p> + +<p> +And she took her by the arm and half pushed, half pulled her up one passage and +down another until she pushed her in at the door of her own room. +</p> + +<p> +“Now,” she said, “you stay where you’re told to stay or +you’ll find yourself locked up. The master had better get you a +governess, same as he said he would. You’re one that needs someone to +look sharp after you. I’ve got enough to do.” +</p> + +<p> +She went out of the room and slammed the door after her, and Mary went and sat +on the hearth-rug, pale with rage. She did not cry, but ground her teeth. +</p> + +<p> +“There <i>was</i> someone crying—there <i>was</i>—there +<i>was!</i>” she said to herself. +</p> + +<p> +She had heard it twice now, and sometime she would find out. She had found out +a great deal this morning. She felt as if she had been on a long journey, and +at any rate she had had something to amuse her all the time, and she had played +with the ivory elephants and had seen the gray mouse and its babies in their +nest in the velvet cushion. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap07"></a>CHAPTER VII.<br /> +THE KEY TO THE GARDEN</h2> + +<p> +Two days after this, when Mary opened her eyes she sat upright in bed +immediately, and called to Martha. +</p> + +<p> +“Look at the moor! Look at the moor!” +</p> + +<p> +The rainstorm had ended and the gray mist and clouds had been swept away in the +night by the wind. The wind itself had ceased and a brilliant, deep blue sky +arched high over the moorland. Never, never had Mary dreamed of a sky so blue. +In India skies were hot and blazing; this was of a deep cool blue which almost +seemed to sparkle like the waters of some lovely bottomless lake, and here and +there, high, high in the arched blueness floated small clouds of snow-white +fleece. The far-reaching world of the moor itself looked softly blue instead of +gloomy purple-black or awful dreary gray. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye,” said Martha with a cheerful grin. “Th’ +storm’s over for a bit. It does like this at this time o’ th’ +year. It goes off in a night like it was pretendin’ it had never been +here an’ never meant to come again. That’s because th’ +springtime’s on its way. It’s a long way off yet, but it’s +comin’.” +</p> + +<p> +“I thought perhaps it always rained or looked dark in England,” +Mary said. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! no!” said Martha, sitting up on her heels among her black lead +brushes. “Nowt o’ th’ soart!” +</p> + +<p> +“What does that mean?” asked Mary seriously. In India the natives +spoke different dialects which only a few people understood, so she was not +surprised when Martha used words she did not know. +</p> + +<p> +Martha laughed as she had done the first morning. +</p> + +<p> +“There now,” she said. “I’ve talked broad Yorkshire +again like Mrs. Medlock said I mustn’t. ‘Nowt o’ th’ +soart’ means ‘nothin’-of-the-sort,’” slowly and +carefully, “but it takes so long to say it. Yorkshire’s th’ +sunniest place on earth when it is sunny. I told thee tha’d like +th’ moor after a bit. Just you wait till you see th’ gold-colored +gorse blossoms an’ th’ blossoms o’ th’ broom, an’ +th’ heather flowerin’, all purple bells, an’ hundreds +o’ butterflies flutterin’ an’ bees hummin’ an’ +skylarks soarin’ up an’ singin’. You’ll want to get out +on it at sunrise an’ live out on it all day like Dickon does.” +</p> + +<p> +“Could I ever get there?” asked Mary wistfully, looking through her +window at the far-off blue. It was so new and big and wonderful and such a +heavenly color. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know,” answered Martha. “Tha’s never +used tha’ legs since tha’ was born, it seems to me. Tha’ +couldn’t walk five mile. It’s five mile to our cottage.” +</p> + +<p> +“I should like to see your cottage.” +</p> + +<p> +Martha stared at her a moment curiously before she took up her polishing brush +and began to rub the grate again. She was thinking that the small plain face +did not look quite as sour at this moment as it had done the first morning she +saw it. It looked just a trifle like little Susan Ann’s when she wanted +something very much. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll ask my mother about it,” she said. “She’s +one o’ them that nearly always sees a way to do things. It’s my day +out today an’ I’m goin’ home. Eh! I am glad. Mrs. Medlock +thinks a lot o’ mother. Perhaps she could talk to her.” +</p> + +<p> +“I like your mother,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“I should think tha’ did,” agreed Martha, polishing away. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve never seen her,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“No, tha’ hasn’t,” replied Martha. +</p> + +<p> +She sat up on her heels again and rubbed the end of her nose with the back of +her hand as if puzzled for a moment, but she ended quite positively. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, she’s that sensible an’ hard workin’ an’ +good-natured an’ clean that no one could help likin’ her whether +they’d seen her or not. When I’m goin’ home to her on my day +out I just jump for joy when I’m crossin’ the moor.” +</p> + +<p> +“I like Dickon,” added Mary. “And I’ve never seen +him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Martha stoutly, “I’ve told thee that +th’ very birds likes him an’ th’ rabbits an’ wild sheep +an’ ponies, an’ th’ foxes themselves. I wonder,” +staring at her reflectively, “what Dickon would think of thee?” +</p> + +<p> +“He wouldn’t like me,” said Mary in her stiff, cold little +way. “No one does.” +</p> + +<p> +Martha looked reflective again. +</p> + +<p> +“How does tha’ like thysel’?” she inquired, really +quite as if she were curious to know. +</p> + +<p> +Mary hesitated a moment and thought it over. +</p> + +<p> +“Not at all—really,” she answered. “But I never thought +of that before.” +</p> + +<p> +Martha grinned a little as if at some homely recollection. +</p> + +<p> +“Mother said that to me once,” she said. “She was at her +wash-tub an’ I was in a bad temper an’ talkin’ ill of folk, +an’ she turns round on me an’ says: ‘Tha’ young vixen, +tha’! There tha’ stands sayin’ tha’ doesn’t like +this one an’ tha’ doesn’t like that one. How does tha’ +like thysel’?’ It made me laugh an’ it brought me to my +senses in a minute.” +</p> + +<p> +She went away in high spirits as soon as she had given Mary her breakfast. She +was going to walk five miles across the moor to the cottage, and she was going +to help her mother with the washing and do the week’s baking and enjoy +herself thoroughly. +</p> + +<p> +Mary felt lonelier than ever when she knew she was no longer in the house. She +went out into the garden as quickly as possible, and the first thing she did +was to run round and round the fountain flower garden ten times. She counted +the times carefully and when she had finished she felt in better spirits. The +sunshine made the whole place look different. The high, deep, blue sky arched +over Misselthwaite as well as over the moor, and she kept lifting her face and +looking up into it, trying to imagine what it would be like to lie down on one +of the little snow-white clouds and float about. She went into the first +kitchen-garden and found Ben Weatherstaff working there with two other +gardeners. The change in the weather seemed to have done him good. He spoke to +her of his own accord. +</p> + +<p> +“Springtime’s comin,’” he said. “Cannot +tha’ smell it?” +</p> + +<p> +Mary sniffed and thought she could. +</p> + +<p> +“I smell something nice and fresh and damp,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“That’s th’ good rich earth,” he answered, digging +away. “It’s in a good humor makin’ ready to grow things. +It’s glad when plantin’ time comes. It’s dull in th’ +winter when it’s got nowt to do. In th’ flower gardens out there +things will be stirrin’ down below in th’ dark. Th’ +sun’s warmin’ ’em. You’ll see bits o’ green +spikes stickin’ out o’ th’ black earth after a bit.” +</p> + +<p> +“What will they be?” asked Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Crocuses an’ snowdrops an’ daffydowndillys. Has tha’ +never seen them?” +</p> + +<p> +“No. Everything is hot, and wet, and green after the rains in +India,” said Mary. “And I think things grow up in a night.” +</p> + +<p> +“These won’t grow up in a night,” said Weatherstaff. +“Tha’ll have to wait for ’em. They’ll poke up a bit +higher here, an’ push out a spike more there, an’ uncurl a leaf +this day an’ another that. You watch ’em.” +</p> + +<p> +“I am going to,” answered Mary. +</p> + +<p> +Very soon she heard the soft rustling flight of wings again and she knew at +once that the robin had come again. He was very pert and lively, and hopped +about so close to her feet, and put his head on one side and looked at her so +slyly that she asked Ben Weatherstaff a question. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you think he remembers me?” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“Remembers thee!” said Weatherstaff indignantly. “He knows +every cabbage stump in th’ gardens, let alone th’ people. +He’s never seen a little wench here before, an’ he’s bent on +findin’ out all about thee. Tha’s no need to try to hide anything +from <i>him</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“Are things stirring down below in the dark in that garden where he +lives?” Mary inquired. +</p> + +<p> +“What garden?” grunted Weatherstaff, becoming surly again. +</p> + +<p> +“The one where the old rose-trees are.” She could not help asking, +because she wanted so much to know. “Are all the flowers dead, or do some +of them come again in the summer? Are there ever any roses?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ask him,” said Ben Weatherstaff, hunching his shoulders toward the +robin. “He’s the only one as knows. No one else has seen inside it +for ten year’.” +</p> + +<p> +Ten years was a long time, Mary thought. She had been born ten years ago. +</p> + +<p> +She walked away, slowly thinking. She had begun to like the garden just as she +had begun to like the robin and Dickon and Martha’s mother. She was +beginning to like Martha, too. That seemed a good many people to +like—when you were not used to liking. She thought of the robin as one of +the people. She went to her walk outside the long, ivy-covered wall over which +she could see the tree-tops; and the second time she walked up and down the +most interesting and exciting thing happened to her, and it was all through Ben +Weatherstaff’s robin. +</p> + +<p> +She heard a chirp and a twitter, and when she looked at the bare flower-bed at +her left side there he was hopping about and pretending to peck things out of +the earth to persuade her that he had not followed her. But she knew he had +followed her and the surprise so filled her with delight that she almost +trembled a little. +</p> + +<p> +“You do remember me!” she cried out. “You do! You are +prettier than anything else in the world!” +</p> + +<p> +She chirped, and talked, and coaxed and he hopped, and flirted his tail and +twittered. It was as if he were talking. His red waistcoat was like satin and +he puffed his tiny breast out and was so fine and so grand and so pretty that +it was really as if he were showing her how important and like a human person a +robin could be. Mistress Mary forgot that she had ever been contrary in her +life when he allowed her to draw closer and closer to him, and bend down and +talk and try to make something like robin sounds. +</p> + +<p> +Oh! to think that he should actually let her come as near to him as that! He +knew nothing in the world would make her put out her hand toward him or startle +him in the least tiniest way. He knew it because he was a real +person—only nicer than any other person in the world. She was so happy +that she scarcely dared to breathe. +</p> + +<p> +The flower-bed was not quite bare. It was bare of flowers because the perennial +plants had been cut down for their winter rest, but there were tall shrubs and +low ones which grew together at the back of the bed, and as the robin hopped +about under them she saw him hop over a small pile of freshly turned up earth. +He stopped on it to look for a worm. The earth had been turned up because a dog +had been trying to dig up a mole and he had scratched quite a deep hole. +</p> + +<p> +Mary looked at it, not really knowing why the hole was there, and as she looked +she saw something almost buried in the newly-turned soil. It was something like +a ring of rusty iron or brass and when the robin flew up into a tree nearby she +put out her hand and picked the ring up. It was more than a ring, however; it +was an old key which looked as if it had been buried a long time. +</p> + +<p> +Mistress Mary stood up and looked at it with an almost frightened face as it +hung from her finger. +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps it has been buried for ten years,” she said in a whisper. +“Perhaps it is the key to the garden!” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap08"></a>CHAPTER VIII.<br /> +THE ROBIN WHO SHOWED THE WAY</h2> + +<p> +She looked at the key quite a long time. She turned it over and over, and +thought about it. As I have said before, she was not a child who had been +trained to ask permission or consult her elders about things. All she thought +about the key was that if it was the key to the closed garden, and she could +find out where the door was, she could perhaps open it and see what was inside +the walls, and what had happened to the old rose-trees. It was because it had +been shut up so long that she wanted to see it. It seemed as if it must be +different from other places and that something strange must have happened to it +during ten years. Besides that, if she liked it she could go into it every day +and shut the door behind her, and she could make up some play of her own and +play it quite alone, because nobody would ever know where she was, but would +think the door was still locked and the key buried in the earth. The thought of +that pleased her very much. +</p> + +<p> +Living as it were, all by herself in a house with a hundred mysteriously closed +rooms and having nothing whatever to do to amuse herself, had set her inactive +brain to working and was actually awakening her imagination. There is no doubt +that the fresh, strong, pure air from the moor had a great deal to do with it. +Just as it had given her an appetite, and fighting with the wind had stirred +her blood, so the same things had stirred her mind. In India she had always +been too hot and languid and weak to care much about anything, but in this +place she was beginning to care and to want to do new things. Already she felt +less “contrary,” though she did not know why. +</p> + +<p> +She put the key in her pocket and walked up and down her walk. No one but +herself ever seemed to come there, so she could walk slowly and look at the +wall, or, rather, at the ivy growing on it. The ivy was the baffling thing. +Howsoever carefully she looked she could see nothing but thickly growing, +glossy, dark green leaves. She was very much disappointed. Something of her +contrariness came back to her as she paced the walk and looked over it at the +tree-tops inside. It seemed so silly, she said to herself, to be near it and +not be able to get in. She took the key in her pocket when she went back to the +house, and she made up her mind that she would always carry it with her when +she went out, so that if she ever should find the hidden door she would be +ready. +</p> + +<p> +Mrs. Medlock had allowed Martha to sleep all night at the cottage, but she was +back at her work in the morning with cheeks redder than ever and in the best of +spirits. +</p> + +<p> +“I got up at four o’clock,” she said. “Eh! it was +pretty on th’ moor with th’ birds gettin’ up an’ +th’ rabbits scamperin’ about an’ th’ sun risin’. +I didn’t walk all th’ way. A man gave me a ride in his cart +an’ I did enjoy myself.” +</p> + +<p> +She was full of stories of the delights of her day out. Her mother had been +glad to see her and they had got the baking and washing all out of the way. She +had even made each of the children a doughcake with a bit of brown sugar in it. +</p> + +<p> +“I had ’em all pipin’ hot when they came in from +playin’ on th’ moor. An’ th’ cottage all smelt o’ +nice, clean hot bakin’ an’ there was a good fire, an’ they +just shouted for joy. Our Dickon he said our cottage was good enough for a +king to live in.” +</p> + +<p> +In the evening they had all sat round the fire, and Martha and her mother had +sewed patches on torn clothes and mended stockings and Martha had told them +about the little girl who had come from India and who had been waited on all +her life by what Martha called “blacks” until she didn’t know +how to put on her own stockings. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! they did like to hear about you,” said Martha. “They +wanted to know all about th’ blacks an’ about th’ ship you +came in. I couldn’t tell ’em enough.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary reflected a little. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll tell you a great deal more before your next day out,” +she said, “so that you will have more to talk about. I dare say they +would like to hear about riding on elephants and camels, and about the officers +going to hunt tigers.” +</p> + +<p> +“My word!” cried delighted Martha. “It would set ’em +clean off their heads. Would tha’ really do that, Miss? It would be same +as a wild beast show like we heard they had in York once.” +</p> + +<p> +“India is quite different from Yorkshire,” Mary said slowly, as she +thought the matter over. “I never thought of that. Did Dickon and your +mother like to hear you talk about me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why, our Dickon’s eyes nearly started out o’ his head, they +got that round,” answered Martha. “But mother, she was put out +about your seemin’ to be all by yourself like. She said, +‘Hasn’t Mr. Craven got no governess for her, nor no nurse?’ +and I said, ‘No, he hasn’t, though Mrs. Medlock says he will when +he thinks of it, but she says he mayn’t think of it for two or three +years.’” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t want a governess,” said Mary sharply. +</p> + +<p> +“But mother says you ought to be learnin’ your book by this time +an’ you ought to have a woman to look after you, an’ she says: +‘Now, Martha, you just think how you’d feel yourself, in a big +place like that, wanderin’ about all alone, an’ no mother. You do +your best to cheer her up,’ she says, an’ I said I would.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary gave her a long, steady look. +</p> + +<p> +“You do cheer me up,” she said. “I like to hear you +talk.” +</p> + +<p> +Presently Martha went out of the room and came back with something held in her +hands under her apron. +</p> + +<p> +“What does tha’ think,” she said, with a cheerful grin. +“I’ve brought thee a present.” +</p> + +<p> +“A present!” exclaimed Mistress Mary. How could a cottage full of +fourteen hungry people give anyone a present! +</p> + +<p> +“A man was drivin’ across the moor peddlin’,” Martha +explained. “An’ he stopped his cart at our door. He had pots +an’ pans an’ odds an’ ends, but mother had no money to buy +anythin’. Just as he was goin’ away our ’Lizabeth Ellen +called out, ‘Mother, he’s got skippin’-ropes with red +an’ blue handles.’ An’ mother she calls out quite sudden, +‘Here, stop, mister! How much are they?’ An’ he says +‘Tuppence’, an’ mother she began fumblin’ in her pocket +an’ she says to me, ‘Martha, tha’s brought me thy wages like +a good lass, an’ I’ve got four places to put every penny, but +I’m just goin’ to take tuppence out of it to buy that child a +skippin’-rope,’ an’ she bought one an’ here it +is.” +</p> + +<p> +She brought it out from under her apron and exhibited it quite proudly. It was +a strong, slender rope with a striped red and blue handle at each end, but Mary +Lennox had never seen a skipping-rope before. She gazed at it with a mystified +expression. +</p> + +<p> +“What is it for?” she asked curiously. +</p> + +<p> +“For!” cried out Martha. “Does tha’ mean that +they’ve not got skippin’-ropes in India, for all they’ve got +elephants and tigers and camels! No wonder most of ’em’s black. +This is what it’s for; just watch me.” +</p> + +<p> +And she ran into the middle of the room and, taking a handle in each hand, +began to skip, and skip, and skip, while Mary turned in her chair to stare at +her, and the queer faces in the old portraits seemed to stare at her, too, and +wonder what on earth this common little cottager had the impudence to be doing +under their very noses. But Martha did not even see them. The interest and +curiosity in Mistress Mary’s face delighted her, and she went on skipping +and counted as she skipped until she had reached a hundred. +</p> + +<p> +“I could skip longer than that,” she said when she stopped. +“I’ve skipped as much as five hundred when I was twelve, but I +wasn’t as fat then as I am now, an’ I was in practice.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary got up from her chair beginning to feel excited herself. +</p> + +<p> +“It looks nice,” she said. “Your mother is a kind woman. Do +you think I could ever skip like that?” +</p> + +<p> +“You just try it,” urged Martha, handing her the skipping-rope. +“You can’t skip a hundred at first, but if you practice +you’ll mount up. That’s what mother said. She says, +‘Nothin’ will do her more good than skippin’ rope. It’s +th’ sensiblest toy a child can have. Let her play out in th’ fresh +air skippin’ an’ it’ll stretch her legs an’ arms +an’ give her some strength in ’em.’” +</p> + +<p> +It was plain that there was not a great deal of strength in Mistress +Mary’s arms and legs when she first began to skip. She was not very +clever at it, but she liked it so much that she did not want to stop. +</p> + +<p> +“Put on tha’ things and run an’ skip out o’ +doors,” said Martha. “Mother said I must tell you to keep out +o’ doors as much as you could, even when it rains a bit, so as tha’ +wrap up warm.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary put on her coat and hat and took her skipping-rope over her arm. She +opened the door to go out, and then suddenly thought of something and turned +back rather slowly. +</p> + +<p> +“Martha,” she said, “they were your wages. It was your +two-pence really. Thank you.” She said it stiffly because she was not +used to thanking people or noticing that they did things for her. “Thank +you,” she said, and held out her hand because she did not know what else +to do. +</p> + +<p> +Martha gave her hand a clumsy little shake, as if she was not accustomed to +this sort of thing either. Then she laughed. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! th’ art a queer, old-womanish thing,” she said. +“If tha’d been our ’Lizabeth Ellen tha’d have given me +a kiss.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary looked stiffer than ever. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you want me to kiss you?” +</p> + +<p> +Martha laughed again. +</p> + +<p> +“Nay, not me,” she answered. “If tha’ was different, +p’raps tha’d want to thysel’. But tha’ isn’t. Run +off outside an’ play with thy rope.” +</p> + +<p> +Mistress Mary felt a little awkward as she went out of the room. Yorkshire +people seemed strange, and Martha was always rather a puzzle to her. At first +she had disliked her very much, but now she did not. The skipping-rope was a +wonderful thing. She counted and skipped, and skipped and counted, until her +cheeks were quite red, and she was more interested than she had ever been since +she was born. The sun was shining and a little wind was blowing—not a +rough wind, but one which came in delightful little gusts and brought a fresh +scent of newly turned earth with it. She skipped round the fountain garden, and +up one walk and down another. She skipped at last into the kitchen-garden and +saw Ben Weatherstaff digging and talking to his robin, which was hopping about +him. She skipped down the walk toward him and he lifted his head and looked at +her with a curious expression. She had wondered if he would notice her. She +wanted him to see her skip. +</p> + +<p> +“Well!” he exclaimed. “Upon my word. P’raps tha’ +art a young ’un, after all, an’ p’raps tha’s got +child’s blood in thy veins instead of sour buttermilk. Tha’s +skipped red into thy cheeks as sure as my name’s Ben Weatherstaff. I +wouldn’t have believed tha’ could do it.” +</p> + +<p> +“I never skipped before,” Mary said. “I’m just +beginning. I can only go up to twenty.” +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ keep on,” said Ben. “Tha’ shapes well +enough at it for a young ’un that’s lived with heathen. Just see +how he’s watchin’ thee,” jerking his head toward the robin. +“He followed after thee yesterday. He’ll be at it again today. +He’ll be bound to find out what th’ skippin’-rope is. +He’s never seen one. Eh!” shaking his head at the bird, +“tha’ curiosity will be th’ death of thee sometime if +tha’ doesn’t look sharp.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary skipped round all the gardens and round the orchard, resting every few +minutes. At length she went to her own special walk and made up her mind to try +if she could skip the whole length of it. It was a good long skip and she began +slowly, but before she had gone half-way down the path she was so hot and +breathless that she was obliged to stop. She did not mind much, because she had +already counted up to thirty. She stopped with a little laugh of pleasure, and +there, lo and behold, was the robin swaying on a long branch of ivy. He had +followed her and he greeted her with a chirp. As Mary had skipped toward him +she felt something heavy in her pocket strike against her at each jump, and +when she saw the robin she laughed again. +</p> + +<p> +“You showed me where the key was yesterday,” she said. “You +ought to show me the door today; but I don’t believe you know!” +</p> + +<p> +The robin flew from his swinging spray of ivy on to the top of the wall and he +opened his beak and sang a loud, lovely trill, merely to show off. Nothing in +the world is quite as adorably lovely as a robin when he shows off—and +they are nearly always doing it. +</p> + +<p> +Mary Lennox had heard a great deal about Magic in her Ayah’s stories, and +she always said that what happened almost at that moment was Magic. +</p> + +<p> +One of the nice little gusts of wind rushed down the walk, and it was a +stronger one than the rest. It was strong enough to wave the branches of the +trees, and it was more than strong enough to sway the trailing sprays of +untrimmed ivy hanging from the wall. Mary had stepped close to the robin, and +suddenly the gust of wind swung aside some loose ivy trails, and more suddenly +still she jumped toward it and caught it in her hand. This she did because she +had seen something under it—a round knob which had been covered by the +leaves hanging over it. It was the knob of a door. +</p> + +<p> +She put her hands under the leaves and began to pull and push them aside. Thick +as the ivy hung, it nearly all was a loose and swinging curtain, though some +had crept over wood and iron. Mary’s heart began to thump and her hands +to shake a little in her delight and excitement. The robin kept singing and +twittering away and tilting his head on one side, as if he were as excited as +she was. What was this under her hands which was square and made of iron and +which her fingers found a hole in? +</p> + +<p> +It was the lock of the door which had been closed ten years and she put her +hand in her pocket, drew out the key and found it fitted the keyhole. She put +the key in and turned it. It took two hands to do it, but it did turn. +</p> + +<p> +And then she took a long breath and looked behind her up the long walk to see +if anyone was coming. No one was coming. No one ever did come, it seemed, and +she took another long breath, because she could not help it, and she held back +the swinging curtain of ivy and pushed back the door which opened +slowly—slowly. +</p> + +<p> +Then she slipped through it, and shut it behind her, and stood with her back +against it, looking about her and breathing quite fast with excitement, and +wonder, and delight. +</p> + +<p> +She was standing <i>inside</i> the secret garden. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap09"></a>CHAPTER IX.<br /> +THE STRANGEST HOUSE ANYONE EVER LIVED IN</h2> + +<p> +It was the sweetest, most mysterious-looking place anyone could imagine. The +high walls which shut it in were covered with the leafless stems of climbing +roses which were so thick that they were matted together. Mary Lennox knew they +were roses because she had seen a great many roses in India. All the ground was +covered with grass of a wintry brown and out of it grew clumps of bushes which +were surely rosebushes if they were alive. There were numbers of standard roses +which had so spread their branches that they were like little trees. There were +other trees in the garden, and one of the things which made the place look +strangest and loveliest was that climbing roses had run all over them and swung +down long tendrils which made light swaying curtains, and here and there they +had caught at each other or at a far-reaching branch and had crept from one +tree to another and made lovely bridges of themselves. There were neither +leaves nor roses on them now and Mary did not know whether they were dead or +alive, but their thin gray or brown branches and sprays looked like a sort of +hazy mantle spreading over everything, walls, and trees, and even brown grass, +where they had fallen from their fastenings and run along the ground. It was +this hazy tangle from tree to tree which made it all look so mysterious. Mary +had thought it must be different from other gardens which had not been left all +by themselves so long; and indeed it was different from any other place she had +ever seen in her life. +</p> + +<p> +“How still it is!” she whispered. “How still!” +</p> + +<p> +Then she waited a moment and listened at the stillness. The robin, who had +flown to his treetop, was still as all the rest. He did not even flutter his +wings; he sat without stirring, and looked at Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“No wonder it is still,” she whispered again. “I am the first +person who has spoken in here for ten years.” +</p> + +<p> +She moved away from the door, stepping as softly as if she were afraid of +awakening someone. She was glad that there was grass under her feet and that +her steps made no sounds. She walked under one of the fairy-like gray arches +between the trees and looked up at the sprays and tendrils which formed them. +</p> + +<p> +“I wonder if they are all quite dead,” she said. “Is it all a +quite dead garden? I wish it wasn’t.” +</p> + +<p> +If she had been Ben Weatherstaff she could have told whether the wood was alive +by looking at it, but she could only see that there were only gray or brown +sprays and branches and none showed any signs of even a tiny leaf-bud anywhere. +</p> + +<p> +But she was <i>inside</i> the wonderful garden and she could come through the +door under the ivy any time and she felt as if she had found a world all her +own. +</p> + +<p> +The sun was shining inside the four walls and the high arch of blue sky over +this particular piece of Misselthwaite seemed even more brilliant and soft than +it was over the moor. The robin flew down from his tree-top and hopped about or +flew after her from one bush to another. He chirped a good deal and had a very +busy air, as if he were showing her things. Everything was strange and silent +and she seemed to be hundreds of miles away from anyone, but somehow she did +not feel lonely at all. All that troubled her was her wish that she knew +whether all the roses were dead, or if perhaps some of them had lived and might +put out leaves and buds as the weather got warmer. She did not want it to be a +quite dead garden. If it were a quite alive garden, how wonderful it would be, +and what thousands of roses would grow on every side! +</p> + +<p> +Her skipping-rope had hung over her arm when she came in and after she had +walked about for a while she thought she would skip round the whole garden, +stopping when she wanted to look at things. There seemed to have been grass +paths here and there, and in one or two corners there were alcoves of evergreen +with stone seats or tall moss-covered flower urns in them. +</p> + +<p> +As she came near the second of these alcoves she stopped skipping. There had +once been a flowerbed in it, and she thought she saw something sticking out of +the black earth—some sharp little pale green points. She remembered what +Ben Weatherstaff had said and she knelt down to look at them. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, they are tiny growing things and they <i>might</i> be crocuses or +snowdrops or daffodils,” she whispered. +</p> + +<p> +She bent very close to them and sniffed the fresh scent of the damp earth. She +liked it very much. +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps there are some other ones coming up in other places,” she +said. “I will go all over the garden and look.” +</p> + +<p> +She did not skip, but walked. She went slowly and kept her eyes on the ground. +She looked in the old border beds and among the grass, and after she had gone +round, trying to miss nothing, she had found ever so many more sharp, pale +green points, and she had become quite excited again. +</p> + +<p> +“It isn’t a quite dead garden,” she cried out softly to +herself. “Even if the roses are dead, there are other things +alive.” +</p> + +<p> +She did not know anything about gardening, but the grass seemed so thick in +some of the places where the green points were pushing their way through that +she thought they did not seem to have room enough to grow. She searched about +until she found a rather sharp piece of wood and knelt down and dug and weeded +out the weeds and grass until she made nice little clear places around them. +</p> + +<p> +“Now they look as if they could breathe,” she said, after she had +finished with the first ones. “I am going to do ever so many more. +I’ll do all I can see. If I haven’t time today I can come +tomorrow.” +</p> + +<p> +She went from place to place, and dug and weeded, and enjoyed herself so +immensely that she was led on from bed to bed and into the grass under the +trees. The exercise made her so warm that she first threw her coat off, and +then her hat, and without knowing it she was smiling down on to the grass and +the pale green points all the time. +</p> + +<p> +The robin was tremendously busy. He was very much pleased to see gardening +begun on his own estate. He had often wondered at Ben Weatherstaff. Where +gardening is done all sorts of delightful things to eat are turned up with the +soil. Now here was this new kind of creature who was not half Ben’s size +and yet had had the sense to come into his garden and begin at once. +</p> + +<p> +Mistress Mary worked in her garden until it was time to go to her midday +dinner. In fact, she was rather late in remembering, and when she put on her +coat and hat, and picked up her skipping-rope, she could not believe that she +had been working two or three hours. She had been actually happy all the time; +and dozens and dozens of the tiny, pale green points were to be seen in cleared +places, looking twice as cheerful as they had looked before when the grass and +weeds had been smothering them. +</p> + +<p> +“I shall come back this afternoon,” she said, looking all round at +her new kingdom, and speaking to the trees and the rose-bushes as if they heard +her. +</p> + +<p> +Then she ran lightly across the grass, pushed open the slow old door and +slipped through it under the ivy. She had such red cheeks and such bright eyes +and ate such a dinner that Martha was delighted. +</p> + +<p> +“Two pieces o’ meat an’ two helps o’ rice +puddin’!” she said. “Eh! mother will be pleased when I tell +her what th’ skippin’-rope’s done for thee.” +</p> + +<p> +In the course of her digging with her pointed stick Mistress Mary had found +herself digging up a sort of white root rather like an onion. She had put it +back in its place and patted the earth carefully down on it and just now she +wondered if Martha could tell her what it was. +</p> + +<p> +“Martha,” she said, “what are those white roots that look +like onions?” +</p> + +<p> +“They’re bulbs,” answered Martha. “Lots o’ spring +flowers grow from ’em. Th’ very little ones are snowdrops an’ +crocuses an’ th’ big ones are narcissuses an’ jonquils and +daffydowndillys. Th’ biggest of all is lilies an’ purple flags. Eh! +they are nice. Dickon’s got a whole lot of ’em planted in our bit +o’ garden.” +</p> + +<p> +“Does Dickon know all about them?” asked Mary, a new idea taking +possession of her. +</p> + +<p> +“Our Dickon can make a flower grow out of a brick walk. Mother says he +just whispers things out o’ th’ ground.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do bulbs live a long time? Would they live years and years if no one +helped them?” inquired Mary anxiously. +</p> + +<p> +“They’re things as helps themselves,” said Martha. +“That’s why poor folk can afford to have ’em. If you +don’t trouble ’em, most of ’em’ll work away underground +for a lifetime an’ spread out an’ have little ’uns. +There’s a place in th’ park woods here where there’s +snowdrops by thousands. They’re the prettiest sight in Yorkshire when +th’ spring comes. No one knows when they was first planted.” +</p> + +<p> +“I wish the spring was here now,” said Mary. “I want to see +all the things that grow in England.” +</p> + +<p> +She had finished her dinner and gone to her favorite seat on the hearth-rug. +</p> + +<p> +“I wish—I wish I had a little spade,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“Whatever does tha’ want a spade for?” asked Martha, +laughing. “Art tha’ goin’ to take to diggin’? I must +tell mother that, too.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary looked at the fire and pondered a little. She must be careful if she meant +to keep her secret kingdom. She wasn’t doing any harm, but if Mr. Craven +found out about the open door he would be fearfully angry and get a new key and +lock it up forevermore. She really could not bear that. +</p> + +<p> +“This is such a big lonely place,” she said slowly, as if she were +turning matters over in her mind. “The house is lonely, and the park is +lonely, and the gardens are lonely. So many places seem shut up. I never did +many things in India, but there were more people to look at—natives and +soldiers marching by—and sometimes bands playing, and my Ayah told me +stories. There is no one to talk to here except you and Ben Weatherstaff. And +you have to do your work and Ben Weatherstaff won’t speak to me often. I +thought if I had a little spade I could dig somewhere as he does, and I might +make a little garden if he would give me some seeds.” +</p> + +<p> +Martha’s face quite lighted up. +</p> + +<p> +“There now!” she exclaimed, “if that wasn’t one of +th’ things mother said. She says, ‘There’s such a lot +o’ room in that big place, why don’t they give her a bit for +herself, even if she doesn’t plant nothin’ but parsley an’ +radishes? She’d dig an’ rake away an’ be right down happy +over it.’ Them was the very words she said.” +</p> + +<p> +“Were they?” said Mary. “How many things she knows, +doesn’t she?” +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” said Martha. “It’s like she says: ‘A woman +as brings up twelve children learns something besides her A B C. +Children’s as good as ’rithmetic to set you findin’ out +things.’” +</p> + +<p> +“How much would a spade cost—a little one?” Mary asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” was Martha’s reflective answer, “at Thwaite +village there’s a shop or so an’ I saw little garden sets with a +spade an’ a rake an’ a fork all tied together for two shillings. +An’ they was stout enough to work with, too.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve got more than that in my purse,” said Mary. “Mrs. +Morrison gave me five shillings and Mrs. Medlock gave me some money from Mr. +Craven.” +</p> + +<p> +“Did he remember thee that much?” exclaimed Martha. +</p> + +<p> +“Mrs. Medlock said I was to have a shilling a week to spend. She gives me +one every Saturday. I didn’t know what to spend it on.” +</p> + +<p> +“My word! that’s riches,” said Martha. “Tha’ can +buy anything in th’ world tha’ wants. Th’ rent of our cottage +is only one an’ threepence an’ it’s like pullin’ +eye-teeth to get it. Now I’ve just thought of somethin’,” +putting her hands on her hips. +</p> + +<p> +“What?” said Mary eagerly. +</p> + +<p> +“In the shop at Thwaite they sell packages o’ flower-seeds for a +penny each, and our Dickon he knows which is th’ prettiest ones an’ +how to make ’em grow. He walks over to Thwaite many a day just for +th’ fun of it. Does tha’ know how to print letters?” +suddenly. +</p> + +<p> +“I know how to write,” Mary answered. +</p> + +<p> +Martha shook her head. +</p> + +<p> +“Our Dickon can only read printin’. If tha’ could print we +could write a letter to him an’ ask him to go an’ buy th’ +garden tools an’ th’ seeds at th’ same time.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! you’re a good girl!” Mary cried. “You are, really! +I didn’t know you were so nice. I know I can print letters if I try. +Let’s ask Mrs. Medlock for a pen and ink and some paper.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve got some of my own,” said Martha. “I bought +’em so I could print a bit of a letter to mother of a Sunday. I’ll +go and get it.” +</p> + +<p> +She ran out of the room, and Mary stood by the fire and twisted her thin little +hands together with sheer pleasure. +</p> + +<p> +“If I have a spade,” she whispered, “I can make the earth +nice and soft and dig up weeds. If I have seeds and can make flowers grow the +garden won’t be dead at all—it will come alive.” +</p> + +<p> +She did not go out again that afternoon because when Martha returned with her +pen and ink and paper she was obliged to clear the table and carry the plates +and dishes downstairs and when she got into the kitchen Mrs. Medlock was there +and told her to do something, so Mary waited for what seemed to her a long time +before she came back. Then it was a serious piece of work to write to Dickon. +Mary had been taught very little because her governesses had disliked her too +much to stay with her. She could not spell particularly well but she found that +she could print letters when she tried. This was the letter Martha dictated to +her: +</p> + +<blockquote> <div> + +<p class="noindent"> +“<i>My Dear Dickon:</i> +</p> + +<p> +This comes hoping to find you well as it leaves me at present. Miss Mary has +plenty of money and will you go to Thwaite and buy her some flower seeds and a +set of garden tools to make a flower-bed. Pick the prettiest ones and easy to +grow because she has never done it before and lived in India which is +different. Give my love to mother and everyone of you. Miss Mary is going to +tell me a lot more so that on my next day out you can hear about elephants and +camels and gentlemen going hunting lions and tigers. +</p> + +<p> + “Your loving sister,<br /> + “Martha Phœbe Sowerby.”<br /> +</p> + +</div> </blockquote> + +<p> +“We’ll put the money in th’ envelope an’ I’ll get +th’ butcher boy to take it in his cart. He’s a great friend +o’ Dickon’s,” said Martha. +</p> + +<p> +“How shall I get the things when Dickon buys them?” +</p> + +<p> +“He’ll bring ’em to you himself. He’ll like to walk +over this way.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh!” exclaimed Mary, “then I shall see him! I never thought +I should see Dickon.” +</p> + +<p> +“Does tha’ want to see him?” asked Martha suddenly, for Mary +had looked so pleased. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, I do. I never saw a boy foxes and crows loved. I want to see him +very much.” +</p> + +<p> +Martha gave a little start, as if she remembered something. +</p> + +<p> +“Now to think,” she broke out, “to think o’ me +forgettin’ that there; an’ I thought I was goin’ to tell you +first thing this mornin’. I asked mother—and she said she’d +ask Mrs. Medlock her own self.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean—” Mary began. +</p> + +<p> +“What I said Tuesday. Ask her if you might be driven over to our cottage +some day and have a bit o’ mother’s hot oat cake, an’ butter, +an’ a glass o’ milk.” +</p> + +<p> +It seemed as if all the interesting things were happening in one day. To think +of going over the moor in the daylight and when the sky was blue! To think of +going into the cottage which held twelve children! +</p> + +<p> +“Does she think Mrs. Medlock would let me go?” she asked, quite +anxiously. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, she thinks she would. She knows what a tidy woman mother is and how +clean she keeps the cottage.” +</p> + +<p> +“If I went I should see your mother as well as Dickon,” said Mary, +thinking it over and liking the idea very much. “She doesn’t seem +to be like the mothers in India.” +</p> + +<p> +Her work in the garden and the excitement of the afternoon ended by making her +feel quiet and thoughtful. Martha stayed with her until tea-time, but they sat +in comfortable quiet and talked very little. But just before Martha went +downstairs for the tea-tray, Mary asked a question. +</p> + +<p> +“Martha,” she said, “has the scullery-maid had the toothache +again today?” +</p> + +<p> +Martha certainly started slightly. +</p> + +<p> +“What makes thee ask that?” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“Because when I waited so long for you to come back I opened the door and +walked down the corridor to see if you were coming. And I heard that far-off +crying again, just as we heard it the other night. There isn’t a wind +today, so you see it couldn’t have been the wind.” +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” said Martha restlessly. “Tha’ mustn’t go +walkin’ about in corridors an’ listenin’. Mr. Craven would be +that there angry there’s no knowin’ what he’d do.” +</p> + +<p> +“I wasn’t listening,” said Mary. “I was just waiting +for you—and I heard it. That’s three times.” +</p> + +<p> +“My word! There’s Mrs. Medlock’s bell,” said Martha, +and she almost ran out of the room. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s the strangest house anyone ever lived in,” said Mary +drowsily, as she dropped her head on the cushioned seat of the armchair near +her. Fresh air, and digging, and skipping-rope had made her feel so comfortably +tired that she fell asleep. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap10"></a>CHAPTER X.<br /> +DICKON</h2> + +<p> +The sun shone down for nearly a week on the secret garden. The Secret Garden +was what Mary called it when she was thinking of it. She liked the name, and +she liked still more the feeling that when its beautiful old walls shut her in +no one knew where she was. It seemed almost like being shut out of the world in +some fairy place. The few books she had read and liked had been fairy-story +books, and she had read of secret gardens in some of the stories. Sometimes +people went to sleep in them for a hundred years, which she had thought must be +rather stupid. She had no intention of going to sleep, and, in fact, she was +becoming wider awake every day which passed at Misselthwaite. She was beginning +to like to be out of doors; she no longer hated the wind, but enjoyed it. She +could run faster, and longer, and she could skip up to a hundred. The bulbs in +the secret garden must have been much astonished. Such nice clear places were +made round them that they had all the breathing space they wanted, and really, +if Mistress Mary had known it, they began to cheer up under the dark earth and +work tremendously. The sun could get at them and warm them, and when the rain +came down it could reach them at once, so they began to feel very much alive. +</p> + +<p> +Mary was an odd, determined little person, and now she had something +interesting to be determined about, she was very much absorbed, indeed. She +worked and dug and pulled up weeds steadily, only becoming more pleased with +her work every hour instead of tiring of it. It seemed to her like a +fascinating sort of play. She found many more of the sprouting pale green +points than she had ever hoped to find. They seemed to be starting up +everywhere and each day she was sure she found tiny new ones, some so tiny that +they barely peeped above the earth. There were so many that she remembered what +Martha had said about the “snowdrops by the thousands,” and about +bulbs spreading and making new ones. These had been left to themselves for ten +years and perhaps they had spread, like the snowdrops, into thousands. She +wondered how long it would be before they showed that they were flowers. +Sometimes she stopped digging to look at the garden and try to imagine what it +would be like when it was covered with thousands of lovely things in bloom. +</p> + +<p> +During that week of sunshine, she became more intimate with Ben Weatherstaff. +She surprised him several times by seeming to start up beside him as if she +sprang out of the earth. The truth was that she was afraid that he would pick +up his tools and go away if he saw her coming, so she always walked toward him +as silently as possible. But, in fact, he did not object to her as strongly as +he had at first. Perhaps he was secretly rather flattered by her evident desire +for his elderly company. Then, also, she was more civil than she had been. He +did not know that when she first saw him she spoke to him as she would have +spoken to a native, and had not known that a cross, sturdy old Yorkshire man +was not accustomed to salaam to his masters, and be merely commanded by them to +do things. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’rt like th’ robin,” he said to her one morning +when he lifted his head and saw her standing by him. “I never knows when +I shall see thee or which side tha’ll come from.” +</p> + +<p> +“He’s friends with me now,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“That’s like him,” snapped Ben Weatherstaff. +“Makin’ up to th’ women folk just for vanity an’ +flightiness. There’s nothin’ he wouldn’t do for th’ +sake o’ showin’ off an’ flirtin’ his tail-feathers. +He’s as full o’ pride as an egg’s full o’ meat.” +</p> + +<p> +He very seldom talked much and sometimes did not even answer Mary’s +questions except by a grunt, but this morning he said more than usual. He stood +up and rested one hobnailed boot on the top of his spade while he looked her +over. +</p> + +<p> +“How long has tha’ been here?” he jerked out. +</p> + +<p> +“I think it’s about a month,” she answered. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’s beginnin’ to do Misselthwaite credit,” he said. +“Tha’s a bit fatter than tha’ was an’ tha’s not +quite so yeller. Tha’ looked like a young plucked crow when tha’ +first came into this garden. Thinks I to myself I never set eyes on an uglier, +sourer faced young ’un.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary was not vain and as she had never thought much of her looks she was not +greatly disturbed. +</p> + +<p> +“I know I’m fatter,” she said. “My stockings are +getting tighter. They used to make wrinkles. There’s the robin, Ben +Weatherstaff.” +</p> + +<p> +There, indeed, was the robin, and she thought he looked nicer than ever. His +red waistcoat was as glossy as satin and he flirted his wings and tail and +tilted his head and hopped about with all sorts of lively graces. He seemed +determined to make Ben Weatherstaff admire him. But Ben was sarcastic. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, there tha’ art!” he said. “Tha’ can put up +with me for a bit sometimes when tha’s got no one better. Tha’s +been reddenin’ up thy waistcoat an’ polishin’ thy feathers +this two weeks. I know what tha’s up to. Tha’s courtin’ some +bold young madam somewhere tellin’ thy lies to her about bein’ +th’ finest cock robin on Missel Moor an’ ready to fight all +th’ rest of ’em.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! look at him!” exclaimed Mary. +</p> + +<p> +The robin was evidently in a fascinating, bold mood. He hopped closer and +closer and looked at Ben Weatherstaff more and more engagingly. He flew on to +the nearest currant bush and tilted his head and sang a little song right at +him. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ thinks tha’ll get over me by doin’ that,” +said Ben, wrinkling his face up in such a way that Mary felt sure he was trying +not to look pleased. “Tha’ thinks no one can stand out against +thee—that’s what tha’ thinks.” +</p> + +<p> +The robin spread his wings—Mary could scarcely believe her eyes. He flew +right up to the handle of Ben Weatherstaff’s spade and alighted on the +top of it. Then the old man’s face wrinkled itself slowly into a new +expression. He stood still as if he were afraid to breathe—as if he would +not have stirred for the world, lest his robin should start away. He spoke +quite in a whisper. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I’m danged!” he said as softly as if he were saying +something quite different. “Tha’ does know how to get at a +chap—tha’ does! Tha’s fair unearthly, tha’s so +knowin’.” +</p> + +<p> +And he stood without stirring—almost without drawing his +breath—until the robin gave another flirt to his wings and flew away. +Then he stood looking at the handle of the spade as if there might be Magic in +it, and then he began to dig again and said nothing for several minutes. +</p> + +<p> +But because he kept breaking into a slow grin now and then, Mary was not afraid +to talk to him. +</p> + +<p> +“Have you a garden of your own?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +“No. I’m bachelder an’ lodge with Martin at th’ +gate.” +</p> + +<p> +“If you had one,” said Mary, “what would you plant?” +</p> + +<p> +“Cabbages an’ ’taters an’ onions.” +</p> + +<p> +“But if you wanted to make a flower garden,” persisted Mary, +“what would you plant?” +</p> + +<p> +“Bulbs an’ sweet-smellin’ things—but mostly +roses.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary’s face lighted up. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you like roses?” she said. +</p> + +<p> +Ben Weatherstaff rooted up a weed and threw it aside before he answered. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, yes, I do. I was learned that by a young lady I was gardener to. +She had a lot in a place she was fond of, an’ she loved ’em like +they was children—or robins. I’ve seen her bend over an’ kiss +’em.” He dragged out another weed and scowled at it. “That +were as much as ten year’ ago.” +</p> + +<p> +“Where is she now?” asked Mary, much interested. +</p> + +<p> +“Heaven,” he answered, and drove his spade deep into the soil, +“’cording to what parson says.” +</p> + +<p> +“What happened to the roses?” Mary asked again, more interested +than ever. +</p> + +<p> +“They was left to themselves.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary was becoming quite excited. +</p> + +<p> +“Did they quite die? Do roses quite die when they are left to +themselves?” she ventured. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I’d got to like ’em—an’ I liked +her—an’ she liked ’em,” Ben Weatherstaff admitted +reluctantly. “Once or twice a year I’d go an’ work at +’em a bit—prune ’em an’ dig about th’ roots. They +run wild, but they was in rich soil, so some of ’em lived.” +</p> + +<p> +“When they have no leaves and look gray and brown and dry, how can you +tell whether they are dead or alive?” inquired Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Wait till th’ spring gets at ’em—wait till th’ +sun shines on th’ rain and th’ rain falls on th’ sunshine +an’ then tha’ll find out.” +</p> + +<p> +“How—how?” cried Mary, forgetting to be careful. +</p> + +<p> +“Look along th’ twigs an’ branches an’ if tha’ +see a bit of a brown lump swelling here an’ there, watch it after +th’ warm rain an’ see what happens.” He stopped suddenly and +looked curiously at her eager face. “Why does tha’ care so much +about roses an’ such, all of a sudden?” he demanded. +</p> + +<p> +Mistress Mary felt her face grow red. She was almost afraid to answer. +</p> + +<p> +“I—I want to play that—that I have a garden of my own,” +she stammered. “I—there is nothing for me to do. I have +nothing—and no one.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Ben Weatherstaff slowly, as he watched her, +“that’s true. Tha’ hasn’t.” +</p> + +<p> +He said it in such an odd way that Mary wondered if he was actually a little +sorry for her. She had never felt sorry for herself; she had only felt tired +and cross, because she disliked people and things so much. But now the world +seemed to be changing and getting nicer. If no one found out about the secret +garden, she should enjoy herself always. +</p> + +<p> +She stayed with him for ten or fifteen minutes longer and asked him as many +questions as she dared. He answered everyone of them in his queer grunting way +and he did not seem really cross and did not pick up his spade and leave her. +He said something about roses just as she was going away and it reminded her of +the ones he had said he had been fond of. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you go and see those other roses now?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Not been this year. My rheumatics has made me too stiff in th’ +joints.” +</p> + +<p> +He said it in his grumbling voice, and then quite suddenly he seemed to get +angry with her, though she did not see why he should. +</p> + +<p> +“Now look here!” he said sharply. “Don’t tha’ ask +so many questions. Tha’rt th’ worst wench for askin’ +questions I’ve ever come across. Get thee gone an’ play thee. +I’ve done talkin’ for today.” +</p> + +<p> +And he said it so crossly that she knew there was not the least use in staying +another minute. She went skipping slowly down the outside walk, thinking him +over and saying to herself that, queer as it was, here was another person whom +she liked in spite of his crossness. She liked old Ben Weatherstaff. Yes, she +did like him. She always wanted to try to make him talk to her. Also she began +to believe that he knew everything in the world about flowers. +</p> + +<p> +There was a laurel-hedged walk which curved round the secret garden and ended +at a gate which opened into a wood, in the park. She thought she would slip +round this walk and look into the wood and see if there were any rabbits +hopping about. She enjoyed the skipping very much and when she reached the +little gate she opened it and went through because she heard a low, peculiar +whistling sound and wanted to find out what it was. +</p> + +<p> +It was a very strange thing indeed. She quite caught her breath as she stopped +to look at it. A boy was sitting under a tree, with his back against it, +playing on a rough wooden pipe. He was a funny looking boy about twelve. He +looked very clean and his nose turned up and his cheeks were as red as poppies +and never had Mistress Mary seen such round and such blue eyes in any +boy’s face. And on the trunk of the tree he leaned against, a brown +squirrel was clinging and watching him, and from behind a bush nearby a cock +pheasant was delicately stretching his neck to peep out, and quite near him +were two rabbits sitting up and sniffing with tremulous noses—and +actually it appeared as if they were all drawing near to watch him and listen +to the strange low little call his pipe seemed to make. +</p> + +<p> +When he saw Mary he held up his hand and spoke to her in a voice almost as low +as and rather like his piping. +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t tha’ move,” he said. “It’d flight +’em.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary remained motionless. He stopped playing his pipe and began to rise from +the ground. He moved so slowly that it scarcely seemed as though he were moving +at all, but at last he stood on his feet and then the squirrel scampered back +up into the branches of his tree, the pheasant withdrew his head and the +rabbits dropped on all fours and began to hop away, though not at all as if +they were frightened. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m Dickon,” the boy said. “I know tha’rt Miss +Mary.” +</p> + +<p> +Then Mary realized that somehow she had known at first that he was Dickon. Who +else could have been charming rabbits and pheasants as the natives charm snakes +in India? He had a wide, red, curving mouth and his smile spread all over his +face. +</p> + +<p> +“I got up slow,” he explained, “because if tha’ makes a +quick move it startles ’em. A body ’as to move gentle an’ +speak low when wild things is about.” +</p> + +<p> +He did not speak to her as if they had never seen each other before but as if +he knew her quite well. Mary knew nothing about boys and she spoke to him a +little stiffly because she felt rather shy. +</p> + +<p> +“Did you get Martha’s letter?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +He nodded his curly, rust-colored head. +</p> + +<p> +“That’s why I come.” +</p> + +<p> +He stooped to pick up something which had been lying on the ground beside him +when he piped. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve got th’ garden tools. There’s a little spade +an’ rake an’ a fork an’ hoe. Eh! they are good ’uns. +There’s a trowel, too. An’ th’ woman in th’ shop threw +in a packet o’ white poppy an’ one o’ blue larkspur when I +bought th’ other seeds.” +</p> + +<p> +“Will you show the seeds to me?” Mary said. +</p> + +<p> +She wished she could talk as he did. His speech was so quick and easy. It +sounded as if he liked her and was not the least afraid she would not like him, +though he was only a common moor boy, in patched clothes and with a funny face +and a rough, rusty-red head. As she came closer to him she noticed that there +was a clean fresh scent of heather and grass and leaves about him, almost as if +he were made of them. She liked it very much and when she looked into his funny +face with the red cheeks and round blue eyes she forgot that she had felt shy. +</p> + +<p> +“Let us sit down on this log and look at them,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +They sat down and he took a clumsy little brown paper package out of his coat +pocket. He untied the string and inside there were ever so many neater and +smaller packages with a picture of a flower on each one. +</p> + +<p> +“There’s a lot o’ mignonette an’ poppies,” he +said. “Mignonette’s th’ sweetest smellin’ thing as +grows, an’ it’ll grow wherever you cast it, same as poppies will. +Them as’ll come up an’ bloom if you just whistle to ’em, +them’s th’ nicest of all.” +</p> + +<p> +He stopped and turned his head quickly, his poppy-cheeked face lighting up. +</p> + +<p> +“Where’s that robin as is callin’ us?” he said. +</p> + +<p> +The chirp came from a thick holly bush, bright with scarlet berries, and Mary +thought she knew whose it was. +</p> + +<p> +“Is it really calling us?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye,” said Dickon, as if it was the most natural thing in the +world, “he’s callin’ someone he’s friends with. +That’s same as sayin’ ‘Here I am. Look at me. I wants a bit +of a chat.’ There he is in the bush. Whose is he?” +</p> + +<p> +“He’s Ben Weatherstaff’s, but I think he knows me a +little,” answered Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, he knows thee,” said Dickon in his low voice again. +“An’ he likes thee. He’s took thee on. He’ll tell me +all about thee in a minute.” +</p> + +<p> +He moved quite close to the bush with the slow movement Mary had noticed +before, and then he made a sound almost like the robin’s own twitter. The +robin listened a few seconds, intently, and then answered quite as if he were +replying to a question. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, he’s a friend o’ yours,” chuckled Dickon. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you think he is?” cried Mary eagerly. She did so want to know. +“Do you think he really likes me?” +</p> + +<p> +“He wouldn’t come near thee if he didn’t,” answered +Dickon. “Birds is rare choosers an’ a robin can flout a body worse +than a man. See, he’s making up to thee now. ‘Cannot tha’ see +a chap?’ he’s sayin’.” +</p> + +<p> +And it really seemed as if it must be true. He so sidled and twittered and +tilted as he hopped on his bush. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you understand everything birds say?” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon’s grin spread until he seemed all wide, red, curving mouth, and he +rubbed his rough head. +</p> + +<p> +“I think I do, and they think I do,” he said. “I’ve +lived on th’ moor with ’em so long. I’ve watched ’em +break shell an’ come out an’ fledge an’ learn to fly +an’ begin to sing, till I think I’m one of ’em. Sometimes I +think p’raps I’m a bird, or a fox, or a rabbit, or a squirrel, or +even a beetle, an’ I don’t know it.” +</p> + +<p> +He laughed and came back to the log and began to talk about the flower seeds +again. He told her what they looked like when they were flowers; he told her +how to plant them, and watch them, and feed and water them. +</p> + +<p> +“See here,” he said suddenly, turning round to look at her. +“I’ll plant them for thee myself. Where is tha’ +garden?” +</p> + +<p> +Mary’s thin hands clutched each other as they lay on her lap. She did not +know what to say, so for a whole minute she said nothing. She had never thought +of this. She felt miserable. And she felt as if she went red and then pale. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’s got a bit o’ garden, hasn’t tha’?” +Dickon said. +</p> + +<p> +It was true that she had turned red and then pale. Dickon saw her do it, and as +she still said nothing, he began to be puzzled. +</p> + +<p> +“Wouldn’t they give thee a bit?” he asked. +“Hasn’t tha’ got any yet?” +</p> + +<p> +She held her hands tighter and turned her eyes toward him. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know anything about boys,” she said slowly. +“Could you keep a secret, if I told you one? It’s a great secret. I +don’t know what I should do if anyone found it out. I believe I should +die!” She said the last sentence quite fiercely. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon looked more puzzled than ever and even rubbed his hand over his rough +head again, but he answered quite good-humoredly. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m keepin’ secrets all th’ time,” he said. +“If I couldn’t keep secrets from th’ other lads, secrets +about foxes’ cubs, an’ birds’ nests, an’ wild +things’ holes, there’d be naught safe on th’ moor. Aye, I can +keep secrets.” +</p> + +<p> +Mistress Mary did not mean to put out her hand and clutch his sleeve but she +did it. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve stolen a garden,” she said very fast. “It +isn’t mine. It isn’t anybody’s. Nobody wants it, nobody cares +for it, nobody ever goes into it. Perhaps everything is dead in it already. I +don’t know.” +</p> + +<p> +She began to feel hot and as contrary as she had ever felt in her life. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t care, I don’t care! Nobody has any right to take it +from me when I care about it and they don’t. They’re letting it +die, all shut in by itself,” she ended passionately, and she threw her +arms over her face and burst out crying—poor little Mistress Mary. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon’s curious blue eyes grew rounder and rounder. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh-h-h!” he said, drawing his exclamation out slowly, and the way +he did it meant both wonder and sympathy. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve nothing to do,” said Mary. “Nothing belongs to +me. I found it myself and I got into it myself. I was only just like the robin, +and they wouldn’t take it from the robin.” +</p> + +<p> +“Where is it?” asked Dickon in a dropped voice. +</p> + +<p> +Mistress Mary got up from the log at once. She knew she felt contrary again, +and obstinate, and she did not care at all. She was imperious and Indian, and +at the same time hot and sorrowful. +</p> + +<p> +“Come with me and I’ll show you,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +She led him round the laurel path and to the walk where the ivy grew so +thickly. Dickon followed her with a queer, almost pitying, look on his face. He +felt as if he were being led to look at some strange bird’s nest and must +move softly. When she stepped to the wall and lifted the hanging ivy he +started. There was a door and Mary pushed it slowly open and they passed in +together, and then Mary stood and waved her hand round defiantly. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s this,” she said. “It’s a secret garden, and +I’m the only one in the world who wants it to be alive.” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon looked round and round about it, and round and round again. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” he almost whispered, “it is a queer, pretty place! +It’s like as if a body was in a dream.” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap11"></a>CHAPTER XI.<br /> +THE NEST OF THE MISSEL THRUSH</h2> + +<p> +For two or three minutes he stood looking round him, while Mary watched him, +and then he began to walk about softly, even more lightly than Mary had walked +the first time she had found herself inside the four walls. His eyes seemed to +be taking in everything—the gray trees with the gray creepers climbing +over them and hanging from their branches, the tangle on the walls and among +the grass, the evergreen alcoves with the stone seats and tall flower urns +standing in them. +</p> + +<p> +“I never thought I’d see this place,” he said at last, in a +whisper. +</p> + +<p> +“Did you know about it?” asked Mary. +</p> + +<p> +She had spoken aloud and he made a sign to her. +</p> + +<p> +“We must talk low,” he said, “or someone’ll hear us +an’ wonder what’s to do in here.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! I forgot!” said Mary, feeling frightened and putting her hand +quickly against her mouth. “Did you know about the garden?” she +asked again when she had recovered herself. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon nodded. +</p> + +<p> +“Martha told me there was one as no one ever went inside,” he +answered. “Us used to wonder what it was like.” +</p> + +<p> +He stopped and looked round at the lovely gray tangle about him, and his round +eyes looked queerly happy. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! the nests as’ll be here come springtime,” he said. +“It’d be th’ safest nestin’ place in England. No one +never comin’ near an’ tangles o’ trees an’ roses to +build in. I wonder all th’ birds on th’ moor don’t build +here.” +</p> + +<p> +Mistress Mary put her hand on his arm again without knowing it. +</p> + +<p> +“Will there be roses?” she whispered. “Can you tell? I +thought perhaps they were all dead.” +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! No! Not them—not all of ’em!” he answered. +“Look here!” +</p> + +<p> +He stepped over to the nearest tree—an old, old one with gray lichen all +over its bark, but upholding a curtain of tangled sprays and branches. He took +a thick knife out of his pocket and opened one of its blades. +</p> + +<p> +“There’s lots o’ dead wood as ought to be cut out,” he +said. “An’ there’s a lot o’ old wood, but it made some +new last year. This here’s a new bit,” and he touched a shoot which +looked brownish green instead of hard, dry gray. +</p> + +<p> +Mary touched it herself in an eager, reverent way. +</p> + +<p> +“That one?” she said. “Is that one quite alive quite?” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon curved his wide smiling mouth. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s as wick as you or me,” he said; and Mary remembered +that Martha had told her that “wick” meant “alive” or +“lively.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m glad it’s wick!” she cried out in her whisper. +“I want them all to be wick. Let us go round the garden and count how +many wick ones there are.” +</p> + +<p> +She quite panted with eagerness, and Dickon was as eager as she was. They went +from tree to tree and from bush to bush. Dickon carried his knife in his hand +and showed her things which she thought wonderful. +</p> + +<p> +“They’ve run wild,” he said, “but th’ strongest +ones has fair thrived on it. The delicatest ones has died out, but th’ +others has growed an’ growed, an’ spread an’ spread, till +they’s a wonder. See here!” and he pulled down a thick gray, +dry-looking branch. “A body might think this was dead wood, but I +don’t believe it is—down to th’ root. I’ll cut it low +down an’ see.” +</p> + +<p> +He knelt and with his knife cut the lifeless-looking branch through, not far +above the earth. +</p> + +<p> +“There!” he said exultantly. “I told thee so. There’s +green in that wood yet. Look at it.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary was down on her knees before he spoke, gazing with all her might. +</p> + +<p> +“When it looks a bit greenish an’ juicy like that, it’s +wick,” he explained. “When th’ inside is dry an’ breaks +easy, like this here piece I’ve cut off, it’s done for. +There’s a big root here as all this live wood sprung out of, an’ if +th’ old wood’s cut off an’ it’s dug round, and took +care of there’ll be—” he stopped and lifted his face to look +up at the climbing and hanging sprays above him—“there’ll be +a fountain o’ roses here this summer.” +</p> + +<p> +They went from bush to bush and from tree to tree. He was very strong and +clever with his knife and knew how to cut the dry and dead wood away, and could +tell when an unpromising bough or twig had still green life in it. In the +course of half an hour Mary thought she could tell too, and when he cut through +a lifeless-looking branch she would cry out joyfully under her breath when she +caught sight of the least shade of moist green. The spade, and hoe, and fork +were very useful. He showed her how to use the fork while he dug about roots +with the spade and stirred the earth and let the air in. +</p> + +<p> +They were working industriously round one of the biggest standard roses when he +caught sight of something which made him utter an exclamation of surprise. +</p> + +<p> +“Why!” he cried, pointing to the grass a few feet away. “Who +did that there?” +</p> + +<p> +It was one of Mary’s own little clearings round the pale green points. +</p> + +<p> +“I did it,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Why, I thought tha’ didn’t know nothin’ about +gardenin’,” he exclaimed. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t,” she answered, “but they were so little, and +the grass was so thick and strong, and they looked as if they had no room to +breathe. So I made a place for them. I don’t even know what they +are.” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon went and knelt down by them, smiling his wide smile. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ was right,” he said. “A gardener couldn’t +have told thee better. They’ll grow now like Jack’s bean-stalk. +They’re crocuses an’ snowdrops, an’ these here is +narcissuses,” turning to another patch, “an here’s +daffydowndillys. Eh! they will be a sight.” +</p> + +<p> +He ran from one clearing to another. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ has done a lot o’ work for such a little wench,” +he said, looking her over. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m growing fatter,” said Mary, “and I’m growing +stronger. I used always to be tired. When I dig I’m not tired at all. I +like to smell the earth when it’s turned up.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s rare good for thee,” he said, nodding his head wisely. +“There’s naught as nice as th’ smell o’ good clean +earth, except th’ smell o’ fresh growin’ things when +th’ rain falls on ’em. I get out on th’ moor many a day when +it’s rainin’ an’ I lie under a bush an’ listen to +th’ soft swish o’ drops on th’ heather an’ I just sniff +an’ sniff. My nose end fair quivers like a rabbit’s, mother +says.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you never catch cold?” inquired Mary, gazing at him +wonderingly. She had never seen such a funny boy, or such a nice one. +</p> + +<p> +“Not me,” he said, grinning. “I never ketched cold since I +was born. I wasn’t brought up nesh enough. I’ve chased about +th’ moor in all weathers same as th’ rabbits does. Mother says +I’ve sniffed up too much fresh air for twelve year’ to ever get to +sniffin’ with cold. I’m as tough as a white-thorn knobstick.” +</p> + +<p> +He was working all the time he was talking and Mary was following him and +helping him with her fork or the trowel. +</p> + +<p> +“There’s a lot of work to do here!” he said once, looking +about quite exultantly. +</p> + +<p> +“Will you come again and help me to do it?” Mary begged. +“I’m sure I can help, too. I can dig and pull up weeds, and do +whatever you tell me. Oh! do come, Dickon!” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll come every day if tha’ wants me, rain or shine,” +he answered stoutly. “It’s the best fun I ever had in my +life—shut in here an’ wakenin’ up a garden.” +</p> + +<p> +“If you will come,” said Mary, “if you will help me to make +it alive I’ll—I don’t know what I’ll do,” she +ended helplessly. What could you do for a boy like that? +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll tell thee what tha’ll do,” said Dickon, with his +happy grin. “Tha’ll get fat an’ tha’ll get as hungry as +a young fox an’ tha’ll learn how to talk to th’ robin same as +I do. Eh! we’ll have a lot o’ fun.” +</p> + +<p> +He began to walk about, looking up in the trees and at the walls and bushes +with a thoughtful expression. +</p> + +<p> +“I wouldn’t want to make it look like a gardener’s garden, +all clipped an’ spick an’ span, would you?” he said. +“It’s nicer like this with things runnin’ wild, an’ +swingin’ an’ catchin’ hold of each other.” +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t let us make it tidy,” said Mary anxiously. “It +wouldn’t seem like a secret garden if it was tidy.” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon stood rubbing his rusty-red head with a rather puzzled look. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s a secret garden sure enough,” he said, “but seems +like someone besides th’ robin must have been in it since it was shut up +ten year’ ago.” +</p> + +<p> +“But the door was locked and the key was buried,” said Mary. +“No one could get in.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s true,” he answered. “It’s a queer place. +Seems to me as if there’d been a bit o’ prunin’ done here +an’ there, later than ten year’ ago.” +</p> + +<p> +“But how could it have been done?” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +He was examining a branch of a standard rose and he shook his head. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye! how could it!” he murmured. “With th’ door locked +an’ th’ key buried.” +</p> + +<p> +Mistress Mary always felt that however many years she lived she should never +forget that first morning when her garden began to grow. Of course, it did seem +to begin to grow for her that morning. When Dickon began to clear places to +plant seeds, she remembered what Basil had sung at her when he wanted to tease +her. +</p> + +<p> +“Are there any flowers that look like bells?” she inquired. +</p> + +<p> +“Lilies o’ th’ valley does,” he answered, digging away +with the trowel, “an’ there’s Canterbury bells, an’ +campanulas.” +</p> + +<p> +“Let’s plant some,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“There’s lilies o’ th, valley here already; I saw ’em. +They’ll have growed too close an’ we’ll have to separate +’em, but there’s plenty. Th’ other ones takes two years to +bloom from seed, but I can bring you some bits o’ plants from our cottage +garden. Why does tha’ want ’em?” +</p> + +<p> +Then Mary told him about Basil and his brothers and sisters in India and of how +she had hated them and of their calling her “Mistress Mary Quite +Contrary.” +</p> + +<p> +“They used to dance round and sing at me. They sang— +</p> + +<p class="poem"> +‘Mistress Mary, quite contrary,<br /> + How does your garden grow?<br /> +With silver bells, and cockle shells,<br /> + And marigolds all in a row.’<br /> +</p> + +<p class="noindent"> +I just remembered it and it made me wonder if there were really flowers like +silver bells.” +</p> + +<p> +She frowned a little and gave her trowel a rather spiteful dig into the earth. +</p> + +<p> +“I wasn’t as contrary as they were.” +</p> + +<p> +But Dickon laughed. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” he said, and as he crumbled the rich black soil she saw he +was sniffing up the scent of it. “There doesn’t seem to be no need +for no one to be contrary when there’s flowers an’ such like, +an’ such lots o’ friendly wild things runnin’ about +makin’ homes for themselves, or buildin’ nests an’ +singin’ an’ whistlin’, does there?” +</p> + +<p> +Mary, kneeling by him holding the seeds, looked at him and stopped frowning. +</p> + +<p> +“Dickon,” she said, “you are as nice as Martha said you were. +I like you, and you make the fifth person. I never thought I should like five +people.” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon sat up on his heels as Martha did when she was polishing the grate. He +did look funny and delightful, Mary thought, with his round blue eyes and red +cheeks and happy looking turned-up nose. +</p> + +<p> +“Only five folk as tha’ likes?” he said. “Who is +th’ other four?” +</p> + +<p> +“Your mother and Martha,” Mary checked them off on her fingers, +“and the robin and Ben Weatherstaff.” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon laughed so that he was obliged to stifle the sound by putting his arm +over his mouth. +</p> + +<p> +“I know tha’ thinks I’m a queer lad,” he said, +“but I think tha’ art th’ queerest little lass I ever +saw.” +</p> + +<p> +Then Mary did a strange thing. She leaned forward and asked him a question she +had never dreamed of asking anyone before. And she tried to ask it in +Yorkshire because that was his language, and in India a native was always +pleased if you knew his speech. +</p> + +<p> +“Does tha’ like me?” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” he answered heartily, “that I does. I likes thee +wonderful, an’ so does th’ robin, I do believe!” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s two, then,” said Mary. “That’s two for +me.” +</p> + +<p> +And then they began to work harder than ever and more joyfully. Mary was +startled and sorry when she heard the big clock in the courtyard strike the +hour of her midday dinner. +</p> + +<p> +“I shall have to go,” she said mournfully. “And you will have +to go too, won’t you?” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon grinned. +</p> + +<p> +“My dinner’s easy to carry about with me,” he said. +“Mother always lets me put a bit o’ somethin’ in my +pocket.” +</p> + +<p> +He picked up his coat from the grass and brought out of a pocket a lumpy little +bundle tied up in a quite clean, coarse, blue and white handkerchief. It held +two thick pieces of bread with a slice of something laid between them. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s oftenest naught but bread,” he said, “but +I’ve got a fine slice o’ fat bacon with it today.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary thought it looked a queer dinner, but he seemed ready to enjoy it. +</p> + +<p> +“Run on an’ get thy victuals,” he said. “I’ll be +done with mine first. I’ll get some more work done before I start back +home.” +</p> + +<p> +He sat down with his back against a tree. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll call th’ robin up,” he said, “and give him +th’ rind o’ th’ bacon to peck at. They likes a bit o’ +fat wonderful.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary could scarcely bear to leave him. Suddenly it seemed as if he might be a +sort of wood fairy who might be gone when she came into the garden again. He +seemed too good to be true. She went slowly half-way to the door in the wall +and then she stopped and went back. +</p> + +<p> +“Whatever happens, you—you never would tell?” she said. +</p> + +<p> +His poppy-colored cheeks were distended with his first big bite of bread and +bacon, but he managed to smile encouragingly. +</p> + +<p> +“If tha’ was a missel thrush an’ showed me where thy nest +was, does tha’ think I’d tell anyone? Not me,” he said. +“Tha’ art as safe as a missel thrush.” +</p> + +<p> +And she was quite sure she was. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap12"></a>CHAPTER XII.<br /> +“MIGHT I HAVE A BIT OF EARTH?”</h2> + +<p> +Mary ran so fast that she was rather out of breath when she reached her room. +Her hair was ruffled on her forehead and her cheeks were bright pink. Her +dinner was waiting on the table, and Martha was waiting near it. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’s a bit late,” she said. “Where has tha’ +been?” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve seen Dickon!” said Mary. “I’ve seen +Dickon!” +</p> + +<p> +“I knew he’d come,” said Martha exultantly. “How does +tha’ like him?” +</p> + +<p> +“I think—I think he’s beautiful!” said Mary in a +determined voice. +</p> + +<p> +Martha looked rather taken aback but she looked pleased, too. +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” she said, “he’s th’ best lad as ever was +born, but us never thought he was handsome. His nose turns up too much.” +</p> + +<p> +“I like it to turn up,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“An’ his eyes is so round,” said Martha, a trifle doubtful. +“Though they’re a nice color.” +</p> + +<p> +“I like them round,” said Mary. “And they are exactly the +color of the sky over the moor.” +</p> + +<p> +Martha beamed with satisfaction. +</p> + +<p> +“Mother says he made ’em that color with always lookin’ up at +th’ birds an’ th’ clouds. But he has got a big mouth, +hasn’t he, now?” +</p> + +<p> +“I love his big mouth,” said Mary obstinately. “I wish mine +were just like it.” +</p> + +<p> +Martha chuckled delightedly. +</p> + +<p> +“It’d look rare an’ funny in thy bit of a face,” she +said. “But I knowed it would be that way when tha’ saw him. How did +tha’ like th’ seeds an’ th’ garden tools?” +</p> + +<p> +“How did you know he brought them?” asked Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! I never thought of him not bringin’ ’em. He’d be +sure to bring ’em if they was in Yorkshire. He’s such a trusty +lad.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary was afraid that she might begin to ask difficult questions, but she did +not. She was very much interested in the seeds and gardening tools, and there +was only one moment when Mary was frightened. This was when she began to ask +where the flowers were to be planted. +</p> + +<p> +“Who did tha’ ask about it?” she inquired. +</p> + +<p> +“I haven’t asked anybody yet,” said Mary, hesitating. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I wouldn’t ask th’ head gardener. He’s too +grand, Mr. Roach is.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve never seen him,” said Mary. “I’ve only seen +undergardeners and Ben Weatherstaff.” +</p> + +<p> +“If I was you, I’d ask Ben Weatherstaff,” advised Martha. +“He’s not half as bad as he looks, for all he’s so crabbed. +Mr. Craven lets him do what he likes because he was here when Mrs. Craven was +alive, an’ he used to make her laugh. She liked him. Perhaps he’d +find you a corner somewhere out o’ the way.” +</p> + +<p> +“If it was out of the way and no one wanted it, no one <i>could</i> mind +my having it, could they?” Mary said anxiously. +</p> + +<p> +“There wouldn’t be no reason,” answered Martha. “You +wouldn’t do no harm.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary ate her dinner as quickly as she could and when she rose from the table +she was going to run to her room to put on her hat again, but Martha stopped +her. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve got somethin’ to tell you,” she said. “I +thought I’d let you eat your dinner first. Mr. Craven came back this +mornin’ and I think he wants to see you.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary turned quite pale. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh!” she said. “Why! Why! He didn’t want to see me +when I came. I heard Pitcher say he didn’t.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” explained Martha, “Mrs. Medlock says it’s +because o’ mother. She was walkin’ to Thwaite village an’ she +met him. She’d never spoke to him before, but Mrs. Craven had been to our +cottage two or three times. He’d forgot, but mother hadn’t +an’ she made bold to stop him. I don’t know what she said to him +about you but she said somethin’ as put him in th’ mind to see you +before he goes away again, tomorrow.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh!” cried Mary, “is he going away tomorrow? I am so +glad!” +</p> + +<p> +“He’s goin’ for a long time. He mayn’t come back till +autumn or winter. He’s goin’ to travel in foreign places. +He’s always doin’ it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! I’m so glad—so glad!” said Mary thankfully. +</p> + +<p> +If he did not come back until winter, or even autumn, there would be time to +watch the secret garden come alive. Even if he found out then and took it away +from her she would have had that much at least. +</p> + +<p> +“When do you think he will want to see—” +</p> + +<p> +She did not finish the sentence, because the door opened, and Mrs. Medlock +walked in. She had on her best black dress and cap, and her collar was fastened +with a large brooch with a picture of a man’s face on it. It was a +colored photograph of Mr. Medlock who had died years ago, and she always wore +it when she was dressed up. She looked nervous and excited. +</p> + +<p> +“Your hair’s rough,” she said quickly. “Go and brush +it. Martha, help her to slip on her best dress. Mr. Craven sent me to bring her +to him in his study.” +</p> + +<p> +All the pink left Mary’s cheeks. Her heart began to thump and she felt +herself changing into a stiff, plain, silent child again. She did not even +answer Mrs. Medlock, but turned and walked into her bedroom, followed by +Martha. She said nothing while her dress was changed, and her hair brushed, and +after she was quite tidy she followed Mrs. Medlock down the corridors, in +silence. What was there for her to say? She was obliged to go and see Mr. +Craven and he would not like her, and she would not like him. She knew what he +would think of her. +</p> + +<p> +She was taken to a part of the house she had not been into before. At last Mrs. +Medlock knocked at a door, and when someone said, “Come in,” they +entered the room together. A man was sitting in an armchair before the fire, +and Mrs. Medlock spoke to him. +</p> + +<p> +“This is Miss Mary, sir,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“You can go and leave her here. I will ring for you when I want you to +take her away,” said Mr. Craven. +</p> + +<p> +When she went out and closed the door, Mary could only stand waiting, a plain +little thing, twisting her thin hands together. She could see that the man in +the chair was not so much a hunchback as a man with high, rather crooked +shoulders, and he had black hair streaked with white. He turned his head over +his high shoulders and spoke to her. +</p> + +<p> +“Come here!” he said. +</p> + +<p> +Mary went to him. +</p> + +<p> +He was not ugly. His face would have been handsome if it had not been so +miserable. He looked as if the sight of her worried and fretted him and as if +he did not know what in the world to do with her. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you well?” he asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” answered Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Do they take good care of you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes.” +</p> + +<p> +He rubbed his forehead fretfully as he looked her over. +</p> + +<p> +“You are very thin,” he said. +</p> + +<p> +“I am getting fatter,” Mary answered in what she knew was her +stiffest way. +</p> + +<p> +What an unhappy face he had! His black eyes seemed as if they scarcely saw her, +as if they were seeing something else, and he could hardly keep his thoughts +upon her. +</p> + +<p> +“I forgot you,” he said. “How could I remember you? I +intended to send you a governess or a nurse, or someone of that sort, but I +forgot.” +</p> + +<p> +“Please,” began Mary. “Please—” and then the lump +in her throat choked her. +</p> + +<p> +“What do you want to say?” he inquired. +</p> + +<p> +“I am—I am too big for a nurse,” said Mary. “And +please—please don’t make me have a governess yet.” +</p> + +<p> +He rubbed his forehead again and stared at her. +</p> + +<p> +“That was what the Sowerby woman said,” he muttered absent-mindedly. +</p> + +<p> +Then Mary gathered a scrap of courage. +</p> + +<p> +“Is she—is she Martha’s mother?” she stammered. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, I think so,” he replied. +</p> + +<p> +“She knows about children,” said Mary. “She has twelve. She +knows.” +</p> + +<p> +He seemed to rouse himself. +</p> + +<p> +“What do you want to do?” +</p> + +<p> +“I want to play out of doors,” Mary answered, hoping that her voice +did not tremble. “I never liked it in India. It makes me hungry here, and +I am getting fatter.” +</p> + +<p> +He was watching her. +</p> + +<p> +“Mrs. Sowerby said it would do you good. Perhaps it will,” he said. +“She thought you had better get stronger before you had a +governess.” +</p> + +<p> +“It makes me feel strong when I play and the wind comes over the +moor,” argued Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Where do you play?” he asked next. +</p> + +<p> +“Everywhere,” gasped Mary. “Martha’s mother sent me a +skipping-rope. I skip and run—and I look about to see if things are +beginning to stick up out of the earth. I don’t do any harm.” +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t look so frightened,” he said in a worried voice. +“You could not do any harm, a child like you! You may do what you +like.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary put her hand up to her throat because she was afraid he might see the +excited lump which she felt jump into it. She came a step nearer to him. +</p> + +<p> +“May I?” she said tremulously. +</p> + +<p> +Her anxious little face seemed to worry him more than ever. +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t look so frightened,” he exclaimed. “Of course +you may. I am your guardian, though I am a poor one for any child. I cannot +give you time or attention. I am too ill, and wretched and distracted; but I +wish you to be happy and comfortable. I don’t know anything about +children, but Mrs. Medlock is to see that you have all you need. I sent for you +today because Mrs. Sowerby said I ought to see you. Her daughter had talked +about you. She thought you needed fresh air and freedom and running +about.” +</p> + +<p> +“She knows all about children,” Mary said again in spite of +herself. +</p> + +<p> +“She ought to,” said Mr. Craven. “I thought her rather bold +to stop me on the moor, but she said—Mrs. Craven had been kind to +her.” It seemed hard for him to speak his dead wife’s name. +“She is a respectable woman. Now I have seen you I think she said +sensible things. Play out of doors as much as you like. It’s a big place +and you may go where you like and amuse yourself as you like. Is there anything +you want?” as if a sudden thought had struck him. “Do you want +toys, books, dolls?” +</p> + +<p> +“Might I,” quavered Mary, “might I have a bit of +earth?” +</p> + +<p> +In her eagerness she did not realize how queer the words would sound and that +they were not the ones she had meant to say. Mr. Craven looked quite startled. +</p> + +<p> +“Earth!” he repeated. “What do you mean?” +</p> + +<p> +“To plant seeds in—to make things grow—to see them come +alive,” Mary faltered. +</p> + +<p> +He gazed at her a moment and then passed his hand quickly over his eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you—care about gardens so much,” he said slowly. +</p> + +<p> +“I didn’t know about them in India,” said Mary. “I was +always ill and tired and it was too hot. I sometimes made little beds in the +sand and stuck flowers in them. But here it is different.” +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Craven got up and began to walk slowly across the room. +</p> + +<p> +“A bit of earth,” he said to himself, and Mary thought that somehow +she must have reminded him of something. When he stopped and spoke to her his +dark eyes looked almost soft and kind. +</p> + +<p> +“You can have as much earth as you want,” he said. “You +remind me of someone else who loved the earth and things that grow. When you +see a bit of earth you want,” with something like a smile, “take +it, child, and make it come alive.” +</p> + +<p> +“May I take it from anywhere—if it’s not wanted?” +</p> + +<p> +“Anywhere,” he answered. “There! You must go now, I am +tired.” He touched the bell to call Mrs. Medlock. “Good-by. I shall +be away all summer.” +</p> + +<p> +Mrs. Medlock came so quickly that Mary thought she must have been waiting in +the corridor. +</p> + +<p> +“Mrs. Medlock,” Mr. Craven said to her, “now I have seen the +child I understand what Mrs. Sowerby meant. She must be less delicate before +she begins lessons. Give her simple, healthy food. Let her run wild in the +garden. Don’t look after her too much. She needs liberty and fresh air +and romping about. Mrs. Sowerby is to come and see her now and then and she may +sometimes go to the cottage.” +</p> + +<p> +Mrs. Medlock looked pleased. She was relieved to hear that she need not +“look after” Mary too much. She had felt her a tiresome charge and +had indeed seen as little of her as she dared. In addition to this she was fond +of Martha’s mother. +</p> + +<p> +“Thank you, sir,” she said. “Susan Sowerby and me went to +school together and she’s as sensible and good-hearted a woman as +you’d find in a day’s walk. I never had any children myself and +she’s had twelve, and there never was healthier or better ones. Miss Mary +can get no harm from them. I’d always take Susan Sowerby’s advice +about children myself. She’s what you might call healthy-minded—if +you understand me.” +</p> + +<p> +“I understand,” Mr. Craven answered. “Take Miss Mary away now +and send Pitcher to me.” +</p> + +<p> +When Mrs. Medlock left her at the end of her own corridor Mary flew back to her +room. She found Martha waiting there. Martha had, in fact, hurried back after +she had removed the dinner service. +</p> + +<p> +“I can have my garden!” cried Mary. “I may have it where I +like! I am not going to have a governess for a long time! Your mother is coming +to see me and I may go to your cottage! He says a little girl like me could not +do any harm and I may do what I like—anywhere!” +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” said Martha delightedly, “that was nice of him +wasn’t it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Martha,” said Mary solemnly, “he is really a nice man, only +his face is so miserable and his forehead is all drawn together.” +</p> + +<p> +She ran as quickly as she could to the garden. She had been away so much longer +than she had thought she should and she knew Dickon would have to set out early +on his five-mile walk. When she slipped through the door under the ivy, she saw +he was not working where she had left him. The gardening tools were laid +together under a tree. She ran to them, looking all round the place, but there +was no Dickon to be seen. He had gone away and the secret garden was +empty—except for the robin who had just flown across the wall and sat on +a standard rose-bush watching her. +</p> + +<p> +“He’s gone,” she said woefully. “Oh! was he—was +he—was he only a wood fairy?” +</p> + +<p> +Something white fastened to the standard rose-bush caught her eye. It was a +piece of paper, in fact, it was a piece of the letter she had printed for +Martha to send to Dickon. It was fastened on the bush with a long thorn, and in +a minute she knew Dickon had left it there. There were some roughly printed +letters on it and a sort of picture. At first she could not tell what it was. +Then she saw it was meant for a nest with a bird sitting on it. Underneath were +the printed letters and they said: +</p> + +<p> +“I will cum bak.” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap13"></a>CHAPTER XIII.<br /> +“I AM COLIN”</h2> + +<p> +Mary took the picture back to the house when she went to her supper and she +showed it to Martha. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” said Martha with great pride. “I never knew our Dickon +was as clever as that. That there’s a picture of a missel thrush on her +nest, as large as life an’ twice as natural.” +</p> + +<p> +Then Mary knew Dickon had meant the picture to be a message. He had meant that +she might be sure he would keep her secret. Her garden was her nest and she was +like a missel thrush. Oh, how she did like that queer, common boy! +</p> + +<p> +She hoped he would come back the very next day and she fell asleep looking +forward to the morning. +</p> + +<p> +But you never know what the weather will do in Yorkshire, particularly in the +springtime. She was awakened in the night by the sound of rain beating with +heavy drops against her window. It was pouring down in torrents and the wind +was “wuthering” round the corners and in the chimneys of the huge +old house. Mary sat up in bed and felt miserable and angry. +</p> + +<p> +“The rain is as contrary as I ever was,” she said. “It came +because it knew I did not want it.” +</p> + +<p> +She threw herself back on her pillow and buried her face. She did not cry, but +she lay and hated the sound of the heavily beating rain, she hated the wind and +its “wuthering.” She could not go to sleep again. The mournful +sound kept her awake because she felt mournful herself. If she had felt happy +it would probably have lulled her to sleep. How it “wuthered” and +how the big raindrops poured down and beat against the pane! +</p> + +<p> +“It sounds just like a person lost on the moor and wandering on and on +crying,” she said.<br /><br /> +</p> + +<p> +She had been lying awake turning from side to side for about an hour, when +suddenly something made her sit up in bed and turn her head toward the door +listening. She listened and she listened. +</p> + +<p> +“It isn’t the wind now,” she said in a loud whisper. +“That isn’t the wind. It is different. It is that crying I heard +before.” +</p> + +<p> +The door of her room was ajar and the sound came down the corridor, a far-off +faint sound of fretful crying. She listened for a few minutes and each minute +she became more and more sure. She felt as if she must find out what it was. It +seemed even stranger than the secret garden and the buried key. Perhaps the +fact that she was in a rebellious mood made her bold. She put her foot out of +bed and stood on the floor. +</p> + +<p> +“I am going to find out what it is,” she said. “Everybody is +in bed and I don’t care about Mrs. Medlock—I don’t +care!” +</p> + +<p> +There was a candle by her bedside and she took it up and went softly out of the +room. The corridor looked very long and dark, but she was too excited to mind +that. She thought she remembered the corners she must turn to find the short +corridor with the door covered with tapestry—the one Mrs. Medlock had +come through the day she lost herself. The sound had come up that passage. So +she went on with her dim light, almost feeling her way, her heart beating so +loud that she fancied she could hear it. The far-off faint crying went on and +led her. Sometimes it stopped for a moment or so and then began again. Was this +the right corner to turn? She stopped and thought. Yes it was. Down this +passage and then to the left, and then up two broad steps, and then to the +right again. Yes, there was the tapestry door. +</p> + +<p> +She pushed it open very gently and closed it behind her, and she stood in the +corridor and could hear the crying quite plainly, though it was not loud. It +was on the other side of the wall at her left and a few yards farther on there +was a door. She could see a glimmer of light coming from beneath it. The +Someone was crying in that room, and it was quite a young Someone. +</p> + +<p> +So she walked to the door and pushed it open, and there she was standing in the +room! +</p> + +<p> +It was a big room with ancient, handsome furniture in it. There was a low fire +glowing faintly on the hearth and a night light burning by the side of a carved +four-posted bed hung with brocade, and on the bed was lying a boy, crying +fretfully. +</p> + +<p> +Mary wondered if she was in a real place or if she had fallen asleep again and +was dreaming without knowing it. +</p> + +<p> +The boy had a sharp, delicate face the color of ivory and he seemed to have +eyes too big for it. He had also a lot of hair which tumbled over his forehead +in heavy locks and made his thin face seem smaller. He looked like a boy who +had been ill, but he was crying more as if he were tired and cross than as if +he were in pain. +</p> + +<p> +Mary stood near the door with her candle in her hand, holding her breath. Then +she crept across the room, and, as she drew nearer, the light attracted the +boy’s attention and he turned his head on his pillow and stared at her, +his gray eyes opening so wide that they seemed immense. +</p> + +<p> +“Who are you?” he said at last in a half-frightened whisper. +“Are you a ghost?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, I am not,” Mary answered, her own whisper sounding half +frightened. “Are you one?” +</p> + +<p> +He stared and stared and stared. Mary could not help noticing what strange eyes +he had. They were agate gray and they looked too big for his face because they +had black lashes all round them. +</p> + +<p> +“No,” he replied after waiting a moment or so. “I am +Colin.” +</p> + +<p> +“Who is Colin?” she faltered. +</p> + +<p> +“I am Colin Craven. Who are you?” +</p> + +<p> +“I am Mary Lennox. Mr. Craven is my uncle.” +</p> + +<p> +“He is my father,” said the boy. +</p> + +<p> +“Your father!” gasped Mary. “No one ever told me he had a +boy! Why didn’t they?” +</p> + +<p> +“Come here,” he said, still keeping his strange eyes fixed on her +with an anxious expression. +</p> + +<p> +She came close to the bed and he put out his hand and touched her. +</p> + +<p> +“You are real, aren’t you?” he said. “I have such real +dreams very often. You might be one of them.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary had slipped on a woolen wrapper before she left her room and she put a +piece of it between his fingers. +</p> + +<p> +“Rub that and see how thick and warm it is,” she said. “I +will pinch you a little if you like, to show you how real I am. For a minute I +thought you might be a dream too.” +</p> + +<p> +“Where did you come from?” he asked. +</p> + +<p> +“From my own room. The wind wuthered so I couldn’t go to sleep and +I heard someone crying and wanted to find out who it was. What were you crying +for?” +</p> + +<p> +“Because I couldn’t go to sleep either and my head ached. Tell me +your name again.” +</p> + +<p> +“Mary Lennox. Did no one ever tell you I had come to live here?” +</p> + +<p> +He was still fingering the fold of her wrapper, but he began to look a little +more as if he believed in her reality. +</p> + +<p> +“No,” he answered. “They daren’t.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why?” asked Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Because I should have been afraid you would see me. I won’t let +people see me and talk me over.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why?” Mary asked again, feeling more mystified every moment. +</p> + +<p> +“Because I am like this always, ill and having to lie down. My father +won’t let people talk me over either. The servants are not allowed to +speak about me. If I live I may be a hunchback, but I shan’t live. My +father hates to think I may be like him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, what a queer house this is!” Mary said. “What a queer +house! Everything is a kind of secret. Rooms are locked up and gardens are +locked up—and you! Have you been locked up?” +</p> + +<p> +“No. I stay in this room because I don’t want to be moved out of +it. It tires me too much.” +</p> + +<p> +“Does your father come and see you?” Mary ventured. +</p> + +<p> +“Sometimes. Generally when I am asleep. He doesn’t want to see +me.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why?” Mary could not help asking again. +</p> + +<p> +A sort of angry shadow passed over the boy’s face. +</p> + +<p> +“My mother died when I was born and it makes him wretched to look at me. +He thinks I don’t know, but I’ve heard people talking. He almost +hates me.” +</p> + +<p> +“He hates the garden, because she died,” said Mary half speaking to +herself. +</p> + +<p> +“What garden?” the boy asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! just—just a garden she used to like,” Mary stammered. +“Have you been here always?” +</p> + +<p> +“Nearly always. Sometimes I have been taken to places at the seaside, but +I won’t stay because people stare at me. I used to wear an iron thing to +keep my back straight, but a grand doctor came from London to see me and said +it was stupid. He told them to take it off and keep me out in the fresh air. I +hate fresh air and I don’t want to go out.” +</p> + +<p> +“I didn’t when first I came here,” said Mary. “Why do +you keep looking at me like that?” +</p> + +<p> +“Because of the dreams that are so real,” he answered rather +fretfully. “Sometimes when I open my eyes I don’t believe I’m +awake.” +</p> + +<p> +“We’re both awake,” said Mary. She glanced round the room +with its high ceiling and shadowy corners and dim fire-light. “It looks +quite like a dream, and it’s the middle of the night, and everybody in +the house is asleep—everybody but us. We are wide awake.” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t want it to be a dream,” the boy said restlessly. +</p> + +<p> +Mary thought of something all at once. +</p> + +<p> +“If you don’t like people to see you,” she began, “do +you want me to go away?” +</p> + +<p> +He still held the fold of her wrapper and he gave it a little pull. +</p> + +<p> +“No,” he said. “I should be sure you were a dream if you +went. If you are real, sit down on that big footstool and talk. I want to hear +about you.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary put down her candle on the table near the bed and sat down on the +cushioned stool. She did not want to go away at all. She wanted to stay in the +mysterious hidden-away room and talk to the mysterious boy. +</p> + +<p> +“What do you want me to tell you?” she said. +</p> + +<p> +He wanted to know how long she had been at Misselthwaite; he wanted to know +which corridor her room was on; he wanted to know what she had been doing; if +she disliked the moor as he disliked it; where she had lived before she came to +Yorkshire. She answered all these questions and many more and he lay back on +his pillow and listened. He made her tell him a great deal about India and +about her voyage across the ocean. She found out that because he had been an +invalid he had not learned things as other children had. One of his nurses had +taught him to read when he was quite little and he was always reading and +looking at pictures in splendid books. +</p> + +<p> +Though his father rarely saw him when he was awake, he was given all sorts of +wonderful things to amuse himself with. He never seemed to have been amused, +however. He could have anything he asked for and was never made to do anything +he did not like to do. +</p> + +<p> +“Everyone is obliged to do what pleases me,” he said indifferently. +“It makes me ill to be angry. No one believes I shall live to grow +up.” +</p> + +<p> +He said it as if he was so accustomed to the idea that it had ceased to matter +to him at all. He seemed to like the sound of Mary’s voice. As she went +on talking he listened in a drowsy, interested way. Once or twice she wondered +if he were not gradually falling into a doze. But at last he asked a question +which opened up a new subject. +</p> + +<p> +“How old are you?” he asked. +</p> + +<p> +“I am ten,” answered Mary, forgetting herself for the moment, +“and so are you.” +</p> + +<p> +“How do you know that?” he demanded in a surprised voice. +</p> + +<p> +“Because when you were born the garden door was locked and the key was +buried. And it has been locked for ten years.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin half sat up, turning toward her, leaning on his elbows. +</p> + +<p> +“What garden door was locked? Who did it? Where was the key +buried?” he exclaimed as if he were suddenly very much interested. +</p> + +<p> +“It—it was the garden Mr. Craven hates,” said Mary nervously. +“He locked the door. No one—no one knew where he buried the +key.” +</p> + +<p> +“What sort of a garden is it?” Colin persisted eagerly. +</p> + +<p> +“No one has been allowed to go into it for ten years,” was +Mary’s careful answer. +</p> + +<p> +But it was too late to be careful. He was too much like herself. He too had had +nothing to think about and the idea of a hidden garden attracted him as it had +attracted her. He asked question after question. Where was it? Had she never +looked for the door? Had she never asked the gardeners? +</p> + +<p> +“They won’t talk about it,” said Mary. “I think they +have been told not to answer questions.” +</p> + +<p> +“I would make them,” said Colin. +</p> + +<p> +“Could you?” Mary faltered, beginning to feel frightened. If he +could make people answer questions, who knew what might happen! +</p> + +<p> +“Everyone is obliged to please me. I told you that,” he said. +“If I were to live, this place would sometime belong to me. They all know +that. I would make them tell me.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary had not known that she herself had been spoiled, but she could see quite +plainly that this mysterious boy had been. He thought that the whole world +belonged to him. How peculiar he was and how coolly he spoke of not living. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you think you won’t live?” she asked, partly because she +was curious and partly in hope of making him forget the garden. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t suppose I shall,” he answered as indifferently as he +had spoken before. “Ever since I remember anything I have heard people +say I shan’t. At first they thought I was too little to understand and +now they think I don’t hear. But I do. My doctor is my father’s +cousin. He is quite poor and if I die he will have all Misselthwaite when my +father is dead. I should think he wouldn’t want me to live.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you want to live?” inquired Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“No,” he answered, in a cross, tired fashion. “But I +don’t want to die. When I feel ill I lie here and think about it until I +cry and cry.” +</p> + +<p> +“I have heard you crying three times,” Mary said, “but I did +not know who it was. Were you crying about that?” She did so want him to +forget the garden. +</p> + +<p> +“I dare say,” he answered. “Let us talk about something else. +Talk about that garden. Don’t you want to see it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” answered Mary, in quite a low voice. +</p> + +<p> +“I do,” he went on persistently. “I don’t think I ever +really wanted to see anything before, but I want to see that garden. I want the +key dug up. I want the door unlocked. I would let them take me there in my +chair. That would be getting fresh air. I am going to make them open the +door.” +</p> + +<p> +He had become quite excited and his strange eyes began to shine like stars and +looked more immense than ever. +</p> + +<p> +“They have to please me,” he said. “I will make them take me +there and I will let you go, too.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary’s hands clutched each other. Everything would be +spoiled—everything! Dickon would never come back. She would never again +feel like a missel thrush with a safe-hidden nest. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, don’t—don’t—don’t—don’t do +that!” she cried out. +</p> + +<p> +He stared as if he thought she had gone crazy! +</p> + +<p> +“Why?” he exclaimed. “You said you wanted to see it.” +</p> + +<p> +“I do,” she answered almost with a sob in her throat, “but if +you make them open the door and take you in like that it will never be a secret +again.” +</p> + +<p> +He leaned still farther forward. +</p> + +<p> +“A secret,” he said. “What do you mean? Tell me.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary’s words almost tumbled over one another. +</p> + +<p> +“You see—you see,” she panted, “if no one knows but +ourselves—if there was a door, hidden somewhere under the ivy—if +there was—and we could find it; and if we could slip through it together +and shut it behind us, and no one knew anyone was inside and we called it our +garden and pretended that—that we were missel thrushes and it was our +nest, and if we played there almost every day and dug and planted seeds and +made it all come alive—” +</p> + +<p> +“Is it dead?” he interrupted her. +</p> + +<p> +“It soon will be if no one cares for it,” she went on. “The +bulbs will live but the roses—” +</p> + +<p> +He stopped her again as excited as she was herself. +</p> + +<p> +“What are bulbs?” he put in quickly. +</p> + +<p> +“They are daffodils and lilies and snowdrops. They are working in the +earth now—pushing up pale green points because the spring is +coming.” +</p> + +<p> +“Is the spring coming?” he said. “What is it like? You +don’t see it in rooms if you are ill.” +</p> + +<p> +“It is the sun shining on the rain and the rain falling on the sunshine, +and things pushing up and working under the earth,” said Mary. “If +the garden was a secret and we could get into it we could watch the things grow +bigger every day, and see how many roses are alive. Don’t you see? Oh, +don’t you see how much nicer it would be if it was a secret?” +</p> + +<p> +He dropped back on his pillow and lay there with an odd expression on his face. +</p> + +<p> +“I never had a secret,” he said, “except that one about not +living to grow up. They don’t know I know that, so it is a sort of +secret. But I like this kind better.” +</p> + +<p> +“If you won’t make them take you to the garden,” pleaded +Mary, “perhaps—I feel almost sure I can find out how to get in +sometime. And then—if the doctor wants you to go out in your chair, and +if you can always do what you want to do, perhaps—perhaps we might find +some boy who would push you, and we could go alone and it would always be a +secret garden.” +</p> + +<p> +“I should—like—that,” he said very slowly, his eyes +looking dreamy. “I should like that. I should not mind fresh air in a +secret garden.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary began to recover her breath and feel safer because the idea of keeping the +secret seemed to please him. She felt almost sure that if she kept on talking +and could make him see the garden in his mind as she had seen it he would like +it so much that he could not bear to think that everybody might tramp in to it +when they chose. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll tell you what I <i>think</i> it would be like, if we could go +into it,” she said. “It has been shut up so long things have grown +into a tangle perhaps.” +</p> + +<p> +He lay quite still and listened while she went on talking about the roses which +<i>might</i> have clambered from tree to tree and hung down—about the +many birds which <i>might</i> have built their nests there because it was so +safe. And then she told him about the robin and Ben Weatherstaff, and there was +so much to tell about the robin and it was so easy and safe to talk about it +that she ceased to be afraid. The robin pleased him so much that he smiled +until he looked almost beautiful, and at first Mary had thought that he was +even plainer than herself, with his big eyes and heavy locks of hair. +</p> + +<p> +“I did not know birds could be like that,” he said. “But if +you stay in a room you never see things. What a lot of things you know. I feel +as if you had been inside that garden.” +</p> + +<p> +She did not know what to say, so she did not say anything. He evidently did not +expect an answer and the next moment he gave her a surprise. +</p> + +<p> +“I am going to let you look at something,” he said. “Do you +see that rose-colored silk curtain hanging on the wall over the +mantel-piece?” +</p> + +<p> +Mary had not noticed it before, but she looked up and saw it. It was a curtain +of soft silk hanging over what seemed to be some picture. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” she answered. +</p> + +<p> +“There is a cord hanging from it,” said Colin. “Go and pull +it.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary got up, much mystified, and found the cord. When she pulled it the silk +curtain ran back on rings and when it ran back it uncovered a picture. It was +the picture of a girl with a laughing face. She had bright hair tied up with a +blue ribbon and her gay, lovely eyes were exactly like Colin’s unhappy +ones, agate gray and looking twice as big as they really were because of the +black lashes all round them. +</p> + +<p> +“She is my mother,” said Colin complainingly. “I don’t +see why she died. Sometimes I hate her for doing it.” +</p> + +<p> +“How queer!” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“If she had lived I believe I should not have been ill always,” he +grumbled. “I dare say I should have lived, too. And my father would not +have hated to look at me. I dare say I should have had a strong back. Draw the +curtain again.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary did as she was told and returned to her footstool. +</p> + +<p> +“She is much prettier than you,” she said, “but her eyes are +just like yours—at least they are the same shape and color. Why is the +curtain drawn over her?” +</p> + +<p> +He moved uncomfortably. +</p> + +<p> +“I made them do it,” he said. “Sometimes I don’t like +to see her looking at me. She smiles too much when I am ill and miserable. +Besides, she is mine and I don’t want everyone to see her.” +</p> + +<p> +There were a few moments of silence and then Mary spoke. +</p> + +<p> +“What would Mrs. Medlock do if she found out that I had been here?” +she inquired. +</p> + +<p> +“She would do as I told her to do,” he answered. “And I +should tell her that I wanted you to come here and talk to me every day. I am +glad you came.” +</p> + +<p> +“So am I,” said Mary. “I will come as often as I can, +but”—she hesitated—“I shall have to look every day for +the garden door.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, you must,” said Colin, “and you can tell me about it +afterward.” +</p> + +<p> +He lay thinking a few minutes, as he had done before, and then he spoke again. +</p> + +<p> +“I think you shall be a secret, too,” he said. “I will not +tell them until they find out. I can always send the nurse out of the room and +say that I want to be by myself. Do you know Martha?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, I know her very well,” said Mary. “She waits on +me.” +</p> + +<p> +He nodded his head toward the outer corridor. +</p> + +<p> +“She is the one who is asleep in the other room. The nurse went away +yesterday to stay all night with her sister and she always makes Martha attend +to me when she wants to go out. Martha shall tell you when to come here.” +</p> + +<p> +Then Mary understood Martha’s troubled look when she had asked questions +about the crying. +</p> + +<p> +“Martha knew about you all the time?” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes; she often attends to me. The nurse likes to get away from me and +then Martha comes.” +</p> + +<p> +“I have been here a long time,” said Mary. “Shall I go away +now? Your eyes look sleepy.” +</p> + +<p> +“I wish I could go to sleep before you leave me,” he said rather +shyly. +</p> + +<p> +“Shut your eyes,” said Mary, drawing her footstool closer, +“and I will do what my Ayah used to do in India. I will pat your hand and +stroke it and sing something quite low.” +</p> + +<p> +“I should like that perhaps,” he said drowsily. +</p> + +<p> +Somehow she was sorry for him and did not want him to lie awake, so she leaned +against the bed and began to stroke and pat his hand and sing a very low little +chanting song in Hindustani. +</p> + +<p> +“That is nice,” he said more drowsily still, and she went on +chanting and stroking, but when she looked at him again his black lashes were +lying close against his cheeks, for his eyes were shut and he was fast asleep. +So she got up softly, took her candle and crept away without making a sound. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap14"></a>CHAPTER XIV.<br /> +A YOUNG RAJAH</h2> + +<p> +The moor was hidden in mist when the morning came, and the rain had not stopped +pouring down. There could be no going out of doors. Martha was so busy that +Mary had no opportunity of talking to her, but in the afternoon she asked her +to come and sit with her in the nursery. She came bringing the stocking she was +always knitting when she was doing nothing else. +</p> + +<p> +“What’s the matter with thee?” she asked as soon as they sat +down. “Tha’ looks as if tha’d somethin’ to say.” +</p> + +<p> +“I have. I have found out what the crying was,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +Martha let her knitting drop on her knee and gazed at her with startled eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ hasn’t!” she exclaimed. “Never!” +</p> + +<p> +“I heard it in the night,” Mary went on. “And I got up and +went to see where it came from. It was Colin. I found him.” +</p> + +<p> +Martha’s face became red with fright. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! Miss Mary!” she said half crying. “Tha’ +shouldn’t have done it—tha’ shouldn’t! Tha’ll get +me in trouble. I never told thee nothin’ about him—but tha’ll +get me in trouble. I shall lose my place and what’ll mother do!” +</p> + +<p> +“You won’t lose your place,” said Mary. “He was glad I +came. We talked and talked and he said he was glad I came.” +</p> + +<p> +“Was he?” cried Martha. “Art tha’ sure? Tha’ +doesn’t know what he’s like when anything vexes him. He’s a +big lad to cry like a baby, but when he’s in a passion he’ll fair +scream just to frighten us. He knows us daren’t call our souls our +own.” +</p> + +<p> +“He wasn’t vexed,” said Mary. “I asked him if I should +go away and he made me stay. He asked me questions and I sat on a big footstool +and talked to him about India and about the robin and gardens. He +wouldn’t let me go. He let me see his mother’s picture. Before I +left him I sang him to sleep.” +</p> + +<p> +Martha fairly gasped with amazement. +</p> + +<p> +“I can scarcely believe thee!” she protested. “It’s as +if tha’d walked straight into a lion’s den. If he’d been like +he is most times he’d have throwed himself into one of his tantrums and +roused th’ house. He won’t let strangers look at him.” +</p> + +<p> +“He let me look at him. I looked at him all the time and he looked at me. +We stared!” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know what to do!” cried agitated Martha. “If +Mrs. Medlock finds out, she’ll think I broke orders and told thee and I +shall be packed back to mother.” +</p> + +<p> +“He is not going to tell Mrs. Medlock anything about it yet. It’s +to be a sort of secret just at first,” said Mary firmly. “And he +says everybody is obliged to do as he pleases.” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, that’s true enough—th’ bad lad!” sighed +Martha, wiping her forehead with her apron. +</p> + +<p> +“He says Mrs. Medlock must. And he wants me to come and talk to him every +day. And you are to tell me when he wants me.” +</p> + +<p> +“Me!” said Martha; “I shall lose my place—I shall for +sure!” +</p> + +<p> +“You can’t if you are doing what he wants you to do and everybody +is ordered to obey him,” Mary argued. +</p> + +<p> +“Does tha’ mean to say,” cried Martha with wide open eyes, +“that he was nice to thee!” +</p> + +<p> +“I think he almost liked me,” Mary answered. +</p> + +<p> +“Then tha’ must have bewitched him!” decided Martha, drawing +a long breath. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean Magic?” inquired Mary. “I’ve heard about +Magic in India, but I can’t make it. I just went into his room and I was +so surprised to see him I stood and stared. And then he turned round and stared +at me. And he thought I was a ghost or a dream and I thought perhaps he was. +And it was so queer being there alone together in the middle of the night and +not knowing about each other. And we began to ask each other questions. And +when I asked him if I must go away he said I must not.” +</p> + +<p> +“Th’ world’s comin’ to a end!” gasped Martha. +</p> + +<p> +“What is the matter with him?” asked Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Nobody knows for sure and certain,” said Martha. “Mr. Craven +went off his head like when he was born. Th’ doctors thought he’d +have to be put in a ’sylum. It was because Mrs. Craven died like I told +you. He wouldn’t set eyes on th’ baby. He just raved and said +it’d be another hunchback like him and it’d better die.” +</p> + +<p> +“Is Colin a hunchback?” Mary asked. “He didn’t look +like one.” +</p> + +<p> +“He isn’t yet,” said Martha. “But he began all wrong. +Mother said that there was enough trouble and raging in th’ house to set +any child wrong. They was afraid his back was weak an’ they’ve +always been takin’ care of it—keepin’ him lyin’ down +and not lettin’ him walk. Once they made him wear a brace but he fretted +so he was downright ill. Then a big doctor came to see him an’ made them +take it off. He talked to th’ other doctor quite rough—in a polite +way. He said there’d been too much medicine and too much lettin’ +him have his own way.” +</p> + +<p> +“I think he’s a very spoiled boy,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“He’s th’ worst young nowt as ever was!” said Martha. +“I won’t say as he hasn’t been ill a good bit. He’s had +coughs an’ colds that’s nearly killed him two or three times. Once +he had rheumatic fever an’ once he had typhoid. Eh! Mrs. Medlock did get +a fright then. He’d been out of his head an’ she was talkin’ +to th’ nurse, thinkin’ he didn’t know nothin’, +an’ she said, ‘He’ll die this time sure enough, an’ +best thing for him an’ for everybody.’ An’ she looked at him +an’ there he was with his big eyes open, starin’ at her as sensible +as she was herself. She didn’t know wha’d happen but he just stared +at her an’ says, ‘You give me some water an’ stop +talkin’.’” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you think he will die?” asked Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Mother says there’s no reason why any child should live that gets +no fresh air an’ doesn’t do nothin’ but lie on his back +an’ read picture-books an’ take medicine. He’s weak and hates +th’ trouble o’ bein’ taken out o’ doors, an’ he +gets cold so easy he says it makes him ill.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary sat and looked at the fire. +</p> + +<p> +“I wonder,” she said slowly, “if it would not do him good to +go out into a garden and watch things growing. It did me good.” +</p> + +<p> +“One of th’ worst fits he ever had,” said Martha, “was +one time they took him out where the roses is by the fountain. He’d been +readin’ in a paper about people gettin’ somethin’ he called +‘rose cold’ an’ he began to sneeze an’ said he’d +got it an’ then a new gardener as didn’t know th’ rules +passed by an’ looked at him curious. He threw himself into a passion +an’ he said he’d looked at him because he was going to be a +hunchback. He cried himself into a fever an’ was ill all night.” +</p> + +<p> +“If he ever gets angry at me, I’ll never go and see him +again,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“He’ll have thee if he wants thee,” said Martha. +“Tha’ may as well know that at th’ start.” +</p> + +<p> +Very soon afterward a bell rang and she rolled up her knitting. +</p> + +<p> +“I dare say th’ nurse wants me to stay with him a bit,” she +said. “I hope he’s in a good temper.” +</p> + +<p> +She was out of the room about ten minutes and then she came back with a puzzled +expression. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, tha’ has bewitched him,” she said. “He’s +up on his sofa with his picture-books. He’s told the nurse to stay away +until six o’clock. I’m to wait in the next room. Th’ minute +she was gone he called me to him an’ says, ‘I want Mary Lennox to +come and talk to me, and remember you’re not to tell anyone.’ +You’d better go as quick as you can.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary was quite willing to go quickly. She did not want to see Colin as much as +she wanted to see Dickon; but she wanted to see him very much. +</p> + +<p> +There was a bright fire on the hearth when she entered his room, and in the +daylight she saw it was a very beautiful room indeed. There were rich colors in +the rugs and hangings and pictures and books on the walls which made it look +glowing and comfortable even in spite of the gray sky and falling rain. Colin +looked rather like a picture himself. He was wrapped in a velvet dressing-gown +and sat against a big brocaded cushion. He had a red spot on each cheek. +</p> + +<p> +“Come in,” he said. “I’ve been thinking about you all +morning.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve been thinking about you, too,” answered Mary. +“You don’t know how frightened Martha is. She says Mrs. Medlock +will think she told me about you and then she will be sent away.” +</p> + +<p> +He frowned. +</p> + +<p> +“Go and tell her to come here,” he said. “She is in the next +room.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary went and brought her back. Poor Martha was shaking in her shoes. Colin was +still frowning. +</p> + +<p> +“Have you to do what I please or have you not?” he demanded. +</p> + +<p> +“I have to do what you please, sir,” Martha faltered, turning quite +red. +</p> + +<p> +“Has Medlock to do what I please?” +</p> + +<p> +“Everybody has, sir,” said Martha. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, then, if I order you to bring Miss Mary to me, how can Medlock +send you away if she finds it out?” +</p> + +<p> +“Please don’t let her, sir,” pleaded Martha. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll send <i>her</i> away if she dares to say a word about such a +thing,” said Master Craven grandly. “She wouldn’t like that, +I can tell you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Thank you, sir,” bobbing a curtsy, “I want to do my duty, +sir.” +</p> + +<p> +“What I want is your duty” said Colin more grandly still. +“I’ll take care of you. Now go away.” +</p> + +<p> +When the door closed behind Martha, Colin found Mistress Mary gazing at him as +if he had set her wondering. +</p> + +<p> +“Why do you look at me like that?” he asked her. “What are +you thinking about?” +</p> + +<p> +“I am thinking about two things.” +</p> + +<p> +“What are they? Sit down and tell me.” +</p> + +<p> +“This is the first one,” said Mary, seating herself on the big +stool. “Once in India I saw a boy who was a Rajah. He had rubies and +emeralds and diamonds stuck all over him. He spoke to his people just as you +spoke to Martha. Everybody had to do everything he told them—in a minute. +I think they would have been killed if they hadn’t.” +</p> + +<p> +“I shall make you tell me about Rajahs presently,” he said, +“but first tell me what the second thing was.” +</p> + +<p> +“I was thinking,” said Mary, “how different you are from +Dickon.” +</p> + +<p> +“Who is Dickon?” he said. “What a queer name!” +</p> + +<p> +She might as well tell him, she thought she could talk about Dickon without +mentioning the secret garden. She had liked to hear Martha talk about him. +Besides, she longed to talk about him. It would seem to bring him nearer. +</p> + +<p> +“He is Martha’s brother. He is twelve years old,” she +explained. “He is not like anyone else in the world. He can charm foxes +and squirrels and birds just as the natives in India charm snakes. He plays a +very soft tune on a pipe and they come and listen.” +</p> + +<p> +There were some big books on a table at his side and he dragged one suddenly +toward him. +</p> + +<p> +“There is a picture of a snake-charmer in this,” he exclaimed. +“Come and look at it.” +</p> + +<p> +The book was a beautiful one with superb colored illustrations and he turned to +one of them. +</p> + +<p> +“Can he do that?” he asked eagerly. +</p> + +<p> +“He played on his pipe and they listened,” Mary explained. +“But he doesn’t call it Magic. He says it’s because he lives +on the moor so much and he knows their ways. He says he feels sometimes as if +he was a bird or a rabbit himself, he likes them so. I think he asked the robin +questions. It seemed as if they talked to each other in soft chirps.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin lay back on his cushion and his eyes grew larger and larger and the spots +on his cheeks burned. +</p> + +<p> +“Tell me some more about him,” he said. +</p> + +<p> +“He knows all about eggs and nests,” Mary went on. “And he +knows where foxes and badgers and otters live. He keeps them secret so that +other boys won’t find their holes and frighten them. He knows about +everything that grows or lives on the moor.” +</p> + +<p> +“Does he like the moor?” said Colin. “How can he when +it’s such a great, bare, dreary place?” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s the most beautiful place,” protested Mary. +“Thousands of lovely things grow on it and there are thousands of little +creatures all busy building nests and making holes and burrows and chippering +or singing or squeaking to each other. They are so busy and having such fun +under the earth or in the trees or heather. It’s their world.” +</p> + +<p> +“How do you know all that?” said Colin, turning on his elbow to +look at her. +</p> + +<p> +“I have never been there once, really,” said Mary suddenly +remembering. “I only drove over it in the dark. I thought it was hideous. +Martha told me about it first and then Dickon. When Dickon talks about it you +feel as if you saw things and heard them and as if you were standing in the +heather with the sun shining and the gorse smelling like honey—and all +full of bees and butterflies.” +</p> + +<p> +“You never see anything if you are ill,” said Colin restlessly. He +looked like a person listening to a new sound in the distance and wondering +what it was. +</p> + +<p> +“You can’t if you stay in a room,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“I couldn’t go on the moor,” he said in a resentful tone. +</p> + +<p> +Mary was silent for a minute and then she said something bold. +</p> + +<p> +“You might—sometime.” +</p> + +<p> +He moved as if he were startled. +</p> + +<p> +“Go on the moor! How could I? I am going to die.” +</p> + +<p> +“How do you know?” said Mary unsympathetically. She didn’t +like the way he had of talking about dying. She did not feel very sympathetic. +She felt rather as if he almost boasted about it. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, I’ve heard it ever since I remember,” he answered +crossly. “They are always whispering about it and thinking I don’t +notice. They wish I would, too.” +</p> + +<p> +Mistress Mary felt quite contrary. She pinched her lips together. +</p> + +<p> +“If they wished I would,” she said, “I wouldn’t. Who +wishes you would?” +</p> + +<p> +“The servants—and of course Dr. Craven because he would get +Misselthwaite and be rich instead of poor. He daren’t say so, but he +always looks cheerful when I am worse. When I had typhoid fever his face got +quite fat. I think my father wishes it, too.” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t believe he does,” said Mary quite obstinately. +</p> + +<p> +That made Colin turn and look at her again. +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t you?” he said. +</p> + +<p> +And then he lay back on his cushion and was still, as if he were thinking. And +there was quite a long silence. Perhaps they were both of them thinking strange +things children do not usually think of. +</p> + +<p> +“I like the grand doctor from London, because he made them take the iron +thing off,” said Mary at last “Did he say you were going to +die?” +</p> + +<p> +“No.” +</p> + +<p> +“What did he say?” +</p> + +<p> +“He didn’t whisper,” Colin answered. “Perhaps he knew I +hated whispering. I heard him say one thing quite aloud. He said, ‘The +lad might live if he would make up his mind to it. Put him in the humor.’ +It sounded as if he was in a temper.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll tell you who would put you in the humor, perhaps,” said +Mary reflecting. She felt as if she would like this thing to be settled one way +or the other. “I believe Dickon would. He’s always talking about +live things. He never talks about dead things or things that are ill. +He’s always looking up in the sky to watch birds flying—or looking +down at the earth to see something growing. He has such round blue eyes and +they are so wide open with looking about. And he laughs such a big laugh with +his wide mouth—and his cheeks are as red—as red as cherries.” +</p> + +<p> +She pulled her stool nearer to the sofa and her expression quite changed at the +remembrance of the wide curving mouth and wide open eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“See here,” she said. “Don’t let us talk about dying; I +don’t like it. Let us talk about living. Let us talk and talk about +Dickon. And then we will look at your pictures.” +</p> + +<p> +It was the best thing she could have said. To talk about Dickon meant to talk +about the moor and about the cottage and the fourteen people who lived in it on +sixteen shillings a week—and the children who got fat on the moor grass +like the wild ponies. And about Dickon’s mother—and the +skipping-rope—and the moor with the sun on it—and about pale green +points sticking up out of the black sod. And it was all so alive that Mary +talked more than she had ever talked before—and Colin both talked and +listened as he had never done either before. And they both began to laugh over +nothings as children will when they are happy together. And they laughed so +that in the end they were making as much noise as if they had been two ordinary +healthy natural ten-year-old creatures—instead of a hard, little, +unloving girl and a sickly boy who believed that he was going to die. +</p> + +<p> +They enjoyed themselves so much that they forgot the pictures and they forgot +about the time. They had been laughing quite loudly over Ben Weatherstaff and +his robin, and Colin was actually sitting up as if he had forgotten about his +weak back, when he suddenly remembered something. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you know there is one thing we have never once thought of,” he +said. “We are cousins.” +</p> + +<p> +It seemed so queer that they had talked so much and never remembered this +simple thing that they laughed more than ever, because they had got into the +humor to laugh at anything. And in the midst of the fun the door opened and in +walked Dr. Craven and Mrs. Medlock. +</p> + +<p> +Dr. Craven started in actual alarm and Mrs. Medlock almost fell back because he +had accidentally bumped against her. +</p> + +<p> +“Good Lord!” exclaimed poor Mrs. Medlock with her eyes almost +starting out of her head. “Good Lord!” +</p> + +<p> +“What is this?” said Dr. Craven, coming forward. “What does +it mean?” +</p> + +<p> +Then Mary was reminded of the boy Rajah again. Colin answered as if neither the +doctor’s alarm nor Mrs. Medlock’s terror were of the slightest +consequence. He was as little disturbed or frightened as if an elderly cat and +dog had walked into the room. +</p> + +<p> +“This is my cousin, Mary Lennox,” he said. “I asked her to +come and talk to me. I like her. She must come and talk to me whenever I send +for her.” +</p> + +<p> +Dr. Craven turned reproachfully to Mrs. Medlock. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, sir” she panted. “I don’t know how it’s +happened. There’s not a servant on the place tha’d dare to +talk—they all have their orders.” +</p> + +<p> +“Nobody told her anything,” said Colin. “She heard me crying +and found me herself. I am glad she came. Don’t be silly, Medlock.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary saw that Dr. Craven did not look pleased, but it was quite plain that he +dare not oppose his patient. He sat down by Colin and felt his pulse. +</p> + +<p> +“I am afraid there has been too much excitement. Excitement is not good +for you, my boy,” he said. +</p> + +<p> +“I should be excited if she kept away,” answered Colin, his eyes +beginning to look dangerously sparkling. “I am better. She makes me +better. The nurse must bring up her tea with mine. We will have tea +together.” +</p> + +<p> +Mrs. Medlock and Dr. Craven looked at each other in a troubled way, but there +was evidently nothing to be done. +</p> + +<p> +“He does look rather better, sir,” ventured Mrs. Medlock. +“But”—thinking the matter over—“he looked better +this morning before she came into the room.” +</p> + +<p> +“She came into the room last night. She stayed with me a long time. She +sang a Hindustani song to me and it made me go to sleep,” said Colin. +“I was better when I wakened up. I wanted my breakfast. I want my tea +now. Tell nurse, Medlock.” +</p> + +<p> +Dr. Craven did not stay very long. He talked to the nurse for a few minutes +when she came into the room and said a few words of warning to Colin. He must +not talk too much; he must not forget that he was ill; he must not forget that +he was very easily tired. Mary thought that there seemed to be a number of +uncomfortable things he was not to forget. +</p> + +<p> +Colin looked fretful and kept his strange black-lashed eyes fixed on Dr. +Craven’s face. +</p> + +<p> +“I <i>want</i> to forget it,” he said at last. “She makes me +forget it. That is why I want her.” +</p> + +<p> +Dr. Craven did not look happy when he left the room. He gave a puzzled glance +at the little girl sitting on the large stool. She had become a stiff, silent +child again as soon as he entered and he could not see what the attraction was. +The boy actually did look brighter, however—and he sighed rather heavily +as he went down the corridor. +</p> + +<p> +“They are always wanting me to eat things when I don’t want +to,” said Colin, as the nurse brought in the tea and put it on the table +by the sofa. “Now, if you’ll eat I will. Those muffins look so nice +and hot. Tell me about Rajahs.” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap15"></a>CHAPTER XV.<br /> +NEST BUILDING</h2> + +<p> +After another week of rain the high arch of blue sky appeared again and the sun +which poured down was quite hot. Though there had been no chance to see either +the secret garden or Dickon, Mistress Mary had enjoyed herself very much. The +week had not seemed long. She had spent hours of every day with Colin in his +room, talking about Rajahs or gardens or Dickon and the cottage on the moor. +They had looked at the splendid books and pictures and sometimes Mary had read +things to Colin, and sometimes he had read a little to her. When he was amused +and interested she thought he scarcely looked like an invalid at all, except +that his face was so colorless and he was always on the sofa. +</p> + +<p> +“You are a sly young one to listen and get out of your bed to go +following things up like you did that night,” Mrs. Medlock said once. +“But there’s no saying it’s not been a sort of blessing to +the lot of us. He’s not had a tantrum or a whining fit since you made +friends. The nurse was just going to give up the case because she was so sick +of him, but she says she doesn’t mind staying now you’ve gone on +duty with her,” laughing a little. +</p> + +<p> +In her talks with Colin, Mary had tried to be very cautious about the secret +garden. There were certain things she wanted to find out from him, but she felt +that she must find them out without asking him direct questions. In the first +place, as she began to like to be with him, she wanted to discover whether he +was the kind of boy you could tell a secret to. He was not in the least like +Dickon, but he was evidently so pleased with the idea of a garden no one knew +anything about that she thought perhaps he could be trusted. But she had not +known him long enough to be sure. The second thing she wanted to find out was +this: If he could be trusted—if he really could—wouldn’t it +be possible to take him to the garden without having anyone find it out? The +grand doctor had said that he must have fresh air and Colin had said that he +would not mind fresh air in a secret garden. Perhaps if he had a great deal of +fresh air and knew Dickon and the robin and saw things growing he might not +think so much about dying. Mary had seen herself in the glass sometimes lately +when she had realized that she looked quite a different creature from the child +she had seen when she arrived from India. This child looked nicer. Even Martha +had seen a change in her. +</p> + +<p> +“Th’ air from th’ moor has done thee good already,” she +had said. “Tha’rt not nigh so yeller and tha’rt not nigh so +scrawny. Even tha’ hair doesn’t slamp down on tha’ head so +flat. It’s got some life in it so as it sticks out a bit.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s like me,” said Mary. “It’s growing stronger +and fatter. I’m sure there’s more of it.” +</p> + +<p> +“It looks it, for sure,” said Martha, ruffling it up a little round +her face. “Tha’rt not half so ugly when it’s that way +an’ there’s a bit o’ red in tha’ cheeks.” +</p> + +<p> +If gardens and fresh air had been good for her perhaps they would be good for +Colin. But then, if he hated people to look at him, perhaps he would not like +to see Dickon. +</p> + +<p> +“Why does it make you angry when you are looked at?” she inquired +one day. +</p> + +<p> +“I always hated it,” he answered, “even when I was very +little. Then when they took me to the seaside and I used to lie in my carriage +everybody used to stare and ladies would stop and talk to my nurse and then +they would begin to whisper and I knew then they were saying I shouldn’t +live to grow up. Then sometimes the ladies would pat my cheeks and say +‘Poor child!’ Once when a lady did that I screamed out loud and bit +her hand. She was so frightened she ran away.” +</p> + +<p> +“She thought you had gone mad like a dog,” said Mary, not at all +admiringly. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t care what she thought,” said Colin, frowning. +</p> + +<p> +“I wonder why you didn’t scream and bite me when I came into your +room?” said Mary. Then she began to smile slowly. +</p> + +<p> +“I thought you were a ghost or a dream,” he said. “You +can’t bite a ghost or a dream, and if you scream they don’t +care.” +</p> + +<p> +“Would you hate it if—if a boy looked at you?” Mary asked +uncertainly. +</p> + +<p> +He lay back on his cushion and paused thoughtfully. +</p> + +<p> +“There’s one boy,” he said quite slowly, as if he were +thinking over every word, “there’s one boy I believe I +shouldn’t mind. It’s that boy who knows where the foxes +live—Dickon.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m sure you wouldn’t mind him,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“The birds don’t and other animals,” he said, still thinking +it over, “perhaps that’s why I shouldn’t. He’s a sort +of animal charmer and I am a boy animal.” +</p> + +<p> +Then he laughed and she laughed too; in fact it ended in their both laughing a +great deal and finding the idea of a boy animal hiding in his hole very funny +indeed. +</p> + +<p> +What Mary felt afterward was that she need not fear about Dickon.<br /><br /> +</p> + +<p> +On that first morning when the sky was blue again Mary wakened very early. The +sun was pouring in slanting rays through the blinds and there was something so +joyous in the sight of it that she jumped out of bed and ran to the window. She +drew up the blinds and opened the window itself and a great waft of fresh, +scented air blew in upon her. The moor was blue and the whole world looked as +if something Magic had happened to it. There were tender little fluting sounds +here and there and everywhere, as if scores of birds were beginning to tune up +for a concert. Mary put her hand out of the window and held it in the sun. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s warm—warm!” she said. “It will make the +green points push up and up and up, and it will make the bulbs and roots work +and struggle with all their might under the earth.” +</p> + +<p> +She kneeled down and leaned out of the window as far as she could, breathing +big breaths and sniffing the air until she laughed because she remembered what +Dickon’s mother had said about the end of his nose quivering like a +rabbit’s. +</p> + +<p> +“It must be very early,” she said. “The little clouds are all +pink and I’ve never seen the sky look like this. No one is up. I +don’t even hear the stable boys.” +</p> + +<p> +A sudden thought made her scramble to her feet. +</p> + +<p> +“I can’t wait! I am going to see the garden!” +</p> + +<p> +She had learned to dress herself by this time and she put on her clothes in +five minutes. She knew a small side door which she could unbolt herself and she +flew downstairs in her stocking feet and put on her shoes in the hall. She +unchained and unbolted and unlocked and when the door was open she sprang +across the step with one bound, and there she was standing on the grass, which +seemed to have turned green, and with the sun pouring down on her and warm +sweet wafts about her and the fluting and twittering and singing coming from +every bush and tree. She clasped her hands for pure joy and looked up in the +sky and it was so blue and pink and pearly and white and flooded with +springtime light that she felt as if she must flute and sing aloud herself and +knew that thrushes and robins and skylarks could not possibly help it. She ran +around the shrubs and paths towards the secret garden. +</p> + +<p> +“It is all different already,” she said. “The grass is +greener and things are sticking up everywhere and things are uncurling and +green buds of leaves are showing. This afternoon I am sure Dickon will +come.” +</p> + +<p> +The long warm rain had done strange things to the herbaceous beds which +bordered the walk by the lower wall. There were things sprouting and pushing +out from the roots of clumps of plants and there were actually here and there +glimpses of royal purple and yellow unfurling among the stems of crocuses. Six +months before Mistress Mary would not have seen how the world was waking up, +but now she missed nothing. +</p> + +<p> +When she had reached the place where the door hid itself under the ivy, she was +startled by a curious loud sound. It was the caw—caw of a crow and it +came from the top of the wall, and when she looked up, there sat a big +glossy-plumaged blue-black bird, looking down at her very wisely indeed. She +had never seen a crow so close before and he made her a little nervous, but the +next moment he spread his wings and flapped away across the garden. She hoped +he was not going to stay inside and she pushed the door open wondering if he +would. When she got fairly into the garden she saw that he probably did intend +to stay because he had alighted on a dwarf apple-tree and under the apple-tree +was lying a little reddish animal with a Bushy tail, and both of them were +watching the stooping body and rust-red head of Dickon, who was kneeling on the +grass working hard. +</p> + +<p> +Mary flew across the grass to him. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, Dickon! Dickon!” she cried out. “How could you get here +so early! How could you! The sun has only just got up!” +</p> + +<p> +He got up himself, laughing and glowing, and tousled; his eyes like a bit of +the sky. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” he said. “I was up long before him. How could I have +stayed abed! Th’ world’s all fair begun again this mornin’, +it has. An’ it’s workin’ an’ hummin’ an’ +scratchin’ an’ pipin’ an’ nest-buildin’ an’ +breathin’ out scents, till you’ve got to be out on it ’stead +o’ lyin’ on your back. When th’ sun did jump up, th’ +moor went mad for joy, an’ I was in the midst of th’ heather, +an’ I run like mad myself, shoutin’ an’ singin’. +An’ I come straight here. I couldn’t have stayed away. Why, +th’ garden was lyin’ here waitin’!” +</p> + +<p> +Mary put her hands on her chest, panting, as if she had been running herself. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, Dickon! Dickon!” she said. “I’m so happy I can +scarcely breathe!” +</p> + +<p> +Seeing him talking to a stranger, the little bushy-tailed animal rose from its +place under the tree and came to him, and the rook, cawing once, flew down from +its branch and settled quietly on his shoulder. +</p> + +<p> +“This is th’ little fox cub,” he said, rubbing the little +reddish animal’s head. “It’s named Captain. An’ this +here’s Soot. Soot he flew across th’ moor with me an’ Captain +he run same as if th’ hounds had been after him. They both felt same as I +did.” +</p> + +<p> +Neither of the creatures looked as if he were the least afraid of Mary. When +Dickon began to walk about, Soot stayed on his shoulder and Captain trotted +quietly close to his side. +</p> + +<p> +“See here!” said Dickon. “See how these has pushed up, +an’ these an’ these! An’ Eh! Look at these here!” +</p> + +<p> +He threw himself upon his knees and Mary went down beside him. They had come +upon a whole clump of crocuses burst into purple and orange and gold. Mary bent +her face down and kissed and kissed them. +</p> + +<p> +“You never kiss a person in that way,” she said when she lifted her +head. “Flowers are so different.” +</p> + +<p> +He looked puzzled but smiled. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” he said, “I’ve kissed mother many a time that way +when I come in from th’ moor after a day’s roamin’ an’ +she stood there at th’ door in th’ sun, lookin’ so glad +an’ comfortable.” +</p> + +<p> +They ran from one part of the garden to another and found so many wonders that +they were obliged to remind themselves that they must whisper or speak low. He +showed her swelling leafbuds on rose branches which had seemed dead. He showed +her ten thousand new green points pushing through the mould. They put their +eager young noses close to the earth and sniffed its warmed springtime +breathing; they dug and pulled and laughed low with rapture until Mistress +Mary’s hair was as tumbled as Dickon’s and her cheeks were almost +as poppy red as his. +</p> + +<p> +There was every joy on earth in the secret garden that morning, and in the +midst of them came a delight more delightful than all, because it was more +wonderful. Swiftly something flew across the wall and darted through the trees +to a close grown corner, a little flare of red-breasted bird with something +hanging from its beak. Dickon stood quite still and put his hand on Mary almost +as if they had suddenly found themselves laughing in a church. +</p> + +<p> +“We munnot stir,” he whispered in broad Yorkshire. “We munnot +scarce breathe. I knowed he was mate-huntin’ when I seed him last. +It’s Ben Weatherstaff’s robin. He’s buildin’ his nest. +He’ll stay here if us don’t flight him.” +</p> + +<p> +They settled down softly upon the grass and sat there without moving. +</p> + +<p> +“Us mustn’t seem as if us was watchin’ him too close,” +said Dickon. “He’d be out with us for good if he got th’ +notion us was interferin’ now. He’ll be a good bit different till +all this is over. He’s settin’ up housekeepin’. He’ll +be shyer an’ readier to take things ill. He’s got no time for +visitin’ an’ gossipin’. Us must keep still a bit an’ +try to look as if us was grass an’ trees an’ bushes. Then when +he’s got used to seein’ us I’ll chirp a bit an’ +he’ll know us’ll not be in his way.” +</p> + +<p> +Mistress Mary was not at all sure that she knew, as Dickon seemed to, how to +try to look like grass and trees and bushes. But he had said the queer thing as +if it were the simplest and most natural thing in the world, and she felt it +must be quite easy to him, and indeed she watched him for a few minutes +carefully, wondering if it was possible for him to quietly turn green and put +out branches and leaves. But he only sat wonderfully still, and when he spoke +dropped his voice to such a softness that it was curious that she could hear +him, but she could. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s part o’ th’ springtime, this nest-buildin’ +is,” he said. “I warrant it’s been goin’ on in +th’ same way every year since th’ world was begun. They’ve +got their way o’ thinkin’ and doin’ things an’ a body +had better not meddle. You can lose a friend in springtime easier than any +other season if you’re too curious.” +</p> + +<p> +“If we talk about him I can’t help looking at him,” Mary said +as softly as possible. “We must talk of something else. There is +something I want to tell you.” +</p> + +<p> +“He’ll like it better if us talks o’ somethin’ +else,” said Dickon. “What is it tha’s got to tell me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well—do you know about Colin?” she whispered. +</p> + +<p> +He turned his head to look at her. +</p> + +<p> +“What does tha’ know about him?” he asked. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve seen him. I have been to talk to him every day this week. He +wants me to come. He says I’m making him forget about being ill and +dying,” answered Mary. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon looked actually relieved as soon as the surprise died away from his +round face. +</p> + +<p> +“I am glad o’ that,” he exclaimed. “I’m right +down glad. It makes me easier. I knowed I must say nothin’ about him +an’ I don’t like havin’ to hide things.” +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t you like hiding the garden?” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll never tell about it,” he answered. “But I says to +mother, ‘Mother,’ I says, ‘I got a secret to keep. It’s +not a bad ’un, tha’ knows that. It’s no worse than +hidin’ where a bird’s nest is. Tha’ doesn’t mind it, +does tha’?’” +</p> + +<p> +Mary always wanted to hear about mother. +</p> + +<p> +“What did she say?” she asked, not at all afraid to hear. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon grinned sweet-temperedly. +</p> + +<p> +“It was just like her, what she said,” he answered. “She give +my head a bit of a rub an’ laughed an’ she says, ‘Eh, lad, +tha’ can have all th’ secrets tha’ likes. I’ve knowed +thee twelve year’.’” +</p> + +<p> +“How did you know about Colin?” asked Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Everybody as knowed about Mester Craven knowed there was a little lad as +was like to be a cripple, an’ they knowed Mester Craven didn’t like +him to be talked about. Folks is sorry for Mester Craven because Mrs. Craven +was such a pretty young lady an’ they was so fond of each other. Mrs. +Medlock stops in our cottage whenever she goes to Thwaite an’ she +doesn’t mind talkin’ to mother before us children, because she +knows us has been brought up to be trusty. How did tha’ find out about +him? Martha was in fine trouble th’ last time she came home. She said +tha’d heard him frettin’ an’ tha’ was askin’ +questions an’ she didn’t know what to say.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary told him her story about the midnight wuthering of the wind which had +wakened her and about the faint far-off sounds of the complaining voice which +had led her down the dark corridors with her candle and had ended with her +opening of the door of the dimly lighted room with the carven four-posted bed +in the corner. When she described the small ivory-white face and the strange +black-rimmed eyes Dickon shook his head. +</p> + +<p> +“Them’s just like his mother’s eyes, only hers was always +laughin’, they say,” he said. “They say as Mr. Craven +can’t bear to see him when he’s awake an’ it’s because +his eyes is so like his mother’s an’ yet looks so different in his +miserable bit of a face.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you think he wants to die?” whispered Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“No, but he wishes he’d never been born. Mother she says +that’s th’ worst thing on earth for a child. Them as is not wanted +scarce ever thrives. Mester Craven he’d buy anythin’ as money could +buy for th’ poor lad but he’d like to forget as he’s on +earth. For one thing, he’s afraid he’ll look at him some day and +find he’s growed hunchback.” +</p> + +<p> +“Colin’s so afraid of it himself that he won’t sit up,” +said Mary. “He says he’s always thinking that if he should feel a +lump coming he should go crazy and scream himself to death.” +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! he oughtn’t to lie there thinkin’ things like +that,” said Dickon. “No lad could get well as thought them sort +o’ things.” +</p> + +<p> +The fox was lying on the grass close by him, looking up to ask for a pat now +and then, and Dickon bent down and rubbed his neck softly and thought a few +minutes in silence. Presently he lifted his head and looked round the garden. +</p> + +<p> +“When first we got in here,” he said, “it seemed like +everything was gray. Look round now and tell me if tha’ doesn’t see +a difference.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary looked and caught her breath a little. +</p> + +<p> +“Why!” she cried, “the gray wall is changing. It is as if a +green mist were creeping over it. It’s almost like a green gauze +veil.” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye,” said Dickon. “An’ it’ll be greener and +greener till th’ gray’s all gone. Can tha’ guess what I was +thinkin’?” +</p> + +<p> +“I know it was something nice,” said Mary eagerly. “I believe +it was something about Colin.” +</p> + +<p> +“I was thinkin’ that if he was out here he wouldn’t be +watchin’ for lumps to grow on his back; he’d be watchin’ for +buds to break on th’ rose-bushes, an’ he’d likely be +healthier,” explained Dickon. “I was wonderin’ if us could +ever get him in th’ humor to come out here an’ lie under th’ +trees in his carriage.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve been wondering that myself. I’ve thought of it almost +every time I’ve talked to him,” said Mary. “I’ve +wondered if he could keep a secret and I’ve wondered if we could bring +him here without anyone seeing us. I thought perhaps you could push his +carriage. The doctor said he must have fresh air and if he wants us to take him +out no one dare disobey him. He won’t go out for other people and perhaps +they will be glad if he will go out with us. He could order the gardeners to +keep away so they wouldn’t find out.” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon was thinking very hard as he scratched Captain’s back. +</p> + +<p> +“It’d be good for him, I’ll warrant,” he said. +“Us’d not be thinkin’ he’d better never been born. +Us’d be just two children watchin’ a garden grow, an’ +he’d be another. Two lads an’ a little lass just lookin’ on +at th’ springtime. I warrant it’d be better than doctor’s +stuff.” +</p> + +<p> +“He’s been lying in his room so long and he’s always been so +afraid of his back that it has made him queer,” said Mary. “He +knows a good many things out of books but he doesn’t know anything else. +He says he has been too ill to notice things and he hates going out of doors +and hates gardens and gardeners. But he likes to hear about this garden because +it is a secret. I daren’t tell him much but he said he wanted to see +it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Us’ll have him out here sometime for sure,” said Dickon. +“I could push his carriage well enough. Has tha’ noticed how +th’ robin an’ his mate has been workin’ while we’ve +been sittin’ here? Look at him perched on that branch wonderin’ +where it’d be best to put that twig he’s got in his beak.” +</p> + +<p> +He made one of his low whistling calls and the robin turned his head and looked +at him inquiringly, still holding his twig. Dickon spoke to him as Ben +Weatherstaff did, but Dickon’s tone was one of friendly advice. +</p> + +<p> +“Wheres’ever tha’ puts it,” he said, “it’ll +be all right. Tha’ knew how to build tha’ nest before tha’ +came out o’ th’ egg. Get on with thee, lad. Tha’st got no +time to lose.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, I do like to hear you talk to him!” Mary said, laughing +delightedly. “Ben Weatherstaff scolds him and makes fun of him, and he +hops about and looks as if he understood every word, and I know he likes it. +Ben Weatherstaff says he is so conceited he would rather have stones thrown at +him than not be noticed.” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon laughed too and went on talking. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ knows us won’t trouble thee,” he said to the +robin. “Us is near bein’ wild things ourselves. Us is +nest-buildin’ too, bless thee. Look out tha’ doesn’t tell on +us.” +</p> + +<p> +And though the robin did not answer, because his beak was occupied, Mary knew +that when he flew away with his twig to his own corner of the garden the +darkness of his dew-bright eye meant that he would not tell their secret for +the world. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap16"></a>CHAPTER XVI.<br /> +“I WON’T!” SAID MARY</h2> + +<p> +They found a great deal to do that morning and Mary was late in returning to +the house and was also in such a hurry to get back to her work that she quite +forgot Colin until the last moment. +</p> + +<p> +“Tell Colin that I can’t come and see him yet,” she said to +Martha. “I’m very busy in the garden.” +</p> + +<p> +Martha looked rather frightened. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! Miss Mary,” she said, “it may put him all out of humor +when I tell him that.” +</p> + +<p> +But Mary was not as afraid of him as other people were and she was not a +self-sacrificing person. +</p> + +<p> +“I can’t stay,” she answered. “Dickon’s waiting +for me;” and she ran away. +</p> + +<p> +The afternoon was even lovelier and busier than the morning had been. Already +nearly all the weeds were cleared out of the garden and most of the roses and +trees had been pruned or dug about. Dickon had brought a spade of his own and +he had taught Mary to use all her tools, so that by this time it was plain that +though the lovely wild place was not likely to become a “gardener’s +garden” it would be a wilderness of growing things before the springtime +was over. +</p> + +<p> +“There’ll be apple blossoms an’ cherry blossoms +overhead,” Dickon said, working away with all his might. “An’ +there’ll be peach an’ plum trees in bloom against th’ walls, +an’ th’ grass’ll be a carpet o’ flowers.” +</p> + +<p> +The little fox and the rook were as happy and busy as they were, and the robin +and his mate flew backward and forward like tiny streaks of lightning. +Sometimes the rook flapped his black wings and soared away over the tree-tops +in the park. Each time he came back and perched near Dickon and cawed several +times as if he were relating his adventures, and Dickon talked to him just as +he had talked to the robin. Once when Dickon was so busy that he did not answer +him at first, Soot flew on to his shoulders and gently tweaked his ear with his +large beak. When Mary wanted to rest a little Dickon sat down with her under a +tree and once he took his pipe out of his pocket and played the soft strange +little notes and two squirrels appeared on the wall and looked and listened. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’s a good bit stronger than tha’ was,” Dickon said, +looking at her as she was digging. “Tha’s beginning to look +different, for sure.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary was glowing with exercise and good spirits. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m getting fatter and fatter every day,” she said quite +exultantly. “Mrs. Medlock will have to get me some bigger dresses. Martha +says my hair is growing thicker. It isn’t so flat and stringy.” +</p> + +<p> +The sun was beginning to set and sending deep gold-colored rays slanting under +the trees when they parted. +</p> + +<p> +“It’ll be fine tomorrow,” said Dickon. “I’ll be +at work by sunrise.” +</p> + +<p> +“So will I,” said Mary.<br /><br /> +</p> + +<p> +She ran back to the house as quickly as her feet would carry her. She wanted to +tell Colin about Dickon’s fox cub and the rook and about what the +springtime had been doing. She felt sure he would like to hear. So it was not +very pleasant when she opened the door of her room, to see Martha standing +waiting for her with a doleful face. +</p> + +<p> +“What is the matter?” she asked. “What did Colin say when you +told him I couldn’t come?” +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” said Martha, “I wish tha’d gone. He was nigh +goin’ into one o’ his tantrums. There’s been a nice to do all +afternoon to keep him quiet. He would watch the clock all th’ +time.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary’s lips pinched themselves together. She was no more used to +considering other people than Colin was and she saw no reason why an +ill-tempered boy should interfere with the thing she liked best. She knew +nothing about the pitifulness of people who had been ill and nervous and who +did not know that they could control their tempers and need not make other +people ill and nervous, too. When she had had a headache in India she had done +her best to see that everybody else also had a headache or something quite as +bad. And she felt she was quite right; but of course now she felt that Colin +was quite wrong. +</p> + +<p> +He was not on his sofa when she went into his room. He was lying flat on his +back in bed and he did not turn his head toward her as she came in. This was a +bad beginning and Mary marched up to him with her stiff manner. +</p> + +<p> +“Why didn’t you get up?” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“I did get up this morning when I thought you were coming,” he +answered, without looking at her. “I made them put me back in bed this +afternoon. My back ached and my head ached and I was tired. Why didn’t +you come?” +</p> + +<p> +“I was working in the garden with Dickon,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +Colin frowned and condescended to look at her. +</p> + +<p> +“I won’t let that boy come here if you go and stay with him instead +of coming to talk to me,” he said. +</p> + +<p> +Mary flew into a fine passion. She could fly into a passion without making a +noise. She just grew sour and obstinate and did not care what happened. +</p> + +<p> +“If you send Dickon away, I’ll never come into this room +again!” she retorted. +</p> + +<p> +“You’ll have to if I want you,” said Colin. +</p> + +<p> +“I won’t!” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll make you,” said Colin. “They shall drag you +in.” +</p> + +<p> +“Shall they, Mr. Rajah!” said Mary fiercely. “They may drag +me in but they can’t make me talk when they get me here. I’ll sit +and clench my teeth and never tell you one thing. I won’t even look at +you. I’ll stare at the floor!” +</p> + +<p> +They were a nice agreeable pair as they glared at each other. If they had been +two little street boys they would have sprung at each other and had a +rough-and-tumble fight. As it was, they did the next thing to it. +</p> + +<p> +“You are a selfish thing!” cried Colin. +</p> + +<p> +“What are you?” said Mary. “Selfish people always say that. +Anyone is selfish who doesn’t do what they want. You’re more +selfish than I am. You’re the most selfish boy I ever saw.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m not!” snapped Colin. “I’m not as selfish as +your fine Dickon is! He keeps you playing in the dirt when he knows I am all by +myself. He’s selfish, if you like!” +</p> + +<p> +Mary’s eyes flashed fire. +</p> + +<p> +“He’s nicer than any other boy that ever lived!” she said. +“He’s—he’s like an angel!” It might sound rather +silly to say that but she did not care. +</p> + +<p> +“A nice angel!” Colin sneered ferociously. “He’s a +common cottage boy off the moor!” +</p> + +<p> +“He’s better than a common Rajah!” retorted Mary. +“He’s a thousand times better!” +</p> + +<p> +Because she was the stronger of the two she was beginning to get the better of +him. The truth was that he had never had a fight with anyone like himself in +his life and, upon the whole, it was rather good for him, though neither he nor +Mary knew anything about that. He turned his head on his pillow and shut his +eyes and a big tear was squeezed out and ran down his cheek. He was beginning +to feel pathetic and sorry for himself—not for anyone else. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m not as selfish as you, because I’m always ill, and +I’m sure there is a lump coming on my back,” he said. “And I +am going to die besides.” +</p> + +<p> +“You’re not!” contradicted Mary unsympathetically. +</p> + +<p> +He opened his eyes quite wide with indignation. He had never heard such a thing +said before. He was at once furious and slightly pleased, if a person could be +both at one time. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m not?” he cried. “I am! You know I am! Everybody +says so.” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t believe it!” said Mary sourly. “You just say +that to make people sorry. I believe you’re proud of it. I don’t +believe it! If you were a nice boy it might be true—but you’re too +nasty!” +</p> + +<p> +In spite of his invalid back Colin sat up in bed in quite a healthy rage. +</p> + +<p> +“Get out of the room!” he shouted and he caught hold of his pillow +and threw it at her. He was not strong enough to throw it far and it only fell +at her feet, but Mary’s face looked as pinched as a nutcracker. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m going,” she said. “And I won’t come +back!” +</p> + +<p> +She walked to the door and when she reached it she turned round and spoke +again. +</p> + +<p> +“I was going to tell you all sorts of nice things,” she said. +“Dickon brought his fox and his rook and I was going to tell you all +about them. Now I won’t tell you a single thing!” +</p> + +<p> +She marched out of the door and closed it behind her, and there to her great +astonishment she found the trained nurse standing as if she had been listening +and, more amazing still—she was laughing. She was a big handsome young +woman who ought not to have been a trained nurse at all, as she could not bear +invalids and she was always making excuses to leave Colin to Martha or anyone +else who would take her place. Mary had never liked her, and she simply stood +and gazed up at her as she stood giggling into her handkerchief.. +</p> + +<p> +“What are you laughing at?” she asked her. +</p> + +<p> +“At you two young ones,” said the nurse. “It’s the best +thing that could happen to the sickly pampered thing to have someone to stand +up to him that’s as spoiled as himself;” and she laughed into her +handkerchief again. “If he’d had a young vixen of a sister to fight +with it would have been the saving of him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Is he going to die?” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know and I don’t care,” said the nurse. +“Hysterics and temper are half what ails him.” +</p> + +<p> +“What are hysterics?” asked Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“You’ll find out if you work him into a tantrum after +this—but at any rate you’ve given him something to have hysterics +about, and I’m glad of it.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary went back to her room not feeling at all as she had felt when she had come +in from the garden. She was cross and disappointed but not at all sorry for +Colin. She had looked forward to telling him a great many things and she had +meant to try to make up her mind whether it would be safe to trust him with the +great secret. She had been beginning to think it would be, but now she had +changed her mind entirely. She would never tell him and he could stay in his +room and never get any fresh air and die if he liked! It would serve him right! +She felt so sour and unrelenting that for a few minutes she almost forgot about +Dickon and the green veil creeping over the world and the soft wind blowing +down from the moor. +</p> + +<p> +Martha was waiting for her and the trouble in her face had been temporarily +replaced by interest and curiosity. There was a wooden box on the table and its +cover had been removed and revealed that it was full of neat packages. +</p> + +<p> +“Mr. Craven sent it to you,” said Martha. “It looks as if it +had picture-books in it.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary remembered what he had asked her the day she had gone to his room. +“Do you want anything—dolls—toys—books?” She +opened the package wondering if he had sent a doll, and also wondering what she +should do with it if he had. But he had not sent one. There were several +beautiful books such as Colin had, and two of them were about gardens and were +full of pictures. There were two or three games and there was a beautiful +little writing-case with a gold monogram on it and a gold pen and inkstand. +</p> + +<p> +Everything was so nice that her pleasure began to crowd her anger out of her +mind. She had not expected him to remember her at all and her hard little heart +grew quite warm. +</p> + +<p> +“I can write better than I can print,” she said, “and the +first thing I shall write with that pen will be a letter to tell him I am much +obliged.” +</p> + +<p> +If she had been friends with Colin she would have run to show him her presents +at once, and they would have looked at the pictures and read some of the +gardening books and perhaps tried playing the games, and he would have enjoyed +himself so much he would never once have thought he was going to die or have +put his hand on his spine to see if there was a lump coming. He had a way of +doing that which she could not bear. It gave her an uncomfortable frightened +feeling because he always looked so frightened himself. He said that if he felt +even quite a little lump some day he should know his hunch had begun to grow. +Something he had heard Mrs. Medlock whispering to the nurse had given him the +idea and he had thought over it in secret until it was quite firmly fixed in +his mind. Mrs. Medlock had said his father’s back had begun to show its +crookedness in that way when he was a child. He had never told anyone but Mary +that most of his “tantrums” as they called them grew out of his +hysterical hidden fear. Mary had been sorry for him when he had told her. +</p> + +<p> +“He always began to think about it when he was cross or tired,” she +said to herself. “And he has been cross today. Perhaps—perhaps he +has been thinking about it all afternoon.” +</p> + +<p> +She stood still, looking down at the carpet and thinking. +</p> + +<p> +“I said I would never go back again—” she hesitated, knitting +her brows—“but perhaps, just perhaps, I will go and see—if he +wants me—in the morning. Perhaps he’ll try to throw his pillow at +me again, but—I think—I’ll go.” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap17"></a>CHAPTER XVII.<br /> +A TANTRUM</h2> + +<p> +She had got up very early in the morning and had worked hard in the garden and +she was tired and sleepy, so as soon as Martha had brought her supper and she +had eaten it, she was glad to go to bed. As she laid her head on the pillow she +murmured to herself: +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll go out before breakfast and work with Dickon and then +afterward—I believe—I’ll go to see him.” +</p> + +<p> +She thought it was the middle of the night when she was awakened by such +dreadful sounds that she jumped out of bed in an instant. What was +it—what was it? The next minute she felt quite sure she knew. Doors were +opened and shut and there were hurrying feet in the corridors and someone was +crying and screaming at the same time, screaming and crying in a horrible way. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s Colin,” she said. “He’s having one of those +tantrums the nurse called hysterics. How awful it sounds.” +</p> + +<p> +As she listened to the sobbing screams she did not wonder that people were so +frightened that they gave him his own way in everything rather than hear them. +She put her hands over her ears and felt sick and shivering. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to do,” she +kept saying. “I can’t bear it.” +</p> + +<p> +Once she wondered if he would stop if she dared go to him and then she +remembered how he had driven her out of the room and thought that perhaps the +sight of her might make him worse. Even when she pressed her hands more tightly +over her ears she could not keep the awful sounds out. She hated them so and +was so terrified by them that suddenly they began to make her angry and she +felt as if she should like to fly into a tantrum herself and frighten him as he +was frightening her. She was not used to anyone’s tempers but her own. +She took her hands from her ears and sprang up and stamped her foot. +</p> + +<p> +“He ought to be stopped! Somebody ought to make him stop! Somebody ought +to beat him!” she cried out. +</p> + +<p> +Just then she heard feet almost running down the corridor and her door opened +and the nurse came in. She was not laughing now by any means. She even looked +rather pale. +</p> + +<p> +“He’s worked himself into hysterics,” she said in a great +hurry. “He’ll do himself harm. No one can do anything with him. You +come and try, like a good child. He likes you.” +</p> + +<p> +“He turned me out of the room this morning,” said Mary, stamping +her foot with excitement. +</p> + +<p> +The stamp rather pleased the nurse. The truth was that she had been afraid she +might find Mary crying and hiding her head under the bed-clothes. +</p> + +<p> +“That’s right,” she said. “You’re in the right +humor. You go and scold him. Give him something new to think of. Do go, child, +as quick as ever you can.” +</p> + +<p> +It was not until afterward that Mary realized that the thing had been funny as +well as dreadful—that it was funny that all the grown-up people were so +frightened that they came to a little girl just because they guessed she was +almost as bad as Colin himself. +</p> + +<p> +She flew along the corridor and the nearer she got to the screams the higher +her temper mounted. She felt quite wicked by the time she reached the door. She +slapped it open with her hand and ran across the room to the four-posted bed. +</p> + +<p> +“You stop!” she almost shouted. “You stop! I hate you! +Everybody hates you! I wish everybody would run out of the house and let you +scream yourself to death! You <i>will</i> scream yourself to death in a minute, +and I wish you would!” +</p> + +<p> +A nice sympathetic child could neither have thought nor said such things, but +it just happened that the shock of hearing them was the best possible thing for +this hysterical boy whom no one had ever dared to restrain or contradict. +</p> + +<p> +He had been lying on his face beating his pillow with his hands and he actually +almost jumped around, he turned so quickly at the sound of the furious little +voice. His face looked dreadful, white and red and swollen, and he was gasping +and choking; but savage little Mary did not care an atom. +</p> + +<p> +“If you scream another scream,” she said, “I’ll scream +too—and I can scream louder than you can and I’ll frighten you, +I’ll frighten you!” +</p> + +<p> +He actually had stopped screaming because she had startled him so. The scream +which had been coming almost choked him. The tears were streaming down his face +and he shook all over. +</p> + +<p> +“I can’t stop!” he gasped and sobbed. “I +can’t—I can’t!” +</p> + +<p> +“You can!” shouted Mary. “Half that ails you is hysterics and +temper—just hysterics—hysterics—hysterics!” and she +stamped each time she said it. +</p> + +<p> +“I felt the lump—I felt it,” choked out Colin. “I knew +I should. I shall have a hunch on my back and then I shall die,” and he +began to writhe again and turned on his face and sobbed and wailed but he +didn’t scream. +</p> + +<p> +“You didn’t feel a lump!” contradicted Mary fiercely. +“If you did it was only a hysterical lump. Hysterics makes lumps. +There’s nothing the matter with your horrid back—nothing but +hysterics! Turn over and let me look at it!” +</p> + +<p> +She liked the word “hysterics” and felt somehow as if it had an +effect on him. He was probably like herself and had never heard it before. +</p> + +<p> +“Nurse,” she commanded, “come here and show me his back this +minute!” +</p> + +<p> +The nurse, Mrs. Medlock and Martha had been standing huddled together near the +door staring at her, their mouths half open. All three had gasped with fright +more than once. The nurse came forward as if she were half afraid. Colin was +heaving with great breathless sobs. +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps he—he won’t let me,” she hesitated in a low +voice. +</p> + +<p> +Colin heard her, however, and he gasped out between two sobs: +</p> + +<p> +“Sh-show her! She-she’ll see then!” +</p> + +<p> +It was a poor thin back to look at when it was bared. Every rib could be +counted and every joint of the spine, though Mistress Mary did not count them +as she bent over and examined them with a solemn savage little face. She looked +so sour and old-fashioned that the nurse turned her head aside to hide the +twitching of her mouth. There was just a minute’s silence, for even Colin +tried to hold his breath while Mary looked up and down his spine, and down and +up, as intently as if she had been the great doctor from London. +</p> + +<p> +“There’s not a single lump there!” she said at last. +“There’s not a lump as big as a pin—except backbone lumps, +and you can only feel them because you’re thin. I’ve got backbone +lumps myself, and they used to stick out as much as yours do, until I began to +get fatter, and I am not fat enough yet to hide them. There’s not a lump +as big as a pin! If you ever say there is again, I shall laugh!” +</p> + +<p> +No one but Colin himself knew what effect those crossly spoken childish words +had on him. If he had ever had anyone to talk to about his secret +terrors—if he had ever dared to let himself ask questions—if he had +had childish companions and had not lain on his back in the huge closed house, +breathing an atmosphere heavy with the fears of people who were most of them +ignorant and tired of him, he would have found out that most of his fright and +illness was created by himself. But he had lain and thought of himself and his +aches and weariness for hours and days and months and years. And now that an +angry unsympathetic little girl insisted obstinately that he was not as ill as +he thought he was he actually felt as if she might be speaking the truth. +</p> + +<p> +“I didn’t know,” ventured the nurse, “that he thought +he had a lump on his spine. His back is weak because he won’t try to sit +up. I could have told him there was no lump there.” Colin gulped and +turned his face a little to look at her. +</p> + +<p> +“C-could you?” he said pathetically. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, sir.” +</p> + +<p> +“There!” said Mary, and she gulped too. +</p> + +<p> +Colin turned on his face again and but for his long-drawn broken breaths, which +were the dying down of his storm of sobbing, he lay still for a minute, though +great tears streamed down his face and wet the pillow. Actually the tears meant +that a curious great relief had come to him. Presently he turned and looked at +the nurse again and strangely enough he was not like a Rajah at all as he spoke +to her. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you think—I could—live to grow up?” he said. +</p> + +<p> +The nurse was neither clever nor soft-hearted but she could repeat some of the +London doctor’s words. +</p> + +<p> +“You probably will if you will do what you are told to do and not give +way to your temper, and stay out a great deal in the fresh air.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin’s tantrum had passed and he was weak and worn out with crying and +this perhaps made him feel gentle. He put out his hand a little toward Mary, +and I am glad to say that, her own tantum having passed, she was softened too +and met him half-way with her hand, so that it was a sort of making up. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll—I’ll go out with you, Mary,” he said. +“I shan’t hate fresh air if we can find—” He remembered +just in time to stop himself from saying “if we can find the secret +garden” and he ended, “I shall like to go out with you if Dickon +will come and push my chair. I do so want to see Dickon and the fox and the +crow.” +</p> + +<p> +The nurse remade the tumbled bed and shook and straightened the pillows. Then +she made Colin a cup of beef tea and gave a cup to Mary, who really was very +glad to get it after her excitement. Mrs. Medlock and Martha gladly slipped +away, and after everything was neat and calm and in order the nurse looked as +if she would very gladly slip away also. She was a healthy young woman who +resented being robbed of her sleep and she yawned quite openly as she looked at +Mary, who had pushed her big footstool close to the four-posted bed and was +holding Colin’s hand. +</p> + +<p> +“You must go back and get your sleep out,” she said. +“He’ll drop off after a while—if he’s not too upset. +Then I’ll lie down myself in the next room.” +</p> + +<p> +“Would you like me to sing you that song I learned from my Ayah?” +Mary whispered to Colin. +</p> + +<p> +His hand pulled hers gently and he turned his tired eyes on her appealingly. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, yes!” he answered. “It’s such a soft song. I shall +go to sleep in a minute.” +</p> + +<p> +“I will put him to sleep,” Mary said to the yawning nurse. +“You can go if you like.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said the nurse, with an attempt at reluctance. “If he +doesn’t go to sleep in half an hour you must call me.” +</p> + +<p> +“Very well,” answered Mary. +</p> + +<p> +The nurse was out of the room in a minute and as soon as she was gone Colin +pulled Mary’s hand again. +</p> + +<p> +“I almost told,” he said; “but I stopped myself in time. I +won’t talk and I’ll go to sleep, but you said you had a whole lot +of nice things to tell me. Have you—do you think you have found out +anything at all about the way into the secret garden?” +</p> + +<p> +Mary looked at his poor little tired face and swollen eyes and her heart +relented. +</p> + +<p> +“Ye-es,” she answered, “I think I have. And if you will go to +sleep I will tell you tomorrow.” His hand quite trembled. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, Mary!” he said. “Oh, Mary! If I could get into it I +think I should live to grow up! Do you suppose that instead of singing the Ayah +song—you could just tell me softly as you did that first day what you +imagine it looks like inside? I am sure it will make me go to sleep.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” answered Mary. “Shut your eyes.” +</p> + +<p> +He closed his eyes and lay quite still and she held his hand and began to speak +very slowly and in a very low voice. +</p> + +<p> +“I think it has been left alone so long—that it has grown all into +a lovely tangle. I think the roses have climbed and climbed and climbed until +they hang from the branches and walls and creep over the ground—almost +like a strange gray mist. Some of them have died but many—are alive and +when the summer comes there will be curtains and fountains of roses. I think +the ground is full of daffodils and snowdrops and lilies and iris working their +way out of the dark. Now the spring has +begun—perhaps—perhaps—” +</p> + +<p> +The soft drone of her voice was making him stiller and stiller and she saw it +and went on. +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps they are coming up through the grass—perhaps there are +clusters of purple crocuses and gold ones—even now. Perhaps the leaves +are beginning to break out and uncurl—and perhaps—the gray is +changing and a green gauze veil is creeping—and creeping +over—everything. And the birds are coming to look at it—because it +is—so safe and still. And +perhaps—perhaps—perhaps—” very softly and slowly +indeed, “the robin has found a mate—and is building a nest.” +</p> + +<p> +And Colin was asleep. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap18"></a>CHAPTER XVIII.<br /> +“THA’ MUNNOT WASTE NO TIME”</h2> + +<p> +Of course Mary did not waken early the next morning. She slept late because she +was tired, and when Martha brought her breakfast she told her that though +Colin was quite quiet he was ill and feverish as he always was after he had +worn himself out with a fit of crying. Mary ate her breakfast slowly as she +listened. +</p> + +<p> +“He says he wishes tha’ would please go and see him as soon as +tha’ can,” Martha said. “It’s queer what a fancy +he’s took to thee. Tha’ did give it him last night for +sure—didn’t tha? Nobody else would have dared to do it. Eh! poor +lad! He’s been spoiled till salt won’t save him. Mother says as +th’ two worst things as can happen to a child is never to have his own +way—or always to have it. She doesn’t know which is th’ +worst. Tha’ was in a fine temper tha’self, too. But he says to me +when I went into his room, ‘Please ask Miss Mary if she’ll please +come an’ talk to me?’ Think o’ him saying please! Will you +go, Miss?” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll run and see Dickon first,” said Mary. “No, +I’ll go and see Colin first and tell him—I know what I’ll +tell him,” with a sudden inspiration. +</p> + +<p> +She had her hat on when she appeared in Colin’s room and for a second he +looked disappointed. He was in bed. His face was pitifully white and there were +dark circles round his eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m glad you came,” he said. “My head aches and I ache +all over because I’m so tired. Are you going somewhere?” +</p> + +<p> +Mary went and leaned against his bed. +</p> + +<p> +“I won’t be long,” she said. “I’m going to +Dickon, but I’ll come back. Colin, it’s—it’s something +about the garden.” +</p> + +<p> +His whole face brightened and a little color came into it. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! is it?” he cried out. “I dreamed about it all night. I +heard you say something about gray changing into green, and I dreamed I was +standing in a place all filled with trembling little green leaves—and +there were birds on nests everywhere and they looked so soft and still. +I’ll lie and think about it until you come back.” +</p> + +<p> +In five minutes Mary was with Dickon in their garden. The fox and the crow were +with him again and this time he had brought two tame squirrels. +</p> + +<p> +“I came over on the pony this mornin’,” he said. “Eh! +he is a good little chap—Jump is! I brought these two in my pockets. This +here one he’s called Nut an’ this here other one’s called +Shell.” +</p> + +<p> +When he said “Nut” one squirrel leaped on to his right shoulder and +when he said “Shell” the other one leaped on to his left shoulder. +</p> + +<p> +When they sat down on the grass with Captain curled at their feet, Soot +solemnly listening on a tree and Nut and Shell nosing about close to them, it +seemed to Mary that it would be scarcely bearable to leave such delightfulness, +but when she began to tell her story somehow the look in Dickon’s funny +face gradually changed her mind. She could see he felt sorrier for Colin than +she did. He looked up at the sky and all about him. +</p> + +<p> +“Just listen to them birds—th’ world seems full of +’em—all whistlin’ an’ pipin’,” he said. +“Look at ’em dartin’ about, an’ hearken at ’em +callin’ to each other. Come springtime seems like as if all th’ +world’s callin’. The leaves is uncurlin’ so you can see +’em—an’, my word, th’ nice smells there is +about!” sniffing with his happy turned-up nose. “An’ that +poor lad lyin’ shut up an’ seein’ so little that he gets to +thinkin’ o’ things as sets him screamin’. Eh! my! we mun get +him out here—we mun get him watchin’ an listenin’ an’ +sniffin’ up th’ air an’ get him just soaked through wi’ +sunshine. An’ we munnot lose no time about it.” +</p> + +<p> +When he was very much interested he often spoke quite broad Yorkshire though at +other times he tried to modify his dialect so that Mary could better +understand. But she loved his broad Yorkshire and had in fact been trying to +learn to speak it herself. So she spoke a little now. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, that we mun,” she said (which meant “Yes, indeed, we +must”). “I’ll tell thee what us’ll do first,” she +proceeded, and Dickon grinned, because when the little wench tried to twist her +tongue into speaking Yorkshire it amused him very much. “He’s took +a graidely fancy to thee. He wants to see thee and he wants to see Soot +an’ Captain. When I go back to the house to talk to him I’ll ax him +if tha’ canna’ come an’ see him tomorrow +mornin’—an’ bring tha’ creatures wi’ +thee—an’ then—in a bit, when there’s more leaves out, +an’ happen a bud or two, we’ll get him to come out an’ +tha’ shall push him in his chair an’ we’ll bring him here +an’ show him everything.” +</p> + +<p> +When she stopped she was quite proud of herself. She had never made a long +speech in Yorkshire before and she had remembered very well. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ mun talk a bit o’ Yorkshire like that to Mester +Colin,” Dickon chuckled. “Tha’ll make him laugh an’ +there’s nowt as good for ill folk as laughin’ is. Mother says she +believes as half a hour’s good laugh every mornin’ ’ud cure a +chap as was makin’ ready for typhus fever.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m going to talk Yorkshire to him this very day,” said +Mary, chuckling herself. +</p> + +<p> +The garden had reached the time when every day and every night it seemed as if +Magicians were passing through it drawing loveliness out of the earth and the +boughs with wands. It was hard to go away and leave it all, particularly as Nut +had actually crept on to her dress and Shell had scrambled down the trunk of +the apple-tree they sat under and stayed there looking at her with inquiring +eyes. But she went back to the house and when she sat down close to +Colin’s bed he began to sniff as Dickon did though not in such an +experienced way. +</p> + +<p> +“You smell like flowers and—and fresh things,” he cried out +quite joyously. “What is it you smell of? It’s cool and warm and +sweet all at the same time.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s th’ wind from th’ moor,” said Mary. +“It comes o’ sittin’ on th’ grass under a tree +wi’ Dickon an’ wi’ Captain an’ Soot an’ Nut +an’ Shell. It’s th’ springtime an’ out o’ doors +an’ sunshine as smells so graidely.” +</p> + +<p> +She said it as broadly as she could, and you do not know how broadly Yorkshire +sounds until you have heard someone speak it. Colin began to laugh. +</p> + +<p> +“What are you doing?” he said. “I never heard you talk like +that before. How funny it sounds.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m givin’ thee a bit o’ Yorkshire,” answered +Mary triumphantly. “I canna’ talk as graidely as Dickon an’ +Martha can but tha’ sees I can shape a bit. Doesn’t tha’ +understand a bit o’ Yorkshire when tha’ hears it? An’ +tha’ a Yorkshire lad thysel’ bred an’ born! Eh! I wonder +tha’rt not ashamed o’ thy face.” +</p> + +<p> +And then she began to laugh too and they both laughed until they could not stop +themselves and they laughed until the room echoed and Mrs. Medlock opening the +door to come in drew back into the corridor and stood listening amazed. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, upon my word!” she said, speaking rather broad Yorkshire +herself because there was no one to hear her and she was so astonished. +“Whoever heard th’ like! Whoever on earth would ha’ thought +it!” +</p> + +<p> +There was so much to talk about. It seemed as if Colin could never hear enough +of Dickon and Captain and Soot and Nut and Shell and the pony whose name was +Jump. Mary had run round into the wood with Dickon to see Jump. He was a tiny +little shaggy moor pony with thick locks hanging over his eyes and with a +pretty face and a nuzzling velvet nose. He was rather thin with living on moor +grass but he was as tough and wiry as if the muscle in his little legs had been +made of steel springs. He had lifted his head and whinnied softly the moment he +saw Dickon and he had trotted up to him and put his head across his shoulder +and then Dickon had talked into his ear and Jump had talked back in odd little +whinnies and puffs and snorts. Dickon had made him give Mary his small front +hoof and kiss her on her cheek with his velvet muzzle. +</p> + +<p> +“Does he really understand everything Dickon says?” Colin asked. +</p> + +<p> +“It seems as if he does,” answered Mary. “Dickon says +anything will understand if you’re friends with it for sure, but you have +to be friends for sure.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin lay quiet a little while and his strange gray eyes seemed to be staring +at the wall, but Mary saw he was thinking. +</p> + +<p> +“I wish I was friends with things,” he said at last, “but +I’m not. I never had anything to be friends with, and I can’t bear +people.” +</p> + +<p> +“Can’t you bear me?” asked Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, I can,” he answered. “It’s funny but I even like +you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ben Weatherstaff said I was like him,” said Mary. “He said +he’d warrant we’d both got the same nasty tempers. I think you are +like him too. We are all three alike—you and I and Ben Weatherstaff. He +said we were neither of us much to look at and we were as sour as we looked. +But I don’t feel as sour as I used to before I knew the robin and +Dickon.” +</p> + +<p> +“Did you feel as if you hated people?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” answered Mary without any affectation. “I should have +detested you if I had seen you before I saw the robin and Dickon.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin put out his thin hand and touched her. +</p> + +<p> +“Mary,” he said, “I wish I hadn’t said what I did about +sending Dickon away. I hated you when you said he was like an angel and I +laughed at you but—but perhaps he is.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it was rather funny to say it,” she admitted frankly, +“because his nose does turn up and he has a big mouth and his clothes +have patches all over them and he talks broad Yorkshire, but—but if an +angel did come to Yorkshire and live on the moor—if there was a Yorkshire +angel—I believe he’d understand the green things and know how to +make them grow and he would know how to talk to the wild creatures as Dickon +does and they’d know he was friends for sure.” +</p> + +<p> +“I shouldn’t mind Dickon looking at me,” said Colin; “I +want to see him.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m glad you said that,” answered Mary, +“because—because—” +</p> + +<p> +Quite suddenly it came into her mind that this was the minute to tell him. +Colin knew something new was coming. +</p> + +<p> +“Because what?” he cried eagerly. +</p> + +<p> +Mary was so anxious that she got up from her stool and came to him and caught +hold of both his hands. +</p> + +<p> +“Can I trust you? I trusted Dickon because birds trusted him. Can I trust +you—for sure—<i>for sure?</i>” she implored. +</p> + +<p> +Her face was so solemn that he almost whispered his answer. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—yes!” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, Dickon will come to see you tomorrow morning, and he’ll +bring his creatures with him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! Oh!” Colin cried out in delight. +</p> + +<p> +“But that’s not all,” Mary went on, almost pale with solemn +excitement. “The rest is better. There is a door into the garden. I found +it. It is under the ivy on the wall.” +</p> + +<p> +If he had been a strong healthy boy Colin would probably have shouted +“Hooray! Hooray! Hooray!” but he was weak and rather hysterical; +his eyes grew bigger and bigger and he gasped for breath. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! Mary!” he cried out with a half sob. “Shall I see it? +Shall I get into it? Shall I <i>live</i> to get into it?” and he clutched +her hands and dragged her toward him. +</p> + +<p> +“Of course you’ll see it!” snapped Mary indignantly. +“Of course you’ll live to get into it! Don’t be silly!” +</p> + +<p> +And she was so un-hysterical and natural and childish that she brought him to +his senses and he began to laugh at himself and a few minutes afterward she was +sitting on her stool again telling him not what she imagined the secret garden +to be like but what it really was, and Colin’s aches and tiredness were +forgotten and he was listening enraptured. +</p> + +<p> +“It is just what you thought it would be,” he said at last. +“It sounds just as if you had really seen it. You know I said that when +you told me first.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary hesitated about two minutes and then boldly spoke the truth. +</p> + +<p> +“I had seen it—and I had been in,” she said. “I found +the key and got in weeks ago. But I daren’t tell you—I +daren’t because I was so afraid I couldn’t trust you—<i>for +sure!</i>” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap19"></a>CHAPTER XIX.<br /> +“IT HAS COME!”</h2> + +<p> +Of course Dr. Craven had been sent for the morning after Colin had had his +tantrum. He was always sent for at once when such a thing occurred and he +always found, when he arrived, a white shaken boy lying on his bed, sulky and +still so hysterical that he was ready to break into fresh sobbing at the least +word. In fact, Dr. Craven dreaded and detested the difficulties of these +visits. On this occasion he was away from Misselthwaite Manor until afternoon. +</p> + +<p> +“How is he?” he asked Mrs. Medlock rather irritably when he +arrived. “He will break a blood-vessel in one of those fits some day. The +boy is half insane with hysteria and self-indulgence.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, sir,” answered Mrs. Medlock, “you’ll scarcely +believe your eyes when you see him. That plain sour-faced child that’s +almost as bad as himself has just bewitched him. How she’s done it +there’s no telling. The Lord knows she’s nothing to look at and you +scarcely ever hear her speak, but she did what none of us dare do. She just +flew at him like a little cat last night, and stamped her feet and ordered him +to stop screaming, and somehow she startled him so that he actually did stop, +and this afternoon—well just come up and see, sir. It’s past +crediting.” +</p> + +<p> +The scene which Dr. Craven beheld when he entered his patient’s room was +indeed rather astonishing to him. As Mrs. Medlock opened the door he heard +laughing and chattering. Colin was on his sofa in his dressing-gown and he was +sitting up quite straight looking at a picture in one of the garden books and +talking to the plain child who at that moment could scarcely be called plain at +all because her face was so glowing with enjoyment. +</p> + +<p> +“Those long spires of blue ones—we’ll have a lot of +those,” Colin was announcing. “They’re called +Del-phin-iums.” +</p> + +<p> +“Dickon says they’re larkspurs made big and grand,” cried +Mistress Mary. “There are clumps there already.” +</p> + +<p> +Then they saw Dr. Craven and stopped. Mary became quite still and Colin looked +fretful. +</p> + +<p> +“I am sorry to hear you were ill last night, my boy,” Dr. Craven +said a trifle nervously. He was rather a nervous man. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m better now—much better,” Colin answered, rather +like a Rajah. “I’m going out in my chair in a day or two if it is +fine. I want some fresh air.” +</p> + +<p> +Dr. Craven sat down by him and felt his pulse and looked at him curiously. +</p> + +<p> +“It must be a very fine day,” he said, “and you must be very +careful not to tire yourself.” +</p> + +<p> +“Fresh air won’t tire me,” said the young Rajah. +</p> + +<p> +As there had been occasions when this same young gentleman had shrieked aloud +with rage and had insisted that fresh air would give him cold and kill him, it +is not to be wondered at that his doctor felt somewhat startled. +</p> + +<p> +“I thought you did not like fresh air,” he said. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t when I am by myself,” replied the Rajah; “but +my cousin is going out with me.” +</p> + +<p> +“And the nurse, of course?” suggested Dr. Craven. +</p> + +<p> +“No, I will not have the nurse,” so magnificently that Mary could +not help remembering how the young native Prince had looked with his diamonds +and emeralds and pearls stuck all over him and the great rubies on the small +dark hand he had waved to command his servants to approach with salaams and +receive his orders. +</p> + +<p> +“My cousin knows how to take care of me. I am always better when she is +with me. She made me better last night. A very strong boy I know will push my +carriage.” +</p> + +<p> +Dr. Craven felt rather alarmed. If this tiresome hysterical boy should chance +to get well he himself would lose all chance of inheriting Misselthwaite; but +he was not an unscrupulous man, though he was a weak one, and he did not intend +to let him run into actual danger. +</p> + +<p> +“He must be a strong boy and a steady boy,” he said. “And I +must know something about him. Who is he? What is his name?” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s Dickon,” Mary spoke up suddenly. She felt somehow that +everybody who knew the moor must know Dickon. And she was right, too. She saw +that in a moment Dr. Craven’s serious face relaxed into a relieved smile. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, Dickon,” he said. “If it is Dickon you will be safe +enough. He’s as strong as a moor pony, is Dickon.” +</p> + +<p> +“And he’s trusty,” said Mary. “He’s th’ +trustiest lad i’ Yorkshire.” She had been talking Yorkshire to +Colin and she forgot herself. +</p> + +<p> +“Did Dickon teach you that?” asked Dr. Craven, laughing outright. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m learning it as if it was French,” said Mary rather +coldly. “It’s like a native dialect in India. Very clever people +try to learn them. I like it and so does Colin.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, well,” he said. “If it amuses you perhaps it +won’t do you any harm. Did you take your bromide last night, Colin?” +</p> + +<p> +“No,” Colin answered. “I wouldn’t take it at first and +after Mary made me quiet she talked me to sleep—in a low +voice—about the spring creeping into a garden.” +</p> + +<p> +“That sounds soothing,” said Dr. Craven, more perplexed than ever +and glancing sideways at Mistress Mary sitting on her stool and looking down +silently at the carpet. “You are evidently better, but you must +remember—” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t want to remember,” interrupted the Rajah, appearing +again. “When I lie by myself and remember I begin to have pains +everywhere and I think of things that make me begin to scream because I hate +them so. If there was a doctor anywhere who could make you forget you were ill +instead of remembering it I would have him brought here.” And he waved a +thin hand which ought really to have been covered with royal signet rings made +of rubies. “It is because my cousin makes me forget that she makes me +better.” +</p> + +<p> +Dr. Craven had never made such a short stay after a “tantrum”; +usually he was obliged to remain a very long time and do a great many things. +This afternoon he did not give any medicine or leave any new orders and he was +spared any disagreeable scenes. When he went downstairs he looked very +thoughtful and when he talked to Mrs. Medlock in the library she felt that he +was a much puzzled man. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, sir,” she ventured, “could you have believed +it?” +</p> + +<p> +“It is certainly a new state of affairs,” said the doctor. +“And there’s no denying it is better than the old one.” +</p> + +<p> +“I believe Susan Sowerby’s right—I do that,” said Mrs. +Medlock. “I stopped in her cottage on my way to Thwaite yesterday and had +a bit of talk with her. And she says to me, ‘Well, Sarah Ann, she +mayn’t be a good child, an’ she mayn’t be a pretty one, but +she’s a child, an’ children needs children.’ We went to +school together, Susan Sowerby and me.” +</p> + +<p> +“She’s the best sick nurse I know,” said Dr. Craven. +“When I find her in a cottage I know the chances are that I shall save my +patient.” +</p> + +<p> +Mrs. Medlock smiled. She was fond of Susan Sowerby. +</p> + +<p> +“She’s got a way with her, has Susan,” she went on quite +volubly. “I’ve been thinking all morning of one thing she said +yesterday. She says, ‘Once when I was givin’ th’ children a +bit of a preach after they’d been fightin’ I ses to ’em all, +“When I was at school my jography told as th’ world was shaped like +a orange an’ I found out before I was ten that th’ whole orange +doesn’t belong to nobody. No one owns more than his bit of a quarter +an’ there’s times it seems like there’s not enow quarters to +go round. But don’t you—none o’ you—think as you own +th’ whole orange or you’ll find out you’re mistaken, +an’ you won’t find it out without hard knocks.” ‘What +children learns from children,’ she says, ‘is that there’s no +sense in grabbin’ at th’ whole orange—peel an’ all. If +you do you’ll likely not get even th’ pips, an’ them’s +too bitter to eat.’” +</p> + +<p> +“She’s a shrewd woman,” said Dr. Craven, putting on his coat. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, she’s got a way of saying things,” ended Mrs. Medlock, +much pleased. “Sometimes I’ve said to her, ‘Eh! Susan, if you +was a different woman an’ didn’t talk such broad Yorkshire +I’ve seen the times when I should have said you was clever.’” +<br /><br /> +</p> + +<p> +That night Colin slept without once awakening and when he opened his eyes in +the morning he lay still and smiled without knowing it—smiled because he +felt so curiously comfortable. It was actually nice to be awake, and he turned +over and stretched his limbs luxuriously. He felt as if tight strings which had +held him had loosened themselves and let him go. He did not know that Dr. +Craven would have said that his nerves had relaxed and rested themselves. +Instead of lying and staring at the wall and wishing he had not awakened, his +mind was full of the plans he and Mary had made yesterday, of pictures of the +garden and of Dickon and his wild creatures. It was so nice to have things to +think about. And he had not been awake more than ten minutes when he heard feet +running along the corridor and Mary was at the door. The next minute she was in +the room and had run across to his bed, bringing with her a waft of fresh air +full of the scent of the morning. +</p> + +<p> +“You’ve been out! You’ve been out! There’s that nice +smell of leaves!” he cried. +</p> + +<p> +She had been running and her hair was loose and blown and she was bright with +the air and pink-cheeked, though he could not see it. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s so beautiful!” she said, a little breathless with her +speed. “You never saw anything so beautiful! It has <i>come!</i> I +thought it had come that other morning, but it was only coming. It is here now! +It has come, the Spring! Dickon says so!” +</p> + +<p> +“Has it?” cried Colin, and though he really knew nothing about it +he felt his heart beat. He actually sat up in bed. +</p> + +<p> +“Open the window!” he added, laughing half with joyful excitement +and half at his own fancy. “Perhaps we may hear golden trumpets!” +</p> + +<p> +And though he laughed, Mary was at the window in a moment and in a moment more +it was opened wide and freshness and softness and scents and birds’ songs +were pouring through. +</p> + +<p> +“That’s fresh air,” she said. “Lie on your back and +draw in long breaths of it. That’s what Dickon does when he’s lying +on the moor. He says he feels it in his veins and it makes him strong and he +feels as if he could live forever and ever. Breathe it and breathe it.” +</p> + +<p> +She was only repeating what Dickon had told her, but she caught Colin’s +fancy. +</p> + +<p> +“’Forever and ever’! Does it make him feel like that?” +he said, and he did as she told him, drawing in long deep breaths over and over +again until he felt that something quite new and delightful was happening to +him. +</p> + +<p> +Mary was at his bedside again. +</p> + +<p> +“Things are crowding up out of the earth,” she ran on in a hurry. +“And there are flowers uncurling and buds on everything and the green +veil has covered nearly all the gray and the birds are in such a hurry about +their nests for fear they may be too late that some of them are even fighting +for places in the secret garden. And the rose-bushes look as wick as wick can +be, and there are primroses in the lanes and woods, and the seeds we planted +are up, and Dickon has brought the fox and the crow and the squirrels and a +new-born lamb.” +</p> + +<p> +And then she paused for breath. The new-born lamb Dickon had found three days +before lying by its dead mother among the gorse bushes on the moor. It was not +the first motherless lamb he had found and he knew what to do with it. He had +taken it to the cottage wrapped in his jacket and he had let it lie near the +fire and had fed it with warm milk. It was a soft thing with a darling silly +baby face and legs rather long for its body. Dickon had carried it over the +moor in his arms and its feeding bottle was in his pocket with a squirrel, and +when Mary had sat under a tree with its limp warmness huddled on her lap she +had felt as if she were too full of strange joy to speak. A lamb—a lamb! +A living lamb who lay on your lap like a baby! +</p> + +<p> +She was describing it with great joy and Colin was listening and drawing in +long breaths of air when the nurse entered. She started a little at the sight +of the open window. She had sat stifling in the room many a warm day because +her patient was sure that open windows gave people cold. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you sure you are not chilly, Master Colin?” she inquired. +</p> + +<p> +“No,” was the answer. “I am breathing long breaths of fresh +air. It makes you strong. I am going to get up to the sofa for breakfast. My +cousin will have breakfast with me.” +</p> + +<p> +The nurse went away, concealing a smile, to give the order for two breakfasts. +She found the servants’ hall a more amusing place than the +invalid’s chamber and just now everybody wanted to hear the news from +upstairs. There was a great deal of joking about the unpopular young recluse +who, as the cook said, “had found his master, and good for him.” +The servants’ hall had been very tired of the tantrums, and the butler, +who was a man with a family, had more than once expressed his opinion that the +invalid would be all the better “for a good hiding.” +</p> + +<p> +When Colin was on his sofa and the breakfast for two was put upon the table he +made an announcement to the nurse in his most Rajah-like manner. +</p> + +<p> +“A boy, and a fox, and a crow, and two squirrels, and a new-born lamb, +are coming to see me this morning. I want them brought upstairs as soon as they +come,” he said. “You are not to begin playing with the animals in +the servants’ hall and keep them there. I want them here.” +</p> + +<p> +The nurse gave a slight gasp and tried to conceal it with a cough. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, sir,” she answered. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll tell you what you can do,” added Colin, waving his +hand. “You can tell Martha to bring them here. The boy is Martha’s +brother. His name is Dickon and he is an animal charmer.” +</p> + +<p> +“I hope the animals won’t bite, Master Colin,” said the +nurse. +</p> + +<p> +“I told you he was a charmer,” said Colin austerely. +“Charmers’ animals never bite.” +</p> + +<p> +“There are snake-charmers in India,” said Mary. “And they can +put their snakes’ heads in their mouths.” +</p> + +<p> +“Goodness!” shuddered the nurse. +</p> + +<p> +They ate their breakfast with the morning air pouring in upon them. +Colin’s breakfast was a very good one and Mary watched him with serious +interest. +</p> + +<p> +“You will begin to get fatter just as I did,” she said. “I +never wanted my breakfast when I was in India and now I always want it.” +</p> + +<p> +“I wanted mine this morning,” said Colin. “Perhaps it was the +fresh air. When do you think Dickon will come?” +</p> + +<p> +He was not long in coming. In about ten minutes Mary held up her hand. +</p> + +<p> +“Listen!” she said. “Did you hear a caw?” +</p> + +<p> +Colin listened and heard it, the oddest sound in the world to hear inside a +house, a hoarse “caw-caw.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” he answered. +</p> + +<p> +“That’s Soot,” said Mary. “Listen again. Do you hear a +bleat—a tiny one?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, yes!” cried Colin, quite flushing. +</p> + +<p> +“That’s the new-born lamb,” said Mary. “He’s +coming.” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon’s moorland boots were thick and clumsy and though he tried to walk +quietly they made a clumping sound as he walked through the long corridors. +Mary and Colin heard him marching—marching, until he passed through the +tapestry door on to the soft carpet of Colin’s own passage. +</p> + +<p> +“If you please, sir,” announced Martha, opening the door, “if +you please, sir, here’s Dickon an’ his creatures.” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon came in smiling his nicest wide smile. The new-born lamb was in his arms +and the little red fox trotted by his side. Nut sat on his left shoulder and +Soot on his right and Shell’s head and paws peeped out of his coat +pocket. +</p> + +<p> +Colin slowly sat up and stared and stared—as he had stared when he first +saw Mary; but this was a stare of wonder and delight. The truth was that in +spite of all he had heard he had not in the least understood what this boy +would be like and that his fox and his crow and his squirrels and his lamb were +so near to him and his friendliness that they seemed almost to be part of +himself. Colin had never talked to a boy in his life and he was so overwhelmed +by his own pleasure and curiosity that he did not even think of speaking. +</p> + +<p> +But Dickon did not feel the least shy or awkward. He had not felt embarrassed +because the crow had not known his language and had only stared and had not +spoken to him the first time they met. Creatures were always like that until +they found out about you. He walked over to Colin’s sofa and put the +new-born lamb quietly on his lap, and immediately the little creature turned to +the warm velvet dressing-gown and began to nuzzle and nuzzle into its folds and +butt its tight-curled head with soft impatience against his side. Of course no +boy could have helped speaking then. +</p> + +<p> +“What is it doing?” cried Colin. “What does it want?” +</p> + +<p> +“It wants its mother,” said Dickon, smiling more and more. “I +brought it to thee a bit hungry because I knowed tha’d like to see it +feed.” +</p> + +<p> +He knelt down by the sofa and took a feeding-bottle from his pocket. +</p> + +<p> +“Come on, little ’un,” he said, turning the small woolly +white head with a gentle brown hand. “This is what tha’s after. +Tha’ll get more out o’ this than tha’ will out o’ silk +velvet coats. There now,” and he pushed the rubber tip of the bottle into +the nuzzling mouth and the lamb began to suck it with ravenous ecstasy. +</p> + +<p> +After that there was no wondering what to say. By the time the lamb fell asleep +questions poured forth and Dickon answered them all. He told them how he had +found the lamb just as the sun was rising three mornings ago. He had been +standing on the moor listening to a skylark and watching him swing higher and +higher into the sky until he was only a speck in the heights of blue. +</p> + +<p> +“I’d almost lost him but for his song an’ I was +wonderin’ how a chap could hear it when it seemed as if he’d get +out o’ th’ world in a minute—an’ just then I heard +somethin’ else far off among th’ gorse bushes. It was a weak +bleatin’ an’ I knowed it was a new lamb as was hungry an’ I +knowed it wouldn’t be hungry if it hadn’t lost its mother somehow, +so I set off searchin’. Eh! I did have a look for it. I went in an’ +out among th’ gorse bushes an’ round an’ round an’ I +always seemed to take th’ wrong turnin’. But at last I seed a bit +o’ white by a rock on top o’ th’ moor an’ I climbed up +an’ found th’ little ’un half dead wi’ cold an’ +clemmin’.” +</p> + +<p> +While he talked, Soot flew solemnly in and out of the open window and cawed +remarks about the scenery while Nut and Shell made excursions into the big +trees outside and ran up and down trunks and explored branches. Captain curled +up near Dickon, who sat on the hearth-rug from preference. +</p> + +<p> +They looked at the pictures in the gardening books and Dickon knew all the +flowers by their country names and knew exactly which ones were already growing +in the secret garden. +</p> + +<p> +“I couldna’ say that there name,” he said, pointing to one +under which was written “Aquilegia,” “but us calls that a +columbine, an’ that there one it’s a snapdragon and they both grow +wild in hedges, but these is garden ones an’ they’re bigger +an’ grander. There’s some big clumps o’ columbine in +th’ garden. They’ll look like a bed o’ blue an’ white +butterflies flutterin’ when they’re out.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m going to see them,” cried Colin. “I am going to +see them!” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, that tha’ mun,” said Mary quite seriously. +“An’ tha’ munnot lose no time about it.” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap20"></a>CHAPTER XX.<br /> +“I SHALL LIVE FOREVER—AND EVER—AND EVER!”</h2> + +<p> +But they were obliged to wait more than a week because first there came some +very windy days and then Colin was threatened with a cold, which two things +happening one after the other would no doubt have thrown him into a rage but +that there was so much careful and mysterious planning to do and almost every +day Dickon came in, if only for a few minutes, to talk about what was happening +on the moor and in the lanes and hedges and on the borders of streams. The +things he had to tell about otters’ and badgers’ and +water-rats’ houses, not to mention birds’ nests and field-mice and +their burrows, were enough to make you almost tremble with excitement when you +heard all the intimate details from an animal charmer and realized with what +thrilling eagerness and anxiety the whole busy underworld was working. +</p> + +<p> +“They’re same as us,” said Dickon, “only they have to +build their homes every year. An’ it keeps ’em so busy they fair +scuffle to get ’em done.” +</p> + +<p> +The most absorbing thing, however, was the preparations to be made before Colin +could be transported with sufficient secrecy to the garden. No one must see the +chair-carriage and Dickon and Mary after they turned a certain corner of the +shrubbery and entered upon the walk outside the ivied walls. As each day +passed, Colin had become more and more fixed in his feeling that the mystery +surrounding the garden was one of its greatest charms. Nothing must spoil that. +No one must ever suspect that they had a secret. People must think that he was +simply going out with Mary and Dickon because he liked them and did not object +to their looking at him. They had long and quite delightful talks about their +route. They would go up this path and down that one and cross the other and go +round among the fountain flower-beds as if they were looking at the +“bedding-out plants” the head gardener, Mr. Roach, had been having +arranged. That would seem such a rational thing to do that no one would think +it at all mysterious. They would turn into the shrubbery walks and lose +themselves until they came to the long walls. It was almost as serious and +elaborately thought out as the plans of march made by great generals in time of +war. +</p> + +<p> +Rumors of the new and curious things which were occurring in the +invalid’s apartments had of course filtered through the servants’ +hall into the stable yards and out among the gardeners, but notwithstanding +this, Mr. Roach was startled one day when he received orders from Master +Colin’s room to the effect that he must report himself in the apartment +no outsider had ever seen, as the invalid himself desired to speak to him. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, well,” he said to himself as he hurriedly changed his coat, +“what’s to do now? His Royal Highness that wasn’t to be +looked at calling up a man he’s never set eyes on.” +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Roach was not without curiosity. He had never caught even a glimpse of the +boy and had heard a dozen exaggerated stories about his uncanny looks and ways +and his insane tempers. The thing he had heard oftenest was that he might die +at any moment and there had been numerous fanciful descriptions of a humped +back and helpless limbs, given by people who had never seen him. +</p> + +<p> +“Things are changing in this house, Mr. Roach,” said Mrs. Medlock, +as she led him up the back staircase to the corridor on to which opened the +hitherto mysterious chamber. +</p> + +<p> +“Let’s hope they’re changing for the better, Mrs. +Medlock,” he answered. +</p> + +<p> +“They couldn’t well change for the worse,” she continued; +“and queer as it all is there’s them as finds their duties made a +lot easier to stand up under. Don’t you be surprised, Mr. Roach, if you +find yourself in the middle of a menagerie and Martha Sowerby’s Dickon +more at home than you or me could ever be.” +</p> + +<p> +There really was a sort of Magic about Dickon, as Mary always privately +believed. When Mr. Roach heard his name he smiled quite leniently. +</p> + +<p> +“He’d be at home in Buckingham Palace or at the bottom of a coal +mine,” he said. “And yet it’s not impudence, either. +He’s just fine, is that lad.” +</p> + +<p> +It was perhaps well he had been prepared or he might have been startled. When +the bedroom door was opened a large crow, which seemed quite at home perched on +the high back of a carven chair, announced the entrance of a visitor by saying +“Caw—Caw” quite loudly. In spite of Mrs. Medlock’s +warning, Mr. Roach only just escaped being sufficiently undignified to jump +backward. +</p> + +<p> +The young Rajah was neither in bed nor on his sofa. He was sitting in an +armchair and a young lamb was standing by him shaking its tail in feeding-lamb +fashion as Dickon knelt giving it milk from its bottle. A squirrel was perched +on Dickon’s bent back attentively nibbling a nut. The little girl from +India was sitting on a big footstool looking on. +</p> + +<p> +“Here is Mr. Roach, Master Colin,” said Mrs. Medlock. +</p> + +<p> +The young Rajah turned and looked his servitor over—at least that was +what the head gardener felt happened. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, you are Roach, are you?” he said. “I sent for you to +give you some very important orders.” +</p> + +<p> +“Very good, sir,” answered Roach, wondering if he was to receive +instructions to fell all the oaks in the park or to transform the orchards into +water-gardens. +</p> + +<p> +“I am going out in my chair this afternoon,” said Colin. “If +the fresh air agrees with me I may go out every day. When I go, none of the +gardeners are to be anywhere near the Long Walk by the garden walls. No one is +to be there. I shall go out about two o’clock and everyone must keep away +until I send word that they may go back to their work.” +</p> + +<p> +“Very good, sir,” replied Mr. Roach, much relieved to hear that the +oaks might remain and that the orchards were safe. +</p> + +<p> +“Mary,” said Colin, turning to her, “what is that thing you +say in India when you have finished talking and want people to go?” +</p> + +<p> +“You say, ‘You have my permission to go,’” answered +Mary. +</p> + +<p> +The Rajah waved his hand. +</p> + +<p> +“You have my permission to go, Roach,” he said. “But, +remember, this is very important.” +</p> + +<p> +“Caw—Caw!” remarked the crow hoarsely but not impolitely. +</p> + +<p> +“Very good, sir. Thank you, sir,” said Mr. Roach, and Mrs. Medlock +took him out of the room. +</p> + +<p> +Outside in the corridor, being a rather good-natured man, he smiled until he +almost laughed. +</p> + +<p> +“My word!” he said, “he’s got a fine lordly way with +him, hasn’t he? You’d think he was a whole Royal Family rolled into +one—Prince Consort and all.” +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” protested Mrs. Medlock, “we’ve had to let him +trample all over everyone of us ever since he had feet and he thinks +that’s what folks was born for.” +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps he’ll grow out of it, if he lives,” suggested Mr. +Roach. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, there’s one thing pretty sure,” said Mrs. Medlock. +“If he does live and that Indian child stays here I’ll warrant she +teaches him that the whole orange does not belong to him, as Susan Sowerby +says. And he’ll be likely to find out the size of his own quarter.” +</p> + +<p> +Inside the room Colin was leaning back on his cushions. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s all safe now,” he said. “And this afternoon I +shall see it—this afternoon I shall be in it!” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon went back to the garden with his creatures and Mary stayed with Colin. +She did not think he looked tired but he was very quiet before their lunch came +and he was quiet while they were eating it. She wondered why and asked him +about it. +</p> + +<p> +“What big eyes you’ve got, Colin,” she said. “When you +are thinking they get as big as saucers. What are you thinking about +now?” +</p> + +<p> +“I can’t help thinking about what it will look like,” he +answered. +</p> + +<p> +“The garden?” asked Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“The springtime,” he said. “I was thinking that I’ve +really never seen it before. I scarcely ever went out and when I did go I never +looked at it. I didn’t even think about it.” +</p> + +<p> +“I never saw it in India because there wasn’t any,” said +Mary. +</p> + +<p> +Shut in and morbid as his life had been, Colin had more imagination than she +had and at least he had spent a good deal of time looking at wonderful books +and pictures. +</p> + +<p> +“That morning when you ran in and said ‘It’s come! It’s +come!’, you made me feel quite queer. It sounded as if things were coming +with a great procession and big bursts and wafts of music. I’ve a picture +like it in one of my books—crowds of lovely people and children with +garlands and branches with blossoms on them, everyone laughing and dancing and +crowding and playing on pipes. That was why I said, ‘Perhaps we shall +hear golden trumpets’ and told you to throw open the window.” +</p> + +<p> +“How funny!” said Mary. “That’s really just what it +feels like. And if all the flowers and leaves and green things and birds and +wild creatures danced past at once, what a crowd it would be! I’m sure +they’d dance and sing and flute and that would be the wafts of +music.” +</p> + +<p> +They both laughed but it was not because the idea was laughable but because +they both so liked it. +</p> + +<p> +A little later the nurse made Colin ready. She noticed that instead of lying +like a log while his clothes were put on he sat up and made some efforts to +help himself, and he talked and laughed with Mary all the time. +</p> + +<p> +“This is one of his good days, sir,” she said to Dr. Craven, who +dropped in to inspect him. “He’s in such good spirits that it makes +him stronger.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll call in again later in the afternoon, after he has come +in,” said Dr. Craven. “I must see how the going out agrees with +him. I wish,” in a very low voice, “that he would let you go with +him.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’d rather give up the case this moment, sir, than even stay here +while it’s suggested,” answered the nurse. With sudden firmness. +</p> + +<p> +“I hadn’t really decided to suggest it,” said the doctor, +with his slight nervousness. “We’ll try the experiment. +Dickon’s a lad I’d trust with a new-born child.” +</p> + +<p> +The strongest footman in the house carried Colin downstairs and put him in his +wheeled chair near which Dickon waited outside. After the manservant had +arranged his rugs and cushions the Rajah waved his hand to him and to the +nurse. +</p> + +<p> +“You have my permission to go,” he said, and they both disappeared +quickly and it must be confessed giggled when they were safely inside the +house. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon began to push the wheeled chair slowly and steadily. Mistress Mary +walked beside it and Colin leaned back and lifted his face to the sky. The arch +of it looked very high and the small snowy clouds seemed like white birds +floating on outspread wings below its crystal blueness. The wind swept in soft +big breaths down from the moor and was strange with a wild clear scented +sweetness. Colin kept lifting his thin chest to draw it in, and his big eyes +looked as if it were they which were listening—listening, instead of his +ears. +</p> + +<p> +“There are so many sounds of singing and humming and calling out,” +he said. “What is that scent the puffs of wind bring?” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s gorse on th’ moor that’s openin’ +out,” answered Dickon. “Eh! th’ bees are at it wonderful +today.” +</p> + +<p> +Not a human creature was to be caught sight of in the paths they took. In fact +every gardener or gardener’s lad had been witched away. But they wound in +and out among the shrubbery and out and round the fountain beds, following +their carefully planned route for the mere mysterious pleasure of it. But when +at last they turned into the Long Walk by the ivied walls the excited sense of +an approaching thrill made them, for some curious reason they could not have +explained, begin to speak in whispers. +</p> + +<p> +“This is it,” breathed Mary. “This is where I used to walk up +and down and wonder and wonder.” +</p> + +<p> +“Is it?” cried Colin, and his eyes began to search the ivy with +eager curiousness. “But I can see nothing,” he whispered. +“There is no door.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s what I thought,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +Then there was a lovely breathless silence and the chair wheeled on. +</p> + +<p> +“That is the garden where Ben Weatherstaff works,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Is it?” said Colin. +</p> + +<p> +A few yards more and Mary whispered again. +</p> + +<p> +“This is where the robin flew over the wall,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“Is it?” cried Colin. “Oh! I wish he’d come +again!” +</p> + +<p> +“And that,” said Mary with solemn delight, pointing under a big +lilac bush, “is where he perched on the little heap of earth and showed +me the key.” +</p> + +<p> +Then Colin sat up. +</p> + +<p> +“Where? Where? There?” he cried, and his eyes were as big as the +wolf’s in Red Riding-Hood, when Red Riding-Hood felt called upon to +remark on them. Dickon stood still and the wheeled chair stopped. +</p> + +<p> +“And this,” said Mary, stepping on to the bed close to the ivy, +“is where I went to talk to him when he chirped at me from the top of the +wall. And this is the ivy the wind blew back,” and she took hold of the +hanging green curtain. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh! is it—is it!” gasped Colin. +</p> + +<p> +“And here is the handle, and here is the door. Dickon push him +in—push him in quickly!” +</p> + +<p> +And Dickon did it with one strong, steady, splendid push. +</p> + +<p> +But Colin had actually dropped back against his cushions, even though he gasped +with delight, and he had covered his eyes with his hands and held them there +shutting out everything until they were inside and the chair stopped as if by +magic and the door was closed. Not till then did he take them away and look +round and round and round as Dickon and Mary had done. And over walls and earth +and trees and swinging sprays and tendrils the fair green veil of tender little +leaves had crept, and in the grass under the trees and the gray urns in the +alcoves and here and there everywhere were touches or splashes of gold and +purple and white and the trees were showing pink and snow above his head and +there were fluttering of wings and faint sweet pipes and humming and scents and +scents. And the sun fell warm upon his face like a hand with a lovely touch. +And in wonder Mary and Dickon stood and stared at him. He looked so strange and +different because a pink glow of color had actually crept all over +him—ivory face and neck and hands and all. +</p> + +<p> +“I shall get well! I shall get well!” he cried out. “Mary! +Dickon! I shall get well! And I shall live forever and ever and ever!” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap21"></a>CHAPTER XXI.<br /> +BEN WEATHERSTAFF</h2> + +<p> +One of the strange things about living in the world is that it is only now and +then one is quite sure one is going to live forever and ever and ever. One +knows it sometimes when one gets up at the tender solemn dawn-time and goes out +and stands alone and throws one’s head far back and looks up and up and +watches the pale sky slowly changing and flushing and marvelous unknown things +happening until the East almost makes one cry out and one’s heart stands +still at the strange unchanging majesty of the rising of the sun—which +has been happening every morning for thousands and thousands and thousands of +years. One knows it then for a moment or so. And one knows it sometimes when +one stands by oneself in a wood at sunset and the mysterious deep gold +stillness slanting through and under the branches seems to be saying slowly +again and again something one cannot quite hear, however much one tries. Then +sometimes the immense quiet of the dark blue at night with millions of stars +waiting and watching makes one sure; and sometimes a sound of far-off music +makes it true; and sometimes a look in someone’s eyes. +</p> + +<p> +And it was like that with Colin when he first saw and heard and felt the +Springtime inside the four high walls of a hidden garden. That afternoon the +whole world seemed to devote itself to being perfect and radiantly beautiful +and kind to one boy. Perhaps out of pure heavenly goodness the spring came and +crowded everything it possibly could into that one place. More than once Dickon +paused in what he was doing and stood still with a sort of growing wonder in +his eyes, shaking his head softly. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! it is graidely,” he said. “I’m twelve goin’ +on thirteen an’ there’s a lot o’ afternoons in thirteen +years, but seems to me like I never seed one as graidely as this +’ere.” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, it is a graidely one,” said Mary, and she sighed for mere +joy. “I’ll warrant it’s the graidelest one as ever was in +this world.” +</p> + +<p> +“Does tha’ think,” said Colin with dreamy carefulness, +“as happen it was made loike this ’ere all o’ purpose for +me?” +</p> + +<p> +“My word!” cried Mary admiringly, “that there is a bit +o’ good Yorkshire. Tha’rt shapin’ first-rate—that +tha’ art.” +</p> + +<p> +And delight reigned. +</p> + +<p> +They drew the chair under the plum-tree, which was snow-white with blossoms and +musical with bees. It was like a king’s canopy, a fairy king’s. +There were flowering cherry-trees near and apple-trees whose buds were pink and +white, and here and there one had burst open wide. Between the blossoming +branches of the canopy bits of blue sky looked down like wonderful eyes. +</p> + +<p> +Mary and Dickon worked a little here and there and Colin watched them. They +brought him things to look at—buds which were opening, buds which were +tight closed, bits of twig whose leaves were just showing green, the feather of +a woodpecker which had dropped on the grass, the empty shell of some bird early +hatched. Dickon pushed the chair slowly round and round the garden, stopping +every other moment to let him look at wonders springing out of the earth or +trailing down from trees. It was like being taken in state round the country of +a magic king and queen and shown all the mysterious riches it contained. +</p> + +<p> +“I wonder if we shall see the robin?” said Colin. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ll see him often enow after a bit,” answered Dickon. +“When th’ eggs hatches out th’ little chap he’ll be +kep’ so busy it’ll make his head swim. Tha’ll see him +flyin’ backward an’ for’ard carryin’ worms nigh as big +as himsel’ an’ that much noise goin’ on in th’ nest +when he gets there as fair flusters him so as he scarce knows which big mouth +to drop th’ first piece in. An’ gapin’ beaks an’ +squawks on every side. Mother says as when she sees th’ work a robin has +to keep them gapin’ beaks filled, she feels like she was a lady with +nothin’ to do. She says she’s seen th’ little chaps when it +seemed like th’ sweat must be droppin’ off ’em, though folk +can’t see it.” +</p> + +<p> +This made them giggle so delightedly that they were obliged to cover their +mouths with their hands, remembering that they must not be heard. Colin had +been instructed as to the law of whispers and low voices several days before. +He liked the mysteriousness of it and did his best, but in the midst of excited +enjoyment it is rather difficult never to laugh above a whisper. +</p> + +<p> +Every moment of the afternoon was full of new things and every hour the +sunshine grew more golden. The wheeled chair had been drawn back under the +canopy and Dickon had sat down on the grass and had just drawn out his pipe +when Colin saw something he had not had time to notice before. +</p> + +<p> +“That’s a very old tree over there, isn’t it?” he said. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon looked across the grass at the tree and Mary looked and there was a +brief moment of stillness. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” answered Dickon, after it, and his low voice had a very +gentle sound. +</p> + +<p> +Mary gazed at the tree and thought. +</p> + +<p> +“The branches are quite gray and there’s not a single leaf +anywhere,” Colin went on. “It’s quite dead, isn’t +it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye,” admitted Dickon. “But them roses as has climbed all +over it will near hide every bit o’ th’ dead wood when +they’re full o’ leaves an’ flowers. It won’t look dead +then. It’ll be th’ prettiest of all.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary still gazed at the tree and thought. +</p> + +<p> +“It looks as if a big branch had been broken off,” said Colin. +“I wonder how it was done.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s been done many a year,” answered Dickon. +“Eh!” with a sudden relieved start and laying his hand on Colin. +“Look at that robin! There he is! He’s been foragin’ for his +mate.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin was almost too late but he just caught sight of him, the flash of +red-breasted bird with something in his beak. He darted through the greenness +and into the close-grown corner and was out of sight. Colin leaned back on his +cushion again, laughing a little. +</p> + +<p> +“He’s taking her tea to her. Perhaps it’s five o’clock. +I think I’d like some tea myself.” +</p> + +<p> +And so they were safe. +</p> + +<p> +“It was Magic which sent the robin,” said Mary secretly to Dickon +afterward. “I know it was Magic.” For both she and Dickon had been +afraid Colin might ask something about the tree whose branch had broken off ten +years ago and they had talked it over together and Dickon had stood and rubbed +his head in a troubled way. +</p> + +<p> +“We mun look as if it wasn’t no different from th’ other +trees,” he had said. “We couldn’t never tell him how it +broke, poor lad. If he says anything about it we mun—we mun try to look +cheerful.” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, that we mun,” had answered Mary. +</p> + +<p> +But she had not felt as if she looked cheerful when she gazed at the tree. She +wondered and wondered in those few moments if there was any reality in that +other thing Dickon had said. He had gone on rubbing his rust-red hair in a +puzzled way, but a nice comforted look had begun to grow in his blue eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“Mrs. Craven was a very lovely young lady,” he had gone on rather +hesitatingly. “An’ mother she thinks maybe she’s about +Misselthwaite many a time lookin’ after Mester Colin, same as all mothers +do when they’re took out o’ th’ world. They have to come +back, tha’ sees. Happen she’s been in the garden an’ happen +it was her set us to work, an’ told us to bring him here.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary had thought he meant something about Magic. She was a great believer in +Magic. Secretly she quite believed that Dickon worked Magic, of course good +Magic, on everything near him and that was why people liked him so much and +wild creatures knew he was their friend. She wondered, indeed, if it were not +possible that his gift had brought the robin just at the right moment when +Colin asked that dangerous question. She felt that his Magic was working all +the afternoon and making Colin look like an entirely different boy. It did not +seem possible that he could be the crazy creature who had screamed and beaten +and bitten his pillow. Even his ivory whiteness seemed to change. The faint +glow of color which had shown on his face and neck and hands when he first got +inside the garden really never quite died away. He looked as if he were made of +flesh instead of ivory or wax. +</p> + +<p> +They saw the robin carry food to his mate two or three times, and it was so +suggestive of afternoon tea that Colin felt they must have some. +</p> + +<p> +“Go and make one of the men servants bring some in a basket to the +rhododendron walk,” he said. “And then you and Dickon can bring it +here.” +</p> + +<p> +It was an agreeable idea, easily carried out, and when the white cloth was +spread upon the grass, with hot tea and buttered toast and crumpets, a +delightfully hungry meal was eaten, and several birds on domestic errands +paused to inquire what was going on and were led into investigating crumbs with +great activity. Nut and Shell whisked up trees with pieces of cake and Soot +took the entire half of a buttered crumpet into a corner and pecked at and +examined and turned it over and made hoarse remarks about it until he decided +to swallow it all joyfully in one gulp. +</p> + +<p> +The afternoon was dragging towards its mellow hour. The sun was deepening the +gold of its lances, the bees were going home and the birds were flying past +less often. Dickon and Mary were sitting on the grass, the tea-basket was +repacked ready to be taken back to the house, and Colin was lying against his +cushions with his heavy locks pushed back from his forehead and his face +looking quite a natural color. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t want this afternoon to go,” he said; “but I +shall come back tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after, and the day +after.” +</p> + +<p> +“You’ll get plenty of fresh air, won’t you?” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m going to get nothing else,” he answered. +“I’ve seen the spring now and I’m going to see the summer. +I’m going to see everything grow here. I’m going to grow here +myself.” +</p> + +<p> +“That tha’ will,” said Dickon. “Us’ll have thee +walkin’ about here an’ diggin’ same as other folk afore +long.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin flushed tremendously. +</p> + +<p> +“Walk!” he said. “Dig! Shall I?” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon’s glance at him was delicately cautious. Neither he nor Mary had +ever asked if anything was the matter with his legs. +</p> + +<p> +“For sure tha’ will,” he said stoutly. +“Tha—tha’s got legs o’ thine own, same as other +folks!” +</p> + +<p> +Mary was rather frightened until she heard Colin’s answer. +</p> + +<p> +“Nothing really ails them,” he said, “but they are so thin +and weak. They shake so that I’m afraid to try to stand on them.” +</p> + +<p> +Both Mary and Dickon drew a relieved breath. +</p> + +<p> +“When tha’ stops bein’ afraid tha’lt stand on +’em,” Dickon said with renewed cheer. “An’ tha’lt +stop bein’ afraid in a bit.” +</p> + +<p> +“I shall?” said Colin, and he lay still as if he were wondering +about things. +</p> + +<p> +They were really very quiet for a little while. The sun was dropping lower. It +was that hour when everything stills itself, and they really had had a busy and +exciting afternoon. Colin looked as if he were resting luxuriously. Even the +creatures had ceased moving about and had drawn together and were resting near +them. Soot had perched on a low branch and drawn up one leg and dropped the +gray film drowsily over his eyes. Mary privately thought he looked as if he +might snore in a minute. +</p> + +<p> +In the midst of this stillness it was rather startling when Colin half lifted +his head and exclaimed in a loud suddenly alarmed whisper: +</p> + +<p> +“Who is that man?” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon and Mary scrambled to their feet. +</p> + +<p> +“Man!” they both cried in low quick voices. +</p> + +<p> +Colin pointed to the high wall. +</p> + +<p> +“Look!” he whispered excitedly. “Just look!” +</p> + +<p> +Mary and Dickon wheeled about and looked. There was Ben Weatherstaff’s +indignant face glaring at them over the wall from the top of a ladder! He +actually shook his fist at Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“If I wasn’t a bachelder, an’ tha’ was a wench o’ +mine,” he cried, “I’d give thee a hidin’!” +</p> + +<p> +He mounted another step threateningly as if it were his energetic intention to +jump down and deal with her; but as she came toward him he evidently thought +better of it and stood on the top step of his ladder shaking his fist down at +her. +</p> + +<p> +“I never thowt much o’ thee!” he harangued. “I +couldna’ abide thee th’ first time I set eyes on thee. A scrawny +buttermilk-faced young besom, allus askin’ questions an’ +pokin’ tha’ nose where it wasna, wanted. I never knowed how +tha’ got so thick wi’ me. If it hadna’ been for th’ +robin— Drat him—” +</p> + +<p> +“Ben Weatherstaff,” called out Mary, finding her breath. She stood +below him and called up to him with a sort of gasp. “Ben Weatherstaff, it +was the robin who showed me the way!” +</p> + +<p> +Then it did seem as if Ben really would scramble down on her side of the wall, +he was so outraged. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ young bad ’un!” he called down at her. +“Layin’ tha’ badness on a robin—not but what he’s +impidint enow for anythin’. Him showin’ thee th’ way! Him! +Eh! tha’ young nowt”—she could see his next words burst out +because he was overpowered by curiosity—“however i’ this +world did tha’ get in?” +</p> + +<p> +“It was the robin who showed me the way,” she protested +obstinately. “He didn’t know he was doing it but he did. And I +can’t tell you from here while you’re shaking your fist at +me.” +</p> + +<p> +He stopped shaking his fist very suddenly at that very moment and his jaw +actually dropped as he stared over her head at something he saw coming over the +grass toward him. +</p> + +<p> +At the first sound of his torrent of words Colin had been so surprised that he +had only sat up and listened as if he were spellbound. But in the midst of it +he had recovered himself and beckoned imperiously to Dickon. +</p> + +<p> +“Wheel me over there!” he commanded. “Wheel me quite close +and stop right in front of him!” +</p> + +<p> +And this, if you please, this is what Ben Weatherstaff beheld and which made +his jaw drop. A wheeled chair with luxurious cushions and robes which came +toward him looking rather like some sort of State Coach because a young Rajah +leaned back in it with royal command in his great black-rimmed eyes and a thin +white hand extended haughtily toward him. And it stopped right under Ben +Weatherstaff’s nose. It was really no wonder his mouth dropped open. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you know who I am?” demanded the Rajah. +</p> + +<p> +How Ben Weatherstaff stared! His red old eyes fixed themselves on what was +before him as if he were seeing a ghost. He gazed and gazed and gulped a lump +down his throat and did not say a word. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you know who I am?” demanded Colin still more imperiously. +“Answer!” +</p> + +<p> +Ben Weatherstaff put his gnarled hand up and passed it over his eyes and over +his forehead and then he did answer in a queer shaky voice. +</p> + +<p> +“Who tha’ art?” he said. “Aye, that I +do—wi’ tha’ mother’s eyes starin’ at me out +o’ tha’ face. Lord knows how tha’ come here. But tha’rt +th’ poor cripple.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin forgot that he had ever had a back. His face flushed scarlet and he sat +bolt upright. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m not a cripple!” he cried out furiously. “I’m +not!” +</p> + +<p> +“He’s not!” cried Mary, almost shouting up the wall in her +fierce indignation. “He’s not got a lump as big as a pin! I looked +and there was none there—not one!” +</p> + +<p> +Ben Weatherstaff passed his hand over his forehead again and gazed as if he +could never gaze enough. His hand shook and his mouth shook and his voice +shook. He was an ignorant old man and a tactless old man and he could only +remember the things he had heard. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’—tha’ hasn’t got a crooked back?” he +said hoarsely. +</p> + +<p> +“No!” shouted Colin. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’—tha’ hasn’t got crooked legs?” +quavered Ben more hoarsely yet. +</p> + +<p> +It was too much. The strength which Colin usually threw into his tantrums +rushed through him now in a new way. Never yet had he been accused of crooked +legs—even in whispers—and the perfectly simple belief in their +existence which was revealed by Ben Weatherstaff’s voice was more than +Rajah flesh and blood could endure. His anger and insulted pride made him +forget everything but this one moment and filled him with a power he had never +known before, an almost unnatural strength. +</p> + +<p> +“Come here!” he shouted to Dickon, and he actually began to tear +the coverings off his lower limbs and disentangle himself. “Come here! +Come here! This minute!” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon was by his side in a second. Mary caught her breath in a short gasp and +felt herself turn pale. +</p> + +<p> +“He can do it! He can do it! He can do it! He can!” she gabbled +over to herself under her breath as fast as ever she could. +</p> + +<p> +There was a brief fierce scramble, the rugs were tossed on the ground, Dickon +held Colin’s arm, the thin legs were out, the thin feet were on the +grass. Colin was standing upright—upright—as straight as an arrow +and looking strangely tall—his head thrown back and his strange eyes +flashing lightning. +</p> + +<p> +“Look at me!” he flung up at Ben Weatherstaff. “Just look at +me—you! Just look at me!” +</p> + +<p> +“He’s as straight as I am!” cried Dickon. “He’s +as straight as any lad i’ Yorkshire!” +</p> + +<p> +What Ben Weatherstaff did Mary thought queer beyond measure. He choked and +gulped and suddenly tears ran down his weather-wrinkled cheeks as he struck his +old hands together. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” he burst forth, “th’ lies folk tells! +Tha’rt as thin as a lath an’ as white as a wraith, but +there’s not a knob on thee. Tha’lt make a mon yet. God bless +thee!” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon held Colin’s arm strongly but the boy had not begun to falter. He +stood straighter and straighter and looked Ben Weatherstaff in the face. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m your master,” he said, “when my father is away. +And you are to obey me. This is my garden. Don’t dare to say a word about +it! You get down from that ladder and go out to the Long Walk and Miss Mary +will meet you and bring you here. I want to talk to you. We did not want you, +but now you will have to be in the secret. Be quick!” +</p> + +<p> +Ben Weatherstaff’s crabbed old face was still wet with that one queer +rush of tears. It seemed as if he could not take his eyes from thin straight +Colin standing on his feet with his head thrown back. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! lad,” he almost whispered. “Eh! my lad!” And then +remembering himself he suddenly touched his hat gardener fashion and said, +“Yes, sir! Yes, sir!” and obediently disappeared as he descended +the ladder. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap22"></a>CHAPTER XXII.<br /> +WHEN THE SUN WENT DOWN</h2> + +<p> +When his head was out of sight Colin turned to Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Go and meet him,” he said; and Mary flew across the grass to the +door under the ivy. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon was watching him with sharp eyes. There were scarlet spots on his cheeks +and he looked amazing, but he showed no signs of falling. +</p> + +<p> +“I can stand,” he said, and his head was still held up and he said +it quite grandly. +</p> + +<p> +“I told thee tha’ could as soon as tha’ stopped bein’ +afraid,” answered Dickon. “An’ tha’s stopped.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, I’ve stopped,” said Colin. +</p> + +<p> +Then suddenly he remembered something Mary had said. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you making Magic?” he asked sharply. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon’s curly mouth spread in a cheerful grin. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’s doin’ Magic thysel’,” he said. +“It’s same Magic as made these ’ere work out o’ +th’ earth,” and he touched with his thick boot a clump of crocuses +in the grass. +</p> + +<p> +Colin looked down at them. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye,” he said slowly, “there couldna’ be bigger Magic +than that there—there couldna’ be.” +</p> + +<p> +He drew himself up straighter than ever. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m going to walk to that tree,” he said, pointing to one a +few feet away from him. “I’m going to be standing when Weatherstaff +comes here. I can rest against the tree if I like. When I want to sit down I +will sit down, but not before. Bring a rug from the chair.” +</p> + +<p> +He walked to the tree and though Dickon held his arm he was wonderfully steady. +When he stood against the tree trunk it was not too plain that he supported +himself against it, and he still held himself so straight that he looked tall. +</p> + +<p> +When Ben Weatherstaff came through the door in the wall he saw him standing +there and he heard Mary muttering something under her breath. +</p> + +<p> +“What art sayin’?” he asked rather testily because he did not +want his attention distracted from the long thin straight boy figure and proud +face. +</p> + +<p> +But she did not tell him. What she was saying was this: +</p> + +<p> +“You can do it! You can do it! I told you you could! You can do it! You +can do it! You <i>can!</i>” +</p> + +<p> +She was saying it to Colin because she wanted to make Magic and keep him on his +feet looking like that. She could not bear that he should give in before Ben +Weatherstaff. He did not give in. She was uplifted by a sudden feeling that he +looked quite beautiful in spite of his thinness. He fixed his eyes on Ben +Weatherstaff in his funny imperious way. +</p> + +<p> +“Look at me!” he commanded. “Look at me all over! Am I a +hunchback? Have I got crooked legs?” +</p> + +<p> +Ben Weatherstaff had not quite got over his emotion, but he had recovered a +little and answered almost in his usual way. +</p> + +<p> +“Not tha’,” he said. “Nowt o’ th’ sort. +What’s tha’ been doin’ with thysel’—hidin’ +out o’ sight an’ lettin’ folk think tha’ was cripple +an’ half-witted?” +</p> + +<p> +“Half-witted!” said Colin angrily. “Who thought that?” +</p> + +<p> +“Lots o’ fools,” said Ben. “Th’ world’s +full o’ jackasses brayin’ an’ they never bray nowt but lies. +What did tha’ shut thysel’ up for?” +</p> + +<p> +“Everyone thought I was going to die,” said Colin shortly. +“I’m not!” +</p> + +<p> +And he said it with such decision Ben Weatherstaff looked him over, up and +down, down and up. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ die!” he said with dry exultation. “Nowt o’ +th’ sort! Tha’s got too much pluck in thee. When I seed thee put +tha’ legs on th’ ground in such a hurry I knowed tha’ was all +right. Sit thee down on th’ rug a bit young Mester an’ give me thy +orders.” +</p> + +<p> +There was a queer mixture of crabbed tenderness and shrewd understanding in his +manner. Mary had poured out speech as rapidly as she could as they had come +down the Long Walk. The chief thing to be remembered, she had told him, was +that Colin was getting well—getting well. The garden was doing it. No one +must let him remember about having humps and dying. +</p> + +<p> +The Rajah condescended to seat himself on a rug under the tree. +</p> + +<p> +“What work do you do in the gardens, Weatherstaff?” he inquired. +</p> + +<p> +“Anythin’ I’m told to do,” answered old Ben. +“I’m kep’ on by favor—because she liked me.” +</p> + +<p> +“She?” said Colin. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ mother,” answered Ben Weatherstaff. +</p> + +<p> +“My mother?” said Colin, and he looked about him quietly. +“This was her garden, wasn’t it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, it was that!” and Ben Weatherstaff looked about him too. +“She were main fond of it.” +</p> + +<p> +“It is my garden now. I am fond of it. I shall come here every +day,” announced Colin. “But it is to be a secret. My orders are +that no one is to know that we come here. Dickon and my cousin have worked and +made it come alive. I shall send for you sometimes to help—but you must +come when no one can see you.” +</p> + +<p> +Ben Weatherstaff’s face twisted itself in a dry old smile. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve come here before when no one saw me,” he said. +</p> + +<p> +“What!” exclaimed Colin. “When?” +</p> + +<p> +“Th’ last time I was here,” rubbing his chin and looking +round, “was about two year’ ago.” +</p> + +<p> +“But no one has been in it for ten years!” cried Colin. +</p> + +<p> +“There was no door!” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m no one,” said old Ben dryly. “An’ I +didn’t come through th’ door. I come over th’ wall. Th’ +rheumatics held me back th’ last two year’.” +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ come an’ did a bit o’ prunin’!” cried +Dickon. “I couldn’t make out how it had been done.” +</p> + +<p> +“She was so fond of it—she was!” said Ben Weatherstaff +slowly. “An’ she was such a pretty young thing. She says to me +once, ‘Ben,’ says she laughin’, ‘if ever I’m ill +or if I go away you must take care of my roses.’ When she did go away +th’ orders was no one was ever to come nigh. But I come,” with +grumpy obstinacy. “Over th’ wall I come—until th’ +rheumatics stopped me—an’ I did a bit o’ work once a year. +She’d gave her order first.” +</p> + +<p> +“It wouldn’t have been as wick as it is if tha’ hadn’t +done it,” said Dickon. “I did wonder.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m glad you did it, Weatherstaff,” said Colin. +“You’ll know how to keep the secret.” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, I’ll know, sir,” answered Ben. “An’ +it’ll be easier for a man wi’ rheumatics to come in at th’ +door.” +</p> + +<p> +On the grass near the tree Mary had dropped her trowel. Colin stretched out his +hand and took it up. An odd expression came into his face and he began to +scratch at the earth. His thin hand was weak enough but presently as they +watched him—Mary with quite breathless interest—he drove the end of +the trowel into the soil and turned some over. +</p> + +<p> +“You can do it! You can do it!” said Mary to herself. “I tell +you, you can!” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon’s round eyes were full of eager curiousness but he said not a +word. Ben Weatherstaff looked on with interested face. +</p> + +<p> +Colin persevered. After he had turned a few trowelfuls of soil he spoke +exultantly to Dickon in his best Yorkshire. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ said as tha’d have me walkin’ about here same as +other folk—an’ tha’ said tha’d have me diggin’. I +thowt tha’ was just leein’ to please me. This is only th’ +first day an’ I’ve walked—an’ here I am +diggin’.” +</p> + +<p> +Ben Weatherstaff’s mouth fell open again when he heard him, but he ended +by chuckling. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” he said, “that sounds as if tha’d got wits enow. +Tha’rt a Yorkshire lad for sure. An’ tha’rt diggin’, +too. How’d tha’ like to plant a bit o’ somethin’? I can +get thee a rose in a pot.” +</p> + +<p> +“Go and get it!” said Colin, digging excitedly. “Quick! +Quick!” +</p> + +<p> +It was done quickly enough indeed. Ben Weatherstaff went his way forgetting +rheumatics. Dickon took his spade and dug the hole deeper and wider than a new +digger with thin white hands could make it. Mary slipped out to run and bring +back a watering-can. When Dickon had deepened the hole Colin went on turning +the soft earth over and over. He looked up at the sky, flushed and glowing with +the strangely new exercise, slight as it was. +</p> + +<p> +“I want to do it before the sun goes quite—quite down,” he +said. +</p> + +<p> +Mary thought that perhaps the sun held back a few minutes just on purpose. Ben +Weatherstaff brought the rose in its pot from the greenhouse. He hobbled over +the grass as fast as he could. He had begun to be excited, too. He knelt down +by the hole and broke the pot from the mould. +</p> + +<p> +“Here, lad,” he said, handing the plant to Colin. “Set it in +the earth thysel’ same as th’ king does when he goes to a new +place.” +</p> + +<p> +The thin white hands shook a little and Colin’s flush grew deeper as he +set the rose in the mould and held it while old Ben made firm the earth. It was +filled in and pressed down and made steady. Mary was leaning forward on her +hands and knees. Soot had flown down and marched forward to see what was being +done. Nut and Shell chattered about it from a cherry-tree. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s planted!” said Colin at last. “And the sun is +only slipping over the edge. Help me up, Dickon. I want to be standing when it +goes. That’s part of the Magic.” +</p> + +<p> +And Dickon helped him, and the Magic—or whatever it was—so gave him +strength that when the sun did slip over the edge and end the strange lovely +afternoon for them there he actually stood on his two feet—laughing. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap23"></a>CHAPTER XXIII.<br /> +MAGIC</h2> + +<p> +Dr. Craven had been waiting some time at the house when they returned to it. He +had indeed begun to wonder if it might not be wise to send someone out to +explore the garden paths. When Colin was brought back to his room the poor man +looked him over seriously. +</p> + +<p> +“You should not have stayed so long,” he said. “You must not +overexert yourself.” +</p> + +<p> +“I am not tired at all,” said Colin. “It has made me well. +Tomorrow I am going out in the morning as well as in the afternoon.” +</p> + +<p> +“I am not sure that I can allow it,” answered Dr. Craven. “I +am afraid it would not be wise.” +</p> + +<p> +“It would not be wise to try to stop me,” said Colin quite +seriously. “I am going.” +</p> + +<p> +Even Mary had found out that one of Colin’s chief peculiarities was that +he did not know in the least what a rude little brute he was with his way of +ordering people about. He had lived on a sort of desert island all his life and +as he had been the king of it he had made his own manners and had had no one to +compare himself with. Mary had indeed been rather like him herself and since +she had been at Misselthwaite had gradually discovered that her own manners had +not been of the kind which is usual or popular. Having made this discovery she +naturally thought it of enough interest to communicate to Colin. So she sat and +looked at him curiously for a few minutes after Dr. Craven had gone. She wanted +to make him ask her why she was doing it and of course she did. +</p> + +<p> +“What are you looking at me for?” he said. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m thinking that I am rather sorry for Dr. Craven.” +</p> + +<p> +“So am I,” said Colin calmly, but not without an air of some +satisfaction. “He won’t get Misselthwaite at all now I’m not +going to die.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m sorry for him because of that, of course,” said Mary, +“but I was thinking just then that it must have been very horrid to have +had to be polite for ten years to a boy who was always rude. I would never have +done it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Am I rude?” Colin inquired undisturbedly. +</p> + +<p> +“If you had been his own boy and he had been a slapping sort of +man,” said Mary, “he would have slapped you.” +</p> + +<p> +“But he daren’t,” said Colin. +</p> + +<p> +“No, he daren’t,” answered Mistress Mary, thinking the thing +out quite without prejudice. “Nobody ever dared to do anything you +didn’t like—because you were going to die and things like that. You +were such a poor thing.” +</p> + +<p> +“But,” announced Colin stubbornly, “I am not going to be a +poor thing. I won’t let people think I’m one. I stood on my feet +this afternoon.” +</p> + +<p> +“It is always having your own way that has made you so queer,” Mary +went on, thinking aloud. +</p> + +<p> +Colin turned his head, frowning. +</p> + +<p> +“Am I queer?” he demanded. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” answered Mary, “very. But you needn’t be +cross,” she added impartially, “because so am I queer—and so +is Ben Weatherstaff. But I am not as queer as I was before I began to like +people and before I found the garden.” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t want to be queer,” said Colin. “I am not going +to be,” and he frowned again with determination. +</p> + +<p> +He was a very proud boy. He lay thinking for a while and then Mary saw his +beautiful smile begin and gradually change his whole face. +</p> + +<p> +“I shall stop being queer,” he said, “if I go every day to +the garden. There is Magic in there—good Magic, you know, Mary. I am sure +there is.” +</p> + +<p> +“So am I,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Even if it isn’t real Magic,” Colin said, “we can +pretend it is. <i>Something</i> is there—<i>something!</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s Magic,” said Mary, “but not black. It’s as +white as snow.” +</p> + +<p> +They always called it Magic and indeed it seemed like it in the months that +followed—the wonderful months—the radiant months—the amazing +ones. Oh! the things which happened in that garden! If you have never had a +garden you cannot understand, and if you have had a garden you will know that +it would take a whole book to describe all that came to pass there. At first it +seemed that green things would never cease pushing their way through the earth, +in the grass, in the beds, even in the crevices of the walls. Then the green +things began to show buds and the buds began to unfurl and show color, every +shade of blue, every shade of purple, every tint and hue of crimson. In its +happy days flowers had been tucked away into every inch and hole and corner. +Ben Weatherstaff had seen it done and had himself scraped out mortar from +between the bricks of the wall and made pockets of earth for lovely clinging +things to grow on. Iris and white lilies rose out of the grass in sheaves, and +the green alcoves filled themselves with amazing armies of the blue and white +flower lances of tall delphiniums or columbines or campanulas. +</p> + +<p> +“She was main fond o’ them—she was,” Ben Weatherstaff +said. “She liked them things as was allus pointin’ up to th’ +blue sky, she used to tell. Not as she was one o’ them as looked down on +th’ earth—not her. She just loved it but she said as th’ blue +sky allus looked so joyful.” +</p> + +<p> +The seeds Dickon and Mary had planted grew as if fairies had tended them. +Satiny poppies of all tints danced in the breeze by the score, gaily defying +flowers which had lived in the garden for years and which it might be confessed +seemed rather to wonder how such new people had got there. And the +roses—the roses! Rising out of the grass, tangled round the sun-dial, +wreathing the tree trunks and hanging from their branches, climbing up the +walls and spreading over them with long garlands falling in cascades—they +came alive day by day, hour by hour. Fair fresh leaves, and buds—and +buds—tiny at first but swelling and working Magic until they burst and +uncurled into cups of scent delicately spilling themselves over their brims and +filling the garden air. +</p> + +<p> +Colin saw it all, watching each change as it took place. Every morning he was +brought out and every hour of each day when it didn’t rain he spent in +the garden. Even gray days pleased him. He would lie on the grass +“watching things growing,” he said. If you watched long enough, he +declared, you could see buds unsheath themselves. Also you could make the +acquaintance of strange busy insect things running about on various unknown but +evidently serious errands, sometimes carrying tiny scraps of straw or feather +or food, or climbing blades of grass as if they were trees from whose tops one +could look out to explore the country. A mole throwing up its mound at the end +of its burrow and making its way out at last with the long-nailed paws which +looked so like elfish hands, had absorbed him one whole morning. Ants’ +ways, beetles’ ways, bees’ ways, frogs’ ways, birds’ +ways, plants’ ways, gave him a new world to explore and when Dickon +revealed them all and added foxes’ ways, otters’ ways, +ferrets’ ways, squirrels’ ways, and trout’ and +water-rats’ and badgers’ ways, there was no end to the things to +talk about and think over. +</p> + +<p> +And this was not the half of the Magic. The fact that he had really once stood +on his feet had set Colin thinking tremendously and when Mary told him of the +spell she had worked he was excited and approved of it greatly. He talked of it +constantly. +</p> + +<p> +“Of course there must be lots of Magic in the world,” he said +wisely one day, “but people don’t know what it is like or how to +make it. Perhaps the beginning is just to say nice things are going to happen +until you make them happen. I am going to try and experiment.” +</p> + +<p> +The next morning when they went to the secret garden he sent at once for Ben +Weatherstaff. Ben came as quickly as he could and found the Rajah standing on +his feet under a tree and looking very grand but also very beautifully smiling. +</p> + +<p> +“Good morning, Ben Weatherstaff,” he said. “I want you and +Dickon and Miss Mary to stand in a row and listen to me because I am going to +tell you something very important.” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, aye, sir!” answered Ben Weatherstaff, touching his forehead. +(One of the long concealed charms of Ben Weatherstaff was that in his boyhood +he had once run away to sea and had made voyages. So he could reply like a +sailor.) +</p> + +<p> +“I am going to try a scientific experiment,” explained the Rajah. +“When I grow up I am going to make great scientific discoveries and I am +going to begin now with this experiment.” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, aye, sir!” said Ben Weatherstaff promptly, though this was +the first time he had heard of great scientific discoveries. +</p> + +<p> +It was the first time Mary had heard of them, either, but even at this stage +she had begun to realize that, queer as he was, Colin had read about a great +many singular things and was somehow a very convincing sort of boy. When he +held up his head and fixed his strange eyes on you it seemed as if you believed +him almost in spite of yourself though he was only ten years old—going on +eleven. At this moment he was especially convincing because he suddenly felt +the fascination of actually making a sort of speech like a grown-up person. +</p> + +<p> +“The great scientific discoveries I am going to make,” he went on, +“will be about Magic. Magic is a great thing and scarcely anyone knows +anything about it except a few people in old books—and Mary a little, +because she was born in India where there are fakirs. I believe Dickon knows +some Magic, but perhaps he doesn’t know he knows it. He charms animals +and people. I would never have let him come to see me if he had not been an +animal charmer—which is a boy charmer, too, because a boy is an animal. I +am sure there is Magic in everything, only we have not sense enough to get hold +of it and make it do things for us—like electricity and horses and +steam.” +</p> + +<p> +This sounded so imposing that Ben Weatherstaff became quite excited and really +could not keep still. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, aye, sir,” he said and he began to stand up quite straight. +</p> + +<p> +“When Mary found this garden it looked quite dead,” the orator +proceeded. “Then something began pushing things up out of the soil and +making things out of nothing. One day things weren’t there and another +they were. I had never watched things before and it made me feel very curious. +Scientific people are always curious and I am going to be scientific. I keep +saying to myself, ‘What is it? What is it?’ It’s something. +It can’t be nothing! I don’t know its name so I call it Magic. I +have never seen the sun rise but Mary and Dickon have and from what they tell +me I am sure that is Magic too. Something pushes it up and draws it. Sometimes +since I’ve been in the garden I’ve looked up through the trees at +the sky and I have had a strange feeling of being happy as if something were +pushing and drawing in my chest and making me breathe fast. Magic is always +pushing and drawing and making things out of nothing. Everything is made out of +Magic, leaves and trees, flowers and birds, badgers and foxes and squirrels and +people. So it must be all around us. In this garden—in all the places. +The Magic in this garden has made me stand up and know I am going to live to be +a man. I am going to make the scientific experiment of trying to get some and +put it in myself and make it push and draw me and make me strong. I don’t +know how to do it but I think that if you keep thinking about it and calling it +perhaps it will come. Perhaps that is the first baby way to get it. When I was +going to try to stand that first time Mary kept saying to herself as fast as +she could, ‘You can do it! You can do it!’ and I did. I had to try +myself at the same time, of course, but her Magic helped me—and so did +Dickon’s. Every morning and evening and as often in the daytime as I can +remember I am going to say, ‘Magic is in me! Magic is making me well! I +am going to be as strong as Dickon, as strong as Dickon!’ And you must +all do it, too. That is my experiment Will you help, Ben Weatherstaff?” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, aye, sir!” said Ben Weatherstaff. “Aye, aye!” +</p> + +<p> +“If you keep doing it every day as regularly as soldiers go through drill +we shall see what will happen and find out if the experiment succeeds. You +learn things by saying them over and over and thinking about them until they +stay in your mind forever and I think it will be the same with Magic. If you +keep calling it to come to you and help you it will get to be part of you and +it will stay and do things.” +</p> + +<p> +“I once heard an officer in India tell my mother that there were fakirs +who said words over and over thousands of times,” said Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve heard Jem Fettleworth’s wife say th’ same thing +over thousands o’ times—callin’ Jem a drunken brute,” +said Ben Weatherstaff dryly. “Summat allus come o’ that, sure +enough. He gave her a good hidin’ an’ went to th’ Blue Lion +an’ got as drunk as a lord.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin drew his brows together and thought a few minutes. Then he cheered up. +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” he said, “you see something did come of it. She used +the wrong Magic until she made him beat her. If she’d used the right +Magic and had said something nice perhaps he wouldn’t have got as drunk +as a lord and perhaps—perhaps he might have bought her a new +bonnet.” +</p> + +<p> +Ben Weatherstaff chuckled and there was shrewd admiration in his little old +eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’rt a clever lad as well as a straight-legged one, Mester +Colin,” he said. “Next time I see Bess Fettleworth I’ll give +her a bit of a hint o’ what Magic will do for her. She’d be rare +an’ pleased if th’ sinetifik ’speriment +worked—an’ so ’ud Jem.” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon had stood listening to the lecture, his round eyes shining with curious +delight. Nut and Shell were on his shoulders and he held a long-eared white +rabbit in his arm and stroked and stroked it softly while it laid its ears +along its back and enjoyed itself. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you think the experiment will work?” Colin asked him, wondering +what he was thinking. He so often wondered what Dickon was thinking when he saw +him looking at him or at one of his “creatures” with his happy wide +smile. +</p> + +<p> +He smiled now and his smile was wider than usual. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye,” he answered, “that I do. It’ll work same as +th’ seeds do when th’ sun shines on ’em. It’ll work for +sure. Shall us begin it now?” +</p> + +<p> +Colin was delighted and so was Mary. Fired by recollections of fakirs and +devotees in illustrations Colin suggested that they should all sit cross-legged +under the tree which made a canopy. +</p> + +<p> +“It will be like sitting in a sort of temple,” said Colin. +“I’m rather tired and I want to sit down.” +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” said Dickon, “tha’ mustn’t begin by +sayin’ tha’rt tired. Tha’ might spoil th’ Magic.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin turned and looked at him—into his innocent round eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“That’s true,” he said slowly. “I must only think of +the Magic.” +</p> + +<p> +It all seemed most majestic and mysterious when they sat down in their circle. +Ben Weatherstaff felt as if he had somehow been led into appearing at a +prayer-meeting. Ordinarily he was very fixed in being what he called +“agen’ prayer-meetin’s” but this being the +Rajah’s affair he did not resent it and was indeed inclined to be +gratified at being called upon to assist. Mistress Mary felt solemnly +enraptured. Dickon held his rabbit in his arm, and perhaps he made some +charmer’s signal no one heard, for when he sat down, cross-legged like +the rest, the crow, the fox, the squirrels and the lamb slowly drew near and +made part of the circle, settling each into a place of rest as if of their own +desire. +</p> + +<p> +“The ‘creatures’ have come,” said Colin gravely. +“They want to help us.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin really looked quite beautiful, Mary thought. He held his head high as if +he felt like a sort of priest and his strange eyes had a wonderful look in +them. The light shone on him through the tree canopy. +</p> + +<p> +“Now we will begin,” he said. “Shall we sway backward and +forward, Mary, as if we were dervishes?” +</p> + +<p> +“I canna’ do no swayin’ back’ard and +for’ard,” said Ben Weatherstaff. “I’ve got th’ +rheumatics.” +</p> + +<p> +“The Magic will take them away,” said Colin in a High Priest tone, +“but we won’t sway until it has done it. We will only chant.” +</p> + +<p> +“I canna’ do no chantin’” said Ben Weatherstaff a +trifle testily. “They turned me out o’ th’ church choir +th’ only time I ever tried it.” +</p> + +<p> +No one smiled. They were all too much in earnest. Colin’s face was not +even crossed by a shadow. He was thinking only of the Magic. +</p> + +<p> +“Then I will chant,” he said. And he began, looking like a strange +boy spirit. “The sun is shining—the sun is shining. That is the +Magic. The flowers are growing—the roots are stirring. That is the Magic. +Being alive is the Magic—being strong is the Magic. The Magic is in +me—the Magic is in me. It is in me—it is in me. It’s in +everyone of us. It’s in Ben Weatherstaff’s back. Magic! Magic! Come +and help!” +</p> + +<p> +He said it a great many times—not a thousand times but quite a goodly +number. Mary listened entranced. She felt as if it were at once queer and +beautiful and she wanted him to go on and on. Ben Weatherstaff began to feel +soothed into a sort of dream which was quite agreeable. The humming of the bees +in the blossoms mingled with the chanting voice and drowsily melted into a +doze. Dickon sat cross-legged with his rabbit asleep on his arm and a hand +resting on the lamb’s back. Soot had pushed away a squirrel and huddled +close to him on his shoulder, the gray film dropped over his eyes. At last +Colin stopped. +</p> + +<p> +“Now I am going to walk round the garden,” he announced. +</p> + +<p> +Ben Weatherstaff’s head had just dropped forward and he lifted it with a +jerk. +</p> + +<p> +“You have been asleep,” said Colin. +</p> + +<p> +“Nowt o’ th’ sort,” mumbled Ben. “Th’ +sermon was good enow—but I’m bound to get out afore th’ +collection.” +</p> + +<p> +He was not quite awake yet. +</p> + +<p> +“You’re not in church,” said Colin. +</p> + +<p> +“Not me,” said Ben, straightening himself. “Who said I were? +I heard every bit of it. You said th’ Magic was in my back. Th’ +doctor calls it rheumatics.” +</p> + +<p> +The Rajah waved his hand. +</p> + +<p> +“That was the wrong Magic,” he said. “You will get better. +You have my permission to go to your work. But come back tomorrow.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’d like to see thee walk round the garden,” grunted Ben. +</p> + +<p> +It was not an unfriendly grunt, but it was a grunt. In fact, being a stubborn +old party and not having entire faith in Magic he had made up his mind that if +he were sent away he would climb his ladder and look over the wall so that he +might be ready to hobble back if there were any stumbling. +</p> + +<p> +The Rajah did not object to his staying and so the procession was formed. It +really did look like a procession. Colin was at its head with Dickon on one +side and Mary on the other. Ben Weatherstaff walked behind, and the +“creatures” trailed after them, the lamb and the fox cub keeping +close to Dickon, the white rabbit hopping along or stopping to nibble and Soot +following with the solemnity of a person who felt himself in charge. +</p> + +<p> +It was a procession which moved slowly but with dignity. Every few yards it +stopped to rest. Colin leaned on Dickon’s arm and privately Ben +Weatherstaff kept a sharp lookout, but now and then Colin took his hand from +its support and walked a few steps alone. His head was held up all the time and +he looked very grand. +</p> + +<p> +“The Magic is in me!” he kept saying. “The Magic is making me +strong! I can feel it! I can feel it!” +</p> + +<p> +It seemed very certain that something was upholding and uplifting him. He sat +on the seats in the alcoves, and once or twice he sat down on the grass and +several times he paused in the path and leaned on Dickon, but he would not give +up until he had gone all round the garden. When he returned to the canopy tree +his cheeks were flushed and he looked triumphant. +</p> + +<p> +“I did it! The Magic worked!” he cried. “That is my first +scientific discovery.” +</p> + +<p> +“What will Dr. Craven say?” broke out Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“He won’t say anything,” Colin answered, “because he +will not be told. This is to be the biggest secret of all. No one is to know +anything about it until I have grown so strong that I can walk and run like any +other boy. I shall come here every day in my chair and I shall be taken back in +it. I won’t have people whispering and asking questions and I won’t +let my father hear about it until the experiment has quite succeeded. Then +sometime when he comes back to Misselthwaite I shall just walk into his study +and say ‘Here I am; I am like any other boy. I am quite well and I shall +live to be a man. It has been done by a scientific experiment.’” +</p> + +<p> +“He will think he is in a dream,” cried Mary. “He won’t +believe his eyes.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin flushed triumphantly. He had made himself believe that he was going to +get well, which was really more than half the battle, if he had been aware of +it. And the thought which stimulated him more than any other was this imagining +what his father would look like when he saw that he had a son who was as +straight and strong as other fathers’ sons. One of his darkest miseries +in the unhealthy morbid past days had been his hatred of being a sickly +weak-backed boy whose father was afraid to look at him. +</p> + +<p> +“He’ll be obliged to believe them,” he said. +</p> + +<p> +“One of the things I am going to do, after the Magic works and before I +begin to make scientific discoveries, is to be an athlete.” +</p> + +<p> +“We shall have thee takin’ to boxin’ in a week or so,” +said Ben Weatherstaff. “Tha’lt end wi’ winnin’ +th’ Belt an’ bein’ champion prize-fighter of all +England.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin fixed his eyes on him sternly. +</p> + +<p> +“Weatherstaff,” he said, “that is disrespectful. You must not +take liberties because you are in the secret. However much the Magic works I +shall not be a prize-fighter. I shall be a Scientific Discoverer.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ax pardon—ax pardon, sir” answered Ben, touching his +forehead in salute. “I ought to have seed it wasn’t a jokin’ +matter,” but his eyes twinkled and secretly he was immensely pleased. He +really did not mind being snubbed since the snubbing meant that the lad was +gaining strength and spirit. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap24"></a>CHAPTER XXIV.<br /> +“LET THEM LAUGH”</h2> + +<p> +The secret garden was not the only one Dickon worked in. Round the cottage on +the moor there was a piece of ground enclosed by a low wall of rough stones. +Early in the morning and late in the fading twilight and on all the days Colin +and Mary did not see him, Dickon worked there planting or tending potatoes and +cabbages, turnips and carrots and herbs for his mother. In the company of his +“creatures” he did wonders there and was never tired of doing them, +it seemed. While he dug or weeded he whistled or sang bits of Yorkshire moor +songs or talked to Soot or Captain or the brothers and sisters he had taught to +help him. +</p> + +<p> +“We’d never get on as comfortable as we do,” Mrs. Sowerby +said, “if it wasn’t for Dickon’s garden. Anything’ll +grow for him. His ’taters and cabbages is twice th’ size of anyone +else’s an’ they’ve got a flavor with ’em as +nobody’s has.” +</p> + +<p> +When she found a moment to spare she liked to go out and talk to him. After +supper there was still a long clear twilight to work in and that was her quiet +time. She could sit upon the low rough wall and look on and hear stories of the +day. She loved this time. There were not only vegetables in this garden. Dickon +had bought penny packages of flower seeds now and then and sown bright +sweet-scented things among gooseberry bushes and even cabbages and he grew +borders of mignonette and pinks and pansies and things whose seeds he could +save year after year or whose roots would bloom each spring and spread in time +into fine clumps. The low wall was one of the prettiest things in Yorkshire +because he had tucked moorland foxglove and ferns and rock-cress and hedgerow +flowers into every crevice until only here and there glimpses of the stones +were to be seen. +</p> + +<p> +“All a chap’s got to do to make ’em thrive, mother,” he +would say, “is to be friends with ’em for sure. They’re just +like th’ ‘creatures.’ If they’re thirsty give ’em +drink and if they’re hungry give ’em a bit o’ food. They want +to live same as we do. If they died I should feel as if I’d been a bad +lad and somehow treated them heartless.” +</p> + +<p> +It was in these twilight hours that Mrs. Sowerby heard of all that happened at +Misselthwaite Manor. At first she was only told that “Mester Colin” +had taken a fancy to going out into the grounds with Miss Mary and that it was +doing him good. But it was not long before it was agreed between the two +children that Dickon’s mother might “come into the secret.” +Somehow it was not doubted that she was “safe for sure.” +</p> + +<p> +So one beautiful still evening Dickon told the whole story, with all the +thrilling details of the buried key and the robin and the gray haze which had +seemed like deadness and the secret Mistress Mary had planned never to reveal. +The coming of Dickon and how it had been told to him, the doubt of Mester Colin +and the final drama of his introduction to the hidden domain, combined with the +incident of Ben Weatherstaff’s angry face peering over the wall and +Mester Colin’s sudden indignant strength, made Mrs. Sowerby’s +nice-looking face quite change color several times. +</p> + +<p> +“My word!” she said. “It was a good thing that little lass +came to th’ Manor. It’s been th’ makin’ o’ her +an’ th’ savin, o’ him. Standin’ on his feet! An’ +us all thinkin’ he was a poor half-witted lad with not a straight bone in +him.” +</p> + +<p> +She asked a great many questions and her blue eyes were full of deep thinking. +</p> + +<p> +“What do they make of it at th’ Manor—him being so well +an’ cheerful an’ never complainin’?” she inquired. +</p> + +<p> +“They don’t know what to make of it,” answered Dickon. +“Every day as comes round his face looks different. It’s +fillin’ out and doesn’t look so sharp an’ th’ waxy +color is goin’. But he has to do his bit o’ +complainin’,” with a highly entertained grin. +</p> + +<p> +“What for, i’ Mercy’s name?” asked Mrs. Sowerby. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon chuckled. +</p> + +<p> +“He does it to keep them from guessin’ what’s happened. If +the doctor knew he’d found out he could stand on his feet he’d +likely write and tell Mester Craven. Mester Colin’s savin’ +th’ secret to tell himself. He’s goin’ to practise his Magic +on his legs every day till his father comes back an’ then he’s +goin’ to march into his room an’ show him he’s as straight as +other lads. But him an’ Miss Mary thinks it’s best plan to do a bit +o’ groanin’ an’ frettin’ now an’ then to throw +folk off th’ scent.” +</p> + +<p> +Mrs. Sowerby was laughing a low comfortable laugh long before he had finished +his last sentence. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh!” she said, “that pair’s enjoyin’ +theirselves I’ll warrant. They’ll get a good bit o’ +actin’ out of it an’ there’s nothin’ children likes as +much as play actin’. Let’s hear what they do, Dickon lad.” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon stopped weeding and sat up on his heels to tell her. His eyes were +twinkling with fun. +</p> + +<p> +“Mester Colin is carried down to his chair every time he goes out,” +he explained. “An’ he flies out at John, th’ footman, for not +carryin’ him careful enough. He makes himself as helpless lookin’ +as he can an’ never lifts his head until we’re out o’ sight +o’ th’ house. An’ he grunts an’ frets a good bit when +he’s bein’ settled into his chair. Him an’ Miss Mary’s +both got to enjoyin’ it an’ when he groans an’ complains +she’ll say, ‘Poor Colin! Does it hurt you so much? Are you so weak +as that, poor Colin?’—but th’ trouble is that sometimes they +can scarce keep from burstin’ out laughin’. When we get safe into +the garden they laugh till they’ve no breath left to laugh with. +An’ they have to stuff their faces into Mester Colin’s cushions to +keep the gardeners from hearin’, if any of, ’em’s +about.” +</p> + +<p> +“Th’ more they laugh th’ better for ’em!” said +Mrs. Sowerby, still laughing herself. “Good healthy child laughin’s +better than pills any day o’ th’ year. That pair’ll plump up +for sure.” +</p> + +<p> +“They are plumpin’ up,” said Dickon. “They’re +that hungry they don’t know how to get enough to eat without makin’ +talk. Mester Colin says if he keeps sendin’ for more food they +won’t believe he’s an invalid at all. Miss Mary says she’ll +let him eat her share, but he says that if she goes hungry she’ll get +thin an’ they mun both get fat at once.” +</p> + +<p> +Mrs. Sowerby laughed so heartily at the revelation of this difficulty that she +quite rocked backward and forward in her blue cloak, and Dickon laughed with +her. +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll tell thee what, lad,” Mrs. Sowerby said when she could +speak. “I’ve thought of a way to help ’em. When tha’ +goes to ’em in th’ mornin’s tha’ shall take a pail +o’ good new milk an’ I’ll bake ’em a crusty cottage +loaf or some buns wi’ currants in ’em, same as you children like. +Nothin’s so good as fresh milk an’ bread. Then they could take off +th’ edge o’ their hunger while they were in their garden an’ +th, fine food they get indoors ’ud polish off th’ corners.” +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! mother!” said Dickon admiringly, “what a wonder +tha’ art! Tha’ always sees a way out o’ things. They was +quite in a pother yesterday. They didn’t see how they was to manage +without orderin’ up more food—they felt that empty inside.” +</p> + +<p> +“They’re two young ’uns growin’ fast, an’ +health’s comin’ back to both of ’em. Children like that feels +like young wolves an’ food’s flesh an’ blood to +’em,” said Mrs. Sowerby. Then she smiled Dickon’s own curving +smile. “Eh! but they’re enjoyin’ theirselves for sure,” +she said. +</p> + +<p> +She was quite right, the comfortable wonderful mother creature—and she +had never been more so than when she said their “play actin’” +would be their joy. Colin and Mary found it one of their most thrilling sources +of entertainment. The idea of protecting themselves from suspicion had been +unconsciously suggested to them first by the puzzled nurse and then by Dr. +Craven himself. +</p> + +<p> +“Your appetite. Is improving very much, Master Colin,” the nurse +had said one day. “You used to eat nothing, and so many things disagreed +with you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Nothing disagrees with me now” replied Colin, and then seeing the +nurse looking at him curiously he suddenly remembered that perhaps he ought not +to appear too well just yet. “At least things don’t so often +disagree with me. It’s the fresh air.” +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps it is,” said the nurse, still looking at him with a +mystified expression. “But I must talk to Dr. Craven about it.” +</p> + +<p> +“How she stared at you!” said Mary when she went away. “As if +she thought there must be something to find out.” +</p> + +<p> +“I won’t have her finding out things,” said Colin. “No +one must begin to find out yet.” +</p> + +<p> +When Dr. Craven came that morning he seemed puzzled, also. He asked a number of +questions, to Colin’s great annoyance. +</p> + +<p> +“You stay out in the garden a great deal,” he suggested. +“Where do you go?” +</p> + +<p> +Colin put on his favorite air of dignified indifference to opinion. +</p> + +<p> +“I will not let anyone know where I go,” he answered. “I go +to a place I like. Everyone has orders to keep out of the way. I won’t +be watched and stared at. You know that!” +</p> + +<p> +“You seem to be out all day but I do not think it has done you +harm—I do not think so. The nurse says that you eat much more than you +have ever done before.” +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps,” said Colin, prompted by a sudden inspiration, +“perhaps it is an unnatural appetite.” +</p> + +<p> +“I do not think so, as your food seems to agree with you,” said Dr. +Craven. “You are gaining flesh rapidly and your color is better.” +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps—perhaps I am bloated and feverish,” said Colin, +assuming a discouraging air of gloom. “People who are not going to live +are often—different.” +</p> + +<p> +Dr. Craven shook his head. He was holding Colin’s wrist and he pushed up +his sleeve and felt his arm. +</p> + +<p> +“You are not feverish,” he said thoughtfully, “and such flesh +as you have gained is healthy. If you can keep this up, my boy, we need not +talk of dying. Your father will be happy to hear of this remarkable +improvement.” +</p> + +<p> +“I won’t have him told!” Colin broke forth fiercely. +“It will only disappoint him if I get worse again—and I may get +worse this very night. I might have a raging fever. I feel as if I might be +beginning to have one now. I won’t have letters written to my +father—I won’t—I won’t! You are making me angry and you +know that is bad for me. I feel hot already. I hate being written about and +being talked over as much as I hate being stared at!” +</p> + +<p> +“Hush-h! my boy,” Dr. Craven soothed him. “Nothing shall be +written without your permission. You are too sensitive about things. You must +not undo the good which has been done.” +</p> + +<p> +He said no more about writing to Mr. Craven and when he saw the nurse he +privately warned her that such a possibility must not be mentioned to the +patient. +</p> + +<p> +“The boy is extraordinarily better,” he said. “His advance +seems almost abnormal. But of course he is doing now of his own free will what +we could not make him do before. Still, he excites himself very easily and +nothing must be said to irritate him.” +</p> + +<p> +Mary and Colin were much alarmed and talked together anxiously. From this time +dated their plan of “play actin’.” +</p> + +<p> +“I may be obliged to have a tantrum,” said Colin regretfully. +“I don’t want to have one and I’m not miserable enough now to +work myself into a big one. Perhaps I couldn’t have one at all. That lump +doesn’t come in my throat now and I keep thinking of nice things instead +of horrible ones. But if they talk about writing to my father I shall have to +do something.” +</p> + +<p> +He made up his mind to eat less, but unfortunately it was not possible to carry +out this brilliant idea when he wakened each morning with an amazing appetite +and the table near his sofa was set with a breakfast of home-made bread and +fresh butter, snow-white eggs, raspberry jam and clotted cream. Mary always +breakfasted with him and when they found themselves at the +table—particularly if there were delicate slices of sizzling ham sending +forth tempting odors from under a hot silver cover—they would look into +each other’s eyes in desperation. +</p> + +<p> +“I think we shall have to eat it all this morning, Mary,” Colin +always ended by saying. “We can send away some of the lunch and a great +deal of the dinner.” +</p> + +<p> +But they never found they could send away anything and the highly polished +condition of the empty plates returned to the pantry awakened much comment. +</p> + +<p> +“I do wish,” Colin would say also, “I do wish the slices of +ham were thicker, and one muffin each is not enough for anyone.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s enough for a person who is going to die,” answered Mary +when first she heard this, “but it’s not enough for a person who is +going to live. I sometimes feel as if I could eat three when those nice fresh +heather and gorse smells from the moor come pouring in at the open +window.” +</p> + +<p> +The morning that Dickon—after they had been enjoying themselves in the +garden for about two hours—went behind a big rosebush and brought forth +two tin pails and revealed that one was full of rich new milk with cream on the +top of it, and that the other held cottage-made currant buns folded in a clean +blue and white napkin, buns so carefully tucked in that they were still hot, +there was a riot of surprised joyfulness. What a wonderful thing for Mrs. +Sowerby to think of! What a kind, clever woman she must be! How good the buns +were! And what delicious fresh milk! +</p> + +<p> +“Magic is in her just as it is in Dickon,” said Colin. “It +makes her think of ways to do things—nice things. She is a Magic person. +Tell her we are grateful, Dickon—extremely grateful.” +</p> + +<p> +He was given to using rather grown-up phrases at times. He enjoyed them. He +liked this so much that he improved upon it. +</p> + +<p> +“Tell her she has been most bounteous and our gratitude is +extreme.” +</p> + +<p> +And then forgetting his grandeur he fell to and stuffed himself with buns and +drank milk out of the pail in copious draughts in the manner of any hungry +little boy who had been taking unusual exercise and breathing in moorland air +and whose breakfast was more than two hours behind him. +</p> + +<p> +This was the beginning of many agreeable incidents of the same kind. They +actually awoke to the fact that as Mrs. Sowerby had fourteen people to provide +food for she might not have enough to satisfy two extra appetites every day. So +they asked her to let them send some of their shillings to buy things. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon made the stimulating discovery that in the wood in the park outside the +garden where Mary had first found him piping to the wild creatures there was a +deep little hollow where you could build a sort of tiny oven with stones and +roast potatoes and eggs in it. Roasted eggs were a previously unknown luxury +and very hot potatoes with salt and fresh butter in them were fit for a +woodland king—besides being deliciously satisfying. You could buy both +potatoes and eggs and eat as many as you liked without feeling as if you were +taking food out of the mouths of fourteen people. +</p> + +<p> +Every beautiful morning the Magic was worked by the mystic circle under the +plum-tree which provided a canopy of thickening green leaves after its brief +blossom-time was ended. After the ceremony Colin always took his walking +exercise and throughout the day he exercised his newly found power at +intervals. Each day he grew stronger and could walk more steadily and cover +more ground. And each day his belief in the Magic grew stronger—as well +it might. He tried one experiment after another as he felt himself gaining +strength and it was Dickon who showed him the best things of all. +</p> + +<p> +“Yesterday,” he said one morning after an absence, “I went to +Thwaite for mother an’ near th’ Blue Cow Inn I seed Bob Haworth. +He’s the strongest chap on th’ moor. He’s the champion +wrestler an’ he can jump higher than any other chap an’ throw +th’ hammer farther. He’s gone all th’ way to Scotland for +th’ sports some years. He’s knowed me ever since I was a little +’un an’ he’s a friendly sort an’ I axed him some +questions. Th’ gentry calls him a athlete and I thought o’ thee, +Mester Colin, and I says, ‘How did tha’ make tha’ muscles +stick out that way, Bob? Did tha’ do anythin’ extra to make +thysel’ so strong?’ An’ he says ‘Well, yes, lad, I did. +A strong man in a show that came to Thwaite once showed me how to exercise my +arms an’ legs an’ every muscle in my body. An’ I says, +‘Could a delicate chap make himself stronger with ’em, Bob?’ +an’ he laughed an’ says, ‘Art tha’ th’ delicate +chap?’ an’ I says, ‘No, but I knows a young gentleman +that’s gettin’ well of a long illness an’ I wish I knowed +some o’ them tricks to tell him about.’ I didn’t say no names +an’ he didn’t ask none. He’s friendly same as I said +an’ he stood up an’ showed me good-natured like, an’ I +imitated what he did till I knowed it by heart.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin had been listening excitedly. +</p> + +<p> +“Can you show me?” he cried. “Will you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, to be sure,” Dickon answered, getting up. “But he says +tha’ mun do ’em gentle at first an’ be careful not to tire +thysel’. Rest in between times an’ take deep breaths an’ +don’t overdo.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll be careful,” said Colin. “Show me! Show me! +Dickon, you are the most Magic boy in the world!” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon stood up on the grass and slowly went through a carefully practical but +simple series of muscle exercises. Colin watched them with widening eyes. He +could do a few while he was sitting down. Presently he did a few gently while +he stood upon his already steadied feet. Mary began to do them also. Soot, who +was watching the performance, became much disturbed and left his branch and +hopped about restlessly because he could not do them too. +</p> + +<p> +From that time the exercises were part of the day’s duties as much as the +Magic was. It became possible for both Colin and Mary to do more of them each +time they tried, and such appetites were the results that but for the basket +Dickon put down behind the bush each morning when he arrived they would have +been lost. But the little oven in the hollow and Mrs. Sowerby’s bounties +were so satisfying that Mrs. Medlock and the nurse and Dr. Craven became +mystified again. You can trifle with your breakfast and seem to disdain your +dinner if you are full to the brim with roasted eggs and potatoes and richly +frothed new milk and oatcakes and buns and heather honey and clotted cream. +</p> + +<p> +“They are eating next to nothing,” said the nurse. +“They’ll die of starvation if they can’t be persuaded to take +some nourishment. And yet see how they look.” +</p> + +<p> +“Look!” exclaimed Mrs. Medlock indignantly. “Eh! I’m +moithered to death with them. They’re a pair of young Satans. Bursting +their jackets one day and the next turning up their noses at the best meals +Cook can tempt them with. Not a mouthful of that lovely young fowl and bread +sauce did they set a fork into yesterday—and the poor woman fair +<i>invented</i> a pudding for them—and back it’s sent. She almost +cried. She’s afraid she’ll be blamed if they starve themselves into +their graves.” +</p> + +<p> +Dr. Craven came and looked at Colin long and carefully, He wore an extremely +worried expression when the nurse talked with him and showed him the almost +untouched tray of breakfast she had saved for him to look at—but it was +even more worried when he sat down by Colin’s sofa and examined him. He +had been called to London on business and had not seen the boy for nearly two +weeks. When young things begin to gain health they gain it rapidly. The waxen +tinge had left, Colins skin and a warm rose showed through it; his beautiful +eyes were clear and the hollows under them and in his cheeks and temples had +filled out. His once dark, heavy locks had begun to look as if they sprang +healthily from his forehead and were soft and warm with life. His lips were +fuller and of a normal color. In fact as an imitation of a boy who was a +confirmed invalid he was a disgraceful sight. Dr. Craven held his chin in his +hand and thought him over. +</p> + +<p> +“I am sorry to hear that you do not eat anything,” he said. +“That will not do. You will lose all you have gained—and you have +gained amazingly. You ate so well a short time ago.” +</p> + +<p> +“I told you it was an unnatural appetite,” answered Colin. +</p> + +<p> +Mary was sitting on her stool nearby and she suddenly made a very queer sound +which she tried so violently to repress that she ended by almost choking. +</p> + +<p> +“What is the matter?” said Dr. Craven, turning to look at her. +</p> + +<p> +Mary became quite severe in her manner. +</p> + +<p> +“It was something between a sneeze and a cough,” she replied with +reproachful dignity, “and it got into my throat.” +</p> + +<p> +“But,” she said afterward to Colin, “I couldn’t stop +myself. It just burst out because all at once I couldn’t help remembering +that last big potato you ate and the way your mouth stretched when you bit +through that thick lovely crust with jam and clotted cream on it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Is there any way in which those children can get food secretly?” +Dr. Craven inquired of Mrs. Medlock. +</p> + +<p> +“There’s no way unless they dig it out of the earth or pick it off +the trees,” Mrs. Medlock answered. “They stay out in the grounds +all day and see no one but each other. And if they want anything different to +eat from what’s sent up to them they need only ask for it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Dr. Craven, “so long as going without food +agrees with them we need not disturb ourselves. The boy is a new +creature.” +</p> + +<p> +“So is the girl,” said Mrs. Medlock. “She’s begun to be +downright pretty since she’s filled out and lost her ugly little sour +look. Her hair’s grown thick and healthy looking and she’s got a +bright color. The glummest, ill-natured little thing she used to be and now her +and Master Colin laugh together like a pair of crazy young ones. Perhaps +they’re growing fat on that.” +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps they are,” said Dr. Craven. “Let them laugh.” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap25"></a>CHAPTER XXV.<br /> +THE CURTAIN</h2> + +<p> +And the secret garden bloomed and bloomed and every morning revealed new +miracles. In the robin’s nest there were Eggs and the robin’s mate +sat upon them keeping them warm with her feathery little breast and careful +wings. At first she was very nervous and the robin himself was indignantly +watchful. Even Dickon did not go near the close-grown corner in those days, but +waited until by the quiet working of some mysterious spell he seemed to have +conveyed to the soul of the little pair that in the garden there was nothing +which was not quite like themselves—nothing which did not understand the +wonderfulness of what was happening to them—the immense, tender, +terrible, heart-breaking beauty and solemnity of Eggs. If there had been one +person in that garden who had not known through all his or her innermost being +that if an Egg were taken away or hurt the whole world would whirl round and +crash through space and come to an end—if there had been even one who did +not feel it and act accordingly there could have been no happiness even in that +golden springtime air. But they all knew it and felt it and the robin and his +mate knew they knew it. +</p> + +<p> +At first the robin watched Mary and Colin with sharp anxiety. For some +mysterious reason he knew he need not watch Dickon. The first moment he set his +dew-bright black eye on Dickon he knew he was not a stranger but a sort of +robin without beak or feathers. He could speak robin (which is a quite distinct +language not to be mistaken for any other). To speak robin to a robin is like +speaking French to a Frenchman. Dickon always spoke it to the robin himself, so +the queer gibberish he used when he spoke to humans did not matter in the +least. The robin thought he spoke this gibberish to them because they were not +intelligent enough to understand feathered speech. His movements also were +robin. They never startled one by being sudden enough to seem dangerous or +threatening. Any robin could understand Dickon, so his presence was not even +disturbing. +</p> + +<p> +But at the outset it seemed necessary to be on guard against the other two. In +the first place the boy creature did not come into the garden on his legs. He +was pushed in on a thing with wheels and the skins of wild animals were thrown +over him. That in itself was doubtful. Then when he began to stand up and move +about he did it in a queer unaccustomed way and the others seemed to have to +help him. The robin used to secrete himself in a bush and watch this anxiously, +his head tilted first on one side and then on the other. He thought that the +slow movements might mean that he was preparing to pounce, as cats do. When +cats are preparing to pounce they creep over the ground very slowly. The robin +talked this over with his mate a great deal for a few days but after that he +decided not to speak of the subject because her terror was so great that he was +afraid it might be injurious to the Eggs. +</p> + +<p> +When the boy began to walk by himself and even to move more quickly it was an +immense relief. But for a long time—or it seemed a long time to the +robin—he was a source of some anxiety. He did not act as the other humans +did. He seemed very fond of walking but he had a way of sitting or lying down +for a while and then getting up in a disconcerting manner to begin again. +</p> + +<p> +One day the robin remembered that when he himself had been made to learn to fly +by his parents he had done much the same sort of thing. He had taken short +flights of a few yards and then had been obliged to rest. So it occurred to him +that this boy was learning to fly—or rather to walk. He mentioned this to +his mate and when he told her that the Eggs would probably conduct themselves +in the same way after they were fledged she was quite comforted and even became +eagerly interested and derived great pleasure from watching the boy over the +edge of her nest—though she always thought that the Eggs would be much +cleverer and learn more quickly. But then she said indulgently that humans were +always more clumsy and slow than Eggs and most of them never seemed really to +learn to fly at all. You never met them in the air or on tree-tops. +</p> + +<p> +After a while the boy began to move about as the others did, but all three of +the children at times did unusual things. They would stand under the trees and +move their arms and legs and heads about in a way which was neither walking nor +running nor sitting down. They went through these movements at intervals every +day and the robin was never able to explain to his mate what they were doing or +tying to do. He could only say that he was sure that the Eggs would never flap +about in such a manner; but as the boy who could speak robin so fluently was +doing the thing with them, birds could be quite sure that the actions were not +of a dangerous nature. Of course neither the robin nor his mate had ever heard +of the champion wrestler, Bob Haworth, and his exercises for making the muscles +stand out like lumps. Robins are not like human beings; their muscles are +always exercised from the first and so they develop themselves in a natural +manner. If you have to fly about to find every meal you eat, your muscles do +not become atrophied (atrophied means wasted away through want of use). +</p> + +<p> +When the boy was walking and running about and digging and weeding like the +others, the nest in the corner was brooded over by a great peace and content. +Fears for the Eggs became things of the past. Knowing that your Eggs were as +safe as if they were locked in a bank vault and the fact that you could watch +so many curious things going on made setting a most entertaining occupation. On +wet days the Eggs’ mother sometimes felt even a little dull because the +children did not come into the garden. +</p> + +<p> +But even on wet days it could not be said that Mary and Colin were dull. One +morning when the rain streamed down unceasingly and Colin was beginning to feel +a little restive, as he was obliged to remain on his sofa because it was not +safe to get up and walk about, Mary had an inspiration. +</p> + +<p> +“Now that I am a real boy,” Colin had said, “my legs and arms +and all my body are so full of Magic that I can’t keep them still. They +want to be doing things all the time. Do you know that when I waken in the +morning, Mary, when it’s quite early and the birds are just shouting +outside and everything seems just shouting for joy—even the trees and +things we can’t really hear—I feel as if I must jump out of bed and +shout myself. If I did it, just think what would happen!” +</p> + +<p> +Mary giggled inordinately. +</p> + +<p> +“The nurse would come running and Mrs. Medlock would come running and +they would be sure you had gone crazy and they’d send for the +doctor,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +Colin giggled himself. He could see how they would all look—how horrified +by his outbreak and how amazed to see him standing upright. +</p> + +<p> +“I wish my father would come home,” he said. “I want to tell +him myself. I’m always thinking about it—but we couldn’t go +on like this much longer. I can’t stand lying still and pretending, and +besides I look too different. I wish it wasn’t raining today.” +</p> + +<p> +It was then Mistress Mary had her inspiration. +</p> + +<p> +“Colin,” she began mysteriously, “do you know how many rooms +there are in this house?” +</p> + +<p> +“About a thousand, I suppose,” he answered. +</p> + +<p> +“There’s about a hundred no one ever goes into,” said Mary. +“And one rainy day I went and looked into ever so many of them. No one +ever knew, though Mrs. Medlock nearly found me out. I lost my way when I was +coming back and I stopped at the end of your corridor. That was the second time +I heard you crying.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin started up on his sofa. +</p> + +<p> +“A hundred rooms no one goes into,” he said. “It sounds +almost like a secret garden. Suppose we go and look at them. Wheel me in my +chair and nobody would know we went.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s what I was thinking,” said Mary. “No one would +dare to follow us. There are galleries where you could run. We could do our +exercises. There is a little Indian room where there is a cabinet full of ivory +elephants. There are all sorts of rooms.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ring the bell,” said Colin. +</p> + +<p> +When the nurse came in he gave his orders. +</p> + +<p> +“I want my chair,” he said. “Miss Mary and I are going to +look at the part of the house which is not used. John can push me as far as the +picture-gallery because there are some stairs. Then he must go away and leave +us alone until I send for him again.” +</p> + +<p> +Rainy days lost their terrors that morning. When the footman had wheeled the +chair into the picture-gallery and left the two together in obedience to +orders, Colin and Mary looked at each other delighted. As soon as Mary had made +sure that John was really on his way back to his own quarters below stairs, +Colin got out of his chair. +</p> + +<p> +“I am going to run from one end of the gallery to the other,” he +said, “and then I am going to jump and then we will do Bob +Haworth’s exercises.” +</p> + +<p> +And they did all these things and many others. They looked at the portraits and +found the plain little girl dressed in green brocade and holding the parrot on +her finger. +</p> + +<p> +“All these,” said Colin, “must be my relations. They lived a +long time ago. That parrot one, I believe, is one of my great, great, great, +great aunts. She looks rather like you, Mary—not as you look now but as +you looked when you came here. Now you are a great deal fatter and better +looking.” +</p> + +<p> +“So are you,” said Mary, and they both laughed. +</p> + +<p> +They went to the Indian room and amused themselves with the ivory elephants. +They found the rose-colored brocade boudoir and the hole in the cushion the +mouse had left, but the mice had grown up and run away and the hole was empty. +They saw more rooms and made more discoveries than Mary had made on her first +pilgrimage. They found new corridors and corners and flights of steps and new +old pictures they liked and weird old things they did not know the use of. It +was a curiously entertaining morning and the feeling of wandering about in the +same house with other people but at the same time feeling as if one were miles +away from them was a fascinating thing. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m glad we came,” Colin said. “I never knew I lived +in such a big queer old place. I like it. We will ramble about every rainy day. +We shall always be finding new queer corners and things.” +</p> + +<p> +That morning they had found among other things such good appetites that when +they returned to Colin’s room it was not possible to send the luncheon +away untouched. +</p> + +<p> +When the nurse carried the tray downstairs she slapped it down on the kitchen +dresser so that Mrs. Loomis, the cook, could see the highly polished dishes and +plates. +</p> + +<p> +“Look at that!” she said. “This is a house of mystery, and +those two children are the greatest mysteries in it.” +</p> + +<p> +“If they keep that up every day,” said the strong young footman +John, “there’d be small wonder that he weighs twice as much today +as he did a month ago. I should have to give up my place in time, for fear of +doing my muscles an injury.” +</p> + +<p> +That afternoon Mary noticed that something new had happened in Colin’s +room. She had noticed it the day before but had said nothing because she +thought the change might have been made by chance. She said nothing today but +she sat and looked fixedly at the picture over the mantel. She could look at it +because the curtain had been drawn aside. That was the change she noticed. +</p> + +<p> +“I know what you want me to tell you,” said Colin, after she had +stared a few minutes. “I always know when you want me to tell you +something. You are wondering why the curtain is drawn back. I am going to keep +it like that.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why?” asked Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“Because it doesn’t make me angry any more to see her laughing. I +wakened when it was bright moonlight two nights ago and felt as if the Magic +was filling the room and making everything so splendid that I couldn’t +lie still. I got up and looked out of the window. The room was quite light and +there was a patch of moonlight on the curtain and somehow that made me go and +pull the cord. She looked right down at me as if she were laughing because she +was glad I was standing there. It made me like to look at her. I want to see +her laughing like that all the time. I think she must have been a sort of Magic +person perhaps.” +</p> + +<p> +“You are so like her now,” said Mary, “that sometimes I think +perhaps you are her ghost made into a boy.” +</p> + +<p> +That idea seemed to impress Colin. He thought it over and then answered her +slowly. +</p> + +<p> +“If I were her ghost—my father would be fond of me,” he said. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you want him to be fond of you?” inquired Mary. +</p> + +<p> +“I used to hate it because he was not fond of me. If he grew fond of me I +think I should tell him about the Magic. It might make him more +cheerful.” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap26"></a>CHAPTER XXVI.<br /> +“IT’S MOTHER!”</h2> + +<p> +Their belief in the Magic was an abiding thing. After the morning’s +incantations Colin sometimes gave them Magic lectures. +</p> + +<p> +“I like to do it,” he explained, “because when I grow up and +make great scientific discoveries I shall be obliged to lecture about them and +so this is practise. I can only give short lectures now because I am very +young, and besides Ben Weatherstaff would feel as if he were in church and he +would go to sleep.” +</p> + +<p> +“Th’ best thing about lecturin’,” said Ben, “is +that a chap can get up an’ say aught he pleases an’ no other chap +can answer him back. I wouldn’t be agen’ lecturin’ a bit +mysel’ sometimes.” +</p> + +<p> +But when Colin held forth under his tree old Ben fixed devouring eyes on him +and kept them there. He looked him over with critical affection. It was not so +much the lecture which interested him as the legs which looked straighter and +stronger each day, the boyish head which held itself up so well, the once sharp +chin and hollow cheeks which had filled and rounded out and the eyes which had +begun to hold the light he remembered in another pair. Sometimes when Colin +felt Ben’s earnest gaze meant that he was much impressed he wondered what +he was reflecting on and once when he had seemed quite entranced he questioned +him. +</p> + +<p> +“What are you thinking about, Ben Weatherstaff?” he asked. +</p> + +<p> +“I was thinkin’” answered Ben, “as I’d warrant +tha’s gone up three or four pound this week. I was lookin’ at +tha’ calves an’ tha’ shoulders. I’d like to get thee on +a pair o’ scales.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s the Magic and—and Mrs. Sowerby’s buns and milk +and things,” said Colin. “You see the scientific experiment has +succeeded.” +</p> + +<p> +That morning Dickon was too late to hear the lecture. When he came he was ruddy +with running and his funny face looked more twinkling than usual. As they had a +good deal of weeding to do after the rains they fell to work. They always had +plenty to do after a warm deep sinking rain. The moisture which was good for +the flowers was also good for the weeds which thrust up tiny blades of grass +and points of leaves which must be pulled up before their roots took too firm +hold. Colin was as good at weeding as anyone in these days and he could +lecture while he was doing it. +</p> + +<p> +“The Magic works best when you work, yourself,” he said this +morning. “You can feel it in your bones and muscles. I am going to read +books about bones and muscles, but I am going to write a book about Magic. I am +making it up now. I keep finding out things.” +</p> + +<p> +It was not very long after he had said this that he laid down his trowel and +stood up on his feet. He had been silent for several minutes and they had seen +that he was thinking out lectures, as he often did. When he dropped his trowel +and stood upright it seemed to Mary and Dickon as if a sudden strong thought +had made him do it. He stretched himself out to his tallest height and he threw +out his arms exultantly. Color glowed in his face and his strange eyes widened +with joyfulness. All at once he had realized something to the full. +</p> + +<p> +“Mary! Dickon!” he cried. “Just look at me!” +</p> + +<p> +They stopped their weeding and looked at him. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you remember that first morning you brought me in here?” he +demanded. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon was looking at him very hard. Being an animal charmer he could see more +things than most people could and many of them were things he never talked +about. He saw some of them now in this boy. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, that we do,” he answered. +</p> + +<p> +Mary looked hard too, but she said nothing. +</p> + +<p> +“Just this minute,” said Colin, “all at once I remembered it +myself—when I looked at my hand digging with the trowel—and I had +to stand up on my feet to see if it was real. And it is real! I’m +<i>well</i>—I’m <i>well!</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, that th’ art!” said Dickon. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m well! I’m well!” said Colin again, and his face +went quite red all over. +</p> + +<p> +He had known it before in a way, he had hoped it and felt it and thought about +it, but just at that minute something had rushed all through him—a sort +of rapturous belief and realization and it had been so strong that he could not +help calling out. +</p> + +<p> +“I shall live forever and ever and ever!” he cried grandly. +“I shall find out thousands and thousands of things. I shall find out +about people and creatures and everything that grows—like +Dickon—and I shall never stop making Magic. I’m well! I’m +well! I feel—I feel as if I want to shout out something—something +thankful, joyful!” +</p> + +<p> +Ben Weatherstaff, who had been working near a rose-bush, glanced round at him. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ might sing th’ Doxology,” he suggested in his +dryest grunt. He had no opinion of the Doxology and he did not make the +suggestion with any particular reverence. +</p> + +<p> +But Colin was of an exploring mind and he knew nothing about the Doxology. +</p> + +<p> +“What is that?” he inquired. +</p> + +<p> +“Dickon can sing it for thee, I’ll warrant,” replied Ben +Weatherstaff. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon answered with his all-perceiving animal charmer’s smile. +</p> + +<p> +“They sing it i’ church,” he said. “Mother says she +believes th’ skylarks sings it when they gets up i’ th’ +mornin’.” +</p> + +<p> +“If she says that, it must be a nice song,” Colin answered. +“I’ve never been in a church myself. I was always too ill. Sing it, +Dickon. I want to hear it.” +</p> + +<p> +Dickon was quite simple and unaffected about it. He understood what Colin felt +better than Colin did himself. He understood by a sort of instinct so natural +that he did not know it was understanding. He pulled off his cap and looked +round still smiling. +</p> + +<p> +“Tha’ must take off tha’ cap,” he said to Colin, +“an’ so mun tha’, Ben—an’ tha’ mun stand +up, tha’ knows.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin took off his cap and the sun shone on and warmed his thick hair as he +watched Dickon intently. Ben Weatherstaff scrambled up from his knees and bared +his head too with a sort of puzzled half-resentful look on his old face as if +he didn’t know exactly why he was doing this remarkable thing. +</p> + +<p> +Dickon stood out among the trees and rose-bushes and began to sing in quite a +simple matter-of-fact way and in a nice strong boy voice: +</p> + +<p class="poem"> +“Praise God from whom all blessings flow,<br /> +Praise Him all creatures here below,<br /> +Praise Him above ye Heavenly Host,<br /> +Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost.<br /> + Amen.”<br /> +</p> + +<p> +When he had finished, Ben Weatherstaff was standing quite still with his jaws +set obstinately but with a disturbed look in his eyes fixed on Colin. +Colin’s face was thoughtful and appreciative. +</p> + +<p> +“It is a very nice song,” he said. “I like it. Perhaps it +means just what I mean when I want to shout out that I am thankful to the +Magic.” He stopped and thought in a puzzled way. “Perhaps they are +both the same thing. How can we know the exact names of everything? Sing it +again, Dickon. Let us try, Mary. I want to sing it, too. It’s my song. +How does it begin? ‘Praise God from whom all blessings +flow’?” +</p> + +<p> +And they sang it again, and Mary and Colin lifted their voices as musically as +they could and Dickon’s swelled quite loud and beautiful—and at the +second line Ben Weatherstaff raspingly cleared his throat and at the third line +he joined in with such vigor that it seemed almost savage and when the +“Amen” came to an end Mary observed that the very same thing had +happened to him which had happened when he found out that Colin was not a +cripple—his chin was twitching and he was staring and winking and his +leathery old cheeks were wet. +</p> + +<p> +“I never seed no sense in th’ Doxology afore,” he said +hoarsely, “but I may change my mind i’ time. I should say +tha’d gone up five pound this week Mester Colin—five on +’em!” +</p> + +<p> +Colin was looking across the garden at something attracting his attention and +his expression had become a startled one. +</p> + +<p> +“Who is coming in here?” he said quickly. “Who is it?” +</p> + +<p> +The door in the ivied wall had been pushed gently open and a woman had entered. +She had come in with the last line of their song and she had stood still +listening and looking at them. With the ivy behind her, the sunlight drifting +through the trees and dappling her long blue cloak, and her nice fresh face +smiling across the greenery she was rather like a softly colored illustration +in one of Colin’s books. She had wonderful affectionate eyes which seemed +to take everything in—all of them, even Ben Weatherstaff and the +“creatures” and every flower that was in bloom. Unexpectedly as she +had appeared, not one of them felt that she was an intruder at all. +Dickon’s eyes lighted like lamps. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s mother—that’s who it is!” he cried and went +across the grass at a run. +</p> + +<p> +Colin began to move toward her, too, and Mary went with him. They both felt +their pulses beat faster. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s mother!” Dickon said again when they met halfway. +“I knowed tha’ wanted to see her an’ I told her where +th’ door was hid.” +</p> + +<p> +Colin held out his hand with a sort of flushed royal shyness but his eyes quite +devoured her face. +</p> + +<p> +“Even when I was ill I wanted to see you,” he said, “you and +Dickon and the secret garden. I’d never wanted to see anyone or anything +before.” +</p> + +<p> +The sight of his uplifted face brought about a sudden change in her own. She +flushed and the corners of her mouth shook and a mist seemed to sweep over her +eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! dear lad!” she broke out tremulously. “Eh! dear +lad!” as if she had not known she were going to say it. She did not say, +“Mester Colin,” but just “dear lad” quite suddenly. She +might have said it to Dickon in the same way if she had seen something in his +face which touched her. Colin liked it. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you surprised because I am so well?” he asked. +</p> + +<p> +She put her hand on his shoulder and smiled the mist out of her eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, that I am!” she said; “but tha’rt so like thy +mother tha’ made my heart jump.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you think,” said Colin a little awkwardly, “that will +make my father like me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, for sure, dear lad,” she answered and she gave his shoulder a +soft quick pat. “He mun come home—he mun come home.” +</p> + +<p> +“Susan Sowerby,” said Ben Weatherstaff, getting close to her. +“Look at th’ lad’s legs, wilt tha’? They was like +drumsticks i’ stockin’ two month’ ago—an’ I heard +folk tell as they was bandy an’ knock-kneed both at th’ same time. +Look at ’em now!” +</p> + +<p> +Susan Sowerby laughed a comfortable laugh. +</p> + +<p> +“They’re goin’ to be fine strong lad’s legs in a +bit,” she said. “Let him go on playin’ an’ +workin’ in the garden an’ eatin’ hearty an’ +drinkin’ plenty o’ good sweet milk an’ there’ll not be +a finer pair i’ Yorkshire, thank God for it.” +</p> + +<p> +She put both hands on Mistress Mary’s shoulders and looked her little +face over in a motherly fashion. +</p> + +<p> +“An’ thee, too!” she said. “Tha’rt grown near as +hearty as our ’Lisabeth Ellen. I’ll warrant tha’rt like thy +mother too. Our Martha told me as Mrs. Medlock heard she was a pretty woman. +Tha’lt be like a blush rose when tha’ grows up, my little lass, +bless thee.” +</p> + +<p> +She did not mention that when Martha came home on her “day out” and +described the plain sallow child she had said that she had no confidence +whatever in what Mrs. Medlock had heard. “It doesn’t stand to +reason that a pretty woman could be th’ mother o’ such a fou’ +little lass,” she had added obstinately. +</p> + +<p> +Mary had not had time to pay much attention to her changing face. She had only +known that she looked “different” and seemed to have a great deal +more hair and that it was growing very fast. But remembering her pleasure in +looking at the Mem Sahib in the past she was glad to hear that she might some +day look like her. +</p> + +<p> +Susan Sowerby went round their garden with them and was told the whole story of +it and shown every bush and tree which had come alive. Colin walked on one side +of her and Mary on the other. Each of them kept looking up at her comfortable +rosy face, secretly curious about the delightful feeling she gave them—a +sort of warm, supported feeling. It seemed as if she understood them as Dickon +understood his “creatures.” She stooped over the flowers and talked +about them as if they were children. Soot followed her and once or twice cawed +at her and flew upon her shoulder as if it were Dickon’s. When they told +her about the robin and the first flight of the young ones she laughed a +motherly little mellow laugh in her throat. +</p> + +<p> +“I suppose learnin’ ’em to fly is like learnin’ +children to walk, but I’m feared I should be all in a worrit if mine had +wings instead o’ legs,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +It was because she seemed such a wonderful woman in her nice moorland cottage +way that at last she was told about the Magic. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you believe in Magic?” asked Colin after he had explained about +Indian fakirs. “I do hope you do.” +</p> + +<p> +“That I do, lad,” she answered. “I never knowed it by that +name but what does th’ name matter? I warrant they call it a different +name i’ France an’ a different one i’ Germany. Th’ same +thing as set th’ seeds swellin’ an’ th’ sun +shinin’ made thee a well lad an’ it’s th’ Good Thing. +It isn’t like us poor fools as think it matters if us is called out of +our names. Th’ Big Good Thing doesn’t stop to worrit, bless thee. +It goes on makin’ worlds by th’ million—worlds like us. Never +thee stop believin’ in th’ Big Good Thing an’ knowin’ +th’ world’s full of it—an’ call it what tha’ +likes. Tha’ wert singin’ to it when I come into th’ +garden.” +</p> + +<p> +“I felt so joyful,” said Colin, opening his beautiful strange eyes +at her. “Suddenly I felt how different I was—how strong my arms and +legs were, you know—and how I could dig and stand—and I jumped up +and wanted to shout out something to anything that would listen.” +</p> + +<p> +“Th’ Magic listened when tha’ sung th’ Doxology. It +would ha’ listened to anything tha’d sung. It was th’ joy +that mattered. Eh! lad, lad—what’s names to th’ Joy +Maker,” and she gave his shoulders a quick soft pat again. +</p> + +<p> +She had packed a basket which held a regular feast this morning, and when the +hungry hour came and Dickon brought it out from its hiding place, she sat down +with them under their tree and watched them devour their food, laughing and +quite gloating over their appetites. She was full of fun and made them laugh at +all sorts of odd things. She told them stories in broad Yorkshire and taught +them new words. She laughed as if she could not help it when they told her of +the increasing difficulty there was in pretending that Colin was still a +fretful invalid. +</p> + +<p> +“You see we can’t help laughing nearly all the time when we are +together,” explained Colin. “And it doesn’t sound ill at all. +We try to choke it back but it will burst out and that sounds worse than +ever.” +</p> + +<p> +“There’s one thing that comes into my mind so often,” said +Mary, “and I can scarcely ever hold in when I think of it suddenly. I +keep thinking suppose Colin’s face should get to look like a full moon. +It isn’t like one yet but he gets a tiny bit fatter every day—and +suppose some morning it should look like one—what should we do!” +</p> + +<p> +“Bless us all, I can see tha’ has a good bit o’ play +actin’ to do,” said Susan Sowerby. “But tha’ +won’t have to keep it up much longer. Mester Craven’ll come +home.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you think he will?” asked Colin. “Why?” +</p> + +<p> +Susan Sowerby chuckled softly. +</p> + +<p> +“I suppose it ’ud nigh break thy heart if he found out before +tha’ told him in tha’ own way,” she said. “Tha’s +laid awake nights plannin’ it.” +</p> + +<p> +“I couldn’t bear anyone else to tell him,” said Colin. +“I think about different ways every day, I think now I just want to run +into his room.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’d be a fine start for him,” said Susan Sowerby. +“I’d like to see his face, lad. I would that! He mun come +back—that he mun.” +</p> + +<p> +One of the things they talked of was the visit they were to make to her +cottage. They planned it all. They were to drive over the moor and lunch out of +doors among the heather. They would see all the twelve children and +Dickon’s garden and would not come back until they were tired. +</p> + +<p> +Susan Sowerby got up at last to return to the house and Mrs. Medlock. It was +time for Colin to be wheeled back also. But before he got into his chair he +stood quite close to Susan and fixed his eyes on her with a kind of bewildered +adoration and he suddenly caught hold of the fold of her blue cloak and held it +fast. +</p> + +<p> +“You are just what I—what I wanted,” he said. “I wish +you were my mother—as well as Dickon’s!” +</p> + +<p> +All at once Susan Sowerby bent down and drew him with her warm arms close +against the bosom under the blue cloak—as if he had been Dickon’s +brother. The quick mist swept over her eyes. +</p> + +<p> +“Eh! dear lad!” she said. “Thy own mother’s in this +’ere very garden, I do believe. She couldna’ keep out of it. Thy +father mun come back to thee—he mun!” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap27"></a>CHAPTER XXVII.<br /> +IN THE GARDEN</h2> + +<p> +In each century since the beginning of the world wonderful things have been +discovered. In the last century more amazing things were found out than in any +century before. In this new century hundreds of things still more astounding +will be brought to light. At first people refuse to believe that a strange new +thing can be done, then they begin to hope it can be done, then they see it can +be done—then it is done and all the world wonders why it was not done +centuries ago. One of the new things people began to find out in the last +century was that thoughts—just mere thoughts—are as powerful as +electric batteries—as good for one as sunlight is, or as bad for one as +poison. To let a sad thought or a bad one get into your mind is as dangerous as +letting a scarlet fever germ get into your body. If you let it stay there after +it has got in you may never get over it as long as you live. +</p> + +<p> +So long as Mistress Mary’s mind was full of disagreeable thoughts about +her dislikes and sour opinions of people and her determination not to be +pleased by or interested in anything, she was a yellow-faced, sickly, bored and +wretched child. Circumstances, however, were very kind to her, though she was +not at all aware of it. They began to push her about for her own good. When her +mind gradually filled itself with robins, and moorland cottages crowded with +children, with queer crabbed old gardeners and common little Yorkshire +housemaids, with springtime and with secret gardens coming alive day by day, +and also with a moor boy and his “creatures,” there was no room +left for the disagreeable thoughts which affected her liver and her digestion +and made her yellow and tired. +</p> + +<p> +So long as Colin shut himself up in his room and thought only of his fears and +weakness and his detestation of people who looked at him and reflected hourly +on humps and early death, he was a hysterical half-crazy little hypochondriac +who knew nothing of the sunshine and the spring and also did not know that he +could get well and could stand upon his feet if he tried to do it. When new +beautiful thoughts began to push out the old hideous ones, life began to come +back to him, his blood ran healthily through his veins and strength poured into +him like a flood. His scientific experiment was quite practical and simple and +there was nothing weird about it at all. Much more surprising things can happen +to anyone who, when a disagreeable or discouraged thought comes into his mind, +just has the sense to remember in time and push it out by putting in an +agreeable determinedly courageous one. Two things cannot be in one place. +</p> + +<p class="poem"> +“Where you tend a rose, my lad,<br /> +A thistle cannot grow.”<br /> +</p> + +<p> +While the secret garden was coming alive and two children were coming alive +with it, there was a man wandering about certain far-away beautiful places in +the Norwegian fiords and the valleys and mountains of Switzerland and he was a +man who for ten years had kept his mind filled with dark and heart-broken +thinking. He had not been courageous; he had never tried to put any other +thoughts in the place of the dark ones. He had wandered by blue lakes and +thought them; he had lain on mountain-sides with sheets of deep blue gentians +blooming all about him and flower breaths filling all the air and he had +thought them. A terrible sorrow had fallen upon him when he had been happy and +he had let his soul fill itself with blackness and had refused obstinately to +allow any rift of light to pierce through. He had forgotten and deserted his +home and his duties. When he traveled about, darkness so brooded over him that +the sight of him was a wrong done to other people because it was as if he +poisoned the air about him with gloom. Most strangers thought he must be either +half mad or a man with some hidden crime on his soul. He, was a tall man with a +drawn face and crooked shoulders and the name he always entered on hotel +registers was, “Archibald Craven, Misselthwaite Manor, Yorkshire, +England.” +</p> + +<p> +He had traveled far and wide since the day he saw Mistress Mary in his study +and told her she might have her “bit of earth.” He had been in the +most beautiful places in Europe, though he had remained nowhere more than a few +days. He had chosen the quietest and remotest spots. He had been on the tops of +mountains whose heads were in the clouds and had looked down on other mountains +when the sun rose and touched them with such light as made it seem as if the +world were just being born. +</p> + +<p> +But the light had never seemed to touch himself until one day when he realized +that for the first time in ten years a strange thing had happened. He was in a +wonderful valley in the Austrian Tyrol and he had been walking alone through +such beauty as might have lifted, any man’s soul out of shadow. He had +walked a long way and it had not lifted his. But at last he had felt tired and +had thrown himself down to rest on a carpet of moss by a stream. It was a clear +little stream which ran quite merrily along on its narrow way through the +luscious damp greenness. Sometimes it made a sound rather like very low +laughter as it bubbled over and round stones. He saw birds come and dip their +heads to drink in it and then flick their wings and fly away. It seemed like a +thing alive and yet its tiny voice made the stillness seem deeper. The valley +was very, very still. +</p> + +<p> +As he sat gazing into the clear running of the water, Archibald Craven +gradually felt his mind and body both grow quiet, as quiet as the valley +itself. He wondered if he were going to sleep, but he was not. He sat and gazed +at the sunlit water and his eyes began to see things growing at its edge. There +was one lovely mass of blue forget-me-nots growing so close to the stream that +its leaves were wet and at these he found himself looking as he remembered he +had looked at such things years ago. He was actually thinking tenderly how +lovely it was and what wonders of blue its hundreds of little blossoms were. He +did not know that just that simple thought was slowly filling his +mind—filling and filling it until other things were softly pushed aside. +It was as if a sweet clear spring had begun to rise in a stagnant pool and had +risen and risen until at last it swept the dark water away. But of course he +did not think of this himself. He only knew that the valley seemed to grow +quieter and quieter as he sat and stared at the bright delicate blueness. He +did not know how long he sat there or what was happening to him, but at last he +moved as if he were awakening and he got up slowly and stood on the moss +carpet, drawing a long, deep, soft breath and wondering at himself. Something +seemed to have been unbound and released in him, very quietly. +</p> + +<p> +“What is it?” he said, almost in a whisper, and he passed his hand +over his forehead. “I almost feel as if—I were alive!” +</p> + +<p> +I do not know enough about the wonderfulness of undiscovered things to be able +to explain how this had happened to him. Neither does anyone else yet. He did +not understand at all himself—but he remembered this strange hour months +afterward when he was at Misselthwaite again and he found out quite by accident +that on this very day Colin had cried out as he went into the secret garden: +</p> + +<p> +“I am going to live forever and ever and ever!” +</p> + +<p> +The singular calmness remained with him the rest of the evening and he slept a +new reposeful sleep; but it was not with him very long. He did not know that it +could be kept. By the next night he had opened the doors wide to his dark +thoughts and they had come trooping and rushing back. He left the valley and +went on his wandering way again. But, strange as it seemed to him, there were +minutes—sometimes half-hours—when, without his knowing why, the +black burden seemed to lift itself again and he knew he was a living man and +not a dead one. Slowly—slowly—for no reason that he knew +of—he was “coming alive” with the garden. +</p> + +<p> +As the golden summer changed into the deep golden autumn he went to the Lake of +Como. There he found the loveliness of a dream. He spent his days upon the +crystal blueness of the lake or he walked back into the soft thick verdure of +the hills and tramped until he was tired so that he might sleep. But by this +time he had begun to sleep better, he knew, and his dreams had ceased to be a +terror to him. +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps,” he thought, “my body is growing stronger.” +</p> + +<p> +It was growing stronger but—because of the rare peaceful hours when his +thoughts were changed—his soul was slowly growing stronger, too. He began +to think of Misselthwaite and wonder if he should not go home. Now and then he +wondered vaguely about his boy and asked himself what he should feel when he +went and stood by the carved four-posted bed again and looked down at the +sharply chiseled ivory-white face while it slept and, the black lashes rimmed +so startlingly the close-shut eyes. He shrank from it. +</p> + +<p> +One marvel of a day he had walked so far that when he returned the moon was +high and full and all the world was purple shadow and silver. The stillness of +lake and shore and wood was so wonderful that he did not go into the villa he +lived in. He walked down to a little bowered terrace at the water’s edge +and sat upon a seat and breathed in all the heavenly scents of the night. He +felt the strange calmness stealing over him and it grew deeper and deeper until +he fell asleep. +</p> + +<p> +He did not know when he fell asleep and when he began to dream; his dream was +so real that he did not feel as if he were dreaming. He remembered afterward +how intensely wide awake and alert he had thought he was. He thought that as he +sat and breathed in the scent of the late roses and listened to the lapping of +the water at his feet he heard a voice calling. It was sweet and clear and +happy and far away. It seemed very far, but he heard it as distinctly as if it +had been at his very side. +</p> + +<p> +“Archie! Archie! Archie!” it said, and then again, sweeter and +clearer than before, “Archie! Archie!” +</p> + +<p> +He thought he sprang to his feet not even startled. It was such a real voice +and it seemed so natural that he should hear it. +</p> + +<p> +“Lilias! Lilias!” he answered. “Lilias! where are you?” +</p> + +<p> +“In the garden,” it came back like a sound from a golden flute. +“In the garden!” +</p> + +<p> +And then the dream ended. But he did not awaken. He slept soundly and sweetly +all through the lovely night. When he did awake at last it was brilliant +morning and a servant was standing staring at him. He was an Italian servant +and was accustomed, as all the servants of the villa were, to accepting without +question any strange thing his foreign master might do. No one ever knew when +he would go out or come in or where he would choose to sleep or if he would +roam about the garden or lie in the boat on the lake all night. The man held a +salver with some letters on it and he waited quietly until Mr. Craven took +them. When he had gone away Mr. Craven sat a few moments holding them in his +hand and looking at the lake. His strange calm was still upon him and something +more—a lightness as if the cruel thing which had been done had not +happened as he thought—as if something had changed. He was remembering +the dream—the real—real dream. +</p> + +<p> +“In the garden!” he said, wondering at himself. “In the +garden! But the door is locked and the key is buried deep.” +</p> + +<p> +When he glanced at the letters a few minutes later he saw that the one lying at +the top of the rest was an English letter and came from Yorkshire. It was +directed in a plain woman’s hand but it was not a hand he knew. He opened +it, scarcely thinking of the writer, but the first words attracted his +attention at once. +</p> + +<blockquote> <div> + +<p class="noindent"> +“<i>Dear Sir:</i> +</p> + +<p> +I am Susan Sowerby that made bold to speak to you once on the moor. It was +about Miss Mary I spoke. I will make bold to speak again. Please, sir, I would +come home if I was you. I think you would be glad to come and—if you will +excuse me, sir—I think your lady would ask you to come if she was here. +</p> + +<p> + Your obedient servant,<br /> + Susan Sowerby.”<br /> +</p> + +</div> </blockquote> + +<p> +Mr. Craven read the letter twice before he put it back in its envelope. He kept +thinking about the dream. +</p> + +<p> +“I will go back to Misselthwaite,” he said. “Yes, I’ll +go at once.” +</p> + +<p> +And he went through the garden to the villa and ordered Pitcher to prepare for +his return to England.<br /><br /> +</p> + +<p> +In a few days he was in Yorkshire again, and on his long railroad journey he +found himself thinking of his boy as he had never thought in all the ten years +past. During those years he had only wished to forget him. Now, though he did +not intend to think about him, memories of him constantly drifted into his +mind. He remembered the black days when he had raved like a madman because the +child was alive and the mother was dead. He had refused to see it, and when he +had gone to look at it at last it had been, such a weak wretched thing that +everyone had been sure it would die in a few days. But to the surprise of those +who took care of it the days passed and it lived and then everyone believed it +would be a deformed and crippled creature. +</p> + +<p> +He had not meant to be a bad father, but he had not felt like a father at all. +He had supplied doctors and nurses and luxuries, but he had shrunk from the +mere thought of the boy and had buried himself in his own misery. The first +time after a year’s absence he returned to Misselthwaite and the small +miserable looking thing languidly and indifferently lifted to his face the +great gray eyes with black lashes round them, so like and yet so horribly +unlike the happy eyes he had adored, he could not bear the sight of them and +turned away pale as death. After that he scarcely ever saw him except when he +was asleep, and all he knew of him was that he was a confirmed invalid, with a +vicious, hysterical, half-insane temper. He could only be kept from furies +dangerous to himself by being given his own way in every detail. +</p> + +<p> +All this was not an uplifting thing to recall, but as the train whirled him +through mountain passes and golden plains the man who was “coming +alive” began to think in a new way and he thought long and steadily and +deeply. +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps I have been all wrong for ten years,” he said to himself. +“Ten years is a long time. It may be too late to do anything—quite +too late. What have I been thinking of!” +</p> + +<p> +Of course this was the wrong Magic—to begin by saying “too +late.” Even Colin could have told him that. But he knew nothing of +Magic—either black or white. This he had yet to learn. He wondered if +Susan Sowerby had taken courage and written to him only because the motherly +creature had realized that the boy was much worse—was fatally ill. If he +had not been under the spell of the curious calmness which had taken possession +of him he would have been more wretched than ever. But the calm had brought a +sort of courage and hope with it. Instead of giving way to thoughts of the +worst he actually found he was trying to believe in better things. +</p> + +<p> +“Could it be possible that she sees that I may be able to do him good and +control him?” he thought. “I will go and see her on my way to +Misselthwaite.” +</p> + +<p> +But when on his way across the moor he stopped the carriage at the cottage, +seven or eight children who were playing about gathered in a group and bobbing +seven or eight friendly and polite curtsies told him that their mother had gone +to the other side of the moor early in the morning to help a woman who had a +new baby. “Our Dickon,” they volunteered, was over at the Manor +working in one of the gardens where he went several days each week. +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Craven looked over the collection of sturdy little bodies and round +red-cheeked faces, each one grinning in its own particular way, and he awoke to +the fact that they were a healthy likable lot. He smiled at their friendly +grins and took a golden sovereign from his pocket and gave it to “our +’Lizabeth Ellen” who was the oldest. +</p> + +<p> +“If you divide that into eight parts there will be half a crown for each +of, you,” he said. +</p> + +<p> +Then amid grins and chuckles and bobbing of curtsies he drove away, leaving +ecstasy and nudging elbows and little jumps of joy behind. +</p> + +<p> +The drive across the wonderfulness of the moor was a soothing thing. Why did it +seem to give him a sense of homecoming which he had been sure he could never +feel again—that sense of the beauty of land and sky and purple bloom of +distance and a warming of the heart at drawing, nearer to the great old house +which had held those of his blood for six hundred years? How he had driven away +from it the last time, shuddering to think of its closed rooms and the boy +lying in the four-posted bed with the brocaded hangings. Was it possible that +perhaps he might find him changed a little for the better and that he might +overcome his shrinking from him? How real that dream had been—how +wonderful and clear the voice which called back to him, “In the +garden—In the garden!” +</p> + +<p> +“I will try to find the key,” he said. “I will try to open +the door. I must—though I don’t know why.” +</p> + +<p> +When he arrived at the Manor the servants who received him with the usual +ceremony noticed that he looked better and that he did not go to the remote +rooms where he usually lived attended by Pitcher. He went into the library and +sent for Mrs. Medlock. She came to him somewhat excited and curious and +flustered. +</p> + +<p> +“How is Master Colin, Medlock?” he inquired. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, sir,” Mrs. Medlock answered, +“he’s—he’s different, in a manner of speaking.” +</p> + +<p> +“Worse?” he suggested. +</p> + +<p> +Mrs. Medlock really was flushed. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, you see, sir,” she tried to explain, “neither Dr. +Craven, nor the nurse, nor me can exactly make him out.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why is that?” +</p> + +<p> +“To tell the truth, sir, Master Colin might be better and he might be +changing for the worse. His appetite, sir, is past understanding—and his +ways—” +</p> + +<p> +“Has he become more—more peculiar?” her master, asked, +knitting his brows anxiously. +</p> + +<p> +“That’s it, sir. He’s growing very peculiar—when you +compare him with what he used to be. He used to eat nothing and then suddenly +he began to eat something enormous—and then he stopped again all at once +and the meals were sent back just as they used to be. You never knew, sir, +perhaps, that out of doors he never would let himself be taken. The things +we’ve gone through to get him to go out in his chair would leave a body +trembling like a leaf. He’d throw himself into such a state that Dr. +Craven said he couldn’t be responsible for forcing him. Well, sir, just +without warning—not long after one of his worst tantrums he suddenly +insisted on being taken out every day by Miss Mary and Susan Sowerby’s +boy Dickon that could push his chair. He took a fancy to both Miss Mary and +Dickon, and Dickon brought his tame animals, and, if you’ll credit it, +sir, out of doors he will stay from morning until night.” +</p> + +<p> +“How does he look?” was the next question. +</p> + +<p> +“If he took his food natural, sir, you’d think he was putting on +flesh—but we’re afraid it may be a sort of bloat. He laughs +sometimes in a queer way when he’s alone with Miss Mary. He never used to +laugh at all. Dr. Craven is coming to see you at once, if you’ll allow +him. He never was as puzzled in his life.” +</p> + +<p> +“Where is Master Colin now?” Mr. Craven asked. +</p> + +<p> +“In the garden, sir. He’s always in the garden—though not a +human creature is allowed to go near for fear they’ll look at him.” +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Craven scarcely heard her last words. +</p> + +<p> +“In the garden,” he said, and after he had sent Mrs. Medlock away +he stood and repeated it again and again. “In the garden!” +</p> + +<p> +He had to make an effort to bring himself back to the place he was standing in +and when he felt he was on earth again he turned and went out of the room. He +took his way, as Mary had done, through the door in the shrubbery and among the +laurels and the fountain beds. The fountain was playing now and was encircled +by beds of brilliant autumn flowers. He crossed the lawn and turned into the +Long Walk by the ivied walls. He did not walk quickly, but slowly, and his eyes +were on the path. He felt as if he were being drawn back to the place he had so +long forsaken, and he did not know why. As he drew near to it his step became +still more slow. He knew where the door was even though the ivy hung thick over +it—but he did not know exactly where it lay—that buried key. +</p> + +<p> +So he stopped and stood still, looking about him, and almost the moment after +he had paused he started and listened—asking himself if he were walking +in a dream. +</p> + +<p> +The ivy hung thick over the door, the key was buried under the shrubs, no human +being had passed that portal for ten lonely years—and yet inside the +garden there were sounds. They were the sounds of running scuffling feet +seeming to chase round and round under the trees, they were strange sounds of +lowered suppressed voices—exclamations and smothered joyous cries. It +seemed actually like the laughter of young things, the uncontrollable laughter +of children who were trying not to be heard but who in a moment or so—as +their excitement mounted—would burst forth. What in heaven’s name +was he dreaming of—what in heaven’s name did he hear? Was he losing +his reason and thinking he heard things which were not for human ears? Was it +that the far clear voice had meant? +</p> + +<p> +And then the moment came, the uncontrollable moment when the sounds forgot to +hush themselves. The feet ran faster and faster—they were nearing the +garden door—there was quick strong young breathing and a wild outbreak of +laughing shouts which could not be contained—and the door in the wall was +flung wide open, the sheet of ivy swinging back, and a boy burst through it at +full speed and, without seeing the outsider, dashed almost into his arms. +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Craven had extended them just in time to save him from falling as a result +of his unseeing dash against him, and when he held him away to look at him in +amazement at his being there he truly gasped for breath. +</p> + +<p> +He was a tall boy and a handsome one. He was glowing with life and his running +had sent splendid color leaping to his face. He threw the thick hair back from +his forehead and lifted a pair of strange gray eyes—eyes full of boyish +laughter and rimmed with black lashes like a fringe. It was the eyes which made +Mr. Craven gasp for breath. +</p> + +<p> +“Who—What? Who!” he stammered. +</p> + +<p> +This was not what Colin had expected—this was not what he had planned. He +had never thought of such a meeting. And yet to come dashing out—winning +a race—perhaps it was even better. He drew himself up to his very +tallest. Mary, who had been running with him and had dashed through the door +too, believed that he managed to make himself look taller than he had ever +looked before—inches taller. +</p> + +<p> +“Father,” he said, “I’m Colin. You can’t believe +it. I scarcely can myself. I’m Colin.” +</p> + +<p> +Like Mrs. Medlock, he did not understand what his father meant when he said +hurriedly: +</p> + +<p> +“In the garden! In the garden!” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” hurried on Colin. “It was the garden that did +it—and Mary and Dickon and the creatures—and the Magic. No one +knows. We kept it to tell you when you came. I’m well, I can beat Mary in +a race. I’m going to be an athlete.” +</p> + +<p> +He said it all so like a healthy boy—his face flushed, his words tumbling +over each other in his eagerness—that Mr. Craven’s soul shook with +unbelieving joy. +</p> + +<p> +Colin put out his hand and laid it on his father’s arm. +</p> + +<p> +“Aren’t you glad, Father?” he ended. “Aren’t you +glad? I’m going to live forever and ever and ever!” +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Craven put his hands on both the boy’s shoulders and held him still. +He knew he dared not even try to speak for a moment. +</p> + +<p> +“Take me into the garden, my boy,” he said at last. “And tell +me all about it.” +</p> + +<p> +And so they led him in. +</p> + +<p> +The place was a wilderness of autumn gold and purple and violet blue and +flaming scarlet and on every side were sheaves of late lilies standing +together—lilies which were white or white and ruby. He remembered well +when the first of them had been planted that just at this season of the year +their late glories should reveal themselves. Late roses climbed and hung and +clustered and the sunshine deepening the hue of the yellowing trees made one +feel that one, stood in an embowered temple of gold. The newcomer stood silent +just as the children had done when they came into its grayness. He looked round +and round. +</p> + +<p> +“I thought it would be dead,” he said. +</p> + +<p> +“Mary thought so at first,” said Colin. “But it came +alive.” +</p> + +<p> +Then they sat down under their tree—all but Colin, who wanted to stand +while he told the story. +</p> + +<p> +It was the strangest thing he had ever heard, Archibald Craven thought, as it +was poured forth in headlong boy fashion. Mystery and Magic and wild creatures, +the weird midnight meeting—the coming of the spring—the passion of +insulted pride which had dragged the young Rajah to his feet to defy old Ben +Weatherstaff to his face. The odd companionship, the play acting, the great +secret so carefully kept. The listener laughed until tears came into his eyes +and sometimes tears came into his eyes when he was not laughing. The Athlete, +the Lecturer, the Scientific Discoverer was a laughable, lovable, healthy young +human thing. +</p> + +<p> +“Now,” he said at the end of the story, “it need not be a +secret any more. I dare say it will frighten them nearly into fits when they +see me—but I am never going to get into the chair again. I shall walk +back with you, Father—to the house.”<br /><br /> +</p> + +<p> +Ben Weatherstaff’s duties rarely took him away from the gardens, but on +this occasion he made an excuse to carry some vegetables to the kitchen and +being invited into the servants’ hall by Mrs. Medlock to drink a glass of +beer he was on the spot—as he had hoped to be—when the most +dramatic event Misselthwaite Manor had seen during the present generation +actually took place. +</p> + +<p> +One of the windows looking upon the courtyard gave also a glimpse of the lawn. +Mrs. Medlock, knowing Ben had come from the gardens, hoped that he might have +caught sight of his master and even by chance of his meeting with Master Colin. +</p> + +<p> +“Did you see either of them, Weatherstaff?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +Ben took his beer-mug from his mouth and wiped his lips with the back of his +hand. +</p> + +<p> +“Aye, that I did,” he answered with a shrewdly significant air. +</p> + +<p> +“Both of them?” suggested Mrs. Medlock. +</p> + +<p> +“Both of ’em,” returned Ben Weatherstaff. “Thank ye +kindly, ma’am, I could sup up another mug of it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Together?” said Mrs. Medlock, hastily overfilling his beer-mug in +her excitement. +</p> + +<p> +“Together, ma’am,” and Ben gulped down half of his new mug at +one gulp. +</p> + +<p> +“Where was Master Colin? How did he look? What did they say to each +other?” +</p> + +<p> +“I didna’ hear that,” said Ben, “along o’ only +bein’ on th’ stepladder lookin over th’ wall. But I’ll +tell thee this. There’s been things goin’ on outside as you house +people knows nowt about. An’ what tha’ll find out tha’ll find +out soon.” +</p> + +<p> +And it was not two minutes before he swallowed the last of his beer and waved +his mug solemnly toward the window which took in through the shrubbery a piece +of the lawn. +</p> + +<p> +“Look there,” he said, “if tha’s curious. Look +what’s comin’ across th’ grass.” +</p> + +<p> +When Mrs. Medlock looked she threw up her hands and gave a little shriek and +every man and woman servant within hearing bolted across the servants’ +hall and stood looking through the window with their eyes almost starting out +of their heads. +</p> + +<p> +Across the lawn came the Master of Misselthwaite and he looked as many of them +had never seen him. And by his side with his head up in the air and his eyes +full of laughter walked as strongly and steadily as any boy in +Yorkshire—Master Colin!<br /><br /> +</p> + +<h5> +THE END +</h5> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div style='display:block;margin-top:4em'>*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE SECRET GARDEN ***</div> +<div style='display:block;margin:1em 0;'>This file should be named 113-h.htm or 113-h.zip</div> +<div style='display:block;margin:1em 0;'>This and all associated files of various formats will be found in https://www.gutenberg.org/1/1/113/</div> +<div style='display:block; margin:1em 0'> +Updated editions will replace the previous one—the old editions will +be renamed. +</div> + +<div style='display:block; margin:1em 0'> +Creating the works from print editions not protected by U.S. copyright +law means that no one owns a United States copyright in these works, +so the Foundation (and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United +States without permission and without paying copyright +royalties. 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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: The Secret Garden + +Author: Frances Hodgson Burnett + +Release Date: May 15, 2008 [EBook #113] +[This file last updated: February 3, 2011] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE SECRET GARDEN *** + + + + + + + + + + + +In Honor of Lisa Hart's 9th Birthday + + + + +THE SECRET GARDEN + +BY FRANCES HODGSON BURNETT + + + +Author of + + "The Shuttle," + "The Making of a Marchioness," + "The Methods of Lady Walderhurst," + "The Lass o' Lowries," + "Through One Administration," + "Little Lord Fauntleroy," + "A Lady of Quality," etc. + + + + + CONTENTS + +CHAPTER TITLE + + I THERE IS NO ONE LEFT + II MISTRESS MARY QUITE CONTRARY + III ACROSS THE MOOR + IV MARTHA + V THE CRY IN THE CORRIDOR + VI "THERE WAS SOME ONE CRYING--THERE WAS!" + VII THE KEY TO THE GARDEN + VIII THE ROBIN WHO SHOWED THE WAY + IX THE STRANGEST HOUSE ANY ONE EVER LIVED IN + X DICKON + XI THE NEST OF THE MISSEL THRUSH + XII "MIGHT I HAVE A BIT OF EARTH?" + XIII "I AM COLIN" + XIV A YOUNG RAJAH + XV NEST BUILDING + XVI "I WON'T!" SAID MARY + XVII A TANTRUM + XVIII "THA' MUNNOT WASTE NO TIME" + XIX "IT HAS COME!" + XX "I SHALL LIVE FOREVER--AND EVER--AND EVER!" + XXI BEN WEATHERSTAFF + XXII WHEN THE SUN WENT DOWN + XXIII MAGIC + XXIV "LET THEM LAUGH" + XXV THE CURTAIN + XXVI "IT'S MOTHER!" + XXVII IN THE GARDEN + + + + + +THE SECRET GARDEN + +BY FRANCES HODGSON BURNETT + + + + +CHAPTER I + +THERE IS NO ONE LEFT + + +When Mary Lennox was sent to Misselthwaite Manor to live with her uncle +everybody said she was the most disagreeable-looking child ever seen. +It was true, too. She had a little thin face and a little thin body, +thin light hair and a sour expression. Her hair was yellow, and her +face was yellow because she had been born in India and had always been +ill in one way or another. Her father had held a position under the +English Government and had always been busy and ill himself, and her +mother had been a great beauty who cared only to go to parties and +amuse herself with gay people. She had not wanted a little girl at +all, and when Mary was born she handed her over to the care of an Ayah, +who was made to understand that if she wished to please the Mem Sahib +she must keep the child out of sight as much as possible. So when she +was a sickly, fretful, ugly little baby she was kept out of the way, +and when she became a sickly, fretful, toddling thing she was kept out +of the way also. She never remembered seeing familiarly anything but +the dark faces of her Ayah and the other native servants, and as they +always obeyed her and gave her her own way in everything, because the +Mem Sahib would be angry if she was disturbed by her crying, by the +time she was six years old she was as tyrannical and selfish a little +pig as ever lived. The young English governess who came to teach her +to read and write disliked her so much that she gave up her place in +three months, and when other governesses came to try to fill it they +always went away in a shorter time than the first one. So if Mary had +not chosen to really want to know how to read books she would never +have learned her letters at all. + +One frightfully hot morning, when she was about nine years old, she +awakened feeling very cross, and she became crosser still when she saw +that the servant who stood by her bedside was not her Ayah. + +"Why did you come?" she said to the strange woman. "I will not let you +stay. Send my Ayah to me." + +The woman looked frightened, but she only stammered that the Ayah could +not come and when Mary threw herself into a passion and beat and kicked +her, she looked only more frightened and repeated that it was not +possible for the Ayah to come to Missie Sahib. + +There was something mysterious in the air that morning. Nothing was +done in its regular order and several of the native servants seemed +missing, while those whom Mary saw slunk or hurried about with ashy and +scared faces. But no one would tell her anything and her Ayah did not +come. She was actually left alone as the morning went on, and at last +she wandered out into the garden and began to play by herself under a +tree near the veranda. She pretended that she was making a flower-bed, +and she stuck big scarlet hibiscus blossoms into little heaps of earth, +all the time growing more and more angry and muttering to herself the +things she would say and the names she would call Saidie when she +returned. + +"Pig! Pig! Daughter of Pigs!" she said, because to call a native a pig +is the worst insult of all. + +She was grinding her teeth and saying this over and over again when she +heard her mother come out on the veranda with some one. She was with a +fair young man and they stood talking together in low strange voices. +Mary knew the fair young man who looked like a boy. She had heard that +he was a very young officer who had just come from England. The child +stared at him, but she stared most at her mother. She always did this +when she had a chance to see her, because the Mem Sahib--Mary used to +call her that oftener than anything else--was such a tall, slim, pretty +person and wore such lovely clothes. Her hair was like curly silk and +she had a delicate little nose which seemed to be disdaining things, +and she had large laughing eyes. All her clothes were thin and +floating, and Mary said they were "full of lace." They looked fuller of +lace than ever this morning, but her eyes were not laughing at all. +They were large and scared and lifted imploringly to the fair boy +officer's face. + +"Is it so very bad? Oh, is it?" Mary heard her say. + +"Awfully," the young man answered in a trembling voice. "Awfully, Mrs. +Lennox. You ought to have gone to the hills two weeks ago." + +The Mem Sahib wrung her hands. + +"Oh, I know I ought!" she cried. "I only stayed to go to that silly +dinner party. What a fool I was!" + +At that very moment such a loud sound of wailing broke out from the +servants' quarters that she clutched the young man's arm, and Mary +stood shivering from head to foot. The wailing grew wilder and wilder. +"What is it? What is it?" Mrs. Lennox gasped. + +"Some one has died," answered the boy officer. "You did not say it had +broken out among your servants." + +"I did not know!" the Mem Sahib cried. "Come with me! Come with me!" +and she turned and ran into the house. + +After that, appalling things happened, and the mysteriousness of the +morning was explained to Mary. The cholera had broken out in its most +fatal form and people were dying like flies. The Ayah had been taken +ill in the night, and it was because she had just died that the +servants had wailed in the huts. Before the next day three other +servants were dead and others had run away in terror. There was panic +on every side, and dying people in all the bungalows. + +During the confusion and bewilderment of the second day Mary hid +herself in the nursery and was forgotten by everyone. Nobody thought +of her, nobody wanted her, and strange things happened of which she +knew nothing. Mary alternately cried and slept through the hours. She +only knew that people were ill and that she heard mysterious and +frightening sounds. Once she crept into the dining-room and found it +empty, though a partly finished meal was on the table and chairs and +plates looked as if they had been hastily pushed back when the diners +rose suddenly for some reason. The child ate some fruit and biscuits, +and being thirsty she drank a glass of wine which stood nearly filled. +It was sweet, and she did not know how strong it was. Very soon it +made her intensely drowsy, and she went back to her nursery and shut +herself in again, frightened by cries she heard in the huts and by the +hurrying sound of feet. The wine made her so sleepy that she could +scarcely keep her eyes open and she lay down on her bed and knew +nothing more for a long time. + +Many things happened during the hours in which she slept so heavily, +but she was not disturbed by the wails and the sound of things being +carried in and out of the bungalow. + +When she awakened she lay and stared at the wall. The house was +perfectly still. She had never known it to be so silent before. She +heard neither voices nor footsteps, and wondered if everybody had got +well of the cholera and all the trouble was over. She wondered also +who would take care of her now her Ayah was dead. There would be a new +Ayah, and perhaps she would know some new stories. Mary had been +rather tired of the old ones. She did not cry because her nurse had +died. She was not an affectionate child and had never cared much for +any one. The noise and hurrying about and wailing over the cholera had +frightened her, and she had been angry because no one seemed to +remember that she was alive. Everyone was too panic-stricken to think +of a little girl no one was fond of. When people had the cholera it +seemed that they remembered nothing but themselves. But if everyone +had got well again, surely some one would remember and come to look for +her. + +But no one came, and as she lay waiting the house seemed to grow more +and more silent. She heard something rustling on the matting and when +she looked down she saw a little snake gliding along and watching her +with eyes like jewels. She was not frightened, because he was a +harmless little thing who would not hurt her and he seemed in a hurry +to get out of the room. He slipped under the door as she watched him. + +"How queer and quiet it is," she said. "It sounds as if there were no +one in the bungalow but me and the snake." + +Almost the next minute she heard footsteps in the compound, and then on +the veranda. They were men's footsteps, and the men entered the +bungalow and talked in low voices. No one went to meet or speak to +them and they seemed to open doors and look into rooms. "What +desolation!" she heard one voice say. "That pretty, pretty woman! I +suppose the child, too. I heard there was a child, though no one ever +saw her." + +Mary was standing in the middle of the nursery when they opened the +door a few minutes later. She looked an ugly, cross little thing and +was frowning because she was beginning to be hungry and feel +disgracefully neglected. The first man who came in was a large officer +she had once seen talking to her father. He looked tired and troubled, +but when he saw her he was so startled that he almost jumped back. + +"Barney!" he cried out. "There is a child here! A child alone! In a +place like this! Mercy on us, who is she!" + +"I am Mary Lennox," the little girl said, drawing herself up stiffly. +She thought the man was very rude to call her father's bungalow "A +place like this!" "I fell asleep when everyone had the cholera and I +have only just wakened up. Why does nobody come?" + +"It is the child no one ever saw!" exclaimed the man, turning to his +companions. "She has actually been forgotten!" + +"Why was I forgotten?" Mary said, stamping her foot. "Why does nobody +come?" + +The young man whose name was Barney looked at her very sadly. Mary +even thought she saw him wink his eyes as if to wink tears away. + +"Poor little kid!" he said. "There is nobody left to come." + +It was in that strange and sudden way that Mary found out that she had +neither father nor mother left; that they had died and been carried +away in the night, and that the few native servants who had not died +also had left the house as quickly as they could get out of it, none of +them even remembering that there was a Missie Sahib. That was why the +place was so quiet. It was true that there was no one in the bungalow +but herself and the little rustling snake. + + + + +CHAPTER II + +MISTRESS MARY QUITE CONTRARY + + +Mary had liked to look at her mother from a distance and she had +thought her very pretty, but as she knew very little of her she could +scarcely have been expected to love her or to miss her very much when +she was gone. She did not miss her at all, in fact, and as she was a +self-absorbed child she gave her entire thought to herself, as she had +always done. If she had been older she would no doubt have been very +anxious at being left alone in the world, but she was very young, and +as she had always been taken care of, she supposed she always would be. +What she thought was that she would like to know if she was going to +nice people, who would be polite to her and give her her own way as her +Ayah and the other native servants had done. + +She knew that she was not going to stay at the English clergyman's +house where she was taken at first. She did not want to stay. The +English clergyman was poor and he had five children nearly all the same +age and they wore shabby clothes and were always quarreling and +snatching toys from each other. Mary hated their untidy bungalow and +was so disagreeable to them that after the first day or two nobody +would play with her. By the second day they had given her a nickname +which made her furious. + +It was Basil who thought of it first. Basil was a little boy with +impudent blue eyes and a turned-up nose, and Mary hated him. She was +playing by herself under a tree, just as she had been playing the day +the cholera broke out. She was making heaps of earth and paths for a +garden and Basil came and stood near to watch her. Presently he got +rather interested and suddenly made a suggestion. + +"Why don't you put a heap of stones there and pretend it is a rockery?" +he said. "There in the middle," and he leaned over her to point. + +"Go away!" cried Mary. "I don't want boys. Go away!" + +For a moment Basil looked angry, and then he began to tease. He was +always teasing his sisters. He danced round and round her and made +faces and sang and laughed. + + "Mistress Mary, quite contrary, + How does your garden grow? + With silver bells, and cockle shells, + And marigolds all in a row." + +He sang it until the other children heard and laughed, too; and the +crosser Mary got, the more they sang "Mistress Mary, quite contrary"; +and after that as long as she stayed with them they called her +"Mistress Mary Quite Contrary" when they spoke of her to each other, +and often when they spoke to her. + +"You are going to be sent home," Basil said to her, "at the end of the +week. And we're glad of it." + +"I am glad of it, too," answered Mary. "Where is home?" + +"She doesn't know where home is!" said Basil, with seven-year-old +scorn. "It's England, of course. Our grandmama lives there and our +sister Mabel was sent to her last year. You are not going to your +grandmama. You have none. You are going to your uncle. His name is +Mr. Archibald Craven." + +"I don't know anything about him," snapped Mary. + +"I know you don't," Basil answered. "You don't know anything. Girls +never do. I heard father and mother talking about him. He lives in a +great, big, desolate old house in the country and no one goes near him. +He's so cross he won't let them, and they wouldn't come if he would let +them. He's a hunchback, and he's horrid." "I don't believe you," said +Mary; and she turned her back and stuck her fingers in her ears, +because she would not listen any more. + +But she thought over it a great deal afterward; and when Mrs. Crawford +told her that night that she was going to sail away to England in a few +days and go to her uncle, Mr. Archibald Craven, who lived at +Misselthwaite Manor, she looked so stony and stubbornly uninterested +that they did not know what to think about her. They tried to be kind +to her, but she only turned her face away when Mrs. Crawford attempted +to kiss her, and held herself stiffly when Mr. Crawford patted her +shoulder. + +"She is such a plain child," Mrs. Crawford said pityingly, afterward. +"And her mother was such a pretty creature. She had a very pretty +manner, too, and Mary has the most unattractive ways I ever saw in a +child. The children call her 'Mistress Mary Quite Contrary,' and +though it's naughty of them, one can't help understanding it." + +"Perhaps if her mother had carried her pretty face and her pretty +manners oftener into the nursery Mary might have learned some pretty +ways too. It is very sad, now the poor beautiful thing is gone, to +remember that many people never even knew that she had a child at all." + +"I believe she scarcely ever looked at her," sighed Mrs. Crawford. +"When her Ayah was dead there was no one to give a thought to the +little thing. Think of the servants running away and leaving her all +alone in that deserted bungalow. Colonel McGrew said he nearly jumped +out of his skin when he opened the door and found her standing by +herself in the middle of the room." + +Mary made the long voyage to England under the care of an officer's +wife, who was taking her children to leave them in a boarding-school. +She was very much absorbed in her own little boy and girl, and was +rather glad to hand the child over to the woman Mr. Archibald Craven +sent to meet her, in London. The woman was his housekeeper at +Misselthwaite Manor, and her name was Mrs. Medlock. She was a stout +woman, with very red cheeks and sharp black eyes. She wore a very +purple dress, a black silk mantle with jet fringe on it and a black +bonnet with purple velvet flowers which stuck up and trembled when she +moved her head. Mary did not like her at all, but as she very seldom +liked people there was nothing remarkable in that; besides which it was +very evident Mrs. Medlock did not think much of her. + +"My word! she's a plain little piece of goods!" she said. "And we'd +heard that her mother was a beauty. She hasn't handed much of it down, +has she, ma'am?" "Perhaps she will improve as she grows older," the +officer's wife said good-naturedly. "If she were not so sallow and had +a nicer expression, her features are rather good. Children alter so +much." + +"She'll have to alter a good deal," answered Mrs. Medlock. "And, +there's nothing likely to improve children at Misselthwaite--if you ask +me!" They thought Mary was not listening because she was standing a +little apart from them at the window of the private hotel they had gone +to. She was watching the passing buses and cabs and people, but she +heard quite well and was made very curious about her uncle and the +place he lived in. What sort of a place was it, and what would he be +like? What was a hunchback? She had never seen one. Perhaps there +were none in India. + +Since she had been living in other people's houses and had had no Ayah, +she had begun to feel lonely and to think queer thoughts which were new +to her. She had begun to wonder why she had never seemed to belong to +anyone even when her father and mother had been alive. Other children +seemed to belong to their fathers and mothers, but she had never seemed +to really be anyone's little girl. She had had servants, and food and +clothes, but no one had taken any notice of her. She did not know that +this was because she was a disagreeable child; but then, of course, she +did not know she was disagreeable. She often thought that other people +were, but she did not know that she was so herself. + +She thought Mrs. Medlock the most disagreeable person she had ever +seen, with her common, highly colored face and her common fine bonnet. +When the next day they set out on their journey to Yorkshire, she +walked through the station to the railway carriage with her head up and +trying to keep as far away from her as she could, because she did not +want to seem to belong to her. It would have made her angry to think +people imagined she was her little girl. + +But Mrs. Medlock was not in the least disturbed by her and her +thoughts. She was the kind of woman who would "stand no nonsense from +young ones." At least, that is what she would have said if she had been +asked. She had not wanted to go to London just when her sister Maria's +daughter was going to be married, but she had a comfortable, well paid +place as housekeeper at Misselthwaite Manor and the only way in which +she could keep it was to do at once what Mr. Archibald Craven told her +to do. She never dared even to ask a question. + +"Captain Lennox and his wife died of the cholera," Mr. Craven had said +in his short, cold way. "Captain Lennox was my wife's brother and I am +their daughter's guardian. The child is to be brought here. You must +go to London and bring her yourself." + +So she packed her small trunk and made the journey. + +Mary sat in her corner of the railway carriage and looked plain and +fretful. She had nothing to read or to look at, and she had folded her +thin little black-gloved hands in her lap. Her black dress made her +look yellower than ever, and her limp light hair straggled from under +her black crepe hat. + +"A more marred-looking young one I never saw in my life," Mrs. Medlock +thought. (Marred is a Yorkshire word and means spoiled and pettish.) +She had never seen a child who sat so still without doing anything; and +at last she got tired of watching her and began to talk in a brisk, +hard voice. + +"I suppose I may as well tell you something about where you are going +to," she said. "Do you know anything about your uncle?" + +"No," said Mary. + +"Never heard your father and mother talk about him?" + +"No," said Mary frowning. She frowned because she remembered that her +father and mother had never talked to her about anything in particular. +Certainly they had never told her things. + +"Humph," muttered Mrs. Medlock, staring at her queer, unresponsive +little face. She did not say any more for a few moments and then she +began again. + +"I suppose you might as well be told something--to prepare you. You +are going to a queer place." + +Mary said nothing at all, and Mrs. Medlock looked rather discomfited by +her apparent indifference, but, after taking a breath, she went on. + +"Not but that it's a grand big place in a gloomy way, and Mr. Craven's +proud of it in his way--and that's gloomy enough, too. The house is +six hundred years old and it's on the edge of the moor, and there's +near a hundred rooms in it, though most of them's shut up and locked. +And there's pictures and fine old furniture and things that's been +there for ages, and there's a big park round it and gardens and trees +with branches trailing to the ground--some of them." She paused and +took another breath. "But there's nothing else," she ended suddenly. + +Mary had begun to listen in spite of herself. It all sounded so unlike +India, and anything new rather attracted her. But she did not intend +to look as if she were interested. That was one of her unhappy, +disagreeable ways. So she sat still. + +"Well," said Mrs. Medlock. "What do you think of it?" + +"Nothing," she answered. "I know nothing about such places." + +That made Mrs. Medlock laugh a short sort of laugh. + +"Eh!" she said, "but you are like an old woman. Don't you care?" + +"It doesn't matter" said Mary, "whether I care or not." + +"You are right enough there," said Mrs. Medlock. "It doesn't. What +you're to be kept at Misselthwaite Manor for I don't know, unless +because it's the easiest way. He's not going to trouble himself about +you, that's sure and certain. He never troubles himself about no one." + +She stopped herself as if she had just remembered something in time. + +"He's got a crooked back," she said. "That set him wrong. He was a +sour young man and got no good of all his money and big place till he +was married." + +Mary's eyes turned toward her in spite of her intention not to seem to +care. She had never thought of the hunchback's being married and she +was a trifle surprised. Mrs. Medlock saw this, and as she was a +talkative woman she continued with more interest. This was one way of +passing some of the time, at any rate. + +"She was a sweet, pretty thing and he'd have walked the world over to +get her a blade o' grass she wanted. Nobody thought she'd marry him, +but she did, and people said she married him for his money. But she +didn't--she didn't," positively. "When she died--" + +Mary gave a little involuntary jump. + +"Oh! did she die!" she exclaimed, quite without meaning to. She had +just remembered a French fairy story she had once read called "Riquet a +la Houppe." It had been about a poor hunchback and a beautiful princess +and it had made her suddenly sorry for Mr. Archibald Craven. + +"Yes, she died," Mrs. Medlock answered. "And it made him queerer than +ever. He cares about nobody. He won't see people. Most of the time +he goes away, and when he is at Misselthwaite he shuts himself up in +the West Wing and won't let any one but Pitcher see him. Pitcher's an +old fellow, but he took care of him when he was a child and he knows +his ways." + +It sounded like something in a book and it did not make Mary feel +cheerful. A house with a hundred rooms, nearly all shut up and with +their doors locked--a house on the edge of a moor--whatsoever a moor +was--sounded dreary. A man with a crooked back who shut himself up +also! She stared out of the window with her lips pinched together, and +it seemed quite natural that the rain should have begun to pour down in +gray slanting lines and splash and stream down the window-panes. If the +pretty wife had been alive she might have made things cheerful by being +something like her own mother and by running in and out and going to +parties as she had done in frocks "full of lace." But she was not there +any more. + +"You needn't expect to see him, because ten to one you won't," said +Mrs. Medlock. "And you mustn't expect that there will be people to +talk to you. You'll have to play about and look after yourself. +You'll be told what rooms you can go into and what rooms you're to keep +out of. There's gardens enough. But when you're in the house don't go +wandering and poking about. Mr. Craven won't have it." + +"I shall not want to go poking about," said sour little Mary and just +as suddenly as she had begun to be rather sorry for Mr. Archibald +Craven she began to cease to be sorry and to think he was unpleasant +enough to deserve all that had happened to him. + +And she turned her face toward the streaming panes of the window of the +railway carriage and gazed out at the gray rain-storm which looked as +if it would go on forever and ever. She watched it so long and +steadily that the grayness grew heavier and heavier before her eyes and +she fell asleep. + + + + +CHAPTER III + +ACROSS THE MOOR + + +She slept a long time, and when she awakened Mrs. Medlock had bought a +lunchbasket at one of the stations and they had some chicken and cold +beef and bread and butter and some hot tea. The rain seemed to be +streaming down more heavily than ever and everybody in the station wore +wet and glistening waterproofs. The guard lighted the lamps in the +carriage, and Mrs. Medlock cheered up very much over her tea and +chicken and beef. She ate a great deal and afterward fell asleep +herself, and Mary sat and stared at her and watched her fine bonnet +slip on one side until she herself fell asleep once more in the corner +of the carriage, lulled by the splashing of the rain against the +windows. It was quite dark when she awakened again. The train had +stopped at a station and Mrs. Medlock was shaking her. + +"You have had a sleep!" she said. "It's time to open your eyes! We're +at Thwaite Station and we've got a long drive before us." + +Mary stood up and tried to keep her eyes open while Mrs. Medlock +collected her parcels. The little girl did not offer to help her, +because in India native servants always picked up or carried things and +it seemed quite proper that other people should wait on one. + +The station was a small one and nobody but themselves seemed to be +getting out of the train. The station-master spoke to Mrs. Medlock in +a rough, good-natured way, pronouncing his words in a queer broad +fashion which Mary found out afterward was Yorkshire. + +"I see tha's got back," he said. "An' tha's browt th' young 'un with +thee." + +"Aye, that's her," answered Mrs. Medlock, speaking with a Yorkshire +accent herself and jerking her head over her shoulder toward Mary. +"How's thy Missus?" + +"Well enow. Th' carriage is waitin' outside for thee." + +A brougham stood on the road before the little outside platform. Mary +saw that it was a smart carriage and that it was a smart footman who +helped her in. His long waterproof coat and the waterproof covering of +his hat were shining and dripping with rain as everything was, the +burly station-master included. + +When he shut the door, mounted the box with the coachman, and they +drove off, the little girl found herself seated in a comfortably +cushioned corner, but she was not inclined to go to sleep again. She +sat and looked out of the window, curious to see something of the road +over which she was being driven to the queer place Mrs. Medlock had +spoken of. She was not at all a timid child and she was not exactly +frightened, but she felt that there was no knowing what might happen in +a house with a hundred rooms nearly all shut up--a house standing on +the edge of a moor. + +"What is a moor?" she said suddenly to Mrs. Medlock. + +"Look out of the window in about ten minutes and you'll see," the woman +answered. "We've got to drive five miles across Missel Moor before we +get to the Manor. You won't see much because it's a dark night, but +you can see something." + +Mary asked no more questions but waited in the darkness of her corner, +keeping her eyes on the window. The carriage lamps cast rays of light +a little distance ahead of them and she caught glimpses of the things +they passed. After they had left the station they had driven through a +tiny village and she had seen whitewashed cottages and the lights of a +public house. Then they had passed a church and a vicarage and a +little shop-window or so in a cottage with toys and sweets and odd +things set out for sale. Then they were on the highroad and she saw +hedges and trees. After that there seemed nothing different for a long +time--or at least it seemed a long time to her. + +At last the horses began to go more slowly, as if they were climbing +up-hill, and presently there seemed to be no more hedges and no more +trees. She could see nothing, in fact, but a dense darkness on either +side. She leaned forward and pressed her face against the window just +as the carriage gave a big jolt. + +"Eh! We're on the moor now sure enough," said Mrs. Medlock. + +The carriage lamps shed a yellow light on a rough-looking road which +seemed to be cut through bushes and low-growing things which ended in +the great expanse of dark apparently spread out before and around them. +A wind was rising and making a singular, wild, low, rushing sound. + +"It's--it's not the sea, is it?" said Mary, looking round at her +companion. + +"No, not it," answered Mrs. Medlock. "Nor it isn't fields nor +mountains, it's just miles and miles and miles of wild land that +nothing grows on but heather and gorse and broom, and nothing lives on +but wild ponies and sheep." + +"I feel as if it might be the sea, if there were water on it," said +Mary. "It sounds like the sea just now." + +"That's the wind blowing through the bushes," Mrs. Medlock said. "It's +a wild, dreary enough place to my mind, though there's plenty that +likes it--particularly when the heather's in bloom." + +On and on they drove through the darkness, and though the rain stopped, +the wind rushed by and whistled and made strange sounds. The road went +up and down, and several times the carriage passed over a little bridge +beneath which water rushed very fast with a great deal of noise. Mary +felt as if the drive would never come to an end and that the wide, +bleak moor was a wide expanse of black ocean through which she was +passing on a strip of dry land. + +"I don't like it," she said to herself. "I don't like it," and she +pinched her thin lips more tightly together. + +The horses were climbing up a hilly piece of road when she first caught +sight of a light. Mrs. Medlock saw it as soon as she did and drew a +long sigh of relief. + +"Eh, I am glad to see that bit o' light twinkling," she exclaimed. +"It's the light in the lodge window. We shall get a good cup of tea +after a bit, at all events." + +It was "after a bit," as she said, for when the carriage passed through +the park gates there was still two miles of avenue to drive through and +the trees (which nearly met overhead) made it seem as if they were +driving through a long dark vault. + +They drove out of the vault into a clear space and stopped before an +immensely long but low-built house which seemed to ramble round a stone +court. At first Mary thought that there were no lights at all in the +windows, but as she got out of the carriage she saw that one room in a +corner upstairs showed a dull glow. + +The entrance door was a huge one made of massive, curiously shaped +panels of oak studded with big iron nails and bound with great iron +bars. It opened into an enormous hall, which was so dimly lighted that +the faces in the portraits on the walls and the figures in the suits of +armor made Mary feel that she did not want to look at them. As she +stood on the stone floor she looked a very small, odd little black +figure, and she felt as small and lost and odd as she looked. + +A neat, thin old man stood near the manservant who opened the door for +them. + +"You are to take her to her room," he said in a husky voice. "He +doesn't want to see her. He's going to London in the morning." + +"Very well, Mr. Pitcher," Mrs. Medlock answered. "So long as I know +what's expected of me, I can manage." + +"What's expected of you, Mrs. Medlock," Mr. Pitcher said, "is that you +make sure that he's not disturbed and that he doesn't see what he +doesn't want to see." + +And then Mary Lennox was led up a broad staircase and down a long +corridor and up a short flight of steps and through another corridor +and another, until a door opened in a wall and she found herself in a +room with a fire in it and a supper on a table. + +Mrs. Medlock said unceremoniously: + +"Well, here you are! This room and the next are where you'll live--and +you must keep to them. Don't you forget that!" + +It was in this way Mistress Mary arrived at Misselthwaite Manor and she +had perhaps never felt quite so contrary in all her life. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + +MARTHA + + +When she opened her eyes in the morning it was because a young +housemaid had come into her room to light the fire and was kneeling on +the hearth-rug raking out the cinders noisily. Mary lay and watched +her for a few moments and then began to look about the room. She had +never seen a room at all like it and thought it curious and gloomy. +The walls were covered with tapestry with a forest scene embroidered on +it. There were fantastically dressed people under the trees and in the +distance there was a glimpse of the turrets of a castle. There were +hunters and horses and dogs and ladies. Mary felt as if she were in +the forest with them. Out of a deep window she could see a great +climbing stretch of land which seemed to have no trees on it, and to +look rather like an endless, dull, purplish sea. + +"What is that?" she said, pointing out of the window. + +Martha, the young housemaid, who had just risen to her feet, looked and +pointed also. "That there?" she said. + +"Yes." + +"That's th' moor," with a good-natured grin. "Does tha' like it?" + +"No," answered Mary. "I hate it." + +"That's because tha'rt not used to it," Martha said, going back to her +hearth. "Tha' thinks it's too big an' bare now. But tha' will like +it." + +"Do you?" inquired Mary. + +"Aye, that I do," answered Martha, cheerfully polishing away at the +grate. "I just love it. It's none bare. It's covered wi' growin' +things as smells sweet. It's fair lovely in spring an' summer when th' +gorse an' broom an' heather's in flower. It smells o' honey an' +there's such a lot o' fresh air--an' th' sky looks so high an' th' bees +an' skylarks makes such a nice noise hummin' an' singin'. Eh! I +wouldn't live away from th' moor for anythin'." + +Mary listened to her with a grave, puzzled expression. The native +servants she had been used to in India were not in the least like this. +They were obsequious and servile and did not presume to talk to their +masters as if they were their equals. They made salaams and called +them "protector of the poor" and names of that sort. Indian servants +were commanded to do things, not asked. It was not the custom to say +"please" and "thank you" and Mary had always slapped her Ayah in the +face when she was angry. She wondered a little what this girl would do +if one slapped her in the face. She was a round, rosy, +good-natured-looking creature, but she had a sturdy way which made +Mistress Mary wonder if she might not even slap back--if the person who +slapped her was only a little girl. + +"You are a strange servant," she said from her pillows, rather +haughtily. + +Martha sat up on her heels, with her blacking-brush in her hand, and +laughed, without seeming the least out of temper. + +"Eh! I know that," she said. "If there was a grand Missus at +Misselthwaite I should never have been even one of th' under +house-maids. I might have been let to be scullerymaid but I'd never +have been let upstairs. I'm too common an' I talk too much Yorkshire. +But this is a funny house for all it's so grand. Seems like there's +neither Master nor Mistress except Mr. Pitcher an' Mrs. Medlock. Mr. +Craven, he won't be troubled about anythin' when he's here, an' he's +nearly always away. Mrs. Medlock gave me th' place out o' kindness. +She told me she could never have done it if Misselthwaite had been like +other big houses." "Are you going to be my servant?" Mary asked, still +in her imperious little Indian way. + +Martha began to rub her grate again. + +"I'm Mrs. Medlock's servant," she said stoutly. "An' she's Mr. +Craven's--but I'm to do the housemaid's work up here an' wait on you a +bit. But you won't need much waitin' on." + +"Who is going to dress me?" demanded Mary. + +Martha sat up on her heels again and stared. She spoke in broad +Yorkshire in her amazement. + +"Canna' tha' dress thysen!" she said. + +"What do you mean? I don't understand your language," said Mary. + +"Eh! I forgot," Martha said. "Mrs. Medlock told me I'd have to be +careful or you wouldn't know what I was sayin'. I mean can't you put +on your own clothes?" + +"No," answered Mary, quite indignantly. "I never did in my life. My +Ayah dressed me, of course." + +"Well," said Martha, evidently not in the least aware that she was +impudent, "it's time tha' should learn. Tha' cannot begin younger. +It'll do thee good to wait on thysen a bit. My mother always said she +couldn't see why grand people's children didn't turn out fair +fools--what with nurses an' bein' washed an' dressed an' took out to +walk as if they was puppies!" + +"It is different in India," said Mistress Mary disdainfully. She could +scarcely stand this. + +But Martha was not at all crushed. + +"Eh! I can see it's different," she answered almost sympathetically. +"I dare say it's because there's such a lot o' blacks there instead o' +respectable white people. When I heard you was comin' from India I +thought you was a black too." + +Mary sat up in bed furious. + +"What!" she said. "What! You thought I was a native. You--you +daughter of a pig!" + +Martha stared and looked hot. + +"Who are you callin' names?" she said. "You needn't be so vexed. +That's not th' way for a young lady to talk. I've nothin' against th' +blacks. When you read about 'em in tracts they're always very +religious. You always read as a black's a man an' a brother. I've +never seen a black an' I was fair pleased to think I was goin' to see +one close. When I come in to light your fire this mornin' I crep' up +to your bed an' pulled th' cover back careful to look at you. An' +there you was," disappointedly, "no more black than me--for all you're +so yeller." + +Mary did not even try to control her rage and humiliation. "You +thought I was a native! You dared! You don't know anything about +natives! They are not people--they're servants who must salaam to you. +You know nothing about India. You know nothing about anything!" + +She was in such a rage and felt so helpless before the girl's simple +stare, and somehow she suddenly felt so horribly lonely and far away +from everything she understood and which understood her, that she threw +herself face downward on the pillows and burst into passionate sobbing. +She sobbed so unrestrainedly that good-natured Yorkshire Martha was a +little frightened and quite sorry for her. She went to the bed and +bent over her. + +"Eh! you mustn't cry like that there!" she begged. "You mustn't for +sure. I didn't know you'd be vexed. I don't know anythin' about +anythin'--just like you said. I beg your pardon, Miss. Do stop cryin'." + +There was something comforting and really friendly in her queer +Yorkshire speech and sturdy way which had a good effect on Mary. She +gradually ceased crying and became quiet. Martha looked relieved. + +"It's time for thee to get up now," she said. "Mrs. Medlock said I was +to carry tha' breakfast an' tea an' dinner into th' room next to this. +It's been made into a nursery for thee. I'll help thee on with thy +clothes if tha'll get out o' bed. If th' buttons are at th' back tha' +cannot button them up tha'self." + +When Mary at last decided to get up, the clothes Martha took from the +wardrobe were not the ones she had worn when she arrived the night +before with Mrs. Medlock. + +"Those are not mine," she said. "Mine are black." + +She looked the thick white wool coat and dress over, and added with +cool approval: + +"Those are nicer than mine." + +"These are th' ones tha' must put on," Martha answered. "Mr. Craven +ordered Mrs. Medlock to get 'em in London. He said 'I won't have a +child dressed in black wanderin' about like a lost soul,' he said. +'It'd make the place sadder than it is. Put color on her.' Mother she +said she knew what he meant. Mother always knows what a body means. +She doesn't hold with black hersel'." + +"I hate black things," said Mary. + +The dressing process was one which taught them both something. Martha +had "buttoned up" her little sisters and brothers but she had never +seen a child who stood still and waited for another person to do things +for her as if she had neither hands nor feet of her own. + +"Why doesn't tha' put on tha' own shoes?" she said when Mary quietly +held out her foot. + +"My Ayah did it," answered Mary, staring. "It was the custom." + +She said that very often--"It was the custom." The native servants were +always saying it. If one told them to do a thing their ancestors had +not done for a thousand years they gazed at one mildly and said, "It is +not the custom" and one knew that was the end of the matter. + +It had not been the custom that Mistress Mary should do anything but +stand and allow herself to be dressed like a doll, but before she was +ready for breakfast she began to suspect that her life at Misselthwaite +Manor would end by teaching her a number of things quite new to +her--things such as putting on her own shoes and stockings, and picking +up things she let fall. If Martha had been a well-trained fine young +lady's maid she would have been more subservient and respectful and +would have known that it was her business to brush hair, and button +boots, and pick things up and lay them away. She was, however, only an +untrained Yorkshire rustic who had been brought up in a moorland +cottage with a swarm of little brothers and sisters who had never +dreamed of doing anything but waiting on themselves and on the younger +ones who were either babies in arms or just learning to totter about +and tumble over things. + +If Mary Lennox had been a child who was ready to be amused she would +perhaps have laughed at Martha's readiness to talk, but Mary only +listened to her coldly and wondered at her freedom of manner. At first +she was not at all interested, but gradually, as the girl rattled on in +her good-tempered, homely way, Mary began to notice what she was saying. + +"Eh! you should see 'em all," she said. "There's twelve of us an' my +father only gets sixteen shilling a week. I can tell you my mother's +put to it to get porridge for 'em all. They tumble about on th' moor +an' play there all day an' mother says th' air of th' moor fattens 'em. +She says she believes they eat th' grass same as th' wild ponies do. +Our Dickon, he's twelve years old and he's got a young pony he calls +his own." + +"Where did he get it?" asked Mary. + +"He found it on th' moor with its mother when it was a little one an' +he began to make friends with it an' give it bits o' bread an' pluck +young grass for it. And it got to like him so it follows him about an' +it lets him get on its back. Dickon's a kind lad an' animals likes +him." + +Mary had never possessed an animal pet of her own and had always +thought she should like one. So she began to feel a slight interest in +Dickon, and as she had never before been interested in any one but +herself, it was the dawning of a healthy sentiment. When she went into +the room which had been made into a nursery for her, she found that it +was rather like the one she had slept in. It was not a child's room, +but a grown-up person's room, with gloomy old pictures on the walls and +heavy old oak chairs. A table in the center was set with a good +substantial breakfast. But she had always had a very small appetite, +and she looked with something more than indifference at the first plate +Martha set before her. + +"I don't want it," she said. + +"Tha' doesn't want thy porridge!" Martha exclaimed incredulously. + +"No." + +"Tha' doesn't know how good it is. Put a bit o' treacle on it or a bit +o' sugar." + +"I don't want it," repeated Mary. + +"Eh!" said Martha. "I can't abide to see good victuals go to waste. +If our children was at this table they'd clean it bare in five minutes." + +"Why?" said Mary coldly. "Why!" echoed Martha. "Because they scarce +ever had their stomachs full in their lives. They're as hungry as +young hawks an' foxes." + +"I don't know what it is to be hungry," said Mary, with the +indifference of ignorance. + +Martha looked indignant. + +"Well, it would do thee good to try it. I can see that plain enough," +she said outspokenly. "I've no patience with folk as sits an' just +stares at good bread an' meat. My word! don't I wish Dickon and Phil +an' Jane an' th' rest of 'em had what's here under their pinafores." + +"Why don't you take it to them?" suggested Mary. + +"It's not mine," answered Martha stoutly. "An' this isn't my day out. +I get my day out once a month same as th' rest. Then I go home an' +clean up for mother an' give her a day's rest." + +Mary drank some tea and ate a little toast and some marmalade. + +"You wrap up warm an' run out an' play you," said Martha. "It'll do +you good and give you some stomach for your meat." + +Mary went to the window. There were gardens and paths and big trees, +but everything looked dull and wintry. + +"Out? Why should I go out on a day like this?" "Well, if tha' doesn't +go out tha'lt have to stay in, an' what has tha' got to do?" + +Mary glanced about her. There was nothing to do. When Mrs. Medlock +had prepared the nursery she had not thought of amusement. Perhaps it +would be better to go and see what the gardens were like. + +"Who will go with me?" she inquired. + +Martha stared. + +"You'll go by yourself," she answered. "You'll have to learn to play +like other children does when they haven't got sisters and brothers. +Our Dickon goes off on th' moor by himself an' plays for hours. That's +how he made friends with th' pony. He's got sheep on th' moor that +knows him, an' birds as comes an' eats out of his hand. However little +there is to eat, he always saves a bit o' his bread to coax his pets." + +It was really this mention of Dickon which made Mary decide to go out, +though she was not aware of it. There would be, birds outside though +there would not be ponies or sheep. They would be different from the +birds in India and it might amuse her to look at them. + +Martha found her coat and hat for her and a pair of stout little boots +and she showed her her way downstairs. + +"If tha' goes round that way tha'll come to th' gardens," she said, +pointing to a gate in a wall of shrubbery. "There's lots o' flowers in +summer-time, but there's nothin' bloomin' now." She seemed to hesitate +a second before she added, "One of th' gardens is locked up. No one +has been in it for ten years." + +"Why?" asked Mary in spite of herself. Here was another locked door +added to the hundred in the strange house. + +"Mr. Craven had it shut when his wife died so sudden. He won't let no +one go inside. It was her garden. He locked th' door an' dug a hole +and buried th' key. There's Mrs. Medlock's bell ringing--I must run." + +After she was gone Mary turned down the walk which led to the door in +the shrubbery. She could not help thinking about the garden which no +one had been into for ten years. She wondered what it would look like +and whether there were any flowers still alive in it. When she had +passed through the shrubbery gate she found herself in great gardens, +with wide lawns and winding walks with clipped borders. There were +trees, and flower-beds, and evergreens clipped into strange shapes, and +a large pool with an old gray fountain in its midst. But the +flower-beds were bare and wintry and the fountain was not playing. +This was not the garden which was shut up. How could a garden be shut +up? You could always walk into a garden. + +She was just thinking this when she saw that, at the end of the path +she was following, there seemed to be a long wall, with ivy growing +over it. She was not familiar enough with England to know that she was +coming upon the kitchen-gardens where the vegetables and fruit were +growing. She went toward the wall and found that there was a green +door in the ivy, and that it stood open. This was not the closed +garden, evidently, and she could go into it. + +She went through the door and found that it was a garden with walls all +round it and that it was only one of several walled gardens which +seemed to open into one another. She saw another open green door, +revealing bushes and pathways between beds containing winter +vegetables. Fruit-trees were trained flat against the wall, and over +some of the beds there were glass frames. The place was bare and ugly +enough, Mary thought, as she stood and stared about her. It might be +nicer in summer when things were green, but there was nothing pretty +about it now. + +Presently an old man with a spade over his shoulder walked through the +door leading from the second garden. He looked startled when he saw +Mary, and then touched his cap. He had a surly old face, and did not +seem at all pleased to see her--but then she was displeased with his +garden and wore her "quite contrary" expression, and certainly did not +seem at all pleased to see him. + +"What is this place?" she asked. + +"One o' th' kitchen-gardens," he answered. + +"What is that?" said Mary, pointing through the other green door. + +"Another of 'em," shortly. "There's another on t'other side o' th' +wall an' there's th' orchard t'other side o' that." + +"Can I go in them?" asked Mary. + +"If tha' likes. But there's nowt to see." + +Mary made no response. She went down the path and through the second +green door. There, she found more walls and winter vegetables and +glass frames, but in the second wall there was another green door and +it was not open. Perhaps it led into the garden which no one had seen +for ten years. As she was not at all a timid child and always did what +she wanted to do, Mary went to the green door and turned the handle. +She hoped the door would not open because she wanted to be sure she had +found the mysterious garden--but it did open quite easily and she +walked through it and found herself in an orchard. There were walls +all round it also and trees trained against them, and there were bare +fruit-trees growing in the winter-browned grass--but there was no green +door to be seen anywhere. Mary looked for it, and yet when she had +entered the upper end of the garden she had noticed that the wall did +not seem to end with the orchard but to extend beyond it as if it +enclosed a place at the other side. She could see the tops of trees +above the wall, and when she stood still she saw a bird with a bright +red breast sitting on the topmost branch of one of them, and suddenly +he burst into his winter song--almost as if he had caught sight of her +and was calling to her. + +She stopped and listened to him and somehow his cheerful, friendly +little whistle gave her a pleased feeling--even a disagreeable little +girl may be lonely, and the big closed house and big bare moor and big +bare gardens had made this one feel as if there was no one left in the +world but herself. If she had been an affectionate child, who had been +used to being loved, she would have broken her heart, but even though +she was "Mistress Mary Quite Contrary" she was desolate, and the +bright-breasted little bird brought a look into her sour little face +which was almost a smile. She listened to him until he flew away. He +was not like an Indian bird and she liked him and wondered if she +should ever see him again. Perhaps he lived in the mysterious garden +and knew all about it. + +Perhaps it was because she had nothing whatever to do that she thought +so much of the deserted garden. She was curious about it and wanted to +see what it was like. Why had Mr. Archibald Craven buried the key? If +he had liked his wife so much why did he hate her garden? She wondered +if she should ever see him, but she knew that if she did she should not +like him, and he would not like her, and that she should only stand and +stare at him and say nothing, though she should be wanting dreadfully +to ask him why he had done such a queer thing. + +"People never like me and I never like people," she thought. "And I +never can talk as the Crawford children could. They were always +talking and laughing and making noises." + +She thought of the robin and of the way he seemed to sing his song at +her, and as she remembered the tree-top he perched on she stopped +rather suddenly on the path. + +"I believe that tree was in the secret garden--I feel sure it was," she +said. "There was a wall round the place and there was no door." + +She walked back into the first kitchen-garden she had entered and found +the old man digging there. She went and stood beside him and watched +him a few moments in her cold little way. He took no notice of her and +so at last she spoke to him. + +"I have been into the other gardens," she said. + +"There was nothin' to prevent thee," he answered crustily. + +"I went into the orchard." + +"There was no dog at th' door to bite thee," he answered. + +"There was no door there into the other garden," said Mary. + +"What garden?" he said in a rough voice, stopping his digging for a +moment. + +"The one on the other side of the wall," answered Mistress Mary. +"There are trees there--I saw the tops of them. A bird with a red +breast was sitting on one of them and he sang." + +To her surprise the surly old weather-beaten face actually changed its +expression. A slow smile spread over it and the gardener looked quite +different. It made her think that it was curious how much nicer a +person looked when he smiled. She had not thought of it before. + +He turned about to the orchard side of his garden and began to +whistle--a low soft whistle. She could not understand how such a surly +man could make such a coaxing sound. Almost the next moment a +wonderful thing happened. She heard a soft little rushing flight +through the air--and it was the bird with the red breast flying to +them, and he actually alighted on the big clod of earth quite near to +the gardener's foot. + +"Here he is," chuckled the old man, and then he spoke to the bird as if +he were speaking to a child. + +"Where has tha' been, tha' cheeky little beggar?" he said. "I've not +seen thee before today. Has tha, begun tha' courtin' this early in th' +season? Tha'rt too forrad." + +The bird put his tiny head on one side and looked up at him with his +soft bright eye which was like a black dewdrop. He seemed quite +familiar and not the least afraid. He hopped about and pecked the +earth briskly, looking for seeds and insects. It actually gave Mary a +queer feeling in her heart, because he was so pretty and cheerful and +seemed so like a person. He had a tiny plump body and a delicate beak, +and slender delicate legs. + +"Will he always come when you call him?" she asked almost in a whisper. + +"Aye, that he will. I've knowed him ever since he was a fledgling. He +come out of th' nest in th' other garden an' when first he flew over +th' wall he was too weak to fly back for a few days an' we got +friendly. When he went over th' wall again th' rest of th' brood was +gone an' he was lonely an' he come back to me." + +"What kind of a bird is he?" Mary asked. + +"Doesn't tha' know? He's a robin redbreast an' they're th' friendliest, +curiousest birds alive. They're almost as friendly as dogs--if you +know how to get on with 'em. Watch him peckin' about there an' lookin' +round at us now an' again. He knows we're talkin' about him." + +It was the queerest thing in the world to see the old fellow. He +looked at the plump little scarlet-waistcoated bird as if he were both +proud and fond of him. + +"He's a conceited one," he chuckled. "He likes to hear folk talk about +him. An' curious--bless me, there never was his like for curiosity an' +meddlin'. He's always comin' to see what I'm plantin'. He knows all th' +things Mester Craven never troubles hissel' to find out. He's th' head +gardener, he is." + +The robin hopped about busily pecking the soil and now and then stopped +and looked at them a little. Mary thought his black dewdrop eyes gazed +at her with great curiosity. It really seemed as if he were finding +out all about her. The queer feeling in her heart increased. "Where +did the rest of the brood fly to?" she asked. + +"There's no knowin'. The old ones turn 'em out o' their nest an' make +'em fly an' they're scattered before you know it. This one was a +knowin' one an' he knew he was lonely." + +Mistress Mary went a step nearer to the robin and looked at him very +hard. + +"I'm lonely," she said. + +She had not known before that this was one of the things which made her +feel sour and cross. She seemed to find it out when the robin looked +at her and she looked at the robin. + +The old gardener pushed his cap back on his bald head and stared at her +a minute. + +"Art tha' th' little wench from India?" he asked. + +Mary nodded. + +"Then no wonder tha'rt lonely. Tha'lt be lonlier before tha's done," +he said. + +He began to dig again, driving his spade deep into the rich black +garden soil while the robin hopped about very busily employed. + +"What is your name?" Mary inquired. + +He stood up to answer her. + +"Ben Weatherstaff," he answered, and then he added with a surly +chuckle, "I'm lonely mysel' except when he's with me," and he jerked +his thumb toward the robin. "He's th' only friend I've got." + +"I have no friends at all," said Mary. "I never had. My Ayah didn't +like me and I never played with any one." + +It is a Yorkshire habit to say what you think with blunt frankness, and +old Ben Weatherstaff was a Yorkshire moor man. + +"Tha' an' me are a good bit alike," he said. "We was wove out of th' +same cloth. We're neither of us good lookin' an' we're both of us as +sour as we look. We've got the same nasty tempers, both of us, I'll +warrant." + +This was plain speaking, and Mary Lennox had never heard the truth +about herself in her life. Native servants always salaamed and +submitted to you, whatever you did. She had never thought much about +her looks, but she wondered if she was as unattractive as Ben +Weatherstaff and she also wondered if she looked as sour as he had +looked before the robin came. She actually began to wonder also if she +was "nasty tempered." She felt uncomfortable. + +Suddenly a clear rippling little sound broke out near her and she +turned round. She was standing a few feet from a young apple-tree and +the robin had flown on to one of its branches and had burst out into a +scrap of a song. Ben Weatherstaff laughed outright. + +"What did he do that for?" asked Mary. + +"He's made up his mind to make friends with thee," replied Ben. "Dang +me if he hasn't took a fancy to thee." + +"To me?" said Mary, and she moved toward the little tree softly and +looked up. + +"Would you make friends with me?" she said to the robin just as if she +was speaking to a person. "Would you?" And she did not say it either +in her hard little voice or in her imperious Indian voice, but in a +tone so soft and eager and coaxing that Ben Weatherstaff was as +surprised as she had been when she heard him whistle. + +"Why," he cried out, "tha' said that as nice an' human as if tha' was a +real child instead of a sharp old woman. Tha' said it almost like +Dickon talks to his wild things on th' moor." + +"Do you know Dickon?" Mary asked, turning round rather in a hurry. + +"Everybody knows him. Dickon's wanderin' about everywhere. Th' very +blackberries an' heather-bells knows him. I warrant th' foxes shows +him where their cubs lies an' th' skylarks doesn't hide their nests +from him." + +Mary would have liked to ask some more questions. She was almost as +curious about Dickon as she was about the deserted garden. But just +that moment the robin, who had ended his song, gave a little shake of +his wings, spread them and flew away. He had made his visit and had +other things to do. + +"He has flown over the wall!" Mary cried out, watching him. "He has +flown into the orchard--he has flown across the other wall--into the +garden where there is no door!" + +"He lives there," said old Ben. "He came out o' th' egg there. If +he's courtin', he's makin' up to some young madam of a robin that lives +among th' old rose-trees there." + +"Rose-trees," said Mary. "Are there rose-trees?" + +Ben Weatherstaff took up his spade again and began to dig. + +"There was ten year' ago," he mumbled. + +"I should like to see them," said Mary. "Where is the green door? +There must be a door somewhere." + +Ben drove his spade deep and looked as uncompanionable as he had looked +when she first saw him. + +"There was ten year' ago, but there isn't now," he said. + +"No door!" cried Mary. "There must be." "None as any one can find, an' +none as is any one's business. Don't you be a meddlesome wench an' +poke your nose where it's no cause to go. Here, I must go on with my +work. Get you gone an' play you. I've no more time." + +And he actually stopped digging, threw his spade over his shoulder and +walked off, without even glancing at her or saying good-by. + + + + +CHAPTER V + +THE CRY IN THE CORRIDOR + + +At first each day which passed by for Mary Lennox was exactly like the +others. Every morning she awoke in her tapestried room and found +Martha kneeling upon the hearth building her fire; every morning she +ate her breakfast in the nursery which had nothing amusing in it; and +after each breakfast she gazed out of the window across to the huge +moor which seemed to spread out on all sides and climb up to the sky, +and after she had stared for a while she realized that if she did not +go out she would have to stay in and do nothing--and so she went out. +She did not know that this was the best thing she could have done, and +she did not know that, when she began to walk quickly or even run along +the paths and down the avenue, she was stirring her slow blood and +making herself stronger by fighting with the wind which swept down from +the moor. She ran only to make herself warm, and she hated the wind +which rushed at her face and roared and held her back as if it were +some giant she could not see. But the big breaths of rough fresh air +blown over the heather filled her lungs with something which was good +for her whole thin body and whipped some red color into her cheeks and +brightened her dull eyes when she did not know anything about it. + +But after a few days spent almost entirely out of doors she wakened one +morning knowing what it was to be hungry, and when she sat down to her +breakfast she did not glance disdainfully at her porridge and push it +away, but took up her spoon and began to eat it and went on eating it +until her bowl was empty. + +"Tha' got on well enough with that this mornin', didn't tha'?" said +Martha. + +"It tastes nice today," said Mary, feeling a little surprised her self. + +"It's th' air of th' moor that's givin' thee stomach for tha' +victuals," answered Martha. "It's lucky for thee that tha's got +victuals as well as appetite. There's been twelve in our cottage as +had th' stomach an' nothin' to put in it. You go on playin' you out o' +doors every day an' you'll get some flesh on your bones an' you won't +be so yeller." + +"I don't play," said Mary. "I have nothing to play with." + +"Nothin' to play with!" exclaimed Martha. "Our children plays with +sticks and stones. They just runs about an' shouts an' looks at +things." Mary did not shout, but she looked at things. There was +nothing else to do. She walked round and round the gardens and +wandered about the paths in the park. Sometimes she looked for Ben +Weatherstaff, but though several times she saw him at work he was too +busy to look at her or was too surly. Once when she was walking toward +him he picked up his spade and turned away as if he did it on purpose. + +One place she went to oftener than to any other. It was the long walk +outside the gardens with the walls round them. There were bare +flower-beds on either side of it and against the walls ivy grew +thickly. There was one part of the wall where the creeping dark green +leaves were more bushy than elsewhere. It seemed as if for a long time +that part had been neglected. The rest of it had been clipped and made +to look neat, but at this lower end of the walk it had not been trimmed +at all. + +A few days after she had talked to Ben Weatherstaff, Mary stopped to +notice this and wondered why it was so. She had just paused and was +looking up at a long spray of ivy swinging in the wind when she saw a +gleam of scarlet and heard a brilliant chirp, and there, on the top of +the wall, forward perched Ben Weatherstaff's robin redbreast, tilting +forward to look at her with his small head on one side. + +"Oh!" she cried out, "is it you--is it you?" And it did not seem at all +queer to her that she spoke to him as if she were sure that he would +understand and answer her. + +He did answer. He twittered and chirped and hopped along the wall as +if he were telling her all sorts of things. It seemed to Mistress Mary +as if she understood him, too, though he was not speaking in words. It +was as if he said: + +"Good morning! Isn't the wind nice? Isn't the sun nice? Isn't +everything nice? Let us both chirp and hop and twitter. Come on! Come +on!" + +Mary began to laugh, and as he hopped and took little flights along the +wall she ran after him. Poor little thin, sallow, ugly Mary--she +actually looked almost pretty for a moment. + +"I like you! I like you!" she cried out, pattering down the walk; and +she chirped and tried to whistle, which last she did not know how to do +in the least. But the robin seemed to be quite satisfied and chirped +and whistled back at her. At last he spread his wings and made a +darting flight to the top of a tree, where he perched and sang loudly. +That reminded Mary of the first time she had seen him. He had been +swinging on a tree-top then and she had been standing in the orchard. +Now she was on the other side of the orchard and standing in the path +outside a wall--much lower down--and there was the same tree inside. + +"It's in the garden no one can go into," she said to herself. "It's +the garden without a door. He lives in there. How I wish I could see +what it is like!" + +She ran up the walk to the green door she had entered the first +morning. Then she ran down the path through the other door and then +into the orchard, and when she stood and looked up there was the tree +on the other side of the wall, and there was the robin just finishing +his song and, beginning to preen his feathers with his beak. + +"It is the garden," she said. "I am sure it is." + +She walked round and looked closely at that side of the orchard wall, +but she only found what she had found before--that there was no door in +it. Then she ran through the kitchen-gardens again and out into the +walk outside the long ivy-covered wall, and she walked to the end of it +and looked at it, but there was no door; and then she walked to the +other end, looking again, but there was no door. + +"It's very queer," she said. "Ben Weatherstaff said there was no door +and there is no door. But there must have been one ten years ago, +because Mr. Craven buried the key." + +This gave her so much to think of that she began to be quite interested +and feel that she was not sorry that she had come to Misselthwaite +Manor. In India she had always felt hot and too languid to care much +about anything. The fact was that the fresh wind from the moor had +begun to blow the cobwebs out of her young brain and to waken her up a +little. + +She stayed out of doors nearly all day, and when she sat down to her +supper at night she felt hungry and drowsy and comfortable. She did +not feel cross when Martha chattered away. She felt as if she rather +liked to hear her, and at last she thought she would ask her a +question. She asked it after she had finished her supper and had sat +down on the hearth-rug before the fire. + +"Why did Mr. Craven hate the garden?" she said. + +She had made Martha stay with her and Martha had not objected at all. +She was very young, and used to a crowded cottage full of brothers and +sisters, and she found it dull in the great servants' hall downstairs +where the footman and upper-housemaids made fun of her Yorkshire speech +and looked upon her as a common little thing, and sat and whispered +among themselves. Martha liked to talk, and the strange child who had +lived in India, and been waited upon by "blacks," was novelty enough to +attract her. + +She sat down on the hearth herself without waiting to be asked. + +"Art tha' thinkin' about that garden yet?" she said. "I knew tha' +would. That was just the way with me when I first heard about it." + +"Why did he hate it?" Mary persisted. + +Martha tucked her feet under her and made herself quite comfortable. + +"Listen to th' wind wutherin' round the house," she said. "You could +bare stand up on the moor if you was out on it tonight." + +Mary did not know what "wutherin'" meant until she listened, and then +she understood. It must mean that hollow shuddering sort of roar which +rushed round and round the house as if the giant no one could see were +buffeting it and beating at the walls and windows to try to break in. +But one knew he could not get in, and somehow it made one feel very +safe and warm inside a room with a red coal fire. + +"But why did he hate it so?" she asked, after she had listened. She +intended to know if Martha did. + +Then Martha gave up her store of knowledge. + +"Mind," she said, "Mrs. Medlock said it's not to be talked about. +There's lots o' things in this place that's not to be talked over. +That's Mr. Craven's orders. His troubles are none servants' business, +he says. But for th' garden he wouldn't be like he is. It was Mrs. +Craven's garden that she had made when first they were married an' she +just loved it, an' they used to 'tend the flowers themselves. An' none +o' th' gardeners was ever let to go in. Him an' her used to go in an' +shut th' door an' stay there hours an' hours, readin' and talkin'. An' +she was just a bit of a girl an' there was an old tree with a branch +bent like a seat on it. An' she made roses grow over it an' she used +to sit there. But one day when she was sittin' there th' branch broke +an' she fell on th' ground an' was hurt so bad that next day she died. +Th' doctors thought he'd go out o' his mind an' die, too. That's why +he hates it. No one's never gone in since, an' he won't let any one +talk about it." + +Mary did not ask any more questions. She looked at the red fire and +listened to the wind "wutherin'." It seemed to be "wutherin'" louder +than ever. At that moment a very good thing was happening to her. +Four good things had happened to her, in fact, since she came to +Misselthwaite Manor. She had felt as if she had understood a robin and +that he had understood her; she had run in the wind until her blood had +grown warm; she had been healthily hungry for the first time in her +life; and she had found out what it was to be sorry for some one. + +But as she was listening to the wind she began to listen to something +else. She did not know what it was, because at first she could +scarcely distinguish it from the wind itself. It was a curious +sound--it seemed almost as if a child were crying somewhere. Sometimes +the wind sounded rather like a child crying, but presently Mistress +Mary felt quite sure this sound was inside the house, not outside it. +It was far away, but it was inside. She turned round and looked at +Martha. + +"Do you hear any one crying?" she said. + +Martha suddenly looked confused. + +"No," she answered. "It's th' wind. Sometimes it sounds like as if +some one was lost on th' moor an' wailin'. It's got all sorts o' +sounds." + +"But listen," said Mary. "It's in the house--down one of those long +corridors." + +And at that very moment a door must have been opened somewhere +downstairs; for a great rushing draft blew along the passage and the +door of the room they sat in was blown open with a crash, and as they +both jumped to their feet the light was blown out and the crying sound +was swept down the far corridor so that it was to be heard more plainly +than ever. + +"There!" said Mary. "I told you so! It is some one crying--and it +isn't a grown-up person." + +Martha ran and shut the door and turned the key, but before she did it +they both heard the sound of a door in some far passage shutting with a +bang, and then everything was quiet, for even the wind ceased +"wutherin'" for a few moments. + +"It was th' wind," said Martha stubbornly. "An' if it wasn't, it was +little Betty Butterworth, th' scullery-maid. She's had th' toothache +all day." + +But something troubled and awkward in her manner made Mistress Mary +stare very hard at her. She did not believe she was speaking the truth. + + + + +CHAPTER VI + +"THERE WAS SOME ONE CRYING--THERE WAS!" + + +The next day the rain poured down in torrents again, and when Mary +looked out of her window the moor was almost hidden by gray mist and +cloud. There could be no going out today. + +"What do you do in your cottage when it rains like this?" she asked +Martha. + +"Try to keep from under each other's feet mostly," Martha answered. +"Eh! there does seem a lot of us then. Mother's a good-tempered woman +but she gets fair moithered. The biggest ones goes out in th' cow-shed +and plays there. Dickon he doesn't mind th' wet. He goes out just th' +same as if th' sun was shinin'. He says he sees things on rainy days as +doesn't show when it's fair weather. He once found a little fox cub +half drowned in its hole and he brought it home in th' bosom of his +shirt to keep it warm. Its mother had been killed nearby an' th' hole +was swum out an' th' rest o' th' litter was dead. He's got it at home +now. He found a half-drowned young crow another time an' he brought it +home, too, an' tamed it. It's named Soot because it's so black, an' it +hops an' flies about with him everywhere." + +The time had come when Mary had forgotten to resent Martha's familiar +talk. She had even begun to find it interesting and to be sorry when +she stopped or went away. The stories she had been told by her Ayah +when she lived in India had been quite unlike those Martha had to tell +about the moorland cottage which held fourteen people who lived in four +little rooms and never had quite enough to eat. The children seemed to +tumble about and amuse themselves like a litter of rough, good-natured +collie puppies. Mary was most attracted by the mother and Dickon. +When Martha told stories of what "mother" said or did they always +sounded comfortable. + +"If I had a raven or a fox cub I could play with it," said Mary. "But +I have nothing." + +Martha looked perplexed. + +"Can tha' knit?" she asked. + +"No," answered Mary. + +"Can tha' sew?" + +"No." + +"Can tha' read?" + +"Yes." + +"Then why doesn't tha, read somethin', or learn a bit o' spellin'? +Tha'st old enough to be learnin' thy book a good bit now." + +"I haven't any books," said Mary. "Those I had were left in India." + +"That's a pity," said Martha. "If Mrs. Medlock'd let thee go into th' +library, there's thousands o' books there." + +Mary did not ask where the library was, because she was suddenly +inspired by a new idea. She made up her mind to go and find it +herself. She was not troubled about Mrs. Medlock. Mrs. Medlock seemed +always to be in her comfortable housekeeper's sitting-room downstairs. +In this queer place one scarcely ever saw any one at all. In fact, +there was no one to see but the servants, and when their master was +away they lived a luxurious life below stairs, where there was a huge +kitchen hung about with shining brass and pewter, and a large servants' +hall where there were four or five abundant meals eaten every day, and +where a great deal of lively romping went on when Mrs. Medlock was out +of the way. + +Mary's meals were served regularly, and Martha waited on her, but no +one troubled themselves about her in the least. Mrs. Medlock came and +looked at her every day or two, but no one inquired what she did or +told her what to do. She supposed that perhaps this was the English +way of treating children. In India she had always been attended by her +Ayah, who had followed her about and waited on her, hand and foot. She +had often been tired of her company. Now she was followed by nobody +and was learning to dress herself because Martha looked as though she +thought she was silly and stupid when she wanted to have things handed +to her and put on. + +"Hasn't tha' got good sense?" she said once, when Mary had stood +waiting for her to put on her gloves for her. "Our Susan Ann is twice +as sharp as thee an' she's only four year' old. Sometimes tha' looks +fair soft in th' head." + +Mary had worn her contrary scowl for an hour after that, but it made +her think several entirely new things. + +She stood at the window for about ten minutes this morning after Martha +had swept up the hearth for the last time and gone downstairs. She was +thinking over the new idea which had come to her when she heard of the +library. She did not care very much about the library itself, because +she had read very few books; but to hear of it brought back to her mind +the hundred rooms with closed doors. She wondered if they were all +really locked and what she would find if she could get into any of +them. Were there a hundred really? Why shouldn't she go and see how +many doors she could count? It would be something to do on this morning +when she could not go out. She had never been taught to ask permission +to do things, and she knew nothing at all about authority, so she would +not have thought it necessary to ask Mrs. Medlock if she might walk +about the house, even if she had seen her. + +She opened the door of the room and went into the corridor, and then +she began her wanderings. It was a long corridor and it branched into +other corridors and it led her up short flights of steps which mounted +to others again. There were doors and doors, and there were pictures +on the walls. Sometimes they were pictures of dark, curious +landscapes, but oftenest they were portraits of men and women in queer, +grand costumes made of satin and velvet. She found herself in one long +gallery whose walls were covered with these portraits. She had never +thought there could be so many in any house. She walked slowly down +this place and stared at the faces which also seemed to stare at her. +She felt as if they were wondering what a little girl from India was +doing in their house. Some were pictures of children--little girls in +thick satin frocks which reached to their feet and stood out about +them, and boys with puffed sleeves and lace collars and long hair, or +with big ruffs around their necks. She always stopped to look at the +children, and wonder what their names were, and where they had gone, +and why they wore such odd clothes. There was a stiff, plain little +girl rather like herself. She wore a green brocade dress and held a +green parrot on her finger. Her eyes had a sharp, curious look. + +"Where do you live now?" said Mary aloud to her. "I wish you were +here." + +Surely no other little girl ever spent such a queer morning. It seemed +as if there was no one in all the huge rambling house but her own small +self, wandering about upstairs and down, through narrow passages and +wide ones, where it seemed to her that no one but herself had ever +walked. Since so many rooms had been built, people must have lived in +them, but it all seemed so empty that she could not quite believe it +true. + +It was not until she climbed to the second floor that she thought of +turning the handle of a door. All the doors were shut, as Mrs. Medlock +had said they were, but at last she put her hand on the handle of one +of them and turned it. She was almost frightened for a moment when she +felt that it turned without difficulty and that when she pushed upon +the door itself it slowly and heavily opened. It was a massive door +and opened into a big bedroom. There were embroidered hangings on the +wall, and inlaid furniture such as she had seen in India stood about +the room. A broad window with leaded panes looked out upon the moor; +and over the mantel was another portrait of the stiff, plain little +girl who seemed to stare at her more curiously than ever. + +"Perhaps she slept here once," said Mary. "She stares at me so that +she makes me feel queer." + +After that she opened more doors and more. She saw so many rooms that +she became quite tired and began to think that there must be a hundred, +though she had not counted them. In all of them there were old +pictures or old tapestries with strange scenes worked on them. There +were curious pieces of furniture and curious ornaments in nearly all of +them. + +In one room, which looked like a lady's sitting-room, the hangings were +all embroidered velvet, and in a cabinet were about a hundred little +elephants made of ivory. They were of different sizes, and some had +their mahouts or palanquins on their backs. Some were much bigger than +the others and some were so tiny that they seemed only babies. Mary +had seen carved ivory in India and she knew all about elephants. She +opened the door of the cabinet and stood on a footstool and played with +these for quite a long time. When she got tired she set the elephants +in order and shut the door of the cabinet. + +In all her wanderings through the long corridors and the empty rooms, +she had seen nothing alive; but in this room she saw something. Just +after she had closed the cabinet door she heard a tiny rustling sound. +It made her jump and look around at the sofa by the fireplace, from +which it seemed to come. In the corner of the sofa there was a +cushion, and in the velvet which covered it there was a hole, and out +of the hole peeped a tiny head with a pair of frightened eyes in it. + +Mary crept softly across the room to look. The bright eyes belonged to +a little gray mouse, and the mouse had eaten a hole into the cushion +and made a comfortable nest there. Six baby mice were cuddled up +asleep near her. If there was no one else alive in the hundred rooms +there were seven mice who did not look lonely at all. + +"If they wouldn't be so frightened I would take them back with me," +said Mary. + +She had wandered about long enough to feel too tired to wander any +farther, and she turned back. Two or three times she lost her way by +turning down the wrong corridor and was obliged to ramble up and down +until she found the right one; but at last she reached her own floor +again, though she was some distance from her own room and did not know +exactly where she was. + +"I believe I have taken a wrong turning again," she said, standing +still at what seemed the end of a short passage with tapestry on the +wall. "I don't know which way to go. How still everything is!" + +It was while she was standing here and just after she had said this +that the stillness was broken by a sound. It was another cry, but not +quite like the one she had heard last night; it was only a short one, a +fretful childish whine muffled by passing through walls. + +"It's nearer than it was," said Mary, her heart beating rather faster. +"And it is crying." + +She put her hand accidentally upon the tapestry near her, and then +sprang back, feeling quite startled. The tapestry was the covering of +a door which fell open and showed her that there was another part of +the corridor behind it, and Mrs. Medlock was coming up it with her +bunch of keys in her hand and a very cross look on her face. + +"What are you doing here?" she said, and she took Mary by the arm and +pulled her away. "What did I tell you?" + +"I turned round the wrong corner," explained Mary. "I didn't know +which way to go and I heard some one crying." She quite hated Mrs. +Medlock at the moment, but she hated her more the next. + +"You didn't hear anything of the sort," said the housekeeper. "You +come along back to your own nursery or I'll box your ears." + +And she took her by the arm and half pushed, half pulled her up one +passage and down another until she pushed her in at the door of her own +room. + +"Now," she said, "you stay where you're told to stay or you'll find +yourself locked up. The master had better get you a governess, same as +he said he would. You're one that needs some one to look sharp after +you. I've got enough to do." + +She went out of the room and slammed the door after her, and Mary went +and sat on the hearth-rug, pale with rage. She did not cry, but ground +her teeth. + +"There was some one crying--there was--there was!" she said to herself. + +She had heard it twice now, and sometime she would find out. She had +found out a great deal this morning. She felt as if she had been on a +long journey, and at any rate she had had something to amuse her all +the time, and she had played with the ivory elephants and had seen the +gray mouse and its babies in their nest in the velvet cushion. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + +THE KEY TO THE GARDEN + + +Two days after this, when Mary opened her eyes she sat upright in bed +immediately, and called to Martha. + +"Look at the moor! Look at the moor!" + +The rainstorm had ended and the gray mist and clouds had been swept +away in the night by the wind. The wind itself had ceased and a +brilliant, deep blue sky arched high over the moorland. Never, never +had Mary dreamed of a sky so blue. In India skies were hot and +blazing; this was of a deep cool blue which almost seemed to sparkle +like the waters of some lovely bottomless lake, and here and there, +high, high in the arched blueness floated small clouds of snow-white +fleece. The far-reaching world of the moor itself looked softly blue +instead of gloomy purple-black or awful dreary gray. + +"Aye," said Martha with a cheerful grin. "Th' storm's over for a bit. +It does like this at this time o' th' year. It goes off in a night +like it was pretendin' it had never been here an' never meant to come +again. That's because th' springtime's on its way. It's a long way +off yet, but it's comin'." + +"I thought perhaps it always rained or looked dark in England," Mary +said. + +"Eh! no!" said Martha, sitting up on her heels among her black lead +brushes. "Nowt o' th' soart!" + +"What does that mean?" asked Mary seriously. In India the natives +spoke different dialects which only a few people understood, so she was +not surprised when Martha used words she did not know. + +Martha laughed as she had done the first morning. + +"There now," she said. "I've talked broad Yorkshire again like Mrs. +Medlock said I mustn't. 'Nowt o' th' soart' means +'nothin'-of-the-sort,'" slowly and carefully, "but it takes so long to +say it. Yorkshire's th' sunniest place on earth when it is sunny. I +told thee tha'd like th' moor after a bit. Just you wait till you see +th' gold-colored gorse blossoms an' th' blossoms o' th' broom, an' th' +heather flowerin', all purple bells, an' hundreds o' butterflies +flutterin' an' bees hummin' an' skylarks soarin' up an' singin'. You'll +want to get out on it as sunrise an' live out on it all day like Dickon +does." "Could I ever get there?" asked Mary wistfully, looking through +her window at the far-off blue. It was so new and big and wonderful +and such a heavenly color. + +"I don't know," answered Martha. "Tha's never used tha' legs since +tha' was born, it seems to me. Tha' couldn't walk five mile. It's +five mile to our cottage." + +"I should like to see your cottage." + +Martha stared at her a moment curiously before she took up her +polishing brush and began to rub the grate again. She was thinking +that the small plain face did not look quite as sour at this moment as +it had done the first morning she saw it. It looked just a trifle like +little Susan Ann's when she wanted something very much. + +"I'll ask my mother about it," she said. "She's one o' them that +nearly always sees a way to do things. It's my day out today an' I'm +goin' home. Eh! I am glad. Mrs. Medlock thinks a lot o' mother. +Perhaps she could talk to her." + +"I like your mother," said Mary. + +"I should think tha' did," agreed Martha, polishing away. + +"I've never seen her," said Mary. + +"No, tha' hasn't," replied Martha. + +She sat up on her heels again and rubbed the end of her nose with the +back of her hand as if puzzled for a moment, but she ended quite +positively. + +"Well, she's that sensible an' hard workin' an' goodnatured an' clean +that no one could help likin' her whether they'd seen her or not. When +I'm goin' home to her on my day out I just jump for joy when I'm +crossin' the moor." + +"I like Dickon," added Mary. "And I've never seen him." + +"Well," said Martha stoutly, "I've told thee that th' very birds likes +him an' th' rabbits an' wild sheep an' ponies, an' th' foxes +themselves. I wonder," staring at her reflectively, "what Dickon would +think of thee?" + +"He wouldn't like me," said Mary in her stiff, cold little way. "No +one does." + +Martha looked reflective again. + +"How does tha' like thysel'?" she inquired, really quite as if she were +curious to know. + +Mary hesitated a moment and thought it over. + +"Not at all--really," she answered. "But I never thought of that +before." + +Martha grinned a little as if at some homely recollection. + +"Mother said that to me once," she said. "She was at her wash-tub an' +I was in a bad temper an' talkin' ill of folk, an' she turns round on +me an' says: 'Tha' young vixen, tha'! There tha' stands sayin' tha' +doesn't like this one an' tha' doesn't like that one. How does tha' +like thysel'?' It made me laugh an' it brought me to my senses in a +minute." + +She went away in high spirits as soon as she had given Mary her +breakfast. She was going to walk five miles across the moor to the +cottage, and she was going to help her mother with the washing and do +the week's baking and enjoy herself thoroughly. + +Mary felt lonelier than ever when she knew she was no longer in the +house. She went out into the garden as quickly as possible, and the +first thing she did was to run round and round the fountain flower +garden ten times. She counted the times carefully and when she had +finished she felt in better spirits. The sunshine made the whole place +look different. The high, deep, blue sky arched over Misselthwaite as +well as over the moor, and she kept lifting her face and looking up +into it, trying to imagine what it would be like to lie down on one of +the little snow-white clouds and float about. She went into the first +kitchen-garden and found Ben Weatherstaff working there with two other +gardeners. The change in the weather seemed to have done him good. He +spoke to her of his own accord. "Springtime's comin,'" he said. +"Cannot tha' smell it?" + +Mary sniffed and thought she could. + +"I smell something nice and fresh and damp," she said. + +"That's th' good rich earth," he answered, digging away. "It's in a +good humor makin' ready to grow things. It's glad when plantin' time +comes. It's dull in th' winter when it's got nowt to do. In th' +flower gardens out there things will be stirrin' down below in th' +dark. Th' sun's warmin' 'em. You'll see bits o' green spikes stickin' +out o' th' black earth after a bit." + +"What will they be?" asked Mary. + +"Crocuses an' snowdrops an' daffydowndillys. Has tha' never seen them?" + +"No. Everything is hot, and wet, and green after the rains in India," +said Mary. "And I think things grow up in a night." + +"These won't grow up in a night," said Weatherstaff. "Tha'll have to +wait for 'em. They'll poke up a bit higher here, an' push out a spike +more there, an' uncurl a leaf this day an' another that. You watch +'em." + +"I am going to," answered Mary. + +Very soon she heard the soft rustling flight of wings again and she +knew at once that the robin had come again. He was very pert and +lively, and hopped about so close to her feet, and put his head on one +side and looked at her so slyly that she asked Ben Weatherstaff a +question. + +"Do you think he remembers me?" she said. + +"Remembers thee!" said Weatherstaff indignantly. "He knows every +cabbage stump in th' gardens, let alone th' people. He's never seen a +little wench here before, an' he's bent on findin' out all about thee. +Tha's no need to try to hide anything from him." + +"Are things stirring down below in the dark in that garden where he +lives?" Mary inquired. + +"What garden?" grunted Weatherstaff, becoming surly again. + +"The one where the old rose-trees are." She could not help asking, +because she wanted so much to know. "Are all the flowers dead, or do +some of them come again in the summer? Are there ever any roses?" + +"Ask him," said Ben Weatherstaff, hunching his shoulders toward the +robin. "He's the only one as knows. No one else has seen inside it +for ten year'." + +Ten years was a long time, Mary thought. She had been born ten years +ago. + +She walked away, slowly thinking. She had begun to like the garden +just as she had begun to like the robin and Dickon and Martha's mother. +She was beginning to like Martha, too. That seemed a good many people +to like--when you were not used to liking. She thought of the robin as +one of the people. She went to her walk outside the long, ivy-covered +wall over which she could see the tree-tops; and the second time she +walked up and down the most interesting and exciting thing happened to +her, and it was all through Ben Weatherstaff's robin. + +She heard a chirp and a twitter, and when she looked at the bare +flower-bed at her left side there he was hopping about and pretending +to peck things out of the earth to persuade her that he had not +followed her. But she knew he had followed her and the surprise so +filled her with delight that she almost trembled a little. + +"You do remember me!" she cried out. "You do! You are prettier than +anything else in the world!" + +She chirped, and talked, and coaxed and he hopped, and flirted his tail +and twittered. It was as if he were talking. His red waistcoat was +like satin and he puffed his tiny breast out and was so fine and so +grand and so pretty that it was really as if he were showing her how +important and like a human person a robin could be. Mistress Mary +forgot that she had ever been contrary in her life when he allowed her +to draw closer and closer to him, and bend down and talk and try to +make something like robin sounds. + +Oh! to think that he should actually let her come as near to him as +that! He knew nothing in the world would make her put out her hand +toward him or startle him in the least tiniest way. He knew it because +he was a real person--only nicer than any other person in the world. +She was so happy that she scarcely dared to breathe. + +The flower-bed was not quite bare. It was bare of flowers because the +perennial plants had been cut down for their winter rest, but there +were tall shrubs and low ones which grew together at the back of the +bed, and as the robin hopped about under them she saw him hop over a +small pile of freshly turned up earth. He stopped on it to look for a +worm. The earth had been turned up because a dog had been trying to +dig up a mole and he had scratched quite a deep hole. + +Mary looked at it, not really knowing why the hole was there, and as +she looked she saw something almost buried in the newly-turned soil. +It was something like a ring of rusty iron or brass and when the robin +flew up into a tree nearby she put out her hand and picked the ring up. +It was more than a ring, however; it was an old key which looked as if +it had been buried a long time. + +Mistress Mary stood up and looked at it with an almost frightened face +as it hung from her finger. + +"Perhaps it has been buried for ten years," she said in a whisper. +"Perhaps it is the key to the garden!" + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +THE ROBIN WHO SHOWED THE WAY + + +She looked at the key quite a long time. She turned it over and over, +and thought about it. As I have said before, she was not a child who +had been trained to ask permission or consult her elders about things. +All she thought about the key was that if it was the key to the closed +garden, and she could find out where the door was, she could perhaps +open it and see what was inside the walls, and what had happened to the +old rose-trees. It was because it had been shut up so long that she +wanted to see it. It seemed as if it must be different from other +places and that something strange must have happened to it during ten +years. Besides that, if she liked it she could go into it every day +and shut the door behind her, and she could make up some play of her +own and play it quite alone, because nobody would ever know where she +was, but would think the door was still locked and the key buried in +the earth. The thought of that pleased her very much. + +Living as it were, all by herself in a house with a hundred +mysteriously closed rooms and having nothing whatever to do to amuse +herself, had set her inactive brain to working and was actually +awakening her imagination. There is no doubt that the fresh, strong, +pure air from the moor had a great deal to do with it. Just as it had +given her an appetite, and fighting with the wind had stirred her +blood, so the same things had stirred her mind. In India she had +always been too hot and languid and weak to care much about anything, +but in this place she was beginning to care and to want to do new +things. Already she felt less "contrary," though she did not know why. + +She put the key in her pocket and walked up and down her walk. No one +but herself ever seemed to come there, so she could walk slowly and +look at the wall, or, rather, at the ivy growing on it. The ivy was +the baffling thing. Howsoever carefully she looked she could see +nothing but thickly growing, glossy, dark green leaves. She was very +much disappointed. Something of her contrariness came back to her as +she paced the walk and looked over it at the tree-tops inside. It +seemed so silly, she said to herself, to be near it and not be able to +get in. She took the key in her pocket when she went back to the +house, and she made up her mind that she would always carry it with her +when she went out, so that if she ever should find the hidden door she +would be ready. + +Mrs. Medlock had allowed Martha to sleep all night at the cottage, but +she was back at her work in the morning with cheeks redder than ever +and in the best of spirits. + +"I got up at four o'clock," she said. "Eh! it was pretty on th' moor +with th' birds gettin' up an' th' rabbits scamperin' about an' th' sun +risin'. I didn't walk all th' way. A man gave me a ride in his cart +an' I did enjoy myself." + +She was full of stories of the delights of her day out. Her mother had +been glad to see her and they had got the baking and washing all out of +the way. She had even made each of the children a doughcake with a bit +of brown sugar in it. + +"I had 'em all pipin' hot when they came in from playin' on th' moor. +An' th' cottage all smelt o' nice, clean hot bakin' an' there was a +good fire, an' they just shouted for joy. Our Dickon he said our +cottage was good enough for a king." + +In the evening they had all sat round the fire, and Martha and her +mother had sewed patches on torn clothes and mended stockings and +Martha had told them about the little girl who had come from India and +who had been waited on all her life by what Martha called "blacks" +until she didn't know how to put on her own stockings. + +"Eh! they did like to hear about you," said Martha. "They wanted to +know all about th' blacks an' about th' ship you came in. I couldn't +tell 'em enough." + +Mary reflected a little. + +"I'll tell you a great deal more before your next day out," she said, +"so that you will have more to talk about. I dare say they would like +to hear about riding on elephants and camels, and about the officers +going to hunt tigers." + +"My word!" cried delighted Martha. "It would set 'em clean off their +heads. Would tha' really do that, Miss? It would be same as a wild +beast show like we heard they had in York once." + +"India is quite different from Yorkshire," Mary said slowly, as she +thought the matter over. "I never thought of that. Did Dickon and +your mother like to hear you talk about me?" + +"Why, our Dickon's eyes nearly started out o' his head, they got that +round," answered Martha. "But mother, she was put out about your +seemin' to be all by yourself like. She said, 'Hasn't Mr. Craven got +no governess for her, nor no nurse?' and I said, 'No, he hasn't, though +Mrs. Medlock says he will when he thinks of it, but she says he mayn't +think of it for two or three years.'" + +"I don't want a governess," said Mary sharply. + +"But mother says you ought to be learnin' your book by this time an' +you ought to have a woman to look after you, an' she says: 'Now, +Martha, you just think how you'd feel yourself, in a big place like +that, wanderin' about all alone, an' no mother. You do your best to +cheer her up,' she says, an' I said I would." + +Mary gave her a long, steady look. + +"You do cheer me up," she said. "I like to hear you talk." + +Presently Martha went out of the room and came back with something held +in her hands under her apron. + +"What does tha' think," she said, with a cheerful grin. "I've brought +thee a present." + +"A present!" exclaimed Mistress Mary. How could a cottage full of +fourteen hungry people give any one a present! + +"A man was drivin' across the moor peddlin'," Martha explained. "An' +he stopped his cart at our door. He had pots an' pans an' odds an' +ends, but mother had no money to buy anythin'. Just as he was goin' +away our 'Lizabeth Ellen called out, 'Mother, he's got skippin'-ropes +with red an' blue handles.' An' mother she calls out quite sudden, +'Here, stop, mister! How much are they?' An' he says 'Tuppence', an' +mother she began fumblin' in her pocket an' she says to me, 'Martha, +tha's brought me thy wages like a good lass, an' I've got four places +to put every penny, but I'm just goin' to take tuppence out of it to +buy that child a skippin'-rope,' an' she bought one an' here it is." + +She brought it out from under her apron and exhibited it quite proudly. +It was a strong, slender rope with a striped red and blue handle at +each end, but Mary Lennox had never seen a skipping-rope before. She +gazed at it with a mystified expression. + +"What is it for?" she asked curiously. + +"For!" cried out Martha. "Does tha' mean that they've not got +skippin'-ropes in India, for all they've got elephants and tigers and +camels! No wonder most of 'em's black. This is what it's for; just +watch me." + +And she ran into the middle of the room and, taking a handle in each +hand, began to skip, and skip, and skip, while Mary turned in her chair +to stare at her, and the queer faces in the old portraits seemed to +stare at her, too, and wonder what on earth this common little cottager +had the impudence to be doing under their very noses. But Martha did +not even see them. The interest and curiosity in Mistress Mary's face +delighted her, and she went on skipping and counted as she skipped +until she had reached a hundred. + +"I could skip longer than that," she said when she stopped. "I've +skipped as much as five hundred when I was twelve, but I wasn't as fat +then as I am now, an' I was in practice." + +Mary got up from her chair beginning to feel excited herself. + +"It looks nice," she said. "Your mother is a kind woman. Do you think +I could ever skip like that?" + +"You just try it," urged Martha, handing her the skipping-rope. "You +can't skip a hundred at first, but if you practice you'll mount up. +That's what mother said. She says, 'Nothin' will do her more good than +skippin' rope. It's th' sensiblest toy a child can have. Let her play +out in th' fresh air skippin' an' it'll stretch her legs an' arms an' +give her some strength in 'em.'" + +It was plain that there was not a great deal of strength in Mistress +Mary's arms and legs when she first began to skip. She was not very +clever at it, but she liked it so much that she did not want to stop. + +"Put on tha' things and run an' skip out o' doors," said Martha. +"Mother said I must tell you to keep out o' doors as much as you could, +even when it rains a bit, so as tha' wrap up warm." + +Mary put on her coat and hat and took her skipping-rope over her arm. +She opened the door to go out, and then suddenly thought of something +and turned back rather slowly. + +"Martha," she said, "they were your wages. It was your two-pence +really. Thank you." She said it stiffly because she was not used to +thanking people or noticing that they did things for her. "Thank you," +she said, and held out her hand because she did not know what else to +do. + +Martha gave her hand a clumsy little shake, as if she was not +accustomed to this sort of thing either. Then she laughed. + +"Eh! th' art a queer, old-womanish thing," she said. "If tha'd been +our 'Lizabeth Ellen tha'd have given me a kiss." + +Mary looked stiffer than ever. + +"Do you want me to kiss you?" + +Martha laughed again. + +"Nay, not me," she answered. "If tha' was different, p'raps tha'd want +to thysel'. But tha' isn't. Run off outside an' play with thy rope." + +Mistress Mary felt a little awkward as she went out of the room. +Yorkshire people seemed strange, and Martha was always rather a puzzle +to her. At first she had disliked her very much, but now she did not. +The skipping-rope was a wonderful thing. She counted and skipped, and +skipped and counted, until her cheeks were quite red, and she was more +interested than she had ever been since she was born. The sun was +shining and a little wind was blowing--not a rough wind, but one which +came in delightful little gusts and brought a fresh scent of newly +turned earth with it. She skipped round the fountain garden, and up +one walk and down another. She skipped at last into the kitchen-garden +and saw Ben Weatherstaff digging and talking to his robin, which was +hopping about him. She skipped down the walk toward him and he lifted +his head and looked at her with a curious expression. She had wondered +if he would notice her. She wanted him to see her skip. + +"Well!" he exclaimed. "Upon my word. P'raps tha' art a young 'un, +after all, an' p'raps tha's got child's blood in thy veins instead of +sour buttermilk. Tha's skipped red into thy cheeks as sure as my +name's Ben Weatherstaff. I wouldn't have believed tha' could do it." + +"I never skipped before," Mary said. "I'm just beginning. I can only +go up to twenty." + +"Tha' keep on," said Ben. "Tha' shapes well enough at it for a young +'un that's lived with heathen. Just see how he's watchin' thee," +jerking his head toward the robin. "He followed after thee yesterday. +He'll be at it again today. He'll be bound to find out what th' +skippin'-rope is. He's never seen one. Eh!" shaking his head at the +bird, "tha' curiosity will be th' death of thee sometime if tha' +doesn't look sharp." + +Mary skipped round all the gardens and round the orchard, resting every +few minutes. At length she went to her own special walk and made up +her mind to try if she could skip the whole length of it. It was a +good long skip and she began slowly, but before she had gone half-way +down the path she was so hot and breathless that she was obliged to +stop. She did not mind much, because she had already counted up to +thirty. She stopped with a little laugh of pleasure, and there, lo and +behold, was the robin swaying on a long branch of ivy. He had followed +her and he greeted her with a chirp. As Mary had skipped toward him +she felt something heavy in her pocket strike against her at each jump, +and when she saw the robin she laughed again. + +"You showed me where the key was yesterday," she said. "You ought to +show me the door today; but I don't believe you know!" + +The robin flew from his swinging spray of ivy on to the top of the wall +and he opened his beak and sang a loud, lovely trill, merely to show +off. Nothing in the world is quite as adorably lovely as a robin when +he shows off--and they are nearly always doing it. + +Mary Lennox had heard a great deal about Magic in her Ayah's stories, +and she always said that what happened almost at that moment was Magic. + +One of the nice little gusts of wind rushed down the walk, and it was a +stronger one than the rest. It was strong enough to wave the branches +of the trees, and it was more than strong enough to sway the trailing +sprays of untrimmed ivy hanging from the wall. Mary had stepped close +to the robin, and suddenly the gust of wind swung aside some loose ivy +trails, and more suddenly still she jumped toward it and caught it in +her hand. This she did because she had seen something under it--a +round knob which had been covered by the leaves hanging over it. It +was the knob of a door. + +She put her hands under the leaves and began to pull and push them +aside. Thick as the ivy hung, it nearly all was a loose and swinging +curtain, though some had crept over wood and iron. Mary's heart began +to thump and her hands to shake a little in her delight and excitement. +The robin kept singing and twittering away and tilting his head on one +side, as if he were as excited as she was. What was this under her +hands which was square and made of iron and which her fingers found a +hole in? + +It was the lock of the door which had been closed ten years and she put +her hand in her pocket, drew out the key and found it fitted the +keyhole. She put the key in and turned it. It took two hands to do +it, but it did turn. + +And then she took a long breath and looked behind her up the long walk +to see if any one was coming. No one was coming. No one ever did +come, it seemed, and she took another long breath, because she could +not help it, and she held back the swinging curtain of ivy and pushed +back the door which opened slowly--slowly. + +Then she slipped through it, and shut it behind her, and stood with her +back against it, looking about her and breathing quite fast with +excitement, and wonder, and delight. + +She was standing inside the secret garden. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + +THE STRANGEST HOUSE ANY ONE EVER LIVED IN + + +It was the sweetest, most mysterious-looking place any one could +imagine. The high walls which shut it in were covered with the +leafless stems of climbing roses which were so thick that they were +matted together. Mary Lennox knew they were roses because she had seen +a great many roses in India. All the ground was covered with grass of +a wintry brown and out of it grew clumps of bushes which were surely +rosebushes if they were alive. There were numbers of standard roses +which had so spread their branches that they were like little trees. +There were other trees in the garden, and one of the things which made +the place look strangest and loveliest was that climbing roses had run +all over them and swung down long tendrils which made light swaying +curtains, and here and there they had caught at each other or at a +far-reaching branch and had crept from one tree to another and made +lovely bridges of themselves. There were neither leaves nor roses on +them now and Mary did not know whether they were dead or alive, but +their thin gray or brown branches and sprays looked like a sort of hazy +mantle spreading over everything, walls, and trees, and even brown +grass, where they had fallen from their fastenings and run along the +ground. It was this hazy tangle from tree to tree which made it all +look so mysterious. Mary had thought it must be different from other +gardens which had not been left all by themselves so long; and indeed +it was different from any other place she had ever seen in her life. + +"How still it is!" she whispered. "How still!" + +Then she waited a moment and listened at the stillness. The robin, who +had flown to his treetop, was still as all the rest. He did not even +flutter his wings; he sat without stirring, and looked at Mary. + +"No wonder it is still," she whispered again. "I am the first person +who has spoken in here for ten years." + +She moved away from the door, stepping as softly as if she were afraid +of awakening some one. She was glad that there was grass under her +feet and that her steps made no sounds. She walked under one of the +fairy-like gray arches between the trees and looked up at the sprays +and tendrils which formed them. "I wonder if they are all quite dead," +she said. "Is it all a quite dead garden? I wish it wasn't." + +If she had been Ben Weatherstaff she could have told whether the wood +was alive by looking at it, but she could only see that there were only +gray or brown sprays and branches and none showed any signs of even a +tiny leaf-bud anywhere. + +But she was inside the wonderful garden and she could come through the +door under the ivy any time and she felt as if she had found a world +all her own. + +The sun was shining inside the four walls and the high arch of blue sky +over this particular piece of Misselthwaite seemed even more brilliant +and soft than it was over the moor. The robin flew down from his +tree-top and hopped about or flew after her from one bush to another. +He chirped a good deal and had a very busy air, as if he were showing +her things. Everything was strange and silent and she seemed to be +hundreds of miles away from any one, but somehow she did not feel +lonely at all. All that troubled her was her wish that she knew +whether all the roses were dead, or if perhaps some of them had lived +and might put out leaves and buds as the weather got warmer. She did +not want it to be a quite dead garden. If it were a quite alive +garden, how wonderful it would be, and what thousands of roses would +grow on every side! + +Her skipping-rope had hung over her arm when she came in and after she +had walked about for a while she thought she would skip round the whole +garden, stopping when she wanted to look at things. There seemed to +have been grass paths here and there, and in one or two corners there +were alcoves of evergreen with stone seats or tall moss-covered flower +urns in them. + +As she came near the second of these alcoves she stopped skipping. +There had once been a flowerbed in it, and she thought she saw +something sticking out of the black earth--some sharp little pale green +points. She remembered what Ben Weatherstaff had said and she knelt +down to look at them. + +"Yes, they are tiny growing things and they might be crocuses or +snowdrops or daffodils," she whispered. + +She bent very close to them and sniffed the fresh scent of the damp +earth. She liked it very much. + +"Perhaps there are some other ones coming up in other places," she +said. "I will go all over the garden and look." + +She did not skip, but walked. She went slowly and kept her eyes on the +ground. She looked in the old border beds and among the grass, and +after she had gone round, trying to miss nothing, she had found ever so +many more sharp, pale green points, and she had become quite excited +again. + +"It isn't a quite dead garden," she cried out softly to herself. "Even +if the roses are dead, there are other things alive." + +She did not know anything about gardening, but the grass seemed so +thick in some of the places where the green points were pushing their +way through that she thought they did not seem to have room enough to +grow. She searched about until she found a rather sharp piece of wood +and knelt down and dug and weeded out the weeds and grass until she +made nice little clear places around them. + +"Now they look as if they could breathe," she said, after she had +finished with the first ones. "I am going to do ever so many more. +I'll do all I can see. If I haven't time today I can come tomorrow." + +She went from place to place, and dug and weeded, and enjoyed herself +so immensely that she was led on from bed to bed and into the grass +under the trees. The exercise made her so warm that she first threw +her coat off, and then her hat, and without knowing it she was smiling +down on to the grass and the pale green points all the time. + +The robin was tremendously busy. He was very much pleased to see +gardening begun on his own estate. He had often wondered at Ben +Weatherstaff. Where gardening is done all sorts of delightful things +to eat are turned up with the soil. Now here was this new kind of +creature who was not half Ben's size and yet had had the sense to come +into his garden and begin at once. + +Mistress Mary worked in her garden until it was time to go to her +midday dinner. In fact, she was rather late in remembering, and when +she put on her coat and hat, and picked up her skipping-rope, she could +not believe that she had been working two or three hours. She had been +actually happy all the time; and dozens and dozens of the tiny, pale +green points were to be seen in cleared places, looking twice as +cheerful as they had looked before when the grass and weeds had been +smothering them. + +"I shall come back this afternoon," she said, looking all round at her +new kingdom, and speaking to the trees and the rose-bushes as if they +heard her. + +Then she ran lightly across the grass, pushed open the slow old door +and slipped through it under the ivy. She had such red cheeks and such +bright eyes and ate such a dinner that Martha was delighted. + +"Two pieces o' meat an' two helps o' rice puddin'!" she said. "Eh! +mother will be pleased when I tell her what th' skippin'-rope's done +for thee." + +In the course of her digging with her pointed stick Mistress Mary had +found herself digging up a sort of white root rather like an onion. +She had put it back in its place and patted the earth carefully down on +it and just now she wondered if Martha could tell her what it was. + +"Martha," she said, "what are those white roots that look like onions?" + +"They're bulbs," answered Martha. "Lots o' spring flowers grow from +'em. Th' very little ones are snowdrops an' crocuses an' th' big ones +are narcissuses an' jonquils and daffydowndillys. Th' biggest of all +is lilies an' purple flags. Eh! they are nice. Dickon's got a whole +lot of 'em planted in our bit o' garden." + +"Does Dickon know all about them?" asked Mary, a new idea taking +possession of her. + +"Our Dickon can make a flower grow out of a brick walk. Mother says he +just whispers things out o' th' ground." + +"Do bulbs live a long time? Would they live years and years if no one +helped them?" inquired Mary anxiously. + +"They're things as helps themselves," said Martha. "That's why poor +folk can afford to have 'em. If you don't trouble 'em, most of 'em'll +work away underground for a lifetime an' spread out an' have little +'uns. There's a place in th' park woods here where there's snowdrops by +thousands. They're the prettiest sight in Yorkshire when th' spring +comes. No one knows when they was first planted." + +"I wish the spring was here now," said Mary. "I want to see all the +things that grow in England." + +She had finished her dinner and gone to her favorite seat on the +hearth-rug. + +"I wish--I wish I had a little spade," she said. "Whatever does tha' +want a spade for?" asked Martha, laughing. "Art tha' goin' to take to +diggin'? I must tell mother that, too." + +Mary looked at the fire and pondered a little. She must be careful if +she meant to keep her secret kingdom. She wasn't doing any harm, but +if Mr. Craven found out about the open door he would be fearfully angry +and get a new key and lock it up forevermore. She really could not +bear that. + +"This is such a big lonely place," she said slowly, as if she were +turning matters over in her mind. "The house is lonely, and the park +is lonely, and the gardens are lonely. So many places seem shut up. I +never did many things in India, but there were more people to look +at--natives and soldiers marching by--and sometimes bands playing, and +my Ayah told me stories. There is no one to talk to here except you +and Ben Weatherstaff. And you have to do your work and Ben +Weatherstaff won't speak to me often. I thought if I had a little +spade I could dig somewhere as he does, and I might make a little +garden if he would give me some seeds." + +Martha's face quite lighted up. + +"There now!" she exclaimed, "if that wasn't one of th' things mother +said. She says, 'There's such a lot o' room in that big place, why +don't they give her a bit for herself, even if she doesn't plant +nothin' but parsley an' radishes? She'd dig an' rake away an' be right +down happy over it.' Them was the very words she said." + +"Were they?" said Mary. "How many things she knows, doesn't she?" + +"Eh!" said Martha. "It's like she says: 'A woman as brings up twelve +children learns something besides her A B C. Children's as good as +'rithmetic to set you findin' out things.'" + +"How much would a spade cost--a little one?" Mary asked. + +"Well," was Martha's reflective answer, "at Thwaite village there's a +shop or so an' I saw little garden sets with a spade an' a rake an' a +fork all tied together for two shillings. An' they was stout enough to +work with, too." + +"I've got more than that in my purse," said Mary. "Mrs. Morrison gave +me five shillings and Mrs. Medlock gave me some money from Mr. Craven." + +"Did he remember thee that much?" exclaimed Martha. + +"Mrs. Medlock said I was to have a shilling a week to spend. She gives +me one every Saturday. I didn't know what to spend it on." + +"My word! that's riches," said Martha. "Tha' can buy anything in th' +world tha' wants. Th' rent of our cottage is only one an' threepence +an' it's like pullin' eye-teeth to get it. Now I've just thought of +somethin'," putting her hands on her hips. + +"What?" said Mary eagerly. + +"In the shop at Thwaite they sell packages o' flower-seeds for a penny +each, and our Dickon he knows which is th' prettiest ones an' how to +make 'em grow. He walks over to Thwaite many a day just for th' fun of +it. Does tha' know how to print letters?" suddenly. + +"I know how to write," Mary answered. + +Martha shook her head. + +"Our Dickon can only read printin'. If tha' could print we could write +a letter to him an' ask him to go an' buy th' garden tools an' th' +seeds at th' same time." + +"Oh! you're a good girl!" Mary cried. "You are, really! I didn't know +you were so nice. I know I can print letters if I try. Let's ask Mrs. +Medlock for a pen and ink and some paper." + +"I've got some of my own," said Martha. "I bought 'em so I could print +a bit of a letter to mother of a Sunday. I'll go and get it." She ran +out of the room, and Mary stood by the fire and twisted her thin little +hands together with sheer pleasure. + +"If I have a spade," she whispered, "I can make the earth nice and soft +and dig up weeds. If I have seeds and can make flowers grow the garden +won't be dead at all--it will come alive." + +She did not go out again that afternoon because when Martha returned +with her pen and ink and paper she was obliged to clear the table and +carry the plates and dishes downstairs and when she got into the +kitchen Mrs. Medlock was there and told her to do something, so Mary +waited for what seemed to her a long time before she came back. Then +it was a serious piece of work to write to Dickon. Mary had been +taught very little because her governesses had disliked her too much to +stay with her. She could not spell particularly well but she found +that she could print letters when she tried. This was the letter +Martha dictated to her: "My Dear Dickon: + +This comes hoping to find you well as it leaves me at present. Miss +Mary has plenty of money and will you go to Thwaite and buy her some +flower seeds and a set of garden tools to make a flower-bed. Pick the +prettiest ones and easy to grow because she has never done it before +and lived in India which is different. Give my love to mother and +every one of you. Miss Mary is going to tell me a lot more so that on +my next day out you can hear about elephants and camels and gentlemen +going hunting lions and tigers. + + "Your loving sister, + Martha Phoebe Sowerby." + +"We'll put the money in th' envelope an' I'll get th' butcher boy to +take it in his cart. He's a great friend o' Dickon's," said Martha. + +"How shall I get the things when Dickon buys them?" + +"He'll bring 'em to you himself. He'll like to walk over this way." + +"Oh!" exclaimed Mary, "then I shall see him! I never thought I should +see Dickon." + +"Does tha' want to see him?" asked Martha suddenly, for Mary had looked +so pleased. + +"Yes, I do. I never saw a boy foxes and crows loved. I want to see +him very much." + +Martha gave a little start, as if she remembered something. "Now to +think," she broke out, "to think o' me forgettin' that there; an' I +thought I was goin' to tell you first thing this mornin'. I asked +mother--and she said she'd ask Mrs. Medlock her own self." + +"Do you mean--" Mary began. + +"What I said Tuesday. Ask her if you might be driven over to our +cottage some day and have a bit o' mother's hot oat cake, an' butter, +an' a glass o' milk." + +It seemed as if all the interesting things were happening in one day. +To think of going over the moor in the daylight and when the sky was +blue! To think of going into the cottage which held twelve children! + +"Does she think Mrs. Medlock would let me go?" she asked, quite +anxiously. + +"Aye, she thinks she would. She knows what a tidy woman mother is and +how clean she keeps the cottage." + +"If I went I should see your mother as well as Dickon," said Mary, +thinking it over and liking the idea very much. "She doesn't seem to +be like the mothers in India." + +Her work in the garden and the excitement of the afternoon ended by +making her feel quiet and thoughtful. Martha stayed with her until +tea-time, but they sat in comfortable quiet and talked very little. +But just before Martha went downstairs for the tea-tray, Mary asked a +question. + +"Martha," she said, "has the scullery-maid had the toothache again +today?" + +Martha certainly started slightly. + +"What makes thee ask that?" she said. + +"Because when I waited so long for you to come back I opened the door +and walked down the corridor to see if you were coming. And I heard +that far-off crying again, just as we heard it the other night. There +isn't a wind today, so you see it couldn't have been the wind." + +"Eh!" said Martha restlessly. "Tha' mustn't go walkin' about in +corridors an' listenin'. Mr. Craven would be that there angry there's +no knowin' what he'd do." + +"I wasn't listening," said Mary. "I was just waiting for you--and I +heard it. That's three times." + +"My word! There's Mrs. Medlock's bell," said Martha, and she almost ran +out of the room. + +"It's the strangest house any one ever lived in," said Mary drowsily, +as she dropped her head on the cushioned seat of the armchair near her. +Fresh air, and digging, and skipping-rope had made her feel so +comfortably tired that she fell asleep. + + + + +CHAPTER X + +DICKON + + +The sun shone down for nearly a week on the secret garden. The Secret +Garden was what Mary called it when she was thinking of it. She liked +the name, and she liked still more the feeling that when its beautiful +old walls shut her in no one knew where she was. It seemed almost like +being shut out of the world in some fairy place. The few books she had +read and liked had been fairy-story books, and she had read of secret +gardens in some of the stories. Sometimes people went to sleep in them +for a hundred years, which she had thought must be rather stupid. She +had no intention of going to sleep, and, in fact, she was becoming +wider awake every day which passed at Misselthwaite. She was beginning +to like to be out of doors; she no longer hated the wind, but enjoyed +it. She could run faster, and longer, and she could skip up to a +hundred. The bulbs in the secret garden must have been much +astonished. Such nice clear places were made round them that they had +all the breathing space they wanted, and really, if Mistress Mary had +known it, they began to cheer up under the dark earth and work +tremendously. The sun could get at them and warm them, and when the +rain came down it could reach them at once, so they began to feel very +much alive. + +Mary was an odd, determined little person, and now she had something +interesting to be determined about, she was very much absorbed, indeed. +She worked and dug and pulled up weeds steadily, only becoming more +pleased with her work every hour instead of tiring of it. It seemed to +her like a fascinating sort of play. She found many more of the +sprouting pale green points than she had ever hoped to find. They +seemed to be starting up everywhere and each day she was sure she found +tiny new ones, some so tiny that they barely peeped above the earth. +There were so many that she remembered what Martha had said about the +"snowdrops by the thousands," and about bulbs spreading and making new +ones. These had been left to themselves for ten years and perhaps they +had spread, like the snowdrops, into thousands. She wondered how long +it would be before they showed that they were flowers. Sometimes she +stopped digging to look at the garden and try to imagine what it would +be like when it was covered with thousands of lovely things in bloom. +During that week of sunshine, she became more intimate with Ben +Weatherstaff. She surprised him several times by seeming to start up +beside him as if she sprang out of the earth. The truth was that she +was afraid that he would pick up his tools and go away if he saw her +coming, so she always walked toward him as silently as possible. But, +in fact, he did not object to her as strongly as he had at first. +Perhaps he was secretly rather flattered by her evident desire for his +elderly company. Then, also, she was more civil than she had been. He +did not know that when she first saw him she spoke to him as she would +have spoken to a native, and had not known that a cross, sturdy old +Yorkshire man was not accustomed to salaam to his masters, and be +merely commanded by them to do things. + +"Tha'rt like th' robin," he said to her one morning when he lifted his +head and saw her standing by him. "I never knows when I shall see thee +or which side tha'll come from." + +"He's friends with me now," said Mary. + +"That's like him," snapped Ben Weatherstaff. "Makin' up to th' women +folk just for vanity an' flightiness. There's nothin' he wouldn't do +for th' sake o' showin' off an' flirtin' his tail-feathers. He's as +full o' pride as an egg's full o' meat." + +He very seldom talked much and sometimes did not even answer Mary's +questions except by a grunt, but this morning he said more than usual. +He stood up and rested one hobnailed boot on the top of his spade while +he looked her over. + +"How long has tha' been here?" he jerked out. + +"I think it's about a month," she answered. + +"Tha's beginnin' to do Misselthwaite credit," he said. "Tha's a bit +fatter than tha' was an' tha's not quite so yeller. Tha' looked like a +young plucked crow when tha' first came into this garden. Thinks I to +myself I never set eyes on an uglier, sourer faced young 'un." + +Mary was not vain and as she had never thought much of her looks she +was not greatly disturbed. + +"I know I'm fatter," she said. "My stockings are getting tighter. +They used to make wrinkles. There's the robin, Ben Weatherstaff." + +There, indeed, was the robin, and she thought he looked nicer than +ever. His red waistcoat was as glossy as satin and he flirted his +wings and tail and tilted his head and hopped about with all sorts of +lively graces. He seemed determined to make Ben Weatherstaff admire +him. But Ben was sarcastic. + +"Aye, there tha' art!" he said. "Tha' can put up with me for a bit +sometimes when tha's got no one better. Tha's been reddenin' up thy +waistcoat an' polishin' thy feathers this two weeks. I know what tha's +up to. Tha's courtin' some bold young madam somewhere tellin' thy lies +to her about bein' th' finest cock robin on Missel Moor an' ready to +fight all th' rest of 'em." + +"Oh! look at him!" exclaimed Mary. + +The robin was evidently in a fascinating, bold mood. He hopped closer +and closer and looked at Ben Weatherstaff more and more engagingly. He +flew on to the nearest currant bush and tilted his head and sang a +little song right at him. + +"Tha' thinks tha'll get over me by doin' that," said Ben, wrinkling his +face up in such a way that Mary felt sure he was trying not to look +pleased. "Tha' thinks no one can stand out against thee--that's what +tha' thinks." + +The robin spread his wings--Mary could scarcely believe her eyes. He +flew right up to the handle of Ben Weatherstaff's spade and alighted on +the top of it. Then the old man's face wrinkled itself slowly into a +new expression. He stood still as if he were afraid to breathe--as if +he would not have stirred for the world, lest his robin should start +away. He spoke quite in a whisper. + +"Well, I'm danged!" he said as softly as if he were saying something +quite different. "Tha' does know how to get at a chap--tha' does! +Tha's fair unearthly, tha's so knowin'." + +And he stood without stirring--almost without drawing his breath--until +the robin gave another flirt to his wings and flew away. Then he stood +looking at the handle of the spade as if there might be Magic in it, +and then he began to dig again and said nothing for several minutes. + +But because he kept breaking into a slow grin now and then, Mary was +not afraid to talk to him. + +"Have you a garden of your own?" she asked. + +"No. I'm bachelder an' lodge with Martin at th' gate." + +"If you had one," said Mary, "what would you plant?" + +"Cabbages an' 'taters an' onions." + +"But if you wanted to make a flower garden," persisted Mary, "what +would you plant?" + +"Bulbs an' sweet-smellin' things--but mostly roses." + +Mary's face lighted up. + +"Do you like roses?" she said. + +Ben Weatherstaff rooted up a weed and threw it aside before he answered. + +"Well, yes, I do. I was learned that by a young lady I was gardener +to. She had a lot in a place she was fond of, an' she loved 'em like +they was children--or robins. I've seen her bend over an' kiss 'em." +He dragged out another weed and scowled at it. "That were as much as +ten year' ago." + +"Where is she now?" asked Mary, much interested. + +"Heaven," he answered, and drove his spade deep into the soil, +"'cording to what parson says." + +"What happened to the roses?" Mary asked again, more interested than +ever. + +"They was left to themselves." + +Mary was becoming quite excited. + +"Did they quite die? Do roses quite die when they are left to +themselves?" she ventured. + +"Well, I'd got to like 'em--an' I liked her--an' she liked 'em," Ben +Weatherstaff admitted reluctantly. "Once or twice a year I'd go an' +work at 'em a bit--prune 'em an' dig about th' roots. They run wild, +but they was in rich soil, so some of 'em lived." + +"When they have no leaves and look gray and brown and dry, how can you +tell whether they are dead or alive?" inquired Mary. + +"Wait till th' spring gets at 'em--wait till th' sun shines on th' rain +and th' rain falls on th' sunshine an' then tha'll find out." + +"How--how?" cried Mary, forgetting to be careful. "Look along th' +twigs an' branches an' if tha' see a bit of a brown lump swelling here +an' there, watch it after th' warm rain an' see what happens." He +stopped suddenly and looked curiously at her eager face. "Why does +tha' care so much about roses an' such, all of a sudden?" he demanded. + +Mistress Mary felt her face grow red. She was almost afraid to answer. + +"I--I want to play that--that I have a garden of my own," she +stammered. "I--there is nothing for me to do. I have nothing--and no +one." + +"Well," said Ben Weatherstaff slowly, as he watched her, "that's true. +Tha' hasn't." + +He said it in such an odd way that Mary wondered if he was actually a +little sorry for her. She had never felt sorry for herself; she had +only felt tired and cross, because she disliked people and things so +much. But now the world seemed to be changing and getting nicer. If +no one found out about the secret garden, she should enjoy herself +always. + +She stayed with him for ten or fifteen minutes longer and asked him as +many questions as she dared. He answered every one of them in his +queer grunting way and he did not seem really cross and did not pick up +his spade and leave her. He said something about roses just as she was +going away and it reminded her of the ones he had said he had been fond +of. + +"Do you go and see those other roses now?" she asked. + +"Not been this year. My rheumatics has made me too stiff in th' +joints." + +He said it in his grumbling voice, and then quite suddenly he seemed to +get angry with her, though she did not see why he should. + +"Now look here!" he said sharply. "Don't tha' ask so many questions. +Tha'rt th' worst wench for askin' questions I've ever come a cross. +Get thee gone an' play thee. I've done talkin' for today." + +And he said it so crossly that she knew there was not the least use in +staying another minute. She went skipping slowly down the outside +walk, thinking him over and saying to herself that, queer as it was, +here was another person whom she liked in spite of his crossness. She +liked old Ben Weatherstaff. Yes, she did like him. She always wanted +to try to make him talk to her. Also she began to believe that he knew +everything in the world about flowers. + +There was a laurel-hedged walk which curved round the secret garden and +ended at a gate which opened into a wood, in the park. She thought she +would slip round this walk and look into the wood and see if there were +any rabbits hopping about. She enjoyed the skipping very much and when +she reached the little gate she opened it and went through because she +heard a low, peculiar whistling sound and wanted to find out what it +was. + +It was a very strange thing indeed. She quite caught her breath as she +stopped to look at it. A boy was sitting under a tree, with his back +against it, playing on a rough wooden pipe. He was a funny looking boy +about twelve. He looked very clean and his nose turned up and his +cheeks were as red as poppies and never had Mistress Mary seen such +round and such blue eyes in any boy's face. And on the trunk of the +tree he leaned against, a brown squirrel was clinging and watching him, +and from behind a bush nearby a cock pheasant was delicately stretching +his neck to peep out, and quite near him were two rabbits sitting up +and sniffing with tremulous noses--and actually it appeared as if they +were all drawing near to watch him and listen to the strange low little +call his pipe seemed to make. + +When he saw Mary he held up his hand and spoke to her in a voice almost +as low as and rather like his piping. + +"Don't tha' move," he said. "It'd flight 'em." Mary remained +motionless. He stopped playing his pipe and began to rise from the +ground. He moved so slowly that it scarcely seemed as though he were +moving at all, but at last he stood on his feet and then the squirrel +scampered back up into the branches of his tree, the pheasant withdrew +his head and the rabbits dropped on all fours and began to hop away, +though not at all as if they were frightened. + +"I'm Dickon," the boy said. "I know tha'rt Miss Mary." + +Then Mary realized that somehow she had known at first that he was +Dickon. Who else could have been charming rabbits and pheasants as the +natives charm snakes in India? He had a wide, red, curving mouth and +his smile spread all over his face. + +"I got up slow," he explained, "because if tha' makes a quick move it +startles 'em. A body 'as to move gentle an' speak low when wild things +is about." + +He did not speak to her as if they had never seen each other before but +as if he knew her quite well. Mary knew nothing about boys and she +spoke to him a little stiffly because she felt rather shy. + +"Did you get Martha's letter?" she asked. + +He nodded his curly, rust-colored head. "That's why I come." + +He stooped to pick up something which had been lying on the ground +beside him when he piped. + +"I've got th' garden tools. There's a little spade an' rake an' a fork +an' hoe. Eh! they are good 'uns. There's a trowel, too. An' th' woman +in th' shop threw in a packet o' white poppy an' one o' blue larkspur +when I bought th' other seeds." + +"Will you show the seeds to me?" Mary said. + +She wished she could talk as he did. His speech was so quick and easy. +It sounded as if he liked her and was not the least afraid she would +not like him, though he was only a common moor boy, in patched clothes +and with a funny face and a rough, rusty-red head. As she came closer +to him she noticed that there was a clean fresh scent of heather and +grass and leaves about him, almost as if he were made of them. She +liked it very much and when she looked into his funny face with the red +cheeks and round blue eyes she forgot that she had felt shy. + +"Let us sit down on this log and look at them," she said. + +They sat down and he took a clumsy little brown paper package out of +his coat pocket. He untied the string and inside there were ever so +many neater and smaller packages with a picture of a flower on each one. + +"There's a lot o' mignonette an' poppies," he said. "Mignonette's th' +sweetest smellin' thing as grows, an' it'll grow wherever you cast it, +same as poppies will. Them as'll come up an' bloom if you just whistle +to 'em, them's th' nicest of all." He stopped and turned his head +quickly, his poppy-cheeked face lighting up. + +"Where's that robin as is callin' us?" he said. + +The chirp came from a thick holly bush, bright with scarlet berries, +and Mary thought she knew whose it was. + +"Is it really calling us?" she asked. + +"Aye," said Dickon, as if it was the most natural thing in the world, +"he's callin' some one he's friends with. That's same as sayin' 'Here +I am. Look at me. I wants a bit of a chat.' There he is in the bush. +Whose is he?" + +"He's Ben Weatherstaff's, but I think he knows me a little," answered +Mary. + +"Aye, he knows thee," said Dickon in his low voice again. "An' he +likes thee. He's took thee on. He'll tell me all about thee in a +minute." + +He moved quite close to the bush with the slow movement Mary had +noticed before, and then he made a sound almost like the robin's own +twitter. The robin listened a few seconds, intently, and then answered +quite as if he were replying to a question. + +"Aye, he's a friend o' yours," chuckled Dickon. + +"Do you think he is?" cried Mary eagerly. She did so want to know. +"Do you think he really likes me?" + +"He wouldn't come near thee if he didn't," answered Dickon. "Birds is +rare choosers an' a robin can flout a body worse than a man. See, he's +making up to thee now. 'Cannot tha' see a chap?' he's sayin'." + +And it really seemed as if it must be true. He so sidled and twittered +and tilted as he hopped on his bush. + +"Do you understand everything birds say?" said Mary. + +Dickon's grin spread until he seemed all wide, red, curving mouth, and +he rubbed his rough head. + +"I think I do, and they think I do," he said. "I've lived on th' moor +with 'em so long. I've watched 'em break shell an' come out an' fledge +an' learn to fly an' begin to sing, till I think I'm one of 'em. +Sometimes I think p'raps I'm a bird, or a fox, or a rabbit, or a +squirrel, or even a beetle, an' I don't know it." + +He laughed and came back to the log and began to talk about the flower +seeds again. He told her what they looked like when they were flowers; +he told her how to plant them, and watch them, and feed and water them. + +"See here," he said suddenly, turning round to look at her. "I'll +plant them for thee myself. Where is tha' garden?" + +Mary's thin hands clutched each other as they lay on her lap. She did +not know what to say, so for a whole minute she said nothing. She had +never thought of this. She felt miserable. And she felt as if she +went red and then pale. + +"Tha's got a bit o' garden, hasn't tha'?" Dickon said. + +It was true that she had turned red and then pale. Dickon saw her do +it, and as she still said nothing, he began to be puzzled. + +"Wouldn't they give thee a bit?" he asked. "Hasn't tha' got any yet?" + +She held her hands tighter and turned her eyes toward him. + +"I don't know anything about boys," she said slowly. "Could you keep a +secret, if I told you one? It's a great secret. I don't know what I +should do if any one found it out. I believe I should die!" She said +the last sentence quite fiercely. + +Dickon looked more puzzled than ever and even rubbed his hand over his +rough head again, but he answered quite good-humoredly. "I'm keepin' +secrets all th' time," he said. "If I couldn't keep secrets from th' +other lads, secrets about foxes' cubs, an' birds' nests, an' wild +things' holes, there'd be naught safe on th' moor. Aye, I can keep +secrets." + +Mistress Mary did not mean to put out her hand and clutch his sleeve +but she did it. + +"I've stolen a garden," she said very fast. "It isn't mine. It isn't +anybody's. Nobody wants it, nobody cares for it, nobody ever goes into +it. Perhaps everything is dead in it already. I don't know." + +She began to feel hot and as contrary as she had ever felt in her life. + +"I don't care, I don't care! Nobody has any right to take it from me +when I care about it and they don't. They're letting it die, all shut +in by itself," she ended passionately, and she threw her arms over her +face and burst out crying-poor little Mistress Mary. + +Dickon's curious blue eyes grew rounder and rounder. "Eh-h-h!" he +said, drawing his exclamation out slowly, and the way he did it meant +both wonder and sympathy. + +"I've nothing to do," said Mary. "Nothing belongs to me. I found it +myself and I got into it myself. I was only just like the robin, and +they wouldn't take it from the robin." "Where is it?" asked Dickon in a +dropped voice. + +Mistress Mary got up from the log at once. She knew she felt contrary +again, and obstinate, and she did not care at all. She was imperious +and Indian, and at the same time hot and sorrowful. + +"Come with me and I'll show you," she said. + +She led him round the laurel path and to the walk where the ivy grew so +thickly. Dickon followed her with a queer, almost pitying, look on his +face. He felt as if he were being led to look at some strange bird's +nest and must move softly. When she stepped to the wall and lifted the +hanging ivy he started. There was a door and Mary pushed it slowly +open and they passed in together, and then Mary stood and waved her +hand round defiantly. + +"It's this," she said. "It's a secret garden, and I'm the only one in +the world who wants it to be alive." + +Dickon looked round and round about it, and round and round again. + +"Eh!" he almost whispered, "it is a queer, pretty place! It's like as +if a body was in a dream." + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +THE NEST OF THE MISSEL THRUSH + + +For two or three minutes he stood looking round him, while Mary watched +him, and then he began to walk about softly, even more lightly than +Mary had walked the first time she had found herself inside the four +walls. His eyes seemed to be taking in everything--the gray trees with +the gray creepers climbing over them and hanging from their branches, +the tangle on the walls and among the grass, the evergreen alcoves with +the stone seats and tall flower urns standing in them. + +"I never thought I'd see this place," he said at last, in a whisper. + +"Did you know about it?" asked Mary. + +She had spoken aloud and he made a sign to her. + +"We must talk low," he said, "or some one'll hear us an' wonder what's +to do in here." + +"Oh! I forgot!" said Mary, feeling frightened and putting her hand +quickly against her mouth. "Did you know about the garden?" she asked +again when she had recovered herself. Dickon nodded. + +"Martha told me there was one as no one ever went inside," he answered. +"Us used to wonder what it was like." + +He stopped and looked round at the lovely gray tangle about him, and +his round eyes looked queerly happy. + +"Eh! the nests as'll be here come springtime," he said. "It'd be th' +safest nestin' place in England. No one never comin' near an' tangles +o' trees an' roses to build in. I wonder all th' birds on th' moor +don't build here." + +Mistress Mary put her hand on his arm again without knowing it. + +"Will there be roses?" she whispered. "Can you tell? I thought perhaps +they were all dead." + +"Eh! No! Not them--not all of 'em!" he answered. "Look here!" + +He stepped over to the nearest tree--an old, old one with gray lichen +all over its bark, but upholding a curtain of tangled sprays and +branches. He took a thick knife out of his Pocket and opened one of +its blades. + +"There's lots o' dead wood as ought to be cut out," he said. "An' +there's a lot o' old wood, but it made some new last year. This here's +a new bit," and he touched a shoot which looked brownish green instead +of hard, dry gray. Mary touched it herself in an eager, reverent way. + +"That one?" she said. "Is that one quite alive quite?" + +Dickon curved his wide smiling mouth. + +"It's as wick as you or me," he said; and Mary remembered that Martha +had told her that "wick" meant "alive" or "lively." + +"I'm glad it's wick!" she cried out in her whisper. "I want them all +to be wick. Let us go round the garden and count how many wick ones +there are." + +She quite panted with eagerness, and Dickon was as eager as she was. +They went from tree to tree and from bush to bush. Dickon carried his +knife in his hand and showed her things which she thought wonderful. + +"They've run wild," he said, "but th' strongest ones has fair thrived +on it. The delicatest ones has died out, but th' others has growed an' +growed, an' spread an' spread, till they's a wonder. See here!" and he +pulled down a thick gray, dry-looking branch. "A body might think this +was dead wood, but I don't believe it is--down to th' root. I'll cut +it low down an' see." + +He knelt and with his knife cut the lifeless-looking branch through, +not far above the earth. + +"There!" he said exultantly. "I told thee so. There's green in that +wood yet. Look at it." + +Mary was down on her knees before he spoke, gazing with all her might. + +"When it looks a bit greenish an' juicy like that, it's wick," he +explained. "When th' inside is dry an' breaks easy, like this here +piece I've cut off, it's done for. There's a big root here as all this +live wood sprung out of, an' if th' old wood's cut off an' it's dug +round, and took care of there'll be--" he stopped and lifted his face +to look up at the climbing and hanging sprays above him--"there'll be a +fountain o' roses here this summer." + +They went from bush to bush and from tree to tree. He was very strong +and clever with his knife and knew how to cut the dry and dead wood +away, and could tell when an unpromising bough or twig had still green +life in it. In the course of half an hour Mary thought she could tell +too, and when he cut through a lifeless-looking branch she would cry +out joyfully under her breath when she caught sight of the least shade +of moist green. The spade, and hoe, and fork were very useful. He +showed her how to use the fork while he dug about roots with the spade +and stirred the earth and let the air in. + +They were working industriously round one of the biggest standard roses +when he caught sight of something which made him utter an exclamation +of surprise. + +"Why!" he cried, pointing to the grass a few feet away. "Who did that +there?" + +It was one of Mary's own little clearings round the pale green points. + +"I did it," said Mary. + +"Why, I thought tha' didn't know nothin' about gardenin'," he exclaimed. + +"I don't," she answered, "but they were so little, and the grass was so +thick and strong, and they looked as if they had no room to breathe. +So I made a place for them. I don't even know what they are." + +Dickon went and knelt down by them, smiling his wide smile. + +"Tha' was right," he said. "A gardener couldn't have told thee better. +They'll grow now like Jack's bean-stalk. They're crocuses an' +snowdrops, an' these here is narcissuses," turning to another patch, +"an here's daffydowndillys. Eh! they will be a sight." + +He ran from one clearing to another. + +"Tha' has done a lot o' work for such a little wench," he said, looking +her over. + +"I'm growing fatter," said Mary, "and I'm growing stronger. I used +always to be tired. When I dig I'm not tired at all. I like to smell +the earth when it's turned up." + +"It's rare good for thee," he said, nodding his head wisely. "There's +naught as nice as th' smell o' good clean earth, except th' smell o' +fresh growin' things when th' rain falls on 'em. I get out on th' moor +many a day when it's rainin' an' I lie under a bush an' listen to th' +soft swish o' drops on th' heather an' I just sniff an' sniff. My nose +end fair quivers like a rabbit's, mother says." + +"Do you never catch cold?" inquired Mary, gazing at him wonderingly. +She had never seen such a funny boy, or such a nice one. + +"Not me," he said, grinning. "I never ketched cold since I was born. +I wasn't brought up nesh enough. I've chased about th' moor in all +weathers same as th' rabbits does. Mother says I've sniffed up too +much fresh air for twelve year' to ever get to sniffin' with cold. I'm +as tough as a white-thorn knobstick." + +He was working all the time he was talking and Mary was following him +and helping him with her fork or the trowel. + +"There's a lot of work to do here!" he said once, looking about quite +exultantly. + +"Will you come again and help me to do it?" Mary begged. "I'm sure I +can help, too. I can dig and pull up weeds, and do whatever you tell +me. Oh! do come, Dickon!" + +"I'll come every day if tha' wants me, rain or shine," he answered +stoutly. "It's the best fun I ever had in my life--shut in here an' +wakenin' up a garden." + +"If you will come," said Mary, "if you will help me to make it alive +I'll--I don't know what I'll do," she ended helplessly. What could you +do for a boy like that? + +"I'll tell thee what tha'll do," said Dickon, with his happy grin. +"Tha'll get fat an' tha'll get as hungry as a young fox an' tha'll +learn how to talk to th' robin same as I do. Eh! we'll have a lot o' +fun." + +He began to walk about, looking up in the trees and at the walls and +bushes with a thoughtful expression. + +"I wouldn't want to make it look like a gardener's garden, all clipped +an' spick an' span, would you?" he said. "It's nicer like this with +things runnin' wild, an' swingin' an' catchin' hold of each other." + +"Don't let us make it tidy," said Mary anxiously. "It wouldn't seem +like a secret garden if it was tidy." + +Dickon stood rubbing his rusty-red head with a rather puzzled look. +"It's a secret garden sure enough," he said, "but seems like some one +besides th' robin must have been in it since it was shut up ten year' +ago." + +"But the door was locked and the key was buried," said Mary. "No one +could get in." + +"That's true," he answered. "It's a queer place. Seems to me as if +there'd been a bit o' prunin' done here an' there, later than ten year' +ago." + +"But how could it have been done?" said Mary. + +He was examining a branch of a standard rose and he shook his head. + +"Aye! how could it!" he murmured. "With th' door locked an' th' key +buried." + +Mistress Mary always felt that however many years she lived she should +never forget that first morning when her garden began to grow. Of +course, it did seem to begin to grow for her that morning. When Dickon +began to clear places to plant seeds, she remembered what Basil had +sung at her when he wanted to tease her. + +"Are there any flowers that look like bells?" she inquired. + +"Lilies o' th' valley does," he answered, digging away with the trowel, +"an' there's Canterbury bells, an' campanulas." + +"Let's plant some," said Mary. "There's lilies o' th, valley here +already; I saw 'em. They'll have growed too close an' we'll have to +separate 'em, but there's plenty. Th' other ones takes two years to +bloom from seed, but I can bring you some bits o' plants from our +cottage garden. Why does tha' want 'em?" + +Then Mary told him about Basil and his brothers and sisters in India +and of how she had hated them and of their calling her "Mistress Mary +Quite Contrary." + +"They used to dance round and sing at me. They sang-- + + 'Mistress Mary, quite contrary, + How does your garden grow? + With silver bells, and cockle shells, + And marigolds all in a row.' + +I just remembered it and it made me wonder if there were really flowers +like silver bells." + +She frowned a little and gave her trowel a rather spiteful dig into the +earth. + +"I wasn't as contrary as they were." + +But Dickon laughed. + +"Eh!" he said, and as he crumbled the rich black soil she saw he was +sniffing up the scent of it. "There doesn't seem to be no need for no +one to be contrary when there's flowers an' such like, an' such lots o' +friendly wild things runnin' about makin' homes for themselves, or +buildin' nests an' singin' an' whistlin', does there?" + +Mary, kneeling by him holding the seeds, looked at him and stopped +frowning. + +"Dickon," she said, "you are as nice as Martha said you were. I like +you, and you make the fifth person. I never thought I should like five +people." + +Dickon sat up on his heels as Martha did when she was polishing the +grate. He did look funny and delightful, Mary thought, with his round +blue eyes and red cheeks and happy looking turned-up nose. + +"Only five folk as tha' likes?" he said. "Who is th' other four?" + +"Your mother and Martha," Mary checked them off on her fingers, "and +the robin and Ben Weatherstaff." + +Dickon laughed so that he was obliged to stifle the sound by putting +his arm over his mouth. + +"I know tha' thinks I'm a queer lad," he said, "but I think tha' art +th' queerest little lass I ever saw." + +Then Mary did a strange thing. She leaned forward and asked him a +question she had never dreamed of asking any one before. And she tried +to ask it in Yorkshire because that was his language, and in India a +native was always pleased if you knew his speech. + +"Does tha' like me?" she said. + +"Eh!" he answered heartily, "that I does. I likes thee wonderful, an' +so does th' robin, I do believe!" + +"That's two, then," said Mary. "That's two for me." + +And then they began to work harder than ever and more joyfully. Mary +was startled and sorry when she heard the big clock in the courtyard +strike the hour of her midday dinner. + +"I shall have to go," she said mournfully. "And you will have to go +too, won't you?" + +Dickon grinned. + +"My dinner's easy to carry about with me," he said. "Mother always +lets me put a bit o' somethin' in my pocket." + +He picked up his coat from the grass and brought out of a pocket a +lumpy little bundle tied up in a quite clean, coarse, blue and white +handkerchief. It held two thick pieces of bread with a slice of +something laid between them. + +"It's oftenest naught but bread," he said, "but I've got a fine slice +o' fat bacon with it today." + +Mary thought it looked a queer dinner, but he seemed ready to enjoy it. + +"Run on an' get thy victuals," he said. "I'll be done with mine first. +I'll get some more work done before I start back home." + +He sat down with his back against a tree. + +"I'll call th' robin up," he said, "and give him th' rind o' th' bacon +to peck at. They likes a bit o' fat wonderful." + +Mary could scarcely bear to leave him. Suddenly it seemed as if he +might be a sort of wood fairy who might be gone when she came into the +garden again. He seemed too good to be true. She went slowly half-way +to the door in the wall and then she stopped and went back. + +"Whatever happens, you--you never would tell?" she said. + +His poppy-colored cheeks were distended with his first big bite of +bread and bacon, but he managed to smile encouragingly. + +"If tha' was a missel thrush an' showed me where thy nest was, does +tha' think I'd tell any one? Not me," he said. "Tha' art as safe as a +missel thrush." + +And she was quite sure she was. + + + + +CHAPTER XII + +"MIGHT I HAVE A BIT OF EARTH?" + + +Mary ran so fast that she was rather out of breath when she reached her +room. Her hair was ruffled on her forehead and her cheeks were bright +pink. Her dinner was waiting on the table, and Martha was waiting near +it. + +"Tha's a bit late," she said. "Where has tha' been?" + +"I've seen Dickon!" said Mary. "I've seen Dickon!" + +"I knew he'd come," said Martha exultantly. "How does tha' like him?" + +"I think--I think he's beautiful!" said Mary in a determined voice. + +Martha looked rather taken aback but she looked pleased, too. + +"Well," she said, "he's th' best lad as ever was born, but us never +thought he was handsome. His nose turns up too much." + +"I like it to turn up," said Mary. + +"An' his eyes is so round," said Martha, a trifle doubtful. "Though +they're a nice color." "I like them round," said Mary. "And they are +exactly the color of the sky over the moor." + +Martha beamed with satisfaction. + +"Mother says he made 'em that color with always lookin' up at th' birds +an' th' clouds. But he has got a big mouth, hasn't he, now?" + +"I love his big mouth," said Mary obstinately. "I wish mine were just +like it." + +Martha chuckled delightedly. + +"It'd look rare an' funny in thy bit of a face," she said. "But I +knowed it would be that way when tha' saw him. How did tha' like th' +seeds an' th' garden tools?" + +"How did you know he brought them?" asked Mary. + +"Eh! I never thought of him not bringin' 'em. He'd be sure to bring 'em +if they was in Yorkshire. He's such a trusty lad." + +Mary was afraid that she might begin to ask difficult questions, but +she did not. She was very much interested in the seeds and gardening +tools, and there was only one moment when Mary was frightened. This +was when she began to ask where the flowers were to be planted. + +"Who did tha' ask about it?" she inquired. + +"I haven't asked anybody yet," said Mary, hesitating. "Well, I +wouldn't ask th' head gardener. He's too grand, Mr. Roach is." + +"I've never seen him," said Mary. "I've only seen undergardeners and +Ben Weatherstaff." + +"If I was you, I'd ask Ben Weatherstaff," advised Martha. "He's not +half as bad as he looks, for all he's so crabbed. Mr. Craven lets him +do what he likes because he was here when Mrs. Craven was alive, an' he +used to make her laugh. She liked him. Perhaps he'd find you a corner +somewhere out o' the way." + +"If it was out of the way and no one wanted it, no one could mind my +having it, could they?" Mary said anxiously. + +"There wouldn't be no reason," answered Martha. "You wouldn't do no +harm." + +Mary ate her dinner as quickly as she could and when she rose from the +table she was going to run to her room to put on her hat again, but +Martha stopped her. + +"I've got somethin' to tell you," she said. "I thought I'd let you eat +your dinner first. Mr. Craven came back this mornin' and I think he +wants to see you." + +Mary turned quite pale. + +"Oh!" she said. "Why! Why! He didn't want to see me when I came. I +heard Pitcher say he didn't." "Well," explained Martha, "Mrs. Medlock +says it's because o' mother. She was walkin' to Thwaite village an' +she met him. She'd never spoke to him before, but Mrs. Craven had been +to our cottage two or three times. He'd forgot, but mother hadn't an' +she made bold to stop him. I don't know what she said to him about you +but she said somethin' as put him in th' mind to see you before he goes +away again, tomorrow." + +"Oh!" cried Mary, "is he going away tomorrow? I am so glad!" + +"He's goin' for a long time. He mayn't come back till autumn or +winter. He's goin' to travel in foreign places. He's always doin' it." + +"Oh! I'm so glad--so glad!" said Mary thankfully. + +If he did not come back until winter, or even autumn, there would be +time to watch the secret garden come alive. Even if he found out then +and took it away from her she would have had that much at least. + +"When do you think he will want to see--" + +She did not finish the sentence, because the door opened, and Mrs. +Medlock walked in. She had on her best black dress and cap, and her +collar was fastened with a large brooch with a picture of a man's face +on it. It was a colored photograph of Mr. Medlock who had died years +ago, and she always wore it when she was dressed up. She looked +nervous and excited. + +"Your hair's rough," she said quickly. "Go and brush it. Martha, help +her to slip on her best dress. Mr. Craven sent me to bring her to him +in his study." + +All the pink left Mary's cheeks. Her heart began to thump and she felt +herself changing into a stiff, plain, silent child again. She did not +even answer Mrs. Medlock, but turned and walked into her bedroom, +followed by Martha. She said nothing while her dress was changed, and +her hair brushed, and after she was quite tidy she followed Mrs. +Medlock down the corridors, in silence. What was there for her to say? +She was obliged to go and see Mr. Craven and he would not like her, and +she would not like him. She knew what he would think of her. + +She was taken to a part of the house she had not been into before. At +last Mrs. Medlock knocked at a door, and when some one said, "Come in," +they entered the room together. A man was sitting in an armchair +before the fire, and Mrs. Medlock spoke to him. + +"This is Miss Mary, sir," she said. + +"You can go and leave her here. I will ring for you when I want you to +take her away," said Mr. Craven. + +When she went out and closed the door, Mary could only stand waiting, a +plain little thing, twisting her thin hands together. She could see +that the man in the chair was not so much a hunchback as a man with +high, rather crooked shoulders, and he had black hair streaked with +white. He turned his head over his high shoulders and spoke to her. + +"Come here!" he said. + +Mary went to him. + +He was not ugly. His face would have been handsome if it had not been +so miserable. He looked as if the sight of her worried and fretted him +and as if he did not know what in the world to do with her. + +"Are you well?" he asked. + +"Yes," answered Mary. + +"Do they take good care of you?" + +"Yes." + +He rubbed his forehead fretfully as he looked her over. + +"You are very thin," he said. + +"I am getting fatter," Mary answered in what she knew was her stiffest +way. + +What an unhappy face he had! His black eyes seemed as if they scarcely +saw her, as if they were seeing something else, and he could hardly +keep his thoughts upon her. + +"I forgot you," he said. "How could I remember you? I intended to send +you a governess or a nurse, or some one of that sort, but I forgot." + +"Please," began Mary. "Please--" and then the lump in her throat +choked her. + +"What do you want to say?" he inquired. + +"I am--I am too big for a nurse," said Mary. "And please--please don't +make me have a governess yet." + +He rubbed his forehead again and stared at her. + +"That was what the Sowerby woman said," he muttered absentmindedly. + +Then Mary gathered a scrap of courage. + +"Is she--is she Martha's mother?" she stammered. + +"Yes, I think so," he replied. + +"She knows about children," said Mary. "She has twelve. She knows." + +He seemed to rouse himself. + +"What do you want to do?" + +"I want to play out of doors," Mary answered, hoping that her voice did +not tremble. "I never liked it in India. It makes me hungry here, and +I am getting fatter." + +He was watching her. + +"Mrs. Sowerby said it would do you good. Perhaps it will," he said. +"She thought you had better get stronger before you had a governess." + +"It makes me feel strong when I play and the wind comes over the moor," +argued Mary. + +"Where do you play?" he asked next. + +"Everywhere," gasped Mary. "Martha's mother sent me a skipping-rope. I +skip and run--and I look about to see if things are beginning to stick +up out of the earth. I don't do any harm." + +"Don't look so frightened," he said in a worried voice. "You could not +do any harm, a child like you! You may do what you like." + +Mary put her hand up to her throat because she was afraid he might see +the excited lump which she felt jump into it. She came a step nearer +to him. + +"May I?" she said tremulously. + +Her anxious little face seemed to worry him more than ever. + +"Don't look so frightened," he exclaimed. "Of course you may. I am +your guardian, though I am a poor one for any child. I cannot give you +time or attention. I am too ill, and wretched and distracted; but I +wish you to be happy and comfortable. I don't know anything about +children, but Mrs. Medlock is to see that you have all you need. I +sent for you to-day because Mrs. Sowerby said I ought to see you. Her +daughter had talked about you. She thought you needed fresh air and +freedom and running about." + +"She knows all about children," Mary said again in spite of herself. + +"She ought to," said Mr. Craven. "I thought her rather bold to stop me +on the moor, but she said--Mrs. Craven had been kind to her." It seemed +hard for him to speak his dead wife's name. "She is a respectable +woman. Now I have seen you I think she said sensible things. Play out +of doors as much as you like. It's a big place and you may go where +you like and amuse yourself as you like. Is there anything you want?" +as if a sudden thought had struck him. "Do you want toys, books, +dolls?" + +"Might I," quavered Mary, "might I have a bit of earth?" + +In her eagerness she did not realize how queer the words would sound +and that they were not the ones she had meant to say. Mr. Craven +looked quite startled. + +"Earth!" he repeated. "What do you mean?" + +"To plant seeds in--to make things grow--to see them come alive," Mary +faltered. + +He gazed at her a moment and then passed his hand quickly over his eyes. + +"Do you--care about gardens so much," he said slowly. + +"I didn't know about them in India," said Mary. "I was always ill and +tired and it was too hot. I sometimes made little beds in the sand and +stuck flowers in them. But here it is different." + +Mr. Craven got up and began to walk slowly across the room. + +"A bit of earth," he said to himself, and Mary thought that somehow she +must have reminded him of something. When he stopped and spoke to her +his dark eyes looked almost soft and kind. + +"You can have as much earth as you want," he said. "You remind me of +some one else who loved the earth and things that grow. When you see a +bit of earth you want," with something like a smile, "take it, child, +and make it come alive." + +"May I take it from anywhere--if it's not wanted?" + +"Anywhere," he answered. "There! You must go now, I am tired." He +touched the bell to call Mrs. Medlock. "Good-by. I shall be away all +summer." + +Mrs. Medlock came so quickly that Mary thought she must have been +waiting in the corridor. + +"Mrs. Medlock," Mr. Craven said to her, "now I have seen the child I +understand what Mrs. Sowerby meant. She must be less delicate before +she begins lessons. Give her simple, healthy food. Let her run wild +in the garden. Don't look after her too much. She needs liberty and +fresh air and romping about. Mrs. Sowerby is to come and see her now +and then and she may sometimes go to the cottage." + +Mrs. Medlock looked pleased. She was relieved to hear that she need +not "look after" Mary too much. She had felt her a tiresome charge and +had indeed seen as little of her as she dared. In addition to this she +was fond of Martha's mother. + +"Thank you, sir," she said. "Susan Sowerby and me went to school +together and she's as sensible and good-hearted a woman as you'd find +in a day's walk. I never had any children myself and she's had twelve, +and there never was healthier or better ones. Miss Mary can get no +harm from them. I'd always take Susan Sowerby's advice about children +myself. She's what you might call healthy-minded--if you understand +me." + +"I understand," Mr. Craven answered. "Take Miss Mary away now and send +Pitcher to me." + +When Mrs. Medlock left her at the end of her own corridor Mary flew +back to her room. She found Martha waiting there. Martha had, in +fact, hurried back after she had removed the dinner service. + +"I can have my garden!" cried Mary. "I may have it where I like! I am +not going to have a governess for a long time! Your mother is coming to +see me and I may go to your cottage! He says a little girl like me +could not do any harm and I may do what I like--anywhere!" + +"Eh!" said Martha delightedly, "that was nice of him wasn't it?" + +"Martha," said Mary solemnly, "he is really a nice man, only his face +is so miserable and his forehead is all drawn together." + +She ran as quickly as she could to the garden. She had been away so +much longer than she had thought she should and she knew Dickon would +have to set out early on his five-mile walk. When she slipped through +the door under the ivy, she saw he was not working where she had left +him. The gardening tools were laid together under a tree. She ran to +them, looking all round the place, but there was no Dickon to be seen. +He had gone away and the secret garden was empty--except for the robin +who had just flown across the wall and sat on a standard rose-bush +watching her. "He's gone," she said woefully. "Oh! was he--was +he--was he only a wood fairy?" + +Something white fastened to the standard rose-bush caught her eye. It +was a piece of paper, in fact, it was a piece of the letter she had +printed for Martha to send to Dickon. It was fastened on the bush with +a long thorn, and in a minute she knew Dickon had left it there. There +were some roughly printed letters on it and a sort of picture. At +first she could not tell what it was. Then she saw it was meant for a +nest with a bird sitting on it. Underneath were the printed letters +and they said: + +"I will cum bak." + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + +"I AM COLIN" + + +Mary took the picture back to the house when she went to her supper and +she showed it to Martha. + +"Eh!" said Martha with great pride. "I never knew our Dickon was as +clever as that. That there's a picture of a missel thrush on her nest, +as large as life an' twice as natural." + +Then Mary knew Dickon had meant the picture to be a message. He had +meant that she might be sure he would keep her secret. Her garden was +her nest and she was like a missel thrush. Oh, how she did like that +queer, common boy! + +She hoped he would come back the very next day and she fell asleep +looking forward to the morning. + +But you never know what the weather will do in Yorkshire, particularly +in the springtime. She was awakened in the night by the sound of rain +beating with heavy drops against her window. It was pouring down in +torrents and the wind was "wuthering" round the corners and in the +chimneys of the huge old house. Mary sat up in bed and felt miserable +and angry. + +"The rain is as contrary as I ever was," she said. "It came because it +knew I did not want it." + +She threw herself back on her pillow and buried her face. She did not +cry, but she lay and hated the sound of the heavily beating rain, she +hated the wind and its "wuthering." She could not go to sleep again. +The mournful sound kept her awake because she felt mournful herself. +If she had felt happy it would probably have lulled her to sleep. How +it "wuthered" and how the big raindrops poured down and beat against +the pane! + +"It sounds just like a person lost on the moor and wandering on and on +crying," she said. + + +She had been lying awake turning from side to side for about an hour, +when suddenly something made her sit up in bed and turn her head toward +the door listening. She listened and she listened. + +"It isn't the wind now," she said in a loud whisper. "That isn't the +wind. It is different. It is that crying I heard before." + +The door of her room was ajar and the sound came down the corridor, a +far-off faint sound of fretful crying. She listened for a few minutes +and each minute she became more and more sure. She felt as if she must +find out what it was. It seemed even stranger than the secret garden +and the buried key. Perhaps the fact that she was in a rebellious mood +made her bold. She put her foot out of bed and stood on the floor. + +"I am going to find out what it is," she said. "Everybody is in bed +and I don't care about Mrs. Medlock--I don't care!" + +There was a candle by her bedside and she took it up and went softly +out of the room. The corridor looked very long and dark, but she was +too excited to mind that. She thought she remembered the corners she +must turn to find the short corridor with the door covered with +tapestry--the one Mrs. Medlock had come through the day she lost +herself. The sound had come up that passage. So she went on with her +dim light, almost feeling her way, her heart beating so loud that she +fancied she could hear it. The far-off faint crying went on and led +her. Sometimes it stopped for a moment or so and then began again. +Was this the right corner to turn? She stopped and thought. Yes it +was. Down this passage and then to the left, and then up two broad +steps, and then to the right again. Yes, there was the tapestry door. + +She pushed it open very gently and closed it behind her, and she stood +in the corridor and could hear the crying quite plainly, though it was +not loud. It was on the other side of the wall at her left and a few +yards farther on there was a door. She could see a glimmer of light +coming from beneath it. The Someone was crying in that room, and it +was quite a young Someone. + +So she walked to the door and pushed it open, and there she was +standing in the room! + +It was a big room with ancient, handsome furniture in it. There was a +low fire glowing faintly on the hearth and a night light burning by the +side of a carved four-posted bed hung with brocade, and on the bed was +lying a boy, crying fretfully. + +Mary wondered if she was in a real place or if she had fallen asleep +again and was dreaming without knowing it. + +The boy had a sharp, delicate face the color of ivory and he seemed to +have eyes too big for it. He had also a lot of hair which tumbled over +his forehead in heavy locks and made his thin face seem smaller. He +looked like a boy who had been ill, but he was crying more as if he +were tired and cross than as if he were in pain. + +Mary stood near the door with her candle in her hand, holding her +breath. Then she crept across the room, and, as she drew nearer, the +light attracted the boy's attention and he turned his head on his +pillow and stared at her, his gray eyes opening so wide that they +seemed immense. + +"Who are you?" he said at last in a half-frightened whisper. "Are you +a ghost?" + +"No, I am not," Mary answered, her own whisper sounding half +frightened. "Are you one?" + +He stared and stared and stared. Mary could not help noticing what +strange eyes he had. They were agate gray and they looked too big for +his face because they had black lashes all round them. + +"No," he replied after waiting a moment or so. "I am Colin." + +"Who is Colin?" she faltered. + +"I am Colin Craven. Who are you?" + +"I am Mary Lennox. Mr. Craven is my uncle." + +"He is my father," said the boy. + +"Your father!" gasped Mary. "No one ever told me he had a boy! Why +didn't they?" + +"Come here," he said, still keeping his strange eyes fixed on her with +an anxious expression. + +She came close to the bed and he put out his hand and touched her. + +"You are real, aren't you?" he said. "I have such real dreams very +often. You might be one of them." + +Mary had slipped on a woolen wrapper before she left her room and she +put a piece of it between his fingers. + +"Rub that and see how thick and warm it is," she said. "I will pinch +you a little if you like, to show you how real I am. For a minute I +thought you might be a dream too." + +"Where did you come from?" he asked. + +"From my own room. The wind wuthered so I couldn't go to sleep and I +heard some one crying and wanted to find out who it was. What were you +crying for?" + +"Because I couldn't go to sleep either and my head ached. Tell me your +name again." + +"Mary Lennox. Did no one ever tell you I had come to live here?" + +He was still fingering the fold of her wrapper, but he began to look a +little more as if he believed in her reality. + +"No," he answered. "They daren't." + +"Why?" asked Mary. + +"Because I should have been afraid you would see me. I won't let +people see me and talk me over." + +"Why?" Mary asked again, feeling more mystified every moment. + +"Because I am like this always, ill and having to lie down. My father +won't let people talk me over either. The servants are not allowed to +speak about me. If I live I may be a hunchback, but I shan't live. My +father hates to think I may be like him." + +"Oh, what a queer house this is!" Mary said. "What a queer house! +Everything is a kind of secret. Rooms are locked up and gardens are +locked up--and you! Have you been locked up?" + +"No. I stay in this room because I don't want to be moved out of it. +It tires me too much." + +"Does your father come and see you?" Mary ventured. + +"Sometimes. Generally when I am asleep. He doesn't want to see me." + +"Why?" Mary could not help asking again. + +A sort of angry shadow passed over the boy's face. + +"My mother died when I was born and it makes him wretched to look at +me. He thinks I don't know, but I've heard people talking. He almost +hates me." + +"He hates the garden, because she died," said Mary half speaking to +herself. + +"What garden?" the boy asked. + +"Oh! just--just a garden she used to like," Mary stammered. "Have you +been here always?" "Nearly always. Sometimes I have been taken to +places at the seaside, but I won't stay because people stare at me. I +used to wear an iron thing to keep my back straight, but a grand doctor +came from London to see me and said it was stupid. He told them to +take it off and keep me out in the fresh air. I hate fresh air and I +don't want to go out." + +"I didn't when first I came here," said Mary. "Why do you keep looking +at me like that?" + +"Because of the dreams that are so real," he answered rather fretfully. +"Sometimes when I open my eyes I don't believe I'm awake." + +"We're both awake," said Mary. She glanced round the room with its +high ceiling and shadowy corners and dim fire-light. "It looks quite +like a dream, and it's the middle of the night, and everybody in the +house is asleep--everybody but us. We are wide awake." + +"I don't want it to be a dream," the boy said restlessly. + +Mary thought of something all at once. + +"If you don't like people to see you," she began, "do you want me to go +away?" + +He still held the fold of her wrapper and he gave it a little pull. + +"No," he said. "I should be sure you were a dream if you went. If you +are real, sit down on that big footstool and talk. I want to hear +about you." + +Mary put down her candle on the table near the bed and sat down on the +cushioned stool. She did not want to go away at all. She wanted to +stay in the mysterious hidden-away room and talk to the mysterious boy. + +"What do you want me to tell you?" she said. + +He wanted to know how long she had been at Misselthwaite; he wanted to +know which corridor her room was on; he wanted to know what she had +been doing; if she disliked the moor as he disliked it; where she had +lived before she came to Yorkshire. She answered all these questions +and many more and he lay back on his pillow and listened. He made her +tell him a great deal about India and about her voyage across the +ocean. She found out that because he had been an invalid he had not +learned things as other children had. One of his nurses had taught him +to read when he was quite little and he was always reading and looking +at pictures in splendid books. + +Though his father rarely saw him when he was awake, he was given all +sorts of wonderful things to amuse himself with. He never seemed to +have been amused, however. He could have anything he asked for and was +never made to do anything he did not like to do. "Everyone is obliged +to do what pleases me," he said indifferently. "It makes me ill to be +angry. No one believes I shall live to grow up." + +He said it as if he was so accustomed to the idea that it had ceased to +matter to him at all. He seemed to like the sound of Mary's voice. As +she went on talking he listened in a drowsy, interested way. Once or +twice she wondered if he were not gradually falling into a doze. But +at last he asked a question which opened up a new subject. + +"How old are you?" he asked. + +"I am ten," answered Mary, forgetting herself for the moment, "and so +are you." + +"How do you know that?" he demanded in a surprised voice. + +"Because when you were born the garden door was locked and the key was +buried. And it has been locked for ten years." + +Colin half sat up, turning toward her, leaning on his elbows. + +"What garden door was locked? Who did it? Where was the key buried?" he +exclaimed as if he were suddenly very much interested. + +"It--it was the garden Mr. Craven hates," said Mary nervously. "He +locked the door. No one--no one knew where he buried the key." "What +sort of a garden is it?" Colin persisted eagerly. + +"No one has been allowed to go into it for ten years," was Mary's +careful answer. + +But it was too late to be careful. He was too much like herself. He +too had had nothing to think about and the idea of a hidden garden +attracted him as it had attracted her. He asked question after +question. Where was it? Had she never looked for the door? Had she +never asked the gardeners? + +"They won't talk about it," said Mary. "I think they have been told +not to answer questions." + +"I would make them," said Colin. + +"Could you?" Mary faltered, beginning to feel frightened. If he could +make people answer questions, who knew what might happen! + +"Everyone is obliged to please me. I told you that," he said. "If I +were to live, this place would sometime belong to me. They all know +that. I would make them tell me." + +Mary had not known that she herself had been spoiled, but she could see +quite plainly that this mysterious boy had been. He thought that the +whole world belonged to him. How peculiar he was and how coolly he +spoke of not living. + +"Do you think you won't live?" she asked, partly because she was +curious and partly in hope of making him forget the garden. + +"I don't suppose I shall," he answered as indifferently as he had +spoken before. "Ever since I remember anything I have heard people say +I shan't. At first they thought I was too little to understand and now +they think I don't hear. But I do. My doctor is my father's cousin. +He is quite poor and if I die he will have all Misselthwaite when my +father is dead. I should think he wouldn't want me to live." + +"Do you want to live?" inquired Mary. + +"No," he answered, in a cross, tired fashion. "But I don't want to +die. When I feel ill I lie here and think about it until I cry and +cry." + +"I have heard you crying three times," Mary said, "but I did not know +who it was. Were you crying about that?" She did so want him to forget +the garden. + +"I dare say," he answered. "Let us talk about something else. Talk +about that garden. Don't you want to see it?" + +"Yes," answered Mary, in quite a low voice. + +"I do," he went on persistently. "I don't think I ever really wanted +to see anything before, but I want to see that garden. I want the key +dug up. I want the door unlocked. I would let them take me there in +my chair. That would be getting fresh air. I am going to make them +open the door." + +He had become quite excited and his strange eyes began to shine like +stars and looked more immense than ever. + +"They have to please me," he said. "I will make them take me there and +I will let you go, too." + +Mary's hands clutched each other. Everything would be +spoiled--everything! Dickon would never come back. She would never +again feel like a missel thrush with a safe-hidden nest. + +"Oh, don't--don't--don't--don't do that!" she cried out. + +He stared as if he thought she had gone crazy! + +"Why?" he exclaimed. "You said you wanted to see it." + +"I do," she answered almost with a sob in her throat, "but if you make +them open the door and take you in like that it will never be a secret +again." + +He leaned still farther forward. + +"A secret," he said. "What do you mean? Tell me." + +Mary's words almost tumbled over one another. + +"You see--you see," she panted, "if no one knows but ourselves--if +there was a door, hidden somewhere under the ivy--if there was--and we +could find it; and if we could slip through it together and shut it +behind us, and no one knew any one was inside and we called it our +garden and pretended that--that we were missel thrushes and it was our +nest, and if we played there almost every day and dug and planted seeds +and made it all come alive--" + +"Is it dead?" he interrupted her. + +"It soon will be if no one cares for it," she went on. "The bulbs will +live but the roses--" + +He stopped her again as excited as she was herself. + +"What are bulbs?" he put in quickly. + +"They are daffodils and lilies and snowdrops. They are working in the +earth now--pushing up pale green points because the spring is coming." + +"Is the spring coming?" he said. "What is it like? You don't see it in +rooms if you are ill." + +"It is the sun shining on the rain and the rain falling on the +sunshine, and things pushing up and working under the earth," said +Mary. "If the garden was a secret and we could get into it we could +watch the things grow bigger every day, and see how many roses are +alive. Don't you see? Oh, don't you see how much nicer it would be +if it was a secret?" + +He dropped back on his pillow and lay there with an odd expression on +his face. + +"I never had a secret," he said, "except that one about not living to +grow up. They don't know I know that, so it is a sort of secret. But +I like this kind better." + +"If you won't make them take you to the garden," pleaded Mary, +"perhaps--I feel almost sure I can find out how to get in sometime. +And then--if the doctor wants you to go out in your chair, and if you +can always do what you want to do, perhaps--perhaps we might find some +boy who would push you, and we could go alone and it would always be a +secret garden." + +"I should--like--that," he said very slowly, his eyes looking dreamy. +"I should like that. I should not mind fresh air in a secret garden." + +Mary began to recover her breath and feel safer because the idea of +keeping the secret seemed to please him. She felt almost sure that if +she kept on talking and could make him see the garden in his mind as +she had seen it he would like it so much that he could not bear to +think that everybody might tramp in to it when they chose. + +"I'll tell you what I think it would be like, if we could go into it," +she said. "It has been shut up so long things have grown into a tangle +perhaps." + +He lay quite still and listened while she went on talking about the +roses which might have clambered from tree to tree and hung down--about +the many birds which might have built their nests there because it was +so safe. And then she told him about the robin and Ben Weatherstaff, +and there was so much to tell about the robin and it was so easy and +safe to talk about it that she ceased to be afraid. The robin pleased +him so much that he smiled until he looked almost beautiful, and at +first Mary had thought that he was even plainer than herself, with his +big eyes and heavy locks of hair. + +"I did not know birds could be like that," he said. "But if you stay +in a room you never see things. What a lot of things you know. I feel +as if you had been inside that garden." + +She did not know what to say, so she did not say anything. He +evidently did not expect an answer and the next moment he gave her a +surprise. + +"I am going to let you look at something," he said. "Do you see that +rose-colored silk curtain hanging on the wall over the mantel-piece?" + +Mary had not noticed it before, but she looked up and saw it. It was a +curtain of soft silk hanging over what seemed to be some picture. + +"Yes," she answered. + +"There is a cord hanging from it," said Colin. "Go and pull it." + +Mary got up, much mystified, and found the cord. When she pulled it +the silk curtain ran back on rings and when it ran back it uncovered a +picture. It was the picture of a girl with a laughing face. She had +bright hair tied up with a blue ribbon and her gay, lovely eyes were +exactly like Colin's unhappy ones, agate gray and looking twice as big +as they really were because of the black lashes all round them. + +"She is my mother," said Colin complainingly. "I don't see why she +died. Sometimes I hate her for doing it." + +"How queer!" said Mary. + +"If she had lived I believe I should not have been ill always," he +grumbled. "I dare say I should have lived, too. And my father would +not have hated to look at me. I dare say I should have had a strong +back. Draw the curtain again." + +Mary did as she was told and returned to her footstool. + +"She is much prettier than you," she said, "but her eyes are just like +yours--at least they are the same shape and color. Why is the curtain +drawn over her?" + +He moved uncomfortably. + +"I made them do it," he said. "Sometimes I don't like to see her +looking at me. She smiles too much when I am ill and miserable. +Besides, she is mine and I don't want everyone to see her." There were +a few moments of silence and then Mary spoke. + +"What would Mrs. Medlock do if she found out that I had been here?" she +inquired. + +"She would do as I told her to do," he answered. "And I should tell +her that I wanted you to come here and talk to me every day. I am glad +you came." + +"So am I," said Mary. "I will come as often as I can, but"--she +hesitated--"I shall have to look every day for the garden door." + +"Yes, you must," said Colin, "and you can tell me about it afterward." + +He lay thinking a few minutes, as he had done before, and then he spoke +again. + +"I think you shall be a secret, too," he said. "I will not tell them +until they find out. I can always send the nurse out of the room and +say that I want to be by myself. Do you know Martha?" + +"Yes, I know her very well," said Mary. "She waits on me." + +He nodded his head toward the outer corridor. + +"She is the one who is asleep in the other room. The nurse went away +yesterday to stay all night with her sister and she always makes Martha +attend to me when she wants to go out. Martha shall tell you when to +come here." + +Then Mary understood Martha's troubled look when she had asked +questions about the crying. + +"Martha knew about you all the time?" she said. + +"Yes; she often attends to me. The nurse likes to get away from me and +then Martha comes." + +"I have been here a long time," said Mary. "Shall I go away now? Your +eyes look sleepy." + +"I wish I could go to sleep before you leave me," he said rather shyly. + +"Shut your eyes," said Mary, drawing her footstool closer, "and I will +do what my Ayah used to do in India. I will pat your hand and stroke +it and sing something quite low." + +"I should like that perhaps," he said drowsily. + +Somehow she was sorry for him and did not want him to lie awake, so she +leaned against the bed and began to stroke and pat his hand and sing a +very low little chanting song in Hindustani. + +"That is nice," he said more drowsily still, and she went on chanting +and stroking, but when she looked at him again his black lashes were +lying close against his cheeks, for his eyes were shut and he was fast +asleep. So she got up softly, took her candle and crept away without +making a sound. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + +A YOUNG RAJAH + + +The moor was hidden in mist when the morning came, and the rain had not +stopped pouring down. There could be no going out of doors. Martha +was so busy that Mary had no opportunity of talking to her, but in the +afternoon she asked her to come and sit with her in the nursery. She +came bringing the stocking she was always knitting when she was doing +nothing else. + +"What's the matter with thee?" she asked as soon as they sat down. +"Tha' looks as if tha'd somethin' to say." + +"I have. I have found out what the crying was," said Mary. + +Martha let her knitting drop on her knee and gazed at her with startled +eyes. + +"Tha' hasn't!" she exclaimed. "Never!" + +"I heard it in the night," Mary went on. "And I got up and went to see +where it came from. It was Colin. I found him." + +Martha's face became red with fright. + +"Eh! Miss Mary!" she said half crying. "Tha' shouldn't have done +it--tha' shouldn't! Tha'll get me in trouble. I never told thee +nothin' about him--but tha'll get me in trouble. I shall lose my place +and what'll mother do!" + +"You won't lose your place," said Mary. "He was glad I came. We +talked and talked and he said he was glad I came." + +"Was he?" cried Martha. "Art tha' sure? Tha' doesn't know what he's +like when anything vexes him. He's a big lad to cry like a baby, but +when he's in a passion he'll fair scream just to frighten us. He knows +us daren't call our souls our own." + +"He wasn't vexed," said Mary. "I asked him if I should go away and he +made me stay. He asked me questions and I sat on a big footstool and +talked to him about India and about the robin and gardens. He wouldn't +let me go. He let me see his mother's picture. Before I left him I +sang him to sleep." + +Martha fairly gasped with amazement. + +"I can scarcely believe thee!" she protested. "It's as if tha'd walked +straight into a lion's den. If he'd been like he is most times he'd +have throwed himself into one of his tantrums and roused th' house. He +won't let strangers look at him." + +"He let me look at him. I looked at him all the time and he looked at +me. We stared!" said Mary. + +"I don't know what to do!" cried agitated Martha. "If Mrs. Medlock +finds out, she'll think I broke orders and told thee and I shall be +packed back to mother." + +"He is not going to tell Mrs. Medlock anything about it yet. It's to +be a sort of secret just at first," said Mary firmly. "And he says +everybody is obliged to do as he pleases." + +"Aye, that's true enough--th' bad lad!" sighed Martha, wiping her +forehead with her apron. + +"He says Mrs. Medlock must. And he wants me to come and talk to him +every day. And you are to tell me when he wants me." + +"Me!" said Martha; "I shall lose my place--I shall for sure!" + +"You can't if you are doing what he wants you to do and everybody is +ordered to obey him," Mary argued. + +"Does tha' mean to say," cried Martha with wide open eyes, "that he was +nice to thee!" + +"I think he almost liked me," Mary answered. + +"Then tha' must have bewitched him!" decided Martha, drawing a long +breath. + +"Do you mean Magic?" inquired Mary. "I've heard about Magic in India, +but I can't make it. I just went into his room and I was so surprised +to see him I stood and stared. And then he turned round and stared at +me. And he thought I was a ghost or a dream and I thought perhaps he +was. And it was so queer being there alone together in the middle of +the night and not knowing about each other. And we began to ask each +other questions. And when I asked him if I must go away he said I must +not." + +"Th' world's comin' to a end!" gasped Martha. + +"What is the matter with him?" asked Mary. + +"Nobody knows for sure and certain," said Martha. "Mr. Craven went off +his head like when he was born. Th' doctors thought he'd have to be +put in a 'sylum. It was because Mrs. Craven died like I told you. He +wouldn't set eyes on th' baby. He just raved and said it'd be another +hunchback like him and it'd better die." + +"Is Colin a hunchback?" Mary asked. "He didn't look like one." + +"He isn't yet," said Martha. "But he began all wrong. Mother said +that there was enough trouble and raging in th' house to set any child +wrong. They was afraid his back was weak an' they've always been +takin' care of it--keepin' him lyin' down and not lettin' him walk. +Once they made him wear a brace but he fretted so he was downright ill. +Then a big doctor came to see him an' made them take it off. He talked +to th' other doctor quite rough--in a polite way. He said there'd been +too much medicine and too much lettin' him have his own way." + +"I think he's a very spoiled boy," said Mary. + +"He's th' worst young nowt as ever was!" said Martha. "I won't say as +he hasn't been ill a good bit. He's had coughs an' colds that's nearly +killed him two or three times. Once he had rheumatic fever an' once he +had typhoid. Eh! Mrs. Medlock did get a fright then. He'd been out of +his head an' she was talkin' to th' nurse, thinkin' he didn't know +nothin', an' she said, 'He'll die this time sure enough, an' best thing +for him an' for everybody.' An' she looked at him an' there he was with +his big eyes open, starin' at her as sensible as she was herself. She +didn't know wha'd happen but he just stared at her an' says, 'You give +me some water an' stop talkin'.'" + +"Do you think he will die?" asked Mary. + +"Mother says there's no reason why any child should live that gets no +fresh air an' doesn't do nothin' but lie on his back an' read +picture-books an' take medicine. He's weak and hates th' trouble o' +bein' taken out o' doors, an' he gets cold so easy he says it makes him +ill." + +Mary sat and looked at the fire. "I wonder," she said slowly, "if it +would not do him good to go out into a garden and watch things growing. +It did me good." + +"One of th' worst fits he ever had," said Martha, "was one time they +took him out where the roses is by the fountain. He'd been readin' in +a paper about people gettin' somethin' he called 'rose cold' an' he +began to sneeze an' said he'd got it an' then a new gardener as didn't +know th' rules passed by an' looked at him curious. He threw himself +into a passion an' he said he'd looked at him because he was going to +be a hunchback. He cried himself into a fever an' was ill all night." + +"If he ever gets angry at me, I'll never go and see him again," said +Mary. + +"He'll have thee if he wants thee," said Martha. "Tha' may as well +know that at th' start." + +Very soon afterward a bell rang and she rolled up her knitting. + +"I dare say th' nurse wants me to stay with him a bit," she said. "I +hope he's in a good temper." + +She was out of the room about ten minutes and then she came back with a +puzzled expression. + +"Well, tha' has bewitched him," she said. "He's up on his sofa with +his picture-books. He's told the nurse to stay away until six o'clock. +I'm to wait in the next room. Th' minute she was gone he called me to +him an' says, 'I want Mary Lennox to come and talk to me, and remember +you're not to tell any one.' You'd better go as quick as you can." + +Mary was quite willing to go quickly. She did not want to see Colin as +much as she wanted to see Dickon; but she wanted to see him very much. + +There was a bright fire on the hearth when she entered his room, and in +the daylight she saw it was a very beautiful room indeed. There were +rich colors in the rugs and hangings and pictures and books on the +walls which made it look glowing and comfortable even in spite of the +gray sky and falling rain. Colin looked rather like a picture himself. +He was wrapped in a velvet dressing-gown and sat against a big brocaded +cushion. He had a red spot on each cheek. + +"Come in," he said. "I've been thinking about you all morning." + +"I've been thinking about you, too," answered Mary. "You don't know +how frightened Martha is. She says Mrs. Medlock will think she told me +about you and then she will be sent away." + +He frowned. + +"Go and tell her to come here," he said. "She is in the next room." + +Mary went and brought her back. Poor Martha was shaking in her shoes. +Colin was still frowning. + +"Have you to do what I please or have you not?" he demanded. + +"I have to do what you please, sir," Martha faltered, turning quite red. + +"Has Medlock to do what I please?" + +"Everybody has, sir," said Martha. + +"Well, then, if I order you to bring Miss Mary to me, how can Medlock +send you away if she finds it out?" + +"Please don't let her, sir," pleaded Martha. + +"I'll send her away if she dares to say a word about such a thing," +said Master Craven grandly. "She wouldn't like that, I can tell you." + +"Thank you, sir," bobbing a curtsy, "I want to do my duty, sir." + +"What I want is your duty" said Colin more grandly still. "I'll take +care of you. Now go away." + +When the door closed behind Martha, Colin found Mistress Mary gazing at +him as if he had set her wondering. + +"Why do you look at me like that?" he asked her. "What are you +thinking about?" + +"I am thinking about two things." + +"What are they? Sit down and tell me." + +"This is the first one," said Mary, seating herself on the big stool. +"Once in India I saw a boy who was a Rajah. He had rubies and emeralds +and diamonds stuck all over him. He spoke to his people just as you +spoke to Martha. Everybody had to do everything he told them--in a +minute. I think they would have been killed if they hadn't." + +"I shall make you tell me about Rajahs presently," he said, "but first +tell me what the second thing was." + +"I was thinking," said Mary, "how different you are from Dickon." + +"Who is Dickon?" he said. "What a queer name!" + +She might as well tell him, she thought she could talk about Dickon +without mentioning the secret garden. She had liked to hear Martha +talk about him. Besides, she longed to talk about him. It would seem +to bring him nearer. + +"He is Martha's brother. He is twelve years old," she explained. "He +is not like any one else in the world. He can charm foxes and +squirrels and birds just as the natives in India charm snakes. He +plays a very soft tune on a pipe and they come and listen." + +There were some big books on a table at his side and he dragged one +suddenly toward him. "There is a picture of a snake-charmer in this," +he exclaimed. "Come and look at it." + +The book was a beautiful one with superb colored illustrations and he +turned to one of them. + +"Can he do that?" he asked eagerly. + +"He played on his pipe and they listened," Mary explained. "But he +doesn't call it Magic. He says it's because he lives on the moor so +much and he knows their ways. He says he feels sometimes as if he was +a bird or a rabbit himself, he likes them so. I think he asked the +robin questions. It seemed as if they talked to each other in soft +chirps." + +Colin lay back on his cushion and his eyes grew larger and larger and +the spots on his cheeks burned. + +"Tell me some more about him," he said. + +"He knows all about eggs and nests," Mary went on. "And he knows where +foxes and badgers and otters live. He keeps them secret so that other +boys won't find their holes and frighten them. He knows about +everything that grows or lives on the moor." + +"Does he like the moor?" said Colin. "How can he when it's such a +great, bare, dreary place?" + +"It's the most beautiful place," protested Mary. "Thousands of lovely +things grow on it and there are thousands of little creatures all busy +building nests and making holes and burrows and chippering or singing +or squeaking to each other. They are so busy and having such fun under +the earth or in the trees or heather. It's their world." + +"How do you know all that?" said Colin, turning on his elbow to look at +her. + +"I have never been there once, really," said Mary suddenly remembering. +"I only drove over it in the dark. I thought it was hideous. Martha +told me about it first and then Dickon. When Dickon talks about it you +feel as if you saw things and heard them and as if you were standing in +the heather with the sun shining and the gorse smelling like honey--and +all full of bees and butterflies." + +"You never see anything if you are ill," said Colin restlessly. He +looked like a person listening to a new sound in the distance and +wondering what it was. + +"You can't if you stay in a room," said Mary. + +"I couldn't go on the moor," he said in a resentful tone. + +Mary was silent for a minute and then she said something bold. + +"You might--sometime." + +He moved as if he were startled. + +"Go on the moor! How could I? I am going to die." "How do you know?" +said Mary unsympathetically. She didn't like the way he had of talking +about dying. She did not feel very sympathetic. She felt rather as if +he almost boasted about it. + +"Oh, I've heard it ever since I remember," he answered crossly. "They +are always whispering about it and thinking I don't notice. They wish +I would, too." + +Mistress Mary felt quite contrary. She pinched her lips together. + +"If they wished I would," she said, "I wouldn't. Who wishes you would?" + +"The servants--and of course Dr. Craven because he would get +Misselthwaite and be rich instead of poor. He daren't say so, but he +always looks cheerful when I am worse. When I had typhoid fever his +face got quite fat. I think my father wishes it, too." + +"I don't believe he does," said Mary quite obstinately. + +That made Colin turn and look at her again. + +"Don't you?" he said. + +And then he lay back on his cushion and was still, as if he were +thinking. And there was quite a long silence. Perhaps they were both +of them thinking strange things children do not usually think. "I like +the grand doctor from London, because he made them take the iron thing +off," said Mary at last "Did he say you were going to die?" + +"No.". + +"What did he say?" + +"He didn't whisper," Colin answered. "Perhaps he knew I hated +whispering. I heard him say one thing quite aloud. He said, 'The lad +might live if he would make up his mind to it. Put him in the humor.' +It sounded as if he was in a temper." + +"I'll tell you who would put you in the humor, perhaps," said Mary +reflecting. She felt as if she would like this thing to be settled one +way or the other. "I believe Dickon would. He's always talking about +live things. He never talks about dead things or things that are ill. +He's always looking up in the sky to watch birds flying--or looking +down at the earth to see something growing. He has such round blue +eyes and they are so wide open with looking about. And he laughs such +a big laugh with his wide mouth--and his cheeks are as red--as red as +cherries." She pulled her stool nearer to the sofa and her expression +quite changed at the remembrance of the wide curving mouth and wide +open eyes. + +"See here," she said. "Don't let us talk about dying; I don't like it. +Let us talk about living. Let us talk and talk about Dickon. And then +we will look at your pictures." + +It was the best thing she could have said. To talk about Dickon meant +to talk about the moor and about the cottage and the fourteen people +who lived in it on sixteen shillings a week--and the children who got +fat on the moor grass like the wild ponies. And about Dickon's +mother--and the skipping-rope--and the moor with the sun on it--and +about pale green points sticking up out of the black sod. And it was +all so alive that Mary talked more than she had ever talked before--and +Colin both talked and listened as he had never done either before. And +they both began to laugh over nothings as children will when they are +happy together. And they laughed so that in the end they were making +as much noise as if they had been two ordinary healthy natural +ten-year-old creatures--instead of a hard, little, unloving girl and a +sickly boy who believed that he was going to die. + +They enjoyed themselves so much that they forgot the pictures and they +forgot about the time. They had been laughing quite loudly over Ben +Weatherstaff and his robin, and Colin was actually sitting up as if he +had forgotten about his weak back, when he suddenly remembered +something. "Do you know there is one thing we have never once thought +of," he said. "We are cousins." + +It seemed so queer that they had talked so much and never remembered +this simple thing that they laughed more than ever, because they had +got into the humor to laugh at anything. And in the midst of the fun +the door opened and in walked Dr. Craven and Mrs. Medlock. + +Dr. Craven started in actual alarm and Mrs. Medlock almost fell back +because he had accidentally bumped against her. + +"Good Lord!" exclaimed poor Mrs. Medlock with her eyes almost starting +out of her head. "Good Lord!" + +"What is this?" said Dr. Craven, coming forward. "What does it mean?" + +Then Mary was reminded of the boy Rajah again. Colin answered as if +neither the doctor's alarm nor Mrs. Medlock's terror were of the +slightest consequence. He was as little disturbed or frightened as if +an elderly cat and dog had walked into the room. + +"This is my cousin, Mary Lennox," he said. "I asked her to come and +talk to me. I like her. She must come and talk to me whenever I send +for her." + +Dr. Craven turned reproachfully to Mrs. Medlock. "Oh, sir" she panted. +"I don't know how it's happened. There's not a servant on the place +tha'd dare to talk--they all have their orders." + +"Nobody told her anything," said Colin. "She heard me crying and found +me herself. I am glad she came. Don't be silly, Medlock." + +Mary saw that Dr. Craven did not look pleased, but it was quite plain +that he dare not oppose his patient. He sat down by Colin and felt his +pulse. + +"I am afraid there has been too much excitement. Excitement is not +good for you, my boy," he said. + +"I should be excited if she kept away," answered Colin, his eyes +beginning to look dangerously sparkling. "I am better. She makes me +better. The nurse must bring up her tea with mine. We will have tea +together." + +Mrs. Medlock and Dr. Craven looked at each other in a troubled way, but +there was evidently nothing to be done. + +"He does look rather better, sir," ventured Mrs. Medlock. +"But"--thinking the matter over--"he looked better this morning before +she came into the room." + +"She came into the room last night. She stayed with me a long time. +She sang a Hindustani song to me and it made me go to sleep," said +Colin. "I was better when I wakened up. I wanted my breakfast. I +want my tea now. Tell nurse, Medlock." + +Dr. Craven did not stay very long. He talked to the nurse for a few +minutes when she came into the room and said a few words of warning to +Colin. He must not talk too much; he must not forget that he was ill; +he must not forget that he was very easily tired. Mary thought that +there seemed to be a number of uncomfortable things he was not to +forget. + +Colin looked fretful and kept his strange black-lashed eyes fixed on +Dr. Craven's face. + +"I want to forget it," he said at last. "She makes me forget it. That +is why I want her." + +Dr. Craven did not look happy when he left the room. He gave a puzzled +glance at the little girl sitting on the large stool. She had become a +stiff, silent child again as soon as he entered and he could not see +what the attraction was. The boy actually did look brighter, +however--and he sighed rather heavily as he went down the corridor. + +"They are always wanting me to eat things when I don't want to," said +Colin, as the nurse brought in the tea and put it on the table by the +sofa. "Now, if you'll eat I will. Those muffins look so nice and hot. +Tell me about Rajahs." + + + + +CHAPTER XV + +NEST BUILDING + + +After another week of rain the high arch of blue sky appeared again and +the sun which poured down was quite hot. Though there had been no +chance to see either the secret garden or Dickon, Mistress Mary had +enjoyed herself very much. The week had not seemed long. She had +spent hours of every day with Colin in his room, talking about Rajahs +or gardens or Dickon and the cottage on the moor. They had looked at +the splendid books and pictures and sometimes Mary had read things to +Colin, and sometimes he had read a little to her. When he was amused +and interested she thought he scarcely looked like an invalid at all, +except that his face was so colorless and he was always on the sofa. + +"You are a sly young one to listen and get out of your bed to go +following things up like you did that night," Mrs. Medlock said once. +"But there's no saying it's not been a sort of blessing to the lot of +us. He's not had a tantrum or a whining fit since you made friends. +The nurse was just going to give up the case because she was so sick of +him, but she says she doesn't mind staying now you've gone on duty with +her," laughing a little. + +In her talks with Colin, Mary had tried to be very cautious about the +secret garden. There were certain things she wanted to find out from +him, but she felt that she must find them out without asking him direct +questions. In the first place, as she began to like to be with him, +she wanted to discover whether he was the kind of boy you could tell a +secret to. He was not in the least like Dickon, but he was evidently +so pleased with the idea of a garden no one knew anything about that +she thought perhaps he could be trusted. But she had not known him +long enough to be sure. The second thing she wanted to find out was +this: If he could be trusted--if he really could--wouldn't it be +possible to take him to the garden without having any one find it out? +The grand doctor had said that he must have fresh air and Colin had +said that he would not mind fresh air in a secret garden. Perhaps if +he had a great deal of fresh air and knew Dickon and the robin and saw +things growing he might not think so much about dying. Mary had seen +herself in the glass sometimes lately when she had realized that she +looked quite a different creature from the child she had seen when she +arrived from India. This child looked nicer. Even Martha had seen a +change in her. + +"Th' air from th' moor has done thee good already," she had said. +"Tha'rt not nigh so yeller and tha'rt not nigh so scrawny. Even tha' +hair doesn't slamp down on tha' head so flat. It's got some life in it +so as it sticks out a bit." + +"It's like me," said Mary. "It's growing stronger and fatter. I'm +sure there's more of it." + +"It looks it, for sure," said Martha, ruffling it up a little round her +face. "Tha'rt not half so ugly when it's that way an' there's a bit o' +red in tha' cheeks." + +If gardens and fresh air had been good for her perhaps they would be +good for Colin. But then, if he hated people to look at him, perhaps +he would not like to see Dickon. + +"Why does it make you angry when you are looked at?" she inquired one +day. + +"I always hated it," he answered, "even when I was very little. Then +when they took me to the seaside and I used to lie in my carriage +everybody used to stare and ladies would stop and talk to my nurse and +then they would begin to whisper and I knew then they were saying I +shouldn't live to grow up. Then sometimes the ladies would pat my +cheeks and say 'Poor child!' Once when a lady did that I screamed out +loud and bit her hand. She was so frightened she ran away." + +"She thought you had gone mad like a dog," said Mary, not at all +admiringly. + +"I don't care what she thought," said Colin, frowning. + +"I wonder why you didn't scream and bite me when I came into your +room?" said Mary. Then she began to smile slowly. + +"I thought you were a ghost or a dream," he said. "You can't bite a +ghost or a dream, and if you scream they don't care." + +"Would you hate it if--if a boy looked at you?" Mary asked uncertainly. + +He lay back on his cushion and paused thoughtfully. + +"There's one boy," he said quite slowly, as if he were thinking over +every word, "there's one boy I believe I shouldn't mind. It's that boy +who knows where the foxes live--Dickon." + +"I'm sure you wouldn't mind him," said Mary. + +"The birds don't and other animals," he said, still thinking it over, +"perhaps that's why I shouldn't. He's a sort of animal charmer and I am +a boy animal." + +Then he laughed and she laughed too; in fact it ended in their both +laughing a great deal and finding the idea of a boy animal hiding in +his hole very funny indeed. + +What Mary felt afterward was that she need not fear about Dickon. + + +On that first morning when the sky was blue again Mary wakened very +early. The sun was pouring in slanting rays through the blinds and +there was something so joyous in the sight of it that she jumped out of +bed and ran to the window. She drew up the blinds and opened the +window itself and a great waft of fresh, scented air blew in upon her. +The moor was blue and the whole world looked as if something Magic had +happened to it. There were tender little fluting sounds here and there +and everywhere, as if scores of birds were beginning to tune up for a +concert. Mary put her hand out of the window and held it in the sun. + +"It's warm--warm!" she said. "It will make the green points push up +and up and up, and it will make the bulbs and roots work and struggle +with all their might under the earth." + +She kneeled down and leaned out of the window as far as she could, +breathing big breaths and sniffing the air until she laughed because +she remembered what Dickon's mother had said about the end of his nose +quivering like a rabbit's. "It must be very early," she said. "The +little clouds are all pink and I've never seen the sky look like this. +No one is up. I don't even hear the stable boys." + +A sudden thought made her scramble to her feet. + +"I can't wait! I am going to see the garden!" + +She had learned to dress herself by this time and she put on her +clothes in five minutes. She knew a small side door which she could +unbolt herself and she flew downstairs in her stocking feet and put on +her shoes in the hall. She unchained and unbolted and unlocked and +when the door was open she sprang across the step with one bound, and +there she was standing on the grass, which seemed to have turned green, +and with the sun pouring down on her and warm sweet wafts about her and +the fluting and twittering and singing coming from every bush and tree. +She clasped her hands for pure joy and looked up in the sky and it was +so blue and pink and pearly and white and flooded with springtime light +that she felt as if she must flute and sing aloud herself and knew that +thrushes and robins and skylarks could not possibly help it. She ran +around the shrubs and paths towards the secret garden. + +"It is all different already," she said. "The grass is greener and +things are sticking up everywhere and things are uncurling and green +buds of leaves are showing. This afternoon I am sure Dickon will come." + +The long warm rain had done strange things to the herbaceous beds which +bordered the walk by the lower wall. There were things sprouting and +pushing out from the roots of clumps of plants and there were actually +here and there glimpses of royal purple and yellow unfurling among the +stems of crocuses. Six months before Mistress Mary would not have seen +how the world was waking up, but now she missed nothing. + +When she had reached the place where the door hid itself under the ivy, +she was startled by a curious loud sound. It was the caw--caw of a +crow and it came from the top of the wall, and when she looked up, +there sat a big glossy-plumaged blue-black bird, looking down at her +very wisely indeed. She had never seen a crow so close before and he +made her a little nervous, but the next moment he spread his wings and +flapped away across the garden. She hoped he was not going to stay +inside and she pushed the door open wondering if he would. When she +got fairly into the garden she saw that he probably did intend to stay +because he had alighted on a dwarf apple-tree and under the apple-tree +was lying a little reddish animal with a Bushy tail, and both of them +were watching the stooping body and rust-red head of Dickon, who was +kneeling on the grass working hard. + +Mary flew across the grass to him. + +"Oh, Dickon! Dickon!" she cried out. "How could you get here so early! +How could you! The sun has only just got up!" + +He got up himself, laughing and glowing, and tousled; his eyes like a +bit of the sky. + +"Eh!" he said. "I was up long before him. How could I have stayed +abed! Th' world's all fair begun again this mornin', it has. An' it's +workin' an' hummin' an' scratchin' an' pipin' an' nest-buildin' an' +breathin' out scents, till you've got to be out on it 'stead o' lyin' +on your back. When th' sun did jump up, th' moor went mad for joy, an' +I was in the midst of th' heather, an' I run like mad myself, shoutin' +an' singin'. An' I come straight here. I couldn't have stayed away. +Why, th' garden was lyin' here waitin'!" + +Mary put her hands on her chest, panting, as if she had been running +herself. + +"Oh, Dickon! Dickon!" she said. "I'm so happy I can scarcely breathe!" + +Seeing him talking to a stranger, the little bushy-tailed animal rose +from its place under the tree and came to him, and the rook, cawing +once, flew down from its branch and settled quietly on his shoulder. + +"This is th' little fox cub," he said, rubbing the little reddish +animal's head. "It's named Captain. An' this here's Soot. Soot he +flew across th' moor with me an' Captain he run same as if th' hounds +had been after him. They both felt same as I did." + +Neither of the creatures looked as if he were the least afraid of Mary. +When Dickon began to walk about, Soot stayed on his shoulder and +Captain trotted quietly close to his side. + +"See here!" said Dickon. "See how these has pushed up, an' these an' +these! An' Eh! Look at these here!" + +He threw himself upon his knees and Mary went down beside him. They +had come upon a whole clump of crocuses burst into purple and orange +and gold. Mary bent her face down and kissed and kissed them. + +"You never kiss a person in that way," she said when she lifted her +head. "Flowers are so different." + +He looked puzzled but smiled. + +"Eh!" he said, "I've kissed mother many a time that way when I come in +from th' moor after a day's roamin' an' she stood there at th' door in +th' sun, lookin' so glad an' comfortable." They ran from one part of +the garden to another and found so many wonders that they were obliged +to remind themselves that they must whisper or speak low. He showed +her swelling leafbuds on rose branches which had seemed dead. He +showed her ten thousand new green points pushing through the mould. +They put their eager young noses close to the earth and sniffed its +warmed springtime breathing; they dug and pulled and laughed low with +rapture until Mistress Mary's hair was as tumbled as Dickon's and her +cheeks were almost as poppy red as his. + +There was every joy on earth in the secret garden that morning, and in +the midst of them came a delight more delightful than all, because it +was more wonderful. Swiftly something flew across the wall and darted +through the trees to a close grown corner, a little flare of +red-breasted bird with something hanging from its beak. Dickon stood +quite still and put his hand on Mary almost as if they had suddenly +found themselves laughing in a church. + +"We munnot stir," he whispered in broad Yorkshire. "We munnot scarce +breathe. I knowed he was mate-huntin' when I seed him last. It's Ben +Weatherstaff's robin. He's buildin' his nest. He'll stay here if us +don't fight him." They settled down softly upon the grass and sat there +without moving. + +"Us mustn't seem as if us was watchin' him too close," said Dickon. +"He'd be out with us for good if he got th' notion us was interferin' +now. He'll be a good bit different till all this is over. He's +settin' up housekeepin'. He'll be shyer an' readier to take things +ill. He's got no time for visitin' an' gossipin'. Us must keep still a +bit an' try to look as if us was grass an' trees an' bushes. Then when +he's got used to seein' us I'll chirp a bit an' he'll know us'll not be +in his way." + +Mistress Mary was not at all sure that she knew, as Dickon seemed to, +how to try to look like grass and trees and bushes. But he had said +the queer thing as if it were the simplest and most natural thing in +the world, and she felt it must be quite easy to him, and indeed she +watched him for a few minutes carefully, wondering if it was possible +for him to quietly turn green and put out branches and leaves. But he +only sat wonderfully still, and when he spoke dropped his voice to such +a softness that it was curious that she could hear him, but she could. + +"It's part o' th' springtime, this nest-buildin' is," he said. "I +warrant it's been goin' on in th' same way every year since th' world +was begun. They've got their way o' thinkin' and doin' things an' a +body had better not meddle. You can lose a friend in springtime easier +than any other season if you're too curious." + +"If we talk about him I can't help looking at him," Mary said as softly +as possible. "We must talk of something else. There is something I +want to tell you." + +"He'll like it better if us talks o' somethin' else," said Dickon. +"What is it tha's got to tell me?" + +"Well--do you know about Colin?" she whispered. + +He turned his head to look at her. + +"What does tha' know about him?" he asked. + +"I've seen him. I have been to talk to him every day this week. He +wants me to come. He says I'm making him forget about being ill and +dying," answered Mary. + +Dickon looked actually relieved as soon as the surprise died away from +his round face. + +"I am glad o' that," he exclaimed. "I'm right down glad. It makes me +easier. I knowed I must say nothin' about him an' I don't like havin' +to hide things." + +"Don't you like hiding the garden?" said Mary. + +"I'll never tell about it," he answered. "But I says to mother, +'Mother,' I says, 'I got a secret to keep. It's not a bad 'un, tha' +knows that. It's no worse than hidin' where a bird's nest is. Tha' +doesn't mind it, does tha'?'" + +Mary always wanted to hear about mother. + +"What did she say?" she asked, not at all afraid to hear. + +Dickon grinned sweet-temperedly. + +"It was just like her, what she said," he answered. "She give my head +a bit of a rub an' laughed an' she says, 'Eh, lad, tha' can have all +th' secrets tha' likes. I've knowed thee twelve year'.'" + +"How did you know about Colin?" asked Mary. + +"Everybody as knowed about Mester Craven knowed there was a little lad +as was like to be a cripple, an' they knowed Mester Craven didn't like +him to be talked about. Folks is sorry for Mester Craven because Mrs. +Craven was such a pretty young lady an' they was so fond of each other. +Mrs. Medlock stops in our cottage whenever she goes to Thwaite an' she +doesn't mind talkin' to mother before us children, because she knows us +has been brought up to be trusty. How did tha' find out about him? +Martha was in fine trouble th' last time she came home. She said tha'd +heard him frettin' an' tha' was askin' questions an' she didn't know +what to say." + +Mary told him her story about the midnight wuthering of the wind which +had wakened her and about the faint far-off sounds of the complaining +voice which had led her down the dark corridors with her candle and had +ended with her opening of the door of the dimly lighted room with the +carven four-posted bed in the corner. When she described the small +ivory-white face and the strange black-rimmed eyes Dickon shook his +head. + +"Them's just like his mother's eyes, only hers was always laughin', +they say," he said. "They say as Mr. Craven can't bear to see him when +he's awake an' it's because his eyes is so like his mother's an' yet +looks so different in his miserable bit of a face." + +"Do you think he wants to die?" whispered Mary. + +"No, but he wishes he'd never been born. Mother she says that's th' +worst thing on earth for a child. Them as is not wanted scarce ever +thrives. Mester Craven he'd buy anythin' as money could buy for th' +poor lad but he'd like to forget as he's on earth. For one thing, he's +afraid he'll look at him some day and find he's growed hunchback." + +"Colin's so afraid of it himself that he won't sit up," said Mary. "He +says he's always thinking that if he should feel a lump coming he +should go crazy and scream himself to death." + +"Eh! he oughtn't to lie there thinkin' things like that," said Dickon. +"No lad could get well as thought them sort o' things." + +The fox was lying on the grass close by him, looking up to ask for a +pat now and then, and Dickon bent down and rubbed his neck softly and +thought a few minutes in silence. Presently he lifted his head and +looked round the garden. + +"When first we got in here," he said, "it seemed like everything was +gray. Look round now and tell me if tha' doesn't see a difference." + +Mary looked and caught her breath a little. + +"Why!" she cried, "the gray wall is changing. It is as if a green mist +were creeping over it. It's almost like a green gauze veil." + +"Aye," said Dickon. "An' it'll be greener and greener till th' gray's +all gone. Can tha' guess what I was thinkin'?" + +"I know it was something nice," said Mary eagerly. "I believe it was +something about Colin." + +"I was thinkin' that if he was out here he wouldn't be watchin' for +lumps to grow on his back; he'd be watchin' for buds to break on th' +rose-bushes, an' he'd likely be healthier," explained Dickon. "I was +wonderin' if us could ever get him in th' humor to come out here an' +lie under th' trees in his carriage." + +"I've been wondering that myself. I've thought of it almost every time +I've talked to him," said Mary. "I've wondered if he could keep a +secret and I've wondered if we could bring him here without any one +seeing us. I thought perhaps you could push his carriage. The doctor +said he must have fresh air and if he wants us to take him out no one +dare disobey him. He won't go out for other people and perhaps they +will be glad if he will go out with us. He could order the gardeners +to keep away so they wouldn't find out." + +Dickon was thinking very hard as he scratched Captain's back. + +"It'd be good for him, I'll warrant," he said. "Us'd not be thinkin' +he'd better never been born. Us'd be just two children watchin' a +garden grow, an' he'd be another. Two lads an' a little lass just +lookin' on at th' springtime. I warrant it'd be better than doctor's +stuff." + +"He's been lying in his room so long and he's always been so afraid of +his back that it has made him queer," said Mary. "He knows a good many +things out of books but he doesn't know anything else. He says he has +been too ill to notice things and he hates going out of doors and hates +gardens and gardeners. But he likes to hear about this garden because +it is a secret. I daren't tell him much but he said he wanted to see +it." + +"Us'll have him out here sometime for sure," said Dickon. "I could +push his carriage well enough. Has tha' noticed how th' robin an' his +mate has been workin' while we've been sittin' here? Look at him +perched on that branch wonderin' where it'd be best to put that twig +he's got in his beak." + +He made one of his low whistling calls and the robin turned his head +and looked at him inquiringly, still holding his twig. Dickon spoke to +him as Ben Weatherstaff did, but Dickon's tone was one of friendly +advice. + +"Wheres'ever tha' puts it," he said, "it'll be all right. Tha' knew +how to build tha' nest before tha' came out o' th' egg. Get on with +thee, lad. Tha'st got no time to lose." + +"Oh, I do like to hear you talk to him!" Mary said, laughing +delightedly. "Ben Weatherstaff scolds him and makes fun of him, and he +hops about and looks as if he understood every word, and I know he +likes it. Ben Weatherstaff says he is so conceited he would rather +have stones thrown at him than not be noticed." + +Dickon laughed too and went on talking. + +"Tha' knows us won't trouble thee," he said to the robin. "Us is near +bein' wild things ourselves. Us is nest-buildin' too, bless thee. +Look out tha' doesn't tell on us." + +And though the robin did not answer, because his beak was occupied, +Mary knew that when he flew away with his twig to his own corner of the +garden the darkness of his dew-bright eye meant that he would not tell +their secret for the world. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +"I WON'T!" SAID MARY + + +They found a great deal to do that morning and Mary was late in +returning to the house and was also in such a hurry to get back to her +work that she quite forgot Colin until the last moment. + +"Tell Colin that I can't come and see him yet," she said to Martha. +"I'm very busy in the garden." + +Martha looked rather frightened. + +"Eh! Miss Mary," she said, "it may put him all out of humor when I tell +him that." + +But Mary was not as afraid of him as other people were and she was not +a self-sacrificing person. + +"I can't stay," she answered. "Dickon's waiting for me;" and she ran +away. + +The afternoon was even lovelier and busier than the morning had been. +Already nearly all the weeds were cleared out of the garden and most of +the roses and trees had been pruned or dug about. Dickon had brought a +spade of his own and he had taught Mary to use all her tools, so that +by this time it was plain that though the lovely wild place was not +likely to become a "gardener's garden" it would be a wilderness of +growing things before the springtime was over. + +"There'll be apple blossoms an' cherry blossoms overhead," Dickon said, +working away with all his might. "An' there'll be peach an' plum trees +in bloom against th' walls, an' th' grass'll be a carpet o' flowers." + +The little fox and the rook were as happy and busy as they were, and +the robin and his mate flew backward and forward like tiny streaks of +lightning. Sometimes the rook flapped his black wings and soared away +over the tree-tops in the park. Each time he came back and perched +near Dickon and cawed several times as if he were relating his +adventures, and Dickon talked to him just as he had talked to the +robin. Once when Dickon was so busy that he did not answer him at +first, Soot flew on to his shoulders and gently tweaked his ear with +his large beak. When Mary wanted to rest a little Dickon sat down with +her under a tree and once he took his pipe out of his pocket and played +the soft strange little notes and two squirrels appeared on the wall +and looked and listened. + +"Tha's a good bit stronger than tha' was," Dickon said, looking at her +as she was digging. "Tha's beginning to look different, for sure." + +Mary was glowing with exercise and good spirits. + +"I'm getting fatter and fatter every day," she said quite exultantly. +"Mrs. Medlock will have to get me some bigger dresses. Martha says my +hair is growing thicker. It isn't so flat and stringy." + +The sun was beginning to set and sending deep gold-colored rays +slanting under the trees when they parted. + +"It'll be fine tomorrow," said Dickon. "I'll be at work by sunrise." + +"So will I," said Mary. + + +She ran back to the house as quickly as her feet would carry her. She +wanted to tell Colin about Dickon's fox cub and the rook and about what +the springtime had been doing. She felt sure he would like to hear. +So it was not very pleasant when she opened the door of her room, to +see Martha standing waiting for her with a doleful face. + +"What is the matter?" she asked. "What did Colin say when you told him +I couldn't come?" + +"Eh!" said Martha, "I wish tha'd gone. He was nigh goin' into one o' +his tantrums. There's been a nice to do all afternoon to keep him +quiet. He would watch the clock all th' time." + +Mary's lips pinched themselves together. She was no more used to +considering other people than Colin was and she saw no reason why an +ill-tempered boy should interfere with the thing she liked best. She +knew nothing about the pitifulness of people who had been ill and +nervous and who did not know that they could control their tempers and +need not make other people ill and nervous, too. When she had had a +headache in India she had done her best to see that everybody else also +had a headache or something quite as bad. And she felt she was quite +right; but of course now she felt that Colin was quite wrong. + +He was not on his sofa when she went into his room. He was lying flat +on his back in bed and he did not turn his head toward her as she came +in. This was a bad beginning and Mary marched up to him with her stiff +manner. + +"Why didn't you get up?" she said. + +"I did get up this morning when I thought you were coming," he +answered, without looking at her. "I made them put me back in bed this +afternoon. My back ached and my head ached and I was tired. Why +didn't you come?" "I was working in the garden with Dickon," said Mary. + +Colin frowned and condescended to look at her. + +"I won't let that boy come here if you go and stay with him instead of +coming to talk to me," he said. + +Mary flew into a fine passion. She could fly into a passion without +making a noise. She just grew sour and obstinate and did not care what +happened. + +"If you send Dickon away, I'll never come into this room again!" she +retorted. + +"You'll have to if I want you," said Colin. + +"I won't!" said Mary. + +"I'll make you," said Colin. "They shall drag you in." + +"Shall they, Mr. Rajah!" said Mary fiercely. "They may drag me in but +they can't make me talk when they get me here. I'll sit and clench my +teeth and never tell you one thing. I won't even look at you. I'll +stare at the floor!" + +They were a nice agreeable pair as they glared at each other. If they +had been two little street boys they would have sprung at each other +and had a rough-and-tumble fight. As it was, they did the next thing +to it. + +"You are a selfish thing!" cried Colin. + +"What are you?" said Mary. "Selfish people always say that. Any one +is selfish who doesn't do what they want. You're more selfish than I +am. You're the most selfish boy I ever saw." + +"I'm not!" snapped Colin. "I'm not as selfish as your fine Dickon is! +He keeps you playing in the dirt when he knows I am all by myself. +He's selfish, if you like!" + +Mary's eyes flashed fire. + +"He's nicer than any other boy that ever lived!" she said. "He's--he's +like an angel!" It might sound rather silly to say that but she did not +care. + +"A nice angel!" Colin sneered ferociously. "He's a common cottage boy +off the moor!" + +"He's better than a common Rajah!" retorted Mary. "He's a thousand +times better!" + +Because she was the stronger of the two she was beginning to get the +better of him. The truth was that he had never had a fight with any +one like himself in his life and, upon the whole, it was rather good +for him, though neither he nor Mary knew anything about that. He +turned his head on his pillow and shut his eyes and a big tear was +squeezed out and ran down his cheek. He was beginning to feel pathetic +and sorry for himself--not for any one else. + +"I'm not as selfish as you, because I'm always ill, and I'm sure there +is a lump coming on my back," he said. "And I am going to die besides." + +"You're not!" contradicted Mary unsympathetically. + +He opened his eyes quite wide with indignation. He had never heard +such a thing said before. He was at once furious and slightly pleased, +if a person could be both at one time. + +"I'm not?" he cried. "I am! You know I am! Everybody says so." + +"I don't believe it!" said Mary sourly. "You just say that to make +people sorry. I believe you're proud of it. I don't believe it! If +you were a nice boy it might be true--but you're too nasty!" + +In spite of his invalid back Colin sat up in bed in quite a healthy +rage. + +"Get out of the room!" he shouted and he caught hold of his pillow and +threw it at her. He was not strong enough to throw it far and it only +fell at her feet, but Mary's face looked as pinched as a nutcracker. + +"I'm going," she said. "And I won't come back!" She walked to the door +and when she reached it she turned round and spoke again. + +"I was going to tell you all sorts of nice things," she said. "Dickon +brought his fox and his rook and I was going to tell you all about +them. Now I won't tell you a single thing!" + +She marched out of the door and closed it behind her, and there to her +great astonishment she found the trained nurse standing as if she had +been listening and, more amazing still--she was laughing. She was a +big handsome young woman who ought not to have been a trained nurse at +all, as she could not bear invalids and she was always making excuses +to leave Colin to Martha or any one else who would take her place. +Mary had never liked her, and she simply stood and gazed up at her as +she stood giggling into her handkerchief.. + +"What are you laughing at?" she asked her. + +"At you two young ones," said the nurse. "It's the best thing that +could happen to the sickly pampered thing to have some one to stand up +to him that's as spoiled as himself;" and she laughed into her +handkerchief again. "If he'd had a young vixen of a sister to fight +with it would have been the saving of him." + +"Is he going to die?" + +"I don't know and I don't care," said the nurse. "Hysterics and temper +are half what ails him." + +"What are hysterics?" asked Mary. + +"You'll find out if you work him into a tantrum after this--but at any +rate you've given him something to have hysterics about, and I'm glad +of it." + +Mary went back to her room not feeling at all as she had felt when she +had come in from the garden. She was cross and disappointed but not at +all sorry for Colin. She had looked forward to telling him a great +many things and she had meant to try to make up her mind whether it +would be safe to trust him with the great secret. She had been +beginning to think it would be, but now she had changed her mind +entirely. She would never tell him and he could stay in his room and +never get any fresh air and die if he liked! It would serve him right! +She felt so sour and unrelenting that for a few minutes she almost +forgot about Dickon and the green veil creeping over the world and the +soft wind blowing down from the moor. + +Martha was waiting for her and the trouble in her face had been +temporarily replaced by interest and curiosity. There was a wooden box +on the table and its cover had been removed and revealed that it was +full of neat packages. + +"Mr. Craven sent it to you," said Martha. "It looks as if it had +picture-books in it." + +Mary remembered what he had asked her the day she had gone to his room. +"Do you want anything--dolls--toys--books?" She opened the package +wondering if he had sent a doll, and also wondering what she should do +with it if he had. But he had not sent one. There were several +beautiful books such as Colin had, and two of them were about gardens +and were full of pictures. There were two or three games and there was +a beautiful little writing-case with a gold monogram on it and a gold +pen and inkstand. + +Everything was so nice that her pleasure began to crowd her anger out +of her mind. She had not expected him to remember her at all and her +hard little heart grew quite warm. + +"I can write better than I can print," she said, "and the first thing I +shall write with that pen will be a letter to tell him I am much +obliged." + +If she had been friends with Colin she would have run to show him her +presents at once, and they would have looked at the pictures and read +some of the gardening books and perhaps tried playing the games, and he +would have enjoyed himself so much he would never once have thought he +was going to die or have put his hand on his spine to see if there was +a lump coming. He had a way of doing that which she could not bear. +It gave her an uncomfortable frightened feeling because he always +looked so frightened himself. He said that if he felt even quite a +little lump some day he should know his hunch had begun to grow. +Something he had heard Mrs. Medlock whispering to the nurse had given +him the idea and he had thought over it in secret until it was quite +firmly fixed in his mind. Mrs. Medlock had said his father's back had +begun to show its crookedness in that way when he was a child. He had +never told any one but Mary that most of his "tantrums" as they called +them grew out of his hysterical hidden fear. Mary had been sorry for +him when he had told her. + +"He always began to think about it when he was cross or tired," she +said to herself. "And he has been cross today. Perhaps--perhaps he +has been thinking about it all afternoon." + +She stood still, looking down at the carpet and thinking. + +"I said I would never go back again--" she hesitated, knitting her +brows--"but perhaps, just perhaps, I will go and see--if he wants +me--in the morning. Perhaps he'll try to throw his pillow at me again, +but--I think--I'll go." + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + +A TANTRUM + + +She had got up very early in the morning and had worked hard in the +garden and she was tired and sleepy, so as soon as Martha had brought +her supper and she had eaten it, she was glad to go to bed. As she +laid her head on the pillow she murmured to herself: + +"I'll go out before breakfast and work with Dickon and then +afterward--I believe--I'll go to see him." + +She thought it was the middle of the night when she was awakened by +such dreadful sounds that she jumped out of bed in an instant. What +was it--what was it? The next minute she felt quite sure she knew. +Doors were opened and shut and there were hurrying feet in the +corridors and some one was crying and screaming at the same time, +screaming and crying in a horrible way. + +"It's Colin," she said. "He's having one of those tantrums the nurse +called hysterics. How awful it sounds." + +As she listened to the sobbing screams she did not wonder that people +were so frightened that they gave him his own way in everything rather +than hear them. She put her hands over her ears and felt sick and +shivering. + +"I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do," she kept saying. +"I can't bear it." + +Once she wondered if he would stop if she dared go to him and then she +remembered how he had driven her out of the room and thought that +perhaps the sight of her might make him worse. Even when she pressed +her hands more tightly over her ears she could not keep the awful +sounds out. She hated them so and was so terrified by them that +suddenly they began to make her angry and she felt as if she should +like to fly into a tantrum herself and frighten him as he was +frightening her. She was not used to any one's tempers but her own. +She took her hands from her ears and sprang up and stamped her foot. + +"He ought to be stopped! Somebody ought to make him stop! Somebody +ought to beat him!" she cried out. + +Just then she heard feet almost running down the corridor and her door +opened and the nurse came in. She was not laughing now by any means. +She even looked rather pale. + +"He's worked himself into hysterics," she said in a great hurry. +"He'll do himself harm. No one can do anything with him. You come and +try, like a good child. He likes you." + +"He turned me out of the room this morning," said Mary, stamping her +foot with excitement. + +The stamp rather pleased the nurse. The truth was that she had been +afraid she might find Mary crying and hiding her head under the +bed-clothes. + +"That's right," she said. "You're in the right humor. You go and +scold him. Give him something new to think of. Do go, child, as quick +as ever you can." + +It was not until afterward that Mary realized that the thing had been +funny as well as dreadful--that it was funny that all the grown-up +people were so frightened that they came to a little girl just because +they guessed she was almost as bad as Colin himself. + +She flew along the corridor and the nearer she got to the screams the +higher her temper mounted. She felt quite wicked by the time she +reached the door. She slapped it open with her hand and ran across the +room to the four-posted bed. + +"You stop!" she almost shouted. "You stop! I hate you! Everybody +hates you! I wish everybody would run out of the house and let you +scream yourself to death! You will scream yourself to death in a +minute, and I wish you would!" A nice sympathetic child could neither +have thought nor said such things, but it just happened that the shock +of hearing them was the best possible thing for this hysterical boy +whom no one had ever dared to restrain or contradict. + +He had been lying on his face beating his pillow with his hands and he +actually almost jumped around, he turned so quickly at the sound of the +furious little voice. His face looked dreadful, white and red and +swollen, and he was gasping and choking; but savage little Mary did not +care an atom. + +"If you scream another scream," she said, "I'll scream too--and I can +scream louder than you can and I'll frighten you, I'll frighten you!" + +He actually had stopped screaming because she had startled him so. The +scream which had been coming almost choked him. The tears were +streaming down his face and he shook all over. + +"I can't stop!" he gasped and sobbed. "I can't--I can't!" + +"You can!" shouted Mary. "Half that ails you is hysterics and +temper--just hysterics--hysterics--hysterics!" and she stamped each +time she said it. + +"I felt the lump--I felt it," choked out Colin. "I knew I should. I +shall have a hunch on my back and then I shall die," and he began to +writhe again and turned on his face and sobbed and wailed but he didn't +scream. + +"You didn't feel a lump!" contradicted Mary fiercely. "If you did it +was only a hysterical lump. Hysterics makes lumps. There's nothing +the matter with your horrid back--nothing but hysterics! Turn over and +let me look at it!" + +She liked the word "hysterics" and felt somehow as if it had an effect +on him. He was probably like herself and had never heard it before. + +"Nurse," she commanded, "come here and show me his back this minute!" + +The nurse, Mrs. Medlock and Martha had been standing huddled together +near the door staring at her, their mouths half open. All three had +gasped with fright more than once. The nurse came forward as if she +were half afraid. Colin was heaving with great breathless sobs. + +"Perhaps he--he won't let me," she hesitated in a low voice. + +Colin heard her, however, and he gasped out between two sobs: + +"Sh-show her! She-she'll see then!" + +It was a poor thin back to look at when it was bared. Every rib could +be counted and every joint of the spine, though Mistress Mary did not +count them as she bent over and examined them with a solemn savage +little face. She looked so sour and old-fashioned that the nurse +turned her head aside to hide the twitching of her mouth. There was +just a minute's silence, for even Colin tried to hold his breath while +Mary looked up and down his spine, and down and up, as intently as if +she had been the great doctor from London. + +"There's not a single lump there!" she said at last. "There's not a +lump as big as a pin--except backbone lumps, and you can only feel them +because you're thin. I've got backbone lumps myself, and they used to +stick out as much as yours do, until I began to get fatter, and I am +not fat enough yet to hide them. There's not a lump as big as a pin! +If you ever say there is again, I shall laugh!" + +No one but Colin himself knew what effect those crossly spoken childish +words had on him. If he had ever had any one to talk to about his +secret terrors--if he had ever dared to let himself ask questions--if +he had had childish companions and had not lain on his back in the huge +closed house, breathing an atmosphere heavy with the fears of people +who were most of them ignorant and tired of him, he would have found +out that most of his fright and illness was created by himself. But he +had lain and thought of himself and his aches and weariness for hours +and days and months and years. And now that an angry unsympathetic +little girl insisted obstinately that he was not as ill as he thought +he was he actually felt as if she might be speaking the truth. + +"I didn't know," ventured the nurse, "that he thought he had a lump on +his spine. His back is weak because he won't try to sit up. I could +have told him there was no lump there." Colin gulped and turned his +face a little to look at her. + +"C-could you?" he said pathetically. + +"Yes, sir." + +"There!" said Mary, and she gulped too. + +Colin turned on his face again and but for his long-drawn broken +breaths, which were the dying down of his storm of sobbing, he lay +still for a minute, though great tears streamed down his face and wet +the pillow. Actually the tears meant that a curious great relief had +come to him. Presently he turned and looked at the nurse again and +strangely enough he was not like a Rajah at all as he spoke to her. + +"Do you think--I could--live to grow up?" he said. + +The nurse was neither clever nor soft-hearted but she could repeat some +of the London doctor's words. + +"You probably will if you will do what you are told to do and not give +way to your temper, and stay out a great deal in the fresh air." + +Colin's tantrum had passed and he was weak and worn out with crying and +this perhaps made him feel gentle. He put out his hand a little toward +Mary, and I am glad to say that, her own tantum having passed, she was +softened too and met him half-way with her hand, so that it was a sort +of making up. + +"I'll--I'll go out with you, Mary," he said. "I shan't hate fresh air +if we can find--" He remembered just in time to stop himself from +saying "if we can find the secret garden" and he ended, "I shall like +to go out with you if Dickon will come and push my chair. I do so want +to see Dickon and the fox and the crow." + +The nurse remade the tumbled bed and shook and straightened the +pillows. Then she made Colin a cup of beef tea and gave a cup to Mary, +who really was very glad to get it after her excitement. Mrs. Medlock +and Martha gladly slipped away, and after everything was neat and calm +and in order the nurse looked as if she would very gladly slip away +also. She was a healthy young woman who resented being robbed of her +sleep and she yawned quite openly as she looked at Mary, who had pushed +her big footstool close to the four-posted bed and was holding Colin's +hand. + +"You must go back and get your sleep out," she said. "He'll drop off +after a while--if he's not too upset. Then I'll lie down myself in the +next room." + +"Would you like me to sing you that song I learned from my Ayah?" Mary +whispered to Colin. + +His hand pulled hers gently and he turned his tired eyes on her +appealingly. + +"Oh, yes!" he answered. "It's such a soft song. I shall go to sleep +in a minute." + +"I will put him to sleep," Mary said to the yawning nurse. "You can go +if you like." + +"Well," said the nurse, with an attempt at reluctance. "If he doesn't +go to sleep in half an hour you must call me." + +"Very well," answered Mary. + +The nurse was out of the room in a minute and as soon as she was gone +Colin pulled Mary's hand again. + +"I almost told," he said; "but I stopped myself in time. I won't talk +and I'll go to sleep, but you said you had a whole lot of nice things +to tell me. Have you--do you think you have found out anything at all +about the way into the secret garden?" + +Mary looked at his poor little tired face and swollen eyes and her +heart relented. + +"Ye-es," she answered, "I think I have. And if you will go to sleep I +will tell you tomorrow." His hand quite trembled. + +"Oh, Mary!" he said. "Oh, Mary! If I could get into it I think I +should live to grow up! Do you suppose that instead of singing the Ayah +song--you could just tell me softly as you did that first day what you +imagine it looks like inside? I am sure it will make me go to sleep." + +"Yes," answered Mary. "Shut your eyes." + +He closed his eyes and lay quite still and she held his hand and began +to speak very slowly and in a very low voice. + +"I think it has been left alone so long--that it has grown all into a +lovely tangle. I think the roses have climbed and climbed and climbed +until they hang from the branches and walls and creep over the +ground--almost like a strange gray mist. Some of them have died but +many--are alive and when the summer comes there will be curtains and +fountains of roses. I think the ground is full of daffodils and +snowdrops and lilies and iris working their way out of the dark. Now +the spring has begun--perhaps--perhaps--" + +The soft drone of her voice was making him stiller and stiller and she +saw it and went on. + +"Perhaps they are coming up through the grass--perhaps there are +clusters of purple crocuses and gold ones--even now. Perhaps the +leaves are beginning to break out and uncurl--and perhaps--the gray is +changing and a green gauze veil is creeping--and creeping +over--everything. And the birds are coming to look at it--because it +is--so safe and still. And perhaps--perhaps--perhaps--" very softly +and slowly indeed, "the robin has found a mate--and is building a nest." + +And Colin was asleep. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + +"THA' MUNNOT WASTE NO TIME" + + +Of course Mary did not waken early the next morning. She slept late +because she was tired, and when Martha brought her breakfast she told +her that though. Colin was quite quiet he was ill and feverish as he +always was after he had worn himself out with a fit of crying. Mary +ate her breakfast slowly as she listened. + +"He says he wishes tha' would please go and see him as soon as tha' +can," Martha said. "It's queer what a fancy he's took to thee. Tha' +did give it him last night for sure--didn't tha? Nobody else would have +dared to do it. Eh! poor lad! He's been spoiled till salt won't save +him. Mother says as th' two worst things as can happen to a child is +never to have his own way--or always to have it. She doesn't know +which is th' worst. Tha' was in a fine temper tha'self, too. But he +says to me when I went into his room, 'Please ask Miss Mary if she'll +please come an' talk to me?' Think o' him saying please! Will you go, +Miss?" "I'll run and see Dickon first," said Mary. "No, I'll go and +see Colin first and tell him--I know what I'll tell him," with a sudden +inspiration. + +She had her hat on when she appeared in Colin's room and for a second +he looked disappointed. He was in bed. His face was pitifully white +and there were dark circles round his eyes. + +"I'm glad you came," he said. "My head aches and I ache all over +because I'm so tired. Are you going somewhere?" + +Mary went and leaned against his bed. + +"I won't be long," she said. "I'm going to Dickon, but I'll come back. +Colin, it's--it's something about the garden." + +His whole face brightened and a little color came into it. + +"Oh! is it?" he cried out. "I dreamed about it all night I heard you +say something about gray changing into green, and I dreamed I was +standing in a place all filled with trembling little green leaves--and +there were birds on nests everywhere and they looked so soft and still. +I'll lie and think about it until you come back." + + +In five minutes Mary was with Dickon in their garden. The fox and the +crow were with him again and this time he had brought two tame +squirrels. "I came over on the pony this mornin'," he said. "Eh! he +is a good little chap--Jump is! I brought these two in my pockets. +This here one he's called Nut an' this here other one's called Shell." + +When he said "Nut" one squirrel leaped on to his right shoulder and +when he said "Shell" the other one leaped on to his left shoulder. + +When they sat down on the grass with Captain curled at their feet, Soot +solemnly listening on a tree and Nut and Shell nosing about close to +them, it seemed to Mary that it would be scarcely bearable to leave +such delightfulness, but when she began to tell her story somehow the +look in Dickon's funny face gradually changed her mind. She could see +he felt sorrier for Colin than she did. He looked up at the sky and +all about him. + +"Just listen to them birds--th' world seems full of 'em--all whistlin' +an' pipin'," he said. "Look at 'em dartin' about, an' hearken at 'em +callin' to each other. Come springtime seems like as if all th' +world's callin'. The leaves is uncurlin' so you can see 'em--an', my +word, th' nice smells there is about!" sniffing with his happy +turned-up nose. "An' that poor lad lyin' shut up an' seein' so little +that he gets to thinkin' o' things as sets him screamin'. Eh! my! we +mun get him out here--we mun get him watchin' an listenin' an' sniffin' +up th' air an' get him just soaked through wi' sunshine. An' we munnot +lose no time about it." + +When he was very much interested he often spoke quite broad Yorkshire +though at other times he tried to modify his dialect so that Mary could +better understand. But she loved his broad Yorkshire and had in fact +been trying to learn to speak it herself. So she spoke a little now. + +"Aye, that we mun," she said (which meant "Yes, indeed, we must"). +"I'll tell thee what us'll do first," she proceeded, and Dickon +grinned, because when the little wench tried to twist her tongue into +speaking Yorkshire it amused him very much. "He's took a graidely +fancy to thee. He wants to see thee and he wants to see Soot an' +Captain. When I go back to the house to talk to him I'll ax him if +tha' canna' come an' see him tomorrow mornin'--an'. bring tha' +creatures wi' thee--an' then--in a bit, when there's more leaves out, +an' happen a bud or two, we'll get him to come out an' tha' shall push +him in his chair an' we'll bring him here an' show him everything." + +When she stopped she was quite proud of herself. She had never made a +long speech in Yorkshire before and she had remembered very well. + +"Tha' mun talk a bit o' Yorkshire like that to Mester Colin," Dickon +chuckled. "Tha'll make him laugh an' there's nowt as good for ill folk +as laughin' is. Mother says she believes as half a hour's good laugh +every mornin' 'ud cure a chap as was makin' ready for typhus fever." + +"I'm going to talk Yorkshire to him this very day," said Mary, +chuckling herself. + +The garden had reached the time when every day and every night it +seemed as if Magicians were passing through it drawing loveliness out +of the earth and the boughs with wands. It was hard to go away and +leave it all, particularly as Nut had actually crept on to her dress +and Shell had scrambled down the trunk of the apple-tree they sat under +and stayed there looking at her with inquiring eyes. But she went back +to the house and when she sat down close to Colin's bed he began to +sniff as Dickon did though not in such an experienced way. + +"You smell like flowers and--and fresh things," he cried out quite +joyously. "What is it you smell of? It's cool and warm and sweet all +at the same time." + +"It's th' wind from th' moor," said Mary. "It comes o' sittin' on th' +grass under a tree wi' Dickon an' wi' Captain an' Soot an' Nut an' +Shell. It's th' springtime an' out o' doors an' sunshine as smells so +graidely." + +She said it as broadly as she could, and you do not know how broadly +Yorkshire sounds until you have heard some one speak it. Colin began +to laugh. + +"What are you doing?" he said. "I never heard you talk like that +before. How funny it sounds." + +"I'm givin' thee a bit o' Yorkshire," answered Mary triumphantly. "I +canna' talk as graidely as Dickon an' Martha can but tha' sees I can +shape a bit. Doesn't tha' understand a bit o' Yorkshire when tha' +hears it? An' tha' a Yorkshire lad thysel' bred an' born! Eh! I wonder +tha'rt not ashamed o' thy face." + +And then she began to laugh too and they both laughed until they could +not stop themselves and they laughed until the room echoed and Mrs. +Medlock opening the door to come in drew back into the corridor and +stood listening amazed. + +"Well, upon my word!" she said, speaking rather broad Yorkshire herself +because there was no one to hear her and she was so astonished. +"Whoever heard th' like! Whoever on earth would ha' thought it!" + +There was so much to talk about. It seemed as if Colin could never +hear enough of Dickon and Captain and Soot and Nut and Shell and the +pony whose name was Jump. Mary had run round into the wood with Dickon +to see Jump. He was a tiny little shaggy moor pony with thick locks +hanging over his eyes and with a pretty face and a nuzzling velvet +nose. He was rather thin with living on moor grass but he was as tough +and wiry as if the muscle in his little legs had been made of steel +springs. He had lifted his head and whinnied softly the moment he saw +Dickon and he had trotted up to him and put his head across his +shoulder and then Dickon had talked into his ear and Jump had talked +back in odd little whinnies and puffs and snorts. Dickon had made him +give Mary his small front hoof and kiss her on her cheek with his +velvet muzzle. + +"Does he really understand everything Dickon says?" Colin asked. + +"It seems as if he does," answered Mary. "Dickon says anything will +understand if you're friends with it for sure, but you have to be +friends for sure." + +Colin lay quiet a little while and his strange gray eyes seemed to be +staring at the wall, but Mary saw he was thinking. + +"I wish I was friends with things," he said at last, "but I'm not. I +never had anything to be friends with, and I can't bear people." + +"Can't you bear me?" asked Mary. + +"Yes, I can," he answered. "It's funny but I even like you." + +"Ben Weatherstaff said I was like him," said Mary. "He said he'd +warrant we'd both got the same nasty tempers. I think you are like him +too. We are all three alike--you and I and Ben Weatherstaff. He said +we were neither of us much to look at and we were as sour as we looked. +But I don't feel as sour as I used to before I knew the robin and +Dickon." + +"Did you feel as if you hated people?" + +"Yes," answered Mary without any affectation. "I should have detested +you if I had seen you before I saw the robin and Dickon." + +Colin put out his thin hand and touched her. + +"Mary," he said, "I wish I hadn't said what I did about sending Dickon +away. I hated you when you said he was like an angel and I laughed at +you but--but perhaps he is." + +"Well, it was rather funny to say it," she admitted frankly, "because +his nose does turn up and he has a big mouth and his clothes have +patches all over them and he talks broad Yorkshire, but--but if an +angel did come to Yorkshire and live on the moor--if there was a +Yorkshire angel--I believe he'd understand the green things and know +how to make them grow and he would know how to talk to the wild +creatures as Dickon does and they'd know he was friends for sure." + +"I shouldn't mind Dickon looking at me," said Colin; "I want to see +him." + +"I'm glad you said that," answered Mary, "because--because--" + +Quite suddenly it came into her mind that this was the minute to tell +him. Colin knew something new was coming. + +"Because what?" he cried eagerly. + +Mary was so anxious that she got up from her stool and came to him and +caught hold of both his hands. + +"Can I trust you? I trusted Dickon because birds trusted him. Can I +trust you--for sure--for sure?" she implored. + +Her face was so solemn that he almost whispered his answer. + +"Yes--yes!" + +"Well, Dickon will come to see you tomorrow morning, and he'll bring +his creatures with him." + +"Oh! Oh!" Colin cried out in delight. + +"But that's not all," Mary went on, almost pale with solemn excitement. +"The rest is better. There is a door into the garden. I found it. It +is under the ivy on the wall." + +If he had been a strong healthy boy Colin would probably have shouted +"Hooray! Hooray! Hooray!" but he was weak and rather hysterical; his +eyes grew bigger and bigger and he gasped for breath. + +"Oh! Mary!" he cried out with a half sob. "Shall I see it? Shall I get +into it? Shall I live to get into it?" and he clutched her hands and +dragged her toward him. + +"Of course you'll see it!" snapped Mary indignantly. "Of course you'll +live to get into it! Don't be silly!" + +And she was so un-hysterical and natural and childish that she brought +him to his senses and he began to laugh at himself and a few minutes +afterward she was sitting on her stool again telling him not what she +imagined the secret garden to be like but what it really was, and +Colin's aches and tiredness were forgotten and he was listening +enraptured. + +"It is just what you thought it would be," he said at last. "It sounds +just as if you had really seen it. You know I said that when you told +me first." + +Mary hesitated about two minutes and then boldly spoke the truth. + +"I had seen it--and I had been in," she said. "I found the key and got +in weeks ago. But I daren't tell you--I daren't because I was so +afraid I couldn't trust you--for sure!" + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + +"IT HAS COME!" + + +Of course Dr. Craven had been sent for the morning after Colin had had +his tantrum. He was always sent for at once when such a thing occurred +and he always found, when he arrived, a white shaken boy lying on his +bed, sulky and still so hysterical that he was ready to break into +fresh sobbing at the least word. In fact, Dr. Craven dreaded and +detested the difficulties of these visits. On this occasion he was +away from Misselthwaite Manor until afternoon. + +"How is he?" he asked Mrs. Medlock rather irritably when he arrived. +"He will break a blood-vessel in one of those fits some day. The boy +is half insane with hysteria and self-indulgence." + +"Well, sir," answered Mrs. Medlock, "you'll scarcely believe your eyes +when you see him. That plain sour-faced child that's almost as bad as +himself has just bewitched him. How she's done it there's no telling. +The Lord knows she's nothing to look at and you scarcely ever hear her +speak, but she did what none of us dare do. She just flew at him like +a little cat last night, and stamped her feet and ordered him to stop +screaming, and somehow she startled him so that he actually did stop, +and this afternoon--well just come up and see, sir. It's past +crediting." + +The scene which Dr. Craven beheld when he entered his patient's room +was indeed rather astonishing to him. As Mrs. Medlock opened the door +he heard laughing and chattering. Colin was on his sofa in his +dressing-gown and he was sitting up quite straight looking at a picture +in one of the garden books and talking to the plain child who at that +moment could scarcely be called plain at all because her face was so +glowing with enjoyment. + +"Those long spires of blue ones--we'll have a lot of those," Colin was +announcing. "They're called Del-phin-iums." + +"Dickon says they're larkspurs made big and grand," cried Mistress +Mary. "There are clumps there already." + +Then they saw Dr. Craven and stopped. Mary became quite still and +Colin looked fretful. + +"I am sorry to hear you were ill last night, my boy," Dr. Craven said a +trifle nervously. He was rather a nervous man. + +"I'm better now--much better," Colin answered, rather like a Rajah. +"I'm going out in my chair in a day or two if it is fine. I want some +fresh air." + +Dr. Craven sat down by him and felt his pulse and looked at him +curiously. + +"It must be a very fine day," he said, "and you must be very careful +not to tire yourself." + +"Fresh air won't tire me," said the young Rajah. + +As there had been occasions when this same young gentleman had shrieked +aloud with rage and had insisted that fresh air would give him cold and +kill him, it is not to be wondered at that his doctor felt somewhat +startled. + +"I thought you did not like fresh air," he said. + +"I don't when I am by myself," replied the Rajah; "but my cousin is +going out with me." + +"And the nurse, of course?" suggested Dr. Craven. + +"No, I will not have the nurse," so magnificently that Mary could not +help remembering how the young native Prince had looked with his +diamonds and emeralds and pearls stuck all over him and the great +rubies on the small dark hand he had waved to command his servants to +approach with salaams and receive his orders. + +"My cousin knows how to take care of me. I am always better when she +is with me. She made me better last night. A very strong boy I know +will push my carriage." + +Dr. Craven felt rather alarmed. If this tiresome hysterical boy should +chance to get well he himself would lose all chance of inheriting +Misselthwaite; but he was not an unscrupulous man, though he was a weak +one, and he did not intend to let him run into actual danger. + +"He must be a strong boy and a steady boy," he said. "And I must know +something about him. Who is he? What is his name?" + +"It's Dickon," Mary spoke up suddenly. She felt somehow that everybody +who knew the moor must know Dickon. And she was right, too. She saw +that in a moment Dr. Craven's serious face relaxed into a relieved +smile. + +"Oh, Dickon," he said. "If it is Dickon you will be safe enough. He's +as strong as a moor pony, is Dickon." + +"And he's trusty," said Mary. "He's th' trustiest lad i' Yorkshire." +She had been talking Yorkshire to Colin and she forgot herself. + +"Did Dickon teach you that?" asked Dr. Craven, laughing outright. + +"I'm learning it as if it was French," said Mary rather coldly. "It's +like a native dialect in India. Very clever people try to learn them. +I like it and so does Colin." "Well, well," he said. "If it amuses you +perhaps it won't do you any harm. Did you take your bromide last +night, Colin?" + +"No," Colin answered. "I wouldn't take it at first and after Mary made +me quiet she talked me to sleep--in a low voice--about the spring +creeping into a garden." + +"That sounds soothing," said Dr. Craven, more perplexed than ever and +glancing sideways at Mistress Mary sitting on her stool and looking +down silently at the carpet. "You are evidently better, but you must +remember--" + +"I don't want to remember," interrupted the Rajah, appearing again. +"When I lie by myself and remember I begin to have pains everywhere and +I think of things that make me begin to scream because I hate them so. +If there was a doctor anywhere who could make you forget you were ill +instead of remembering it I would have him brought here." And he waved +a thin hand which ought really to have been covered with royal signet +rings made of rubies. "It is because my cousin makes me forget that +she makes me better." + +Dr. Craven had never made such a short stay after a "tantrum"; usually +he was obliged to remain a very long time and do a great many things. +This afternoon he did not give any medicine or leave any new orders and +he was spared any disagreeable scenes. When he went downstairs he +looked very thoughtful and when he talked to Mrs. Medlock in the +library she felt that he was a much puzzled man. + +"Well, sir," she ventured, "could you have believed it?" + +"It is certainly a new state of affairs," said the doctor. "And +there's no denying it is better than the old one." + +"I believe Susan Sowerby's right--I do that," said Mrs. Medlock. "I +stopped in her cottage on my way to Thwaite yesterday and had a bit of +talk with her. And she says to me, 'Well, Sarah Ann, she mayn't be a +good child, an' she mayn't be a pretty one, but she's a child, an' +children needs children.' We went to school together, Susan Sowerby and +me." + +"She's the best sick nurse I know," said Dr. Craven. "When I find her +in a cottage I know the chances are that I shall save my patient." + +Mrs. Medlock smiled. She was fond of Susan Sowerby. + +"She's got a way with her, has Susan," she went on quite volubly. +"I've been thinking all morning of one thing she said yesterday. She +says, 'Once when I was givin' th' children a bit of a preach after +they'd been fightin' I ses to 'em all, "When I was at school my +jography told as th' world was shaped like a orange an' I found out +before I was ten that th' whole orange doesn't belong to nobody. No +one owns more than his bit of a quarter an' there's times it seems like +there's not enow quarters to go round. But don't you--none o' +you--think as you own th' whole orange or you'll find out you're +mistaken, an' you won't find it out without hard knocks." 'What +children learns from children,' she says, 'is that there's no sense in +grabbin' at th' whole orange--peel an' all. If you do you'll likely +not get even th' pips, an' them's too bitter to eat.'" + +"She's a shrewd woman," said Dr. Craven, putting on his coat. + +"Well, she's got a way of saying things," ended Mrs. Medlock, much +pleased. "Sometimes I've said to her, 'Eh! Susan, if you was a +different woman an' didn't talk such broad Yorkshire I've seen the +times when I should have said you was clever.'" + + +That night Colin slept without once awakening and when he opened his +eyes in the morning he lay still and smiled without knowing it--smiled +because he felt so curiously comfortable. It was actually nice to be +awake, and he turned over and stretched his limbs luxuriously. He felt +as if tight strings which had held him had loosened themselves and let +him go. He did not know that Dr. Craven would have said that his +nerves had relaxed and rested themselves. Instead of lying and staring +at the wall and wishing he had not awakened, his mind was full of the +plans he and Mary had made yesterday, of pictures of the garden and of +Dickon and his wild creatures. It was so nice to have things to think +about. And he had not been awake more than ten minutes when he heard +feet running along the corridor and Mary was at the door. The next +minute she was in the room and had run across to his bed, bringing with +her a waft of fresh air full of the scent of the morning. + +"You've been out! You've been out! There's that nice smell of leaves!" +he cried. + +She had been running and her hair was loose and blown and she was +bright with the air and pink-cheeked, though he could not see it. + +"It's so beautiful!" she said, a little breathless with her speed. +"You never saw anything so beautiful! It has come! I thought it had +come that other morning, but it was only coming. It is here now! It +has come, the Spring! Dickon says so!" + +"Has it?" cried Colin, and though he really knew nothing about it he +felt his heart beat. He actually sat up in bed. + +"Open the window!" he added, laughing half with joyful excitement and +half at his own fancy. "Perhaps we may hear golden trumpets!" + +And though he laughed, Mary was at the window in a moment and in a +moment more it was opened wide and freshness and softness and scents +and birds' songs were pouring through. + +"That's fresh air," she said. "Lie on your back and draw in long +breaths of it. That's what Dickon does when he's lying on the moor. +He says he feels it in his veins and it makes him strong and he feels +as if he could live forever and ever. Breathe it and breathe it." + +She was only repeating what Dickon had told her, but she caught Colin's +fancy. + +"'Forever and ever'! Does it make him feel like that?" he said, and he +did as she told him, drawing in long deep breaths over and over again +until he felt that something quite new and delightful was happening to +him. + +Mary was at his bedside again. + +"Things are crowding up out of the earth," she ran on in a hurry. "And +there are flowers uncurling and buds on everything and the green veil +has covered nearly all the gray and the birds are in such a hurry about +their nests for fear they may be too late that some of them are even +fighting for places in the secret garden. And the rose-bushes look as +wick as wick can be, and there are primroses in the lanes and woods, +and the seeds we planted are up, and Dickon has brought the fox and the +crow and the squirrels and a new-born lamb." + +And then she paused for breath. The new-born lamb Dickon had found +three days before lying by its dead mother among the gorse bushes on +the moor. It was not the first motherless lamb he had found and he +knew what to do with it. He had taken it to the cottage wrapped in his +jacket and he had let it lie near the fire and had fed it with warm +milk. It was a soft thing with a darling silly baby face and legs +rather long for its body. Dickon had carried it over the moor in his +arms and its feeding bottle was in his pocket with a squirrel, and when +Mary had sat under a tree with its limp warmness huddled on her lap she +had felt as if she were too full of strange joy to speak. A lamb--a +lamb! A living lamb who lay on your lap like a baby! + +She was describing it with great joy and Colin was listening and +drawing in long breaths of air when the nurse entered. She started a +little at the sight of the open window. She had sat stifling in the +room many a warm day because her patient was sure that open windows +gave people cold. + +"Are you sure you are not chilly, Master Colin?" she inquired. + +"No," was the answer. "I am breathing long breaths of fresh air. It +makes you strong. I am going to get up to the sofa for breakfast. My +cousin will have breakfast with me." + +The nurse went away, concealing a smile, to give the order for two +breakfasts. She found the servants' hall a more amusing place than the +invalid's chamber and just now everybody wanted to hear the news from +upstairs. There was a great deal of joking about the unpopular young +recluse who, as the cook said, "had found his master, and good for +him." The servants' hall had been very tired of the tantrums, and the +butler, who was a man with a family, had more than once expressed his +opinion that the invalid would be all the better "for a good hiding." + +When Colin was on his sofa and the breakfast for two was put upon the +table he made an announcement to the nurse in his most Rajah-like +manner. + +"A boy, and a fox, and a crow, and two squirrels, and a new-born lamb, +are coming to see me this morning. I want them brought upstairs as +soon as they come," he said. "You are not to begin playing with the +animals in the servants' hall and keep them there. I want them here." +The nurse gave a slight gasp and tried to conceal it with a cough. + +"Yes, sir," she answered. + +"I'll tell you what you can do," added Colin, waving his hand. "You +can tell Martha to bring them here. The boy is Martha's brother. His +name is Dickon and he is an animal charmer." + +"I hope the animals won't bite, Master Colin," said the nurse. + +"I told you he was a charmer," said Colin austerely. "Charmers' +animals never bite." + +"There are snake-charmers in India," said Mary. "And they can put +their snakes' heads in their mouths." + +"Goodness!" shuddered the nurse. + +They ate their breakfast with the morning air pouring in upon them. +Colin's breakfast was a very good one and Mary watched him with serious +interest. + +"You will begin to get fatter just as I did," she said. "I never +wanted my breakfast when I was in India and now I always want it." + +"I wanted mine this morning," said Colin. "Perhaps it was the fresh +air. When do you think Dickon will come?" + +He was not long in coming. In about ten minutes Mary held up her hand. + +"Listen!" she said. "Did you hear a caw?" + +Colin listened and heard it, the oddest sound in the world to hear +inside a house, a hoarse "caw-caw." + +"Yes," he answered. + +"That's Soot," said Mary. "Listen again. Do you hear a bleat--a tiny +one?" + +"Oh, yes!" cried Colin, quite flushing. + +"That's the new-born lamb," said Mary. "He's coming." + +Dickon's moorland boots were thick and clumsy and though he tried to +walk quietly they made a clumping sound as he walked through the long +corridors. Mary and Colin heard him marching--marching, until he +passed through the tapestry door on to the soft carpet of Colin's own +passage. + +"If you please, sir," announced Martha, opening the door, "if you +please, sir, here's Dickon an' his creatures." + +Dickon came in smiling his nicest wide smile. The new-born lamb was in +his arms and the little red fox trotted by his side. Nut sat on his +left shoulder and Soot on his right and Shell's head and paws peeped +out of his coat pocket. + +Colin slowly sat up and stared and stared--as he had stared when he +first saw Mary; but this was a stare of wonder and delight. The truth +was that in spite of all he had heard he had not in the least +understood what this boy would be like and that his fox and his crow +and his squirrels and his lamb were so near to him and his friendliness +that they seemed almost to be part of himself. Colin had never talked +to a boy in his life and he was so overwhelmed by his own pleasure and +curiosity that he did not even think of speaking. + +But Dickon did not feel the least shy or awkward. He had not felt +embarrassed because the crow had not known his language and had only +stared and had not spoken to him the first time they met. Creatures +were always like that until they found out about you. He walked over +to Colin's sofa and put the new-born lamb quietly on his lap, and +immediately the little creature turned to the warm velvet dressing-gown +and began to nuzzle and nuzzle into its folds and butt its tight-curled +head with soft impatience against his side. Of course no boy could +have helped speaking then. + +"What is it doing?" cried Colin. "What does it want?" + +"It wants its mother," said Dickon, smiling more and more. "I brought +it to thee a bit hungry because I knowed tha'd like to see it feed." + +He knelt down by the sofa and took a feeding-bottle from his pocket. + +"Come on, little 'un," he said, turning the small woolly white head +with a gentle brown hand. "This is what tha's after. Tha'll get more +out o' this than tha' will out o' silk velvet coats. There now," and +he pushed the rubber tip of the bottle into the nuzzling mouth and the +lamb began to suck it with ravenous ecstasy. + +After that there was no wondering what to say. By the time the lamb +fell asleep questions poured forth and Dickon answered them all. He +told them how he had found the lamb just as the sun was rising three +mornings ago. He had been standing on the moor listening to a skylark +and watching him swing higher and higher into the sky until he was only +a speck in the heights of blue. + +"I'd almost lost him but for his song an' I was wonderin' how a chap +could hear it when it seemed as if he'd get out o' th' world in a +minute--an' just then I heard somethin' else far off among th' gorse +bushes. It was a weak bleatin' an' I knowed it was a new lamb as was +hungry an' I knowed it wouldn't be hungry if it hadn't lost its mother +somehow, so I set off searchin'. Eh! I did have a look for it. I went +in an' out among th' gorse bushes an' round an' round an' I always +seemed to take th' wrong turnin'. But at last I seed a bit o' white by +a rock on top o' th' moor an' I climbed up an' found th' little 'un +half dead wi' cold an' clemmin'." While he talked, Soot flew solemnly +in and out of the open window and cawed remarks about the scenery while +Nut and Shell made excursions into the big trees outside and ran up and +down trunks and explored branches. Captain curled up near Dickon, who +sat on the hearth-rug from preference. + +They looked at the pictures in the gardening books and Dickon knew all +the flowers by their country names and knew exactly which ones were +already growing in the secret garden. + +"I couldna' say that there name," he said, pointing to one under which +was written "Aquilegia," "but us calls that a columbine, an' that there +one it's a snapdragon and they both grow wild in hedges, but these is +garden ones an' they're bigger an' grander. There's some big clumps o' +columbine in th' garden. They'll look like a bed o' blue an' white +butterflies flutterin' when they're out." + +"I'm going to see them," cried Colin. "I am going to see them!" + +"Aye, that tha' mun," said Mary quite seriously. "An' tha' munnot lose +no time about it." + + + + +CHAPTER XX + +"I SHALL LIVE FOREVER--AND EVER--AND EVER!" + + +But they were obliged to wait more than a week because first there came +some very windy days and then Colin was threatened with a cold, which +two things happening one after the other would no doubt have thrown him +into a rage but that there was so much careful and mysterious planning +to do and almost every day Dickon came in, if only for a few minutes, +to talk about what was happening on the moor and in the lanes and +hedges and on the borders of streams. The things he had to tell about +otters' and badgers' and water-rats' houses, not to mention birds' +nests and field-mice and their burrows, were enough to make you almost +tremble with excitement when you heard all the intimate details from an +animal charmer and realized with what thrilling eagerness and anxiety +the whole busy underworld was working. + +"They're same as us," said Dickon, "only they have to build their homes +every year. An' it keeps 'em so busy they fair scuffle to get 'em +done." + +The most absorbing thing, however, was the preparations to be made +before Colin could be transported with sufficient secrecy to the +garden. No one must see the chair-carriage and Dickon and Mary after +they turned a certain corner of the shrubbery and entered upon the walk +outside the ivied walls. As each day passed, Colin had become more and +more fixed in his feeling that the mystery surrounding the garden was +one of its greatest charms. Nothing must spoil that. No one must ever +suspect that they had a secret. People must think that he was simply +going out with Mary and Dickon because he liked them and did not object +to their looking at him. They had long and quite delightful talks +about their route. They would go up this path and down that one and +cross the other and go round among the fountain flower-beds as if they +were looking at the "bedding-out plants" the head gardener, Mr. Roach, +had been having arranged. That would seem such a rational thing to do +that no one would think it at all mysterious. They would turn into the +shrubbery walks and lose themselves until they came to the long walls. +It was almost as serious and elaborately thought out as the plans of +march made by great generals in time of war. + +Rumors of the new and curious things which were occurring in the +invalid's apartments had of course filtered through the servants' hall +into the stable yards and out among the gardeners, but notwithstanding +this, Mr. Roach was startled one day when he received orders from +Master Colin's room to the effect that he must report himself in the +apartment no outsider had ever seen, as the invalid himself desired to +speak to him. + +"Well, well," he said to himself as he hurriedly changed his coat, +"what's to do now? His Royal Highness that wasn't to be looked at +calling up a man he's never set eyes on." + +Mr. Roach was not without curiosity. He had never caught even a +glimpse of the boy and had heard a dozen exaggerated stories about his +uncanny looks and ways and his insane tempers. The thing he had heard +oftenest was that he might die at any moment and there had been +numerous fanciful descriptions of a humped back and helpless limbs, +given by people who had never seen him. + +"Things are changing in this house, Mr. Roach," said Mrs. Medlock, as +she led him up the back staircase to the corridor on to which opened +the hitherto mysterious chamber. + +"Let's hope they're changing for the better, Mrs. Medlock," he answered. + +"They couldn't well change for the worse," she continued; "and queer as +it all is there's them as finds their duties made a lot easier to stand +up under. Don't you be surprised, Mr. Roach, if you find yourself in +the middle of a menagerie and Martha Sowerby's Dickon more at home than +you or me could ever be." + +There really was a sort of Magic about Dickon, as Mary always privately +believed. When Mr. Roach heard his name he smiled quite leniently. + +"He'd be at home in Buckingham Palace or at the bottom of a coal mine," +he said. "And yet it's not impudence, either. He's just fine, is that +lad." + +It was perhaps well he had been prepared or he might have been +startled. When the bedroom door was opened a large crow, which seemed +quite at home perched on the high back of a carven chair, announced the +entrance of a visitor by saying "Caw--Caw" quite loudly. In spite of +Mrs. Medlock's warning, Mr. Roach only just escaped being sufficiently +undignified to jump backward. + +The young Rajah was neither in bed nor on his sofa. He was sitting in +an armchair and a young lamb was standing by him shaking its tail in +feeding-lamb fashion as Dickon knelt giving it milk from its bottle. A +squirrel was perched on Dickon's bent back attentively nibbling a nut. +The little girl from India was sitting on a big footstool looking on. + +"Here is Mr. Roach, Master Colin," said Mrs. Medlock. + +The young Rajah turned and looked his servitor over--at least that was +what the head gardener felt happened. + +"Oh, you are Roach, are you?" he said. "I sent for you to give you +some very important orders." + +"Very good, sir," answered Roach, wondering if he was to receive +instructions to fell all the oaks in the park or to transform the +orchards into water-gardens. + +"I am going out in my chair this afternoon," said Colin. "If the fresh +air agrees with me I may go out every day. When I go, none of the +gardeners are to be anywhere near the Long Walk by the garden walls. +No one is to be there. I shall go out about two o'clock and everyone +must keep away until I send word that they may go back to their work." + +"Very good, sir," replied Mr. Roach, much relieved to hear that the +oaks might remain and that the orchards were safe. "Mary," said Colin, +turning to her, "what is that thing you say in India when you have +finished talking and want people to go?" + +"You say, 'You have my permission to go,'" answered Mary. + +The Rajah waved his hand. + +"You have my permission to go, Roach," he said. "But, remember, this +is very important." + +"Caw--Caw!" remarked the crow hoarsely but not impolitely. + +"Very good, sir. Thank you, sir," said Mr. Roach, and Mrs. Medlock +took him out of the room. + +Outside in the corridor, being a rather good-natured man, he smiled +until he almost laughed. + +"My word!" he said, "he's got a fine lordly way with him, hasn't he? +You'd think he was a whole Royal Family rolled into one--Prince Consort +and all.". + +"Eh!" protested Mrs. Medlock, "we've had to let him trample all over +every one of us ever since he had feet and he thinks that's what folks +was born for." + +"Perhaps he'll grow out of it, if he lives," suggested Mr. Roach. + +"Well, there's one thing pretty sure," said Mrs. Medlock. "If he does +live and that Indian child stays here I'll warrant she teaches him that +the whole orange does not belong to him, as Susan Sowerby says. And +he'll be likely to find out the size of his own quarter." + +Inside the room Colin was leaning back on his cushions. + +"It's all safe now," he said. "And this afternoon I shall see it--this +afternoon I shall be in it!" + +Dickon went back to the garden with his creatures and Mary stayed with +Colin. She did not think he looked tired but he was very quiet before +their lunch came and he was quiet while they were eating it. She +wondered why and asked him about it. + +"What big eyes you've got, Colin," she said. "When you are thinking +they get as big as saucers. What are you thinking about now?" + +"I can't help thinking about what it will look like," he answered. + +"The garden?" asked Mary. + +"The springtime," he said. "I was thinking that I've really never seen +it before. I scarcely ever went out and when I did go I never looked +at it. I didn't even think about it." + +"I never saw it in India because there wasn't any," said Mary. + +Shut in and morbid as his life had been, Colin had more imagination +than she had and at least he had spent a good deal of time looking at +wonderful books and pictures. + +"That morning when you ran in and said 'It's come! It's come!', you made +me feel quite queer. It sounded as if things were coming with a great +procession and big bursts and wafts of music. I've a picture like it +in one of my books--crowds of lovely people and children with garlands +and branches with blossoms on them, everyone laughing and dancing and +crowding and playing on pipes. That was why I said, 'Perhaps we shall +hear golden trumpets' and told you to throw open the window." + +"How funny!" said Mary. "That's really just what it feels like. And +if all the flowers and leaves and green things and birds and wild +creatures danced past at once, what a crowd it would be! I'm sure +they'd dance and sing and flute and that would be the wafts of music." + +They both laughed but it was not because the idea was laughable but +because they both so liked it. + +A little later the nurse made Colin ready. She noticed that instead of +lying like a log while his clothes were put on he sat up and made some +efforts to help himself, and he talked and laughed with Mary all the +time. + +"This is one of his good days, sir," she said to Dr. Craven, who +dropped in to inspect him. "He's in such good spirits that it makes +him stronger." + +"I'll call in again later in the afternoon, after he has come in," said +Dr. Craven. "I must see how the going out agrees with him. I wish," +in a very low voice, "that he would let you go with him." + +"I'd rather give up the case this moment, sir, than even stay here +while it's suggested," answered the nurse. With sudden firmness. + +"I hadn't really decided to suggest it," said the doctor, with his +slight nervousness. "We'll try the experiment. Dickon's a lad I'd +trust with a new-born child." + +The strongest footman in the house carried Colin down stairs and put +him in his wheeled chair near which Dickon waited outside. After the +manservant had arranged his rugs and cushions the Rajah waved his hand +to him and to the nurse. + +"You have my permission to go," he said, and they both disappeared +quickly and it must be confessed giggled when they were safely inside +the house. + +Dickon began to push the wheeled chair slowly and steadily. Mistress +Mary walked beside it and Colin leaned back and lifted his face to the +sky. The arch of it looked very high and the small snowy clouds seemed +like white birds floating on outspread wings below its crystal +blueness. The wind swept in soft big breaths down from the moor and +was strange with a wild clear scented sweetness. Colin kept lifting +his thin chest to draw it in, and his big eyes looked as if it were +they which were listening--listening, instead of his ears. + +"There are so many sounds of singing and humming and calling out," he +said. "What is that scent the puffs of wind bring?" + +"It's gorse on th' moor that's openin' out," answered Dickon. "Eh! th' +bees are at it wonderful today." + +Not a human creature was to be caught sight of in the paths they took. +In fact every gardener or gardener's lad had been witched away. But +they wound in and out among the shrubbery and out and round the +fountain beds, following their carefully planned route for the mere +mysterious pleasure of it. But when at last they turned into the Long +Walk by the ivied walls the excited sense of an approaching thrill made +them, for some curious reason they could not have explained, begin to +speak in whispers. + +"This is it," breathed Mary. "This is where I used to walk up and down +and wonder and wonder." "Is it?" cried Colin, and his eyes began to +search the ivy with eager curiousness. "But I can see nothing," he +whispered. "There is no door." + +"That's what I thought," said Mary. + +Then there was a lovely breathless silence and the chair wheeled on. + +"That is the garden where Ben Weatherstaff works," said Mary. + +"Is it?" said Colin. + +A few yards more and Mary whispered again. + +"This is where the robin flew over the wall," she said. + +"Is it?" cried Colin. "Oh! I wish he'd come again!" + +"And that," said Mary with solemn delight, pointing under a big lilac +bush, "is where he perched on the little heap of earth and showed me +the key." + +Then Colin sat up. + +"Where? Where? There?" he cried, and his eyes were as big as the wolf's +in Red Riding-Hood, when Red Riding-Hood felt called upon to remark on +them. Dickon stood still and the wheeled chair stopped. + +"And this," said Mary, stepping on to the bed close to the ivy, "is +where I went to talk to him when he chirped at me from the top of the +wall. And this is the ivy the wind blew back," and she took hold of +the hanging green curtain. + +"Oh! is it--is it!" gasped Colin. + +"And here is the handle, and here is the door. Dickon push him +in--push him in quickly!" + +And Dickon did it with one strong, steady, splendid push. + +But Colin had actually dropped back against his cushions, even though +he gasped with delight, and he had covered his eyes with his hands and +held them there shutting out everything until they were inside and the +chair stopped as if by magic and the door was closed. Not till then +did he take them away and look round and round and round as Dickon and +Mary had done. And over walls and earth and trees and swinging sprays +and tendrils the fair green veil of tender little leaves had crept, and +in the grass under the trees and the gray urns in the alcoves and here +and there everywhere were touches or splashes of gold and purple and +white and the trees were showing pink and snow above his head and there +were fluttering of wings and faint sweet pipes and humming and scents +and scents. And the sun fell warm upon his face like a hand with a +lovely touch. And in wonder Mary and Dickon stood and stared at him. +He looked so strange and different because a pink glow of color had +actually crept all over him--ivory face and neck and hands and all. + +"I shall get well! I shall get well!" he cried out. "Mary! Dickon! I +shall get well! And I shall live forever and ever and ever!" + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + +BEN WEATHERSTAFF + + +One of the strange things about living in the world is that it is only +now and then one is quite sure one is going to live forever and ever +and ever. One knows it sometimes when one gets up at the tender solemn +dawn-time and goes out and stands alone and throws one's head far back +and looks up and up and watches the pale sky slowly changing and +flushing and marvelous unknown things happening until the East almost +makes one cry out and one's heart stands still at the strange +unchanging majesty of the rising of the sun--which has been happening +every morning for thousands and thousands and thousands of years. One +knows it then for a moment or so. And one knows it sometimes when one +stands by oneself in a wood at sunset and the mysterious deep gold +stillness slanting through and under the branches seems to be saying +slowly again and again something one cannot quite hear, however much +one tries. Then sometimes the immense quiet of the dark blue at night +with millions of stars waiting and watching makes one sure; and +sometimes a sound of far-off music makes it true; and sometimes a look +in some one's eyes. + +And it was like that with Colin when he first saw and heard and felt +the Springtime inside the four high walls of a hidden garden. That +afternoon the whole world seemed to devote itself to being perfect and +radiantly beautiful and kind to one boy. Perhaps out of pure heavenly +goodness the spring came and crowned everything it possibly could into +that one place. More than once Dickon paused in what he was doing and +stood still with a sort of growing wonder in his eyes, shaking his head +softly. + +"Eh! it is graidely," he said. "I'm twelve goin' on thirteen an' +there's a lot o' afternoons in thirteen years, but seems to me like I +never seed one as graidely as this 'ere." + +"Aye, it is a graidely one," said Mary, and she sighed for mere joy. +"I'll warrant it's the graidelest one as ever was in this world." + +"Does tha' think," said Colin with dreamy carefulness, "as happen it +was made loike this 'ere all o' purpose for me?" + +"My word!" cried Mary admiringly, "that there is a bit o' good +Yorkshire. Tha'rt shapin' first-rate--that tha' art." + +And delight reigned. They drew the chair under the plum-tree, which +was snow-white with blossoms and musical with bees. It was like a +king's canopy, a fairy king's. There were flowering cherry-trees near +and apple-trees whose buds were pink and white, and here and there one +had burst open wide. Between the blossoming branches of the canopy +bits of blue sky looked down like wonderful eyes. + +Mary and Dickon worked a little here and there and Colin watched them. +They brought him things to look at--buds which were opening, buds which +were tight closed, bits of twig whose leaves were just showing green, +the feather of a woodpecker which had dropped on the grass, the empty +shell of some bird early hatched. Dickon pushed the chair slowly round +and round the garden, stopping every other moment to let him look at +wonders springing out of the earth or trailing down from trees. It was +like being taken in state round the country of a magic king and queen +and shown all the mysterious riches it contained. + +"I wonder if we shall see the robin?" said Colin. + +"Tha'll see him often enow after a bit," answered Dickon. "When th' +eggs hatches out th' little chap he'll be kep' so busy it'll make his +head swim. Tha'll see him flyin' backward an' for'ard carryin' worms +nigh as big as himsel' an' that much noise goin' on in th' nest when he +gets there as fair flusters him so as he scarce knows which big mouth +to drop th' first piece in. An' gapin' beaks an' squawks on every +side. Mother says as when she sees th' work a robin has to keep them +gapin' beaks filled, she feels like she was a lady with nothin' to do. +She says she's seen th' little chaps when it seemed like th' sweat must +be droppin' off 'em, though folk can't see it." + +This made them giggle so delightedly that they were obliged to cover +their mouths with their hands, remembering that they must not be heard. +Colin had been instructed as to the law of whispers and low voices +several days before. He liked the mysteriousness of it and did his +best, but in the midst of excited enjoyment it is rather difficult +never to laugh above a whisper. + +Every moment of the afternoon was full of new things and every hour the +sunshine grew more golden. The wheeled chair had been drawn back under +the canopy and Dickon had sat down on the grass and had just drawn out +his pipe when Colin saw something he had not had time to notice before. + +"That's a very old tree over there, isn't it?" he said. Dickon looked +across the grass at the tree and Mary looked and there was a brief +moment of stillness. + +"Yes," answered Dickon, after it, and his low voice had a very gentle +sound. + +Mary gazed at the tree and thought. + +"The branches are quite gray and there's not a single leaf anywhere," +Colin went on. "It's quite dead, isn't it?" + +"Aye," admitted Dickon. "But them roses as has climbed all over it +will near hide every bit o' th' dead wood when they're full o' leaves +an' flowers. It won't look dead then. It'll be th' prettiest of all." + +Mary still gazed at the tree and thought. + +"It looks as if a big branch had been broken off," said Colin. "I +wonder how it was done." + +"It's been done many a year," answered Dickon. "Eh!" with a sudden +relieved start and laying his hand on Colin. "Look at that robin! +There he is! He's been foragin' for his mate." + +Colin was almost too late but he just caught sight of him, the flash of +red-breasted bird with something in his beak. He darted through the +greenness and into the close-grown corner and was out of sight. Colin +leaned back on his cushion again, laughing a little. "He's taking her +tea to her. Perhaps it's five o'clock. I think I'd like some tea +myself." + +And so they were safe. + +"It was Magic which sent the robin," said Mary secretly to Dickon +afterward. "I know it was Magic." For both she and Dickon had been +afraid Colin might ask something about the tree whose branch had broken +off ten years ago and they had talked it over together and Dickon had +stood and rubbed his head in a troubled way. + +"We mun look as if it wasn't no different from th' other trees," he had +said. "We couldn't never tell him how it broke, poor lad. If he says +anything about it we mun--we mun try to look cheerful." + +"Aye, that we mun," had answered Mary. + +But she had not felt as if she looked cheerful when she gazed at the +tree. She wondered and wondered in those few moments if there was any +reality in that other thing Dickon had said. He had gone on rubbing +his rust-red hair in a puzzled way, but a nice comforted look had begun +to grow in his blue eyes. + +"Mrs. Craven was a very lovely young lady," he had gone on rather +hesitatingly. "An' mother she thinks maybe she's about Misselthwaite +many a time lookin' after Mester Colin, same as all mothers do when +they're took out o' th' world. They have to come back, tha' sees. +Happen she's been in the garden an' happen it was her set us to work, +an' told us to bring him here." + +Mary had thought he meant something about Magic. She was a great +believer in Magic. Secretly she quite believed that Dickon worked +Magic, of course good Magic, on everything near him and that was why +people liked him so much and wild creatures knew he was their friend. +She wondered, indeed, if it were not possible that his gift had brought +the robin just at the right moment when Colin asked that dangerous +question. She felt that his Magic was working all the afternoon and +making Colin look like an entirely different boy. It did not seem +possible that he could be the crazy creature who had screamed and +beaten and bitten his pillow. Even his ivory whiteness seemed to +change. The faint glow of color which had shown on his face and neck +and hands when he first got inside the garden really never quite died +away. He looked as if he were made of flesh instead of ivory or wax. + +They saw the robin carry food to his mate two or three times, and it +was so suggestive of afternoon tea that Colin felt they must have some. + +"Go and make one of the men servants bring some in a basket to the +rhododendron walk," he said. "And then you and Dickon can bring it +here." + +It was an agreeable idea, easily carried out, and when the white cloth +was spread upon the grass, with hot tea and buttered toast and +crumpets, a delightfully hungry meal was eaten, and several birds on +domestic errands paused to inquire what was going on and were led into +investigating crumbs with great activity. Nut and Shell whisked up +trees with pieces of cake and Soot took the entire half of a buttered +crumpet into a corner and pecked at and examined and turned it over and +made hoarse remarks about it until he decided to swallow it all +joyfully in one gulp. + +The afternoon was dragging towards its mellow hour. The sun was +deepening the gold of its lances, the bees were going home and the +birds were flying past less often. Dickon and Mary were sitting on the +grass, the tea-basket was repacked ready to be taken back to the house, +and Colin was lying against his cushions with his heavy locks pushed +back from his forehead and his face looking quite a natural color. + +"I don't want this afternoon to go," he said; "but I shall come back +tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after, and the day after." + +"You'll get plenty of fresh air, won't you?" said Mary. "I'm going to +get nothing else," he answered. "I've seen the spring now and I'm +going to see the summer. I'm going to see everything grow here. I'm +going to grow here myself." + +"That tha' will," said Dickon. "Us'll have thee walkin' about here an' +diggin' same as other folk afore long." + +Colin flushed tremendously. + +"Walk!" he said. "Dig! Shall I?" + +Dickon's glance at him was delicately cautious. Neither he nor Mary +had ever asked if anything was the matter with his legs. + +"For sure tha' will," he said stoutly. "Tha--tha's got legs o' thine +own, same as other folks!" + +Mary was rather frightened until she heard Colin's answer. + +"Nothing really ails them," he said, "but they are so thin and weak. +They shake so that I'm afraid to try to stand on them." + +Both Mary and Dickon drew a relieved breath. + +"When tha' stops bein' afraid tha'lt stand on 'em," Dickon said with +renewed cheer. "An' tha'lt stop bein' afraid in a bit." + +"I shall?" said Colin, and he lay still as if he were wondering about +things. + +They were really very quiet for a little while. The sun was dropping +lower. It was that hour when everything stills itself, and they really +had had a busy and exciting afternoon. Colin looked as if he were +resting luxuriously. Even the creatures had ceased moving about and +had drawn together and were resting near them. Soot had perched on a +low branch and drawn up one leg and dropped the gray film drowsily over +his eyes. Mary privately thought he looked as if he might snore in a +minute. + +In the midst of this stillness it was rather startling when Colin half +lifted his head and exclaimed in a loud suddenly alarmed whisper: + +"Who is that man?" Dickon and Mary scrambled to their feet. + +"Man!" they both cried in low quick voices. + +Colin pointed to the high wall. "Look!" he whispered excitedly. "Just +look!" + +Mary and Dickon wheeled about and looked. There was Ben Weatherstaff's +indignant face glaring at them over the wall from the top of a ladder! +He actually shook his fist at Mary. + +"If I wasn't a bachelder, an' tha' was a wench o' mine," he cried, "I'd +give thee a hidin'!" + +He mounted another step threateningly as if it were his energetic +intention to jump down and deal with her; but as she came toward him he +evidently thought better of it and stood on the top step of his ladder +shaking his fist down at her. + +"I never thowt much o' thee!" he harangued. "I couldna' abide thee th' +first time I set eyes on thee. A scrawny buttermilk-faced young besom, +allus askin' questions an' pokin' tha' nose where it wasna, wanted. I +never knowed how tha' got so thick wi' me. If it hadna' been for th' +robin-- Drat him--" + +"Ben Weatherstaff," called out Mary, finding her breath. She stood +below him and called up to him with a sort of gasp. "Ben Weatherstaff, +it was the robin who showed me the way!" + +Then it did seem as if Ben really would scramble down on her side of +the wall, he was so outraged. + +"Tha' young bad 'un!" he called down at her. "Layin' tha' badness on a +robin--not but what he's impidint enow for anythin'. Him showin' thee +th' way! Him! Eh! tha' young nowt"--she could see his next words burst +out because he was overpowered by curiosity--"however i' this world did +tha' get in?" + +"It was the robin who showed me the way," she protested obstinately. +"He didn't know he was doing it but he did. And I can't tell you from +here while you're shaking your fist at me." + +He stopped shaking his fist very suddenly at that very moment and his +jaw actually dropped as he stared over her head at something he saw +coming over the grass toward him. + +At the first sound of his torrent of words Colin had been so surprised +that he had only sat up and listened as if he were spellbound. But in +the midst of it he had recovered himself and beckoned imperiously to +Dickon. + +"Wheel me over there!" he commanded. "Wheel me quite close and stop +right in front of him!" + +And this, if you please, this is what Ben Weatherstaff beheld and which +made his jaw drop. A wheeled chair with luxurious cushions and robes +which came toward him looking rather like some sort of State Coach +because a young Rajah leaned back in it with royal command in his great +black-rimmed eyes and a thin white hand extended haughtily toward him. +And it stopped right under Ben Weatherstaff's nose. It was really no +wonder his mouth dropped open. + +"Do you know who I am?" demanded the Rajah. + +How Ben Weatherstaff stared! His red old eyes fixed themselves on what +was before him as if he were seeing a ghost. He gazed and gazed and +gulped a lump down his throat and did not say a word. "Do you know who +I am?" demanded Colin still more imperiously. "Answer!" + +Ben Weatherstaff put his gnarled hand up and passed it over his eyes +and over his forehead and then he did answer in a queer shaky voice. + +"Who tha' art?" he said. "Aye, that I do--wi' tha' mother's eyes +starin' at me out o' tha' face. Lord knows how tha' come here. But +tha'rt th' poor cripple." + +Colin forgot that he had ever had a back. His face flushed scarlet and +he sat bolt upright. + +"I'm not a cripple!" he cried out furiously. "I'm not!" + +"He's not!" cried Mary, almost shouting up the wall in her fierce +indignation. "He's not got a lump as big as a pin! I looked and there +was none there--not one!" + +Ben Weatherstaff passed his hand over his forehead again and gazed as +if he could never gaze enough. His hand shook and his mouth shook and +his voice shook. He was an ignorant old man and a tactless old man and +he could only remember the things he had heard. + +"Tha'--tha' hasn't got a crooked back?" he said hoarsely. + +"No!" shouted Colin. + +"Tha'--tha' hasn't got crooked legs?" quavered Ben more hoarsely yet. +It was too much. The strength which Colin usually threw into his +tantrums rushed through him now in a new way. Never yet had he been +accused of crooked legs--even in whispers--and the perfectly simple +belief in their existence which was revealed by Ben Weatherstaff's +voice was more than Rajah flesh and blood could endure. His anger and +insulted pride made him forget everything but this one moment and +filled him with a power he had never known before, an almost unnatural +strength. + +"Come here!" he shouted to Dickon, and he actually began to tear the +coverings off his lower limbs and disentangle himself. "Come here! +Come here! This minute!" + +Dickon was by his side in a second. Mary caught her breath in a short +gasp and felt herself turn pale. + +"He can do it! He can do it! He can do it! He can!" she gabbled over to +herself under her breath as fast as ever she could. + +There was a brief fierce scramble, the rugs were tossed on the ground, +Dickon held Colin's arm, the thin legs were out, the thin feet were on +the grass. Colin was standing upright--upright--as straight as an +arrow and looking strangely tall--his head thrown back and his strange +eyes flashing lightning. "Look at me!" he flung up at Ben +Weatherstaff. "Just look at me--you! Just look at me!" + +"He's as straight as I am!" cried Dickon. "He's as straight as any lad +i' Yorkshire!" + +What Ben Weatherstaff did Mary thought queer beyond measure. He choked +and gulped and suddenly tears ran down his weather-wrinkled cheeks as +he struck his old hands together. + +"Eh!" he burst forth, "th' lies folk tells! Tha'rt as thin as a lath +an' as white as a wraith, but there's not a knob on thee. Tha'lt make +a mon yet. God bless thee!" + +Dickon held Colin's arm strongly but the boy had not begun to falter. +He stood straighter and straighter and looked Ben Weatherstaff in the +face. + +"I'm your master," he said, "when my father is away. And you are to +obey me. This is my garden. Don't dare to say a word about it! You +get down from that ladder and go out to the Long Walk and Miss Mary +will meet you and bring you here. I want to talk to you. We did not +want you, but now you will have to be in the secret. Be quick!" + +Ben Weatherstaff's crabbed old face was still wet with that one queer +rush of tears. It seemed as if he could not take his eyes from thin +straight Colin standing on his feet with his head thrown back. + +"Eh! lad," he almost whispered. "Eh! my lad!" And then remembering +himself he suddenly touched his hat gardener fashion and said, "Yes, +sir! Yes, sir!" and obediently disappeared as he descended the ladder. + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + +WHEN THE SUN WENT DOWN + + +When his head was out of sight Colin turned to Mary. + +"Go and meet him," he said; and Mary flew across the grass to the door +under the ivy. + +Dickon was watching him with sharp eyes. There were scarlet spots on +his cheeks and he looked amazing, but he showed no signs of falling. + +"I can stand," he said, and his head was still held up and he said it +quite grandly. + +"I told thee tha' could as soon as tha' stopped bein' afraid," answered +Dickon. "An' tha's stopped." + +"Yes, I've stopped," said Colin. + +Then suddenly he remembered something Mary had said. + +"Are you making Magic?" he asked sharply. + +Dickon's curly mouth spread in a cheerful grin. + +"Tha's doin' Magic thysel'," he said. "It's same Magic as made these +'ere work out o' th' earth," and he touched with his thick boot a clump +of crocuses in the grass. Colin looked down at them. + +"Aye," he said slowly, "there couldna' be bigger Magic than that +there--there couldna' be." + +He drew himself up straighter than ever. + +"I'm going to walk to that tree," he said, pointing to one a few feet +away from him. "I'm going to be standing when Weatherstaff comes here. +I can rest against the tree if I like. When I want to sit down I will +sit down, but not before. Bring a rug from the chair." + +He walked to the tree and though Dickon held his arm he was wonderfully +steady. When he stood against the tree trunk it was not too plain that +he supported himself against it, and he still held himself so straight +that he looked tall. + +When Ben Weatherstaff came through the door in the wall he saw him +standing there and he heard Mary muttering something under her breath. + +"What art sayin'?" he asked rather testily because he did not want his +attention distracted from the long thin straight boy figure and proud +face. + +But she did not tell him. What she was saying was this: + +"You can do it! You can do it! I told you you could! You can do it! +You can do it! You can!" She was saying it to Colin because she wanted +to make Magic and keep him on his feet looking like that. She could +not bear that he should give in before Ben Weatherstaff. He did not +give in. She was uplifted by a sudden feeling that he looked quite +beautiful in spite of his thinness. He fixed his eyes on Ben +Weatherstaff in his funny imperious way. + +"Look at me!" he commanded. "Look at me all over! Am I a hunchback? +Have I got crooked legs?" + +Ben Weatherstaff had not quite got over his emotion, but he had +recovered a little and answered almost in his usual way. + +"Not tha'," he said. "Nowt o' th' sort. What's tha' been doin' with +thysel'--hidin' out o' sight an' lettin' folk think tha' was cripple +an' half-witted?" + +"Half-witted!" said Colin angrily. "Who thought that?" + +"Lots o' fools," said Ben. "Th' world's full o' jackasses brayin' an' +they never bray nowt but lies. What did tha' shut thysel' up for?" + +"Everyone thought I was going to die," said Colin shortly. "I'm not!" + +And he said it with such decision Ben Weatherstaff looked him over, up +and down, down and up. + +"Tha' die!" he said with dry exultation. "Nowt o' th' sort! Tha's got +too much pluck in thee. When I seed thee put tha' legs on th' ground +in such a hurry I knowed tha' was all right. Sit thee down on th' rug +a bit young Mester an' give me thy orders." + +There was a queer mixture of crabbed tenderness and shrewd +understanding in his manner. Mary had poured out speech as rapidly as +she could as they had come down the Long Walk. The chief thing to be +remembered, she had told him, was that Colin was getting well--getting +well. The garden was doing it. No one must let him remember about +having humps and dying. + +The Rajah condescended to seat himself on a rug under the tree. + +"What work do you do in the gardens, Weatherstaff?" he inquired. + +"Anythin' I'm told to do," answered old Ben. "I'm kep' on by +favor--because she liked me." + +"She?" said Colin. + +"Tha' mother," answered Ben Weatherstaff. + +"My mother?" said Colin, and he looked about him quietly. "This was +her garden, wasn't it?" + +"Aye, it was that!" and Ben Weatherstaff looked about him too. "She +were main fond of it." + +"It is my garden now. I am fond of it. I shall come here every day," +announced Colin. "But it is to be a secret. My orders are that no one +is to know that we come here. Dickon and my cousin have worked and +made it come alive. I shall send for you sometimes to help--but you +must come when no one can see you." + +Ben Weatherstaff's face twisted itself in a dry old smile. + +"I've come here before when no one saw me," he said. + +"What!" exclaimed Colin. + +"When?" + +"Th' last time I was here," rubbing his chin and looking round, "was +about two year' ago." + +"But no one has been in it for ten years!" cried Colin. + +"There was no door!" + +"I'm no one," said old Ben dryly. "An' I didn't come through th' door. +I come over th' wall. Th' rheumatics held me back th' last two year'." + +"Tha' come an' did a bit o' prunin'!" cried Dickon. "I couldn't make +out how it had been done." + +"She was so fond of it--she was!" said Ben Weatherstaff slowly. "An' +she was such a pretty young thing. She says to me once, 'Ben,' says +she laughin', 'if ever I'm ill or if I go away you must take care of my +roses.' When she did go away th' orders was no one was ever to come +nigh. But I come," with grumpy obstinacy. "Over th' wall I +come--until th' rheumatics stopped me--an' I did a bit o' work once a +year. She'd gave her order first." + +"It wouldn't have been as wick as it is if tha' hadn't done it," said +Dickon. "I did wonder." + +"I'm glad you did it, Weatherstaff," said Colin. "You'll know how to +keep the secret." + +"Aye, I'll know, sir," answered Ben. "An' it'll be easier for a man +wi' rheumatics to come in at th' door." + +On the grass near the tree Mary had dropped her trowel. Colin +stretched out his hand and took it up. An odd expression came into his +face and he began to scratch at the earth. His thin hand was weak +enough but presently as they watched him--Mary with quite breathless +interest--he drove the end of the trowel into the soil and turned some +over. + +"You can do it! You can do it!" said Mary to herself. "I tell you, you +can!" + +Dickon's round eyes were full of eager curiousness but he said not a +word. Ben Weatherstaff looked on with interested face. + +Colin persevered. After he had turned a few trowelfuls of soil he +spoke exultantly to Dickon in his best Yorkshire. + +"Tha' said as tha'd have me walkin' about here same as other folk--an' +tha' said tha'd have me diggin'. I thowt tha' was just leein' to please +me. This is only th' first day an' I've walked--an' here I am diggin'." + +Ben Weatherstaff's mouth fell open again when he heard him, but he +ended by chuckling. + +"Eh!" he said, "that sounds as if tha'd got wits enow. Tha'rt a +Yorkshire lad for sure. An' tha'rt diggin', too. How'd tha' like to +plant a bit o' somethin'? I can get thee a rose in a pot." + +"Go and get it!" said Colin, digging excitedly. "Quick! Quick!" + +It was done quickly enough indeed. Ben Weatherstaff went his way +forgetting rheumatics. Dickon took his spade and dug the hole deeper +and wider than a new digger with thin white hands could make it. Mary +slipped out to run and bring back a watering-can. When Dickon had +deepened the hole Colin went on turning the soft earth over and over. +He looked up at the sky, flushed and glowing with the strangely new +exercise, slight as it was. + +"I want to do it before the sun goes quite--quite down," he said. + +Mary thought that perhaps the sun held back a few minutes just on +purpose. Ben Weatherstaff brought the rose in its pot from the +greenhouse. He hobbled over the grass as fast as he could. He had +begun to be excited, too. He knelt down by the hole and broke the pot +from the mould. + +"Here, lad," he said, handing the plant to Colin. "Set it in the earth +thysel' same as th' king does when he goes to a new place." + +The thin white hands shook a little and Colin's flush grew deeper as he +set the rose in the mould and held it while old Ben made firm the +earth. It was filled in and pressed down and made steady. Mary was +leaning forward on her hands and knees. Soot had flown down and +marched forward to see what was being done. Nut and Shell chattered +about it from a cherry-tree. + +"It's planted!" said Colin at last. "And the sun is only slipping over +the edge. Help me up, Dickon. I want to be standing when it goes. +That's part of the Magic." + +And Dickon helped him, and the Magic--or whatever it was--so gave him +strength that when the sun did slip over the edge and end the strange +lovely afternoon for them there he actually stood on his two +feet--laughing. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + +MAGIC + + +Dr. Craven had been waiting some time at the house when they returned +to it. He had indeed begun to wonder if it might not be wise to send +some one out to explore the garden paths. When Colin was brought back +to his room the poor man looked him over seriously. + +"You should not have stayed so long," he said. "You must not overexert +yourself." + +"I am not tired at all," said Colin. "It has made me well. Tomorrow I +am going out in the morning as well as in the afternoon." + +"I am not sure that I can allow it," answered Dr. Craven. "I am afraid +it would not be wise." + +"It would not be wise to try to stop me," said Colin quite seriously. +"I am going." + +Even Mary had found out that one of Colin's chief peculiarities was +that he did not know in the least what a rude little brute he was with +his way of ordering people about. He had lived on a sort of desert +island all his life and as he had been the king of it he had made his +own manners and had had no one to compare himself with. Mary had +indeed been rather like him herself and since she had been at +Misselthwaite had gradually discovered that her own manners had not +been of the kind which is usual or popular. Having made this discovery +she naturally thought it of enough interest to communicate to Colin. +So she sat and looked at him curiously for a few minutes after Dr. +Craven had gone. She wanted to make him ask her why she was doing it +and of course she did. + +"What are you looking at me for?" he said. + +"I'm thinking that I am rather sorry for Dr. Craven." + +"So am I," said Colin calmly, but not without an air of some +satisfaction. "He won't get Misselthwaite at all now I'm not going to +die." + +"I'm sorry for him because of that, of course," said Mary, "but I was +thinking just then that it must have been very horrid to have had to be +polite for ten years to a boy who was always rude. I would never have +done it." + +"Am I rude?" Colin inquired undisturbedly. + +"If you had been his own boy and he had been a slapping sort of man," +said Mary, "he would have slapped you." + +"But he daren't," said Colin. + +"No, he daren't," answered Mistress Mary, thinking the thing out quite +without prejudice. "Nobody ever dared to do anything you didn't +like--because you were going to die and things like that. You were +such a poor thing." + +"But," announced Colin stubbornly, "I am not going to be a poor thing. +I won't let people think I'm one. I stood on my feet this afternoon." + +"It is always having your own way that has made you so queer," Mary +went on, thinking aloud. + +Colin turned his head, frowning. + +"Am I queer?" he demanded. + +"Yes," answered Mary, "very. But you needn't be cross," she added +impartially, "because so am I queer--and so is Ben Weatherstaff. But I +am not as queer as I was before I began to like people and before I +found the garden." + +"I don't want to be queer," said Colin. "I am not going to be," and he +frowned again with determination. + +He was a very proud boy. He lay thinking for a while and then Mary saw +his beautiful smile begin and gradually change his whole face. + +"I shall stop being queer," he said, "if I go every day to the garden. +There is Magic in there--good Magic, you know, Mary. I am sure there +is." "So am I," said Mary. + +"Even if it isn't real Magic," Colin said, "we can pretend it is. +Something is there--something!" + +"It's Magic," said Mary, "but not black. It's as white as snow." + +They always called it Magic and indeed it seemed like it in the months +that followed--the wonderful months--the radiant months--the amazing +ones. Oh! the things which happened in that garden! If you have never +had a garden you cannot understand, and if you have had a garden you +will know that it would take a whole book to describe all that came to +pass there. At first it seemed that green things would never cease +pushing their way through the earth, in the grass, in the beds, even in +the crevices of the walls. Then the green things began to show buds +and the buds began to unfurl and show color, every shade of blue, every +shade of purple, every tint and hue of crimson. In its happy days +flowers had been tucked away into every inch and hole and corner. Ben +Weatherstaff had seen it done and had himself scraped out mortar from +between the bricks of the wall and made pockets of earth for lovely +clinging things to grow on. Iris and white lilies rose out of the +grass in sheaves, and the green alcoves filled themselves with amazing +armies of the blue and white flower lances of tall delphiniums or +columbines or campanulas. + +"She was main fond o' them--she was," Ben Weatherstaff said. "She +liked them things as was allus pointin' up to th' blue sky, she used to +tell. Not as she was one o' them as looked down on th' earth--not her. +She just loved it but she said as th' blue sky allus looked so joyful." + +The seeds Dickon and Mary had planted grew as if fairies had tended +them. Satiny poppies of all tints danced in the breeze by the score, +gaily defying flowers which had lived in the garden for years and which +it might be confessed seemed rather to wonder how such new people had +got there. And the roses--the roses! Rising out of the grass, tangled +round the sun-dial, wreathing the tree trunks and hanging from their +branches, climbing up the walls and spreading over them with long +garlands falling in cascades--they came alive day by day, hour by hour. +Fair fresh leaves, and buds--and buds--tiny at first but swelling and +working Magic until they burst and uncurled into cups of scent +delicately spilling themselves over their brims and filling the garden +air. + +Colin saw it all, watching each change as it took place. Every morning +he was brought out and every hour of each day when it didn't rain he +spent in the garden. Even gray days pleased him. He would lie on the +grass "watching things growing," he said. If you watched long enough, +he declared, you could see buds unsheath themselves. Also you could +make the acquaintance of strange busy insect things running about on +various unknown but evidently serious errands, sometimes carrying tiny +scraps of straw or feather or food, or climbing blades of grass as if +they were trees from whose tops one could look out to explore the +country. A mole throwing up its mound at the end of its burrow and +making its way out at last with the long-nailed paws which looked so +like elfish hands, had absorbed him one whole morning. Ants' ways, +beetles' ways, bees' ways, frogs' ways, birds' ways, plants' ways, gave +him a new world to explore and when Dickon revealed them all and added +foxes' ways, otters' ways, ferrets' ways, squirrels' ways, and trout' +and water-rats' and badgers' ways, there was no end to the things to +talk about and think over. + +And this was not the half of the Magic. The fact that he had really +once stood on his feet had set Colin thinking tremendously and when +Mary told him of the spell she had worked he was excited and approved +of it greatly. He talked of it constantly. + +"Of course there must be lots of Magic in the world," he said wisely +one day, "but people don't know what it is like or how to make it. +Perhaps the beginning is just to say nice things are going to happen +until you make them happen. I am going to try and experiment." + +The next morning when they went to the secret garden he sent at once +for Ben Weatherstaff. Ben came as quickly as he could and found the +Rajah standing on his feet under a tree and looking very grand but also +very beautifully smiling. + +"Good morning, Ben Weatherstaff," he said. "I want you and Dickon and +Miss Mary to stand in a row and listen to me because I am going to tell +you something very important." + +"Aye, aye, sir!" answered Ben Weatherstaff, touching his forehead. +(One of the long concealed charms of Ben Weatherstaff was that in his +boyhood he had once run away to sea and had made voyages. So he could +reply like a sailor.) + +"I am going to try a scientific experiment," explained the Rajah. +"When I grow up I am going to make great scientific discoveries and I +am going to begin now with this experiment." + +"Aye, aye, sir!" said Ben Weatherstaff promptly, though this was the +first time he had heard of great scientific discoveries. + +It was the first time Mary had heard of them, either, but even at this +stage she had begun to realize that, queer as he was, Colin had read +about a great many singular things and was somehow a very convincing +sort of boy. When he held up his head and fixed his strange eyes on +you it seemed as if you believed him almost in spite of yourself though +he was only ten years old--going on eleven. At this moment he was +especially convincing because he suddenly felt the fascination of +actually making a sort of speech like a grown-up person. + +"The great scientific discoveries I am going to make," he went on, +"will be about Magic. Magic is a great thing and scarcely any one +knows anything about it except a few people in old books--and Mary a +little, because she was born in India where there are fakirs. I +believe Dickon knows some Magic, but perhaps he doesn't know he knows +it. He charms animals and people. I would never have let him come to +see me if he had not been an animal charmer--which is a boy charmer, +too, because a boy is an animal. I am sure there is Magic in +everything, only we have not sense enough to get hold of it and make it +do things for us--like electricity and horses and steam." + +This sounded so imposing that Ben Weatherstaff became quite excited and +really could not keep still. "Aye, aye, sir," he said and he began to +stand up quite straight. + +"When Mary found this garden it looked quite dead," the orator +proceeded. "Then something began pushing things up out of the soil and +making things out of nothing. One day things weren't there and another +they were. I had never watched things before and it made me feel very +curious. Scientific people are always curious and I am going to be +scientific. I keep saying to myself, 'What is it? What is it?' It's +something. It can't be nothing! I don't know its name so I call it +Magic. I have never seen the sun rise but Mary and Dickon have and +from what they tell me I am sure that is Magic too. Something pushes +it up and draws it. Sometimes since I've been in the garden I've +looked up through the trees at the sky and I have had a strange feeling +of being happy as if something were pushing and drawing in my chest and +making me breathe fast. Magic is always pushing and drawing and making +things out of nothing. Everything is made out of Magic, leaves and +trees, flowers and birds, badgers and foxes and squirrels and people. +So it must be all around us. In this garden--in all the places. The +Magic in this garden has made me stand up and know I am going to live +to be a man. I am going to make the scientific experiment of trying to +get some and put it in myself and make it push and draw me and make me +strong. I don't know how to do it but I think that if you keep +thinking about it and calling it perhaps it will come. Perhaps that is +the first baby way to get it. When I was going to try to stand that +first time Mary kept saying to herself as fast as she could, 'You can +do it! You can do it!' and I did. I had to try myself at the same +time, of course, but her Magic helped me--and so did Dickon's. Every +morning and evening and as often in the daytime as I can remember I am +going to say, 'Magic is in me! Magic is making me well! I am going to +be as strong as Dickon, as strong as Dickon!' And you must all do it, +too. That is my experiment Will you help, Ben Weatherstaff?" + +"Aye, aye, sir!" said Ben Weatherstaff. "Aye, aye!" + +"If you keep doing it every day as regularly as soldiers go through +drill we shall see what will happen and find out if the experiment +succeeds. You learn things by saying them over and over and thinking +about them until they stay in your mind forever and I think it will be +the same with Magic. If you keep calling it to come to you and help +you it will get to be part of you and it will stay and do things." "I +once heard an officer in India tell my mother that there were fakirs +who said words over and over thousands of times," said Mary. + +"I've heard Jem Fettleworth's wife say th' same thing over thousands o' +times--callin' Jem a drunken brute," said Ben Weatherstaff dryly. +"Summat allus come o' that, sure enough. He gave her a good hidin' an' +went to th' Blue Lion an' got as drunk as a lord." + +Colin drew his brows together and thought a few minutes. Then he +cheered up. + +"Well," he said, "you see something did come of it. She used the wrong +Magic until she made him beat her. If she'd used the right Magic and +had said something nice perhaps he wouldn't have got as drunk as a lord +and perhaps--perhaps he might have bought her a new bonnet." + +Ben Weatherstaff chuckled and there was shrewd admiration in his little +old eyes. + +"Tha'rt a clever lad as well as a straight-legged one, Mester Colin," +he said. "Next time I see Bess Fettleworth I'll give her a bit of a +hint o' what Magic will do for her. She'd be rare an' pleased if th' +sinetifik 'speriment worked--an' so 'ud Jem." + +Dickon had stood listening to the lecture, his round eyes shining with +curious delight. Nut and Shell were on his shoulders and he held a +long-eared white rabbit in his arm and stroked and stroked it softly +while it laid its ears along its back and enjoyed itself. + +"Do you think the experiment will work?" Colin asked him, wondering +what he was thinking. He so often wondered what Dickon was thinking +when he saw him looking at him or at one of his "creatures" with his +happy wide smile. + +He smiled now and his smile was wider than usual. + +"Aye," he answered, "that I do. It'll work same as th' seeds do when +th' sun shines on 'em. It'll work for sure. Shall us begin it now?" + +Colin was delighted and so was Mary. Fired by recollections of fakirs +and devotees in illustrations Colin suggested that they should all sit +cross-legged under the tree which made a canopy. + +"It will be like sitting in a sort of temple," said Colin. "I'm rather +tired and I want to sit down." + +"Eh!" said Dickon, "tha' mustn't begin by sayin' tha'rt tired. Tha' +might spoil th' Magic." + +Colin turned and looked at him--into his innocent round eyes. + +"That's true," he said slowly. "I must only think of the Magic." It +all seemed most majestic and mysterious when they sat down in their +circle. Ben Weatherstaff felt as if he had somehow been led into +appearing at a prayer-meeting. Ordinarily he was very fixed in being +what he called "agen' prayer-meetin's" but this being the Rajah's +affair he did not resent it and was indeed inclined to be gratified at +being called upon to assist. Mistress Mary felt solemnly enraptured. +Dickon held his rabbit in his arm, and perhaps he made some charmer's +signal no one heard, for when he sat down, cross-legged like the rest, +the crow, the fox, the squirrels and the lamb slowly drew near and made +part of the circle, settling each into a place of rest as if of their +own desire. + +"The 'creatures' have come," said Colin gravely. "They want to help +us." + +Colin really looked quite beautiful, Mary thought. He held his head +high as if he felt like a sort of priest and his strange eyes had a +wonderful look in them. The light shone on him through the tree canopy. + +"Now we will begin," he said. "Shall we sway backward and forward, +Mary, as if we were dervishes?" + +"I canna' do no swayin' back'ard and for'ard," said Ben Weatherstaff. +"I've got th' rheumatics." + +"The Magic will take them away," said Colin in a High Priest tone, "but +we won't sway until it has done it. We will only chant." + +"I canna' do no chantin'" said Ben Weatherstaff a trifle testily. +"They turned me out o' th' church choir th' only time I ever tried it." + +No one smiled. They were all too much in earnest. Colin's face was +not even crossed by a shadow. He was thinking only of the Magic. + +"Then I will chant," he said. And he began, looking like a strange boy +spirit. "The sun is shining--the sun is shining. That is the Magic. +The flowers are growing--the roots are stirring. That is the Magic. +Being alive is the Magic--being strong is the Magic. The Magic is in +me--the Magic is in me. It is in me--it is in me. It's in every one +of us. It's in Ben Weatherstaff's back. Magic! Magic! Come and help!" + +He said it a great many times--not a thousand times but quite a goodly +number. Mary listened entranced. She felt as if it were at once queer +and beautiful and she wanted him to go on and on. Ben Weatherstaff +began to feel soothed into a sort of dream which was quite agreeable. +The humming of the bees in the blossoms mingled with the chanting voice +and drowsily melted into a doze. Dickon sat cross-legged with his +rabbit asleep on his arm and a hand resting on the lamb's back. Soot +had pushed away a squirrel and huddled close to him on his shoulder, +the gray film dropped over his eyes. At last Colin stopped. + +"Now I am going to walk round the garden," he announced. + +Ben Weatherstaff's head had just dropped forward and he lifted it with +a jerk. + +"You have been asleep," said Colin. + +"Nowt o' th' sort," mumbled Ben. "Th' sermon was good enow--but I'm +bound to get out afore th' collection." + +He was not quite awake yet. + +"You're not in church," said Colin. + +"Not me," said Ben, straightening himself. "Who said I were? I heard +every bit of it. You said th' Magic was in my back. Th' doctor calls +it rheumatics." + +The Rajah waved his hand. + +"That was the wrong Magic," he said. "You will get better. You have +my permission to go to your work. But come back tomorrow." + +"I'd like to see thee walk round the garden," grunted Ben. + +It was not an unfriendly grunt, but it was a grunt. In fact, being a +stubborn old party and not having entire faith in Magic he had made up +his mind that if he were sent away he would climb his ladder and look +over the wall so that he might be ready to hobble back if there were +any stumbling. + +The Rajah did not object to his staying and so the procession was +formed. It really did look like a procession. Colin was at its head +with Dickon on one side and Mary on the other. Ben Weatherstaff walked +behind, and the "creatures" trailed after them, the lamb and the fox +cub keeping close to Dickon, the white rabbit hopping along or stopping +to nibble and Soot following with the solemnity of a person who felt +himself in charge. + +It was a procession which moved slowly but with dignity. Every few +yards it stopped to rest. Colin leaned on Dickon's arm and privately +Ben Weatherstaff kept a sharp lookout, but now and then Colin took his +hand from its support and walked a few steps alone. His head was held +up all the time and he looked very grand. + +"The Magic is in me!" he kept saying. "The Magic is making me strong! +I can feel it! I can feel it!" + +It seemed very certain that something was upholding and uplifting him. +He sat on the seats in the alcoves, and once or twice he sat down on +the grass and several times he paused in the path and leaned on Dickon, +but he would not give up until he had gone all round the garden. When +he returned to the canopy tree his cheeks were flushed and he looked +triumphant. + +"I did it! The Magic worked!" he cried. "That is my first scientific +discovery.". + +"What will Dr. Craven say?" broke out Mary. + +"He won't say anything," Colin answered, "because he will not be told. +This is to be the biggest secret of all. No one is to know anything +about it until I have grown so strong that I can walk and run like any +other boy. I shall come here every day in my chair and I shall be +taken back in it. I won't have people whispering and asking questions +and I won't let my father hear about it until the experiment has quite +succeeded. Then sometime when he comes back to Misselthwaite I shall +just walk into his study and say 'Here I am; I am like any other boy. +I am quite well and I shall live to be a man. It has been done by a +scientific experiment.'" + +"He will think he is in a dream," cried Mary. "He won't believe his +eyes." + +Colin flushed triumphantly. He had made himself believe that he was +going to get well, which was really more than half the battle, if he +had been aware of it. And the thought which stimulated him more than +any other was this imagining what his father would look like when he +saw that he had a son who was as straight and strong as other fathers' +sons. One of his darkest miseries in the unhealthy morbid past days +had been his hatred of being a sickly weak-backed boy whose father was +afraid to look at him. + +"He'll be obliged to believe them," he said. + +"One of the things I am going to do, after the Magic works and before I +begin to make scientific discoveries, is to be an athlete." + +"We shall have thee takin' to boxin' in a week or so," said Ben +Weatherstaff. "Tha'lt end wi' winnin' th' Belt an' bein' champion +prize-fighter of all England." + +Colin fixed his eyes on him sternly. + +"Weatherstaff," he said, "that is disrespectful. You must not take +liberties because you are in the secret. However much the Magic works +I shall not be a prize-fighter. I shall be a Scientific Discoverer." + +"Ax pardon--ax pardon, sir" answered Ben, touching his forehead in +salute. "I ought to have seed it wasn't a jokin' matter," but his eyes +twinkled and secretly he was immensely pleased. He really did not mind +being snubbed since the snubbing meant that the lad was gaining +strength and spirit. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + +"LET THEM LAUGH" + + +The secret garden was not the only one Dickon worked in. Round the +cottage on the moor there was a piece of ground enclosed by a low wall +of rough stones. Early in the morning and late in the fading twilight +and on all the days Colin and Mary did not see him, Dickon worked there +planting or tending potatoes and cabbages, turnips and carrots and +herbs for his mother. In the company of his "creatures" he did wonders +there and was never tired of doing them, it seemed. While he dug or +weeded he whistled or sang bits of Yorkshire moor songs or talked to +Soot or Captain or the brothers and sisters he had taught to help him. + +"We'd never get on as comfortable as we do," Mrs. Sowerby said, "if it +wasn't for Dickon's garden. Anything'll grow for him. His 'taters and +cabbages is twice th' size of any one else's an' they've got a flavor +with 'em as nobody's has." + +When she found a moment to spare she liked to go out and talk to him. +After supper there was still a long clear twilight to work in and that +was her quiet time. She could sit upon the low rough wall and look on +and hear stories of the day. She loved this time. There were not only +vegetables in this garden. Dickon had bought penny packages of flower +seeds now and then and sown bright sweet-scented things among +gooseberry bushes and even cabbages and he grew borders of mignonette +and pinks and pansies and things whose seeds he could save year after +year or whose roots would bloom each spring and spread in time into +fine clumps. The low wall was one of the prettiest things in Yorkshire +because he had tucked moorland foxglove and ferns and rock-cress and +hedgerow flowers into every crevice until only here and there glimpses +of the stones were to be seen. + +"All a chap's got to do to make 'em thrive, mother," he would say, "is +to be friends with 'em for sure. They're just like th' 'creatures.' If +they're thirsty give 'em drink and if they're hungry give 'em a bit o' +food. They want to live same as we do. If they died I should feel as +if I'd been a bad lad and somehow treated them heartless." + +It was in these twilight hours that Mrs. Sowerby heard of all that +happened at Misselthwaite Manor. At first she was only told that +"Mester Colin" had taken a fancy to going out into the grounds with +Miss Mary and that it was doing him good. But it was not long before +it was agreed between the two children that Dickon's mother might "come +into the secret." Somehow it was not doubted that she was "safe for +sure." + +So one beautiful still evening Dickon told the whole story, with all +the thrilling details of the buried key and the robin and the gray haze +which had seemed like deadness and the secret Mistress Mary had planned +never to reveal. The coming of Dickon and how it had been told to him, +the doubt of Mester Colin and the final drama of his introduction to +the hidden domain, combined with the incident of Ben Weatherstaff's +angry face peering over the wall and Mester Colin's sudden indignant +strength, made Mrs. Sowerby's nice-looking face quite change color +several times. + +"My word!" she said. "It was a good thing that little lass came to th' +Manor. It's been th' makin' o' her an' th' savin, o' him. Standin' on +his feet! An' us all thinkin' he was a poor half-witted lad with not a +straight bone in him." + +She asked a great many questions and her blue eyes were full of deep +thinking. + +"What do they make of it at th' Manor--him being so well an' cheerful +an' never complainin'?" she inquired. "They don't know what to make of +it," answered Dickon. "Every day as comes round his face looks +different. It's fillin' out and doesn't look so sharp an' th' waxy +color is goin'. But he has to do his bit o' complainin'," with a +highly entertained grin. + +"What for, i' Mercy's name?" asked Mrs. Sowerby. + +Dickon chuckled. + +"He does it to keep them from guessin' what's happened. If the doctor +knew he'd found out he could stand on his feet he'd likely write and +tell Mester Craven. Mester Colin's savin' th' secret to tell himself. +He's goin' to practise his Magic on his legs every day till his father +comes back an' then he's goin' to march into his room an' show him he's +as straight as other lads. But him an' Miss Mary thinks it's best plan +to do a bit o' groanin' an' frettin' now an' then to throw folk off th' +scent." + +Mrs. Sowerby was laughing a low comfortable laugh long before he had +finished his last sentence. + +"Eh!" she said, "that pair's enjoyin' their-selves I'll warrant. +They'll get a good bit o' actin' out of it an' there's nothin' children +likes as much as play actin'. Let's hear what they do, Dickon lad." +Dickon stopped weeding and sat up on his heels to tell her. His eyes +were twinkling with fun. + +"Mester Colin is carried down to his chair every time he goes out," he +explained. "An' he flies out at John, th' footman, for not carryin' +him careful enough. He makes himself as helpless lookin' as he can an' +never lifts his head until we're out o' sight o' th' house. An' he +grunts an' frets a good bit when he's bein' settled into his chair. +Him an' Miss Mary's both got to enjoyin' it an' when he groans an' +complains she'll say, 'Poor Colin! Does it hurt you so much? Are you so +weak as that, poor Colin?'--but th' trouble is that sometimes they can +scarce keep from burstin' out laughin'. When we get safe into the +garden they laugh till they've no breath left to laugh with. An' they +have to stuff their faces into Mester Colin's cushions to keep the +gardeners from hearin', if any of, 'em's about." + +"Th' more they laugh th' better for 'em!" said Mrs. Sowerby, still +laughing herself. "Good healthy child laughin's better than pills any +day o' th' year. That pair'll plump up for sure." + +"They are plumpin' up," said Dickon. "They're that hungry they don't +know how to get enough to eat without makin' talk. Mester Colin says +if he keeps sendin' for more food they won't believe he's an invalid at +all. Miss Mary says she'll let him eat her share, but he says that if +she goes hungry she'll get thin an' they mun both get fat at once." + +Mrs. Sowerby laughed so heartily at the revelation of this difficulty +that she quite rocked backward and forward in her blue cloak, and +Dickon laughed with her. + +"I'll tell thee what, lad," Mrs. Sowerby said when she could speak. +"I've thought of a way to help 'em. When tha' goes to 'em in th' +mornin's tha' shall take a pail o' good new milk an' I'll bake 'em a +crusty cottage loaf or some buns wi' currants in 'em, same as you +children like. Nothin's so good as fresh milk an' bread. Then they +could take off th' edge o' their hunger while they were in their garden +an' th, fine food they get indoors 'ud polish off th' corners." + +"Eh! mother!" said Dickon admiringly, "what a wonder tha' art! Tha' +always sees a way out o' things. They was quite in a pother yesterday. +They didn't see how they was to manage without orderin' up more +food--they felt that empty inside." + +"They're two young 'uns growin' fast, an' health's comin' back to both +of 'em. Children like that feels like young wolves an' food's flesh an' +blood to 'em," said Mrs. Sowerby. Then she smiled Dickon's own curving +smile. "Eh! but they're enjoyin' theirselves for sure," she said. + +She was quite right, the comfortable wonderful mother creature--and she +had never been more so than when she said their "play actin'" would be +their joy. Colin and Mary found it one of their most thrilling sources +of entertainment. The idea of protecting themselves from suspicion had +been unconsciously suggested to them first by the puzzled nurse and +then by Dr. Craven himself. + +"Your appetite. Is improving very much, Master Colin," the nurse had +said one day. "You used to eat nothing, and so many things disagreed +with you." + +"Nothing disagrees with me now" replied Colin, and then seeing the +nurse looking at him curiously he suddenly remembered that perhaps he +ought not to appear too well just yet. "At least things don't so often +disagree with me. It's the fresh air." + +"Perhaps it is," said the nurse, still looking at him with a mystified +expression. "But I must talk to Dr. Craven about it." + +"How she stared at you!" said Mary when she went away. "As if she +thought there must be something to find out." + +"I won't have her finding out things," said Colin. "No one must begin +to find out yet." When Dr. Craven came that morning he seemed puzzled, +also. He asked a number of questions, to Colin's great annoyance. + +"You stay out in the garden a great deal," he suggested. "Where do you +go?" + +Colin put on his favorite air of dignified indifference to opinion. + +"I will not let any one know where I go," he answered. "I go to a +place I like. Every one has orders to keep out of the way. I won't be +watched and stared at. You know that!" + +"You seem to be out all day but I do not think it has done you harm--I +do not think so. The nurse says that you eat much more than you have +ever done before." + +"Perhaps," said Colin, prompted by a sudden inspiration, "perhaps it is +an unnatural appetite." + +"I do not think so, as your food seems to agree with you," said Dr. +Craven. "You are gaining flesh rapidly and your color is better." + +"Perhaps--perhaps I am bloated and feverish," said Colin, assuming a +discouraging air of gloom. "People who are not going to live are +often--different." Dr. Craven shook his head. He was holding Colin's +wrist and he pushed up his sleeve and felt his arm. + +"You are not feverish," he said thoughtfully, "and such flesh as you +have gained is healthy. If you can keep this up, my boy, we need not +talk of dying. Your father will be happy to hear of this remarkable +improvement." + +"I won't have him told!" Colin broke forth fiercely. "It will only +disappoint him if I get worse again--and I may get worse this very +night. I might have a raging fever. I feel as if I might be beginning +to have one now. I won't have letters written to my father--I won't--I +won't! You are making me angry and you know that is bad for me. I +feel hot already. I hate being written about and being talked over as +much as I hate being stared at!" + +"Hush-h! my boy," Dr. Craven soothed him. "Nothing shall be written +without your permission. You are too sensitive about things. You must +not undo the good which has been done." + +He said no more about writing to Mr. Craven and when he saw the nurse +he privately warned her that such a possibility must not be mentioned +to the patient. + +"The boy is extraordinarily better," he said. "His advance seems +almost abnormal. But of course he is doing now of his own free will +what we could not make him do before. Still, he excites himself very +easily and nothing must be said to irritate him." Mary and Colin were +much alarmed and talked together anxiously. From this time dated their +plan of "play actin'." + +"I may be obliged to have a tantrum," said Colin regretfully. "I don't +want to have one and I'm not miserable enough now to work myself into a +big one. Perhaps I couldn't have one at all. That lump doesn't come +in my throat now and I keep thinking of nice things instead of horrible +ones. But if they talk about writing to my father I shall have to do +something." + +He made up his mind to eat less, but unfortunately it was not possible +to carry out this brilliant idea when he wakened each morning with an +amazing appetite and the table near his sofa was set with a breakfast +of home-made bread and fresh butter, snow-white eggs, raspberry jam and +clotted cream. Mary always breakfasted with him and when they found +themselves at the table--particularly if there were delicate slices of +sizzling ham sending forth tempting odors from under a hot silver +cover--they would look into each other's eyes in desperation. + +"I think we shall have to eat it all this morning, Mary," Colin always +ended by saying. "We can send away some of the lunch and a great deal +of the dinner." + +But they never found they could send away anything and the highly +polished condition of the empty plates returned to the pantry awakened +much comment. + +"I do wish," Colin would say also, "I do wish the slices of ham were +thicker, and one muffin each is not enough for any one." + +"It's enough for a person who is going to die," answered Mary when +first she heard this, "but it's not enough for a person who is going to +live. I sometimes feel as if I could eat three when those nice fresh +heather and gorse smells from the moor come pouring in at the open +window." + +The morning that Dickon--after they had been enjoying themselves in the +garden for about two hours--went behind a big rosebush and brought +forth two tin pails and revealed that one was full of rich new milk +with cream on the top of it, and that the other held cottage-made +currant buns folded in a clean blue and white napkin, buns so carefully +tucked in that they were still hot, there was a riot of surprised +joyfulness. What a wonderful thing for Mrs. Sowerby to think of! What +a kind, clever woman she must be! How good the buns were! And what +delicious fresh milk! + +"Magic is in her just as it is in Dickon," said Colin. "It makes her +think of ways to do things--nice things. She is a Magic person. Tell +her we are grateful, Dickon--extremely grateful." He was given to using +rather grown-up phrases at times. He enjoyed them. He liked this so +much that he improved upon it. + +"Tell her she has been most bounteous and our gratitude is extreme." + +And then forgetting his grandeur he fell to and stuffed himself with +buns and drank milk out of the pail in copious draughts in the manner +of any hungry little boy who had been taking unusual exercise and +breathing in moorland air and whose breakfast was more than two hours +behind him. + +This was the beginning of many agreeable incidents of the same kind. +They actually awoke to the fact that as Mrs. Sowerby had fourteen +people to provide food for she might not have enough to satisfy two +extra appetites every day. So they asked her to let them send some of +their shillings to buy things. + +Dickon made the stimulating discovery that in the wood in the park +outside the garden where Mary had first found him piping to the wild +creatures there was a deep little hollow where you could build a sort +of tiny oven with stones and roast potatoes and eggs in it. Roasted +eggs were a previously unknown luxury and very hot potatoes with salt +and fresh butter in them were fit for a woodland king--besides being +deliciously satisfying. You could buy both potatoes and eggs and eat +as many as you liked without feeling as if you were taking food out of +the mouths of fourteen people. + +Every beautiful morning the Magic was worked by the mystic circle under +the plum-tree which provided a canopy of thickening green leaves after +its brief blossom-time was ended. After the ceremony Colin always took +his walking exercise and throughout the day he exercised his newly +found power at intervals. Each day he grew stronger and could walk +more steadily and cover more ground. And each day his belief in the +Magic grew stronger--as well it might. He tried one experiment after +another as he felt himself gaining strength and it was Dickon who +showed him the best things of all. + +"Yesterday," he said one morning after an absence, "I went to Thwaite +for mother an' near th' Blue Cow Inn I seed Bob Haworth. He's the +strongest chap on th' moor. He's the champion wrestler an' he can jump +higher than any other chap an' throw th' hammer farther. He's gone all +th' way to Scotland for th' sports some years. He's knowed me ever +since I was a little 'un an' he's a friendly sort an' I axed him some +questions. Th' gentry calls him a athlete and I thought o' thee, +Mester Colin, and I says, 'How did tha' make tha' muscles stick out +that way, Bob? Did tha' do anythin' extra to make thysel' so strong?' +An' he says 'Well, yes, lad, I did. A strong man in a show that came +to Thwaite once showed me how to exercise my arms an' legs an' every +muscle in my body. An' I says, 'Could a delicate chap make himself +stronger with 'em, Bob?' an' he laughed an' says, 'Art tha' th' +delicate chap?' an' I says, 'No, but I knows a young gentleman that's +gettin' well of a long illness an' I wish I knowed some o' them tricks +to tell him about.' I didn't say no names an' he didn't ask none. He's +friendly same as I said an' he stood up an' showed me good-natured +like, an' I imitated what he did till I knowed it by heart." + +Colin had been listening excitedly. + +"Can you show me?" he cried. "Will you?" + +"Aye, to be sure," Dickon answered, getting up. "But he says tha' mun +do 'em gentle at first an' be careful not to tire thysel'. Rest in +between times an' take deep breaths an' don't overdo." + +"I'll be careful," said Colin. "Show me! Show me! Dickon, you are the +most Magic boy in the world!" + +Dickon stood up on the grass and slowly went through a carefully +practical but simple series of muscle exercises. Colin watched them +with widening eyes. He could do a few while he was sitting down. +Presently he did a few gently while he stood upon his already steadied +feet. Mary began to do them also. Soot, who was watching the +performance, became much disturbed and left his branch and hopped about +restlessly because he could not do them too. + +From that time the exercises were part of the day's duties as much as +the Magic was. It became possible for both Colin and Mary to do more +of them each time they tried, and such appetites were the results that +but for the basket Dickon put down behind the bush each morning when he +arrived they would have been lost. But the little oven in the hollow +and Mrs. Sowerby's bounties were so satisfying that Mrs. Medlock and +the nurse and Dr. Craven became mystified again. You can trifle with +your breakfast and seem to disdain your dinner if you are full to the +brim with roasted eggs and potatoes and richly frothed new milk and +oatcakes and buns and heather honey and clotted cream. + +"They are eating next to nothing," said the nurse. "They'll die of +starvation if they can't be persuaded to take some nourishment. And +yet see how they look." + +"Look!" exclaimed Mrs. Medlock indignantly. "Eh! I'm moithered to +death with them. They're a pair of young Satans. Bursting their +jackets one day and the next turning up their noses at the best meals +Cook can tempt them with. Not a mouthful of that lovely young fowl and +bread sauce did they set a fork into yesterday--and the poor woman fair +invented a pudding for them--and back it's sent. She almost cried. +She's afraid she'll be blamed if they starve themselves into their +graves." + +Dr. Craven came and looked at Colin long and carefully, He wore an +extremely worried expression when the nurse talked with him and showed +him the almost untouched tray of breakfast she had saved for him to +look at--but it was even more worried when he sat down by Colin's sofa +and examined him. He had been called to London on business and had not +seen the boy for nearly two weeks. When young things begin to gain +health they gain it rapidly. The waxen tinge had left, Colins skin and +a warm rose showed through it; his beautiful eyes were clear and the +hollows under them and in his cheeks and temples had filled out. His +once dark, heavy locks had begun to look as if they sprang healthily +from his forehead and were soft and warm with life. His lips were +fuller and of a normal color. In fact as an imitation of a boy who was +a confirmed invalid he was a disgraceful sight. Dr. Craven held his +chin in his hand and thought him over. + +"I am sorry to hear that you do not eat anything," he said. "That will +not do. You will lose all you have gained--and you have gained +amazingly. You ate so well a short time ago." + +"I told you it was an unnatural appetite," answered Colin. + +Mary was sitting on her stool nearby and she suddenly made a very queer +sound which she tried so violently to repress that she ended by almost +choking. + +"What is the matter?" said Dr. Craven, turning to look at her. + +Mary became quite severe in her manner. + +"It was something between a sneeze and a cough," she replied with +reproachful dignity, "and it got into my throat." + +"But," she said afterward to Colin, "I couldn't stop myself. It just +burst out because all at once I couldn't help remembering that last big +potato you ate and the way your mouth stretched when you bit through +that thick lovely crust with jam and clotted cream on it." + +"Is there any way in which those children can get food secretly?" Dr. +Craven inquired of Mrs. Medlock. + +"There's no way unless they dig it out of the earth or pick it off the +trees," Mrs. Medlock answered. "They stay out in the grounds all day +and see no one but each other. And if they want anything different to +eat from what's sent up to them they need only ask for it." + +"Well," said Dr. Craven, "so long as going without food agrees with +them we need not disturb ourselves. The boy is a new creature." + +"So is the girl," said Mrs. Medlock. "She's begun to be downright +pretty since she's filled out and lost her ugly little sour look. Her +hair's grown thick and healthy looking and she's got a bright color. +The glummest, ill-natured little thing she used to be and now her and +Master Colin laugh together like a pair of crazy young ones. Perhaps +they're growing fat on that." + +"Perhaps they are," said Dr. Craven. "Let them laugh." + + + + +CHAPTER XXV + +THE CURTAIN + + +And the secret garden bloomed and bloomed and every morning revealed +new miracles. In the robin's nest there were Eggs and the robin's mate +sat upon them keeping them warm with her feathery little breast and +careful wings. At first she was very nervous and the robin himself was +indignantly watchful. Even Dickon did not go near the close-grown +corner in those days, but waited until by the quiet working of some +mysterious spell he seemed to have conveyed to the soul of the little +pair that in the garden there was nothing which was not quite like +themselves--nothing which did not understand the wonderfulness of what +was happening to them--the immense, tender, terrible, heart-breaking +beauty and solemnity of Eggs. If there had been one person in that +garden who had not known through all his or her innermost being that if +an Egg were taken away or hurt the whole world would whirl round and +crash through space and come to an end--if there had been even one who +did not feel it and act accordingly there could have been no happiness +even in that golden springtime air. But they all knew it and felt it +and the robin and his mate knew they knew it. + +At first the robin watched Mary and Colin with sharp anxiety. For some +mysterious reason he knew he need not watch Dickon. The first moment +he set his dew-bright black eye on Dickon he knew he was not a stranger +but a sort of robin without beak or feathers. He could speak robin +(which is a quite distinct language not to be mistaken for any other). +To speak robin to a robin is like speaking French to a Frenchman. +Dickon always spoke it to the robin himself, so the queer gibberish he +used when he spoke to humans did not matter in the least. The robin +thought he spoke this gibberish to them because they were not +intelligent enough to understand feathered speech. His movements also +were robin. They never startled one by being sudden enough to seem +dangerous or threatening. Any robin could understand Dickon, so his +presence was not even disturbing. + +But at the outset it seemed necessary to be on guard against the other +two. In the first place the boy creature did not come into the garden +on his legs. He was pushed in on a thing with wheels and the skins of +wild animals were thrown over him. That in itself was doubtful. Then +when he began to stand up and move about he did it in a queer +unaccustomed way and the others seemed to have to help him. The robin +used to secrete himself in a bush and watch this anxiously, his head +tilted first on one side and then on the other. He thought that the +slow movements might mean that he was preparing to pounce, as cats do. +When cats are preparing to pounce they creep over the ground very +slowly. The robin talked this over with his mate a great deal for a +few days but after that he decided not to speak of the subject because +her terror was so great that he was afraid it might be injurious to the +Eggs. + +When the boy began to walk by himself and even to move more quickly it +was an immense relief. But for a long time--or it seemed a long time +to the robin--he was a source of some anxiety. He did not act as the +other humans did. He seemed very fond of walking but he had a way of +sitting or lying down for a while and then getting up in a +disconcerting manner to begin again. + +One day the robin remembered that when he himself had been made to +learn to fly by his parents he had done much the same sort of thing. +He had taken short flights of a few yards and then had been obliged to +rest. So it occurred to him that this boy was learning to fly--or +rather to walk. He mentioned this to his mate and when he told her +that the Eggs would probably conduct themselves in the same way after +they were fledged she was quite comforted and even became eagerly +interested and derived great pleasure from watching the boy over the +edge of her nest--though she always thought that the Eggs would be much +cleverer and learn more quickly. But then she said indulgently that +humans were always more clumsy and slow than Eggs and most of them +never seemed really to learn to fly at all. You never met them in the +air or on tree-tops. + +After a while the boy began to move about as the others did, but all +three of the children at times did unusual things. They would stand +under the trees and move their arms and legs and heads about in a way +which was neither walking nor running nor sitting down. They went +through these movements at intervals every day and the robin was never +able to explain to his mate what they were doing or tying to do. He +could only say that he was sure that the Eggs would never flap about in +such a manner; but as the boy who could speak robin so fluently was +doing the thing with them, birds could be quite sure that the actions +were not of a dangerous nature. Of course neither the robin nor his +mate had ever heard of the champion wrestler, Bob Haworth, and his +exercises for making the muscles stand out like lumps. Robins are not +like human beings; their muscles are always exercised from the first +and so they develop themselves in a natural manner. If you have to fly +about to find every meal you eat, your muscles do not become atrophied +(atrophied means wasted away through want of use). + +When the boy was walking and running about and digging and weeding like +the others, the nest in the corner was brooded over by a great peace +and content. Fears for the Eggs became things of the past. Knowing +that your Eggs were as safe as if they were locked in a bank vault and +the fact that you could watch so many curious things going on made +setting a most entertaining occupation. On wet days the Eggs' mother +sometimes felt even a little dull because the children did not come +into the garden. + +But even on wet days it could not be said that Mary and Colin were +dull. One morning when the rain streamed down unceasingly and Colin +was beginning to feel a little restive, as he was obliged to remain on +his sofa because it was not safe to get up and walk about, Mary had an +inspiration. + +"Now that I am a real boy," Colin had said, "my legs and arms and all +my body are so full of Magic that I can't keep them still. They want +to be doing things all the time. Do you know that when I waken in the +morning, Mary, when it's quite early and the birds are just shouting +outside and everything seems just shouting for joy--even the trees and +things we can't really hear--I feel as if I must jump out of bed and +shout myself. If I did it, just think what would happen!" + +Mary giggled inordinately. + +"The nurse would come running and Mrs. Medlock would come running and +they would be sure you had gone crazy and they'd send for the doctor," +she said. + +Colin giggled himself. He could see how they would all look--how +horrified by his outbreak and how amazed to see him standing upright. + +"I wish my father would come home," he said. "I want to tell him +myself. I'm always thinking about it--but we couldn't go on like this +much longer. I can't stand lying still and pretending, and besides I +look too different. I wish it wasn't raining today." + +It was then Mistress Mary had her inspiration. + +"Colin," she began mysteriously, "do you know how many rooms there are +in this house?" + +"About a thousand, I suppose," he answered. + +"There's about a hundred no one ever goes into," said Mary. "And one +rainy day I went and looked into ever so many of them. No one ever +knew, though Mrs. Medlock nearly found me out. I lost my way when I +was coming back and I stopped at the end of your corridor. That was +the second time I heard you crying." + +Colin started up on his sofa. + +"A hundred rooms no one goes into," he said. "It sounds almost like a +secret garden. Suppose we go and look at them. Wheel me in my chair +and nobody would know we went." + +"That's what I was thinking," said Mary. "No one would dare to follow +us. There are galleries where you could run. We could do our +exercises. There is a little Indian room where there is a cabinet full +of ivory elephants. There are all sorts of rooms." + +"Ring the bell," said Colin. + +When the nurse came in he gave his orders. + +"I want my chair," he said. "Miss Mary and I are going to look at the +part of the house which is not used. John can push me as far as the +picture-gallery because there are some stairs. Then he must go away +and leave us alone until I send for him again." + +Rainy days lost their terrors that morning. When the footman had +wheeled the chair into the picture-gallery and left the two together in +obedience to orders, Colin and Mary looked at each other delighted. As +soon as Mary had made sure that John was really on his way back to his +own quarters below stairs, Colin got out of his chair. + +"I am going to run from one end of the gallery to the other," he said, +"and then I am going to jump and then we will do Bob Haworth's +exercises." + +And they did all these things and many others. They looked at the +portraits and found the plain little girl dressed in green brocade and +holding the parrot on her finger. + +"All these," said Colin, "must be my relations. They lived a long time +ago. That parrot one, I believe, is one of my great, great, great, +great aunts. She looks rather like you, Mary--not as you look now but +as you looked when you came here. Now you are a great deal fatter and +better looking." + +"So are you," said Mary, and they both laughed. + +They went to the Indian room and amused themselves with the ivory +elephants. They found the rose-colored brocade boudoir and the hole in +the cushion the mouse had left, but the mice had grown up and run away +and the hole was empty. They saw more rooms and made more discoveries +than Mary had made on her first pilgrimage. They found new corridors +and corners and flights of steps and new old pictures they liked and +weird old things they did not know the use of. It was a curiously +entertaining morning and the feeling of wandering about in the same +house with other people but at the same time feeling as if one were +miles away from them was a fascinating thing. + +"I'm glad we came," Colin said. "I never knew I lived in such a big +queer old place. I like it. We will ramble about every rainy day. We +shall always be finding new queer corners and things." + +That morning they had found among other things such good appetites that +when they returned to Colin's room it was not possible to send the +luncheon away untouched. + +When the nurse carried the tray down-stairs she slapped it down on the +kitchen dresser so that Mrs. Loomis, the cook, could see the highly +polished dishes and plates. + +"Look at that!" she said. "This is a house of mystery, and those two +children are the greatest mysteries in it." + +"If they keep that up every day," said the strong young footman John, +"there'd be small wonder that he weighs twice as much to-day as he did +a month ago. I should have to give up my place in time, for fear of +doing my muscles an injury." + +That afternoon Mary noticed that something new had happened in Colin's +room. She had noticed it the day before but had said nothing because +she thought the change might have been made by chance. She said +nothing today but she sat and looked fixedly at the picture over the +mantel. She could look at it because the curtain had been drawn aside. +That was the change she noticed. + +"I know what you want me to tell you," said Colin, after she had stared +a few minutes. "I always know when you want me to tell you something. +You are wondering why the curtain is drawn back. I am going to keep it +like that." + +"Why?" asked Mary. + +"Because it doesn't make me angry any more to see her laughing. I +wakened when it was bright moonlight two nights ago and felt as if the +Magic was filling the room and making everything so splendid that I +couldn't lie still. I got up and looked out of the window. The room +was quite light and there was a patch of moonlight on the curtain and +somehow that made me go and pull the cord. She looked right down at me +as if she were laughing because she was glad I was standing there. It +made me like to look at her. I want to see her laughing like that all +the time. I think she must have been a sort of Magic person perhaps." + +"You are so like her now," said Mary, "that sometimes I think perhaps +you are her ghost made into a boy." + +That idea seemed to impress Colin. He thought it over and then +answered her slowly. + +"If I were her ghost--my father would be fond of me." + +"Do you want him to be fond of you?" inquired Mary. + +"I used to hate it because he was not fond of me. If he grew fond of +me I think I should tell him about the Magic. It might make him more +cheerful." + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + +"IT'S MOTHER!" + + +Their belief in the Magic was an abiding thing. After the morning's +incantations Colin sometimes gave them Magic lectures. + +"I like to do it," he explained, "because when I grow up and make great +scientific discoveries I shall be obliged to lecture about them and so +this is practise. I can only give short lectures now because I am very +young, and besides Ben Weatherstaff would feel as if he were in church +and he would go to sleep." + +"Th' best thing about lecturin'," said Ben, "is that a chap can get up +an' say aught he pleases an' no other chap can answer him back. I +wouldn't be agen' lecturin' a bit mysel' sometimes." + +But when Colin held forth under his tree old Ben fixed devouring eyes +on him and kept them there. He looked him over with critical +affection. It was not so much the lecture which interested him as the +legs which looked straighter and stronger each day, the boyish head +which held itself up so well, the once sharp chin and hollow cheeks +which had filled and rounded out and the eyes which had begun to hold +the light he remembered in another pair. Sometimes when Colin felt +Ben's earnest gaze meant that he was much impressed he wondered what he +was reflecting on and once when he had seemed quite entranced he +questioned him. + +"What are you thinking about, Ben Weatherstaff?" he asked. + +"I was thinkin'" answered Ben, "as I'd warrant tha's, gone up three or +four pound this week. I was lookin' at tha' calves an' tha' shoulders. +I'd like to get thee on a pair o' scales." + +"It's the Magic and--and Mrs. Sowerby's buns and milk and things," said +Colin. "You see the scientific experiment has succeeded." + +That morning Dickon was too late to hear the lecture. When he came he +was ruddy with running and his funny face looked more twinkling than +usual. As they had a good deal of weeding to do after the rains they +fell to work. They always had plenty to do after a warm deep sinking +rain. The moisture which was good for the flowers was also good for +the weeds which thrust up tiny blades of grass and points of leaves +which must be pulled up before their roots took too firm hold. Colin +was as good at weeding as any one in these days and he could lecture +while he was doing it. "The Magic works best when you work, yourself," +he said this morning. "You can feel it in your bones and muscles. I +am going to read books about bones and muscles, but I am going to write +a book about Magic. I am making it up now. I keep finding out things." + +It was not very long after he had said this that he laid down his +trowel and stood up on his feet. He had been silent for several +minutes and they had seen that he was thinking out lectures, as he +often did. When he dropped his trowel and stood upright it seemed to +Mary and Dickon as if a sudden strong thought had made him do it. He +stretched himself out to his tallest height and he threw out his arms +exultantly. Color glowed in his face and his strange eyes widened with +joyfulness. All at once he had realized something to the full. + +"Mary! Dickon!" he cried. "Just look at me!" + +They stopped their weeding and looked at him. + +"Do you remember that first morning you brought me in here?" he +demanded. + +Dickon was looking at him very hard. Being an animal charmer he could +see more things than most people could and many of them were things he +never talked about. He saw some of them now in this boy. "Aye, that +we do," he answered. + +Mary looked hard too, but she said nothing. + +"Just this minute," said Colin, "all at once I remembered it +myself--when I looked at my hand digging with the trowel--and I had to +stand up on my feet to see if it was real. And it is real! I'm +well--I'm well!" + +"Aye, that th' art!" said Dickon. + +"I'm well! I'm well!" said Colin again, and his face went quite red all +over. + +He had known it before in a way, he had hoped it and felt it and +thought about it, but just at that minute something had rushed all +through him--a sort of rapturous belief and realization and it had been +so strong that he could not help calling out. + +"I shall live forever and ever and ever!" he cried grandly. "I shall +find out thousands and thousands of things. I shall find out about +people and creatures and everything that grows--like Dickon--and I +shall never stop making Magic. I'm well! I'm well! I feel--I feel as +if I want to shout out something--something thankful, joyful!" + +Ben Weatherstaff, who had been working near a rose-bush, glanced round +at him. + +"Tha' might sing th' Doxology," he suggested in his dryest grunt. He +had no opinion of the Doxology and he did not make the suggestion with +any particular reverence. + +But Colin was of an exploring mind and he knew nothing about the +Doxology. + +"What is that?" he inquired. + +"Dickon can sing it for thee, I'll warrant," replied Ben Weatherstaff. + +Dickon answered with his all-perceiving animal charmer's smile. + +"They sing it i' church," he said. "Mother says she believes th' +skylarks sings it when they gets up i' th' mornin'." + +"If she says that, it must be a nice song," Colin answered. "I've +never been in a church myself. I was always too ill. Sing it, Dickon. +I want to hear it." + +Dickon was quite simple and unaffected about it. He understood what +Colin felt better than Colin did himself. He understood by a sort of +instinct so natural that he did not know it was understanding. He +pulled off his cap and looked round still smiling. + +"Tha' must take off tha' cap," he said to Colin, "an' so mun tha', +Ben--an' tha' mun stand up, tha' knows." + +Colin took off his cap and the sun shone on and warmed his thick hair +as he watched Dickon intently. Ben Weatherstaff scrambled up from his +knees and bared his head too with a sort of puzzled half-resentful look +on his old face as if he didn't know exactly why he was doing this +remarkable thing. + +Dickon stood out among the trees and rose-bushes and began to sing in +quite a simple matter-of-fact way and in a nice strong boy voice: + + "Praise God from whom all blessings flow, + Praise Him all creatures here below, + Praise Him above ye Heavenly Host, + Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. + Amen." + +When he had finished, Ben Weatherstaff was standing quite still with +his jaws set obstinately but with a disturbed look in his eyes fixed on +Colin. Colin's face was thoughtful and appreciative. + +"It is a very nice song," he said. "I like it. Perhaps it means just +what I mean when I want to shout out that I am thankful to the Magic." +He stopped and thought in a puzzled way. "Perhaps they are both the +same thing. How can we know the exact names of everything? Sing it +again, Dickon. Let us try, Mary. I want to sing it, too. It's my +song. How does it begin? 'Praise God from whom all blessings flow'?" + +And they sang it again, and Mary and Colin lifted their voices as +musically as they could and Dickon's swelled quite loud and +beautiful--and at the second line Ben Weatherstaff raspingly cleared +his throat and at the third line he joined in with such vigor that it +seemed almost savage and when the "Amen" came to an end Mary observed +that the very same thing had happened to him which had happened when he +found out that Colin was not a cripple--his chin was twitching and he +was staring and winking and his leathery old cheeks were wet. + +"I never seed no sense in th' Doxology afore," he said hoarsely, "but I +may change my mind i' time. I should say tha'd gone up five pound this +week Mester Colin--five on 'em!" + +Colin was looking across the garden at something attracting his +attention and his expression had become a startled one. + +"Who is coming in here?" he said quickly. "Who is it?" + +The door in the ivied wall had been pushed gently open and a woman had +entered. She had come in with the last line of their song and she had +stood still listening and looking at them. With the ivy behind her, +the sunlight drifting through the trees and dappling her long blue +cloak, and her nice fresh face smiling across the greenery she was +rather like a softly colored illustration in one of Colin's books. She +had wonderful affectionate eyes which seemed to take everything in--all +of them, even Ben Weatherstaff and the "creatures" and every flower +that was in bloom. Unexpectedly as she had appeared, not one of them +felt that she was an intruder at all. Dickon's eyes lighted like lamps. + +"It's mother--that's who it is!" he cried and went across the grass at +a run. + +Colin began to move toward her, too, and Mary went with him. They both +felt their pulses beat faster. + +"It's mother!" Dickon said again when they met halfway. "I knowed tha' +wanted to see her an' I told her where th' door was hid." + +Colin held out his hand with a sort of flushed royal shyness but his +eyes quite devoured her face. + +"Even when I was ill I wanted to see you," he said, "you and Dickon and +the secret garden. I'd never wanted to see any one or anything before." + +The sight of his uplifted face brought about a sudden change in her +own. She flushed and the corners of her mouth shook and a mist seemed +to sweep over her eyes. + +"Eh! dear lad!" she broke out tremulously. "Eh! dear lad!" as if she +had not known she were going to say it. She did not say, "Mester +Colin," but just "dear lad" quite suddenly. She might have said it to +Dickon in the same way if she had seen something in his face which +touched her. Colin liked it. + +"Are you surprised because I am so well?" he asked. She put her hand +on his shoulder and smiled the mist out of her eyes. "Aye, that I am!" +she said; "but tha'rt so like thy mother tha' made my heart jump." + +"Do you think," said Colin a little awkwardly, "that will make my +father like me?" + +"Aye, for sure, dear lad," she answered and she gave his shoulder a +soft quick pat. "He mun come home--he mun come home." + +"Susan Sowerby," said Ben Weatherstaff, getting close to her. "Look at +th' lad's legs, wilt tha'? They was like drumsticks i' stockin' two +month' ago--an' I heard folk tell as they was bandy an' knock-kneed +both at th' same time. Look at 'em now!" + +Susan Sowerby laughed a comfortable laugh. + +"They're goin' to be fine strong lad's legs in a bit," she said. "Let +him go on playin' an' workin' in the garden an' eatin' hearty an' +drinkin' plenty o' good sweet milk an' there'll not be a finer pair i' +Yorkshire, thank God for it." + +She put both hands on Mistress Mary's shoulders and looked her little +face over in a motherly fashion. + +"An' thee, too!" she said. "Tha'rt grown near as hearty as our +'Lisabeth Ellen. I'll warrant tha'rt like thy mother too. Our Martha +told me as Mrs. Medlock heard she was a pretty woman. Tha'lt be like a +blush rose when tha' grows up, my little lass, bless thee." + +She did not mention that when Martha came home on her "day out" and +described the plain sallow child she had said that she had no +confidence whatever in what Mrs. Medlock had heard. "It doesn't stand +to reason that a pretty woman could be th' mother o' such a fou' little +lass," she had added obstinately. + +Mary had not had time to pay much attention to her changing face. She +had only known that she looked "different" and seemed to have a great +deal more hair and that it was growing very fast. But remembering her +pleasure in looking at the Mem Sahib in the past she was glad to hear +that she might some day look like her. + +Susan Sowerby went round their garden with them and was told the whole +story of it and shown every bush and tree which had come alive. Colin +walked on one side of her and Mary on the other. Each of them kept +looking up at her comfortable rosy face, secretly curious about the +delightful feeling she gave them--a sort of warm, supported feeling. +It seemed as if she understood them as Dickon understood his +"creatures." She stooped over the flowers and talked about them as if +they were children. Soot followed her and once or twice cawed at her +and flew upon her shoulder as if it were Dickon's. When they told her +about the robin and the first flight of the young ones she laughed a +motherly little mellow laugh in her throat. + +"I suppose learnin' 'em to fly is like learnin' children to walk, but +I'm feared I should be all in a worrit if mine had wings instead o' +legs," she said. + +It was because she seemed such a wonderful woman in her nice moorland +cottage way that at last she was told about the Magic. + +"Do you believe in Magic?" asked Colin after he had explained about +Indian fakirs. "I do hope you do." + +"That I do, lad," she answered. "I never knowed it by that name but +what does th' name matter? I warrant they call it a different name i' +France an' a different one i' Germany. Th' same thing as set th' seeds +swellin' an' th' sun shinin' made thee a well lad an' it's th' Good +Thing. It isn't like us poor fools as think it matters if us is called +out of our names. Th' Big Good Thing doesn't stop to worrit, bless +thee. It goes on makin' worlds by th' million--worlds like us. Never +thee stop believin' in th' Big Good Thing an' knowin' th' world's full +of it--an' call it what tha' likes. Tha' wert singin' to it when I +come into th' garden." + +"I felt so joyful," said Colin, opening his beautiful strange eyes at +her. "Suddenly I felt how different I was--how strong my arms and legs +were, you know--and how I could dig and stand--and I jumped up and +wanted to shout out something to anything that would listen." + +"Th' Magic listened when tha' sung th' Doxology. It would ha' listened +to anything tha'd sung. It was th' joy that mattered. Eh! lad, +lad--what's names to th' Joy Maker," and she gave his shoulders a quick +soft pat again. + +She had packed a basket which held a regular feast this morning, and +when the hungry hour came and Dickon brought it out from its hiding +place, she sat down with them under their tree and watched them devour +their food, laughing and quite gloating over their appetites. She was +full of fun and made them laugh at all sorts of odd things. She told +them stories in broad Yorkshire and taught them new words. She laughed +as if she could not help it when they told her of the increasing +difficulty there was in pretending that Colin was still a fretful +invalid. + +"You see we can't help laughing nearly all the time when we are +together," explained Colin. "And it doesn't sound ill at all. We try +to choke it back but it will burst out and that sounds worse than ever." + +"There's one thing that comes into my mind so often," said Mary, "and I +can scarcely ever hold in when I think of it suddenly. I keep thinking +suppose Colin's face should get to look like a full moon. It isn't +like one yet but he gets a tiny bit fatter every day--and suppose some +morning it should look like one--what should we do!" + +"Bless us all, I can see tha' has a good bit o' play actin' to do," +said Susan Sowerby. "But tha' won't have to keep it up much longer. +Mester Craven'll come home." + +"Do you think he will?" asked Colin. "Why?" + +Susan Sowerby chuckled softly. + +"I suppose it 'ud nigh break thy heart if he found out before tha' told +him in tha' own way," she said. "Tha's laid awake nights plannin' it." + +"I couldn't bear any one else to tell him," said Colin. "I think about +different ways every day, I think now I just want to run into his +room." "That'd be a fine start for him," said Susan Sowerby. "I'd like +to see his face, lad. I would that! He mun come back--that he mun." + +One of the things they talked of was the visit they were to make to her +cottage. They planned it all. They were to drive over the moor and +lunch out of doors among the heather. They would see all the twelve +children and Dickon's garden and would not come back until they were +tired. + +Susan Sowerby got up at last to return to the house and Mrs. Medlock. +It was time for Colin to be wheeled back also. But before he got into +his chair he stood quite close to Susan and fixed his eyes on her with +a kind of bewildered adoration and he suddenly caught hold of the fold +of her blue cloak and held it fast. + +"You are just what I--what I wanted," he said. "I wish you were my +mother--as well as Dickon's!" + +All at once Susan Sowerby bent down and drew him with her warm arms +close against the bosom under the blue cloak--as if he had been +Dickon's brother. The quick mist swept over her eyes. + +"Eh! dear lad!" she said. "Thy own mother's in this 'ere very garden, +I do believe. She couldna' keep out of it. Thy father mun come back +to thee--he mun!" + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + +IN THE GARDEN + + +In each century since the beginning of the world wonderful things have +been discovered. In the last century more amazing things were found +out than in any century before. In this new century hundreds of things +still more astounding will be brought to light. At first people refuse +to believe that a strange new thing can be done, then they begin to +hope it can be done, then they see it can be done--then it is done and +all the world wonders why it was not done centuries ago. One of the +new things people began to find out in the last century was that +thoughts--just mere thoughts--are as powerful as electric batteries--as +good for one as sunlight is, or as bad for one as poison. To let a sad +thought or a bad one get into your mind is as dangerous as letting a +scarlet fever germ get into your body. If you let it stay there after +it has got in you may never get over it as long as you live. + +So long as Mistress Mary's mind was full of disagreeable thoughts about +her dislikes and sour opinions of people and her determination not to +be pleased by or interested in anything, she was a yellow-faced, +sickly, bored and wretched child. Circumstances, however, were very +kind to her, though she was not at all aware of it. They began to push +her about for her own good. When her mind gradually filled itself with +robins, and moorland cottages crowded with children, with queer crabbed +old gardeners and common little Yorkshire housemaids, with springtime +and with secret gardens coming alive day by day, and also with a moor +boy and his "creatures," there was no room left for the disagreeable +thoughts which affected her liver and her digestion and made her yellow +and tired. + +So long as Colin shut himself up in his room and thought only of his +fears and weakness and his detestation of people who looked at him and +reflected hourly on humps and early death, he was a hysterical +half-crazy little hypochondriac who knew nothing of the sunshine and +the spring and also did not know that he could get well and could stand +upon his feet if he tried to do it. When new beautiful thoughts began +to push out the old hideous ones, life began to come back to him, his +blood ran healthily through his veins and strength poured into him like +a flood. His scientific experiment was quite practical and simple and +there was nothing weird about it at all. Much more surprising things +can happen to any one who, when a disagreeable or discouraged thought +comes into his mind, just has the sense to remember in time and push it +out by putting in an agreeable determinedly courageous one. Two things +cannot be in one place. + + "Where, you tend a rose, my lad, + A thistle cannot grow." + +While the secret garden was coming alive and two children were coming +alive with it, there was a man wandering about certain far-away +beautiful places in the Norwegian fiords and the valleys and mountains +of Switzerland and he was a man who for ten years had kept his mind +filled with dark and heart-broken thinking. He had not been +courageous; he had never tried to put any other thoughts in the place +of the dark ones. He had wandered by blue lakes and thought them; he +had lain on mountain-sides with sheets of deep blue gentians blooming +all about him and flower breaths filling all the air and he had thought +them. A terrible sorrow had fallen upon him when he had been happy and +he had let his soul fill itself with blackness and had refused +obstinately to allow any rift of light to pierce through. He had +forgotten and deserted his home and his duties. When he traveled +about, darkness so brooded over him that the sight of him was a wrong +done to other people because it was as if he poisoned the air about him +with gloom. Most strangers thought he must be either half mad or a man +with some hidden crime on his soul. He, was a tall man with a drawn +face and crooked shoulders and the name he always entered on hotel +registers was, "Archibald Craven, Misselthwaite Manor, Yorkshire, +England." + +He had traveled far and wide since the day he saw Mistress Mary in his +study and told her she might have her "bit of earth." He had been in +the most beautiful places in Europe, though he had remained nowhere +more than a few days. He had chosen the quietest and remotest spots. +He had been on the tops of mountains whose heads were in the clouds and +had looked down on other mountains when the sun rose and touched them +with such light as made it seem as if the world were just being born. + +But the light had never seemed to touch himself until one day when he +realized that for the first time in ten years a strange thing had +happened. He was in a wonderful valley in the Austrian Tyrol and he +had been walking alone through such beauty as might have lifted, any +man's soul out of shadow. He had walked a long way and it had not +lifted his. But at last he had felt tired and had thrown himself down +to rest on a carpet of moss by a stream. It was a clear little stream +which ran quite merrily along on its narrow way through the luscious +damp greenness. Sometimes it made a sound rather like very low +laughter as it bubbled over and round stones. He saw birds come and +dip their heads to drink in it and then flick their wings and fly away. +It seemed like a thing alive and yet its tiny voice made the stillness +seem deeper. The valley was very, very still. + +As he sat gazing into the clear running of the water, Archibald Craven +gradually felt his mind and body both grow quiet, as quiet as the +valley itself. He wondered if he were going to sleep, but he was not. +He sat and gazed at the sunlit water and his eyes began to see things +growing at its edge. There was one lovely mass of blue forget-me-nots +growing so close to the stream that its leaves were wet and at these he +found himself looking as he remembered he had looked at such things +years ago. He was actually thinking tenderly how lovely it was and +what wonders of blue its hundreds of little blossoms were. He did not +know that just that simple thought was slowly filling his mind--filling +and filling it until other things were softly pushed aside. It was as +if a sweet clear spring had begun to rise in a stagnant pool and had +risen and risen until at last it swept the dark water away. But of +course he did not think of this himself. He only knew that the valley +seemed to grow quieter and quieter as he sat and stared at the bright +delicate blueness. He did not know how long he sat there or what was +happening to him, but at last he moved as if he were awakening and he +got up slowly and stood on the moss carpet, drawing a long, deep, soft +breath and wondering at himself. Something seemed to have been unbound +and released in him, very quietly. + +"What is it?" he said, almost in a whisper, and he passed his hand over +his forehead. "I almost feel as if--I were alive!" + +I do not know enough about the wonderfulness of undiscovered things to +be able to explain how this had happened to him. Neither does any one +else yet. He did not understand at all himself--but he remembered this +strange hour months afterward when he was at Misselthwaite again and he +found out quite by accident that on this very day Colin had cried out +as he went into the secret garden: + +"I am going to live forever and ever and ever!" + +The singular calmness remained with him the rest of the evening and he +slept a new reposeful sleep; but it was not with him very long. He did +not know that it could be kept. By the next night he had opened the +doors wide to his dark thoughts and they had come trooping and rushing +back. He left the valley and went on his wandering way again. But, +strange as it seemed to him, there were minutes--sometimes +half-hours--when, without his knowing why, the black burden seemed to +lift itself again and he knew he was a living man and not a dead one. +Slowly--slowly--for no reason that he knew of--he was "coming alive" +with the garden. + +As the golden summer changed into the deep golden autumn he went to the +Lake of Como. There he found the loveliness of a dream. He spent his +days upon the crystal blueness of the lake or he walked back into the +soft thick verdure of the hills and tramped until he was tired so that +he might sleep. But by this time he had begun to sleep better, he +knew, and his dreams had ceased to be a terror to him. + +"Perhaps," he thought, "my body is growing stronger." + +It was growing stronger but--because of the rare peaceful hours when +his thoughts were changed--his soul was slowly growing stronger, too. +He began to think of Misselthwaite and wonder if he should not go home. +Now and then he wondered vaguely about his boy and asked himself what +he should feel when he went and stood by the carved four-posted bed +again and looked down at the sharply chiseled ivory-white face while it +slept and, the black lashes rimmed so startlingly the close-shut eyes. +He shrank from it. + +One marvel of a day he had walked so far that when he returned the moon +was high and full and all the world was purple shadow and silver. The +stillness of lake and shore and wood was so wonderful that he did not +go into the villa he lived in. He walked down to a little bowered +terrace at the water's edge and sat upon a seat and breathed in all the +heavenly scents of the night. He felt the strange calmness stealing +over him and it grew deeper and deeper until he fell asleep. + +He did not know when he fell asleep and when he began to dream; his +dream was so real that he did not feel as if he were dreaming. He +remembered afterward how intensely wide awake and alert he had thought +he was. He thought that as he sat and breathed in the scent of the +late roses and listened to the lapping of the water at his feet he +heard a voice calling. It was sweet and clear and happy and far away. +It seemed very far, but he heard it as distinctly as if it had been at +his very side. + +"Archie! Archie! Archie!" it said, and then again, sweeter and clearer +than before, "Archie! Archie!" + +He thought he sprang to his feet not even startled. It was such a real +voice and it seemed so natural that he should hear it. + +"Lilias! Lilias!" he answered. "Lilias! where are you?" + +"In the garden," it came back like a sound from a golden flute. "In +the garden!" + +And then the dream ended. But he did not awaken. He slept soundly and +sweetly all through the lovely night. When he did awake at last it was +brilliant morning and a servant was standing staring at him. He was an +Italian servant and was accustomed, as all the servants of the villa +were, to accepting without question any strange thing his foreign +master might do. No one ever knew when he would go out or come in or +where he would choose to sleep or if he would roam about the garden or +lie in the boat on the lake all night. The man held a salver with some +letters on it and he waited quietly until Mr. Craven took them. When +he had gone away Mr. Craven sat a few moments holding them in his hand +and looking at the lake. His strange calm was still upon him and +something more--a lightness as if the cruel thing which had been done +had not happened as he thought--as if something had changed. He was +remembering the dream--the real--real dream. + +"In the garden!" he said, wondering at himself. "In the garden! But +the door is locked and the key is buried deep." + +When he glanced at the letters a few minutes later he saw that the one +lying at the top of the rest was an English letter and came from +Yorkshire. It was directed in a plain woman's hand but it was not a +hand he knew. He opened it, scarcely thinking of the writer, but the +first words attracted his attention at once. + + +"Dear Sir: + +I am Susan Sowerby that made bold to speak to you once on the moor. It +was about Miss Mary I spoke. I will make bold to speak again. Please, +sir, I would come home if I was you. I think you would be glad to come +and--if you will excuse me, sir--I think your lady would ask you to +come if she was here. + + Your obedient servant, + Susan Sowerby." + + +Mr. Craven read the letter twice before he put it back in its envelope. +He kept thinking about the dream. + +"I will go back to Misselthwaite," he said. "Yes, I'll go at once." + +And he went through the garden to the villa and ordered Pitcher to +prepare for his return to England. + + +In a few days he was in Yorkshire again, and on his long railroad +journey he found himself thinking of his boy as he had never thought in +all the ten years past. During those years he had only wished to +forget him. Now, though he did not intend to think about him, memories +of him constantly drifted into his mind. He remembered the black days +when he had raved like a madman because the child was alive and the +mother was dead. He had refused to see it, and when he had gone to +look at it at last it had been, such a weak wretched thing that +everyone had been sure it would die in a few days. But to the surprise +of those who took care of it the days passed and it lived and then +everyone believed it would be a deformed and crippled creature. + +He had not meant to be a bad father, but he had not felt like a father +at all. He had supplied doctors and nurses and luxuries, but he had +shrunk from the mere thought of the boy and had buried himself in his +own misery. The first time after a year's absence he returned to +Misselthwaite and the small miserable looking thing languidly and +indifferently lifted to his face the great gray eyes with black lashes +round them, so like and yet so horribly unlike the happy eyes he had +adored, he could not bear the sight of them and turned away pale as +death. After that he scarcely ever saw him except when he was asleep, +and all he knew of him was that he was a confirmed invalid, with a +vicious, hysterical, half-insane temper. He could only be kept from +furies dangerous to himself by being given his own way in every detail. + +All this was not an uplifting thing to recall, but as the train whirled +him through mountain passes and golden plains the man who was "coming +alive" began to think in a new way and he thought long and steadily and +deeply. + +"Perhaps I have been all wrong for ten years," he said to himself. +"Ten years is a long time. It may be too late to do anything--quite +too late. What have I been thinking of!" + +Of course this was the wrong Magic--to begin by saying "too late." Even +Colin could have told him that. But he knew nothing of Magic--either +black or white. This he had yet to learn. He wondered if Susan +Sowerby had taken courage and written to him only because the motherly +creature had realized that the boy was much worse--was fatally ill. If +he had not been under the spell of the curious calmness which had taken +possession of him he would have been more wretched than ever. But the +calm had brought a sort of courage and hope with it. Instead of giving +way to thoughts of the worst he actually found he was trying to believe +in better things. + +"Could it be possible that she sees that I may be able to do him good +and control him?" he thought. "I will go and see her on my way to +Misselthwaite." + +But when on his way across the moor he stopped the carriage at the +cottage, seven or eight children who were playing about gathered in a +group and bobbing seven or eight friendly and polite curtsies told him +that their mother had gone to the other side of the moor early in the +morning to help a woman who had a new baby. "Our Dickon," they +volunteered, was over at the Manor working in one of the gardens where +he went several days each week. + +Mr. Craven looked over the collection of sturdy little bodies and round +red-cheeked faces, each one grinning in its own particular way, and he +awoke to the fact that they were a healthy likable lot. He smiled at +their friendly grins and took a golden sovereign from his pocket and +gave it to "our 'Lizabeth Ellen" who was the oldest. + +"If you divide that into eight parts there will be half a crown for +each of, you," he said. + +Then amid grins and chuckles and bobbing of curtsies he drove away, +leaving ecstasy and nudging elbows and little jumps of joy behind. + +The drive across the wonderfulness of the moor was a soothing thing. +Why did it seem to give him a sense of homecoming which he had been +sure he could never feel again--that sense of the beauty of land and +sky and purple bloom of distance and a warming of the heart at drawing, +nearer to the great old house which had held those of his blood for six +hundred years? How he had driven away from it the last time, shuddering +to think of its closed rooms and the boy lying in the four-posted bed +with the brocaded hangings. Was it possible that perhaps he might find +him changed a little for the better and that he might overcome his +shrinking from him? How real that dream had been--how wonderful and +clear the voice which called back to him, "In the garden--In the +garden!" + +"I will try to find the key," he said. "I will try to open the door. +I must--though I don't know why." + +When he arrived at the Manor the servants who received him with the +usual ceremony noticed that he looked better and that he did not go to +the remote rooms where he usually lived attended by Pitcher. He went +into the library and sent for Mrs. Medlock. She came to him somewhat +excited and curious and flustered. + +"How is Master Colin, Medlock?" he inquired. "Well, sir," Mrs. Medlock +answered, "he's--he's different, in a manner of speaking." + +"Worse?" he suggested. + +Mrs. Medlock really was flushed. + +"Well, you see, sir," she tried to explain, "neither Dr. Craven, nor +the nurse, nor me can exactly make him out." + +"Why is that?" + +"To tell the truth, sir, Master Colin might be better and he might be +changing for the worse. His appetite, sir, is past understanding--and +his ways--" + +"Has he become more--more peculiar?" her master, asked, knitting his +brows anxiously. + +"That's it, sir. He's growing very peculiar--when you compare him with +what he used to be. He used to eat nothing and then suddenly he began +to eat something enormous--and then he stopped again all at once and +the meals were sent back just as they used to be. You never knew, sir, +perhaps, that out of doors he never would let himself be taken. The +things we've gone through to get him to go out in his chair would leave +a body trembling like a leaf. He'd throw himself into such a state +that Dr. Craven said he couldn't be responsible for forcing him. Well, +sir, just without warning--not long after one of his worst tantrums he +suddenly insisted on being taken out every day by Miss Mary and Susan +Sowerby's boy Dickon that could push his chair. He took a fancy to +both Miss Mary and Dickon, and Dickon brought his tame animals, and, if +you'll credit it, sir, out of doors he will stay from morning until +night." + +"How does he look?" was the next question. + +"If he took his food natural, sir, you'd think he was putting on +flesh--but we're afraid it may be a sort of bloat. He laughs sometimes +in a queer way when he's alone with Miss Mary. He never used to laugh +at all. Dr. Craven is coming to see you at once, if you'll allow him. +He never was as puzzled in his life." + +"Where is Master Colin now?" Mr. Craven asked. + +"In the garden, sir. He's always in the garden--though not a human +creature is allowed to go near for fear they'll look at him." + +Mr. Craven scarcely heard her last words. + +"In the garden," he said, and after he had sent Mrs. Medlock away he +stood and repeated it again and again. "In the garden!" + +He had to make an effort to bring himself back to the place he was +standing in and when he felt he was on earth again he turned and went +out of the room. He took his way, as Mary had done, through the door +in the shrubbery and among the laurels and the fountain beds. The +fountain was playing now and was encircled by beds of brilliant autumn +flowers. He crossed the lawn and turned into the Long Walk by the +ivied walls. He did not walk quickly, but slowly, and his eyes were on +the path. He felt as if he were being drawn back to the place he had +so long forsaken, and he did not know why. As he drew near to it his +step became still more slow. He knew where the door was even though +the ivy hung thick over it--but he did not know exactly where it +lay--that buried key. + +So he stopped and stood still, looking about him, and almost the moment +after he had paused he started and listened--asking himself if he were +walking in a dream. + +The ivy hung thick over the door, the key was buried under the shrubs, +no human being had passed that portal for ten lonely years--and yet +inside the garden there were sounds. They were the sounds of running +scuffling feet seeming to chase round and round under the trees, they +were strange sounds of lowered suppressed voices--exclamations and +smothered joyous cries. It seemed actually like the laughter of young +things, the uncontrollable laughter of children who were trying not to +be heard but who in a moment or so--as their excitement mounted--would +burst forth. What in heaven's name was he dreaming of--what in +heaven's name did he hear? Was he losing his reason and thinking he +heard things which were not for human ears? Was it that the far clear +voice had meant? + +And then the moment came, the uncontrollable moment when the sounds +forgot to hush themselves. The feet ran faster and faster--they were +nearing the garden door--there was quick strong young breathing and a +wild outbreak of laughing shows which could not be contained--and the +door in the wall was flung wide open, the sheet of ivy swinging back, +and a boy burst through it at full speed and, without seeing the +outsider, dashed almost into his arms. + +Mr. Craven had extended them just in time to save him from falling as a +result of his unseeing dash against him, and when he held him away to +look at him in amazement at his being there he truly gasped for breath. + +He was a tall boy and a handsome one. He was glowing with life and his +running had sent splendid color leaping to his face. He threw the +thick hair back from his forehead and lifted a pair of strange gray +eyes--eyes full of boyish laughter and rimmed with black lashes like a +fringe. It was the eyes which made Mr. Craven gasp for breath. +"Who--What? Who!" he stammered. + +This was not what Colin had expected--this was not what he had planned. +He had never thought of such a meeting. And yet to come dashing +out--winning a race--perhaps it was even better. He drew himself up to +his very tallest. Mary, who had been running with him and had dashed +through the door too, believed that he managed to make himself look +taller than he had ever looked before--inches taller. + +"Father," he said, "I'm Colin. You can't believe it. I scarcely can +myself. I'm Colin." + +Like Mrs. Medlock, he did not understand what his father meant when he +said hurriedly: + +"In the garden! In the garden!" + +"Yes," hurried on Colin. "It was the garden that did it--and Mary and +Dickon and the creatures--and the Magic. No one knows. We kept it to +tell you when you came. I'm well, I can beat Mary in a race. I'm +going to be an athlete." + +He said it all so like a healthy boy--his face flushed, his words +tumbling over each other in his eagerness--that Mr. Craven's soul shook +with unbelieving joy. + +Colin put out his hand and laid it on his father's arm. + +"Aren't you glad, Father?" he ended. "Aren't you glad? I'm going to +live forever and ever and ever!" + +Mr. Craven put his hands on both the boy's shoulders and held him +still. He knew he dared not even try to speak for a moment. + +"Take me into the garden, my boy," he said at last. "And tell me all +about it." + +And so they led him in. + +The place was a wilderness of autumn gold and purple and violet blue +and flaming scarlet and on every side were sheaves of late lilies +standing together--lilies which were white or white and ruby. He +remembered well when the first of them had been planted that just at +this season of the year their late glories should reveal themselves. +Late roses climbed and hung and clustered and the sunshine deepening +the hue of the yellowing trees made one feel that one, stood in an +embowered temple of gold. The newcomer stood silent just as the +children had done when they came into its grayness. He looked round +and round. + +"I thought it would be dead," he said. + +"Mary thought so at first," said Colin. "But it came alive." + +Then they sat down under their tree--all but Colin, who wanted to stand +while he told the story. + +It was the strangest thing he had ever heard, Archibald Craven thought, +as it was poured forth in headlong boy fashion. Mystery and Magic and +wild creatures, the weird midnight meeting--the coming of the +spring--the passion of insulted pride which had dragged the young Rajah +to his feet to defy old Ben Weatherstaff to his face. The odd +companionship, the play acting, the great secret so carefully kept. +The listener laughed until tears came into his eyes and sometimes tears +came into his eyes when he was not laughing. The Athlete, the +Lecturer, the Scientific Discoverer was a laughable, lovable, healthy +young human thing. + +"Now," he said at the end of the story, "it need not be a secret any +more. I dare say it will frighten them nearly into fits when they see +me--but I am never going to get into the chair again. I shall walk +back with you, Father--to the house." + + +Ben Weatherstaff's duties rarely took him away from the gardens, but on +this occasion he made an excuse to carry some vegetables to the kitchen +and being invited into the servants' hall by Mrs. Medlock to drink a +glass of beer he was on the spot--as he had hoped to be--when the most +dramatic event Misselthwaite Manor had seen during the present +generation actually took place. One of the windows looking upon the +courtyard gave also a glimpse of the lawn. Mrs. Medlock, knowing Ben +had come from the gardens, hoped that he might have caught sight of his +master and even by chance of his meeting with Master Colin. + +"Did you see either of them, Weatherstaff?" she asked. + +Ben took his beer-mug from his mouth and wiped his lips with the back +of his hand. + +"Aye, that I did," he answered with a shrewdly significant air. + +"Both of them?" suggested Mrs. Medlock. + +"Both of 'em," returned Ben Weatherstaff. "Thank ye kindly, ma'am, I +could sup up another mug of it." + +"Together?" said Mrs. Medlock, hastily overfilling his beer-mug in her +excitement. + +"Together, ma'am," and Ben gulped down half of his new mug at one gulp. + +"Where was Master Colin? How did he look? What did they say to each +other?" + +"I didna' hear that," said Ben, "along o' only bein' on th' stepladder +lookin, over th' wall. But I'll tell thee this. There's been things +goin' on outside as you house people knows nowt about. An' what tha'll +find out tha'll find out soon." + +And it was not two minutes before he swallowed the last of his beer and +waved his mug solemnly toward the window which took in through the +shrubbery a piece of the lawn. + +"Look there," he said, "if tha's curious. Look what's comin' across +th' grass." + +When Mrs. Medlock looked she threw up her hands and gave a little +shriek and every man and woman servant within hearing bolted across the +servants' hall and stood looking through the window with their eyes +almost starting out of their heads. + +Across the lawn came the Master of Misselthwaite and he looked as many +of them had never seen him. 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FOR PUBLIC DOMAIN ETEXTS*Ver.04.29.93*END* + + + + + +THE SECRET GARDEN +BY FRANCES HODGSON BURNETT + + +Author of + +"The Shuttle," +"The Making of a Marchioness," +"The Methods of Lady +Walderhurst," +"The Lass o' Lowries," +"Through One Administration," +"Little Lord Fauntleroy," +"A Lady of Quality," etc. + + + + + CONTENTS + +CHAPTER TITLE + + I THERE IS NO ONE LEFT + II MISTRESS MARY QUITE CONTRARY + III ACROSS THE MOOR + IV MARTHA + V THE CRY IN THE CORRIDOR + VI "THERE WAS SOME ONE CRYING--THERE WAS!" + VII THE KEY TO THE GARDEN + VIII THE ROBIN WHO SHOWED THE WAY + IX THE STRANGEST HOUSE ANY ONE EVER LIVED IN + X DICKON + XI THE NEST OF THE MISSEL THRUSH + XII "MIGHT I HAVE A BIT OF EARTH?" + XIII "I AM COLIN" + XIV A YOUNG RAJAH + XV NEST BUILDING + XVI "I WON'T!" SAID MARY + XVII A TANTRUM + XVIII "THA' MUNNOT WASTE NO TIME" + XIX "IT HAS COME!" + XX "I SHALL LIVE FOREVER--AND EVER--AND EVER!" + XXI BEN WEATHERSTAFF + XXII WHEN THE SUN WENT DOWN + XXIII MAGIC + XIV "LET THEM LAUGH" + XXV THE CURTAIN + XXVI "IT'S MOTHER!" + XXVII IN THE GARDEN + + + + + +THE SECRET GARDEN +BY FRANCES HODGSON BURNETT + + + + +CHAPTER I + +THERE IS NO ONE LEFT + + +When Mary Lennox was sent to Misselthwaite Manor +to live with her uncle everybody said she was the most +disagreeable-looking child ever seen. It was true, too. +She had a little thin face and a little thin body, +thin light hair and a sour expression. Her hair was yellow, +and her face was yellow because she had been born in +India and had always been ill in one way or another. +Her father had held a position under the English +Government and had always been busy and ill himself, +and her mother had been a great beauty who cared only +to go to parties and amuse herself with gay people. +She had not wanted a little girl at all, and when Mary +was born she handed her over to the care of an Ayah, +who was made to understand that if she wished to please +the Mem Sahib she must keep the child out of sight as much +as possible. So when she was a sickly, fretful, ugly little +baby she was kept out of the way, and when she became +a sickly, fretful, toddling thing she was kept out of +the way also. She never remembered seeing familiarly +anything but the dark faces of her Ayah and the other +native servants, and as they always obeyed her and gave +her her own way in everything, because the Mem Sahib +would be angry if she was disturbed by her crying, +by the time she was six years old she was as tyrannical +and selfish a little pig as ever lived. The young English +governess who came to teach her to read and write disliked +her so much that she gave up her place in three months, +and when other governesses came to try to fill it they +always went away in a shorter time than the first one. +So if Mary had not chosen to really want to know how +to read books she would never have learned her letters at all. + +One frightfully hot morning, when she was about nine +years old, she awakened feeling very cross, and she became +crosser still when she saw that the servant who stood +by her bedside was not her Ayah. + +"Why did you come?" she said to the strange woman. +"I will not let you stay. Send my Ayah to me." + +The woman looked frightened, but she only stammered +that the Ayah could not come and when Mary threw herself +into a passion and beat and kicked her, she looked only +more frightened and repeated that it was not possible +for the Ayah to come to Missie Sahib. + +There was something mysterious in the air that morning. +Nothing was done in its regular order and several of the +native servants seemed missing, while those whom Mary +saw slunk or hurried about with ashy and scared faces. +But no one would tell her anything and her Ayah did not come. +She was actually left alone as the morning went on, +and at last she wandered out into the garden and began +to play by herself under a tree near the veranda. +She pretended that she was making a flower-bed, and she stuck +big scarlet hibiscus blossoms into little heaps of earth, +all the time growing more and more angry and muttering +to herself the things she would say and the names she +would call Saidie when she returned. + +"Pig! Pig! Daughter of Pigs!" she said, because to call +a native a pig is the worst insult of all. + +She was grinding her teeth and saying this over and over +again when she heard her mother come out on the veranda +with some one. She was with a fair young man and they stood +talking together in low strange voices. Mary knew the fair +young man who looked like a boy. She had heard that he +was a very young officer who had just come from England. +The child stared at him, but she stared most at her mother. +She always did this when she had a chance to see her, +because the Mem Sahib--Mary used to call her that oftener +than anything else--was such a tall, slim, pretty person +and wore such lovely clothes. Her hair was like curly +silk and she had a delicate little nose which seemed +to be disdaining things, and she had large laughing eyes. +All her clothes were thin and floating, and Mary said they +were "full of lace." They looked fuller of lace than ever +this morning, but her eyes were not laughing at all. +They were large and scared and lifted imploringly to the fair +boy officer's face. + +"Is it so very bad? Oh, is it?" Mary heard her say. + +"Awfully," the young man answered in a trembling voice. +"Awfully, Mrs. Lennox. You ought to have gone to the hills +two weeks ago." + +The Mem Sahib wrung her hands. + +"Oh, I know I ought!" she cried. "I only stayed to go +to that silly dinner party. What a fool I was!" + +At that very moment such a loud sound of wailing broke +out from the servants' quarters that she clutched the young +man's arm, and Mary stood shivering from head to foot. +The wailing grew wilder and wilder. "What is it? What is it?" +Mrs. Lennox gasped. + +"Some one has died," answered the boy officer. "You did +not say it had broken out among your servants." + +"I did not know!" the Mem Sahib cried. "Come with me! +Come with me!" and she turned and ran into the house. + +After that, appalling things happened, and the mysteriousness +of the morning was explained to Mary. The cholera had +broken out in its most fatal form and people were dying +like flies. The Ayah had been taken ill in the night, +and it was because she had just died that the servants +had wailed in the huts. Before the next day three other +servants were dead and others had run away in terror. +There was panic on every side, and dying people in all +the bungalows. + +During the confusion and bewilderment of the second day Mary +hid herself in the nursery and was forgotten by everyone. +Nobody thought of her, nobody wanted her, and strange things +happened of which she knew nothing. Mary alternately cried +and slept through the hours. She only knew that people were +ill and that she heard mysterious and tightening sounds. +Once she crept into the dining-room and found it empty, +though a partly finished meal was on the table and chairs +and plates looked as if they had been hastily pushed +back when the diners rose suddenly for some reason. +The child ate some fruit and biscuits, and being thirsty +she drank a glass of wine which stood nearly filled. +It was sweet, and she did not know how strong it was. +Very soon it made her intensely drowsy, and she went back +to her nursery and shut herself in again, frightened by cries +she heard in the huts and by the hurrying sound of feet. +The wine made her so sleepy that she could scarcely keep her +eyes open and she lay down on her bed and knew nothing more +for a long time. + +Many things happened during the hours in which she slept +so heavily, but she was not disturbed by the wails and the +sound of things being carried in and out of the bungalow. + +When she awakened she lay and stared at the wall. +The house was perfectly still. She had never known +it to be so silent before. She heard neither voices +nor footsteps, and wondered if everybody had got well of +the cholera and all the trouble was over. She wondered +also who would take care of her now her Ayah was dead. +There would be a new Ayah, and perhaps she would know +some new stories. Mary had been rather tired of the +old ones. She did not cry because her nurse had died. +She was not an affectionate child and had never cared much +for any one. The noise and hurrying about and wailing +over the cholera had frightened her, and she had been angry +because no one seemed to remember that she was alive. +Everyone was too panic-stricken to think of a little +girl no one was fond of. When people had the cholera +it seemed that they remembered nothing but themselves. +But if everyone had got well again, surely some one would +remember and come to look for her. + +But no one came, and as she lay waiting the house seemed +to grow more and more silent. She heard something rustling +on the matting and when she looked down she saw a little +snake gliding along and watching her with eyes like jewels. +She was not frightened, because he was a harmless little +thing who would not hurt her and he seemed in a hurry +to get out of the room. He slipped under the door as she +watched him. + +"How queer and quiet it is," she said. "It sounds as +if there were no one in the bungalow but me and the snake." + +Almost the next minute she heard footsteps in the compound, +and then on the veranda. They were men's footsteps, +and the men entered the bungalow and talked in low voices. +No one went to meet or speak to them and they seemed +to open doors and look into rooms. "What desolation!" +she heard one voice say. "That pretty, pretty woman! +I suppose the child, too. I heard there was a child, +though no one ever saw her." + +Mary was standing in the middle of the nursery when they +opened the door a few minutes later. She looked an ugly, +cross little thing and was frowning because she was +beginning to be hungry and feel disgracefully neglected. +The first man who came in was a large officer she had once +seen talking to her father. He looked tired and troubled, +but when he saw her he was so startled that he almost +jumped back. + +"Barney!" he cried out. "There is a child here! A child +alone! In a place like this! Mercy on us, who is she!" + +"I am Mary Lennox," the little girl said, drawing herself +up stiffly. She thought the man was very rude to call her +father's bungalow "A place like this!" "I fell asleep when +everyone had the cholera and I have only just wakened up. +Why does nobody come?" + +"It is the child no one ever saw!" exclaimed the man, +turning to his companions. "She has actually been forgotten!" + +"Why was I forgotten?" Mary said, stamping her foot. +"Why does nobody come?" + +The young man whose name was Barney lookedat her very sadly. +Mary even thought she saw him wink his eyes as if to wink +tears away. + +"Poor little kid!" he said. "There is nobody left to come." + +It was in that strange and sudden way that Mary found +out that she had neither father nor mother left; +that they had died and been carried away in the night, +and that the few native servants who had not died also had +left the house as quickly as they could get out of it, +none of them even remembering that there was a Missie Sahib. +That was why the place was so quiet. It was true that there +was no one in the bungalow but herself and the little +rustling snake. + + + +Chapter II + +MISTRESS MARY QUITE CONTRARY + + +Mary had liked to look at her mother from a distance +and she had thought her very pretty, but as she knew +very little of her she could scarcely have been expected +to love her or to miss her very much when she was gone. +She did not miss her at all, in fact, and as she was a +self-absorbed child she gave her entire thought to herself, +as she had always done. If she had been older she would +no doubt have been very anxious at being left alone in +the world, but she was very young, and as she had always +been taken care of, she supposed she always would be. +What she thought was that she would like to know if she was +going to nice people, who would be polite to her and give +her her own way as her Ayah and the other native servants +had done. + +She knew that she was not going to stay at the English +clergyman's house where she was taken at first. She did +not want to stay. The English clergyman was poor and he +had five children nearly all the same age and they wore +shabby clothes and were always quarreling and snatching +toys from each other. Mary hated their untidy bungalow +and was so disagreeable to them that after the first day +or two nobody would play with her. By the second day +they had given her a nickname which made her furious. + +It was Basil who thought of it first. Basil was a little +boy with impudent blue eyes and a turned-up nose, and Mary +hated him. She was playing by herself under a tree, +just as she had been playing the day the cholera broke out. +She was making heaps of earth and paths for a garden +and Basil came and stood near to watch her. Presently he +got rather interested and suddenly made a suggestion. + +"Why don't you put a heap of stones there and pretend +it is a rockery?" he said. "There in the middle," +and he leaned over her to point. + +"Go away!" cried Mary. "I don't want boys. Go away!" + +For a moment Basil looked angry, and then he began to tease. +He was always teasing his sisters. He danced round +and round her and made faces and sang and laughed. + + "Mistress Mary, quite contrary, + How does your garden grow? + With silver bells, and cockle shells, + And marigolds all in a row." + +He sang it until the other children heard and laughed, too; +and the crosser Mary got, the more they sang "Mistress Mary, +quite contrary"; and after that as long as she stayed +with them they called her "Mistress Mary Quite Contrary" +when they spoke of her to each other, and often when they +spoke to her. + +"You are going to be sent home," Basil said to her, +"at the end of the week. And we're glad of it." + +"I am glad of it, too," answered Mary. "Where is home?" + +"She doesn't know where home is!" said Basil, +with seven-year-old scorn. "It's England, of course. +Our grandmama lives there and our sister Mabel was sent +to her last year. You are not going to your grandmama. +You have none. You are going to your uncle. His name is +Mr. Archibald Craven." + +"I don't know anything about him," snapped Mary. + +"I know you don't," Basil answered. "You don't know anything. +Girls never do. I heard father and mother talking about him. +He lives in a great, big, desolate old house in the +country and no one goes near him. He's so cross he won't +let them, and they wouldn't come if he would let them. +He's a hunchback, and he's horrid." "I don't believe you," +said Mary; and she turned her back and stuck her fingers +in her ears, because she would not listen any more. + +But she thought over it a great deal afterward; and when +Mrs. Crawford told her that night that she was going +to sail away to England in a few days and go to her uncle, +Mr. Archibald Craven, who lived at Misselthwaite Manor, +she looked so stony and stubbornly uninterested that +they did not know what to think about her. They tried +to be kind to her, but she only turned her face away +when Mrs. Crawford attempted to kiss her, and held +herself stiffly when Mr. Crawford patted her shoulder. + +"She is such a plain child," Mrs. Crawford said pityingly, +afterward. "And her mother was such a pretty creature. +She had a very pretty manner, too, and Mary has the most +unattractive ways I ever saw in a child. The children +call her `Mistress Mary Quite Contrary,' and though +it's naughty of them, one can't help understanding it." + +"Perhaps if her mother had carried her pretty face +and her pretty manners oftener into the nursery Mary +might have learned some pretty ways too. It is very sad, +now the poor beautiful thing is gone, to remember that +many people never even knew that she had a child at all." + +"I believe she scarcely ever looked at her," +sighed Mrs. Crawford. "When her Ayah was dead there +was no one to give a thought to the little thing. +Think of the servants running away and leaving her all +alone in that deserted bungalow. Colonel McGrew said he +nearly jumped out of his skin when he opened the door +and found her standing by herself in the middle of the room." + +Mary made the long voyage to England under the care of +an officer's wife, who was taking her children to leave +them in a boarding-school. She was very much absorbed +in her own little boy and girl, and was rather glad to hand +the child over to the woman Mr. Archibald Craven sent +to meet her, in London. The woman was his housekeeper +at Misselthwaite Manor, and her name was Mrs. Medlock. +She was a stout woman, with very red cheeks and sharp +black eyes. She wore a very purple dress, a black +silk mantle with jet fringe on it and a black bonnet +with purple velvet flowers which stuck up and trembled +when she moved her head. Mary did not like her at all, +but as she very seldom liked people there was nothing +remarkable in that; besides which it was very evident +Mrs. Medlock did not think much of her. + +"My word! she's a plain little piece of goods!" she said. +"And we'd heard that her mother was a beauty. She hasn't +handed much of it down, has she, ma'am?" "Perhaps she +will improve as she grows older," the officer's wife +said good-naturedly. "If she were not so sallow and had +a nicer expression, her features are rather good. +Children alter so much." + +"She'll have to alter a good deal," answered Mrs. Medlock. +"And, there's nothing likely to improve children at +Misselthwaite--if you ask me!" They thought Mary was not +listening because she was standing a little apart from them +at the window of the private hotel they had gone to. +She was watching the passing buses and cabs and people, +but she heard quite well and was made very curious about +her uncle and the place he lived in. What sort of a place +was it, and what would he be like? What was a hunchback? +She had never seen one. Perhaps there were none in India. + +Since she had been living in other people's houses +and had had no Ayah, she had begun to feel lonely +and to think queer thoughts which were new to her. +She had begun to wonder why she had never seemed to belong +to anyone even when her father and mother had been alive. +Other children seemed to belong to their fathers and mothers, +but she had never seemed to really be anyone's little girl. +She had had servants, and food and clothes, but no one +had taken any notice of her. She did not know that this +was because she was a disagreeable child; but then, +of course, she did not know she was disagreeable. +She often thought that other people were, but she did not +know that she was so herself. + +She thought Mrs. Medlock the most disagreeable person +she had ever seen, with her common, highly colored face +and her common fine bonnet. When the next day they set +out on their journey to Yorkshire, she walked through +the station to the railway carriage with her head up +and trying to keep as far away from her as she could, +because she did not want to seem to belong to her. +It would have made her angry to think people imagined she +was her little girl. + +But Mrs. Medlock was not in the least disturbed by her +and her thoughts. She was the kind of woman who would +"stand no nonsense from young ones." At least, that is +what she would have said if she had been asked. She had +not wanted to go to London just when her sister Maria's +daughter was going to be married, but she had a comfortable, +well paid place as housekeeper at Misselthwaite Manor +and the only way in which she could keep it was to do +at once what Mr. Archibald Craven told her to do. +She never dared even to ask a question. + +"Captain Lennox and his wife died of the cholera," +Mr. Craven had said in his short, cold way. "Captain Lennox +was my wife's brother and I am their daughter's guardian. +The child is to be brought here. You must go to London +and bring her yourself." + +So she packed her small trunk and made the journey. + +Mary sat in her corner of the railway carriage and looked +plain and fretful. She had nothing to read or to look at, +and she had folded her thin little black-gloved hands in +her lap. Her black dress made her look yellower than ever, +and her limp light hair straggled from under her black +crepe hat. + +"A more marred-looking young one I never saw in my life," +Mrs. Medlock thought. (Marred is a Yorkshire word and +means spoiled and pettish.) She had never seen a child +who sat so still without doing anything; and at last she +got tired of watching her and began to talk in a brisk, +hard voice. + +"I suppose I may as well tell you something about where +you are going to," she said. "Do you know anything +about your uncle?" + +"No," said Mary. + +"Never heard your father and mother talk about him?" + +"No," said Mary frowning. She frowned because she +remembered that her father and mother had never talked +to her about anything in particular. Certainly they +had never told her things. + +"Humph," muttered Mrs. Medlock, staring at her queer, +unresponsive little face. She did not say any more for +a few moments and then she began again. + +"I suppose you might as well be told something--to +prepare you. You are going to a queer place." + +Mary said nothing at all, and Mrs. Medlock looked rather +discomfited by her apparent indifference, but, after taking +a breath, she went on. + +"Not but that it's a grand big place in a gloomy way, +and Mr. Craven's proud of it in his way--and that's +gloomy enough, too. The house is six hundred years old +and it's on the edge of the moor, and there's near a hundred +rooms in it, though most of them's shut up and locked. +And there's pictures and fine old furniture and things +that's been there for ages, and there's a big park round +it and gardens and trees with branches trailing to the +ground--some of them." She paused and took another breath. +"But there's nothing else," she ended suddenly. + +Mary had begun to listen in spite of herself. It all sounded +so unlike India, and anything new rather attracted her. +But she did not intend to look as if she were interested. +That was one of her unhappy, disagreeable ways. So she +sat still. + +"Well," said Mrs. Medlock. "What do you think of it?" + +"Nothing," she answered. "I know nothing about such places." + +That made Mrs. Medlock laugh a short sort of laugh. + +"Eh!" she said, "but you are like an old woman. +Don't you care?" + +"It doesn't matter" said Mary, "whether I care or not." + +"You are right enough there," said Mrs. Medlock. +"It doesn't. What you're to be kept at Misselthwaite Manor +for I don't know, unless because it's the easiest way. +He's not going to trouble himself about you, that's sure +and certain. He never troubles himself about no one." + +She stopped herself as if she had just remembered something +in time. + +"He's got a crooked back," she said. "That set him wrong. +He was a sour young man and got no good of all his money +and big place till he was married." + +Mary's eyes turned toward her in spite of her intention +not to seem to care. She had never thought of the +hunchback's being married and she was a trifle surprised. +Mrs. Medlock saw this, and as she was a talkative woman +she continued with more interest. This was one way +of passing some of the time, at any rate. + +"She was a sweet, pretty thing and he'd have walked +the world over to get her a blade o' grass she wanted. +Nobody thought she'd marry him, but she did, +and people said she married him for his money. +But she didn't--she didn't," positively. "When she died--" + +Mary gave a little involuntary jump. + +"Oh! did she die!" she exclaimed, quite without meaning to. +She had just remembered a French fairy story she had once +read called "Riquet a la Houppe." It had been about a poor +hunchback and a beautiful princess and it had made her +suddenly sorry for Mr. Archibald Craven. + +"Yes, she died," Mrs. Medlock answered. "And it +made him queerer than ever. He cares about nobody. +He won't see people. Most of the time he goes away, +and when he is at Misselthwaite he shuts himself up in +the West Wing and won't let any one but Pitcher see him. +Pitcher's an old fellow, but he took care of him when he +was a child and he knows his ways." + +It sounded like something in a book and it did not make +Mary feel cheerful. A house with a hundred rooms, +nearly all shut up and with their doors locked--a house on +the edge of a moor--whatsoever a moor was--sounded dreary. +A man with a crooked back who shut himself up also! She +stared out of the window with her lips pinched together, +and it seemed quite natural that the rain should have begun +to pour down in gray slanting lines and splash and stream +down the window-panes. If the pretty wife had been alive +she might have made things cheerful by being something +like her own mother and by running in and out and going +to parties as she had done in frocks "full of lace." +But she was not there any more. + +"You needn't expect to see him, because ten to one you won't," +said Mrs. Medlock. "And you mustn't expect that there +will be people to talk to you. You'll have to play +about and look after yourself. You'll be told what rooms +you can go into and what rooms you're to keep out of. +There's gardens enough. But when you're in the house +don't go wandering and poking about. Mr. Craven won't +have it." + +"I shall not want to go poking about," said sour little +Mary and just as suddenly as she had begun to be rather +sorry for Mr. Archibald Craven she began to cease to be +sorry and to think he was unpleasant enough to deserve +all that had happened to him. + +And she turned her face toward the streaming panes of the +window of the railway carriage and gazed out at the gray +rain-storm which looked as if it would go on forever and ever. +She watched it so long and steadily that the grayness +grew heavier and heavier before her eyes and she fell asleep. + + + +CHAPTER III + +ACROSS THE MOOR + + +She slept a long time, and when she awakened Mrs. Medlock +had bought a lunchbasket at one of the stations and they +had some chicken and cold beef and bread and butter and +some hot tea. The rain seemed to be streaming down more +heavily than ever and everybody in the station wore wet +and glistening waterproofs. The guard lighted the lamps +in the carriage, and Mrs. Medlock cheered up very much +over her tea and chicken and beef. She ate a great deal +and afterward fell asleep herself, and Mary sat and stared +at her and watched her fine bonnet slip on one side until she +herself fell asleep once more in the corner of the carriage, +lulled by the splashing of the rain against the windows. +It was quite dark when she awakened again. The train +had stopped at a station and Mrs. Medlock was shaking her. + +"You have had a sleep!" she said. "It's time to open +your eyes! We're at Thwaite Station and we've got a long +drive before us." + +Mary stood up and tried to keep her eyes open while +Mrs. Medlock collected her parcels. The little +girl did not offer to help her, because in India +native servants always picked up or carried things +and it seemed quite proper that other people should wait on one. + +The station was a small one and nobody but themselves +seemed to be getting out of the train. The station-master +spoke to Mrs. Medlock in a rough, good-natured way, +pronouncing his words in a queer broad fashion which Mary +found out afterward was Yorkshire. + +"I see tha's got back," he said. "An' tha's browt th' +young 'un with thee." + +"Aye, that's her," answered Mrs. Medlock, speaking with +a Yorkshire accent herself and jerking her head over +her shoulder toward Mary. "How's thy Missus?" + +"Well enow. Th' carriage is waitin' outside for thee." + +A brougham stood on the road before the little +outside platform. Mary saw that it was a smart carriage +and that it was a smart footman who helped her in. +His long waterproof coat and the waterproof covering of his +hat were shining and dripping with rain as everything was, +the burly station-master included. + +When he shut the door, mounted the box with the coachman, +and they drove off, the little girlfound herself seated +in a comfortably cushioned corner, but she was not inclined +to go to sleep again. She sat and looked out of the window, +curious to see something of the road over which she +was being driven to the queer place Mrs. Medlock had +spoken of. She was not at all a timid child and she was +not exactly frightened, but she felt that there was no +knowing what might happen in a house with a hundred rooms +nearly all shut up--a house standing on the edge of a moor. + +"What is a moor?" she said suddenly to Mrs. Medlock. + +"Look out of the window in about ten minutes and you'll see," +the woman answered. "We've got to drive five miles across +Missel Moor before we get to the Manor. You won't see +much because it's a dark night, but you can see something." + +Mary asked no more questions but waited in the darkness +of her corner, keeping her eyes on the window. The carriage +lamps cast rays of light a little distance ahead of them +and she caught glimpses of the things they passed. +After they had left the station they had driven through a +tiny village and she had seen whitewashed cottages and the +lights of a public house. Then they had passed a church +and a vicarage and a little shop-window or so in a cottage +with toys and sweets and odd things set our for sale. +Then they were on the highroad and she saw hedges and trees. +After that there seemed nothing different for a long +time--or at least it seemed a long time to her. + +At last the horses began to go more slowly, as if they +were climbing up-hill, and presently there seemed to be +no more hedges and no more trees. She could see nothing, +in fact, but a dense darkness on either side. She leaned +forward and pressed her face against the window just +as the carriage gave a big jolt. + +"Eh! We're on the moor now sure enough," said Mrs. Medlock. + +The carriage lamps shed a yellow light on a rough-looking +road which seemed to be cut through bushes and low-growing +things which ended in the great expanse of dark apparently +spread out before and around them. A wind was rising +and making a singular, wild, low, rushing sound. + +"It's--it's not the sea, is it?" said Mary, looking round +at her companion. + +"No, not it," answered Mrs. Medlock. "Nor it isn't fields +nor mountains, it's just miles and miles and miles of wild +land that nothing grows on but heather and gorse and broom, +and nothing lives on but wild ponies and sheep." + +"I feel as if it might be the sea, if there were water +on it," said Mary. "It sounds like the sea just now." + +"That's the wind blowing through the bushes," Mrs. Medlock said. +"It's a wild, dreary enough place to my mind, though there's +plenty that likes it--particularly when the heather's in bloom." + +On and on they drove through the darkness, and though +the rain stopped, the wind rushed by and whistled and made +strange sounds. The road went up and down, and several +times the carriage passed over a little bridge beneath +which water rushed very fast with a great deal of noise. +Mary felt as if the drive would never come to an end +and that the wide, bleak moor was a wide expanse of black +ocean through which she was passing on a strip of dry land. + +"I don't like it," she said to herself. "I don't like it," +and she pinched her thin lips more tightly together. + +The horses were climbing up a hilly piece of road +when she first caught sight of a light. Mrs. Medlock +saw it as soon as she did and drew a long sigh of relief. + +"Eh, I am glad to see that bit o' light twinkling," +she exclaimed. "It's the light in the lodge window. +We shall get a good cup of tea after a bit, at all events." + +It was "after a bit," as she said, for when the carriage +passed through the park gates there was still two miles +of avenue to drive through and the trees (which nearly +met overhead) made it seem as if they were driving +through a long dark vault. + +They drove out of the vault into a clear space +and stopped before an immensely long but low-built +house which seemed to ramble round a stone court. +At first Mary thought that there were no lights at all +in the windows, but as she got out of the carriage +she saw that one room in a corner upstairs showed a dull glow. + +The entrance door was a huge one made of massive, curiously +shaped panels of oak studded with big iron nails and bound +with great iron bars. It opened into an enormous hall, +which was so dimly lighted that the faces in the portraits +on the walls and the figures in the suits of armor +made Mary feel that she did not want to look at them. +As she stood on the stone floor she looked a very small, +odd little black figure, and she felt as small and lost +and odd as she looked. + +A neat, thin old man stood near the manservant who opened +the door for them. + +"You are to take her to her room," he said in a husky voice. +"He doesn't want to see her. He's going to London +in the morning." + +"Very well, Mr. Pitcher," Mrs. Medlock answered. +"So long as I know what's expected of me, I can manage." + +"What's expected of you, Mrs. Medlock," Mr. Pitcher said, +"is that you make sure that he's not disturbed and that he +doesn't see what he doesn't want to see." + +And then Mary Lennox was led up a broad staircase +and down a long corridor and up a short flight +of steps and through another corridor and another, +until a door opened in a wall and she found herself +in a room with a fire in it and a supper on a table. + +Mrs. Medlock said unceremoniously: + +"Well, here you are! This room and the next are where you'll +live--and you must keep to them. Don't you forget that!" + +It was in this way Mistress Mary arrived at Misselthwaite +Manor and she had perhaps never felt quite so contrary +in all her life. + + + +CHAPTER IV + +MARTHA + + +When she opened her eyes in the morning it was because +a young housemaid had come into her room to light +the fire and was kneeling on the hearth-rug raking +out the cinders noisily. Mary lay and watched her for +a few moments and then began to look about the room. +She had never seen a room at all like it and thought it +curious and gloomy. The walls were covered with tapestry +with a forest scene embroidered on it. There were +fantastically dressed people under the trees and in the +distance there was a glimpse of the turrets of a castle. +There were hunters and horses and dogs and ladies. +Mary felt as if she were in the forest with them. +Out of a deep window she could see a great climbing +stretch of land which seemed to have no trees on it, +and to look rather like an endless, dull, purplish sea. + +"What is that?" she said, pointing out of the window. + +Martha, the young housemaid, who had just risen to her feet, +looked and pointed also. "That there?" she said. + +"Yes." + +"That's th' moor," with a good-natured grin. "Does tha' +like it?" + +"No," answered Mary. "I hate it." + +"That's because tha'rt not used to it," Martha said, +going back to her hearth. "Tha' thinks it's too big an' +bare now. But tha' will like it." + +"Do you?" inquired Mary. + +"Aye, that I do," answered Martha, cheerfully polishing +away at the grate. "I just love it. It's none bare. +It's covered wi' growin' things as smells sweet. +It's fair lovely in spring an' summer when th' gorse an' +broom an' heather's in flower. It smells o' honey an' +there's such a lot o' fresh air--an' th' sky looks +so high an' th' bees an' skylarks makes such a nice +noise hummin' an' singin'. Eh! I wouldn't live away from th' +moor for anythin'." + +Mary listened to her with a grave, puzzled expression. +The native servants she had been used to in India +were not in the least like this. They were obsequious +and servile and did not presume to talk to their masters +as if they were their equals. They made salaams and called +them "protector of the poor" and names of that sort. +Indian servants were commanded to do things, not asked. +It was not the custom to say "please" and "thank you" +and Mary had always slapped her Ayah in the face when she +was angry. She wondered a little what this girl would +do if one slapped her in the face. She was a round, +rosy, good-natured-looking creature, but she had a sturdy +way which made Mistress Mary wonder if she might not +even slap back--if the person who slapped her was only a +little girl. + +"You are a strange servant," she said from her pillows, +rather haughtily. + +Martha sat up on her heels, with her blackingbrush in her hand, +and laughed, without seeming the least out of temper. + +"Eh! I know that," she said. "If there was a grand Missus +at Misselthwaite I should never have been even one of th' +under house-maids. I might have been let to be scullerymaid +but I'd never have been let upstairs. I'm too common an' +I talk too much Yorkshire. But this is a funny house for +all it's so grand. Seems like there's neither Master nor +Mistress except Mr. Pitcher an' Mrs. Medlock. Mr. Craven, +he won't be troubled about anythin' when he's here, an' +he's nearly always away. Mrs. Medlock gave me th' +place out o' kindness. She told me she could never have +done it if Misselthwaite had been like other big houses." +"Are you going to be my servant?" Mary asked, still in her +imperious little Indian way. + +Martha began to rub her grate again. + +"I'm Mrs. Medlock's servant," she said stoutly. +"An' she's Mr. Craven's--but I'm to do the housemaid's +work up here an' wait on you a bit. But you won't need +much waitin' on." + +"Who is going to dress me?" demanded Mary. + +Martha sat up on her heels again and stared. She spoke +in broad Yorkshire in her amazement. + +"Canna' tha' dress thysen!" she said. + +"What do you mean? I don't understand your language," +said Mary. + +"Eh! I forgot," Martha said. "Mrs. Medlock told me I'd +have to be careful or you wouldn't know what I was sayin'. +I mean can't you put on your own clothes?" + +"No," answered Mary, quite indignantly. "I never did +in my life. My Ayah dressed me, of course." + +"Well," said Martha, evidently not in the least aware +that she was impudent, "it's time tha' should learn. +Tha' cannot begin younger. It'll do thee good to wait +on thysen a bit. My mother always said she couldn't +see why grand people's children didn't turn out fair +fools--what with nurses an' bein' washed an' dressed an' +took out to walk as if they was puppies!" + +"It is different in India," said Mistress Mary disdainfully. +She could scarcely stand this. + +But Martha was not at all crushed. + +"Eh! I can see it's different," she answered almost +sympathetically. "I dare say it's because there's such +a lot o' blacks there instead o' respectable white people. +When I heard you was comin' from India I thought you was a black too." + +Mary sat up in bed furious. + +"What!" she said. "What! You thought I was a native. +You--you daughter of a pig!" + +Martha stared and looked hot. + +"Who are you callin' names?" she said. "You needn't be +so vexed. That's not th' way for a young lady to talk. +I've nothin' against th' blacks. When you read about 'em +in tracts they're always very religious. You always read +as a black's a man an' a brother. I've never seen a black an' +I was fair pleased to think I was goin' to see one close. +When I come in to light your fire this mornin' I crep' +up to your bed an' pulled th' cover back careful to look +at you. An' there you was," disappointedly, "no more black +than me--for all you're so yeller." + +Mary did not even try to control her rage and humiliation. +"You thought I was a native! You dared! You don't know +anything about natives! They are not people--they're servants +who must salaam to you. You know nothing about India. +You know nothing about anything!" + +She was in such a rage and felt so helpless before the girl's +simple stare, and somehow she suddenly felt so horribly +lonely and far away from everything she understood +and which understood her, that she threw herself face +downward on the pillows and burst into passionate sobbing. +She sobbed so unrestrainedly that good-natured Yorkshire +Martha was a little frightened and quite sorry for her. +She went to the bed and bent over her. + +"Eh! you mustn't cry like that there!" she begged. +"You mustn't for sure. I didn't know you'd be vexed. +I don't know anythin' about anythin'--just like you said. +I beg your pardon, Miss. Do stop cryin'." + +There was something comforting and really friendly in her +queer Yorkshire speech and sturdy way which had a good effect +on Mary. She gradually ceased crying and became quiet. +Martha looked relieved. + +"It's time for thee to get up now," she said. +"Mrs. Medlock said I was to carry tha' breakfast an' +tea an' dinner into th' room next to this. It's been +made into a nursery for thee. I'll help thee on with thy +clothes if tha'll get out o' bed. If th' buttons are at th' +back tha' cannot button them up tha'self." + +When Mary at last decided to get up, the clothes Martha +took from the wardrobe were not the ones she had worn +when she arrived the night before with Mrs. Medlock. + +"Those are not mine," she said. "Mine are black." + +She looked the thick white wool coat and dress over, +and added with cool approval: + +"Those are nicer than mine." + +"These are th' ones tha' must put on," Martha answered. +"Mr. Craven ordered Mrs. Medlock to get 'em in London. +He said `I won't have a child dressed in black wanderin' +about like a lost soul,' he said. `It'd make the place +sadder than it is. Put color on her.' Mother she said she +knew what he meant. Mother always knows what a body means. +She doesn't hold with black hersel'." + +"I hate black things," said Mary. + +The dressing process was one which taught them both something. +Martha had "buttoned up" her little sisters and brothers but she +had never seen a child who stood still and waited for another +person to do things for her as if she had neither hands nor feet of her own. + +"Why doesn't tha' put on tha' own shoes?" she said +when Mary quietly held out her foot. + +"My Ayah did it," answered Mary, staring. "It was the custom." + +She said that very often--"It was the custom." The native +servants were always saying it. If one told them to do +a thing their ancestors had not done for a thousand years +they gazed at one mildly and said, "It is not the custom" +and one knew that was the end of the matter. + +It had not been the custom that Mistress Mary should +do anything but stand and allow herself to be dressed +like a doll, but before she was ready for breakfast she +began to suspect that her life at Misselthwaite Manor +would end by teaching her a number of things quite +new to her--things such as putting on her own shoes +and stockings, and picking up things she let fall. +If Martha had been a well-trained fine young lady's maid +she would have been more subservient and respectful and +would have known that it was her business to brush hair, +and button boots, and pick things up and lay them away. +She was, however, only an untrained Yorkshire rustic +who had been brought up in a moorland cottage with a +swarm of little brothers and sisters who had never +dreamed of doing anything but waiting on themselves +and on the younger ones who were either babies in arms +or just learning to totter about and tumble over things. + +If Mary Lennox had been a child who was ready to be amused +she would perhaps have laughed at Martha's readiness to talk, +but Mary only listened to her coldly and wondered at her +freedom of manner. At first she was not at all interested, +but gradually, as the girl rattled on in her good-tempered, +homely way, Mary began to notice what she was saying. + +"Eh! you should see 'em all," she said. "There's twelve +of us an' my father only gets sixteen shilling a week. I can +tell you my mother's put to it to get porridge for 'em all. +They tumble about on th' moor an' play there all day an' +mother says th' air of th' moor fattens 'em. She says she +believes they eat th' grass same as th' wild ponies do. +Our Dickon, he's twelve years old and he's got a young pony +he calls his own." + +"Where did he get it?" asked Mary. + +"He found it on th' moor with its mother when it was +a little one an' he began to make friends with it an' +give it bits o' bread an' pluck young grass for it. +And it got to like him so it follows him about an' +it lets him get on its back. Dickon's a kind lad an' +animals likes him." + +Mary had never possessed an animal pet of her own +and had always thought she should like one. So she +began to feel a slight interest in Dickon, and as she +had never before been interested in any one but herself, +it was the dawning of a healthy sentiment. When she went +into the room which had been made into a nursery for her, +she found that it was rather like the one she had slept in. +It was not a child's room, but a grown-up person's room, +with gloomy old pictures on the walls and heavy old +oak chairs. A table in the center was set with a good +substantial breakfast. But she had always had a very +small appetite, and she looked with something more than +indifference at the first plate Martha set before her. + +"I don't want it," she said. + +"Tha' doesn't want thy porridge!" Martha exclaimed incredulously. + +"No." + +"Tha' doesn't know how good it is. Put a bit o' +treacle on it or a bit o' sugar." + +"I don't want it," repeated Mary. + +"Eh!" said Martha. "I can't abide to see good victuals +go to waste. If our children was at this table they'd +clean it bare in five minutes." + +"Why?" said Mary coldly. "Why!" echoed Martha. "Because they +scarce ever had their stomachs full in their lives. +They're as hungry as young hawks an' foxes." + +"I don't know what it is to be hungry," said Mary, +with the indifference of ignorance. + +Martha looked indignant. + +"Well, it would do thee good to try it. I can see +that plain enough," she said outspokenly. "I've no +patience with folk as sits an' just stares at good +bread an' meat. My word! don't I wish Dickon and Phil an' +Jane an' th' rest of 'em had what's here under their pinafores." + +"Why don't you take it to them?" suggested Mary. + +"It's not mine," answered Martha stoutly. "An' this +isn't my day out. I get my day out once a month same +as th' rest. Then I go home an' clean up for mother an' +give her a day's rest." + +Mary drank some tea and ate a little toast and some marmalade. + +"You wrap up warm an' run out an' play you," said Martha. +"It'll do you good and give you some stomach for your meat." + +Mary went to the window. There were gardens and paths +and big trees, but everything looked dull and wintry. + +"Out? Why should I go out on a day like this?" "Well, if tha' +doesn't go out tha'lt have to stay in, an' what has tha' +got to do?" + +Mary glanced about her. There was nothing to do. +When Mrs. Medlock had prepared the nursery she had not +thought of amusement. Perhaps it would be better to go +and see what the gardens were like. + +"Who will go with me?" she inquired. + +Martha stared. + +"You'll go by yourself," she answered. "You'll have to +learn to play like other children does when they haven't +got sisters and brothers. Our Dickon goes off on th' +moor by himself an' plays for hours. That's how he made +friends with th' pony. He's got sheep on th' moor that +knows him, an' birds as comes an' eats out of his hand. +However little there is to eat, he always saves a bit o' +his bread to coax his pets." + +It was really this mention of Dickon which made Mary decide +to go out, though she was not aware of it. There would be, +birds outside though there would not be ponies or sheep. +They would be different from the birds in India and it +might amuse her to look at them. + +Martha found her coat and hat for her and a pair of stout +little boots and she showed her her way downstairs. + +"If tha' goes round that way tha'll come to th' gardens," +she said, pointing to a gate in a wall of shrubbery. +"There's lots o' flowers in summer-time, but there's +nothin' bloomin' now." She seemed to hesitate a second +before she added, "One of th' gardens is locked up. +No one has been in it for ten years." + +"Why?" asked Mary in spite of herself. Here was another +locked door added to the hundred in the strange house. + +"Mr. Craven had it shut when his wife died so sudden. +He won't let no one go inside. It was her garden. +He locked th' door an' dug a hole and buried th' key. +There's Mrs. Medlock's bell ringing--I must run." + +After she was gone Mary turned down the walk which led +to the door in the shrubbery. She could not help thinking +about the garden which no one had been into for ten years. +She wondered what it would look like and whether there +were any flowers still alive in it. When she had passed +through the shrubbery gate she found herself in great gardens, +with wide lawns and winding walks with clipped borders. +There were trees, and flower-beds, and evergreens clipped +into strange shapes, and a large pool with an old gray +fountain in its midst. But the flower-beds were bare +and wintry and the fountain was not playing. This was not +the garden which was shut up. How could a garden be shut +up? You could always walk into a garden. + +She was just thinking this when she saw that, at the end +of the path she was following, there seemed to be a +long wall, with ivy growing over it. She was not familiar +enough with England to know that she was coming upon the +kitchen-gardens where the vegetables and fruit were growing. +She went toward the wall and found that there was a green +door in the ivy, and that it stood open. This was +not the closed garden, evidently, and she could go into it. + +She went through the door and found that it was a garden +with walls all round it and that it was only one of several +walled gardens which seemed to open into one another. +She saw another open green door, revealing bushes and +pathways between beds containing winter vegetables. +Fruit-trees were trained flat against the wall, +and over some of the beds there were glass frames. +The place was bare and ugly enough, Mary thought, as she +stood and stared about her. It might be nicer in summer +when things were green, but there was nothing pretty about +it now. + +Presently an old man with a spade over his shoulder walked +through the door leading from the second garden. He looked +startled when he saw Mary, and then touched his cap. +He had a surly old face, and did not seem at all pleased +to see her--but then she was displeased with his garden +and wore her "quite contrary" expression, and certainly +did not seem at all pleased to see him. + +"What is this place?" she asked. + +"One o' th' kitchen-gardens," he answered. + +"What is that?" said Mary, pointing through the other +green door. + +"Another of 'em," shortly. "There's another on t'other +side o' th' wall an' there's th' orchard t'other side o' that." + +"Can I go in them?" asked Mary. + +"If tha' likes. But there's nowt to see." + +Mary made no response. She went down the path and through +the second green door. There, she found more walls +and winter vegetables and glass frames, but in the second +wall there was another green door and it was not open. +Perhaps it led into the garden which no one had seen for +ten years. As she was not at all a timid child and always +did what she wanted to do, Mary went to the green door +and turned the handle. She hoped the door would not open +because she wanted to be sure she had found the mysterious +garden--but it did open quite easily and she walked +through it and found herself in an orchard. There were +walls all round it also and trees trained against them, +and there were bare fruit-trees growing in the winter-browned +grass--but there was no green door to be seen anywhere. +Mary looked for it, and yet when she had entered the +upper end of the garden she had noticed that the wall +did not seem to end with the orchard but to extend +beyond it as if it enclosed a place at the other side. +She could see the tops of trees above the wall, +and when she stood still she saw a bird with a bright +red breast sitting on the topmost branch of one of them, +and suddenly he burst into his winter song--almost +as if he had caught sight of her and was calling to her. + +She stopped and listened to him and somehow his cheerful, +friendly little whistle gave her a pleased feeling--even +a disagreeable little girl may be lonely, and the big closed +house and big bare moor and big bare gardens had made this +one feel as if there was no one left in the world but herself. +If she had been an affectionate child, who had been +used to being loved, she would have broken her heart, +but even though she was "Mistress Mary Quite Contrary" +she was desolate, and the bright-breasted little bird +brought a look into her sour little face which was almost +a smile. She listened to him until he flew away. +He was not like an Indian bird and she liked him and +wondered if she should ever see him again. Perhaps he +lived in the mysterious garden and knew all about it. + +Perhaps it was because she had nothing whatever to do +that she thought so much of the deserted garden. She was +curious about it and wanted to see what it was like. +Why had Mr. Archibald Craven buried the key? If he +had liked his wife so much why did he hate her garden? +She wondered if she should ever see him, but she knew +that if she did she should not like him, and he would +not like her, and that she should only stand and stare +at him and say nothing, though she should be wanting +dreadfully to ask him why he had done such a queer thing. + +"People never like me and I never like people," she thought. +"And I never can talk as the Crawford children could. +They were always talking and laughing and making noises." + +She thought of the robin and of the way he seemed to sing +his song at her, and as she remembered the tree-top he +perched on she stopped rather suddenly on the path. + +"I believe that tree was in the secret garden--I feel sure +it was," she said. "There was a wall round the place +and there was no door." + +She walked back into the first kitchen-garden she had entered +and found the old man digging there. She went and stood beside +him and watched him a few moments in her cold little way. +He took no notice of her and so at last she spoke to him. + +"I have been into the other gardens," she said. + +"There was nothin' to prevent thee," he answered crustily. + +"I went into the orchard." + +"There was no dog at th' door to bite thee," he answered. + +"There was no door there into the other garden," +said Mary. + +"What garden?" he said in a rough voice, stopping his +digging for a moment. + +"The one on the other side of the wall," answered Mistress Mary. +"There are trees there--I saw the tops of them. A bird +with a red breast was sitting on one of them and he sang." + +To her surprise the surly old weather-beaten face +actually changed its expression. A slow smile spread +over it and the gardener looked quite different. It made +her think that it was curious how much nicer a person +looked when he smiled. She had not thought of it before. + +He turned about to the orchard side of his garden and began +to whistle--a low soft whistle. She could not understand +how such a surly man could make such a coaxing sound. +Almost the next moment a wonderful thing happened. +She heard a soft little rushing flight through the air--and +it was the bird with the red breast flying to them, +and he actually alighted on the big clod of earth quite near +to the gardener's foot. + +"Here he is," chuckled the old man, and then he spoke +to the bird as if he were speaking to a child. + +"Where has tha' been, tha' cheeky little beggar?" +he said. "I've not seen thee before today. Has tha, +begun tha' courtin' this early in th' season? Tha'rt +too forrad." + +The bird put his tiny head on one side and looked up at him +with his soft bright eye which was like a black dewdrop. +He seemed quite familiar and not the least afraid. +He hopped about and pecked the earth briskly, looking for +seeds and insects. It actually gave Mary a queer feeling +in her heart, because he was so pretty and cheerful +and seemed so like a person. He had a tiny plump body +and a delicate beak, and slender delicate legs. + +"Will he always come when you call him?" she asked almost +in a whisper. + +"Aye, that he will. I've knowed him ever since he was +a fledgling. He come out of th' nest in th' other garden an' +when first he flew over th' wall he was too weak to fly +back for a few days an' we got friendly. When he went +over th' wall again th' rest of th' brood was gone an' +he was lonely an' he come back to me." + +"What kind of a bird is he?" Mary asked. + +"Doesn't tha' know? He's a robin redbreast an' +they're th' friendliest, curiousest birds alive. +They're almost as friendly as dogs--if you know how to get +on with 'em. Watch him peckin' about there an' lookin' +round at us now an' again. He knows we're talkin' about him." + +It was the queerest thing in the world to see the old fellow. +He looked at the plump little scarlet-waistcoated bird +as if he were both proud and fond of him. + +"He's a conceited one," he chuckled. "He likes to hear +folk talk about him. An' curious--bless me, there never +was his like for curiosity an' meddlin'. He's always comin' +to see what I'm plantin'. He knows all th' things Mester +Craven never troubles hissel' to find out. He's th' +head gardener, he is." + +The robin hopped about busily pecking the soil and now +and then stopped and looked at them a little. Mary thought +his black dewdrop eyes gazed at her with great curiosity. +It really seemed as if he were finding out all about her. +The queer feeling in her heart increased. "Where did the +rest of the brood fly to?" she asked. + +"There's no knowin'. The old ones turn 'em out o' their nest an' +make 'em fly an' they're scattered before you know it. +This one was a knowin' one an, he knew he was lonely." + +Mistress Mary went a step nearer to the robin and looked +at him very hard. + +"I'm lonely," she said. + +She had not known before that this was one of the things +which made her feel sour and cross. She seemed to find +it out when the robin looked at her and she looked +at the robin. + +The old gardener pushed his cap back on his bald head +and stared at her a minute. + +"Art tha' th' little wench from India?" he asked. + +Mary nodded. + +"Then no wonder tha'rt lonely. Tha'lt be lonlier before +tha's done," he said. + +He began to dig again, driving his spade deep into +the rich black garden soil while the robin hopped +about very busily employed. + +"What is your name?" Mary inquired. + +He stood up to answer her. + +"Ben Weatherstaff," he answered, and then he added with a +surly chuckle, "I'm lonely mysel' except when he's with me," +and he jerked his thumb toward the robin. "He's th' +only friend I've got." + +"I have no friends at all," said Mary. "I never had. +My Ayah didn't like me and I never played with any one." + +It is a Yorkshire habit to say what you think with +blunt frankness, and old Ben Weatherstaff was a Yorkshire +moor man. + +"Tha' an' me are a good bit alike," he said. +"We was wove out of th' same cloth. We're neither of us +good lookin' an' we're both of us as sour as we look. +We've got the same nasty tempers, both of us, I'll warrant." + +This was plain speaking, and Mary Lennox had never heard +the truth about herself in her life. Native servants +always salaamed and submitted to you, whatever you did. +She had never thought much about her looks, but she wondered +if she was as unattractive as Ben Weatherstaff and she +also wondered if she looked as sour as he had looked +before the robin came. She actually began to wonder +also if she was "nasty tempered." She felt uncomfortable. + +Suddenly a clear rippling little sound broke out near +her and she turned round. She was standing a few feet +from a young apple-tree and the robin had flown on to one +of its branches and had burst out into a scrap of a song. +Ben Weatherstaff laughed outright. + +"What did he do that for?" asked Mary. + +"He's made up his mind to make friends with thee," +replied Ben. "Dang me if he hasn't took a fancy to thee." + +"To me?" said Mary, and she moved toward the little tree +softly and looked up. + +"Would you make friends with me?" she said to the robin +just as if she was speaking to a person. "Would you?" +And she did not say it either in her hard little voice +or in her imperious Indian voice, but in a tone so soft +and eager and coaxing that Ben Weatherstaff was as surprised +as she had been when she heard him whistle. + +"Why," he cried out, "tha' said that as nice an' human as +if tha' was a real child instead of a sharp old woman. +Tha' said it almost like Dickon talks to his wild things on th' moor." + +"Do you know Dickon?" Mary asked, turning round rather +in a hurry. + +"Everybody knows him. Dickon's wanderin' about everywhere. +Th' very blackberries an' heather-bells knows him. +I warrant th' foxes shows him where their cubs +lies an' th' skylarks doesn't hide their nests from him." + +Mary would have liked to ask some more questions. +She was almost as curious about Dickon as she was about +the deserted garden. But just that moment the robin, +who had ended his song, gave a little shake of his wings, +spread them and flew away. He had made his visit and had +other things to do. + +"He has flown over the wall!" Mary cried out, watching him. +"He has flown into the orchard--he has flown across the +other wall--into the garden where there is no door!" + +"He lives there," said old Ben. "He came out o' th' egg there. +If he's courtin', he's makin' up to some young madam +of a robin that lives among th' old rose-trees there." + +"Rose-trees," said Mary. "Are there rose-trees?" + +Ben Weatherstaff took up his spade again and began to dig. + +"There was ten year' ago," he mumbled. + +"I should like to see them," said Mary. "Where is +the green door? There must be a door somewhere." + +Ben drove his spade deep and looked as uncompanionable +as he had looked when she first saw him. + +"There was ten year' ago, but there isn't now," he said. + +"No door!" cried Mary. "There must be." "None as any +one can find, an' none as is any one's business. +Don't you be a meddlesome wench an' poke your nose where +it's no cause to go. Here, I must go on with my work. +Get you gone an' play you. I've no more time." + +And he actually stopped digging, threw his spade over +his shoulder and walked off, without even glancing +at her or saying good-by. + + + +CHAPTER V + +THE CRY IN THE CORRIDOR + + +At first each day which passed by for Mary Lennox +was exactly like the others. Every morning she awoke +in her tapestried room and found Martha kneeling upon +the hearth building her fire; every morning she ate her +breakfast in the nursery which had nothing amusing in it; +and after each breakfast she gazed out of the window +across to the huge moor which seemed to spread out on all +sides and climb up to the sky, and after she had stared +for a while she realized that if she did not go out she +would have to stay in and do nothing--and so she went out. +She did not know that this was the best thing she could +have done, and she did not know that, when she began to walk +quickly or even run along the paths and down the avenue, +she was stirring her slow blood and making herself stronger +by fighting with the wind which swept down from the moor. +She ran only to make herself warm, and she hated the wind +which rushed at her face and roared and held her back +as if it were some giant she could not see. But the big +breaths of rough fresh air blown over the heather filled +her lungs with something which was good for her whole +thin body and whipped some red color into her cheeks and +brightened her dull eyes when she did not know anything +about it. + +But after a few days spent almost entirely out of doors +she wakened one morning knowing what it was to be hungry, +and when she sat down to her breakfast she did not glance +disdainfully at her porridge and push it away, but took +up her spoon and began to eat it and went on eating it +until her bowl was empty. + +"Tha' got on well enough with that this mornin', didn't tha'?" +said Martha. + +"It tastes nice today," said Mary, feeling a little +surprised her self. + +"It's th' air of th' moor that's givin' thee stomach +for tha' victuals," answered Martha. "It's lucky +for thee that tha's got victuals as well as appetite. +There's been twelve in our cottage as had th' stomach an' +nothin' to put in it. You go on playin' you out o' +doors every day an' you'll get some flesh on your bones an' +you won't be so yeller." + +"I don't play," said Mary. "I have nothing to play with." + +"Nothin' to play with!" exclaimed Martha. "Our children +plays with sticks and stones. They just runs about an' +shouts an' looks at things." Mary did not shout, +but she looked at things. There was nothing else to do. +She walked round and round the gardens and wandered +about the paths in the park. Sometimes she looked for +Ben Weatherstaff, but though several times she saw him +at work he was too busy to look at her or was too surly. +Once when she was walking toward him he picked up his spade +and turned away as if he did it on purpose. + +One place she went to oftener than to any other. +It was the long walk outside the gardens with the walls +round them. There were bare flower-beds on either +side of it and against the walls ivy grew thickly. +There was one part of the wall where the creeping dark +green leaves were more bushy than elsewhere. It seemed +as if for a long time that part had been neglected. +The rest of it had been clipped and made to look neat, +but at this lower end of the walk it had not been trimmed +at all. + +A few days after she had talked to Ben Weatherstaff, +Mary stopped to notice this and wondered why it was so. +She had just paused and was looking up at a long spray of ivy +swinging in the wind when she saw a gleam of scarlet and +heard a brilliant chirp, and there, on the top of the wall, +forward perched Ben Weatherstaff's robin redbreast, +tilting forward to look at her with his small head on +one side. + +"Oh!" she cried out, "is it you--is it you?" And it +did not seem at all queer to her that she spoke to him +as if she were sure that he would understand and answer her. + +He did answer. He twittered and chirped and hopped along +the wall as if he were telling her all sorts of things. +It seemed to Mistress Mary as if she understood him, too, +though he was not speaking in words. It was as if he +said: + +"Good morning! Isn't the wind nice? Isn't the sun nice? Isn't +everything nice? Let us both chirp and hop and twitter. +Come on! Come on!" + +Mary began to laugh, and as he hopped and took little flights +along the wall she ran after him. Poor little thin, sallow, +ugly Mary--she actually looked almost pretty for a moment. + +"I like you! I like you!" she cried out, pattering down the walk; +and she chirped and tried to whistle, which last she did +not know how to do in the least. But the robin seemed +to be quite satisfied and chirped and whistled back at her. +At last he spread his wings and made a darting flight +to the top of a tree, where he perched and sang loudly. +That reminded Mary of the first time she had seen him. +He had been swinging on a tree-top then and she had been +standing in the orchard. Now she was on the other side +of the orchard and standing in the path outside a wall--much +lower down--and there was the same tree inside. + +"It's in the garden no one can go into," she said to herself. +"It's the garden without a door. He lives in there. +How I wish I could see what it is like!" + +She ran up the walk to the green door she had entered +the first morning. Then she ran down the path through +the other door and then into the orchard, and when she +stood and looked up there was the tree on the other side +of the wall, and there was the robin just finishing his +song and, beginning to preen his feathers with his beak. + +"It is the garden," she said. "I am sure it is." + +She walked round and looked closely at that side of the +orchard wall, but she only found what she had found +before--that there was no door in it. Then she ran +through the kitchen-gardens again and out into the walk +outside the long ivy-covered wall, and she walked to +the end of it and looked at it, but there was no door; +and then she walked to the other end, looking again, +but there was no door. + +"It's very queer," she said. "Ben Weatherstaff said +there was no door and there is no door. But there must +have been one ten years ago, because Mr. Craven buried +the key." + +This gave her so much to think of that she began to be +quite interested and feel that she was not sorry that she +had come to Misselthwaite Manor. In India she had always +felt hot and too languid to care much about anything. +The fact was that the fresh wind from the moor had begun +to blow the cobwebs out of her young brain and to waken +her up a little. + +She stayed out of doors nearly all day, and when she sat +down to her supper at night she felt hungry and drowsy +and comfortable. She did not feel cross when Martha +chattered away. She felt as if she rather liked to hear her, +and at last she thought she would ask her a question. +She asked it after she had finished her supper and had sat +down on the hearth-rug before the fire. + +"Why did Mr. Craven hate the garden?" she said. + +She had made Martha stay with her and Martha had not +objected at all. She was very young, and used to a crowded +cottage full of brothers and sisters, and she found it +dull in the great servants' hall downstairs where the +footman and upper-housemaids made fun of her Yorkshire +speech and looked upon her as a common little thing, +and sat and whispered among themselves. Martha liked +to talk, and the strange child who had lived in India, +and been waited upon by "blacks," was novelty enough +to attract her. + +She sat down on the hearth herself without waiting +to be asked. + +"Art tha' thinkin' about that garden yet?" she said. +"I knew tha' would. That was just the way with me when I +first heard about it." + +"Why did he hate it?" Mary persisted. + +Martha tucked her feet under her and made herself +quite comfortable. + +"Listen to th' wind wutherin' round the house," she said. +"You could bare stand up on the moor if you was out on +it tonight." + +Mary did not know what "wutherin'" meant until she listened, +and then she understood. It must mean that hollow +shuddering sort of roar which rushed round and round the +house as if the giant no one could see were buffeting it +and beating at the walls and windows to try to break in. +But one knew he could not get in, and somehow it made +one feel very safe and warm inside a room with a red +coal fire. + +"But why did he hate it so?" she asked, after she +had listened. She intended to know if Martha did. + +Then Martha gave up her store of knowledge. + +"Mind," she said, "Mrs. Medlock said it's not to be +talked about. There's lots o' things in this place that's +not to be talked over. That's Mr. Craven's orders. +His troubles are none servants' business, he says. +But for th' garden he wouldn't be like he is. It was +Mrs. Craven's garden that she had made when first they +were married an' she just loved it, an' they used to 'tend +the flowers themselves. An' none o' th' gardeners was +ever let to go in. Him an' her used to go in an' +shut th' door an' stay there hours an' hours, readin' +and talkin'. An, she was just a bit of a girl an' +there was an old tree with a branch bent like a seat +on it. An' she made roses grow over it an' she used +to sit there. But one day when she was sittin' there th' +branch broke an' she fell on th' ground an' was hurt +so bad that next day she died. Th' doctors thought he'd +go out o' his mind an' die, too. That's why he hates it. +No one's never gone in since, an' he won't let any one talk +about it." + +Mary did not ask any more questions. She looked at +the red fire and listened to the wind "wutherin'." +It seemed to be "wutherin'" louder than ever. +At that moment a very good thing was happening to her. +Four good things had happened to her, in fact, since she +came to Misselthwaite Manor. She had felt as if she +had understood a robin and that he had understood her; +she had run in the wind until her blood had grown warm; +she had been healthily hungry for the first time in her life; +and she had found out what it was to be sorry for some one. + +But as she was listening to the wind she began to listen +to something else. She did not know what it was, +because at first she could scarcely distinguish it from +the wind itself. It was a curious sound--it seemed almost +as if a child were crying somewhere. Sometimes the wind +sounded rather like a child crying, but presently Mistress +Mary felt quite sure this sound was inside the house, +not outside it. It was far away, but it was inside. +She turned round and looked at Martha. + +"Do you hear any one crying?" she said. + +Martha suddenly looked confused. + +"No," she answered. "It's th' wind. Sometimes it +sounds like as if some one was lost on th' moor an' +wailin'. It's got all sorts o' sounds." + +"But listen," said Mary. "It's in the house--down one +of those long corridors." + +And at that very moment a door must have been opened +somewhere downstairs; for a great rushing draft blew along +the passage and the door of the room they sat in was blown +open with a crash, and as they both jumped to their feet +the light was blown out and the crying sound was swept down +the far corridor so that it was to be heard more plainly than ever. + +"There!" said Mary. "I told you so! It is some one +crying--and it isn't a grown-up person." + +Martha ran and shut the door and turned the key, but before +she did it they both heard the sound of a door in some far +passage shutting with a bang, and then everything was quiet, +for even the wind ceased "wutherin'" for a few moments. + +"It was th' wind," said Martha stubbornly. +"An' if it wasn't, it was little Betty Butterworth, +th' scullery-maid. She's had th' toothache all day." + +But something troubled and awkward in her manner made +Mistress Mary stare very hard at her. She did not believe +she was speaking the truth. + + + +CHAPTER VI + +"THERE WAS SOME ONE CRYING--THERE WAS!" + + +The next day the rain poured down in torrents again, +and when Mary looked out of her window the moor was almost +hidden by gray mist and cloud. There could be no going +out today. + +"What do you do in your cottage when it rains like this?" +she asked Martha. + +"Try to keep from under each other's feet mostly," +Martha answered. "Eh! there does seem a lot of us then. +Mother's a good-tempered woman but she gets fair moithered. +The biggest ones goes out in th' cow-shed and plays there. +Dickon he doesn't mind th' wet. He goes out just th' +same as if th' sun was shinin'. He says he sees things +on rainy days as doesn't show when it's fair weather. +He once found a little fox cub half drowned in its hole and he +brought it home in th' bosom of his shirt to keep it warm. +Its mother had been killed nearby an' th' hole was swum +out an' th' rest o' th' litter was dead. He's got it at +home now. He found a half-drowned young crow another time an' +he brought it home, too, an' tamed it. It's named Soot +because it's so black, an' it hops an' flies about with +him everywhere." + +The time had come when Mary had forgotten to resent +Martha's familiar talk. She had even begun to find it +interesting and to be sorry when she stopped or went away. +The stories she had been told by her Ayah when she lived +in India had been quite unlike those Martha had to tell about +the moorland cottage which held fourteen people who lived +in four little rooms and never had quite enough to eat. +The children seemed to tumble about and amuse themselves +like a litter of rough, good-natured collie puppies. +Mary was most attracted by the mother and Dickon. +When Martha told stories of what "mother" said or did they +always sounded comfortable. + +"If I had a raven or a fox cub I could play with it," +said Mary. "But I have nothing." + +Martha looked perplexed. + +"Can tha' knit?" she asked. + +"No," answered Mary. + +"Can tha'sew?" + +"No." + +"Can tha' read?" + +"Yes." + +"Then why doesn't tha, read somethin', or learn a bit o' +spellin'? Tha'st old enough to be learnin' thy book a good +bit now." + +"I haven't any books," said Mary. "Those I had were left +in India." + +"That's a pity," said Martha. "If Mrs. Medlock'd let thee +go into th' library, there's thousands o' books there." + +Mary did not ask where the library was, because she was +suddenly inspired by a new idea. She made up her mind +to go and find it herself. She was not troubled about +Mrs. Medlock. Mrs. Medlock seemed always to be in her +comfortable housekeeper's sitting-room downstairs. +In this queer place one scarcely ever saw any one at all. +In fact, there was no one to see but the servants, +and when their master was away they lived a luxurious +life below stairs, where there was a huge kitchen hung +about with shining brass and pewter, and a large servants' +hall where there were four or five abundant meals eaten +every day, and where a great deal of lively romping went on +when Mrs. Medlock was out of the way. + +Mary's meals were served regularly, and Martha waited on her, +but no one troubled themselves about her in the least. +Mrs. Medlock came and looked at her every day or two, +but no one inquired what she did or told her what to do. +She supposed that perhaps this was the English way of +treating children. In India she had always been attended +by her Ayah, who had followed her about and waited on her, +hand and foot. She had often been tired of her company. +Now she was followed by nobody and was learning to dress +herself because Martha looked as though she thought she was +silly and stupid when she wanted to have things handed to her +and put on. + +"Hasn't tha' got good sense?" she said once, when Mary +had stood waiting for her to put on her gloves for her. +"Our Susan Ann is twice as sharp as thee an' she's only +four year' old. Sometimes tha' looks fair soft in th' head." + +Mary had worn her contrary scowl for an hour after that, +but it made her think several entirely new things. + +She stood at the window for about ten minutes this morning +after Martha had swept up the hearth for the last time +and gone downstairs. She was thinking over the new idea +which had come to her when she heard of the library. +She did not care very much about the library itself, +because she had read very few books; but to hear of it brought +back to her mind the hundred rooms with closed doors. +She wondered if they were all really locked and what +she would find if she could get into any of them. +Were there a hundred really? Why shouldn't she go and see +how many doors she could count? It would be something +to do on this morning when she could not go out. +She had never been taught to ask permission to do things, +and she knew nothing at all about authority, so she would +not have thought it necessary to ask Mrs. Medlock if she +might walk about the house, even if she had seen her. + +She opened the door of the room and went into the corridor, +and then she began her wanderings. It was a long corridor +and it branched into other corridors and it led her up +short flights of steps which mounted to others again. +There were doors and doors, and there were pictures +on the walls. Sometimes they were pictures of dark, +curious landscapes, but oftenest they were portraits +of men and women in queer, grand costumes made of satin +and velvet. She found herself in one long gallery +whose walls were covered with these portraits. She had +never thought there could be so many in any house. +She walked slowly down this place and stared at the faces +which also seemed to stare at her. She felt as if they +were wondering what a little girl from India was doing +in their house. Some were pictures of children--little +girls in thick satin frocks which reached to their feet +and stood out about them, and boys with puffed sleeves +and lace collars and long hair, or with big ruffs around +their necks. She always stopped to look at the children, +and wonder what their names were, and where they had gone, +and why they wore such odd clothes. There was a stiff, +plain little girl rather like herself. She wore a green +brocade dress and held a green parrot on her finger. +Her eyes had a sharp, curious look. + +"Where do you live now?" said Mary aloud to her. +"I wish you were here." + +Surely no other little girl ever spent such a queer morning. +It seemed as if there was no one in all the huge rambling +house but her own small self, wandering about upstairs +and down, through narrow passages and wide ones, where it +seemed to her that no one but herself had ever walked. +Since so many rooms had been built, people must have lived +in them, but it all seemed so empty that she could not quite +believe it true. + +It was not until she climbed to the second floor that she +thought of turning the handle of a door. All the doors +were shut, as Mrs. Medlock had said they were, but at last she +put her hand on the handle of one of them and turned it. +She was almost frightened for a moment when she felt +that it turned without difficulty and that when she pushed +upon the door itself it slowly and heavily opened. +It was a massive door and opened into a big bedroom. +There were embroidered hangings on the wall, and inlaid +furniture such as she had seen in India stood about the room. +A broad window with leaded panes looked out upon the moor; +and over the mantel was another portrait of the stiff, +plain little girl who seemed to stare at her more curiously +than ever. + +"Perhaps she slept here once," said Mary. "She stares +at me so that she makes me feel queer." + +After that she opened more doors and more. She saw +so many rooms that she became quite tired and began +to think that there must be a hundred, though she had not +counted them. In all of them there were old pictures +or old tapestries with strange scenes worked on them. +There were curious pieces of furniture and curious +ornaments in nearly all of them. + +In one room, which looked like a lady's sitting-room, +the hangings were all embroidered velvet, and in a cabinet +were about a hundred little elephants made of ivory. +They were of different sizes, and some had their mahouts +or palanquins on their backs. Some were much bigger than the +others and some were so tiny that they seemed only babies. +Mary had seen carved ivory in India and she knew all +about elephants. She opened the door of the cabinet +and stood on a footstool and played with these for quite +a long time. When she got tired she set the elephants +in order and shut the door of the cabinet. + +In all her wanderings through the long corridors and the +empty rooms, she had seen nothing alive; but in this +room she saw something. Just after she had closed the +cabinet door she heard a tiny rustling sound. It made +her jump and look around at the sofa by the fireplace, +from which it seemed to come. In the corner of the sofa +there was a cushion, and in the velvet which covered +it there was a hole, and out of the hole peeped a tiny +head with a pair of tightened eyes in it. + +Mary crept softly across the room to look. The bright eyes +belonged to a little gray mouse, and the mouse had eaten +a hole into the cushion and made a comfortable nest there. +Six baby mice were cuddled up asleep near her. If there +was no one else alive in the hundred rooms there were +seven mice who did not look lonely at all. + +"If they wouldn't be so frightened I would take them back +with me," said Mary. + +She had wandered about long enough to feel too tired +to wander any farther, and she turned back. Two or three +times she lost her way by turning down the wrong corridor +and was obliged to ramble up and down until she found +the right one; but at last she reached her own floor again, +though she was some distance from her own room and did +not know exactly where she was. + +"I believe I have taken a wrong turning again," she said, +standing still at what seemed the end of a short passage +with tapestry on the wall. "I don't know which way to go. +How still everything is!" + +It was while she was standing here and just after she +had said this that the stillness was broken by a sound. +It was another cry, but not quite like the one she had heard +last night; it was only a short one, a fretful childish +whine muffled by passing through walls. + +"It's nearer than it was," said Mary, her heart beating +rather faster. "And it is crying." + +She put her hand accidentally upon the tapestry near her, +and then sprang back, feeling quite startled. The tapestry +was the covering of a door which fell open and showed +her that there was another part of the corridor behind it, +and Mrs. Medlock was coming up it with her bunch of keys +in her hand and a very cross look on her face. + +"What are you doing here?" she said, and she took Mary +by the arm and pulled her away. "What did I tell you?" + +"I turned round the wrong corner," explained Mary. +"I didn't know which way to go and I heard some one crying." +She quite hated Mrs. Medlock at the moment, but she hated +her more the next. + +"You didn't hear anything of the sort," said the housekeeper. +"You come along back to your own nursery or I'll box +your ears." + +And she took her by the arm and half pushed, half pulled +her up one passage and down another until she pushed +her in at the door of her own room. + +"Now," she said, "you stay where you're told to stay +or you'll find yourself locked up. The master had +better get you a governess, same as he said he would. +You're one that needs some one to look sharp after you. +I've got enough to do." + +She went out of the room and slammed the door after her, +and Mary went and sat on the hearth-rug, pale with rage. +She did not cry, but ground her teeth. + +"There was some one crying--there was--there was!" +she said to herself. + +She had heard it twice now, and sometime she would find out. +She had found out a great deal this morning. She felt +as if she had been on a long journey, and at any rate +she had had something to amuse her all the time, and she +had played with the ivory elephants and had seen the gray +mouse and its babies in their nest in the velvet cushion. + + + +CHAPTER VII + +THE KEY TO THE GARDEN + + +Two days after this, when Mary opened her eyes she sat +upright in bed immediately, and called to Martha. + +"Look at the moor! Look at the moor!" + +The rainstorm had ended and the gray mist and clouds +had been swept away in the night by the wind. The wind +itself had ceased and a brilliant, deep blue sky arched +high over the moorland. Never, never had Mary dreamed +of a sky so blue. In India skies were hot and blazing; +this was of a deep cool blue which almost seemed to +sparkle like the waters of some lovely bottomless lake, +and here and there, high, high in the arched blueness +floated small clouds of snow-white fleece. The far-reaching +world of the moor itself looked softly blue instead +of gloomy purple-black or awful dreary gray. + +"Aye," said Martha with a cheerful grin. "Th' storm's +over for a bit. It does like this at this time o' +th' year. It goes off in a night like it was pretendin' +it had never been here an' never meant to come again. +That's because th' springtime's on its way. It's a long +way off yet, but it's comin'." + +"I thought perhaps it always rained or looked dark +in England," Mary said. + +"Eh! no!" said Martha, sitting up on her heels among +her black lead brushes. "Nowt o' th' soart!" + +"What does that mean?" asked Mary seriously. In India +the natives spoke different dialects which only a few +people understood, so she was not surprised when Martha +used words she did not know. + +Martha laughed as she had done the first morning. + +"There now," she said. "I've talked broad Yorkshire again +like Mrs. Medlock said I mustn't. `Nowt o' th' soart' +means `nothin'-of-the-sort,'" slowly and carefully, +"but it takes so long to say it. Yorkshire's th' +sunniest place on earth when it is sunny. I told thee +tha'd like th' moor after a bit. Just you wait till you +see th' gold-colored gorse blossoms an' th' blossoms o' +th' broom, an' th' heather flowerin', all purple bells, an' +hundreds o' butterflies flutterin' an' bees hummin' an' +skylarks soarin' up an' singin'. You'll want to get out on +it as sunrise an' live out on it all day like Dickon does." +"Could I ever get there?" asked Mary wistfully, +looking through her window at the far-off blue. +It was so new and big and wonderful and such a heavenly color. + +"I don't know," answered Martha. "Tha's never used tha' +legs since tha' was born, it seems to me. Tha' couldn't walk +five mile. It's five mile to our cottage." + +"I should like to see your cottage." + +Martha stared at her a moment curiously before she took +up her polishing brush and began to rub the grate again. +She was thining that the small plain face did not look quite +as sour at this moment as it had done the first morning +she saw it. It looked just a trifle like little Susan +Ann's when she wanted something very much. + +"I'll ask my mother about it," she said. "She's one o' +them that nearly always sees a way to do things. +It's my day out today an' I'm goin' home. Eh! I am glad. +Mrs. Medlock thinks a lot o' mother. Perhaps she could talk +to her." + +"I like your mother," said Mary. + +"I should think tha' did," agreed Martha, polishing away. + +"I've never seen her," said Mary. + +"No, tha' hasn't," replied Martha. + +She sat up on her heels again and rubbed the end of her +nose with the back of her hand as if puzzled for a moment, +but she ended quite positively. + +"Well, she's that sensible an' hard workin' an' goodnatured an' +clean that no one could help likin' her whether they'd +seen her or not. When I'm goin' home to her on my day +out I just jump for joy when I'm crossin' the moor." + +"I like Dickon," added Mary. "And I've never seen him." + +"Well," said Martha stoutly, "I've told thee that th' +very birds likes him an' th' rabbits an' wild sheep an' +ponies, an' th' foxes themselves. I wonder," staring at +her reflectively, "what Dickon would think of thee?" + +"He wouldn't like me," said Mary in her stiff, +cold little way. "No one does." + +Martha looked reflective again. + +"How does tha' like thysel'?" she inquired, really quite +as if she were curious to know. + +Mary hesitated a moment and thought it over. + +"Not at all--really," she answered. "But I never thought +of that before." + +Martha grinned a little as if at some homely recollection. + +"Mother said that to me once," she said. "She was at her +wash- tub an' I was in a bad temper an' talkin' ill of folk, +an' she turns round on me an' says: `Tha' young vixen, +tha'! There tha' stands sayin' tha' doesn't like this one an' +tha' doesn't like that one. How does tha' like thysel'?' +It made me laugh an' it brought me to my senses in a minute." + +She went away in high spirits as soon as she had given +Mary her breakfast. She was going to walk five miles +across the moor to the cottage, and she was going to help +her mother with the washing and do the week's baking +and enjoy herself thoroughly. + +Mary felt lonelier than ever when she knew she was no longer +in the house. She went out into the garden as quickly +as possible, and the first thing she did was to run +round and round the fountain flower garden ten times. +She counted the times carefully and when she had finished +she felt in better spirits. The sunshine made the +whole place look different. The high, deep, blue sky +arched over Misselthwaite as well as over the moor, +and she kept lifting her face and looking up into it, +trying to imagine what it would be like to lie down on +one of the little snow-white clouds and float about. +She went into the first kitchen-garden and found Ben +Weatherstaff working there with two other gardeners. +The change in the weather seemed to have done him good. +He spoke to her of his own accord. "Springtime's comin,'" +he said. "Cannot tha' smell it?" + +Mary sniffed and thought she could. + +"I smell something nice and fresh and damp," she said. + +"That's th' good rich earth," he answered, digging away. +"It's in a good humor makin' ready to grow things. +It's glad when plantin' time comes. It's dull in th' +winter when it's got nowt to do. In th' flower gardens out +there things will be stirrin' down below in th' dark. Th' +sun's warmin' 'em. You'll see bits o' green spikes stickin' +out o' th' black earth after a bit." + +"What will they be?" asked Mary. + +"Crocuses an' snowdrops an' daffydowndillys. Has tha' +never seen them?" + +"No. Everything is hot, and wet, and green after the +rains in India," said Mary. "And I think things grow +up in a night." + +"These won't grow up in a night," said Weatherstaff. +"Tha'll have to wait for 'em. They'll poke up a bit +higher here, an' push out a spike more there, an' uncurl a +leaf this day an' another that. You watch 'em." + +"I am going to," answered Mary. + +Very soon she heard the soft rustling flight of wings +again and she knew at once that the robin had come again. +He was very pert and lively, and hopped about so close +to her feet, and put his head on one side and looked at +her so slyly that she asked Ben Weatherstaff a question. + +"Do you think he remembers me?" she said. + +"Remembers thee!" said Weatherstaff indignantly. +"He knows every cabbage stump in th' gardens, let +alone th' people. He's never seen a little wench +here before, an' he's bent on findin' out all about thee. +Tha's no need to try to hide anything from him." + +"Are things stirring down below in the dark in that garden +where he lives?" Mary inquired. + +"What garden?" grunted Weatherstaff, becoming surly again. + +"The one where the old rose-trees are." She could +not help asking, because she wanted so much to know. +"Are all the flowers dead, or do some of them come again +in the summer? Are there ever any roses?" + +"Ask him," said Ben Weatherstaff, hunching his shoulders +toward the robin. "He's the only one as knows. +No one else has seen inside it for ten year'." + +Ten years was a long time, Mary thought. She had been +born ten years ago. + +She walked away, slowly thinking. She had begun to +like the garden just as she had begun to like the robin +and Dickon and Martha's mother. She was beginning +to like Martha, too. That seemed a good many people +to like--when you were not used to liking. She thought +of the robin as one of the people. She went to her walk +outside the long, ivy-covered wall over which she could +see the tree-tops; and the second time she walked up +and down the most interesting and exciting thing happened +to her, and it was all through Ben Weatherstaff's robin. + +She heard a chirp and a twitter, and when she looked +at the bare flower-bed at her left side there he was +hopping about and pretending to peck things out of the +earth to persuade her that he had not followed her. +But she knew he had followed her and the surprise so filled +her with delight that she almost trembled a little. + +"You do remember me!" she cried out. "You do! You are +prettier than anything else in the world!" + +She chirped, and talked, and coaxed and he hopped, +and flirted his tail and twittered. It was as if he +were talking. His red waistcoat was like satin and he +puffed his tiny breast out and was so fine and so grand +and so pretty that it was really as if he were showing her +how important and like a human person a robin could be. +Mistress Mary forgot that she had ever been contrary +in her life when he allowed her to draw closer and closer +to him, and bend down and talk and try to make something +like robin sounds. + +Oh! to think that he should actually let her come as near +to him as that! He knew nothing in the world would make +her put out her hand toward him or startle him in the +least tiniest way. He knew it because he was a real +person--only nicer than any other person in the world. +She was so happy that she scarcely dared to breathe. + +The flower-bed was not quite bare. It was bare of flowers +because the perennial plants had been cut down for their +winter rest, but there were tall shrubs and low ones which grew +together at the back of the bed, and as the robin hopped +about under them she saw him hop over a small pile of freshly +turned up earth. He stopped on it to look for a worm. +The earth had been turned up because a dog had been trying +to dig up a mole and he had scratched quite a deep hole. + +Mary looked at it, not really knowing why the hole was there, +and as she looked she saw something almost buried in the +newly-turned soil. It was something like a ring of rusty +iron or brass and when the robin flew up into a tree +nearby she put out her hand and picked the ring up. +It was more than a ring, however; it was an old key +which looked as if it had been buried a long time. + +Mistress Mary stood up and looked at it with an almost +frightened face as it hung from her finger. + +"Perhaps it has been buried for ten years," she said +in a whisper. "Perhaps it is the key to the garden!" + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +THE ROBIN WHO SHOWED THE WAY + + +She looked at the key quite a long time. She turned it +over and over, and thought about it. As I have said before, +she was not a child who had been trained to ask permission +or consult her elders about things. All she thought about +the key was that if it was the key to the closed garden, +and she could find out where the door was, she could +perhaps open it and see what was inside the walls, +and what had happened to the old rose-trees. It was because +it had been shut up so long that she wanted to see it. +It seemed as if it must be different from other places +and that something strange must have happened to it +during ten years. Besides that, if she liked it she +could go into it every day and shut the door behind her, +and she could make up some play of her own and play it +quite alone, because nobody would ever know where she was, +but would think the door was still locked and the key +buried in the earth. The thought of that pleased her +very much. + +Living as it were, all by herself in a house with a hundred +mysteriously closed rooms and having nothing whatever +to do to amuse herself, had set her inactive brain +to working and was actually awakening her imagination. +There is no doubt that the fresh, strong, pure air from the +moor had a great deal to do with it. Just as it had given +her an appetite, and fighting with the wind had stirred +her blood, so the same things had stirred her mind. +In India she had always been too hot and languid and weak +to care much about anything, but in this place she +was beginning to care and to want to do new things. +Already she felt less "contrary," though she did not +know why. + +She put the key in her pocket and walked up and down +her walk. No one but herself ever seemed to come there, +so she could walk slowly and look at the wall, or, rather, +at the ivy growing on it. The ivy was the baffling thing. +Howsoever carefully she looked she could see nothing +but thickly growing, glossy, dark green leaves. She was +very much disappointed. Something of her contrariness +came back to her as she paced the walk and looked over it +at the tree-tops inside. It seemed so silly, she said +to herself, to be near it and not be able to get in. +She took the key in her pocket when she went back to +the house, and she made up her mind that she would always +carry it with her when she went out, so that if she ever +should find the hidden door she would be ready. + +Mrs. Medlock had allowed Martha to sleep all night at +the cottage, but she was back at her work in the morning +with cheeks redder than ever and in the best of spirits. + +"I got up at four o'clock," she said. "Eh! it was pretty on th' +moor with th' birds gettin' up an' th' rabbits scamperin' +about an' th' sun risin'. I didn't walk all th' way. A man +gave me a ride in his cart an' I did enjoy myself." + +She was full of stories of the delights of her day out. +Her mother had been glad to see her and they had got the +baking and washing all out of the way. She had even made +each of the children a doughcake with a bit of brown sugar +in it. + +"I had 'em all pipin' hot when they came in from playin' +on th' moor. An' th' cottage all smelt o' nice, clean hot bakin' +an' there was a good fire, an' they just shouted for joy. +Our Dickon he said our cottage was good enough for a king." + +In the evening they had all sat round the fire, +and Martha and her mother had sewed patches on torn +clothes and mended stockings and Martha had told them +about the little girl who had come from India and who had +been waited on all her life by what Martha called "blacks" +until she didn't know how to put on her own stockings. + +"Eh! they did like to hear about you," said Martha. +"They wanted to know all about th' blacks an' about th' +ship you came in. I couldn't tell 'em enough." + +Mary reflected a little. + +"I'll tell you a great deal more before your next day out," +she said, "so that you will have more to talk about. +I dare say they would like to hear about riding on elephants +and camels, and about the officers going to hunt tigers." + +"My word!" cried delighted Martha. "It would set 'em +clean off their heads. Would tha' really do that, +Miss? It would be same as a wild beast show like we heard +they had in York once." + +"India is quite different from Yorkshire," Mary said slowly, +as she thought the matter over. "I never thought of that. +Did Dickon and your mother like to hear you talk about me?" + +"Why, our Dickon's eyes nearly started out o' his head, +they got that round," answered Martha. "But mother, she was +put out about your seemin' to be all by yourself like. +She said, 'Hasn't Mr. Craven got no governess for her, +nor no nurse?' and I said, 'No, he hasn't, though Mrs. Medlock +says he will when he thinks of it, but she says he mayn't +think of it for two or three years.'" + +"I don't want a governess," said Mary sharply. + +"But mother says you ought to be learnin' your book by this time an' +you ought to have a woman to look after you, an' she says: +`Now, Martha, you just think how you'd feel yourself, in a big +place like that, wanderin' about all alone, an' no mother. +You do your best to cheer her up,' she says, an' I said I would." + +Mary gave her a long, steady look. + +"You do cheer me up," she said. "I like to hear you talk." + +Presently Martha went out of the room and came back +with something held in her hands under her apron. + +"What does tha' think," she said, with a cheerful grin. +"I've brought thee a present." + +"A present!" exclaimed Mistress Mary. How could a cottage +full of fourteen hungry people give any one a present! + +"A man was drivin' across the moor peddlin'," Martha explained. +"An' he stopped his cart at our door. He had pots an' +pans an' odds an' ends, but mother had no money to buy +anythin'. Just as he was goin' away our 'Lizabeth Ellen +called out, `Mother, he's got skippin'-ropes with red an' +blue handles.' An' mother she calls out quite sudden, +`Here, stop, mister! How much are they?' An' he says +`Tuppence', an' mother she began fumblin' in her pocket an' +she says to me, `Martha, tha's brought me thy wages like +a good lass, an' I've got four places to put every penny, +but I'm just goin' to take tuppence out of it to buy +that child a skippin'-rope,' an' she bought one an' +here it is." + +She brought it out from under her apron and exhibited +it quite proudly. It was a strong, slender rope +with a striped red and blue handle at each end, +but Mary Lennox had never seen a skipping-rope before. +She gazed at it with a mystified expression. + +"What is it for?" she asked curiously. + +"For!" cried out Martha. "Does tha' mean that they've not +got skippin'-ropes in India, for all they've got elephants +and tigers and camels! No wonder most of 'em's black. +This is what it's for; just watch me." + +And she ran into the middle of the room and, taking a +handle in each hand, began to skip, and skip, and skip, +while Mary turned in her chair to stare at her, and the +queer faces in the old portraits seemed to stare at her, +too, and wonder what on earth this common little cottager +had the impudence to be doing under their very noses. +But Martha did not even see them. The interest and curiosity +in Mistress Mary's face delighted her, and she went on skipping +and counted as she skipped until she had reached a hundred. + +"I could skip longer than that," she said when she stopped. +"I've skipped as much as five hundred when I was twelve, +but I wasn't as fat then as I am now, an' I was in practice." + +Mary got up from her chair beginning to feel excited herself. + +"It looks nice," she said. "Your mother is a kind woman. +Do you think I could ever skip like that?" + +"You just try it," urged Martha, handing her the skipping- rope. +"You can't skip a hundred at first, but if you practice +you'll mount up. That's what mother said. She says, +`Nothin' will do her more good than skippin' rope. It's th' +sensiblest toy a child can have. Let her play out in th' +fresh air skippin' an' it'll stretch her legs an' arms an' +give her some strength in 'em.'" + +It was plain that there was not a great deal of strength +in Mistress Mary's arms and legs when she first began +to skip. She was not very clever at it, but she liked +it so much that she did not want to stop. + +"Put on tha' things and run an' skip out o' doors," +said Martha. "Mother said I must tell you to keep out o' +doors as much as you could, even when it rains a bit, +so as tha' wrap up warm." + +Mary put on her coat and hat and took her skipping-rope +over her arm. She opened the door to go out, and then +suddenly thought of something and turned back rather slowly. + +"Martha," she said, "they were your wages. It was your +two-pence really. Thank you." She said it stiffly +because she was not used to thanking people or noticing +that they did things for her. "Thank you," she said, +and held out her hand because she did not know what else +to do. + +Martha gave her hand a clumsy little shake, as if she +was not accustomed to this sort of thing either. +Then she laughed. + +"Eh! th' art a queer, old-womanish thing," she said. +"If tha'd been our 'Lizabeth Ellen tha'd have given me +a kiss." + +Mary looked stiffer than ever. + +"Do you want me to kiss you?" + +Martha laughed again. + +"Nay, not me," she answered. "If tha' was different, +p'raps tha'd want to thysel'. But tha' isn't. Run off +outside an' play with thy rope." + +Mistress Mary felt a little awkward as she went out of +the room. Yorkshire people seemed strange, and Martha was +always rather a puzzle to her. At first she had disliked +her very much, but now she did not. The skipping-rope +was a wonderful thing. She counted and skipped, +and skipped and counted, until her cheeks were quite red, +and she was more interested than she had ever been since +she was born. The sun was shining and a little wind was +blowing--not a rough wind, but one which came in delightful +little gusts and brought a fresh scent of newly turned +earth with it. She skipped round the fountain garden, +and up one walk and down another. She skipped at last +into the kitchen-garden and saw Ben Weatherstaff digging +and talking to his robin, which was hopping about him. +She skipped down the walk toward him and he lifted +his head and looked at her with a curious expression. +She had wondered if he would notice her. She wanted him +to see her skip. + +"Well!" he exclaimed. "Upon my word. P'raps tha' +art a young 'un, after all, an' p'raps tha's got +child's blood in thy veins instead of sour buttermilk. +Tha's skipped red into thy cheeks as sure as my name's +Ben Weatherstaff. I wouldn't have believed tha' +could do it." + +"I never skipped before," Mary said. "I'm just beginning. +I can only go up to twenty." + +"Tha' keep on," said Ben. "Tha' shapes well enough at it +for a young 'un that's lived with heathen. Just see how +he's watchin' thee," jerking his head toward the robin. +"He followed after thee yesterday. He'll be at it again today. +He'll be bound to find out what th' skippin'-rope is. +He's never seen one. Eh!" shaking his head at the bird, +"tha' curiosity will be th' death of thee sometime if tha' +doesn't look sharp." + +Mary skipped round all the gardens and round the orchard, +resting every few minutes. At length she went to her +own special walk and made up her mind to try if she +could skip the whole length of it. It was a good long +skip and she began slowly, but before she had gone +half-way down the path she was so hot and breathless +that she was obliged to stop. She did not mind much, +because she had already counted up to thirty. +She stopped with a little laugh of pleasure, and there, +lo and behold, was the robin swaying on a long branch of ivy. +He had followed her and he greeted her with a chirp. +As Mary had skipped toward him she felt something heavy +in her pocket strike against her at each jump, and when she +saw the robin she laughed again. + +"You showed me where the key was yesterday," she said. +"You ought to show me the door today; but I don't believe +you know!" + +The robin flew from his swinging spray of ivy on to the +top of the wall and he opened his beak and sang a loud, +lovely trill, merely to show off. Nothing in the world +is quite as adorably lovely as a robin when he shows +off--and they are nearly always doing it. + +Mary Lennox had heard a great deal about Magic in her +Ayah's stories, and she always said that what happened +almost at that moment was Magic. + +One of the nice little gusts of wind rushed down +the walk, and it was a stronger one than the rest. +It was strong enough to wave the branches of the trees, +and it was more than strong enough to sway the trailing +sprays of untrimmed ivy hanging from the wall. Mary had +stepped close to the robin, and suddenly the gust of wind +swung aside some loose ivy trails, and more suddenly +still she jumped toward it and caught it in her hand. +This she did because she had seen something under it--a round +knob which had been covered by the leaves hanging over it. +It was the knob of a door. + +She put her hands under the leaves and began to pull +and push them aside. Thick as the ivy hung, it nearly +all was a loose and swinging curtain, though some had crept +over wood and iron. Mary's heart began to thump and her +hands to shake a little in her delight and excitement. +The robin kept singing and twittering away and tilting +his head on one side, as if he were as excited as she was. +What was this under her hands which was square and made +of iron and which her fingers found a hole in? + +It was the lock of the door which had been closed ten +years and she put her hand in her pocket, drew out the key +and found it fitted the keyhole. She put the key in and +turned it. It took two hands to do it, but it did turn. + +And then she took a long breath and looked behind +her up the long walk to see if any one was coming. +No one was coming. No one ever did come, it seemed, +and she took another long breath, because she could not +help it, and she held back the swinging curtain of ivy +and pushed back the door which opened slowly--slowly. + +Then she slipped through it, and shut it behind her, +and stood with her back against it, looking about her +and breathing quite fast with excitement, and wonder, +and delight. + +She was standing inside the secret garden. + + + +CHAPTER IX + +THE STRANGEST HOUSE ANY ONE EVER LIVED IN + + +It was the sweetest, most mysterious-looking place +any one could imagine. The high walls which shut it +in were covered with the leafless stems of climbing roses +which were so thick that they were matted together. +Mary Lennox knew they were roses because she had seen +a great many roses in India. All the ground was covered +with grass of a wintry brown and out of it grew clumps +of bushes which were surely rosebushes if they were alive. +There were numbers of standard roses which had so spread +their branches that they were like little trees. +There were other trees in the garden, and one of the +things which made the place look strangest and loveliest +was that climbing roses had run all over them and swung +down long tendrils which made light swaying curtains, +and here and there they had caught at each other or +at a far-reaching branch and had crept from one tree +to another and made lovely bridges of themselves. +There were neither leaves nor roses on them now and Mary +did not know whether they were dead or alive, but their +thin gray or brown branches and sprays looked like a sort +of hazy mantle spreading over everything, walls, and trees, +and even brown grass, where they had fallen from their +fastenings and run along the ground. It was this hazy tangle +from tree to tree which made it all look so mysterious. +Mary had thought it must be different from other gardens +which had not been left all by themselves so long; +and indeed it was different from any other place she had +ever seen in her life. + +"How still it is!" she whispered. "How still!" + +Then she waited a moment and listened at the stillness. +The robin, who had flown to his treetop, was still +as all the rest. He did not even flutter his wings; +he sat without stirring, and looked at Mary. + +"No wonder it is still," she whispered again. "I am +the first person who has spoken in here for ten years." + +She moved away from the door, stepping as softly as if she +were afraid of awakening some one. She was glad that there +was grass under her feet and that her steps made no sounds. +She walked under one of the fairy-like gray arches +between the trees and looked up at the sprays and tendrils +which formed them. "I wonder if they are all quite dead," +she said. "Is it all a quite dead garden? I wish it wasn't." + +If she had been Ben Weatherstaff she could have told +whether the wood was alive by looking at it, but she +could only see that there were only gray or brown sprays +and branches and none showed any signs of even a tiny +leaf-bud anywhere. + +But she was inside the wonderful garden and she could +come through the door under the ivy any time and she +felt as if she had found a world all her own. + +The sun was shining inside the four walls and the high arch +of blue sky over this particular piece of Misselthwaite +seemed even more brilliant and soft than it was over +the moor. The robin flew down from his tree-top and +hopped about or flew after her from one bush to another. +He chirped a good deal and had a very busy air, as if he +were showing her things. Everything was strange and +silent and she seemed to be hundreds of miles away from +any one, but somehow she did not feel lonely at all. +All that troubled her was her wish that she knew whether +all the roses were dead, or if perhaps some of them had +lived and might put out leaves and buds as the weather +got warmer. She did not want it to be a quite dead garden. +If it were a quite alive garden, how wonderful it would be, +and what thousands of roses would grow on every side! + +Her skipping-rope had hung over her arm when she came +in and after she had walked about for a while she thought +she would skip round the whole garden, stopping when she +wanted to look at things. There seemed to have been +grass paths here and there, and in one or two corners +there were alcoves of evergreen with stone seats or tall +moss-covered flower urns in them. + +As she came near the second of these alcoves she +stopped skipping. There had once been a flowerbed in it, +and she thought she saw something sticking out of the +black earth- -some sharp little pale green points. +She remembered what Ben Weatherstaff had said and she +knelt down to look at them. + +"Yes, they are tiny growing things and they might be +crocuses or snowdrops or daffodils," she whispered. + +She bent very close to them and sniffed the fresh scent +of the damp earth. She liked it very much. + +"Perhaps there are some other ones coming up in other places," +she said. "I will go all over the garden and look." + +She did not skip, but walked. She went slowly and kept +her eyes on the ground. She looked in the old border +beds and among the grass, and after she had gone round, +trying to miss nothing, she had found ever so many more sharp, +pale green points, and she had become quite excited again. + +"It isn't a quite dead garden," she cried out softly to herself. +"Even if the roses are dead, there are other things alive." + +She did not know anything about gardening, but the grass +seemed so thick in some of the places where the green +points were pushing their way through that she thought +they did not seem to have room enough to grow. +She searched about until she found a rather sharp piece +of wood and knelt down and dug and weeded out the weeds +and grass until she made nice little clear places around them. + +"Now they look as if they could breathe," she said, +after she had finished with the first ones. "I am +going to do ever so many more. I'll do all I can see. +If I haven't time today I can come tomorrow." + +She went from place to place, and dug and weeded, +and enjoyed herself so immensely that she was led on +from bed to bed and into the grass under the trees. +The exercise made her so warm that she first threw her +coat off, and then her hat, and without knowing it she +was smiling down on to the grass and the pale green points +all the time. + +The robin was tremendously busy. He was very much +pleased to see gardening begun on his own estate. +He had often wondered at Ben Weatherstaff. Where gardening +is done all sorts of delightful things to eat are turned +up with the soil. Now here was this new kind of creature +who was not half Ben's size and yet had had the sense +to come into his garden and begin at once. + +Mistress Mary worked in her garden until it was time +to go to her midday dinner. In fact, she was rather +late in remembering, and when she put on her coat +and hat, and picked up her skipping-rope, she could not +believe that she had been working two or three hours. +She had been actually happy all the time; and dozens +and dozens of the tiny, pale green points were to be seen +in cleared places, looking twice as cheerful as they had +looked before when the grass and weeds had been smothering them. + +"I shall come back this afternoon," she said, looking all +round at her new kingdom, and speaking to the trees +and the rose-bushes as if they heard her. + +Then she ran lightly across the grass, pushed open +the slow old door and slipped through it under the ivy. +She had such red cheeks and such bright eyes and ate such +a dinner that Martha was delighted. + +"Two pieces o' meat an' two helps o' rice puddin'!" she said. +"Eh! mother will be pleased when I tell her what th' +skippin'-rope's done for thee." + +In the course of her digging with her pointed stick +Mistress Mary had found herself digging up a sort of white +root rather like an onion. She had put it back in its +place and patted the earth carefully down on it and just +now she wondered if Martha could tell her what it was. + +"Martha," she said, "what are those white roots that look +like onions?" + +"They're bulbs," answered Martha. "Lots o' spring flowers +grow from 'em. Th' very little ones are snowdrops an' +crocuses an' th' big ones are narcissuses an' jonquils +and daffydowndillys. Th' biggest of all is lilies an' +purple flags. Eh! they are nice. Dickon's got a whole +lot of 'em planted in our bit o' garden." + +"Does Dickon know all about them?" asked Mary, a new idea +taking possession of her. + +"Our Dickon can make a flower grow out of a brick walk. +Mother says he just whispers things out o' th' ground." + +"Do bulbs live a long time? Would they live years and +years if no one helped them?" inquired Mary anxiously. + +"They're things as helps themselves," said Martha. "That's why +poor folk can afford to have 'em. If you don't trouble 'em, +most of 'em'll work away underground for a lifetime an' +spread out an' have little 'uns. There's a place in th' +park woods here where there's snowdrops by thousands. +They're the prettiest sight in Yorkshire when th' +spring comes. No one knows when they was first planted." + +"I wish the spring was here now," said Mary. "I want +to see all the things that grow in England." + +She had finished her dinner and gone to her favorite seat +on the hearth-rug. + +"I wish--I wish I had a little spade," she said. +"Whatever does tha' want a spade for?" asked Martha, laughing. +"Art tha' goin' to take to diggin'? I must tell mother that, too." + +Mary looked at the fire and pondered a little. She must +be careful if she meant to keep her secret kingdom. +She wasn't doing any harm, but if Mr. Craven found out +about the open door he would be fearfully angry and get +a new key and lock it up forevermore. She really could +not bear that. + +"This is such a big lonely place," she said slowly, as if she +were turning matters over in her mind. "The house is lonely, +and the park is lonely, and the gardens are lonely. +So many places seem shut up. I never did many things +in India, but there were more people to look at--natives +and soldiers marching by--and sometimes bands playing, +and my Ayah told me stories. There is no one to talk to +here except you and Ben Weatherstaff. And you have to do +your work and Ben Weatherstaff won't speak to me often. +I thought if I had a little spade I could dig somewhere +as he does, and I might make a little garden if he would +give me some seeds." + +Martha's face quite lighted up. + +"There now!" she exclaimed, "if that wasn't one of th' +things mother said. She says, `There's such a lot o' +room in that big place, why don't they give her a +bit for herself, even if she doesn't plant nothin' +but parsley an' radishes? She'd dig an' rake away an' +be right down happy over it.' Them was the very words +she said." + +"Were they?" said Mary. "How many things she knows, +doesn't she?" + +"Eh!" said Martha. "It's like she says: `A woman as +brings up twelve children learns something besides her A +B C. Children's as good as 'rithmetic to set you findin' +out things.'" + +"How much would a spade cost--a little one?" Mary asked. + +"Well," was Martha's reflective answer, "at Thwaite +village there's a shop or so an' I saw little garden sets +with a spade an' a rake an' a fork all tied together for +two shillings. An' they was stout enough to work with, too." + +"I've got more than that in my purse," said Mary. +"Mrs. Morrison gave me five shillings and Mrs. Medlock +gave me some money from Mr. Craven." + +"Did he remember thee that much?" exclaimed Martha. + +"Mrs. Medlock said I was to have a shilling a week to spend. +She gives me one every Saturday. I didn't know what to +spend it on." + +"My word! that's riches," said Martha. "Tha' can buy +anything in th' world tha' wants. Th' rent of our +cottage is only one an' threepence an' it's like pullin' +eye-teeth to get it. Now I've just thought of somethin'," +putting her hands on her hips. + +"What?" said Mary eagerly. + +"In the shop at Thwaite they sell packages o' +flower-seeds for a penny each, and our Dickon he knows +which is th' prettiest ones an, how to make 'em grow. +He walks over to Thwaite many a day just for th' fun of it. +Does tha' know how to print letters?" suddenly. + +"I know how to write," Mary answered. + +Martha shook her head. + +"Our Dickon can only read printin'. If tha' could print we +could write a letter to him an' ask him to go an' buy th' +garden tools an' th' seeds at th' same time." + +"Oh! you're a good girl!" Mary cried. "You are, really! I +didn't know you were so nice. I know I can print letters +if I try. Let's ask Mrs. Medlock for a pen and ink and some paper." + +"I've got some of my own," said Martha. "I bought 'em +so I could print a bit of a letter to mother of a Sunday. +I'll go and get it." She ran out of the room, and Mary stood +by the fire and twisted her thin little hands together +with sheer pleasure. + +"If I have a spade," she whispered, "I can make the earth +nice and soft and dig up weeds. If I have seeds and can +make flowers grow the garden won't be dead at all--it +will come alive." + +She did not go out again that afternoon because when Martha +returned with her pen and ink and paper she was obliged +to clear the table and carry the plates and dishes +downstairs and when she got into the kitchen Mrs. Medlock +was there and told her to do something, so Mary waited +for what seemed to her a long time before she came back. +Then it was a serious piece of work to write to Dickon. +Mary had been taught very little because her governesses +had disliked her too much to stay with her. She could +not spell particularly well but she found that she could +print letters when she tried. This was the letter Martha +dictated to her: "My Dear Dickon: + +This comes hoping to find you well as it leaves me at present. +Miss Mary has plenty of money and will you go to Thwaite +and buy her some flower seeds and a set of garden tools +to make a flower-bed. Pick the prettiest ones and easy +to grow because she has never done it before and lived +in India which is different. Give my love to mother +and every one of you. Miss Mary is going to tell me a lot +more so that on my next day out you can hear about elephants +and camels and gentlemen going hunting lions and tigers. + + "Your loving sister, + Martha Phoebe Sowerby." + +"We'll put the money in th' envelope an' I'll get th' +butcher boy to take it in his cart. He's a great +friend o' Dickon's," said Martha. + +"How shall I get the things when Dickon buys them?" + +"He'll bring 'em to you himself. He'll like to walk +over this way." + +"Oh!" exclaimed Mary, "then I shall see him! I never +thought I should see Dickon." + +"Does tha' want to see him?" asked Martha suddenly, +for Mary had looked so pleased. + +"Yes, I do. I never saw a boy foxes and crows loved. +I want to see him very much." + +Martha gave a little start, as if she remembered something. +"Now to think," she broke out, "to think o' me forgettin' +that there; an' I thought I was goin' to tell you first +thing this mornin'. I asked mother--and she said she'd ask +Mrs. Medlock her own self." + +"Do you mean--" Mary began. + +"What I said Tuesday. Ask her if you might be driven over +to our cottage some day and have a bit o' mother's hot +oat cake, an' butter, an' a glass o' milk." + +It seemed as if all the interesting things were happening +in one day. To think of going over the moor in the +daylight and when the sky was blue! To think of going +into the cottage which held twelve children! + +"Does she think Mrs. Medlock would let me go?" she asked, +quite anxiously. + +"Aye, she thinks she would. She knows what a tidy woman +mother is and how clean she keeps the cottage." + +"If I went I should see your mother as well as Dickon," +said Mary, thinking it over and liking the idea very much. +"She doesn't seem to be like the mothers in India." + +Her work in the garden and the excitement of the afternoon +ended by making her feel quiet and thoughtful. Martha stayed +with her until tea-time, but they sat in comfortable +quiet and talked very little. But just before Martha +went downstairs for the tea-tray, Mary asked a question. + +"Martha," she said, "has the scullery-maid had the +toothache again today?" + +Martha certainly started slightly. + +"What makes thee ask that?" she said. + +"Because when I waited so long for you to come back I +opened the door and walked down the corridor to see if you +were coming. And I heard that far-off crying again, +just as we heard it the other night. There isn't +a wind today, so you see it couldn't have been the wind." + +"Eh!" said Martha restlessly. "Tha' mustn't go walkin' +about in corridors an' listenin'. Mr. Craven would be +that there angry there's no knowin' what he'd do." + +"I wasn't listening," said Mary. "I was just waiting +for you--and I heard it. That's three times." + +"My word! There's Mrs. Medlock's bell," said Martha, +and she almost ran out of the room. + +"It's the strangest house any one ever lived in," +said Mary drowsily, as she dropped her head on the cushioned +seat of the armchair near her. Fresh air, and digging, +and skipping-rope had made her feel so comfortably tired +that she fell asleep. + + + +CHAPTER X + +DICKON + + +The sun shone down for nearly a week on the secret garden. +The Secret Garden was what Mary called it when she was +thinking of it. She liked the name, and she liked still +more the feeling that when its beautiful old walls shut +her in no one knew where she was. It seemed almost like +being shut out of the world in some fairy place. The few +books she had read and liked had been fairy-story books, +and she had read of secret gardens in some of the stories. +Sometimes people went to sleep in them for a hundred years, +which she had thought must be rather stupid. She had no +intention of going to sleep, and, in fact, she was becoming +wider awake every day which passed at Misselthwaite. +She was beginning to like to be out of doors; she no longer +hated the wind, but enjoyed it. She could run faster, +and longer, and she could skip up to a hundred. The bulbs +in the secret garden must have been much astonished. +Such nice clear places were made round them that they +had all the breathing space they wanted, and really, +if Mistress Mary had known it, they began to cheer up +under the dark earth and work tremendously. The sun could +get at them and warm them, and when the rain came down +it could reach them at once, so they began to feel very +much alive. + +Mary was an odd, determined little person, and now she +had something interesting to be determined about, +she was very much absorbed, indeed. She worked and dug +and pulled up weeds steadily, only becoming more pleased +with her work every hour instead of tiring of it. +It seemed to her like a fascinating sort of play. +She found many more of the sprouting pale green points than +she had ever hoped to find. They seemed to be starting up +everywhere and each day she was sure she found tiny new ones, +some so tiny that they barely peeped above the earth. +There were so many that she remembered what Martha had +said about the "snowdrops by the thousands," and about +bulbs spreading and making new ones. These had been left +to themselves for ten years and perhaps they had spread, +like the snowdrops, into thousands. She wondered how long +it would be before they showed that they were flowers. +Sometimes she stopped digging to look at the garden and +try to imagine what it would be like when it was covered +with thousands of lovely things in bloom. During that week +of sunshine, she became more intimate with Ben Weatherstaff. +She surprised him several times by seeming to start +up beside him as if she sprang out of the earth. +The truth was that she was afraid that he would pick up +his tools and go away if he saw her coming, so she always +walked toward him as silently as possible. But, in fact, +he did not object to her as strongly as he had at first. +Perhaps he was secretly rather flattered by her evident +desire for his elderly company. Then, also, she was more +civil than she had been. He did not know that when she +first saw him she spoke to him as she would have spoken +to a native, and had not known that a cross, sturdy old +Yorkshire man was not accustomed to salaam to his masters, +and be merely commanded by them to do things. + +"Tha'rt like th' robin," he said to her one morning +when he lifted his head and saw her standing by him. +"I never knows when I shall see thee or which side tha'll +come from." + +"He's friends with me now," said Mary. + +"That's like him," snapped Ben Weatherstaff. "Makin' up +to th' women folk just for vanity an' flightiness. +There's nothin' he wouldn't do for th' sake o' showin' +off an' flirtin' his tail-feathers. He's as full o' +pride as an egg's full o' meat." + +He very seldom talked much and sometimes did not even answer +Mary's questions except by a grunt, but this morning he +said more than usual. He stood up and rested one hobnailed +boot on the top of his spade while he looked her over. + +"How long has tha' been here?" he jerked out. + +"I think it's about a month," she answered. + +"Tha's beginnin' to do Misselthwaite credit," he said. +"Tha's a bit fatter than tha' was an' tha's not quite +so yeller. Tha' looked like a young plucked crow when tha' +first came into this garden. Thinks I to myself I never set +eyes on an uglier, sourer faced young 'un." + +Mary was not vain and as she had never thought much +of her looks she was not greatly disturbed. + +"I know I'm fatter," she said. "My stockings +are getting tighter. They used to make wrinkles. +There's the robin, Ben Weatherstaff." + +There, indeed, was the robin, and she thought he looked +nicer than ever. His red waistcoat was as glossy as satin +and he flirted his wings and tail and tilted his head +and hopped about with all sorts of lively graces. +He seemed determined to make Ben Weatherstaff admire him. +But Ben was sarcastic. + +"Aye, there tha' art!" he said. "Tha' can put up with +me for a bit sometimes when tha's got no one better. +Tha's been reddenin' up thy waistcoat an' polishin' +thy feathers this two weeks. I know what tha's up to. +Tha's courtin' some bold young madam somewhere tellin' +thy lies to her about bein' th' finest cock robin on Missel +Moor an' ready to fight all th' rest of 'em." + +"Oh! look at him!" exclaimed Mary. + +The robin was evidently in a fascinating, bold mood. +He hopped closer and closer and looked at Ben Weatherstaff +more and more engagingly. He flew on to the nearest +currant bush and tilted his head and sang a little song +right at him. + +"Tha' thinks tha'll get over me by doin' that," said Ben, +wrinkling his face up in such a way that Mary felt sure he +was trying not to look pleased. "Tha' thinks no one can +stand out against thee--that's what tha' thinks." + +The robin spread his wings--Mary could scarcely believe +her eyes. He flew right up to the handle of Ben +Weatherstaff's spade and alighted on the top of it. +Then the old man's face wrinkled itself slowly into +a new expression. He stood still as if he were afraid +to breathe--as if he would not have stirred for the world, +lest his robin should start away. He spoke quite in a whisper. + +"Well, I'm danged!" he said as softly as ifhe were saying +something quite different. "Tha' does know how to get at +a chap--tha' does! Tha's fair unearthly, tha's so knowin'." + +And he stood without stirring--almost without drawing +his breath--until the robin gave another flirt to his +wings and flew away. Then he stood looking at the handle +of the spade as if there might be Magic in it, and then +he began to dig again and said nothing for several minutes. + +But because he kept breaking into a slow grin now and then, +Mary was not afraid to talk to him. + +"Have you a garden of your own?" she asked. + +"No. I'm bachelder an' lodge with Martin at th' gate." + +"If you had one," said Mary, "what would you plant?" + +"Cabbages an' 'taters an' onions." + +"But if you wanted to make a flower garden," persisted Mary, +"what would you plant?" + +"Bulbs an' sweet-smellin' things--but mostly roses." + +Mary's face lighted up. + +"Do you like roses?" she said. + +Ben Weatherstaff rooted up a weed and threw it aside +before he answered. + +"Well, yes, I do. I was learned that by a young lady I +was gardener to. She had a lot in a place she was fond +of, an' she loved 'em like they was children--or robins. +I've seen her bend over an' kiss 'em." He dragged out another +weed and scowled at it. "That were as much as ten year' ago." + +"Where is she now?" asked Mary, much interested. + +"Heaven," he answered, and drove his spade deep into +the soil, "'cording to what parson says." + +"What happened to the roses?" Mary asked again, +more interested than ever. + +"They was left to themselves." + +Mary was becoming quite excited. + +"Did they quite die? Do roses quite die when they are +left to themselves?" she ventured. + +"Well, I'd got to like 'em--an' I liked her--an' +she liked 'em," Ben Weatherstaff admitted reluctantly. +"Once or twice a year I'd go an' work at 'em a bit--prune +'em an' dig about th' roots. They run wild, but they was +in rich soil, so some of 'em lived." + +"When they have no leaves and look gray and brown and dry, +how can you tell whether they are dead or alive?" +inquired Mary. + +"Wait till th' spring gets at 'em--wait till th' sun shines +on th' rain and th' rain falls on th' sunshine an' +then tha'll find out." + +"How--how?" cried Mary, forgetting to be careful. +"Look along th' twigs an' branches an' if tha' see a bit +of a brown lump swelling here an' there, watch it after th' +warm rain an' see what happens." He stopped suddenly +and looked curiously at her eager face. "Why does tha' +care so much about roses an' such, all of a sudden?" +he demanded. + +Mistress Mary felt her face grow red. She was almost +afraid to answer. + +"I--I want to play that--that I have a garden of my own," +she stammered. "I--there is nothing for me to do. +I have nothing--and no one." + +"Well," said Ben Weatherstaff slowly, as he watched her, +"that's true. Tha' hasn't." + +He said it in such an odd way that Mary wondered if he +was actually a little sorry for her. She had never felt +sorry for herself; she had only felt tired and cross, +because she disliked people and things so much. +But now the world seemed to be changing and getting nicer. +If no one found out about the secret garden, she should +enjoy herself always. + +She stayed with him for ten or fifteen minutes longer and +asked him as many questions as she dared. He answered every +one of them in his queer grunting way and he did not seem +really cross and did not pick up his spade and leave her. +He said something about roses just as she was going away +and it reminded her of the ones he had said he had been +fond of. + +"Do you go and see those other roses now?" she asked. + +"Not been this year. My rheumatics has made me too stiff +in th' joints." + +He said it in his grumbling voice, and then quite suddenly +he seemed to get angry with her, though she did not see +why he should. + +"Now look here!" he said sharply. "Don't tha' +ask so many questions. Tha'rt th' worst wench for askin' +questions I've ever come a cross. Get thee gone an' +play thee. I've done talkin' for today." + +And he said it so crossly that she knew there was not +the least use in staying another minute. She went +skipping slowly down the outside walk, thinking him over +and saying to herself that, queer as it was, here was +another person whom she liked in spite of his crossness. +She liked old Ben Weatherstaff. Yes, she did like him. +She always wanted to try to make him talk to her. +Also she began to believe that he knew everything in the +world about flowers. + +There was a laurel-hedged walk which curved round the secret +garden and ended at a gate which opened into a wood, +in the park. She thought she would slip round this walk +and look into the wood and see if there were any rabbits +hopping about. She enjoyed the skipping very much and +when she reached the little gate she opened it and went +through because she heard a low, peculiar whistling +sound and wanted to find out what it was. + +It was a very strange thing indeed. She quite caught her +breath as she stopped to look at it. A boy was sitting +under a tree, with his back against it, playing on a rough +wooden pipe. He was a funny looking boy about twelve. +He looked very clean and his nose turned up and his +cheeks were as red as poppies and never had Mistress Mary +seen such round and such blue eyes in any boy's face. +And on the trunk of the tree he leaned against, a brown +squirrel was clinging and watching him, and from behind +a bush nearby a cock pheasant was delicately stretching +his neck to peep out, and quite near him were two rabbits +sitting up and sniffing with tremulous noses--and actually +it appeared as if they were all drawing near to watch him +and listen to the strange low little call his pipe seemed +to make. + +When he saw Mary he held up his hand and spoke to her +in a voice almost as low as and rather like his piping. + +"Don't tha' move," he said. "It'd flight 'em." Mary +remained motionless. He stopped playing his pipe and began +to rise from the ground. He moved so slowly that it scarcely +seemed as though he were moving at all, but at last he +stood on his feet and then the squirrel scampered back +up into the branches of his tree, the pheasant withdrew +his head and the rabbits dropped on all fours and began +to hop away, though not at all as if they were frightened. + +"I'm Dickon," the boy said. "I know tha'rt Miss Mary." + +Then Mary realized that somehow she had known at first that +he was Dickon. Who else could have been charming rabbits +and pheasants as the natives charm snakes in India? He had +a wide, red, curving mouth and his smile spread all over his face. + +"I got up slow," he explained, "because if tha' makes a +quick move it startles 'em. A body 'as to move gentle an' +speak low when wild things is about." + +He did not speak to her as if they had never seen +each other before but as if he knew her quite well. +Mary knew nothing about boys and she spoke to him a little +stiffly because she felt rather shy. + +"Did you get Martha's letter?" she asked. + +He nodded his curly, rust-colored head. "That's why +I come." + +He stooped to pick up something which had been lying +on the ground beside him when he piped. + +"I've got th' garden tools. There's a little spade an' +rake an' a fork an' hoe. Eh! they are good 'uns. There's +a trowel, too. An' th' woman in th' shop threw in a packet o' +white poppy an' one o' blue larkspur when I bought th' +other seeds." + +"Will you show the seeds to me?" Mary said. + +She wished she could talk as he did. His speech +was so quick and easy. It sounded as if he liked her +and was not the least afraid she would not like him, +though he was only a common moor boy, in patched clothes +and with a funny face and a rough, rusty-red head. +As she came closer to him she noticed that there was a clean +fresh scent of heather and grass and leaves about him, +almost as if he were made of them. She liked it very much +and when she looked into his funny face with the red +cheeks and round blue eyes she forgot that she had felt shy. + +"Let us sit down on this log and look at them," she said. + +They sat down and he took a clumsy little brown paper +package out of his coat pocket. He untied the string +and inside there were ever so many neater and smaller +packages with a picture of a flower on each one. + +"There's a lot o' mignonette an' poppies," he said. +"Mignonette's th' sweetest smellin' thing as grows, an' +it'll grow wherever you cast it, same as poppies will. +Them as'll come up an' bloom if you just whistle to 'em, +them's th' nicest of all." He stopped and turned his +head quickly, his poppy-cheeked face lighting up. + +"Where's that robin as is callin' us?" he said. + +The chirp came from a thick holly bush, bright with +scarlet berries, and Mary thought she knew whose it was. + +"Is it really calling us?" she asked. + +"Aye," said Dickon, as if it was the most natural thing +in the world, "he's callin' some one he's friends with. +That's same as sayin' `Here I am. Look at me. +I wants a bit of a chat.' There he is in the bush. +Whose is he?" + +"He's Ben Weatherstaff's, but I think he knows me a little," +answered Mary. + +"Aye, he knows thee," said Dickon in his low voice again. +"An' he likes thee. He's took thee on. He'll tell me all +about thee in a minute." + +He moved quite close to the bush with the slow movement Mary +had noticed before, and then he made a sound almost like +the robin's own twitter. The robin listened a few seconds, +intently, and then answered quite as if he were replying to a question. + +"Aye, he's a friend o' yours," chuckled Dickon. + +"Do you think he is?" cried Mary eagerly. She did so want +to know. "Do you think he really likes me?" + +"He wouldn't come near thee if he didn't," answered Dickon. +"Birds is rare choosers an' a robin can flout a body worse +than a man. See, he's making up to thee now. `Cannot tha' +see a chap?' he's sayin'." + +And it really seemed as if it must be true. He so sidled +and twittered and tilted as he hopped on his bush. + +"Do you understand everything birds say?" said Mary. + +Dickon's grin spread until he seemed all wide, red, +curving mouth, and he rubbed his rough head. + +"I think I do, and they think I do," he said. "I've lived on th' +moor with 'em so long. I've watched 'em break shell an' +come out an' fledge an' learn to fly an' begin to sing, +till I think I'm one of 'em. Sometimes I think p'raps +I'm a bird, or a fox, or a rabbit, or a squirrel, +or even a beetle, an' I don't know it." + +He laughed and came back to the log and began to talk +about the flower seeds again. He told her what they looked +like when they were flowers; he told her how to plant them, +and watch them, and feed and water them. + +"See here," he said suddenly, turning round to look at her. +"I'll plant them for thee myself. Where is tha' garden?" + +Mary's thin hands clutched each other as they lay on +her lap. She did not know what to say, so for a whole +minute she said nothing. She had never thought of this. +She felt miserable. And she felt as if she went red +and then pale. + +"Tha's got a bit o' garden, hasn't tha'?" Dickon said. + +It was true that she had turned red and then pale. +Dickon saw her do it, and as she still said nothing, +he began to be puzzled. + +"Wouldn't they give thee a bit?" he asked. "Hasn't tha' +got any yet?" + +She held her hands tighter and turned her eyes toward him. + +"I don't know anything about boys," she said slowly. +"Could you keep a secret, if I told you one? It's a great secret. +I don't know what I should do if any one found it out. +I believe I should die!" She said the last sentence +quite fiercely. + +Dickon looked more puzzled than ever and even rubbed +his hand over his rough head again, but he answered quite +good-humoredly. "I'm keepin' secrets all th' time," he said. +"If I couldn't keep secrets from th' other lads, +secrets about foxes' cubs, an' birds' nests, an' wild things' +holes, there'd be naught safe on th' moor. Aye, I can +keep secrets." + +Mistress Mary did not mean to put out her hand and clutch +his sleeve but she did it. + +"I've stolen a garden," she said very fast. "It isn't mine. +It isn't anybody's. Nobody wants it, nobody cares for it, +nobody ever goes into it. Perhaps everything is dead in +it already. I don't know." + +She began to feel hot and as contrary as she had ever +felt in her life. + +"I don't care, I don't care! Nobody has any right +to take it from me when I care about it and they +don't. They're letting it die, all shut in by itself," +she ended passionately, and she threw her arms over +her face and burst out crying-poor little Mistress Mary. + +Dickon's curious blue eyes grew rounder and rounder. +"Eh-h-h!" he said, drawing his exclamation out slowly, +and the way he did it meant both wonder and sympathy. + +"I've nothing to do," said Mary. "Nothing belongs to me. +I found it myself and I got into it myself. I was only just +like the robin, and they wouldn't take it from the robin." +"Where is it?" asked Dickon in a dropped voice. + +Mistress Mary got up from the log at once. She knew she +felt contrary again, and obstinate, and she did not care +at all. She was imperious and Indian, and at the same +time hot and sorrowful. + +"Come with me and I'll show you," she said. + +She led him round the laurel path and to the walk where the +ivy grew so thickly. Dickon followed her with a queer, +almost pitying, look on his face. He felt as if he were +being led to look at some strange bird's nest and must +move softly. When she stepped to the wall and lifted +the hanging ivy he started. There was a door and Mary +pushed it slowly open and they passed in together, +and then Mary stood and waved her hand round defiantly. + +"It's this," she said. "It's a secret garden, and I'm +the only one in the world who wants it to be alive." + +Dickon looked round and round about it, and round +and round again. + +"Eh!" he almost whispered, "it is a queer, pretty place! +It's like as if a body was in a dream." + + + +CHAPTER XI + +THE NEST OF THE MISSEL THRUSH + + +For two or three minutes he stood looking round him, +while Mary watched him, and then he began to walk +about softly, even more lightly than Mary had walked the +first time she had found herself inside the four walls. +His eyes seemed to be taking in everything--the gray trees +with the gray creepers climbing over them and hanging +from their branches, the tangle on the walls and among +the grass, the evergreen alcoves with the stone seats +and tall flower urns standing in them. + +"I never thought I'd see this place," he said at last, +in a whisper. + +"Did you know about it?" asked Mary. + +She had spoken aloud and he made a sign to her. + +"We must talk low," he said, "or some one'll hear us an' +wonder what's to do in here." + +"Oh! I forgot!" said Mary, feeling frightened and putting +her hand quickly against her mouth. "Did you know about +the garden?" she asked again when she had recovered herself. +Dickon nodded. + +"Martha told me there was one as no one ever went inside," +he answered. "Us used to wonder what it was like." + +He stopped and looked round at the lovely gray tangle +about him, and his round eyes looked queerly happy. + +"Eh! the nests as'll be here come springtime," he said. +"It'd be th' safest nestin' place in England. +No one never comin' near an' tangles o' trees an' +roses to build in. I wonder all th' birds on th' +moor don't build here." + +Mistress Mary put her hand on his arm again without +knowing it. + +"Will there be roses?" she whispered. "Can you tell? I +thought perhaps they were all dead." + +"Eh! No! Not them--not all of 'em!" he answered. +"Look here!" + +He stepped over to the nearest tree--an old, old one with +gray lichen all over its bark, but upholding a curtain +of tangled sprays and branches. He took a thick knife +out of his Pocket and opened one of its blades. + +"There's lots o' dead wood as ought to be cut out," he said. +"An' there's a lot o' old wood, but it made some new +last year. This here's a new bit," and he touched a shoot +which looked brownish green instead of hard, dry gray. +Mary touched it herself in an eager, reverent way. + +"That one?" she said. "Is that one quite alive quite?" + +Dickon curved his wide smiling mouth. + +"It's as wick as you or me," he said; and Mary remembered +that Martha had told her that "wick" meant "alive" +or "lively." + +"I'm glad it's wick!" she cried out in her whisper. +"I want them all to be wick. Let us go round the garden +and count how many wick ones there are." + +She quite panted with eagerness, and Dickon was as eager +as she was. They went from tree to tree and from bush +to bush. Dickon carried his knife in his hand and showed +her things which she thought wonderful. + +"They've run wild," he said, "but th' strongest ones +has fair thrived on it. The delicatest ones has +died out, but th' others has growed an' growed, an' +spread an' spread, till they's a wonder. See here!" +and he pulled down a thick gray, dry-looking branch. +"A body might think this was dead wood, but I don't believe +it is--down to th' root. I'll cut it low down an' see." + +He knelt and with his knife cut the lifeless-looking +branch through, not far above the earth. + +"There!" he said exultantly. "I told thee so. +There's green in that wood yet. Look at it." + +Mary was down on her knees before he spoke, gazing with +all her might. + +"When it looks a bit greenish an' juicy like that, +it's wick," he explained. "When th' inside is dry an' +breaks easy, like this here piece I've cut off, +it's done for. There's a big root here as all this live +wood sprung out of, an' if th' old wood's cut off an' +it's dug round, and took care of there'll be--" +he stopped and lifted his face to look up at the climbing +and hanging sprays above him--"there'll be a fountain o' +roses here this summer." + +They went from bush to bush and from tree to tree. +He was very strong and clever with his knife and knew +how to cut the dry and dead wood away, and could tell when +an unpromising bough or twig had still green life in it. +In the course of half an hour Mary thought she could tell too, +and when he cut through a lifeless-looking branch she would +cry out joyfully under her breath when she caught sight +of the least shade of moist green. The spade, and hoe, +and fork were very useful. He showed her how to use the +fork while he dug about roots with the spade and stirred +the earth and let the air in. + +They were working industriously round one of the biggest +standard roses when he caught sight of something which +made him utter an exclamation of surprise. + +"Why!" he cried, pointing to the grass a few feet away. +"Who did that there?" + +It was one of Mary's own little clearings round the pale +green points. + +"I did it," said Mary. + +"Why, I thought tha' didn't know nothin' about gardenin'," +he exclaimed. + +"I don't," she answered, "but they were so little, and the +grass was so thick and strong, and they looked as if they +had no room to breathe. So I made a place for them. +I don't even know what they are." + +Dickon went and knelt down by them, smiling his wide smile. + +"Tha' was right," he said. "A gardener couldn't have told +thee better. They'll grow now like Jack's bean-stalk. They're +crocuses an' snowdrops, an' these here is narcissuses," +turning to another patch, "an here's daffydowndillys. +Eh! they will be a sight." + +He ran from one clearing to another. + +"Tha' has done a lot o' work for such a little wench," +he said, looking her over. + +"I'm growing fatter," said Mary, "and I'm growing stronger. +I used always to be tired. When I dig I'm not tired at all. +I like to smell the earth when it's turned up." + +"It's rare good for thee," he said, nodding his +head wisely. "There's naught as nice as th' smell o' +good clean earth, except th' smell o' fresh growin' +things when th' rain falls on 'em. I get out on th' +moor many a day when it's rainin' an' I lie under a bush an' +listen to th' soft swish o' drops on th' heather an, +I just sniff an, sniff. My nose end fair quivers like a +rabbit's, mother says." + +"Do you never catch cold?" inquired Mary, gazing at +him wonderingly. She had never seen such a funny boy, +or such a nice one. + +"Not me," he said, grinning. "I never ketched cold +since I was born. I wasn't brought up nesh enough. +I've chased about th' moor in all weathers same as th' +rabbits does. Mother says I've sniffed up too much fresh +air for twelve year' to ever get to sniffin' with cold. +I'm as tough as a white-thorn knobstick." + +He was working all the time he was talking and Mary was +following him and helping him with her fork or the trowel. + +"There's a lot of work to do here!" he said once, +looking about quite exultantly. + +"Will you come again and help me to do it?" Mary begged. +"I'm sure I can help, too. I can dig and pull up weeds, +and do whatever you tell me. Oh! do come, Dickon!" + +"I'll come every day if tha' wants me, rain or shine," +he answered stoutly. "It's the best fun I ever had in my +life-- shut in here an' wakenin' up a garden." + +"If you will come," said Mary, "if you will help me +to make it alive I'll--I don't know what I'll do," +she ended helplessly. What could you do for a boy like that? + +"I'll tell thee what tha'll do," said Dickon, with his +happy grin. "Tha'll get fat an' tha'll get as hungry +as a young fox an' tha'll learn how to talk to th' +robin same as I do. Eh! we'll have a lot o' fun." + +He began to walk about, looking up in the trees and at +the walls and bushes with a thoughtful expression. + +"I wouldn't want to make it look like a gardener's +garden, all clipped an' spick an' span, would you?" +he said. "It's nicer like this with things runnin' +wild, an' swingin' an' catchin' hold of each other." + +"Don't let us make it tidy," said Mary anxiously. +"It wouldn't seem like a secret garden if it was tidy." + +Dickon stood rubbing his rusty-red head with a rather +puzzled look. "It's a secret garden sure enough," he said, +"but seems like some one besides th' robin must have been +in it since it was shut up ten year' ago." + +"But the door was locked and the key was buried," said Mary. +"No one could get in." + +"That's true," he answered. "It's a queer place. +Seems to me as if there'd been a bit o' prunin' done here an' +there, later than ten year' ago." + +"But how could it have been done?" said Mary. + +He was examining a branch of a standard rose and he shook +his head. + +"Aye! how could it!" he murmured. "With th' +door locked an' th' key buried." + +Mistress Mary always felt that however many years +she lived she should never forget that first morning +when her garden began to grow. Of course, it did seem +to begin to grow for her that morning. When Dickon +began to clear places to plant seeds, she remembered +what Basil had sung at her when he wanted to tease her. + +"Are there any flowers that look like bells?" she inquired. + +"Lilies o' th' valley does," he answered, digging away +with the trowel, "an' there's Canterbury bells, an' campanulas." + +"Let's plant some," said Mary. "There's lilies o' th, +valley here already; I saw 'em. They'll have growed too +close an' we'll have to separate 'em, but there's plenty. +Th' other ones takes two years to bloom from seed, but I +can bring you some bits o' plants from our cottage garden. +Why does tha' want 'em?" + +Then Mary told him about Basil and his brothers +and sisters in India and of how she had hated them +and of their calling her "Mistress Mary Quite Contrary." + +"They used to dance round and sing at me. They sang-- + + `Mistress Mary, quite contrary, + How does your garden grow? + With silver bells, and cockle shells, + And marigolds all in a row.' + +I just remembered it and it made me wonder if there +were really flowers like silver bells." + +She frowned a little and gave her trowel a rather spiteful +dig into the earth. + +"I wasn't as contrary as they were." + +But Dickon laughed. + +"Eh!" he said, and as he crumbled the rich black soil she +saw he was sniffing up the scent of it. "There doesn't +seem to be no need for no one to be contrary when there's +flowers an' such like, an' such lots o' friendly wild +things runnin' about makin' homes for themselves, or buildin' +nests an' singin' an' whistlin', does there?" + +Mary, kneeling by him holding the seeds, looked at him +and stopped frowning. + +"Dickon," she said, "you are as nice as Martha said +you were. I like you, and you make the fifth person. +I never thought I should like five people." + +Dickon sat up on his heels as Martha did when she was +polishing the grate. He did look funny and delightful, +Mary thought, with his round blue eyes and red cheeks +and happy looking turned-up nose. + +"Only five folk as tha' likes?" he said. "Who is th' +other four?" + +"Your mother and Martha," Mary checked them off +on her fingers, "and the robin and Ben Weatherstaff." + +Dickon laughed so that he was obliged to stifle the sound +by putting his arm over his mouth. + +"I know tha' thinks I'm a queer lad," he said, "but I +think tha' art th' queerest little lass I ever saw." + +Then Mary did a strange thing. She leaned forward +and asked him a question she had never dreamed of asking +any one before. And she tried to ask it in Yorkshire +because that was his lan- guage, and in India a native +was always pleased if you knew his speech. + +"Does tha' like me?" she said. + +"Eh!" he answered heartily, "that I does. I likes +thee wonderful, an' so does th' robin, I do believe!" + +"That's two, then," said Mary. "That's two for me." + +And then they began to work harder than ever and more joyfully. +Mary was startled and sorry when she heard the big clock +in the courtyard strike the hour of her midday dinner. + +"I shall have to go," she said mournfully. "And you +will have to go too, won't you?" + +Dickon grinned. + +"My dinner's easy to carry about with me," he said. +"Mother always lets me put a bit o' somethin' in my pocket." + +He picked up his coat from the grass and brought out of +a pocket a lumpy little bundle tied up in a quite clean, +coarse, blue and white handkerchief. It held two thick +pieces of bread with a slice of something laid between them. + +"It's oftenest naught but bread," he said, "but I've got +a fine slice o' fat bacon with it today." + +Mary thought it looked a queer dinner, but he seemed +ready to enjoy it. + +"Run on an' get thy victuals," he said. "I'll be done +with mine first. I'll get some more work done before I +start back home." + +He sat down with his back against a tree. + +"I'll call th' robin up," he said, "and give him th' +rind o' th' bacon to peck at. They likes a bit o' +fat wonderful." + +Mary could scarcely bear to leave him. Suddenly it +seemed as if he might be a sort of wood fairy who +might be gone when she came into the garden again. +He seemed too good to be true. She went slowly half-way +to the door in the wall and then she stopped and went back. + +"Whatever happens, you--you never would tell?" she said. + +His poppy-colored cheeks were distended with his first big +bite of bread and bacon, but he managed to smile encouragingly. + +"If tha' was a missel thrush an' showed me where thy nest was, +does tha' think I'd tell any one? Not me," he said. +"Tha' art as safe as a missel thrush." + +And she was quite sure she was. + + + +CHAPTER XII + +"MIGHT I HAVE A BIT OF EARTH?" + + +Mary ran so fast that she was rather out of breath when she +reached her room. Her hair was ruffled on her forehead +and her cheeks were bright pink. Her dinner was waiting +on the table, and Martha was waiting near it. + +"Tha's a bit late," she said. "Where has tha' been?" + +"I've seen Dickon!" said Mary. "I've seen Dickon!" + +"I knew he'd come," said Martha exultantly. "How does tha' +like him?" + +"I think--I think he's beautiful!" said Mary in a determined voice. + +Martha looked rather taken aback but she looked pleased, too. + +"Well," she said, "he's th' best lad as ever was born, +but us never thought he was handsome. His nose turns up +too much." + +"I like it to turn up," said Mary. + +"An' his eyes is so round," said Martha, a trifle doubtful. +"Though they're a nice color." "I like them round," +said Mary. "And they are exactly the color of the sky +over the moor." + +Martha beamed with satisfaction. + +"Mother says he made 'em that color with always lookin' +up at th' birds an' th' clouds. But he has got a big mouth, +hasn't he, now?" + +"I love his big mouth," said Mary obstinately. "I wish +mine were just like it." + +Martha chuckled delightedly. + +"It'd look rare an' funny in thy bit of a face," she said. +"But I knowed it would be that way when tha' saw him. +How did tha' like th' seeds an' th' garden tools?" + +"How did you know he brought them?" asked Mary. + +"Eh! I never thought of him not bringin' 'em. He'd +be sure to bring 'em if they was in Yorkshire. +He's such a trusty lad." + +Mary was afraid that she might begin to ask +difficult questions, but she did not. She was very +much interested in the seeds and gardening tools, +and there was only one moment when Mary was frightened. +This was when she began to ask where the flowers were to be planted. + +"Who did tha' ask about it?" she inquired. + +"I haven't asked anybody yet," said Mary, hesitating. +"Well, I wouldn't ask th' head gardener. He's too grand, +Mr. Roach is." + +"I've never seen him," said Mary. "I've only seen +undergardeners and Ben Weatherstaff." + +"If I was you, I'd ask Ben Weatherstaff," advised Martha. +"He's not half as bad as he looks, for all he's so crabbed. +Mr. Craven lets him do what he likes because he was here +when Mrs. Craven was alive, an' he used to make her laugh. +She liked him. Perhaps he'd find you a corner somewhere out o' +the way." + +"If it was out of the way and no one wanted it, no one +could mind my having it, could they?" Mary said anxiously. + +"There wouldn't be no reason," answered Martha. +"You wouldn't do no harm." + +Mary ate her dinner as quickly as she could and when she +rose from the table she was going to run to her room +to put on her hat again, but Martha stopped her. + +"I've got somethin' to tell you," she said. "I thought +I'd let you eat your dinner first. Mr. Craven came back +this mornin' and I think he wants to see you." + +Mary turned quite pale. + +"Oh!" she said. "Why! Why! He didn't want to see me when I came. +I heard Pitcher say he didn't." "Well," explained Martha, +"Mrs. Medlock says it's because o' mother. She was walkin' +to Thwaite village an' she met him. She'd never spoke +to him before, but Mrs. Craven had been to our cottage +two or three times. He'd forgot, but mother hadn't an' +she made bold to stop him. I don't know what she said +to him about you but she said somethin' as put him in th' +mind to see you before he goes away again, tomorrow." + +"Oh!" cried Mary, "is he going away tomorrow? I am so glad!" + +"He's goin' for a long time. He mayn't come back till +autumn or winter. He's goin' to travel in foreign places. +He's always doin' it." + +"Oh! I'm so glad--so glad!" said Mary thankfully. + +If he did not come back until winter, or even autumn, +there would be time to watch the secret garden come alive. +Even if he found out then and took it away from her she +would have had that much at least. + +"When do you think he will want to see--" + +She did not finish the sentence, because the door opened, +and Mrs. Medlock walked in. She had on her best black +dress and cap, and her collar was fastened with a +large brooch with a picture of a man's face on it. +It was a colored photograph of Mr. Medlock who had died +years ago, and she always wore it when she was dressed up. +She looked nervous and excited. + +"Your hair's rough," she said quickly. "Go and +brush it. Martha, help her to slip on her best dress. +Mr. Craven sent me to bring her to him in his study." + +All the pink left Mary's cheeks. Her heart began to +thump and she felt herself changing into a stiff, plain, +silent child again. She did not even answer Mrs. Medlock, +but turned and walked into her bedroom, followed by Martha. +She said nothing while her dress was changed, and her +hair brushed, and after she was quite tidy she followed +Mrs. Medlock down the corridors, in silence. What was there +for her to say? She was obliged to go and see Mr. Craven +and he would not like her, and she would not like him. +She knew what he would think of her. + +She was taken to a part of the house she had not been +into before. At last Mrs. Medlock knocked at a door, +and when some one said, "Come in," they entered the +room together. A man was sitting in an armchair before +the fire, and Mrs. Medlock spoke to him. + +"This is Miss Mary, sir," she said. + +"You can go and leave her here. I will ring for you +when I want you to take her away," said Mr. Craven. + +When she went out and closed the door, Mary could only +stand waiting, a plain little thing, twisting her thin +hands together. She could see that the man in the +chair was not so much a hunchback as a man with high, +rather crooked shoulders, and he had black hair streaked +with white. He turned his head over his high shoulders +and spoke to her. + +"Come here!" he said. + +Mary went to him. + +He was not ugly. His face would have been handsome if it +had not been so miserable. He looked as if the sight +of her worried and fretted him and as if he did not know +what in the world to do with her. + +"Are you well?" he asked. + +"Yes," answered Mary. + +"Do they take good care of you?" + +"Yes." + +He rubbed his forehead fretfully as he looked her over. + +"You are very thin," he said. + +"I am getting fatter," Mary answered in what she knew +was her stiffest way. + +What an unhappy face he had! His black eyes seemed as if they +scarcely saw her, as if they were seeing something else, +and he could hardly keep his thoughts upon her. + +"I forgot you," he said. "How could I remember you? I +intended to send you a governess or a nurse, or some +one of that sort, but I forgot." + +"Please," began Mary. "Please--" and then the lump +in her throat choked her. + +"What do you want to say?" he inquired. + +"I am--I am too big for a nurse," said Mary. +"And please--please don't make me have a governess yet." + +He rubbed his forehead again and stared at her. + +"That was what the Sowerby woman said," he muttered absentmindedly. + +Then Mary gathered a scrap of courage. + +"Is she--is she Martha's mother?" she stammered. + +"Yes, I think so," he replied. + +"She knows about children," said Mary. "She has twelve. +She knows." + +He seemed to rouse himself. + +"What do you want to do?" + +"I want to play out of doors," Mary answered, hoping that +her voice did not tremble. "I never liked it in India. +It makes me hungry here, and I am getting fatter." + +He was watching her. + +"Mrs. Sowerby said it would do you good. Perhaps it will," +he said. "She thought you had better get stronger before +you had a governess." + +"It makes me feel strong when I play and the wind comes +over the moor," argued Mary. + +"Where do you play?" he asked next. + +"Everywhere," gasped Mary. "Martha's mother sent me +a skipping-rope. I skip and run--and I look about to see +if things are beginning to stick up out of the earth. +I don't do any harm." + +"Don't look so frightened," he said in a worried voice. +"You could not do any harm, a child like you! You may do +what you like." + +Mary put her hand up to her throat because she was afraid +he might see the excited lump which she felt jump into it. +She came a step nearer to him. + +"May I?" she said tremulously. + +Her anxious little face seemed to worry him more than ever. + +"Don't look so frightened," he exclaimed. "Of course you may. +I am your guardian, though I am a poor one for any child. +I cannot give you time or attention. I am too ill, +and wretched and distracted; but I wish you to be happy +and comfortable. I don't know anything about children, +but Mrs. Medlock is to see that you have all you need. +I sent for you to-day because Mrs. Sowerby said I +ought to see you. Her daughter had talked about you. +She thought you needed fresh air and freedom and running +about." + +"She knows all about children," Mary said again in spite +of herself. + +"She ought to," said Mr. Craven. "I thought her rather +bold to stop me on the moor, but she said--Mrs. Craven +had been kind to her." It seemed hard for him to speak +his dead wife's name. "She is a respectable woman. +Now I have seen you I think she said sensible things. +Play out of doors as much as you like. It's a big place +and you may go where you like and amuse yourself as you like. +Is there anything you want?" as if a sudden thought had +struck him. "Do you want toys, books, dolls?" + +"Might I," quavered Mary, "might I have a bit of earth?" + +In her eagerness she did not realize how queer the words +would sound and that they were not the ones she had meant +to say. Mr. Craven looked quite startled. + +"Earth!" he repeated. "What do you mean?" + +"To plant seeds in--to make things grow--to see them +come alive," Mary faltered. + +He gazed at her a moment and then passed his hand quickly +over his eyes. + +"Do you--care about gardens so much," he said slowly. + +"I didn't know about them in India," said Mary. "I was +always ill and tired and it was too hot. I sometimes +made littlebeds in the sand and stuck flowers in them. +But here it is different." + +Mr. Craven got up and began to walk slowly across the room. + +"A bit of earth," he said to himself, and Mary thought +that somehow she must have reminded him of something. +When he stopped and spoke to her his dark eyes looked almost +soft and kind. + +"You can have as much earth as you want," he said. +"You remind me of some one else who loved the earth and +things that grow. When you see a bit of earth you want," +with something like a smile, "take it, child, and make it +come alive." + +"May I take it from anywhere--if it's not wanted?" + +"Anywhere," he answered. "There! You must go now, +I am tired." He touched the bell to call Mrs. Medlock. +"Good-by. I shall be away all summer." + +Mrs. Medlock came so quickly that Mary thought she must +have been waiting in the corridor. + +"Mrs. Medlock," Mr. Craven said to her, "now I have +seen the child I understand what Mrs. Sowerby meant. +She must be less delicate before she begins lessons. +Give her simple, healthy food. Let her run wild in +the garden. Don't look after her too much. She needs +liberty and fresh air and romping about. Mrs. Sowerby +is to come and see her now and then and she may sometimes +go to the cottage." + +Mrs. Medlock looked pleased. She was relieved to +hear that she need not "look after" Mary too much. +She had felt her a tiresome charge and had indeed seen +as little of her as she dared. In addition to this +she was fond of Martha's mother. + +"Thank you, sir," she said. "Susan Sowerby and me went to +school together and she's as sensible and good-hearted a woman +as you'd find in a day's walk. I never had any children +myself and she's had twelve, and there never was healthier +or better ones. Miss Mary can get no harm from them. +I'd always take Susan Sowerby's advice about children myself. +She's what you might call healthy-minded--if you understand me." + +"I understand," Mr. Craven answered. "Take Miss Mary +away now and send Pitcher to me." + +When Mrs. Medlock left her at the end of her own corridor +Mary flew back to her room. She found Martha waiting there. +Martha had, in fact, hurried back after she had removed +the dinner service. + +"I can have my garden!" cried Mary. "I may have it +where I like! I am not going to have a governess +for a long time! Your mother is coming to see me +and I may go to your cottage! He says a little girl +like me could not do any harm and I may do what I like--anywhere!" + +"Eh!" said Martha delightedly, "that was nice of him +wasn't it?" + +"Martha," said Mary solemnly, "he is really a nice man, +only his face is so miserable and his forehead is all +drawn together." + +She ran as quickly as she could to the garden. She had +been away so much longer than she had thought she should +and she knew Dickon would have to set out early on his +five-mile walk. When she slipped through the door under +the ivy, she saw he was not working where she had left him. +The gardening tools were laid together under a tree. +She ran to them, looking all round the place, but there +was no Dickon to be seen. He had gone away and the secret +garden was empty--except for the robin who had just flown +across the wall and sat on a standard rose-bush watching her. +"He's gone," she said woefully. "Oh! was he--was he--was +he only a wood fairy?" + +Something white fastened to the standard rose-bush caught +her eye. It was a piece of paper, in fact, it was a +piece of the letter she had printed for Martha to send +to Dickon. It was fastened on the bush with a long thorn, +and in a minute she knew Dickon had left it there. +There were some roughly printed letters on it and a sort +of picture. At first she could not tell what it was. +Then she saw it was meant for a nest with a bird sitting +on it. Underneath were the printed letters and they +said: + +"I will cum bak." + + + +CHAPTER XIII + +"I AM COLIN" + + +Mary took the picture back to the house when she went +to her supper and she showed it to Martha. + +"Eh!" said Martha with great pride. "I never knew our +Dickon was as clever as that. That there's a picture +of a missel thrush on her nest, as large as life an' +twice as natural." + +Then Mary knew Dickon had meant the picture to be a message. +He had meant that she might be sure he would keep her secret. +Her garden was her nest and she was like a missel thrush. +Oh, how she did like that queer, common boy! + +She hoped he would come back the very next day and she +fell asleep looking forward to the morning. + +But you never know what the weather will do in Yorkshire, +particularly in the springtime. She was awakened in +the night by the sound of rain beating with heavy drops +against her window. It was pouring down in torrents +and the wind was "wuthering" round the corners and in +the chimneys of the huge old house. Mary sat up in bed +and felt miserable and angry. + +"The rain is as contrary as I ever was," she said. +"It came because it knew I did not want it." + +She threw herself back on her pillow and buried her face. +She did not cry, but she lay and hated the sound of the +heavily beating rain, she hated the wind and its "wuthering." +She could not go to sleep again. The mournful sound kept +her awake because she felt mournful herself. If she had +felt happy it would probably have lulled her to sleep. +How it "wuthered" and how the big raindrops poured down +and beat against the pane! + +"It sounds just like a person lost on the moor +and wandering on and on crying," she said. + + +She had been lying awake turning from side to side +for about an hour, when suddenly something made her sit +up in bed and turn her head toward the door listening. +She listened and she listened. + +"It isn't the wind now," she said in a loud whisper. +"That isn't the wind. It is different. It is that crying I +heard before." + +The door of her room was ajar and the sound came down +the corridor, a far-off faint sound of fretful crying. +She listened for a few minutes and each minute she became +more and more sure. She felt as if she must find out +what it was. It seemed even stranger than the secret +garden and the buried key. Perhaps the fact that she +was in a rebellious mood made her bold. She put her foot +out of bed and stood on the floor. + +"I am going to find out what it is," she said. "Everybody is +in bed and I don't care about Mrs. Medlock--I don't care!" + +There was a candle by her bedside and she took it up +and went softly out of the room. The corridor looked +very long and dark, but she was too excited to mind that. +She thought she remembered the corners she must turn +to find the short corridor with the door covered with +tapestry--the one Mrs. Medlock had come through the day +she lost herself. The sound had come up that passage. +So she went on with her dim light, almost feeling her way, +her heart beating so loud that she fancied she could +hear it. The far-off faint crying went on and led her. +Sometimes it stopped for a moment or so and then began again. +Was this the right corner to turn? She stopped and thought. +Yes it was. Down this passage and then to the left, +and then up two broad steps, and then to the right again. +Yes, there was the tapestry door. + +She pushed it open very gently and closed it behind her, +and she stood in the corridor and could hear the crying +quite plainly, though it was not loud. It was on the other +side of the wall at her left and a few yards farther on +there was a door. She could see a glimmer of light coming +from beneath it. The Someone was crying in that room, +and it was quite a young Someone. + +So she walked to the door and pushed it open, and there +she was standing in the room! + +It was a big room with ancient, handsome furniture in it. +There was a low fire glowing faintly on the hearth and a +night light burning by the side of a carved four-posted +bed hung with brocade, and on the bed was lying a boy, +crying fretfully. + +Mary wondered if she was in a real place or if she had +fallen asleep again and was dreaming without knowing it. + +The boy had a sharp, delicate face the color of ivory +and he seemed to have eyes too big for it. He had +also a lot of hair which tumbled over his forehead +in heavy locks and made his thin face seem smaller. +He looked like a boy who had been ill, but he was crying +more as if he were tired and cross than as if he were in pain. + +Mary stood near the door with her candle in her hand, +holding her breath. Then she crept across the room, and, +as she drew nearer, the light attracted the boy's attention +and he turned his head on his pillow and stared at her, +his gray eyes opening so wide that they seemed immense. + +"Who are you?" he said at last in a half-frightened whisper. +"Are you a ghost?" + +"No, I am not," Mary answered, her own whisper sounding +half frightened. "Are you one?" + +He stared and stared and stared. Mary could not help +noticing what strange eyes he had. They were agate +gray and they looked too big for his face because they +had black lashes all round them. + +"No," he replied after waiting a moment or so. +"I am Colin." + +"Who is Colin?" she faltered. + +"I am Colin Craven. Who are you?" + +"I am Mary Lennox. Mr. Craven is my uncle." + +"He is my father," said the boy. + +"Your father!" gasped Mary. "No one ever told me he +had a boy! Why didn't they?" + +"Come here," he said, still keeping his strange eyes +fixed on her with an anxious expression. + +She came close to the bed and he put out his hand +and touched her. + +"You are real, aren't you?" he said. "I have such real +dreams very often. You might be one of them." + +Mary had slipped on a woolen wrapper before she left +her room and she put a piece of it between his fingers. + +"Rub that and see how thick and warm it is," she said. +"I will pinch you a little if you like, to show you how real +I am. For a minute I thought you might be a dream too." + +"Where did you come from?" he asked. + +"From my own room. The wind wuthered so I couldn't go +to sleep and I heard some one crying and wanted to find +out who it was. What were you crying for?" + +"Because I couldn't go to sleep either and my head ached. +Tell me your name again." + +"Mary Lennox. Did no one ever tell you I had come +to live here?" + +He was still fingering the fold of her wrapper, but he +began to look a little more as if he believed in her reality. + +"No," he answered. "They daren't." + +"Why?" asked Mary. + +"Because I should have been afraid you would see me. +I won't let people see me and talk me over." + +"Why?" Mary asked again, feeling more mystified every moment. + +"Because I am like this always, ill and having to lie down. +My father won't let people talk me over either. +The servants are not allowed to speak about me. +If I live I may be a hunchback, but I shan't live. +My father hates to think I may be like him." + +"Oh, what a queer house this is!" Mary said. +"What a queer house! Everything is a kind of secret. +Rooms are locked up and gardens are locked up--and you! +Have you been locked up?" + +"No. I stay in this room because I don't want to be moved +out of it. It tires me too much." + +"Does your father come and see you?" Mary ventured. + +"Sometimes. Generally when I am asleep. He doesn't want +to see me." + +"Why?" Mary could not help asking again. + +A sort of angry shadow passed over the boy's face. + +"My mother died when I was born and it makes him wretched +to look at me. He thinks I don't know, but I've heard +people talking. He almost hates me." + +"He hates the garden, because she died," said Mary half +speaking to herself. + +"What garden?" the boy asked. + +"Oh! just--just a garden she used to like," Mary stammered. +"Have you been here always?" "Nearly always. Sometimes I +have been taken to places at the seaside, but I won't +stay because people stare at me. I used to wear an iron +thing to keep my back straight, but a grand doctor came +from London to see me and said it was stupid. He told +them to take it off and keep me out in the fresh air. +I hate fresh air and I don't want to go out." + +"I didn't when first I came here," said Mary. "Why do +you keep looking at me like that?" + +"Because of the dreams that are so real," he answered +rather fretfully. "Sometimes when I open my eyes I don't +believe I'm awake." + +"We're both awake," said Mary. She glanced round the room +with its high ceiling and shadowy corners and dim fire-light. +"It looks quite like a dream, and it's the middle of the night, +and everybody in the house is asleep--everybody but us. +We are wide awake." + +"I don't want it to be a dream," the boy said restlessly. + +Mary thought of something all at once. + +"If you don't like people to see you," she began, +"do you want me to go away?" + +He still held the fold of her wrapper and he gave it +a little pull. + +"No," he said. "I should be sure you were a dream if you went. +If you are real, sit down on that big footstool and talk. +I want to hear about you." + +Mary put down her candle on the table near the bed +and sat down on the cushioned stool. She did not want +to go away at all. She wanted to stay in the mysterious +hidden-away room and talk to the mysterious boy. + +"What do you want me to tell you?" she said. + +He wanted to know how long she had been at Misselthwaite; +he wanted to know which corridor her room was on; he wanted +to know what she had been doing; if she disliked the moor +as he disliked it; where she had lived before she came +to Yorkshire. She answered all these questions and many +more and he lay back on his pillow and listened. He made +her tell him a great deal about India and about her voyage +across the ocean. She found out that because he had been +an invalid he had not learned things as other children had. +One of his nurses had taught him to read when he was quite +little and he was always reading and looking at pictures +in splendid books. + +Though his father rarely saw him when he was awake, he was +given all sorts of wonderful things to amuse himself with. +He never seemed to have been amused, however. He could have +anything he asked for and was never made to do anything he did +not like to do. "Everyone is obliged to do what pleases me," +he said indifferently. "It makes me ill to be angry. +No one believes I shall live to grow up." + +He said it as if he was so accustomed to the idea that it +had ceased to matter to him at all. He seemed to like +the sound of Mary's voice. As she went on talking he +listened in a drowsy, interested way. Once or twice she +wondered if he were not gradually falling into a doze. +But at last he asked a question which opened up a new subject. + +"How old are you?" he asked. + +"I am ten," answered Mary, forgetting herself for the moment, +"and so are you." + +"How do you know that?" he demanded in a surprised voice. + +"Because when you were born the garden door was locked +and the key was buried. And it has been locked for ten years." + +Colin half sat up, turning toward her, leaning on his elbows. + +"What garden door was locked? Who did it? Where was +the key buried?" he exclaimed as if he were suddenly +very much interested. + +"It--it was the garden Mr. Craven hates," said Mary nervously. +"He locked the door. No one--no one knew where he buried +the key." "What sort of a garden is it?" Colin persisted eagerly. + +"No one has been allowed to go into it for ten years," +was Mary's careful answer. + +But it was too late to be careful. He was too much +like herself. He too had had nothing to think about +and the idea of a hidden garden attracted him as it +had attracted her. He asked question after question. +Where was it? Had she never looked for the door? Had she +never asked the gardeners? + +"They won't talk about it," said Mary. "I think they +have been told not to answer questions." + +"I would make them," said Colin. + +"Could you?" Mary faltered, beginning to feel frightened. +If he could make people answer questions, who knew what +might happen! + +"Everyone is obliged to please me. I told you that," +he said. "If I were to live, this place would sometime +belong to me. They all know that. I would make them +tell me." + +Mary had not known that she herself had been spoiled, +but she could see quite plainly that this mysterious boy +had been. He thought that the whole world belonged to him. +How peculiar he was and how coolly he spoke of not living. + +"Do you think you won't live?" she asked, partly because +she was curious and partly in hope of making him forget +the garden. + +"I don't suppose I shall," he answered as indifferently +as he had spoken before. "Ever since I remember anything +I have heard people say I shan't. At first they thought +I was too little to understand and now they think I +don't hear. But I do. My doctor is my father's cousin. +He is quite poor and if I die he will have all Misselthwaite +when my father is dead. I should think he wouldn't want +me to live." + +"Do you want to live?" inquired Mary. + +"No," he answered, in a cross, tired fashion. "But I +don't want to die. When I feel ill I lie here and think +about it until I cry and cry." + +"I have heard you crying three times," Mary said, "but I +did not know who it was. Were you crying about that?" +She did so want him to forget the garden. + +"I dare say," he answered. "Let us talk about something else. +Talk about that garden. Don't you want to see it?" + +"Yes," answered Mary, in quite a low voice. + +"I do," he went on persistently. "I don't think I ever really +wanted to see anything before, but I want to see that garden. +I want the key dug up. I want the door unlocked. +I would let them take me there in my chair. That would +be gettingfresh air. I am going to make them open the door." + +He had become quite excited and his strange eyes began +to shine like stars and looked more immense than ever. + +"They have to please me," he said. "I will make them +take me there and I will let you go, too." + +Mary's hands clutched each other. Everything would +be spoiled--everything! Dickon would never come back. +She would never again feel like a missel thrush with a +safe-hidden nest. + +"Oh, don't--don't--don't--don't do that!" she cried out. + +He stared as if he thought she had gone crazy! + +"Why?" he exclaimed. "You said you wanted to see it." + +"I do," she answered almost with a sob in her throat, +"but if you make them open the door and take you in like +that it will never be a secret again." + +He leaned still farther forward. + +"A secret," he said. "What do you mean? Tell me." + +Mary's words almost tumbled over one another. + +"You see--you see," she panted, "if no one knows but +ourselves--if there was a door, hidden somewhere under +the ivy--if there was--and we could find it; and if we +could slip through it together and shut it behind us, +and no one knew any one was inside and we called it our +garden and pretended that--that we were missel thrushes +and it was our nest, and if we played there almost every +day and dug and planted seeds and made it all come alive--" + +"Is it dead?" he interrupted her. + +"It soon will be if no one cares for it," she went on. +"The bulbs will live but the roses--" + +He stopped her again as excited as she was herself. + +"What are bulbs?" he put in quickly. + +"They are daffodils and lilies and snowdrops. They are +working in the earth now--pushing up pale green points +because the spring is coming." + +"Is the spring coming?" he said. "What is it like? You +don't see it in rooms if you are ill." + +"It is the sun shining on the rain and the rain falling +on the sunshine, and things pushing up and working under +the earth," said Mary. "If the garden was a secret and we +could get into it we could watch the things grow bigger +every day, and see how many roses are alive. Don't you. +see? Oh, don't you see how much nicer it would be if it +was a secret?" + +He dropped back on his pillow and lay there with an odd +expression on his face. + +"I never had a secret," he said, "except that one about +not living to grow up. They don't know I know that, +so it is a sort of secret. But I like this kind better." + +"If you won't make them take you to the garden," pleaded Mary, +"perhaps--I feel almost sure I can find out how to get +in sometime. And then--if the doctor wants you to go out +in your chair, and if you can always do what you want to do, +perhaps--perhaps we might find some boy who would push you, +and we could go alone and it would always be a secret garden." + +"I should--like--that," he said very slowly, his eyes +looking dreamy. "I should like that. I should not mind +fresh air in a secret garden." + +Mary began to recover her breath and feel safer because +the idea of keeping the secret seemed to please him. +She felt almost sure that if she kept on talking and could +make him see the garden in his mind as she had seen it +he would like it so much that he could not bear to think +that everybody might tramp in to it when they chose. + +"I'll tell you what I think it would be like, if we could +go into it," she said. "It has been shut up so long +things have grown into a tangle perhaps." + +He lay quite still and listened while she went on talking +about the roses which might have clambered from tree +to tree and hung down--about the many birds which might +have built their nests there because it was so safe. +And then she told him about the robin and Ben Weatherstaff, +and there was so much to tell about the robin and it +was so easy and safe to talk about it that she ceased +to be afraid. The robin pleased him so much that he +smiled until he looked almost beautiful, and at first +Mary had thought that he was even plainer than herself, +with his big eyes and heavy locks of hair. + +"I did not know birds could be like that," he said. +"But if you stay in a room you never see things. +What a lot of things you know. I feel as if you had been +inside that garden." + +She did not know what to say, so she did not say anything. +He evidently did not expect an answer and the next moment +he gave her a surprise. + +"I am going to let you look at something," he said. +"Do you see that rose-colored silk curtain hanging on the +wall over the mantel-piece?" + +Mary had not noticed it before, but she looked up and saw it. +It was a curtain of soft silk hanging over what seemed +to be some picture. + +"Yes," she answered. + +"There is a cord hanging from it," said Colin. +"Go and pull it." + +Mary got up, much mystified, and found the cord. +When she pulled it the silk curtain ran back on +rings and when it ran back it uncovered a picture. +It was the picture of a girl with a laughing face. +She had bright hair tied up with a blue ribbon and her gay, +lovely eyes were exactly like Colin's unhappy ones, +agate gray and looking twice as big as they really were +because of the black lashes all round them. + +"She is my mother," said Colin complainingly. "I don't +see why she died. Sometimes I hate her for doing it." + +"How queer!" said Mary. + +"If she had lived I believe I should not have been ill always," +he grumbled. "I dare say I should have lived, too. +And my father would not have hated to look at me. I dare +say I should have had a strong back. Draw the curtain again." + +Mary did as she was told and returned to her footstool. + +"She is much prettier than you," she said, "but her eyes +are just like yours--at least they are the same shape +and color. Why is the curtain drawn over her?" + +He moved uncomfortably. + +"I made them do it," he said. "Sometimes I don't like to +see her looking at me. She smiles too much when I am ill +and miserable. Besides, she is mine and I don't want everyone +to see her." There were a few moments of silence and then Mary spoke. + +"What would Mrs. Medlock do if she found out that I +had been here?" she inquired. + +"She would do as I told her to do," he answered. +"And I should tell her that I wanted you to come here +and talk to me every day. I am glad you came." + +"So am I," said Mary. "I will come as often as I can, +but"--she hesitated--"I shall have to look every day +for the garden door." + +"Yes, you must," said Colin, "and you can tell me about +it afterward." + +He lay thinking a few minutes, as he had done before, +and then he spoke again. + +"I think you shall be a secret, too," he said. "I will not +tell them until they find out. I can always send the nurse +out of the room and say that I want to be by myself. +Do you know Martha?" + +"Yes, I know her very well," said Mary. "She waits on me." + +He nodded his head toward the outer corridor. + +"She is the one who is asleep in the other room. +The nurse went away yesterday to stay all night with her +sister and she always makes Martha attend to me when she +wants to go out. Martha shall tell you when to come here." + +Then Mary understood Martha's troubled look when she +had asked questions about the crying. + +"Martha knew about you all the time?" she said. + +"Yes; she often attends to me. The nurse likes to get +away from me and then Martha comes." + +"I have been here a long time," said Mary. "Shall I go +away now? Your eyes look sleepy." + +"I wish I could go to sleep before you leave me," +he said rather shyly. + +"Shut your eyes," said Mary, drawing her footstool closer, +"and I will do what my Ayah used to do in India. +I will pat your hand and stroke it and sing something +quite low." + +"I should like that perhaps," he said drowsily. + +Somehow she was sorry for him and did not want him +to lie awake, so she leaned against the bed and began +to stroke and pat his hand and sing a very low little +chanting song in Hindustani. + +"That is nice," he said more drowsily still, and she went +on chanting and stroking, but when she looked at him again +his black lashes were lying close against his cheeks, +for his eyes were shut and he was fast asleep. So she +got up softly, took her candle and crept away without +making a sound. + + + +CHAPTER XIV + +A YOUNG RAJAH + + +The moor was hidden in mist when the morning came, +and the rain had not stopped pouring down. There could +be no going out of doors. Martha was so busy that Mary +had no opportunity of talking to her, but in the afternoon +she asked her to come and sit with her in the nursery. +She came bringing the stocking she was always knitting +when she was doing nothing else. + +"What's the matter with thee?" she asked as soon as they +sat down. "Tha' looks as if tha'd somethin' to say." + +"I have. I have found out what the crying was," +said Mary. + +Martha let her knitting drop on her knee and gazed +at her with startled eyes. + +"Tha' hasn't!" she exclaimed. "Never!" + +"I heard it in the night," Mary went on. "And I got +up and went to see where it came from. It was Colin. +I found him." + +Martha's face became red with fright. + +"Eh! Miss Mary!" she said half crying. "Tha' shouldn't +have done it--tha' shouldn't! Tha'll get me in trouble. +I never told thee nothin' about him--but tha'll get me +in trouble. I shall lose my place and what'll mother do!" + +"You won't lose your place," said Mary. "He was glad I came. +We talked and talked and he said he was glad I came." + +"Was he?" cried Martha. "Art tha' sure? Tha' +doesn't know what he's like when anything vexes him. +He's a big lad to cry like a baby, but when he's +in a passion he'll fair scream just to frighten us. +He knows us daren't call our souls our own." + +"He wasn't vexed," said Mary. "I asked him if I should go +away and he made me stay. He asked me questions and I +sat on a big footstool and talked to him about India +and about the robin and gardens. He wouldn't let me go. +He let me see his mother's picture. Before I left him I +sang him to sleep." + +Martha fairly gasped with amazement. + +"I can scarcely believe thee!" she protested. +"It's as if tha'd walked straight into a lion's den. +If he'd been like he is most times he'd have throwed himself +into one of his tantrums and roused th' house. He won't +let strangers look at him." + +"He let me look at him. I looked at him all the time +and he looked at me. We stared!" said Mary. + +"I don't know what to do!" cried agitated Martha. +"If Mrs. Medlock finds out, she'll think I broke orders +and told thee and I shall be packed back to mother." + +"He is not going to tell Mrs. Medlock anything about it yet. +It's to be a sort of secret just at first," said Mary firmly. +"And he says everybody is obliged to do as he pleases." + +"Aye, that's true enough--th' bad lad!" sighed Martha, +wiping her forehead with her apron. + +"He says Mrs. Medlock must. And he wants me to come and talk +to him every day. And you are to tell me when he wants me." + +"Me!" said Martha; "I shall lose my place--I shall for sure!" + +"You can't if you are doing what he wants you to do +and everybody is ordered to obey him," Mary argued. + +"Does tha' mean to say," cried Martha with wide open eyes, +"that he was nice to thee!" + +"I think he almost liked me," Mary answered. + +"Then tha' must have bewitched him!" decided Martha, +drawing a long breath. + +"Do you mean Magic?" inquired Mary. "I've heard about Magic +in India, but I can't make it. I just went into his room +and I was so surprised to see him I stood and stared. +And then he turned round and stared at me. And he thought +I was a ghost or a dream and I thought perhaps he was. +And it was so queer being there alone together in the +middle of the night and not knowing about each other. +And we began to ask each other questions. And when I asked +him if I must go away he said I must not." + +"Th' world's comin' to a end!" gasped Martha. + +"What is the matter with him?" asked Mary. + +"Nobody knows for sure and certain," said Martha. +"Mr. Craven went off his head like when he was born. +Th' doctors thought he'd have to be put in a 'sylum. +It was because Mrs. Craven died like I told you. +He wouldn't set eyes on th' baby. He just raved and said +it'd be another hunchback like him and it'd better die." + +"Is Colin a hunchback?" Mary asked. "He didn't look +like one." + +"He isn't yet," said Martha. "But he began all wrong. +Mother said that there was enough trouble and raging in th' +house to set any child wrong. They was afraid his back +was weak an' they've always been takin' care of it--keepin' +him lyin' down and not lettin' him walk. Once they made +him wear a brace but he fretted so he was downright ill. +Then a big doctor came to see him an' made them take it off. +He talked to th' other doctor quite rough--in a polite way. +He said there'd been too much medicine and too much lettin' +him have his own way." + +"I think he's a very spoiled boy," said Mary. + +"He's th' worst young nowt as ever was!" said Martha. +"I won't say as he hasn't been ill a good bit. +He's had coughs an' colds that's nearly killed him two +or three times. Once he had rheumatic fever an' once he +had typhoid. Eh! Mrs. Medlock did get a fright then. +He'd been out of his head an' she was talkin' to th' +nurse, thinkin' he didn't know nothin', an' she said, +`He'll die this time sure enough, an' best thing for him an' +for everybody.' An' she looked at him an' there he +was with his big eyes open, starin' at her as sensible +as she was herself. She didn't know wha'd happen but he +just stared at her an' says, `You give me some water an' +stop talkin'.'" + +"Do you think he will die?" asked Mary. + +"Mother says there's no reason why any child should live +that gets no fresh air an' doesn't do nothin' but lie +on his back an' read picture-books an' take medicine. +He's weak and hates th' trouble o' bein' taken out o' +doors, an' he gets cold so easy he says it makes him ill." + +Mary sat and looked at the fire. "I wonder," she said slowly, +"if it would not do him good to go out into a garden +and watch things growing. It did me good." + +"One of th' worst fits he ever had," said Martha, "was one +time they took him out where the roses is by the fountain. +He'd been readin' in a paper about people gettin' +somethin' he called `rose cold' an' he began to sneeze an' +said he'd got it an' then a new gardener as didn't +know th' rules passed by an' looked at him curious. +He threw himself into a passion an' he said he'd +looked at him because he was going to be a hunchback. +He cried himself into a fever an' was ill all night." + +"If he ever gets angry at me, I'll never go and see +him again," said Mary. + +"He'll have thee if he wants thee," said Martha. +"Tha' may as well know that at th' start." + +Very soon afterward a bell rang and she rolled up +her knitting. + +"I dare say th' nurse wants me to stay with him a bit," +she said. "I hope he's in a good temper." + +She was out of the room about ten minutes and then she +came back with a puzzled expression. + +"Well, tha' has bewitched him," she said. "He's up on his +sofa with his picture-books. He's told the nurse to stay +away until six o'clock. I'm to wait in the next room. +Th' minute she was gone he called me to him an' says, `I want +Mary Lennox to come and talk to me, and remember you're +not to tell any one.' You'd better go as quick as you can." + +Mary was quite willing to go quickly. She did not want +to see Colin as much as she wanted to see Dickon; +but she wanted to see him very much. + +There was a bright fire on the hearth when she entered +his room, and in the daylight she saw it was a very +beautiful room indeed. There were rich colors in the +rugs and hangings and pictures and books on the walls +which made it look glowing and comfortable even in spite +of the gray sky and falling rain. Colin looked rather +like a picture himself. He was wrapped in a velvet +dressing-gown and sat against a big brocaded cushion. +He had a red spot on each cheek. + +"Come in," he said. "I've been thinking about you +all morning." + +"I've been thinking about you, too," answered Mary. +"You don't know how frightened Martha is. She says +Mrs. Medlock will think she told me about you and then she +will be sent away." + +He frowned. + +"Go and tell her to come here," he said. "She is +in the next room." + +Mary went and brought her back. Poor Martha was shaking +in her shoes. Colin was still frowning. + +"Have you to do what I please or have you not?" he demanded. + +"I have to do what you please, sir," Martha faltered, +turning quite red. + +"Has Medlock to do what I please?" + +"Everybody has, sir," said Martha. + +"Well, then, if I order you to bring Miss Mary to me, +how can Medlock send you away if she finds it out?" + +"Please don't let her, sir," pleaded Martha. + +"I'll send her away if she dares to say a word about such +a thing," said Master Craven grandly. "She wouldn't +like that, I can tell you." + +"Thank you, sir," bobbing a curtsy, "I want to do my duty, sir." + +"What I want is your duty" said Colin more grandly still. +"I'll take care of you. Now go away." + +When the door closed behind Martha, Colin found Mistress +Mary gazing at him as if he had set her wondering. + +"Why do you look at me like that?" he asked her. +"What are you thinking about?" + +"I am thinking about two things." + +"What are they? Sit down and tell me." + +"This is the first one," said Mary, seating herself on the +big stool. "Once in India I saw a boy who was a Rajah. +He had rubies and emeralds and diamonds stuck all over him. +He spoke to his people just as you spoke to Martha. +Everybody had to do everything he told them--in a minute. +I think they would have been killed if they hadn't." + +"I shall make you tell me about Rajahs presently," he said, +"but first tell me what the second thing was." + +"I was thinking," said Mary, "how different you are +from Dickon." + +"Who is Dickon?" he said. "What a queer name!" + +She might as well tell him, she thought she could talk +about Dickon without mentioning the secret garden. She had +liked to hear Martha talk about him. Besides, she longed +to talk about him. It would seem to bring him nearer. + +"He is Martha's brother. He is twelve years old," +she explained. "He is not like any one else in the world. +He can charm foxes and squirrels and birds just as the +natives in India charm snakes. He plays a very soft tune +on a pipe and they come and listen." + +There were some big books on a table at his side and he +dragged one suddenly toward him. "There is a picture +of a snake-charmer in this," he exclaimed. "Come and look +at it" + +The book was a beautiful one with superb colored +illustrations and he turned to one of them. + +"Can he do that?" he asked eagerly. + +"He played on his pipe and they listened," Mary explained. +"But he doesn't call it Magic. He says it's because he +lives on the moor so much and he knows their ways. He says +he feels sometimes as if he was a bird or a rabbit himself, +he likes them so. I think he asked the robin questions. +It seemed as if they talked to each other in soft chirps." + +Colin lay back on his cushion and his eyes grew larger +and larger and the spots on his cheeks burned. + +"Tell me some more about him," he said. + +"He knows all about eggs and nests," Mary went on. +"And he knows where foxes and badgers and otters live. +He keeps them secret so that other boys won't find their holes +and frighten them. He knows about everything that grows +or lives on the moor." + +"Does he like the moor?" said Colin. "How can he +when it's such a great, bare, dreary place?" + +"It's the most beautiful place," protested Mary. +"Thousands of lovely things grow on it and there are +thousands of little creatures all busy building nests +and making holes and burrows and chippering or singing +or squeaking to each other. They are so busy and having +such fun under the earth or in the trees or heather. +It's their world." + +"How do you know all that?" said Colin, turning on his +elbow to look at her. + +"I have never been there once, really," said Mary +suddenly remembering. "I only drove over it in the dark. +I thought it was hideous. Martha told me about it first +and then Dickon. When Dickon talks about it you feel +as if you saw things and heard them and as if you were +standing in the heather with the sun shining and the gorse +smelling like honey--and all full of bees and butterflies." + +"You never see anything if you are ill," said +Colin restlessly. He looked like a person listening +to a new sound in the distance and wondering what it was. + +"You can't if you stay in a room, " said Mary. + +"I couldn't go on the moor" he said in a resentful tone. + +Mary was silent for a minute and then she said something bold. + +"You might--sometime." + +He moved as if he were startled. + +"Go on the moor! How could I? I am going to die." +"How do you know?" said Mary unsympathetically. +She didn't like the way he had of talking about dying. +She did not feel very sympathetic. She felt rather as if he +almost boasted about it. + +"Oh, I've heard it ever since I remember," he answered crossly. +"They are always whispering about it and thinking +I don't notice. They wish I would, too." + +Mistress Mary felt quite contrary. She pinched her +lips together. + +"If they wished I would," she said, "I wouldn't. Who +wishes you would?" + +"The servants--and of course Dr. Craven because he would +get Misselthwaite and be rich instead of poor. He daren't +say so, but he always looks cheerful when I am worse. +When I had typhoid fever his face got quite fat. I think +my father wishes it, too." + +"I don't believe he does," said Mary quite obstinately. + +That made Colin turn and look at her again. + +"Don't you?" he said. + +And then he lay back on his cushion and was still, as if +he were thinking. And there was quite a long silence. +Perhaps they were both of them thinking strange things +children do not usually think. "I like the grand doctor +from London, because he made them take the iron thing off," +said Mary at last "Did he say you were going to die?" + +"No.". + +"What did he say?" + +"He didn't whisper," Colin answered. "Perhaps he knew I +hated whispering. I heard him say one thing quite aloud. +He said, 'The lad might live if he would make up his mind +to it. Put him in the humor.' It sounded as if he was +in a temper." + +"I'll tell you who would put you in the humor, perhaps," +said Mary reflecting. She felt as if she would like this +thing to be settled one way or the other. "I believe +Dickon would. He's always talking about live things. +He never talks about dead things or things that are ill. +He's always looking up in the sky to watch birds flying--or +looking down at the earth to see something growing. +He has such round blue eyes and they are so wide open with +looking about. And he laughs such a big laugh with his wide +mouth--and his cheeks are as red--as red as cherries." +She pulled her stool nearer to the sofa and her expression +quite changed at the remembrance of the wide curving mouth +and wide open eyes. + +"See here," she said. "Don't let us talk about dying; +I don't like it. Let us talk about living. Let us +talk and talk about Dickon. And then we will look at +your pictures." + +It was the best thing she could have said. To talk about +Dickon meant to talk about the moor and about the cottage +and the fourteen people who lived in it on sixteen shillings +a week--and the children who got fat on the moor grass +like the wild ponies. And about Dickon's mother--and +the skipping-rope--and the moor with the sun on it--and +about pale green points sticking up out of the black sod. +And it was all so alive that Mary talked more than she had +ever talked before--and Colin both talked and listened as he +had never done either before. And they both began to laugh +over nothings as children will when they are happy together. +And they laughed so that in the end they were making +as much noise as if they had been two ordinary healthy +natural ten-year-old creatures--instead of a hard, little, +unloving girl and a sickly boy who believed that he was going to die. + +They enjoyed themselves so much that they forgot the +pictures and they forgot about the time. They had been +laughing quite loudly over Ben Weatherstaff and his robin, +and Colin was actually sitting up as if he had forgotten +about his weak back, when he suddenly remembered something. +"Do you know there is one thing we have never once +thought of," he said. "We are cousins." + +It seemed so queer that they had talked so much and never +remembered this simple thing that they laughed more than ever, +because they had got into the humor to laugh at anything. +And in the midst of the fun the door opened and in walked +Dr. Craven and Mrs. Medlock. + +Dr. Craven started in actual alarm and Mrs. Medlock almost +fell back because he had accidentally bumped against her. + +"Good Lord!" exclaimed poor Mrs. Medlock with her eyes +almost starting out of her head. "Good Lord!" + +"What is this?" said Dr. Craven, coming forward. +"What does it mean?" + +Then Mary was reminded of the boy Rajah again. +Colin answered as if neither the doctor's alarm nor +Mrs. Medlock's terror were of the slightest consequence. +He was as little disturbed or frightened as if an elderly +cat and dog had walked into the room. + +"This is my cousin, Mary Lennox," he said. "I asked +her to come and talk to me. I like her. She must come +and talk to me whenever I send for her." + +Dr. Craven turned reproachfully to Mrs. Medlock. +"Oh, sir" she panted. "I don't know how it's happened. +There's not a servant on the place tha'd dare to talk--they +all have their orders." + +"Nobody told her anything," said Colin. "She heard +me crying and found me herself. I am glad she came. +Don't be silly, Medlock." + +Mary saw that Dr. Craven did not look pleased, but it +was quite plain that he dare not oppose his patient. +He sat down by Colin and felt his pulse. + +"I am afraid there has been too much excitement. +Excitement is not good for you, my boy," he said. + +"I should be excited if she kept away," answered Colin, +his eyes beginning to look dangerously sparkling. +"I am better. She makes me better. The nurse must bring up +her tea with mine. We will have tea together." + +Mrs. Medlock and Dr. Craven looked at each other in a +troubled way, but there was evidently nothing to be done. + +"He does look rather better, sir," ventured Mrs. Medlock. +"But"--thinking the matter over--"he looked better this +morning before she came into the room." + +"She came into he room last night. She stayed with me +a long time. She sang a Hindustani song to me and it +made me go to sleep," said Colin. "I was better when I +wakened up. I wanted my breakfast. I want my tea now. +Tell nurse, Medlock." + +Dr. Craven did not stay very long. He talked to the nurse +for a few minutes when she came into the room and said a few +words of warning to Colin. He must not talk too much; +he must not forget that he was ill; he must not forget +that he was very easily tired. Mary thought that there +seemed to be a number of uncomfortable things he was not +to forget. + +Colin looked fretful and kept his strange black-lashed +eyes fixed on Dr. Craven's face. + +"I want to forget it," he said at last. "She makes me +forget it. That is why I want her." + +Dr. Craven did not look happy when he left the room. +He gave a puzzled glance at the little girl sitting on +the large stool. She had become a stiff, silent child +again as soon as he entered and he could not see what +the attraction was. The boy actually did look brighter, +however--and he sighed rather heavily as he went down +the corridor. + +"They are always wanting me to eat things when I don't +want to," said Colin, as the nurse brought in the tea +and put it on the table by the sofa. "Now, if you'll +eat I will. Those muffins look so nice and hot. +Tell me about Rajahs." + + + +CHAPTER XV + +NEST BUILDING + + +After another week of rain the high arch of blue sky +appeared again and the sun which poured down was quite hot. +Though there had been no chance to see either the secret +garden or Dickon, Mistress Mary had enjoyed herself +very much. The week had not seemed long. She had spent +hours of every day with Colin in his room, talking about +Rajahs or gardens or Dickon and the cottage on the moor. +They had looked at the splendid books and pictures and +sometimes Mary had read things to Colin, and sometimes he +had read a little to her. When he was amused and interested +she thought he scarcely looked like an invalid at all, +except that his face was so colorless and he was always +on the sofa. + +"You are a sly young one to listen and get out of your +bed to go following things up like you did that night," +Mrs. Medlock said once. "But there's no saying it's +not been a sort of blessing to the lot of us. He's not +had a tantrum or a whining fit since you made friends. +The nurse was just going to give up the case because she +was so sick of him, but she says she doesn't mind staying +now you've gone on duty with her," laughing a little. + +In her talks with Colin, Mary had tried to be very cautious +about the secret garden. There were certain things she +wanted to find out from him, but she felt that she must +find them out without asking him direct questions. +In the first place, as she began to like to be with him, +she wanted to discover whether he was the kind of boy you +could tell a secret to. He was not in the least like Dickon, +but he was evidently so pleased with the idea of a garden +no one knew anything about that she thought perhaps he +could be trusted. But she had not known him long enough +to be sure. The second thing she wanted to find out was +this: If he could be trusted--if he really could--wouldn't +it be possible to take him to the garden without having +any one find it out? The grand doctor had said that he must +have fresh air and Colin had said that he would not mind +fresh air in a secret garden. Perhaps if he had a great +deal of fresh air and knew Dickon and the robin and saw +things growing he might not think so much about dying. +Mary had seen herself in the glass sometimes lately when she +had realized that she looked quite a different creature +from the child she had seen when she arrived from India. +This child looked nicer. Even Martha had seen a change +in her. + +"Th' air from th' moor has done thee good already," +she had said. "Tha'rt not nigh so yeller and tha'rt not +nigh so scrawny. Even tha' hair doesn't slamp down on tha' +head so flat. It's got some life in it so as it sticks +out a bit." + +"It's like me," said Mary. "It's growing stronger +and fatter. I'm sure there's more of it." + +"It looks it, for sure," said Martha, ruffling it up +a little round her face. "Tha'rt not half so ugly when +it's that way an' there's a bit o' red in tha' cheeks." + +If gardens and fresh air had been good for her perhaps they +would be good for Colin. But then, if he hated people +to look at him, perhaps he would not like to see Dickon. + +"Why does it make you angry when you are looked at?" +she inquired one day. + +"I always hated it," he answered, "even when I was very little. +Then when they took me to the seaside and I used to lie +in my carriage everybody used to stare and ladies would +stop and talk to my nurse and then they would begin to +whisper and I knew then they were saying I shouldn't live +to grow up. Then sometimes the ladies would pat my cheeks +and say `Poor child!' Once when a lady did that I screamed +out loud and bit her hand. She was so frightened she ran away." + +"She thought you had gone mad like a dog," said Mary, +not at all admiringly. + +"I don't care what she thought," said Colin, frowning. + +"I wonder why you didn't scream and bite me when I came +into your room?" said Mary. Then she began to smile slowly. + +"I thought you were a ghost or a dream," he said. +"You can't bite a ghost or a dream, and if you scream they +don't care." + +"Would you hate it if--if a boy looked at you?" +Mary asked uncertainly. + +He lay back on his cushion and paused thoughtfully. + +"There's one boy," he said quite slowly, as if he were thinking +over every word, "there's one boy I believe I shouldn't mind. +It's that boy who knows where the foxes live--Dickon." + +"I'm sure you wouldn't mind him," said Mary. + +"The birds don't and other animals," he said, still thinking +it over, "perhaps that's why I shouldn't. He's a sort +of animal charmer and I am a boy animal." + +Then he laughed and she laughed too; in fact it ended +in their both laughing a great deal and finding the idea +of a boy animal hiding in his hole very funny indeed. + +What Mary felt afterward was that she need not fear +about Dickon. + + +On that first morning when the sky was blue again Mary wakened +very early. The sun was pouring in slanting rays through +the blinds and there was something so joyous in the sight +of it that she jumped out of bed and ran to the window. +She drew up the blinds and opened the window itself +and a great waft of fresh, scented air blew in upon her. +The moor was blue and the whole world looked as if something +Magic had happened to it. There were tender little +fluting sounds here and there and everywhere, as if scores +of birds were beginning to tune up for a concert. +Mary put her hand out of the window and held it in the sun. + +"It's warm--warm!" she said. "It will make the green +points push up and up and up, and it will make the bulbs +and roots work and struggle with all their might under +the earth." + +She kneeled down and leaned out of the window as far +as she could, breathing big breaths and sniffing the air +until she laughed because she remembered what Dickon's +mother had said about the end of his nose quivering +like a rabbit's. "It must be very early," she said. +"The little clouds are all pink and I've never seen +the sky look like this. No one is up. I don't even hear +the stable boys." + +A sudden thought made her scramble to her feet. + +"I can't wait! I am going to see the garden!" + +She had learned to dress herself by this time and she put +on her clothes in five minutes. She knew a small side door +which she could unbolt herself and she flew downstairs +in her stocking feet and put on her shoes in the hall. +She unchained and unbolted and unlocked and when the door +was open she sprang across the step with one bound, +and there she was standing on the grass, which seemed +to have turned green, and with the sun pouring down on +her and warm sweet wafts about her and the fluting and +twittering and singing coming from every bush and tree. +She clasped her hands for pure joy and looked up in the sky +and it was so blue and pink and pearly and white and flooded +with springtime light that she felt as if she must flute +and sing aloud herself and knew that thrushes and robins +and skylarks could not possibly help it. She ran around +the shrubs and paths towards the secret garden. + +"It is all different already," she said. "The grass is +greener and things are sticking up every- where and things +are uncurling and green buds of leaves are showing. +This afternoon I am sure Dickon will come." + +The long warm rain had done strange things to the +herbaceous beds which bordered the walk by the lower wall. +There were things sprouting and pushing out from the +roots of clumps of plants and there were actually here +and there glimpses of royal purple and yellow unfurling +among the stems of crocuses. Six months before Mistress +Mary would not have seen how the world was waking up, +but now she missed nothing. + +When she had reached the place where the door hid itself +under the ivy, she was startled by a curious loud sound. +It was the caw--caw of a crow and it came from the top +of the wall, and when she looked up, there sat a big +glossy-plumaged blue-black bird, looking down at her very +wisely indeed. She had never seen a crow so close before +and he made her a little nervous, but the next moment he +spread his wings and flapped away across the garden. +She hoped he was not going to stay inside and she +pushed the door open wondering if he would. When she +got fairly into the garden she saw that he probably +did intend to stay because he had alighted on a dwarf +apple-tree and under the apple-tree was lying a little +reddish animal with a Bushy tail, and both of them were +watching the stooping body and rust-red head of Dickon, +who was kneeling on the grass working hard. + +Mary flew across the grass to him. + +"Oh, Dickon! Dickon!" she cried out. "How could you get +here so early! How could you! The sun has only just got up!" + +He got up himself, laughing and glowing, and tousled; +his eyes like a bit of the sky. + +"Eh!" he said. "I was up long before him. How could I +have stayed abed! Th' world's all fair begun again this +mornin', it has. An' it's workin' an' hummin' an' scratchin' +an' pipin' an' nest-buildin' an' breathin' out scents, +till you've got to be out on it 'stead o' lyin' on your back. +When th' sun did jump up, th' moor went mad for joy, an' +I was in the midst of th' heather, an' I run like mad +myself, shoutin' an' singin'. An' I come straight here. +I couldn't have stayed away. Why, th' garden was lyin' +here waitin'!" + +Mary put her hands on her chest, panting, as if she +had been running herself. + +"Oh, Dickon! Dickon!" she said. "I'm so happy I can +scarcely breathe!" + +Seeing him talking to a stranger, the little bushy-tailed +animal rose from its place under the tree and came to him, +and the rook, cawing once, flew down from its branch +and settled quietly on his shoulder. + +"This is th' little fox cub," he said, rubbing the little +reddish animal's head. "It's named Captain. An' this +here's Soot. Soot he flew across th' moor with me an' +Captain he run same as if th' hounds had been after him. +They both felt same as I did." + +Neither of the creatures looked as if he were the least +afraid of Mary. When Dickon began to walk about, +Soot stayed on his shoulder and Captain trotted quietly +close to his side. + +"See here!" said Dickon. "See how these has +pushed up, an' these an' these! An' Eh! Look at these here!" + +He threw himself upon his knees and Mary went +down beside him. They had come upon a whole clump +of crocuses burst into purple and orange and gold. +Mary bent her face down and kissed and kissed them. + +"You never kiss a person in that way," she said when she +lifted her head. "Flowers are so different." + +He looked puzzled but smiled. + +"Eh!" he said, "I've kissed mother many a time that way +when I come in from th' moor after a day's roamin' an' +she stood there at th' door in th' sun, lookin' so glad an' +comfortable." They ran from one part of the garden to +another and found so many wonders that they were obliged +to remind themselves that they must whisper or speak low. +He showed her swelling leafbuds on rose branches which +had seemed dead. He showed her ten thousand new green +points pushing through the mould. They put their eager +young noses close to the earth and sniffed its warmed +springtime breathing; they dug and pulled and laughed low +with rapture until Mistress Mary's hair was as tumbled +as Dickon's and her cheeks were almost as poppy red as his. + +There was every joy on earth in the secret garden +that morning, and in the midst of them came a delight +more delightful than all, because it was more wonderful. +Swiftly something flew across the wall and darted through +the trees to a close grown corner, a little flare of +red-breasted bird with something hanging from its beak. +Dickon stood quite still and put his hand on Mary almost +as if they had suddenly found themselves laughing in a church. + +"We munnot stir," he whispered in broad Yorkshire. +"We munnot scarce breathe. I knowed he was mate-huntin' +when I seed him last. It's Ben Weatherstaff's robin. +He's buildin' his nest. He'll stay here if us don't fight him." +They settled down softly upon the grass and sat there +without moving. + +"Us mustn't seem as if us was watchin' him too close," +said Dickon. "He'd be out with us for good if he got th' +notion us was interferin' now. He'll be a good bit different +till all this is over. He's settin' up housekeepin'. +He'll be shyer an' readier to take things ill. +He's got no time for visitin' an' gossipin'. Us must +keep still a bit an' try to look as if us was grass an' +trees an' bushes. Then when he's got used to seein' +us I'll chirp a bit an' he'll know us'll not be in +his way." + +Mistress Mary was not at all sure that she knew, as Dickon +seemed to, how to try to look like grass and trees and bushes. +But he had said the queer thing as if it were the simplest +and most natural thing in the world, and she felt it must +be quite easy to him, and indeed she watched him for a few +minutes carefully, wondering if it was possible for him +to quietly turn green and put out branches and leaves. +But he only sat wonderfully still, and when he spoke +dropped his voice to such a softness that it was curious +that she could hear him, but she could. + +"It's part o' th' springtime, this nest-buildin' +is," he said. "I warrant it's been goin' on in th' +same way every year since th' world was begun. +They've got their way o' thinkin' and doin' things an' +a body had better not meddle. You can lose a friend +in springtime easier than any other season if you're too curious." + +"If we talk about him I can't help looking at him," Mary said +as softly as possible. "We must talk of something else. +There is something I want to tell you." + +"He'll like it better if us talks o' somethin' else," +said Dickon. "What is it tha's got to tell me?" + +"Well--do you know about Colin?" she whispered. + +He turned his head to look at her. + +"What does tha' know about him?" he asked. + +"I've seen him. I have been to talk to him every day +this week. He wants me to come. He says I'm making him +forget about being ill and dying," answered Mary. + +Dickon looked actually relieved as soon as the surprise +died away from his round face. + +"I am glad o' that," he exclaimed. "I'm right down glad. +It makes me easier. I knowed I must say nothin' about him an' +I don't like havin' to hide things." + +"Don't you like hiding the garden?" said Mary. + +"I'll never tell about it," he answered. "But I says +to mother, `Mother,' I says, `I got a secret to keep. +It's not a bad 'un, tha' knows that. It's no worse +than hidin' where a bird's nest is. Tha' doesn't mind it, +does tha'?'" + +Mary always wanted to hear about mother. + +"What did she say?" she asked, not at all afraid to hear. + +Dickon grinned sweet-temperedly. + +"It was just like her, what she said," he answered. +"She give my head a bit of a rub an' laughed an' she says, +'Eh, lad, tha' can have all th' secrets tha' likes. +I've knowed thee twelve year'.'" + +"How did you know about Colin?" asked Mary. + +"Everybody as knowed about Mester Craven knowed there was +a little lad as was like to be a cripple, an' they knowed +Mester Craven didn't like him to be talked about. Folks is +sorry for Mester Craven because Mrs. Craven was such a pretty +young lady an' they was so fond of each other. Mrs. Medlock +stops in our cottage whenever she goes to Thwaite an' +she doesn't mind talkin' to mother before us children, +because she knows us has been brought up to be trusty. +How did tha' find out about him? Martha was in fine +trouble th' last time she came home. She said tha'd +heard him frettin' an' tha' was askin' questions an' +she didn't know what to say." + +Mary told him her story about the midnight wuthering +of the wind which had wakened her and about the faint +far-off sounds of the complaining voice which had led +her down the dark corridors with her candle and had +ended with her opening of the door of the dimly lighted +room with the carven four-posted bed in the corner. +When she described the small ivory-white face and the +strange black-rimmed eyes Dickon shook his head. + +"Them's just like his mother's eyes, only hers was +always laughin', they say," he said. "They say as +Mr. Craven can't bear to see him when he's awake an' +it's because his eyes is so like his mother's an' +yet looks so different in his miserable bit of a face." + +"Do you think he wants to die?" whispered Mary. + +"No, but he wishes he'd never been born. Mother she +says that's th' worst thing on earth for a child. +Them as is not wanted scarce ever thrives. Mester Craven +he'd buy anythin' as money could buy for th' poor lad +but he'd like to forget as he's on earth. For one thing, +he's afraid he'll look at him some day and find he's +growed hunchback." + +"Colin's so afraid of it himself that he won't sit up," +said Mary. "He says he's always thinking that if he +should feel a lump coming he should go crazy and scream +himself to death." + +"Eh! he oughtn't to lie there thinkin' things like that," +said Dickon. "No lad could get well as thought them +sort o' things." + +The fox was lying on the grass close by him, looking up to +ask for a pat now and then, and Dickon bent down and rubbed +his neck softly and thought a few minutes in silence. +Presently he lifted his head and looked round the garden. + +"When first we got in here," he said, "it seemed like +everything was gray. Look round now and tell me if tha' +doesn't see a difference." + +Mary looked and caught her breath a little. + +"Why!" she cried, "the gray wall is changing. +It is as if a green mist were creeping over it. +It's almost like a green gauze veil." + +"Aye," said Dickon. "An' it'll be greener and greener till th' +gray's all gone. Can tha' guess what I was thinkin'?" + +"I know it was something nice," said Mary eagerly. +"I believe it was something about Colin." + +"I was thinkin' that if he was out here he wouldn't be watchin' +for lumps to grow on his back; he'd be watchin' for buds +to break on th' rose-bushes, an' he'd likely be healthier," +explained Dickon. "I was wonderin' if us could ever +get him in th' humor to come out here an' lie under th' +trees in his carriage." + +"I've been wondering that myself. I've thought of it +almost every time I've talked to him," said Mary. +"I've wondered if he could keep a secret and I've wondered +if we could bring him here without any one seeing us. +I thought perhaps you could push his carriage. The doctor +said he must have fresh air and if he wants us to take him +out no one dare disobey him. He won't go out for other people +and perhaps they will be glad if he will go out with us. +He could order the gardeners to keep away so they wouldn't +find out." + +Dickon was thinking very hard as he scratched Captain's back. + +"It'd be good for him, I'll warrant," he said. +"Us'd not be thinkin' he'd better never been born. +Us'd be just two children watchin' a garden grow, an' +he'd be another. Two lads an' a little lass just lookin' +on at th' springtime. I warrant it'd be better than +doctor's stuff." + +"He's been lying in his room so long and he's always +been so afraid of his back that it has made him queer," +said Mary. "He knows a good many things out of books +but he doesn't know anything else. He says he has been +too ill to notice things and he hates going out of doors +and hates gardens and gardeners. But he likes to hear +about this garden because it is a secret. I daren't tell +him much but he said he wanted to see it." + +"Us'll have him out here sometime for sure," said Dickon. +"I could push his carriage well enough. Has tha' +noticed how th' robin an' his mate has been workin' +while we've been sittin' here? Look at him perched on that +branch wonderin' where it'd be best to put that twig he's +got in his beak." + +He made one of his low whistling calls and the robin turned +his head and looked at him inquiringly, still holding +his twig. Dickon spoke to him as Ben Weatherstaff did, +but Dickon's tone was one of friendly advice. + +"Wheres'ever tha' puts it," he said, "it'll be +all right. Tha' knew how to build tha' nest before tha' +came out o' th' egg. Get on with thee, lad. Tha'st got +no time to lose." + +"Oh, I do like to hear you talk to him!" Mary said, +laughing delightedly. "Ben Weatherstaff scolds him +and makes fun of him, and he hops about and looks as +if he understood every word, and I know he likes it. +Ben Weatherstaff says he is so conceited he would rather +have stones thrown at him than not be noticed." + +Dickon laughed too and went on talking. + +"Tha' knows us won't trouble thee," he said to the robin. +"Us is near bein' wild things ourselves. Us is nest-buildin' +too, bless thee. Look out tha' doesn't tell on us." + +And though the robin did not answer, because his beak +was occupied, Mary knew that when he flew away with his +twig to his own corner of the garden the darkness of his +dew-bright eye meant that he would not tell their secret +for the world. + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +"I WON'T!" SAID MARY + + +They found a great deal to do that morning and Mary +was late in returning to the house and was also in such +a hurry to get back to her work that she quite forgot +Colin until the last moment. + +"Tell Colin that I can't come and see him yet," she said +to Martha. "I'm very busy in the garden." + +Martha looked rather frightened. + +"Eh! Miss Mary," she said, "it may put him all out +of humor when I tell him that." + +But Mary was not as afraid of him as other people were +and she was not a self-sacrificing person. + +"I can't stay," she answered. "Dickon's waiting for me;" +and she ran away. + +The afternoon was even lovelier and busier than the morning +had been. Already nearly all the weeds were cleared +out of the garden and most of the roses and trees had +been pruned or dug about. Dickon had brought a spade +of his own and he had taught Mary to use all her tools, +so that by this time it was plain that though the lovely +wild place was not likely to become a "gardener's garden" +it would be a wilderness of growing things before the +springtime was over. + +"There'll be apple blossoms an' cherry blossoms overhead," +Dickon said, working away with all his might. +"An' there'll be peach an' plum trees in bloom against th' +walls, an' th' grass'll be a carpet o' flowers." + +The little fox and the rook were as happy and busy +as they were, and the robin and his mate flew +backward and forward like tiny streaks of lightning. +Sometimes the rook flapped his black wings and soared away +over the tree-tops in the park. Each time he came back +and perched near Dickon and cawed several times as if he +were relating his adventures, and Dickon talked to him +just as he had talked to the robin. Once when Dickon +was so busy that he did not answer him at first, Soot flew +on to his shoulders and gently tweaked his ear with his +large beak. When Mary wanted to rest a little Dickon +sat down with her under a tree and once he took his pipe +out of his pocket and played the soft strange little notes +and two squirrels appeared on the wall and looked and listened. + +"Tha's a good bit stronger than tha' was," Dickon said, +looking at her as she was digging. "Tha's beginning +to look different, for sure." + +Mary was glowing with exercise and good spirits. + +"I'm getting fatter and fatter every day," she said +quite exultantly. "Mrs. Medlock will have to get me some +bigger dresses. Martha says my hair is growing thicker. +It isn't so flat and stringy." + +The sun was beginning to set and sending deep gold-colored +rays slanting under the trees when they parted. + +"It'll be fine tomorrow," said Dickon. "I'll be at work +by sunrise." + +"So will I," said Mary. + + +She ran back to the house as quickly as her feet would +carry her. She wanted to tell Colin about Dickon's fox cub +and the rook and about what the springtime had been doing. +She felt sure he would like to hear. So it was not very +pleasant when she opened the door of her room, to see +Martha standing waiting for her with a doleful face. + +"What is the matter?" she asked. "What did Colin say +when you told him I couldn't come?" + +"Eh!" said Martha, "I wish tha'd gone. He was nigh goin' +into one o' his tantrums. There's been a nice to do all +afternoon to keep him quiet. He would watch the clock +all th' time." + +Mary's lips pinched themselves together. She was no more +used to considering other people than Colin was and she +saw no reason why an ill-tempered boy should interfere +with the thing she liked best. She knew nothing about +the pitifulness of people who had been ill and nervous +and who did not know that they could control their tempers +and need not make other people ill and nervous, too. +When she had had a headache in India she had done her +best to see that everybody else also had a headache or +something quite as bad. And she felt she was quite right; +but of course now she felt that Colin was quite wrong. + +He was not on his sofa when she went into his room. +He was lying flat on his back in bed and he did not turn +his head toward her as she came in. This was a bad beginning +and Mary marched up to him with her stiff manner. + +"Why didn't you get up?" she said. + +"I did get up this morning when I thought you were coming," +he answered, without looking at her. "I made them put +me back in bed this afternoon. My back ached and my +head ached and I was tired. Why didn't you come?" +"I was working in the garden with Dickon," said Mary. + +Colin frowned and condescended to look at her. + +"I won't let that boy come here if you go and stay +with him instead of coming to talk to me," he said. + +Mary flew into a fine passion. She could fly into +a passion without making a noise. She just grew sour +and obstinate and did not care what happened. + +"If you send Dickon away, I'll never come into this +room again!" she retorted. + +"You'll have to if I want you," said Colin. + +"I won't!" said Mary. + +"I'll make you," said Colin. "They shall drag you in." + +"Shall they, Mr. Rajah!" said Mary fiercely. "They may drag +me in but they can't make me talk when they get me here. +I'll sit and clench my teeth and never tell you one thing. +I won't even look at you. I'll stare at the floor!" + +They were a nice agreeable pair as they glared at each other. +If they had been two little street boys they would have +sprung at each other and had a rough-and-tumble fight. +As it was, they did the next thing to it. + +"You are a selfish thing!" cried Colin. + +"What are you?" said Mary. "Selfish people always say that. +Any one is selfish who doesn't do what they want. +You're more selfish than I am. You're the most selfish boy +I ever saw." + +"I'm not!" snapped Colin. "I'm not as selfish as your +fine Dickon is! He keeps you playing in the dirt when he +knows I am all by myself. He's selfish, if you like!" + +Mary's eyes flashed fire. + +"He's nicer than any other boy that ever lived!" she said. +"He's--he's like an angel!" It might sound rather silly +to say that but she did not care. + +"A nice angel!" Colin sneered ferociously. "He's a common +cottage boy off the moor!" + +"He's better than a common Rajah!" retorted Mary. +"He's a thousand times better!" + +Because she was the stronger of the two she was beginning +to get the better of him. The truth was that he had +never had a fight with any one like himself in his +life and, upon the whole, it was rather good for him, +though neither he nor Mary knew anything about that. +He turned his head on his pillow and shut his eyes +and a big tear was squeezed out and ran down his cheek. +He was beginning to feel pathetic and sorry for himself--not +for any one else. + +"I'm not as selfish as you, because I'm always ill, +and I'm sure there is a lump coming on my back," he said. +"And I am going to die besides." + +"You're not!" contradicted Mary unsympathetically. + +He opened his eyes quite wide with indignation. +He had never heard such a thing said before. He was at +once furious and slightly pleased, if a person could +be both at one time. + +"I'm not?" he cried. "I am! You know I am! Everybody +says so." + +"I don't believe it!" said Mary sourly. "You just say +that to make people sorry. I believe you're proud of it. +I don't believe it! If you were a nice boy it might be +true--but you're too nasty!" + +In spite of his invalid back Colin sat up in bed in quite +a healthy rage. + +"Get out of the room!" he shouted and he caught hold +of his pillow and threw it at her. He was not strong +enough to throw it far and it only fell at her feet, +but Mary's face looked as pinched as a nutcracker. + +"I'm going," she said. "And I won't come back!" +She walked to the door and when she reached it she turned +round and spoke again. + +"I was going to tell you all sorts of nice things," +she said. "Dickon brought his fox and his rook and I was +going to tell you all about them. Now I won't tell you +a single thing!" + +She marched out of the door and closed it behind her, +and there to her great astonishment she found the trained +nurse standing as if she had been listening and, more amazing +still--she was laughing. She was a big handsome young +woman who ought not to have been a trained nurse at all, +as she could not bear invalids and she was always +making excuses to leave Colin to Martha or any one else +who would take her place. Mary had never liked her, +and she simply stood and gazed up at her as she stood +giggling into her handkerchief.. + +"What are you laughing at?" she asked her. + +"At you two young ones," said the nurse. "It's the best +thing that could happen to the sickly pampered thing +to have some one to stand up to him that's as spoiled +as himself;" and she laughed into her handkerchief again. +"If he'd had a young vixen of a sister to fight with it +would have been the saving of him." + +"Is he going to die?" + +"I don't know and I don't care," said the nurse. +"Hysterics and temper are half what ails him." + +"What are hysterics?" asked Mary. + +"You'll find out if you work him into a tantrum after +this--but at any rate you've given him something to have +hysterics about, and I'm glad of it." + +Mary went back to her room not feeling at all as she +had felt when she had come in from the garden. She was +cross and disappointed but not at all sorry for Colin. +She had looked forward to telling him a great many things +and she had meant to try to make up her mind whether +it would be safe to trust him with the great secret. +She had been beginning to think it would be, but now she +had changed her mind entirely. She would never tell him +and he could stay in his room and never get any fresh +air and die if he liked! It would serve him right! She +felt so sour and unrelenting that for a few minutes she +almost forgot about Dickon and the green veil creeping +over the world and the soft wind blowing down from +the moor. + +Martha was waiting for her and the trouble in her face +had been temporarily replaced by interest and curiosity. +There was a wooden box on the table and its cover had been +removed and revealed that it was full of neat packages. + +"Mr. Craven sent it to you," said Martha. "It looks +as if it had picture-books in it." + +Mary remembered what he had asked her the day she had gone +to his room. "Do you want anything--dolls--toys --books?" +She opened the package wondering if he had sent a doll, +and also wondering what she should do with it if he had. +But he had not sent one. There were several beautiful +books such as Colin had, and two of them were about gardens +and were full of pictures. There were two or three games +and there was a beautiful little writing-case with a gold +monogram on it and a gold pen and inkstand. + +Everything was so nice that her pleasure began to crowd +her anger out of her mind. She had not expected him +to remember her at all and her hard little heart grew +quite warm. + +"I can write better than I can print," she said, +"and the first thing I shall write with that pen will +be a letter to tell him I am much obliged." + +If she had been friends with Colin she would have run to show +him her presents at once, and they would have looked at the +pictures and read some of the gardening books and perhaps +tried playing the games, and he would have enjoyed himself +so much he would never once have thought he was going +to die or have put his hand on his spine to see if there +was a lump coming. He had a way of doing that which she +could not bear. It gave her an uncomfortable frightened +feeling because he always looked so frightened himself. +He said that if he felt even quite a little lump +some day he should know his hunch had begun to grow. +Something he had heard Mrs. Medlock whispering to the +nurse had given him the idea and he had thought over it +in secret until it was quite firmly fixed in his mind. +Mrs. Medlock had said his father's back had begun to show +its crookedness in that way when he was a child. He had +never told any one but Mary that most of his "tantrums" +as they called them grew out of his hysterical hidden fear. +Mary had been sorry for him when he had told her. + +"He always began to think about it when he was cross or tired," +she said to herself. "And he has been cross today. +Perhaps--perhaps he has been thinking about it all afternoon." + +She stood still, looking down at the carpet and thinking. + +"I said I would never go back again--" she hesitated, +knitting her brows--"but perhaps, just perhaps, +I will go and see--if he wants me--in the morning. +Perhaps he'll try to throw his pillow at me again, +but--I think--I'll go." + + + +CHAPTER XVII + +A TANTRUM + + +She had got up very early in the morning and had worked +hard in the garden and she was tired and sleepy, so as soon +as Martha had brought her supper and she had eaten it, +she was glad to go to bed. As she laid her head on +the pillow she murmured to herself: + +"I'll go out before breakfast and work with Dickon +and then afterward--I believe--I'll go to see him." + +She thought it was the middle of the night when she was +awakened by such dreadful sounds that she jumped out of +bed in an instant. What was it--what was it? The next +minute she felt quite sure she knew. Doors were opened +and shut and there were hurrying feet in the corridors +and some one was crying and screaming at the same time, +screaming and crying in a horrible way. + +"It's Colin," she said. "He's having one of those tantrums +the nurse called hysterics. How awful it sounds." + +As she listened to the sobbing screams she did not +wonder that people were so frightened that they gave +him his own way in everything rather than hear them. +She put her hands over her ears and felt sick and shivering. + +"I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do," +she kept saying. "I can't bear it." + +Once she wondered if he would stop if she dared go +to him and then she remembered how he had driven her out +of the room and thought that perhaps the sight of her +might make him worse. Even when she pressed her hands +more tightly over her ears she could not keep the awful +sounds out. She hated them so and was so terrified +by them that suddenly they began to make her angry +and she felt as if she should like to fly into a tantrum +herself and frighten him as he was frightening her. +She was not used to any one's tempers but her own. She took +her hands from her ears and sprang up and stamped her foot. + +"He ought to be stopped! Somebody ought to make him stop! +Somebody ought to beat him!" she cried out. + +Just then she heard feet almost running down the corridor +and her door opened and the nurse came in. She was not +laughing now by any means. She even looked rather pale. + +"He's worked himself into hysterics," she said in a great hurry. +"He'll do himself harm. No one can do anything with him. +You come and try, like a good child. He likes you." + +"He turned me out of the room this morning," said Mary, +stamping her foot with excitement. + +The stamp rather pleased the nurse. The truth was that she +had been afraid she might find Mary crying and hiding +her head under the bed-clothes. + +"That's right," she said. "You're in the right humor. +You go and scold him. Give him something new to think of. +Do go, child, as quick as ever you can." + +It was not until afterward that Mary realized that the thing +had been funny as well as dreadful--that it was funny that all +the grown-up people were so frightened that they came to a little +girl just because they guessed she was almost as bad as Colin himself. + +She flew along the corridor and the nearer she got +to the screams the higher her temper mounted. +She felt quite wicked by the time she reached the door. +She slapped it open with her hand and ran across the room +to the four-posted bed. + +"You stop!" she almost shouted. "You stop! I hate you! +Everybody hates you! I wish everybody would run out of the +house and let you scream yourself to death! You will scream +yourself to death in a minute, and I wish you would!" +A nice sympathetic child could neither have thought nor +said such things, but it just happened that the shock of +hearing them was the best possible thing for this hysterical +boy whom no one had ever dared to restrain or contradict. + +He had been lying on his face beating his pillow with his +hands and he actually almost jumped around, he turned +so quickly at the sound of the furious little voice. +His face looked dreadful, white and red and swollen, +and he was gasping and choking; but savage little Mary did +not care an atom. + +"If you scream another scream," she said, "I'll scream +too --and I can scream louder than you can and I'll +frighten you, I'll frighten you!" + +He actually had stopped screaming because she had startled +him so. The scream which had been coming almost choked him. +The tears were streaming down his face and he shook +all over. + +"I can't stop!" he gasped and sobbed. "I can't--I can't!" + +"You can!" shouted Mary. "Half that ails you is hysterics +and temper--just hysterics--hysterics--hysterics!" +and she stamped each time she said it. + +"I felt the lump--I felt it," choked out Colin. +"I knew I should. I shall have a hunch on my back and then +I shall die," and he began to writhe again and turned +on his face and sobbed and wailed but he didn't scream. + +"You didn't feel a lump!" contradicted Mary fiercely. "If you +did it was only a hysterical lump. Hysterics makes lumps. +There's nothing the matter with your horrid back--nothing +but hysterics! Turn over and let me look at it!" + +She liked the word "hysterics" and felt somehow as if it +had an effect on him. He was probably like herself +and had never heard it before. + +"Nurse," she commanded, "come here and show me his back +this minute!" + +The nurse, Mrs. Medlock and Martha had been standing +huddled together near the door staring at her, their mouths +half open. All three had gasped with fright more than once. +The nurse came forward as if she were half afraid. +Colin was heaving with great breathless sobs. + +"Perhaps he--he won't let me," she hesitated in a low voice. + +Colin heard her, however, and he gasped out between two +sobs: + +"Sh-show her! She-she'll see then!" + +It was a poor thin back to look at when it was bared. +Every rib could be counted and every joint of the spine, +though Mistress Mary did not count them as she bent over +and examined them with a solemn savage little face. +She looked so sour and old-fashioned that the nurse turned +her head aside to hide the twitching of her mouth. +There was just a minute's silence, for even Colin tried +to hold his breath while Mary looked up and down his spine, +and down and up, as intently as if she had been the great +doctor from London. + +"There's not a single lump there!" she said at last. +"There's not a lump as big as a pin--except backbone lumps, +and you can only feel them because you're thin. +I've got backbone lumps myself, and they used to stick +out as much as yours do, until I began to get fatter, +and I am not fat enough yet to hide them. There's not +a lump as big as a pin! If you ever say there is again, +I shall laugh!" + +No one but Colin himself knew what effect those crossly +spoken childish words had on him. If he had ever +had any one to talk to about his secret terrors--if he +had ever dared to let himself ask questions--if he had +had childish companions and had not lain on his back +in the huge closed house, breathing an atmosphere heavy +with the fears of people who were most of them ignorant +and tired of him, he would have found out that most +of his fright and illness was created by himself. +But he had lain and thought of himself and his aches +and weariness for hours and days and months and years. +And now that an angry unsympathetic little girl insisted +obstinately that he was not as ill as he thought he was +he actually felt as if she might be speaking the truth. + +"I didn't know," ventured the nurse, "that he thought he +had a lump on his spine. His back is weak because he +won't try to sit up. I could have told him there was no +lump there." Colin gulped and turned his face a little +to look at her. + +"C-could you?" he said pathetically. + +"Yes, sir." + +"There!" said Mary, and she gulped too. + +Colin turned on his face again and but for his long-drawn +broken breaths, which were the dying down of his storm +of sobbing, he lay still for a minute, though great tears +srteamed down his face and wet the pillow. Actually the +tears meant that a curious great relief had come to him. +Presently he turned and looked at the nurse again and +strangely enough he was not like a Rajah at all as he +spoke to her. + +"Do you think--I could--live to grow up?" he said. + +The nurse was neither clever nor soft-hearted but she +could repeat some of the London doctor's words. + +"You probably will if you will do what you are told +to do and not give way to your temper, and stay +out a great deal in the fresh air." + +Colin's tantrum had passed and he was weak and worn +out with crying and this perhaps made him feel gentle. +He put out his hand a little toward Mary, and I am glad +to say that, her own tantum having passed, she was softened +too and met him half-way with her hand, so that it was +a sort of making up. + +"I'll--I'll go out with you, Mary," he said. "I shan't +hate fresh air if we can find--" He remembered just +in time to stop himself from saying "if we can find +the secret garden" and he ended, "I shall like to go +out with you if Dickon will come and push my chair. +I do so want to see Dickon and the fox and the crow." + +The nurse remade the tumbled bed and shook and straightened +the pillows. Then she made Colin a cup of beef tea +and gave a cup to Mary, who really was very glad to get +it after her excitement. Mrs. Medlock and Martha gladly +slipped away, and after everything was neat and calm +and in order the nurse looked as if she would very gladly +slip away also. She was a healthy young woman who resented +being robbed of her sleep and she yawned quite openly +as she looked at Mary, who had pushed her big footstool +close to the four-posted bed and was holding Colin's hand. + +"You must go back and get your sleep out," she said. +"He'll drop off after a while--if he's not too upset. +Then I'll lie down myself in the next room." + +"Would you like me to sing you that song I learned from +my Ayah?" Mary whispered to Colin. + +His hand pulled hers gently and he turned his tired eyes +on her appealingly. + +"Oh, yes!" he answered. "It's such a soft song. +I shall go to sleep in a minute." + +"I will put him to sleep," Mary said to the yawning nurse. +"You can go if you like." + +"Well," said the nurse, with an attempt at reluctance. +"If he doesn't go to sleep in half an hour you must +call me." + +"Very well," answered Mary. + +The nurse was out of the room in a minute and as soon +as she was gone Colin pulled Mary's hand again. + +"I almost told," he said; "but I stopped myself in time. +I won't talk and I'll go to sleep, but you said you had +a whole lot of nice things to tell me. Have you--do you +think you have found out anything at all about the way +into the secret garden?" + +Mary looked at his poor little tired face and swollen +eyes and her heart relented. + +"Ye-es," she answered, "I think I have. And if you +will go to sleep I will tell you tomorrow." His hand +quite trembled. + +"Oh, Mary!" he said. "Oh, Mary! If I could get into it +I think I should live to grow up! Do you suppose that +instead of singing the Ayah song--you could just tell +me softly as you did that first day what you imagine it +looks like inside? I am sure it will make me go to sleep." + +"Yes," answered Mary. "Shut your eyes." + +He closed his eyes and lay quite still and she held his +hand and began to speak very slowly and in a very low voice. + +"I think it has been left alone so long--that it has grown +all into a lovely tangle. I think the roses have climbed and +climbed and climbed until they hang from the branches and walls +and creep over the ground--almost like a strange gray mist. +Some of them have died but many--are alive and when the +summer comes there will be curtains and fountains of roses. +I think the ground is full of daffodils and snowdrops +and lilies and iris working their way out of the dark. +Now the spring has begun--perhaps--perhaps--" + +The soft drone of her voice was making him stiller +and stiller and she saw it and went on. + +"Perhaps they are coming up through the grass--perhaps there +are clusters of purple crocuses and gold ones--even now. +Perhaps the leaves are beginning to break out and uncurl--and +perhaps--the gray is changing and a green gauze veil is +creeping--and creeping over--everything. And the birds are +coming to look at it--because it is--so safe and still. +And perhaps--perhaps--perhaps--" very softly and slowly indeed, +"the robin has found a mate--and is building a nest." + +And Colin was asleep. + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + +"THA' MUNNOT WASTE NO TIME" + + +Of course Mary did not waken early the next morning. +She slept late because she was tired, and when Martha +brought her breakfast she told her that though. +Colin was quite quiet he was ill and feverish as he always +was after he had worn himself out with a fit of crying. +Mary ate her breakfast slowly as she listened. + +"He says he wishes tha' would please go and see him as soon +as tha' can," Martha said. "It's queer what a fancy +he's took to thee. Tha' did give it him last night for +sure--didn't tha? Nobody else would have dared to do it. +Eh! poor lad! He's been spoiled till salt won't save him. +Mother says as th' two worst things as can happen to a +child is never to have his own way--or always to have it. +She doesn't know which is th' worst. Tha' was in a fine temper +tha'self, too. But he says to me when I went into his room, +`Please ask Miss Mary if she'll please come an, talk to me?' +Think o' him saying please! Will you go, Miss?" "I'll run +and see Dickon first," said Mary. "No, I'll go and see +Colin first and tell him--I know what I'll tell him," +with a sudden inspiration. + +She had her hat on when she appeared in Colin's room +and for a second he looked disappointed. He was in bed. +His face was pitifully white and there were dark circles +round his eyes. + +"I'm glad you came," he said. "My head aches and I ache +all over because I'm so tired. Are you going somewhere?" + +Mary went and leaned against his bed. + +"I won't be long," she said. "I'm going to Dickon, +but I'll come back. Colin, it's--it's something about +the garden." + +His whole face brightened and a little color came into it. + +"Oh! is it?" he cried out. "I dreamed about it all night +I heard you say something about gray changing into green, +and I dreamed I was standing in a place all filled +with trembling little green leaves--and there were birds +on nests everywhere and they looked so soft and still. +I'll lie and think about it until you come back." + + +In five minutes Mary was with Dickon in their garden. +The fox and the crow were with him again and this time +he had brought two tame squirrels. "I came over on the +pony this mornin', " he said. "Eh! he is a good little +chap--Jump is! I brought these two in my pockets. +This here one he's called Nut an' this here other one's +called Shell." + +When he said "Nut" one squirrel leaped on to his right +shoulder and when he said "Shell" the other one leaped +on to his left shoulder. + +When they sat down on the grass with Captain curled at +their feet, Soot solemnly listening on a tree and Nut and +Shell nosing about close to them, it seemed to Mary that it +would be scarcely bearable to leave such delightfulness, +but when she began to tell her story somehow the look +in Dickon's funny face gradually changed her mind. +She could see he felt sorrier for Colin than she did. +He looked up at the sky and all about him. + +"Just listen to them birds--th' world seems full +of 'em--all whistlin' an' pipin'," he said. +"Look at 'em dartin' about, an' hearken at 'em callin' +to each other. Come springtime seems like as if all th' +world's callin'. The leaves is uncurlin' so you can see +'em--an', my word, th' nice smells there is about!" +sniffing with his happy turned-up nose. "An' that poor +lad lyin' shut up an' seein' so little that he gets +to thinkin' o' things as sets him screamin'. Eh! my! +we mun get him out here--we mun get him watchin' +an listenin' an' sniffin' up th' air an' get him just soaked +through wi' sunshine. An' we munnot lose no time about it." + +When he was very much interested he often spoke quite +broad Yorkshire though at other times he tried to modify +his dialect so that Mary could better understand. +But she loved his broad Yorkshire and had in fact been +trying to learn to speak it herself. So she spoke +a little now. + +"Aye, that we mun," she said (which meant "Yes, indeed, +we must"). "I'll tell thee what us'll do first," she proceeded, +and Dickon grinned, because when the little wench tried +to twist her tongue into speaking Yorkshire it amused +him very much. "He's took a graidely fancy to thee. +He wants to see thee and he wants to see Soot an' Captain. +When I go back to the house to talk to him I'll ax him +if tha' canna' come an' see him tomorrow mornin'--an'. +bring tha' creatures wi' thee--an' then--in a bit, +when there's more leaves out, an' happen a bud or two, +we'll get him to come out an' tha' shall push him in his +chair an' we'll bring him here an' show him everything." + +When she stopped she was quite proud of herself. +She had never made a long speech in Yorkshire before +and she had remembered very well. + +"Tha' mun talk a bit o' Yorkshire like that to Mester Colin," +Dickon chuckled. "Tha'll make him laugh an' there's nowt +as good for ill folk as laughin' is. Mother says she +believes as half a hour's good laugh every mornin' +'ud cure a chap as was makin' ready for typhus fever." + +"I'm going to talk Yorkshire to him this very day," +said Mary, chuckling herself. + +The garden had reached the time when every day and every night +it seemed as if Magicians were passing through it drawing +loveliness out of the earth and the boughs with wands. +It was hard to go away and leave it all, particularly as Nut +had actually crept on to her dress and Shell had scrambled +down the trunk of the apple-tree they sat under and stayed +there looking at her with inquiring eyes. But she went back +to the house and when she sat down close to Colin's bed +he began to sniff as Dickon did though not in such an experienced way. + +"You smell like flowers and--and fresh things," he cried +out quite joyously. "What is it you smell of? It's cool +and warm and sweet all at the same time." + +"It's th' wind from th' moor," said Mary. "It comes o' sittin' +on th' grass under a tree wi' Dickon an' wi' Captain an' +Soot an' Nut an' Shell. It's th' springtime an' out o' +doors an' sunshine as smells so graidely." + +She said it as broadly as she could, and you do not know +how broadly Yorkshire sounds until you have heard some +one speak it. Colin began to laugh. + +"What are you doing?" he said. "I never heard you talk +like that before. How funny it sounds." + +"I'm givin' thee a bit o' Yorkshire," answered Mary triumphantly. +`I canna' talk as graidely as Dickon an' Martha can but tha' +sees I can shape a bit. Doesn't tha' understand a bit o' +Yorkshire when tha' hears it? An' tha' a Yorkshire lad thysel' +bred an' born! Eh! I wonder tha'rt not ashamed o' +thy face." + +And then she began to laugh too and they both laughed until +they could not stop themselves and they laughed until +the room echoed and Mrs. Medlock opening the door to come +in drew back into the corridor and stood listening amazed. + +"Well, upon my word!" she said, speaking rather broad +Yorkshire herself because there was no one to hear +her and she was so astonished. "Whoever heard th' +like! Whoever on earth would ha' thought it!" + +There was so much to talk about. It seemed as if Colin +could never hear enough of Dickon and Captain and Soot +and Nut and Shell and the pony whose name was Jump. +Mary had run round into the wood with Dickon to see Jump. +He was a tiny little shaggy moor pony with thick locks +hanging over his eyes and with a pretty face and a nuzzling +velvet nose. He was rather thin with living on moor +grass but he was as tough and wiry as if the muscle +in his little legs had been made of steel springs. +He had lifted his head and whinnied softly the moment +he saw Dickon and he had trotted up to him and put his +head across his shoulder and then Dickon had talked into +his ear and Jump had talked back in odd little whinnies +and puffs and snorts. Dickon had made him give Mary +his small front hoof and kiss her on her cheek with his +velvet muzzle. + +"Does he really understand everything Dickon says?" +Colin asked. + +"It seems as if he does," answered Mary. "Dickon says +anything will understand if you're friends with it for sure, +but you have to be friends for sure." + +Colin lay quiet a little while and his strange gray +eyes seemed to be staring at the wall, but Mary saw +he was thinking. + +"I wish I was friends with things," he said at last, +"but I'm not. I never had anything to be friends with, +and I can't bear people." + +"Can't you bear me?" asked Mary. + +"Yes, I can," he answered. "It's funny but I even like you." + +"Ben Weatherstaff said I was like him," said Mary. +"He said he'd warrant we'd both got the same nasty tempers. +I think you are like him too. We are all three alike--you +and I and Ben Weatherstaff. He said we were neither +of us much to look at and we were as sour as we looked. +But I don't feel as sour as I used to before I knew the robin +and Dickon." + +"Did you feel as if you hated people?" + +"Yes," answered Mary without any affectation. +"I should have detested you if I had seen you before +I saw the robin and Dickon." + +Colin put out his thin hand and touched her. + +"Mary," he said, "I wish I hadn't said what I did about +sending Dickon away. I hated you when you said he was +like an angel and I laughed at you but--but perhaps he is." + +"Well, it was rather funny to say it," she admitted frankly, +"because his nose does turn up and he has a big mouth +and his clothes have patches all over them and he talks +broad Yorkshire, but--but if an angel did come to Yorkshire +and live on the moor--if there was a Yorkshire angel--I +believe he'd understand the green things and know how to +make them grow and he would know how to talk to the wild +creatures as Dickon does and they'd know he was friends for sure." + +"I shouldn't mind Dickon looking at me," said Colin; +"I want to see him." + +"I'm glad you said that," answered Mary, "because--because--" + +Quite suddenly it came into her mind that this was the +minute to tell him. Colin knew something new was coming. + +"Because what?" he cried eagerly. + +Mary was so anxious that she got up from her stool +and came to him and caught hold of both his hands. + +"Can I trust you? I trusted Dickon because birds trusted him. +Can I trust you--for sure--for sure?" she implored. + +Her face was so solemn that he almost whispered his answer. + +"Yes--yes!" + +"Well, Dickon will come to see you tomorrow morning, +and he'll bring his creatures with him." + +"Oh! Oh!" Colin cried out in delight. + +"But that's not all," Mary went on, almost pale with +solemn excitement. "The rest is better. There is a door +into the garden. I found it. It is under the ivy on the wall." + +If he had been a strong healthy boy Colin would probably +have shouted "Hooray! Hooray! Hooray!" but he was weak +and rather hysterical; his eyes grew bigger and bigger +and he gasped for breath. + +"Oh! Mary!" he cried out with a half sob. "Shall I see +it? Shall I get into it? Shall I live to get into it?" +and he clutched her hands and dragged her toward him. + +"Of course you'll see it!" snapped Mary indignantly. +"Of course you'll live to get into it! Don't be silly!" + +And she was so un-hysterical and natural and childish +that she brought him to his senses and he began to laugh +at himself and a few minutes afterward she was sitting +on her stool again telling him not what she imagined +the secret garden to be like but what it really was, +and Colin's aches and tiredness were forgotten and he +was listening enraptured. + +"It is just what you thought it would be," he said at last. +"It sounds just as if you had really seen it. You know I +said that when you told me first." + +Mary hesitated about two minutes and then boldly spoke +the truth. + +"I had seen it--and I had been in," she said. "I found +the key and got in weeks ago. But I daren't tell you--I +daren't because I was so afraid I couldn't trust you--for sure!" + + + +CHAPTER XIX + +"IT HAS COME!" + +Of course Dr. Craven had been sent for the morning after +Colin had had his tantrum. He was always sent for at +once when such a thing occurred and he always found, +when he arrived, a white shaken boy lying on his bed, +sulky and still so hysterical that he was ready to break +into fresh sobbing at the least word. In fact, Dr. Craven +dreaded and detested the difficulties of these visits. +On this occasion he was away from Misselthwaite Manor +until afternoon. + +"How is he?" he asked Mrs. Medlock rather irritably when he arrived. +"He will break a blood-vessel in one of those fits some day. +The boy is half insane with hysteria and self-indulgence." + +"Well, sir," answered Mrs. Medlock, "you'll scarcely believe +your eyes when you see him. That plain sour-faced child +that's almost as bad as himself has just bewitched him. +How she's done it there's no telling. The Lord knows +she's nothing to look at and you scarcely ever hear +her speak, but she did what none of us dare do. +She just flew at him like a little cat last night, +and stamped her feet and ordered him to stop screaming, +and somehow she startled him so that he actually did stop, +and this afternoon--well just come up and see, sir. +It's past crediting." + +The scene which Dr. Craven beheld when he entered his +patient's room was indeed rather astonishing to him. +As Mrs. Medlock opened the door he heard laughing +and chattering. Colin was on his sofa in his dressing-gown +and he was sitting up quite straight looking at a picture +in one of the garden books and talking to the plain +child who at that moment could scarcely be called plain +at all because her face was so glowing with enjoyment. + +"Those long spires of blue ones--we'll have a lot of those," +Colin was announcing. "They're called Del-phin-iums." + +"Dickon says they're larkspurs made big and grand," +cried Mistress Mary. "There are clumps there already." + +Then they saw Dr. Craven and stopped. Mary became quite +still and Colin looked fretful. + +"I am sorry to hear you were ill last night, my boy," +Dr. Craven said a trifle nervously. He was rather a +nervous man. + +"I'm better now--much better," Colin answered, +rather like a Rajah. "I'm going out in my chair +in a day or two if it is fine. I want some fresh air." + +Dr. Craven sat down by him and felt his pulse and looked +at him curiously. + +"It must be a very fine day," he said, "and you must +be very careful not to tire yourself." + +"Fresh air won't tire me," said the young Rajah. + +As there had been occasions when this same young gentleman +had shrieked aloud with rage and had insisted that fresh +air would give him cold and kill him, it is not to be +wondered at that his doctor felt somewhat startled. + +"I thought you did not like fresh air," he said. + +"I don't when I am by myself," replied the Rajah; +"but my cousin is going out with me." + +"And the nurse, of course?" suggested Dr. Craven. + +"No, I will not have the nurse," so magnificently that Mary +could not help remembering how the young native Prince +had looked with his diamonds and emeralds and pearls +stuck all over him and the great rubies on the small dark +hand he had waved to command his servants to approach +with salaams and receive his orders. + +"My cousin knows how to take care of me. I am always better +when she is with me. She made me better last night. +A very strong boy I know will push my carriage." + +Dr. Craven felt rather alarmed. If this tiresome +hysterical boy should chance to get well he himself would +lose all chance of inheriting Misselthwaite; but he +was not an unscrupulous man, though he was a weak one, +and he did not intend to let him run into actual danger. + +"He must be a strong boy and a steady boy," he said. +"And I must know something about him. Who is he? What is +his name?" + +"It's Dickon," Mary spoke up suddenly. She felt somehow +that everybody who knew the moor must know Dickon. +And she was right, too. She saw that in a moment +Dr. Craven's serious face relaxed into a relieved smile. + +"Oh, Dickon," he said. "If it is Dickon you will be +safe enough. He's as strong as a moor pony, is Dickon." + +"And he's trusty," said Mary. "He's th' trustiest lad i' +Yorkshire." She had been talking Yorkshire to Colin +and she forgot herself. + +"Did Dickon teach you that?" asked Dr. Craven, +laughing outright. + +"I'm learning it as if it was French," said Mary rather coldly. +"It's like a native dialect in India. Very clever +people try to learn them. I like it and so does Colin." +"Well, well," he said. "If it amuses you perhaps it won't +do you any harm. Did you take your bromide last night, Colin?" + +"No," Colin answered. "I wouldn't take it at first +and after Mary made me quiet she talked me to sleep--in +a low voice--about the spring creeping into a garden." + +"That sounds soothing," said Dr. Craven, more perplexed +than ever and glancing sideways at Mistress Mary sitting +on her stool and looking down silently at the carpet. +"You are evidently better, but you must remember--" + +"I don't want to remember," interrupted the Rajah, +appearing again. "When I lie by myself and remember I +begin to have pains everywhere and I think of things +that make me begin to scream because I hate them so. +If there was a doctor anywhere who could make you forget +you were ill instead of remembering it I would have him +brought here." And he waved a thin hand which ought really +to have been covered with royal signet rings made of rubies. +"It is because my cousin makes me forget that she makes +me better." + +Dr. Craven had never made such a short stay after a +"tantrum"; usually he was obliged to remain a very long +time and do a great many things. This afternoon he did +not give any medicine or leave any new orders and he was +spared any disagreeable scenes. When he went downstairs he +looked very thoughtful and when he talked to Mrs. Medlock +in the library she felt that he was a much puzzled man. + +"Well, sir," she ventured, "could you have believed it?" + +"It is certainly a new state of affairs," said the doctor. +"And there's no denying it is better than the old one." + +"I believe Susan Sowerby's right--I do that," said Mrs. Medlock. +"I stopped in her cottage on my way to Thwaite yesterday +and had a bit of talk with her. And she says to me, +'Well, Sarah Ann, she mayn't be a good child, an' she mayn't +be a pretty one, but she's a child, an' children needs +children.' We went to school together, Susan Sowerby and me." + +"She's the best sick nurse I know," said Dr. Craven. +"When I find her in a cottage I know the chances are that I +shall save my patient." + +Mrs. Medlock smiled. She was fond of Susan Sowerby. + +"She's got a way with her, has Susan," she went on +quite volubly. "I've been thinking all morning of one +thing she said yesterday. She says, `Once when I +was givin' th' children a bit of a preach after they'd +been fightin' I ses to 'em all, "When I was at school my +jography told as th' world was shaped like a orange an' +I found out before I was ten that th' whole orange +doesn't belong to nobody. No one owns more than his bit +of a quarter an' there's times it seems like there's +not enow quarters to go round. But don't you--none o' +you--think as you own th' whole orange or you'll find +out you're mistaken, an' you won't find it out without +hard knocks." `What children learns from children,' +she says, 'is that there's no sense in grabbin' at th' +whole orange--peel an' all. If you do you'll likely +not get even th' pips, an' them's too bitter to eat.'" + +"She's a shrewd woman," said Dr. Craven, putting on his coat. + +"Well, she's got a way of saying things," ended Mrs. Medlock, +much pleased. "Sometimes I've said to her, 'Eh! Susan, +if you was a different woman an' didn't talk such broad +Yorkshire I've seen the times when I should have said you +was clever.'" + + +That night Colin slept without once awakening and +when he opened his eyes in the morning he lay still +and smiled without knowing it--smiled because he felt so +curiously comfortable. It was actually nice to be awake, +and he turned over and stretched his limbs luxuriously. +He felt as if tight strings which had held him had +loosened themselves and let him go. He did not know that +Dr. Craven would have said that his nerves had relaxed +and rested themselves. Instead of lying and staring at +the wall and wishing he had not awakened, his mind was full +of the plans he and Mary had made yesterday, of pictures +of the garden and of Dickon and his wild creatures. +It was so nice to have things to think about. And he +had not been awake more than ten minutes when he heard +feet running along the corridor and Mary was at the door. +The next minute she was in the room and had run across +to his bed, bringing with her a waft of fresh air full +of the scent of the morning. + +"You've been out! You've been out! There's that nice +smell of leaves!" he cried. + +She had been running and her hair was loose and blown +and she was bright with the air and pink-cheeked, though +he could not see it. + +"It's so beautiful!" she said, a little breathless +with her speed. "You never saw anything so beautiful! +It has come! I thought it had come that other morning, +but it was only coming. It is here now! It has come, +the Spring! Dickon says so!" + +"Has it?" cried Colin, and though he really knew nothing +about it he felt his heart beat. He actually sat up +in bed. + +"Open the window!" he added, laughing half with joyful +excitement and half at his own fancy. "Perhaps we may +hear golden trumpets!" + +And though he laughed, Mary was at the window in a moment +and in a moment more it was opened wide and freshness and +softness and scents and birds' songs were pouring through. + +"That's fresh air," she said. "Lie on your back and draw +in long breaths of it. That's what Dickon does when he's +lying on the moor. He says he feels it in his veins +and it makes him strong and he feels as if he could +live forever and ever. Breathe it and breathe it." + +She was only repeating what Dickon had told her, but she +caught Colin's fancy. + +"`Forever and ever'! Does it make him feel like that?" +he said, and he did as she told him, drawing in long deep +breaths over and over again until he felt that something +quite new and delightful was happening to him. + +Mary was at his bedside again. + +"Things are crowding up out of the earth," she ran on +in a hurry. "And there are flowers uncurling and buds +on everything and the green veil has covered nearly all +the gray and the birds are in such a hurry about their +nests for fear they may be too late that some of them +are even fighting for places in the secret garden. +And the rose-bushes look as wick as wick can be, +and there are primroses in the lanes and woods, +and the seeds we planted are up, and Dickon has brought +the fox and the crow and the squirrels and a new-born lamb." + +And then she paused for breath. The new-born lamb Dickon +had found three days before lying by its dead mother +among the gorse bushes on the moor. It was not the first +motherless lamb he had found and he knew what to do with it. +He had taken it to the cottage wrapped in his jacket and he +had let it lie near the fire and had fed it with warm milk. +It was a soft thing with a darling silly baby face +and legs rather long for its body. Dickon had carried +it over the moor in his arms and its feeding bottle +was in his pocket with a squirrel, and when Mary had sat +under a tree with its limp warmness huddled on her lap she +had felt as if she were too full of strange joy to speak. +A lamb--a lamb! A living lamb who lay on your lap like a baby! + +She was describing it with great joy and Colin was listening +and drawing in long breaths of air when the nurse entered. +She started a little at the sight of the open window. +She had sat stifling in the room many a warm day because her +patient was sure that open windows gave people cold. + +"Are you sure you are not chilly, Master Colin?" +she inquired. + +"No," was the answer. "I am breathing long breaths +of fresh air. It makes you strong. I am going to get up +to the sofa for breakfast. My cousin will have breakfast +with me." + +The nurse went away, concealing a smile, to give +the order for two breakfasts. She found the servants' +hall a more amusing place than the invalid's chamber and +just now everybody wanted to hear the news from upstairs. +There was a great deal of joking about the unpopular young +recluse who, as the cook said, "had found his master, +and good for him." The servants' hall had been very tired +of the tantrums, and the butler, who was a man with a family, +had more than once expressed his opinion that the invalid +would be all the better "for a good hiding." + +When Colin was on his sofa and the breakfast for two was +put upon the table he made an announcement to the nurse +in his most Rajah-like manner. + +"A boy, and a fox, and a crow, and two squirrels, +and a new-born lamb, are coming to see me this morning. +I want them brought upstairs as soon as they come," +he said. "You are not to begin playing with the animals +in the servants' hall and keep them there. I want them here." +The nurse gave a slight gasp and tried to conceal it with +a cough. + +"Yes, sir," she answered. + +"I'll tell you what you can do," added Colin, waving +his hand. "You can tell Martha to bring them here. +The boy is Martha's brother. His name is Dickon and he +is an animal charmer." + +"I hope the animals won't bite, Master Colin," said the nurse. + +"I told you he was a charmer," said Colin austerely. +"Charmers' animals never bite." + +"There are snake-charmers in India," said Mary. +"and they can put their snakes' heads in their mouths." + +"Goodness!" shuddered the nurse. + +They ate their breakfast with the morning air pouring +in upon them. Colin's breakfast was a very good one +and Mary watched him with serious interest. + +"You will begin to get fatter just as I did," she said. +"I never wanted my breakfast when I was in India and now I +always want it." + +"I wanted mine this morning," said Colin. "Perhaps it +was the fresh air. When do you think Dickon will come?" + +He was not long in coming. In about ten minutes Mary +held up her hand. + +"Listen!" she said. "Did you hear a caw?" + +Colin listened and heard it, the oddest sound in the world +to hear inside a house, a hoarse "caw-caw." + +"Yes," he answered. + +"That's Soot," said Mary. "Listen again. Do you hear +a bleat--a tiny one?" + +"Oh, yes!" cried Colin, quite flushing. + +"That's the new-born lamb," said Mary. "He's coming." + +Dickon's moorland boots were thick and clumsy and though +he tried to walk quietly they made a clumping sound as he +walked through the long corridors. Mary and Colin heard him +marching--marching, until he passed through the tapestry +door on to the soft carpet of Colin's own passage. + +"If you please, sir," announced Martha, opening the door, +"if you please, sir, here's Dickon an' his creatures." + +Dickon came in smiling his nicest wide smile. +The new- born lamb was in his arms and the little red +fox trotted by his side. Nut sat on his left shoulder +and Soot on his right and Shell's head and paws peeped +out of his coat pocket. + +Colin slowly sat up and stared and stared--as he had stared +when he first saw Mary; but this was a stare of wonder +and delight. The truth was that in spite of all he had +heard he had not in the least understood what this boy would +be like and that his fox and his crow and his squirrels +and his lamb were so near to him and his friendliness +that they seemed almost to be part of himself. Colin had +never talked to a boy in his life and he was so overwhelmed +by his own pleasure and curiosity that he did not even think of speaking. + +But Dickon did not feel the least shy or awkward. +He had not felt embarrassed because the crow had not +known his language and had only stared and had not +spoken to him the first time they met. Creatures were +always like that until they found out about you. +He walked over to Colin's sofa and put the new-born +lamb quietly on his lap, and immediately the little +creature turned to the warm velvet dressing-gown and +began to nuzzle and nuzzle into its folds and butt its +tight-curled head with soft impatience against his side. +Of course no boy could have helped speaking then. + +"What is it doing?" cried Colin. "What does it want?" + +"It wants its mother," said Dickon, smiling more and more. +"I brought it to thee a bit hungry because I knowed tha'd +like to see it feed." + +He knelt down by the sofa and took a feeding-bottle +from his pocket. + +"Come on, little 'un," he said, turning the small +woolly white head with a gentle brown hand. "This is +what tha's after. Tha'll get more out o' this than tha' +will out o' silk velvet coats. There now," and he pushed +the rubber tip of the bottle into the nuzzling mouth +and the lamb began to suck it with ravenous ecstasy. + +After that there was no wondering what to say. +By the time the lamb fell asleep questions poured forth +and Dickon answered them all. He told them how he had found +the lamb just as the sun was rising three mornings ago. +He had been standing on the moor listening to a skylark +and watching him swing higher and higher into the sky +until he was only a speck in the heights of blue. + +"I'd almost lost him but for his song an' I was wonderin' +how a chap could hear it when it seemed as if he'd +get out o' th' world in a minute--an' just then I +heard somethin' else far off among th' gorse bushes. +It was a weak bleatin' an' I knowed it was a new lamb +as was hungry an' I knowed it wouldn't be hungry if it +hadn't lost its mother somehow, so I set off searchin'. +Eh! I did have a look for it. I went in an' out among th' +gorse bushes an' round an' round an' I always seemed +to take th' wrong turnin'. But at last I seed a bit o' +white by a rock on top o' th' moor an' I climbed up an' +found th' little 'un half dead wi' cold an' clemmin'." +While he talked, Soot flew solemnly in and out of the open +window and cawed remarks about the scenery while Nut +and Shell made excursions into the big trees outside +and ran up and down trunks and explored branches. +Captain curled up near Dickon, who sat on the hearth-rug +from preference. + +They looked at the pictures in the gardening books and +Dickon knew all the flowers by their country names and knew +exactly which ones were already growing in the secret garden. + +"I couldna' say that there name," he said, pointing to one +under which was written "Aquilegia," "but us calls that +a columbine, an' that there one it's a snapdragon and they +both grow wild in hedges, but these is garden ones an' +they're bigger an' grander. There's some big clumps o' +columbine in th' garden. They'll look like a bed o' blue an' +white butterflies flutterin' when they're out." + +"I'm going to see them," cried Colin. "I am going +to see them!" + +"Aye, that tha' mun," said Mary quite seriously. "An' tha' +munnot lose no time about it." + + + +CHAPTER XX + +"I SHALL LIVE FOREVER--AND EVER--AND EVER!" + + +But they were obliged to wait more than a week because +first there came some very windy days and then Colin +was threatened with a cold, which two things happening +one after the other would no doubt have thrown him into +a rage but that there was so much careful and mysterious +planning to do and almost every day Dickon came in, +if only for a few minutes, to talk about what was happening +on the moor and in the lanes and hedges and on the borders +of streams. The things he had to tell about otters' +and badgers' and water-rats' houses, not to mention birds' +nests and field-mice and their burrows, were enough +to make you almost tremble with excitement when you +heard all the intimate details from an animal charmer +and realized with what thrilling eagerness and anxiety +the whole busy underworld was working. + +"They're same as us," said Dickon, "only they have to +build their homes every year. An' it keeps 'em so busy +they fair scuffle to get 'em done." + +The most absorbing thing, however, was the preparations +to be made before Colin could be transported with sufficient +secrecy to the garden. No one must see the chair-carriage +and Dickon and Mary after they turned a certain corner +of the shrubbery and entered upon the walk outside +the ivied walls. As each day passed, Colin had become +more and more fixed in his feeling that the mystery +surrounding the garden was one of its greatest charms. +Nothing must spoil that. No one must ever suspect +that they had a secret. People must think that he +was simply going out with Mary and Dickon because he +liked them and did not object to their looking at him. +They had long and quite delightful talks about their route. +They would go up this path and down that one and cross +the other and go round among the fountain flower-beds +as if they were looking at the "bedding-out plants" +the head gardener, Mr. Roach, had been having arranged. +That would seem such a rational thing to do that no one +would think it at all mysterious. They would turn into +the shrubbery walks and lose themselves until they came +to the long walls. It was almost as serious and elaborately +thought out as the plans of march made by geat generals +in time of war. + +Rumors of the new and curious things which were occurring +in the invalid's apartments had of course filtered +through the servants' hall into the stable yards +and out among the gardeners, but notwithstanding this, +Mr. Roach was startled one day when he received orders +from Master Colin's room to the effect that he must report +himself in the apartment no outsider had ever seen, +as the invalid himself desired to speak to him. + +"Well, well," he said to himself as he hurriedly changed +his coat, "what's to do now? His Royal Highness that wasn't +to be looked at calling up a man he's never set eyes on." + +Mr. Roach was not without curiosity. He had never +caught even a glimpse of the boy and had heard a dozen +exaggerated stories about his uncanny looks and ways +and his insane tempers. The thing he had heard +oftenest was that he might die at any moment and there +had been numerous fanciful descriptions of a humped +back and helpless limbs, given by people who had never seen him. + +"Things are changing in this house, Mr. Roach," +said Mrs. Medlock, as she led him up the back staircase +to the corridor on to which opened the hitherto mysterious chamber. + +"Let's hope they're changing for the better, Mrs. Medlock," +he answered. + +"They couldn't well change for the worse," she continued; +"and queer as it all is there's them as finds their +duties made a lot easier to stand up under. Don't you +be surprised, Mr. Roach, if you find yourself in the middle +of a menagerie and Martha Sowerby's Dickon more at home +than you or me could ever be." + +There really was a sort of Magic about Dickon, as Mary +always privately believed. When Mr. Roach heard his name +he smiled quite leniently. + +"He'd be at home in Buckingham Palace or at the bottom +of a coal mine," he said. "And yet it's not impudence, +either. He's just fine, is that lad." + +It was perhaps well he had been prepared or he might +have been startled. When the bedroom door was opened +a large crow, which seemed quite at home perched on +the high back of a carven chair, announced the entrance +of a visitor by saying "Caw--Caw" quite loudly. +In spite of Mrs. Medlock's warning, Mr. Roach only just +escaped being sufficiently undignified to jump backward. + +The young Rajah was neither in bed nor on his sofa. +He was sitting in an armchair and a young lamb was standing +by him shaking its tail in feeding-lamb fashion as Dickon +knelt giving it milk from its bottle. A squirrel was +perched on Dickon's bent back attentively nibbling a nut. +The little girl from India was sitting on a big footstool +looking on. + +"Here is Mr. Roach, Master Colin," said Mrs. Medlock. + +The young Rajah turned and looked his servitor over--at +least that was what the head gardener felt happened. + +"Oh, you are Roach, are you?" he said. "I sent for you +to give you some very important orders." + +"Very good, sir," answered Roach, wondering if he was +to receive instructions to fell all the oaks in the park +or to transform the orchards into water-gardens. + +"I am going out in my chair this afternoon," said Colin. +"If the fresh air agrees with me I may go out every day. +When I go, none of the gardeners are to be anywhere near +the Long Walk by the garden walls. No one is to be there. +I shall go out about two o'clock and everyone must +keep away until I send word that they may go back to +their work." + +"Very good, sir," replied Mr. Roach, much relieved to hear +that the oaks might remain and that the orchards were safe. +"Mary," said Colin, turning to her, "what is that thing +you say in India when you have finished talking and want +people to go?" + +"You say, `You have my permission to go,'" answered Mary. + +The Rajah waved his hand. + +"You have my permission to go, Roach," he said. +"But, remember, this is very important." + +"Caw--Caw!" remarked the crow hoarsely but not impolitely. + +"Very good, sir. Thank you, sir," said Mr. Roach, +and Mrs. Medlock took him out of the room. + +Outside in the corridor, being a rather good-natured man, +he smiled until he almost laughed. + +"My word!" he said, "he's got a fine lordly way with him, +hasn't he? You'd think he was a whole Royal Family rolled +into one--Prince Consort and all.". + +"Eh!" protested Mrs. Medlock, "we've had to let him +trample all over every one of us ever since he had feet +and he thinks that's what folks was born for." + +"Perhaps he'll grow out of it, if he lives," suggested Mr. Roach. + +"Well, there's one thing pretty sure," said Mrs. Medlock. +"If he does live and that Indian child stays here I'll +warrant she teaches him that thewhole orange does not +belong to him, as Susan Sowerby says. And he'll be likely +to find out the size of his own quarter." + +Inside the room Colin was leaning back on his cushions. + +"It's all safe now," he said. "And this afternoon I +shall see it--this afternoon I shall be in it!" + +Dickon went back to the garden with his creatures and Mary +stayed with Colin. She did not think he looked tired +but he was very quiet before their lunch came and he +was quiet while they were eating it. She wondered why +and asked him about it. + +"What big eyes you've got, Colin," she said. "When you +are thinking they get as big as saucers. What are you +thinking about now?" + +"I can't help thinking about what it will look like," +he answered. + +"The garden?" asked Mary. + +"The springtime," he said. "I was thinking that I've really +never seen it before. I scarcely ever went out and when I +did go I never looked at it. I didn't even think about it." + +"I never saw it in India because there wasn't any," +said Mary. + +Shut in and morbid as his life had been, Colin had more +imagination than she had and at least he had spent a good +deal of time looking at wonderful books and pictures. + +"That morning when you ran in and said `It's come! It's +come!, you made me feel quite queer. It sounded as if +things were coming with a great procession and big bursts +and wafts of music. I've a picture like it in one of my +books--crowds of lovely people and children with garlands +and branches with blossoms on them, everyone laughing +and dancing and crowding and playing on pipes. That was +why I said, `Perhaps we shall hear golden trumpets' +and told you to throw open the window." + +"How funny!" said Mary. "That's really just what it +feels like. And if all the flowers and leaves and green +things and birds and wild creatures danced past at once, +what a crowd it would be! I'm sure they'd dance and sing +and flute and that would be the wafts of music." + +They both laughed but it was not because the idea was +laughable but because they both so liked it. + +A little later the nurse made Colin ready. She noticed +that instead of lying like a log while his clothes were +put on he sat up and made some efforts to help himself, +and he talked and laughed with Mary all the time. + +"This is one of his good days, sir," she said to Dr. Craven, +who dropped in to inspect him. "He's in such good spirits +that it makes him stronger." + +"I'll call in again later in the afternoon, after he has +come in," said Dr. Craven. "I must see how the going +out agrees with him. I wish," in a very low voice, +"that he would let you go with him." + +"I'd rather give up the case this moment, sir, than even +stay here while it's suggested," answered the nurse. +With sudden firmness. + +"I hadn't really decided to suggest it," said the doctor, +with his slight nervousness. "We'll try the experiment. +Dickon's a lad I'd trust with a new-born child." + +The strongest footman in the house carried Colin down +stairs and put him in his wheeled chair near which Dickon +waited outside. After the manservant had arranged +his rugs and cushions the Rajah waved his hand to him +and to the nurse. + +"You have my permission to go," he said, and they both +disappeared quickly and it must be confessed giggled +when they were safely inside the house. + +Dickon began to push the wheeled chair slowly and steadily. +Mistress Mary walked beside it and Colin leaned back +and lifted his face to the sky. The arch of it looked +very high and the small snowy clouds seemed like white birds +floating on outspread wings below its crystal blueness. +The wind swept in soft big breaths down from the moor +and was strange with a wild clear scented sweetness. +Colin kept lifting his thin chest to draw it in, +and his big eyes looked as if it were they which were +listening--listening, instead of his ears. + +"There are so many sounds of singing and humming and +calling out," he said. "What is that scent the puffs +of wind bring?" + +"It's gorse on th' moor that's openin' out," answered Dickon. +"Eh! th' bees are at it wonderful today." + +Not a human creature was to be caught sight of in the +paths they took. In fact every gardener or gardener's +lad had been witched away. But they wound in and out +among the shrubbery and out and round the fountain beds, +following their carefully planned route for the mere +mysterious pleasure of it. But when at last they turned +into the Long Walk by the ivied walls the excited sense +of an approaching thrill made them, for some curious reason +they could not have explained, begin to speak in whispers. + +"This is it," breathed Mary. "This is where I used +to walk up and down and wonder and wonder." "Is it?" +cried Colin, and his eyes began to search the ivy with +eager curiousness. "But I can see nothing," he whispered. +"There is no door." + +"That's what I thought," said Mary. + +Then there was a lovely breathless silence and the chair +wheeled on. + +"That is the garden where Ben Weatherstaff works," +said Mary. + +"Is it?" said Colin. + +A few yards more and Mary whispered again. + +"This is where the robin flew over the wall," she said. + +"Is it?" cried Colin. "Oh! I wish he'd come again!" + +"And that," said Mary with solemn delight, pointing under +a big lilac bush, "is where he perched on the little +heap of earth and showed me the key." + +Then Colin sat up. + +"Where? Where? There?" he cried, and his eyes were as big +as the wolf's in Red Riding-Hood, when Red Riding-Hood +felt called upon to remark on them. Dickon stood still +and the wheeled chair stopped. + +"And this," said Mary, stepping on to the bed close to the ivy, +"is where I went to talk to him when he chirped at me +from the top of the wall. And this is the ivy the wind +blew back," and she took hold of the hanging green curtain. + +"Oh! is it--is it!" gasped Colin. + +"And here is the handle, and here is the door. +Dickon push him in--push him in quickly!" + +And Dickon did it with one strong, steady, splendid push. + +But Colin had actually dropped back against his cushions, +even though he gasped with delight, and he had covered +his eyes with his hands and held them there shutting +out everything until they were inside and the chair +stopped as if by magic and the door was closed. +Not till then did he take them away and look round +and round and round as Dickon and Mary had done. +And over walls and earth and trees and swinging sprays +and tendrils the fair green veil of tender little leaves +had crept, and in the grass under the trees and the gray +urns in the alcoves and here and there everywhere +were touches or splashes of gold and purple and white +and the trees were showing pink and snow above his head +and there were fluttering of wings and faint sweet pipes +and humming and scents and scents. And the sun fell +warm upon his face like a hand with a lovely touch. +And in wonder Mary and Dickon stood and stared at him. +He looked so strange and different because a pink glow +of color had actually crept all over him--ivory face +and neck and hands and all. + +"I shall get well! I shall get well!" he cried out. +"Mary! Dickon! I shall get well! And I shall live forever +and ever and ever!" + + + +CHAPTER XXI + +BEN WEATHERSTAFF + + +One of the strange things about living in the world is +that it is only now and then one is quite sure one is +going to live forever and ever and ever. One knows it +sometimes when one gets up at the tender solemn dawn-time +and goes out and stands alone and throws one's head far +back and looks up and up and watches the pale sky slowly +changing and flushing and marvelous unknown things happening +until the East almost makes one cry out and one's heart +stands still at the strange unchanging majesty of the +rising of the sun--which has been happening every morning +for thousands and thousands and thousands of years. +One knows it then for a moment or so. And one knows it +sometimes when one stands by oneself in a wood at sunset +and the mysterious deep gold stillness slanting through and +under the branches seems to be saying slowly again and again +something one cannot quite hear, however much one tries. +Then sometimes the immense quiet of the dark blue at night +with millions of stars waiting and watching makes one sure; +and sometimes a sound of far-off music makes it true; +and sometimes a look in some one's eyes. + +And it was like that with Colin when he first saw and +heard and felt the Springtime inside the four high walls +of a hidden garden. That afternoon the whole world +seemed to devote itself to being perfect and radiantly +beautiful and kind to one boy. Perhaps out of pure +heavenly goodness the spring came and crowned everything +it possibly could into that one place. More than once +Dickon paused in what he was doing and stood still with +a sort of growing wonder in his eyes, shaking his head softly. + +"Eh! it is graidely," he said. "I'm twelve goin' +on thirteen an' there's a lot o' afternoons in thirteen years, +but seems to me like I never seed one as graidely as this +'ere." + +"Aye, it is a graidely one," said Mary, and she sighed +for mere joy. "I'll warrant it's the graidelest one +as ever was in this world." + +"Does tha' think," said Colin with dreamy carefulness, +"as happen it was made loike this 'ere all o' purpose for me?" + +"My word!" cried Mary admiringly, "that there is a bit o' +good Yorkshire. Tha'rt shapin' first-rate--that tha' art." + +And delight reigned. They drew the chair under the plum-tree, +which was snow-white with blossoms and musical with bees. +It was like a king's canopy, a fairy king's. There were +flowering cherry-trees near and apple-trees whose buds +were pink and white, and here and there one had burst +open wide. Between the blossoming branches of the canopy +bits of blue sky looked down like wonderful eyes. + +Mary and Dickon worked a litle here and there and Colin +watched them. They brought him things to look at--buds +which were opening, buds which were tight closed, +bits of twig whose leaves were just showing green, +the feather of a woodpecker which had dropped on +the grass, the empty shell of some bird early hatched. +Dickon pushed the chair slowly round and round the garden, +stopping every other moment to let him look at wonders +springing out of the earth or trailing down from trees. +It was like being taken in state round the country of a +magic king and queen and shown all the mysterious riches +it contained. + +"I wonder if we shall see the robin?" said Colin. + +"Tha'll see him often enow after a bit," answered Dickon. +"When th' eggs hatches out th' little chap he'll be kep' +so busy it'll make his head swim. Tha'll see him flyin' +backward an' for'ard carryin' worms nigh as big as himsel' +an' that much noise goin' on in th' nest when he gets +there as fair flusters him so as he scarce knows which big +mouth to drop th' first piece in. An' gapin' beaks an' +squawks on every side. Mother says as when she sees th' +work a robin has to keep them gapin' beaks filled, +she feels like she was a lady with nothin, to do. +She says she's seen th' little chaps when it seemed like th' +sweat must be droppin' off 'em, though folk can't see +it." + +This made them giggle so delightedly that they were obliged +to cover their mouths with their hands, remembering that +they must not be heard. Colin had been instructed as to +the law of whispers and low voices several days before. +He liked the mysteriousness of it and did his best, +but in the midst of excited enjoyment it is rather +difficult never to laugh above a whisper. + +Every moment of the afternoon was full of new things +and every hour the sunshine grew more golden. The wheeled +chair had been drawn back under the canopy and Dickon +had sat down on the grass and had just drawn out his pipe +when Colin saw something he had not had time to notice before. + +"That's a very old tree over there, isn't it?" he said. +Dickon looked across the grass at the tree and Mary looked +and there was a brief moment of stillness. + +"Yes," answered Dickon, after it, and his low voice +had a very gentle sound. + +Mary gazed at the tree and thought. + +"The branches are quite gray and there's not a single +leaf anywhere," Colin went on. "It's quite dead, +isn't it?" + +"Aye," admitted Dickon. "But them roses as has climbed +all over it will near hide every bit o' th' dead wood +when they're full o' leaves an' flowers. It won't look +dead then. It'll be th' prettiest of all." + +Mary still gazed at the tree and thought. + +"It looks as if a big branch had been broken off," +said Colin. "I wonder how it was done." + +"It's been done many a year," answered Dickon. "Eh!" with +a sudden relieved start and laying his hand on Colin. +"Look at that robin! There he is! He's been foragin' +for his mate." + +Colin was almost too late but he just caught sight of him, +the flash of red-breasted bird with something in his beak. +He darted through the greenness and into the close-grown +corner and was out of sight. Colin leaned back on his +cushion again, laughing a little. "He's taking her tea +to her. Perhaps it's five o'clock. I think I'd like some +tea myself." + +And so they were safe. + +"It was Magic which sent the robin," said Mary secretly +to Dickon afterward. "I know it was Magic." For both she +and Dickon had been afraid Colin might ask something +about the tree whose branch had broken off ten years +ago and they had talked it over together and Dickon +had stood and rubbed his head in a troubled way. + +"We mun look as if it wasn't no different from th' +other trees," he had said. "We couldn't never tell him +how it broke, poor lad. If he says anything about it we +mun--we mun try to look cheerful." + +"Aye, that we mun," had answered Mary. + +But she had not felt as if she looked cheerful when she gazed +at the tree. She wondered and wondered in those few moments +if there was any reality in that other thing Dickon had said. +He had gone on rubbing his rust-red hair in a puzzled way, +but a nice comforted look had begun to grow in his blue eyes. + +"Mrs. Craven was a very lovely young lady," he had +gone on rather hesitatingly. "An' mother she thinks +maybe she's about Misselthwaite many a time lookin' +after Mester Colin, same as all mothers do when they're +took out o' th' world. They have to come back, +tha' sees. Happen she's been in the garden an' +happen it was her set us to work, an' told us to bring him here." + +Mary had thought he meant something about Magic. +She was a great believer in Magic. Secretly she quite +believed that Dickon worked Magic, of course good Magic, +on everything near him and that was why people liked him +so much and wild creatures knew he was their friend. +She wondered, indeed, if it were not possible that his +gift had brought the robin just at the right moment +when Colin asked that dangerous question. She felt +that his Magic was working all the afternoon and making +Colin look like an entirely different boy. It did not +seem possible that he could be the crazy creature who had +screamed and beaten and bitten his pillow. Even his ivory +whiteness seemed to change. The faint glow of color +which had shown on his face and neck and hands when he +first got inside the garden really never quite died away. +He looked as if he were made of flesh instead of ivory +or wax. + +They saw the robin carry food to his mate two or three times, +and it was so suggestive of afternoon tea that Colin +felt they must have some. + +"Go and make one of the men servants bring some in a +basket to the rhododendron walk," he said. "And then +you and Dickon can bring it here." + +It was an agreeable idea, easily carried out, and when +the white cloth was spread upon the grass, with hot tea +and buttered toast and crumpets, a delightfully hungry +meal was eaten, and several birds on domestic errands +paused to inquire what was going on and were led into +investigating crumbs with great activity. Nut and Shell +whisked up trees with pieces of cake and Soot took the +entire half of a buttered crumpet into a corner and pecked +at and examined and turned it over and made hoarse remarks +about it until he decided to swallow it all joyfully in one gulp. + +The afternoon was dragging towards its mellow hour. +The sun was deepening the gold of its lances, the bees +were going home and the birds were flying past less often. +Dickon and Mary were sitting on the grass, the tea-basket +was repacked ready to be taken back to the house, and Colin +was lying against his cushions with his heavy locks +pushed back from his forehead and his face looking quite +a natural color. + +"I don't want this afternoon to go," he said; "but I shall +come back tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after, +and the day after." + +"You'll get plenty of fresh air, won't you?" said Mary. +"I'm going to get nothing else," he answered. +"I've seen the spring now and I'm going to see the summer. +I'm going to see everything grow here. I'm going to grow +here myself." + +"That tha' will," said Dickon. "Us'll have thee walkin' +about here an' diggin' same as other folk afore long." + +Colin flushed tremendously. + +"Walk!" he said. "Dig! Shall I?" + +Dickon's glance at him was delicately cautious. +Neither he nor Mary had ever asked if anything was +the matter with his legs. + +"For sure tha' will," he said stoutly. "Tha--tha's got +legs o' thine own, same as other folks!" + +Mary was rather frightened until she heard Colin's answer. + +"Nothing really ails them," he said, "but they are so thin +and weak. They shake so that I'm afraid to try to stand +on them." + +Both Mary and Dickon drew a relieved breath. + +"When tha' stops bein' afraid tha'lt stand on 'em," +Dickon said with renewed cheer. "An' tha'lt stop bein' +afraid in a bit." + +"I shall?" said Colin, and he lay still as if he were +wondering about things. + +They were really very quiet for a little while. +The sun was dropping lower. It was that hour when +everything stills itself, and they really had had a busy +and exciting afternoon. Colin looked as if he were +resting luxuriously. Even the creatures had ceased moving +about and had drawn together and were resting near them. +Soot had perched on a low branch and drawn up one leg +and dropped the gray film drowsily over his eyes. +Mary privately thought he looked as if he might snore +in a minute. + +In the midst of this stillness it was rather startling +when Colin half lifted his head and exclaimed in a loud +suddenly alarmed whisper: + +"Who is that man?" Dickon and Mary scrambled to their feet. + +"Man!" they both cried in low quick voices. + +Colin pointed to the high wall. "Look!" he whispered excitedly. +"Just look!" + +Mary and Dickon wheeled about and looked. There was Ben +Weatherstaff's indignant face glaring at them over the wall +from the top of a ladder! He actually shook his fist at Mary. + +"If I wasn't a bachelder, an' tha' was a wench o' +mine," he cried, "I'd give thee a hidin'!" + +He mounted another step threateningly as if it were his +energetic intention to jump down and deal with her; +but as she came toward him he evidently thought better +of it and stood on the top step of his ladder shaking +his fist down at her. + +"I never thowt much o' thee!" he harangued. "I couldna' +abide thee th' first time I set eyes on thee. A scrawny +buttermilk-faced young besom, allus askin' questions an' +pokin' tha' nose where it wasna, wanted. I never knowed +how tha' got so thick wi' me. If it hadna' been for th' +robin-- Drat him--" + +"Ben Weatherstaff," called out Mary, finding her breath. +She stood below him and called up to him with a sort +of gasp. "Ben Weatherstaff, it was the robin who showed me +the way!" + +Then it did seem as if Ben really would scramble down +on her side of the wall, he was so outraged. + +"Tha' young bad 'un!" he called down at her. "Layin' tha' +badness on a robin--not but what he's impidint enow +for anythin'. Him showin' thee th' way! Him! Eh! tha' +young nowt"--she could see his next words burst out +because he was overpowered by curiosity-- "however i' +this world did tha' get in?" + +"It was the robin who showed me the way," she protested +obstinately. "He didn't know he was doing it but he did. +And I can't tell you from here while you're shaking +your fist at me." + +He stopped shaking his fist very suddenly at that very +moment and his jaw actually dropped as he stared over her +head at something he saw coming over the grass toward him. + +At the first sound of his torrent of words Colin had +been so surprised that he had only sat up and listened +as if he were spellbound. But in the midst of it he +had recovered himself and beckoned imperiously to Dickon. + +"Wheel me over there!" he commanded. "Wheel me quite +close and stop right in front of him!" + +And this, if you please, this is what Ben Weatherstaff beheld +and which made his jaw drop. A wheeled chair with luxurious +cushions and robes which came toward him looking rather +like some sort of State Coach because a young Rajah leaned +back in it with royal command in his great black-rimmed +eyes and a thin white hand extended haughtily toward him. +And it stopped right under Ben Weatherstaff's nose. +It was really no wonder his mouth dropped open. + +"Do you know who I am?" demanded the Rajah. + +How Ben Weatherstaff stared! His red old eyes fixed +themselves on what was before him as if he were seeing +a ghost. He gazed and gazed and gulped a lump down his +throat and did not say a word. "Do you know who I am?" +demanded Colin still more imperiously. "Answer!" + +Ben Weatherstaff put his gnarled hand up and passed it +over his eyes and over his forehead and then he did +answer in a queer shaky voice. + +"Who tha' art?" he said. "Aye, that I do--wi' tha' +mother's eyes starin' at me out o' tha' face. Lord knows +how tha' come here. But tha'rt th' poor cripple." + +Colin forgot that he had ever had a back. His face +flushed scarlet and he sat bolt upright. + +"I'm not a cripple!" he cried out furiously. "I'm not!" + +"He's not!" cried Mary, almost shouting up the wall +in her fierce indignation. "He's not got a lump as big +as a pin! I looked and there was none there--not one!" + +Ben Weatherstaff passed his hand over his forehead +again and gazed as if he could never gaze enough. +His hand shook and his mouth shook and his voice shook. +He was an ignorant old man and a tactless old man and he +could only remember the things he had heard. + +"Tha'--tha' hasn't got a crooked back?" he said hoarsely. + +"No!" shouted Colin. + +"Tha'--tha' hasn't got crooked legs?" quavered Ben more +hoarsely yet. It was too much. The strength which Colin +usually threw into his tantrums rushed through him now +in a new way. Never yet had he been accused of crooked +legs--even in whispers--and the perfectly simple belief +in their existence which was revealed by Ben Weatherstaff's +voice was more than Rajah flesh and blood could endure. +His anger and insulted pride made him forget everything +but this one moment and filled him with a power he had +never known before, an almost unnatural strength. + +"Come here!" he shouted to Dickon, and he actually +began to tear the coverings off his lower limbs and +disentangle himself. "Come here! Come here! This minute!" + +Dickon was by his side in a second. Mary caught her +breath in a short gasp and felt herself turn pale. + +"He can do it! He can do it! He can do it! He can!" +she gabbled over to herself under her breath as fast +as ever she could. + +There was a brief fierce scramble, the rugs were tossed +on the ground, Dickon held Colin's arm, the thin +legs were out, the thin feet were on the grass. +Colin was standing upright--upright--as straight as an +arrow and looking strangely tall--his head thrown back +and his strange eyes flashing lightning. "Look at me!" +he flung up at Ben Weatherstaff. "Just look at me--you! +Just look at me!" + +"He's as straight as I am!" cried Dickon. "He's as +straight as any lad i' Yorkshire!" + +What Ben Weatherstaff did Mary thought queer beyond measure. +He choked and gulped and suddenly tears ran down his +weather-wrinkled cheeks as he struck his old hands together. + +"Eh!" he burst forth, "th' lies folk tells! Tha'rt +as thin as a lath an' as white as a wraith, but there's +not a knob on thee. Tha'lt make a mon yet. God bless thee!" + +Dickon held Colin's arm strongly but the boy had not begun +to falter. He stood straighter and straighter and looked +Ben Weatherstaff in the face. + +"I'm your master," he said, "when my father is away. +And you are to obey me. This is my garden. Don't dare +to say a word about it! You get down from that ladder +and go out to the Long Walk and Miss Mary will meet you +and bring you here. I want to talk to you. We did not +want you, but now you will have to be in the secret. +Be quick!" + +Ben Weatherstaff's crabbed old face was still wet with +that one queer rush of tears. It seemed as if he could +not take his eyes from thin straight Colin standing +on his feet with his head thrown back. + +"Eh! lad," he almost whispered. "Eh! my lad!" And then +remembering himself he suddenly touched his hat gardener +fashion and said, "Yes, sir! Yes, sir!" and obediently +disappeared as he descended the ladder. + + + +CHAPTER XXII + +WHEN THE SUN WENT DOWN + + +When his head was out of sight Colin turned to Mary. + +"Go and meet him," he said; and Mary flew across the grass +to the door under the ivy. + +Dickon was watching him with sharp eyes. There were +scarlet spots on his cheeks and he looked amazing, +but he showed no signs of falling. + +"I can stand," he said, and his head was still held up +and he said it quite grandly. + +"I told thee tha' could as soon as tha' stopped bein' +afraid," answered Dickon. "An' tha's stopped." + +"Yes, I've stopped," said Colin. + +Then suddenly he remembered something Mary had said. + +"Are you making Magic?" he asked sharply. + +Dickon's curly mouth spread in a cheerful grin. + +"Tha's doin' Magic thysel'," he said. "It's same Magic +as made these 'ere work out o' th' earth," and he touched +with his thick boot a clump of crocuses in the grass. +Colin looked down at them. + +"Aye," he said slowly, "there couldna' be bigger Magic +than that there--there couldna' be." + +He drew himself up straighter than ever. + +"I'm going to walk to that tree," he said, pointing to +one a few feet away from him. "I'm going to be standing +when Weatherstaff comes here. I can rest against the tree +if I like. When I want to sit down I will sit down, +but not before. Bring a rug from the chair." + +He walked to the tree and though Dickon held his arm he was +wonderfully steady. When he stood against the tree trunk +it was not too plain that he supported himself against it, +and he still held himself so straight that he looked tall. + +When Ben Weatherstaff came through the door in the wall +he saw him standing there and he heard Mary muttering +something under her breath. + +"What art sayin'?" he asked rather testily because he +did not want his attention distracted from the long thin +straight boy figure and proud face. + +But she did not tell him. What she was saying was this: + +"You can do it! You can do it! I told you you could! +You can do it! You can do it! You can!" She was saying +it to Colin because she wanted to make Magic and keep +him on his feet looking like that. She could not bear +that he should give in before Ben Weatherstaff. +He did not give in. She was uplifted by a sudden feeling +that he looked quite beautiful in spite of his thinness. +He fixed his eyes on Ben Weatherstaff in his funny +imperious way. + +"Look at me!" he commanded. "Look at me all over! Am I +a hunchback? Have I got crooked legs?" + +Ben Weatherstaff had not quite got over his emotion, +but he had recovered a little and answered almost in his +usual way. + +"Not tha'," he said. "Nowt o' th' sort. What's tha' +been doin' with thysel'--hidin' out o' sight an' lettin' +folk think tha' was cripple an' half-witted?" + +"Half-witted!" said Colin angrily. "Who thought that?" + +"Lots o' fools," said Ben. "Th' world's full o' +jackasses brayin' an' they never bray nowt but lies. +What did tha' shut thysel' up for?" + +"Everyone thought I was going to die," said Colin shortly. +"I'm not!" + +And he said it with such decision Ben Weatherstaff looked +him over, up and down, down and up. + +"Tha' die!" he said with dry exultation. "Nowt o' th' +sort! Tha's got too much pluck in thee. When I seed thee +put tha' legs on th' ground in such a hurry I knowed tha' +was all right. Sit thee down on th' rug a bit young +Mester an' give me thy orders." + +There was a queer mixture of crabbed tenderness and shrewd +understanding in his manner. Mary had poured out speech +as rapidly as she could as they had come down the Long Walk. +The chief thing to be remembered, she had told him, +was that Colin was getting well--getting well. The garden +was doing it. No one must let him remember about having +humps and dying. + +The Rajah condescended to seat himself on a rug under +the tree. + +"What work do you do in the gardens, Weatherstaff?" +he inquired. + +"Anythin' I'm told to do," answered old Ben. "I'm kep' +on by favor--because she liked me." + +"She?" said Colin. + +"Tha' mother," answered Ben Weatherstaff. + +"My mother?" said Colin, and he looked about him quietly. +"This was her garden, wasn't it?" + +"Aye, it was that!" and Ben Weatherstaff looked about +him too. "She were main fond of it." + +"It is my garden now. I am fond of it. I shall come here +every day," announced Colin. "But it is to be a secret. +My orders are that no one is to know that we come here. +Dickon and my cousin have worked and made it come alive. +I shall send for you sometimes to help--but you must come +when no one can see you." + +Ben Weatherstaff's face twisted itself in a dry old smile. + +"I've come here before when no one saw me," he said. + +"What!" exclaimed Colin. + +"When?" + +"Th' last time I was here," rubbing his chin +and looking round, "was about two year' ago." + +"But no one has been in it for ten years!" cried Colin. + +"There was no door!" + +"I'm no one," said old Ben dryly. "An' I didn't come +through th' door. I come over th' wall. Th' rheumatics held +me back th' last two year'." + +"Tha' come an' did a bit o' prunin'!" cried Dickon. +"I couldn't make out how it had been done." + +"She was so fond of it--she was!" said Ben Weatherstaff slowly. +"An' she was such a pretty young thing. She says to me once, +`Ben,' says she laughin', `if ever I'm ill or if I go away +you must take care of my roses.' When she did go away th' +orders was no one was ever to come nigh. But I come," +with grumpy obstinacy. "Over th' wall I come--until th' +rheumatics stopped me--an' I did a bit o' work once a year. +She'd gave her order first." + +"It wouldn't have been as wick as it is if tha' +hadn't done it," said Dickon. "I did wonder." + +"I'm glad you did it, Weatherstaff," said Colin. +"You'll know how to keep the secret." + +"Aye, I'll know, sir," answered Ben. "An, it'll be easier +for a man wi' rheumatics to come in at th' door." + +On the grass near the tree Mary had dropped her trowel. +Colin stretched out his hand and took it up. An odd expression +came into his face and he began to scratch at the earth. +His thin hand was weak enough but presently as they watched +him--Mary with quite breathless interest--he drove the end +of the trowel into the soil and turned some over. + +"You can do it! You can do it!" said Mary to herself. +"I tell you, you can!" + +Dickon's round eyes were full of eager curiousness but he said +not a word. Ben Weatherstaff looked on with interested face. + +Colin persevered. After he had turned a few trowelfuls +of soil he spoke exultantly to Dickon in his best Yorkshire. + +"Tha' said as tha'd have me walkin' about here same +as other folk--an' tha' said tha'd have me diggin'. I +thowt tha' was just leein' to please me. This is only th' +first day an' I've walked--an' here I am diggin'." + +Ben Weatherstaff's mouth fell open again when he heard him, +but he ended by chuckling. + +"Eh!" he said, "that sounds as if tha'd got wits enow. +Tha'rt a Yorkshire lad for sure. An' tha'rt diggin', too. +How'd tha' like to plant a bit o' somethin'? I can get thee +a rose in a pot." + +"Go and get it!" said Colin, digging excitedly. +"Quick! Quick!" + +It was done quickly enough indeed. Ben Weatherstaff went +his way forgetting rheumatics. Dickon took his spade +and dug the hole deeper and wider than a new digger +with thin white hands could make it. Mary slipped out +to run and bring back a watering-can. When Dickon had +deepened the hole Colin went on turning the soft earth +over and over. He looked up at the sky, flushed and +glowing with the strangely new exercise, slight as it was. + +"I want to do it before the sun goes quite--quite down," +he said. + +Mary thought that perhaps the sun held back a few minutes +just on purpose. Ben Weatherstaff brought the rose in +its pot from the greenhouse. He hobbled over the grass +as fast as he could. He had begun to be excited, too. +He knelt down by the hole and broke the pot from the mould. + +"Here, lad," he said, handing the plant to Colin. +"Set it in the earth thysel' same as th' king does when he +goes to a new place." + +The thin white hands shook a little and Colin's flush +grew deeper as he set the rose in the mould and held +it while old Ben made firm the earth. It was filled +in and pressed down and made steady. Mary was leaning +forward on her hands and knees. Soot had flown down +and marched forward to see what was being done. +Nut and Shell chattered about it from a cherry-tree. + +"It's planted!" said Colin at last. "And the sun is only +slipping over the edge. Help me up, Dickon. I want +to be standing when it goes. That's part of the Magic." + +And Dickon helped him, and the Magic--or whatever it +was--so gave him strength that when the sun did slip +over the edge and end the strange lovely afternoon +for them there he actually stood on his two feet--laughing. + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + +MAGIC + + +Dr. Craven had been waiting some time at the house +when they returned to it. He had indeed begun to wonder +if it might not be wise to send some one out to explore +the garden paths. When Colin was brought back to his +room the poor man looked him over seriously. + +"You should not have stayed so long," he said. "You must +not overexert yourself." + +"I am not tired at all," said Colin. "It has made me well. +Tomorrow I am going out in the morning as well as in +the afternoon." + +"I am not sure that I can allow it," answered Dr. Craven. +"I am afraid it would not be wise." + +"It would not be wise to try to stop me," said Colin +quite seriously. "I am going." + +Even Mary had found out that one of Colin's chief peculiarities +was that he did not know in the least what a rude little +brute he was with his way of ordering people about. +He had lived on a sort of desert island all his life +and as he had been the king of it he had made his own +manners and had had no one to compare himself with. +Mary had indeed been rather like him herself and since she +had been at Misselthwaite had gradually discovered that +her own manners had not been of the kind which is usual +or popular. Having made this discovery she naturally +thought it of enough interest to communicate to Colin. +So she sat and looked at him curiously for a few minutes +after Dr. Craven had gone. She wanted to make him ask +her why she was doing it and of course she did. + +"What are you looking at me for?" he said. + +"I'm thinking that I am rather sorry for Dr. Craven." + +"So am I," said Colin calmly, but not without an air +of some satisfaction. "He won't get Misselthwaite +at all now I'm not going to die." + +"I'm sorry for him because of that, of course," said Mary, +"but I was thinking just then that it must have been very +horrid to have had to be polite for ten years to a boy +who was always rude. I would never have done it." + +"Am I rude?" Colin inquired undisturbedly. + +"If you had been his own boy and he had been a slapping +sort of man," said Mary, "he would have slapped you." + +"But he daren't," said Colin. + +"No, he daren't," answered Mistress Mary, thinking the +thing out quite without prejudice. "Nobody ever dared +to do anything you didn't like--because you were going +to die and things like that. You were such a poor thing." + +"But," announced Colin stubbornly, "I am not going +to be a poor thing. I won't let people think I'm one. +I stood on my feet this afternoon." + +"It is always having your own way that has made you +so queer," Mary went on, thinking aloud. + +Colin turned his head, frowning. + +"Am I queer?" he demanded. + +"Yes," answered Mary, "very. But you needn't be cross," +she added impartially, "because so am I queer--and so is +Ben Weatherstaff. But I am not as queer as I was before I +began to like people and before I found the garden." + +"I don't want to be queer," said Colin. "I am not going +to be," and he frowned again with determination. + +He was a very proud boy. He lay thinking for a while and +then Mary saw his beautiful smile begin and gradually +change his whole face. + +"I shall stop being queer," he said, "if I go every day +to the garden. There is Magic in there--good Magic, +you know, Mary. I am sure there is." "So am I," +said Mary. + +"Even if it isn't real Magic," Colin said, "we can pretend +it is. Something is there--something!" + +"It's Magic," said Mary, "but not black. It's as white +as snow." + +They always called it Magic and indeed it seemed like it +in the months that followed--the wonderful months--the +radiant months--the amazing ones. Oh! the things +which happened in that garden! If you have never had +a garden you cannot understand, and if you have had +a garden you will know that it would take a whole book +to describe all that came to pass there. At first it +seemed that green things would never cease pushing +their way through the earth, in the grass, in the beds, +even in the crevices of the walls. Then the green things +began to show buds and the buds began to unfurl and +show color, every shade of blue, every shade of purple, +every tint and hue of crimson. In its happy days flowers +had been tucked away into every inch and hole and corner. +Ben Weatherstaff had seen it done and had himself scraped +out mortar from between the bricks of the wall and made +pockets of earth for lovely clinging things to grow on. +Iris and white lilies rose out of the grass in sheaves, +and the green alcoves filled themselves with amazing armies +of the blue and white flower lances of tall delphiniums +or columbines or campanulas. + +"She was main fond o' them--she was," Ben Weatherstaff said. +"She liked them things as was allus pointin' up to th' +blue sky, she used to tell. Not as she was one o' +them as looked down on th' earth--not her. She just loved +it but she said as th' blue sky allus looked so joyful." + +The seeds Dickon and Mary had planted grew as if fairies +had tended them. Satiny poppies of all tints danced in the +breeze by the score, gaily defying flowers which had lived +in the garden for years and which it might be confessed +seemed rather to wonder how such new people had got there. +And the roses--the roses! Rising out of the grass, +tangled round the sun-dial, wreathing the tree trunks +and hanging from their branches, climbing up the walls +and spreading over them with long garlands falling +in cascades --they came alive day by day, hour by hour. +Fair fresh leaves, and buds--and buds--tiny at first but +swelling and working Magic until they burst and uncurled +into cups of scent delicately spilling themselves over +their brims and filling the garden air. + +Colin saw it all, watching each change as it took place. +Every morning he was brought out and every hour of each day +when it didn't rain he spent in the garden. Even gray +days pleased him. He would lie on the grass "watching +things growing," he said. If you watched long enough, +he declared, you could see buds unsheath themselves. +Also you could make the acquaintance of strange busy insect +things running about on various unknown but evidently +serious errands, sometimes carrying tiny scraps of straw +or feather or food, or climbing blades of grass as if they +were trees from whose tops one could look out to explore +the country. A mole throwing up its mound at the end of its +burrow and making its way out at last with the long-nailed +paws which looked so like elfish hands, had absorbed him +one whole morning. Ants' ways, beetles' ways, bees' +ways, frogs' ways, birds' ways, plants' ways, gave him +a new world to explore and when Dickon revealed them +all and added foxes' ways, otters' ways, ferrets' ways, +squirrels' ways, and trout' and water-rats' and badgers' +ways, there was no end to the things to talk about and think over. + +And this was not the half of the Magic. The fact that he +had really once stood on his feet had set Colin thinking +tremendously and when Mary told him of the spell she +had worked he was excited and approved of it greatly. +He talked of it constantly. + +"Of course there must be lots of Magic in the world," +he said wisely one day, "but people don't know what it is +like or how to make it. Perhaps the beginning is just to say +nice things are going to happen until you make them happen. +I am going to try and experiment" + +The next morning when they went to the secret garden he sent +at once for Ben Weatherstaff. Ben came as quickly as he +could and found the Rajah standing on his feet under a tree +and looking very grand but also very beautifully smiling. + +"Good morning, Ben Weatherstaff," he said. "I want you +and Dickon and Miss Mary to stand in a row and listen to me +because I am going to tell you something very important." + +"Aye, aye, sir!" answered Ben Weatherstaff, touching +his forehead. (One of the long concealed charms of Ben +Weatherstaff was that in his boyhood he had once run away +to sea and had made voyages. So he could reply like a sailor.) + +"I am going to try a scientific experiment," explained the Rajah. +"When I grow up I am going to make great scientific +discoveries and I am going to begin now with this experiment" + +"Aye, aye, sir!" said Ben Weatherstaff promptly, +though this was the first time he had heard of great +scientific discoveries. + +It was the first time Mary had heard of them, either, +but even at this stage she had begun to realize that, +queer as he was, Colin had read about a great many singular +things and was somehow a very convincing sort of boy. +When he held up his head and fixed his strange eyes on you +it seemed as if you believed him almost in spite of yourself +though he was only ten years old--going on eleven. +At this moment he was especially convincing because he +suddenly felt the fascination of actually making a sort +of speech like a grown-up person. + +"The great scientific discoveries I am going to make," +he went on, "will be about Magic. Magic is a great thing +and scarcely any one knows anything about it except a few +people in old books--and Mary a little, because she was +born in India where there are fakirs. I believe Dickon +knows some Magic, but perhaps he doesn't know he knows it. +He charms animals and people. I would never have let him +come to see me if he had not been an animal charmer--which +is a boy charmer, too, because a boy is an animal. +I am sure there is Magic in everything, only we have not +sense enough to get hold of it and make it do things for +us--like electricity and horses and steam." + +This sounded so imposing that Ben Weatherstaff became +quite excited and really could not keep still. "Aye, aye, +sir," he said and he began to stand up quite straight. + +"When Mary found this garden it looked quite dead," +the orator proceeded. "Then something began pushing things +up out of the soil and making things out of nothing. +One day things weren't there and another they were. +I had never watched things before and it made me feel +very curious. Scientific people are always curious and I +am going to be scientific. I keep saying to myself, +`What is it? What is it?' It's something. It can't +be nothing! I don't know its name so I call it Magic. +I have never seen the sun rise but Mary and Dickon have +and from what they tell me I am sure that is Magic too. +Something pushes it up and draws it. Sometimes since I've +been in the garden I've looked up through the trees at +the sky and I have had a strange feeling of being happy +as if something were pushing and drawing in my chest +and making me breathe fast. Magic is always pushing and +drawing and making things out of nothing. Everything is +made out of Magic, leaves and trees, flowers and birds, +badgers and foxes and squirrels and people. So it must +be all around us. In this garden--in all the places. +The Magic in this garden has made me stand up and know +I am going to live to be a man. I am going to makethe +scientific experiment of trying to get some and put it +in myself and make it push and draw me and make me strong. +I don't know how to do it but I think that if you keep +thinking about it and calling it perhaps it will come. +Perhaps that is the first baby way to get it. +When I was going to try to stand that first time Mary +kept saying to herself as fast as she could, `You can +do it! You can do it!' and I did. I had to try myself +at the same time, of course, but her Magic helped me--and +so did Dickon's. Every morning and evening and as often +in the daytime as I can remember I am going to say, +'Magic is in me! Magic is making me well! I am going +to be as strong as Dickon, as strong as Dickon!' And you +must all do it, too. That is my experiment Will you help, +Ben Weatherstaff?" + +"Aye, aye, sir!" said Ben Weatherstaff. "Aye, aye!" + +"If you keep doing it every day as regularly as soldiers +go through drill we shall see what will happen and find +out if the experiment succeeds. You learn things +by saying them over and over and thinking about them +until they stay in your mind forever and I think it +will be the same with Magic. If you keep calling it +to come to you and help you it will get to be part +of you and it will stay and do things." "I once heard +an officer in India tell my mother that there were fakirs +who said words over and over thousands of times," said Mary. + +"I've heard Jem Fettleworth's wife say th' same thing over +thousands o' times--callin' Jem a drunken brute," said Ben +Weatherstaff dryly. "Summat allus come o' that, sure enough. +He gave her a good hidin' an' went to th' Blue Lion an' +got as drunk as a lord." + +Colin drew his brows together and thought a few minutes. +Then he cheered up. + +"Well," he said, "you see something did come of it. +She used the wrong Magic until she made him beat her. +If she'd used the right Magic and had said something +nice perhaps he wouldn't have got as drunk as a lord and +perhaps--perhaps he might have bought her a new bonnet." + +Ben Weatherstaff chuckled and there was shrewd admiration +in his little old eyes. + +"Tha'rt a clever lad as well as a straight-legged one, +Mester Colin," he said. "Next time I see Bess Fettleworth +I'll give her a bit of a hint o' what Magic will do for her. +She'd be rare an' pleased if th' sinetifik 'speriment +worked --an' so 'ud Jem." + +Dickon had stood listening to the lecture, his round +eyes shining with curious delight. Nut and Shell were +on his shoulders and he held a long-eared white rabbit +in his arm and stroked and stroked it softly while it +laid its ears along its back and enjoyed itself. + +"Do you think the experiment will work?" Colin asked him, +wondering what he was thinking. He so often wondered +what Dickon was thinking when he saw him looking at him +or at one of his "creatures" with his happy wide smile. + +He smiled now and his smile was wider than usual. + +"Aye," he answered, "that I do. It'll work same as th' +seeds do when th' sun shines on 'em. It'll work for sure. +Shall us begin it now?" + +Colin was delighted and so was Mary. Fired by recollections +of fakirs and devotees in illustrations Colin suggested +that they should all sit cross-legged under the tree +which made a canopy. + +"It will be like sitting in a sort of temple," said Colin. +"I'm rather tired and I want to sit down." + +"Eh!" said Dickon, "tha' mustn't begin by sayin' +tha'rt tired. Tha' might spoil th' Magic." + +Colin turned and looked at him--into his innocent round eyes. + +"That's true," he said slowly. "I must only think of +the Magic." It all seemed most majestic and mysterious +when they sat down in their circle. Ben Weatherstaff +felt as if he had somehow been led into appearing +at a prayer-meeting. Ordinarily he was very fixed in +being what he called "agen' prayer-meetin's" but this +being the Rajah's affair he did not resent it and was +indeed inclined to be gratified at being called upon +to assist. Mistress Mary felt solemnly enraptured. +Dickon held his rabbit in his arm, and perhaps he made +some charmer's signal no one heard, for when he sat down, +cross-legged like the rest, the crow, the fox, the squirrels +and the lamb slowly drew near and made part of the circle, +settling each into a place of rest as if of their own desire. + +"The `creatures' have come," said Colin gravely. +"They want to help us." + +Colin really looked quite beautiful, Mary thought. +He held his head high as if he felt like a sort of priest +and his strange eyes had a wonderful look in them. +The light shone on him through the tree canopy. + +"Now we will begin," he said. "Shall we sway backward +and forward, Mary, as if we were dervishes?" + +"I canna' do no swayin' back'ard and for'ard," +said Ben Weatherstaff. "I've got th' rheumatics." + +"The Magic will take them away," said Colin in a High +Priest tone, "but we won't sway until it has done it. +We will only chant." + +"I canna' do no chantin'" said Ben Weatherstaff a +trifle testily. "They turned me out o' th' church choir th' +only time I ever tried it." + +No one smiled. They were all too much in earnest. +Colin's face was not even crossed by a shadow. He was +thinking only of the Magic. + +"Then I will chant," he said. And he began, looking like +a strange boy spirit. "The sun is shining--the sun +is shining. That is the Magic. The flowers are growing--the +roots are stirring. That is the Magic. Being alive +is the Magic--being strong is the Magic. The Magic is +in me--the Magic is in me. It is in me--it is in me. +It's in every one of us. It's in Ben Weatherstaff's back. +Magic! Magic! Come and help!" + +He said it a great many times--not a thousand times +but quite a goodly number. Mary listened entranced. +She felt as if it were at once queer and beautiful and she +wanted him to go on and on. Ben Weatherstaff began to feel +soothed into a sort of dream which was quite agreeable. +The humming of the bees in the blossoms mingled with +the chanting voice and drowsily melted into a doze. +Dickon sat cross-legged with his rabbit asleep +on his arm and a hand resting on the lamb's back. +Soot had pushed away a squirrel and huddled close to him +on his shoulder, the gray film dropped over his eyes. +At last Colin stopped. + +"Now I am going to walk round the garden," he announced. + +Ben Weatherstaff's head had just dropped forward and he +lifted it with a jerk. + +"You have been asleep," said Colin. + +"Nowt o' th' sort," mumbled Ben. "Th' sermon was good +enow--but I'm bound to get out afore th' collection." + +He was not quite awake yet. + +"You're not in church," said Colin. + +"Not me," said Ben, straightening himself. "Who said I +were? I heard every bit of it. You said th' Magic was +in my back. Th' doctor calls it rheumatics." + +The Rajah waved his hand. + +"That was the wrong Magic," he said. "You will get better. +You have my permission to go to your work. But come +back tomorrow." + +"I'd like to see thee walk round the garden," grunted Ben. + +It was not an unfriendly grunt, but it was a grunt. +In fact, being a stubborn old party and not having entire +faith in Magic he had made up his mind that if he were sent +away he would climb his ladder and look over the wall +so that he might be ready to hobble back if there were +any stumbling. + +The Rajah did not object to his staying and so the procession +was formed. It really did look like a procession. +Colin was at its head with Dickon on one side and +Mary on the other. Ben Weatherstaff walked behind, +and the "creatures" trailed after them, the lamb and +the fox cub keeping close to Dickon, the white rabbit +hopping along or stopping to nibble and Soot following +with the solemnity of a person who felt himself in charge. + +It was a procession which moved slowly but with dignity. +Every few yards it stopped to rest. Colin leaned on Dickon's +arm and privately Ben Weatherstaff kept a sharp lookout, +but now and then Colin took his hand from its support +and walked a few steps alone. His head was held up all +the time and he looked very grand. + +"The Magic is in me!" he kept saying. "The Magic +is making me strong! I can feel it! I can feel it!" + +It seemed very certain that something was upholding +and uplifting him. He sat on the seats in the alcoves, +and once or twice he sat down on the grass and several +times he paused in the path and leaned on Dickon, but he +would not give up until he had gone all round the garden. +When he returned to the canopy tree his cheeks were flushed +and he looked triumphant. + +"I did it! The Magic worked!" he cried. "That is my +first scientific discovery.". + +"What will Dr. Craven say?" broke out Mary. + +"He won't say anything," Colin answered, "because he will +not be told. This is to be the biggest secret of all. +No one is to know anything about it until I have grown +so strong that I can walk and run like any other boy. +I shall come here every day in my chair and I shall be +taken back in it. I won't have people whispering and +asking questions and I won't let my father hear about it +until the experiment has quite succeeded. Then sometime +when he comes back to Misselthwaite I shall just walk into +his study and say `Here I am; I am like any other boy. +I am quite well and I shall live to be a man. It has been +done by a scientific experiment.'" + +"He will think he is in a dream," cried Mary. "He won't +believe his eyes." + +Colin flushed triumphantly. He had made himself believe +that he was going to get well, which was really more +than half the battle, if he had been aware of it. +And the thought which stimulated him more than any other +was this imagining what his father would look like when he +saw that he had a son who was as straight and strong as +other fathers' sons. One of his darkest miseries in the +unhealthy morbid past days had been his hatred of being +a sickly weak-backed boy whose father was afraid to look at him. + +"He'll be obliged to believe them," he said. + +"One of the things I am going to do, after the Magic +works and before I begin to make scientific discoveries, +is to be an athlete." + +"We shall have thee takin' to boxin' in a week or so," +said Ben Weatherstaff. "Tha'lt end wi' winnin' th' +Belt an' bein' champion prize-fighter of all England." + +Colin fixed his eyes on him sternly. + +"Weatherstaff," he said, "that is disrespectful. +You must not take liberties because you are in the secret. +However much the Magic works I shall not be a prize-fighter. +I shall be a Scientific Discoverer." + +"Ax pardon--ax pardon, sir" answered Ben, touching his +forehead in salute. "I ought to have seed it wasn't +a jokin' matter," but his eyes twinkled and secretly he +was immensely pleased. He really did not mind being +snubbed since the snubbing meant that the lad was gaining +strength and spirit. + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + +"LET THEM LAUGH" + + +The secret garden was not the only one Dickon worked in. +Round the cottage on the moor there was a piece of ground +enclosed by a low wall of rough stones. Early in the morning +and late in the fading twilight and on all the days Colin +and Mary did not see him, Dickon worked there planting +or tending potatoes and cabbages, turnips and carrots and +herbs for his mother. In the company of his "creatures" +he did wonders there and was never tired of doing them, +it seemed. While he dug or weeded he whistled or sang +bits of Yorkshire moor songs or talked to Soot or Captain +or the brothers and sisters he had taught to help him. + +"We'd never get on as comfortable as we do," Mrs. Sowerby said, +"if it wasn't for Dickon's garden. Anything'll grow for him. +His 'taters and cabbages is twice th' size of any one +else's an' they've got a flavor with 'em as nobody's has." + +When she found a moment to spare she liked to go out +and talk to him. After supper there was still a long +clear twilight to work in and that was her quiet time. +She could sit upon the low rough wall and look on +and hear stories of the day. She loved this time. +There were not only vegetables in this garden. +Dickon had bought penny packages of flower seeds now +and then and sown bright sweet-scented things among +gooseberry bushes and even cabbages and he grew borders +of mignonette and pinks and pansies and things whose +seeds he could save year after year or whose roots would +bloom each spring and spread in time into fine clumps. +The low wall was one of the prettiest things in Yorkshire +because he had tucked moorland foxglove and ferns and +rock-cress and hedgerow flowers into every crevice until +only here and there glimpses of the stones were to be seen. + +"All a chap's got to do to make 'em thrive, mother," +he would say, "is to be friends with 'em for sure. +They're just like th' `creatures.' If they're thirsty give +'em drink and if they're hungry give 'em a bit o' food. +They want to live same as we do. If they died I should feel +as if I'd been a bad lad and somehow treated them heartless." + +It was in these twilight hours that Mrs. Sowerby heard of all +that happened at Misselthwaite Manor. At first she was only +told that "Mester Colin" had taken a fancy to going out into +the grounds with Miss Mary and that it was doing him good. +But it was not long before it was agreed between the two +children that Dickon's mother might "come into the secret." +Somehow it was not doubted that she was "safe for sure." + +So one beautiful still evening Dickon told the whole story, +with all the thrilling details of the buried key and the +robin and the gray haze which had seemed like deadness +and the secret Mistress Mary had planned never to reveal. +The coming of Dickon and how it had been told to him, +the doubt of Mester Colin and the final drama of his +introduction to the hidden domain, combined with the +incident of Ben Weatherstaff's angry face peering over +the wall and Mester Colin's sudden indignant strength, +made Mrs. Sowerby's nice-looking face quite change color +several times. + +"My word!" she said. "It was a good thing that little +lass came to th' Manor. It's been th' makin' o' her an' +th' savin, o' him. Standin' on his feet! An' us all thinkin' +he was a poor half-witted lad with not a straight bone in him." + +She asked a great many questions and her blue eyes were +full of deep thinking. + +"What do they make of it at th' Manor--him being so well an' +cheerful an' never complainin'?" she inquired. "They don't +know what to make of it," answered Dickon. "Every day +as comes round his face looks different. It's fillin' +out and doesn't look so sharp an' th' waxy color is goin'. +But he has to do his bit o' complainin'," with a highly +entertained grin. + +"What for, i' Mercy's name?" asked Mrs. Sowerby. + +Dickon chuckled. + +"He does it to keep them from guessin' what's happened. +If the doctor knew he'd found out he could stand on +his feet he'd likely write and tell Mester Craven. +Mester Colin's savin' th' secret to tell himself. +He's goin' to practise his Magic on his legs every day +till his father comes back an' then he's goin' to march +into his room an' show him he's as straight as other lads. +But him an' Miss Mary thinks it's best plan to do a +bit o' groanin' an' frettin' now an' then to throw folk +off th' scent." + +Mrs. Sowerby was laughing a low comfortable laugh long +before he had finished his last sentence. + +"Eh!" she said, "that pair's enjoyin' their-selves I'll warrant. +They'll get a good bit o' actin' out of it an' there's nothin' +children likes as much as play actin'. Let's hear what +they do, Dickon lad." Dickon stopped weeding and sat +up on his heels to tell her. His eyes were twinkling with fun. + +"Mester Colin is carried down to his chair every time +he goes out," he explained. "An' he flies out at John, +th' footman, for not carryin' him careful enough. He makes +himself as helpless lookin' as he can an' never lifts his head +until we're out o' sight o' th' house. An' he grunts an' +frets a good bit when he's bein' settled into his chair. +Him an' Miss Mary's both got to enjoyin' it an' when he +groans an' complains she'll say, `Poor Colin! Does it hurt +you so much? Are you so weak as that, poor Colin?'--but th' +trouble is that sometimes they can scarce keep from burstin' +out laughin'. When we get safe into the garden they laugh +till they've no breath left to laugh with. An' they have +to stuff their faces into Mester Colin's cushions to keep +the gardeners from hearin', if any of, 'em's about." + +"Th' more they laugh th' better for 'em!" said Mrs. Sowerby, +still laughing herself. "Good healthy child laughin's +better than pills any day o' th' year. That pair'll +plump up for sure." + +"They are plumpin' up," said Dickon. "They're that hungry +they don't know how to get enough to eat without makin' +talk. Mester Colin says if he keeps sendin' for more food +they won't believe he's an invalid at all. Miss Mary says +she'll let him eat her share, but he says that if she +goes hungry she'll get thin an' they mun both get fat at once." + +Mrs. Sowerby laughed so heartily at the revelation of this +difficulty that she quite rocked backward and forward +in her blue cloak, and Dickon laughed with her. + +"I'll tell thee what, lad," Mrs. Sowerby said when she +could speak. "I've thought of a way to help 'em. When tha' +goes to 'em in th' mornin's tha' shall take a pail o' +good new milk an' I'll bake 'em a crusty cottage loaf or +some buns wi' currants in 'em, same as you children like. +Nothin's so good as fresh milk an' bread. Then they could +take off th' edge o' their hunger while they were in their +garden an' th, fine food they get indoors 'ud polish +off th' corners." + +"Eh! mother!" said Dickon admiringly, "what a wonder tha' +art! Tha' always sees a way out o' things. They was +quite in a pother yesterday. They didn't see how they +was to manage without orderin' up more food--they felt +that empty inside." + +"They're two young 'uns growin' fast, an' health's comin' +back to both of 'em. Children like that feels like +young wolves an' food's flesh an, blood to 'em," said +Mrs. Sowerby. Then she smiled Dickon's own curving smile. +"Eh! but they're enjoyin' theirselves for sure," +she said. + +She was quite right, the comfortable wonderful mother +creature--and she had never been more so than when she said +their "play actin'" would be their joy. Colin and Mary found +it one of their most thrilling sources of entertainment. +The idea of protecting themselves from suspicion had been +unconsciously suggested to them first by the puzzled +nurse and then by Dr. Craven himself. + +"Your appetite. Is improving very much, Master Colin," +the nurse had said one day. "You used to eat nothing, +and so many things disagreed with you." + +"Nothing disagrees with me now" replied Colin, and then seeing +the nurse looking at him curiously he suddenly remembered +that perhaps he ought not to appear too well just yet. +"At least things don't so often disagree with me. +It's the fresh air." + +"Perhaps it is," said the nurse, still looking at him with +a mystified expression. "But I must talk to Dr. Craven +about it." + +"How she stared at you!" said Mary when she went away. +"As if she thought there must be something to find out." + +"I won't have her finding out things," said Colin. +"No one must begin to find out yet." When Dr. Craven came +that morning he seemed puzzled, also. He asked a number +of questions, to Colin's great annoyance. + +"You stay out in the garden a great deal," he suggested. +"Where do you go?" + +Colin put on his favorite air of dignified indifference +to opinion. + +"I will not let any one know where I go," he answered. +"I go to a place I like. Every one has orders to keep +out of the way. I won't be watched and stared at. +You know that!" + +"You seem to be out all day but I do not think it has +done you harm--I do not think so. The nurse says +that you eat much more than you have ever done before." + +"Perhaps," said Colin, prompted by a sudden inspiration, +"perhaps it is an unnatural appetite." + +"I do not think so, as your food seems to agree with you," +said Dr. Craven. "You are gaining flesh rapidly and your +color is better." + +"Perhaps--perhaps I am bloated and feverish," said Colin, +assuming a discouraging air of gloom. "People who are +not going to live are often--different." Dr. Craven shook +his head. He was holding Colin's wrist and he pushed up +his sleeve and felt his arm. + +"You are not feverish," he said thoughtfully, "and such +flesh as you have gained is healthy. If you can keep +this up, my boy, we need not talk of dying. Your father +will be happy to hear of this remarkable improvement." + +"I won't have him told!" Colin broke forth fiercely. +"It will only disappoint him if I get worse again--and I +may get worse this very night. I might have a raging fever. +I feel as if I might be beginning to have one now. +I won't have letters written to my father--I won't--I won't! +You are making me angry and you know that is bad for me. +I feel hot already. I hate being written about and being +talked over as much as I hate being stared at!" + +"Hush-h! my boy," Dr. Craven soothed him. "Nothing shall +be written without your permission. You are too sensitive +about things. You must not undo the good which has +been done." + +He said no more about writing to Mr. Craven and when he saw +the nurse he privately warned her that such a possibility +must not be mentioned to the patient. + +"The boy is extraordinarily better," he said. +"His advance seems almost abnormal. But of course he +is doing now of his own free will what we could not make +him do before. Still, he excites himself very easily +and nothing must be said to irritate him." Mary and +Colin were much alarmed and talked together anxiously. +From this time dated their plan of "play actin'." + +"I may be obliged to have a tantrum," said Colin regretfully. +"I don't want to have one and I'm not miserable enough +now to work myself into a big one. Perhaps I couldn't have +one at all. That lump doesn't come in my throat now and I +keep thinking of nice things instead of horrible ones. +But if they talk about writing to my father I shall have +to do something." + +He made up his mind to eat less, but unfortunately it +was not possible to carry out this brilliant idea when he +wakened each morning with an amazing appetite and the +table near his sofa was set with a breakfast of home-made +bread and fresh butter, snow-white eggs, raspberry jam +and clotted cream. Mary always breakfasted with him +and when they found themselves at the table--particularly +if there were delicate slices of sizzling ham sending +forth tempting odors from under a hot silver cover--they +would look into each other's eyes in desperation. + +"I think we shall have to eat it all this morning, +Mary," Colin always ended by saying. "We can send +away some of the lunch and a great deal of the dinner." + +But they never found they could send away anything +and the highly polished condition of the empty plates +returned to the pantry awakened much comment. + +"I do wish," Colin would say also, "I do wish the slices +of ham were thicker, and one muffin each is not enough +for any one." + +"It's enough for a person who is going to die," answered Mary +when first she heard this, "but it's not enough for a +person who is going to live. I sometimes feel as if I +could eat three when those nice fresh heather and gorse +smells from the moor come pouring in at the open window." + +The morning that Dickon--after they had been enjoying +themselves in the garden for about two hours--went +behind a big rosebush and brought forth two tin pails +and revealed that one was full of rich new milk with cream +on the top of it, and that the other held cottage-made +currant buns folded in a clean blue and white napkin, +buns so carefully tucked in that they were still hot, +there was a riot of surprised joyfulness. What a wonderful +thing for Mrs. Sowerby to think of! What a kind, +clever woman she must be! How good the buns were! And +what delicious fresh milk! + +"Magic is in her just as it is in Dickon," said Colin. +"It makes her think of ways to do things--nice things. +She is a Magic person. Tell her we are grateful, +Dickon--extremely grateful." He was given to using rather +grown-up phrases at times. He enjoyed them. He liked this +so much that he improved upon it. + +"Tell her she has been most bounteous and our gratitude +is extreme." + +And then forgetting his grandeur he fell to and stuffed +himself with buns and drank milk out of the pail in copious +draughts in the manner of any hungry little boy who had +been taking unusual exercise and breathing in moorland +air and whose breakfast was more than two hours behind him. + +This was the beginning of many agreeable incidents of the +same kind. They actually awoke to the fact that as Mrs. Sowerby +had fourteen people to provide food for she might not have +enough to satisfy two extra appetites every day. So they +asked her to let them send some of their shillings to buy things. + +Dickon made the stimulating discovery that in the wood +in the park outside the garden where Mary had first +found him piping to the wild creatures there was a deep +little hollow where you could build a sort of tiny +oven with stones and roast potatoes and eggs in it. +Roasted eggs were a previously unknown luxury and very hot +potatoes with salt and fresh butter in them were fit for +a woodland king --besides being deliciously satisfying. +You could buy both potatoes and eggs and eat as many +as you liked without feeling as if you were taking food +out of the mouths of fourteen people. + +Every beautiful morning the Magic was worked by the mystic +circle under the plum-tree which provided a canopy +of thickening green leaves after its brief blossom-time +was ended. After the ceremony Colin always took his walking +exercise and throughout the day he exercised his newly +found power at intervals. Each day he grew stronger +and could walk more steadily and cover more ground. +And each day his belief in the Magic grew stronger--as +well it might. He tried one experiment after another +as he felt himself gaining strength and it was Dickon +who showed him the best things of all. + +"Yesterday," he said one morning after an absence, +"I went to Thwaite for mother an' near th' Blue Cow Inn I +seed Bob Haworth. He's the strongest chap on th' moor. +He's the champion wrestler an' he can jump higher than any +other chap an' throw th' hammer farther. He's gone all th' +way to Scotland for th' sports some years. He's knowed me +ever since I was a little 'un an' he's a friendly sort an' +I axed him some questions. Th' gentry calls him a athlete +and I thought o' thee, Mester Colin, and I says, `How did tha' +make tha' muscles stick out that way, Bob? Did tha' +do anythin' extra to make thysel' so strong?' An' he says +'Well, yes, lad, I did. A strong man in a show that came +to Thwaite once showed me how to exercise my arms an' +legs an' every muscle in my body. An' I says, `Could a +delicate chap make himself stronger with 'em, Bob?' an' +he laughed an' says, 'Art tha' th' delicate chap?' an' +I says, `No, but I knows a young gentleman that's gettin' +well of a long illness an' I wish I knowed some o' +them tricks to tell him about.' I didn't say no names an, +he didn't ask none. He's friendly same as I said an' +he stood up an' showed me good-natured like, an' I imitated +what he did till I knowed it by heart." + +Colin had been listening excitedly. + +"Can you show me?" he cried. "Will you?" + +"Aye, to be sure," Dickon answered, getting up. +"But he says tha' mun do 'em gentle at first an' +be careful not to tire thysel'. Rest in between times an' +take deep breaths an' don't overdo." + +"I'll be careful," said Colin. "Show me! Show me! Dickon, +you are the most Magic boy in the world!" + +Dickon stood up on the grass and slowly went through a +carefully practical but simple series of muscle exercises. +Colin watched them with widening eyes. He could do a few +while he was sitting down. Presently he did a few gently +while he stood upon his already steadied feet. Mary began +to do them also. Soot, who was watching the performance, +became much disturbed and left his branch and hopped +about restlessly because he could not do them too. + +From that time the exercises were part of the day's duties +as much as the Magic was. It became possible for both +Colin and Mary to do more of them each time they tried, +and such appetites were the results that but for the basket +Dickon put down behind the bush each morning when he +arrived they would have been lost. But the little oven +in the hollow and Mrs. Sowerby's bounties were so satisfying +that Mrs. Medlock and the nurse and Dr. Craven became +mystified again. You can trifle with your breakfast and +seem to disdain your dinner if you are full to the brim +with roasted eggs and potatoes and richly frothed new +milk and oatcakes and buns and heather honey and clotted cream. + +"They are eating next to nothing," said the nurse. +"They'll die of starvation if they can't be persuaded +to take some nourishment. And yet see how they look." + +"Look!" exclaimed Mrs. Medlock indignantly. "Eh! I'm moithered +to death with them. They're a pair of young Satans. +Bursting their jackets one day and the next turning up +their noses at the best meals Cook can tempt them with. +Not a mouthful of that lovely young fowl and bread sauce +did they set a fork into yesterday--and the poor woman +fair invented a pudding for them--and back it's sent. +She almost cried. She's afraid she'll be blamed if they +starve themselves into their graves." + +Dr. Craven came and looked at Colin long and carefully, +He wore an extremely worried expression when the nurse +talked with him and showed him the almost untouched +tray of breakfast she had saved for him to look at--but +it was even more worried when he sat down by Colin's +sofa and examined him. He had been called to London on +business and had not seen the boy for nearly two weeks. +When young things begin to gain health they gain it rapidly. +The waxen tinge had left, Colins skin and a warm rose showed +through it; his beautiful eyes were clear and the hollows +under them and in his cheeks and temples had filled out. +His once dark, heavy locks had begun to look as if they +sprang healthily from his forehead and were soft and warm +with life. His lips were fuller and of a normal color. +In fact as an imitation of a boy who was a confirmed invalid +he was a disgraceful sight. Dr. Craven held his chin in his +hand and thought him over. + +"I am sorry to hear that you do not eat any- thing," +he said. "That will not do. You will lose all you have +gained --and you have gained amazingly. You ate so well +a short time ago." + +"I told you it was an unnatural appetite," answered Colin. + +Mary was sitting on her stool nearby and she suddenly +made a very queer sound which she tried so violently +to repress that she ended by almost choking. + +"What is the matter?" said Dr. Craven, turning to look +at her. + +Mary became quite severe in her manner. + +"It was something between a sneeze and a cough," she replied +with reproachful dignity, "and it got into my throat." + +"But," she said afterward to Colin, "I couldn't stop myself. +It just burst out because all at once I couldn't help +remembering that last big potato you ate and the way +your mouth stretched when you bit through that thick +lovely crust with jam and clotted cream on it." + +"Is there any way in which those children can get +food secretly?" Dr. Craven inquired of Mrs. Medlock. + +"There's no way unless they dig it out of the earth or pick +it off the trees," Mrs. Medlock answered. "They stay +out in the grounds all day and see no one but each other. +And if they want anything different to eat from what's +sent up to them they need only ask for it." + +"Well," said Dr. Craven, "so long as going without +food agrees with them we need not disturb ourselves. +The boy is a new creature." + +"So is the girl," said Mrs. Medlock. "She's begun to be +downright pretty since she's filled out and lost her ugly +little sour look. Her hair's grown thick and healthy +looking and she's got a bright color. The glummest, +ill-natured little thing she used to be and now her and Master +Colin laugh together like a pair of crazy young ones. +Perhaps they're. growing fat on that." + +"Perhaps they are," said Dr. Craven. "Let them laugh." + + + +CHAPTER XXV + +THE CURTAIN + + +And the secret garden bloomed and bloomed and every +morning revealed new miracles. In the robin's nest there +were Eggs and the robin's mate sat upon them keeping them +warm with her feathery little breast and careful wings. +At first she was very nervous and the robin himself +was indignantly watchful. Even Dickon did not go +near the close-grown corner in those days, but waited +until by the quiet working of some mysterious spell he +seemed to have conveyed to the soul of the little pair +that in the garden there was nothing which was not quite +like themselves--nothing which did not understand the +wonderfulness of what was happening to them--the immense, +tender, terrible, heart-breaking beauty and solemnity +of Eggs. If there had been one person in that garden +who had not known through all his or her innermost being +that if an Egg were taken away or hurt the whole world +would whirl round and crash through space and come to +an end--if there had been even one who did not feel it +and act accordingly there could have been no happiness +even in that golden springtime air. But they all knew +it and felt it and the robin and his mate knew they knew it. + +At first the robin watched Mary and Colin with sharp anxiety. +For some mysterious reason he knew he need not watch Dickon. +The first moment he set his dew-bright black eye on Dickon +he knew he was not a stranger but a sort of robin without +beak or feathers. He could speak robin (which is a quite +distinct language not to be mistaken for any other). To speak +robin to a robin is like speaking French to a Frenchman. +Dickon always spoke it to the robin himself, so the queer +gibberish he used when he spoke to humans did not matter +in the least. The robin thought he spoke this gibberish +to them because they were not intelligent enough to +understand feathered speech. His movements also were robin. +They never startled one by being sudden enough to seem +dangerous or threatening. Any robin could understand Dickon, +so his presence was not even disturbing. + +But at the outset it seemed necessary to be on guard +against the other two. In the first place the boy +creature did not come into the garden on his legs. +He was pushed in on a thing with wheels and the skins +of wild animals were thrown over him. That in itself +was doubtful. Then when he began to stand up and move +about he did it in a queer unaccustomed way and the +others seemed to have to help him. The robin used +to secrete himself in a bush and watch this anxiously, +his head tilted first on one side and then on the other. +He thought that the slow movements might mean that he was +preparing to pounce, as cats do. When cats are preparing +to pounce they creep over the ground very slowly. +The robin talked this over with his mate a great deal +for a few days but after that he decided not to speak +of the subject because her terror was so great that he +was afraid it might be injurious to the Eggs. + +When the boy began to walk by himself and even to move more +quickly it was an immense relief. But for a long time--or it +seemed a long time to the robin--he was a source of some anxiety. +He did not act as the other humans did. He seemed very +fond of walking but he had a way of sitting or lying down +for a while and then getting up in a disconcerting manner to begin again. + +One day the robin remembered that when he himself had +been made to learn to fly by his parents he had done +much the same sort of thing. He had taken short flights +of a few yards and then had been obliged to rest. +So it occurred to him that this boy was learning to fly--or +rather to walk. He mentioned this to his mate and when he +told her that the Eggs would probably conduct themselves +in the same way after they were fledged she was quite +comforted and even became eagerly interested and derived +great pleasure from watching the boy over the edge of her +nest--though she always thought that the Eggs would be +much cleverer and learn more quickly. But then she said +indulgently that humans were always more clumsy and slow +than Eggs and most of them never seemed really to learn +to fly at all. You never met them in the air or on tree-tops. + +After a while the boy began to move about as the others did, +but all three of the children at times did unusual things. +They would stand under the trees and move their arms and legs +and heads about in a way which was neither walking nor +running nor sitting down. They went through these movements +at intervals every day and the robin was never able to +explain to his mate what they were doing or tying to do. +He could only say that he was sure that the Eggs would +never flap about in such a manner; but as the boy who could +speak robin so fluently was doing the thing with them, +birds could be quite sure that the actions were not +of a dangerous nature. Of course neither the robin +nor his mate had ever heard of the champion wrestler, +Bob Haworth, and his exercises for making the muscles +stand out like lumps. Robins are not like human beings; +their muscles are always exercised from the first +and so they develop themselves in a natural manner. +If you have to fly about to find every meal you eat, +your muscles do not become atrophied (atrophied means wasted +away through want of use). + +When the boy was walking and running about and digging +and weeding like the others, the nest in the corner was +brooded over by a great peace and content. Fears for +the Eggs became things of the past. Knowing that your +Eggs were as safe as if they were locked in a bank vault +and the fact that you could watch so many curious things +going on made setting a most entertaining occupation. +On wet days the Eggs' mother sometimes felt even a little +dull because the children did not come into the garden. + +But even on wet days it could not be said that Mary and +Colin were dull. One morning when the rain streamed down +unceasingly and Colin was beginning to feel a little restive, +as he was obliged to remain on his sofa because it was +not safe to get up and walk about, Mary had an inspiration. + +"Now that I am a real boy," Colin had said, "my legs and arms +and all my body are so full of Magic that I can't keep +them still. They want to be doing things all the time. +Do you know that when I waken in the morning, Mary, +when it's quite early and the birds are just shouting +outside and everything seems just shouting for joy--even +the trees and things we can't really hear--I feel as if I +must jump out of bed and shout myself. If I did it, +just think what would happen!" + +Mary giggled inordinately. + +"The nurse would come running and Mrs. Medlock would +come running and they would be sure you had gone crazy +and they'd send for the doctor," she said. + +Colin giggled himself. He could see how they would +all look--how horrified by his outbreak and how amazed +to see him standing upright. + +"I wish my father would come home," he said. "I want +to tell him myself. I'm always thinking about it--but we +couldn't go on like this much longer. I can't stand lying +still and pretending, and besides I look too different. +I wish it wasn't raining today." + +It was then Mistress Mary had her inspiration. + +"Colin," she began mysteriously, "do you know how many +rooms there are in this house?" + +"About a thousand, I suppose," he answered. + +"There's about a hundred no one ever goes into," said Mary. +"And one rainy day I went and looked into ever so many of them. +No one ever knew, though Mrs. Medlock nearly found me out. +I lost my way when I was coming back and I stopped at +the end of your corridor. That was the second time I +heard you crying." + +Colin started up on his sofa. + +"A hundred rooms no one goes into," he said. "It sounds +almost like a secret garden. Suppose we go and look at them. +wheel me in my chair and nobody would know we went" + +"That's what I was thinking," said Mary. "No one would dare +to follow us. There are galleries where you could run. +We could do our exercises. There is a little Indian +room where there is a cabinet full of ivory elephants. +There are all sorts of rooms." + +"Ring the bell," said Colin. + +When the nurse came in he gave his orders. + +"I want my chair," he said. "Miss Mary and I are going +to look at the part of the house which is not used. +John can push me as far as the picture-gallery because there +are some stairs. Then he must go away and leave us alone +until I send for him again." + +Rainy days lost their terrors that morning. When the +footman had wheeled the chair into the picture-gallery +and left the two together in obedience to orders, +Colin and Mary looked at each other delighted. As soon +as Mary had made sure that John was really on his way back +to his own quarters below stairs, Colin got out of his chair. + +"I am going to run from one end of the gallery to the other," +he said, "and then I am going to jump and then we will +do Bob Haworth's exercises." + +And they did all these things and many others. They looked +at the portraits and found the plain little girl dressed +in green brocade and holding the parrot on her finger. + +"All these," said Colin, "must be my relations. +They lived a long time ago. That parrot one, I believe, +is one of my great, great, great, great aunts. She looks +rather like you, Mary--not as you look now but as you +looked when you came here. Now you are a great deal +fatter and better looking." + +"So are you," said Mary, and they both laughed. + +They went to the Indian room and amused themselves with +the ivory elephants. They found the rose-colored brocade +boudoir and the hole in the cushion the mouse had left, +but the mice had grown up and run away and the hole was empty. +They saw more rooms and made more discoveries than Mary +had made on her first pilgrimage. They found new corridors +and corners and flights of steps and new old pictures they +liked and weird old things they did not know the use of. +It was a curiously entertaining morning and the feeling +of wandering about in the same house with other people +but at the same time feeling as if one were miles away +from them was a fascinating thing. + +"I'm glad we came," Colin said. "I never knew I +lived in such a big queer old place. I like it. +We will ramble about every rainy day. We shall always +be finding new queer corners and things." + +That morning they had found among other things such +good appetites that when they returned to Colin's room +it was not possible to send the luncheon away untouched. + +When the nurse carried the tray down-stairs she slapped it +down on the kitchen dresser so that Mrs. Loomis, the cook, +could see the highly polished dishes and plates. + +"Look at that!" she said. "This is a house of mystery, +and those two children are the greatest mysteries in it." + +"If they keep that up every day," said the strong +young footman John, "there'd be small wonder that he +weighs twice as much to-day as he did a month ago. +I should have to give up my place in time, for fear +of doing my muscles an injury." + +That afternoon Mary noticed that something new had happened +in Colin's room. She had noticed it the day before but +had said nothing because she thought the change might +have been made by chance. She said nothing today but she +sat and looked fixedly at the picture over the mantel. +She could look at it because the curtain had been drawn aside. +That was the change she noticed. + +"I know what you want me to tell you," said Colin, +after she had stared a few minutes. "I always know when +you want me to tell you something. You are wondering why +the curtain is drawn back. I am going to keep it like that." + +"Why?" asked Mary. + +"Because it doesn't make me angry any more to see her laughing. +I wakened when it was bright moonlight two nights ago +and felt as if the Magic was filling the room and making +everything so splendid that I couldn't lie still. +I got up and looked out of the window. The room was quite +light and there was a patch of moonlight on the curtain +and somehow that made me go and pull the cord. She looked +right down at me as if she were laughing because she was glad +I was standing there. It made me like to look at her. +I want to see her laughing like that all the time. +I think she must have been a sort of Magic person perhaps." + +"You are so like her now," said Mary, "that sometimes I +think perhaps you are her ghost made into a boy." + +That idea seemed to impress Colin. He thought it over +and then answered her slowly. + +"If I were her ghost--my father would be fond of me." + +"Do you want him to be fond of you?" inquired Mary. + +"I used to hate it because he was not fond of me. If he +grew fond of me I think I should tell him about the Magic. +It might make him more cheerful." + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + +"IT'S MOTHER!" + + +Their belief in the Magic was an abiding thing. +After the morning's incantations Colin sometimes gave +them Magic lectures. + +"I like to do it," he explained, "because when I grow +up and make great scientific discoveries I shall be +obliged to lecture about them and so this is practise. +I can only give short lectures now because I am very young, +and besides Ben Weatherstaff would feel as if he were in +church and he would go to sleep." + +"Th' best thing about lecturin'," said Ben, "is that a chap can +get up an' say aught he pleases an' no other chap can answer +him back. I wouldn't be agen' lecturin' a bit mysel' sometimes." + +But when Colin held forth under his tree old Ben fixed +devouring eyes on him and kept them there. He looked +him over with critical affection. It was not so much +the lecture which interested him as the legs which looked +straighter and stronger each day, the boyish head which held +itself up so well, the once sharp chin and hollow cheeks +which had filled and rounded out and the eyes which had +begun to hold the light he remembered in another pair. +Sometimes when Colin felt Ben's earnest gaze meant that he +was much impressed he wondered what he was reflecting on +and once when he had seemed quite entranced he questioned him. + +"What are you thinking about, Ben Weatherstaff?" he asked. + +"I was thinkin'" answered Ben, "as I'd warrant tha's, +gone up three or four pound this week. I was lookin' +at tha' calves an' tha' shoulders. I'd like to get thee +on a pair o' scales." + +"It's the Magic and--and Mrs. Sowerby's buns and milk +and things," said Colin. "You see the scientific +experiment has succeeded." + +That morning Dickon was too late to hear the lecture. +When he came he was ruddy with running and his funny face +looked more twinkling than usual. As they had a good deal +of weeding to do after the rains they fell to work. +They always had plenty to do after a warm deep sinking rain. +The moisture which was good for the flowers was also good +for the weeds which thrust up tiny blades of grass and points +of leaves which must be pulled up before their roots took +too firm hold. Colin was as good at weeding as any one +in these days and he could lecture while he was doing it. +"The Magic works best when you work, yourself," he said +this morning. "You can feel it in your bones and muscles. +I am going to read books about bones and muscles, but I am +going to write a book about Magic. I am making it up now. +I keep finding out things." + +It was not very long after he had said this that he +laid down his trowel and stood up on his feet. +He had been silent for several minutes and they had seen +that he was thinking out lectures, as he often did. +When he dropped his trowel and stood upright it seemed +to Mary and Dickon as if a sudden strong thought had made +him do it. He stretched himself out to his tallest height +and he threw out his arms exultantly. Color glowed in +his face and his strange eyes widened with joyfulness. +All at once he had realized something to the full. + +"Mary! Dickon!" he cried. "Just look at me!" + +They stopped their weeding and looked at him. + +"Do you remember that first morning you brought me in here?" +he demanded. + +Dickon was looking at him very hard. Being an animal +charmer he could see more things than most people could +and many of them were things he never talked about. +He saw some of them now in this boy. "Aye, that we do," +he answered. + +Mary looked hard too, but she said nothing. + +"Just this minute," said Colin, "all at once I remembered +it myself--when I looked at my hand digging with the +trowel--and I had to stand up on my feet to see if it +was real. And it is real! I'm well--I'm well!" + +"Aye, that th' art!" said Dickon. + +"I'm well! I'm well!" said Colin again, and his face went +quite red all over. + +He had known it before in a way, he had hoped it and felt +it and thought about it, but just at that minute something +had rushed all through him--a sort of rapturous belief +and realization and it had been so strong that he could +not help calling out. + +"I shall live forever and ever and ever!" he cried grandly. +"I shall find out thousands and thousands of things. +I shall find out about people and creatures and everything +that grows--like Dickon--and I shall never stop making Magic. +I'm well! I'm well! I feel--I feel as if I want to shout +out something--something thankful, joyful!" + +Ben Weatherstaff, who had been working near a rose-bush, +glanced round at him. + +"Tha' might sing th' Doxology," he suggested in his +dryest grunt. He had no opinion of the Doxology and he +did not make the suggestion with any particular reverence. + +But Colin was of an exploring mind and he knew nothing +about the Doxology. + +"What is that?" he inquired. + +"Dickon can sing it for thee, I'll warrant," +replied Ben Weatherstaff. + +Dickon answered with his all-perceiving animal charmer's smile. + +"They sing it i' church," he said. "Mother says she +believes th' skylarks sings it when they gets up i' th' mornin'." + +"If she says that, it must be a nice song," Colin answered. +"I've never been in a church myself. I was always too ill. +Sing it, Dickon. I want to hear it." + +Dickon was quite simple and unaffected about it. +He understood what Colin felt better than Colin did himself. +He understood by a sort of instinct so natural that he +did not know it was understanding. He pulled off his cap +and looked round still smiling. + +"Tha' must take off tha' cap," he said to Colin," +an' so mun tha', Ben--an' tha' mun stand up, tha' knows." + +Colin took off his cap and the sun shone on and warmed his +thick hair as he watched Dickon intently. Ben Weatherstaff +scrambled up from his knees and bared his head too with +a sort of puzzled half-resentful look on his old face +as if he didn't know exactly why he was doing this remarkable thing. + +Dickon stood out among the trees and rose-bushes +and began to sing in quite a simple matter-of-fact +way and in a nice strong boy voice: + + "Praise God from whom all blessings flow, + Praise Him all creatures here below, + Praise Him above ye Heavenly Host, + Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. + Amen." + +When he had finished, Ben Weatherstaff was standing +quite still with his jaws set obstinately but with a +disturbed look in his eyes fixed on Colin. Colin's face +was thoughtful and appreciative. + +"It is a very nice song," he said. "I like it. Perhaps it +means just what I mean when I want to shout out that I am +thankful to the Magic." He stopped and thought in a puzzled way. +"Perhaps they are both the same thing. How can we know +the exact names of everything? Sing it again, Dickon. +Let us try, Mary. I want to sing it, too. It's my song. +How does it begin? `Praise God from whom all blessings flow'?" + +And they sang it again, and Mary and Colin lifted their +voices as musically as they could and Dickon's swelled quite +loud and beautiful--and at the second line Ben Weatherstaff +raspingly cleared his throat and at the third line he joined +in with such vigor that it seemed almost savage and when +the "Amen" came to an end Mary observed that the very same +thing had happened to him which had happened when he found +out that Colin was not a cripple--his chin was twitching +and he was staring and winking and his leathery old cheeks were wet. + +"I never seed no sense in th' Doxology afore," he said hoarsely, +"but I may change my mind i' time. I should say tha'd +gone up five pound this week Mester Colin--five on 'em!" + +Colin was looking across the garden at something attracting +his attention and his expression had become a startled one. + +"Who is coming in here?" he said quickly. "Who is it?" + +The door in the ivied wall had been pushed gently open +and a woman had entered. She had come in with the last +line of their song and she had stood still listening and +looking at them. With the ivy behind her, the sunlight +drifting through the trees and dappling her long blue cloak, +and her nice fresh face smiling across the greenery +she was rather like a softly colored illustration in +one of Colin'S books. She had wonderful affectionate +eyes which seemed to take everything in--all of them, +even Ben Weatherstaff and the "creatures" and every flower +that was in bloom. Unexpectedly as she had appeared, +not one of them felt that she was an intruder at all. +Dickon's eyes lighted like lamps. + +"It's mother--that's who it is!" he cried and went across +the grass at a run. + +Colin began to move toward her, too, and Mary went with him. +They both felt their pulses beat faster. + +"It's mother!" Dickon said again when they met halfway. +"I knowed tha' wanted to see her an' I told her where th' +door was hid." + +Colin held out his hand with a sort of flushed royal +shyness but his eyes quite devoured her face. + +"Even when I was ill I wanted to see you," he said, +"you and Dickon and the secret garden. I'd never wanted +to see any one or anything before." + +The sight of his uplifted face brought about a sudden +change in her own. She flushed and the corners of her +mouth shook and a mist seemed to sweep over her eyes. + +"Eh! dear lad!" she broke out tremulously. "Eh! dear lad!" +as if she had not known she were going to say it. She did +not say, "Mester Colin," but just "dear lad" quite suddenly. +She might have said it to Dickon in the same way if she +had seen something in his face which touched her. +Colin liked it. + +"Are you surprised because I am so well?" he asked. +She put her hand on his shoulder and smiled the mist +out of her eyes. "Aye, that I am!" she said; "but tha'rt +so like thy mother tha' made my heart jump." + +"Do you think," said Colin a little awkwardly, "that will +make my father like me?" + +"Aye, for sure, dear lad," she answered and she gave +his shoulder a soft quick pat. "He mun come home--he +mun come home." + +"Susan Sowerby," said Ben Weatherstaff, getting close +to her. "Look at th' lad's legs, wilt tha'? They was +like drumsticks i' stockin' two month' ago--an' I heard +folk tell as they was bandy an' knock-kneed both at th' +same time. Look at 'em now!" + +Susan Sowerby laughed a comfortable laugh. + +"They're goin' to be fine strong lad's legs in a bit," +she said. "Let him go on playin' an' workin' in the garden an' +eatin' hearty an' drinkin' plenty o' good sweet milk an' +there'll not be a finer pair i' Yorkshire, thank God for it." + +She put both hands on Mistress Mary's shoulders and looked +her little face over in a motherly fashion. + +"An' thee, too!" she said. "Tha'rt grown near as hearty +as our 'Lisabeth Ellen. I'll warrant tha'rt like thy +mother too. Our Martha told me as Mrs. Medlock heard she +was a pretty woman. Tha'lt be like a blush rose when tha' +grows up, my little lass, bless thee." + +She did not mention that when Martha came home on her +"day out" and described the plain sallow child she had said +that she had no confidence whatever in what Mrs. Medlock +had heard. "It doesn't stand to reason that a pretty +woman could be th' mother o' such a fou' little lass," +she had added obstinately. + +Mary had not had time to pay much attention to her +changing face. She had only known that she looked +"different" and seemed to have a great deal more hair +and that it was growing very fast. But remembering +her pleasure in looking at the Mem Sahib in the past +she was glad to hear that she might some day look like her. + +Susan Sowerby went round their garden with them and was +told the whole story of it and shown every bush and tree +which had come alive. Colin walked on one side of her +and Mary on the other. Each of them kept looking up +at her comfortable rosy face, secretly curious about +the delightful feeling she gave them--a sort of warm, +supported feeling. It seemed as if she understood them +as Dickon understood his "creatures." She stooped over the +flowers and talked about them as if they were children. +Soot followed her and once or twice cawed at her and flew +upon her shoulder as if it were Dickon's. When they told +her about the robin and the first flight of the young ones +she laughed a motherly little mellow laugh in her throat. + +"I suppose learnin' 'em to fly is like learnin' +children to walk, but I'm feared I should be all +in a worrit if mine had wings instead o' legs," she said. + +It was because she seemed such a wonderful woman in her +nice moorland cottage way that at last she was told +about the Magic. + +"Do you believe in Magic?" asked Colin after he had +explained about Indian fakirs. "I do hope you do." + +"That I do, lad," she answered. "I never knowed it by +that name but what does th' name matter? I warrant they +call it a different name i' France an' a different one i' +Germany. Th' same thing as set th' seeds swellin' an' th' +sun shinin' made thee a well lad an' it's th' Good Thing. +It isn't like us poor fools as think it matters if us is +called out of our names. Th' Big Good Thing doesn't stop +to worrit, bless thee. It goes on makin' worlds by th' +million--worlds like us. Never thee stop believin' in th' +Big Good Thing an' knowin' th' world's full of it--an' +call it what tha' likes. Tha' wert singin' to it when I +come into th' garden." + +"I felt so joyful," said Colin, opening his beautiful +strange eyes at her. "Suddenly I felt how different I +was--how strong my arms and legs were, you know--and +how I could dig and stand--and I jumped up and wanted +to shout out something to anything that would listen." + +"Th' Magic listened when tha' sung th' Doxology. +It would ha' listened to anything tha'd sung. It was th' +joy that mattered. Eh! lad, lad--what's names to th' +Joy Maker," and she gave his shoulders a quick soft +pat again. + +She had packed a basket which held a regular feast +this morning, and when the hungry hour came and Dickon +brought it out from its hiding place, she sat down with +them under their tree and watched them devour their food, +laughing and quite gloating over their appetites. She was +full of fun and made them laugh at all sorts of odd things. +She told them stories in broad Yorkshire and taught them +new words. She laughed as if she could not help it +when they told her of the in- creasing difficulty there +was in pretending that Colin was still a fretful invalid. + +"You see we can't help laughing nearly all the time +when we are together," explained Colin. "And it +doesn't sound ill at all. We try to choke it back +but it will burst out and that sounds worse than ever." + +"There's one thing that comes into my mind so often," +said Mary, "and I can scarcely ever hold in when I think +of it suddenly. I keep thinking suppose Colin's face +should get to look like a full moon. It isn't like one +yet but he gets a tiny bit fatter every day--and suppose +some morning it should look like one--what should we do!" + +"Bless us all, I can see tha' has a good bit o' play actin' +to do," said Susan Sowerby. "But tha' won't have to keep +it up much longer. Mester Craven'll come home." + +"Do you think he will?" asked Colin. "Why?" + +Susan Sowerby chuckled softly. + +"I suppose it 'ud nigh break thy heart if he found +out before tha' told him in tha' own way," she said. +"Tha's laid awake nights plannin' it." + +"I couldn't bear any one else to tell him," said Colin. +"I think about different ways every day, I think now I +just want to run into his room." "That'd be a fine +start for him," said Susan Sowerby. "I'd like to see +his face, lad. I would that! He mun come back --that +he mun." + +One of the things they talked of was the visit they +were to make to her cottage. They planned it all. +They were to drive over the moor and lunch out of doors +among the heather. They would see all the twelve children +and Dickon's garden and would not come back until they +were tired. + +Susan Sowerby got up at last to return to the house +and Mrs. Medlock. It was time for Colin to be wheeled +back also. But before he got into his chair he stood +quite close to Susan and fixed his eyes on her with a +kind of bewildered adoration and he suddenly caught +hold of the fold of her blue cloak and held it fast. + +"You are just what I--what I wanted," he said. "I wish +you were my mother--as well as Dickon's!" + +All at once Susan Sowerby bent down and drew him +with her warm arms close against the bosom under +the blue cloak--as if he had been Dickon's brother. +The quick mist swept over her eyes. + +"Eh! dear lad!" she said. "Thy own mother's in this 'ere +very garden, I do believe. She couldna' keep out of it. +Thy father mun come back to thee--he mun!" + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + +IN THE GARDEN + + +In each century since the beginning of the world wonderful +things have been discovered. In the last century more +amazing things were found out than in any century before. +In this new century hundreds of things still more +astounding will be brought to light. At first people +refuse to believe that a strange new thing can be done, +then they begin to hope it can be done, then they see it +can be done--then it is done and all the world wonders +why it was not done centuries ago. One of the new things +people began to find out in the last century was that +thoughts--just mere thoughts--are as powerful as electric +batteries--as good for one as sunlight is, or as bad +for one as poison. To let a sad thought or a bad one get +into your mind is as dangerous as letting a scarlet fever +germ get into your body. If you let it stay there after +it has got in you may never get over it as long as you live. + +So long as Mistress Mary's mind was full of disagreeable +thoughts about her dislikes and sour opinions of people +and her determination not to be pleased by or interested +in anything, she was a yellow-faced, sickly, bored and +wretched child. Circumstances, however, were very +kind to her, though she was not at all aware of it. +They began to push her about for her own good. When her +mind gradually filled itself with robins, and moorland +cottages crowded with children, with queer crabbed +old gardeners and common little Yorkshire housemaids, +with springtime and with secret gardens coming alive day +by day, and also with a moor boy and his "creatures," there +was no room left for the disagreeable thoughts which affected +her liver and her digestion and made her yellow and tired. + +So long as Colin shut himself up in his room and thought +only of his fears and weakness and his detestation +of people who looked at him and reflected hourly on +humps and early death, he was a hysterical half-crazy +little hypochondriac who knew nothing of the sunshine +and the spring and also did not know that he could get +well and could stand upon his feet if he tried to do it. +When new beautiful thoughts began to push out the old +hideous ones, life began to come back to him, his blood ran +healthily through his veins and strength poured into him +like a flood. His scientific experiment was quite practical +and simple and there was nothing weird about it at all. +Much more surprising things can happen to any one who, +when a disagreeable or discouraged thought comes into his mind, +just has the sense to remember in time and push it out +by putting in an agreeable determinedly courageous one. +Two things cannot be in one place. + + "Where, you tend a rose, my lad, + A thistle cannot grow." + +While the secret garden was coming alive and two children +were coming alive with it, there was a man wandering about +certain far-away beautiful places in the Norwegian fiords +and the valleys and mountains of Switzerland and he was +a man who for ten years had kept his mind filled with dark +and heart-broken thinking. He had not been courageous; +he had never tried to put any other thoughts in the place of +the dark ones. He had wandered by blue lakes and thought them; +he had lain on mountain-sides with sheets of deep blue +gentians blooming all about him and flower breaths filling +all the air and he had thought them. A terrible sorrow +had fallen upon him when he had been happy and he had +let his soul fill itself with blackness and had refused +obstinately to allow any rift of light to pierce through. +He had forgotten and deserted his home and his duties. +When he traveled about, darkness so brooded over him that +the sight of him was a wrong done to other people because +it was as if he poisoned the air about him with gloom. +Most strangers thought he must be either half mad or a man +with some hidden crime on his soul. He, was a tall man +with a drawn face and crooked shoulders and the name he +always entered on hotel registers was, "Archibald Craven, +Misselthwaite Manor, Yorkshire, England." + +He had traveled far and wide since the day he saw Mistress +Mary in his study and told her she might have her "bit +of earth." He had been in the most beautiful places in Europe, +though he had remained nowhere more than a few days. +He had chosen the quietest and remotest spots. +He had been on the tops of mountains whose heads were +in the clouds and had looked down on other mountains +when the sun rose and touched them with such light +as made it seem as if the world were just being born. + +But the light had never seemed to touch himself until +one day when he realized that for the first time in ten +years a strange thing had happened. He was in a wonderful +valley in the Austrian Tyrol and he had been walking alone +through such beauty as might have lifted, any man's soul +out of shadow. He had walked a long way and it had not +lifted his. But at last he had felt tired and had thrown +himself down to rest on a carpet of moss by a stream. +It was a clear little stream which ran quite merrily along +on its narrow way through the luscious damp greenness. +Sometimes it made a sound rather like very low laughter +as it bubbled over and round stones. He saw birds +come and dip their heads to drink in it and then flick +their wings and fly away. It seemed like a thing alive +and yet its tiny voice made the stillness seem deeper. +The valley was very, very still. + +As he sat gazing into the clear running of the water, +Archibald Craven gradually felt his mind and body +both grow quiet, as quiet as the valley itself. +He wondered if he were going to sleep, but he was not. +He sat and gazed at the sunlit water and his eyes began +to see things growing at its edge. There was one lovely +mass of blue forget-me-nots growing so close to the stream +that its leaves were wet and at these he found himself looking +as he remembered he had looked at such things years ago. +He was actually thinking tenderly how lovely it was and +what wonders of blue its hundreds of little blossoms were. +He did not know that just that simple thought was slowly +filling his mind--filling and filling it until other things +were softly pushed aside. It was as if a sweet clear +spring had begun to rise in a stagnant pool and had risen +and risen until at last it sweptthe dark water away. +But of course he did not think of this himself. He only +knew that the valley seemed to grow quieter and quieter +as he sat and stared at the bright delicate blueness. +He did not know how long he sat there or what was happening +to him, but at last he moved as if he were awakening +and he got up slowly and stood on the moss carpet, +drawing a long, deep, soft breath and wondering at himself. +Something seemed to have been unbound and released in him, +very quietly. + +"What is it?" he said, almost in a whisper, and he passed +his hand over his forehead. "I almost feel as if--I +were alive!" + +I do not know enough about the wonderfulness of undiscovered +things to be able to explain how this had happened to him. +Neither does any one else yet. He did not understand +at all himself--but he remembered this strange hour +months afterward when he was at Misselthwaite again +and he found out quite by accident that on this very day +Colin had cried out as he went into the secret garden: + +"I am going to live forever and ever and ever!" + +The singular calmness remained with him the rest of the +evening and he slept a new reposeful sleep; but it was +not with him very long. He did not know that it could +be kept. By the next night he had opened the doors +wide to his dark thoughts and they had come trooping +and rushing back. He left the valley and went on his +wandering way again. But, strange as it seemed to him, +there were minutes--sometimes half-hours--when, without +his knowing why, the black burden seemed to lift itself +again and he knew he was a living man and not a dead one. +Slowly--slowly--for no reason that he knew of--he was +"coming alive" with the garden. + +As the golden summer changed into the deep golden autumn he +went to the Lake of Como. There he found the loveliness +of a dream. He spent his days upon the crystal blueness +of the lake or he walked back into the soft thick verdure +of the hills and tramped until he was tired so that he +might sleep. But by this time he had begun to sleep better, +he knew, and his dreams had ceased to be a terror to him. + +"Perhaps," he thought, "my body is growing stronger." + +It was growing stronger but--because of the rare +peaceful hours when his thoughts were changed--his soul +was slowly growing stronger, too. He began to think +of Misselthwaite and wonder if he should not go home. +Now and then he wondered vaguely about his boy and asked +himself what he should feel when he went and stood +by the carved four-posted bed again and looked down at +the sharply chiseled ivory-white face while it slept and, +the black lashes rimmed so startlingly the close-shut eyes. +He shrank from it. + +One marvel of a day he had walked so far that when he +returned the moon was high and full and all the world +was purple shadow and silver. The stillness of lake +and shore and wood was so wonderful that he did not go +into the villa he lived in. He walked down to a little +bowered terrace at the water's edge and sat upon a seat +and breathed in all the heavenly scents of the night. +He felt the strange calmness stealing over him and it grew +deeper and deeper until he fell asleep. + +He did not know when he fell asleep and when he began +to dream; his dream was so real that he did not feel +as if he were dreaming. He remembered afterward how +intensely wide awake and alert he had thought he was. +He thought that as he sat and breathed in the scent of +the late roses and listened to the lapping of the water +at his feet he heard a voice calling. It was sweet +and clear and happy and far away. It seemed very far, +but he heard it as distinctly as if it had been at his +very side. + +"Archie! Archie! Archie!" it said, and then again, +sweeter and clearer than before, "Archie! Archie!" + +He thought he sprang to his feet not even startled. +It was such a real voice and it seemed so natural that he +should hear it. + +"Lilias! Lilias!" he answered. "Lilias! where are you?" + +"In the garden," it came back like a sound from +a golden flute. "In the garden!" + +And then the dream ended. But he did not awaken. +He slept soundly and sweetly all through the lovely night. +When he did awake at last it was brilliant morning and a +servant was standing staring at him. He was an Italian +servant and was accustomed, as all the servants of the +villa were, to accepting without question any strange thing +his foreign master might do. No one ever knew when he +would go out or come in or where he would choose to sleep +or if he would roam about the garden or lie in the boat +on the lake all night. The man held a salver with some +letters on it and he waited quietly until Mr. Craven +took them. When he had gone away Mr. Craven sat a few +moments holding them in his hand and looking at the lake. +His strange calm was still upon him and something more--a +lightness as if the cruel thing which had been done had +not happened as he thought--as if something had changed. +He was remembering the dream--the real--real dream. + +"In the garden!" he said, wondering at himself. "In the +garden! But the door is locked and the key is buried deep." + +When he glanced at the letters a few minutes later he +saw that the one lying at the top of the rest was an +English letter and came from Yorkshire. It was directed +in a plain woman's hand but it was not a hand he knew. +He opened it, scarcely thinking of the writer, but the +first words attracted his attention at once. + + +"Dear Sir: + +I am Susan Sowerby that made bold to speak to you +once on the moor. It was about Miss Mary I spoke. +I will make bold to speak again. Please, sir, I would +come home if I was you. I think you would be glad to come +and--if you will excuse me, sir--I think your lady would +ask you to come if she was here. + + Your obedient servant, + Susan Sowerby." + + +Mr. Craven read the letter twice before he put it back +in its envelope. He kept thinking about the dream. + +"I will go back to Misselthwaite," he said. "Yes, I'll +go at once." + +And he went through the garden to the villa and ordered +Pitcher to prepare for his return to England. + + +In a few days he was in Yorkshire again, and on his long +railroad journey he found himself thinking of his boy +as he had never thought in all the ten years past. +During those years he had only wished to forget him. +Now, though he did not intend to think about him, +memories of him constantly drifted into his mind. +He remembered the black days when he had raved like a madman +because the child was alive and the mother was dead. +He had refused to see it, and when he had gone to look +at it at last it had been, such a weak wretched thing +that everyone had been sure it would die in a few days. +But to the surprise of those who took care of it the days +passed and it lived and then everyone believed it would be a +deformed and crippled creature. + +He had not meant to be a bad father, but he had not felt +like a father at all. He had supplied doctors and nurses +and luxuries, but he had shrunk from the mere thought +of the boy and had buried himself in his own misery. +The first time after a year's absence he returned +to Misselthwaite and the small miserable looking thing +languidly and indifferently lifted to his face the great +gray eyes with black lashes round them, so like and yet +so horribly unlike the happy eyes he had adored, he could +not bear the sight of them and turned away pale as death. +After that he scarcely ever saw him except when he was asleep, +and all he knew of him was that he was a confirmed invalid, +with a vicious, hysterical, half-insane temper. He could +only be kept from furies dangerous to himself by being +given his own way in every detail. + +All this was not an uplifting thing to recall, but as +the train whirled him through mountain passes and golden +plains the man who was "coming alive" began to think +in a new way and he thought long and steadily and deeply. + +"Perhaps I have been all wrong for ten years," +he said to himself. "Ten years is a long time. +It may be too late to do anything--quite too late. +What have I been thinking of!" + +Of course this was the wrong Magic--to begin by saying +"too late." Even Colin could have told him that. +But he knew nothing of Magic--either black or white. +This he had yet to learn. He wondered if Susan Sowerby +had taken courage and written to him only because the +motherly creature had realized that the boy was much +worse--was fatally ill. If he had not been under the +spell of the curious calmness which had taken possession +of him he would have been more wretched than ever. +But the calm had brought a sort of courage and hope with it. +Instead of giving way to thoughts of the worst he actually +found he was trying to believe in better things. + +"Could it be possible that she sees that I may be able +to do him good and control him? " he thought. "I will go +and see her on my way to Misselthwaite." + +But when on his way across the moor he stopped the carriage +at the cottage, seven or eight children who were playing +about gathered in a group and bobbing seven or eight +friendly and polite curtsies told him that their mother +had gone to the other side of the moor early in the morning +to help a woman who had a new baby. "Our Dickon," +they volunteered, was over at the Manor working in one +of the gardens where he went several days each week. + +Mr. Craven looked over the collection of sturdy little +bodies and round red-cheeked faces, each one grinning +in its own particular way, and he awoke to the fact +that they were a healthy likable lot. He smiled at their +friendly grins and took a golden sovereign from his pocket +and gave it to "our 'Lizabeth Ellen" who was the oldest. + +"If you divide that into eight parts there will be half +a crown for each of, you," he said. + +Then amid grins and chuckles and bobbing of curtsies he +drove away, leaving ecstasy and nudging elbows and little +jumps of joy behind. + +The drive across the wonderfulness of the moor was +a soothing thing. Why did it seem to give him a sense +of homecoming which he had been sure he could never feel +again--that sense of the beauty of land and sky and purple +bloom of distance and a warming of the heart at drawing, +nearer to the great old house which had held those of +his blood for six hundred years? How he had driven +away from it the last time, shuddering to think of its +closed rooms and the boy lying in the four-posted bed +with the brocaded hangings. Was it possible that perhaps +he might find him changed a little for the better +and that he might overcome his shrinking from him? +How real that dream had been--how wonderful and clear +the voice which called back to him, "In the garden--In the garden!" + +"I will try to find the key," he said. "I will try +to open the door. I must--though I don't know why." + +When he arrived at the Manor the servants who +received him with the usual ceremony noticed that he +looked better and that he did not go to the remote +rooms where he usually lived attended by Pitcher. +He went into the library and sent for Mrs. Medlock. +She came to him somewhat excited and curious and flustered. + +"How is Master Colin, Medlock?" he inquired. "Well, sir," +Mrs. Medlock answered, "he's--he's different, in a manner +of speaking." + +"Worse?" he suggested. + +Mrs. Medlock really was flushed. + +"Well, you see, sir," she tried to explain, "neither +Dr. Craven, nor the nurse, nor me can exactly make him out." + +"Why is that?" + +"To tell the truth, sir, Master Colin might be better +and he might be changing for the worse. His appetite, +sir, is past understanding--and his ways--" + +"Has he become more--more peculiar?" her master, asked, +knitting his brows anxiously. + +"That's it, sir. He's growing very peculiar--when you +compare him with what he used to be. He used to eat nothing +and then suddenly he began to eat something enormous --and +then he stopped again all at once and the meals were sent +back just as they used to be. You never knew, sir, perhaps, +that out of doors he never would let himself be taken. +The things we've gone through to get him to go out in +his chair would leave a body trembling like a leaf. +He'd throw himself into such a state that Dr. Craven said +he couldn't be responsible for forcing him. Well, sir, +just without warning--not long after one of his worst +tantrums he suddenly insisted on being taken out every day +by Miss Mary and Susan Sowerby's boy Dickon that could push +his chair. He took a fancy to both Miss Mary and Dickon, +and Dickon brought his tame animals, and, if you'll +credit it, sir, out of doors he will stay from morning until night." + +"How does he look?" was the next question. + +"If he took his food natural, sir, you'd think he was putting +on flesh--but we're afraid it may be a sort of bloat. +He laughs sometimes in a queer way when he's alone with +Miss Mary. He never used to laugh at all. Dr. Craven +is coming to see you at once, if you'll allow him. +He never was as puzzled in his life." + +"Where is Master Colin now?" Mr. Craven asked. + +"In the garden, sir. He's always in the garden--though +not a human creature is allowed to go near for fear +they'll look at him." + +Mr. Craven scarcely heard her last words. + +"In the garden," he said, and after he had sent Mrs. Medlock +away he stood and repeated it again and again. +"In the garden!" + +He had to make an effort to bring himself back to +the place he was standing in and when he felt he was +on earth again he turned and went out of the room. +He took his way, as Mary had done, through the door in the +shrubbery and among the laurels and the fountain beds. +The fountain was playing now and was encircled by beds +of brilliant autumn flowers. He crossed the lawn and +turned into the Long Walk by the ivied walls. He did not +walk quickly, but slowly, and his eyes were on the path. +He felt as if he were being drawn back to the place +he had so long forsaken, and he did not know why. +As he drew near to it his step became still more slow. +He knew where the door was even though the ivy hung thick +over it--but he did not know exactly where it lay--that +buried key. + +So he stopped and stood still, looking about him, +and almost the moment after he had paused he started +and listened--asking himself if he were walking in a dream. + +The ivy hung thick over the door, the key was buried +under the shrubs, no human being had passed that portal +for ten lonely years--and yet inside the garden there +were sounds. They were the sounds of running scuffling +feet seeming to chase round and round under the trees, +they were strange sounds of lowered suppressed +voices--exclamations and smothered joyous cries. +It seemed actually like the laughter of young things, +the uncontrollable laughter of children who were trying not +to be heard but who in a moment or so--as their excitement +mounted--would burst forth. What in heaven's name was he +dreaming of--what in heaven's name did he hear? Was he +losing his reason and thinking he heard things which were +not for human ears? Was it that the far clear voice had meant? + +And then the moment came, the uncontrollable moment +when the sounds forgot to hush themselves. The feet ran +faster and faster--they were nearing the garden door--there +was quick strong young breathing and a wild outbreak +of laughing shows which could not be contained--and the +door in the wall was flung wide open, the sheet of ivy +swinging back, and a boy burst through it at full speed and, +without seeing the outsider, dashed almost into his arms. + +Mr. Craven had extended them just in time to save him +from falling as a result of his unseeing dash against him, +and when he held him away to look at him in amazement +at his being there he truly gasped for breath. + +He was a tall boy and a handsome one. He was glowing +with life and his running had sent splendid color leaping +to his face. He threw the thick hair back from his forehead +and lifted a pair of strange gray eyes--eyes full of boyish +laughter and rimmed with black lashes like a fringe. +It was the eyes which made Mr. Craven gasp for breath. +"Who--What? Who!" he stammered. + +This was not what Colin had expected--this was not what he +had planned. He had never thought of such a meeting. +And yet to come dashing out--winning a race--perhaps it +was even better. He drew himself up to his very tallest. +Mary, who had been running with him and had dashed through +the door too, believed that he managed to make himself +look taller than he had ever looked before--inches taller. + +"Father," he said, "I'm Colin. You can't believe it. +I scarcely can myself. I'm Colin." + +Like Mrs. Medlock, he did not understand what his father +meant when he said hurriedly: + +"In the garden! In the garden!" + +"Yes," hurried on Colin. "It was the garden that did +it--and Mary and Dickon and the creatures--and the Magic. +No one knows. We kept it to tell you when you came. +I'm well, I can beat Mary in a race. I'm going to be +an athlete." + +He said it all so like a healthy boy--his face flushed, +his words tumbling over each other in his eagerness--that +Mr. Craven's soul shook with unbelieving joy. + +Colin put out his hand and laid it on his father's arm. + +"Aren't you glad, Father?" he ended. "Aren't you glad? +I'm going to live forever and ever and ever!" + +Mr. Craven put his hands on both the boy's shoulders +and held him still. He knew he dared not even try +to speak for a moment. + +"Take me into the garden, my boy," he said at last. +"And tell me all about it." + +And so they led him in. + +The place was a wilderness of autumn gold and purple +and violet blue and flaming scarlet and on every side were +sheaves of late lilies standing together--lilies which were +white or white and ruby. He remembered well when the +first of them had been planted that just at this season +of the year their late glories should reveal themselves. +Late roses climbed and hung and clustered and the sunshine +deepening the hue of the yellowing trees made one feel +that one, stood in an embowered temple of gold. +The newcomer stood silent just as the children had done +when they came into its grayness. He looked round and round. + +"I thought it would be dead," he said." + +"Mary thought so at first," said Colin. "But it came alive." + +Then they sat down under their tree--all but Colin, +who wanted to stand while he told the story. + +It was the strangest thing he had ever heard, Archibald Craven +thought, as it was poured forth in headlong boy fashion. +Mystery and Magic and wild creatures, the weird midnight +meeting--the coming of the spring--the passion of insulted +pride which had dragged the young Rajah to his feet to defy +old Ben Weatherstaff to his face. The odd companionship, +the play acting, the great secret so carefully kept. +The listener laughed until tears came into his eyes and +sometimes tears came into his eyes when he was not laughing. +The Athlete, the Lecturer, the Scientific Discoverer +was a laughable, lovable, healthy young human thing. + +"Now," he said at the end of the story, "it need not be +a secret any more. I dare say it will frighten them +nearly into fits when they see me--but I am never going +to get into the chair again. I shall walk back with you, +Father--to the house." + + +Ben Weatherstaff's duties rarely took him away from the gardens, +but on this occasion he made an excuse to carry some +vegetables to the kitchen and being invited into the servants' +hall by Mrs. Medlock to drink a glass of beer he was on +the spot--as he had hoped to be--when the most dramatic +event Misselthwaite Manor had seen during the present +generation actually took place. One of the windows looking +upon the courtyard gave also a glimpse of the lawn. +Mrs. Medlock, knowing Ben had come from the gardens, +hoped that he might have caught sight of his master +and even by chance of his meeting with Master Colin. + +"Did you see either of them, Weatherstaff?" she asked. + +Ben took his beer-mug from his mouth and wiped his lips +with the back of his hand. + +"Aye, that I did," he answered with a shrewdly significant air. + +"Both of them?" suggested Mrs. Medlock. + +"Both of 'em," returned Ben Weatherstaff. "Thank ye kindly, +ma'am, I could sup up another mug of it." + +"Together?" said Mrs. Medlock, hastily overfilling his +beer-mug in her excitement. + +"Together, ma'am," and Ben gulped down half of his new +mug at one gulp. + +"Where was Master Colin? How did he look? What did they +say to each other?" + +"I didna' hear that," said Ben, "along o' only bein' on th' +stepladder lookin, over th' wall. But I'll tell thee this. +There's been things goin' on outside as you house people +knows nowt about. An' what tha'll find out tha'll find +out soon." + +And it was not two minutes before he swallowed the last +of his beer and waved his mug solemnly toward the window +which took in through the shrubbery a piece of the lawn. + +"Look there," he said, "if tha's curious. Look what's comin' +across th' grass." + +When Mrs. Medlock looked she threw up her hands and gave +a little shriek and every man and woman servant within hearing +bolted across the servants' hall and stood looking through +the window with their eyes almost starting out of their heads. + +Across the lawn came the Master of Misselthwaite and he +looked as many of them had never seen him. 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FOR PUBLIC DOMAIN ETEXTS*Ver.04.29.93*END* + + + + + +THE SECRET GARDEN +BY FRANCES HODGSON BURNETT + + +Author of + +"The Shuttle," +"The Making of a Marchioness," +"The Methods of Lady +Walderhurst," +"The Lass o' Lowries," +"Through One Administration," +"Little Lord Fauntleroy," +"A Lady of Quality," etc. + + + + + CONTENTS + +CHAPTER TITLE + + I THERE IS NO ONE LEFT + II MISTRESS MARY QUITE CONTRARY + III ACROSS THE MOOR + IV MARTHA + V THE CRY IN THE CORRIDOR + VI "THERE WAS SOME ONE CRYING--THERE WAS!" + VII THE KEY TO THE GARDEN + VIII THE ROBIN WHO SHOWED THE WAY + IX THE STRANGEST HOUSE ANY ONE EVER LIVED IN + X DICKON + XI THE NEST OF THE MISSEL THRUSH + XII "MIGHT I HAVE A BIT OF EARTH?" + XIII "I AM COLIN" + XIV A YOUNG RAJAH + XV NEST BUILDING + XVI "I WON'T!" SAID MARY + XVII A TANTRUM + XVIII "THA' MUNNOT WASTE NO TIME" + XIX "IT HAS COME!" + XX "I SHALL LIVE FOREVER--AND EVER--AND EVER!" + XXI BEN WEATHERSTAFF + XXII WHEN THE SUN WENT DOWN + XXIII MAGIC + XIV "LET THEM LAUGH" + XXV THE CURTAIN + XXVI "IT'S MOTHER!" + XXVII IN THE GARDEN + + + + + +THE SECRET GARDEN +BY FRANCES HODGSON BURNETT + + + + +CHAPTER I + +THERE IS NO ONE LEFT + + +When Mary Lennox was sent to Misselthwaite Manor +to live with her uncle everybody said she was the most +disagreeable-looking child ever seen. It was true, too. +She had a little thin face and a little thin body, +thin light hair and a sour expression. Her hair was yellow, +and her face was yellow because she had been born in +India and had always been ill in one way or another. +Her father had held a position under the English +Government and had always been busy and ill himself, +and her mother had been a great beauty who cared only +to go to parties and amuse herself with gay people. +She had not wanted a little girl at all, and when Mary +was born she handed her over to the care of an Ayah, +who was made to understand that if she wished to please +the Mem Sahib she must keep the child out of sight as much +as possible. So when she was a sickly, fretful, ugly little +baby she was kept out of the way, and when she became +a sickly, fretful, toddling thing she was kept out of +the way also. She never remembered seeing familiarly +anything but the dark faces of her Ayah and the other +native servants, and as they always obeyed her and gave +her her own way in everything, because the Mem Sahib +would be angry if she was disturbed by her crying, +by the time she was six years old she was as tyrannical +and selfish a little pig as ever lived. The young English +governess who came to teach her to read and write disliked +her so much that she gave up her place in three months, +and when other governesses came to try to fill it they +always went away in a shorter time than the first one. +So if Mary had not chosen to really want to know how +to read books she would never have learned her letters at all. + +One frightfully hot morning, when she was about nine +years old, she awakened feeling very cross, and she became +crosser still when she saw that the servant who stood +by her bedside was not her Ayah. + +"Why did you come?" she said to the strange woman. +"I will not let you stay. Send my Ayah to me." + +The woman looked frightened, but she only stammered +that the Ayah could not come and when Mary threw herself +into a passion and beat and kicked her, she looked only +more frightened and repeated that it was not possible +for the Ayah to come to Missie Sahib. + +There was something mysterious in the air that morning. +Nothing was done in its regular order and several of the +native servants seemed missing, while those whom Mary +saw slunk or hurried about with ashy and scared faces. +But no one would tell her anything and her Ayah did not come. +She was actually left alone as the morning went on, +and at last she wandered out into the garden and began +to play by herself under a tree near the veranda. +She pretended that she was making a flower-bed, and she stuck +big scarlet hibiscus blossoms into little heaps of earth, +all the time growing more and more angry and muttering +to herself the things she would say and the names she +would call Saidie when she returned. + +"Pig! Pig! Daughter of Pigs!" she said, because to call +a native a pig is the worst insult of all. + +She was grinding her teeth and saying this over and over +again when she heard her mother come out on the veranda +with some one. She was with a fair young man and they stood +talking together in low strange voices. Mary knew the fair +young man who looked like a boy. She had heard that he +was a very young officer who had just come from England. +The child stared at him, but she stared most at her mother. +She always did this when she had a chance to see her, +because the Mem Sahib--Mary used to call her that oftener +than anything else--was such a tall, slim, pretty person +and wore such lovely clothes. Her hair was like curly +silk and she had a delicate little nose which seemed +to be disdaining things, and she had large laughing eyes. +All her clothes were thin and floating, and Mary said they +were "full of lace." They looked fuller of lace than ever +this morning, but her eyes were not laughing at all. +They were large and scared and lifted imploringly to the fair +boy officer's face. + +"Is it so very bad? Oh, is it?" Mary heard her say. + +"Awfully," the young man answered in a trembling voice. +"Awfully, Mrs. Lennox. You ought to have gone to the hills +two weeks ago." + +The Mem Sahib wrung her hands. + +"Oh, I know I ought!" she cried. "I only stayed to go +to that silly dinner party. What a fool I was!" + +At that very moment such a loud sound of wailing broke +out from the servants' quarters that she clutched the young +man's arm, and Mary stood shivering from head to foot. +The wailing grew wilder and wilder. "What is it? What is it?" +Mrs. Lennox gasped. + +"Some one has died," answered the boy officer. "You did +not say it had broken out among your servants." + +"I did not know!" the Mem Sahib cried. "Come with me! +Come with me!" and she turned and ran into the house. + +After that, appalling things happened, and the mysteriousness +of the morning was explained to Mary. The cholera had +broken out in its most fatal form and people were dying +like flies. The Ayah had been taken ill in the night, +and it was because she had just died that the servants +had wailed in the huts. Before the next day three other +servants were dead and others had run away in terror. +There was panic on every side, and dying people in all +the bungalows. + +During the confusion and bewilderment of the second day Mary +hid herself in the nursery and was forgotten by everyone. +Nobody thought of her, nobody wanted her, and strange things +happened of which she knew nothing. Mary alternately cried +and slept through the hours. She only knew that people were +ill and that she heard mysterious and frightening sounds. +Once she crept into the dining-room and found it empty, +though a partly finished meal was on the table and chairs +and plates looked as if they had been hastily pushed +back when the diners rose suddenly for some reason. +The child ate some fruit and biscuits, and being thirsty +she drank a glass of wine which stood nearly filled. +It was sweet, and she did not know how strong it was. +Very soon it made her intensely drowsy, and she went back +to her nursery and shut herself in again, frightened by cries +she heard in the huts and by the hurrying sound of feet. +The wine made her so sleepy that she could scarcely keep her +eyes open and she lay down on her bed and knew nothing more +for a long time. + +Many things happened during the hours in which she slept +so heavily, but she was not disturbed by the wails and the +sound of things being carried in and out of the bungalow. + +When she awakened she lay and stared at the wall. +The house was perfectly still. She had never known +it to be so silent before. She heard neither voices +nor footsteps, and wondered if everybody had got well of +the cholera and all the trouble was over. She wondered +also who would take care of her now her Ayah was dead. +There would be a new Ayah, and perhaps she would know +some new stories. Mary had been rather tired of the +old ones. She did not cry because her nurse had died. +She was not an affectionate child and had never cared much +for any one. The noise and hurrying about and wailing +over the cholera had frightened her, and she had been angry +because no one seemed to remember that she was alive. +Everyone was too panic-stricken to think of a little +girl no one was fond of. When people had the cholera +it seemed that they remembered nothing but themselves. +But if everyone had got well again, surely some one would +remember and come to look for her. + +But no one came, and as she lay waiting the house seemed +to grow more and more silent. She heard something rustling +on the matting and when she looked down she saw a little +snake gliding along and watching her with eyes like jewels. +She was not frightened, because he was a harmless little +thing who would not hurt her and he seemed in a hurry +to get out of the room. He slipped under the door as she +watched him. + +"How queer and quiet it is," she said. "It sounds as +if there were no one in the bungalow but me and the snake." + +Almost the next minute she heard footsteps in the compound, +and then on the veranda. They were men's footsteps, +and the men entered the bungalow and talked in low voices. +No one went to meet or speak to them and they seemed +to open doors and look into rooms. "What desolation!" +she heard one voice say. "That pretty, pretty woman! +I suppose the child, too. I heard there was a child, +though no one ever saw her." + +Mary was standing in the middle of the nursery when they +opened the door a few minutes later. She looked an ugly, +cross little thing and was frowning because she was +beginning to be hungry and feel disgracefully neglected. +The first man who came in was a large officer she had once +seen talking to her father. He looked tired and troubled, +but when he saw her he was so startled that he almost +jumped back. + +"Barney!" he cried out. "There is a child here! A child +alone! In a place like this! Mercy on us, who is she!" + +"I am Mary Lennox," the little girl said, drawing herself +up stiffly. She thought the man was very rude to call her +father's bungalow "A place like this!" "I fell asleep when +everyone had the cholera and I have only just wakened up. +Why does nobody come?" + +"It is the child no one ever saw!" exclaimed the man, +turning to his companions. "She has actually been forgotten!" + +"Why was I forgotten?" Mary said, stamping her foot. +"Why does nobody come?" + +The young man whose name was Barney looked at her very sadly. +Mary even thought she saw him wink his eyes as if to wink +tears away. + +"Poor little kid!" he said. "There is nobody left to come." + +It was in that strange and sudden way that Mary found +out that she had neither father nor mother left; +that they had died and been carried away in the night, +and that the few native servants who had not died also had +left the house as quickly as they could get out of it, +none of them even remembering that there was a Missie Sahib. +That was why the place was so quiet. It was true that there +was no one in the bungalow but herself and the little +rustling snake. + + + +Chapter II + +MISTRESS MARY QUITE CONTRARY + + +Mary had liked to look at her mother from a distance +and she had thought her very pretty, but as she knew +very little of her she could scarcely have been expected +to love her or to miss her very much when she was gone. +She did not miss her at all, in fact, and as she was a +self-absorbed child she gave her entire thought to herself, +as she had always done. If she had been older she would +no doubt have been very anxious at being left alone in +the world, but she was very young, and as she had always +been taken care of, she supposed she always would be. +What she thought was that she would like to know if she was +going to nice people, who would be polite to her and give +her her own way as her Ayah and the other native servants +had done. + +She knew that she was not going to stay at the English +clergyman's house where she was taken at first. She did +not want to stay. The English clergyman was poor and he +had five children nearly all the same age and they wore +shabby clothes and were always quarreling and snatching +toys from each other. Mary hated their untidy bungalow +and was so disagreeable to them that after the first day +or two nobody would play with her. By the second day +they had given her a nickname which made her furious. + +It was Basil who thought of it first. Basil was a little +boy with impudent blue eyes and a turned-up nose, and Mary +hated him. She was playing by herself under a tree, +just as she had been playing the day the cholera broke out. +She was making heaps of earth and paths for a garden +and Basil came and stood near to watch her. Presently he +got rather interested and suddenly made a suggestion. + +"Why don't you put a heap of stones there and pretend +it is a rockery?" he said. "There in the middle," +and he leaned over her to point. + +"Go away!" cried Mary. "I don't want boys. Go away!" + +For a moment Basil looked angry, and then he began to tease. +He was always teasing his sisters. He danced round +and round her and made faces and sang and laughed. + + "Mistress Mary, quite contrary, + How does your garden grow? + With silver bells, and cockle shells, + And marigolds all in a row." + +He sang it until the other children heard and laughed, too; +and the crosser Mary got, the more they sang "Mistress Mary, +quite contrary"; and after that as long as she stayed +with them they called her "Mistress Mary Quite Contrary" +when they spoke of her to each other, and often when they +spoke to her. + +"You are going to be sent home," Basil said to her, +"at the end of the week. And we're glad of it." + +"I am glad of it, too," answered Mary. "Where is home?" + +"She doesn't know where home is!" said Basil, +with seven-year-old scorn. "It's England, of course. +Our grandmama lives there and our sister Mabel was sent +to her last year. You are not going to your grandmama. +You have none. You are going to your uncle. His name is +Mr. Archibald Craven." + +"I don't know anything about him," snapped Mary. + +"I know you don't," Basil answered. "You don't know anything. +Girls never do. I heard father and mother talking about him. +He lives in a great, big, desolate old house in the +country and no one goes near him. He's so cross he won't +let them, and they wouldn't come if he would let them. +He's a hunchback, and he's horrid." "I don't believe you," +said Mary; and she turned her back and stuck her fingers +in her ears, because she would not listen any more. + +But she thought over it a great deal afterward; and when +Mrs. Crawford told her that night that she was going +to sail away to England in a few days and go to her uncle, +Mr. Archibald Craven, who lived at Misselthwaite Manor, +she looked so stony and stubbornly uninterested that +they did not know what to think about her. They tried +to be kind to her, but she only turned her face away +when Mrs. Crawford attempted to kiss her, and held +herself stiffly when Mr. Crawford patted her shoulder. + +"She is such a plain child," Mrs. Crawford said pityingly, +afterward. "And her mother was such a pretty creature. +She had a very pretty manner, too, and Mary has the most +unattractive ways I ever saw in a child. The children +call her `Mistress Mary Quite Contrary,' and though +it's naughty of them, one can't help understanding it." + +"Perhaps if her mother had carried her pretty face +and her pretty manners oftener into the nursery Mary +might have learned some pretty ways too. It is very sad, +now the poor beautiful thing is gone, to remember that +many people never even knew that she had a child at all." + +"I believe she scarcely ever looked at her," +sighed Mrs. Crawford. "When her Ayah was dead there +was no one to give a thought to the little thing. +Think of the servants running away and leaving her all +alone in that deserted bungalow. Colonel McGrew said he +nearly jumped out of his skin when he opened the door +and found her standing by herself in the middle of the room." + +Mary made the long voyage to England under the care of +an officer's wife, who was taking her children to leave +them in a boarding-school. She was very much absorbed +in her own little boy and girl, and was rather glad to hand +the child over to the woman Mr. Archibald Craven sent +to meet her, in London. The woman was his housekeeper +at Misselthwaite Manor, and her name was Mrs. Medlock. +She was a stout woman, with very red cheeks and sharp +black eyes. She wore a very purple dress, a black +silk mantle with jet fringe on it and a black bonnet +with purple velvet flowers which stuck up and trembled +when she moved her head. Mary did not like her at all, +but as she very seldom liked people there was nothing +remarkable in that; besides which it was very evident +Mrs. Medlock did not think much of her. + +"My word! she's a plain little piece of goods!" she said. +"And we'd heard that her mother was a beauty. She hasn't +handed much of it down, has she, ma'am?" "Perhaps she +will improve as she grows older," the officer's wife +said good-naturedly. "If she were not so sallow and had +a nicer expression, her features are rather good. +Children alter so much." + +"She'll have to alter a good deal," answered Mrs. Medlock. +"And, there's nothing likely to improve children at +Misselthwaite--if you ask me!" They thought Mary was not +listening because she was standing a little apart from them +at the window of the private hotel they had gone to. +She was watching the passing buses and cabs and people, +but she heard quite well and was made very curious about +her uncle and the place he lived in. What sort of a place +was it, and what would he be like? What was a hunchback? +She had never seen one. Perhaps there were none in India. + +Since she had been living in other people's houses +and had had no Ayah, she had begun to feel lonely +and to think queer thoughts which were new to her. +She had begun to wonder why she had never seemed to belong +to anyone even when her father and mother had been alive. +Other children seemed to belong to their fathers and mothers, +but she had never seemed to really be anyone's little girl. +She had had servants, and food and clothes, but no one +had taken any notice of her. She did not know that this +was because she was a disagreeable child; but then, +of course, she did not know she was disagreeable. +She often thought that other people were, but she did not +know that she was so herself. + +She thought Mrs. Medlock the most disagreeable person +she had ever seen, with her common, highly colored face +and her common fine bonnet. When the next day they set +out on their journey to Yorkshire, she walked through +the station to the railway carriage with her head up +and trying to keep as far away from her as she could, +because she did not want to seem to belong to her. +It would have made her angry to think people imagined she +was her little girl. + +But Mrs. Medlock was not in the least disturbed by her +and her thoughts. She was the kind of woman who would +"stand no nonsense from young ones." At least, that is +what she would have said if she had been asked. She had +not wanted to go to London just when her sister Maria's +daughter was going to be married, but she had a comfortable, +well paid place as housekeeper at Misselthwaite Manor +and the only way in which she could keep it was to do +at once what Mr. Archibald Craven told her to do. +She never dared even to ask a question. + +"Captain Lennox and his wife died of the cholera," +Mr. Craven had said in his short, cold way. "Captain Lennox +was my wife's brother and I am their daughter's guardian. +The child is to be brought here. You must go to London +and bring her yourself." + +So she packed her small trunk and made the journey. + +Mary sat in her corner of the railway carriage and looked +plain and fretful. She had nothing to read or to look at, +and she had folded her thin little black-gloved hands in +her lap. Her black dress made her look yellower than ever, +and her limp light hair straggled from under her black +crepe hat. + +"A more marred-looking young one I never saw in my life," +Mrs. Medlock thought. (Marred is a Yorkshire word and +means spoiled and pettish.) She had never seen a child +who sat so still without doing anything; and at last she +got tired of watching her and began to talk in a brisk, +hard voice. + +"I suppose I may as well tell you something about where +you are going to," she said. "Do you know anything +about your uncle?" + +"No," said Mary. + +"Never heard your father and mother talk about him?" + +"No," said Mary frowning. She frowned because she +remembered that her father and mother had never talked +to her about anything in particular. Certainly they +had never told her things. + +"Humph," muttered Mrs. Medlock, staring at her queer, +unresponsive little face. She did not say any more for +a few moments and then she began again. + +"I suppose you might as well be told something--to +prepare you. You are going to a queer place." + +Mary said nothing at all, and Mrs. Medlock looked rather +discomfited by her apparent indifference, but, after taking +a breath, she went on. + +"Not but that it's a grand big place in a gloomy way, +and Mr. Craven's proud of it in his way--and that's +gloomy enough, too. The house is six hundred years old +and it's on the edge of the moor, and there's near a hundred +rooms in it, though most of them's shut up and locked. +And there's pictures and fine old furniture and things +that's been there for ages, and there's a big park round +it and gardens and trees with branches trailing to the +ground--some of them." She paused and took another breath. +"But there's nothing else," she ended suddenly. + +Mary had begun to listen in spite of herself. It all sounded +so unlike India, and anything new rather attracted her. +But she did not intend to look as if she were interested. +That was one of her unhappy, disagreeable ways. So she +sat still. + +"Well," said Mrs. Medlock. "What do you think of it?" + +"Nothing," she answered. "I know nothing about such places." + +That made Mrs. Medlock laugh a short sort of laugh. + +"Eh!" she said, "but you are like an old woman. +Don't you care?" + +"It doesn't matter" said Mary, "whether I care or not." + +"You are right enough there," said Mrs. Medlock. +"It doesn't. What you're to be kept at Misselthwaite Manor +for I don't know, unless because it's the easiest way. +He's not going to trouble himself about you, that's sure +and certain. He never troubles himself about no one." + +She stopped herself as if she had just remembered something +in time. + +"He's got a crooked back," she said. "That set him wrong. +He was a sour young man and got no good of all his money +and big place till he was married." + +Mary's eyes turned toward her in spite of her intention +not to seem to care. She had never thought of the +hunchback's being married and she was a trifle surprised. +Mrs. Medlock saw this, and as she was a talkative woman +she continued with more interest. This was one way +of passing some of the time, at any rate. + +"She was a sweet, pretty thing and he'd have walked +the world over to get her a blade o' grass she wanted. +Nobody thought she'd marry him, but she did, +and people said she married him for his money. +But she didn't--she didn't," positively. "When she died--" + +Mary gave a little involuntary jump. + +"Oh! did she die!" she exclaimed, quite without meaning to. +She had just remembered a French fairy story she had once +read called "Riquet a la Houppe." It had been about a poor +hunchback and a beautiful princess and it had made her +suddenly sorry for Mr. Archibald Craven. + +"Yes, she died," Mrs. Medlock answered. "And it +made him queerer than ever. He cares about nobody. +He won't see people. Most of the time he goes away, +and when he is at Misselthwaite he shuts himself up in +the West Wing and won't let any one but Pitcher see him. +Pitcher's an old fellow, but he took care of him when he +was a child and he knows his ways." + +It sounded like something in a book and it did not make +Mary feel cheerful. A house with a hundred rooms, +nearly all shut up and with their doors locked--a house on +the edge of a moor--whatsoever a moor was--sounded dreary. +A man with a crooked back who shut himself up also! She +stared out of the window with her lips pinched together, +and it seemed quite natural that the rain should have begun +to pour down in gray slanting lines and splash and stream +down the window-panes. If the pretty wife had been alive +she might have made things cheerful by being something +like her own mother and by running in and out and going +to parties as she had done in frocks "full of lace." +But she was not there any more. + +"You needn't expect to see him, because ten to one you won't," +said Mrs. Medlock. "And you mustn't expect that there +will be people to talk to you. You'll have to play +about and look after yourself. You'll be told what rooms +you can go into and what rooms you're to keep out of. +There's gardens enough. But when you're in the house +don't go wandering and poking about. Mr. Craven won't +have it." + +"I shall not want to go poking about," said sour little +Mary and just as suddenly as she had begun to be rather +sorry for Mr. Archibald Craven she began to cease to be +sorry and to think he was unpleasant enough to deserve +all that had happened to him. + +And she turned her face toward the streaming panes of the +window of the railway carriage and gazed out at the gray +rain-storm which looked as if it would go on forever and ever. +She watched it so long and steadily that the grayness +grew heavier and heavier before her eyes and she fell asleep. + + + +CHAPTER III + +ACROSS THE MOOR + + +She slept a long time, and when she awakened Mrs. Medlock +had bought a lunchbasket at one of the stations and they +had some chicken and cold beef and bread and butter and +some hot tea. The rain seemed to be streaming down more +heavily than ever and everybody in the station wore wet +and glistening waterproofs. The guard lighted the lamps +in the carriage, and Mrs. Medlock cheered up very much +over her tea and chicken and beef. She ate a great deal +and afterward fell asleep herself, and Mary sat and stared +at her and watched her fine bonnet slip on one side until she +herself fell asleep once more in the corner of the carriage, +lulled by the splashing of the rain against the windows. +It was quite dark when she awakened again. The train +had stopped at a station and Mrs. Medlock was shaking her. + +"You have had a sleep!" she said. "It's time to open +your eyes! We're at Thwaite Station and we've got a long +drive before us." + +Mary stood up and tried to keep her eyes open while +Mrs. Medlock collected her parcels. The little +girl did not offer to help her, because in India +native servants always picked up or carried things +and it seemed quite proper that other people should wait on one. + +The station was a small one and nobody but themselves +seemed to be getting out of the train. The station-master +spoke to Mrs. Medlock in a rough, good-natured way, +pronouncing his words in a queer broad fashion which Mary +found out afterward was Yorkshire. + +"I see tha's got back," he said. "An' tha's browt th' +young 'un with thee." + +"Aye, that's her," answered Mrs. Medlock, speaking with +a Yorkshire accent herself and jerking her head over +her shoulder toward Mary. "How's thy Missus?" + +"Well enow. Th' carriage is waitin' outside for thee." + +A brougham stood on the road before the little +outside platform. Mary saw that it was a smart carriage +and that it was a smart footman who helped her in. +His long waterproof coat and the waterproof covering of his +hat were shining and dripping with rain as everything was, +the burly station-master included. + +When he shut the door, mounted the box with the coachman, +and they drove off, the little girl found herself seated +in a comfortably cushioned corner, but she was not inclined +to go to sleep again. She sat and looked out of the window, +curious to see something of the road over which she +was being driven to the queer place Mrs. Medlock had +spoken of. She was not at all a timid child and she was +not exactly frightened, but she felt that there was no +knowing what might happen in a house with a hundred rooms +nearly all shut up--a house standing on the edge of a moor. + +"What is a moor?" she said suddenly to Mrs. Medlock. + +"Look out of the window in about ten minutes and you'll see," +the woman answered. "We've got to drive five miles across +Missel Moor before we get to the Manor. You won't see +much because it's a dark night, but you can see something." + +Mary asked no more questions but waited in the darkness +of her corner, keeping her eyes on the window. The carriage +lamps cast rays of light a little distance ahead of them +and she caught glimpses of the things they passed. +After they had left the station they had driven through a +tiny village and she had seen whitewashed cottages and the +lights of a public house. Then they had passed a church +and a vicarage and a little shop-window or so in a cottage +with toys and sweets and odd things set our for sale. +Then they were on the highroad and she saw hedges and trees. +After that there seemed nothing different for a long +time--or at least it seemed a long time to her. + +At last the horses began to go more slowly, as if they +were climbing up-hill, and presently there seemed to be +no more hedges and no more trees. She could see nothing, +in fact, but a dense darkness on either side. She leaned +forward and pressed her face against the window just +as the carriage gave a big jolt. + +"Eh! We're on the moor now sure enough," said Mrs. Medlock. + +The carriage lamps shed a yellow light on a rough-looking +road which seemed to be cut through bushes and low-growing +things which ended in the great expanse of dark apparently +spread out before and around them. A wind was rising +and making a singular, wild, low, rushing sound. + +"It's--it's not the sea, is it?" said Mary, looking round +at her companion. + +"No, not it," answered Mrs. Medlock. "Nor it isn't fields +nor mountains, it's just miles and miles and miles of wild +land that nothing grows on but heather and gorse and broom, +and nothing lives on but wild ponies and sheep." + +"I feel as if it might be the sea, if there were water +on it," said Mary. "It sounds like the sea just now." + +"That's the wind blowing through the bushes," Mrs. Medlock said. +"It's a wild, dreary enough place to my mind, though there's +plenty that likes it--particularly when the heather's in bloom." + +On and on they drove through the darkness, and though +the rain stopped, the wind rushed by and whistled and made +strange sounds. The road went up and down, and several +times the carriage passed over a little bridge beneath +which water rushed very fast with a great deal of noise. +Mary felt as if the drive would never come to an end +and that the wide, bleak moor was a wide expanse of black +ocean through which she was passing on a strip of dry land. + +"I don't like it," she said to herself. "I don't like it," +and she pinched her thin lips more tightly together. + +The horses were climbing up a hilly piece of road +when she first caught sight of a light. Mrs. Medlock +saw it as soon as she did and drew a long sigh of relief. + +"Eh, I am glad to see that bit o' light twinkling," +she exclaimed. "It's the light in the lodge window. +We shall get a good cup of tea after a bit, at all events." + +It was "after a bit," as she said, for when the carriage +passed through the park gates there was still two miles +of avenue to drive through and the trees (which nearly +met overhead) made it seem as if they were driving +through a long dark vault. + +They drove out of the vault into a clear space +and stopped before an immensely long but low-built +house which seemed to ramble round a stone court. +At first Mary thought that there were no lights at all +in the windows, but as she got out of the carriage +she saw that one room in a corner upstairs showed a dull glow. + +The entrance door was a huge one made of massive, curiously +shaped panels of oak studded with big iron nails and bound +with great iron bars. It opened into an enormous hall, +which was so dimly lighted that the faces in the portraits +on the walls and the figures in the suits of armor +made Mary feel that she did not want to look at them. +As she stood on the stone floor she looked a very small, +odd little black figure, and she felt as small and lost +and odd as she looked. + +A neat, thin old man stood near the manservant who opened +the door for them. + +"You are to take her to her room," he said in a husky voice. +"He doesn't want to see her. He's going to London +in the morning." + +"Very well, Mr. Pitcher," Mrs. Medlock answered. +"So long as I know what's expected of me, I can manage." + +"What's expected of you, Mrs. Medlock," Mr. Pitcher said, +"is that you make sure that he's not disturbed and that he +doesn't see what he doesn't want to see." + +And then Mary Lennox was led up a broad staircase +and down a long corridor and up a short flight +of steps and through another corridor and another, +until a door opened in a wall and she found herself +in a room with a fire in it and a supper on a table. + +Mrs. Medlock said unceremoniously: + +"Well, here you are! This room and the next are where you'll +live--and you must keep to them. Don't you forget that!" + +It was in this way Mistress Mary arrived at Misselthwaite +Manor and she had perhaps never felt quite so contrary +in all her life. + + + +CHAPTER IV + +MARTHA + + +When she opened her eyes in the morning it was because +a young housemaid had come into her room to light +the fire and was kneeling on the hearth-rug raking +out the cinders noisily. Mary lay and watched her for +a few moments and then began to look about the room. +She had never seen a room at all like it and thought it +curious and gloomy. The walls were covered with tapestry +with a forest scene embroidered on it. There were +fantastically dressed people under the trees and in the +distance there was a glimpse of the turrets of a castle. +There were hunters and horses and dogs and ladies. +Mary felt as if she were in the forest with them. +Out of a deep window she could see a great climbing +stretch of land which seemed to have no trees on it, +and to look rather like an endless, dull, purplish sea. + +"What is that?" she said, pointing out of the window. + +Martha, the young housemaid, who had just risen to her feet, +looked and pointed also. "That there?" she said. + +"Yes." + +"That's th' moor," with a good-natured grin. "Does tha' +like it?" + +"No," answered Mary. "I hate it." + +"That's because tha'rt not used to it," Martha said, +going back to her hearth. "Tha' thinks it's too big an' +bare now. But tha' will like it." + +"Do you?" inquired Mary. + +"Aye, that I do," answered Martha, cheerfully polishing +away at the grate. "I just love it. It's none bare. +It's covered wi' growin' things as smells sweet. +It's fair lovely in spring an' summer when th' gorse an' +broom an' heather's in flower. It smells o' honey an' +there's such a lot o' fresh air--an' th' sky looks +so high an' th' bees an' skylarks makes such a nice +noise hummin' an' singin'. Eh! I wouldn't live away from th' +moor for anythin'." + +Mary listened to her with a grave, puzzled expression. +The native servants she had been used to in India +were not in the least like this. They were obsequious +and servile and did not presume to talk to their masters +as if they were their equals. They made salaams and called +them "protector of the poor" and names of that sort. +Indian servants were commanded to do things, not asked. +It was not the custom to say "please" and "thank you" +and Mary had always slapped her Ayah in the face when she +was angry. She wondered a little what this girl would +do if one slapped her in the face. She was a round, +rosy, good-natured-looking creature, but she had a sturdy +way which made Mistress Mary wonder if she might not +even slap back--if the person who slapped her was only a +little girl. + +"You are a strange servant," she said from her pillows, +rather haughtily. + +Martha sat up on her heels, with her blacking-brush in her hand, +and laughed, without seeming the least out of temper. + +"Eh! I know that," she said. "If there was a grand Missus +at Misselthwaite I should never have been even one of th' +under house-maids. I might have been let to be scullerymaid +but I'd never have been let upstairs. I'm too common an' +I talk too much Yorkshire. But this is a funny house for +all it's so grand. Seems like there's neither Master nor +Mistress except Mr. Pitcher an' Mrs. Medlock. Mr. Craven, +he won't be troubled about anythin' when he's here, an' +he's nearly always away. Mrs. Medlock gave me th' +place out o' kindness. She told me she could never have +done it if Misselthwaite had been like other big houses." +"Are you going to be my servant?" Mary asked, still in her +imperious little Indian way. + +Martha began to rub her grate again. + +"I'm Mrs. Medlock's servant," she said stoutly. +"An' she's Mr. Craven's--but I'm to do the housemaid's +work up here an' wait on you a bit. But you won't need +much waitin' on." + +"Who is going to dress me?" demanded Mary. + +Martha sat up on her heels again and stared. She spoke +in broad Yorkshire in her amazement. + +"Canna' tha' dress thysen!" she said. + +"What do you mean? I don't understand your language," +said Mary. + +"Eh! I forgot," Martha said. "Mrs. Medlock told me I'd +have to be careful or you wouldn't know what I was sayin'. +I mean can't you put on your own clothes?" + +"No," answered Mary, quite indignantly. "I never did +in my life. My Ayah dressed me, of course." + +"Well," said Martha, evidently not in the least aware +that she was impudent, "it's time tha' should learn. +Tha' cannot begin younger. It'll do thee good to wait +on thysen a bit. My mother always said she couldn't +see why grand people's children didn't turn out fair +fools--what with nurses an' bein' washed an' dressed an' +took out to walk as if they was puppies!" + +"It is different in India," said Mistress Mary disdainfully. +She could scarcely stand this. + +But Martha was not at all crushed. + +"Eh! I can see it's different," she answered almost +sympathetically. "I dare say it's because there's such +a lot o' blacks there instead o' respectable white people. +When I heard you was comin' from India I thought you was a black +too." + +Mary sat up in bed furious. + +"What!" she said. "What! You thought I was a native. +You--you daughter of a pig!" + +Martha stared and looked hot. + +"Who are you callin' names?" she said. "You needn't be +so vexed. That's not th' way for a young lady to talk. +I've nothin' against th' blacks. When you read about 'em +in tracts they're always very religious. You always read +as a black's a man an' a brother. I've never seen a black an' +I was fair pleased to think I was goin' to see one close. +When I come in to light your fire this mornin' I crep' +up to your bed an' pulled th' cover back careful to look +at you. An' there you was," disappointedly, "no more black +than me--for all you're so yeller." + +Mary did not even try to control her rage and humiliation. +"You thought I was a native! You dared! You don't know +anything about natives! They are not people--they're servants +who must salaam to you. You know nothing about India. +You know nothing about anything!" + +She was in such a rage and felt so helpless before the girl's +simple stare, and somehow she suddenly felt so horribly +lonely and far away from everything she understood +and which understood her, that she threw herself face +downward on the pillows and burst into passionate sobbing. +She sobbed so unrestrainedly that good-natured Yorkshire +Martha was a little frightened and quite sorry for her. +She went to the bed and bent over her. + +"Eh! you mustn't cry like that there!" she begged. +"You mustn't for sure. I didn't know you'd be vexed. +I don't know anythin' about anythin'--just like you said. +I beg your pardon, Miss. Do stop cryin'." + +There was something comforting and really friendly in her +queer Yorkshire speech and sturdy way which had a good effect +on Mary. She gradually ceased crying and became quiet. +Martha looked relieved. + +"It's time for thee to get up now," she said. +"Mrs. Medlock said I was to carry tha' breakfast an' +tea an' dinner into th' room next to this. It's been +made into a nursery for thee. I'll help thee on with thy +clothes if tha'll get out o' bed. If th' buttons are at th' +back tha' cannot button them up tha'self." + +When Mary at last decided to get up, the clothes Martha +took from the wardrobe were not the ones she had worn +when she arrived the night before with Mrs. Medlock. + +"Those are not mine," she said. "Mine are black." + +She looked the thick white wool coat and dress over, +and added with cool approval: + +"Those are nicer than mine." + +"These are th' ones tha' must put on," Martha answered. +"Mr. Craven ordered Mrs. Medlock to get 'em in London. +He said `I won't have a child dressed in black wanderin' +about like a lost soul,' he said. `It'd make the place +sadder than it is. Put color on her.' Mother she said she +knew what he meant. Mother always knows what a body means. +She doesn't hold with black hersel'." + +"I hate black things," said Mary. + +The dressing process was one which taught them both something. +Martha had "buttoned up" her little sisters and brothers but she +had never seen a child who stood still and waited for another +person to do things for her as if she had neither hands nor feet +of her own. + +"Why doesn't tha' put on tha' own shoes?" she said +when Mary quietly held out her foot. + +"My Ayah did it," answered Mary, staring. "It was the custom." + +She said that very often--"It was the custom." The native +servants were always saying it. If one told them to do +a thing their ancestors had not done for a thousand years +they gazed at one mildly and said, "It is not the custom" +and one knew that was the end of the matter. + +It had not been the custom that Mistress Mary should +do anything but stand and allow herself to be dressed +like a doll, but before she was ready for breakfast she +began to suspect that her life at Misselthwaite Manor +would end by teaching her a number of things quite +new to her--things such as putting on her own shoes +and stockings, and picking up things she let fall. +If Martha had been a well-trained fine young lady's maid +she would have been more subservient and respectful and +would have known that it was her business to brush hair, +and button boots, and pick things up and lay them away. +She was, however, only an untrained Yorkshire rustic +who had been brought up in a moorland cottage with a +swarm of little brothers and sisters who had never +dreamed of doing anything but waiting on themselves +and on the younger ones who were either babies in arms +or just learning to totter about and tumble over things. + +If Mary Lennox had been a child who was ready to be amused +she would perhaps have laughed at Martha's readiness to talk, +but Mary only listened to her coldly and wondered at her +freedom of manner. At first she was not at all interested, +but gradually, as the girl rattled on in her good-tempered, +homely way, Mary began to notice what she was saying. + +"Eh! you should see 'em all," she said. "There's twelve +of us an' my father only gets sixteen shilling a week. I can +tell you my mother's put to it to get porridge for 'em all. +They tumble about on th' moor an' play there all day an' +mother says th' air of th' moor fattens 'em. She says she +believes they eat th' grass same as th' wild ponies do. +Our Dickon, he's twelve years old and he's got a young pony +he calls his own." + +"Where did he get it?" asked Mary. + +"He found it on th' moor with its mother when it was +a little one an' he began to make friends with it an' +give it bits o' bread an' pluck young grass for it. +And it got to like him so it follows him about an' +it lets him get on its back. Dickon's a kind lad an' +animals likes him." + +Mary had never possessed an animal pet of her own +and had always thought she should like one. So she +began to feel a slight interest in Dickon, and as she +had never before been interested in any one but herself, +it was the dawning of a healthy sentiment. When she went +into the room which had been made into a nursery for her, +she found that it was rather like the one she had slept in. +It was not a child's room, but a grown-up person's room, +with gloomy old pictures on the walls and heavy old +oak chairs. A table in the center was set with a good +substantial breakfast. But she had always had a very +small appetite, and she looked with something more than +indifference at the first plate Martha set before her. + +"I don't want it," she said. + +"Tha' doesn't want thy porridge!" Martha exclaimed incredulously. + +"No." + +"Tha' doesn't know how good it is. Put a bit o' +treacle on it or a bit o' sugar." + +"I don't want it," repeated Mary. + +"Eh!" said Martha. "I can't abide to see good victuals +go to waste. If our children was at this table they'd +clean it bare in five minutes." + +"Why?" said Mary coldly. "Why!" echoed Martha. "Because they +scarce ever had their stomachs full in their lives. +They're as hungry as young hawks an' foxes." + +"I don't know what it is to be hungry," said Mary, +with the indifference of ignorance. + +Martha looked indignant. + +"Well, it would do thee good to try it. I can see +that plain enough," she said outspokenly. "I've no +patience with folk as sits an' just stares at good +bread an' meat. My word! don't I wish Dickon and Phil an' +Jane an' th' rest of 'em had what's here under their pinafores." + +"Why don't you take it to them?" suggested Mary. + +"It's not mine," answered Martha stoutly. "An' this +isn't my day out. I get my day out once a month same +as th' rest. Then I go home an' clean up for mother an' +give her a day's rest." + +Mary drank some tea and ate a little toast and some marmalade. + +"You wrap up warm an' run out an' play you," said Martha. +"It'll do you good and give you some stomach for your meat." + +Mary went to the window. There were gardens and paths +and big trees, but everything looked dull and wintry. + +"Out? Why should I go out on a day like this?" "Well, if tha' +doesn't go out tha'lt have to stay in, an' what has tha' +got to do?" + +Mary glanced about her. There was nothing to do. +When Mrs. Medlock had prepared the nursery she had not +thought of amusement. Perhaps it would be better to go +and see what the gardens were like. + +"Who will go with me?" she inquired. + +Martha stared. + +"You'll go by yourself," she answered. "You'll have to +learn to play like other children does when they haven't +got sisters and brothers. Our Dickon goes off on th' +moor by himself an' plays for hours. That's how he made +friends with th' pony. He's got sheep on th' moor that +knows him, an' birds as comes an' eats out of his hand. +However little there is to eat, he always saves a bit o' +his bread to coax his pets." + +It was really this mention of Dickon which made Mary decide +to go out, though she was not aware of it. There would be, +birds outside though there would not be ponies or sheep. +They would be different from the birds in India and it +might amuse her to look at them. + +Martha found her coat and hat for her and a pair of stout +little boots and she showed her her way downstairs. + +"If tha' goes round that way tha'll come to th' gardens," +she said, pointing to a gate in a wall of shrubbery. +"There's lots o' flowers in summer-time, but there's +nothin' bloomin' now." She seemed to hesitate a second +before she added, "One of th' gardens is locked up. +No one has been in it for ten years." + +"Why?" asked Mary in spite of herself. Here was another +locked door added to the hundred in the strange house. + +"Mr. Craven had it shut when his wife died so sudden. +He won't let no one go inside. It was her garden. +He locked th' door an' dug a hole and buried th' key. +There's Mrs. Medlock's bell ringing--I must run." + +After she was gone Mary turned down the walk which led +to the door in the shrubbery. She could not help thinking +about the garden which no one had been into for ten years. +She wondered what it would look like and whether there +were any flowers still alive in it. When she had passed +through the shrubbery gate she found herself in great gardens, +with wide lawns and winding walks with clipped borders. +There were trees, and flower-beds, and evergreens clipped +into strange shapes, and a large pool with an old gray +fountain in its midst. But the flower-beds were bare +and wintry and the fountain was not playing. This was not +the garden which was shut up. How could a garden be shut +up? You could always walk into a garden. + +She was just thinking this when she saw that, at the end +of the path she was following, there seemed to be a +long wall, with ivy growing over it. She was not familiar +enough with England to know that she was coming upon the +kitchen-gardens where the vegetables and fruit were growing. +She went toward the wall and found that there was a green +door in the ivy, and that it stood open. This was +not the closed garden, evidently, and she could go into it. + +She went through the door and found that it was a garden +with walls all round it and that it was only one of several +walled gardens which seemed to open into one another. +She saw another open green door, revealing bushes and +pathways between beds containing winter vegetables. +Fruit-trees were trained flat against the wall, +and over some of the beds there were glass frames. +The place was bare and ugly enough, Mary thought, as she +stood and stared about her. It might be nicer in summer +when things were green, but there was nothing pretty about +it now. + +Presently an old man with a spade over his shoulder walked +through the door leading from the second garden. He looked +startled when he saw Mary, and then touched his cap. +He had a surly old face, and did not seem at all pleased +to see her--but then she was displeased with his garden +and wore her "quite contrary" expression, and certainly +did not seem at all pleased to see him. + +"What is this place?" she asked. + +"One o' th' kitchen-gardens," he answered. + +"What is that?" said Mary, pointing through the other +green door. + +"Another of 'em," shortly. "There's another on t'other +side o' th' wall an' there's th' orchard t'other side o' that." + +"Can I go in them?" asked Mary. + +"If tha' likes. But there's nowt to see." + +Mary made no response. She went down the path and through +the second green door. There, she found more walls +and winter vegetables and glass frames, but in the second +wall there was another green door and it was not open. +Perhaps it led into the garden which no one had seen for +ten years. As she was not at all a timid child and always +did what she wanted to do, Mary went to the green door +and turned the handle. She hoped the door would not open +because she wanted to be sure she had found the mysterious +garden--but it did open quite easily and she walked +through it and found herself in an orchard. There were +walls all round it also and trees trained against them, +and there were bare fruit-trees growing in the winter-browned +grass--but there was no green door to be seen anywhere. +Mary looked for it, and yet when she had entered the +upper end of the garden she had noticed that the wall +did not seem to end with the orchard but to extend +beyond it as if it enclosed a place at the other side. +She could see the tops of trees above the wall, +and when she stood still she saw a bird with a bright +red breast sitting on the topmost branch of one of them, +and suddenly he burst into his winter song--almost +as if he had caught sight of her and was calling to her. + +She stopped and listened to him and somehow his cheerful, +friendly little whistle gave her a pleased feeling--even +a disagreeable little girl may be lonely, and the big closed +house and big bare moor and big bare gardens had made this +one feel as if there was no one left in the world but herself. +If she had been an affectionate child, who had been +used to being loved, she would have broken her heart, +but even though she was "Mistress Mary Quite Contrary" +she was desolate, and the bright-breasted little bird +brought a look into her sour little face which was almost +a smile. She listened to him until he flew away. +He was not like an Indian bird and she liked him and +wondered if she should ever see him again. Perhaps he +lived in the mysterious garden and knew all about it. + +Perhaps it was because she had nothing whatever to do +that she thought so much of the deserted garden. She was +curious about it and wanted to see what it was like. +Why had Mr. Archibald Craven buried the key? If he +had liked his wife so much why did he hate her garden? +She wondered if she should ever see him, but she knew +that if she did she should not like him, and he would +not like her, and that she should only stand and stare +at him and say nothing, though she should be wanting +dreadfully to ask him why he had done such a queer thing. + +"People never like me and I never like people," she thought. +"And I never can talk as the Crawford children could. +They were always talking and laughing and making noises." + +She thought of the robin and of the way he seemed to sing +his song at her, and as she remembered the tree-top he +perched on she stopped rather suddenly on the path. + +"I believe that tree was in the secret garden--I feel sure +it was," she said. "There was a wall round the place +and there was no door." + +She walked back into the first kitchen-garden she had entered +and found the old man digging there. She went and stood beside +him and watched him a few moments in her cold little way. +He took no notice of her and so at last she spoke to him. + +"I have been into the other gardens," she said. + +"There was nothin' to prevent thee," he answered crustily. + +"I went into the orchard." + +"There was no dog at th' door to bite thee," he answered. + +"There was no door there into the other garden," +said Mary. + +"What garden?" he said in a rough voice, stopping his +digging for a moment. + +"The one on the other side of the wall," answered Mistress Mary. +"There are trees there--I saw the tops of them. A bird +with a red breast was sitting on one of them and he sang." + +To her surprise the surly old weather-beaten face +actually changed its expression. A slow smile spread +over it and the gardener looked quite different. It made +her think that it was curious how much nicer a person +looked when he smiled. She had not thought of it before. + +He turned about to the orchard side of his garden and began +to whistle--a low soft whistle. She could not understand +how such a surly man could make such a coaxing sound. +Almost the next moment a wonderful thing happened. +She heard a soft little rushing flight through the air--and +it was the bird with the red breast flying to them, +and he actually alighted on the big clod of earth quite near +to the gardener's foot. + +"Here he is," chuckled the old man, and then he spoke +to the bird as if he were speaking to a child. + +"Where has tha' been, tha' cheeky little beggar?" +he said. "I've not seen thee before today. Has tha, +begun tha' courtin' this early in th' season? Tha'rt +too forrad." + +The bird put his tiny head on one side and looked up at him +with his soft bright eye which was like a black dewdrop. +He seemed quite familiar and not the least afraid. +He hopped about and pecked the earth briskly, looking for +seeds and insects. It actually gave Mary a queer feeling +in her heart, because he was so pretty and cheerful +and seemed so like a person. He had a tiny plump body +and a delicate beak, and slender delicate legs. + +"Will he always come when you call him?" she asked almost +in a whisper. + +"Aye, that he will. I've knowed him ever since he was +a fledgling. He come out of th' nest in th' other garden an' +when first he flew over th' wall he was too weak to fly +back for a few days an' we got friendly. When he went +over th' wall again th' rest of th' brood was gone an' +he was lonely an' he come back to me." + +"What kind of a bird is he?" Mary asked. + +"Doesn't tha' know? He's a robin redbreast an' +they're th' friendliest, curiousest birds alive. +They're almost as friendly as dogs--if you know how to get +on with 'em. Watch him peckin' about there an' lookin' +round at us now an' again. He knows we're talkin' about him." + +It was the queerest thing in the world to see the old fellow. +He looked at the plump little scarlet-waistcoated bird +as if he were both proud and fond of him. + +"He's a conceited one," he chuckled. "He likes to hear +folk talk about him. An' curious--bless me, there never +was his like for curiosity an' meddlin'. He's always comin' +to see what I'm plantin'. He knows all th' things Mester +Craven never troubles hissel' to find out. He's th' +head gardener, he is." + +The robin hopped about busily pecking the soil and now +and then stopped and looked at them a little. Mary thought +his black dewdrop eyes gazed at her with great curiosity. +It really seemed as if he were finding out all about her. +The queer feeling in her heart increased. "Where did the +rest of the brood fly to?" she asked. + +"There's no knowin'. The old ones turn 'em out o' their nest an' +make 'em fly an' they're scattered before you know it. +This one was a knowin' one an, he knew he was lonely." + +Mistress Mary went a step nearer to the robin and looked +at him very hard. + +"I'm lonely," she said. + +She had not known before that this was one of the things +which made her feel sour and cross. She seemed to find +it out when the robin looked at her and she looked +at the robin. + +The old gardener pushed his cap back on his bald head +and stared at her a minute. + +"Art tha' th' little wench from India?" he asked. + +Mary nodded. + +"Then no wonder tha'rt lonely. Tha'lt be lonlier before +tha's done," he said. + +He began to dig again, driving his spade deep into +the rich black garden soil while the robin hopped +about very busily employed. + +"What is your name?" Mary inquired. + +He stood up to answer her. + +"Ben Weatherstaff," he answered, and then he added with a +surly chuckle, "I'm lonely mysel' except when he's with me," +and he jerked his thumb toward the robin. "He's th' +only friend I've got." + +"I have no friends at all," said Mary. "I never had. +My Ayah didn't like me and I never played with any one." + +It is a Yorkshire habit to say what you think with +blunt frankness, and old Ben Weatherstaff was a Yorkshire +moor man. + +"Tha' an' me are a good bit alike," he said. +"We was wove out of th' same cloth. We're neither of us +good lookin' an' we're both of us as sour as we look. +We've got the same nasty tempers, both of us, I'll warrant." + +This was plain speaking, and Mary Lennox had never heard +the truth about herself in her life. Native servants +always salaamed and submitted to you, whatever you did. +She had never thought much about her looks, but she wondered +if she was as unattractive as Ben Weatherstaff and she +also wondered if she looked as sour as he had looked +before the robin came. She actually began to wonder +also if she was "nasty tempered." She felt uncomfortable. + +Suddenly a clear rippling little sound broke out near +her and she turned round. She was standing a few feet +from a young apple-tree and the robin had flown on to one +of its branches and had burst out into a scrap of a song. +Ben Weatherstaff laughed outright. + +"What did he do that for?" asked Mary. + +"He's made up his mind to make friends with thee," +replied Ben. "Dang me if he hasn't took a fancy to thee." + +"To me?" said Mary, and she moved toward the little tree +softly and looked up. + +"Would you make friends with me?" she said to the robin +just as if she was speaking to a person. "Would you?" +And she did not say it either in her hard little voice +or in her imperious Indian voice, but in a tone so soft +and eager and coaxing that Ben Weatherstaff was as surprised +as she had been when she heard him whistle. + +"Why," he cried out, "tha' said that as nice an' human as +if tha' was a real child instead of a sharp old woman. +Tha' said it almost like Dickon talks to his wild things on th' +moor." + +"Do you know Dickon?" Mary asked, turning round rather +in a hurry. + +"Everybody knows him. Dickon's wanderin' about everywhere. +Th' very blackberries an' heather-bells knows him. +I warrant th' foxes shows him where their cubs +lies an' th' skylarks doesn't hide their nests from him." + +Mary would have liked to ask some more questions. +She was almost as curious about Dickon as she was about +the deserted garden. But just that moment the robin, +who had ended his song, gave a little shake of his wings, +spread them and flew away. He had made his visit and had +other things to do. + +"He has flown over the wall!" Mary cried out, watching him. +"He has flown into the orchard--he has flown across the +other wall--into the garden where there is no door!" + +"He lives there," said old Ben. "He came out o' th' egg there. +If he's courtin', he's makin' up to some young madam +of a robin that lives among th' old rose-trees there." + +"Rose-trees," said Mary. "Are there rose-trees?" + +Ben Weatherstaff took up his spade again and began to dig. + +"There was ten year' ago," he mumbled. + +"I should like to see them," said Mary. "Where is +the green door? There must be a door somewhere." + +Ben drove his spade deep and looked as uncompanionable +as he had looked when she first saw him. + +"There was ten year' ago, but there isn't now," he said. + +"No door!" cried Mary. "There must be." "None as any +one can find, an' none as is any one's business. +Don't you be a meddlesome wench an' poke your nose where +it's no cause to go. Here, I must go on with my work. +Get you gone an' play you. I've no more time." + +And he actually stopped digging, threw his spade over +his shoulder and walked off, without even glancing +at her or saying good-by. + + + +CHAPTER V + +THE CRY IN THE CORRIDOR + + +At first each day which passed by for Mary Lennox +was exactly like the others. Every morning she awoke +in her tapestried room and found Martha kneeling upon +the hearth building her fire; every morning she ate her +breakfast in the nursery which had nothing amusing in it; +and after each breakfast she gazed out of the window +across to the huge moor which seemed to spread out on all +sides and climb up to the sky, and after she had stared +for a while she realized that if she did not go out she +would have to stay in and do nothing--and so she went out. +She did not know that this was the best thing she could +have done, and she did not know that, when she began to walk +quickly or even run along the paths and down the avenue, +she was stirring her slow blood and making herself stronger +by fighting with the wind which swept down from the moor. +She ran only to make herself warm, and she hated the wind +which rushed at her face and roared and held her back +as if it were some giant she could not see. But the big +breaths of rough fresh air blown over the heather filled +her lungs with something which was good for her whole +thin body and whipped some red color into her cheeks and +brightened her dull eyes when she did not know anything +about it. + +But after a few days spent almost entirely out of doors +she wakened one morning knowing what it was to be hungry, +and when she sat down to her breakfast she did not glance +disdainfully at her porridge and push it away, but took +up her spoon and began to eat it and went on eating it +until her bowl was empty. + +"Tha' got on well enough with that this mornin', didn't tha'?" +said Martha. + +"It tastes nice today," said Mary, feeling a little +surprised her self. + +"It's th' air of th' moor that's givin' thee stomach +for tha' victuals," answered Martha. "It's lucky +for thee that tha's got victuals as well as appetite. +There's been twelve in our cottage as had th' stomach an' +nothin' to put in it. You go on playin' you out o' +doors every day an' you'll get some flesh on your bones an' +you won't be so yeller." + +"I don't play," said Mary. "I have nothing to play with." + +"Nothin' to play with!" exclaimed Martha. "Our children +plays with sticks and stones. They just runs about an' +shouts an' looks at things." Mary did not shout, +but she looked at things. There was nothing else to do. +She walked round and round the gardens and wandered +about the paths in the park. Sometimes she looked for +Ben Weatherstaff, but though several times she saw him +at work he was too busy to look at her or was too surly. +Once when she was walking toward him he picked up his spade +and turned away as if he did it on purpose. + +One place she went to oftener than to any other. +It was the long walk outside the gardens with the walls +round them. There were bare flower-beds on either +side of it and against the walls ivy grew thickly. +There was one part of the wall where the creeping dark +green leaves were more bushy than elsewhere. It seemed +as if for a long time that part had been neglected. +The rest of it had been clipped and made to look neat, +but at this lower end of the walk it had not been trimmed +at all. + +A few days after she had talked to Ben Weatherstaff, +Mary stopped to notice this and wondered why it was so. +She had just paused and was looking up at a long spray of ivy +swinging in the wind when she saw a gleam of scarlet and +heard a brilliant chirp, and there, on the top of the wall, +forward perched Ben Weatherstaff's robin redbreast, +tilting forward to look at her with his small head on +one side. + +"Oh!" she cried out, "is it you--is it you?" And it +did not seem at all queer to her that she spoke to him +as if she were sure that he would understand and answer her. + +He did answer. He twittered and chirped and hopped along +the wall as if he were telling her all sorts of things. +It seemed to Mistress Mary as if she understood him, too, +though he was not speaking in words. It was as if he +said: + +"Good morning! Isn't the wind nice? Isn't the sun nice? Isn't +everything nice? Let us both chirp and hop and twitter. +Come on! Come on!" + +Mary began to laugh, and as he hopped and took little flights +along the wall she ran after him. Poor little thin, sallow, +ugly Mary--she actually looked almost pretty for a moment. + +"I like you! I like you!" she cried out, pattering down the walk; +and she chirped and tried to whistle, which last she did +not know how to do in the least. But the robin seemed +to be quite satisfied and chirped and whistled back at her. +At last he spread his wings and made a darting flight +to the top of a tree, where he perched and sang loudly. +That reminded Mary of the first time she had seen him. +He had been swinging on a tree-top then and she had been +standing in the orchard. Now she was on the other side +of the orchard and standing in the path outside a wall--much +lower down--and there was the same tree inside. + +"It's in the garden no one can go into," she said to herself. +"It's the garden without a door. He lives in there. +How I wish I could see what it is like!" + +She ran up the walk to the green door she had entered +the first morning. Then she ran down the path through +the other door and then into the orchard, and when she +stood and looked up there was the tree on the other side +of the wall, and there was the robin just finishing his +song and, beginning to preen his feathers with his beak. + +"It is the garden," she said. "I am sure it is." + +She walked round and looked closely at that side of the +orchard wall, but she only found what she had found +before--that there was no door in it. Then she ran +through the kitchen-gardens again and out into the walk +outside the long ivy-covered wall, and she walked to +the end of it and looked at it, but there was no door; +and then she walked to the other end, looking again, +but there was no door. + +"It's very queer," she said. "Ben Weatherstaff said +there was no door and there is no door. But there must +have been one ten years ago, because Mr. Craven buried +the key." + +This gave her so much to think of that she began to be +quite interested and feel that she was not sorry that she +had come to Misselthwaite Manor. In India she had always +felt hot and too languid to care much about anything. +The fact was that the fresh wind from the moor had begun +to blow the cobwebs out of her young brain and to waken +her up a little. + +She stayed out of doors nearly all day, and when she sat +down to her supper at night she felt hungry and drowsy +and comfortable. She did not feel cross when Martha +chattered away. She felt as if she rather liked to hear her, +and at last she thought she would ask her a question. +She asked it after she had finished her supper and had sat +down on the hearth-rug before the fire. + +"Why did Mr. Craven hate the garden?" she said. + +She had made Martha stay with her and Martha had not +objected at all. She was very young, and used to a crowded +cottage full of brothers and sisters, and she found it +dull in the great servants' hall downstairs where the +footman and upper-housemaids made fun of her Yorkshire +speech and looked upon her as a common little thing, +and sat and whispered among themselves. Martha liked +to talk, and the strange child who had lived in India, +and been waited upon by "blacks," was novelty enough +to attract her. + +She sat down on the hearth herself without waiting +to be asked. + +"Art tha' thinkin' about that garden yet?" she said. +"I knew tha' would. That was just the way with me when I +first heard about it." + +"Why did he hate it?" Mary persisted. + +Martha tucked her feet under her and made herself +quite comfortable. + +"Listen to th' wind wutherin' round the house," she said. +"You could bare stand up on the moor if you was out on +it tonight." + +Mary did not know what "wutherin'" meant until she listened, +and then she understood. It must mean that hollow +shuddering sort of roar which rushed round and round the +house as if the giant no one could see were buffeting it +and beating at the walls and windows to try to break in. +But one knew he could not get in, and somehow it made +one feel very safe and warm inside a room with a red +coal fire. + +"But why did he hate it so?" she asked, after she +had listened. She intended to know if Martha did. + +Then Martha gave up her store of knowledge. + +"Mind," she said, "Mrs. Medlock said it's not to be +talked about. There's lots o' things in this place that's +not to be talked over. That's Mr. Craven's orders. +His troubles are none servants' business, he says. +But for th' garden he wouldn't be like he is. It was +Mrs. Craven's garden that she had made when first they +were married an' she just loved it, an' they used to 'tend +the flowers themselves. An' none o' th' gardeners was +ever let to go in. Him an' her used to go in an' +shut th' door an' stay there hours an' hours, readin' +and talkin'. An, she was just a bit of a girl an' +there was an old tree with a branch bent like a seat +on it. An' she made roses grow over it an' she used +to sit there. But one day when she was sittin' there th' +branch broke an' she fell on th' ground an' was hurt +so bad that next day she died. Th' doctors thought he'd +go out o' his mind an' die, too. That's why he hates it. +No one's never gone in since, an' he won't let any one talk +about it." + +Mary did not ask any more questions. She looked at +the red fire and listened to the wind "wutherin'." +It seemed to be "wutherin'" louder than ever. +At that moment a very good thing was happening to her. +Four good things had happened to her, in fact, since she +came to Misselthwaite Manor. She had felt as if she +had understood a robin and that he had understood her; +she had run in the wind until her blood had grown warm; +she had been healthily hungry for the first time in her life; +and she had found out what it was to be sorry for some one. + +But as she was listening to the wind she began to listen +to something else. She did not know what it was, +because at first she could scarcely distinguish it from +the wind itself. It was a curious sound--it seemed almost +as if a child were crying somewhere. Sometimes the wind +sounded rather like a child crying, but presently Mistress +Mary felt quite sure this sound was inside the house, +not outside it. It was far away, but it was inside. +She turned round and looked at Martha. + +"Do you hear any one crying?" she said. + +Martha suddenly looked confused. + +"No," she answered. "It's th' wind. Sometimes it +sounds like as if some one was lost on th' moor an' +wailin'. It's got all sorts o' sounds." + +"But listen," said Mary. "It's in the house--down one +of those long corridors." + +And at that very moment a door must have been opened +somewhere downstairs; for a great rushing draft blew along +the passage and the door of the room they sat in was blown +open with a crash, and as they both jumped to their feet +the light was blown out and the crying sound was swept down +the far corridor so that it was to be heard more plainly than +ever. + +"There!" said Mary. "I told you so! It is some one +crying--and it isn't a grown-up person." + +Martha ran and shut the door and turned the key, but before +she did it they both heard the sound of a door in some far +passage shutting with a bang, and then everything was quiet, +for even the wind ceased "wutherin'" for a few moments. + +"It was th' wind," said Martha stubbornly. +"An' if it wasn't, it was little Betty Butterworth, +th' scullery-maid. She's had th' toothache all day." + +But something troubled and awkward in her manner made +Mistress Mary stare very hard at her. She did not believe +she was speaking the truth. + + + +CHAPTER VI + +"THERE WAS SOME ONE CRYING--THERE WAS!" + + +The next day the rain poured down in torrents again, +and when Mary looked out of her window the moor was almost +hidden by gray mist and cloud. There could be no going +out today. + +"What do you do in your cottage when it rains like this?" +she asked Martha. + +"Try to keep from under each other's feet mostly," +Martha answered. "Eh! there does seem a lot of us then. +Mother's a good-tempered woman but she gets fair moithered. +The biggest ones goes out in th' cow-shed and plays there. +Dickon he doesn't mind th' wet. He goes out just th' +same as if th' sun was shinin'. He says he sees things +on rainy days as doesn't show when it's fair weather. +He once found a little fox cub half drowned in its hole and he +brought it home in th' bosom of his shirt to keep it warm. +Its mother had been killed nearby an' th' hole was swum +out an' th' rest o' th' litter was dead. He's got it at +home now. He found a half-drowned young crow another time an' +he brought it home, too, an' tamed it. It's named Soot +because it's so black, an' it hops an' flies about with +him everywhere." + +The time had come when Mary had forgotten to resent +Martha's familiar talk. She had even begun to find it +interesting and to be sorry when she stopped or went away. +The stories she had been told by her Ayah when she lived +in India had been quite unlike those Martha had to tell about +the moorland cottage which held fourteen people who lived +in four little rooms and never had quite enough to eat. +The children seemed to tumble about and amuse themselves +like a litter of rough, good-natured collie puppies. +Mary was most attracted by the mother and Dickon. +When Martha told stories of what "mother" said or did they +always sounded comfortable. + +"If I had a raven or a fox cub I could play with it," +said Mary. "But I have nothing." + +Martha looked perplexed. + +"Can tha' knit?" she asked. + +"No," answered Mary. + +"Can tha'sew?" + +"No." + +"Can tha' read?" + +"Yes." + +"Then why doesn't tha, read somethin', or learn a bit o' +spellin'? Tha'st old enough to be learnin' thy book a good +bit now." + +"I haven't any books," said Mary. "Those I had were left +in India." + +"That's a pity," said Martha. "If Mrs. Medlock'd let thee +go into th' library, there's thousands o' books there." + +Mary did not ask where the library was, because she was +suddenly inspired by a new idea. She made up her mind +to go and find it herself. She was not troubled about +Mrs. Medlock. Mrs. Medlock seemed always to be in her +comfortable housekeeper's sitting-room downstairs. +In this queer place one scarcely ever saw any one at all. +In fact, there was no one to see but the servants, +and when their master was away they lived a luxurious +life below stairs, where there was a huge kitchen hung +about with shining brass and pewter, and a large servants' +hall where there were four or five abundant meals eaten +every day, and where a great deal of lively romping went on +when Mrs. Medlock was out of the way. + +Mary's meals were served regularly, and Martha waited on her, +but no one troubled themselves about her in the least. +Mrs. Medlock came and looked at her every day or two, +but no one inquired what she did or told her what to do. +She supposed that perhaps this was the English way of +treating children. In India she had always been attended +by her Ayah, who had followed her about and waited on her, +hand and foot. She had often been tired of her company. +Now she was followed by nobody and was learning to dress +herself because Martha looked as though she thought she was +silly and stupid when she wanted to have things handed to her +and put on. + +"Hasn't tha' got good sense?" she said once, when Mary +had stood waiting for her to put on her gloves for her. +"Our Susan Ann is twice as sharp as thee an' she's only +four year' old. Sometimes tha' looks fair soft in th' head." + +Mary had worn her contrary scowl for an hour after that, +but it made her think several entirely new things. + +She stood at the window for about ten minutes this morning +after Martha had swept up the hearth for the last time +and gone downstairs. She was thinking over the new idea +which had come to her when she heard of the library. +She did not care very much about the library itself, +because she had read very few books; but to hear of it brought +back to her mind the hundred rooms with closed doors. +She wondered if they were all really locked and what +she would find if she could get into any of them. +Were there a hundred really? Why shouldn't she go and see +how many doors she could count? It would be something +to do on this morning when she could not go out. +She had never been taught to ask permission to do things, +and she knew nothing at all about authority, so she would +not have thought it necessary to ask Mrs. Medlock if she +might walk about the house, even if she had seen her. + +She opened the door of the room and went into the corridor, +and then she began her wanderings. It was a long corridor +and it branched into other corridors and it led her up +short flights of steps which mounted to others again. +There were doors and doors, and there were pictures +on the walls. Sometimes they were pictures of dark, +curious landscapes, but oftenest they were portraits +of men and women in queer, grand costumes made of satin +and velvet. She found herself in one long gallery +whose walls were covered with these portraits. She had +never thought there could be so many in any house. +She walked slowly down this place and stared at the faces +which also seemed to stare at her. She felt as if they +were wondering what a little girl from India was doing +in their house. Some were pictures of children--little +girls in thick satin frocks which reached to their feet +and stood out about them, and boys with puffed sleeves +and lace collars and long hair, or with big ruffs around +their necks. She always stopped to look at the children, +and wonder what their names were, and where they had gone, +and why they wore such odd clothes. There was a stiff, +plain little girl rather like herself. She wore a green +brocade dress and held a green parrot on her finger. +Her eyes had a sharp, curious look. + +"Where do you live now?" said Mary aloud to her. +"I wish you were here." + +Surely no other little girl ever spent such a queer morning. +It seemed as if there was no one in all the huge rambling +house but her own small self, wandering about upstairs +and down, through narrow passages and wide ones, where it +seemed to her that no one but herself had ever walked. +Since so many rooms had been built, people must have lived +in them, but it all seemed so empty that she could not quite +believe it true. + +It was not until she climbed to the second floor that she +thought of turning the handle of a door. All the doors +were shut, as Mrs. Medlock had said they were, but at last she +put her hand on the handle of one of them and turned it. +She was almost frightened for a moment when she felt +that it turned without difficulty and that when she pushed +upon the door itself it slowly and heavily opened. +It was a massive door and opened into a big bedroom. +There were embroidered hangings on the wall, and inlaid +furniture such as she had seen in India stood about the room. +A broad window with leaded panes looked out upon the moor; +and over the mantel was another portrait of the stiff, +plain little girl who seemed to stare at her more curiously +than ever. + +"Perhaps she slept here once," said Mary. "She stares +at me so that she makes me feel queer." + +After that she opened more doors and more. She saw +so many rooms that she became quite tired and began +to think that there must be a hundred, though she had not +counted them. In all of them there were old pictures +or old tapestries with strange scenes worked on them. +There were curious pieces of furniture and curious +ornaments in nearly all of them. + +In one room, which looked like a lady's sitting-room, +the hangings were all embroidered velvet, and in a cabinet +were about a hundred little elephants made of ivory. +They were of different sizes, and some had their mahouts +or palanquins on their backs. Some were much bigger than the +others and some were so tiny that they seemed only babies. +Mary had seen carved ivory in India and she knew all +about elephants. She opened the door of the cabinet +and stood on a footstool and played with these for quite +a long time. When she got tired she set the elephants +in order and shut the door of the cabinet. + +In all her wanderings through the long corridors and the +empty rooms, she had seen nothing alive; but in this +room she saw something. Just after she had closed the +cabinet door she heard a tiny rustling sound. It made +her jump and look around at the sofa by the fireplace, +from which it seemed to come. In the corner of the sofa +there was a cushion, and in the velvet which covered +it there was a hole, and out of the hole peeped a tiny +head with a pair of frightened eyes in it. + +Mary crept softly across the room to look. The bright eyes +belonged to a little gray mouse, and the mouse had eaten +a hole into the cushion and made a comfortable nest there. +Six baby mice were cuddled up asleep near her. If there +was no one else alive in the hundred rooms there were +seven mice who did not look lonely at all. + +"If they wouldn't be so frightened I would take them back +with me," said Mary. + +She had wandered about long enough to feel too tired +to wander any farther, and she turned back. Two or three +times she lost her way by turning down the wrong corridor +and was obliged to ramble up and down until she found +the right one; but at last she reached her own floor again, +though she was some distance from her own room and did +not know exactly where she was. + +"I believe I have taken a wrong turning again," she said, +standing still at what seemed the end of a short passage +with tapestry on the wall. "I don't know which way to go. +How still everything is!" + +It was while she was standing here and just after she +had said this that the stillness was broken by a sound. +It was another cry, but not quite like the one she had heard +last night; it was only a short one, a fretful childish +whine muffled by passing through walls. + +"It's nearer than it was," said Mary, her heart beating +rather faster. "And it is crying." + +She put her hand accidentally upon the tapestry near her, +and then sprang back, feeling quite startled. The tapestry +was the covering of a door which fell open and showed +her that there was another part of the corridor behind it, +and Mrs. Medlock was coming up it with her bunch of keys +in her hand and a very cross look on her face. + +"What are you doing here?" she said, and she took Mary +by the arm and pulled her away. "What did I tell you?" + +"I turned round the wrong corner," explained Mary. +"I didn't know which way to go and I heard some one crying." +She quite hated Mrs. Medlock at the moment, but she hated +her more the next. + +"You didn't hear anything of the sort," said the housekeeper. +"You come along back to your own nursery or I'll box +your ears." + +And she took her by the arm and half pushed, half pulled +her up one passage and down another until she pushed +her in at the door of her own room. + +"Now," she said, "you stay where you're told to stay +or you'll find yourself locked up. The master had +better get you a governess, same as he said he would. +You're one that needs some one to look sharp after you. +I've got enough to do." + +She went out of the room and slammed the door after her, +and Mary went and sat on the hearth-rug, pale with rage. +She did not cry, but ground her teeth. + +"There was some one crying--there was--there was!" +she said to herself. + +She had heard it twice now, and sometime she would find out. +She had found out a great deal this morning. She felt +as if she had been on a long journey, and at any rate +she had had something to amuse her all the time, and she +had played with the ivory elephants and had seen the gray +mouse and its babies in their nest in the velvet cushion. + + + +CHAPTER VII + +THE KEY TO THE GARDEN + + +Two days after this, when Mary opened her eyes she sat +upright in bed immediately, and called to Martha. + +"Look at the moor! Look at the moor!" + +The rainstorm had ended and the gray mist and clouds +had been swept away in the night by the wind. The wind +itself had ceased and a brilliant, deep blue sky arched +high over the moorland. Never, never had Mary dreamed +of a sky so blue. In India skies were hot and blazing; +this was of a deep cool blue which almost seemed to +sparkle like the waters of some lovely bottomless lake, +and here and there, high, high in the arched blueness +floated small clouds of snow-white fleece. The far-reaching +world of the moor itself looked softly blue instead +of gloomy purple-black or awful dreary gray. + +"Aye," said Martha with a cheerful grin. "Th' storm's +over for a bit. It does like this at this time o' +th' year. It goes off in a night like it was pretendin' +it had never been here an' never meant to come again. +That's because th' springtime's on its way. It's a long +way off yet, but it's comin'." + +"I thought perhaps it always rained or looked dark +in England," Mary said. + +"Eh! no!" said Martha, sitting up on her heels among +her black lead brushes. "Nowt o' th' soart!" + +"What does that mean?" asked Mary seriously. In India +the natives spoke different dialects which only a few +people understood, so she was not surprised when Martha +used words she did not know. + +Martha laughed as she had done the first morning. + +"There now," she said. "I've talked broad Yorkshire again +like Mrs. Medlock said I mustn't. `Nowt o' th' soart' +means `nothin'-of-the-sort,'" slowly and carefully, +"but it takes so long to say it. Yorkshire's th' +sunniest place on earth when it is sunny. I told thee +tha'd like th' moor after a bit. Just you wait till you +see th' gold-colored gorse blossoms an' th' blossoms o' +th' broom, an' th' heather flowerin', all purple bells, an' +hundreds o' butterflies flutterin' an' bees hummin' an' +skylarks soarin' up an' singin'. You'll want to get out on +it as sunrise an' live out on it all day like Dickon does." +"Could I ever get there?" asked Mary wistfully, +looking through her window at the far-off blue. +It was so new and big and wonderful and such a heavenly color. + +"I don't know," answered Martha. "Tha's never used tha' +legs since tha' was born, it seems to me. Tha' couldn't walk +five mile. It's five mile to our cottage." + +"I should like to see your cottage." + +Martha stared at her a moment curiously before she took +up her polishing brush and began to rub the grate again. +She was thinking that the small plain face did not look quite +as sour at this moment as it had done the first morning +she saw it. It looked just a trifle like little Susan +Ann's when she wanted something very much. + +"I'll ask my mother about it," she said. "She's one o' +them that nearly always sees a way to do things. +It's my day out today an' I'm goin' home. Eh! I am glad. +Mrs. Medlock thinks a lot o' mother. Perhaps she could talk +to her." + +"I like your mother," said Mary. + +"I should think tha' did," agreed Martha, polishing away. + +"I've never seen her," said Mary. + +"No, tha' hasn't," replied Martha. + +She sat up on her heels again and rubbed the end of her +nose with the back of her hand as if puzzled for a moment, +but she ended quite positively. + +"Well, she's that sensible an' hard workin' an' goodnatured an' +clean that no one could help likin' her whether they'd +seen her or not. When I'm goin' home to her on my day +out I just jump for joy when I'm crossin' the moor." + +"I like Dickon," added Mary. "And I've never seen him." + +"Well," said Martha stoutly, "I've told thee that th' +very birds likes him an' th' rabbits an' wild sheep an' +ponies, an' th' foxes themselves. I wonder," staring at +her reflectively, "what Dickon would think of thee?" + +"He wouldn't like me," said Mary in her stiff, +cold little way. "No one does." + +Martha looked reflective again. + +"How does tha' like thysel'?" she inquired, really quite +as if she were curious to know. + +Mary hesitated a moment and thought it over. + +"Not at all--really," she answered. "But I never thought +of that before." + +Martha grinned a little as if at some homely recollection. + +"Mother said that to me once," she said. "She was at her +wash-tub an' I was in a bad temper an' talkin' ill of folk, +an' she turns round on me an' says: `Tha' young vixen, +tha'! There tha' stands sayin' tha' doesn't like this one an' +tha' doesn't like that one. How does tha' like thysel'?' +It made me laugh an' it brought me to my senses in a minute." + +She went away in high spirits as soon as she had given +Mary her breakfast. She was going to walk five miles +across the moor to the cottage, and she was going to help +her mother with the washing and do the week's baking +and enjoy herself thoroughly. + +Mary felt lonelier than ever when she knew she was no longer +in the house. She went out into the garden as quickly +as possible, and the first thing she did was to run +round and round the fountain flower garden ten times. +She counted the times carefully and when she had finished +she felt in better spirits. The sunshine made the +whole place look different. The high, deep, blue sky +arched over Misselthwaite as well as over the moor, +and she kept lifting her face and looking up into it, +trying to imagine what it would be like to lie down on +one of the little snow-white clouds and float about. +She went into the first kitchen-garden and found Ben +Weatherstaff working there with two other gardeners. +The change in the weather seemed to have done him good. +He spoke to her of his own accord. "Springtime's comin,'" +he said. "Cannot tha' smell it?" + +Mary sniffed and thought she could. + +"I smell something nice and fresh and damp," she said. + +"That's th' good rich earth," he answered, digging away. +"It's in a good humor makin' ready to grow things. +It's glad when plantin' time comes. It's dull in th' +winter when it's got nowt to do. In th' flower gardens out +there things will be stirrin' down below in th' dark. Th' +sun's warmin' 'em. You'll see bits o' green spikes stickin' +out o' th' black earth after a bit." + +"What will they be?" asked Mary. + +"Crocuses an' snowdrops an' daffydowndillys. Has tha' +never seen them?" + +"No. Everything is hot, and wet, and green after the +rains in India," said Mary. "And I think things grow +up in a night." + +"These won't grow up in a night," said Weatherstaff. +"Tha'll have to wait for 'em. They'll poke up a bit +higher here, an' push out a spike more there, an' uncurl a +leaf this day an' another that. You watch 'em." + +"I am going to," answered Mary. + +Very soon she heard the soft rustling flight of wings +again and she knew at once that the robin had come again. +He was very pert and lively, and hopped about so close +to her feet, and put his head on one side and looked at +her so slyly that she asked Ben Weatherstaff a question. + +"Do you think he remembers me?" she said. + +"Remembers thee!" said Weatherstaff indignantly. +"He knows every cabbage stump in th' gardens, let +alone th' people. He's never seen a little wench +here before, an' he's bent on findin' out all about thee. +Tha's no need to try to hide anything from him." + +"Are things stirring down below in the dark in that garden +where he lives?" Mary inquired. + +"What garden?" grunted Weatherstaff, becoming surly again. + +"The one where the old rose-trees are." She could +not help asking, because she wanted so much to know. +"Are all the flowers dead, or do some of them come again +in the summer? Are there ever any roses?" + +"Ask him," said Ben Weatherstaff, hunching his shoulders +toward the robin. "He's the only one as knows. +No one else has seen inside it for ten year'." + +Ten years was a long time, Mary thought. She had been +born ten years ago. + +She walked away, slowly thinking. She had begun to +like the garden just as she had begun to like the robin +and Dickon and Martha's mother. She was beginning +to like Martha, too. That seemed a good many people +to like--when you were not used to liking. She thought +of the robin as one of the people. She went to her walk +outside the long, ivy-covered wall over which she could +see the tree-tops; and the second time she walked up +and down the most interesting and exciting thing happened +to her, and it was all through Ben Weatherstaff's robin. + +She heard a chirp and a twitter, and when she looked +at the bare flower-bed at her left side there he was +hopping about and pretending to peck things out of the +earth to persuade her that he had not followed her. +But she knew he had followed her and the surprise so filled +her with delight that she almost trembled a little. + +"You do remember me!" she cried out. "You do! You are +prettier than anything else in the world!" + +She chirped, and talked, and coaxed and he hopped, +and flirted his tail and twittered. It was as if he +were talking. His red waistcoat was like satin and he +puffed his tiny breast out and was so fine and so grand +and so pretty that it was really as if he were showing her +how important and like a human person a robin could be. +Mistress Mary forgot that she had ever been contrary +in her life when he allowed her to draw closer and closer +to him, and bend down and talk and try to make something +like robin sounds. + +Oh! to think that he should actually let her come as near +to him as that! He knew nothing in the world would make +her put out her hand toward him or startle him in the +least tiniest way. He knew it because he was a real +person--only nicer than any other person in the world. +She was so happy that she scarcely dared to breathe. + +The flower-bed was not quite bare. It was bare of flowers +because the perennial plants had been cut down for their +winter rest, but there were tall shrubs and low ones which grew +together at the back of the bed, and as the robin hopped +about under them she saw him hop over a small pile of freshly +turned up earth. He stopped on it to look for a worm. +The earth had been turned up because a dog had been trying +to dig up a mole and he had scratched quite a deep hole. + +Mary looked at it, not really knowing why the hole was there, +and as she looked she saw something almost buried in the +newly-turned soil. It was something like a ring of rusty +iron or brass and when the robin flew up into a tree +nearby she put out her hand and picked the ring up. +It was more than a ring, however; it was an old key +which looked as if it had been buried a long time. + +Mistress Mary stood up and looked at it with an almost +frightened face as it hung from her finger. + +"Perhaps it has been buried for ten years," she said +in a whisper. "Perhaps it is the key to the garden!" + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +THE ROBIN WHO SHOWED THE WAY + + +She looked at the key quite a long time. She turned it +over and over, and thought about it. As I have said before, +she was not a child who had been trained to ask permission +or consult her elders about things. All she thought about +the key was that if it was the key to the closed garden, +and she could find out where the door was, she could +perhaps open it and see what was inside the walls, +and what had happened to the old rose-trees. It was because +it had been shut up so long that she wanted to see it. +It seemed as if it must be different from other places +and that something strange must have happened to it +during ten years. Besides that, if she liked it she +could go into it every day and shut the door behind her, +and she could make up some play of her own and play it +quite alone, because nobody would ever know where she was, +but would think the door was still locked and the key +buried in the earth. The thought of that pleased her +very much. + +Living as it were, all by herself in a house with a hundred +mysteriously closed rooms and having nothing whatever +to do to amuse herself, had set her inactive brain +to working and was actually awakening her imagination. +There is no doubt that the fresh, strong, pure air from the +moor had a great deal to do with it. Just as it had given +her an appetite, and fighting with the wind had stirred +her blood, so the same things had stirred her mind. +In India she had always been too hot and languid and weak +to care much about anything, but in this place she +was beginning to care and to want to do new things. +Already she felt less "contrary," though she did not +know why. + +She put the key in her pocket and walked up and down +her walk. No one but herself ever seemed to come there, +so she could walk slowly and look at the wall, or, rather, +at the ivy growing on it. The ivy was the baffling thing. +Howsoever carefully she looked she could see nothing +but thickly growing, glossy, dark green leaves. She was +very much disappointed. Something of her contrariness +came back to her as she paced the walk and looked over it +at the tree-tops inside. It seemed so silly, she said +to herself, to be near it and not be able to get in. +She took the key in her pocket when she went back to +the house, and she made up her mind that she would always +carry it with her when she went out, so that if she ever +should find the hidden door she would be ready. + +Mrs. Medlock had allowed Martha to sleep all night at +the cottage, but she was back at her work in the morning +with cheeks redder than ever and in the best of spirits. + +"I got up at four o'clock," she said. "Eh! it was pretty on th' +moor with th' birds gettin' up an' th' rabbits scamperin' +about an' th' sun risin'. I didn't walk all th' way. A man +gave me a ride in his cart an' I did enjoy myself." + +She was full of stories of the delights of her day out. +Her mother had been glad to see her and they had got the +baking and washing all out of the way. She had even made +each of the children a doughcake with a bit of brown sugar +in it. + +"I had 'em all pipin' hot when they came in from playin' +on th' moor. An' th' cottage all smelt o' nice, clean hot bakin' +an' there was a good fire, an' they just shouted for joy. +Our Dickon he said our cottage was good enough for a king." + +In the evening they had all sat round the fire, +and Martha and her mother had sewed patches on torn +clothes and mended stockings and Martha had told them +about the little girl who had come from India and who had +been waited on all her life by what Martha called "blacks" +until she didn't know how to put on her own stockings. + +"Eh! they did like to hear about you," said Martha. +"They wanted to know all about th' blacks an' about th' +ship you came in. I couldn't tell 'em enough." + +Mary reflected a little. + +"I'll tell you a great deal more before your next day out," +she said, "so that you will have more to talk about. +I dare say they would like to hear about riding on elephants +and camels, and about the officers going to hunt tigers." + +"My word!" cried delighted Martha. "It would set 'em +clean off their heads. Would tha' really do that, +Miss? It would be same as a wild beast show like we heard +they had in York once." + +"India is quite different from Yorkshire," Mary said slowly, +as she thought the matter over. "I never thought of that. +Did Dickon and your mother like to hear you talk about me?" + +"Why, our Dickon's eyes nearly started out o' his head, +they got that round," answered Martha. "But mother, she was +put out about your seemin' to be all by yourself like. +She said, 'Hasn't Mr. Craven got no governess for her, +nor no nurse?' and I said, 'No, he hasn't, though Mrs. Medlock +says he will when he thinks of it, but she says he mayn't +think of it for two or three years.'" + +"I don't want a governess," said Mary sharply. + +"But mother says you ought to be learnin' your book by this time +an' +you ought to have a woman to look after you, an' she says: +`Now, Martha, you just think how you'd feel yourself, in a big +place like that, wanderin' about all alone, an' no mother. +You do your best to cheer her up,' she says, an' I said I would." + +Mary gave her a long, steady look. + +"You do cheer me up," she said. "I like to hear you talk." + +Presently Martha went out of the room and came back +with something held in her hands under her apron. + +"What does tha' think," she said, with a cheerful grin. +"I've brought thee a present." + +"A present!" exclaimed Mistress Mary. How could a cottage +full of fourteen hungry people give any one a present! + +"A man was drivin' across the moor peddlin'," Martha explained. +"An' he stopped his cart at our door. He had pots an' +pans an' odds an' ends, but mother had no money to buy +anythin'. Just as he was goin' away our 'Lizabeth Ellen +called out, `Mother, he's got skippin'-ropes with red an' +blue handles.' An' mother she calls out quite sudden, +`Here, stop, mister! How much are they?' An' he says +`Tuppence', an' mother she began fumblin' in her pocket an' +she says to me, `Martha, tha's brought me thy wages like +a good lass, an' I've got four places to put every penny, +but I'm just goin' to take tuppence out of it to buy +that child a skippin'-rope,' an' she bought one an' +here it is." + +She brought it out from under her apron and exhibited +it quite proudly. It was a strong, slender rope +with a striped red and blue handle at each end, +but Mary Lennox had never seen a skipping-rope before. +She gazed at it with a mystified expression. + +"What is it for?" she asked curiously. + +"For!" cried out Martha. "Does tha' mean that they've not +got skippin'-ropes in India, for all they've got elephants +and tigers and camels! No wonder most of 'em's black. +This is what it's for; just watch me." + +And she ran into the middle of the room and, taking a +handle in each hand, began to skip, and skip, and skip, +while Mary turned in her chair to stare at her, and the +queer faces in the old portraits seemed to stare at her, +too, and wonder what on earth this common little cottager +had the impudence to be doing under their very noses. +But Martha did not even see them. The interest and curiosity +in Mistress Mary's face delighted her, and she went on skipping +and counted as she skipped until she had reached a hundred. + +"I could skip longer than that," she said when she stopped. +"I've skipped as much as five hundred when I was twelve, +but I wasn't as fat then as I am now, an' I was in practice." + +Mary got up from her chair beginning to feel excited herself. + +"It looks nice," she said. "Your mother is a kind woman. +Do you think I could ever skip like that?" + +"You just try it," urged Martha, handing her the skipping-rope. +"You can't skip a hundred at first, but if you practice +you'll mount up. That's what mother said. She says, +`Nothin' will do her more good than skippin' rope. It's th' +sensiblest toy a child can have. Let her play out in th' +fresh air skippin' an' it'll stretch her legs an' arms an' +give her some strength in 'em.'" + +It was plain that there was not a great deal of strength +in Mistress Mary's arms and legs when she first began +to skip. She was not very clever at it, but she liked +it so much that she did not want to stop. + +"Put on tha' things and run an' skip out o' doors," +said Martha. "Mother said I must tell you to keep out o' +doors as much as you could, even when it rains a bit, +so as tha' wrap up warm." + +Mary put on her coat and hat and took her skipping-rope +over her arm. She opened the door to go out, and then +suddenly thought of something and turned back rather slowly. + +"Martha," she said, "they were your wages. It was your +two-pence really. Thank you." She said it stiffly +because she was not used to thanking people or noticing +that they did things for her. "Thank you," she said, +and held out her hand because she did not know what else +to do. + +Martha gave her hand a clumsy little shake, as if she +was not accustomed to this sort of thing either. +Then she laughed. + +"Eh! th' art a queer, old-womanish thing," she said. +"If tha'd been our 'Lizabeth Ellen tha'd have given me +a kiss." + +Mary looked stiffer than ever. + +"Do you want me to kiss you?" + +Martha laughed again. + +"Nay, not me," she answered. "If tha' was different, +p'raps tha'd want to thysel'. But tha' isn't. Run off +outside an' play with thy rope." + +Mistress Mary felt a little awkward as she went out of +the room. Yorkshire people seemed strange, and Martha was +always rather a puzzle to her. At first she had disliked +her very much, but now she did not. The skipping-rope +was a wonderful thing. She counted and skipped, +and skipped and counted, until her cheeks were quite red, +and she was more interested than she had ever been since +she was born. The sun was shining and a little wind was +blowing--not a rough wind, but one which came in delightful +little gusts and brought a fresh scent of newly turned +earth with it. She skipped round the fountain garden, +and up one walk and down another. She skipped at last +into the kitchen-garden and saw Ben Weatherstaff digging +and talking to his robin, which was hopping about him. +She skipped down the walk toward him and he lifted +his head and looked at her with a curious expression. +She had wondered if he would notice her. She wanted him +to see her skip. + +"Well!" he exclaimed. "Upon my word. P'raps tha' +art a young 'un, after all, an' p'raps tha's got +child's blood in thy veins instead of sour buttermilk. +Tha's skipped red into thy cheeks as sure as my name's +Ben Weatherstaff. I wouldn't have believed tha' +could do it." + +"I never skipped before," Mary said. "I'm just beginning. +I can only go up to twenty." + +"Tha' keep on," said Ben. "Tha' shapes well enough at it +for a young 'un that's lived with heathen. Just see how +he's watchin' thee," jerking his head toward the robin. +"He followed after thee yesterday. He'll be at it again today. +He'll be bound to find out what th' skippin'-rope is. +He's never seen one. Eh!" shaking his head at the bird, +"tha' curiosity will be th' death of thee sometime if tha' +doesn't look sharp." + +Mary skipped round all the gardens and round the orchard, +resting every few minutes. At length she went to her +own special walk and made up her mind to try if she +could skip the whole length of it. It was a good long +skip and she began slowly, but before she had gone +half-way down the path she was so hot and breathless +that she was obliged to stop. She did not mind much, +because she had already counted up to thirty. +She stopped with a little laugh of pleasure, and there, +lo and behold, was the robin swaying on a long branch of ivy. +He had followed her and he greeted her with a chirp. +As Mary had skipped toward him she felt something heavy +in her pocket strike against her at each jump, and when she +saw the robin she laughed again. + +"You showed me where the key was yesterday," she said. +"You ought to show me the door today; but I don't believe +you know!" + +The robin flew from his swinging spray of ivy on to the +top of the wall and he opened his beak and sang a loud, +lovely trill, merely to show off. Nothing in the world +is quite as adorably lovely as a robin when he shows +off--and they are nearly always doing it. + +Mary Lennox had heard a great deal about Magic in her +Ayah's stories, and she always said that what happened +almost at that moment was Magic. + +One of the nice little gusts of wind rushed down +the walk, and it was a stronger one than the rest. +It was strong enough to wave the branches of the trees, +and it was more than strong enough to sway the trailing +sprays of untrimmed ivy hanging from the wall. Mary had +stepped close to the robin, and suddenly the gust of wind +swung aside some loose ivy trails, and more suddenly +still she jumped toward it and caught it in her hand. +This she did because she had seen something under it--a round +knob which had been covered by the leaves hanging over it. +It was the knob of a door. + +She put her hands under the leaves and began to pull +and push them aside. Thick as the ivy hung, it nearly +all was a loose and swinging curtain, though some had crept +over wood and iron. Mary's heart began to thump and her +hands to shake a little in her delight and excitement. +The robin kept singing and twittering away and tilting +his head on one side, as if he were as excited as she was. +What was this under her hands which was square and made +of iron and which her fingers found a hole in? + +It was the lock of the door which had been closed ten +years and she put her hand in her pocket, drew out the key +and found it fitted the keyhole. She put the key in and +turned it. It took two hands to do it, but it did turn. + +And then she took a long breath and looked behind +her up the long walk to see if any one was coming. +No one was coming. No one ever did come, it seemed, +and she took another long breath, because she could not +help it, and she held back the swinging curtain of ivy +and pushed back the door which opened slowly--slowly. + +Then she slipped through it, and shut it behind her, +and stood with her back against it, looking about her +and breathing quite fast with excitement, and wonder, +and delight. + +She was standing inside the secret garden. + + + +CHAPTER IX + +THE STRANGEST HOUSE ANY ONE EVER LIVED IN + + +It was the sweetest, most mysterious-looking place +any one could imagine. The high walls which shut it +in were covered with the leafless stems of climbing roses +which were so thick that they were matted together. +Mary Lennox knew they were roses because she had seen +a great many roses in India. All the ground was covered +with grass of a wintry brown and out of it grew clumps +of bushes which were surely rosebushes if they were alive. +There were numbers of standard roses which had so spread +their branches that they were like little trees. +There were other trees in the garden, and one of the +things which made the place look strangest and loveliest +was that climbing roses had run all over them and swung +down long tendrils which made light swaying curtains, +and here and there they had caught at each other or +at a far-reaching branch and had crept from one tree +to another and made lovely bridges of themselves. +There were neither leaves nor roses on them now and Mary +did not know whether they were dead or alive, but their +thin gray or brown branches and sprays looked like a sort +of hazy mantle spreading over everything, walls, and trees, +and even brown grass, where they had fallen from their +fastenings and run along the ground. It was this hazy tangle +from tree to tree which made it all look so mysterious. +Mary had thought it must be different from other gardens +which had not been left all by themselves so long; +and indeed it was different from any other place she had +ever seen in her life. + +"How still it is!" she whispered. "How still!" + +Then she waited a moment and listened at the stillness. +The robin, who had flown to his treetop, was still +as all the rest. He did not even flutter his wings; +he sat without stirring, and looked at Mary. + +"No wonder it is still," she whispered again. "I am +the first person who has spoken in here for ten years." + +She moved away from the door, stepping as softly as if she +were afraid of awakening some one. She was glad that there +was grass under her feet and that her steps made no sounds. +She walked under one of the fairy-like gray arches +between the trees and looked up at the sprays and tendrils +which formed them. "I wonder if they are all quite dead," +she said. "Is it all a quite dead garden? I wish it wasn't." + +If she had been Ben Weatherstaff she could have told +whether the wood was alive by looking at it, but she +could only see that there were only gray or brown sprays +and branches and none showed any signs of even a tiny +leaf-bud anywhere. + +But she was inside the wonderful garden and she could +come through the door under the ivy any time and she +felt as if she had found a world all her own. + +The sun was shining inside the four walls and the high arch +of blue sky over this particular piece of Misselthwaite +seemed even more brilliant and soft than it was over +the moor. The robin flew down from his tree-top and +hopped about or flew after her from one bush to another. +He chirped a good deal and had a very busy air, as if he +were showing her things. Everything was strange and +silent and she seemed to be hundreds of miles away from +any one, but somehow she did not feel lonely at all. +All that troubled her was her wish that she knew whether +all the roses were dead, or if perhaps some of them had +lived and might put out leaves and buds as the weather +got warmer. She did not want it to be a quite dead garden. +If it were a quite alive garden, how wonderful it would be, +and what thousands of roses would grow on every side! + +Her skipping-rope had hung over her arm when she came +in and after she had walked about for a while she thought +she would skip round the whole garden, stopping when she +wanted to look at things. There seemed to have been +grass paths here and there, and in one or two corners +there were alcoves of evergreen with stone seats or tall +moss-covered flower urns in them. + +As she came near the second of these alcoves she +stopped skipping. There had once been a flowerbed in it, +and she thought she saw something sticking out of the +black earth--some sharp little pale green points. +She remembered what Ben Weatherstaff had said and she +knelt down to look at them. + +"Yes, they are tiny growing things and they might be +crocuses or snowdrops or daffodils," she whispered. + +She bent very close to them and sniffed the fresh scent +of the damp earth. She liked it very much. + +"Perhaps there are some other ones coming up in other places," +she said. "I will go all over the garden and look." + +She did not skip, but walked. She went slowly and kept +her eyes on the ground. She looked in the old border +beds and among the grass, and after she had gone round, +trying to miss nothing, she had found ever so many more sharp, +pale green points, and she had become quite excited again. + +"It isn't a quite dead garden," she cried out softly to herself. +"Even if the roses are dead, there are other things alive." + +She did not know anything about gardening, but the grass +seemed so thick in some of the places where the green +points were pushing their way through that she thought +they did not seem to have room enough to grow. +She searched about until she found a rather sharp piece +of wood and knelt down and dug and weeded out the weeds +and grass until she made nice little clear places around them. + +"Now they look as if they could breathe," she said, +after she had finished with the first ones. "I am +going to do ever so many more. I'll do all I can see. +If I haven't time today I can come tomorrow." + +She went from place to place, and dug and weeded, +and enjoyed herself so immensely that she was led on +from bed to bed and into the grass under the trees. +The exercise made her so warm that she first threw her +coat off, and then her hat, and without knowing it she +was smiling down on to the grass and the pale green points +all the time. + +The robin was tremendously busy. He was very much +pleased to see gardening begun on his own estate. +He had often wondered at Ben Weatherstaff. Where gardening +is done all sorts of delightful things to eat are turned +up with the soil. Now here was this new kind of creature +who was not half Ben's size and yet had had the sense +to come into his garden and begin at once. + +Mistress Mary worked in her garden until it was time +to go to her midday dinner. In fact, she was rather +late in remembering, and when she put on her coat +and hat, and picked up her skipping-rope, she could not +believe that she had been working two or three hours. +She had been actually happy all the time; and dozens +and dozens of the tiny, pale green points were to be seen +in cleared places, looking twice as cheerful as they had +looked before when the grass and weeds had been smothering them. + +"I shall come back this afternoon," she said, looking all +round at her new kingdom, and speaking to the trees +and the rose-bushes as if they heard her. + +Then she ran lightly across the grass, pushed open +the slow old door and slipped through it under the ivy. +She had such red cheeks and such bright eyes and ate such +a dinner that Martha was delighted. + +"Two pieces o' meat an' two helps o' rice puddin'!" she said. +"Eh! mother will be pleased when I tell her what th' +skippin'-rope's done for thee." + +In the course of her digging with her pointed stick +Mistress Mary had found herself digging up a sort of white +root rather like an onion. She had put it back in its +place and patted the earth carefully down on it and just +now she wondered if Martha could tell her what it was. + +"Martha," she said, "what are those white roots that look +like onions?" + +"They're bulbs," answered Martha. "Lots o' spring flowers +grow from 'em. Th' very little ones are snowdrops an' +crocuses an' th' big ones are narcissuses an' jonquils +and daffydowndillys. Th' biggest of all is lilies an' +purple flags. Eh! they are nice. Dickon's got a whole +lot of 'em planted in our bit o' garden." + +"Does Dickon know all about them?" asked Mary, a new idea +taking possession of her. + +"Our Dickon can make a flower grow out of a brick walk. +Mother says he just whispers things out o' th' ground." + +"Do bulbs live a long time? Would they live years and +years if no one helped them?" inquired Mary anxiously. + +"They're things as helps themselves," said Martha. "That's why +poor folk can afford to have 'em. If you don't trouble 'em, +most of 'em'll work away underground for a lifetime an' +spread out an' have little 'uns. There's a place in th' +park woods here where there's snowdrops by thousands. +They're the prettiest sight in Yorkshire when th' +spring comes. No one knows when they was first planted." + +"I wish the spring was here now," said Mary. "I want +to see all the things that grow in England." + +She had finished her dinner and gone to her favorite seat +on the hearth-rug. + +"I wish--I wish I had a little spade," she said. +"Whatever does tha' want a spade for?" asked Martha, laughing. +"Art tha' goin' to take to diggin'? I must tell mother that, +too." + +Mary looked at the fire and pondered a little. She must +be careful if she meant to keep her secret kingdom. +She wasn't doing any harm, but if Mr. Craven found out +about the open door he would be fearfully angry and get +a new key and lock it up forevermore. She really could +not bear that. + +"This is such a big lonely place," she said slowly, as if she +were turning matters over in her mind. "The house is lonely, +and the park is lonely, and the gardens are lonely. +So many places seem shut up. I never did many things +in India, but there were more people to look at--natives +and soldiers marching by--and sometimes bands playing, +and my Ayah told me stories. There is no one to talk to +here except you and Ben Weatherstaff. And you have to do +your work and Ben Weatherstaff won't speak to me often. +I thought if I had a little spade I could dig somewhere +as he does, and I might make a little garden if he would +give me some seeds." + +Martha's face quite lighted up. + +"There now!" she exclaimed, "if that wasn't one of th' +things mother said. She says, `There's such a lot o' +room in that big place, why don't they give her a +bit for herself, even if she doesn't plant nothin' +but parsley an' radishes? She'd dig an' rake away an' +be right down happy over it.' Them was the very words +she said." + +"Were they?" said Mary. "How many things she knows, +doesn't she?" + +"Eh!" said Martha. "It's like she says: `A woman as +brings up twelve children learns something besides her A +B C. Children's as good as 'rithmetic to set you findin' +out things.'" + +"How much would a spade cost--a little one?" Mary asked. + +"Well," was Martha's reflective answer, "at Thwaite +village there's a shop or so an' I saw little garden sets +with a spade an' a rake an' a fork all tied together for +two shillings. An' they was stout enough to work with, too." + +"I've got more than that in my purse," said Mary. +"Mrs. Morrison gave me five shillings and Mrs. Medlock +gave me some money from Mr. Craven." + +"Did he remember thee that much?" exclaimed Martha. + +"Mrs. Medlock said I was to have a shilling a week to spend. +She gives me one every Saturday. I didn't know what to +spend it on." + +"My word! that's riches," said Martha. "Tha' can buy +anything in th' world tha' wants. Th' rent of our +cottage is only one an' threepence an' it's like pullin' +eye-teeth to get it. Now I've just thought of somethin'," +putting her hands on her hips. + +"What?" said Mary eagerly. + +"In the shop at Thwaite they sell packages o' +flower-seeds for a penny each, and our Dickon he knows +which is th' prettiest ones an, how to make 'em grow. +He walks over to Thwaite many a day just for th' fun of it. +Does tha' know how to print letters?" suddenly. + +"I know how to write," Mary answered. + +Martha shook her head. + +"Our Dickon can only read printin'. If tha' could print we +could write a letter to him an' ask him to go an' buy th' +garden tools an' th' seeds at th' same time." + +"Oh! you're a good girl!" Mary cried. "You are, really! I +didn't know you were so nice. I know I can print letters +if I try. Let's ask Mrs. Medlock for a pen and ink and some +paper." + +"I've got some of my own," said Martha. "I bought 'em +so I could print a bit of a letter to mother of a Sunday. +I'll go and get it." She ran out of the room, and Mary stood +by the fire and twisted her thin little hands together +with sheer pleasure. + +"If I have a spade," she whispered, "I can make the earth +nice and soft and dig up weeds. If I have seeds and can +make flowers grow the garden won't be dead at all--it +will come alive." + +She did not go out again that afternoon because when Martha +returned with her pen and ink and paper she was obliged +to clear the table and carry the plates and dishes +downstairs and when she got into the kitchen Mrs. Medlock +was there and told her to do something, so Mary waited +for what seemed to her a long time before she came back. +Then it was a serious piece of work to write to Dickon. +Mary had been taught very little because her governesses +had disliked her too much to stay with her. She could +not spell particularly well but she found that she could +print letters when she tried. This was the letter Martha +dictated to her: "My Dear Dickon: + +This comes hoping to find you well as it leaves me at present. +Miss Mary has plenty of money and will you go to Thwaite +and buy her some flower seeds and a set of garden tools +to make a flower-bed. Pick the prettiest ones and easy +to grow because she has never done it before and lived +in India which is different. Give my love to mother +and every one of you. Miss Mary is going to tell me a lot +more so that on my next day out you can hear about elephants +and camels and gentlemen going hunting lions and tigers. + + "Your loving sister, + Martha Phoebe Sowerby." + +"We'll put the money in th' envelope an' I'll get th' +butcher boy to take it in his cart. He's a great +friend o' Dickon's," said Martha. + +"How shall I get the things when Dickon buys them?" + +"He'll bring 'em to you himself. He'll like to walk +over this way." + +"Oh!" exclaimed Mary, "then I shall see him! I never +thought I should see Dickon." + +"Does tha' want to see him?" asked Martha suddenly, +for Mary had looked so pleased. + +"Yes, I do. I never saw a boy foxes and crows loved. +I want to see him very much." + +Martha gave a little start, as if she remembered something. +"Now to think," she broke out, "to think o' me forgettin' +that there; an' I thought I was goin' to tell you first +thing this mornin'. I asked mother--and she said she'd ask +Mrs. Medlock her own self." + +"Do you mean--" Mary began. + +"What I said Tuesday. Ask her if you might be driven over +to our cottage some day and have a bit o' mother's hot +oat cake, an' butter, an' a glass o' milk." + +It seemed as if all the interesting things were happening +in one day. To think of going over the moor in the +daylight and when the sky was blue! To think of going +into the cottage which held twelve children! + +"Does she think Mrs. Medlock would let me go?" she asked, +quite anxiously. + +"Aye, she thinks she would. She knows what a tidy woman +mother is and how clean she keeps the cottage." + +"If I went I should see your mother as well as Dickon," +said Mary, thinking it over and liking the idea very much. +"She doesn't seem to be like the mothers in India." + +Her work in the garden and the excitement of the afternoon +ended by making her feel quiet and thoughtful. Martha stayed +with her until tea-time, but they sat in comfortable +quiet and talked very little. But just before Martha +went downstairs for the tea-tray, Mary asked a question. + +"Martha," she said, "has the scullery-maid had the +toothache again today?" + +Martha certainly started slightly. + +"What makes thee ask that?" she said. + +"Because when I waited so long for you to come back I +opened the door and walked down the corridor to see if you +were coming. And I heard that far-off crying again, +just as we heard it the other night. There isn't +a wind today, so you see it couldn't have been the wind." + +"Eh!" said Martha restlessly. "Tha' mustn't go walkin' +about in corridors an' listenin'. Mr. Craven would be +that there angry there's no knowin' what he'd do." + +"I wasn't listening," said Mary. "I was just waiting +for you--and I heard it. That's three times." + +"My word! There's Mrs. Medlock's bell," said Martha, +and she almost ran out of the room. + +"It's the strangest house any one ever lived in," +said Mary drowsily, as she dropped her head on the cushioned +seat of the armchair near her. Fresh air, and digging, +and skipping-rope had made her feel so comfortably tired +that she fell asleep. + + + +CHAPTER X + +DICKON + + +The sun shone down for nearly a week on the secret garden. +The Secret Garden was what Mary called it when she was +thinking of it. She liked the name, and she liked still +more the feeling that when its beautiful old walls shut +her in no one knew where she was. It seemed almost like +being shut out of the world in some fairy place. The few +books she had read and liked had been fairy-story books, +and she had read of secret gardens in some of the stories. +Sometimes people went to sleep in them for a hundred years, +which she had thought must be rather stupid. She had no +intention of going to sleep, and, in fact, she was becoming +wider awake every day which passed at Misselthwaite. +She was beginning to like to be out of doors; she no longer +hated the wind, but enjoyed it. She could run faster, +and longer, and she could skip up to a hundred. The bulbs +in the secret garden must have been much astonished. +Such nice clear places were made round them that they +had all the breathing space they wanted, and really, +if Mistress Mary had known it, they began to cheer up +under the dark earth and work tremendously. The sun could +get at them and warm them, and when the rain came down +it could reach them at once, so they began to feel very +much alive. + +Mary was an odd, determined little person, and now she +had something interesting to be determined about, +she was very much absorbed, indeed. She worked and dug +and pulled up weeds steadily, only becoming more pleased +with her work every hour instead of tiring of it. +It seemed to her like a fascinating sort of play. +She found many more of the sprouting pale green points than +she had ever hoped to find. They seemed to be starting up +everywhere and each day she was sure she found tiny new ones, +some so tiny that they barely peeped above the earth. +There were so many that she remembered what Martha had +said about the "snowdrops by the thousands," and about +bulbs spreading and making new ones. These had been left +to themselves for ten years and perhaps they had spread, +like the snowdrops, into thousands. She wondered how long +it would be before they showed that they were flowers. +Sometimes she stopped digging to look at the garden and +try to imagine what it would be like when it was covered +with thousands of lovely things in bloom. During that week +of sunshine, she became more intimate with Ben Weatherstaff. +She surprised him several times by seeming to start +up beside him as if she sprang out of the earth. +The truth was that she was afraid that he would pick up +his tools and go away if he saw her coming, so she always +walked toward him as silently as possible. But, in fact, +he did not object to her as strongly as he had at first. +Perhaps he was secretly rather flattered by her evident +desire for his elderly company. Then, also, she was more +civil than she had been. He did not know that when she +first saw him she spoke to him as she would have spoken +to a native, and had not known that a cross, sturdy old +Yorkshire man was not accustomed to salaam to his masters, +and be merely commanded by them to do things. + +"Tha'rt like th' robin," he said to her one morning +when he lifted his head and saw her standing by him. +"I never knows when I shall see thee or which side tha'll +come from." + +"He's friends with me now," said Mary. + +"That's like him," snapped Ben Weatherstaff. "Makin' up +to th' women folk just for vanity an' flightiness. +There's nothin' he wouldn't do for th' sake o' showin' +off an' flirtin' his tail-feathers. He's as full o' +pride as an egg's full o' meat." + +He very seldom talked much and sometimes did not even answer +Mary's questions except by a grunt, but this morning he +said more than usual. He stood up and rested one hobnailed +boot on the top of his spade while he looked her over. + +"How long has tha' been here?" he jerked out. + +"I think it's about a month," she answered. + +"Tha's beginnin' to do Misselthwaite credit," he said. +"Tha's a bit fatter than tha' was an' tha's not quite +so yeller. Tha' looked like a young plucked crow when tha' +first came into this garden. Thinks I to myself I never set +eyes on an uglier, sourer faced young 'un." + +Mary was not vain and as she had never thought much +of her looks she was not greatly disturbed. + +"I know I'm fatter," she said. "My stockings +are getting tighter. They used to make wrinkles. +There's the robin, Ben Weatherstaff." + +There, indeed, was the robin, and she thought he looked +nicer than ever. His red waistcoat was as glossy as satin +and he flirted his wings and tail and tilted his head +and hopped about with all sorts of lively graces. +He seemed determined to make Ben Weatherstaff admire him. +But Ben was sarcastic. + +"Aye, there tha' art!" he said. "Tha' can put up with +me for a bit sometimes when tha's got no one better. +Tha's been reddenin' up thy waistcoat an' polishin' +thy feathers this two weeks. I know what tha's up to. +Tha's courtin' some bold young madam somewhere tellin' +thy lies to her about bein' th' finest cock robin on Missel +Moor an' ready to fight all th' rest of 'em." + +"Oh! look at him!" exclaimed Mary. + +The robin was evidently in a fascinating, bold mood. +He hopped closer and closer and looked at Ben Weatherstaff +more and more engagingly. He flew on to the nearest +currant bush and tilted his head and sang a little song +right at him. + +"Tha' thinks tha'll get over me by doin' that," said Ben, +wrinkling his face up in such a way that Mary felt sure he +was trying not to look pleased. "Tha' thinks no one can +stand out against thee--that's what tha' thinks." + +The robin spread his wings--Mary could scarcely believe +her eyes. He flew right up to the handle of Ben +Weatherstaff's spade and alighted on the top of it. +Then the old man's face wrinkled itself slowly into +a new expression. He stood still as if he were afraid +to breathe--as if he would not have stirred for the world, +lest his robin should start away. He spoke quite in a whisper. + +"Well, I'm danged!" he said as softly as if he were saying +something quite different. "Tha' does know how to get at +a chap--tha' does! Tha's fair unearthly, tha's so knowin'." + +And he stood without stirring--almost without drawing +his breath--until the robin gave another flirt to his +wings and flew away. Then he stood looking at the handle +of the spade as if there might be Magic in it, and then +he began to dig again and said nothing for several minutes. + +But because he kept breaking into a slow grin now and then, +Mary was not afraid to talk to him. + +"Have you a garden of your own?" she asked. + +"No. I'm bachelder an' lodge with Martin at th' gate." + +"If you had one," said Mary, "what would you plant?" + +"Cabbages an' 'taters an' onions." + +"But if you wanted to make a flower garden," persisted Mary, +"what would you plant?" + +"Bulbs an' sweet-smellin' things--but mostly roses." + +Mary's face lighted up. + +"Do you like roses?" she said. + +Ben Weatherstaff rooted up a weed and threw it aside +before he answered. + +"Well, yes, I do. I was learned that by a young lady I +was gardener to. She had a lot in a place she was fond +of, an' she loved 'em like they was children--or robins. +I've seen her bend over an' kiss 'em." He dragged out another +weed and scowled at it. "That were as much as ten year' ago." + +"Where is she now?" asked Mary, much interested. + +"Heaven," he answered, and drove his spade deep into +the soil, "'cording to what parson says." + +"What happened to the roses?" Mary asked again, +more interested than ever. + +"They was left to themselves." + +Mary was becoming quite excited. + +"Did they quite die? Do roses quite die when they are +left to themselves?" she ventured. + +"Well, I'd got to like 'em--an' I liked her--an' +she liked 'em," Ben Weatherstaff admitted reluctantly. +"Once or twice a year I'd go an' work at 'em a bit--prune +'em an' dig about th' roots. They run wild, but they was +in rich soil, so some of 'em lived." + +"When they have no leaves and look gray and brown and dry, +how can you tell whether they are dead or alive?" +inquired Mary. + +"Wait till th' spring gets at 'em--wait till th' sun shines +on th' rain and th' rain falls on th' sunshine an' +then tha'll find out." + +"How--how?" cried Mary, forgetting to be careful. +"Look along th' twigs an' branches an' if tha' see a bit +of a brown lump swelling here an' there, watch it after th' +warm rain an' see what happens." He stopped suddenly +and looked curiously at her eager face. "Why does tha' +care so much about roses an' such, all of a sudden?" +he demanded. + +Mistress Mary felt her face grow red. She was almost +afraid to answer. + +"I--I want to play that--that I have a garden of my own," +she stammered. "I--there is nothing for me to do. +I have nothing--and no one." + +"Well," said Ben Weatherstaff slowly, as he watched her, +"that's true. Tha' hasn't." + +He said it in such an odd way that Mary wondered if he +was actually a little sorry for her. She had never felt +sorry for herself; she had only felt tired and cross, +because she disliked people and things so much. +But now the world seemed to be changing and getting nicer. +If no one found out about the secret garden, she should +enjoy herself always. + +She stayed with him for ten or fifteen minutes longer and +asked him as many questions as she dared. He answered every +one of them in his queer grunting way and he did not seem +really cross and did not pick up his spade and leave her. +He said something about roses just as she was going away +and it reminded her of the ones he had said he had been +fond of. + +"Do you go and see those other roses now?" she asked. + +"Not been this year. My rheumatics has made me too stiff +in th' joints." + +He said it in his grumbling voice, and then quite suddenly +he seemed to get angry with her, though she did not see +why he should. + +"Now look here!" he said sharply. "Don't tha' +ask so many questions. Tha'rt th' worst wench for askin' +questions I've ever come a cross. Get thee gone an' +play thee. I've done talkin' for today." + +And he said it so crossly that she knew there was not +the least use in staying another minute. She went +skipping slowly down the outside walk, thinking him over +and saying to herself that, queer as it was, here was +another person whom she liked in spite of his crossness. +She liked old Ben Weatherstaff. Yes, she did like him. +She always wanted to try to make him talk to her. +Also she began to believe that he knew everything in the +world about flowers. + +There was a laurel-hedged walk which curved round the secret +garden and ended at a gate which opened into a wood, +in the park. She thought she would slip round this walk +and look into the wood and see if there were any rabbits +hopping about. She enjoyed the skipping very much and +when she reached the little gate she opened it and went +through because she heard a low, peculiar whistling +sound and wanted to find out what it was. + +It was a very strange thing indeed. She quite caught her +breath as she stopped to look at it. A boy was sitting +under a tree, with his back against it, playing on a rough +wooden pipe. He was a funny looking boy about twelve. +He looked very clean and his nose turned up and his +cheeks were as red as poppies and never had Mistress Mary +seen such round and such blue eyes in any boy's face. +And on the trunk of the tree he leaned against, a brown +squirrel was clinging and watching him, and from behind +a bush nearby a cock pheasant was delicately stretching +his neck to peep out, and quite near him were two rabbits +sitting up and sniffing with tremulous noses--and actually +it appeared as if they were all drawing near to watch him +and listen to the strange low little call his pipe seemed +to make. + +When he saw Mary he held up his hand and spoke to her +in a voice almost as low as and rather like his piping. + +"Don't tha' move," he said. "It'd flight 'em." Mary +remained motionless. He stopped playing his pipe and began +to rise from the ground. He moved so slowly that it scarcely +seemed as though he were moving at all, but at last he +stood on his feet and then the squirrel scampered back +up into the branches of his tree, the pheasant withdrew +his head and the rabbits dropped on all fours and began +to hop away, though not at all as if they were frightened. + +"I'm Dickon," the boy said. "I know tha'rt Miss Mary." + +Then Mary realized that somehow she had known at first that +he was Dickon. Who else could have been charming rabbits +and pheasants as the natives charm snakes in India? He had +a wide, red, curving mouth and his smile spread all over his +face. + +"I got up slow," he explained, "because if tha' makes a +quick move it startles 'em. A body 'as to move gentle an' +speak low when wild things is about." + +He did not speak to her as if they had never seen +each other before but as if he knew her quite well. +Mary knew nothing about boys and she spoke to him a little +stiffly because she felt rather shy. + +"Did you get Martha's letter?" she asked. + +He nodded his curly, rust-colored head. "That's why +I come." + +He stooped to pick up something which had been lying +on the ground beside him when he piped. + +"I've got th' garden tools. There's a little spade an' +rake an' a fork an' hoe. Eh! they are good 'uns. There's +a trowel, too. An' th' woman in th' shop threw in a packet o' +white poppy an' one o' blue larkspur when I bought th' +other seeds." + +"Will you show the seeds to me?" Mary said. + +She wished she could talk as he did. His speech +was so quick and easy. It sounded as if he liked her +and was not the least afraid she would not like him, +though he was only a common moor boy, in patched clothes +and with a funny face and a rough, rusty-red head. +As she came closer to him she noticed that there was a clean +fresh scent of heather and grass and leaves about him, +almost as if he were made of them. She liked it very much +and when she looked into his funny face with the red +cheeks and round blue eyes she forgot that she had felt shy. + +"Let us sit down on this log and look at them," she said. + +They sat down and he took a clumsy little brown paper +package out of his coat pocket. He untied the string +and inside there were ever so many neater and smaller +packages with a picture of a flower on each one. + +"There's a lot o' mignonette an' poppies," he said. +"Mignonette's th' sweetest smellin' thing as grows, an' +it'll grow wherever you cast it, same as poppies will. +Them as'll come up an' bloom if you just whistle to 'em, +them's th' nicest of all." He stopped and turned his +head quickly, his poppy-cheeked face lighting up. + +"Where's that robin as is callin' us?" he said. + +The chirp came from a thick holly bush, bright with +scarlet berries, and Mary thought she knew whose it was. + +"Is it really calling us?" she asked. + +"Aye," said Dickon, as if it was the most natural thing +in the world, "he's callin' some one he's friends with. +That's same as sayin' `Here I am. Look at me. +I wants a bit of a chat.' There he is in the bush. +Whose is he?" + +"He's Ben Weatherstaff's, but I think he knows me a little," +answered Mary. + +"Aye, he knows thee," said Dickon in his low voice again. +"An' he likes thee. He's took thee on. He'll tell me all +about thee in a minute." + +He moved quite close to the bush with the slow movement Mary +had noticed before, and then he made a sound almost like +the robin's own twitter. The robin listened a few seconds, +intently, and then answered quite as if he were replying to a +question. + +"Aye, he's a friend o' yours," chuckled Dickon. + +"Do you think he is?" cried Mary eagerly. She did so want +to know. "Do you think he really likes me?" + +"He wouldn't come near thee if he didn't," answered Dickon. +"Birds is rare choosers an' a robin can flout a body worse +than a man. See, he's making up to thee now. `Cannot tha' +see a chap?' he's sayin'." + +And it really seemed as if it must be true. He so sidled +and twittered and tilted as he hopped on his bush. + +"Do you understand everything birds say?" said Mary. + +Dickon's grin spread until he seemed all wide, red, +curving mouth, and he rubbed his rough head. + +"I think I do, and they think I do," he said. "I've lived on th' +moor with 'em so long. I've watched 'em break shell an' +come out an' fledge an' learn to fly an' begin to sing, +till I think I'm one of 'em. Sometimes I think p'raps +I'm a bird, or a fox, or a rabbit, or a squirrel, +or even a beetle, an' I don't know it." + +He laughed and came back to the log and began to talk +about the flower seeds again. He told her what they looked +like when they were flowers; he told her how to plant them, +and watch them, and feed and water them. + +"See here," he said suddenly, turning round to look at her. +"I'll plant them for thee myself. Where is tha' garden?" + +Mary's thin hands clutched each other as they lay on +her lap. She did not know what to say, so for a whole +minute she said nothing. She had never thought of this. +She felt miserable. And she felt as if she went red +and then pale. + +"Tha's got a bit o' garden, hasn't tha'?" Dickon said. + +It was true that she had turned red and then pale. +Dickon saw her do it, and as she still said nothing, +he began to be puzzled. + +"Wouldn't they give thee a bit?" he asked. "Hasn't tha' +got any yet?" + +She held her hands tighter and turned her eyes toward him. + +"I don't know anything about boys," she said slowly. +"Could you keep a secret, if I told you one? It's a great secret. +I don't know what I should do if any one found it out. +I believe I should die!" She said the last sentence +quite fiercely. + +Dickon looked more puzzled than ever and even rubbed +his hand over his rough head again, but he answered quite +good-humoredly. "I'm keepin' secrets all th' time," he said. +"If I couldn't keep secrets from th' other lads, +secrets about foxes' cubs, an' birds' nests, an' wild things' +holes, there'd be naught safe on th' moor. Aye, I can +keep secrets." + +Mistress Mary did not mean to put out her hand and clutch +his sleeve but she did it. + +"I've stolen a garden," she said very fast. "It isn't mine. +It isn't anybody's. Nobody wants it, nobody cares for it, +nobody ever goes into it. Perhaps everything is dead in +it already. I don't know." + +She began to feel hot and as contrary as she had ever +felt in her life. + +"I don't care, I don't care! Nobody has any right +to take it from me when I care about it and they +don't. They're letting it die, all shut in by itself," +she ended passionately, and she threw her arms over +her face and burst out crying-poor little Mistress Mary. + +Dickon's curious blue eyes grew rounder and rounder. +"Eh-h-h!" he said, drawing his exclamation out slowly, +and the way he did it meant both wonder and sympathy. + +"I've nothing to do," said Mary. "Nothing belongs to me. +I found it myself and I got into it myself. I was only just +like the robin, and they wouldn't take it from the robin." +"Where is it?" asked Dickon in a dropped voice. + +Mistress Mary got up from the log at once. She knew she +felt contrary again, and obstinate, and she did not care +at all. She was imperious and Indian, and at the same +time hot and sorrowful. + +"Come with me and I'll show you," she said. + +She led him round the laurel path and to the walk where the +ivy grew so thickly. Dickon followed her with a queer, +almost pitying, look on his face. He felt as if he were +being led to look at some strange bird's nest and must +move softly. When she stepped to the wall and lifted +the hanging ivy he started. There was a door and Mary +pushed it slowly open and they passed in together, +and then Mary stood and waved her hand round defiantly. + +"It's this," she said. "It's a secret garden, and I'm +the only one in the world who wants it to be alive." + +Dickon looked round and round about it, and round +and round again. + +"Eh!" he almost whispered, "it is a queer, pretty place! +It's like as if a body was in a dream." + + + +CHAPTER XI + +THE NEST OF THE MISSEL THRUSH + + +For two or three minutes he stood looking round him, +while Mary watched him, and then he began to walk +about softly, even more lightly than Mary had walked the +first time she had found herself inside the four walls. +His eyes seemed to be taking in everything--the gray trees +with the gray creepers climbing over them and hanging +from their branches, the tangle on the walls and among +the grass, the evergreen alcoves with the stone seats +and tall flower urns standing in them. + +"I never thought I'd see this place," he said at last, +in a whisper. + +"Did you know about it?" asked Mary. + +She had spoken aloud and he made a sign to her. + +"We must talk low," he said, "or some one'll hear us an' +wonder what's to do in here." + +"Oh! I forgot!" said Mary, feeling frightened and putting +her hand quickly against her mouth. "Did you know about +the garden?" she asked again when she had recovered herself. +Dickon nodded. + +"Martha told me there was one as no one ever went inside," +he answered. "Us used to wonder what it was like." + +He stopped and looked round at the lovely gray tangle +about him, and his round eyes looked queerly happy. + +"Eh! the nests as'll be here come springtime," he said. +"It'd be th' safest nestin' place in England. +No one never comin' near an' tangles o' trees an' +roses to build in. I wonder all th' birds on th' +moor don't build here." + +Mistress Mary put her hand on his arm again without +knowing it. + +"Will there be roses?" she whispered. "Can you tell? I +thought perhaps they were all dead." + +"Eh! No! Not them--not all of 'em!" he answered. +"Look here!" + +He stepped over to the nearest tree--an old, old one with +gray lichen all over its bark, but upholding a curtain +of tangled sprays and branches. He took a thick knife +out of his Pocket and opened one of its blades. + +"There's lots o' dead wood as ought to be cut out," he said. +"An' there's a lot o' old wood, but it made some new +last year. This here's a new bit," and he touched a shoot +which looked brownish green instead of hard, dry gray. +Mary touched it herself in an eager, reverent way. + +"That one?" she said. "Is that one quite alive quite?" + +Dickon curved his wide smiling mouth. + +"It's as wick as you or me," he said; and Mary remembered +that Martha had told her that "wick" meant "alive" +or "lively." + +"I'm glad it's wick!" she cried out in her whisper. +"I want them all to be wick. Let us go round the garden +and count how many wick ones there are." + +She quite panted with eagerness, and Dickon was as eager +as she was. They went from tree to tree and from bush +to bush. Dickon carried his knife in his hand and showed +her things which she thought wonderful. + +"They've run wild," he said, "but th' strongest ones +has fair thrived on it. The delicatest ones has +died out, but th' others has growed an' growed, an' +spread an' spread, till they's a wonder. See here!" +and he pulled down a thick gray, dry-looking branch. +"A body might think this was dead wood, but I don't believe +it is--down to th' root. I'll cut it low down an' see." + +He knelt and with his knife cut the lifeless-looking +branch through, not far above the earth. + +"There!" he said exultantly. "I told thee so. +There's green in that wood yet. Look at it." + +Mary was down on her knees before he spoke, gazing with +all her might. + +"When it looks a bit greenish an' juicy like that, +it's wick," he explained. "When th' inside is dry an' +breaks easy, like this here piece I've cut off, +it's done for. There's a big root here as all this live +wood sprung out of, an' if th' old wood's cut off an' +it's dug round, and took care of there'll be--" +he stopped and lifted his face to look up at the climbing +and hanging sprays above him--"there'll be a fountain o' +roses here this summer." + +They went from bush to bush and from tree to tree. +He was very strong and clever with his knife and knew +how to cut the dry and dead wood away, and could tell when +an unpromising bough or twig had still green life in it. +In the course of half an hour Mary thought she could tell too, +and when he cut through a lifeless-looking branch she would +cry out joyfully under her breath when she caught sight +of the least shade of moist green. The spade, and hoe, +and fork were very useful. He showed her how to use the +fork while he dug about roots with the spade and stirred +the earth and let the air in. + +They were working industriously round one of the biggest +standard roses when he caught sight of something which +made him utter an exclamation of surprise. + +"Why!" he cried, pointing to the grass a few feet away. +"Who did that there?" + +It was one of Mary's own little clearings round the pale +green points. + +"I did it," said Mary. + +"Why, I thought tha' didn't know nothin' about gardenin'," +he exclaimed. + +"I don't," she answered, "but they were so little, and the +grass was so thick and strong, and they looked as if they +had no room to breathe. So I made a place for them. +I don't even know what they are." + +Dickon went and knelt down by them, smiling his wide smile. + +"Tha' was right," he said. "A gardener couldn't have told +thee better. They'll grow now like Jack's bean-stalk. They're +crocuses an' snowdrops, an' these here is narcissuses," +turning to another patch, "an here's daffydowndillys. +Eh! they will be a sight." + +He ran from one clearing to another. + +"Tha' has done a lot o' work for such a little wench," +he said, looking her over. + +"I'm growing fatter," said Mary, "and I'm growing stronger. +I used always to be tired. When I dig I'm not tired at all. +I like to smell the earth when it's turned up." + +"It's rare good for thee," he said, nodding his +head wisely. "There's naught as nice as th' smell o' +good clean earth, except th' smell o' fresh growin' +things when th' rain falls on 'em. I get out on th' +moor many a day when it's rainin' an' I lie under a bush an' +listen to th' soft swish o' drops on th' heather an, +I just sniff an, sniff. My nose end fair quivers like a +rabbit's, mother says." + +"Do you never catch cold?" inquired Mary, gazing at +him wonderingly. She had never seen such a funny boy, +or such a nice one. + +"Not me," he said, grinning. "I never ketched cold +since I was born. I wasn't brought up nesh enough. +I've chased about th' moor in all weathers same as th' +rabbits does. Mother says I've sniffed up too much fresh +air for twelve year' to ever get to sniffin' with cold. +I'm as tough as a white-thorn knobstick." + +He was working all the time he was talking and Mary was +following him and helping him with her fork or the trowel. + +"There's a lot of work to do here!" he said once, +looking about quite exultantly. + +"Will you come again and help me to do it?" Mary begged. +"I'm sure I can help, too. I can dig and pull up weeds, +and do whatever you tell me. Oh! do come, Dickon!" + +"I'll come every day if tha' wants me, rain or shine," +he answered stoutly. "It's the best fun I ever had in my +life--shut in here an' wakenin' up a garden." + +"If you will come," said Mary, "if you will help me +to make it alive I'll--I don't know what I'll do," +she ended helplessly. What could you do for a boy like that? + +"I'll tell thee what tha'll do," said Dickon, with his +happy grin. "Tha'll get fat an' tha'll get as hungry +as a young fox an' tha'll learn how to talk to th' +robin same as I do. Eh! we'll have a lot o' fun." + +He began to walk about, looking up in the trees and at +the walls and bushes with a thoughtful expression. + +"I wouldn't want to make it look like a gardener's +garden, all clipped an' spick an' span, would you?" +he said. "It's nicer like this with things runnin' +wild, an' swingin' an' catchin' hold of each other." + +"Don't let us make it tidy," said Mary anxiously. +"It wouldn't seem like a secret garden if it was tidy." + +Dickon stood rubbing his rusty-red head with a rather +puzzled look. "It's a secret garden sure enough," he said, +"but seems like some one besides th' robin must have been +in it since it was shut up ten year' ago." + +"But the door was locked and the key was buried," said Mary. +"No one could get in." + +"That's true," he answered. "It's a queer place. +Seems to me as if there'd been a bit o' prunin' done here an' +there, later than ten year' ago." + +"But how could it have been done?" said Mary. + +He was examining a branch of a standard rose and he shook +his head. + +"Aye! how could it!" he murmured. "With th' +door locked an' th' key buried." + +Mistress Mary always felt that however many years +she lived she should never forget that first morning +when her garden began to grow. Of course, it did seem +to begin to grow for her that morning. When Dickon +began to clear places to plant seeds, she remembered +what Basil had sung at her when he wanted to tease her. + +"Are there any flowers that look like bells?" she inquired. + +"Lilies o' th' valley does," he answered, digging away +with the trowel, "an' there's Canterbury bells, an' campanulas." + +"Let's plant some," said Mary. "There's lilies o' th, +valley here already; I saw 'em. They'll have growed too +close an' we'll have to separate 'em, but there's plenty. +Th' other ones takes two years to bloom from seed, but I +can bring you some bits o' plants from our cottage garden. +Why does tha' want 'em?" + +Then Mary told him about Basil and his brothers +and sisters in India and of how she had hated them +and of their calling her "Mistress Mary Quite Contrary." + +"They used to dance round and sing at me. They sang-- + + `Mistress Mary, quite contrary, + How does your garden grow? + With silver bells, and cockle shells, + And marigolds all in a row.' + +I just remembered it and it made me wonder if there +were really flowers like silver bells." + +She frowned a little and gave her trowel a rather spiteful +dig into the earth. + +"I wasn't as contrary as they were." + +But Dickon laughed. + +"Eh!" he said, and as he crumbled the rich black soil she +saw he was sniffing up the scent of it. "There doesn't +seem to be no need for no one to be contrary when there's +flowers an' such like, an' such lots o' friendly wild +things runnin' about makin' homes for themselves, or buildin' +nests an' singin' an' whistlin', does there?" + +Mary, kneeling by him holding the seeds, looked at him +and stopped frowning. + +"Dickon," she said, "you are as nice as Martha said +you were. I like you, and you make the fifth person. +I never thought I should like five people." + +Dickon sat up on his heels as Martha did when she was +polishing the grate. He did look funny and delightful, +Mary thought, with his round blue eyes and red cheeks +and happy looking turned-up nose. + +"Only five folk as tha' likes?" he said. "Who is th' +other four?" + +"Your mother and Martha," Mary checked them off +on her fingers, "and the robin and Ben Weatherstaff." + +Dickon laughed so that he was obliged to stifle the sound +by putting his arm over his mouth. + +"I know tha' thinks I'm a queer lad," he said, "but I +think tha' art th' queerest little lass I ever saw." + +Then Mary did a strange thing. She leaned forward +and asked him a question she had never dreamed of asking +any one before. And she tried to ask it in Yorkshire +because that was his language, and in India a native +was always pleased if you knew his speech. + +"Does tha' like me?" she said. + +"Eh!" he answered heartily, "that I does. I likes +thee wonderful, an' so does th' robin, I do believe!" + +"That's two, then," said Mary. "That's two for me." + +And then they began to work harder than ever and more joyfully. +Mary was startled and sorry when she heard the big clock +in the courtyard strike the hour of her midday dinner. + +"I shall have to go," she said mournfully. "And you +will have to go too, won't you?" + +Dickon grinned. + +"My dinner's easy to carry about with me," he said. +"Mother always lets me put a bit o' somethin' in my pocket." + +He picked up his coat from the grass and brought out of +a pocket a lumpy little bundle tied up in a quite clean, +coarse, blue and white handkerchief. It held two thick +pieces of bread with a slice of something laid between them. + +"It's oftenest naught but bread," he said, "but I've got +a fine slice o' fat bacon with it today." + +Mary thought it looked a queer dinner, but he seemed +ready to enjoy it. + +"Run on an' get thy victuals," he said. "I'll be done +with mine first. I'll get some more work done before I +start back home." + +He sat down with his back against a tree. + +"I'll call th' robin up," he said, "and give him th' +rind o' th' bacon to peck at. They likes a bit o' +fat wonderful." + +Mary could scarcely bear to leave him. Suddenly it +seemed as if he might be a sort of wood fairy who +might be gone when she came into the garden again. +He seemed too good to be true. She went slowly half-way +to the door in the wall and then she stopped and went back. + +"Whatever happens, you--you never would tell?" she said. + +His poppy-colored cheeks were distended with his first big +bite of bread and bacon, but he managed to smile encouragingly. + +"If tha' was a missel thrush an' showed me where thy nest was, +does tha' think I'd tell any one? Not me," he said. +"Tha' art as safe as a missel thrush." + +And she was quite sure she was. + + + +CHAPTER XII + +"MIGHT I HAVE A BIT OF EARTH?" + + +Mary ran so fast that she was rather out of breath when she +reached her room. Her hair was ruffled on her forehead +and her cheeks were bright pink. Her dinner was waiting +on the table, and Martha was waiting near it. + +"Tha's a bit late," she said. "Where has tha' been?" + +"I've seen Dickon!" said Mary. "I've seen Dickon!" + +"I knew he'd come," said Martha exultantly. "How does tha' +like him?" + +"I think--I think he's beautiful!" said Mary in a determined +voice. + +Martha looked rather taken aback but she looked pleased, too. + +"Well," she said, "he's th' best lad as ever was born, +but us never thought he was handsome. His nose turns up +too much." + +"I like it to turn up," said Mary. + +"An' his eyes is so round," said Martha, a trifle doubtful. +"Though they're a nice color." "I like them round," +said Mary. "And they are exactly the color of the sky +over the moor." + +Martha beamed with satisfaction. + +"Mother says he made 'em that color with always lookin' +up at th' birds an' th' clouds. But he has got a big mouth, +hasn't he, now?" + +"I love his big mouth," said Mary obstinately. "I wish +mine were just like it." + +Martha chuckled delightedly. + +"It'd look rare an' funny in thy bit of a face," she said. +"But I knowed it would be that way when tha' saw him. +How did tha' like th' seeds an' th' garden tools?" + +"How did you know he brought them?" asked Mary. + +"Eh! I never thought of him not bringin' 'em. He'd +be sure to bring 'em if they was in Yorkshire. +He's such a trusty lad." + +Mary was afraid that she might begin to ask +difficult questions, but she did not. She was very +much interested in the seeds and gardening tools, +and there was only one moment when Mary was frightened. +This was when she began to ask where the flowers were to be +planted. + +"Who did tha' ask about it?" she inquired. + +"I haven't asked anybody yet," said Mary, hesitating. +"Well, I wouldn't ask th' head gardener. He's too grand, +Mr. Roach is." + +"I've never seen him," said Mary. "I've only seen +undergardeners and Ben Weatherstaff." + +"If I was you, I'd ask Ben Weatherstaff," advised Martha. +"He's not half as bad as he looks, for all he's so crabbed. +Mr. Craven lets him do what he likes because he was here +when Mrs. Craven was alive, an' he used to make her laugh. +She liked him. Perhaps he'd find you a corner somewhere out o' +the way." + +"If it was out of the way and no one wanted it, no one +could mind my having it, could they?" Mary said anxiously. + +"There wouldn't be no reason," answered Martha. +"You wouldn't do no harm." + +Mary ate her dinner as quickly as she could and when she +rose from the table she was going to run to her room +to put on her hat again, but Martha stopped her. + +"I've got somethin' to tell you," she said. "I thought +I'd let you eat your dinner first. Mr. Craven came back +this mornin' and I think he wants to see you." + +Mary turned quite pale. + +"Oh!" she said. "Why! Why! He didn't want to see me when I came. +I heard Pitcher say he didn't." "Well," explained Martha, +"Mrs. Medlock says it's because o' mother. She was walkin' +to Thwaite village an' she met him. She'd never spoke +to him before, but Mrs. Craven had been to our cottage +two or three times. He'd forgot, but mother hadn't an' +she made bold to stop him. I don't know what she said +to him about you but she said somethin' as put him in th' +mind to see you before he goes away again, tomorrow." + +"Oh!" cried Mary, "is he going away tomorrow? I am so glad!" + +"He's goin' for a long time. He mayn't come back till +autumn or winter. He's goin' to travel in foreign places. +He's always doin' it." + +"Oh! I'm so glad--so glad!" said Mary thankfully. + +If he did not come back until winter, or even autumn, +there would be time to watch the secret garden come alive. +Even if he found out then and took it away from her she +would have had that much at least. + +"When do you think he will want to see--" + +She did not finish the sentence, because the door opened, +and Mrs. Medlock walked in. She had on her best black +dress and cap, and her collar was fastened with a +large brooch with a picture of a man's face on it. +It was a colored photograph of Mr. Medlock who had died +years ago, and she always wore it when she was dressed up. +She looked nervous and excited. + +"Your hair's rough," she said quickly. "Go and +brush it. Martha, help her to slip on her best dress. +Mr. Craven sent me to bring her to him in his study." + +All the pink left Mary's cheeks. Her heart began to +thump and she felt herself changing into a stiff, plain, +silent child again. She did not even answer Mrs. Medlock, +but turned and walked into her bedroom, followed by Martha. +She said nothing while her dress was changed, and her +hair brushed, and after she was quite tidy she followed +Mrs. Medlock down the corridors, in silence. What was there +for her to say? She was obliged to go and see Mr. Craven +and he would not like her, and she would not like him. +She knew what he would think of her. + +She was taken to a part of the house she had not been +into before. At last Mrs. Medlock knocked at a door, +and when some one said, "Come in," they entered the +room together. A man was sitting in an armchair before +the fire, and Mrs. Medlock spoke to him. + +"This is Miss Mary, sir," she said. + +"You can go and leave her here. I will ring for you +when I want you to take her away," said Mr. Craven. + +When she went out and closed the door, Mary could only +stand waiting, a plain little thing, twisting her thin +hands together. She could see that the man in the +chair was not so much a hunchback as a man with high, +rather crooked shoulders, and he had black hair streaked +with white. He turned his head over his high shoulders +and spoke to her. + +"Come here!" he said. + +Mary went to him. + +He was not ugly. His face would have been handsome if it +had not been so miserable. He looked as if the sight +of her worried and fretted him and as if he did not know +what in the world to do with her. + +"Are you well?" he asked. + +"Yes," answered Mary. + +"Do they take good care of you?" + +"Yes." + +He rubbed his forehead fretfully as he looked her over. + +"You are very thin," he said. + +"I am getting fatter," Mary answered in what she knew +was her stiffest way. + +What an unhappy face he had! His black eyes seemed as if they +scarcely saw her, as if they were seeing something else, +and he could hardly keep his thoughts upon her. + +"I forgot you," he said. "How could I remember you? I +intended to send you a governess or a nurse, or some +one of that sort, but I forgot." + +"Please," began Mary. "Please--" and then the lump +in her throat choked her. + +"What do you want to say?" he inquired. + +"I am--I am too big for a nurse," said Mary. +"And please--please don't make me have a governess yet." + +He rubbed his forehead again and stared at her. + +"That was what the Sowerby woman said," he muttered +absentmindedly. + +Then Mary gathered a scrap of courage. + +"Is she--is she Martha's mother?" she stammered. + +"Yes, I think so," he replied. + +"She knows about children," said Mary. "She has twelve. +She knows." + +He seemed to rouse himself. + +"What do you want to do?" + +"I want to play out of doors," Mary answered, hoping that +her voice did not tremble. "I never liked it in India. +It makes me hungry here, and I am getting fatter." + +He was watching her. + +"Mrs. Sowerby said it would do you good. Perhaps it will," +he said. "She thought you had better get stronger before +you had a governess." + +"It makes me feel strong when I play and the wind comes +over the moor," argued Mary. + +"Where do you play?" he asked next. + +"Everywhere," gasped Mary. "Martha's mother sent me +a skipping-rope. I skip and run--and I look about to see +if things are beginning to stick up out of the earth. +I don't do any harm." + +"Don't look so frightened," he said in a worried voice. +"You could not do any harm, a child like you! You may do +what you like." + +Mary put her hand up to her throat because she was afraid +he might see the excited lump which she felt jump into it. +She came a step nearer to him. + +"May I?" she said tremulously. + +Her anxious little face seemed to worry him more than ever. + +"Don't look so frightened," he exclaimed. "Of course you may. +I am your guardian, though I am a poor one for any child. +I cannot give you time or attention. I am too ill, +and wretched and distracted; but I wish you to be happy +and comfortable. I don't know anything about children, +but Mrs. Medlock is to see that you have all you need. +I sent for you to-day because Mrs. Sowerby said I +ought to see you. Her daughter had talked about you. +She thought you needed fresh air and freedom and running +about." + +"She knows all about children," Mary said again in spite +of herself. + +"She ought to," said Mr. Craven. "I thought her rather +bold to stop me on the moor, but she said--Mrs. Craven +had been kind to her." It seemed hard for him to speak +his dead wife's name. "She is a respectable woman. +Now I have seen you I think she said sensible things. +Play out of doors as much as you like. It's a big place +and you may go where you like and amuse yourself as you like. +Is there anything you want?" as if a sudden thought had +struck him. "Do you want toys, books, dolls?" + +"Might I," quavered Mary, "might I have a bit of earth?" + +In her eagerness she did not realize how queer the words +would sound and that they were not the ones she had meant +to say. Mr. Craven looked quite startled. + +"Earth!" he repeated. "What do you mean?" + +"To plant seeds in--to make things grow--to see them +come alive," Mary faltered. + +He gazed at her a moment and then passed his hand quickly +over his eyes. + +"Do you--care about gardens so much," he said slowly. + +"I didn't know about them in India," said Mary. "I was +always ill and tired and it was too hot. I sometimes +made littlebeds in the sand and stuck flowers in them. +But here it is different." + +Mr. Craven got up and began to walk slowly across the room. + +"A bit of earth," he said to himself, and Mary thought +that somehow she must have reminded him of something. +When he stopped and spoke to her his dark eyes looked almost +soft and kind. + +"You can have as much earth as you want," he said. +"You remind me of some one else who loved the earth and +things that grow. When you see a bit of earth you want," +with something like a smile, "take it, child, and make it +come alive." + +"May I take it from anywhere--if it's not wanted?" + +"Anywhere," he answered. "There! You must go now, +I am tired." He touched the bell to call Mrs. Medlock. +"Good-by. I shall be away all summer." + +Mrs. Medlock came so quickly that Mary thought she must +have been waiting in the corridor. + +"Mrs. Medlock," Mr. Craven said to her, "now I have +seen the child I understand what Mrs. Sowerby meant. +She must be less delicate before she begins lessons. +Give her simple, healthy food. Let her run wild in +the garden. Don't look after her too much. She needs +liberty and fresh air and romping about. Mrs. Sowerby +is to come and see her now and then and she may sometimes +go to the cottage." + +Mrs. Medlock looked pleased. She was relieved to +hear that she need not "look after" Mary too much. +She had felt her a tiresome charge and had indeed seen +as little of her as she dared. In addition to this +she was fond of Martha's mother. + +"Thank you, sir," she said. "Susan Sowerby and me went to +school together and she's as sensible and good-hearted a woman +as you'd find in a day's walk. I never had any children +myself and she's had twelve, and there never was healthier +or better ones. Miss Mary can get no harm from them. +I'd always take Susan Sowerby's advice about children myself. +She's what you might call healthy-minded--if you understand me." + +"I understand," Mr. Craven answered. "Take Miss Mary +away now and send Pitcher to me." + +When Mrs. Medlock left her at the end of her own corridor +Mary flew back to her room. She found Martha waiting there. +Martha had, in fact, hurried back after she had removed +the dinner service. + +"I can have my garden!" cried Mary. "I may have it +where I like! I am not going to have a governess +for a long time! Your mother is coming to see me +and I may go to your cottage! He says a little girl +like me could not do any harm and I may do what I +like--anywhere!" + +"Eh!" said Martha delightedly, "that was nice of him +wasn't it?" + +"Martha," said Mary solemnly, "he is really a nice man, +only his face is so miserable and his forehead is all +drawn together." + +She ran as quickly as she could to the garden. She had +been away so much longer than she had thought she should +and she knew Dickon would have to set out early on his +five-mile walk. When she slipped through the door under +the ivy, she saw he was not working where she had left him. +The gardening tools were laid together under a tree. +She ran to them, looking all round the place, but there +was no Dickon to be seen. He had gone away and the secret +garden was empty--except for the robin who had just flown +across the wall and sat on a standard rose-bush watching her. +"He's gone," she said woefully. "Oh! was he--was he--was +he only a wood fairy?" + +Something white fastened to the standard rose-bush caught +her eye. It was a piece of paper, in fact, it was a +piece of the letter she had printed for Martha to send +to Dickon. It was fastened on the bush with a long thorn, +and in a minute she knew Dickon had left it there. +There were some roughly printed letters on it and a sort +of picture. At first she could not tell what it was. +Then she saw it was meant for a nest with a bird sitting +on it. Underneath were the printed letters and they +said: + +"I will cum bak." + + + +CHAPTER XIII + +"I AM COLIN" + + +Mary took the picture back to the house when she went +to her supper and she showed it to Martha. + +"Eh!" said Martha with great pride. "I never knew our +Dickon was as clever as that. That there's a picture +of a missel thrush on her nest, as large as life an' +twice as natural." + +Then Mary knew Dickon had meant the picture to be a message. +He had meant that she might be sure he would keep her secret. +Her garden was her nest and she was like a missel thrush. +Oh, how she did like that queer, common boy! + +She hoped he would come back the very next day and she +fell asleep looking forward to the morning. + +But you never know what the weather will do in Yorkshire, +particularly in the springtime. She was awakened in +the night by the sound of rain beating with heavy drops +against her window. It was pouring down in torrents +and the wind was "wuthering" round the corners and in +the chimneys of the huge old house. Mary sat up in bed +and felt miserable and angry. + +"The rain is as contrary as I ever was," she said. +"It came because it knew I did not want it." + +She threw herself back on her pillow and buried her face. +She did not cry, but she lay and hated the sound of the +heavily beating rain, she hated the wind and its "wuthering." +She could not go to sleep again. The mournful sound kept +her awake because she felt mournful herself. If she had +felt happy it would probably have lulled her to sleep. +How it "wuthered" and how the big raindrops poured down +and beat against the pane! + +"It sounds just like a person lost on the moor +and wandering on and on crying," she said. + + +She had been lying awake turning from side to side +for about an hour, when suddenly something made her sit +up in bed and turn her head toward the door listening. +She listened and she listened. + +"It isn't the wind now," she said in a loud whisper. +"That isn't the wind. It is different. It is that crying I +heard before." + +The door of her room was ajar and the sound came down +the corridor, a far-off faint sound of fretful crying. +She listened for a few minutes and each minute she became +more and more sure. She felt as if she must find out +what it was. It seemed even stranger than the secret +garden and the buried key. Perhaps the fact that she +was in a rebellious mood made her bold. She put her foot +out of bed and stood on the floor. + +"I am going to find out what it is," she said. "Everybody is +in bed and I don't care about Mrs. Medlock--I don't care!" + +There was a candle by her bedside and she took it up +and went softly out of the room. The corridor looked +very long and dark, but she was too excited to mind that. +She thought she remembered the corners she must turn +to find the short corridor with the door covered with +tapestry--the one Mrs. Medlock had come through the day +she lost herself. The sound had come up that passage. +So she went on with her dim light, almost feeling her way, +her heart beating so loud that she fancied she could +hear it. The far-off faint crying went on and led her. +Sometimes it stopped for a moment or so and then began again. +Was this the right corner to turn? She stopped and thought. +Yes it was. Down this passage and then to the left, +and then up two broad steps, and then to the right again. +Yes, there was the tapestry door. + +She pushed it open very gently and closed it behind her, +and she stood in the corridor and could hear the crying +quite plainly, though it was not loud. It was on the other +side of the wall at her left and a few yards farther on +there was a door. She could see a glimmer of light coming +from beneath it. The Someone was crying in that room, +and it was quite a young Someone. + +So she walked to the door and pushed it open, and there +she was standing in the room! + +It was a big room with ancient, handsome furniture in it. +There was a low fire glowing faintly on the hearth and a +night light burning by the side of a carved four-posted +bed hung with brocade, and on the bed was lying a boy, +crying fretfully. + +Mary wondered if she was in a real place or if she had +fallen asleep again and was dreaming without knowing it. + +The boy had a sharp, delicate face the color of ivory +and he seemed to have eyes too big for it. He had +also a lot of hair which tumbled over his forehead +in heavy locks and made his thin face seem smaller. +He looked like a boy who had been ill, but he was crying +more as if he were tired and cross than as if he were in pain. + +Mary stood near the door with her candle in her hand, +holding her breath. Then she crept across the room, and, +as she drew nearer, the light attracted the boy's attention +and he turned his head on his pillow and stared at her, +his gray eyes opening so wide that they seemed immense. + +"Who are you?" he said at last in a half-frightened whisper. +"Are you a ghost?" + +"No, I am not," Mary answered, her own whisper sounding +half frightened. "Are you one?" + +He stared and stared and stared. Mary could not help +noticing what strange eyes he had. They were agate +gray and they looked too big for his face because they +had black lashes all round them. + +"No," he replied after waiting a moment or so. +"I am Colin." + +"Who is Colin?" she faltered. + +"I am Colin Craven. Who are you?" + +"I am Mary Lennox. Mr. Craven is my uncle." + +"He is my father," said the boy. + +"Your father!" gasped Mary. "No one ever told me he +had a boy! Why didn't they?" + +"Come here," he said, still keeping his strange eyes +fixed on her with an anxious expression. + +She came close to the bed and he put out his hand +and touched her. + +"You are real, aren't you?" he said. "I have such real +dreams very often. You might be one of them." + +Mary had slipped on a woolen wrapper before she left +her room and she put a piece of it between his fingers. + +"Rub that and see how thick and warm it is," she said. +"I will pinch you a little if you like, to show you how real +I am. For a minute I thought you might be a dream too." + +"Where did you come from?" he asked. + +"From my own room. The wind wuthered so I couldn't go +to sleep and I heard some one crying and wanted to find +out who it was. What were you crying for?" + +"Because I couldn't go to sleep either and my head ached. +Tell me your name again." + +"Mary Lennox. Did no one ever tell you I had come +to live here?" + +He was still fingering the fold of her wrapper, but he +began to look a little more as if he believed in her reality. + +"No," he answered. "They daren't." + +"Why?" asked Mary. + +"Because I should have been afraid you would see me. +I won't let people see me and talk me over." + +"Why?" Mary asked again, feeling more mystified every moment. + +"Because I am like this always, ill and having to lie down. +My father won't let people talk me over either. +The servants are not allowed to speak about me. +If I live I may be a hunchback, but I shan't live. +My father hates to think I may be like him." + +"Oh, what a queer house this is!" Mary said. +"What a queer house! Everything is a kind of secret. +Rooms are locked up and gardens are locked up--and you! +Have you been locked up?" + +"No. I stay in this room because I don't want to be moved +out of it. It tires me too much." + +"Does your father come and see you?" Mary ventured. + +"Sometimes. Generally when I am asleep. He doesn't want +to see me." + +"Why?" Mary could not help asking again. + +A sort of angry shadow passed over the boy's face. + +"My mother died when I was born and it makes him wretched +to look at me. He thinks I don't know, but I've heard +people talking. He almost hates me." + +"He hates the garden, because she died," said Mary half +speaking to herself. + +"What garden?" the boy asked. + +"Oh! just--just a garden she used to like," Mary stammered. +"Have you been here always?" "Nearly always. Sometimes I +have been taken to places at the seaside, but I won't +stay because people stare at me. I used to wear an iron +thing to keep my back straight, but a grand doctor came +from London to see me and said it was stupid. He told +them to take it off and keep me out in the fresh air. +I hate fresh air and I don't want to go out." + +"I didn't when first I came here," said Mary. "Why do +you keep looking at me like that?" + +"Because of the dreams that are so real," he answered +rather fretfully. "Sometimes when I open my eyes I don't +believe I'm awake." + +"We're both awake," said Mary. She glanced round the room +with its high ceiling and shadowy corners and dim fire-light. +"It looks quite like a dream, and it's the middle of the night, +and everybody in the house is asleep--everybody but us. +We are wide awake." + +"I don't want it to be a dream," the boy said restlessly. + +Mary thought of something all at once. + +"If you don't like people to see you," she began, +"do you want me to go away?" + +He still held the fold of her wrapper and he gave it +a little pull. + +"No," he said. "I should be sure you were a dream if you went. +If you are real, sit down on that big footstool and talk. +I want to hear about you." + +Mary put down her candle on the table near the bed +and sat down on the cushioned stool. She did not want +to go away at all. She wanted to stay in the mysterious +hidden-away room and talk to the mysterious boy. + +"What do you want me to tell you?" she said. + +He wanted to know how long she had been at Misselthwaite; +he wanted to know which corridor her room was on; he wanted +to know what she had been doing; if she disliked the moor +as he disliked it; where she had lived before she came +to Yorkshire. She answered all these questions and many +more and he lay back on his pillow and listened. He made +her tell him a great deal about India and about her voyage +across the ocean. She found out that because he had been +an invalid he had not learned things as other children had. +One of his nurses had taught him to read when he was quite +little and he was always reading and looking at pictures +in splendid books. + +Though his father rarely saw him when he was awake, he was +given all sorts of wonderful things to amuse himself with. +He never seemed to have been amused, however. He could have +anything he asked for and was never made to do anything he did +not like to do. "Everyone is obliged to do what pleases me," +he said indifferently. "It makes me ill to be angry. +No one believes I shall live to grow up." + +He said it as if he was so accustomed to the idea that it +had ceased to matter to him at all. He seemed to like +the sound of Mary's voice. As she went on talking he +listened in a drowsy, interested way. Once or twice she +wondered if he were not gradually falling into a doze. +But at last he asked a question which opened up a new subject. + +"How old are you?" he asked. + +"I am ten," answered Mary, forgetting herself for the moment, +"and so are you." + +"How do you know that?" he demanded in a surprised voice. + +"Because when you were born the garden door was locked +and the key was buried. And it has been locked for ten years." + +Colin half sat up, turning toward her, leaning on his elbows. + +"What garden door was locked? Who did it? Where was +the key buried?" he exclaimed as if he were suddenly +very much interested. + +"It--it was the garden Mr. Craven hates," said Mary nervously. +"He locked the door. No one--no one knew where he buried +the key." "What sort of a garden is it?" Colin persisted eagerly. + +"No one has been allowed to go into it for ten years," +was Mary's careful answer. + +But it was too late to be careful. He was too much +like herself. He too had had nothing to think about +and the idea of a hidden garden attracted him as it +had attracted her. He asked question after question. +Where was it? Had she never looked for the door? Had she +never asked the gardeners? + +"They won't talk about it," said Mary. "I think they +have been told not to answer questions." + +"I would make them," said Colin. + +"Could you?" Mary faltered, beginning to feel frightened. +If he could make people answer questions, who knew what +might happen! + +"Everyone is obliged to please me. I told you that," +he said. "If I were to live, this place would sometime +belong to me. They all know that. I would make them +tell me." + +Mary had not known that she herself had been spoiled, +but she could see quite plainly that this mysterious boy +had been. He thought that the whole world belonged to him. +How peculiar he was and how coolly he spoke of not living. + +"Do you think you won't live?" she asked, partly because +she was curious and partly in hope of making him forget +the garden. + +"I don't suppose I shall," he answered as indifferently +as he had spoken before. "Ever since I remember anything +I have heard people say I shan't. At first they thought +I was too little to understand and now they think I +don't hear. But I do. My doctor is my father's cousin. +He is quite poor and if I die he will have all Misselthwaite +when my father is dead. I should think he wouldn't want +me to live." + +"Do you want to live?" inquired Mary. + +"No," he answered, in a cross, tired fashion. "But I +don't want to die. When I feel ill I lie here and think +about it until I cry and cry." + +"I have heard you crying three times," Mary said, "but I +did not know who it was. Were you crying about that?" +She did so want him to forget the garden. + +"I dare say," he answered. "Let us talk about something else. +Talk about that garden. Don't you want to see it?" + +"Yes," answered Mary, in quite a low voice. + +"I do," he went on persistently. "I don't think I ever really +wanted to see anything before, but I want to see that garden. +I want the key dug up. I want the door unlocked. +I would let them take me there in my chair. That would +be getting fresh air. I am going to make them open the door." + +He had become quite excited and his strange eyes began +to shine like stars and looked more immense than ever. + +"They have to please me," he said. "I will make them +take me there and I will let you go, too." + +Mary's hands clutched each other. Everything would +be spoiled--everything! Dickon would never come back. +She would never again feel like a missel thrush with a +safe-hidden nest. + +"Oh, don't--don't--don't--don't do that!" she cried out. + +He stared as if he thought she had gone crazy! + +"Why?" he exclaimed. "You said you wanted to see it." + +"I do," she answered almost with a sob in her throat, +"but if you make them open the door and take you in like +that it will never be a secret again." + +He leaned still farther forward. + +"A secret," he said. "What do you mean? Tell me." + +Mary's words almost tumbled over one another. + +"You see--you see," she panted, "if no one knows but +ourselves--if there was a door, hidden somewhere under +the ivy--if there was--and we could find it; and if we +could slip through it together and shut it behind us, +and no one knew any one was inside and we called it our +garden and pretended that--that we were missel thrushes +and it was our nest, and if we played there almost every +day and dug and planted seeds and made it all come alive--" + +"Is it dead?" he interrupted her. + +"It soon will be if no one cares for it," she went on. +"The bulbs will live but the roses--" + +He stopped her again as excited as she was herself. + +"What are bulbs?" he put in quickly. + +"They are daffodils and lilies and snowdrops. They are +working in the earth now--pushing up pale green points +because the spring is coming." + +"Is the spring coming?" he said. "What is it like? You +don't see it in rooms if you are ill." + +"It is the sun shining on the rain and the rain falling +on the sunshine, and things pushing up and working under +the earth," said Mary. "If the garden was a secret and we +could get into it we could watch the things grow bigger +every day, and see how many roses are alive. Don't you. +see? Oh, don't you see how much nicer it would be if it +was a secret?" + +He dropped back on his pillow and lay there with an odd +expression on his face. + +"I never had a secret," he said, "except that one about +not living to grow up. They don't know I know that, +so it is a sort of secret. But I like this kind better." + +"If you won't make them take you to the garden," pleaded Mary, +"perhaps--I feel almost sure I can find out how to get +in sometime. And then--if the doctor wants you to go out +in your chair, and if you can always do what you want to do, +perhaps--perhaps we might find some boy who would push you, +and we could go alone and it would always be a secret garden." + +"I should--like--that," he said very slowly, his eyes +looking dreamy. "I should like that. I should not mind +fresh air in a secret garden." + +Mary began to recover her breath and feel safer because +the idea of keeping the secret seemed to please him. +She felt almost sure that if she kept on talking and could +make him see the garden in his mind as she had seen it +he would like it so much that he could not bear to think +that everybody might tramp in to it when they chose. + +"I'll tell you what I think it would be like, if we could +go into it," she said. "It has been shut up so long +things have grown into a tangle perhaps." + +He lay quite still and listened while she went on talking +about the roses which might have clambered from tree +to tree and hung down--about the many birds which might +have built their nests there because it was so safe. +And then she told him about the robin and Ben Weatherstaff, +and there was so much to tell about the robin and it +was so easy and safe to talk about it that she ceased +to be afraid. The robin pleased him so much that he +smiled until he looked almost beautiful, and at first +Mary had thought that he was even plainer than herself, +with his big eyes and heavy locks of hair. + +"I did not know birds could be like that," he said. +"But if you stay in a room you never see things. +What a lot of things you know. I feel as if you had been +inside that garden." + +She did not know what to say, so she did not say anything. +He evidently did not expect an answer and the next moment +he gave her a surprise. + +"I am going to let you look at something," he said. +"Do you see that rose-colored silk curtain hanging on the +wall over the mantel-piece?" + +Mary had not noticed it before, but she looked up and saw it. +It was a curtain of soft silk hanging over what seemed +to be some picture. + +"Yes," she answered. + +"There is a cord hanging from it," said Colin. +"Go and pull it." + +Mary got up, much mystified, and found the cord. +When she pulled it the silk curtain ran back on +rings and when it ran back it uncovered a picture. +It was the picture of a girl with a laughing face. +She had bright hair tied up with a blue ribbon and her gay, +lovely eyes were exactly like Colin's unhappy ones, +agate gray and looking twice as big as they really were +because of the black lashes all round them. + +"She is my mother," said Colin complainingly. "I don't +see why she died. Sometimes I hate her for doing it." + +"How queer!" said Mary. + +"If she had lived I believe I should not have been ill always," +he grumbled. "I dare say I should have lived, too. +And my father would not have hated to look at me. I dare +say I should have had a strong back. Draw the curtain again." + +Mary did as she was told and returned to her footstool. + +"She is much prettier than you," she said, "but her eyes +are just like yours--at least they are the same shape +and color. Why is the curtain drawn over her?" + +He moved uncomfortably. + +"I made them do it," he said. "Sometimes I don't like to +see her looking at me. She smiles too much when I am ill +and miserable. Besides, she is mine and I don't want everyone +to see her." There were a few moments of silence and then Mary +spoke. + +"What would Mrs. Medlock do if she found out that I +had been here?" she inquired. + +"She would do as I told her to do," he answered. +"And I should tell her that I wanted you to come here +and talk to me every day. I am glad you came." + +"So am I," said Mary. "I will come as often as I can, +but"--she hesitated--"I shall have to look every day +for the garden door." + +"Yes, you must," said Colin, "and you can tell me about +it afterward." + +He lay thinking a few minutes, as he had done before, +and then he spoke again. + +"I think you shall be a secret, too," he said. "I will not +tell them until they find out. I can always send the nurse +out of the room and say that I want to be by myself. +Do you know Martha?" + +"Yes, I know her very well," said Mary. "She waits on me." + +He nodded his head toward the outer corridor. + +"She is the one who is asleep in the other room. +The nurse went away yesterday to stay all night with her +sister and she always makes Martha attend to me when she +wants to go out. Martha shall tell you when to come here." + +Then Mary understood Martha's troubled look when she +had asked questions about the crying. + +"Martha knew about you all the time?" she said. + +"Yes; she often attends to me. The nurse likes to get +away from me and then Martha comes." + +"I have been here a long time," said Mary. "Shall I go +away now? Your eyes look sleepy." + +"I wish I could go to sleep before you leave me," +he said rather shyly. + +"Shut your eyes," said Mary, drawing her footstool closer, +"and I will do what my Ayah used to do in India. +I will pat your hand and stroke it and sing something +quite low." + +"I should like that perhaps," he said drowsily. + +Somehow she was sorry for him and did not want him +to lie awake, so she leaned against the bed and began +to stroke and pat his hand and sing a very low little +chanting song in Hindustani. + +"That is nice," he said more drowsily still, and she went +on chanting and stroking, but when she looked at him again +his black lashes were lying close against his cheeks, +for his eyes were shut and he was fast asleep. So she +got up softly, took her candle and crept away without +making a sound. + + + +CHAPTER XIV + +A YOUNG RAJAH + + +The moor was hidden in mist when the morning came, +and the rain had not stopped pouring down. There could +be no going out of doors. Martha was so busy that Mary +had no opportunity of talking to her, but in the afternoon +she asked her to come and sit with her in the nursery. +She came bringing the stocking she was always knitting +when she was doing nothing else. + +"What's the matter with thee?" she asked as soon as they +sat down. "Tha' looks as if tha'd somethin' to say." + +"I have. I have found out what the crying was," +said Mary. + +Martha let her knitting drop on her knee and gazed +at her with startled eyes. + +"Tha' hasn't!" she exclaimed. "Never!" + +"I heard it in the night," Mary went on. "And I got +up and went to see where it came from. It was Colin. +I found him." + +Martha's face became red with fright. + +"Eh! Miss Mary!" she said half crying. "Tha' shouldn't +have done it--tha' shouldn't! Tha'll get me in trouble. +I never told thee nothin' about him--but tha'll get me +in trouble. I shall lose my place and what'll mother do!" + +"You won't lose your place," said Mary. "He was glad I came. +We talked and talked and he said he was glad I came." + +"Was he?" cried Martha. "Art tha' sure? Tha' +doesn't know what he's like when anything vexes him. +He's a big lad to cry like a baby, but when he's +in a passion he'll fair scream just to frighten us. +He knows us daren't call our souls our own." + +"He wasn't vexed," said Mary. "I asked him if I should go +away and he made me stay. He asked me questions and I +sat on a big footstool and talked to him about India +and about the robin and gardens. He wouldn't let me go. +He let me see his mother's picture. Before I left him I +sang him to sleep." + +Martha fairly gasped with amazement. + +"I can scarcely believe thee!" she protested. +"It's as if tha'd walked straight into a lion's den. +If he'd been like he is most times he'd have throwed himself +into one of his tantrums and roused th' house. He won't +let strangers look at him." + +"He let me look at him. I looked at him all the time +and he looked at me. We stared!" said Mary. + +"I don't know what to do!" cried agitated Martha. +"If Mrs. Medlock finds out, she'll think I broke orders +and told thee and I shall be packed back to mother." + +"He is not going to tell Mrs. Medlock anything about it yet. +It's to be a sort of secret just at first," said Mary firmly. +"And he says everybody is obliged to do as he pleases." + +"Aye, that's true enough--th' bad lad!" sighed Martha, +wiping her forehead with her apron. + +"He says Mrs. Medlock must. And he wants me to come and talk +to him every day. And you are to tell me when he wants me." + +"Me!" said Martha; "I shall lose my place--I shall for sure!" + +"You can't if you are doing what he wants you to do +and everybody is ordered to obey him," Mary argued. + +"Does tha' mean to say," cried Martha with wide open eyes, +"that he was nice to thee!" + +"I think he almost liked me," Mary answered. + +"Then tha' must have bewitched him!" decided Martha, +drawing a long breath. + +"Do you mean Magic?" inquired Mary. "I've heard about Magic +in India, but I can't make it. I just went into his room +and I was so surprised to see him I stood and stared. +And then he turned round and stared at me. And he thought +I was a ghost or a dream and I thought perhaps he was. +And it was so queer being there alone together in the +middle of the night and not knowing about each other. +And we began to ask each other questions. And when I asked +him if I must go away he said I must not." + +"Th' world's comin' to a end!" gasped Martha. + +"What is the matter with him?" asked Mary. + +"Nobody knows for sure and certain," said Martha. +"Mr. Craven went off his head like when he was born. +Th' doctors thought he'd have to be put in a 'sylum. +It was because Mrs. Craven died like I told you. +He wouldn't set eyes on th' baby. He just raved and said +it'd be another hunchback like him and it'd better die." + +"Is Colin a hunchback?" Mary asked. "He didn't look +like one." + +"He isn't yet," said Martha. "But he began all wrong. +Mother said that there was enough trouble and raging in th' +house to set any child wrong. They was afraid his back +was weak an' they've always been takin' care of it--keepin' +him lyin' down and not lettin' him walk. Once they made +him wear a brace but he fretted so he was downright ill. +Then a big doctor came to see him an' made them take it off. +He talked to th' other doctor quite rough--in a polite way. +He said there'd been too much medicine and too much lettin' +him have his own way." + +"I think he's a very spoiled boy," said Mary. + +"He's th' worst young nowt as ever was!" said Martha. +"I won't say as he hasn't been ill a good bit. +He's had coughs an' colds that's nearly killed him two +or three times. Once he had rheumatic fever an' once he +had typhoid. Eh! Mrs. Medlock did get a fright then. +He'd been out of his head an' she was talkin' to th' +nurse, thinkin' he didn't know nothin', an' she said, +`He'll die this time sure enough, an' best thing for him an' +for everybody.' An' she looked at him an' there he +was with his big eyes open, starin' at her as sensible +as she was herself. She didn't know wha'd happen but he +just stared at her an' says, `You give me some water an' +stop talkin'.'" + +"Do you think he will die?" asked Mary. + +"Mother says there's no reason why any child should live +that gets no fresh air an' doesn't do nothin' but lie +on his back an' read picture-books an' take medicine. +He's weak and hates th' trouble o' bein' taken out o' +doors, an' he gets cold so easy he says it makes him ill." + +Mary sat and looked at the fire. "I wonder," she said slowly, +"if it would not do him good to go out into a garden +and watch things growing. It did me good." + +"One of th' worst fits he ever had," said Martha, "was one +time they took him out where the roses is by the fountain. +He'd been readin' in a paper about people gettin' +somethin' he called `rose cold' an' he began to sneeze an' +said he'd got it an' then a new gardener as didn't +know th' rules passed by an' looked at him curious. +He threw himself into a passion an' he said he'd +looked at him because he was going to be a hunchback. +He cried himself into a fever an' was ill all night." + +"If he ever gets angry at me, I'll never go and see +him again," said Mary. + +"He'll have thee if he wants thee," said Martha. +"Tha' may as well know that at th' start." + +Very soon afterward a bell rang and she rolled up +her knitting. + +"I dare say th' nurse wants me to stay with him a bit," +she said. "I hope he's in a good temper." + +She was out of the room about ten minutes and then she +came back with a puzzled expression. + +"Well, tha' has bewitched him," she said. "He's up on his +sofa with his picture-books. He's told the nurse to stay +away until six o'clock. I'm to wait in the next room. +Th' minute she was gone he called me to him an' says, `I want +Mary Lennox to come and talk to me, and remember you're +not to tell any one.' You'd better go as quick as you can." + +Mary was quite willing to go quickly. She did not want +to see Colin as much as she wanted to see Dickon; +but she wanted to see him very much. + +There was a bright fire on the hearth when she entered +his room, and in the daylight she saw it was a very +beautiful room indeed. There were rich colors in the +rugs and hangings and pictures and books on the walls +which made it look glowing and comfortable even in spite +of the gray sky and falling rain. Colin looked rather +like a picture himself. He was wrapped in a velvet +dressing-gown and sat against a big brocaded cushion. +He had a red spot on each cheek. + +"Come in," he said. "I've been thinking about you +all morning." + +"I've been thinking about you, too," answered Mary. +"You don't know how frightened Martha is. She says +Mrs. Medlock will think she told me about you and then she +will be sent away." + +He frowned. + +"Go and tell her to come here," he said. "She is +in the next room." + +Mary went and brought her back. Poor Martha was shaking +in her shoes. Colin was still frowning. + +"Have you to do what I please or have you not?" he demanded. + +"I have to do what you please, sir," Martha faltered, +turning quite red. + +"Has Medlock to do what I please?" + +"Everybody has, sir," said Martha. + +"Well, then, if I order you to bring Miss Mary to me, +how can Medlock send you away if she finds it out?" + +"Please don't let her, sir," pleaded Martha. + +"I'll send her away if she dares to say a word about such +a thing," said Master Craven grandly. "She wouldn't +like that, I can tell you." + +"Thank you, sir," bobbing a curtsy, "I want to do my duty, sir." + +"What I want is your duty" said Colin more grandly still. +"I'll take care of you. Now go away." + +When the door closed behind Martha, Colin found Mistress +Mary gazing at him as if he had set her wondering. + +"Why do you look at me like that?" he asked her. +"What are you thinking about?" + +"I am thinking about two things." + +"What are they? Sit down and tell me." + +"This is the first one," said Mary, seating herself on the +big stool. "Once in India I saw a boy who was a Rajah. +He had rubies and emeralds and diamonds stuck all over him. +He spoke to his people just as you spoke to Martha. +Everybody had to do everything he told them--in a minute. +I think they would have been killed if they hadn't." + +"I shall make you tell me about Rajahs presently," he said, +"but first tell me what the second thing was." + +"I was thinking," said Mary, "how different you are +from Dickon." + +"Who is Dickon?" he said. "What a queer name!" + +She might as well tell him, she thought she could talk +about Dickon without mentioning the secret garden. She had +liked to hear Martha talk about him. Besides, she longed +to talk about him. It would seem to bring him nearer. + +"He is Martha's brother. He is twelve years old," +she explained. "He is not like any one else in the world. +He can charm foxes and squirrels and birds just as the +natives in India charm snakes. He plays a very soft tune +on a pipe and they come and listen." + +There were some big books on a table at his side and he +dragged one suddenly toward him. "There is a picture +of a snake-charmer in this," he exclaimed. "Come and look +at it" + +The book was a beautiful one with superb colored +illustrations and he turned to one of them. + +"Can he do that?" he asked eagerly. + +"He played on his pipe and they listened," Mary explained. +"But he doesn't call it Magic. He says it's because he +lives on the moor so much and he knows their ways. He says +he feels sometimes as if he was a bird or a rabbit himself, +he likes them so. I think he asked the robin questions. +It seemed as if they talked to each other in soft chirps." + +Colin lay back on his cushion and his eyes grew larger +and larger and the spots on his cheeks burned. + +"Tell me some more about him," he said. + +"He knows all about eggs and nests," Mary went on. +"And he knows where foxes and badgers and otters live. +He keeps them secret so that other boys won't find their holes +and frighten them. He knows about everything that grows +or lives on the moor." + +"Does he like the moor?" said Colin. "How can he +when it's such a great, bare, dreary place?" + +"It's the most beautiful place," protested Mary. +"Thousands of lovely things grow on it and there are +thousands of little creatures all busy building nests +and making holes and burrows and chippering or singing +or squeaking to each other. They are so busy and having +such fun under the earth or in the trees or heather. +It's their world." + +"How do you know all that?" said Colin, turning on his +elbow to look at her. + +"I have never been there once, really," said Mary +suddenly remembering. "I only drove over it in the dark. +I thought it was hideous. Martha told me about it first +and then Dickon. When Dickon talks about it you feel +as if you saw things and heard them and as if you were +standing in the heather with the sun shining and the gorse +smelling like honey--and all full of bees and butterflies." + +"You never see anything if you are ill," said +Colin restlessly. He looked like a person listening +to a new sound in the distance and wondering what it was. + +"You can't if you stay in a room," said Mary. + +"I couldn't go on the moor," he said in a resentful tone. + +Mary was silent for a minute and then she said something bold. + +"You might--sometime." + +He moved as if he were startled. + +"Go on the moor! How could I? I am going to die." +"How do you know?" said Mary unsympathetically. +She didn't like the way he had of talking about dying. +She did not feel very sympathetic. She felt rather as if he +almost boasted about it. + +"Oh, I've heard it ever since I remember," he answered crossly. +"They are always whispering about it and thinking +I don't notice. They wish I would, too." + +Mistress Mary felt quite contrary. She pinched her +lips together. + +"If they wished I would," she said, "I wouldn't. Who +wishes you would?" + +"The servants--and of course Dr. Craven because he would +get Misselthwaite and be rich instead of poor. He daren't +say so, but he always looks cheerful when I am worse. +When I had typhoid fever his face got quite fat. I think +my father wishes it, too." + +"I don't believe he does," said Mary quite obstinately. + +That made Colin turn and look at her again. + +"Don't you?" he said. + +And then he lay back on his cushion and was still, as if +he were thinking. And there was quite a long silence. +Perhaps they were both of them thinking strange things +children do not usually think. "I like the grand doctor +from London, because he made them take the iron thing off," +said Mary at last "Did he say you were going to die?" + +"No.". + +"What did he say?" + +"He didn't whisper," Colin answered. "Perhaps he knew I +hated whispering. I heard him say one thing quite aloud. +He said, 'The lad might live if he would make up his mind +to it. Put him in the humor.' It sounded as if he was +in a temper." + +"I'll tell you who would put you in the humor, perhaps," +said Mary reflecting. She felt as if she would like this +thing to be settled one way or the other. "I believe +Dickon would. He's always talking about live things. +He never talks about dead things or things that are ill. +He's always looking up in the sky to watch birds flying--or +looking down at the earth to see something growing. +He has such round blue eyes and they are so wide open with +looking about. And he laughs such a big laugh with his wide +mouth--and his cheeks are as red--as red as cherries." +She pulled her stool nearer to the sofa and her expression +quite changed at the remembrance of the wide curving mouth +and wide open eyes. + +"See here," she said. "Don't let us talk about dying; +I don't like it. Let us talk about living. Let us +talk and talk about Dickon. And then we will look at +your pictures." + +It was the best thing she could have said. To talk about +Dickon meant to talk about the moor and about the cottage +and the fourteen people who lived in it on sixteen shillings +a week--and the children who got fat on the moor grass +like the wild ponies. And about Dickon's mother--and +the skipping-rope--and the moor with the sun on it--and +about pale green points sticking up out of the black sod. +And it was all so alive that Mary talked more than she had +ever talked before--and Colin both talked and listened as he +had never done either before. And they both began to laugh +over nothings as children will when they are happy together. +And they laughed so that in the end they were making +as much noise as if they had been two ordinary healthy +natural ten-year-old creatures--instead of a hard, little, +unloving girl and a sickly boy who believed that he was going to +die. + +They enjoyed themselves so much that they forgot the +pictures and they forgot about the time. They had been +laughing quite loudly over Ben Weatherstaff and his robin, +and Colin was actually sitting up as if he had forgotten +about his weak back, when he suddenly remembered something. +"Do you know there is one thing we have never once +thought of," he said. "We are cousins." + +It seemed so queer that they had talked so much and never +remembered this simple thing that they laughed more than ever, +because they had got into the humor to laugh at anything. +And in the midst of the fun the door opened and in walked +Dr. Craven and Mrs. Medlock. + +Dr. Craven started in actual alarm and Mrs. Medlock almost +fell back because he had accidentally bumped against her. + +"Good Lord!" exclaimed poor Mrs. Medlock with her eyes +almost starting out of her head. "Good Lord!" + +"What is this?" said Dr. Craven, coming forward. +"What does it mean?" + +Then Mary was reminded of the boy Rajah again. +Colin answered as if neither the doctor's alarm nor +Mrs. Medlock's terror were of the slightest consequence. +He was as little disturbed or frightened as if an elderly +cat and dog had walked into the room. + +"This is my cousin, Mary Lennox," he said. "I asked +her to come and talk to me. I like her. She must come +and talk to me whenever I send for her." + +Dr. Craven turned reproachfully to Mrs. Medlock. +"Oh, sir" she panted. "I don't know how it's happened. +There's not a servant on the place tha'd dare to talk--they +all have their orders." + +"Nobody told her anything," said Colin. "She heard +me crying and found me herself. I am glad she came. +Don't be silly, Medlock." + +Mary saw that Dr. Craven did not look pleased, but it +was quite plain that he dare not oppose his patient. +He sat down by Colin and felt his pulse. + +"I am afraid there has been too much excitement. +Excitement is not good for you, my boy," he said. + +"I should be excited if she kept away," answered Colin, +his eyes beginning to look dangerously sparkling. +"I am better. She makes me better. The nurse must bring up +her tea with mine. We will have tea together." + +Mrs. Medlock and Dr. Craven looked at each other in a +troubled way, but there was evidently nothing to be done. + +"He does look rather better, sir," ventured Mrs. Medlock. +"But"--thinking the matter over--"he looked better this +morning before she came into the room." + +"She came into the room last night. She stayed with me +a long time. She sang a Hindustani song to me and it +made me go to sleep," said Colin. "I was better when I +wakened up. I wanted my breakfast. I want my tea now. +Tell nurse, Medlock." + +Dr. Craven did not stay very long. He talked to the nurse +for a few minutes when she came into the room and said a few +words of warning to Colin. He must not talk too much; +he must not forget that he was ill; he must not forget +that he was very easily tired. Mary thought that there +seemed to be a number of uncomfortable things he was not +to forget. + +Colin looked fretful and kept his strange black-lashed +eyes fixed on Dr. Craven's face. + +"I want to forget it," he said at last. "She makes me +forget it. That is why I want her." + +Dr. Craven did not look happy when he left the room. +He gave a puzzled glance at the little girl sitting on +the large stool. She had become a stiff, silent child +again as soon as he entered and he could not see what +the attraction was. The boy actually did look brighter, +however--and he sighed rather heavily as he went down +the corridor. + +"They are always wanting me to eat things when I don't +want to," said Colin, as the nurse brought in the tea +and put it on the table by the sofa. "Now, if you'll +eat I will. Those muffins look so nice and hot. +Tell me about Rajahs." + + + +CHAPTER XV + +NEST BUILDING + + +After another week of rain the high arch of blue sky +appeared again and the sun which poured down was quite hot. +Though there had been no chance to see either the secret +garden or Dickon, Mistress Mary had enjoyed herself +very much. The week had not seemed long. She had spent +hours of every day with Colin in his room, talking about +Rajahs or gardens or Dickon and the cottage on the moor. +They had looked at the splendid books and pictures and +sometimes Mary had read things to Colin, and sometimes he +had read a little to her. When he was amused and interested +she thought he scarcely looked like an invalid at all, +except that his face was so colorless and he was always +on the sofa. + +"You are a sly young one to listen and get out of your +bed to go following things up like you did that night," +Mrs. Medlock said once. "But there's no saying it's +not been a sort of blessing to the lot of us. He's not +had a tantrum or a whining fit since you made friends. +The nurse was just going to give up the case because she +was so sick of him, but she says she doesn't mind staying +now you've gone on duty with her," laughing a little. + +In her talks with Colin, Mary had tried to be very cautious +about the secret garden. There were certain things she +wanted to find out from him, but she felt that she must +find them out without asking him direct questions. +In the first place, as she began to like to be with him, +she wanted to discover whether he was the kind of boy you +could tell a secret to. He was not in the least like Dickon, +but he was evidently so pleased with the idea of a garden +no one knew anything about that she thought perhaps he +could be trusted. But she had not known him long enough +to be sure. The second thing she wanted to find out was +this: If he could be trusted--if he really could--wouldn't +it be possible to take him to the garden without having +any one find it out? The grand doctor had said that he must +have fresh air and Colin had said that he would not mind +fresh air in a secret garden. Perhaps if he had a great +deal of fresh air and knew Dickon and the robin and saw +things growing he might not think so much about dying. +Mary had seen herself in the glass sometimes lately when she +had realized that she looked quite a different creature +from the child she had seen when she arrived from India. +This child looked nicer. Even Martha had seen a change +in her. + +"Th' air from th' moor has done thee good already," +she had said. "Tha'rt not nigh so yeller and tha'rt not +nigh so scrawny. Even tha' hair doesn't slamp down on tha' +head so flat. It's got some life in it so as it sticks +out a bit." + +"It's like me," said Mary. "It's growing stronger +and fatter. I'm sure there's more of it." + +"It looks it, for sure," said Martha, ruffling it up +a little round her face. "Tha'rt not half so ugly when +it's that way an' there's a bit o' red in tha' cheeks." + +If gardens and fresh air had been good for her perhaps they +would be good for Colin. But then, if he hated people +to look at him, perhaps he would not like to see Dickon. + +"Why does it make you angry when you are looked at?" +she inquired one day. + +"I always hated it," he answered, "even when I was very little. +Then when they took me to the seaside and I used to lie +in my carriage everybody used to stare and ladies would +stop and talk to my nurse and then they would begin to +whisper and I knew then they were saying I shouldn't live +to grow up. Then sometimes the ladies would pat my cheeks +and say `Poor child!' Once when a lady did that I screamed +out loud and bit her hand. She was so frightened she ran away." + +"She thought you had gone mad like a dog," said Mary, +not at all admiringly. + +"I don't care what she thought," said Colin, frowning. + +"I wonder why you didn't scream and bite me when I came +into your room?" said Mary. Then she began to smile slowly. + +"I thought you were a ghost or a dream," he said. +"You can't bite a ghost or a dream, and if you scream they +don't care." + +"Would you hate it if--if a boy looked at you?" +Mary asked uncertainly. + +He lay back on his cushion and paused thoughtfully. + +"There's one boy," he said quite slowly, as if he were thinking +over every word, "there's one boy I believe I shouldn't mind. +It's that boy who knows where the foxes live--Dickon." + +"I'm sure you wouldn't mind him," said Mary. + +"The birds don't and other animals," he said, still thinking +it over, "perhaps that's why I shouldn't. He's a sort +of animal charmer and I am a boy animal." + +Then he laughed and she laughed too; in fact it ended +in their both laughing a great deal and finding the idea +of a boy animal hiding in his hole very funny indeed. + +What Mary felt afterward was that she need not fear +about Dickon. + + +On that first morning when the sky was blue again Mary wakened +very early. The sun was pouring in slanting rays through +the blinds and there was something so joyous in the sight +of it that she jumped out of bed and ran to the window. +She drew up the blinds and opened the window itself +and a great waft of fresh, scented air blew in upon her. +The moor was blue and the whole world looked as if something +Magic had happened to it. There were tender little +fluting sounds here and there and everywhere, as if scores +of birds were beginning to tune up for a concert. +Mary put her hand out of the window and held it in the sun. + +"It's warm--warm!" she said. "It will make the green +points push up and up and up, and it will make the bulbs +and roots work and struggle with all their might under +the earth." + +She kneeled down and leaned out of the window as far +as she could, breathing big breaths and sniffing the air +until she laughed because she remembered what Dickon's +mother had said about the end of his nose quivering +like a rabbit's. "It must be very early," she said. +"The little clouds are all pink and I've never seen +the sky look like this. No one is up. I don't even hear +the stable boys." + +A sudden thought made her scramble to her feet. + +"I can't wait! I am going to see the garden!" + +She had learned to dress herself by this time and she put +on her clothes in five minutes. She knew a small side door +which she could unbolt herself and she flew downstairs +in her stocking feet and put on her shoes in the hall. +She unchained and unbolted and unlocked and when the door +was open she sprang across the step with one bound, +and there she was standing on the grass, which seemed +to have turned green, and with the sun pouring down on +her and warm sweet wafts about her and the fluting and +twittering and singing coming from every bush and tree. +She clasped her hands for pure joy and looked up in the sky +and it was so blue and pink and pearly and white and flooded +with springtime light that she felt as if she must flute +and sing aloud herself and knew that thrushes and robins +and skylarks could not possibly help it. She ran around +the shrubs and paths towards the secret garden. + +"It is all different already," she said. "The grass is +greener and things are sticking up everywhere and things +are uncurling and green buds of leaves are showing. +This afternoon I am sure Dickon will come." + +The long warm rain had done strange things to the +herbaceous beds which bordered the walk by the lower wall. +There were things sprouting and pushing out from the +roots of clumps of plants and there were actually here +and there glimpses of royal purple and yellow unfurling +among the stems of crocuses. Six months before Mistress +Mary would not have seen how the world was waking up, +but now she missed nothing. + +When she had reached the place where the door hid itself +under the ivy, she was startled by a curious loud sound. +It was the caw--caw of a crow and it came from the top +of the wall, and when she looked up, there sat a big +glossy-plumaged blue-black bird, looking down at her very +wisely indeed. She had never seen a crow so close before +and he made her a little nervous, but the next moment he +spread his wings and flapped away across the garden. +She hoped he was not going to stay inside and she +pushed the door open wondering if he would. When she +got fairly into the garden she saw that he probably +did intend to stay because he had alighted on a dwarf +apple-tree and under the apple-tree was lying a little +reddish animal with a Bushy tail, and both of them were +watching the stooping body and rust-red head of Dickon, +who was kneeling on the grass working hard. + +Mary flew across the grass to him. + +"Oh, Dickon! Dickon!" she cried out. "How could you get +here so early! How could you! The sun has only just got up!" + +He got up himself, laughing and glowing, and tousled; +his eyes like a bit of the sky. + +"Eh!" he said. "I was up long before him. How could I +have stayed abed! Th' world's all fair begun again this +mornin', it has. An' it's workin' an' hummin' an' scratchin' +an' pipin' an' nest-buildin' an' breathin' out scents, +till you've got to be out on it 'stead o' lyin' on your back. +When th' sun did jump up, th' moor went mad for joy, an' +I was in the midst of th' heather, an' I run like mad +myself, shoutin' an' singin'. An' I come straight here. +I couldn't have stayed away. Why, th' garden was lyin' +here waitin'!" + +Mary put her hands on her chest, panting, as if she +had been running herself. + +"Oh, Dickon! Dickon!" she said. "I'm so happy I can +scarcely breathe!" + +Seeing him talking to a stranger, the little bushy-tailed +animal rose from its place under the tree and came to him, +and the rook, cawing once, flew down from its branch +and settled quietly on his shoulder. + +"This is th' little fox cub," he said, rubbing the little +reddish animal's head. "It's named Captain. An' this +here's Soot. Soot he flew across th' moor with me an' +Captain he run same as if th' hounds had been after him. +They both felt same as I did." + +Neither of the creatures looked as if he were the least +afraid of Mary. When Dickon began to walk about, +Soot stayed on his shoulder and Captain trotted quietly +close to his side. + +"See here!" said Dickon. "See how these has +pushed up, an' these an' these! An' Eh! Look at these here!" + +He threw himself upon his knees and Mary went +down beside him. They had come upon a whole clump +of crocuses burst into purple and orange and gold. +Mary bent her face down and kissed and kissed them. + +"You never kiss a person in that way," she said when she +lifted her head. "Flowers are so different." + +He looked puzzled but smiled. + +"Eh!" he said, "I've kissed mother many a time that way +when I come in from th' moor after a day's roamin' an' +she stood there at th' door in th' sun, lookin' so glad an' +comfortable." They ran from one part of the garden to +another and found so many wonders that they were obliged +to remind themselves that they must whisper or speak low. +He showed her swelling leafbuds on rose branches which +had seemed dead. He showed her ten thousand new green +points pushing through the mould. They put their eager +young noses close to the earth and sniffed its warmed +springtime breathing; they dug and pulled and laughed low +with rapture until Mistress Mary's hair was as tumbled +as Dickon's and her cheeks were almost as poppy red as his. + +There was every joy on earth in the secret garden +that morning, and in the midst of them came a delight +more delightful than all, because it was more wonderful. +Swiftly something flew across the wall and darted through +the trees to a close grown corner, a little flare of +red-breasted bird with something hanging from its beak. +Dickon stood quite still and put his hand on Mary almost +as if they had suddenly found themselves laughing in a church. + +"We munnot stir," he whispered in broad Yorkshire. +"We munnot scarce breathe. I knowed he was mate-huntin' +when I seed him last. It's Ben Weatherstaff's robin. +He's buildin' his nest. He'll stay here if us don't fight him." +They settled down softly upon the grass and sat there +without moving. + +"Us mustn't seem as if us was watchin' him too close," +said Dickon. "He'd be out with us for good if he got th' +notion us was interferin' now. He'll be a good bit different +till all this is over. He's settin' up housekeepin'. +He'll be shyer an' readier to take things ill. +He's got no time for visitin' an' gossipin'. Us must +keep still a bit an' try to look as if us was grass an' +trees an' bushes. Then when he's got used to seein' +us I'll chirp a bit an' he'll know us'll not be in +his way." + +Mistress Mary was not at all sure that she knew, as Dickon +seemed to, how to try to look like grass and trees and bushes. +But he had said the queer thing as if it were the simplest +and most natural thing in the world, and she felt it must +be quite easy to him, and indeed she watched him for a few +minutes carefully, wondering if it was possible for him +to quietly turn green and put out branches and leaves. +But he only sat wonderfully still, and when he spoke +dropped his voice to such a softness that it was curious +that she could hear him, but she could. + +"It's part o' th' springtime, this nest-buildin' +is," he said. "I warrant it's been goin' on in th' +same way every year since th' world was begun. +They've got their way o' thinkin' and doin' things an' +a body had better not meddle. You can lose a friend +in springtime easier than any other season if you're too +curious." + +"If we talk about him I can't help looking at him," Mary said +as softly as possible. "We must talk of something else. +There is something I want to tell you." + +"He'll like it better if us talks o' somethin' else," +said Dickon. "What is it tha's got to tell me?" + +"Well--do you know about Colin?" she whispered. + +He turned his head to look at her. + +"What does tha' know about him?" he asked. + +"I've seen him. I have been to talk to him every day +this week. He wants me to come. He says I'm making him +forget about being ill and dying," answered Mary. + +Dickon looked actually relieved as soon as the surprise +died away from his round face. + +"I am glad o' that," he exclaimed. "I'm right down glad. +It makes me easier. I knowed I must say nothin' about him an' +I don't like havin' to hide things." + +"Don't you like hiding the garden?" said Mary. + +"I'll never tell about it," he answered. "But I says +to mother, `Mother,' I says, `I got a secret to keep. +It's not a bad 'un, tha' knows that. It's no worse +than hidin' where a bird's nest is. Tha' doesn't mind it, +does tha'?'" + +Mary always wanted to hear about mother. + +"What did she say?" she asked, not at all afraid to hear. + +Dickon grinned sweet-temperedly. + +"It was just like her, what she said," he answered. +"She give my head a bit of a rub an' laughed an' she says, +'Eh, lad, tha' can have all th' secrets tha' likes. +I've knowed thee twelve year'.'" + +"How did you know about Colin?" asked Mary. + +"Everybody as knowed about Mester Craven knowed there was +a little lad as was like to be a cripple, an' they knowed +Mester Craven didn't like him to be talked about. Folks is +sorry for Mester Craven because Mrs. Craven was such a pretty +young lady an' they was so fond of each other. Mrs. Medlock +stops in our cottage whenever she goes to Thwaite an' +she doesn't mind talkin' to mother before us children, +because she knows us has been brought up to be trusty. +How did tha' find out about him? Martha was in fine +trouble th' last time she came home. She said tha'd +heard him frettin' an' tha' was askin' questions an' +she didn't know what to say." + +Mary told him her story about the midnight wuthering +of the wind which had wakened her and about the faint +far-off sounds of the complaining voice which had led +her down the dark corridors with her candle and had +ended with her opening of the door of the dimly lighted +room with the carven four-posted bed in the corner. +When she described the small ivory-white face and the +strange black-rimmed eyes Dickon shook his head. + +"Them's just like his mother's eyes, only hers was +always laughin', they say," he said. "They say as +Mr. Craven can't bear to see him when he's awake an' +it's because his eyes is so like his mother's an' +yet looks so different in his miserable bit of a face." + +"Do you think he wants to die?" whispered Mary. + +"No, but he wishes he'd never been born. Mother she +says that's th' worst thing on earth for a child. +Them as is not wanted scarce ever thrives. Mester Craven +he'd buy anythin' as money could buy for th' poor lad +but he'd like to forget as he's on earth. For one thing, +he's afraid he'll look at him some day and find he's +growed hunchback." + +"Colin's so afraid of it himself that he won't sit up," +said Mary. "He says he's always thinking that if he +should feel a lump coming he should go crazy and scream +himself to death." + +"Eh! he oughtn't to lie there thinkin' things like that," +said Dickon. "No lad could get well as thought them +sort o' things." + +The fox was lying on the grass close by him, looking up to +ask for a pat now and then, and Dickon bent down and rubbed +his neck softly and thought a few minutes in silence. +Presently he lifted his head and looked round the garden. + +"When first we got in here," he said, "it seemed like +everything was gray. Look round now and tell me if tha' +doesn't see a difference." + +Mary looked and caught her breath a little. + +"Why!" she cried, "the gray wall is changing. +It is as if a green mist were creeping over it. +It's almost like a green gauze veil." + +"Aye," said Dickon. "An' it'll be greener and greener till th' +gray's all gone. Can tha' guess what I was thinkin'?" + +"I know it was something nice," said Mary eagerly. +"I believe it was something about Colin." + +"I was thinkin' that if he was out here he wouldn't be watchin' +for lumps to grow on his back; he'd be watchin' for buds +to break on th' rose-bushes, an' he'd likely be healthier," +explained Dickon. "I was wonderin' if us could ever +get him in th' humor to come out here an' lie under th' +trees in his carriage." + +"I've been wondering that myself. I've thought of it +almost every time I've talked to him," said Mary. +"I've wondered if he could keep a secret and I've wondered +if we could bring him here without any one seeing us. +I thought perhaps you could push his carriage. The doctor +said he must have fresh air and if he wants us to take him +out no one dare disobey him. He won't go out for other people +and perhaps they will be glad if he will go out with us. +He could order the gardeners to keep away so they wouldn't +find out." + +Dickon was thinking very hard as he scratched Captain's back. + +"It'd be good for him, I'll warrant," he said. +"Us'd not be thinkin' he'd better never been born. +Us'd be just two children watchin' a garden grow, an' +he'd be another. Two lads an' a little lass just lookin' +on at th' springtime. I warrant it'd be better than +doctor's stuff." + +"He's been lying in his room so long and he's always +been so afraid of his back that it has made him queer," +said Mary. "He knows a good many things out of books +but he doesn't know anything else. He says he has been +too ill to notice things and he hates going out of doors +and hates gardens and gardeners. But he likes to hear +about this garden because it is a secret. I daren't tell +him much but he said he wanted to see it." + +"Us'll have him out here sometime for sure," said Dickon. +"I could push his carriage well enough. Has tha' +noticed how th' robin an' his mate has been workin' +while we've been sittin' here? Look at him perched on that +branch wonderin' where it'd be best to put that twig he's +got in his beak." + +He made one of his low whistling calls and the robin turned +his head and looked at him inquiringly, still holding +his twig. Dickon spoke to him as Ben Weatherstaff did, +but Dickon's tone was one of friendly advice. + +"Wheres'ever tha' puts it," he said, "it'll be +all right. Tha' knew how to build tha' nest before tha' +came out o' th' egg. Get on with thee, lad. Tha'st got +no time to lose." + +"Oh, I do like to hear you talk to him!" Mary said, +laughing delightedly. "Ben Weatherstaff scolds him +and makes fun of him, and he hops about and looks as +if he understood every word, and I know he likes it. +Ben Weatherstaff says he is so conceited he would rather +have stones thrown at him than not be noticed." + +Dickon laughed too and went on talking. + +"Tha' knows us won't trouble thee," he said to the robin. +"Us is near bein' wild things ourselves. Us is nest-buildin' +too, bless thee. Look out tha' doesn't tell on us." + +And though the robin did not answer, because his beak +was occupied, Mary knew that when he flew away with his +twig to his own corner of the garden the darkness of his +dew-bright eye meant that he would not tell their secret +for the world. + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +"I WON'T!" SAID MARY + + +They found a great deal to do that morning and Mary +was late in returning to the house and was also in such +a hurry to get back to her work that she quite forgot +Colin until the last moment. + +"Tell Colin that I can't come and see him yet," she said +to Martha. "I'm very busy in the garden." + +Martha looked rather frightened. + +"Eh! Miss Mary," she said, "it may put him all out +of humor when I tell him that." + +But Mary was not as afraid of him as other people were +and she was not a self-sacrificing person. + +"I can't stay," she answered. "Dickon's waiting for me;" +and she ran away. + +The afternoon was even lovelier and busier than the morning +had been. Already nearly all the weeds were cleared +out of the garden and most of the roses and trees had +been pruned or dug about. Dickon had brought a spade +of his own and he had taught Mary to use all her tools, +so that by this time it was plain that though the lovely +wild place was not likely to become a "gardener's garden" +it would be a wilderness of growing things before the +springtime was over. + +"There'll be apple blossoms an' cherry blossoms overhead," +Dickon said, working away with all his might. +"An' there'll be peach an' plum trees in bloom against th' +walls, an' th' grass'll be a carpet o' flowers." + +The little fox and the rook were as happy and busy +as they were, and the robin and his mate flew +backward and forward like tiny streaks of lightning. +Sometimes the rook flapped his black wings and soared away +over the tree-tops in the park. Each time he came back +and perched near Dickon and cawed several times as if he +were relating his adventures, and Dickon talked to him +just as he had talked to the robin. Once when Dickon +was so busy that he did not answer him at first, Soot flew +on to his shoulders and gently tweaked his ear with his +large beak. When Mary wanted to rest a little Dickon +sat down with her under a tree and once he took his pipe +out of his pocket and played the soft strange little notes +and two squirrels appeared on the wall and looked and listened. + +"Tha's a good bit stronger than tha' was," Dickon said, +looking at her as she was digging. "Tha's beginning +to look different, for sure." + +Mary was glowing with exercise and good spirits. + +"I'm getting fatter and fatter every day," she said +quite exultantly. "Mrs. Medlock will have to get me some +bigger dresses. Martha says my hair is growing thicker. +It isn't so flat and stringy." + +The sun was beginning to set and sending deep gold-colored +rays slanting under the trees when they parted. + +"It'll be fine tomorrow," said Dickon. "I'll be at work +by sunrise." + +"So will I," said Mary. + + +She ran back to the house as quickly as her feet would +carry her. She wanted to tell Colin about Dickon's fox cub +and the rook and about what the springtime had been doing. +She felt sure he would like to hear. So it was not very +pleasant when she opened the door of her room, to see +Martha standing waiting for her with a doleful face. + +"What is the matter?" she asked. "What did Colin say +when you told him I couldn't come?" + +"Eh!" said Martha, "I wish tha'd gone. He was nigh goin' +into one o' his tantrums. There's been a nice to do all +afternoon to keep him quiet. He would watch the clock +all th' time." + +Mary's lips pinched themselves together. She was no more +used to considering other people than Colin was and she +saw no reason why an ill-tempered boy should interfere +with the thing she liked best. She knew nothing about +the pitifulness of people who had been ill and nervous +and who did not know that they could control their tempers +and need not make other people ill and nervous, too. +When she had had a headache in India she had done her +best to see that everybody else also had a headache or +something quite as bad. And she felt she was quite right; +but of course now she felt that Colin was quite wrong. + +He was not on his sofa when she went into his room. +He was lying flat on his back in bed and he did not turn +his head toward her as she came in. This was a bad beginning +and Mary marched up to him with her stiff manner. + +"Why didn't you get up?" she said. + +"I did get up this morning when I thought you were coming," +he answered, without looking at her. "I made them put +me back in bed this afternoon. My back ached and my +head ached and I was tired. Why didn't you come?" +"I was working in the garden with Dickon," said Mary. + +Colin frowned and condescended to look at her. + +"I won't let that boy come here if you go and stay +with him instead of coming to talk to me," he said. + +Mary flew into a fine passion. She could fly into +a passion without making a noise. She just grew sour +and obstinate and did not care what happened. + +"If you send Dickon away, I'll never come into this +room again!" she retorted. + +"You'll have to if I want you," said Colin. + +"I won't!" said Mary. + +"I'll make you," said Colin. "They shall drag you in." + +"Shall they, Mr. Rajah!" said Mary fiercely. "They may drag +me in but they can't make me talk when they get me here. +I'll sit and clench my teeth and never tell you one thing. +I won't even look at you. I'll stare at the floor!" + +They were a nice agreeable pair as they glared at each other. +If they had been two little street boys they would have +sprung at each other and had a rough-and-tumble fight. +As it was, they did the next thing to it. + +"You are a selfish thing!" cried Colin. + +"What are you?" said Mary. "Selfish people always say that. +Any one is selfish who doesn't do what they want. +You're more selfish than I am. You're the most selfish boy +I ever saw." + +"I'm not!" snapped Colin. "I'm not as selfish as your +fine Dickon is! He keeps you playing in the dirt when he +knows I am all by myself. He's selfish, if you like!" + +Mary's eyes flashed fire. + +"He's nicer than any other boy that ever lived!" she said. +"He's--he's like an angel!" It might sound rather silly +to say that but she did not care. + +"A nice angel!" Colin sneered ferociously. "He's a common +cottage boy off the moor!" + +"He's better than a common Rajah!" retorted Mary. +"He's a thousand times better!" + +Because she was the stronger of the two she was beginning +to get the better of him. The truth was that he had +never had a fight with any one like himself in his +life and, upon the whole, it was rather good for him, +though neither he nor Mary knew anything about that. +He turned his head on his pillow and shut his eyes +and a big tear was squeezed out and ran down his cheek. +He was beginning to feel pathetic and sorry for himself--not +for any one else. + +"I'm not as selfish as you, because I'm always ill, +and I'm sure there is a lump coming on my back," he said. +"And I am going to die besides." + +"You're not!" contradicted Mary unsympathetically. + +He opened his eyes quite wide with indignation. +He had never heard such a thing said before. He was at +once furious and slightly pleased, if a person could +be both at one time. + +"I'm not?" he cried. "I am! You know I am! Everybody +says so." + +"I don't believe it!" said Mary sourly. "You just say +that to make people sorry. I believe you're proud of it. +I don't believe it! If you were a nice boy it might be +true--but you're too nasty!" + +In spite of his invalid back Colin sat up in bed in quite +a healthy rage. + +"Get out of the room!" he shouted and he caught hold +of his pillow and threw it at her. He was not strong +enough to throw it far and it only fell at her feet, +but Mary's face looked as pinched as a nutcracker. + +"I'm going," she said. "And I won't come back!" +She walked to the door and when she reached it she turned +round and spoke again. + +"I was going to tell you all sorts of nice things," +she said. "Dickon brought his fox and his rook and I was +going to tell you all about them. Now I won't tell you +a single thing!" + +She marched out of the door and closed it behind her, +and there to her great astonishment she found the trained +nurse standing as if she had been listening and, more amazing +still--she was laughing. She was a big handsome young +woman who ought not to have been a trained nurse at all, +as she could not bear invalids and she was always +making excuses to leave Colin to Martha or any one else +who would take her place. Mary had never liked her, +and she simply stood and gazed up at her as she stood +giggling into her handkerchief.. + +"What are you laughing at?" she asked her. + +"At you two young ones," said the nurse. "It's the best +thing that could happen to the sickly pampered thing +to have some one to stand up to him that's as spoiled +as himself;" and she laughed into her handkerchief again. +"If he'd had a young vixen of a sister to fight with it +would have been the saving of him." + +"Is he going to die?" + +"I don't know and I don't care," said the nurse. +"Hysterics and temper are half what ails him." + +"What are hysterics?" asked Mary. + +"You'll find out if you work him into a tantrum after +this--but at any rate you've given him something to have +hysterics about, and I'm glad of it." + +Mary went back to her room not feeling at all as she +had felt when she had come in from the garden. She was +cross and disappointed but not at all sorry for Colin. +She had looked forward to telling him a great many things +and she had meant to try to make up her mind whether +it would be safe to trust him with the great secret. +She had been beginning to think it would be, but now she +had changed her mind entirely. She would never tell him +and he could stay in his room and never get any fresh +air and die if he liked! It would serve him right! She +felt so sour and unrelenting that for a few minutes she +almost forgot about Dickon and the green veil creeping +over the world and the soft wind blowing down from +the moor. + +Martha was waiting for her and the trouble in her face +had been temporarily replaced by interest and curiosity. +There was a wooden box on the table and its cover had been +removed and revealed that it was full of neat packages. + +"Mr. Craven sent it to you," said Martha. "It looks +as if it had picture-books in it." + +Mary remembered what he had asked her the day she had gone +to his room. "Do you want anything--dolls--toys --books?" +She opened the package wondering if he had sent a doll, +and also wondering what she should do with it if he had. +But he had not sent one. There were several beautiful +books such as Colin had, and two of them were about gardens +and were full of pictures. There were two or three games +and there was a beautiful little writing-case with a gold +monogram on it and a gold pen and inkstand. + +Everything was so nice that her pleasure began to crowd +her anger out of her mind. She had not expected him +to remember her at all and her hard little heart grew +quite warm. + +"I can write better than I can print," she said, +"and the first thing I shall write with that pen will +be a letter to tell him I am much obliged." + +If she had been friends with Colin she would have run to show +him her presents at once, and they would have looked at the +pictures and read some of the gardening books and perhaps +tried playing the games, and he would have enjoyed himself +so much he would never once have thought he was going +to die or have put his hand on his spine to see if there +was a lump coming. He had a way of doing that which she +could not bear. It gave her an uncomfortable frightened +feeling because he always looked so frightened himself. +He said that if he felt even quite a little lump +some day he should know his hunch had begun to grow. +Something he had heard Mrs. Medlock whispering to the +nurse had given him the idea and he had thought over it +in secret until it was quite firmly fixed in his mind. +Mrs. Medlock had said his father's back had begun to show +its crookedness in that way when he was a child. He had +never told any one but Mary that most of his "tantrums" +as they called them grew out of his hysterical hidden fear. +Mary had been sorry for him when he had told her. + +"He always began to think about it when he was cross or tired," +she said to herself. "And he has been cross today. +Perhaps--perhaps he has been thinking about it all afternoon." + +She stood still, looking down at the carpet and thinking. + +"I said I would never go back again--" she hesitated, +knitting her brows--"but perhaps, just perhaps, +I will go and see--if he wants me--in the morning. +Perhaps he'll try to throw his pillow at me again, +but--I think--I'll go." + + + +CHAPTER XVII + +A TANTRUM + + +She had got up very early in the morning and had worked +hard in the garden and she was tired and sleepy, so as soon +as Martha had brought her supper and she had eaten it, +she was glad to go to bed. As she laid her head on +the pillow she murmured to herself: + +"I'll go out before breakfast and work with Dickon +and then afterward--I believe--I'll go to see him." + +She thought it was the middle of the night when she was +awakened by such dreadful sounds that she jumped out of +bed in an instant. What was it--what was it? The next +minute she felt quite sure she knew. Doors were opened +and shut and there were hurrying feet in the corridors +and some one was crying and screaming at the same time, +screaming and crying in a horrible way. + +"It's Colin," she said. "He's having one of those tantrums +the nurse called hysterics. How awful it sounds." + +As she listened to the sobbing screams she did not +wonder that people were so frightened that they gave +him his own way in everything rather than hear them. +She put her hands over her ears and felt sick and shivering. + +"I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do," +she kept saying. "I can't bear it." + +Once she wondered if he would stop if she dared go +to him and then she remembered how he had driven her out +of the room and thought that perhaps the sight of her +might make him worse. Even when she pressed her hands +more tightly over her ears she could not keep the awful +sounds out. She hated them so and was so terrified +by them that suddenly they began to make her angry +and she felt as if she should like to fly into a tantrum +herself and frighten him as he was frightening her. +She was not used to any one's tempers but her own. She took +her hands from her ears and sprang up and stamped her foot. + +"He ought to be stopped! Somebody ought to make him stop! +Somebody ought to beat him!" she cried out. + +Just then she heard feet almost running down the corridor +and her door opened and the nurse came in. She was not +laughing now by any means. She even looked rather pale. + +"He's worked himself into hysterics," she said in a great hurry. +"He'll do himself harm. No one can do anything with him. +You come and try, like a good child. He likes you." + +"He turned me out of the room this morning," said Mary, +stamping her foot with excitement. + +The stamp rather pleased the nurse. The truth was that she +had been afraid she might find Mary crying and hiding +her head under the bed-clothes. + +"That's right," she said. "You're in the right humor. +You go and scold him. Give him something new to think of. +Do go, child, as quick as ever you can." + +It was not until afterward that Mary realized that the thing +had been funny as well as dreadful--that it was funny that all +the grown-up people were so frightened that they came to a little +girl just because they guessed she was almost as bad as Colin +himself. + +She flew along the corridor and the nearer she got +to the screams the higher her temper mounted. +She felt quite wicked by the time she reached the door. +She slapped it open with her hand and ran across the room +to the four-posted bed. + +"You stop!" she almost shouted. "You stop! I hate you! +Everybody hates you! I wish everybody would run out of the +house and let you scream yourself to death! You will scream +yourself to death in a minute, and I wish you would!" +A nice sympathetic child could neither have thought nor +said such things, but it just happened that the shock of +hearing them was the best possible thing for this hysterical +boy whom no one had ever dared to restrain or contradict. + +He had been lying on his face beating his pillow with his +hands and he actually almost jumped around, he turned +so quickly at the sound of the furious little voice. +His face looked dreadful, white and red and swollen, +and he was gasping and choking; but savage little Mary did +not care an atom. + +"If you scream another scream," she said, "I'll scream +too --and I can scream louder than you can and I'll +frighten you, I'll frighten you!" + +He actually had stopped screaming because she had startled +him so. The scream which had been coming almost choked him. +The tears were streaming down his face and he shook +all over. + +"I can't stop!" he gasped and sobbed. "I can't--I can't!" + +"You can!" shouted Mary. "Half that ails you is hysterics +and temper--just hysterics--hysterics--hysterics!" +and she stamped each time she said it. + +"I felt the lump--I felt it," choked out Colin. +"I knew I should. I shall have a hunch on my back and then +I shall die," and he began to writhe again and turned +on his face and sobbed and wailed but he didn't scream. + +"You didn't feel a lump!" contradicted Mary fiercely. "If you +did it was only a hysterical lump. Hysterics makes lumps. +There's nothing the matter with your horrid back--nothing +but hysterics! Turn over and let me look at it!" + +She liked the word "hysterics" and felt somehow as if it +had an effect on him. He was probably like herself +and had never heard it before. + +"Nurse," she commanded, "come here and show me his back +this minute!" + +The nurse, Mrs. Medlock and Martha had been standing +huddled together near the door staring at her, their mouths +half open. All three had gasped with fright more than once. +The nurse came forward as if she were half afraid. +Colin was heaving with great breathless sobs. + +"Perhaps he--he won't let me," she hesitated in a low voice. + +Colin heard her, however, and he gasped out between two +sobs: + +"Sh-show her! She-she'll see then!" + +It was a poor thin back to look at when it was bared. +Every rib could be counted and every joint of the spine, +though Mistress Mary did not count them as she bent over +and examined them with a solemn savage little face. +She looked so sour and old-fashioned that the nurse turned +her head aside to hide the twitching of her mouth. +There was just a minute's silence, for even Colin tried +to hold his breath while Mary looked up and down his spine, +and down and up, as intently as if she had been the great +doctor from London. + +"There's not a single lump there!" she said at last. +"There's not a lump as big as a pin--except backbone lumps, +and you can only feel them because you're thin. +I've got backbone lumps myself, and they used to stick +out as much as yours do, until I began to get fatter, +and I am not fat enough yet to hide them. There's not +a lump as big as a pin! If you ever say there is again, +I shall laugh!" + +No one but Colin himself knew what effect those crossly +spoken childish words had on him. If he had ever +had any one to talk to about his secret terrors--if he +had ever dared to let himself ask questions--if he had +had childish companions and had not lain on his back +in the huge closed house, breathing an atmosphere heavy +with the fears of people who were most of them ignorant +and tired of him, he would have found out that most +of his fright and illness was created by himself. +But he had lain and thought of himself and his aches +and weariness for hours and days and months and years. +And now that an angry unsympathetic little girl insisted +obstinately that he was not as ill as he thought he was +he actually felt as if she might be speaking the truth. + +"I didn't know," ventured the nurse, "that he thought he +had a lump on his spine. His back is weak because he +won't try to sit up. I could have told him there was no +lump there." Colin gulped and turned his face a little +to look at her. + +"C-could you?" he said pathetically. + +"Yes, sir." + +"There!" said Mary, and she gulped too. + +Colin turned on his face again and but for his long-drawn +broken breaths, which were the dying down of his storm +of sobbing, he lay still for a minute, though great tears +streamed down his face and wet the pillow. Actually the +tears meant that a curious great relief had come to him. +Presently he turned and looked at the nurse again and +strangely enough he was not like a Rajah at all as he +spoke to her. + +"Do you think--I could--live to grow up?" he said. + +The nurse was neither clever nor soft-hearted but she +could repeat some of the London doctor's words. + +"You probably will if you will do what you are told +to do and not give way to your temper, and stay +out a great deal in the fresh air." + +Colin's tantrum had passed and he was weak and worn +out with crying and this perhaps made him feel gentle. +He put out his hand a little toward Mary, and I am glad +to say that, her own tantum having passed, she was softened +too and met him half-way with her hand, so that it was +a sort of making up. + +"I'll--I'll go out with you, Mary," he said. "I shan't +hate fresh air if we can find--" He remembered just +in time to stop himself from saying "if we can find +the secret garden" and he ended, "I shall like to go +out with you if Dickon will come and push my chair. +I do so want to see Dickon and the fox and the crow." + +The nurse remade the tumbled bed and shook and straightened +the pillows. Then she made Colin a cup of beef tea +and gave a cup to Mary, who really was very glad to get +it after her excitement. Mrs. Medlock and Martha gladly +slipped away, and after everything was neat and calm +and in order the nurse looked as if she would very gladly +slip away also. She was a healthy young woman who resented +being robbed of her sleep and she yawned quite openly +as she looked at Mary, who had pushed her big footstool +close to the four-posted bed and was holding Colin's hand. + +"You must go back and get your sleep out," she said. +"He'll drop off after a while--if he's not too upset. +Then I'll lie down myself in the next room." + +"Would you like me to sing you that song I learned from +my Ayah?" Mary whispered to Colin. + +His hand pulled hers gently and he turned his tired eyes +on her appealingly. + +"Oh, yes!" he answered. "It's such a soft song. +I shall go to sleep in a minute." + +"I will put him to sleep," Mary said to the yawning nurse. +"You can go if you like." + +"Well," said the nurse, with an attempt at reluctance. +"If he doesn't go to sleep in half an hour you must +call me." + +"Very well," answered Mary. + +The nurse was out of the room in a minute and as soon +as she was gone Colin pulled Mary's hand again. + +"I almost told," he said; "but I stopped myself in time. +I won't talk and I'll go to sleep, but you said you had +a whole lot of nice things to tell me. Have you--do you +think you have found out anything at all about the way +into the secret garden?" + +Mary looked at his poor little tired face and swollen +eyes and her heart relented. + +"Ye-es," she answered, "I think I have. And if you +will go to sleep I will tell you tomorrow." His hand +quite trembled. + +"Oh, Mary!" he said. "Oh, Mary! If I could get into it +I think I should live to grow up! Do you suppose that +instead of singing the Ayah song--you could just tell +me softly as you did that first day what you imagine it +looks like inside? I am sure it will make me go to sleep." + +"Yes," answered Mary. "Shut your eyes." + +He closed his eyes and lay quite still and she held his +hand and began to speak very slowly and in a very low voice. + +"I think it has been left alone so long--that it has grown +all into a lovely tangle. I think the roses have climbed and +climbed and climbed until they hang from the branches and walls +and creep over the ground--almost like a strange gray mist. +Some of them have died but many--are alive and when the +summer comes there will be curtains and fountains of roses. +I think the ground is full of daffodils and snowdrops +and lilies and iris working their way out of the dark. +Now the spring has begun--perhaps--perhaps--" + +The soft drone of her voice was making him stiller +and stiller and she saw it and went on. + +"Perhaps they are coming up through the grass--perhaps there +are clusters of purple crocuses and gold ones--even now. +Perhaps the leaves are beginning to break out and uncurl--and +perhaps--the gray is changing and a green gauze veil is +creeping--and creeping over--everything. And the birds are +coming to look at it--because it is--so safe and still. +And perhaps--perhaps--perhaps--" very softly and slowly indeed, +"the robin has found a mate--and is building a nest." + +And Colin was asleep. + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + +"THA' MUNNOT WASTE NO TIME" + + +Of course Mary did not waken early the next morning. +She slept late because she was tired, and when Martha +brought her breakfast she told her that though. +Colin was quite quiet he was ill and feverish as he always +was after he had worn himself out with a fit of crying. +Mary ate her breakfast slowly as she listened. + +"He says he wishes tha' would please go and see him as soon +as tha' can," Martha said. "It's queer what a fancy +he's took to thee. Tha' did give it him last night for +sure--didn't tha? Nobody else would have dared to do it. +Eh! poor lad! He's been spoiled till salt won't save him. +Mother says as th' two worst things as can happen to a +child is never to have his own way--or always to have it. +She doesn't know which is th' worst. Tha' was in a fine temper +tha'self, too. But he says to me when I went into his room, +`Please ask Miss Mary if she'll please come an, talk to me?' +Think o' him saying please! Will you go, Miss?" "I'll run +and see Dickon first," said Mary. "No, I'll go and see +Colin first and tell him--I know what I'll tell him," +with a sudden inspiration. + +She had her hat on when she appeared in Colin's room +and for a second he looked disappointed. He was in bed. +His face was pitifully white and there were dark circles +round his eyes. + +"I'm glad you came," he said. "My head aches and I ache +all over because I'm so tired. Are you going somewhere?" + +Mary went and leaned against his bed. + +"I won't be long," she said. "I'm going to Dickon, +but I'll come back. Colin, it's--it's something about +the garden." + +His whole face brightened and a little color came into it. + +"Oh! is it?" he cried out. "I dreamed about it all night +I heard you say something about gray changing into green, +and I dreamed I was standing in a place all filled +with trembling little green leaves--and there were birds +on nests everywhere and they looked so soft and still. +I'll lie and think about it until you come back." + + +In five minutes Mary was with Dickon in their garden. +The fox and the crow were with him again and this time +he had brought two tame squirrels. "I came over on the +pony this mornin'," he said. "Eh! he is a good little +chap--Jump is! I brought these two in my pockets. +This here one he's called Nut an' this here other one's +called Shell." + +When he said "Nut" one squirrel leaped on to his right +shoulder and when he said "Shell" the other one leaped +on to his left shoulder. + +When they sat down on the grass with Captain curled at +their feet, Soot solemnly listening on a tree and Nut and +Shell nosing about close to them, it seemed to Mary that it +would be scarcely bearable to leave such delightfulness, +but when she began to tell her story somehow the look +in Dickon's funny face gradually changed her mind. +She could see he felt sorrier for Colin than she did. +He looked up at the sky and all about him. + +"Just listen to them birds--th' world seems full +of 'em--all whistlin' an' pipin'," he said. +"Look at 'em dartin' about, an' hearken at 'em callin' +to each other. Come springtime seems like as if all th' +world's callin'. The leaves is uncurlin' so you can see +'em--an', my word, th' nice smells there is about!" +sniffing with his happy turned-up nose. "An' that poor +lad lyin' shut up an' seein' so little that he gets +to thinkin' o' things as sets him screamin'. Eh! my! +we mun get him out here--we mun get him watchin' +an listenin' an' sniffin' up th' air an' get him just soaked +through wi' sunshine. An' we munnot lose no time about it." + +When he was very much interested he often spoke quite +broad Yorkshire though at other times he tried to modify +his dialect so that Mary could better understand. +But she loved his broad Yorkshire and had in fact been +trying to learn to speak it herself. So she spoke +a little now. + +"Aye, that we mun," she said (which meant "Yes, indeed, +we must"). "I'll tell thee what us'll do first," she proceeded, +and Dickon grinned, because when the little wench tried +to twist her tongue into speaking Yorkshire it amused +him very much. "He's took a graidely fancy to thee. +He wants to see thee and he wants to see Soot an' Captain. +When I go back to the house to talk to him I'll ax him +if tha' canna' come an' see him tomorrow mornin'--an'. +bring tha' creatures wi' thee--an' then--in a bit, +when there's more leaves out, an' happen a bud or two, +we'll get him to come out an' tha' shall push him in his +chair an' we'll bring him here an' show him everything." + +When she stopped she was quite proud of herself. +She had never made a long speech in Yorkshire before +and she had remembered very well. + +"Tha' mun talk a bit o' Yorkshire like that to Mester Colin," +Dickon chuckled. "Tha'll make him laugh an' there's nowt +as good for ill folk as laughin' is. Mother says she +believes as half a hour's good laugh every mornin' +'ud cure a chap as was makin' ready for typhus fever." + +"I'm going to talk Yorkshire to him this very day," +said Mary, chuckling herself. + +The garden had reached the time when every day and every night +it seemed as if Magicians were passing through it drawing +loveliness out of the earth and the boughs with wands. +It was hard to go away and leave it all, particularly as Nut +had actually crept on to her dress and Shell had scrambled +down the trunk of the apple-tree they sat under and stayed +there looking at her with inquiring eyes. But she went back +to the house and when she sat down close to Colin's bed +he began to sniff as Dickon did though not in such an experienced +way. + +"You smell like flowers and--and fresh things," he cried +out quite joyously. "What is it you smell of? It's cool +and warm and sweet all at the same time." + +"It's th' wind from th' moor," said Mary. "It comes o' sittin' +on th' grass under a tree wi' Dickon an' wi' Captain an' +Soot an' Nut an' Shell. It's th' springtime an' out o' +doors an' sunshine as smells so graidely." + +She said it as broadly as she could, and you do not know +how broadly Yorkshire sounds until you have heard some +one speak it. Colin began to laugh. + +"What are you doing?" he said. "I never heard you talk +like that before. How funny it sounds." + +"I'm givin' thee a bit o' Yorkshire," answered Mary triumphantly. +"I canna' talk as graidely as Dickon an' Martha can but tha' +sees I can shape a bit. Doesn't tha' understand a bit o' +Yorkshire when tha' hears it? An' tha' a Yorkshire lad thysel' +bred an' born! Eh! I wonder tha'rt not ashamed o' +thy face." + +And then she began to laugh too and they both laughed until +they could not stop themselves and they laughed until +the room echoed and Mrs. Medlock opening the door to come +in drew back into the corridor and stood listening amazed. + +"Well, upon my word!" she said, speaking rather broad +Yorkshire herself because there was no one to hear +her and she was so astonished. "Whoever heard th' +like! Whoever on earth would ha' thought it!" + +There was so much to talk about. It seemed as if Colin +could never hear enough of Dickon and Captain and Soot +and Nut and Shell and the pony whose name was Jump. +Mary had run round into the wood with Dickon to see Jump. +He was a tiny little shaggy moor pony with thick locks +hanging over his eyes and with a pretty face and a nuzzling +velvet nose. He was rather thin with living on moor +grass but he was as tough and wiry as if the muscle +in his little legs had been made of steel springs. +He had lifted his head and whinnied softly the moment +he saw Dickon and he had trotted up to him and put his +head across his shoulder and then Dickon had talked into +his ear and Jump had talked back in odd little whinnies +and puffs and snorts. Dickon had made him give Mary +his small front hoof and kiss her on her cheek with his +velvet muzzle. + +"Does he really understand everything Dickon says?" +Colin asked. + +"It seems as if he does," answered Mary. "Dickon says +anything will understand if you're friends with it for sure, +but you have to be friends for sure." + +Colin lay quiet a little while and his strange gray +eyes seemed to be staring at the wall, but Mary saw +he was thinking. + +"I wish I was friends with things," he said at last, +"but I'm not. I never had anything to be friends with, +and I can't bear people." + +"Can't you bear me?" asked Mary. + +"Yes, I can," he answered. "It's funny but I even like you." + +"Ben Weatherstaff said I was like him," said Mary. +"He said he'd warrant we'd both got the same nasty tempers. +I think you are like him too. We are all three alike--you +and I and Ben Weatherstaff. He said we were neither +of us much to look at and we were as sour as we looked. +But I don't feel as sour as I used to before I knew the robin +and Dickon." + +"Did you feel as if you hated people?" + +"Yes," answered Mary without any affectation. +"I should have detested you if I had seen you before +I saw the robin and Dickon." + +Colin put out his thin hand and touched her. + +"Mary," he said, "I wish I hadn't said what I did about +sending Dickon away. I hated you when you said he was +like an angel and I laughed at you but--but perhaps he is." + +"Well, it was rather funny to say it," she admitted frankly, +"because his nose does turn up and he has a big mouth +and his clothes have patches all over them and he talks +broad Yorkshire, but--but if an angel did come to Yorkshire +and live on the moor--if there was a Yorkshire angel--I +believe he'd understand the green things and know how to +make them grow and he would know how to talk to the wild +creatures as Dickon does and they'd know he was friends for +sure." + +"I shouldn't mind Dickon looking at me," said Colin; +"I want to see him." + +"I'm glad you said that," answered Mary, "because--because--" + +Quite suddenly it came into her mind that this was the +minute to tell him. Colin knew something new was coming. + +"Because what?" he cried eagerly. + +Mary was so anxious that she got up from her stool +and came to him and caught hold of both his hands. + +"Can I trust you? I trusted Dickon because birds trusted him. +Can I trust you--for sure--for sure?" she implored. + +Her face was so solemn that he almost whispered his answer. + +"Yes--yes!" + +"Well, Dickon will come to see you tomorrow morning, +and he'll bring his creatures with him." + +"Oh! Oh!" Colin cried out in delight. + +"But that's not all," Mary went on, almost pale with +solemn excitement. "The rest is better. There is a door +into the garden. I found it. It is under the ivy on the wall." + +If he had been a strong healthy boy Colin would probably +have shouted "Hooray! Hooray! Hooray!" but he was weak +and rather hysterical; his eyes grew bigger and bigger +and he gasped for breath. + +"Oh! Mary!" he cried out with a half sob. "Shall I see +it? Shall I get into it? Shall I live to get into it?" +and he clutched her hands and dragged her toward him. + +"Of course you'll see it!" snapped Mary indignantly. +"Of course you'll live to get into it! Don't be silly!" + +And she was so un-hysterical and natural and childish +that she brought him to his senses and he began to laugh +at himself and a few minutes afterward she was sitting +on her stool again telling him not what she imagined +the secret garden to be like but what it really was, +and Colin's aches and tiredness were forgotten and he +was listening enraptured. + +"It is just what you thought it would be," he said at last. +"It sounds just as if you had really seen it. You know I +said that when you told me first." + +Mary hesitated about two minutes and then boldly spoke +the truth. + +"I had seen it--and I had been in," she said. "I found +the key and got in weeks ago. But I daren't tell you--I +daren't because I was so afraid I couldn't trust you--for sure!" + + + +CHAPTER XIX + +"IT HAS COME!" + +Of course Dr. Craven had been sent for the morning after +Colin had had his tantrum. He was always sent for at +once when such a thing occurred and he always found, +when he arrived, a white shaken boy lying on his bed, +sulky and still so hysterical that he was ready to break +into fresh sobbing at the least word. In fact, Dr. Craven +dreaded and detested the difficulties of these visits. +On this occasion he was away from Misselthwaite Manor +until afternoon. + +"How is he?" he asked Mrs. Medlock rather irritably when he +arrived. +"He will break a blood-vessel in one of those fits some day. +The boy is half insane with hysteria and self-indulgence." + +"Well, sir," answered Mrs. Medlock, "you'll scarcely believe +your eyes when you see him. That plain sour-faced child +that's almost as bad as himself has just bewitched him. +How she's done it there's no telling. The Lord knows +she's nothing to look at and you scarcely ever hear +her speak, but she did what none of us dare do. +She just flew at him like a little cat last night, +and stamped her feet and ordered him to stop screaming, +and somehow she startled him so that he actually did stop, +and this afternoon--well just come up and see, sir. +It's past crediting." + +The scene which Dr. Craven beheld when he entered his +patient's room was indeed rather astonishing to him. +As Mrs. Medlock opened the door he heard laughing +and chattering. Colin was on his sofa in his dressing-gown +and he was sitting up quite straight looking at a picture +in one of the garden books and talking to the plain +child who at that moment could scarcely be called plain +at all because her face was so glowing with enjoyment. + +"Those long spires of blue ones--we'll have a lot of those," +Colin was announcing. "They're called Del-phin-iums." + +"Dickon says they're larkspurs made big and grand," +cried Mistress Mary. "There are clumps there already." + +Then they saw Dr. Craven and stopped. Mary became quite +still and Colin looked fretful. + +"I am sorry to hear you were ill last night, my boy," +Dr. Craven said a trifle nervously. He was rather a +nervous man. + +"I'm better now--much better," Colin answered, +rather like a Rajah. "I'm going out in my chair +in a day or two if it is fine. I want some fresh air." + +Dr. Craven sat down by him and felt his pulse and looked +at him curiously. + +"It must be a very fine day," he said, "and you must +be very careful not to tire yourself." + +"Fresh air won't tire me," said the young Rajah. + +As there had been occasions when this same young gentleman +had shrieked aloud with rage and had insisted that fresh +air would give him cold and kill him, it is not to be +wondered at that his doctor felt somewhat startled. + +"I thought you did not like fresh air," he said. + +"I don't when I am by myself," replied the Rajah; +"but my cousin is going out with me." + +"And the nurse, of course?" suggested Dr. Craven. + +"No, I will not have the nurse," so magnificently that Mary +could not help remembering how the young native Prince +had looked with his diamonds and emeralds and pearls +stuck all over him and the great rubies on the small dark +hand he had waved to command his servants to approach +with salaams and receive his orders. + +"My cousin knows how to take care of me. I am always better +when she is with me. She made me better last night. +A very strong boy I know will push my carriage." + +Dr. Craven felt rather alarmed. If this tiresome +hysterical boy should chance to get well he himself would +lose all chance of inheriting Misselthwaite; but he +was not an unscrupulous man, though he was a weak one, +and he did not intend to let him run into actual danger. + +"He must be a strong boy and a steady boy," he said. +"And I must know something about him. Who is he? What is +his name?" + +"It's Dickon," Mary spoke up suddenly. She felt somehow +that everybody who knew the moor must know Dickon. +And she was right, too. She saw that in a moment +Dr. Craven's serious face relaxed into a relieved smile. + +"Oh, Dickon," he said. "If it is Dickon you will be +safe enough. He's as strong as a moor pony, is Dickon." + +"And he's trusty," said Mary. "He's th' trustiest lad i' +Yorkshire." She had been talking Yorkshire to Colin +and she forgot herself. + +"Did Dickon teach you that?" asked Dr. Craven, +laughing outright. + +"I'm learning it as if it was French," said Mary rather coldly. +"It's like a native dialect in India. Very clever +people try to learn them. I like it and so does Colin." +"Well, well," he said. "If it amuses you perhaps it won't +do you any harm. Did you take your bromide last night, Colin?" + +"No," Colin answered. "I wouldn't take it at first +and after Mary made me quiet she talked me to sleep--in +a low voice--about the spring creeping into a garden." + +"That sounds soothing," said Dr. Craven, more perplexed +than ever and glancing sideways at Mistress Mary sitting +on her stool and looking down silently at the carpet. +"You are evidently better, but you must remember--" + +"I don't want to remember," interrupted the Rajah, +appearing again. "When I lie by myself and remember I +begin to have pains everywhere and I think of things +that make me begin to scream because I hate them so. +If there was a doctor anywhere who could make you forget +you were ill instead of remembering it I would have him +brought here." And he waved a thin hand which ought really +to have been covered with royal signet rings made of rubies. +"It is because my cousin makes me forget that she makes +me better." + +Dr. Craven had never made such a short stay after a +"tantrum"; usually he was obliged to remain a very long +time and do a great many things. This afternoon he did +not give any medicine or leave any new orders and he was +spared any disagreeable scenes. When he went downstairs he +looked very thoughtful and when he talked to Mrs. Medlock +in the library she felt that he was a much puzzled man. + +"Well, sir," she ventured, "could you have believed it?" + +"It is certainly a new state of affairs," said the doctor. +"And there's no denying it is better than the old one." + +"I believe Susan Sowerby's right--I do that," said Mrs. Medlock. +"I stopped in her cottage on my way to Thwaite yesterday +and had a bit of talk with her. And she says to me, +'Well, Sarah Ann, she mayn't be a good child, an' she mayn't +be a pretty one, but she's a child, an' children needs +children.' We went to school together, Susan Sowerby and me." + +"She's the best sick nurse I know," said Dr. Craven. +"When I find her in a cottage I know the chances are that I +shall save my patient." + +Mrs. Medlock smiled. She was fond of Susan Sowerby. + +"She's got a way with her, has Susan," she went on +quite volubly. "I've been thinking all morning of one +thing she said yesterday. She says, `Once when I +was givin' th' children a bit of a preach after they'd +been fightin' I ses to 'em all, "When I was at school my +jography told as th' world was shaped like a orange an' +I found out before I was ten that th' whole orange +doesn't belong to nobody. No one owns more than his bit +of a quarter an' there's times it seems like there's +not enow quarters to go round. But don't you--none o' +you--think as you own th' whole orange or you'll find +out you're mistaken, an' you won't find it out without +hard knocks." `What children learns from children,' +she says, 'is that there's no sense in grabbin' at th' +whole orange--peel an' all. If you do you'll likely +not get even th' pips, an' them's too bitter to eat.'" + +"She's a shrewd woman," said Dr. Craven, putting on his coat. + +"Well, she's got a way of saying things," ended Mrs. Medlock, +much pleased. "Sometimes I've said to her, 'Eh! Susan, +if you was a different woman an' didn't talk such broad +Yorkshire I've seen the times when I should have said you +was clever.'" + + +That night Colin slept without once awakening and +when he opened his eyes in the morning he lay still +and smiled without knowing it--smiled because he felt so +curiously comfortable. It was actually nice to be awake, +and he turned over and stretched his limbs luxuriously. +He felt as if tight strings which had held him had +loosened themselves and let him go. He did not know that +Dr. Craven would have said that his nerves had relaxed +and rested themselves. Instead of lying and staring at +the wall and wishing he had not awakened, his mind was full +of the plans he and Mary had made yesterday, of pictures +of the garden and of Dickon and his wild creatures. +It was so nice to have things to think about. And he +had not been awake more than ten minutes when he heard +feet running along the corridor and Mary was at the door. +The next minute she was in the room and had run across +to his bed, bringing with her a waft of fresh air full +of the scent of the morning. + +"You've been out! You've been out! There's that nice +smell of leaves!" he cried. + +She had been running and her hair was loose and blown +and she was bright with the air and pink-cheeked, though +he could not see it. + +"It's so beautiful!" she said, a little breathless +with her speed. "You never saw anything so beautiful! +It has come! I thought it had come that other morning, +but it was only coming. It is here now! It has come, +the Spring! Dickon says so!" + +"Has it?" cried Colin, and though he really knew nothing +about it he felt his heart beat. He actually sat up +in bed. + +"Open the window!" he added, laughing half with joyful +excitement and half at his own fancy. "Perhaps we may +hear golden trumpets!" + +And though he laughed, Mary was at the window in a moment +and in a moment more it was opened wide and freshness and +softness and scents and birds' songs were pouring through. + +"That's fresh air," she said. "Lie on your back and draw +in long breaths of it. That's what Dickon does when he's +lying on the moor. He says he feels it in his veins +and it makes him strong and he feels as if he could +live forever and ever. Breathe it and breathe it." + +She was only repeating what Dickon had told her, but she +caught Colin's fancy. + +"`Forever and ever'! Does it make him feel like that?" +he said, and he did as she told him, drawing in long deep +breaths over and over again until he felt that something +quite new and delightful was happening to him. + +Mary was at his bedside again. + +"Things are crowding up out of the earth," she ran on +in a hurry. "And there are flowers uncurling and buds +on everything and the green veil has covered nearly all +the gray and the birds are in such a hurry about their +nests for fear they may be too late that some of them +are even fighting for places in the secret garden. +And the rose-bushes look as wick as wick can be, +and there are primroses in the lanes and woods, +and the seeds we planted are up, and Dickon has brought +the fox and the crow and the squirrels and a new-born lamb." + +And then she paused for breath. The new-born lamb Dickon +had found three days before lying by its dead mother +among the gorse bushes on the moor. It was not the first +motherless lamb he had found and he knew what to do with it. +He had taken it to the cottage wrapped in his jacket and he +had let it lie near the fire and had fed it with warm milk. +It was a soft thing with a darling silly baby face +and legs rather long for its body. Dickon had carried +it over the moor in his arms and its feeding bottle +was in his pocket with a squirrel, and when Mary had sat +under a tree with its limp warmness huddled on her lap she +had felt as if she were too full of strange joy to speak. +A lamb--a lamb! A living lamb who lay on your lap like a baby! + +She was describing it with great joy and Colin was listening +and drawing in long breaths of air when the nurse entered. +She started a little at the sight of the open window. +She had sat stifling in the room many a warm day because her +patient was sure that open windows gave people cold. + +"Are you sure you are not chilly, Master Colin?" +she inquired. + +"No," was the answer. "I am breathing long breaths +of fresh air. It makes you strong. I am going to get up +to the sofa for breakfast. My cousin will have breakfast +with me." + +The nurse went away, concealing a smile, to give +the order for two breakfasts. She found the servants' +hall a more amusing place than the invalid's chamber and +just now everybody wanted to hear the news from upstairs. +There was a great deal of joking about the unpopular young +recluse who, as the cook said, "had found his master, +and good for him." The servants' hall had been very tired +of the tantrums, and the butler, who was a man with a family, +had more than once expressed his opinion that the invalid +would be all the better "for a good hiding." + +When Colin was on his sofa and the breakfast for two was +put upon the table he made an announcement to the nurse +in his most Rajah-like manner. + +"A boy, and a fox, and a crow, and two squirrels, +and a new-born lamb, are coming to see me this morning. +I want them brought upstairs as soon as they come," +he said. "You are not to begin playing with the animals +in the servants' hall and keep them there. I want them here." +The nurse gave a slight gasp and tried to conceal it with +a cough. + +"Yes, sir," she answered. + +"I'll tell you what you can do," added Colin, waving +his hand. "You can tell Martha to bring them here. +The boy is Martha's brother. His name is Dickon and he +is an animal charmer." + +"I hope the animals won't bite, Master Colin," said the nurse. + +"I told you he was a charmer," said Colin austerely. +"Charmers' animals never bite." + +"There are snake-charmers in India," said Mary. +"and they can put their snakes' heads in their mouths." + +"Goodness!" shuddered the nurse. + +They ate their breakfast with the morning air pouring +in upon them. Colin's breakfast was a very good one +and Mary watched him with serious interest. + +"You will begin to get fatter just as I did," she said. +"I never wanted my breakfast when I was in India and now I +always want it." + +"I wanted mine this morning," said Colin. "Perhaps it +was the fresh air. When do you think Dickon will come?" + +He was not long in coming. In about ten minutes Mary +held up her hand. + +"Listen!" she said. "Did you hear a caw?" + +Colin listened and heard it, the oddest sound in the world +to hear inside a house, a hoarse "caw-caw." + +"Yes," he answered. + +"That's Soot," said Mary. "Listen again. Do you hear +a bleat--a tiny one?" + +"Oh, yes!" cried Colin, quite flushing. + +"That's the new-born lamb," said Mary. "He's coming." + +Dickon's moorland boots were thick and clumsy and though +he tried to walk quietly they made a clumping sound as he +walked through the long corridors. Mary and Colin heard him +marching--marching, until he passed through the tapestry +door on to the soft carpet of Colin's own passage. + +"If you please, sir," announced Martha, opening the door, +"if you please, sir, here's Dickon an' his creatures." + +Dickon came in smiling his nicest wide smile. +The new-born lamb was in his arms and the little red +fox trotted by his side. Nut sat on his left shoulder +and Soot on his right and Shell's head and paws peeped +out of his coat pocket. + +Colin slowly sat up and stared and stared--as he had stared +when he first saw Mary; but this was a stare of wonder +and delight. The truth was that in spite of all he had +heard he had not in the least understood what this boy would +be like and that his fox and his crow and his squirrels +and his lamb were so near to him and his friendliness +that they seemed almost to be part of himself. Colin had +never talked to a boy in his life and he was so overwhelmed +by his own pleasure and curiosity that he did not even think of +speaking. + +But Dickon did not feel the least shy or awkward. +He had not felt embarrassed because the crow had not +known his language and had only stared and had not +spoken to him the first time they met. Creatures were +always like that until they found out about you. +He walked over to Colin's sofa and put the new-born +lamb quietly on his lap, and immediately the little +creature turned to the warm velvet dressing-gown and +began to nuzzle and nuzzle into its folds and butt its +tight-curled head with soft impatience against his side. +Of course no boy could have helped speaking then. + +"What is it doing?" cried Colin. "What does it want?" + +"It wants its mother," said Dickon, smiling more and more. +"I brought it to thee a bit hungry because I knowed tha'd +like to see it feed." + +He knelt down by the sofa and took a feeding-bottle +from his pocket. + +"Come on, little 'un," he said, turning the small +woolly white head with a gentle brown hand. "This is +what tha's after. Tha'll get more out o' this than tha' +will out o' silk velvet coats. There now," and he pushed +the rubber tip of the bottle into the nuzzling mouth +and the lamb began to suck it with ravenous ecstasy. + +After that there was no wondering what to say. +By the time the lamb fell asleep questions poured forth +and Dickon answered them all. He told them how he had found +the lamb just as the sun was rising three mornings ago. +He had been standing on the moor listening to a skylark +and watching him swing higher and higher into the sky +until he was only a speck in the heights of blue. + +"I'd almost lost him but for his song an' I was wonderin' +how a chap could hear it when it seemed as if he'd +get out o' th' world in a minute--an' just then I +heard somethin' else far off among th' gorse bushes. +It was a weak bleatin' an' I knowed it was a new lamb +as was hungry an' I knowed it wouldn't be hungry if it +hadn't lost its mother somehow, so I set off searchin'. +Eh! I did have a look for it. I went in an' out among th' +gorse bushes an' round an' round an' I always seemed +to take th' wrong turnin'. But at last I seed a bit o' +white by a rock on top o' th' moor an' I climbed up an' +found th' little 'un half dead wi' cold an' clemmin'." +While he talked, Soot flew solemnly in and out of the open +window and cawed remarks about the scenery while Nut +and Shell made excursions into the big trees outside +and ran up and down trunks and explored branches. +Captain curled up near Dickon, who sat on the hearth-rug +from preference. + +They looked at the pictures in the gardening books and +Dickon knew all the flowers by their country names and knew +exactly which ones were already growing in the secret garden. + +"I couldna' say that there name," he said, pointing to one +under which was written "Aquilegia," "but us calls that +a columbine, an' that there one it's a snapdragon and they +both grow wild in hedges, but these is garden ones an' +they're bigger an' grander. There's some big clumps o' +columbine in th' garden. They'll look like a bed o' blue an' +white butterflies flutterin' when they're out." + +"I'm going to see them," cried Colin. "I am going +to see them!" + +"Aye, that tha' mun," said Mary quite seriously. "An' tha' +munnot lose no time about it." + + + +CHAPTER XX + +"I SHALL LIVE FOREVER--AND EVER--AND EVER!" + + +But they were obliged to wait more than a week because +first there came some very windy days and then Colin +was threatened with a cold, which two things happening +one after the other would no doubt have thrown him into +a rage but that there was so much careful and mysterious +planning to do and almost every day Dickon came in, +if only for a few minutes, to talk about what was happening +on the moor and in the lanes and hedges and on the borders +of streams. The things he had to tell about otters' +and badgers' and water-rats' houses, not to mention birds' +nests and field-mice and their burrows, were enough +to make you almost tremble with excitement when you +heard all the intimate details from an animal charmer +and realized with what thrilling eagerness and anxiety +the whole busy underworld was working. + +"They're same as us," said Dickon, "only they have to +build their homes every year. An' it keeps 'em so busy +they fair scuffle to get 'em done." + +The most absorbing thing, however, was the preparations +to be made before Colin could be transported with sufficient +secrecy to the garden. No one must see the chair-carriage +and Dickon and Mary after they turned a certain corner +of the shrubbery and entered upon the walk outside +the ivied walls. As each day passed, Colin had become +more and more fixed in his feeling that the mystery +surrounding the garden was one of its greatest charms. +Nothing must spoil that. No one must ever suspect +that they had a secret. People must think that he +was simply going out with Mary and Dickon because he +liked them and did not object to their looking at him. +They had long and quite delightful talks about their route. +They would go up this path and down that one and cross +the other and go round among the fountain flower-beds +as if they were looking at the "bedding-out plants" +the head gardener, Mr. Roach, had been having arranged. +That would seem such a rational thing to do that no one +would think it at all mysterious. They would turn into +the shrubbery walks and lose themselves until they came +to the long walls. It was almost as serious and elaborately +thought out as the plans of march made by geat generals +in time of war. + +Rumors of the new and curious things which were occurring +in the invalid's apartments had of course filtered +through the servants' hall into the stable yards +and out among the gardeners, but notwithstanding this, +Mr. Roach was startled one day when he received orders +from Master Colin's room to the effect that he must report +himself in the apartment no outsider had ever seen, +as the invalid himself desired to speak to him. + +"Well, well," he said to himself as he hurriedly changed +his coat, "what's to do now? His Royal Highness that wasn't +to be looked at calling up a man he's never set eyes on." + +Mr. Roach was not without curiosity. He had never +caught even a glimpse of the boy and had heard a dozen +exaggerated stories about his uncanny looks and ways +and his insane tempers. The thing he had heard +oftenest was that he might die at any moment and there +had been numerous fanciful descriptions of a humped +back and helpless limbs, given by people who had never seen him. + +"Things are changing in this house, Mr. Roach," +said Mrs. Medlock, as she led him up the back staircase +to the corridor on to which opened the hitherto mysterious +chamber. + +"Let's hope they're changing for the better, Mrs. Medlock," +he answered. + +"They couldn't well change for the worse," she continued; +"and queer as it all is there's them as finds their +duties made a lot easier to stand up under. Don't you +be surprised, Mr. Roach, if you find yourself in the middle +of a menagerie and Martha Sowerby's Dickon more at home +than you or me could ever be." + +There really was a sort of Magic about Dickon, as Mary +always privately believed. When Mr. Roach heard his name +he smiled quite leniently. + +"He'd be at home in Buckingham Palace or at the bottom +of a coal mine," he said. "And yet it's not impudence, +either. He's just fine, is that lad." + +It was perhaps well he had been prepared or he might +have been startled. When the bedroom door was opened +a large crow, which seemed quite at home perched on +the high back of a carven chair, announced the entrance +of a visitor by saying "Caw--Caw" quite loudly. +In spite of Mrs. Medlock's warning, Mr. Roach only just +escaped being sufficiently undignified to jump backward. + +The young Rajah was neither in bed nor on his sofa. +He was sitting in an armchair and a young lamb was standing +by him shaking its tail in feeding-lamb fashion as Dickon +knelt giving it milk from its bottle. A squirrel was +perched on Dickon's bent back attentively nibbling a nut. +The little girl from India was sitting on a big footstool +looking on. + +"Here is Mr. Roach, Master Colin," said Mrs. Medlock. + +The young Rajah turned and looked his servitor over--at +least that was what the head gardener felt happened. + +"Oh, you are Roach, are you?" he said. "I sent for you +to give you some very important orders." + +"Very good, sir," answered Roach, wondering if he was +to receive instructions to fell all the oaks in the park +or to transform the orchards into water-gardens. + +"I am going out in my chair this afternoon," said Colin. +"If the fresh air agrees with me I may go out every day. +When I go, none of the gardeners are to be anywhere near +the Long Walk by the garden walls. No one is to be there. +I shall go out about two o'clock and everyone must +keep away until I send word that they may go back to +their work." + +"Very good, sir," replied Mr. Roach, much relieved to hear +that the oaks might remain and that the orchards were safe. +"Mary," said Colin, turning to her, "what is that thing +you say in India when you have finished talking and want +people to go?" + +"You say, `You have my permission to go,'" answered Mary. + +The Rajah waved his hand. + +"You have my permission to go, Roach," he said. +"But, remember, this is very important." + +"Caw--Caw!" remarked the crow hoarsely but not impolitely. + +"Very good, sir. Thank you, sir," said Mr. Roach, +and Mrs. Medlock took him out of the room. + +Outside in the corridor, being a rather good-natured man, +he smiled until he almost laughed. + +"My word!" he said, "he's got a fine lordly way with him, +hasn't he? You'd think he was a whole Royal Family rolled +into one--Prince Consort and all.". + +"Eh!" protested Mrs. Medlock, "we've had to let him +trample all over every one of us ever since he had feet +and he thinks that's what folks was born for." + +"Perhaps he'll grow out of it, if he lives," suggested Mr. Roach. + +"Well, there's one thing pretty sure," said Mrs. Medlock. +"If he does live and that Indian child stays here I'll +warrant she teaches him that the whole orange does not +belong to him, as Susan Sowerby says. And he'll be likely +to find out the size of his own quarter." + +Inside the room Colin was leaning back on his cushions. + +"It's all safe now," he said. "And this afternoon I +shall see it--this afternoon I shall be in it!" + +Dickon went back to the garden with his creatures and Mary +stayed with Colin. She did not think he looked tired +but he was very quiet before their lunch came and he +was quiet while they were eating it. She wondered why +and asked him about it. + +"What big eyes you've got, Colin," she said. "When you +are thinking they get as big as saucers. What are you +thinking about now?" + +"I can't help thinking about what it will look like," +he answered. + +"The garden?" asked Mary. + +"The springtime," he said. "I was thinking that I've really +never seen it before. I scarcely ever went out and when I +did go I never looked at it. I didn't even think about it." + +"I never saw it in India because there wasn't any," +said Mary. + +Shut in and morbid as his life had been, Colin had more +imagination than she had and at least he had spent a good +deal of time looking at wonderful books and pictures. + +"That morning when you ran in and said `It's come! It's +come!, you made me feel quite queer. It sounded as if +things were coming with a great procession and big bursts +and wafts of music. I've a picture like it in one of my +books--crowds of lovely people and children with garlands +and branches with blossoms on them, everyone laughing +and dancing and crowding and playing on pipes. That was +why I said, `Perhaps we shall hear golden trumpets' +and told you to throw open the window." + +"How funny!" said Mary. "That's really just what it +feels like. And if all the flowers and leaves and green +things and birds and wild creatures danced past at once, +what a crowd it would be! I'm sure they'd dance and sing +and flute and that would be the wafts of music." + +They both laughed but it was not because the idea was +laughable but because they both so liked it. + +A little later the nurse made Colin ready. She noticed +that instead of lying like a log while his clothes were +put on he sat up and made some efforts to help himself, +and he talked and laughed with Mary all the time. + +"This is one of his good days, sir," she said to Dr. Craven, +who dropped in to inspect him. "He's in such good spirits +that it makes him stronger." + +"I'll call in again later in the afternoon, after he has +come in," said Dr. Craven. "I must see how the going +out agrees with him. I wish," in a very low voice, +"that he would let you go with him." + +"I'd rather give up the case this moment, sir, than even +stay here while it's suggested," answered the nurse. +With sudden firmness. + +"I hadn't really decided to suggest it," said the doctor, +with his slight nervousness. "We'll try the experiment. +Dickon's a lad I'd trust with a new-born child." + +The strongest footman in the house carried Colin down +stairs and put him in his wheeled chair near which Dickon +waited outside. After the manservant had arranged +his rugs and cushions the Rajah waved his hand to him +and to the nurse. + +"You have my permission to go," he said, and they both +disappeared quickly and it must be confessed giggled +when they were safely inside the house. + +Dickon began to push the wheeled chair slowly and steadily. +Mistress Mary walked beside it and Colin leaned back +and lifted his face to the sky. The arch of it looked +very high and the small snowy clouds seemed like white birds +floating on outspread wings below its crystal blueness. +The wind swept in soft big breaths down from the moor +and was strange with a wild clear scented sweetness. +Colin kept lifting his thin chest to draw it in, +and his big eyes looked as if it were they which were +listening--listening, instead of his ears. + +"There are so many sounds of singing and humming and +calling out," he said. "What is that scent the puffs +of wind bring?" + +"It's gorse on th' moor that's openin' out," answered Dickon. +"Eh! th' bees are at it wonderful today." + +Not a human creature was to be caught sight of in the +paths they took. In fact every gardener or gardener's +lad had been witched away. But they wound in and out +among the shrubbery and out and round the fountain beds, +following their carefully planned route for the mere +mysterious pleasure of it. But when at last they turned +into the Long Walk by the ivied walls the excited sense +of an approaching thrill made them, for some curious reason +they could not have explained, begin to speak in whispers. + +"This is it," breathed Mary. "This is where I used +to walk up and down and wonder and wonder." "Is it?" +cried Colin, and his eyes began to search the ivy with +eager curiousness. "But I can see nothing," he whispered. +"There is no door." + +"That's what I thought," said Mary. + +Then there was a lovely breathless silence and the chair +wheeled on. + +"That is the garden where Ben Weatherstaff works," +said Mary. + +"Is it?" said Colin. + +A few yards more and Mary whispered again. + +"This is where the robin flew over the wall," she said. + +"Is it?" cried Colin. "Oh! I wish he'd come again!" + +"And that," said Mary with solemn delight, pointing under +a big lilac bush, "is where he perched on the little +heap of earth and showed me the key." + +Then Colin sat up. + +"Where? Where? There?" he cried, and his eyes were as big +as the wolf's in Red Riding-Hood, when Red Riding-Hood +felt called upon to remark on them. Dickon stood still +and the wheeled chair stopped. + +"And this," said Mary, stepping on to the bed close to the ivy, +"is where I went to talk to him when he chirped at me +from the top of the wall. And this is the ivy the wind +blew back," and she took hold of the hanging green curtain. + +"Oh! is it--is it!" gasped Colin. + +"And here is the handle, and here is the door. +Dickon push him in--push him in quickly!" + +And Dickon did it with one strong, steady, splendid push. + +But Colin had actually dropped back against his cushions, +even though he gasped with delight, and he had covered +his eyes with his hands and held them there shutting +out everything until they were inside and the chair +stopped as if by magic and the door was closed. +Not till then did he take them away and look round +and round and round as Dickon and Mary had done. +And over walls and earth and trees and swinging sprays +and tendrils the fair green veil of tender little leaves +had crept, and in the grass under the trees and the gray +urns in the alcoves and here and there everywhere +were touches or splashes of gold and purple and white +and the trees were showing pink and snow above his head +and there were fluttering of wings and faint sweet pipes +and humming and scents and scents. And the sun fell +warm upon his face like a hand with a lovely touch. +And in wonder Mary and Dickon stood and stared at him. +He looked so strange and different because a pink glow +of color had actually crept all over him--ivory face +and neck and hands and all. + +"I shall get well! I shall get well!" he cried out. +"Mary! Dickon! I shall get well! And I shall live forever +and ever and ever!" + + + +CHAPTER XXI + +BEN WEATHERSTAFF + + +One of the strange things about living in the world is +that it is only now and then one is quite sure one is +going to live forever and ever and ever. One knows it +sometimes when one gets up at the tender solemn dawn-time +and goes out and stands alone and throws one's head far +back and looks up and up and watches the pale sky slowly +changing and flushing and marvelous unknown things happening +until the East almost makes one cry out and one's heart +stands still at the strange unchanging majesty of the +rising of the sun--which has been happening every morning +for thousands and thousands and thousands of years. +One knows it then for a moment or so. And one knows it +sometimes when one stands by oneself in a wood at sunset +and the mysterious deep gold stillness slanting through and +under the branches seems to be saying slowly again and again +something one cannot quite hear, however much one tries. +Then sometimes the immense quiet of the dark blue at night +with millions of stars waiting and watching makes one sure; +and sometimes a sound of far-off music makes it true; +and sometimes a look in some one's eyes. + +And it was like that with Colin when he first saw and +heard and felt the Springtime inside the four high walls +of a hidden garden. That afternoon the whole world +seemed to devote itself to being perfect and radiantly +beautiful and kind to one boy. Perhaps out of pure +heavenly goodness the spring came and crowned everything +it possibly could into that one place. More than once +Dickon paused in what he was doing and stood still with +a sort of growing wonder in his eyes, shaking his head softly. + +"Eh! it is graidely," he said. "I'm twelve goin' +on thirteen an' there's a lot o' afternoons in thirteen years, +but seems to me like I never seed one as graidely as this +'ere." + +"Aye, it is a graidely one," said Mary, and she sighed +for mere joy. "I'll warrant it's the graidelest one +as ever was in this world." + +"Does tha' think," said Colin with dreamy carefulness, +"as happen it was made loike this 'ere all o' purpose for me?" + +"My word!" cried Mary admiringly, "that there is a bit o' +good Yorkshire. Tha'rt shapin' first-rate--that tha' art." + +And delight reigned. They drew the chair under the plum-tree, +which was snow-white with blossoms and musical with bees. +It was like a king's canopy, a fairy king's. There were +flowering cherry-trees near and apple-trees whose buds +were pink and white, and here and there one had burst +open wide. Between the blossoming branches of the canopy +bits of blue sky looked down like wonderful eyes. + +Mary and Dickon worked a litle here and there and Colin +watched them. They brought him things to look at--buds +which were opening, buds which were tight closed, +bits of twig whose leaves were just showing green, +the feather of a woodpecker which had dropped on +the grass, the empty shell of some bird early hatched. +Dickon pushed the chair slowly round and round the garden, +stopping every other moment to let him look at wonders +springing out of the earth or trailing down from trees. +It was like being taken in state round the country of a +magic king and queen and shown all the mysterious riches +it contained. + +"I wonder if we shall see the robin?" said Colin. + +"Tha'll see him often enow after a bit," answered Dickon. +"When th' eggs hatches out th' little chap he'll be kep' +so busy it'll make his head swim. Tha'll see him flyin' +backward an' for'ard carryin' worms nigh as big as himsel' +an' that much noise goin' on in th' nest when he gets +there as fair flusters him so as he scarce knows which big +mouth to drop th' first piece in. An' gapin' beaks an' +squawks on every side. Mother says as when she sees th' +work a robin has to keep them gapin' beaks filled, +she feels like she was a lady with nothin' to do. +She says she's seen th' little chaps when it seemed like th' +sweat must be droppin' off 'em, though folk can't see it." + +This made them giggle so delightedly that they were obliged +to cover their mouths with their hands, remembering that +they must not be heard. Colin had been instructed as to +the law of whispers and low voices several days before. +He liked the mysteriousness of it and did his best, +but in the midst of excited enjoyment it is rather +difficult never to laugh above a whisper. + +Every moment of the afternoon was full of new things +and every hour the sunshine grew more golden. The wheeled +chair had been drawn back under the canopy and Dickon +had sat down on the grass and had just drawn out his pipe +when Colin saw something he had not had time to notice before. + +"That's a very old tree over there, isn't it?" he said. +Dickon looked across the grass at the tree and Mary looked +and there was a brief moment of stillness. + +"Yes," answered Dickon, after it, and his low voice +had a very gentle sound. + +Mary gazed at the tree and thought. + +"The branches are quite gray and there's not a single +leaf anywhere," Colin went on. "It's quite dead, +isn't it?" + +"Aye," admitted Dickon. "But them roses as has climbed +all over it will near hide every bit o' th' dead wood +when they're full o' leaves an' flowers. It won't look +dead then. It'll be th' prettiest of all." + +Mary still gazed at the tree and thought. + +"It looks as if a big branch had been broken off," +said Colin. "I wonder how it was done." + +"It's been done many a year," answered Dickon. "Eh!" with +a sudden relieved start and laying his hand on Colin. +"Look at that robin! There he is! He's been foragin' +for his mate." + +Colin was almost too late but he just caught sight of him, +the flash of red-breasted bird with something in his beak. +He darted through the greenness and into the close-grown +corner and was out of sight. Colin leaned back on his +cushion again, laughing a little. "He's taking her tea +to her. Perhaps it's five o'clock. I think I'd like some +tea myself." + +And so they were safe. + +"It was Magic which sent the robin," said Mary secretly +to Dickon afterward. "I know it was Magic." For both she +and Dickon had been afraid Colin might ask something +about the tree whose branch had broken off ten years +ago and they had talked it over together and Dickon +had stood and rubbed his head in a troubled way. + +"We mun look as if it wasn't no different from th' +other trees," he had said. "We couldn't never tell him +how it broke, poor lad. If he says anything about it we +mun--we mun try to look cheerful." + +"Aye, that we mun," had answered Mary. + +But she had not felt as if she looked cheerful when she gazed +at the tree. She wondered and wondered in those few moments +if there was any reality in that other thing Dickon had said. +He had gone on rubbing his rust-red hair in a puzzled way, +but a nice comforted look had begun to grow in his blue eyes. + +"Mrs. Craven was a very lovely young lady," he had +gone on rather hesitatingly. "An' mother she thinks +maybe she's about Misselthwaite many a time lookin' +after Mester Colin, same as all mothers do when they're +took out o' th' world. They have to come back, +tha' sees. Happen she's been in the garden an' +happen it was her set us to work, an' told us to bring him here." + +Mary had thought he meant something about Magic. +She was a great believer in Magic. Secretly she quite +believed that Dickon worked Magic, of course good Magic, +on everything near him and that was why people liked him +so much and wild creatures knew he was their friend. +She wondered, indeed, if it were not possible that his +gift had brought the robin just at the right moment +when Colin asked that dangerous question. She felt +that his Magic was working all the afternoon and making +Colin look like an entirely different boy. It did not +seem possible that he could be the crazy creature who had +screamed and beaten and bitten his pillow. Even his ivory +whiteness seemed to change. The faint glow of color +which had shown on his face and neck and hands when he +first got inside the garden really never quite died away. +He looked as if he were made of flesh instead of ivory +or wax. + +They saw the robin carry food to his mate two or three times, +and it was so suggestive of afternoon tea that Colin +felt they must have some. + +"Go and make one of the men servants bring some in a +basket to the rhododendron walk," he said. "And then +you and Dickon can bring it here." + +It was an agreeable idea, easily carried out, and when +the white cloth was spread upon the grass, with hot tea +and buttered toast and crumpets, a delightfully hungry +meal was eaten, and several birds on domestic errands +paused to inquire what was going on and were led into +investigating crumbs with great activity. Nut and Shell +whisked up trees with pieces of cake and Soot took the +entire half of a buttered crumpet into a corner and pecked +at and examined and turned it over and made hoarse remarks +about it until he decided to swallow it all joyfully in one gulp. + +The afternoon was dragging towards its mellow hour. +The sun was deepening the gold of its lances, the bees +were going home and the birds were flying past less often. +Dickon and Mary were sitting on the grass, the tea-basket +was repacked ready to be taken back to the house, and Colin +was lying against his cushions with his heavy locks +pushed back from his forehead and his face looking quite +a natural color. + +"I don't want this afternoon to go," he said; "but I shall +come back tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after, +and the day after." + +"You'll get plenty of fresh air, won't you?" said Mary. +"I'm going to get nothing else," he answered. +"I've seen the spring now and I'm going to see the summer. +I'm going to see everything grow here. I'm going to grow +here myself." + +"That tha' will," said Dickon. "Us'll have thee walkin' +about here an' diggin' same as other folk afore long." + +Colin flushed tremendously. + +"Walk!" he said. "Dig! Shall I?" + +Dickon's glance at him was delicately cautious. +Neither he nor Mary had ever asked if anything was +the matter with his legs. + +"For sure tha' will," he said stoutly. "Tha--tha's got +legs o' thine own, same as other folks!" + +Mary was rather frightened until she heard Colin's answer. + +"Nothing really ails them," he said, "but they are so thin +and weak. They shake so that I'm afraid to try to stand +on them." + +Both Mary and Dickon drew a relieved breath. + +"When tha' stops bein' afraid tha'lt stand on 'em," +Dickon said with renewed cheer. "An' tha'lt stop bein' +afraid in a bit." + +"I shall?" said Colin, and he lay still as if he were +wondering about things. + +They were really very quiet for a little while. +The sun was dropping lower. It was that hour when +everything stills itself, and they really had had a busy +and exciting afternoon. Colin looked as if he were +resting luxuriously. Even the creatures had ceased moving +about and had drawn together and were resting near them. +Soot had perched on a low branch and drawn up one leg +and dropped the gray film drowsily over his eyes. +Mary privately thought he looked as if he might snore +in a minute. + +In the midst of this stillness it was rather startling +when Colin half lifted his head and exclaimed in a loud +suddenly alarmed whisper: + +"Who is that man?" Dickon and Mary scrambled to their feet. + +"Man!" they both cried in low quick voices. + +Colin pointed to the high wall. "Look!" he whispered excitedly. +"Just look!" + +Mary and Dickon wheeled about and looked. There was Ben +Weatherstaff's indignant face glaring at them over the wall +from the top of a ladder! He actually shook his fist at Mary. + +"If I wasn't a bachelder, an' tha' was a wench o' +mine," he cried, "I'd give thee a hidin'!" + +He mounted another step threateningly as if it were his +energetic intention to jump down and deal with her; +but as she came toward him he evidently thought better +of it and stood on the top step of his ladder shaking +his fist down at her. + +"I never thowt much o' thee!" he harangued. "I couldna' +abide thee th' first time I set eyes on thee. A scrawny +buttermilk-faced young besom, allus askin' questions an' +pokin' tha' nose where it wasna, wanted. I never knowed +how tha' got so thick wi' me. If it hadna' been for th' +robin-- Drat him--" + +"Ben Weatherstaff," called out Mary, finding her breath. +She stood below him and called up to him with a sort +of gasp. "Ben Weatherstaff, it was the robin who showed me +the way!" + +Then it did seem as if Ben really would scramble down +on her side of the wall, he was so outraged. + +"Tha' young bad 'un!" he called down at her. "Layin' tha' +badness on a robin--not but what he's impidint enow +for anythin'. Him showin' thee th' way! Him! Eh! tha' +young nowt"--she could see his next words burst out +because he was overpowered by curiosity--"however i' +this world did tha' get in?" + +"It was the robin who showed me the way," she protested +obstinately. "He didn't know he was doing it but he did. +And I can't tell you from here while you're shaking +your fist at me." + +He stopped shaking his fist very suddenly at that very +moment and his jaw actually dropped as he stared over her +head at something he saw coming over the grass toward him. + +At the first sound of his torrent of words Colin had +been so surprised that he had only sat up and listened +as if he were spellbound. But in the midst of it he +had recovered himself and beckoned imperiously to Dickon. + +"Wheel me over there!" he commanded. "Wheel me quite +close and stop right in front of him!" + +And this, if you please, this is what Ben Weatherstaff beheld +and which made his jaw drop. A wheeled chair with luxurious +cushions and robes which came toward him looking rather +like some sort of State Coach because a young Rajah leaned +back in it with royal command in his great black-rimmed +eyes and a thin white hand extended haughtily toward him. +And it stopped right under Ben Weatherstaff's nose. +It was really no wonder his mouth dropped open. + +"Do you know who I am?" demanded the Rajah. + +How Ben Weatherstaff stared! His red old eyes fixed +themselves on what was before him as if he were seeing +a ghost. He gazed and gazed and gulped a lump down his +throat and did not say a word. "Do you know who I am?" +demanded Colin still more imperiously. "Answer!" + +Ben Weatherstaff put his gnarled hand up and passed it +over his eyes and over his forehead and then he did +answer in a queer shaky voice. + +"Who tha' art?" he said. "Aye, that I do--wi' tha' +mother's eyes starin' at me out o' tha' face. Lord knows +how tha' come here. But tha'rt th' poor cripple." + +Colin forgot that he had ever had a back. His face +flushed scarlet and he sat bolt upright. + +"I'm not a cripple!" he cried out furiously. "I'm not!" + +"He's not!" cried Mary, almost shouting up the wall +in her fierce indignation. "He's not got a lump as big +as a pin! I looked and there was none there--not one!" + +Ben Weatherstaff passed his hand over his forehead +again and gazed as if he could never gaze enough. +His hand shook and his mouth shook and his voice shook. +He was an ignorant old man and a tactless old man and he +could only remember the things he had heard. + +"Tha'--tha' hasn't got a crooked back?" he said hoarsely. + +"No!" shouted Colin. + +"Tha'--tha' hasn't got crooked legs?" quavered Ben more +hoarsely yet. It was too much. The strength which Colin +usually threw into his tantrums rushed through him now +in a new way. Never yet had he been accused of crooked +legs--even in whispers--and the perfectly simple belief +in their existence which was revealed by Ben Weatherstaff's +voice was more than Rajah flesh and blood could endure. +His anger and insulted pride made him forget everything +but this one moment and filled him with a power he had +never known before, an almost unnatural strength. + +"Come here!" he shouted to Dickon, and he actually +began to tear the coverings off his lower limbs and +disentangle himself. "Come here! Come here! This minute!" + +Dickon was by his side in a second. Mary caught her +breath in a short gasp and felt herself turn pale. + +"He can do it! He can do it! He can do it! He can!" +she gabbled over to herself under her breath as fast +as ever she could. + +There was a brief fierce scramble, the rugs were tossed +on the ground, Dickon held Colin's arm, the thin +legs were out, the thin feet were on the grass. +Colin was standing upright--upright--as straight as an +arrow and looking strangely tall--his head thrown back +and his strange eyes flashing lightning. "Look at me!" +he flung up at Ben Weatherstaff. "Just look at me--you! +Just look at me!" + +"He's as straight as I am!" cried Dickon. "He's as +straight as any lad i' Yorkshire!" + +What Ben Weatherstaff did Mary thought queer beyond measure. +He choked and gulped and suddenly tears ran down his +weather-wrinkled cheeks as he struck his old hands together. + +"Eh!" he burst forth, "th' lies folk tells! Tha'rt +as thin as a lath an' as white as a wraith, but there's +not a knob on thee. Tha'lt make a mon yet. God bless thee!" + +Dickon held Colin's arm strongly but the boy had not begun +to falter. He stood straighter and straighter and looked +Ben Weatherstaff in the face. + +"I'm your master," he said, "when my father is away. +And you are to obey me. This is my garden. Don't dare +to say a word about it! You get down from that ladder +and go out to the Long Walk and Miss Mary will meet you +and bring you here. I want to talk to you. We did not +want you, but now you will have to be in the secret. +Be quick!" + +Ben Weatherstaff's crabbed old face was still wet with +that one queer rush of tears. It seemed as if he could +not take his eyes from thin straight Colin standing +on his feet with his head thrown back. + +"Eh! lad," he almost whispered. "Eh! my lad!" And then +remembering himself he suddenly touched his hat gardener +fashion and said, "Yes, sir! Yes, sir!" and obediently +disappeared as he descended the ladder. + + + +CHAPTER XXII + +WHEN THE SUN WENT DOWN + + +When his head was out of sight Colin turned to Mary. + +"Go and meet him," he said; and Mary flew across the grass +to the door under the ivy. + +Dickon was watching him with sharp eyes. There were +scarlet spots on his cheeks and he looked amazing, +but he showed no signs of falling. + +"I can stand," he said, and his head was still held up +and he said it quite grandly. + +"I told thee tha' could as soon as tha' stopped bein' +afraid," answered Dickon. "An' tha's stopped." + +"Yes, I've stopped," said Colin. + +Then suddenly he remembered something Mary had said. + +"Are you making Magic?" he asked sharply. + +Dickon's curly mouth spread in a cheerful grin. + +"Tha's doin' Magic thysel'," he said. "It's same Magic +as made these 'ere work out o' th' earth," and he touched +with his thick boot a clump of crocuses in the grass. +Colin looked down at them. + +"Aye," he said slowly, "there couldna' be bigger Magic +than that there--there couldna' be." + +He drew himself up straighter than ever. + +"I'm going to walk to that tree," he said, pointing to +one a few feet away from him. "I'm going to be standing +when Weatherstaff comes here. I can rest against the tree +if I like. When I want to sit down I will sit down, +but not before. Bring a rug from the chair." + +He walked to the tree and though Dickon held his arm he was +wonderfully steady. When he stood against the tree trunk +it was not too plain that he supported himself against it, +and he still held himself so straight that he looked tall. + +When Ben Weatherstaff came through the door in the wall +he saw him standing there and he heard Mary muttering +something under her breath. + +"What art sayin'?" he asked rather testily because he +did not want his attention distracted from the long thin +straight boy figure and proud face. + +But she did not tell him. What she was saying was this: + +"You can do it! You can do it! I told you you could! +You can do it! You can do it! You can!" She was saying +it to Colin because she wanted to make Magic and keep +him on his feet looking like that. She could not bear +that he should give in before Ben Weatherstaff. +He did not give in. She was uplifted by a sudden feeling +that he looked quite beautiful in spite of his thinness. +He fixed his eyes on Ben Weatherstaff in his funny +imperious way. + +"Look at me!" he commanded. "Look at me all over! Am I +a hunchback? Have I got crooked legs?" + +Ben Weatherstaff had not quite got over his emotion, +but he had recovered a little and answered almost in his +usual way. + +"Not tha'," he said. "Nowt o' th' sort. What's tha' +been doin' with thysel'--hidin' out o' sight an' lettin' +folk think tha' was cripple an' half-witted?" + +"Half-witted!" said Colin angrily. "Who thought that?" + +"Lots o' fools," said Ben. "Th' world's full o' +jackasses brayin' an' they never bray nowt but lies. +What did tha' shut thysel' up for?" + +"Everyone thought I was going to die," said Colin shortly. +"I'm not!" + +And he said it with such decision Ben Weatherstaff looked +him over, up and down, down and up. + +"Tha' die!" he said with dry exultation. "Nowt o' th' +sort! Tha's got too much pluck in thee. When I seed thee +put tha' legs on th' ground in such a hurry I knowed tha' +was all right. Sit thee down on th' rug a bit young +Mester an' give me thy orders." + +There was a queer mixture of crabbed tenderness and shrewd +understanding in his manner. Mary had poured out speech +as rapidly as she could as they had come down the Long Walk. +The chief thing to be remembered, she had told him, +was that Colin was getting well--getting well. The garden +was doing it. No one must let him remember about having +humps and dying. + +The Rajah condescended to seat himself on a rug under +the tree. + +"What work do you do in the gardens, Weatherstaff?" +he inquired. + +"Anythin' I'm told to do," answered old Ben. "I'm kep' +on by favor--because she liked me." + +"She?" said Colin. + +"Tha' mother," answered Ben Weatherstaff. + +"My mother?" said Colin, and he looked about him quietly. +"This was her garden, wasn't it?" + +"Aye, it was that!" and Ben Weatherstaff looked about +him too. "She were main fond of it." + +"It is my garden now. I am fond of it. I shall come here +every day," announced Colin. "But it is to be a secret. +My orders are that no one is to know that we come here. +Dickon and my cousin have worked and made it come alive. +I shall send for you sometimes to help--but you must come +when no one can see you." + +Ben Weatherstaff's face twisted itself in a dry old smile. + +"I've come here before when no one saw me," he said. + +"What!" exclaimed Colin. + +"When?" + +"Th' last time I was here," rubbing his chin +and looking round, "was about two year' ago." + +"But no one has been in it for ten years!" cried Colin. + +"There was no door!" + +"I'm no one," said old Ben dryly. "An' I didn't come +through th' door. I come over th' wall. Th' rheumatics held +me back th' last two year'." + +"Tha' come an' did a bit o' prunin'!" cried Dickon. +"I couldn't make out how it had been done." + +"She was so fond of it--she was!" said Ben Weatherstaff slowly. +"An' she was such a pretty young thing. She says to me once, +`Ben,' says she laughin', `if ever I'm ill or if I go away +you must take care of my roses.' When she did go away th' +orders was no one was ever to come nigh. But I come," +with grumpy obstinacy. "Over th' wall I come--until th' +rheumatics stopped me--an' I did a bit o' work once a year. +She'd gave her order first." + +"It wouldn't have been as wick as it is if tha' +hadn't done it," said Dickon. "I did wonder." + +"I'm glad you did it, Weatherstaff," said Colin. +"You'll know how to keep the secret." + +"Aye, I'll know, sir," answered Ben. "An, it'll be easier +for a man wi' rheumatics to come in at th' door." + +On the grass near the tree Mary had dropped her trowel. +Colin stretched out his hand and took it up. An odd expression +came into his face and he began to scratch at the earth. +His thin hand was weak enough but presently as they watched +him--Mary with quite breathless interest--he drove the end +of the trowel into the soil and turned some over. + +"You can do it! You can do it!" said Mary to herself. +"I tell you, you can!" + +Dickon's round eyes were full of eager curiousness but he said +not a word. Ben Weatherstaff looked on with interested face. + +Colin persevered. After he had turned a few trowelfuls +of soil he spoke exultantly to Dickon in his best Yorkshire. + +"Tha' said as tha'd have me walkin' about here same +as other folk--an' tha' said tha'd have me diggin'. I +thowt tha' was just leein' to please me. This is only th' +first day an' I've walked--an' here I am diggin'." + +Ben Weatherstaff's mouth fell open again when he heard him, +but he ended by chuckling. + +"Eh!" he said, "that sounds as if tha'd got wits enow. +Tha'rt a Yorkshire lad for sure. An' tha'rt diggin', too. +How'd tha' like to plant a bit o' somethin'? I can get thee +a rose in a pot." + +"Go and get it!" said Colin, digging excitedly. +"Quick! Quick!" + +It was done quickly enough indeed. Ben Weatherstaff went +his way forgetting rheumatics. Dickon took his spade +and dug the hole deeper and wider than a new digger +with thin white hands could make it. Mary slipped out +to run and bring back a watering-can. When Dickon had +deepened the hole Colin went on turning the soft earth +over and over. He looked up at the sky, flushed and +glowing with the strangely new exercise, slight as it was. + +"I want to do it before the sun goes quite--quite down," +he said. + +Mary thought that perhaps the sun held back a few minutes +just on purpose. Ben Weatherstaff brought the rose in +its pot from the greenhouse. He hobbled over the grass +as fast as he could. He had begun to be excited, too. +He knelt down by the hole and broke the pot from the mould. + +"Here, lad," he said, handing the plant to Colin. +"Set it in the earth thysel' same as th' king does when he +goes to a new place." + +The thin white hands shook a little and Colin's flush +grew deeper as he set the rose in the mould and held +it while old Ben made firm the earth. It was filled +in and pressed down and made steady. Mary was leaning +forward on her hands and knees. Soot had flown down +and marched forward to see what was being done. +Nut and Shell chattered about it from a cherry-tree. + +"It's planted!" said Colin at last. "And the sun is only +slipping over the edge. Help me up, Dickon. I want +to be standing when it goes. That's part of the Magic." + +And Dickon helped him, and the Magic--or whatever it +was--so gave him strength that when the sun did slip +over the edge and end the strange lovely afternoon +for them there he actually stood on his two feet--laughing. + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + +MAGIC + + +Dr. Craven had been waiting some time at the house +when they returned to it. He had indeed begun to wonder +if it might not be wise to send some one out to explore +the garden paths. When Colin was brought back to his +room the poor man looked him over seriously. + +"You should not have stayed so long," he said. "You must +not overexert yourself." + +"I am not tired at all," said Colin. "It has made me well. +Tomorrow I am going out in the morning as well as in +the afternoon." + +"I am not sure that I can allow it," answered Dr. Craven. +"I am afraid it would not be wise." + +"It would not be wise to try to stop me," said Colin +quite seriously. "I am going." + +Even Mary had found out that one of Colin's chief peculiarities +was that he did not know in the least what a rude little +brute he was with his way of ordering people about. +He had lived on a sort of desert island all his life +and as he had been the king of it he had made his own +manners and had had no one to compare himself with. +Mary had indeed been rather like him herself and since she +had been at Misselthwaite had gradually discovered that +her own manners had not been of the kind which is usual +or popular. Having made this discovery she naturally +thought it of enough interest to communicate to Colin. +So she sat and looked at him curiously for a few minutes +after Dr. Craven had gone. She wanted to make him ask +her why she was doing it and of course she did. + +"What are you looking at me for?" he said. + +"I'm thinking that I am rather sorry for Dr. Craven." + +"So am I," said Colin calmly, but not without an air +of some satisfaction. "He won't get Misselthwaite +at all now I'm not going to die." + +"I'm sorry for him because of that, of course," said Mary, +"but I was thinking just then that it must have been very +horrid to have had to be polite for ten years to a boy +who was always rude. I would never have done it." + +"Am I rude?" Colin inquired undisturbedly. + +"If you had been his own boy and he had been a slapping +sort of man," said Mary, "he would have slapped you." + +"But he daren't," said Colin. + +"No, he daren't," answered Mistress Mary, thinking the +thing out quite without prejudice. "Nobody ever dared +to do anything you didn't like--because you were going +to die and things like that. You were such a poor thing." + +"But," announced Colin stubbornly, "I am not going +to be a poor thing. I won't let people think I'm one. +I stood on my feet this afternoon." + +"It is always having your own way that has made you +so queer," Mary went on, thinking aloud. + +Colin turned his head, frowning. + +"Am I queer?" he demanded. + +"Yes," answered Mary, "very. But you needn't be cross," +she added impartially, "because so am I queer--and so is +Ben Weatherstaff. But I am not as queer as I was before I +began to like people and before I found the garden." + +"I don't want to be queer," said Colin. "I am not going +to be," and he frowned again with determination. + +He was a very proud boy. He lay thinking for a while and +then Mary saw his beautiful smile begin and gradually +change his whole face. + +"I shall stop being queer," he said, "if I go every day +to the garden. There is Magic in there--good Magic, +you know, Mary. I am sure there is." "So am I," +said Mary. + +"Even if it isn't real Magic," Colin said, "we can pretend +it is. Something is there--something!" + +"It's Magic," said Mary, "but not black. It's as white +as snow." + +They always called it Magic and indeed it seemed like it +in the months that followed--the wonderful months--the +radiant months--the amazing ones. Oh! the things +which happened in that garden! If you have never had +a garden you cannot understand, and if you have had +a garden you will know that it would take a whole book +to describe all that came to pass there. At first it +seemed that green things would never cease pushing +their way through the earth, in the grass, in the beds, +even in the crevices of the walls. Then the green things +began to show buds and the buds began to unfurl and +show color, every shade of blue, every shade of purple, +every tint and hue of crimson. In its happy days flowers +had been tucked away into every inch and hole and corner. +Ben Weatherstaff had seen it done and had himself scraped +out mortar from between the bricks of the wall and made +pockets of earth for lovely clinging things to grow on. +Iris and white lilies rose out of the grass in sheaves, +and the green alcoves filled themselves with amazing armies +of the blue and white flower lances of tall delphiniums +or columbines or campanulas. + +"She was main fond o' them--she was," Ben Weatherstaff said. +"She liked them things as was allus pointin' up to th' +blue sky, she used to tell. Not as she was one o' +them as looked down on th' earth--not her. She just loved +it but she said as th' blue sky allus looked so joyful." + +The seeds Dickon and Mary had planted grew as if fairies +had tended them. Satiny poppies of all tints danced in the +breeze by the score, gaily defying flowers which had lived +in the garden for years and which it might be confessed +seemed rather to wonder how such new people had got there. +And the roses--the roses! Rising out of the grass, +tangled round the sun-dial, wreathing the tree trunks +and hanging from their branches, climbing up the walls +and spreading over them with long garlands falling +in cascades--they came alive day by day, hour by hour. +Fair fresh leaves, and buds--and buds--tiny at first but +swelling and working Magic until they burst and uncurled +into cups of scent delicately spilling themselves over +their brims and filling the garden air. + +Colin saw it all, watching each change as it took place. +Every morning he was brought out and every hour of each day +when it didn't rain he spent in the garden. Even gray +days pleased him. He would lie on the grass "watching +things growing," he said. If you watched long enough, +he declared, you could see buds unsheath themselves. +Also you could make the acquaintance of strange busy insect +things running about on various unknown but evidently +serious errands, sometimes carrying tiny scraps of straw +or feather or food, or climbing blades of grass as if they +were trees from whose tops one could look out to explore +the country. A mole throwing up its mound at the end of its +burrow and making its way out at last with the long-nailed +paws which looked so like elfish hands, had absorbed him +one whole morning. Ants' ways, beetles' ways, bees' +ways, frogs' ways, birds' ways, plants' ways, gave him +a new world to explore and when Dickon revealed them +all and added foxes' ways, otters' ways, ferrets' ways, +squirrels' ways, and trout' and water-rats' and badgers' +ways, there was no end to the things to talk about and think +over. + +And this was not the half of the Magic. The fact that he +had really once stood on his feet had set Colin thinking +tremendously and when Mary told him of the spell she +had worked he was excited and approved of it greatly. +He talked of it constantly. + +"Of course there must be lots of Magic in the world," +he said wisely one day, "but people don't know what it is +like or how to make it. Perhaps the beginning is just to say +nice things are going to happen until you make them happen. +I am going to try and experiment" + +The next morning when they went to the secret garden he sent +at once for Ben Weatherstaff. Ben came as quickly as he +could and found the Rajah standing on his feet under a tree +and looking very grand but also very beautifully smiling. + +"Good morning, Ben Weatherstaff," he said. "I want you +and Dickon and Miss Mary to stand in a row and listen to me +because I am going to tell you something very important." + +"Aye, aye, sir!" answered Ben Weatherstaff, touching +his forehead. (One of the long concealed charms of Ben +Weatherstaff was that in his boyhood he had once run away +to sea and had made voyages. So he could reply like a sailor.) + +"I am going to try a scientific experiment," explained the Rajah. +"When I grow up I am going to make great scientific +discoveries and I am going to begin now with this experiment" + +"Aye, aye, sir!" said Ben Weatherstaff promptly, +though this was the first time he had heard of great +scientific discoveries. + +It was the first time Mary had heard of them, either, +but even at this stage she had begun to realize that, +queer as he was, Colin had read about a great many singular +things and was somehow a very convincing sort of boy. +When he held up his head and fixed his strange eyes on you +it seemed as if you believed him almost in spite of yourself +though he was only ten years old--going on eleven. +At this moment he was especially convincing because he +suddenly felt the fascination of actually making a sort +of speech like a grown-up person. + +"The great scientific discoveries I am going to make," +he went on, "will be about Magic. Magic is a great thing +and scarcely any one knows anything about it except a few +people in old books--and Mary a little, because she was +born in India where there are fakirs. I believe Dickon +knows some Magic, but perhaps he doesn't know he knows it. +He charms animals and people. I would never have let him +come to see me if he had not been an animal charmer--which +is a boy charmer, too, because a boy is an animal. +I am sure there is Magic in everything, only we have not +sense enough to get hold of it and make it do things for +us--like electricity and horses and steam." + +This sounded so imposing that Ben Weatherstaff became +quite excited and really could not keep still. "Aye, aye, +sir," he said and he began to stand up quite straight. + +"When Mary found this garden it looked quite dead," +the orator proceeded. "Then something began pushing things +up out of the soil and making things out of nothing. +One day things weren't there and another they were. +I had never watched things before and it made me feel +very curious. Scientific people are always curious and I +am going to be scientific. I keep saying to myself, +`What is it? What is it?' It's something. It can't +be nothing! I don't know its name so I call it Magic. +I have never seen the sun rise but Mary and Dickon have +and from what they tell me I am sure that is Magic too. +Something pushes it up and draws it. Sometimes since I've +been in the garden I've looked up through the trees at +the sky and I have had a strange feeling of being happy +as if something were pushing and drawing in my chest +and making me breathe fast. Magic is always pushing and +drawing and making things out of nothing. Everything is +made out of Magic, leaves and trees, flowers and birds, +badgers and foxes and squirrels and people. So it must +be all around us. In this garden--in all the places. +The Magic in this garden has made me stand up and know +I am going to live to be a man. I am going to make the +scientific experiment of trying to get some and put it +in myself and make it push and draw me and make me strong. +I don't know how to do it but I think that if you keep +thinking about it and calling it perhaps it will come. +Perhaps that is the first baby way to get it. +When I was going to try to stand that first time Mary +kept saying to herself as fast as she could, `You can +do it! You can do it!' and I did. I had to try myself +at the same time, of course, but her Magic helped me--and +so did Dickon's. Every morning and evening and as often +in the daytime as I can remember I am going to say, +'Magic is in me! Magic is making me well! I am going +to be as strong as Dickon, as strong as Dickon!' And you +must all do it, too. That is my experiment Will you help, +Ben Weatherstaff?" + +"Aye, aye, sir!" said Ben Weatherstaff. "Aye, aye!" + +"If you keep doing it every day as regularly as soldiers +go through drill we shall see what will happen and find +out if the experiment succeeds. You learn things +by saying them over and over and thinking about them +until they stay in your mind forever and I think it +will be the same with Magic. If you keep calling it +to come to you and help you it will get to be part +of you and it will stay and do things." "I once heard +an officer in India tell my mother that there were fakirs +who said words over and over thousands of times," said Mary. + +"I've heard Jem Fettleworth's wife say th' same thing over +thousands o' times--callin' Jem a drunken brute," said Ben +Weatherstaff dryly. "Summat allus come o' that, sure enough. +He gave her a good hidin' an' went to th' Blue Lion an' +got as drunk as a lord." + +Colin drew his brows together and thought a few minutes. +Then he cheered up. + +"Well," he said, "you see something did come of it. +She used the wrong Magic until she made him beat her. +If she'd used the right Magic and had said something +nice perhaps he wouldn't have got as drunk as a lord and +perhaps--perhaps he might have bought her a new bonnet." + +Ben Weatherstaff chuckled and there was shrewd admiration +in his little old eyes. + +"Tha'rt a clever lad as well as a straight-legged one, +Mester Colin," he said. "Next time I see Bess Fettleworth +I'll give her a bit of a hint o' what Magic will do for her. +She'd be rare an' pleased if th' sinetifik 'speriment +worked --an' so 'ud Jem." + +Dickon had stood listening to the lecture, his round +eyes shining with curious delight. Nut and Shell were +on his shoulders and he held a long-eared white rabbit +in his arm and stroked and stroked it softly while it +laid its ears along its back and enjoyed itself. + +"Do you think the experiment will work?" Colin asked him, +wondering what he was thinking. He so often wondered +what Dickon was thinking when he saw him looking at him +or at one of his "creatures" with his happy wide smile. + +He smiled now and his smile was wider than usual. + +"Aye," he answered, "that I do. It'll work same as th' +seeds do when th' sun shines on 'em. It'll work for sure. +Shall us begin it now?" + +Colin was delighted and so was Mary. Fired by recollections +of fakirs and devotees in illustrations Colin suggested +that they should all sit cross-legged under the tree +which made a canopy. + +"It will be like sitting in a sort of temple," said Colin. +"I'm rather tired and I want to sit down." + +"Eh!" said Dickon, "tha' mustn't begin by sayin' +tha'rt tired. Tha' might spoil th' Magic." + +Colin turned and looked at him--into his innocent round eyes. + +"That's true," he said slowly. "I must only think of +the Magic." It all seemed most majestic and mysterious +when they sat down in their circle. Ben Weatherstaff +felt as if he had somehow been led into appearing +at a prayer-meeting. Ordinarily he was very fixed in +being what he called "agen' prayer-meetin's" but this +being the Rajah's affair he did not resent it and was +indeed inclined to be gratified at being called upon +to assist. Mistress Mary felt solemnly enraptured. +Dickon held his rabbit in his arm, and perhaps he made +some charmer's signal no one heard, for when he sat down, +cross-legged like the rest, the crow, the fox, the squirrels +and the lamb slowly drew near and made part of the circle, +settling each into a place of rest as if of their own desire. + +"The `creatures' have come," said Colin gravely. +"They want to help us." + +Colin really looked quite beautiful, Mary thought. +He held his head high as if he felt like a sort of priest +and his strange eyes had a wonderful look in them. +The light shone on him through the tree canopy. + +"Now we will begin," he said. "Shall we sway backward +and forward, Mary, as if we were dervishes?" + +"I canna' do no swayin' back'ard and for'ard," +said Ben Weatherstaff. "I've got th' rheumatics." + +"The Magic will take them away," said Colin in a High +Priest tone, "but we won't sway until it has done it. +We will only chant." + +"I canna' do no chantin'" said Ben Weatherstaff a +trifle testily. "They turned me out o' th' church choir th' +only time I ever tried it." + +No one smiled. They were all too much in earnest. +Colin's face was not even crossed by a shadow. He was +thinking only of the Magic. + +"Then I will chant," he said. And he began, looking like +a strange boy spirit. "The sun is shining--the sun +is shining. That is the Magic. The flowers are growing--the +roots are stirring. That is the Magic. Being alive +is the Magic--being strong is the Magic. The Magic is +in me--the Magic is in me. It is in me--it is in me. +It's in every one of us. It's in Ben Weatherstaff's back. +Magic! Magic! Come and help!" + +He said it a great many times--not a thousand times +but quite a goodly number. Mary listened entranced. +She felt as if it were at once queer and beautiful and she +wanted him to go on and on. Ben Weatherstaff began to feel +soothed into a sort of dream which was quite agreeable. +The humming of the bees in the blossoms mingled with +the chanting voice and drowsily melted into a doze. +Dickon sat cross-legged with his rabbit asleep +on his arm and a hand resting on the lamb's back. +Soot had pushed away a squirrel and huddled close to him +on his shoulder, the gray film dropped over his eyes. +At last Colin stopped. + +"Now I am going to walk round the garden," he announced. + +Ben Weatherstaff's head had just dropped forward and he +lifted it with a jerk. + +"You have been asleep," said Colin. + +"Nowt o' th' sort," mumbled Ben. "Th' sermon was good +enow--but I'm bound to get out afore th' collection." + +He was not quite awake yet. + +"You're not in church," said Colin. + +"Not me," said Ben, straightening himself. "Who said I +were? I heard every bit of it. You said th' Magic was +in my back. Th' doctor calls it rheumatics." + +The Rajah waved his hand. + +"That was the wrong Magic," he said. "You will get better. +You have my permission to go to your work. But come +back tomorrow." + +"I'd like to see thee walk round the garden," grunted Ben. + +It was not an unfriendly grunt, but it was a grunt. +In fact, being a stubborn old party and not having entire +faith in Magic he had made up his mind that if he were sent +away he would climb his ladder and look over the wall +so that he might be ready to hobble back if there were +any stumbling. + +The Rajah did not object to his staying and so the procession +was formed. It really did look like a procession. +Colin was at its head with Dickon on one side and +Mary on the other. Ben Weatherstaff walked behind, +and the "creatures" trailed after them, the lamb and +the fox cub keeping close to Dickon, the white rabbit +hopping along or stopping to nibble and Soot following +with the solemnity of a person who felt himself in charge. + +It was a procession which moved slowly but with dignity. +Every few yards it stopped to rest. Colin leaned on Dickon's +arm and privately Ben Weatherstaff kept a sharp lookout, +but now and then Colin took his hand from its support +and walked a few steps alone. His head was held up all +the time and he looked very grand. + +"The Magic is in me!" he kept saying. "The Magic +is making me strong! I can feel it! I can feel it!" + +It seemed very certain that something was upholding +and uplifting him. He sat on the seats in the alcoves, +and once or twice he sat down on the grass and several +times he paused in the path and leaned on Dickon, but he +would not give up until he had gone all round the garden. +When he returned to the canopy tree his cheeks were flushed +and he looked triumphant. + +"I did it! The Magic worked!" he cried. "That is my +first scientific discovery.". + +"What will Dr. Craven say?" broke out Mary. + +"He won't say anything," Colin answered, "because he will +not be told. This is to be the biggest secret of all. +No one is to know anything about it until I have grown +so strong that I can walk and run like any other boy. +I shall come here every day in my chair and I shall be +taken back in it. I won't have people whispering and +asking questions and I won't let my father hear about it +until the experiment has quite succeeded. Then sometime +when he comes back to Misselthwaite I shall just walk into +his study and say `Here I am; I am like any other boy. +I am quite well and I shall live to be a man. It has been +done by a scientific experiment.'" + +"He will think he is in a dream," cried Mary. "He won't +believe his eyes." + +Colin flushed triumphantly. He had made himself believe +that he was going to get well, which was really more +than half the battle, if he had been aware of it. +And the thought which stimulated him more than any other +was this imagining what his father would look like when he +saw that he had a son who was as straight and strong as +other fathers' sons. One of his darkest miseries in the +unhealthy morbid past days had been his hatred of being +a sickly weak-backed boy whose father was afraid to look at him. + +"He'll be obliged to believe them," he said. + +"One of the things I am going to do, after the Magic +works and before I begin to make scientific discoveries, +is to be an athlete." + +"We shall have thee takin' to boxin' in a week or so," +said Ben Weatherstaff. "Tha'lt end wi' winnin' th' +Belt an' bein' champion prize-fighter of all England." + +Colin fixed his eyes on him sternly. + +"Weatherstaff," he said, "that is disrespectful. +You must not take liberties because you are in the secret. +However much the Magic works I shall not be a prize-fighter. +I shall be a Scientific Discoverer." + +"Ax pardon--ax pardon, sir" answered Ben, touching his +forehead in salute. "I ought to have seed it wasn't +a jokin' matter," but his eyes twinkled and secretly he +was immensely pleased. He really did not mind being +snubbed since the snubbing meant that the lad was gaining +strength and spirit. + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + +"LET THEM LAUGH" + + +The secret garden was not the only one Dickon worked in. +Round the cottage on the moor there was a piece of ground +enclosed by a low wall of rough stones. Early in the morning +and late in the fading twilight and on all the days Colin +and Mary did not see him, Dickon worked there planting +or tending potatoes and cabbages, turnips and carrots and +herbs for his mother. In the company of his "creatures" +he did wonders there and was never tired of doing them, +it seemed. While he dug or weeded he whistled or sang +bits of Yorkshire moor songs or talked to Soot or Captain +or the brothers and sisters he had taught to help him. + +"We'd never get on as comfortable as we do," Mrs. Sowerby said, +"if it wasn't for Dickon's garden. Anything'll grow for him. +His 'taters and cabbages is twice th' size of any one +else's an' they've got a flavor with 'em as nobody's has." + +When she found a moment to spare she liked to go out +and talk to him. After supper there was still a long +clear twilight to work in and that was her quiet time. +She could sit upon the low rough wall and look on +and hear stories of the day. She loved this time. +There were not only vegetables in this garden. +Dickon had bought penny packages of flower seeds now +and then and sown bright sweet-scented things among +gooseberry bushes and even cabbages and he grew borders +of mignonette and pinks and pansies and things whose +seeds he could save year after year or whose roots would +bloom each spring and spread in time into fine clumps. +The low wall was one of the prettiest things in Yorkshire +because he had tucked moorland foxglove and ferns and +rock-cress and hedgerow flowers into every crevice until +only here and there glimpses of the stones were to be seen. + +"All a chap's got to do to make 'em thrive, mother," +he would say, "is to be friends with 'em for sure. +They're just like th' `creatures.' If they're thirsty give +'em drink and if they're hungry give 'em a bit o' food. +They want to live same as we do. If they died I should feel +as if I'd been a bad lad and somehow treated them heartless." + +It was in these twilight hours that Mrs. Sowerby heard of all +that happened at Misselthwaite Manor. At first she was only +told that "Mester Colin" had taken a fancy to going out into +the grounds with Miss Mary and that it was doing him good. +But it was not long before it was agreed between the two +children that Dickon's mother might "come into the secret." +Somehow it was not doubted that she was "safe for sure." + +So one beautiful still evening Dickon told the whole story, +with all the thrilling details of the buried key and the +robin and the gray haze which had seemed like deadness +and the secret Mistress Mary had planned never to reveal. +The coming of Dickon and how it had been told to him, +the doubt of Mester Colin and the final drama of his +introduction to the hidden domain, combined with the +incident of Ben Weatherstaff's angry face peering over +the wall and Mester Colin's sudden indignant strength, +made Mrs. Sowerby's nice-looking face quite change color +several times. + +"My word!" she said. "It was a good thing that little +lass came to th' Manor. It's been th' makin' o' her an' +th' savin, o' him. Standin' on his feet! An' us all thinkin' +he was a poor half-witted lad with not a straight bone in him." + +She asked a great many questions and her blue eyes were +full of deep thinking. + +"What do they make of it at th' Manor--him being so well an' +cheerful an' never complainin'?" she inquired. "They don't +know what to make of it," answered Dickon. "Every day +as comes round his face looks different. It's fillin' +out and doesn't look so sharp an' th' waxy color is goin'. +But he has to do his bit o' complainin'," with a highly +entertained grin. + +"What for, i' Mercy's name?" asked Mrs. Sowerby. + +Dickon chuckled. + +"He does it to keep them from guessin' what's happened. +If the doctor knew he'd found out he could stand on +his feet he'd likely write and tell Mester Craven. +Mester Colin's savin' th' secret to tell himself. +He's goin' to practise his Magic on his legs every day +till his father comes back an' then he's goin' to march +into his room an' show him he's as straight as other lads. +But him an' Miss Mary thinks it's best plan to do a +bit o' groanin' an' frettin' now an' then to throw folk +off th' scent." + +Mrs. Sowerby was laughing a low comfortable laugh long +before he had finished his last sentence. + +"Eh!" she said, "that pair's enjoyin' their-selves I'll warrant. +They'll get a good bit o' actin' out of it an' there's nothin' +children likes as much as play actin'. Let's hear what +they do, Dickon lad." Dickon stopped weeding and sat +up on his heels to tell her. His eyes were twinkling with fun. + +"Mester Colin is carried down to his chair every time +he goes out," he explained. "An' he flies out at John, +th' footman, for not carryin' him careful enough. He makes +himself as helpless lookin' as he can an' never lifts his head +until we're out o' sight o' th' house. An' he grunts an' +frets a good bit when he's bein' settled into his chair. +Him an' Miss Mary's both got to enjoyin' it an' when he +groans an' complains she'll say, `Poor Colin! Does it hurt +you so much? Are you so weak as that, poor Colin?'--but th' +trouble is that sometimes they can scarce keep from burstin' +out laughin'. When we get safe into the garden they laugh +till they've no breath left to laugh with. An' they have +to stuff their faces into Mester Colin's cushions to keep +the gardeners from hearin', if any of, 'em's about." + +"Th' more they laugh th' better for 'em!" said Mrs. Sowerby, +still laughing herself. "Good healthy child laughin's +better than pills any day o' th' year. That pair'll +plump up for sure." + +"They are plumpin' up," said Dickon. "They're that hungry +they don't know how to get enough to eat without makin' +talk. Mester Colin says if he keeps sendin' for more food +they won't believe he's an invalid at all. Miss Mary says +she'll let him eat her share, but he says that if she +goes hungry she'll get thin an' they mun both get fat at once." + +Mrs. Sowerby laughed so heartily at the revelation of this +difficulty that she quite rocked backward and forward +in her blue cloak, and Dickon laughed with her. + +"I'll tell thee what, lad," Mrs. Sowerby said when she +could speak. "I've thought of a way to help 'em. When tha' +goes to 'em in th' mornin's tha' shall take a pail o' +good new milk an' I'll bake 'em a crusty cottage loaf or +some buns wi' currants in 'em, same as you children like. +Nothin's so good as fresh milk an' bread. Then they could +take off th' edge o' their hunger while they were in their +garden an' th, fine food they get indoors 'ud polish +off th' corners." + +"Eh! mother!" said Dickon admiringly, "what a wonder tha' +art! Tha' always sees a way out o' things. They was +quite in a pother yesterday. They didn't see how they +was to manage without orderin' up more food--they felt +that empty inside." + +"They're two young 'uns growin' fast, an' health's comin' +back to both of 'em. Children like that feels like +young wolves an' food's flesh an' blood to 'em," said +Mrs. Sowerby. Then she smiled Dickon's own curving smile. +"Eh! but they're enjoyin' theirselves for sure," +she said. + +She was quite right, the comfortable wonderful mother +creature--and she had never been more so than when she said +their "play actin'" would be their joy. Colin and Mary found +it one of their most thrilling sources of entertainment. +The idea of protecting themselves from suspicion had been +unconsciously suggested to them first by the puzzled +nurse and then by Dr. Craven himself. + +"Your appetite. Is improving very much, Master Colin," +the nurse had said one day. "You used to eat nothing, +and so many things disagreed with you." + +"Nothing disagrees with me now" replied Colin, and then seeing +the nurse looking at him curiously he suddenly remembered +that perhaps he ought not to appear too well just yet. +"At least things don't so often disagree with me. +It's the fresh air." + +"Perhaps it is," said the nurse, still looking at him with +a mystified expression. "But I must talk to Dr. Craven +about it." + +"How she stared at you!" said Mary when she went away. +"As if she thought there must be something to find out." + +"I won't have her finding out things," said Colin. +"No one must begin to find out yet." When Dr. Craven came +that morning he seemed puzzled, also. He asked a number +of questions, to Colin's great annoyance. + +"You stay out in the garden a great deal," he suggested. +"Where do you go?" + +Colin put on his favorite air of dignified indifference +to opinion. + +"I will not let any one know where I go," he answered. +"I go to a place I like. Every one has orders to keep +out of the way. I won't be watched and stared at. +You know that!" + +"You seem to be out all day but I do not think it has +done you harm--I do not think so. The nurse says +that you eat much more than you have ever done before." + +"Perhaps," said Colin, prompted by a sudden inspiration, +"perhaps it is an unnatural appetite." + +"I do not think so, as your food seems to agree with you," +said Dr. Craven. "You are gaining flesh rapidly and your +color is better." + +"Perhaps--perhaps I am bloated and feverish," said Colin, +assuming a discouraging air of gloom. "People who are +not going to live are often--different." Dr. Craven shook +his head. He was holding Colin's wrist and he pushed up +his sleeve and felt his arm. + +"You are not feverish," he said thoughtfully, "and such +flesh as you have gained is healthy. If you can keep +this up, my boy, we need not talk of dying. Your father +will be happy to hear of this remarkable improvement." + +"I won't have him told!" Colin broke forth fiercely. +"It will only disappoint him if I get worse again--and I +may get worse this very night. I might have a raging fever. +I feel as if I might be beginning to have one now. +I won't have letters written to my father--I won't--I won't! +You are making me angry and you know that is bad for me. +I feel hot already. I hate being written about and being +talked over as much as I hate being stared at!" + +"Hush-h! my boy," Dr. Craven soothed him. "Nothing shall +be written without your permission. You are too sensitive +about things. You must not undo the good which has +been done." + +He said no more about writing to Mr. Craven and when he saw +the nurse he privately warned her that such a possibility +must not be mentioned to the patient. + +"The boy is extraordinarily better," he said. +"His advance seems almost abnormal. But of course he +is doing now of his own free will what we could not make +him do before. Still, he excites himself very easily +and nothing must be said to irritate him." Mary and +Colin were much alarmed and talked together anxiously. +From this time dated their plan of "play actin'." + +"I may be obliged to have a tantrum," said Colin regretfully. +"I don't want to have one and I'm not miserable enough +now to work myself into a big one. Perhaps I couldn't have +one at all. That lump doesn't come in my throat now and I +keep thinking of nice things instead of horrible ones. +But if they talk about writing to my father I shall have +to do something." + +He made up his mind to eat less, but unfortunately it +was not possible to carry out this brilliant idea when he +wakened each morning with an amazing appetite and the +table near his sofa was set with a breakfast of home-made +bread and fresh butter, snow-white eggs, raspberry jam +and clotted cream. Mary always breakfasted with him +and when they found themselves at the table--particularly +if there were delicate slices of sizzling ham sending +forth tempting odors from under a hot silver cover--they +would look into each other's eyes in desperation. + +"I think we shall have to eat it all this morning, +Mary," Colin always ended by saying. "We can send +away some of the lunch and a great deal of the dinner." + +But they never found they could send away anything +and the highly polished condition of the empty plates +returned to the pantry awakened much comment. + +"I do wish," Colin would say also, "I do wish the slices +of ham were thicker, and one muffin each is not enough +for any one." + +"It's enough for a person who is going to die," answered Mary +when first she heard this, "but it's not enough for a +person who is going to live. I sometimes feel as if I +could eat three when those nice fresh heather and gorse +smells from the moor come pouring in at the open window." + +The morning that Dickon--after they had been enjoying +themselves in the garden for about two hours--went +behind a big rosebush and brought forth two tin pails +and revealed that one was full of rich new milk with cream +on the top of it, and that the other held cottage-made +currant buns folded in a clean blue and white napkin, +buns so carefully tucked in that they were still hot, +there was a riot of surprised joyfulness. What a wonderful +thing for Mrs. Sowerby to think of! What a kind, +clever woman she must be! How good the buns were! And +what delicious fresh milk! + +"Magic is in her just as it is in Dickon," said Colin. +"It makes her think of ways to do things--nice things. +She is a Magic person. Tell her we are grateful, +Dickon--extremely grateful." He was given to using rather +grown-up phrases at times. He enjoyed them. He liked this +so much that he improved upon it. + +"Tell her she has been most bounteous and our gratitude +is extreme." + +And then forgetting his grandeur he fell to and stuffed +himself with buns and drank milk out of the pail in copious +draughts in the manner of any hungry little boy who had +been taking unusual exercise and breathing in moorland +air and whose breakfast was more than two hours behind him. + +This was the beginning of many agreeable incidents of the +same kind. They actually awoke to the fact that as Mrs. Sowerby +had fourteen people to provide food for she might not have +enough to satisfy two extra appetites every day. So they +asked her to let them send some of their shillings to buy things. + +Dickon made the stimulating discovery that in the wood +in the park outside the garden where Mary had first +found him piping to the wild creatures there was a deep +little hollow where you could build a sort of tiny +oven with stones and roast potatoes and eggs in it. +Roasted eggs were a previously unknown luxury and very hot +potatoes with salt and fresh butter in them were fit for +a woodland king--besides being deliciously satisfying. +You could buy both potatoes and eggs and eat as many +as you liked without feeling as if you were taking food +out of the mouths of fourteen people. + +Every beautiful morning the Magic was worked by the mystic +circle under the plum-tree which provided a canopy +of thickening green leaves after its brief blossom-time +was ended. After the ceremony Colin always took his walking +exercise and throughout the day he exercised his newly +found power at intervals. Each day he grew stronger +and could walk more steadily and cover more ground. +And each day his belief in the Magic grew stronger--as +well it might. He tried one experiment after another +as he felt himself gaining strength and it was Dickon +who showed him the best things of all. + +"Yesterday," he said one morning after an absence, +"I went to Thwaite for mother an' near th' Blue Cow Inn I +seed Bob Haworth. He's the strongest chap on th' moor. +He's the champion wrestler an' he can jump higher than any +other chap an' throw th' hammer farther. He's gone all th' +way to Scotland for th' sports some years. He's knowed me +ever since I was a little 'un an' he's a friendly sort an' +I axed him some questions. Th' gentry calls him a athlete +and I thought o' thee, Mester Colin, and I says, `How did tha' +make tha' muscles stick out that way, Bob? Did tha' +do anythin' extra to make thysel' so strong?' An' he says +'Well, yes, lad, I did. A strong man in a show that came +to Thwaite once showed me how to exercise my arms an' +legs an' every muscle in my body. An' I says, `Could a +delicate chap make himself stronger with 'em, Bob?' an' +he laughed an' says, 'Art tha' th' delicate chap?' an' +I says, `No, but I knows a young gentleman that's gettin' +well of a long illness an' I wish I knowed some o' +them tricks to tell him about.' I didn't say no names an, +he didn't ask none. He's friendly same as I said an' +he stood up an' showed me good-natured like, an' I imitated +what he did till I knowed it by heart." + +Colin had been listening excitedly. + +"Can you show me?" he cried. "Will you?" + +"Aye, to be sure," Dickon answered, getting up. +"But he says tha' mun do 'em gentle at first an' +be careful not to tire thysel'. Rest in between times an' +take deep breaths an' don't overdo." + +"I'll be careful," said Colin. "Show me! Show me! Dickon, +you are the most Magic boy in the world!" + +Dickon stood up on the grass and slowly went through a +carefully practical but simple series of muscle exercises. +Colin watched them with widening eyes. He could do a few +while he was sitting down. Presently he did a few gently +while he stood upon his already steadied feet. Mary began +to do them also. Soot, who was watching the performance, +became much disturbed and left his branch and hopped +about restlessly because he could not do them too. + +From that time the exercises were part of the day's duties +as much as the Magic was. It became possible for both +Colin and Mary to do more of them each time they tried, +and such appetites were the results that but for the basket +Dickon put down behind the bush each morning when he +arrived they would have been lost. But the little oven +in the hollow and Mrs. Sowerby's bounties were so satisfying +that Mrs. Medlock and the nurse and Dr. Craven became +mystified again. You can trifle with your breakfast and +seem to disdain your dinner if you are full to the brim +with roasted eggs and potatoes and richly frothed new +milk and oatcakes and buns and heather honey and clotted cream. + +"They are eating next to nothing," said the nurse. +"They'll die of starvation if they can't be persuaded +to take some nourishment. And yet see how they look." + +"Look!" exclaimed Mrs. Medlock indignantly. "Eh! I'm moithered +to death with them. They're a pair of young Satans. +Bursting their jackets one day and the next turning up +their noses at the best meals Cook can tempt them with. +Not a mouthful of that lovely young fowl and bread sauce +did they set a fork into yesterday--and the poor woman +fair invented a pudding for them--and back it's sent. +She almost cried. She's afraid she'll be blamed if they +starve themselves into their graves." + +Dr. Craven came and looked at Colin long and carefully, +He wore an extremely worried expression when the nurse +talked with him and showed him the almost untouched +tray of breakfast she had saved for him to look at--but +it was even more worried when he sat down by Colin's +sofa and examined him. He had been called to London on +business and had not seen the boy for nearly two weeks. +When young things begin to gain health they gain it rapidly. +The waxen tinge had left, Colins skin and a warm rose showed +through it; his beautiful eyes were clear and the hollows +under them and in his cheeks and temples had filled out. +His once dark, heavy locks had begun to look as if they +sprang healthily from his forehead and were soft and warm +with life. His lips were fuller and of a normal color. +In fact as an imitation of a boy who was a confirmed invalid +he was a disgraceful sight. Dr. Craven held his chin in his +hand and thought him over. + +"I am sorry to hear that you do not eat anything," +he said. "That will not do. You will lose all you have +gained --and you have gained amazingly. You ate so well +a short time ago." + +"I told you it was an unnatural appetite," answered Colin. + +Mary was sitting on her stool nearby and she suddenly +made a very queer sound which she tried so violently +to repress that she ended by almost choking. + +"What is the matter?" said Dr. Craven, turning to look +at her. + +Mary became quite severe in her manner. + +"It was something between a sneeze and a cough," she replied +with reproachful dignity, "and it got into my throat." + +"But," she said afterward to Colin, "I couldn't stop myself. +It just burst out because all at once I couldn't help +remembering that last big potato you ate and the way +your mouth stretched when you bit through that thick +lovely crust with jam and clotted cream on it." + +"Is there any way in which those children can get +food secretly?" Dr. Craven inquired of Mrs. Medlock. + +"There's no way unless they dig it out of the earth or pick +it off the trees," Mrs. Medlock answered. "They stay +out in the grounds all day and see no one but each other. +And if they want anything different to eat from what's +sent up to them they need only ask for it." + +"Well," said Dr. Craven, "so long as going without +food agrees with them we need not disturb ourselves. +The boy is a new creature." + +"So is the girl," said Mrs. Medlock. "She's begun to be +downright pretty since she's filled out and lost her ugly +little sour look. Her hair's grown thick and healthy +looking and she's got a bright color. The glummest, +ill-natured little thing she used to be and now her and Master +Colin laugh together like a pair of crazy young ones. +Perhaps they're growing fat on that." + +"Perhaps they are," said Dr. Craven. "Let them laugh." + + + +CHAPTER XXV + +THE CURTAIN + + +And the secret garden bloomed and bloomed and every +morning revealed new miracles. In the robin's nest there +were Eggs and the robin's mate sat upon them keeping them +warm with her feathery little breast and careful wings. +At first she was very nervous and the robin himself +was indignantly watchful. Even Dickon did not go +near the close-grown corner in those days, but waited +until by the quiet working of some mysterious spell he +seemed to have conveyed to the soul of the little pair +that in the garden there was nothing which was not quite +like themselves--nothing which did not understand the +wonderfulness of what was happening to them--the immense, +tender, terrible, heart-breaking beauty and solemnity +of Eggs. If there had been one person in that garden +who had not known through all his or her innermost being +that if an Egg were taken away or hurt the whole world +would whirl round and crash through space and come to +an end--if there had been even one who did not feel it +and act accordingly there could have been no happiness +even in that golden springtime air. But they all knew +it and felt it and the robin and his mate knew they knew it. + +At first the robin watched Mary and Colin with sharp anxiety. +For some mysterious reason he knew he need not watch Dickon. +The first moment he set his dew-bright black eye on Dickon +he knew he was not a stranger but a sort of robin without +beak or feathers. He could speak robin (which is a quite +distinct language not to be mistaken for any other). To speak +robin to a robin is like speaking French to a Frenchman. +Dickon always spoke it to the robin himself, so the queer +gibberish he used when he spoke to humans did not matter +in the least. The robin thought he spoke this gibberish +to them because they were not intelligent enough to +understand feathered speech. His movements also were robin. +They never startled one by being sudden enough to seem +dangerous or threatening. Any robin could understand Dickon, +so his presence was not even disturbing. + +But at the outset it seemed necessary to be on guard +against the other two. In the first place the boy +creature did not come into the garden on his legs. +He was pushed in on a thing with wheels and the skins +of wild animals were thrown over him. That in itself +was doubtful. Then when he began to stand up and move +about he did it in a queer unaccustomed way and the +others seemed to have to help him. The robin used +to secrete himself in a bush and watch this anxiously, +his head tilted first on one side and then on the other. +He thought that the slow movements might mean that he was +preparing to pounce, as cats do. When cats are preparing +to pounce they creep over the ground very slowly. +The robin talked this over with his mate a great deal +for a few days but after that he decided not to speak +of the subject because her terror was so great that he +was afraid it might be injurious to the Eggs. + +When the boy began to walk by himself and even to move more +quickly it was an immense relief. But for a long time--or it +seemed a long time to the robin--he was a source of some anxiety. +He did not act as the other humans did. He seemed very +fond of walking but he had a way of sitting or lying down +for a while and then getting up in a disconcerting manner to +begin again. + +One day the robin remembered that when he himself had +been made to learn to fly by his parents he had done +much the same sort of thing. He had taken short flights +of a few yards and then had been obliged to rest. +So it occurred to him that this boy was learning to fly--or +rather to walk. He mentioned this to his mate and when he +told her that the Eggs would probably conduct themselves +in the same way after they were fledged she was quite +comforted and even became eagerly interested and derived +great pleasure from watching the boy over the edge of her +nest--though she always thought that the Eggs would be +much cleverer and learn more quickly. But then she said +indulgently that humans were always more clumsy and slow +than Eggs and most of them never seemed really to learn +to fly at all. You never met them in the air or on tree-tops. + +After a while the boy began to move about as the others did, +but all three of the children at times did unusual things. +They would stand under the trees and move their arms and legs +and heads about in a way which was neither walking nor +running nor sitting down. They went through these movements +at intervals every day and the robin was never able to +explain to his mate what they were doing or tying to do. +He could only say that he was sure that the Eggs would +never flap about in such a manner; but as the boy who could +speak robin so fluently was doing the thing with them, +birds could be quite sure that the actions were not +of a dangerous nature. Of course neither the robin +nor his mate had ever heard of the champion wrestler, +Bob Haworth, and his exercises for making the muscles +stand out like lumps. Robins are not like human beings; +their muscles are always exercised from the first +and so they develop themselves in a natural manner. +If you have to fly about to find every meal you eat, +your muscles do not become atrophied (atrophied means wasted +away through want of use). + +When the boy was walking and running about and digging +and weeding like the others, the nest in the corner was +brooded over by a great peace and content. Fears for +the Eggs became things of the past. Knowing that your +Eggs were as safe as if they were locked in a bank vault +and the fact that you could watch so many curious things +going on made setting a most entertaining occupation. +On wet days the Eggs' mother sometimes felt even a little +dull because the children did not come into the garden. + +But even on wet days it could not be said that Mary and +Colin were dull. One morning when the rain streamed down +unceasingly and Colin was beginning to feel a little restive, +as he was obliged to remain on his sofa because it was +not safe to get up and walk about, Mary had an inspiration. + +"Now that I am a real boy," Colin had said, "my legs and arms +and all my body are so full of Magic that I can't keep +them still. They want to be doing things all the time. +Do you know that when I waken in the morning, Mary, +when it's quite early and the birds are just shouting +outside and everything seems just shouting for joy--even +the trees and things we can't really hear--I feel as if I +must jump out of bed and shout myself. If I did it, +just think what would happen!" + +Mary giggled inordinately. + +"The nurse would come running and Mrs. Medlock would +come running and they would be sure you had gone crazy +and they'd send for the doctor," she said. + +Colin giggled himself. He could see how they would +all look--how horrified by his outbreak and how amazed +to see him standing upright. + +"I wish my father would come home," he said. "I want +to tell him myself. I'm always thinking about it--but we +couldn't go on like this much longer. I can't stand lying +still and pretending, and besides I look too different. +I wish it wasn't raining today." + +It was then Mistress Mary had her inspiration. + +"Colin," she began mysteriously, "do you know how many +rooms there are in this house?" + +"About a thousand, I suppose," he answered. + +"There's about a hundred no one ever goes into," said Mary. +"And one rainy day I went and looked into ever so many of them. +No one ever knew, though Mrs. Medlock nearly found me out. +I lost my way when I was coming back and I stopped at +the end of your corridor. That was the second time I +heard you crying." + +Colin started up on his sofa. + +"A hundred rooms no one goes into," he said. "It sounds +almost like a secret garden. Suppose we go and look at them. +wheel me in my chair and nobody would know we went" + +"That's what I was thinking," said Mary. "No one would dare +to follow us. There are galleries where you could run. +We could do our exercises. There is a little Indian +room where there is a cabinet full of ivory elephants. +There are all sorts of rooms." + +"Ring the bell," said Colin. + +When the nurse came in he gave his orders. + +"I want my chair," he said. "Miss Mary and I are going +to look at the part of the house which is not used. +John can push me as far as the picture-gallery because there +are some stairs. Then he must go away and leave us alone +until I send for him again." + +Rainy days lost their terrors that morning. When the +footman had wheeled the chair into the picture-gallery +and left the two together in obedience to orders, +Colin and Mary looked at each other delighted. As soon +as Mary had made sure that John was really on his way back +to his own quarters below stairs, Colin got out of his chair. + +"I am going to run from one end of the gallery to the other," +he said, "and then I am going to jump and then we will +do Bob Haworth's exercises." + +And they did all these things and many others. They looked +at the portraits and found the plain little girl dressed +in green brocade and holding the parrot on her finger. + +"All these," said Colin, "must be my relations. +They lived a long time ago. That parrot one, I believe, +is one of my great, great, great, great aunts. She looks +rather like you, Mary--not as you look now but as you +looked when you came here. Now you are a great deal +fatter and better looking." + +"So are you," said Mary, and they both laughed. + +They went to the Indian room and amused themselves with +the ivory elephants. They found the rose-colored brocade +boudoir and the hole in the cushion the mouse had left, +but the mice had grown up and run away and the hole was empty. +They saw more rooms and made more discoveries than Mary +had made on her first pilgrimage. They found new corridors +and corners and flights of steps and new old pictures they +liked and weird old things they did not know the use of. +It was a curiously entertaining morning and the feeling +of wandering about in the same house with other people +but at the same time feeling as if one were miles away +from them was a fascinating thing. + +"I'm glad we came," Colin said. "I never knew I +lived in such a big queer old place. I like it. +We will ramble about every rainy day. We shall always +be finding new queer corners and things." + +That morning they had found among other things such +good appetites that when they returned to Colin's room +it was not possible to send the luncheon away untouched. + +When the nurse carried the tray down-stairs she slapped it +down on the kitchen dresser so that Mrs. Loomis, the cook, +could see the highly polished dishes and plates. + +"Look at that!" she said. "This is a house of mystery, +and those two children are the greatest mysteries in it." + +"If they keep that up every day," said the strong +young footman John, "there'd be small wonder that he +weighs twice as much to-day as he did a month ago. +I should have to give up my place in time, for fear +of doing my muscles an injury." + +That afternoon Mary noticed that something new had happened +in Colin's room. She had noticed it the day before but +had said nothing because she thought the change might +have been made by chance. She said nothing today but she +sat and looked fixedly at the picture over the mantel. +She could look at it because the curtain had been drawn aside. +That was the change she noticed. + +"I know what you want me to tell you," said Colin, +after she had stared a few minutes. "I always know when +you want me to tell you something. You are wondering why +the curtain is drawn back. I am going to keep it like that." + +"Why?" asked Mary. + +"Because it doesn't make me angry any more to see her laughing. +I wakened when it was bright moonlight two nights ago +and felt as if the Magic was filling the room and making +everything so splendid that I couldn't lie still. +I got up and looked out of the window. The room was quite +light and there was a patch of moonlight on the curtain +and somehow that made me go and pull the cord. She looked +right down at me as if she were laughing because she was glad +I was standing there. It made me like to look at her. +I want to see her laughing like that all the time. +I think she must have been a sort of Magic person perhaps." + +"You are so like her now," said Mary, "that sometimes I +think perhaps you are her ghost made into a boy." + +That idea seemed to impress Colin. He thought it over +and then answered her slowly. + +"If I were her ghost--my father would be fond of me." + +"Do you want him to be fond of you?" inquired Mary. + +"I used to hate it because he was not fond of me. If he +grew fond of me I think I should tell him about the Magic. +It might make him more cheerful." + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + +"IT'S MOTHER!" + + +Their belief in the Magic was an abiding thing. +After the morning's incantations Colin sometimes gave +them Magic lectures. + +"I like to do it," he explained, "because when I grow +up and make great scientific discoveries I shall be +obliged to lecture about them and so this is practise. +I can only give short lectures now because I am very young, +and besides Ben Weatherstaff would feel as if he were in +church and he would go to sleep." + +"Th' best thing about lecturin'," said Ben, "is that a chap can +get up an' say aught he pleases an' no other chap can answer +him back. I wouldn't be agen' lecturin' a bit mysel' sometimes." + +But when Colin held forth under his tree old Ben fixed +devouring eyes on him and kept them there. He looked +him over with critical affection. It was not so much +the lecture which interested him as the legs which looked +straighter and stronger each day, the boyish head which held +itself up so well, the once sharp chin and hollow cheeks +which had filled and rounded out and the eyes which had +begun to hold the light he remembered in another pair. +Sometimes when Colin felt Ben's earnest gaze meant that he +was much impressed he wondered what he was reflecting on +and once when he had seemed quite entranced he questioned him. + +"What are you thinking about, Ben Weatherstaff?" he asked. + +"I was thinkin'" answered Ben, "as I'd warrant tha's, +gone up three or four pound this week. I was lookin' +at tha' calves an' tha' shoulders. I'd like to get thee +on a pair o' scales." + +"It's the Magic and--and Mrs. Sowerby's buns and milk +and things," said Colin. "You see the scientific +experiment has succeeded." + +That morning Dickon was too late to hear the lecture. +When he came he was ruddy with running and his funny face +looked more twinkling than usual. As they had a good deal +of weeding to do after the rains they fell to work. +They always had plenty to do after a warm deep sinking rain. +The moisture which was good for the flowers was also good +for the weeds which thrust up tiny blades of grass and points +of leaves which must be pulled up before their roots took +too firm hold. Colin was as good at weeding as any one +in these days and he could lecture while he was doing it. +"The Magic works best when you work, yourself," he said +this morning. "You can feel it in your bones and muscles. +I am going to read books about bones and muscles, but I am +going to write a book about Magic. I am making it up now. +I keep finding out things." + +It was not very long after he had said this that he +laid down his trowel and stood up on his feet. +He had been silent for several minutes and they had seen +that he was thinking out lectures, as he often did. +When he dropped his trowel and stood upright it seemed +to Mary and Dickon as if a sudden strong thought had made +him do it. He stretched himself out to his tallest height +and he threw out his arms exultantly. Color glowed in +his face and his strange eyes widened with joyfulness. +All at once he had realized something to the full. + +"Mary! Dickon!" he cried. "Just look at me!" + +They stopped their weeding and looked at him. + +"Do you remember that first morning you brought me in here?" +he demanded. + +Dickon was looking at him very hard. Being an animal +charmer he could see more things than most people could +and many of them were things he never talked about. +He saw some of them now in this boy. "Aye, that we do," +he answered. + +Mary looked hard too, but she said nothing. + +"Just this minute," said Colin, "all at once I remembered +it myself--when I looked at my hand digging with the +trowel--and I had to stand up on my feet to see if it +was real. And it is real! I'm well--I'm well!" + +"Aye, that th' art!" said Dickon. + +"I'm well! I'm well!" said Colin again, and his face went +quite red all over. + +He had known it before in a way, he had hoped it and felt +it and thought about it, but just at that minute something +had rushed all through him--a sort of rapturous belief +and realization and it had been so strong that he could +not help calling out. + +"I shall live forever and ever and ever!" he cried grandly. +"I shall find out thousands and thousands of things. +I shall find out about people and creatures and everything +that grows--like Dickon--and I shall never stop making Magic. +I'm well! I'm well! I feel--I feel as if I want to shout +out something--something thankful, joyful!" + +Ben Weatherstaff, who had been working near a rose-bush, +glanced round at him. + +"Tha' might sing th' Doxology," he suggested in his +dryest grunt. He had no opinion of the Doxology and he +did not make the suggestion with any particular reverence. + +But Colin was of an exploring mind and he knew nothing +about the Doxology. + +"What is that?" he inquired. + +"Dickon can sing it for thee, I'll warrant," +replied Ben Weatherstaff. + +Dickon answered with his all-perceiving animal charmer's smile. + +"They sing it i' church," he said. "Mother says she +believes th' skylarks sings it when they gets up i' th' mornin'." + +"If she says that, it must be a nice song," Colin answered. +"I've never been in a church myself. I was always too ill. +Sing it, Dickon. I want to hear it." + +Dickon was quite simple and unaffected about it. +He understood what Colin felt better than Colin did himself. +He understood by a sort of instinct so natural that he +did not know it was understanding. He pulled off his cap +and looked round still smiling. + +"Tha' must take off tha' cap," he said to Colin," +an' so mun tha', Ben--an' tha' mun stand up, tha' knows." + +Colin took off his cap and the sun shone on and warmed his +thick hair as he watched Dickon intently. Ben Weatherstaff +scrambled up from his knees and bared his head too with +a sort of puzzled half-resentful look on his old face +as if he didn't know exactly why he was doing this remarkable +thing. + +Dickon stood out among the trees and rose-bushes +and began to sing in quite a simple matter-of-fact +way and in a nice strong boy voice: + + "Praise God from whom all blessings flow, + Praise Him all creatures here below, + Praise Him above ye Heavenly Host, + Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. + Amen." + +When he had finished, Ben Weatherstaff was standing +quite still with his jaws set obstinately but with a +disturbed look in his eyes fixed on Colin. Colin's face +was thoughtful and appreciative. + +"It is a very nice song," he said. "I like it. Perhaps it +means just what I mean when I want to shout out that I am +thankful to the Magic." He stopped and thought in a puzzled way. +"Perhaps they are both the same thing. How can we know +the exact names of everything? Sing it again, Dickon. +Let us try, Mary. I want to sing it, too. It's my song. +How does it begin? `Praise God from whom all blessings flow'?" + +And they sang it again, and Mary and Colin lifted their +voices as musically as they could and Dickon's swelled quite +loud and beautiful--and at the second line Ben Weatherstaff +raspingly cleared his throat and at the third line he joined +in with such vigor that it seemed almost savage and when +the "Amen" came to an end Mary observed that the very same +thing had happened to him which had happened when he found +out that Colin was not a cripple--his chin was twitching +and he was staring and winking and his leathery old cheeks were +wet. + +"I never seed no sense in th' Doxology afore," he said hoarsely, +"but I may change my mind i' time. I should say tha'd +gone up five pound this week Mester Colin--five on 'em!" + +Colin was looking across the garden at something attracting +his attention and his expression had become a startled one. + +"Who is coming in here?" he said quickly. "Who is it?" + +The door in the ivied wall had been pushed gently open +and a woman had entered. She had come in with the last +line of their song and she had stood still listening and +looking at them. With the ivy behind her, the sunlight +drifting through the trees and dappling her long blue cloak, +and her nice fresh face smiling across the greenery +she was rather like a softly colored illustration in +one of Colin's books. She had wonderful affectionate +eyes which seemed to take everything in--all of them, +even Ben Weatherstaff and the "creatures" and every flower +that was in bloom. Unexpectedly as she had appeared, +not one of them felt that she was an intruder at all. +Dickon's eyes lighted like lamps. + +"It's mother--that's who it is!" he cried and went across +the grass at a run. + +Colin began to move toward her, too, and Mary went with him. +They both felt their pulses beat faster. + +"It's mother!" Dickon said again when they met halfway. +"I knowed tha' wanted to see her an' I told her where th' +door was hid." + +Colin held out his hand with a sort of flushed royal +shyness but his eyes quite devoured her face. + +"Even when I was ill I wanted to see you," he said, +"you and Dickon and the secret garden. I'd never wanted +to see any one or anything before." + +The sight of his uplifted face brought about a sudden +change in her own. She flushed and the corners of her +mouth shook and a mist seemed to sweep over her eyes. + +"Eh! dear lad!" she broke out tremulously. "Eh! dear lad!" +as if she had not known she were going to say it. She did +not say, "Mester Colin," but just "dear lad" quite suddenly. +She might have said it to Dickon in the same way if she +had seen something in his face which touched her. +Colin liked it. + +"Are you surprised because I am so well?" he asked. +She put her hand on his shoulder and smiled the mist +out of her eyes. "Aye, that I am!" she said; "but tha'rt +so like thy mother tha' made my heart jump." + +"Do you think," said Colin a little awkwardly, "that will +make my father like me?" + +"Aye, for sure, dear lad," she answered and she gave +his shoulder a soft quick pat. "He mun come home--he +mun come home." + +"Susan Sowerby," said Ben Weatherstaff, getting close +to her. "Look at th' lad's legs, wilt tha'? They was +like drumsticks i' stockin' two month' ago--an' I heard +folk tell as they was bandy an' knock-kneed both at th' +same time. Look at 'em now!" + +Susan Sowerby laughed a comfortable laugh. + +"They're goin' to be fine strong lad's legs in a bit," +she said. "Let him go on playin' an' workin' in the garden an' +eatin' hearty an' drinkin' plenty o' good sweet milk an' +there'll not be a finer pair i' Yorkshire, thank God for it." + +She put both hands on Mistress Mary's shoulders and looked +her little face over in a motherly fashion. + +"An' thee, too!" she said. "Tha'rt grown near as hearty +as our 'Lisabeth Ellen. I'll warrant tha'rt like thy +mother too. Our Martha told me as Mrs. Medlock heard she +was a pretty woman. Tha'lt be like a blush rose when tha' +grows up, my little lass, bless thee." + +She did not mention that when Martha came home on her +"day out" and described the plain sallow child she had said +that she had no confidence whatever in what Mrs. Medlock +had heard. "It doesn't stand to reason that a pretty +woman could be th' mother o' such a fou' little lass," +she had added obstinately. + +Mary had not had time to pay much attention to her +changing face. She had only known that she looked +"different" and seemed to have a great deal more hair +and that it was growing very fast. But remembering +her pleasure in looking at the Mem Sahib in the past +she was glad to hear that she might some day look like her. + +Susan Sowerby went round their garden with them and was +told the whole story of it and shown every bush and tree +which had come alive. Colin walked on one side of her +and Mary on the other. Each of them kept looking up +at her comfortable rosy face, secretly curious about +the delightful feeling she gave them--a sort of warm, +supported feeling. It seemed as if she understood them +as Dickon understood his "creatures." She stooped over the +flowers and talked about them as if they were children. +Soot followed her and once or twice cawed at her and flew +upon her shoulder as if it were Dickon's. When they told +her about the robin and the first flight of the young ones +she laughed a motherly little mellow laugh in her throat. + +"I suppose learnin' 'em to fly is like learnin' +children to walk, but I'm feared I should be all +in a worrit if mine had wings instead o' legs," she said. + +It was because she seemed such a wonderful woman in her +nice moorland cottage way that at last she was told +about the Magic. + +"Do you believe in Magic?" asked Colin after he had +explained about Indian fakirs. "I do hope you do." + +"That I do, lad," she answered. "I never knowed it by +that name but what does th' name matter? I warrant they +call it a different name i' France an' a different one i' +Germany. Th' same thing as set th' seeds swellin' an' th' +sun shinin' made thee a well lad an' it's th' Good Thing. +It isn't like us poor fools as think it matters if us is +called out of our names. Th' Big Good Thing doesn't stop +to worrit, bless thee. It goes on makin' worlds by th' +million--worlds like us. Never thee stop believin' in th' +Big Good Thing an' knowin' th' world's full of it--an' +call it what tha' likes. Tha' wert singin' to it when I +come into th' garden." + +"I felt so joyful," said Colin, opening his beautiful +strange eyes at her. "Suddenly I felt how different I +was--how strong my arms and legs were, you know--and +how I could dig and stand--and I jumped up and wanted +to shout out something to anything that would listen." + +"Th' Magic listened when tha' sung th' Doxology. +It would ha' listened to anything tha'd sung. It was th' +joy that mattered. Eh! lad, lad--what's names to th' +Joy Maker," and she gave his shoulders a quick soft +pat again. + +She had packed a basket which held a regular feast +this morning, and when the hungry hour came and Dickon +brought it out from its hiding place, she sat down with +them under their tree and watched them devour their food, +laughing and quite gloating over their appetites. She was +full of fun and made them laugh at all sorts of odd things. +She told them stories in broad Yorkshire and taught them +new words. She laughed as if she could not help it +when they told her of the increasing difficulty there +was in pretending that Colin was still a fretful invalid. + +"You see we can't help laughing nearly all the time +when we are together," explained Colin. "And it +doesn't sound ill at all. We try to choke it back +but it will burst out and that sounds worse than ever." + +"There's one thing that comes into my mind so often," +said Mary, "and I can scarcely ever hold in when I think +of it suddenly. I keep thinking suppose Colin's face +should get to look like a full moon. It isn't like one +yet but he gets a tiny bit fatter every day--and suppose +some morning it should look like one--what should we do!" + +"Bless us all, I can see tha' has a good bit o' play actin' +to do," said Susan Sowerby. "But tha' won't have to keep +it up much longer. Mester Craven'll come home." + +"Do you think he will?" asked Colin. "Why?" + +Susan Sowerby chuckled softly. + +"I suppose it 'ud nigh break thy heart if he found +out before tha' told him in tha' own way," she said. +"Tha's laid awake nights plannin' it." + +"I couldn't bear any one else to tell him," said Colin. +"I think about different ways every day, I think now I +just want to run into his room." "That'd be a fine +start for him," said Susan Sowerby. "I'd like to see +his face, lad. I would that! He mun come back--that +he mun." + +One of the things they talked of was the visit they +were to make to her cottage. They planned it all. +They were to drive over the moor and lunch out of doors +among the heather. They would see all the twelve children +and Dickon's garden and would not come back until they +were tired. + +Susan Sowerby got up at last to return to the house +and Mrs. Medlock. It was time for Colin to be wheeled +back also. But before he got into his chair he stood +quite close to Susan and fixed his eyes on her with a +kind of bewildered adoration and he suddenly caught +hold of the fold of her blue cloak and held it fast. + +"You are just what I--what I wanted," he said. "I wish +you were my mother--as well as Dickon's!" + +All at once Susan Sowerby bent down and drew him +with her warm arms close against the bosom under +the blue cloak--as if he had been Dickon's brother. +The quick mist swept over her eyes. + +"Eh! dear lad!" she said. "Thy own mother's in this 'ere +very garden, I do believe. She couldna' keep out of it. +Thy father mun come back to thee--he mun!" + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + +IN THE GARDEN + + +In each century since the beginning of the world wonderful +things have been discovered. In the last century more +amazing things were found out than in any century before. +In this new century hundreds of things still more +astounding will be brought to light. At first people +refuse to believe that a strange new thing can be done, +then they begin to hope it can be done, then they see it +can be done--then it is done and all the world wonders +why it was not done centuries ago. One of the new things +people began to find out in the last century was that +thoughts--just mere thoughts--are as powerful as electric +batteries--as good for one as sunlight is, or as bad +for one as poison. To let a sad thought or a bad one get +into your mind is as dangerous as letting a scarlet fever +germ get into your body. If you let it stay there after +it has got in you may never get over it as long as you live. + +So long as Mistress Mary's mind was full of disagreeable +thoughts about her dislikes and sour opinions of people +and her determination not to be pleased by or interested +in anything, she was a yellow-faced, sickly, bored and +wretched child. Circumstances, however, were very +kind to her, though she was not at all aware of it. +They began to push her about for her own good. When her +mind gradually filled itself with robins, and moorland +cottages crowded with children, with queer crabbed +old gardeners and common little Yorkshire housemaids, +with springtime and with secret gardens coming alive day +by day, and also with a moor boy and his "creatures," there +was no room left for the disagreeable thoughts which affected +her liver and her digestion and made her yellow and tired. + +So long as Colin shut himself up in his room and thought +only of his fears and weakness and his detestation +of people who looked at him and reflected hourly on +humps and early death, he was a hysterical half-crazy +little hypochondriac who knew nothing of the sunshine +and the spring and also did not know that he could get +well and could stand upon his feet if he tried to do it. +When new beautiful thoughts began to push out the old +hideous ones, life began to come back to him, his blood ran +healthily through his veins and strength poured into him +like a flood. His scientific experiment was quite practical +and simple and there was nothing weird about it at all. +Much more surprising things can happen to any one who, +when a disagreeable or discouraged thought comes into his mind, +just has the sense to remember in time and push it out +by putting in an agreeable determinedly courageous one. +Two things cannot be in one place. + + "Where, you tend a rose, my lad, + A thistle cannot grow." + +While the secret garden was coming alive and two children +were coming alive with it, there was a man wandering about +certain far-away beautiful places in the Norwegian fiords +and the valleys and mountains of Switzerland and he was +a man who for ten years had kept his mind filled with dark +and heart-broken thinking. He had not been courageous; +he had never tried to put any other thoughts in the place of +the dark ones. He had wandered by blue lakes and thought them; +he had lain on mountain-sides with sheets of deep blue +gentians blooming all about him and flower breaths filling +all the air and he had thought them. A terrible sorrow +had fallen upon him when he had been happy and he had +let his soul fill itself with blackness and had refused +obstinately to allow any rift of light to pierce through. +He had forgotten and deserted his home and his duties. +When he traveled about, darkness so brooded over him that +the sight of him was a wrong done to other people because +it was as if he poisoned the air about him with gloom. +Most strangers thought he must be either half mad or a man +with some hidden crime on his soul. He, was a tall man +with a drawn face and crooked shoulders and the name he +always entered on hotel registers was, "Archibald Craven, +Misselthwaite Manor, Yorkshire, England." + +He had traveled far and wide since the day he saw Mistress +Mary in his study and told her she might have her "bit +of earth." He had been in the most beautiful places in Europe, +though he had remained nowhere more than a few days. +He had chosen the quietest and remotest spots. +He had been on the tops of mountains whose heads were +in the clouds and had looked down on other mountains +when the sun rose and touched them with such light +as made it seem as if the world were just being born. + +But the light had never seemed to touch himself until +one day when he realized that for the first time in ten +years a strange thing had happened. He was in a wonderful +valley in the Austrian Tyrol and he had been walking alone +through such beauty as might have lifted, any man's soul +out of shadow. He had walked a long way and it had not +lifted his. But at last he had felt tired and had thrown +himself down to rest on a carpet of moss by a stream. +It was a clear little stream which ran quite merrily along +on its narrow way through the luscious damp greenness. +Sometimes it made a sound rather like very low laughter +as it bubbled over and round stones. He saw birds +come and dip their heads to drink in it and then flick +their wings and fly away. It seemed like a thing alive +and yet its tiny voice made the stillness seem deeper. +The valley was very, very still. + +As he sat gazing into the clear running of the water, +Archibald Craven gradually felt his mind and body +both grow quiet, as quiet as the valley itself. +He wondered if he were going to sleep, but he was not. +He sat and gazed at the sunlit water and his eyes began +to see things growing at its edge. There was one lovely +mass of blue forget-me-nots growing so close to the stream +that its leaves were wet and at these he found himself looking +as he remembered he had looked at such things years ago. +He was actually thinking tenderly how lovely it was and +what wonders of blue its hundreds of little blossoms were. +He did not know that just that simple thought was slowly +filling his mind--filling and filling it until other things +were softly pushed aside. It was as if a sweet clear +spring had begun to rise in a stagnant pool and had risen +and risen until at last it swept the dark water away. +But of course he did not think of this himself. He only +knew that the valley seemed to grow quieter and quieter +as he sat and stared at the bright delicate blueness. +He did not know how long he sat there or what was happening +to him, but at last he moved as if he were awakening +and he got up slowly and stood on the moss carpet, +drawing a long, deep, soft breath and wondering at himself. +Something seemed to have been unbound and released in him, +very quietly. + +"What is it?" he said, almost in a whisper, and he passed +his hand over his forehead. "I almost feel as if--I +were alive!" + +I do not know enough about the wonderfulness of undiscovered +things to be able to explain how this had happened to him. +Neither does any one else yet. He did not understand +at all himself--but he remembered this strange hour +months afterward when he was at Misselthwaite again +and he found out quite by accident that on this very day +Colin had cried out as he went into the secret garden: + +"I am going to live forever and ever and ever!" + +The singular calmness remained with him the rest of the +evening and he slept a new reposeful sleep; but it was +not with him very long. He did not know that it could +be kept. By the next night he had opened the doors +wide to his dark thoughts and they had come trooping +and rushing back. He left the valley and went on his +wandering way again. But, strange as it seemed to him, +there were minutes--sometimes half-hours--when, without +his knowing why, the black burden seemed to lift itself +again and he knew he was a living man and not a dead one. +Slowly--slowly--for no reason that he knew of--he was +"coming alive" with the garden. + +As the golden summer changed into the deep golden autumn he +went to the Lake of Como. There he found the loveliness +of a dream. He spent his days upon the crystal blueness +of the lake or he walked back into the soft thick verdure +of the hills and tramped until he was tired so that he +might sleep. But by this time he had begun to sleep better, +he knew, and his dreams had ceased to be a terror to him. + +"Perhaps," he thought, "my body is growing stronger." + +It was growing stronger but--because of the rare +peaceful hours when his thoughts were changed--his soul +was slowly growing stronger, too. He began to think +of Misselthwaite and wonder if he should not go home. +Now and then he wondered vaguely about his boy and asked +himself what he should feel when he went and stood +by the carved four-posted bed again and looked down at +the sharply chiseled ivory-white face while it slept and, +the black lashes rimmed so startlingly the close-shut eyes. +He shrank from it. + +One marvel of a day he had walked so far that when he +returned the moon was high and full and all the world +was purple shadow and silver. The stillness of lake +and shore and wood was so wonderful that he did not go +into the villa he lived in. He walked down to a little +bowered terrace at the water's edge and sat upon a seat +and breathed in all the heavenly scents of the night. +He felt the strange calmness stealing over him and it grew +deeper and deeper until he fell asleep. + +He did not know when he fell asleep and when he began +to dream; his dream was so real that he did not feel +as if he were dreaming. He remembered afterward how +intensely wide awake and alert he had thought he was. +He thought that as he sat and breathed in the scent of +the late roses and listened to the lapping of the water +at his feet he heard a voice calling. It was sweet +and clear and happy and far away. It seemed very far, +but he heard it as distinctly as if it had been at his +very side. + +"Archie! Archie! Archie!" it said, and then again, +sweeter and clearer than before, "Archie! Archie!" + +He thought he sprang to his feet not even startled. +It was such a real voice and it seemed so natural that he +should hear it. + +"Lilias! Lilias!" he answered. "Lilias! where are you?" + +"In the garden," it came back like a sound from +a golden flute. "In the garden!" + +And then the dream ended. But he did not awaken. +He slept soundly and sweetly all through the lovely night. +When he did awake at last it was brilliant morning and a +servant was standing staring at him. He was an Italian +servant and was accustomed, as all the servants of the +villa were, to accepting without question any strange thing +his foreign master might do. No one ever knew when he +would go out or come in or where he would choose to sleep +or if he would roam about the garden or lie in the boat +on the lake all night. The man held a salver with some +letters on it and he waited quietly until Mr. Craven +took them. When he had gone away Mr. Craven sat a few +moments holding them in his hand and looking at the lake. +His strange calm was still upon him and something more--a +lightness as if the cruel thing which had been done had +not happened as he thought--as if something had changed. +He was remembering the dream--the real--real dream. + +"In the garden!" he said, wondering at himself. "In the +garden! But the door is locked and the key is buried deep." + +When he glanced at the letters a few minutes later he +saw that the one lying at the top of the rest was an +English letter and came from Yorkshire. It was directed +in a plain woman's hand but it was not a hand he knew. +He opened it, scarcely thinking of the writer, but the +first words attracted his attention at once. + + +"Dear Sir: + +I am Susan Sowerby that made bold to speak to you +once on the moor. It was about Miss Mary I spoke. +I will make bold to speak again. Please, sir, I would +come home if I was you. I think you would be glad to come +and--if you will excuse me, sir--I think your lady would +ask you to come if she was here. + + Your obedient servant, + Susan Sowerby." + + +Mr. Craven read the letter twice before he put it back +in its envelope. He kept thinking about the dream. + +"I will go back to Misselthwaite," he said. "Yes, I'll +go at once." + +And he went through the garden to the villa and ordered +Pitcher to prepare for his return to England. + + +In a few days he was in Yorkshire again, and on his long +railroad journey he found himself thinking of his boy +as he had never thought in all the ten years past. +During those years he had only wished to forget him. +Now, though he did not intend to think about him, +memories of him constantly drifted into his mind. +He remembered the black days when he had raved like a madman +because the child was alive and the mother was dead. +He had refused to see it, and when he had gone to look +at it at last it had been, such a weak wretched thing +that everyone had been sure it would die in a few days. +But to the surprise of those who took care of it the days +passed and it lived and then everyone believed it would be a +deformed and crippled creature. + +He had not meant to be a bad father, but he had not felt +like a father at all. He had supplied doctors and nurses +and luxuries, but he had shrunk from the mere thought +of the boy and had buried himself in his own misery. +The first time after a year's absence he returned +to Misselthwaite and the small miserable looking thing +languidly and indifferently lifted to his face the great +gray eyes with black lashes round them, so like and yet +so horribly unlike the happy eyes he had adored, he could +not bear the sight of them and turned away pale as death. +After that he scarcely ever saw him except when he was asleep, +and all he knew of him was that he was a confirmed invalid, +with a vicious, hysterical, half-insane temper. He could +only be kept from furies dangerous to himself by being +given his own way in every detail. + +All this was not an uplifting thing to recall, but as +the train whirled him through mountain passes and golden +plains the man who was "coming alive" began to think +in a new way and he thought long and steadily and deeply. + +"Perhaps I have been all wrong for ten years," +he said to himself. "Ten years is a long time. +It may be too late to do anything--quite too late. +What have I been thinking of!" + +Of course this was the wrong Magic--to begin by saying +"too late." Even Colin could have told him that. +But he knew nothing of Magic--either black or white. +This he had yet to learn. He wondered if Susan Sowerby +had taken courage and written to him only because the +motherly creature had realized that the boy was much +worse--was fatally ill. If he had not been under the +spell of the curious calmness which had taken possession +of him he would have been more wretched than ever. +But the calm had brought a sort of courage and hope with it. +Instead of giving way to thoughts of the worst he actually +found he was trying to believe in better things. + +"Could it be possible that she sees that I may be able +to do him good and control him?" he thought. "I will go +and see her on my way to Misselthwaite." + +But when on his way across the moor he stopped the carriage +at the cottage, seven or eight children who were playing +about gathered in a group and bobbing seven or eight +friendly and polite curtsies told him that their mother +had gone to the other side of the moor early in the morning +to help a woman who had a new baby. "Our Dickon," +they volunteered, was over at the Manor working in one +of the gardens where he went several days each week. + +Mr. Craven looked over the collection of sturdy little +bodies and round red-cheeked faces, each one grinning +in its own particular way, and he awoke to the fact +that they were a healthy likable lot. He smiled at their +friendly grins and took a golden sovereign from his pocket +and gave it to "our 'Lizabeth Ellen" who was the oldest. + +"If you divide that into eight parts there will be half +a crown for each of, you," he said. + +Then amid grins and chuckles and bobbing of curtsies he +drove away, leaving ecstasy and nudging elbows and little +jumps of joy behind. + +The drive across the wonderfulness of the moor was +a soothing thing. Why did it seem to give him a sense +of homecoming which he had been sure he could never feel +again--that sense of the beauty of land and sky and purple +bloom of distance and a warming of the heart at drawing, +nearer to the great old house which had held those of +his blood for six hundred years? How he had driven +away from it the last time, shuddering to think of its +closed rooms and the boy lying in the four-posted bed +with the brocaded hangings. Was it possible that perhaps +he might find him changed a little for the better +and that he might overcome his shrinking from him? +How real that dream had been--how wonderful and clear +the voice which called back to him, "In the garden--In the +garden!" + +"I will try to find the key," he said. "I will try +to open the door. I must--though I don't know why." + +When he arrived at the Manor the servants who +received him with the usual ceremony noticed that he +looked better and that he did not go to the remote +rooms where he usually lived attended by Pitcher. +He went into the library and sent for Mrs. Medlock. +She came to him somewhat excited and curious and flustered. + +"How is Master Colin, Medlock?" he inquired. "Well, sir," +Mrs. Medlock answered, "he's--he's different, in a manner +of speaking." + +"Worse?" he suggested. + +Mrs. Medlock really was flushed. + +"Well, you see, sir," she tried to explain, "neither +Dr. Craven, nor the nurse, nor me can exactly make him out." + +"Why is that?" + +"To tell the truth, sir, Master Colin might be better +and he might be changing for the worse. His appetite, +sir, is past understanding--and his ways--" + +"Has he become more--more peculiar?" her master, asked, +knitting his brows anxiously. + +"That's it, sir. He's growing very peculiar--when you +compare him with what he used to be. He used to eat nothing +and then suddenly he began to eat something enormous--and +then he stopped again all at once and the meals were sent +back just as they used to be. You never knew, sir, perhaps, +that out of doors he never would let himself be taken. +The things we've gone through to get him to go out in +his chair would leave a body trembling like a leaf. +He'd throw himself into such a state that Dr. Craven said +he couldn't be responsible for forcing him. Well, sir, +just without warning--not long after one of his worst +tantrums he suddenly insisted on being taken out every day +by Miss Mary and Susan Sowerby's boy Dickon that could push +his chair. He took a fancy to both Miss Mary and Dickon, +and Dickon brought his tame animals, and, if you'll +credit it, sir, out of doors he will stay from morning until +night." + +"How does he look?" was the next question. + +"If he took his food natural, sir, you'd think he was putting +on flesh--but we're afraid it may be a sort of bloat. +He laughs sometimes in a queer way when he's alone with +Miss Mary. He never used to laugh at all. Dr. Craven +is coming to see you at once, if you'll allow him. +He never was as puzzled in his life." + +"Where is Master Colin now?" Mr. Craven asked. + +"In the garden, sir. He's always in the garden--though +not a human creature is allowed to go near for fear +they'll look at him." + +Mr. Craven scarcely heard her last words. + +"In the garden," he said, and after he had sent Mrs. Medlock +away he stood and repeated it again and again. +"In the garden!" + +He had to make an effort to bring himself back to +the place he was standing in and when he felt he was +on earth again he turned and went out of the room. +He took his way, as Mary had done, through the door in the +shrubbery and among the laurels and the fountain beds. +The fountain was playing now and was encircled by beds +of brilliant autumn flowers. He crossed the lawn and +turned into the Long Walk by the ivied walls. He did not +walk quickly, but slowly, and his eyes were on the path. +He felt as if he were being drawn back to the place +he had so long forsaken, and he did not know why. +As he drew near to it his step became still more slow. +He knew where the door was even though the ivy hung thick +over it--but he did not know exactly where it lay--that +buried key. + +So he stopped and stood still, looking about him, +and almost the moment after he had paused he started +and listened--asking himself if he were walking in a dream. + +The ivy hung thick over the door, the key was buried +under the shrubs, no human being had passed that portal +for ten lonely years--and yet inside the garden there +were sounds. They were the sounds of running scuffling +feet seeming to chase round and round under the trees, +they were strange sounds of lowered suppressed +voices--exclamations and smothered joyous cries. +It seemed actually like the laughter of young things, +the uncontrollable laughter of children who were trying not +to be heard but who in a moment or so--as their excitement +mounted--would burst forth. What in heaven's name was he +dreaming of--what in heaven's name did he hear? Was he +losing his reason and thinking he heard things which were +not for human ears? Was it that the far clear voice had meant? + +And then the moment came, the uncontrollable moment +when the sounds forgot to hush themselves. The feet ran +faster and faster--they were nearing the garden door--there +was quick strong young breathing and a wild outbreak +of laughing shows which could not be contained--and the +door in the wall was flung wide open, the sheet of ivy +swinging back, and a boy burst through it at full speed and, +without seeing the outsider, dashed almost into his arms. + +Mr. Craven had extended them just in time to save him +from falling as a result of his unseeing dash against him, +and when he held him away to look at him in amazement +at his being there he truly gasped for breath. + +He was a tall boy and a handsome one. He was glowing +with life and his running had sent splendid color leaping +to his face. He threw the thick hair back from his forehead +and lifted a pair of strange gray eyes--eyes full of boyish +laughter and rimmed with black lashes like a fringe. +It was the eyes which made Mr. Craven gasp for breath. +"Who--What? Who!" he stammered. + +This was not what Colin had expected--this was not what he +had planned. He had never thought of such a meeting. +And yet to come dashing out--winning a race--perhaps it +was even better. He drew himself up to his very tallest. +Mary, who had been running with him and had dashed through +the door too, believed that he managed to make himself +look taller than he had ever looked before--inches taller. + +"Father," he said, "I'm Colin. You can't believe it. +I scarcely can myself. I'm Colin." + +Like Mrs. Medlock, he did not understand what his father +meant when he said hurriedly: + +"In the garden! In the garden!" + +"Yes," hurried on Colin. "It was the garden that did +it--and Mary and Dickon and the creatures--and the Magic. +No one knows. We kept it to tell you when you came. +I'm well, I can beat Mary in a race. I'm going to be +an athlete." + +He said it all so like a healthy boy--his face flushed, +his words tumbling over each other in his eagerness--that +Mr. Craven's soul shook with unbelieving joy. + +Colin put out his hand and laid it on his father's arm. + +"Aren't you glad, Father?" he ended. "Aren't you glad? +I'm going to live forever and ever and ever!" + +Mr. Craven put his hands on both the boy's shoulders +and held him still. He knew he dared not even try +to speak for a moment. + +"Take me into the garden, my boy," he said at last. +"And tell me all about it." + +And so they led him in. + +The place was a wilderness of autumn gold and purple +and violet blue and flaming scarlet and on every side were +sheaves of late lilies standing together--lilies which were +white or white and ruby. He remembered well when the +first of them had been planted that just at this season +of the year their late glories should reveal themselves. +Late roses climbed and hung and clustered and the sunshine +deepening the hue of the yellowing trees made one feel +that one, stood in an embowered temple of gold. +The newcomer stood silent just as the children had done +when they came into its grayness. He looked round and round. + +"I thought it would be dead," he said." + +"Mary thought so at first," said Colin. "But it came alive." + +Then they sat down under their tree--all but Colin, +who wanted to stand while he told the story. + +It was the strangest thing he had ever heard, Archibald Craven +thought, as it was poured forth in headlong boy fashion. +Mystery and Magic and wild creatures, the weird midnight +meeting--the coming of the spring--the passion of insulted +pride which had dragged the young Rajah to his feet to defy +old Ben Weatherstaff to his face. The odd companionship, +the play acting, the great secret so carefully kept. +The listener laughed until tears came into his eyes and +sometimes tears came into his eyes when he was not laughing. +The Athlete, the Lecturer, the Scientific Discoverer +was a laughable, lovable, healthy young human thing. + +"Now," he said at the end of the story, "it need not be +a secret any more. I dare say it will frighten them +nearly into fits when they see me--but I am never going +to get into the chair again. I shall walk back with you, +Father--to the house." + + +Ben Weatherstaff's duties rarely took him away from the gardens, +but on this occasion he made an excuse to carry some +vegetables to the kitchen and being invited into the servants' +hall by Mrs. Medlock to drink a glass of beer he was on +the spot--as he had hoped to be--when the most dramatic +event Misselthwaite Manor had seen during the present +generation actually took place. One of the windows looking +upon the courtyard gave also a glimpse of the lawn. +Mrs. Medlock, knowing Ben had come from the gardens, +hoped that he might have caught sight of his master +and even by chance of his meeting with Master Colin. + +"Did you see either of them, Weatherstaff?" she asked. + +Ben took his beer-mug from his mouth and wiped his lips +with the back of his hand. + +"Aye, that I did," he answered with a shrewdly significant air. + +"Both of them?" suggested Mrs. Medlock. + +"Both of 'em," returned Ben Weatherstaff. "Thank ye kindly, +ma'am, I could sup up another mug of it." + +"Together?" said Mrs. Medlock, hastily overfilling his +beer-mug in her excitement. + +"Together, ma'am," and Ben gulped down half of his new +mug at one gulp. + +"Where was Master Colin? How did he look? What did they +say to each other?" + +"I didna' hear that," said Ben, "along o' only bein' on th' +stepladder lookin, over th' wall. But I'll tell thee this. +There's been things goin' on outside as you house people +knows nowt about. An' what tha'll find out tha'll find +out soon." + +And it was not two minutes before he swallowed the last +of his beer and waved his mug solemnly toward the window +which took in through the shrubbery a piece of the lawn. + +"Look there," he said, "if tha's curious. Look what's comin' +across th' grass." + +When Mrs. Medlock looked she threw up her hands and gave +a little shriek and every man and woman servant within hearing +bolted across the servants' hall and stood looking through +the window with their eyes almost starting out of their heads. + +Across the lawn came the Master of Misselthwaite and he +looked as many of them had never seen him. And by his, +side with his head up in the air and his eyes full +of laughter walked as strongly and steadily as any boy +in Yorkshire--Master Colin. + + + + + + +End of Project Gutenberg Etext of "The Secret Garden" + diff --git a/old/old/gardn11.zip b/old/old/gardn11.zip Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..46cb032 --- /dev/null +++ b/old/old/gardn11.zip |
