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"She never seems to have any +appetite in the morning. She complains that nothing tastes good to her; +and she almost always gets up tired and feverish." + +"That is a pity," said Aunt Delight. "Little folks ought to be hungry +in the morning, and to be as fresh and lively as birds and lambs are. +We must see if we cannot cure that when we get her down in Dorchester." + +"I dare say the sea-air will help her," said Lolla's mother. "I +remember how hungry it used to make me when I was a little girl. I am +very uneasy about Lolla, sometimes. It seems so unnatural for a child +to be so languid in the morning. But you are quite sure, Aunt Delight, +that you do not want to take nurse with you?" + +"I am quite sure, my dear Laura. In the first place, I have no room for +her; and in the second place, I have nothing for her to do." + +"Then who will take care of me, Aunt Delight?" asked Lolla, very much +interested in the discussion. + +"I expect you will take care of yourself and of me too," replied Aunt +Delight, smiling. + +Lolla looked as if she were doubtful whether to be pleased or alarmed +at this project. But she was very much delighted at the idea of the +long journey, and the summer in Dorchester with Aunt Delight, and not +displeased at being spoken to as if she were something more than a +baby: so she made no further objections. + +Lolla's father and mother lived in a very fine place near one of the +great Western cities; but they were expecting to break up and remove to +California during the summer, and it had been settled that Lolla was to +go to Dorchester and spend a year at least with her mother's aunt, Miss +Delight Wentworth, who had a pretty place of her own and was famous for +her skill in nursing the sick and managing and teaching children. Lolla +was considered rather a delicate child, and her mother had been out +of health ever since her daughter was born; for which reasons it was +thought best for both that they should be separated for a time. + +About ten o'clock, as Aunt Delight was passing through the kitchen, she +saw nurse giving Lolla a large piece of loaf-cake. + +"Eating so soon after breakfast?" said Aunt Delight. + +"Why, you know, aunt, I did not eat any breakfast," replied Lolla, in +rather a tone of apology. + +"She has got into a bad way about eating, that's a fact," said nurse. +"She doesn't eat at meals, and she is always wanting something +between-times; but her mother thinks there is no help for it. Now you +will see that she won't want any thing at dinner; and by-and-by she +will be asking for another piece of cake." + +"Do you think it is good for her to eat in that way?" + +"Well, no, I don't. She is spoiling her teeth, for one thing. But, +being the only child for so long,—and delicate besides,—Mrs. Lane has +got in the way of indulging her. She is a good child, too, in most +things; but it won't do her any harm to have a change. She cares Were +for eating than for any thing else." + +As nurse had predicted, Lolla had no appetite for her dinner,—at least +for the solid parts of it; but she ate two plates of rich pudding, +and then she had almonds and raisins, besides filling her pocket with +the nuts, which she was munching all the afternoon. A large piece of +fresh maple-sugar helped the almonds to fill up the interval between +dinner and tea, when Lolla supped upon pound-cake, preserved melon and +cottage-cheese. + +In the evening some friends came in, and about ten o'clock Lolla had +her share of the supper prepared for them. + +As Aunt Delight noted all these things, she no longer wondered that +Lolla did not sleep well and had no appetite for her breakfast. She was +not one of those people who think that children should never have any +thing that they like; but she made up her mind that when Lolla came +under her own care she should make some change in her habits. + + +"Well, Lolla, have you said good-by to all your pets?" asked Aunt +Delight, as she met Lolla at breakfast on the day set for their journey. + +Lolla did not seem as languid as usual, this morning. Her cheeks had a +little colour, her eyes were bright, and she ate her bread-and-butter +as if she liked it. + +"Oh, yes, aunt. I have been out to the barn and the pasture to see +the calves and the colts, and down by the river to see the little +ducks, and over to Mrs. Merrie's to bid good-by to Fanny and Jenny. I +have been up and running about ever since five o'clock; and I am so +hungry,—you can't think! I believe it makes people hungry to get up +early in the morning." + +"It is said to have that effect," replied Aunt Delight, smiling. "But +finish your breakfast, my dear. We have no time to lose." + +The carriage came to the door, the last good-byes were said, and Aunt +Delight and her little niece were soon speeding away over the Michigan +Central Railroad. + +Lolla felt very sadly at leaving home, and cried bitterly at parting +from father, mother and nurse. But children are usually easily diverted +from their grief; and Lolla's tears were soon dried. She had never +been upon the railroad before; and she enjoyed the rapid motion, the +constant change of scene, and the novelty of staying in a great hotel +over-night. + +She thought it rather hard that her aunt should refuse to buy oranges, +candy and maple-sugar of all the boys who came upon the train, +and a very unlucky circumstance that the package of rich cake and +confectionery which her mother had put up for her should somehow have +been lost directly, so that they had nothing left for their luncheon +except biscuits, cold chicken and sponge-cake. But there was so much to +see, and the change of air made her so hungry, that she did not feel +disposed to complain: besides that, she felt too much awe of her aunt +to go into one of her tantrums, as nurse used to call them. + +The travellers arrived at home late in the evening; and when Lolla +entered her aunt's cottage in Dorchester, she was too sleepy to notice +any thing, except that her room was of an odd shape, and her little low +bed very comfortable. + + +"Come, Lolla," said Aunt Delight, entering the room, next morning, +just as Lolla was rubbing her eyes; "breakfast is almost ready. I have +let you sleep late this morning, because you were tired. Here is your +bath, all ready to brighten you up. Now let us see how soon you will be +dressed." + +"Nurse used to dress me at home," said Lolla, rather doubtfully. + +"Yes, but nurse is not here; and, besides, you are old enough to wait +upon yourself. You are eight years old, are you not?" + +"Yes, aunt,—on my last birthday." + +"Well, when I was as old as you, I dressed myself and my little brother +every morning, besides putting my own room in order. You do not want +to be a baby all your days, do you? Come; don't dawdle, but lace your +boots quickly, and then put on the rest of your things, and I will +fasten them for you." + +"Is this my room, aunt?" asked Lolla. + +"Yes, Lolla. How do you like it?" + +"I think it is beautiful," replied Lolla, looking around upon the neat, +old-fashioned furniture, the pretty red-and-white matting, and the +little book-case full of books. "I never had a room of my own before. +What a funny window! It is like a little room by itself. Oh, aunt, +what is that out there?" exclaimed Lolla, catching a glimpse through +the curtains of something bright and blue, and speckled with large and +small white dots. "That 'blue,' I mean." + +"That is the sea,—or the bay, rather," replied Aunt Delight, smiling at +Lolla's excitement. "Don't you remember I told you, you would be able +to see the ships and the bay from your window? See, there is a great +steamer coming in. It must be the ocean steamer from Liverpool." + +There seemed some danger that Lolla would not get dressed at all, so +much interested was she in watching the steamer, and the fishing-boats, +and a large ship just going out of the bay; but Aunt Delight found no +fault with her. She knew how interesting all these things must be to +the little girl who had never seen ships or salt water before. At last, +however, Lolla was dressed; and she was about to run down-stairs at +once,—when her aunt stopped her. + +"It seems to me that you have forgotten something, Lolla," said she, +gravely. + +"Have I?" asked Lolla, surveying her dress. "I don't see any thing, +except my apron; and you know you said you would give me a clean one +out of the trunk." + +"I was not thinking of your dress, but of something else." + +Lolla still looked puzzled. + +"Who has taken care of you all night while you have been asleep, and +kept you from harm all through this long journey? And who is it you +should ask to take care of you through the day?" + +"Oh, you mean saying my prayers," said Lolla. "But, aunt, I never said +my prayers in the morning,—only at night." + +"Then you don't want God to take care of you in the daytime?" said Aunt +Delight. "You think, perhaps, that you can do that for yourself?" + +"Somehow, there never seems to be any time in the morning," said Lolla. +"One has to hurry so to get ready for breakfast." + +"Then one must get up earlier in the morning," said Aunt Delight. +"But you will have plenty of time. I told Sarah to ring the bell five +minutes before breakfast was ready. I will wait for you in my room." + +Lolla, did not feel very much like saying her prayers; but she did +not like to dispute with her aunt: so she hastily repeated the Lord's +Prayer, without thinking much of its meaning, and then joined her aunt +in her own room, and they went down-stairs together. + +The breakfast-room would have been a large one if it had not been cut +up into so many angles and corners. There was a large chimney, with a +high, old-fashioned wooden mantel-piece, and a deep recess containing +a book-case on each side of it. There was another deep recess, where +stood a large, carved mahogany side-board. There was a corner cupboard, +with glass doors, which seemed to be filled with china. There were +two windows with deep window-seats, and a glass door opening into the +garden. The walls were covered with old-fashioned paper ornamented with +lilies and roses, with gayly-feathered birds flying about and perching +on the flowers; and there were many pictures and prints, in black and +gold frames. + +The breakfast-table was set for them, and looked very inviting, with +its snowy cloth and shining china and silver. + +"Whose place is that, aunt?" asked Lolla. + +"That is Mr. Locke's place; but he will not be here this morning," said +Aunt Delight. "He has gone over to Boston, and will breakfast with a +friend. This is your chair." + +Lolla slipped into her chair. She was very hungry, and could not help +taking a sly survey of the table, even while her aunt was saying grace, +to see what they were likely to have for breakfast. There was a loaf +of white bread, and another of brown, upon a beautifully-carved wooden +plate. There was a silver egg-boiler, a pitcher of milk, and a dish of +cold ham; and that was all. + +Presently, however, Aunt Delight rang her bell, and Sarah brought in a +plate of hot toast, and a coffee-pot. + +"What is that, aunt?" said Lolla, pointing to the egg-boiler. + +"That is a boiler to cook the eggs," replied her aunt, as she opened +the cover and took out the rack filled with eggs. "Did you never see +one before?" + +"No," replied Lolla. "Mary always boils ours in a kettle; but I think +this is a much nicer way. Our eggs are always too hard, or too soft, or +something." + +She had another question on her tongue's end; but she did not quite +like to ask it. At last, however, out it came. + +"Aunt Delight, don't you have any meat for breakfast? No beefsteak, or +chicken, or any thing?" + +"Sometimes," replied her aunt. "Don't you call cold ham meat?" + +"Oh, yes," replied Lolla, feeling rather ashamed of her question. "Only +I thought I would just ask, because—because—" Lolla paused in some +confusion. She did not exactly know what to say. + +"I dare say you can make a breakfast on ham-and-eggs and +bread-and-butter," said Aunt Delight. + +"Was it wrong to ask, aunt?" + +"Oh, no. But, Lolla, it is not usually considered very polite to make +remarks upon what is on the table. Little girls should eat what is +set before them, without saying very much about it. See here: you +shall have your coffee in this silver cup, which belonged to your +great-grandmother,—and her grandmother before her, for aught I know. +Just think how many little girls must have drunk out of it before you." + + + +CHAPTER II. + +LOLLA IN DORCHESTER. + +"NOW, Lolla, can I trust you to run about by yourself for a while?" +asked Aunt Delight, when breakfast was done and family prayers were +over. + +"I don't exactly know what you mean, aunt," said Lolla. + +"Can I trust you not to pick the flowers, or tread upon the +flower-beds, or meddle with what does not belong to you? If so, you +may go where you like about the house and garden; but you must not go +outside the gate unless I give you leave. I suppose you will be like a +kitten brought into a strange house: you will like to make acquaintance +with every thing about you." + +"I won't meddle with any thing," said Lolla. "But why may I not go into +the street, Aunt Delight?" + +"For this reason, among others: that you might easily get lost, and it +would not perhaps be so easy to find you again." + +"May I go down to the gate and look-out?" asked Lolla. + +"Yes, if you do not go outside. By-and-by we will begin some lessons; +for it will not do to play all the time. But to-day I am going to be +busy about the house all the morning: so you will know where to find me +if you want me." + +Lolla was pleased with the permission to go where she liked,—and +pleased, too, with being trusted. She spent an hour or two very +pleasantly in exploring the garden and greenhouses, and going about +the house, where there seemed so many pictures, and books, and curious +boxes, and china vases, and pots, and bowls. One pair of vases, which +stood in the hall, especially excited her curiosity, they were so very +large. They were nearly as tall as herself; she thought she could have +got into one of them easily,—and had covers, which fastened with large +metal hinges and hasps. + +Then she put on her hat again and went down to the gate, where she +saw a little boy mounted on a Shetland pony not much larger than her +father's great Newfoundland dog, and a girl driving a little donkey +in a low wagon, and some cows in a field opposite, each with a thin +blanket on to keep off the flies, and each one tethered to a stake by a +long rope. + +"Well," thought Lolla, "they seem to take a great deal of care of their +cows; but if I were a cow, I should rather be running about on the +prairie than be tied up in that way." + +Just then she heard a church-clock strike eleven, and she remembered +that it was more than two hours since she had had any thing to eat: so +she sauntered slowly to the house, and went in at the back door. + +She found Aunt Delight in her neat little store-room, surrounded by +shelves full of preserves and canned fruit, stone jars which reminded +one of pickles and cake, bunches of sweet and medicinal herbs, and +bottles and jugs of all shapes and sizes. + +"Please, aunt," said Lolla, "I want something to eat." + +"Do you?" said Aunt Delight. "For what?" + +Lolla smiled at the oddness of the question. + +"Because I am hungry, aunt." + +"Are you sure it is because you are hungry, or because you are used +to eating just about this time? But never mind. Go to Sarah, in the +kitchen, and ask her to give you a piece of bread-and-butter." + +"I don't like bread-and-butter very much," said Lolla. "Nurse used to +give me a piece of cake." + +"I don't like little girls to be always eating sweet things," said Aunt +Delight. "It is bad for their teeth and for their health. If you are +really hungry, bread-and-butter will taste good to you. If you are not +hungry, you do not want any thing." + +"Mother lets me have cake," persisted Lolla; "and I guess she knows +what is good for me as well as anybody." + +"See here, Lolla," said Aunt Delight, sitting down, and drawing +the little girl to her side: "I cannot have any argument with you +about these things. Your mother has trusted you to me, to be taken +care of and treated as I think best. She knows all about my ways of +management,—because I brought her up till she was fourteen years old; +and she knows I intend to do as I think right with you. When I tell +you to do a thing, I do not expect you to tell me what somebody else +does or thinks, but to be governed by what I think. Now go and get your +bread-and-butter, if you want it; and if not, let it alone." + +"I don't want it," said Lolla, with an air of disgust. "I haven't any +appetite for such things." + +"Very well," said Aunt Delight, smiling. "I dare say you will find +your appetite by dinner-time. Do you want to go and play, or would you +rather stay and help me? I am going to take my Indian curiosities out +of the cabinet and dust them." + +Lolla did not exactly know what to do. She felt very much abused, +and a good deal like sulking about it; but, then, she wanted to see +the curiosities, and she had, besides, a feeling that sulking was +not likely to answer a very good purpose: so she slowly followed +Aunt Delight into the parlour, which was across the hall from the +breakfast-room. She had peeped in before, but the blinds were closed +and the curtains down, so that she could not see any thing. + +Aunt Delight drew up the curtains and opened the shutters. + +"What a pretty room!" exclaimed Lolla. "I do think, aunt, you have +the most beautiful things! I don't see where you got so many splendid +vases." + +"They have been accumulating for a long time," said Aunt Delight. "Some +of our family have been in the India trade ever since there has been +any India trade in Boston; and they are always bringing home things. +See, here is my India cabinet." + +"A real India cabinet, just like the one in Rosamund!" exclaimed Lolla, +forgetting all about the bread-and-butter question at once. "Are there +any branches of coral in it?" + +"We shall see," said Aunt Delight, unlocking the little drawers. "There +is no telling what we may find." + +No telling, indeed. What wonderful things there were in that cabinet! +Shells and corals, curious gold and silver coins, butterflies and +beetles looking as if made of jewels, little boxes and balls carved +with figures, pictures upon rice-paper of birds and flowers and Chinese +men and women. I could not begin to tell you half the things there were +in that cabinet. Aunt Delight took them out and handed them to Lolla, +who laid them carefully on the table set to receive them. + +Every article had a story to it, and Aunt Delight was ready to answer +all Lolla's questions. She gave the little girl a number of pretty +things for her own, and a beautiful little Japan work-box in the +shape of a cabinet, covered with gilded figures of cranes flying and +perching, and having drawers lined with a sweet-scented wood, which +Aunt Delight said was sandal-wood. + +"There! We have made a good morning's work," said Aunt Delight, as she +closed the last drawer. "Now put away the dust-pan and brush in the +back entry, and, as you come back, look at the clock and tell me what +time it is." + +"Why, aunt, it only wants a quarter of one!" exclaimed Lolla, in great +surprise. "And Sarah has set the table. She says dinner will be ready +in a quarter of an hour. I did not think it was nearly dinner-time: did +you?" + +Aunt Delight smiled. "You will just have time to wash your hands and +brush your hair nicely. Run upstairs, and don't waste any time." + +Lolla thought every thing tasted unusually good at dinner. She thought +the air of Dorchester must make people very hungry. She had not cared +any thing about roast beef and mashed potatoes for a long time, and +seldom ate any meat at dinner when she was at home. + +Mr. Locke was at dinner. He was a pale, thin, delicate-looking young +gentleman, who wore spectacles and ate very little; but he was pleasant +and kind in his manners, and Lolla thought she should like him very +much. She wondered how he came to be living with Aunt Delight, and +thought she would ask by-and by. + +"Are you going to feel well enough to give some time to this little +girl lessons, Mr. Locke?" asked Aunt Delight. + +"Certainly," replied Mr. Locke, smiling kindly upon Lolla. "When shall +we begin?" + +"After a day or two. She will need a little time to run about and +get used to her new home. Next week, I think, we will look up some +school-books, and see what we can do." + +Lolla looked rather alarmed at the idea of lessons. + +"My mother never lets me go to school," said she; "I have the headache +so much." + +"No one has said any thing about your going to school," returned Aunt +Delight, dryly. "As to your headaches, I think they will be better +after a while. You are growing a great girl, and cannot afford to waste +all your time. Will you have some pudding?" + +For the next week Lolla did nothing but amuse herself. She played about +the yard and garden, read story-books, looked at pictures, and, in +short, did what she liked. Twice she went into Boston on the horse-cars +with her aunt; and on one of these occasions they went into a shop and +had some ice-cream, to Lolla's great satisfaction. + +"Won't you buy me some candy, Aunt Delight?" said she, as they passed +through the shop. + +"Not to-day," replied Aunt Delight. "A saucer of ice-cream does very +well for once, I think." + +"Father used always to buy me candy when we went into town," murmured +Lolla. + +"My dear child, how much you do think about eating!" said Aunt Delight. +"Seems to me I would try to find pleasure in other things, if I were +you. Candy is very unsuitable for you now, and, besides, it is a very +bad habit to fall into, that of thinking you must always have something +to munch, like one of the little guinea-pigs we saw just now." + +"Oh, dear," said Lolla to herself, "how I do want some candy!" + + + +CHAPTER III. + +THE MOUSE. + +"MISS DELIGHT, I think there must be mice in the store-room cupboards," +said Sarah to her mistress, one morning after breakfast. "I find the +cake and biscuits crumbed and nibbled; and the crackers go away faster +than they ought I am sure. And just see here how this syrup from the +dish of plums I set away yesterday is trailed upon the shelf. Nasty +little things! If there is any thing I do hate, it is a mouse." + +"You must shut Dragon into the store-room at night, and move the things +away so that he can get about on the shelves," said Aunt Delight. "It +is a long time since we have had any mice in the house. The old cat +must be growing lazy." + +"I am not so sure about the mice, either," said Sarah, in a low tone. +"I am afraid Philly has been at her old tricks again. Mice would not +carry away whole slices of cake and lumps of sugar." + +"Hardly," said Aunt Delight. "But I don't like to suspect Philly,—she +has done so much better lately; and I do think she is trying to be a +good girl." + +"Well, we shall see," said Sarah. "I mean to keep a sharp look-out upon +her. I don't know how it is, but I never can trust her." + +"Take care, Sarah," said Aunt Delight. "Remember, charity thinketh no +evil. Do not begin With a prejudice against the child." + +"Well, I can't help it," said Sarah. "When I do like people, I do; and +when I don't, I don't; and that is all about it. Now, I took to Lolla, +from the first. I'll be bound you won't find any underhand sly ways +about her. But Philly has such a down kind of look." + +"You must remember how differently the two children have been treated," +replied Aunt Delight. "Lolla has never had occasion to be afraid of +any thing or anybody; but poor Philly has been a slave all her life, +and her mother before her. I expected she would make us a good deal +of trouble. You know we talked of that before she came to us, and we +agreed to have patience with her faults as long as there was a prospect +of doing her any good; and you must admit that she has improved." + +Sarah observed that there was room for improvement still. + +"That is the case with all of us," said Aunt Delight, dryly. "Well, say +nothing, Sarah, at present. We shall soon find out about the matter." + +The next day but one, as Aunt Delight was passing through the pantry, +she heard Sarah's voice in the pantry, and looked in to see what was +the matter. + +"Just see here, ma'am," said Sarah. "Last night I found the plums +all spilled on the shelf again. So I thought I would watch; and this +morning, when Philly came in to put the spoons away, I thought she was +a long time about it: so I followed her, and found her at the open +cupboard-door, with a teaspoon in her hand sticking all over with the +plum-syrup. If that is not proof, I don't know what is!" concluded +Sarah, triumphantly. "I knew very well I should catch her at her +tricks." + +"I didn't never touch the plums," sobbed Philly. "I only—" + +"Oh, you only—You only went 'snooping' in the closet," said Sarah, +severely. "It's no use! I caught you at it!" + +"Wait a little, Sarah, if you please," said Aunt Delight, quietly. "Let +me hear Philly's own story. That is but justice. Now, Philly, tell me +all about it; and be sure you tell the truth. Don't be afraid: you +shall not be condemned unjustly. How was it?" + +"I was jes puttin' away de spoons," began Philly, falling back into her +native negro dialect; but Aunt Delight interrupted her. + +"Speak quite plainly, Philly, and then I shall know you think of every +word you are saying. Go on." + +"I was just putting away the spoons," continued Philly, this time +pronouncing her words carefully, "and I thought the row of teaspoons +looked as if there was one gone; and I counted them, and there was; and +I began to look round for it, and I saw that cupboard-door partly open: +so I thought I would look in there, and there I found the spoon in the +dish of plums; and I was just taking it out when Sarah came in." + +"A likely story, indeed!" said Sarah, with a sneer. "Didn't I put away +the dish of plums myself last night? And shouldn't I have seen it if +there had been a teaspoon in the dish? Don't tell me!" + +"I can't help it," said Philly. "I found it there, and I know I didn't +put it there. That's all I know." + +"Come into my room, Philly," said Aunt Delight. "I will talk to you +there." + +Philly followed willingly enough. She was beginning to have great +confidence in Aunt Delight's justice as well as in her kindness. She +answered all questions readily, and did not vary at all from her first +story. + +"Well, Philly, I don't know what to think," said Aunt Delight, at +length. "You have been such a good girl lately that I do not like to +believe you are telling me a story. Appearances are against you; but +that happens with innocent people, sometimes. It is a rule in law that +people are to be supposed innocent till they are proved guilty: so, +unless I see something else to condemn you, I shall say nothing more +about this affair. Get your book now, and read to me while I turn down +these glass-cloths for you to hem." + +"You are the most goodest lady I ever see," said Phillis to herself, as +she went for her book. "I'd be ashamed to do any thing mean for such a +nice lady." + +Every morning, besides her reading and spelling lesson, Phillis read a +chapter in the Testament, or a psalm, to Aunt Delight. She was learning +to love these Bible lessons, and often studied them over by herself. +Her lesson this morning was the thirty-seventh Psalm. She read slowly +and carefully, and at the sixth verse she paused for a moment. + +"Well," said Aunt Delight, "what are you thinking of, Philly?" + +"Nothing, only—sometimes it seems as though verses in the Bible were +made on purpose for people." + +"Why, so they are," replied Aunt Delight. "All the verses in the Bible +are made on purpose for people; and it often does seem to us that +particular verses are made on purpose for us. I suppose they are. Do +you find any verses in this psalm which suit you at present?" + +"Yes, ma'am: I did think those two last verses seemed to." + +"Read them again." + +Philly did so. + +"You think He will make your just dealing as to the plums clear as the +noonday. Is that it?" + +"If it wasn't wicked to think so," said Philly, doubtfully. "You know +you did say one day that God cared about us." + +"True: so I did. Well, my child, you have as much right to take God's +promises to yourself as any one in the world. Read the next verse." + + +Philly hemmed her towels as well as possible, earning great praise from +Miss Delight for her neatness and quickness. + +Then, much comforted, she went down into the garden, where Aunt Delight +had told her to do some weeding. + +"How good she is!" she said to herself. "It a'n't that she don't find +fault sometimes; but she never does it just to be hateful, and she +always praises what I have done right, if I have been ever so naughty. +That's the kind of goodness I like." + +Philly was right. Kindness without justice is not worth much. She had +rather hard times, as she would have said, all that day. Sarah, who +had never liked her, had made up her mind that the child was guilty, +and treated her accordingly. She would not allow her to go into the +pantry or store-room, watched her as a cat watches a mouse, and kept +all the time throwing out hints about thieves and liars, and people who +deceived and cheated their best friends. + +It needed all Philly's philosophy and religion to boot to enable her +to bear patiently with all this; but the poor child had learned how +to bear her troubles and where to carry them. She believed that "God +really did care," because Miss Delight said so; and this day she +learned by her own experience that He did help as well as care. Three +or four times that day she escaped to her own little attic, and every +time she came down comforted. + + +Miss Delight expected every person of her household to repeat two +verses of Holy Scripture at morning prayers. The next morning Philly's +two verses were these from the thirty-seventh Psalm:— + +"'Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring +it to pass.' + +"'And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy +judgment as the noonday.'" + +Something in Sarah's heart gave her a little pain just then, as if she +had been stung. + +"May-be she did tell the truth, after all," said she to herself. +"Anyhow, she is an orphan child, and hasn't a friend in the world +except Miss Delight. I guess I'll wait and see before I say any more." + + + +CHAPTER IV. + +"BREAD IN SECRET." + +FOR some time after she came to Dorchester, Lolla's health continued +steadily to improve. She lost the heavy, languid look she had worn in +the morning, had a good appetite not only for her breakfast, but for +all her other meals, slept well, and ran about all day long as lively +as a kitten. She had an hour and a half of lessons in the morning, +which she said to Mr. Locke, and half an hour of sewing with Aunt +Delight after dinner; and the rest of the time she was encouraged to +play in the open air as much as she pleased. She found her way down +to the beach, where she was never weary of the marvel of seeing the +tide come in and go out. She learned the way to the few shops in the +neighbourhood, so that she could do errands; and—greatest pleasure of +all—she went several times to Savin Hill. + +Savin Hill is like a large mountain seen through the wrong end of the +telescope. It has caves and precipices, rocks and cliffs, all made of a +stone which looks very much indeed like petrified plum-pudding. There +are evergreen trees called savin, Virginia creepers, and a slender, +thorny vine with glossy leaves, very pretty to look at and very +impossible to get through. + +Savin Hill runs out into the bay, and commands on all sides a beautiful +view of the bay and shipping, South Boston, the Blue Hills, and the +villages round about. I have spent many pleasant hours upon the little +mountain, watching the ships and boats, the clouds and hills, and +waiting till dark to see the revolving light in the far-off lighthouse +flash out and fade as regularly as the pendulum of a clock. + +Two or three times Aunt Delight and Mr. Locke had gone up on Savin Hill +with Lolla and Philly and had a little picnic. The two elders would +sit on the rocks in the shade or the sunshine, as the day happened to +be cool or warm, and read or talked while the little girls played with +their dolls and made playhouses. + +Philly was a grand playmate. She was four years older than Lolla, but +she was always ready to do any thing Lolla wanted of her,—to dress the +doll, jump the rope, tell stories; or "make-believe" to any extent. + +Aunt Delight did not think it would do Lolla any harm to play with her. +She had watched Philly for some months, and she saw that the child was +really trying to improve,—that she had learned to have a sense of duty +which made her careful to be good out of sight and alone as well as +before other people. Since the affair of the spoon and the plums she +had taken special pains to observe her, and she became convinced that +whoever was to blame for the spilt syrup and crumbled cake, Philly was +not. She was not so sure about some one else, but she kept her own +counsel; for Aunt Delight was one of the people who could think of +things and not talk about them,—a talent more rare than many persons +suppose, and one we would advise our young readers to cultivate. + +By-and-by, however, Lolla's head began to ache once more, and again +she had no appetite for her meals. She declared it was because Mr. +Locke made her learn the multiplication-table; but Aunt Delight +was of a different opinion. She had taught many little girls the +multiplication-table without doing them any harm; and she had seen +many more headaches come from improper eating and exposure than from +lessons; and she came to the conclusion that Lolla was indulging in +something which she ought not to have. She watched her closely, but +quietly, and by-and-by she found out the truth, as you will see. + +Lolla had brought some money from home. Her father had been in the +habit of giving her all his new three-cent and five-cent pieces to +put in her little money-box, and these had amounted to a considerable +sum; and, besides, she possessed other money, which had been given +her from time to time by her uncles and cousins. She had very little +temptation to spend at home, for she lived some distance from town, and +she had all the sweet things she could eat, without buying them. She +brought her money with her to Boston, intending to purchase some pretty +thing that she fancied; but it all seemed likely to go in another +direction. Lolla discovered that she could buy cakes and gingersnaps +at the baker's, and candy and chocolate at the other shops; and she +now kept on hand a constant supply of these articles, which she was +munching at every opportunity when she could do so unobserved. Now, +when a little girl eats two large ginger-cakes, a stick of chocolate, +and a dozen or so of lemon-drops after she goes to bed at night, it is +hardly necessary to blame the multiplication-table if she rises with a +headache in the morning. + +Lolla hid away her store of dainties in two or three different +places,—in one of the great covered vases in the hall, in the back +part of a cupboard where she kept her shoes, and in the pockets of her +dress. Something told her all the time that she was growing mean and +deceitful and sly, and more and more fond of eating,—more like a little +pig; but she persuaded herself that she could not help it, and that it +was her aunt's fault in not giving her all she wanted. + +"Won't you ever tell as long as you live and breathe?" said she to +Philly, one day, as they were playing in the lower part of the garden. + +"No," said Philly, without thinking. "Tell what?" + +"If I give you something," said Lolla, putting her hand in her pocket +and pulling out two or three large lumps of sugar. + +"Oh, Lolla, you shouldn't eat hard sugar," said Philly. "I heard Miss +Delight tell you it was bad for your teeth. Where did you get it?" + +"That is my business, and not yours," replied Lolla, pertly. "Aunt +Delight is as full of notions as she can be. Lizzy Mercer said she knew +she would be, because she is an old maid. I hope I shall never be an +old maid." + +"Oh, Lolla! How can you say so?" exclaimed Philly. "I think she is as +good as she can be. I am sure she is just like a mother to you." + +"She is not a bit like 'my' mother, I can tell you," said Lolla. +"Mother always let me have all the cake I wanted." + +"Well, you know yourself it wasn't good for you," returned Philly. +"Just see how much better you are than when you first came here." + +"I am 'not' better," said Lolla, pettishly. "My head aches all the +time, lately. I know it is all that hateful arithmetic; but Aunt +Delight won't believe me." + +"I guess it is the sweet stuff you eat," said Philly. "I am sure your +aunt would not like it if she knew how you bought candy all the time." + +"You had better run and tell her," said Lolla, angrily. "I wish you +would just mind your own business. I didn't come down here to be +ordered about by a nigger." + +Lolla knew very well, when she used the ugly word, that nothing +made Philly so angry or hurt her feelings so much as being called a +"nigger." She thought Philly would fly into a passion, and that then +she could tease her till she made her cry. She had done so before when +they quarrelled, and, somehow, found a great pleasure in seeing Philly +angry. This time, however, she did not succeed in her object. She +was very much hurt, and her dark eyes snapped for a moment; but she +restrained herself, and merely said,— + +"I shall not play with you if you talk that way." She turned and went +into the house. + +"Just like you," Lolla called after her. "Now go and sulk up in your +room all the afternoon." + +Philly did not answer, and Lolla began to consider whether she had been +very wise in provoking one who could betray her secret. There was no +help for it now, however; and she determined to make it up with Philly, +and to be more careful in future. + +Philly was deeply hurt, for she was fond of Lolla, but she was very +much troubled besides. She was pretty sure that the lumps of sugar came +out of Miss Delight's pantry, and she was very much afraid that if they +were missed she should be accused of taking them. The matter of the +spoon had never been cleared up, and she feared if any more suspicion +fell on her, Miss Delight would send her away. Think as she would, she +could see no way out of her trouble. She could not make up her mind to +tell Miss Delight or Sarah what had passed. She could not feel that it +would be right, and, besides, she argued, "as like as not Miss Delight +wouldn't believe me. She would naturally take part with her own niece, +and Sarah thinks Lolla is perfect. Oh, dear! I thought when I got here, +there would not be any more trouble; but seems to me there is trouble +everywhere." + +Philly was right. There is trouble everywhere in this world. Happily, +however, the Refuge from trouble is everywhere as well. + + +"Sarah," said Philly, as they were drinking their tea that afternoon, +"why doesn't Miss Delight keep things locked up, as my old missus used +to do down in Georgia?" + +"Why should she?" asked Sarah. "There is nobody to meddle with things +but you and me; and we don't either of us mean to rob her, do we?" + +Philly felt that it was kind in Sarah to include her in this question. +"I'm sure I don't," said she. + +"Well, Philly, I don't believe you do," said Sarah. "I had my doubts +of you a little while ago about those plums; but I have got eyes in my +head. I have watched you, and I don't believe you meddle with things +any more; though you know, Philly, you did when you first came here." + +"Yes, I know; but I didn't know any better then. I do try to be a good +girl, Sarah." + +"Yes, I see you do; and I must say you make out better than some folks +who have had more advantages. But you mustn't be proud of it, child: if +you are, the first you know you will be doing something bad again." + +"It was queer, though, about that spoon: wasn't it?" said Philly, +emboldened by Sarah's kindness. "You know, Sarah, a mouse wouldn't take +a spoon; if he wanted the plums ever so much." + +"A mouse wouldn't do a good many things," said Sarah. "A mouse wouldn't +leave the cover off the sugar-bowl and take out all the largest lumps. +A mouse isn't apt to open cupboard-doors and leave them ajar. But +we shall see. Every thing comes to the light some day. Come, hurry +and wash up your dishes; and, if you are real smart, I will ask Miss +Delight to let you go with me into Boston to-morrow." + +Philly hastened to obey, feeling very much comforted at finding that +she had made a friend of Sarah, who had begun by disliking her so +greatly. + +"I know what I know," said Sarah to herself; "and Miss Delight +shall know it too, if she has not penetration to find it out for +herself,—which I guess she has." + + + +CHAPTER V. + +THE ICE-CREAM. + +"OH, Aunt Delight, do let us go in and have some ice-cream," said +Lolla, as they came opposite a pleasant-looking shop on Washington +Street, where she had several times been with her aunt. "We have not +had any for ever so long." + +"How long?" asked Aunt Delight. + +"Not since last week." + +"And how long is that?" + +Lolla was obliged to confess that it was no longer ago than the day +before yesterday. + +"I cannot buy ice-cream every time we come into town. It is too +expensive." + +"I thought you were rich enough to afford to get whatever you liked, +aunt," said Lolla; "and it only costs twenty-five cents." + +"Well, I come into town, on an average, three times a week. Suppose I +were to spend twenty-five cents every time: how much would that come to +in a month?" + +"Three dollars, exactly," replied Lolla, after a little consideration. + +"Yes: enough to buy a nice Testament in large print for old Mrs. +Prince, and a 'Silent Comforter' to hang on the wall for poor Jessie +McMillen, who you know has not strength to hold a heavy book in her +hand." + +"You might buy the book too," said Lolla. "I am sure you have money +enough." + +"Perhaps you do not know just how much money I have; but, if I were as +rich as the richest man in the world, it would not be right to spend +money foolishly. Besides, it is a very bad habit to be constantly +buying nice things to eat. It leads to selfishness, gluttony and +extravagance. I am willing to indulge you to a reasonable extent; +but if you tease me for ice-cream or candy every time you see a +confectioner's shop, I cannot bring you to town with me any more." + +Lolla was silent. She knew by experience that when Aunt Delight +said no, that was all that was to be said; but she felt very much +dissatisfied, and she was really provoked when Aunt Delight bought a +pretty photograph of some cliffs and boats, and some fishermen's huts +upon the sea-shore. + +"That cost more than the ice-cream would have cost,—fifty cents more," +said Lolla; "and what is it good for, after all?" + +"Good to look at," replied Aunt Delight. "The ice-cream is eaten and +gone, and that is the end. The photograph may be looked at every day +for ten years, and be just as good at the end of the time. But this +picture is not for myself, but for Jessie McMillen." + +"That is queerer yet," said Lolla. "I thought when people bought things +for the poor they got somethings useful." + +"That depends upon circumstances, and also upon what you call useful," +replied her aunt. "Jessie's father can buy her the clothes and the food +that are absolutely necessary for her; but he has no money to spare for +any thing else. This picture will hang on the wall opposite her bed, +and be a new pleasure to her every time she wakes up and looks at it, +and all the more because it will remind her of the shores of Scotland, +which she will never see again. I have had a long illness myself, +and I know very well how pleasant is any thing which reminds one of +out-of-doors and fresh air." + +"Come, Lolla," said Aunt Delight, after tea; "let us go up and carry +Jessie her picture." + +Jessie McMillen was a Scotch girl who was dying slowly of a painful +disease. Her father had come from Scotland not many months before, +with his wife and his only daughter. He was a sober, steady man, +who had been injured by an accident in a coal-mine, so that he was +unable to work very hard; but his wife was skilful in fine washing and +clear-starching, and Jessie understood housework and sewing: so there +seemed every probability that they would be able to support themselves +nicely. + +They took rooms in a little cottage near Savin Hill, and for a time +did very well; but misfortune fell upon them. Mrs. McMillen took cold +while hanging out her clothes one biting winter's day, and went into a +quick consumption. It was while waiting upon her sick and dying mother +that Jessie was seized with a pain in her chest. She thought little +of the matter at first; but, between hard work and watching, the pain +grew more and more severe; and when, after her mother was buried, she +went to the doctor, he told her, as gently as he could, that there was +nothing to be done for her. Since then she had gradually but surely +grown worse, till she was now nearly helpless. + +Her father obtained work as a gardener, in which business he was +very skilful, and some kind people of the neighbourhood interested +themselves in the daughter, so that Jessie wanted for nothing. She had +failed very much through the spring, and was now unable to sit up. + +Lolla could not regret the loss of her ice-cream when she saw how +Jessie's eyes brightened at the sight of the photograph, and heard the +little cry of joy which she uttered as she examined it. + +"It is just my grandfather's house in Scotland," said she. "I have +been there a hundred times. And that woman is Maggie Lawlor, the old +fishwife, who used to carry me on her back. I've often seen them make +pictures of it when I was a little girl; but I never thought to see it +again. + +"Many artists came to our village in summer to draw the rocks and the +boats. One of them painted my picture when I was a wee thing like Miss +Lolla, there. I mind well how I would have putten on my fine Sunday +gown and hat; but he would have me in my old stout red petticoat. Oh, +how pleased my father will be!" + +"I am very glad," said Aunt Delight. "I thought you would be pleased +with a Scotch scene; but I had no idea that you would know the place." + +"It just seems like a gift from God," said Jessie, reverently. "Oh, I +have so tried and prayed to dream of it all, but I never could; and now +he has sent me this." + +"He is always good," said Miss Delight. "You will find that out more +and more to all eternity, Jessie. And now about your eating: have you +been able to take any food to-day?" + +"No, ma'am. I canna eat, though I try. Every thing turns against +me,—especially every thing warm." + +"Do you like ice?" + +"Very much, ma'am; and Mrs. Tuttle was very good to send me some +several times. I often fancy if the broth was frozen I could eat it." + +"I will see if something cannot be prepared," said Aunt Delight. + + +The next morning, while Lolla was at her lessons, she heard a sound +in the kitchen like the turning of an ice-cream freezer, which so +distracted her attention that she missed half the questions in her +arithmetic lesson, and had to study it over again. At last, however, +she accomplished her task, and hurried down-stairs to see what was +going on; and, behold! there was Philly, in a cool recess which opened +out of the kitchen, turning the freezer as busily as possible. + +"What are you making, Philly?" asked Lolla. + +"I don't know. Something for Jessie McMillen," answered Philly, pausing +in her work for a minute, and then beginning again with new vigour. + +"Pshaw! Always Jessie McMillen!" said Lolla, half to herself. "I wonder +why I can't have something decent to eat, as well as that beggar." + +"Why, Lolla!" said Philly. "I don't see how you can talk so. I wish you +could live where I did before I came here, for about three weeks. You +would know what it is to have something good to eat. Jessie isn't a +beggar, either; and you should not call her so." + +"Just like you, Philly!—Always contradicting every word I say. I should +think Aunt Delight might teach you not to be quite so impudent. Just +like niggers! I can't bear them." + +"Lolla," said Sarah, "if you call Philly a nigger again, I shall tell +your aunt. I don't think that is much like a little lady, for my part." + +"Never mind, Sarah," said Philly. "Lolla will be sorry by-and-by. After +all, I 'am' a nigger," she added; "and I needn't care about being +called one. This stuff is all frozen now." + +"I'll tell Miss Delight," said Sarah. "I don't know whether she wants +you to carry it to Jessie now or not." + +"Miss Delight," she asked, going to the door of the breakfast-room, +"the milk porridge is frozen. Shall Philly carry it over directly?" + +"I will see," replied Aunt Delight, coming into the kitchen. She +examined the contents of the freezer and put them into a small tin +pail, which she set into another larger pail. She then packed the +outside pail full of finely-powdered ice, and sprinkled in a little +salt. + +"Now, Lolla," said she, "I want you to put on your things and carry +this over to Jessie directly, that she may have it for her dinner. The +sun is clouded over, and you can keep in the shade nearly all the way. +When you come back, stop at the shop and bring me half a dozen lemons." + +"What is Philly going to do?" asked Lolla. + +"She is going to be busy at home. Don't waste any time. You can leave +the pails, and tell Jessie to have them set in the cellar." + +Lolla set out on her errand in no very good humour. She had hoped +when she saw the freezer that she was going to have ice-cream for her +dinner; and it was a great disappointment to find that Philly was only +making something for poor Jessie. + +Lolla was growing more and more fond of eating every day. She cared a +great deal more for nice things than she used to do at home, where no +one objected to her eating them every day and all day long. The fact +of being obliged to indulge her appetite in secret gave a zest to her +stolen feasts,—literally stolen, many times, I am sorry to say; for +she fell more and more into the habit of pilfering from the pantry and +from the store-room at every opportunity. She had heretofore been so +sly and careful that Sarah had not been able to detect her in the act; +but she was growing bolder every day. Nor was this the worst of it. She +had spent all the money she had brought from home upon ginger-cakes, +raisins, and other things of the kind. She could hardly believe it when +she found her purse empty, and in her heart she accused some one of +having robbed her; but, however that might be, it was all gone. + +It was a fault of Miss Delight's that she was rather careless of money. +She was somewhat apt to leave her purse in her work-box or on her desk; +and she had a habit of keeping loose pennies and small change in the +corner of drawers and on the edges of shelves. Sarah often remonstrated +with her about the matter, especially since Philly came to live at the +cottage,—and Miss Delight had been more careful for a time; but, as her +confidence in the child's honesty became established, she gradually +fell into her old habits. + +It was with fear and trembling that Lolla first took to herself a penny +to spend in molasses-candy; but, as she was not discovered, she grew +bolder; and now it was a regular thing for her to look-out for the +waifs and strays from her aunt's purse. At that very time she had five +cents in her pocket which she was intending to spend at the store. + + + +CHAPTER VI. + +THE CONSEQUENCE. + +LOLLA walked along under the trees, feeling rather fretful and +dissatisfied, though she could not exactly tell why. She fancied the +pail grew heavier every minute. + +"I wonder if that cover is on tight?" said she to herself. "It wouldn't +be very nice for the ice and salt to get into the porridge, or whatever +it is. I don't believe it will be good, anyway, when it gets there. It +will be all melted." + +There are many low stone walls in the village of Dorchester, which are +very nice to sit down upon, especially when, as it often happens, there +is a large elm-tree exactly in the right place to keep off the sun. +Lolla found just such a place in the retired lane through which she was +passing, and sat down for a rest. She looked this way and that, and, +seeing nobody, she pulled off the cover of the small pail. + +The frozen milk porridge looked very nice and inviting, and Lolla could +not resist the temptation. + +"Nobody will know if I just taste it," said she. + +She had no spoon; but gluttons are not apt to be nice. She put in her +finger, and, scooping up a large mouthful, she hastily swallowed it. +It was certainly very nice,—as good as ice-cream; and, almost without +thinking, Lolla took another mouthful. + +When I was a little girl and used to gather raspberries, I used to +make it a rule not to taste one till I had gathered all that I wanted +to take home; because I found by experience that it was much easier +not to eat the first raspberry than it was not to eat the second. +Lolla discovered the same thing with regard to the iced porridge. +Having begun, she found it hard to leave off. She took mouthful after +mouthful, intending that every one should be the last. Meantime, the +warm air was rapidly melting the porridge, and making it run together +as fast as she took it out: so that she did not discover what havoc she +was making, till a deeper dig than usual uncovered the bottom of the +pail. She was frightened to see that there was not a teacupful left. +Then, indeed, she wished she had let it alone. + +"What shall I do now?" said she to herself. "There is no use in +carrying that little bit to Jessie. She will know that aunt never sent +such a small parcel as that; and, besides, the side of the pail shows +how much there was in the first, place. Hateful stuff! I wish I never +had seen it! Aunt ought to have sent Philly with it. But I may as well +eat the rest, now that I have begun; and then what shall I do with the +pails? Aunt told me to leave them there at Jessie's; and if I bring +them back, she will surely suspect something. Oh, what shall I do?" + +Lolla thought and thought, but could come to no conclusion. At last, +however, she hid the two empty pails among some weeds and brambles in a +corner of the wall, and turned into the street that led to the store. + +"My aunt wants you to send her seven lemons," said she to the shop-man; +"and I want five cents' worth of nice raisins." + +The lemons were done up in a parcel, and the raisins put into Lolla's +pocket, from which they were soon transferred to her mouth. Then she +undid the parcel, and took out the odd lemon, taking care to select the +largest. She had fully intended to keep it for home consumption; but +the smell was too inviting, and presently she found herself sucking it +as she walked along. + +Lolla's stomach had been long accustomed to excesses; but a handful +of raisins and the juice of a lemon upon the top of more than a pint +of frozen milk was more than it could endure. Before she reached the +cottage, Lolla found herself feeling very ill. Her head was dizzy, and +she had a strange pain, as though she had swallowed some hot coals. She +had hardly strength to open the gate; and it seemed to her that the +walk which led up to the cottage was a mile long. + +"Oh, Lolla, I am glad you have come. Guess what we are going to have +for dinner! Beautiful raspberry ice-cream! I froze it myself, after you +went away. But what is the matter?" cried Philly, in alarm, as Lolla +dropped on the nearest seat. "Oh, dear! Sarah, come here,—do! Lolla is +dying, I do believe!" + +"Nonsense!" returned Sarah, sharply. "Don't call out like that, child! +Here, Lolla, what is the matter? Why, you do look badly, sure enough! +What have you been doing? Call Miss Delight, Philly, as quick as you +can! She is in the greenhouse." + +Nobody enjoyed the raspberry-cream, or any thing else of the nice +dinner Sarah had provided; for every one had their hands full with +Lolla. Miss Delight held her in her arms, or rubbed her convulsed +limbs; Sarah was busy with the bath and with hot mustard-poultices; and +Mr. Locke was gone post-haste for the doctor; for Lolla was in a fit, +and for a good while it seemed rather doubtful whether she would ever +come out of it. + +"Has she eaten any thing more than usual?" asked the doctor. + +"Not that I am aware of," replied Miss Delight. "She was accustomed +at home to eat every thing she took a fancy to, and at all times and +seasons; but I have been careful of her diet since she came to me, and +her health has greatly improved. Latterly, however, she has not seemed +as well; and I have not been able to find out what was the matter." + +Philly heard this conversation, and it threw her into a state of great +perplexity. She felt as though she ought to tell Miss Delight what she +knew about Lolla's habits; and yet she hated the very name of tattling. +At last she did the wisest thing in her power. She asked advice. +Meeting Sarah on the stairs, she repeated to her what she had heard, +and what she herself knew, of Lolla's habits. + +"Do you think I ought to tell Miss Delight?" + +"Of course you ought to tell her," returned Sarah. "It might make all +the difference in the world. Tell her directly; or, if you don't want +to, I will." + +"Oh, do!" said Philly, much relieved by the proposal. "That will be a +great deal the best way." + +It happened, however, that the story told itself, so far as the cause +of Lolla's present illness was concerned. + +"She must have drunk a quantity of milk, and then eaten something sour +on the top of it," said Miss Delight. "But where could she get milk at +this time of day?" + +"I guess she has been eating up Jessie's porridge," said Sarah. "Lolla +is not to be trusted with any thing good to eat. I have been finding +that out this long time, but I have not been quite sure till lately. +But where could she get raisins? There are none in the house." + +"Look in her pocket, and see if there are any more," said Miss Delight. + +There were no raisins in Lolla's pocket; but there were the remains of +the lemon; and now Lolla's sickness was fully accounted for. + +"Now, my little girl, if you can tell me what else you have eaten," +said the doctor, seeing that Lolla was able to speak. "Tell me the +exact truth, that I may know what to do for you." + +"Oh, dear!" sighed Lolla. "I only ate a few raisins." + +"And what else?" + +"And—and—a lemon!" + +"Raisins and a lemon; and what else?" + +"Nothing," said Lolla, sullenly. + +"Where did you get the milk?" asked Miss Delight. + +"I didn't have any milk," said Lolla; and to this story she adhered, +in spite of any thing and every thing that could be said to her. She +was better for a little while; but in an hour or two she was attacked +with illness in another form, and it was not till the next day that +Miss Delight ventured to hope that she might be saved. All this time +her mind was more or less wandering, and, besides, it was absolutely +necessary to keep her quiet: so there was no chance of finding out the +truth. + + +The next evening Lolla was somewhat better; but it was many days before +she was pronounced out of danger, and many more before she was able to +leave her room and go about the house again. Meantime, Aunt Delight had +learned from Jessie that Lolla had not been at her house at all, the +day she was taken sick. She tried to make Lolla tell her the truth; but +in vain. + +Lolla would not say a word. If she were questioned, she would begin to +cry, declare that every one hated her and ill-treated her, that Aunt +Delight had carried her away from her dear mother only to abuse her, +and that as soon as she got better she would go to California, if she +had to walk every step of the way. These "tantrums," as Sarah called +them, usually ended in a fit of sickness. At last Miss Delight gave the +matter up in despair. + +When Lolla began to go about the house once more, she found her +position very much changed. No one found fault with her, or alluded in +any way to the affair of the porridge; but she felt herself distrusted +and constantly watched. The store-room was kept locked, and the +sugar-bowl put out of reach. She was never allowed to go outside the +gate by herself, never sent of errands as before; no one asked her for +information about any thing, or paid any attention to her statements. + +All this was disagreeable enough; and, to add to her discomfort, she +found herself restricted to the plainest food, and a very little of +that. If she exceeded in the least, either in quantity or in quality, +she speedily found herself in bed as sick as ever. This was a sad +plight for a little girl who cared for nothing but eating and drinking. + + +One evening she was sitting alone in the bay-window of the parlour, +feeling very sad and lonely indeed. Her aunt and Philly had gone to +church; Sarah had gone up to see Jessie, who was now not expected +to live many days: so there was no one at home but herself and Mr. +Locke, who had come in not long before and was sitting on the veranda. +Lolla felt very unhappy. She thought it was because she was sick and +alone, and because every one was unkind to her; but something in her +heart told her that was not all. She thought of her dear father and +mother, so many, many miles away, and remembered how kind and indulgent +they had always been to her, and how often she had been undutiful to +them. She thought how pleased she had been with the idea of coming to +Dorchester, and how happy she had been for the first few weeks after +her arrival, and how different it all was at present. She did not feel +like having a "tantrum," but she put her head down on the end of the +couch, and cried, quietly, but very bitterly. + +"What is the matter, Lolla?" said a gentle voice. Mr. Locke had come +silently into the parlour and taken a seat beside her. "What is the +matter, Lolla?" he repeated. "What makes you cry?" + +"Because I am so very, very unhappy!" sobbed Lolla. + +"And what makes you unhappy?" + +"A great many things." + +"Well, tell me some of these things. Perhaps I can help you to get rid +of them. What makes you unhappy just now, for instance?" + +"Because I am sick, for one thing," replied Lolla. + +"Well, it is very sad to be sick; but sickness does not always make +people unhappy. Jessie is very sick. She suffers far more than you +do or can; and she will never be any better. I do not think she can +live more than a few days; but she is not unhappy. She told me this +afternoon that her heart was full of peace and joy; and I am sure her +face shows it." + +"Then I am so lonely, with my father and mother away." + +"That is sad, too; but, Lolla, Philly's father and mother are both +dead. She has not a friend or relation in the world out of this house; +and she is not unhappy. You yourself, when you first came here, were as +merry as the day was long." + +"It was very different then; and that is one trouble," said Lolla. +"Every one was good to me then, and liked me; and now nobody likes me, +or believes a word that I say: and Aunt Delight is as different as can +be." + +"What do you suppose has made the difference in her?" asked Mr. Locke. + +Lolla hung her head, but, somehow, she felt as if she must answer even +in spite of herself. At last she stammered out,— + +"I suppose it is because I was so naughty." + +"Ah, that indeed! I should not wonder if we had now got at the root of +the whole matter. How were you naughty, Lolla?" + +Lolla would not answer. + +"But even the fact of your having been naughty need not of itself make +you unhappy," continued Mr. Locke. "I have known many persons who had +done very wrong things in their lives, and were nevertheless very happy +afterwards. We read of the Apostle Paul persecuting the Christian +church and helping at the murder of the martyr Stephen, and many of his +converts at Philippi had been very wicked people: yet Paul was far from +being an unhappy man amid all his trials, and he tells the Philippians +to 'rejoice evermore,' to 'rejoice in the Lord always.' I don't think +we have got at it quite yet, Lolla." + +"Well, I don't understand," said Lolla, interested in spite of herself. +"I thought when people were wicked they always had to be unhappy." + +"And you are quite right, my child. As long as you 'are' naughty, +you must needs be miserable; but you need not be miserable because +you 'have been' naughty. That is quite another thing. As long as the +Philippians continued to be wicked and unbelieving, there would be no +use in telling them to rejoice; but they had seen their sin, repented +of it and confessed it, and turned with their whole heart to God, and +therefore they were happy even in the midst of trials such as we know +nothing about. Now do you understand?" + +"It don't seem as if I could do any different," said Lolla, after a +pause, and speaking earnestly. "I think sometimes I will tell aunt all +about it; but, then, I can't, somehow. Oh, dear! I don't know what to +do!" And again Lolla put down her head, and cried bitterly. + +"Lolla," said Mr. Locke, putting his hand upon her head, "there is one +wrong thing you can help directly. Tell me, now: have you asked God to +help you at these times?" + +"No," replied Lolla. "I did not think it would be of any use. I have +been so naughty." + +"If we could not ask God to help us when we were wicked, we should +remain wicked forever," said Mr. Locke,—"since nothing is more certain +than that we can never make ourselves good without his help. He did not +wait for that when he sent his Son to die for us. + +"'God commended his love to us, in that while we were yet sinners, +Christ died for us.'" + +"Would he really help me, do you think, if I asked him now?—Really and +truly?" asked Lolla, in a reverent whisper. + +"Yes: if you are honest in desiring it, I am sure that he will." + +"How do you know?" asked Lolla. "Is it in the Bible?" + +"It is in the Bible; and I know by my own experience, because he has so +often helped me. He has enabled me to do things which I could no more +have done by myself than I can fly to that bright star up yonder. But, +Lolla, do you really want God to help you to be good?" + +"I really and truly do, Mr. Locke," replied Lolla; "but I don't believe +I can," she added, despairingly. "I have thought a great many nights +that I would tell Aunt Delight the very first thing in the morning; and +when morning came it was just as hard as ever." + +"Ah! There was another mistake. You should have told her that very +moment, and not have waited till morning. But, Lolla, there is some one +else you should tell first,—some one against whom you have sinned more +sorely than against your aunt. Think how you have displeased Him. There +is nothing God hates more than a lie,—nothing which he will punish more +severely if the liar does not repent. Yet he has spared your life. He +would not let you die in your sin, but gives you a chance to repent and +be forgiven. You must confess to him first, before you can ask him to +forgive and help you. + +"'If I regard iniquity in my heart, the Lord will not hear me.' + +"'If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not +in us; but if we confess our sins, God is faithful and just to forgive +us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.' + +"God will not only forgive the sin, but he will take it away. He will +wash it out, and make your soul clean and pure. Lolla, shall we ask him +to do so?" + +"Yes, please," whispered Lolla. + +Mr. Locke knelt down with Lolla in the recess of the window, and, in +a short prayer which she could understand, he asked God to forgive +her, to make her a better girl, and especially to give her strength to +confess to her aunt. + +"Now, Lolla, you must act for yourself," said Mr. Locke. "God has given +you the strength, and you must use it. Don't wait a moment. There is +your aunt coming in now. Shall I make a beginning for you?" he added, +seeing that Lolla was embarrassed. + +"Please do," said Lolla. + +"Lolla has something to tell you, Miss Delight," said Mr. Locke, as +Aunt Delight came into the parlour. "She has made up her mind to tell +you what made her sick." + +Before Lolla went to bed that night, she had told her aunt the whole +story, and had received her forgiveness. When she awoke the next +morning, her head ached and her eyes were heavy, but her heart was +lighter than it had been for many a day. + + +All that summer and fall Lolla was very delicate. She was reaping +the fruits of her long course of greediness and indulgence; and the +doctor said it would probably be a great while before she would be well +again. She could eat only the simplest food,—not a particle of fruit or +pastry, and the least indulgence was sure to make her sick for several +days. + +In one way this was an advantage to Lolla. She lost the habit of +wanting to eat at all times and seasons, and she learned to find her +pleasure in other ways. She could not run about a great deal; and this +forced her to turn for amusement to her books and her needle,—means of +employment which she had always disliked and never touched except as +tasks. She grew very fond of reading, and so skilful with her needle +that she was able to give her aunt a great deal of help in her labour +in the sewing-school. + +Lolla's stay in Dorchester was prolonged from year to year, and now she +was a great girl, fifteen years old, well-educated for her age, able to +make her own clothes and cook her own breakfast and dinner. + +She went to her new home in California, a useful, amiable, sensible +girl, prepared to be a comfort to her parents, a pleasant companion as +well as a useful example and teacher to the two little brothers she had +never seen, and, better than all, a beautiful fruit-bearing branch of +that true vine of which God is the husbandman, and Christ the stock, +and all true Christians living members. There is nothing of the "little +pig" left about her. + +Aunt Delight still lives in her cottage at Dorchester. She is an old +woman, if one counts by years, but her heart is as young and her mind +as bright as ever. She keeps her old servant Sarah, and Philly, now +a tall, useful girl, and she has a pleasant companion in a soldier's +widow, the daughter of a "far-away cousin," who has no other home. + +Mr. Locke is away in Asia, teaching the word of God among the Japanese. +Lolla often hears from him. She thinks sometimes she should like to go +too; but she has work enough at home to keep her fully employed for +the present. Her mother's health is very delicate, and Lolla is nurse, +housekeeper, teacher, and lady of the house, all in one: so she does +the duty nearest to her, and trusts to God to give her the desire of +her heart, if it is best for her to have it, or to make her contented +without it, if he sees best to deny. + + + + + + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 75955 *** diff --git a/75955-h/75955-h.htm b/75955-h/75955-h.htm new file mode 100644 index 0000000..03e27ef --- /dev/null +++ b/75955-h/75955-h.htm @@ -0,0 +1,1771 @@ +<!DOCTYPE html> +<html lang="en"> +<head> + <meta charset="UTF-8"> + <title> + Lolla; or, the sin of greediness, by Lucy Ellen Guernsey │ Project Gutenberg + </title> + <link rel="icon" href="images/image001.jpg" type="image/cover"> + <style> + +body { + margin-left: 10%; + margin-right: 10%; + font-size:12.0pt; + font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; +} + +p {text-indent: 2em;} + + h1,h2,h3,h4,h5,h6 { + text-align: center; /* all headings centered */ + clear: both; +} + +hr { + width: 33%; + margin-top: 2em; + margin-bottom: 2em; + margin-left: 33.5%; + margin-right: 33.5%; + clear: both; +} + +/* Images */ + +img { + max-width: 100%; + height: auto; +} + +.w100 { + width: auto + } + +.figcenter { + margin: auto; + text-align: center; + page-break-inside: avoid; + max-width: 100%; +} + +p.t1 {text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 125%; + text-align: center + } + +p.t2 { + text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 150%; + text-align: center + } + +p.t3 { + text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 100%; + text-align: center + } + +p.t3b { + text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 100%; + font-weight: bold; + text-align: center + } + +p.t4 { + text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 80%; + text-align: center + } + +p.letter {text-indent: 0%; + margin-left: 10% ; + margin-right: 10% } + + </style> +</head> +<body> +<div style='text-align:center'>*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 75955 ***</div> + +<p>Transcriber's note: Unusual and inconsistent spelling is as printed.</p> + +<p>New original cover art included with this eBook is granted to the +public domain.</p> +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image001" style="max-width: 33.8125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image001.jpg" alt="image001"> +</figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image002" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image002.jpg" alt="image002"> +</figure> +<p class="t4"> +<b><em>Lolla; or, The Sin of Greediness.</em></b><br> +<b>She put in her finger, and scooping up a large mouthful,</b><br> +<b>she hastily swallowed it.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<h1>LOLLA;</h1> + +<p class="t3"> +OR,<br> +</p> + +<p class="t1"> +The Sin of Greediness.<br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p class="t3"> +[BY]<br> +</p> + +<p class="t1"> +[<em>LUCY ELLEN GUERNSEY</em>]<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p><br><br></p> + +<p class="t3"> +——————————<br> +</p> + +<p><br><br></p> + +<p class="t4"> +PHILADELPHIA:<br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +AMERICAN SUNDAY-SCHOOL UNION<br> +</p> + +<p class="t4"> +NO. 1122 CHESTNUT STREET.<br> +<br> +——————————<br> +<br> +NEW YORK: 599 BROADWAY.<br> +</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<p class="t4"> +————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————<br> +<br> +Entered according to Act of Congress, in the year 1867, by the<br> +<br> +AMERICAN SUNDAY-SCHOOL UNION,<br> +<br> +in the Clerk's Office of the District Court of the United States<br> +for the Eastern District of Pennsylvania.<br> +<br> +————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————<br> +</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<p class="t3b"> +CONTENTS.<br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +——————<br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>CHAP.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_1">I.—LOLLA AT HOME</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_2">II.—LOLLA IN DORCHESTER</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_3">III.—THE MOUSE</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_4">IV.—"BREAD IN SECRET"</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_5">V.—THE ICE-CREAM</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_6">VI.—THE CONSEQUENCE</a></p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<p class="t2"> +<b>LOLLA;</b><br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +OR,<br> +</p> + +<p class="t1"> +THE SIN OF GREEDINESS.<br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +——————<br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<h3><a id="Chapter_1">CHAPTER I.</a></h3> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>LOLLA AT HOME.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"SEEMS to me Lolla does not eat any breakfast," said Aunt Delight, +looking at a little girl who sat opposite to her at the table, with a +well-filled plate before her, upon which, however, she did not seem to +be making any impression.</p> + +<p>"She never does," said Lolla's mother. "She never seems to have any +appetite in the morning. She complains that nothing tastes good to her; +and she almost always gets up tired and feverish."</p> + +<p>"That is a pity," said Aunt Delight. "Little folks ought to be hungry +in the morning, and to be as fresh and lively as birds and lambs are. +We must see if we cannot cure that when we get her down in Dorchester."</p> + +<p>"I dare say the sea-air will help her," said Lolla's mother. "I +remember how hungry it used to make me when I was a little girl. I am +very uneasy about Lolla, sometimes. It seems so unnatural for a child +to be so languid in the morning. But you are quite sure, Aunt Delight, +that you do not want to take nurse with you?"</p> + +<p>"I am quite sure, my dear Laura. In the first place, I have no room for +her; and in the second place, I have nothing for her to do."</p> + +<p>"Then who will take care of me, Aunt Delight?" asked Lolla, very much +interested in the discussion.</p> + +<p>"I expect you will take care of yourself and of me too," replied Aunt +Delight, smiling.</p> + +<p>Lolla looked as if she were doubtful whether to be pleased or alarmed +at this project. But she was very much delighted at the idea of the +long journey, and the summer in Dorchester with Aunt Delight, and not +displeased at being spoken to as if she were something more than a +baby: so she made no further objections.</p> + +<p>Lolla's father and mother lived in a very fine place near one of the +great Western cities; but they were expecting to break up and remove to +California during the summer, and it had been settled that Lolla was to +go to Dorchester and spend a year at least with her mother's aunt, Miss +Delight Wentworth, who had a pretty place of her own and was famous for +her skill in nursing the sick and managing and teaching children. Lolla +was considered rather a delicate child, and her mother had been out +of health ever since her daughter was born; for which reasons it was +thought best for both that they should be separated for a time.</p> + +<p>About ten o'clock, as Aunt Delight was passing through the kitchen, she +saw nurse giving Lolla a large piece of loaf-cake.</p> + +<p>"Eating so soon after breakfast?" said Aunt Delight.</p> + +<p>"Why, you know, aunt, I did not eat any breakfast," replied Lolla, in +rather a tone of apology.</p> + +<p>"She has got into a bad way about eating, that's a fact," said nurse. +"She doesn't eat at meals, and she is always wanting something +between-times; but her mother thinks there is no help for it. Now you +will see that she won't want any thing at dinner; and by-and-by she +will be asking for another piece of cake."</p> + +<p>"Do you think it is good for her to eat in that way?"</p> + +<p>"Well, no, I don't. She is spoiling her teeth, for one thing. But, +being the only child for so long,—and delicate besides,—Mrs. Lane has +got in the way of indulging her. She is a good child, too, in most +things; but it won't do her any harm to have a change. She cares Were +for eating than for any thing else."</p> + +<p>As nurse had predicted, Lolla had no appetite for her dinner,—at least +for the solid parts of it; but she ate two plates of rich pudding, +and then she had almonds and raisins, besides filling her pocket with +the nuts, which she was munching all the afternoon. A large piece of +fresh maple-sugar helped the almonds to fill up the interval between +dinner and tea, when Lolla supped upon pound-cake, preserved melon and +cottage-cheese.</p> + +<p>In the evening some friends came in, and about ten o'clock Lolla had +her share of the supper prepared for them.</p> + +<p>As Aunt Delight noted all these things, she no longer wondered that +Lolla did not sleep well and had no appetite for her breakfast. She was +not one of those people who think that children should never have any +thing that they like; but she made up her mind that when Lolla came +under her own care she should make some change in her habits.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"Well, Lolla, have you said good-by to all your pets?" asked Aunt +Delight, as she met Lolla at breakfast on the day set for their journey.</p> + +<p>Lolla did not seem as languid as usual, this morning. Her cheeks had a +little colour, her eyes were bright, and she ate her bread-and-butter +as if she liked it.</p> + +<p>"Oh, yes, aunt. I have been out to the barn and the pasture to see +the calves and the colts, and down by the river to see the little +ducks, and over to Mrs. Merrie's to bid good-by to Fanny and Jenny. I +have been up and running about ever since five o'clock; and I am so +hungry,—you can't think! I believe it makes people hungry to get up +early in the morning."</p> + +<p>"It is said to have that effect," replied Aunt Delight, smiling. "But +finish your breakfast, my dear. We have no time to lose."</p> + +<p>The carriage came to the door, the last good-byes were said, and Aunt +Delight and her little niece were soon speeding away over the Michigan +Central Railroad.</p> + +<p>Lolla felt very sadly at leaving home, and cried bitterly at parting +from father, mother and nurse. But children are usually easily diverted +from their grief; and Lolla's tears were soon dried. She had never +been upon the railroad before; and she enjoyed the rapid motion, the +constant change of scene, and the novelty of staying in a great hotel +over-night.</p> + +<p>She thought it rather hard that her aunt should refuse to buy oranges, +candy and maple-sugar of all the boys who came upon the train, +and a very unlucky circumstance that the package of rich cake and +confectionery which her mother had put up for her should somehow have +been lost directly, so that they had nothing left for their luncheon +except biscuits, cold chicken and sponge-cake. But there was so much to +see, and the change of air made her so hungry, that she did not feel +disposed to complain: besides that, she felt too much awe of her aunt +to go into one of her tantrums, as nurse used to call them.</p> + +<p>The travellers arrived at home late in the evening; and when Lolla +entered her aunt's cottage in Dorchester, she was too sleepy to notice +any thing, except that her room was of an odd shape, and her little low +bed very comfortable.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"Come, Lolla," said Aunt Delight, entering the room, next morning, +just as Lolla was rubbing her eyes; "breakfast is almost ready. I have +let you sleep late this morning, because you were tired. Here is your +bath, all ready to brighten you up. Now let us see how soon you will be +dressed."</p> + +<p>"Nurse used to dress me at home," said Lolla, rather doubtfully.</p> + +<p>"Yes, but nurse is not here; and, besides, you are old enough to wait +upon yourself. You are eight years old, are you not?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, aunt,—on my last birthday."</p> + +<p>"Well, when I was as old as you, I dressed myself and my little brother +every morning, besides putting my own room in order. You do not want +to be a baby all your days, do you? Come; don't dawdle, but lace your +boots quickly, and then put on the rest of your things, and I will +fasten them for you."</p> + +<p>"Is this my room, aunt?" asked Lolla.</p> + +<p>"Yes, Lolla. How do you like it?"</p> + +<p>"I think it is beautiful," replied Lolla, looking around upon the neat, +old-fashioned furniture, the pretty red-and-white matting, and the +little book-case full of books. "I never had a room of my own before. +What a funny window! It is like a little room by itself. Oh, aunt, +what is that out there?" exclaimed Lolla, catching a glimpse through +the curtains of something bright and blue, and speckled with large and +small white dots. "That 'blue,' I mean."</p> + +<p>"That is the sea,—or the bay, rather," replied Aunt Delight, smiling at +Lolla's excitement. "Don't you remember I told you, you would be able +to see the ships and the bay from your window? See, there is a great +steamer coming in. It must be the ocean steamer from Liverpool."</p> + +<p>There seemed some danger that Lolla would not get dressed at all, so +much interested was she in watching the steamer, and the fishing-boats, +and a large ship just going out of the bay; but Aunt Delight found no +fault with her. She knew how interesting all these things must be to +the little girl who had never seen ships or salt water before. At last, +however, Lolla was dressed; and she was about to run down-stairs at +once,—when her aunt stopped her.</p> + +<p>"It seems to me that you have forgotten something, Lolla," said she, +gravely.</p> + +<p>"Have I?" asked Lolla, surveying her dress. "I don't see any thing, +except my apron; and you know you said you would give me a clean one +out of the trunk."</p> + +<p>"I was not thinking of your dress, but of something else."</p> + +<p>Lolla still looked puzzled.</p> + +<p>"Who has taken care of you all night while you have been asleep, and +kept you from harm all through this long journey? And who is it you +should ask to take care of you through the day?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, you mean saying my prayers," said Lolla. "But, aunt, I never said +my prayers in the morning,—only at night."</p> + +<p>"Then you don't want God to take care of you in the daytime?" said Aunt +Delight. "You think, perhaps, that you can do that for yourself?"</p> + +<p>"Somehow, there never seems to be any time in the morning," said Lolla. +"One has to hurry so to get ready for breakfast."</p> + +<p>"Then one must get up earlier in the morning," said Aunt Delight. +"But you will have plenty of time. I told Sarah to ring the bell five +minutes before breakfast was ready. I will wait for you in my room."</p> + +<p>Lolla, did not feel very much like saying her prayers; but she did +not like to dispute with her aunt: so she hastily repeated the Lord's +Prayer, without thinking much of its meaning, and then joined her aunt +in her own room, and they went down-stairs together.</p> + +<p>The breakfast-room would have been a large one if it had not been cut +up into so many angles and corners. There was a large chimney, with a +high, old-fashioned wooden mantel-piece, and a deep recess containing +a book-case on each side of it. There was another deep recess, where +stood a large, carved mahogany side-board. There was a corner cupboard, +with glass doors, which seemed to be filled with china. There were +two windows with deep window-seats, and a glass door opening into the +garden. The walls were covered with old-fashioned paper ornamented with +lilies and roses, with gayly-feathered birds flying about and perching +on the flowers; and there were many pictures and prints, in black and +gold frames.</p> + +<p>The breakfast-table was set for them, and looked very inviting, with +its snowy cloth and shining china and silver.</p> + +<p>"Whose place is that, aunt?" asked Lolla.</p> + +<p>"That is Mr. Locke's place; but he will not be here this morning," said +Aunt Delight. "He has gone over to Boston, and will breakfast with a +friend. This is your chair."</p> + +<p>Lolla slipped into her chair. She was very hungry, and could not help +taking a sly survey of the table, even while her aunt was saying grace, +to see what they were likely to have for breakfast. There was a loaf +of white bread, and another of brown, upon a beautifully-carved wooden +plate. There was a silver egg-boiler, a pitcher of milk, and a dish of +cold ham; and that was all.</p> + +<p>Presently, however, Aunt Delight rang her bell, and Sarah brought in a +plate of hot toast, and a coffee-pot.</p> + +<p>"What is that, aunt?" said Lolla, pointing to the egg-boiler.</p> + +<p>"That is a boiler to cook the eggs," replied her aunt, as she opened +the cover and took out the rack filled with eggs. "Did you never see +one before?"</p> + +<p>"No," replied Lolla. "Mary always boils ours in a kettle; but I think +this is a much nicer way. Our eggs are always too hard, or too soft, or +something."</p> + +<p>She had another question on her tongue's end; but she did not quite +like to ask it. At last, however, out it came.</p> + +<p>"Aunt Delight, don't you have any meat for breakfast? No beefsteak, or +chicken, or any thing?"</p> + +<p>"Sometimes," replied her aunt. "Don't you call cold ham meat?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, yes," replied Lolla, feeling rather ashamed of her question. "Only +I thought I would just ask, because—because—" Lolla paused in some +confusion. She did not exactly know what to say.</p> + +<p>"I dare say you can make a breakfast on ham-and-eggs and +bread-and-butter," said Aunt Delight.</p> + +<p>"Was it wrong to ask, aunt?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, no. But, Lolla, it is not usually considered very polite to make +remarks upon what is on the table. Little girls should eat what is +set before them, without saying very much about it. See here: you +shall have your coffee in this silver cup, which belonged to your +great-grandmother,—and her grandmother before her, for aught I know. +Just think how many little girls must have drunk out of it before you."</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<h3><a id="Chapter_2">CHAPTER II.</a></h3> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>LOLLA IN DORCHESTER.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"NOW, Lolla, can I trust you to run about by yourself for a while?" +asked Aunt Delight, when breakfast was done and family prayers were +over.</p> + +<p>"I don't exactly know what you mean, aunt," said Lolla.</p> + +<p>"Can I trust you not to pick the flowers, or tread upon the +flower-beds, or meddle with what does not belong to you? If so, you +may go where you like about the house and garden; but you must not go +outside the gate unless I give you leave. I suppose you will be like a +kitten brought into a strange house: you will like to make acquaintance +with every thing about you."</p> + +<p>"I won't meddle with any thing," said Lolla. "But why may I not go into +the street, Aunt Delight?"</p> + +<p>"For this reason, among others: that you might easily get lost, and it +would not perhaps be so easy to find you again."</p> + +<p>"May I go down to the gate and look-out?" asked Lolla.</p> + +<p>"Yes, if you do not go outside. By-and-by we will begin some lessons; +for it will not do to play all the time. But to-day I am going to be +busy about the house all the morning: so you will know where to find me +if you want me."</p> + +<p>Lolla was pleased with the permission to go where she liked,—and +pleased, too, with being trusted. She spent an hour or two very +pleasantly in exploring the garden and greenhouses, and going about +the house, where there seemed so many pictures, and books, and curious +boxes, and china vases, and pots, and bowls. One pair of vases, which +stood in the hall, especially excited her curiosity, they were so very +large. They were nearly as tall as herself; she thought she could have +got into one of them easily,—and had covers, which fastened with large +metal hinges and hasps.</p> + +<p>Then she put on her hat again and went down to the gate, where she +saw a little boy mounted on a Shetland pony not much larger than her +father's great Newfoundland dog, and a girl driving a little donkey +in a low wagon, and some cows in a field opposite, each with a thin +blanket on to keep off the flies, and each one tethered to a stake by a +long rope.</p> + +<p>"Well," thought Lolla, "they seem to take a great deal of care of their +cows; but if I were a cow, I should rather be running about on the +prairie than be tied up in that way."</p> + +<p>Just then she heard a church-clock strike eleven, and she remembered +that it was more than two hours since she had had any thing to eat: so +she sauntered slowly to the house, and went in at the back door.</p> + +<p>She found Aunt Delight in her neat little store-room, surrounded by +shelves full of preserves and canned fruit, stone jars which reminded +one of pickles and cake, bunches of sweet and medicinal herbs, and +bottles and jugs of all shapes and sizes.</p> + +<p>"Please, aunt," said Lolla, "I want something to eat."</p> + +<p>"Do you?" said Aunt Delight. "For what?"</p> + +<p>Lolla smiled at the oddness of the question.</p> + +<p>"Because I am hungry, aunt."</p> + +<p>"Are you sure it is because you are hungry, or because you are used +to eating just about this time? But never mind. Go to Sarah, in the +kitchen, and ask her to give you a piece of bread-and-butter."</p> + +<p>"I don't like bread-and-butter very much," said Lolla. "Nurse used to +give me a piece of cake."</p> + +<p>"I don't like little girls to be always eating sweet things," said Aunt +Delight. "It is bad for their teeth and for their health. If you are +really hungry, bread-and-butter will taste good to you. If you are not +hungry, you do not want any thing."</p> + +<p>"Mother lets me have cake," persisted Lolla; "and I guess she knows +what is good for me as well as anybody."</p> + +<p>"See here, Lolla," said Aunt Delight, sitting down, and drawing +the little girl to her side: "I cannot have any argument with you +about these things. Your mother has trusted you to me, to be taken +care of and treated as I think best. She knows all about my ways of +management,—because I brought her up till she was fourteen years old; +and she knows I intend to do as I think right with you. When I tell +you to do a thing, I do not expect you to tell me what somebody else +does or thinks, but to be governed by what I think. Now go and get your +bread-and-butter, if you want it; and if not, let it alone."</p> + +<p>"I don't want it," said Lolla, with an air of disgust. "I haven't any +appetite for such things."</p> + +<p>"Very well," said Aunt Delight, smiling. "I dare say you will find +your appetite by dinner-time. Do you want to go and play, or would you +rather stay and help me? I am going to take my Indian curiosities out +of the cabinet and dust them."</p> + +<p>Lolla did not exactly know what to do. She felt very much abused, +and a good deal like sulking about it; but, then, she wanted to see +the curiosities, and she had, besides, a feeling that sulking was +not likely to answer a very good purpose: so she slowly followed +Aunt Delight into the parlour, which was across the hall from the +breakfast-room. She had peeped in before, but the blinds were closed +and the curtains down, so that she could not see any thing.</p> + +<p>Aunt Delight drew up the curtains and opened the shutters.</p> + +<p>"What a pretty room!" exclaimed Lolla. "I do think, aunt, you have +the most beautiful things! I don't see where you got so many splendid +vases."</p> + +<p>"They have been accumulating for a long time," said Aunt Delight. "Some +of our family have been in the India trade ever since there has been +any India trade in Boston; and they are always bringing home things. +See, here is my India cabinet."</p> + +<p>"A real India cabinet, just like the one in Rosamund!" exclaimed Lolla, +forgetting all about the bread-and-butter question at once. "Are there +any branches of coral in it?"</p> + +<p>"We shall see," said Aunt Delight, unlocking the little drawers. "There +is no telling what we may find."</p> + +<p>No telling, indeed. What wonderful things there were in that cabinet! +Shells and corals, curious gold and silver coins, butterflies and +beetles looking as if made of jewels, little boxes and balls carved +with figures, pictures upon rice-paper of birds and flowers and Chinese +men and women. I could not begin to tell you half the things there were +in that cabinet. Aunt Delight took them out and handed them to Lolla, +who laid them carefully on the table set to receive them.</p> + +<p>Every article had a story to it, and Aunt Delight was ready to answer +all Lolla's questions. She gave the little girl a number of pretty +things for her own, and a beautiful little Japan work-box in the +shape of a cabinet, covered with gilded figures of cranes flying and +perching, and having drawers lined with a sweet-scented wood, which +Aunt Delight said was sandal-wood.</p> + +<p>"There! We have made a good morning's work," said Aunt Delight, as she +closed the last drawer. "Now put away the dust-pan and brush in the +back entry, and, as you come back, look at the clock and tell me what +time it is."</p> + +<p>"Why, aunt, it only wants a quarter of one!" exclaimed Lolla, in great +surprise. "And Sarah has set the table. She says dinner will be ready +in a quarter of an hour. I did not think it was nearly dinner-time: did +you?"</p> + +<p>Aunt Delight smiled. "You will just have time to wash your hands and +brush your hair nicely. Run upstairs, and don't waste any time."</p> + +<p>Lolla thought every thing tasted unusually good at dinner. She thought +the air of Dorchester must make people very hungry. She had not cared +any thing about roast beef and mashed potatoes for a long time, and +seldom ate any meat at dinner when she was at home.</p> + +<p>Mr. Locke was at dinner. He was a pale, thin, delicate-looking young +gentleman, who wore spectacles and ate very little; but he was pleasant +and kind in his manners, and Lolla thought she should like him very +much. She wondered how he came to be living with Aunt Delight, and +thought she would ask by-and by.</p> + +<p>"Are you going to feel well enough to give some time to this little +girl lessons, Mr. Locke?" asked Aunt Delight.</p> + +<p>"Certainly," replied Mr. Locke, smiling kindly upon Lolla. "When shall +we begin?"</p> + +<p>"After a day or two. She will need a little time to run about and +get used to her new home. Next week, I think, we will look up some +school-books, and see what we can do."</p> + +<p>Lolla looked rather alarmed at the idea of lessons.</p> + +<p>"My mother never lets me go to school," said she; "I have the headache +so much."</p> + +<p>"No one has said any thing about your going to school," returned Aunt +Delight, dryly. "As to your headaches, I think they will be better +after a while. You are growing a great girl, and cannot afford to waste +all your time. Will you have some pudding?"</p> + +<p>For the next week Lolla did nothing but amuse herself. She played about +the yard and garden, read story-books, looked at pictures, and, in +short, did what she liked. Twice she went into Boston on the horse-cars +with her aunt; and on one of these occasions they went into a shop and +had some ice-cream, to Lolla's great satisfaction.</p> + +<p>"Won't you buy me some candy, Aunt Delight?" said she, as they passed +through the shop.</p> + +<p>"Not to-day," replied Aunt Delight. "A saucer of ice-cream does very +well for once, I think."</p> + +<p>"Father used always to buy me candy when we went into town," murmured +Lolla.</p> + +<p>"My dear child, how much you do think about eating!" said Aunt Delight. +"Seems to me I would try to find pleasure in other things, if I were +you. Candy is very unsuitable for you now, and, besides, it is a very +bad habit to fall into, that of thinking you must always have something +to munch, like one of the little guinea-pigs we saw just now."</p> + +<p>"Oh, dear," said Lolla to herself, "how I do want some candy!"</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<h3><a id="Chapter_3">CHAPTER III.</a></h3> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>THE MOUSE.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"MISS DELIGHT, I think there must be mice in the store-room cupboards," +said Sarah to her mistress, one morning after breakfast. "I find the +cake and biscuits crumbed and nibbled; and the crackers go away faster +than they ought I am sure. And just see here how this syrup from the +dish of plums I set away yesterday is trailed upon the shelf. Nasty +little things! If there is any thing I do hate, it is a mouse."</p> + +<p>"You must shut Dragon into the store-room at night, and move the things +away so that he can get about on the shelves," said Aunt Delight. "It +is a long time since we have had any mice in the house. The old cat +must be growing lazy."</p> + +<p>"I am not so sure about the mice, either," said Sarah, in a low tone. +"I am afraid Philly has been at her old tricks again. Mice would not +carry away whole slices of cake and lumps of sugar."</p> + +<p>"Hardly," said Aunt Delight. "But I don't like to suspect Philly,—she +has done so much better lately; and I do think she is trying to be a +good girl."</p> + +<p>"Well, we shall see," said Sarah. "I mean to keep a sharp look-out upon +her. I don't know how it is, but I never can trust her."</p> + +<p>"Take care, Sarah," said Aunt Delight. "Remember, charity thinketh no +evil. Do not begin With a prejudice against the child."</p> + +<p>"Well, I can't help it," said Sarah. "When I do like people, I do; and +when I don't, I don't; and that is all about it. Now, I took to Lolla, +from the first. I'll be bound you won't find any underhand sly ways +about her. But Philly has such a down kind of look."</p> + +<p>"You must remember how differently the two children have been treated," +replied Aunt Delight. "Lolla has never had occasion to be afraid of +any thing or anybody; but poor Philly has been a slave all her life, +and her mother before her. I expected she would make us a good deal +of trouble. You know we talked of that before she came to us, and we +agreed to have patience with her faults as long as there was a prospect +of doing her any good; and you must admit that she has improved."</p> + +<p>Sarah observed that there was room for improvement still.</p> + +<p>"That is the case with all of us," said Aunt Delight, dryly. "Well, say +nothing, Sarah, at present. We shall soon find out about the matter."</p> + +<p>The next day but one, as Aunt Delight was passing through the pantry, +she heard Sarah's voice in the pantry, and looked in to see what was +the matter.</p> + +<p>"Just see here, ma'am," said Sarah. "Last night I found the plums +all spilled on the shelf again. So I thought I would watch; and this +morning, when Philly came in to put the spoons away, I thought she was +a long time about it: so I followed her, and found her at the open +cupboard-door, with a teaspoon in her hand sticking all over with the +plum-syrup. If that is not proof, I don't know what is!" concluded +Sarah, triumphantly. "I knew very well I should catch her at her +tricks."</p> + +<p>"I didn't never touch the plums," sobbed Philly. "I only—"</p> + +<p>"Oh, you only—You only went 'snooping' in the closet," said Sarah, +severely. "It's no use! I caught you at it!"</p> + +<p>"Wait a little, Sarah, if you please," said Aunt Delight, quietly. "Let +me hear Philly's own story. That is but justice. Now, Philly, tell me +all about it; and be sure you tell the truth. Don't be afraid: you +shall not be condemned unjustly. How was it?"</p> + +<p>"I was jes puttin' away de spoons," began Philly, falling back into her +native negro dialect; but Aunt Delight interrupted her.</p> + +<p>"Speak quite plainly, Philly, and then I shall know you think of every +word you are saying. Go on."</p> + +<p>"I was just putting away the spoons," continued Philly, this time +pronouncing her words carefully, "and I thought the row of teaspoons +looked as if there was one gone; and I counted them, and there was; and +I began to look round for it, and I saw that cupboard-door partly open: +so I thought I would look in there, and there I found the spoon in the +dish of plums; and I was just taking it out when Sarah came in."</p> + +<p>"A likely story, indeed!" said Sarah, with a sneer. "Didn't I put away +the dish of plums myself last night? And shouldn't I have seen it if +there had been a teaspoon in the dish? Don't tell me!"</p> + +<p>"I can't help it," said Philly. "I found it there, and I know I didn't +put it there. That's all I know."</p> + +<p>"Come into my room, Philly," said Aunt Delight. "I will talk to you +there."</p> + +<p>Philly followed willingly enough. She was beginning to have great +confidence in Aunt Delight's justice as well as in her kindness. She +answered all questions readily, and did not vary at all from her first +story.</p> + +<p>"Well, Philly, I don't know what to think," said Aunt Delight, at +length. "You have been such a good girl lately that I do not like to +believe you are telling me a story. Appearances are against you; but +that happens with innocent people, sometimes. It is a rule in law that +people are to be supposed innocent till they are proved guilty: so, +unless I see something else to condemn you, I shall say nothing more +about this affair. Get your book now, and read to me while I turn down +these glass-cloths for you to hem."</p> + +<p>"You are the most goodest lady I ever see," said Phillis to herself, as +she went for her book. "I'd be ashamed to do any thing mean for such a +nice lady."</p> + +<p>Every morning, besides her reading and spelling lesson, Phillis read a +chapter in the Testament, or a psalm, to Aunt Delight. She was learning +to love these Bible lessons, and often studied them over by herself. +Her lesson this morning was the thirty-seventh Psalm. She read slowly +and carefully, and at the sixth verse she paused for a moment.</p> + +<p>"Well," said Aunt Delight, "what are you thinking of, Philly?"</p> + +<p>"Nothing, only—sometimes it seems as though verses in the Bible were +made on purpose for people."</p> + +<p>"Why, so they are," replied Aunt Delight. "All the verses in the Bible +are made on purpose for people; and it often does seem to us that +particular verses are made on purpose for us. I suppose they are. Do +you find any verses in this psalm which suit you at present?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, ma'am: I did think those two last verses seemed to."</p> + +<p>"Read them again."</p> + +<p>Philly did so.</p> + +<p>"You think He will make your just dealing as to the plums clear as the +noonday. Is that it?"</p> + +<p>"If it wasn't wicked to think so," said Philly, doubtfully. "You know +you did say one day that God cared about us."</p> + +<p>"True: so I did. Well, my child, you have as much right to take God's +promises to yourself as any one in the world. Read the next verse."</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>Philly hemmed her towels as well as possible, earning great praise from +Miss Delight for her neatness and quickness.</p> + +<p>Then, much comforted, she went down into the garden, where Aunt Delight +had told her to do some weeding.</p> + +<p>"How good she is!" she said to herself. "It a'n't that she don't find +fault sometimes; but she never does it just to be hateful, and she +always praises what I have done right, if I have been ever so naughty. +That's the kind of goodness I like."</p> + +<p>Philly was right. Kindness without justice is not worth much. She had +rather hard times, as she would have said, all that day. Sarah, who +had never liked her, had made up her mind that the child was guilty, +and treated her accordingly. She would not allow her to go into the +pantry or store-room, watched her as a cat watches a mouse, and kept +all the time throwing out hints about thieves and liars, and people who +deceived and cheated their best friends.</p> + +<p>It needed all Philly's philosophy and religion to boot to enable her +to bear patiently with all this; but the poor child had learned how +to bear her troubles and where to carry them. She believed that "God +really did care," because Miss Delight said so; and this day she +learned by her own experience that He did help as well as care. Three +or four times that day she escaped to her own little attic, and every +time she came down comforted.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>Miss Delight expected every person of her household to repeat two +verses of Holy Scripture at morning prayers. The next morning Philly's +two verses were these from the thirty-seventh Psalm:—</p> + +<p>"'Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring +it to pass.'</p> + +<p>"'And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy +judgment as the noonday.'"</p> + +<p>Something in Sarah's heart gave her a little pain just then, as if she +had been stung.</p> + +<p>"May-be she did tell the truth, after all," said she to herself. +"Anyhow, she is an orphan child, and hasn't a friend in the world +except Miss Delight. I guess I'll wait and see before I say any more."</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<h3><a id="Chapter_4">CHAPTER IV.</a></h3> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>"BREAD IN SECRET."</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>FOR some time after she came to Dorchester, Lolla's health continued +steadily to improve. She lost the heavy, languid look she had worn in +the morning, had a good appetite not only for her breakfast, but for +all her other meals, slept well, and ran about all day long as lively +as a kitten. She had an hour and a half of lessons in the morning, +which she said to Mr. Locke, and half an hour of sewing with Aunt +Delight after dinner; and the rest of the time she was encouraged to +play in the open air as much as she pleased. She found her way down +to the beach, where she was never weary of the marvel of seeing the +tide come in and go out. She learned the way to the few shops in the +neighbourhood, so that she could do errands; and—greatest pleasure of +all—she went several times to Savin Hill.</p> + +<p>Savin Hill is like a large mountain seen through the wrong end of the +telescope. It has caves and precipices, rocks and cliffs, all made of a +stone which looks very much indeed like petrified plum-pudding. There +are evergreen trees called savin, Virginia creepers, and a slender, +thorny vine with glossy leaves, very pretty to look at and very +impossible to get through.</p> + +<p>Savin Hill runs out into the bay, and commands on all sides a beautiful +view of the bay and shipping, South Boston, the Blue Hills, and the +villages round about. I have spent many pleasant hours upon the little +mountain, watching the ships and boats, the clouds and hills, and +waiting till dark to see the revolving light in the far-off lighthouse +flash out and fade as regularly as the pendulum of a clock.</p> + +<p>Two or three times Aunt Delight and Mr. Locke had gone up on Savin Hill +with Lolla and Philly and had a little picnic. The two elders would +sit on the rocks in the shade or the sunshine, as the day happened to +be cool or warm, and read or talked while the little girls played with +their dolls and made playhouses.</p> + +<p>Philly was a grand playmate. She was four years older than Lolla, but +she was always ready to do any thing Lolla wanted of her,—to dress the +doll, jump the rope, tell stories; or "make-believe" to any extent.</p> + +<p>Aunt Delight did not think it would do Lolla any harm to play with her. +She had watched Philly for some months, and she saw that the child was +really trying to improve,—that she had learned to have a sense of duty +which made her careful to be good out of sight and alone as well as +before other people. Since the affair of the spoon and the plums she +had taken special pains to observe her, and she became convinced that +whoever was to blame for the spilt syrup and crumbled cake, Philly was +not. She was not so sure about some one else, but she kept her own +counsel; for Aunt Delight was one of the people who could think of +things and not talk about them,—a talent more rare than many persons +suppose, and one we would advise our young readers to cultivate.</p> + +<p>By-and-by, however, Lolla's head began to ache once more, and again +she had no appetite for her meals. She declared it was because Mr. +Locke made her learn the multiplication-table; but Aunt Delight +was of a different opinion. She had taught many little girls the +multiplication-table without doing them any harm; and she had seen +many more headaches come from improper eating and exposure than from +lessons; and she came to the conclusion that Lolla was indulging in +something which she ought not to have. She watched her closely, but +quietly, and by-and-by she found out the truth, as you will see.</p> + +<p>Lolla had brought some money from home. Her father had been in the +habit of giving her all his new three-cent and five-cent pieces to +put in her little money-box, and these had amounted to a considerable +sum; and, besides, she possessed other money, which had been given +her from time to time by her uncles and cousins. She had very little +temptation to spend at home, for she lived some distance from town, and +she had all the sweet things she could eat, without buying them. She +brought her money with her to Boston, intending to purchase some pretty +thing that she fancied; but it all seemed likely to go in another +direction. Lolla discovered that she could buy cakes and gingersnaps +at the baker's, and candy and chocolate at the other shops; and she +now kept on hand a constant supply of these articles, which she was +munching at every opportunity when she could do so unobserved. Now, +when a little girl eats two large ginger-cakes, a stick of chocolate, +and a dozen or so of lemon-drops after she goes to bed at night, it is +hardly necessary to blame the multiplication-table if she rises with a +headache in the morning.</p> + +<p>Lolla hid away her store of dainties in two or three different +places,—in one of the great covered vases in the hall, in the back +part of a cupboard where she kept her shoes, and in the pockets of her +dress. Something told her all the time that she was growing mean and +deceitful and sly, and more and more fond of eating,—more like a little +pig; but she persuaded herself that she could not help it, and that it +was her aunt's fault in not giving her all she wanted.</p> + +<p>"Won't you ever tell as long as you live and breathe?" said she to +Philly, one day, as they were playing in the lower part of the garden.</p> + +<p>"No," said Philly, without thinking. "Tell what?"</p> + +<p>"If I give you something," said Lolla, putting her hand in her pocket +and pulling out two or three large lumps of sugar.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Lolla, you shouldn't eat hard sugar," said Philly. "I heard Miss +Delight tell you it was bad for your teeth. Where did you get it?"</p> + +<p>"That is my business, and not yours," replied Lolla, pertly. "Aunt +Delight is as full of notions as she can be. Lizzy Mercer said she knew +she would be, because she is an old maid. I hope I shall never be an +old maid."</p> + +<p>"Oh, Lolla! How can you say so?" exclaimed Philly. "I think she is as +good as she can be. I am sure she is just like a mother to you."</p> + +<p>"She is not a bit like 'my' mother, I can tell you," said Lolla. +"Mother always let me have all the cake I wanted."</p> + +<p>"Well, you know yourself it wasn't good for you," returned Philly. +"Just see how much better you are than when you first came here."</p> + +<p>"I am 'not' better," said Lolla, pettishly. "My head aches all the +time, lately. I know it is all that hateful arithmetic; but Aunt +Delight won't believe me."</p> + +<p>"I guess it is the sweet stuff you eat," said Philly. "I am sure your +aunt would not like it if she knew how you bought candy all the time."</p> + +<p>"You had better run and tell her," said Lolla, angrily. "I wish you +would just mind your own business. I didn't come down here to be +ordered about by a nigger."</p> + +<p>Lolla knew very well, when she used the ugly word, that nothing +made Philly so angry or hurt her feelings so much as being called a +"nigger." She thought Philly would fly into a passion, and that then +she could tease her till she made her cry. She had done so before when +they quarrelled, and, somehow, found a great pleasure in seeing Philly +angry. This time, however, she did not succeed in her object. She +was very much hurt, and her dark eyes snapped for a moment; but she +restrained herself, and merely said,—</p> + +<p>"I shall not play with you if you talk that way." She turned and went +into the house.</p> + +<p>"Just like you," Lolla called after her. "Now go and sulk up in your +room all the afternoon."</p> + +<p>Philly did not answer, and Lolla began to consider whether she had been +very wise in provoking one who could betray her secret. There was no +help for it now, however; and she determined to make it up with Philly, +and to be more careful in future.</p> + +<p>Philly was deeply hurt, for she was fond of Lolla, but she was very +much troubled besides. She was pretty sure that the lumps of sugar came +out of Miss Delight's pantry, and she was very much afraid that if they +were missed she should be accused of taking them. The matter of the +spoon had never been cleared up, and she feared if any more suspicion +fell on her, Miss Delight would send her away. Think as she would, she +could see no way out of her trouble. She could not make up her mind to +tell Miss Delight or Sarah what had passed. She could not feel that it +would be right, and, besides, she argued, "as like as not Miss Delight +wouldn't believe me. She would naturally take part with her own niece, +and Sarah thinks Lolla is perfect. Oh, dear! I thought when I got here, +there would not be any more trouble; but seems to me there is trouble +everywhere."</p> + +<p>Philly was right. There is trouble everywhere in this world. Happily, +however, the Refuge from trouble is everywhere as well.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"Sarah," said Philly, as they were drinking their tea that afternoon, +"why doesn't Miss Delight keep things locked up, as my old missus used +to do down in Georgia?"</p> + +<p>"Why should she?" asked Sarah. "There is nobody to meddle with things +but you and me; and we don't either of us mean to rob her, do we?"</p> + +<p>Philly felt that it was kind in Sarah to include her in this question. +"I'm sure I don't," said she.</p> + +<p>"Well, Philly, I don't believe you do," said Sarah. "I had my doubts +of you a little while ago about those plums; but I have got eyes in my +head. I have watched you, and I don't believe you meddle with things +any more; though you know, Philly, you did when you first came here."</p> + +<p>"Yes, I know; but I didn't know any better then. I do try to be a good +girl, Sarah."</p> + +<p>"Yes, I see you do; and I must say you make out better than some folks +who have had more advantages. But you mustn't be proud of it, child: if +you are, the first you know you will be doing something bad again."</p> + +<p>"It was queer, though, about that spoon: wasn't it?" said Philly, +emboldened by Sarah's kindness. "You know, Sarah, a mouse wouldn't take +a spoon; if he wanted the plums ever so much."</p> + +<p>"A mouse wouldn't do a good many things," said Sarah. "A mouse wouldn't +leave the cover off the sugar-bowl and take out all the largest lumps. +A mouse isn't apt to open cupboard-doors and leave them ajar. But +we shall see. Every thing comes to the light some day. Come, hurry +and wash up your dishes; and, if you are real smart, I will ask Miss +Delight to let you go with me into Boston to-morrow."</p> + +<p>Philly hastened to obey, feeling very much comforted at finding that +she had made a friend of Sarah, who had begun by disliking her so +greatly.</p> + +<p>"I know what I know," said Sarah to herself; "and Miss Delight +shall know it too, if she has not penetration to find it out for +herself,—which I guess she has."</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<h3><a id="Chapter_5">CHAPTER V.</a></h3> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>THE ICE-CREAM.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"OH, Aunt Delight, do let us go in and have some ice-cream," said +Lolla, as they came opposite a pleasant-looking shop on Washington +Street, where she had several times been with her aunt. "We have not +had any for ever so long."</p> + +<p>"How long?" asked Aunt Delight.</p> + +<p>"Not since last week."</p> + +<p>"And how long is that?"</p> + +<p>Lolla was obliged to confess that it was no longer ago than the day +before yesterday.</p> + +<p>"I cannot buy ice-cream every time we come into town. It is too +expensive."</p> + +<p>"I thought you were rich enough to afford to get whatever you liked, +aunt," said Lolla; "and it only costs twenty-five cents."</p> + +<p>"Well, I come into town, on an average, three times a week. Suppose I +were to spend twenty-five cents every time: how much would that come to +in a month?"</p> + +<p>"Three dollars, exactly," replied Lolla, after a little consideration.</p> + +<p>"Yes: enough to buy a nice Testament in large print for old Mrs. +Prince, and a 'Silent Comforter' to hang on the wall for poor Jessie +McMillen, who you know has not strength to hold a heavy book in her +hand."</p> + +<p>"You might buy the book too," said Lolla. "I am sure you have money +enough."</p> + +<p>"Perhaps you do not know just how much money I have; but, if I were as +rich as the richest man in the world, it would not be right to spend +money foolishly. Besides, it is a very bad habit to be constantly +buying nice things to eat. It leads to selfishness, gluttony and +extravagance. I am willing to indulge you to a reasonable extent; +but if you tease me for ice-cream or candy every time you see a +confectioner's shop, I cannot bring you to town with me any more."</p> + +<p>Lolla was silent. She knew by experience that when Aunt Delight +said no, that was all that was to be said; but she felt very much +dissatisfied, and she was really provoked when Aunt Delight bought a +pretty photograph of some cliffs and boats, and some fishermen's huts +upon the sea-shore.</p> + +<p>"That cost more than the ice-cream would have cost,—fifty cents more," +said Lolla; "and what is it good for, after all?"</p> + +<p>"Good to look at," replied Aunt Delight. "The ice-cream is eaten and +gone, and that is the end. The photograph may be looked at every day +for ten years, and be just as good at the end of the time. But this +picture is not for myself, but for Jessie McMillen."</p> + +<p>"That is queerer yet," said Lolla. "I thought when people bought things +for the poor they got somethings useful."</p> + +<p>"That depends upon circumstances, and also upon what you call useful," +replied her aunt. "Jessie's father can buy her the clothes and the food +that are absolutely necessary for her; but he has no money to spare for +any thing else. This picture will hang on the wall opposite her bed, +and be a new pleasure to her every time she wakes up and looks at it, +and all the more because it will remind her of the shores of Scotland, +which she will never see again. I have had a long illness myself, +and I know very well how pleasant is any thing which reminds one of +out-of-doors and fresh air."</p> + +<p>"Come, Lolla," said Aunt Delight, after tea; "let us go up and carry +Jessie her picture."</p> + +<p>Jessie McMillen was a Scotch girl who was dying slowly of a painful +disease. Her father had come from Scotland not many months before, +with his wife and his only daughter. He was a sober, steady man, +who had been injured by an accident in a coal-mine, so that he was +unable to work very hard; but his wife was skilful in fine washing and +clear-starching, and Jessie understood housework and sewing: so there +seemed every probability that they would be able to support themselves +nicely.</p> + +<p>They took rooms in a little cottage near Savin Hill, and for a time +did very well; but misfortune fell upon them. Mrs. McMillen took cold +while hanging out her clothes one biting winter's day, and went into a +quick consumption. It was while waiting upon her sick and dying mother +that Jessie was seized with a pain in her chest. She thought little +of the matter at first; but, between hard work and watching, the pain +grew more and more severe; and when, after her mother was buried, she +went to the doctor, he told her, as gently as he could, that there was +nothing to be done for her. Since then she had gradually but surely +grown worse, till she was now nearly helpless.</p> + +<p>Her father obtained work as a gardener, in which business he was +very skilful, and some kind people of the neighbourhood interested +themselves in the daughter, so that Jessie wanted for nothing. She had +failed very much through the spring, and was now unable to sit up.</p> + +<p>Lolla could not regret the loss of her ice-cream when she saw how +Jessie's eyes brightened at the sight of the photograph, and heard the +little cry of joy which she uttered as she examined it.</p> + +<p>"It is just my grandfather's house in Scotland," said she. "I have +been there a hundred times. And that woman is Maggie Lawlor, the old +fishwife, who used to carry me on her back. I've often seen them make +pictures of it when I was a little girl; but I never thought to see it +again.</p> + +<p>"Many artists came to our village in summer to draw the rocks and the +boats. One of them painted my picture when I was a wee thing like Miss +Lolla, there. I mind well how I would have putten on my fine Sunday +gown and hat; but he would have me in my old stout red petticoat. Oh, +how pleased my father will be!"</p> + +<p>"I am very glad," said Aunt Delight. "I thought you would be pleased +with a Scotch scene; but I had no idea that you would know the place."</p> + +<p>"It just seems like a gift from God," said Jessie, reverently. "Oh, I +have so tried and prayed to dream of it all, but I never could; and now +he has sent me this."</p> + +<p>"He is always good," said Miss Delight. "You will find that out more +and more to all eternity, Jessie. And now about your eating: have you +been able to take any food to-day?"</p> + +<p>"No, ma'am. I canna eat, though I try. Every thing turns against +me,—especially every thing warm."</p> + +<p>"Do you like ice?"</p> + +<p>"Very much, ma'am; and Mrs. Tuttle was very good to send me some +several times. I often fancy if the broth was frozen I could eat it."</p> + +<p>"I will see if something cannot be prepared," said Aunt Delight.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>The next morning, while Lolla was at her lessons, she heard a sound +in the kitchen like the turning of an ice-cream freezer, which so +distracted her attention that she missed half the questions in her +arithmetic lesson, and had to study it over again. At last, however, +she accomplished her task, and hurried down-stairs to see what was +going on; and, behold! there was Philly, in a cool recess which opened +out of the kitchen, turning the freezer as busily as possible.</p> + +<p>"What are you making, Philly?" asked Lolla.</p> + +<p>"I don't know. Something for Jessie McMillen," answered Philly, pausing +in her work for a minute, and then beginning again with new vigour.</p> + +<p>"Pshaw! Always Jessie McMillen!" said Lolla, half to herself. "I wonder +why I can't have something decent to eat, as well as that beggar."</p> + +<p>"Why, Lolla!" said Philly. "I don't see how you can talk so. I wish you +could live where I did before I came here, for about three weeks. You +would know what it is to have something good to eat. Jessie isn't a +beggar, either; and you should not call her so."</p> + +<p>"Just like you, Philly!—Always contradicting every word I say. I should +think Aunt Delight might teach you not to be quite so impudent. Just +like niggers! I can't bear them."</p> + +<p>"Lolla," said Sarah, "if you call Philly a nigger again, I shall tell +your aunt. I don't think that is much like a little lady, for my part."</p> + +<p>"Never mind, Sarah," said Philly. "Lolla will be sorry by-and-by. After +all, I 'am' a nigger," she added; "and I needn't care about being +called one. This stuff is all frozen now."</p> + +<p>"I'll tell Miss Delight," said Sarah. "I don't know whether she wants +you to carry it to Jessie now or not."</p> + +<p>"Miss Delight," she asked, going to the door of the breakfast-room, +"the milk porridge is frozen. Shall Philly carry it over directly?"</p> + +<p>"I will see," replied Aunt Delight, coming into the kitchen. She +examined the contents of the freezer and put them into a small tin +pail, which she set into another larger pail. She then packed the +outside pail full of finely-powdered ice, and sprinkled in a little +salt.</p> + +<p>"Now, Lolla," said she, "I want you to put on your things and carry +this over to Jessie directly, that she may have it for her dinner. The +sun is clouded over, and you can keep in the shade nearly all the way. +When you come back, stop at the shop and bring me half a dozen lemons."</p> + +<p>"What is Philly going to do?" asked Lolla.</p> + +<p>"She is going to be busy at home. Don't waste any time. You can leave +the pails, and tell Jessie to have them set in the cellar."</p> + +<p>Lolla set out on her errand in no very good humour. She had hoped +when she saw the freezer that she was going to have ice-cream for her +dinner; and it was a great disappointment to find that Philly was only +making something for poor Jessie.</p> + +<p>Lolla was growing more and more fond of eating every day. She cared a +great deal more for nice things than she used to do at home, where no +one objected to her eating them every day and all day long. The fact +of being obliged to indulge her appetite in secret gave a zest to her +stolen feasts,—literally stolen, many times, I am sorry to say; for +she fell more and more into the habit of pilfering from the pantry and +from the store-room at every opportunity. She had heretofore been so +sly and careful that Sarah had not been able to detect her in the act; +but she was growing bolder every day. Nor was this the worst of it. She +had spent all the money she had brought from home upon ginger-cakes, +raisins, and other things of the kind. She could hardly believe it when +she found her purse empty, and in her heart she accused some one of +having robbed her; but, however that might be, it was all gone.</p> + +<p>It was a fault of Miss Delight's that she was rather careless of money. +She was somewhat apt to leave her purse in her work-box or on her desk; +and she had a habit of keeping loose pennies and small change in the +corner of drawers and on the edges of shelves. Sarah often remonstrated +with her about the matter, especially since Philly came to live at the +cottage,—and Miss Delight had been more careful for a time; but, as her +confidence in the child's honesty became established, she gradually +fell into her old habits.</p> + +<p>It was with fear and trembling that Lolla first took to herself a penny +to spend in molasses-candy; but, as she was not discovered, she grew +bolder; and now it was a regular thing for her to look-out for the +waifs and strays from her aunt's purse. At that very time she had five +cents in her pocket which she was intending to spend at the store.</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<h3><a id="Chapter_6">CHAPTER VI.</a></h3> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>THE CONSEQUENCE.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>LOLLA walked along under the trees, feeling rather fretful and +dissatisfied, though she could not exactly tell why. She fancied the +pail grew heavier every minute.</p> + +<p>"I wonder if that cover is on tight?" said she to herself. "It wouldn't +be very nice for the ice and salt to get into the porridge, or whatever +it is. I don't believe it will be good, anyway, when it gets there. It +will be all melted."</p> + +<p>There are many low stone walls in the village of Dorchester, which are +very nice to sit down upon, especially when, as it often happens, there +is a large elm-tree exactly in the right place to keep off the sun. +Lolla found just such a place in the retired lane through which she was +passing, and sat down for a rest. She looked this way and that, and, +seeing nobody, she pulled off the cover of the small pail.</p> + +<p>The frozen milk porridge looked very nice and inviting, and Lolla could +not resist the temptation.</p> + +<p>"Nobody will know if I just taste it," said she.</p> + +<p>She had no spoon; but gluttons are not apt to be nice. She put in her +finger, and, scooping up a large mouthful, she hastily swallowed it. +It was certainly very nice,—as good as ice-cream; and, almost without +thinking, Lolla took another mouthful.</p> + +<p>When I was a little girl and used to gather raspberries, I used to +make it a rule not to taste one till I had gathered all that I wanted +to take home; because I found by experience that it was much easier +not to eat the first raspberry than it was not to eat the second. +Lolla discovered the same thing with regard to the iced porridge. +Having begun, she found it hard to leave off. She took mouthful after +mouthful, intending that every one should be the last. Meantime, the +warm air was rapidly melting the porridge, and making it run together +as fast as she took it out: so that she did not discover what havoc she +was making, till a deeper dig than usual uncovered the bottom of the +pail. She was frightened to see that there was not a teacupful left. +Then, indeed, she wished she had let it alone.</p> + +<p>"What shall I do now?" said she to herself. "There is no use in +carrying that little bit to Jessie. She will know that aunt never sent +such a small parcel as that; and, besides, the side of the pail shows +how much there was in the first, place. Hateful stuff! I wish I never +had seen it! Aunt ought to have sent Philly with it. But I may as well +eat the rest, now that I have begun; and then what shall I do with the +pails? Aunt told me to leave them there at Jessie's; and if I bring +them back, she will surely suspect something. Oh, what shall I do?"</p> + +<p>Lolla thought and thought, but could come to no conclusion. At last, +however, she hid the two empty pails among some weeds and brambles in a +corner of the wall, and turned into the street that led to the store.</p> + +<p>"My aunt wants you to send her seven lemons," said she to the shop-man; +"and I want five cents' worth of nice raisins."</p> + +<p>The lemons were done up in a parcel, and the raisins put into Lolla's +pocket, from which they were soon transferred to her mouth. Then she +undid the parcel, and took out the odd lemon, taking care to select the +largest. She had fully intended to keep it for home consumption; but +the smell was too inviting, and presently she found herself sucking it +as she walked along.</p> + +<p>Lolla's stomach had been long accustomed to excesses; but a handful +of raisins and the juice of a lemon upon the top of more than a pint +of frozen milk was more than it could endure. Before she reached the +cottage, Lolla found herself feeling very ill. Her head was dizzy, and +she had a strange pain, as though she had swallowed some hot coals. She +had hardly strength to open the gate; and it seemed to her that the +walk which led up to the cottage was a mile long.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Lolla, I am glad you have come. Guess what we are going to have +for dinner! Beautiful raspberry ice-cream! I froze it myself, after you +went away. But what is the matter?" cried Philly, in alarm, as Lolla +dropped on the nearest seat. "Oh, dear! Sarah, come here,—do! Lolla is +dying, I do believe!"</p> + +<p>"Nonsense!" returned Sarah, sharply. "Don't call out like that, child! +Here, Lolla, what is the matter? Why, you do look badly, sure enough! +What have you been doing? Call Miss Delight, Philly, as quick as you +can! She is in the greenhouse."</p> + +<p>Nobody enjoyed the raspberry-cream, or any thing else of the nice +dinner Sarah had provided; for every one had their hands full with +Lolla. Miss Delight held her in her arms, or rubbed her convulsed +limbs; Sarah was busy with the bath and with hot mustard-poultices; and +Mr. Locke was gone post-haste for the doctor; for Lolla was in a fit, +and for a good while it seemed rather doubtful whether she would ever +come out of it.</p> + +<p>"Has she eaten any thing more than usual?" asked the doctor.</p> + +<p>"Not that I am aware of," replied Miss Delight. "She was accustomed +at home to eat every thing she took a fancy to, and at all times and +seasons; but I have been careful of her diet since she came to me, and +her health has greatly improved. Latterly, however, she has not seemed +as well; and I have not been able to find out what was the matter."</p> + +<p>Philly heard this conversation, and it threw her into a state of great +perplexity. She felt as though she ought to tell Miss Delight what she +knew about Lolla's habits; and yet she hated the very name of tattling. +At last she did the wisest thing in her power. She asked advice. +Meeting Sarah on the stairs, she repeated to her what she had heard, +and what she herself knew, of Lolla's habits.</p> + +<p>"Do you think I ought to tell Miss Delight?"</p> + +<p>"Of course you ought to tell her," returned Sarah. "It might make all +the difference in the world. Tell her directly; or, if you don't want +to, I will."</p> + +<p>"Oh, do!" said Philly, much relieved by the proposal. "That will be a +great deal the best way."</p> + +<p>It happened, however, that the story told itself, so far as the cause +of Lolla's present illness was concerned.</p> + +<p>"She must have drunk a quantity of milk, and then eaten something sour +on the top of it," said Miss Delight. "But where could she get milk at +this time of day?"</p> + +<p>"I guess she has been eating up Jessie's porridge," said Sarah. "Lolla +is not to be trusted with any thing good to eat. I have been finding +that out this long time, but I have not been quite sure till lately. +But where could she get raisins? There are none in the house."</p> + +<p>"Look in her pocket, and see if there are any more," said Miss Delight.</p> + +<p>There were no raisins in Lolla's pocket; but there were the remains of +the lemon; and now Lolla's sickness was fully accounted for.</p> + +<p>"Now, my little girl, if you can tell me what else you have eaten," +said the doctor, seeing that Lolla was able to speak. "Tell me the +exact truth, that I may know what to do for you."</p> + +<p>"Oh, dear!" sighed Lolla. "I only ate a few raisins."</p> + +<p>"And what else?"</p> + +<p>"And—and—a lemon!"</p> + +<p>"Raisins and a lemon; and what else?"</p> + +<p>"Nothing," said Lolla, sullenly.</p> + +<p>"Where did you get the milk?" asked Miss Delight.</p> + +<p>"I didn't have any milk," said Lolla; and to this story she adhered, +in spite of any thing and every thing that could be said to her. She +was better for a little while; but in an hour or two she was attacked +with illness in another form, and it was not till the next day that +Miss Delight ventured to hope that she might be saved. All this time +her mind was more or less wandering, and, besides, it was absolutely +necessary to keep her quiet: so there was no chance of finding out the +truth.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>The next evening Lolla was somewhat better; but it was many days before +she was pronounced out of danger, and many more before she was able to +leave her room and go about the house again. Meantime, Aunt Delight had +learned from Jessie that Lolla had not been at her house at all, the +day she was taken sick. She tried to make Lolla tell her the truth; but +in vain.</p> + +<p>Lolla would not say a word. If she were questioned, she would begin to +cry, declare that every one hated her and ill-treated her, that Aunt +Delight had carried her away from her dear mother only to abuse her, +and that as soon as she got better she would go to California, if she +had to walk every step of the way. These "tantrums," as Sarah called +them, usually ended in a fit of sickness. At last Miss Delight gave the +matter up in despair.</p> + +<p>When Lolla began to go about the house once more, she found her +position very much changed. No one found fault with her, or alluded in +any way to the affair of the porridge; but she felt herself distrusted +and constantly watched. The store-room was kept locked, and the +sugar-bowl put out of reach. She was never allowed to go outside the +gate by herself, never sent of errands as before; no one asked her for +information about any thing, or paid any attention to her statements.</p> + +<p>All this was disagreeable enough; and, to add to her discomfort, she +found herself restricted to the plainest food, and a very little of +that. If she exceeded in the least, either in quantity or in quality, +she speedily found herself in bed as sick as ever. This was a sad +plight for a little girl who cared for nothing but eating and drinking.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>One evening she was sitting alone in the bay-window of the parlour, +feeling very sad and lonely indeed. Her aunt and Philly had gone to +church; Sarah had gone up to see Jessie, who was now not expected +to live many days: so there was no one at home but herself and Mr. +Locke, who had come in not long before and was sitting on the veranda. +Lolla felt very unhappy. She thought it was because she was sick and +alone, and because every one was unkind to her; but something in her +heart told her that was not all. She thought of her dear father and +mother, so many, many miles away, and remembered how kind and indulgent +they had always been to her, and how often she had been undutiful to +them. She thought how pleased she had been with the idea of coming to +Dorchester, and how happy she had been for the first few weeks after +her arrival, and how different it all was at present. She did not feel +like having a "tantrum," but she put her head down on the end of the +couch, and cried, quietly, but very bitterly.</p> + +<p>"What is the matter, Lolla?" said a gentle voice. Mr. Locke had come +silently into the parlour and taken a seat beside her. "What is the +matter, Lolla?" he repeated. "What makes you cry?"</p> + +<p>"Because I am so very, very unhappy!" sobbed Lolla.</p> + +<p>"And what makes you unhappy?"</p> + +<p>"A great many things."</p> + +<p>"Well, tell me some of these things. Perhaps I can help you to get rid +of them. What makes you unhappy just now, for instance?"</p> + +<p>"Because I am sick, for one thing," replied Lolla.</p> + +<p>"Well, it is very sad to be sick; but sickness does not always make +people unhappy. Jessie is very sick. She suffers far more than you +do or can; and she will never be any better. I do not think she can +live more than a few days; but she is not unhappy. She told me this +afternoon that her heart was full of peace and joy; and I am sure her +face shows it."</p> + +<p>"Then I am so lonely, with my father and mother away."</p> + +<p>"That is sad, too; but, Lolla, Philly's father and mother are both +dead. She has not a friend or relation in the world out of this house; +and she is not unhappy. You yourself, when you first came here, were as +merry as the day was long."</p> + +<p>"It was very different then; and that is one trouble," said Lolla. +"Every one was good to me then, and liked me; and now nobody likes me, +or believes a word that I say: and Aunt Delight is as different as can +be."</p> + +<p>"What do you suppose has made the difference in her?" asked Mr. Locke.</p> + +<p>Lolla hung her head, but, somehow, she felt as if she must answer even +in spite of herself. At last she stammered out,—</p> + +<p>"I suppose it is because I was so naughty."</p> + +<p>"Ah, that indeed! I should not wonder if we had now got at the root of +the whole matter. How were you naughty, Lolla?"</p> + +<p>Lolla would not answer.</p> + +<p>"But even the fact of your having been naughty need not of itself make +you unhappy," continued Mr. Locke. "I have known many persons who had +done very wrong things in their lives, and were nevertheless very happy +afterwards. We read of the Apostle Paul persecuting the Christian +church and helping at the murder of the martyr Stephen, and many of his +converts at Philippi had been very wicked people: yet Paul was far from +being an unhappy man amid all his trials, and he tells the Philippians +to 'rejoice evermore,' to 'rejoice in the Lord always.' I don't think +we have got at it quite yet, Lolla."</p> + +<p>"Well, I don't understand," said Lolla, interested in spite of herself. +"I thought when people were wicked they always had to be unhappy."</p> + +<p>"And you are quite right, my child. As long as you 'are' naughty, +you must needs be miserable; but you need not be miserable because +you 'have been' naughty. That is quite another thing. As long as the +Philippians continued to be wicked and unbelieving, there would be no +use in telling them to rejoice; but they had seen their sin, repented +of it and confessed it, and turned with their whole heart to God, and +therefore they were happy even in the midst of trials such as we know +nothing about. Now do you understand?"</p> + +<p>"It don't seem as if I could do any different," said Lolla, after a +pause, and speaking earnestly. "I think sometimes I will tell aunt all +about it; but, then, I can't, somehow. Oh, dear! I don't know what to +do!" And again Lolla put down her head, and cried bitterly.</p> + +<p>"Lolla," said Mr. Locke, putting his hand upon her head, "there is one +wrong thing you can help directly. Tell me, now: have you asked God to +help you at these times?"</p> + +<p>"No," replied Lolla. "I did not think it would be of any use. I have +been so naughty."</p> + +<p>"If we could not ask God to help us when we were wicked, we should +remain wicked forever," said Mr. Locke,—"since nothing is more certain +than that we can never make ourselves good without his help. He did not +wait for that when he sent his Son to die for us.</p> + +<p>"'God commended his love to us, in that while we were yet sinners, +Christ died for us.'"</p> + +<p>"Would he really help me, do you think, if I asked him now?—Really and +truly?" asked Lolla, in a reverent whisper.</p> + +<p>"Yes: if you are honest in desiring it, I am sure that he will."</p> + +<p>"How do you know?" asked Lolla. "Is it in the Bible?"</p> + +<p>"It is in the Bible; and I know by my own experience, because he has so +often helped me. He has enabled me to do things which I could no more +have done by myself than I can fly to that bright star up yonder. But, +Lolla, do you really want God to help you to be good?"</p> + +<p>"I really and truly do, Mr. Locke," replied Lolla; "but I don't believe +I can," she added, despairingly. "I have thought a great many nights +that I would tell Aunt Delight the very first thing in the morning; and +when morning came it was just as hard as ever."</p> + +<p>"Ah! There was another mistake. You should have told her that very +moment, and not have waited till morning. But, Lolla, there is some one +else you should tell first,—some one against whom you have sinned more +sorely than against your aunt. Think how you have displeased Him. There +is nothing God hates more than a lie,—nothing which he will punish more +severely if the liar does not repent. Yet he has spared your life. He +would not let you die in your sin, but gives you a chance to repent and +be forgiven. You must confess to him first, before you can ask him to +forgive and help you.</p> + +<p>"'If I regard iniquity in my heart, the Lord will not hear me.'</p> + +<p>"'If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not +in us; but if we confess our sins, God is faithful and just to forgive +us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.'</p> + +<p>"God will not only forgive the sin, but he will take it away. He will +wash it out, and make your soul clean and pure. Lolla, shall we ask him +to do so?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, please," whispered Lolla.</p> + +<p>Mr. Locke knelt down with Lolla in the recess of the window, and, in +a short prayer which she could understand, he asked God to forgive +her, to make her a better girl, and especially to give her strength to +confess to her aunt.</p> + +<p>"Now, Lolla, you must act for yourself," said Mr. Locke. "God has given +you the strength, and you must use it. Don't wait a moment. There is +your aunt coming in now. Shall I make a beginning for you?" he added, +seeing that Lolla was embarrassed.</p> + +<p>"Please do," said Lolla.</p> + +<p>"Lolla has something to tell you, Miss Delight," said Mr. Locke, as +Aunt Delight came into the parlour. "She has made up her mind to tell +you what made her sick."</p> + +<p>Before Lolla went to bed that night, she had told her aunt the whole +story, and had received her forgiveness. When she awoke the next +morning, her head ached and her eyes were heavy, but her heart was +lighter than it had been for many a day.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>All that summer and fall Lolla was very delicate. She was reaping +the fruits of her long course of greediness and indulgence; and the +doctor said it would probably be a great while before she would be well +again. She could eat only the simplest food,—not a particle of fruit or +pastry, and the least indulgence was sure to make her sick for several +days.</p> + +<p>In one way this was an advantage to Lolla. She lost the habit of +wanting to eat at all times and seasons, and she learned to find her +pleasure in other ways. She could not run about a great deal; and this +forced her to turn for amusement to her books and her needle,—means of +employment which she had always disliked and never touched except as +tasks. She grew very fond of reading, and so skilful with her needle +that she was able to give her aunt a great deal of help in her labour +in the sewing-school.</p> + +<p>Lolla's stay in Dorchester was prolonged from year to year, and now she +was a great girl, fifteen years old, well-educated for her age, able to +make her own clothes and cook her own breakfast and dinner.</p> + +<p>She went to her new home in California, a useful, amiable, sensible +girl, prepared to be a comfort to her parents, a pleasant companion as +well as a useful example and teacher to the two little brothers she had +never seen, and, better than all, a beautiful fruit-bearing branch of +that true vine of which God is the husbandman, and Christ the stock, +and all true Christians living members. There is nothing of the "little +pig" left about her.</p> + +<p>Aunt Delight still lives in her cottage at Dorchester. She is an old +woman, if one counts by years, but her heart is as young and her mind +as bright as ever. She keeps her old servant Sarah, and Philly, now +a tall, useful girl, and she has a pleasant companion in a soldier's +widow, the daughter of a "far-away cousin," who has no other home.</p> + +<p>Mr. Locke is away in Asia, teaching the word of God among the Japanese. +Lolla often hears from him. She thinks sometimes she should like to go +too; but she has work enough at home to keep her fully employed for +the present. Her mother's health is very delicate, and Lolla is nurse, +housekeeper, teacher, and lady of the house, all in one: so she does +the duty nearest to her, and trusts to God to give her the desire of +her heart, if it is best for her to have it, or to make her contented +without it, if he sees best to deny.</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<div style='text-align:center'>*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 75955 ***</div> +</body> +</html> + diff --git a/75955-h/images/image001.jpg b/75955-h/images/image001.jpg Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..337dda2 --- /dev/null +++ b/75955-h/images/image001.jpg diff --git a/75955-h/images/image002.jpg b/75955-h/images/image002.jpg Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..2b4d33f --- /dev/null +++ b/75955-h/images/image002.jpg diff --git a/LICENSE.txt b/LICENSE.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..b5dba15 --- /dev/null +++ b/LICENSE.txt @@ -0,0 +1,11 @@ +This book, including all associated images, markup, improvements, +metadata, and any other content or labor, has been confirmed to be +in the PUBLIC DOMAIN IN THE UNITED STATES. + +Procedures for determining public domain status are described in +the "Copyright How-To" at https://www.gutenberg.org. + +No investigation has been made concerning possible copyrights in +jurisdictions other than the United States. 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